THE FESTIVAL AT PANIHATI

Festival at Panihati  Different states of bhakti  Essence of the scriptures
 Ideal of the Gita  Nitya and Lila  Different forms of divine
manifestation  The ways of God are inscrutable  Body-consciousness
produces duality  Everything is possible for God  Maya is the
cause of ignorance  Different psychic centres  Master's visits to
various devotees  Dogmatism condemned  Oneness of God  Shallow
faith of the worldly-minded  Various classes of devotees  Signs
of God-vision  Knowledge and ignorance  Difficulty of the Vedantic
method  Charity and attachment  The three gunas  Nature of
Brahman cannot be described  Parable of the four friends  God and
religious organization  Two kinds of ego  Man's inordinate attachment
 Black complexion of the Divine Mother  Seeing God in
everything  Mystery of Divine Incarnation.

Monday, June 18, 1883

SRI RAMAKRISHNA had been invited to the
great religious festival at
Panihati, near Calcutta. This "Festival of the Flattened Rice" was
inaugurated by Raghunath Das, a disciple of Sri Chaitanya. It is said that
Raghunath used to run away from home, secretly practise his devotions, and
enjoy the bliss of spiritual ecstasy. One day Nityananda said to him: "Thief!
You run away from home and enjoy the love of God all alone. You hide it
from us. I shall punish you today. You must arrange a religious festival and
entertain the devotees with flattened rice." Since then the festival has been
annually celebrated at Panihati by the Vaishnavas. Thousands of the followers
of Sri Chaitanya participate in it. Its chief feature is the singing of the
names and glories of God, and the dancing of the devotees in religious
fervour. The centre of the festivity is the temple of Radha-Krishna, built on
the bank of the Ganges.

The Master had been invited to the festival by Mani Sen, who was the
custodian of the temple. Ram, M., Rakhal, Bhavanath, and a few other
disciples went with the Master in a carriage. On his way to Panihati Sri
Ramakrishna was in a light mood and joked with the youngsters. But as
soon as the carriage reached the place of the festival, the Master, to the
utter amazement of the devotees, shot into the crowd. He joined the kirtan
party of Navadvip Goswami, Mani Sen's guru, and danced, totally forgetting
the world. Every now and then he stood still in samadhi, carefully supported
by Navadvip Goswami for fear he might fall to the ground. Thousands of
devotees were gathered together for the festival. Wherever one looked there
was a forest of human heads. The crowd seemed to become infected by the
Master's divine fervour and swayed to and fro, chanting the name of God,
until the very air seemed to reverberate with it. Drums, cymbals, and other
instruments produced melodious sounds. The atmosphere became intense
with spiritual fervour. The devotees felt that Gauranga himself was being
manifested in the person of Sri Ramakrishna. Flowers were showered from
all sides on his feet and head. The shouting of the name of Hari was heard
even at a distance, like the rumbling of the ocean.

Sri Ramakrishna entered by turn into all the moods of ecstasy. In deep
samadhi he stood still, his face radiating a divine glow. In the state of partial
consciousness he danced, sometimes gently and sometimes with the vigour
of a lion. Again, regaining consciousness of the world, he sang, himself
leading the chorus:

Behold, the two brothers1
have come, who weep while chanting Hari's name,
The brothers who dance in ecstasy and make the world dance in His name!
Behold them, weeping themselves, and making the whole world weep as well,
The brothers who, in return for blows, offer to sinners Hari's love.
Behold them, drunk with Hari's love, who make the world drunk as well!
Behold, the two brothers have come, who once were Kanai and Balai of Braja,
They who would steal the butter out of the pots of the gopi maids.
Behold, the two have come, who shatter all the rules of caste,
Embracing everyone as brother, even the outcaste shunned by men;
Who lose themselves in Hari's name, making the whole world mad;
Who are none other than Hari Himself, and chant His hallowed name!
Behold them, who saved from their sinful ways the ruffians Jagai and Madhai,
2
They who cannot distinguish between a friend and an enemy!
Behold the two brothers, Gaur and Nitai, who come again to save mankind.

Again the Master sang:

See how all Nadia is shaking
Under the waves of Gauranga's love! . . .

The crowd, with the Master in the centre, surged toward the temple of
Radha-Krishna. Only a small number could enter. The rest stood outside
the portal and jostled with one another to have a look at Sri Ramakrishna. In
a mood of intoxication he began to dance in the courtyard of the shrine.
Every how and then his body stood transfixed in deep samadhi. Hundreds
of people around him shouted the name of God, and thousands outside
caught the strain and raised the cry with full-throated voices. The echo
travelled over the Ganges, striking a note in the hearts of people in the
boats on the holy river, and they too chanted the name of God.

When the kirtan was over, Mani Sen took Sri Ramakrishna and Navadvip
Goswami into a room and served them with refreshments. Afterwards Ram,
M., and the other devotees were also served with the prasad.

In the afternoon, the Master was sitting in Mani Sen's drawing-room with
the devotees. Navadvip was also near him. Mani offered the carriage hire to
Sri Ramakrishna. Pointing to Ram and the others, the Master said: "Why,
should they accept it from you? They earn money." He became engaged in
conversation with Navadvip.

MASTER: "Bhakti matured becomes bhava.
Next is mahabhava, then prema,
and last of all is the attainment of God. Gauranga experienced the states of
mahabhava and prema. When prema is awakened, a devotee completely
forgets the world; he also forgets his body, which is so dear to a man.
Gauranga experienced prema. He jumped into the ocean, thinking it to be
the Jamuna. The ordinary jiva does not experience mahabhava or prema. He
goes only as far as bhava. But Gauranga experienced all three states. Isn't
that so?"

NAVADVIP: "Yes, sir, that is true. The
inmost state, the semi-conscious state, and the conscious state."

MASTER: "In the inmost state he would
remain in samadhi, unconscious
of the outer world. In the semi-conscious state he could only dance. In the
conscious state he chanted the name of God."

Navadvip introduced his son to the Master. The young man was a student
of the scriptures. He saluted Sri Ramakrishna.

NAVADVIP: "He studies the scriptures at
home. Previously one hardly saw
a copy of the Vedas in this country. Max Mόller has translated them; so
people can now read these books."

MASTER: "Too much study of the scriptures
does more harm than good.
The important thing is to know the essence of the scriptures. After that, what
is the need of books? One should learn the essence and then dive deep in
order to realize God.

"The Divine Mother has revealed to me the essence of the Vedanta. It is
that Brahman alone is real and the world illusory. The essence of the Gita
is what you get by repeating the word ten times. The word becomes reversed.
It is then 'tagi', which refers to renunciation. The essence of the Gita is:
'O man, renounce everything and practise spiritual discipline for the realization
of God.'"

