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First off, I apologize for the choppy post. It’s past midnight and I took a sleeping pill since I need to wake up early tomorrow.

I got some much needed guidance from Jen today. I actually felt the blocks in my heart clear and get the energy flowing again.

Turns out, my dream about D was important. Jen said that even my TF’s kids were part of my soul group, and by him “paying his respects” — gosh, I need to change that phrase because that makes me sound like I’m dead — okay, “courtesy call” then, it was an acknowledgement that I was welcome in our soul group. And, of course, it had to be D, who is a mama’s boy and is naturally opposed to my presence.

Basically, they’re still together, no emotional connection, but more like brother and sister. However, between this Equinox and this — I forgot the term because really, since we only have two seasons where I live, all the changing seasons thing is actually irrelevant to my existence. It’s just either sunny or raining. Anyway, whatever it was, it’s going to happen on May 1 — which, to me, is simply Labor Day. That period though — March 20 to May 1 — is set to be a big wave of awakening and recognition of the Divine Masculine of their Divine Feminine counterparts.

If I don’t stabilize in 5D, then he’s not going to “recognize” me. Jen said I was wobbly right now, which was okay because we get that way sometimes. I said that much of my frustration was because I was already that way BEFORE the fucking session. In any case, all water under the bridge. In order to stabilize in 5D, I have to be in the present, in the NOW and just continue to be thankful — be in a state of gratitude — no matter what 3D presents to me. She said that I had to take the lead because I am the Divine Feminine. And, really, I should listen to my own readings because that’s exactly what I said also to the collective.

I did tell her about the fire in one of the malls that my TF designed. And she said that that was an important sign as well. Their egos are being dissolved by fire, like a phoenix rising from the ashes. And, again, I said that too in my reading for this week which means I should listen to myself more, lol. She even told me to tell that to the collective and I said that I already did.

As regards the remaining 30% ancestral healing that needs to be done, Jen said that I didn’t need to clear anything anymore; that I had already cleared so much it was unbelievable. And of course, I told her about Linamarie, and she asked if she was a Twin Flame. I said I did see her in other TF boards but since I wasn’t active myself because I was hecka busy, I didn’t really know her. She was just recommended and I did enjoy my first session with her, so I went for a second.

And, once again, I got advised that I need to get readings from people who vibrate higher than I do. This is the part where the eye-roll comes in. The thing is, I don’t know that until after I get the read.

And since I was pesky and needed validation, I asked her if she was sure that I didn’t need to clear anything anymore. And she asked me what resonated with me more, her version or Linamarie’s? I told her that I had already cut karmic cords with my family around three years ago and I was even given a promotion by the karmic board with that crown that they gave me. And anything that I did after that was already my free will. I could choose to leave and let them live out the consequences of not spiritually evolving, but I chose to stay. And I felt that with my presence alone, they are improving and making better choices.

So there. That’s that. At least, a huge thorn has been lifted off my chest as regards that ancestral healing thing.

I told Jen that I kind of slid back into 3D mode and went into retail therapy to comfort myself and just kept buying bags. I think my bag buying spree is over now. I’m ready to go back to my “other Facebook”. With the exception of those bags that I didn’t quite like when it got to me, the rest are going to be part of my other line of business.

The past two days have resulted in miserable ascension symptoms for me. That was after the 911 call Shamama Hunting Owl and Mystic Moon Woman made about getting off social media for three days and a light language transmission to bring us closer to our twins.

That day when I listened to the light language activation was also the 2nd day of my shark week. I am usually debilitated during my second day, but together with ascension symptoms that had me purging from almost all my orifices (vomiting and diarrhea), this one had left me incapacitated. I could hardly hold anything down and that resulted in a mostly liquid diet the whole day through. It was the same the day after although I had no choice but to sit up and get to work because I had a deadline to beat.

The energies that I had to anchor were related to the Solar Plexus Chakra and that’s probably why I had digestive issues.

We were also told to ground ourselves during these intense energetic shifts, to help ourselves and our twins who would be rather confused (if still unawakened) during these times. Of course, I did that.

