Caught up in the motion

My life has a momentum all its own these days. Its like an unstoppable force, moving at a constant speed forward into the future. There’s always something to do, there’s always something that needs my attention. I get caught up in that momentum and it leaves very little time for reflection, assessment, or adjustment. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life, but sometimes it feels like its dragging me along. I know that there are things that need my attention, and I know the only way to to address them is to make some time and sit down and give some thought to what’s working and what isn’t. Lately I have not been able to find the time to do that.

If I keep doing what I’m doing, I’ll keep getting what I’m getting. And what I’m getting feels like no progress because the numbers are not changing. There is so much busy work, so many housekeeping chores that need to be done but I’m finding it really difficult to get quiet and find time to examine what I’m doing and see how I could be doing it better in terms of diet and exercise.

Sometimes I forget that there’s no such thing as finding time. Not if you’re living the sort of big cool life that I am trying to live. It’s not about finding the time it’s about making it. I am allowing things that are urgent but not exactly important to distract me from the things that aren’t screaming for my attention but are vital to my progress. The urgent and unimportant tasks make so much noise sometimes it’s hard to remember if I don’t pay attention to the task that aren’t as urgent but are important but there’s no long term progress to be found. I’ve said I wanna lose weight, I’ve said I wanna be in shape, and even though I’m exercising and continuing to watch my diet I’m not takings the actions I need to take to move on to the next level. And that’s all on me. So I’m going to have to readjust , make the time and get it done. I know from first hand experience it if I stop seeing signs of progress, stop seeing signs that the work I’m doing is having an effect, eventually I’ll lose focus and lose hope…and stop. That is not what I want.

I have to remind myself, I don’t need a day off to address this stuff… I just need 15 minutes here, and 15 minutes there. And I can always find 15 minutes. so today’s task is to find 15 minutes, and use it put together a plan of action for all the other 15 minutes periods. I can do that one foot in front of the other right?