"I write this with tears in my eyes. I have been trying to come to grips with it since i found out., but i can't find an easy way to say this. My heart was torn today by the loss of a great friend and companion. When i came home today, i came home to find my beloved little Spaz dead.... i can't even explain how much my head spun, i immediately turned to the one person i knew would just hold me. I turned to my love, patty, I spent the evening with her letting my emotions calm down and my thoughts organize."

My eyes burn today from the crying, and i feel weak. I miss my little buddy. My room seems so quiet and lonely. I'm glad i'm going out soon to see some friends and hopefully have some laughs.