My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Well it has been an awesome afternoon and evening. It started about 4 when Cassandra sent out a text that the Judge had issued his decision in our case against the P-Club and Chris Penner for discriminating against our group by kicking us out of his club. Our Attorney Sue-Del McCulloch wanted to meet with us at Fox & Hound tonight and tell us what she could. Now I had not planned on going out tonight but there was no way I was going to miss this. I actually started getting ready as soon as I got the text.

I got to Fox & Hound by 6:15 and Cassandra, Chris, Kim and Victoria were already there. I guess we were all excited to hear what Sue-Del had to say even though she wouldn’t be here till 7:30 to 8 pm. Well it wasn’t long and Kelly, Christine, Mellissa and Sarah showed up. Actually tonight was Sarah’s first night out with the group as she just joined our group a couple days ago. It was awesome to meet her and such an exciting night to be out. Petra, Jan, Lynn and a few others even showed up, I think we had maybe 15 of us there by 7.

We were all waiting for Sue-Del and we knew it was good news as she had told Cassandra that much. Well Sue-Del showed up about 8 and we all couldn’t wait. Now she couldn’t go into a lot of details as the Judge’s decision won’t be made public till Friday 8-30-2013 when it is released to the media which is also the reason this blog will be posted a little later than normal. It is kind of symbolic that the judge released his decision on our discrimination suit on the 50 year anniversary of the walk on Washington and the day Martin Luther King Jr. gave his speech “I have a dream”. Any way Sue-Del told us that the Judge supported found that Chris Penner had in fact discriminated against us and violated our rights under state law.

We are all thrilled with the verdict and actually very surprised at how fast all this has happened. I can remember when we sat together at the Rainbow room on July 11 2012 (thank god for my blog) and talked about if we should go and meet with Beth Allen our first attorney. She had seen the YouTube video Cassandra had posted of Chris Penner telling us not to come back because we were transgender. Here we are a little over 13 months later with a ruling in our favor. I think most of us thought it would take a year or so just to investigate and then a year or more to work its way through the system. Beth Allen started our case but as she was appointed to be a Judge in February she got us in touch with Sue-Del who agreed to take over our case and we as a group were truly blessed to have had two such incredible, supportive attorneys to help us we can never thank them enough.

Now we all realize that this is not over as Chris Penner will almost for sure appeal the decision and we all expected this and in a way I think in a way we are excited about him appealing it. We look at it this way, several years back I think in 2007 the state of Oregon past a law protecting transgender people from discrimination. Actually the law basically says that transgender people have the rights of the gender they present as. Now we all know that laws can be passed but it can always be challenged in court. Well this law has and it stood up which is great for all transgender people and not just in Oregon as many States and cities have passed similar laws and now there has been a Judge that upheld it. Now this was an administrative hearing and Judge so having it go on to the State appeals court and getting them to support the law and uphold transgender rights would be huge. We really have a long road ahead and I think it will be at least 2 to 5 more years to go through the appeals process. The best thing is that this will send a message to all businesses that if they do discriminate against Transgender people they will be held accountable and will face huge legal action.

I am truly proud to be a part of this and such a wonderful group here in Oregon. There were 13 of us that were able to step up and make a stand and many more in our group that for one reason or another were unable to but were always there supporting us, it truly was a team effort and I hope all of the members are proud of this wonderful group or should I say family of people.

I really want to Thank the following people and let them know how much they have helped us and what an impact they have made on our lives and all transgender people.

Well Friday night I will once again be out with my friends and we will be celebrating so it will be an awesome night. I am really looking forward to it as I am sure many others in our group will be as it will be our first chance to talk after this is made public and release to the media. None of us know what the future holds for us but I know for me this experience will be one of the highlights of my life.

Well it has been another long week and as always I was so looking forward to Friday night and spending time with my friends. I actually got off work a little early today which is always nice as I don’t have to rush to get ready plus I actually took a short nap well actually I fell asleep on the couch, hope that is not a sign of my getting older. I woke up a little over an hour later at 4:30 and headed upstairs for a nice bath which I don’t do very often but they are really relaxing. I was hoping to be too Sweet Home earlier than 7 tonight so I was done with my bath by 5 and started getting Susan ready with the hope of being all done by 6 which I should be able to do. Everything was going as I planed and at 6:05 I was in my car pulling out of my drive.

I got to Sweet Home by 6:25 and went in to find Chris already there; I think he comes straight from work so he probably gets here about 6. He was watching some You Tube videos on his computer and some of them were pretty funny. The special looked really good BBQ ribs and corn on the cob which I love but I also knew that it would be messy to eat so I chose something else as I didn’t want to risk messing up my makeup or getting BBQ sauce under my beautiful nails, yes a girl hast to make sacrifices.

