Today I Cried...

Tuesday, 1 March 2016

...At the doctor's office when I had to go in twice to deal with a chronic illness (asthma) which resulted in them giving me my usual prescriptions, and an antihistamine. I really tried not to but I was really frustrated with the lack of communication and doctors who don't bother reading my file threatening to stop my medication, only for the asthma nurse to be lovely (and cry when I cried which I felt horrible about because I was trying really hard to contain it but sometimes you just can't), and my g.p. was even lovelier. So thanks NHS weirdness. I felt like I needed a valium after the whole day was wasted pointlessly.

...That finished, I flicked through the channels and stumbled on the Kelly Clarkson American Idol performance*, which I had already seen yesterday and blubbed at** so knew FULL WELL to turn the channel, but nooo, I'm a masochist who had apparently not emptied my tear ducts quite enough in one day.

So I'm tired, from all of the crying. I do feel like this happens sometimes. I wish I was someone who could have a little cry every day, because it's obviously bottled up, and then it's like a tap has been turned on and nothing will stop it. Does anyone else have days like this? (Btw it's not pmt, that's over ALTHOUGH it supports my theory that I had everything in reverse this month where that was concerned because I did not have my day of tears on the usual day before my period. huh!). Sorry I don't mean to always relate emotions to hormones, that's b.s. Sometimes you just have to let it out I guess!

*sorry not embedding or I will cry again!

** I honestly don't know if it's just me or the simple fact of seeing someone struggle or obv. relating to daddy issues in the song or what. Plus they kept cutting to Keith Urban crying like a baby and J.Lo even looked about ready to squeeze out a tear if she could!

Oh, I'm super glad you were able to have a good nurse and definitely don't feel bad about being weepy or equating the teary-ness with your period - every single month I get all sentimental and teary and I'm like "what the hell is wrong with me?!" and then my period starts and I'm relieved because it turns out I'm not (completely) insane. Every single month.

About Me

Hi! I'm Steff. I'm an American who lives in Scotland. Expect me to write about a little bit of everything! My most recent passion is body positivity and learning to embrace health at any size. I am a film/t.v. addict and cancer survivor so I write about that sometimes too...no niche yet found! :-)