Beberapa ketika dahulu, waktu saya check notification facebook, ada random question from friend exposed applications. Bertanya Which would you pick : A million dollars or a million friends. Saya instinctively jawab a million dollars :D. You can never have that many friends. Tengok dalam live kamu sekarang berapa banyak kawan yang kamu ada. Always ada tambahan tapi pun ada berkurangan. Always there are strangers that become your new friends and old friends that become strangers. Point is you can never keep up with a million friend. The affections can never be the same. Better get the million dollars and make the friends and people you have around you happy with it. I am just being realistic here.

SummerHaving trouble choosing between a fabulous day out with friends and summer vacation to Busan. So I picked both :D

my then-best-friend is my now-boyfriend. ehe

The day started out with me in a public-speaking contest. In Korean, yes. I was still full of excitement from the previous day's Chinmogae Bam. Malas berfikir apa itu Chinmogae Bam dalam bahasa Inggeris. Now come to think of it, I never really knew what Chinmogae Bam means. *look-up-endic.naver*. Ok the word chinmok means friendship, so Chinmogae Bam should be something like friendship night kan? I won 2nd place in the public-speaking contest so I got myself a cultural voucher worth ... can't remember how much was it worth. Then we went to Namdaemun to splurge on souvenirs. We were going back to Malaysia for our first time. Back then, kalau keluar mesti beramai-ramai secara meriah. I remember asking Moshitta a slightly provocative question when we were waiting for the train. I wonder if he remembers what. Then we went home, for a quick rest and went out again for movie. Each one of us paid 1000 won for the ticket and the rest are paid using the vouchers I won. Someone wasted the ticket by sleeping through the movie even when the sound of explosions were deafening. We watched The Island by the way. We got sort of lost on our way home and it was pretty late when we reached Linda's house. Others already slept so we had to knock hard. My cellphone ran out of credit *yes, I used credits back then* so I had to call using my international card phone number. Sort of ring ring card. Su opened the door and saved us.

How come cincin semua more or less the same? Last time I went into Tiffany & Co. dengan Noni. Membawa muka konfiden kami-orang-kaya dan browsed through their collections of rings. And tried too. Tapi mungkin Tiffany & Co. bukan my type so I'm definitely not paying 6.1kk won for a typical ring. What made it that expensive again?

I always find it hard to go to sleep when something crowds my mind. Random stuff : I prefer cream spaghetti to tomato-sauced ones and I prefer sponge cake with chocolate rice around the side to rich, elegant, Secret-Recipe-liked ones.

Have I told you? I think finding a job is like finding your soulmate. The status of the company or the pay don't really matter. As long as you like it. Because there will always be time when things got tough, and still the thing that keeps you going is your passion on it. But after failing interviews, I keep questioning myself, was I meant to do this from the start? What if I like engineering but I was not meant to do it. Maybe I'm better off doing something else, though I can't imagine something else that I would be good at. Or even like doing at all.

I am being negative, am I not?

You'll understand how it feels when you are 24 years old, fighting for job and surrounded by people who are still struggling for their grades.