UntitiledAs I think of allThe years gone byOf the dreams that time did bendI can’t help but wonderWhere and whenThis trail will come to end
Will I be forcedTo stand aloneAs I try to face the dayOr will I find loveAnd a gentle touchTo help me find the way
There was a timeOf hopeful dreamsAnd joy came with each dayAnd though it wasBut years agoIt seems a lifetime away
I do not knowWhere that young man wentHis eyes did shine so brightBut I miss himJust as I miss herEach and every night
In the days of youthThe world was butAn oyster in its shellWith each failed attemptTo open it…I found another kind of Hell
I found the HellOf knowing thatAll I held so dearI couldn’t haveDespite my dreamsBut, God, it felt so near
It felt so closeI was so sureI could touch it any dayBut now it feelsWithin my heartSo very far away
What I wanted mostWas just someoneSpecial to call my ownAnd I’d hold her closeThrough every nightAnd we’d have a happy home
I had not dreamsOf grand de

AngelsI have always thought that angels, wore halos and wings of white. But now I find they wear hard hats and black coats with yellow stripes. And angels, in my mind, wore long flowing gowns of white but now I see dark pants and shirts and badges shining bright. And angels always floated, with bare feet above the ground not true! For they wear steel toed boots and go where death is found not all angels have smooth hands that look like porcelain some angels have torn gloves and cuts and burns upon their skin. And while I thought all angels glowed from heavens light I see an angel cutting steel, his torch is shining bright And while these earthly angels passed buckets of debris the angels up in heaven looked down on bended knee so while the smoke continued to rise into the sky, I watched the rescue workers weep, I've seen the angels cry.

The Day The Towers Fell.....A sad day for AmericaAs rejoicing rang from hell,Awakening a mighty giantOn the day the towers fell.
Our hearts were saddenedAs we watched this vicious act unfold,As innocence met a fiery deathAnd seeds of war were sowed.
Shouts rang out from the middle eastThat Allah has done his goodBut no god joys in faultless deathsThrough certain cowards could.
America just sort of glides along,But don't step on her toes ...For her belief in right and justiceWill stomp out freedom's foes.
~ Author Unknown ~

Things I Need To Do TodayChange the sheets on the bed
Laundry
Take out the trash
Assemble the lamp
Fix the closet, since they don't seem to know what molly screws are
Hit the gym
Remember my camera
SEE THE MOTHERFUCKING DEFTONES!!!!
Gloat
Post pictures
Gloat some more

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Rado Watches Have An Esoteric And Mystique Charm
The initial success of the brand was followed by number great models like Rado Watches_Rado Ceramica watches_replica rado watches. In this the watch and the bracelet so harmoniously blend that they look like a single unit. Rado Sintra Watches employ unique materials giving the watch a highly futuristic tone. Rado True emanates sheer extravagance of wealth and luxury. Laced with opulent diamonds, employing state-of-the-art ceramics and magnificent looking sapphire crystal glass, the watch embodies the rare luxuries found in the palaces of great kings and queens of bygone years. Rado Coupole Watches have an esoteric and mystique charm with its balanced use of ceramics and stones while retaining the present day elegance. Rado though luxurious in its use of all kinds of unique materials, is ideally suited to withstand the wear and tear of an active life. It is heat resistant in a remarkable way. So, the contemporary fashion conscious man chooses a Rado Watches_Rado Ceramica watches_repl

The Omega Seamaster 300m- Different Coloration Schemes
A brilliant design, high end performance, fine looks. These are only a few of the expressions that is used to describe the superb omega seamaster watches_omega watches_Omega Seamaster Planet Ocean watch. This wristwatch can go to depths of 600M and continue to exist, does this mean its ugly? Simply have a look, it will be a classic in years to come. A scratch resistant sapphire crystal face gives the ultimate defense whilst the co-axial chronograph makes the watch tick. Many hard wearing materials can be found for the band including rubber, red gold, leather and stainless steal. A solid and remarkable coloration scheme for the principle part of the watch consists of orange, silver and black.
The Omega Seamaster 007 was featured in a movie that was a part of the notorious James Bond series. James Bond, as i’m sure you may all know, wears the watch due to its grade A top quality and visually beautiful appearance. In spite of everything 007 wouldn’t be seen in any outdated

9/11September 11,2001 is a day we will as a nation remember. Like during Pearl harbor, the Apollo deaths, the Challenger explosion we will remember where we were. Tuesday I was at Staten Island. I watched in horror as the first plane dove into the WTC buildings.
With shock and dismay I stood there unable to help or move. Then a few minutes passed until we were able to hear the faint sounds of emergency crews responding to the crisis. Hope for the survivors filled my heart.
Then the second plane came crashing in and a wave of nausea rolled over me, my knees grew weak. I watch from Staten, a place I considered my home, flames belched from the second tower. Tears clouded my eyes and made it hard to see.
Later I over heard someone say that another plane had crashed in Washington killing more. Another hijacked plane had crash in Pennsylvani

Staring A Vampire, Gothic Bdsm Group In CaliforniaI would like to start a munch/social play group in Southern California, dedicated to goth, vampire, pagan, and bdsm play. I'm in the Riverside,CA area.We''d have munches, socials, and play parties. I think it would be great. What do you all think?Master Mel

Acceptance.few realize this word. ACCEPTANCE, means to be unconditional taken for who they are or what they stand for. Too many judgements pass without so much as a thought required to think of what it may be truly like to be "in someone else's shoes". We make "assumptions" based on looks, appearance, and attitudes, but these are merely NOT enough "grounds" to decide if a person is truly worthy of our respect. If we dont learn acceptance at a point to where a person may be in their lives, then how can we make assumpmtions, or "judgements" on whether we can befriend them or not? HAVE we walked in someone elses shoes? people do wrong, they make mistakes, but where is forgiveness in a persons heart? Where is love and unconditional "help"....to a point....mind you, towards a person who may be lost, lost to the point of no return, lost to the point of just no longer caring anymore. We get angry at people simply because they gave us a "stare"across the room, or simply because they seem "stupid" in our

Reventura-ingNow that that training camp for the Dallas Cowboys is over, I was able to get back in to hotel I was at on my trip before last.
Had a pretty warm welcome back, everyone here remembered me, and they even saved my old room for me when they found out I was coming! I didnt think I'd get back in the same spot, with the hot tub/pool/bbq literally 50-60 ft out the patio door.
I like when life smiles on ya in lil doses.
This trip will also put me over the top as a platinum member, so Im gonna have to see what kinda goodies are available thru the reward program.

The Three Way - Continuations In Sexual HarrassmentI had mentioned in the blog comments of my sexual harrassment blog about a story involving a threeway.
No not that kind of threeway, but yeah, that's where the harrassment comes in.
This woman at work was talking about how she was e-mailing two other women, one at one company, and one at another. She and the woman at the abc company were having problems e-mailing the woman at xyz company. So she said on the phone "I'll have my I/T department look at it."
We overheard her, and I said "Oh now we are your I/T department eh?"
She came into the office and sighed "I am having problems with my three way e-mails"
After a moment of silence I asked "Well, who initiated the three way?"
She said that she did.
So I asked "Have you successfully had three ways in the past?"
She said that she did.
I asked "Are you always the initiator?"
She indicated that sometimes one of the other women did.
I said "And when did your threeway problems start occuring?"
At this point my co-worker sai

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Ny Mosqueif you believe in the bible then you also believe in though shall not judge. Ok so what are the pastors doing threatening to burn these books it is out right as americans to be able to practice our religion no matter what it is without fear of attack or persacution. what kind of message are we as americans showing the rest of the world we are about seriously all people that are against the mosque and believe in god and are citizens of this country are all hippocrates and its sickening this is what we have come to as a country

My Annual Pre 9/11 Reminder And A Few Things Going On In The NationSo 9/11 is right around the corner and as usual I see the never forget pictures that flood the internet and fubar, and it seems to be the only time anyone cares is when the anniversary happens. What happened on 9/11 I personally will never forget as i was in the city that week just a few blocks away. I went to visit a couple of high school buddies who had just gotten out of college and landed good jobs.
I was on my way to the towers cuz, naturally, I hadn't seen em before. Little did I know that would be the first and last time I would ever see them. Nor did I know that I would never see my friends again either. It hasn't been easy since then but, like everyone else, I am troopering through life.
As I Have every year since 2001 I've never forgot what's happened and the significance of it. I do not just remember around the time of sept. 11th, but everyday. To deal with the emotion around sept. 11th I do what I have done every year since it happened, I live my normal life and I d

Remembering The Twin Towers Nine Years LaterRemembering the Twin Towers nine years later
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ALBANY, GA (WALB) –Tomorrow is the 9th anniversary of the September 11th terrorist attacks on our nation. It's a day that changed our country forever.
Even though it's been nearly a decade, it's still fresh in the minds of so many of us. That horrific day in history still resonates with people here in Albany.
Dr. Nancy Anson volunteered with the Red Cross to counsel victims after the attack. Rose Palazzolo lost her cousin when the Twin Towers were hit.
Watching the towers fall was like a scene from a movie. "It looked like hell on earth and it was hell. Hell on earth," said Dr. Nancy Anson. She learned about the attacks from her son, who lives in New York. "He said 'Mom I'm okay'. And I said 'I'm glad to hear that.' He said mom the towers were hit, but I'm okay," she said.
One week later Anson was in new York listening to stories and council those in grief. "Survivor guilt, If

Open Letter To TerroristsDear terrorist,
I am an American and you don't know me.
I am nobody in particular but I am also all Americans, and you don't know me.
I am an American and you have bowed my head, but it is not bowed in defeat or resignation. My head is bowed in prayer and in sorrow, and you don't know me.
The fact that you don't know me will be why you will be defeated.
Where you cannot and will not accept or allow differences of opinion or religion in you midst I accept it. You don't know me.
America is often a very noisy place because we openly showcase our differences of opinion and conviction. You see that as dissention, and indeed we have those who shamefully use our differences for that purpose, but it is really the way we reach a consensus. You permanently eliminate anyone who differs with you. We shout at each other and often laugh when it is over. You don't know me.
America accepts Protestants, Catholics, Jews, Sikhs, Taoists, and Muslims too. We accept people from every country in the

Its Only What You GiveMost of you will never know how fucked up I really am, and I don't blame you for nevering caring to know. However, I have been caring, exceptional in sweetness and loyalty...I have been a great dad, when given the chance. I have been a unconditional partner and a wonderful friend. I have been a good son and a suportive brother...but my oprah runs short. Sometimes things happen to people for a reason, the reason isn't always favorable or welcomed. But sometimes, jus sometimes even the unimaginable is welcomed...then, theres nothing to lose, nothing to gain...theres no hope or much faith. its a horrible way to live......thats why it may bring me to death.
Not looking for pity or anything....I dont even expect anyone to read this actually...take care of yrself, cuz no one else will.
its been fu Fu's
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It's Back!Finally, it's here. What do I speak of? Football! Watched the first game lastnight and the Saints won, thank God. They beat the Vikings and stupidass Farve. I hate that guy. Geez I hope this is his last year, finally. Guess we'll all see, right? Go 49ers!

RootsMy father answered the phone. Without a greeting, I asked, “Isn’t it beautiful?”
“It is,” he said. “It is.”
We were referring to the rain, the rain that has avoided us for months and now has arrived, a long-overdue visitor. We will feel grateful if it stays for the rest of the day, but hope in our hearts that it will linger for a week.
The chickens needed tending, so I donned a rain coat and headed out into the rain, sweet rain. Though my jeans were instantly soaked by the southern-slanting drops, I didn’t mind. I raised my face to be washed by the sky, delighted in the cold squish of toes in my waterlogged shoes. I splashed through puddles, resisted the urge to dance, and cheerfully delivered the morning’s food to my girls, who were all unhappily cooped up. Unlike me and my garden and the many thousands of acres of row crops surrounding me, the hens haven’t minded the lack of rain. But, despite their obvious discon

Life Begins AgainI long for the days without a care,
Summer days playing catch with the dog.
Of an endless freedom of youth,
Now almost hidden in my 9 to 5 fog.
To be young and carefree again,
Would be a wonderment of its own.
Relive all my younger days,
Days that are long since gone.
The smiles and crys of the chilldren,
Put everything right in my mind.
They are the reason I've made it this far,
To this point and time.
With my tears in thier eyes,
My smile on thier face.
Through them my memoreys come to life,
And watch them grow in my place.
Even though I grow older,
My heart and mind stay young.
As each one takes its first breath,
Once again my life has begun.

Sometimes You Just Have To Realize...Sometimes you just have to realize...That no matter how much you love someone, they are never going to love you back.That when the writing is on the wall that is the truth, no matter what someone says.That if someone doesn't give you their time...you are not on their mind.That if a person doesn't make an effort...you are not worth their time.That actions speak louder than words.That if someone can't make up their mind to be with you, they aren't worth your time.That sometimes love is like a mirror and it is better to leave the pieces broken on the floor than to continue to hurt yourself trying to clean it up.That change happens when the PAIN of holding on becomes greater than the FEAR of letting go.
Something older I saw or wrote, I can't remember but I still like it.

Randomnicity Prt.1I often post some status updates just for sake of argument or thought. But, I recently find that not a lot of people get me. So, here's a blog to those who want to or even get bored and wonder what the hell randomnicity even means.
To start randomnicity is not a word by Webster's definition. I however have a firm belief that it should be. If you don't like it, that's fair "justswallowthepill". If I had a mantra this word be it! Not swallowing the pill, Randomnicity. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to understand crazy. I know what you're thinking, what is a place like me doing in a girl like this? I'm random, I practice it daily. I prefer not to be understood it makes the voices in my head feel just a little bit more special. I'm not a drug addicted alcoholic or some sort of crazy person that mutilates cats or suffocates dogs (I apologize to PITA just trying to make a point) I'm very well educated but, I know how to have fun and shut off the little part of me that says maybe you sho

Journey Of A TearI start down deep
Within a beating heart
Then something happens
And my journey starts
I have to possessions
So there's nothing to pack
Once I'm gone
I can never go back
My first stop
Is that lump in your throat
I can't help making
Your voice drop a note
I linger there
Just for a bit
My friends shortly follow
And there will sit
moving on up
I've found a colored orb
I'm just going to be
More than you can absorb
Dancing there
Making your nose run
Glimmering and sparkling
There is the sun
Now I fall down
From your eye
I'm sorry dear
I've made you cry
Now on your cheek
I leave a trail
My journey near over
I'm feeling frail
There I slide
Onto your chin
From whence I came
Others begin
My demise is on
the front of your shirt
The journey of a tear
Hope it has worth

Untitled PoemDarkness surrounds me
taking me in
filling my soul.
My heart feels nothing but hate
the love I had gone to never return
even after death.
As time passes
my heart dies more
I cut but do not bleed
I scream but no-one hears me.
I once believed in Light
but now I know the Dark
and I believe it will end the world.
Apocalypse is coming
and my time will come
when I leave this world for good.
Will God forgive me?
I highly doubt it
I do nothing right
not for the Light only the Dark.
Worship Luna Goddess of the Moon
Hades God of Hell

How To Listen To Tunes In LoungesIf your missing the Windows Media player plugin so you can listen to tunes in lounges the steps are simple. Since Firefox and Chrome use the same plugins your in luck.
1. got here http://port25.technet.com/videos/downloads/wmpfirefoxplugin.exe
2. after you download and install the plugin simply restart your browser and return to the lounge and BANG BOON ZOOM you have tunes.
Method 2 for windows users when you go into a lounge find the lounge player and right click on it then click Properties and the url to get tunes is there it will say http:// with numbers, and place it in Itunes, Windows media player or Winamp but going to file then open url and place the url you got from the properties there.
If your using a MAC or Linux when you go into a lounge find the lounge player and right click on it then click Properties and the url to get tunes is there it will say http:// with numbers and place it in Itunes or what every you use to listen to streaming. If your using Linux you may nee

My PoemMy hallowed sanctum has now been tainted
by the kiss of death that lurked last night
leaving me hopeless my heart froze quickly
engulfing all my great courage with fright.
Death struck last night with perfect precision
draining the entire life from what I hold within
my heart was drenched with the taste of sorrow
send ghostly chills all over my frozen skin.
I was hopelessly left without a soul or a heart
to face all my fears with my own naked essence
aching with hurt I face the end with no shoulder
gazing into the eyes of evils very own presence.
I truly fear that my time has now come to pass
lost in the chambers of pure lifeless sorrow
the realms of darkness now hold my soul
lifeless forever as it will not see tomorrow.
My heart is now dead but my soul lives on
in the chambers of darkness where evil hides
yet shackled eternally my soul will cry forth
for I am in hell where pure sin resides.

Personal HellFear and anxiety
Panic and rage
These in my life
Are another page
I stand there feeling
All eyes on me
I can't imagine
Just what they see
Is it my hair
Maybe my nose
Or it there something
Wrong with my clothes
I want to run
There's nowhere to hids
Please make it stop
This terror inside
I'm tired of trying
only to fail
I feel so trapped
And completely frail
There are no bard
But it's a cell
My heart's very own
Personal Hell

ClarityThe love I give
Is with true sincerity
But somehow it is met
With laughs of hilarity
This has caused
Me great disparity
I'm not looking
For charity
Just a little
Honest clarity
This is not for drama
Or even a parody
Please put away
Your insincerity

Within A ManWithin a man
Is a sense of pride
When for his family
He can provide
A desire to live
A happy long life
Sharing it with
His loving wife
A wealth of knowledge
To share with his kids
And strong kind hands
To tackle stubborn lids
The instinct to protect
whatever the fight
And a sense of humor
Making moments light
An Abundance of love
Beating in his heart
Comes pouring out
Though he protects that part
The sight of a child
Crying in pain
Brings out raw emotion
From his heart and brain
The knowledge with God
All things can be done
And his teaching this lesson
With strictness and fun
Inside that tough shell
All of this and more
Is what makes up
A good man's core

Crippling InsanityCrippling insanity
this fear
held within
shown without
Crippling insanity
my brain
never knowing
always understanding
Crippling insanity
another day
passing time
slipping away
Crippling insanity
our society
normal people
crazed world
Crippling insanity
last breath
giving up
living again

Should Have Done My HairShould have done my hair
Battered and bruised
Heart totally used
Should have done my hair
Hit the ground
Without a sound
Should have done my hair
Glass and broom
Another hospital room
Should have done my hair
Another police report
Swollen mouthed retort
Should have done my hair
Mom's on phone
You're all alone
Should have done my hair
Final law suit
You friggin brute
Should have done my hair
Now you see
Can't have me
Should have done my hair
See him stare
Now I care
Should have done my hair
Know that man
Yes I can
Should have done my hair

What Do We Do With The Ones We Miss? Its true we have all lost someone near and dear to us.... But what exactly do we do to remember them or do we let them dwindle away and forget them a lil' at a time..... I remember Jason like it was yesterday but the little things is what I have a hard time remembering.....
I can't remember how it felt when he touched me, or the sound of his voice, his cologne, and now slowly but surely his face is drifting away from me and I try to hold on as long as I can.... For seven years to the day I have been holding onto a memory that isn't really a memory.......
I just can't believe that I have let his memory almost fade away..... So for u Jason D. Morrison I Love You and always will baby I miss you more than my words can possibly say...... Today is in Rememberance of you my first true love who was taken way to soon..... July 19, 1976 - September 10, 2003
Operation Iraqi Freedom was how I lost you... You was sent on our b-days July 19, 2003 you were gone September 10, 2003! We M

Mix And MatchThis should keep ya goin for a while
Match these last words to the person who uttered them before they died.
1."I have a terrible headache."
2."This is funny."
3."Shoot me in the chest!"
4."Vancouver! Vancouver! This is it! This is..."
5."Please don't let me fall"
6."My wallpaper and I are fighting a duel to the death. One or the other of us has to go."
7."Curtain! Fast music! Light! Ready for the last finale! Great! The show looks good, the show looks good!"
8."I'm shot!"
9."Dying is easy, comedy is hard."
10."If you don't like it, you can just fuck off!"
11."Strike the tent."
12."Crito, I owe a cock to Asclepius. Will you remember to pay the debt? "
13.[Asked by Mrs. Clark if he knew what day it was.] "Oh, yes; it is the glorious Fourth of July. It is a great day. It is a good day. God bless it. God bless you all. [He then lapsed into unconsciousness. He awakened later, and mumbled] Thomas Jefferson..."
14."How were the circus receipts in Madison Square Gardens?"
1

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Roxette - Listen To Your HeartI know there's something in the wake of your smileI get a notion from the look in your eyes, yeahYou've built a love but that love falls apartYour little piece of Heaven turns too darkListen to your heart when he's calling for youListen to your heart there's nothing else you can doI don't know where you're going and I don't know whyBut listen to your heart before you tell him goodbyeSometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhileThe precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeahThey're swept away and nothing is what is seemsThe feeling of belonging to your dreamsListen to your heart when he's calling for youListen to your heart there's nothing else you can doI don't know where you're going and I don't know whyBut listen to your heart before you tell him goodbyeAnd there are voices that want to be heardSo much to mention but you can't find the wordsThe scent of magic, the beauty that's beenWhen love was wilder than the windListen to your heart when he's calling for youListen to your h

Dedicated To My GirlIM MISSING HER DAY AND NIGHT
WOULD LOVE TO HOLD HER CLOSE AND TIGHT
WOULD NEVER LET GO FOR ETERNITY
WOULD LOVE AND CHARISH FOR EVER MORE
WOULD MAKE LOVE TO YOU TILL YOU SAY NO MORE
WOULD LOVE YOU MORE FOR YEARS TO COME
WOULD LOVE TO HEAR YOU SCREEM ( IM GONNA CUM )
WOULD DO YOU ANY PLACE YOU NEED
WETHER ITS HERE OR IN A SMALL CREED
WILL FIRST MAKE OUT ON THAT SPECIAL ROCK
WHILE YOU RUB ON MY HARD COCK
WOULD LOVE TO HEAR YOUR VOICE FOR ONCE
TO SAY I LOVE YOU NOW AND WILL SAY IT TWICE

I Love This.. Please Read :dHer hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was 'Daddy's Day' at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school, eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees, a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone too meet. Children were squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats. One by one the teacher called, a student from the class to introduce her daddy. As seconds slowly passed, at last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, for a man who wasn't there. "Where's her daddy at?" she hea

Hey..updatesWe got my son's blood work back and he does not have cystic fibrosis. (yayyyyyy) but he is still in the borderline stages for it.
I am back in Tennessee. My mother was able to get the house she was after so we are in the process of moving. I have no internet at home at the moment so I have to come to the library from time to time. I will keep you updated as I am able though.. miss you all
lots of love,
glenda(rebelrose32)

Death, You Are My Bitch LoverWhat are you listening to right now?My dad. Text messaging his internet hos.Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?You know what happens to young girls in Mexico? If you're LUCKY, you get some heroin filled breast implants (like on nip/tuck) and sent back over the border. If you're ugly you just get your ID stolen and you're a sex slave. It's not all sunshine and jose cuervo anymore.What did you do today?Hahaha woke up.What were you doing at 10pm yesterday?Putting on my party shorts probably.What color is your mailbox?Grey or something. Whatever it is it's shitty looking.Have you ever hit a deer?Unfortunately not. I'd like to hit one with a bullet.Is your hair naturally straight or curly?Like 110% sexy.Does anything hurt on your body right now?No. I still have alcohol in my system.Do you often cry during a movie?Man, all the time. It's so embarrassing. Two words: Forrest Gump.Do any of your friends have kids?YES.If you were born the opposite sex, what would your parents name you?Kingston.

Words To Live Or Die By..Lately, I’ve been reading some works by Charles Bukowski. Quite a poet and I think I finally found someone who wrote what I’m thinking , for example :
"Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead."
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"We're all going to die, all of us, what a circus! That alone should make us love each other but it doesn't. We are terrorized and flattened by trivialities, we are eaten up by nothing.
"there are worse things
than being alone
but it often takes
decades to realize this
and most often when you do
it's too late
and there's nothing worse
than too late"
"My ambition is handicapped by laziness"
"If you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose"
And my personal favorite :
"there is a loneliness in this world so great
that you can see it in the slow movement of
the hands of a clock.
people so tired
mutilat

Some News....Ok so I bought the brand new 11lbs weights... I gave them a try just to see how my body would react... they're fine I think :-)
it's gonna be a hard workout from Monday on, but hopefully it'll be worth it :-)

Forsake Of Your Reflectionwhat would u do if ya world went cold would u bow down or make yaself get up pick up da pieces and grow old keep on goin now show the sun how to set and rise even when all u see is darkness turn into ya nightmares and rise let the sun grow up and bright keep on movin and movin till ya day seems right

I'm Sorry BabyHow could I be so stupid To let you slip away I had you in my arms But I let you slip away I want you back But now it's too late I've already said goodbye And now love had turned to hate I want to go back in time And fix all that was wrong Change all of my regrets So we didn't fight as long The regrets are what f**ked it up And they were all my fault I was so immature I should of acted like an adult I broke my own heart When I walked out on you Now it's too late And I can't undo I still love you But no-body knows We are no longer together Because of what I chose It was a bad decision And now I want you here Never far away Always near So please take me back And catch me when I fall Cause I need you right now More than anything at all.

