Thursday, August 27, 2009

Checking In

Hello my lovelies!! I know I've been bad at getting around and checking out everyone's new posts and blogs, and I apologize. Life has been crazy busy as you can imagine. The new night/weekend job is going good. it's the polar opposite of my day job. It's relaxing, not to demanding, and I get to work with some great people that make it fun. The insurance office, the main/day job, has been insane the last month or two, and it's great that business is booming, but at the same time, with all the new business, it's hard to keep up the maintenance and regular day-to-day followup with all the existing business. Especially the filing (which I HATE! LOL). I'm hoping to get some extra before and after work hours in to clean it up a bit. It's driving me nuts!!

With working so much, it's been hard to keep up with what Liam's been up to. I've called on my breaks, and the internet is down at home, so I can't "Skype" with him, but they're starting up school soon, and I can't wait to hear about all his classes, and his club that his stepmom signed him up for called The Builders Club, in which they build little robots, and then compete in an age appropriate "Robot Wars" type setting. I think he'll enjoy it. I'm trying to get together a little care package together for him and his siblings, but I haven't had time to shop, and hopefully I can get it done this weekend and mailed off!!!

Today I dropped off our puppy Bear to a friend. With all the hours I'm working, I can't take care of him. I can't keep him out of his cage because he destroys and goes to the bathroom everywhere in the house, and I certainly don't want to keep him locked up in his cage all damn day, so it's a good fit. She has an older daughter, and two younger kids that have the time and energy to play with him. We still have Maddie dog and Shamrock, my kitty, and I'll still be able to visit Bear.

I don't have to work tonight (thank gawd!), so I'm gonna just settle in and watch "Sunshine Cleaning". I have a 15 hr day tomorrow, and then I work Saturday and Sunday night. Hopefully I'll get outta work on time Saturday, so I can head over to Crusher's parents for the little bonfire they're doing for his sister and dad's birthdays. I have Tues, Wed, Thurs nights off next week, so I might even be able to get a little karaoke in! Haven't been out in weeks. Haven't had time for the gym either, which I've been trying to figure out a schedule to that around my hours. It's been difficult, because when I DO have time off, there's so much to get done, and that gym is on the other side of town. Not sure what I'm going to do. Guess I'll have to figure that out.

I know I got the 2nd job for the money, but I think in a lot of ways I got it so I don't have to be home. Some days it's good, others, I just want to break down and cry. But it's all good. I'm moving on, and feeling better about myself again. It's amazing how events in your life make you change your views, how you look at things, and help you prioritize, while you watch others stay the same course, never put forth any effort, or that little extra, and know they are only setting themselves up for the same ol, same ol. That won't be me.

Tomorrow marks two years since my brother Mark took his own life. I've thought about him so much these past few weeks. I actually ASKED to work tomorrow night, because my thoughts are definitely not something I want to go out and drink with. Nothing bad... just not wanting to intoxicate my sorrow and make it 100x's worse, ya know? I love you Mark, and I just know you're out there somewhere, seeing how beautiful and all grown up Hannah looks. She's amazing Mark. Love and miss you bro.

Anywho, I'll try to get on and catch up with everyone when time allows. Have a kick ass weekend!!