Friday, December 30, 2005

Wow i m kinda HIGH now...wow...my fren is coming...wow~these few days...ok la...not bad...except nid to do projects.

blog before year twozerozerofive ends~

last thurs Dec22:exchange presents with my class gal buddies...muahahaha...i received shirley's one and i gave mine to lq.then xchange cards and eat chocs.

last friday Dec23:morning drum...then meet shirley...followed by sw,eve and her fren.the world is small...his fren work at ramen ten too...but is fareast branch.go east coast cycling.raining and my white shirt becum super dirty...wow.next time should try roller blade too!

last saturday Dec24(x'mas eve):go Expo...cityharvest service...nice show...and got many blue blacks due to the rides.then last min go down ramen ten xchange present. i buy the turtle...its cute~! i want it too...haha...

last sun (christmas)

work half day.then go orchard with meh and anna.super crowed.and we slacking around as usual haha.

Dec26 monday

we accompany anna choose her wedding dinner clothing...

tues to thurs

been in school.doing the same thing.project.but half of the time...maybe slacking?ahha...

yea. tmr...31st dec will be a good day! see meh perform...then count down...then if still can make it...go find my fren~yea.

Saturday, December 17, 2005

The main reason why i don't really want...or scared to welcome those special days like chrismas...new year etc come...is because...they make me miss u all terribly,but i can't see you all i know that...that's the saddist thing isn't it...and can't deny that...although nearly after a year already...but sometimes...i still think about how we were in the past...hopefully this won't last long...coz...it's over.and the one in usa...guess u won't expect u are missed by me too...oh ya tinghui...did u know that today when i walked pass a buzstop, i was so shocked that i saw a gal so looks like u...i was like kept looking at her for don't know how many sec...she really looks like u...when will you be back? or shall we meet@ Aus if possible...imaging how great it will be.kinda mess up...like so many things need to be done...guess year 2006's new year has no meaning for me...but nvm...i will call you all.

Friday, December 16, 2005

Last Friday Lq bday,had dinner@ Swensens...the chicken baked rice is really nice.yummy~but the ice cream there is not as nice as what i expected.and lq kept rejecting the second pair of ear ring we gave her...so bad rite...ok but good that finally accepted it...otherwise i want to da ren liao...but too bad missed meh's performance...nvm there's always a next time ya?

[try to act cool...but... like not really cool eh?lol]

[not my ice cream,mine is just banana split...ahha]

[oh ya...and don't order this...will regret one...haha]

then...these few days fill with projectz and tests...kinda moody days...

then...this Wed go xz hse had dinner...long time nv see her,cw and lion liao eh...nice hommie mummy food~arh taste nice man...the pork rib...the mushroom...the fish...omg...nice!i like to go friend's house have my meal...it's warm and nice~then play mahjong...mini size mahjong...nv see b4...hmmm...suddenly quite miss my mum.really a great different between HOME and HOUSE.

xz kept asking me if i m very tired...coz my face shows it...at first i didnt realise i m really that lack of sleep...until today...i finally so scared of myself...my temper is horrible today! firstly there's this stupid hao lian guy came in tok abt the lecture time slot...but walao...the way he said and his attitude is totally sux...command and scold us like that.what a shit. he say all those shit in english,but when my class pple go find him and tok to him again...this time he suddenly change to full chinese...nvm...shld not say more abt him...wanna puke.werid guys keep appearing and increasing nowadays.ok and during the stats lesson...duno why i dun find any of the jokes funny...or mayb even feel irritated?then...come to the worst part...i even shout at "you"...ok finally i tink i m back to normal during management lecture and i apologize to "you"...arh sorry if any of you suffer from my serious mood swings these days...i don't realise too...cant control...i tink i better change my body clock...something is just not right...this is not me...i never...or nearly never shout at my friends before~and i used to smile alot...control me please...but i wonder how to change the body clock...it seems not easy...and i think i need to learn more about when should joke and when should not...it will cause misunderstood u know...

