Sunday, November 24, 2013

I can't really fathom the fact that I am no longer studying. I have yet to decide what to do with my future. Should I continue learning on a higher level? If so, where should I go? Thinking about all the costs for me to continue studying is really discouraging me. But I really do want to. Some say go get myself a job first. Get your own money and then continue. But I have the feeling that once I'm working, I won't have the same drive to study anymore.

Option number two, start working. Be the greatest teacher that I can ever be. But to do that I would have to wait to be placed in a school that I have no idea about. And that scares me too.

I did got an offer to teach. But that would mean that I would have to live in Shah Alam, but my housemates and I have decided to let go of our place. And I really do need to learn how to drive so that I will get my own driving license so that I won't be much of a trouble to others. I know some of them don't mind, but I really do feel bad.

All this has been inside my head lately. But that is not all there is in there. I'm thinking about my parents and their health. They are not as strong as they used to be. Living here with them not earning money is making me feel like such a burden. And seeing most of my friends already filling their own pockets is such a pressure. some have even started their own little family while I'm here alone and single.

Like the words in the famous Disney animated movie Tangled, "When will my life begin?"

As for now, all I am able to do is wait patiently and figure out what the next step is. I can only pray that things will fall into place.

Sunday, October 13, 2013

I was browsing through my FB timeline when I saw this test.. It is interesting..

so here is what you have to do

Look at the trees and choose the one that is immediately most appealing to you.

Don’t think about it too long, just choose, see what hits you first, and find out what your choice says about your personality, have FUN and share your choice in the comments. Thank You.

The results . . .

1. You are a generous and moral (not to confuse with moralizing) person. You always work on self-improvement. You are very ambitious and have very high standards. People might think that communicating with you is difficult, but for you, it isn't easy to be who you are. You work very hard but you are not in the least selfish. You work because you want to improve the world. You have a great capacity to love people until they hurt you. But even after they do. . . you keep loving. Very few people can appreciate everything you do as well as you deserve.

2. You are a fun, honest person. You are very responsible and like taking care of others. You believe in putting in an honest day's work and accept many work-related responsibilities. You have a very good personality and people come to trust you easily. You are bright, witty and fast-thinking. You always have an interesting story to tell.

3.You are a smart and thoughtful person. You are a great thinker. Your thoughts and ideas are the most important. You like to think about your theories and views alone. You are an introvert. You get along with those who likes to think and learn. You spend a lot of time, thinking about morality. You are trying to do what is right, even if the majority of society does not agree with you.

4. You are perceptive and philosophical person. You are a unique, one soul of your kind. Next to you there's no one even slightly similar to you. You are intuitive and a bit quirky. You are often misunderstood, and it hurts you. You need personal space. Your creativity needs to be developed, it requires respect of others. You are a person who clearly sees the light and dark sides of life. You are very emotional.

5. You are self-assured and in charge. You are very independent. Your guiding principle in life is 'I'll do it my way.'. You are very self-reliant and know how to stay strong for yourself and the people you Love. You know exactly what you want and are not afraid of pursuing your dreams. The only thing you demand from people is honesty. You are strong enough to accept the truth.

6. You are kind and sensitive. People relate to you very well. You have many friends and you love helping them. You have this warm and bright aura that makes people feel good when they are around you. Every day, you think about what you can do to improve yourself. You want to be interesting, insightful and unique. More than anybody else in the world, you need to love. You are even ready to love those who don't love you back.

7. You are happy and unflappable. You are a very sensitive and understanding person. You are a great listener who know how to be non-judgmental. You believe that everybody has their own journey in life. You are open to new people and events. You are highly resistant to stress and rarely worry. Normally, you are very relaxed. You always manage to have a good time and never lose your way.

8. You are charming and energetic. You are a fun person who knows how to make people laugh. You live in a state of harmony with the universe. You are spontaneous and enthusiastic. You never say no to an adventure. Often, you end up surprising and even shocking people. But that's just how you are. . . You always remain true to yourself. You have many interests and if something proves of interest to you, you will not rest until you acquire a profound knowledge of this area.

9. You are optimistic and lucky. You believe that life is a gift and you try to achieve as much as possible and put this gift to the best use possible. You are very proud of your achievements. You are ready to stick by the people you care about through thick and thin. You have a very healthy approach to life. The glass is (at least) half full for you. You use any opportunity to forgive, learn, and grow because you believe that life is too short to do otherwise.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Somehow it seems like everyone is living their dreams while I'm stuck here in reality.I'm not complaining or anything, but I just want to be somewhere doing something. Going places, living new experiences. I guess all I can say now is, all is in good time.For now, I will be here, dreaming in my reality.

Friday, September 6, 2013

I really miss my friends. My groupies, the people that I used to spend so much time with before. Life seems to move so fast for them. I can't seem to keep up. Deep in my heart. I know that they do care. Even when they don't always show it. So here is to friends and friendship.

Friday, August 2, 2013

“Look, it can be nice living in a dream world, it can be great. I know that. And you can hide, and you can pretend all the crap out there doesn’t exist, but you can’t do it forever because eventually whatever it is you’re running from, it’ll find you. It’ll come along, and it’ll punch you in the gut, and then you’ve got to wake up. Because if you don’t, then trying to keep that dream alive will destroy you. It’ll destroy everything.”

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Sunday, July 28, 2013

A tiger mother lost her cubs from premature labour. Shortly after she became depressed and her health declined, and she was diagnosed with depression. So they wrapped up piglets in tiger cloth, and gave them to the tiger. The tiger now loves these pigs and treats them like her babies.

Is it not relevant kalau cakap media is the scoundrel behind the lack of morality among our youngsters? Kita sekarang hidup dalam zaman internet where it is so easy for anyone to access almost anything online.

Kids are so easily influenced by media. Jangan salahkan budak zaman sekarang jadi samseng kalau movies yang keluar kat wayang semua berunsur gangsterisme, rempit, dan seks. Not that I am a good parent or that I even have kids of my own. I don't. But these small things like what kids now days watch must not be taken for granted.

1. CTRL+C (Copy)2. CTRL+X (Cut)3. CTRL+V (Paste)4. CTRL+Z (Undo)5. DELETE (Delete)6. SHIFT+DELETE (Delete the selected item permanently without placing the item in the Recycle Bin)7. CTRL while dragging an item (Copy the selected item)8. CTRL+SHIFT while dragging an item (Create a shortcut to the selected item)9. F2 key (Rename the selected item)10. CTRL+RIGHT ARROW (Move the insertion point to the beginning of the next word)11. CTRL+LEFT ARROW (Move the insertion point to the beginning of the previous word)12. CTRL+DOWN ARROW (Move the insertion point to the beginning of the next paragraph)13. CTRL+UP ARROW (Move the insertion point to the beginning of the previous paragraph)14. CTRL+SHIFT with any of the arrow keys (Highlight a block of text)SHIFT with any of the arrow keys (Select more than one item in a window or on the desktop, or select text in a document)15. CTRL+A (Select all)16. F3 key (Search for a file or a folder)17. ALT+ENTER (View the properties for the selected item)18. ALT+F4 (Close the active item, or quit the active program)19. ALT+ENTER (Display the properties of the selected object)20. ALT+SPACEBAR (Open the shortcut menu for the active window)21. CTRL+F4 (Close the active document in programs that enable you to have multiple documents opensimultaneou sly)22. ALT+TAB (Switch between the open items)23. ALT+ESC (Cycle through items in the order that they had been opened)24. F6 key (Cycle through the screen elements in a window or on the desktop)25. F4 key (Display the Address bar list in My Computer or Windows Explorer)26. SHIFT+F10 (Display the shortcut menu for the selected item)27. ALT+SPACEBAR (Display the System menu for the active window)28. CTRL+ESC (Display the Start menu)29. ALT+Underlined letter in a menu name (Display the corresponding menu) Underlined letter in a command name on an open menu (Perform the corresponding command)30. F10 key (Activate the menu bar in the active program)31. RIGHT ARROW (Open the next menu to the right, or open a submenu)32. LEFT ARROW (Open the next menu to the left, or close a submenu)33. F5 key (Update the active window)34. BACKSPACE (View the folder onelevel up in My Computer or Windows Explorer)35. ESC (Cancel the current task)36. SHIFT when you insert a CD-ROMinto the CD-ROM drive (Prevent the CD-ROM from automatically playing)

Dialog Box - Keyboard Shortcuts1. CTRL+TAB (Move forward through the tabs)2. CTRL+SHIFT+TAB (Move backward through the tabs)3. TAB (Move forward through the options)4. SHIFT+TAB (Move backward through the options)5. ALT+Underlined letter (Perform the corresponding command or select the corresponding option)6. ENTER (Perform the command for the active option or button)7. SPACEBAR (Select or clear the check box if the active option is a check box)8. Arrow keys (Select a button if the active option is a group of option buttons)9. F1 key (Display Help)10. F4 key (Display the items in the active list)11. BACKSPACE (Open a folder one level up if a folder is selected in the Save As or Open dialog box)

Microsoft Natural Keyboard Shortcuts1. Windows Logo (Display or hide the Start menu)2. Windows Logo+BREAK (Display the System Properties dialog box)3. Windows Logo+D (Display the desktop)4. Windows Logo+M (Minimize all of the windows)5. Windows Logo+SHIFT+M (Restorethe minimized windows)6. Windows Logo+E (Open My Computer)7. Windows Logo+F (Search for a file or a folder)8. CTRL+Windows Logo+F (Search for computers)9. Windows Logo+F1 (Display Windows Help)10. Windows Logo+ L (Lock the keyboard)11. Windows Logo+R (Open the Run dialog box)12. Windows Logo+U (Open Utility Manager)13. Accessibility Keyboard Shortcuts14. Right SHIFT for eight seconds (Switch FilterKeys either on or off)15. Left ALT+left SHIFT+PRINT SCREEN (Switch High Contrast either on or off)16. Left ALT+left SHIFT+NUM LOCK (Switch the MouseKeys either on or off)17. SHIFT five times (Switch the StickyKeys either on or off)18. NUM LOCK for five seconds (Switch the ToggleKeys either on or off)19. Windows Logo +U (Open Utility Manager)20. Windows Explorer Keyboard Shortcuts21. END (Display the bottom of the active window)22. HOME (Display the top of the active window)23. NUM LOCK+Asterisk sign (*) (Display all of the subfolders that are under the selected folder)24. NUM LOCK+Plus sign (+) (Display the contents of the selected folder)25. NUM LOCK+Minus sign (-) (Collapse the selected folder)26. LEFT ARROW (Collapse the current selection if it is expanded, or select the parent folder)27. RIGHT ARROW (Display the current selection if it is collapsed, or select the first subfolder)

Shortcut Keys for Character MapAfter you double-click a character on the grid of characters, you can move through the grid by using the keyboard shortcuts:1. RIGHT ARROW (Move to the rightor to the beginning of the next line)2. LEFT ARROW (Move to the left orto the end of the previous line)3. UP ARROW (Move up one row)4. DOWN ARROW (Move down one row)5. PAGE UP (Move up one screen at a time)6. PAGE DOWN (Move down one screen at a time)7. HOME (Move to the beginning of the line)8. END (Move to the end of the line)9. CTRL+HOME (Move to the first character)10. CTRL+END (Move to the last character)11. SPACEBAR (Switch between Enlarged and Normal mode when a character is selected)

Remote Desktop Connection Navigation1. CTRL+ALT+END (Open the Microsoft Windows NT Security dialog box)2. ALT+PAGE UP (Switch between programs from left to right)3. ALT+PAGE DOWN (Switch between programs from right to left)4. ALT+INSERT (Cycle through the programs in most recently used order)5. ALT+HOME (Display the Start menu)6. CTRL+ALT+BREAK (Switch the client computer between a window and a full screen)7. ALT+DELETE (Display the Windows menu)8. CTRL+ALT+Minus sign (-) (Place a snapshot of the active window in the client on the Terminal server clipboard and provide the same functionality as pressing PRINT SCREEN on a local computer.)9. CTRL+ALT+Plus sign (+) (Place asnapshot of the entire client window area on the Terminal server clipboardand provide the same functionality aspressing ALT+PRINT SCREEN on a local computer.)

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Monday, February 11, 2013

The one on the left was my first try, it faded way too much because I sort of washed it the wrong way. The one on the left is my 2nd try before rinsing. As you can see below, this is how it looks like after I have rinsed and washed it.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

I have decided to try my hands on tie dye t-shirts! I saw this tutorial on youtube and decided to try it out. However I think I might have mixed a little too much water with the fabric dye. It is pretty simple actually. You can just follow the tutorial video below.

I am done with the coloring process. Now I just have to give it 24 hours before i can see the results. Cant wait to see how it turns out. I'll post about it tomorrow.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Earlier today I accompanied my Papa for breakfast after sending off my Mama to work.

We went to a place that my Papa used to tale me for breakfast when i was younger. It has been a long time since I went there. We had some nasi with ikan bakar, daging bakar. The air asam was incredible and I had a glass of teh ais to drink. The funny thing was, I didn't realize that both me and Papa was wearing green

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Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me. ~Bella