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Can’t be unseen….

A nurse came to speak with me. After we talked about work stuff, we kept talking. I don’t know how it happened, but she began to tell me about some crazy/strange/freaky movies she’s seen.

One was about a crazy doctor who wants to make a human centipede.

If you’ve seen this movie, you understand and probably don’t have to read any further. If you don’t know what I’m talking about…… DON’T watch it.

Don’t.

But, if you’re like me….. you will listen in disgusted fascination to her synopsis of the film…. you will make disgusted faces at the appropriate times. You will say “That’s disgusting!” And you will mean it.

But then you will find yourself at 2am on a Saturday night/Sunday morning with everyone asleep in the house…bored…not tired…and think to yourself, “Hey, let’s just see what that movie is all about….”

And you will rent it from Amazon because you forgot to check and see if it’s free on Netflix, wondering why you are PAYING for this trash. And you will watch it. Immediately realizing it is beyond disgusting. It is more than creepy. It is psychologically damaging. And yet, you are compelled to watch the whole thing…praying at one point that the girl gets away, that she just drops her friend and runs, that the doctor realizes what a freak he is, that no one survives the surgery….. although you know none of your prayers will come true.

And as events unfold, becoming more and more disturbing, you want to stop watching but now you HAVE to know how it ends.

Finally….. close to 4am, you find yourself exhausted, horrified, and you want to take off the top of your head and scrub out the filth that has just collected there. And you know, with certainty, you will never forget what you’ve just seen.

It’s been a couple days, I’m trying to distance myself from that experience. Of course the more you want to forget something….

It keeps popping into my head, and I can’t complain to my husband about how gross I feel because he would just blame me for watching it in the first place. He’s right!!

And so I went to work today, saw that nurse. Told her I watched the movie, and she asked me if I’d watched part 2 yet. I think there might be something wrong with her. And me….because I am now wondering if I need to watch it just to stop myself from wondering what in the world could happen in part 2?????