Friday, July 2, 2010

today didn't really turn out as i have expected.the whole day sucks as a matter of fact.i'm having another one of those emotionless phases in my life where the whole world looks like a mere blackhole,an infinite hollow space,sucking you down into unknown depths where nothing is familiar no matter how hard you try to identify them.i was hoping that this day would change my vigorous stirring of emotions,but it didn't.i'm not blaming anyone for not getting the opportunity to talk to my so-called hero,if it wasn't for him being such a coward to approach me whenever i sit with my friends.i wonder what makes him so shy around them?no offence but come on..he's got nothing to be inferior of.so what if half of them are not particularly fond of him,i know i am.okay i do admit,he can be excessively shy and nerdy at times,but his caring nature is what makes him so special.i don't know how some girls can be too blind to see that side of him.speaking of personality traits,today,at the football field,i discovered a different side of him.a side that i have never witnessed before since his first 'hi' to me.it all happened so suddenly and brief,but indeed proved that he's human regardless of how too much of a Mr Right he is.he was playing a game of kickball with his friends while i sat by the side,whining about my shoes.yes my shoes are retarded,so are the basketball playing skills of my basketball team members,LMFAO! about my shoes,they're not that old nor expensive,but they certainly are imported,wakaka.i bought them at madinah for 10 riyals (around RM9),so it was expected that the soles of the shoes are not really of the best quality.it came off and i had to pull myself out of the game.anyway,back to the story,as i sat down,bad luck stroke me right in the ribs,literally.someone threw the ball too hard that it hit the left side of my ribs.it hurts,quite so.just then,Mr Right came to the rescue,well almost.he could have stopped the ball from heading towards me,but as we all know only a mutated freak would have such speed and reflex sufficient to do such a thing.instead,he cursed the person who threw the ball at me,that was first really.it was beyond my imagination that a guy with the likes of him would act in such a manner,not that i'm complaining.after all,he is a human being,and Mr Ben's theory has been proven to be true.every man has his own vice,be it smoking,drinking,gambling,womanizing,trash-talking and so many others.i guess my dear readers are smart enough to figure out which vice belongs to him now :) nevertheless,it's an acceptable vice that i can always forgive without the need of him apologizing.

it ends today..and yes,i'm disappointed that i didn't get to make the best of it,simply because i didn't know that today would be the last day that i could ever spend time with him.the day ended so quickly,i didn't get any chances to even breathe.and the day ended with a rapidly brewing thunder storm that caused me to be stranded in school for almost an hour.the heavy downpour may have subsided a little for a couple of moments,but the thunder keeps striking the earth in a frenzy-like fashion.

i've had a tough day,and i'm sensing that tomorrow will be an even longer day.wish me luck!

thanks for trying to be my hero today,Chef Marc Anthony :) this may be a major cliche',an overused phrase,but it's the only 3-word phrase that explains everything... "I Love you".i wish i discovered you earlier,i would have had more time spent with you then.

" Let me be your hero

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?Would you run and never look backWould you cry if you saw me cryingWould you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?Would you laugh oh please tell me theseNow would you die for the one you love?Hold me in your arms tonight?

I can be you hero babyI can kiss away the pain I will stand by you foreverYou can take my breath away

Would you swear that you'll always be mine?Would you lie would you run away Am I in to deep?Have I lost my mind?I don't care you're here tonight .."