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In other matters, I’m getting divine inspiration for putting up my spiritual business. My very first Reiki patient was my mom who did say that she felt the energy move through her, from the top of her head down to her feet. She couldn’t remember much after that because she was snoring deeply throughout the rest of the session.

My pregnant cousin was my next patient — oh, I’m not counting the Reiki I give my pets okay? But they’ve been patients too. We did it at the office because everyone else had left save for one other person who stood guard at the reception desk for any official business that may come in. The strange thing was that when I was doing reiki on her belly, the fetus seemed to send me messages. I had the distinct feeling that it was going to be a girl and that she would turn out all right. Next, I saw visions of how my cousin would do her best to raise her better than she (my cousin) was raised, giving her opportunities for education and all that. And I had the sense that my cousin didn’t want the baby to turn out like her who was bound by what she didn’t know of the world. And that when the time comes that the baby grew up and became more advanced than her mother, that her mother would resent it somewhat which she shouldn’t do. I’m not sure if I’m supposed to tell my cousin all this. I’ll have to ask.

When asked for feedback, my cousin said that her breathing was improved. She initially had trouble breathing due to a cold prior to the session. She could also feel the heat emanating from my palms and that during the times when I placed my hand on her belly, the baby was very restless. She felt very relaxed and, in her words, felt like she got rid of a lot of toxins after the session.

As for me, I feel loads better and lighter after I do a reiki session. It feels like I’m still carrying the light. Despite my ADHD, the hour seems to pass by without me getting bored. My energy doesn’t seem to get depleted because it’s actually not my energy at work but the Life Force’s. The only strain I feel is from my own sitting/standing position while holding my palms to the body part.

Anyway, like I said, the birthing of my spiritual business is coming to a head. I’ve had inspirations for a logo and if my Photoshop skills were more advanced than what they are, I would have come up with something better by now. I’m still deliberating whether or not I should ask for the help of my artistic cousin with it or not. I do want to get my website up already. Putting it together will be my project work the weekend.

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On to the Spiders!

Very strange dream this morning — which is why I actually woke up late even though I was supposed to be early at the office to turn in what I had worked on throughout the night.

I was in the lanai of my grandparents’ old house. The lanai is open and basically just fenced off from the garden and the pool by grills. A spider egg sac blew in. I knew what it was but although I am arachnophobic in real life, I wasn’t scared. More like curious.

So I watched as the spiders hatched forth from that egg sac. The next thing I knew, little spiders were crawling all over me. I didn’t feel them, so I didn’t get that creepy-crawly feeling in my dream, but I could see them. I was just watching them move all over me, and actually pointed them out to someone else who was also in my dream.

Perspective changed in my dream and there was a close up shot of the nearly emptied egg sac. Inside I could see the “Mother Spider”, and its beady eyes — all eight shiny black eyeballs — were staring straight at me. I went back to the spiders crawling on my arm. If I remember correctly, I didn’t quite know what to do with them. My waking instinct was to fling them away or to squish them, but they weren’t all that scary in my dream so I was torn between just letting them be and stomping out what truly terrified me in the third dimension.

Anyway, that’s where the dream ended because I was getting anxious enough and woke up. All in all, I think it was a good dream, bringing positive omen. Here’s what’s been said about dreaming of spiders or spiders as an animal totem:

If Spider is your Animal Totem:This insect totem teaches you balance between the past and future, physical and spirit, male and female. She is strength and gentleness combined. She awakens creative sensibilities and reminds you that the past is always interwoven with the future. Tarantulas (and all spiders) are the keepers of the primordial alphabet and can teach you how to write creatively. Her body is shaped like the number 8 and she has 8 legs, which is symbol of infinite possibilities of creation. Her 8 legs represent the 4 winds of change and the four directions of the medicine wheel. Spider’s message is that you are an infinite being who will continue to weave patterns of life and living throughout time. Do not fail to see the eternal plan of creation. Those who weave magic with the written word usually have this totem.

Did you see how significant the number 8 was? That message was not lost on me. Eight — the infinity symbol, twin flames.

