tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-68159860741858327532015-09-16T15:59:36.134-07:00a girl name annie.The novelty of a wandering pacifistic Bible thumper.annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.comBlogger30125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-8645806116377385502014-09-21T03:36:00.001-07:002014-09-21T03:36:22.840-07:00Cure or Hocus Pocus:<div style="color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(130, 98, 83, 0.0980392); text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;"><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-hOomNRT3its/VB6qJRtQZSI/AAAAAAAABGY/fTjzY7tht2U/s640/blogger-image-797348221.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-hOomNRT3its/VB6qJRtQZSI/AAAAAAAABGY/fTjzY7tht2U/s640/blogger-image-797348221.jpg"></a></div></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0);">I&nbsp;</span>am 20 years old now (It still sounds odd to acknowledge that.) and I have had migraines since I was 16 years old. Migraines are typically stress induced tension headaches that that cause a person to exhibit a higher velocity of pain. I often, as per habit, avoid bright locations, as light stimulates my migraines. As I am an avid lover of café I cannot bring myself to deal away with that. Also on a side note to that, since I have been drinking coffee since I was near 15 or 14 years old I find I have nearly adapted to the negative effects of it. This may not work for all people and it is not a scientifically viable way to avoid caffiene crashes, headaches, or the 'espresso jitters'. Honestly, each person understands their body. And it is up to you guys to try and see which things your body does or does not agree with (Within the range of a doctors approval of course).&nbsp;</div><div>So on to the point of the post. Shall we. I recently read an article written by Esrom Aritonang called "Treatment for Mirgriane--Alternatives Best Cure for Your Severe Headache" who suggested something other than the standard dose of doctor mandated pharmaceuticals. Since I stopped taking the little blue monster of a pill near about two years this article peeked my interest. In it he mentions all the standard 'cures' for migraines.&nbsp;</div><div>No alcohol</div><div>Not coffee</div><div>No bright lights</div><div>Stress management&nbsp;</div><div>Reduction of salt, junk food, and sour dairy products like yogurt, buttermilk or vinegar.&nbsp;</div><div>However among all these options was something new though. Something intriguing.&nbsp;<b>Rosemary Tea</b>. I am partial to any sort of teas. Really I think I just like hot beverages in general. I adore a warm mulled cider in autumn, pumpkin spice lattes in the fall, hot cocoa in winter, cold tea in spring, and hot tea at any given time. &nbsp;But Rosemary Tea. Never thought of it. Though Aritonang was started to have said that Rosemary Tea was "able to reduce migraine pain". &nbsp;</div><div>Worth a shot, I thought.&nbsp;</div><div>So I tried it. Not straight Rosemary because it was morning time, I was just settling into my poached egg, kale and devotional. So, long story short here's what I came up with:</div><div><br></div><div><u>Pre-Autumn Mulled Tea</u>:</div><div><br></div><div>Ingredients:</div><div>Cup water</div><div>Slice of Apple</div><div>Two mint leaves</div><div>Four Rosemary leaves (sprigs?)</div><div>Pumpkin spice seasoning (optional)</div><div>Quarter of a cut lime</div><div><br></div><div>Assemblage:</div><div>1. Boil a teacup (mug, coffee cup, etc.) of water.</div><div>2. Add a sliver of an apple, dash of pumpkin spice seasoning*, four leaves (sprigs?) of Rosemary, two mint leaves, and the quarter piece of lime.&nbsp;</div><div>3. Steep for one-two(ish) minutes.**</div><div><br></div><div>Notes:</div><div>* I really didn't taste the pumpkin spice so next time I probably won't bother with it. Though I may swap it for ginger as it is a natural detoxifying spice. :-)</div><div><br></div><div>** Do not over steep, this will turn extremely acidic and end up trysting like lime juice. Also it's best not to let it get cold. I mean some teas are just best when they are drunk hot. Right.</div><div><br></div><div>So<i> did it work?</i>&nbsp;</div><div>Sure it did. It's not like I avidly sought out stressors though to try and peek a mirgriane but I also didn't get a headache all day.&nbsp;</div></div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-2543851402802329332014-06-25T23:39:00.001-07:002014-06-25T23:59:04.877-07:00How do Christians explain dinosaurs?<div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><i>Ever been asked that?</i> I have.&nbsp;</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Well here's the answer to the existence of Dino's and the explanation for their fossil record. And no it's not Gen. 1:24 though that's a good defense, it's also a rather simple explanation and easy thing to defend. And I don't know about you guys but I like to defend the hard issues. The issues that atheists or evolutionists throw at us. The meaning behind seemingly meaningless sufferings. The purpose of salvation. The explanation that accounts for fossil records. And so on and so forth.&nbsp;</span></div><div>The answer resides in my favorite book of the Bible; Job. Particularly chapters 40 and 41. Chapter 40 speaks of a monster Job calls Behemoth. Many have said the Behemoth is a hippo or elephant However, 40:17, says: "Its tail sways like a cedar; the sinews of its thighs are close-knit." The "cedar" mentioned here refers to the cedars of Lebanon. Which were high priced and luxurious antiquities in Ancient times, measured above timber and often times 130 feet long. What elephant or hippo has a tail that long and tough to penetrate? A Brachiosaurus has a tail 150 feet long. Further, verse 23 speaks to this creatures size and strength, saying "<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><span id="yui-gen23">If the river rages, it is not disturbed, it is secure, though the Jordan should surge up to its mouth."&nbsp;</span></span></div><div>Chapter 41 describes a great and fearsome sea creature which some claim is a whale. However, 41:26, says: "Whoever strikes it with a sword will have no effect, nor with the spear, arrow, or dart." Whales can be pierced, travel in family 'Pods' and when separated fear Great White Sharks. Here in verse 34 Job does not speak of creatures but of a creature who "...beholdeth all high [things]: he [is] a king over all the children of pride." Orcas travel in wolf-pack like Pods and do not as Job says in verse 21 "kindleth coals," with their mouths nor does "a flame goeth out of his mouth." In 2008 Oslo uncovered the fossil record of a Pliosaur Kronosaurus whose teeth were sharp enough to cut through wood and was 50 feet long.