4.29.2012

Feeling Down

What a crappy weekend for me.... I have been feeling very crabby and down the past few days. I have also been inclined to eat anything in sight. I am not even sure if I am hungry, but I feel like I have to have "that" to eat when I see something yummy. I need to get myself in check with this! I really do not want to gain a bunch more weight. I have already gained more than I wanted. This can definitely bring the mood down :/

With the crabbiness I have been trying to keep it to myself. I do not want to be "one of those pregnant girls" that is crabby and bitchy throughout her pregnancy. I have felt great up until a few days ago. I was only getting into these moods once in a while and now I feel like I am stuck in a rut. Yesterday I painted my toenails and I was exhausted after because it was so hard to bend to reach them. I am only 27 weeks! Why do I feel like a tub tub now?

I did manage to get them painted though - that is a plus

The one thing that is bugging me that I know really should not bug me, but it does is my baby shower. I am the type of person that feel bad when people do stuff for me. I have been good with the shower and not asked too many questions and let others plan it, but I wanted to be there to help set up so I did not feel like I was taking advantage of people. I know that they are doing it out of love and because they want to, but this is just how I feel when others do things. I was told that I could not help and I am down about that. Why? Good question. I am afraid that if I do not help do something I will feel bad during the whole shower. I wonder where this comes from? I have always been like this. I feel like I do not deserve all of this and I should have to help.

What a downer post huh? Geesh

Here is a picture of me last night after an almost meltdown because I could not find something to wear that I felt looked good.

I may be smiling there for the picture, but I was a mess before this. I am really trying to enjoy this pregnancy, but I am starting to get uncomfortable. My hips hurt when I am sleeping because I am sleeping on my side. My ear on the side I am sleeping on hurts because I do not move much during the night. It is hard to get comfortable and then when I do I have to go to the bathroom. I got up three times last night for a bathroom run.

I must say that I do feel better after getting those feeling out and expressed. Thanks for reading! I promise the next post will not be so mopey (word? who knows)

2 comments:

Aw Ashlee.. cheer up! It feel like it's too early for me to have mood swings but I'm feeling pretty down lately too. I know what you mean about the shower. Everyone wants to pamper you. Do your best to relax and just enjoy it! On another note, I hope this isn't creepy but you have super adorable toes. Hahah. I know I said it on facebook but you seriously look fantastic! I got up to pee 4 times last night. I can't fall back asleep for the life of me! UGH!

I know what you mean about the shower!! I feel helpless not being allowed to help or do anything. At least you know they are doing it out of love and you will have a blast! Let someone else pamper you because you will have a lot on your plate when baby boy comes!!!