Wednesday, April 22, 2009

100th Post!

Amazed. Joyful. Grateful. In awe. Happy. Smiling. Hopeful. Pregnant...I have not felt this way in so very long. I cannot stop smiling, I cannot believe this is my life. There were days I thought this might never happen, that I might never feel such sheer joy ever again. I never want this feeling to end.I know it is early, I know anything can still happen, but I am committed to enjoying each & every day of this pregnancy. There are things that are beyond my control, but I can't obsess over them. This is further than I have ever been before and for today, that is enough.This is my 100th post & so much has happened in the last year and a half. There were some dark and bitter moments along the way & some glimmers of hope too. It is amazing how much your life can change in just one week with just one phone call...I can't even comprehend how much I already love this little baby growing inside of me. Can you believe that at just 4 weeks and 6 days, just 20 short little days of life, there is another heart beating inside of my own? It astounds me every time I think about it. I love that my baby's heart began beating today - the day of my 100th post - such a milestone on this long and painful journey.When I began blogging I never imagined how much lay ahead of me - how many stories would move me to joyful tears or heartbreaking sobs, how many women would inspire me and root for me, how I would care so deeply for so many families I have never even met, how many friends I would make a long the way, or how much pain & heart break was would come with every failed cycle and mostly, I never could have imagined how much joy was awaiting me on this journey.I am humbled by this miracle growing inside of me. I hope and pray everyday that this baby is a fighter, that he or she will grow big & strong, that my body gives this baby what it needs to thrive, that this will finally be our happy ending...I feel like a new person & I like this woman very much!

So very happy for you! Your feelings remind me so clearly how I felt some 30+ weeks ago, when we first found out about our pregnancy, what an amazing time. The whole pregnancy is definitely a time to enjoy, with so much still in front of you, keep your hope and happiness up! Keeping my fingers crossed for you and your growing family!

And you've got me crying! I have followed your blog since...perhaps summer or fall and I have rooted you on. I am delurking to say not only how thrilled I am for you, but to also say how your beautiful post moved me to tears. I am an IVF mom too...many years and many procedures to get to parenthood. I remember the elation of finally, finally being pregnant. I am THRILLED that you are savoring every second even now. Wishing you and your baby all the best--so very happy for you and your husband AND your family and friends who have rooted you on and now share in your joy as well!

Found your blog and it has been great to follow your story!!! I am so excited for you and cant wait to hear more about your little one! Oh and BY THE WAY... You have to come up with a new blog name now bc.... You ARE expecting! :) YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!

Emily dearest!! I am so behind on the blogging world that I wasn't aware of this astounding superb fantastic great news!!!I am so freaking happy for you girl!!!I'm smiling from ear to year, my fingers are tapping happily on the keyboard. Please get a huge virtual hug from me! wow. This is good. such good news. :)Congrats also on your 100th post. And what a way to celebrate it: with your baby's heartbeat!hugs hugs hugs!

You are so sweet and I can just tell that you are a beautiful person. You are going to make a great mom. I am so happy for you. I hope this pregnancy continues to thrive and you enjoy every single second of it. Bless you!!!!

What a wonderful 100th post you get to write! I am so happy for you and Sean. I love the attitude you have regarding your pregnancy. I wish I could focus on the positive a little more. Enjoy it all Emily. You deserve it.

About Me

I am Emily. I will be 37 next month. I am a MOM to 3 little ones.
I am a consultant with R+F and I LOVE my job!
I am a PTA volunteer & preschool parent board member.
Sean is 41 - he is the most easy going, laid back, supportive man I have ever known.
We struggled with infertility for 5 years We have severe Male Factor Infertility. IVF/ICSI.
We had 3 failed fresh IVF cycles and FET was our miracle. Our snowbaby was born on December 31, 2009!
We have had 2 surprise pregnancies since and have another daughter and a son.
I've had an induction, a surprise home birth and a water birth.
We are Buffalo born & bred.
We Love the Buffalo Bills & Sabres - we are glutton for punishment :)
We are homebodies.
I am one of the most emotional people you will ever meet.
I am a very positive person.
I am very close to my mom.
Family is everything to us.
I am an only child with 6 half brothers & sisters.
Sean is the baby of 5.
Sean is the "wee yank" - the only sibling to be born in America & not Ireland.
I'm a little bit of everything - mostly Italian.
We love to travel.
We love movies.
We love going out to eat.
I love to read.