‘I’ve been trying to forget this all my life,’ she told friend, ‘and now I’m supposed to remember every little detail’

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WASHINGTON, DC - SEPTEMBER 27: Christine Blasey Ford at a Senate Judiciary Committee hearing in the Dirksen Senate Office Building on Capitol Hill September 27, 2018 in Washington, DC. A professor at Palo Alto University and a research psychologist at the Stanford University School of Medicine, Ford has accused Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh of sexually assaulting her during a party in 1982 when they were high school students in suburban Maryland. (Photo by Melina Mara-Pool/Getty Images)

Mayor Liz Kniss of Palo Alto, watches televised testimony from Christine Blasey Ford at City Hall on Thursday, Sept. 27, 2018, in Palo Alto, Calif. Ford, testified during a Senate Judiciary Committee hearing about her allegations that Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh attempted to rape her in the early 1980s. (Aric Crabb/Bay Area News Group)

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WASHINGTON, DC - SEPTEMBER 27: Senator Dianna Feinstein (D-CA) and Senator Patrick Leahy (D-VT) chat as Dr. Christine Blasey Ford speaks at the Senate Judiciary Committee hearing on the nomination of Brett Kavanaugh to be an associate justice of the Supreme Court of the United States, on Capitol Hill September 27, 2018 in Washington, DC. A professor at Palo Alto University and a research psychologist at the Stanford University School of Medicine, Ford has accused Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh of sexually assaulting her during a party in 1982 when they were high school students in suburban Maryland. (Photo By Michael Reynolds-Pool/Getty Images)

WASHINGTON, DC - SEPTEMBER 27: Senate Judiciary Committee member Sen. Lindsey Graham (R-SC) listens to testimony from Christine Blasey Ford in the Dirksen Senate Office Building on Capitol Hill September 27, 2018 in Washington, DC. A professor at Palo Alto University and a research psychologist at the Stanford University School of Medicine, Ford has accused Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh of sexually assaulting her during a party in 1982 when they were high school students in suburban Maryland. (Photo by Win McNamee/Getty Images)

WASHINGTON, DC - SEPTEMBER 27: Rachel Mitchell, chief of the Special Victims Division of the Maricopa County attorney's office in Arizona, points to a map as she questions Dr. Christine Blasey Ford during a U.S. Senate Judiciary Committee hearing at the Dirksen Senate Office Building on Capitol Hill September 27, 2018 in Washington, DC. Blasey Ford, a professor at Palo Alto University and a research psychologist at the Stanford University School of Medicine, has accused Supreme Court nominee Brett Kavanaugh of sexually assaulting her during a party in 1982 when they were high school students in suburban Maryland. (Photo by Andrew Harnik-Pool/Getty Images)

Anita Hill wipes her eye after speaking at the University of Utah on Wednesday, Sept. 26, 2018, in Salt Lake City. Hill has been back in the spotlight since Christine Blasey Ford accused Supreme Court nominee Brett Kavanaugh of sexually assaulting her when the two were in high school. Hill's 1991 testimony against Clarence Thomas riveted the nation. Thomas was confirmed anyway, but the hearing ushered in a new awareness of sexual harassment. (AP Photo/Rick Bowmer)

WASHINGTON, DC - SEPTEMBER 27: Christine Blasey Ford testifies before the U.S. Senate Judiciary Committee at the Dirksen Senate Office Building on Capitol Hill September 27, 2018 in Washington, DC. Blasey Ford, a professor at Palo Alto University and a research psychologist at the Stanford University School of Medicine, has accused Supreme Court nominee Brett Kavanaugh of sexually assaulting her during a party in 1982 when they were high school students in suburban Maryland. (Photo by Andrew Harnik-Pool/Getty Images)

People gather outside of the Dirksen Senate Office building to listen, on a cellphone through a bullhorn, to Christine Blasey Ford's testimony before the Senate Judiciary Committee in Washington, Thursday, Sept. 27, 2018. The Committee will hold a hearing today with Supreme Court Nominee Brett Kavanaugh and Christine Blasey Ford, the woman who says he sexually assaulted her. (AP Photo/Cliff Owen)

