strangle with financial blockage.

Nov 16, 2016

first dreamt of taming lion. my once leader in QRRS, deputy CCP cadre Zhou Kaiming, or my once colleague in QRRS cable station, Sun Feng, demonstrated how to constantly padding lion's body's edge and hummed short syllable to pacify the large cat. then on my own I started to interactive with lion, including massage lion's toes, even trying using Chinese needle to acupuncture to comfort it. it's terrifying to let lion accept you, at least in dream I even in the end still felt intimidating. then dreamt with my classmates, which mixing my university and senior middle school alumni, in a march of experience. everybody has a role, like monitor, flagger, propagation, etc, while I was in charge of stamp, ie. official verification. we roamed times on the same road, for boring orthodox drives anyone away. when finally experiment lesson started in a classroom, I was chosen by the monitor to dissect something. I did but disgusted to wake up. this week I thrilled by coming unfreeze of my 2 icbc card, a debit salary card and a credit card. it turns out neither succeed. I visited icbc HQ twice but still in clouds who freezed my salary, now that icbc clerks all claimed they didn't. its credit first time so said unlocked by the card department director and let me wait a day to use, which is a fake claim. after failed to shop online with it, I buzzed icbc hotline and told unfreeze a locked credit account takes application, so I immediately entrust him to apply for me. the agent did and asked me wait for another 3 or 5 days. but next day, Monday this week, icbc local branch called me to confirm fee of less than ￥100 taken from me before resume my credit card, I admited at once. next day I tried again to shop with the credit, but after twice failures sadly found my credit quota decreased from original ￥10000 to zero. I even didn't know a credit card with 0 credit is of any usage. so I buzzed the HQ card department director, he advised to apply to icbc national HQ, while the latter refutes to its local branch. in the loophole I decided to visit the clearance center of icbc Qiqihar as the phone bank receptionist tipped, but the office location outdated and removed. returned to local HQ, the card department director suggested me deposit in its credit before shopping via it, like using it as a debit, to win the bank over again for credit. I tried to argue with him my credibility, my cyberspace startup, but seemingly defying me credit is order from higher official and undebatable. so 2nd visit icbc Qiqihar HQ fruitless except at last the director let me buzz him next day for which freezes my salary now that ICBC didn't. I know larger factor in PRC politburo intervenes my financial renewal of my web assets. they desperate deprive my source of basic living and business. God, dad, my throne against no one in its mightiness. grant us innocence against dirty manipulation against my Royal China's regime. bring me sooner my girls, my offspring in our new family that lasts 1109 years ahead when China as an Empire reset. grant me resource to update my ownership over our web assets. grant us a joyful flight tour hometown in lunar new year.

Nov 12, 2016

dreamt lingering in Japan and fell in love with a Japanese girl. mostly dream scene in a room of a Japanese girl friend's house. a little girl teaches me Japanese characters and gradually loves me. we also practice martial art. then in a sleep my penis persistently hardened and our love perceived by other Japanese boys there. they plotted to challenge me, while the girl and the little girl manage to avoid the death trap. I also dreamt rooted my smartphone via dirty cow deploit. this week busy with restore 3 os from backup against dubious intrusion and succeeded. days out and days in I endured to the day my icbc cards' unlock. on Wednesday I first time visited icbc office to manage to unlock them, after found even credit debt cleared and automatic unlock didn't happen. buzzed the phone bank reception desk, I was told there was a new transaction led me in debt of another $1.7 due to pay. I borrowed ￥100 from dorm canteen operator and tried to clear the credit debt but failed on ATM. visited the branch office and even with help of crew I failed to unlock my salary debit card. I also was told unlocking credit card needs to be handle in local HQ. I waited and busy for 2 days. then I visited the headquater on noon yesterday. on counter debt was cleared but credit card department director told me unlock needs a day to work. and clerk granted all normal privilege on my salary card, but still failing transaction for status abnormal. I thought might be the credit debt still persistently preventing, so I returned in waiting. yesterday is shopping festival on taobao.com, Chinese largest online store. I didn't buy anything for all pay method freezed. but I know shopping heals and makes one happier. I badly need to buy my son and my own a pair of backup electric toothbrush. my web asset renewal also due to fill. God dad, grant us credit to live in modern style. bring me my Royal China to unlock the dead trap in failing PRC and its dictative CCP. grant us 3rd flight tour in join lunar new year holiday in our hometown. grant me resource of self-relying in our publication.

