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INTERVIEW OVERLOADMAYBE....i can be a candidate for a "professional interviewee" position. (although im not good at interviews.. i actually suck at it!)

anyway, i've had my FOURTH interview for internship today, it was at ROCHE Philippines at makati. It was quite a crazy morning... First I got totally lost in Makati, turned out I used the wrong route. Anyway, when I got there, I was interviewed around 10 am i think, by the HR manager. Turns out I had to be interviewed by the HR Director as well. It was one hell of an experience! hehe.

Questions like:"Why do you want to be a corporate strategist? Why? I want to know the "why"... What does it give to you?""What kind of music business are you planning to have? Visualize.""What is fashion?""What do you think I exude in the clothes Im wearing right now?""What is the functional aspect of HR? How about its emotive aspect?""Give me a Value Proposition for HR."

you used to be my "dream person"i had this mental checklist on my "dream person". my sister agreed with me (actually this was some time ago pa).. na this person represented that "dream person. i even have a blog entry about that. pero indirectly mentioning that lang. checklist:

funny - CHECK!

masaya kasama - CHECK!

marunong mag-guitar - CHECK!

mahilig sa music - CHECK!

creative - CHECK!

cute (pwede na! hehe) - CHECK!

sweet - CHECK!

cute pumorma - CHECK!

malambing - CHECK!

anyway, so that checklist made you that very "dream person" of mine... Before.

as i knew you better.. or more and more...

you're not that same "dream person" i used to know..

* you're really not that malambing - just when you need something.

* you're obviously sweet coz ur happy (in love with someone else)

* you tend to forget.. a lot.

* you're too insensitive.

* you asked me something that must not and should have not been asked! boo to you!

im so disappointed and hurt. i want to cry to let it all out but i want to be strong. and i dont know what to do anymore. i wish i was a stronger person so that tomorrow will be a new day and whatever happened today would just be gone.

tomorrow is a brand new day. tomorrow is a brand new day. yey to that.

OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB(pics will be uploaded soon!! haha)oh my gosh.i cant believe that i'm going gaga over this anime.. coz i'm not an anime person in the first place. anyway...pauwie (hi pauwie) introduced this anime to me. and now me and tart are hooked! hehe.

last saturday we watched 3 episodes.. and yesterday.. we watched a whopping 14 episodes!!! all that for 6 hours at free wi-fi zone in Matcha! hehe :) hay. i cant wait to finish the rest of the series. hehe. watch na!! youtube rocks! :)

reflections?come to think of it, i tend to think too much. but you know what, i get pretty good thoughts whenever im in the car when im on my way home from wherever. unfortunately, i dont have that kind of memory to retain all those "data", and i keep on forgetting to just write them down or record them or whatever.

but lately, ive been thinking of you.. AGAIN. well, its always been this on-off thing, which seems to have this own switch of some sort and sometimes, its just too hard to avoid this thinking game. but hey, im not really complaining. onti lang.

anyway, as i was saying..i thought about you.. yeah, and maybe a little about us. wehehe. what about us? i dunno. i just remember that one (and only) time that you held my hand and let go. for some effin' reason i can NEVER forget that moment. and it sucks! ohwells. it just made me think of what we had. maybe you never really loved me. did you? you said you didnt want no commitment but now i see you with someone new...and you've been together for more than a year now!

did you just come up with those stupid excuses to get me off your back? i mean, if you have been straightforward to me that you just didnt like me.. maybe it would have been easier. or maybe not. was it because of the way i look? could it be that i failed to show you how i really cared for you? or was it because there was no chemistry whatsoever? did i just let you pass?

i dont know. sometimes i wonder what might have happened if we both took the chance. probably...well just probably.. we could have been still together or something. but.. no. i just wonder if you really loved me. or if you still do? haha!

oh well. you can never turn the pages back to the past. or something in that sense. diba? it would be such a waste time.

but what if you feel this need to tell something to someone and you know that you just need to... just to be fair.. would you still tell it to the person, even if that issue dates back to three years ago? maybe it would be the only way to find closure? for me? i dunno.