Monday, December 3, 2007

In the very early stages of my Christian walk I was a diehard Bebe & Cece Winans fan. I felt like they were speaking directly to my heart. Their songs were so real to me and I could identify with them.

I was a baby Christian trying to find where I belonged. What to do, what to listen to. So I went on a music search. In NYC where I lived at the time there was only 1 black station that played Christian music and was 95% old music. There was 1 station that played Christian contemporary music which was about 95% acoustic guitars! I spent a lot of time listening to Christian contemporary music, like Amy Grant, Sandi Patti, Michael W. Smith and Phil Driscoll when I could find them (1 out of every 20 songs). I loved these artists and still do but after a while I had a need for the “bass” which is prevalent in black music, so I listened to Tramaine Hawkins, Helen Baylor, The Winans and the Rance Allen group on the black station (1 out of every 25 songs).

For a while I was content but then things shifted again, and I needed more. The bass wasn’t enough, I longed for more. A real message & meaning, something that was about what i was feeling.The white music was too “nice” it was surface music, it didn’t take me deep like I wanted it to, but the black music was old & slow and super holy, like old negro spirituals that slaves sang, and since I was a new born again soul, free of the world and new in Christ those songs didn’t fill the void that I had in my musical life. Understand music is a big thing for me. I love music and play it 24/7 non-stop. I do everything to music so I really needed something good!

So anyway I was getting frustrated, I didn’t want to hear secular music but what I was hearing was just not enough. I even prayed about it…”God you gave me a new life and a new beginning, can’t you send me some new music??” I’m sure God laughed out loud at this nonsense. He probably said to Jesus, “Jesus it’s HER again and get a load of this prayer request, she wants some new music, as if what You did for her wasn’t enough!”In my mind this is how God & Jesus talk about us down here… anyway…

I turned on the secular station one day and there was Bebe & Cece Winans! Wow it was awesome! It wasn’t all super holy, but it had meaning and rhythm, and bass. It had a young adult vibe to it (you know not kiddy music but not old, grandma music). When I found out who they were I became an instant fan and I am a fan to this day. There newer stuff and solo projects are good but I love the older songs and in particular “I.O.U. Me”! This song really spoke to my spirit and still does. It speaks of a love that we could never repay, but the love is still there for us regardless, no matter what we do or say that love is there. Even when we don’t deserve it.All we have to offer is ourselves…So I post the lyrics to this song as a reminder of a love we cannot repay, but all that is asked of us is ourselvesBeBe & CeCe Winans circa 1987.

I.O.U. MeWhen I saw you, I could see that it was me you came to findBy the smile that was on your faceOh and the pain in my heartThat the love in your eyes it went awayWhen you told me (When you told me)It was true what you went through while trying to thank youIt was something no words could doChorus:I owe you (I owe you)All my love (All my love)I owe everything to youAll of my lifeYou've given love to meI owe love (I owe love)All my heart belongs to only youThe rest of my lifeI know I.O.U. MeEvery moment 'til the world no longer turns could I repay youBut I found a way to startEvery day (Every day), every nightThis is what I ride upon my heart(We both know)ChorusI know I.O.U. me (5x)Since your love has found me never be without your love

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