One Last ChanceI’m sorry you can’t trust me And won’t ever let me in I’m sorry you don’t believe in me And that I could not win I’m sorry for not being perfect And being able to break your fears I’m sorry for messing up And causing all your tears I’m sorry I can’t fix it And make you want to stay I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough And now I have to pay I’m sorry I ever doubted it And made you second guess I’m sorry I was so stupid You haven’t seen my best

Hello My Friends!!!hello everyone after a time I greet them, I was very busy with my work.I am grateful to all his gifts and his friendliness. I will only say to them that the woman of the photos it is me who is, I already will have my time and will arm a greeting blessings for all!!
KIOSK OF NEWSPAPERS
Wonderful!!!!!! The page is opened and all the newspapers of the world appear like in a kiosk with his lids of the day of the date in which you open the page, being able to choose the one that you want to see, between all of them.
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My Feet Still Hurt
Where am I? I am home in Glasgow, that’s where. I have been in London for a few days doing some interesting stuff and having meetings etc…nothing too exciting but I did get to perform at Heston Blumenthal’s staff party. For the record he is the nicest man on the planet, despite cooking weird and wonderful food and soup made out of rainwater (he didn’t make that though I suggested it with a puddle pudding on the side, it may appear on the menu) he is very cool.
It looked like the worst gig on the planet, a big bunch of folk of all nationalities in a sodden tent with rain battering down and a microphone that didn’t work. The microphone stand was assembled by me out of two cricket stumps and gaffer tape! There was no stage, I stood on a plastic chair and shouted at people, and luckily I was funny. The crowd laughed at some of the info I had gleaned off the staff.
The next night Heston was presented with an award at the GQ man of the Year as best c

Read Me!I've always been told that you should avoid political discussion with most individuals, as you should religious. However, Im going to assume that the vast majority of you have some type of intelligence floating around in your brains, somewhere, even if it is an *extremely* small amount for some.
I’m crazy unhappy about the Koran burning party that some preacher is trying to throw in Florida tomorrow, in remembrance of 9/11. It makes me angry to a point that I didn’t think it was possible to be at a preacher, other than Westboro Baptist's lunatic leader. I don’t understand "Christian" leaders, who advocate hate towards other religions, or people, or anyone at all really. Even if they look at it and say "9/11 was Muslims, this must be they all advocate violence", it’s still stupid, based on a couple of key points.
1. Not ALL Muslims advocate acts such as 9/11. I personally know a few people of this religion...and *none* of them advocate events like th

LiesThere are a couple of positive things in my life right now, I have my 2 beautiful baby girls back with me and I know that they will be happy healthy and safe. I also have the most amazing boyfriend, he has been so supportive comforting caring and loving, although I had to move back home with my parents everything is going to work out. He has faith that things will be fine and that no matter what happens I will not lose him because of all the drama with my ex. I love you baby, you mean this world plus so much more to me and I wish that I could still be with you right now but I will see you again soon and I can't wait! I love everything about you and you make me so incredibly happy I can't even say it enough, without you I don't know what I would have done when I had to go to Va for court, even though you weren't with me you still tried to comfort me over the phone. I miss you every minute that we are apart but when I do get to see you it will be utterly amazing, I miss your kisses and s

Boredom Inherited From Husky RedneckI was "tagged" by Husky Redneck to try and come up with a trivia question after answering his. So I have one.
Who was the assassin of the masked president of the fairies? Major Hint: it's from the movie Wizards. That's all the clues you get. And try not to use Google or Yahoo or any search engine.
First person to post the correct answer here gets a 1-credit bling, their choice.
Rock on!Shawn

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BE ON THE LOOK OUT AT THE USPS DON'T BUY!!!!!!!!!
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Apparently they think that putting hearts and butterflies on the new stamp will make most people not realize that the rest is Arabic and probably not something we want to support.
New Stamp - the second one!!! USPS New 44-Cent Stamp Celebrates a Muslim holiday. If there is only ONE thing you forward today... let it be this!President Obama has directed the United States Postal Service to REMEMBER and HONOR the EID MUSLIM holiday season with a new commemorative 44-Cent First Class Holiday Postage Stamp.

Be On The Look Out At The Usps Don't Buy!!!!!!!!!
Apparently they think that putting hearts and butterflies on the new stamp will make most people not realize that the rest is Arabic and probably not something we want to support.
New Stamp - the second one!!! USPS New 44-Cent Stamp Celebrates a Muslim holiday. If there is only ONE thing you forward today... let it be this!President Obama has directed the United States Postal Service to REMEMBER and HONOR the EID MUSLIM holiday season with a new commemorative 44-Cent First Class Holiday Postage Stamp. REMEMBER to adamantly & vocally BOYCOTT this stamp, when you are purchasing your stamps at the post office.

I Want, I NeedI WANT, I NEED!I want you oh so badly! I daily call your name.Even though you are not with me,I feel you just the same.I need to touch your body,And feel you move in close.Then lips to lips together,And chest to breast as a toast.I need to twirl you in my arms,Then lie you on my bed.I need to scatter kisses,From your toes up to your head.I want to give you pleasure,For me it’s just a part,Of showing you my darling,What lies within my heart!
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I Don't CareWhat color your name is, what you rate me (if you rate me). I don't care about your nsfw's. I don't care if you crush me, like me, rate me or add me. I don't care about any of the nonsense on here, I look past that...I look to the person I'm talking to. I'm here for the friends I've already made and the ones I hope to make...I don't have the ambition for the popularity contest. I'm too old for high school and the bs it put forth. There are certain people that keep me grounded here through the madness. Just thought I'd throw this out there...

The Last Defense Of The Guilty Is Accusing The InnocentWell the fuckers are at it again. And this time accusing me of stealing my own code. so lets see now beside the lounges i have done mydself .. by proxy i can add two more to the list. SF and club socal. What sad is the lack of understanding as to what makes the code work. the best part is they keep stealing old versions of my code so i tend to laugh alot. jsut further goes to show... my innovation v thier sad attempts at imitation. So thanks agian who ever is passing out the code i wrote in in Trivium ... sooner or later my code will be in every lounge in fu .. just the ones i have done will be fully functional...alright that being said. i have bigger shit to worry about any more than poor reproductions of my work . thanks for making me famous yet again .. I see they have taken my advice though send in the morons and the imitators. cause this just keeps gettin more entertaining.
hint .. were u ppl to ask for help with ur own code i would gladly help. but i will not fix my code th

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Phase TwoToday is one of those days where I came on here to do what I need to do to level up,but its just not in me right now.Someone on here that I like posted a statement on here that made me think of a young woman who really changed my world.The statement was If you love someone and set them free....if they come back they are yours.....if you have to stalk them then its not meant to be.I don't know who reads these but I am going to tell you why I have made this my escape hatch for now.This young woman I am talking about was fourteen when I met her.I was forty-two.We worked together in a business that I own now.At first we were just friends but as she got older we became a lot closer to where we were confiding with each other about our problems as well as some deep personal things.So we grew closer still.She knew about my marital problems and would encourage me to look within myself and change the things what were making me unhappy.One day after coming back from the mountains I asked her woul

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Think anyone would play?
Yes, I'm just plain bored.
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This Mornings Travels.Right now I have to walk my kids to school. Normally they're bused but they have a policy that states when you reach a certain grade you have to live outside of a certain distance in order to take the bus. Otherwise you have to wait for an empty seat (which is what I must do.) Anyway, I walked my girls to school this morning as I have every morning and on the way home I dealt with the stupidest male on the planet or the most ignorant (not sure which yet, maybe both).
So here I was walking down the sidewalk at 8 in the morning, wearing jogging pants, my favorite hoodie and using my cane. Uber sexy attire at 8 in the morning I know. I still wasn't fully awake because as far as I'm concerned, conversation of the verbal kind should not occur before noon if you want to be coherent.
At the crosswalk a red pickup truck pulls to the corner, blocking my way. So I do the nice thing (instead of what I really wanted to do which was curse him out for being an idiot and nearly hitting a woman wit

The Bush - Chapter 1
I'm not sure if I should even be writing about this, but I just feel like I have to tell someone. It all started with an excited call from my friend Tyler at about 10 pm last Thursday, August the 19th.
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About MeMy name is Guillo, which is an American shortening of the spanish name "Guillermo." A very fitting name for me as my heritage is esentially deep spanish via Cuba on my fathers side, and American dating back to such people as Andrew Jackson and Daniel Boone on my mothers side. I have never actively kept up on a blog, but am interested in writing fiction loosely based on my real life experiences. I am an avid rare alpine native plant and whitewater kayak enthusiast, among other things, and enjoy bringing people into my world to share my experiences in this life. I have started a story called "The Bush" which I have every intention of keeping up on as often as I can. Feel free to leave me comments and let me know what you think. Any criticism I don't like I can always delete right? LOL. Thanks for reading.

Juggalo Fam Read ThisOk I got this from "ICP Fans Against Juggalo's" blog site. so i didnt come up with this.. but this letter caught my attention an even though as he states on his blog it's old i still think it has just as a powerful effect now as it did when first written.. but these are my opinons.. but don't take my word for it, read it yourself.. and tell me what you think.Words from Violent J himself, this shit is soo true we need to love this family more. ....-JUGGALOZ-Sorry to be all deep and serious but i got lots of shit on my mind.I'm tired of everything and everybody. The only thing i give a shitabout in this hell we call a world is my Juggalo Family. The Carnivalsaved my life and my soul. My Juggalo Pride is the best thing that everhappened to me. It's starting to scare me for the fact when I sit backand actually observe the juggalo world, It seems like its going downhill. It seems to me that a lot of ninjas are out for self and trying toprove whos a bigger juggalo that who. There is no big o

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The 4 Females That Shape My Everyday Life Some ask me how it is that every waking moment I get delt a shitty ass hand an some ppl continue to keep wanting or needing things from me even though they know all to well that I don't have much to give let alone be able to support myself. But,I keep trying my best and still no ounce of a break nor peace in sight. So when asked why haven't you given in or gave up? How can you still smile and joke and get up in the day to keep pushing on?
Well I have 4 females in my life that have been through hell and back in so many different ways and times through their lives.
My grandmother has wisdom that surpasses the greatest of minds, even in the darkest of times she can walk through the thickest of shadows
with no pause nor fear as if she created her own guiding light made of her faith, purity, and just plain Grace.
That is where I get my faith and smile in the middle of complete chaos.
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Can Dreams Come True??The woman of my dreams, right in front of my face. There's no amount of money, that could replace, this feeling she's given me. With a passing glance I feel serenity. No woman in this world can compare. Cought up in her beauty, but I'm too shy to stare. I open my mouth, but the right words are never there. It's like a teenage crush, the one that you can not touch. Just the thought of her can makes me blush. Her smile gives me such a rush.An unexplainable emotion, set adrift on an ocean of perpetual bliss. Fantasies would become reality if I could feel a single kiss. The definition of perfection in every single way.When I look into her eyes, the problems of the world fade away. She's like an indescribable feeling brought to life. Like poetry in motion. A world of darkness brought to light. I may never make it to heaven, but God has blessed me with this.... Seeing you, he showed me a little piece of heaven and proved that angels do exist....

PhotographyI am sleepy as I write this blog, but I thought I would wrap up the night by updating my blogs. I don't get to write online as much as I used to, but this is one thing I love. A lot of my work now is wrapped up in photographing people at work places, buildings for their web sites, and even real estate for the real estate webs...so I thought I would do this just for fun. I am still an intermediate photographer, but the best way to become a better photographer is to practice, so I thought I would see if anyone is interested.
I do a lot of business 'stuff', and my true passion is in the art of photography. I don't care if people are naked, clothed, climbing ropes, in a dungeon, hitting a baseball...it is the true reason I love photography. It is the moment in time when a scene is frozen forever...and printed or put on a web page for eternity. I am still working at getting better, so I just got some new gear, read a whole lot of technical stuff on the "what if" and I think I am ready to a

Fairy TaleKnew a few and many things
Once upon a time
Knew beyond all certainty
Happily never after
Was alwayz so far behind
Hadn't a hope for such frivolous things
Chasing through ones dreams
Living on the edge of reality
Beseeching such meaningless things
Knowing not where to find my knight
Still looking for meaning
All that it brings
I know I'm not the only one
Searching for the yellow brick road
Deeming it as crazy thoughts
Yet dreaming of that one toad
That will turn into the prince(cess)
We don't want the unreachable
Just a glimpse into our own personal neverland

To Whom It May Concern.....To Whom It May Concern,
The day that we say goodbye, I won't cry. I won't miss you, or your lies. I promise I'll try, to keep my smile deep down inside. Although the pain may never subside. It's a shame that you will never realize, how your actions have traumatized. Your broken promises could never dry those tears of disappointment that I have cried. No matter how hard you try, to ignore and deny. I will never wish for harm to come upon you or for you to die. I can't erase you from my memory, I can only remove the sight of you from in front of my eyes."To err is human, but to forgive is divine". I'm sorry, but I'm all out of forgiveness. You had to "live your life", and now I have to move forward with mine. Don't worry about me. One day I will be fine. I've learned from your mistakes. So hopefully I won't have to learn from mine. You never earned the title of a Father, to me you will forever be just some guy. Father's are supposed to teach their sons lessons. Some are immediate a

My Words ♥ ♥you know it is quite often i find myself wondering what exactly is going through the minds others, since i was a child i strived to understand and comprehend the whys behind the actions people display , the words that leave peoples lips, perhaps if the simple action that i display which is thinking were in constant use before hand... that there could be less negativity, less confusion, and less tension in this world Karma the simple fundamental practice and idealolgy of what you do comes back to you common sense would dictate that more people would make the conscious effort to apply this in there every day off.. by all means the worse scenaro is karma does exist and even though you made life that much easier for yourself and those around you So what goes around comes around... Think before you act and before speak.....

The Free Will/motion Conundrum I'm drifting.
It's a hell of a thing to drift through your own life. To haunt the places you've called home, to live without really living. I don't even really know how long I've been here like this. It seems like an eternity, but it can't have been more than just a few months at most. I think most people would find it boring, and it is, but in a Zen kind of way. After a while, you just sort of tune out and ponder the greater meanings. Which is what lead me to thinking about this in the first place.
I guess the big question I keep asking is, “What is living?” I mean, what does it honestly take to constitute life? The more I think about it, it seems that living is progression. I've started to believe humans are more like sharks than we'd care to admit. We need to keep moving, propelling ourselves forward, or we'll die. If that's the case, does that make us mindless? Simple automatons that are active simply because we have to be? I think it does. We do the

Truth(something I Read And Like Bc Its So Very True)Sometimes people come into your lifeand you know right away that they weremeant to be there... to serve somesort of purpose, teach you a lesson orhelp figure out who you are or who youwant to become. You never know whothese people may be but when you lookeyes with them, you know that everymoment that you are with them, theywill affect your life in some profoundway. And sometimes things happen toyou at the time that may seem horrible,painful and unfair, but in reflectionyou realize that without overcomingthose obstacles you would have neverrealized your potential, strength,will power or heart.Everything happens for a reason!Nothing happens by chance or by meansof good luck. Illness, injury, love,lost moments of true greatness and sheerstupidity all occur to test the limitsof your soul. Without these small

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Don’t offer me a friendly hand nor a tender embrace of love Just let me surround myself with shadows and let my troubles eat me whole Don’t try to save me when I can’t be saved and keep your tender words for another day a day when the tides of my heart have changed and my soul flows the other way
But until that time remember that I love you and that you’re still the keeper of my heart but for the moment love is not my friend and your tender touch and sweetest smile are like poison to my aching soul So let me be Let me sit alone in the dark Let me find comfort in forgotten lusts Let me bandage my heart with solitude and dry my tears with time
I know that y

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PrisonerI pound at the walls of my soul until my fists begin to bleed I scream as loud as I can in hopes I'll find some kind of escape. From here the echoes pound in my head. The noise begins to fade away with no hope for love, no chance for life I cry… I'm a prisoner within my mind
As fear begins to grip my thoughts and choke the life strait from my eyes the tears that once blinded me, now force me to see the truth. The panic that grips my mind would love to see me die but it's cruel, unjust and painful scheme just gives some life to a broken soul. I'm a prisoner within my mind
The world will keep spinning despite the hate I feel inside and time will just keep moving along as if to mark my sentence here in Hell. I hear the ticking clock like war drums in my head but thoughts of silence wish my end. I'm stuck in the bowels of hell and now I'm a prisoner within my mind.

From Douchebag To Hustling? LmaoOK so my week started with my 5 year old daughter calling someone a douchebag. She used the word perfectly and even explained to me why the person was considered a douche. She is too smart and usually is very clever in her word choice to cause you to feel inadequate in many ways. This simple use of the word douchebag floored me. Today, my 10 year old daughter approached me as we were getting ready to leave the house and handed me a list of orders for Japanese erasers. She then said, "Mom, I have customers at school." I looked at her kind of confused at first and then realized what she was saying. She proceeded to explain to me that in the store we charge 99 cents for the erasers and with tax it comes out to $1.06 and stated, " Mom, I'm charging $1.50 and I want my 20% discount." I just stood there like an idiot I am sure and dropped my bag. So freakin adorable...but wow. :P

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The Sad Reality Of How Some Things Really Are...Tonight I had this sad realization of how some things really are in this world. It's not the first I've noticed but this time I saw how bad it is and how deep it runs.
There are people in this world who survive and thrive by profiting from those who don't see them for the predators that they are. Those of us who see them for the wolves they are can't tell everyone the truth and we can't stop them from preying on the ignorant. I have no choice but to walk away or turn a blind eye because I feel powerless against it. Of course I could just be overwhelmed and in shock from it. But still it's there.
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Danny Woodard: well even though its in a cyber bar
3:17pm
Danny Woodard: and your hot
3:18pm
NOT so PRE...: thank you..I sent you a beer
3:19pm
Danny Woodard: i returned the favor
3:19pm
Danny Woodard: w/a kiss
3:19pm
NOT so PRE...: thx
3:20pm
Danny Woodard: welcome
3:20pm
Danny Woodard: would u like top join me on my fubed
3:20pm
Danny Woodard: just got done working

Woodscome lay with me in the woodsfallen leaves as our bed..come strip me of my clothesand all things i might dread...let dappled sunlight dance across my breastsas you taste my nipples sweet..tease them with your tongueand suckle them as your teat...lay my legs open wideas i feel the wet heat begin..kiss those lips with your mouthand slide your tongue within...taste my honey sweet juiceslet them flow down your chin..make me cry out your nameas your tongue flicks out and in...make me cum till i drip onto leavescrunched beneath me on the ground..as i writhe with orgasmic gleemy moans the only sound...come to me with glistening facekiss me deep and long..so i can taste what you have foundthe scent of me still strong...come to me and let me suckand taste sweet pre-cum dripping..let me feel you harden in my mouthas my tongue slides round sipping...let me suck on you long and slowand bring you pleasure sheer..when the feeling is overwhelmingand the cumming is oh so near..then come and slide insi

Will You Knock?She laid there in her bed, with her nipples rock hardThe man rubbed his cock as he stood in her back yard.Looking through her windows trying to catch a peeklknowing his cum was ready to leak.She lifted up her gown & he watched as she rubbed herself up and downHer legs starting to spread, him wishing he was there with her in her bed.She moved her thongs to the side then her fingers started to glide.She put her finger inside her hole then was ready to lose control.Pushing her fingers deeply in, made him fuly grin.She pulled out her toy now she will feel the joy.Feeling the vibration, and using her imagination.His cock starting to grow as her juices now starting to flow.He rubbed his hand over his cock he couldn't take it no more he had to knock

Touch Of A ManAs u approach me, my heart starts to beat, fast,pulsing, racing with time. Kindling , and glowing , like we are to be intwined.Panting, gasping for my air to release from your fiery embrace,wanting , desiring, like i was wrapped in soft lace.You are there, slightly touching my silky skin,waiting for u to reach further within.You slide your hand down my arms, temperature risingfeed me , feel me, i can already feel a uprising.You move my hair licking and kissing at my luscious neck.oh touch me baby, for i will become such a wreck.You kiss me passionately on my luscious lips, you reach around me and start to grab my hips.Your kiss has done it, i start to melt and fall into your embrace.You gentley look at me staring into my beautiful face.You run your hands down across my back feeling my heat.oh my love i am feeling so good right down to my feet.Slowly u guide your hand to that satin pleasure,kissing down my chest and stomach looking for that treasure.Slightly , licking, savoring my delig

Is There Really Someone For Everyone???So I am really beginning to think that some people just aren't meant to find that true love...the kind that literally makes your heart melt... that causes you to forget to breathe when you are with them.
I read alot....mostly vampire romance/drama. I know what I want....but I just don't think there is someone for me. First off, being a divorced mom of three boys and working graveyard is like a major relationship killer right there. Some men will deal with one or the other, but not both. and yes, I have had men tell me exactly that. I do appreciate honesty, but sometimes...well sometimes you just don't want to hear it, ya know??!!
I want to find the guy who looks at me like I am the only woman in the world, who doesn't care that I totally hate mornings, and am absolutely miserable until I have at least two cups of coffee. The guy who just leaves a little reminder note, or text telling me that I'm his.... I want to hold hands and walk on the street and people be able to see the love w

Today Is Beautiful"A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: "I am blind, please help." There were only a few coins in the hat.
A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words. Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy. That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, "Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?"
The man said, "I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way." I wrote: "Today is a beautiful day but I cannot see it." Both signs told people that the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people that they were so lucky that they

Bend Me OverBend me over. Don't be gentle. Beat me. Don't be sentimental.Give me anger, disappointment... Be unbridled. Don't use ointment.Let your fingertips press harder.Let your lust reflect your ardour. Your hand will slowly tighten:Hold my breathing. You enlightenAll the hours that I awaitFor you to put me in that stateWhere I can service your desireScourge me with that heedless fireThat will fan me. I'll expire,Knowing you would have me spreadAnd well-mounted once I'm dead...Set on your harsh invasionOn almost any state occasion.I will fete you and adore youAs you sink into my core toMake me lie there, as in clover.Don't be gentle. Bend me over.

Koran Burning Called OffGAINESVILLE, Fla. — The Florida pastor whose plan to burn Qurans on Sept. 11 generated worldwide outrage among Muslims and pressure by the U.S. government to relent said late Thursday that he might not call off the protest after all.
Pastor Terry Jones told NBC News that "we are a little back to square one" after a supposed deal involving a proposed Islamic cultural center in New York evaporated.
At a press conference Thursday afternoon, Jones had said he was canceling the Quran burning because a Muslim imam had assured him that the proposed Islamic center could be moved away from the World Trade Center site in return.
Phil Sandlin / AP
Pastor Terr

What Stage Is Your Heart In? Repaired
You have a heart that has been repaired over and over again. You have kept your heart locked at some points and at others, have opened up. When you lost someone/something, you blocked everyone from getting into it. But then you opened up. You're the type of person that keeps opening up and getting their heart broken but repaired by someone else.

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Hmmmm....So i am in class wondering....
why does the truth get scarred more than a lie? is it because the lie feed the need of the people at the time and the truth is just that?
the truth brings to light the ugliness of the person that is the accused or the gulity...and the lie is the feel good numbing drug that decieves the masses...
maybe its me...i dont know....just a thought, i will build on this later

*i'm A MessI never got the chance to thank youI never got the courage to saySorry for all the times I let you downAll the times I ran away Maybe you're better offLeaving me this wayI'm a messI'm not perfectI have days where I just want to runInto the arms of someoneI'm not a heroI have doubtsBut unlike you I just never figured them outI thought I had this under controlI could finally breathe againWithout fear,without regretBut it all crumbled in the endSo lets not try and pretendHaving me stayWould be better this way
I'm a mess I'm not perfect I have days where I just want to run Into the arms of someone I'm not a hero I have doubts But unlike you I just never figured them outYeah unlike youI just never figured them out

NothingnessYou walk in shadows dark and gloomy.
You walk in silence never hearing a sound.
You walk alone on a path you won't share.
You keep yourself hidden in darkness.
You hide your heart and pain away.
You found love that warmed you.
You hid deeper in the darkness not letting it in.
You blocked the love from finding you.
You felt it burning you deep.
You still walk alone in darkness.
You still hid in the shadows.
You still block love out away from you.
You still turn from the warmth.
Your me
I'm you
We're one
We're none
We're ALL

My MusicI have escaped into my music today. Felt myself needing only my music. The world is to loud. It feels to much for me today. Contsant movement. Today I close my eyes and listen for my music. I miss my music. I miss the way it made me feel. Loved and special. I miss my music....It moved my soul and made me peaceful. My music has left me. My music is gone. My music My music........is gone. IMU my music............you know who you are............forever my music........always
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Nikki(bucbabe)Her smile flew distances,Through plains,mountains and streams.To see her during my night,She could only be a dream.But here in my day,She is before me.With all her sunlit beauty,For my eyes to see.My mind thinks shes a dream,My heart begs no dream is she.My hope is for now in my night and day,She will remain for my eyes to see.

The Midnight SkyWithin the candles of the midnight sky,Flow tears from my heart I cannot lie.~My love for you stands not alone,I pray the lord to bring you home.~I search the Heavens for your sweet smile,My loss of you my hearts denial.~At night I kneel and pray my love,Counting the candles, which flicker above.~I close my eyes and feel your touch,My dreams of you I love so much.~I look for you I cannot lie,Within the candles of the midnight sky.

