My God is a big wild God. He loves to blow my mind and I love having my mind blown. My aim is that this blog challenges your thinking, stretches you, shatters religious ideas and drives you to have your own crazy adventures with Him. He is as big and as wild as you'll let Him be.

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

In Jesus

I have been working through some things this week. I'll spare you all the details, lets just say lotta crying going on. I talked to a prophetic friend and one of the things she said was that she saw me in front of the throne wrapped in an indian blanket. As soon as she said it I was there. If you haven't been keeping up with me, I translate to heaven now and then. It was a big deal because I had been crying out, feeling like there was no comforter, no cover, and boom, I'm there and seeing it. Momentary and I'm back in the conversation.

Last night I decided to go back there and get some resolution. Engaging the process of going to heaven happens through the sanctified imagination. God can do His sovereign thing and get you there, my first time was a surprise, but we can also go boldly before the Throne of Grace. You've already been invited. For me, I have to start off with something I can visualize, for instance picking up where I was last time. Starting is usually a little rough, but eventually the daydream takes on a life of its own and when you get surprised, that's when you know you're not making it up.

So I'm back, with my blanket on and I stand up. I held the corners of my blanket in each hand and stretched out my arms
and asked Him to burn up all the junk. I've gotten over my issues with
the consuming fire, I was ready for something to change here, drastic
times you know. He didn't take me up on that offer.

I did get to go
sit with Jesus though, well, I thought "with", but as it turned out,
"in." That's how the scripture goes right? Seated in heavenly places
IN Christ Jesus? I never knew how that worked before. You just sit
down and merge. I was sitting like you would sit on someone's lap,
expect instead of on top, I just assimilated in. And that was new, so I
spent some time moving in and out of Jesus, cause it was weird, and
cool. Lean back, I'm in, lean forward, I'm out. In... Out... In... You
can totally be a little kid in heaven. In fact, it's kinda mandatory.
(Matt 18:3)
I was focusing on what it felt like when I was in vs out. Got done
playing and settled in and stayed because I could feel stuff coming off
of me when I was in. "This must be what He meant with all that
'resting' and 'abiding' stuff."

His hands were still his hands
and my hands were still my hands, and I was checking out his hands.
They are kinda thin flat guy hands. Nice hands, but just hands. The
scars are up at the wrists. Then he took hold of my hand and put it up
over his heart, which was my heart too and then I realized they were
merged. Wow. Really? One heartbeat. Whoa. Pause for cry session. I
decide that is a good place to leave spirit me parked while I run around
and do stuff down here. I know you guys are all saying "Duh", but
yeah, I really didn't get it before. Its just words on a page until it becomes my experience.

I'm in the middle of writing a book and have so far had a lot to say about the heart, beliefs of the heart etc. I'm still processing the depth of my experience. And at the moment, I can't process anything, so I'm simply going to hit "publish" and go get some rest.