http://oasisjournals.com/journal/7239
blog replacement for journal entriesenGoodbye and thank youhttp://oasisjournals.com/2014/11/goodbye-and-thank-you
<!--paging_filter--><p>Goodbye Oasis, this is me signing off. Thanks for over 9 years of memories on this site. This place has seen me grow from an angsty teenager to a working adult. This place has allowed me to vent my thoughts away from the judgment of society. This allowed me to come to terms with various aspects of my life and identity, and I have matured and refined my thoughts and values through that journey.</p>
<p><a href="http://oasisjournals.com/2014/11/goodbye-and-thank-you">read more</a></p>http://oasisjournals.com/2014/11/goodbye-and-thank-you#commentsSun, 30 Nov 2014 10:56:49 +0000Uncertain54139 at http://oasisjournals.comNew interesthttp://oasisjournals.com/2014/08/new-interest
<!--paging_filter--><p>Dating someone new. I know it's very soon but fingers crossed.</p>
<p>Still not complete'y over my ex even though I'm the one who ended it but that's to be expected.</p>
<p>I have been very civil though. Even when I may not have had to. Also seeing the guy who sexually assaulted him makes me very angry still. I do not want to see him.</p>
<p>So many emotions.</p>
http://oasisjournals.com/2014/08/new-interest#commentsMon, 04 Aug 2014 12:32:28 +0000Uncertain54008 at http://oasisjournals.comThe Breakuphttp://oasisjournals.com/2014/07/the-breakup
<!--paging_filter--><p>Cheaters lie and liars cheat. They may say they love you but they will grasp at straws and draw you back in. They may change but it's too late and there's no one you can tell they are genuine. They might say they don't want to hurt you but it's because it's about the guilt and shame. They might reflect but they've already broken that trust. It's a shame because it's not just about the cheating it's about lieing about the cheating. In a weird way I've already given him so many second chances.</p>
<p><a href="http://oasisjournals.com/2014/07/the-breakup">read more</a></p>http://oasisjournals.com/2014/07/the-breakup#commentsWriting it all down so I don&#039;t forgetThu, 17 Jul 2014 14:47:17 +0000Uncertain53873 at http://oasisjournals.comThe most beautiful thing i have ever witnessedhttp://oasisjournals.com/2014/07/the-most-beautiful-thing-i-have-ever-witnessed
<!--paging_filter--><p>Omitted.</p>
<p><a href="http://oasisjournals.com/2014/07/the-most-beautiful-thing-i-have-ever-witnessed">read more</a></p>http://oasisjournals.com/2014/07/the-most-beautiful-thing-i-have-ever-witnessed#commentsSat, 12 Jul 2014 16:58:15 +0000Uncertain53859 at http://oasisjournals.comMy boyfriend just told me his best friend raped himhttp://oasisjournals.com/2014/05/my-boyfriend-just-told-me-his-best-friend-raped-him
<!--paging_filter--><p>What do I do</p>
http://oasisjournals.com/2014/05/my-boyfriend-just-told-me-his-best-friend-raped-him#commentsFri, 23 May 2014 15:08:07 +0000Uncertain53815 at http://oasisjournals.comBoyfriend and other thingshttp://oasisjournals.com/2014/05/boyfriend-and-other-things
<!--paging_filter--><p>I was really annoyed at my boyfriend, A, last night because I was hoping he would come over and we would have a relatively early night. Instead, he was in town for ages and kept stalling and I had to stay up until half past three until he finally got home. I told him I was a annoyed but I couldn't be angry with him. It's nice seeing him and hanging out with him but sometimes he just goes out way too much. I just can't keep up with going out more than twice every week (no exagerration), and it's really taking a toll on my sleep and studies, as well as the quality of the time I spend with him.</p>
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<!--paging_filter--><p>I am going to set myself some goals which I will set and revisit in two weeks:<br />
- No more alcohol<br />
- No more caffeine (except tea)<br />
- At most two cigarettes a day<br />
- Avoid going to town, as this usually means breaking all three of the former<br />
- Do not let friends and my boyfriend from pressuring me from doing any of the above<br />
- Repay my overdraft in two weeks<br />
- After my overdraft is repaid, save for gym membership for the next two weeks<br />
- Go for a run every morning, starting after my major assignments are completed<br />