&nbsp;</div><div>As for the existence of fossils, well fossilization does not take millions of years, under the right conditions a bone could be fossilized. Such as, if it is buried under volcanic ash or is submerged in very deep water.&nbsp;</div><div>Gen. Chapter 6 presents the explanation for both the extinction and fossilization of Dino's. The great forty-day-forty-night flood that had Noah building that ark of his, remember that from Sunday school. Now if your thinking, 'The Book of Job comes after the Book of Genesis.' The book of Job is actually one of the oldest books of the Bible and is said to have occurred somewhere in the middle of Genesis.&nbsp;</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-65136357769741830642014-03-25T23:11:00.001-07:002014-03-25T23:11:12.066-07:00works of the LordWhen the Lord says be patient and wait for me to answer your prayers he is not kidding. And when he told me that the retreat would continue down the mountain he was not kidding! I not only got to fellowship with my dad tonight for about an hour but with my mom too! Since like 4:00pm we have just been sharing what the Lord has spoken to us, and man the way God orchestrated it all, I mean we were just watching the bible series on the t.v and whenever God put something on our hearts we would pause the show and just start talking. Eventually by the second pause we just stopped pressing play and she really opened up to me. I wanted to pray with her but I felt like it wasn't the right time and I was also extremely terrified. But...just thought I'd share that with you guys because you know, I just can't contain myself when God works.&nbsp;annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-89403069684173219702014-03-24T14:25:00.001-07:002014-03-24T14:25:13.690-07:00post retreat lows<div>Man you guys. I was really bummed this morning. I just came back from a most wonderful retreat where the Son of God just moved in waves and I thought I was, you know, ready to conquer the world. I was wrong.&nbsp;</div><div>My early morning prayer was interpreted by the clock. And I was so incredibly tired, like you have no idea you I was so discouraged. I prayed every second I was driving to school and waiting for my teacher and if just felt so wrong being there. I was aching to be before Jesus the way I was over the weekend. And really in agony that I wasn't able to devote every fiber of my being to talking to Jesus, worshipping him and just being before his face in awe. I seriously was thinking maybe I don't belong in school and I was praying about dropping out even and just joining the peace corps now. But now I am feeling so blessed you guys. First I received a gas card out of blue which is something my brother has been in need of and at first I was I'm not even allowed to use A&amp;P so I tried to get into the word but it was just like reading a book and that just was heartbreaking that I couldn't hear Jesus's voice so clearly. So I prayed and Jesus just reminded me of what Ryan was saying his wife did, look up a meaningful verse. And I've never really done that since coming to The Lord I figured God will bring a verse to me while I'm reading my bible, but I tried it. And was so convicted that I almost started weeping right here in Starbucks. It was in a list of 20 verses and all of a sudden boom Jesus spoke. (Romans 15:13) May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope. And he just asked me, you know in that loving joyful way of his. 'Where is your joy my beloved? Are you so little in faith that you have already forgotten to look for me? Have I not promised you I would be beside you walking as you walk, sitting where you sit? I warned you rejoining the world would break your heart. Where is your humility, where are the tears for the suffering you shed on that mountain, where is my disciple so willing to be used so open to the gifts I have given you? Where is your joy?'&nbsp;</div><div>And you guys can imagine my reaction right, just completely broken. I mean honestly, talk about a potter crushing his clay teapot. So I just lift up you sisters in prayer and if you struggling as I was and still am with how to deal with coming back to the world after that awe inspiring weekend I just would ask you Jesus to speak to us, each of our contrite hearts, break us, convict us, bring to our minds the things that are causing distance from us, and in your holy name Jesus rebuke Satan's hold on all you beloveds. Thank you for your grace God and the limitless love we still can't fully grasp. May the full joy of spirit of Jesus be with you my sisters. Amen.&nbsp;</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-47072927240804023942014-03-21T08:50:00.001-07:002014-03-21T08:51:26.945-07:00on unrighteous judgement<div><b><i><u>Romans 2</u></i></b>:</div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">So I was reading Romans 2 and man God was just revealing to me my heart. That is has been petty, unforgiving, unloving, and just hardened by bitterness. I have been judging the people of this world, my teachers and fellow Christians and this chapter has just made me realize how wrong it is of me and why. We have to hold people accountable for their actions because that is what keeps us on that narrow path and before God. But if we never pour out our hearts convictions to that person, if we bring to their knowledge what their actions look to the world on a surface level than we are doing them no good. They may be ignorant of the things that they are doing and how the unrighteousness of it is distancing them from God. But we are not, we differentiate from what is ungodly and what is righteous. We are not ignorant and so we judge. But where this becomes a sin is by not doing anything to help them, God gave his beloveds the gift of wisdom, to know him if we so choose. Our judgements than of other people become as Romans 2:1 says inexcusable, we become condemned to the judgement of God for our judging of his people because we at some point in our lives have done the same thing the people we are judging are doing. And if we hadn't had someone who was in the word and who saw the unrighteousness of our ignorant deeds but not the righteousness of our hearts than they never would have came to us &nbsp;and said hey this thing that your doing it isn't right, it isn't according to the word of God. That takes love. Doing something for the betterment of another person.