Discouraged!

Friday, April 12, 2013

I'm losing my fire to continue this journey! My bad knee is the major reason I'm feeling this way. I can't workout like I want to so my weight loss is not where it should be. I would usually lose at least two pounds a week if not more, but now, since this knee of mine have decided to snap, crackle, & pop... UGH!!! I've attended every 5K training clinic so far & even won a free 30 min massage at last Thursday's training. I can't wait to get my massage! I really need it. My hubby said he's willing to give me a massage whenever but we all know what that leads to.

So we train for the 5K on Mondays & Thursdays. I usually look forward to attending. Not anymore. We started out with a 6 min run & 2 min walk yesterday. I maybe ran 3 mins before my knee started acting up. So I started my "runway model" walk at a fast pace. I was determined to continue to do something. By the end of the training, my knee was swollen. It hurt to even bend it. It was tingling & my toes were numb. I knew I should've stopped but I didn't want to. I didn't stay for cool down & stretching. I was so upset. I want to quit because I know I won't be able to run the 5K on this knee. I've already registered for it, paid for the pasta party & ordered our team shirt.

Despite my knee injury, my weight loss hasn't been too bad. I weigh myself everyday just to see if I need to change anything with my journey. I'm maintaining. No loss & no gain. That's probably because of this food challenge I'm part of. If you eat it, you have to take a picture of it & post it. Here's what I had yesterday:

Taking a picture of what I'm about to eat really makes me aware of my choices! I almost had some Ben & Jerry's Chunky Monkey ice cream but decided not to because I can't eat only one serving. I will get a spoon or two of it once my son opens it though.

I got a battery for my pedometer & wore it yesterday. It said I had 15,255 steps! I couldn't believe it, but I did do a lot of walking. I walked on my lunch break, to my doctor's appointment, and then I walked at the 5K training clinic.

Update on my insulin pump - I didn't get it started last Friday. I guess my PCP didn't approve the training so that's at a stand still for the moment. That hasn't stopped Minimed from sending me a invoice for payment. I started to send them a note saying I would pay once I started using it.

Well, that's about it for now. I hope everyone has a safe & fit weekend! Make great choices!

MARCIEMCGOWAN
Don't give up. You can still eat right and nurse your knee back to health. This is just a slight detour in your journey. and more will come later. just learn from this and next time it will not be as much of a problem.

NIKKICOLE83
Don't give up honey! I know the knee feels like a deal breaker but it doesn't have to be. Have you gotten it checked to see what the issue is? Don't forget to ice it as well and you need to get a brace. Even if you have to walk most of the 5k, you should still go. And with as good as you are doing with your nutrition, you are still on track. 2 lbs a week weight loss doesn't last for long anyway especially as you get smaller. Just keep at it and know you have support.1865 days ago

TJSELLERS
So sorry to hear about your knee. That has to be very dissapointing to not be able to participate. But, you must rest your knee or you will set yourself back even further. Try to focus on the positive. There will be other 5Ks that you will be able to participate in. You are doing such a great job at maintaining your weight. You should be very proud of yourself. Things will get better soon. Keep your head up!!!1867 days ago

TRAVELGRRL
First of all, HAD to laugh about the massage comment, and even had to read it to my husband!!! (Men are all alike, aren't they?

Sugar, I am soooo sorry about your knee! Yes, you should have quit but I totally understand your commitment to finish what you've started. You absolutely need to back off the running, and maybe even the walking until it feels better.

May 11 is still a month away, so even if you have to walk the 5K you can still participate. Don't give up hope!

LOVE the photographing of the food....hmmmm, that seriously might work for me to keep me on the straight and narrow!

MISSB8604
Don’t lose your fire! This journey is extremely hard but is SO worth it! Try to look up other exercises you can do that won’t affect your knee too much (I have knee issues too). Also, you should ice it down and elevate it in the evenings. The point is to just stay off of it and give it time to rest. Congrats on maintaining, that’s always a great thing!You’re doing very well, just don’t give up!