Thursday, February 18, 2010
Med Change
Well. The past couple weeks have been one huge load of sh*t. So after seeing a psychiatrist yesterday my meds have now changed. Went from 150 mg (but taking 200 mg) of Zoloft and 20 mg of Adderall to an official 200 mg of Zoloft, 30 mg of Adderall, and 2 mg of Abilify. Yay for anti-depressants, amphetamines (stimulants), and anti-psychotics. Last night I took 150 Z (not 200 cause hadn't taken it in a couple days) and the Abilify. This morning...

Friday, January 29, 2010
Bad Day
Today, well technically yesterday since it is 4:27 AM, was a bad day. A very bad day. My depression was worse than it has been in a long time. Zoloft wasn't doing a thing. Adderall wasn't doing a thing to motivate me. I got nothing done. I didn't go to any classes. I never left my apartment. I watched a lot of TV online, read a little, ate. But that reminds me that I don't think I ever had any dinner. I remember eating breakfast and lunch, but I don't...

My son-he loves me so much in spite of my larger than life ideas and many failed attempts at merging into society..He is and always has been my biggest fan. when I have cronic failure syndrome he tells me hes proud of me and that im doing so well. And I forget about the cronic failing thing. WOW and hes my kid? Thank you god so much for this little man.

Im thinking I need a break from ADDF. I'm gettting sick and tired of all the whinning an dmoaning.
Wah wah its so hard to make myself do the dishes. And all that crap.

Most of the people in my family are ADHD, and I've noticed something. There are people who rule their ADHD and people who let it rule them. I find myself having less and less respect for the kind of people who just lay down and complain. Or who expect meds to make everything better for them.