1/13/13

I posted the first 25 books I read in another post a while back, but people have been asking me what I've read here so I decided tojust post all 50 books that I've read so far now so that they do not have to look back. Here they are!

For Peace Corps volunteers it can often
feel like our impact is very minimal, and it can be rare to actually see one's
impact. I was lucky enough recently to be able to see 20 months of work at site
(22 months in Botswana) pay off .Two days ago I went to the Junior school to
introduce myself to new students at an assembly because the new school year just
began here. At the end of assembly I ended up being left with over 130 Form
Istudents ( about the equivalent of 8th
graders in the U.S.) because the teachers who were supposed to be running a new
student orientation for them ended up having to go to a workshop instead. I was
legitimately told "Just talk to them about HIV or something for 4
hours" on the spot.

No way was I going to just lecture to these students
for four hours straight. First of all, I was not prepared, and second of all, I
would have gotten sick of listening to myself talk for that long ,and I knew they would have
too! Instead, I talked to the guidance teacher and asked him to gather the PACT
students to help me. I then watched in awe as my PACT students essentially put
on a workshop about HIV, Gender Issues, Dating Relationships, and Substance
Abuse for over 130 of their peers without time to prepare and with very little
help from me. I literally only had to help them a bit with time reminders and
speaking with a few students who were being disrespectful to them. Overall,
they kept their peers engaged and happy for four hours and even though I know
they were tired and it was not easy for them, they pushed through and were
amazing. I was so proud of them that I was almost to the point of tears. Not
only were the Junior school PACT students amazing, but I also got to see many
of my former primary school PACT students who are now in Form I in action. They
were answering questions and among the most engaged students there. I really got to
see them put what they had learned through primary PACT club in action as well.

Lately I had been feeling anxious about leaving so soon and wondering what my
impact has been here and if it has been enough. I've been afraid of leaving and
feeling like my service was incomplete. However, because of these PACT students
I now see that I have done something here and will be able to leave feeling
like I've left something behind. I can't even begin to describe how wonderful of
a feeling this is.

1/3/13

Overall, Botswana is a politically conservative country when it comes to many subjects, including sexuality and sexual orientation. It isn't illegal to be gay here per say,but it is illegal to engage in any sexual activity that can not lead to procreation. There is a LGBT organization based in the capital city and there certainly are members of the LGBT community living in Botswana, but most who are out about their sexual orientation live in the capital or in larger villages, not in the small, rural areas. I can't comment on whether or not it is physically unsafe for someone to be out in a village here or not because that would totally depend on the individual's situation. I've heard of teenagers who have come out here being beaten by parents or other family members as a form of discipline/punishment for being gay or using substances or harming themselves because they are afraid to be out or are being rejected for being out. Overall, Botswana is a peaceful country, but family dynamics and religious views have an influence, just as they have an influence in other parts of the world, including the U.S. Even if there isn't a physical threat, I can see how it could be intimidating for someone to be out in a small village here because it could feel very isolating and have some potential social implications for them. There isn't very much support or education regarding sexuality/sexual orientation in the smaller villages so many people just do not understand and lack of understanding often leads to discrimination and prejudice.

Now keeping all of this in mind, I want to tell you about how I've had the privilege of getting to know a pretty incredible person in my small village who is openly gay and even dresses in drag frequently. This person is a respected member of the community, and from what I have been told and witnessed feels safe in the village and doesn't experience harassment within the village. I do not know what this person's experience has been growing up here entirely, but I know I am certainly admire the bravery it can take be fully oneself in a place where so many would not feel comfortable or safe enough to do so. I also am impressed by and was taken a little bit by surprise by the general open-mindedness of my small village community. It makes me feel lucky to live here in this village and to get the chance to meet such wonderful people who are able to say things like "We may not agree with it, but someone's life is his or her own life". I wish more people in this world were able to adopt that attitude, even in the United States.