I can’t take being Hapa anymore. I don’t want to endure.

I’m making a lot of claims about what it means to be Eurasian male, both for myself and for my race in general. And ultimately I’m either right or wrong about this. Either the Eurasian crisis is as bad as I claim it is, or Eurasian men are just normal regular guys not much worse than white men. Now I think its telling that the biggest celebrity example of Eurasian male success is a Big Lie. Hes not actually Eurasian nor does he have a white dad. I think overwhelming evidence of Eurasian male failure has been provided, but the few examples of success have all been exposed as deliberate hoaxes. Not one is a 1/2 White, 1/2 Asian son of a White dad.

What are the conclusions if me being right or wrong?

If I’m wrong, then its just me, these are my personal problems, and it has nothing to do with the Eurasian race. But if I’m right, there are many more Eurasian men out there feeling like me. Many perhaps who feel much more strongly than me, since their WMAF parents are more perfect examples of the WMAF stereotype.

Lets present my thesis in simple terms
1. Eurasian men are considered Asian men by White Society
2. WMAF parents lower the status of Asian men in White Society

I think those 2 thesis alone are enough to produce extreme parental conflict between WMAF sons and their parents. We can expand on #1 by saying that even those Eurasian men, who to me look more white, still complain about how they have been held back from white women by their Asian-looks. Even where IMHO their Asian-looks are not that prominent, they still say it has made getting white girlfriends impossible. And so even slight Asian features are considered by these Eurasian men to be extreme disadvantages. And they are not wrong. When I see facial attractiveness studies of just European men, the officially
biologically designated definition of ugliness are those white men who seem to have almost Mongoloid features. We can expand on #2 by saying, just by existing WMAF adds to the general atmosphere of Asian emasculation. But for many Eurasian sons the situation is even worse than mine, in that their parents go out of their way to deliberately and openly belittle Asian masculinity. Now you can say, well they are just attacking Asian masculinity, they have nothing against their Half-Asian sons. But thanks to 1-drop rule Eurasian men are
essentially Asian men. Obama is also Hapa, and hes Black. Obama has been referred to as a ‘Hapa’ since its origins lie in being a slur for mixed Hawaiians, not specifically White-Asian mixes. This is why I say there is no correct term for White-Asian hybrids. Eurasian
specifically refers to Central Asians, and Hapa refers to Hawaiians. There is no proper term for my kind.

So what are the conclusions if my thesis are true? Suppose all Hapa men are going to be treated like Asian men by White Society, and their parents are implicitly or often explicitly anti-Asian male?

IDK exactly what the solution will be. All I can say is that I as a Eurasian man am very angry about this situation, and my parents belong to the relatively benign section of those who are just implicitly anti-Asian and not explicitly. I can only imagine the fate of those Eurasian sons enslaved by openly racist parents. Awareness and self-awareness is the 1st step. And I’ve done my part in this. Any Eurasian searching for self-identity can rather easily Google up my blog. Now I don’t know if every Eurasian in the world is going to agree with everything I say. But if what I say about the Hapa experience is true, they should relate and feel the same way as me.

In that sense, there is nothing left to do. Either I’m right and Hapas are going to be angry or I’m wrong and they’ll be content with their lives. I believe I’ve presented overwhelming evidence why contentment is impossible for Hapas, but we’ll see. They have to liberate themselves. I can’t take being Hapa anymore. I don’t want to endure. I’m not strong. So ultimately either Hapas will self-liberate themselves somehow or they wont. My individual life is beyond saving. But I’m just one person. And I can’t take up all the sufferings of every single Hapa ever born on my back alone. I’m a miserable Hapa. What the miserable Hapas of the world do with their misery is on them. And I guess for the sake of sanity, I should stop taking up the burdens of every single Hapa in the world as my own. They will have to find their own path, I’m just one Hapa and can only deal with my own life.

Would I have wanted to read this blog when I was a teen? It would have set me straight on a lot of issues, popped alot of my delusional bubbles. Is it good to be so realistically self-aware? Or is it better off to live in a delusion, thinking that being mixed is no hardship and perhaps even a hybrid vigor? Is it better to live the hybrid vigor lie or to face the cold hard reality of Eurasian rejection? Beliefs don’t really make a difference. My best experiences with white women, all happened after I had begun to think about Eurasian inferiority. While I had made only limited progress, when I had been brainwashed into thinking Eurasians were some master race. In that sense the truth was no barrier, it was perhaps an aid. But the longterm consequence is me here. Being so paralyzed by self-loathing I can’t even live. Every single one of my beliefs serves inertia. A type of Oriental Fatalism based on genetic determinism. I’m just so sure that I’m doomed by my Eurasian genes I don’t bother to try. I’ve totally given up on life. And I don’t care that I’m sitting out life, since I believe its doomed to be ruined no matter what I do. Yes if I want to be lazy, these are the ideal beliefs. If I Want to do nothing, its best to believe that nothing I do will make a difference.

But its not just about delusional self-confidence. I believe my best moments with white women were achieved after I started this Hapa misery stuff, and not during the period in which I thought I was awesome and had some great destiny. In that sense depressive realism produced more results than delusional self-confidence. But I have to admit that the longterm consequence of these corrosive thoughts are me here in 2015. I’ve never sank lower. I really am nothing but human waste now, and thats what I believe I am.

The point of this post is that nothing matters. If Eurasians are good, then good. If Eurasians are bad, they will have to find a way to deal with their horrible parents on their own. The Eurasian question will resolve itself somehow. And theres no need for me to angst over the whole Eurasian population. As for me as a Hapa individual however. Well, I guess there really isn’t any hope for me. And it is based largely on race, with Hapas being treated like absolute garbage. I can’t endure it. My solution is to give up on life. Maybe other Hapas will think up some other solution.

Eurasians are the worst race, the hardest race. Some Hapas take it up as a challenge, pumped up to be playing the game of life on hard level. None of them have ever won. But some think they are up to the challenge. For me I can’t endure being the worst race. Life was hard enough when I considered myself to be a basically generic white male. When you add in the Hapa handicap, my life becomes a hellish impossibility. We’ll see if some Hapa can achieve the impossible, all I’ll say is that no other Hapa in history, ever has. I’m realistic enough to know I wont be the first Eurasian male success ever. Or maybe my solution is the best solution. You’re right when you say the women of the world don’t owe Eurasian men anything, they don’t. The only ones who directly owe Eurasian men anything, are their own parents who put them in this situation. And so maybe ‘slavery reparations’ from the WMAF parents are indeed the best solution. Maybe my pathetic life, is the best life for Hapas. Certainly Hapa men will never receive any mercy from women. So theres nothing for them out in the world. Maybe my path is the best path for Hapas. I have no answers all I know is being Hapa sucks.

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