Hello Another Testm
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babyjesus: Hey there! I'm Mike, the dude who runs this joint. The quickest place to learn more about fubar and have your questions answered is in the Help section. The Help link is right above this box in the navigation bar. Have fun and be careful...it can get addictive here! Don't forget to tip your bartenders!

RealizationIs it Me, or is it Fubar? So many people going so many different directions. Coming and going, Has life realy gone this virtual that nothing seems real when people have their obsession for socialization online rather than real Life. I miss Real life, Fubar I dont. I have met alot of great friends in here, but for the past few months I have been coming to terms with my own inner realization that what i really want in my life is not on any internet social networking site. The idea of having thousands of people i dont know on my friends list is just overkill, why would you want a online connection with thousands of people that you will probably never know, and probably never meet. I Understand if you are a celebrity of other Public figure, but i find it to be so irrevelant for anyone else. Timing is everything and everything happens in its own time. I appreciate the people that appreciate me for it is them that gives me the true meaning of friendship. I love you all my friends... Have

My Webcamming Career So Far...So, to make some extra cash, I decided to web cam. I have a few friends (girls) who do it and make a lot of money, so I tried it. I know its not women who watch, though, I would love that. But its different. I am an exhibitionist at heart, so it pretty exciting, but I dont make much money. IDK, maybe venting, but maybe I have to get a real job, and stop playing with myself for strangers, lol... just a thought....

SurveyHave you been to an emergency room in the past three months? Yeah, right. I don't have health insurance. I'd rather be dead than have medical bills. ** concurIf so, what for (patient, visitor)? What is your least favorite thing about the same sex? DB's, like serious.... this isnt the jersey shore What about the opposite sex? when i just say ok, i mean ok, not yes, not no, its an ok, its a decision that isnt really important, so please make it...like where to eat, if this place is good.... its ok, i can eat there or not, movies, everything, lol
Have you ever seen a bald eagle in person? yes
What type of rides do you like most at amusement parks? none, but i do like elephant ears Would you be willing to take a drug test right now? no
Has there ever been a time in your life that you would've failed that test? yes
Pick a SINGLE genre of music as your favorite? rockWhat are your feelings about adoption? important, kids need homesDo you think abortion should be outlawed? HELL NO. *** con

The Pussy Palace Is Full Of AbortionsHave you been to an emergency room in the past three months? Yeah, right. I don't have health insurance. I'd rather be dead than have medical bills. If so, what for (patient, visitor)? What is your least favorite thing about the same sex? Shoes with chunky heels and muffin tops. What about the opposite sex? They're needy ass bitches. And they always want blowjobs. Hello, how about my neck hurts. Have you ever seen a bald eagle in person? Hello, I'm so American I have a pet bald eagle. What type of rides do you like most at amusement parks? Yeah, let me go spend thirty bucks to get on some death traps, be around screaming children. And if all that isn't fun enough I can buy a eight dollar diet coke and not be able to smoke anywhere. Would you be willing to take a drug test right now? I mean it depends on what it's for but there is a VERY good chance I would pass. I'm proud. Has there ever been a time in your life that you would've failed that test? Why don't you ask DuPage County about

Not Always Right| Suffering From A-saltLibrary | Alabama, USA
(I’m the director of our small-town library. One of my summer volunteers is a 16 year old girl who is a diabetic. She works the lunch shift, and I allow her to eat her lunch at the checkout counter.)
Patron: *to the volunteer* “Hey, can you tell me if you have this book?” *hands over a sheet of paper*
Volunteer: *putting fork down* “Yes. It’s over here. I’ll go get it for you.”
(She walks away. I notice the lady at the desk sniffing the air. She looks around, clearly sees me staring at her, and proceeds to take a large bite of my volunteer’s food. She obviously doesn’t like it, and takes a large container of something out of her purse and dumps it all over the food. She takes another bite, and looks satisfied.)
Volunteer: *coming back* “Here’s your…wait. Why are you eating my lunch?”
Patron: “It was a free sample. And I must say, whoever made it is a terrible cook.

Not Always Right| At Least It’s Hands-free NowCall Center | Oslo, Norway
Caller: “My phone isn’t working.”
Me: “No problem. I can help you with that.”
Caller: “Good. I hate these things.”
Me: “Sir, can you locate the power button on the top of your mobile, hold it in for 10 seconds, and then release?”
(The customer is quiet, and then I hear a crash.)
Me: “What happened?”
Caller: “I did what you told me to do. Hold the button for 10 seconds and then release the phone.”
Me: “No, I meant release the button, not the whole phone.”
Caller: “Well, if it wasn’t broken earlier, it sure is now!”

Not Always Right| How To Ensure A Blanc StareGrocery Store | Ypsilanti, MI, USA
(A elderly couple come through my counter with some wine.)
Me: *joking around* “Are you sure you two are old enough to have this tonight?” *holds up wine*
Customer: “Kid, I have underwear old enough to buy that.”
Customers Wife: *laughs hysterically*

General FrustrationsI have so much to do around the house, but, I don't feel like doing any of it.
I got into a fight with a freind of mine and I feel bad about it because I yelled at him and in hindsight I don't think he deserved it, so, I told him I was sorry and things are all good again......
I feel asthough I need a vacation from my life as I know it.
I want to be somewhere else, do something I haven't done in a long time or do something I have never done....I am not sure where my life is heading, and I am not sure how I am getting there or who will be going with me on this journey, but, I can bet anything, it'll be one hell of a ride.

Not Always Right | Third Time Is Not CharmingOffice | Salt Lake City, UT, USA
(I work in a ground level office, and am usually the only one working within view of both the front and back doors.)
Customer: *coming in from the back hallway* “Hello, I’m here for my appointment.”
Me: “With who?”
Customer: “With [Name].”
Me: “I think you’re in the wrong office.”
Customer: “Oh, terribly sorry.” *goes back down to the backdoor, and reappears from the front door a few minutes later* “Hello, I’m here to see [Name] for my appointment?”
Me: “Ma’am, this is the same office. You have to go down the stairs in the parking lot to get to [Company Name]. They’re on the basement level.”
Customer: “Oh! That explains it, thank you!” *heads out the front door again, but wanders back down the back hallway almost immediately*
Me: “Still in the wrong place, ma’am. You need to go downstairs.”
Custome

SeveranceThe pain so old
the wounds all healed
i'm over the feeling
the darknesses pure destruction
the sun forgetting tomorrow
the stars may shine
and the moon may pass
getting over life's
progressive destruction
overcoming the fates
damning the tides
i sever that which beseeches us my darling
for all that we were
tied no longer
bonds worn thin
overturning my emotions...

Ys Seven Review:Achievements, Cheats, FAQs, Forums, News, Nintendo Review Blog, PSP Review Blog, Review, Review Blog, Sales, Trophies, User Reviews, Xbox Review Blog, Ys Seven
Ys Seven Review:
by Benjamin Shihadeh
Roll Dogi roll!
For those who are familiar with the Ys series, you will know that it usually revolves around two adventurers: Adol the Red and his companion, Dogi. And for those of you who enjoy a good Action RPG but have never heard of the Ys series before, you should be ashamed of yourselves. But, if I just so happened to pique your interest in this title, and you own a PSP, then you can redeem yourself by picking up Ys Seven. I’m willing to let go and forgive.

Growing UpAfter a while you learn the subtle differences between holding a hand and chaining a soul. ?? And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure that you really are strong and you really do have worth. And you learn and you learn with every goodbye you learn . . . Know one can give you self worth, you must find it inside of yourself. If you are looking for someone to complete yo

Sisters (for My Sis)You’re my sister
You’re my friend
I’ll love u till the very end
I’ll be Ur angel and give u wings
I’ll be Ur heart Ur be Ur anything
I’ll be lifeline cause u know I’m here
I’ll be Ur smilie to make them disappear
I’ll be Ur mind when u can’t think
I’ll be Ur words when u can’t speak
You are my sister
You are my friend
And I’ll love u till the very end
Cause sisters we are and sisters we will stay
And I will be there everyday
To wipe Ur tears to hold Ur hand
To be Ur guide when u don’t understand
I’ll hold u close
I’ll hold u near
I’ll hold Ur heart so it won’t disappear
But believe me sis when u here me say
I love you always and here I’ll stay

Lastnight And Into TodaySoooooooooooo how did my evening go...let me tell ya
1: Found out a buddy whom rode with a bunch of us got killed on his bike lastnight..ran into a truck owned by my neighbors grandad
2: Wake up this morning to find out a chick i know thru my lil sis was mutilated and her 8yr old son by some purple crayon fucker( her husband his step son) and infront of a 2yr old to boot...at least the fuck opted to kill himself too
3: while gettin a pac of smokes i see an incredibly hot homeless girl whom i was nice and brought out a danish and black coffee to her since she had a will work for food sign...she said thanks i said so you gonna work on your knees for it or should we hit up a dumpster(i was laughin and so was she cause she knew i wasnt serious)...cop behind me heres it and asks if i need to be locked up for trying to solicit a prostitute...i state i was merely joking....he doesnt believe me...so i said then here you take the coffee and blow me...whimpy fuck just turned around a

My FriendONE GOOD FRIENDYOU WILL ALWAYS HAVE A GOOD FRIEND,BUT YOU CAN HAVE ONLY ONE REAL GOOD FRIEND.THIS FRIEND MAYBE YOUR BROTHER,SISTER,OR SOMEONE YOU JUST MET 3 WEEKS AGO.I THOUGHT I HAD A REALLY GOOD FRIEND,TILL ONE DAY.THIS FRIEND TOLD ME LOTS,SHOWED ME LOTS,AND CARED FOR ME.OR AT LEAST I THOUGHT.BUT NO MATTER WHATHAPPENS BETWEEN ME AND THEM,I WILL ALWAYSREMBER WHAT I HAD LEARNED FROM THAT ONE PERSON,NERVER PUT YOUR SELF DOWN.AND DONT NEVER EVER SHOW YOUR TRUE FEELINGS TO SOMEONE THAT YOU JUST MET,LIKE THAT YOU REALLY CARE HOW THEY FEEL.

MissI miss the way you touched me.I miss the way you used to hold me.I miss the time we shared,but why do I have to miss you so much.The way you cared.The times you just talked to melike I was yours.But why do I have to miss it all.If I dont miss what do Ihave to look forward toseeing or doing again.So why do I miss you all the time.I miss your smell.I miss your voice.I wish i did nothave to miss you so much.So why do I have to miss.

I Hope I Get A Good Seat At The Next Sexual Harrasment CourseUser comes over today because the printer was having a problem. (A not unattractive one, I may add, the user, not the printer)
She said the printer was reporting as jammed so I open her up, the printer, not the user, and take a look.
I saw no jam, so I blew into it to make sure there wasn't any dust in the sensors. I put the toner back in, and boom, the printer is back up
I said "Now see, that was a very technical blowing"
The user says "So all it needed was to be blown?"
I replied "Yes, and I feel it's pain..."

Mfkn Love?Recently one of your founders...MFKN Longhorn... made a VERY valid point.
"Are you MFKN? We're not a rating family but any one in MFKN should at least rate the Home Page, Founders and TOP 7 out of respect. It really MFKN disappoints me when I come to the Home Page and it's dry. MFKNLONGHORN"
Now you all know that there are no rating requirements but it is always nice to show the people you call family some love. Even if it is as simple coming to the homepage and showing it and the top friends and fam love. It's not required but it really shouldn't have to be required to be doe. It's what MFKN is about it's what you ALL claim to be a part of.
Now, we are going to bring back something most of you are familiar with. Every week we will change the top 7 friends to the 7 people who BUSTED THEIR @$$3$ the week before. As a courtesy to them We ask you to show the top 7 love AT LEAST one time during the week they are up there. I think this is pretty reasonable.
Also, when you show

Fu An Its Dramait bout dat time 4 me ta speak my peace i have been bashed an lied bout on hurr mo den once an it time 4 me ta say my end of all of dis da pics dat i am usin r me an if u doubt dat den u aint truely my friend or fam a good bit of peeps have met me an know who i am inside an out so wut da rest of yall on hurr thankof me is irrelavant ta me if u wanna talk shit on me an call me a fake come an find out meet me in person if not stfu an quit spittin my name out ya mouth as 4 my friends an fam dat have stuck by me an believed in me no matta wut yall r da ones dat count ta me im debatin deletin my fu only cuz im tryin ta have a real life an dont need da he said she said drama on hurr 2 my fiance an bff i love u mo den u will eva know an our time is comin soon 2 my dad on hurr u mean da world ta me an i got mad respect 4 u 2 my sis u know how we roll 2 my cuzins u know i got u in anythan 2 spikey mike an my otha friend yall know wut u mean ta me an if any of yall wanna keep in touch wit me hit

SomedayShe can never understand, How deep in my heart she has gone.Or when I say I want you,She says my words are wrong.To tell her and show her,Is really all I can do.Maybe someday,sometime,She'll know my heart is true.Even though she is far from me,My heart forever holds her dear.And it waits for the day,Her heart no longer holds its fear.

Re-evaluate Yourself As Mfkn.Ok READ MFKN CAREFULLY!
When you became MFKN you were asked for a reason as to WHY you wanted to be MFKN and what MFKN Family meant to you and since most of you probably forgot your answer lets try again leave it as a comment on this blog...
NOW ASK YOURSELF WHY AM I MFKN!? -- If you're answer is "Because another member of fubar is MFKN" if your answer is "Because i like the tag 'MFKN'" if your answer is "Because I want the family to rate my page daily" or if your answer is anything shallow such as the previous statements TAKE IT OUT OF YOUR NAME BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE!
SO MANY TIMES I have heard "Well it's only fubar" or "This is just a game"-WELL- MFKN is a fubar family but it also goes BEYOND Fubar. We are a group of REAL people who legitimately care and want to help eachother on fubar and off of fubar. When someone needs help be it on fubar with leveling or any thing in general or just a kind voice to comfort them in there time of need. When things get rou

Back To LifeBoy when I am right about someone, I am really right. Things felt weird from the jump and I ignored my gut feelings for ONCE because you continuely showed me that you were different. After a while; a girl is bound to believe you. You made a fool of me. Thanks for that. I have no intention of making other people pay for the heartache I feel right now, but you have definetly shown me that I need to trust in myself and noone else. I can thank you for one thing; returning faith in myself, because I saw this going badly, I knew I was leading myself down a bad path and I IGNORED IT! In the process, I fell head over heels in love with you and it seemed you had fallen for me as well. If you hadn't, why lie to me? I have never felt so used in my life. Life is hard enough without this unnecessary headache! But you know what, I will survive, I always have and I always will. If you weren't lying and honestly wanted to be with me, get your shit together and treat me the way I am supposed to be trea

I Am ...Disarmed in physical estate
Alarmed by visual mandate
In disarray without a fate
For my redemption it's to late
Disarmed, alarmed in disarray
Today the Taliban's my pray
My place in life I cast aside
And paint my walls in black and white
My feelings I keep locked away
And when I'll see God, I will pay
'Till then, I'll stay here and
I'll fight and give in to countries plight
And in this fight
I stand with pride
Despite opinions
On wrong and right
And what I ask
Is not a lot
Just little food
And place at night
I do not ask to understand
And i don't want you to relate
And if I could just close this door
I would... 'Cause war's an ugly whore
Decision's made
My weapon's loaded
The sights are locked
And I keep innocence blindfolded
I understand
When you object
But please don't hide
And be direct
I understand
Your disapproval
But please with patience comprehend
I'm just a tool for threats removal
I don't decide What's wrong or rig

Oh Hell No...herbie536 minsHi, I am Herbie, I am a Christian (Although very flirtatious & Horny) due to spending 26 years in prison. God had mercy on me and gave me a second chance. I am addicted to this game because I can stay at home and stay clean and sober. I have no problem any longer in those areas, but I am on parole for 10 more months, and need to be careful because I face back-up time of 30 years! So, I have no money because I have not found job, so I do ask that if you believe in second chances to show me serious love with Pimps, and bling. If you care to read my story you can go to Google Locked Down for the Lord Ministries Look for testimony section and look for me Herbie Underwood, friends put that on for me, it is not a clean copy with many errors, if u would like a copy e-mail me at herbie.underwood@yahoo.com and I will mail you copy, and share pictures of Death Row if you would like. Thank you for your love & understanding. Love & Peace Herbie
*head tilt*

Tears....I'm a real good actorThis is a heavy roleOur love is a scriptAnd you carry total controlLike a clown and I've been smilingWhenever people were all aroundBut when the curtain comes downAnd the circus is throughNo one is left but me you and all myTearsSo many tears and my tearsOne word could wash them awayOne word could take the placeOne word could wash them awayOne word could take the place
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rd0Zo1WAk5I

To Become A Child Again.As adults we are always taught to be grown up, to be strong, to have it all together. Agenda's, schedules, and calculated tasks are always at hand. We are taught to not fail, or have mistakes, failings, or weaknesses, or we maybe viewed as foolish or immature. But in all of this we can so easily lose sight of laughter, play, innocence, and the wonders around us, that we fail to see, because we are unaware. Children see something new all day. They can find joy in the least of things. In the least there are many treasures to behold, and to inspire. A child inspires because of their ability to be and do things that we secretly would like to have again. Yes we can live vicariously through them, but as an adult, try to see through the eyes of a child and to not forget who you once were, when the world was new. DarciRead more:http://www.myspace.com/alenda_1/blog#ixzz0z2oPQmgq

Living Dead Girl.CAN IT BE POSSIBLE TO BE LIVING BUT FEEL SO DEAD INSIDE? YOUR ALIVE, BREATHING, LIVING LIFE FROM DAY TO DAY AS AN EMPTY SHELL, AN INVISIBLE NOBODY TO THOSE AROUND YOU AND SOMETIMES YOURSELF. WE HAVE SUCH DEEP PLACES WITHIN US, OUR SOULS THAT ARE LIKE WELLS, WHETHER DY OR FILLED UP, BUT FOR ALOT OF US, OUR SOUL SEEMS DREARY, UNFULLFILLED, MEANINGLESS AT TIMES, YURNING FOR THE SUSTENANCE THAT NURTURES IT, LONGS FOR IT. WALKING AROUND IN A BODY, HEART AND MIND, THAT KEEP ROUTINE LIKE THE HANDS OF THE CLOCK TICKING AWAY, IN A MEANINGLESS PATTERN, WAITING, WATCHING, HOPING FOR A RAY OF HOPE TO COME FILL US UP. WHEN IT DOESNT COME WE STILL MAINTAIN OUR USUAL ROUTINE, BUT IT WEATHERS US TO THE POINT OF WITHERING, LIKE A WILTING FLOWER, OR A CONSTANT RAIN, SHOWERING YOU WITH DOUBT, OVER AND OVER AGAIN. HOW IT FEELS TO KEEP BREATHING AND STILL YURN FOR THE RELEASE OF DEATH TO COME, BUT IT DOES NOT. LIVING THIS WAY IS A CONSTANT SLOW DAILY DEATH, BREAKING A PERSON'S BEING, FOR THINGS LOST, LONGE

Today's Special Blog..Well today is another fun filled fu birthday..so without any further hesitation, show some good ol lovins to one of the nicest people around, not only to me but to well, just about everyone..a big Happy Birthday too....
Sprinklez x FucT Royalty x FuEng2 BullDog44@ fubar
Like she says, she'll "Sprinkle" some love on your page..hah..
Hope you all are having a great week :)..Peace

There Once Was A Man From Nantucket...There once was a fellow McSweeny Who spilled some gin on his weenie Just to be couth He added vermouth Then slipped his girlfriend a martini
There once was a man Robin Hood Who lived in a Knottingham wood He learned how to f**k from old Friar Tuck And made Marion whenever he could
There once was a fellow O'Doole Who found little red spots on his tool His Doctor a cynic said Get out of me clinic, And wipe off that lipstick you fool!
A randy marsupial named Reeves Spent some time with the whores 'tween their knees When they'd asked him for money He'd say "Listen honey A koala eats bushes and leaves."
There once was a man from East Kent Whose tool was so long that it bent To save her some trouble He folded it double And instead of coming...he went
A bear taking a dump asked a rabbit "Does shit stick to your fur as a habit?" "Of course not," said the hare, "It's really quite rare!" So the bear wiped his ass with the rabbit.
To his

"the Word"Maybe I was born at the wrong time periodwhere love nothing more than a beautiful fairy tale lullabyAnd when I woke up the next day love story about repeated piteouslyWhat a love of "the word" beautiful I can not find
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Tag Heuer Carrera Chronograph Calibre 1887 Watch Hands-on
The version of the new Tag Heuer Carrera Chronograph_Tag Heuer Replica Watches_Tag Heuer watches calibre 1887 that I was checking out personally will be changed a bit. The image at the bottom of this article of the black dialed version watch represents what the final version that will be available late this year. Until then, the version you see images of is available. At least that is how I understand it. I think that in the future the "half year 1887" will be a collector's item. Changes are relatively minor, but important. Notable are the lack of the tachymeter scale on the bezel (a wise decision as no one uses that), and some cosmetic changes in the chronograph subdials (wise as well). There may be a few other little things that are different. Which the Carrera 1887 is available now, this updated version of the new watch won't be out for another 6 months or so. This cool new Tag was the subject of some controversy. If you recall, the "in-house made and developed" Calibre 1887 m

Corum Golden Bridge-----get Everything At A Glance
When I first knew there is a brand called Corum Golden Bridge_replica Corum brige_corum watches in the watch industry, my curiosity had been greatly touched. By the old Chinese tradition, Corum Mountains was a very sacred and mysterious place. I was so confused whether there was something beyond expression between each other. But there is really one thing for great certainty is that I was totally captured by Corum Golden Bridge series watches at the first sight.
Although now Corum Golden Bridge_replica Corum brige_corum watches has launched its new Ti-bridge series, many people are still having a very deep and intricate feeling on the old Corum Golden Bridge series. Just as the famous ancient Chinese poet Tu Fu said: The ancient dukedoms are everywhere green, Inspired and stirred by the breath of creation, With the Twin Forces balancing day and night. ...I bare my breast toward opening clouds, I strain my sight after birds flying home. When shall I reach the top and hold All mou

Want To Know The Real Truth?1. Why do men become smarter during sex?
(Because they are plugged into a Genius)
2. Why were men given bigger brains than dogs?
(So they won't hump womens legs at parties)
3. Why did God put man on earth?
(Because a vibrator cant mow the lawn)
4. Why did God make men before Women?
(You need a rough draft before you make a final copy)
Just thought you all might want to know the real truth! :)

Lost America I set out in my old white Cadillac convertible, traveling the highways and byways to find the American dream, but I woke up screaming and crying from the nightmare.
In Arizona, I met a man that couldn't have been more then nineteen, thin stubble trying hard to look like a beard hanging from his face. He told me the interstate system was the death of America. It killed the small towns. The place he grew up in had fallen into disarray, his graduating class had only eight people. When the school burned down the previous winter, no one had even bothered to rebuild it. The kids had to find their own way to get their education. He told me the desert was littered with towns like that. He stayed on the small highways and backroads, always looking for the mythical town that had survived.
In Louisiana I met a hooker with no name. She told me names don't matter on the road. All that mattered was the soul of the traveler, and the fact that the sun would always rise in the east and se

Real TalkFirst off, the term Juggalo is uni-sexual. A juggalo is someone who has been saved by the dark carnival. Many people don't recognize the intelligence behind the music. It is satire. Their intention is to influence people to free their minds (the most beautiful thing in the world to experience, recipe for wisdom = weed and music). We are anti-predjudice(sexism, racism,etc.) We know that karma is real and don't see life in black and white, but with more colors than a gay pride parade. A Juggalo is someone who lives for themself, meaning they realize that if you care what other people think about you and try hard to be accepted, then you will always be a slave to your own mind. A Juggalo is someone who enjoys life to the fullest they possibly can and stops "to smell the roses"(meaning living your life in the moment). It's not about having all the gear, posters, albums and trivia knowledge. You don't have to know what faygo or a neden is or even have ever heard of psychopati

My Trip To Detroit!So as you all noticed, I haven't been that active in the past few days. Why? Well, I went to Detroit from Friday to Sunday (and I was busy with school shit after that). Anyway, I really wanted to mumm this but I thought a blog would be more appropriate. Also, it's time I write my first blog (and you guys should be grateful cause you're witnessing history right here).
So lets get started. Why the fuck did I go to Detroit? Well, I wanted to go to the Jay-Z/Eminem concert. I planned on buying tickets from a scalper or something. I also went to meet that 17 year old chicka I met on yahoo about a month ago (she lives an hour away from the city). And of course, I needed a bit of a vacation so this was a perfect opportunity.
So I left with my friend (who's like Kramer on valium) on Friday morning. We got there sometime in the afternoon and after a little touring, we thought "okay Detroit is boring." Then I went off to go find tickets to the concert. My friend decided not to go so he went ba

Come With Me....When these cold waters get too deep. You can look to me. My hand is never too far out of reach. It's there for you, just take it. I'll lead you to the beach. You can stay with me, stress free. You can call this island your home. You never have to be alone to face lifes obsticles on your own. We'll leave the problems of the world behind us. Where no one in the world can find us. Outside of the comnifes of a stress filled mind. Floating on cloud 9. All you have to do is open your eyes. You're not blind. Let me ease your mind. Look forward and not behind. Happiness isn't hard to find, when you have right guide by your side.

