Capturing Joy…

I cannot capture this completely with my camera. That joy. …when she finds an airplane in the sky, a squirrel running under the fence, a white fluffy dandelion to blow, the way her paint brush makes stripes of colors on her paper, stripping down to her diaper so she can rub bubbles all over her body while playing at the water table.

I cannot capture the sounds she makes because my video camera is never fast enough – that sudden singing of Old MacDonald’s farm while at Target, playing pat-a-cake with anyone who will have her, “reading” a book to herself.

I have never captured the smile she gives me every.time.she.sees.me or hears my voice and the love screams of ‘MAMA” as she runs full on into my arms.

I have never captured the way she wraps her arms completely around my neck and says “I love you, mama” as she squeezes me until I pop.

I have never captured the way she lays next to the kitties and pets them gently and tells them they are such good boys or when they lick her head and rest a paw on her shoulder.

I have never captured how she repeats everything I say and some of her favorite words are “JCrew” and “Pizza Luce.”

Two.

This is the magical age. Only fully captured in my heart.

About Tracy

My name is Tracy Morrison and I live in sunny Minnesota. I'm neither British nor a nun - I'm just a Midwesterner with a headache. This is mainly a humor and lifestyle blog that documents the lighter side of parenting. I am an ex-corporate ladder climber turned freelance writer, social media manager, world traveler, and marathon runner. I would love for you to contact me at tracy@sellabitmum.com

Oh, 2. I saw it arrive exactly two weeks ago for Zaid. Astrid is so happy and free in this photo. It makes me warm. And you’re right: I can never capture all that I see and feel. He moves too fast even when I’m holding the camera. Or is it just that it’s too important to see it in real time rather than be able to record it? Because sometimes I AM holding the camera, but…

That smile he gives first thing in the morning when he whispers “Look at mommy. Hi, mommy. Guh morning” with a hug that ends in mmmmph and a grandfatherly back pat…can’t catch it w/anything but my heart.

I can’t believe her favorite words are JCrew and Pizza Luce. Its okay because Bear’s favorite things are Target and the bank for some reason (they give him lollipops, but I wish they gave me money that wasn’t mine!)

I LOVE it. Just this morning my daughter and I were on the bus headed to downtown Brooklyn (such a mundane task) and she was SO EXCITED and bursting with joy about the tiniest of details: it made everyone around us smile. Such a remarkable age.

Every day, I have my phone out, trying to capture the moment that the two of mine, neither of them yet two, realize I’m home and come running to me (well, Leila can’t run yet, so she part-waddles, part-walks, part-falls). It really is magical.

I think that beautiful photo goes a long way towards capturing the joy for life that is 2. But you are right, there is no way to adequately capture the way your heart swells & feels like it might burst or the precious way they talk or precious way they run or the way they play. Your words also are so beautiful & really do capture much of this priceless age…but as I held Lucy extra long this evening sleeping soundly on my chest, willing her to stay a baby just a bit longer than the rest, I had to agree, the joy of motherhood is only fully captured in the heart!

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Hi and welcome to Sellabit Mum. My name is Tracy Morrison and I live in sunny Minnesota. I'm neither British nor a nun - I'm just a Midwesterner with a headache. This is mainly a humor and lifestyle blog that documents the lighter side of parenting three girls. I run marathons and love to talk about fitness. We also love to travel and model social good with our family. I am an ex-corporate ladder climber turned writer, social media maven(not really) and ruler of my own little universe(very small). Aren't we all. I would love for you to contact me at tracy@sellabitmum.com