Monday, June 13, 2011

No one knows Where our secrets go

Shirt from H&M 10$

Skirt second hand 15$ (Zara)

Hello!!!~~
Today I went shopping for some shoes, I'm 25 now and I thought I'm ready to try heel.
I'm not so tall (1.63 , 5'4) but I felt like a giant when I did try them and that's one of the main reason I always kept myself far away from them, also I didn't feel confident enough to wear it... I felt like I will look absolutely ridiculous, Still I feel like I might look like that but I really want to try.I wanted to buy a soft color at the beginning but finding the perfect heels turned out to be really hard for me (actually it always been hard for me to find shoes that fit me)... my feet are really thin so even if the shoe was my size it still would look big on me on the sides, I couldn't find anything like I planed, but I found the perfect black shoes lol the only one that fit my feet perfect.

Being skinny wasn't always a bless for me, actually it's been like a course.
Finding clothes, shoes and accessories like bracelets that fit me it's super hard...also many people always telling me how scary I look was very hard for me even if they try to care about me , I know it didn't come from a bad place ... Lately I feel better about it, I eat everything I want , It might be nooot sooooo much but it's what I need , so I know that it's how I'm and I really can't change it... maybe with the years it will as I get older but I won't wait for that moment and I will try my best to feel good with myself now... Before that I always tried to hide that wearing oversize things or things that are not tight but I've got tired of hiding ... I always wanted to look nice I think everybody wants that, I'm still trying ... sometimes I over do staff so easily because even if I want to look nice I also don't want to spend so much time on it so I just put everything ... I'm still kinda lazy hehhee
So I think people need to remember that people come in all kind of sizes =)
I don't need compliments but hearing that kinds of staff it's not so nice, this blog wasn't to get compliments either ... just to see how I'm doing in the process as I always wrote diaries... It's something I enjoy to do ^^

oooh and for more positive things here is what I bought

Today my little sister put the disc of Smashing Pumpkins I have while she was playing with toys (she enjoys that kind of music and she is 8 hehe) and hearing them today really gave memories specially the song Mayonnaise it was perfect for me today ^^

And sorry for such a long post again... I didn't planed it to be like that hehe

Hey girl, sounds like you sure bought a lot of things! It's okay though, summer is here and we all need new clothes in our wardrobe right? hehe. And I totally see where you are coming from about the body image issue. I am like you, petite and skinny and always have a hard time buying clothes that fit property. But over the years being teased about my height and my weight, I've learned to be confident in myself and it's ok to be skinny as long as I am healthy! I really admire your positivity and your willingness to keep trying to look nice. Remember, confidence is our best accessories!