Come take a journey through my mind

The world is a very strange old place. When we are young we think we will always remain the same. Yet slowly like water on a rock we change. The person we become is no longer recognizable by the person we were yet at our core we are still there. Recently I found out about a death of a first crush, a person that I admired greatly in my youth. Reading the wonderful words of people that loved him I realized that he had become someone that I knew when he was someone else. He had evolved. I had also. So many things change us. We become wiser yet also more inflexible. More understanding yet less tolerant of other views. Sadly we lose touch with those that form us. Life gets busy and time rushes past.

Looking closer I realize that he was right they were only paper roses all along. We need to smell, taste and enjoy the real roses while we are here.

Rest well dear friend. You helped to form the person I became for that I am grateful.

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Looks like my stalker would like to see my blog gone. Sorry to disappoint but WP has not removed it. Unlike some people, I have a life that sometimes gets in the way of writing blogs. If you have nothing to do but harass others and denigrate others I guess this is all you have. Sorry to inform you my blog has not been removed it is very much alive. Maybe your blog should find something more interesting than me to discuss.

Stop making such an ass of yourself.

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Is it me? Now that we are being courted by both parties here in New York, I keep hearing both sides legitimizing the delegate process by calling it the rules of the “game”. Since when is the selection of the person that will determine our future over the next four years and probably beyond a “game”. They also tout “this is the way it has always been”. Try that in business and see how fast you end up on the losing side or unemployed. It is the time our voting system was overhauled from the ground up to keep up with our new Internet age. Maybe they keep it that way so the dinosaurs in Congress and state jobs can keep those positions. With every move being scrutinized it would behoove the parties to take a long look at their selection process and maybe ditch the delegate system altogether. Have debates with all recognized parties included and then have people vote online who they would like to run then vote online? Take the money we the taxpayers give to these parties for their farces and put it towards a new system. If this delegate selection process is private to the respective parties they need to pay for it themselves.

Both parties have a strangle hold on this country and now with the speed of the internet and cable news, we are seeing all of their mechanizations exposed. No other party can even get a foothold due to the billions of dollars these parties have to play with. Every lobbyist and special interest have a finger in the pie til there is no pie left for the individual. Over the years, they have gained control over our country and it needs to stop. Write your representatives. Don’t donate to either party til they clean up their act. They don’t need your money the greedy buggers have more than they even need and will just keep perpetuating this comedy on all of us as long as we play along and let them.

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Well, I have been on Word Press a year. So much has happened. I started it just as a lark and a dare. Had a stalker troll that decided it was a good idea to attack myself and my friends on Word Press so I decided to check it out. Here we are a year later.

The troll and her friend have wandered off thankfully leaving me to enjoy all of you. I rediscovered my love of poetry and shared it with a few friends that became 535 followers. That is amazing. Along the way, there were wonderful fellow bloggers I found and now enjoy immensely.

The moral of this story is that if you keep true to yourself and just enjoy what you are doing you come out ahead at the end.

Thank you all my followers and yes you too my stalker troll without you I may never have discovered this side of me. Here’s to another year!!

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One of the most precious gifts of a Democracy is free speech. It is also one of the most often misused. Spreading lies and hate isn’t free speech it is hatred. It also lessens the value of free speech. In this political season on both sides, I see the worst drivel and defamatory statements. Be very careful about what you repost or post yourself. If you share defamatory lies then whatever else you say will be tainted with those lies.

Truth has a way of surfacing even when it has been pushed down by the filth and sewage of hideous, defamatory and evil lies. Time is the angel of truth and when it surfaces it explodes and takes down those that spread that kind of hate.

So be true to the truth don’t belittle and lessen such a precious commodity as free speaking. You will be found out eventually. Just a fact of life.

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When I started this blog it was as a lark. Just wanted to see what it was all about. Now I have 500 people that enjoy what I write from what pops in my mind. I am totally amazed and treasure each of you.

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After a crazy week, I realized that I can’t find Jason. Opinionated Man is now marked private. If you are in contact with him please let him know that we miss him and his blogs. Hope this post reaches him too.

