Apple of My Eye

secrets kept

" And of mankind are some who take (for worship) others beside Allah as rivals (to Allah). They love them as they love Allah. But those who believe, love Allah more (than anything else). If only, those who do wrong could see, when they will see the torment, that all power belongs to Allah and that Allah is Severe in punishment "

Holy Quran, Al Baqarah:2

Saturday, July 21, 2012

1st Ramadhan1433 ~
...one date that I felt major sadness and I felt homey..(I miss it so much)...the pitiful of realization of what I've had become throughout life,..I see more clearly now that 'the silence of the lamb' is present...my water-thoughts flow more peacefully...calmly,I know now...really know well..

-- people changed..like E=mc2 (complicated) --

the sadness trap the heart with its firm grip..how I wonder why this is my beginning..that I know this is the best journey of all time...there's only some sad THINGS happen but the FEELING that comes after,..it came more powerful...not bad...not a bad sign at all..

~!@#$%^&*()_+...+_)(*&^%$#@!~

people feel sad..all the time..it is the most common essence that I hope I'm not the one of the commoners,..felt the normal feeling over n' over again...not cool..(c'mon!I'm a vintage freak!)...

about being able to see things clearly..what I mean by it is that,I knew the ways to avoid what's other people are doing wrong...those kind of plans help me get through existence more accordingly,..but the best of all,living personage more harmoniously...

_______ Masochist Vendetta borders` _______

what do you want n' wadya need?..see?that's a question...every homo sapien heard that one before,..but how many cared?

what do humans lived for?...my mind says..it's not something I find it worth fighting for,...maybe just because of my jealousy and ego conquer the mind while I'm writing this..but most of all,..my still-rational part thought,..majority creatures are still blind,..with the brightness of earth's fake light...however..where do I stand..am not one of em'?maybe,..maybe not...

-- I'M FREAKING FREAK THAN MOST OF YA GUYS,GOT THAT? --

so yeah~..now in Ramadhan...I can do stuffs,..in other words,..lots of stuffs could be done n'

Saturday, July 14, 2012

synopsis; Imagination took me to some place,..where I could no longer deal with boredom and insanity of life...

but still,..the place taught me few things of true meaning of life...

I ain't got no black beauty,.. a journal where I could place all my memories shared with these few lucky homo sapiens...at one time,..I mean this time,..the memories inside me burst throughout the imaginary space..colourful,much colourful than rainbow itself...filled through my tears...that very first day I cried,..when I left home..~

(this is just the beginning...I'm warning ya this is quite a long post...appreciate your time..go outside n' play my sweethearts..)

Since in college...

I'm too suck...suck-in for this life, i dont know what's happening to human fake life, what they're living for...popularity? I maybe no longer care, cuz in college, i learn some true meaning of life..n in the same time, i got away from fantasy that human thought they live in...so what now?..am i still part of them?--these questions are too abstract,..only thioughts of true vendetta would understand..~my apology

This is what actually happen...dear Malaysian that my Lord, Allah s.w.t. cared for,..

- Putra Univ Malaysian -

it'a a surprise..surprise to surpass all those intelligent-rians outside there to took their place here in UPM..the grateful overwhelmed that first moment I knew my place..here in this magnificent institute..

general knowledge people..we all knew it's friggin' important knowledges are..especially at this kind of century... you guys don't know how i hard me,..especially my beloved family to seek chance like this..it's linked to a case where i'm not fit to get a bumiputera specialities,..how dare them!(the governmet..*huuu)

Goode ol' me

Ghost with the name Nur Aen Zaharyn,..I like cats and sushi, I hate cliche and bright colors..A Masochistic,freak of Intellectual Stupid, forever a Starstruck Vintage,.and the icing of the cake= A loner in each torturing ways,..
(Islam is serenity,Muslims are legendary..I am one~)