&nbsp;</span></div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-49351167365549811572014-03-20T07:40:00.001-07:002014-03-20T07:40:30.251-07:00caution to the wind<div>&nbsp;<b><i><u>I Kings 12:24:</u></i></b></div><div>God's people were divided, in disunion amongst who should be King, Solomon's son Rehoboam or Jeroboam. But God because of Solomon's disobedience had already taken the throne from David's seed temporally. And so it was that thousands of chosen warriors were sent to fight against the house of Israel until The Lord spoke to a man of faith Shemaiah and told him not to take up arms and fight against his brethren but to return every warrior to his tent for God said "this thing is from me." And the assembled warriors "hearkened therefore the word of the Lord, and returned to depart, according to the word of the Lord."(12:24)&nbsp;</div><div>I thought I would share just how amazing this verse seemed to me. How it convicted me. How often I doubt when The Lord speaks to me. I never thought I was doing this but this verse just showed me that I have been lately so cautious. I don't want to do anything that isn't of the Lord so I second guess myself. I tell myself pray on it more, and it's not a particularly bad thing it's just that if God has confirmed something for me so clearly once than I shouldn't allow myself the time to be cautious. I should do as these warriors of God did hearken God's voice and depart from the humanity in me that is telling me what if it is not of The Lord. I think it may be because I have just come out of a time of not praying that I feel like in a way I forgotten what it feels like to know when God has confirmed something for me.&nbsp;</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-75896325120230759142014-03-18T07:55:00.001-07:002014-03-18T07:55:59.535-07:00Of forgiveness<div><b><u><i>Eph. 4:</i></u></b></div><div>So I was reading Ephesians and man was it exactly what I needed to hear. It was a rebuke, conviction, and call to forgiveness from God. I mean even the subtitle for the chapter read in my bible: Of forgiveness.&nbsp;</div><div>What I got from it was go before Jesus humbled seeking his compassion and forgiveness for the bitterness I have in my heart towards the person I cannot seem to forgive than go before that person and speak of what they did to cause that bitterness, but speak the truth in love. (Eph.4:15) Forgiveness renews the spirit of our mind (4:23) we have to be willing to allow God to destroy that bitterness, we have to come to the place in our lives where we are able to offer up all that bitterness, pain, and any other feelings associated with the trespass to Jesus so that he can take it and destroy it.(2:30-31) That, I feel, is how we are able to forgive. Because that trespass is poison to us, to our spirit, our compassion, our calling in Christ. It fills us until it hardens our heart and makes us forget the love we are called to have for every one of God's creatures. But above all we have to come resolved before Jesus, ready to let go of that pain, because Jesus gives us the ability to forgive but it is up to us has people to be continuously kind to that person we're forgiving, Jesus has already forgiven them (if they asked) for what they have done to us, just as he has forgiven us of what we have done against him. But we also are called to forgive because we are called to have unity in the one body of Christ (4:4-5) our bitterness towards that person is cause disunity. We have been given strength from God, but we have to supply a certain amount of action in order to accept that strength and diligence, in order to exert our compassion onto that person who's hurt us the most, in order to pray for that persons well being and steadfast in the faith. That takes effort on our part, a wiliness to be kind to them, to love them as God loves us.&nbsp;</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-23334948879183145272014-03-13T08:04:00.001-07:002014-03-13T08:04:34.390-07:00in depth<div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">So lately guys I have just been going through it. Spiritual as well as physical trails and oppressions. ( I'll spare the details for the sake of this text) Anyway God just gave me (or opened my eyes to) the most wonderful gift!! We all have different ways that we do our in depth studies, but lately it seems like I haven't known how (or Satan made me forget) how to study God's word. But this morning God taught me again using my Grandpa's guidance. It was like God giving me back this huge piece of him. I have this paper from him that goes in depth on a verse in Job and I never really "read it", you know. But it just taught me how the understand a verse. So I tested it. (Marvel-mazing, these times call for two spliced together words) God just sent me back to a verse I had been tinkering with for a bit.&nbsp;</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><b><u><i>Gen.2:17</i></u></b>:</span></div><div>So I found this biblical dictionary for KJV bibles online and looked first at knowledge, how it applied solely to the context of Genesis, how it differed from wisdom because I learned there is a huge(!!) difference. Then I defined good, evil, and what it biblically (in that context) means to die.&nbsp;</div><div>And so I came away with the interpretation of:</div><div>By eating of the tree?we acquired (knowledge) both the best and worse (good&amp;evil) qualities that are both natural and and moral in kind. These qualities corrupted the purity that came from God when he breathed life into us. The tree therefore held the disease (shalt surely die) by which our pure spirits died. And yet...(sounds like a tv aid "but wait there's more..." :-))</div><div>The Spiritual/emotional meaning behind it:</div><div>God in this verse shows us yet again of his love for us. For because he has known us from the beginning and because he did not allow our spirits to remain dead but sent a reviver (Jesus) than he has had to have loved us from the beginning. And if this was the greatest betrayal humanity could do against God and God's love was strong enough to forgive this betrayal than all other betrayals can be forgiven to if we chose (for humans were given free will, but that's an in depth for another time) to believe that the ugliness of our sins have already been paid for.</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-73239704825894200012014-03-04T08:42:00.001-08:002014-03-04T08:42:19.196-08:00going in depth with the psalms:<div>So guys I have decided to start a series; an in depth breakdown of the Psalms. Basically it will be how certain verses spoke to me, or my interpretation of the verses. Sometimes I will go verse by verse, other times I will combine a couple verses. Either way I am not beginning at chapter 1 but rather will do some sort of haphazard tackling of the Psalms</div><div><br></div><div><u><b>Ps.119:9-16</b></u>:</div><div><br></div><div>Ps. 119:9:</div><div>The Bible is out guide, one of God's many gifts to his people. We should be placing our heart before Jesus jus as our actions should be held up to the light of his word's righteousness. The Bible offers solace, answers to questions, but also convicts us when we are wrong, or straying from Jesus.