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Monday, 24 September 2012

So I’ve been trying for ages to throw my
hair in a messy bun and have it look good. I have found the best way for me to
do this is to sleep with hair in said bun overnight for the messy look.

I rocked this look today, along with this
cute little dress I got ages ago but never wore until recently. I really like
this look. It’s feminine, but the boots and the hair give it the edge it needs.
The dress is very floaty though and was a nightmare to keep under control in
the blistering wind!

Dress: Marks and Spencer

Vest: Marks and Spencer

Cardigan: H&M

Tights: Boots

Boots
(I LOVE these!): Asos

Today was a bit of a sucky day and to be
honest, I can’t wait for this month to be over- October is FULL to the brim
with exciting things which I will no doubt tell you about as and when they
happen, but I seriously cannot wait for October!

Sunday, 16 September 2012

I’m currently in a state of happiness
because I’m watching Daria on VIVA, and I LOVE Daria! She is my heroine so
always watch and soak in her sarcastic words of wisdom when she’s on.

Just thought I’d share with you what I wore
on Friday. It’s very rare that I actually go to work looking professional,
smart or classy, so this is a gem. I bought this dress an age ago, but have
worn it only a handful of times. I don’t really do the whole smart look often,
but this dress caught my eye due to its fit- the pattern is pretty rad too.

Dress: Evans

Cardigan: South (via Very)

Scarf: M&S

Leggings: Savior (via
Very)

Shoes: Next

Oh, yesterday was my tattoo getting day!
It’s my very first tattoo and I love it. I was super scared once I was on the
table watching the needle getting ever closer to my skin; and it really hurt! I
was a brave little soldier though and didn’t cry or ought.

Anyways, here it is:

Thank you Rikki at 'London Tattoo' in Islington!

I wanted to get birds incorporated with the
stars, but I was very specific about the birds not being too big. The artist
said if I wanted them that small, she wouldn’t be able to do the birds in
detail- they’d look like random blobs of ink. I of course didn’t want that, so
now have a perfect excuse to get my second one ;p

Wednesday, 12 September 2012

I
went to watch the film 'Take this Waltz' tonight for the second time, and it
had me really thinking. I love films that force you to assess the way you live
your life and the way you choose to treat others; and it also reignited
something that I had been thinking about for a little while now.

The
film is based on a married couple, where the wife feels dissatisfied with her
life- including her marriage. She has a chance meeting with a guy, who makes
her feel like she has been re-energised, and struggles with whether or not to
commit to ultimate sin whilst in a monogamous relationship- to cheat or not to
cheat?

I
found the film a brutally honest portrayal of how we really are when it comes
to getting what we want- selfish/harsh/uncaring/unashamed and self absorbed. We
somehow need to feel like we have a multitude of options outside of our relationships,
we need to feel like if our current relationship doesn't work out, we have a
choice of people to fill the gap.

Why?

Is due to a lack of self-esteem? Noone wants to feel undesired right? Even if in turn it makes
the person we are in a relationship with feel like they'll never be enough or
good enough. Of course I'm purely speaking about relationships which are
monogamous. There are countless ways to describe relationships these days:
monogamous, open, swing, friends with benefits, long distance, relationships
without commitment; just to name a few. But it's the monogamy that gets me. If
two people have decided on an alternative relationship, there is no issue
because they are both on the same page and know where they stand in that regard;
but if they have chosen "that"
kind of commitment to only be with one person, there surely needs to be a clear
and basic level of respect. I'm seeing more and more people messing with others
for their own selfish needs. Whether it be for attention/ an unashamed ego
boost....all these things are so incredibly detrimental to a monogamous relationship
that they have chosen to be in.

The
film shows the wife develop and build a relationship with the new guy and it
had me thinking about what I consider cheating. There doesn’t have to be a kiss
for infidelity, there doesn’t need to be sex for infidelity- if anything, it’s
the emotional connection that can be the most damaging of things. Anyone can
have a kiss or have sex, but choosing to have an emotional connection and
pursue that connection with someone other than your partner, can certainly be
perceived as far worse - the ultimate betrayal.

It’s
kindness to end things and let that person find someone who wants only them.

I
understand the want to feel euphoric, but there is the risk of constantly
grasping for someone else because we think that's what we need to feel like we're
moving- but euphoria never lasts. There is a huge difference between being
content with what we have and settling for something we’re not happy with deep
down….

This
kind of "love" is temporary. We'd all like to think that love at
first sight is based on something more than simple physical attraction. We
always hark back to the good times in past relationships while forgetting the
very things that made that person an ex. We'd all like to think that
relationships should be fireworks and adventure....

But
I don't want that kind of love. I want the good and the bad, I want the rough and
the smooth. A quote I found on Tumblr, describes what I consider the perfect
relationship: "I just want you, that's it. All your flaws, mistakes,
smiles, giggles, jokes, sarcasm. Everything." Because none of us are
perfect. We all have our lives and selves to deal with, but hope to one day
find someone who will take all of us for who we are.

I
don't want something temporary. I want something real.....

Another
quote from the film (although not word for word as I can’t remember it in full)
which I think’s great: “Life has a gap in it, it always does, and you’re an
idiot trying to search for something to fill it like some lunatic”.

This
is what I mean about contentment and settling. We watch movies and read books
about others living these exciting lives and feel that we should be doing the
same. So the feeling of contentment is often replaced with unfair contempt for
our partner- "another night in front of the telly? We should be having
wild sex somewhere or jumping out of a plane!" We feel the routine of life
isn't enough, we need more excitement, more dare, more everything! We're afraid
to be content and therefore convince ourselves that we're settling. It usually
results in making an impulse decision, and losing the very thing we wanted all
along.

Maybe
we just need to be a bit more open to having a "boring" life. The way
someone lives their life is incredibly subjective anyway.....or maybe I'm just
being an old fart and should "get with the times!"

But
I'm unwavering on the issue of respect. No matter what kind of relationship we
are in, do we want our partner to constantly be looking over their shoulder in
fear that we’re eying up someone else? We wouldn't want that for ourselves. All
relationships whether family, friend or partner based, always start with the
basics, but the basics are so easy to forget when it comes to our own
selfishness - we become blind to it.

Another
great quote I came across a little while ago, is perfect for this post:
"never make a permanent decision based on temporary feelings". How
bliss is that?!

We
do only get one life, and we should do what makes us happy, but at the cost of
hurting someone we claim to love?

I'm
not going to tell you what happens in the film, but suffice to say, when you
think you get what you want, after that “shine” has gone….you will undoubtedly
find yourself realising the grass isn’t greener. By then though, it’ll be too
late.