01/11/2011

Looking to 2011

2010 is a year for me that was loaded with opposites which had had it's beginnings back into 2009. As I was enjoying our sweet storybook cottage for one weekend each month, I was also watching my dear sweet mom deal with liver cancer for the remainder of the month. The sweet weekends away from home base had something missing always without her. My mom died April 18, 2010 in a nursing home. As she past slowly from this world to the next, I remained in deep denial at what I was watching. It always seemed to me that we would have one more day with each other. Why I couldn't face the truth I'll never understand that about myself. It is now clear to me what my purpose was all about in 2010. I helped my mom through the most difficult time in her life and the rest of 2010 was about setting straight all the loose ends of life after death. Everything I am today is because of her and I am deeply grateful for the gifts of love which she bestowed on me throughout her life. She was intelligent, creative, quiet, kind, thoughtful. She loved to knit, sew, shop and loved her family most of all. I will always have her in my thoughts and prayers. This picture of my mom (92 years old) was taken the summer of 2009 in Cambria not to far from the Storybook cottage. She had not been diagnosed as yet with cancer. We had placed a bid on the storybook cottage. We drove her by the cottage for a look see before we left for home that day. One of my deepest regrets is that she never had the opportunity to hang out with her family in this cozy home. Her memory lives on in the home because this home houses a few of her things (Shiny Bright ornaments, 1930's rocker and a few other little knick-knacks) They aren't worth much in dollars however to me more than millions! Just little reminders of her.....

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Looking to 2011

2010 is a year for me that was loaded with opposites which had had it's beginnings back into 2009. As I was enjoying our sweet storybook cottage for one weekend each month, I was also watching my dear sweet mom deal with liver cancer for the remainder of the month. The sweet weekends away from home base had something missing always without her. My mom died April 18, 2010 in a nursing home. As she past slowly from this world to the next, I remained in deep denial at what I was watching. It always seemed to me that we would have one more day with each other. Why I couldn't face the truth I'll never understand that about myself. It is now clear to me what my purpose was all about in 2010. I helped my mom through the most difficult time in her life and the rest of 2010 was about setting straight all the loose ends of life after death. Everything I am today is because of her and I am deeply grateful for the gifts of love which she bestowed on me throughout her life. She was intelligent, creative, quiet, kind, thoughtful. She loved to knit, sew, shop and loved her family most of all. I will always have her in my thoughts and prayers. This picture of my mom (92 years old) was taken the summer of 2009 in Cambria not to far from the Storybook cottage. She had not been diagnosed as yet with cancer. We had placed a bid on the storybook cottage. We drove her by the cottage for a look see before we left for home that day. One of my deepest regrets is that she never had the opportunity to hang out with her family in this cozy home. Her memory lives on in the home because this home houses a few of her things (Shiny Bright ornaments, 1930's rocker and a few other little knick-knacks) They aren't worth much in dollars however to me more than millions! Just little reminders of her.....