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Saturday, August 15, 2009

I KNOW THIS PART IS SHORT BUT I PROMISE THE NEXT POST WILL BE LOOONG, THAAANKS FOR YOUR PATIENCE!;**

Previously on "Across The Universe":- I had a very romantic yet weird dream about Mishary.- Waleedan, Mishary, and i were gonna go out, but it was postponed.- Yousef is getting sick of ilghurba and wants to come back to Kuwait.- Uncle Khaled is travelling to Dubai for a few days.- I felt dizzy and my broken arms hurted me from the pillow fight i had with Mishary.- Haya left several messages on msn, she wanted something.- Someone was calling me.

"Okay, sorryy i asked." She said. "I just called to say hi and know hwo you're feeling after the accident and your parents going away, and how are you handeling things." She said.

I felt shwaya bad, but it's HAYA!

"Okay, thanks for checking, im doing fine il7emdellah." I said.

"Il7emdellah, you know if you need anything you know where to find me.." She said.

"Thanks, ma tga9reen." I said.

"Akalmich later, take care!" She said.

We ended the phonecall.

I left my room and went to the living room upstaiirs.

No one was in the house, i was home alone.I felt hungry and went downstairs to the kitchen to eat something.

I walked into the kitchen, i opened the fridge and took out Kraft cheese and fresh tomatoes.I decided to make tomato cheese sandwich.

I was applying cheese on the sandwich when i heard a door shut.

"Misharyyy?" I yelled."Waleeedan?" I yelled again, There was no answer.

I got scared.My phone was upstairs, i couldn't call any of them, and i dont memorize their number, so i cant call them from the house phone.

I was scared to leave the kitchen.I finished making my tomato cheese sandwich and sat on the chair and ate it, in the kitchen with chocolate milk to drink.

I finished my sandwich and my chocolate milk, cleaned after me, and stood there in near the kitchen door.I was scared.

"Misharyy?? Waleeeeeedaaan?? Janouyaa?? anyone there?" I yelled.

Still, no answer.I didnt hearthe elevator working.but i was pretty sure someone entered the house.That means who ever is in the house with me....might be downstairs, or he/she/it actually went up the stairs.'ma3qoula mishary forgot to lock the door behind him?' i thought.

I held a broom from the kitchen and left the kitchen and into the dining room.I was taking baby steps, to the elevator while holding tight on the broomstick, my hands were sweating a bit, and my lips felt dry.

I was really getting scared, and i felt like i was in some kind of a scary movie.and i also remembered Mishary's comment on being home alone, that i should go to the supermarket and get me some tuff to do traps.That might've worked....in movies, but reality is so much CRUELER!:P

I held the broomstick very tightly and walked into the two connected rooms, the elevator was there.

"MISHAARYY?" I yelled, my voice was very shakey. i was terrified.

There was a bit of mud scattered near the main house doorway.WHO WALKED IN!?!

I got really scared i walked and sat on one of the connected livingroom couches and picked up the phone, dailed in D's number and waited for an answer.

"Alooo??" D answered.

"D! Le7gaay!!" I said.

"DAYOUM!?" She said.

"Yesss dayoum!" I said.

"Shfeech!?" She said.

"I'm scared, i'm not home alone....i think!" I said.

"Haa? shelsalfa?? i dont understand." She said.

"Well, mishary and waleedan left and im home alone, i was sure they left, w knt bilma6bakh asaweeli a snack to eat wela i hear the door shut. The main door!!" I said.

"OMG SCARY!!" She said.

"I know! shasawee?" I said.

"Hmm, talk to me here 3la ma a7ad eyeee, dam you are safe where you are." She said.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Wow, 50!:Pso yeah sorry, i actually wrote this part yesterday around 2:30AM, but while writing it i fell asleep, so i didnt get to complete it, and now i did, again sorry for the delay.One more thing, i will no longer use colors for conversations because it's time consuming and sometimes when im done with the coloring at the end, they say some html error.. :/But if you guys insist on the color let me know 3shan i use it next time,&Enjoooy!;*

Previously on "Across the Universe":- Mishary's ex-Gf is a lunatic who i feel bad for.- Mishary and i are pretending to be 'lovers'- I'm not feeling good about this whole pretending.- Does Mishary even like me?

