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Ever have these moments?

Ever have a moment, where suddenly you're just thrown completely off track by the realization that she's gone? I mean, I know in my heart that she died, but sometimes I forget that she's GONE, too. Then when it hits me again, it's like a ton of bricks are crushing my heart all over again. It's such a shock. And it can happen at the oddest times. Like when I was at the mall with the kids the other day. I remembered going to the mall with my mom, and then it hit me. She's gone! She's not ever going to go to the mall with me again. And it took every ounce of my will power not to lose it and cry in front of the children.

I know what you mean, there are days that I just think about how nice it would be for one more hug or smile or anything. I think about her everyday, but some days it just hits me that she is really gone, this is the first Christmas without her, I know it is going to be so hard. Hang in there, I will be thinking about you!

Your not alone!! I get these moments when I have a dream about my mom she just has to be there (now that I am preggo they are so real). When I wake up I feel like oh strange that my mom was in my dream then it HITS me ... shes not here anymore. I break down it feels like the day she died all over again. I also feel this way when I dont know what to do about something. I am just starting to potty train my DD and I am lost so I think to myself I wonder what my mom would say sometimes actually pick up the phone and I forget. I hate those moments and know exactly how you feel.

Isnt it strange what will trigger those moments. I was in the car the other day, and had one of those. I was wanting to tell her something, and it hit me. Its been over a year and still sometimes i have a hard time realizing she is really gone.

I know exactly what you are saying. My son has been sick this past week, and as I was leaving his doctor appointment I realized that I couldn't tell my mom and tell her about it. She just passed away in November, and this was the first pediatrician appointment since her passing. Normally I would dial her number before leaving the parking lot. I do admit though that on the drive to the doctor appointment I felt her presence more strongly than ever before.

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