do NOT stop

Sunday, May 29, 2005

Star Wars

I saw a movie that title is 'Star Wars : Episode 3 - Revenge of the sith'. I don't like Star Wars series. Actually I had never seen that movies. I don't know the story. I just heard one speech "I'm your father". I don't want to see the movie, but my friend asking to me so I decide to watch that. I also ask to friend, "You must buy pop-corn and coke" I think that movie is very boring to me, I just eat pop-corn than take nap. I hope take a nap, but it is just dream. The movie is very noisy. I don't understand characters and speechs. I felt very boring but I couldn't sleep. I'm tired. I ate all pop-corn. I gave up take a nap than just saw the movie. I couldn't understand main character's mind. He is too young. How think that is! He has no sense.

TOEIC

Today, I took a toeic. Actually I don't interest that exam but I took a toeic class so I took an exam. Last month I didn't study much, but the result is very good. Nonsense happen. This time, I must get a good score. I said to my family, I got a good score at last exam. My father expect to me. He thinks that next time, I'll get a better score than before. I don't think like that. Anyway, I went to school for take exam with little worry. When I receive paper, my stomach makes up trouble. I felt very hurt. I can't concentrate on my work. If I give up exam, is it okay? I think and think. I want to go home and take a rest. More and more I felt hurt, I can't concentrate perfectly. I think that this exam's result is very awful. Well, My stomach knows that I didn't study?

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Letter

As you know, my boyfriend in army. 2 weeks ago, he send to me a letter. From that time, there are no letter and news from him. I'm waiting every day. Finally!! I receive a letter from him. When I read the letter, I feel sad. The sad is not about miss him. I'm very sad because he doesn't said about us. He just said "I'm tired. I miss my friends. My friends not send mail to me, so please you tell them I'm waiting." That is enough. There are no thanks or missing in. I'm very disappointment. How he do this. I send 22 letters to him. He doesn't mention that. He just missing friends. Not missing me. Doing like this, why he said to me "Waiting to me". I'm really sad. I'm crying. Other girls receive many lovely letters. I don't receive that. I want to see him very much, but from now I have to ready separate. Actually I'm very missing him. I want to hear his voice. I want to hug him and sleep together. He is different me. He doesn't miss me. He donesn't want to see me. I'm very sad.

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Religion

I don't believe in a religion. I don't interest that and sometimes hate that. There are so many heresy and religion is wants money. When I was young, my parents go to a Buddhist temple. That time, I like to go with parents. I also like Buddhist temples. I think that time is I was 15 years old. One of Buddhist said to my mother give more money is good thing. I noticed that all items and actions are related money. I'm very disappointed about religion. Nowadays, my friend who is Christian, says to me go to a church. I don't like church and I don't like religion mood. I said to her, I hate that things, but she said "I'm very sad that you don't go to Heaven" That sentence makes me more hate religion. I think religion is just human's dream. Why she doesn't understand me? Oh, please. I don't want to go there. I really hate religion things.

Friday, May 20, 2005

Greek mythology

I haven't seen a greek mythology. I don't know about that and don't interest that. In reading class, I study about greek mythology about Eros and Psyche. I feel hard to understand. Friends are say "That is very easy. How didn't know that!". Greek mythology is very complicated. All names are strange. There are so many characters in story, so very hard to understand. Today I try to read a myth. First I'm afraid that I don't understand that, but it is not come true. The stories are very interesting. Moreover, I'm very interest about art works. In the book, there are many art works pictures in. I'm very happy to see them. I feel I'm very ignorant about myth. Myth is basic item on common sense. From now, I try to know myth.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Computer with problem

I got a new ram. I don't know how insert that, so I call to my brother to help me. I hadn't check viruses. I hadn't arranging disk. Maybe during 1 years, I just using that with no management. I decide to format my disk and install again. My hard disk has divided three C, E and F. I put my files on F drive and format C and E. When I insert XP-CD, it didn't work. I call brother and ask a help. He wrestle with computer about 5 hours and he suggest to me to give up the files on F drive. I can't give up that files. All my papers, pictures, mp3 files and English study files on that drive. I spend all day to pix my computer. There is just one way left. That is to give up F drive. I don't have any other chances. I decide give up that then format all drives and set drive just divided two. I tried to contact Internet I can't do that so I call to service. On Friday, I can Internet. I'm very sad now. I miss my files. T_T

Saturday, May 14, 2005

TOEIC

I take a TOEIC exam on last month. That's result is come out today. My first TOEIC score is 515. I didn't study and I didn't ready exam. Moreover, I couldn't sleep on before day so I dozed all exam time. I receive that score, I think that is not too bad. I thik that the score is maybe 600. That's because I ready to school class, but I didn't ready to TOEIC. Furthermore I studied TOFEL before. When I watching my score, I can't believe that. My score is 745. That's amazing. I'm very happy. I call to my parents and say about my score. My parents are very happy too. My brother got score lower than me so I laugh at him. This is my first time that win to brother. I'm little worried about next exam. I studied before, but nowadays I didn't study. Many homeworks very helpful, but I learn skills that to make homework easier. I think that this time, I really have to study hard.

