The power I once felt;Silence, dripping and spilt Drinking off the marble floor.Cats might have more purr, more presence;Lying in the cold, talking to myselfMay have once been a noble taskYet I’ve discovered myself alone,As much as I will ever show;In another double, which might still glow with decadence,I am mirrored through a portal:A bad omen, a mistaken step;Would he be disappointed in me?Or could I win his admiration In pursuing something he lacks.

What would things look likeif I could press rewind?Take myself back to that momentand make sure it never happened?What would it be like, to not be naive?To know then,that you had nothing to dowith me;Were just drunk on yourself?To push you awayand be certain?Before feelings complicated the mix?What would it be liketo have never loved you?To like myself better again,To be sure —once more—that I would never be so ******,What would it be like if I’d never met you?

if there came a day where you packed all your emotional baggage and left I’m not quite sure what I would do I would not sit and cry for I do not cry and I cannot sit stillI would not listen to sad songs I would listen to loud metal rockin a hope to drown out the final words that past your lips to meand every other word you have said to me

I would not watch films or read books I would lie on my bed trying to ignore the tea stains and the blankets we curled up underneath I would stare at the ceiling trying so hard to block every part of you from my mind

I would never drink tea from the cup you gifted me I would never read Harry Potter again after all the long talks about our shared favourite series

unless I was sad about all the moments we would never share then I would sit and drink tea hoping it would drown me I would read Harry Potter watch the films and glance at fan art simultaneously i would listen to every sad song that ever reminded me of you i would sit unmoving for days tears of tea running down my face

i would not be able to not think of you over time this may change but i would always have a scar to remind me of the old wounds time never can’t heal and i will always hope that you would heal them one day