Thursday, April 23, 2009

There was a time in my life a few years ago where I was tired of the same old relationship that was doomed to go nowhere from the beginning. I would always find the "good for now" kind of guys and we'd have fun for a while but I'd always know that he wasn't the right one for me. I had asked the Universe for "someone I could share a good portion of my life with." I thought this request was very specific, and I got a very specific person to share a good portion of my life with. See, I was scared to ask for what I really wanted; a soul mate. The universe provided me with someone whom I did share a good portion of my life with. I brought him home with me and showed him my old stomping grounds. I took him to the places I spent time with growing up and in high school. We hung out with my old friends that I hadn't seen for years and then just like that, he was out of my life. I did get to share a "good portion" of my life with him, it was just the wrong portion. The universe has done it to me before, with very specific results.

About a year ago, I was up to some manifesting again. I decided that I was about ready for a new relationship in my life. I knew the Universe is good at getting specific and I was going to ask for someone pretty specific. I made a list and put down all of the qualities in a man that I would like to have in an ideal mate. It was a pretty extensive list: humour, reciprocation of feelings, sexual and mental attraction, intellectual and spiritual equal, someone I would grow old with, I even wrote down great sex in the mix. I wanted my soul mate. I wasn't scared of asking for what i wanted this time.

This was the money shot for me, this was something that would change my life once and for all. I was ready to make the leap and let it happen when I was ready for it to happen. Because it was a very important manifestation, it kept popping up in my head. I had a hard time to let it go and trust in the Universe. I didn't fear asking for what I wanted, but I had some doubts actually receiving what I had asked for. What if i wasn't ready? What if it didn't work out? Thoughts kept popping up in my head and this kept on pushing this person away. I think I felt that I wasn't ready for receiving what I wanted. I wasn't quite at the right point in my life to welcome a partner into the mix of craziness that is my life.

A few months ago, I turned a corner. I stopped worrying about what the Universe would provide me and I let it go. I just had faith that I would receive what I had asked for when I was ready for it.

A few months ago, the brother of an old friend of mine contacted me on facebook. I had known him for over a decade and had helped him out when he was going through a rough patch a long while ago. We started talking and somewhere in the mix the fact that we had been attracted to each other years ago but weren't in the right place in our lives to do anything about it. It was weird because I had always had an inkling that he was attracted to me, but it was great to find out that it was mutual. An online relationship started then and the more we talked the more we discovered that we have a lot in common. A few weeks into it and I remembered the list that I had made and went through it; I ticked most of the things off except for the few that I couldn't tick off because I'd need to actually be in contact with him.

It was decided that I fly back home to see him on my break, which was only a couple weeks away. This is where I'm writing this post, the end of my two weeks with him. Everything I listed has been provided for me. I have everything I asked for. Not a day has gone by where I haven't been in awe with what I have received from the Universe. We are both extremely connected with each other, we can feel what the other is feeling without words. I can hold his hand and feel the love he has for me and he can feel mine for him. It is unbelievable.

What will happen next? Who knows? We have decided to do our best not to think too much on the situation and to just feel. Letting our spirits and hearts guide us through what is yet to come will be awesome. I am excited.

I've stopped believing in coincidences. There is no such thing. When something happens to you out of the blue it's because it's supposed to happen. Why is this? Everything is interconnected, whether you choose to believe it or not. The opportunities we come across in life is the universe saying to you, " hey, what about this? This is the path that you wanted to go down, and I'm giving it to you now." Sure, these non-coincidences are out of the ordinary and sometimes don't really make sense at the time, but they shouldn't. They should stick out and make you stop and think about what has happened or what could happen. Don't discount them as a mere coincidence. As I said before, everything in this life happens for a reason. This holds true for the good stuff and the bad stuff as well. Remember: no rain, no rainbows.

Who Am I?

I go through life soaking up everything I can and taking pride in everything I do. I'm here to help people spiritually. The purpose of this blog is for me to get things out of my head and to help me gain clarity. For anyone who reads it, I can only hope that some enlightenment will be gained.