The spider is a remarkable figure of feminine energy and creativity in the spirit animal kingdom. Spiders are characterized by the skilled weaving of intricate webs and patience in awaiting their prey. By affinity with the spider spirit animal, you may have qualities of high receptivity and creativity. Having the spider as a power animal or totem helps you tune into life’s ebbs and flows and ingeniously weave every step of your destiny.

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As the weaver of the web, the spider symbolizes the spirit of creation. In several traditions, she’s the totemic symbol of the Mother, strong feminine energy. In Ancient Egypt, the spider was used as a symbol to represent the goddess of the Divine Mother, Neith. In some American Indian tribes, it is considered as the symbol for the creator of the world and by extension is associated with the female creative energy.

So what do I make out of all this? I think that this spiritual business of mine is on the right path. It is enabling the practical application/emergence of the Divine Feminine in me, and that was one of my primary missions in this lifetime — to realize the Divine Feminine. And I think this is why I feel so good after doing lightwork in line with this — it’s because it is my authentic self that I’m allowing the world to see. It raises my energy to levels of near bliss and I actually feel myself radiating light and glowing like someone in love. No wonder they said that pursuing mission will bring us closer to our twins.

And I feel the Universe supporting me in this endeavor. The ideas come quick. The suppliers who can help me manifest it are at arm’s reach. It’s awesome. So even before it takes off, thank you, thank you, thank you!

The welts and mysterious lesions began at the beginning of the week. At first, I suspected that they were either a tick or flea or mosquito bite, but when the one close to my ankle swelled to gigantic proportions, I figured a cockroach was more likely. The thing is, I didn’t know how a cockroach could get onto my bed given that my two very effective watchdogs sleep on the bed with me.

But okay, maybe they were also in deep sleep when the offending cockroach was able to get past their guard. Plausible.

Since then, I’ve doubled remedial measures to prevent it from happening again. Both my dogs don’t have ticks and fleas because of a very strong powder (own formulation, breeders trick) that we use. I had that washed all over my floors and the powder, spread on all corners. Even cockroaches get killed from it. And the dogs don’t ingest it either.

Yesterday, in the middle of the day, I started itching near my kneecap and thigh. I was wearing pixie pants so I didn’t know how I could have been bitten through what I was wearing. Again, it swelled and created a rash. Took an antihistamine before bed, and also asked my guides to let me know if this was an ascension symptom, and my dream gave me my answer.

I was at the wake of my best friend’s mom who has been dead for several years now. For some reason, I didn’t peek through the casket to see what she looked like, but other people (like some close friends) did.

We were just hanging around there, like what you’re supposed to do at wakes — keep the dead company. Then I overheard concerns of my BFF that she didn’t think enough Formaldehyde was placed in her mom. FYI – Formaldehyde is the chemical that keeps corpses from rotting and smelling.

Anyway, while we were chatting away at some corner of the room, I notice in the corner of my eye that the corpse starts to stir. I think that maybe I’m just tired or whatever, but it happens again, and I see my BFF’s mom stretch out her toes. I call the attention of my BFF to it, and, we both look towards the casket in disbelief, until, Tita (what I call her) sits upright from her casket. They rush over to her and help her up. It’s not as if she arose a zombie or what. It was just like she woke up from a long sleep and she was back to normal as I remembered her during her healthiest time. (She died of colon cancer, in real life)

I was scared and I was not scared. I mean, I should have been terrorized at the dead even moving, but it was more of nervousness at watching things unfold because it was unfamiliar territory.

All of us soon got swept up in the busy-ness of making arrangements afterwards, and I remember that they told me to wait at this other place. This part is starting to get hazy — can’t remember if my dad told me to wait or what. But I was waiting there with another college friend. Anyway, that’s when I woke up.

So there’s my answer — they are ascension symptoms related to the rise and rebirth of the divine feminine.

Will write more about this later. For now, I have to get ready to bring the little furry ones to the zoo. Later 🙂

I am giddy with joy after that reading with Candace! We had technical difficulties at first, but that was soon solved and I did get to talk to her over the phone.

