why oh why

chilling at home bored with stuart everything is falling apart and i hate it. i know i have to stick it out and i have to be broke but it sucks i feel like i am not taking care of things the way i should be im a mother of two and im struggling gah. i just want everything to be good again and right now there is only one thing i dont feel i can handle and that is stuart. he is just so mean lately always asking for my opinion but when i give it its wrong or stupid. i hate that i have gotten to the point of where he is my topic of frustration. man i love him so much buti dont feel like he is ever going to love me.