I just wanted to tell you to kill yourself. I'm not
kidding. Kill yourself. Dead. Please, for your own good. I didn't come to this
opinion easily and without forethought. Everyone should kill themselves. There
is no reason for us to exist on this planet. Look at yourself. Look real hard
and deep within your soul. You should see a dark black hole where once a heart
resided. But no longer. I don't blame you for your lack of a soul, I blame society.

We live in a world where the only important person
is ourselves. No longer is it the day of friendship and love. Everyone is a
back-stabbing, two-timing, two-faced, conceited, self-centered, egocentric,
narcissistic twit with an agenda. Myself included, of course. But it's true.
It is all true. Gone are the days of old friends hanging out, having a good
time, living to the fullest. We are all so concerned with ourselves that we
have forgotten everyone else. Sure we have our friends, but are they really
our friends? Yes, we hang out. Yes, we have good times. Yes, we even pretend
to care but that is where the problems arise. We pretend. How many times have
we totally blown off our dearest companions to be with someone else they don't
know as well. All the time. All the damn time. I blow you off, you blow me off;
and we live on in this twisted little circle of deceit. We truly are alone in
this world. Not by choice or design, but by our own childish, petty actions.

Not only are we not friends, but we don't really
have any true friends in society anymore. I consider all of you to be my friends,
but maybe only two of you do I consider to be true friends. And we blow each
other off whenever a pretty girl walks by, or we are out of beer, or whatever.
What makes someone a friend? Hard times spent together, happy moments on Kodak,
playing together; all of these things used to make us friends, but what about
now? Friends are people that we have to see fairly often and would prefer to
be on better terms with than not. Friends are people who wind up at the same
place frequently. Friends are non-existent.

Why did we lose friendship? The seething megalopolis
society that we live in certainly does not promote trust amongst the citizens.
We don't trust, we don't care. Why should we care when we are all out there
trying to make a buck? It's this rat race that we are trapped in that is slowly
decaying away at morals we use to guide us in everyday life. When we only think
of ourselves and our advantages we lose sight of the one thing that makes us
human: each other. It wasn't until we evolved socially to the point of community
that we gained an insight into our inter-personal relationships. We depended
upon them to help us survive a bleak winter. They defended us when a neighboring
community got aggressive. The held us together when we could see no future.
Now that we have a super-society that goes well beyond what anyone thought we
could evolve to, we have lost our sense of community. Do you know your neighbors?
Do you ever participate in any community based function? Do you even know the
names of the people that you talk to almost every night? Probably not.

Do we even know each other? No, we don't. Sure
we spend a lot of time together, but do any of you really know me? Maybe one
of you. Do I know any of you? No, not really. I know you enough to have a good
time and a few laughs with each of you, but not really enough to claim that
I know you. Don't get me wrong, I like all of you and consider you to be some
of my best friends, but who are you? Why won't you let me in? Probably for the
same reason that I don't let you in. I don't know you well enough.

In this world of distrust, angst, aggression,
over-population, cheap romance by the alarm clock light, self-loathing, confusion,
and coercion we can never know anyone enough to truly let them in. We can't
take the chance of being taken. We have to know what we won't share ourselves
before we can advance to the next level of friendship. Since, by no fault of
our own, we can't do this, our soul has slowly been eroded away by our mistrust.
Can we stop this? Probably, but we won't put forth the effort. How can anyone
live out their lives, once realizing that we are alone, and will remain that
way for the remainder of our meager existences? I don't know, but I know it
is painful and probably not worth it; else we would have done something by now.

Maybe after we are long gone and a few generations
have grown up in the wasteland we left as our legacy, someone will raise a fist
to the heavens and cry out 'No More!'. But until that happens, we shall trudge
along our lonely lives with our heads hung low in shame. We should just kill
ourselves.