NAVADVIP: "But how can we persuade our
minds to renounce?"

MASTER: "You are a goswami. It is your duty
to officiate as priest in the
temple. You cannot renounce the world; otherwise, who would look after the
temple and its services? You have to renounce mentally.

"It is God Himself who has kept you in the world to set an example to
men. You may resolve in your mind a thousand times to renounce the world,
but you will not succeed. God has given you such a nature that you must
perform your worldly duties.

"Krishna said to Arjuna: 'What do you mean, you will not fight? By
your mere will you cannot desist from fighting. Your very nature will make
you fight.'"

At the mere mention of Krishna and Arjuna the Master went into samadhi.
In the twinkling of an eye his body became motionless and his eyeballs
transfixed, while his breathing could scarcely be noticed. At this sudden
transformation Navadvip and his son and the other devotees looked at the Master
in mute wonder.

Regaining partial consciousness, he said to Navadvip: "Yoga and bhoga.
You goswamis have both. Now your only duty is to call on God and pray
to Him sincerely: 'O God, I don't want the glories or Thy world-bewitching
maya. I want Thee alone!' God dwells in all beings, undoubtedly. That being
the case, who may be called His devotee? He who dwells in God, he who
has merged his mind and life and innermost soul in God."

The Master returned to the sense plane. Referring to his samadhi, he
said to Navadvip: "Some say that this state of mine is a disease. I say to
them, "How can one become unconscious by thinking of Him whose Consciousness
has made the whole world conscious?'"

Mani Sen said good-bye to the invited brahmins and Vaishnavas with
suitable gifts of money. He offered five rupees to Sri Ramakrishna. The latter
said that he could not possibly accept any money. But Mani insisted.
The Master then asked him in the name of his guru not to press him. Mani
requested him again to accept the offering. Sri Ramakrishna asked M., in
a distressed voice, whether he should take the money. The disciple made a
vehement protest and said, "No, sir. By no means."

Friends of Mani Sen gave the money to Rakhal, requesting him to buy
some mangoes and sweets for the Master. Sri Ramakrishna said to M.: "I
have definitely said to Mani that I would not accept the money. I feel free
now. But Rakhal has accepted it. His is now the responsibility."

Sri Ramakrishna, accompanied by the devotees, took a carriage to return
to Dakshineswar. They were going to pass the temple garden of Mati Seal
on the way. For a long time the Master had been asking M. to take him
to the reservoir in the garden in order that he might teach him how to meditate
on the formless God. There were tame fish in the reservoir. Nobody
harmed them. Visitors threw puffed rice and other bits of food into the water,
and the big fish came in swarms to eat the food. Fearlessly the fish swam in
the water and sported there joyously.

Coming to the reservoir, the Master said to M.: "Look at the fish. Meditating
on the formless God is like swimming joyfully like these fish, in the
Ocean of Bliss and Consciousness."

Monday, June 25, 1883

Sri Ramakrishna was at Balaram Bose's house in Calcutta. Rakhal and M
were seated near him. The Master was in ecstasy. He conversed with the
devotees in an abstracted mood.

MASTER: "Let me assure you that a man can
realize his Inner Self through
sincere prayer. But to the extent that he has the desire to 'enjoy worldly
objects, his vision of the Self becomes obstructed."

M: "Yes, sir. You always ask us to plunge into God."

MASTER (joyously): "Yes! That's it.
Let me tell you that the realization
of Self is possible for all, without any exception."

M: "That is true, sir. But God is the Doer. He works through different
beings in different ways, according to their capacity to manifest the Divine.
God gives to some full spiritual consciousness, and others He keeps in
ignorance."

MASTER: "No, that is not so. One should
pray to God with a longing
heart. God certainly listens to prayer if it is sincere. There is no doubt about
it."

A DEVOTEE: "Yes, sir. There is this
'I-consciousness' in us; therefore we must pray."

MASTER (to M.): "A man should reach
the Nitya, the Absolute, by following
the trail of the Lila, the Relative. It is like reaching the roof by the
stairs. After realizing the Absolute, he should climb down to the Relative and
live on that plane in the company of devotees, charging his mind with the
love of God; This is my final and most mature opinion.

"God has different forms, and He sports in different ways. He sports as
Isvara, deva, man, and the universe. In every age He descends to earth in
human form, as an Incarnation, to teach people love and devotion. There is
the instance of Chaitanya. One can taste devotion and love of God only
through His Incarnations. Infinite are the ways of God's play, but what I
need is love and devotion. I want only the milk. The milk comes through
the udder of the cow. The Incarnation is the udder."

Was Sri Ramakrishna hinting that he was an Incarnation of God? Did he
suggest that those who saw him saw God? Did he thus speak about himself
when speaking of Chaitanya?

It was a hot day in June 1883. Sri Ramakrishna was sitting on the steps
of the Siva temples in the temple garden. M. arrived with ice and other
offerings and sat down on the steps after saluting the Master.

MASTER (to M.): "The husband of Mani
Mallick's granddaughter was
here. He read in a book3
that God could not be said to be quite wise and
omniscient; otherwise, why should there be so much misery in the world? As
regards death, it would be much better to kill a man all at once, instead of
putting him through slow torture. Further, the author writes that if he
himself were the Creator, he would have created a better world."

M. listened to these words in surprise and made no comment.

MASTER (to M.): "Can a man ever
understand God's ways? I too think
of God sometimes as good and sometimes as bad. He has kept us deluded by
His great illusion. Sometimes He wakes us up and sometimes He keeps us
unconscious. One moment the ignorance disappears, and the next moment it
covers our mind. If you throw a brick-bat into a pond covered with moss,
you get a glimpse of the water. But a few moments later the moss comes
dancing back and covers the water.

"One is aware of pleasure and pain, birth and death, disease and grief,
as long as one is identified with the body. All these belong to the body alone,
and not to the Soul. After the death of the body, perhaps God carries one
to a better place. It is like the birth of the child after the pain of delivery.
Attaining Self-Knowledge, one looks on pleasure and pain, birth and death,
as a dream.

"How little we know! Can a one-seer pot hold ten seers of milk? If ever
a salt doll ventures into the ocean to measure its depth, it cannot come back
and give us the information. It melts into the water and disappears."

At dusk the evening service began in the different temples. The Master
was sitting on the small couch in his room, absorbed in contemplation of the
Divine Mother. Several devotees also were there. M. was going to spend the
night with the Master.

