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Sunday, February 10, 2013

#BookBlitz: 3 by Julie Hilden

What's the greatest sacrifice you
would make for love?

Maya and Ilan have an unusual marriage: Maya
will tolerate Ilan's chronic infidelity as long as he includes her in the
affairs. Initially, Maya finds these unorthodox threesomes as arousing as they
are disturbing - but when her writing career takes off and she becomes more
independent, Ilan feels threatened, and opts for sexual experimentation of
another kind: one that plays on Maya's fear and ultimately threatens her life.

Meanwhile, Maya is drawn into a relationship
with a fateful third character. When her new liaison begins to mirror her
marriage to Ilan, Maya discovers that her lover, seemingly a stranger, knows
far more about her past than she has revealed.

Brave, daring and deeply erotic:3is a compelling chronicle of obsession
and power.

'Julie Hilden does what few writers can dare to.
3 is smart, sexy, strange and impossible to put down.' Dani Shapiro

It is the first Saturday in August when I walk
up to the porch of the summerhouse and see them. I am supposed to be in the
city this weekend but my interview is canceled, the actor called out of town. I
see them through the fan propped in the window, through the transparent blur of
its blades.

She is moving on top of him slowly, with such
concentration that though she faces the window, though she could look right at me,
she does not. I am only a few feet away from her. I have never seen her before.

I watch her glossy brown hair shift on her
shoulders, I watch her empty eyes as she moves on him with calculation, with
slack lips, with nipples so erect that the areolae wrinkle around them – as she
moves with such pleasure, really, that who could hate her in this moment?

To love her, to want to be her, to want to
touch her, yes. But not to hate her, not in this.

I watch her, and watch, too, a sliver of
Ilan’s narrow chest beneath her, its pattern of hair that breaks across his
sternum. I can see the necklace sliding on his chest as they move, the tiny

silver hand slipping back and forth, its touch
faster and jerkier than Ilan’s own smooth caresses – than the touch of his hand
moving on her downy back.

For perhaps five minutes, I don’t say a word.
It seems a weird privilege: here is the life I don’t see, the life that goes on
without me. I watch them as a ghost watches the living.

Then I say his name slowly, just audibly. She
starts and looks around wildly. When she looks through the fan and sees me, she
gasps.

Ilan does not start at all; not a flicker. But
he lifts his head, sees me, and winces, and just like that he lifts her off him
and at the same time off the bed.

‘You have to go now,’ he tells her.

She dresses insolently slowly. Her blouse
fastens in the back with a line of ties – it is really just a square of cloth
that settles on her breasts – and she loops each of the ties into a perfect
bow.

She and I brush past each other. It’s as if
she’s preempted me with her anger; I want to shout at Ilan too, curse at him,
but I don’t have the heart. ‘I should leave too,’ is all I say.

‘You can’t leave me, Maya. I love you.’

‘Was this the first time – the only time? I
need to know.’

‘It started in college,’ he admits, ‘a few
weeks after I met you.’

I shiver. I never expected to be chosen by
myself, for myself alone. It had felt wrong – unlike me – to be chosen. Now,
hearing this, I feel only a sickening familiarity, not surprise.

‘It never meant anything,’ he assures me. ‘I
felt awful about it. I don’t know where it comes from. I thought, with enough
therapy, I’d talk myself out of it. But all I do is confess, I don’t change.

Look, can we at least sit down? I feel like
any moment, you’re going to leave.’

‘Okay, but I’m not promising to stay.’

I sit down on the rattan couch. He stands
behind me. I lean back and reach my head up to him – like a rabbit in a cage
straining to sip from its water dispenser, the single round, hanging drop. And he
leans down, princelike, to kiss me.

Then he starts to touch me. He slips his hands
down my jeans, his fingers splayed, rubbing my clitoris insistently, with the slightest
pressure. I moan quietly, move against him.

‘Don’t I know you?’ he says. ‘I know exactly
what you want, don’t I?’

It agitates me as he rubs and rubs, softly,
softly. He touches me the way he learned from me years ago – the way I touch
myself. He studied it. The detail of his knowledge of me devastates. If I were
to close my eyes, I could confuse his touch with my own.

But as he nuzzles into my shoulder, I smell
sex in his hair and break away from him.

‘Would you at least shower?’ I demand.

‘No, you love that. Tell me you love it.’

In seconds my jeans are gone, my shirt is
gone. He holds on to me, won’t let me leave.

‘It’s so soft,’ he says as he touches me.
‘You’re so wet.’

He gets a little bleat out of me as he rubs. Then
I clamp my mouth shut. Ah, but then I relax it. I begin to breathe in the sex smell
in his hair; I begin almost to like it.

‘Maya. Tell me you want this.’

‘I want it.’

‘I knew you did.’ And I do. And it is hours,
then, before we can stop.

About the Author:

Julie Hilden graduated from Harvard, and earned a law degree at Yale and
an MA in creative writing from Cornell. After several years of practicing law,
she has now turned to writing full time. Her first book, a memoir entitled The
Bad Daughter, was published by Algonquin Books, and she has also written
for Slate magazine. She lives in New York City.

About Me

Kristabel Reed lives on the East Coast and loves to explore the steamier side of historical romance. "There are so many sexy situations that didn't just pop up in the 21st century and my goal is to burst the myth of the prim and proper debutante."
She loves romances but historical ménages particularly which add an element of danger and discovery not seen in contemporaries. Historically speaking, unusual romantic connections put lives on the line-people were ostracized and some even put to the death.
She loves reading, watching old movies, and anything Cary Grant. And is always interested in talking about erotic romance, so drop her a line: kristabelreed@yahoo.com; or Tweet her @kristabelreed; find her blog: kristabelreed.blogspot.com