12 January 2010

love is an ocean, i'm anchored in you.

It's up to me to choose how I want to be.

No.1: Had a great day with my babies all day. Pink eye or no. It was just the three of us home all day and it was nice to spread out and have dance parties and build tower after tower and spin around until we had to collapse in a pile of silly laughter- nowhere to be and no one to see- just us.

No.2: The boys eyes are like 98% cleared up already and I never got it. The doctor told me there was a couple different kinds of pink eye and if I haven't gotten it by now, well, things are looking good folks.

No.3: Tonight I ran and ran and ran.

No.4: This afternoon I got to talk to my bff. It was perfect.

No.5: You can be sad. For a month or more. That's just fine. There are reasons to be sad and there is a time and a place for everything, but as for right now I am looking forward to moving forward. I like being happy most and working at it is better than stagnant, blank dissatisfaction.

No.6: Tomorrow we get to support the Nortons and celebrate a sweet little life. I can't easily shake the sadness I feel for them, but maybe that's a good thing. I hug my kids a little more and enjoy the sticky, chaotic, and even sassy moments more fully these days. No.7: There were a lot of things about my life that were getting me down because they were all out of my control. Let's just accept the things we cannot change ok. There are way worse things than waiting for an apartment to be done...etc.

No.8: My Melissa (or Mama-Lissa as Ambrose likes to call her) brought me cookies. Not only did they serve as an excellent bribe at eye drop time, but they were delicious! Honestly. How nice!

No.9: I get to be married to him. And if I went on, like I like to do, about all the awesome things he does for me and the boys everyday you might think I'm lying so I won't bother. Suffice to say, he keeps us all together with an even tone, a quick wit, and unconditional love. I'm trying to learn from him.

No.10: That's really all I got. Thanks for reading. I'm off to sleep so I can get up and teach elements of the essay in the morning. Aloha.

So sorry about the pink eye. You are so strong. So terribly jealous that you got to talk to my bff... hehe... our bff?? oh, diana. shoot. Sometimes I love her more than I can stand. Also, jealous that she got to talk to you...hehe... oh boy... I wanna talk to you too... love you Stephanie. Oh, and I don't know what happened but I didn't get the letter...:(

One reason I love you so much is that you share your true feelings on your blog. I admire that and let me tell you, you will never know how many times I am influenced by your words. I appreciate my role as a mother more because of you. I too hug Axton a little more when I read posts like this. I value the everyday moments with my son because of you. I learn a lot from you dear friend. So even if you are going through a rough spot, know that you are still an influence for good and an inspiration to me. I just love you.

You are always happy, smiling Stephanie to me! I love how even when you have a "gripe," you follow it with a great laugh. Having things out of my control (OK, and maybe hormones; why do husbands always have to bring up that (valid) point??) has been getting me down a bit lately, too, but you're right to take the attitude of accepting the things you cannot change. And moving forward and being happy! Thanks!

as soon as i saw those pictures of your babies, i was like, this is a greaaaat post. then i saw me and was like, wait a minute what's going on here?!!! i'm so touched. i wish we talked more. i check your blog 19 times a day to feel closer to you.

indeed a wonderful post. thank you! you seem to take the words right out of my mouth sometimes. amazing. a talented writer you are! i hope you were able to get through yesterday okay and that Natalie's family will continue to be encircled with love.xoxo