A little later Sri Ramakrishna began to talk to a devotee privately, on the
verandah north of his room. He said: "It is good to meditate in the small
hours of the morning and at dawn. One should also meditate daily after
dusk." He instructed the devotee about meditation on the Personal God and
on the Impersonal Reality.

After a time he sat on the semicircular porch west of his room. It was
about nine o'clock.

MASTER: "Those who come here will
certainly have all their doubts removed. What do you say?"

M: "That is true, sir."

A boat was moving in the Ganges, far away from the bank. The boatman
began to sing. The sound of his voice floating over the river reached the
Master's ears, and he went into a spiritual mood. The hair on his body stood
on end. He said to M., "Just feel my body." M. was greatly amazed. He
thought: "The Upanishads describe Brahman as permeating the universe and
the ether. Has that Brahman, as sound, touched the Master's body?"

After a time Sri Ramakrishna began to converse again.

MASTER: "Those who come here must have been
born with good tendencies. Isn't that true?"

M: "It is true, sir."

MASTER: "Adhar must have good tendencies."

M: "That goes without saying."

MASTER: "A guileless man easily realizes God.
There are two paths: the
path of righteousness and the path of wickedness. One should follow the path
of righteousness."

M: "That is true, sir. If a thread has a single fibre sticking out, it cannot
pass through the eye of a needle."

MASTER: "If a man finds a hair in the food
he is chewing, he spits out the entire morsel."

M: "But you say that the man who has realized God cannot be injured
by evil company. A blazing fire burns up even a plantain-tree."

Saturday, July 14, 1883

Sri Ramakrishna arrived at Adhar's house in Calcutta. Rakhal, M., and
other devotees were with the Master. Adhar had arranged to have Rajnarayan,
the famous singer, and his party, recite the Chandi.

Rajnarayan began the recital in the worship hall. He sang:

I have surrendered my soul at the fearless feet of the Mother;
Am I afraid of Death any more? . . .

As the Master listened, he became filled with divine fervour and joined the
musicians. Now and then he improvised an appropriate line. Suddenly he
went into samadhi and stood still.

The singer sang again:

Who is the Woman yonder who lights the field of battle?
Darker Her body gleams even than the darkest storm-cloud,
And from Her teeth there flash the lightning's blinding flames!
Dishevelled Her hair is flying behind as She rushes about,
Undaunted in this war between the gods and the demons.
Laughing Her terrible laugh, She slays the fleeing asuras,
And with Her dazzling flashes She bares the horror of war.

How beautiful on Her brow the drops of moisture appear!
About Her dense black hair the bees are buzzing in swarms;
The moon has veiled its face, beholding this Sea of Beauty.
Tell me, who can She be, this Sorceress? Wonder of wonders!
Siva Himself, like a corpse, lies vanquished at Her feet.
Kamalakanta has guessed who She is, with the elephant's gait;
She is none other than Kali, Mother of all the worlds.

Sri Ramakrishna was in deep samadhi.

Saturday, July 21, 1883

It was about four o'clock in the afternoon when Sri Ramakrishna, with
Ramlal and one or two other devotees, started from Dakshineswar for Calcutta
in a carriage. As the carriage passed the gate of the Kali temple, they
met M. coming on foot with four mangoes in his hand. The carriage stopped
and M. saluted the Master. Sri Ramakrishna was going to visit some of his
devotees in Calcutta.

MASTER (to M., with a smile): "Come
with us. We are going to Adhar's house."

M. got joyfully into the carriage. Having received an English education,
he did not believe in the tendencies inherited from previous births. But he
had admitted a few days before that it was on account of Adhar's good tendencies
from past births that he showed such great devotion to the Master. Later
on he had thought about this subject and had discovered that he was not
yet completely convinced about inherited tendencies. He had come to Dakshineshwar
that day to discuss the matter with Sri Ramakrishna.

MASTER: "Well, what do you think of Adhar?"

M: "He has great yearning for God."

MASTER: "Adhar, too, speaks very highly of you."

M. remained silent awhile and then began to speak of past tendencies.

M: "I haven't much faith in rebirth and inherited tendencies. Will that
in any way injure my devotion to God?"

MASTER: "It is enough to believe that all is
possible in God's creation.
Never allow the thought to cross your mind that your ideas are the only true
ones, and that those of others are false. Then God will explain everything.

"What can a man understand of God's activities? The facets of God's creation
are infinite. I do not try to understand God's actions at all. I have
heard that everything is possible in God's creation, and I always bear that
in mind. Therefore I do not give a thought to the world, but meditate on
God alone. Once Hanuman was asked, 'What day of the lunar month is it?'
Hanuman said: 'I don't know anything about the day of the month, the position
of the moon and stars, or any such things. I think of Rama alone.'

"Can one ever understand the work of God? He is so near; still it is not
possible for us to know Him. Balarama did not realize that Krishna was God."

M: "That is true, sir."

MASTER: "God has covered all with His
maya. He doesn't let us know
anything. Maya is 'woman and gold'. He who puts maya aside to see God,
can see Him. Once, when I was explaining God's actions to someone, God
suddenly showed me the lake at Kamarpukur. I saw a man removing the green
scum and drinking the water. The water was clear as crystal. God revealed
to me that Satchidananda is covered by the scum of maya. He who puts the
green scum aside can drink the water.

"Let me tell you a very secret experience. Once I had entered the wood
near the pine-grove, and was sitting there, when I had a vision of something
like the hidden door of a chamber. I couldn't see the inside of the chamber.
I tried to bore a hole in the door with a nail-knife, but did not succeed. As
I bored, the earth fell back into the hole and filled it. Then suddenly I made
a very big opening."

Uttering these words, the Master remained silent. After a time he said:
"These are very profound words. I feel as if someone were pressing my
mouth. ... I have seen with my own eyes that God dwells even in the
sexual organ. I saw Him once in the sexual intercourse of a dog and a bitch.

"The universe is conscious on account of the Consciousness of God. Sometimes
I find that this Consciousness wriggles about, as it were, even in small
fish."

The carriage came to the crossing at Shovabazar in Calcutta. The Master
continued, saying, "Sometimes I find that the universe is saturated with the
Consciousness of God, as the earth is soaked with water in the rainy season.

"Well, I see so many visions, but I never feel vain about them."

M. (with a smile): "That you should speak of vanity, sir!"

MASTER: "Upon my word, I don't feel vanity
even in the slightest degree."

M: "There once lived a man in Greece, Socrates by name. A voice from
heaven said that he was wise among men. Socrates was amazed at this revelation.
He meditated on it a long time in solitude and then realized its significance.
He said to his friends, 'I alone of all people have understood that I
do not know anything.' But every man believes he is wise. In reality all
are ignorant."

