Find Your Happy

March 20, 2015

I received some disappointing news yesterday. The kind that makes you think “what now”. The kind of news that makes you ask “what’s the point”. I cried all the way home. I walked in the house with washed out mascara face and red, swollen eyes and went straight to my room, put on my nightgown, and crawled into bed to wallow in self-pity.

James came in to check on me. He crawled in bed with me and snuggled up close. “What’s wrong?”

“I’m just sad.”

He gave me a hug and crawled out of the bed. “Feel better Momma.”

“I’m just sad. It’s okay.”

“No.”

“What?” I was confused by his no.

“No it’s not okay.”

“Why not?”

“Because you know everything is going to be alright. So you need to just try to be happy.”

“I’m not sure I know how to do that.”

He gave me a serious look. “You just reach down inside yourself and find your happy and bring it out.”

“What if I can’t find it?”

“You will.” He smiled and walked out of the room.

He’s right. I know I will find my happy. In that moment everything seemed hopeless. I felt like my life had hit a huge dead end with no way to turn around. That was the spot I would have to live in forever. Everything I had worked for up to that point was pointless.

Deep in my heart I know that isn’t true. I know that God has a bigger plan for my life that I can’t see. That has been proven to me over and over. But sometimes when you are in the midst of feeling sorry for yourself that is hard to remember. Sometimes the advice you give everyone else going through something hard seems trite when you need to apply it to yourself. Sometimes you need a six year old to remind you that the happy is waiting for you.

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I am so sorry to hear you were (are) disappointed. You have so many gifts, and you work so hard, and I know you will find that happy again. I love that James was there, bringing a little bit of light, and a reminder that the happy is inside and will come out again.angela recently posted…Dishwasher triumphs and other musings

Love this Jennifer. So sorry you are going through a disappointing time. Things have been a bit frustrating for me as well on the career front. But clearly you are doing a brilliant job raising your little guy. You’ve already given him some important life skills.Kerry recently posted…When Women Leaders Rise Above the “Mean Girl” Antics

Thanks Kerry. Teaching my kids really is the most important thing, and I do know way down deep that if I hold on something more amazing than I imagined will happen.Jennifer recently posted…Ever After High Party on a Budget

I’m so sorry you weren’t feeling happy. And I totally relate to being in that moment when all the advice you give everyone else doesn’t work AND having a sweet child remind you it’s going to be alright. Sending love and hugs to you.Angela recently posted…Dreams and Stages and Listen To Your Mother

What a wise, wise little man. Love. I am sorry for your stinky news. I hope absolute joy and happiness unexpectedly come out of what you thought was a horrible situation.Kat recently posted…The Big One

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Jennifer is a wife and working mom of two. She spends her days working as an auditor, and her nights writing about life and parenting. The two favorite compliments she has received about her writing is that it is honest and real, but she delivers it all with a sass and grace indicative of her down-home Texas style. Read More…