Pages

Sunday, March 24, 2013

The quite space that is created when I meditate is an awakening
and an opening to lovely, subtle gifts.My morning practice begins before the sun rises.I find my way in the dark to my pillow, clear
my mind with cleansing breaths, and silently repeat whatever mantra is in my
spirit on that day.When I open my eyes everything
is brighter.That awakening has created
a space for my 11 year old son, Nash, and I to share sunset walks, walks I wish
I had shared with my older two children who are now in college. I had not created that quiet space inside of
me when they were younger and sometimes feel a bit of sadness for that
loss.But for Nash and me, those walks have become a
staple in our daily living.Even when he
is tired and questioning Mommy's silly practice as I coax him away from computer
time, or Lego time, the miracle of the sun coloring the evening sky gold,
purple and fuchsia lights us both up inside and we are better when we return.

I always thought of that quiet space that has opened my
heart as an unseen, private gift, but yesterday that gift was reflected back to
me.A surprise birthday party at New
York City's Carmine's restaurant that my lovely daughter orchestrated with my
best friend, Karen, was a million sunsets, and a million brilliant colors
lighting up the evening sky. In that
moment, my two older children along with friends I love and cherish joined me
and Nash on our sunset walk.

Sunday, March 3, 2013

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest
fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness
that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about
shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant
to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that
is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our
own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates
others.”

When the man of my dreams showed me another side of himself,
I ignored it.I had yet to marry. We had been living together for several months
when, to my surprise, the man who had been sensitive, attentive and generous was
suddenly cold, unavailable, and even cruel with his words when I questioned him.I chose to dismiss his behavior.He doesn't mean it, I told myself.He's just nervous about his future, I reasoned.But his words were clear:

"I am going to be a great artist," he told
me."You just have let
me do my work because that is the most important thing to me.Can you do that?" he asked.Without hesitation, I said yes and fell into
his embrace.

We all choose our experiences.Yes, while my marriage was often miserable,
there was something in that experience that served me.Experiences that we define as negative
serve us in some way.It served me to
hide behind my ex husband's ambition because of my sense of unworthiness and fear. I now know that my marriage served as a protective cocoon while I worked on my fears from childhood. That cocoon kept me playing it small in the role of helper, too afraid to embrace my light, my gifts and the beautiful song I had within me.

I found my larger self and broke through my fears
on my meditation pillow.Growth during meditation
is spiritual but also can be a physical sensation.I actually feel my body expanding during meditation. That expanded feeling of self-love and self-acceptance dissolved my fears and helped me to step out of my small role and into my divine light.That limitless, boundless sensation is inside
of all of us for a reason.It is the promise
and the right of our God, Spirit, or however we define our divine selves. To step up and play big in the world is not only our right, it is our duty.

About Me

I am the founder of OneWomanOneVoiceProject.com, a social networking website and positive place on the Internet to connect, grow and thrive.
- Daily affirmation
- Inspirational blogs
- Life coach classes
- Life-changing programs