Thursday, May 26, 2011

Be Careful What You Wish For...

Sometimes, you realize that your deepest wish, your heart's desire, and that which you never thought possible was becoming your reality. Many years ago, I dared to express out loud what my heart's desire was...and it is becoming apparent to me that this desire is indeed becoming a reality, at least in part. I am grateful for the chance to live my dream and yet, it is terrifying. I never actually thought I could live the artful life I am living (no, I haven't given up my day job, but my other life is becoming more and more prevalent). I never thought the work of my hands and the yearnings of my heart would support me and my family, but it is becoming more and more important in my financial livelihood with Mr. FL not working. We aren't solvent by any means, but we are hanging in there and I can thank, in part at least, my creative life for helping to keep us afloat. The grace of God is the other piece of the puzzle. I keep getting the gentle nudge that says, "Trust me to provide for you. I will be faithful if only you will put your trust in me." I must say, every time I get to feeling terrified and panicky, I get a big sale on one of my web venues or something else presents itself that makes me feel like it is a sign that I need to take a deep breath and stop worrying. I need that, I will admit. It feels great and yet, I forget and then I begin to worry all over again. I should grasp that everything will be fine, it just may not be look like what I think it should look like. I need to get over the preconceived notions of what my life should be right now and accept what is and be grateful. I admit, I struggle with that on an almost daily basis....but what is life without struggles, right? I am trying very hard to remember that all we have is now and worrying about tomorrow is a waste of time, but it is so hard. I've never been "here" before. I've never had to rely on the Almighty to figure out how I'm going to pay my bills. This is uncharted waters and yet, I see more and more opportunity for my creative life of art and antiques to become not only a hobby, but a source of my family's very existence. So I go back to my blog title, "be careful what you wish for". It is a double edged sword-wonderful and terrifying, all at the same time. Satisfying at the end of the day. Scary. Warm. Cold. Amazing.

Thanks for being such a great positive and creative source of energy for me and so many others. You guys rock and you mean more to me than you know!

It sounds like you are on your way to making your dreams come true. I think it sounds like an exciting journey, a little scary at times, but inching towards being really wonderful. Always think that something I'm doing right now could be a step towards something else that I can't even envision yet...only God knows what it is.

Your post gave me the chills, yet warmed my heart because of your FAITH. So many times, I wonder if I have that faith...it often comes during times of challenges when we have to reach deep into our souls and cry out for comfort and calm to our LORD...I am glad that your adventures are going well to keep you "afloat"...God will provide...I know that it is often hard to believe when you are anxious and worried...it is in our human nature to worry...just keep praying and He will guide you...I need to take my own advice sometimes LOL...my problem, being still and quiet long enough to listen to HIS WILL, not my own...Love your blog...Tiffany

'Wonderful and terrifying' at the same time. So true words about much of life's turns. What you're facing is daunting, Judy, but you DO have the talent to go down that creative road. I love visiting this blog to learn from you. Hang onto that steadfast Faith you have. It won't ever fail you. - Susan

Hi Judy! That is a wonderful post, good for you for all these amazing accomplishments!!!

I have a question, I was reading your post about using the Sophisticated Finishes rusting kit. I'm thinking of using it when I make my headboard, I'm going to use faux tile then paint it and wanted to add this. My husband asked me "what if it rubs off when we put our pillows against it?". Do you think it will? I could always just go with glaze! I'd appreciate your help so much:)

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A BIT ABOUT ME

I am a wife, mother, mosaic artist, microbiologist,antique dealer,and gypsy soul living in the beautiful state of Colorado. My life keeps me busy, but happy.
My sons entertain and inspire me with their energy and joie de vivre. Sometimes, being a middle aged mom, they wear me out, but I've never regretted one moment we've been together.
In 2004, my son, who was 4 at the time, was diagnosed with acute lymphocytic leukemia. He had to undergo over 3 years of chemotherapy to get better. I'm happy to report that he is doing well, but the experience was life changing. I realized that "someday" is a luxury that not everyone will get to enjoy. So, with a new paradigm, I have embarked upon the artistic journey that I dreamed of doing SOMEDAY. I love making mosaic art, selling antiques, and dreaming of that beautiful, antique, French inspired space, with lots of glamour, grace, and, of course, a healthy dose of Legos on the floor along with a little Army man or two. This is, after all, reality! Live your dream, but keep it real.