Finding a path in the Modern world

Returning Normalcy

It’s been several days since I posted on here, and for good reason. I didn’t want to post again until I could say something positive, or at least until I was in a better state of mind.

So I spent the weekend trying to put my life back together, trying to get back to normalcy, trying to find a place where I could be happy again. And as many of you may have guessed, most of my unhappiness hinged on my lack of sleep. The remaining unhappiness hinged on a couple of things: my husband’s work schedule, my separation from my family, and the little time I have for myself.

And while I didn’t get a chance to get that elusive pedicure or shopping spree, I did have the chance to get a little normal back in my life. Here are some of the things we did that made me feel like me again:

1. I dragged my sleepy husband and cranky baby out of the house on Saturday at 11:30 am for lunch, in an actual restaurant, with an actual waitress. Granted it was only Chilis, but it was soooo nice to get out of the house and have someone bring food to me. What did I eat? Soup and salad. Which brings me to point two.

2. I need to stop worrying about my diet/weight all the time! It is making me crazy. We went out for drinks on Sunday for my cousin’s birthday and I was so worried about my calorie intake from the drinks, that I didn’t eat, which made me ill. Ugh. I really need to just pat myself on the back for losing 65 lbs (55lbs of pregnancy and baby, 10lbs of me) since last April and just relax about the last 10 lbs. Nobody wants a skinny, but crazy/cranky mommy.

3. I need to take the opportunities to spend time with my husband when I have them. We spent Saturday afternoon putting together our new patio set. It wasn’t particularly glamorous or exciting, but it was nice just to be outside working on something together.

4. I need to spend more time with my family. They always make me feel better. Everything about them makes me happy. Whether we’re hanging out at my parents’ house watching Cash Cab or I’m meeting my cousins for a drink at the beach. The long and the short of it is I’ve got to get out of LA. I need to be back in OC as soon as possible. And I’m not having another baby until that happens.