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

should have some plans now? it's been so messy since school startz like that...and now can arrange the modules frm most favourite to least already...i guess...frm most to least:-->management-->econs-->DCN(1604)-->Jap and stats (both headache)-->all the Java ( super lost man)

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Arghhh...i don't even know how to express what's wrong with me...there's too much stuff screwed up together...but i really don't know how to say...i rather keep quiet...why like that...maybe imaging when your parentz are not here with you...your granny who used to be with you not here ...some of your friends are not here too...then...u gotta face all those shit...maybe that's the feeling...further more...those irritating people keep appearing in front of you or disturbing you...acting like a childish kid...what is this man...should heck care them...yup heck.so far what i have learnt? arhg...projectz...must contribute...but i don't know how to express well?like so weak in teamwork? ............beta stop thinking to0 much?...it doesn't help.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Can't you just stop telling me all those stuff? can't you just share a thought for me? but i doubt u can be such a caring person. u are happy...but can't you feel i m down? whatever.today i m not there...i nv show how disappointed i m...coz i also don't know i really feel so sad until today.i underestimate it.there are obstacles which stop u frm following ur dream...such as people.sometimes when u can't mix well with other pple...it can stop u frm continuing ur interest.mayb i m too care about it.i want to avoid u. from now on...

Sunday, November 27, 2005

tired. Summary for today: morning go sch to help out for the old folk home activity.nice experience.play games and serve them food etc.my table got two uncles quite impress me.one of them seems can't talk but he looks quite active...another one...erm...keep toking to me...abit -ve...and he seems not so interested in the event.but overall quite all rite.meaninful day. tired. then go home rest awhile. then went out. then went for ramen ten meeting... then slack awhile. then wait for bus for an hour but the bus didnt come.take taxi home. then reach home...1am plus already. tmr work full day some more...nv touch my notes and tutorials.oppz

Friday, November 25, 2005

YoZ Yupz...a nice Friday again...can say now Friday is really my favourite day already.yea~today is the 4th drum lesson i had with peter...also can say its the last lesson in November...which means time to pay liao ahha...broke man...ok and so far so good...continue practising my roll...stroke and try to play some songz...mainly concentrate on the song "just the girl" by click five.keep it on!then meet ky at shaw there.she is going to be on holiday...after her torturing jc1 life as she said.we walk here walk there...but like never see anything...coz most of the time we are chatting...chat quite alot of stuff...and agree that guys nowadays really can't make it...most of them don't know what is "gentleman" and so on...should hack care them.irritating.and...some gals also quite irritating...ya and she said her sch got quite a number of this kind's pple.but everywhere will have rite...nyp?ahha...last time i will feel that the more friends u make the better.but now...maybe grow older le...suddenly feel that the most important is to keep your true lovable friends...what for to have lotz friends but all can't last long? so now...long as can keep those few...i m satisfied.but of coz...i wont reject to make new friends...but...kan yuan fen bah...mummy called me today...yea we all know that grandma will be better if she continue to stay there...this aunt here only care about who to take care of her baobei daughter...selfish! sometimes just can't stand you man.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

ok...life always has Ups and Downs.that's life. erm ... few days ago i was kinda joking to say that:i m so suay...but now...it seems to becum real... ok...although all seems like only small issues...but when all add up together...i feel so fed up~ ok...my frenz ard me keep playing fools with me...they have no bad intension i know...i mean...just play for fun...nth wrong...i can take these jokes...but not when i have a sucky mood...ya i have a sucky mood i guess...easier to get irritated like that...i don't know why...ok...but jokes are just jokes...it's all right... and then...found out that my favourite black pantz gone missing...i mean...when i lost sth i used to have or wear...i will becum very frustrated~my bad attitude...i just feel so uncomfortable...my favourite pantz...shit man. and now ...i can apply one econs concept.opportunity cost. i enjoy my one month holiday...and then...i nv go dance for a month.and then...i don't know most of the steps...and then they gonna perform nx wed...and then josh said i miss up alot and told me that he don't think i m ready to get on the stage nx wed yet...so...i miss this performance.true la...only left few days ...i understand...but it's like when u are mentally ready to do sth...but suddenly u can not do it...the feeling it's not good.just like cold water suddenly splash on u.ok he said december got some performances ahead.let's see how. all seems like just small issues...but it's just not good.bad luck? pls ..go away...!and so far...i duno what i have learnt during java lesson at all...so lost...so fed up...and tonite finally call my grandma...she can hear that i kinda sianz like dat...so alone...but good la she stay there beta...at least my auntz can take care of her...if she come back...then nid to take care of the devil baby again...shit her la. but then... if grandma is here...with me...at least i won't lost my black pantz...and i will have sth to eat for my breadfast or lunch...now...only i can take care of myself ...ok la i shouldn't say this..but really...shit "u" la...lost my pantz...last time lost my socks i already nv say anitink...then cook those sucky food.just suck.ok i m sorry to say that.sometimes u have ur difficulties too...arh wateva...i m siao...wat's coming up next...wateva...wat test wat project...wat wat wat wat wat!!!!

