Cant

I can't do this!!! I'm trying to brig myself to teach out and save myself from this.... I cannot! I cannot continue to survive this life day after day!!!! No! I need to die but i need help... I have nowhere to turn, do I? It will not be worth it and I can never make it worth it. I need to die now. I have it ready what is stopping me? Fear I guess... And just maybe he hope that someone cares. Here is tO death. It is our time now. Before or after I call for help. I need this. Death or help. Please...