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Well I guess it’s better to have one HUGE blog post than not hearing from me in months. LOL. I broke this one up in categories so whichever you prefer to read or not you can easily skip through the stuff that doesn’t interest you.

Weight loss:

Just for you guys I’ve decided to step on the scale this morning and before I tell you the number I’m going to say I’m not surprised. Last weekend I had a 4 day weekend it was awesome but I was so bored I didn’t know what to do with myself other than be lazy and eat out..I had Macdonalds at least three times, subway, Taquito’s from 7/11 and ice coffee and lots of pop. wtf right?! I was also very lazy lazy oh TOM was also there he was’t too pleasant with me this month either.

So this morning after not stepping on a scale for a while I decided to step on it because I looked so friggen thin in the mirror and the verdict was…157! I’m not mad, I’m not even slightly disappointed because the fact is this month I’ve done next to nothing and my diet has been shit. This month I’ve been able to maintain under 160 and I’m 157 today so I’m happy at my maintain accomplishment! yay me! But I know that just because I am maintaining and eatting shit it will eventually turn around and blow up like a Balloon. When I got back to work Tuesday I’ve been eating a lot less trying to control my hunger and tell my body I don’t need THAT much food, just enough to be satisfied with no hunger pains.

Jobs:

I had a three day weekend but decided to take a 4 day weekend because TOM started Thursday and as usual my cramps we’re a bitch so I took Friday off. Given the fact Monday was a holiday I had an enjoyable last two weeks of work, both were only 4 days. To my shock my Boss wrote a final goodbye email which was nice to the company to let them know I was leaving. Trust me I was VERY shocked and very awed about it. I wasn’t expecting it. As usually I thought I was just going to get a nice knowing you quick kick out the door. Because two years ago when I was running away and quit to move back home, I got nothing not even really a goodbye. Of course 4 months later I call back to see if they we’re hiring and wanted to take me back. They did, so a total of 4 years (minus the 6 month hiatus) I worked with the company.

I had my exit interview which I think went well of course my boss was nervous. The last girl who went out bashed everyone she could which of course resulted in the vice president and the president of the company to get involved to and gave people a lot of shit. Of course she was just a punk kid with no purpose who felt the need to burn her bridges. It happens. Also given my colourful out right personality people expected me to have done the same thing when the reality is. I speak my mind and when I have a problem you know it, but I’m not going to go into an exit interview to shit on everyone. The people who truly know me, know I have class and I’m not the horrific bitch that my enemies and frienemies portray me to be. The move they did was the best move for me in the long run. They took me out of my comfort zone so I would get my ass out there and take a chance. So can I really be mad? Yes. but am I mad? Nope. I was over it after a week but I had already had my interview and even after a month I still didn’t like it much in the other building.

Everyone signed a card for me wishing me the best. So many people told me they we’re going to miss me and we had Cake. My bossed thanked me for not going in with knives to stab everyone in the back. I said I wouldn’t because I could have been fired a long time ago with the way I reacted or even some of the shit I pulled. It works both ways, I wan’t the perfect employee and I’m a mouth piece. I know that. Just like they aren’t the perfect bosses.

I got an email around 9pm Friday night telling me where the course next week is going to take place. There’s something in the email stating I need my passport photo and my original police check which I don’t have. I was told to only worry about the second page because I already had my license. Sooo Now I’m like WTF?! I will email the guy later and ask him see what he say’s.

I’m really excited for this change, I left my job on wicked terms next week I have my course. It just amazes me two years ago I was 180 pounds, unhappy, heart broken, lost and in so much debt. I felt stuck but made the move to come back out to Alberta anyways to start fresh. It’s been a bumpy road with two, sometimes three jobs but I have all my creditor’s (except one) paid off, and I’m well on my way to having a fresh start. I’m 23 pounds down, my confidence level is up high, I feel like I’ve found myself again. I’m happy and I no longer feel I’m stuck. I’ve come a really long way to where I was a couple of years back. I feel like a whole new person and it’s great! Wish me luck!

