I met this guy years ago while I was out one summer evening. There was an instant soul recognition, we couldn’t keep our eyes off each other, and we talked all night.

We would have long conversations that were out of this world and had a strong connection that I have never felt before. I had that kind of feeling where you get chills down your spine, a warm wave of energy in your heart and suddenly life seemed nothing short of magical. The sound of his voice put me at ease; I could have listened to him talk for hours.

Everything seemed so vibrant, new and exciting as if I was shaken into living life as it should be filled with love and pure joy. I’d wake up feeling like the world was at my feet, I have never felt happier. Suddenly I knew that all my life I had been settling for average, thinking I knew what love felt like. When I met this man, I knew what love was supposed to be, and it changed me for the better.

The evening that we reunited for the first time since our initial meeting was one of the best nights of my life. When he touched me, I felt a warm energy like electricity, and it filled my body with the most heated energy you can imagine, I got the shivers, I felt complete. My mind was clear and free from thoughts that whole day/night, we went canoeing and drifted all night under the stars until sunset. It was as if time stood still, as if I was somewhere I’d never been before, I was completely in the present moment, my heart was full. The following morning, we parted ways, and that was the last time I would ever see him.

Synchronicities became a part of my daily routine. We were very in sync and would think and feel things at the same time, and signs appeared consistently and would not relent. I also began the process of having a kundalini awakening.

Almost immediately after we hung out things changed, he acted as though I had imagined the whole connection and became detached and moved on to the next girl for a few months and then another and then another. My heart broke, he told me in a straightforward manner that he was not interested and that I need to move on. He went from being a warm and kind person to cold and matter of fact.

Years went by, and we would check in with one and other once in a blue moon. I got a new cell phone number after misplacing my phone and needing to purchase a new one. He contacted my co-worker on LinkedIn who he didn’t know personally and asked her to pass the message along to me that he wanted to re-connect. I called an old number that I had saved for him, and it was still in service!

We talked all night and discussed our twin flame experiences and all the synchronistic events that occurred in our lives since we parted ways. In a sense, it was a confirmation to me that he may be my twin. We even covered the topic of telepathy and how we were able to send and receive messages to one despite living in entirely different geographic areas. Then just as he did before he told me that he was not interested in me, didn’t want a romantic relationship and wasn’t ready for any commitment. He acted as though our conversation was meaningless and that he was merely checking in on an old acquaintance, I felt insignificant to him as if our connection was not as rare as I had thought as if he does this with everyone.

His actions lead me to feel as if I was going crazy, he pulled the carpet from underneath my feet and knocked me down into what seemed like a spiral of self-doubt, questioning my sanity, etc. He knew I suffered a tremendous emotional loss after he initially pulled a vanishing act on me years before, so it seemed rather cruel that he would want to re-connect again only to put me through the same ordeal.

Less than three weeks after our last conversation he was in a committed relationship with a woman he met through work. The signs and synchronicities haven’t left me and continue to keep the wounds fresh. I try to shut them out, but it’s as if they are taunting me to hang on to hope. When they would first occur in the beginning stages, I could stop myself and say that it was silly, and I was in a fantasy world, but when he confirmed that he experienced the same events, it made me realize that what I was experiencing was real.

My rational mind knows this man is unstable, unreliable, and not interested since he comes and goes as he pleases and he controls the dialect and story line. When he wants to talk to me, he does and once we take a step in a positive direction he retreats and acts like I’m nothing to him.

I finally gave up and threw in the towel, and I have committed to letting go, it is one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever made, but he left me with no other option. I wonder if he’s an energy vampire, someone who is also spiritually awake who meets with women and absorbs their energy, gifts, and love to make himself stronger spiritually and then he carries on to the next. Or perhaps in simpler modern terms he needed an ego boost, wanted attention after a breakup or was just bored and needed entertainment.