Reoccurring freakouts?

Any other bees on here have reoccurring freakouts every few months or so? I have these issues based on how my last relationship ended, and a year and a half later I can’t keep them from bubbling up every so often. There are a lot of insecurities involved, and generally the quality and my interest in my current relationship are negatively affected until it explodes.

And then he tells me how he’s known these issues of mine for over a year now and how it’s something he can accept and that we will work through and that he will help me with for the rest of my life if that’s what it takes. He’s accepted that I’m going to go bonkers and protest that I’m not good enough or emotionally mature enough for this relationship every couple of months. I’ve come a long way from my past self, but this is still my biggest fundamental hurdle. And he’s accepted me with it.

He says he’s in it for the long haul, and in my current state I can’t quite believe him although my rational self knows that he doesn’t lie to me like that. I’m just so lucky to have found someone who will lovingly deal with me when it gets scary in my head. Any other bees in the same boat?

Kind of…I have occasional meltdowns related to things that happened to me in the past. FI is so awesome and supportive, god I love him so much. After a couple of years with his constant support things have gotten better although its not completely better. I recommend therapy if you can get it because it doesn’t have to be this way…you’ve got to work through this stuff so you don’t suffer for the rest of your life.