"Okay, yalla see you later." He said w he left the room and shut the door behind him.

I layed my head back on the pillow.I totally forgot about uni, and not that it's getting close, im getting nervous shwaya.I stayed on my bed thinking of what to wear lma a6la3 with waleedan and mishary because i couldn't go back to sleep.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Sorry for the delay, but i was helping a friend with her booth at an Exibition, so i didn't have time to log on, enjoyy;*!

Oh and sorry guys, this post won't be colorful, i'm sleepy and tired, and you guys already waited for this part, and i dont want to keep you guys any longer;*!

Previously on "Across The Universe":- Haya is well Haya, she didn't change one bit.- Yousef and i are officially just 'friends'- There is definitely something going on between Ghazi & D, and i'm happy for them.- Fajoura is throwing a DJ party, Me & D are invited!- Mishary and i had a sweet moment then he went to his room and ditched me for...????

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2nd of of SeptemberMy bedroom10:45AM

I woke up to the sound of heavy machinary working.

Ughh, not a good way to start the day.

I got up and went to the bathroom to wash up and brush my teeth.I got out and changed into a black capri and a yellow spongebob tshirt with my hair up in a messy kuba and left the room.

No one was in the livingroom upstairs.i was going to press the elevator button when i heard Mishary's voice talking on the phone."Khalaa9,i'll see etha fa'9ii ilyoum w a36eech khabar." i heard him say.

Hatha shnu salfeta? I wondered.I pressed the button and was waiting for the elevator when Mishary left his room and saw me.I was looking at his room when he opened it so i guess he sensed i heard something, his face expression was metwaheg.

without any word i got into the elevator and went down, i didn't wait for him.It was so awkward, and i'm still pissed off how he stood me up lastnight.

I got into the dining room and to my luck, no one was on the table, but the breakfast was still there.

I gave the door my back and got seated.

I was puting cheese in a toasted bread when Mishary sneaks up behind me and scares me.

"BOO!" He said and placed his hands on my shoulder from the back.

I wasn't scared, instead i gave him a look and got back to applying cheese on the bread.

"Shfeeech?" He asked.

"Nothing!" I said.ya3ni you don't realise ena you did something wrong?

"La akeed feech shay!?" He said.

"I said ma feeni shay, khala9!" I said.

"enzain enzain." He said and got seated.

I ate my breakfast silently.He kept staring.

"La, dayoum, mu 6abee3ya shfeech?!" He said.

"Waaaai!! Mishary, ya3ni ilwa7ed ma yegdar yakil ryoug 3la ra7ta!?" I said and got up to leave the dining room.

"Haa? waiinn waiin ray7a?" He asked.

"My room!" I said and walked to the exit door.

"La7tha la7tha..!" He yelled.I ignored and left the dining room and went upstairs.

I got into my room and closed the door behind me.

i was so pissed of from Mishary being COLD and careless!

I sat on the bed and switched on my laptopI turned on some music and suddenly felt like going out.

I got up and opened the closet to look for an outfit to wear.*KNOCK KNOCK*

I didnt reply,i knew it was Mishary.

"Dayoum?" He said and knocked again.

I kept ignoring, he opened the door holding a tray with taosted bread and a glass of milk with tea.

"Shfeech ma tredeen!?" He asked as he saw me standing near my closet.

"sorry, ma sema3t." I said, carelessly.

"Hach, i brought you your breakfast, ma klaiitai shay!" He said and put the tray on the desk.

"Mu you3ana." I said.

"Dayouma, ana swaiit shay?" He said.

"No....nothing." I said.

"3yal shfeech chithi 3lay!?" He said.

"Mafeeeni shay" I said.

I was responding in a very dry esloub, i was as gold as he was.

"DAYOUM gouleelii shfeeech la a9ekich kaaf al7een!!?" He snapped.

My eyes popped out."Na3am?" I said.

"Sem3ateenii!" He said.

"Ma tegdar etmid eedik 3lay!" I said.

"Laa agdaar!! gouleeli shfeech ya bnaya!" He said.

"Yesterday!? doesn't it ring a bell?" I said.

