Once, a long time ago, there was a blog that chronicled my life, my marriage, and the lives of my children. One of a zillion mommy blogs on the internet. Ah, but this one was special, and mine, and it provided a community – a haven – for me to simply be myself. It was the only place in my life in which I truly had my own voice. Oh, but how I needed that!!

Then life changed radically. This Christian stay at home mama to four children was getting a divorce that turned quite nasty. Depression and fatigue and weariness set in and took over and the blog was slowly but surely abandoned. I’ve been in survival mode for the past few years. It is difficult, although not impossible, to blog from survival mode. I simply didn’t.

I’d like to make a return. My previous blog is lost in a hacker’s paradise as I didn’t update it as I should have. It’s full of lewd comments and I’m not even sure if it can be salvaged. Maybe one day, it will be salvaged, and I can link the two sites.

But what I can do TODAY? I can start again.

I can’t tell you about my children. I can’t show you pictures. There’s a restraining order against me preventing such actions. Not because I’ve ever done anything with their sweet faces or names that would warrant that… except divorce someone who issues such restraining orders for whatever his petty reasons may be.

Here I am. And I love you already. Thank you for being a place where I can be myself, the same as it ever was with us.