Friday, April 8, 2011

we're counting down to p-ray's first birthday & for anyone else keeping track, the big day is in t minus eighteen days. in eighteen days my baby will have experienced 365 days of life. one trip around the sun. all four seasons. every holiday. all twelve months. and perhaps most importantly {to his dad at least} baseball, basketball, & football seasons.

but before all that, one year ago today, we were here. thirty-seven weeks pregnant, a belly that defied gravity, a back that felt like it belonged to a 90 year old woman, & a full-term baby boy tucked away inside getting stronger by the day.

the thought of being thirty-seven weeks & technically "full-term" was crazy exciting. it meant parker could be born any day & he wouldn't be a preemie. his vital organs were fully developed & at this point, he was just inside hanging out & getting fatter. which i was ok with because well, who doesn't love a fat baby?

one year ago today i was finishing his nursery, ordering his bedding, buying his sock monkey, & washing & folding all his tiny baby clothes. and now? he's spent a year sleeping on those sheets, he's been measured up against that sock monkey once a month twelve times, & he's outgrown all those teeny tiny baby clothes.

and he's become this silly little boy who greets me every morning with a smile & giggle & squeezes me around my neck when i pick him up out of his crib. who reaches out to me & says "mama" when i walk into a room. who has relied on me & sam to care for him every single day of his life.

and who likes to snuggle with me on the couch after i've been away at work for a day.

i've been ok with the last twelve months speeding by. but now? i want time to stop. now it is going way too fast & i feel like my baby isn't just changing anymore, he is disappearing.

so if someone could just tell me how to keep another twelve months from going by, i'd be much appreciated. thanks.

18 comments:

It does go by so fast. I'm starting to realize that babies turning into toddlers is like us approaching 30- you have to just embrace it or you'll be sad all the time. But I will tell you that you're only in for more fun. It's so cool to see their little personalities and funny quirks develop even more after age 1 :)

You said it so perfectly!! So sad..haha. You are sooo skinny w/that preggo belly! Insane I bet your back did hurt. OUCH! Happy Bday to your lil guy and Hope you guys have a very long year going forward!!

hate to tell ya but I felt like Kaylee went from one to two faster than the first year. She was just so fun and we really had a good routine down. Just enjoy it all right now because once he is up and walking he will be talking back, climbing up the jungle gym and not needing mommy as much anymore. ps..... I am almost as excited for Parker's big day as I am for mine!!! :)

I totally know how you felt with baby just wanted to stay inside getting fatter n fatter, my girls were born more than 4 kg. My suggestion you might not like, get another baby then you will have full time baby feeling again :-)))

That is so sweet:) You look great 37 weeks pregnant btw! I hope that I will look even 1/10 that good! I can't wait to have a little baby to wake up and cuddle with. Who to them, I am their everything. You inspire me girl! I hope you have a great weekend. {hopefully it is sunny and not raining!}

I know what you mean but you would not have it any other way...time just goes by - there is no stopping the clock. Like the song 'Turn Around' written by Harry Belafonte about a little daughter - which I experienced times four...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dTL-fwRsEdc&feature=related