This is not our family. I can't post pictures of the babies, but I thought this family was super cute. Not as cute as us, but what are ya gonna do? :)

We started going through foster care training months ago and were just recently placed with newborn twins. We had no idea what to expect.

I always wondered if I would love them as much as my own kids or would I feel like i was babysitting.

We decided to do foster to adopt because of all of the horror stories we had heard that go on in the foster care system.

I had heard horrible stories of kids being physically and sexually abused in foster care, and in their own homes, and this broke my heart and John's heart.

As God called us to do this, we realized that while it might be excruciating to give a child back to their family, if we could keep them safe for the time they were with us, then it was worth it.

No child should have to endure abuse, especially once they have already been ripped away from their parents for one reason or another.

So, we started the journey.

I had plenty of fears when beginning this.

Like I said above, would i love the children like I do my own child?

Would they come with behavioral issues that I didn't know how to deal with?

Would it change the dynamic of our family?

Would CPS be out to get me? (I've heard stories of them checking your spices to see if they are expired and then writing you up)

Would my family be kept safe?

How would this affect our financials?

Would the child have problems as they grew older that had a negative affect on our family?

Would bringing another child into the family isolate Jackson in some way?

Would my heart break into pieces

We talked about all of these and decided that following God's command for us to care for the orphan far outweighed all of these fears.

Human fears.

As far as Jackson is concerned, we decided that we would much rather him learn from us what serving others looks like on a daily basis.

We realized it was much better for him to learn that it is not all about him, and to learn empathy and sympathy at an early age.

Life is not about our kids. Life is about serving God. I would prefer that he learn that now, rather than later.

He is our precious boy and this has been a growing experience for him, but we have had SOOO many awesome opportunities to teach him about God during this time, and neither of us would change that for a second.

In this process so far, we have had to give of ourselves quite often.

The babies are fantastic, but twins are twins, and they require a lot of work.

Yes, we are tired, but man are we blessed.

To say that we have fallen in love with these babies would be an understatement.

I can't recommend foster care enough.

As believers, we are not all called to the same service, but I pray that if you have any nudge to foster/adopt children, that you will take that leap and follow God's plan for your life.

It wasn't easy when God sent Jesus to die for us so that we could be adopted into His family. This isn't easy either, but it is a beautiful picture of how God loved us and how we can love others and adopt them into our family.