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Friday, March 25, 2011

OBS Gratitude

Alhamdulillah, 7 days of OBS are finally over. One trully great experience that I'll remember for the rest of my life.

There, I learn not to cry when I'm in need of someone to lean on to.
There, I learn not to fall into emotions when things go wrong.
There, I learn not to be exhiled when I am not being need of.
There, I learn not to quit when they tell me I can't.
There, I learn to stand up for myself when I'm not being understood.

There, there's no limit to my strengh.
There, there's no pain that I can't bear.
There, there's no time that I waste.

Alhamdulillah, I feel Your presence every second I breath. Every paddle that I made, is filled with your rememberance. Every glance to the sea, and to the mountains around me reminded me how beautiful You've created everything around me.

When I was reading Your words by the beach, You told me that;

2:115 To Allah belong the east and the West: Whithersoever ye turn, there is the presence of Allah. For Allah is all-Pervading, all-Knowing.

Alhamdulillah, thanks to You. I have survived here today all because of You. Ya Allah, how unfortunate it is for those who does not feel Your presence in their heart.

Alhamdulillah, You know things better than I do.
Astaghfirullah, forgive me for being upset not getting what I thought I need. You gave me something better. Much much better. I get to know a person for who he is. Not for what they say he is.

You've motivated me with the violent wave that You've sent, and the heavy rain that You've poured. You've presevered me with a great motivation to not pee myself in the kayak and paddle as fast as I could to the nearest shore. *^_^* and for that they've called me the iron-woman. Oh-no.

Whaling was awesome, thanks to the wind that You've sent so that we wont have to paddle the 5kilos paddle for 5 hours straight. I was sailing, and almost fell into the sea. Putting up the sail was fun, but pulling the anchor almost made me lost my neck. Heavy. Alhamdulillah, I managed.All the knots that I had to remember to make sure that the front sail was nicely secured, and the anchor knots and so many many more. Alhamdulillah, everything went well.

You are the best of all planners. Last but not least, I ended up lying in the medical bay for the rest of the last day, not being able to move even an inch. You've tested me with the greatest pain I've ever had to endure since the first day I've started kayak. The first time in my life that I did'nt complaint about any of my PMS pain yet it's the most painful that You had ever gave me. Astagfirullah, may all the pain cleanses my sins away. I thought I'd fainted on the first expedition (which I did in the woods on the last day of the second expediton, all by myself- but You've protect me all the way through, Alhamdulillah).

You had Your own special ways, Allah. To reach out to me, to tell me things I did'nt know about myself, about You.