"Yesterday?? shnuuu?" He said, innocently.

"MISHARYY! you said you were going to get a movie and you never came back!! i was waiting!" I said.

"Really you waited? I didn't think it was that important, ena bs chithi!" He said. "B3dain knt akalim 9a7bii jassoum, 9ayra salfa 6weela w i was helping him." He said.

"Laaa?? ok." I said.

"Shnuu!?" He asked.

"Nothing, please leave me alone!" I said.

"Mabi." He said and closed the door and sat on my bed.

I looked at him, shyaabiii?!

"Ok." I said and turned to the closet to look for the outfit to wear.

"Wain betrou7een?" He asked.

"Madrii, anywhere!" I said.

"Can i come?" He said.

"No, ma 3endik shiqil ghair enik et2atheeni?" I said.

"7ram 3laich, 3shan salfat ams galabtaii mra wa7da 3lay" He said.

"No." I said.

"Noo? 3la shnu ? shsawaiit ana b3d?" He asked.

"uhh, nothing." I said.

shit, what was i thinking, ya3ni bagoula i heard you talking to a girl..? enzain kaifa let him talk ana shku feeh right? :/

Even though it was all pretend, i was feeling happy...but i know i was lying to myself that i was 'OK' with this whole pretending, cos i know what it leads to, and i dont want to be crushed and turned down by Mishary.I was pretty sure if we kept this act for a long time, i will fall for him, and fall hard.

"Mishary.." I said.

He was taking a bite out of his Burger."3youna..?" He said.

"I dont think we should keep doing this, pretending." I said.

"Besmellah tawna badeen." He said.

"I know, bs i dont, its wierd." I said.

"Why? Do you want me to promise that no one will get hurt?" He said.

"Yes.." I whispered.

"I promise...okay?" He said.

"Okay." I said.

I didn't want to argue more about this.I finished my dinner.

"don't get up, khaleeni akhali9." He said. "wait for me." He said.

"Okay." I said.

"3shan i walk you to your room, lazem en9eer gentleman 3araftaai?" He said.

"Hehe, okay." I said.

He finished Dinner and walked me to my room.He gave me a pat on the head before going to his room.typical Mishary.

Well because they say "Always wear cute pajamas, you never know who you'll meet in your dreams!"

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Previously on "Across the Universe":- Mishary is getting jealous.- Mishary also has a girl in his life, but i dont know who....yet.- Yousef and i are going to be "Friends", this should be interesting.- I was in the car with D, on the way to Maki to meet with Ghazi and Fajoura.

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1st of SeptemberKhaleej street6:30PM

We just passed Friday's.

"Whatever happened to Haya?" D asked.

"DON'T MENTION HER, everytime we mention her name, she pops back into my life!" I said.

"Haha i know, it's scary!" She said.

"Tell me about it!" I said.

"But seriously, where did she disappear?" She asked.

"I don't know, and i dont care!" I said.

"How is the situation with Mishary and you?" she asked.

"I don't know,i really dont know, he's clearly jealous, yet he didn't open up for me yet, plus the fact that he has a girl in his life!" I said. "It's too complicated, i dont think i can deal with it right now!" I said.

"But you do like him right?" She said. Curiously.

"I think i do, but it's hard to wait for something i know may never happen but it's even harder when you know it's everything you want!" I said.

"OMG!" She said.

"What?" I said and turned to her.

"Do you realise what you just said?" She said.

"That...i...like....him?" I said.

"NO!! you love him!" She said.

"I do?" I said. Confused.

"Yess! obviously, you have strong feelings for him, you cant give up Dayoum!" She said.

"Who said anything about giving up? do you not know me at all? i rather fail knowing i tried my best, than give up and live with not knowing what might've happened." I said.

We got seated and took about 5 minutes to check the menues, well Fajoura needed the 5 minutes apparently me, ghazi and D were ready to order.

Each ordered the dish they preferred, and we chatted, i saw Ghazi giving D a few glances, and they weren't normal ones, there was something, something he's hiding, he's afraid to show his feelings, why do most guys - if not all - hide their true feelings? are they afraid of commitment? or are they just afraid of love?

I quickly excused myself to go to the bathroom after i saw Khaled entering Maki.

