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Post by RadioKnife on Jul 6, 2018 16:37:38 GMT -5

Heya friends, it's been some time. I'm super glad to be with you all! I have been keeping up with cultivation and magickal and physical practices in my own time and have made a lot of progress having put my mind to it. Looking forward to sharing my insights and experiences! I'll post a log detailing what my daily practice looks like later.... WHAT'S UP PEOPLE ?!?!?!

Post by solency on Jul 6, 2018 18:32:38 GMT -5

Post by RadioKnife on Jul 6, 2018 19:08:15 GMT -5

Here's what I did today, I only plan to go in depth to this level the first time I explain something I do, one to recieve guidance from people who are more advanced, and two for newer people wanting to get new ideas, and also learn from my mistakes if any. In the end, I'm doing this for myself. Otherwise it'll be a more straightforward log, I know a couple people found use in my LMP log's in depth descriptions and insights before.

7/6:

First I get into Alpha state with meditation and stillness. I use the rainbow celestial ball above my head and pull the full spectrum white light down the right side of my body, then up through the left, 3 times. Doing this I intend to connect with my most accomplished in cultivating self, and basically to program my aura for balance and protection from draining influences without consent.

I stretched and stretched and now can do Full lotus indefinitely, at least if I switch legs every once and awhile, yay! So I start with a bit of technique #1 until I felt warmed up with some flux. Then, I layered on the invokation of the elements to pack in the area of my LDT. Followed by drawing Hexagram breaths around the LDT, this gets me in the zone and things tingling. After I'm all set up, I do Gongzilla and simultaneously more elemental packing until I hit the 1 hour mark.

Goetian Spirits:At this point I'm super full of flux (Don't want them to pay for my gas money) and I bring up the custom sigil image for the new Goetia I planned to meet onto the TV that I cultivate in front of. I do some fire breaths and pentagram breaths with yi along the false and true 3rd eye to help with sight. Today, deciding to work with my 17th Goetian, Sallos (Link = example sigil wallpaper thing). I've been experimenting matching my summoning with the planetary day and hours too if it works for me. The Duquette Illustrated Goetia book mentions this entity being a Venus, so I summoned it during Venus day/hour. I drew their sigil a few times with shen, seeing it in my mind and willfully vibrating their name/sigil and also applying it to the physical sigil image.

Soon I received mental confirmation they were there, bringing a very gentle feeling to them. In a formal fashion I do meeting a new spirit I introduced myself and told them of my goals and what I'm all about. The way I connect and get to know Goetias besides conversation is to give the space to co-create / scry a visualized dream world in my head together. I have the flux to lightly see it visually. We played on a golden holographic dunes with strange pillars of liquid fire around the edges, they were a male and female combining and splitting and in my open eyes around my room took the form of multiple ghostly little action figure sized people. A 5 pointed Venusian energy was playing about near the "top" of things. We had some personal conversation based on things I had to ask about them and myself, which I appreciated.

I will usually feel this certain vibrational throb in the LDT working with the goetia at this point, and cultivate and lightly co-create magickally with them to music I think they will enjoy based on their personality they chose to share with me. I can get really into things at this point, feeling strong (to me at this point) flows within my body, taking me along. Lighting up my legs and arms first on the right then very shortly after the left. They know my intention of not vampyrizing them nor me them, I'm not asking them of anything but "tuning to their tuning fork", building an authentic etheric resonance with them. Its actually really fun to me! I'm building meaningful relationships ,at least I think so, in the godly neighborhood- this attitude has led me to lots of positive and unique experiences with them. I ching seems to confirm it's all going well.

Finally, I close with Stillness = to about 1/2 to 2/3's the time I spent cultivating. I plan to make it 1:1 but not until after I've cycled the rest of goetia.

I do all this^ 2 maybe 3 times a day, though not lately as I've been on vacation. Currently looking into others logs for suggestions on more techniques to expand my practice with. Feel like my LDT and stillness breath could be developed further.

Post by Deleted on Jul 6, 2018 21:04:09 GMT -5

Post by RadioKnife on Jul 6, 2018 23:08:05 GMT -5

Thanks SilverEye and Solency!

7/6

Cultivated for an hour, Tech 1/Gongzilla/LDTmagick as described above and summoned Belial for the group summons tonight. A couple huge waves of energy lit up my right side, more than I had ever felt summoning a goetia. Been back one day and already starting the weird shit.

