30 Pounds and Other Amazingness

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

So... Technically I have 0.8 lbs to go before I hit the "30 pounds down" mark, but I can at least say that I am ALMOST down 30 pounds. I'm at 303.8, a new new low for me since I started this journey. I had gotten down to 306 back in May/June and then I just lost my footing and unfortunately took some steps back. I had lost my job (again), and was in search of a teaching job and was also really struggling with my depression and anxiety. I went back up to 326ish and it took me a bit to really find my drive again, but now that I've been back on it since January/February I've really been pushing forward and seeing progress with the work I've been putting in. Its so nice to be able to see consistent results!! I know that I still have a ways to go but in 4 more pounds I will be in Two-derville!!!!!!! I haven't weighed under 300 lbs since 2008 and I can't wait to hit that mile stone!

I found this picture the other day and its amazing to think that I've lost 6 times this!!! I think its really motivating and I hope you see the value in it as well!

On another totally different note.....

I went to the Denver Auto Show with my dad (my mom is out of town in Massachusetts seeing her mom for the week so my dad and I have been hanging out a bit more and getting some quality daddy-daughter time in) and saw some awesome cars! Meaghan came along with us too which made it that much more fun. We got some snow Friday night and Saturday, but it wasn't that bad- just wet and cold.

FC came down Friday night (if you don't know who FC is, my previous blog explains all of that) and we had an AMAZING weekend. We watched a movie (Collateral) Friday night after I got home from the car show and I ended up falling asleep because I was so tired from my week, so we finished what I didn't see Saturday morning. Keep in mind, FC still has not even kissed me yet- super respectful and sweet- but we woke up Saturday and I made apple pancakes from scratch and scrambled eggs and sausage. (I had one pancake, 1 piece of sausage and 1 egg.) Then we watched the rest of Collateral and just spent the day watching movies, talking, and just hanging out (still no kiss by the way). So that night, my friend Meaghan and her friend Jason came over and we played Quibble (I think that's the name of the game haha), Apples to Apples, Scene It, and Clue. It was SO much fun- and FC gets along REALLY well with my friends. When Meaghan I were talking about it on Sunday (after FC left to go home) she told me that he definitely seems to be making an effort to get to know my/our friends and really wants to be part of the group and isn't just "putting up with" being with my friends like "The (ex) Boy" did. She told me that she always felt like he didn't really want her around, but put up with it because she's my best friend- I felt terrible when she told me that because I would never want her, or any of my friends to feel that way. So, its a good thing that FC is so great with my friends so far.

Anyways, everyone left around 1:45a and FC and I went to bed- I fell asleep so fast- I was exhausted. BUT before we went to bed, he FINALLY kissed me! (Just a very simple kiss lol but very sweet) I am glad that he waited- it made me feel really respected and valued. We've had the whole talk about me not going too far/too fast/waiting and he has basically told me that he's willing to wait as long as it takes because I'm worth waiting forever for- I think he could make anyone melt- including me haha. On Sunday we went out for breakfast and then played some Phase 10 and watched another movie and just spent time together. He left around 5:45 Sunday evening and headed home.

I don't feel like I'm rushing or forcing anything...its just falling into place naturally- even though I'm still entering cautiously and getting to know FC, I feel like there is potential for something really great, and I'm not going to stop something that is going well- I'm not 22 anymore, I'm almost 29 and I'm not saying that I have a timeline for anything, but I feel like although I'm going to continue to grow and learn more about myself (I think that this is an ongoing process for everyone and it doesn't stop at a certain age), I'm ready to find that person that I'm going to be with indefinitely. If that turns into being FC eventually, great, if not, its okay and I'll find the person I'm supposed to be with. I'm going to just let things fall into place the way it should and see where everything ends up!

Yesterday, I had a training for work and I got to drive a school bus!!! It was one of the short buses, but it was a school bus none-the-less! It was actually pretty fun (I was a little anxious about it). Then I went and got my nails done, went and worked out with Meaghan (I took 43 seconds off of my mile time!) then had dinner with my dad.

This weekend was a really great one, and today is FC's birthday, so I'm going to go up and see my best friend from college (she lives about 30 minutes away from Fort Collins) and see my nephews (one is 5 and one will be 2 tomorrow) and spend some time with them, and then go up to see FC after he gets off work :) I'm really excited to see him and am just generally excited about today!

BIZZ27
Aaawwww l love you!!!! lol Your blogs are always soooo in tune with you... I am so happy for you!! And I bet that kiss was well worth the wait! They're worth so much more when there's meaning behind it and not just someone trying to get in your pants lol

Enjoy your week and congrats on shaving 43 seconds off that mile!!!1354 days ago