Boys:

Has anyone ever been in a situation where you we’re hanging out with someone (I call it hanging out unless the guy has at least brought me out on one date.) but you weren’t sure if you liked him or not? I’ll call him Motorhead and I met off a dating website. (the last retard left that I had been talking to before deleting my account.) He’s nice but sort of wishy washy. Thursday of last week he came over and was late of course but I’m willing to accept that Flaw I guess for the time beinging since he has had some shit going on…But I called in sick and then kicked him out around 11:30 he didn’t understand why since I wasn’t working the next day. But really hanging out in my place is boring. I get bored, we we’re drinking we weren’t doing anything but chit chatting and watching tv. I didn’t even want to watch a movie. (TOM had just started so I tend to be pretty F’in moody).

I finally had a 4 day weekend he wanted to hang out Saturday night like later on and when he asked me this, it was 8 O’clock at night. I said no, we can hang out tomorrow (as in the Sunday) in early evening because of course he told me if he didn’t get to work on his truck it makes him sad. I was annoyed and asked him what his deal was with evenings, why can’t we hang out during the day? Of course his answer was he works all week, evenings are for relaxing and on weekends he likes to work on his truck. I told him he apparently wakes up at 6am every day so work on your truck early morning and hang out in the afternoon? Nope that didn’t work for him. Just because he likes to relax in the evenings, I don’t like to relax with someone. I relax all the time whenever I have time to and I can entertain myself more by myself and do my own thing.

So Sunday came around and I texted him after walking Chloe cause my friend and I went for a 4 hour drive in total to go see the dogs she wants. He said two words to me but nothing about hanging out. So I went off doing my own thing Sunday evening and didn’t even ask him about it. On Monday morning I got an apology about not hanging out sunday and I ignored it. Simply because all he had to say on Sunday evening was I prefer to work on my truck and help my friend out than hang out with you right now.

We we’re suppose to chill yesterday and I cancelled because well again he wanted to hang out at my house. Because he’s oh so broke to take me anywhere, yet he can make trips out of town, go out for a beer and a bite with friends…but with me it’s lets just hang? haha So I told him I didn’t feel like hanging out tonight but tomorrow after I’m done work would be good. I also no longer want to hang out in my house I want to go out and do something. He said something free. I said fine. We’ve decided drinks at a park by the river which is cool I guess. I don’t like to drink when I have to drive so it’ll be water for me plus I don’t feel like going out and buying booze. To be honest I don’t know what he’s thinking but he apparently really likes me. I’m indifferent to the situation. But I’ll keep you guys posted.

Roomates:

So my friend and I have possibly decided to become roomates in December. Problem is she’s only thinking about herself and my new job is possibly way down south of the city so of course I want to move closer. Given a lot of shit that’s happened and her admitting to sabotaging me has made me become vary weary of her. It’s like when things go good in her life she’ll support me but as soon as things are shit…it’s sabotage. We’ve barely hung out the last two months than all of a sudden boyfriend issues come along (shocker…) she comes clinging back and than once he’s okay with her again she pisses off. I dislike people like that to a degree because I’m not here to be your good friend while you fuck me over.

I’m allergic to her cat and she honestly told me she didn’t think me wanting to sign ONLY a 6 month lease just in case I wanted to move to BC next summer was a good reason to not sign a year. wtf? If I only want to sign 3 months for whatever reason is a good reason. So she started making other demands which I shut her down with quickly. To be honest this friendship isn’t solid enough to move in together, and it’s going to end because I don’t want to move in with her. Or it’s going to go south pretty quickly once we move in together. I have huge doubts about this, only because I’ve lived alone for so long and the first and last time I had a roomate who was a friend…well we’re not longer friends because she screwed me over. Do I think this friend will screw me over? In a heart beat so I think once I start my new job and see the distance in driving I will get a good feel as to where I want to move. I will then tell her this is the area where I’m moving no questions about it, so if you want to be roomates still cool. If not oh well.

She doesn’t want to move far from her hot yoga studio because she feels the farther she is the lack of motivation she’ll have to go. No offense she doesn’t go now and since she restarted her weight loss in Feb she’s lost nothing, and EVERYTIME she’s with me she want’s junks it’s like a sabotage because I do good. She definitely doesn’t support me and my journey but expects me to care about her. It doesn’t make sense to me. Anyways I guess it’s pretty clear which root I’m going to head into the next few weeks but do you guys have any opinions on how to break it to her? I’m in a lose-lose situation either way so feel free to leave your opinions.