WASHINGTON, DC - SEPTEMBER 27: Christine Blasey Ford, seated, at a Senate Judiciary Committee hearing in the Dirksen Senate Office Building on Capitol Hill September 27, 2018 in Washington, DC. A professor at Palo Alto University and a research psychologist at the Stanford University School of Medicine, Ford has accused Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh of sexually assaulting her during a party in 1982 when they were high school students in suburban Maryland. (Photo by Melina Mara-Pool/Getty Images)

Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh embraces his daughter Liza as he mingles with former players of the youth basketball team he coached during a break in his Senate Judiciary Committee of his Supreme Court confirmation hearing on Capitol Hill September 6, 2018 in Washington, DC. Kavanaugh was nominated by President Donald Trump to fill the vacancy on the court left by retiring Associate Justice Anthony Kennedy. (Photo by Drew Angerer/Getty Images)1

Senate Judiciary Committee member Ted Cruz (R-TX) questions Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh during the third day of his confirmation hearing in the Hart Senate Office Building on Capitol Hill September 6, 2018 in Washington, DC. Kavanaugh was nominated by President Donald Trump to fill the vacancy on the court left by retiring Associate Justice Anthony Kennedy. (Photo by Chip Somodevilla/Getty Images)

Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh holds up a copy of "Taming the Storm: The Life and Times of Judge Frank M. Johnson, Jr., and the South's Fight over Civil Rights" as he testifies before the Senate Judiciary Committee on the third day of his confirmation hearing on Capitol Hill September 6, 2018 in Washington, DC. Kavanaugh was nominated by President Donald Trump to fill the vacancy on the court left by retiring Associate Justice Anthony Kennedy. (Photo by Drew Angerer/Getty Images)

Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh speaks briefly with his wife Ashley Kavanaugh during the third day of his confirmation hearing before the Senate Judiciary Committee on Capitol Hill September 6, 2018 in Washington, DC. Kavanaugh was nominated by President Donald Trump to fill the vacancy on the court left by retiring Associate Justice Anthony Kennedy. (Photo by Chip Somodevilla/Getty Images)

Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh testifies before the Senate Judiciary Committee on the third day of his Supreme Court confirmation hearing on Capitol Hill September 6, 2018 in Washington, DC. Kavanaugh was nominated by President Donald Trump to fill the vacancy on the court left by retiring Associate Justice Anthony Kennedy. (Photo by Chip Somodevilla/Getty Images)

U.S. Sen. Patrick Leahy (D-VT) (R) speaks as Committee Chairman Sen. Chuck Grassley (R-IA) (L) and ranking member Sen. Dianne Feinstein (D-CA) (2nd L) listen during a markup hearing before the Senate Judiciary Committee September 13, 2018 on Capitol Hill in Washington, DC. A request during the hearing by the Democrats to subpoena documents on Supreme Court nominee Brett Kavanaugh's job as staff secretary in the George W. Bush administration was rejected by the Republicans. Chairman Grassley announced that the committee will hold its final vote on the nomination on September 20, 2018. (Photo by Alex Wong/Getty Images)

U.S. Sen. Cory Booker (D-NJ) listens during a markup hearing before the Senate Judiciary Committee September 13, 2018 on Capitol Hill in Washington, DC. A request during the hearing by the Democrats to subpoena documents on Supreme Court nominee Brett KavanaughÕs job as staff secretary in the George W. Bush administration was rejected by the Republicans. Chairman Grassley announced that the committee will hold its final vote on the nomination on September 20, 2018. (Photo by Alex Wong/Getty Images)

