Friday, January 29, 2010

I know that many connections have been made about Twilight and Mormon theology, but have any been made about Twilight and gay men in the church? For those of you who have seen the movies or read the books you know that Edward and his "family" are "vegetarians" and they have committed to not give in to their vampire yearnings and not prey on humans. They keep their dark secret of being vampires from the rest of society while living among humans. Edward falls in love with Bella (a human) and tries not to let her know that he's a vampire. This is exactly how I feel with SGA. I want to live among the members of the church and not give in to my yearnings. I try so desperately to keep this part of me a secret. The vampires in Twilight wonder if they will eventually go to hell, even thought they are doing everything to live a better way. I know that I'm not going to hell, but I wonder about the degree of my own salvation. I often feel like my attempts to live a life that I believe to be right are a lost cause and I'm just going to end up hurting everyone around me. But just as the characters in Twilight, there is a glimmer of hope and a righteous struggle to go against my very nature. I wish there was a book or a movie about a gay married Mormon guy trying to live his faith against all odds. I wouldn't mind if Robert Pattinson played my part. Maybe a film like this would help members of the church understand our plight, and maybe even make us look cool.

I am currently reading Zenna Henderson's "Ingathering" which is a collection of her "People" novellas. I am wondering if Stephanie Myers was influenced by Zenna's works. Certainly, the MOHO community would find Ingathering very, very interesting.

Here is a link to a website about Zenna and her work http://www.adherents.com/lit/bk_Zenna.html

Your attempts to live a life that you believe is right is not a lost cause! You will be blessed for your efforts. I think you are making a huge sacrfice to not giving into SGA, just like the vampires in Twilight. (When I saw the movie I thought about the similarities myself between vampires and me dealing with SGA.)

I like your comparisons; I too saw many in the movie. I saw the "Wolf Pack" as perhaps those moho's who have accepted who and what they are. The wolf pack is out to do good, though all around judge them wrongly including the vampires who are in hiding and think they are destined to hell. Correct me if I'm wrong but I do not believe the Wolfs look upon themselves as damned? Interesting.

Yes it is true that one will be blessed for ones efforts to do what is right in the eyes of God but does that really mean not accepting SSA as a part of your life? Granted you are married and in my opinion that is what needs to keep you from male companionship not the idea that SSA is bad. Remember its just my personal opinion but it is food for thought.