I've been very proud of myself in the almost 10 months I've been JUDDDing that I haven't ever lost control on a DD. Oh, I've had UDs that turned into UUADs for sure. But never, never a DD.

This morning I had some watermelon, and that was the end. I waited a couple of hours after I had it, but it somehow didn't sit right on my stomach, and I was a little uncomfortable, and I just knew a spoon of peanut butter would calm that down. It did. My stomach felt immediately better. And so I had some more PB. And a little more. And then more watermelon.

Once I knew this DD was out the window, I kind of relaxed. It's going to be an UD. Not an UUAD, just an UD. And I'm going to stay with my rotations since they work with my upcoming schedule, so tomorrow will be an UD. Three in a row. But I'm not stressing about it at all!

Kind of weird since I'm chasing Onederland right now, and really do want to get there. This might set me back a little on that, but I really, honestly don't feel like I've failed at all, or guilty, or anything like that. I feel more like my body was telling me something and I listened. Crazy! I was also so sleepy all morning, and once I ate the PB I felt better.

Anyway, I wanted to come clean with you all. And also to share my amazing JUDDD calm. I've seen it before, but never like today. Just so calm and accepting. I wish I could bottle that feeling. And speaking of bottling, I'll be having a cocktail tonight since it's now an UD!

Carol, I'm so glad you shared this DD story. This gives me so much encouragement that sanity and peace (not necessarily perfection!) around food is possible. In the recent past, "blowing my intended plan" early in the day leads to all kinds of eating disasters. I haven't been able to get off that roller coaster for more than a couple days at a time. I hope I'm like you with JUDDD & peaceful with food as I gain experience with this!

I had my first blown DD a couple weeks ago. I fasted the whole day, but by my bedtime snack I was so hungry! Since it was already after 9pm I only ate like 700 calories, but way more than my 200-300 and that had never happened before. I didn't freak out either and I had an UD the next day too.

You will see onederland before you know it. Maybe this was the shake up you needed!

I think I've only had one blown DD and it was recently, BUT I have "decided" to take breaks on numerous occasions and leave the DD off. I love JUDDD in that I have been able to take these breaks without quitting or giving up on losing. I always know it won't be long before I'm back in WLM. Don't sweat it, Carol. You're a JUDDD star.

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Good for you gf!!! I am working on this calm thing. I am way too good at the all or nothing thinking, so it's a work in progress. As you said, big deal! It's just one day and you are doing so incredibly well. Honestly, it's downright incredible that this is the 1st "blown" DD in all this time? You rock! (you so have onderland in the bag, btw!!!) XO

I love the calm too, Carol. Only one blown DD after 10 months of JUDDing is quite an achievement! Don't be surprised to see the scale going down now. Sometimes it can happen, but even if it does not, it is still all good.

Agreeing with Lisa, that although you wouldn't be particularly happy about a DD gone wrong, it's probably GOOD for you once in a while.

First, it's valuable to learn how a departure from your planned DD will affect you, both on the scale and in how you feel about it. That's part of learning about JUDDD.

Second, you're shaking things up a little to see what benefits might come of it. Is it possible your body is getting used to exact rotation? Well, now you've given it a shake up. That's fine, and could even mean some benefits.

Not that I don't applaud all these month of perfect rotations - kudos to you. Consistency is a fantastic ally. Sends the mental signal that this is an important thing in our lives!

I think I've only had one blown DD and it was recently, BUT I have "decided" to take breaks on numerous occasions and leave the DD off. .

So thrilled to read this. That's a perfect way to describe my MANY DD fails!

Carol, you are a JUDDD Goddess! The fact that most of you go that long without a DD fail is amazing to me. I've been JUDDDing for 1 year and 2 months (not counting vacation breaks) I am sure I have had 10 failed DD's. I admire you all so much and am so impressed with your complete attitude overall!

Agreeing with Lisa, that although you wouldn't be particularly happy about a DD gone wrong, it's probably GOOD for you once in a while.

First, it's valuable to learn how a departure from your planned DD will affect you, both on the scale and in how you feel about it. That's part of learning about JUDDD.

Second, you're shaking things up a little to see what benefits might come of it. Is it possible your body is getting used to exact rotation? Well, now you've given it a shake up. That's fine, and could even mean some benefits.

Not that I don't applaud all these month of perfect rotations - kudos to you. Consistency is a fantastic ally. Sends the mental signal that this is an important thing in our lives!

It'll be interesting to see if your "blown" DD brings the Whooshie Fairy to wisk you into Onderland sooner than you think!

Today, TOM came unexpectedly. My last 2 cycles have been 3 weeks apart, so something is changing for me a bit. It also explains why my control went out the window yesterday morning, and probably why I was so sleepy yesterday and I'm still feeling a bit tired and draggy today. While I'm not thrilled at dealing with this more often, it is nice to know there's a reason for all this happening.

Having a good UD today, and I know I can have a good DD tomorrow. Moving on...

Today, TOM came unexpectedly. My last 2 cycles have been 3 weeks apart, so something is changing for me a bit. It also explains why my control went out the window yesterday morning, and probably why I was so sleepy yesterday and I'm still feeling a bit tired and draggy today. While I'm not thrilled at dealing with this more often, it is nice to know there's a reason for all this happening.

Having a good UD today, and I know I can have a good DD tomorrow. Moving on...

Thanks Tiera. I guess I've just been so focused on getting so much weight off that it wasn't worth blowing it. I still have quite a ways to go, but PMS days have definitely been harder to handle in the past few months, so I guess I just need to be prepared for that going forward. 'Cause I'm totally going to get to my goal this time!