A teacher shared with me recentlythat we humans live in a great paradoxof which we are innately awarebut which is so overwhelmingthat it is the root causeof our misery and all the behaviorsthat arise from our misery.The paradox is this:Our consciousness is infiniteand yet our bodies are finite.The awareness in us is as vast as the universeand yet our tiny physical beings are fragile, vulnerable.This paradox, and the tension it createsis too much for many of us to bear.And so we numb.We fight.We get addicted.We look outside, to escapethe tension orginating from the center of our being.I have faced this paradox over and overas I have watched my life dissolvebefore my very eyes.Everything I knew has been obliterated.The consciousness in me can be at peace with this.My body is terrified, suffering from complex PTSD.Every day I dance on a fine line between hope and hopelessness,love and fear,existence and non-existence,infinity and limitation.I can tell you, it’s a lonely place to dance.