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A Declaration of Love

I'd like to start here a happiness thread. Or maybe a sex happiness thread...

After a while, it's seems like I know you people, from your chapter comments, your posts, your civilized arguments. So as weird as it could seem, I feel it's the right place to say I'm happy, and pretty much the only place where I could explain why.
You're like family - well, absolutely not like family - oh, you know what I mean !

A few days ago, some of you might have read in a chapter comment that I had a long-distance fight with my lover. My fault. And we planned to talk about it this morning, and it didn't go as expected, and as a result I spent the rest of my day high on crying endorphines or whatever they are called: you know, the calm that you sometimes get after you've cried 'enough' ?

Well, I had no idea what to tell him or even how to reach back and say sorry, but still, I felt more relaxed than on any of the previous days. Almost happy. And now I'm fully happy, and not only because of the great make-up sex

I discovered that you can make love across a few thousand miles, and having webcams can be sexy and not always make it look like a porn site. I know, I know, I was prejudiced against webcams.

He said he was curious about bondage. We've been very vanilla so far, to the point that I got silently frustrated by his loose knots, and he just spent some of his afterglow browsing a shibari website and talking about it. And he threatened to use the knowledge to tie me up and not have sex with me, which is... so wicked I can't think about it too much yet.

I didn't say much tonight, but I didn't wake up my housemates either. Thrice.

And yet it's not all there is to it. Sometimes, after a tough run of terrible days, you get a chance to stop, look around and enjoy the sunshine. My life and my emotions are a complete mess at the moment, but I feel I got a respite tonight. Nevermind tomorrow : today I'm aimlessly happy, fairly in love, and tingling all over.

Happiness deserve its own forum ! Gorgeous sex, great times, erotic dreams, people you love... Joy in chunks or crumbs or heaps or tiny imp bottles... What does your latest happiness look like ?

Ely! Right On! I'm in a deliriously good mood myself and I'm thinking about that special guy! We recently had MIND BLOWING sex! I swear he is this undercover sexual dynamo, and to look at it you wouldn't believe it. He's practically a farmer Not to mention, I've enrolled in school for my nursing prerequisites. I'm floating on cloud nine. Tomorrow I might crash, but today is a BEAUTIFUL day!

I've seen a whole lot of stuff going right for people lately. I haven't had anything particularly bad happen myself, and with my luck that might just be as good as it gets for now. = P But the last long stretch of time has been really cruddy, so here's to things looking up!

I'm feeling pretty happy too! My best friend just got out of a bad relationship, and her exboy keeps calling her to yell at her, so I've had to be her ray of sunshine, but we had a party and she stayed to help me clean up someone's puke (which was awesome of her! I can't stand the smell of vomit; I feel like I'll throw up too) and she asked me if I still had a crush on her and kissed me. She said she only did it because I never had the courage to kiss her when we were seeing each other briefly half a year ago but it's pretty clear she's still got feelings for me too.

I've been dealing with a lot of crap lately (research not working, adviser riding my ass due to not producing any results, huge numbers of bills pushing me further in to the red, etc.), but today was absolutely beautiful; the first perfect weather of the year. It took all my willpower to actually go in to lab instead of stringing my hammock up in the backyard and taking a nap in the sun.
Also, I'm looking at it, and I have a handful of potential renters lined up for the fall to alleviate the money problems. On top of that, the weather is still beautiful, and I'm taking my bow out tomorrow and spending a couple of hours out in the warmth rediscovering the zen that is lining up the perfect shot. Draw the bow, feel the tension of the string, focus on the target, hold it, and wait for that perfect heart beat to release the arrow. There are still problems, but none that I'm going to care about in the least with the bow string to my cheek. I also know after a few hours of drawing and holding my bow that I'll be deliciously sore on Sunday Ah wonderful stress relief.

