“That’s me saying, ‘You know what, this is ridiculous. It’s time to get real, let’s do this. This being music,” says Porterfield of the aforementioned song. “That song was my personal revelation that if I wanted to try to be a songwriter and a musician that it’s really time to do that and to dedicate time and energy to that endeavor. It’s about the struggle of making art and about destroying things that are precious and it’s about coming to terms with who you are. It’s about being hungry while being patient but mostly giving into the hunger of it and just wanting something.”

I am red in tooth and claw
God’s favorite child, bloodied from the brawl
And this bitterness was killing me all along
I am not waiting anymore
I am not waiting anymore

Blowing through time like nickel slots
In a windowless room, on a credit card
flash it like a semaphore – a vague, drafty metaphor
I am not waiting anymore

I’ve been a keen eyed observer of the movements of concentric parts
Of the bodies, of bones, and breasts and unmapped chambers of hearts

And the sand in hand has been turned to glass
Like a Jeroboam filled with a life that’s passed
You can toss it off the balcony and listen for the crash
I am not waiting anymore

I spent eight long years working on my screenplay
it’s a teen movie with young actresses that plays to the middle aged

I have read between the lines
I have been wrong every time
It burned up on the alter, but I am fine
I am not waiting anymore
I am not waiting anymore
I am not waiting anymore

Oh, oh, oh, oh
towering
Oh-oh, Oh-oh
Oh-oh,
Oh-oh, towering
Oh-oh, towering
Oh-oh, towering
Oh
2-3-4-5-6
Oh that we’re only able to see now
We anticpate
What will become
This is not easy
We underestimate
Only the lonely get away unharmed
But even the lonely have their scars
Oh that we’re only moving right along
And oh-oh-oh-oh

Oh, that we’re only
Where this is moving
We can feel the …
Come like the sun
Know that you’re glowing
Feels like we just begun

Oh that we’ve only just arrived
All that we have is … inside
Only the lonely get away unharmed
And oh oh oh-oh-oh,