-Today was a national holiday, so the streets were almost deserted. I didn't see the streets as I was sitting in the office all day, that was another deal. There wasn't many work to be done but I has to stay until 8.30, go figure....

-I'm watching Dexter from a little behind, I just finished the 4th season. The writers of Dexter, do you know how wicked and awful you are, don't you? What do you want from Dexter! By the way, though John Lithgow is a fantastic actor, in the face-off scene Michael C. Hall with his facial expressions is so much better than him. Poor Dexter:(((((((

-We have to deal with people who don't do a proper job at work nowadays (no names necessary), they just barely do the work sloppy and get the money. I don't understand, how can these people stay in the business? If someone ever says them anything, am I stupid trying to do everything nice and good? And if you can hear them, they do nothing wrong, in fact we are the ones who do the wrong things, they are these impudent!

-I have a new project in my mind for a while, but it will require at least one year of research I think and I cannot decide if I should just hold my breath and jump into it or not. But I think I will at the end, let's see how it goes....

Now, the aftermath; this year the awards are scattered between different shows, so there isn't any programs which got 10-15 awards. The comedy series that got the highest number of award is 'Modern Family' with 5 awards, and 'Mad Men' is the drama series with the highest number of award with 4 awards. Mini-series 'The Pacific' who got 8 awards and and Made For Television Movie 'Temple Grandin' with 7 awards are the winners of this year.

*None of the series except Glee are my favorite, but I watched all of them at least for an episode. I'm between Tinay Fey and Toni Colette, but I'll say Toni Colette. Tina Fey has too many Emmys anyway...

This list continues until the best opening title, so I'll leave it here (the rest has been decided anyway, you can see the winners if you're interested from here) Let's see how many from my favorites will win this year (by the way, the underlined comments are my favorites, not my predictions, just so you know)

Let's begin with today's ramblings shall we... As you may know, today is my day-off, meaning slacking off all day long. I slept until 10, watched t.v., drank wine with cheese and cleared my head. But let's start with today's topics:

Ok, even though it was only the second day, I didn't write anything yesterday. But people don't suppose to write everyday to their dairies right, sometimes they write it in the following morning (like me right now), or don't write at all, isn't it?

-The war becomes more and more brutal in Salam Pax's dairy, which unsettles me. In fact I think I'm very emotional nowadays, I'm sorry for the stray dogs, I feel sorry for children living on street, then I feel sorry for myself for feeling sorry. I watched in a schizophrenia documentary that one of schizophrenia's reason is not being able to block the negative sides of living in a big city. So....

-The work is as hectic as always. Work, work, work even on week-end... Actually I love what I do, but I have no time to spare for myself (and I need time for myself). If rarely I go home early (7.30 P.M.) I apply a beauty mask and consider myself lucky for spending time for myself! I constantly think of what I will do at night, should I watch t.v., a film or some series, read a book maybe? Then I come home at 8.30-9.30 and fall asleep at 10.30 (at the latest!). If I decide to go out with a friend, I sat and sleep with my eyes open. In short "All work and no fun makes Jack a dull guy"

-I saw a woman on the bus tonight. Oh la la, I never call myself over-dressed ever again.She has a short skirt in a weird green and black, a weirder green shirt that one ties from the belly (not only that tied shirts are so 80's, this was was sheer and it only covered the breasts, barely). Then she had 3 huge bracelets with beads and a huge plastic-one and huge necklaces (I counted 3). And the whole bus smelled like her perfume (which wasn't a light-one)

-Nowadays I read 'Salam Pax's Baghdad Diary'. He's a blogger (from blogspot) who started to write before the second Gulf War and continues it through the war. Right now, the war just started and it gives me chills to read it. In fact, when the war really happened, my mom banned me to watch t.v. as I watched the footage and cried my eyes out. Wars don't do me good (then they do no one any good). Probably everyone heard of him but me before, but if you don't, go read him, he is good.

Ok, that's all in my mind for tonight. I always start to write a diary then leave it in the middle, so I can't promise to write one regularly, but what do you think, can I write here regularly? Actually I want to keep a real diary, maybe if someone gives me one, I would feel obligated...

Which Sussy, you say. The gorgeous-one above, the fantasy, sub-conscious character of 'Giulietta degli Spiriti (and later of 8 1/2). On the one hand, she is trapped by her husband's infidelity, on the other hand by the world of the spirits, Giulietta finds refuge in her.

It's not clear enough? O.k. let me tell you this way. Giulietta is a housewife in the sixties, living in a beautiful house near to the beach, with her handsome husband, two maids and lots of clothes and jewelry. Her entourage and herself though that that's all it takes to be happy, but Giulietta starts to have friends and enemies from the other world through different psychics and to realize the real reason behind her husband's distance to her. Giulietta's sense of ethics is destroyed by his husband's infidelity, so she found her self ("by accident") on the doorstep of her decadent neighbor Sussy whose sex life is questionable at least.

The house is the fantasy house in 8 1/2, but this time the fantasy belongs to a woman. The house (or mansion has a floor-level covered with colored sainted glassed and veils with little corners for different fantasies, the second floor is covered by flowers and wild plants. Because the house is in repair, everything is scattered and the house doesn't have unity. The top floor is Sussy's "pleasure room". A round mirror is hung in the ceiling on top of a round satin bed and a slide goes directly to the poor from an oyster shaped enterance. This room especially has Greek motives, also Giulietta's suitor; Sussy's stepson, is the Adonis itself.

In fact, all the people in Sussy's entourage is like Dionysos' followers and Sussy is a true maenad. Like Dionysos' followers, Sussy also worships to pleasure and frenzy. In this way, Giulietta, with Sussy's help will find her true self without her husband.

The film is Fellini's try to understand women and if we consider that Giulietta Masina who plays Giulietta is Fellini's wife in real life and that their relationship was troubled at the time, we may also call it the film Felini tries to make amends and show ways to her wife for her to be happy.