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8/10/2009

I Want to Be...

While I was on the phone with a friend this past Friday night, he asked me a question about an ex. He wanted to know if I'd ever think about dating her again and, when I said no, why.

I explained that, when the two of us got together five years ago, one of the things that I liked about her was that she had a very sarcastic sense of humor. Truth is, at the time, so did I. So when my buddy asked me why I wouldn't get back with this girl, I said that it's because I don't think I'm that sarcastic anymore. I don't think my sense of humor is the same as it once was. I guess I don't really think I'm the same person that I was five years ago. And throughout that time, I think I've been able to discover more of what I'm looking for in someone I want to spend time with.

One of the benefits of time I suppose...

This conversation led me to think about how I think I've changed over the past five years, which then led me to think about how I want to change in the future. How I want to be different... better.

So I spent the next few days thinking, what is it that I want to be? Or, more specifically, what kind of person do I want to become?

I want to be:

...someone who, every time people spend time with me, they walk away feeling better.

...an encourager.

...courageous.

...a great listener.

...responsible with what God has given me.

...careful with my words.

...wise.

...a lot less selfish.

...thoughtful.

...a man after God's heart.

Of course, this list isn't exhaustive. Just a few things I wrote down in the past few days. Strangely enough, there is a name belonging to a person I know next to every item on this list. Friends, mentors, teachers. All people who have affected me for the better...

2 comments:

I will just go ahead and [affirm] that I have seen this change in you. I definitely recall your former sarcastic self [Ha]. I only mention this because its so incredible to see God @ work in your life.

I also wanted to mention how funny it was that I have the same exact list (identical, in fact) of things I want to be true about me.