Life After A Loved One’s Suicide

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I found the 2017 Self-Empowerment Conference group before everything tumbled down on me. Suicide has significant effects on the people left behind by the person, and this is my story.

I met Simon (not his real name) three years ago at a Sports Camp in Chicago. We immediately clicked since we both were ballplayers, and it was our main point of connection. The first few months were bliss. We talked about sports, life with sports, education, and sports, and everything that touched sports. He was engrossed with it and an excellent point guard, until that dreadful day.

The captain of his basketball team at the University called me and told me that Simon had an accident. He didn’t tell me of its severity, just that Simon needed me. Our parents lived in a different state, and basically, it was only the two of us in Illinois. And I loved Simon. I loved him dearly. I knew him to be a determined and motivated person. I didn’t know how he would become after his injury.

He couldn’t play ball again. His spine was crushed due to a fall during practice, and it was the end of his basketball career. All his plans and dreams were shattered together with his spine. It was the end of everything. He fell into depression, and amidst my support, he just struggled to pull through. With that, I also struggled. It was excruciating for me to see the love of my life just lost interest in anything.

Simon took his own life, and that was the last straw for me. I was deeply affected, and I almost lost my scholarship because of my mental health issue.

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I have regained myself and slowly moved on from Simon’s passing after joining the seminar and the therapy sessions after that. It affected me greatly since Simon decided to end his existence right in front of me. That was a nightmare, but a nightmare that I will never go back to no matter what happens again in my life.

I have the strength now to move past mental health issues, and I know I will make it each time something hard blows my way. I’m missing Simon terribly, but I will be okay. I know I will.