Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Hi guys I know that it has been a long while since I blogged but I have been kinda cheating with tumblr. *hides face in shame* LOL Anyways I am back and in full effect. Hopefully..... Yesterday marked exactly one year till our wedding date. *big smile* I will soon be changing my last name to Williams and I am so excited about that. But with the excitement comes the stress of planning the wedding of my dreams. I only plan on doing this one time so I have to make it right. Before the baby comes in February I want to have a nice amount of things planned because I will have to take a little break. But that is fine. My first stop is hiring a wedding planner. I was gonna try to do it all by myself but I can't. I have way too much stuff going on to think that I am superwoman. SMH Yeah a planner will be one more thing we have to pay for but it will eliminate lots of headaches.

I am really excited about this wedding thing. I mean I have been back in forth with all type of ideas. The most recent being to do a small beach wedding before the baby. But that got way too overwhelming to be small. LOL I had to fall back and just wait till my original date. SMH I was about to go into labor planning that thing. LOL But its cool because like a said before I will just plan the wedding of my dreams and live happily ever after with the mister. I love my man and can't wait to be come his wife.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

In my post Unexpected #5 we talked about the joys of the honeymoon stage and the possible outcome of being on a honeymoon with out protection. LOL After finding out I was having another baby we started planning to buy a house and continued planning the wedding which was set to be in November of 2011. That gave us plenty of time to plan and for me to loose all my baby weight and have a #sexyweddingbody. I started being serious about work because we would definitely need the extra money for both the baby and the new house.One Wednesday afternoon, I left work early and decided to go to Sawgrass Mills to do a little shopping. I started walking around and began to cramp. I didn't pay that any mind because when I was pregnant with King I cramped a little in the beginning. Well I continued to walk around and the cramps got worst. I then decided to go to the bathroom. When I got there I saw that this was not just cramps and that I was now bleeding.I called the mister and told him what was going on. He told me that we should go to the hospital. I drove home to get cleaned up then King, the mister and I drove to Memorial Regional Hospital.

When we got there they took some blood and had me piss in a cup. LOL *Reminds me of FAMU clinic* Then we sat in the room until the ultrasound technician came. The mister and King left the room because it was a vaginal ultrasound. The tech was all happy and talking to me. She asked me how I was doing and how far along I was. I told her I was fine and I believed I was only 9 weeks pregnant. Then she got quiet. It was that silence that let you know something is wrong. I tried to look at the screen but she turned it away from me. I knew at that point that something was wrong. She finished the ultrasound then said that she hope I felt better soon.

When the mister walked back into the room he noticed the sad look on my face. He asked me what was wrong but I just told him that I was fine. After about 30 minutes the doctor came in the room to talk to us. She looked at me and said that I was having a miscarriage and that there was nothing that they can do to stop it. She said they would give me pain meds and want to admit me just in case they have to remove what was left of the baby.

As I sat an listen my heart was breaking. I couldn't even look at the mister because I knew that he was hurt. The doctor walked out of the room and it was only King, the mister and I left to process what she had just said. I finally looked at him and I could see the hurt in his eyes. I began to cry because I knew that he was looking forward to being a father again. He was hoping that we would have a little girl so that he can spoil her even more that he spoils King. He came over to the bed and held my hand. He couldn't find the words to say to console me but just him being there let me know that everything would be okay.

That night I lay in the hospital bed and cried myself to sleep. I wanted to know what I did wrong. Why did I loose this baby? I just couldn't understand. I was slowly slipping into a depression.

Well last month I took on a blog challenge & failed miserably. I mean I was doing will the first week. But then life took over and I was unable to complete the challenge. *sad face* Well after getting a #subtweet from #oneofmyfollowers I have decided to continue the blog challenge starting today until the end of month. I apologize to all my followers for not completing the challenge but I am still filed with lots of ideas and hope that you all take this journey with me.

If you have forgotten the rules of the challenge here they are....

"Accept the challenges so that you can feel the exhilaration of victory. -- George S. Patton"

to post one blog a day for the month of August....Oh my this will be hard because I work 12 hour shifts & sometimes I can't even remember my name let alone to post a blog but I will try my best. This should be fun because everyday something exciting happens in my life & I am always dying to share but I never find the time. But this month I will so sit back & enjoy!

Sunday, August 8, 2010

The other day I was talking to a friend of mine that happens to be a single mom. She was talking about how hard it is to take care of a 2 year old alone. That got me to thinking. Sometimes I complain about taking care of King and how he's driving me crazy but I am so lucky to have his dad be a constant part of our life.

The mister has been here from the start. Although I sometimes say he doesn't do enough I must admit that the best thing he could do was be there. The mister and King have the most loving relationship of all.

