And
here we go again. You found him. The man of your dreams. The one
you've been praying to God to come in your life. But, who is he
looking at? Why is he kissing that girl's lips instead of your? What
was that on his finger? Oh and once again, he can't be yours. He can never be yours.

And
I quote, “We fall in love with people we can't have”. Well this
is true. You think you finally found him. He's everything you want.
He's nice, kind, handsome, a joker, fun to be with, sweet, mature...
everything. He's just everything. And you means nothing to him.

Remember
the first time you saw him? You noticed him and ignored him at the
same time. On your mind, he's just a nobody. But as the time passes
by, you realized that he means something. He becomes the reason why
you're so excited about your brand new day. And, until that day that
you finally knew in your heart, he's everything that you've always
wanted.

But
does he want you? Does he even know you? Or look at you when you
cross his way? You can never tell. But you have your moves. You asked
about him – his name, relationship status, his likes, whatever that
could help you to get close to him. You find ways to introduce
yourself to him with a little help from your friends.

And
now he gets to notice you. Small talks. Small conversations. Simple
hellos and a call to your name. It was something that can always
makes you smile.

And
you know what's best? It is that curve in his face that always makes
your world turns upside down – his smile. Even if this is for you
or for others, his smile can erase all the burdens you have in your
heart. His smile became your heartache's cure. He became an angel
that helped you to find your way back to happiness.

But,
is he aware about this? Does he even know? Well who cares? As long as
he can make you happy and you're still on the right track. Nothing
really matters but his smile. And you know for yourself that you will
not do anything that is beyond your limit or his limitation.

So,
there he goes, the man of your dreams. He's everything you want, but
does he like you? No, he don't like you but liking him is enough. And
this is going to be an open secret.

I
never thought that break-up would be this hard. On this day, 4th
of May is the third month when that special someone broke up with me
and left me due to reasons that I wouldn't want the whole world to
know. All I know is, I made mistakes that even this so-called love
couldn't be forgiven.

I was
a jealous woman, well who wouldn't be? This is a part of every human
being called “woman”. Even the most beautiful or successful woman
in the world has their own insecurities. I've been fighting for that,
afraid that I might lost that someone special – well in the end you
know what happened.