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We all know that feeling. When the vibe suddenly fizzles. Maybe you were feeling great or just ok, but something happens and the vibe is just not ok anymore. It doesn’t matter why; what matters most is how to get it back.

When I have to repair the energy inside of myself (I get self-conscious, I am triggered, etc.) or around myself, I’ve found 4 things most useful: music, affirmations, crystals and plants.

Music – A song you love can truly change your mood. Find some music you really connect too…don’t fake it, but also appreciate you might not love or understand all songs. Find something. For me it was higher-toned crystal bowl in Note F. Yes, you can be that specific. Whatever connects to you.

Affirmations – These help me for those inner turmoil vibe changes. I was not conscious of many of the thoughts and behaviours I’d adopted on over the years. If I feel dull, I repeat and affirmation to myself that change that feeling enough for another energy to shift.

Plants – Plants bring me outside of my head. I can appreciate their value and their beauty long enough to feel a shift if I water them, run my fingers through the leaves, look up their history, if they emit co2 etc.

The truth is nature has all of these things combined on some level, so going outside is really high on this list too.

One of my favourite artists talks about crystals being ridiculous. I had my own experience. I love unique objects, and so regardless of any of the trends and traditions connected to crystals, I liked them because they seemed ethereal in a world that feels dense to me.

Ironically, selenite helped me ground. Do a search on selenite and you will find a myriad of explanations on its uses, aesthetic, and meaning. This doesn’t even touch the wisdom of how it has been used in ways undocumented on the internet. My visceral experience is selenite connected me to the moment, which brought me out of my imagination and my overthinking about the past. I still cherish my analysis of my past and I adore my ability to be imaginative, but this beautiful crystal gave me a doorway into the present. That is where I started to feel emotions more distinctly and seperate — premier tools for healing and knowing oneself.

What came after the feeling of peace? Great dread. Anxiety. Anger at my past. A lot of arguments (internal and external). I don’t wish that experience on anyone. But that was mine. Then came step one. Step one was moving beyond all of that inner chaos. Step one was choosing to connect with peace and joy daily.

This sounds really fluff. I want to be clear, I am not talking about a choice in opposition of biological feelings. I’m saying that if I chose to connect to peace and joy daily, for me personally, it was a step that resonated and felt like movement. Those feelings of peace and joy needed to be acknowledged and connected with, so I could remember each day what felt different than inner chaos. It took me forever to understand this and to actually do it. When I did, I slowly felt more connected to my body (step 2), I felt more authentic positive experiences (step 3), I developed conscious strategies to move forward (step 4), and I had energy to stay connected to moving forward (step 5,6,7 etc.)

This wasn’t an overnight experience. It took years to find step one. It took years to learn to interact with the inner feelings that weren’t moving me to where I wanted. It took dietary changes and a lot of learning about my inner health landscape. But it did happen.

Uniqueness in a society with established norms.

I remember sitting at my desk in my first job at the start of my career. Not my first office job, or even my first professional job, but my first job in the career I had worked so hard toward. I was grateful. I was so proud to be making a better paycheque, to be contributing, to be challenged. I felt great. Truly.

Soon after though (months, weeks, years) things did change.Feelings began to creep up inside of me. Feelings like doubt, dissatisfaction, but most importantly, feelings of “am I worth more than this?” All of those beautiful feelings of gratitude had been real. But I had never stopped to question if I was settling. Or, if I let my imagination run here, perhaps that authentic gratitude for where I was actually opened up in me a new opportunity: the ability to value myself even further, to reach even higher goals!

So often in society, we are asked to follow norms. It’s starts when we’re really young. Listen to authority, don’t wear this colour in this season, get perfect grades, go to University, find “the one” and then get a “good” job. But norms are just that….standard normal behaviour. I wanted more. I needed more. If I had of chose to stay in a place that didn’t continue to challenge me, I wouldn’t have been feeding a part of myself that truly valued progress. Now, let me be clear, I stayed for a while to check some boxes. But I valued the possibility that I could create a path for myself that was completely unique, true to myself, and not appeasing anyone else. I believe everyone can do that. There are costs and benefits, as with every risk. But the benefit I found to be more impactful than anything else, was the feeling of peace that I was moving through the world as myself. I wish that for everyone.