Very often a living entity has performed pious acts in previous lives, which cause one to be attracted to transcendental, spiritual subjects. It is certainly possible that you are such a soul, that, having had previous spiritual activity but not yet reaching perfection, you are continuing on your spiritual path.

The human form of life is very precious and to come into contact with Krishna, even more rare. The soul who actually takes up the process seriously is even rarer still, and, finally, Krishna says that one who achieves perfection, sa mahatma sudurlabhah - "such a great soul is very rare."

So, if you can remain fixed in your determination and engage steadily in Krishna's service, you can achieve perfection - as you are already a rare soul.