That sounds like a VERY tough time. I didn't realise you were trying to have a baby. Makes sense as to why you and JA have been gone so long.

Me and T are firmly together these days. TTWD comes and goes, as does everything in real life, but I much prefer the reality of being with him, than all the dreaming of what it could be like to live a DD life. He has given up a job he hated. We sold his flat so he has enough to tide over until a pension starts next year. So now he's able to write which is his passion.

We are both hard at it in therapy these days, which makes getting the D/s balance complicated. But not impossible. And as we are both "wired" for it, it's always there in the background.

Sorry to hear about the difficulties...that can be a really trying time emotionally and physically.

E and I are still practicing TWD, although of course, its not always perfect. He gets busy and works out of town more now, and discipline tends to go by the wayside while that's happening, but it is what it is. Were getting married in October, so the impending nuptials have me busy too.

I also left the company that I've worked for forever and went out on my own. Scary but really exciting.

I hope everything settles some for you...if there's any thing we can do to help, or if you just need to process, have at it!