i feel so sad:( so i wrote this.........

I cannot cry, I cannot lie,
These feelings inside me will not die,
My time has come, the day is near,
For me to finally end my fear,
There is no more I can bear,
I was the quiet kid, that cried in school,
the one everyone called a fool.
I love my family, they will be hurt,
from what i am about to do, but its nothing
compared to the hurt i have been through.
At age 14, violently raped,
but I was the one that was to blame.
On this earth, i will never seek happiness,
only to put my faith in where my next stop will be.
Goodbye evil world, for i have tried,
i have suffered, with all my strength,
now it is time to say goodbye.