Friday, October 10, 2003

"When Peter tells us to humble ourselves, he goes on to tell us in a way that few seem to understand - we humble ourselves by casting our anxiety on God, because we know He cares about us. Anxiety or worry is actually a very profound form of pride. It is pride that basically thinks our problems are too big for God, so we will have to deal with them ourselves. True humility is truth and reality. It is acknowledging the truth and reality that without God we will make a terrible mess of things. Therefore, we cast our worries on Him because we know He loves us, as the cross overwhelmingly proves, and He will help us, which He sent His Holy Spirit to us for....
... To be able to discern the truth of these times, or about anything else, we must cast all of our anxiety upon Him. Humility, knowing the love of God, and abiding in the peace of God, are required for discerning truth. If you are anxious, angry, bitter, etc. you will see these prophecies through those veils, and their true meaning will be distorted to you. In Philippians 1:9-11 Paul tells us what is required for true knowledge and true discernment: "And this I pray, that your love may abound still more and more in real knowledge and all discernment, so that you may approve the things that are excellent, in order to be sincere and blameless until the day of Christ; having been filled with the fruit of righteousness which comes through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God." - Rick Joyner

It's been a tough week ... and I think made it much more difficult than it needed to be by being anxious and trying to bear these things myself. I had one of the toughest D:77's yesterday, because I couldn't release my anxieties and tensions to God. As much as I wanted to, and knew that I had to, I chose to continue to be ignorant of the truth. Dude, wallowing in your anxieties is hard stuff :) ... it takes a lot out of you.

This morning's secret place time was really good ... I think I really bought into Satan's lies that I have to worry, and be concerned, to be resentful ... "lift up your eyes to heaven." Praise God, for he is worthy to be praised.

God, I ask for wisdom and discernment. I recognize that you are sovereign, and that you are control of John Muir college. Jesus, we need you to break through .. Holy Spirit we need your power and presence.