She
was popular in high school, though to her she was just being
herself. She had this manner or way to not manipulate but draw in
boy's attention, that is only if she wanted it. Of course she was
drawn to the older popular boys who were all about sex, drugs,
sports and partying. Its not that she thought that what they did
was cool, its more that she wanted to fix them, show them that
there is so much more happiness to be found rather than in what
they're doing. It would always begin with the online
conversations that went on and on, she knew how to connect with
people even just through words on a screen. She would continue
with the effort but also make sure they knew that they didn't own
her, she always had to have the upper hand. After that there were
meet ups, usually beginning with kissing then progressing, but
she would always leave them hanging every now and again, she
played a good tease. It wasn't all fun and games to her though;
she would lay down a level of seriousness, showing them that the
relationship was deeper than that. Looking back it didn't take
her long to have them; but what is it to have someone? Is it a
status of being boyfriend and girlfriend? Is it the vows
exchanged in marriage that define it? Is it simply knowing that
two people belong to each other and no one else? Or could it be
knowing that another is completely attached and attracted both
mentally and physically to you? To her it was none of those
things, it was that she knew once she "had someone" they were
always hers, not in a jealous ownership way, but in a way that
assured her that even if they were to drift apart she could pick
them back up exactly where they left off.