- Sleep before 11.00pm each night<br />
- Wake up before 7.30am each morning</p>
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<!--paging_filter--><p>我決定現在開始我要練習我的中文. 自從我爸媽回去台灣之後我就沒有說多少中文了. 一開始這還算沒問題, 反而我還覺得這事件好事 - 但是後來我才發現中文不只很有用, 如果我不好好加強我其實是失去了一部份的"我". 我每天會用中文寫一段短文, 順便也可以利用這個機會來寫日記.</p>
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<!--paging_filter--><p>Work is having a seriously detrimental impact on my quality of life. I was standing on the edge of my balcony, and I knew in a fit of anger I could've thrown myself over. Instead, I called my boyfriend, and I ended up yelling at him, which didn't help. That was almost the tipping point, but instead I took a deep breath and stepped away. I called him again, just so I had someone to talk to, somebody, anybody.</p>
<p><a href="http://oasisjournals.com/2013/12/10">read more</a></p>http://oasisjournals.com/2013/12/10#commentsSun, 22 Dec 2013 11:34:11 +0000Uncertain53586 at http://oasisjournals.com#9 Nobody to lovehttp://oasisjournals.com/2013/12/9-nobody-to-love
<!--paging_filter--><p>He once told me, in a voice full of hatred and contempt, that there was nobody to love. Tonight he paraphrased the sentiment with the same fluency.</p>
<p>I acknowledged it with the brevity of a nod. The world had never been about the well-intentioned and their eventual triumph over adversity. All in all, I had found it unforgiving only to be interrupted by intermittent kernels of kindness. What I had to say would have been an assault on his conscience and that of decent peoples. We both knew that I was the boy that had proved him wrong.</p>
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<!--paging_filter--><p>There are too many things to learn in this world.</p>
<p>Wanted to journal but once again not on my computer so will keep this brief.</p>
<p>The world is full of well intentioned selfish people who will care about you as long as you care. You drown if you care too much.</p>
<p>//</p>
<p>I am preoccupied with money. I see worth in monetary terms, at least when it comes to employment. Unfortunate side effect of being a demanding conservative overbearing parent's son. Regrettable.</p>
<p><a href="http://oasisjournals.com/2013/11/8-placeholders-for-thoughts">read more</a></p>http://oasisjournals.com/2013/11/8-placeholders-for-thoughts#commentsThu, 28 Nov 2013 12:25:36 +0000Uncertain53549 at http://oasisjournals.comupdate - summer, ex, jobs etc.http://oasisjournals.com/2013/10/update-summer-ex-jobs-etc
<!--paging_filter--><p>Been on this site for a while. Should really be sleeping, but I am sort of in a manic mood and have been unable to sleep. Also, I bought a new phone and left my laptop in the office, so I am writing this all out on a smartphone. It is quite tedious.</p>
<p>Briefly skimmed Jeff's post about the future of this site. I broadly agree with his sentiments and don't really have a solution. I'll probably write a more comprehensive response to it all when I have the time and am on a computer. It will be sad to see the site go, and if possible, hopefully we will be able to restructure and rejuvenate it.</p>
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<!--paging_filter--><p>Slowly descending into insanity<br />
Because I am trying to understand<br />
Saying words I wish I didn't have to say<br />
Which I hoped I could convey anyway</p>
<p>Trying to save you has meant me giving up my virtues so you can flourish<br />
Compromising with your vices<br />
There ought to be some normative morality<br />
I am beginning to lose my conscience<br />
This constant assault on who I am and what is right<br />
Is outright disturbing</p>
<p>Who is the victim<br />
What is the context<br />
Everything is lost amidst the chaos<br />
Frustration festers and its eruption is no catharsis</p>
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<!--paging_filter--><p>Not sure what to do with life.</p>
<p>Studying the wrong things. Caring about the wrong things. Not sure what to do. </p>
<p>-</p>
http://oasisjournals.com/2013/09/6#commentsSun, 15 Sep 2013 13:27:55 +0000Uncertain53386 at http://oasisjournals.com#5http://oasisjournals.com/2013/09/5
<!--paging_filter--><p>No one appreciates the work I do.</p>
<p>-</p>
http://oasisjournals.com/2013/09/5#commentsThu, 05 Sep 2013 04:38:20 +0000Uncertain53365 at http://oasisjournals.com