Though they tried to avoid each other, as the wine flowed Camille's friend Dedra confronted Taylor for ignoring Camille's apologies and not being a friend. Emotions were high and the confrontation quickly turned into an out-of-control screaming match. (Watch the clip above.)

"I was a little drunk, absolutely, and a little crazy," Taylor told Andy. "I was dealing with so much and my biggest fears were unraveling. For me it was as though I lived my life for quite a long time with a boiling pot that I was holding the lid on top of, and it was starting to bubble over and there was nothing more I could do and I was losing my mind."

Taylor explained that she was upset that her abusive relationship, which she had divulged to her costars off camera, had become a plotline on the show.

"Admitting that I was being abused on national television was a step that I never though any of my friends would take," she said. "I was so stunned and I felt so betrayed that I couldn't get past it. And I was scared."

Having to relive that night in Malibu, which ended with Brandi kicking Taylor out of the party, hasn't been easy for Taylor.

"It's been horrifying to watch. I really see a woman who was out of control, a woman who was terrified, somebody who was clearly about to go off the deep end," she said. "I'm just thankful to be here with my daughter and that I'm getting healthier every day."

"I was a train wreck," she added later. "I was on the Taylor Train and then it had a wreck. It was bad."