*takes a deep breath* I got accepted to the Social Work program at UCLA. My first response out of four applications I'm finally done with. It's very encouraging and I will be thrilled to go to whichever program ends up being the best for me (mostly financially, lol, they're all great). So... :)x100

I also got a new car from my mom, when I didn't think I'd have a new car of my own for years more. She called it an early graduation present. As far as love, I got wonderful reunion sex after coming back from my dad's wedding in Mexico last weekend. We managed to hold off on penetration until having condoms since I'm in between birth control (giving my body a rest), but it was truly wonderful sex. I actually feel grateful for the time spent apart even though it was hard.

These things couldn't come at a better time because I'm really resonating with Davik about research stresses. I have two weeks and I've reached the point where I don't know what I'm doing and will have to work very hard and get some quick tutoring to finish up before my first poster presentation... Two freakin' weeks!

Also I really want to work on the art project due next week, but I haven't had time. Tomorrow I need to do a lot of laundry and brush up on statistics. It's a crazy time, and I'm only taking one class. :O

I got my job in California (Kings Canyon for those who may have missed the thread ), am taking the train out, got my tax refunds, and spent teh evening with my friends at an SCA dance night (danced with a rather attractive man- soft hands warm personality. Spoken for but whatever. I got to learn a few new dances and show off my bog blue skirt). All in all life is good. Stresses with school, work, travel plans, etc but today was really nice. Oh and my freezer is now stocked so again!

My camera is currently both out of commision and MIA so I hope it gets found and fixed ASAP. I plan on taking TONS of pictures and am half tempted to start up a blog or some such for teh trip (a friend of mine did for his stay in Japan)
And I am taking Amtrak out. I'm planning on flying back simply because I'm hazarding a guess that by teh end of three months out there working all I'll want to do is get home and chillax for a week before classes start back up.
As for SCA dances- don't ask me the names because 1) I don't completely remember them and 2) even if I did I would butcher the spelling of them. But I can tell you that one was an English country dance, one was a Russian one (I think) danced to a song with a bass line similar to tetris and there were a couple of others which were really fun as well. However I will ask my friend who took me there- she might know the names of 'em.

EDIT: For got to ask this one- are there other passanger trains out there besides Amtrak? Just wondering.

I just got back from a dance thing! It was really frickin' fun - I let my hair down, had fun and did things I normally don't do - including dancing with boys. I've never really been into the dancing scene because I can't dance like the girls on the music videos, but apparently I know my shit (pardon my French), and have good rhythm and can DANCE!

I feel really good about myself atm! GO AWESOMENESS!

Plus I won Rockband from a no drinking thing at college (Lottanobooza - no drinking for 24 hours, a blow test every 3 hours>_

I've been working on this damn play since the end of February, and we opened last night! Finally, no more faculty telling me what to do- I rule the show. Crazy, exhilarating, and relaxing, to not have temperamental designers breathing down one's neck. The show itself is going well, too. The fact that I actually got to this point without crying is another bonus. The actors even got together and bought me flowers. And even better- it'll all be done next Saturday!!!
Also wonderful: my boyfriend and I had a really rough patch last week, but this time it made him see how much he really cares for me. He's been the sweetest and most caring ever since then. Normally he has terrible mood swings, and I'm sure that even with the knowledge we gained last week those won't be going away. But they're certainly looking better. He's also making good progress on quitting smoking, which is a great relief.
Also great: I finally had time to do laundry yesterday. Everything smells fresh!
And: it's super warm and sunny out, and the school is turning the fountains back on tomorrow! And tomorrow I'm going to see my little sister's play and get my decants from my parents' house!

My boy is visiting me for the whole weekend, from Thursday through tomorrow. Last night, even though it's not his "thing," we went to a fancy restaurant, and then to a big formal/fun ball held on the outdoor common area of my university.

And then fabulous sex, of course. Duh.

Now he's at a video game tournament with his friends, but I'm looking forward to him coming back tonight.