What The Deuce?Ok...So I just have to wonder....why in the hell a picture of my legs in legwarmers is marked NSFW..and a few minutes ago I saw a profile pic on a blast & the chick was half dressed. LITERALLY. I thinks it a totally cute picture...I mean id like to use one of mine like that. But WTF? My kneecaps? Im getting sick of this shit.

Fubar!!!Today was one of those days that started off good and then ended on a sour note.Its been quite a change from last month to now.Starting over from scratch to build a new life is proving to be a challenge due to the fact that while working on the new you have to still deal with the old.At the end of the day I often time am thinking of what adjustments I need to make to continue on my new journey.However past decisions are proving to be a drag.Whether it be a relationship dealing with the x or a dipshit business partner.I do understand that there are people dealing with more than what my situation may be.So I must solder on not only to prove to myself but also anyone else that I can overcome.Over the past couple of months FUBAR has become an intricate part of moving forward for me.I was a little reluctant to put myself out there on this site but I needed an escape from all the crap.I am becoming comfortable on here to the point I can open up to keep from going crazy and meet great people

Rip Steven Maas 7/7/76 To 9/11/01 I Miss You Like CrazySteven not a day goes by that I don't think of you & even shed a tear. I love you so much & thank you for making my cousin happy the short time you were married. It's just not fair that it was such a short time. This is always such a difficult time for Charlotte. Auntie & uncle are taking her on a cruise with Scott to get her mind off things. This is the first time I won't be with her on the anniversary. It's been a tough 9 years so they are trying something different hoping that they can create nice memories of a happy time on this day.
I know your in a much better place & we will see you again in time. Until then we miss you everyday! We are taking care of your sweet Charlotte.
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I was just played by by aunt!! WELL PLAYED!! I see you haven't missed a step since leaving Boston a long, long, long time ago! (not 2 make you feel old!) lol Great job! I'm sure this will do the trick! It's been a long time &

What To Dohow do you know when your life is going into a downward spiral or when it maybe going in the right direction? do you hold on to a hope? do you hold on to a feeling? do you just give up because your unsure? you would think after a lifetime of endless romances and hopes and dreams that were crushed that you would be able to know what to do..... but alas im still as lost as i was at 15 years old..... i want the dream, the fantasy, that someone i adore would finally get me. that i have finally made the "right choice" in my life..... but as much as i want to believe that i know that it is probally not true.... i need to be able to decide and know the difference between knowing and hoping dreaming and reality..... maybe it is just an illusion that something wonderful is going to happen to me, for me..... not what someone needs from me or what i can do for them but because im am thier world and everything they could of ever hoped for... is there such a thing in life or is it all just a selfis

A Beautiful HeartOne day a young man was standing in the middle of the townproclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley.A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect.There was not a mark or a flaw in it.Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen.The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.
Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said,"Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine."The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart.It was beating strongly ... but it was full of scars ...it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in ...but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges.In fact ... in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.The people stared ... how can he say his heart is more beautiful ... they thought?
The young man looked at the old man's heart ... and saw its state an

Gerrymandergerrymander\ JER-i-man-der \verb; 1. The dividing of a state, county, etc., into election districts so as to give one political party a majority in many districts while concentrating the voting strength of the other party into as few districts as possible.

My Beliefs On Whether Or Not Terry Jones Should Burn The KoranYou Know i am a Puerto Rican I am A Christian by personal choice and belief. That being said i am torn on this issue of burning the Koran. Here Is My personal beliefs, I feel it is wrong of any person regardless of their religious beliefs to disrespect any other persons personal religious beliefs. I also must say I am against the right to burn books or flags of any race or creed. When that hippy burnt the American flag he should have been shot. Hmm that is why i said my belief! Here in itself is a strong comment Belief, Think about that if we did not live in a society that believes every man and woman should have the right to express their beliefs in their own way; as long as this practice does not hurt or put another in jeopardy. That is the true definition of our first amendment any one can twist the words around to make it seem what ever or how ever they would like it but the truth is you dont have the right to try and cause harm to others. So if by burning this book this gentleman

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It’s true, I was a kid once, sure it was a long assed time ago but the fact remains salient; there was a moment in time when I was a youth. We all have a story to tell, this is another snippet of my life;
Being an Air Force brat is not a position that kids aspire to, it is more like catching the flu or some other childhood malady… it just happens to you. To be honest, it does not even become evident to those that hold the distinction until way after the experience is well ingrained, not until you find a reason that the title will benefit you in some way. You spend your life following around the sperm donor and your mom from assignment to assignment as the government utilizes the daddy asset as they see fit. If you get lucky the recruit will pass certain entry exams and land at Hickam AFB in Hawaii but more than likely you will grow up in the most diverse of communities in VERY low rent neighborhoods. This was our plight as the non-commissioned piece of work we we

Ice Queen By Lizz Tayler"Well, well. This is quite a situation you've gotten yourself into, isn't it?"I say nothing, glaring angrily at my captor from across the room. God, how I detest this man! My heart is full of venom for this vile, brutish creature who dares to masquerade as a human being. No, I quickly correct myself. He is not human. He is not even worthy of my hate.As if reading my thoughts, he looks deeply into my eyes and his mouth lifts in a half-smile. Slowly, deliberately he walks towards me. "I'm well aware of how unpleasant your feelings are towards me at this moment," he says quietly. "You are furious. And I understand why." His face is very close to mine, his dark eyes piercing. "But I am sure you are just as furious at yourself for allowing yourself to be put in this predicament. Am I right about that?" I am silent, but my mind acknowledges that he speaks the truth. How foolish I was to trust this man! How could I have been so careless? What was put forth as a harmless invitation to dinner a

Rats And StealingOn Rats and Stealing
I remember the day the man I called Dad taught me to steal. It was just like any other day in Camp Sea Ashe. My brother Randy and I had been down to the green (a green is the term used to describe a large expanse of grass in Europe) playing soccer with some of the local British lads. My best friend Colin had been teaching me how to trap the ball with the arch of one foot up against the heel of the other while running. The move was designed to toss the ball over your own head (and consequently your opponents) while at a full run. I had been able to pull it off a few times but generally my attempts had resulted in face plants. When we came walking in to Hill Bridge (that was the actual address of our "home"; Hill Bridge, Camp Sea Ashe, England) my dad was waiting on us. "There is a rat in the laundry room boys" he said from the couch while playing his guitar. Randy glanced at me and we just went to the closet and got the cage, cut-off brooms and our gloves; we knew

The Deftones Scale Of HappinessOnly three days remain until the Deftones come to town. I bought these tickets over two months ago, closer to three. Yeah, I'm an excited little girl, fuck you, I'm happy being me.
I was watching "Law Abiding Citizen" the other day and a Deftones song came on. After I checked to make sure it wasn’t my computer playing it, I then proceeded to get excited. I didn't dance externally, but internally, I was.
I always set the cable to the Music Choice station, usually their "Alternative" channel, which isnt too bad, but then yesterday they played a Deftones song "Minerva" along with trivia information about them. Yes I was pumped, and yes the dancing was external.
I really can evaluate my happiness on a scale of Deftones songs.
Level 1 Happy: One Weak, Lhabia, Deathblow, Rats!Rats!Rats!, Digital Bath
Level 2 Happy: SexTape, Pink Cellphone, Bloody Cape, My Own Summer
Level 3 Happy: Cmd/Ctrl, Mascara, Around the Fur, Battle Axe, This Place Is Death, Nightrider
Level 4 Ha

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It was 3 in the morning and the phone was ringing. A sense of deja vu traced its finger down Lee’s spine. “Hello” he said. “Hi darlin, I’m sorry to wake you up but, I have some terrible news”. It was Lees’ sister Teri on the phone from San Antonio. “What is it sis, what happened”? As he listened to his (clearly shaken) sibling delivering horrific news he became aware of the reason this all seemed so familiar. Lee’s mind drifted off to another story from the city whose clutch he seemed unable to escape…
The magnetic thermometer on his dash was shaped like the State of Texas and its mercury presently indicated a temperature of 102 degrees in the car as Lee flew down TX1604, the outer loop that surrounds San Antonio. He could have taken the inner loop; Loop 410 was a shorter route but it had a lot more cops. Lee lived in Universal City, which was nothing more than a watering hole for Randolph AFB, headquarters of t

Computer Love
She sat at her computer and typed with frantic haste There was so much she needed to say and so little time Her heart poured out so easily through her fingers As the words appeared on the screen before her She filled her screen with her words of affection Then waited anxiously for him to type his reply Her heart skipped as his reply appeared before her She read and reread his words of endearment Then hurried to reply as her heart beat quickly With her emotions building higher with every word Telling how she yearned to be able to touch him Longed to be able to see him, to gaze into his eyes Her heart cried with sorrow, tinged with a little fear Of being forward, having said too much too soon Her emotions, now too strong, gave her no choice She had to speak of what was deep within her heart The pain of lost loves still lingers inside her soul But she is a woman and so was born to be loved She craves love as the flower needs the spring rain For without love a woman cannot truly be

.....whetherWhy does it seem that no one gives a shit,
That no one would care
If I broke down and cried,
Whether my heart shattered
Whether I lived or died?
Why do I feel like a speck of dust
That you could just wipe away without thought,
Like I'm a star that faded from the sky,
Twinkled out into nothingness,
Not even a memory of my passing by?
Why do I feel like a candle in the wind,
And all that's left is the smoke,
Not even a flame to show that I was ever here,
Gone without even a care?
You took my voice
My song is sung
My Eyes are closed
My race is run.

Good Day At Work....my Temporary Disdain For Scott Pilgrim, And StuffWarning! This will be possibly annoying and contain a bit of dirty language.
So for the past week or so I have been a bit mopey and depressed. I have been jumping from okay to rabid in seconds....which isn't really me. I as I have gotten older have generally had much better control over my somewhat legendary temper. Lately however I have been feeling inclined to club people over the head with baby seals. If I am still able to tell bad jokes it's because my last line of defense against myself is my rather fucked up sense of humor...but to be honest it's fucked up by the fact that life has decided I need a mean streak. Now for the meat of the subject....why I am pissy and such.
This past weekend I on a date went to see Scott Pilgrim versus the World. Awesome movie but with a dilemna I am tossing around in my noggin hit waaaay to close to home. I will get back to this in a minute. For those of you who are not playing the home game I have spent most of my life angry. My parents, my

Brother Wolf & Sister Moon By The CultEmbrace the wind with both armsStop the clouds dead in skyHang your head no moreAnd beg no moreBrother Wolf and Sister MoonYour Time has comeBrother Wolf and Sister MoonYour time has come and the wind will blow my fears awayAnd dry my tears awayAnd the wind will will blow my fears awayAnd dry my tears away

Gimme Monies!So heres the thing.. My Birthday is in a month and I wanna get spotlight on that day cos Im an attention hoar and stuff.
Anyways I would much appreciate any help with fubucks. I mean you dont have to give me anything,wait..yeah you do:P
Ok you really dont but I would be so happy if you helped a girl out:D please please please! I have like 100 mil right now and Im gonna need a ton more.
This is gonna suck. I hate constantly asking for fubucks.
That is all..Thank you

Come To Night Shift Radio. Always Looking For Dependable Staff (nsfw)NIGHT SHIFT RADIO IS GETTING BIGGER AND BETTER. MORE MEMBERS AND STAFF ALWAYS NEEDED. WANNA LEARN HOW TO DJ COME TO THE LOUNGE AND ITS AS EASY AS GETTING BLING FROM A WELL NEVERMIND LOL. PLS STOP BY AND HAVE A DRINK ON ME OR THE REST OF MY STAFF. SEE YOU THERE. ALSO EVERYNIGHT IS PUBLIC CAM NIGHT SO IF U HAVE A WEBCAM AND HAVE SOMETHING TO SHOW LOL CUM SHOW IT........NSFW ALWAYS ALLOWED WE ARE ADULTS I THINK
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LoungeI am looking for dj's to help me out with my lounge that I just got up. Plus some one to help me get the music on there and for the skins etc. Any help would be greatly appreciated. You all rock.

Obama Firm: Won't Yield On Tax Hike For WealthiestCLEVELAND – Politically weakened but refusing to bend, President Barack Obama insisted Wednesday that Bush-era tax cuts be cut off for the wealthiest Americans, joining battle with Republicans — and some fellow Democrats — just two months before bruising midterm elections.
Singling out House GOP leader John Boehner in his home state, Obama delivered a searing attack on Republicans for advocating "the same philosophy that led to this mess in the first place: cut more taxes for millionaires and cut more rules for corporations."
Obama rolled out a trio of new plans to help spur job growth and invigorate the sluggish national economic recovery. They would expand and permanently extend a research and development tax credit that lapsed in 2009, allow businesses to write off 100 percent of their investments in equipment and plants through 2011 and pump $50 billion into highway, rail, airport and other infrastructure projects.
The package was assembled by the p

Someone SpecialI’m sat here thinking about what u said
Reading the words while laying in bed
Reading the words which u typed to me
Letting me know what u feel for me
But there are many things which have come to light
Like the words u typed on my screen last night
My mind is spinning shocked and amazed
That not knowing u long, I can make u feel that way
So im sat here now with words in my hands
Trying to say them so Ur understand
That no matter how far u seem to be
The words u type will stay will me
I carry them tight and hold them close
Thinking about what I want most
The person I want is the person I see
The person who fulfills my every need
Who makes me smile with the words that u say
Who is locked in my mind everyday
A man I fell for with just one look
Who stole my heart and now im hooked
Who fits my hand like a perfect glove
The man I met is the man I now LOVE

Saturday, September 25, 2010 PointsLOTS OF POINTS TO BE GOTTEN!!
Are you wanting or needing some easy points?
I scheduled a HH this coming Saturday and I'm willing to auction off those points to the highest bidder. I will be running an auto, boomerang, and a famp.. maybe even a bomb... needless to say it is a chance for lots of points!
The HH will be at 7pm FuTime or 10pm EST!!
MINIMUM BID WILL START AT 50 MIL FuBUCKS.. CASH BIDS ARE WELCOME TOO!!
I RESERVE THE RIGHT TO ACCEPT OR DENY ANY BID BETWEEN NOW AND 11am FuTIME ON SATURDAY!!
PLEASE PLACE BIDS IN THE COMMENT SECTION.. LET'S HAVE SOME FUN!!
AUCTION ENDS SATURDAY @ 11am FuTIME!

"ali Baba"This is the Lotus The Underground Where all darkness meets For the judgement of their afterlife Six petals, One pod And an Army full of Juggalos Emerging from the center of the earth Willing and able to take control Of all unfinished situations By leading the outcasted souls To the power of Shangri-La
Venomous snakes magically charmed All of disappear with the wave of a wand Pharaohs eternally rest in they tomb Hachets unleashed allow doom to consume Nomads wander were do they go? Scholars go insane at the minds of Juggalos Sand grains burn when the sun beats down Skin rots more as the earth spins around
I got a handfull of dust From the leaf of the Lotus Hold it in the sky Blow it in the air to get my focus Cut off my fingertip I wanna see the blood drip Onto the tail of a possum Close my eyes make a wish On my knees praying to my Ali Baba! Can you hear me every time I scream an Holla! I'm just a killer with problems I want a fucking release Withou

"we Danced"It was a dark and stormy night, when five children of the Lotus crept into a local cemetery, their intentions were nothing more than to smoke marijoowana leafs and drink acholic beverages. But these five young boys were soon joined by some very unlikely company. If fact, for the children of the Lotus, this was some company that they could only dream of. I'm talking about the dead. Not just any dead. I'm talking about they were joined by 5 ravishing, beautiful, lovely dead women who opened up to these boys and gave them their all.
Do you like the Ouija, we dance Blood, flesh, romance Right there, right in front of the tomb Beautiful, horrific, and the moon Dead flesh, crazy hormones Me with a hard dick Her with her neck broke We did the tango, she breathed She wiped blood on a killa's sleeve Now I ain't ever been one to pass She might be dead but she got a nice ass Riding to the bone, I like dead meat Wearing nothing but her panties Shaking to the beat So you like to d

The Seven Things I Hate About Miley Cyrus1. Miley Cyrus is living proof that Billy Ray had sex with a woman. Now, I'm going to give him the benefit of the doubt and assume it was consensual at least but I can't confirm that. Anyway, some skanky slut that adored his tight ass and sassy mullet let him finish inside her and thus is the trainwreck that will go down in history as Miley Cyrus. Either that or he had an achy-breaky condom. 2. Secondly, the whole "dual personality" thing is bullshit. Billy Ray, could you be any more desperate to exploit your daughter for your own good? No. Because creating a third personality would be outlandish. 3. That leads us to Hannah Montana. The name. The show. The look. Three things that make me nauseous. Seriously, who thought of that shit? Nickelodeon? I sincerely hope not. Just say Hannah Montana like five times fast and see how pissed off you are when you're done. Please feel free to let me know how that goes.4. Well, this topic should technically be classified under the third thing I hate

Thank You/please Help!!Yesterday, my ebil fubar wommiz Misfit, and Vixen, were very nice and turned me into a super hoar!!!!!!!
Mistittys gave me all her points and Vixen gave me a boomerang.........both out of the blue, so it was kinda sweet..
yeah i didnt just say that, but thank you
and thank you to bounty and misfit who kept pimping me out
and to scarabus who keeps my buzz up
and to witchie, who shows me her boobs to keep me awake
and thanks to everyone who hit my profile yesterday, and helped me level after like i dunno a year or more lol
and i have a plea!! Friday is my best friends birthday on here..........and she has been going through a really bad time.
and i wanna kinda do something cool for her, and i want to do my spotlight on that day..
i dont have even close to enough fu monies.
please help??
i will include everyone in it, and i dunno.........ill figure out something cool to do for a thank you?
NOW PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!! make me your bitch and sell me for fu monies!!!!

RandomnessDamn it's been a year since I last made a blog, the fuck!?!?! Anyhoo nothing really important, just thought I should make a blog. Granted after week of annoying as people and stupid shit I'll have something interesting for people to either read and make fun of me or ignore since i don't think many people will read it.

Tuneage.from now on, as long as im not drunk or dont forget, im going to post a new tune in my trackz. today is a twoffer. but anygays. yeah. rocknroll.

What Is Irony? (1st Blog Posting)Since this is a prescriptivists view, there will be very strict rules for recognizing irony. It is all actually very simple, however; and to save you from having to read a definition over and over again to comprehend the meaning of irony, we will be basing this tutorial on examples of irony, to help ingrain the patterns of recognition in your mind. Do not be discouraged if you have already availed yourself of a lexicon to learn the definition of some of the words in this tutorial. It is only by exercising your flaccid mind that you will be able to grasp the subtle intricacies of irony. Before we move on to the first example, it behooves me to quote Henry Watson Fowler, when he said that "the surface meaning [of irony] and the underlying meaning of what is said are not the same." Though going about learning what a word means is not usually best facilitated by learning its antonyms, it is still a useful exercise to detail what irony is not, by examples. What Irony Is Not: - An escalato

Contagious
"Contagious"(feat. R Kelly & Chante Moore)
[Verse 1]It's 2 A.M. I'm just getting in about to check my message,no one has called but my homies and some billcollectors.Cellular when somebody wants to borrow moneyI two-way her she don't hit me back something is funny.So I called her mother's house and asked has she seen my baby.Roll my six around looking for that missing lady.Got back in turned the TV on and caught the newsthen I put my hand on my head cause I'm so confused.And then I turned the TV downcause I thought I heard a squicky sound,somethings going on upstairsand I know nobody else lives here"bump bump bump" as I get closer to the stairways all I hearthen I hear my babies voice in my ear screaming out....[Chorus:]You're contagious, touch me baby, give me what you got(and then a man said) sexy lady drive me crazy, drive me wild(And I just can't believe this shit)[Verse 2]I ran downstairs looked in the closet looking for that ooo,said a prayer cause only God knows what I'm

StuffsWelp, good news
I AM TUMOR FREE :D:D:D:D:D
yay :D
on another note.. i have been told by my best friend that Thursday.. I have to go with her to this club called Cowboys.. no it isn't a country club... cowboys is the football team here..
I really REALLY loath that place... but its her birthday and she says thats where she wants to go....
damn her..

Justin's First Game... Mizzou Beats Illinois 23-13!!!Britt gets his first game action against Illinois
Israel Potoczny israel@lebanondailyrecord.com Sep 7, 2010 ST. LOUIS — Former Lebanon High School football and wrestling standout Justin Britt got his first action on Saturday with the University of Missouri football team as he split time at left guard during the Tigers’ season opening 23-13 win over rival Illinois at the Dome in St. Louis. Junior Jayson Palmgren got the start at left guard, and played the first four plays, then Britt rotated in for three plays. The two players rotated in and out with Palmgren getting four plays, then Britt three throughout the game. “It didn’t really hit me until pregame, then I started getting real nervous,” Britt said. “It is a lot faster than high school ... but I thought I did good for being my first game. It is definitely a different atmosphere, but it is something that I can do for the next four years. “It is faster than practice, and coll

To Get To Know Where I Am Coming From...I would like to start by saying hi and thanks for stopping by lmao...
no really i'm new here and figured i would give a little bit of information about me here.
Ok, so first things first, I am happily married to my hubby and we have 4 beautiful children together.
Second, I am not racist, but I am prejudice. I hate all forms of stupidity equally.
Third, I love zombie movies and loud music.
Fourth, I am submissive and I honor my husband in all that I do. If he so chooses he can view anything i do anywhere.
and Fifth, I am here to make new friends and maybe meet some new people if you would like to know more just ask

Youngblood(s)(At the very least, the young ones are fun to talk to)
Hey! Yeah you. You tasty young snack over there. C'mere. We gotta talk.
Yes. Yes I do see your well defined abs.
Whats that? Oh no thanks. I've seen a dick before. I'm sure yours is lovely.
Okay, put the biceps away. This is serious business.
What? Oh thanks. I'm glad you like my "bewbies".
Huh? Now why on Earth would you want to do that to me? What is wrong with you?
So....moving on. What's your name?
REALLY??? I hardly believe that your parents named you "Cock Monster".
So what are your plans in life?
Cool. So you plan on fucking me till you die??? That is REALLY ambitious!
I beg your pardon? Um, No. Blow jobs aren't considered and Olympic Event.
Okay. GOOD talk. Hope you learned something. Lets do it again soon.

Dark, Demented, Devious, Depression, DisillusionDark, Demented, Devious, Depression, Disillusion.
Look into my eyes and tell me what you see. Can you see behind the eyes into my soul? Can you see the chaotic glint that entwines my being with reality. The thoughts race around my head. People, emotions, actions. Irrational people who lack control over their own being. Pain and emotions are controllable. They are easy to reign in and pull back, feeling nothing but the numbness that creeps into my soul. Cryptic thoughts flow through my brain like a tornado, ripping away self confidence and replacing it with a new self identity which is barely contained.
Kiss me gently. Hold me tight. I am yours for the moment. You have my being but my soul is locked away. No one is allowed full control. Kiss me. Breathe into me as we kiss. Fill my soul with the passion you feel. Hope makes me long for the feeling again, the disillusioned longing to feel something beside the chaos.
Innocence seems like a far off imaginary ideal, one which vanishes int

If You Want My Points For 12 HrsIF YOU WANT MY POINTS FOR 12 HRS I DON'T ASK MUCH, I AM TRYING TO HELP PEOPLE AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE BECAUSE I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO GET HELP ON HERE. IN ORDER TO GET MY POINTS ALL I ASK FOR IS 5 BLING CREDITS (IF YOU CAN'T AFFORD THE BLING CREDITS IT'S POSSIBLE TO WORK SOMETHING ELSE OUT). IF YOU WANT A SPECIAL ABILITY BLING RAN YOU HAVE TO SUPPLY IT. I WILL PRETTY MUCH BE GIVING MY POINTS ALMOST EVERYDAY, EXCEPT FOR WEEKENDS, IF YOU WANT THEM ON A WEEKEND DAY ITS GOING TO COST YOU A LITTLE EXTRA (CAN BE DISCUSSED). SHOUTBOX ME OR PRIVATE MESSAGE ME IF YOU WANT TO MAKE A DEAL, AND WE WILL SET UP WHAT DAY YOU RECEIVE MY POINTS. DO NOT SEND ANYTHING BEFORE WE COME TO AN AGREEMENT!!!!
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Something I Dont Get!Why it it on here I seem to get more guys hitting on me then I do girls trying to talk to me? I just not seeing what you guys see in me that girls are not I guess espeically since I am straight. Just curious what everyone has to say.

Life...WHEN YOURE UP, YOURE FRIENDS KNOW WHO YOU ARE
BUT WHEN YOU DOWN , YOU KNOW WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE..

Personal SituationsA person who truly knows you is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else still believes in the smile of ur face.
one of the simplist ways to stay happy just let go the things that make you sad ..
people change usually ,they change into everything they wouldnt be.
sometimes u need a second chance because time wasnt ready for the fisrt time .
the one loves you at you worst is the one that deserves you at your best.
its not im being inlove that make me happy its who im inlove with that does
if youre looking at your happy ending and you couldnt find one ,well find a new beginning instead...

