At the very beginning, there was Ratopia. Then, there's ratology. In ratology, we get to observe whether someone with psychosis and neurosis could amount to something. This was a question to be answered till the end of my time. Except for now, a few stenosis and hernia as well as months of diminished mobility and debilitating pain after, the question has turned to be... Could someone with such characteristics amount to anything and go anywhere?

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

How am I wrong-- cont.

It definitely would give me a sense accomplishment or higher level of self-esteem, self-worth, and self-everything-otherwise-not-specified shall I simply accept the possibility that...

Unfortunately, such could I not for all competing hypotheses have their place in me...

The most immediate hidden danger I see now is that the state of my neurotransmitters as a result of the interplay among my mental health conditions and the side effects of the medications.

Another day out and about...

Another day in my vacuous zen kinda moment... (be it real zen or not).

Another day when nothing in the head... other than the external and internal stimuli created by my own pneumocephalic head.

On the benchunder the sun I satpropensity for seasonal depression to defywishful thinking and self-fulfilling prophesy, hopefully

On the benchPeople I seeAll lively

To myself I thoughtSuch is the need for this point onpseudo-zen to debunkDevelopmental inappropriate state of being to deconstructDesensitization to events to annul

Mistakes to makeTall tails to tellPeople ill to speak ofWords to keep notJealousy to feelAnger to engulfOthers to demeanCrimes to commit

LifeTo SeekTo LiveA lifeIn carne in ouzo

Yet, before the yes yes to get listed...Spoke me to myselfWhy imposing so much, unnecessary, to thyselfWhile the first thing to tryisspeak to your psychiatrist next time and see whether, with a lower doze of antipsychotic, you could back again turning to be a meow always ready to meow

Idiocy, thy name is Ratprincess--- eeeekkkkkkkkk

Before that...

seek wrong in all minor things and get yourself aggravated if you can and if such is what you want....

Can you not or want you such not...

Let it be and some other bs topic to seek.

Idiocy.

And, by the way, find other things to do to keep your useless head busy.