Trigger, *Update on pg 54, 70, 75, 81* Happy picture!! Pg 94 <3

My perfect baby boy had an accident this morning. My DH was getting our breakfast ready while I went to the bathroom. I herd a thud, it was my baby hitting the hard hospital floor. He slipped out of my DH's arm while he was standing. We immediately called the nurses, he was screaming at the top of his lungs. They took him away to observe him, he had an X-ray which determined a fractured skull, and a recent CAT scan showed that he is bleeding in his brain. We are waiting to hear from the neurosurgeon to see if he will require surgery.

I am a mess. I can't stop crying, shaking, aching for my baby. I am battling between being furious with my DH, and forgiving him because he is punishing himself so badly. He is in the NICU, and they are having me pump, they put a hold on my breast feeding until further notice. I'm suppose to eat, rest, and stay strong for my baby. I don't know how to do this. My baby and I had such a strong bond as soon as he was born. He is so calm when I am holding him, he is absolutely amazing and I don't want to lose him, and I don't want to hate my DH for being so careless with our precious baby. Please, I need your thoughts and prayers, please!

Accidents happen all the time and that's all this was. A tradgic one, but try to be upset with your husband and not at him. He must be out of his mind with grief that he accidently dropped the baby.

Just to prove that this stuff happens all the time: Today I was giving my DD a bath (she's 14 months old) I looked down for one moment and she slipped in her toddler tub. She is okay, but she could have easily breathed in the water in her lungs and gotten an infection.

So very sorry. You have lots of prayers coming your way. I pray you can find forgiveness and I pray your husband can forgive himself. Your baby is a fighter. You will hold him again in your arms healthy and strong.