It makes me want to cry a little to be making this post over a year after my last weekly stats report and to have gone back up the scale to cover ground I had already covered. Then I remember that I have lost 19 pounds since August 27th. I remember that I am not attempting to starve myself by eating too few calories in order to see a lower number on the scale. I am no longer counting points as if my life depended on it. I am now using points only to make the decision about whether or not I am going to buy something and bring it home. Then I feel pretty freaking proud.

I have had a hard week. I was eating WAY too little protein/iron during that special time of the month and it made me sick. I mean it knocked me on my ass. I didn't go to work for 2 days. If you knew me, you would know that is highly illogical. I only take vacation because they make me. So I have to up the protein for at least a week starting 3 days prior to the arrival. I have to eat actual meat vs. only veggie products (which I am completely in love with). This is the reality. I am no longer allowing the calendar to drive my weight loss goals. It is insane to put that much pressure on myself when I am already tacking the absolute toughest thing I have ever had to do - taking off 200 pounds worth of soul killing fat. So I am going to take care of myself and eat what I need to eat.

All of that said, I am down 2 pounds in a week that I saw only 2 workouts. I will take that and smile.

Oh Kimberly! I'm so glad you're back. Even if you did backslide when you were away, you kept up a loss of over 100 pounds. That's AMAZING and you should be proud of yourself for that. And you should be proud that you had the courage to come back to blogland and get back to work to lose even more.

Again, I'm just overjoyed to see your back. I also just got back not too long ago, and you were one of the people I was most sad to see wasn't around. I've always loved your writing, and I'm glad I'm going to get to read it again.

Honib1, thank you. It was a good week in that respect. I just felt like crap because I didn't take good enough care of myself.

Hadley, Hey! I do feel proud that I hadn't gone completely off the deep end - just enough to scare the bejeebus about of me. It is good to be back. I've missed blogland. And I saw that you are recently back too! Go us. LOL We may have stumbled, but we didn't quit. :)