I’m pushing myself to tell more stories and to write more freely and openly this week.
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Truth be told, there is a sh*t ton of anger that swirls and boils behind this smirky face ...mostly around the complexities of loving oneself, one another, and Mother Earth. I’m angered beyond comprehension at humanity’s love affair with power, ego, profit, separation, political alignment, binary thinking ...over the heart and song and cry of people. It just rips me up on the inside. I often tell people I sometimes wish I could just burn it all down ...to start over ...to get back to the dirt ...without harming anyone of course.
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Walking is my survival. It’s my prayer. It’s my teacher. It’s my sacred tool that allows the weight of the anger to move with the wind, to embrace more mystery ...ultimately leaving me open, present, and plain undefended in most cases. I don’t know what I would do with out #lifeat3mph .
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If you are into the #Enneagram than you probably already guessed that I’m an off the charts NINE.
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I’m messy. I’m far from right ...and I only have one partial slice of the pie. I am; however, fighting with everything in me to be a person who radically trusts first, stands for human dignity, takes up less space, loves hard ~ myself and others, holds pain ~ mine and yours, protects and honors nature, embraces the unknown, and embodies the spaces between all the ridiculous lines we’ve drawn.
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Peace friends.
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Oh, and that long hair? Im thinking of putting a feather in it and grow’n it down to the hips.
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“In this grove at Babi Yar, each tree stands tall. Each a living memorial to men, women, children ~ the majority Jews with Ukrainians and others.
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In every leaf, their lives: in every breath, their families: in every rooted trunk, their past.
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Life courses even when leaves have fallen. Memory persists even after presence parts.
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Can we not learn from the trees? Each stands alone ~ yet, flourishes in the benevolent shade of others.
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Seasons change: so must we. Winter’s madness must not dry out the sap of loving life once again.”
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The words above are carved on a beautiful stone at the feet of these trees at Babi Yar Park on the Denver and Aurora line in Colorado. This is a memorial to the 200,000 + women, men and children that were killed by the Nazi regime in the Babi Yar ravine in Kiev, Ukraine. Known to be the largest single massacre in the history of the Holocaust.
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I’ve been spending the last several days attempting and fumbling to put words (aka writing) to what resonates so loud within me. For so many years I’ve mistrusted the workings of the mind. I have allowed my heart, my body and my spirit to lead me. I depend on them. I honor them. When I put words to things, I feel like I’m limiting the marrow, the sacred air, and the integrity of what can only be understood through experience...
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AND... the song and cry and plea in me for us to be more unhurried alongside one another, more connected to nature, more in-proximity to those who suffer, more accepting of mystery, and more risk-taking to love one another better keeps me pressing on. I’m no expert. My way is mostly through walking, writing and art. I don’t know all the stats, I care less and less about data, I resent how much of our relationship to money takes us away from love, from nature and relationship. I’m trying to keep one foot in what is real and the other in a sea of what’s possible.
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I sat in front of a tree today for an hour just before this photo. The way this humble and colorful pinyon pine persevered to grow itself strong, reaching high for the light after being almost completely hollowed out gave me all the strength and hope I could ask for.
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Towards love. Towards humility. Towards justice. Towards healing. Towards nature.
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We started walking. She was anxious. I was anxious. We turned the first corner in the neighborhood and she was eager to know what was going on. I could’ve probably walked for a few hours before really feeling the need to say anything. I remember feeling a voice inside saying, “let’s just walk for a while. I want to know that you’re with me.” It was visceral. Her asking and hoping that I would start speaking right away made it hard, but I understood. It wasn’t a normal environment for our family. “Can we just walk a few minutes more?” I asked. She was reluctant, but okay with it. I took a deep breath. I felt my feet on the Earth. I prayed for guidance from any Spirit, cloud or God who would listen. I made the most of those last few minutes to find a rhythm and a connection with the sky, the fresh air and the trees. I wanted to know them and I wanted them to help me hold this.
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“Mom,” I said.
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Writing, writing, writing... the words above are from one of the Walking As... chapters I’m working on. Swipe left to look: 👉🏾
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Every word in these drafting invitations call, cry, and plea for a deeper and more human way forward.
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...towards more risk, more justice, more healing, more listening, more presence, more loving, more human dignity, more vulnerability, and of course, MORE walking.
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