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The drive here was mentally hard. Yet rewarding. I’m loving my stints with family and friends. It really is great to see everyone.

Much needed time to catch up.

When I get back to Nebraska I’m going to be happy that I made the decision to come. Right now I’m just preparing my for this new day to drive.

It’s Friday everyone and I hope you all have plans to enjoy some of it. It’s too good to go to waste so if you can get in some fun doing the things you love with as many limited restrictions as you can.

You only have one life and the time clocks don’t stop for plans. Hopefully you’ll get to spend it enjoying life in the moment.

Bright and sunny morning outside. The wind smells fresh and cool enough to bring tears from the chill. I’m being thankful.

Monday sweet Monday oh how I adore you.

Listening to Christmas music and playing a couple of hands of digital spades I refresh my spirit. Off tune and lip singing I groove to the beat.

Checking out my social media and trying to be helpful to my fellow writers I embrace the day. Uplifting is a soul filled with kindness. I’m not always the kindest of the kind. (I think I made that word up lol 😂) (nevermind google searched it and it’s a word double 😂 😂)

I stroll and enjoy the thoughts of others. Shake off any negativity and keep it pushing. There’s more important things to think about. I pray quietly for myself and others turn my thoughts to a positive radio station so I can focus on the beauty of this day.

Yes my mind tends to remember the past like any other human my memories can grab a hold of my heart and twist it tight if I allow it to. The trick is to kick those thoughts ass before they can have a pity party. There’s nothing wrong with wanting more for myself than sadness. It’s time to live. Not that the love has faded or that the pain is gone. Those things remain. The only thing that changed is the want to receive the awesomeness that I am being given everyday. It’s available if I want it.

I have to grab hold of smiles and laughter. I have to reach out and say good morning to a stranger. I have to be willing to send peace and blessings out to the universe to receive it back so that’s what I do.

Hello universe I love you!

I know that you love me back 😉

Today I’ll let bygones be bygones and reach outside of my Pandora’s box grab hold of my sanity and unlock the mindset that keeps me captivated by the unnecessary. Dance in the rain of the storm kick off my shoes and open my soul up to gratitude because I made it through another day. Awoke today to happiness and the calmness of life.
C.L Cunningham

Seriously…. whyyyy. When the Lord says straighten it out. Got dayum it he means straighten it out.

I’m minding my own puffin a little laughing a little and out of nowhere an asthma attack. Smh. In the west coast my asthma barely bothered me. Now that I’m back home it’s literally kicking my butt.

Thank goodness my ex has worst asthma than me. Ok wait that came out wrong. Let me explain. I have no medical in this state mine is in the state of California . He had everything that I need for my asthma and brought over extras. Thankful for that because I was using it up last night. I know I know. It’s officially time to handle that. As I was laying on the bathroom floor coughing up grossness and fighting my consciousness to focus on the present. I realized that it’s time to make a change in my lifestyle.

I’m most definitely hard headed.

I’m sure I scared my dad a bit too. When he has to come and question me on my health it’s about to hit that fan. I’m one of those people who tries everything home remedy until I have no choice but to go to the emergency. I don’t like hospitals. Eww.

It’s funny now but wasn’t so hilarious yesterday.

It’s that time of the year. The weather is hot and cold. Allergies are at an all time high. And us asthma sufferers are living like a fish out of water. Barely. Ok ok I had to put in one more joke.

Today will be filled with more food, fun and laughter. My focus is already on the leftovers in the refrigerator. I’m happy for another day.

I’m sitting around minding my business like I said I would and boom. Houston we have a problem.

I start to notice that my hard earned work is becoming the center stage to some negative energy. Uh. What? Who goes there? And why in the hell are there reasons to bother me? I’m chilling mo chilling on a Monday. Enjoying my family and friends with a smile on my face and a techno beat in my heart.

Arrogance tends to be a weapon for those who prey on the weak. Funny how it’s unwanted when the weak are having fun and pushing forward through the storm. Coming from a heritage of the beat down, let down, and stole from I welcome life to send my reparations. Won’t get them though. Nevertheless I strive for greatness on my own back, I didn’t ask for the favors I’m writing for my piece of the universal pie. And I’m happy to do because I’m good at it. It’s my gift from above and I’m blessed to have it.

Can’t stop won’t stop like Charlie Murphy on Dave Chappelle’s comedy show. Enjoying a laugh along the way. Embracing challenges as they come. You get what you get and don’t throw a fit. I’m sure that applies to everyone. Including those with power beyond what is necessary. If getting hit below the belt is a talent then I’m talented asf.

Live life as unexpectedly as long as you fall in line. Hmmmmmmmmm. I’m gonna let someone else be a cadet because I’m a writer and that requires no filter.

It’s starting to look a lot like hypocrisy at it’s best and ain’t nobody got time for that. (Let the church say amen) Amen.

I’m thankful for laughs instead of tears. Fun instead of fake mess and happiness that keeps me going on this journey of life.

My days of trying to get my life in order has gone from an amazing feeling of zen to bytch please.

Completely thrown of my high horse and placed in the humblest of situations I’m signing up and looking for all the help in sight. I spent a cool 4 hrs yesterday at health and human services only to walk out without what I needed because what they need to impute into the system out weighs my hunger.

Uploading documents that haven’t been received. I wait.

Life seems to keep me in a holding position in certain ways. As always I have to trek through this version of my story.

Watching people work at places they obviously don’t want to work at keeps me thriving at pushing through. My joy and passion for expressing myself makes me optimistic for the future. Creatively thirsting to see more and learn from those who have walked this road before me.

Welcoming my right to speak on certain things that burn my fire and also passing on engaging with anything that steals my peace. Venting and then letting go is a must for me right now. I can’t hold on to a lot of negativity even though it’s readily available if I choose to do so.

I’m happy for writing games and friends to chat with. For healthy enough children and a place to sleep.

C.L Cunningham

Looking away from the downward spiral and trying to climb the staircase.