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I started this blog to chart my attempts to get all organised in 2017. Oh, the plans I had! The dreams I dreamed! It was all going to be utterly AWESOME!

Yeah.

Didn’t happen.

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I was gonna Anna Paquin the HELL out of 2017! It was my year! I was ready! Yep! Nothing could stop me!

I may have eaten a little bit too much chocolate over the Christmas holidays. I was probably asking for trouble.

It wasn’t long before things got a bit tough.

The Hubster found himself out of work for three months. We survived on my wage as a full-time Teaching Assistant and the last of our savings. And our overdraft.

Work got hard for me. I was working at least as many hours at home, unpaid, as I did at school. I simply couldn’t do my job to my satisfaction within my paid hours. And I’m a bit of a perfectionist, so I didn’t take the advice of EVERYBODY: “You’re a TA, not a teacher, ease up on yourself.”

My 25-hour working week turned into a 50-hour one.

(is there ever any reason NOT to add a Dean Winchester meme in?)

Ouch.

Bujo-ing, blogging, organising came to a standstill.

After breaking down several times in the Deputy Head’s office, I had to reduce my hours. By the time we crashed, exhausted, into the summer holidays, I knew I couldn’t carry on doing the afternoon work I was doing. I was heading down the black hole of frequent and debilitating anxiety attacks.

So in September, I went back to mornings only, and rediscovered my love for the job! Yes, I still do additional unpaid hours, but nothing compared to what I was doing before. I also started working with an amazing coach, but I’ll get to that another time. (She’s incredible. I think she may have saved my life. She certainly saved my sanity, whatever’s left of it.)

So I find myself with a little more time, a lot more energy, and a desire to get writing about my life in this kitchen… (even my computer is out here now!) Who knows, I may even get properly organised!