Promisespromises are like the full moon ,if they are not kept at once they diminish day by day...
A promise is a cloud ,fullfilment is rain .
promise a lot and give even more enemies promises were made to be broken .
promise Little and do much .
Everyone is a Millioner where promises are concerned .
life didn't promise to be wonderful .
A promise made a dept unpaid .
Promise is most given when the least is said..

Well Past Is Past.....It seems like your happy but your not ,why there is people having such a joy if they saw you suffering ?they want you to be unhappy becoz of your someone past,which is so unfair .u know that u can conquer it,but how if those people keep on entering your life and pull down.sometimes u feel sorry for yourself and have a regret ,why you enter to your someones life ,which is he have a lot of experience in past.but ur already there in the ground where u standing at u can do nothing but to face it ."please to those people let them happy ! you dont have the right to judge them .someones said that it just a mistake on the past so why they dont let them happy?just face your own life please not the life for others...

Just A Face In The CrowdI have been alive for 49yrs 10mos and 12days I have seen people I loved and care for die and most of my mentors
have passed on. I had so many chances to better myself but for so many REASONS/EXCUSES I simply have not.
I wasted this life with all my fancy hopes and dreams and now in a decade of so I will simply cease to exist.
I have had too many jobs to count hoping that the NEXT ONE will be my CAREER job that I work till I get that
retirement part and that cool gold watch. I doubt this is gonna happen. I am NOTORIOUS at being the GOOD GUY
but its really true good guys do finish last, especially this one.
I am there but you are the one that yes's me to death not even really noticing that I do exist, its like this for everyone I kno
Family friends, everyone.
I do my best to make an impact to show you I care, it simply doesnt work. I know why some people Kill themselves now
but for me that just isnt isnt an option, I will just keep trying.
and then one day I will simply cease

Hey.........you! Yes You....I WILL TELL YOU HOW I FELL ,I WILL TELL YOU WHAT'S IN MY MIND AND I'LL DON'T GIVE A DAMN SHIT IF LIKE IT OR NOT AND THAT'S YOUR PROBLEM .THAT'S HOW IT GOES...

Coz Of You I Think?dont find love ..let love find you that's why they called falling in love becoz you dont forced youself to fall...just fall that's it .
I think you well only know how important a person is when he or she no longer around and how important was i to you??
i think i know that i have plans but you well take my every stape you have covered all my dept now and i realized ths empty fames that people craved and based of hope or what they've made now i rather wait and wait on you

Nattie(natalie)When an angel falls to earth,Like her they must appear.But even with thier heavenly grace,To her beauty they dont come near.With eyes so gentle and soft,Hair that glows like the sun.Her smile draws me closer,Soon my heart will be undone.Just to touch her heart,Lives most men would easily give.Her beauty embeded so through my heart,And there forever Natalie you will live.

My SerpentineA few semesters ago, I took an english writing course. My english teacher allowed us to turn in poetry, stories, anything to do with literature for extra credit. She approached me in the South building while I was waiting for my College Algebra class and asked me if I would write a poem about matters of the heart. For a happy, upbeat person, she really liked my dark style of writing. She entered it into a contest. So I thought I would share it with everyone else. :)
My Serpentine
My only desire was to hideTo ebb the ache insideI can hear the voices laughing at my demiseForced to walk aloneBroken into pieces like my only homeNothing left of this manNothing left, not even prideMy memories thrown awryI feel like it's eating me aliveHelping me die insideNothing but remnants of a broken manI feel I've done all I canThis infection was just a lieI've lost all the vital parts of meFeeling the light, sense of smellNo longer blind but I cannot seeOf these consiquences I can't repentA path I

Just Writing 9/7/10If you want to know what I'm thinking
learn to read my mind
If you want to know how I'm feeling
open your eyes I'm not that hard to read
If you don't understand me
take the time to listen when i speak
If you want me around
show interest
If you hurt me
I'll use the past to compare
If you use the word "whatever" and walk away
I'll feel like I'm not worth it
If i make you mad then yell, scream,and cuss at me
but know your not the first
And most of all if you want forgiveness
just ask for it

Slow DanceHave you ever watched kids on a merry-go-round? Or listened to the rain slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight? Or gased at the sun into the fading night?
Do you run through each day on the fly? When you ask,"How are ya?", do you hear the reply?
When the day is done, do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores running through your head?
Ever told your child,"We'll do it tomorrow."? And in your haste, not see their sorrow?
Ever lost touch, let a good friendship die? Cause you never had time to call and just say,"Hi"?
When you run so fast to someone ya miss, half the fun of getting there.
When ya worry and hurry through your day, it's like an unopened gift thrown away.
Life is not a race,
Do take it slower,
Hear the music,
Before the song is over....

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I Put Your Picture Away...sat Down & Cried Today...........[Kid Rock] Livin' my life in a slow hell Different girl every night at the hotel I ain't seen the sun shine in 3 damn days Been fuelin' up on cocaine and whisky Wish I had a good girl to miss me Lord I wonder if I'll ever change my ways I put your picture away Sat down and cried today I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to her I put your picture away, sat down and cried today I can't look at you, while I'm lyin next to her [Sherly Crow] I called you last night in the hotel Everyone knows but they wont tell But their half hearted smiles tell me Somethin' just ain't right I been waitin' on you for a long time Fuelin' up on heartaches and cheap wine I ain't heard from you in 3 damn nights I put your picture away I wonder where you been I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him I put your picture away I wonder where you been I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him I saw ya yesterday with an old friend [Kid Rock] It was the same ole same "how have

Bon Jovi....alwaysThis Romeo is bleedin'But you can't see his bloodIt's nothing but some feelingsThat this old dog kicked upIt's been rainin' since you left meNow I'm drownin' in the floodYou see I've always been a fighterBut without you I'll give upI can't sing a love songLike the way it's meant to beI guess I'm not that good anymoreBut that's just meI will love you babyAlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a dayAlwaysNow your pictures that you left behindAre just memories of a different lifeSome that made us laugh, some made us cryOne that made you have to say goodbyeWhat I'd give to run my fingers through your hairTouch your lips and hold you nearWhen you say your prayers understandI've made mistakes, I'm just a manWhen he holds you close, he pulls you nearWhen he says the words you've been needin' to hearI wish I was him with these words of mineTo say to you till the end of timeThat I will love you babyAlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a dayAlwaysIf you told me to cry for you, I couldIf you told me

New Updateswell life has been ok for me i guess. i had twin boys on july 26,2009. been playing my favoriate game on here, made soldier, ive made some really good friends here and just love fubar and fumafia lol. the boys, Draegan and Lucian are doing great, they are walking and talking now, i live in colorado springs right now, just trying to do my best as a mother and friend. Love ya guys

Online GamingI've noticed a few things about playing Modern Warfare 2 online these past few months. First, it's no secret that people are more prone to be a-holes behind a screen be it a computer screen or a television screen. However the people who play MW2 (and maybe other games - I don't really play a lot) take it to a whole new level. The 2 words I hear most often are n-gger and fagg-t. Granted, I use the word fagg-t too.Which brings me to my next point... It's okay to say the F word because I'm tolerant of homosexuals right? Or maybe it would be ok to use it if I were gay? Like black people can say the N word? Random tangent: Most gays I know are not upright at all and have totally embraced the F word. I know gay men who love being called a fagg-t and wear that badge with pride even if it's said in a nasty tone by a straight man. Perhaps if black people stopped trying to put racial dibs on a word, it would eliminate its hateful power. Just a thought.Anyway I use the F word while

[to Kill A Dead Man]10 points if you get the refwithout googling.New tangentWhenwherehowwhywhowhatI lost my mind.We're gonna try and stay on a prose bent.No promises.I miss my mumm privshence the 50 people that got "your mother" as my status comment on their page.Doggy has fleasand I have a MASSIVE ... thing under the surface of my skin just under where my nose things sit from my glasses.It hurts.Its ugly.The only answer is to amputate.Actuallyno ones gonna noticeeverthat's the upshot on head wounds.The brain damage makes you not care... oh and everyone's too busy staring at the scar anyway.I am gonna sleep like a poached redwoodright after I mix motrin PM and an antihystemeneso...20 minutes?

When I Lost My Mind.Only one way to know for sure.Fingertipswet lipsdry bottlesThick varnish, chipped on spilled beer and foreheads.I feel nothing.sharp dirt in the cracksthe wail of a sirenPickupdropofftraumamorgue.All passes by so blank.So blur.That initial burn before the numb.That first glare before light.I feel nothing.Fingertipswet lipswarm exposedfleshecstatic gaspsthe wail of sirensI feel nothing.My handher facethat initial glarefading infading outthe stains on the sheetspickupthe awkwardlimp dropI feel nothing.sharp dirtbareexposedwetfleshThe wail of sirens.Such a blank.Such a blur.Fading in.Fading out.

Another Of My Favorite StoriesA few people found the story I told about T rather moving. I was asked today if I'd post another, and this one immediately came to mind, so I thought I'd be happy to do so.
This one is a few years back. Trent had decided to take some time away from music to attend college, only doing the occasional show to keep himselfin the trades. The college he decided to attend also had a sister school on campus, a school that catered to the disabled and teach them trades to help them possibly find viable employment out in the world. Now in the past, he has done a lot of work with the disabled and took these kids under his wing, becoming quite fond of them.
One day, he volunteered to take some of them on a mall run, something the school did every Sunday, shuttling those that wanted to go to the mall to get things they wanted or needed. As he was looking at CDs in the music store (c'mon luvs, like we didn't all see that one coming. Trust me, it's one of the two places to find him in such a place,

H.s. 1So deep in her thoughts,Is where I long to be.Buried into her heart,Will this she ever see.In days of old,This would be my lifelong quest.To search only for her,Forsaking all the rest.I wish my God would smile on me,And make this beautys heart mine.Then I would have the greastest treasure,And cherish it for all time.

My BattleI am in the battle of Who Would You Rather, on myyearbook I do not know how many I have now but I need votes....Vote for me please and thanks

From The Halls Of The Horn Store To The Shores Of LibraryNnngh … does not quite work along the lines of the Marines’ Hymn (“From the halls of Montezuma/To the shores of Tripoli”) and certainly isn’t as evocative, but if I got you to read this fall, then the title accomplished something! I’m referring to our Labor Day lack of barbecues and grills since rain came down in a sheet and the kids even though they wouldn’t take much of a nap yesterday (but Sunday was not a problem despite Sarah’s protests, “I don’t want to take a nap! I don’t want to take a nap!”) I did not feel like punishing myself as well as them. Also, I didn’t rest much yesterday afternoon, so I brought them to Dakota Square Mall and we shared a midday between-meal snack that they dipped in and out of while playing in the mall’s play area. When Sarah and Jeffrey make the effort, their making friends with the other kids is easy.
And since one other kid commented I was funny when I &ldquo

You Can't Be Fu-serious....When you sign into this site some days you feel like you are walking into a really bad bar. Not even a really low class strip joint because of the fact, at least there there's already naked women to somewhat distract the men. At least until they step off "stage" that is. Fubar is set up on a level to where everyone knows what to expect. Most men bitch that because they don't have tits it takes them longer to level, or they bitch because they can't find anyone and they are lonely. I may be here to level but I'm also here to make friends.
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U.s. Says Not Considering Nato Afghan Troop RequestU.S. says not considering NATO Afghan troop request
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WASHINGTON (Reuters) – The United States does not plan to contribute to a NATO request for 2,000 troops for the Afghan war, the Pentagon said on Tuesday, even as the head of the alliance held out the possibility of U.S. participation.
The NATO commander in Afghanistan submitted a request last week that alliance officials said called for another 2,000 soldiers, including 750 trainers.
Colonel Dave Lapan, a Pentagon spokesman, said the request referred to a long-standing NATO requirement focusing on training Afghan forces.
Last year, NATO allies failed to meet all NATO requests for trainers and Washington temporarily deployed 850 troops to help fill the gap. Those soldiers are due back in the United States this fall and no more were being considered, Lapan said.
"We would look for NATO to first fill that requirement," Lapan told reporters at t

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Life?It has been often said that a person "makes life for themselves", and in a sense this is true. We would like to think we are the masters of our own destiny, but what happens when situations, events, and circumstances..."make you"? What if there are parts of our lives that are not able to be changed? I used to think that positive thinking could pave the way and "anchor" me to a place where i would be well grounded and have a clear-sighted, solid destiny that i was making my own way to, but life is full of places that can leave us vulnerable and our paths "rocky". People often ask the question "why"? I dont think it is always possible to accept a place where one can be at...Loss, fear, and insecurities can keep us from just ONE solid truth that we are trying to believe in. Life is unpredicatable to a point, with highs, lows and places that require many truths to set us free. Many ancient philosophers pondered these questions..some perplexed and frustrated because One hidden truth could n

The JumpI've been standing on this ledge wondering how far the fall,Still not sure if you'll ever try to catch me at all.Yet pushing off with my feet and a nosedive straight in,Into a world of fulfillment,pain,pleasure, and sin.I'm taking a chance for you to be mine,To build a world with you so beautifully divine.Step by step and very second in a minute falling faster and faster,Hoping the end of my trip wont be a bloody disaster.Holding my arms out in front of me and my heart in hand,Everything is becoming clearer but there you stand.With your head held up high and your arms open wide,both thinking that where going to collide.Stopping abruptly with no blood and no mess,Hovering above you taking my heart and placing yours in my chest.Pulling me into reality this is our day,Finally both never again having to pray.

The Environmental Effects Of WarAfrica“My hands are tiedThe billions shift from side to sideAnd the wars go on with brainwashed prideFor the love of God and our human rightsAnd all these things are swept asideBy bloody hands time can't denyAnd are washed away by your genocideAnd history hides the lies of our civil wars” – Guns ‘n Roses (Civil War)In Africa many civil wars and wars between countries occurred in the past century, some of which are still continuing. Most wars are a result of the liberation of countries after decades of colonialization. Countries fight over artificial borders drawn by former colonial rulers. Wars mainly occur in densely populated regions, over the division of scarce resources such as fertile farmland. It is very hard to estimate the exact environmental impact of each of these wars. Here, a summary of some of the most striking environmental effects, including biodiversity loss, famine, sanitation problems at refugee camps and over fishing is given for different cou

To A Broken Hearted GrandfatherMy pillow is covered with salty water. Although it smells of broken dreams and pieces of a decaying heart. Laying my head softly on it every night the flashing pictures form slide shows of what once was and what could of been done. Forgiving you I did oh so long ago, but never forgiving yourself. Watching the pain eat your body and grasp your soul cuts my wounded heart once more. Frequent questions I ponder about and answers I'll never have. Unselfishly taking your life for forgiveness but yet stealing pieces of my soul in the process. Hoping the bits of soul you did not consume in your past life have a place to rest easy and rest easy forever.

It's All YouWhen you speak, that beautiful noise leaking from your lips soothe my aching heart. That fills the other half of my soul. It wraps around me like the beating sun on an August morning. When you touch me, those coarse but gentle hands up my arm and around my neck arouses me with aggressive passion. It powerfully conquers my mind and flesh. You pull me in faster than any great black hole in the universe can pull the smallest grain of sand. When you love me, those amazing words whispered softly into my ear and your warm embrace make me feel safe. Your love shelters me from any nefarious demons in my closet. It swallows my form taking all of me in. My every stunning flaw draws your affection for me, making me love myself and with all of that, love you.

Loving YouYour words sprinkled elegantly across the sheets that cover are bare skin. The whispers of our hearts telling untold secrets through our eyes. With lips just touching, breathing in each others souls. Beings merged into one fulfilling all our fantasies. Hearing groans filled with pleasurable shrieks of sensuality, caring and caressing our spirit. Love conquering both minds, healing our battered bodies from neglecter's of the past.

Perfectly ImperfectI'm blinded by the sunlight reflecting off your soul. You pull me in like the dark navy blue sea underneath a summer lit moon. Zombified, with every word is my one step closer to your heart. I cherish every moment I spend with you. Craving your endless mind, deeper and deeper I want to be. You have me wishing are souls were fused as one. Together for eternity, just yours with mine. And when the air is filled with nothing but our hearts beating and our breath, we're only gazing into eachothers true selves. Every little piece of you is different but is still amazingly, perfectly imperfect. Your beautiful in your own way. With the Earth sprung on that very day I knew just how much I truly, madly, deeply am in love with you.

Sandpit TalkOne delightful afternoon whilst sitting under the shade cloth of the sandpit in the sweltering heat, took place a rather amusing conversation between me and two gorgeous boys under the age of 5
(i work in childcare for those playing at home)
Sitting in the sandpit whilst creating sandcastles out of the wet sand i took it upon myself to ask the boys what they would like to be when they grow up? valid question i thought
Me: So what would you like to be when you grow up?
Boy1: Im going to be a policeman
Me: A detective like dad?
Boy1: Yes
Me: And what do you want to be when you grow up boy 2?
Boy 2: A policeman Im going to be boy 1's partner
Me: Oh yeah that sounds great...... when i grow up i want to be a unicorn
Boy2: You cant be a unicorn
Me: Why not?
Boy2: Cos your already grown up

Til Death Do Us PartHe promised, she seethed. He promised and yet again he failed to deliver. She paced the room, her eyes flickered toward the closed door. Liar, she thought. He's such a liar! She stalked back to the fireplace and saw a picture of the two of them at the fair, taken only a few short months ago. His eyes were a warm blue, yet the gaze was cold and distant. It was as if he was staring straight through the camera, she noticed. She loved him, of that there was no question. She just hated when he made promises then broke them. Today was important, and he knew it. So it meant a lot to her that he kept his word and came home on time. The sound of a disgruntled engine broke the silence of the living room, and she spun around waiting for the door to open. Anger flowed through her, making her blood feel warm and giving her skin a healthy glow. Wanting a final moment to herself, she stormed into the kitchen. Walking around the island, she hoped for something cool to drink.She wasn't sure what she wa

Goodbye And Thanks For The Fish.
I’ve spent a lot of time on fubar and met some interesting people. Some bizarre, some kind and some I wouldn’t pee on if on fire. Fubar, like society in general has its good and it’s bad, it’s ups and downs. I spent way too much time here, wishing for something to come true. Perhaps I was looking for friendship and that all elusive thing we all crave, love. No matter how witty one is, or well spoken, or thoughtful, it’s trumped by a nice set of breasts. . Words fall on deaf ears. It’s all a popularity contest and I’ve gotten to the point where I refuse to play anymore. I’ve left Facebook as well. I haven’t deleted it as I use it to communicate with family overseas but for my so called friends and associates on there, I will not communicate with them anymore. I don’t care about your weekend plans, or who you nailed, or how drunk you got. It’s meaningless. Do you honestly care about what I say? The reality is no

Nine Inch Nails - Hurt (one Of My Favorite Songs)"Hurt" I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end You could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of shit Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end You could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way

In MemoriamLast week there was another prime example of human cruelty and stupity. Lisa and Caleb Eddy-Forde were murdered by her husband. Lisa was an EMT here in Lee Count, Florida. Her son Caleb was only one year old. he had just started walking on his own. While the police have released no details I have talked with officers who were on the seen. The nightmare they describe makes this even more horrific.
On this site I see blogs about getting laid, increasing breasts.....all sorts of stuff. But I'm willing to bet there are very few who will read this let alone comment. And almost no one will post my pick for them. It seems talking about the size of ones equipment is fine, but let's not stand for something. let's not stand and say enough of this.
Want to stop this? It's pretty simple, speak out. Speak out and refuse to allow this to be kept in the dark. Drag those who abuse spouses, kids, elders and animals into the light. Let the world know what pond scum they are. Demand harsher penalties f

IndelicateA Flower? Believe me. I try.
I own many a high heel.
My 4" Franco Sartos are my favorite right now.
They go well with my thigh clip.
I have shirts that are too tight.
Skirts that are too short.
And scars riddled here and there on my body.
I bask in MAC makeup
and I enjoy Carolina Hererra 212
And my Crossbow.
I wear lip gloss
I curl my hair
and LOVE the Flying Arm Bar.
I can Pirouette
Sing in First soprano
and pick off a moving target from 385 yds.
Delicate? Hardly. I AM a flower of some sort. I'm just not sure if it's poisonous or not. I am me.

JasmaineThis Blog Is Basically About My Daughter, N Her First Word, Me N Will Were Working In The Kitchen, N She Comes Crawling Into The Kitchen Calling DADA DADA DADA! I Sware, I Ran Up Too Her, N Fucking HUGGED Her. I Was So Proud Of Her That Day.

HerI loved her more than any other friendI promised i'd love her till the endBut as i thought her life was overIt showed me life wasn't for everI waited for her to txt me that dayWaited for her to say i'm okayBut that txt never cameMy heart was filled with pitty and shameI felt i was the one to blameI should've been with herThen there wouldn't be this pictureShe is laying on the side of the roadSo inecent and coldShe was cut to pieces Raped and beatinHer memory has vanishedHer memory she once hadIs wrapped in a bagHer life was soo sadI didn't want to tell herI wanted to let her memory growSo that maybe she would knowWho we wereI stayed up all night trying to give her her life backAs she started to remember meI could already seeThis life would never be the sameThe life filled with so much shame

The BattlefieldThe military fight other military.... Police officers fight crime and drugs.... Firefighters fight fires.... Doctors fight to save lives!! Everyone in whatever profession they are in, are fighting some sort of battle on MANY different battlefields. But at what point do you say... "Enough is enough??" i have seen death in so many ways, you would think that I would somewhat be use to it by now. But I guess its something that you never get use to. In the profession i am in, you go into it expecting the worst but hoping for the best.
Am I ranting.. yes.. Death has knocked on my door yet again. IDK what to do anymore. Besides work on getting out.. Which I am doing.. I am tired boss...DOG TIRED!!

..Everybody strugglesevery good relationshiphas its down fallsif there were no mistakesthere would be no happinessthe one that really lovesyou will be with you till the endthrough all the pain and sorrowthe one that hates youwill always hate youthere is no way to changewhat will happen or is going to happenyou might be able to changeyour looks, personality, and friendsbut in the end it want matterwhat you did or didnt doall that will really matter is all the love and carethat you gave to each and every personyou knewits not who you where its who you areits what you have done and will do

My Rap Bout My ExWell I knew this would happen,
so that's why I'm rappin.
Yea you standin me up,
but Bitch you lettin me down.
Tellin your lies to me,
you da hoe of dis town.
Best be lookin round,
Cause ain't no one lovin you now.
Damn Katie,
you broke my heart.
The last few times you said your on your way,
I stayed up all damn night,
and through the next day.
I'm tired of ya games,
and this is what I'm sayin.
Best believe this shit,
Cause girl I ain't playin.
Go Fuck YaSelf!
Bitch you ain't good enough for me.
Go Fuck YaSelf!
Is is too hard for you to see?
Yea you standin me up,
but Bitch you lettin me down.

Help Me Save My Beloved ComputerProblem:
My Windows XP machine, which is the one I love to death, is developing a really bad habit. The hard drive will light up and then it will get really slow…
It almost seems like it is caught in a loop, trying to find something, and that takes precedence over everything else I am doing. There have been a couple times when I have rebooted, CHKDSK runs during the boot up process. It tells me the drive is dirty. This machine is old and I have gone through deleting stuff, admittedly some of it was probably stuff I should not have deleted at all. The machine still runs, just not like it used to…
Anyone out there have any idea what could be causing the hang up? Is the system unstable and needs to be recovered. Is the drive worn out and need to be replaced? Virus? I have never had a problem with viruses on my computers. Anything is possible. Any help would be appreciated.
I want to save my XP machine. It has programs on it that I can not replace without considerable exp

Come Rain, Hail, Sleet Or Snow Fvck Customer ServiceSo yes come rain hail sleet or snow the postal person will come through for you. However, come customer service it is all about Fvck you! This is how my lunch went today at the post office.
May I help you?
Yes I need to have the key to my mail box apparently it has been changed.
It has?
Yes. Seems I misplaced my key and didn’t check my mail for 10 days and the postal person sent all my mail back as no longer at the residents.
So then you have your key?
Yes, however it doesn’t work.
How so?
Well, um when I put it in the lock and attempt to turn it, it doesn’t turn. Hence it doesn’t work.
Hmm I wonder why that is?
As do I. I did see the postman last Saturday I explained and I tried to explain what happened to him and this was our conversation.
Excuse me sir.
Yes (he never looked up)
It seems I miss placed my key and you requested my mail be returned. I fixed this at the post office and wanted to be sure you know I still currently live

Need Washing??A little girl had been shopping with her Mother at the grocery store. She must have been 6 years old, this beautiful red haired, freckle faced image of innocence.
It was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the spout.. We all stood there, under the awning, just inside the door of the Safeway. We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their hurried day. I am always mesmerized by rainfall. I got lost in the sound and sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the world. Memories of running, splashing so carefree as a child came pouring in as a welcome reprieve from the worries of my day. Her little voice was so sweet as it broke the hypnotic trance we were all caught in, 'Mom let's run through the rain,' she said.
'What?' Mom asked. 'Let's run through the rain!' she repeated. 'No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit,' Mom repl

A Look InFair warning this blog was intended for me as all of them are if u take something away from it, it's a bonus.
Dignity does not consist in possessing honors, but in deserving them. --Aristotle
Having read what I have recently posted has allowed me to examine my thoughts over the past few days. Quite frankly I looked into a mirror and did not like what I saw. The question is no diffrent that it has ever been, Step Up or Step aside? And the answer is ,as it usually is, time to STEP UP.
That being said I will not be ending my string of excellence here. There are Quite a few that would prefer me to do so. The ones who want the recognition without the work. Im sure they would love to me to remain quiet. As many of u know that is not my style. I simply had to look in to a place I haven't had to go for some time. It's dark and terrifying for some. I looked in me and asked, "Are you willing to accept defeat?" Because your sorry ass was starting to sound like it. And in the end:
I do

Mike Edwards Dead At 62From the Washington Post today:
Mike Edwards, one of the early members of the British rock ensemble, Electric Light Orchestra, died Sept. 3 in an accident.
Mr. Edwards was driving a white van along a countryside road in the southwestern county of Devon when a 700 pound hay bale tumbled down a hill and landed on the windshield of his vehicle, killing him instantly, police said.
He was a particularly eccentric character of the band, who was known for wearing a tailed tuxedo, and playing solo tunes using a grapefruit for a bow.
He also had one particular piece, called the "dying swan," when at the end of his routine, his cello would "explode."
He played with ELO from 1972 to 1974 before becoming a Buddhist, changing his name to Deva Pramada, and making money teaching the cello.
He played in this piece, "Ma-Ma-Ma-Belle". Enjoy.
Rock on!
Shawn, AKA DurhamNtx

Blank PagesBlank pages lay before me,
Awaiting my heart and pen.
Waiting patiently always ready,
For when my words flow again.
They take them all,
Never thinking any absurd.
Without doubt or predujice,
The page accepts my words.
This page though has no life,
Can truely be called a friend.
It has been with me from the srart,
And will stay till my words do end.