There was already a pretty good crowd for this early as I think a lot of people came out for Levi’s last night. For those of you who have never been to Sweet Home Levi is the head bar tender there but he recently got another job and so he will be leaving are happy little family here. He really is wonderful as he has made us all feel welcome here from the first night we showed up. He adds that personal touch to his job which is awesome and actually every one there does the same. Paul the owner has a wonderful staff and they all make you feel like you are part of their family including Paul who is there on most Friday nights and always talks with his customers. There was a TV show many years ago called Cheers and this bar feels just like that TV show, here is a couple lines from the theme song to the show. Sometimes you want to go where everybody knows your name, and they’re always glad you came. You wanna be where you can see; our troubles are all the same you wanna be where everybody knows your name. We will miss him but he promises to stop in and see everyone.

Well it wasn’t long and more of our group started to show up, I was hoping we would have a good turnout tonight. Kim, Laura, Roxy, Crsitine, Bobby, Victoria, Cassie, Jan, Lynn, Samantha, Queeny, Petra and Lorraine showed up. It was good to see Samantha and Queeny again as they don’t get out as much with the group. Hope I didn’t miss anyone. Paul the owner will be filling in on Friday nights for a while I guess till he can find a replacement so tonight he was there almost the whole night and working behind the bar.

I got a chance to talk with Lorraine for a bit it was good to see her out again. She couldn’t stay late though. It was just a fun night and it was busy I think a lot of people came in to see Levi on his last night. Kim, Roxy, Victoria and I talked for a while which is always fun. I think Susan enjoys the whole social aspect of being out. It is not really what we are doing or where we go but the friends I am with that make the night so special. I hope they all know how special they all are to me.

Well the Karaoke group also had a good showing I would guess they had upwards of 30 in their group here tonight and so when Karaoke started there was a long list of people to sing. Laura, Chris, Kim, Lynn and Queeny all got up and sang but with so many people there to sine they only got to sing a couple songs but they all did awesome. Well it got late and was time for Kim to leave so I walked her out to her car to say goodnight. It is always sad to see Kim leave.

I got back inside and it was still packed but as several of our group had left we could mostly fit around just the one table now. Laura was the big pool winner tonight as she played many games. Well Samantha and Queen left and it wasn’t long before they were back as they needed a jump to get their car going so Lynn went out and tried to jump start their car but no luck so they had to call a tow truck so they got to stay a little longer. Not a great way to end an evening. I think a lot of us think about that when we are out. It is one thing to call a tow truck or a friend when you are out but when you are dressed it adds a hole nother level to the problem. This is one of the greatest things about cell phones and why I think everyone should have one.

Well Ed showed up for a bi, he actually met our group through Kim so he stopped by for a beer unfortunately Kim had left about 30 minutes earlier so we invited him to sit with us and I introduced him to Jan and Lynn and Laura. We talked for about 20 minutes, he actually just stopped in for a beer but it was still good to see him and I hope he knows he is always welcome to join us on Friday night.

Well it was after 1 when the last of us Jan, Lynn, Laura and I left. It was a wonderful evening and of course I forgot to get a picture with Levi well hopefully the next time he comes in as a customer I can get a picture with him and maybe our group. It was a fun night and always sad to see it come to an end.

With that I would like to thank Levi for all he has done and the way he has treated us over the past year, you are more than a bar tender you are a friend. The same goes for the rest of the staff here. Jodi the other bar tender who for the first several times I met her here on her nights off made us feel just as welcome and we thought she was just a customer. Even Paul the owner has sat down with us on slower night and talked with us and got to know us. It is just a great friendly neighbor hood bar that accepts everyone. We all wish Levi the best in his new job.

Well it is Friday night and of course we all know what that means, Susan gets to go out with her friends for a fun evening. It is such a wonderful way to end a week and start a relaxing weekend. We meet at Sweet Home Bar and Grill which is a local neighbor hood bar but has been so wonderful and excepting to our group. I got there just after 7 and Kim was just walking in when I was pulling into the parking lot and I could see Cassandra’s car right in front. Inside Cassandra, Kim and Bobby were already there.

Amy was next to show up, it was great to see here again, she is so much fun and nice to talk with, I am trying to get her to go golfing with us when we go again later in the summer. Well it wasn’t long and others started to show up. Mikaela, Cristine, Cassie Laura (not the regular one but I have met this Laura a couple times in the past) Jenny (a GG with Laura) and Ed so we had a really good group.

