The Hardships of My Second Pregnancy

My first pregnancy was so easy and so enjoyable, no issues, no troubles, not one complication. I loved every minute of being pregnant, but as I found out 3 weeks ago I was pregnant, it's been nothing but trouble this time around.

The night we found out I was pregnant we drove 4 hours to the Grandparents house to tell them the great news, only feeling slightly nauseated and having to pee every 15 min I was blissfully happy.

The next day I started cramping horribly and what came next was even worse, I started bleeding as if I was having a normal period, something I did not experience in my first pregnancy and my first thought was we're about to lose our baby.

Two trips to the ER told me everything was normal, but I didn't feel normal. Every trip to the bathroom is filled with anxiety, horrified at what I will find next. I have had cramping, nausea, massive bloating, constant bleeding and spotting of every color of pink red and brown, headaches, body aches, extreme fatigue, horrible mood swings, the list just goes on...

I am curently in my 9th week of pregnancy, my first OB appointment is on the 20th. Though I am hopeful that seeing the baby for the first time and hearing it's heartbeat will ease my worry, I don't feel there will be any comfort until the spotting goes away, and I have heard of woman spotting through an entire pregnancy, in fear I feel that will be me.

I'd give anything to be able to enjoy this preganancy, as this one was actually planned, unlike my first. Even though this has been very hard on me, I just want woman to know that you can spot or even bleed as if you are having a period and it CAN be completely normal, I have been bleeding for 3 weeks now and they say our baby is right on track.

I wish everyone the best of luck, and hope to have some happy updates soon!