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Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Sooo, today was the first day of uni, and of course I had a pink notebook with me :) Tomorrow (and pretty much the rest of the semester) I'll have to go to another city to study. About 50min by bus, fun...! I have to get almost 17 different books during this course, and 7 of them are literary books! How am I supposed to read 7 books during a couple of weeks? I never read books!!!

Uhhhh tomorrow I have to get up really ealy to get my MDH- card (MDH = the school) so I can go by bus for free everyday. I hope I'll get it right away (as my cousin said) or else I'll have to pay to go to Eskilstuna... Hmm there are lots of foreigners and older people in this course...

Sooo, today was the first day of uni, and of course I had a pink notebook with me :) Tomorrow (and pretty much the rest of the semester) I'll have to go to another city to study. About 50min by bus, fun...! I have to get almost 17 different books during this course, and 7 of them are literary books! How am I supposed to read 7 books during a couple of weeks? I never read books!!!

Uhhhh tomorrow I have to get up really ealy to get my MDH- card (MDH = the school) so I can go by bus for free everyday. I hope I'll get it right away (as my cousin said) or else I'll have to pay to go to Eskilstuna... Hmm there are lots of foreigners and older people in this course...

Monday, August 30, 2010

Anyway I'm sick of feeling down, it's my freakin' b-day ffs!!! Although I think I'm about to get a fever! Uhhh this day really sucks. Hmm I gotta stay positive now, I'm 19 - which means... absolutely nothing, it's the same as being 18... It's cold and rainy, and I'm spending my b-day in bed, how depressing is that? Sometimes (if not always) I just hate living here. Come rescue me! Any volunteer? :/

Anyway I'm sick of feeling down, it's my freakin' b-day ffs!!! Although I think I'm about to get a fever! Uhhh this day really sucks. Hmm I gotta stay positive now, I'm 19 - which means... absolutely nothing, it's the same as being 18... It's cold and rainy, and I'm spending my b-day in bed, how depressing is that? Sometimes (if not always) I just hate living here. Come rescue me! Any volunteer? :/

Uuuuhh so today wasn't exactly the birthday wake up I expected. Instead of my family singing for me, my mom walked into my room alone. She said one sentence before bursting into tears; "Granddad's dead". So she sat down on my bed and I just hugged her for a while. Crying can be so contagious...

So downstairs, I met my dad and broher who said happy b-day to me and I got presents (just money and chocolate), but everyone was so quiet and sad, it felt like I was bothering them for having my b-day today.

Uuuuhh so today wasn't exactly the birthday wake up I expected. Instead of my family singing for me, my mom walked into my room alone. She said one sentence before bursting into tears; "Granddad's dead". So she sat down on my bed and I just hugged her for a while. Crying can be so contagious...

So downstairs, I met my dad and broher who said happy b-day to me and I got presents (just money and chocolate), but everyone was so quiet and sad, it felt like I was bothering them for having my b-day today.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

So I sorta changed my mind about going to Japan next month. Mom talked some "sense" into me. Instead I'll probably study this fall and then travel after Christmas. That way I'll have a lot more money. I just really need to get out of Sweden for a while. I hope I can wait until next year... >_<

Hmm, why do people think that just because a person looks a specific way, they get to treat them differently? I seriously think that very ugly people get treated better than good-looking ones, in general. I mean, no one would sexually harass a freak, right? Ok, good-looking people get better jobs (and statistics say that blondes earn more money than women of other hair colors), but I wonder how many times they get used to get to there? Why are people so prejudiced? I guess they'd say I'd have to blame myself for looking the way I do (hair, make up, the way I dress), but why am I not allowed to look like me? It makes no sense!

If I read this on someone else's blog, I'd think she was stupid and all full of herself for writing this, but I just have to write down my thoughts. Ok so some people say that if a girl dressed "sexy" and got raped, it's her own fault for dressing like that? WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?! Are we supposed to walk around in burqua or something just to avoid getting raped? What about if a man walks around without a shirt in summer or something - do women have the right to rape him just because he's showing some skin???

And since when is it okay to harass someone because she's good-looking (I'm not just speaking for myself [wow, that sounds really ego, I didn't mean it like that], a lot of girls have this problem)?!

Just because I "look like Barbie", doesn't mean you get to play with me.

So I sorta changed my mind about going to Japan next month. Mom talked some "sense" into me. Instead I'll probably study this fall and then travel after Christmas. That way I'll have a lot more money. I just really need to get out of Sweden for a while. I hope I can wait until next year... >_<

Hmm, why do people think that just because a person looks a specific way, they get to treat them differently? I seriously think that very ugly people get treated better than good-looking ones, in general. I mean, no one would sexually harass a freak, right? Ok, good-looking people get better jobs (and statistics say that blondes earn more money than women of other hair colors), but I wonder how many times they get used to get to there? Why are people so prejudiced? I guess they'd say I'd have to blame myself for looking the way I do (hair, make up, the way I dress), but why am I not allowed to look like me? It makes no sense!

