OH man...i've been meaning to post a rant in Confessionals, but i guess this will do too:

1. I am sick of when everoyone who know about it and seems to have 5 minutes of time asks : "So how's the job search going?"

As if it wasn't awkward and embarassing enough i'm still looking. It's going, i DON'T know when i'll find it and GEE, don't you think i'll tell you on my own when i do?

2. At interviews for a job, i am sick of interviewer asking "so what happened at college?"

Um, yeah - i really WON'T feel embarassed and humiliated and 2 feet small when i have to explain over and over again.

3. I think of my primary school college and high school friends and whenever i catch up with them or we have reunions the vast majority have like serious jobs, live on their own, have bf's and gf's - and then it feels like
"is my life passing me by? am i really gonna end up a freak and a weirdo?"

4. I hated the awkwardness when i was filling out this form at a job interview and there was a question "how soon do you plan having children?" and there were several answers.

I mean...how the heck should i know?!? I don't even know when and if i'll find someone special, let alone the C word or the M word for that matter. I have no clue, so don't bug me with it. It could be years, though there are times when i would have opted for "never".

5. I am getting tired of walking on the streets, seeing happy couples and feeling a little twich in my heart every time and think:
"Will i ever find something like that myself?"

6. I really think i will have to change my apperance and somewhat my personality if i want to get anywhere, because being myself just doesn't seem to cut it. It sucks not being a party girl and not a pretty face.

The part "and in my mind, all the time, i know that's not enough" from ES really resonated with me: how do i know my best is keeping up with people's expectations? Particularly my own?

7. You know what's the worst part about it though? That i'm the kind of person that makes plans and resolutions...and than very rarely (if ever) actually does something about it.

I hate that I had to quit my job. I hate being unemployed again, and not knowing whether I will have another job soon. I hate knowing that I have to postpone my plans of moving out. I hate my ex-boss because he owes me money!!

Wow I feel so bad for you all. Very sucky times you are all going through. Life is so unbalanced at times.
Just on a side note, U2girlie, isn't it illegal in your country as well as here to ask those kind of questions re: children etc? It can be used as a basis for discrimination. That kind of thing pisses me off so much. I am extremely thankful no one has ever asked me that in any of the kazillion interviews I have had in my life as I would not hold back in telling them it isn't any of their business and if they really want to be an EEO (Equal Employment Opportunity) they will take me on as I am if I fit the bill. Which of course would mean straight away they wouldn't hire me.
God that pisses me off.
The whole hiring process employers go through to pick their staff is something that pisses me off.
I would bet it is something ridiculously stupid and somewhat irrelevant that stops a lot of you guys from getting jobs in all these interviews. One of my friends has worked her way up in this government job in the Beureau of Stats here in Oz and she tells me some of the things each candidate MUST have. They can fit the bill perfectly, be perfectly qualified, have a dream employment record, etc etc but one thing that is set out as an absolute requirement, and may not be printed in the job spec in the ad is missing, and nup. No job.

I hate having to get up at the butt crack of dawn to go to work....even on my days off I wake up at 4 or 5 am.....

I can't stay up past 9 pm on a good day.

I hate not having a bf
I hate that there is noone around me who understands me
I hate that I can't seem to lose any weight
I hate that my bills are piling up
I hate that my hair never wants to cooperate with me
I hate that my threads sink like the titanic
I hate that there are not enough hours in the day

Angela: yes i think that question is a bit pushing it and verrry fishy. I opted for the longest amount of time named - though i considered also not writing anything at all because there really is no way of telling IMO.

Originally posted by daisybean I hate not having a bf
I hate that there is noone around me who understands me
I hate that I can't seem to lose any weight
I hate that my bills are piling up
I hate that my hair never wants to cooperate with me
I hate that my threads sink like the titanic
I hate that there are not enough hours in the day

so get one, but make sure he lives a thousand miles away.
move to south dakota.
join a sport that only makes your already large muscles HUGE.
i got paid $8 this week.
that blows.
make threads about sex.
stop sleeping, that frees up eons of time.

i hurt someone i didn't intend to hurt and i don't want him to be hurt and i want him to know that things will work out in the end no matter how that is i'm always here for him as a friend. i care about him deeply and should have told him that earlier. but i didn't. i hope he knows i care about him still.