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The election isn’t until next year but already the nasty, hateful political posts are beginning. The Republicans if you are to believe their detractors hate the poor, only interested in money and are war criminals. The Democrats are weak, liberal and could care less about America. How about looking into each candidate and making an intelligent choice based on what they stand for and their past actions?? Hmmm? Ignorant posts are being made all over Facebook that are laughable if the fate of the country wasn’t at stake.

Don’t people care anymore about the laws that are passed? The same idiots and self-serving rich guys of both parties keep getting voted in. Now campaigns are in the billions, not even millions. A regular person that cares about this country hasn’t got a chance in hell of being elected. Our outdated systems ensure that even if the popular vote is higher the electoral vote is what counts. Why? We don’t take two weeks on horseback to elect officials anymore. Voting is instantaneous or would be if states would get themselves together. Internet voting should be allowed. If a person is legally registered why can’t a vote be cast on the web?

Please, people, look further into who will be running your country. Just because a guy has been in office isn’t a reason to put him back there. Look into the honesty of the person you are voting for. If they constantly lie do you really want them making YOUR laws??

Get active if you care that much. Stop reposting ridiculous claims on Facebook and other social media sites. I would love to see all political parties abolished and direct voting commence, but that will never happen with the lobbyists and the complacency of the American people.

So when they pass law that infringe on your rights, have an Internal Revenue service that is out of control and you pay at least half your earnings to support all this I hope you remember your precious parties. What have they done for you. I think you will see that they have done nothing. You have been fooled by foolish rhetoric and swallowed all of it.

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The funny thing about secrets, the harder we try to hide things, the more likely they are to surface. Covering your tracks by telling more stories can muddy the waters or it can point straight back to you. The more secrets you have the more you have to cover. The more you have to cover the more mixed up you get. So the best way to be really is up front and honest. Then you don’t get tangled up in your own web. Secrets can be toxic things they can strangle relationships.

When people in relationships and friendships share secrets that is wonderful unless one of them wants attention badly. That is when the whole thing can go upside down. Remember when dealing with others, those that gossip with you will most probably gossip about you. When relationships go south all those little secrets can come tumbling out. A lot of times people who have been your enemy become your friends and your friends become your enemies. Therefore be very careful of anything you share.

In currying favor with new friends, old friends will use your secrets and even embellish them. Kissed a boy? Well, they will make it spicier and say you had sex. Shoplifted when you were ten? It becomes you spent time in prison for theft. Said something about someone else in anger? That will be embellished to make that other person hate you for sure. Have a mental illness or one in your family? Well, you are mental for sure. You have to be don’t you? That whole thing with genetics you know. Crazy as the rest of them. Used a little pot? Must be a raging drug addict. You get my point. Anything said can be embellished and stretched until you can’t even recognize the original secret.

Anything you say can be twisted and used. Secrets are fine things when they remain secrets. When they become more they can be vicious weapons used on the foolish and unwary.

How did I become so wise about the subject of secrets? That is an easy one. I foolishly trusted others. It happens more often than you would think. People that I felt cared about me. They didn’t. End of story.

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It is so easy to look at someone else’s life and criticize them. Why don’t they have money? Why are they constantly complaining? What is wrong with them? If we have been lucky enough to have our health. Fortunate enough to make enough money so we don’t have to stay up all night wondering if we will have a home tomorrow or if our children will eat. Haven’t had to deal with bombs going off around us, losing our family to war. Not been plagued with one disaster after the other. Then I think we should have compassion for those that are less fortunate.

Sometimes people complain a lot. Be grateful they trust you with their pain, their misfortunes. Perhaps if these things make any sense at all they are there to show us how very lucky we are.

Those of us who have been fortunate have no reason for arrogance. It is pure luck. Yes, we may have worked hard for all we have but we had the health, stamina and education that made that possible.

Be kind and never, ever think you are superior to anyone unless it is the younger you because you have learned compassion and empathy for others.

Have you money? Why? Were you left an inheritance? Maybe you had the money for a good education that allowed you to work at what you loved for a decent salary? Have good health? You live in a society that has good food at reasonable cost. Medicine is available as is medical care.

Not everyone is so fortunate. All of us are just one disaster or health crisis from being those we might criticise

Through no fault of their own they may have been born in a society that didn’t value them. Had a disease that made it difficult or impossible to work. Had circumstances leading to addiction.

Look to yourself are you really that much better than your fellow human or just more fortunate??