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Today was quite alright...quite energetic...then the management lesson quite nice also...think this module quite ok so far...in the future then don't know already...hopez will feel the same...struggle for some time to decide whether to go for the dance prac...the feeling is kinda bad...but,ok...and finally went there...it was much better than what i think...at least for today is quite all right...hmmm...the stepz change quite alot...today is already 15th nov and the performance is going to b on the 30th nov...15 days left and i need to catch up all the new stuff? i think it's gonna be tough if i m determined to participate...but i think i will continue...at least for this performance...after...then think abt it again in the future ba...ok and josh's expression is really...erm...ya...interesting...or izit abit over?No Comments... jiayou~! don't give up...study...drum...and dance!hope grandma get well soon...bless her please...ps:how to rmb all those jap stuffz man...tough...arh...

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Sunday, November 06, 2005

well...like everyday not at home this whole week...kinda tired...and today is last day of holiday already...yesterday was asia beat's semi final...but didn't watch much...slacking ard with meh...feel quite relaxing coz u don't have to think of anitink...but then once school startz...i guess fan nao will come again...erm....ya...when others sayz "so u are a drummer?" i can't answer "YES" yet...coz my skill ain't good yet...hope will improve soon...and nx time can call myself a Drummer... :) now...really don't know how the cca goes on already...like never go for a month...hmmm wondering how...lastly...don't judge a person by his look.er...there is sth wrong with my tagboard...can't tag...sianz...

Saturday, October 29, 2005

had a great night last night...4am plus then reach home...first time ever that so late then reached home.spent my time with all the old time buddies...great night.Now.leave and back again. homesick,seriously...so...don't feel like going out or talk to anyone yet...besides working,juz feel like staying at home.mayb bcoz of the homesick.i need time to get back to normal again.and i have to.miss them all...

Monday, October 10, 2005

Home...sweet home...too bad it's just a less-than-a-month stay...haiz... come back...leave...come back...leave...always like that...isn't it sad...really don't like this feeling...li li he he...haiz...i can't really take it...but then...no choice...this is my way...i have to accept it...live strong...no turning back...juz cherish the time ok... things have changed...ya sure one...meet many old friends...glad that still can get along well with them...feels good! hope can keep in touch>>>FOREVER...i really like the feeling when seeing old frens...though the time is short...i miss my family too...and 7th oct one of my relative get married...sweet =) i shall enjoy my holiday now...time really passes fast...must work harder to achieve my goal...endure! must b strong ...must b strong!!

Monday, September 26, 2005

Today went kbox and fish & co. at cineleisure and plaza singapura keep playing the drum mania machine...who ask me don't have drums in real life? lol...and DDR too...last time it's a hot game man...In the bus...i suddenly got this thought...i don't wanna regret again...i wanna do sth that i really interested to do...so ... i m waiting for chris to give me the ans...hope his fren can make it.waiting...I hate empty promises...ya ... refering some pple...i juz suddenly hate it. but..hack.for the cca...once i reach the limit and can't take it anymore...i think i shall just quit?why torture youself? but... ya...i wish i can stay as long as i can.jia you.and must really work hard...hope can complete my poly study..get the diploma...wait for me sydney~...i m asking mum to save money already.at least i have a so called direction...i know i must work hard to achieve,yet...i m so lazy and procrastinate...hmmm... yes and i really hope dat i can use the sticks ...once again. today saw king...she said that she felt like wasting time in jc...stress? she wants to go australia study too...but...ya...all we need is ...MONEY.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Saturday's cca not as tough as last tues day one...better...but legs are still pain...got some new steps for dance...but mayb nx time go then forget again?...and jialat...they got rehearsal on 25th oct..i havent back yet..shit..wonder how...ok...and nowadays i work quite happy...ya...Sunday.which is today.ya.quite a good day.

