Tuesday, 28 April 2009

Hey..People i just got my first blog award :D & on this special occassion i would like to thank......................................................Myself simply for blogging :P

On a serious note a very BIGGG thank you to Ms.R who thought i deserve "The Honest Blogger" award :) I really appreciate it !

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Now just to share something with you all I'm going through a really weird day full of mood swings i want to write but when i pick my pen up i just go blank although I'm sure before i sleep tonight i Will have something written even if it's just a few lines,The weather has changed to suit my mood it's raining..But just thinking is that making me feel even more low.

I'm missing my love like mad although he will be with me in 4-5hrs but it's just that thing sometimes you want them with you at the moment even 4-5hrs can kill !Listening to mellow tunes ,one that has been played over & over is Kahin to hogi woh fromJaane tu ya jaane na.

I'm gonna share the lyrics with you all, iv always loved this track ever since i first heard it.It's really really special so here it is for you all :

kahin toh, kahin toh, hogi woh,

duniya jahaan tu mere saath hai,

jahaan main, jahaan tu,

aur jahaan bas tere mere jazbaat hain,

hoti jahaan subah teri,

palkon ki kirnon mein,

lori jahaan chaand ki,

sune teri baahon mein,

jaane na kahaan woh duniya hai..

jane na woh hai bhi ya nahin

jahan meri zindagi mujhse itni khafa nahin

saansein kho gayi hain kiski aanhon mein,

main khogayi hun jane kiski baahon mein,

manzilon se rahein dhundhti chali,

aur kho gayi hai manzil kahin raahon mein

kahin toh, kahin toh, hai nasha,

teri meri har mulaqat mein

hothon se, hothon ko,

chumte rehte hai hum har baat mein

kehti hain fiza jahaan ...meri zameen aasmaan

jahaan hai tu, meri hansi,meri khushi, meri jaaan

jaane na kahaan woh duniya hai

jaane na woh hai bhi ya nahin

jahaan meri zindagi mujhseitni khafa nahin…

Totally love it :) Im lost for words now jus humming the track away.Bye for now.

Thursday, 23 April 2009

After quietly taking short sips of coffee Nikki finally broke the silence to get a conversation started "You know i have moved on now " she said in her soft voice.

But James wasn't ready to accept the fact that she has, he couldn't believe the girl who was once madly in love with him is now loving someone else. Not knowing how to react he held his coffee mug hard.Nikki could see the anger James was hiding inside him.

"But Nikki you promised you'll never stop loving me you assured me it will last forever" He said .

"James you & i both know nothing lasts forever,You were never mine ,you were... & always will be hers" Nikki's voice still had a concern hidden for Jame's.But maybe not the concern James wanted he knew this wasn't his Nikki that was madly in love with him,She had changed which he never wanted.

James was very quiet that evening in the coffee shop, the conversation was cold.When their eye's would meet Nikki would quickly turn away & look at the rest of the couples in the coffee shop.She was being very formal it was clearly visible she was extremely uncomfortable.

"Nikki what is he giving you that i cant? "James asked after a short while.

"James....." She paused, took a sip of coffee & continued " he has given me his entire life which you have already given to someone else,You have loved me when you were married your wife does not deserve that, You shouldn't have dont that & neither should have i , it's my fault as much as it 's yours"

"Then why the hell didn't you think of that before when you were in love with me didn't you feel then ..that I'm cheating on her,didn't you Nikki..how can you bloody change like this all of a sudden ?" James was starting to lose his cool.

"Don't talk to me in that tone,You have no right ! i was stupid then i was foolish i regret it all & what do u mean all of a sudden im married dont you get it." Nikki was getting very upset with the situation but did not want it to get out of control.She was finding it hard to explain to him.

"Look James let me tell you very clearly,Im married now i love my husband & i can't even think of betraying him the way you betrayed your wife.I'm not saying it was all your fault it was mine too for loving you knowing your a married man.I was too naive but now I'm not like that. I can see things clearly.I made a mistake which I'm sorry for you REALLY have to accept the fact i don't love you anymore i love my husband that's it."

James eyes were filled with tears he was totally shocked at the way Nikki spoke to him, It was almost unbearable for him.Although Nikki knew it hurt James, she was feeling relieved after letting go of what was deep in her heart.Both of them remained quiet until the phone rang it was Nikki's husband Rahul "Hey honey,I'll be with you shortly just sitting with James having a coffee. "

"O.k sweetheart , Just come soon miss you " Rahul replied.

"Miss you too" Nikki's voice was filled with so much love for Rahul.

