A story of a 37 year old woman named Alex, working through the trials of infertility, and now raising a little Alex...

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Greetings from Bedrest

First, I want to say thank you so much for the amazing ideas and assurances from everyone in my last post. It's so foreign for me to become a PT SAHM, but I'm thrilled that I have the opportunity. And I'm already planning our new schedule in my head. I just need to make it through October, which will require a ton of work unfortunately.

Well, it's done! Two beautiful embryos (in the words of the doc and the embryologist) were transferred into my ute with a huge fluffy lining on Friday morning. Now all that is left is waiting. In my clinic's tortuous way, my beta isn't until 10/19, two weeks after transfer, but I will likely test before. The goal will be to hold off as long as possible, but we'll see. My MIL is coming to visit for a week starting Wednesday so that will be a distraction. She wanted to come at a time that worked for us, and I chose this week as I'll be working a ton, and we can pull Alex out of daycare and she can take care of her, which will be nice. Plus it will be good to have a distraction. We're not planning on telling her about the FET, but my husband is terrible about keeping secrets so I imagine it might slip out. But I don't want to test while she's here, so that will help push it out. I had suggested to hubs that it might help to have his MIL here while I'm on bedrest. He said no, he didn't want to involve her. I was worried about him handling it all - taking care of me and Alex. But I'm happy to report that he's been doing great!!! I'm eating well, and he fetches anything I need, but most importantly he's taking care of Alex almost as good as I do! :) She spends a lot of time on the bed with me, but he'll hang out with us too so if she tries to commit suicide by going head first off the bed, he's there to grab her. No fear, this child!

He's actually being much more tender and nice with me than he ever was during fertility treatments before. He's super careful with me, and handling the entire PIO thing (the last 2 times he would just do the injections, not preparing the syringe or anything). He's completely positive that this FET will be successful, which is nice. I tend to be a little more pessimistic, perhaps trying to guard my heart.

I'm happy to report that I'm feeling less ambivalent about this FET. Up until the transfer, I felt like I was going through the motions. I wasn't that excited, and frankly the idea of having kids so close together scared me. I was really doing it to get it done. And to hopefully do it before we move, requiring another doctor. But now, after I saw the pics of those two little embryos, and I've been listening to my circle + bloom meditations, I'm really excited about the possibility of being pregnant and having another baby (or even babies)! I really hope this works, and I have a nice boring pregnancy!!! Ah, the dreams of infertiles everywhere...

31 comments:

so happy for you! I'm glad your hubs is being optimistic..and I know how you feel about trying to stay guarded....As we approach our second FET in the past 8 weeks, I'm doing my best to stay cautiously optimistic, but also trying not to allow my hopes to get up. MIL do offer wonderful distractions and I hope it helps you hold out on the pee sticks. I really want to hold out this time just because I tortured myself last cycle.

Good luck with this cycle and I'm hoping and praying it's the one for you!

I'm so glad to hear that the transfer is done, that your two beautiful embryos thawed well and are settling in for good, and that your husband is being so supportive! I'm sending you lots of lucky thoughts and hoping that you make the move to Colorado with the most precious of cargo!

How exciting, and I'm glad your husband is so much more supportive. Maybe its because he has proof of what wonderfulness all these pesky treatments can produce. Sending lots and lots of sticky vibes your way!!

Wow, I am SO optimistic about this. Maybe just mirroring your attitude, but I really think that this is it for you guys! I hope you and Alex are enjoying your time in bed together, and that amazing things come from this!

I am just like you - ambivalent until transfer. I just know that once those embryos are in on Friday, that I will be attached to the hopeful success of this cycle. It's so hard.

Isn't it wonderful that the hubs are "nicer" during IF treatments now? It's like they know that they'll get something great out of it so they want to make it as positive for us as possible! I have experienced the same thing with B. So weird, but so good.

I always POAS at 7dp5dt. When do you do it? I am nervous for you (but in a good way) and excited for you as well!

Keep us updated. When do you plan to pee on stuff? Sending prayers, good thoughts, etc. to your uterus.

I know it's probably going to be a stressful transition/life change, but I am so happy for the new stage in your mommyhood/career! It is so great you are able to spend more time with baby Alex. She is gorgeous by the way.

Oh yay! Glad to hear things went well and you are now in TWW! And I am *really* glad to hear that your DH is being a sweetheart - I might faint if mine did an about face like that. I've got everything cross for you, girl!

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I always wanted to be called Alex, and nobody listened to me. I dreamed of the day when I would have my own daughter to call my own, and I would call her Alex. My dream has come true...
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8/10 - Received diagnosis of compound heterozygous MTHFR mutation - one C677T and one A1298C mutation. Researching implications. Add Folgard 2.2 2x per day and baby aspirin - for the rest of my life...