I texted D,"Shit, Khaled is here!" I sent.

I waited in the bathroom for a reply.*BEEP*"Oh, that's bad, he noticed me, he remembers my face!" she replied.

I pushed some confidence in me and a little of strenght and exited the bathroom, to head to our table.I thought;'why should i care?''what can he do?''what will he do?'

I enetered Maki, since the bathroom is located outside.Khaled turned to look at me, i gave him the coldest stare and sat back in my seat.

Each ordered their own edemame spicey, except for Ghazi, he oredered the spicey and the salty one.Who can blame him? he's a guy.

We finished the evening, and it was really really fun, i have a great time, so did everyone.Khaled was staring too much, and Ghazi noticed, and to my luck he remembers khaled.

"Isn't he the guy that.." He said.

"Yes yes, it's him!" I said.

"Do you know him?" He asked.

and here i was trying to swallow and i hoped the moment pass quickly.

"No, he's been bothering and following Dayouma ever since we first saw him, in albedi3" D said, covering my ass.

"Oh.." He said.

"Thank you!" I whispered to D.

We walked 3al ba7ar shwaya enha'9im what we ate, even though Maki never made me feel soo FULL, i absolutely love that about it!

It was 9 and i ended the night.

"D we should go back home, i promised Khali that i'll be back early, and im assuming early to him is when he gets back home, im there, he usualy is back around 10." I said.

"Ohh, okay!" D said, dissapointed, she was having a great time with Ghazi...& fajoura.

"Yalla ma 3laiih, ilyayat akthar enshallah." Ghazi said.

"Enshallah" I said and smiled.

"It was really nice seeing you and catching up, dayoum, we shoud do this more often!" Fajoura said.

"Yeah it really was, definitely." I said.

"Inshallah inshoufich, w tra i'm holding a DJ party next week, you and D are the first to come, and you dont get to say no!" She said.

"We never say no to parties!" D said.I nodded, agreeing.

We said goodbye and each got into their ride and went back home.We got into D's car and headed back to my second home.I couldn't wait to get back home, i want to see if Mishary will be curious about our evening dinner.

1st of SeptemberSecond home10:20PM

I entered the house and there was no one in the livingroom downstairs, the house wa pretty empty.ma3qoula no one is home?Not even Janouya?

I went upstairs and got in my room.I was home alone.

I opened my laptop and signed on msn.as soon as i signed on, i saw the name "Hayouna - Methlik Geleel;*" Starting a conversation with me.

GREAT, you just had to mention her D!!ugh.

Haya: Heyyy;p!

Me: What do you want?

Haya: excuse me?

Me: Haya, deshay bilmawthou3, what do you want?

Haya: nothing.

Me: I cant remember the last time you talked to me!

Haya: Hence why i'm talking now.

Me: No, i mean you don't talk to me at all, unless you're up to something.

Haya: Why don't you believe that people can change?

Me: Because i don't believe bullshit.

Haya: Well, believe it or not, i was thinking about you today, and i wanetd to know how you're doing with the whole break-up thing with Yousef.

HOW DID SHE KNOW?

Me: I'm sorry, what?

Haya: what? did i say something wrong? you did break up with him right?

Me: He's all yours Haya, goodbye!

I blocked her, temporarily.

I opened my inbox since i had 50 new emails.I was checking my emails when a new msn message box appeared, "Yousef - USA." Has signed on.

I clicked on the box appeared and opened the conversation.

Me: How could you tell Haya about our break up!? you're actually over me that quick!?

Yousef: What?

Me: I was pretty clear.

Yousef: I don't know what you're talking about, i'm still trying to cope with the fact that you and i are no longer together, i'm having hard time believing that!

Me: Then how did haya know about it?

Yousef: I honestly don't know.

Me: Hmm okay.

Yousef: Dayouma can we talk about what we talked about earlier on the phone?

Me: What's there to talk about?

Yousef: Are you sure you're doing the right thing? us being friends only?

Me: I'm not sure it's the right thing, but i know i can't be with you anymore.

Yousef: Give me a good reason!

Me: Well, I can't pretend you didn't break my heart!

