And, of course, there’s the national anthem, the league apparently bending to the will of President Donald Trump and his White supremacist followers, and the blatant blackballing of Colin Kaepernick for his activism, which seems to be the reason that most of the football fans I know have finally had enough.

The 2018 NFL season began last week, and I can’t blame you even a little bit if you aren’t watching. If the numerous crimes of this league are morally abhorrent to you, if spending your Sundays doing anything other than watching football makes you feel better as a person, you won’t get any judgment from me. The NFL has given you more than enough reason to boycott, more than enough reason to tune out.

Here’s why I’m not.

First of all, let’s talk about Kaepernick and the anthem protests, because it seems to me there’s a narrative going around that, while not exactly false, is certainly being presented without context. I’ve been kicking this piece around in my head since back in May, when the NFL announced a new rule for the 2018 season by which players would be punished for failing to stand for the national anthem.

Everyone knew it was a direct response to the previous season, in which the peaceful protests initiated by Kaepernick against racist police violence spread throughout the league, causing numerous players and sometimes entire teams to kneel or show some other form of solidarity during the national anthem, a situation that was only exacerbated when President Trump openly called for protesting players to be fired.

When the NFL announced that players who chose to kneel or otherwise protest during the singing of the anthem would be fined unless they stayed in the locker room, my Facebook feed suddenly lit up with friends and family announcing that they would no longer support the league in any way. This pandering to Trump’s whims, this authoritarian display of wealthy White dominance, was the last straw for them. And, again, that position is wholly justifiable.

But in certain media circles, particularly those frequented by progressive sports pundits like The Nation’s Dave Zirin and The Ringer’s Bill Simmons, the new anthem policy was more of a joke than a crisis.

For another thing, the policy didn’t actually fine specific players; it fined the teams they played for (“team” as in business entity, not as in a group of players). This was meant to give the individual team organizations an incentive to take punitive action against players violating the policy, thus putting the onus on each franchise as opposed to the NFL. However, the players themselves had no financial incentive to follow the policy, and word quickly spread of large groups of players organizing to protest the anthem anyway, or to simply refuse to play until their rights were restored.

What was an owner supposed to do in that case? Fire the entire team? Moreover, what was initially reported by the NFL as a unanimous vote among the owners was almost instantly revealed to be a sham, and more than one owner undermined the policy immediately by saying it wouldn’t be enforced in their organizations. Lastly, it was obvious to everyone except the NFL itself that this policy, which the owners and the commissioner did not in any way need to enact, would lead to an enormous backlash against the league and an absolute ocean of terrible PR. It was funny because the NFL had willingly made an ass out of itself for no reason, and the only lasting result would be more bad press.

Just be advised, if you plan on boycotting the NFL this season, that feeling clean is the only thing you will accomplish.

Now, it’s true that despite all that, Colin Kaepernick still doesn’t have a job in the NFL. Neither does Eric Reid, the first player to join Kaepernick’s silent sideline protest. But even in that regard, things appear to be moving in a positive direction. Kaepernick and Reid are both suing the league for collusion in keeping them out of the game. And there’s only one reason Nike chose to feature Kaepernick’s face in a high-profile advertisement released last week: It’s not because Nike gives a damn about Kaepernick’s message—it’s because Nike can smell the way the wind is blowing. The official supplier of NFL uniforms and sideline gear thinks it will put itself in a better financial position by supporting Kaepernick than it will by ignoring him. That’s huge. That’s a shift in the balance of power.

I don’t know if Kaepernick will ever play quarterback again, but it doesn’t look like we’ll be seeing any more official policies from the NFL about kneeling during the national anthem. At this point, the NFL can either stay put or veer left. The choice they make likely depends on what the players do this season, which is one of the reasons I’m so excited to watch.

The league’s anthem rule has gone bye-bye, but there’s still … all that other stuff. Part of me wishes I had stopped watching football when Ray Rice was only suspended for two games after being caught on tape knocking his fiancée unconscious, or when Greg Hardy got a job with the Dallas Cowboys after beating up his ex-girlfriend and throwing her onto a pile of loaded guns. Why didn’t I? Tom Brady was suspended for four games for throwing a slightly deflated football, but Jameis Winston sexually assaults an Uber driver and is suspended for only three? To me that’s worse than anything involving the national anthem. Why don’t I stop now?

There are three reasons. The first is the most obvious and the least forgivable: I love watching football. I’m sorry, I just do. I love it. I love cheering my Chicago Bears (who might actually be relevant this season for the first time in over a decade), I love playing fantasy football, I love spending my Sundays watching the game grow and evolve, I love being part of this particular community of fandom. And I’m one of those people who started watching as an adult; I can’t even claim a childhood connection such as using football as a means of bonding with family members and friends, the kind of connection that, for many people, makes the idea of sacrificing football a radical and traumatic act.

But sacrifice is only truly meaningful when it involves giving up something you truly love, and maybe I would be willing to sacrifice football if I honestly thought it would do any good beyond making myself feel clean.

Again, no shade thrown on feeling clean—that’s a legitimate thing to want. Just be advised, if you plan on boycotting the NFL this season, that feeling clean is the only thing you will accomplish.

I don’t support the NFL. I support NFL players.

