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Maybe, as important as anything can be moving us toward self guided health care, and ever evolving toward emotional maturity. The mental gymnastics that the ego or conscious mind puts us through is counter-stabilized with breath and balance.

The instincts do not remain in the shadow of the object when the body is consulted for sensations. But that really only works from the position of stillness. Getting to still point with mantra and breath is a fundamental aspect of getting to health. Of course, life also happens between sessions of any practice. It is the balance we learn before hand that steadies us in a moment of body-pain. Sometime our own body pain, or even the body pain of others we live with can activate the lack of balance (mental, emotional & physical).

The return of the repressed and the return of the repetition compulsion activates and ignites fear which then takes our breath out of balance and everything feels wrong.

With the crown of your head high, your shoulders relaxed and a deep breath filling all of your lungs, slowly let out more breath than you took in. Breath like you are conducting the figure 8.

Why? Because a well analyzed life includes a connection with the body-unconscious where our ancestry, experiences and memories are stored like in a freezer until some heat, some return of the repressed ignites the muscles, cells, bones of sensation and demands of us that we pay attention. The needle on the gage reads low energy. Going too much further without replenishing and we risk running out of gas only half way to our destination.

Below is an example of a meditation–it is constructed of non-mentated gestures and lines that I filled in with color and mood. Well-being is a state of no effort because it takes as its starting point a moment of stillness. Therefore, a better chance of leading to clarity than if we attempt to move through chaos….

“The only thing that makes the difference in the way you feel right now is the thought that you are thinking right now. It doesn’t matter how much money you’ve got; there are joyful people with no money, and there are unhappy people with lots of money. How you feel is about how you are allowing the Source that is You to flow. So when we talk about the Art of Allowing, we’re talking about the art of living; about the art of thriving; about the art of clarity. We’re talking about the art of being who you really are.*

—Abraham

I post quotations from Ester Hicks from time to time, as I do from Eckhart Tolle, and Buddhist Spiritual Leaders from around the world. I post these because I am contemplating this post-modern, psycho-linguistic approach to guiding people toward a sort of epiphany or paradigm shift without disturbing the original canvas.

The post-modern, psychoanalytic approach to guidance is shaped differently in its methods and structure of guidance; but it guides nonetheless. Psychosomatic patients or patients with severe symptoms frequently seek out psychoanalysis because it is an intelligible way of listening to the body as well as the mind. The resistances to healing the source is the backbone of clinical intervention in this particular modern analytic approach to philosophy. Insight and paradigm shift are facilitated, but at the pace that the patient designs.

There is a sense of human knowing that has an element of biological determinism attached to its scientific findings. New age people and science experiment with the same current of “electro, neuro, pathways and currents of energy” that is the bedrock of cellular intelligence. Cellular intelligence is ancestry manifested in who we are. The character of human-ness is born into the organism, like the character of bird is born into a bird. Part of this character is a propensity to linguistic acquisition and performance. Have we divided from the animal kingdom by having a born-in propensity for language or have we established ourselves in a higher order of consciousness within that animal kingdom. Where we stand at the beginning of the 21st century most of the deep intellectual arguments against evolution have been essentially settled. We appear, to most scientist and artist alike, to be a continuum and a oneness with the natural laws of the universe as we know them to this point in time.

It is like the climate change issue that currently faces humankind. All sides experience the facts, but interpreting the facts is where we find it hard to tell the difference between illusion and logic. If someone is searching literature, of any kind, that person is in pursuit of something very precious: knowledge about the limits, boundaries and possibilities of the human spirit.

Once having reconciled with the supreme hippocratic code of “first do no harm,” we can begin a study of both objective and subjective facts as they present themselves to the researcher/analysts from both the external and the internal experiences of being human. The hippocratic code applies itself equally to science as it does to philosophy.
We have, very simply, a theory, a research tool, and a clinical laboratory in which to practice the art and science of psychoanalysis. Add to this an interested student and you begin to have a program of study that ought to be able to establish itself well in Liberal Arts education.

The establishment of psychoanalytic theory to education is not new. A learning setting is best accomplished in a circle, a community of searching individuals from a variety of backgrounds, interested in psychoanalysis as a theory, and a research tool, as well as its “purpose” for its being: clinical intervention.

This modern psychoanalytic course of study is not the work of evaluative psychology. The fact of humans studying humans is as established a position as is man’s inhumanity to man. It is my contention that this education is best achieved as a craft where both the art and the science are taught at the knees of a role model. It is an apprentice, journeymen, master model of psycho-education.

Supervision of scientific information is an important step in the evolution of learning as one applies him or her self to an understanding of conscious and unconscious manifestations of the human thought process and the human emotion and their connection “someplace” between stress and the immune system.

