Going over old bits of evidence of whatever
went catastrophically wrong with my health..
starting a little over a year ago.

..a few of many photos of "artifacts".
well..thats what the doc's tell me they are.
not real.
optical illusions. [photo fakery, perhaps?]

..ok doc, how do these "artifacts" get generated..
no stains or other processes involved..
just drip a blood drop onto a slide..and take a picture.
They are not an "digital artifact"..looks exactly the same
when I peer thru the eyepiece.

...a "bit of lint" falling on the the slide
will not be coated in white cells in the 30 seconds
it takes to put the slide onto the stage and focus.
I made a point of not counting filaments that were not
coated in blood goo, just to avoid such claims.

"..it's an artifact" was all the docs would say.
well that and "if it were real you would be dead".

..hmm... you consider such an event to
be deadly but you are not interested in investigating?
You are THAT confident in your opinions?

strange mental processes these doc's have.

well...to be fair, he can't "solve" all mysteries within
the 12 minutes of "contact time" allowed by his practice
unless he makes liberal use of his "godly insight".
And when faced with something out of his "comfort zone"
that trump card marked "delusional" is so useful.

such absolute faith in their prejudices;
"it's an artifact"
...if I have not seen such things before..they can't be real. Filaments growing out of your skin can't be real.
Filaments in blood can't be real. [Hey, Dr Kildare, not
EVERYTHING in the entire of human biology was included in your elite training books..back in 1982.] Things change,
especially these days..or are you as unaware of
the accumulating toxins in the biosphere as you are ignorant of all matters pertaining to proper human
nutrition? [your "just eat a balanced meal" mantra
is a very thin camoflauge for your ignorance]

poor doc...gotta be annoying having to deal with such dedicated
delusional people that have nothing better to do all day
but rip holes in their skin, stuff them full of lint..
and photoshop blood pictures. Those m.d.'s sure
have a hard job. Well not really. After all they have
their well worn "DOP" rubberstamp. Solves all mysteries
pretty damn quick. Just keep collecting those
[minimum] $150 and up "doc chat" fees every 15 minutes.
No matter what. Got to keep up with the mortgage payments
on the McMansion...and the yacht...country club fees..
the his and her BMW's..

...now..take your prescription for helpful brain meds..
and go see some of the head shrinkers on that list I
just gave me. I can't help you . Don't come back.

.{{Yeah, I grew up being indoctrinated to have "great
respect" for the physicians...the healers of mankind...
don't question them...the doctor knows best..
..
..
...i think i got THAT propaganda
permanently burned out of my system. what a crock.}}

I'm done! I totally feel what you are saying. I never go to the md anymore as they are just too m*o*o*nic for the wise. If you want to know more about what you have, it's all caused from pathogens and their excrement. It's everywhere. There is only one disease and we must know how to combat it. It won't take a year either. I wish doctors would keep their heads on but whatever, I can't deal with their crap and all their fees.

I know. It's like they honestly think we fake all the $hit and mutilate our bodies on purpose (for attention? drug problems possibly? paranoia? OCD? Guess delusional parasitosis was the best one they could come up with...). Oh and I just LOVE picking through my "hairs" on my body. I also LOVE picking at bacterial skin infections. It makes me all giddy inside to not know whether or not my brain is going to function normally (oh wait, that's right, I'm doing this for attention!) Finally what I "enjoy the most" is obsessing about it and trying to convince every doctor I come in contact with what seems like it would be identifiable proof and having them refuse to even look at it. Pfft... Oh ya, the attention I like the most is having everyone think I have some kind of parasite living inside me! LMAO That kind of stuff doesn't give you attention. That kind of stuff drives people away and make's them avoid you like the plague! I wake up every morning and think,"man, I wonder how I can con a doctor into giving me medication with nauseating side affects that I don't need!" Hell, if that were true, I would just swallow some charcoal or rat poison!

Everything that I have stated above was sarcastic (to those who can't see the obvious, IM TALKING TO YOU DOCTORS!) and I really do have a crippling disease that I fight with constantly with recurring side affects that come and go without warning. I think that Doctor's now would rather make countless amounts of hundred dollar bills off of patients that are looking for a glimmer of hope and are hanging on their every word in hopes of a cure. It's sick, but it's reality. Either face it and don't take no for an answer, or take their addictive drugs that have side affects that no doubt cause other health problems later in life.

I know what you mean Morg. My body is doing "alright" for now, but my brain... I'm starting to feel like I'm turning into someone else and I don't like it. These thoughts are so scattered and it feels like they aren't my own. The "old" me would've NEVER thought of some of the $hit I've been thinking! I want to get better and I need to sort out some other stressful things in my life (past and present), but I refuse to see a therapist. Oh, and my Mom just enlightened me that my Dad has always had BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and she's always suspected that I had it. Not one disease, but TWO! I mean FFS, why don't you kick me when I'm down?! What next, cancer?! I mean, come on! lol (that's a nervous laugh btw)

I've been told cancer can form in the later stages of Morgellons...sorry, but that is what I've been told. I have had my own battles from youth with the mentally distubed labels which doesn't help with this circumstance, but if you are smart in how you handle it, you can make them look more delusional than you!!!!!

I don't like who I'm becoming either, never did I speak rudely to anyone, but when push comes to shove...guess I realized the only way to get better is to shove this in their faces. The truth can't be ignored forever. We all here know the truth, we know this is real, 15,000 people can't all have the same experiences and all be delusional or stuffing fibers in their skin. I also hate the way I look, I can hardly recognize myself from a few years back then again either can people who have known me for most of my life. I find humor at the stupidity that surrounds this and that's how I get myself to fight every day.