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Let’s start a movement!! If you write, donate your signed books to your local library and volunteer to read them. You get followers and future readers they get you in person.

If you have books donate them to small libraries that have so few and little money to buy more.

Get involved. Children that read get ahead. Ereaders are great but there is nothing like the adventure of going to a library and finding that perfect book. Take your kids get them a card. It is better for their minds and health.

Please reblog and share this post so we get the word out that libraries need our support. We don’t want to see a day when they are no longer there.

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Wonder why we are so fascinated with the paranormal. I think that it is an innate fear of the unknown and death. I can picture early man when confronted with the unexplained sudden death of someone they cared about blaming the forces of nature. After all they didn’t know a cause of death unless an animal attacked or there was an accident. They had no idea of disease except it came and stopped people from being animated and moving. Burial probably started as a means of keeping wild animals at bay. After time it became more and more ritualistic. We fear that which we do not know. Disease and natural occurrences can seem like the workings of the Gods or malevolent spirits. Noises in a cave filled with darkness except for the flickering of a small fire must be terrifying. Shadows become ghosts and spirits of the dead.

Do spirits, Gods and ghosts exist? Maybe they do or maybe it is the human mind making sense of the senseless. Many of the myths and stories that have come down to us have a lot of the same basis. Many of the stories of the bible have similarities to Egyptian mythology. Not that the bible is untrue it is just also stories and myths that may have had a grain of truth. It is a guide and the stories are used to illustrate the social behavior that the particular society found beneficial. There are several books that were deleted and what we have now really doesn’t reflect the original intent.

What happens when we die ? We are no further in that quest than early man. Even with numerous experiments and tales of beyond we really don’t know. There was even an experiment measuring if the soul left the body at death. A dying person is on a bed on a scale and at the moment of death and before weights are taken. Others have come back from near death and told tales of the beyond. Is this a safety mechanism of the brain to deal with the idea of dying and not existing any more? It is a very terrifying concept. Or is it really a realm beyond?

All in all it is a fascinating subject. While things like Vampires I do not believe exist except in the adolescent mine are easily disproved (sorry Nosferatu). Others continue to fascinate and occupy our minds. As for me, I do hope there is an existence of some sort after death. It would be wonderful if we can see those that went before and death can be conquered but I am just not sure. My logical mind says no we are just a creation of nature and like all natural things have an existence and then make way for others. My heart however yearns for the hereafter. Perhaps someday I will know for sure. Just hope it isn’t too soon. I like it here.

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In our youth we depend on our looks to attract a mate. We primp and polish and pose. Some never get beyond that stage. Most of us come to the realization eventually that there is more to life than that. The narcissist never does. When they look in the mirror they don’t see reality they see the youth and beauty that once was there. Living a fantasy of desirability and youth they see themselves above and beyond the mortal beings. The sad thing about it is they actually think they are better than others. Better bodies, smarter more beautiful by far and above everyone else. To this end they become alone. The sociopath is the same but they need the thrill of being adored so even though they feel everyone is not at their level they flatter them until they become an object of adoration. The victim is put up as the most brilliant, gorgeous, kindest best person that ever existed. What the victim doesn’t realize often times until too late is that the sociopath is just reflecting themselves. They are actually in love with their own being. If the victim adores them then they are worthy. That is until they become bored. A bored sociopath/narcissist can be vicious. They want entertainment so they shred, tear and destroy the object that formerly was the object of adoration. Most times they will convince the victim it is their own fault. They didn’t take care of themselves, they weren’t loyal enough, they had other friends, they are no longer desirable. This is the Gaslight phase of the relationship. As most sociopaths seek out the needy and sometimes Desperate and Dateless this can lead to very tragic results.

You see they need to destroy the object of their affection because being a narcissist they cannot possibly be wrong or mistaken in their belief. Therefore the object must be turned into something to make the narcissist the victim of being duped. Complicated? The mind of a narcissist is a rats nest of ego. There is no room for others and their feelings. They create and they destroy. Because they have no empathy others are only dolls to be manipulated and used. The object is nothing but something to be turned into an evil doll that they were mistaken in worshipping.

Once that happens the sociopath is ready to be entertained. There is nothing they will not say or do to tear down their object. Accusations of sexual misconduct, illegal acts, abuse and other lies become common and are the weapons of choice.

