August 17, 2012

inheritance, part 2

I have a fuller and deeper understanding of inheritance
now. I’m really overwhelmed by the
weight of it, and I feel inadequate to hold it and carry it. It’s just this
gift, for no reason other than that I was born and others died. Like it was this sacred gift. I’m grateful and undeserving.

It’s
the closest, most literal handing down of grace I have experienced. The feeling
of total inadequacy and total thankfulness together. Obviously, I should do
something. I should be saying more and responding, but that’s not required. All
I can do is say thank you, but in a way, there’s no reason to. I couldn't if I tried.