morning meet meh at 11am at tpy mrt.went to St.Andrew's Cathedral @cityhall.erm.yes...a nice church.the traditional type.the session is called" Matttins with Holy Communion",then got prayer and sing hymn...erm...but...got some things i dunt really understand ...like...why there are so many MARYs? so and so...eh...but ...nvm...These weeks got go church...diff church give me diff feeling...erm..but why i keep going church?want to find some peace there? feel lost so want them to guide me? i duno.but at least...everytime i go...i sort of feeling "peaceful"...Then...aft went funan IT mall...meh's fren joyce fetch us to one open area play hand drums.there are two other frens of them waiting there,with their hand drums.[and the ang moh looks very friendly...hehe... :) ] got see those drums at some places b4...but this is the first time i got to play them.interesting and nice...the sound makes u feel like dancing...then meh and her fren got teach me some rhythms...It's not easy to get the sharp tone...hands quite pain also...esp when use the wrong part of palm to hit the drum.when all play together...it's really nice.and ok...finally i rmb the names of the drums..conga,darbuka and djembes...haha... [keep on playing ya meh...nx time when free teach me again..hehe]

[djembe]

while waiting for meh's lesson end at paragon...OoOo saw fann wong and christopher lee...haha...both of them so tall...then eat at sakura dat time..if not wrong...shld b saw Adam zhan jin quan there...saw so many ming xin in one day sia...and i think i abit crazy...i saw my bracelet again at 77th street...and i buy it again~this is the 3rd time i buy the same bracelet~~sounds abit siao...but...just duno why...like got gan qing like dat...too used to wear it...but aniway..i m gonna take care of it this time...i dun wanna lose it again~ and ya...everywhere will have THOSE KIND OF PPLE.no exception sia.try not to bother abt them.dun let them spoilt ur day.and ya tmr Kbox ya...SING!and watch corpsebride soon...29th sept then on show...so late...haha i guess these few days i m quite happy...and ya...one can't ALWAYS b happy rite...so shld cherish the happy days...and look on the bright side when the sad days come ya...at least u have experienced wat is HAPPY.Be strong.set ur goals! so...sydney,wait for me! and i wanna have a doggie in the future...work hard for it.haha...

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Yea Exam is OVER. I should feel very excited...but...i just feel released for a short moment...because there are so many other stuffs that can pressurize u...this feeling is really bad...just for a moment...i suddenly feel so hopeless helpless and loneness...

sometimes i really so dislike...or nearly hate myself...why i always do and learn things half way then give up? why can't i be more endurant? learn this learn that but b4 completely learnt it i walked away.haiz.feel so wasted...ok...except some...some i really want and wish to continue...but parent dun't really support me to continue,and stop me.which is kinda sad too...which are...taekwondo and drum.now u ask me go back taekwondo again?i gt think b4...but is like i learned so many yrs ago liao...now join back?start frm white belt arh?or my bone is getting hard already...my stretching is always bad...drum...that time learn drum and guitar at the same time...mum feel dat drum is abit too expensive and not much use...so she stop me.haiz...haha i still rmb last time i keep searching for those small drum models...then dat time chrismas...i saw the small drums hang on the xmas tree in AMK MAC there...i go pull it down and take(steal?) it...kinda siao huh...lolz...then last time?choir...dance...tennis...drawing...all half way? haiz...

then i got this chance to play other drums...liondance one...and the chinese drum...in SR.too bad...i m no longer in that school...and nyp's liondance not really gif me a good impression.I really miss those days...REALLY.I miss the chinese drum coach too~ monkey coach =) and now...sr ld is closing down?so i shld juz forget abt ld?haiz...or mayb coz my character suckz...mayb coz i dun dare to open my heart and tok to certain pple...so i feel scared and then left.nyp ld is one good example isn't it?

i am thinking.... when u keep saying that u miss those old days...is it means that in the present...u are actually not happy?mayb...or not as happy as b4...but don't you think that things are more simple in the old days...i wonder adult working life izit really so mean?so scary?i really scared.why can't this world just remain simple?why evil spirits are everywhere? and ya...it's always good to b a student...i think student is the best occupation...

i think these words are meaningful___"when u regret,it's already too late." think about it.i have done so many things which i regret...but i already can't mend it.This holiday comes so suddenly...kinda not used to it...and i am leaving singapore on 3rd oct...back on 29th oct...hehe...but i still got so many things need to do here...it's not the right time...haiz...and for the CCA...is tough...real tough... worse than wat i think...haiz...see how it goes bah...think too much also no use...

I still hard to open my heart completely...try my best ...try my best!! and i hope the healing really can help my mum.and bless all of them healthy pls and thx...at this moment ...feel very demoralised...i need some motivation..pls...

