Yes, I’ve done this, too. It’s not an illogical reaction. If something is devastating, you can explain what happened by enormous guilt cast upon yourself. If you are rocked by feelings of betrayal, it’s hard to understand that other person as far more complex than your retellings and remembrance would remind you.

Have you done something for anyone without your name remembered? Was it something profound to that person, or would you have known that? Were you recognized later, or were you vaguely memorialized with or without your awareness? With scandals seemingly emerging one after another, sometimes the hidden and not so hidden deeds done with good intentions are brushed aside in favour of the scandalous.

Bought a cookbook today, one of those Company’s Coming selections I’d pore over in Zellers. I’m excited. I can mess around with recipes and alter them. Holding my ground that vanilla yoghurt makes a delicious pasta sauce base, depending on the dish!

“Look upon the oblation of Your Church …” I prefer the Mass to Adoration. I spend much time lonely with You. How wonderful it is to be with faces turned to our altar. “Look upon the oblation of Your Church …” How happy we are to be with You, O Lord, how joyful we are to look together towards You. Our Body is Yours; welcome home, dear and awful Master.

For fun, here’s some silly ideas for what Mayli wasn’t privy to in 12 years. A throwback to older Dremael stories from my childhood, quite different to the anthology version within early adolescence. Amatialle and Thetadaison weren’t the dyad she imagined!