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Sunday, May 22, 2011

still here....

I haven't been visiting the blogging world quite as much lately.... I've been popping on here every day or two to read all of the blogs that I follow, but haven't felt like I have as much to say, not sure if this is good or not. Six months was the 19th, and even then, I couldn't come up with a post. I don't know what to say about it... I feel in some ways like I'm healing, and others like I'm rooted in the same old grief, depends on the minute I suppose! I can't believe that I'm now closer to a year away from my time with Kristen than I am to the day that she arrived, and left. Only by a few days, but still.... we're moving towards that awful anniversary, the birthday that never should have been, her birthday should have been in March! I wish it were different... I want a two month old healthy little girl, I miss what should have been! I've started my Lupron, my first injection was last night. Today I have a headache, not sure if it's related, but most likely it is... I don't get them all that often.Anyway, sorry this is kind of a blah post, but I'm kind of in a blah mood today! I'm trying to keep up on commenting, but I know I've been falling short there as well... please know that my silence doesn't mean I've left you, I'm still here reading, crying, laughing, and praying with you all!

I am in the exact same boat you are...i think this may be considered part of the "acceptance" phase of the grief process. I am still up in the air if it is a good thing or not, but I guess at some point we had to reach it.