Make up sex always seems to be better. Maybe because you're already emotional? I dunno. I was fighting with my boyfriend last night and we weren't originally going to do anything but go to sleep because he had to be up at 5:30 for a water polo tournament, but once I started calming down he started teasing me, etc He said when he gets back on Sunday I should be waiting for him in lingerie, and he'll handcuff me to the bed and tease me again. Purr. Make up sex is yummy.

I can't wait to go back home so I can spend quality time with my sweets! I haven't really spent real time with him since Christmas break, and I'm gone all summer, so we're making my two weeks home count!

My last two relationships ended with the girl moving away, but we always end up being friends and adding benefits whenever we're in the same town if we're both still single. I'm happy for the day, but that feeling goes away when we split. :cry:

My latest happiness was when I went to visit one of the girls in New Orleans for Mardi Gras. We hadn't seen each other in months, and didn't leave the bedroom that first day. (Except when she picked me up at the airport. We barely made it to her car then...) The rest of the time I was their, we were sampling food in the area, going to parades, and visiting the aquarium.... When we weren't in the bedroom of course. Mardi Gras can't come again soon enough!

Im working now as a server at a Chicago Bar and Grill with a metric ton of HOT flirty girls who like to party after work. I now have somewhat reliable access to a computer and internet that will let me talk to everyone here. I have lost 15 lbs and am walking 4-5 miles almost every day and am feeling better (health wise) than i have in about 4 years. I'd have to say i have alot to be happy about right now.

Just remember, alcohol has calories, too. I used to *be* a hot flirty server girl who liked to party after work, until I became a FAT server girl who drank too many calories every night. You wouldn't want to sabatoge your amazing progress by boozing it up!

ETA: Since having a kid, I am not longer fat, no longer drink too much, & probably have the healthiest body image I have had in my entire life.

I am well aware of the dangers :). I usually volenteer for the Designated Driver (not much of a drinker and being sober in a room full of drunk people is usualy super funny) and theres ALOT of dancing that goes on which i have been told helps burn callories. thanks for the concern though.

I'm so glad to hear you're doing well, TGC! Good for you! Sounds like a fun job, haha. And good for you for getting in shape

I'm in kind of a bad place atm, lots of stress with finals and I had the bad sense to get in a forum argument yesterday that led to a 3 hour discussion ending when the other person told me I clearly didn't understand health care and that she wasn't even going to bother responding to any of my arguments. Anonymous dismissal like that gives me great anxiety (I know, I know, I shouldn't have said anything in the first place :P) and my OCD/anxiety issues relating to school/this city are already gnawing my mind to the breaking point. Spent the night on the verge of panic attack and unable to focus on anything (not so good with finals today and through next Friday).

On the happy side, to not totally derail the thread, ze Dutchman has bought his plane ticket to visit me for two months this summer :). He's wonderfully patient with me getting used to touching, and is pretty much all around supportive of my weirder needs. Except for physiology, the exams should be doable - did well enough on my first today to hopefully cement an A in the class - and I'm almost done with my first year of pharmacy school. I've got a good job for the summer and a stockpile of video games to beat when I finish my tests.

i just realized i wrote Chicago Bar and Grill instead of UNO's Chicago bar and grill. Its a chain of resturants. this ones in Virginia. Unless im just saying that to throw the law off my scent. MWU-HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! (my laugh is an evil fugitive laugh!)

is:
-moving out of a tiny cramped apartment with my ex-best friend, into a roomy spacious awesome one with my current best friend.
-getting to see the boy I like every day (he drives my carpool) and finally getting the courage to tell him how I feel (not explicitly, but baby steps ).
-the beautiful weather that we've been having lately (I got sunburned! So I might actually get tan!)
-almost being done with this stupid internship that I would hate if it weren't for my amazing coworkers.

I just realized i havent watched a Zero Punctuation review in like 4 months (An australian man shouting about pants on head retarded people is not something you want to explain to other library patrons) So now i get to listen to an australian man shouting about pants on head retarded people for like a full HOUR! WOOT! HAPPY DAY!!!!