Yousef: Because i'm being jealous and missing you like crazy suddenly i broke your heart?

Me: No, you know what i'm talking about!

Yousef: no, tell me!

Me: I gave you a chance before, when you first did it, and i thought you actually deserved a second chance, now i have no idea what the hell i was thinking about, because apparently you're not the type that learn from their mistakes.

Yousef: You're making me sound like a really bad person, i'm not that bad!

Me: I know you're not a bad person, i know that, i can forgive you for what you did, and that's what i'm doing right now, but i cannot forget!

Yousef: But i really like you, still, Don't you?

Me: I liked you, past tense, i dont regret telling you i like you, i only regret not knowing what you thought of me!

Yousef: What do you mean?

Me: you know exactly what i mean.

Yousef: What can i do to make you understand that i'm regreting every second of my life i spent thinking that you might have a relationship with another guy! but one can't do anything about it, it's in the past.

Me: Yousef, you're making it soo hard for me! stop it please!

I pressed enter and i felt my heart feeling pressured.

Yousef: I'm sorry, is it wrong that i'm trying to fix things between us?

Me: There is nothing to fix!

Yousef: Yes there is, every problem can be solved.

Me: Not ours.

Yousef: Well i'm not convinced, i believe there is a sulotion to our situation, and i'm not gonna stop looking for it!

Me: Don't bother yourself, i'm saving you the time! don't look for a new sulotion, we did agree on being friends, don't make change my idea.

Yousef: (U) [for those who are not familiar with Msn emoticons, it's a broken heart]

Me: I'm sorry for something i didn't do.

Yousef: You're an amazing person, and any man is more than lucky to have you, i'm lucky enough to have known you!

Me: Thank you.

Yousef: wallah, honestly, you're the best thing that happened to me in my entire life, and i mean it, and no matter what, lovers, friends or nothing at all, i will always be grateful for the person you made me be. Even though i would love to be with you, but i rather to be friends with you than nobody to you.

Me: I changed you? and you will always be someone to me. Always.

Yousef: Are you kidding me? you turned me into whole new person. and i'm glad to know that.

Me: That's nice to know.

Yousef: :)

Me: Yousef, you're a great guy too, but sometimes you do stupid things, no offence.

Yousef: Well, i should do stupid things in order to learn.

Me: You're right, i'm glad you know that.

Yousef: Ofcourse.

Me: I'll talk to you later okay? i'm going to bed.

Yousef: Okay dayouma, take care.

Me: Enshallah, you too, goodnight.

Yousef: Goodnight.

i sighed out.

I turned off my laptop and layed in bed with only the nightlight on, i was thinking.

Are my feelings to Mishary effecting my judgements about Yousef?Or am i actually a very strong person after all?

It was midnight and i still didn't sleep.

*knock knock*

"Who is it?" i said.

"Mishary" He said.

"Come in" I said and got my head off the pillow.

"Ohh sorry kntay nayma?" He said as he entered the room.

"No it's okay, i was trying to sleep!" I said.

"Ghareeba, it's too early!" He said.

"I know, but i was feeling tired." I said.

"Shfeech?! Are you okay?" He asked. Concered.

"I'm fine." I said.

"Are you sure?" He asked to confirm.

"I'm pretty sure!" I said.

I asked him to sit on the bed instead of standing near the door.

"Good, How is il6al3a?" He said as he sat on the edge of the bed.

"It was very nice, i had a nice time." I said.

"That's good, How is Ghazi?" He asked.

"He's alright." I said.

"W how is Fajoura? Is she still not that pretty?" He asked.

"She was always pretty." I said.

"Come one seriously, beever teeth?" He said.

"7aram 3laik, she's really pretty!" I said.

"Well, Braces do wonders!" He said.

"7ram 3laik!" I said.

"What? ma gelt shay ghala6, they are magical!" He continued his saracasm.

"Okay." I gave up argueing.

*Ring ring*His phone was ringing.

"Sorry, i just.." He said and pressed the ignore button.

"You can take the call." I said.more like i WANT you to take the call really, was it "THE" girl? i wondered.

"No it's okay, he can wait." He said.

Oh, it's a he.

"Okay." I said.

*Ring Ring*His phone was ringing....again.

