Thursday, January 28, 2010

So it's Thursday and this has been an interesting week. First of all, we don't have school tomorrow due to ice and snow. So I'm stuck at home....wait it's really not my home. I'm actually house-sitting/teen-sitting for the next five days. It will probably be good for me to have some interaction with other people over the next few days. Plus, they have cable at their house.

Because we were pretty sure that we weren't going to have school tomorrow, today was a pretty laid back day at school. The first part of the week was busy with the normal stuff of choir and Wednesday night at church. On Monday I had a counseling appointment and then a meeting for church stuff. We ended up having our meeting at a resturant. I spent a lot of time deciding what to eat at the resturant (it was Mexican), so I could eat something healthy. I ended up eating a chicken fajita salad. It was good and really healthy.

I've worked out everyday this week (except Sunday) for at least 30 minutes. Wednesday morning when I did my weigh in, I'd lost just over 3 pounds. That put me at exactly 6 pounds in two weeks. Now I know that future weeks won't all be like this, but it gives me a lot of hope that I can do this. It just helps with my motiviation.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

This morning was my weekly weigh in. Since last Tuesday night, I've lost 2.4 pounds!! I was just so excited. It's going to keep me working out and working on eating better (I think that is an area I could still make some more improvements.)

On Monday I came across the website sparkpeople.com on another blog. It mentioned that I could count calories, so I decided to check it out. I love it! I've spent a lot of time on it the last couple of days. It lets me keep track of my nutrition and fitness. Plus it lets me make other goals. I just love that it's a place I can not only get more information, but also track my progress.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

It's a Sunday night and I'm up later than I normally would be, but that's because I don't have work tomorrow. I'm looking forward to the day off, but I still have plenty to do. At least I did accomplish some stuff this weekend.

Yesterday morning I did a 3-mile walking DVD in the morning. Today I went for a walk outside (because it was a really nice day and I figured I could use some sunshine) for about 30 minutes. I've now worked out everyday since Tuesday (6 days). I feel like I have more energy during the day. Today I didn't work out in the morning. Instead I went for my walk this afternoon. I could tell a difference earlier in the day after church. I just didn't have as much energy. I ended up not taking a nap at all this weekend. Usually I take at least 1 nap a weekend (almost always on Sunday and sometimes on Saturday). I'm looking forward to working out again in the morning. Because I don't have to do to work, I'll have more time for a longer work out.

Yesterday I spent time at basketball games at school. Some of my students were playing. Four different teams from my school played, but unfortunately none of them won. But it was still good to be there.

This morning I sang on worship team during second service. Thankfully over the next three months, I'll only be singing on worship team once a month. Two times a month was just getting to be too much in combination with singing at least once a month with the church choir. I do like to be able to sit by my friends in the pew a time or two a month. Sometimes I just feel more in fellowship when I'm sitting with them. I know that probably shouldn't be the case, but it is. I especially feel that way when I sing on worship team, because when I sit in the pew during the sermon, I'm usually sitting along. It's just different (and I usually don't like being alone).

Today I also go caught up on my grading and I got it all recorded in the gradebook (on the computer). It feels so great when I stay caught up on my grading. I know it makes things easier and less stressful during the week. I just have to make sure I keep up with it for the rest of the year. Usually things get harder the farther into the quarter it gets.

One thing I didn't get much done on this weekend, was the chapel message I need to write by Tuesday. My class is going to be doing the message during school chapel on Wednesday, so I have to write the message. I have somewhat of an idea, but I haven't written anything yet. My class needs time to practice on Tuesday, so I'll have to write it tomorrow. Thankfully after church today I do have a little more idea of what I want the topic/theme of the message to be. I plan on going up to school tomorrow afternoon and working on it there (I think I'll get more done there than here at home).

Well it is getting late (at least for me), so I'm going to head to bed. I plan on writting again soon (probably on Tuesday or Wednesday after I do my weekly weigh-in).

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Yesterday and today I've come across a large number of great blogs dealing with weight loss. Because of this, I've decided to focus more of my blog on my weight loss struggle. I'm hoping that it will be an additional way to help keep me on track.

So here is a little update:

Today was my second day in a row of getting up a little earlier in the morning and working out for a little over 20 minutes. Both days I've done a 1 mile walk DVD. I'm trying not to start to fast with exercising and wearing myself out. I'm going to try and work myself up to longer workouts. Also, today I have drank about 9 1/2 glasses of water (granted I just discovered that I should drink more like 12 glasses for my weight). I'm working on the working out and the drinking water.