U.S. Sen. Richard Blumenthal (D-CT) speaks during a markup hearing before the Senate Judiciary Committee September 13, 2018 on Capitol Hill in Washington, DC. A request during the hearing by the Democrats to subpoena documents on Supreme Court nominee Brett Kavanaugh's job as staff secretary in the George W. Bush administration was rejected by the Republicans. Chairman Sen. Chuck Grassley (R-IA) announced that the committee will hold its final vote on the nomination on September 20, 2018. (Photo by Alex Wong/Getty Images)

Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh holds a copy of the Constitution as he testifies before the Senate Judiciary Committee on the third day of his Supreme Court confirmation hearing on Capitol Hill Sept. 6, 2018 in Washington, DC. Kavanaugh was nominated by President Donald Trump to fill the vacancy on the court left by retiring Associate Justice Anthony Kennedy.

(L-R) U.S. Senate Minority Whip Sen. Richard Durbin (D-IL), Sen. Sheldon Whitehouse (D-RI) and Sen. Amy Klobuchar (D-MN) participate in a markup hearing before the Senate Judiciary Committee September 13, 2018 on Capitol Hill in Washington, DC. A request during the hearing by the Democrats to subpoena documents on Supreme Court nominee Brett Kavanaugh's job as staff secretary in the George W. Bush administration was rejected by the Republicans. Chairman Sen. Chuck Grassley (R-IA) announced that the committee will hold its final vote on the nomination on September 20, 2018. (Photo by Alex Wong/Getty Images)

White House Counsel Don McGahn (R) listens as Supreme Court nominee Judge Brett Kavanaugh testifies during the third day of his confirmation hearing before the Senate Judiciary Committee on Capitol Hill September 6, 2018 in Washington, DC. Kavanaugh was nominated by President Donald Trump to fill the vacancy on the court left by retiring Associate Justice Anthony Kennedy. (Photo by Chip Somodevilla/Getty Images)

Sen. Susan Collins (R-ME) answers questions from reporters on allegations against Supreme Court nominee Brett Kavanaugh on Capitol Hill September 17, 2018 in Washington, DC. Collins said it is important to get both sides of the story in the allegations, but indicated if Kavanaugh is found to have been untruthful it would be grounds for disqualifying his nomination. (Photo by Win McNamee/Getty Images)

In this Sept. 6, 2018, file photo, President Donald Trump's Supreme Court nominee, Brett Kavanaugh testifies before the Senate Judiciary Committee on Capitol Hill in Washington, for the third day of his confirmation hearing to replace retired Justice Anthony Kennedy. Christine Blasey Ford, the woman accusing Kavanaugh of sexual misconduct when they were teenagers has come forward to The Washington Post. (AP Photo/Alex Brandon, File)

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PALO ALTO — The fog was just lifting at Capitola beach one morning this July when Christine Blasey Ford confided in two friends. She had written her congresswoman and anonymously tipped off the Washington Post with her explosive story, claiming Supreme Court nominee Brett Kavanaugh had sexually assaulted her in high school.

But now she was worried that her name would come out. She was bracing for an avalanche of attacks and searching her memory for anyone, anything, that could validate her story.

“I’ve been trying to forget this all my life, and now I’m supposed to remember every little detail,” one of those friends, Jim Gensheimer, recalled Blasey Ford saying that summer day while watching her kids participate in a Junior Lifeguard program. “They’re going to be all over me.”

Now, literally overnight, the 51-year-old Palo Alto University psychology professor, mother of two sons, registered Democrat and avid surfer has become the intense focus of a nation gripped by a political drama over nothing less than the future of the Supreme Court.

#MeToo survivors and advocates have called her a hero for stepping into the white-hot spotlight and attaching her name, face and reputation to her story. While many Republicans, including President Trump, said on Monday they want to hear Blasey Ford out, many conservatives on social media attacked her as an anti-Trump liberal activist whose motivations and biases are as suspicious as her Northern California address.

Some of her closest friends on Monday said Blasey Ford — whose maiden name is pronounced BLAH-zee — is ready to stand up to her most important inquisitors: the phalanx of senators who had been on the verge of confirming Kavanaugh just days ago. Republicans announced Monday they will bring both Blasey Ford and Kavanaugh to Capitol Hill next week to testify.

