From the Swedish Diaries of the Rev. Gustaf Lindstrom

FROM THE SWEDISH DIARIES
OF THE REV. GUSTAF LINDSTROM
T r a n s l a t e d and edited by
RAYMOND W. LINDSTROM
Gustaf Lindstrom was born on 16 May 1864 in Hede parish, Bohus­län.
Little is known about his childhood or his early youth in
Sweden. He had two brothers and several sisters. Financial reverses
prevented him from receiving the education his family had intended
and after the death of his father an older brother, John, left for
America. Gustaf soon followed and in August of 1883 joined his
brother at Peshtigo, Wisconsin, where John had changed his surname
from their given patronymic, Hansson, to Lindstrom. Gustaf also
liked this name, followed suit, and thus began his new life in
America as Gustaf Lindstrom.
After a difficult winter as a greenhorn in a lumber camp in the
forests of Michigan, Gustaf went to work in the mines at Iron
Mountain, Michigan, and eventually found Christian fellowship and
inspiration in the local Lutheran church. Moving on to Ironwood,
Michigan, where there was no Lutheran church, he affiliated with the
Mission Covenant Church. Here he became active as a leader of the
young men's society and felt a call to service in Christian ministry.
In partnership with a Lutheran friend he founded a flourishing
grocery business, and in October of 1888 he married Ida Stenberg,
who had recently arrived from Falun, Sweden. Responding to the
call of the Lord, he enrolled in the newly organized training school
for ministers at the Minneapolis Tabernacle of the Mission Friends.
In 1892 Gustaf Lindstrom dissolved his business partnership, paid
his debts, and arranged for the balance to be applied toward his
schooling and the support of his growing family. When the Mission
Friends' school moved to Chicago in 1894, where it became North
Park College and Theological Seminary, Gustaf Lindstrom completed
his final training there and was a member of its first graduating class.
In his active ministry of nearly forty years, Gustaf Lindstrom
served churches in Wallace, Michigan (1895-1898), Springfield,
Massachusetts (1898-1906), and Paxton, Illinois (1906-1913). After
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transferring to the Augustana Synod and spending a year of studies
at Augustana Theological Seminary in Rock Island, Illinois, he served
the Lutheran churches in Ophiem, Illinois (1913-1916) and West New
York, New Jersey (1916-1931).
R. W. L.
I n t r o d u c t o r y n o t e t o t h e d i a r y of 1 9 1 1 : For many days now I have
felt a longing in my soul for a true awakening, and yesterday as I
studied the lessons for Sunday, John 14:13,1 was given a ray of hope,
even a solemn warning that if my prayer and longing were to be
fulfilled, then I must possess faith in equal measure. What we seek
in prayer, truly believing, we shall also receive. Faith must precede
any effective and true prayer. Where there is complete faith, answer
to prayer will not be withheld.
The Lindstrom family in 1 9 0 6 , back row, I. to r., Gustaf Torsten, Ethel, I d a Lindstrom,
front row, Carl E i n a r , R u d o l p h , Rev. Gustaf Lindstrom, Ruth
(Courtesy of Raymond W. Lindstrom.)
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S u n d a y , I J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : I kept a solitary night watch, and between
11 and 12 o'clock I spent most of the time on my knees in prayer
before God. When I arose, still in prayer and with closed eyes, I
opened my Bible and my gaze fell at once upon Paul's words in
Colossians 4:17. This I take to be direct guidance from the Lord,
which I accept as a reproach for what is past and as an admonition
for what is to come.
M o n d a y , 2 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : I remained at home for most of the
morning, after which I went to speak with Fred Danielson. He told
me he had said to the committee that they ought to increase my
salary. He did not, however, think that they dared to take such
action since Younggren voiced objections saying that if they increased
the pastor's salary, he would not give anything. Today I have
studied for some time and prayed, but more than anything else there
has been a cry, A c k , ack! H e r r e hjälp! (Help me, Lord!). This afternoon
I visited Mrs. Sullivan. It is wonderful to be able to read and pray
with her. This evening marked the beginning of our Prayer Week,
but it has turned bitter cold—there were only about fifteen present.
I spoke and others offered prayers to God. Went to bed at 11:30 but
was unable to sleep. At 3:30 I was in such a state that I had to get
up. God, may this be the pangs of birth!
Tuesday, 3 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : We conducted the annual meeting today
and it was well attended. Everything went smoothly and calmly in
the same order as usual, of course. The prayer meeting this evening
was also well attended. I was not able to sing because I had a
headache but spoke briefly, after which there were many who
prayed. A c k , j a ! H e r r e G u d (Yes, indeed, Lord God), awaken new
petitioners—the old ones will soon be exhausted!
Wednesday, 4 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Studied the new song book almost all
morning in order to become more familiar with it, since the congrega­tion
voted yesterday to adopt Sions basun (Zion's Trumpet) for use.
In the afternoon I went out and made fifteen house calls extending
invitations to our prayer meeting this evening. It was quite a good
one at that, with prayers also offered by two whom I never previous­ly
had heard pray to God.
T h u r s d a y , 5 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Made house calls again during the
afternoon. There were about seventy-five present at the meeting this
evening, and their participation was spirited. I came home feeling joy
in my heart.
F r i d a y , 6 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Chose for my text Matthew 9:35-38 and
spoke about Jesus' way of winning followers. He went and sought
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out others—we must do the same.
S a t u r d a y , 7 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : At the confirmation class this morning
two of the boys were very disruptive, so I sent them home.
S u n d a y , 8 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Annual reports were read this morning.
Visitors from East Lynn stayed all day long with us. At 2 o'clock the
funeral of Oscar Nyberg—the church was filled to the last pew. This
evening there were about fifty in attendance. I preached on 1st
Corinthians 15:1-8, and it went rather well.
M o n d a y , 9 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Washed clothes in the morning. This
afternoon Mama and I took a look at Benkstrom's new house. Went
afterwards to town to find a job for the girl from East Lynn who was
with us yesterday. Found two good positions in a short while. Went
to the Pettersons at about 6 p.m. Jennie seems near to death.
Council meeting this evening at the Rozenes.
Tuesday, 10 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Went back to the Pettersons this
morning and found Jennie somewhat better. This afternoon a prayer
meeting at Charles Petterson's place in the country. Rode with
Lindahl. The men were out shelling corn and could not be with us,
but the women in the neighborhood were all there. Many of them
prayed as I never previously have heard. This evening another
prayer meeting at Carl P.'s home—not many present but it went very
well and even there we knelt in prayer. It was clear that we were
close to the Lord. We went to our homes truly refreshed in spirit.
Wednesday, 11 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Hedstrand arrived today on the train
at noon. We were guests at Fred Danielson's for midday din­ner—
then on to the elder Danielsons for a while. Noreen came over
for coffee this afternoon. Hedstrand stayed for supper. Before going
to church this evening I went to the Pettersons and realized that
Jennie all the same does not have long to live. After church I stayed
with her until 1:30 this morning. Then Henry came home and I
departed.
M o n d a y , 16 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Washed clothes in the morning. At
noon Elin Larson arrived and I accompanied her to her new job at
Mr. Thomas' place. At 3 p.m. came to the Pettersons at which time
Jennie died. I read a few Bible verses for her but noticed that her
eyes remained closed—and about five minutes later she was gone.
Went also this evening to Danielson for a loan of $40 to buy a new
stove.
Tuesday, 17 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Prayer meeting at the Englunds where
I spoke about Joshua's commanding Israel to renounce idols and with
their whole hearts to serve God. He was not satisfied with a loose
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confession but required that they bind themselves to their oath to
serve God. He admonished them that God would nowise tolerate
their sins.
S a t u r d a y , 21 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Spent the afternoon partly reading
about the Welsh revival and partly thinking and writing out the
lessons for tomorrow. My hopes, desires, and prayers for a revival
in our congregation are renewed. It is certain indeed that I feel
distress in my heart over our situation, and yet it is my prayer that
this distress may be increased so that it may truly serve as the pangs
of birth. I must become much more humble and unselfish if the Lord
is to use me for revival. But, alas, are then all those whom the Lord
has employed for revival spotless and pure? A c k , H e r r e , what is
coming over me? Help me to follow Thee!
Wednesday, 25 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Today I have read P. W.'s [Paul
Petter Waldenström's] book Smärtornas m a n (Man of Sorrows), and I
have become more and more convinced that he regards Christ simply
as a martyr.
S a t u r d a y , 28 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Four funerals among the local Swedish
population within a week. Oh, what a time of harvest! This evening
we observed a marvelous sight in the skies—it was as if two comets
had collided. This was almost identical to what I saw in my dreams
a few nights earlier.
S u n d a y , 29 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : For the evening text I chose 2nd
Chronicles 30, about Hezekiah's passover. It was both blissful and
serious. It has been a long time since I have experienced such power
while preaching. Afterwards I hurried down and got to speak with
John Erikson who confessed that all was not right with him—but that
he still was studying and praying. We then joined with him in
prayer. May it be in earnest. I also spoke with Alfred Swanson who
said that he was a "child of God" but did not wish to acknowledge
Jesus "because then they all laughed at him." Imagine that!
M o n d a y , 30 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Today there has been no peace at all
but rather a great deal of commotion! Twenty-four callers were here
on various errands. Word also came that Mrs. Nelson died last night,
so I went there at once. This evening the singers met here to rehearse
for the scheduled funerals, after which the program committee met
to plan for the coming year. I was very pleased that the girls seemed
happy to be starting once more.
Tuesday, 31 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : The funeral of Mrs. Sullivan—the
church was filled to capacity. Hemdahl [the Lutheran pastor]
assisted, giving a thirty-five minute address in English; so I confined
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myself to speaking for about fifteen minutes. Was tempted not to
speak at all, but feared that I would have offended him, had I not
spoken.
Wednesday, 1 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon the unusual occur­rence
of a double funeral—two hearses at one house—a man and
wife buried at the same time is indeed a rare event. Once more, the
church was completely filled. The man was 80 years old; his wife, 65.
Had they been able to enjoy a happy marriage, it might have been
beautiful. On the contrary, however, it was an extremely melancholy
occasion.
F r i d a y , 3 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Went to town this afternoon and got a
promise for Ethel [the diarist's 19-year-old daughter] to begin work
next week at Bengston's store.
Tuesday, 7 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Several house calls in the morning.
Went this evening to the Enquists. He appeared to have no com­plaints,
but when his daughter Mabel came home and I asked her
why she does not go to church, she got angry and said she attends
only when she wishes to—and goes where she pleases. Indeed, it is
disheartening to hear such words from those whom one has sought
to instruct in the Word of God!
T h u r s d a y , 9 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Read in the newspaper that Herman
Grönlund, who became unbalanced because of overstrain and
brooding over spiritualism and "speaking in tongues," has now
finished his days without regaining his senses. Ack, Gud! what are
we? We may die spiritually through indifference—and we may also
die bodily through excessive zeal. Where is the golden mean?
F r i d a y , 10 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : A letter today tells us that Elin [a
relative in Michigan] has died, and it has been decided that I would
go to her funeral. A great rush to borrow money for the trip and for
a new overcoat (cost $16.75). I left home at 2 p.m. While waiting in
Chicago I visited the Nybergs and ate supper with them. The train
left at 10 p.m. and I slept for a few hours during the night.
