and it is honestly ruining my life. I have always been an anxious person and felt a little bit insecure- when I was younger I had these rituals that I completed to make myself feel safe. But then this anxiety/ need to control came to be all about food. I also have a history...

My biggest dream is to recover bulimia. I'm tired of the shame.I'm tired of the fear.I'm tired of my lies and bad excuses.I'm tired of stealing the food from my siblings and parents.I'm tired of going to bed late because of homework I haven't finished because of bulimia.I'm...

will introduce my self viral!
have been stuggling with that issue almost 9 years!
Never realized the time!
Been to doctors but never achieved to finish my programm.
When smt is going wrong its my secret friend im counting down 365 days and this is officialy the say ONE.Stay close...

I want to eat normally. I want to be able to not think about food or when I'm eating next all day every day. But the addiction to food and caring a lot about how your body looks is a horrible combination. I want to recover, but I don't want to gain weight, and now I'm stuck in a...

Hi to anyone who might be reading this...
I have undulated between anorexia and bulimia since I hit puberty and I am now 22...
At the moment I am in a severely bulimic phase but apart from my family (who I don't live with currently) nobody knows and it feels like a massive burden...

The problem with bulimia is that it's more than an illness; it's an addiction, and like with any addiction, it makes it impossible for you to stop and think about the reasons that lead you to it. I too, never once took the time to analyse what I was really doing.
Looking in as...

Well today was a milestone for me. I went to a wedding where it was pot luck so tons of food, loads of trigger foods etc. I didn't binge and purge. This is the first time in 41 years that I have been in such a situation and not done that. I am quite proud but I have so say I...

I dont understand how this happened....Everything was fine.I woke up and did pilates with my mom,sister,and aunt in a gym...Then I carefully measured my lunch and a little fruit for desert.For the first time I felt fine after eating,but after 2 hours I was hungry again...Then I...

and want to rip your body off
When you wish to be invisible
When your value comes from the amount of space you take up
When the whole meal you just want to be rid of fulfillment
Please remember
You deserve even more
You deserve space
You deserve acceptance
You are enough
No...

Hi my name is Kimberly and I am bulimic. That’s a pretty solid definition. I mean I can be defined by more than this such as; white, female, ginger, 19 and a half years old. I like to play Mario kart and hula hoop also. For me though-at this point in my life- my major...

Every moment we have to make different decisions and only in that moment will these decisions be relevant. I can write down all the information that I can gather about eating healthily etc but I cannot predict and future and must be MORE adaptable and not use my mistakes as an...

At the age of twelve, I was hospitalized for about three months with anorexia. I was about 5' 2" and I'd whittled myself down to a sixty-seven-pound skeleton. Fortunately, I put enough weight back on to avoid welcoming any significant physical damage. Unfortunately, the smallish...

The title says it all for me. I don't even know why I am where I am right now, I've never been overweight or underweight and I am generally happy with my body. I always judged people who who were counting calories, trying to eat light, as I never cared, whenever I went out for...

I am 22 years old struggling with bulimia. I have been attending counseling and trying very hard. I have my good days and my bad days. My boyfriend has been very supportive throughout this process. I just really need to speak to people who are actually going through this too.

I want to recover. I lay in bed every night and think about how I've failed again at beating this. I feel ashamed to talk to anyone about it. I can't see why anyone will ever love me if they knew. I'm exhausted all the time. My mind is a mess. My chest hurts. Hair is thinning...

be last time. The last time I do things that make me want to purge and the last time I actually purge. And I feel good about it for like a week. Then I get out of control again and the cycle repeats. I'm so sick of feeling out of control and like a failure. I'm so sick of...

What started as a way of relieving over-eating becomes a routine to relief stress and anger. There's no doubt there's a body-image reasoning behind my bulimia, but I've used it now as a weapon to make myself feel better, that I'm at least in control of something. I'm a student in...

recover from bulimia for > a year), before getting rid of the root of this bulimia problem , I had been focusing only my weight or my weight-line ,my leg ,my thigh so on... I had been watching my calories intake everyday and maybe every meals for almost 10 years. It is...

Teenage pass time seems to be eating.
why? ugh i hate it.
thats all i do with my friends eat scream dring and eat some more.
at the time im not paying any attention but than im like
wtf am i doing!?!??!?
i totally hate it.
im an actor, so when im on stage i dont...

My bulimia started when I was 13 and was at its worst when I was 15 & 16. I was purging everything that ate and every now and again I would spend a day just binging and purging. For the past two years my bulimia has gotten better but since I have stopped purging all the...

http://fracturedgirl.tumblr.com/post/20978060369/so-i-just-started-a-new-blog-password-protected - I'm needing some people to provide some emotional support, if at all possible. :( I tried some of my irl friends and family, and only one cares.As for internet friends, only 1 on FB...