"Your darling husband was it " James asked in a jealous voice

"Yea.....,I guess i should get going now Rahul know's what our past was so i dont want him to feel insecure, which he might if i sit here too long, & we are going for dinner tonight so i really dont want to get late" She hurriedly said.

"Hmm ..Fine go ahead,But remember one thing I'll always love you Nikki " The pain could be heard through James voice

"James...You have said it today don't ever say those words again to me please. I only have one place in my heart & that is for Rahul,He is the only person that has right to say those words to me." She said as she was getting up from her chair.

"Bye James please take care of yourself." Nikki smiled & started to walk away leaving James behind.As she walked further away from the table & out the door James broke down in tear's.Thousands of thoughts were going through his mind his heart was broken like never before.

"Why did this happen to me..?I gave her so much love.Never did wrong to her how could she do this to me!! " He had so many questions in his mind and he would only get one answer "God has broken my heart only because i broke my wife's heart,Maybe it's true love is forbidden onceyour heart already belongs to someone."

P.S I Dont really write much short stories,This just went with the flow & i pretty much enjoyed it . :) Don't know what you guys think of it ..Lemmi know

Friday, 17 April 2009

I read news this morning & when i read this one i was pretty gobsmacked can someone actually do this aswell,So much weird stuff goes on in the world nowadays!last month i read a man jumped into Niagra falls but survived that was bizzare aswell & this was just too much !

A passenger on a charter flight in northern Canada forced open the aircraft's door and leapt to his death, making the freezing cabin depressurise at 23,000ft.

Royal Canadian Mounted Police Staff Sgt Harold Trupish said the incident happened during a flight to Cambridge Bay, a community in western Nunavut.The Adlair Aviation King Air 200 twin-engined turboprop ,was about 110 miles from the Cambridge Bay airport when the man jumped.Staff Sgt Trupish said the pilots reported that the 20-year-old passenger had become unruly and that they were unable to prevent him from jumping.Police are searching for the body of the man, who was not named.Paul Laserich, the airline's general manager said the opened door caused the cabin to depressurise, filling the cockpit with a roar of frigid, Arctic air. He praised the pilot for his quick-thinking decision to land the aircraft."They brought the ship safely back. Everybody is OK. They are a little shaken up. They are OK. That is what is most important," said Mr Laserich.The pilot was said to be too distressed to talk to reporters. (AOL.news)

Recession cant hit a 20yr old that bad can it...?Just wondering what could go so wrong in a 20yr old's life that he took such a drastic step !!

Wednesday, 15 April 2009

I was just reading some funny stuff, came across this so sharing with you guy's enjoy!

Once there were 3 people in an airplane, one took a bite out of an apple. She thought it was too sweet so she threw it out ofthe plane.

The second person took a bite out of a lemon and she thought it was too sour so, she threw it out of the plane.

Then the last person took a bite out of a grenade and he thought it was too crunchy so, he threw it out of the plane.

Then theylanded and decided to go for a walk. They first passed a little girl who was crying and they asked, “little girl, little girl,why are you crying?” and the little girl said, “an apple came down and killed my new kitty”.

Next they passed a little boywho was also crying. And they again asked, “little boy, little boy, why are you crying?” and the little boy said, “a lemon camedown and killed my new puppy.” Then they passed a blonde sitting on the side walk laughing her butt off. They asked, “why are you laughing so hard?” and the blonde said, “I farted and the building behind me blew up!!”

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Tuesday, 14 April 2009

(This is written as a personal view,It does not intend to offend anybody in media or connected with media)

I was just watching news the other day & saw in the headlines "Suzzane roshan bacho ke saath ghar aur Hrithink ko chod ke gayi"OK...she left home with her kids so now this is the media "Hrithik ka uske kites ke co-star Barbara moore se gehre rishtey aur kareebi wajah hai ke suzzane ko apne bacho ke saath ghar chodna pada"And you can just imagine the rest how much masala the news actually had.I felt so irritated yet continued to watch to see what extent these media guys go to.And what totally sucks is when they repeat one thing over & over & show it still e.g"Hrithik ki shaadi aise mode pe hai jo tootne waali hai.STILL.tootne waali hai"(U know how they do in these saas bahu serials Arghhh !!!)

The media nowadays are really losing it making a huge issue out of small things,We know they are celebs but they get treated as though they are not humans but from another species !!Every little thing that they do or that happens to them is breaking news..Why..?I mean i know one thing we really are not short of news in the world ,there's worrying issues all over despite that we still get to see weird news ..