It was fun to sit and talk with each other especially Laura, Jenny and Ed as I wanted to get to know them better as one can never have too many friends. I am pretty sure Laura is full time but the topic never came up and I didn’t want to just ask as to me when we are out as girls it really doesn’t matter if you are full time, part time or just crossdress once in a great while as if you are dressed as a female then you are female just that simple. It is funny as that seems to be the question I get asked the most, people are afraid to talk to me as they don’t know what to say or how to address me and I always tell them the same thing. If I am presenting as female (dressed as a girl) then address me as such, Miss, her, she, Susan. I think this is a good rule of thumb and although maybe not correct 100% of the time I would be willing to bet 99%+ it will be. I do not know one person who goes out presenting as the opposite sex that is not happy being addressed that way.

Well I got a chance to talk with Mikaela. We are talking about doing a girls day or evening out, shopping and dinner which will be so much fun. Going shopping as Susan is always fun and having someone along to chat with would be awesome but it may be a bit as we both have busy schedules the next few weeks. Of course we had to get pictures. It is funny as I see the excitement in Mikaela that I use to have. Don’t get me wrong I so love my Susan time out but as I have been doing it for several years it has become more of a common and that excitement of experiencing things for the first time has faded some. I love pictures and getting pictures while out but I don’t often think of it even though I have my camera with me all the time. Wow a little side tracked, anyway Mikaela took the picture above of me and of course we had to get this one of us together.

Well Karaoke started and Kim sang a few songs and did awesome, she is really good at singing. Laura even got up and sang a song and did really well. I still haven’t worked up the courage to get up and sing but I have been somewhat working on learning a couple songs so maybe someday, well we will see.

Monica and Shannon showed up. Shannon is full time and looks great, she kind of reminds me of Jennifer Aniston from the show Friends. I only got to talk to them briefly as well first I didn’t notice when they came in but as always the night goes by so fast. Soon it was almost midnight and it was time for Kim to leave so I walked her to her car which was right next to mine in the parking lot. Always hard to see her leave but I will see her again soon.

Well back inside it was getting busy as a lot of the Karaoke group was there by now. Even Blue showed up which was awesome, it has been several month since she has been to Sweet Home on a Friday night. It was great to chat with her and catch up on things you know girl talk.

Next week several of our group will not be able to make it out on Friday night which is a shame as it is Levi’s last night. He has been our Friday night Bar tender for the last year and more than that our good friend. He has been so wonderful to us but he has found a new and better job and even though we will all miss him we wish him the best. Hopefully he will still come in as a customer so we will get to see him from time to time but it will be different. I think the owner Paul is going to bar tend on Friday nights at least for a while which is good too as he is also wonderful. He is the one who when he heard the P-club had asked us to leave invited us to come to his place. I will have to get a picture with Levi before he leaves.

Well it was an awesome night as always but soon it was after 1 and it was time for us to leave. It is amazing how fast those 6 hours go by. Thanks for reading and I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

Well it was Wednesday night and I had the chance to go out to dinner with some of my friends which is always fun but it was also a chance to have dinner with Kim so I was really looking forward to it. I got to Fox & Hound before 7; Kim and Cristine were already there. It was going to be a great night. The three of us talked while we waited for others to show up. It wasn’t long and Cassandra and Melissa showed up so we talked about what we wanted for dinner and decided to walk up the street to House of Louie for Chinese food.

It was a nice warm day and the walk up the street was nice. It is amazing thinking back just a few years I would never have walked the streets of Portland during the daylight as Susan. It is so relaxing and fun to just be out as Susan and able to express this side of me. They have really good food here so if you are ever in downtown Portland and want Chinese food give them a try.

It wasn’t long and Victoria, Lynn and Jan showed up so we had a nice little group for dinner. We had an awesome time just relaxing and talking over a nice dinner. As always time goes by so fast and soon it was almost 9 which during the week I my limit for being out. Kim also had to leave, we said our goodbyes and left. It is always hard to leave but I will see them all again on Friday night again. Kim and I walked backed to our cars which was a wonderful way to end an evening.

Well today our group had its first golf tournament. There were 8 of us who signed up to play. Cassandra had made tee times for 1 pm at Wildwood golf course(21881 NW St. Helens Road, Portland Oregon 97231). Some of the girls had played here before as guys of course and the rest of us had not but it was going to be so much fun.

Now most of us got there at almost the same time which was nice as this was a totally new place for us to go, always easier in a group when you go someplace new. Now Cassandra had given them a heads up about our group so we knew we weren’t going to shock them just walking in. so we went down and checked in and they were wonderful. They always referred to us as ladies even when I had to sign for the golf cart I had to give my driver’s license and as she was writing down my name I told her she could call me Susan and she crossed off my male name and wrote Susan how cool.

