As it was in the beginning is now and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.
And I will show you something different from either
Your shadow at morning striding behind you
Or your shadow at evening rising to meet you;
I will show you fear in a handful of dust.

First of all, my condoleances.
But please reconsider pills, they just postpone it. Face your feelings, let it all out.
If angry, find in outlet. Find some old junk and smash it with a hammer.
If sorrowfull, find a friend or relative, maybe the other brother you just mentioned.

If all else fails, grab a bottle. The effects of alcohol last hours and help with the previous suggestions. Pills just fuck shit up.

Aspiring optimist
Eternal Pragmatist.
With the uncanny ability to see all sides in every argument.