This is an incomplete story. I am looking for it's ending, and I am hopeful. One day I want to live free from eating disorders.
My story starts two years ago, with some events that dented my self-esteem and confidence. At the time, I used food to cope, and used it to stuff my...

One day when I returned from highschool I found my grandmother in the living room; she was over my place and planning to stay for a few days. The first thing she noticed was that I gained weight since she had last seen me. And the very first comment that she made...

I've been bulimic for like 3 years now. I'll stop at months at a time but it always comes back and i'll do it every single day. I'm soo ******* sick of this ****. I can't control it. And it sucks because I can't party with my friends because thats when I have no control at all...

someone very special to me tole me recently about her having bulimia and wanting to recover from it. i want to help her i but i dont know how. i've started reading all the forums i can find on the subject but i guess what would really help is some advice from people who have or...

(TO ALL THOSE WHO SUFFER FROM BULIMIA NERVOSA...YOU CAN RECOVER <3)
It all started when i saw myself through the eyes of others. when people laughed at me, mocked me,
bout my weight, about how fat and ugly i was. this happened on a daily basis and i kept...

horrible disease for 20 years. I need NEED to recover, it's so damn hard. This is the worst feeling ever. I want to fully enjoy my life and my awesome family (I have a loving husband and an active six year old son). I've been pretty health issue free over the years, which made...

Bulimia has stolen six years from me........I remember having so much control over food, I was orthorexic. Nothing deemed unhealthy would ever pass my lips and anything that did had to be "earned" by exercise.One day I think I cracked and ate a whole box of cereal bars...

i recently developed bulimia on a regular basis. its all i can think about and its in the early stages, because i want to stop and know its bad but i cant think of any way else to not think that way. all i want to do is get the food out any way i can and i just began binging...

for a few days now and the binge aspect has been a bit overwhelming. I have realised that I just need to keep focused and live in the moment- because this is the most important one and one which you will never get back (a little cliched I know). I have realised that there are...

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I have struggled with bulimia for over 6 years: daily binging and purging, alcohol abuse, stealing, anxiety, and depression. Before that, it was a solid 10 years of self-contempt and endless criticism, uncomfortable in my skin.
I am done struggling, though. Now, it's not...

I ALMOST binge/purged.
My fiance was gone allll day. I didnt eat all day until 4:30. I was starving... I made a small meal.. Banana with 80 calorie bun and fake low cal peanut butter. After eating it I felt more hungry and wanted to binge sooo bad!! But I didnt! So proud of...

I have bulimia and I desperately want to recover, someone message me and offer me some support please?:( and if you are also suffering from this disorder i would be happy to talk to you and try to support you, we can do it together, someone please message me x

Last night, i decided to do some research and try to find people i can interact with who have bulimia. this website has been something i have been looking for, and hopefully something to help me recover. so, now to my story. I am 18 years old a freshman in college, and once again...

I want and need to recover from Bulimia Nervosa. I know I can, but once I slip up I let myself go. I have been this way struggling with this horrible disorder since the end of my freshman year in Highschool. I have this need for the perfect body, and I strive for what is...

and seeing how much taking care of your body plays a part in your life later, I'm afraid of the damage I have already done. My teeth are rotting and hurt and I can't hold anything in anymore. Can't enjoy family get togethers or simple things. I can't take what this is doing to...

I've been bulimic for 5yrs now. I've hit a low point lately. I moved to a new city where i didn't know anyone, and with no one always around I've been more actively bingeing and purging and i just feel like I've hit rock bottom. Someone please tell me how you've beat this.

Hi everyone! me too I have bulimia. I’ve had this dis-ease for… 7/8 years now. It’s a tough struggle with food but mainly with ourselves. However, I have made tremendous progress the last few years and want to share some tips with you so you don’t give up the fight.
1) Be...

.. It has taken control over my life and my identity. I want to stop upward or downward comparing my body to models and friends. What started out just being ice cream... Turned into on going purging. I am ashamed of what I do and how long it has taken over.
No one knows. I hide...

Heyy! ..I'm Gemma.
11 was the age in which my bulimia first kicked in. I vividly remember feeling out of control of my eating habits and I thought bulimia would be a way if controlling my food obsession. I was so wrong.
20lbs heavier, 5 years later and one purge too many, I am...

I tried to get help, went to an eating disorder clinic, had one appointment, arranged a series of appointments but then had a bit of a panic and cancelled all of them.
I Convinced myself afterwards that I didnt need them, I did ok for a good while, told myself that i dont care...

I have been batteling bulimia, accompinied by, depression, anxiety, and ocd for over 8 years now. There was a time 1 1/2 years ago when i was in my recovery, i was 3 mths without a binge, and then it happened, relapse. I had been in therapy for over 7 years been...