Today’s bizarre and upsetting peek into the tumultuous marriage of Johnny Depp and Amber Heard comes in the form of a TMZ report that Depp created some bloody, drug-fueled artwork earlier this year during one of the couple’s many fights.

Heard claims that Depp was “drunk and high on ecstasy” this March when he accidentally “cut off a portion of his forefinger” while smashing a “plastic phone” against a wall. Convinced Heard had been cheating on him with Billy Bob Thornton (a claim she denies), Depp then dipped his bloody stump of a finger into some “dark blue paint”and wrote a message that appears to say, “STARRING BILLY BOB” and “EASY AMBER.”