S a t u r d a y , 11 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : M y arrival was a big surprise for
m o r m o r (grandmother), but they were very happy over the fact that
I had come. Elin looked so peaceful—yet aged. She had her
nineteenth birthday last August. This evening I had supper with
Skog and Lidman, who is here in Iron Mountain holding revival
meetings. Later he preached in his usual way so that the people
burst out in several salvos of laughter. The basement of the church
was completely filled. Spent the night with a family named
Sjöberg—a young and pleasant couple with four children.
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S u n d a y , 12 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : The funeral was held this afternoon.
When the hearse arrived, m o r m o r nearly fainted. Skog preached on
Hebrews 13:14, and the church was almost filled to capacity. I read
from the Epistle of John, Chapter 1, and led in prayer. Then I gave
our thanks for what they had done for Elin. Lidman preached after
this but without his droll stories—or much of anything else either.
M o n d a y , 13 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Today I visited some old friends and
went to the Lagergrens for dinner. It is said that the wife of the
house has fallen into drinking so heavily that her breath betrays the
fact that she is far into the last stages. She was nonetheless as
friendly as always and indescribably happy that I had visited them.
He, too, appeared well after his illnesses. But it was sad to have the
apprehension that she has become so ruined. Oh God, have pity on
her all the same!
Tuesday, 14 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : A very heavy snowstorm. Dinner at
Gust Johnson's along with Skog, Lidman, and Andrew Anderson
from Norway. Visited Mrs. Frank Carlson this afternoon and had a
long chat with her. She told me that one of her girls had grieved
intensely for her father and wondered if he was "unsaved." But then
she dreamed that she saw heaven open before her and her papa was
indeed there—so she sorrowed no longer! This evening Lidman gave
an excellent sermon.
S a t u r d a y , 18 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 [back at home in Paxton]: This evening
Klint Anderson came down from Chicago and told me that he had to
confess to the congregation that he had once professed himself to be
a believer, which on the contrary he indeed had not been. I had a
long discussion with him and we prayed together. May this be an
awakening for him—as well as a help for others.
S u n d a y , 19 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Decent weather but bad roads—not so
many in church—at communion not quite two servings. Klint came
forward and said a few words but I could not hear what he had to
say, nor did it appear to have made much of an impression on the
congregation.
M o n d a y , 20 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : We washed clothes this morning.
Then started out for town to order telephone service, but on the way
I changed my mind so we did not get there after all. Both Rudolph
and Vernon [the diarist's sons] are sick today.
Tuesday, 21 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon I visited a Mrs.
Youngdahl, who is a member of the Lutheran Church. She has sent
for me several times previously, yet I did not wish to go to her lest
it infringe on another's calling. She was, however, greatly pleased
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that I came. After reading Psalm 16,1 spoke with her for a while and
prayed. It was a blessed moment. She is 95 years old. I found, too,
that even Mrs. Peterson is a true Christian. God has many precious
gems of which we know nothing—but "the Lord knows his own."
Wednesday, 22 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Studied and then went to the
dentist. Afterwards I ordered phone service once more—having been
without it for almost two years.
M o n d a y , 27 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : This evening I visited Hemdahl. He is
going to travel to Europe and Palestine.
Tuesday, 28 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Johnson came today and we built a
chicken yard. Have worked hard all day long and discovered that I
am much stronger than I was ten or twelve years ago. I get real
pleasure from hard physical work.
Wednesday, 1 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon went shopping with
Einar [the diarist's 15-year-old son] and bought him new
clothes—with long pants.
T h u r s d a y , 2 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Most notable accomplishment today: I
spaded up the soil to plant vegetables for the summer.
F r i d a y , 3 M a r c h 1911:This morning I continued spading in the
garden. Called on Charley Bengston this afternoon and later saw
Mrs. Swan, who has allowed herself to be tormented daily through
contact with unbridled and godless people.
S a t u r d a y , 4 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Today I required the children in the
confirmation class to prepare well for their lessons next week—other­wise
they will have to continue their sessions until Pentecost.
Wednesday, 8 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Went this evening to the Molins to
baptize their infant. Aspengren and his wife were also there. He
described how his parents had been strict läsare (pietists) during his
early childhood. And how the people gathered in various homes at
eveningtime—they read the Bible, sang songs, and spoke with each
other about spiritual questions and topics. Think how remarkable
this sort of thing would be today! Yet, why do we not do this
nowadays, too?
T h u r s d a y , 9 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Wallgren came on the noon train. This
evening he spoke on Revelations 5:1, but I was only able to hear
about half of what he said. It is devastating to realize how my
hearing worsens.
F r i d a y , 10 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon I read a book on astronomy
that was highly interesting. It makes us all so very small and God so
vastly immense. It is nonetheless remarkable that one can reflect and
to some degree comprehend the marvels of the universe. But if we
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now have a presentiment of God's wonders of creation and long to
know more, will the time not come when we shall know as we are
known? Yes, certainly! Today I paid my tax of $4.72.
S a t u r d a y , 11 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Today I saw the first robins and blue
jays—but the children say that they have seen them for a long time
now. This evening I extended invitations to Eggan and Bergstedt to
come here for the mission meeting.
S a t u r d a y , 18 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Required the boys in the confirmation
class to come again on Wednesday since they were poorly prepared
today. This afternoon they had a "hen shower" for us, and we were
given several hens for our chicken yard.
S u n d a y , 19 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : A beautiful day—the church was
completely filled. When I saw the large crowd before me, I aban­doned
my planned text and substituted Luke 11:14-18. Perhaps this
sermon was not as flowing, but I felt that it would better present
Jesus and His work than the prepared one. This evening we went
outdoors and gazed at the stars. I found several of them that I never
previously had identified.
S u n d a y , 26 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : This morning it was difficult speaking on
"Jesus, the bread of life." The evening theme was "Jesus' scourging
and His crown of thorns;" it went well and I spoke easily. Oh, that
I might be able to love my Redeemer more fervently and glorify Him
as I should. Never do I perceive so clearly that I fail to love Him as
I ought to as during the passion season.
Tuesday, 28 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Today I was in the church trying to go
through my sermon for Sunday. It went rather well—the first time
I have ever tried to preach in front of empty pews. This afternoon I
visited Hedda Petterson, "drayman" Petterson, and Mrs.
Hultquist—three sorrowing homes and there are only tears and
lamentation, illness and sadness everywhere. The chalice of comfort
falls short. Have also read many newspapers today.
Wednesday, 29 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Have read today with much conster­nation
an article by P. Waldenström] wherein he once more asserts
that there is nothing in the Bible concerning what Christ has done for
our salvation.
S a t u r d a y , 1 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Things did not go very well for the
children today. Afterwards I asked each of the girls who wished to
be received into the congregation if she were indeed a "child of God."
None of them knew for certain if they were—or were not. This
makes me both sorrowful and perplexed as to what I ought to do.
M o n d a y , 3 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Had a visit from the student who is
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serving the Lutheran church in Hemdahl's absence. He seems to be
a God-fearing and pleasant man. I also read a sermon by Cardinal
Gibbon that was the most simple, evangelical, and heartening one I
have read in a long time. Yes, God has those who are children and
witnesses to His glory among all denominations—not least among the
Catholics! I truly felt love for the cardinal as he spoke so well of
Jesus. May I hereby learn something for my own good. Ethel is 20
years old today.
T h u r s d a y , 6 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Studied and prepared a sermon for a
funeral. Yesterday the family said that they did not want an
American clergyman, but today they changed their minds and asked
if I would arrange for one. I promised to do so but also suggested
that if they so desired I would speak in English myself. They agreed
to this and left. Since then I have written out my text and plan either
to read or to memorize it. Stayed up until past midnight.
F r i d a y , 7 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon at the funeral of Viktor
Benktson, I spoke on the 8th chapter of Romans since it was his
favorite passage. I also read part of the sermon in English, which
was later included in full in the P a x t o n Record.
Wednesday, 19 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Read F a c k l a n (The Torch [a Swedish
newspaper]) and then wrote to Blomstrand, from whom I received a
long letter today. He describes himself as being pursued by the loyal
Waldenström adherents, and it is not unlikely. But just think how
pressure on free churches by the State is resented—if the former, for
similar reasons, had the power, they might be seven times worse! —
Think how Nyvall has been obliged to resist in this way!
Wednesday, 26 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Got up early and went out into the
garden. In the afternoon Oscar Johnson came by, bringing us another
hen, three or four pounds of butter, buttermilk, and some eggs. They
are among our best friends and also unusually generous with their
gifts, even though they still are only tenant farmers.
F r i d a y and S a t u r d a y , 28 & 29 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Bergstedt and Carl
Hanson arrived. We discussed a great many things—even topics that
are not very pleasant. Hanson told of his experiences at North Park
and they are anything but glowing. We sat conversing until
midnight.
S u n d a y , 30 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Rainy weather but good attendance. At
the mission meeting Hanson spoke on the "Good Shepherd" text. In
the evening he told how Christ, in His body, bore our sins on the
Cross. He contradicted P. Waldenström] in every respect, and his
listeners marvelled over the wonderful words from his lips. Were P.
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W. himself to preach tomorrow, they would very likely say that his
words, too, were simply wonderful!
S a t u r d a y , 6 M a y 1 9 1 1 : Today it has been quite warm—I was on
my knees weeding dandelions for most of the morning. In the
afternoon I studied my text and in the evening sat among the trees
in the garden. I cannot remember that I have ever seen nature as
beautiful as now or the trees so decked with flowers—truly like
Paradise. If the earth can be so lovely under the conditions of sin
and evil, what will the kingdom of God be like, where no evil shall
have any place?
Tuesday, 16 M a y 1 9 1 1 : Was woken up early by Mama, who
brought me kaffe på sängen (coffee in bed) because it was my
birthday—47 years old today. May God give me grace, may He
guide and help me! At 8 a.m. I left for Galesburg for the annual
meeting. This evening Hjerpe and Björnbom preached and a choir of
pastors sang.
Wednesday & T h u r s d a y , 17 & 18 M a y , 1 9 1 1 : In the Jubilee A l b um
they had omitted the sentence in my article, "Christ fulfilled the law
in our place." Committee members denied responsibility and knew
nothing other than that Mellander must have been responsible for
this omission.
F r i d a y , 19 M a y 1 9 1 1 : The meeting ended with lengthy reports that
said nothing—I became impatient with them and added a few of my
own caustic words that probably hit their targets. It was our
twenty-five-year jubilee: Björk gave a good sermon—although it was
not a jubilee sermon—the choir sang beautifully, and Bergstedt
recited a splendid poem.
S u n d a y , 21 M a y 1 9 1 1 : First I preached, then F. M. Johnson. Early
in his sermon he dismissed P. Waldenström] but in the second part
he affirmed his teachings. I later called this to his attention, but he
was unable to respond to me. It surprises me that there is not any
real progress in Galesburg—that which sounds so impressive from a
distance becomes so tiny the closer one gets!
F r i d a y , 23 June 1 9 1 1 : Went today to Attica, Indiana, for the Luther
League Convention. Over 500 on the train—got there at about
11:30—a beautiful park with a large pavilion—but the sessions were
sparsely attended—there was greater interest in the picnic than in
religion. On the return trip Pearson in Rankin opened his heart to
me and said he had long thought that I should be one of them—the
Lutherans. To which I replied neither positively nor negatively.
S a t u r d a y , 24 June 1 9 1 1 : My mind has been wandering here and
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there, and I wonder where it will come to rest. One cannot serve two
masters!
S u n d a y , 25 June 1 9 1 1 : Good attendance this morning. In the
afternoon the first meeting of the men's Bible class—only seven
present. In the evening fairly good attendance—most of them
Lutherans!
