A few days ago, I was looking around for binaureal beats on Youtube as a way to induce an Out of Body Experience (OoBE), but instead I came across this guided hypnosis audio, in which you can supposedly meet your Spirit Guide(s) (which they’re a different notion than that of your Higher Self). I tried it, and it worked. My body was paralyzed, but my mind was lucid.

I was in a large room that resembled a white Cathedral. Outside, there were beautiful landscapes and colorful trees with soothing pink-white colors. My spirit guide appeared: an all white light being without any facial or other features, except for two black eyes (that were perceived as, rather than physically having two black eyes), and an elongated head. I’ve seen such beings once before, about 15 years ago, during a past-life regression session (they were greeting me, after death). When later today I google-searched for “white light beings with black eyes”, I came across this article that perfectly describes them: “We also have a special guide around about 5.5 ft to 6 feet tall and appears as a silhouette of pure white light with a light golden glow“. Right on the money.

My connection to that hypnotic session was not strong, so the only clear messages I got, was that her name was Esther (what’s up with all the Jewish names?), and that her advice to me was to “live”. Not a super-productive conversation, but enough to give me a first taste.

In the meantime, I’ve been reading about Out of Body Experiences, and have tried to induce it twice, unsuccessfully. This morning, after waking up from 9 hours of sleep, I tried it again: lying on the bed still, meditating (body sleeping, mind awake). By the time I started receiving some vague images, I heard a voice: “get back to Earth”. Well, that threw me off, and brought me back.

I got unhappy about my unsuccessful attempt again. I thought, “fuck it”, and decided to sleep even more. I saw a few off-topic dreams, but at some point I became lucid. I started shouting the names of Esther, and Heva (my Higher Self), as I do each time I gain lucidity.

Everything goes black.

Next thing I know, I’m floating on the ceiling of my bedroom, my body sleeping on the bed. I’m very lucid, and everything feels very real. I realize that I’m somewhere in between of a lucid dream and a real OoBE, so I decide to float to other places. First, I visited a squirrel’s nest, in our home where pipes rest, but was so dark in there that I couldn’t see well. You see, we have a squirrel pest in our new home, so I was trying to gather intel, on how to get rid of it best. Since I can’t go there physically (between pipes), I thought I could try to find its nest in spirit. Next, I visited a few people, to see if they’re doing ok.

On my way back to my bedroom, Esther appeared. This time, she took the appearance of a woman in her late ’30s, and felt like a sister. She had the physique of Queen Latifah, of sorts. We talked about a few things, but each time I could feel my body move in the bed, I was losing my connection to her (her speech was becoming incomprehensible). But she was clear again about one thing: that I have a life on this planet, and that I must tend to it, instead of seeking escapades to the non-physical realm. She didn’t suggest that I shouldn’t meditate or not seek larger Truths, but that should not be in lieu of living my life (which it currently does).

She also said that she doesn’t know if she will appear to me again, because this is now tied to my success towards working on my life goals. She mentioned that I already know what I need to do in this life (and I do indeed), so once again, her advice was: “live”.