Still the One -Niall Horan love story

"Best friends forever and always." He said wrapping his small finger around mine. The thing he didn't know was how big my feelings were for him, more than a best friend. I was so close to telling my best friend until he went on the X-Factor without saying goodbye. I haven't talked to him or seen him in three years now. That he was Niall Horan, the one in the world famous boyband, One Direction.

32. Goodbye...for now

*Niall's POV*

Two weeks. Two weeks since we've seen or heard from Kacey. I missed waking up in the mornings and seeing her stare at me, or the way she would blush when I would kiss her cheek. All of us have been looking for her non stop. We even have a search team out to try and find her. I don't know if she's even alive, but I haven't stopped looking for her. It pains me to think of her dying. I haven't gotten more then two hours of sleep per night since the night she disappeared. I've been a mess, only coming out of my room when we go and look for her from 9:30 in the morning to 4:30 in the afternoon. I've barely even eaten. The boys and girls try to cheer me up but it isn't working.

"Niall, please open up. You have to eat. You haven't eaten in two days." Liam's knocking caused me to get up and open the door. He looked surprised as the door swung open. I haven't answered to anyone in a while. I know this is all of my fault, if I wouldn't of said that as a teenager, we wouldn't be in this situation. I tried calling her when she ran out with tears down her face, but she wouldn't stop. We even had Paul and our whole security staff search around the busy buildings but she was already gone. I remember once she left I yelled at my mother, and everyone soon found out what I had done.

Flashback

I walked to my mother who was sitting and laughing with Anne like non of the things she had done to Kacey had just happened before. Mum seemed to see the look of anger on my face and she looked worried as I stormed over to her.

"How could you. How could you be so rude to Kacey!?" I yelled at her. Her eyes went wide and she sighed.

"Niall, I only did that because of the stuff she did to you back then." She looked sad as she tried to reach over to me but I pulled my arm away quickly.

"I lied. Kacey and I never dated back then! And Kacey never got pregnant. Heck, she never even had a boyfriend!" I yelled. Everyone's attention was on us as I yelled at mum.

"You made me believe that, that sweet girl got pregnant and cheated on you? I'm sorry Niall, but you lied. If you would of told me I would of been polite. Sorry son, but this isn't my fault, this is yours." She said remembering Kacey walking out fastly with tears already in her eyes. I looked around and saw all of the lads and girls with looks of shock on their faces. I shook my head and walked out of the building to look for her, but she never was found. And I have barely talked since.

End of Flashback

"I'm not in the mood to eat." I said looking down at the soup he had brought in the room. My stomach growled, disagreeing with what I had said and Liam sighed.

He walked past me and sat the tray of food on my nightstand. "The police called. They said that this was the last day they could help." Liam said, giving me a sympathetic look.

"They can't just stop looking. I love her. And who knows what danger she's in right now!" I throw my arms around and start pacing. I can't help, but to worry.

"Paul said if we can't find her before the end of this week, we will have to continue tour." Liam looked uneasy saying the words that had come out of his mouth.

I sighed, "I promised Kacey I would never leave her. So, Paul can leave without me. I don't give a fuck about this shit anymore, I need to find Kacey!" I didn't realize the warm fluids dripping from my cheeks until I started shaking. I slid down to the floor and buried my head in my hands. Liam sighed and sat down with me.

It's been two weeks since I've been kidnapped and I wondered when I would get to go home to Niall, or if I ever would at all. Were they looking for me? Did they even know I was gone? I've been down in the basement of an old abandoned apartment comlex for 12 days now. I only get fed once a day and not very much at that, I haven't taken a shower in days, and my body ached due to the cuts and wounds that are scattered all over my body from my fathers knife. He swares to me everyday when he feeds me, that he will kill me, and I know he isn't bluffing. I know my time on this Earth is coming to an end soon. I know I will never see the girls again, or the boys, or even Niall who I am desperetly in love with dispite what happened. At first I was scared of all of this and not wanting to die. But then I asked myself why. I shouldn't be afraid of death. What's the point of being in the world if you weren't loved being brought into it. My mother and father have told me time and time again how I was a mistake and how the wish they could go back and kill me before now, but that's something they can't take back. Something I've been doing for the past day is writing a letter to all of them, telling them how much I love them. My father even promises to give it to them annonymysly after they kill me.

Harry, thank you so much for giving me something I didn't have growing up; a brother to joke around with, someone to tease me, or someone to look out for when people insulted me. I feel like everything on this tour has been amazing because you have been there. Your cooking is phenomenal, even your heatable chicken with salad. I have had so much fun with you, and I'm so glad you and Ce worked out. Do me a favor and always look out for her, I couldn't stand the thought of something happening to her while I'm not there to comfort her. Thanks for giving me and her a ride on the way to the tour bus from the airport, even though I had met you once, you made it awkward in your own way and I saw then that you were truly perfect for my best friend. When you and Ce started talking I could see the word 'love' written on your head, everyone could. You two are perfect. Stay that way.