In the age of streaming services, general viewership of network television is dropping like a stone, and the only thing keeping it from hitting rock bottom is sports. Sports are the only shows on television that still bring in enough advertising revenue to keep TV networks afloat, because they’re the only shows on television still capable of drawing a single, massive, live audience. If companies weren’t willing to pony up so much money to place ads during Sunday Night Football, NBC might not even exist in 2018. It costs $5 million to place a 30-second ad during the Super Bowl, which rotates annually between NBC, CBS, and Fox and has a dramatic financial impact each time it changes networks. The NFL continues to be supremely important in maintaining subscription numbers for cable networks, as well, largely thanks to ESPN and the NFL Network. Simply put, the value of football as a media property cannot be overstated.

The NFL is currently in the middle of a series of TV deals that extend until 2021 and 2022 and are worth approximately $27 billion. That means it’s going to be at least another three years before ratings will matter even the tiniest amount. And even if the NFL’s ratings were to drop precipitously by then, the league would still possess 100 percent of the leverage in negotiating their new TV deals, just as they possessed 100 percent of the leverage in negotiating their current TV deals, because for any and all networks, losing the NFL would be a death sentence. You need to be rich already to be an NFL owner, but at this moment in time, they are in zero danger of not getting richer, no matter how many people stop watching.

In fact, the people most likely to be smacked in the pocketbooks via an NFL boycott are not the owners, but the players. The NFL salary cap, which determines how much money teams can spend on player contracts, is determined as a result of the league’s revenue. If revenue goes down, so does the cap, which means players are getting paid less. Now, if you’re thinking to yourself, “Oh no, a dude only getting paid $15 million instead of $20 million to throw a ball, WHATEVER SHALL WE DO,” I agree and sympathize with your sarcasm. Nonetheless, the point stands—nobody who owns an NFL team is going bankrupt before each and every person who plays for that team goes bankrupt first. And it’s the players, not the owners, who are giving their money to charity and using their platforms to make a difference.

As I get older and my perspective on football fandom changes, I’ve found far less joy in the struggles of the floundering Bears than I have in watching my favorite individual players compete in and win football games. Chicago went 5-11 last season and missed the playoffs by a mile, but watching the Philadelphia Eagles—who employed Jenkins, Long, and other activists, like Lane Johnson and Torrey Smith—defeat the Trump-stumping Tom Brady and the president’s favorite team, the New England Patriots, in the Super Bowl produced the greatest feeling I’ve ever experienced as a sports fan. And while I’ve always tried to tell people why they should be proud of certain NFL players for their actions, I’ve never been prouder to be a fan of a sports figure as I am proud to be a fan of Colin Kaepernick, whom I’ve loved ever since he decimated the hated Green Bay Packers in a playoff game 10 million years ago.

If you’re a progressive and you love football, now is not the time to boycott. Now is the time to stand up and demand change.

I do see a potential future scenario in which public outcry leads to the NFL’s downfall. The chronic traumatic encephalopathy issue isn’t going away, and we may eventually realize, some with heavier hearts than others, that it simply isn’t possible to safely play a game that involves people running into each other. But the loss of football wouldn’t necessarily be a win for the left.

Despite all the corruption and racism endemic to both the collegiate and professional games, football remains one of the only true sources of dramatic social mobility for Black people in America. Like all systems that exist under capitalism, it sucks, but the fact remains that there are hundreds, maybe thousands, of schools and social programs throughout the country that only exist because a Black football player was given a really big check for playing a game that will probably destroy his ability to think straight later in life. Their sacrifice matters, the same way Kaepernick’s sacrifice matters.

The man has been unceremoniously drummed out of his profession, and for what? So the people who stand with him in his convictions can actively try to destroy the game to which he so desperately wants to return? Or did Colin Kaepernick do what he did because he knew how many people his message would reach because he was a football player, because he knew how many football lovers, fans and players alike, cared enough about justice to respond to his call to action?

Stop watching football? Are you kidding? Has the NFL ever been populated with such an empowered roster of players? What will they do this year? How many will kneel? How many will speak out? Will the league be foolish enough to try to stop them again? Will the president? One of the great cultural battles of our time is being fought on the gridiron, and I’m supposed to leave it to the morons out there burning their own shoes because they think it will negatively affect the quarterly income of Nike?

If every progressive stopped watching football starting tonight, how unlikely does it suddenly become that the game will ever get safer or less bigoted? What’s the point in abandoning that fight just as we’re starting to gain ground? We’re living in a world where the power of Black athletes is overcoming the power of White billionaires, a world in which racists and conservatives are bragging about their departure from football fandom, and we’re not going to seize that moment and claim the game for our own?

If you’re a progressive and you love football, now is not the time to boycott. Now is the time to stand up and demand change.

That’s why I’m watching the 2018 NFL season, from start to finish. I will watch, and I will listen, and I will speak up. It isn’t much in the grand scheme of things, and probably nobody cares what I do, anyway, but it will make me feel better as a person, because I’ll be fighting for something I love.

This article was originally published on Universes of the Mind. It has been edited for YES! Magazine.

Miles Schneiderman wrote this article for YES! Magazine. Miles is a freelance writer, podcaster, and media producer currently working in Tucson, Arizona. Learn more about his work at www.mjschneiderman.com