Throw all my sorrows in blog...so in real life...i can face u with smiles?

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

today keep stonning...always in sleeping mode..jialat...recently then found out how to add effect to the photos..quite interesting...

BEFORE

AFTER

not enough sleep will cause mood swing~~~and tonight suddenly received a long lost fren's msg...last time during jc know de...ask if i still rmb last time she promise to bring me to jalan kayu eat roti prata...ask when i free...it's like such a sudden...haha...nv contact her for quite long liao leh...then suddenly received her msg...abit weird...but is this shows that...somewhere there in the corner... there might be someone thinking of you now? haha..which is quite nice...so when feel sad or lonely...think more positive?

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

GOD you gonna help me pls...I really duno since when and why i got this obstacle in communication...since when my character become like this...scare to communicate with certain people and i really don't know why...since when i become like this? this isn't me...this is not the used-to-be me...since when???and i m so scared...i scared i can't get over it...for now at least...i duno...i feel so unease and uncomfortable...i can't talk in my own way and can't talk naturally in front of certain people...how m i suppose to face the following days?mayb becos i too care and sensitive about how others think about me?mayb coz i scare what i do and say will make others buay song? or wat??? i don't know...sometimes don't wanna talk but somehow the surrounding force you to talk or to be active?i don't know...i feel my life is in a mess now somehow...and i don't know if i m able to contribute to the cca...i don't know if can mix well with the people there coz so long nv go liao...feel so shit! shit...wanna shout.haiz i don't know...watever.i can't help myself...no one can help me..

T.H has left today...why must the java test at 1pm today?why not earlier or later...why not tmr or wednesday? i can't send her today...and i duno when she will be back again. a yr later? or 2 yr? or more?(ps:haha so not used to call u tina..but if u get to read this...rmb whenever u are back or wanna talk...juz tell me..give me a call or sth...i m always stand-by k...)

And i only got to see her on last Friday night to Saturday Morning...we spent our night at king's house.(yes..as usual...friday is a good day) i was too tired that night after work...if not...i really don't wanna sleep so early that night...i felt like wasting the time on sleeping.shit.

hmmm....so....whenever see the chain...rmb each other k...u are not alone.so do I. (tony&tina)

i may not really know how's your life now...and my life isn't that smooth too...but jia you and work hard for it! yes..time and distance may change something...but i will never forget u,my first friend in whitley.cherish you always.(haha u know i really not used to say such mushy words...)all the best!

it happens that...the first friend i meet in my class...i named her tina...(ya it's u haha) isn't it a coincidence...both of my FIRST related to this name tina...and last time...i nearly use this name too. I DO BELIEVE IN FATE.

feel so fed up when lost something i used to wear... and it's the second time already...i buy and lost the same bracelet twice! feel so empty...coz i used to wear it...somehow called it lucky charm liao..now like cannot find it outside already..haiz...

Thursday, September 01, 2005

A long time ago, there was a huge apple tree. A little boy loved to come and play around it every day. He loved the tree top, ate the apples, took a nap under the shadow...He loved the tree and the tree loved to play with him.Time went by....... The little boy had grown up and he no longer played around the tree everyday. One day the boy came back to the tree and he looked sad. "Come play with me," the tree asked the boy. "I am no longer a kid, I don't ' play around trees anymore." The boy replied, "I want toys. I need money to buy them." "Sorry, but I don't have money.....but you can pick my apples and sell them. Then you will have money." The boy was so excited. He grabbed all the apples on the tree and left happily. The boy never came back after he picked the apples.

The tree was sad.. One day the boy returned and the tree was so excited. "Come and play with me" the tree said. "I don't have time to play. I have to work for my family. We need a house for shelter. Can you help me? "Sorry but I don't have a house. But you can chop off my branches to build your house." So the boy cut all the branches off the tree and left happily. The tree was glad to see him happy but the boy never came back since then.

The tree was lonely and sad. One hot summer day, the boy returned and the tree was so delighted. "Come and play with me!" the tree said. "I am so sad and getting old. I want to go sailing to relax myself. Can you give me a boat? " "Use my trunk to build your boat. You can sail far away and be happy." So the boy cut the tree trunk to make a boat. He went sailing and never showed up for a very long long time.

