May 28, 2010

Oh...what a week it's been. J. has been out of town which means I've been a one man show with a crazy 18 month old. It's been tantrum after tantrum, he threw a toy at our television {it's broke}, and today he froze all the registers at Safeway by hitting every button imaginable on the credit card machine. It's time to be grateful....

1. The way Harrison's eyelashes look in the bath...clumped together and beautiful.

2. A husband who is involved and gives me a daily break {I've really noticed in his absence}.

3. Sex and the City 2

4. School is out...which means I have more friends to play with this summer.

5. The swing that hangs from a tree in our backyard. It's one of the only things that endlessly entertains Harrison.

My husband is home....happy weekend.

May 24, 2010

Mothers Day was lovely and I felt blessed from head to toe. Then life handed me an unexpected curve ball and since then I've been processing, healing and looking ahead. Too often I forget that I have much less control than I realize. I try to plan, orchestrate and dictate how things will be. Then a Higher Power steps in and reminds me that it's really not up to me at all.

I was pregnant...and now I'm not. I didn't see it coming and was sad and confused. I was so grateful that it happened early and that I already have Harrison. I'm trusting the process and know there was a reason unbeknownst to me. Now I'm finding the positive and opening myself up for the divine plan and not my own. God brought me amazing Harrison and I know His plan will amaze me again...

May 9, 2010

God has blessed me with the most happy, jovial, outgoing, fun and energetic first child. It's no surprise, really. I often need the lesson that he is here to teach me. He made me a mother and I never take this job for granted. I'm honored every day to be his side kick, and thank God every night that I get to be Harrison's mom.

I think every mother out there has her own style of raising her children. It's interesting to see how my friends do things differently than I would, and what their styles teach me. For me motherhood means....

Caring less about a messy house and more about a happy child {I wish I could be better about cleaning up...but I'm just not}.

Affection, affection, affection.

Figuring out what makes them tick and nurturing their strengths.

Modeling behavior that I want them to emulate someday.

Letting them know that, above all else, they are the greatest miracle of my life.

May 1, 2010

Today is the first day of May and we have a few more days of lovely weather before it's gone. I'm going to spend the day going to a Farmer's Market, picking out some jewelry I won last weekend, eating sandwiches, pushing my little one in a swing, working outside on projects and riding my bike.