I just got engaged to my ex husband. It literally sounds weird to say that.

No-one else has been supportive of that decision but the children. Let me sit in that statement.

The ones who were in the home with us are the ones who believe that we can build a better foundation for the future.

They seen the struggle the arguments and the shatter of the marriage. Yet in still our support is coming from the place of hope.

I’m not sorry for trying things that others have said no to. I’m just trying to live with all of the choices I’ve made in the past. Taking them to the realists truths that I can find and hopefully moving forward in peace.

My punishment is my own self esteem being broken into pieces every time I chase something that makes me feel pain, sadness and anger.

I beat myself up after the haze has cleared. When no one is around I analyze my actions over and over again.

This time I want to look back and say I did exactly what I needed to do to be able to wake up in the morning with a positive start and a smile on my face.

– C L Cunningham

Happy Thursday everyone may it bring you happiness, love, and abundance.

Urgh. I know it’s not a word but it’s the sound effect that I had all day. I feel a little under the weather today. Yet I managed to get myself together enough to go to the laundry mat and run some family errands.

I’m always preaching about having a good day no matter what my circumstances are. It allows me the peace to persevere throughout the day. I’m thankful that I’m starting to feel better. I’m going to eat my Chinese takeout and watch a movie with my boys. I’m missing my firstborn today. It’s her birthday and since she lives out of town I feel like I’m missing out 😭. I guess I’ll call it having mommy woes.

I’m extremely focused on my betterment.
Everyday I see a quote,or a person, or an ideal that is opposite of my dreams my views and my vision for my life.
I’m sure that we all do.

I’m sure that everyone has something to mentally tell us that we’re wrong. Here’s the thing. You may be wrong.

According to that person or that information you are definitely wrong.

So what. Be wrong then.

If it’s right for you who cares if it’s wrong for someone else. I’ve said this time and time again.

Nobody has to live your life but you. Live it. If you covered what you could handle today then you did enough.

Everyone has a different mentality. What’s not enough for someone else is just enough for me.

I got some good advice on how to move forward with meeting other authors and people on social media. It worked. The man said do a little until it meant a lot.

I’m not chasing fame. I’m chasing my dreams. If they include fame… well hot dayum! Bonus!!

I’m chasing meaningful relationships and friendships that last. I’m chasing peaceful vibes and beautiful thoughts. If I die today I want to know that I went on happy. At peace with myself.

Nothing in the world is worth my thoughts being at war with themselves. Ten months ago I chased enlightenment. Meaning I went after finding myself. Finding out what life meant to me. Finding out what my beliefs were and what was really important to my soul.

It wasn’t easy. I almost lost someone I hold very high in my life. Trying to become more I almost broke down. Then one day like a light bulb it came to me to go backwards. Figure out what was important to me and then move forward with my life. I’m doing that daily.

It’s why I can be grateful.

I’m owning my life. I’m responsible for what I feel. I’m strong in my weaknesses.

I refuse to go at any other pace than my own. The people who love me really love me. They have zero desire to change me. I have zero desire to change them. We just grow and flow together. That doesn’t always look good but it’s reality. I love my life.

I’m blessed for the people who I have meet along the way. I’m even more blessed for the people who have stayed.

Be thankful for the journey you’re on. That’s the only advice that I can give. Because if you’re thankful in the small oh how wonderful life will be when your world becomes bigger.