Monday, July 21, 2014

As day goes by , so many things happened. Banyak pengalaman yang aku dapat , banyak kenangan yang aku cipta , banyak air mata yang dah mengalir , banyak jugak hati yang telah disakiti . Mengimbau kembali kenangan lama, kalau boleh diputarkan kembali masa , hoping that i could change back everything . Kerana dulu , aku terlalu muda untuk mengenal cinta , terlalu asyik dengan kehidupan yang entah apa. Menyesal , memang menyesal tapi apakan daya. aku hanya mampu belajar dari kesilapan yang lalu. Kalu ikutkan hati ... "kalau ikutkan hati".. itulah puncanya bila orang berdarah muda yang baru mengenal cinta, terlampau mengikutkan kata hati , and i regretted every single thing i did , every single thing i said . I was too young to even understand what love actually means. I wish to undo every single thing , i wish i can turn back time , i wish we can be friends like we used to be. But there's nothing much i can do now isnt it? But I'll be around , will always be around .

This is me , trying to be an adult , to understand what love and life actually means . There's still a long way to go , i just hope i will not repeat the same old mistake that i did when i was younger.

So now im on my semester break. (which is why im writing a new entry, lol) This time around it is much more exciting because saya dapat cuti till bulan SEPTEMBER. Yes , you heard meSEMBILAN . NINE! yahoo. another thing to be greatful for . Alhamdulillah. i shall make use of my cuti because i heard it a lot from the seniors that year 3 aka clinical years is going to be much tougher. and currently im still trying to define "tougher". Will i be able to adapt and survive? Hopefully , pray for Ikaa Haris and her friends!

Talking about cuti , well i kinda wasted days of my cuti staying at college doing elective and as well as packing up things because we girls are moving to residential collage 1 . Which i shall write about it in another entry because thats a whole different story . Hint ; THE NEW HOUSE IS A NIGHTMARE. T.T

Currently im at home , trying to sort my mind up and stop myself from doing something stupid during cuti ie: stalking on my friends . LOL (Lifeless much? God Ikaa , grow up!! HAHA) and im still trying to push myself to read up on Tally clinical examination (a book) which the docs reminded us to khatam kan the book before we enter our clinical years . Eheh , inshAllah . Kuat kan semangat , you can do it. :)