What Do You Want?

If there was anything in the world-anything-that could make you get the self injury and/or suicidal thoughts/attempts away from you for good, what would it be and why? It could be a person, a vacation, a change in events, going back or forward in time, anything. THINK!! =]

I would want my grandma to be alive again. To have my family be a family again. To be skinny. For my abused aunt to be ok. My step-dad to stop cheating on my family and just come back home. My other aunt to stop running from the cops and go to jail for the money she stole. To not put so much pressure on myself. For me and my friends eating disorders go away. If i could just stop eating or do something right I wouldn't be like this anymore.

I'd just want to go back in time, so that i wouldnt of met the people that make me be like this. Because one of them is still my best mate, and i dont even know why i would still give her the title of that after what she did to me.
I wish i could just go back to how i used to be.
I wish i werent so paranoid, or sensitive.
I think it would be easier for me if i just knew how to let go.

I'd just want to go back in time, so that i wouldnt of met the people that make me be like this. Because one of them is still my best mate, and i dont even know why i would still give her the title of that after what she did to me.
I wish i could just go back to how i used to be.
I wish i werent so paranoid, or sensitive.
I think it would be easier for me if i just knew how to let go.

It was a comment my brother said to me that last time I attempted...he said "what would I tell my kids..your nieces and nephew...when they ask where Auntie Dee is...don't make me have to tell them you are dead" ? I broke down and cried so hard and to this day those words stick with me 5 years later!!!!

I miss traveling with my husband. Has anyone found a specific site regarding cruising for widow/widowers or any sightseeing trips. Not interested in being with couples and kids,,,I realize a cruise ship will have a portion size of families and couples, but perhaps they also put together a part of the cruise ship for groups of widows/widowers????

A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...

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