i need to vent

I am a 25 year old woman whose life has been chosen for me from the day I was born. I was a really bright little girl growing up. Unfortunately my father was 73 years old when I was born and my mother was around 50 something, they were both from over seas with close minded brains. I was the last child of 11 children. SO in school I was at middle school reading levels when I was only in the first grade, but my parents didnt understand or for that matter didnt care, if I needed school supplies they would never get them for me and I would get lend me down clothes to wear... Besides my dad was an alcoholic who abused my mother and had several affairs with random women, my mom couldnt do anything she had no education, no job, no car, no family to support her. When I was 8 years old I was not allowed to play outside anymore because my mom had to prepare me for marriage so I had to learn how to cook full course meals and clean and do all the responsibilities a grown women has to do. So as I was growing up I struggled with school because I was so tired of working all day and night preparing to be a good wife ... When I was 12 I had a crush on someone and he did too we were talking and sending letters to each other until my family found out when I was 14 yrs. old and what I did was so wrong to my family so my brothers beat me half to death and arranged an engagment with someone I barely knew I got married to him at 16yrs of age, I was beaten by him he neglected me, he would get me pregnant than make me abort it , I have had 3 painful abortions because of him he stabbed me and I try to get help from my family they say I have to stay married regaurdless of what happens, I have a 4 yr old and I am pregnant now because his family wondered why we dont have children after 9 years of marriage, I love my son he is the best thing that has ever happened to me I just dont want him to go through not one bit that I have been through... My husband had to take anger management classes after the stabbing, and he is better now not saying I forgive him and I love him, I am just glad he isnt abusing me as bad as before I am in college in the nursing program as soon as I complete this degree I am leaving for good from my family , and him, I really dont have friends , I am alone .... I am sad .... I am angry.... but all these feelings make me stronger everytime I look into my baby boys eyes........ wish me luck :)

I'm very sorry, your story is one of the more serious situations I've read on this site. Your life really is filled with hardship worth expressing. First of all good luck, but more than good luck I wish for you to PLAN WELL. Don't let your husband or your family know about your plans to leave and when you do leave, take your children and disappear and never have any contact with your family or husband again. I say this because your family will only take your husbands side and tell him where you are, and once your husband finds you he will kill you. I know women who have left abusive husbands only to tracked down and murdered, so this is a life or death situation for you believe me. Once you leave, cut all ties and never look back. You may even have to change your name, especially if your husband is the type to hire a private investigator to track you down. At the very least, you deserve to not get beaten and abused. Its a shame that some cultures still treat women like property. Good luck to you and God Bless.

Im so glad u seen the abusive cycle u were in and wanting to leave it.realizing what the issues or problems were and taking steps to remove urself and children will allow u to break the cycle of abuse so that ur children dont have to go thru the same as u, im proud of u heres my email if u need to vent or need any assistance email me at r_gurly17@yahoo.com

Wow, you must be really, really emotionally strong person. I'm kinda surprised, too. But yeah, once you're done with education, leave them as you're planning! You deserve so much better. Life is like a game in which you have to forget the past, live in the future and ensure a secure and a happy future. You've been through a freaking lot, but I'm SURE that a GREAT life lies behind you - however, if you turn weak, you may let the chance of having a happy life slip from your hands. Don't let that happen!! The past was bad, but everything that happened like that, happened so that you could be where you are in the present. You're wise now, and look what past gave you - your amazing son! Leave the crappy parts of past behind forever, keep your head up and move on with life. There's no secret to a happy life! Stay a positive, opinionated and stick with what you believe is correct, no matter what the world tells you, they're all idiots. You have to be the master/mistress of your own life. It's your right.

IT IS URGENT THAT YOU DON'T MAKE PLANS ON RUNNING AWAY, YOU'RE LIKELY TO GET CAUGHT UNLESS YOU HAVE A WAY OF ERASING YOUR FOOTSTEPS. FOR INSTANCE, THIS POSTING. DO YOU HAVE A REGISTRY CLEANER WHICH ERASES ALL HISTORY OF WHERE YOU'VE BEEN ON YOUR COMPUTER??? IF NOT YOU CAN'T BE SURE YOUR HUSBAND WOULDN'T PAY THE $20 TO RECOVER YOUR BACKGROUND CHECK FROM WHERE EVER YOU RUN TO AND ITS EVEN CHEAPER TO GET YOUR ERASED TEXT MESSAGES AND ETC.

TO SEEK A FULL ESCAPE IMMEDIATELY AND WITH MAKING SURE YOUR CHILD IS SAFE, SEEING AS HE MAY BE THE LEVERAGE WHICH BINDS YOU, SEEK WITNESS PROTECTION. IF YOU LIVE IN A SMALL TOWN, GO TO THE NEAREST METROPOLIS IN CASE YOUR HUSBAND OR FATHER'S FAMILY HAS CORRUPTED YOUR LOCAL OFFICIALS. BECAUSE THIS SOUNDS LIKE AN ISSUE IN YOUR FATHERS FAMILY, WHICH YOUR HUSBAND IS A PART OF, AND IF YOU HAVE NO SAFE HAVEN WITH THEM OR YOUR HUSBAND AND YOUR FORCED TO STAY AROUND IN FEAR BECAUSE OF YOUR CHILD. NOW'S THE TIME TO CONSIDER VISITING YOUR MOTHER'S NATIVE LAND AND FINDING YOUR FAMILY. MOST IMPORTANTLY, SINCE YOU'VE POSTED THE SITUATION ERASE YOUR BROWSER HISTORY EVERY TIME YOU REVIEW THESE COMMENTS

I was in an abusive relatioship and I a terible beating which put me in the hospital. He almost killed me. My freind Kerri found just barely hanging on becuase I did not show to work that morning. Keeri called the paramedics and the doctor did think I would make it I could not peak but I alert enough to hear them talking and Kerri visited me and tlked and by the third I began to speak. I told the police who did it. Now It has 4 years hear is in jprision for attempted murder. I did testiy against him. I still have my job and I have my promtions I work for Galaxy Enterprises. We build motrhomes RV travel trailers and other products for camping in you motr home rv travel trailer. Your home away from home. stay strong and take of yourself and your son.