I believe I met my twin flame about 3 or 4 years ago in a game we both played online. He lives in England though, and I in the US.

The start was slow, and a bit complicated. It happened without either of us realized at first. Originally I thought he was a girl, so I opened up to him a lot more than I would have otherwise. He was the first one to have feelings for me, but I think we both always had them for each other. It was very low key though, kind of a strange comfort zone that we were not consciously aware of, but we did always somehow end up back together no matter what.

A lot of drama happened, and he tried to get away from me (so he says) because he thought it would never work out between us, so he found another girlfriend, but it was hurried and they barely knew each other. I helped him work through that, and eventually, his feelings came out. We had a rough patch right after that, and though he said he was with me, he was also with her. I resolved to end the friendship there, and had not yet taken the relationship seriously, thinking he was just messing around, but the very night I deleted and blocked him on everything, I felt an overwhelming sadness and loneliness, unlike anything I’ve ever felt.

I accepted him back as a friend but told him a relationship was unlikely, but he was happy to have a second chance and worked on me. Eventually, I worked through my suspicion and confusion and realized that I did really love him all along. It was strange at first, but it grew incredibly quickly.

All the same, I messed up, and a month before he was set to come visit me for the first time I broke up with him for a few minutes. But again, instead of feeling relieved, I felt an overwhelming sadness and horror that I had made such a mistake.

Suffice to say he didn’t take me back, and I had a complete emotional breakdown. I was a mess for over half a year and tried for almost a full year to get him back. He kept doing things to show he was over me – new girlfriends, not showing up online where we used to talk every day, moving on in his life. I am still a mess even now, but it’s become a bit easier to handle.

All the same, it both feels “okay” but also like it’s a brand new wound at the same time. At first, I felt sure he’d come back. Then I started to panic, spent a ton consulting psychics who reassured me he’d be coming back but none of the time frames ever panned out. They still tell me he’s working his way back. But now I really don’t know.

Sometimes I feel absolutely crazy, and maybe he was just putting me on. Yet I know he felt strongly about me, at least at one time. He was even the first to bring it up, and he said things that I know meant he had to feel them too, things I felt as well and one couldn’t know unless they felt it too.

I know I have to just put my faith in what will be, but it’s so hard when I miss him so much. A part of me is okay, and I try and be okay with life in general, but it scares me to the core to know he might have moved on happily without me, forgotten me.

If anyone else had done the things he did, from day one to now, I would have walked away long ago. Yet no matter how hurt or mad he makes me I can’t stop thinking about him and loving him, flaws and all. But then I start thinking, am I just one of those crazily obsessed people?

I still have this irrational feeling that we belong together, but I really don’t know if he still feels that way about me. At this point, it’s going on a year and a half, and I’ve stopped chasing him about 5 months ago and he’s done nothing to reach out or make any kind of contact. I feel like I’m just prolonging the inevitable, but somehow I just can’t shake that feeling that we’re supposed to be together. I really wish I just had some sign, but all the signs I get seem more and more like he’s leaving me in his past and moving on.

I know what you’re all thinking and many have told me as well – move on! He’s no good! But I just feel otherwise and I can’t explain it. As much as it hurts I can’t seem to stop thinking about him and eagerly awaiting the day he might come back.

I chased my twin and then I disappeared. From my own experience it may be that they haven’t found their sense of inner peace, security, and worthiness.

It’s not like anyone ever feels that way all the time, but it’s insecurity that drives someone to dip their toe in and then back away. It’s avoidance at its worst.

They probably love and pine for you exactly the same, but the battle is within themselves. They’ll figure it out, just give them time. Work on yourself to be strong, independent and confident. Remember your twin is your mirror so by helping yourself become more confident it can help them.

I had a brief yet intense affair 17 years ago. He ended the romance because it was too much for him because he was married.

Although he broke my heart, we occasionally hooked up for the next six years, and things finally ended when his wife found out about me.

For 11 years we had zero contact and ran into each other maybe twice until the day he came to my work (he finally saw me on his 9th attempt going there) and wanted to try again. After I reluctantly (I am engaged, and he’s still married) said yes, we talked for awhile, and then he started ignoring me.

Feeling hurt, I wrote him a letter about his need for power and got a few things off my chest. The next day I was feeling horrible about hurting him, and I realized the letter was more about me than it was about him.

Something strange started to happen as I felt this tingling feeling in my arms and legs. My body was trembling, I was hot and sweating profusely. There was this heaviness in my heart. It almost felt like pain or the guilt I felt for hurting him when suddenly, I involuntarily arched my back, pushed my chest forward and I felt this rush of energy open my heart and release the pressure or pain that felt. Like it was locked in there forever and finally found it’s way out. It was incredible and indescribable.

Could he possibly be my twin flame? We’ve always had something special, and we never forgot about each other after all of these years. I have always loved him, but I eventually learned to let go. That was until he came back, opened my heart Chakra and ran away as fast as he could.

Now what? He won’t talk to me because he said this was a huge mistake. Huge mistake? Something that feels like that is not by any means a mistake. It is wonderful. Does he feel it too?