Finally, the boy returned after he left for so many years. "Sorry, my boy, but I don't have anything for you anymore. No more apples for yo u...." the tree said". "I don't have teeth to bite" the boy replied. "No more trunk for you to climb on" I am too old for that now" the boy said. "I really can't give you anything.....the only thing left is my dying roots" the tree said with tears. "I don't need much now, just a place to rest. I am tired after all these years." The boy replied "Good! Old Tree Roots is the best place to lean and rest on." "Come, come sit down with me and rest " The boy sat down and the tree was glad and smiled with tears......

This is a story for everyone. The tree is our parents. When we were young, we loved to play with Mom and Dad...When we grew up, we left them...only come to them when we need something or when we are in trouble. No matter what, parents will always be there and give everything they can to make you happy. You may think the boy is cruel to the tree but that is how all of us are treating our parents.

Monday, August 29, 2005

after i got this blog,seldom touch my hand-written diary already...hmmm....Firstly wanna mention that...how cum each time after ate py's cookies then kana stomachache one eh...not only me...cookies curse? lolz...(jialat later she don't wanna let me eat her cookies...the cookies quite nice actually...)and i have adopt a penguin online...haha u can find it by clicking "pianist" in my blog...under my profile column...click the penguin for few times... u will see sth...lame? haha...but it's cute.Last saturday go watch"the spook show".what a night...heard that there will b a grp of pple acting ghost to scare people b4 the show starts.while we came out frm the toilet,i saw a grp of pple down there near the exit.i can't see them clearly but i notice that one of the gal's body was covered with 'blood".then stupid...i pointed there and said "how cum dat gal so many blood..." then the pple there suddenly looked at my direction and all of them walk towards us.then we realised that they are the "ghosts".don't know why we were so scared and even ran to the toilet..push the door...screaming...(they ar human isn't it?) i don't know how to describe that moment,but they really scared us.Starting, the magic show gave me a feeling:Satanic? cause the atmosphere is like..so...Spooky?but then in the end...it's not really...i think this show is trying to tell us not to fear of anything ? and the last part...itz kinda like... become...christian time.but that night was fabulous.Sunday...my fren bring me to another church..quite far...near east coast i guess...i will never forget that...the two ladies in front of me cried when they sang songz...shld i feel sad or happy for them?...cause while they were crying...somehow i saw their smiles too...mayb they felt released?hmm...so these two days are quite "christian"... i duno...the feeling kinda weird...most of them like think that "GOD has planned everything for them...everything is controlled by GOD...even themselves also actually belongs to GOD?" eh...i think for this moment..i can't really agree with this...i think WE are the one who control our own lives...but then again...i do believe in GOD...i believe when we pray...we will be blessed...so...i don't know.i feel lost...that's why i wanna find a "yi kao"? i don't know...these few days..mood gets better...and i sort of feel that actually angry and being mean will only make yourself unhappy...so we really need to learn how to forgive and forget...stop judging others' behaviour? ya though easy to say hard to do.today my java really aka aka type sia..bless me...at least give me a pass can?

oh ya and the show"the way home"is really touching...the grandma can make you cry...touching...but then which also reminds me that the way i treat my grandma is not good ...i m bad..i must change.

i like FRIDAY i guess...and today is quite a Ok day.really scare Java...arh...and tmr...Magic show ya?oh ya ...suddenly wanna mention sth...since when there's a word called bestest? and when u say the word "best",it can only be one.you can have many good friends,but only one best friend.oh ya now Ramen ten not enough pple sia...in a danger...see people come and go...and i am survived...time flies and i have been working there ...like 7 months plus plus already...2nd longest sia...wow.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

--=-- Story--=--Once upon a time there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing.He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work.One day he was walking along the shore. As he looked down the beach, he saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself to think of someone who would dance to the day. So he began to walk faster to catch up.

As he got closer, he saw that it was a young man and the young man wasn't dancing, but instead he was reaching down to the shore, picking up something and very gently throwing it into the ocean.

As he got closer he called out, "Good morning! What are you doing?" The young man paused, looked up and replied, "Throwing starfish in the ocean."

"I guess I should have asked, why are you throwing starfish in the ocean?"

"The sun is up, and the tide is going out. And if I don't throw them in they'll die."

"But, young man, don't you realize that there are miles and miles of beach, and starfish all along it. You can't possibly make a difference!"

The young man listened politely. Then bent down, picked another starfish and threw it into the sea, past the breaking waves and said, "It made a difference for that one."