Oh & just in case ur wondering if Suzzane has really left home then yes she has but the reason is.."Suzanne had to shift out of their flat last week with the two kids as their ceiling is undergoing anti-termite treatment. The kids can't stay at home while the treatment is going on so Suzanne is staying at her mom's place. Suzanne should be back home in a couple of days when work gets over," says Hrithik’s sister Sunaina.

And not like Suzzane stayed quiet over the issue either here is her take,“Hrithik and I are very upset with the story of our so-called split. Nobody can break my marriage with Hrithik. We are together. Our relationship is very strong. Hrithik is with me in my parents’ home. I don’t know where this rumour originated. When I tell Barbara what happened we will have a good laugh together. We are all friends and she has come to our home many times.”

There u go ..simple reason & the media speculates & claims that a happy married couple are breaking up!

If i walk out the door today & shift in another place while my husband is away it's not going to be breaking news & neither will people say my husband is having an affair !Jeez it's pretty harsh on those that are a part of this so called "Breaking news"

Another recent one is the SRK & Aamir issue poor guys came together with other film producer's & distributors to solve an issue yet the media is finding a motive behind it I'm not the only one saying this, here is what Taran Aadarsh had to say..

"I am shocked at the kind of stories a section of the film media cooks up to attract eyeballs, at times. Everyone knows that Aamir and SRK lent their complete and absolute support to the producers/distributors on the multiplex issue. But a section of the media has been discussing: [i] Who delivered a 'better speech', [ii] Who 'looked better', while a few others decided to call it a ‘publicity stunt' [!!!]. It's disgusting!

Aamir and SRK have never stooped so low ever, even when they needed hits to cement their status as superstars. One can vouch for Aamir, SRK, even Hrithik, Saif and Shahid; they'd never pull a stunt to stay in limelight or plug their new release. You can accuse a few top actors of doing so, not them.

Also, why are we forgetting that both Aamir and SRK are producers as well and this solidarity was a step in the right direction?A section of the media loves to hallucinate at times. Had Aamir and SRK stayed away from this issue, the same media would've flogged them for not siding with their brethren. Now that they've rightfully stood by the producers/distributors, it's being described as a 'publicity stunt'.A few people also feel that the actors haven't buried their differences, despite the show of solidarity last week. Chalo, maan lo, even if they do have differences over certain issues, when did they ever proclaim that they would swear by each other henceforth? The fact is, they came together for a cause and we should genuinely appreciate the effort.It's about time the media gets its act right!"(Source Bollywoodhungama.com) Well he just said it all for me didn't he.They(Celebs)try to do something good but someone has to find a masala story for it & what do we get a nice masala story for breaking news!that is usually totally untrue..U can NEVER trust media when it comes to celebs that's for sure!

And whats more appalling is that we the public have such a huge interest in it that all the masala writers get persuaded to work harder to come up with another lie !!This was just 2 examples,I can go on all night with more & dead sure u guys can join me as well coz we've all seen it !

Another thing is bollywood is deff on the heavier side of the scale when it comes to breaking news,You wont find it on American or British breaking news that "Angelina Jolie slaps Bradd Pitt over nanny back massage" I'm not saying it didn't make news it did but in the right place in a celeb gossip show or magazine.

So what our Indian media need to learn is bollywood does have its place but... on talk shows magazines etc(that too learn to not exaggerate on issues!).But on news to show such silly things is pathetic especially if you show it as though the world has just fallen apart.Come on people get a life India is huge & unfortunately under going some really bad stuff that common people should be aware of !!

Sunday, 12 April 2009

Love has always been extremely confusing...& for some reason i find myself writing about love even when i don't want to.Something i wrote a long time back about love & the fear many hold of expressing either because..they know the one they love belongs to another..or simply the fear of rejection.And sometimes despite showing love..they fear to express the depth of it..maybe because..they fear the love they have will be taken for granted or not appreciated ...i dunno..,

Sometimes even before letting love come through the door ...we reject it with fear of losing..but i believe..in gaining & losing at least you have the pleasure of gaining maybe for a short while but you still have it.. & it gives you a chance to say "I once had someone who loved me" rather than saying "Iv never had anyone who loved me"..So i say if love comes your way don't reject it.. that just reminds me of a few lines by Mr Javed Akhtar sang by Sonu Nigam "Chahe jo tumhein poore dil se..Milta hai woh mushkil se..Aisa jo koi kahi hai..Bass wohi sabse haseen hai..Uss haath ko tum thaam lo..Woh mehrabaan kal ho na ho"A lovers mind holds so many unanswered questions...& many unasked answer's...The mystery of love i believe will go on till...The end of time,So let yourself free...into the world of loves mystery.