“I can’t really think of anyone better” to endure the grueling questions she is sure to face, said Rebecca White, one of Blasey Ford’s neighbors and a good friend. “She’s one of those people who teems with honesty and truth. She’s just that person.”

In an interview Monday with this news organization, White said that Blasey Ford had told her about the alleged assault — without naming Kavanaugh — in late 2017 during the height of the #MeToo movement and long before Kavanaugh was a Supreme Court nominee.

Last year, White had added her own #MeToo story about being raped as a teenager to a Facebook post.

“She reached out to me afterward, supporting me and my story and that she had something happen to her when she was really young and that the guy was a federal judge,” White said. “She said she had been assaulted. She said hers had been violent as well, physically scary, fighting for her life.”

It’s been difficult for Blasey Ford over the years, she told White, because the judge’s name would come up as “a super powerful guy and he might be a contender for a Supreme Court position one day.”

Blasey Ford was reluctant for months to come forward publicly but over the past two days has joined the likes of Anita Hill, another professor whose allegations of bad behavior against then-nominee Clarence Thomas transfixed the nation.

After rumors swirled about her allegation for days, Blasey Ford revealed her identity and told her story in an exclusive interview posted Sunday by The Washington Post. Ford alleges that at a high school party some 30 years ago, Kavanaugh was “stumbling drunk,” pushed her down on a bed, groped her and attempted to assault her. He put his hand over her mouth as she screamed, she says. At the time, she was a 15-year-old student at the all-girls Holton-Arms School in Bethesda, Maryland, she says, and Kavanaugh was a 17-year-old at Georgetown Prep. Kavanaugh strongly denies that the incident took place.

Knowing her credibility would be questioned, Blasey Ford took and passed a lie detector test about the incident, her lawyer Debra Katz says. She also retrieved notes from a therapist, with whom she spoke about it during couples therapy in 2012.

On Monday, a group of 15 of Blasey Ford’s friends in Palo Alto, many working mothers like herself, formed a texting group to support her coming forward.

“She’s got a strong group of women who are standing by her and would do anything for her,” said Bethany Kay, 44, a CPA for a tech company.

Kirsten Leimroth, whose daughters are also part of the Junior Lifeguard program, was with Blasey Ford and Gensheimer that day at the beachside restaurant when Blasey Ford worried about her name being revealed. She had told Leimroth well before the July lunch that she had been “almost raped by a high school acquaintance,” but doesn’t remember exactly when that first conversation happened. The suggestion that Blasey Ford would make it up as a political ploy is “preposterous,” Leimroth said.

“There’s absolutely no way it’s made up. She can’t even go home,” Leimroth said in an interview Monday night. “She had to have her kids stay somewhere else. She had to shut down all social media. Why would she do that?”

Blasey Ford debated whether to come forward, Leimroth said, worried that because the attack wasn’t an “actual rape it’s not going to do any good. He’s going to go through,” she said referring to Kavanaugh’s confirmation. “Do I want to put myself through this?”

“As far as I know she was up and down about whether she was going to go public with her name, but her husband encouraged her, that he was fine with it, too, and she should do it,” Leimroth said.

Leimroth also took issue with comments from former Independent Counsel Ken Starr, who suggested to CNN’s Wolf Blitzer on Monday evening that the allegations against Kavanaugh — Starr’s former staff member in the Clinton impeachment probe — were so out of character that it might be a case of mistaken identity. “I’m not accusing her of false identification,” Starr said, “Mistaken identification happens every day.”

Leimroth said she is convinced Blasey Ford didn’t mistake Kavanaugh. The two families traveled in the same social circles, Leimroth said, and the alleged incident at the party “wasn’t her first time meeting him.”

Blasey Ford grew up in the suburbs of Washington, D.C., the daughter of “Bush-conservative” parents, said Gensheimer, a former photographer with the Bay Area News Group, who befriended Blasey Ford when their kids were training as junior lifeguards.

