Starting Wednesday next week I’m going to be adding a new element to my IG. Wallpaper Wednesday’s where I share a wallpaper I’ve made for you guys! So be sure to check my instastory every Wednesday! Don’t miss out!

Lilly hanging out with @buckatone_art character Midnight and @lena_skeezix character Skeezix, turned out kinda cooool. 😄 I know I haven't uploaded in a week but I've got plenty of art to upload the next few days 🌿🌿🌿

'look at me' digital artwork created using #autodesksketchbook
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Artist @osharedesigns
Osharedesigns.wordpress.com
Reference @a1_fleeky
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Quick sketch for practicing linework. I want to be confident drawing people so I am looking for a technique I am comfortable with. Got any tips for digitally drawing people? 🤔🤔🤔

So, evidently this is something different from what I normally post. I used to be a big advocate for expressing my emotions and struggles publicly, and I still greatly commend those who do. For me, it ended up leading to so many experiences where people threw it back at me, it started to become difficult for me to feel comfortable. I have been told I am “damaged goods”, therapy can’t even help me, I will live a miserable life, that my life is destined for suicide, etc. I suffer from OCD, C-PTSD (a complex form PTSD caused from extended periods of abuse), and severe anxiety. Because of this, some days can be difficult. Overstimulation is my middle name, and panic is my game. PTSD causes me to dissociate, sometimes to the point where my whole life feels like a dream. It can happen out of nowhere, from a dream (even if I don’t remember it upon waking), from a known trigger, or an unknown trigger. My triggers, known or not, can send me spiraling for multiple days. I had a breakdown caused by anxiety and triggered into PTSD a few days ago. During it, I felt so isolated. The oxygen in the room was thin, my vision was tunneled, my skin was filled with pins and needles. I wondered why I couldn’t just be normal. I will embrace my vulnerability to tell whoever needs to hear it that you aren’t alone. Yes, you have quirks that not everyone has, but it doesn’t make you less of a person. Yes, they aren’t “normal”, but they are experienced by so many other people aside from you. Don’t allow anyone to make you feel ostracized. Don’t let anyone make you feel lesser. You will have bad days, but it will pass and you will feel better. Life isn’t a flat plane, it is full of hills. You’re on your way up one, and once you get to the top, you’ll see the view and be happy you pushed through. Although you do have to work harder than everyone else, you are stronger because of it. You’ll always prevail. You are worthy. And most importantly, you are absolutely not alone.