1.18.2011

as a mom i sometimes feel like i am just going through the motions and doing just what needs to be done for my kids. which is totally fine. i would do anything for them, but there are moments when i am sitting quietly by myself and i don't even know how to have a thought that's just about me. it's almost as if i am uncomfortable with being just me. wow. it's a lonely feeling, which is strange, being that i am surrounded by my littles all the time. so i am on this journey. it's a very spiritual one. to find Who and what makes me....ME. and be comfortable with it. happy even. and love it.

1.17.2011

(soooo nice not to have to get up when there is still frost on the grass and walk to school)

so we had some good times on the homestead.

we played games and watched movies.

who knew chutes and ladders was such a competitive game?

hmmm. not me. i never win when we play games anyway. especially NOT memory games, omg. maddy's princess memory game...ya know the one where sleeping beauty is posed in like 12 different ways. yeah...how i am supposed to remember that card was the one where she was smelling a rose and not dancing...?? cheah. okay. i am ok with losing.
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all i have to say about these is how did i ever live without them??

DEEEEEELISH.

and healthy.

no...not totally.

but healthier than twinkies, right?

right.

oh be still my heart.

polka dots.

on a canvas.

{sigh}

but that's all i got. this poor little canvas has been sitting like this for a little while now...not quite sure where to go from here. WHY IS THAT? i hate that! there are lots of layers of awesome sauce under those polka dots and i just don't want to ruin it, i guess. i have been soooo wishy washy lately that i don't want to paint or collage something onto it and then 5 minutes later regret it.