Each of us can make a difference to this world. Everybody is useful and it is just the matter of whether u want to make a difference.

Meaningful Quotes_____+++=_____"Somewhere There's Someone Who Dreams Of Your Smile, And Finds In Your Presence That Life Is Worth While, So When You Are Lonely Remember It's True; Somebody Somewhere Is Thinking Of You""A guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point or another one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe ...forever.""The essential sadness is to go through life without loving. But it would be almost equally sad to leave this world without ever telling those you loved that you love them."

A person born with Leo horoscope love compliments and praise. Give them plenty of it. Underneath the surface of this proud, take charge persona is a sensitive and vulnerable person that needs constant reassurance. It is an essential tool for them. Keep in mind, that flattery will get you everywhere. As a result, the more you feed a Leo's ego, the longer your relationship will last.

On a date with a Leo, be sure not to skimp on anything, as they love the pleasures of life and feel that they are deserving of nice things. People with Leo Sign tend to be spendthrifts as nothing is too good for them. Feel free to discuss topics of intellectual interest. Leo's love to share their opinion, although be aware that they are prone to be boisterous about what they believe is right, and in most cases will not alter in opinion.

Leos love to take charge and play the leading role. Sexually a Leo will go to all measures to please a partner. They want a relationship to be exciting and intense. However, as much as they need devotion, they deplore possessiveness and jealousy. A true Leo will remain faithful in a relationship, however they must have space and freedom to allow their outgoing nature to explore new adventures.

If you're looking for a generous, creative person that usually has a sunny disposition about life, you've found them. Don't forget to take into account that the Leo horoscope has the symbol of the lion for a reason. This king of the jungle, can be quite domineering at times. Nonetheless, provided with the necessities that a Leo needs, you will find an affectionate, cheerful companion that will do almost anything for you.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

These few days went home late...always stay back do project...everyone is so stressed...and stupid me...today i finally...break down...all sort of feeling finally break me down...tears make my eyes pain...i really don't like this...but i can't help it. feel so weird.duno why like that also...gone case man.and ya...2 of u...ya...climb the toilet door...ya...and still feel more comfortable when wif gals ONLY...why....LIFE is a circle...u will nv know if u will b the next victim.u do this to others...mayb one day others will do the same to u.but anyway...feels better when say the things out rite...there is nothing wrong to express urself and ur feeling...too bad i don't really know how to express myself...my heart usually closed i guess?i don't talk much during work...so ask me do instead of ask me say.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

In front of the person you like, your heart beats fasterBut in front of the person you love, you get happy.In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring.But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter.If you look into the eyes of the one you like,you blush.But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you smile.In front of the person you like, you can't say everything on your mind.But in front of the person you love, you can.In front of the person you like, you tend to getshy.But in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like.But you can always smile and stare into the eyes of the one you love.When the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.But when the one you love is crying, you cry with them.The feeling of like starts from the ear.But the feeling of love starts from the eye.So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever...

This pic can express my feeling for today.LONE.COLD.Don't get to know someone too deep.u will b hurt.true sometimes.today my feelings are very messy.VERY.happy...sad...lone...cold...high...low...outcast..,whatever.everyday u might meet different pple...Day by day... get to know them bit by bit...u might start to feel that they are not the same as what u think b4.can b beta...can be worse.it's so tired sometimes to adapt the changes...real tired.tired to find out a person's true color also...so i think juz don't bother.when it comes...let it comes...u won't know when u will b disliked or hated by someone...u won't know what you say or how u behave will make someone sick of u too...just like the pple and the frenz ard u...u won't know when u open ur heart to them...if they will open theirs for you too...or juz treat u as a joke and the gossip topic of the day.i will never know...and mayb that's why i m sensitive sumtimes.the world is complicated.the feeling of unsafe and insecure increases.i treat u sincerely but can u do the same too?but sumtimes i can't even b true to myself,let alone u.i don't know myself well let alone u. feel beta when hide inside a shell? sometimes at least?i don't know.its like...everyday is changing...everyone's moving on except u.a person looks fierce might b very friendly...a person looks cute might b wicked...a person looks happy might b sad...a person always smile might b goody goody or even backstab u...mayb i might b one? who knows? mayb i accidentally becum a backstabber without knowing it? who knows.i think it's really good to have a religion to depend on...i believe it will change you to b a better person...this sunday...hope i can find sum answers...pls...

