I deliberately chose to combine these two posts for two reasons: firstly because with the life I've led, my friends are my family and secondly, because I am a delinquent procrastinator who didn't find the time to write the post on Day 3. LOL.

But back to the first point. I guess one could say I have all the elements necessary to have a family: a father and mother who love me dearly, three sisters, a brother, too many nieces, nephews, aunts and uncles to count. Yet most of my family members are s disjointed that I would never be able to get more than two of them in a room for more than ten minutes without them starting World War 4 (I'm sure WWIII must have occurred already since people refer to it so often). As a result of this, I am very close to some family members while I have lost touch with a few.

I am also very selective of the friendships I keep. I can literally count my true friends on my fingers and have fingers left over for other activities (let us not go there tonight). I trust my friends completely with my life and my secrets, however few they may be. I share any and everything with my friends and have no issues in doing so. It is with this spirit that I stole one of these mentioned friends' idea to do somewhat of a 'Facebook thief collage' of my friends and family members (thank you Shiki *mwah*). And this blog takes no responsibility for any problems which may ensue from pictures stolen due to...you know the rest.

I was just updating my Facebook profile for the first time in six years when I came across this blog post I wrote on my previous blog. I am glad I got the opportunity to see this because after reading it I realize that I have grown and changed so much in these few years. Without further ado, I present the blog post in question. Please do not use it, however, to judge me as I am today because I do not believe the woman I am now is anything like the girl presented below. Enjoy! And feedback is welcome...

Twisted Lonely Spirit with a BlogIt absolutely positively sucks to be me at night. At night those awful thoughts come out...thoughts about loneliness, and lack of love, and death...and suicide. They plague me and refuse to leave until my eyes close...which they hardly ever do. When morning comes they only see what remains of my sleepless nights...my bundled up energy that I create in 5 seconds flat by just putting a smile on my face. And they think she's normal, she has problem...but everybody has problems too. I get the feeling that's not true, I have more problems than you.

Well umm...I find everything about myself interesting but I will try to single out the top 5 for sharing:

1. I transition easily - Due to living in at least ten different houses in my lifetime, living in the country yet going to Kingston schools all my life, having to deal with all walks of life and become someone that fits in in all those settings, I have found that I am able to transition very easily. I can assess a situation very quickly and morph into exactly who I need to be to survive and gain whatever information I may need. When I was growing up, I wanted to be a reporter or detective, I believe this would have been a great asset if I chose that career path, however it works just as effectively in marketing.

2. I have an extremely complicated family history - It would take days to give you full details now but the most significant facts include the fact that my father is married and has been for almost 50 years but his wife is not my mother. My mother is the same age as my oldest brother and sister (twins) and my sister had two kids for two different fathers by the time she was 19. I would not exactly say I embrace my family's past, but I accept it and I think I have learnt from their mistakes so I am a stronger person for it. I thank them for making those mistakes so I can see and avoid.

3. I write much better than I speak - Only since I started pursuing my writing, through an increase of poetry (see poetry tab above) and my blog and professional writing jobs, have I noticed that I write much more effectively than I speak. When doing oral communication in school I thought I was a great speaker. Now I realize that I only speak fluently and effectively when reading/reciting what I have previously written. Ad lib is not my friend. I am now dedicated to changing that.

4. I hated my life as a child - I was the fat girl in school. And to add insult to injury, I grew up in the country while going to a town school, so I was never part of either grouping. I felt like a complete outcast and I don't think anyone, especially my parents, ever understood what that was like for me. The only way I found to deal with it was to go to school and stay to myself, pour myself into academics and achievements so at least the teachers would like me. When I went home, I flaunted my achievements and success on my neighbours whom all attended country schools and couldn't afford the things my father got me. Only after growing up did I understand my situation and adjust accordingly. Now, I am grateful for that experience. This too, has made me a stronger person.

5. I sometimes dream of being one half of a successful and happy power couple - I tell everyone I am single and happy. And the truth is, I am. Most times I find myself thinking that the lifestyle I lead right now could never accommodate another person. It would make me very unhappy to have to compromise my goals and dreams and relaxation for someone else. My friends all tell me that I only think I am happy and one day someone's gonna sweep me off my feet and I'm going to change my mind about the single life. I've never told them this but i hope that happens. I'm kind of scared but deep down, I want that experience, but I don't want to have to compromise my own goals for it. Should I find the man that I click with in the future, I promise to love him; cherish him; never commit adultery; give him as many children as he desires; share my life, my paycheck, my bed and my body and give him everything he desires that is in my control. But I will not give up my goals. We will be the corporate world Bonnie & Clyde. Until then, I shall thoroughly enjoy singledom.

So whaddayathink? Did you learn anything about me that you didn't know before? Did you know any of these facts about me before? Do you believe some of these facts also describe your life? Let me know....

The Strange Individual

I am a University graduate who just entered into the world of work. I have crazy thoughts and a twisted lifestyle. Everyone claims my life should be a book so since I can't remember every episode of everyday and they can't all fit in one book, I figure it might be more beneficial to do this. Here goes...