Relentless

Life continues in Chronic Illness Land. The weather has been ridiculous…hot or high humidity, vacillating all over. October wasn’t much fun. November is finally organizing itself…cooler temps and less humidity. It’s been a drizzly rain and day three of migraine.

Last week I started acupuncture again. Met with Gayle, “a doctor of Chi.” She took a thorough intake. And was impressed with my EMDR integrated therapy for Chronic Migraine. She seemed to think acupuncture and EMDR would work well together – better than medication and acupuncture.

It has been years since I last did acupuncture. Six months in Tucson… Maybe ~2011. Gayle placed needles all over me and left me in the room for my energy cycle thing. I told her I had a small migraine in my right frontal. The first few needles in my head overwhelmed me and I started to cry. I’m so susceptible to any energy therapy. It’s my shtick.

As I lay there, I could feel the migraine pain slipping from the right spot in my frontal lobe…slipping into my right side…leaking into my right ear like a toxic liquid. At the same time, I could feel my lumbar pain dissipating…slipping square into my right sciatic nerve…my piriformis, down my leg, even into my calf.

When the needles came out, I felt ok for a bit but it developed into a migraine day anyway.

The next day was a medical massage with Lisa. I went in and out of consciousness thru that. She works me very hard. But I don’t know how I’d survive without it.

This weekend has been hard on my head. I’m back to tracking migraines and my Sacroiliac for my new disability lawyer Adam and for Shanna EMDR. They’re both interested, where my docs have not been. On day three I start to lose my shit. It’s so much. It’s relentless. It’s confirming. It’s ridiculous.

While Marc took the kids to a Game-a-thon at Cirrus Saturday, I pulled myself together for a date with Kenneth Branagh and made it to Cinemark to see Murder on the Orient Express. It was so great.

But now it’s Sunday and I’ve been in bed all day. Trying to be productive with anything I can do here.