Welcome to my Oasis

So I saw this on twitter a couple days ago and it gave me an idea about a blog post.Lately I've been feeling distant. Life is going really well and I'm so thankful for the experiences that I have been through and the people who have come into my life but for some reason I've been feeling eh.I can't make up my mind about things,I have zero motivation to do ANYTHINGand I don't know why.It feels like everything is black and whitebland.There are times when I'm vibrant and eccentric and I have fun, but for some reason I always come back to the same feeling, usually when I'm about to fall asleep that somethings missing.If everything is going well why don't I feel the same way?So to try and cheer myself up I searched the depths of my laptop for pictures of me when I was genuinely enjoying myself.I feel like life is like a box of Lucky Charms.You have the bland wheat flakes shaped into things that no one truly understands. Kind of boring no one really likes them (especially little kids). These represent the monotonous times in life when nothing is really going on, theres no excitement and you don't feel like you're actually living.Then there are the marshmallows, everyone's favorite. They're colorful and tasty and SWEET. These are the sparse and special moments that happen everyone once in a while that have you craving more, that have you smiling like the little kid whose only had marshmallows for breakfast. Here are a couple of my marshmallow filled moments from the past year captured in time.​

​Old Musi​c and Old People

This is a picture of me dancing with my little brother Moses (he had fun I promise) this past summer when my family was in California. We went to an outdoor "jam fest" and I enjoyed dancing around in a crowd of drunk adults.

We had a picnic on the grass and ate El Pollo Loco as a family and it made me really appreciate my family even in the complicated situation we were in while on that vacation.

You Make Me Wanna

High School Dr​op-Out

This is a picture of my friend Madison and I "cheezin" after school one day when all the sophomores and juniors ditched the last part of school and headed to the beach. This was really fun day because everyone hung out together and we swam out to the sandbar to climb on some cliffs and I got to show off my new swim suit (white ruffle top), and I ate a large apple, and I was a HUGE social butterfly that day. I just wanted to laugh and talk and SOAK UP THE SUN :)

This picture is one of those bittersweet times. I'm sad that it ended but happy that it happened. It was at the beginning of the school year and I really enjoyed having someone to hang out with all the time and go on crazy adventures with even if they were just to Best Buy. It was my first time getting to know someone on a level like that and I will admit that I got scared. But I know now that I will be more prepared for the next relationship I get into.

The Goat House

One of my favorite times from sophomore year was hanging out at my friend Mason's house every Friday. And I everytime I went over there the furniture was always rearranged differently put it was always decorated the same; with christmas lights, waterpong, and

any other weird items Mason could find. During the fall time it felt like we were all there every weekend lol. I loved it because it was a time when all my friends hung out as a group and there was no beef. Everyone just had a good time. We did stuff we probably weren't supposed to, but it was worth it, and we created memories. ALL HAIL THE MIGHTY GOAT HOUSE!

Mcmmmm Duck Sauce

I had the pleasure of having one of the most interesting biology classes I could have ever hoped for. I got to spend it with two of my favorite people at the time, Jared and Sadie. We became so close and thanks to Sadie and Jared's

close living proximity, we got to also hang out on the weekends as well as in class. Class was always filled with laughter from the three of us and no matter how much Sadie and I bashed on Jared, he still holds a very special place in my heart (freshman crushes never go away). ​

Back On the Right Coast

This was taken the first day I got back from Arizona last summer. My friend Kelly and Kelsey decorated my room with posters, balloons, and candy to surprise me. I was soooo happy

to be back. Then we headed out for ice-cream at Dairy Queen and I ate like half the cone then squeezed the rest in my fist. IT WAS AWESOME. Then later that night we met up with a couple of our other friends and went night swimming and I just felt so happy and cared for that day. I really felt loved by my AMAZING friends :)))

All in All I am so thankful for my amazing marshmallow moments. They are definitely my favorite part about waking up in the morning. So I guess the lesson learned here is that you have to take a couple bites of your bland Lucky Charms, before you can indulge in the delicious marshmallows. :))))​xoxo Heavkinz