If I read this on someone else's blog, I'd think she was stupid and all full of herself for writing this, but I just have to write down my thoughts. Ok so some people say that if a girl dressed "sexy" and got raped, it's her own fault for dressing like that? WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?! Are we supposed to walk around in burqua or something just to avoid getting raped? What about if a man walks around without a shirt in summer or something - do women have the right to rape him just because he's showing some skin???

And since when is it okay to harass someone because she's good-looking (I'm not just speaking for myself [wow, that sounds really ego, I didn't mean it like that], a lot of girls have this problem)?!

Just because I "look like Barbie", doesn't mean you get to play with me.

No ego pics today, just my thoughts (I have only applied mascara on one eye so far anyway, haha)...

Sooo, since all the plans I had for this fall don't seem to be happening, David and I are talking about going to Japan in September and stay there for one month. I'd love to visit again, and it'd be so much more fun to not have such a busy schedule as I had last time when I went there with people from school. So it'd be a little more than a month in amazing Tokyo! That sounds like fun, doesn't it?

Well the thing is.. we're not exactly rich (students, or at least former students...), so we can't really afford a hotel. I'd want to stay at friends' houses, but we could also stay at a hostel or something, because it's kinda cheap. I mean, we won't book anything before going there, and people say this is jus crazy talk, but why not do it?

I want to go on a spontanious trip, just like an adventure, explore, meet new people, just LIVE! People don't seem to think I can do it. I know I love spending money, and I will miss the "luxery" of home, but why wouldn't I be able to do it? Hotels are just a place to sleep and leave your luggage anyway, why would we need something expensive?

I think it'd be an awesome experience and I totally think I could do it. Why wouldn't I?? What is the reason I would fail in this?? Just because I love shopping, and I can sometimes come off as a little snobby (which I'm not), doesn't mean I can't live by the words "carpe diem"! This has been my dream for sooo long! Why is everyone trying to stop me??

They say "you're not being realistic", well since when has that stopped mankind?? Was it realistic going to the moon? Is it realistic to climb goddamn mountains just because? I say FUCK BEING REALISTIC! This isn't about being realistic, it's about going after an adventure, a dream! Since when are dreams realistic?!

I know people are trying to show me they care or whatever, but if they really cared, wouldn't they support me then? Guess what, I'm gonna prove all of you wrong, so in your face! Being realistic is just being boring.

No ego pics today, just my thoughts (I have only applied mascara on one eye so far anyway, haha)...

Sooo, since all the plans I had for this fall don't seem to be happening, David and I are talking about going to Japan in September and stay there for one month. I'd love to visit again, and it'd be so much more fun to not have such a busy schedule as I had last time when I went there with people from school. So it'd be a little more than a month in amazing Tokyo! That sounds like fun, doesn't it?

Well the thing is.. we're not exactly rich (students, or at least former students...), so we can't really afford a hotel. I'd want to stay at friends' houses, but we could also stay at a hostel or something, because it's kinda cheap. I mean, we won't book anything before going there, and people say this is jus crazy talk, but why not do it?

I want to go on a spontanious trip, just like an adventure, explore, meet new people, just LIVE! People don't seem to think I can do it. I know I love spending money, and I will miss the "luxery" of home, but why wouldn't I be able to do it? Hotels are just a place to sleep and leave your luggage anyway, why would we need something expensive?

I think it'd be an awesome experience and I totally think I could do it. Why wouldn't I?? What is the reason I would fail in this?? Just because I love shopping, and I can sometimes come off as a little snobby (which I'm not), doesn't mean I can't live by the words "carpe diem"! This has been my dream for sooo long! Why is everyone trying to stop me??

They say "you're not being realistic", well since when has that stopped mankind?? Was it realistic going to the moon? Is it realistic to climb goddamn mountains just because? I say FUCK BEING REALISTIC! This isn't about being realistic, it's about going after an adventure, a dream! Since when are dreams realistic?!

I know people are trying to show me they care or whatever, but if they really cared, wouldn't they support me then? Guess what, I'm gonna prove all of you wrong, so in your face! Being realistic is just being boring.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I started my morning with watching this video by JennaMarbles on youtube (actually I found the video on a Swedish blog, so I watched it there, but still):

Haha she's funny... and the "sad" part is she actually does look better with all that make up. I think the hair is the key to looking good though. She doesn't need that much make up, the hair does the trick to look a billion times better, right? Her eyes look way bigger with make up on though, instead of looking smaller and making her look a little sleepy. But I'm not gonna give her critique, she seems like a great girl (even though she sorta makes fun of make up and girls wearing it). Haha love the ending :)

There's also this video on how to look super duper ugly!! haha (No I'm not on youtube much, so I just found these videos).

