All posts tagged good-bye

Wine comes in at the mouthAnd love comes in at the eye.That’s all we shall know for truthBefore we grow old and die.I lift the glass to my mouth.I look at you, and I sigh.William Butler Yeats – A Drinking Song (1915)

Consolation
Just me, alone,raising my glass to you…

It was eight years ago today.I remember the exact conversation,just as I clearly remember the date.
“We both have the same sensibility, I said.
We’re like a fun young old couple, you and I.
It’s really just a shamethat I was born fifteen years too earlyand you was born fifteen years too late.”

It was our last night together.You were moving away soon after,so I said good-bye then, rather than wait.You responded, with barely a hesitation.“You know that I never cared about that.We were great together.The real shame, for us, iswe were both born a hundred years too late.”

So here’s a toast,
to being an old soul.A toast,
to being young at heart.A glass raised,
to being both.
To the end.
And to the start.

When day begins to break I count my good and bad,Being wakeful for her sake,
Remembering what she had,What eagle look still shows,
While up from my heart’s rootSo great a sweetness flows
I shake from head to foot.W.B.Y. – Friends (1915)

Nexus
Midnight says good byeto 2017
Celebrating with friends
while you are awayThis new year brings me to a new dayI have found youand I couldn’t be happierAt the end of the yearthat brought you my way

Alone at 3:00 AM but far from lonelyAccompanied by fresh memories that fill my headWishing you were hereas I go to bedI have you on my mindand in my heartAt the nexus to the yearthat lies ahead

A year removedfrom my miseryTwelve months further from all I could takeSo much to look forward towhen I awakeI have you in my lifeand I can’t get enough

Her picture right there for all to seeThe headline, as plain as can beWords that strike at your very core Shaken by the thought of reading more
You dare to look, despite the knowing
Helpless to keep it all from showing
Putting your back against the wall
Needing support as your barriers fall

Because now,you are weakened by what you’ve read,
and you can’t move ahead.

Staggered by this second-hand news.An instantaneous jolt of clarity.
Taken directly to a time and a place Flashing back, to that perfect faceA playfulsmile you will never forgetThehonest heart of your last regretAn ideal situation, some would say Judged yourself and you walked awayA circumstance you left behind
Rarely ever crossing your mind

Until now.You are taken aback by what you’ve heard,
but you can’t say a word.

Inhibited by the same weight of discretion. Just as private as it was back then.

Age, and then distance, were both too far
You sullenlyremove your suit from the car
Knowing what no one else needs to know
That it’s far more respectful not to go
Keeping your distance is probably best
Questions to avoid in the eyes of the rest
Despite yourself, you know what to do
Closure is for the family, not for you

For now. You are constrained by the reasons why, so you cannot say good-bye.

A peculiar sensation of personal loss.Over someone and something that you let go.
Finding yourself alone with your despair Few who could really understand or care
Absolutely no shame in what you feelConvenient secrets, you chose to concealFleeting memories, you fought to dismiss Coming around, when it comes to thisA conscious grip on things back thenYou have to confront those choices again

But now, you need time and space with what you know. Because you have to let her go… again.

His mind was clearly made up discussion was getting nowhere I watched as he sunk down slouching lower in his chair I could see it in his eyes that blank, empty stare It was clear he’d had enough and his reasoning seemed fair Other things to occupy his time what little time he could spare It was a shame to see it end a talent like his was rare But when you lose that desire it becomes too much to bear Your heart just isn’t in it… and you just don’t care.

Your heart prevents you from going though you know that you should It’s a time induced reality and no time ever seems good You decide you’ve had enough before you thought you would…

Because your heart just isn’t in it.

The relationship was trying and he had no desire to try Constantly testing his resolve with your wandering eye Your self-confidence crutch and he was just not that guy He wouldn’t indulge you in your games Couldn’t be bothered to reply When you had nothing good to say and everything else was a lie Thought that he would love you until the day that he died But you had worn him down and it was time to say good-bye. His heart just wasn’t in it… and you were the reason why.

When other lives are affected no time is ever good You hesitate to leave but know that you should Feeling more like a failure than you ever thought you could…

When your heart just isn’t in it.

You feel a sharp pain in your arm like getting shot with a gun Remembering that just last week you had pain in the other one You’ve lost your motivation preparation is no longer fun Spend less time in the gym reduce your training to none
Spend more time with your family
be able to play catch with your son
You know you’ve taken your last shot that you’ve scored your last run Realize it’s time to hang them up
your final game has been won.
Your heart just isn’t in it… and you know that you are done.

Repetition has worn you down to a level below where you stood Your motor has lost its drive nothing left under the hood So sure that you would do it until your body no longer could…

But your heart just isn’t in it And that never feels good.

Life happens to us all that’s just how it goes Seldom does it make sense yet, the heart just knows.