Also, I'm trying to just move a little more at school. Sometimes I'm just going to take the long way to get to the office or the printer. I also don't want to spend so much of my school day at my desk. After I've been sitting there for a while, I'm going to remind myself to get up and walk around for a little bit. Also, rather than sitting on my stool in front of the class, I'm going to try and stand more and move around the room.

I also know that it's important to not completely cut out foods that I want. But I do know that I need to indulge in them less often. I shouldn't be eating 5 pieces of chocolate 2 times a day.

I've also started a food journal. I did this for a few weeks during college, and it really seemed to help. Today was my first day doing that.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Something that I have struggled with most of my life is my weight. I've always wanted to do something about it, and at times I've started to, but I've never really seem to gotten anywhere. Well, I've decided that now is the time to really make a change! I'm going to improve my weight and my physical body this year! I don't want my weight to be a constant struggle for me anymore. I'm currently at the highest weight that I've ever been at. Since this school year started, I've gained at least 10 pounds. In the last year, I've gained more than 20 pounds. I don't want to be in this situation anymore. I'm going to change.

I'm hoping to keep the people (few as it may be) who read this up to date on my progress. I'm hoping that will help keep my even more motivated to stick with the changes I need to make in my life.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

So, the year 2010 has begun, and with it I reached another birthday. My birthday was Jan. 1st. I turned a fairly big milestone (at least I think so) during the 20s (no, it's not 21). I was still up in Minnesota spending time with my family at this point. The day started at midnight with me watching the countdown on the tv. I was the only one still awake (my dad was in the living room, but he was sleeping). So I went to bed with no big hoopla. In the morning, I woke up to go to church with my family (parents, brother, sister-in-law, niece, and nephew). I got lots of birthday wishes at church, which was very nice. For lunch we went to my aunt's house for pizza. We hadn't seen her at the family Christmas earlier in the week. We had pizza and a cheesecake. They all sang "Happy Birthday" to me. When it was time to go, my niece started crying, because she was going to miss me when I left. This then made me start crying too. I don't think I've ever cried that much before when having to say goodbye to everyone. I was still crying as I got in the van that was taking me up to MSP airport. I flew back, but didn't get back home until after midnight. I did get lots of birthday wishes on Facebook (about 15-20) and a text from a friend (however, I didn't get a message from my best friend down here, until the next day). So my birthday has come and gone with no major hoopla. I know that this may not make a lot of sense, but I was hoping that it would be more. Yes, I knew that because I was traveling that day that I wouldn't be able to do much (what my family did for me was just fine). However, I was hoping that more people down here would have taken notice of it. I guess birthdays have always been a touchy subject for me. For a long time I've felt like I've gotten the short end of the stick. No one around her (other than my best friend last night) has made any mention about my birthday. I know that I'm probably expecting too much of other people, but it's just hard.

I just want to know that people care. I guess I haven't felt like that much so far in 2010. I've been rather depressed this past week. I don't know if it's the lack of sunshine; if it's just the change from the busy times of the holidays. It's so hard to know. All I know is that I've got those feelings that no one cares again. I know that I shouldn't depend on others for my happiness. The logical side of me knows this, but the emotional side struggles with it. I just want to scream.

It was also hard this week because some fellow teachers were mentioning about some of their children dating (their children happen to be close in age to me) different people and being in relationships. This was hard for me. I'm envious of what these other people have. I wish that I had someone; that I didn't have to worry about whether or not I would ever meet someone. As I say so many times, I have no prospects. It's hard. I'm at this age and I've never even kissed a guy! Do you have any idea how depressing that sounds? Again, I just want to say to these people, what about me? Have you ever thought about trying to find a way for me? I cannot do it on my own! I don't know anyone! Again, I just don't feel like people really care.

Maybe I'm being to selfish and expecting too much of people. I know that other people have their own lives and that they are busy. I cannot expect them to hold my hand through life. I cannot be fully dependent on them. I like to think that I'm not; I would just like to know once in a while that they care. I see them being their for other people; why can't they be there for me??

It's just one of those days (or maybe weeks) when I feel so lost and alone. I feel like there isn't anyone I can share stuff with.

About Me

I'm a twenty-something single Lutheran. While I'm originally from the state of Minnesota, I now teach in the south central United States. I'm a teacher, who when I'm not busy with school and church activities, loves to read. I love spending time with my family, especially my niece and nephew. I love getting comments (who doesn't???). I thank God for the numerous blessings in my life, including my readers and followers!