Well we got some practice balls and went to the driving range to loosen up and of course get pictures. Here is me taking some practice swings. We got several pictures of us as that was also part of the fun of today. From here it was back down to the first tee to get ready to play, of course I stopped in the pro shop for some snacks and something to drink as it was going to be hot out on the course.

Now the course was pretty busy early on so we did have to wait for a bit. We also did get a few looks but it was more of a yep those are T-girls and that was it, really no one paid any attention to us and I never heard a comment about us

Well while we were on the first tee I was getting pictures of us when the man from the Pro shop came down so we could get a group picture. He actually took a couple of us and told us all to have a fun time which we knew we would. It was a beautiful day maybe just a little warm well if you are wearing makeup that is. It is funny as I spent an hour this morning getting ready and doing my makeup for this even though I knew by the end of the day I would look bad. Another reason pictures were taken on the 1st tee.

Well we had two groups to play and I was in the second group. The 1st was Veronica, Melissa, Laura & Julie and the 2nd; my group was Cassandra, Petra, Victoria and me. Now I have played 3 times before as Susan when I went to Diva Las Vegas but it was always really windy when we golfed there, today there was really no wind maybe every once in a while a light breeze so it would get hot in the sun.

Well as we teed off I got action shots of everyone for our group’s photo album. Victoria even got a picture of me hitting off the first tee. And it was a pretty good shot for me. The course was beautiful and in really good shape. Now I don’t golf as much as I use to actually if I get out more than twice a year now I am doing well so my goal for the day was simple, shoot under 100 and if possible not go over 50 on either 9. Well I met my goal and I was really consistent as I shot a 49 on the front 9 and a 50 on the back 9 for a total score of 99 and most important of all I did not lose a single nail, I know you thought I was going to say ball didn’t you. Well I lost 2 balls which I could handle I was way more worried about the nails.

Well we got back to the club house after our 18 holes of golf and we sat out on the deck to rest and cool off. The staff here was wonderful and treated us outstanding. We are already talking about golfing here again later in the summer. I went in and thanked them for being so awesome to us and the guy told me they enjoyed us being there and hoped we would come back again which I assured him we would.

What a wonderful day and a big thanks to Cassandra for putting this all together for us. Well thanks for reading and I hope you weekend was as awesome as mine. This is my group before we started, after wards there were no pictures as my makeup was not looking good.

Well it has been another long week and as always I so look forward to Fridays as I know I will have a chance to relax and have fun with my friends. Tonight I chose to wear my red dress which is a little fancier than I would normally wear out to a place like sweet home but what can I say I just felt like wearing it. I forgot to get a picture but here I am in the same dress at the Prom party we had several months back. I like it for two reasons, first if you can’t tell already I love the color red. Second through the miracle of elastic and padding I can create a really nice cleavage, I will include a picture further down which shows this effect which for a crossdresser especially with a flat chest is awesome and just makes you feel pretty.

I got there and Teresa had just pulled in which was a pleasant surprise. I went inside and Laura, Veronica, Chris and Cassandra were already there. It was great to see Veronica again as she does not get to go out with us that much as she works out of town but she is in town this weekend because 8 of us are playing golf tomorrow, Saturday. We are having our first Rose City T-girls golf tournament. Now some of us are good at golf and others not so much and I will not say where I fall but this is really not about the scores but having fun and looking pretty out on the golf course. Okay I will say where I fall in the golfing group, I am probably the middle so I shouldn’t win or lose but will have a blast and look great doing it.

Well Teresa came in and it was great she was able to join us tonight. I really don’t get to see her often enough so I really enjoyed talking with her. Melissa also showed up so we had a full table already. A man at the bar came over and introduced himself and again I apologize as I can’t remember his name but he asked what we were drinking and then bought 2 pictures of beer for our table. He was here with a woman I assume was his date but not sure. He was really nice and soon a couple of the girls were playing pool with the 2 of them and having a fun time. Well it came time for them to leave and her came over looking for Veronica and had his name and phone number on a napkin for her but she was off someplace and the lady with him came over so he put it in his pocket and they left. Looks like Veronica was the hit of the night.

Well it wasn’t long and Cristine, Bobby, Cassie, Petra, Michelle, Cristina and her friend arrived so we had a good turnout for the night. It was a fun night and we all enjoyed talking and playing pool till Karaoke started. Chris and Laura sang several times as the Karaoke group had an event out of town so none of them made it tonight so it really was pretty quiet here. I almost worked up the courage to get up and sing and actually tonight would have been a good night as with the exception of our group it was pretty slow. I have a couple songs I have been practicing and could probably sing them although not well so maybe someday.

