“I was so alone. And I owe you so much. Oh, please, there’s just one more thing, right? One more thing. One more miracle, Sherlock, for me. Don’t... be... dead. Would you, just for me, just… stop it. Stop this.”- Dr. John H. Watson

[Word of the day.]

"Some people just need a high-five. In their face. With a chair."

[Play me a little sad melody.]

As you grow up, you learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt as yours was broken.You'll fight with your best friend.You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

[About me.]

What, who, me? Well, I'm a writer. So far, so obvious. Hah.I grew up with two native languages to express myself in: German and English. I consider myself lucky to have been grown up multilingual. It's a blessing.I live in Berlin, Germany, but I consider London my home.My favourite season is autumn, because even though everything wilts and rots and dies, it revives me. The thought of everything around me dying, but me living on makes me feel immortal, and special, and just alive. (Also, I love rain. And there's a lot of rain in autumn.)I like being alive. And I like being the person I am, even though I have the oddest of habits; the worst of attitudes -- because, even though I have a lot strange and wicked schemes, I also have a talent. A talent not many people are blessed with. A talent every child has, but every child loses at some turning point in their lives. The talent of fantasy. The talent of putting this fantasy down into words, sharing it with people. I'm glad I have that. It's what I'm made of. And no one can take it from me.I'm a drama queen. An actress. A child with rainbow-coloured crayons. And a writer.

[Glorify.]

I can also be found on AO3, where I cross-post all the English works I have posted here.

When Benedict Cumberbatch went on "Top Gear" and said, "There's a load of fan fiction which has me and John Watson floating in space on a bed handcuffed to one another," three people wrote me within an hour to say it sounded a heck of a lot like this. Alternate universe. Almost literally.

Eve knows the beauty and trust of truly letting someone in, and before she lets her rapidly-deepening relationship with Solas go any further, she is determined to dig beneath that veneer, break him down - even just a bit. And one night, taking advantage of the empty library's darkness, she sets out to do just that. (Prompt oneshot.)

What is going on behind that mild mannered apostate hobo mask Solas wears? It slips from time to time, though, and when he talks to the Inquisitor at the veil fire torch, it's gone for good. A story with mostly short chapters, from Solas' POV. This is a gift for an AO3 reader who left lovely comments on Echoes.

Another silly Solas drabble. The new Herald of Andraste is not fond of the horse the Inquisition has supplied her with, and Solas is not fond of the name she picks. Some pretty big hints to end game spoilers.

Clearing his throat, Solas puts on his best mild mannered apostate face. "My expertise lies in the Fade and not... this. And I don't like the idea of you presuming to command me to – what? Engage in intercourse with our Inquisitor?" In which Dorian and Ellana discuss (her misconceptions about) sex, Solas overhears everything, and a situation arises.

There are stories written in the stars. Tales of legends and heroes, lovers and villains, triumph and tragedy. Solas prefers to sleep outside, under the endless wheel of the sky, and shares its tales with Inquisitor Lavellan when she joins him at night. Solas/F!Lavellan with a cameo from Dorian, inspired by the astrarium codex entries.

Hermione has a problem and a rather unconventional solution. Being the only one in her group of friends with her v-card in tact, she propositions the least likely of candidates to help her lose it. (REVISED COPY found in Ch.2)

Solas is being frustrating, the Inquisition is being demanding, so Lavellan decides to take some time for herself. She explores the Fade, trying to find memories such as Solas has told her about, and finds Fen'Harel in an unexpected place. The "present day" parts of this story take place shortly after Solas' infamous fade kiss. The "past" parts take place after Fen'Harel's great d

From Astrakhan's prompt from the r/solasmancers Secret Santa fic party: Solas's wolfish spirit is starting to consume him again, affecting his mind, affecting the way he acts towards Lavellan. AS KINKY AS POSSIBLE. GO.

Sakura finds pornography at Sasuke's and it starts a chain of events. Smut. Older time frame, post Sasuke's return. This is a prompt request that I'm uploading from Tumblr. :) If you're offended by adult content please don't read. (short three shot)

Female Trevelyan is smitten with Solas, and decides to take advantage of Skyhold's resources to teach herself some Elven terms of endearment. As it turns out, one should carefully vet their sources on the Elven language, especially early in a relationship. Trevelyan/Solas, crude language and sexual innuendo.

