In need of some support!!

I am currently 10 weeks pregnant with my third child - 9 years after my second!! (I started with kids early though, I'm only 31). While my two kiddos are excited and I'm excited about the pregnancy for the most part, I'm also freaking out a little bit.

3 years ago I became pregnant and things were going great. At 9 weeks I had a check up, things were good. At 12 weeks I went back in and nothing. I ended up M/C really badly - I ended up passed out in the ER from blood loss and spent the weekend getting blood transfusions. I felt lucky to be alive afterwards. :( I have not yet had my first doctor's visit for this pregnancy because they've been too busy - my appointment is still a little over a week away - and I'm scared.

On top of this, the father, whom I've been dating since '06 (same one from the M/C pregnancy) and I had split up the week before I found out about the pregnancy. I had lived with him for the past 3 1/2 years but he is ridiculous about porn (seriously, why does any man need over 600 videos saved up, downloading more daily with me in the other room while he does so - plus playboys, etc. ??) - and my feelings on it never mattered. Now however, he wants to work things out (and was trying to before I found out about the pregnancy) and he says he really wants the baby. However, the only way he has been supportive is with money. My kiddos are the ones rubbing my back and massaging my feet and running off to get me a snack when I'm too sick to get out of bed. (Love those guys!!)

In any case, I'm stressed the heck OUT right now, not really sure what to feel and could use some support. :/

Comments (3)

Cheer up sunshine and be positive...haven't been in your situation so i can't give advice but we both know stress isn't good for anyone! As for the guy ask him to cut bak everyone has their down fall that's his...maybe ask him to be a bit more supportive of your emotional needs take it one day at a time...hope I was able to cheer you up just a bit...

Tell him if he wants to work it out then it means getting in couples counseling ASAP because you need to get your relationship on track before teh baby gets here. A third party can make it a lot easier to hear each other without getting defensive and help you talk to your SO in a way that they will hear what you really mean, instead of what they want to hear. Good luck mama!!

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Crunchy, Cajun, AtheistEBFERFCDCSAPBWingSAHM to DD"The Bear" born at home 7.10.09 and #2 on the way

I agree, maybe counseling will help him work through his addiction.Â It sounds like a tough situation, but I really don't think that you should have to compromise your self-esteem or integrity for his addiction to porn.Â From the sound of his collection, it seems like it is a pretty serious addiction that will continue to grow until it completely ruins/takes over his life.

I hope he can work through this and come through on the other side and I hope the best for you both.Â Even though you love him and want to help him, remember to take care of yourself first.Â I'm sure that whether you end up staying together or not, this baby will be a blessing to your lives.