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This is a product from eqafe library, called a life a life review. Where the portal brings through a being from the other side, literally from the dead. A being comes through the portal to share its life review. In this particular interview a being shares the deep regret after having lived a life within pushing the measures of war. A being who lived on earth, creating and pushing war, corruption, militarism, and war systems onto this world.

It goes to tell us what this means, and how this war system really is a deep rooted disease, that is ruining lives and livelihood of people who it affect. It lets us know how the war and conflict created by this individual has a effect on others. People look up to this individual for living war. Spreading the disease and infection of war and military, into generations beyond. And within so, the masters of war are being admired. It explains how this person who lived a life in war, is simply deeply sorry, for having lived like a life like that causing conflict, military and war. And that it affects this being even in the afterlife.

Who we are in thought, word and deed matters – beyond.

It goes to show that even after death (!) this person becomes this infectious disease of war, violence and militarism. It also creates this concept of people looking up to the masters of war like they are heroic and brave form being so militant and possessed by war. People would and are still making such a characters into heroes and leaders and that are followed.

Investigate this very fine and detailed interview to see what lies behind the militant behaviors and drive, the militant leaders and how we can learn to see through this and create solutions beyond the contagious disease of war.

I will take on the challenge from my brother : Gian Robberts on walking a 21 day trial of (only/daily) self forgiveness on points. I will walk these points of self forgiveness for self/world change during 21 days.

The points will be that kind of relevant points as of this world and our living.

Money, sex, politics, work, religion, mind and so on.

Day 7: Death

Please read loud for best effect

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear death and to fear dying since I don’t know what it will be like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sometimes glip/slip into that motion of longing to die, out of stress or a brief depression or some complicated thoughts and some complicated mind bothers that would lead me to think of death is like a relief, failing to realize that I take with me my bothers and problems of being – into death – only more much more since of choice and action of suicide.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to long for my grandparents and too long for the people I have lots to suicide and death over the years, like with slaving to energies and ridding energies/lies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that death is a intellectual thing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to long for the grief and sorrow within death, to think within myself that I want that relief of crying, self pity etc….

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself for wanting to tell vegetarians that to eat plants is also to take a life. To eat plants is equally “murder” of a being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make death into something mystical and interesting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my parents for not explaining to me about life and death to the extent I would have needed, since I had quite bothersome/traumatic thoughts as 8 – 9 year old and further.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and to moralize over religions way to handle issues like death, and to judge and critizice members of my family for how they are acting “religious” and not within what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that death is something cool or tough like a rock band or like famous dead people – failing to realize that when I pull a straw of grass from the ground I take a life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into obsession with death when I cut weeds with my sling blade on the field and I have to snap out of it, breathe and find commons sense in the moment as breathe/life/ease of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I have lived here on earth before, I have had more than this one life, it is simply forgotten like memories stored in the flesh/physical/matter like the innocent and existential of a being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to dive deep into issues of life and death because of fear of what I might find.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think fear is not a option as it is a illusion/not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people that have gone into death by suicide when they simply did not know about the gift of self forgiveness and self healing and failing to live their potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I can communicate with the dead.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think it is bad or wrong to communicate with the dead.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I am breaking the law if communicating or to think/be lie ve I am communicating with the dead.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to serve my consciousness, my mind and my ego, when I communicate with people that are dead.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to communicate to people who are dead because of selfish desires and ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dream of this or that after-life and “heaven” consisting of this or that desires , simply living lie/ego.

Here is a excellent video about communication with the afterlife from Bernard Poolman:

Death comes sooner or later. We have a responsibility to do our very best and that includes to forgive our self – while we are here on earth, because after this life – it is too late.

When and as I see myself slipping into thoughts and to indulge about death, and in secret about suicide, I stop myself, I slow myself down, and I breathe. I realize that I must focus on the basic things in life. I realize that I must be life, and I realize that I can’t be anything else than life. I must find self forgiveness and live it. I realize that I am in charge of my own life, I must be my own director and take charge in my own life.

I commit myself to live no matter.

I commit myself to be a real difference.

I commit myself to do the little extra every day and at the same time live within common sense and self honesty and be considerate of self and others.

I also recommend this series from eqafe : (first 5 products are free) :

I have been going into corrupting myself , the last days/weeks, with thoughts, that suicide could help me and get over my problems. I think my life is too tough to live so I think of suicide. I look at death as a solution to my problems. It is like I think that my pain and my bothers would then disappear if I would die. That is not so. I know now from having investigated, and having support from other destonians, that if I die I take with me all my bothers and all my troubles from this here life to the afterlife, only multiple in matter.

So that relief is not there. When I think that death is a solution and I picture myself as dead, everything is sad and depressive. I picture myself as dead and everything becomes black and sad. So death is not a relief of oneness problems. Hell no.

Please check out this important video about suicide :

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my parents for the fact that I am schizophrenic and within that thinking about suicide as a sort of revenge to end my life to get back at them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my problems and issues would simply disappear, with ending my life, when it proves that is not so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my parents experience of mind and how that experience created schizophrenia within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that my trouble and issues with schizophrenia would disappear if I should die.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I can escape from myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think there exists a quick fix within suicide.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I need a quick fix.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I miss and long for people that I knew that have died and that I could reunite with them in the afterlife.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to go back into old addiction patterns of sex addictions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to start to do drugs or to drink again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to end up giving into energy addictions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be jealous at other people that I imagine has a better life and they look so special and cool etc.. when they live in the same world as me, they shit like me and they live within this world of atrocities; like me, telling me that we are all in this together.

When and as I see myself ending up thinking death is a solution or that I will be saved with death etc… I stop myself I slow myself down and I breathe. I realize that if I should die I take with me all my bothers still to the afterlife. I realize that I must sort out my shit here where I am at in this life. I realize that I miss lot of people that have died but dying myself will not be a party or a relief as I take with me all my bothers to the afterlife. I realize that death is not a solution as I see that I take with me my issues and bothers.