Things have been going really well for me you’ll be updated by my weight loss, job process and boys all in this order. LOL

First thing is I’ve stayed away from the scale, week in and week out it’s been the same damn number 156-159 so I decided to stay away from it for a while and go by with what I feel and see in the mirror. I believe that’s a more healthier approach for me because the scale just depresses me. It’s fine though when I’m ready to get fully back into I will. For now I’ll just watch what I eat and continue to eat smaller portions. Now that being said I’m working my way up mentally to do a 10 day master cleanser (completely fail as I eat a MacDonald breakfast LOL) but I figured with everything goings well for me lately I may as well completely cleanse my body of all the toxins. Of course so when I start my new job everything will feel brand new? I’m trying to mentally prepare myself…

So I gave my two weeks notice at my full time job on Friday. My course started Aug 13-17th and I know a lot of people are asking “well what if you fail?” well now I CAN’T fail because I have nothing to fall back on and I doubt I would fail. I know the people asking that really don’t want me to leave my current position because I’m well liked but you know what in the long run it’ll benefit me the best. The hospital security was always my back up plan if the 911 - dispatching didn’t pan out. The only difference is instead of waiting to get on with Protection services right away (I’ve applied 18 times and nothing.) I decided to get into contract security for the hospital, start at the bottom and work my way up. (Turns out the reason why I wasn’t getting hired was because the contracted security who was working we’re getting the protection services jobs.) I’ve also never really feared starting from the bottom and busting my ass up to get to the top again. The pay cut isn’t drastic and within 3 months I’ll be pretty much making the same amount of money I am at my current job. I also have my debt under control with the exception of one creditor. So I don’t feel stuck anymore, I have my savings account going up quickly and I’m being smarter money wise. I also got a dollar raise at my part time job which I won’t be working at as much once I get my rotation shift of 4 on and 4 off. two days and two nights which is what I would have been doing if I got on with the City. Besides it’ll be a nice change not ALWAYS having to work day shift (I hope). I’m really excited!

So someone sent a comment last week when I updated about a boy but gave very little details…Well I’ll just start from the beginning because something crazy happened yesterday which NEVER happens to me EVER.

So I met this guy of a dating website and invited him out to dog walk Chloe with me. After we met we didn’t talk as much just random text’s here and there then all of a sudden last week he’s like “hey cutie whats up!?” So we hung out on a Friday night he was sweet and wasn’t one of those typical idiots grabbing at me trying to make out with me. But the thing about him is his car stuff comes first. We we’re suppose to hang out Tuesday and he told me that he’d get back to me 4:30-5:00ish to let me know if he was able to come for 6 or if he was going to check out this car. 5:30 hits and I decide to create boundaries it’s rude to make someone wait and if you still don’t know whats going on you text them and let them know. So I made other “plans”. 5:45 he texts me and asks whats up? I told him since he didn’t get back to me when he said he would, I figured he went to see the car and I made plans.

He asked to hang out later that night I said no I’m busy. He asked about Wednesday I said I was busy but Thursday would be great. So Thursday comes and he was suppose to come by around 7 and we were going to hang out at my place. He hasn’t taken me on a date it’s just been lets hang out at my place. 7 hits and he tells me he hasn’t showered yet and his roomate told him he needed to be out of the house by the end of the month. So he has 5 days to find a place. He ask’s if he can come over later. I flat out said no, I get cranky and like my sleep. So for 45 minutes he tried guilt tripping me and then he said how about I come for 8:30? and I said that’s fine as long as you don’t mind I’ll kick you out 10-10:30 the latest.

He told me there’s a thing called “live a little”. I laughed and shook my head simply because one if we we’re actually going out and doing things I’d gladly stay out late, but to have someone just come over and hang out I get tired quickly and we’re not at that stage yet. So I made plans with him for this Sunday since Saturday he wasn’t willing to change his plans to go out to Edmonton. Which I find a little funny because he can take a road trip out which of course cost money…but to offer to take me out anywhere he’s broke? *Shrugs* he wanted to hang out Friday but I said I was busy cause I was (I had a date, which you all will hear about this after this guy.) …I think that’s slightly ticking him off because I’m not available ever second he wants me to be?

