I've ruined more than one relationship with my selfishness, and now the one woman that gives a fuck about me enough to love me, I cant even bring myself to give a shit about her! I just want to kill myself, the world would be better off that way, 100000 in student loans hasn't meant shit, and I'll never make my own child. I might as well have been aborted. That's what all the Christians thought anyways, that no one would love me because my parents couldn't make it work. And as soon as I do something to make the verbal abuse stop, suddenly I'm the bad guy. And everyone wonders why I can't communicate with anyone. Fucking execute me.