This has gotten to far out of hand. Since I cannot message you any longer: I'm going to say what I have to say here, and walk away.

The same man that stood by you, for you, and with you, is the same man that stands up and leaves now.

Twice.

Twice you made accusations against someone that could not possibly true, even after I provided direct evidence to the contrary, you argued feelings over facts. I am indeed one to talk, having let my anger rule me for almost two years now.

It was not, nor is it now that big of a concern. Nor should it ever have been in the first place; primarily on your part.

The first time ended with you disappearing for over a year, and we were all beside ourselves with grief, regret, anger, and sadness. And like the addictive drug that it is, I gave into blame as well, pointing fingers here and there, and saying some unimaginably ugly things. None of these things in the aftermath are your fault, we made our own choices. Rather, this is the cause and effect.

Then, you returned and it was unlike any feeling I've experienced in recent memory. The dead were resurrected, and the bluebirds sang a Disney musical and it was wonderment beyond description.

A few months later, the same issue arose with you.

The. Same. Issue.

Once more blame was cast, and you saw not just me but another person rise to the defense of this person who is a close friend to both of us, and they never did a single thing to warrant any of these accusations.

And then...a family member died.

I know well the feeling of losing a loved one, five years ago and now this year.

But....there was a pattern here whether intentional or not. Now the first thing that will come to mind for most people is how can I be so callous? How horrible of a human being could I possibly be to even suspect such a thing?!

I know, I've lived with this self-resentment for well over six months now, and even now it stings a place in my heart and mind that is...ineffable: aside from pain and shame.

Yet, I have to look at facts aside from feelings, and it *hurts*. Beyond words...I'm actually crying right now. I don't cry. Haven't for five years.

But these tragedies, no one would question. They would rise to your defense, much as I have on more than one occasion.

The same thing has happened twice in as many years. Because I notice this pattern, I'm now the monster.

That is why I was silent, and that is why I walk away now.

I am *not* making accusations. I am *not* saying these things never happened.

I am saying that you have placed me between a rock and hard place, I am saying you placed conditions on our friendship, that was based on whether or not I would continue to be loyal to a dear friend who has been there for me, no matter what.

Now I have to be the villain in this story.

The difference is that I have never placed conditions on our friendship, and I know that all of these things are trivial. People are what matter.

Perhaps you are going to say that I was a fool to think that I couldn't come and talk to you about these things, and that we would work them out no matter how hard and painful it was.

Before you blocked me, that is exactly what I did. I came to you, and I was open and honest. And you cast me out. As for the length of time it took...add this to my itinerary of sins. But, time is not important; life, love and people are.

For my part, I beg forgiveness. For your part, I give forgiveness openly and unconditionally.

Either way....we're done here.

Goodbye.

mALX

Apr 23 2015, 07:33 PM

Oh Kobby, look at this:

Me:

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

( . ) Y ( . )

You:

(.)Y(.)

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

BWAAAHAAA!

Callidus Thorn

Apr 23 2015, 07:56 PM

I don't even know what to say to that.

*Shrugs*

Edit:

Hah!

I have a response:

This gif just kills me

mirocu

Apr 23 2015, 08:58 PM

I have paid two bills now

mALX

Apr 23 2015, 11:39 PM

QUOTE(mirocu @ Apr 23 2015, 03:58 PM)

I have paid two bills now

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

( . ) Y ( . )

Two Bills, huh?

BWAAAHAAA!!!!

King Of Beasts

Apr 24 2015, 03:21 AM

QUOTE(mALX @ Apr 23 2015, 02:33 PM)

Oh Kobby, look at this:

Me:

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

( . ) Y ( . )

You:

(.)Y(.)

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

BWAAAHAAA!

Does that mean what I think it does lol

QUOTE(Black Hand @ Apr 23 2015, 12:10 AM)

Please, don't kill my dear Lenny face!

mALX

Apr 24 2015, 03:51 AM

QUOTE(King Of Beasts @ Apr 23 2015, 10:21 PM)

QUOTE(mALX @ Apr 23 2015, 02:33 PM)

Oh Kobby, look at this:

Me:

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

( . ) Y ( . )

You:

(.)Y(.)

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

BWAAAHAAA!

Does that mean what I think it does lol

You mean that your man boobs are smaller than my squirrely ones?

BWAAAAHAAAA !!!

mirocu

Apr 24 2015, 08:02 AM

And now I have paid even more bills!! And I still don´t have a job!!

Thankfully I´ll get my 31.000 monez soon...

Callidus Thorn

Apr 24 2015, 09:10 AM

Wow.

Suddenly seeing a lot of hate for Bethesda running around the web.

Kiln

Apr 24 2015, 10:14 AM

QUOTE(Callidus Thorn @ Apr 24 2015, 08:10 AM)

Wow.

Suddenly seeing a lot of hate for Bethesda running around the web.

The only way to reconcile with the fans now is to drop some information on FO4.

mirocu

Apr 24 2015, 10:21 AM

QUOTE(Kiln @ Apr 24 2015, 11:14 AM)

QUOTE(Callidus Thorn @ Apr 24 2015, 08:10 AM)

Wow.

Suddenly seeing a lot of hate for Bethesda running around the web.

The only way to reconcile with the fans now is to drop some information on FO4 and also drop the paying-for-mods idiocy.

Fixed...

Callidus Thorn

Apr 24 2015, 10:33 AM

QUOTE(Kiln @ Apr 24 2015, 10:14 AM)

QUOTE(Callidus Thorn @ Apr 24 2015, 08:10 AM)

Wow.

Suddenly seeing a lot of hate for Bethesda running around the web.

The only way to reconcile with the fans now is to drop some information on FO4.

Dropping news of FO4 would just make things worse. Because it will require steam, just like skyrim, leaving the possibility that it'll get the same treatment. Bethesda needs to drop the pay for mods idea. But they won't, because they can get away with it.

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