I NEED YOUR HELP!
I NEED to make my survival goal and I am no where near it and I only have ONE WEEK LEFT to make it !!
This is for my safety and to keep me healthy and alive !!
It’s for meds and hospital bills and survival needs!!! I’m going to be homeless in about a month so PLEASE donate anything you can or boost my gofundme me link or post it everywhere you can!!!
this is URGENT!

Thank you, I love you

My link is right on my page and in my Instagram bio ♥️ please help keep me safe and alive…
This is my lifeline right now !!

Therapist: you can only reconnect with yourself when your body feels truly safe

me@me: ok you’re out of the family house, you have friends, I got you a nice calm living environment and the least stressful student life possible, so where u at??…. like, what u want now?? a pillow fort with 47 pad locks?!

Oh god, I do the whole "too good to need to be tied up" sub thing, like if you put my hands above my head I will keep them there for as long as I can, until I flinch or something, but even then, I don't touch anything without permission or until you've had your way/fun with me 😅

good. keep doing that, it’s cute.

i was honestly surprised by the amount of comments i got about how ~hard~ it is to do that (it’s … not) or alternatively, how well trained my sub must be, or how much the dudes commenting would like to be trained into being like that (there was no training, my ex just enjoyed me having control and teasing him. and ngl the closest thing to ‘training’ that i would ever want to do is developing a trusting relationship with my partner so they feel safe with me to the point where they can submit completely in bed)

Is it weird to cry after hearing the voice of the person you once fell for? Just hearing the tone of the sound that helped calmed you down and made you feel safe, it reminds me of the time when we were once close

“So lonely, sir - so very lonely,” cried the child. “Everyone hates me! Oh! Sir, don’t pray be cross to me.” The child beat his hand to his heart, and looked into his companion’s face with tears of real agony.’The slam of the front door against the chill silence of my home shook me back to reality and with a gasp I shut the book tight to my chest and spoke one name.“Jacob?”The watch on my room indicated it was almost midnight and was often the time that Jacob would make it back to me with his voice booming against the walls saying he was home. Tonight though, I heard nothing.I grabbed my sheer nightrobe and put it on quickly, ignoring the cold wooden planks that got me dashing out and newly shouting Jacob’s name.“Jacob, is that you?”I gripped the handrail tightly and took careful steps downstairs, now feeling a sinking feeling of fear that perhaps someone uninvited had entered my home. But in a second that sensation was gone and was replaced by even a worse emotion as I saw a very beaten Jacob on my couch with his head thrown back and his body sprawled.“Jacob…Oh, God. What happened?”In closer inspection, the man in my home looked nothing like the one I had met or the one that everyone looked up to. Here in my presence lied the broken pieces of my boyfriend and I was so shaken by it that tears welled up and my hands on my mouth to cover up my shock.“It was horrible, so horrible.” Jacob sobbed.Small step after another, I walked over to him and sat on the edge of the couch, staring at how he was silently crying and emitted trembling sobs.“Jacob,” I whispered scared, “what happened?”“Come, come over here. Please.” Jacob said opening his arms to me.Stiffing back my tears, I curled into a ball and scooted to his body, soon his arms draping over me and swaying me side to side with a heartbreaking motion and his tears warming the top of my head.“The whole place fell apart before we could anything and my Rooks…my Rooks, they all died right there…God, right there in front of me. And I could do nothing, nothing to save them.”“Please don’t blame yourself, Jacob.” I told him.“How can I not? I should have warned them or something. Or perhaps I should have gone alone.”“So that I end up losing you instead? No, Jacob.”Slowly, I pulled away from Jacob and his weak arms fell to his sides, his face ruby red with tears and a runny nose.With the sleeves of my robe, I wiped away the dirt, the dried blood, and the accumulation of his ongoing sobbing. “Not everything will turn out the way you want it to, love, and you must be aware of that. There might be times were lives will be lost and well, it will hurt but you must be strong.”“It just isn’t fair. I didn’t even get a chance to…I just,” He tried to speak.I put a finger to his lips and shook my head. “Don’t.”His eyes begged to talk, to keep blaming himself and for him to regret it all and wish that none of it would have happened but I knew that at times like these, it was for the best for him to not say a word and understand himself with silence that any tragedy that occurred to him he had to accept as part of his life and his duty as Assassin. Yet he still had me to console him.“Here,” I leaned on the end of the couch and patted my chest, “lie down with me.” Nodding blankly, Jacob slowly moved over me and let his body deflate on top of me, his shakiness vibrating on me as my arms rocked him like a baby.I moved to the side strands of his mousy brown hair and tugged them behind his burning crimson ear and planted a kiss on his forehead.“You make me feel safe when the world out there is hell. In your arms I can escape all I must put myself through.” His cracked voice whispered.“I’ll always be here for you,” I started, “and I’ll always expect you with open arms for when you need me.”His arm wrapped behind my back and he pushed me to him more, breathing out deeply and his desperate shakes dying out.“I wouldn’t know what to do without you. Without your words, without your love. You mean the world to me.”I twitched a smile and newly kissed his head. “I’m the blessed one to have you by my side.” I put my cheek on top of his head and brushed my fingers on his still warm face, our breathing in unison as we silently lied together and embraced each other.A few minutes passed before I lifted my face off his sticky hair and shook his now very still body.“Jacob?”A smile spread on my lips as I saw he had dozed off on my chest, a heartwarming flood of glee running through me as I stared at his innocent face resting. I would have preferred if he had fallen asleep on my bed but he looked so comfortable the way he lied that I did nothing to move him and rather just settled in by his side and together we fell asleep hugging closely knowing that as long as we had each other, all was going to be fine.

My intentions with you?
To be the one that makes you smile when you though it was impossible
To be the one you talk about when you get asked about love
To be the one that’s holding you so close at night that I can chase all your nightmares away
I want to be the one that keeps you safe and loved