Zayn, you don't understand how hard this is. When I first met you backstage at the concert all I could think was, 'man his high notes are amazing'. There would be no One Direction without you. We weren't the closest and I'm so sorry for that, but I can truly call you my brother. I remember the first time me and the girls went out on a shopping trip, we all introduced ourselves and a little about ourselves and who we were dating. Perrie talked about you like you were the best thing in the world, like you were her world. I could tell how special you were to her. Always treat Perrie like she's your princess, she's one of my best friends and she deserves every single bit of respect. I know you will give that to her.

El, were do I even start. From the minute I met you, to two weeks ago, you were one of my best friends. We clicked instantly. I don't know what I will do without you constantly there bothering me about my love life with Niall. You were the one that made me dating Niall possible, you and the girls. Your hatred for Dallia made me like you more back then, and as I look back on it now I laugh at our stupidity. I don't know where Niall and I would be today without you. You're so beautiful, smart, and headstrong. I hope you take those pictures we all took at the fair and frame them. I would love to see the picture in my memory. It was one of the best times. You and Lou need to be together forever, your truly perfect and I couldn't see you or him with someone else.

Perrie, I remember you talking about Little Mix the first time I met you. I was such a big fan, and seeing you, meeting you in real life made me realize how you were as a person. You are so important to me, and I couldn't imagine any of my time with the One Direction crew without you. As much as I love Little Mix, I love you more and I'm so glad you decided to take a break. Please stay with Zayn forever! You talk about him with such love and I know you guys will last for so long. Thank you for all of the memories, and treating me like your sister, you will always be a part of my life, even if it isn't continued on Earth.

Liam, oh Liam. I'm going to miss you. You treat Dani like a princess. You treated all of us girls like princesses. I never doubted you when you would tell me something because you always were right. I felt safe when you would take us all out for dinner. And I can say now that you are the most responsible. I never understood how everyone would call you a teddy bear before I met you, but after I did, I knew they were right. You are so generous. When you paid for 20 hotdogs at the fair, I truly understood why you and Dani were meant for each other. You are both so sweet, and kind, and will do anything for anyone. Please take care of Dani, and thank you for being there for me.

Louis, I think that's the first time I've actually called you by your full name. Gosh, you really don't understand what affect you had to all of us on this tour. Half of the time you were a stubborn ass, screaming in all of our ears, but the other half was entertainment. When you stole my favorite pair of jeans, I could of killed you, but luckily El held me off. You are so sweet and caring, I don't even see how you could be that big of a jackass some of the time, but you managed. But, that's a part of who you are, and this tour wouldn't be the same for me. Take care of El.

Dani, it's so hard to say goodbye. You have been there since the first hour I met you 3 months ago. You are one of my best friends now, I don't see how I lived without you before the tour, but that's because I didn't know you. I hope you guys have a fun time on that trip. I would of had fun. You are always so generous. Don't ever let Liam go, I can just see him moving onto a bitch and then realizing how you are the one for him. I love your guys' relationship, it's truly beautiful. Stay positive and remember I'm always there for you, even if it's from the soul.

Ceceilia, I love you so much. When Niall left for the X-Factor you were always there for me. You were the one that kept me alive during the time of need. I had no one besides you. Gosh, life is going to be so hard without you. I feel like we will still find a way to see each other, well I'll always try to see you. Do me a favor and don't hold on to my death. Promise me we will always be best friends, but you will try to have fun with Per, El, and Dani. I love them, and we spent the remainder of our friendship with them. Love you so much Ce.

Niall, the love of my life, please don't forget me. I know we ended in bad terms, but I love you so much. Even after what you did. I just want you to know that I forgive you. Don't ever blame yourself. We have known each other for so long, I couldn't bare to think of leaving this Earth with you feeling horrible. It was my time to go. I guess I wasn't supposed to be here. But, thank you for making my life amazing. I don't see myself ever having a childhood without you. You're so amazing. You have treated me like your princess since the first day we went out. Gosh, it's so hard to say goodbye, but please move on. Don't hold on to what you did in the past. Move on to the future and forget about these last two weeks. I love you so much, that will never change, and I will never forget what we had. Love, Kacey.

I set the note on the side table and waited for my father to come downstairs. I heard footsteps and my body shivered.

"It's about time I removed you from this Earth." He pulled out a knife and I whimpered as he pulled me up. "Goodbye Kacey." He brought the knife up.

"WAIT!" I heard someone scream, but it was too late the knife had already entered my stomach and my world went dark.

A/N- hey guys! Two updates in one day! WOW! I was crying writing this chapter. There will only be a few left after this one. Stay with me! Keep hearting, commenting, and following! I love you guys! -Maddie :)