i am a very vivid dreamer. i dream nightly and have instant recall of what it was exactly i was dreaming about.

some of it has been regarding my past, some of it, perhaps my future, i don't really know. some of it, quite horrific. in fact, i could probably give stephen king a run for his money.

it started about four years ago, when i had major surgery and shortly thereafter, started dreaming extremely vividly and they were what you would call *night terrors* night after night i'd wake up, drenched, screaming or crying aloud. my doctor told me that it could actually have been a severe *toxic* reaction to the anesthesia. he recommended a more organic route and suggested i go use milk thistle (which cleanses the liver) and other supplements that would increase my seratonin level.

that sort of worked. then it got to the point i was put on antidepressants to further raise my levels and it had the opposite affect as far as my dreams were concerned - they got more vivid than ever before, i dream in color, i remember all of them when i awake and with God's grace and mercy, by mid-day, they have all but been forgotten about.

another odd thing about myself i am going to reveal here is i have *flashes* about people. it sounds wierd, it is wierd, it's even strange writing it out, but i see people who i have never met and i get a revelation about them that could or could not be true...i've never approached someone and asked them if what i was *receiving* was true or not - they'd be floored over some of my *revelations.* please tell me i am not alone in this.

i dreamt last night about my former sister-in-law, who at one point was one of my best friends. it was so real, so natural that this morning i had an inclination to reach out for her. it's been several years since i've seen or spoken to her. i feel really compelled to seek her out, but how ridiculous is that notion?

i am kind of going on and on, but it's all jumbled in my head and all relevant or not to my spirituality. oftentimes, when i get these *flashes* i am compelled to pray for that person. same if i have dreamt of someone who has not even crossed my mind in years. chances are also really good that i will run into my sister-in-law (which has happened to me before, too...)

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St. Paul, to the Thessalonians

But you, brothers and sisters, are not in darkness, for that day to overtake you like a thief.For all of you are children of the light and children of the day.We are not of the night or of darkness.Therefore, let us not sleep as the rest do,but let us stay alert and sober.

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Knitting is very conducive to thought. It is nice to knit a while, put down the needles, write a while, then take up the sock again.

Dorothy Day

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It was not in me.It moved in and out.When I dared to stop it, the wine won out.(What it was, I no longer remember.)The wine then offeredthis and offered that,till I became dependent on him.

I, fool!

~~Rainer Maria Rilke

thought for today

"We are all in the gutter. Some of us are looking at the stars."

Oscar Wilde

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"Don't call me a saint. I don't want to be dismissed so easily."

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batman philosophy

Robin: "Boy! That was our closest call ever! I have to admit that I was pretty scared!"Batman: "I wasn't scared in the least."Robin: "Not at all?"Batman: "Haven't you noticed how we always escape the vicious ensnarements of our enemies?"Robin: "Yeah, because we're smarter than they are!"Batman: "I like to think it's because our hearts are pure."