The lesson in this is that if you end up in a relationship that from the first minutes puts you into an unrealistic pedestal take a good look at your friend or lover is it you they are in love with or themselves? I leave you with the wise words of George Bernard Shaw. Love should be love no matter what your looks become. Looks fade character grows.

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I blog because I enjoy it. After many years working in accounting and not having time to write this is a wonderful outlet. There are many of you I have met and your writing inspires and sometimes astounds me. There is a lot of joy in blogging many real laughs too.

In this world though there are those that through jealousy, narcissism and just plain meanness can’t stand for another person to have success even as limited as mine is on my blog. Seems she really wasn’t very successful at it. Instead of working harder she used that blog to attack myself and some of my friends. She also did this on Facebook. No one believed her there but it doesn’t go on the Google search like it does here when you are tagged. It didn’t work because people on Word Press are more interested in writing, art and sharing not fighting.

Yesterday I was upset by that person who has posted and tagged my blog as abusive. It is the first thing you see if you Google my name. I was upset because I feel it is anything but. I try to share information and some of the art of poetry. Both are by myself and some really talented writers. It crossed my mind to just step away from my blog. The support I got from my fellow bloggers has made me realize that there are more there that enjoy my blog than want to attack it. Thinking about it I realized that this person has more problems than I do with having stupidity posted about me. People can love or leave my blog. No one has because of her malignant posts that I can see. So I have decided to just be me. Post what I like because that is what I do. There is nothing I can do to have it removed. It has been reported and I have responded. Now I am done with it.

I won’t mention her name or blog she doesn’t deserve a spot on my page. Thank you followers. It means a lot to me to have people enjoy my writing. That is why I am here. For you that sent me such wonderful messages of support you have no idea how much it meant to me. It took some courage for me to write again and this wounded me but I will continue because you believed in me.

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I recently finished a book that had an interesting story about a Golem.

The book was in my estimation only a so so story but the subject is fascinating.

Today in Prague it is an entire business and the statues of Golems can be seen everywhere but I can imagine that the tales of the Golem were terrifying at one time. The idea of making a human from mud has shades of the Frankenstein tale.

Both the story of Frankenstein and the legend of the Golem have the same core. How is man so full of himself that he can do what only God should be able to do? In our age of technology will robots become the Golems of modern times? How will technology affect how we view life and ourselves. There is a lot to think about I think in this tale so I am sharing a bit of what I have found.

Here is some research from the internet.

In Jewish tradition, the golem is most widely known as an artificial creature created by magic, often to serve its creator. The word “golem” appears only once in the Bible (Psalms139:16). In Hebrew, “golem” stands for “shapeless mass.” The Talmud uses the word as “unformed” or “imperfect” and according to Talmudic legend, Adam is called “golem,” meaning “body without a soul” (Sanhedrin 38b) for the first 12 hours of his existence. The golem appears in other places in the Talmud as well. One legend says the prophet Jeremiah made a golem However, some mystics believe the creation of a golem has symbolic meaning only, like a spiritual experience following a religious rite.

The Sefer Yezirah (“Book of Creation”), often referred to as a guide to magical usage by some Western European Jews in the Middle Ages, contains instructions on how to make a golem. Several rabbis, in their commentaries on Sefer Yezirah have come up with different understandings of the directions on how to make a golem. Most versions include shaping the golem into a figure resembling a human being and using God’s name to bring him to life, since God is the ultimate creator of life..

According to one story, to make a golem come alive, one would shape it out of soil, and then walk or dance around it saying combination of letters from the alphabet and the secret name of God. To “kill” the golem, its creators would walk in the opposite direction saying and making the order of the words backwards.

Other sources say once the golem had been physically made one needed to write the letters aleph, mem, tav, which is emet and means “truth,” on the golem’s forehead and the golem would come alive. Erase the aleph and you are left with mem and tav, which is met, meaning “death.”

Another way to bring a golem to life was to write God’s name on parchment and stick it on the golem’s arm or in his mouth. One would remove it to stop the golem.