&nbsp;</div><div>Ps.119:10:</div><div>We should be completely submitted to not just Jesus's will for us but to the Bible's words. We cannot pick and choose which Commandment fits into this world and which do not. Rev. 22:18-19 tells us we are not able to add or subtract from the word of God, if the words are in the Bible they were conveyed to the prophets and disciples for a reason.&nbsp;</div><div>Ps. 119:11-14:</div><div>Jesus gives us verses that mean more (in the sense that they were spoken to by that verse) to one Christian than to another because Jesus knows our hearts are different just as we as humans are different, spiritually and physically. We all have verses that we keep inside of us and remind ourselves of during tribulations, repeating God's words out loud is powerful and we take comfort and joy in knowing that we are being continuously prepared and molded into the person Jesus foresaw us becoming. Because he who can take criticism from The Lord and allow that critique to change their hearts will gain a sustainable wisdom, humility, and reverence of the living God.&nbsp;</div><div>Ps.119:15:</div><div>The way God speaks to us varies in accordance to his will, sometimes it is direct, sometimes he rises up a fellow Christian to convey his message, signs etc but then their are the times when he seeks to reveal something to us through his word. We are called to mediate by pondering his word in reflection and great joy knowing that this one book has all the answers to all the mysteries of the world.&nbsp;</div><div>Ps.119:16:</div><div>God chooses when to reveal these mysteries to us based on how far each of us are in our walk with him. But we all are delighted in his word because of the solace and wisdom it brings. We strive to memorize verses that impacted us so that perhaps we can convey some encouragement to our brothers and sisters in Christ so that through us Jesus can strengthen their walks. However we are also called to never forget the word, where we came from, that we were once that new believer. That simply because we now may understand more, or intellectually grasp the Bible more than that newly born-again Christian does, doesn't make us better than them. No human is greater than another, and no humans gifts are more prestigious than another. If anything we should look to the new believers for their fire is like a child's, the are excited in the word, excited that their eyes have been opened after having been blind for so long. But really we are cautioned not to forget the word because of its reminders and instructions on how to lively a Godly life, that we are to love every human equally because Jesus was greater than us all and he humbled himself simply so that we could connect with him and by connecting empathetically we could come to him, open our hearts and accept his gifts. &nbsp;</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-64795086879817755372014-02-28T19:12:00.001-08:002014-02-28T19:12:37.095-08:00vineyards<div>John 15:1-17:</div>These verses refers to the followers of Jesus, those who already know him. He is our vine and we are the branches that come from that vines nourishment. Without it we perish. We have a very intimate relationship with Jesus and though that relationship we allowed to come before God without being sanctified. Also, because the vineyard or the image of the vine symbolizes Israel,(Jer.2:21&amp; used after the 1st Jewish revolt) by saying this Jesus is saying that he is now the true Israel (what symbolizes it I mean) which corresponds to his breaking away from the temple (John8:59) and to Pilate proclaiming him to be the King of the Jews (John 19:19) so what these verses are conveying to me is that Jesus has been replaced as the identifier to Jews rather than them identifying themselves with their nation or the promise land . God made Jesus the new promise land and we Jews and non-Jews alike are the new people of God.&nbsp;annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-19753755820999528512014-02-28T08:02:00.001-08:002014-02-28T08:03:23.214-08:00temples and sacraments:<div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">I Kings 6:</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Because Israel(Judah) was finally at rest under Solomon's rule he could build God his proper temple.This chapter talks solely about the ornaments that were used to adorn God's temple and man the diligence of the building of this, how meticulous everything was set forth, the olive trees, carvings of cherubims, floors overlaid with gold. Can you just imagine it. They must have cleaned such a precious thing on a daily if not hourly basis. Well when Jesus died for our sins, he became Emmanuel(God with us). We became God's temple, are we cleaning our hearts regularly. Lifting them up in comparison to Jesus, placing our actions next to the word of God to see we are acting in accordance to it. This temple was Judah's pride and joy, for it &nbsp;was the dwelling place of the one living God. We are the dwelling place of the one living God. It's time to start treating our hearts and souls how Solomon treated the Lords temple. Our walk with The Lord should be built up on a strong foundation the influences we let into our hearts should be meticulously observed to discern if they are of the Lord or of this world. Our heart should be lifted to Jesus, are sins should be laid bare to him and our hearts cleaned with diligence. That is what is convicting me today. I will be praying for you sisters for the same thing.</span></div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-9346608363018001882014-02-25T16:43:00.001-08:002014-02-25T16:43:06.689-08:00so easy-y-yIt seems easy to say we are followers of Christ but he calls us to give up this world, it's material things, family, and friends and that is hard. Jesus gave us such an important task to save lives &nbsp;and we can't delay in that task because once humans die as blasphemers of the Holy Spirit they cannot be saved from their sins. It is like what I was reading this morning 1Kings 2:43 "Why then hast thou not kept the oath of The Lord, and commandment that I have charged thee with?" We sort of construct these walls with our doubts and fears and place them around our heart and mind so that we can protect ourselves from embarrassment, or pain.annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-79161041550249294012014-02-24T23:24:00.001-08:002014-02-24T23:24:15.941-08:00disconnect?<div>Acts 18:21:</div><div>"But bade them farewell, saying I must by all means keep this feast that cometh in Jerusalem: but I will return again unto you, if God will. And he sailed from Ephesus."