Loved

As I moved The words As they sprung out of my mouth As they played over in my mind The pain moved around my body And straight to my heart To make me feel what I had done. The fact is we’re both playing this game, Not showing our feelings, Hiding them from one another, Putting on our faces Each day we still know What we feel And it eats away at us Every second And every time we stop to think, It makes us die inside more, Because faking is a talent But you seem better at it than me. Behind our shells And beneath the skin Our hearts are in blind love And open to the pain To the point of hiding again. The act you put on And try to make me feel, It sends regret through you. And though you don’t see it, I do, Because I still know you. You change your face every second, But don’t think to tell the truth, When you still don’t stop to understand That I only ever wanted you. When will you stop to see what you’re becoming? I want you to stop and just Look at me the way you used to, And the way you’re supposed to. We’re so deeply involved With all these problems and words But in the end I hear That this will make us stronger, But there are three little words That I long for. I struggle because I’m the one Who made the choice. I’m the one that seems to suffer Without your voice. And though you can’t see with all your faces, I still know you are there. Everyone said we found our way, So then why is it I said goodbye to you that day?

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