Ok, happy face aside. All is not well and i'm not sure what to think. I'm almost always up, feel able to get thru most anything and quickly, but something's not right. I've felt down before...depressed from things like hormonal issues and such as a normal person would get from time to time, but i truely think i'm depressed in the sense that it's more than normal and shouldn't be. Nothing's wrong...i'm feeling more symptoms and differences in them, but other than my general leg pain and other such acceptable 'aches and pains', i'm fine. I've been on the verge of tears all evening and have felt this feeling all week and getting worse. I know, call my doc, but i'm not interested in getting a 'clinical diagnoses' of depression and being told that that's the reason for my symptoms. This has only just begun...my symptoms have been here a year now. I feel so sad and just don't know how to take this. This is not me and i truely feel lost at tis moment. rhonda

Co-Moderator, MS Forum

*~*Sometimes the Lord calms the storm. Sometimes He lets the storm rage and calms His child.*~*

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way tonight. All I can offer is an ear to listen or an eye to read and a virtual hug. Thinking of you and knowing you'll see the light from the lighthouse soon. Keep on the path, He is carrying you.I not only use all the brains that I have, but all that I can borrow.Author: Woodrow Wilson (1856-1924), 28th U.S. President

Rhonda I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Being depressed feels absolutely terrible. You said you're on the verge of tears.... my best advice is to let them come... it can be very healing. I hope this is temporary for you, a hormone hiccup or something. If it continues much longer, please see the doctor, there is no need to suffer. I'm sure this is what you would tell anyone else here with the same problem. We're here to listen always.

Sorry Rhonda that you are feeling bad. You said you were on the verge of tears, well, I have probably cried a total of 6 hours in the past 24 hours. My husband thinks I'm nuts, and tells me to settle down before they admit me into the psych ward, my Mom tells me to just get used to these feelings that she has had them all her life. She gets the bug crawling sensation in her scalp every once in a while, well my symptoms never go away, they have been here now for 6 years, some days are far worse than than others, but yesterday it was horrible, my face drove me insane, and every time I would sit down the cold water sensations started in my legs. Its not normal to have these feelings, and nobody understands. My ten year old son will come in the room when I'm on the computer looking stuff up, and say, Mom, you don't have MS, lymes, brain tumor, etc... I feel like crying out loud, saying you don't understand either, but I don't want to worry him. So, Rhonda, if you feel like crying, cry, it sometimes helps. Its very frustrating when the docs tell you, and for that matter, my family, that your fine. I'm wondering if I could have Lhermittes sign. From what I read you would have cervical lesions for this, my cervical is fine except for the bulging disk, could the disk problem cause this? Hope you feel better soon!!! Jen

Rhonda by all means let the tears flow and have that good cry. You will be better for it. I must have cried a river during my 2+ weeks of severe depression. I was sooooo bad that horrible thoughts were entering my mind BUT you were there for me and I want to be there for you. So close your eyes, take a deep breath, cross your arms over your chest and there is my hug to you my friend:) I have an extra box of kleenex if you need :)

Well i called my doc today and told him what was going on with me. He said for me to get on the Cymbalta full time and not to take 'as needed' anymore...tho i guess that's an oxymoron since 'as needed' is now full time. ;) Yeah, feeling a bit better. I've had a chance to talk to a good friend and that helped a lot as well as just focusing on this and trying to conquer it. Yeah, the tears came and it did help...very good advice all! Funny, i got sooo sick last night...about midnight it started and lasted all night. Never heard of anything like that with depression of any level...anyone know anything about that? Anyway, i'm back on the cymbalta full time...no skipping even if it does make me really sleepy...60mg per day a i'm planning on taking it during the day so i can sleep some of it off with my nap. Otherwise if i take it at bedtime i can't wake up in time for the school bus! Thank u all for u'r replies! This is my first time back on since last night since i've slept most of the day, but it was so nice to come back and see all the support and help. Carla, that was a great hug! Felt really good, tho i think u squeezed to tight. ;) Thank u friend.

Jenny, u are not nuts! Cry all u want and don't let anyone make u feel u can't show u'r feelings. This is a very journey we're taking and as i've seen in the last few days or so, it's tough on the body and mind. I can't remember, but has u'r doc mentioned neuropathy to u? That's where u have these sensations as u'r having, but the prob isn't rooted in u'r central nervous system, but in the peripheral nerves...nerves outside u'r central nervous system...outside the brain and spine. That can cause all the symptoms u'r talking about...and added to any possible allergy's or migraines, can look and feel exactly like ms...as well as many other things. (WHEW!!)

Thank u all for u'r help...but i wouldn't expect any less from my sweet family. ;)rhonda

Co-Moderator, MS Forum

*~*Sometimes the Lord calms the storm. Sometimes He lets the storm rage and calms His child.*~*

Rhonda,Sorry I wasn't here ealrlier to help you along but I'm glad you're feeling better. We all have low points and we all need a little "cheer" some days! The tummy troubles may have been a stomach bug (ick) it is going around here.