Friday, January 1, 2010

This is one of the sweetest pictures ever............ This is Jayda Karen Alofipo, born Nov. 29, 2009

This is what I call "Sleep in Heavenly Peace"

Throughout the entire month of December, I kept thinking about this thought; "Sleep in Heavenly Peace". I wanted more sleep. I wanted more peace.

Why does December have everything in it; the best of times, the worst of times; the most memorable family moments, and the most stressful and hair-pulling moments?

I had planned on being a little bit more calm this year. That was my goal.

I thought I had it all figured out.Shop early. Chill out.

Plan. Plan. Plan. Write out my plan. Put my plan in a notebook.

Chill out.

Enjoy Every Day.

Carry out my PLAN.

Cherish EVERY moment.

Chill out. Rest a little every day.

Meditate and plan some more EVERY day.

BUT.........

This is how I felt.......in spite of all my planning

Even though it's Dale in the picture, I felt like I was the one being "chewed up" by the bear. The bear of 'stress and anxiety'.

( Just looking at that bear makes me feel anxious. :) Long story for another day.)

I spent the last 20 months of my life learning to "CHILL OUT". "It's all good", as some of you would say. I kept telling myself that whatever happened was going to be just that, "all good". December is a month of special feelings and I WAS NOT going to get stressed out and be a screaming idiot that no one wants to be around. That was the "old Karen", and I have changed ;)

I did learn a hard lesson this last month: "Old habits don't die easy"

Now it's over. It's January 1st, 2010. (btw, Are we going to call it twenty-ten?)

I am going over everything that happened.

Did I accomplish what I wanted to?

Did I enjoy my family?

Did my family enjoy ME?

What did I LOVE about the holidays?

(lovingly known by me in the past, as the "HOLI-DAZE")

I am going to list a few "LOVES"...

I loved thinking about others while I was shopping.

I loved listening to my children and their spouses laugh together at 2 am.