Every time we come home King is excited when he sees his dads car. He jumps out of the car and says "Daddy's Home!" As we walk into the house the first thing he does is look around the house to find his dad so they can talk about their day. Although this maybe small to some, it is the most amazing feeling in the world. Now a days there are so many single parents in the world. And I couldn't imagine raising my children alone. The mister is the best father and provider I know. I am so Blessed to have him and so happy that my children have him in their life.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

cur·few /ˈkɜrfyu/ Show Spelled[kur-fyoo] Show IPA –noun 1. an order establishing a specific time in the evening after which certain regulations apply, esp. that no civilians or other specified group of unauthorized persons may be outdoors or that places of public assembly must be closed. 2. a regulation requiring a person to be home at a certain prescribed time, as imposed by a parent on a child. 3. the time at which a daily curfew starts. 4. the period during which a curfew is in effect. 5. a signal, usually made with a bell, announcing the start of the time of restrictions under a curfew. 6. a bell for sounding a curfew. 7. (in medieval Europe) the ringing of a bell at a fixed hour in the evening as a signal for covering or extinguishing fires. 8. a metal cover for shielding a banked or unattended fire.

As an adult, we all feel as if we don't have to answer to anyone. That we can come and go as we please. But my question is this, When you are in a committed relationship with someone and you live together, should you have a curfew? Is it ok to come and go as you please? Is it ok to come in after the sun is up?

I will not necessarily say that you should have a curfew because you are an adult and you know what's right and wrong. But when you live with someone, you must respect them enough to come home at a decent hour. If the sun beats you home, we have a problem. Not only that, if the shoe was on the other foot you would not be too happy about it.

Friday, August 6, 2010

In middle school I was really tall and skinny. And because of that, I wanted to become a model. My mother signed me up for Barbizion Modeling. My cousin and I use to go every Saturday to practice being a model. We learned how to walk the run way and pose like mannequins. We also learned to have proper posture which I really needed. Because I use to let my height get the best of me. While attending these modeling classes, my mother spent lots of money in hopes of me really getting a shot like Kimora Lee Simmons. That shot never came and my mother was done with them ripping her off every weekend. After that experience I got more involved in sports. I began to run track, cheer and dance. And I loved it. It was actually more fun than modeling. It also made me more toned so I wasn't this tall and skinny chick anymore. Once I got to college the modeling opportunities showed there face again. At FAMU, they have several different modeling troupes which are really good. But for some reason I decided to stick to dancing. As I look back on my modeling experience and see how these chicks out here today that claim to be models, I realize that industry is not for me. Now a days as long as you take some sexy lingerie pictures you are a model. O_O WTH if that is the case than everyone is a model. What happened to having pure beauty? Just because a man ask you to take half naked pictures of you, it does not make you a model.I am so happy that I didn't get caught up in that life style. Because so many chicks are being taken advantage of just wishing for that big break. Being the next Tyra Banks or Kimora is most little girls dream but if every photo shoot you are naked, that won't be you. Woman need to understand that you don't have to be naked to be sexy. Leaving something to the imagination is sexier than putting it all out there. So if you are reading the post and you inspire to be a model, I hope that you are not allowing anyone to take half naked pictures of you in hopes of becoming the next big thing. Because all you might every be is Ludacris next video girl.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

During our Valentine's trip we had a blast. Life was great and we did not care about anything. We made love all weekend and forgot the condoms.... It was just that serious. Not once did either one of us stop and think that it was possible for us to conceive a child with all this love making and no protection. That was not on our minds because we were the happiest people in the world. Nothing around us mattered... Not even using protection.That was until the drive home. I looked over at the misterMe: Babe we are tripping.Him: What are you talking about?Me: All weekend we made love with no protection like we are ready to have another child.He looks at me with the Oh Shit look!Me: When we get home, I will stop to the pharmacy and pick up the Plan B.Him: Ok cool. We drove back home holding hands and talking about all the excitement from the weekend. We had a great time but missed King and was ready to pick him up. When we got home I ran to Walgreen's and purchased the Plan B. I took it as directed and went on with my life. The mister and I were still on our honeymoon, even though we were back to reality. We made love every night and went on dates every weekend together. The only difference is we made sure we used protection because we weren't ready for another child. The plan was to purchase a new house and then get married fall of 2011. That would give us enough time to save for both.Well a month after the engagement, I began to cramp really bad and got my monthly visitor. But this time something was different about it. So something told me to take a pregnancy test. And low and behold it was positive. I cried and I cried because this was not part of the plan. We were not ready for another child. I was working on my sexy body for my wedding. I told the mister and he was excited. He wanted to have a little girl to make our family complete. Although I wasn't completely thrilled just seeing the excitement in his face made my heart smile and I knew everything would be ok. At that moment I accepted that we would have another child by the end of the year. What an engagement?

