I often wonder about the grand scheme of things... where do I fit in? Am I headed in the right direction? Why am I so unlucky in love? Why do I have to work so hard to get things that others get easily? What is the purpose of me being here?......you now get a peek into the life of a fellow who feels held back by invisible chains....curious?

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Poems... I miss You (the trilogy)

I seem to be having a writers/poets block or something..... or maybe I'm just too flustered coz' another one of the peak work seasons is upon me ... ;) ... whatever.... here are a bunch of incomplete poems (if u can still call them that...) ... I find myself unable to complete them at present.... so sad, eh? .... lolz (overdramatic as usual) ....

1. I miss u....Out of Sight.... but still so nearOut of reach.... but still so dearI close my eyes.... and see you therebut when I reach out.... you dissapear

I still miss you.... still long to kiss youWanna hold you.... run my fingers thru ur hair

Life's so unfair.... but I don't careI still love you.... with all of my being..... I swear

2. I miss you (reloaded) ....It's been so long since you left me

But it's only you that I still seein a hazy mix of dreams and reality

I still long for you... apparentlyfor my heart just refuses to break free

But the daily recollection of old memoriesis a pain that sorely vexes me

I wish I could just live in a dream for eternityBut that's just plain insanity

So what do I do but try to not think of u and me... not trouble still waters... just let them be ...

For someday love will bloom again.... on this rugged lovelorn tree

just wait and see....

3. I miss you (revolutions)I'm all alone... once againFate's cruel look... of disdainA tinge of sadness... a whole lot of painBut a deep breath later... I'm singing this refrain...

What don't kill meWill only make me strongerAnd I don't careIf you love me any longer

For the night may be darkBut the stars don't complainThe sun will soon be outAnd take away my pain

And I sing the refrain...

What don't kill meWill only make me strongerLove me or hate meBut you can't ignore me any longer

You can lock me outand throw away the keyBut you can't kill the loveThat's still raging within me

I realize nowThat you were never my destinyI realize nowThat it was never meant to be

I believe in love... that I soon will receive loveI'm already happy... and I'll soon be set free

----Yes, I'm a Matrix fan .... ;)I'm also a fan of The X Files .... but the truth is IN HERE .... :)

it always make me sad when someone goes through a break up. i am sorry it did not work out. but as you said, maybe it was not meant to be. funny and good thing about love is, it is so hard to find, but once you do find the right one, it`ll stay :)

@AshSadly, it's from experience .... hopefully, these 'melancholic'(I actually looked up the word :) poems will stop soon ... and something cheerful should take their place... Someone Somehere is meant just for me ... eh, Ash?

@MayaThanks for your wishes Maya, I'm eagerly awaiting for things to get better even while working out all the pent-up emotions out of the system... Thanks again!

@ElaineIt's certainly good that I'm able to express everything freely here... better than having repressed emotions .... is a really good release... even if 'strangers' are witness to it... Anyway, by now... I no longer consider u all 2 be strangers .... BTW thanks a lot for the song... nice,catchy and naughty too! :) I was grinning all thru the song... Now I'm grinning just thinking of it... lolz

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. ... (1 Corinthians 13) The Holy Bible