</div><div>Paul stayed with the Jews at Ephesus until all that he could do there with the spirit was exhausted. The Lord knew where Paul needed to be, Paul was obiedent to Jesus's commission. After he left Ephesus Paul went all over the country strengthening disciples of Jesus. Isn't that amazing. That Paul could just leave any place at any time traveling according to the will of God. It was such an encouragement to me, it just reminded me of the commission, that for me it wasn't about staying detached of people not development life-long friendships but staying in accordance to God's will. Saul of Tarsus and Barnabas stayed very close and yet at time &nbsp;when God pulled them to their own missionary works they went separate ways... BUT they wrote letter to each other, prayed for their walks, and visited.&nbsp;</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-91987935923969514642014-02-05T14:47:00.001-08:002014-02-21T23:10:30.004-08:00speak carefully<div>"And they were not able to resist the wisdom and the spirit by which he spake." (Acts 6:10)</div><div>This has been for a while so heavy on my heart. Then a revived conviction came from God with I Thes. 5:22 and I have just been working on praying for a silent tongue. That Jesus would cover and filter my words and allow only the ones that would bring him glory to be spoken (and even thought!) I also have been praying for a consciousness of my appearance. Because it is so important that we be perceived not only as different from non-believers but that we portray our gladness for being saved. We are God's handy work, his propaganda in a loose way.&nbsp;</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-13396116251244324002014-01-27T17:37:00.001-08:002014-02-21T23:11:11.124-08:00the brokenhearteds."For the promise is unto you and to your children, and to all that are afar off, even as many as the Lord our God shall call." <b><i>(Acts 2:39)</i></b><div>&nbsp;There is a promise made by God that if we accept his son and believe a faultless man would lay down his life for the lives of broken sinners. Than we shall receive the promise of Baptism which gives us the Holy Ghost which gives us strength. The Lord called his disciples to be his Ambassadors to go forth into the world and proclaim his name. This world needs love and humans need answers. Skeptics and critics say they need infallible truths; evidence of an omnipotent being. But what this world really craves is faith. Reading the Bible with faith unlocks it's deeper truths. Being called a Christian was once an insult and it is soon becoming an insult again. People regard you differently when you say you are a follower of Christ. They begin to wonder; are they really a believer or do they just say they are a Christian? A teacher once asked his class "Why don't Christians read they're Bible, if I &nbsp;believe the God of the universe wrote a book than handed it to me why would I not want to read it?" It's taken me a while to realize my selfishness, I've been so concerned with changing myself that I have forgotten the promises God has given me. It is not the time to worry but the time to act. I am saved, I believe, I have my faith. What of the broken souls out there? When exactly was it that I stopped praying for the girls who believe they are too fat and so stop eating, for the boys who believe life would be better if they were dead, the rape victims, the abused, the ones lost to prescription pills, alcohol, and sex. I had forgotten where I came from and just how deep the hole was that God had to pluck me from. I forgot in my selfishness that there are people out there suffering, God was merciful to give me a compassion that is so heart breaking I find I weep randomly for the world. It is time for me to stop thinking and start believing that Jesus can use me to help this world.&nbsp;</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-62550855220510576232013-12-27T23:49:00.001-08:002013-12-27T23:50:24.349-08:00beloved<p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 12px; font-family: Helvetica;">"In whom we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of his grace;" (Eph. 1:7)</p><p style="margin: 0px; font-size: 12px; font-family: Helvetica;">If ever you need to be reassured you are loved unboundedly look to the crucifixion of Jesus Christ. We sinned and held in contempt our Creator only divine sacrifice could save a people from that debt. And oh Lord how I am ever grateful for that love for it is ever easy to fall and be lost to this world. I am ever endeared when I read your gospels and as Jesus wept for the heart broken Jews and Gentiles over Lazarus's body so do I weep for the state of this world. It needs submission Jesus and yet the people he saved refuse him. They have no room for him, lives get busy, work gets harder, wine or cigarettes taste better and are sought after vigorously. Hearts are hardened and the words of God are forgotten, fall to deaf ears, or&nbsp; disregarded. We are human, we fall but just because we fall it does not mean we ought to stay on the ground. Humility blinds a persons soul by breaking their pride. Jesus answers the prayers of the broken hearted, weeps with us and takes away the desire to taste the sweetness of wine.&nbsp;</p>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-14246617048466101662013-12-25T14:08:00.001-08:002013-12-25T14:08:01.380-08:00Christmas"...and say unto him, Master, carest thou not that we perish? And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said into the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm." (Mark 4:38-39) We humans are impatient, we grow discouraged when things are not going to plan and fear the undefinable. Jesus did not say let us go half way across the sea and drown he said "Let us pass over unto the other side."