Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Finally, time to breathe!

I just ended two very difficult rotations back to back... small animal and large animal internal medicine. So basically for the past six weeks I have not had time to do anything except work and sleep (the former a lot more than the later!). I am THRILLED to now be on dermatology, not because I have an interest in it, but just for a chance to breathe!

The plan for taking derm right now is that I will have some time to study for my board exam (the NAVLE) which is scheduled for November 14th. I have been studying almost every night (until the last 6 weeks) for an hour since August 1. At first I was very stressed and anxious about it, rightly so. It is the test that determines my future. Everything I have worked for since I was 6 years old decided by 6 sections of 60 multiple choice questions and 66 minutes each section (I think the numbers are significant by the way). Then a took a second and realized that:1) November 14 is going to come anyway, and stressing isnt going to do anything to help me2) The test isnt everything... if I dont pass, then I will just take it again in April3) The test doesnt actually mean anything about how I will be as a doctor... it only determines if I can take standardized examsSo I can make the choice to continue worrying about it OR just say whatever happens will happen, enjoy my life, and when November 14th rolls around do the best I can with how I have prepared, and be done. Which is what I have decided.

Since I havent had a life the past 2 months, I have made several plans during this block's amazing 9-5 schedule (weekends OFF) including Mellow Mushroom Trivia every Wednesday, camping in Helen one weekend, and actually spending some time with my WONDERFUL Husband who lives with me but never actually sees me.

On the Husband front... I think I am the luckiest girl in the world. He has been SO amazing during the past few months making me dinner, taking care of Levi, Strauss, and Chanel, cleaning, and just taking care of everything for me so that all I have to do is focus on school. Husband of the year.

Im ready for November 14th. Im ready for May 5th 2012. Im ready to start the next chapter. Ready, and excited.