Monday, March 18, 2013

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Monday, March 4, 2013

While digging for John's birth certificate this week so we could sign him up for Kindergarten I came across a note my mom gave me the day I got married. It stopped me in my tracks. Loosing your mom is not an easy thing at any age. I have several friends some older and some younger who are in the thick of caring for mom's with memory issues, cancer, and just plain old age.

It is the notes like this and other random things that I find or God puts in my path that make it a bit easier to swallow, because I need to "hear" her voice and remember our life together. She was a pill sometimes (probably where I inherited my pilliness from) but I miss her everyday.

"This will be the last chance I have to tell you what I need to. The last chance with all the wedding festivities going on to let you know how I feel. The last time....

You'll be my baby only

I can stroke your hair and rub your back {This was my favorite after a rough day}

I will have one of those ever so wonderful hugs that only you can give me

Share tears and fears of our days and future talks

Get mad at you for not doing something my way!

Give you a toe adjustment

Smile when you're not looking because I am so proud of you

Thanks for being here this summer. Dale feels the same way, you kept me sane while he has been gone so much, my work has been poopy,and we really had a chance to get to know each other all over again. I am so thankful for that. You are a strong, independent person that is so happy and I am so proud of you. That's all I ever wanted for you and have tried to show you to do and to be. Be proud of yourself and happy with yourself - then you can give all that to someone else, your husband.

I might be giving you to Chris but I will never actually "give" you to anyone. You're only out on "loan" on the share program ( for details read the fine print!). You'll always be my Suzybaby, and my Sunshine....