Sunday, October 27, 2013

It's another midnight on another day. I am needing to go to sleep. Day 8 of the same headache. I think it is a migraine. I say that questionably, because I suffer from a few bad ones. And frankly, does it really matter which one I have? I mean it's there and it's annoying and it hurts. I am on my way to bed. I need to lie down now. I really like to lie down. I read a few pages of my book and then fall asleep.
I have come to the conclusion that my pain is caused from my sitting. I sit and I hurt. I need to stand and move. This however causes problems, because this adds to my overwhelming exhaustion. So winded, I move around stretching and moving, moving and stretching as I tend to household, motherly, and care giving duties ever longing to sit and rest because I am overwhelmingly sleepy. Back and forth my mind and body goes. Thrown in there is a mix of wonder and confusion. What was I thinking?? What was I just doing?? What is the season?? Wait... was I doing something else before I was doing this? and have I forgotten that thing? and is it ok that I have forgotten it? Yesterday my husband came home at lunch and asked me - "Do you want the coffee creamer in the microwave?"

Sleep, time, activities, thoughts, plans, night and day. These are just labels when I go through my life, at least as of lately. I am most certainly and do not want to by any means, to appear to be just labeling these events. All are remarkable in their own right. To me, however, the just don't come in any particular order.

Friday, October 25, 2013

I need to go on an artist retreat. I am feeling the need to dive deep into creative expression. I want to spend time with the creative side of my brain and let it flow instead of stopping it up and making it wait until I finish this and that. I craft on and off during the day and night. I craft and create at various events and in waiting rooms. I am known to have a craft in my hand at a stop light as well as in a line at the store. But I need time. I need time to close my eyes and really think about color and flow, texture and contrast, shadows and medium. I just don't take the time. I don't quiet myself for any length of time to be an artist. So... I need a retreat, a vacation from my problems, from myself. I need to get away from myself for awhile.

Friday, October 04, 2013

So it's that time again. I need to start preparing for my Cold Blooded Critters class. I start teaching it at the beginning of November. Wow, only a month to go. This year I am teaching about snakes, lizards and invertebrates. SO... I need to work on my power point, again. Seems like I am always tweaking that thing. The best part... I can't find my 130 slide power point flash drive! Now that just Sucks! So I need to really buckle down and get busy with things. I am working on visuals. My favorite idea is making a crocheted giant squids eye. I am also making a better reticulated python crocheted string. Boy, I also need to crochet a thread snake. sheesh. This blog wasn't suppose to stress me out! I better stop typing and get busy doing some of these things. K~