The basement library in Skyhold has been abandoned for ages. No one ventures into the cobwebby little room until Solas decides to clean it out for more library space...and talks Inquisitor Lavellan into helping him. Fluffy Solas/F!Lavellan NSFW smut, reposted from the DA Kink Meme with minor editorial changes.

Ellana has had quite enough of all talk and no action with Solas, so she decides to see if she can make him try and catch her himself. Pretty soon, she's running through the halls of Skyhold with an elf hot on her heels. The question is, will she let him catch her? A now completed two-shot!

[Spoilers for Ending/Epilogue] Traveling after the Elder One's defeat, Solas dreams where the Lavellan clan once stood and sees his beloved through the years. She speaks of life and love with her confidant and mentor-the statue of Fen'Harel that sits at the edge of the camp. (Solas/Lavellan)

Written for the kinkmeme. (Spoilers for Solas romance/end of game) Solas comes back and F!Lavellan finds out who he is, they have their dramatic/angsty 'OH MY GOD WHAT THE HELL SOLAS' confrontation, kiss and make up etcetera. F!Lavellan finds Dread Wolf Solas adorable, Solas refuses to admit that he likes having his ears scratched. Fluff ensues

After three years of a mundane, sexless existence and far too much wine, our favourite brunette happens upon the magic equivalent of a sex line. There, an intriguing, deliciously devilish caller manages to pique her interest. It's all fun and anonymous, u

"'Why did you even ask me on this 'date' anyways,' she asked. 'Well, I don't know anything about Muggles, but when we wizards ask others on a date, it pretty much means we fancy them,' he replied." Hermione is guilt tripped into a date with Draco Malfoy; though it's not much of a date when all they do is banter, and Draco's trying not to faint from his fever. [Eighth Year. EWE?]

One-shot. "I believe the appropriate expression for this is that we're 'jetlagged'." Luna's observation was, as always, quite an accurate one and Hermione found herself agreeing with it. Ten years after the war ends, the group of former friends meets for the first time in a decade and find that they might be a bit more behind on each other's lives than they thought.

AU. Sherlock Holmes is an Oscar winning actor in a career slump, John Watson is an Everyman actor trapped in date movies. When they are cast as a gay couple in a new film, will they surprise each other? Will their on-screen romance become reality?

She took a deep breath and remembered why she was here - to make Draco Malfoy sweat. She pressed her feelings down. Now was not a time to get all dewy and nervous and tremulous. That time was past. Now it was time to get even.

The problem with living with Sherlock, John thought, was that you never, ever knew the significance of anything. Like your flatmate's nose buried in your hair. While you're in bed. Eventual Johnlock. COMPLETE

Get John and Sherlock engaged they said. It'll be fun they said... Yes, well the first 'incident' occurred six days, eleven hours, and forty-two minutes before they got married; the last about twenty seconds before they walked down the aisle. What happened in between even I don't quite believe. I'm Aurora Aurelia Abbington, the skull on the mantle, and I have another story to tell.

Fanfiction, you have broken me. This is Johnlock of the worst kind. I know it's pure dreck but it was soooo easy to write. Which may say more about the inside of my skull than the show. One-Shot. John jots down a disgruntled, rule-formatted internal monologue which starts off Not Gay and ends up being Very Slash. Rating for teh seks. Edit: I said one-shot, didn't I? I lied.

Sherlock and John are hunting a kidnapper who has been taking newlywed couples across the Greater London Area and Sherlock has the perfect way to flush him out. Warning: Pre-Slash/Slash of S/J. Now Series 2 Compliant. WIP Slow Updates

John had never thought he would one day stand with his vampire lover and laugh like giddy teenagers, but it wasn't the first time his life had taken an unexpected twist. Johnlock, Vampire AU, P With Some P. Hints of dark!Sherlock.

AU in which every time a person falls in love, a red line like a tally mark appears on their wrist. Sherlock is determined to keep himself from ever gaining one of these marks for fear that love will corrode his mental faculties. Then he meets John Watson. Johnlock.

