This song tells my story, it's all about me
India Arie
"Ready for love"
I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I'd quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity

I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately I've been thinking
Maybe you're not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
I'll say the same thing

I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I won't complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here

If you give me half a chance
I'll prove this to you
I will be patient, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respects the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If you'll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

This lonely isolation,
Follows me through my dreams,
I wander around with doubt,
So cold and incomplete,
There is nothing here for comfort,
No spark of hope i see,
I breathe deep and fill my lungs,
To silently release...
This is more than a dream to me,
I breathe deep and drown my lungs,
And release silently,
I gasp for breath to only hear,
What's inside me,
An echo...
More than a dream to me,
An echo of my scream...
I gasp for breath only to hear,
An echo...
More than a dream to me,
An echo of my scream...

"Once you assume a creator and a plan, it makes us objects in an experiment." - Christopher Hitchens

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cause you came around
Why don't just go home
'Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I could say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I could say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I guess it wasnt really right
I guess it wasnt ment to be
It dosnt matter what they say
cuase we were good in bed
I guess I stuck around so I can
fight for all the wrong reasons.
No...it dosnt matter what I tired
Its just hard to leave when ur going down on me.
I guess I stuck round and fight for all
the wrong reason.

well u know my friends..they know
ur enemy.
I pretian I dint hear what they said to me
Cuase I got off everytime you got on to
me.
Was it wrong to go along with insanity?

I guess it wasnt really I want it
It wasnt what I thought
I want it to all to go away

I guess it want really right...
I guess it wasnt ment to be.
It didnt matter what they say
cuase we were good in bed
so I stuck around for a fight
No...it didnt matter what I tired
Its just a little hard to leave when ur going down on me

I can't really relate to it right now specifically, but this bit off Defeater's Prophet in Plain Clothes sums up the feelings of most slightly-more-depressed-than-not people, especially the target audience hardcore- and metalheads pretty well.

Well I've been tired cause I don't sleep that well on trains
well I got ups and downs but day are all the same
I've been low but it never gets me down
well ive been thrown out ive been let down ive been shamed
well ive had hardships ive been stripped of pride and name
ive been low but it never gets me down
nights spent drinking all the worry from my head and days spent wandering wishing i was dead
if only i could muster the words out from my mouth i would sing oh i would sing
id take the next train out
cause ive been hoping ive been praying theres some god so when i die im saved and found and im not lost
cause all hes done for me is take away the ones i love

If you are in need of someone to speak to, feel free to PM me. If I haven't scared you off; I might appear mean here, because I strive for effective and direct presentation of information. Oh, and I'm from Denmark, and don't write very well.

If you have any problems with my behavior, feel free to confront me with it. I love improving myself and fixing my mistakes.