Saturday, 11 April 2009

Just sharing a piece of poetry with you that i wrote a few months ago i dont know what made me write it but i just picked up the pen & by the end of it this is what was left on the paper i didn feel the need to make any changes i just left it the way it was.Was going through some of my writings & as i came across this one the thought of sharing with you all came to mind.

Friday, 10 April 2009

I often end up on all these really cool quote websites & go through the quotes & whilst i do i realise I'm really enjoying myself specially reading through life & wisdom quotes they really seem to motivate me in some way or the other & yea i do have a few of my own Will share some of those with you later as well!I totally love reading quotes even at times when im low & lost i'll just open a quotes page & will find myself smiling.try it someday it works..

dunno if you guys feel the same way do let me know.....till then enjoy the quotes below

What everyone wants from life is continuous and genuine happiness.(Baruch Spinoza)

Now that's just so simple & very true right...?

The good life is inspired by love and guided by knowledge.(Bertrand Russell)

hmm..i guess so

I love my past. I love my present. I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad because I have it no longer.(Colette)

Now this is the attitude everyone needs trust me the world will be a happier place!

Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed.(Corita Kent)

So true.."Flowers grow out of dark moments"There's so much being said just through that it all depends on how we see it.

Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive.(Elbert Hubbard)

If anyone needs to learn from this one then it definitely myself,Seems like it was written just for me.lol!

That it will never come again is what makes life so sweet.(Emily Dickinson)

Now this one is nice but not nice at the same time it makes me realise i can never relive my spacial moments again,i mean i know i cant but this just says it out to me like "Hello...its gone u ain't having it back again" u get me ?

Im gonna leave it till here for now.will share more very soon ..till then keep reading.

Thursday, 9 April 2009

Talking about myself isn't so hard & i can just go on & on ...lol kidding.

My name is Fatima i was born on 4Th June 1988 which makes me a Gemini & yep 20yrs old.Born & bought up in West Yorkshire England my roots belong to India & honestly speaking my heart belongs there too.I totally love my motherland you might come to know later maybe how much i really love India.

I'm very friendly understanding & caring soft hearted...well that's what my close ones say...oh yea & a few of them say i talk a lot!I've always been told since childhood that i think & act older than my age which i probably am starting to agree with now :). That's why i think i got married early.yep... don't get shocked I'm married...i got married last year in March(2008) & to be very honest my husband is one of the best friends i have. so...touchwood I'm very happy lucky & grateful to Almighty for giving me such a lovelly soulmate.

I love to write & read poetry which you probably have read in the introduction page i surf the net read books like to watch movies,i watch football every now & then with my brothers & my husband incase your wondering who i support then im a Liverpool fan..:) .

Can be a bit of a philosopher sometimes but i do just share it all with close friends.Then again i guess we all seem to have our own philosophies towards life so nothing bad in that.

Umm...thats about it really rest i guess you will come to know through the posts.Oh yeah..just one more thing as you know my blog id is fms1988 so just to let you know where that comes from, FMS is my initials & 1988 is my birth year.

Firstly a very warm welcome to my blog.This post is to let you know what this blog is all about & what you can expect when you come here.

Firstly & the main reason for the blog is poetry.I am very dedicated to poetry i love reading & writing poetry hindi & english be it long poems or short quotes & Shayri's im up for it all.

Surprisingly even after my great interest in hindi poetry i dont know how to read hindi script neither can i write,So what i do is simply write hindi words with english script (e.g "Najane Kyun") by the way Najane Kyun is also the name of my first published book it consists of 107 poems in hindi.That was published a few years ago.

I will post some of my favourites from the book & also share new pieces with you along with some of my favourite poetry by others & you can share some of your stuff too.

I also study song lyrics a lot as well so i probably will be posting my favourite songs here along with the lyrics.

Also just so that you & i don't get too bored of poetry(well i never seem to get bored of it) i will be sharing news & gossip with you all i mean we all are aware of the fact that nowadays there is always some bizarre headlines that have various views and opinions so i will be sharing some stuff like that , just to let you know my view & you can obviously let me know what you think of everything.And yea il deff be sharing life experiences thoughts basically anything & everything.

I will give my best to make this place happening & interesting but i cant do it all myself i need you all to give me feedback & comments constantly so i know what you guys think of the place & the things i post here & hopefully we shall be having a great time here.