Category Archives: Emotions

We’ve been programmed /wired/ with our “old operating system” to get pleasure and avoid pain. In fact, pain is so uncomfortable we will do almost anything to rid of it. Once I put it out there I realized once more how primitive we are and how attached to our “children” – here we go again, Phoenix is gonna give another lecture on harm from FEELINGS!!! Yes and don’t mind if I do!!! I am a strong believer in higher consciousness and discipline – and this can only be achieved when your brain is not detrimented, and your focus is not weakened. Focus is the power of energy. And feelings is the only uncontrollable force that stands in the way of a rational and calm human being and a fearful “nervous” animal. If I could kill that animal, I would. If I could hire a designer and cut out all but a bunchful of feelings like some tangled up wires with my wire cutters , I would do so in a heartbeat! Feelings are my enemies – and I try as hard as I can to fight them.
While exercise, working, and physical activity helps, I still wish there was an OFF switch to sad, glad, mad. I am actually going to try meditation this week to dis-attach myself and experience complete calm, like the calm of still lake… Not a wave! Not one feeling. Just determination to succeed and be satisfied – instead of ape’s constant drive “to please himself”, and to base his every decision on what feels good; I make the decision on “what is the healthiest choice”… I make the decision to learn to be smarter, tougher, and more evolved from the primitive ape!!! I also want to be closer to God – God is the calm storm himself, and we have nothing but a very old 10-rule testament to guide us. God really needs to update his “website!!! ” Quite some time has passed. How about: “Thou shall not feel”? We could really avoid murder with this one(just stop feeling angry). How to we prevent lying? Stop feeling fear. How do we stop cheating? Stop doubting. Stop coveting at your neighbours wife? Stop feeling lustful and self-entitled.
It is this easy. Feelings are good for the theatre – where they are paid for. Or the movies, where tears run like rivers threatening to destroy cities (btw I hate watching those drama-filled tear-jerkers). Are you going to miss your feelings? Try it! Try living the anti-feeling life for yourself, simply dismissing emotions like the wind because they don’t matter, they are not important, and they are as fleeting as the weather. (And just as destructive!) It’s not necessary to get yourself from sad to happy – if you are sad (which happens sometimes for no reason, even to me), you say to yourself:”I have NO feelings”, and carry on!

Adopting such an attitude doesn’t make you a robot. On the opposite it makes you smarter and helps you make better, rational decisions. Listen to your brain! Love your brain! Make friends with your brain – not your brain’s pet! And rewards will be numerous. I already noticed an unhealthy level of distrust to myself, questioning myself without my touchy-feeley self. But I am finding it more and more liberating each day, it’s definitely working for me or I would have already quit. 🙂

I hope to have peaked your curiosity and wishing you evolutionary progress whenever you might be ~~>
Your cyber-friend,
Phoenix

People wish us happiness. People “just want to be happy”. Some even come to thing that happiness is a meaning of life. In truth.., you would be just fine without happiness, and expecting and chasing happiness is just another form of unhealthy attachment. Not to mention that happiness is just a feeling! And a feeling, like any feeling, is fleeting – I have even compared it in my previous posts as a “wild horse” of your brain. Instead of trying to feel good or avoiding feeling bad my suggestion is to simply QUIT feeling altogether. It’s best to feel nothing at all, or “to feel content”. Contention should be like an empty cup – not bad nor good, emptiness cannot be good nor bad. It’s just not there.
So for a week now I’ve been trying to fill my mind with this intentional void, trying not to feel. When feelings inevitably came, I dismissed them as soon as I consciously realized they were there – as if they were just winds, I exorcised my unwelcome guests. Some crept up, like a feeling of sadness that would slowly come up as a knot in my stomach in the mornings. I could tell that this sadness was trying to tell me some unexpressed thought from my “lower self” who was mute and couldn’t speak… but I had to simply “work through” the feelings as if they were a passing sickness – the sooner it’s gone, the better I’ll get!
…Because I’m trying to live from the higher plane here, without chasing some invisible, uncontrollable firebird. I am my own person here, living my life in the moment of existence and simply “content” with emptiness and it’s lack of meaning – other than bringing past and future moments together; conceiving and bringing my goals and visions to fruition; I am simply, traveling in time.
So when we are talking about us humans being slaves to our emotions – when we as humanity are so exorbitant that we, my friends, are EMOTIONALLY OBESE!
What is this, this sadness, or this gladness… This madness??? It’s self-indulgence. It’s lack of self-control. It’s not being able to separate your animal nature and your human nature… Your cortex. WHY? Well first of all, we as humanity of the 21st century, are not very emotionally intelligent – our technological advancements and actual human evolution has progressed much more!!! Ever wonder why is that? Maybe because our emotions and our intelligence is two separate entities – not even apples and oranges! They couldn’t be more different. Since emotional “creature” (or Animal) lies within our brain, our Thinking Entity (or Humanity) has assumed responsibility of a parent to it – it’s been taking care for it. But… We are separate – we are not one and the same. Our animal “pets”, or our emotions, are a separate being which is WAY OVERESTIMATED and whose importance is blown waaaaay out of proportions. I think it was created as our downfall – god didn’t want us to be too perfect, so he created this capricious animal within us – so that only the most intelligent people could concur and tame the “beast”, thus living a fulfilling life to a complete satisfaction of his minds capacity. Those who were led by the beast, have degraded and perished as result of DEVOLUTION – those species who used their intellect less, have unknowingly regressed and suffered mental degradation, becoming more primitive over time. People who have schizophrenia or other mental problems, tend to have exaggerated feelings. Perhaps it’s a natures way out – giving the person with mental decline a tool to self destruct. After all we are talking about The Beast, or our Lower Self. We all have it, but are we the ones in control?..