MASTER: "Now and then I think, 'What is it I
know that makes so many
people come to me?' Vaishnavcharan was a great pundit. He used to say to
me: 'I can find in the scriptures all the things you talk about. But do you
know why I come to you? I come to hear them from your mouth.'"

M: "All your words tally with the scriptures. Navadvip Goswami also said
that the other day at the festival at Panihati. You told us that day that by
repeating the word 'Gita' a number of times one reverses it and it becomes
'tagi', which refers to renunciation. Renunciation is the essence of the
Gita. Navadvip Goswami supported your statement from the grammatical
standpoint."

M: "God has created you with His own hands, whereas He has made
others by machine. All others He has created according to law."

MASTER (laughing, to Ramlal and the
other devotees): "Listen to what he is saying!"

Sri Ramakrishna laughed for some time, and said at last, "Really and truly
I have no pride  no, not even the slightest bit."

M: "Knowledge does us good in one respect at least; it makes us feel that
we do not know anything, that we are nothing."

MASTER: "Right you are! I am nothing. I am
nobody.

"Do you believe in English astronomy?"

M: "It is possible to make new discoveries by applying the laws of Western
astronomy. Observing the irregular movement of Uranus, the astronomers
looked through their telescopes and discovered Neptune shining in the sky.
They can also foretell eclipses."

MASTER: "Yes, that is so."

The carriage drove on. They were approaching Adhar's house. Sri Ramakrishna
said to M., "Dwell in the truth and you will certainly realize God."

M: "You said the other day to Navadvip Goswami: 'O God, I want Thee.
Please do not delude me with Thy world-bewitching maya. I want to realize
Thee.'"

MASTER: "Yes, one should be able to say
that from one's innermost soul."

Sri Ramakrishna arrived at Adhar's house and took a seat in the parlour.
Ramlal, Adhar, M., and the other devotees sat near him. Rakhal was staying
with his father in Calcutta.

MASTER (to Adhar): "Didn't you let
Rakhal know that I was coming?"

ADHAR: "Yes, sir. I have sent him word."

Finding that the Master was eager to see Rakhal, Adhar at once sent his
carriage to fetch him. Adhar had been yearning to see the Master that day,
but he had not definitely known that Sri Ramakrishna was coming.

ADHAR: "You haven't been here for a
long time. I prayed to God today that you might come. I even shed tears."

The Master was pleased and said with a smile, "You don't mean that!"

It was dusk and the lamps were lighted. Sri Ramakrishna saluted the
Divine Mother with folded hands and sat quietly absorbed in meditation.
Then he began to chant the names of God in his sweet voice: "Govinda!
Govinda! Satchidananda! Hari! Hari!" Every word he uttered showered nectar
on the ears of the devotees.

Ramlal sang in praise of Kali, the Divine Mother:

Thy name, I have heard, O Consort of Siva, is the destroyer of our fear,
And so on Thee I cast my burden: Save me! Save me, O kindly Mother!
Out of Thy womb the world is born, and Thou it is that dost pervade it.
Art Thou Kali? Art Thou Radha? Who can ever rightly say?
Mother, in every living creature Thou dost have Thy dwelling-place;
As Kundalini Thou dost live in the lotus of the Muladhara.
Above it lies the Svadhisthana, where the four-petalled lotus blooms;
There also Thou dost make Thy home, O mystic power of Kundalini,
In the four petals of that flower, and in Vajrasana's six petals.
At the navel is Manipura, the blue ten-petalled lotus flower;
Through the pathway of Sushumna, Thou dost ascend and enter there.
O Lady of the lotuses, in lotus blossoms Thou dost dwell!

Beyond them lies the Lake of Nectar, in the region of the heart,
Where the twelve-petalled lotus flower enchants the eye with scarlet flame.
When Thou dost open it, O Mother, touching it with Thy Lotus Feet,
The age-long darkness of the heart instantly scatters at Thy sight.
Above, in the throat, is the sixteen-petalled lotus flower, of smoky hue:
Within the petals of this flower there lies concealed a subtle space,
Transcending which, one sees at length the universe in Space dissolve.
And higher vet, between the eyebrows, blossoms the lotus of two petals,
Where the mind of man remains a prisoner and past controlling;
From this flower the mind desires to watch the sportive play of life.

Highest of all, within the head, the soul-enthralling centre is,
Where shines the thousand-petalled lotus, Mahadeva's dwelling-place.
Having ascended to His throne, O Spouse of Siva, sit beside Him!
Thou art the Primal Power, O Mother! She whose senses are controlled;
The yogis meditate on Thee as Uma, great Himalaya's daughter.
Thou who art the Power of Siva! Put to death my ceaseless cravings;
Grant that I never fall again into the ocean of this world.
Mother, Thou art the Primal Power, Thou the five cosmic principles;
Who can ever hope to know Thee, who art beyond all principles?
Only for Thy bhaktas' sake dost Thou assume Thy various forms;
But when Thy devotee's five senses merge in the five elements,
Mother, it is Thyself alone that he beholds as formless Truth.

As Ramlal sang the lines:

Above, in the throat, is the sixteen-petalled lotus flower, of smoky hue;
Within the petals of this flower there lies concealed a subtle space,
Transcending which, one sees at length the universe in Space dissolve,

the Master said to M.: "Listen. This is known as the vision of Satchidananda,
the Formless Brahman. The Kundalini, rising above the Visuddha chakra,
enables one to see everything as akasa."

M: "Yes, sir."

MASTER: "One attains the Absolute by going
beyond the universe and its
created beings conjured up by maya. By passing beyond the Nada one goes
into samadhi. By repeating 'Om' one goes beyond the Nada and attains
samadhi."

Adhar served Sri Ramakrishna with fruits and sweets. The Master left tor
Jadu Mallick's house.

Sri Ramakrishna entered the room in Jadu's house where the Divine
Mother was worshipped. He stood before the image, which had been decorated
with flowers, garlands, and sandal-paste, and which radiated a heavenly
beauty and splendour. Lights were burning before the pedestal. A priest was
seated before the image. The Master asked one of his companions to offer a
rupee in the shrine, according to the Hindu custom.

Sri Ramakrishna stood a long time with folded hands before the blissful
image, the devotees standing behind him. Gradually he went into samadhi,
his body becoming motionless and his eyes fixed.

With a long sigh he came back to the world of the senses and said, still
intoxicated with divine fervour, "Mother, good-bye." But he could not leave
the place. He remained standing there. Addressing Ramlal, he said: "Please
sing that song. Then I shall be all right."

Ramlal sang:

O Mother, Consort of Siva, Thou hast deluded this world. . . .

The Master went to the drawing-room with the devotees. Every now and
then he said, "O Mother, please dwell in my heart!" Jadu was sitting in the
drawing-room with his friends. The Master sat down, still in an ecstatic
mood, and sang:

Finishing the song, he said to Jadu, still in a state of divine fervour: "Well,
sir, what shall I sing? Shall I sing 'Mother, am I Thine eight-months child'?"
He sang:

Mother, am I Thine eight-months4
child? Thy red eyes cannot frighten me!
My riches are Thy Lotus Feet, which Siva holds upon His breast;
Yet, when I seek my heritage, I meet with excuses and delays.
A deed of gift I hold in my heart, attested by Thy Husband Siva;
I shall sue Thee, if I must, and with a single point shall win.
If Thou dost oppose me, Thou wilt learn what sort of mother's son I am.
This bitterly contested suit between the Mother and Her son 
What sport it is! says Ramprasad. I shall not cease tormenting Thee
Till Thou Thyself shall yield the fight and take me in Thine arms at last.

Coming down nearly to a normal state, the Master said, "I shall take some
of the Divine Mother's prasad." Then he ate a little of it.

Jadu Mallick was sitting near him with several friends, among whom were
a few of his flatterers.

MASTER (with a smile): "Well, why
do you keep these buffoons with you?"

JADU (with a smile): "Suppose they
are. Won't you redeem them?"

MASTER (smiling): "The water of the
Ganges cannot purify a wine-jar."

Jadu had promised the Master that he would arrange a recital of the Chandi
in his house. Some time had elapsed, but he bad not yet kept his promise.

MASTER: "Well, what about the recital of the
Chandi?"

JADU: "I have been busy with many things;
I haven't been able to arrange it."

MASTER: "How is that? A man gives his word
and doesn't take it back!
'The words of a man are like the tusks of the elephant: they come out but
do not go back.' A man must be true to his word. What do you say?"

JADU (with a smile): "You are
right."

MASTER: "You are a shrewd man. You do a thing
after much calculation.
You are like the brahmin who selects a cow that eats very little, supplies
plenty of dung, and gives much milk." (All laugh.)

After a time he said to Jadu: "I now understand your nature. It is half
warm and half cold. You are devoted to God and also to the world."

The Master and his devotees were served by Jadu with sweets and fruit,
and then the party left for the home of Khelat Ghosh.

Khelat Ghosh's house was a big mansion, but it looked deserted. As, the
Master entered the house he fell into an ecstatic mood. M., Ramlal, and a
few other devotees were with him. Their host was Khelat Ghosh's brother-in-law.
He was an old man, a Vaishnava. His body was stamped with the
name of God, according to the Vaishnava custom, and he carried in his hand
a small bag containing his rosary. He had visited the Master, now and then,
at Dakshineswar. But most of the Vaishnavas held narrow religious views;
they criticized the Vedantists and the followers of the Siva cult. Sri
Ramakrishna soon began to speak.

MASTER: "It is not good to feel that one's
own religion alone is true and
all others are false. God is one only, and not two. Different people call on
Him by different names: some as Allah, some as God, and others as Krishna,
Siva, and Brahman. It is like the water in a lake. Some drink it at one place
and call it 'jal', others at another place and call it 'pani', and still others at a
third place and call it 'water'. The Hindus call it 'jal', the Christians 'water',
and the Mussalmans 'pani'. But it is one and the same thing. Opinions are
but paths. Each religion is only a path leading to God, as rivers come from
different directions and ultimately become one in the one ocean.

"The Truth established in the Vedas, the Puranas, and the Tantras is but
one Satchidananda. In the Vedas It is called Brahman, in the Puranas It is
called Krishna, Rama, and so on, and in the Tantras It is called Siva. The
one Satchidananda is called Brahman, Krishna, and Siva."

The devotees were silent.

A VAISHNAVA DEVOTEE: "Sir, why should one
think of God at all?"

MASTER: "If a man really has that
knowledge5
then he is indeed liberated though living in a body.

"Not all, by any means, believe in God. They simply talk. The worldly-minded
have heard from someone that God exists and that everything happens
by His will; but it is not their inner belief.

"Do you know what a worldly man's idea of God is like? It is like the
children's swearing by God when they quarrel. They have heard the word
while listening to their elderly aunts quarrelling.

"Is it possible for all to comprehend God? God has created the good and
the bad, the devoted and the impious, the faithful and the sceptical. The
wonders that we see all exist in His creation. In one place there is more
manifestation of His Power, in another less. The sun's light is better reflected
by water than by earth, and still better by a mirror. Again, there are different
levels among the devotees of God: superior, mediocre, and inferior.
All this has been described in the Gita."

VAISHNAVA: "True, sir."

MASTER: "The inferior devotee says, 'God
exists, but He is very far off, up
there in heaven.' The mediocre devotee says, 'God exists in all beings as life
and consciousness.' The superior devotee says: 'It is God Himself who has
become everything; whatever I see is only a form of God. It is He alone who
has become maya, the universe, and all living beings. Nothing exists but
God.'"

VAISHNAVA: "Does anyone ever attain that state of
mind?"

MASTER: "One cannot attain it unless one
has seen God. But there are
signs that a man has had the vision of God. A man who has seen God sometimes
behaves like a madman: he laughs, weeps, dances, and sings. Sometimes
times he behaves like a child, a child five years old  guileless, generous,
without vanity, unattached to anything, not under the control of any of the
gunas, always blissful. Sometimes he behaves like a ghoul: he doesn't
differentiate between things pure and things impure; he sees no difference
between things clean and things unclean. And sometimes he is like an
inert thing, staring vacantly: he cannot do any work; he cannot strive for
anything."

Was the Master making a veiled reference to his own states of mind?

MASTER (to the Vaishnava devotee): "The
feeling of 'Thee and Thine'
is the outcome of Knowledge; 'I and mine' comes from ignorance. Knowledge
makes one feel: 'O God, Thou art the Doer and I am Thy instrument.
O God, to Thee belongs all  body, mind, house, family, living beings, and
the universe. All these are Thine. Nothing belongs to me.'

"An ignorant person says, 'Oh, God is there  very far off.' The man of
Knowledge knows that God is right here, very near, in the heart; that He
has assumed all forms and dwells in all hearts as their Inner Controller."

Sunday, July 22, 1883

Taking advantage of the holiday, many householder devotees visited Sri
Ramakrishna in his room at the Dakshineswar temple garden. The young
devotees, mostly students, generally came on week-days. Sometimes the
Master asked his intimate disciples to come on a Tuesday or a Saturday,
days that he considered very auspicious tor special religious instruction.
Adhar, Rakhal, and M. had come from Calcutta in a hired carriage.

Sri Ramakrishna had enjoyed a little rest after his midday meal. The
room had an atmosphere of purity and holiness. On the walls hung pictures
of gods and goddesses, among them one of Christ rescuing the drowning
Peter. Outside the room were plants laden with fragrant flowers, and the
Ganges could be seen flowing toward the south. The Master was seated on
the small couch, facing the north, and the devotees sat on mats and carpets
spread on the floor. All eyes were directed toward him. Mani Mallick, an
old Brahmo devotee about sixty-five years of age, came to pay his respects
to the Master. He had returned a few months earlier from a pilgrimage to
Benares and was recounting his experiences to Sri Ramakrishna.

MANI MALLICK:
"A monk whom I met in Benares said that no religious
experience is possible without the control of the sense-organs. Nothing
could be achieved by merely crying, 'God! God!'"

MASTER: "Do you understand the views of
teachers like him? According
to them, one must first practise spiritual discipline: self-restraint,
self-control, forbearance, and the like. Their aim is to attain Nirvana. They
are followers of Vedanta. They constantly discriminate, saying, 'Brahman
alone is real, and the world illusory.' But this is an extremely difficult path.
If the world is illusory, then you too are illusory. The teacher who gives
the instruction is equally illusory. His words, too, are as illusory as a dream.

"But this experience is beyond the reach of the ordinary man. Do you
know what it is like? If you burn camphor nothing remains. When wood
is burnt at least a little ash is left. Finally, after the last analysis, the
devotee goes into samadhi. Then he knows nothing whatsoever of 'I',
'you', or the universe.

"Padmalochan was a man of deep wisdom. He had great respect for me,
though at that time I constantly repeated the name of the Divine Mother.
He was the court pundit of the Maharaja of Burdwan. Once he came to
Calcutta and went to live in a garden house near Kamarhati. I felt a desire
to see him and sent Hriday there to learn if the pundit had any vanity.
I was told that he had none. Then I met him. Though a man of great
knowledge and scholarship, he began to weep on hearing me sing Ramprasad's
devotional songs. We talked together a long while; conversation
with nobody else gave me such satisfaction. He said to me, 'Give up the
desire tor the company of devotees; otherwise people of all sorts will come
to you and make you deviate from your spiritual ideal.' Once he entered into
a controversy, by correspondence, with Utshavananda, Vaishnavcharan's
guru. He told me an interesting incident. Once a meeting was called to
decide which of the two deities, Siva or Brahma, was the greater. Unable to
come to any decision, the pundits at last referred the matter to Padmalochan.
With characteristic guilelessness he said: 'How do I know? Neither I nor
any of my ancestors back to the fourteenth generation have seen Siva or
Brahma.' About the renunciation of 'woman and gold', he said to me one
day: 'Why have you given up those things? Such distinctions as "This is
money and that is clay" are the outcome of ignorance.' What could I say
to that? I replied: 'I don't know all these things, my dear sir. But for my
part, I cannot relish such things as money and the like.'

"There was a pundit who was tremendously vain. He did not believe
in the forms of God. But who can understand the inscrutable ways of the
Divine? God revealed Himself to him as the Primal Power. This vision
made the pundit unconscious for a long time. After regaining partial
consciousness he uttered only the sound 'Ka! Ka! Ka!' He could not fully
pronounce 'Kali'."

A DEVOTEE: "Sir, you met Pundit Vidyasagar.
What did you think of him?"

MASTER: "Vidyasagar has both scholarship
and charity, but he lacks inner
vision. Gold lies hidden within him. Had he but found it out, his activities
would have been reduced; finally they would have stopped altogether. Had
he but known that God resides in his heart, his mind would have been
directed to God in thought and meditation. Some persons must perform
selfless work a long time before they can practise dispassion and direct
their minds to the spiritual ideal and at last be absorbed in God.

"The activities that Vidyasagar is engaged in are good. Charity is very
noble. There is a great deal of difference between daya, compassion, and
maya, attachment. Daya is good, but not maya. Maya is love tor one's relatives
 one's wife, children, brother, sister, nephew, father, and mother. But
daya is the same love for all created beings without any distinction."

M: "Is daya also a bondage?"

MASTER: "Yes, it is. But that concept is
something far beyond the ordinary
man. Daya springs from sattva. Sattva preserves, rajas creates, and
tamas destroys. But Brahman is beyond the three gunas. It is beyond
Prakriti.

"None of the three gunas can reach Truth; they are like robbers, who
cannot come to a public place for fear of being arrested. Sattva, rajas, and
tamas are like so many robbers.

"Listen to a story. Once a man was going through a forest, when three
robbers fell upon him and robbed him of all his possessions. One of the
robbers said, "What's the use of keeping this man alive?' So saying, he was
about to kill him with his sword, when the second robber interrupted him,
saying: 'Oh, no! What is the use of killing him? Tie him hand and foot
and leave him here.' The robbers bound his hands and feet and went away.

After a while the third robber returned and said to the man: 'Ah, I am
sorry. Are you hurt? I will release you from your bonds.' After setting the
man free, the thief said; Come with me. I will take you to the public
highway.' After a long time they reached the road. Then the robber said:
'Follow this road. Over there is your house.' At this the man said: 'Sir,
you have been very good to me. Come with me to my house.' 'Oh, no!' the
robber replied. 'I can't go there. The police will know it.'

"This world itself is the forest. The three robbers prowling here are
sattva, rajas, and tamas. It is they that rob a man of the Knowledge of
Truth. Tamas wants to destroy him. Rajas binds him to the world. But
sattva rescues him from the clutches of rajas and tamas. Under the protection
of sattva, man is rescued from anger, passion, and the other evil
effects of tamas. Further, sattva loosens the bonds of the world. But sattva
also is a robber. It cannot give him the ultimate Knowledge of Truth, though
it shows him the road leading to the Supreme Abode of God. Setting him
on the path, sattva tells him: 'Look yonder. There is your home.' Even
sattva is far away from the Knowledge of Brahman.

"What Brahman is cannot be described. Even he who knows It cannot
talk about It. There is a saying that a boat, once reaching the 'black waters'
of the ocean, cannot come back.

