I have a recurring dream every once in a while, and in this dream I die, it's a new way every time and the dream always recaps my previous death. I'm always aware of myself in these dreams and can make decisions to alter the course of events. In the most recent one I was at my family's home, and my whole family was present. I decided it was best to get the dream over with and told my sister to kill me, she, being a logical person, refused me even when I explained to her my predicament. So the dream was obviously upset I had broken the rules and told, and small accidents started to happen. But each time I would almost die I followed human instinct and avoided my death. My "sister" noticed the accidents then agreed to help me, by pouring boiling water on my face. The boiling water didn't kill me, but disfigured my face to an eyelid-less, lip-less, red and scaly faced monster. I decided I had, had enough of the dream, walked to the kitchen, pulled out the butchers' knife, pondered whether or not this was actually a dream, and cut out my heart.