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Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Pre-Op

I go in for pre-op paperwork etc at 10:30 this morning. I am filled with so many different emotions about this surgery. Of course fear is #1 and anxiety is running a close second. Once I get past those feelings, I start to wonder if I should have hope on this surgery. Sometimes I close my eyes at night and imagine the surgery was a huge success and infact my right tube was blocked. I imagine it is now open and working along with my uterus being healthy and cleaned out. This will make the difference............................

After so many failed treatments and so many losses, this will be what changes for me.

Then my common sense kicks in and tells me that we need way more then this surgery to make a difference. Either way it is a good starting point.

My husband is starting to get excited about seeing Dr. Kim. I think he is starting to believe she can really help us, one way or the other. I think so too, but I also put so much trust in my current RE and look at where we are at now.

So many emotions..........................................

I
am back from my pre-op. We ended up doing an u/s because of questions
raised on whether we should remove a fibroid I still have. Since my
uterus is retroverted, the fibroid is located on the very back and out
of the way. My doctor said he is almost certain that is not the reason
for our miscarriage and infertility. If we decided to remove that one, I
would end up in the hospital because he couldn't sew it back up fully
through a laprascope. He believed at this point it would do more damage
then good. So I agree with going forward on LAP and hysterscopy at this
point and leaving that fibroid alone. My lining was at a 6 and I had a
42 mm cyst on my right ovary. He is going to drain it during surgery.
He also asked if I was still planning on seeing Dr. Kim in Chicago. I
told him we already sent records and are waiting for an appointment. He
is very interested in what she finds. Of course I told him that three
years in and all my miscarriages, something HAS to change. I can't keep
doing what we are doing with the same result.

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Hi everyone! I married the love of my life on April 24, 2010. I guess it took a little longer then I thought to find him. I do have a daughter and she is 16 years old. I got pregnant with her when I was 20, wow have times changed. I never thought that having a second child would be such a challenge. Here I am 38 and ttc. We have 7 iui's under our belt and two failed ivf attempts and 5 chemical pregnancies and 1 miscarriage after seeing a heartbeat. Everyday of struggling hopefully brings us one day closer to having a baby or one day closer to moving on without one.
Recently I was diagnosed with:
Positive APA Panel, ANA, Th 1/Th2, Factor XIII mutated, PA1 mutation, MTHFR mutation. Working with Dr. Kim and a new protocol.