Well it was getting late midnight, not as late as we normally stay out but then we have to be up somewhat early tomorrow for golf, we are meeting at 12:15 and for me I have an hour drive to get to the golf course. Ad that to the fact Susan takes more time to get ready, yes we will all be wearing makeup and looking our best as that is the point of the golf game, so I will have to be up somewhat early. Anyway we were getting ready to leave and Chris, Laura sang one more song and also Melissa and even Cassandra. Now Cassandra has sung “Girls just want to have fun” before but she always gets a group to sing with her. Tonight she sang on her own and she sang the theme song to the TV show Brady Bunch. I should have got up and sang. Well we were leaving so it was too late for tonight. It is strange that I will go places as Susan and could care less what people may think but singing or dancing and I just can’t stop thinking what they will think of me.

Well Saturday we will play golf and have a fun time and of course I will blog about it and hopefully have some new pictures to post. Thanks for reading and have a fun weekend.

Well I look forward to this all month long as it is such a fun night out. A group of us anywhere from 12 to 25 get together once a month and go to Harvey’s. We have been going here for years but for about the last 2 years we have gone once a month. Now most of us meet at Fox & Hound around 7 and then walk over to Harvey’s around 8:30. Now we do this for a couple reasons, first parking is so much better, plus it is just fun to have an extra hour or so out with my friends.

I got to Harvey’s the same time as Cassandra and Wilma. Cristine, Amy and a new girl Jennifer was there already. Jennifer was in boy mode and she is in the process of moving to Portland and starting her transition. They weren’t going to Harvey’s but came out to join us for dinner. It was great to see Amy again and spend some time with her. She even had new hair for tonight and looked great but then she always does. Well Joan, Melissa, and Laura also showed up so we had a good group already.

Well about 8:30 we left Fox & Hound and started walking to Harvey’s, I stopped by my car and got my wrap as even though it was warm out now I was worried it could be cool for the walk back at midnight. Now normally I wear my lower heels but tonight I just wanted my 4″ heels even though I knew by the end of the night my feet would be killing me but they went so well with my cute outfit.

We got to Harvey’s and Jan & Lynn were already there and it wasn’t long before Victoria showed up. We had 12 of us for the show so Cassandra and I went out and got our tickets as we waited. Now getting here early enough we were able to get seats in the bar close to the entrance. Now getting in was not an issue as they always reserve tables for us as we tell them how many we are bringing and we have our regular waitress Kim who is awesome and always makes sure we are in her section but I really wanted to be able to sit while we waited so I didn’t have to stand in my heels.

Finally it was time to go into the show room and we had tables almost right up front. Now there were a lot of people for the show and there were to Bachelorette parties here. One of the groups went up on stage and got pictures and it wasn’t long and the other Bachelorette group came up and got on stage. There was a man that got their cameras and took pictures of them. When they were done he came over to our group and said we should go up on stage and get our pictures taken and well you know how we feel about our pictures being taken so he didn’t have to ask again. Well we found out later that he was the owner of Harvey’s.

Well Cassandra, Lynn and I all gave him our cameras and we all got on stage. You could not imagine all the flashes from the audience as we were up there. There was on table close to the front with 4 girls and 4 guys and all 4 of the girls had their cameras out taking our pictures and we were having a blast. At the end Cassandra tried to take a picture of the audience as she told them as they were taking our picture she wanted one of them but her batteries died and she couldn’t take it. I stopped by the one table and asked if I could get a picture with one of them since they took ours and the one girl was only too happy to get a picture with me. The night was off to an awesome start.

Well the show started and the comedians were awesome, we laughed so hard. I think this is why I enjoy this night out as we always laugh and have fun. Now I am not saying all the comedians are the best but almost always they are good and tonight was no exception. The opening comedian was great and I think he could be a headliner. The headliner was awesome and he was having fun with the audience. And picking on people in the audience he even had some jokes about us as we were so close to the stage but it was all in fun. It was just an awesome night. After the show the owner came back and told us about next month’s comedian and said we will love that night so we are already looking forward to that night.

The comedians came back over to our tables as they both wanted to get pictures with us. Now I didn’t think to take my camera out so I didn’t get a picture. The headliner was Joe Fontenot and the other comedian was Tony and I can’t remember his last name. It is funny as this is the third time the comedians have come over to us to get pictures with us and Cassandra was off someplace else and missed out. Joe thanked us for being there and said he was glad we had fun.

Well on the way out we got talking to the one Bachelorette party and they were awesome. They wanted some pictures with us and of course you know what we said so all our camera’s came out and we had a blast with them. We talked with them for a while and they had a drawing for a gift card and one of them won it so they are planning on coming back again. Anyway we were telling them we come every month so they said they were going to try to come when we are there again as they had so much fun.

Well we got outside and they wanted more pictures well it might have been us but either way we got more pictures. I am sure they will remember this night. Well once we got outside it really was a nice night and not cold so I took my wrap off.