"Seriously, take the call!" I said.

"Okaay!" He said and picked the phone.He seems like he really didn't want to.

"Oh...okay, if its important tra 3adi, our conversation can wait." I said.

"Nope, i'm having fun talking to you." He said & winked.

I wanted to smile, but i knew he was lying about the phonecall.

"Don't wink." I said.

"Afa, laiish?" He said.

"Bs it's weird!" I said.

"How is it weird?" He asked.

"well, madry, it makes me feel like you're hitting on me!" I said. so innocently.

"What if i was?" He said.

"WhaT?!" I said. Surprised.

"I said 'WHAT IF'!" He said.

"Nothing, i was just saying it's weird!" I said.

"Okay." He said.

"Let's watch a movie!" I said.

"Yalla, ay movie?" He said.

"Madri, what do you have?" I said.

"What are you in the mood to watch? Action? horror?" He said.

"Action." I said.

"Really? I thought you might say romance and drama!" He said.

"Well, believe me when i say, i'm not like any girl." I said.

"Ohh, shay ydeed hatha!" He said.

"No, it's old news, but you just found out, i'm not shallow, i'm just confident" I said.

"You're also cool." He said.

"Thank you, you're not bad yourself." I said.

"Not bad? what does that suppose to mean?" he said.

"it means not bad!" I said.

"yumma minich" He said and poked me.

I giggled.

"Let me go get an action movie from my room." He said and got up and went to his room.

"Okay." I said. "Better be good." I added.

I was waiting for him to come back.I layed my head on the pillow.

What's taking him so long? I thought.He better be not ditching me for his friend "jassoum"!

I was laying in bed thinking of any reason that he's not back yet, anythingBathroom maybe?He fell and broke his leg?He passed out?...ANYTHING but the fact that he's talking to another girl as i'm waiting for him.I failed to believe one other than that.

I tried to sleep while the song "complicated" by Carolyn Dawn Johnson was playing over and over in my head.

I'm so scared that the way that I feel

Is written all over my face

When you walk into the room

I want to find a hiding place

We used to laugh, we used to hug

The way that old friends do

But now a smile and a touch 'a your hand

Just makes me come unglued

It's such a contradiction

Do I lie or tell the truth

Is it fact or fiction

Oh, the way I feel for you

It's so complicatedI'm so frustratedI wanna hold you close, I wanna push you awayI wanna make you go, I wanna make you stayShould I say itShould I tell you how I feelOh, I want you to knowBut then again I don'tIt's so complicated (oh)

Just when I think I'm under controlI think I finally got a gripAnother friend tells me thatMy name is always on your lipsThey say I'm more than just a friendThey say I must be blindWell, I admit that I've seen you watch meFrom the corner of your eyeOh, it's so confusingYeah, I wish you'd just confessBut think of what I'd be losingIf your answer wasn't yes

I hate it'Cause I've waitedSo long for someone like youOh, what do I do

Why should I say itShould I tell you how I feelOh, I want you to knowBut then again I don'tIt's so complicated (complicated)So complicated (complicated)It's so complicated, oh

Sunday, August 2, 2009

I just realised it has been one whole year for my blog!That's soo cool!!

Happy anniversary to my blog! :D& i love you all for being the best followers!!;***

Oh, one more thing, no cliffhanger on this post.

Previously on "Across the Universe":- My parents's farewell dinner was awesome.- Mishary has another side of him that i never knew.- Yousef is waiting for me; to sort things out.- I'm going out with the attractive Jara7, Mishary and D, that's gotta be fun!- I received a new text message while i was brushing my teeth.

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1st of SeptemberBedroom10AM

I got out of the bathroom and went to check the new text message i received.It was from Ghazi; "Hii, shlounich? shakhbarich? Baiih minzeman 3anich, waiin ekhtefaaiitaii? ;P"

I was wearing a pink and white striped Pajama pants and a white T-shirt, i took my pink Juicy couture Tracksuit Jacket and wore it because i was going downstairs to eat breakfast and my White T-shirt can be see-through at times.I slipped my phone in the jacket pocket and left the room.

