An Egyptian Haarlemmeer Mom

Being Erica

It is a new show that i decided to watch, it is new for me but it is not actually new, it is actually old and it is only 4 seasons, it really nice and takes about Erica who doesn’t have her life figured out at all, everything is messed up, no career, no relationship, bad family relationships, and one day she drinks something that has nuts and go to the hospital where she meets Dr.tom, a therapist who promises to fix her life and change it and help her to be everything she wants, after a while she agrees and commits, he ask her to write a list of regrets, of things she believes she did wrong and believes if she changed her decisions in those situations her life would be better, she did wrote a really long list.

when she wrote the list i was thinking, what are my regrets ? what are the things i regret doing? so i decided i will make a list, not because i am like erica can go back and fix them, but to forgive myself and let them go, to accept myself as i am now, to be proud of her, to believe in her, i am at a very low point of my life for the past two years and those days are it’s peak. I feel that i am suffocated in the mother’s role and that i have no space to learn and create and think.

I wonder what i am regretting? and if i am regretting it? the whole purpose of the show is to make everyone see that your regrets are nothing, mostly they won’t change your life now, they just may help you see more if you looked into the situation more.

So i have no regrets, being a mother is tough and hard and draining, but it helped me grow into the person that i am now and for that i am grateful.