Monday, May 08, 2006

Tired I have been fighting some sort of UTI for a month now and I just feel yucky.It feels like I have anchors tied to both my legs so I guess I will go to bed early.I feel drained to after the turnover of my dad's land. Not at the idea of letting it go but just that my dad let the place get in such a shape before he died .The inside of that house looks like what I imagine an Alzheimer's patients brain looks like or someone with dementia. All jumbled up. It saddens me that things that I wanted to keep of my moms I can't because he let that woman and her dogs destroy the whole house and all my moms stuff. All that I found of my mom and dads 37 years of marriage to salvadge was a trunk and a small wood file box.It just makes me so sad inside and so angry at the B**** who took everything he had I hope that someday she has to answer to a higher power for what she did. It makes me angry that all the money he gave her I could have used to go to China and get a child thru international adoption or my sister for my nephew. I hate that I have such feelings of ill will for her but I do.I promise a more positive post tommorrow or wed . It is just how I feel tonight and I wanted this blog to express how I feel and not be all happiness and fluff because in the real world that isn' t how it is for most of us.

1 comment:

Hope things get better for you, I am a believer that this woman will get what is coming to her one day. I found your blog on artsymamas site for the book of dreams - are you doing a book? Saw in your profile you are an RN. So am I so I thought I would say hi. I always like to talk to other RNs because they know what it is like to come home after a hard day at the hospital!