Thursday, February 22, 2007

After the hugely negative TT last week, I decided to do something I very, very rarely do. In fact, I do this so rarely that anyone whi knows me will be shocked and surprised by this post. I'm going to 'toot my own horn'so to speak. This TT is 13 things about myself that I am actually proud of, or think I do well!!! (my apologies to anyone who actually keeled over in shock!)

1...I can do a suduko puzzle in under 3 minutes. Not the complex ones, they take about 10 minutes, but the ones where you only have to find about 45 numbers out of 91.

2...I am a DAMN FINE cook. Its a skill that I haven't appreciated much lately, but since I've started cooking more, I can see why Phil wanted to marry me!!!

3...I am raising an amazing lil boy, and for the most part, I've done it myself. My ex hasnt really put much effort in until recently, so I take full credit for it, and just lately he really has been doing me proud.

4...My memory is damn near photographic. If I've read it, or written it, I'll remember it.

5...My mind is so open that I expect my brains to fall out almost daily. I consider this a good thing, thou some people think I'm a touch too permissive!

6...At work, thou I'm not sure I'm really proud of it, there are only 2 people that staff will go to before me. I'm actually an asset to my workplace, that part makes me proud. The part where I'm dealing with the staff's issues just makes me irritated!!!

7...I am actually a good friend. I can be a nasty b***h, however, for my true friends, there's nothing I wouldnt do.

8...I'm a low maintainance person. I don't need that much imput, I kind of tick over by myself. Thats not to say that I don't need some sort of human contact now and then, but other than that, I'm realatively independent and have been know to go weeks without seeing anyone other than my ex and my son without going completely insane!!

9...I am always learning new things. I cant seem to stop myself. I just cant help myself, be it something that just sparks my imagination, or something I have to 'Google' for my son because he wants to know how aeroplanes stay in the sky!

10...I cross-stitch. A lot, and well. I tend to keep that one to myself, mainly because I am really not art-inclinded. But when I cross stitch it doesnt seem to matter that even my stick men aren't convincing!!

11...I'm competent and capable. If there's something that I need to achieve, and I don't know exactly how, I'll simply find out and then do it. It's something that I am really, really proud of at the end of the day as its something I want to pass onto my son, and as its a trait I already have I reckon I'm half way there!

12...I'm articulate enough and well-spoken enough that no-one every believes me when I say that my father's a farmer. And not in the 'gentleman farmer' sense, in the sense that I too have stuck my hand up inside a sheep! But no-one ever believes it, no matter how many times I say it!

13...I got thru this list. That really makes me proud because it's not something that comes easily to me, and it's taken at least an hour, but I got thru it, and am now going to have a fag and a coffee before I post it, just so I have something to moan at myself about!!

The purpose of the meme is to get to know everyone who participates a little bit better every Thursday. Visiting fellow Thirteeners is encouraged! If you participate, leave the link to your Thirteen in others comments. It’s easy, and fun! Be sure to update your Thirteen with links that are left for you, as well! I will link to everyone who participates and leaves a link to their 13 things. Trackbacks, pings, comment links accepted!

Friday, February 16, 2007

Today has been a special day. Me and my boy are still in our jammies (its only 16:30) and have spent the whole day together. Always something that makes my day the best it could possibly be. But, on top of that, I got to read the responses on my TT. Its not often that I open myself up like that, and I can say, without a doubt, that I didnt do it lightly, or easily. There are people who read this blog that I'd rather not let into my head, because nothing they have done even slightly allows them the right to that, but as I am determinded to maintain a friendship with someone who played a pivotal part in my life, I have to accept that the people close to him will come here, and read it, and hope that it means that my life is falling apart in some way. Nevertheless, I took a risk, just because one person out there doesnt understand what goes on with me, doesnt mean that I should shut everyone else out of the more chaotic parts of my life. To have such thoughtful, and inspiring comments, which I read over my morning coffee (a time when I am definately not at my best) really made my day. If nothing else nice had happened today, I'd have still had a glow of contentment about myself.

But other nice things happened. Cuddles and snuggles on the sofa with my lil man. A phone call that set my pulse racing, and put a smile on my face. A visit from Amy and her lil girl...who was also still in her jammies, so an inpromptue jammie playdate! A postcard from one of my oldest friends, with a picture of her and my boy on it. A LIE-IN until 9:30!!! A glimse of what my life is becoming, as opposed to what it has always been. I hate to say it but I think I'm actually getting a life worth envying, rather than a life no-one wishes on their worst enemy.

And a random note, you will notice the lack of posting about Valentines. At the risk of offending millions of people, it is a highly over-rated holiday and something that I really find a little crass and over commerciallized. So therefore, thou I did bake on the day, cos that is a tradition I will keep, I gave chocolate brownies to Graeme, as I know he needs the chocolate more than anyone else in my life!!!!!!

The purpose of the meme is to get to know everyone who participates a little bit better every Thursday. Visiting fellow Thirteeners is encouraged! If you participate, leave the link to your Thirteen in others comments. It’s easy, and fun! Be sure to update your Thirteen with links that are left for you, as well! I will link to everyone who participates and leaves a link to their 13 things. Trackbacks, pings, comment links accepted!

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Well, its true, I found the Vodka in my cupboard and accidently drank it.

I've decided that there is nothing worse than being drunk and alone. I have huge amounts of hyper-ness (or frisky-ness!!!) that could be shared, but tonight I'm on my own. Pretty much like every night, so you'd think I'd be somewhat used to it by now, but then, every now and then, it hits me. I may have the most beautiful son in the world, and a huge number of friends, but my true friends, the ones I will bare my soul in front of, they are few and far between, and not a single one of them is avalible right now.

Never mind, I guess I'll go to bed and read this in the morning and cringe!

Friday, February 09, 2007

Sorry, but I am in the strangest mood, and when you think that I haven't updated my blog in ages, I've had a lot of visits just lately.

I'm so sorry for ignoring all you people who sit on the edge of your seats, waiting with baited breath, for the next installment of my oh-so-exciting life. Honestly, I really wasn't thinking of the impact that my neglecting you could have, to the point where one of my visitors stayed AN HOUR...perhaps hoping that I would update. Alas, I did not, for ALL my Laurell K Hamilton books were returned to me last week, and I'm sorry, but they need re-reading!!!!!!!!!

I did want to start posting on things that were personal to me, things that were all deep and meaningful and stuff, but frankly, this particular blog is mainly for light entertainment, and stress and ranting obviously, but mainly its light and fluffy, and I don't really want to take that away, also, if I do feel a need to talk about my feelings, I'm gonna do it anonymously!!!!! That's the whole reason that I still keep a diary almost daily.

In other news, ummmmm, yeah, a WHOLE lot of nothing again. Between work and my addiction to reading, I haven't even switched the computer on this week apart from when I popped it on for Phil to use. I lead such a full and rewarding life don't I? I've even started drinking Horlicks!!!!!!