I'm very fearful of myself. Something has been going on lately, and i feel like I'm developing schizophrenia, or something.

So much has been going on in life, and I've just been dealing with everything. But now I am constantly crying at everything, I can't keep food down, and I am so aggrivated with EVERYONE. I have panic attacks everywhrere I go and feel stared at. I feel suicidal. I feel like a failure in school. I have NO IDEA how to handle myself. I

really have never been so afraid of myself before. I'm not getting any better and the holidays are coming up and the holidays suck majorly. I cant kick this depression.

I really think that the holidays alone have a lot to do with how a lot of people are feeling right now. So you are definately not alone.

Are you seeing a doctor or a therapist? Do you take any medication? I have probably asked you these questions before so bare with me if I don't remember. I am not good at remembering things. It is called fibro fog. From my fibromyalgia.

I think it would be a good idea to talk to your doctor or therapist. I think that this can be easily taken care of. You always seem to have such a good attitude on the forum. You are always helping others. So I feel that you have a good head on your shoulders and can come to grips with this.

Have you ever tried the mood gym? I will get you the site for that.

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome

I hate to see you feeling so down after you have been doing so well. I hope that you feel better soon. I hope that coming here helps you some. You know that we are all here for you.

You are always welcome to email me, my address is in my profile and the little blue envelope on the side of my post. I will be more than happy to talk to you if you think that would help.

Take care, keep posting and remember you are not alone in this, we are here for you.