I was with this guy when I signed up who I was SO so so so in love with. Reading back through my old posts I think mainly - wow I was really uptight and annoying, no wonder we fought so much, but on the other hand, what was I thinking. We broke up just over 4 years ago now and I remember genuinely thinking that I would NEVER feel better after we broke up. It took a long time to move on but I met up with him about 6 months ago and we had a really nice time - at the end of the night he lent in to kiss me and I felt actually physically sick - I never thought I'd be able to just live a normal life without him let alone be actually repulsed by him. I've tried to remember that anytime Ive been hurting about someone else since!

I have literally just been doing exactly the same thing. I joined the site almost ten years ago, as a 17-year-old still in high school. It's actually a nice record of growing up, especially with the site's very personal nature. It's funny how much you trivialise things that were once a huge deal to you!

That's so funny I've just come across this post and immediately before I did I'd just read all my old posts from 2006! It makes me want to go back and give myself a good shaking. The posts I wrote about my first bf - I don't even know why I was with the guy if we were in trouble after 3 months! Ah but it's all shaped who and where I am now, so without having those issues I would never have learnt!

I just read some of my posts back today and realised how things have changed since I first joined especially about my Child's progress,some things I disagreed with I actually agree with and I wish I could've realised a long time ago.

Yes, it's easy to forget how far you've come. It's like keeping a diary, but with the added bonus of contributions from other people as well. I think the main thing that strikes me is how I was often intensely preoccupied about something - a relationship, a work situation - that didn't last and wasn't really that important. I wish I'd kept in mind at the time that it might not turn out to be as important as I thought it was.

These mountains that you are carrying, you were only supposed to climb.

I've just written a (massive) essay to myself about all the significant things going on in my life at the moment. It was quite cathartic to write and even though all the things - good and bad - feel really important right now, I wonder how they'll appear if I read it again in 10 years.

I've started managing to calm myself down (slightly) in emotional situations by saying to myself "how are you going to feel about this in 6 months, or a year or 5 years". It's quite a helpful tool and has helped me keep my temper a bit better. It's also getting me through the last 6 months at work before I start uni!

I have been doing this all week! I had posted about 450 times on my old account!! SO CRINGE some of it but i was only 15 so i guess that's ok. Nice to see which parts i still relate to and which parts I have worked through and moved on from. I told my therapist about doing so and she said i must be ready to "Let go" of that person which i thought was a nice way to look at it.

I had so much unnecessary boy drama, and I went out with some absolute $@&%*s! What was I thinking?! My hubby is the exact opposite of what at the time I clearly thought was my "type" and thank God lol. I got a bit nostalgic reading through all of the conversations though, I hope all the old-school pp-ers are doing well