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Tuesday, March 30, 2010

So today is the beginning of week 8 for my little peanut. I want to cherish and love every second of this pregnancy. I have dremt and prayed for this for so long that I'm going to enjoy everything. Ahem... well other than this constant nausea and food aversions!! I can handle the food aversions. I get hungry but nothing sounds good and thinking of certain foods makes me want to hurl. But, I can get through that. It is the nausea that I have issues with. I thought it was getting under control by only flaring up in the evenings after dinner, but I was proven so wrong today. I woke up and felt funny for the first time in the morning. So I ate a few saltines. Then I got ready and was driving to work when "it" hit! Oh my goodness. I was picturing myself pulling over to the side of the road so I grabbed the sleeve of saltines that I had in my purse (to take to work of course. I don't always have a sleeve of saltines in my purse!) and ripped that sucker open! Do you know how hard it is to open crackers while on a highway driving? Hard! Thankfully I ate those until I got to my work parking lot and they helped a lot.

My doctor has given me a prescription for these amazing little pills that take away the nausea (with some other unfortunate side effects) and in the evenings when I start to feel queasy I take one and poof the nausea is gone! The problem? They cause drowsiness... I can't justify taking one on my way TO work. I will never get through the day!

I had to run a work errand, so I stopped at the grocery store and grabbed another box of saltines to keep in my office and some instant ramen because my tummy seems to like the mildness of it. Pair that with water and preggie pop drops and I'm alive!

Let's just hope this passes soon...I only have 5 more weeks of it right?? right?? But even when I feel like death warmed over and I can barely keep my eyelids open because I'm so fatigued, I'm thankful. I'm thankful for these awful side effects because it means that there is a baby growing!!

We're going to start taking belly pictures today. I haven't decided what shirt to wear. I'd like to wear something that I can wear in every picture from now till the baby comes so I can make a cute picture collage. And I haven't decided when I will start posting them on here. I'll probably wait a few weeks until something other than chubby is showing:)

Friday, March 26, 2010

Along with all of the baby craziness that has been going on in our home, we have had the house craziness in full force! We found out two days ago that the buyers of our house wanted to go ahead and sign papers to close the deal. They are allowing us to stay in the house until we can close on the house we are buying (for a daily fee of course). We jumped at the chance to sign papers! In the back of my mind I just kept thinking about the buyers and what if they backed out and then we couldn't get the house that we are buying, etc. So today we went and signed the deed over to the new owners!! They were really cute and really excited to buy their first home. It made me feel good that they said they love the colors and decorating and are so excited to live in our little house!

Now we are mortgage-less...for a week! We are hoping to close on our new house next Friday, but we don't know when we will actually take possession of the house. I'll just be happy that all the papers are signed and the deal is closed! Hopefully the people we are buying from won't need to be in the house for too long after our closing date! I just can't wait to get the keys and start painting and updating fixtures! Oh yeah...and unpacking. bleh!

This is a crazy season in our lives, but I wouldn't have it any other way!!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

I don't even know where to start! Today Jonathan and I had a routine ultrasound before the D&C on Friday. We had come to terms with the miscarriage and weren't expecting anything other than to hear the details for the "procedure" on Friday. Well, the ultrasound tech asked if I was bleeding or cramping and I said no that the only thing that had been wrong with me was some serious nausea. She said that was a good sign and I thought that was weird... a good sign for what? We already know there is no baby and that the nausea was from the high levels of hormones from the drugs I was on. The Doctor told me last week to let others know about the miscarriage because there was less than a 1% chance they would find something this week. She wanted us to have a support system in our grieving.

WELL... The ultrasound tech (who was playing K-Love and I found out goes to my church!) said that she could see the heart beating!!! WHA??? HEART? THERE'S A BABY?? Oh my goodness! We couldn't believe it, but we were watching it with our own eyes! We could see the baby and see the little heart pounding and hear the heartbeat. God is good, isn't he? She said that "things sometimes can't be explained." My Doctor came in and was flabbergasted. She didn't seem to know what to say at all. She apologized for telling us to tell people and for not being optimistic last week. But we assured her that we saw the empty sac too. So they are changing my due date to November 9th (which ironically was the day that baby Eli was due). They said that the baby is measuring 7 weeks and 1 day, where last week from their count of my cycle I was 7 weeks. They said this could be why there was no heartbeat last week because it was too early. But it still does not explain why there was no baby last week! Nothing that the Dr., tech, or we could see at all! We should have seen a blob of something like the first ultrasound I had.

