My Daily Jabberings

I rang my parents!!! It is such a weight off my mind. They seemed happy for me. Mum is a bit worried that Arthur could turn out to be a weirdo and stuff, but they wont think that when they have met him.

So, I managed to venture out the house today, yay!! Managed to wander for a bit, and then sit and read my book. It was nice to just be out. Im shattered now though, and have collapsed on the sofa - where I will probably stay all evening at this rate.

I spent this morning sorting out a lot of notes. I still have all my undergrad stuff - but I managed to condense it down quite considerably. Needless to say thank goodness its bin day tomorrow.

In other news I am SO hungry. Tomorrow is pay day and I can not wait to finally get some food! I still can not believe that although I have barely afforded to eat for the past 6 months, I am still overweight. As if im not depressed enough already, my doctor has to go and add that to my troubles. I was actually really shocked when I converted what I weighed on the scales into stones.....I weigh as much as I did when I started dieting three years ago! And yet, I am three dress sizes smaller....Maybe its all muscle. Or water rentention from my stupid drugs. Grrr. So it would appear the dieting will start again - if I ever get healthy enough. I have 13 months until I am a bridesmaid so thats do-able. But then again I shall have graduation somewhere in all that. Argh I give up!

Oh and I want to go to a gig...its been far too long. The last band I saw were Keane, which was cool...if a little mellow. When I consider all the bands that are in the UK this year....I want to win the lottery damn it!!!

Im so tired now, but it was so much fun! Only James could book our hotel so that it was in the Red Light District! It was a really great week, and our hotel/apartment meant that we could all hang out together - it even had double beds....considering we were expecting mattresses on the floor and sewage all over the place - thanks to all the reviews..we did all right for ourselves/

We did all the normal touristy things...double decker train, trams, Van Gogh Museum, Anne Frank's house, Pedal boats, walks along the canal, pubs, clubs, stip joints, live sex shows (for some more than others!) We roamed around Amsterdam until 4 in the morning on the second day....I really did not get much sleep. The weather was nice and sunny...although my sun burn from Thorpe Park is only just dying away....but in Amsterdam the pain soon went away ;-)

I shall upload photos at some stage for those who wish to see them! Got to go to bed now...will update more accurately and less disjointedly another day.

Im quite tired, and dont know what to do with myself. It is my day off, and yet I dont want to waste it writing essays. On the other hand, when I'm not doing them I feel guilty. Its a vicious circle!

We have some DVDs due back at Blockbusters, but James is too ill to drive there, and Im not particularly sure that I want to walk on the way just to drop off some films. Its not a particularly nice walk! On the other hand, it would get me out of the house, would wake me up slightly and I would feel like I had done something slightly more productive with my day, then just sitting at home.

its times like this that I wish I could drive or something. Just to get out of canterbury for a few hours, to see and do something different. Take my mind off a few things.

Well, I got some bad news. My uncle's dad died. The bizarre thing being, I knew him more than I know my uncle - as he only lived up my road. I used to see him in the mornings on the way to school, and walk down the road with him as he went to buy his newspaper, or see him in his garden on the way to work at weekends. Its weird - he had a heart attack in his sleep. He was the most active elderly person I knew. He was pretty much his wife's carer, he was so generous with his time - he would do anything for anyone. So unexpected.

Im slowing down...I have been working since 9.00 and now seem to be suffering a writers block on all of my essays. Grr, I hate this. Not sure where to go from here.

Con and Ad - the essay is only about halfway done. Still waiting on a book from the library. Obs2 is sort of finished - it just needs A LOT of reshaping etc etc. Psychology - I made a pretty good start on this morning.

Now my brain has just stopped. And is processing a load of other thoughts instead.

I had a semi productive day yesterday but I do not feel too guilty. Semi productive is much better than none! Went for a nice walk in the afternoon and I think we ended up walking further than we realised, but it was a nice relaxing few hours. Guides in the evening was very glittery. And it was one of the finest types of glitters that you could get, and the girls seemed intent on clapping their hands together to see how much glitter they could get over me!! We made lots of cards for our stall at the Crocus walk so that should get us some money.

Watched a film and had chinese with the boys when I got in last night. Very bad I know. ((Diet starts again today!)) But they had been waiting for me to get in to eat, just so they could ask me if i wanted to join them, so I couldnt really say no. It was nice, and we enjoyed that whilst they let me watch Desperate Housewives, and then we watched a film on the Manson family - which I found weird but interesting. Not a good film as such, but kinda informative - it tells you so much more than the text books.

In other news, I am definitely going to Amsterdam at the end of May, which I am excited about. There is a group of 17 of us going, and some more still to confirm. It will be a nice way to celebrate James' Birthday (which is why we are going), and to end the year. Considering most of the people who are going are graduating this summer, it will also be a nice way for them to end. As Steven and I had to shift our own holiday dates around, we will also be staying out there for longer, and doing our own thing. Slightly earlier than we intended, but this way we get the best of both worlds!

I havent updated in a week or so, because I have not really done much, but on the other hand I feel like I have been really busy. The rest of last week involved much of the same, Guide stuff and essay writing, and then working at the weekend.

