The haunting final moments of Jim Carrey‘s ex-girlfriend, Cathriona White, are outlined in a just-released coroner’s report — including her suicide note to the actor.

The letter, signed “Dewdrop,” was found on her dining room table, and read:

“I’ve spent 3 days now in disbelief that you’re not here. I can go on brokenhearted and try to put the pieces back. I could, I just don’t have the will this time.

I’m sorry you felt I wasn’t there for you. I tried to give you my best part.

I don’t really know about burial or that sort of thing. You are my family so whatever you choose will be fine.

Please forgive me. I’m just not for this world.”

The coroner’s report, obtained by TMZ, lists White’s cause of death as an overdose of several prescription drugs, including Zofran (an anti-nausea aid), beta blocker propranolol, Percocet and Ambien.

Investigators reported that Carrey, 54, texted the 30-year-old makeup artist the day before her death asking if she knew where his painkillers were after the actor couldn’t find them under his sink. Carrey reportedly had a prescription for anti-inflammatory medication for his back under an assumed name. White never replied: The estranged couple’s last interaction was on Sept. 24, when White texted Carrey asking if he was awake; the pair then had a brief Facetime conversation three hours later.

Jim Carrey carries the casket of Cathriona White from the church during her funeral in Ireland.FameFlynet

White’s body was found on Sept. 28 after White’s friends, Dennis and Lena Bradshaw, saw a cryptic tweet on Sept. 24 that read “signing off” and hadn’t heard from her since. The Bradshaws, accompanied by Carrey’s assistant, entered White’s Los Angeles home through a side door after calling her cellphone and hearing it ring inside. They found her body, clad in a red T-shirt and black underwear, with her cellphone in her hand. White’s body showed signs of decomposition, indicating she’d been dead for several days before she was discovered.

Friends of the Irish-born White told the coroner that she displayed “depressive qualities” and may have attempted to overdose on pills approximately two years earlier. White’s friends also noted that she was deeply dependent on Carrey, describing their relationship as a “rollercoaster,” noting that if she felt him “slipping away,” she’d become increasingly depressed. One companion claimed that when White and Carrey first split in 2013, White stopped eating and sleeping for about six months — recovering around the time they reconciled in 2014.