There's still no change with my Mom. Thankfully she is not on her deathbed anymore but she is still in terrible pain. Her general practitioner (GP) believes she may have fibromyalgia. In case you don't know what this is, it's inflammation of the connective tissue with unexplained pain that causes severe flu-like symptoms. Severe headaches, numbness, fatigue, and pain in the neck and back are also symptoms. Anxiety, lack of sleep, and depression can make symptoms worse. The problem with this disease is that it is not easily diagnosed and there are no medical tests to confirm for sure that this is what the patient suffers from. There is not cure for this disease and thus patients can only try to manage their pain through exercise, diet, physical and emotional therapy, and possibly even acupuncture. I feel frustrated because doctors are unwilling to completely confirm it is fibromyalgia yet they are unwilling to do a spinal tap which may be able to detect horrible pressure she feels in her brain. The pain appears to increase as the day goes on. My Mom was having some alleviation of pain from a 3 day narcotic patch. Her doctor suggested she try it again and this time it held no relief for her. The migraines have begun to increase again and the neck and back pain is so awful that she cannot find any comfortable way to sit or stand. Lying down, even though she feels exhausted, brings on another migraine. My heart just breaks for her and there's nothing I can do. I try to visit with FJ as much as possible and be a listening ear but it just doesn't seem to be enough. I am surprised by how emotional I continue to be even after discontinuing breast feeding but I guess I'm being too hard on myself. I'm sure my hormones just don't magically go back to normal after only 5 weeks of giving birth and my Mom is so sick without any hope in sight that I have a lot on my plate right now. Will my emotions ever go back to normal? I thrive on control and crying so frequently certainly isn't making me feel normal. I certainly don't want to resort to an anti-depressant or anything because I've never been so emotional until I was pregnant - I don't want drugs to be the cure especially when I have so much going on in my life right now that is causing me to be emotional.