So I had a date last night decided to give my friends, friend a shot who is younger. We made plans for around 5ish. 5ish to me mean 4:45-5:15 between that time. Turns out my friends defini of 5ish is between 5-6? That’s a pretty vague and anything after the 30 is considered the next timeish. IMO. So I gave him that when he showed up at 5:40 because if my friend things it’s between 5-6 then obviously his friend thinks that. So we go on our date sit down at the resturant and he says he has to make a phone call to his buddy to find out if he’s working tomorrow. So he picks up the phone and starts talking for about 5 minutes. Deal breaker right there so it was pretty hard for me to act remotely interested after that. After dinner we say Savages which I really liked. He was nice but he was a kid he has a lot of growing up to do and making phone calls on a first date is kind of a no no.

OKAY OKAY so on to OMG THIS NEVER HAPPENS TO ME NEWS….

Friday after work I was chatting up everyone because of course I’m SUPER excited I’m quitting to move on to bigger better things in my life. I stopped by the other security team side and this cute contractor who I’ve seen around but never had much of a conversation with was standing there. As I walked up I was like “Oh it’s only you…okay” and he made a joke, then we joked around and he’s like “aww does someone need a hug” and I’m like “ya” so he gives me a quick one arm hug. and I’m going on about myself (cause clearly I’m good at that lmfao) and about how I’ve quit I’m getting into hospital security etc.. He told me his mother works in childrens hospital and her friend is protection services so if I ever wanted to work with children I may have an in source to get me in. Well as the conversation continued on he asked me if I was single, I said yes then asked for my phone number. We then text and decided to make a date for tonight! I thought I’d work until 5 but I get off earlier. I’ll contact him in a bit if he hasn’t gotten a hold of me by the time I’m done here.

So I’ve adjusted to my new building and it’s okay. I emailed the guy about the job unfortunately he’s on vacation until next week. So hopefully he’ll have my answer as to when the next available course is so I can plan accordingly. The scale hasn’t budged but my work pants did not want to stay on yesterday. I finally broke down and had to punch another hole in my belt.

I met a boy (guy whatever)…Not sure what else to say, just saying.

I started back into my writing and my hobbies that I haven’t really been around much not even for my email buddies. Sorry about that guys.

Remember weigh in tomorrow BL guys, I think tomorrow will be the last elimination and next week we’ll have a winner. Good luck.

I do apologies I am going to be a huge disappointment this week for weigh in as well…

I guess I’m just not mentally ready to drop these dreadful last 18 pounds, or else I would have by now! I’m not really sure what to do to motivate myself.

The interview went well, it wasn’t even an interview. I went in filled out the paper work and answered the questions, there was a part on the “test” where I had to write a report which was totally lame and I barely even worked at it. I wrote some stupid stuff, didn’t even finish the report like I would really on a job so I laughed at myself and figured they wouldn’t have hired me after that. (but it went on…)

I then met the guy who I was suppose to meet, we discuss what I had been doing and my experience. After 5 minutes he said he wanted me in for a second interview with the big guy who say’s Yes or No to hiring. Within two minute another guy came down (I just want to say, holy hell I’ve never walked into a security company that was surrounded by all good looking people. Even Guards and people coming in for meetings were good looking! haha).

The guy asked me if I worked for G4 before because well, my boss who worked there before praised me and how good I was so this guy who used to work for G4 as well (in the office part) knew who I was he just didn’t have a face to match the name until that moment. (I also think that when I lived in Ontario the Vice President of the company was the one who called my Boss, and told him I was coming out to Alberta to work and that they should take me on and find a placement for me. I’m pretty sure that’s why I get a really high appreciating when it comes from his mouth.) This is why and I realize now, you never burn your bridges and in the end GOOD things DO happen to go people. I have to do a course for a week which they pay you to go to as long as you pass it. Funny thing is people are asking me “well what happens if you give your two weeks and fail?” Well if I fail that’ll be my own stupidity as well then I guess I’d be screwed but I’m really not worried.