It was Sherlock's fault. It usually is. And though he'll ask forgiveness for what he's done, for the very first time John will say, 'This time no, Sherlock. This time, never.' And maybe, just maybe, John Watson is going to mean it.

This was written for the Johnlock Gift Exchange put on by johnlockchallenges on tumblr. It's a gift for splendidsparklingfire and the prompt was "breathless in an alleyway". In this story, Lestrade tells John about something he'd once discovered in Sherlock's flat during a drug bust. That little bit of knowledge changes everything. Follow my m/m romances at

In the end, separating John's things from Sherlock's amid the chaos spread like rubble through the sitting room is like separating a limpet from a wet rock. Especially when the rock is clinging on for dear life, because Sherlock doesn't want to let go. Johnlock. Oneshot.

Four Seasons - Twelve Months - A Lifetime. Each season will be linked to a phase in John and Sherlock's life, each month will highlight a special episode. From their very first meeting as kids to to being lovers and parents. Johnlock. Chapter 14: Winter - February. Complete (Warning: Major Character Death)

"…So when you said 'I could care less what we do, I just want to spend time with you' what you really meant was, 'I don't care what we do as long as we're on the couch, watching Harry Potter with an obnoxious purple blanket that magically appeared out of nowhere, while not even having the decency to let me concentrate on said movie.' Right. Dully noted."

Sherlock and John attend a Halloween party on the trail of a vampire killer - a man who's been seducing his victims and taking all their blood. Sexy costumes, bad puns, hideous danger, frantic sex in hidden place and some Halloween-flavored fluff are all on hand to "treat" you. Boo. Follow my m/m romances at

For the prompt: "five ways Sherlock could have let John know about his feelings for him and the one way he actually did". A critical exploration of Johnlock through five typical smutty scenes and one slightly atypical one.

COMPLETE! Sherlock Holmes has been beaten by precisely four people in his extensive career. John Watson is NOT about to become number five. S/J, rating for ch.14 only. Everything's nice and cheerful and fluffy until it isn't.

Alec's on his way to spar when he notices Jace's bedroom door ajar and Jace in a very risky, very personal position. Alec doesn't mean to watch and he knows he shouldn't, but he can't help himself. He thinks he's safe, he's sure Jace doesn't know, but Jace isn't as unobservant as Alec believes him to be. [Pre-City of Bones]

Sherlock always has it all figured out, but his wilful refusal to factor the influence of love into his calculations on a case makes John want to show him what he's missing. But maybe John is missing something, too. Slash.

Coming back from the dead can be a complicated business. With a new case on the horizon, rebuilding a life is one thing... rebuilding a friendship quite another. For Sherlock and John, things may never be just the same... Slash.

Sherlock would love to tell John about his new experiment - but since John is the subject, that could impact the results. Also, John might protest about having that camera planted in his bedroom. Preslash (bordering on slash). Beta'd by percygranger and gretchen4321; Brit-picked by hms wellington. *Read the story from John's viewpoint in Alternate Hypotheses!*

In which John and Sherlock have quite a lot of sex, though they first have to deal with the fact that Sherlock is alive. Oh, and so is Moriarty. Johnlock, Mormon, though really everyone here is gay for everyone else. Starts to have a plot and then gets detoured into the bedroom. Post Reichenbach.

Fibrin. Collagen. Plasma. Blood. Crutches. Canes. Plasters. Slings. For a little while this might have been the tone poem for 221B. There was a brief, strange period early in their first year when one man, the other, or both were hurt, half-healed, or tending the other's wounds. And it was *wonderful.*

MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM CENTRIC FIC. I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH. Rated M for this alone Sherlock does not enjoy feeling. Sherlock would rather not feel at all. So he's developed a method to block it out. He feels it's working rather well, until he starts losing control of it

There are a thousand ways to tell someone you love them, only a few of which are vocal. Making tea for the object of your affection, for instance. Or not complaining about violin music at three AM. Or, of course, taking a bullet for them.

John Watson thinks Sherlock Holmes should admit that he, Watson, is more of an expert on sex than Sherlock is. But Sherlock refuses to concede the point. He comes up with an experiment plan to resolve the issue. But sometimes even the best thought-out scientific study has unexpected consequences. Follow my m/m romance at

Harry Watson isn't keen on Sherlock Holmes, and Sherlock's not that wild about Harry. It's possible that John may rue the day when he helped them find common ground. Set after Sherlock's return and assumes a resumption of a relationship between Sherlock and John.

