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7/22/12

Weak-wait-date

Waiting at the movie theater to see The Dark Knight Rises. It's weird to be here and to think of all that happened in Colorado, it breaks my heart and makes me not want to trust anyone.

But we are here and that matters and life is short and don't forget that.

I am slowly getting healthy again, I feel like this whole year has gotten away from me due to being sick all too much.

So this week I have a long list of to-do's and we'll see if I can do half of it. Life is a bad bug, a hard entrapping parallel, it makes me tired and I try to savor it but that is encumbered by my fear, by my illness, by me lack of restful sleep. Damn you, you 28 years of life. Yet I love you and don't want you to end.

He makes things ok. Bearable. Sometimes even funny. That's good and whole and mine. I can hold onto that (my feet in the tether), and some days that's enough.