Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Hello everyone,so here it is, the end of 2014 in just 1,5 hours to go.It's been a long long journey to reach up the page 365 of 365.Through the happy and sad time, through ups and down, yes it's been a beautiful year for me, especially for my career, thank God for guiding me this far.I've been feeling so down lately (read: frustrated).Been struggling to beat it, trust me, if you can walk in my shoes, you'll be traumatized for life.If it's not God who strengthen me during this time, I might be just commit suicide. Haha. Kidding.I'm not that stupid though.Thankyou for my dearest bestfriend Gabriella who still there to listens to me, especially my super drama and never ending sad love story, I know you get bored of it at times, but thankyou for always there to listen when nobody really there (even sometimes you're gone too). I wish you a long happy life Gab.And also my bff from elementary school Kartika, who care & listens to my problems eventhough we're not constantly talk to each other or barely hangout together in past a year.And today I am here, in this really hour, no party, no drinks, no dancing on the dancefloor, not putting on any makeup, just here staring at my laptop and listens to some random musics on playlist.I wanted to make myself resolutions on 2015, I mean so to-do list. It's hard to-do the task that I've made in past few years. Oh yes everything is in delay to be exact. I promised myself that I WILL DO WHAT I HAD TO DO starting from delayed to-do list 2012, 2013 and 2014.Okay, so here's my newyear 2015 resolutions :1. Lose another 5 to 10 kilos (AMEN).2. Work more harder.3. Forget everything that hurt me in the past 3 years (almost).4. Let go of the things that I can't change, if it's meant to be it will be.5. I'll go and get what I want, not just wandering & think "what if".6. SAVING MONEY!!!!7. Getting a new haircut (oh maybe)8. Give and take.9. Be smart enough to choose people who stay & need to leave your life, for your own good & own sake.10. Smart enough to show people what exactly how you feel.11. Reduce my temper.12. Reduce partying & reduce drinking too much alcohol too.13. Live more healthy (I wish).14. Forgive mistakes but never forget the lesson you get.15. Forgive any sins I did in past few years.Well that's a lot, to be continued I guess. :)I'm wishing you a happy new year 2015May joy and happiness surround you.Let's start a new life from page 1 of 365.Seeyou again in January 2015.

Monday, December 22, 2014

Hello everyone,been few weeks didn't check on my blog, kinda busy with my bro's wedding day last week.It's kinda unbelievable that he's now a married man. HAHAHA.Well yeah.. it means that now I am the last one. OH, I still had one left cousin haven't married yet.It's December already, yeah time flies so fast, and it's almost Christmas.Well today.. I guess we had a heart-to-heart kind of thing again. After few months didn't get chances to "curhat" kind of thing here. I know that it's not a necessary thing, but here I am, I'm good at writing not talking especially when it's face-to-face. I go blank. I know I had a lot to ask, but seems like I couldn't find the right words to ask. Or maybe I am too afraid to face the truth. Well yeah that's me.I'd rather keep it to myself than to express what I really felt, and then regret for not asking what I really want to ask.So here's the thing, let me ask you a question.I know this is weird. Don't get me wrong."Have you ever love someone to the point where you want to kill yourself for loving them too much, but you can't do anything about it, and when you had a chance to tell 'em because they asked, but the answer you got is too heartbreaking. And it stays on your mind, affects your mood, and you don't know what to do next.And do you ever feel.. it seems like you really win, but the situation won't let you win?"Okay I know my question is a little bit confusing.I guess it's just me who can't get over something so fast, like "oh okay, you suck, get lost."My life is too ironic I guess. I couldn't find any word to describe what I really feel exactly.At some point, you know that maybe there's a little bit of feelings they left about you, maybe it's love, or maybe hatred towards you. Who knows?And maybe they really love you, but their actions seems just... not reflecting that they really love you. Because if you really love someone, you didn't destroy the one you love.MAYBE THEY LOVE YOU, BUT THEY DIDN'T LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO THE POINT WHERE THEY DIDN'T EVEN ONCE TRY TO FIX WHAT THEY BROKE.Oh yeah, I guess yeah that's the matter..Still, I had tons of questions that haven't been answered yet.Can I just lists it below? Well, okay..1. Why me?2. Why am I always be the one who got blamed for making a decision that we both know I am not the one who made mistakes?3. Why she can, but I can't?4. Is it wrong to be "still" in love with someone I can't have?5. Give me some proof that if you really love me back then.6. Why did you force me to say what I don't wanna say in front of you? And then you give me an un-acceptable answer after that.7. Why did you still there, when you said that we will never be "us". (if you got what I mean)8. If you tell me that it's for my own sake that we can never be together, it's my choice if I wanted to stay, and it's my choice too if I wanted to leave. CAN'T YOU SEE THAT after the time pass?9. No matter how hard I try, and no matter how fuckin' tired I am, I can never erase you from my mind.10. I know maybe at some point people said that you bring all the negative side for me. But I didn't think so. They maybe just knew the story, but not the one who walked in my shoes.11. If you really want me to live my own way, forget everything, and get over my feelings, WHY ARE YOU STILL THERE?12. I exactly know that having another man maybe can help, but I DON'T WANT TO.I surely know exactly how it feels.13. Be careful for your words, it hurts me, really. You just can't see it through my face. But I swear it hurts, and maybe if you were me, you'll be in tears.14. If I already ask you those, what's the point of this all if all you can say is "we don't have a chance".I still had TONSSSS of questions!!!OH GOD PLEASE JUST KILL ME NOW :(

