Musings from an eternal optimist about post-divorce life, the state of being a single mom, dating in one's mid-forties, feminism, and whatever else strikes my fancy. Previously blogged at http://pollyannasdivorce.blogspot.com and you can read the before story there.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Resting

It was quite a week.

Yesterday I interviewed with a fantastic organization. I know that it went well - deep inside me, my heart and mind are both at peace that I gave the best interview that I was capable of giving, that I made a good impression, that I gave it my all.

I looked around their offices with a bit of hunger: hunger to be part of an organization that I believed in, doing good works that change people's lives. Hunger to change my own life, as well. And hunger for smart colleagues who share my values, who laugh with me over coffee, who brainstorm around tables, who then go out and change the world.

It's getting closer. Yesterday was a taste of it. Will they offer me the job? I have no idea. I feel strongly that I am a great candidate, but these things are what they are, and perhaps there is another great candidate, with more experience than myself. That is out of my control, and it is what it is.

On Tuesday, I will repeat the experience, only for a job that I want even more than the one yesterday.

It is exhausting sometimes, this life of mine. Yesterday evening I felt like I was in a fog, and I didn't climb into bed so much as fall into it. This morning, I've delayed my run a big, because gallons of coffee while lying in bed, my dog at my feet, and my daughter (and cat) sleeping in the room down the hall, seems like a picture of bliss. I am grateful to rest, to regroup, to have some downtime. Next week, I will interview again, I will find more jobs to apply for, to be excited about. I will network. I will try to move forward this life of mine.

But today, I rest, and dream of the future that is starting to feel within reach...

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About Me

I am blogging anonymously to protect the innocent and the not-so-innocent. I am a woman in her early 40s, an optimist, a reader and writer, a businesswoman, a mother, a daughter, a friend, a cancer survivor, and I am recently divorced. I believe in sharing life with my girlfriends, the healing power of home cooked food, the joy of motherhood, and the wonder of starry nights and pebbled beaches. I don’t believe in the mommy wars: I was a stay at home mom for nine years, and now I’m a working mom, and I have friends in both camps.
Pseudonyms: I’m PollyAnna, my daughter is Katherine, and my ex is Bryan. Pictures are from Google Images and are not of anyone I know.
Contact me at pollyannasdivorce@gmail.com if you'd like to say something privately, not posted on the blog.