Sunday, December 20, 2009

I kind a like the movie. It reminds me when I was in love for the first time. It was awful;/ hahaha So far he has been the most exciting thing I have had in my life. I wish it had lasted longer. We talked some months ago and it was super complicated. It is still tough and really weird and I don't even know why I care. However, we can't dwell on the past when we have so much to look forward to. And I guess things have changed for me now. But you know what they say, the more things change, the more they stay the same.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Thursday, December 3, 2009

- If light we are seeing is millions of years old, then the stars might already be dead. But it's not just the stars that are in the past. It's everything. Even you looking at me now.

- So you're not you?

- No, I'm me. But you're seeing me one billionth of a second ago. So... everything is history. And relationships are just memories. Except for the light. Which is in its own present, our past and someone else's future.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

This weekend was Halloween and I had the best costume ever.. but the party was some sort of giant constructing -tourist-areas- coca-cola - party ( I HAD TO STUUDYYYY ;/ ). I know it sounds pathetic but between the projects, accounting, the classes and my extra projects (hahahA), I have too much on my plate already. I wish I could have two plates :) Or maybe a chafing dish :)

SOoooo..

Nothing interesting round me except I was freezing to death yesterday when I had to go to the City Center because of some meetings. Not that it's something that surprise me it's November already and I guess it will be snowing very soon.

And...I play the game Castle Age when I'm not writing my projects. I don't know how to win in the battles... they all kill me ..lol and I hate to be so bored!!! My blog is such a mess...

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Orpheus - the greatest musician that ever lived. Do you know his story?

So, Orpheus loved one thing more than music and that was Eurydice, the most beautiful girl that ever lived. But she died. She was poisoned. And Orpheus could not live without her. So he went down to Hades to bring her back. The ruler of Hades agreed, but there was a catch. If he turned back to look at her face she'd be gone forever. Just before he got to the surface he heard this rock crash behind him, so he turned back to see if she was all right. And that was it. The gates to the underworld slammed shut. She was gone forever. And he spent the rest of his life wandering the Earth alone.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

lately, I have a perfectly normal existence: working, university, art (:S) and concerts. However, I'm really getting sick of how much time I'm spending at the uni and I wonder whether I shouldn't just ignore everything :)

So the movie I watched today was " Don't Laugh At My Romance"but I got mad cuz it's always difficult for me to download the right subtitles and to make them appear on the screen. Ugh...

aand.. I started reading the book "The death of Ivan Ilyich"by Lev Nikolayevich Tolstoy - it's really great. I'm still at the beginning so can't tell you a lot... BUT I guess next week I'll be able to finish it ;] In fact I've started this book cuz I'm just trying not to think of this person..., you know... distracting myself with other distractions. But it's difficult and I'm supposed to pretend I'm not feeling what I'm feeling :/

Friday, July 3, 2009

It's been awhile since the last time I've done anything. But it's high time to finish some of my old things (hahaha isn't it strange how I just called my art) and I GUESS I'll put them on my profile on deviantart..pretty soon.

So just wait a little bit more cuz maybe I'm back for good;] I have a lot of things to show n I can't really think of a lot more interesting ways to express my passion.

And yeah.. it is friday but I had the most boring night ever. Nothing happens. I meet some old classmates talking bout their perfect life but they can't really live it that way, end of story.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

It was a great show. I'm very happy I had the chance to go and see them live in Sofia. Lately I spend a lot of time thinking bout why I go to almost every concert here. Well, what can I say.. maybe I'm a freaking fan n damn..why not flaunt it and be proud of it.. eh.. ok (?)

But I don't feel like it....

Strange, I seemed to have caught the "word-searching" sickness so I can't tell you exactly what I'm thinking:)

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

I've just watched a movie - called Alphaville. Used to think it's an old band. However, there's a movie with the same title. Although it's pretty old, I guess it turns out to be very interesting. Not amazingly interesting but still interesting. It's about a town (Alphaville) where all the emotions are forbidden [FOR SURE THAT"S HOW THINGS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE IN REAL LIFE, TOO]. For example, if u cry - they will catch u and kill u cuz it's not allowed. Ugh.. and Anna Karina is so pretty, isn't she?

I don't usually watch old movies, but this one touches me. N really... if you're sick of brooding artists - this one is for you.

Besides this, and the amount of ice-cream I eat -nothing interesting to write bout. (That sounds like the perfect way to spend the summer.)

Last months, there was some heartbreaking story round me bout which I won't write much. It's strange how it takes almost twice more time to get over it, than the relationship lasted. I wish it's not true in my case.

MMmmmm anything else to share with u:)... I told u I'll spend some time reading bout web design, photoshop etc. I have this book that I'm reading. But I get bored so I start some other book. Looks like I have to start all over again the old one....

Monday, April 6, 2009

It is written by Gerard Way (* the lead vocalist of My Chemical Romance) which proves nothing really. It could be just as tasteless as all the things I've read recently. Art is by Gabriel Ba and it's great.. no.. but interesting.

