You were a child for a while later become the person, who thinks that he/she is an adult or adult enough to be adult… Confusing but it is true. If you think that you are an adult, then probably you are in other cases, you still something between child and adult person in your deep and maybe too long goes on teenager period. I am stacked in that teenager’s period. I am not teenager any more but I can not say that I feel I am enough adult to be one of them too. At work I am architect I talk with clients and they think I know everything… silly because I still study small and big details of that subject – architecture. At parties I am not adult enough too because I get drunk very fast, I dance too much. I can drink just a black coffee and usually just without sugar, maybe it is the most adult thing what I am doing. Yes, I am working, driving, buying food and do some more stuff but I live my life and I live it not in adult role.

Today I am feeling that with my 25th birthday I changed myself little bit. I forget again as this year some my lovable singers, actors, actresses and artist birthday. I could not say nothing any where. No post in twitter or facebook… what would not be difficult to do.

Yesterday Tom Peter Odell celebrated his 24th birthday. I love his music, his blond hair, British accent and that messy way as he do everything and that creativity way and crazy style as he play his songs. I did my Master Diploma work with this talented young man’s music. Also I missed Theo Hutchcraft b-day too… Daniel Radcliffe… Emma Watson… and some more.

Before some years I sent them cards, posters, created songs and believed that one day I will talk with them alive. I still believe but I do not send anything anymore. I planed because I just want to know or believe that my artwork hangs on the wall and one time he/she watched at it.

Am I silly? Yes, I know. But I still believe that I am not an adult so I still can be whatever I want.

Now I am trying to ignore all bad things what happens around me. I just try to do not take as much attention as I was used to do it. What I can say, it is freedom. Maybe you will laugh from me but it is true. Sometimes you can not stand why did it happen… why somebody is rude with you and you know? It is not your business, it is not your problem at all. That person wants to be in bad mood. Sometimes you can ask why? but remember you could be in bad mood too, however, you have chosen to be in a good mood in that moment. It works and it depends just from you.

Do not make the war zone where it is not the peace.

Do not try to understand people just love them.

Try to shine your happiness and love and somebody will catch it and save it in themselves.

Be patient.

Ignoring is not a bad thing. It helps you to see the real things in your life and concentrate for them. Because all small things are next to us but we are too much concentrated for making war from nothing. Shine and Love!

This evening is really unique and awesome in many different ways. First of all I am on holidays or in a gap week I know that next Monday I will start my career at the new architects office, it will be 4th office where I have worked . Anyway, I know that this fabulous freedom week is given to me for feeling that life loves me and my six years period circle looks little bit different.

I am drinking the natural mint tea, it was grown by my mum in our garden. Delicious… Also I found some lovely bubble lamps, I have not remembered when they were bought, probably 10 or 12 years ago when nobody thought that it will be such a pop thing:) They are really amazing and get enough light.

However, everything, I talk about my happiness started then I did something, what I have not done before. And now I can say that if you want to feel new things, try to do something in new way, in different way, I do not… After story I got back my happiness, it was the best gift from the sky. And then you are happy you show your happiness you feel like fall in love when the universe or God or sky etc gives you more gifts more lovely moments in your life. It happened to me too. After that Wednesday, I got the new ,,life” on Thursday. I met my friend with his friends and it was really nice moment, I was calm and happy, he makes me feel like it. Also I knew that I got the new job and my bosses asked me really difficult question and I did not know answers. Would you know? ‘Tell us about your plans in 5 years period?’ What do you think to do this year?’ Do you have any plans?’ and so on… I still have not got any answers in them. I live now day and I won’t know what I will do the next week. But I am sure that it will be nice journey and everything will be alright.

Best luck to all of you and remember if have positive thoughts, you spread the right light and the universe gives you much more than you thought you should get.