M o n d a y & Tuesday, 26 & 27 June 1911: Read newspapers this
morning and visited Mrs. Hultquist. Later Mama and I went to
David Swanson's place and picked cherries—a glorious ride with
nature all in bloom. Tuesday afternoon we sat pitting cherries until
7:30 p.m. when Einar and Ruth arrived from Swanson's with another
bushel of cherries! So we borrowed a machine and finished the job
in an hour.
S a t u r d a y , 8 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : This evening all of the clergymen went
before the City Council and requested that Sunday afternoon band
concerts in the park be prohibited. But it did no good I am given to
understand. I think we have an unfortunate city council, although
there are many outstanding men in our town.
S a t u r d a y , 22 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon I went to Fox River Grove,
forty miles northwest of Chicago, where the young people of Cook
County had their picnic. The religious part was concluding as we
arrived, but then they had a sack race, three-legged race, potato race,
tug-of-war, and more. F. M. Johnson noted that such gatherings had
never occurred fifteen years previously without a "resurrection" over
the entire country. But this did not go unnoticed now either. One
man said that never before had he attended such a worldly picnic,
and another replied, "Oh well, more and more things are watered
down among us."
S u n d a y , 23 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Left North Park at 8:30 a.m. after breakfast
with Lydell. Preached at the Austin church this morning on Matthew
5:19-21, "Christ and the law." When we got home, Mrs. Pohl said that
it was a splendid sermon the likes of which one seldom hears. The
Pohls were here at the Eggans. At present he is very frail in body
but quite lively in spirit. This evening I spoke on "Joy in the
Lord"—for myself it was very glorious and lovely and as I was able
to understand even so for the others, too.
M o n d a y , 24 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : I had afternoon coffee with Bergstedt and
heard from him how Nyvall's opponents are working to prevent his
return to North Park. Among other things they say that several
churches are closed to him, including the one in Paxton. Returning
home, all was well here—thanks be to God.
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Tuesday, 25 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : E. O. Carlson, who is in town during my
vacation, came over here for a while. Our conversation turned to
Nyvall and then he came loaded from Erikson with a pack of rubbish
so that I got angry. Erikson had said that N. himself had taken part
in negotiations with others concerning his being called. I said that I
would write to E. and ask him if he could or would stand for his
words. Then Carlson became alarmed and began to recant, saying
that one surely can work for something in many ways. Thus he tried
to smooth things over.
Wednesday, 26 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Have begun an article for the annual
publication A u r o r a on "Manly Courage"—and another under the
rubric "Pictures of Life." This evening Carlson spoke quite well.
Tonight I was up until 1 a.m. finishing one of these essays. We shall
see if it is accepted. Carlson came here this morning and asked me
not to speak of what he had said about Nyvall—but this confirmed
my resolve and I wrote to Erikson as soon as he left. That is how I
am—"stubborn"
T h u r s d a y , 27 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Wrote to Södergren in Boston and asked
if it was true that his church is closed to Nyvall. Have worked
further on my articles, staying up until 1 a.m.
F r i d a y , 28 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Our guests for supper this afternoon were
Carl Petterson, Mrs. Englund, Fred Danielson, the Björklunds,
Lundahls, and Mrs. Bengston. Later I wondered if this could serve
any good purpose. I know perfectly well that there will be envious
hearts even after this, too, since it is almost always the same
whatever one does, it will not please everyone.
S u n d a y , 30 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Carlson preached on salvation. The
evening attendance was better than usual. This afternoon he came
over for a visit and we chatted for a while about this and that. I am
convinced that he goes around speaking ill of both me and other
preachers. This evening after the meeting Carlsten said that it was
"terribly disappointing that he was leaving." Today I have felt much
like a worm in an anthill.
M o n d a y , 31 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Accompanied Carlson to the station. When
I got home, Pearson in Rankin had arrived and assured me that I
would not be required to attend seminary if I wished to transfer. He
promised me a call to Winona if I were willing to accept!
Now I have the worst kind of headache and worry. Mama and Ethel
are greatly against this. My wish is to do God's will. Why did this
come just when I am in my greatest dilemma? Oh, that I knew God's
wish! Lord, show me Your path!
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F r i d a y , 4 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Today a letter from Erikson in which he
explains his position with respect to Nyvall, which quite simply can
be stated, "Welcome! said the wolf to the goat."
S a t u r d a y , 5 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Have tried to study but have no
inclination to do so. I only ponder whether or not I should leave the
Covenant. I feel myself so involved in it—and yet there is so much
with which I am highly disappointed. On the other hand it is old
love that draws me. It struck me this afternoon—if one has done
something in life that one regrets and God seems to be providing the
opportunity to redo it, should I then hesitate to make my move?
M o n d a y , 7 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Visited Hemdahl this evening and
enjoyed his pictures of Palestine, some of which he had purchased,
others he had taken himself. We also spoke about my situation. He
warmly encouraged me to join them without any hesitation. Ack ja,
if it were as easily done as it seems proper to do, then there would
be no problems. I am adrift in the worst breakers.
Wednesday, 9 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : This morning I went to Chicago. Got
to the doctor's office just as he was leaving. We decided that I would
return there at 2 p.m. tomorrow. Went then to North Park in the
company of Hjerpe. I got to stay at Albin Johnson's place, since they
had not yet opened the dormitory. This evening I went to F. M.
Johnson's and took part in their weekly meeting. Quite a few people
attended. Johnson spoke about justification by faith. I continued on
the same subject, and it was unusually easy to speak—edifying to a
high degree.
F r i d a y , 11 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Was at North Park for most of the day.
This morning I spoke with Carl Hanson about my contemplated entry
into the Augustana Synod. He said that he did not want to tell me
to do this, since he would then be unfaithful to the Covenant he
serves. Neither did he wish to tell me to refrain from this, for that
would be unfair to me. I understood just what he meant. Well,
exactly what should I do?
S a t u r d a y , 12 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Dinner today at the Nybergs—then
went with Baring and Andrew Johnson by boat out on the lake to see
the flying machines. At 4 p.m. we saw "the birdmen" in full
flight—eight or nine machines altogether. It was certainly a most
wonderful sight. Towards evening several flew directly over us and
quite near to our boat—their sounds were like harvester machines.
It was truly marvelous to have experienced this day and seen these
sights. What more cannot man now accomplish!
S u n d a y , 13 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Went to the Ravenswood church, where
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Andrew Johnson preached well on the unfaithful servant. Johnson
and I were invited to the Wallgrens for dinner. Afterwards we went
for a walk and conversed about some of our life experiences.
M o n d a y , 14 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : To the doctor, then had dinner with
Lindell. During the afternoon I spoke with F. M. Johnson about my
situation. He said he would decidedly advise me against leaving the
Covenant, because he thought I would find it to be not what I had
expected—as I myself suspect. But where—and on whom does one
not make miscalculations? I have made them here where I am—so
many that I doubt I would make that many more there, in case I do
leave. I have more pleasant memories from the time I was among the
Lutherans than I have had since then.
Tuesday, 15 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Had dinner at the Nybergs, after which
we went once more to see the aviators. We were so close we could
see both their take-offs and landings. It is beginning to seem
commonplace to see these kinds of birds in the air. But one of them
fell into the lake this afternoon and was killed. Another crashed to
the ground and died shortly thereafter. This demands many
sacrifices, but it represents progress all the same. The North Park
conference began this evening. August Johnson preached.
Wednesday, 16 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : This morning Hultgren from Joliet
gave a lecture on "Speaking in Tongues." There were many unproven
assertions and misinterpreted Bible passages used as evidence for this
movement's being of the Devil. I took exception and could not be
refuted, but rather he said that he even had indicated this in his
essay.
F r i d a y , 18 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Today I had a long conversation with
some of the preachers. They told about their experiences in various
congregations here and there. It was, however, almost enough to
compel one to pray that God would spare us from such groups of
people. I went home this afternoon at 5 p.m. Had with me the book
C h a r l i Johnson for reading material. It got so interesting that some­thing
happened that never previously has happened to me. I forgot
to get off the train when it stopped at Paxton, and I had to remain on
it until Champaign. Had to stay there until 3 a.m. and did not get
home until 4 o'clock in the morning.
M o n d a y , 28 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Spoke again with Hemdahl this evening.
He was very friendly and did not think that I should have any
scruples. But even so, I cannot escape them. Ack, this uncertainty,
how it renders me dispirited and weak in everything. How can I get
to know God's will for certain? Would that I dared to refrain!
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Tuesday, 29 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Changed my mind about going to
Rankin to confer with the [Lutheran] pastors. I have prayed to God
for direction so that I might be sure and that He might close the
doors where I am not supposed to go—but have received no
certainty. Is this possibly God's way of closing the doors for me? Nå
ja (Well then), I would certainly be most happy if I could avoid this
step!
F r i d a y , 1 September 1911: Wrote to Erikson in Rockford this
morning. I stuck to my idea that he had sent out the report on
Nyvall as a deliberate untruth and asked him if he thought that he
thereby was serving God and creating harmony in the Covenant. But
regretted at the same time that we apparently have become enemies
because of this matter. Mama left for vacation today. I rented a
horse and carriage and visited Mrs. Swan, also the Göransons, and
saw Emilia. Paid Moffet $2.00 for the livery charges.
S a t u r d a y , 2 September 1911: Mowed the lawn today—went to
town this afternoon with Einar to buy him a suit that cost $12.00 and
toward which he himself had earned $7.00 at the canning factory. In
our household things have gone surprisingly well in Mama's absence,
best with the smallest ones.
S u n d a y , 3 September 1911: Fine weather and good attendance—it
was rather easy to preach today. In the afternoon we had Bible class
and seven were in attendance. But Palmberg was glad, of course,
because he got to talk. The Saldens were here to baptize their baby
this morning. Good attendance this evening—Psalm 63:3 probably a
good text about strife and tribulation—for whom but myself?
M o n d a y , 4 September 1911: This evening we had a council meeting
and when the usual business had been taken care of, Carlsten stood
up and asked what my thoughts were about the progress here in
Paxton and also w h y I am here? [diarist's italics] He said that I should
have informed John S. Johnson that I am here for nothing other than
the upbringing of the children. Then there was a lengthy dispute but
I did not let myself be amazed—how it felt in my heart nonetheless
to be attacked in such a way by one who had been my best friend
and co-worker. These are the fruits of Carlson's visit here. By the
fruit one recognizes the tree. As usual after such an occurrence, I
spent a sleepless night.
Tuesday, 5 September 1911: After today's morning prayer, it felt
as if a heavy burden had been lifted from my heart and soul. I
became convinced that I should leave Paxton and the Covenant. I
went to Hemdahl and told him about my decision, and he said that
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he would immediately write to his colleagues. He also invited me to
attend the mission meeting in Winona next week. This evening I
went to the Johnsons with Carlsten. He denied having said any­thing—
and there the deacon sat with his nose and his lie right on his
face. God surely will permit the Paxton congregation's council to
serve me even as Pharaoh's bailiffs oppressed Israel and drove its
people from Egypt.
Wednesday, 6 September 1911: Very few came to church this
evening. I spoke on David and it inspired my soul. This afternoon
I visited Gust Larson, who told me about his conversion and about
a dream he once had that was so deeply affecting that both he and
I wept. He spoke of Jesus taking him by the hand, and His hand was
so gentle that it really felt good over his entire body. Even I have
experienced the softness of that hand on one occasion. Oh Jesus, do
not release me from Your hand!
