Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Today I was chatting with an old good friend in whatapps and telling
her that she wrote very well in her blog and I totally LOVED it. In the
conversation, I shared that it is really pain to see someone that close to us
in pain and being accused and condemn on left right centre. She then reminded
me that not to walk with man but walk with God.

Reading that text from her is like reading the heart of God just like
God reminding me to walk with Him. No doubt that we all feel the pain because
we are human beings and we have feelings. Feeling the pain and yet could not do
anything about it but to trust God and preserve. Trusting that God sees all
these and trusting that God is in control.

With lots of encouragement to trust God every day, I have no other way
to turn to but to everyday remind my soul to trust Him. Trust that He is my
shelter, He is my rock. Trust that He in the sovereign God. Trust that He loves
me very much and will keep me away from harm. Trust that all things will work
well for those who love Him. Trust that revenge is in the hand of God. Trust
that we will have our rainbow after lots of thunder and rain.

To walk this journey with God and with lots of them with tears, my
heart started to be grateful and able to recognize the true character of those
that are around us. It is only through all these, we can see the colour of
their personalities. It do look scary but I rather to be shock now than later and not knowing that they are actually wild wolf
in a sheep costume.

Friday, September 21, 2012

In life, people come and go are the cycle of life that
we have to adapt to it. Especially in our life… We meet, we work together, we
love each other and then one of us got transfer and with no other choice, we
have to farewell and we will meet again ones awhile.

Because of this cycle, my heart started to accept this fact and learn
to move on with it very fast. But no matter how, it does hurt to say goodbye to
someone that are close to my heart because I know that by the time we meet
again, things will no longer be the same anymore.

I meet this little girl when I was in KL back at 2004. She came from
Tawau to KL to further her study. I still remember that the first time we went out, we went to McDonald for a drink. The first impression that I
have for her is, she talks A LOT… After that, we became housemate and we stay
under the same roof.

As time pass and due to circumstances, we move out. The time where we
stay together again was 2 years later when I came to KK in respond to my
calling. We were roommate back then. She was so troubled for the first month I was
in KK because almost every night, I cried myself to sleep because I miss my
boyfriend (which is my husband now) back then.

After a few months of being roommate, we move to a bigger apartment and
we are house mate again. Then she move out and then she move back in. So, on off we’ve
been in each other life for about 7-8 years. We have lots of fun together and
we laugh a lot at the same time tease each other a lot… Sometimes, we forgot
the important of friendship in our lives and we take each other for granted.

As our age is catching up and we started to have our own lives and with
lots of people coming and going, true and close friends are really hard to
find. But I am truly grateful to God that God always provide someone to walk
along with us. I am grateful that she is still in my life and we enjoy each other’s
company. We now work together and she has bought lots of joy in the office. Without
realise, time passed so fast and she has now became one of my old old friend
that I know I can look up to when I need a hand.

We’ve also been through a lot together just that when I look back, I kinda miss her out because she's not tall.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Last Monday, we have a great break chilling out of KK city to a small island
called Pulau Sapi. I have also taken a few days off to get myself back on
track. It wasn’t easy after tons of “drama” recently. All these "drama" makes my heart
grow cold and I started to ask God, how could a human’s heart be so wicked and cruel.
Now I understand why Rev Dr Stephen Tong said that one of the reason God did
not destroy devil so that human will not become devil. It is so real that all the Hong Kong drama series that I watched makes so much sense in reality. I
found myself couldn’t accept the fact that human being can be devil or maybe
worst than a devil when they have lots of hatred, anger and unforgiveness in
their heart.

Then I realise that if I do not pause for awhile and get myself back, I could
have be one of them that filled with unforgiveness and started to have hatred
and anger in my heart.

Being away from awhile is refreshing. Though I hope I can literally be
away for a week but those 3 days of being away with not many phone calls, I am
grateful already.

After a few days of break, I hope I am now gear up to continue to
flight for the truth for the truth will set us free.

p/s: Today’s encouragement - Always trust God's goodness and love, even
when circumstances went from bad to worst...

Saturday, September 15, 2012

For God (the greatest Lover) so loved (the greatest degree) the world (the greatest number) that He gave (the greatest sacrifice) His only Son (the greatest act) that whoever (the greatest invitation) believes (the greatest simplicity) in Him (the greatest person) shall not perish (the greatest promise) but have (the greatest certainty) eternal life (the greatest possession)...