As I become the necessary instrument or tool of the research process, I am hurled into another’s world and I become part of what is being studied. The objective and the subjective are assigned the broad categories they require, and the unidentifiable space where material and etherial meet can not, for lack of a same language, establish a truce long enough to understand the Other without unpacking and reviewing and discussion. Supervision and consultation become a matrix of veracity. Reason and emotion are two different languages of the human condition, but, knowledge applied in one state does not automatically translate to a different state of mind. Reason and emotion are frequently seen as opposing forces. Fusion of these two elements has conducted humans to a state of perpetual assessment. Who we are, and where we are going, sets the parameters for our desires and our aggression. Evolution places us in the animal kingdom. We are first and foremost biological organisms. Who we are from the colors of our eyes to the shape of our feet and the size of our skulls is pre-determined. Even the set up of our mind is a manifestation of biology.

Freud knew this. The history of humanity is among Freud’s greatest passions, his salon was littered with scatterings from archeology. He once described the access to the human unconscious as similar to an archeological dig, you must be very careful to preserve the object as it is unearthed, and approach it with the most gentle of confidences.

Psychoanalysis, Buddhism, and New Age Consciousness gurus form a formidable triangle of human dynamics. They each operate from a position of not-knowing and move toward enlightenment as it feels itself to be correct. The human instinct is a keen assessment tool not to be undermined by the ego and the more rational components of human perception and knowledge.

The evolution of consciousness includes a long history of biological re-generations before it began to establish a spot light on itself and begin to wonder for the first time, “who am i watching and how am I watching when I am watching myself”.

Leonard Cohen has a way of summing things up for me. Not much more to be said about a life well lived, albeit, very heavy at times; and often, more mindless than mindful.

First there was the meditation involved with creating the template–totally mindless. I was absorbed in the quality of the feel, as the pen and ink dug into the paper and at times seems to effortlessly glide over the page so that a single stroke felt like it went clear across the pad and down the center to the very bottom of the page.

Then there were those comments when what to write went blank. It went blank for months. Gibberish. Then one day the journal was open to this unfinished page and Cohen’s meditation looked like it would barely fit on the page but it did. I thought it might sit well as an edited image. It comes together as text-and-image and combines a number of moods while fulfilling its mission to be published.

Serenity is the outcome, but it seems too far away when I am carrying a grand-piano down a mountain of theory. I am sitting with a young girl, fair and beautiful as she crawls to the couch. I almost do not want to let her go there; but I do, and she emerges walking, maybe a half-inch taller than when she arrived; but how much growth can we really expect in an hour. I hope she waters a few of the seeds awakened while we sat by the sea, chatting and untangling backlashes from yesterday’s fishing lines. The wind seems to blow westerly in every season, and to every season we attach a new moment adding them up with an abacus left dusty besides the slide-rule, made of wood and brass. But here, I am the instrument of research.

Her life opened like a book on our laps. I don’t count the way I use to. I don’t count on things and other objects–no, I think on myself now. And, I thank myself graciously for the compassionate care that I often find capable of giving to myself.

I settle into that place of relative silence and slowly she enters, tentative at first, willing, ambivalent and scared. But, she is strong and she does not want to let on that she is so vulnerable that she does not think she can take one more step. Exhaustion and fear and insomnia and disease and helplessness and hopelessness will devour her if she takes even one more step toward life. The piano is too heavy to carry.

En-visioning the future & living in the present
while hearing the ghosts of our ancestors speak
to us of wisdom from the soul, these are a few of
our most revered human characteristics.

The ego gives us an organizing principle by which to categorize
and interpret the cosmos. So busy have we become
evolving our kind, that the source of our energy
is forgotten hidden in the shadow of the object.

Everything that I have deliberately sought has
found me in juxtaposition to who “I” am. “I” as
a conduit of perception fools my mind into thinking
that “I” am alone in who is me.
But, the “I” has a self that is wider and deeper in
Consciousness then is the “I” alone. The “I” needs
our antiquity and it needs the histories
of our yesterdays to accomplish becoming the creative
being that, we are attempting to cultivate.

A spiritual humanism is one view of the totality
of self & I. The very fact that I can hold a
conversation with myself points to the ambiguity
of the human condition. Language as the vehicle
of evolution has run off rapidly into categorical
cubicles that function to protect the growth of
the species, and in so doing has often turned
against the same organism it professes to protect.

Perception from the ego’s position includes all the
rational and emotive perspectives on the world, our
universe. But the wider self brings the dimension
of unconscious symbolism to consciousness. The
analytics of the subjective provides not only the
emotions as an intrusion into the psyche, but provides
a wider and deeper meaning that geminates from
A position of source. The greater self in which the ego
swims is enlightened rather than knowledgeable. The
deeper meanings are encoded messages from the body
informing the psyche only if the self can over-power the
ego who always has first dibs and commentary on every
and all situations.

Our deeper selves need to be invited into deliberate
discourse with our personas. This dialogue brings
forth a merger of enlightenment and knowledge.

The real self, the authentic self is equally neurotic in grandiosity as he or she is in self-defeat. Fearing that we are not enough we strive to meet an ideal that we create for ourselves. This ideal is filled with over-compensation and is therefore as unreliable as our fearing self in relation to giving us the feeling that we are enough and therefore prideful in who we are.

