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Tuesday, 14 May 2013

4.32 Spencer's heartbreak

Heather
turned around to see Spencer with a look of horror written across his face,
“You knew for the past ten bloody years and you never said a damn thing.”

Heather
hated when Spencer was angry at her and she started to back away, “You have to
understand…” Spencer cut her off, “The love of my life, the mother of my son
and you never said.”

“I’m sorry
but you wouldn’t tell me anything and when I tried talking to you about Tracy
you kept saying you hated her.”

“The moment
I saw her I fell for her but I didn’t realise what an idiot I was until she
left me. If I stopped my criminal activity and got a job like she begged me
too, we would properly be married with more kids. Did you know I tried to
locate her for about three years after she left? If I’d known you had her
address I’d have come to you.”

He collapsed in the chair and Heather said, “You
are with Paris and you are getting married.”

Spencer
looked at his sister and said, “How can I marry her now. I need to see Tracy
and figure out if I still have feeling for her. Does Mathew know any of this?”

“Not yet?”

“Heather,
why were you speaking to Tracy?”

“Matt got
drunk and slept with woman who now claims she is expecting his baby. Hazel is
on the verge of leaving him. Apparently this all happened before he got with
Hazel. I asked Tracy to help find the truth.”

“I want her
address, Heather.” She looked at the sadness on his face and replied, “I don’t
think it’s a good idea.”

“Give me
that damn address now,” raising his voice.

Reluctantly Heather
agreed, “All I have is her work address and telephone number.”

Spencer
started to tremble and Heather got down beside him, “Spenc, what really went
on?”

He didn’t look at her and now with a shaky voice started to tell his side,
“I walked out the prison gates and the moment Tracy wrapped her arms around me
planting kisses on me I knew my criminal activity had to stop. I managed to get
a job and we started to talk about getting married and having another baby and
for a month I stuck to my promise then an offer came that I should have passed
up but didn’t. Anyway I got sent down for ten months, I kept myself to myself
and was out in five months but at the prison gates there were no hugs and
kisses. Tracy was hurt and upset at always being left to look after Mathew
while I was inside. She told me that she needed time away and I was to grow up
as Mathew needed a father. She said Mathew was staying with me. A few days later she phoned asking how Mathew was but I was angry she left me and refused
to let Tracy see him unless she came home. She put money in our joint bank
account for him but I never heard from her again. If I’d said sorry and not
used Mathew as a bargaining chip, she would have come back.”

Heather was
in shock, “Did you ever bad mouth Tracy to Matt?”

“Never. He
loves his Mum. I came to you for help because I couldn’t cope on my own. I
realised how Tracy must have felt and that is why I want to find her and
apologise.”

“Do you
still love Tracy?”

“Yes but I need
to see her to be 110% sure.” William walked in and asked what was going on.
When Heather explained, Spencer was attempting to go through the door but
William stopped him, “I think this is a bad idea, Spenc.”

“Really,
then tell me this if I told you that you could never see Heather again, what
would you do?” William stepped aside because he knew the answer, losing Heather
once was heart wrenching for him, the sleepless nights, longing for her and
aching for her was the worst time of William’s life.

In that moment he knew
what Spencer had to do. “I hope you find the answers you need.” William gave
back the details that Heather had given him.

“Thanks, I
don’t know how long I’ll be but I will let you know.”

“What about
Paris?” Heather asked.

“I’ll tell
her Mathew needs me. I want to be sure before I break her heart.” He called
Mathew, “I’m coming down, is it ok to crash with you?”

“Dad this
isn’t the best time…” Spencer interrupted him, “Well you can tell me all about
it when I get there.”

Spencer had
put his bag in the car when he saw Paris, “Where are you going?”

“Mathew is
in trouble and needs me. A woman is claiming he is the father of her baby.”

“Hazel must
be devastated.”

“She is a
mess and so is Mathew so I shouldn’t be more than a week.”

Paris gave him a
kiss and said, “I hope he can sort this out. Let me know what happens.” Spencer
smiled and got into the car to start the long drive to Lucky Palms. He started
to day dream about his life with Tracy.

He could remember her smell, how soft
her skin was and how when she was 16 having Mathew was the most natural thing
for her. Tracy dotted on him and Mathew loved his Mum. Spencer remembered when
he was out of prison how much he enjoyed spending time with Tracy and Mathew.
Now after ten years he was going to come face to face with his childhood sweet
heart, question playing on his mind now was he ready?

13 comments:

Oh boy. This is going to be a bumpy road for all involved. The real one I worry about here is Paris. Spencer Knows he'll break her heart if he leaves her and goes back to Tracy. Ugh! I'm so conflicted right now.

Poor Matt. He has no idea what's coming. Yeah, his dad, but he doesn't know or even fathom his dad's other reason for visiting.

Oh noes, this doesn't bode well. On the one hand, I can understand Spencer's need to know for sure if he still loves her before he marries Paris, but on the other hand, he's already committed himself to Paris. Poor Paris. I think she's going to be heartbroken either way this shakes out.

~ Maybe there is something wrong with my head,(other than a head-ache!)as the above comments do not make much sense to me!~ Spencer has loved Tracy since they were childhood sweethearts,he has to confront his past to see if his heart,is still committed to that love,so that he can go on with his future,the out come of that will determined where his heart lies,with Tracy,the mother of their child,or with Paris!~ I do agree,no matter what, someone will be hurt,but better now than after the wedding!~ I have a feeling that he is settling for a companion,now that Matt has left home to live his own life,but if he could have the love off his life back,what would you settle for?~ Loved it! I can not wait for more!(",)

He has loved Tracy since they were very young. He would rather know his true feelings thatn marry Paris and then divorce her. Someone will get hurt but I have a feeling it will be Paris mostly. Spencer settle, ummm maybe he was but only way he will find out is see his sweetheart face to face.

Poor Paris, she may have just lost Spencer and she doesn't know it yet!

I don't think going to Tracy is a good idea, sure he still loves her and she loves him too, but there are tons of reasons why they broke up, and too much has happened since then, they are both different people now, and they would probably be better off without each other.

Whatever Spencer decides one woman's heart will get broken, he can't have them both.

Such complications! I feel so sorry for Paris! Even if he does decide still to marry her, just the thought that he'd considered going back to his ex-wife will hurt.

All these years and Heather knew where Tracy was. I understand that he thinks that he needs to see if he still loves her, but I also wonder if maybe he should just let the past stay in the past. He has Paris now and he does love her. Tracy has her own life too!

Heather did know all along where she was and Spencer was furious with his sister. He does need to see her but did he really ever love Paris in the way he should? Sometime the past will collide with the future and here I think that this is happening.