Hi everyone, just wanted everyone to know I'm still alive. I've been going through a lot lately, and just haven't been in a livejournal mood. I still love you all though, and if you ever need me you can always find me at KaleighBytheway.tumblr.com and my twitter, also KaleighBytheway.

I love you, I don't care who you are, or what your story is. If you need to be loved, I'm here. My heart is waiting, happily pinned to my sleeve. Let me be that light in the dark of the shadows, it's never to late to find your way home.

Saturday is my dad's birthday, he would have been 47. It's still really sinking in that he's not coming back. That I'm never going to see him again. Having to talk to people about him without crying. Seeing the way people look at my younger brother, and can see my dad in everything he does. I'm so fucking thankful I don't see dad when I look at Jordan. Anyways, back to Saturday. I'm spending the day with Jordan. We're going to the rodeo to watch a parade in the morning, and that night we're going to go downtown to see Sharks! On Fire! play. I'm... I'm going to be drinking, and I have no problems admitting that.

Sometimes I feel like I should post, so the few people that care can know I'm still alive... But then I shout "BEGONE INTERNET! I NEED YOU NOT!!" and go offline for a day or too... But always come crawling back, crying "I missed you internet, please forgive my ignorance."

Mix by aholelabledlove, artist's note: I wasn't sure what I was going to get when I didn't leave any notes for the author, but wow was I suprised. I'd like to thank rubytuesday5681 for thinking my mix was worth writing too. I'd also like to thank hesmagicandmyth and glo_starz for helping me decided when to call my mix "done". Both titles are click through links!

Mix Title: When Your Soul DepartsFic Title: I Pray You Die Slowly, So I Could Be The Last Thing You SeeAuthor: rubytuesday5681Band(s): MCRPairing(s): Frank/GerardSummary: Gerard struggles as he mourns his grandmother's death during the recording of Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge. Frank supports and loves him and helps pull him through it.Rating: Hard R Word Count: 7,749Warnings: Lots of hurt/comfort and angst. Some fluff and schmoop. Lots of talk about death, dying, and the afterlife. Mentions of murder and suicide. Drinking, talk of alcoholism. Bareback sex.Disclaimer: This is not real. I made this up in my head. None of this ever happened. I don’t own anyone in this story, they own themselves. I’m not making any money from this.Author’s Note(s): Many thanks to my betas Jamie2109 and mnkyjnkieang. Established relationship, set just after Elena died while the band was writing/recording Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge.