Sunday, March 2, 2014

1. containing nothing; having none of the usual or appropriate contents: an empty bottle.2. destitute of some quality or qualities: (usually fol. by of): Theirs is a life now empty of happiness.3. without force, effect, or significance; hollow; meaningless: empty compliments; empty pleasures.

Time heals everything... What a lie! It doesn't get better in time... More than two months and nothing changed. I go to work, spend time with my daughter, my friends, go out, have fun, dance, laugh... I cook, I read, I write... And I am happy while doing it, but there's this constant feeling of emptiness.

I have goals in my life, big plans, and am focused on making them my reality. I know I'll be living my dream in a couple of years. Each day, I am one step closer. But how do I fill this emptiness? Tell me... Just don't tell me to find another man, I tried it twice since November 2011. and it didn't work. I always end up more broken than I was before, feeling bad for even trying. Maybe I am supposed to stay alone for a long time. Maybe forever... How long is that? Don't know... Maybe solitude and emptiness are worth of whatever is coming after. Maybe destiny will give me my missing piece back.