Inside Cry

This is not what I want I desire to grow.
Slides of depression, still my love I’ll bestow.

Feelings of insecurity, uncertainty, come as no shock.
Not running into our love, but slowly we’d walk.
I know we have changed, it can’t be the same,
Loveless, hopeless. Yes I am the one to blame

Misconstrued feelings and painfully, an altered heart,
you think I don’t care for you, that it’s hate I impart?
I more than wholly love you for you
Emotions I have held true
And this I can prove.
If able to be done, this barrier, removed.

I love you more now than ever I could.
What you wanted from me, I misunderstood.
It’s the worst that could happen when you suddenly left,
living in love... fruitless, bereft.

If you weren’t with me in this life and the after,
my heart still you have captured.
And I’m trying not to cry,
because I care so much for you,
without you what will I do?