I don't know what I want to do with my life. I have no future. I am so lost. When I was a child everything seemed so simple. So optimistic. So certain. I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I remember wanting to be everything from a dog catcher to an entomologist. I remember I used to love bugs. I wanted to study them, become an entomologist, revolutionize insect science. What happened to me? My aspirations? My motivation? Sometime in high school I switched my interests from science to business. I wanted to become a millionaire CEO or some shit like that. I don't know, maybe I wanted to make a lot of money since growing up my family didn't have much money. Who knows. But I was still driven. I took several business classes in high school and even a few early college classes. My grades were excellent. I was certain this was my future. Then something happened during college. I don't know what but my grades began dropping. I began losing interest in things. I stopped caring. About my grades, about my future, about my life. Of course it was only recently that I was diagnosed with depression. Looking back with what I know now, I realize I've probably had depression for several years now without ever realizing it. Nevertheless, It is the present and I am hopeless. I dropped out of business school and switched my major to art, the only thing I have any real passion for anymore, and even that is waning. What do I do? I'm not good at anything else. I'm not very smart or strong or have any real skills. Art is the only thing I'm even remotely good at. And yet my skill is barely average at best. I have no plans for my future anymore. I still live with my parents with no plans to move out. I have no job. I can't even drive. And I just don't care. All day I hide in my room doing homework and drawing. No goals. No ambition. No dreams.I am useless.I don't belong here.There is nothing left.