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

After the proposal in the Keys, the mister & I had a few drinks before we went back to our hotel. I called everyone I knew and told them the good news. I tweeted all my friends and updated my Facebook Status so that everyone knew I was soon to be Mrs. Williams. I was honestly the happiest woman alive.After a couple of drinks we walked back to the hotel room holding hands and gazing into each others eyes. At that moment all was right with the world. We got to our room and the Honeymoon began. We began to kiss passionately before we could even close the door. Because we had been traveling all day I suggested we take a shower together. Once it the shower it was on and poppin. There was so much touching, and kissing and sucking and Oh yeah that other *ing too. LOL We were making sweet love.It was so good I didn't even wear a shower cap & I actually let my hair get wet. LMAOOnce we got out of the shower I decided that I was gonna put on a show. Since it was Valentine's weekend I had went out and brought several pieces of lingerie before we got to the keys. And because this man just asked me to be his wife I wanted to show him a helluva good time. I put on my sexy red bra with the matching boy shorts. When I walked out into the room I knew he loved it. See my man is an ass man. He loves to see me in thongs & boy shorts.I walk out into the room and his face lights up. So I ask him if he likes? He says of course then ask if he can take some pictures of me. Usually I would've put up a fight but this man just asked me to be his wife & we had been drinking too. I was like sure Daddy! Then I started to pose for him like this was a photo shoot for Playboy. Once we were done taking picture we got back down to business. We made love all night and day. Actually most of our trip was spent in that hotel room enjoying our engagement honeymoon.We were so happy and so in love. Nothing else around us mattered. NOTHING at all. It was just the mister & I enjoying our life together and imagining how great our life would be once we were married.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

As a 28 year old I think that it is sad that I have to discuss Hygiene in one of my blog post. SMH I mean you would think that as an adult people would understand the importance of taking care of their personal hygiene by now. But no there is always someone somewhere who has no clue that they STANK!!! But how can you not know. I mean when I workout I can smell that I need to run home & jump in the shower. So what's wrong with their sense of smell? You always smell yourself before anyone else does. Right? I am 12 weeks pregnant so that means I'm in and out of the bathroom a whole lot. I think I spend more time in the bathroom than I do anywhere else. LOL Well yesterday I walked in and almost died. I mean I smelled something so awful I thought that someone had died in one of the bathroom stalls and their body was decomposing. But no one was there. The bathroom was empty.

Of course I couldn't use that bathroom with it smelling like that so I walked all the way down the hall to the other one. As I walked I began to wonder... How is it that a person can have body odor so strong that the smell is still there after you leave? How could you not smell that yourself? Why is it that I have to die because they are too lazy to wash they nasty ass on a regular? I mean seriously when you smell like something went up inside of you and died you need to go to the doctor asap. That is not normal. You are sick and they need to help you from the inside out. When I got the the other bathroom it was a little better. I walked down to the handicap stall because I like to have some room when I go. #dontjudgeme When I walked in I knew that the person that was in there before me was on their monthly and has not drank water for over a year. SMH oh Lawd why me? Again for the life of me I don't understand how they miss these smells themselves. I know that my sense of smell is heighten because I am pregnant but damn I know they smell this stuff too. As women we need to learn to take better care of ourselves.

1. There is no reason why you should not take a bath at least once a day. Trust me its even better if you bathe even more than that. No one will complain about how many baths you take. 2. Also they sell so many feminine products that will help reduce some of those smells that your body may have. Don't be afraid to use them. They were made to help you.

3. I know that the doctors don't want you to Douche but hell if you have an odor that won't go away you may want to grab you a Vinegar and water Douche and start your cleansing. I wouldn't suggest you do it all the time but once every 2-3 months should be fine. Or as needed.

4. Start eating healthy and drinking water. You will be amazed at what a difference this will make with your body odor. Water is great for you and it really helps to cleanse your body. So drink your 8 glasses a day.

5. Be careful who you sleep with and make sure you get tested. Some of these odors can come from STDs. If you lay down with a dog you will get fleas. So protect yourself.

This is your body and your personal hygiene is very important. There is not excuse that anyone should smell the way that I described earlier in my post. Your body is a temple so you should treat it as such.