The recruiter because he knows my Boss now, and of course with someone with my experience they want me on he’s willing to work around my schedule. I told him I wanted to give my company two weeks proper notice. So next week he’s going to email me with other training dates which then I’ll be able to choose from. I haven’t hidden the fact that I’ve looked and I’m not one of those people who’s going to fear saying I’m looking. It truly shouldn’t be a shocker given the fact I’ve stressed how miserable I am about the change they made WITHOUT the explanation. (when that’s all they needed to give me and the other girl and I’m sure we would have then been fine about the switch.) I’m also sure my boss will find out because well The guy who interviewed me knows him from working and contracting out the other security company.

Last week I was fully warned that I was going to switch over buildings. They did their best to get our IT guy to get me the internet up and running unfortunately some idiot contractors who didn’t know what they were doing drilled a hole in the concrete and right through some wires causing the whole Security Desk to shut down as well as the escalators. I don’t know when that will be up and running and Yes, I am pissed to begin with about the move. Sure it’s because I’m good at my job, sure it’s because it’s best if I’m there but the reality is I DIDN’T WANT TO BE THERE! I had no choice in the say, and really if they had of just said the truth of WHY I was being switched to a building on my own, and have more work to do. Then just maybe I wouldn’t so pissed about it but I am.

I’m now that buildings friggen lap dog mean while I’m still getting the same crappy pay. I get it I can handle a stressful situation, I’m GOOD at my job, I have amazing customer service and lets face it the people in my building LOVE me and my boss knows it. The girl who is now in my spot, is rude, can’t tolerate stress and doesn’t have good customer service. But you know what?! THAT’S NOT MY PROBLEM! I didn’t hire her, now I’m being down graded to a smaller desk, with companies I don’t even like to begin with and not even a computer to use and I’m running around.. They through me in there today expecting me to know it all, mean while SHE had someone sit there with her for 3 hours to train her on my job which is nothing. So am I pissed? YES! am I done being pushed around?! YES. First they take away mine and her parking, now this? What next? Gonna put me on evenings now because you want to give someone else a shot on days? Nope…

So I applied to a contracted security to work in the hospital. I have an interview Wednesday and I’m a 110% sure I will get this job. Now I’m taking less pay, doing two days, and two nights and 4 days off. I hate 12 hour shifts, but I wanted into the hospital and the fact I’ve applied 18 times to become a protection officer and not once got a call back, it’s time to take a small step back just so I can move forward. I’m not going to move forward with my company and since they were so willing to take me out of my comfort zone, I’m willing to step out completely and go for something else. Who knows I may meet a hottie mchottie there. LOL.

The job starts July 23rd if I get it. I think it’s definitely time for a change! I got rid of ALL the toxic boys in my life hell I got rid of ALL of them and now its time to move on to bigger and better things! Especially since the hospital down south is opening up, more jobs will open up. I may not be around a lot since I don’t have the computer at work (well job one) I’m at job 2 right now writing this since it’s dead. I’m not one for writing at home. But BL’s please have your weigh in’s from now one before 5pm so I can write the blog sunday night at home for you guys!!!

Also I started dog walking for this guy! I made an extra 40 dollars to put towards savings this weekend! He hasn’t responded to my text so who knows maybe he doesn’t want me walking her any more. Her name is Chloe she is part German Shepard and Husky mix, she is a handful and this guy DEFINITELY didn’t do his research at all, I gave him tips on what to do and what he needs and he bought all of it the next day for me…but still. I texted him today and he usually responds but hasn’t this time? Who knows! She’s a cutie tho!

One more sleep until the (apparently) most exciting world event happens. The Calgary Stampede where in a week’s time pregnancy tests will be the most purchased product on the shelves and a request for AIDS testing will sky rocket. Never fail’s it the week for people from all around the world to come and be drunk careless and stupid for 24 hours for the 11 day event. So ladies and gentleman break out the cowboy boots and hats to be a wannabe cowboy/girl for a week and when it’s all said and done, throw the stuff back in the closet to collect dust until next year.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day because it’s the Parade and people will be here bright and early (6ish) like I am (because I work) settling down and trying to get the best seat in the house to watch…right at the end of the curb on the sidewalk.