Often in Ashkenazi Hasidic lore, the golem would come to life and serve his creators by doing tasks assigned to him. The most well-known story of the golem is connected to Rabbi Judah Loew ben Bezalel, the Maharal of Prague (1513-1609). It was said that he created a golem out of clay to protect the Jewish community from Blood Libel and to help out doing physical labor, since golems are very strong. Another version says it was close to Easter, in the spring of 1580 and a Jew-hating priest was trying to incite the Christians against the Jews. So the golem protected the community during the Easter season. Both versions recall the golem running amok and threatening innocent lives, so Rabbi Loew removed the Divine Name, rendering the golem lifeless. A separate account has the golem going mad and running away. Several sources attribute the story to Rabbi Elijah of Chelm, saying Rabbi Loew, one of the most outstanding Jewish scholars of the sixteenth century who wrote numerous books on Jewish law, philosophy, and morality, would have actually opposed the creation of the Golem.

It seems that this tale is cautioning us that no matter how brilliant and wise we can over reach ourselves when we try to imitate God. The creation of life is meant for the divine not for the every day human.

Robert Durst is about to get away with more murders. Using the badly understood condition known as Aspergers. This is a terrible precedent to set. How is the fact that he has Aspergers affect the fact that he murdered a man, cut him in pieces and tossed him in the water. Then he went on the lam. Now with this new arrest his lawyer is claiming the producers of the program where he admits while talking to himself and miked that he “killed them all”. He has withdrawn cash in small bills, put them in several envelopes ready to mail. He had his passport and other documents and was reported to be planning to flee to Cuba.

These are all acts of an evil man who has gotten away with murder for too long using Aspergers as an excuse for his actions. This is an insult to all those afflicted with this condition.

Yes Robert where is the head and where is the head of those jurors that acquitted you? Shame on the American justice system where you can buy anything you want.

Here are the symptoms of Aspergers nowhere is murdering people and cutting them up. People with Aspergers have enough trouble with preconceived ideas of what they are and are capable of. I wish 48 Hours had challenged his lawyer on his claims.

We will see in this new trial if this evil man will finally see justice. He is evil period.

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You know what makes me happy? When someone discovers my blog because of another blogger’s generosity and then discovers a post that I forgot about and really enjoys it and I say to myself. Self that wasn’t half bad.

These are articles on the abuse of handicapped children in our schools and the suicide statistics for those that are bullied. This isn’t a part of growing up it is torture. What kind of a society is it when the weakest among us is not treated with kindness and respect? Where are all the adults? The teachers, parents and even people that see it happening? Why aren’t children taught that bullying is just wrong? I know that it happens because children and some grown people want to fit in with a crowd. That crowd mentality leaves out all humanity. If you see it happening, know of it, see it on Facebook and other social media stand up and be counted let’s let these lost, black souls know that the rest of us will not tolerate the abuse of the weak.
Every day people and children commit suicide, quit school, start drugs to escape this kind of torture. It isn’t funny it isn’t right and it is the wrong way to be popular.

Those that you are joining in to bully, others will eventually turn on you. If they are gossiping what makes you think you are bullet proof? Gossips gossip and they could care less about you. Do you bully gay people because down deep you might have an attraction to others? Wake up we can love who we like and that attraction may just be friendship you are throwing away. Someone is fat are you afraid you can catch it? It isn’t contagious you know. If they are thin maybe you feel you should be too. They have a handicap? What are you afraid of? They are already weaker than you. Maybe you are too big a coward to take on an able bodied person so you attack them. Think about it what is missing in you? What damage are you doing to your own personality when you do this to others. How do the silent majority see you? As ugly, mean and scary that’s how.

For you that get your jollies by abusing others whether children or adults I think you need to look deep in your soul to find out why you do it. Are you that inadequate? Lacking of any morals or feelings for others? Are you being bullied at home and this is the only way you can get satisfaction? Talk to a counsellor if you need help it is out there.

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Ffolkes, “Am I not destroying my enemies when I make friends of them?” ~~ Abraham Lincoln ~~ Coit Tower, San Francisco Hajime…. Today’s Pearl is epic. Not because of its size, or the scope of its contents, but, rather, because of the effort I had to expend to get it finished. Without going into superfluous, […]

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PAINT MOVEMENTS (2) In this series of articles, I will give you, dear friends and readers, a simplified idea of the main styles and movements of painting. Tachism It may designate all artistic techniques that use spots. In fact, these techniques fall into two categories, corresponding to the two main meanings of the word spot: […]