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I had a difficult time raising my vibration after that reading with JK. But, of course, the Universe was watching out for me, and one of those rare instances when I opened my FB, I saw that Starsoul Tarot (a.k.a. Hazel, Illumined Souls) had a special on, so I booked an appointment the day before M’s birthday.

I told her about the circumstances with my reading with JK and how I had felt that a lot of what she told me was off. I didn’t give too much information and certainly not the details of her reading because I didn’t want to convolute the messages that she got for me.

Anyway, the first thing she told me was that, as far as Soul Origin goes, she saw that I was surrounded by white light and that I was not obstructed by anything karmic. It was a day after the reading that she told me that her guides told me that I was an angelic.

This resonated because sometimes, when I ask to be connected to the Highest Aspect of Myself that I can connect with at the time, this is what I see.

She said that she got the Ace of Pentacles which meant that this was the start of a new cycle in my evolution. It’s a new beginning so I’ve got to let go of everything I’ve heard before that confused me.

She confirmed that M is my TF (as opposed to JK’s pronouncement that he was just my Soul Mate and that we would not get together in this lifetime and that my true TF was some guy with a limp) and all I needed to do was to wait for him to come into his truth. That’s why I couldn’t muster any enthusiasm to date anyone else even if I would like a companion for the future.

The effect of the energy of JK’s reading was to deflect me from this truth. Not one part of what she said to me was true. (can confirm! not even the bit about why I didn’t have security of home, or the role I play in my parents’ ascension.) All was just obstructing my truth.

She said that I had to view the value of the reading from a different perspective. I had to see it as a test to bring me back to the truth. It was a way for me to distinguish something that was outside who I really was and how it didn’t resonate. I guess, it was kind of like those game shows where you’re blindfolded and you have to guess what it is in front of you based on the texture or the taste. At least now, I know that whatever fiction JK trumped up, it was all fiction.

So, in essence, it was like I had contracted a spiritual illness because of JK’s reading. She’s pulling people out of their vibrations all over the place. She told me to believe in myself and to not let JK pull me out of my vibration. She said that I was very spiritual, very high-minded, very intuitive, and that I was creating abundance out of my true nature. JK probably sensed this and so there’s a bit of jealousy going on there.

As for M, she said that he’s not ready yet. He’s also confused now because I’m confused. I have to get myself back on track so that he can also get back on track. I have to clear my energy field again and work extra hard to get my vibration back.

She said that JK was trying to rip twins apart. So I should get back to where I was before. I will come back stronger than ever and be able to put out high level information for others more than I used to do, and that I would become more powerful. I should create boundaries around myself to respect my true authentic self.

As for M’s birthday, I’m supposed to send a short message – nothing overwhelming. On a soul level, he’s waiting for that chance. He won’t reply right away but it’s going to be good for me in the long run.

Now, I did get that prompting about that birthday message from Spirit a few days or maybe even a week before. I had maintained silence all this time, giving him space, and I think the last message he got from me was almost two years ago, but that was long-winded and loaded.

She confirmed that, unlike JK’s gloom and doom prophecy, M and I were going to come together in this lifetime and incarnation. He’s not doing well right now. He’s not in his power emotionally because his wounding is still affecting him.

He’s still making a choice about his marriage. He’s not happy about where he is in life. He’s holding back from me because of the sadness that happened between us and he carries a lot of guilt and shame. He would like to reach out to me in some respects and that he thinks about me a lot in the physical sense. (meaning his 3D body is thinking of me, not in 5D). He thinks that I’m better off than him financially (not true – he’s just assuming this because I come from a political family and his culture says that those who come from political families also have wealth). So he thinks’ he’s not worthy of me and that I’m kind of out of his league.

He thinks about contacting me as well but thinks I’m out of reach (probably because of my last email which sounded like a definitive goodbye). So it’s best to send that birthday message.

He’s still in ego and sees things one-dimensionally. He still needs to make that decision to leave his karmic, but he’s moving on in the near future and leaving her.

She reiterated that he thinks a lot of me and that if he could turn back the clock 20 years, he would not have married B at all. Still, he’s keeping his feelings for me very close and locked up a bit.

Being my TF, he’s got a purpose beyond our physical reunion so I shouldn’t worry too much about the whys, wherefores, and when. They’re going to resolve themselves as soon as I resolve my inner conflict. He will come back to me.

And then she reminded me again to go ahead and send that birthday message.

And I did.

Of course, I didn’t get a response (wasn’t expecting any). And then, the Universe presented me with a whole host of other fires I had to put out (helpers tendering their resignation), but after the reading I felt Power returning to me. And Clarity. I’m still shying away from public readings, but I think I shall put out something soon.

As for JK, from the time I got that reading until quite recently, I was having second thoughts on whether or not I should send her feedback regarding the reading. She has a massive presence on FB, charges $300-$400 per reading, and seems to know what she’s talking about, “seems” being the operative word. But while I was just thinking about how odd it was that she would miss the mark by a mile when it came to my reading, it dawned on me that in her bio, prior to her awakening sometime in 2008, she had been a librarian for decades. Her awakening was prompted by her being fired from her job, for reasons beyond her control. They were downsizing, I think. And she lists this as the event that jarred her out of her sleep.

Now, there’s nothing wrong with librarians. They’re usually very affable and pleasant. One fact is indisputable though — well, not one fact, several which I shall mention — 1) they have a lot of time on their hands; 2) they are surrounded by books, all of which they have access to; and 3) the more you read, the better you write because you imbibe the material, the tone, the information being put out there by other authors. In other words, since there is nothing short of truly original in this day and age, almost all written work is derived from something else.

Hence, the loquaciousness. Hence, the verbosity. Hence, the prolific writing. And, most often, she churns out fiction. That’s very dangerous.

What I sensed in the reading (which Illumined Souls confirmed) was that she was getting impression but did not know whether they belonged to the past or the future. For those she couldn’t tap into, she would just spew fiction. So best to leave that all behind and charge it to experience.

I suppose it’s a good thing that I was busy with other things the past few days other than just lurking on the Twin Flame group pages. Imagine my shock when I checked in and found out all sorts of drama going on — accusations of other twins being implanted with negative entities, this or that person taking sides, and all that bullshit. Other people making videos just to let other know where they stand.

So the person they were hailing as the Ambassador for the Divine Masculines has been — sort of quarantined — for ridiculous hypothetical accusations. I’m not joining in a fray that’s purely ego driven. I think that part of the responsibilities of being a light worker is to be the clearest channel possible for Spirit’s messages to come through and that means taking off the shroud of ego in service and in life.

So, no, it’s not dark energies that’s been invading them. That’s a cop-out. It’s ego, plain and simple. The thing is they’ve become instant celebrities — at least, in the Twin Flame niche — and they don’t know how to handle it. Most of these twins have been very low profile in real life and here is “celebrity” all of a sudden, people looking to them for guidance and advice, and your basic preening about how they are with the “in crowd”. Now, if you haven’t been immersed in that kind of dynamic in 3D, it can get in your head and ego, and what results is an overrated power play amongst them, a virtual Animal Farm, so to speak.

Personally, I don’t have a problem in that kind of dynamic because I’ve always been in “that crowd”. So I know that it’s not a big enough deal to get all Game of Thrones for.

Anyway, I got my reading back from Starsoul Tarot, and my question was what else I had to do or my twin has to do in order to get into union. Three things stood out: 1) that there was some sadness that I had to release regarding a place/memory/song that held much sentimental value for me because of my twin; 2) there was nothing else I needed to do because I did my homework and am now in mission; and 3) I need to have faith and believe in my twin because the long term relationship, the ring and the commitment were coming.

Well, as regards the first, last night I came from an alumni homecoming celebration of my school which was held at that hotel where I hold the most memories of my twin. I was actually hesitant to see that hotel again because I didn’t know how I’d react, but when I was there, it surprised me to find out that the place no longer held any sway for me. I looked at the lobby where we first met; I looked at the seats where we talked; I remembered each time he kissed me goodbye as I headed off to my car, and I thought to myself, “It is done. It is complete.” I’ve healed from that place. And the last time I was in that hotel, I was with my twin.

The second one, I’m just ecstatic about. Okay, so everything I do from here on out when it comes to mission and energy work is just a bonus. There’s nothing else I have to do but be ready to receive.

The third point, on the other hand, is something I’ve already heard before along similar lines. Everything and more. Better than I’ve ever imagined. All the pain and hardships that I’ve gone through will melt away and seem insignificant compared to what’s coming. Or that I can have the whole shebang if I choose it.

Now, my dreams about the life me and my twin will live is already pretty much up there. So when she told me that it would be better than I’ve ever imagined — well, you can guess that I can’t grasp it because if it’s better than what I’ve imagined, I seriously do not know how much better. I simply can’t imagine it. So there, I won’t even try.

Earlier in the day, I thought about Hazel (Starsoul Tarot) and her journey out of the blue. It wasn’t prompted by anything, I just had this feeling that I should go see how she was. When I got home, before I could even shoot her an email or a message, I chanced upon this video she just posted on YouTube: Twin Flames Current Energy & End of My Journey.

She said she was told that she had achieved union frequency and needed to take her story offline for her twin’s sake. Well, that among other things that I also resonated with. She talked about completion energy. Something that one would feel if one has already done all the steps needed to bring one back to a sense of wholeness. As soon as that is completed, you’ll also be resonating at the same vibration that she is.

Once you’re resonating at this vibration, there’s something else that occurs. And some people aren’t going to like me saying this, but this is just what happens; and what happens is you lose the need for that person to come back into your life. So it just goes; it dissolves; it drops away. And after that, what happens, I don’t know because we’ve only just got into this energy. But i’m just letting you know that’s where you get to. And it’s a good feeling. It’s like… liberation.

I’m resonating with this. The need to have my twin in my life isn’t as urgent anymore. It remains a desire; not a need. Disengaged non-attachment is what I think it is. Am I resentful to the Universe for not delivering to me a 3D union on a silver platter? To be honest, a little bit, yes. Like I don’t deserve it when others do. That bit of it still hurts. Okay, a lot of it still hurts when I focus on it. It’s like that gut feeling that I had when I realized I was on a TF journey that regardless of the twists and turns and how challenging the journey was, it might end up like the story “Kaharian ng Araw (Kingdom of the Sun)” and one would end up physically alone while providing beneficial assistance to the rest who are coupled up.

(Pause)

I’m still trying to figure out if I’m blaming my twin for not getting with the program. I’m still weighing how I feel about it. I mean, it’s kind of inane that after all these lifetimes that we’ve had to learn our lessons, the time comes where we actually get to incarnate at the same time here on Earth to help the planet during a crucial time in its existence, and then we don’t get to do that because someone was resistant to doing the work, right? It’s like a mighty waste of a perfectly good opportunity to ascend. On the other hand, there’s the realization that he has much healing to do and then, you know, unconditional love kicks in. I really don’t know. He’s already told me he’s sad and frustrated but what do you expect if you’re not living in authenticity? What else does he want me to do? I’ve been doing as much as I can to help him but there are some things that he has to decide on his own and to work on them. I’m not saying he isn’t. I feel that he is and is just going at a snail’s pace. So there, that’s why we are where we are. And all I can do in the meantime is be patient, and just hope everything works out for me while he is still trying to make his mind up.

All these “graduations” and “end of journeys” are giving separation anxiety, really. First, it was Cirrias. And now, it’s Hazel. The two people whose readings I resonated with the most. Everything else on YouTube seems to be directed towards the Second Wavers, or those who have just discovered that they’re on this journey. And abandonment is a big trigger for me since I’ve had so much of it in real life. So, I don’t know; I don’t know; I don’t know. I’m feeling quite a bit lost without Hazel, especially since her journey is so similar to mine. Ten years and counting. She forecasted union with her twin sometime in September, and I’m guessing from how it’s played out it was an “energetic union” and not a union in the physical. I’m still hoping for her happy ending here in 3D and that they get together soon. Somehow it will be reassuring that such a story is entirely possible to be manifested in this reality.

I already told you what Candace said about whether or not M is my twin, but I wanted further validation. So I was shopping for a reader who could do my twin’s verification, but nothing resonated or was within the budget yet.

So I watch a couple of Twin Flame videos on YouTube, and I’m watching Starsoul Tarot’s reading for Gemini this October 2016. Mid-reading, I already decided that I would ask her since she’s very good at what she does and her readings are very insightful. I was actually looking online for her email address to get in touch with her about how my question was going to be phrased or if she answered those types of questions. I find her pricing and options and check the conversion of currencies.

I get back to the reading, play it again, but since I’m an easily distracted Gemini, I pause the video again and decide to check out FB. And guess what?

She had actually gotten in touch with me to tell me that I won the free reading contest that she had last month! Wow!!!!

This is too creepy to be just coincidence, lol. It actually feels like a “verification gift” from the heavens. Thank you, Universe! Thank you, Hazel!