So, the big news? YES, YES, YES, I AM A TWIN FLAME! Weeeeeee…..

It’s just like IamAngelics.Net said about her “crown of thorns” vision. The message of her vision was that the crown of thorns blocks our crown chakra and once that is removed, we will have a clearer connection with Source. She prayed that it be removed and said that it will all get done in a week. But after that reading with Candace (Mystic Moon Woman), I’ve already felt it starting. There’s thumping pressure on my crown chakra now even as I write this, and it’s as if all those “blocked” downloads have finally made it through a dam and are just flowing freely through me.

Anyway, back to my reading…

I cried, as I thought I would. The reading turned out exactly as my cards predicted about 30 minutes before. (I couldn’t help it; I had to “see” how it was going to turn out because I was already cracking under pressure) And the funny thing is, the Ascended Master card I got was “Come Out of the Closet”, LOL.

So, yes, I am a Twin Flame. She felt it and when she asked, out came the Two of Pentacles, her symbol for a Twin Flame. I told her that that’s what I attributed to Twin Flames in my deck too. She also said that she made it her intention to connect to other twins during her soul coaching mission work, and the fact that I was speaking to her or that I chose her to confirm is more validity of that.

When I asked her what ray I was, it turns out that I am a Blue-Golden RayTwin Flame. Of course, I’m not the only one. She identified Patricia McNealy as another one, so I think I have to check out her videos more.

Candace also spoke on the differences between Indigos and Blue Rays and said that she felt I was more Blue Ray than Indigo. But I told her about my reading and Spirit’s guidance that I was a Golden Ray and that’s how we ended up with Blue-Golden.

As for my question whether the person I think is my twin IS my twin, the answer is YES. Well, actually, the answer — if we want to be accurate about this — was more along the lines of “the soul knows”. And I’m happy with that answer. I told her a bit about my journey, the one that runs close to a decade, and that’s actually when I started crying. She was telling me more about being a twin, but most of what she said, I already knew. Still, it helps that it’s been validated by someone else.

I told her I didn’t want to ask when my twin and I will come into union because I’ve already reconciled with the fact that it will be in Divine Timing. All in good time, so to speak.

What I did take from the reading is this freedom, this feeling of liberation that’s spinning inside me right now. It’s like what my aura does when I’m pissed — it sends out fiery sparks — except this time it’s sending out little crystal hearts that float gently like dandelions in a breeze. I’m seeing this in 5D right now as I’m describing it and it is awesome! The multiverse is indeed a magical place.

So I haven’t been crazy or delusional the past six months! LOL. It’s like I’m bathing in a waterfall of confidence and I’m raring to experience, share and teach with my spiritual gifts NOW, and I mean NOWWWWWWW. LOL.

My twin is also beside himself with glee that I’m happy. The best way to describe it is, you know, when wife worries about something and hubby is trying to console her by telling her everything will be okay, and now, my twin is so pleased with himself with his “I-told-you-sos”.

So if I were to write a revised About Me, this is how it would go:

I am Yael, Starseed Angelic from the planet Lyra, Illumined Blue-Golden Twin Flame, member of the Order of the Violet Flame, Claircognizant, Healer, Lightworker, and harbinger of Divine Justice.

I think I like it. 🙂

My heart chakra still feels like it’s going to burst with love. And now, everything seems clearer. It’s like that ending scene in The Usual Suspects where Verbal Kint outs himself as Keyser Soze and you’re looking at that bulletin board with new eyes in an a-ha moment.

I know why Velanthas didn’t tell me I was a twin flame. She had to. And I’m glad she did even if it caused me tremendous heartbreak. If she just went out and told me, I wouldn’t have come into my own knowing.

I even know now why I am a Blue-Golden Twin Flame which ties in to the Divine Feminine, Sponsoring Deity that Arnold Barrera told me about before he went astray from his path. My Sponsoring Deity is Mother Mary and her colors are blue, white and gold.

I know why Angel, my former friend and destiny adviser, told me that my mission in life is to embody feminine energy and why I’ve chosen to incarnate as a woman in this lifetime.