I am sorry that I'm kinda mellow-dramatic bitch lately.You can see it from what I've posted, every quotes, I just need to let go of some feelings that kills me inside. I don't know where to vent my feelings.I never thought that I would be this weak, yes I'M FUCKIN' WEAK.Maybe you see me smiling, but it doesn't mean that I'm happy.Yeah I got a job, my job contains my hobby, It goes really well from the very beginning, but I couldn't help that at some point I feel tired, I had none to whine, I am tired to listen but nobody's listening to mine.Maybe it's not about trying to fix something that's already broken, maybe it's about to throw all the broken pieces and start to build a new one.Maybe it's the thing that could not be fixed, and you do have to be willing to let go.Somedays are too hard for me to live it like nothing really matters.I pray every night that maybe God is willing to give me things that I wanted most, I asked Him every night, I please Him, because I know that God always listens to His child. Even answer to their questions. Maybe you didn't get it right after you pray, but eventually He will. I know that He got the most amazing plans for His child.Oh God,I didn't know what to say. :(

Hello everyone,so long didn't catch up with you guys.Been so busy preparing my bro's wedding, oh it's on 14 Dec this week!Such a hectic week for all of my whole family, been busy preparing our dresses, vendors, foods, invitations, and so on. Oh gosh..And oh, I just got my first headpiece, well it's an endorse anyway.It's from my pretty young aunty, her shop name is Liping_bowtique, please kindly check it on Instagram, she sells a lot of headpiece and it's 101% HANDMADE!!I bet you'll like them as much as I am.I rarely use any headpiece in a special occasions such family party or friends wedding. I am keeping myself elegantly simple but stand out when it comes about dress up.LOL. And mostly BLACK.So here it is.. pardon my selfie time :p

Pretty right? Oh thanks :pThe dress is mine which I once wore it at my bff's wedding last year, AND HAPPY it fits perfectly this time, it doesn't fit me right last year. So I am happy!! *ROTFL*Well I guess I need another new haircut soon. look at that not so fresh haircut.So that's a little update from me today. :)If you wonder what products I've used above, go check my old post.It's still the same products, except the illuminating powder. I use NAKED by Urban Decay.Review will be posted soon!

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Hello everyone,so as you can see on my instagram, I've been posted a picture of me using Too faced MELTED Liquified Long Wear Lipstickin Fuchsia. and YES it's a pretty color if you love bright lipstick.I am no fan of bright lipstick except for this MELTED & Chanel Rouge Allure Velvet no.37 "L'exuberante" as you can see ithere didn't get a chance to blog about this lipstick tho, Chanel Rouge Coco no.19here, and YSL RPC no.52 "Rosy Coral"here too.So here it is, c'mon take a look! I'm sure you love itttt as much as I do.Let's get MELTED!! :D

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Hello everyone,
So I am here today with this little article posted by my friend at the groups, a little thought for young man & young lady here about finding your one and only soulmate.
Such a great article for a single people (including me :p)

And for the bold texts, that's what inspires me through this articles. Thankyou for sharing this auntie :)

