Postscript: Earthly Trifles

"Ah! I should rather wonder that I have so
much, than repine that I have no more. I should rather have been troubled
that I have done no more for God, than that I have received no more from
God. I have not proclaimed it to the world by my conversation, that I have
found a sufficiency in Him alone, as the saints have done. How have I debased
the faithfulness and all-sufficiency of God; and magnified these earthly
trifles, by my anxiety about them? Had I had more faith, a light purse would
not have made such a heavy heart... How contradictory also hath my heart
and my prayers been? I pray for them conditionally, and with submission
to Thy will; I dare not say to Thee, I must have them; yet this hath been
the language of my heart and life."