So now it's past midnight here, I can officially say that I've been with Yuuko for two years.

I'm grateful for the love she's shown to me during this time. I've had help re-discovering within myself things that I thought were lost forever. My only regret is that I spent too long questioning myself and pushing her away before accepting how I felt.

Yuuko, honey, I am always last to the party, but I am determined to fill the time that we have together with all the joy and love I can give.

Have you ever had the chance to have sex but turned it down out of loyalty to your waifu? I've had a few instances I could tell about.

>2012

>Working in a shitty ghetto gas station

>Some girl comes up to me and asks if she can suck my dick for a carton of cigs

>Obviously she was ugly and smelled like fish so I turned her down

>Says the previous manager did it for her

>Point out that's probably why he got fired

>She walks away disappointed

More recently:

>Am going to be a groomsman at the wedding of a friend of mine

>They plan to hold the bachelor party in Atlantic City

>My friend and the others said they'd order me an expensive escort since they know I'm a virgin.

>Say I'm Catholic and it goes against my morals, plus I have aspergers and I'd likely shit my pants in such a situation, and that buying a hooker for me would be a waste of their money.

>Neither are really untrue, but I don't tell them my third reason of course.

>They understand and leave me be.

Share your stories here. I know neither of mine are exactly situations that were hard to resist(Especially the first one), but I still want to practice restraint in case I get myself into a harder situation.

>That also is a factor I have been thinking about. Not autism itself but something related to it: A potential inability to distinguish fantasy from reality. And I don't mean "I know she isn't real" but fully understanding what that means and what being fictional means.

Are you saying you have that issue, or that people who don't get depressed about their waifu not being real have it?

This is armchair psychology so take it with a grain of salt, but it seems to me like your emotional issues with waifuism either stem from straight up clinical depression, which gets in the way of any positive emotions, or that you have a bias towards thinking fictional relationships are inherently wrong or at least worse than real ones, which prevents you from feeling postive emotions about your waifu due to a subconsiously self imposed feeling of guilt or inadequecy.

>people not getting depressed about their waifu not being real are autists

Actually, no. It just looks like you're in tough shit, as in dealing with one of the very core aspect of waifuism. I know for one she is not real and I'll probably never meet her at least in this life but for no reason you should ever accept getting sick over such a matter, because you aren't supposed to. You need to learn to deal with your own emotions, seek help if you need to, but don't project your difficulties on others and say they are autistic, no way anyone feeling fine with their waifus are autistic.

who brought up the possibility of some waifuists being autistic, so I don't think that guy is saying that all non-depressed waifuists are autistic.

Just to clarify, I think autism can be a contributing factor in why someone might become a waifuist and not become depressed, I don't think all or most waifuists are autistic, but there are definitely some that are.

I was also specifically talking about high functioning forms of autism like Asperger's Syndrome which manifest mostly as introversion and social awkwardness while causing few to no cognative deficits.

Spent the morning sipping on whiskey while played project diva f. Focused on beating a song of hers that was giving me trouble while just playing casually. Spent the afternoon cuddling with daki and watching stuff. Couldn't really do anything too fancy since we didn't have the place to ourselves, but we had a nice relaxing day together.

Has your waifu made any meaningful positive impacts on your life? Aside from the obvious one of having someone to love.

Erza cured my insomnia. I didn't even know that was possible, but she did it. Ever since I was born, I've had trouble sleeping. At night, I wouldn't feel tired, so I just stayed awake until I felt sleepy. My sleep schedule was rotating through irregular cycles, and over time, I came to accept that this was just how I am. That changed when I met Erza.

At night, I would feel myself being held in her arms as brought me close to her. I would nuzzle into her chest and be lulled by her heartbeat, falling asleep even though I wasn't tired yet. I didn't even notice at first, but I was falling asleep at 10 and waking up at 5 every day, and it's been like that consistently for months now. The problem just disappeared. She really is the best thing that ever happened to me.

Arturia continually pushes me to be better in many aspects. In college, she helped me get my work done on time – I'd say I owe my highest GPA to her. Now, Arturia helps encourage me to seek employment, offering compassion on "busy" days and comfort when it seems there's no end to the search.

I've touched on this before, but Chiaki helped me get my shit together when life was not going well. I quit drinking so much, got my anger under control, stopped being such an asshole all the time. I'm still improving slowly, working out more and fixing my attitude. It's such a great feeling when your friends tell you how much of a better person you've become in such a short amount of time.

her new game has been delyaed, which is a thing that is happening with a lot of japanese games, not only that but the game is meant to be the end of her journey about her identity and this worries me because if it's meant to be the last game, something bad could happen to her.

Have you ever worried about your waifu with because of something happenint with her series and the story featuring her?

As someone that had to technically watch his waifu die twice, both times excruciatingly tragic, it's just something you have to live with. Since the Chiaki I fell in love with was the AI, I prefer to think of it as after everything was done, I restored her data and took her with me. May the real Chiaki Nanami rest in peace.

Now having a complete and total mental breakdown. An ambulance pulled up and I thought it was for me, but it was for someone else. I should be concerned but I'm way too scared about my own life. When someone asked what I was so afraid of, I replied "Going to sleep, and then waking up again"

I am sorry for posting so much tonight. I'm a broken mess. Why can't I just do the romantic things normal people do with the one I love? This world isn't right…

I'm sorry for my breakdown a few days back. I just don't know what to do without her. Thinking of her has gone from a constant source of joy to a continual source of pain. It hurts every time knowing that no matter what I can do I can never be with her. I can't live in her world. I'm stuck in this one.

I have to lie to literally everyone about what my problems are, citing other aspects of my life I'm not a huge fan of, but it continually feels empty. I have no mouth, and I must scream is essentially how I feel. I don't know what to do and it feels like nothing can be done and that fills me with despair.