Month: October 2018

Today MrH said it would be a rest day. “We have no deadlines,” he said, “so rest. I have things to do and you can rest.” I know I looked a bit crestfallen and he added, “I protect you- even from yourself.” He’s not wrong of course. I am my own worst enemy at times. Read More …

Things have been strange recently. I think D/s has become our normal/default setting and so in many ways the sparkly new shine it once had has gone. I don’t mean to suggest that I’m not content because I am – very much so. I still feel calmer and more settled than before. I am still Read More …

A few weeks ago I decided it was time for a change. I discussed it with MrH and at my next appointment my wonderful hairdresser helped me out. Gone is the blonde. I’ve embraced autumn 🍂 and gone for red. It’s washed out a little now, it was deliberately coloured darker so it could fade Read More …

They cancelled my hospital admission. I was supposed to be having the second procedure done in my spine on Monday… by today I would have been feeling better… by Friday I would have been, dare I say, finally pain free. At least my back wouldn’t be hurting. Instead I am waiting for them to call Read More …

Monogamy as defined by the Collins Dictionary is the “state or custom of having a sexual relationship with only one partner”. When I first asked MrH to consider adding BDSM into our relationship and we began the discussions outside play wasn’t talked about. Then we started chatting to a couple on line. Suddenly I didn’t Read More …

I’m in heaven….. Seriously. We got home 6 hours ago (it’s now 16:15) and I’m still floating on a high. The crash will not be pretty. But right now. Damn! I feel spectacular….. The day started well, MrH allowed me to suck his cock, then he used my pussy and gave me his cum. So, Read More …

You’ve had to work late tonight, some issue has come up and you’re not here. I feel desolate. Lonely. Alone. I’m not – our 20 year old son is home. But my body aches that you’re not here. A dear friend visited with gifts for my birthday. We chat and laugh. It helps. As soon Read More …

Triggers is a term that comes up frequently. “What triggers your sub space?” “What triggers your submissive mental space?” What triggers your dominance?” But triggers in this context can be hard to identify, but for me I define it as “a single or series of events that lead to an altered state of mental awareness.” Read More …

Over the last few weeks there have been a number of discussions between MrH and myself, about where we are, where we seem to be heading, and where we want to head. These have led to a few realisations that in fact we need to change direction because we are heading where we don’t want Read More …

I started to take part in Sinful Sunday as a way of challenging my negative body image. Despite having lost a lot of weight, I still struggle to accept that I might be attractive. The idea with Sinful Sunday, for me, was to see if that was a true statement. MrH tells me I am Read More …