I was walking down the hall when i heared Mishary talking on the phone in his room, he was yelling, so his voice was kind of clear to hear.I was pretty sure he was talking to a girl because i heard him say "w b3dain ma3ach".

I couldn't stand hearing anymore so i pressed the elevator button and went downstairs.Who was he talking to?Was it his Cousin?Or was it his girlfriend?I wondered while i got into the elevator and went to the ground floor.

I got into the dining room and Waleed was there with Janouya."9ba7 ilkhaiir" I said as i got myself seated next to Janouya.

"9ba7 ilnour" Waleedan replied.

"3yal wain khalii?" I asked.

"He had to go to work early." Waleed said.

"Oh, allah ya36eeh il3afyah, Janouya shlounich 7yatii?" I said as i kissed her cheeks.

"Zaina!" She said.

I was putting Labnah and za3tar in my plate when Mishary walked in the dining room and sat next to Waleedan, his face was a bit red, Probably from the phonecall.

I looked at him then i turned to Waleed,"Can you please hand me the olive oil?" I said.

"Sure." He said.

I poured some Olive oil on the labnah and Za3tar.

"Mishary, please pass me the bread." I said.

I don't think he was listening.

"Mishary?" I said.

"Khali ewalii, Haach." Waleedan said.

"Thank you" I said.

Shfeeh!?I was getting really curious about the Phonecall.

Mishary was eating silently.

I finished my Labnah and drank orange juice and got up.There was only Mishary in the table.Just before i was leave the dining room, i rememmbered il6al3a.

I replied to both messages.D; "Anywhere you want baby;)"Ghazi; "I'm going out with Dana!"

I opened my laptop and let music play through Itunes.

I was looking for my Orange knee high dress with 3 quarter sleeve but i couldn't find it.I must've left it at home, i wanted to wear it for the 6al3a, and because everyone told me i looked totally gorgeous in that dress, i wanted Mishary to see me wearing it!

A little change of plan; My plan now is to get Mishary jealous!

*BEEP* New Text message.

It was from Ghazi;"Oh that's awesome, Can i come?(A)"

while i was reading his message i got another message, it was from D;"I'm hungry, Johnny Avenues?"

I got into my house and took a look around, i miss it here!:(I headed upstairs to my room.

I got into my room and got out a Bag to fill it with some clothes.I put mostly Casuals in the bag and i got 3 dresses but i didnt put them in the bag because they might get ruined so i put them in the hanger and left the house.

I hanged the dresses in the backsteats of the car and put my bag in and got in my car and drove to my second home.

I arrived home and called Marlyn to help me with the bag cos my arm started hurting me.I got in and i went upstairs and Mishary was still up in the living room and he was holding his phone, i think he was texting someone, or maybe....her.

I went to my room and started unpacking the bag and put the clothes in the closet.

I unpaused the music on my laptop and i remembered!!! YOUSEF!

I got yousef's american number and pressed call.I locked my bedroom and raised the Volume of the music a bit.

It rang 4 times before he picked it up.

"Aloo?" I heard his voice.I felt weak!My legs could barely hold me, i sat on the bed.

"Aloo." I whispered.

"Dayoumaa!!" He said.

"Halla yousef, Shlounik?" I said.

"Tmam, entai shlounich?" He said.

"I'm okay, il7emdellah." I said,

"il7emdellah, how is everything with you after the accident?" He said.

"Alright i guess im living with my uncle now and my parents elyoum ra7aw america." I said.

"Ohh, allah e3eenich sweetie," He said.

"w e3een iljamee3" I said.

and then it was an awkward silence.

"7yatii..?" He said.My heart ached.

"Yes..?" I said.tears filled my eyes, but i didn't want to cry.

"Where are we now?" He said.

"I dont know." I said.

"We need to sort it out, i really miss you soo much, and i dont know what to do, all i know i still want to be with you!" He said.

"I.." I got tongue tied.

"You what? dayouma kamlaay.." He said.

"I dont know what to say." I said.

"Say anything!" He said.

"I miss you too and i love you!" I said. "But.." I continued.

"No buts" He said. "I hate buts!" He said.

"No, you have to know this, i need to be honest with you, i dont feel the same way about you the way i did before you left Kuwait!" I said.

He didn't reply, there was another awkward silence.I hate awkward silence.