T h u r s d a y , 7 September 1911: I went to Rozene and said to him that
I did not wish to serve communion on Sunday with Carlsten's
accusations hanging over me. This evening he convened the deacons
at church, and we had a meeting then and there. Carlsten acknowl­edged
his sin and asked for forgiveness; but I became more provoked
with Rozene, for he sought only to express how deplorable things
were in the congregation. Then Danielson boasted for a while, too.
I have become truly alarmed by the whole flock, because any respect
and integrity seems totally lacking—only malice is present.
S a t u r d a y , 9 September 1911: The lesson for tomorrow is Matthew
5:43-6:4 and a very probing and heart-searching text it is—both for
me and for others. Oh how difficult not only to be silent and suffer
but also to love and pray for those who hate us. Oh Lord, help me
that I am not simply preaching for others and that I myself do not
remain a prophet.
S u n d a y , 10 September 1911: There were many at church and I
spoke on the commandment of Love and its three stages, i.e., love for
our brothers, our neighbors, and our enemies. It went well and
seemed powerful, but only a few took communion.
M o n d a y , 11 September 1911: Went with Hemdahl to the meeting
in Winona—dinner in Bloomington—good attendance this evening.
I spoke on Romans 5:1-3 and it went well. The people and other
pastors sat as though they wanted to devour every word.
Tuesday, 12 September 1911: Discussion on Galatians 5:16-26,
"Walking in the Spirit." I was asked to report briefly on my position
and my desire to enter the Augustana Synod. Frykman and
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Bergstrom were appointed to make arrangements. Had so many
compliments today for my preaching yesterday evening that I almost
have become bashful.
T h u r s d a y , 21 September 1911: Received a letter from John Nelson
in Des Moines—also a postcard from Elmquist telling that even in the
East they have political strife and unpleasantness in their churches.
Where can one find any peace and quiet!
S a t u r d a y , 23 September 1911: I have been studying P.
Waldenström]'s teaching on the Atonement and am unable to
understand what the man actually believes; for here and there he
seems to admit that Jesus died for sinners—but then in other places
he denies this repeatedly.
T h u r s d a y , 5 October 1911: Heard today that we do indeed have
sympathetic friends in the congregation. How good it feels in one's
heart to receive some understanding and empathy.
S a t u r d a y , 21 October 1911: This morning we had our annual oste
(yearly cheese-making) and there really were many who came this
time. We got nine cheeses. It rained heavily later on, so if it had
rained earlier, we probably would not have gotten a single cheese!
S u n d a y , 22 October 1911: This morning Einar served us kaffe på
sängen, since it was Franz Liszt's 100th birthday!—also our
twenty-third wedding anniversary.
M o n d a y , 6 November 1911: This evening there was a council
meeting with everything so calm and friendly as if nothing had ever
occurred.
S a t u r d a y , 11 November 1911: Early today Mama and I left for
Chicago and arrived at the Eggans in time for lunch. This afternoon
we went to Garfield Park to see the chrysanthemum
show—overwhelmingly beautiful!
M o n d a y , 13 November 1911: At the preachers' meeting F. M.
Johnson stood up and expressed their mutual sympathy for me, for
which I thanked him and then protested that I also had great
sympathy for them!
Tuesday, 14 November 1911: This morning we went out to North
Park and visited with the Lydells, Hjerpes, Albin Johnsons, and had
dinner at the Högfeldts. Later we attended a Negro church where
they were speaking in tongues.
S u n d a y , 19 November 1911 [back at home in Paxton]: The church
was well filled on one side with not so few either on the women's
side.
Wednesday, 22 November 1911: Made house calls—and everywhere
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I went it seemed as if I was especially welcome. Either these people
are terribly false or else the situation is not as critical here as I
sometimes imagine.
F r i d a y , 24 November 1911: Posted a letter to Österns] Weckoblad]
(The East's Weekly Paper), in which I chastised a certain "private
person" who wrote denigratingly about women a few weeks ago.
This evening a concert by Hultman & Holmquist—their singing was
doubtless beautiful, but the music lacked variety in my opinion.
About 300 in attendance. Later at home we enjoyed a repeat
performance that was like a saga.
M o n d a y , 4 December 1911: Am much disturbed about my annual
report. I believe it impossible for me to stay here any longer—but on
the other hand it is undoubtedly risky to resign without having a
place to go.
S a t u r d a y , 9 December 1911: Visited the mayor's office with several
other pastors, asking for enforcement of the law against s m y g k r o g a r
(speak-easies) and pool halls. He suggested the formation of a "Law
& Order League"—but this received no consensus.
S u n d a y , 24 December 1911: A beautiful day—few children in
Sunday school—few women at the service but almost full on the
men's side. Charles Anderson was our guest for supper, and
everyone was happy with their presents and the poems. The dining
room and Christmas tree were decorated beautifully—to bed at
midnight—I slept for only an hour.
Tuesday, 26 December 1911: This afternoon I went to the
Lindquists and was encouraged to hear that they fully sympathize
with us. I was also assured that the congregation as a whole is fond
of us, even though some are working to get us to leave.
T h u r s d a y , 28 December 1911: Today I have finished my annual
report and written an article for Weckobladet, "A New Year's Greet­ing."
I also sent my insurance payment to Peoria, $34.08.
» » it-
M o n d a y , 1 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : Well, the annual meeting is over and it
seemed as if both friends and enemies had gathered. Everything
went, however, in an exceedingly orderly fashion; my enemies had
no opportunities for any outbursts and my friends did not need to
come to my defense.
Tuesday, 2 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : Heard today that my enemies had brewed
julöl (Christmas ale) for me and that my friends were there to help
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me drink. But since with my report I had struck the tap from the
keg, the beer had flowed out beforehand.
Wednesday, 3 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : After the meeting this evening
Danielson pressed me for money.
T h u r s d a y , 4 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : Visited the Lindquists and as usual was
well received and shown great sympathy. They understand the
situation for what it is.
F r i d a y , 5 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : At the Larsons I learned that Carlsten had
been there and embittered them against me; it can be perceived when
the likes of these have been out and about. Read until 1 a.m. The
V i c a r of W a k e f i e l d , a masterful description of human nature.
The Lindstrom family in 1 9 1 2,
front row, I. to r., R u t h , R a y m o n d , V e r n o n , E t h e l , R u d o l p h , Gustaf Torsten
back r o w , Pastor and M r s . Lindstrom, Carl E i n a r.
( C o u r t e s y of Raymond W. Lindstrom.)
S a t u r d a y , 6 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : Have read in Rosenius' P i e t i s t e n (The
Pietist) about barnaskap hos G u d (childlike affiliation with God). Oh,
how he can strike down and comfort a child of God.
M o n d a y 8 A p r i l 1 9 1 2 : Today many from Paxton went to Cham­paign
to hear Theodore Roosevelt, who spoke in a park. I could hear
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almost every word.
Tuesday, 16 A p r i l 1 9 1 2 : A horrible accident occurred last Monday
night. A steamer, the T i t a n i c , struck an iceberg and sank with 1,700
persons aboard!
S a t u r d a y , 20 A p r i l 1 9 1 2 : I have been reading about the terrible
shipwreck so that I almost have become ill. What would it be like if
one had been an eyewitness? 705 were rescued.
Tuesday, 22 October 1912: Was not mildly surprised when
Missions-Vännen (The Mission Friend [Swedish newspaper]) arrived
that it not only contained my article but also that Högfeldt had
especially drawn attention to it in his editorial and had recommended
it to the readership.
Tuesday, 5 November 1912: Today was the election and I voted for
Theodore Roosevelt. Also had articles in both Missions-Vännen and
W e c k o b l a d e t — i n the first "The Youth Question" and in the second "The
Peace of Jesus." These works give me a curious satisfaction. Is this
good or bad?
Tuesday, 24 December 1912: Beautiful weather has continued for
several days now. Even this year we had our usual Christmas gifts,
but this evening I sat here wondering in my heart if we all shall
celebrate Christmas together as a family next year?
Wednesday, 25 December 1912: Glorious moonlight and fine
weather. This morning the church was filled, and some were even
in the gallery. It was not especially easy to speak at o t t a n (the early
morning worship). At the later service I spoke on Luke 2:15-20 and
it went well—even though there were only about twenty-five in
attendance, the offering totaled $41.03.
* * *
Wednesday, 1 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 3 : Night watch with the young people and
a speech by Pamp [a visiting preacher]. We began our vigil in the
name of the Lord, expecting to have a good new year. But something
else struck me today at the congregation's annual meeting. I was
attacked by Younggren and C. Benktson, who acted like a pair of
angry dogs. Last night I dreamed there was a fat and a small-headed
snake biting me, one on my big toe and the other on my finger. Now
the dream has come true. They tried to get the congregation to vote
me out, men den gubben gick i n t e ändå (but that old man still did not
go).
T h u r s d a y , 2 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 3 : Naturally we could not sleep last night.
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Today I have done very little except for taking down the Christmas
tree and p a c k i n g away the o r n a m e n t s f o r m o v i n g [diarist's italics], all the
while wondering where we shall be next Christmas?
F r i d a y , 31 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 3 : Wrote to Edquist in Chicago that I would
not come there and preach, since it might easily seem to be a kind of
courtship.
S a t u r d a y , 1 M a r c h 1 9 1 3 : Was really surprised today by letters
from both Geo. and Ernst Svenson. The former said that Dr. Ranseen
and Dr. Heggström have promised to help me enter the Augustana
Synod. The latter promised to recommend me to take over those
congregations he has. Oh, so unexpected, and I must decide
immediately. Is this then the path that God has opened for me and
wants me to take? I have prayed that He will prepare the way where
He wants me and close it where He does not want me to go. Has He
now heard my prayer?
S u n d a y , 2 M a r c h 1 9 1 3 : While I was at church, a large bouquet of
flowers from a local boys' club was delivered—"as appreciation for
being a broad-minded minister"! Jo, jo (Yes, indeed), thanks for the
compliment!
M o n d a y 3 M a r c h 1 9 1 3 : Today I went to Westerberg [the local
Lutheran pastor] and gave him my application to join the Augustana
Synod. It has been a tough battle for me, but I did not dare to refuse
for fear of once more closing the door God has opened for me. So
now I have burned all of the bridges for any return to the Covenant.
A c k , H e r r e , may it all go well!
T h u r s d a y , 13 M a r c h 1 9 1 3 : My application to the Augustana Synod
has been tabled. First I am to leave the Covenant and join the local
Lutheran Church, then await a call from the Lutheran Mission Board.
M o n d a y , 17 M a r c h 1 9 1 3 : Wrote to both Erikson and Hemdahl in
Rockford. I am in a most curious position. Once and for all, there
must be a decision. I am tired and unhappy where I am, but not
strongly attracted to where I appear to be headed. Can it be that God
girds me and leads me where I do not want to go? If so, then am I
satisfied!
Wednesday, 28 M a y 1 9 1 3 : Went this morning to Westerberg, who
said he had received a letter from Ophiem, Illinois, inquiring about
me and giving indications that they might extend a call to me.
S u n d a y , 1 June 1913: This morning it was very cloudy, but then
as in the proverb, it became clear. May this be a good sign for us.
We were then festively received into the Lutheran Church of Paxton.
Against my expectations, I felt very pleased and edified all day long
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and through it all. God bless us at our joining, and may He use us
as a blessing among these people!
Rev. Gustaf Lindstrom, c. 1920 Ida Lindstrom, c. 1 9 20
( C o u r t e s y of R a y m o n d W. Lindstrom.) (Courtesy of R a y m o n d W. Lindstrom.)
