Aqua Full Moon Redux

Now that the Full Moon is upon us, I’ve had time to look at it in detail. It’s obvious why Kelley emphasizes Saturn, which is asking us two things…

What’s The Most Important Thing for our Yindependence?

What’s The Most Important Thing for our Emotional Stability?

Emotional Stability is paramount if we want to be able to Focus on any sort of Manifestation, whether it’s Healing, Abundance, World Peace, or a fun weekend. If we don’t have Emotional Stability we’ll Manifest a picture of what we’re actually Feeling – Fear, Anger, Grief. Even if we’re Feeling Joy but not Stability, we’ll manifest a picture of transient Joy.

The Full Moon is Square to Saturn. The two questions are represented by the Square to Sun-Lilith and the Square to the Moon. Since the Sun Conjoins Lilith, our Yindependence is likely to be near the top of our priorities.

The “answer” to both is our Yintegrity, but it’s not like we just need to go out and splash our True Self onto the World. Mystery is present; we need to Wonder how being True to our Deeper Self will respond to those questions, then step aside to see what happens.

Uranus makes a Trine-Sextile Bridge across the Full Moon Opposition; however, it’s on the other side of the Opposition from Saturn, hence the Saturn-Uranus relationship is a Quincunx – Curiosity or Wonder. So the Sun/Lilith-Saturn Square makes a Major Tricolor with Uranus, and the Moon-Saturn Square makes a Minor Tricolor with Uranus. With a Minor Tricolor, since the Grace arrives in the form of a Sextile, we’ll need to Act to start the good flowing.

In the case of our Emotional Stability, we’ll also need to take a step in the direction of Healing. In addition to Wondering about how our Truth will Heal jittery or negative Emotions, we need to PIAVA the Freedom to set our Masks aside, or tell someone what we’ve been afraid to say.

There is a second answer to the Yindependence question, and it’s about Allowing Miracles. Which means that we need to work on our Beliefs, especially our Unconscious Beliefs.

Chiron is Quincunxed by Sun-Lilith from the other end of its Saturn Square, making another Major Tricolor.

“This is too big for me,” he says, “so I have to ask God.” Or Goddess, or Great Spirit, or your Guides, or your beloved Grandmother on the Other Side. That is, PIAVA it. Except in flashes of Insight, we don’t have access to our Unconscious Beliefs, they’re the fellow behind the curtain pulling the levers. So we need to PIAVA to be advised about any Unconscious Beliefs that inhibit our Yindependence so we can then PIAVA to get them changed – Lovingly and Gently – so we can proceed to Healing.

Whenever you work directly with the Unconscious, always add “Lovingly and Gently” to your PIAVAs. Otherwise it’s too easy to “get what we asked for” – with unintended consequences.

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What’s the difference between Yintegrity (Uranus) and Yindependence (Lilith)? Yintegrity is about Creating the space where we can choose to exercise our Want-Tos instead of our Shoulds. Yindependence is about pursuing our own Goals and Values rather than giving our Power to someone else. They’re obviously very intertwined.

Yintegrity is alignment with our Soul. Most of us “hired” (on the Soul level) the significant adults in our childhood to Program us to Believe, Think, Act – and even Feel – contrary to our Yintegrity. The potatoes of a Lifetime – the meat is our Mission – is detecting and overcoming our Programming. In many cases our Programming is a mirror image of our Karma. In many cases pursuing our Mission requires overcoming our Programming.

Yindependence is alignment with our Inner Female. Yes, by and large, women are more likely to be in touch with their Feelings and therefore more likely to be in touch with their Values. But you can’t take that for granted. For instance, you may believe that it’s important to be nice to people. PIAVA to discover whether that’s a Value or a Should.

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All of which describes a Trine Fez over the Sun/Lilith-Saturn Square. Here’s the T-Square and the Fez…

A Trine Fez is capped by a Semi-Sextile – the Twelfth Harmonic. So we can encapsulate the Fez and resolve the base Square by Breaking the Pattern between the two planets in the cap – Uranus and Chiron…

There is a portion of our True Self which remains under wraps because we don’t believe it’s Possible to let it out of its cage. We were probably pretty bummed by the censorship once, but then we just got used to the notion that we couldn’t do anything about it, and just put the whole issue out of our mind. We’ve been repressing that bummer for so long that it’s just no longer part of our Reality. It’s become part of our Mythology instead. That’s just the way it is.

How do we detect our Unconscious Beliefs about what isn’t Possible?

Start with your Deepest Desire.

Why is it that you don’t dedicate every waking Act to it?

What would it Feel like if you could do that?

What would it take for you to devote just one Act per day to your Deepest Desire, starting with the safest Edge of it?

What would happen if you spent six minutes twice a day where you did nothing else except imaging how you’d Feel if you were Free to devote every waking Act to your Deepest Desire?

I imagine that several things might happen. You might start to Forgive yourself for having a forbidden Desire. You might start being more relaxed about things and more able to “be yourself” in general. Your Desire may shift. When our Desires present themselves to us, they do it in code.

Our Mission on the Planet is really far larger than we can ever hope to understand with the linear dualistic mind. So the carrot or chocolate bar or wine bottle on the end of that stick that extends out from our forehead is painted in colors that make sense to us from where we’re at. When we get closer to it, it repaints itself. We never know what it will morph into.

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The Full Moon also contains a whole new animal – what we’ll call an Octile Fez. It’s a Square Fez (Squares on the non-parallel sides), but instead of a Trine at the base and a Sextile for a cap, it has a Trioctile (Sesquisquare) for a base, and an Octile (Semi-Square) at the top. It’s two interlocking Mjolnirs that provide Epiphanies to unlock each of the Squares.

The Moon-Saturn Square is the base of a Juno Mjolnir – Insight about Stabilizing ourself Emotionally comes to us from the Growing Edge of our Consciousness. What the heck might that mean?

Let me review – what are The Most Important Things I’ve been Learning over the last several months? Okay, there’s this. And oh yeah, that. Good.

And what is it I’m anxious about right now?

Hmm, I can see how the first two are related – whenever anxiety arises I can just remember the larger context of what I’m Learning.

But I do Wonder about how the second one relates.

The other Square is from Juno to Pallas, with the Mjolnir focused on the Moon; Insight about which Boundaries we may need to tighten or loosen in order to find greater Emotional Stability…

If I try to grow my Yindependence, they’re going to be upset with me. I Wonder how I can set a clean Boundary that doesn’t make things worse.

You know, I may not need to be quite so reserved with those other people – they seem to like me and may be more accepting than I’ve been giving them credit for. I should test that gently, to see how they respond.

So, can we summarize this Fez like we did the other one? The base is a Trioctile between the Moon and Juno, implying that we can enhance our well-being by Adjusting how we Manifest. What sort of Adjustment? The cap is an Octile between Pallas and Saturn – it’s Important that we Realign our Boundaries and Reassess who we Trust. It’s a Waning Octile, meaning we want to err on the side of Surrender more than Action.

Maybe I should just be more honest and direct with people, rather than trying to control how they react to me – then see where the chips fall. I’d find out more about whom I can Trust that way, instead of trying to please everybody. I think I’ll try that.

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We’re left with a couple of Fifth-Harmonic Triangles…

The big one, pointing at Saturn, is two Trideciles across a Venus-Neptune Biquintile. It suggests that…

One thing we’re Learning here is how to Walk in Beauty with Spirit.

The smaller triangle is a Quintangle focused on Ceres from a base of Sun-Lilith Biquintile Pluto…

We’re also Learning how important it is, and how to, make our Yindependence Sustainable.