I’m Outta Control: My Worst Enemy…

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When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you.

~African Proverb

Why am I my own worst enemy?

Seriously! I’ve come to the realization that I am THE hardest on myself. I’ve expected more of “ME” than anyone else in my life. For years I’ve blamed it on others. And to top it all off, I push myself to do things that are almost humanly impossible to accomplish and sound downright ridiculous when you explain it to someone who asks: “So what have you been up to…?”

I admit it! I’ve spent years hiding my imperfections, creating personal expectations that only a “superwoman” could possibly achieve {Okay I admit it-I suffered from this delusion of grandeur in the 80′s !} …..and I’ve used my girlfriends’ “perfected” qualities as the measuring stick for my own self worth. (i.e. “C—-’s” great cooking skills and fabulous ability to entertain , ‘L——–’s” perfectly clean and organized house, “J——–’s” sense of humor and ability to make friends, and “K—-’s” perfectly toned body and beautiful hair, etc…etc..etc..)

But then something happened.

I turned 50!

And realized that -I am outta control…AND I’M TIRED!

Tired of being perfect, tired of being a superwoman and tired of attempting to be a compilation of all the perfect women I’ve ever known.

And so this brings me to where I am at today-which is the first step towards making changes-self awareness.

So I am admitting to the world that I have been my own worst enemy.And I am going to STOP IT.

So to all of you that have known the old me I want you to know this:

If you don’t like the new me AND you feel the need to tell me so-I will respond to you with the following words of wisdom- that I learned in the first grade:

“Stick and stones may break my bones…

But words will NEVER hurt me!”

Because you see I now understand…”When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you!”

Welcome to Fancy House Road! My name is Camberley & this is where I love to share stories about my life as a wife & working mother to two little girls (2 and 3 months). In my free time, I love to spend time with my family, cook, DIY, decorate and organize.