Wednesday, September 12, 2012

(oh and random sidebar, a few people in the last week-ish have talked to me about my blog in real life and I'm always super awkward about it because ...I don't know...its like my personal ramblings...and my randomness.
and its not like you don't already know that I over analyze evvvvvvvvverything.

I want to put my thoughts out there. I feel like I need to. but I also just wish it could not be thrown back in my face for ANY reason.

I'm not here to hurt feelings or loose a job or damage future me's potential in any way.

But at the same time, this feels right. this feels like what I am supposed to do. what I've always done with my feelings. WHAT I DO

to other bloggers: do you struggle with this? this worry that your blog will have negative impacts to your real life?

See its so different though. there are less bloggers that share real and honest opinions and how they are really feeling and experiencing. Its just not what makes the money and I get that. totalllllly get it.
I really appreciate those that do though. thank you for letting me into your life.

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In fact, I've been toying with the idea of starting a less personal, more awesome links ...pictures ...recipes...pretty much everything this blog sometimes tries to be but fails.

I just always have to go back to the feeling stuff and its a different release. for a different market.
a different blog.

I'm sold. going to buy castor oil tomorrow. and new washcloths I guess.

But I really feel like this is my THING. my skin has wanted this for so long, it loooooves to be oily and doesn't like me to wash it. which is fine for like weekends at the cottage and camping haha but when I am out in the city all day and apply makeup in the morning (including powder) I just feel like I need to wash my face before bed. that washing it would still be better then not washing it.

but! cleaning it with oil? (and not just olive oil, thats wayyyy to thick for my skin) I'm sold.

(not even actually sold, this will be the cheapest skin care routine I've tried to date)

oh yeah. and time alone? lovely, just lovely.

3 comments:

It is such a weird thing when people talk about your blog in real life. I'm the same as you, few people know about it and I don't like, post it all over my Facebook or anything...or have a Facebook for it - that'd just be silly. But like, it's on my instagram profile thingy and my twitter so sometimes people just find out about it and then they want to talk about it and ask questions and stuff, and I just wanna say 'Dude, it's just where I post photos and write about...shit that I see on the internet' There's really nothing much to talk about IT. Ya know?

Anyway, I'd love if you had time to start a seperate blog. I love photos and such just as much as I love reading about your inner (hilarious) side-barry ramblings! And alright I also just love YOU so that helps maybe?!

How is school going? Write me an email sometime (if you have time of course) of updates on your life since I saw you last :)

"do you struggle with this? this worry that your blog will have negative impacts to your real life?"

not really because i only share my blog with close friends/zine friends, so family/work people can't find it. also....i have the inability to filter anything and i don't get embarrassed. I mean, i want people to read the stuff..... it's only impacted me negatively when i refresh obsessively to see if someone voted on Sweatpants 2012