Obama Drops The DeclarationPresident Obama just redecorated The Oval Office. Part of his feng shui includes a new rug featuring several of his favorite quotes:
“The Only Thing We Have to Fear is Fear Itself” – Franklin D. Roosevelt“The Arc of the Moral Universe is Long, But it Bends Towards Justice” – Martin Luther King, Jr. “Government of the People, By the People, For the People” – Abraham Lincoln“No Problem of Human Destiny is Beyond Human Beings” – John F. Kennedy “The Welfare of Each of Us is Dependent Fundamentally Upon the Welfare of All of Us” – President Theodore RooseveltOf all the memorable quotes in American history, Obama chooses no Founders’ words for his office rug. There is not even a nod to the Declaration of Independence (“All Men are Created Equal”…anyone?).This is not the only time that Obama has ignored the Declaration of Independence. For instance, J

Sister BikerSister Biker! Sister Biker, come ride with me.
She doesn't even look as she passes me by.
Sister Biker, Hey! Sister Biker.
I throttle up to catch her, but she disappears over the next hill. When I see her next she is taking on fuel, so I pull in to top off myself.
Sister Biker, I mean you no harm. She gently takes my hand and places it on my heart. You are as the road we travel, wild and free. As the eagle soars the winds in search of prey, we ride the roads in search of freedom. She turns away, then turns back and gently kisses me on the cheek.
Sister Biker, wait Sister Biker.
I see your pain. Pain from a Man who says it's Love. The searing punch to the face, the stinging words just before, the piercing looks just after.
Sister Biker you are Love, You are Home, You are Freedom. I give you respect to take where ever you may roam. I reach to take her hand but she is gone.
Sister Biker, ride Free until we meet again.....
I ride on......

The Instinct Of Hope ~by John ClareTHE INSTINCT OF HOPE
Is there another world for this frail dustTo warm with life and be itself again?Something about me daily speaks there must,And why should instinct nourish hopes in vain?'Tis nature's prophesy that such will be,And everything seems struggling to explainThe close sealed volume of its mystery.Time wandering onward keeps its usual paceAs seeming anxious of eternity,To meet that calm and find a resting place.E'en the small violet feels a future powerAnd waits each year renewing blooms to bring,And surely man is no inferior flowerTo die unworthy of a second spring?
............................................................................John Clare

Love Lives Beyond The Tomb ~by John ClareLOVE LIVES BEYOND THE TOMB
Love lives beyond the tomb,And earth, which fades like dew!I love the fond,The faithful, and the true.Love lives in sleep:'Tis happiness of healthy dreams:Eve's dews may weep,But love delightful seems.'Tis seen in flowers,And in the morning's pearly dew;In earth's green hours,And in the heaven's eternal blue.'Tis heard in SpringWhen light and sunbeams, warm and kind,On angel's wingBring love and music to the mind.And where's the voice,So young, so beautiful, and sweetAs Nature's choice,Where Spring and lovers meet?Love lives beyond the tomb,And earth, which fades like dew!I love the fond, The faithful, and the true.
................................................John Clare

Evening ~by John ClareEVENING
'Tis evening; the black snail has got on his track,And gone to its nest is the wren,And the packman snail, too, with his home on his back,Clings to the bowed bents like a wen.The shepherd has made a rude mark with his footWhere his shadow reached when he first came,And it just touched the tree where his secret love cutTwo letters that stand for love's name.The evening comes in with the wishes of love,And the shepherd he looks on the flowers,And thinks who would praise the soft song of the dove,And meet joy in these dew-falling hours.For Nature is love, and finds haunts for true love,Where nothing can hear or intrude;It hides from the eagle and joins with the dove,In beautiful green solitude.
...................................................................................................John Clare

The Dying Child ~by John Clare
1He could not die when trees were green,
2 For he loved the time too well.
3His little hands, when flowers were seen,
4 Were held for the bluebell,
5 As he was carried o'er the green.
6His eye glanced at the white-nosed bee;
7 He knew those children of the spring:
8When he was well and on the lea
9 He held one in his hands to sing,
10 Which filled his heart with glee.
11Infants, the children of the spring!
12 How can an infant die
13When butterflies are on the wing,
14 Green grass, and such a sky?
15 How can they die at spring?
16He held his hands for da

Broken Hearted Played On The Fools Play GroundIam sitting here crying from the fool they tell you they love you just to use you when they need bids my heart is torn apart into millions of peices actuallty thought you were the one my knight in shinning armour just to find out i was playing on the fools playground iam so tired i stayed up for you until wee mdnight hours when i woke this moorning you were the one i thought of wit a smile on my face but a frown now tears are falling from my eyes my heart hurts but i guess thats why they say never play on the fools playground will i ever learn love ya smack as i thoughht u did me

AwayThe day my heart died,
Away from me it I sent.
Not knowing how long it would be gone,
Or even where it went.
The pain she had cause,
Was to much to bare.
I had to send it away,
So I would no longer care.
To be cold,empty and unfeeling,
So much easier than the pain.
I had to send it away,
Till it is healed and whole again.
To live life without love,
Yes it is a waste of time.
I had to send it away,
Because it was yours,never again to be mine.

Sensational Cyber Crush On You BabyThoughts of you always haunt my mind
Awakening my desires, I always find
Longing to hold you in my arms
Cupid bound my heart with your charms
You are like gentle winds beneath the moonlit skies
And the millions of twinkling stars to fill my eyes
O my baby! And the scent of fragrance of roses
Of beautiful colors and poses
I spend a lifetime searching for someone like you
Who fill me with joy, happiness and desire too
With eyes like sapphires so blue
The windows to your soul where I see through
You shone on me a sunshine of purest gold
And in my heart, your dimond love I hold
I will be with you until time stand still

Umm Yeah Another One Of Those Things I Love To WriteIt's like a fairytale but the story is still going on just like our love as it grows strong its like a fairytale that is still being wrote like a perfect song or a perfect note everything is happening right before our eyes your no ordinary girl and i'm no ordinary guy this is what I tell you and this is what you tell me other people don't seem to get what it is we see but I know what it is I see I don't need anything but u I guess that's how I know this is a fairytale come true

Well This Poem Is Also Dedicated To The Best Girl In My Life Even Though She Doesnt Know Itgirls what can i guy do i know guys you can like a girl but she doesnt like you back
To dream, how to dream?if your the one to dream of,.To love, but how to love?if you're the one to love,.to dream amongst dream,to love against love,if you chose a precious one,with a distance to reach,A distance of a land the sky,the unreachable stars and the moon,to rain or to shine,for me it has no difference,.In this world,everything is different,there are never the same,even two becomes one,.My life and to dream of you,How could it be,....or it is just the reality of,..a dream amongst dream,to hope amongst hope,to wish amongst wish,!..

Broken Me...WTF you may ask?! Keep in mind this is the condensed soup version of what happened to me in 2004-2010. Yes its long and yes there are technical terms. Get lost or confused ask. I was a nurse before I got sick. I tend to forget that not everyone knows what the fuck I'm talking about. March 2004 I became deathly ill. I had what "they" thought to be a chronic migraine. Turns out that would be the easy way out. But for those of you who know me, know I can't take the easy way out of anything... I was put in the hospital and "they" started running tests. Every fucking test known to man was ran on me. I was diagnosed with Pseudo Tumor Cerebri (PTC). In short my brain thinks its has a brain tumor. It doesn't, but trying to convince that tainted thing of that isn't possible. My brain over produces Cerebral Spinal Fluid (CSF) and crushes itself. So I was put into a medically induced coma for nearly 2 weeks. "They" tried drug therapy to help me. Guess

New To Thishiya everyone just found fubar n looking to make friends would be cool to talk to anyone :D hope all is well in the pub lol

Just A Dream ~ NellyJust A Dream LyricsI was thinkin about herthinkin about methinkin about uswhat we gunna beopen my eyes...it was only just a dreamso i travel back down that roadwish you come backno one knowsi realize, it was only just a dreami was at the topnow its like i'm in the basementnumber 1 spotnow shes finding a replacementi swear now i cant take itknowing somebodys got my babynow you wait around, baby i cant thinki should put it down, shoulda got that ringcuz i can still feel it in the airsee your pretty facerun my fingers through her hairmy lovemy lifemy shawtymy wifeshe left me, i'm tightcuz i knew that it just aint righti was thinkin about herthinkin about methinkin about uswhere we gunna beopen my eyes...it was only just a dreamso i travel back down that roadwish you come backno one knowsi realize, it was only just a dreamand i be ridinand i swear i see your face and every timei try to get my usher on but i cant let it burnand i just hope that she notice she the only one i yearn forno more

School ShytSo,, I am doing my boys homework for him. Seriously ,, more or less I am.
Teacher wants a Tineline for the first 10yrs of his life.. events of what happened each year.
Shes also wanting a timeline on the worldly events that happened those years..and also wanting
pictures for each of these time lines. So, I am wondering..how do they expect kids to know what
happened each year of there life? Or have pictures for all this stuff? I mean.. I had pictures through
first 5years..but after that..theres picture here or there. As for the worldly events..if a person has no
computer or printer..how do you get this info? Other than go to a library? seriously..they really need
to rethink this shyt they ask. I am one pissed off momma!
Oh, and don;t get me started on his math homework. Which they jumped from last year..of him just
learning multiplication and very simple division..to now doing hard division problems that even get me
stumped over.

How To Properly Get Over A Divorce.No one wants to be a statistic. When I first married, I was like, "Wow, awesome! This is for life!" because I was actually that much in love. Then 7 years later she calls it off. Needless to say it hurt. I left and moved back to my old stomping grounds where one month later I got a Border Collie puppy to fill that void. Plus, I love those fucking dogs. So smart.
But the trick was to find things to keep me from sulking and falling into a pit of misery. Well, starting a new job helped out a lot, and then also getting back into cartooning which I had done years and years before. Now things are really looking up and 2011 seems as if it's going to be the breaking year. I guess the lesson here is to never give up. When the chips are down, throw 'em across the room and kick life in the face. It's worked for me.

A Watch Permits Resistance--the Omega Seamaster James Bond
Have you ever seen 007? Have you ever heard of James Bond? I know the answer must be yes! Then, you should have noticed the watch in this motion pictures everyone knows and loves. Yes, that’s the omega seamaster watches_Omega Seamaster James bond watch_omega watches.
There have been lots of gratifying termonoligies to describe the Omega Seamaster Planet Ocean, we are going to just say it’s brilliant. If you want to swim with the fishes then this is preferrred, it is effective at 600M depths. Add this together with simple yet perfect looks and we now have ourselves a need to have watch. A coaxial chronograph will cause the watch to go tick tock all the while the face is being shielded from scratches by the sapphire crystal face. The durability of the straps materials, which comprise, rubber, stainless steel, red gold and leather, is second to none. The main colors of the wristwatch are a brilliant combo of bright orange, black and silver.
The lead character, James Bond,

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Sustainable Development ExplainedAre you one of those that think that we should move towards a more sustainable model of development? This is indeed a great vision but unfortunately there are not a lot of people that understand what it entails. Some people even use the word sustainability to describe something that is it not. In this article I will be providing an overview of sustainable development in order to help the novices learn more on this.
The fundamental thing about sustainable development is selecting a model of economic development that will not harm society or the environment even in the future. This means that you should not choose a model of economic development which will affect other stakeholders. Contrary to what some people believe sustainable development is more than ecology alone. French readers that need to find more on this topic can have a look at this article on sustainable development (developpement personnel) as it contains some interesting info.
For a proper sustainable economic mode

What Do U Expectyou want to know more about me well if u didn't like my blogs before this then u might as wells go away, cuz this is me, and i ain't changing anytime soon. i got plenty more of these to post but i think i'll do that later.

Just Anotherjust another guy,just another broken heart,just another piece of ass,just another thing that hurts.
just another step,just another lie,just another tear from my eyes.just another someone,just another no one. just another lonely phase,just another empty page.
another tear,another crack,another piece of me to fear.someone new who turns their back,just another someone,just another no one,just another empty heart,just another full of pain.

Darknessempty dreams,hollow thoughts,a dark black past,a horrible nightmare,frightening screams of painful torcher,look into my eyes, can you see me or are they empty?call my name, do i answer?in a daze so confused i'm lost.tears of emptiness fall like rain,do you see them or in your eyes are they non-existing?my dreams a nightmare,wake me up, somebody, anybody,can't you hear my silent screams?don't you know how i'm in so much pain?can't anyone see the tears streaming down my face?the sadness in my expression?help i scream,gone, dead.no one hears, no one heard.

Inkthe scribbles on the wall just get darker everyday,
with each and every okay,
can't sleep to dream, only dream to sleep.
so alone and forgotten,
yet so closed in.
with those echoes of stillness.
the ink on the paper just gets smudged,
too much to read, too slow to see.
this life is over, done and gone away,
let it be,
don't try,
just let go,
it will all be fine.
the sky falls more each day,
too heavy to carry,
should i let it fall; my world i hold so tight?
almost to explode and go insane.
the echoes of hate and unhappiness.
the tears of past love roll down as quick as a river of constant pain,
in a world of darkness.
the warm hotness only gets colder, and colder,
almost to fade and go away.

Karma...I'll never get enough of this. Don't be mad, because you will never amount to half of this. My mind don't quit. I'm soarin fast to the top, while you float slowly to the top like a dead fish. Hate on this. I'm a jerk. Keepin Haters in work. I'm a beast. I'm the best. I'm spotless. Don't stalk my life since yours is such a mess. Take this one if you feel it. It's free. Consider it a farewell gift to you from me. Why you so obsessed with me? Is it because your fiction can't match my reality? Am I what you wish you could be? Just wait and see. I'm through playin hide and seek. There's no future in you. Mine is bright, yours is bleek. I look down and see the world. When you look down all you see is dirt and feet. God put people like you on this earth, to give people like me inspiration. Motivation. So consider this my emancipation. As I cut ties and walk away. Tomorrows a brand new day. Keep playing the games that you play. It's easy to win when you play games by yourself. Just put my name

Choices .. The Razorwire TightropeI like it here. That special place that makes a person feel a live. That state of being on the edge of every thing. It’s like tight rope walking on razor wire across the Himalayas. Invigorating, Dangerous. Worrisome. Painful. Exhilarating. And most of all Alive. I have been walking that tightrope for a long time. It wears on you. The most amazing and perhaps amusing thing is it is an addiction. Most people back away from it for fear or safety. Other stay back not because they don't like it, just because they simply can't handle it. It's too much to juggle everything else when something places you on the edge. The problem with being on the Edge for any reason is most of the time it seems as though there is nothing you can do to control your situation. It then comes down to the only choices we have ever had in life. Accept it or do not accept it.
In Short Step up or Step aside, as Mr. Titus put it. Step up or step aside. Accept it or refuse to. These are the only choices we reall

Where I Lost My Mind.I lost myself counting the drips on the glass.My reflection past the reflection.Long, meandering trails pooling and crossingcollidingI wasn't sure what to make of itwith the splinters forks and cascadesa mural of wet chaos and gray.A small series of interruptions, flow, spatter, and pause?How muchlittlecontrol do I have over the trailcollisionspatterrolldissolvestretched and flecked all over the surface.FateDestinyChanceCruelty.We're going to go with crueltyjust because its todayand you're you.The ring makes sense.The warm caramel sway in the mug is orderbut order is diminishing with each swigyou can't stay safe molded to your container forever.You will deplete, you will cool, you will disappearBut in the madnessyou're anonymous, forever, and a part of some greater mischiefsome grand misfortuneonce the dischord of another God enters.That's why I put my hand through the window.I wanted to watch the cascade-flow of shards and brittlethe ballad of the broken, so the history of the haphaza

StrongThe silence so deadly
the pain so divine
never forgetting
the love stuck away in the back of my mind
the memories burning
searing from within
the knowledge of loss wearing me thin
the look in my eyes
as i gaze in the mirror
the suffering i've caused much more then a glimmer
know that i'm guilty
of every single sin
not seeing so clearly as i glance again
forgetting the moment
and what i wanted to say
the knowledge of self running so deep
the monster overtaking
inhibiting release
scream it out softly
a demons keen wail
knowing so surely
in this life i WON'T fail
pulling together
making it work
tougher then life
in every single way
i will take on the world
and prove the doubters wrong
i'm nothing in this life
if i am not strong

Rough Past WeekI had a crappy week, it was my Son's b-day on the 2, and of course my ex made him unavailible to me, and on top of that, she gave me the wrong address to send his gift.
So, after all day of not being able to reach him, I decided to get smashed........and I did but with consequences. I have epilepsy, and the next day I had a seziure that banged me up but good.........and then as if by magic, my ex's phone was back opn and the world seemed to be right again.
This week outta prove to be interesting.

Running From LifeRunning from Life
I've tried so hard to protect my heart from getting hurt all over again. I've spent most of my day's avoiding those feelings for people around me, Telling others that are interested that nothing could ever be, and pushed myself away. Only to grow more and more alone every passing day that drags by. The loneliness growing in my heart to a stabbing pain I can't ignore. Though through all the stabs of pain, I know I'm not ready to lose myself again. To risk my heart and everything I hold dear, to break down the walls I've built. I know I've done wrong, and they are not the only ones to blame for my pain. I've set myself up for most of my failures, and that's what scares me most of all. I've fallen and I've tripped, I've caught myself in wistful thoughts and been stuck in the mud, With jagged cuts and bruses, brokenhearted and bleeding I've pulled myself together again and again. But now I'm running, running with no destination and no way out of my fate. I fight ev

[ah To Be Young, Handsome And Scarred]Rejoice for I had to take a muscle relaxer...and then I got really high.God I'm bored.Like... bubble wrap bored.like, reorganize my game/DVD collection bored.God that's bored.But I did watch Dr. Horribleand I want some snazzy goggles... partly to cover my disfiguring scarpartly for the AWESOME.This reminds me of my first blog entry on this website.Minus the chronic painand the dogand the...no I'm pretty sure NiN was playing in the background then too.I need a dreamscape.A saga.Or at least a mindfuck.and all I've got are these pillsand these keyswhat happens when I run outand I need more?Good fucking times.Good fucking times.I always end on a low note.I'm gonna grab my sandles, my rings, run my hands through my hairI'm outta here.

Afghanistan: The War Must End, Bring Troops HomeAfghanistan: The war must end, bring troops home
Friday, September 25, 2009 - 10:00
By Tim Dobson
There is an increasing push for US president Barack Obama to send more soldiers to Afghanistan. The push comes from the top commander of US and NATO forces in Afghanistan, General Stanley McChrystal.
The push comes as eight years of misery inflicted on a war-weary people has caused increasing opposition to the occupation inside the US and other countries participating in the invasion — including Australia.
Despite growing popular opposition, with new polls showing a majority of US people no longer supporting the war, the September 20 New York Times said McChrystal was "expected to propose a range of options for additional troops beyond the 68,000 American forces already approved, from 10,000 to as many as 45,000".
However, faced with the fall in public support on top of a deteriorating military situation, the Obama administration appears to be struggling t

Give To The Veteran HospitalsThe intense heat of Kuwait had turned us all into virtual sponges, forcing us to organize our daily routines around the consumption of large quantities of water, just to stay ahead of the constant sweating and dehydration. Perhaps if I had a large hump, like a camel, where I could store water, I wouldn't have to drink so much throughout the day, but that was not likely to happen now was it, probably quite unsightly too?
Fortunately, the army in its wisdom, knowing the importance of hydration, went to the trouble of putting a large ice chest in every tent for the purpose of cooling and storing numerous bottles of the life preserving liquid and resupplied the chest every morning with several bags of ice. The only problem with constant drinking is the frequent Mother Nature calls during the night to relieve ourselves. Throughout the night there was a steady stream, no pun intended, of soldiers making the trek in and out of the porta-pottie outside our tents, for most it was

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Really?Let me just say that I'm very aggravated right now. It's a huge pile of real life and fubar shit.
In real life my family is so distant with me. I'm not lying. My brother's girlfriend had a baby and I was pretty much the last to know. I was invited to a family reunion....after everyone else had booked their hotel rooms. And I'm always the last to know things. Just gets to me.
On here...well I have all of these friends that tell me they will do things for me and they don't follow through. One said that he would get me leveled by giving me his points the next double points day...that's today and NOPE. I'm offering 40 million to someone who buys me a bomb...NOTHING. I've had one person say they didn't have enough credits. Not the reply I wanted...but at least I got something from them. Yanno?
I do have 2 people running famps and they put me in their families, which is totally awesome. And I had someone else pimp me out. If it weren't for that, I'd still be at 2 million.
Yes I'm

Naughty Survey1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with? Hmm maybe..
2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night? doesn't matter haha
3. What side of the bed do you sleep on? hmm on the left
4. Pork, beef, or chicken? Chicken, i'm not much of a pork fan, except for bacon
5. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke? Nope!
6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money? nope thank goodness
7. Shower or bath? Shower, unless the tub is big enough then you can join me for a nice bubble bath :)
8. Do you pee in the shower? hell no
9. Mexican or Chinese? mexican
10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed? both since i like to take turns
11. Do you love someone in your top friends list? I need to rearrange my top friends list but i love a few of them :)
12. Do you know all the people in your friends list? No, doubt i ever will
13. Love or money or cuddling? ALL the above
14. Credit cards or cash? Cash.... CC for emergencies

Life And Hard Choicelife is full of hard choice and road blocks but you are strong and will always make it thru the rough times and they will always be better life at the end

Go Forth And Set The World On Fire.... Or Just Set Fire To The Crotches Of Those Around You....Oh the people you'll meet, oh the places you'll go....
Did you have me being totally uncomitted in mind when you wrote that, Mr. Seuss? Maybe not me specifically, but how do we move on? When do we decide to call it quits? How do I stop feeling for people?
If you meet someone, and you think they are amazing and for whatever reason then why must you say goodbye?
Screw the mushy shit; I like sex. I like sex with people that get me off. I like to keep in touch with those people and have repeat performances when possible. I hate feeling like this is abnormal or wrong, cause, let's face it, we all think about that person who totally did it for you.... just thinking about them gets you hot and isn't that what we want? A little heat... a little moist heat... *WHEW* sorry about that.
I met a guy this weekend that I would totally like to get to know naked... I just know sometimes when under all the bullshit they're worth it. I'm not saying I've been with 8000000 people, I'm saying I

T.i.-lets Get AwayChorus] (T.I.)[Jazze Pha] Hey, let's get away and get a room on the other side of townHey shawty, I was feenin' for you(Was you thinkin' of me, ay, ay...)[Girl] Hey, let's get a room, shawty we can freak somethin' if you down(Whachu would do?)Hey daddy, I was feenin' for you[Verse 1]Bet they be like "I know he tired of the nightlifeHe want a wife, he just lookin' for the right type"Yea right, I be ridin' through the city lightsMy hat bent, gettin' high behind the 'lac tintI'm chilllin' with Brazilian women, heavy accentsThey black friends translatin', got'em all ass naked, adjacentHave relations wit'em many placesLeavin' semen in they British facesMake'em kiss they partners with it in they facesYoung pimpin' sprung women 'cross the 50 statesGot young ladies requestin' "What's Yo Name" on 50 stationsAskin' me what's a pussy popper, want a demonstrationBut I ain't waitin' til the second date, I'm so impatientRelieve'em of they aggravation, take'em rollerskatin'On them Dayton's, tell'em "

Ho-frickin-la!Ok, hi. I'm Raine. I'm kinda just checkin the place out. I have no idea how often I'll actually be going on, but whatevskies. Just to warn you lot, I'm not interested in sex-caming or showing anyone my junk. Only one... ok two people are allowed to see my naked-ass body. So.. yeah. Hope everyone's doing great. DEUCE!

