I'm crying for you right now, monster. I did not want to hear this news, even though we knew it was coming. May he finally find ease and peace in death, and may your family find strength through all he brought to you in life.

thanks guys, I got sleep, I have cried less today. I thought I saw him in the restaurant though, coming back to our table. Dude didn't even look anything like him. And I realized just how much we used to talk, how many thoughts we shared. He didn't come here all that often, but now I realize it was maybe because I'd told him everything before he got a chance

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The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart

I used facebook to let people know, and the outpouring of stories and memories has been amazing and so very helpful and comforting. So many people have taken the time to message me that they saw how we looked at each other and we were such a team. I had no idea people knew -I though we must come across... well... completely differently, because I was always such a bitch and he was always so gentle, but that's just how we rubbed along.

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The most difficult thing is the decision to act, the rest is merely tenacity Amelia Earhart