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I know some of you are anxious to hear how our ultrasound went. First, thank you for all of the well wishes and excitement, I have had so much fun sharing the joy of my pregnancy with you. Now for the bad news. The US determined that our baby has Anencephaly, a brain defect where the top part of the brain doesn’t develop. It is fatal. The baby will not survive. We have a second US Wednesday to verify the findings, but there doesn’t seem to be any doubt that this is the case.

With this, the baby can develop normally until full term, be delivered but will only live for a few hours after being born. Or it’s heart can stop beating at anytime and labor will be induced to deliver the stillborn baby. Lastly, we have the option to terminate the pregnancy within the next few weeks. We our weighing our options, have an appt. with our OB Monday.

Our boys are devastated, as are we. We have received unbelievable support from our family and close friends we have told. They are all helping us work through this unimaginable nightmare. As I type this I can feel the baby move. Hard to believe it is strong and ‘healthy’ but will never come home to the love we have for it.

I will be taking some time off from blogging. I don’t know for how long, maybe a day, maybe a week or more. I have made some very good friends through blogging and I believe I will need you all over the following days, weeks and months. I might post sad, depressing posts, I might post more normal posts like in the past. Who knows how I will feel from day to day. But Annie and Keyona, PLEASE do not stop sending me emails about your pregnancies. I always thought if a miscarriage happened to me I would not want to know about other’s pregnancies or see other’s babies, but that is just not true. It has not made me feel differently about my excitement for you girls and my friends with little babies.

Please send prayers my way, and prayers for my husband and boys. I will be in touch and will let you know when and if anything happens.

Oh Erin, I'm so sorry to hear this. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers! I'll be here to read any posts you write whether they're sad or whatever, but definitely understand the need to take a break for awhile. Prayers coming your way!

Oh Erin, I wish I could give you a big hug. I am so, so, so sorry. You and your family are on my heart and in my thoughts and prayers. Please email me if you need to talk and take all the time you need!

There should never be such heartache. The world just never seems fair when a child has to suffer. Even a child who is waiting to be born.

Someone good to reach out to would be UnknownMami. She gave birth a couple of years ago to a little girl who during the ultrasound was said to have no kidney's. She was born with one good kidney. She struggled in making the decisions regarding her little 'Luna Pie'.

Life is so unfair. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. A very close cousin of mine was also pregnant recently and was given a fatal diagnosis and given the same options as you. I hope and pray that you and your family can get through this.

Hi, I’m Erin - welcome to my blog! I’m married to my high school sweetheart, mom to 3 energetic boys and 1 beautiful little girl. I enjoy reading, scrapbooking and cooking. I hope you hang around for awhile!