somehow I had forgotten that this was our last day living side by side, and that you’d return to the substance of pensive thoughts and late nights. A couple notes in a song that carried me to a place neither of us really inhabited. You know, as it was.

You don’t know, do you? But I promise, we had good moments together. Your presence, and I.

that I not reject the eternal froth of illness and woe that bites at the back of my throat – that I not seek to rend the wiry veins of a pitiless, passionless creature back from the tips of my fingers and the whites of my eyes?

courageous, congenial summer triumph, your feet will soon become snared, for the outskirts of my vision are a mire of traps, and nothing which I behold retains the shape with which it was conceived.

and I only like to talk about the sad shit when my world is suspiciously quiet, bolstered by cotton or unmarked hours or the heavy scent of lime;

I only talk about the sad shit when I can touch it like a rope of pearls spread across a satin pillow reflecting a thousand melancholy whispers in each sphere – each sphere, taking up a certain amount of space in each eye with a certain amount of weight in each hand

I yammer on about the fucking spherical shit that I want to put in my mouth and crush into my skin and make some sort of surface that is no longer reflective but potent and makes your irises adjust

You don’t become geometric, refined(able); for all your sting there is no chance of slicing a finger with a playful stroke. Instead, you seem to grow more non-corporeal.

(Your dream, I know. That’s why you enjoy it. The feeling that your words will phase through their targets and your fists through the tops of your own thighs. Keep up the violence.)

But you imagine you can finally be seen.

A torrent. Two eyes fixated ahead to direct a deluge of hopes and dreams. Call them what you will; they will always be sweet, tender little things to me. You don’t want to be weak anymore. You don’t want to be afraid.

instances of black and white, juxtaposed, empty.
sometimes there is too much room in the margins. and faces begin to appear, because they were never made up of space but of life and vibrancy and pain.
and when they spoke they used more than words.
their names were more than words.
‘are’ or ‘were’;
death is more than a word, and i am