Dear Baba,This year has been an year of profound loss and grief and terrible upheavels. When i look back on my mental and spiritual levels on 1st Jan 2009, i see myself as another normal human being - god fearing but not deeply involved in spiritual matters. I was just another normal human being - worried about my career, my family, about my tiffs and quarrels with my mother in law But never did i attach importance to god's mysterious ways of working. Untill tragedy struck my family. My mother was diagnosed with advanced stage of cancer in Jan 2009 and she passed away in May 2009. I was shattered. Post that, i lost my aunt and my grandmother in a span of 3 months. All in all, i was broken and my father was devastated. he lost his wife, mother and sister within 3 months. How much can a man take?? But through out this journey of tragedy, i turned towards God. I prayed and prayed and prayed. But we cant control destiny. But the strange part is - the more i believed in God, the calmer i became and in fact was more adaptable and accepting the situation. It took me a while to figure out what true faith and devotion is all about. For months, i remained confused on whether i should be reading holy scriptures and following rigid fasting and poojas, and then which God to pray. Whenever i was confused, i saw you and you gave me darshan in my dreams. Ever since, i am firmly attached to you. Even now, my faith is ever growing and each day i love you more dear baba. I am trying to get rid of all the negativities in my mind and want to come closer to you. You have taught me the true meaning of "shraddha" and "saburi". Both of which i was lacking. But now i am improving. I do not say i am perfect. In fact i am far from being perfect. But i am trying baba. And in the process, if i make mistakes, please accept my humble apologies.My biggest challenge is gettign rid of negative thoughts and focusing on positives plus putting my plans into action. Today is my father's birthday and he is a lonely man. I want to be with him and take care of him always. Baba...i believe in you. I will not pray and ask u to do this and do that. because u know what is best. All i ask u is to bless me and let me be your child always. On my part, i promise to overcome 2 of my biggest challenges as a tribute to my father and mother:1. Overcoming the negatives and focus on positives2. Executing my plans

You have gone through a very difficult time and it is very good that you still belive Sai Baba. If someone other has gone through that he might have left everything life puja, bhakti. Sai Baba loves a lot that why He has lit a diya of Shraddha and Saburi in you. I am also going through a bad time and praying Sai Baba, through you Sai Baba has shown me a way and jaise bhi ho pariksha to hoti hai par sach vishwas aur bhakti ant mai saflata deti hai. Today I completed my Sai Satcharitra parayana.

Overcoming the negatives and focus on positives.To get rid of Negative is not an easy task. Keep replacing negative thoughts with positives and divine thoughts. Just see good in all. Don’t bother about shortcomings of others.

Executing my plansIf you are aware of CPM and Pert techniques used in Projects (Specially Giant projects), Used the same. Sub divide your plans into small sections. (Plan for execution of plans). Use Time very wisely. Keep on reviewing your progress on weekly basis. Have Faith and move ahead with confidence. Baba’s blessings are with you!

There is always light after dark. When u have gone through such a difficult time you will definitely have good time. When we feel the bad time in life we enjoy more when good time comes in life. because we can differentiate between bad and the good.

Dear all....baba is just testing us. he is giving us his special attention to understand whether we are ready for the next level or not. I must not fail him. I have tried to focus on both my challenges....its been 2-3 days, but i can definitely feel the difference. I am more relaxed and calm. baba...with your blessings, i can do everything. Please be with me always baba and keep guiding....I am your child.

Dear baba...today has been very eventful. First, my son did well in the sports meet. Thanks for helping him win a prize. It means a lot to him.

Second, when i heard that my boss has been fired, i did not know how to react. Mainly because He has been instrumental in not letting me grow in this organization and there were times when he back stabbed me. Ideally i should have rejoiced. But i didnt. I kind of felt bad. Because i know what it means to lose your livelihood. The family depends on it, your loans and EMIs are based on this, and your identity and integrity is based on this. To be fired is akin to losing your face in the world. I feel bad. I know that everyone has to pay for his/her sins and maybe this was required. Still, why should the family suffer?

Third, I have been asked to move to my boss's seat. People tell me that this seat is unlucky. But to me it doesnt matter. When i have your blessings and my hard work and sincerity, i think i will get the luck as well So i am not worried.

baba...please bless us all and shower your mercy on all esp. my father....

