I feel like as of recent I have finally transformed into the guy I have always wanted to become- funny, alpha, confident and such. Except there is one thing. I have no courage. It comes into play in literally all of my life, but when it comes to girls, this means I don't have the courage to escalate and I don't have the courage to approach. Just last night I was watching a movie with a bunch of people in my dorm room and a girl is on my bed and she props her legs up across me and I start rubbing her leg but I didn't have the courage to tell her to stay after to "watch a movie" or something (or escalate more physically). And I never approach random girls or talk to girls in class. I don't think I really fear rejection, but if this makes any sense, I feel like I fear failure. Which is the case, once again, in all of my life. I fear failing so instead I do nothing.

So RSD, where do I start in order to gain courage?

I feel like perhaps expressing my anger when a person does something I dislike (aka speaking my mind) and talking to the people around me in class. Though I don't know what in the world I would say to have it come off as just some friendly, not creepy banter.

Courage word comes from a latin term X cant remember it right now and it means that you act trough your heart, doing what your heart tells you to do(Doing what ever the fuck you wanna do at that moment). Your fear of failure is related to fear of rejection mate.

When it comes to doing various thing that you just mentioned such as approaching girls, there is no easy fix. You have to just do it! I've tried many times in the past to logically convince myself to do that sort of thing. This does not work. You're better off thinking as little as possible and just doing it. It can be tough. One thing that helps is having someone to push you in an authoritative way.

When your with a girl it is not about the girl, its about you and your fun

You should be pumping your state by teasing and escalating and seeing how far she'll let you go, all for your own fun

Girls are great but they are idiots, they say and do stupid shit including acting like they are not interested in hooking up when they actually are, you gotta view girls as funny and laugh at their negative reactions as much as you laugh to yourself when you see her getting super horny for you,

You cant take girls or hooking up seriously, just focus on pumping your state by messing with her, getting her horny and seeing how far she'll let you go, let her make her own mind up