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Hello everyone,so here I am today presenting my own review for the best eyebrow product from ANASTASIA BEVERLY HILLS, it's their Dipbrow Pomade.I've been curious to try the dipbrow pomade, because some people said that it is not so easy to wear, especially if you're not so good doing your eyebrows or if you're not a talented (I didn't said that I am talented though, so no hard feeling guys, it's just word play LOL).And yeah I admit that it is a little bit tricky at first, you can easily wipe the pomade if you're making mistake while you made the arch or whatever, but once it dries, you can't just wipe it with cotton buds, you need to use your remover as well.I always use pencil to do my eyebrows daily, but I couldn't help myself fall in love with this pomade from the first time I tried. You can use an angle brow brush to make it easier.If you're going to swim or had to work out, this is the best choice for an eyebrow products that will LAST LONGER and didn't smudge once you let it dry.I am using this pomade while I'm working out recently because while you work out, you're sweating a lot of course. I will use this soon to go to swim and see if this pomade really stay in place, and I will let you know! :)I don't know why but in current few months I prefer a simple makeup look, well I am using a brown natural color contact lens as well, it's GEO Rainshower in brown (it's brand new edition FYI). I never found another good looking brown contact lens except this one, and it is SO COMFY! You should try if you had a problem using contact lens in brown color before.I bought two different colors of ABH dipbrow pomade, it's chocolate and taupe (it's a new color), taupe is more brown-ash kind of color so you can use it daily because they had a very natural color.Bought both of it at @houseofmakeup (Check out their INSTAGRAM, it's based in Surabaya, Indonesia).You can also find it at SEPHORA, in US of course.ABH didn't launch yet in Asia. Too bad. I wish I could just buy them straight at Sephora near Asia, of course the other products from ABH too.

And here's the look that I've made using this two!Check it out :)Using the chocolate ABH dipbrow pomade!As you know, I am madly in love with bold eyebrows :)

And here's the taupe ABH dipbrow pomade!And yes this is the best color if you want to look natural, Really! :D

I can't wait to try another color real soon, but I guess now it is more than enough for the next 1 year drawing an eyebrows.I will try another eyebrow products too when I had a chance, and of course I will let you guys know.Which brand & color is you fave? :)Seeyou in another post!

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

So here's a little speech I made yesterday as seen on my Instagram,"Thankyou for another new chapter of my life, it's only by HIS grace that I could survive this tough life so far with His truly uncountable blessings & His kindness, through the good & the bad, with the ups & down, happy or sad. Meeting a couple of new friends, losing some people (yes people come & goes), having another new experience, and know how to enjoy life while you working hard too.This shall be the new beginning for me, while I'm growing up, I should become a little more wiser than I am now, I need to improve myself to be a better version of me than myself yesterday. Thankyou for those who stands beside me through the bad & the good times! Another year of me had passed, another greater future is waiting, and well.. now I am officially 22!"It is sad actually that I didn't received any greetings from the one, yeah.. this one special person I mean.Well yeah, things didn't happen just like what I want. I understand.But it's okay, really. Maybe he's just too busy. It's fine. :)And OH, look what I've got this year :)My BFF is just so sweet HAHAHA (but well I wish I got this from that special person)

And also cake!! Thankyou my 2nd sister in law & ma bro :-*

Thankyou for the well wishes everyone! Most of their wishes were about getting succeed in my career, getting more skinnier (yeah my wish too), hoping to find a good BF real soon, and also hoping that I could leave the nightlife kind of lifestyle as soon as possible (I will soon), and all the best for my future. I am truly blessed getting another chance to live another awesome year surrounded by families & friends! THANKYOU!! :)

Friday, October 10, 2014

Hello everyone,been a month didn't posted any blogpost here..Kinda busy with my schedule lately, I am so so sorry :(SO, here I am today with the topic above, yes!Yves Saint Laurent or spell it YSL.I just bought the IT lipstick lately, it's Rosy Coral, yes RPC 52, as you can see on the other beauty blog & reviews. This lipstick is an award winners!It's sold out anywhere, well couldn't find it in Indonesia too.Thanks to Cheon Song-Yi's who's wearing this RPC in her dramas.As you can see in "My Love from The Star" or You Who Came from The Stars", starring Kim So Hyun who played as Do Min-Joon & Gianna Jun who played as Cheon Song-Yi.She wears these IT lipstick, now you know.Pretty right? Yes I do agree.I rarely wear lipstick on weekdays or weekend, but I collected some of lipstick, because I just loveeee pretty colors.So here's mine, my own swatch of RPC 52 ;)

Ms. Lia Octaviani J ♥

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I was born in Surabaya on October 28, 1992. I'm a Certified Make-up Artist based in SUB, ID. I'm a face-painter & an embroidery-artist. I graduated from High-school and starts studying makeup in March 2013, just started 3 years after graduated from High school in one of Beauty Academy in Surabaya, freshly graduated on February 2014. I have two elder brothers, I'm the last one, and the only one girl. I can be copied but I can NEVER be duplicated. I'm a makeup junkie since 2 years old, since I wore my mom's red lipstick. I blog whatever I like, I think a lot but I don't say much, I love to write, I am more likely to write than saying what's on my mind straight to your face. I HAVE NO RESPECTS TO COPYCAT and I don't have to impress anyone, Haters gonna hate anyway.
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