I will let you ponder on that.
Your sibling in transformation –
Phoenix

Doubts! Another negative pesky feeling that stands in a way of decisive action. Doubts disguise themselves as thoughts, but don’t let them fool you: your horses are trying to run away with the carriage again and prevent a positive action which leads to a goal achievement. Had I told you that I decided to fire my feelings this month? As a challenge I decided to dismiss ALL of my feelings, ignoring them – bad or good. I only allow good feelings of satisfaction AFTER a goal completion but otherwise I forbade myself any pleasures – no more TV, games, no more fake happiness and false fulfillment. My horses will have to earn their living now by being obedient and giving me only what I want, when I want it. Did I ask for doubts? No. I have no place in my life right now for ANY negative emotion, period. I am only allowed to feel satisfaction when I have earned it. And this month, I am announcing a NO PLEASURE month. That’s right – no conscious pleasure of any kind. Will I survive? I am actually excited about trying this.

I will keep you posted!!!
All the best in your fulfillment in life!!!
Yours,
Phoenix!

Do we really need FEELINGS? What is the function of feelings, and what would we do if we didn’t have them?..
The main thing that comes to mind, is feelings are serving as a brain-check function, to make sure that we are not stupid, that we will not put our hand in the fire and let ourselves get burned. Totally understood as a tool in childhood or babyhood. But afterwards? In my mind, our feelings are a destructive force, which are not helpful in anyway. They can potentially do more harm, then good. The only useful feeling that we can focus on is the feeling of satisfaction. All the other feelings we could live without – I know it is said that feelings make us human, but in truth feelings make us more like animals. Only those who can truly harness their feelings and understand that the best benefit is received when we are content, and when we are not feeling anything at all. Sure, some will argue that we couldn’t exist without fear, fear is our best motivator. In truth however the horses that are attached to our imaginary carriage are of service to us ONLY when they do nothing at all. We don’t need feelings to propel us forward, we don’t need horses to move us along. You can think of these so called wild horses as more of an impediment, then something useful. It’s not necessary to tap into our animal nature in order to achieve things, because our thinking capacity is smart enough to deduct that fire will burn you, that the bills need to be paid, that there is a negative consequence to your action or lack of action. So how are feelings useful? Well the only useful feeling that I find is a feeling of satisfaction. And this feeling is only achieved by completing an action successfully. All the other feelings are irrelevant and can be over-rided by your brain. At the end of successful lovemaking comes an orgasm, for example. It is achieved after the actual action that you’ve taken. It is the end result and is the only function of the horse which stands after the jockey in our diagram. So think of your horses is a potentially damaging force, which, if contained and controlled properly, can bring you a reward in the form of positive emotion. But this reward is not necessary for us to survive, and we could in theory live without it and still be mentally satisfied at the end of our journey. In fact many take pleasure in the PROCESS of their work – when you are simply being content while the action is being taken. It is you giving a command to your horses and to the man in the carriage(the decision-maker) that they need to rest, nothing is required of them. Some talk about this feeling of inner peace, this meditative quality of the person when they are completely void of emotion, and are simply living the moment by taking a proper action without overthinking it, and without feeling fearful or doubtful about what they’re doing. And such quality can be seen and felt by others and referred to it as almost magnetic feeling of radiated self-confidence and inner power. So yes – it’s good to learn to be indifferent and unattached to your feelings, and to not overestimate your horses as something useful in this century, because it is not.
FEELINGS = More damage than good, serve no function, connected to your animal nature intended for self-preservation. Feelings = cannot always be fully understood, as they are deeply rooted in us as a very ancient and outmoded part of our operating systems. As I said earlier the only good feeling is a feeling of satisfaction. The feeling of joy that we feel however can be easily attained by going to a comedy club. Watching a TV show. Doing drugs. And doing a multitude of other things that are not really productive, and are NOT a reward as it should be, for completing a conscious effort. Think of it as getting paid for not doing any work at all. I am not saying that you should stop seeking pleasures in life or watch TV. But you could limit it and give it to yourself only when you truly deserve it. Think about it. Could you live without any pleasures in your life? Try, as an experiment, to live ONE DAY in your life without any pleasures at all.

Therefore, once again, feelings are overrated. Some who live their lives for attaining cheap pleasures are fooling themselves into being fulfilled. This is wrong in my mind. In truth, this is not happiness! Happiness lies in living your life actively and achieving a program / goal that your mind sets out to do. So Never think ; what will bring me happiness? What will bring me pleasure? It is the wrong way of thinking. Pleasure is not important. Joy is not a goal. Achieving is. And achieving is only possible with the help of:
1. Making a decision and utilizing your mental capacity.
2. Taking a physical action.
3. And lastly, making sure that the wild horses of your feelings are well contained/controlled. The best feeling is a NO feeling. Can we forbid ourselves to feel? Can we let ourselves feel only after a successful task completion, as it should be? Can we learn the power to at least harness our feelings so they don’t damage us? Try it! 🙂 Try “firing” your horses and keep good hold of your reigns on them.

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