On saturday I went to a "shindig" at a friends house after work. We werent really planning on going, but we talked ourselves into it. It turned out to be a fun night. Although Simon found out how ticklish I am. And we all found out that James is very very ticklish, and shrieks when tickled. Didnt know too many people there, so a lot of time was spent in Mark's bedroom (just me and the guys) chatting, listening to music etc. His housemate told him off so we ended up going in the other room for the rest of the evening. There were a few arguments, and punching of walls. Watching drunk people argue is funny! Didnt go to bed until about 4 and then had to get up for work really early!

This week has been rather nondescript. I have made headway on my essays, and after speaking to the girls on my course, I feel a bit better - I think im more organised then them. And we are all supposed to be going to the venue next wednesday for Freya's 21st - not sure what im going to do about Guides....

Then last night I went to an Ann Summers party with Amy. It was good fun, and the other girls were drinking wine, and a couple of them even turned up tipsy, so they only progressed to being noisier! The raffle was fun. Amy and I both won prizes - although at the end of the initial round, I ended up with all three prizes! I got to keep one though. I *may* have spent some money. But its all good. I need a little treat before exams. And then I showed Steven the catalogue, and...I may be getting a present! But he did also give me some money to spend there last night, so I shan't force the issue. Hehe. He is lovely though.

Guides tonight. Trading game I think. And then Desperate Housewives. Must ring Eavann.

Am i a good girlfriend/housemate, or not? Steven and James went out last night, and I had a quiet night in, watching films, reading etc. It got to about 1 o clock, and they had decided to leave where they were...only to realise both were quite drunk. James couldnt even walk straight, and Steven was having trouble preventing James from hitting things etc etc.

So me being me, wanting to make sure that they were home safely, went to meet them. I ran to Westgate in 10 minutes, and found them. James was in the road, and Steven was carrying a traffic cone. It was rather a sight. I proceeded to drag James out of the road, and we began to walk home. He wanted to hit signs and lamp posts all the time, and Steven was wandering off with his traffic cone. (I swear we had a thing about traffic cones when we were at college but I can not remember what, or why? Wendy? Gemma?)

James thought the road looked quite comfortable to lie down in, but I managed to prevent him from doing so. Anyway, it was a very slow walk home. Steven refused to put the traffic cone down, and further on our way, we had a police car stop. It drove past us, and then reversed at high speed, wound down the window, and told us "not to be silly". I bet they never do anything silly when they are drunk! Anyway, I got them home. It took about an hour!! Various other things happened. Once we were nearing home, Steven's alcohol content began to kick in, so I had to escort him as well. I thought he was going to fall down a large slope at one point. So there was me, almost carrying the pair of them. I got bashed over the head by the traffic cone, as Steven still wouldnt put it down!

Once we got home, it was somewhere about 2 o clock. They went to bed, or fell unconscious. But James had said that they had lost Sam, and I knew that he didnt have his phone, so I text Becky explaining that the boys had left over an hour and a half ago, and I had no idea if Sam had left with them. Sam wasnt home yet, so instead of safely checking up on Sam, I had worried Becky. Needless to say, we kept in contact - she went out to find him, and it turned out that he had only just left with the other guys that were there! I feel a bit mean for worrying her, but I was worried about Sam, knowing what the boys were like. And they had said that he had left with them...

So, I finally went to bed about 3.30/4 o clock. So much for a quiet night in!!

But, It also got me to thinking....how the hell do we get home when we are all drunk?

Im contemplating giving up for the day. I have been working quite hard, doing various research for my essays. Ive got to a point now where I am not really interested in the materials. If I give up now, I can go to campus and use the library in the morning I think. I have been working since 9 and I did the same yesterday. Which is actually quite a lot considering these essays arent due in for another three and half weeks. I just want to get them all out of the way so that I can concentrate on revision.

I may do some other work. Having said that, the boys may be going to the pub tonight, in which case, I may have a quiet girly night in. I was listening to the Dirty Dancing soundtrack earlier, so may watch that and just generally relax. Lets face it, its going to be a while before I can do that again. James is definitely going out, and if Steven doesnt, it would be nice to just spend a relaxing evening with him.

Im really quite glad I gave up alcohol, chocolate, and pizza for lent...otherwise, im in the kinda mood to go eat loads..which would definitely ruin my diet! Im encountering various things that are going to prove difficult though. I have an Ann Summers party to go to next tuesday, Beth's 21st later on in the month, my sisters 18th (I cant figure out whether I will be able to drink by then or not!). Not that I rely on alcohol or chocolate. It will just be weird.

As a result of the strike, my normal tuesday being 9-6 (literally!) has been cut down to 11-1. And that 11 - 1 is literally finishing off the slides from last week. So it would appear therefore, that I only have two hours on campus this week...

I get an extra day for all my essays I guess! And its not as if I had prepared the seminar work that I thought I had, because my lecturer seemed the type to support the strike. He only just emailed, so I would be pretty pissed off if I had prepared it only to find out that it wasnt on. Go me for thinking ahead!

