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This is a message I just received from an adult site (all typos, and grammatical questionability are his own):

Hi Now I know you are young and have wild fantasy’s but I felt I would set the record strait for you .You want a man to take you ,be rough with you ,but in reality you want to be the dominate one .Then you want to be the submissive one .My advice chose which one you want to be ,or you will be disapointed in your life .I know there are “so called switchs ” but in reality they are one side or the other and when they do the other side it is never fully as good as a true dom or sub.So my sweet enjoy your life and should you ever get to calgary look me up and I will leave your ass bruised and your cunt sore from being used .master j

Now Master J clearly feels that he has deep psychological insights into me based on a few lines in a profile, and some carefully selected blog posts that I chose to carry over there.

However he raises an (interesting?) …well a point anyways. The thing is, I don’t really think I’m a D or an s. I think I want to be kinda bossy and bitchy every once in a while. But at the same time, I would also like to have someone tie me up and take me. But being bound and fucked isn’t the same and being dominated in my mind.

To me it’s just a matter of taste, and quite simply, I like it a bit harder and rougher, and less sweet and romantic. But being spanked, or punished is not a turn-on for me. And I know that there’s a very special relationship between master and pet, and I would never presume to claim that I could fulfill either of those roles to anyone’s satisfaction.

That being said, you’ve all read my posts about wanting a slave on here. And that my darlings? Let me clarify again…is purely selfish and lazy. For a while, I would simply like someone to do whatever it pleases me to demand request. I don’t think that makes me a D, I think it’s pure fantasy that I can’t imagine anyone in life ever fulfilling except as maybe a special treat on my birthday or something.

As for master j? His arrogance and condescension are precisely why I have no interest in being a sub. It is an absolute impossibility that I could be obedient and respectful when being spoken to like that. I pride myself on my intelligence, and if I choose to dumb it down? It’s strictly for my own needs and pleasure and not to placate any man’s ego.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m not what people would label as a selfish lover. It’s not that I don’t care about my partner’s satisfaction – on the contrary, my ego demands that whomever I’m with be taken care of, even to the sacrifice of my own gratification.

By selfish, I mean that I get annoyed when men try to prove how long they can last without paying attention to my ultimate boredom, or by forcing me to service them for too long without paying attention to my subtle cues of being “over it.” Sometimes I feel it’s a form of dominance or ego on their part. Either way, I tend to lose patience with it quickly.

Perhaps it’s because this lack of psychic synchronicity implies a seeming disconnect. An apparent disregard in finding a mutual rhythm or shared experience. It implies that each of us has entered into the moment without a common goal.

Even in the absence of romantic love, it seems to me that to people coming together in this expression of lust-filled vulnerability should share a reciprocal sense of what the moment is meant to achieve.

However I find that I often have no interest in seeking out that kind of synchronicity if it simply isn’t there. I’m not in the mood to cater to men’s egos or be subservient to their needs.

So what is the solution? In the short-term, I think I’ve found one.

A slave.For me I mean.

I think I should find myself a man who is completely willing to bow to my desires alone.

I’ve constructed an ad for such a man – tell me what you think:

Job Description: The main focus of the work will be in satisfying whatever particular need I have that day. Examples of duties may include, but are not limited to the following: full-body massage, nipple sucking, making out for hours, hard fast fucking, painting my nails, feeding/bringing me ice cream, boudoir photography sessions, dressing and undressing me etc.

Qualifications: Will be looking for demonstrable skills in the tongue and hands, ability to achieve and maintain multiple erections over extended or repeated periods in a variety of circumstances, willingness to serve without complaint, not allergic to feathers or latex, a steady and creative hand with a camera.

References: Will be amusing to read, but not necessary. A “hands-on” audition/interview is a must.

While the slave’s gratification is not the immediate concern, of course should he achieve satisfaction I will be very pleased with myself for him, and may even be inclined to repeat whichever circumstances caused such an event.