'I don't think he ever loved me': Chantelle Houghton speaks of her heartbreak over Alex Reid… as she vows to quit comfort eating and slim down

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22:50 GMT, 16 October 2012

She had a considerably tough time in the wake of her break up from fianc Alex Reid.

But now Chantelle Houghton has revealed she believes her ex-partner never really loved her at all.

In her column in new! magazine the mother-of-one explained how she felt like an 'idiot' for never really knowing the cage fighter.

Tough time: Chantelle Houghton was pictured looking distraught in her car. She has revealed she believes Alex Reid never loved her

She said: 'I was in denial. I was having sleepless nights, had milking leaking from my boobs and thought that my partner loved me but I don't think he ever truly did.

She added: 'I can't help but feel utterly betrayed.'

Chantelle was seen enjoying a well-deserved pamper indulging in a pedicure on Monday and she is now determined to look after herself.

Dividing their assets: The pair were seen moving their things out of the home they used to share over the weekend

Spot of me time: Chantelle Houghton was seen treating herself to a pedicure yesterday. The reality star has revealed she doesn't think Alex ever loved her

The 29-year-old has embarked on a new fitness regime after struggling to lose the baby weight after the birth of her daughter Dolly four months ago and turning to comfort food in the wake of the split.

She explained: 'I'm having such a horrible time I just want to carry on comfort eating.'

But despite her bad luck Chantelle is now seeing a personal trainer two to three times a week.

Comfort eating: Despite wanting to turn to fatty foods Chantelle is embarking on a new fitness regime

She's the apple of their eye: Chantelle was seen on a shopping trip with her farther who was doting on her daughter Dolly today

The full column is in this week's issue of new! magazine

She said: 'I don't really have a target. I'd love to be back to a size 10 but I'd be happy with a 12. My body has changed so much that I'd feel happy just to not be so wobbly.'

On Sunday Chantelle and Alex were seen emptying out their former home together over the weekend and it was clear that some of the items raised questions over who they belonged to.

Alex was seen looking at a box of shoes, trying to decipher if the high heels were his or Chantelle's.

Alex and Chantelle began dating in May last year and became engaged last October.

The former Big Brother star, who divorced from Ordinary Boys singer Preston in 2007 announced she was pregnant with Reid's baby in November 2011.