Cultivated another 30 minutes after resonating with Belial. Stillness for 1 hour.

Post by forwards on Jul 7, 2018 6:19:19 GMT -5

Holy hell... you love feeding goetia eh? jing feast for them doing this stuff. Every time you bring them to you they feed bro. That's why you're getting lit up so much, your body isnt balancing energy from low jing

You don't want to add more. Take away. Focus on building jing and techs to develop ldt

Post by Deleted on Jul 7, 2018 9:27:35 GMT -5

Holy hell... you love feeding goetia eh? jing feast for them doing this stuff. Every time you bring them to you they feed bro. That's why you're getting lit up so much, your body isnt balancing energy from low jing

You don't want to add more. Take away. Focus on building jing and techs to develop ldt

So one must tread lightly doing this until you build enough jing and develop ldt. I was wondering why I was feeling compelled do do the ritual w/ Belial again. Perhaps I'll hold off. Thank you for your insight.

Post by forwards on Jul 7, 2018 9:57:31 GMT -5

Holy hell... you love feeding goetia eh? jing feast for them doing this stuff. Every time you bring them to you they feed bro. That's why you're getting lit up so much, your body isnt balancing energy from low jing

You don't want to add more. Take away. Focus on building jing and techs to develop ldt

So one must tread lightly doing this until you build enough jing and develop ldt. I was wondering why I was feeling compelled do do the ritual w/ Belial again. Perhaps I'll hold off. Thank you for your insight.

Post by Deleted on Jul 7, 2018 10:02:13 GMT -5

So one must tread lightly doing this until you build enough jing and develop ldt. I was wondering why I was feeling compelled do do the ritual w/ Belial again. Perhaps I'll hold off. Thank you for your insight.

While sotg has the video up I'd say do it. Free lunch here lol

Hehe...ok good 'cause I was a little disappointed with the prospect of not attempting again! Thanks man

Post by RadioKnife on Jul 7, 2018 11:00:11 GMT -5

Hmm, interesting. I figured the trade off of building an etheric resonance would be a little bit of feeding, thats why I cultivate for an hour before even thinking about them. I dont mind sharing lunch with someone I'm building a relationship with but I don't want to be giving my credit card either. Why would a hot shot big god want to work with someone like me for free? One of my first clear, energetically known intentions (protections) towards them is not to have a vampyristic one sided relationship going either way between us, and I dont ask them of anything, let them invoke inside me or directly to my life force, or spend too much time focused on them. I literally say if they wanna share the residual energies and stick around thats cool but don't start leeching on to me.

When I say lit up I mean from me cultivating for an hour, being from the cultivation itself before I even summon them and then even more so after I summon them and cultivate for another half hour. Which is something I definitelty see as progress as it took practice to get to that point. The exceptions being with belial yesterday and paimon once where it was clear the instant they appeared I was almost feeling like an energy transmission on the right, but still I did not think my jing would be low at those points.

What I thought was being lit up was a sign the ldt was flowing and warmed enough to flow up into the upper body, did not mean to equate that with the goetia. I feel like I access stronger LDT feelings better and faster than ever and have a very positive jing lifestyle. Like even right now, not having cultivated for hours, i feel the ldt and my bass circuitry in my body on a low buzz. So do you still stand that this approach not in my best interests? forwards

Post by forwards on Jul 7, 2018 11:34:09 GMT -5

Hmm, interesting. I figured the trade off of building an etheric resonance would be a little bit of feeding, thats why I cultivate for an hour before even thinking about them. I dont mind sharing lunch with someone I'm building a relationship with but I don't want to be giving my credit card either. One of my first clear, energetically known intentions (protections) towards them is not to have a vampyristic one sided relationship going either way between us, and I dont ask them of anything, let them invoke inside me or directly to my life force, or spend too much time focused on them. I literally say if they wanna share the residual energies and stick around thats cool but don't start leeching on to me.

When I say lit up I mean from me cultivating for an hour, being from the cultivation itself before I even summon them and then even more so after I summon them and cultivate for another half hour. Which is something I definitelty see as progress as it took practice to get to that point. The exceptions being with belial yesterday and paimon once where it was clear the instant they appeared I was almost feeling like an energy transmission on the right, but still I did not think my jing would be low at those points.

What I thought was being lit up was a sign the ldt was flowing and warmed enough to flow up into the upper body, did not mean to equate that with the goetia. I feel like I access stronger LDT feelings better and faster than ever and have a very positive jing lifestyle. Like even right now, not having cultivated for hours, i feel the ldt and my bass circuitry in my body on a low buzz. So do you still stand that this approach not in my best interests? forwards

Now I'm confused. Most of your post is about goetia and you say you do it 2 or 3 times a day.

Any contact or words for it is contact dude

You edited the post I quoted so I have to read this now lol. Will respond in a bit

Hey @ysemoh ! I feel like I've seen that picture on a discord, you use that? I just checked your log out, super cool stuff you've gone through lately, love the organization you put your daily logs in. Can't wait to see whats in store for you and I myself.

7/7:

I'm taking a chill pilland putting the goetia on hold to see what things are like now if I store up some reserves.

I guess there is some truth to "a Demon a day keeps the Golden Pill away"

Cultivation: Anyway so I did my usual- Full Lotus, warm up of Tech 1# for a couple minutes, Jindan Elemental packing, and then into Gongzilla for awhile. This time soon into it I got the semi-uncommon supercool energy emanating strongly around the huiyin and the LDT, it felt very COOL in both senses of the word, it felt natural. The area below qihai and above the unmentionable place had a distinct coolness, going up the front of my body (Jen mo I believe), I could almost feel the coolness hovering my hand off my body. It lasted for about 10 minutes of cultivation and then it built up to its usual fluxy warmth. All else seemed usual

Time: 1 hour

Stillness: 30 minutes. My ever-stretching legs have allowed me to start using Full Lotus in my Stillness as well. The feel of doing this is superior to other positions for sure.

Ennead

Today's cultivation was the 72nd hour and 3rd day since I started my second round of cultivating around cutouts I made for the Egyptian Ennead God forms. The first one I was chosen by was Shu, who I flooded my subconscious with research and imagery of and cultivated around it for another 3 days leading to me assuming his god form after a cultivation. I suppose it worked charging and buzzing my body in a slightly different way than other practices has.

Today I did my second drawing for which one had picked me, this time being Set who apparently isn't supposed to be mixed up with other entities attached to the idea of Set or Shaitan or Satan.

So I'm going to do a bunch of research with him, surround myself with a bit of imagery and make him my phone background. Can't wait to see what he's all about so I can assume his form in 3 days.

Post by RadioKnife on Jul 8, 2018 1:20:57 GMT -5

Sure am Ysemoh, the whole Magick side is very fun and interesting to me, as much as the whole "building the energy body" and discovering myself portions, I say they should go hand in hand

7/8

Ennead:

Researched as much as I could about the appropriate Set in the Ennead, taking notes on the details of the Set I want to capture in my mind. Printed and cut out a Set card and made a picture of them my phone background. Going to do more research over the next few days, sleep with their printout under my pillow, etc.

Used an app on my phone "SkyView", lets me gyroscopically locate celestial bodies in relation to my exact location, to find the general direction of the sun, being night and it behind the ground. I begin to face this direction and connect my LDT to the astral sun I intendingly see in my head.

30+ mins I did technique #2 connecting to the sun with a tight cord for resonance and energy exchange, reeling its energy in constantly to my LDT. On in breath pulling the sun, my astral body grows larger and larger on Earth, in space, eventually bigger than the sun swallowing within my LDT and locking it into place. I still grow even larger reaching to nearby space / stars around our solar system, intending to pull any energies I can my way especially down though my upper body and toward my black hole of an LDT. At the full breath I sit there pulling in energy toward me and feeling the sun and cosmic energies in my LDT.

When my breath is ready to release, I start to shrink, the sun getting bigger and bigger, out my LDT but still tethered to and pulling energy toward me, ending with me back on Earth in my room at the end of breath. During this I make sure I'm still pulling energy from the Earth below me anchored through the huiyin. Repeat every breath.

I start to layer and mix in the other techniques to basically do a Cosmic sized Gongzilla and still pulling and packing and "seeing" the elements on my elemental LDT.

Then dialed the amount of layering back more and more, just doing Gongzilla and a little bit of elemental stuffs, stopping at 1 Hour 10 minute mark.

Post by RadioKnife on Jul 8, 2018 17:28:31 GMT -5

7/8

Today I went out in the sun to do my other variation of Technique #2. The one I spoke of last night was the one I do at night or indoors when I don't have direct access to the sun. This one I do have direct access to the sun, absorbing it into my skin and body receiving many of the benefits of sunlight, which I will go into in the next post I make. I even brought my little Set to tan with me!

Technique #2 (Day):

For 40 minutes today, I lay out in the sun, cycling 10 minutes front, 10 minutes on back, repeat. I lay with as much surface area of exposed skin as legally allowed in a public pool. I feel the heat* (->energy) of the sun on my body, and focus on the area near the Lower Dantain. From my LDT, I shoot out an astral tentacle cord with a hand on the end towards the sun, "grabbing" with the hand to signify I'm locked on to the celestial body. I quite "feel" it like a real psychic arm, I want this to be as "real" as possible.Then, through the astral arm I pull the sun energy inward counter clockwise toward my LDT, and begin filling the LDT with the bright sunshine, slowly turning my LDT into a personal inner sun as well. I try to keep this energy exchane flowing in this manner.

Now, the rest is like how I described in the other version of my technique #2. On the in breath, I grow larger and larger, earth on my back getting smaller and smaller, until I feel the size I need to swallow the sun. When I am, I use that hand tentaccle from my qihai to pull us together, the sun coming into my LDT area. This feels really nice in real sunlight as the heat from the sun makes this feel super real, like I have a blazing sun in my lower abdomen. I pull it to the LDT imagining the sun IS my ldt, but still I grow larger and larger on this in breath so that the sun shrinks and I reach towards neighboring solar systems and celestial waves. nearing the extent of the in-breath, I pull in the cosmic energies from my feet and upper body and all directions into the the lower dantain until I cant hold this breath any longer, then I begin to exhale, shrinking. When the sun gets big enough, I release it from the dantain and "come back" to me physical body, all while still pulling solar energy in the cord I'm connected to with it.

I also connect the solar energies across my whole body / weiqi / aura as well. I imagine as I absorb this sunlight, my body is bright and luminous as the surface of the sun, , with my brightest core being in my center, the LDT.

Here's a picture of my last hour haha.

I've experimented with the other planets and moon too, but mostly focusing on the sun for now.

Cultivation:

After returning I took some caffeine, did stillness and my usual warmups. Tech #1, Elemental packing, Gongzilla for an hour with Set.

Then 40 minutes stillness.

Up Next

My next posts will be about external alchemy and internal magickal layering onto the techniques and my theories on what I'm doing with that.

Post by abdou on Jul 8, 2018 19:59:36 GMT -5

Post by RadioKnife on Jul 10, 2018 1:54:29 GMT -5

Heya abdou Yeah dude Im working with my second Ennead atm. I've been cultivating for a few months outside of officially having a log and stuff, and from the original LMP post SOTG suggested having at least 5 Goetia summons. I'm on like 18 Goetias so far with great results so decided hey why not the Ennead. Shu was my first lol, now I'm almost all Set for my next one xP!

7/9 (Early Am):

Cultivation: Performed Tech #1, Elemental packing, Gongzilla. This time with the elemental packing, I did the preparation technique for the group ritual with each element and all together multiple times. I will go into this in a second. With Set card. 1 Hour

Stillness: 35-40 minutes

Heaven Vs Earth

Today I needed to take some time to take care of my earthly self and life. I notice the more I get into this kind of stuff, my heavenly life starts to consume me, that's not really wholesome, and I've seen the effects of people going crazy from falling too into the spiritual side of things, I refuse to fall down the same path. So I took the majority of the day to spend time relaxing with my more Earthy friends and family. This is very healing on multiple layers for me and reminds me why I'm doing this, not just for ME but all of me, even the me that's not all into this. If you catch what I man. I think I will write a bigger post on this because I have pondered this duality of Heavenly life and Earthly Life and how they mix and how they don't mix, how to honor both without either corrupting the other.

7/9 (Tonight):

Ennead: Did more research and notes into Set, alternate "Set v Osiris v Horus" stories, more into his relationships with the other Enneads, and what Set might mean as a metaphysical metaphor. Cultivated with my Set image.

Cultivation: Technique 1 for a bit. I tried alternate versions of technique 1 other than the one I always do, like the really fast pump one. I did more Elemental packing and Group ritual Electroball thing more in depth than before, then I did my magickal gongzilla along with the elemental packing for the rest of the hour. Elements and alchemy are becoming a stronger theme to me, here it's time I explain myself and my ideas.

Post by RadioKnife on Jul 10, 2018 1:56:39 GMT -5

Magical Alchemy to Fractal Enlightenment Part 1

Intro: First I wanted to explain some of the prologue bringing me to this magickal working. I was into Elemental magickal theory for a couple years before I got into neidan and lmp stuff. I find this subject and doing your own research into the elements and how they relate to your life and consciousness to be something very useful if you want to understand the layers to reality, your personal life, and how they work into each other. I was introduced through Franz Bardon's Initiation into Hermetics, a book which I still think is good today to at least get introduced to the Elements and eventually start grasping them for your own needs. The techniques in there are great imagination fuel and magickal will-power training. I think it meshes well with Mercury Blood Fire Honey and Loneman pai to have on the side.

JinDan Elemental Sorcery: I wanted to link things from LMP, but for now it's closed off. So instead, reference page 19383 of the Loneman Pai Bible if you have it. If not, hopefully later you will be able to access this link on JinDan Elemental Sorcery, which is an important crux to my current elemental experimentation. But to save you the trouble of wondering, I'll explain the basic technique. The first thing to know is your cardinal directions and the element associated. This is

East = Air = Yellow

South = Fire = Red

West = Water = Blue

North = Earth = Terracotta

(I used to use black+green+brown for Earth, but SOTG is proposing we use Terracotta for the group ritual, so I am using this color now.)

Imagine at your core is "you", the rose at center of the compass. The quadrants surrounding this rose belong to the respective element.

Use a compass to find these directions, this will come in handy for later if you are planning to get into deeper kinds of magick. I believe the Enochian paradigm uses this same set up as well. So, yeah, this is really important to get down if you have little to no magickal knowledge.

Now the actual technique: I personally like to visualization draw the elemental symbol in the direction, then activate it with mental or vocalized sound effects of the represented element, I'll walk you through it.

Start with East if you wish.

-I look to the East, the quadrant tinged yellow. I draw/visualize an Air triangle+line. I see it in my mind, then wave my hand UP like I'm pulling a huge gust of wind upward starting constant up flow, it fills the triangle with a bright cyclone of wind. Hear and feel the element, the wind and its lightness and flowing. I then funnel an air current of this air element around my front coming into my LDT in from its right side. I fill the LDT with air, visualizing the air triangle on the LDT as a tennis ball sized sphere of pure Air taking its place here, just a ball of magickal spinning air. (visual)

-I look to the South, the quadrant tinged red. I draw/visualize the Fire triangle. I see it in my mind, then wave my hand UP like I'm erupting a volcano of light liquid fire in a constant flow of flames. The triangle is bright red flames. Hear and feel its raging heat. I then take this flaming quadrant and funnel fire to the center of my body and light up my Mingmen with a fire triangle there too. From here, feel the heat, and imagine a flamethrower is shooting a clockwise stream of fire downwards towards the ldt, filling up another ball over the air ball with fire element. Really pack this in there until you have ball of fire.

-I look to the West, the quadrant tinged blue. I draw/visualize the Water triangle. I see it in my mind, then wave my hand DOWN like I'm pulling down a waterfall of cool liquid water in a constant flow. The triangle fills with a bright blue liquid. Hear and feel the calm cool rush of water. I then take this spashing quadrant and give the water a funnel to flow itself into the left side of my LDT, filling (with water triangle visualized over it) like liquid and forming yet another elemental ball of cool water imposed over the other elemental balls. Sufficiently pack this until you have a ball of water.

-I look to the North, the quadrant tinged Terracotta. I draw/visualize the Earth triangle+line. I see it in my mind, then wave my hand DOWN like I'm causing an avalanche of heavy boulders and rocks to tumble from the heavens. The triangle is dense, like stones churning and rumbling together. Hear and feel its density and weight. I then direct this avalanche into a tunnel going under my body, and then shooting up like a geyser of rocks filling upward into the LDT, again with earth triangle visualized over it.Really pack these stones in compressing them together to form a dense and heavy, a very real and solid feeling LDT. Earth is connected with the physical, the more earthy the LDT the more "formed it is" the more you have the "Philosophers STONE" which will still-fully ground you to this spherical "earth" as you climb your self to heavenly heights.

-Now, you have this ball on 4 levels simultaneously. This is good chance to get some multitasking visualization practice. Try and see them there all at once or create something new with all the necessary colors / visual anchors to signify it's all of the elements at once. Here are a few examples to get your imagination going OneTwoThreeFour. Try to refresh these visualizations throughout your cultivation practice, make them real, try to let them stay around.

-Crown Jewel: Now that you have all these elements imposed over your LDT, what I like to do to solidify my intent of all the elements being together is to do Hexagram breaths over the LDT, with the LDT in the center. Ever notice what happens when you cross a water triangle over a fire triangle? You get a hexagram. This is not a coincidence, screw this "David" dude, this ain't his mofo'in star. The hexagram contains connections with the Planets as well, just look on the Tree of Life, Tipareth, the shapes around it. The center is the sun, we are our own stars, our core, you guessed it, the LDT. We are all SUNS of the gods.

This hexagram junk is important for the next step of Magickal Neidan which I'm about to go into tomorrow when I have time. You should already be familiar with the water and fire triangles and how they play a part in gongzilla. It may be more like pyramids, but for now, triangular shapes will do.

I breath/draw the hexagram multiple times over the LDT in golden light. Golden because I want the golden pill, the Jindan, the golden elixer, the key to immortality (no I'm not on some insane synonymously rambling rant, I'm trying to get us google keyword hits lol!).

This hexagram will be an anchor connecting with what to do in the next part.

That's it for now: I have a very kind bed who I am neglecting. This is only part one of my magickal alchemical process I am working to mentally put together, the next is how I incorporate magick with SOTG's techniques like gongzilla with all of that, and sum up how I'm doing these rituals repetitively to reach a potential fractal enlightenment across time. Maybe I'm crazy, maybe I'm not. We will see, but it sure doesn't hurt to put in the imagination, visualization, and astral magick practice. Tell me what you think!

Post by RadioKnife on Jul 12, 2018 1:38:05 GMT -5

7/10

Ennead: Did one last study on Set. Just because, wrote "I am Set" Set being in his hieroglyphics.

Cultivated for 1 hour really feeling a build up of flux. Got into a trance and assumed the form of Set with his clothes and form and staff, visually imagining as real as possible him/'me" and my relationships with the other Enneads, reenacting the Set v osiris story cutting him up a bunch of times and celebrating in maniacal satisfaction of now having the throne for my self. Reassuring my identiy, identifying with his titles "lord of the desert" etc not the other set related entities.

Let myself go to be overtaken by his character, also visually seeing and acting out various symbols and exploring concepts attached to him as him. Felt buzzed up and energized doing this, experiencing vivid visual flashes of images in my mind while at ecstatic peaks. I would say it was fun and a successful first Set. I guess I'll wait 3 days between these as I would Goetia.

7/11

Technique 2: Went out in the sun for 50 minutes and cultivated the suns energies. Focused mostly on the sun, but wanted to see about dipping more vividly and actively in the local star clusters and practice collecting them more lower abdomen. Then thought to go bigger to an arm of the galaxy, and naturally I thought it would then be cool to try and have the galaxy in my ldt a couple times towards the end. Felt a little sun sick and lightheaded shortly after but energized nicely for the next few hours, came home and did stillness for 20 minutes, wanting to do more but went to meditate on the elements and mudras instead.

Cultivation: A little later after that, I did an hour of cultivation. Tech 1 for a little while longer than usual. Then focused on the elements and got into a state where I could work with them and program the mudras. I dipped each mudra in the elemental quarter with all its traits active, driving the element as much as I could in those hand signs. Then after it was connected enough for me, I played with the mudras and willpower and elemental bubbles during my cultivation.

Stillness: 30

Research: Spent a good amount of time reading some winrar material, some LMPB search queues. I researched and noted the pages of new techniques, meridian stuff, healing I want to at some point try.

Breath work and LDT awareness: It is becoming more and more habit to live in my lower dantain area throughout the day. My breath is deep and even and leaves a deeper feeling of "no breath". It seems much easier to live in "no breath" mode as time goes on the more I aware myself into it. It feels good and calm to the thoughts and self to be in this state. Sometimes throughout the day I feel the ldt in a pleasing rumble. I know it can be deepened and I feel that is what will happen, as I continue what I'm doing.

Post by Deleted on Jul 13, 2018 3:28:14 GMT -5

Post by RadioKnife on Jul 14, 2018 16:53:00 GMT -5

Thanks a lot @ysemoh !!!

7/12 + 7/13

For a variety of reasons, some I wont say and some I'll explain, I could not cultivate. One was on and off thunderstorms. Instead, I opted for magickal training doing an hour or so each day working with the elements in various ways, manifesting within, feeling realness, mudras + cycling between elemental bodies from within, elemental orbs, manifesting outside myself and absorbing, applying to connections w/ others etc.

I replaced my usual visualization of the LDT with the Goetia Electric flaming blueglowing red and orange sparky mass. Not to draw lines to this, but my LDT seemed to be extra activated this session. Visualizations on the right hand also made my hand tingle and do weird things. Kept up this visualization as much as I could.

Overall my LDT this session had lots of heat and the rest of my body feeling buzzed, and I feel I'm making progress in its full activation.

I played with the Secret UV Flame technique and limiting/enhancing the flows of yin and yang from above and below, mixing into its final UV color which I drew into my heart and packed in and installed the UV flame. I beat the flame like another heartbeat, and let it flow through my whole body and aura. Did this process multiple times to drive it in there as a technique I want to continue for the future.

Post by RadioKnife on Jul 16, 2018 1:42:57 GMT -5

Cultivation: Tech 1, Elements, Gongzilla, Goetia Plasma LDT/handball, UV flame. Main focus being Tech 1 and gongzilla this time. If you didn't know I do lots of stuff with internalartsinfernal before, throughout, and after. 1 Hour.

Stillness: 40 mins

Going to summon a new Goetia tomorrow because it's been awhile since entity contact. I have had one in mind for awhile.

I keep writing about stuff that's been on my mind and then deleting it all. I don't feel right about sharing my self for now. I'll just have to find my own way through this. Thanks for reading my stuff though .

Post by Deleted on Jul 16, 2018 9:09:42 GMT -5

Write it down somewhere on your machine for you. I find writing things gets them out if my head so it can move on. You don’t have to share it, but from what you said it seems like getting it out of your head may be useful.

Post by quartz on Jul 16, 2018 10:09:34 GMT -5

Thank you for sharing your practice, I appreciate reading it and relate to the getting thoughts out by writing. I do that with a paper journal and even if I dont look at it, getting the thoughts out about the experience is beneficial

Post by Deleted on Jul 16, 2018 12:19:23 GMT -5

Cultivation: Tech 1, Elements, Gongzilla, Goetia Plasma LDT/handball, UV flame. Main focus being Tech 1 and gongzilla this time. If you didn't know I do lots of stuff with internalartsinfernal before, throughout, and after. 1 Hour.

Stillness: 40 mins

Going to summon a new Goetia tomorrow because it's been awhile since entity contact. I have had one in mind for awhile.

I keep writing about stuff that's been on my mind and then deleting it all. I don't feel right about sharing my self for now. I'll just have to find my own way through this. Thanks for reading my stuff though .

Post by RadioKnife on Jul 16, 2018 21:04:09 GMT -5

Cultivation: I focused less on the mental visualized and magickal side of things and more on refining the mechanical technique and posture side of my cultivation and breath work today. Rewatching the Tech 1 video and trying to refine my Tech 1 a bit. Gongzilla. Blue Goetia ball.

In general I felt very charged today especially after the first 40 minutes. I decided I would do something I read SOTG suggested once to just get up in the middle of practice and walk around, come back and see how long it takes to charge back to where to where you were. I went to talk to some family for a bit and came back, and I felt back in the run of things in like 10-15 minutes.

Cultivated like 20 minutes again before deciding to do a summoning of Orias.

Edit

Decided to keep a more detailed goetia experience log in a seperate notebook from this log, its just too long.

Want to revisit each technique and focus all I learned into refining them better, starting with #1

Dreams, Dying, and Self

My dreams at night or in naps have taken on a very realistic and elaborate quality to them. I've had no choice but to put some time to understand some uncomfortable interpretations of my self and the unconscious scenarios that play out. After a bit of examination and resolve, I've been putting the effort to grow beyond the things about myself the dreams have helped make clear. So my emotions and thoughts have been all around, but in the spirit of healing transformation I believe.

On a slightly related note, the initial burst of excitement joining back here is waning. I'm sorry if I ever came off weird or a spazz, I know better than anyone my mind wants to be way ahead of itself than it needs to be. This place means a lot to me in reaching my dreams, and I've just been wanting to find my place in the group.

I have been learning a lot and am enjoying easing my way into the calming, still space between thoughts instead of succumbing to them. Taking things slow and just breathing and being and doing. It's something I seem to keep relearning in different ways, and because of it I'm growing a level of solace in my self.

Idk, I just want to say thank you for letting me be here and share this space with you all.