I'm so sorry for your loss, Renee. Be patient with yourself and your grieving. It's a hard process and at some level you will never get "over" the loss of your precious Enok, but you will get through it. It's wonderful that you have a gravesite you can go to especially remember him and spend some meditative time.

It sounds like you're getting the appropriate specialists to look for any underlying or chronic conditions that you may be able address. The important thing is to get yourself as healthy as possible.

We are still grieving the loss of our boy Enok ,This baby was very much wanted and after 3 IVFs we got this single one that stuck and we were so happy. I am overweight , but active and was working fulltime throughout my pregnancy. Not chronic hypertensive as far as i know but at 12 week BP was 145/85, doctor said it was because i was a "big woman".No proteins in urin. 2 days later BP was 130/85, so i never even thought about it again ( WRONG DECISION). 18+4 scan everything was fine and we got to know we were having a boy. Week 22 was at midwifes, BP was 150/95, P++ in urin, så was sent to the hospital. i felt like my normal selv, no pain NOTHING, i still cannot get over that.
Scans showed baby was about 20 weeks and not 22 weeks, so IUGR too, reverse bloodflow on scan, notching in my artery and he was already moving less to conserve energy and this heart and brain were already struggling. started with Labetalol but BP was just getting high and protein urin tests getting higher, baby stopped moving completely 22+4, i was induced and my baby came out monday 24.10. 22+6 and placenta manually removed because it was stuck. i read it was torn and small and the placenta is sent to pathology. BP stabilised the next day and even went to low i had to skip the BP drug , i was off the drug in a week. We buried Enok on Nov 2 with his paternal greatgrannies.
I find myself at his grave at least once a week and i love going there and talking to him. He knows he was loved, so loved and wanted.
I took some bloodtests this monday 6 weeks after delivery for bloodclotting disorders and we meet with the MFM december 21 to go through everything