Yesterday was a pretty good day, I went out and exposed myself to uncomfortable social situations, I'm still anxious about it, but I'm getting more desensitized to it, I just have to do it often and not get lazy with it.

Had a pretty good day yesterdat, but my sleep is ass lately. I may need to get a sleep study done on me or some shit because it's pretty fucking annoying. I'm not sure if it's due to me consuming a can of coke zero at 2 pm (for God's sake) or what it is, but it is definitely getting to my head and upsetting me. I'm also having some issues with my roommate, I try not to get upset about the things he does, but it is tough.

Yesterday was considered successful I guess, although this morning my mind is taken up by all the social conditioning bullshit at my job. Ughhh, I hate that. Where everyone is super polite and always apologizes and is PC as hell, the real world isn't like that though.

Still having a tough time expressing myself, you can't really do anything these days without people getting offended. That's no excuse for not doing anything, but man it doesn't make it easier when you naturally get nervous when everyone is pissed off or offended ugghhh lol.

I had a tough day yesterday, I was definitely in my head a lot and couldn't stop thinking, it's hard not to get lazy during the tough times, sometimes it feels as if I'm never making any progress though, can't get down on myself though, that won't help.

How is the progress going for you? I hope all is well. I am just a new starter to no fap, although familiar with YBOP for over 4 months.I had the past year full of constant relapse every second day with depression but now I hope I make a change.

One tip I can give you if you dont already know is, you can install K9 for your computer and this will protect you from accessing porn. To make sure that you dont cheat yourself when your mind "kicks in" to force you PMO, you can create new gmail account and a password that you will never remember, assign it with the k9 account and make a seperate password for it which you wont remember. There is no way in hell you can ever bypass that.Alternatively, you can download ColdTurkey for your computer and block all the sites that are time wasting, social media, games or porn (it allows you to import a list of porn videos to add to block list). Note that once you set the timer, there is no going back and the software will be locked. I set my timer to the year 3000 dec, just to be sure.

Another thing you can do which really helps is download an app blocker for your android or iphone. the purpose of this blocker is to prevent other users accessing your internet, contacts, social media or whatever. You can make a long password which you wont ever remember, assign it to the gmail account whos password you wont remember also, and block your safari, internet, google, facebook, etc.. For my android phone I blocked Google PlayStore and Appstore so that I dont cheat myself downloading adult content. I also blocked Settings too so that I can prevent myself uninstalling the blocker. I also hid the blocker so that in order to access the blocker app itself I need to dial a number on the keypad (which I dont remember).

Yea it takes a lot of sacrifice but it is definetely worth it. Make sure you only keep the apps you need (e.g. whatsapp, messages, contacts) and block the rest. We dont need smartphones except for communication purposes. Personally this has given me peace of mind as I cant physically access soft or hard material when my brain kicks in and forces me to PMO.

Yeah I know what you mean, I don't even really get urges to PIN much anymore though, it just sounds so undesirable and like a waste of time and mental energy. I agree with the phone thing too, I only use it when I have to or have finished all my work for the day!

3/16/18

I really need to let go of my ego because a lot of this stuff that I think matters really doesn't.

Ok, yesterday was a pretty good day, but I'm starting to get pissed off because I can never fall asleep on Sunday night before work, I don't know what it is, but it's really starting to get on my nerves ughhhh.