Monday, August 15, 2005

Because of today's 1505 and 1506 test,i woke up at 4am to study...(but during 4-5am...i was thinking of sth instead of studying...)then i get panic liao...coz i can't finish it.I kept staring at the book,but nth could get into my mind.don't know how many brain cells have died today sia...i felt so happy when gary said that the java quiz was postponed.then during the 1505 test,everyone was copying but the lecturer nv scoled us.wow can't believe it rite...i even asked her to check if my T or F quiz correct and she said "yes".wow what a nice lecturer~what a lucky day... thought i will die on today's tests sia...finally can relax abit...not gloomy le.who suggested to sit at the back of the lecture hall huh...see...kana suan by john liao...after the marketing lecture...discuss some interesting stuff in the lecture hall...well...

Talk abit abt the SA camp on Last Saturday...It's actually a 3 day camp...fri to sun,but i juz went on saturday.eh...suppose to reach at 8am,but set my alarm at a wrong timing...so in the end wake up late.and..ya...late for the meeting too...when reached,the dance workshop was abt to end already.we stood there and looked at others dance...then after awhile..ended.what a waste.Then thru out the whole day,there's no more workshop for dance,mostly was for drama..and TNT...and of course...gt games...I ended up in grp 6.i m the only chinese in the grp.first time got such experience.felt kinda weird and uncomfortable at first...but this feeling did not last long...they are all friendly and nice pple...we are so bonding during the games and other activities...and...eh...during the drama workshop...i need to touch my male malay grp member's hairy leg...that's another story...but sometimes still duno how to communicate well with others...Really hope this is the right CCA for me...haiz..have tried so many CCAs before...like kendo,liondance,fboz,squash...some only accept pros,some bcoz my fren said too exp so didn't join,some bcoz of the pple there...haiz...really hope this is the right place for me...hope to dance again on the stage...i miss that feeling...

Friday, August 12, 2005

Everything's changing...when looking back...feel so sad...you can not turn back the time...haiz...even my favourite band backstreet boys has changed.i still enjoying their old songs and old days.after waiting for abt 5 yrs...their album is finally out...songs are nice...but...not as nice as the old ones...don't have that feeling...they have changed alot too...miss the old them...

their new music video "just want u to know" is such a disaster!stupid director!

Negative Thoughts -ve -ve -ve -veSometimes,really feel that life is so colourless.Especially without any MOTIVATION.feel so sick these days.feel so sick to see some people... feel so disgusted to see some stupid guys doing stupid stuff...lost faith...how i wish my world is only filled with gals sumtimes...sucks.always feel that jc life is much more simple and happy,but aft what i heard frm ping,my views are changed.but anywhere,no matter where we are in,bad pple are around us.I don't really know how to distinguish these pple,thatz why i am kinda...scared.really don't want to get hurt.I am easily judge a person by his/her look and action,which is no good?In this world_____

sumtimes really scared to communicate with strangers or make new friends...really don't want to get hurt.but i m not trying to b anti-social,don't really want to...but sumtimes juz got this sick feeling...sick to see the things happen ard me.i prefer silence.that's the safest way.don't want to force myself to do something that i don't want to...so if i feel moody or don't feel like toking ,i shall just keep my mouth shut.

anyway,feel so irritated when hear pple always complain abt all those super small things.fussy sia.i think sumtimes there is no point to show ur depression to others,don't spoilt other pple's day bcos of u.unless...the condition is really serious...

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Today,was such a ....Creamy Day.Well...really suprising...Got see pple kana ATTACK by cake on TV show b4...but nv expect this will ever happen to me sia...wow thx for the one who sponsor this idea ( and i guess sher tiffany is the one ...)u all wasting food leh..think about the sunami victims lehx.I can sense sth will happen today,but i expect Water only,in the end...cake sia...wah hao hen leh ni men...VANESS...beCAREFUL...u ar the nx victim sia...oh ya today u also kana abit rite...haha...the cream was all over my body sia...alot creams on the hair too...lookz like...shampooin...oh ya or should i blame the one who decide to buy a top?otherwise u all won't "force" me to wear it in this way?lolz.but i like the color...hehezbut i can't really rmb the details...coz keep screaming...it will be quite fun if the victim is not me...so OCTOBER can play again? lolz...oh ya and i tink chris is the first one who throw the cake on my hair? gei wo ji zhu horz...well so nearly the whole day i got this creamy smell sia...nice smelling ya?hahaz