Hey guys~ I haven’t been updating the international group with what’s up so let me fill you guys in for a second~

Things haven’t been going so well but my selfie game still on point so we’re good.

(The lighting makes me look like I have different eye colors and I wish it stayed like this because then it’ll be easier to assert my dominance in this world)

BUT ANYWAY! Back on track.

Lemme tell you why things aren’t going so well.

I have no more fanfics to read.

I’ve caught up on all of them and they were all angst fics so my life is in pain right now. I AM IN PAIN BECAUSE MY BABIES ARE IN PAIN. I have no fluff to read and I’m literally just staring at the ceiling attempting to sing “Mic Drop” ballad ver. because I wanna feel turnt up but I’m too sad.

♪Did you see my bag~ did you see my bag~♪

*tears slowly rolling down my cheeks*

HOWEVER, shameless self promo, I WROTE ALTERNATIVE ENDINGS FOR THESE ANGST FICS AND BAM:

If I wasn’t an idol I’ll be promoting the title and everything but..... maybe one day~ ONE OF THESE DAYS ILL BE DROPPING TINY HINTS IN EVERY BLOG WITHOUT TELLING YOU GUYS.

Now moving on to what else I do~

I’ve been in bed eating chips watching both seasons of Produce 101 crying every episode because my biases deserve the world.

“You can do that in Japan too though.”

No I can’t shush. I need these American snacks to make the most out of the experience.

Also Japanese websites hit me with the “this program is NOT supported in your country” stuFf- LIKE EXCUSE ME I SUPPORT YOU WHY DONT YOU SUPPORT ME BACK!? ....anyways... I have my reasons to be living like this.

Finally, I’ve listed all the foods I want to eat while I’m back home and uh, according to my calculations I’m gonna have to eat 5 meals a day to fulfil my wishes.

So basically that’s what I’ve been doing and I’ve gained 6 pounds and 4 new pimples so far (welcome to the family)

Suddenly Lana Del Ray starts playing

♪will you still love me, when I’m no longer young and beautiful~ ♪

Aight but it’s the inside that matters.

The taste of these discount cheez-itz are telling me so.

I may not be able to fit into the 22/7 uniforms anymore but it’s okay, diet starts 2018.

I HOPE THE WORLD HAS BEEN TREATING YOU GUYS NICELY. 2018 IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER SO GET READY TO KISS 2017 GOOD BYE!

Like forever.

Literally.

2017.

GOOD BYE.

PLEASE END ALREADY.

*sending my loves good vibes til the end~*

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Just remember, if you ever feel like you’re not good enough for something:

This Good For Nothing fanfic Indulger Sally was able to become an idol and if that doesn’t scream