Well it was time to head back to Fox & Hound as that is where we parked and some of the girls wanted to go back there and play pool and a couple wanted to go to CC Slaughters and go dancing. For me it was time to head home. It is still amazing how at ease I am just walking around downtown Portland. It was an awesome night and really my feet were not that bad even though we had walked 7 blocks each way. It was such a fun night. Here is one more picture from last night.

Well it is another Friday night and time to go out and have some fun with my friends. I so look forward to this night all week long but especially tonight as it has been a really busy couple weeks and this is my first chance in almost 2 weeks to have some Susan time. I so love spending times with my friends I have made as Susan. It also gives me a chance to escape from my daily life as a man and forget about all the issues, and problems I face on a daily basis. I think the world would be much better place if everyone you get away from their issues every week for a few hours, I am not saying by crossdressing but finding something that completely relaxes them and for me that is being Susan. O don’t just get to forget about stuff but I take on a new persona of Susan, friends, experiences and the rest of my life goes away for those few hours. I read someplace that the way to be happy is find something you really enjoy and then make time to do it on a regular basis and I have found just that.

Well I got all ready and off I went to meet my friends at Sweet Home. Laura, Cassandra and Chris were already there when I got there. Actually it was only 7 pm and I there were only a couple other people there at this time. It is actually pretty quiet here till about 9:30 when they get the Karaoke going. That is when most people start to show up. Well we ordered dinner and sat around and talked for a bit. It really is about being out with friends and the social aspect of it and not so much about where we go or what we do for me.

Kim showed up next which was awesome as I some really like spending time with her. We actually got together Wednesday and had a BBQ at my house but that was not Susan time. It really is awesome that I get to spend time with her as both male and female; I guess I am really lucky on this. Anyway she had on this really cute summertime dress and looked awesome. It was going to be a wonderful night.

Well a few more girls showed up, Melissa, Mikaela, Cristine, Bobby, Bob, Petra and Christina. Christina came last week when I wasn’t there so this was the first time I have met her. She seems really nice and has been living full time now for about 3 years. We got a chance to talk for a bit and get to know each other which is always nice meeting new people.

David also showed up, he is one of Kim’s friends and has come out with us a few times. He lives somewhat close to Sweet Home so he stopped in for a bit which was nice. He seems really accepting of our group and is fun to talk to so hopefully he will stop in again. Well it got to the time for Karaoke and of course Kim, Chris, and Laura put their names into sing. They all sang several songs and did an awesome job as always. I was joking with Mikale about her singing and she asked when I was going to sing and I told her right after she did. Well about an hour later Mikaela did go up and sing so now I guess I will have to come up with a song to sing. I am okay singing with someone else but I still can’t get up the courage to sing on my own. It is funny but going out as Susan on my own doesn’t bother me but singing Karaoke or dancing scares me and I think people will stare at me. Makes no sense I know but what can I say.

Well it get late and Kim needed to leave so of course I walked her out to her car. It is always sad when she has to leave but I can look forward to the next time I see her. Well I got back inside and it was really starting to get busy as a lot of the Karaoke group had shown up now. I played a couple games of pool, I lost both but came close to winning and had fun and that is what counts.

Well it was a fun night and it was amazing as it got later it got busier and there were still people coming in after 1 which when you figure they close at 2:30 suppressed me. Well others left and it was down to just Cassandra and me and we got balking. And before we knew it it was after 2 am and the place was packed. We actually had to stand in line to pay our bills so it must have been a really good night for the place.

Tomorrow night the group is going to Harvey’s comedy club for our monthly outing. I am so looking forward to it; I think we have 16 signed up to go. We are also planning a golf day, we have 8 people that have paid and Cassandra is working on getting a tee time for us. That will be a lot of fun.

Well it is Saturday and Guin was hosting a small get together for Jennifer Carr as she is moving to Southern California. It is hard for me to get out during the day on Saturdays but this was important so I made sure I could go. I first met Jennifer at the 2011 Halloween Party although we had e-mailed back and forth some before that. She is an awesome person and one of the wonderful friends I have made as Susan so it will be hard to see her move away. She has come a long way since that first time we met which was her first time out to now living full time as Jennifer. This is me and Jennifer.

The party was from 4 to 8 and so I had to leave by a little after 3 to get there. Thank god for my GPS because I would have never found Guin’s house without it. Guin defiantly does not have to worry about her neighbors seeing her but then again she is also full time now so that is not a worry. Well I finally got there; Guin has a beautiful house that she is remolding plus adding on to it. Well it wasn’t long and others showed up Asia, Dahlia, Brenna, Michelle, Kara, Cassandra, Victoria, Stephia & Jennifer.