I started my morning with watching this video by JennaMarbles on youtube (actually I found the video on a Swedish blog, so I watched it there, but still):

Haha she's funny... and the "sad" part is she actually does look better with all that make up. I think the hair is the key to looking good though. She doesn't need that much make up, the hair does the trick to look a billion times better, right? Her eyes look way bigger with make up on though, instead of looking smaller and making her look a little sleepy. But I'm not gonna give her critique, she seems like a great girl (even though she sorta makes fun of make up and girls wearing it). Haha love the ending :)

There's also this video on how to look super duper ugly!! haha (No I'm not on youtube much, so I just found these videos).

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Soooo.... umm people these days keep hating on my make up (ok like two people this month or so, and like.. no one before that). And this one random weirdo started calling me "fake", "barbie" (used it as a bad word, however that's possible), and stuff like that, so I started arguing with him. Of course I won (inofficially), but then Shinai told me to be the more mature one, so I stopped. Anyway, thanks Shinai for defending me from losers like that, you're awesome (but not as awesome as I am, sorry darling!) ~♥ Although I don't really need being defended.

Today I have to watch some childish movie with my sister... (don't let that fool you, she's 20!) and now I'm gonna let you know that soon I'll be making a video blog in spanish!! YEAH! Because I "promised" Matías. You'll see Matías, my Spanish is pure awesomeness!!

Soooo.... umm people these days keep hating on my make up (ok like two people this month or so, and like.. no one before that). And this one random weirdo started calling me "fake", "barbie" (used it as a bad word, however that's possible), and stuff like that, so I started arguing with him. Of course I won (inofficially), but then Shinai told me to be the more mature one, so I stopped. Anyway, thanks Shinai for defending me from losers like that, you're awesome (but not as awesome as I am, sorry darling!) ~♥ Although I don't really need being defended.

Today I have to watch some childish movie with my sister... (don't let that fool you, she's 20!) and now I'm gonna let you know that soon I'll be making a video blog in spanish!! YEAH! Because I "promised" Matías. You'll see Matías, my Spanish is pure awesomeness!!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Hmm I look weird when I smile like this... Anyway! Our thingy to the TV is broken, so I can't watch TV! Aaaaahhh!! They better fix it soon because on my b-day there is a new show on! I can't miss it, it's with my favorite guys (Erik & Mackan, loooove them ♥)! This really sucks... means I'm gonna use my laptop even more than before until I can watch TV again, hah! (omg, what a life I have.. xD)

Hmm I look weird when I smile like this... Anyway! Our thingy to the TV is broken, so I can't watch TV! Aaaaahhh!! They better fix it soon because on my b-day there is a new show on! I can't miss it, it's with my favorite guys (Erik & Mackan, loooove them ♥)! This really sucks... means I'm gonna use my laptop even more than before until I can watch TV again, hah! (omg, what a life I have.. xD)

I just ordered another pair of circle lenses (Barbie eye)! This time I ordered them from a Swedish website called pigtail.se, but they didn't really write much information about the lenses. If I didn't already know about them and knew people who own a pair, I wouldn't have bought them because of the lack of information.

Of course, I took the blue ones ^^ I don't really want to change my eye color that much... but I'd want a really green pair too! Maybe I'll buy it in the future... right now I need to save money... although that's not really working out for me.

I just ordered another pair of circle lenses (Barbie eye)! This time I ordered them from a Swedish website called pigtail.se, but they didn't really write much information about the lenses. If I didn't already know about them and knew people who own a pair, I wouldn't have bought them because of the lack of information.

Of course, I took the blue ones ^^ I don't really want to change my eye color that much... but I'd want a really green pair too! Maybe I'll buy it in the future... right now I need to save money... although that's not really working out for me.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

So I went to the cinema yesterday and we watched Inception! I loved that movie, it was cool! :D Now I'm going to watch Shutter Island with my family.. oh and I watched that "new" Sherlock Holmes movie yesterday as well with my brother...

So I was "reading" a Ranzuki magazine and I got inspired... Därav rosetten! :) Anyway, a few days ago I wrote an e-mail to a girl from Philippines that I haven't talked to since last year, and now we're keeping in contact again, so I'm happy! ^^

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I'm Tilde, a 22 year-old makeup loving fashion addict from Sweden (currently living in Denmark with my boyfriend and all our pets). This blog is about my everyday life including my opinions and thoughts, makeup/fashion and the beauty of life! ♡