Tried - tried again
I am silent - numb - and astonished
And a little - just a little inspired
I float over the placid lake
Can almost feel the fresh wetness
Caressing my feet
You are exquisite
That you can create such things
And look - I am no longer bleeding
Weightless nonetheless
My eyes rest upon you
And I feel a touch of tranquillity

And so you move on and the picture fades
Everything dissolves
Nothing is left

Only the silence remains
And the stillness becomes frightening
Lethargy and loneliness are their accompaniment
And I curl into myself
And the storm approaches
Whipping up the waves

Could I but rise
And look once agains at you
And were I able to speak - I would say:
You are here - now everything is good

We are hunted
There's nothing more to be done
And what you say makes no sense!
The ground and what is under it
That attracts me
I hear your name
Cannot feel your heartbeat
I want to go on
Do not hold on to me any longer!
Let me go!

Mandira Nabula - this night will pass

Yesterday you were still whit these
Today you are shouting with those
Exhausted - I turn
I wonder if you can see yourself
Because this world does not revolve around you
Look at me - I am the enemy within
Hold on to yourself - then I'll grab you!

Hold me right!
Everything - everything
I would have given everything for you!

Mandira Nabula - this night will pass
I live - I love
And I breathe each time I see you

And the shadows fall
And the Earth trembles
This heart breaks
Torn away - pulled out and burned
This heart breaks

Our language is not the same
Even if you still think and feel
I live - I love
And I breathe each time I see you

This your first and your last victory
That I sacrifice my time - that I wrote this
But time is a whore - gives herself in haste
I have long gorged on my hatred of you

This is your time - this is your time - to burn
This is my time - this is my time
To burn you
One day you will be in this dark place
I will send you fire and then I listen to your screams

My sympathy I save for those who deserve it
Yes - arrogance is a lonely place
Your glass is not half full and no - Your glass is not half empty
You have nothing but this water spot
Where your glass once stood

The time has come - time once again
This is now the time - it is time
This is your time - this is your time - to burn
This is my time - this is my time
To burn you
Your ignorance - your smugness
Your superiority - your egoism implodes
One day you will be in this dark place
I will send you fire and then I listen to yout screams

05. A Prayer For Your Heart

Panic - let me search for you
Keep you close - so close
Get my strength through you
Vanish - all this endless pain
Come back to me
Let's turn back the time

The past calls me - longing to you
I'm still in love - with all that you did
Oh - I can't be aware
Of all the things that you are
Let me hold on to you
Like you are in my memories
Come back to me

Life - I won't let it in
Rather push it out
Dig my fear in substitutes
Pray - I will pray for your heart
To stop to bleed
And to cure that disease

Now I know that you love me still
It won't change a thing
I will never make you hope
I am your love lost
Don't disappear - You're such a good memory
Let me unchain you from me

His my sole prayer
For bleesing your heart
The strenght you had
Has vanished in vain
I would give you a hand
If only that would help
Ist time to restart
And to step into the world
Out of the dream
Into your life?

06. I Lost My Star In Krasnodar

Something else was in this place
Something I will never meet again
Something we will always think of
I saw the glance in your eyes
Before it disappeared
And I saw the disillution in your eyes
Your terrible confusion
I killed a star in Krasnodar
I didn't see the death between my lips
I'm sorry for the things I said - and did not say

I am - I'm not afraid
I am - I'm not afraid of you

So I was blind for what I saw
So I was deaf for what I heard
I lost a star in Krasnodar
So I am cold to what I felt
So I am dead for I'm alive
I lost a star in Krasnodar
In Krasnodar

Shine - shine - shine - my star
Shine - shine - wherever you are

You are not here in this place
For I know we will not meet again
Therefore I will always think of you
Why can't you just see:
I am no alien - don't you know?
I am as black as white
Always the one who's fighting for
Someone to hold
I killed your smile
I killed your belief
I killed the star of Krasnodar
I'm sorry for the things i did - and did not do

So I was blind for what I saw
So I was deaf for what I heard
I lost a star in Krasnodar
I lost my star
So I am cold to what I felt
So I am dead for I'm alive
I lost a star in Krasnodar
In Krasnodar

You never knew your father
Your mother was like a dove
She flew from branch to branch - Like Noah's spy
In the midst of the floods of human activity
Always on the look out for safe land

Hold me - hold me - hold me oh so tight!

Thus strangers became enemies
How they reached out for the dove
And the dove herself be caught

Hold me - hold me - hold me oh so tight!

With the suitcase standing in the door
A new town in the sunset
A new bed - a new motel

Hold me - hold me - hold me oh so tight!

She never spoke of your father
Only in this one night
As if through lips kissed sore
And with a look of horror on her face
she fell through the door and breathed:
Hold me tight

That town was stranger - That night louder that before

She was alone
Distraught in tears
She hid her face from me
The stranger knocked
And the enemy entered
I saw the outstretched hand
And the dove sick with fear
And I hit out and I hit out
And I hit out with all my strength
And I hit out at bones
And I hit through to the brain

The years have come and gone
I have not seen my mother since that night
A roof over my head - A bed of my own
And I love my wife and I kiss my son
For all the love that now surrounds me
I'll never forget the blood I shed
And the dying man who said to me:
I am back my son
Hold me - hold me!

08. Call Me With The Voice Of Love

I saw you with the flowers
They weren't ment for me - no
I saw you at the corner
You did not turn to me
For my heart is begging:

Call me - call me with the voice of love
Hold me - hold me in the arms of faith

You were the first - you were the last
I ever opened my heart to
Now you seam so far away
Come back and stay
For I say:

Call me - call me with the voice of love
Hold me - hold me in the arms of faith
Lead me - lead me to the gates of tenderness
Feel me - feel me as I feel for you

Too early - too deep - too young - too much
Too soon - too fast - too late enough
Too much - too early - too late enough
Valleys without mountains & mountains without summits
Wings without angels - Crying without laughing
A heart without love - A life without death
I forget none of those words

From the coma of my soul
There is no doorway into the light
No fresh air
To caress my spirit

Veins - Branching out from my body
In entwining embrace
Constricting every movement
I rise into the air
And lose myself in the sky
But the blue is rent apart - The grey breaks through
Shadows fall on me
I wait here - I wait here
I wait here...

So that I - too - can still feel something
I look for the flame
That burns my heart
So that I - too - can still hear something
I look for silence
That calls and knows me

No matter how I writhe
How far I run - how high I fly
My soul lies in coma
Life rushes by me
I persist in my loneliness

From the coma of my soul
There is no doorway into the light
No fresh air
To caress my spirit