I stand here watching the medical droids working furiously to save my master's life. They will save his life, this I am sure of. I have no other thoughts in my mind that he would live. But...but then there...I have doubts...but I can always hope as survey this god forsaken place. But it has a glaze covered toping. Crestfallen I try to think of what will happen if he does live.

But would I be able to face my Master again?

I know he was only meaning kidness when he made me promise to train young Anakin. He probably found that the thing that needed to be said. But, if I had let him die there in that hangar that would have been the last thing he said to me.

I knew...or at least I think my master loved me. I always felt so sure about that. I knew that no matter what happend I would at least have one person I could turn to if I needed help.

But now my heart is torn in two.

With what would have been his last breath he would have spoken about Anakin. A mere boy that he had met all of a few weeks prior instead of me. Is it so wrong I feel this jealousy? I know that it is not what the Jedi teach us. But as a person, as a human being is it? Qui-Gon Jinn had raised me for more than half of my life. The only true family I would ever know. And with what would have been his last moment he didn't say anything to me about us, but about the boy.

I have to admit. The people of Naboo have been very gracious to me. I. I just. Oh. I don't know any...anymore. So much has changed. I try to stop my figiting hands long enough to rub my tired glossy eyes. Being flung into knighthood like this was not what I wanted Master. Not for us. No...not like this. They knighted me today Master...would you have even been there if you could have? No...NO! I have to stop thinking like that. He would have been there...he would.

Wouldn't you?

But no matter what happens Master. I will stay by your side till you are better. I will try...I will do all that I can to help. I promise Master... I...I promise.