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After her groundbreaking Vanity Fair article, the first thought at first sight after 10 hours of painful facial and body surgery: "'What did I just do? What did I just do to myself?'" the article recounts Caitlyn saying.

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Then days later, the regret almost vanished, until six months later. "Caitlyn wanted to be a woman her whole life, but now that it's happened, she's disappointed," says a source close to the reality star.

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One struggle is her dating life. "She does not want to date men and is still deeply attracted to women, but not many women are comfortable dating a woman who used to be a man — especially as high-profile as Caitlyn."

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Not only that, but the former Keeping Up With The Kardashians star crashed into a PR mess when she appeared on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, where Caitlyn admitted she still had a struggle accepting gay marriage, even after her gender reassignment surgery.

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Since then, she's been struggling with backlash from some members of the LGBT community. Some transgender activists claim Caitlyn is too privileged to speak for the trans experience, and others have called her a negative role model.

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"Caitlyn is really thinking twice about the decisions she made to get to this point," says a source. "Transitioning hasn't given her the life she thought it would. She even told her kids: 'I hate being a woman! I feel ugly, but as Bruce I used to be so handsome and happy.'"

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Now, the former Olympian might have to go under the knife once again to reverse what's been done to her body — including facial feminization surgeries and breast implants.

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But much to her fans surprise, not genital reconstruction. "Caitlyn has always played it coy when people ask if she's had her genitals altered, but the truth is she wants to remain a man, at least in that sense. It's just not a step she's been ready to take," the insider revealed.

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Instead of feeling happy with a perfect life, like she expected, her experience has been a far cry from it. "In many ways, actually, things have become worse for her. Caitlyn is starting to wonder if she hasn't made a gigantic mistake," the insider said.

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There's so many more details and secrets that were exposed — make sure to pick up the new weekly issue of Star that just hit newsstands on Dec. 16 to see the full story on Caitlyn!

caitlyn-jenner-sex-change-reverse-bruce-8

Photo credit: Splash/Getty

caitlyn-jenner-kris-jenner-victorias-secret-fashion-show-1

After her groundbreaking Vanity Fair article, the first thought at first sight after 10 hours of painful facial and body surgery: "'What did I just do? What did I just do to myself?'" the article recounts Caitlyn saying.

Photo credit: Vanity Fair

caitlyn-jenner-sex-change-reverse-bruce-3

Then days later, the regret almost vanished, until six months later. "Caitlyn wanted to be a woman her whole life, but now that it's happened, she's disappointed," says a source close to the reality star.

Photo credit: Splash News

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One struggle is her dating life. "She does not want to date men and is still deeply attracted to women, but not many women are comfortable dating a woman who used to be a man — especially as high-profile as Caitlyn."

Photo credit: Splash News

caitlyn-jenner-sex-change-reverse-bruce

Not only that, but the former Keeping Up With The Kardashians star crashed into a PR mess when she appeared on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, where Caitlyn admitted she still had a struggle accepting gay marriage, even after her gender reassignment surgery.

Photo credit: Splash News

caitlyn-jenner-sex-change-reverse-bruce-4

Since then, she's been struggling with backlash from some members of the LGBT community. Some transgender activists claim Caitlyn is too privileged to speak for the trans experience, and others have called her a negative role model.

Photo credit: Splash News

caitlyn-jenner-sex-change-reverse-bruce-6

"Caitlyn is really thinking twice about the decisions she made to get to this point," says a source. "Transitioning hasn't given her the life she thought it would. She even told her kids: 'I hate being a woman! I feel ugly, but as Bruce I used to be so handsome and happy.'"

Photo credit: Getty Images

caitlyn-jenner-sex-change-reverse-bruce-7

Now, the former Olympian might have to go under the knife once again to reverse what's been done to her body — including facial feminization surgeries and breast implants.

Photo credit: Splash News

caitlyn-jenner-sex-change-reverse-bruce-9

But much to her fans surprise, not genital reconstruction. "Caitlyn has always played it coy when people ask if she's had her genitals altered, but the truth is she wants to remain a man, at least in that sense. It's just not a step she's been ready to take," the insider revealed.

Photo credit: Getty Images

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Instead of feeling happy with a perfect life, like she expected, her experience has been a far cry from it. "In many ways, actually, things have become worse for her. Caitlyn is starting to wonder if she hasn't made a gigantic mistake," the insider said.

Photo credit: Splash News

star-issue-52

There's so many more details and secrets that were exposed — make sure to pick up the new weekly issue of Star that just hit newsstands on Dec. 16 to see the full story on Caitlyn!