I thought that I would update this thing as I rarely get the time to do so. The only reason I am doing so now is because I am ill. I finished work at two today and had planned to start work on an essay, but I just have no energy. I have been in bed since I got in from work. So yeah...fingers crossed Ill feel a bit better tomorrow. Though this feels more like flu than a cold.

In other news I have been doing quite a lot this week what with one thing and another. Nothing too special though. This next week is going to be quite hectic as well. I have a meeting tomorrow night, and another on wednesday with regards to my gold DofE expedition. It would be good if I can get that sorted. I did say that i wanted to do it this summer. I was supposed to be going to circuit training tomorrow also, but if climbing the stairs means that I faint at the moment...I dont think its going to be happening. Which is a shame.

I figured out who I am working with and what I am doing for my final year project. We even have a supervisor sorted out, so thats one less thing to worry about. I think thats about it for now, nothing out of the ordinary is happening to me. I could do with some money though.

Well,the weekend went ok - without that big a disaster. Having said that one of the twins had to go to hopsital, and the oven stopped working so we couldnt cook christmas dinner! And the girls were left waiting for lunch until 4 in the afternoon. They were very good though. I had a good time. I dont know if Im getting my licence or not. I cant think of anything major that went wrong, and I kept all of my accounts properly and everything......but....

Now I can concentrate on going home! Ive not had a chance to look forward to xmas yet tho - and now im counting down the days till I do go home. which means I shall probably have all of three hours to actually get excited about christmas. Yesterday was good tho - we had our house xmas dinner, and when we all got in we all exchanged presents. I dont normally open presents before the day but it was as if we were having our own xmas day and so it felt right. I got monkeys and winnie the pooh stuff...and a guitar. Its purple and shiny!!

Tomorrow Im doing xmassy stuff with Eavann - its going to involve my cooking....and we are going to watch Love Actually. We decided its a christmassy film and needs to be watched. The afternoon/evening may involve drinks too...then im working thursday, friday and saturday. Yay!!!

Im actually really tired. And need to lose weight. Its a cliche I know, but thats my new years resolution. Am feeling a bit too frumpy these days.....

Its shocking to think that out of a lecture hall of 300 - 350 people, I was the only one who knew any first aid.

A girl was having a fit in my lecture, whilst most people looked on gormless. The lecturer didnt even realise at first. The whole left side of the lecture theatre (I was on the right) knew what was happening before she did. When her attention was finally sought, the lecturer didnt even know what to do. Not even the basics.

Ive been in a weird state all day. The most Ive had to deal with before (apart from a fire resulting in a burnt face) was nosebleeds etc. At least people accepted me today. With the fire, some woman didnt believe I was old enough (I was 16!) to know any first aid and therefore delayed the treatment. I feel like I did that night after the fire - where I couldnt sleep...wondering what would have happened if I had gone over there sooner....If she is ok now.

I *really* cant concentrate on my Obs 2 work for tomorrow. Not sure I have a decent enough excuse though.

These last couple of days have been the best. I have had so much fun and everything has been really nice. Im not going to say too much because its private. Not that its bad or naughty or anything....I just feel its more special if I keep things to myself.

However I shall say two things

1) I got some White Gold jewellery (very lovely!). I didnt previously own any, and I intend to show it off lots. Beware.2) I saw the Harry Potter film. This was very good, but you can see how they drastically had to cut bits from the book. And some parts I felt they only put in to show off graphics/computer skills etc. Otherwise though a very good film. Me liked.

Am feeling rather tired, but unfortunately have to go out tonight. Its not that I don't want to. I just dont feel particularly sociable. I know, Im mean!

It is our anniversary today. Steven and I have been together for THREE years. Thats quite a long time, but on the other hand it isnt. I can not get enough of him. The more time I spend with him, the more time I want to be with him. That probably makes no sense, but I know what I mean.

And today is going to be a great day. Three years ago, I never thought I would be where I am today. I had thought that we were messing around when we started going out and that it was all part of college and being that age. Little did I know how much he would mean to me.

I am once again properly up to date. Spent some time getting to know some people. Some important people in my world. Met the person whom is going to visit me on my licence. All I can say is Im glad its not actually her that I have to please.....Maybe i was because it was the end of a long day, but she was not very approachable.

I have been awake since 6.00am having gone to bed at something like 2.00am. I was supposed to be going out tonight but being stuck in a very hot and stuffy classroom all day means that I have a headache, and therefore no desire to. I am planning on having an evening in (for once!). This means catching up with series 2 of Joey, House and Lost. Oh and Boston Legal. Well, at least until I fall asleep anyway.

A boss walked into the office one morning not knowing that his zipper was down, and his fly wide open. His secretary walked up to him and said,"Boss this morning when you left your house,did you close your garage door?"This was not a phrase that her boss understood, so he went into his office looking a bit puzzled.

When he was about done with his paper work, hesuddenly noticed that his zipper was not zipped up. He zipped up andremembering what his secretary had told him, finally understood. Hethen intentionally went out to ask a cup of coffee from his secretary. Whenhe reached her desk, he said,

"When you saw the garage door open did you seemy jaguar parked in there?"

The secretary smiled for a moment and said, "No, Boss I didn't. All Isaw was a Mini with 2 flat tyres."