(Mark 4:35) &nbsp;But when horrible occurrences seem to go on unnoticed our faith wavers, we want immediate action, most of us(myself included) do not have the persistence to continue week after month praying for the same thing. But God does His work according to His standard of time not ours. It is just so wondrous that God sees something inside each and every one of us that to Him makes us worthy of His love. There is this feeling of calm that resides in Gods love. A feeling of completeness in submission to Him. He saw us suffering and He decided we were worth more than the death we deserved. Our sin kept us from an intimate relationship with Him so He gave this world a perfect sacrifice just so we may know Him. We are able to speak to the Creator through Jesus. Our prayers no longer fall to deaf ears. How amazing it feels to know there is someone out there that so in love with us that He know all our flaws, lies, greed, and disrespect towards Him then choses to forget all about them. We have an everlasting free slate through Jesus. He is our most precious gift and He is free of charge. All you have to do is answer His call. Close your eyes and think Jesus. Just say the word over and over again until you feel something because trust me your cries will be heard and if your heart is breaking Jesus will come to soothe it. You say simple words to Jesus. He already knows your life story, we are all on the same playing field with God. And that is so spectacular, there is no color of skin or accent of voice that is unpleasing to Gods ears. For He made us all therefore we all must be models of perfection. If you call to Jesus and He answers (for He shall) and you are thinking "Oh my what's next?" Forgiveness. Tell Him you have sinned against Him, ask for His forgiveness, your submission to Him is all Jesus needs to enter your heart and engulf you in love. Acknowledge Jesus as your Savior, tell Him you believe in Him, that you wish to be saved from the dead weight of your sin. This is not an acceptance of church institutions but and acceptance of love. Being a Christian doesn't make a person any less human you will still want to sin, you still will sin it is just now you can fall onto your face before Christ and ask that He changes you. Because we are human, fragile, in need of love and forgiveness. We cannot fix ourselves, we cannot stop our addictions from overruling us only Jesus has the power to help us. Setting aside our pride allows us to submit wholly to Him which allows Him to change our hearts. &nbsp;annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-39529190474208603712013-12-18T12:36:00.001-08:002013-12-19T11:24:53.125-08:00the truths of the world<div>"And you shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free"<b><i> John 8:32</i></b></div><div>I've never really had one favorite Bible verse, but this one is...everything. If you could sum up how a Christian feels when they read the Bible this would be it, we are reading the truth. What a weight that is to know that the God of the universe created a book and told the world's peoples that they no longer have to be curious or live in ignorance. Is it not just awe inspiring to know that God knew from the beginning that we would seek the truths of this world, that because we are humans and faulty we would doubt. This one line no matter how many times you say it out loud holds its weight. It declares the words of the Bible to be the truth. How wonderful, merciful, joyous. Not only does God loves us much that He sent Jesus to free us from the chains of our sins because He wanted an intimate and personal relationship with us but He gave all the truths of the world. I was once told that words have power because once written they can't be unwritten. Never has that seemed more true, I never noticed the power the words of the Bible has until I went to prayer last Sunday and heard them read out loud. And I know I've heard the Bible read aloud before it's just that this felt like I was hearing the truth in them for the first time. It just amazes me how this is the only book ever written that no matter how many times you read the same verses it always holds new meaning, gives us new enlightenments. It breaks my heart that their are people out ready to give up on life believing what philosophers told them is the truth that their actions have made them deformed or unlovable. That their eyes have so clouded as to see only the pain of this world that they think it better to destroy the most precious thing God gave them than to give in to the truth. Because with giving in you give away yourself, you chose to accept a certain amount of blind faith. But really their is no blind faith with Jesus is there? Their is blind faith in believing in Evolution because you can't physically observe a primate changing species. But their is power when truthful words are written, unlike the Qur'an truthful words can be translated into any language and still retain its power. That their are people out their today being so oppressed by Satan and his dark numbness that they cannot see Jesus's light or his truth is so convicting for me. God didn't just give me the truths of the World but He gave them to the world. And Gods' made me realize that I have been coveting them.&nbsp;</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-77298854550459636212013-12-15T12:13:00.001-08:002013-12-15T12:14:27.327-08:00heavy is the Word of God<div>"It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh profits nothing. The words that I speak to you are spirit, and they are life."<b><i> John 6:63</i></b></div><div>"Then Jesus said to the twelve, "Do you also want to go away?" But Simon Peter answered Him, "Lord to whom shall we go? You have words of eternal life." <b><i>John 6:67-68</i></b></div><div>Heavy are those words yet light is the heart that hears them and understands there heaviness as power. For our power comes from the Holy Spirit and our strength comes from Jesus and His almighty grace. We are chosen selected by His hand, let that settle in us Oh Lord for we can so easily be swept from your mercy and placed in this world. We never realize just how far we are gone until our hearts break until we fall to our faces so humbled it is all we can do but weep. That sort of weeping that steals the air in your lungs, where you don't make a sound but tears rush from your eyes, your knees hit the floor and suddenly you are alone begging for His forgiveness. You never realize you've fallen until you are completely humbled you may notice your descent feel like you've stopped it but that is Satan giving you false confidence. Satan is humanities adversary he craves our destruction leads us into darkness through the choices we make when we are faced with temptation. Take comfort knowing he was defeated by God, fast from Heaven but be weary for he was an angel he knows exactly which temptation we fall prey to every time, he is our worst adversary because he knows our fleshs' desires. We all fall, it is when we believe we stopped our descent by our own merit that we realize how incomplete we feel. And it is not because we have failed The Lord or His test that we begin to feel that void again, because we are humans, faulty imperfect sinners. We feel lost because that flame we so coveted became an ember again. The Lord's forgiveness is absolute and immediate if you want it, if you ache for it, if you come humbled before Him he we'll freely restore you. But climbing back to where you were takes time, getting back to your flame takes diligence, takes your spiritual desire for intimacy with your Lord. And that cannot be masked, faked, or rushed. We humans move slow and so doesn't our recoveries but our God is patient He shall wait.