August 28, 2009

maybe a little ocd?

why is it when you aren't doing something you obsess about it? for example, if my husband says tighten the purse strings, i always find stuff i want to buy.

currently, i have stopped eating. no, not completely, but i am on a medically supervised diet, which means that i eat 1 meal a day in addition to the "meals" prescribed to me. it's not hard, i'm not hungry and i'm very excited about the results. i've even kicked up my physical activity from swimming a mile 2-3 times per week to additional days running a few miles with the dog. i've almost completely cut out alcohol...and if you know me at all, that's a big thing. i truly enjoy a nice full bodied cab!

so, why, when i'm on this journey to what used to be me, did i find it necessary to run and out see

i'll be the first to admit. i ordered the cookbook on my iPhone while driving home from the theater. i was obsessed. then, i decided, if i'm going to start perfecting my culinary talents, i would need all new pots, pans, utensils, towels, etc. i'm telling you obsessed. luckily, i have a birthday in the next few weeks and friends and relatives have been inquiring as to my wishes. this year, i have a list! unfortunately, in addition to being obsessive, i'm not very patient. so, after perusing the williams sonoma website, i finally decided on what i want. all-clad stainless steel.

it's so pretty. don't you think? i was nervous about not having non-stick for eggs, etc. so i asked for this one too.

it's sitting in my house all nicely wrapped for my birthday. i'm being so good and not opening it.

in addition to my new cookware, i decided i needed new knives after visiting my sister and cutting myself repeatedly on her heavenly cutlery. so, this is the collection of knives now in my thoughts as i swim lap after lap.

so now, when i do start eating again, i'm ready. my cookbook is perched on the counter, my pans will be washed and ready, my knives will be sharp and dangerous, my family will be anxiously waiting for my first julia meal. i can promise you now that i will not be starting by de-boning a duck, but i didn't say never!

and then, i'll probably have to go back on the medically supervised diet. it's a vicious circle i live in.