Monday, May 30, 2011

Wow... I haven't been here for a while.
Let's see, excuses: I've been really busy at work, there hasn't really been anything blog-worthy going on, I've been really lazy. Yup, that just about covers it.

And the April/May update in bullet points:
- booked a trip to Hawaii for August - WOOHOO!!! I'm meeting my cousin and his family there for a week and I'm really looking forward to it. It's my first trip to Hawaii so, double yay!
- Canucks are going to the Stanley Cup finals! Another "woohoo". This really has nothing to do with me directly, but I'm excited none-the-less.
- I'm about half way through my meditation classes and I'm learning a lot. I'm trying to put the lessons from the classes into practice everyday and I'm enjoying the guaranteed 2 hours of ME time every week.

See.. nothing blog-worthy.

It's my birthday on Saturday and while it's not a traditional Milestone birthday, it's a personal Milestone and it's making me rather depressed.
I always said that by 26, I'd have my ducks in a row. You know: career, marriage, heading toward kids.. those ducks: however, I feel like my eggs haven't even hatched yet! So, I don't have any ducks and I sure as hell don't have them in a row.
And I know, I know.. "26 is young, you have plenty of time..blah, blah, blah" and that makes perfect logical sense. I tell myself that in my head all the time. But somewhere.. not in my head.. I just feel like I've failed to achieve any of the things that I had intended on achieving by this age.
I might have the eggs that will one day hatch that I can place in a row.. but right now, I feel like my eggs may just be eggs.. like.. chicken eggs, for breakfast, that I can scramble up with some spinach and feta and make a good meal from... but that won't hatch in to ducks and that I can't put in a row. And it's that thought that makes me want to not tell anyone that it's my birthday and just curl up in bed and not think about birds of any kind.