Her “claim to fame” as a teenager on the local diving team, she told Gensheimer, was escorting diver Greg Louganis to the White House in 1980 when President Jimmy Carter invited Olympians to discuss the boycott of the Moscow Games.

She told Gensheimer that she struggled academically late in high school and early in college before pulling herself together and going on to become a psychology professor at Palo Alto University as well as the Pacific Graduate School of Psychology, a consortium with Stanford University. She earned a psychology undergraduate degree from University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill, master’s degrees at Pepperdine and Stanford and a PhD in educational psychology at the University of Southern California, according to her LinkedIn page.

She and her husband, Russell Ford, an engineer, and their two teenage sons are all surfers. The family spends a lot of time at a Santa Cruz beach house and own a one-story Eichler-style home in Palo Alto that Blasey Ford’s husband extensively remodeled himself, including raising the roof and adding square footage.

“Her husband is a quiet guy, warm but quiet,” said White, whose son has carpooled to school with the Fords. “She’s outgoing, liberal, kind, chitchats a lot, really supportive of her kids’ sports team, goes to everything, she and her husband. She’s really into her job as an educator.”

The family eats organically, she said, and drive hybrids that they plug into a charging station in their driveway — near the basketball hoop that’s in frequent use by the boys and their friends. They are “modest people,” White said.

Blasey Ford participated in a local Women’s March protesting Trump last year, she said. And a month later at the March for Science, she wore a pink-yarned “brain hat,” Gensheimer said.

That Blasey Ford has aligned herself with liberal causes will certainly add tension to her appearance before the Judiciary Committee, White said.

“I worry about that, and I wonder if she does, too,” White said. “Obviously, if she was the girl who hadn’t had any track record of political perspective, that would definitely be better. But anyone who would be able to speak authoritatively in front of scary people, those people usually do have opinions and support one thing or another.”

Kay, who is part of the mothers text group, is convinced that Blasey Ford is doing the right thing. That her story came from an alleged incident decades ago shouldn’t diminish its impact, she said.

“A young 15-year-old girl never has a voice, never knows what to do, is embarrassed, frightened and scared,” Kay said. “The timeline means nothing in my mind.”

On Sunday, Republicans had amassed a list of 65 women who knew Kavanaugh in high school supporting his character. On Monday, fellow alumnae from Blasey Ford’s high school Holton-Arms, including actress Julia Louis-Dreyfus, circulated a letter supporting her.

Gensheimer said he became friends with Blasey Ford about eight years ago. While their kids participated in the Santa Cruz State Junior Lifeguard program, which teaches water safety and other aquatic skills, he would often swim around the end of the pier, and Blasey Ford would paddle her surfboard nearby.

“She would be my shark spotter,” he said.

While the two shared career and family advice over the years, Blasey Ford also confided in him twice this summer about whether and how to tell her story, he said.

They were on the beach when she first told him about having sent a letter about the alleged assault to her congresswoman, Anna Eshoo, and that she had left an anonymous tip on a Washington Post hotline. A few days later when they met again with another parent at a Capitola restaurant overlooking the beach, Blasey Ford said she worried that, if her name came out, Kavanaugh supporters would try to assassinate her character, and her life would be upended.

“She started having second thoughts,” Gensheimer said, “like, ‘Oh my God, what have I done?’ ”

He can’t help but think back to a day when the two were watching their young lifeguard trainees muster up the courage for a mid-season ritual: jumping off the end of the pier into the Pacific Ocean.

“I want to jump off the pier,” she told Gensheimer. “Why can’t we jump off the pier?”

This week, in the turbulent waters of Washington, it looks like she’s taking the plunge.

Julia Prodis Sulek has been a general assignment reporter for the Bay Area News Group, based in San Jose, her hometown, since the late 1990s. She has covered everything from plane crashes to presidential campaigns, murder trials to immigration debates. Her specialty is narrative storytelling.

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