And obviously , this whole thing wasn't what I was expecting.

The story is bout 7 superheroes who reunite after their father's death( in fact Sir Reginald Hargreeves is their adoptive father). My best of them all is number 00.05 (the future). He is cool cuz he looks like a child but he is much more older and ...obviously he can travel through space.. Well, I haven't read the whole story yet cuz I hate reading in a hurry but I needed to write about it here.

You should all read it cuz it's kind of different and there aren't too much information to be lost in.

4 - Do people secretly lust after me?Song: Incubus - AzwethinkweizComments: Brandon is the Sex., so maybe people secretly lust after me. I’m not exactly surprised u know=D

5 - How can I make myself happy?Song: Tool - SweatComments: Questionable..sweat would make my life hell, or more hell!

6 - What should I do with my life?Song: Unsun - WhispersComments: That doesn’t sound too good.

7 - Why should life be full of so much pain?Song: Disturbed – The NightComments: Ah well, cuz during the night there are some bad creatures… love this song <3. *headbangs on heavy guitar part*

8 - How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?Song: Tool – Maynard’s DickComments: Now I know what I’m looking for…Maynard’s dick! That sucks in a way. I have no comment here.

9 - Will I ever have children?Song: A Perfect Circle – Sleeping BeautyComments: I will sleep all the time. So I’ll be such a lame mommy and I won’t take them to school every morning and prepare breakfast….(sign of relief all around especially cuz of the breakfast :D)

Thursday, March 26, 2009

BLUE - I love this song of APC.. it's so sweet and although it's always dificult to find out what exactly Maynard means .. I make this stupid and lame interpretation :

I didn't want to know I just didn't want to know Best to keep things in the shallow end Cause I never quite learned how to swim

Obviously, he doesn't care bout the truth, he is so fed up with everything that he prefers to pretend things are like before – perfect and simple. It's so much easier for him to stay and sink into the oblivion than to move on. In addition, he is sick with all the complex things in his life and he needs things to be easy. His past make him suffer a lot but he never quite learned how to fight with the fake and ugly people - how to be strong.

I just didn't want to know Didn't want, didn't want, Didn't want, didn't want Close my eyes just to look at you Taken by the seamless vision I close my eyes, Ignore the smoke, Ignore the smoke, Ignore the smoke

This line "Close my eyes just to look at you": well.. truly.. this is my favourite part of the song. But what does it really mean? Is it cuz he wants to stay blind for the world and things that are going on, so that she could stay with him? He's like closing his eyes for all the bad things.. and that way…in his memory she is clear, pure and perfect – the way he wants her to be.The "seamless vision" - okay, almost 5 years I thought it was SEEMLESS VISION!.. but it's seamless or leaving no trace. This is probably the vision of her.. that is only in his memory –he is obsessed with it - it’s not true and he’s living in some kind of a dream.

Call an optimist, she's turning blue Such a lovely color for you Call an optimist, she's turning blue While I just sit and stare at you

He just try not to think bout her, distracting himself with everything else. And finally, she is gone (dead or just he doesn't love her anymore) and he's relished. Blue is such a lovely color for her - cuz it represents his feelings and how he doesn’t want her anymore. Although she is so ..pretty, she lied to him, and he is better off without her.Now that she is gone ... he can be free again.. or something like that J

Because I don't want to know I didn't want to know I just didn't want to know I just didn't want

Mistook their nods for an approval Just ignore the smoke and smile

No wonder… he wants to ignore the talk and the lies (the smoke) cuz they make him feel useless and desperate.Call an optimist, she's turning blue Such a lovely color for you Call an optimist, she's turning blue Such a perfect color for your eyes Call an optimist, she's turning blue Such a lovely color for you Call an optimist, she's turning blue While I just sit and stare at you I don't want to knowTo be continued :)

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

blah , blah, blah?this day is strange. n there are some lame girls round me.. it's really boring to play nice with all of them... I see how a thousand people are relish to take down some others... what's all that for? How desperate can you be to act like that ?but... I'm kind of okay with that though:)At least I don't have to go trough my whole life, worried my best friend will humilate and betray me, cuz I know it already.mmmm let's face it-- D. hates everyone lately. No wonder I listen to Children of Bodom a lot - especially their last album... which is so... pretty:)That's all I can write today, cuz there is nothing interesting to talk about, I'm just trying to do all of my projects at the uni which makes me feel sick.def need to go back home for a day...okay goodnight (zzzz)

Monday, March 23, 2009

For those of u who love mondays, i have the biggest news ever - for me this is the most awful day of the week.

Today it was snowing n I had the most boring classes at the uni.. you have no idea what it's been like.. to sit 3 hours and listen bout sex tourism or bout the great and super cool book "Harry PoRter" pffff....

But guess that's how things are supposed to be...

The question that really bothers me today is : did 'd' think bout HIM and will she get without a fight?

p.s. was it only a day since i have this blog... and still.... I have no idea what to write here :)