So I have a problem I'm fighting for a future for myself but I avoid that question of what is in the future. More or less it's fighting to ACTUALLY have a future not just fighting without knowing. Can anyone help me?

For Will’s part, he admired the massive power of Lord Faa’s presence, power tempered by courtesy, and he thought that that would be a good way to behave when he himself was old; John Faa was a shelter and a strong refuge.

Though reality looks bleak, it is mere illusion to me (imo) and I do not fear it much, just fear the slow progress being made to combat it...

As Merlin said, you'll have to face it head on as we always have done things. When ones mind is focused and understands the goal, from the lower realms of thought to the higher; he is the enemies worst threat.

But consider Social Darwinism. Attempts have been made to discredit this concept, however it's like spitting in the wind. The truth or just plain facts will prevail in the end.

Inferiors will be eliminated as always, in spite of the fact that they are given handouts by misguided souls.

Eventually they will be reduced in numbers, I believe by genetic engineering.
When we finally have designer babies (and it cannot be stopped) who will have semi-retarted mud babies.

It's just a question of time.

Meanwhile for your own situation. do whatever you can to make enough money to support yourself and your family, to avoid the present-day dangers poised by muds.
And don't worry about having an overpriced fancy car, or a Mc Mansion. The is brainwashing brought on by the powers to be, in order to keep us in wage-slavery.

Sit down and think about what you and your family consider important and concentrate on those items.