Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Stress!

Ugh, I'm a little on edge today. I need Calgon to come take me away, lol.

It's nothing big, I'm just so busy with a bunch of different things going on and sometimes I'm easily overwhelmed. Thursday I'm having some dental work done and I didn't agree with the dentist about what was being done and I had to go in this morning and hash it out with him. I've been reminded today of the episode of Seinfeld where the doctor writes "difficult" on Elaine's chart, lol. I think my chart says difficult now.

I don't like being disagreeable. It's hard for me to stand up for myself sometimes. But today I successfully did it. We agreed to a new plan that I feel better about but I have to go in on Thursday and have the work done and I'm nervous about it. I hate dental work anyway and I'm afraid my dentist is irritated with me. You don't want people to be irritated with you when they have sharp instruments in your mouth, lol.

I've also been helping Josh with his Lego animation video for the upcoming film festival. To be honest, I'm afraid he has bitten off more than he can chew in such a short time and we're both a little stressed about it. I agreed to help him and be his assistant, but I'm definitely not going to do the work for him. This is his project and he needs to do it. We spent hours and hours over the weekend filming it (stop motion animation is extremely tedious!) and in the end he wasn't happy with how it turned out so I agreed to help him re-do the whole thing yesterday. I sat behind my camera for hours last night taking pictures of the Lego scene as he controlled the movements. My whole body ached when we were done from sitting hunched over the camera.

The second attempt was more successful but there is still hours or editing to do and I think he's really burned out. I'm a mom and part of me just wants to step in and finish it for him. I know what needs to be done to it. But I'm not going to let him enter a movie he didn't make and he's not going to learn anything if I do it for him. So I'm standing back and letting him decide if he's really going to be able to get it done or not. It's hard for me to stand back and watch him stress out about it. At this point I don't know if it's going to make it into the competition or not. If not he can always keep working on it and enter it next year or enter it in a different competition. The concept is great, Lego animations are just a huge project and I think he underestimated how much time it was going to take. I'm trying to help him but still let him do it himself and that's hard.

So yesterday we worked on it from the time he got home from school until after 10:00 last night while Shawn worked with Matthew on his Pinewood Derby car in the next room. For some reason our kids projects always come in Two's. Whenever one of them has a big project they need help with, the other one has one too. It was a house full of projects last night. The Pinewood Derby car has to be done by Thursday, Josh's video has to be done by Thursday and my dental work is Thursday. I'm kind of dreading Thursday.So last night I went to bed stressed out about Josh's movie, stressed out about my showdown with the dentist this morning and just generally exhausted because parenting is tiring, and I had super weird dreams all night. Whenever I have a lot on my mind I have crazy dreams. I had a weird dream about my high school boyfriend. At one point I think he was a Lego mini figure...Tonight I get a bit of a reprieve from dental work and Lego video stress and my two awesome friends are taking me out for a belated birthday dinner. I think a night out with the girls is just what I need!

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My name is Wendy and I'm a stay at home mom to three great kids. I'm also a full time college student, working towards an eventual master’s degree in marriage and family counseling. We brought our youngest child home from South Korea in October 2009, which was the inspiration for this blog. I love to read, I love photography, I love to talk about international adoption and I love all things Korean!