So…we are a week away…or not…but probably a week away…7 more days…my love asked me today what I was going to do after, and I said I didn’t know…I guess this is what revenge feels like…you get it, and then there’s nothing…so…I did a ritual for 69 Days, and when it’s done…does the mourning just go (magically) away?No, is the simple answer.But…it is a good question…what will I do after…I hope to do something cliché like “love,” but…I’m (almost) too cynical for that…So…I guess the next two weeks I need to figure out: what’s next? The quote from Toni Morrison’s PARADISE.The chapter “Divine”: “Let me tell you about love, that silly word you believe is about whether you like somebody or whether somebody likes you or whether you can put up with somebody in order to get something or someplace you want or you believe it has to do with how your body responds to another body like robins or bison or maybe you believe love is how forces or nature or luck is benign to you in particular not maiming or killing you but if so doing it for your own good./“Love is none of that.There is nothing in nature like it.Not in robins or bison or in the banging tails of your hunting dogs and not in blossoms or suckling foal.Love is divine only and difficult always.If you think it is easy you are a fool.If you think it is natural you are blind.It is a learned application without reason or motive except that it is God./“You do not deserve love regardless of the suffering you have endured.You do not deserve love because somebody did you wrong.You do not deserve love just because you want it.You can only earn – by practice and careful contemplation – the right to express it and you have to learn how to accept it.Which is to say you have to earn God.You have to practice God.You have to think God – carefully.And if you are a good and diligent student you may secure the right to show love.Love is not a gift.It is a diploma.A diploma conferring certain privileges: the privilege of expressing love and the privilege of receiving it./“How do you know you have graduated?You don’t .What you do know is that you are human and therefore educable, and therefore capable of learning how to learn, and therefore interesting to God, who is interested only in Himself which is to say He is interested only in love.Do you understand me?God is not interested in you.He is interested in love and the bliss it bring to those who understand and share that interest.” That is my favorite quote about love.I have liked it ever since I read it for the first time in my Sophomore year at Cornish College of the Arts.I have written it down several times just to feel those words in my fingers touch the page.I have typed them.I have assigned them as a vocal exercise.I love this quote.I have grown with this quote.Cornel West talks about how Toni Morrison is someone who is a prophet of transcending race.I don’t think of her in regards to race…I just think of her in regards to her awesome novels, and, especially, this quote…so…if that means she’s transcending race…then so be it…I love her…I am a fan girl for Toni Morrison and I’m not ashamed to admit it…no one should be… That’s all for tonight…