"Once four friends, in the course of a walk, saw a place enclosed by a
wall. The wall was very high. They all became eager to know what was
inside. One of them climbed to the top of the wall. What he saw on looking
inside made him speechless with wonder. He only cried, 'Ah! Ah!' and
dropped in. He could not give any information about what he saw. The
others, too, climbed the wall, uttered the same cry, 'Ah! Ah!', and jumped
in. Now who could tell what was inside?

"Sages like Jadabharata and Dattatreya, after realizing Brahman, could
not describe It. A man's 'I' completely disappears when he goes into samadhi
after attaining the Knowledge of Brahman. That is why Ramprasad sang,
addressing his mind:

If you should find the task too hard,
Call upon Ramprasad for help.

The mind must completely merge itself in Knowledge. But that is not
enough. 'Ramprasad', that is, the principle of 'I', must vanish too. Then
alone does one get the Knowledge of Brahman."

A DEVOTEE: "Sir, is it possible then that
Sukadeva did not have the ultimate Knowledge?"

MASTER: "According to some people, Sukadeva
only saw and touched the
Ocean of Brahman; he did not dive into It. That is why he could return to
the world and impart religious instruction. According to others, he returned
to the world of name and form, after attaining the Knowledge of Brahman,.
for the purpose of teaching others. He had to recite the Bhagavata to King
Parikshit and had to teach people in various ways; therefore God did not
destroy his 'I' altogether. God kept in him the 'ego of Knowledge'."

DEVOTEE: "Can one keep up an organization
after attaining the Knowledge of Brahman?"

MASTER: "Once I talked to Keshab Sen about
the Knowledge of Brahman.
He asked me to explain it further. I said, 'If I proceed further, then you
won't be able to preserve your organization and following.' 'Then please
stop here!' replied Keshab. (All laugh.) But still I said to Keshab:
'"I" and "mine" indicate ignorance. Without ignorance one cannot have such a
feeling as "I am the doer; these are my wife, children, possessions, name and
fame".' Thereupon Keshab said, 'Sir, if one gave up the "I", nothing whatsoever
would remain.' I reassured him and said: 'I am not asking you to
give up all of the "I". You should give up only the "unripe, I". The "unripe
I" makes one feel: "I am the doer. These are my wife and children. I am
a teacher." Renounce this "unripe I" and keep the "ripe I", which will make
you feel that you are the servant of God, His devotee, and that God is the
Doer and you are His instrument.'"

DEVOTEE: "Can the 'ripe I' form an
organization?"

MASTER: "I said to Keshab Sen that the
'I' that says, 'I am a leader, I
have formed this party, I am teaching people', is the 'unripe I'. It is very
difficult to preach religion. It is not possible to do so without receiving the
commandment of God. The permission of God is necessary. Sukadeva had
a command from God to recite the Bhagavata. If, after realizing God, a man
gets His command and becomes a preacher or teacher, then that preaching
or teaching does no harm. His 'I' is not 'unripe'; it is 'ripe'.

"I asked Keshab to give up this 'unripe I'. The ego that feels, 'I am the
servant of God and lover of God' does not injure one. I said to him: 'You
have been constantly talking of your organization and your followers. But
people also go away from your organization.' Keshab answered: 'It is true,
sir. After staying in it several years, people go to another organization. What
is worse, on deserting me they abuse me right and left.' 'Why don't you
study their nature?' I said. 'Is there any good in making anybody and everybody
a disciple?'

"I said to Keshab further: 'You should accept the Divine Mother, the
Primal Energy. Brahman is not different from Its Sakti. What is Brahman
is also Sakti. As long as a man remains conscious of the body, he is conscious
of duality. It is only when a man tries to describe what he sees that he
finds duality.' Keshab later on recognized Kali.

"One day when Keshab was here with his disciples, I said to him that I
would like to hear him preach. He delivered a lecture in the chandni. Then
we all sat by the bathing-ghat and had a long conversation. I said to him;
'It is Bhagavan alone who in one form appears as bhakta, and in another as
the Bhagavata. Please repeat "Bhagavata  Bhakta  Bhagavan".' Keshab and
his disciples repeated the words. Then I asked him to repeat 'Guru  Krishna
 Vaishnava'. Thereupon Keshab said: 'Sir, I should not go so far now.
People will say that I have become an orthodox Hindu.'

"It is extremely difficult to go beyond the three gunas. One cannot reach
that state without having realized God. Man dwells in the realm of maya.
Maya does not permit him to see God. It has made him a victim of ignorance.

"Once Hriday brought a bull-calf here. I saw, one day, that he had tied
it with a rope in the garden, so that it might graze there. I asked him,
'Hriday, why do you tie the calf there every day?' 'Uncle,' he said, 'I am
going to send this calf to our village. When it grows strong I shall yoke it
to the plough.' As soon as I heard these words I was stunned to think: 'How
inscrutable is the play of the divine maya! Kamarpukur and Sihore
(Hriday's birth-place.) are so
far away from Calcutta! This poor calf must go all that way. Then it will
grow, and at length it will be yoked to the plough. This is indeed the
world! This is indeed maya!' I fell down unconscious. Only after a long time
did I regain consciousness."

It was three or four o'clock in the afternoon. M. found Sri Ramakrishna
seated on the couch in an abstracted mood. After some time he heard him
talking to the Divine Mother. The Master said, "O Mother, why hast Thou
given him only a particle?" Remaining silent a few moments, he added: "I
understand it, Mother. That little bit will be enough for him and will serve
Thy purpose. That little bit will enable him to teach people."

Did the Master thus transmit spiritual powers to his disciples? Did he
thus come to know that his disciples, after him, would go out into the world
as teachers of men?

Rakhal was in the room. Sri Ramakrishna was still in a state of partial
consciousness when he said to Rakhal: "You were angry with me, weren't
you? Do you know why I made you angry? There was a reason. Only then
would the medicine work. The surgeon first brings an abscess to a head.
Only then does he apply a herb so that it may burst and dry up."

After a pause he went on: "Yes, I have found Hazra to be like a piece
of dry wood. Then why does he live here? This has a meaning too. The
play is enlivened by the presence of trouble-makers like Jatila and Kutila.

(To M.) "One must accept the forms of God. Do you know the meaning
of the image of Jagaddhatri? She is the Bearer of the Universe. Without
Her support and protection the universe would fall from its place and be
destroyed. The Divine Mother, Jagaddhatri, reveals Herself in the heart of
one who can control the mind, which may be compared to an elephant."

RAKHAL: "The mind is a mad elephant."

MASTER: "Therefore the lion, the carrier of
the Divine Mother, keeps it under control."6
It was dusk. The evening service began in the temples. Sri Ramakrishna
was chanting the names of the gods and goddesses. He was seated on the
small couch, with folded hands, and became absorbed in contemplation of
the Divine Mother. The world outside was flooded with moonlight, and the
devotees inside the Master's room sat in silence and looked at his serene face.

