Posts tagged ‘runway bride ‘

Do you remember that movie Runway Bride with Julia Roberts and Richard Gere? The movie where Julia Robert character runs from all her weddings moments before she is to exchange her vows? I tend to be a runner, then things start to look like I am going to be hurt…..I run and depending on who you are depends on how fast I run. On New Years Day, I got mad at one of my dear friends. Our friendship has always been rocky, so my first instinct was to get my things, she had and be done with this friendship. But, God reminded me of my motto for 2015 which is QBQ? I could not fail on the first day of 2015, and I have a sneaking feeling that I need to go to her church and I did not want the white elephant in the room. So, I ask her what I could do to fix this? We did not really resolve the issue, but I realized through our discussion that God has place some really amazing people in my life to help my through the changes coming this year. I even tried running when I learned of these changes. But God said nope, and has closed every door I have tried to open myself. I believe He has given me the support and equipment to handle the changes and allowed me to see what I need to learn. I even try running from God, then I think He has giving up on me. Sometime, I cannot feel God, and I beg to just be able to feel His present and then I do not, that is then the doubt set in. Is God real? Why would He care what I think or do? If God is real why cannot I feel Him? Why did He leave me? What did I do wrong? Why? Why? Why? Is the question at hand. This is when I general run fast and furious and shut Him out of my life. No matter, what I do I cannot run from God, and I am tired of running. You cannot out run hurt. We are going to hurt and be hurt, it is part of life. I have discovered that many of my hurts are because I had false expectations for others. My prayer today is that I have less expectations for others and just allow them and me to be who we are without expectations.