God is awesome! He has absolutely answered prayers in miraculous ways! We of course would have announced our pregnancy a little further on (after 12 weeks) in a more fun way, but we will take this! So here it is.... WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!! I am trying to be cautious until after the 12 week mark just because I know what a heart-break it is to "lose" a baby even if it was only for a week.

Thank you again for all your kind words of encouragement and prayers. We love you all and are so excited for you all to walk down this new road with us! Here are a couple pictures...

Yes, 3 tests. I couldn't believe the first two so I made Jonathan go to the store to get the digital one!

This was our first ultrasound. That black blob in the left corner is the pregnancy sac and that tiny white speck is the baby.

Obviously we did not get a picture from the ultrasound that showed no baby in the sack. Pretty sure I didn't want a souvenir.

These pictures are from today. Not that you can really make anything out... But it shows a BABY! The first picture is actually 3D.

This is how Dakota told his Aunt Lindsy, Uncle Tim, Aunt Billie, and Uncle Derek (and cousin Eli!). They were the only ones we could tell in person since this whole thing has been crazy. I really didn't want to tell our parents such news over the phone, but we couldn't wait after this rollercoaster we've been through! (The scarf was not part of "the look". He got groomed today so it's his Easter scarf!)

Thank you so much for your outpouring of love and prayers for Jonathan and me! I couldn't believe how many facebook messages, emails and comments I received after my last post. I mean, there were comments from people that I know in "real life" that I didn't even know read my blog! It has been so heartwarming to us to read your kind comments and know that we are being bathed in prayers. Thanks again. We really appreciate it!! Love you guys!!!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

A couple weeks ago I was lying in bed trying to fall asleep. (This is really unusual for me since I usually fall asleep when my head hits the pillow.) But I was thinking and my mind was running. I was thinking about something I haven't ever talked on this blog about. I was thinking that it is such a huge part of my thoughts and feelings, so I feel like I need to write about it just to get it out of me. After reading other girls' posts on this subject, I realize that maybe if I wrote about our struggles, it might help someone else.

Here it goes... Jonathan and I have been trying to conceive since June of 2008. We tried the natural route. I stopped consuming caffeine and we tried to do everything by the "natural" books. But it just didn't work. When Jonathan lost his job, obviously our plans were put on hold. Once he got a job again, we said that must have been God's plan to not allow us to get pregnant since he knew that we would be on one income for a few months and it would be stressful to do that pregnant. Well, as time wore on we realized that it obviously wasn't in God's timing yet.

I went into my doctor August 2009 and she said we had a few options to things we could do and to bring my husband back so we could talk. We both went back for an appointment where they did an ultrasound to make sure that my organs were all good. Well, by the time we saw my Dr. and she had looked at the ultrasound she said there were no options to talk about because I needed to have a laparoscopy (surgery) to remove a cyst and most likely some endometriosis. We were shocked and taken aback, but we asked how soon. She literally got us in the next week for surgery. Sure enough she found a cyst larger than what she had expected and also endometriosis. The good part about having the surgery was that she was able to do a procedure to run dye through my tubes to make sure they are clear. Had this not been part of the surgery it would have been "option #2" and would have been really expensive since insurance doesn't cover it for infertility. Since it was part of the surgery it was covered. So we were thankful. My Dr. said she got everything and thought things would work out and that maybe this had been causing our infertility problems.

