I sat behind him every year waiting for the chance to tell him I’m the one he should be with,

But he was too busy with all the other girls at school the cheerleaders and the hoes,

They couldn’t even remember his name they just wanted him for his fame,

I couldn’t understand why girls would just play him for a sucker, when he was so nice to people and giving and caring and would treat his girls with respect,

There is no way to understand why a sweet boy like him being the school’s football player would get played,

But he had it all figured out when he left me with a broken heart,

Because he didn’t think I can play the part, the football captain the football captain,

He had it all figured out you have left me with the broken heart at prom night,

See let me take you back to the week of prom the year 1998 Ian asked me to prom and then the night prom I walked into the gym looking amazing in my blue dress I was waiting for my price Ian I couldn’t believe my eyes,

The whole school laughed at me as Ian was making out with the one cheerleader that I hated,

The football caption had it all figured out when he left with a broken heart,

Because he didn’t think I can play the part,

But I wasn’t going to stop him,

Because you never know how things can turn around,

Now looking back 15 years later he has 5 kids from 5 different baby mommas and living on food stamps, lost his contract with the NFL everything just went downhill after he stood me up wow I guess he had it all figured out when he left with me a broken heart

As for me I graduated from Harvard and have my law degree I guess he had it all figured out when he left me with a broken heart but look at me now,

As I looked into the Mirror once more and think is this really what reflects me?

Why don’t people see me?,

I’m not weird or stupid or anything just because I have a wheelchair that helps me around,

Why don’t people see me now in days? I’m just an ordinary girl I go to school I text my friends I play multiple sports I have my own boy drama I’m a self published author but I’m still a teenager,

Why don’t people see that I’m just a normal human being just trying to make it to tomorrow going to doctors appointments dealing with pain in my right hip going through puberty going though what every teenage girl gose though,

Why don’t people see the true me the girl with a sweet personality kind to others caring why can’t people just forget about the two wheels and the chair that’s built around me and just see me as my insecurities eat me alive ,

Why can’t people see me? An ordinary teen girl I’m just an ordinary girl behind two wheels and a chair,

As I look back at flashes across my mind every day sometimes I can’t even sleep,

As I see his features once more that a monster I see he’s tall with old looking skin with brown eyes and gray hair baldheaded on the top but with hair on the bottom,

That monster has caused me pain for years now as I sit on this porch just thinking about it all,

I was only five years old when all this happened but I can still remember it all like it was yesterday I can still hear the monster’s footsteps every night as I close my eye shut as he comes in my room with the lighter and Belt as I get ready to endure the pain of the excruciating lighter and Belt getting ready for the spankings I’m about to indoor as I cried my eyes out and scream save me save me God save me as I fall to the ground as the monster’s wife comes puts me back in my bed like nothing is wrong just laughter out both of them as I cry my eyes out and screem save me save me God save me as I fall back to sleep and the sun comes up as I go to school very timid as I wake up from this nightmare once more realizing is just a dream my heart rate goes back up to where it was back them,