Monday, August 2, 2010

I must admit I have the worst work ethics ever. My current job is my first serious job and I have been here for 3 years & 3 months. Can we say that I do not take this job serious at all. This is really bad because when I get another job, which I am anxiously looking. They will not let me do half of the things that I do at my current job. Maybe I should explain myself a little more when I say I have poor work ethics... When I am at work, I work hard. My numbers are great and I am one of the top agents they have. But my downfall is showing up. Whenever I don't want to be bothered I don't come in. And if I'm just being lazy, I show up late.I know this is unacceptable but I do it because they allow me too. I really want to get out of these bad habits but it is hard when at this point I don't care. I hate my job but it pays the bills. So I guess I have to suck it up and do better from now on. So today I will take on another challenge. I will do better when it comes to work. For the month of August, I will come to work, show up on time and work my entire shift! I believe that I can complete this challenge as well. Keeps my fingers cross. LOL Have a Happy Monday & Stay Blessed & Productive.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

If you all recall on February 13th, the mister proposed to me. It was one of the best days of my life. I was on my way to becoming Mrs. Williams. Before the proposal I had my wedding all planned out. We were getting married at Sunset on Miami Beach. Then having big reception/party with all our family and friends.

Well once the reality set in that I will actually get the chance to plan the perfect wedding, I realized my plans have changed drastically. I no longer want to get married on the beach. The idea of having sand between my toes in my beautiful wedding dress just does not tickle my pickle. Not only that, a beach wedding is very casual & I am way to saddity for that. I need my guest to be dressed like this is the prom. I need everything to be formal, except my Groom & groomsmen shoes. *They are wearing Converse. LOL Don't judge me!* I am not the Cinderella kind of Bride but I really need things to be as formal as possible.

Then comes the guestlist.... My family is huge! My grandmother has 11 kids & all of them have 2 or more kids. Can we say grandma & grandpa were busy? LOL No but seriously just my family alone was about 100 people. Then all of my close friends. My guestlist was at about 150 people by myself. Damn! Of course I can't forget the misters family & friends. Although most of his family is in Dominica we still want to atleast invite them. So his list is at about 100 people. That brings our guestlist to about 250 people. O_O Let's do the math. Since I am saddity & want only the best most of the reception venues I like charge about $75-$100 a plate. For 250 plates, that's ranges from $18,750 to $25,000. This does not include all the other charges they add on just to get your money.

So what's a girl to do? How do I get my guestlist down from 250-150 people without hurting anyones feelings? Is it a good idea to elope? How about a destination wedding? That is sure to cut the guestlist down. But do we really want to leave so many people out of our big day? How about just going to the Justice of the Peace and handling it there? Planning this weddng is getting to be a bit much. But thank God I have over a year to plan it. Let's see what happens from here.

to post one blog a day for the month of August....Oh my this will be hard because I work 12 hour shifts & sometimes I can't even remember my name let alone to post a blog but I will try my best. This should be fun because everyday something exciting happens in my life & I am always dying to share but I never find the time. But this month I will so sit back & enjoy!

Thursday, July 22, 2010

I'm in my feelings once again & I can't understand for the life of me why people lie. I think that I am the most understanding and forgiving person ever but at the same time don't take all that as a weakness. I do it because I love you. But if you don't love me enough to tell me the truth I can't be bothered. If you can't get it together then I will just have to do like Chris Brown and throw up them Deuces!

Oh this goes for anyone that feels the need to lie to me or try to play me. I am not the one. When you get on my shit list, it is hard to get off.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Lately I have really been in my feelings. And if you really know me then you would kinda know why. My emotions are on serious roller coaster & I feel sorry for anyone that decides to jump on. Right now I am feeling like Madonna in Take A Bow....

Sunday, May 16, 2010

On this beautiful Sunday Morning I just want to share one of my favorite gospel songs. Hezekiah Walker Grateful. I love this song. It says all the things that I'm feeling.

I am grateful for the things that you have done. Yes I'm grateful for the victories we've won. I could go on, and on, and on about your works Because I'm grateful, grateful so grateful just to praise you Lord Flowing from my heart, Are the issues of my heartHis Gratefulness

I am grateful for all the things that God has done for me & continues to do for me. That gratefulness is flowing from my heart. Thank you Lord for it all. I am forever Grateful.