The Sociopath - How Many Are On Fu?Profile of the Sociopath
Glibness and Superficial Charm
Manipulative and Conning They never recognize the rights of others and see their self-serving behaviors as permissible. They appear to be charming, yet are covertly hostile and domineering, seeing their victim as merely an instrument to be used. They may dominate and humiliate their victims.
Grandiose Sense of Self Feels entitled to certain things as "their right."
Pathological Lying Has no problem lying coolly and easily and it is almost impossible for them to be truthful on a consistent basis. Can create, and get caught up in, a complex belief about their own powers and abilities. Extremely convincing and even able to pass lie detector tests.
Lack of Remorse, Shame or Guilt A deep seated rage, which is split off and repressed, is at their core. Does not see others around them as people, but only as targets and opportunities. Instead of friends, they have victims and accomplices who end up as victims. The end always

An AfterthoughtThis is just something i was pondering a little earlier when i was out with my parents having dinner. and while talking to a good friend of mine on yahoo. There are somethings that are unavoidable, unforeseeable, and due to human nature inevitable. I've had this on my mind a lot recently and the I think about it the more it seems to boil down to one thing. and get this it came from a fortune cookie ( true story) "Do not display your treasures or people will become envious". how's that for hind side Chinese food Wisdom.
One last thought, Earthquakes, volcanoes, tidal waves, and hurricanes alter the landscape, and the people forever. They are quite simply put Forces of nature. the more they steal take attempt to imitate the more it become apparent that I have for ever changed the landscape of Lounges on this site. I suppose in the end I live up to my name.
thanks for reading!!!

The VixenShe darts and dives
'twixt briar and thorn
Her perturbed persuers
show naught but scorn
She laughs and cackles
while they grunt and growl
She deftly springs and bounds
And they stomp through muck most foul
This creature is a clever prey
Praised for her ingenuity
She runs like wind and set
her traps, but only harms dignity
The fox is small, this is true
Her teeth not vicious, claws but few
But a wit and eyes, both so sharp
Are her weapons, and always strike true
~Ode from the Toad

Suck.the people on here really do.
besides a few of my very close friends.
same thing everyday, it doesnt matter what anyone says about it. it continues.
if you are so desperate for attention, that you have to make others feel bad, you have issues.
if you are saying to others, LOOK AT ME!! then you should really look at yourself.
i spend my time here, leaving shit for my friends (beacause i want them to know igaf) or talking to people
(isnt this a social network) and radomly shifting through song lyrics and quotes in my status.
and all without fucking with others. unless they deserve it =]
done, really what else is there to say, nothing is going to change.
sarah.

Celebrate The True Meaning Of Labor DayCelebrate The True Meaning Of Labor Day
Labor Day...to many people, it simply means the end of summer, a day off from work, great sales at the stores and a reason to have a family get-together. The early observances of Labor Day were not about family or fun, though, according to Oyster Bay Town Councilman Anthony D. Macagnone; they were about improving the quality of life for America’s working men and women. The Councilman and Town Supervisor John Venditto urge residents to remember the true meaning of Labor Day, September 6.
"Unfortunately, the true meaning of Labor Day has been all but lost, pushed out by its celebration as the last official day of summer and a day off from work," Supervisor Venditto said. "Councilman Macagnone and I remind residents that what labor has achieved in this country, and for this country, deserves all the celebrating it can get because we would not be enjoying the outstanding quality of life we have today were it not for the hard

The Last HoorahSo tomorrow I embark on my last trek across California for awhile. Im finishing up all the jobs there, and the bulk of new work will be occuring back east.
During the coming week, I'll be bouncing between LA, Ventura and San Diego areas.
I thought it might be nice to drop in on a few fu-folk while Im mobile. I'm aware of a few in that area, but havent seen them online in a bit.
So Im sort of enlisting whoever may read this to help me spread the word, to our collective friends that you know are in Cali, and send them to this blog or my way, so they can drop me a line and their digits and we can go from there if theyre interested.
I tried like hell to have a beer with Seamus last trip, but he relocated to arizona, so is a lil out of reach now.
Anyway, I'll be hittin up the ones I know off top of my head, maybe you guys can help me the ones that may have slipped my mind at the moment, or Im not aware that theyre in that area.
This is just for novelty, and the coolness of putting a

What Are They Worth In Fubux?FuItems going Price
Need to know if selling each of these, what is going rate for each.
1. 25 bling pack
2.Each of the activity blings (autos,bombs, famp, rangs)
3. 7 day blast
4. HH
5. VIP
Thanx (h)

BombToday is double points. I'd really LOVE to level today, so......if you buy me a bomb, I'll give you 20 million. My fuHubby has agreed to match my 20 million....making it 40 million.
I know I'm saving for spotlight and I've had one donation for that..but the 20 million I would be spending on the bomb would be what I had BEFORE the donation was made. It would be MY fuBucks, not what was donated.
So....do I have any takers?
Ps. My fuHubby is NOT online right now, but if you see my previous blog about this....you will see that he did comment that he would make it and I will be sure that you get it.
Thanks!!!

Hunted DreamsMy hunted dreams come for me every night ,
they hold nothing but pain and hurt..... As
much as i try they dont go away when i get
up in the morning .... Things of the pasted hunt
me as if my live was just one bad dream ,,, were
to go from here i dont know ???
As i lie my head down i know my hunted dreams
are coming for me..... There was a time when my
dreams were full of hope but that was so long a go,
just like a good night sleep ..... I did sleep good once
and my hunted dreams would stay away ,,, but thats
gone now !!!!!!!

ThanksThanks for being, you, Thanks for giving me the joys and smiles from day one, Thanks for helping me enjoy the atmosphere here.
Thanks for correcting me when I was wrong, Thanks for helping me follow the guidelines to survive, Thanks for helping me try and cope with people around, Thanks for giving me the courage to stand up on my own.
Thanks for all the advices, Thanks for lending me your ears when I was upset, Thanks for teaching me ways to hold on to the end, Thanks for the love and care you showed.
Thanks for the wishes you have for me, Thanks for the prayers you pray for me daily, Thanks for the candles that you lit for me,
Thanks for the appreciation, Thanks for not keeping a fence between, Thanks for the confidence you have in me,
I will miss you and all the funny things you ever did, The little naughty things youever said,
I wish you the very best for you future endevour, Thanks once again for everything.

Green FingersI thought it was about time for another stoned blog ....
The plant in question is my first attempt at growing my own.
Him: When do you think your plant will be ready???
Me: I thought it was starting to smell the other day ...
Him: Of weed???
Me: Well yeah, I thought it was that until I realised that it was the raspberry candle beside it ...
Him: *speechless*

Small Town Of Bath New Yorkone day i was walking down the street and all of a sudden a known crack head here in bath comes up to me and ask if he could get some money so he can get some crack i said what the hell is wrong with you? Do you actually think i am going to give you money to get high with i dont think so.

MorphsI'm considering being morphed. I just don't have any idea what. I'd appreciate some ideas. Thanks!

$5 Million Fubuck ContestOk here's how it is going to go ..
Get as many people to you can to come to my page, rate me, add me and mainly FAN me..
once they have done that they need to send me a drink and in the message area have them tell me who sent them (and that they became my fan) to my page..
the person who sends me the most people that become my Fan will win the $5 milion fubucks..
Pretty simple right.. so lets get started.. Contest will start Sept. 6th @ noon futime / 3pm est
and will end Sept 13th @ 3pm est / noon futime

MondayI can't wake up...for like three days, i can't wake up. i wish i could wake up long enough to pull myself out of this...this...whatever *this* is that i am in...but i can't. my headaches are back...they sure didn't give me much time to recover from the last time. maybe this week i will get some good news on the insurance front, because i think it might be time to bite the bullet and go get checked out. I still owe 2k for my knee though, and i don't really want to go in and have a western doctor tell me that antibiotics will cure everything...i think its the candida....so ive cut out sugar, dairy, fat...what does that leave, really?
i'm still feeling consumed with thoughts of zachary. i have thought about getting in touch with an old friend who knows the family i adopted him out to...but i dont know that i REALLY want to go there, or if i just think i want to go there...so....so instead i will go take a nap :P

[while Contemplating Lunch]I had a few things to share.Last night I had the most awful dream, I had my 1/144 Black Tri-stars Gouf finished, and there was something about drug dealersanyway as I was positioning the model the paint started to run off on my fingers like water colors.I couldn't stop it! So I gave in, threw it in a vat of warm alchohol and let it dissolveand it started melting the kit, so I pulled it out and started looking for purple power, and for some reason, the Gouf told me he felt heavy...his eye had been revealed during the melt, and it looked at me imploringly,almost disdainfully! So I started hacking off parts... I rounded off the spikes and I pulled the tubes out, and before long the kit was back to blue... and very strange looking, he commented on his new appearancecritically, stating that he looked like a retarded Zaku I... and he went silent after I cut his lil mouth piece off. What does it mean?Oh then I cleaned up the house some so I could actually get back to work....is my unfini

When I Left FubafThis is what I said when I left FUBAR I stand by those feelings and I am not sure if I will come back for good or for just right now. Anyway to save the feelings I had there at that time I created this blog. I am going to likely be on here from time to time but no where as active as I once was.
Ok well I have had enough of FUBAR for a while I am tired of the drama, people begging for blasts, tickers, VIPs, Happy Hours, and FU-Bucks. Also people doing anything they can just to get points. This is supposed to be place to meet people, have fun, and make new friends. Well I have been on here for almost 10 months now, at this posting I have fanned 574 people and made 457 friends. Sometimes I only fan people but that is rare most of the time I rate and fan profiles before sending a request. I only have 185 fans myself and only 1214 profile views that is about 4 views a day. To those Few Friends that I have made on here that wonder why I want to leave think about it 4 views a day and I hav

Ooooh That SongThis song, i found it on some video compilation on you tube but after hearing it and the voice of the female vocalist, something in it just called out to me. You know when you hear something and it just touches you somewhere deep inside. Well thats what it did to me. Its playing on my page now so check it out and if you like it rip it. It really is a very cool song. I Surrender by a german group called In Strict Confidence.

For The Love Of BlingMy newest pet peeve....
Going off on someone for not rating your profile when they polish your bling.
Here's how I see it.......
Someone bought the bling for you, someone is taking the time and doing all the work polishing it. You just made 1,000s of points from their work so.....
STFU and get over it!
That is all.

Girls Of 4 Moon House - Part 3bWARNING: Not for persons under the age of 18.Story contains descriptions of extreme violence and sex. Preface:I write in an effort to change the attitude of the deviant reader... paradoxically those that find what I write appealing. It is by my graphic harshness and salacious content that I attract (bait) those readers ... those deviant minds that I can then interact with... in an attempt to change misguided notions and attitudes of abuse against women and children. My methods are deviously unique... but very successful. I write to APPEAL...to AROUSE...and then to APPALL... and so the bitter seed is planted. My stories do not glorify the act of coerced sex or violence... nor do I support sexual abuse of any kind. For more information and the complete article on whether sexually explicit material, pornography or glorified violence propagates sexual and violent crimes please go to these links.http://www.cybercollege.com/sexrsh.htmhttp://www.cybercollege.com/violence.htmGIRLS

Girls Of 4 Moon House - Part 3aWARNING: Not for persons under the age of 18.Story contains descriptions of extreme violence and sex. Preface:I write in an effort to change the attitude of the deviant reader... paradoxically those that find what I write appealing. It is by my graphic harshness and salacious content that I attract (bait) those readers ... those deviant minds that I can then interact with... in an attempt to change misguided notions and attitudes of abuse against women and children. My methods are deviously unique... but very successful. I write to APPEAL...to AROUSE...and then to APPALL... and so the bitter seed is planted. My stories do not glorify the act of coerced sex or violence... nor do I support sexual abuse of any kind.For more information and the complete article on whether sexually explicit material, pornography or glorified violence propagates sexual and violent crimes please go to these links.http://www.cybercollege.com/sexrsh.htmhttp://www.cybercollege.com/violence.htmGIRLS OF FOUR MOON

Little MenLast night i was told some things by someone i dont know/These things made me roll my eyes.
First thing being obviously I'm emo. and thats why i delete people.
Secondly, the only reason im online is becuase im unhappy in my marriage.
And thats of course the reason why i have Lu as a best friend,because im lacking soo much in my marriage.
And i'm also jealous of bald-cancer-patient looking guys. Cuase theres no way I can compete with that.
If i dont want you as a friend, im not gonna pretend, and have you on my list, cause thats just a waste of both of our time.Point being, i didnt need him as a friend, and someone was butt hurt.
If you lie about, and hurt someone that i deeply care about, then you're gone.I wont even waste my time to explain it to you.
I gave you a second chance, because. she did.
Let me get this straight, I love Lu. Im not in love with her like i am my husband. Lu is great,shes the best woman I know.Shes my bestie, and my wifey, but i dont need you guys thi

Help Fubar Make A DifferenceNew fubar Sticker and Tattooo packs! Available Now! Get them before they are gone!
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fubar can make a difference! I would love to see this sticker on every trash can in america. I think the message is right on! I hate fucking litter bugs.
SEND THE DONATION TO PAYPAL TO tshirts@fubar.com - don't forget to put your name address and user ID. Let's keep the cool underground swag rolling. All money goes toward making more stickers and keeping the prices low!
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Hey, I'm New, Just To Let You KnowHey people, I'm very new to this blogging stuff so if I somehow manage to screw it up- forgive me.
Any who, I will try to keep everything and everyone up todate on this but if I don't update,or answer people back in a timely manner it is because I am out on the road. I drive trucks for a living and as such, I don't have a lot of freetime. However, I find myself liking Fubar very much so I think I'll try to update and be online as much as possible.
I have already met one REALLY cool person on here- YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, YOU CUTIE.
I hope to meet more cool people here and I will do my best to be here as much as I can. Later.

The City I Onced Lived InOn 09/05/10, I went to see a friend that I haden't seen since 96. We hung around his house and went to the Van Wert county fair, There was nothing there to do, just walk eat junk food or try to win at games to win a prize. After my friend left to go see his parents at a camping ground in Ohio City I went to Jubliee park where I used to hang out when I was younger, to get away from all the trouble at my former place. It's not a fancy park, but at least you can and go relax and clear your mind. I was there and I noticed they had changed the park. The fence to the tennis court and the nets are gone, the big wooden jungle jim was gone too. A famous bowling place call max a ramma closed after 2 years. Its been there since I was 6 years old or longer before. I just hung around Jubliee park for a while and went on a little drive through Van Wert. As I went through on the roughts I used to take when I went on bike riding over the years, 3 or 4 hours a day, Everything I knew where it was is go

You Are My DreamSome people have such big dreams, but all I want is to love you. To wake up beside you each morning, to feel the warmth of your hand in mine. To share each moment, good and bad with you, to lose myself in your loving arms. Some people want so much out of life, but all I want is to share everything with you.For us to talk long into the night, to dream together.Experience all the little things that make life worth living.
Yes, I have a big dream after all, I want so many things. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, giving you my love.Making our home a place where you always feel warm and welcome.
Always finding a sweet dream in each other's arms, loving one another for who we are.All I want is for us to love each other, for the rest of our lives.And I do believe that dreams can come true, you are my dream, all I want is to love you.
I love you Rob

Love Is..... Love is the way you make someone feel. The way someone makes you feel. Love is the sharing the caring The want and the need. Love is a power with unknown strengths. It has the power to make someone smile to make someone laugh to make someone love you in return. Love is what your heart feels What your heart says Ignore your heart and it will fade away. Listen to your heart follow your heart let it sing Let it run free and it can bring you Anything Love is a bond A way to keep people together Love is everything wonderful. Love is You!!

Oh How I Love My GooberI Love You Michelle
Whether at work or home, no matter the place.
All I can see is your beautiful face.
Skies so clear and blue.
All I know is I love You.
Every moment, day or night I wish you well.
No other can compare, I love You Michelle.
forever and ever loving you.
love, Rob
When I close my eyes all I see is your beautiful smile
Knowing how much we love each other helps reduce the miles
I need you in my arms, right where you belong
Safe and secure Michelle You are my love song
Yes I'm your Goober, pure and innocent, trying to warm your heart
I miss you so much Michelle, never wanting to be apart
My Dear you will always have me as your Goober "31"
The only candy I want is you baby, you're my only one
I love you so very much Michelle...love, Rob

Passion Pulls UsPASSION PULLS US!I see you stand before me.You look into my eyes.And so I move close to you.By now I’m tantalized.I take your hands in my hands.Our fingers interlock.Your head rests on my shoulder.We dance the lover's walk.We gently glide in circles.Your legs in tune with mine.We’re moving to sweet music.You intoxicate like wine.And then the twinkle in your eyes,The sparkle of your smile,Tell me I will make sweet love to you,In just a little while.I bend to kiss you on the neck.I hear a girlish moan.And then your lips press tight on mine,Inside I also groan.I drop my hands and grab your waist,And pull you tight to me.I feel you pressed into my chest.I’m as happy as can be.Our hands both now caressing,Each others trembling skin.I’ve waited for this moment,That you would let me in.To both it seems quite scary.But passion pulls us through.In love I know that always,For me it must be you!
I love You Michelle

A Touch Never FeltHow can you ache and crave for someone's touchWhen you have never felt it?I do this for yours, though,And the yearning grows more each dayI have never wanted anything in my lifeAs much as I want youWhen you whisper such sweet loveIn my ear when we talkYou make me melt into a puddleOf complete helplessnessYou have become my every waking thoughtAnd my every dream at nightI breathe in so hardTrying to catch my breath when we can't talkI close my eyes so tightHoping when I open them you will be thereBut I know I have to waitUntil the time is rightIt seems so far awayThat I think I am losing my mindI want to breathe in your scentAnd keep it with me all day longI want to taste your love for meBy kissing your sweet lipsI want to feel your body next to meSo when you leave for awhile I can hold onI just want you to knowThat I really do love youWhen the day comes and we are togetherYou will always know and feel thisI will always hug, kiss and love youEvery moment of the day and night...You will

2nd Alarm Hotties Coc1. All 2nd Alarm hottie Prospect must have a verified salute and a minimun "10 new pics of yourself ,being full body.
2.All hotties must be female (no exceptions)
3.Must sign the COC (code of conduct)Agreement below as a comment I"agree"in order to be placed into voting procedure.
4.Shout Box and Fu_mail must be open to all officers for communications .(Profile can't be set to friends only for this purpose unless all officers are made friends)
5.2nd Alarm Hotties must be added to your family while being considered a Prospect and remain in your family after admittance.Fire Chief ( Founder)must be added to your famliy but doesn't have to be in top 7.but as long as he's in your family so that he can contact you anytime when needed .Also your Team Leader well be added to your top Friend so that they contact you at anytime .
6.All new Hotties well be assign as Team Leader who we Ask To be Placed in top friends so they can contact you also.Putting your Team Leader into family w

OnlyI want someone to fall in love with the way I laugh and fall in love with my smile. I want someone who'll listen to the rambling of my inner child, someone who touches my face and brushes the hair from my eyes. I want someone who loves me, or at least holds me like they do. But I only want that if it's you.

Make Free Electricity With Magnetic Energy GeneratorsWouldn't you love to bring down your power bills and do something for the environment at the same time? There are many types of 'green' power generators available, but not one can match a magnetic energy generator for ease of use and continuous output of electricity. There are many advantages to using a magnetic generator to create free electricity at home. This device does not have any emissions of any sort, and people can install one at home without worrying about any heat, smoke or excessive noise coming out of it. Of course, there are other devices such as solar generators and wind turbines that also do not have any emissions. However, what makes a magnetic energy generator far superior as a means of generating electricity is that it is incredibly easy to install and requires hardly any maintenance at all. It is also perfectly safe to keep the device around children. What makes it even better is that it does not require any continued outside stimulus in order to keep working and o

Why Is It That The People With The Smallest Minds Always Have The Biggest Mouths?Dear Dumb Bitch
Why is it that the people with the smallest minds always have the biggest mouths?
And the fattest asses. Bend over bitch. This speech will fuck you.
Not that you aren't the community bicycle already.
But then againYou must have a very large brain, to hold so much ignorance. I can see your point on some of the things you are saying,but i still think you are full of shit, If you're going say something that stupid you could at least fake a stroke. Sure i could go with the You don't know who/what your dealing with approach like you do, but you should already fully know and consider this.I see that you set this time aside to humiliate yourself, and I have sat back and had to hear about it enough.I would like to insult you but with your intelligence you wouldn't get offended, and I used to think that you were a gibbering idiot. Now, I have a much lower opinion of you.I don't know what your problem is, but I bet what ever it is it's hard for you to pronounce and might

Waxing PhilosophicalI wish I could say I've "tied one on" tonight and that after a long night at the bar, I've gone for an omelet at IHOP. Not just any omelet. A Big Steak omelet. That's the best after you get a little whiskey in you, you know. Instead, I'm making the 40 mile trek because I'm old.I'm not exactly sure when it happened but somewhere between 25 and my soon to be 29, I lost touch for staying up all night partying with friends and checking out local music and getting laid. Ok. The last part isn't true. I'm not sure if there's ever going to be a time when I'm really too old to stay up all night to get laid. But at some point, I started getting tired at midnight and cleaning my house actually became some sort of priority. I'm not saying its a good thing, but it is what it is. I don't even think I'm friends with anyone I used to stay up all night with anymore. Not only have I lost some sort of magical youth mojo, I've also lost touch with friends. Or at least the people that appreciated my mojo.

Theft And Unoriginal Bastards It has come to this. I sooner or later I knew it would. It took them a year and a half to catch up to the excellence that was RNR, (Revolution Nation Radio for those that don't remember), another 6 months to decipher what I did in Club StarStruck, and finally they have come close. AM I pissed? Have something that you created and took pride in stolen. One could say that it was a good run. In the end, it's simply what I have always dealt with and it sadly is what it is. Intimidated people trying to imitate in the hopes that one day they will be me. It's sad really.
Aside from the anger, and Rage and wanton desire to shove a tire iron through their neck, I feel a slight pity for these poor bastards. These are the ones the principal release from locker incarceration in high school . The ones everyone thought would bring C4 to their Reunion. These are the fakes and two faced people the masses talk about on a daily basis. they simply want to be accepted howe

My Catharsis Or How To Expunge Feelings In 2 Easy Doses :Catharsis – noun :
a : purification or purgation of the emotions (as pity and fear) primarily through art
b : a purification or purgation that brings about spiritual renewal or release from tension
3
: elimination of a complex by bringing it to consciousness and affording it expression
How I wish for a such a thing. How the rage, anger and more importantly, the sorrow I feel envelopes me like a lovers embrace. My life has been one of happiness , albeit fleeting, love, although brief, sadness, a constant companion. Perhaps I dwell on this way too much, perhaps. Perhaps I’ll find what I’m looking for or better yet it will find me. Perhaps.
I look back upon my life and see mostly, failure and dashed dreams and purged desires. I suppose one can grow accustomed to the constant barrage of it but it still stings. I wear my heart on my sleeve, my dreams in my mind, my love on my lips and sorrow in my eyes. I’ve been told I have sad eyes. Eyes are said to

Ominous SkyNo fault, in mankind's plan. See this world buried under the sand. Ash as far, as the eye can see. What happened is no mystery.
Lay waste, to every clan. Absolute power, in high demand. Death's devices, all were set free. I watched as men died for victory!
Save your-selves, save your-self. My eyes pear through tainted glass, looking out into a world of misery. The littered streets disgusting, the smell of the air repulsive, my eyes burn and my lungs blacken.
Darkness encroaches black clouds are rolling in. Thunder follows lightning air that seems so thin. Rain pours from the sky, droplets on my skin. Falling down to drown a world that is full of sin.Blind to naked eyes they waste it allI look up to the sky in time to see it fallI've been standing here hearing mother's cries.Brought about by the men who rule till the planet dies.All the greed and all the fools who believe their lies.Will soon be looking up at ominous skies.Doom and gloom and shades of gray. Pou

[oh Man...]I broke reality with this leg of lamb>>Alright, today I picked up 3 GIANT ribeyes (more like six, especially how I'll cut em)a bushel of fake crab meatsome red bell peppersand a de-boned leg of lamb ($15 for about... ~>5 servings, not a bad price, not terrific though)Anyway, I didn't REALLY feel like cubing it individually, so I decided to roast whichI never roast >>but tonight I roasted.I preheated my oven to about 350 and I drizzled olive oil on the surface of the meatthere was an entire side of the meat with fat on it, and ... I left it >>what?It'll cook down and into the meat and into the panSome people do this intricate ... slit thing with leg of lamb where they cram garlic into the roastI won't discourage this, but I did not partake todayI took 1/4th a tablespoon of tumeric1/2 a tablespoon of cayenne1/2 a tablespoon of cumin1 1/2 tablespoon of paprikaa tablespoon of saltand rubbed.:3what's good for ribs is ... well.. its curry not barbecue, and its lamb not porkbutshut up its goo

Friends.You are cool, you are sweet. Stay that way and never change. Keep cool and stay the same. Never change for any one but you're self.
You are all number one in my books.

