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Monday
Cleaned up my room, threw away plenty of things.
No new TV episodes this week, ended up watching Notting Hill.
Went out for dinner with Jacky, Keith and Cheryl.

Tuesday
Wanted to do my brows but all the outlets were fully booked.
Did my hair instead, and fixed an appointment for my brows on Thursday.

Wednesday
Checked my results in the afternoon and saw that I managed to clear my MTH115. I spent the afternoon sending out my resume for 12 different job positions.
Had dinner with Gerald, Jolene and Augustus. It has been a while!
Was driving down Dempsey and it was too dark. Didn’t notice the drains and kerbs. The side of my car brushed against a kerb and now I have scratches on my side skirtings. It’s not that visible but it just sucks to know that I have scratches there. Le sigh.

Thursday
Did my brows in the morning.
Packed my luggage, stayed home and watched The Notebook.
Dad told me that he’s not gonna share the travel adaptor so I guess I would have to get my own.

Friday
Headed out to get some wine and champagne, then further cleared my room off the things I don’t need.
Went to church in the evening for Christmas service.

Saturday
Heading to Korea to neutralize tensions between the borders,
Then dropping by Hong Kong to aid in the development of the vaccine for the bird flu virus.
See you next year!

“You’re not over this person probably because they could never love you back the way you wanted them to, the way you needed them to. They were a defective toy that couldn’t be fixed at the shop. This made you so angry and so sad and you tried just so damn hard and everyone knew it but it didn’t work. Not one bit. Because of this, your business with them will always seem unfinished. You couldn’t conquer them and seal the deal, which made getting any kind of closure difficult. Your closure needs to be done on your own. You have to accept that this person will never give you the answers you want them to.

It sucks to have this one person in your life that can derail you at a moment’s notice. But in a way, it feels good knowing that you could ever love someone so much. Or that’s what you tell yourself anyway. It doesn’t matter if something is true or not. The things we tell ourselves can become our truth.”

I spent the last 3 weeks studying for 3 exams, which were on the 7th, 9th and 14th of December.

Somehow, I kept thinking that 14th December was going to be a Friday and so, I could start my revision on Monday.
it was only until the night of 9th December, that I realized my mistake and I only had a few days left.

I crammed everything into 3 nights: Sunday, Monday and Tuesday, and I took my last paper on Wednesday afternoon.

I wish I could say that I had enough time, but I didn’t.
Yet somehow, I felt confident enough that even though I didn’t manage to revise everything, I still managed to revise enough.

True enough, I was able to do half of the paper.
There were 4 questions altogether, and I am very confident that I secured the first and last question.
I wasn’t so sure about the second question, but I managed to do it anyway. I might be correct, but I might also be wrong.
As for the third question, I had no idea what was going on.

I need at least 75% to get a good grade, or I may have to come back next semester.
I have never felt so defeated in my whole life before. My life left into the hands of luck and chance.

I thought I could be able to walk out of the exam hall feeling liberated that I have just completed the last exam of my undergraduate life. But now I am not so sure.

1. I thought the race starts at 7am,
so by 6.30am, I was well-hydrated and fully warmed up, and I assembled at the start line. Ended up standing there and waiting for 45 minutes because the race starts at 7.15am. My heart rate has probably dropped back to normal and my hydration plans were messed up.

2. I started too fast.
I reached the 1km marker and checked my watch. It showed 4:18.
Maybe 4:45 would have been more comfortable, especially when my body has been idle for the past 45 minutes.

3. The biggest reason: I have not ran a single mile for the past 2 months.
There is absolutely nothing that can make up for the lack of training. No compression tights, no performance gel, no energy drink, nothing.