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FROM THE SWEDISH DIARIES
OF THE REV. GUSTAF LINDSTROM
T r a n s l a t e d and edited by
RAYMOND W. LINDSTROM
Gustaf Lindstrom was born on 16 May 1864 in Hede parish, Bohus­län.
Little is known about his childhood or his early youth in
Sweden. He had two brothers and several sisters. Financial reverses
prevented him from receiving the education his family had intended
and after the death of his father an older brother, John, left for
America. Gustaf soon followed and in August of 1883 joined his
brother at Peshtigo, Wisconsin, where John had changed his surname
from their given patronymic, Hansson, to Lindstrom. Gustaf also
liked this name, followed suit, and thus began his new life in
America as Gustaf Lindstrom.
After a difficult winter as a greenhorn in a lumber camp in the
forests of Michigan, Gustaf went to work in the mines at Iron
Mountain, Michigan, and eventually found Christian fellowship and
inspiration in the local Lutheran church. Moving on to Ironwood,
Michigan, where there was no Lutheran church, he affiliated with the
Mission Covenant Church. Here he became active as a leader of the
young men's society and felt a call to service in Christian ministry.
In partnership with a Lutheran friend he founded a flourishing
grocery business, and in October of 1888 he married Ida Stenberg,
who had recently arrived from Falun, Sweden. Responding to the
call of the Lord, he enrolled in the newly organized training school
for ministers at the Minneapolis Tabernacle of the Mission Friends.
In 1892 Gustaf Lindstrom dissolved his business partnership, paid
his debts, and arranged for the balance to be applied toward his
schooling and the support of his growing family. When the Mission
Friends' school moved to Chicago in 1894, where it became North
Park College and Theological Seminary, Gustaf Lindstrom completed
his final training there and was a member of its first graduating class.
In his active ministry of nearly forty years, Gustaf Lindstrom
served churches in Wallace, Michigan (1895-1898), Springfield,
Massachusetts (1898-1906), and Paxton, Illinois (1906-1913). After
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transferring to the Augustana Synod and spending a year of studies
at Augustana Theological Seminary in Rock Island, Illinois, he served
the Lutheran churches in Ophiem, Illinois (1913-1916) and West New
York, New Jersey (1916-1931).
R. W. L.
I n t r o d u c t o r y n o t e t o t h e d i a r y of 1 9 1 1 : For many days now I have
felt a longing in my soul for a true awakening, and yesterday as I
studied the lessons for Sunday, John 14:13,1 was given a ray of hope,
even a solemn warning that if my prayer and longing were to be
fulfilled, then I must possess faith in equal measure. What we seek
in prayer, truly believing, we shall also receive. Faith must precede
any effective and true prayer. Where there is complete faith, answer
to prayer will not be withheld.
The Lindstrom family in 1 9 0 6 , back row, I. to r., Gustaf Torsten, Ethel, I d a Lindstrom,
front row, Carl E i n a r , R u d o l p h , Rev. Gustaf Lindstrom, Ruth
(Courtesy of Raymond W. Lindstrom.)
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S u n d a y , I J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : I kept a solitary night watch, and between
11 and 12 o'clock I spent most of the time on my knees in prayer
before God. When I arose, still in prayer and with closed eyes, I
opened my Bible and my gaze fell at once upon Paul's words in
Colossians 4:17. This I take to be direct guidance from the Lord,
which I accept as a reproach for what is past and as an admonition
for what is to come.
M o n d a y , 2 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : I remained at home for most of the
morning, after which I went to speak with Fred Danielson. He told
me he had said to the committee that they ought to increase my
salary. He did not, however, think that they dared to take such
action since Younggren voiced objections saying that if they increased
the pastor's salary, he would not give anything. Today I have
studied for some time and prayed, but more than anything else there
has been a cry, A c k , ack! H e r r e hjälp! (Help me, Lord!). This afternoon
I visited Mrs. Sullivan. It is wonderful to be able to read and pray
with her. This evening marked the beginning of our Prayer Week,
but it has turned bitter cold—there were only about fifteen present.
I spoke and others offered prayers to God. Went to bed at 11:30 but
was unable to sleep. At 3:30 I was in such a state that I had to get
up. God, may this be the pangs of birth!
Tuesday, 3 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : We conducted the annual meeting today
and it was well attended. Everything went smoothly and calmly in
the same order as usual, of course. The prayer meeting this evening
was also well attended. I was not able to sing because I had a
headache but spoke briefly, after which there were many who
prayed. A c k , j a ! H e r r e G u d (Yes, indeed, Lord God), awaken new
petitioners—the old ones will soon be exhausted!
Wednesday, 4 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Studied the new song book almost all
morning in order to become more familiar with it, since the congrega­tion
voted yesterday to adopt Sions basun (Zion's Trumpet) for use.
In the afternoon I went out and made fifteen house calls extending
invitations to our prayer meeting this evening. It was quite a good
one at that, with prayers also offered by two whom I never previous­ly
had heard pray to God.
T h u r s d a y , 5 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Made house calls again during the
afternoon. There were about seventy-five present at the meeting this
evening, and their participation was spirited. I came home feeling joy
in my heart.
F r i d a y , 6 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Chose for my text Matthew 9:35-38 and
spoke about Jesus' way of winning followers. He went and sought
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out others—we must do the same.
S a t u r d a y , 7 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : At the confirmation class this morning
two of the boys were very disruptive, so I sent them home.
S u n d a y , 8 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Annual reports were read this morning.
Visitors from East Lynn stayed all day long with us. At 2 o'clock the
funeral of Oscar Nyberg—the church was filled to the last pew. This
evening there were about fifty in attendance. I preached on 1st
Corinthians 15:1-8, and it went rather well.
M o n d a y , 9 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Washed clothes in the morning. This
afternoon Mama and I took a look at Benkstrom's new house. Went
afterwards to town to find a job for the girl from East Lynn who was
with us yesterday. Found two good positions in a short while. Went
to the Pettersons at about 6 p.m. Jennie seems near to death.
Council meeting this evening at the Rozenes.
Tuesday, 10 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Went back to the Pettersons this
morning and found Jennie somewhat better. This afternoon a prayer
meeting at Charles Petterson's place in the country. Rode with
Lindahl. The men were out shelling corn and could not be with us,
but the women in the neighborhood were all there. Many of them
prayed as I never previously have heard. This evening another
prayer meeting at Carl P.'s home—not many present but it went very
well and even there we knelt in prayer. It was clear that we were
close to the Lord. We went to our homes truly refreshed in spirit.
Wednesday, 11 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Hedstrand arrived today on the train
at noon. We were guests at Fred Danielson's for midday din­ner—
then on to the elder Danielsons for a while. Noreen came over
for coffee this afternoon. Hedstrand stayed for supper. Before going
to church this evening I went to the Pettersons and realized that
Jennie all the same does not have long to live. After church I stayed
with her until 1:30 this morning. Then Henry came home and I
departed.
M o n d a y , 16 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Washed clothes in the morning. At
noon Elin Larson arrived and I accompanied her to her new job at
Mr. Thomas' place. At 3 p.m. came to the Pettersons at which time
Jennie died. I read a few Bible verses for her but noticed that her
eyes remained closed—and about five minutes later she was gone.
Went also this evening to Danielson for a loan of $40 to buy a new
stove.
Tuesday, 17 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Prayer meeting at the Englunds where
I spoke about Joshua's commanding Israel to renounce idols and with
their whole hearts to serve God. He was not satisfied with a loose
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confession but required that they bind themselves to their oath to
serve God. He admonished them that God would nowise tolerate
their sins.
S a t u r d a y , 21 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Spent the afternoon partly reading
about the Welsh revival and partly thinking and writing out the
lessons for tomorrow. My hopes, desires, and prayers for a revival
in our congregation are renewed. It is certain indeed that I feel
distress in my heart over our situation, and yet it is my prayer that
this distress may be increased so that it may truly serve as the pangs
of birth. I must become much more humble and unselfish if the Lord
is to use me for revival. But, alas, are then all those whom the Lord
has employed for revival spotless and pure? A c k , H e r r e , what is
coming over me? Help me to follow Thee!
Wednesday, 25 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Today I have read P. W.'s [Paul
Petter Waldenström's] book Smärtornas m a n (Man of Sorrows), and I
have become more and more convinced that he regards Christ simply
as a martyr.
S a t u r d a y , 28 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Four funerals among the local Swedish
population within a week. Oh, what a time of harvest! This evening
we observed a marvelous sight in the skies—it was as if two comets
had collided. This was almost identical to what I saw in my dreams
a few nights earlier.
S u n d a y , 29 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : For the evening text I chose 2nd
Chronicles 30, about Hezekiah's passover. It was both blissful and
serious. It has been a long time since I have experienced such power
while preaching. Afterwards I hurried down and got to speak with
John Erikson who confessed that all was not right with him—but that
he still was studying and praying. We then joined with him in
prayer. May it be in earnest. I also spoke with Alfred Swanson who
said that he was a "child of God" but did not wish to acknowledge
Jesus "because then they all laughed at him." Imagine that!
M o n d a y , 30 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Today there has been no peace at all
but rather a great deal of commotion! Twenty-four callers were here
on various errands. Word also came that Mrs. Nelson died last night,
so I went there at once. This evening the singers met here to rehearse
for the scheduled funerals, after which the program committee met
to plan for the coming year. I was very pleased that the girls seemed
happy to be starting once more.
Tuesday, 31 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 1 : The funeral of Mrs. Sullivan—the
church was filled to capacity. Hemdahl [the Lutheran pastor]
assisted, giving a thirty-five minute address in English; so I confined
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myself to speaking for about fifteen minutes. Was tempted not to
speak at all, but feared that I would have offended him, had I not
spoken.
Wednesday, 1 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon the unusual occur­rence
of a double funeral—two hearses at one house—a man and
wife buried at the same time is indeed a rare event. Once more, the
church was completely filled. The man was 80 years old; his wife, 65.
Had they been able to enjoy a happy marriage, it might have been
beautiful. On the contrary, however, it was an extremely melancholy
occasion.
F r i d a y , 3 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Went to town this afternoon and got a
promise for Ethel [the diarist's 19-year-old daughter] to begin work
next week at Bengston's store.
Tuesday, 7 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Several house calls in the morning.
Went this evening to the Enquists. He appeared to have no com­plaints,
but when his daughter Mabel came home and I asked her
why she does not go to church, she got angry and said she attends
only when she wishes to—and goes where she pleases. Indeed, it is
disheartening to hear such words from those whom one has sought
to instruct in the Word of God!
T h u r s d a y , 9 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Read in the newspaper that Herman
Grönlund, who became unbalanced because of overstrain and
brooding over spiritualism and "speaking in tongues," has now
finished his days without regaining his senses. Ack, Gud! what are
we? We may die spiritually through indifference—and we may also
die bodily through excessive zeal. Where is the golden mean?
F r i d a y , 10 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : A letter today tells us that Elin [a
relative in Michigan] has died, and it has been decided that I would
go to her funeral. A great rush to borrow money for the trip and for
a new overcoat (cost $16.75). I left home at 2 p.m. While waiting in
Chicago I visited the Nybergs and ate supper with them. The train
left at 10 p.m. and I slept for a few hours during the night.
S a t u r d a y , 11 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : M y arrival was a big surprise for
m o r m o r (grandmother), but they were very happy over the fact that
I had come. Elin looked so peaceful—yet aged. She had her
nineteenth birthday last August. This evening I had supper with
Skog and Lidman, who is here in Iron Mountain holding revival
meetings. Later he preached in his usual way so that the people
burst out in several salvos of laughter. The basement of the church
was completely filled. Spent the night with a family named
Sjöberg—a young and pleasant couple with four children.
