About vela june

I am a 25-year-old flower (lol), who is still quite lost at sea, too busy watching the sun rise and set to realize that her boat is taking on water. I don't need saving from a prince charming or knight in shining armor. I'm well capable on my own for now, thanks.
writer. artist. photographer. music enthusiast.

I’ve dreamt of little girls before and I’ve found they symbolize either myself or women who are close to me or are religious in nature. These past two nights, I’ve had dreams with the same little boy and a faceless man.

Unfortunately, this faceless man is not the man I’ve been dreaming about all these years. He’s more mysteriously handsome than comfortably familiar. Everything the ‘me’ in my dream knows about him isn’t shared with my consciousness. Yet, I’m aware how close we are as two people. We are friends with a great deal of history.

As the little boy watches me in one dream and follows him in the next, I am almost convinced of who they are. They are one person, someone I’ve been thinking about lately. Someone… I’ve come to worry about more and more.

Or it could be the effects of watching Beaty and the Beast 2017 film.

Still, I don’t think so. My mind has been plagued by this person for quite some time and if he were to be these two figures in my dreams, I wouldn’t be surprised. It’s not my first time dreaming about him.

The dream was all sort of crazy with crazy fights, needing to prove oneself, and meaningless battles. I didn’t understand it and neither did I spend the time to engrave the dream in my memory, sadly. I woke up in a shock twice. One from my alarm and two from an unforeseen drool accident (which happens when I’m both physically and mentally tired). TMI?

The dream had evil witches and heroes that fought for what they believed in.

Insert cliches and strangeness and you’ve got yourself the crazy dream that I’ve just had. It was like being in a movie or film except it was real life or real life dream.

This dream brings me back to when I used to dream about being in a place that combines my home now and the home I came from. That world exists in one area and I can travel back and forth in mere minutes. That place is where my dream occurs this time.

In this dream, I dreamed I was with family I hadn’t seen in a long time. They’re all very much like they are in real life. For me, it felt uncomfortable facing them and keeping a bold face lie- my current situation in real life. Even though I knew it to be a dream because I immediately recognized the setting, the feeling of being a liar stuck to me and I couldn’t interact with them naturally.

For this particular dream, I’m traveling back and forth from my current to my past. And people become blobs to me. Everyone had started out as these specific people, people I’ve ran away from before and those that I’ve lied to. It’s only until I’ve gone back and forth to many times that they become less identifiable. In this dream, I’m at school, I’m at home, etc. I’m everywhere, but one spot. I’m always moving around and trying to get away from certain things. Read the rest of this entry »

I didn’t know there was even such a thing. Toxic Dreaming is an important thing to get to know. So, here’s definition:

A toxic dream is usually a very realistic, upsetting dream that is most likely to occur when your body’s cleansing system is overloaded during sleep. They are often terrible nightmares and they signal that your body, mind, or emotions are in a toxic state.

And that’s what I’ve been having for over two weeks now. I threw off my body, mind, and emotions and now my dreams are following suit, feeding off from the chaos happening inside of me. The unconscious mind has no other things to eat except for my lack of sleep, unhealthy eating habits, stress, negative thoughts, and my constant beating of myself in my head.

It’s utterly chaotic in my world at the moment and this is why I have a lot of Toxic Dreams to be sharing. Soon. And they’re pretty vivid. If you’ve ever had one yourself, feel free to share!!!