Monday, February 6, 2017

Past, Present, Future

Have you ever played back a life event over and over again? Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change it. Sometimes I wish I can go back and re-live it. But the reality is that everything that has happened in the past, has made us stronger, somehow, in the present and what will makes us wiser for the future.

2016 really showed me some harsh realities. At first, I thought that I was just stuck in the same slump for a period of a few months, but when I opened my eyes to a bigger picture, I realized that I've been feeling that way for 4 years. It's hard to admit, sometimes, when you don't want to face certain realities. But acknowledging it for what it is, gave me clarity and it was the first step to change my attitude about life.

I guess you could say that I was playing the mother role with everyone. Taking care of everyone's needs and neglecting my own. I stopped thinking about myself and was helping everyone else around me. I became this controlling person, a robot on autopilot. Once I realized that there were situations beyond my control and situations that weren't serious, it was easy to let go of that person I had become and slowly embrace the person I once was. It's tough, some days it's even a struggle, but I always remind myself that life is too short, so the decisions I make today should be ones I won't regret if there is no tomorrow.

If there is anything that I want you to take away from this post, is that tomorrow is never promised. So say what you mean, do what you love, let go of the past, and become the person you keep wishing you were.