Some of these girls it has been a long time since I have seen them. Dahlia use to come out occasionally to the P-Club but since we were kicked out of there I have not seen her so it was nice to talk with her again. Brenna I think came out to Sweet Home once a while back as has Kara but still nice to get a chance to talk with them

Asia is a newer member of our group and the couple times she has come out I wasn’t able to so this was the first time I have met her. She seems really nice, she is a GG and very supportive of transgender people. I had to get a picture with her because her dress was just so cute, what an awesome color.

Well Guin had set out snacks so we all sat around and ate and talked. It was really a nice afternoon and I was happy to get to spend some time with Jennifer before she leaves. I also gave my best pitch about Diva Las Vegas and that Jennifer should go as she will be living only a few hours away and she said she would think about it.

Well after we ate we brought out the cameras and everyone was taking pictures so I will include some of them at the end of the blog. It really was great to get to talk with all the girls but as always the time went by so fast. It was almost 8 and Cassandra had to leave, seems one of the girls from the group was coming to Portland with a friend and wanted Cassandra to meet them at the Boiler room as they didn’t want to be out by themselves. I told Cassandra I would stop by for a half hour or so because it was kind of on my way home.

We got there about 8:15 and the girl from the group texted Cass saying they were running late and should be there about 9 or so. Anyway we went in and there must have been 20 young ladies there for a Bachelorette party and no men at this point. We talked to some of the ladies while we stood in line to get drinks. Well about 20 minutes later another big group of ladies came in, must have been at least 20 in their group also for another Bachelorette party. So at this point there are probably 40+ young ladies there, Cassandra and me and maybe 2 other men.

Well they started up the Karaoke and of course Cassandra and I played pool. Now the table was missing the 4 ball so we did the best we could. A few more couples came in so there was maybe 10 men here now when another group of about 12 young ladies came in and you guessed it, it was another Bachelorette party. Now Bachelorette parties are great as almost all of the woman had on dresses or skirts and heels, so many cute dresses and shoes all in one place.

Well I beet Cassandra at pool which is always a high point for me. Well it turns out tonight was my night for pool as I won 8 games in a row including 2 against Cassandra. My last game I played doubles with some of the ladies from the one Bachelorette party as they wanted to play and of course I and the one girl from their group won.

Now as I said I was only going to stay till 9 when the other girls showed up which they never did but it was such a fun night it was 11:30 before I knew it. We had such a wonderful time with the one group of ladies including seeing who had the cutest heels. Well some of the girls wanted pictures with us including the Bachelorette so her friends took a bunch of pictures with us and of course I had them take one with my camera. This is me and Cassandra with her. It was so hot in there with all the people I am surprised my makeup hadn’t melted off by this point. It really was a fun day and night.

Well as I said here are some more pictures from the party.

This is Guin and me.

This is Jennifer, Me and Stefia

This is Michelle and me with Cassandra in the background.

We will all miss Jennifer but we all wish her the best as she goes forward with her life.

Well it has been another long week so I was looking forward to a Friday night out with my friends. Now next week will be very busy for my male side so I really wanted to enjoy tonight. It is the first weekend of summer and we are finally going to have some nice weather, actually just a little too hot. Today was in the upper 80’s and for the next few days will be in the mid 90’s which is hot here as we normally only get a few days a year that break 90. No I love nice weather but as I tend/need to wear heavier makeup as I have more to hide then natural woman perspiration is my enemy as it makes my makeup feel and look bad, being a lady is hard work but so much fun. I started getting ready about 5 in hopes of being out the door by 6:30 well it was almost 7 when I left. Luckily I can make it to Sweet Home in about 15 minutes.

I got there and the parking lot was full so I had to park out on the street and walk a little in the heat. Now I just have to mention this as when I got out of the car I caught my panty hose on something and put a small run in them how frustrating. I love the feel and look of panty hose as I really think they make my legs look so much better but really a run so easy. Now the reason I bring this up as sometimes you can wear them forever and others it is a onetime shot. These were bran new one I had just put on a half hour ago and the reason for that is the pair I wore Wednesday night I hooked my heel on when I got out of the car and put a run in them which by the way was also a brand new pair, someone needs to design a run proof nylon, well just a little off topic. Inside Cassandra, Chris and Laura were already there so I joined them. Chris had his laptop and was showing us a couple funny videos he found online. I ordered their special a seafood combo and we sat around and talked for a while.

Well it wasn’t long and more of our girls started to show up and soon we were crowded around the table. Cristine, Bobbie, Roxy, Michelle, Cassie and Kim showed up. Kim had on this really cute colorful skirt and looked awesome; this was going to be a wonderful night. Well we started to play pool and Laura and I were first to play. I did pretty well and almost won but missed my 8 ball shot and Laura didn’t so she won. I went back to the table and sat next to Kim so we could talk. Kim, Chris, Roxy and I spent the next hour just talking and having fun.