When I RunAs performed by Suzy Bogguss
When I see the way you look at love I feel so blind;'Cuz I don't know how to give that much to you;And when I think of what it means to love forever, I get scaredThat I won't be strong enough to see it throughAnd about that time I don't know what to do.
And when I run, it's only cuz I don't know how to stay;I don't know how to get my feelings out of my way;It's not you, and it's not fun;I know trying to hide is crazy and walking out won't save me -My demons only chase me when I run.
In your arms I am sound and safe from my own harmOr at least you always make me feel that way;It's only when I turn away from you that I get lostAnd my mind lets some old hurt get in the wayI stop listening to what my heart has to say.
And when I run, it's only cuz I don't know how to stay;I don't know how to get my feelings out of my way;It's not you, and it's not fun;I know trying to hide is crazy and walking out won't save me -My demons only chase me when I run.
And how,

Need A CarI WORK FOR KREDIT SOLUTION,S.NEED A CAR DO YOU LIVE IN THE PHOENIX,AZ AREA.BAD CREDIT,NO CREDIT I CAN HELP.LET ME KNOW IF YOU NEED A CAR.

E.e. CummingsMY FATHER MOVED THROUGH DOOMS OF LOVE
my father moved through dooms of love
through sames of am through haves of give,
singing each morning out of each night
my father moved through depths of height
this motionless forgetful where
turned at his glance to shinning here;
that if (so timid air is firm)
under his eyes would stir and squirm
newly as from unburied which
floats the first who, his april touch
drove sleeping selves to swarm their fates
woke dreamers to their ghostly roots
and should some why completely weep
my father's fingers brought her sleep:
vainly no smallest voice might cry
for he could feel the mountains grow.
Lifting the valleys of the sea
my father moved through griefs of joy;
praising a forehead called the moon
singing desire into begin
joy was his song and joy so pure
a heart of star by him could steer
and pure so now and now so yes
the wrists of twilight would rejoice
keen as midsummer's keen beyond
conceiving mind of sun will stand,
so

Thanks For Breaking Me"I'm sitting here, and I say *uck it! I'm tired of caring. I can't give myself no more. No matter, for what. I lose at the game it seems every time I open myself to it. Don't believe them sweet talking men, they just want to toy with ya for what ever reason. Who knows maybe someone hurt them real bad and they need to hurt someone else, or maybe their just real good con artist, not looking for your money (or maybe they r if u have some...lol) but to watch your heart bleed, after they have crushed it. Who's to say only they would know. I just know that I will never open my heart to another man, lay my soul out, and then wait for the blow. I have played in the play ground of life for to long to go down that slide once more. I thought (naive of me) this is it. A real genuine man. That wants love like I, more then anything else. that really cared for me, even loved me.
I should have known. I should have, really I should have, because no one has ever loved me. Yet he made me feel special, b

A Lot Has Changed...Yes, a lot has changed... my life is not my own still and yea I still have to be the one who fixes it. However, that comes from having a job so I can LEAVE.. yes leave and not turn back. I am questioning everything. My relationship with the man I married has gone so dreadfully sour, despite numerous attempts at making it work. Yes its complicated...because I like him as a human, I can't just storm out...plus I have no money to do so...which is awful. Can't just storm out because I have a young child whose thoughts and feelings are of utmost importance to me. I don't like feeling like a kept person, nor feel like I am using the situation. Fact is, he's a good man. Fact is, I have no romantic love for him at all. Does it suck? hell yea...because I have spent my life trying to be the understanding wife, the good mother, the loyal friend. I realize that I run the risk of sounding ungrateful, but fact is, I am truly grateful for all of it. I have looked at the glass half full fo

LoveThe hardest thing we do is look at those we love, love someone else.

HumIf your walls could speak, Would they talk about us And the things that we’ve done, As silent they stood witness?
Would they tell of how You anxiously turned me to face them, Impatiently shoving me against them, As soon as I stepped through your door…
Your left hand holding my neck firmly, The right dropping my defenses to my ankles, Fingers exploring realms, Soaking in delight?
Would they express how you made me squirm, And burn with an uncontrollable desire; How I moaned for you to go deep inside, My swelling lips begging to be hushed?
Would they disclose how you forced me to the floor, Down on all fours, While I whimpered and writhed, Like a dog, begging for more?
And tell how I pleaded with you, To drive in from behind, As they watched without a sound, Us imitating two animals in a mating ritual?
Would they voice how you raised me from the ground, Thighs straddling your waist, As you slipped inside, legs wrapped around, For a ride to your bedroom,
Leaving them t

What People Think?POST THiS iF YOU AREN'T SCARED TO SEE HOW PEOPLE THINK OF YOU 0 = ewwwwwwwwwwww!? 1 = Definetly not attractive. 2 = Decent 3 = Cute 4 = Fine as hell! 5 = I'd do you. 6 = Pretty damn sexy! 7 = Lovable,I LOVE YOU!!! 8 = I wanna make you mine

Oops?This is a blog I'm writing because I can.
Ok, so I'm 25 years old. I like the colors black, blue, purple and pink (What do you know, the colors of a bruise lol) I like all types of music, I like food, I like boys (obviously) Lately I've been receiving alot of messages on Fubar from people asking me to marry them, move in with them, DO stuff with them.. Seriously, You guys don't even know me. I'm having kind of a wtf moment right now lol. I don't see much modesty and respect but then again I am a female, It's to be expected...lol... Yes, I know I'm attractive, Yes I know the things I like alot of other girls don't like.. But please keep the marriage proposals to a minimum! I'd only want to get married to someone that I truly loved and all that jazz, Then again what is marriage? It's just some legal thing. If you truly loved someone you wouldn't need to spend a bajillion dollars in having a ceremony and having a wedding dress etc, And also.. Relationships end. Marriages end. Divorce

SaintWith my eyes wide open,I feel like I'm in a dream.With one so beautiful before me,My reality has altered or so it would seem.An angel before me,From beyond this world she must be.Still I close and open my eyes,And cannot believe what I see.My words will never come close.Or would they even dare.To describe how beautiful she is,This one with the flaming Red hair.

Cowboy Last 3 Wishes !!!!!A cowboy is riding across the plains of the Old West, when he is captured by Indians. The tribe puts him on trial for crimes against the Indian Nation, and he is found guilty.
``You have been sentenced to death,'' said the Chief, ``but, as is our custom, you have three wishes to make as your last requests.''
The cowboy thought for a minute and said, ``Well, for my first wish, I'll need my horse.''
``Give him his horse,'' said the Chief.
The cowboy whispered something into the horse's ear, and the horse took off like a shot across the prairie. Twenty minutes later, the horse returned with a beautiful blonde woman on its back. The cowboy looked at this, shrugged his shoulders, and helped the young lady off the horse. He then took her into the woods...
``Second wish,'' said the Chief.
``I'll need my horse again,'' said the cowboy.
``Give him his horse,'' said the Chief.
Once again, the cowboy whispered into the horse's ear, and once again the horse rode off over the prairie.

New Tattoo(s)Johnathan got some filler tattoos put in around his original Skulls and Muscle Flames by Brandon Mull over at Mission Street Tattoo in Sapulpa.

Save You.From astray, I gaze.Feeling utterly helpless;Useless.Seeing that you hurt.I can't save you from the world,No matter how much I wish I could.I see.I feel.I hope.I fume with denial.Every breath of air,is another taste of it.Another moment of the hopethat I can make all the bad disappear.Demons lurk around every corner,just yearning for a taste.Eager to play, and cause you to break.and I know they'll laugh with accomplishment,when your life is shatteredand you're laying on the floor.Every taste they get, they saver and just crave more.They find amusement in pain.Why? We'll never know.Because when you get too close...They slit your throat.And they merely giggleas you gasp,reaching for life,that's slipping away...Further and further every second.The darkness closing inhappens to be your last sight.And then you wake up from your 'nightmare'only to realize it wasn't a dream.It's your reality.

[buying Freeze]K... its getting a little bit cooler...*wonders if he can paint in freezing weather*And my white primer went bad from all the flooding and moisture in my garage.Things that need to happen...in no particular orderClean my kitchen (cuz that's my cleaning station)Clean my garage (cuz that's my painting station)Get an actual respirator (cuz I'm probably switching to solvent based paint and not water)Buy moar primer (see above)I started my Zeta C+ and got sidetracked with...oboiI still haven't quite figured out this process of deconstruct, paint, assembly etcetera. I probably shouldn't have even started the Zeta before taking that into account since I was planning a custom paint job for it months ago...*shrugs*But my painting projects areGoufKampferZaku INot exactly in that order.But you get the idear.I have 2 MG 1/100 Gouf built.1 MG 1/100 Kampfer built2 MG 1/100 Zaku I built (one is ready for disassembly since I cut the male plugs with that in mind)I'd say that there are three paint sche

SearchingI have spent my whole life searching..
Searching for something inside
Something i could never find
Something i couldn't hide
The one thing to make me feel whole
To fill the empty hole
It was so cold and dark
My deep dark soul
I found that something in you
Something i tried to fight
A battle within
I tried with all my might
I pushed and pushed
Till i could no longer deny
You were my soul
I could no longer hide
The war is over
My search came to an end
I'm tired and worn
All of my love, i do send.

HappinessHappiness: Myth or Fact? When someone tells you that all they want is for you to be happy, is it a bunch of bull or is that what they really want for you? Is happiness just an illusion that is just what they want for you or is it a tangible reality? Where does true happiness come from? Is it possible to make someone happy and be utterly unhappy with yourself and who you have become because of this person? Should I just suck it up and just be unhappy so that he is happy or should I put my foot down and continue to try and make myself happy? Don't I have to be happy myself before I can make anyone else happy?

Kelloggs Corn Flakes What U Didn't Know.Kellogg's Cornflakes, the bland breakfast flakes that go almost instantly limp in milk were originally invented to bore you into such a deep coma that you would fall face down in the milk drenched flakes, drown, and thereby be spared the temptation and sin known as masturbation.
Like many Christian conservatives before and since, Dr. John Harvey Kellogg believed that masturbation, and in fact all sexual excess, was sinful -- "sexual excess" here defined as "sex for anything beyond reproduction". For instance: after marrying, Kellogg chose to spend his honeymoon sequestered from his wife, valiantly striving to complete his his influential book Plain Facts for Old and Young: Embracing the Natural History and Hygiene of Organic Life (1892). Talk about your dull, soggy flakes.
Kellogg himself seems to have solved the problem by redirecting his attentions to an obsessive fascination with cleansing the bowels. For Kellogg, the tube linking anus to lips was a seething quagmire of pollution,

Devil InsideThis was one of my favorites, written last year.
Devil Inside
My eyes hide the devil insideThe tormented soul you left behindThe dark intentions behind the lightThe fiery temper you igniteMy pain gradually turned to angerAs you went from lover to strangerAnd as the passion we had diesStruck through the heart by your endless liesThe pieces of the shattered lifeThe relief that I am not your wifeThat I can pick up and walk awayAnd drift into a brand new dayReplacing what you took from meRelieved that i have come to seeThe devil I hide behind my eyesHas given me strength to say goodbyeAnd release myself from the chainsAs I watch your essence drainFrom the life you thought you had

The Ties That BindThe Ties That Bind
I know the ties that bind youFor they once bound meI know pain you feel insideIt once inflicted meI know the rage behind your eyesI've seen it once beforeI know the anger in your heartToo tortured to exploreI have been where you areI have seen the hurtAnd I offer you my handTo help you up and bring you outAs you sink into the sandLet me be there for youAs you have done for meLet me take your pain awayLet me stop your bleedingTake my hand and lean on meAnd leave the ties behindForgive the wrongs and move aheadBlock the evils from your mindAnd when you have the strength

A Close To A Wild RideThis summer has been epic and insane.
My return here was May 12th.
May 20th marked my official 2nd year being happily single.
August 16th marked my one year anniversary of quitting smoking.
Literally kicked off the summer with my sister landing herself in jail Memorial Day Weekend. The drama that has ensued since then has been enough to turn even more of my hair grey. (Yes it is true, I dye my hair because I have been going grey since I was 17. Shit happens.) She decided that shoplifting at KMart was more important than spending the weekend with her son. There's enough of a backstory on this one to write a novel, so I'm going to leave further explaination for another blog.
I did, however, have an amazing summer anyway. I am allergic to nature (people look at me stupid when I say this, but it is true). I attempted a few outings and always eved up with some semi-serious eye injury from getting pollen and such in my eyes and ridiculous sun burn. There was also Louis

Chalice Of The GodsI do not wish thine eye to drinketh of my beauty, for how now, when thy cup runneth dry?When Summers graces have stilled by winters cold dark breath, would'st thou still have the sparkle of Spring in thine eye?As the soft plump curves wrinkle past their ripeness, and the apples of my cheeks turn to ashen gray,As the sweetness of my voice bitters as time's spent, and my golden silky tresses are but thinning straws of hay, Would'st thou whisper sweet nothings to the hobbled silver lady?Would thy fingertips dance upon my wrinkled folded skin?Would thou speaketh love poems like a gentle bedtime story?As I'm withered and tired, would thou gently tuck me in?When maidens come hither with their bountiful blessing to tempt you and tease you when no one's around,Would your silver haired matron be the shackle that holds you or would memory serve I'm the jewel in your crown? Like wine, one's beauty serves to strip away thy senses. A glance, like a sip leaves thee quickly craving more. Each eyeful

Way To Make The Grade.The following is an actual question given on a Emory University chemistry mid term, and an actual answer turned in by a student. The answer by one student was so 'profound' that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well : Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)? Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following: First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving, which is unlikely.. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today.

The StormShe felt his breath, hot and sticky, as she stood by the window watching the violent summer storm outside terrorizing the night. As the lightning danced across her darkened bedroom, his fingers traced her every curve and his lips caressed the warm flesh of her neck. She felt his warm chest pressing into her back and the sounds of his heart banging in his chest was like the rhythm of a bass drum. Her heart began to race and her breaths were quick and shallow. She knew, as she watched the rain claim the land, there was a violent midnight storm brewing...Raven quivered as Tyler's tongue moved from her neck down to her soft shoulders. He reached around and cupped her tits, gently squeezing them as she moaned, trying desperately to hold herself up on her trembling knees. "I need you, Raven," he whispered, squeezing her nipples between his fingertips, "Don't make me beg you."Raven closed her eyes, for a moment, and listened to the thunder crashing outside. When she opened her eyes, another b

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9/5/2010I'm not sure where to start......my life has taken a downward spiral. I am almost 30 yrs old and having to move in with my mom. I feel like I have been used again and thrown away AGAIN. It depresses me to think that the only use men have for me is physical not never emotional. When will my feelings matter? I am starting to think NEVER. The depression is begining to be too much to bare. I want to shut off my emotions and never let anyone in. I am thinking this might be the only way to protect myself. Why should I care when no one else does? Why should I give a shit about anyone? I am done trying to find someone to love or love me. I can only take so much and this last experience has opened my eyes to how I am valued and respected by others. This is where the depression takes over. My nereves can't handle watching what I am being forced to watch. I am trying to not see but I am not blind and my heart is still broken. No one cares and this just adds to the pain. I wonder if I will ever fe

Papa Roach - Scars[Chorus:1] I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much My scars remind me that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel Drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone I'm pissed 'cause you came around Why don't you just go home Cause you channel all your pain And I can't help you fix yourself Your making me insane All I can say is [Chorus:2] I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much and Our scars remind us that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel I tried to help you once Against my own advise I saw you going down But you never realized That your drowning in the water So I offered you my hand Compassion's in my nature Tonight is our last stand [Chorus:3] I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much and Our scars remind us that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel I'm drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone You shouldn't ever came arou

Stupid PeopleIt amazes me when people see that you are new that they try to make you out as a fool or a Retard, when it's them that post the stupid shit
to make fun of others..Seems to me that if you do that then you are too immature for an adult website...
I geuss that certain people don't know any better and their parents didn't teach them anything about respect, whether or not the other person
is wrong or right....
I don't think I could try to do something like that, i don't know how yet..but believe me, i have more respect for people i don't know, because
for one thing. YOU DON"T KNOW THEM LIKE THAT.
I don't care too much for stupid people, I can handle ignorant people because they can learn from others..But STUPID PEOPLE, I'm sorry but
YOU CAN'T FIX STUPID!! So before you go and try to piss in someones cereal bowl, you need to see if they are aware
of a few things or not.. They may be a newbie...

Like A TattooTRUE LOVE is like a tattoo.. it hurts when it bleeds but it feels good within and last forever till the end of your time - Chino

Interview Thingy...**Your Interview **
*Winter or summer?
Summer - but I like to visit the other seasons sometimes
*Do you have any piercings/tattoos?
Yup
*What kind of car do you drive?
Firebird
*What are your "comfy clothes"?
Depends on my mood
*Do you believe in heaven and hell?
I believe in Karma
*Is this boring?
Yup
*What colour are your eyes?
hazel Green with Blue circle around the iris...
*What sort of character would you play in a comic book (hero, humorous sidekick, villian, that abrasive newspaper guy, etc.)
the bad a$$ sexy chick that drives a monster truck & rides a sports bike.
*Coke or Pepsi?
coke
*If you were on Extreme Makeover: Home Edition; what kind of room would you ask for?
A sunken living room with a BIG fish tank wall
*If you were one word, what word would you be?

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Sleep...So many things floating around my mind... but I will always love her.

Quiet Of The NightDuring the quiet of the night,
Lonelyness sets deeply in.
Staring through a window,
Waiting for the next day to begin.
The minutes tick by slow,
The night wont seem to let go.
Images of her float in my mind,
Images are all I now know
.No longer do i feel her touch,
Or her gentle smile do i feel.
This deadly silience and cold,
Inside me all to real.
My nights hold me now,
With a heart that wont ever heal.
The loss of her love,
Is all my heart can feel.

My Poem
My Poem
By me
My heart bleeds out ink, Which my hand smears onto paper. Drip by drip comes Word by word. Every poem is trying to heal the wound That makes my heart bleed. My tears form as words. These dry cheeks Still haven’t felt that salty tear drop And still I can feel that tear build up behind my eyes. So my hand works extra hard To try and cover this page, With words I turn into poems. My Blood and Tears Are words and Sentences Which I give out to all to share And to feel that little bit less alone In this world.
My heart bleeds out ink………..
Mrrcp2007

Being Me. Or Some Shit Like That.I went to an incredible concert tonight. Three great bands. Loved them. The music was loud, very loud, and it pounded through me and flushed all the shit away for just a little while. My new sort'of friends in the band were nice to talk to. I ran into a guy who was remodeling the old KTRE studios where my dad worked when I was a kid and he gave me a little tour. Damndest thing I have ever had. I was so totally happy to walk through that place. It's all fucked up now. Still, my dad was kind'a close then. What great memories. Then we left and I smoked a cig. I don't smoke. ha. And now I am home. I drove home. Probably should not have. Whatever. It's almost three AM and I am fucked up still. And I am so goddamn alone. What's the fucking purpose? I work my ass off for this thing I do, this website and thing for rock and metal bands. And here I am feeling fucking sorry for myself in my van all alone. This is damned depressing.
Yeah, I have a wife who hates my fucking

Why Being A Girl Is The Best* we can wear guys clothes. If they wear ours, they get funny looks. * Our friends don’t say hello to us by punching us on the arm. * Yeah, PMS sucks. but at least we have a good excuse to eat chocolate for a week. * If we’re on a really big ship that happens to hit an iceberg, we’ll get lifeboats first. * We get the bigger apartment on Friends. * Girl talk. you know, how we just understand each other without having to explain stuff. * We never have to stand in a urinal and have other girls stare at us. * Dark circles under the eyes? a hickey? we can just cover them up with a little concealer. * We don’t have to shave our faces. * We can jump around a lot and shake our hair and it looks like we know how to dance. * justin, carson, ryan, freddie, orla

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MeI'm not perfect..don't care to be, No Barbie doll~I'm a real woman with curves, scars,tattoos, stretch marks..whatever.I wont BS. Don't give a crap about gossip. I'm a sweet girl or a mean bitch..no in between. Short tempered, but honest. My best feature are my eyes. My family is insain. I have 3 kids! 14~ 12~ n 7. Love compliments, but never expect an damn thing from me. Here for friends only and Hott chicks

Fubar Promotion By BadazzdodgeI RECIEVED THIS EARLIER FROM BADAZZDODGE BUT I HAD TO POST IT! THIS IS THE TRUEST THING I HAVE HEARD ABOUT FUBAR EVER! AND SINCE THERE IS SUCH A THING AS FREEDOM OF SPEACH HERE YOU GO!!!
Good Afternoon sir / ma'am. Are you interested in having your marriage or relationship destroyed? Or if youre single then perhaps you'd be interested in having your life-long best friend turn against you? If you are, then I would like to invite you to join www.fubar.com. It's an online bar where you can rate people's pictues and profiles on a scale of 1 to 10, and if you have VIP status you will have the privelege of rating someone an 11. Membership is free but VIP membership is 14.95 a month and you will have your name bolded in your choice of pink, blue, or gray or you can simply leave it as the standard white, now this IS an adult site, you have to be at least 18 years old to join because some our membrs have partially nude and fully nude pictures in which our male and surprisingly high amount of

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To the Truckers, and All Other Roadceos
Alright folks, this blog comes to you at special request from PrincessLeia http://fubar.com/951340 in California of Fubar.com. She read my last post, and brought to my attention an issue that all of us Drivers deal with almost every shift. Now in truth this issue affects all the Roadceos, but more so the Truckers because driving a truck and trailer is a huge responsibility. I am not here to pick on anyone, but I am here to help us understand each other better. With better understanding we can make the road a safer place; the more we enjoy the road the more we can enjoy our Beautiful Country we call Home.
So here we are; it’s feeling sleepy at the wheel that unites us all. Yes, the truckers are the focus of this blog, but remember it is not only us who get sleepy at the wheel.
Now to the rest of the Drivers on the road, and the ones at home trying to enjoy their families, and/or what gives you rest from the ro

A Post Of A Post On Craigslist.read this!!! - animal shelter
I saw this on another CL and wanted to repost it here. grab a tissue and read. I think our society needs a huge "Wake-up" call. As a shelter manager, I am going to share a little insight with you all...a view from the inside if you will. First off, all of you breeders/sellers should be made to work in the "back" of an animal shelter for just one day. Maybe if you saw the life drain from a few sad, lost, confused eyes, you would change your mind about breeding and selling to people you don't even know. That puppy you just sold will most likely end up in my shelter when it's not a cute little puppy anymore. So how would you feel if you knew that there's about a 90% chance that dog will never walk out of the shelter it is going to be dumped at? Purebred or not! About 50% of all of the dogs that are "owner surrenders" or "strays", that come into my shelter are purebred dogs. The most common excuses I hear are; "We are moving and we can't take our dog (or cat)

Fubar Promotion... Author UnknownI RECIEVED THIS EARLIER FROM AN UNKNOWN SOURCE BUT I HAD TO POST IT! THIS IS THE TRUEST THING I HAVE HEARD ABOUT FUBAR EVER! AND SINCE THERE IS SUCH A THING AS FREEDOM OF SPEACH HERE YOU GO!!!
Good Afternoon sir / ma'am. Are you interested in having your marriage or relationship destroyed? Or if youre single then perhaps you'd be interested in having your life-long best friend turn against you? If you are, then I would like to invite you to join www.fubar.com.
It's an online bar where you can rate people's pictues and profiles on a scale of 1 to 10, and if you have VIP status you will have the privelege of rating someone an 11. Membership is free but VIP membership is 14.95 a month and you will have your name bolded in your choice of pink, blue, or gray or you can simply leave it as the standard white, now this IS an adult site, you have to be at least 18 years old to join because some our membrs have partially nude and fully nude pictures in which our male and surprisingly hig

Bonnie Tyler - Total Eclipse Of The Heart(Turnaround)Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming around(Turnaround)Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears(Turnaround)Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by(Turnaround)Every now and thenI get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes(Turnaround bright eyes)Every now and then I fall apart(Turnaround bright eyes)Every now and then I fall apart(Turnaround)Every now and then I get a littlebit restless and i dream of something wild(Turnaround)Every now and then I get a little bit helpless and im lying like a child in your arms(Turnaround)Every now and then I get a little bit angryand I know I have to get out and cry(turnaround)Every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes(Turn around bright eyes)Every now and then I fall apart(Turn around bright eyes)Every now and then I fall apartAnd I need you now tonightAnd I

Meatloaf - Paradise By The Dashboard LightBOY: I remember every little thing As if it happened only yesterday Parking by the lake And there was not another car in sight And I never had a girl Looking any better than you did And all the kids at school They were wishing they were me that night And now our bodies are oh so close and tight It never felt so good, it never felt so right And we're glowing like the metal on the edge of a knife Glowing like the metal on the edge of a knife C'mon! Hold on tight! C'mon! Hold on tight! Thought it's cold and lonely in the deep dark night I can see paradise by the dashboard light GIRL: Ain't no doubt about it We were doubly blessed 'Cause we were barely seventeen And we were barely dressed Ain't no doubt about it Baby got to go and shout it Ain't no doubt about it We were doubly blessed BOY: 'Cause we were barely dressed And we were barely dressed Baby doncha hear my heart You got it drowning out the radio I've been waiting so long For you to come along and have some fun And I gotta let you