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My dad found me I do rarely but it's something definately know not to listen to anymore bullet entered lower chin as you can see from pic went through my skull mysteriously went around my brain hit the inside of my upper skull and broke into 6 pieces without damaging anything and thank you very much

I shot myself underneath the chin I suffered absolutely 0 brain damage from the incident because according to my X-rays to bullet changed direction around my brain for no reason my relationship has changed mainly with my dad because before I thought there was no care from him for me but after hearing that he cried for 3 days I feel incredibly terrible and stupid that I would make such a bad mistake especially since he got criminal charges for not locking up his gun and he had to pay 96 grand in hospital bills

You're a lucky dude and you owe your dad your life. Save your family the heartache, stick around for a while. (Source: I've been fighting urges to lay my head down on the local train tracks for 15 years)

I owe my dad my life 3 times now 1 when I was 7 I busted my skull open in sidewalk would have bled out unless dad had medical training from army 2 i punctured my intestines when I was 12 and nobody knew they were punctured except for my dad ( not even me) and the third time was now

Would you literally put your head on a track? I find it intriguing the means in which people choose to end it...
And for the record, keep fighting the good fight! And also, consider the conductors.. People who are inadvertently involved in aiding a suicide suffer severe emotional consequences.

I've thought about that as well in colorado the train tracks are only like a mile away from me and the train comes like every 45 minutes its funny to know just how fast our lives could end if we choose to take it there

Well I would get some help for that and actually I really care about my life now I think some things have to happen and this was one of them I found out just how much my family cared for me through this even though I was feeling alone and now I have a greater relationship with my dad (also not trying to glorify shooting yourself lol)

Yeah man, I get it. It's just a shame you had to realize it this way. And don't worry about me, if I wasn't getting help, I'd be in a much worse situation than I am today 20 times over. Things can always get better. Best of luck, brother.

Yeah it was like 96,480 or something like that not to mention court costs and replacing the carpet in our house was 4,600 dollars fucking crazy so total he had like 102 thousand dollars in damage but wouldn't you pay 102 thousand dollars to save your moms life or maybe your dads

There's a price on everyone's life think the cure for cancer don't you think if we wanted it we would have attained it by now of course we would have we probably have but that's not in the fucking interest of our country according to politicians because of how much revenue cancer treatment is this way to make people go through suffering and pain over a dollar sign same thing with my life hospital says you are eighther going to have to accept this debt or we are going to kill your son it's a fucking criminal action sanctioned by the government

I did not have near death visions I don't even know what those are please elaborate in one of my other posts I mention nothing went through my mind only clarity I was not conscious after the gun went off but apparently my limbic brain was still functioning because I walked downstairs through the house even went outside to my trampoline continued back inside looked through every room in the house went back upstairs and laid down in my tub ( I know because of a trail of blood)

I believe gun control is a retarded idea made p by people who don't want to protect citizens but control their freedoms dad has a shotgun in his room still that explains that if you take away guns criminals can still find a way to get one leaving us defenseless

Good on you. I lost a friend to a parent's hand gun suicide a few years ago. Many of our friends still to this day say had the gun not been there, we'd still have her here. My thoughts are if you want out, you'll find away.

Glad you're a bad shot, the gumby costume is awesome, if ya ever need someone to bull shit with feel free to shoot me a message and thanks for the ama!

When I first woke up I believed I was dreaming and even for days afterward I still thought I was dreaming very vivid dreams the first thing that popped into my head was "why am I in the hospital " and no it wasn't people came into the hospital and talked to me and I don't remember them being there sometimes I still wonder if some stuff is real

I understand it being a big deal for them, a near-succesful suicide attempt is pretty serious. Of course there should always be humour, makes even the worst things a little bearable.
What went through your mind?.. right before the bullet did?

To be honest nothing And I don't mean that in the way like I wasn't thinking about my actions I mean like it was like just having a clear mind I was playing Russian roulette over and over until I lost and in the end I still won and I see what you mean about the seriousness I had to take it very serious when I spent 13 days in a mental hospital to make sure I wasn't suicidal

That's pretty brave even though stupid as well, I don't think I could ever bring myself to pull the trigger. Why did you choose to use a gun and not something less painful/messy?
Well at least if you ever get sad again you can always cheer yourself up with the thought you're one of the few persons on earth to survive a pistol round to the head.

Gun sounded quick to me it was accessible and I always thought pills would hurt more and take longer dad was only gone for 39 minutes if I was going to OD on pills I would want to do it if I had more time alone to die hanging took too much time and knife to the wrist would freak me out

Yeah a knife, pills or a noose don't seem like better options. I am fundamentally against suicide but if I'd had to choose a way, I'd choose CO poisoning. I get that some people want 'out' in certain situations but suicide is just a loss of unique and valuable personal information. No one has the same thoughts, experiences, emotions as you have and when you die it's lost. Every death is sad, I'm glad you're alive.

Do you like movies and have you seen Mr. Nobody? If you haven't I definitely recommend you to see that movie.( It's not about suicide or anything, it's simply the best movie ever.)

What were the repercussions of this? You mentioned your dad had charges pressed against him, what were the results of that? Did you spend time in a mental hospital? How old were you? I'm glad you are still here with us.

He didn't really tell me about the charges I only found out because my mom told me (they are separated now) I spent 13 days in a mental hospital I was 16 (today's my birthday) this was only 4 months ago and thank you very much

Because I was depressed parents recently divorced I moved from colorado the real city of trees if you get my meaning to Boise Idaho the city of trees I had no friends and didn't think people in general gave a fuck about me I still think many a people don't but I'm ok with that now

Not much besides I know I must have a purpose and I also have this weird theory that I am immune to death and that I may be living in an alternate reality where I survived and I think that's what happens every time we die we wake up in another reality where we didn't die until we actually die of natural causes

This is going to be a long comment so prepare yourself. My psychiatrist told me there are 2 types of suicidal behavior pronounced and unannounced pronounced is normal suicidal behaviors that people should be aware of like giving away things and ya know the normal signs unannounced is a type of suicidal behavior where the idea of suicide is buried in your mind but you cast them off of ridiculous ideas so you continue in your depressing sad little life without thinking about it much but every day it creeps back in more and more and when you have quick access to an object or dangerous item like pills a rope or a gun you may start to mess with those items daily like I did with the gun it began with me just playing with it every day and then I was putting to my head in the mirror every day without the bullets in the gun then I was loading the gun and aiming at the mirror then I started playing Russian roulette but I would not pull the trigger then I started playing with bullets and then one day I played Russian roulette by myself over and over and over 7 times until I lost and it was because I was stressed with moving to a new place with no friends and a new parent that I wasn't used to living with because my parents don't know how to act like grown ass adults and let me decide where I want to live they decided for me that's why I shot myself

i see. i'm guessing his was also unnanounced. we didn't see it coming at all, but he would always clean his shotgun every night. i guess that was him trying the idea. thank you so much! i understand a little better now. i am glad you survived and are doing well!

I personally like mint chocolate chip ice cream... Also I think the funniest thing about me doing an AMA is that people sometimes ask hilarious non relevant questions that make me laugh every time thank you