Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Standtall or Standyas Temite likes to call her has tagged me. I've no clue what to ask but i guess it will come to me as I go on. The rules are:

a. Tell three things about yourself, two should be true and one a lie.b. Commenters should guess which two are true and which one is a lie and tell why they think so.c. Tag 6 people to do the same.d. Post the answers in your next blog, but only after you have a good number of comments

My statements are:

1. I tried to kill myself sometime in the past2. I've got natural kinky african hair, no perms, no waves, no weaves3. I used to think I was a lesbian

Friday, January 23, 2009

My heart beats a tune with yoursA song whose words I never learntBubbles, spills all around usThe whisper of your fingertipsLike the tentative first notesOf a song in a mystery languageMy skin leaps to meet your handsLike the melody of string instrumentsWe flow, we writhe togetherIn this corporeal danceStrum me, your guitarBeat me, your drumBlare me, your trumpetLet this dance begin

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

I am almost ashamed to admit - I didn't write this, a friend of mine did. I love it!!!! It's just adequately sad and suits my mood perfectly right now and what's more is I actually own a crazy white cat!!!! But then, I digress...

You may not see it but to me, it is so poignant in its simplicity so profound in its elegance. Gives you the feeling that what's unsaid is weightier than what's been said and all this is done in a breezy and almost playful manner that fails to camouflage the pain within. I'll let you judge for yourselves now lol:

WHITE CAT BLUES

I can almost visualizeon the low grey reclinerby the tv on the floora framed photograph of meholding youholding that silly white cat

I can almost rememberin the middle of the roomwith you spread across my backlying there breathing deeplystroking youstroking a purring white cat

Friday, January 2, 2009

It’s only normal and perhaps fashionable to profess noble sounding new year resolutions at this time of the year. When people ask me ‘what’s your new year resolution?’ and I reply “I have none” it becomes an opener to a very tiresome discussion (at least for me). In fact, I have been accused of arrogance - You know, going around thinking you are perfect and stuff and there’s nothing to change, you really think you are all that abi? In fact I could tell you a FEW things you need to change, you may want to start by changing your attitude you punk a** B****!!!!! (okay, maybe not that bad).

What is a New Year resolution really? It’s a commitment a person makes on the first day of a New Year towards changing a certain habit or lifestyle for the better. These commitments only last until achieved or fashied.

My take on New Year resolutions and new year eve’s religious services is this, you really don’t need to wait for the end of a year before you decide to change a bad habit or change your lifestyle to a more advantageous pattern. You need not wait a whole year for a certain day to resolve to become a better person.

I have found that people set near impossible targets to achieve without properly thinking them through on New Year ’s Eve. This creates a pattern, if you set targets without thinking it through you are more likely not to achieve your goals than if they had been properly planned with appropriate milestones in-between for measuring success. New Year resolutions fail because people wake up one morning and decide to make major personality changes just because it’s a New Year. Cold Turkey, maybe some New Year fairy will wave a magic wand which will cause me to stop smoking or drinking or driving too fast or lose weight or save money or get a good job… the list is endless.

But does it really work that way? What is most likely to happen is this, two or three weeks down the line the resolution crumbles and you are back to your old ways. The Ghost of New Year present withdraws all support and beats it to ghost land. The worst part is this, it’s difficult to get back on track because you are like ‘Oh shoot! There goes my New Year resolution, right down the drain. Now I have to wait till December 31st to make another one. In the meantime, I’ll just smoke a pack before then and damn the cancer…”

Hey, all hope is not lost you know. It’s just a paradigm shift you require. Truth is, you don’t need a special day to live better, to decide to become a better person. You’ve got 365 days in a year to do that. Any of those days works as well as the other. All you need is to think it through. You need to make these changes step by each tasking step and congratulate yourself at each milestone you achieve. That’s the way to go. Whenever is fine. It doesn’t have to be New Year’s eve.

So get up and make those changes today, tomorrow… whenever you need to.Having said this… I’d love for this to be the last update I post from my desk at work. From now on I’ll manage my time better and blog only from home… (yeah, whatever!)Have a great day y’all.