Tuesday, June 20, 2006

tonight i miss you so terribly, inexpressibly much...

there are certain things that remind me of us. like the big windows behind my bed in the downtown apartment i lived last summer. the morning summer sun was so bright there - i used to wake up and first thing to check my email from you, while still in bed. at first it was like 7 am, then it moved to 6:30, then ... then it got embarrasing how early i had no problem hopping out of bed to check email from you.

like damien rice and james blunt and coldplay "x&y" cds. i think it was the second parcel you sent me. i listened to them over and over and over again. and thought that you have a good taste in music. i might have been biased. but i still think it's awesome music.

like "lori's" diner in san fran. do you remember our first shake together? you were so nervous and i thought to myself "if he doesn't relax soon, we'll have some looooong four days". could you have imagined then?

or cheap phone cards. i don't want to expand on this. there have been plenty near accidents i've made while punching in 4968745698546798369857946 digits.

tonight i just miss you. it doesn't get easier, even if i know you'll be here again soon or that we'll be one in three months. i still miss you terribly.