Scary

posted July 13th, 2016, 5:30 am

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July 13th, 2016, 5:36 am

This is actually a very timely page. Rain's very real feelings regarding her upcoming hormones are quite a bit like my feelings regarding my upcoming surgery (I swear I didn't plan it like that). Of course, she's excited. This is huge. It's what she's always wanted. It's a dream come true. And that can be scary. I was the same way when I was starting hormones. Most - if not all - of you on hormones probably did too. And for those of you who have not yet started HRT: I assure you, it's okay to be nervous. It's very natural to be afraid of change. Even ones you want or need.

Anyway, as is typical, this is the last page of the chapter but it's probably not the last page of the chapter, if you know what I mean. If you don't, expect ooooone more page next time. ^_^

As I've been saying for a while now, I'll be going for SRS on July 26th. If you've been with me long enough to remember my cancer surgeries, you know there's going to be a lengthy hiatus for my recovery. I probably won't feel up to drawing much. Fortunately, Chapter 29 wraps up this week. So unlike my previous surgeries which cut things off awkwardly mid-chapter, this break will be a little more controlled (like any other planned hiatus). The comic will return with Chapter 30, but I don't know when. That depends on how long it takes for me to feel like I can sit upright and draw for extended periods again. I will keep you posted throughout my recovery though, so you know when that will be.

I'd also like to mention that a friend and reader set up a Discord server for Rain. So if you'd like to chat with other readers in real time, or at least, have a safe space to discuss other non-comic things, you should check it out here - https://discord.gg/MKgt7fc

July 13th, 2016, 8:17 am

Scared

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It's very natural to be afraid of change. Even ones you want or need.
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For some peculiar reason, I wasn't afraid when I started HRT, but it might have been that the frustration with the delays swamped any nervousness.

I came out everywhere but at work over the past four months or so, and I'm planning to go full time as a woman at the end of the year, and I am terrified. Losing sleep, not being able to concentrate, the whole mess. Standing up and saying "I am a woman now" like I mean it is harder than I ever thought possible. I'm hoping I'll settle down after a few months of full time.

July 13th, 2016, 5:56 pm

July 14th, 2016, 2:42 am

I was not afraid of the HRT but I should of been a little. Getting my SRS done that seem not tell I really had to think about it as a for sure thing did it stress me out. I been on the HRT long enough to say I am a women. I so wanted a female body all my life. I have two fears. One I will not be able to live as I am much longer and other of getting the SRS done. I am not afraid of pain or dying. It's some thing new I never gone thru that is very hard. So much could go wrong that could be worse then death. It is hard to get past the self protection. I had my gallbladder removed and that I never got time to think about it. It was remove it now or die. When you have time to think about it...it is much harder I have found.

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July 15th, 2016, 9:50 pm

Hey trans men?

I don't know if any trans guys or other transmasculine people on testosterone read this (fantastic and beautifully done,btw)comic, but if you do and you have a second...
Could you reply here and talk a bit about what it was like when you started testosterone? I'm genderqueer, afab, and nervous. Thanks!
And thank you Jocelyn for your amazing work:)

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July 16th, 2016, 12:42 am

@GQ Guest: I am Intersex but was AMAB though I am actually a mix of both genders. When I was living as a male I had to used testosterone as my body does not make much if any. Use as they say and do not put any were especially down below. The testosterone gels can burn and inch. Best to get shots I think. I hate needles so I went for the gel. Big mistake there I think. :P