inbetwixt

i am on call tonight. 4:30-10. dang. i thought it was tomorrow. nothing like surprise call to make your mouth corners turn down.

i would like to get internet. my computer is super slow though. it needs to be cleaned so it can work better. that takes time. i should go to the geek squad.

i slept so much but am still sleepy now. i got some postcards. i am sending posties today. i can’t believe i have call. call is annoying.

i haven’t spoken much to anyone today. it’s good and bad. good b/c i don’t have to worry about putting out extra energy. bad b/c it would be nice to have something to take my mind of this evening. i hope that w/ the VA checks coming in, there won’t be ANY calls from the ER. only a few calls from the unit that involve ordering prns and such.

the director of our outpt clinic says that i’m prickly – easily irritated, don’t get involved w/ conversations and have lost my optimistic glow. yup – you would too if you dealt w/ what i have the past couple of years. and if you were tired of gossiping and maligning (both participating and listening) you would stop being a part of it all