Thursday, November 1, 2007

SLIP - Sobriety Loses Its Place

I broke my sobriety over the weekend. I wonder why I do this to myself when I know I'm better off without drinking. I suppose the final truth is that sometimes I still want to drink and while most often I find the strength not to, there are times when I give in. I won't dwell on it, but since this is a recovery blog, I'm compelled to honesty.

On another subject, my employer cut everyone's pay by 20% yesterday. With it, our hours are also cut so I'll be working a 4-day week starting next week. The paycut will be a burden, but I can tighten my belt and get through it. I'm actually glad for the extra day. I can attend a yoga class and I'll have more time for the new business so I'm looking on the bright side.

A week ago I was thriving, now I feel like I'm just getting through. Life. Choices. Time to surrender.

Oh, Angela, I'm sorry you slipped. But it seems that you've put it in perspective, so that's good. Doesn't make me like you any less. I hope it hasn't made YOU like you any less.

You've been reading my blog, so you know that I've been in a bad place for a while. I'm finally coming out of it. In a couple of months you'll probably look back on this time as the best thing that could have happened.

After trying everything else the yes, the surrendering comes.compelled to honesty - I admire this.Thinking of you, letting you know that in my book it is ok to be exactly where you are, as you are.Be Well.

Your transperancy is enormously courageous. I honor you through this process.

I do believe that the road to recovery is intensely individual, and often times undermined by rigid rules on what its supposed to look like for everyone. From what little of you I have experienced here, it seems that you are appoaching each of your days with a practice of consciousness...

This is your practice. Your experiment, your life... there is no shame in that.

What is Eclectic Recovery?

Hi. I'm Angela. Eclectic Recovery is my blog and I welcome you to its pages.

ER began as an exploration into my ongoing issues with addiction/mental illness and the solutions I employed and experiences I went through attempting to navigate a course to health. Mostly they have been unsuccessful and ridiculous. Such, I find, is much of life.

My own problems with addiction have led me to catch onto the fact that virtually the entire world is addicted and that a forced detox is imminent. Peak oil, climate change & continued destruction, imperialism, corruption, global financial and food insecurity - these things will not go away just because we don't look.

My recent intense self-education into these issues still feels way behind the curve. At the same time, I realize that the majority of folks still can't stomach the topics and are in deep denial of our dilemma. But becoming informed and taking action, accepting responsbility and stepping up to the plate are going to, at the very least, make it much easier when you release that last breath. At best, you could get to be part of a revolution for change that will move us from an oiil-based, patriarchally defined way of life towards a reverence based society wherein all life is honored and we become, again, just another part of that life.

There's a lot of information out there and I believe I've gotten pretty good at separating the wheat from the chaff. I am called to provide anyone who happens to visit ER the good information I'm finding and attempt to engage them in action.