A few months later, we still had no luck. She put me on Clomid and after two months there was nothing. She added Estradiol and Projesterone for the next two months. Guess what? After that fourth month? We were pregnant! (3 at home pregnancy tests worth...I made Jonathan go to the store to buy another brand because I didn't believe it.) We found out 3 days before the day I left for San Antonio and also had an offer put in on our in on our house! There was so much excitement all at once. We thought that this was God's plan. He knew that we would move and we would be all ready to have a baby. That's when I decided not to post about our infertility problems. Hey, we didn't have infertility problems anymore so why write about them.

Except I went to my doctor last week to hear the heartbeat and there was no baby on the ultrasound. There was a baby the week before when we were there. Not this time though. It's amazing how 7 weeks pregnant you are already so attached to your baby. Thinking about people who have late term miscarriages, I don't know how they do it.

So once the miscarriage finally happens in my body or I have a DNC (whichever is first), we will take a couple months and then start all over on the medications.

Ok God, I'm being stretched again and it hurts. It hurts really bad. Can we be done with the learning and stretching yet? Have I learned enough lessons this year?

I just read this on a friend's facebook status and thought it was fitting. "To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did. When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. The will of God will never take you where the grace of God will not protect you."

Thursday, March 18, 2010

It's been a long time since I have posted. (I think I said that on my last post too!) I don't think I've ever been this sporadic in posting EVER! But life has been insane so the last thing on my mind is blogging and getting my feelings out. So because I don't want to be personal today, but I felt the need to blog I decided to post the last 4 pictures I have on my phone which all happen to be of my furry baby, Dakota. Plus, I think we could all use a fluffy post before I post the serious post that I have been working on for the past couple days (which in all honesty could be another week before I post...).

This first picture is from the night we got home from San Antonio. Dakota was staying with Tim and Lindsy, their 2 dogs and 3 cats and KENNEDY. Let's just say that Dakota has a thing for Kennedy and the cats too. oh my word. I don't think he rested at all while he was there because there was so much fun to be had. That evening he fell asleep in this position and was breathing so heavily that I was hoping he was ok! So cute to see him tuckered out!

He is laying on the love-seat looking too cute for words with his new elephant (which sadly isn't with us anymore...it has to be a really sturdy toy to last more than 24 hours under Coda's care!)

The other night I was reading blogs (wearing my pink snuggie of course) and he kept laying his little head on the keyboard so I'd rub his head. When I would stop he would nudge my hand. It was like "Pay attention to me, mommy! Not that silly thing you have on your lap every night!" Either that or he was trying to type his own blog...

Sometimes Coda likes to hide from us by going under our bed. The cutest part is when he only goes half under, but like a kid, since he can't see us, we can't see him! Sometimes he does this in the morning when I'm getting ready to leave, as if to say. "Don't leave! Come find me!!"

Ok, so those are the last four pictures I've taken with my phone. And there is a happy fluffy post! :) AND the sun is shining outside so it's going to be a good day!

Friday, March 12, 2010

Hello world! It's been many a day since I have even logged into Blogger! If you know me well, you know that there is something wrong with that! Even if I don't write a blog every day, I always read the blogs in my dashboard...that is, until this week. I feel like I've been through an emotional and physical rollercoaster ride in the middle of a tornado. Like the visual?

If you all remember in my last post we were in Texas for "vacation" and found out that our house had sold with being on the market for less than 3 weeks. We were floored and then scared! We expected a few months to get ready for this type of change. As soon as the wheels of the plane hit the tarmac we were off on a crazy whirlwind of an adventure to find a house in order to not end up homeless! (Of course our wonderful friends offered up for us to stay with them, but it's always better to only have to move once!) We searched everything we could find online and came up with some houses we wanted to walk through. We ended up walking through houses Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday nights until 9:30 to 10:00. Needless to say we were so exhausted each night mentally that we went straight to bed when we got home!

Do you know how sometimes God asks you to trust him and you feel like you're being stretched beyond? But you know there is a reason and that God has a plan? Well I kind of felt like that. (I feel like I've felt like that a lot in this past year...) We just couldn't find the right house for us in the end of town that we wanted to live. And I was getting a bit emotional about it. I usually like to think I have a level head in most circumstances, but this was just too much!