Nov 7, 2016

dreamt first my passed mom help neighbor managing large herd of gooses. the gooses swept shallow water and ate lots of plants and bugs. the reward is cheerful, we can ate one or two without lose the farmer deposit base. then dreamt in open cinema with hometown folks. I brought camera and saw the possibility of being caught by regulation not allow to shoot. then before the ending, I dived into water below to bring somewhat command and my 2nd elder brother in charge of summon the folks to execute the order. last night 2nd snow in 2016 winter in Qiqihar cover the ground with thick quilt for early November. I ate rich breakfast and full with satisfaction. these weeks with online audio ebook, I learning and time elapses quick, results in less blogging. my son showed me his gaming skill ever improving when he epted made leaping progress in old game "family guy". he more or less too idle and urges me new training or tasks for him, while I busy with preparing him live now channel on youtube as windows of American life to watch. long time waited game, "Lost planet 3" also downloaded and I tried awhile. his mom mocked me when I lingered there. but her Chinese brand Le smartTV, equipped showily by herself less than half year, wrecked and persuaded by support crew to give up normal usage but just as a monitor. so the messy poor woman consulted me how to connect the monitor to her notebook, which also mine shift to her free a year ago without any gratitude reward. I offered her a backup hdmi cable from amazon and urged her restore a functional smartTV against the product company's evasion of responsibility, but I knew all my efforts less likely working: the cheap bitch dare to curse nobody but me, bundled her with our son. she wouldn't bid even a different word in front of a stranger nor dominant presence, but obeys in humility. I told my son via message my analytics on his mom's twist fantasy and insane taste, her cheap temper and behind frustration deep in her being worthless inc her career in state mandate education, while desperate longing for trading herself somewhere normally. God, dad, my life so long trapped within these unholy beasts including my son's mom and her family. grant me and my son elegent soul mates in our world. bring me sooner my Royal China for healthy competition and wellbeing of humanity. bring me sooner the unity of Christian universe. grant us independent finance, empower me renew our web assets annually and maintain growth of our online publication.

Oct 31, 2016

dreamt confined by police in library. in winter now I usually close tight my window lest waste networked heat. but that results in late wake up in morning and missing dorm canteen breakfast. so I set alarm on my cellphone. as side effect, I usually felt sleepy after unnature woke up. this morning I at first busy with setup a migrated vision of agarten.in under domain dabbog.com, lagging internet soon drove me onto bed. In dream I brought my son, woz, haunted nowhere to find a place to dwell. then when we leaving I let woz waited me awhile I returned to library to pee. enter the hall, I found some people watching a bull head on the wall, like hunting trophy. at first I thought that's my work, then found they were in fact unauthorized copies of my works and posted everywhere in the library, attract lots of audience. among people arrested under the bull head, one was a policeman, who listened my claim calmly but replied I wouldn't allowed to leave in response of the demonstration. when I doubting how to inform my son in waiting about my dangerous situation, my 2nd elder sister in red clothes appeared in the library and didn't recognize me. soon I found in the central area of the hall, my son settled there among reading crowd, including my sister. before detained or imprison I woke up from nap. past week I sometimes woke up earlier upon good news of coming unlock my salary card and ICBC credit card, now that with this month salary paid to ICBC, my credit debt to the PRC largest bank will clear. In bare waiting my kid brother's aid to cope every month living cost, usual it will be ￥700 since my brother latest visit, my younger brother buzzed in. he just brought his technician toured England. according him that cost ￥30000. I then just settled site's migration and with confidence persuaded my kid brother additional 300 helping me resolving running debts among local contacts, and bad need to replace shoes. he admitted in the session, a loan of ￥1000. but later 2 days he didn't remit me as promised. he is a man vulnerable of bitter feelings, and in the case he not evaded again. when I on bus fetching my son for monthly cinema with hard bargained loan from canteen operator woman, ￥300, my brother buzzed in to check his damage on our schedule. he failed to persuade me gave up my redundant phone number. after the cinema, I check ATM and the promised aid right in its position. with it, my doubts cleared and much glad found discount area of Walmart has a nice shoes for me priced ￥40. all the weekend turns brilliant with the aid and hope of affirmative. on Sunday morning I with my only ￥20 bought hazelnut from street vendor near woz's community after near a month I didn't buy my son fruits as usual. the hazelnut rewards us in quality, large, crisp and delicious. at these moment in a sunny morning, God dad, I pray in holy my life out of uncertainty and hatred from sinful PRC dictation, stands peaceful, firm and hopeful. pray our happy gathering every occasion with adequate financial support. bring me sooner my Royal China for the prosperous China as well as eastern Asia, bring me new family with my girls and our offspring. grant me painless purchases and supportive credit and income base, esp my cyberspace startup. thx, dad God.