erinjane, I go through periods where I am so rageful and angry and resentful and just plain ole' negative. It sucks because their not pleasant feelings, but for me, I know these feelings are like emotional flashbacks. I had all these emotions too when the abuse was happening as a little girl but I couldn't really feel them. So they got stuffed and I zoned out in front of the T.V. and disassociated during the rest of the day. So now, whooosh all these feelings come up and I feel like I am going to go crazy. But they say and this has been true for me, the only way to lessen their intesity is to really feel them and let them take you where they need to take you. Also, it is so important to have a good therapist, I'd rather have no therapist than a bad therapist. If you get a bad feeling from the meetings or whatever, I'd drop her/him. And this is my 2 cents: Forgiveness ain't shit if you don't get angry first. There's a really good book called, The Tao of Fully Feeling: harvesting forgiveness out of blame. He says in this book it's best to get angry first and point the finger and do all that good shit and then you can really forgive, but he also says that you may never do this and that's okay too.