In the mean time Govinda of Belgharia and some of his friends had entered
the room. Sri Ramakrishna was still in a semi-conscious state. After a few
minutes he said to the devotees: "Tell me your doubts. I shall explain
everything."

Govinda and the other devotees looked thoughtful.

GOVINDA: "Revered sir, why does the Divine Mother have a black
complexion?"7

MASTER: "You see Her as black because you
are far away from Her. Go
near and you will find Her devoid of all colour. The water of a lake appears
black from a distance. Go near and take the water in your hand, and you
will see that it has no colour at all. Similarly, the sky looks blue from a
distance. But look at the atmosphere near you; it has no colour. The nearer
you come to God, the more you will realize that He has neither name nor
form. If you move away from the Divine Mother, you will find Her blue,
like the grass-flower. Is Syama male or female? A man once saw the image
of the Divine Mother wearing a sacred thread.8
He said to the worshipper:
'What? You have put the sacred thread on the Mother's neck!' The worshipper
said: 'Brother, I see that you have truly known the Mother. But I
have not yet been able to find out whether She is male or female; that is
why I have put the sacred thread on Her image.'

"That which is Syama is also Brahman. That which has form, again, is
without form. That which has attributes, again, has no attributes. Brahman
is Sakti; Sakti is Brahman. They are not two. These are only two aspects,
male and female, of the same Reality, Existence-Knowledge-Bliss Absolute."

GOVINDA: "What is the meaning of 'yogamaya'?"

MASTER: "It signifies the yoga,
or union, of Purusha9
and Prakriti.10
Whatever you perceive in the universe is the outcome of this union. Take
the image of Siva and Kali. Kali stands on the bosom of Siva; Siva lies under
Her feet like a corpse; Kali looks at Siva. All this denotes the union of
Purusha and Prakriti. Purusha is inactive; therefore Siva lies on the ground
like a corpse. Prakriti performs all Her activities in conjunction with Purusha.
Thus She creates, preserves, and destroys. That is also the meaning of the
conjoined images of Radha and Krishna. On account of that union, again,
the images are slightly inclined toward each other.

"To denote this union, Sri Krishna wears a pearl in His nose, Radha a
blue stone in hers. Radha has a fair complexion, bright as the pearl. Sri
Krishna's is blue. For this reason Radha wears the blue stone. Further,
Krishna's apparel is yellow, and Radha's blue.

"Who is the best devotee of God? It is he who sees, after the realization
of Brahman, that God alone has become all living beings, the universe, and
the twenty-four cosmic principles. One must discriminate at first, saying
"Not this, not this', and reach the roof. After that one realizes that the steps
are made of the same materials as the roof, namely, brick, lime, and
brick-dust. The devotee realizes that it is Brahman alone that has become all
these  the living beings, the universe, and so on.

"Mere dry reasoning  I spit on it! I have no use for it! (The Master spits
on the ground.)
"Why should I make myself dry through mere reasoning? May I have
unalloyed love for the Lotus Feet of God as long as the consciousness of 'I'
and 'you' remains with me!

(To Govinda) "Sometimes I say, 'Thou art verily I, and I am verily
Thou.' Again I feel, 'Thou art Thou.' Then I do not find any trace of 'I'. It
is Sakti alone that becomes flesh as God Incarnate. According to one school
of thought, Rama and Krishna are but two waves in the Ocean of Absolute
Bliss and Consciousness.

"Chaitanya, Consciousness, is awakened after Advaita-jnana, the Knowledge
of the non-dual Brahman. Then one perceives that God alone exists
in all beings as Consciousness. After this realization comes Ananda, Bliss.
Advaita, Chaitanya, and Nityananda.11

(To M.) "Let me ask you not to disbelieve in the forms of God. Have
faith in God's forms. Meditate on that form of God which appeals to your
mind.

(To Govinda) "The fact is that one does not feel the longing to know or
see God as long as one wants to enjoy worldly objects. The child forgets
everything when he plays with his toys. Try to cajole him away from play
with a sweetmeat; you will not succeed. He will eat only a bit of it. When
he relishes neither the sweetmeat nor his play, then he says, 'I want to go
to my mother.' He doesn't care tor the sweetmeat any more. If a man whom
he doesn't know and has never seen says to the child, 'Come along; I shall
take you to your mother', the child follows him. The child will go with
anyone who will carry him to his mother.

"The soul becomes restless for God when one is through with the enjoyment
of worldly things. Then a person has only one thought  how to
realize God. He listens to whatever anyone says to him about God."

M. (to himself): "Alas! The soul becomes restless for God only when one
is through with the enjoyment of worldly things."

August 18, 1883

Sri Ramakrishna was at Balaram Bose's house in Calcutta. He was
explaining the mystery of Divine Incarnation to the devotees.

MASTER: "In order to bring people spiritual
knowledge, an Incarnation of
God lives in the world in the company of devotees, cherishing an attitude of
love for God. It is like going up and coming down the stairs after having
once reached the roof. In order to reach the roof, other people should follow
the path of devotion, as long as they have not attained Knowledge and
become free of desire. The roof can be reached only when all desires are
done away with. The shopkeeper does not go to bed before finishing his
accounts. He goes to sleep only when his accounts are finished.

(To M.) "A man will certainly succeed if he will take the plunge.
Success is sure for such a man.

"Well, what do you think of the worship conducted by Keshab, Shivanath,
and the other Brahmo leaders?"

M: "They are satisfied, as you say, with describing the garden, but they
seldom speak of seeing the Master of the garden. Describing the garden is
the beginning and end of their worship."

MASTER: "You are right. Our only duty is to
seek the Master of the
garden and speak to Him. The only purpose of life is to realize God."

Sri Ramakrishna then went to Adhar's house. After dusk he sang and
danced in Adhar's drawing-room. M., Rakhal, and other devotees were
present. After the music he sat down, still in an ecstatic mood. He said to
Rakhal: "This religious fervour
(Referring to himself)
is not like rain in the rainy season, which
comes in torrents and goes in torrents. It is like an image of Siva that has
not been set up by human hands but is a natural one that has sprung up, as
it were, from the bowels of the earth. The other day you left Dakshineswar
in a temper. I prayed to the Divine Mother to forgive you."

The Master was still in an abstracted mood and said to Adhar, "My son,
meditate on the Deity whose name you chanted." With these words he
touched Adhar's tongue with his finger and wrote something on it. Did
the Master thereby impart spirituality to Adhar?