This blog is solely written to convey the many thoughts and feelings I, Alicia Marie, experience throughout my day to day life. Along the way, I hope to bring my readers something they can relate to. My purpose is to make people smile, and to cry (tears of joy, that is), and to make them feel like they're not alone in this world.

Monday, January 14, 2013

Parenthood

For 2 years, 5
months, 3 weeks, and 5 days, I’ve tried to control something I never had
control over in the first place. Trying
to have a baby, as I’ve often mentioned, took over my life. I tried to control my body, but as I’ve sadly
had to learn, my body is just as stubborn as I am, and it doesn’t take commands
very well. I finally had to learn to let
go of the selfishness of wanting to have my own baby (I’ll blog about that
soon), and I had to let God open my eyes to the other door that He has opened
for us.

So, that other door
I just mentioned? Yeah, about that…let
me explain. After Luke and I exhausted
every ounce of money we could come up with, without getting a loan, to pay for
infertility medicines and doctor appointments, we’ve decided to pursue
parenthood via a different route.

We’re going to be
foster parents.

Today, Luke and I
are beginning this new journey knowing that we’ve got a long road ahead of
us. Fostering won’t be easy. Many of the children that are being pushed
around in the foster care system come from very tough situations, and many
children have behavioral and even development problems. We’re well aware that we could parent children
for a year or more and then have them reunited with their parents, but we know
reunification is the goal of fostering, and we’ll deal with that when the time
comes.

But, in the
meantime, we’re so excited to start this new journey. Tonight we have our first Foster Care
class. The classes are on Monday nights
from 6:00-9:00PM, and they last for 10 weeks.
So, if all our paperwork and home-study gets approved the way it should
(I mean, we’ve never been arrested and we don’t live in a cardboard box), we
will be licensed on March 18, 2013 which means we can finally be parents. (I tear up just thinking about it!)

The road to
becoming parents has been a long one filled with heartache and lots of tears,
but I’m so thankful (no matter how painful it has been) that I had to go
through everything. Yes, I wish that we
could have been able to bring home the two babies we lost along the way to
parenthood, but even through the loss, I’ve learned so much (I’ll blog about
that soon, too!).

I want to say a
huge thank you to everyone for your kind words, thoughts, and prayers over the
last few years. I sincerely hope that
you’ll continue to follow my journey to motherhood via fostering to adopt.

I'm so glad you guys have chosen this path, it truely takes a calling and I know you will bless a childs life by caring for them! I'm sure it won't make the losses any easier but it will certainly give you new hope.

I'm sooo excited for you! What a beautiful decision! I cannot wait to watch this journey unfold, and finally see you and Luke be parents! And yaknow, something tells me that you will have a baby or 2 of your own one day too. Big congrats to you both!

So excited for you! The road may be hard, but you have such a beautiful, caring heart and will make a great foster parent (not to mention FULL parent someday!). Many prayers as you embark on this journey.

About Me

I'm a 24 years old foster mom to three kiddos ages 3 and under. Not too long ago I felt that I knew what life was going to be like. I would have a full time job, 2 kids, a house, and two dogs. Like most things in life, we do not always get what we dream of, but I can say that I have been given more than I could ever imagine for myself. I'm here to share my experiences--the good, the bad, and the ugly--and in turn I hope to inspire you and bring hope to your life.