Month: June 2013

To all my wonderful customers who have been asking if I will be part of the Monroe Farmers Market this summer, 2013… I will not be participating this year. I have decided to take a much needed break from a busy school year and life and just focus on time with my family.

I apologize to all those that were looking forward to those empanadas and muffins. I will miss all of you. However, please keep in mind, that if you need anything, from jams to granola, fresh baked muffins, breads or cookies, please do not hesitate to reach out to me and we can make arrangements for you. It would be my pleasure.

The farmers market is still there, every Friday from 3-6pm on the town green, and it is a wonderful market with lots of wonderful in-season fruits and vegetables, so be sure to visit it this summer. The kids and I will be there when we can, to pick up some fresh veggies, eggs and maple syrup! Hope to see you there.

Argh, truth be told, it’s another day of sadness. These days are so difficult, feeling so overwhelmed with our loss and life’s complicated twists and turns. It seems as if I can never catch a break anymore. This empty feeling will always be here, forever engraved in my heart and soul, but lately, things have been extremely challenging. There is just so much going on in life that continues to challenge us.

My handsome little man

Maybe it’s because Lilliana and Lucas are getting older and will both be in school on a full time basis in the Fall and I will be home alone, without my baby Julian. Or maybe it’s because so many people, including my close friends, around me are having more babies and are filled with so much excitement and joy in their lives and I just have a hard time being around that because I wish it was me. Or maybe it’s because life keeps throwing me curve balls almost on a daily basis and I just can’t juggle them all any more. Or maybe it’s because people still don’t ask me about Julian or talk about him because it makes them uncomfortable or they don’t know how to deal with their own emotions, so I am left with all this sadness within these four walls of mine. Or maybe it’s because life just keeps going on for everyone else and mine has been standing completely still for over two years. Or maybe it’s because my heart is in a million pieces and I am constantly reminded in life that I can’t run home to my baby because he’s just not here anymore but buried under the cold, hard ground. Or maybe it’s because I am trying so hard to make life happy again and then something happens to pulls me way back again to this sadness. Or just maybe it’s because losing a child is the biggest loss and hardest thing I have ever had to endure in my entire life and it will be with me forever and I can’t imagine dealing with all this pain and suffering and trying to be happy on a daily basis for the next 50+ years!

Whatever the reason, there are a lot! I don’t mean for this post to be a pity party but just a reminder of how difficult life is sometimes and how we all face so many challenges and some are much harder then others. Even though Julian died over two years ago, and we still go on vacations with Lilliana and Lucas, still take photos of our children, still celebrate their birthdays, still post recipes and still continue to move forward with “business”, it doesn’t mean the grief is over. The truth is the grieving will NEVER END. My family and I need and will always need constant support and loving. We all need it as each of us faces difficult challenges in life, some more then others, and we all need constant pick me ups. We are human and we need those hugs, sometimes more then you can even imagine on some days. So, keep asking your family and friends how they are doing and really, really listening to them, giving them your full support as they might really need it that day!

You heard me correctly, these little bites are filled with so many great flavors, including oats and peanut butter and sweetened with a little agave nectar and chocolate chips. They are superb and so good for you, no sugar, no eggs, no butter and no white flour. Made strictly with whole grain ingredients that you don’t have to feel guilty about eating these anytime of the day, even for breakfast!