My workout was FABULOUS yesterday; I discovered my cure for when I have to run on the treadmill, do it in front of a mirror so I can admire my beautiful self while I’m running and dripping sweat. I’d say I’m kidding but I’m really not, staring at myself gives me the motivation to continue while I listen to certain songs and my gym mirror makes me look good. I should find out which mirror that is and get it for my place haha. My shoulders and arms hurt but not as bad as they did last night.

So I just got bad news, I got shafted to the other building that our company owns because the girl over there is incompetent so now I get to suffer. I don’t get a raise, and I’ll be taking on more responsibility I don’t get anything…Maybe they’re planning on firing me and that’s why they’re doing what they’re doing. Seem to be the year where they want to make the two 6am staff girls unhappy… Parking taken away and now this, of course my boss doesn’t see it as a bad thing, but why would he.

I work job number 2 today. I’m going to try and get in an 8 minute run on the treadmill after work (since we have one there. I wondering if I’m allowed to us it?) I was at 7 minutes yesterday so every day I’m going to keep going up one minute..I need to create a circuit training for my Tuesdays and Thursdays and I’ll do weights Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. Maybe I’ll do circuit trainings outside at a park on those days…To switch things up. Anyone have any ideas for Circuit training ideas?!

Well it might be a while before I blog again since I’m going to the other side next week. They don’t have the internet and I’m not one for being on the computer while I’m at home..but I’ll keep you guys posted as much as I can, especially Sundays…Weigh in days.

Remember girls who have been eliminated…This week is the week to get your spot back! Lets get those pounds off! Rest of the BL member’s you are to still weigh in Sunday because I want to see that the Red Team defeats the Blue Team yet again, lets go girls! Also no Eliminations are being does this week. But that doesn’t mean you don’t step up your game, it could still save you if you hit a tie on an elimination day!

I went to the gym yesterday for 30 minutes! I meant to go longer to get some weight training in, but I decided after my warm up of 6 minutes of jogging and 5 minutes of walk I was going to do push up’s…36 of them I did. Not in row, 3 sets of 12…with a few seconds break in between. 24 boy pushups and the last 12 girl pushups…My arms were jello. I couldn’t lift another thing after that…so did a minute and thirty seconds of jump rope and 10 minutes on the elliptical. My arms were still shaky 2 hours later..My shoulders hurt today…(note to self: do pushups last!)

Every day I’m writing a small accomplishment I’ve done to appreciate the small things in life. I feel so many people will say things to try and bring you down and generally I’m a happy person and people hate that. So they will judge me and say stuff to try and hurt me.

Example of rudeness from someone yesterday; I was making a day pass for someone speaking with security from the other company on the phone. He was telling me how theirs this exam you can do after being in security for 5 years. I was telling him how I’ve done security for 5 years and this guy who I was making a card for says to me. “I know this isn’t any of my business but why would you waste your life doing this job for 5 years? Are you planning on going back to school and if so when? Because you’re young this job is for people fresh off the boat or old…and I hope you know you have wasted 5 years of your life…”

I couldn’t believe it, what if I ACTUALLY like my job?! I don’t understand how someone who knows nothing about me what I’m doing with my life outside of this place can honestly make a judgmental comment and shake his head at my life and do what he can to make me feel like shit about it? I’d like to kick him in the balls. No one within his security department appreciated that comment either. (I’m very close with that security team) I wouldn’t be surprised if he had a rough day today with his access and getting anywhere. ;). I guess because as a security we’re all uneducated and a waste of space…Just remember when you need something it takes quite some time for us to have to get to you…because we’re all dumb and incompetent. (Apparently). Yet some over paid asshole can’t even remember to bring someone as small as his access card in…two days in a row.

I know I shouldn’t let it bother, and it truly only does because I do in fact have a problem with what I’m doing right now and I don’t believe I wasted 5 years of my life because I LOVED working in the hospital and at the Toronto Zoo doing security because one the experience and two I got to pet a Cheetah!!! But that doesn’t mean someone should put me down and make me feel like shit because of my certain life choices…