Don't know where to start really. We had a BFP on October 26 but a 7 wk scan on tuesday showed no heartbeat and a v. small embryo which looks like it stopped growing at 5 wks. I ws scanned twice by two drs but the prognosis is not good.
I have to go back again on tuesday for another scan to be double sure that the pregnancy is over. The drs warned me that there was very little hope that anything would change but they want to be on the safe side.
So that's it for me this time.
I don't know how I should be feeling really. I'm trying to be strong because I know I've got to continue with the IVF and these knocks could just keep coming.
Although I was v. excited when i found out I was pregnant I did hold back in case anything horrible happened and I think that has helped.
But at the same time during the three weeks I thought I was pregnant I felt so lovely and not alone because I knew a little life was growing inside me. During the times when I was at home on my own I didn't feel alone it was like I had company. Sounds weird I know. I just feel so v. sorry that I couldn't do anything to keep it growing.

I'm gutted but I'm not falling apart or anything. Does that make me hard? I just hope I am dealing with the situation and it doesn't come back and kick me down in a few weeks time.
DH is coping fine, he's a huge rock for me. He has a good outlook on life. I just hope he really is ok. I think so.
I'm trying to focus on the positive things in my life and I'm grateful for those. I'm also v. lucky to still have 11 embryos left, something which i know many girls would dream of.
I hope everyone is ok,
take care
Claire x