The Meaning of FOG

I had a traumatic head injury a long time ago. It left me ostensibly retarded for a while. I couldn’t remember anything. I couldn’t make new memories and I had a difficult time recalling the ones I had, sort of like the movie Memento, although John G. did not rape and kill my wife, I didn’t tattoo things to remember all over myself, my memory did improve somewhat and I’m not as hot as Guy Pearce.

Memento does get a lot of things right though. In fact, it’s the closest movie I’ve seen as to what it’s like to not have short-term memory. You do need a system to be able to function. I used post it notes. I had post it notes everywhere. Memento also gets that sense of panic and confusion right. You wake up in a strange place not remembering where you are. I would have a conversation with someone and not only would I not remember the conversation, sometimes, I wouldn’t even remember the person I had it with. You repeat yourself a lot. It’s terrifying. You always feel like you’re missing something and you most likely are.

Because I was memory-impaired, my friends and family called me goldfish. It is said that goldfish have a three-second memory span. Although, in reality, they have a memory span of at least three months and can distinguish between different shapes, colors and sounds. Still, the myth prevailed and I was dubbed goldfish as an endearing term and as a way of explanation for my memory deficit: “I have the memory of a goldfish.” I had my brain FAIL before that movie came out otherwise my nickname might have had something to do with that.

To be honest, I don’t really remember the thought process behind choosing the name for this blog. I suppose I used the name Goldfish because it was easy. I don’t really identify with the goldfish as much as I used to since my memory has improved, but it’s a comfortable moniker. My memory is still a defining trait for me. I apologize for it all the time, just like Guy Pearce in Memento. “Oh, we’ve met before? I’m sorry. I was hit on the head, and I’m terrible with names and faces. Nothing personal.”

Recently, I’ve been kicking around the idea of upgrading this here bloggy business to its own URL, but the thing that stops me is the name. Some unmitigated bastard had the balls to buy up fishofgold.com. Of all the nerve! Don’t they know? I’m not sure what else I’d call this blog. I’ve gotten used to my little goldfish up there. It’s reassuring to me to come here and see its dopey eyes welcoming me. I suppose it doesn’t matter what I call it since it doesn’t really have a theme anyway. The only thing that ties it all together is me and the fish.

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I moved from my .wordpress site to another host (HostGator, I think?) through a friend who was doing the same with her blogs. I will say I get more spam than normal, and I am not sure I show up on the WordPress reader anymore, so that is something to consider for your followers. And I lost my FP widget

I like having more customization options with themes and such, and I don’t have to worry as much about overloading with my inane picture uploads. But I am also fairly new to this blogging thing and others might have more useful information to impart.

Is pez dorado an option? Fish of Au? Fish of Pyrite? Fool’s Gold-fish?

I’m afraid that I would miss the WP community if I were to move out into the big bad internet on my own. Having more customization options would be nice since I still haven’t found the perfect template.

It looks like fishofgold.net and fishofgold.org are available. I just checked Domain.com and the cool thing about it is if you want to stay with WordPress both of them are available there too. So, you may not have to change a thing.

I have a similar short-term memory problem, but it’s not to the extreme yours was/is. When Donkey threw me through the door, my brain got jumbled and I’m still working on putting the pieces back together. It really is quite frustrating. I have to write down the details of a conversation right after having it to remember the specifics later. I have to constantly go up and down to re-read people’s posts when I am commenting, and I have to re-read my own posts to figure out what people are talking about when they comment on mine.

This is one of those times where I am imagining screaming to the WP coders “WHERE THE FUCK IS THE FUCKING LOVE BUTTON??!!” Followed by a quick “fuck”
Then I remember I should act more lady like in my imaginarium and think “People of the code, whereupon does one find the love button?”
Then I remember this is all happening in my head anyway so just like the damn thing already.

Hey Foggy. Quite some journey you made there – props to you (he says, trying to be all hip US of A – why oh why?!)
I’ve looked at self hosting – I actually built a web-server once for a company and ported their biz site to WP. I don’t think it’s worth the money and hassle unless you have serious need of customising your site, adding a ‘shop’ or chat-room etc. Just my thoughts 🙂

Two things:
What a journey you’ve been on with regards to your memory.
The guy who stole your site may have been the so and so who stole my son’s comic site. What a @#$$!!!!! If he wants it back, he has to pay him $500.
Keep your title as you already have a large following.

Do you mean, just going.com through WP or getting your own hosted domain and moving this blog to it? If you are talking about your own hosted domain, it’s much easier not to transfer the name but come up with a new one, it gets complicated transferring the name. i hired someone to set up http://www.buckwheatsrisk.com for me and even though it’s his business he didn’t know what he was doing. If it was working a bit better, I love having my own website. There are way more options. You can generate an income. I think you would be amazing at running one!

you don’t loose any behindthemask is that. in fact you gain a couple options like adding word ads to your blog,. you won’t lose and followers at all, it will continue as is now for you only with a few more options and it allows you to build in google=more followers. 🙂

Reading all of these daily prompts has made me feel like my blog title is completely inadequate! It was something that I threw up there deep into the throws of a late night blog building session. This was a fantastic post! I have thoroughly enjoyed reading through some of your archives!

Here I am with my comment, late as usual!
I considered writing a post system for my website but couldn’t be bothered. Then I thought about doing the WP domain thing but it looked like a hassle.
I think you can pay an annual fee so you can muck about with the styling if you want. Not quite sure how that works.
I pay some money so that non-logged in people don’t get adverts. Not sure how much, it was like 40 of your American dol-lars or something. I don’t know how much an American dol-lar is but 40 of them doesn’t sound too much.
Great post!

Good to know. I was thinking of doing the custom design upgrade and the ad thing. That’s $60 American dol-lars though and for $99 American dol-lars, I can do the whole works. Seems silly not to do the whole thing. I’m still thinkin’ on it.