After many prayers we put an offer in on a house and after a couple negotiations back and forth, they eventually accepted our offer! YAY!!! We found out last night and it was such an amazing feeling. We offered what we had agreed would be the most we would spend, which was quite a bit lower than their asking price, so we thought they would give us an immediate NO WAY(!!), but after 3 or so hours we got a call that they had accepted! God is so good! This house is perfect for us and I'm thrilled! The owners go to our church and so do the next door neighbors, although since it's such a large church, I don't know either couple. Everyone here at work that knows them, says that they are both wonderful couples! I'm so excited to have nice neighbors!! :) That makes a big difference in a neighborhood!

I know I reminisce a lot on here, but I can't help but look back on last year at this time, when Jonathan was working at a temp job, I hated my job and we were scraping by. There would have been no way that we would have believed that we would be moving to a beautiful new house (with a basement! for some reason most houses here don't have basements) in just a year! God has been so good to us. I feel like we've been through some serious growth in this past week learning to trust. Isn't it funny that learning to trust is such an on-going thing?

I'm sure life will be crazy over these next 3 weeks due to packing and moving, but hopefully I can get some time to relax and catch up on my blog reading! I feel so "out of the loop" not knowing what all my blog friends are up to! :)

Friday, March 5, 2010

Today I'm taking a bit of a break from sight-seeing. I woke up early (thanks to the incredibly uncomfortable bed) went down to breakfast and made myself a waffle at the continental breakfast. Of course the waffle was in the shape of Texas! I have learned that everything in Texas is in the shape of Texas! :)

I took some time to just relax today and catch up on blogs and morning shows. I think I'll go down to the gym and hope that one of the two treadmills is empty. (Billie might hate me if I don't keep up with my training while I'm here.) I'm not a fan of running on treadmills, but what can I do?

I thought I'd post a few pics of our trip so far.

I love sitting next to the window in airplanes. When the plane takes off, I love the amusement ride feeling. Then when we go through the clouds and then ride above them, it's just a really awesome feeling. I always feel like I'm closer to God because I feel like I can see things from his eyes. Some of our "big" issues in our lives that we blow out of proportion really are "small" in the big picture. Makes me get my priorities straight. And I can never get over how fields are all perfectly square! How do farmers do it?

I spent the afternoon yesterday browsing shops and walking the Riverwalk. It's absolutely beautiful and the sunshine and almost 70 degree day was perfect! I ate at the most amazing Mexican place right on the water. YUM!!

All of the ducks that swim down the river come and wait for chips to drop. This little guy was eating chips out of my hand. {If you have known me since childhood, you would know that the only pet I ever had (due to allergies) was every other year I was allowed to get a baby duck from my Aunt's kindergarten class. I would raise the duck until its feathers came in and then it would go to live on a farm. I just love ducks so it made my day that these little guys weren't afraid to come say hi!}

This was one place that I sat to watch the beautiful scenery. See the ducks? There were even baby ducks. Too cute!

Jonathan and I decided to go on a tour of the River which was soo much fun! Then we went to the Rainforest Cafe for dinner. We had never eaten there and thought it would be fun!

Can you tell on my face that I was worried that this one was going to "come alive" while I was taking the picture?

Today is Jonathan's last day in his conference so we'll take tomorrow and do the touristy stuff:) I hope you all have had a wonderful week!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Yesterday, I boarded a plane to fly to San Antonio to meet Jonathan who is there for a work conference. The flight was on time, baggage claim was easy, and the taxi ride was pleasant. Our hotel? Um, well they upgraded us to a two bedroom suite...not that we need it. Oh, and they have a free breakfast. I can stop there. Ok, so it's not that bad and hey, it's free (paid for by Jonathan's company). But I do have a serious issue... The hotel does not have wifi!!! Are you kidding me? In this day and age??? In our entire suite there is only ONE internet connection in the "living room" at the desk. Seriously? Jonathan and I both need the internet in the evenings. (OK, so I don't need the internet like he does.) And I like to relax on the couch when I'm online! Thankfully my wonderful hubby found a weak wifi signal from the Days Inn across the street for me to hook up to. Pretty sad that I have to use another hotel's internet service!

