I was diagnosed with bipolar and it seems it has become a curse in the way my immediate family treat me. I was almost sexaully assaulted and when I relayed the story they ask me if I took my meds, they even admitted me to the hospital and made up numerous stories. During an emotional low because of the incident they forced me to quit a lucrative job-first time ever gave up a job. And like usual they all abandoned me after.

I feel insulted that anytime I show emotions I am asked about my medication. I sometimes question being bipolar because 2 doctors say I aein't and 2 says I am. I was screamed at and totally mistreated by so called family. I can't grief the loss of my job, friends (had to relocate to me closer to them.) Left home at 16yrs. In late 20's. My brother ran up a 2000 charge on my credit card.

I have decided to totally detach myself from them and I regret the day I ever mentioned anything to them. I am going back to the area that I relocated from and have to stay in a shelter and find a job all over again. I feel so low that I know when I cross the border I would not answer any of their calls. They took my life and made a circus out of it and I allowed it.

You said you had two pdocs diagnose you with BP and 2 pdocs that didn't agree. How did all these pdoc's get involved with your case?

Do you see a therapist? It sounds like you could really benefit from seeing one with all of your serious issues and decision making.

I certainly agree that perhaps you need to separate yourself for a time from your family until all your thoughts are in order and you are able to discuss with them exactly how they have made you feel. Is there any other family members like aunts, cousins or a friend that would be more understanding to help you until you get back on your feet instead of being in a shelter?

i feel so badly for you and what you are going through. i agree that if you have any family or friends you could stay with instead of going to a shelter you would be so much better off. you might get some support that you so desparately need. i also agree that counseling would be so beneficial to you. at least you have support here any time you need.