Everything that comes into my mind even for a microsecond , my philosophy , anything that influences me , anything which i wish to influence and sometimes typing weirdly , sometimes meditating in the blogs . sometimes a way to take a side from everyday life and enjoy one of its most beautiful offerings called writing. writing simply for love or love for writing and sometimes coincidentally writings has got more then a word in it and some time full of life.

Physics , chemistry
, math books were piled up next , diary at the bottom

Could never
open the diary and never add a word more

Until the storm came
until the rain came until the water paint fell on it

until it became dusted until it became
filthy until now

And I missed to give
a call on that and in

A month I found I
missed the IIT too (though approximately )

And now I wonder how
did she reach to my diary

When I had only asked for filling the slam book

And now I realize
what I had missed what could already have been mine

years old dream suddenly blommed from grave only to realize grave is still a better place and left me with a fanitest echo of extremist optimism "Thank god water paint didnt fell on the next few lines "Thank god I didn’t go throw the next few lines " What If it had ".............….. you"

Sunday, October 14, 2012

she danced , she sang and she was loved
she blossomed , she shone like a pearl
just when she thought
to take the control of her decison
she knew all her past had been planned
only to let herself become a better bride

but after the "better" everything became like dust of eyes
she was now far from her past
sitting once in the balcony she thought
only to discover the futility of her passions
dreams were when condensed to pain
was still alien to her

she became a mother
she thought to rediscover her dream
in the eyes of her daughter
she worked , she sweat , she endured
hoping her god has got some godliness left

years later she had the 2nd discovery of her life
she had been only the housekeeper
stubbornness of mind again had the victory over innocence of heart
she cried she begged she prayed
only to find the futility of her love and motherhood

her daughter taking the legacy
only to complete the another circle
and she in the heaven
only if some godliness is left in him.

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

when mind is fogged by the selfishness when other's emotions remains their only when pride of mind kills the child inside when self obsession disconnects the self from reality

i seek exemption from the past sin i have come to know if sacred Ganges water still exists to unload all my devil i pledge before you to forgive the ignorance i promise to redeem the inside with innocence

if only you forgive me if only you accept me as a new person who will try to become a better man every hour every second every moment and yet veiled by the same body and face if only you guide me

Saturday, October 6, 2012

just a little drowsiness after the evening sleep
just a little ache in the head
just short of the critical momentum needed to get out of the bed
just a little slow in mobilizing fingers on the keyboard

then i know that i am lacking energy
inspiration has been veiled by the fogs
love is also residing somewhere far in the unknown cottage
people close have been far for a while

but then as learnt
i put the switch in "on" mode
because i just had 2 choice
on or off , i went for "on" first deliberately and then it became natural

then suddenly still writing
backgrounds began to take a shift
drowsiness encouraged me to get energised to defeat it
ache in the head became like battling at the border inspite of pain

i began stretching my thoughts through the fogs to grab the inspiration
and suddenly Helen Keller's quote struck"Your success and happiness lies in you. Resolve to
keep happy, and your joy and you shall form an invincible host against
difficulties."

memories of great times with friends , family and few others sprouted the buried love
i gave the another call to the people close
and he said he had been waiting as his balance was over
and now i have to go for the evening walk with him.