Sherlock throws knives during a domestic and brings home dead rats. John has nightmares and can't sleep. Together they investigate what John's calling "The Old Man and the Weasel." Pre- and post-Reichenbach. Johnlock, but within canon. Rated T for language, violence, drug use, self-harm, adult themes. Mystery/Friendship/Angst/Romance/Humor/Family/Hurt /Comfort/Murder - & Resolution

In which John and Sherlock are off to Surrey to solve the mystery of Alexander Holder's death. In which, the Holders being 'old friends' of the Holmes, John has to deal with Mummy, Harrods, a luxury fitness center and a Christmas Ball... among others.

Sherlock has never done well with pets. Cautions: when I say "never done well", read "neglect bordering on abuse" and other badness. I've tried not to be graphic, but the general idea is still somewhat horrid.

Moriarty doesn't just want to defeat Sherlock. He wants to utterly destroy him. He intends to do so by tricking him into making the ultimate mistake: falling in love. Johnlock, pre-Reichenbach with a hint of Moriarty/Sherlock.

In which Sherlock finds himself in the unusual position of trying to educate John about the endless variety of fetishes that exist in the world. When that gets boring, he sets himself on a very important case: figuring out if John has any fetishes. Which, of course, he does. Johnlock.

Sherlock makes a deal with Lestrade that leads to some very sexy consequences all over Lestrade's desk and some voyeur fun for our dear Molly Hooper. I know it's blasphemy to deviate from Johnlock, but please give this a try! There's smut in it for youuuuu. Written with and requested by my lovely co-author LadyElayne.

"So the plan is, you have until Saturday night to make that," he pointed at Sherlock, "look and act convincingly like a woman, so she can go and be a damsel in distress and trap a serial murderer. Have I got that right?" A crossdressing case fic.

When Donovan discovers an old secret John Watson considered long buried - a ten-year old "Men of the Armed Forces" calendar which has John as a very enticing pin-up for August, it might change the way everyone sees the unassuming sidekick, even Sherlock Holmes. Rated M but the plot reasonably concludes before the smut if you prefer PG . Follow my m/m romances at

John takes life one day at a time, trying to put the pieces back together. Everything changes when a comment appears on his blog three years after he stopped writing. The comment is from someone calling themselves Richard Brook.

That Sherlock would collapse at the end of a long case is hardly surprising – the man pushes himself too hard, everyone knows that. It's a straightforward problem with an obvious explanation... Isn't it?

John convinces Sherlock that if he doesn't stop interfering with his sex life, he will move out. Sherlock is afraid that if John dates women he will marry and leave him. He can't allow that so he decides to fight - with a little help from Irene Alder. NOTE: I'm now writing m/m romance as Eli Easton.

Oneshot. Nodoka learns the truth about Ranma's curse. Now Ranma and Akane must marry and consummate in order to prove Ranma's manhood and restore the family honor, or he and Genma will be forced to commit seppuku...

Jace & Alec share a moment, but how do they deal with it without hurting everyone around them? Jalec, Malec, Clace, Sisabelle, and any other pairings that I might include later on. set after CoG, before CoFA

"You can't be serious." "Oh but I am. Well, I probably won't look very serious lap dancing in our living-room, but... Please let me dance for you, Sherlock." Or how to cure a trauma with another kind of trauma. Johnlock, hurt/comfort, angst, humour. Second opus in the Dance series, sequel to 'I Like to Watch You Dance' and prequel to 'Dance is Chemistry'.

1. Because Harry got there first, and there's a law: only one gay per immediate family. 6. Because if he's gay, does that mean all his relationships with women were lies? Rated T for language and implied physical relationships.

When John heads overseas for a week, Sherlock's forced to fend for himself. It goes about as well as anyone could have anticipated. Which is to say, very, very poorly. Don't worry, things'll be fine in just seven days.

John is suspicious about Sherlock's motives for the 'minor alterations' in their friendship. Is it possible Sherlock's understanding of love is purely chemical? How long can Sherlock last without his new favourite drug?

