"My daughter, I have seemed to misplaceInstead of my darling, I received a disgraceThe poor old stork, to bring me this girlShould retire his work, a shame on this worldLook at how she wishes she were,Watching the world grow up without herThe luck she bares is all but good"Listen and do, like proper girls should!"Where's her beauty and womanlike charm?All she has is an urge for self harmTo lose a daughter is a shame on its ownTo receive a disappointment brings disgrace to my homeIf returns were an option, I'd do it in a tickYet here she is and its making me sickCounting the days til she's out of my hairBut for now I'll keep acting like I care"

Dear Dad,will you still love me and think i am your little girl when another man has placed his hands on your princess,what will you think of me when my lip is trembling and i cant go to bed without checking the locks five times,if i was a son would you have taught me to never go out alone or to make sure i stay in sight of the street lamps,if i was a son would you still warn me to never go to college parties unless i had someone watching my every move, just in case,what if i told you i followed every single one of your rules to be safe but that didnt stop that guy from leaving marks all over me,dear dad do you love me if i am no longer the princess

Once upon a timeFar, far awayOnce upon a timeI was daddy's little girlOnce upon a time that was me

In my dreams I was daddy's little girl In my dreams he loved me In my dreams we did things together Like ran races, and jumped rope I can still feel the cold metal chains Of the swing in my hands But that's not real... Nope­.

It was once upon a timeOnce upon a dreamFar, far awayThat was me

In my dreams, I was daddy's little girl In my dreams he loved me In my dreams he took me placesLike ice cream shops and baseball games I can still hear the crack of the bat

He took me places like skating and Broadway playsNow what do you think of that?! But it's not real... Nope.

It was once upon a time Once upon a dream Far, far away Daddy's little girl

Here born a princessWithout titles or castles or jewelsWith no crowns nor grounds nor landsWith no treasures nor exposuresWith no prestige nor heritage nor lineageNot even a silver spoon in her mouth she should’ve brag aboutNot one subject or objectBut all the same, with a name as grandA celebration as loudShe’ll have the state-of-the-art carriages out of old tiresThe best ball gowns from the best-deal market faresShe’ll have the best accessible educationAnd only the kindest words spokenBut she’s a princess only in his mindAnd she should’ve known firsthandBecause there’s an invisible ladder she must climbNot any elegant staircases she can glide down fromWhen the real world greets her unceremoniouslyOne amongst the restOne among the manyRanked in between the real deal the richest the smartest and the fairestFairlyAs should be…Because she’s a princess only in his mindAnd she should’ve known firsthandThe hidden danger of a love bind

My heart feels broken into a million pieces... did you think about that Daddy before you stole my innocence.. Did you think about how this would affect me? Did you even care? How could you... how could you do this to me. Did I not matter? Did you think I just wouldn't remember. What if I didn't remember. Wouldn't you remember..? Wouldn't that break your own heart. It should. I was your little girl. You should of loved me, protected me, showed me my worth. Not hurt me & leave me with forever scars in my soul. My soul is bleeding... I bandaged up my wounds for as long as I could. Now I have to face it. My pain, my sadness, my anger. You made me fear trusting anyone & everyone. You betrayed my trust. You violated me. Was I not enough to spare such humiliation? What did I ever do to you. I was 5. You should of been my protector not my intruder. I feel sadness for you. Because you must not have peace within your own soul after doing that. Guess what Daddy.. I do matter. I will rise above this. I hope you know you broke my heart forever... I Pray God forgives you. I'm working on forgiving you. Through this pain I will find my strength. I don't want to make the world darker to anyone like you did to me... I want to shine light into everyone's darkness. Humans matter. I matter. I deserve peace & I'm going to find it. You poured lies into my heart that I was worthless and only worthy for my body. I'm much more than that. I matter. I fucking matter & I will rise above this ❤️️

if I often I had the choice to do or not do,I would not do;a stubborn bitchconcrete-set in routine.many are the days spentsprawling my gangly body in its entiretyalong the couch.mhmm, this lady is not for exertion."it's time you do something!all you do is sit arounddrawing, writing, readingand SLEEPING!" says mom."but I am doing something!" I say."nothing PRODUCTIVE!"reeling things off from the brain,I can't think of much I can do,but if there's one thing in particularI do excel at, it's fucking off.this prophet (yours truly) hasthe prescience of mind to foreseethese things.

9-13-17, 21:55 (not entirely pleased with it, but it's how it is. *shrug*)