Tuesday, January 19, 2016

I hadn't been thinking much about it. It's honestly been the last thing on my mind. But this month, I turned 40. The big 4-0.

I'm suddenly at mid-life and now that it's really hitting me, I'm freaking out! Sure, I've done a lot in my 40 years. But what have I really accomplished? What do I still want to do? Will I ever realize those dreams I keep talking about?

I've traveled, but I want to travel more. I want to see new places, experience new cultures and show my children how big the world really is.

I've built relationships that have lasted through some tough times and I've lost some friends along the way, too. I want to continue to nourish those friendships and connections that are meaningful. And I want to release the ones that hurt too much or are too exhausting to manage.

I got married, I became a mother and together with Hubby I created a family. I want to continue to build that family by investing time and energy into it. I want to be present in their presence and I want to feed not just their bellies but their souls.

I've written, but not enough for my liking. I want to invest time in my passion. I want to write things that touch the hearts of others. I want use my writing to connect with new friends and change lives in both the biggest and smallest ways.

I've learned something new--about life, love, myself, the world--with every passing day and year. I want to continue to learn each day, knowing that with every lesson comes the responsibility to teach others.

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I've loved and I've been unkind. I want to love more, to have compassion for those that need it and kindness toward even the most unkind I encounter. I want to rise above the reactions of others and trust that if I act out of love and kindness my life will also be filled with love and kindness.

I've lost weight and I've gained it again (thanks to two back-to-back pregnancies and the choice to give in to every. single. craving.). I want to create a life of healthy habits again and find that balance between obsession and resignation. I will choose foods and activities that nourish me. I will take the time I need to care for myself, as well as my family. And if all that results in a smaller waistline, I'll take that, too.

If I accomplish even a few of these things in the next 40 years, I think I'll have done well in my time on this Earth. Here's to 40 more!

Friday, January 01, 2016

It’s noon on January 1, 2016 and I’m sitting in the Odyssey with
my lap desk crammed between my belly and the steering wheel, working on my
first blog post in who knows how long while the Jellybean snores quietly behind
me.

I don’t even dare look at the date on my last post for fear I’ll start
beating myself up for my lack of consistency, my lack of focus, my lack of
commitment, my inability to use my time wisely. Frankly, all that beating takes too
much time and energy.

So I’m sitting here. Writing. Even though there are a million other things I could be doing. Even though I'm worried no one is reading anymore. Even though I'm SO tired and would like to close my eyes and start snoring quietly, too.

It’s hard to keep coming back to the blank page, but this
year I’m doing it. I’m making my creative pursuits a priority. I'm done making excuses and I'm ready to be the writer I keep saying I am.

With that in mind, my word for 2016--my mantra, if you will--is EXPAND. This year I will:

Expand my boarders.

I’ll push through the walls I’ve built
out of fear and pursue the dreams I’ve been forming in my mind. I’ll find growth
in choosing to see boarders as flexible and transparent.

Expand my creativity.

I’ll write, take pictures, color in
coloring books, read, visit art museums and learn from other artists. And I’ll
learn from my children as they revel in their own creativity before anyone
tells them to be grown and serious.

Expand my vision.

I’ll dream bigger and let my imagination
run wild. I’ll write down goals, create vision boards and live with my eyes
wide open, looking for opportunities to take more chances and make more space
for successes.

Expand my yoga practice.

I’ll get on my mat and I’ll sit in
stillness. I’ll be present and I’ll share my heart with my family, my friends
and with new acquaintances.

Now that I’ve shared a bit about my goals for 2016, I’d love to hear what your goals are for
the year. What is your word for
2016? What will you do to make this year your best year yet?

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