Just wanted to thank the admins and mods for adding this forum. I was not abused while in the U.S. Air Force, but rather during my adolescent years. However, I was inclined to act out during my military years. The living conditions in the dorms led to some interesting and triggering experiences. I think this will be a great resource for us here.

Peace,

John

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Wish that I could cryFall upon my kneesFind a way to lieAbout a home Iíll never see

It may sound absurd...but donít be naiveEven heroes have the right to bleedI may be disturbed...but wonít you concedeEven heroes have the right to dreamItís not easy to be me

Fissy,I understand the trippers with all the males in close quarters. I never dreamed of acting on my feelings; not 'cause I show a great deal of restraint; but I had the impression we were fed salt peter; never got a boner, but I filled sheets and sheets of my wet dreams! One day we were told a guy just got caught beating himself off in the bathroom. I asked another "How in the hell could he do that?" "What do you mean?" he asked, "Well all the salt peter they put in our food!" "Who told you that!" he insisted. "There's no salt peter in our food!" "Boy, did they full me!" I said. I still was under the influence of salt peter in my food somehow, lucky for me, no boners at all in the service!!! I can be fouled easily. dropping the soap was safe there. I did have so many wet dreams I could have fathered a small city. Now you all realize how stupid I am!!!!Salt Peter Don

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The me that nobody knows!Did you replace me with a younger Boy?Does he bend,squat, beat,say Awwww as well as me?I still love you & miss you.My Perb referred to me as his'Dirty 'lil Boy','cause I allowed him to bang on me anywhere, anytime."Bend over you Dirty Boy;we know you can take it!"

Ya, well they had me sink, line and pee pee! I NEVER had an erection while in the Service! Being molested a lot, passed around along with my younger brother having men on top of both of us for several days, having older teens attack me, I began to wonder if I had sign on my back 'Come F(&*k me!' I did not know why I was always attacked. My wife says I am too cute; but I think she's just jiven me! She also has been molesting me. Why do I always end up on the bottom of the pile? I mean why?Keep the faith and tell your story,Don

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The me that nobody knows!Did you replace me with a younger Boy?Does he bend,squat, beat,say Awwww as well as me?I still love you & miss you.My Perb referred to me as his'Dirty 'lil Boy','cause I allowed him to bang on me anywhere, anytime."Bend over you Dirty Boy;we know you can take it!"

Where? In another thread? I promise not to judge, just guide you, possibly receive Compensation for your Injuries while in Service.If you don't let me know, I will be forced to start telling you some of my war stories. ...they ain't pretty!Talk to me,Don

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The me that nobody knows!Did you replace me with a younger Boy?Does he bend,squat, beat,say Awwww as well as me?I still love you & miss you.My Perb referred to me as his'Dirty 'lil Boy','cause I allowed him to bang on me anywhere, anytime."Bend over you Dirty Boy;we know you can take it!"

Hehehe...I was in during the 80's; I never heard anything about salt peter, but my father (a WWII vet) has told me about it. I'm afraid I didn't share your problem. In fact, I'll never forget the time my roommate caught me wanking; OMG, I wanted to die then and there. Somehow, life went on like nothing had happened. I always felt I was weird, disgusting, whatever. I couldn't wrap my mind around the fact that something like masturbating was "normal" and that it wouldn't tip my roommate off to my past. I was sure that experience marked me and he'd tell everyone on base I was a perv. Anywho...

Peace,

John

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Wish that I could cryFall upon my kneesFind a way to lieAbout a home Iíll never see

It may sound absurd...but donít be naiveEven heroes have the right to bleedI may be disturbed...but wonít you concedeEven heroes have the right to dreamItís not easy to be me

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