Thursday, October 8, 2009

Today, I had an epiphany of sorts. I had dropped Abby and Jaxon off at preschool and on Thursdays, they get to stay for an extra hour for Lunch Bunch. I ran a couple of errands and while I was driving in the parking lot, I saw a bright yellow truck with a bumblebee on it and I shouted out, "Look Jaxon! There's a bumblebee truck!" He wasn't in the car. It was just second nature to point something like that out to him. I realized in that moment that I missed having Abby and Jaxon with me all the time. They are now in the care of someone else for a few hours each day and I miss them. I miss the fighting, the hugs, the smiles and giggles, the begging to go to the toy aisle just for a moment. I have looked forward to the day when both of them would be in school and now that it is here, I miss them.