Am
I just imagining things or have some people just pulled the short straw when
it comes to life’s little situations and irritations. I mean, some people’s
lives seem to go through the grinder on a daily basis. It’s just one
thing after another.

When
you think about it, there are many things (and people) that can irritate or
offend us. And there are many ways that others can hurt us, even if they really
don’t mean to. One episode. One action. One word - just seems to flow
into another. In such circumstances these acts aren’t really crimes,
they are more often than not errors of judgment. On occasion, irritating errors
of judgment. And errors of judgment aren’t something that we do intentionally.
We more often than not just do them without even thinking about how our actions
can affect others, or how our spoken words could, and can, destroy relationships.
These are not things that we ‘plan’ to happen. They ‘aren’t’
calculated. They just - sort of seem to happen at the heat of the moment.
Such behaviour sometimes being down to our own lack of sensitivity; our naivety;
or our lack of experience within the world in which we live. And I think that
such unintentional acts require both our understanding, and our forgiveness.

Having
said this however, lets turn the coin over and lets say that the hurt inflicted
upon us ‘was’, and ‘is’, calculated. It was inflicted
upon us to cause pain, misery and anxiety. Such actions without a doubt are,
‘sinful’. Some might even go so far as to say ‘darn right
wicked’. In my opinion, there really is no excuse for such malice. No
excuse that can be given for the distress that might be caused. And yet, we
have to also remember that within the hearts and minds of each and every one
of us are the seeds and spores of both hatred and wickedness (Rom 3:23). Not
one of us is free from our own worst enemy – that being ourselves. And
the question therefore is, can we forgive such calculated acts? Can we even
sometimes forgive ourselves for the things that we do to others?

I think that the problem can be within the very act of forgiveness itself!
For if we leave the offence to fester within, the longer the mind dwells upon
what has happened, the harder it is to go to the one who has offended us and
seek some sort of recompense, thus perhaps renewing the relationship. But
if we try to think on the terms of:

a)
How much ‘we’ sometimes hurt others without even meaning to do
so.

b)
If we try to understand where they (our chastiser) may be coming from, and
how in the past they may have been truly hurt, and the anger and hurt is still
festering within, it might help us to come to some form of understanding as
to why they react to us in the way that they do.

c)
Very often, people are what they are because of the thoughts, actions and
reactions of others, i.e.- what, love, joy, happiness, hate and despair, and
all the rest of the emotions and experiences that they, and we have encountered,
as we all journey through life.

If we try to understand that because of some ‘hurt’ or ‘pain’
within our past, it sometimes makes us react towards others the ‘hurtful’
way that we do, it can help us get to a point of understanding that, even
if we aren’t able to totally forgive at this moment in time, we are
at least on the road to forgiveness, and that’s a good start.

Did
I say a good start? Well, what about those times when we have tried and tried
to forgive, and we have made moves towards our offender in a positive way
and they still treat us in a maliciously? What then? Do we just shrug our
shoulders and walk away, telling ourselves that we have done our best and
they just aren’t interested. Do we just count our losses and call it
a new day? After all, time moves on and so does life.

Lets admit it. In a situation such as this, all that we want to do is make
a new start and have a brighter future. We just want a bit of peace and happiness
within our life and all of the sadness and madness to go away. Yet, even if
we do venture to break away from our past, without the act of forgiveness,
the shadow of our former existence is still there; it hasn’t really
gone away; nor has the hurt been made null and void, no matter how hard we
may have try to put it to the back of our mind. Putting the ‘ghost to
rest’ just hasn’t really happened. The past always seems to be
there to haunt us. We aren’t free; we’re still the victim. For
our own spiritual and mental well being therefore, we have to try and turn
the situation around. We have to turn our present darkness into light, because
the question is: “If then the light within you is darkness, how great
is that darkness!” (Matt 6:23b.)

So
where do we go from here? I think that this is only something that we can
answer for ourselves when we have been on the blunt end of such acts and actions.
After all, we are all so very different – and yet – so very much
alike - one from another. But having said this, forgiveness sometimes takes
time; a long time, to materialise. But if forgiveness is to work, as with
any other conscious action, it has to have a starting point, and that starting
point has to be within ourselves, not within others. We have to recognise
the fact that without forgiving - we will go on despising, and perhaps even
hating those who have mistreated us. It really is a never-ending vicious circle
of destruction from which there seems to be no escape. So having said this
I’m going to end with a quote, I’m afraid I can’t remember
where it came from, but its quite simple, and I think its worth remembering: