#3 We don’t understand where this grief is coming from or even how to stop it.

Therapy sometimes goes too far in perpetuating our grief, (getting

us to feel sorry for ourselves, which can lead to depression)

God tells us to “be of good cheer” but sometimes, we can’t. We

are sad. We need to cry. It’s called grieving.

King David danced, but he also wept about sin and disappointment.

Jeremiah wept over the sins of God’s people.

Jonah got depressed because God did not destroy Ninevah after he

delivered a word that it would be destroyed. Job got depressed too.

I believe part of soul-healing is talking about it. Whether you talk to God about it, or someone else. Ministers like TD Jakes talk about their

soul being torn, ripped apart, dreams going out the window, and feeling

like God didn’t care (for awhile) about their pain. This is why people love

to read their stories. They can relate.

We need teachers and we need prophets, but we need pastors too.

Pastors tend to be nurturing people. They love and tend to the sheep.

If they are not this way, perhaps they should not have been pastors.

But in the world of men, There are not any paying postions for a lot

of the other ministries (which is sad). They are forced to ask for money

continually, because nobody offers them a home, or a paycheck.

Those people have dreams too (you see) And it’s a heart to reach the

lost, the hurting, the broken, and the dying. They can’t get there without

someone’s help. I just put one of my dreams on the Altar, because unless

God sends a way to provide for it, I just can’t do it anymore.

It’s called “Authoring books” to reach the hurting. I can’t afford what it costs anymore, so I have to stop. My paychecks are like .01 (last quarter) for this endeavor. I’ve been doing it for 7 years now, and it pays nothing. And it’s okay but it still hurts to have dreams come to an end. I have to stop now. Until God provides for it. If he doesn’t, oh well! I will still love him just the same.

And no I don’t want sympathy- but I have some grief right now. God will

surely bring me out of it too. He always does! He is faithful! I have faced many disappointments in my life. And I will live through this one, too.

As a minister and a child of God I find that “letting go” is one of the most

painful things I have ever experienced. Letting go of what you know is bad

is hard, but letting go of something you thought was good is even harder.

I am reminded of the following scripture in regardes to self-preservation.

When you are done grieving, consider putting it all in God’s hands.

We really are better off to put our lives in the Lord’s hands and say “Thy will

be done, thy kingdom come, on earth, as it is in heaven.” Amen.

Today is November 1. Happy Author’s day. I just layed my 7 year Journey

of writing books at the Lord’s feet.

Matthew 16:25 For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake, will find it. Peace out (for now) Laura Grace

I posted a video on You Tube today. It’s 10 minutes long, and it’s on the subject of Divorce. AND if you visit Grace to the Rescue, my site on FB you can find it, it’s the last thing I posted there, just today!

There’s a person I”ve been praying for, for several years now, and I just found out about the extent of abuse she’s been going through for years! IT was love that lifted her. God’s love, God’s unconditional love (and Mercy) Is what reached her heart. Not Scolding, not being told how much God hates divorce, and not a big lecture on how she married him so just stay put, and take it some more.

I fail to understand how so many Christians can reach out to drug addicts, homeless people, go overseas and minister to the masses over there, but fail to see a hurting person right in front of their eyes, that needs them desperately.

I have forgiven a lot of people who wouldn’t listen to me, who didn’t care. God showed me some of them were not in his will, I forgave them anyway. I prayed for them. But, I will tell you something, I’m not going to BE Like them! Jesus said not to! He said don’t be like those who sit in their seats in their self righteous ways.

Guess what? Even back then, the church (Temple) was running the show. Jesus did not preach there not for long! Why? They threw him out! SO, if you do go to church, find one that preaches freedom, restoration, healing, and love! K? And if you can’t find one like that, don’t go! That’s my advice if you really want to know Jesus. He is real, he longs to help you! go watch my video if you have time.

This past weekend, I was suffering a bit of a storm, as I have many times in the past. This friend of mine told me about a book, after I told her I feel insecure at times, and I began to read it. No, I didn’t write it, and that’s just fine!

I have benefited many times from the words of Authors, who chose to write down their thoughts. Well, this book is about insecurity, and I was shocked to see myself already, in some of it’s pages. I had a busy week, I would say extremely busy, and I had some concerns really weighing on my heart, things people asked me to pray about.

PLEASE do not get me wrong, I am thankful for my abundant life, people who TRUST ME With their prayer requests, friends who want to see me, family who likes to see me too.

I love being a servant of God and I love doing for others, but sometimes I get tired. When I get tired, I don’t think straight. Jesus himself, SON OF GOD, stumbled under the weight of the cross, and needed some help. Profound, isn’t it? I dare say he could have demonstrated supernatural strength to carry it, but he fell under it, as an example to use of how it will be, sometimes.

With that said, when we are tired, the devil often will send emotional storms. I am going to really step out and say this, that I also believe people who deny having emotions, often will have more physical manifestations of the problem. When we are being buffeted, tossed, falsely accused, careless words are spoken, AND they are tired, it’s a bad mix.

OH I used a strange word I know, “Buffet” NOT a buffet like a meal, no ………Anyway, Like my husband said, there are times he wants to go do something, he’s excited about it, and it will start to rain, and the wind blows, and it’s a supernatural INTERUPTION To what he wanted to do…….And there he is, helpless to fulfill his plans.

Yes, it happens. So an emotional storm, I would say, is you are thinking if one more thing happens, I am going to FREAK OUT, and …….one more thing happens, one more thing gets said, one more person poked you with their prickly pear attitude! NOW YOU ARE THE STORM and you forget all about fruits of the Spirit, or being nice, you just want to clobber someone and walk away forever! That’s what storms do, they bring out the worst (or the best) in us sometimes. So, I am not perfect. Some days I see it’s a storm, rebuke it, walk on top of it, soar over it, other times I forget (I am human) and I freak out a little bit. FORGIVE YOURSELF and move on. God does! Who are you not to do the same?

That’s right, forgive yourself, shake off the dust of what happened yesterday….

and go forth! Amen Laura Grace oh PS “forgive them too” who are as human as you!