’Good night’ I said with a mumble, almost as if it was to the world rather than any person. I had always thought of saying that as the last thing to say if I ever were to die. Of course there was always the chance that I wouldn’t be capable to, but I was always hoping. “Good night” seemed the correct phrase, since the doctors always said “Don’t worry, it’s like falling asleep”. I had still decided. “No way I am going to die like that, in a hospital bed.” Thankfully for me, I never got the chance to. Of course, now I wouldn’t get to see the end of my favorite hospital drama either! What is going to happen between that sexy doctor and the nurse? Is the nurse ever going to get that hammer removed from her skull? And will the doctor ever get his brain back? Oh no, and what about their child growing in the nurse’s stomach? And will they ever tell us how two men could get pregnant like that? And then the last thought I had was, “Huh! Is this… really… my only… regret?”. I died…. Or so I thought!

I’m once again having an evening such as this. An evening where I, even though if I went outside taking a walk I would probably fall asleep midstep and stand like that ’till morning come, can’t fall asleep. No instead I all of a sudden felt like writing something so now I’m once again am sitting here half naked just trying to write myself to sleep. So I’ll guess I’ll just have to do that. Hope you bear with me since I have no real topic today, as usual.

It’s weird, I started this blog because I wanted some place to have an outlet and to get into writing and maybe publish small excerpts where people can or might advise me or something like that, instead this blog seems to be turning into something more of a personal one. Not that I care it’s just funny considering I tried out making one such before, with the usual end of me just forgetting and then not caring anymore. Well not that anyone actually seems to read it, but still it’s kind of fun how things sometimes change into something else than it was intended for.

Well at least I get experience writing, both creatively and thoughtfully. Of course I am far from actually being funny nor experienced but I guess that trying is the best any one person can be. I would though want other people, than those who know me, to actually read what I write in this blog of mine. It would be fun to see what other people would think and best of all might be able to get a few discussions afloat. I have a lot of stuff just aching to come out and expose it’s filthy parts to people and all kinds of topics that are taboo and topics that people might not discuss fully.

But one thing is clear this blog of mine is always gonna be the discussion of nothing and everything. I don’t want to limit it to just one theme like Otaku mania, Political, Religious or any other theme. It’s a place for fantasy and discussion, and who knows if what I am writing one day is the truth or if it’s false. I write because I want to and need to and I would hope that people might read because they want to and enjoy it.

Uhmm is this the place I am supposed to say hello? Why? Well okay then! I am someone who apparently has gotten the bad idea to write a book or something of the sort. So we’ll see how that goes. I mean seriously I have actually never finished anything in my entire life and all of a sudden I started to feel that it would be kinda nice to write something and to let yourself dream a little. So basically this stupid idea basically sneaked up on little Unsuspecting me and hit me in the back of the head. Which frankly I find quite rude not to mention that I have a bump as big as my already quite large head.

We’ll see how well I’m gonna do on this writing thing but I promise to try and visit back here both for updates, and to drop my thoughts. Maybe if you are kind drop an excerpt of my book or my notes!