I'll take the elevator.

Thursday, September 26, 2013

I haven't said that in months. I pride myself on taking the stairs whenever possible, and I take the train to school so I end up walking a lot. ... Since Tuesday I have taken the stairs and used a cane. I feel awful.

Thank you for all of the well wishes They make me smile while I cuddle up with my heating pad :)

I find myself munching more than usual, and not moving nearly enough (which I figure is ok for the next couple days).

I'm trying to focus on being happy with who I am, and re-evaluating who I am without my Jojo (wow this conversation took a turn for the sad rather quickly). I have to turn to myself for answers more often, and I've got to learn to love the skin I'm in even though it is far from where I want it to be. On Facebook there are so many pages telling curvy women to love themselves the way they are, and "Big is beautiful", etc... but I don't feel that way most of the time, and my "curves" don't seem to be the right size for love.

I need to pick one life change at a time. My back, losing a loved one, and loving myself... that's too many at once, besides I have homework!

While I rest on my amazing heating pad, put off my homework and write this post, I want you to all know you are amazing. No matter who you are, no matter what you look like. You, more than anyone, deserve your love.