Oh, I blew it! I still haven't gotten dh's present yet! We are suppose to sing in the church choir tonight, but Jer ended up having to work tonight. We are suppose to go to 2 parties tonight, but then we run into transportation problems. Our car only seats 5 people, when there are 6 people in our family. grrr.. (tonight of all nights!) I just hope Walmart isn't closed today. They shouldn't close til midnight, right?

Leenie: Thank you for your thoughts. Maybe once the holiday is over I can make some sense of what is going on in my head. Right now it is just all jumbled up with worry. Hope you have a wonderful Christmas. Enjoy.

Brenda: Thank you also for your thoughts. I know I can always reach you if I need someone and I thank you for that. Now....more importantly.....ARE YOU WEARING THE SKIRT? You better be!

Uggamugga4: Oh my...you better get your butt in gear girlie. If I still had someone to get for I would be hyperventilating! Bad enough I just went to the store to get stuff for tonights dinner with friends and I forgot potatoes!!!!!!!!! You should have seen how busy that freakin store was! Didn't anyone think to go shopping earlier in the week for what they need? Geez.

Well, I am going to try and get more upbeat today. DH is beginning to be a bit bugged by my blues. He thinks it is that I am disappointed in him. He couldn't be farther from the truth. I am worried though....seems like just about everything. And to boot he reminds yesterday that we are not expected at my brothers until 3 in the afternoon....that leaves my mother all day with my oldest brother.........and believe me that won't be a good thing. The last thing I need this year is to have her half in the bag by the time we get to Christmas dinner!

Carrie: How'd it go? Were the stores open and were you able to get presents??

Jane: Holidays are best known for making adults blue with worry. I know it's hard, but try to remember that it all works out in the end. More thoughts and prayers flying your way and hoping you had a Merry Christmas!!

Well, the night at the in-laws is over. Got a diamond shoved in my face to look at from the SIL. Yes, the one I have a hard time getting along with. The other SIL (DH's sister) is halfway decent anyway. So I told her (SIL) that DH was going to buy me this gorgeous ring but I told him I'd rather have something else. Shut her up fast. Yes, I wore the skirt. No girdle or tummy tucking nylons (and no pictures of course ). Boy was I self conscious!!! Now I've got to get through today @ my parents. I just started wearing day & Night contacts (they're the kind you can sleep in) so my eyes are dry and itchy. What a sight. Add going to bed at midnight (Thank God I got the Santa gifts wrapped or it wouldn't have been until 3am!!) and waking up at 5:00 am and it's not a pretty sight. Gonna have to make use of the makeup oldest DD (I just KNOW she had an ulterior motive for that---she wants to start wearing makeup) got me Well, I'm gonna go lay down and see if I can take a couple hour snooze Wish me luck and hope you all are having a
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Hope everyone had a great Christmas! It was so nice here. Got some really nice things, and enjoyed spending time with the family. We went the the In-laws Christmas eve night, and had a really good time with all the neices and nephews. Christmas morning we had breakfast at DH's sister's next door. Came home around 11am and I slept until 4:30 pm!! I couldn't believe I slept that long. DH said he wouldn't wake me before then, because he could tell I was sleeping so good! What a sweetheart! Went by the in-laws and to my dad's for a little while on Christmas night. We are supposed to go to a birthday party for our 4 yr old cousin today, but DH says that we won't make it because I will be at the hospital in labor!!!! My mom's birthday is Dec 26, and he swears that the baby will be born then also. I'm not so convinced. I feel the same as I have the last few days..no different. Can't get comfortable anywhere, lots of pressure...but no labor pains. It's supposed to start snowing sometime before daylight!! We're excited, as we don't get snow often. Only supposed to be 1-3 inches...but hey snow is snow!! Well, just got up to let Rocky out for a few minutes and check to see if it was snowing yet! Guess I better get my butt back to bed!! Have a great day everyone!

Well, Christmas is over. It's back to watching what I ate. I of course feel like crap. Feel like I'm coming down with a cold That, and discovered I can't wear the day & night contact lenses (the ones you can sleep in). My eyes are all puffy and itchy/dry. I couldn't WAIT to get home from my parents house because I forgot to bring my glasses so couldn't take them out. Of course, wearing contacts 2 days straight after not wearing them at all is not a good idea either. I did throw them in solution to try again in a couple days Hope you all are doing well and enjoyed Christmas!!

Well, I'm looking backward (not the best thing to do, necessarily, during the holiday season), and I see that tomorrow marks my one year anniversary of going on Atkins -- at least the LAST time I went on Atkins.

Now here I am, 40+ pounds heavier and wanting so badly to get back into the swing of things. I've been trying for the past few weeks, and making no progress. The holiday season is the pits for trying to do lo-card, isn't it?

Anyway, I've just thrown out all the remaining cookies, candies, and the like, and the Christmas ham and crab meat is in the fridge waiting for me. So.....I'm doing it again. I've decided I'm just too miserable to go on this way. I look at my profile in the mirror and I see my mother (no, this is NOT a good thing!). I played a game on the floor with my 10YO DD yesterday and had the dickins of a time getting back up. Now, when I turn sideways to go through the sliding door (we have a massive dog door insert), my stomach and butt once again rub against the door frame. But I'm not going to fixate on any of this. Instead, I'm coming home to all of you again. When people asked me before how I lost my weight, I never said "Atkins." Instead I would say "Oh, a bunch of friends and I are going through this together." So, friends, here I am again. Open those arms up EXTRA WIDE and send out some hugs to your lost little lamb. I'M HOME!!!!!

I am going to try to eat healthy today as well, there's so much crap in the house and DH won't let me get rid of it b/c he wants to enjoy it a few more days...he can afford it thats for sure. Gotta pray for strength.

Okay I need breakfast/lunch....bbl

Hope everyone had a good holiday

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~ WORRY LOOKS AROUND, SORRY LOOKS BACK, FAITH LOOKS UP ~

Courage doesn't always roar.
Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying,
"I will try again tomorrow."

Crap. I didn't do too well in watching what I ate. Well, I watched it---as I was eating it. Junk!! ARGH!!! So carb headache here I come tomorrow!!! Dang it all! And I feel like a stuffed porker plus a bloated one at that. GRRR!!!!

Ok, girls, we've got to get back on the wagon! Starting tomorrow, I am totally back on woe. Seriously. Who's up for a Valentine's day challenge? Wanna do it with me? I am not sure how much I am planning on losing yet, but I totally have to make up for the holiday.