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Thursday, April 29, 2010

Things I Wish I'd Said

Something happened a few days ago and I didn't quite handle it the way I wish I would have. It wasn't a big deal, but later, there were a few things I wish I'd said. Frankly, I don't have regrets in life, for the most part, but there are times I wish I'd really said what I was feeling rather than biting my tongue because I was afraid to speak my mind and heart.

In no particular order, the list below represents most of what I wish I'd said at various points in my life, but now it's too late. The moment has passed or it no longer matters or I'm still not brave enough to say them to the people I should have said them to. If you think one or more of these are things I started to say to you at some point, you may be right, but you may also be wrong. If you ask me directly, I'll tell you . . . probably.

Yes.

No.

I'm sorry.

I'm proud of you.

I need a break.

I miss you.

I forgive you.

You broke my heart.

I wish you hadn't lied to me.

Stop.

We can work it out.

Let's fix this.

I'll figure it out.

Please help me.

I'm going to stay in DC.

I have to take care of me.

I think you made the wrong decision.

I made a mistake.

Don't go.

It really will be okay.

No, it's not okay.

I'm leaving.

Thank you.

I'm scared.

You can't talk to me that way.

Please leave.

I'm not strong enough to do this alone.

Stay.

Pick me.

What can I do?

How can I fix this?

Actually, it was you. Not me.

Sorry, I'm out of your league.

Our friendship is worth more to me than a guy.

I can't even remember why we fought.

You were right and I was wrong.

You are a Mean Girl.

I deserve better.

No, you don't speak for me.

I shouldn't have walked away.

No, I'm not sorry.

That's offensive.

And finally, the last thing I should have said, but didn't . . . . I love you.

About Little Merry Sunshine

A native of Chicago's Northwest Suburbs and resident of the North Shore, Jessica Gardner is passionately opinionated about everything (and we mean EVERYTHING) including local, national, and international politics, sports, news, and martinis, to name a few. The eternal optimist with moments of confusion (she’s blonde after all), Jessica’s musings can be found on her blog, Little Merry Sunshine. When not working (and as an Alumni Relations Manager and business owner, Jessica is almost always working), she volunteers, debates politics, attends wine tastings, cooks, reads, watches The West Wing DVDs, cheers for the Cubs, and plans Ravinia outings and other gatherings for her friends. In spite of her love of all things Chicago – sports, pizza, the lake, etc. – Jessica lives for her time away from it all (her laptop, cell phone, tv, social media, etc.) in Northern Michigan and loves country music, which her friends pretend to not know about.