A little over three months ago I got the biggest surprise of my life. It was Valentine's weekend and love was in the air. The mister & I decided to drive down to the keys for the weekend and oh how I love the keys. That Saturday morning we both had a few errands to run and we decided that we would leave Miami at 12 noon. Of course I wasn't even home at 12 and the mister was pissed. When I finally got home at 2 he was going in on how I am always late. And how I need to grow up because it makes no sense that we still hadn't left Miami. He has something to do in the Keys and I am making him late. While he talking all this noise I am taking my time packing for the weekend for King & I as well as trying to book us a hotel room over looking the water. For some reason I couldn't book the room and the mister is getting even more upset. We finally leave the house and drop King off with my brother and are on the road around 3. The entire ride the mister has an attitude but who the hell cares. I was driving so I had my iPod on Shuffle as he slept in the passenger seat. It was really cold in Miami this winter so we were both bundled up on the ride down. When we finally made it to the keys it was around 6. We drove around looking for a ocean view hotel room but everyone was booked. Around 630 we finally got a room at The Southernmost Point hotel, which is absolutely beautiful by the way. We get the key and take are luggage to the room. As we are settling in, I look out of the window & see the most beautiful sunset ever.

Me: Babe look at how beautiful the sunset is. Mister: Let's go out to the Pier to see it. We walking out the room to the pier and I am stopping taking pictures like a straight tourist and here goes his attitude again. Mister: Hurry your ass up before we miss the sunsets. Me: Whatever boy! *Snaps picture of myself* LOL We finally get to the pier and there are several people looking out at the sunset. And of course I am still taking pictures. Mister: Take a picture of me.Me: Ok *Snap* Then I try to take a picture of the both of us and this older couple walks up and ask if they can take a picture of us. Me: Sure *As I walk over to them with the camera and show them how to use it* Grab a Kleenex because the next part will make you cry. LOL As I turn to walk next the mister for pictures it happened...

The moment I had been waiting for...

The mister was down on one knee with a box in his hand...Me: Oh my God, Oh My God, Oh My God are you serious? Mister: *smiling from ear to ear* Yes I'm serious. WILL YOU MARRY ME? Me: Oh my God, Oh My God, Oh My God!!!!! At this point I can't remember what hand to give him but I am still in shock because this can't be happening. Mister: Babe give me your hand. My mind finally registers that it is the left hand so I give it to him. He takes the ring out the box and slips in on my finger.Mister: WILL YOU MARRY ME? Me: YES, YES, YES I will marry you! *insert lots & lots of tears here* LOL Can you believe it? The Mister and I are getting married. All my life I have dreamed about how my engagement would be but never in a million years could I have imagined it would be any more perfect than it was at Sunset on February 13th, 2010. I love this man with all my heart and can't wait to become Mrs. Williams.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

My friend Tiff sent me a ringtone of my girl Monica's Love all over me. I must say that has got to be my favorite song on the album. I love it because at this point in my life, that is exactly how I feel. I have never been so happy in my life or felt so loved.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Dang I just realize my last blog was Feb. 2nd... So much has happened since then. I mean like I went to the keys for Valentine's Day. Got Engaged!!!! Found out I was pregnant. Started making wedding & baby plans... Lost the baby... Still making wedding plans and I'm back on the grind at work. I guess I will have to go into detail about all the things listed above. I promise to give a good entry this weekend. Sorry for the delay & I love & miss all my followers. Until next time Stay blessed & productive. Smooches!!!!!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

This summer I am invited to 3 weddings. Yes it seems like everyone in my life is getting married but me. But that is not even the worst part. I received a text message from 1 of the brides talking about she stressed. So me being the friend that I am, I tell her to calm down & let's try to figure out how to fix the problem. This is when the Trifling part comes into play. She tells me that she stressed because she wants to sleep with someone other than her fiance before she gets married. *Blank Stare* WTF she can't be serious. I try to calm down & ask what the hell she talking about. She says that something in her is telling her to sleep with one last person just to get it out of her system. *rolls eyes & head spins* This is the type of trifling shit that I am talking about. Now this man thinking that her smug ass is the one but she want to sleep with someone else before they get married. See chicks like her ruin the good men & then when they get a Great Women like me... He is all battered & bruised & has given up on love. I mean seriously what if he did that shit to her. She would want me to gather up the goon squad to kick his & her ass. This is the most trifling shit I have heard in a long ass time. Why the hell did she tell this man that she would marry him. I mean am I over reacting. Because here I am 28 years old ready to spend the rest of my life with Mr. Right. But hell I don't have a ring. I mean I've also be faithful to one man for the past 4 years & 2 1/2 months but I still ain't got no damn ring. Trifling Ass Chicks... When will they learn?

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Just happen to watch Bridezillas and these broads are stupid as hell. I mean really this man has chosen you and here you are on national television acting a damn fool. Get your shit together. I mean it is really not that serious. I have come to realize that with proper planning everything will workout. The only people that are bridezillas are broke bitches trying to live beyond they means.

Those chicks on Platinum Weddings don't have shit to worry about.

So I guess what I am saying is get y'all money up & stop acting stupid.