I’m a little pissed at myself right now. I was planning on applying to the Sundance Producer’s Fellowship this year. I found out about it when we got back from Sundance on January 23rd or 24th and remembered that the deadline was today, Friday the 13th of February and I kind of remembered all the details, but I did not do the diligence of checking all of the details again before today. There are things I’m missing. Things I can’t get before 5pm today. I’m a little mad at myself, mostly because I really feel like I sabotaged myslelf into missing this deadline. Admittedly, looking at it realisticly, even if I had begun the work to get all the elements in place on the 23rd of January it would have been hard to make the date today, but I could have done it.

So what does this all boil down to? I got in my own way and I missed an opportunity. I don’t like this feeling so I’m not going to do this to myself again. If things go the way they are planned this year I will have worked too much to be eligible next year, and, really, I’d much rather be working than eligible, but you get what I mean hopefully.

This public post of something I’d normally keep private is my own kind of slap on the wrist for being dumb and also a way to maintain accountability for myself. Here’s to never having to do it again!