We went out to dinner last night and had some delicious Texas barbeque at The County Line! Yum! The Riverwalk is beautiful and I can't wait to head over there this afternoon to get some shopping in! (Of course it and the mall are connected to the original hotel we were booked in...maybe it would have made shopping just too easy for me...) And we literally walk past the Alamo to get to the Riverwalk from our hotel. Pretty cool huh?

Here's our crazy news! Yesterday on my way to the airport, our realtor called and yes, the couple had accepted our counter offer on our house. Last night when I got to the hotel, Jonathan and I signed the papers and faxed them back! Can you believe we have a contract on our house?? It was barely on the market for two weeks. I'm in absolute shock and am not prepared to move yet! I was expecting a few months of being on the market. Well, this couple wants to close by the end of this month! AAHHH! We haven't even started looking at houses! I know it will all work out, because God's hand is in this. But to say that I'm not worried that we will be homeless in the process would be an understatement! But we are so excited!!! I'm going to do some internet searching to find a list of houses we want to go through as soon as we are back in town! I know the right house is out there...

I better start my internet searching. The sunshine and high 60's outside is calling my name!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

I had to run into Kroger on my way home from work today. As I was standing in line for the self-checkout this little sucker was screaming my name! I've seen them for a few weeks at the registers, but today I couldn't resist!! I just had to treat myself! I love Easter candy and this is my favorite!! I think people either love them or hate them:)

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On a different note... While I was making dinner tonight, I got a call from my realtor. The couple that went through the house last weekend was in the neighborhood and wanted to come see the house again... He asked if I could be out of the house in 20 min!?!? While my food was cooking I ran through the house like a whirlwind and straitened the house and made the bed (I don't make it every morning...don't judge) and made the house ready to "show". Jonathan is out of town, so I put my food in a tupperware container, grabbed Dakota and ran out the door. I drove to an empty parking lot and ate dinner in my car. Lovely. But it's a good sign that they wanted to see the house again! I drove back to the house after they had been there for a half hour and there were still cars in the driveway! I couldn't believe it! So I waited down the street for them to leave. Our realtor thinks we may hear something tomorrow!! Wow! I feel like this is happening fast! :) Exciting, but I don't want to get my hopes up!!

Monday, March 1, 2010

I'm sorry that I've been so quiet lately! I feel like it's been forever since I have posted! I took this weekend off and never even touched the laptop! Yay me! On Saturday we had two couples over for our Dinner Club for our new Sunday school class. Our class puts groups of 4 or 5 couples together and we go to each at each person's house once a month for 4 months! Two of the couples in our group couldn't make it, but the rest of us had a great time! So much fun to meet new friends! I was the host and served Ten Layer Dinner (a family specialty, so I'm not going to give the recipe out to the internet!) and everyone seemed to like it. Then we played games and had great fellowship! Needless to say, I had no time on Saturday to blog and then Sunday was a recoup day!

On to the exciting news! When I got home from work today I found a fun piece of mail!!! Chelsea from Roots and Rings is hosting a book swap. (If you don't read her blog, you should! She is awesome! I love reading her funny posts!) She had each of us mail her a book (of course I mailed a Kristin Billerbeck book!!!) and she mixed up everyones books and mailed them back out to us! This is the book that I received:

With this sweet note!

Chelsea had asked each of us to put a note in the book about why we like the book for the reader! Such a great idea! I've never heard of this book, but Kathleen says it's a classic. I checked the copyright date and it is from 1938! Should be an interesting read! I can't wait to start!

Lilypie

Lilypie

About Me

I have been married to my best friend, Jonathan for 7 years. After 2 years of trying to conceive we were blessed with our precious baby girl, Adalyn on November 9, 2010! Then we were happily surprised with our baby boy who we welcomed on July 26, 2012. We have a furry baby named Dakota. We enjoy spending time together playing with the kids and running races. We attend a church we love where I also happen to work! I try to stay fit by running and have fun by running in 5K and 10K races. Most recently I completed my first 7 miler race and am contemplating training for a half marathon!