"Yousef..?" I said.

"3youna!" He said.

"uhh...How is University?" I wanted anything to talk about,

"Ohh, it's good, thanks for asking." He said.

"I'm glad, emwafaq inshallah." I said,

"Thanks, bs please be with me!" He said.

"Be with you?" I asked.

"Yes, 7ta law we're not lovers, i just need Dayouma in my life, wallah, even if only friends!" He said.

"Okay Yousef, i'll be here, with you, as friends." I said.

"Thank you." He said, very softly.

"You're welcome." I said.

"Take care 7yatii." He said.

"You too." I said.

"I'll talk to you later." He said.

"Goodbye." I said and closed the phone.

I cried listening to Michelle Branch's song "Goodbye to you"

"Of all the things I've believed inI just want to get it over withTears form behind my eyesBut I do not cryCounting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soulWords that I'm hearing are starting to get oldIt feels like I'm starting all over againThe last three years were just pretendAnd I said,

Goodbye to youGoodbye to everything I thought I knewYou were the one I lovedThe one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyesAnd it seems that I can't live a day without youClosing my eyes and you chase my thoughts awayTo a place where I am blinded by the lightBut it's not right

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same timeI want what's yoursand I want what's mineI want youBut I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to youGoodbye to everything I thought I knewYou were the one I lovedThe one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fallI will lie awakeYou're my shooting star"

I wiped my tears away and got in the shower before changing for Maki.I got out and wore my Orange dress that i bought from an Exibition that was held in some women's house.and i wore a gold necklace that had the letter "D" on it.It was a gift from my friend from lebanon.I absolutely love it. It's a round gold with the letter "D" Carved in it,

I applied Mascara and ruby lipstick and a little blush and i was ready to go.I let my hair down with my natural wavy hair.

I waited for D in the upstairs livingroom watching Al-Watan tv.I heard Mishary's voice in his room, talking on the phone, i couldn't hear what he was talking about or if it was a guy or a girl.

I was watching Tv when i heard his door open.

"Ohh, entai Hnii!" He said.He looked stressed.

"Yeah." I said.

"Laish lai7een ma ret7aay?" He asked.

"I'm waiting for Danou" I said.

"You look good." He said.

"Thank you." I said.

"Kashkha 7g mnu haa?" He said.

"No one." I said.

"3laiina?" He said. "Mnu sa3eed il7ath!?" He continued.

"NO ONE!" I said.

"Okay okay." He said.

*RING RING*My phone, it was D.

"Yalla hoe, i'm outside!" She said as soon as i picked up.

"Oh halla ghazii." I said. and looked at Mishary.

"Ay ghazi yal hablaa!?" She said.

"El7emdellah bkhair, ent shlounik?" I said.

"Haa!? 9a7yaah Dayoum?" She asked.

"Eee kani na6ra danou tmurnii ent 6ala3T?" I said.

"DUDE!!!? SH9AYER? et7acheen mnu entaai?" D said.

"Okay good, i'll see you there." I said.

"yalla ana bara yal maynouna!" She said.

I closed the phone.Mishary was standing there wearing a Beige pants and a white polo qmee9 and a Lacoste cap worn backwards.He looked hot with his shaggy hair under the cap.He didn't say anthing, just looked at me then he went back to his room.He looked pissed.

Jealous much?i guess so.

I got in the elevator and went to the ground floor.I got out to D and we drove off to Maki Marina.I explained to D why i talked to her as Ghazi.

"OMG, that is sooo sneaaky!" She said.

"I know!! he was soo jealous!" I said.

"Haha, you're soo evil!" She said.

"He had it coming! shku he made me think he liked me w b3dain asma3a yetkalam to a girl on the phone!" I complained.

"Hmm, madrii, maybe it's a misunderstanding, yemkin it was nafs your situation with Yousef? on the edge of breakup? or maybe it's only his cousin?" She said.

"I dont know, but he didn't seem normal today, all day, he was nervous and stressed the whole time!" I said.

"Okaay, just be careful, dont get your heart broken." She said.

"Inshallah." I said.

The song "Can't hold us down" By Christina Aguilera.This song is amazing.It defines women power!