"The Mayo Clinic prescription for hypothermia is this: Tea. Blanket fort. Sex. All right, it doesn't come right out and say that on the website. But Sherlock can read between the lines." A prequel to "Heat Wave."

When Sherlock told John he was married to his work, John didn't realize how literally Sherlock meant it. "We're not married. We're shagging. There's a clear distinction there, John, if you'd care to examine it further." S/J/L

Inspired by the way that Sherlock occasionally loudly clicks the 'k' at the end of words – "Wounded in action; suntan ... Afghanistan or IraQ"; "Bad news for brain worK"; and "Not much cop, this caring larK".

...and one time he had John instead. SUMMARY: Overseas on a case with his blogger and friend, Sherlock finds that thoughts which are easily suppressed amid the distractions of London are becoming increasingly difficult to ignore... Slash.

"Look at me and tell me I'm not disgusting, Jace." Alec Lightwood needed reassurance from the one person he thought he'd never get it from: his Parabatai. Light Jalec. Mostly friendship. Takes place during City of Glass.

Alec didn't know. He was just as confused as Jace. On one hand he could say give up. Jace would go back to the way he was before and Alec wouldn't have to be jealous of Clary anymore. Or he could be a good friend and say do what feels right. XONESHOTX

John Watson also performs experiments. Of course he does. Mostly, John experiments on Sherlock. Actually the only experiments John does are on Sherlock. While Sherlock's sleeping. Only while Sherlock's sleeping. The results can be...wet. And spectacular.

"Alec Lightwood had never been very lucky. That was, in the department of boys. He'd managed to fall in love with his cocky, golden-haired best friend. This was not how things were supposed to happen..." JALEC. City of Glass.

Alec's teeth dig into the soft flesh of his tongue, sour saliva curdling in his mouth and it's times like these that he's glad he isn't Jace Wayland and that he, in turn, has learned to drink up each dizzying shot of frustrating disappointment.

After CoG, Alec and Magnus decide to travel together to Europe. This is Alec's goodbye to Jace, his long-time best friend, before he leaves the institute for good with Magnus. A oneshot look inside Jace and Alec's brother-ly relationship.

John knows he has an unusual relationship with his flatmate. He knows their friendship is complicated. And yes, he knows everyone assumes he's in a relationship with Sherlock Holmes. But he's not. Obviously. It's not like that. John would know. Right?

Why do so many of us love hurting our lovely Sherlock? Whether that thought intrigues you, it's certainly on the mind of John Watson. A doctor who has started to do things to his lover he never, ever thought he'd do.

They used to be parabatai and brothers, will they become lovers, too? One cold winter night, that's all it takes to change everything and Jace begins to realize what he really feels for Alec. I hate summaries, please R&R. T because it's safe then :

The look on Jace’s face was satisfied, as if he had known Alec would shrink away from the surprising demand. He felt like Jace had demanded for him to kiss him. So he did. City of Glass// When Jace asked Alec to kiss him. M//Slash

Nothing is written in stone, and nothing gold can stay. Nothing is impossible, and nothing never changes. Broken hearts are not so easily mended, and boundaries are not so easily crossed. At least until you've had a few. JaceAlec, graphic lemony MM.

Story begins after the cookie for City of Glass where Jace dares Alec to kiss him. What will happen to their relationships, both with each other, and with those they care about, if Alec does? Multi-Chaptered Story. Jace/Alec, Jace/Clary, Alec/Magnus

It's cosplay, Kaoru says, lifting a foot and leaning back against the cushions to cross his legs, distracting Hikaru, though very briefly, with the movement of his bare thighs. sexuality, crossdressing, HikaruKaoru. For mature audience.

Affection, noun: a tender feeling toward another; synonyms and related words: attachment, attraction, devotion, fondness, love, sentiment. It all narrowed down to one simple fact: John loved Sherlock. COLLABORATION with the sweet junejuly15. Each of us posted a different version of this story, so check them both out. :] Rating went up to M for reasons...

Somehow the first time their bodies collided and their breaths mingled had proved to have a greater impact on their lives than they'd first expected. Songfic of Howie Day's 'Collide', OS, Johnlock. Beta'ed by junejuly15. Dedicated to TSylvestrisA.