This beautiful spectacle of white, black and all the facets of grey let me remember the time when I was a child and watched my dad developing his photographs. I can still smell the acid and see them hanging on our drying line over the bathtub.

But where are the nudes you might ask. I’m experiencing that to focus on only one theme – that’s not playful enough for my creativity to unfold. And as said in the last post now I need something new to be really present and break old patterns.

After a long while you get to see my second finished work in 2018. What happend in the time inbetween? My head wanted to continue the paintings for the calendar ‘Immersion’ but my heart didn’t want to draw on so little pieces of paper with acrylic. So I started with a much larger canvas and at the beginning I enjoyed the progress but this also fizzled. And I experienced that so many times.

But now I can see more clearly why my art’s flow stopped. I wanted to make something for others, I wanted to get good reviews and I did what I was used to. But my heart is tired of that motives. I have to let go of them and discover pryingly what really wants to come up in each moment. Then fun comes back and it’s for my own at first, my experience.

So on Thursday I had another arty session with Sue from Sue Blackpenart and I’m so glad for her help. We reflected on what my creativity needs for it’s flow. And there it was: Indian ink! The sheets of paper got their black really fast, with brush and sponge, spray bottle and much water. There was no space for thinking but for radical presence, for me and the ink. A few lines with graphite pen on top – finished.

So this art is no work in my language, it’s a visualized dance. More dance, more freedom, more peace.

I’m so happy that my art’s progress is going on and I can show you my first piece drawn in 2018. It’s the first picture for the calendar ‘Immersion’ I’m designing for my parents – so it’s January’s swimming start.