Well it was time for Karaoke and the other group still hadn’t got there yet as they were helping one of them move so Kim and Chris were first to sing and they did awesome as always and Laura was next and also did great. It was funny as at this point there were so few people singing that after these two songs the Karaoke guy Mark sang next then Chris, Kim and Laura again. Kim sang the song “One way or another” by Blonde and did awesome. Chris sang “Live and Let Die” by Paul McCartney and did great. I love both these songs. It was after 10 when some of the Karaoke group showed up and about 10 of them put their names in to sing.

Well Kim and I put money up to play pool and waited our turn. I went first and got to play Cassandra. I really wanted to win not just because it is so much fun to win against Cassandra but also I would get to play Kim the next game. Again I played well but again missed my 8 ball shot and Cassandra didn’t and won. While we were playing one of the ladies at the bar told me how cute my heels I was wearing were and they really are as I get all kinds of compliments on them something I have never gotten on any of my male shoes. Well Kim played Cassandra and did awesome as she does not play a lot of pool. She only had one ball left when Cassandra was going for the 8 ball and Cassandra scratched and sunk the cue ball and loss so Kim won, way to go Kim.

Well by now it was getting late and Kim had to leave as she had to get up early to do some work so I walked her out to her car. It was a beautiful night for a walk as it was still about 75 out. Here is a little funny side note, as a guy I have walked with girls and always had to slow down and wait for them and always wondered why they walk so slowly. Tonight and last Wednesday when I was walking with Kim I found myself falling behind and having trouble keeping up with her and then it hit me. I had on my 3 ½ inch heels and hers shoes were flat. You can’t take as big of steps or walk as fast in heels. I love heels but they really are not made for walking especially on uneven ground. It is still strange to walk her out as her boyfriend while dressed as Susan. She even told me how pretty I looked tonight as she loves the dress I wore which I already knew, I wore this dress tonight just for her as I knew she would be there and I wanted to look pretty for her. Well we said our goodbyes and she headed off home and I went back inside.

It was pretty busy inside and Karaoke was in full swing. Petra had even showed up and she went up and sang a song also and did great. We sat and talked some more and listened to Karaoke for another hour or so and just had a wonderful time. It was almost and it was just Cassandra, Cristine, Bobbie and I left from our group when we decided to call it a night. It was still 73 outside and so nice. It was just a wonderful evening all the way around.

Now we get into the heat for the next several days and Susan has a going away part for Jenn tomorrow as she is moving to California soon and I assume we will be outside some of the time, I will have to get some pictures. It will be sad to see her move away as she really is an awesome friend and I will miss her.

Well thanks for reading and have a wonderful weekend.

We still haven’t heard anything on our case against the P-Club & Chris Penner but we do know that all the legal briefs have been filed and now it is just waiting for the judge to render his decision. The one thing we do know Chris Penner has put the old P-Club up for sale which really doesn’t change anything.

About

HI all my name is Susan Miller and I am a crossdresser in my mid 50’s. I live in the Portland metro area of Oregon in the beautiful Pacific Northwest. I like to dress up as a woman and go out with friends. This does not mean I am gay, far from it. I am only attracted to genetic woman sorry guys. I just have a love of all things female, makeup, dresses, high heels and long nails, acrylic nails. There is nothing like going to the nail salon and having your nails done.

Some people may not understand my way of life so I thought I would create a blog to write about it to try to help explain why and how I feel when I am Susan. This will also serve as a record for myself of my life as Susan Miller.

I am not a woman trapped in a man’s body and I have no desire to be a woman full time but I do have a woman inside that needs to be able to express herself. I guess the best way to explain is that I have both a feminine and masculine side to me and both feel right and comfortable to me although I will admit that I probably lean more to the feminine side. This means I am more gentle and caring and more soft spoken and I enjoy a lot of what society would call feminine activities. I just really like being Susan sometimes and I love dressing up and wearing pretty clothes and makeup. Women are so lucky. They have all the cute clothes and shoes while men get plain boring stuff to wear.

Please feel free to read my blogs and leave comments, but please be respectful. I do not judge others and respect your right to agree or disagree with the way I chose to live. I would love to have you post a comment and you may agree or disagree with me and my life and I will not delete it as I think it is important to have all views but if you leave a disrespectful comment I will delete that. Also any crossdressers or genetic girls that are okay with this please feel free to contact me. Also if you have any questions please feel free to ask and I will do my best to answer them but remember any statements made here are the sole opinion of Susan Miller and no one else.