Journalling parenthood, one footprint at a time

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Month: October 2014

Today’s visit to the gynae was much better. Thank you, for being so cooperative :))

Week 33, Little Foot’s now 2.2kg! Wow, 900grams in 3 weeks! I guess the 3-4 cups of milk a day really helped, even though Mummy didn’t put on weight.

During the ultrasound, I could see you covering your face again. As usual, you’re so bashful… just like Daddy. Ah well, maybe you wanted to play peekaboo? We can do that when you finally come into this world 🙂 The good news is your head’s now down, which means you’re going to spare Mummy the C-section (which I thought was ok really).

Sugar levels are under control. We just have to continue with the boring diet, but I’m sure you’re growing well, because the boring diet is so much healthier than all the food I’ve been eating previously.

Stay safe in my tummy baby… Doc Teo’s going for reservist and will only be back at the beginning of Dec. Don’t come out till he’s back ok?

Today Our Little Foot was so still in the morning, for awhile I panicked, wondering if something’s wrong. I had to prod prod her a little, just to make sure she’s still well and dandy. Luckily, our little one finally gave a stretch. Mummy gave a big “phew!” … haha, really think too much.

Good to hear her hiccup today and everyday these days. It reassures me a lot.

Yesterday was Deepavali. We went to meet Confinement Nanny (Ah Noi). She’s nice…let’s hope we get along well together, especially since she’s pro-breastfeeding (just that she said it would be more sane to pump out the milk for night feeds, rather than to wake up and feed. She’s open to letting me try breastfeeding at night. So that’s good (let’s hope we get some good milk supply!).

We also went Ikea and FINALLY bought the nice retro-looking trolley to put Little Foot’s barang barang. I’m so delighted, I already loaded some of the sundries like cotton balls, cotton buds, diaper cream, the swaddles and towels, etc onto it. Seriously turning into Kiasu mummy!

Counting down about 8 weeks to go and working hard to stay positive. It’s getting challenging. I could cry for no reason, or just over something silly. Blaming it on the hormones and the bland diet for gestational diabetes. Of course, since there’s no turning back and no “I wanna back out now”, just have to hang in there.

A little prayer tonight – Dear God, in your strong hands, I place my life and baby’s and we will learn to trust that you have a plan and a reason for everything. Even in bad times, I will not begrudge You, but learn to carry my cross with grace and willingness. Amen.

On Friday, Dr Teo said you were at at 50th percentile at the last check-up, but seemed to have slowed down. 1.3KG at Week #30 is slightly light.

Mummy has been throwing up and having very bad reflux for about 2 weeks. Thankfully, the Omeprazole prescribed seems to be working. Let’s hope the throwing up and gastric pains stop for good. Still, the on-and-off breathlessness hasn’t stopped.

Friday was also the glucose tolerance test. Mummy had to hold in my feelings of wanting to vomit for two hours. Otherwise, we won’t know if it was indeed diabetes. Thankfully, the nurses at KKH were very kind and found me a place to rest. Sadly, it is gestational diabetes. Somehow mummy knew it was to be so, but confirming it really makes me very sad and confused, because Little Foot is too small, mummy is gaining not enough weight and not eating much, but then we are told we have diabetes.

So this weekend, Mummy and Daddy tried to rest a lot. We also went to buy a lot of healthier and low sugar food today, like oatmeal biscuits and natural yoghurt. Mummy is a little bit scared of the full day test at KKH on Wednesday. We’ll have to stay the whole day there for three meals and take insulin and do more tests, but as your Mummy, I will have to be strong and try to stay positive.

About another 9 weeks before we get to meet face-to-face, are you excited? Baby Nate is already out and saying hello to the world. Thank God he is fine. Mummy continues to pray that you will be well and healthy too. I will do my best.

Dear Little Foot, at the last checkup, you were head down, but on Friday, you had turned back up. Please do your best to turn back to head down … but if you don’t, Mummy won’t be angry either, we’ll just make all the right decisions, as best as we can, as long as you are healthy.

Our baby girl has started to hiccup this week. I find it so cute, the gentle hiccupping that is happening almost daily. And I pat my tummy and tell her “it’s ok, it’s just hiccups. No need to worry, it doesn’t hurt you. And Mummy’s here”.

Love is indeed taken to a different spectrum when we prepare to welcome a precious new life into this world. Even Daddy shows a soft side whenever he speaks to the little girl the tummy.

One little footprint at a time, we’re stepping towards parenthood. One little footprint at a time, we’re nearing our first face-to-face date.

It softens us in a way I could never understand in the past. And for now, never mind the craziness in this world, I just want to sit back, relax and feel your hiccups, your little movements, and know you are with me safe and sound.

And here’s the video that moved me to emotional tears, because I wonder, when Little Foot grows up, will she remember the time we spent together all these months while she was inside me? Or would it only be Mummy’s own precious memories, which can never be relived, because our bb is so special…