Month: May 2016

Adulting: the act of having to behave like an adult and do adult like things.

This is something that is going to be a very real thing for me in a just a little over the year, but even though I have not graduated college yet I am definitely talking strides to being a fully emerged in the adult world of work, bills, and free-time.

This summer I am keeping myself rather busy with school, an internship and work. My internship involves me being a digital media marketing intern so I will be learning quite a few things. The company I am working for is located down in the heart of KC in the eclectic district called Crossroads. I live about 20 minutes (when you are not traveling during rush hour) from the business and as I am driving to the internship, into the city I feel a little bit of a rush wash over me. I love seeing the tall buildings off in the distance growing closer and I like driving through the city with buildings stretching up high above me. I think one of the reasons I like the city so much is there are always things going on and so many places to go work get work done or to go out and have a good time. I like having options and trying new things so that is just one of the reasons I like the city. Anyways, back to adulating. My first day at my internship was just a couple days ago and I am interested to see how a company (specifically a start-up) company works. In the morning we have a short meeting (called stand-up because we literally all stand around a table to keep it short.) that goes over what is going on in the company and people discuss what they are going to work on for the day. After that people seem to settle into their respective places and develop their flow for the day. Lunch comes and people converse, but then everyone settles back in until the end of the day. I thought I would get really bored quickly, but the time did not drag and I managed to get several of my tasks done or at least a nice head start on them. When it came time to leave I joined a chunk of the city on the commute home. I felt a sense of accomplishment and excitement again because I felt like an adult and I could see myself doing something similar each day.

So moral of the story, I really enjoy working for a business because I like having my own space, a team to work with, a task list, and I like being able to go to out to lunch at different places and dressing up for the work place (oddly enough). I also know that I want to work for a larger company that has room for advancement and involves products or people that I can stand behind and traveling around wouldn’t be such a bad gig. With having little to know experience I know I am going to have to really work to get someone to invest in me so I can invest in their company.

So tomorrow is the first day I am actually working on a floor in the hospital as a clinical associate, and I am terrified. I have been in bed for almost an hour now because I am working my very first twelve hour shift tomorrow and I need my sleep, but I will still probably get my vent iced coffee with skim milk and two pumps of sugar free vanilla (because mind over matter). Twelve hours seems very daunting, but I know I will make it through, I think I am just more afraid of doing something wrong whether that be documentation, taking a blood pressure, or making a patient upset. I know the last one is inevitable at some point because no matter what you do, you cannot please everyone. My mom keeps telling me that I need to relax and that it is my first day so they know you are nervous and may make a mistake. She and anyone else who has told me the same thing are right because they are not going to just turn me loose, that is why they are called orientation shifts. So I will say my prayers that all goes well tomorrow and get some sleep.

Here’s to setting two alarms way before the sun is up and becoming an adult!

Love. Something so many girls and guys want to experience in life just once, and if we are lucky enough we will find a person to experience this with for the rest of our lives. I too am guilty of this want.

All through high school I was socially awkward and lacked confidence making group projects difficult for me. Did I want a boyfriend, absolutely. All of my friends were starting to get them and I was always the third wheel. Has anything changed in college, not really but I have very different feeling now. Before I thought I was doing something drastically wrong or that I wasn’t pretty enough, or that I didn’t have an interesting personality. Now though, I realize that I am not doing anything drastically wrong, but rather I am doing things just right. Since going to college I have become more confident and I have made some wonderful friends who still love me even if I don’t match or do the weirdest things. With that being said, I have had my fair share of interactions with guys who have shown interest in me, but for one thing or another it didn’t work out. Was I upset and sad at first?…absolutely, but with my friends and faith I realize that it will work out eventually. I think that because I haven’t been in a serious relationship I have been able to learn so many more things about myself, which will only make a relationship stronger when one does occur.

So many people talk about this and I am also someone who preaches this, but it is much harder to keep following. One must trust that God has a plan for us. Not just one plan, but rather one for every aspect of our lives and we must be patient because if the thing we want is not in our lives at the moment then we are supposed to learn something or experience something that will make ourselves or maybe the other person ready to be in that relationship.

Another thing thing that I used to find myself doing is being jealous or resentful towards people who are in relationships, but now when I see a young or old couple together it gives me hope and trust in God that one day I will have someone who will compliment my life and I can compliment theirs.

To end, I just want to say that patience is a hard thing to have, but while you’re waiting do cool things, spend time with great people and soon enough the moment will be here.

I know this seems to be a reoccurring theme, but I apologize for not posting frequently but life sure gets crazy when you are busy procrastinating final and papers, working to try and pay for the IV of coffee you will need to cram for those finals you spent procrastinating. With that though, I have finished my junior year of college and while I was watching this years seniors walk across the stage I couldn’t help wanting to cry, not because they were leaving, but because in exactly one year that would be me. In one year I will be leaving behind the place that in the past three years has become my home where I get to eat lunch with my best friends every day, who I only have to walk about 10 feet down the hall to see the people that matter most, and the place that I can’t actually get work done in the PLC. I know the relationships I have formed in the past couple years won’t fade, but we won’t be as close physically every day so that is what I will miss, but that does mean Sunday Brunches with mimosas and Saturday night stories.

Going into this semester people said it would be the hardest semester yet so I definitely buckled down and prepared for the storm, but honestly it was not as terrible as I thought. I did have to work for my grades, but I still managed to pull off a very solid 4.0 earning my spot back on the Dean’s List. With a successful semester I also got offered to be an RA {Resident’s Assistant} next year in the building where I first lived. In addition to that, I have just started working at a hospital as a clinical associate. I will have a lot on my plate semester with 20 hours and those two commitments, but next year is bound to be a blast regardless.

With this semester over and some fun memories in the book I look forward to having some more adventures this summer with my Little and her boyfriend when I am not at summer school, my marketing internship, or work…summer may not be what it was when I was little {pool days, naps, and too much tv}, but after a long day I am sure down to enjoy a glass a wine now that I am 21.

I pray and hope that I will post more frequently because I am planning to have some good nights.