I know I need to find a therapist that I can be comfortable with and relate to. Ive had a counselor in the past that was an older person that I could not relate to at all and didn't feel comfortable at all talking to the person about my problems. And the fact that Im a broke 25 year old doesn't help. But I'm done with all this and want to change before I get to old, gonna start looking for better therapist options. Again thanks everyone for the support, it feels good.

Wow thanks for all the support! Just reading all these honestly makes me feel better. Ive never really wanted to go to a therapist because Im the type of person who thinks maybe I can just deal with it myself. I think it would be hard to talk to someone about what happened to someone I didn't even know, which scares me I guess. And I guess its always been hard for me to get really close to anyone. Ive seen a counselor in the past but never felt a connection with the person to share my deepest secret. Ive thought about talking to my best friend about it who has a degree in psychology, but I don't want to put that on anyone that I care about.
And Ive thought it about a million times to turn the person in but I just don't know if it would really make me feel any better that the person was locked up. I know it would rock both my family and the family members of the person who did this to me if it ever came out. I guess I just don't want to burden everyone else with my problems.