Sunday, January 17, 2010

Right Now.

I keep thinking he isn't going to go...I'm a dreamer, I don't always like to believe in the truth {which can sometimes be a horrible trait...believe me when I tell you this...}.

I've been so busy with the girls. And the house. And Leo's family is here.

So it's nice. Busy. Full house.

But I'm really afraid for when he leaves. Then they leave.

My house is going to be so quiet.

Silent.

With the exception of tantrums, screaming, crying, etc.

And hopefully a sprinkling of laughter, happiness, singing.

I have a lot planned for the girls and I. Parks. Bouncey place. Picnics. Sleepover in Mommy's room. Crafts.

I also have a ton of giveaways that will be written and posted. That will take up a lot of time.

I guess I'm just going back in my memory to when Leo was deployed to Iraq. I lost so much weight. I was so lonely. So sad. So depressed. I'm so thankful I have Bella and Maddie now. They will be my reason to get up each and every day.

To laugh.

To love.

To be happy.

Right now.

Mind racing a million ways.

Heart is aching.

Plans are being made.

Happiness will continue.

I will be a better Mommy just knowing I have support from so many amazing family friends...

16 comments:

Wow, Chelle! Please tell your husband thank you for me ;-) What an awesome sacrifice he is making for his country. You sound ready and prepared for the wait. I can't even imagine how hard it will be. But, at least you have your girls for support and smiles! xoxo

My heart just breaks for you. I swear I wish nothing more than a safe journey for him. He is an amazing person to do something like that and you are so lucky to have someone like that in your life. Please stay strong for him, your kids and yourself. I wish nothing but the best of everything for you and your family. Lot's and lot's of hugs xo

Oh Chelle... I am crying for you! Growing up in a military family, I have been through deployments and know how hard they are. Just know that I am thinking of you and keeping you and Leo and the girls in my thoughts and prayers. I might not be there where you are, but I am supporting you from hundred of miles away :)

Chelle, you're so strong. I feel your worry and pain about having an 'empty' house - being alone all day and night with your kids, it won't be the easiest thing in the world, but you'll rock it, I know it. Your 2 little darling girls are your life, and you'll have so much fun and make their daddy proud - and when he gets back the HUGS!!!! Stay happy and positive - your husband is a hero, you're a fabulous mom and your girls have great parents! And of course we'll be here for you to complain on the days when you're so tired, and filled with anxiety. We're here for you!