The chronic question of who we want to be over-shadows the who we are in such a way as to blur reality. In the state of chronic striving we miss the importance of the nuances of life and miss, as well, the feeling of warmth that we get from the experience of life.

Moving from cold toward our real selves is a movement toward warmth–life is warm. Death is cold. In this equation it is our task to live as well as we can within the boundaries of human limitations. We can want to be better, we can want to learn a new skill, we can want more things and even a happier life; we just can not want as a chronic condition.

At some point in the process of a psychoanalysis we face who we are with certainty. This is not the end of the process. While at the still point of facing ourselves it becomes important to make the choice that is most comfortable with the self…This is fundamentally different from what we hear about in the media and what we grew up believing.

The comfortable choice allows for the thoughts to come from the ego, but does not buy into the idea that the ego’s voice is the only alternative. Listening more closely to our body, the anxiety that arises, the lethargy that may impose itself; or the somatic complaints that we may have, need to be heard. Because these sensations are often un pleasant we at times try to ignore and dismiss the feeling. When we chose this option the voices of the body come back in a louder and stronger manner.

A question oriented toward self-understanding is the better option. What am I trying to tell myself with the activation of this anxiety? Am I on target? Am I aiming for well-being? These questions posed to the anxiety can shed light on an otherwise very dark place within our subjective self.

If we are aiming to please others rather than aiming for our well-being first we will lose focus and the lack of clarity actually exacerbates the power of the anxiety or the power of the somatic complaint.

It is important to remember that the idealized version of ourselves is as important to dismantle as is the condition of low self-confidence.

Below is an article written by a counselor in Texas. It is short and it is accurate in its mission.

Van Gogh tells a story of a countess who commissioned him to do a portrait. When the portrait was finished and it came time to unveil the canvas to his subject, she had a startled response. “My God, she said, “that is not me!”

“No, Madame, you are quite right that is not you, that is a painting of you.”

Frequently as we meander through life, we internalize images and thoughts and these images and thought are stored in a “consciousness-storage” container. Some place in the brain-body matrix we have visions and we hold on to these visions as memories. They take on an internal life of their own. We can close our eyes and see a light we saw ten years ago, or we close our eyes and we see a person saying something to us.

At times these visions of our internal world become so real that they appear to us to be our reality. In fact these visions and memories are simply symbolic representations of those people, places or things.

What is contained in our minds represent the world outside of us, but it is not the world outside of us any more than a road map of the eastern United States is the landscape of the eastern United States.

We can find Flint, Virginia on the map, and a good map will represent the way to get to Flint Virginia, but, it is not Flint, Virginia. In the same way we often have a dialogue with ourselves and that internal dialogue takes a form that resembles reality. We can become convinced that this internal dialogue is life, when in actuality the internal only symbolically represents life.

If we go looking inside ourselves for our souls, we will find inside a representation of our souls, but our souls are not in us. We are in our souls. The soul, what Emerson called the Over-soul is something that we reside in. It does not reside in us–we reside in it.

It is an important philosophical distinction because if we can not let ourselves know that life is out-side of us, we will continue to believe that when we find Flint, Virginia on a broad map that is all that there is to Flint. Guide-post exist inside of us that we can use to find the world, but we ought not confuse the map for the reality. If we only find our selves on the map we will fall far short of the satisfactions that the universe can provide.

Let’s give it a shot. Let’s go find ourselves in the world rather than remain content with the representational, symbolic world that exist as a chemical matrix within.

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about your despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

Over and over announcing out place in the family of things……

It seems that no amount of announcing this make it a reality until we are able to announce it to ourselves out of a human kindness and a genuine feeling of self-love and self-compassion. We all struggle with ourselves and with our place in the world, but there is no better ointment for this wound that a capacity to sit alone with one’s own heart and feel it beating. There is not better feeling that to decide I am going to catch the wind. I am going to go in the direction that I want–not the direction that the wind pushes me in.

Alert your heart with a deep sigh and a moan for the hurt and the pain and the time that you have not been able to be kind to yourself or to others and start with the sentence, “everything will be all right as soon as I let myself flow.” The acceptance of ourselves before change, rather than postponing that acceptance until after the change, gives us the strength we need to approach what ever your mother, your father or the universe has thrown at you.

Breath in and know that who you are in the moment is sufficient. The next breath will be just that much easier. Whether we are filled with vitality or dying, the next breath will follow the last and ease of breath is the necessary component to a mindful transition, from one activity to another, or from one life through death.

Impermanence is the earth breathing and oneness makes it our breath as well. Aim to thrive not to strive. Let your drives and your will be the guide to your next move and remember in all cases to give your self the mothering love that you need. It is soothing to like oneself. Fighting wears us down. Thriving raises us up. In the act of mindful compassion we can find the seed of a life that knows how to tolerate pain without suffering.

Come home to who you are. We are each on our own journey and though we may feel an obligation to be responsible for another, we can only be responsible to something, not responsible for something….because each thing, each person has its, his, her own journey…

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