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S u n d a y , 12 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : The funeral was held this afternoon.
When the hearse arrived, m o r m o r nearly fainted. Skog preached on
Hebrews 13:14, and the church was almost filled to capacity. I read
from the Epistle of John, Chapter 1, and led in prayer. Then I gave
our thanks for what they had done for Elin. Lidman preached after
this but without his droll stories—or much of anything else either.
M o n d a y , 13 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Today I visited some old friends and
went to the Lagergrens for dinner. It is said that the wife of the
house has fallen into drinking so heavily that her breath betrays the
fact that she is far into the last stages. She was nonetheless as
friendly as always and indescribably happy that I had visited them.
He, too, appeared well after his illnesses. But it was sad to have the
apprehension that she has become so ruined. Oh God, have pity on
her all the same!
Tuesday, 14 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : A very heavy snowstorm. Dinner at
Gust Johnson's along with Skog, Lidman, and Andrew Anderson
from Norway. Visited Mrs. Frank Carlson this afternoon and had a
long chat with her. She told me that one of her girls had grieved
intensely for her father and wondered if he was "unsaved." But then
she dreamed that she saw heaven open before her and her papa was
indeed there—so she sorrowed no longer! This evening Lidman gave
an excellent sermon.
S a t u r d a y , 18 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 [back at home in Paxton]: This evening
Klint Anderson came down from Chicago and told me that he had to
confess to the congregation that he had once professed himself to be
a believer, which on the contrary he indeed had not been. I had a
long discussion with him and we prayed together. May this be an
awakening for him—as well as a help for others.
S u n d a y , 19 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Decent weather but bad roads—not so
many in church—at communion not quite two servings. Klint came
forward and said a few words but I could not hear what he had to
say, nor did it appear to have made much of an impression on the
congregation.
M o n d a y , 20 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : We washed clothes this morning.
Then started out for town to order telephone service, but on the way
I changed my mind so we did not get there after all. Both Rudolph
and Vernon [the diarist's sons] are sick today.
Tuesday, 21 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon I visited a Mrs.
Youngdahl, who is a member of the Lutheran Church. She has sent
for me several times previously, yet I did not wish to go to her lest
it infringe on another's calling. She was, however, greatly pleased
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that I came. After reading Psalm 16,1 spoke with her for a while and
prayed. It was a blessed moment. She is 95 years old. I found, too,
that even Mrs. Peterson is a true Christian. God has many precious
gems of which we know nothing—but "the Lord knows his own."
Wednesday, 22 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Studied and then went to the
dentist. Afterwards I ordered phone service once more—having been
without it for almost two years.
M o n d a y , 27 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : This evening I visited Hemdahl. He is
going to travel to Europe and Palestine.
Tuesday, 28 F e b r u a r y 1 9 1 1 : Johnson came today and we built a
chicken yard. Have worked hard all day long and discovered that I
am much stronger than I was ten or twelve years ago. I get real
pleasure from hard physical work.
Wednesday, 1 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon went shopping with
Einar [the diarist's 15-year-old son] and bought him new
clothes—with long pants.
T h u r s d a y , 2 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Most notable accomplishment today: I
spaded up the soil to plant vegetables for the summer.
F r i d a y , 3 M a r c h 1911:This morning I continued spading in the
garden. Called on Charley Bengston this afternoon and later saw
Mrs. Swan, who has allowed herself to be tormented daily through
contact with unbridled and godless people.
S a t u r d a y , 4 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Today I required the children in the
confirmation class to prepare well for their lessons next week—other­wise
they will have to continue their sessions until Pentecost.
Wednesday, 8 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Went this evening to the Molins to
baptize their infant. Aspengren and his wife were also there. He
described how his parents had been strict läsare (pietists) during his
early childhood. And how the people gathered in various homes at
eveningtime—they read the Bible, sang songs, and spoke with each
other about spiritual questions and topics. Think how remarkable
this sort of thing would be today! Yet, why do we not do this
nowadays, too?
T h u r s d a y , 9 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Wallgren came on the noon train. This
evening he spoke on Revelations 5:1, but I was only able to hear
about half of what he said. It is devastating to realize how my
hearing worsens.
F r i d a y , 10 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon I read a book on astronomy
that was highly interesting. It makes us all so very small and God so
vastly immense. It is nonetheless remarkable that one can reflect and
to some degree comprehend the marvels of the universe. But if we
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now have a presentiment of God's wonders of creation and long to
know more, will the time not come when we shall know as we are
known? Yes, certainly! Today I paid my tax of $4.72.
S a t u r d a y , 11 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Today I saw the first robins and blue
jays—but the children say that they have seen them for a long time
now. This evening I extended invitations to Eggan and Bergstedt to
come here for the mission meeting.
S a t u r d a y , 18 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Required the boys in the confirmation
class to come again on Wednesday since they were poorly prepared
today. This afternoon they had a "hen shower" for us, and we were
given several hens for our chicken yard.
S u n d a y , 19 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : A beautiful day—the church was
completely filled. When I saw the large crowd before me, I aban­doned
my planned text and substituted Luke 11:14-18. Perhaps this
sermon was not as flowing, but I felt that it would better present
Jesus and His work than the prepared one. This evening we went
outdoors and gazed at the stars. I found several of them that I never
previously had identified.
S u n d a y , 26 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : This morning it was difficult speaking on
"Jesus, the bread of life." The evening theme was "Jesus' scourging
and His crown of thorns;" it went well and I spoke easily. Oh, that
I might be able to love my Redeemer more fervently and glorify Him
as I should. Never do I perceive so clearly that I fail to love Him as
I ought to as during the passion season.
Tuesday, 28 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Today I was in the church trying to go
through my sermon for Sunday. It went rather well—the first time
I have ever tried to preach in front of empty pews. This afternoon I
visited Hedda Petterson, "drayman" Petterson, and Mrs.
Hultquist—three sorrowing homes and there are only tears and
lamentation, illness and sadness everywhere. The chalice of comfort
falls short. Have also read many newspapers today.
Wednesday, 29 M a r c h 1 9 1 1 : Have read today with much conster­nation
an article by P. Waldenström] wherein he once more asserts
that there is nothing in the Bible concerning what Christ has done for
our salvation.
S a t u r d a y , 1 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Things did not go very well for the
children today. Afterwards I asked each of the girls who wished to
be received into the congregation if she were indeed a "child of God."
None of them knew for certain if they were—or were not. This
makes me both sorrowful and perplexed as to what I ought to do.
M o n d a y , 3 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Had a visit from the student who is
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serving the Lutheran church in Hemdahl's absence. He seems to be
a God-fearing and pleasant man. I also read a sermon by Cardinal
Gibbon that was the most simple, evangelical, and heartening one I
have read in a long time. Yes, God has those who are children and
witnesses to His glory among all denominations—not least among the
Catholics! I truly felt love for the cardinal as he spoke so well of
Jesus. May I hereby learn something for my own good. Ethel is 20
years old today.
T h u r s d a y , 6 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Studied and prepared a sermon for a
funeral. Yesterday the family said that they did not want an
American clergyman, but today they changed their minds and asked
if I would arrange for one. I promised to do so but also suggested
that if they so desired I would speak in English myself. They agreed
to this and left. Since then I have written out my text and plan either
to read or to memorize it. Stayed up until past midnight.
F r i d a y , 7 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon at the funeral of Viktor
Benktson, I spoke on the 8th chapter of Romans since it was his
favorite passage. I also read part of the sermon in English, which
was later included in full in the P a x t o n Record.
Wednesday, 19 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Read F a c k l a n (The Torch [a Swedish
newspaper]) and then wrote to Blomstrand, from whom I received a
long letter today. He describes himself as being pursued by the loyal
Waldenström adherents, and it is not unlikely. But just think how
pressure on free churches by the State is resented—if the former, for
similar reasons, had the power, they might be seven times worse! —
Think how Nyvall has been obliged to resist in this way!
Wednesday, 26 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Got up early and went out into the
garden. In the afternoon Oscar Johnson came by, bringing us another
hen, three or four pounds of butter, buttermilk, and some eggs. They
are among our best friends and also unusually generous with their
gifts, even though they still are only tenant farmers.
F r i d a y and S a t u r d a y , 28 & 29 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Bergstedt and Carl
Hanson arrived. We discussed a great many things—even topics that
are not very pleasant. Hanson told of his experiences at North Park
and they are anything but glowing. We sat conversing until
midnight.
S u n d a y , 30 A p r i l 1 9 1 1 : Rainy weather but good attendance. At
the mission meeting Hanson spoke on the "Good Shepherd" text. In
the evening he told how Christ, in His body, bore our sins on the
Cross. He contradicted P. Waldenström] in every respect, and his
listeners marvelled over the wonderful words from his lips. Were P.
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W. himself to preach tomorrow, they would very likely say that his
words, too, were simply wonderful!
S a t u r d a y , 6 M a y 1 9 1 1 : Today it has been quite warm—I was on
my knees weeding dandelions for most of the morning. In the
afternoon I studied my text and in the evening sat among the trees
in the garden. I cannot remember that I have ever seen nature as
beautiful as now or the trees so decked with flowers—truly like
Paradise. If the earth can be so lovely under the conditions of sin
and evil, what will the kingdom of God be like, where no evil shall
have any place?
Tuesday, 16 M a y 1 9 1 1 : Was woken up early by Mama, who
brought me kaffe på sängen (coffee in bed) because it was my
birthday—47 years old today. May God give me grace, may He
guide and help me! At 8 a.m. I left for Galesburg for the annual
meeting. This evening Hjerpe and Björnbom preached and a choir of
pastors sang.
Wednesday & T h u r s d a y , 17 & 18 M a y , 1 9 1 1 : In the Jubilee A l b um
they had omitted the sentence in my article, "Christ fulfilled the law
in our place." Committee members denied responsibility and knew
nothing other than that Mellander must have been responsible for
this omission.
F r i d a y , 19 M a y 1 9 1 1 : The meeting ended with lengthy reports that
said nothing—I became impatient with them and added a few of my
own caustic words that probably hit their targets. It was our
twenty-five-year jubilee: Björk gave a good sermon—although it was
not a jubilee sermon—the choir sang beautifully, and Bergstedt
recited a splendid poem.
S u n d a y , 21 M a y 1 9 1 1 : First I preached, then F. M. Johnson. Early
in his sermon he dismissed P. Waldenström] but in the second part
he affirmed his teachings. I later called this to his attention, but he
was unable to respond to me. It surprises me that there is not any
real progress in Galesburg—that which sounds so impressive from a
distance becomes so tiny the closer one gets!
F r i d a y , 23 June 1 9 1 1 : Went today to Attica, Indiana, for the Luther
League Convention. Over 500 on the train—got there at about
11:30—a beautiful park with a large pavilion—but the sessions were
sparsely attended—there was greater interest in the picnic than in
religion. On the return trip Pearson in Rankin opened his heart to
me and said he had long thought that I should be one of them—the
Lutherans. To which I replied neither positively nor negatively.
S a t u r d a y , 24 June 1 9 1 1 : My mind has been wandering here and
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there, and I wonder where it will come to rest. One cannot serve two
masters!
S u n d a y , 25 June 1 9 1 1 : Good attendance this morning. In the
afternoon the first meeting of the men's Bible class—only seven
present. In the evening fairly good attendance—most of them
Lutherans!
M o n d a y & Tuesday, 26 & 27 June 1911: Read newspapers this
morning and visited Mrs. Hultquist. Later Mama and I went to
David Swanson's place and picked cherries—a glorious ride with
nature all in bloom. Tuesday afternoon we sat pitting cherries until
7:30 p.m. when Einar and Ruth arrived from Swanson's with another
bushel of cherries! So we borrowed a machine and finished the job
in an hour.
S a t u r d a y , 8 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : This evening all of the clergymen went
before the City Council and requested that Sunday afternoon band
concerts in the park be prohibited. But it did no good I am given to
understand. I think we have an unfortunate city council, although
there are many outstanding men in our town.
S a t u r d a y , 22 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : This afternoon I went to Fox River Grove,
forty miles northwest of Chicago, where the young people of Cook
County had their picnic. The religious part was concluding as we
arrived, but then they had a sack race, three-legged race, potato race,
tug-of-war, and more. F. M. Johnson noted that such gatherings had
never occurred fifteen years previously without a "resurrection" over
the entire country. But this did not go unnoticed now either. One
man said that never before had he attended such a worldly picnic,
and another replied, "Oh well, more and more things are watered
down among us."
S u n d a y , 23 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Left North Park at 8:30 a.m. after breakfast
with Lydell. Preached at the Austin church this morning on Matthew
5:19-21, "Christ and the law." When we got home, Mrs. Pohl said that
it was a splendid sermon the likes of which one seldom hears. The
Pohls were here at the Eggans. At present he is very frail in body
but quite lively in spirit. This evening I spoke on "Joy in the
Lord"—for myself it was very glorious and lovely and as I was able
to understand even so for the others, too.
M o n d a y , 24 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : I had afternoon coffee with Bergstedt and
heard from him how Nyvall's opponents are working to prevent his
return to North Park. Among other things they say that several
churches are closed to him, including the one in Paxton. Returning
home, all was well here—thanks be to God.
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Tuesday, 25 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : E. O. Carlson, who is in town during my
vacation, came over here for a while. Our conversation turned to
Nyvall and then he came loaded from Erikson with a pack of rubbish
so that I got angry. Erikson had said that N. himself had taken part
in negotiations with others concerning his being called. I said that I
would write to E. and ask him if he could or would stand for his
words. Then Carlson became alarmed and began to recant, saying
that one surely can work for something in many ways. Thus he tried
to smooth things over.
Wednesday, 26 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Have begun an article for the annual
publication A u r o r a on "Manly Courage"—and another under the
rubric "Pictures of Life." This evening Carlson spoke quite well.
Tonight I was up until 1 a.m. finishing one of these essays. We shall
see if it is accepted. Carlson came here this morning and asked me
not to speak of what he had said about Nyvall—but this confirmed
my resolve and I wrote to Erikson as soon as he left. That is how I
am—"stubborn"
T h u r s d a y , 27 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Wrote to Södergren in Boston and asked
if it was true that his church is closed to Nyvall. Have worked
further on my articles, staying up until 1 a.m.
F r i d a y , 28 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Our guests for supper this afternoon were
Carl Petterson, Mrs. Englund, Fred Danielson, the Björklunds,
Lundahls, and Mrs. Bengston. Later I wondered if this could serve
any good purpose. I know perfectly well that there will be envious
hearts even after this, too, since it is almost always the same
whatever one does, it will not please everyone.
S u n d a y , 30 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Carlson preached on salvation. The
evening attendance was better than usual. This afternoon he came
over for a visit and we chatted for a while about this and that. I am
convinced that he goes around speaking ill of both me and other
preachers. This evening after the meeting Carlsten said that it was
"terribly disappointing that he was leaving." Today I have felt much
like a worm in an anthill.
M o n d a y , 31 J u l y 1 9 1 1 : Accompanied Carlson to the station. When
I got home, Pearson in Rankin had arrived and assured me that I
would not be required to attend seminary if I wished to transfer. He
promised me a call to Winona if I were willing to accept!
Now I have the worst kind of headache and worry. Mama and Ethel
are greatly against this. My wish is to do God's will. Why did this
come just when I am in my greatest dilemma? Oh, that I knew God's
wish! Lord, show me Your path!
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F r i d a y , 4 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Today a letter from Erikson in which he
explains his position with respect to Nyvall, which quite simply can
be stated, "Welcome! said the wolf to the goat."
S a t u r d a y , 5 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Have tried to study but have no
inclination to do so. I only ponder whether or not I should leave the
Covenant. I feel myself so involved in it—and yet there is so much
with which I am highly disappointed. On the other hand it is old
love that draws me. It struck me this afternoon—if one has done
something in life that one regrets and God seems to be providing the
opportunity to redo it, should I then hesitate to make my move?
M o n d a y , 7 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Visited Hemdahl this evening and
enjoyed his pictures of Palestine, some of which he had purchased,
others he had taken himself. We also spoke about my situation. He
warmly encouraged me to join them without any hesitation. Ack ja,
if it were as easily done as it seems proper to do, then there would
be no problems. I am adrift in the worst breakers.
Wednesday, 9 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : This morning I went to Chicago. Got
to the doctor's office just as he was leaving. We decided that I would
return there at 2 p.m. tomorrow. Went then to North Park in the
company of Hjerpe. I got to stay at Albin Johnson's place, since they
had not yet opened the dormitory. This evening I went to F. M.
Johnson's and took part in their weekly meeting. Quite a few people
attended. Johnson spoke about justification by faith. I continued on
the same subject, and it was unusually easy to speak—edifying to a
high degree.
F r i d a y , 11 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Was at North Park for most of the day.
This morning I spoke with Carl Hanson about my contemplated entry
into the Augustana Synod. He said that he did not want to tell me
to do this, since he would then be unfaithful to the Covenant he
serves. Neither did he wish to tell me to refrain from this, for that
would be unfair to me. I understood just what he meant. Well,
exactly what should I do?
S a t u r d a y , 12 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Dinner today at the Nybergs—then
went with Baring and Andrew Johnson by boat out on the lake to see
the flying machines. At 4 p.m. we saw "the birdmen" in full
flight—eight or nine machines altogether. It was certainly a most
wonderful sight. Towards evening several flew directly over us and
quite near to our boat—their sounds were like harvester machines.
It was truly marvelous to have experienced this day and seen these
sights. What more cannot man now accomplish!
S u n d a y , 13 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Went to the Ravenswood church, where
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Andrew Johnson preached well on the unfaithful servant. Johnson
and I were invited to the Wallgrens for dinner. Afterwards we went
for a walk and conversed about some of our life experiences.
M o n d a y , 14 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : To the doctor, then had dinner with
Lindell. During the afternoon I spoke with F. M. Johnson about my
situation. He said he would decidedly advise me against leaving the
Covenant, because he thought I would find it to be not what I had
expected—as I myself suspect. But where—and on whom does one
not make miscalculations? I have made them here where I am—so
many that I doubt I would make that many more there, in case I do
leave. I have more pleasant memories from the time I was among the
Lutherans than I have had since then.
Tuesday, 15 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Had dinner at the Nybergs, after which
we went once more to see the aviators. We were so close we could
see both their take-offs and landings. It is beginning to seem
commonplace to see these kinds of birds in the air. But one of them
fell into the lake this afternoon and was killed. Another crashed to
the ground and died shortly thereafter. This demands many
sacrifices, but it represents progress all the same. The North Park
conference began this evening. August Johnson preached.
Wednesday, 16 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : This morning Hultgren from Joliet
gave a lecture on "Speaking in Tongues." There were many unproven
assertions and misinterpreted Bible passages used as evidence for this
movement's being of the Devil. I took exception and could not be
refuted, but rather he said that he even had indicated this in his
essay.
F r i d a y , 18 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Today I had a long conversation with
some of the preachers. They told about their experiences in various
congregations here and there. It was, however, almost enough to
compel one to pray that God would spare us from such groups of
people. I went home this afternoon at 5 p.m. Had with me the book
C h a r l i Johnson for reading material. It got so interesting that some­thing
happened that never previously has happened to me. I forgot
to get off the train when it stopped at Paxton, and I had to remain on
it until Champaign. Had to stay there until 3 a.m. and did not get
home until 4 o'clock in the morning.
M o n d a y , 28 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Spoke again with Hemdahl this evening.
He was very friendly and did not think that I should have any
scruples. But even so, I cannot escape them. Ack, this uncertainty,
how it renders me dispirited and weak in everything. How can I get
to know God's will for certain? Would that I dared to refrain!
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Tuesday, 29 A u g u s t 1 9 1 1 : Changed my mind about going to
Rankin to confer with the [Lutheran] pastors. I have prayed to God
for direction so that I might be sure and that He might close the
doors where I am not supposed to go—but have received no
certainty. Is this possibly God's way of closing the doors for me? Nå
ja (Well then), I would certainly be most happy if I could avoid this
step!
F r i d a y , 1 September 1911: Wrote to Erikson in Rockford this
morning. I stuck to my idea that he had sent out the report on
Nyvall as a deliberate untruth and asked him if he thought that he
thereby was serving God and creating harmony in the Covenant. But
regretted at the same time that we apparently have become enemies
because of this matter. Mama left for vacation today. I rented a
horse and carriage and visited Mrs. Swan, also the Göransons, and
saw Emilia. Paid Moffet $2.00 for the livery charges.
S a t u r d a y , 2 September 1911: Mowed the lawn today—went to
town this afternoon with Einar to buy him a suit that cost $12.00 and
toward which he himself had earned $7.00 at the canning factory. In
our household things have gone surprisingly well in Mama's absence,
best with the smallest ones.
S u n d a y , 3 September 1911: Fine weather and good attendance—it
was rather easy to preach today. In the afternoon we had Bible class
and seven were in attendance. But Palmberg was glad, of course,
because he got to talk. The Saldens were here to baptize their baby
this morning. Good attendance this evening—Psalm 63:3 probably a
good text about strife and tribulation—for whom but myself?
M o n d a y , 4 September 1911: This evening we had a council meeting
and when the usual business had been taken care of, Carlsten stood
up and asked what my thoughts were about the progress here in
Paxton and also w h y I am here? [diarist's italics] He said that I should
have informed John S. Johnson that I am here for nothing other than
the upbringing of the children. Then there was a lengthy dispute but
I did not let myself be amazed—how it felt in my heart nonetheless
to be attacked in such a way by one who had been my best friend
and co-worker. These are the fruits of Carlson's visit here. By the
fruit one recognizes the tree. As usual after such an occurrence, I
spent a sleepless night.
Tuesday, 5 September 1911: After today's morning prayer, it felt
as if a heavy burden had been lifted from my heart and soul. I
became convinced that I should leave Paxton and the Covenant. I
went to Hemdahl and told him about my decision, and he said that
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he would immediately write to his colleagues. He also invited me to
attend the mission meeting in Winona next week. This evening I
went to the Johnsons with Carlsten. He denied having said any­thing—
and there the deacon sat with his nose and his lie right on his
face. God surely will permit the Paxton congregation's council to
serve me even as Pharaoh's bailiffs oppressed Israel and drove its
people from Egypt.
Wednesday, 6 September 1911: Very few came to church this
evening. I spoke on David and it inspired my soul. This afternoon
I visited Gust Larson, who told me about his conversion and about
a dream he once had that was so deeply affecting that both he and
I wept. He spoke of Jesus taking him by the hand, and His hand was
so gentle that it really felt good over his entire body. Even I have
experienced the softness of that hand on one occasion. Oh Jesus, do
not release me from Your hand!
T h u r s d a y , 7 September 1911: I went to Rozene and said to him that
I did not wish to serve communion on Sunday with Carlsten's
accusations hanging over me. This evening he convened the deacons
at church, and we had a meeting then and there. Carlsten acknowl­edged
his sin and asked for forgiveness; but I became more provoked
with Rozene, for he sought only to express how deplorable things
were in the congregation. Then Danielson boasted for a while, too.
I have become truly alarmed by the whole flock, because any respect
and integrity seems totally lacking—only malice is present.
S a t u r d a y , 9 September 1911: The lesson for tomorrow is Matthew
5:43-6:4 and a very probing and heart-searching text it is—both for
me and for others. Oh how difficult not only to be silent and suffer
but also to love and pray for those who hate us. Oh Lord, help me
that I am not simply preaching for others and that I myself do not
remain a prophet.
S u n d a y , 10 September 1911: There were many at church and I
spoke on the commandment of Love and its three stages, i.e., love for
our brothers, our neighbors, and our enemies. It went well and
seemed powerful, but only a few took communion.
M o n d a y , 11 September 1911: Went with Hemdahl to the meeting
in Winona—dinner in Bloomington—good attendance this evening.
I spoke on Romans 5:1-3 and it went well. The people and other
pastors sat as though they wanted to devour every word.
Tuesday, 12 September 1911: Discussion on Galatians 5:16-26,
"Walking in the Spirit." I was asked to report briefly on my position
and my desire to enter the Augustana Synod. Frykman and
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Bergstrom were appointed to make arrangements. Had so many
compliments today for my preaching yesterday evening that I almost
have become bashful.
T h u r s d a y , 21 September 1911: Received a letter from John Nelson
in Des Moines—also a postcard from Elmquist telling that even in the
East they have political strife and unpleasantness in their churches.
Where can one find any peace and quiet!
S a t u r d a y , 23 September 1911: I have been studying P.
Waldenström]'s teaching on the Atonement and am unable to
understand what the man actually believes; for here and there he
seems to admit that Jesus died for sinners—but then in other places
he denies this repeatedly.
T h u r s d a y , 5 October 1911: Heard today that we do indeed have
sympathetic friends in the congregation. How good it feels in one's
heart to receive some understanding and empathy.
S a t u r d a y , 21 October 1911: This morning we had our annual oste
(yearly cheese-making) and there really were many who came this
time. We got nine cheeses. It rained heavily later on, so if it had
rained earlier, we probably would not have gotten a single cheese!
S u n d a y , 22 October 1911: This morning Einar served us kaffe på
sängen, since it was Franz Liszt's 100th birthday!—also our
twenty-third wedding anniversary.
M o n d a y , 6 November 1911: This evening there was a council
meeting with everything so calm and friendly as if nothing had ever
occurred.
S a t u r d a y , 11 November 1911: Early today Mama and I left for
Chicago and arrived at the Eggans in time for lunch. This afternoon
we went to Garfield Park to see the chrysanthemum
show—overwhelmingly beautiful!
M o n d a y , 13 November 1911: At the preachers' meeting F. M.
Johnson stood up and expressed their mutual sympathy for me, for
which I thanked him and then protested that I also had great
sympathy for them!
Tuesday, 14 November 1911: This morning we went out to North
Park and visited with the Lydells, Hjerpes, Albin Johnsons, and had
dinner at the Högfeldts. Later we attended a Negro church where
they were speaking in tongues.
S u n d a y , 19 November 1911 [back at home in Paxton]: The church
was well filled on one side with not so few either on the women's
side.
Wednesday, 22 November 1911: Made house calls—and everywhere
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I went it seemed as if I was especially welcome. Either these people
are terribly false or else the situation is not as critical here as I
sometimes imagine.
F r i d a y , 24 November 1911: Posted a letter to Österns] Weckoblad]
(The East's Weekly Paper), in which I chastised a certain "private
person" who wrote denigratingly about women a few weeks ago.
This evening a concert by Hultman & Holmquist—their singing was
doubtless beautiful, but the music lacked variety in my opinion.
About 300 in attendance. Later at home we enjoyed a repeat
performance that was like a saga.
M o n d a y , 4 December 1911: Am much disturbed about my annual
report. I believe it impossible for me to stay here any longer—but on
the other hand it is undoubtedly risky to resign without having a
place to go.
S a t u r d a y , 9 December 1911: Visited the mayor's office with several
other pastors, asking for enforcement of the law against s m y g k r o g a r
(speak-easies) and pool halls. He suggested the formation of a "Law
& Order League"—but this received no consensus.
S u n d a y , 24 December 1911: A beautiful day—few children in
Sunday school—few women at the service but almost full on the
men's side. Charles Anderson was our guest for supper, and
everyone was happy with their presents and the poems. The dining
room and Christmas tree were decorated beautifully—to bed at
midnight—I slept for only an hour.
Tuesday, 26 December 1911: This afternoon I went to the
Lindquists and was encouraged to hear that they fully sympathize
with us. I was also assured that the congregation as a whole is fond
of us, even though some are working to get us to leave.
T h u r s d a y , 28 December 1911: Today I have finished my annual
report and written an article for Weckobladet, "A New Year's Greet­ing."
I also sent my insurance payment to Peoria, $34.08.
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M o n d a y , 1 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : Well, the annual meeting is over and it
seemed as if both friends and enemies had gathered. Everything
went, however, in an exceedingly orderly fashion; my enemies had
no opportunities for any outbursts and my friends did not need to
come to my defense.
Tuesday, 2 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : Heard today that my enemies had brewed
julöl (Christmas ale) for me and that my friends were there to help
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me drink. But since with my report I had struck the tap from the
keg, the beer had flowed out beforehand.
Wednesday, 3 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : After the meeting this evening
Danielson pressed me for money.
T h u r s d a y , 4 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : Visited the Lindquists and as usual was
well received and shown great sympathy. They understand the
situation for what it is.
F r i d a y , 5 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : At the Larsons I learned that Carlsten had
been there and embittered them against me; it can be perceived when
the likes of these have been out and about. Read until 1 a.m. The
V i c a r of W a k e f i e l d , a masterful description of human nature.
The Lindstrom family in 1 9 1 2,
front row, I. to r., R u t h , R a y m o n d , V e r n o n , E t h e l , R u d o l p h , Gustaf Torsten
back r o w , Pastor and M r s . Lindstrom, Carl E i n a r.
( C o u r t e s y of Raymond W. Lindstrom.)
S a t u r d a y , 6 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 2 : Have read in Rosenius' P i e t i s t e n (The
Pietist) about barnaskap hos G u d (childlike affiliation with God). Oh,
how he can strike down and comfort a child of God.
M o n d a y 8 A p r i l 1 9 1 2 : Today many from Paxton went to Cham­paign
to hear Theodore Roosevelt, who spoke in a park. I could hear
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almost every word.
Tuesday, 16 A p r i l 1 9 1 2 : A horrible accident occurred last Monday
night. A steamer, the T i t a n i c , struck an iceberg and sank with 1,700
persons aboard!
S a t u r d a y , 20 A p r i l 1 9 1 2 : I have been reading about the terrible
shipwreck so that I almost have become ill. What would it be like if
one had been an eyewitness? 705 were rescued.
Tuesday, 22 October 1912: Was not mildly surprised when
Missions-Vännen (The Mission Friend [Swedish newspaper]) arrived
that it not only contained my article but also that Högfeldt had
especially drawn attention to it in his editorial and had recommended
it to the readership.
Tuesday, 5 November 1912: Today was the election and I voted for
Theodore Roosevelt. Also had articles in both Missions-Vännen and
W e c k o b l a d e t — i n the first "The Youth Question" and in the second "The
Peace of Jesus." These works give me a curious satisfaction. Is this
good or bad?
Tuesday, 24 December 1912: Beautiful weather has continued for
several days now. Even this year we had our usual Christmas gifts,
but this evening I sat here wondering in my heart if we all shall
celebrate Christmas together as a family next year?
Wednesday, 25 December 1912: Glorious moonlight and fine
weather. This morning the church was filled, and some were even
in the gallery. It was not especially easy to speak at o t t a n (the early
morning worship). At the later service I spoke on Luke 2:15-20 and
it went well—even though there were only about twenty-five in
attendance, the offering totaled $41.03.
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Wednesday, 1 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 3 : Night watch with the young people and
a speech by Pamp [a visiting preacher]. We began our vigil in the
name of the Lord, expecting to have a good new year. But something
else struck me today at the congregation's annual meeting. I was
attacked by Younggren and C. Benktson, who acted like a pair of
angry dogs. Last night I dreamed there was a fat and a small-headed
snake biting me, one on my big toe and the other on my finger. Now
the dream has come true. They tried to get the congregation to vote
me out, men den gubben gick i n t e ändå (but that old man still did not
go).
T h u r s d a y , 2 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 3 : Naturally we could not sleep last night.
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Today I have done very little except for taking down the Christmas
tree and p a c k i n g away the o r n a m e n t s f o r m o v i n g [diarist's italics], all the
while wondering where we shall be next Christmas?
F r i d a y , 31 J a n u a r y 1 9 1 3 : Wrote to Edquist in Chicago that I would
not come there and preach, since it might easily seem to be a kind of
courtship.
S a t u r d a y , 1 M a r c h 1 9 1 3 : Was really surprised today by letters
from both Geo. and Ernst Svenson. The former said that Dr. Ranseen
and Dr. Heggström have promised to help me enter the Augustana
Synod. The latter promised to recommend me to take over those
congregations he has. Oh, so unexpected, and I must decide
immediately. Is this then the path that God has opened for me and
wants me to take? I have prayed that He will prepare the way where
He wants me and close it where He does not want me to go. Has He
now heard my prayer?
S u n d a y , 2 M a r c h 1 9 1 3 : While I was at church, a large bouquet of
flowers from a local boys' club was delivered—"as appreciation for
being a broad-minded minister"! Jo, jo (Yes, indeed), thanks for the
compliment!
M o n d a y 3 M a r c h 1 9 1 3 : Today I went to Westerberg [the local
Lutheran pastor] and gave him my application to join the Augustana
Synod. It has been a tough battle for me, but I did not dare to refuse
for fear of once more closing the door God has opened for me. So
now I have burned all of the bridges for any return to the Covenant.
A c k , H e r r e , may it all go well!
T h u r s d a y , 13 M a r c h 1 9 1 3 : My application to the Augustana Synod
has been tabled. First I am to leave the Covenant and join the local
Lutheran Church, then await a call from the Lutheran Mission Board.
M o n d a y , 17 M a r c h 1 9 1 3 : Wrote to both Erikson and Hemdahl in
Rockford. I am in a most curious position. Once and for all, there
must be a decision. I am tired and unhappy where I am, but not
strongly attracted to where I appear to be headed. Can it be that God
girds me and leads me where I do not want to go? If so, then am I
satisfied!
Wednesday, 28 M a y 1 9 1 3 : Went this morning to Westerberg, who
said he had received a letter from Ophiem, Illinois, inquiring about
me and giving indications that they might extend a call to me.
S u n d a y , 1 June 1913: This morning it was very cloudy, but then
as in the proverb, it became clear. May this be a good sign for us.
We were then festively received into the Lutheran Church of Paxton.
Against my expectations, I felt very pleased and edified all day long
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and through it all. God bless us at our joining, and may He use us
as a blessing among these people!
Rev. Gustaf Lindstrom, c. 1920 Ida Lindstrom, c. 1 9 20
( C o u r t e s y of R a y m o n d W. Lindstrom.) (Courtesy of R a y m o n d W. Lindstrom.)
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