A Letter to the Little One

You
haven't arrived with us yet, and aren't due to for a good couple of
months, but I wanted to write you this little letter for you and me to
look back at when you are older.

I simply cannot express just how excited I am to have you in my life.

I
must admit have never been particularly maternal towards other people's
children and am the kind of person to be scared to hold someone's
newborn for fear of dropping them or doing something wrong. This lack of
maternal instinct has always had me slightly worried in case I wasn't
fit to care for a child.

However
over the past 7(ish) months that I have held you in my body, feeling
you kick my insides with your tiny feet and sharing literally everything
with you, the connection and love that I feel for you has grown each
and every day. You are only a bump and yet I want to protect you from
anything that may harm you and give you the best life I possibly can.

I
know that times may not always be good, and things will not always go
just how we had planned them to, but I hope that I can give you all of
the love you need and provide you with a childhood that you can look
back on and smile about.

I
am looking forward to spending that precious time with you in the
middle of the night, when it's just you and me and I am everything you
need. I am looking forward to the times we will share together, watching
films and cuddling up on the sofa as a family when you're that bit
older. I am looking forward to watching you grow up into a young lady
and eventually an adult, even if it does mean that you will drift away
from me and create your own life.

I
am looking forward to never being alone (though granted I may not
always feel this way, especially when trying to have a moments peace in
the toilet!) and to helping you learn everything from scratch.

In short, I am looking forward to you making our little family complete.

I've just got to wait a few months yet for that to happen. 2015 is going to be a pretty spectacular year for me, I think.