&nbsp;</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-29871157220373579322013-12-05T08:52:00.001-08:002014-01-14T02:08:26.530-08:00almighty"Blessed is he who reads and those who hear... For the time is near."(Rev.1:3) "I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Begining and the End," says The Lord, "Who is and was and who is to come, the almighty." (Rev.1:8) There are certain verses in the Bible you just sing mentally, right? Half of the psalms and this line. I grew up on this line, that is how my childhood can be amounted to: random alternating beach and Disneyland trips, the old songs of the gospel choir and the country music of Garth brooks, willie Nelson and the Dixie chicks. &nbsp;I knew the Lords Prayer by the time I was in either kindergarten or first grade. Love going to my grandmas church on Easter because men and women white choir robes with golden stitched crosses, coordinating bells would sing The Lord of The Dance. An old best friend of mine once told me if she didn't know would have thought my life was plucked from one of Norman Rockwell's paintings. The problem was none of that helped me because I didn't know a thing about God, I didn't know Jesus at all. And so when things went wrong in my life Satan used my ignorance to get me to blame my Lord. At the time I didn't think think oppression was real, that demons were just stories my father would tell me to keep me from lying. I was a girl who could quote lines for days but would feel nothing and didn't even own a Bible. That is not faith it is an obligation, a chore my parents had inflicted onto me. And don't get me wrong in many ways I am so grateful for being raised in a Christian home, my life was and wasn't extremely blessed but it could have been a lot worse. It is just that God is bringing me back things of my past for reasons He has yet to enlighten me of. But one thing God has really showed me is that I truly believed I was saved, I knew, it was a self-evident fact that I was going to Heaven when I died. But I never openly or internally said I believed in Jesus as I do now. I was perfectly fine not reading the Bible, not knowing a thing about the the God of the universe. It was like the pop Urban II had offered me plenary indulgence, I could be as evil as I wanted say I'm sorry and be forgiven. Forgiveness doesn't work like that, repentance requires that you are openly aware of your sin, see the need to change and ache for that change. It is always just to awesome when I read my Bible now, or talk to God. I can hear Him everywhere and I never had that before. I can feel Him, love the feeling I get when I'm doing something and there's this pounding inside my chest telling me to open my Bible, talk to that person or just say Yes God?&nbsp;annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-86325903248489059002013-12-03T16:10:00.001-08:002013-12-10T09:35:09.198-08:00Nails to A Cross:<div>"You worship what you do not know; we know what we worship,"&nbsp;<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><i>John 4:22</i>&nbsp;</span></div><div><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">"God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth." <i>John 4:24</i></span></div><div>How amazing it feels to know that there is truth out there. Self-evident and unsurpassable. How awe inspiring, how liberating that we no longer have to search for the truths of this world. The void is gone, God is truth and how right that seems, feels and sounds. Like the declaring of a fact. We are saved from the condemnation we deserve, we are loved when it is justifiable to be cast off. Our prayers are heard for we are touched by His spirit and as we crave Him, He aches for us. Gathers around us when our hearts scream when we doubt our strength. There are not enough words, no definable way to proclaim my gratitude, He saved me from the oppression of Satan's grasp. Plucked me from the darkness and set me in the light, now at night I look to the stars inside of shadows around me. We are saved and now I can hardly recall the justifications I gave for doing the things I did. I remember my actions, remember feeling like I had no choice, was compelled to do it and couldn't ever hope to stop. I remember those things how it felt, the rushes, the crashes, the depression like rip-tides pulling me under into a bottomless pit. All my shameful deeds, everything that makes me imperfect, faulty, unworthy does not matter to my Lord. He was there with me through every conscious action but I asked He forgives and no longer remembers them. When I look back on my life and watch myself commit trespasses against my Lord it is like I am watching someone with my face do things that would make even the hardest hearts cringe. And the is the most wonderful feeling knowing their is someone out there who knows every little lie you told and every horrible thing you've done and "...has taken it out of the way, having nailed it to the cross." <i>Col. 2:14</i> This is one of my most favorite verses, how marvelous it feels to just hear it repeated out loud. Like the power and love of the Holy Spirit is washing over you.&nbsp;</div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-4794020510874091332013-11-22T14:35:00.002-08:002013-11-22T14:35:25.861-08:00faultless stand before your throne<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><i>"In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness and the darkness did not comprehend it." John 1:4-5</i></span><br /><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><i><br /></i></span><div style="text-align: center;">&nbsp;It is true that we sin because we are sinners. In bred with a desire inside us, one that tells us it's okay to yield to the world's temptation. But it is not okay. This world was made by God but a prince reigns the flesh. Satan is in every temptation, every word you speak that gnaws on your concious, Satan is the great oppressor to Christ's followers and nothing makes him happier than seeing a man or woman of God fall. But we have light inside of us, we were made by God and so we are touched by His light. His breath filled us, animated the shells of our bodies. That light is in every human it is what makes the void we feel before we are saved. We feel a void a need to satisfaction because we have given ourselves over to the darkness in us and it suppresses God's light. But even though the darkness inside us hates the light it does not understand why it cannot vanish it. It make flicker, radiate the low heat of dying embers but it flickers! It never succumbs because God does not succumb. I saw that with my brother, a man of God whose fallen so hard and so deep into his darkness that I was beginning to think I'd lost him forever. But this verse today sort of smacked me in the face (hard!) it was God telling me how dare you give up on one of my own. Did I give up on you? Everyone He touches belongs to Him and it is our job as followers of Him to be ready when He calls us, our job to run to His voice like Phillip. Our job to be different from the people of this world so that they can see a way out. Our light leads the way for theirs it needs to emblazon us, be the raging fire of God. This is world is ending, eroding around us we may be on the right side of the fight but others around us are not. How can I stand before Jesus knowing I followed Him dutifully, believed in Him wholly but ignored Luke 24:47-49.