I must say, I was far to freaked out about getting caught to really enjoy it! Then I had to go do a programme with a client and have an actual conversation while my mind was completely somewhere else!!!

My crush is not going nearly as well. We made plans to go out to dinner tonight and I'm getting the impression that he's forgotten or doesn't want to go any more. I spent the first half of the day worrying that he'd forgotten and now I'm going to spend the next half of the day convinced he has and what that means and what's the proper response when someone ditches you but you still think they're really cute.

I texted him twice yesterday and got no response (not that weird for us, but still) so that coupled with no response today makes me think he's already forgotten. Plus he went out of town yesterday and would be coming back in town specifically to see me so there's no way he would've come back without telling me. Which means he's probably still out of town. And if he spent the better part of today out of town, he'll probably stay out of town tonight.

Really this is just an exercise in how well I know the signs of being blown off. I'm giving myself an A+ star.

My best way of getting over a crush like that is to crush on someone else temporarily. Even if that crush doesn't even make it is far as flirting at least it will give your mind something to keep busy until someone worthwhile comes along.

Guys, I'm now freaking out about the kiss. It was really dumb. We could have so easily been caught. Like sooooo easily.

EEeeee, daisychain! Hopefully next kiss is somewhere where you're not going to worry about getting caught.

I've been going on a couple dates with a guy from OKC & he is SO SO CUTE. I texted him to suggest a time on wednesday (we'd previously agreed to meet) and haven't heard back so of course, like Fee, I'm kind of like, HE CHANGED HIS MIND OH NOES. (but maybe I'll have Fee's luck??)

_________________"Vegan to me means Oreos for breakfast." -Poopiebitch"tl;dr: I quit working to drink beer paid for with gift cards" erikasoyf*cker

Date is today!! Had to have a wardrobe change. Tried on the top last night with the bra I got and the design is far too noticeable on the bra so I've had to change the tops. I've no idea what shoes to wear now.

My former crush (the one who messaged me constantly but never wanted to hang out) STILL messages me constantly. His company does work for mine, and he always starts out telling me about work stuff that involves my orders, but then he keeps the conversation going all day on g-chat. We were talking about how terrible I feel like I am at photographing the merch for the web store, and he went to look at the pictures. All he can talk about is the girl I got to model the girly tees and how great her butt is. Like, he's asking me questions about her like he wants to get to know her based on a photo of her wearing a t-shirt because she has a "great butt."

My former crush (the one who messaged me constantly but never wanted to hang out) STILL messages me constantly. His company does work for mine, and he always starts out telling me about work stuff that involves my orders, but then he keeps the conversation going all day on g-chat. We were talking about how terrible I feel like I am at photographing the merch for the web store, and he went to look at the pictures. All he can talk about is the girl I got to model the girly tees and how great her butt is. Like, he's asking me questions about her like he wants to get to know her based on a photo of her wearing a t-shirt because she has a "great butt."

Are you forkin' kidding me?? Go away.

"I'm really busy here. Got to go! Bye!"

_________________If you spit on my food I will blow your forking head off, you filthy shitdog. - MumblesDon't you know that vegan meat is the gateway drug to chicken addiction? Because GMO and trans-fats. - kaerlighed

EEeeee, daisychain! Hopefully next kiss is somewhere where you're not going to worry about getting caught.

I've been going on a couple dates with a guy from OKC & he is SO SO CUTE. I texted him to suggest a time on wednesday (we'd previously agreed to meet) and haven't heard back so of course, like Fee, I'm kind of like, HE CHANGED HIS MIND OH NOES. (but maybe I'll have Fee's luck??)

Yeah, so I've had sex now for the first time in 5 years. First time I've even snogged someone since all the stalking, the assault and finally talking about the abuse when child (obviously didn't tell him any of that). I don't think I was ready for it because it was quite painful for a while. Doesn't help he is packing ex-large down there and my vag is seriously underused. So when I got home and went to do a pee I bled A LOT.

Yeah, so I've had sex now for the first time in 5 years. First time I've even snogged someone since all the stalking, the assault and finally talking about the abuse when child (obviously didn't tell him any of that). I don't think I was ready for it because it was quite painful for a while. Doesn't help he is packing ex-large down there and my vag is seriously underused. So when I got home and went to do a pee I bled A LOT.

Wowzers, dc! I hope you enjoyed yourself thoroughly even though there was ouches. I miss that walking like John Wayne thing sometimes.

Let's make sure you help out that vag though next time okay? I highly recommend this lube, though really it's just because it's vegan and silicone-based that I recommend it. Silicone-based and oil-based are always leagues away amazing for me, water-based... not a fan. Oil-based ones are fun when paired with water-based though (you know, oil-base up all parties involved, and then put some water-based on top of the already oiled-up parts...) (but for ease and $$ sake I just by the one silicone and call it good).