In an interview with Billboard Magazine, Kesha’s mom spoke out about her daughter’s painful ordeal with Dr. Luke and life after the singer’s failed injunction. Pretty intense.

Though no new details have emerged on the case itself, Pebe did give some insight as to why she and her daughter didn’t go to the police after the producer’s alleged 2005 rape. According to Sebert, it’s a choice she regrets to this day:

“Looking back, I don’t know why we didn’t go to the police. Kesha told me not to do anything. She said, ‘Mom, I just want to sing. I don’t want to be a rape-case victim. I just want to get my music out.’ I didn’t follow my instincts.”

And that choice had lots of ramifications. Apparently, her daughter would threaten to take her car to Mulholland and “drive off the cliff” or that she’d often declare:

“I would rather be dead then spend one more day with him.”

Dr. Luke not only allegedly repeatedly sexually assault the singer, but he’d often emotionally abuse her by telling her that Katy Perry was “so much better” while also labeling her a “fat f*cking ­refrigerator,” during a music video shoot. That’s gotta be hard for anyone to hear, especially a young girl like Kesha. Still, she’s doing better now than in 2005:

“Kesha is so much better now. She wasn’t comfortable with having to do this, but I think she realized as this thing progressed that she can advocate for sexual abuse or other things. The fact that she is at peace with that has really been healing.”

Summing up her daughter’s awful predicament, Pebe stated:

“Dr. Luke basically owns Kesha until her death. He doesn’t have to give her any money and is under no time constraints. She can’t legally put any new music out, or he can and will sue her.”