Baba...today i got a call from a consultant for my dream company. I dont know why but it makes me feel good to be considered for that. I know it is very very very difficult to crack their technical round and i also know that i am not hands-on at the moment. That amounts to a major disadvantage. but u know what baba - i am going to give it my best shot. I am going to prepare for this and crack it. With your blessings, everything is possible...so baba, give me the strength, wisdom and courage. I dont know what will be the outcome. In all probabilities, i will not make it. But at least i should not regret about not putting in the efforts. And in any case, i stand to gain only by preparing hard. I know that this may be an anti-thesis of what i am apparently looking for - but baba....for once in my life, let me be associated with this organization and let me enjoy the glory and pride of being a part of it. I may quit later on...but for once dear lord...help me to make it....Jai sai baba

Dear baba...today i have an interview with my dream company. I seek your blessings baba. I dont know what will be the outcome. But i know whatever will happen, it will be for my own good. and baba...i have tried to do my part. I am not going without preparation. you know the efforts i have put. Now its upto you dear lord. Whatever will be your decision, i am ok with it.

Baba...i have let myself down. I am upset. I had prepared but it was so apparent that my fundamentals are not strong. I have ruined my chances baba. I did not know many of the questions and was just trying to play around. It wouldn't have been that bad...but for the last statement by the interviewer - "we are not looking for latest features and techniques, we look for fundamentals. There are certain things that u never forget. Like in maths - u never forget your basics. So we always look for fundamentals. " And baba...that was like a slap on my face. I realized that all this while i have been trying to be something that i am not. My fundamentals are weak and it came out in the open. Baba...i am upset - not because of losing this opportunity of getting into my dream job - but because i feel its too late to rectify my past mistakes. I have taken things lightly and it is sheer luck that has kept me alive in this industry. I am unfit to move up the value chain, simply because my basics are not in place. Oh why did i do this to myself baba??? I could have done so many things in life...i am regretting not doing anything at all. I am doomed to lead a life of mediocrity and pretence. All these years, i have never admitted but the fact is that i am not going to make it big. You know how important it is for me to do something in life. Its about proving it to myself and not to anyone else. How can i redeem myself. I have fallen from grace in my own eyes......

Happy New Year baba....Hope i never get to see a terrible year like 2009 again in my lifetime.

Baba - my trip to jaipur was wonderful. The family had a great time and we all felt very much refreshed after this trip. We missed ma a lot. Appa kept talking about her all the time. I felt sad for him. But on the whole - a good trip. Now for the other things dear lord - i saw 3 idiots on sunday and believe me baba - it was an eye opener for me. I realized that the reason for my unhappiness is within me!!! Imagine...i have tried to seek answers to my problems everywhere...just that i didnt look within myself for the answers. I have been upset with my career....dont like the place where i am working, dont see any growth, but unable to switch because every other company demands a lot more than what i can do. I have my own set of constraints and as a result have to be very choosy about the offers i can consider. Overall - the dissatisdfaction level is at an all time high. Then i saw that movie and realized that i am unhappy because i dont love what i do. I am doing it simply because i got into it and am making money. now the money factor is getting to be important and am at such a position that quitting everything is not an option at all. Jobs at my profile require lot of onsite travel and 24*7 availability (for which i am not ready) and i dont get a job at a lower profile since i am not qualified for them or not suitable for them. So its a catch 22 situation. I need to keep running in the rat race just to stay where i am. God!!!I cant imagine doing this work for the next 10-15 years!!! So did a lot of thinking on what my passion is or what is it that i am good at. I figured out these things - reading books, writing and anything to do with english language. So first i thought becoming a school teacher would help. But i am not qualified for this since i dont have a B.Ed and am not likely to get a degree due to age factor and lack of experience. Took Nitin's help to understand that technical writing is more likely to meet my needs. I love reading and writing and i am a technical project manager in IT. So it all fits in together. Baba...now i want your opinion on this. Hope u think i am doing the right thing. Another thing baba - the second thing i learnt from that movie is that making deals with God doesnt help unless and until u r confident of your efforts and contribution. God also helps those who help themselves. I have been praying to u for so long to help me get a work from home option. But it was only when i tried hard to seek a solution, did i come across this. Thanks baba.Finally - even if i dont love what i am doing right now, give me the strength, wisdom and courage to handle things to the best of my abilities.

Baba - i understand that there are no shortcuts to success. I promise i will work hard and make things right. I will not let u down dear lord. I will not let down my parents...