About Me

I'm a married momma of 2 funny and active boys - one very talkative 9 year old (the kid, born Feb '06), and one busy 5 year old (baby E, born Sept '10). I'm also a social worker with an unusual amount of knowledge about pregnancy for someone who's never experienced it firsthand. This blog is the telling of my journey to and through motherhood, with some sarcasm thrown in.

Friday, June 6, 2014

Maybe

I wish I could give you a reason why I've been absent here, but there really isn't one. Oh, well, I suppose maybe there are many, but none I feel inclined to share. Sometimes I wish this space was completely anonymous. But it's not.

There are no big badthings going on. Just things. Things I don't want to put out there. Or, more accurately, things I don't want to put out there where people who know me in the real world may see them.

I suppose I could start a new blog, an anonymous one. But I won't. Mostly because I don't feel strongly enough about the unsaid things to do that. Maybe one day I will.

Maybe.

Or maybe one day I'll feel comfortable enough to leave those things here.

Maybe.

Or maybe I'll find other things I need to process and talk about and I'll put those things here.

Maybe.

Or perhaps some new inspiration will have me scurrying back here.

Maybe.

I guess what I'm saying is I think we should all continue to expect this to be a mostly abandoned space.

Maybe.

I feel a little sad about stepping back from this space. But, only a little really. Because, in reality, I stepped back a long time ago. It has been a long, slow weaning process. And, just like when E finally weaned, I have many mixed emotions about it. But the slowness, the gentleness of it, well, it made it easier to be done. For now. Who knows what the future will hold.

So, maybe.

Today's Lesson: Sometimes we lose our voices. It is up to us to find them once more.

I'm sorry this space isn't working for you right now. I've been missing your posts, but glad we've been able to connect on Fb so I still "see" you every so often! The blog world has felt different to me lately...I'm not sure why, or if it's all in my head, but it seems like alot of people have stopped posting lately. :(