Not Spoken

Why do I stay? You and your demeanor disgust me. Why didn't I say those words? Just A handful of words to be thrown to the ground is all it would take. But then I would sacrifice something More Important. I wouldn't sacrifice him for you. No matter how Horrible. I can't stand you. I can't stand your looks, what you believe in. I can't understand anything about you. I know you're cold. But I can't pity you, no matter how Traumatized you are. I can't see past what you've done to me, no matter if you said sorry. It doesn't take it Back. It doesn't take away the tears I shed. It doesn't take away the anger. The ice-cold fury.

I would say them to you, but I don't want to say goodbye to him. I would, but I couldn't live without him.

So sneer that you have me in this position. One day I'll get back at you. I swear it.

I hate how you can't do a thing for yourself. I hate how you always interrupt me. I hate your laugh. I hate how you dress. I hate how you're crass. I hate how you think he's yours. I hate how you say bad things about her.

But overall, I just hate that I can't say those Words. The words that would make a difference.

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