One Purge, Two Purge, Three Purge, Four... *trig*

I can't be good enough... I can't feel good enough... I can't be thin or desirable enough... I thought this hell wouldn't come back... thought i'd conquered it...

Does everything in life come full circle? If that's the case, I might as well do myself in now.

I dunno why she bought Oreos. If you're gonna buy something, buy me a fucking college education and a lifetime prescription for the drugs I've been doign, please and thanks. because i almost let him fuck me for drugs.

i'm a couple seconds away from crying and i can't. I can't let the sister see that. She doesn't need to see me break down but fuck I'm going to hurt myself bad if i dont get a handle on this shit.

so terribly stressed out. nowhere to direct it.

nowhere at all. and no one seems to notice for some reason. no one anywhere. i used to be able to at least call up some friends and theyd hear it in my voice or something.

not that i care. id just like my efforts to count for something. id just like me to count for something.

I do hear you. I know this might not be of much help but I do hear what you're going through. :hug: Do you get any support in terms of counselling or therapy? What's been stressing you out, is there anything specific lately?

ggg456: I used to go to therapy and whatnot but I truthfully cannot be fucked with that anymore. It was twice the headache it should've been (I thought that's part of what it was supposed to lessen? :laugh; it costs lots, it's way too intense and straightforward for comfort, and it's all a crock of bull in my opinion, tbh... just doesn't do anything for some people... especially when said person/people is/are to tired to help themselves first. :mellow:
:hug: I appreciate your response, hun.