</div></div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-13166226369284827772013-11-19T15:15:00.004-08:002013-11-21T08:19:50.003-08:00outspoken but silent<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>"There settle it in your hearts not to meditate beforehand on what you will answer; for I will give you a mouth and wisdom which all you adversaries will not be able to contradict or resist."<span style="font-size: large;"> Luke 21:14-15</span></i></span><span style="font-size: large;">&nbsp;</span><br><span style="font-size: large;"><br></span><div style="text-align: center;">It has been hard to be outspoken about Jesus. Difficult to break myself out of my comfort zone for I don't really know how to speak to people in general let alone tell them of Jesus. It's that Satan is constantly hardened my heart against what God keeps pushing my feet to do. Making me feel as the words I say will be the wrong ones, making my brain tell me I don't have the strength or wisdom to walk up to a random stranger and tell them of Jesus. Even now as I sit in Starbucks reading His Word there sits across the room from me a Jehovah's Witness reading his newspaper. And I have this gnawing inside me to get up and talk to him to share with him the Jesus he is overlooking. Is my faith that broken? Should I not be as Philip who ran to the bidding of God? How is it that I have this ache inside to share Jesus with the world, with every single person I see and yet don't. Is it God telling me I'm still being prepared or Satan mangling my thoughts to make me believe I'm not good or strong enough to walk over to the man in a suit and tie. God grant me mercy, solace, if I am being self-centered show me however you see fit. Break me, humble me Lord &nbsp;for I do everything in the name of your Grace. Show me my faults, my trespasses, the things that I believe to be too little to repent for. I am incapable of understanding your wisdom, your parables require me to read them three times before I am knowing. I am weak and prideful to have believed I could understand the meaning of your grand design. I beg of you Lord teach me. Show the world of your unbounding love. Stretch your hand across Your universe and sooth those dying of famine, fill the hopeless who stand in the wreckage of the Philippines with Your strength because we are weak, sinners, distraught with crying hearts and empty voids inside of us. Show us how to love those who have hurt us so cruelly so that we may forgive the grudge we hold. It is through your Son that we find solace, through Your words we find clarity and strength. If Jehovah Witnesses can have faith in half-truths and lies how is it that my faith seems weaker than theirs. Will I get to Paradise only to hear Your Son say he's never known me? Break apart my attachments to this world use me however you will, my feet are yours to move. &nbsp;</div></div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-89308182476732258482013-11-19T15:13:00.002-08:002013-11-19T15:14:42.034-08:00justified<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>"Why should a living man complain, A man for the punishment of his sins?"<span style="font-size: large;"> Lam. 3:39</span></i></span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">How justified God would have been to discard me. To say to me you are not worthy. My life had been a continuation of disappointments I saw as needless suffering. When I cried out to God no one answered. I stopped going to church because I was so angry at Him that I couldn't stand to be in a place that He might be. &nbsp;People suffer, other people are cruel and the world just seems to keep spinning. Who was I to charge the God of the Universe with my trespasses. Who am I that He who never knew sin would die for me. " O Lord, You have pleaded my case for my soul; You have redeemed my life. O Lord, You have seen how I am wronged" Lam. 3:58-59. And yet He choose to save me, to drag me from Satan's oppressions. All I can give, all that I am; may it &nbsp;be rendered to Him. For He who deserves to be exalted choose to exalt me the day he brought me to my feet and walked my body into a pool. May His will for me be made so clear that I cannot sleep, breathe or think until I have submitted to His grace. O that my heart would pound in my chest His commands, that my feet would move solely for His accord for His glory. May He use us all for He is deserving of all that we have. &nbsp;</div></div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6815986074185832753.post-1713862279552049002013-11-17T04:30:00.000-08:002013-11-17T16:53:44.741-08:00break my heart Lord for what breaks yours<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on"><i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">"You still lack one thing.&nbsp;</span></i><br /><i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Sell all that you have and distribute it to the poor,&nbsp;</span></i><br /><i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">and you will have treasure in heaven;&nbsp;</span></i><br /><i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">and come, follow Me." <span style="font-size: large;">Luke 18:22</span></span></i><span style="font-size: large;">&nbsp;</span><br /><div style="text-align: center;">How hard this would be.&nbsp;</div><div style="text-align: center;">I use to think it would be easy to leave everything behind, my family, home, life and make it in the world however I could. But that was high school when I wasn't with my Lord and bitter anger ate away at me. Now through the grace of God I have begun to slowly forgive my family and old friends. It is harder to leave, to give everything now that I have something worth keeping. When I was reading this I kept thinking why would God give me forgiveness, peace, and material things if He just wanted me to leave them behind? And I realize it was because I needed to know the value of this world. I needed to see the world as God sees it.&nbsp;</div></div>annaaainafairytalee.http://www.blogger.com/profile/12003568950859855554noreply@blogger.com0