Friday, May 13, 2005

First letter

As you know, my boyfriend is in army. I think he mails a letter on next weekend. When he ready to join army, he said to me "Maybe 20 days later, you take my letter". After school, I arrive at home and see a letter on my mail-box. My face turns white, my hands are shaking. My heart went pit-a-pat. Small pieces of papers in an envelope. From 2nd to 5th, he wrote letters on small note. That is I bought to him. He said very missing me but he control his mind and don't give up. He said that he want to say "I love you" but he writes that words, he crying. I'm crying. I miss him very much. I want to see him very much. I write a letter to him but I can't say "I miss you and I want to see you". That's because if I write that words, he will be very sad. I want to see him very much. Everyday I see a his picture.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

chat with Ji-won

2005-05-11오후 11:00:02[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Hello ~Hye-Jin.2005-05-11오후 11:00:08[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Nice to meet you.2005-05-11오후 11:00:10[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Hi ~2005-05-11오후 11:00:16[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Me too Ji-won.2005-05-11오후 11:00:49[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_What are you doing today?2005-05-11오후 11:01:08[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Hm. I just go to school.2005-05-11오후 11:01:12[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.How about you?2005-05-11오후 11:01:34[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I also just go to school.2005-05-11오후 11:02:01[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_After school, I went to the babarian for ate the lunch.2005-05-11오후 11:02:33[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Oh. Is it delicious?2005-05-11오후 11:02:43[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I ate the a pork cutlet.2005-05-11오후 11:02:52[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Oh-0-2005-05-11오후 11:02:54[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_It was very delicious.2005-05-11오후 11:02:59[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.I envy you.T_T2005-05-11오후 11:03:42[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_After ate the lunch, I went to the room of department, and I talked with my frineds.2005-05-11오후 11:04:05[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_All day, I stay in the school.2005-05-11오후 11:04:10[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Wow.2005-05-11오후 11:05:31[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Do you know that our deparment matched football game in today?2005-05-11오후 11:05:42[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Ah, I know that.2005-05-11오후 11:05:53[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Our team is win?-0-a2005-05-11오후 11:06:02[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Are you saw the game?2005-05-11오후 11:06:45[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.No, I don't know the place;2005-05-11오후 11:06:53[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I don't saw the game,too.2005-05-11오후 11:07:02[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Did you saw? Ah, you too.2005-05-11오후 11:07:32[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I listen the result of game.2005-05-11오후 11:07:42[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Oh,2005-05-11오후 11:07:52[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Our team was lost.2005-05-11오후 11:08:08[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I'm very sorrow.2005-05-11오후 11:08:28[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.I heard that our team lost last year by 8:0.2005-05-11오후 11:08:33[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Really??2005-05-11오후 11:08:42[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Oh no.2005-05-11오후 11:09:08[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_In last year, our team was lost by6:0.2005-05-11오후 11:09:31[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Wow;;;2005-05-11오후 11:09:40[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.How about today?2005-05-11오후 11:10:03[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_In this year, a result was same the last year.2005-05-11오후 11:10:09[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Huk.2005-05-11오후 11:10:28[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.very sad story- _-;;2005-05-11오후 11:10:41[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I think to our player playing very hard.2005-05-11오후 11:10:58[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Hm.2005-05-11오후 11:11:10[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Anyway;;2005-05-11오후 11:11:16[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Do you like football?2005-05-11오후 11:12:01[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_So so, but I couldn't play football very well.2005-05-11오후 11:12:12[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_How about you?2005-05-11오후 11:12:24[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.I don't like football.2005-05-11오후 11:12:42[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I'm very like sports by only saw.2005-05-11오후 11:12:45[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Even in worldcup season, I don't watch games.2005-05-11오후 11:12:56[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Oh really?2005-05-11오후 11:12:58[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Why?2005-05-11오후 11:13:06[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Hm.2005-05-11오후 11:13:10[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Just boring to me.2005-05-11오후 11:13:17[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Hm..2005-05-11오후 11:13:20[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.I don't like sports.2005-05-11오후 11:13:25[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Ah,,,2005-05-11오후 11:14:07[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_In the worldcup season, I went to Kwanghwamun, and city hall.2005-05-11오후 11:14:16[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Wow.2005-05-11오후 11:14:18[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_It was very excited.2005-05-11오후 11:14:42[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.In the worldcup season, I was in high school.2005-05-11오후 11:15:21[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.I was 3rd grade.2005-05-11오후 11:15:30[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_My school fishied in the early, in the season.2005-05-11오후 11:15:54[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Wow. my school is always finish early;;;2005-05-11오후 11:16:12[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Ah,,Do you study?2005-05-11오후 11:16:15[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.furthermore, I coun't go school at 3rd grade.2005-05-11오후 11:16:20[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.HaHa..never- _-2005-05-11오후 11:16:39[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.I just went to theater or go to shopping with friedns.2005-05-11오후 11:16:45[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.friends;;2005-05-11오후 11:16:57[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Ah..^^2005-05-11오후 11:17:55[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I expectation the next worldcup games in germany.2005-05-11오후 11:18:01[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Oh.2005-05-11오후 11:18:15[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Is that a at 2006?2005-05-11오후 11:18:29[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_It is next year.2005-05-11오후 11:18:36[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Oh.2005-05-11오후 11:18:59[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I like beckum, owen.2005-05-11오후 11:19:13[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Do you know this player?2005-05-11오후 11:19:15[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Beckum is handsom;;2005-05-11오후 11:19:23[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Little?2005-05-11오후 11:19:31[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.I don't know Owen.2005-05-11오후 11:19:37[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Owen is very handsome.too.^^2005-05-11오후 11:19:45[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Oh!+0+2005-05-11오후 11:20:06[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Beckum is on newspaper sometimes.2005-05-11오후 11:20:32[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_By the way, What sports do you like?2005-05-11오후 11:20:38[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Hm..2005-05-11오후 11:20:42[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.sports...2005-05-11오후 11:20:53[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.maybe...nothing?2005-05-11오후 11:21:05[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Ah...2005-05-11오후 11:21:24[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.hahaha^^2005-05-11오후 11:21:27[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_^^2005-05-11오후 11:21:50[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.My family dosen't enjoy sports.2005-05-11오후 11:22:04[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Ah..2005-05-11오후 11:22:18[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I like sports by only saw.2005-05-11오후 11:22:23[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.We never watch sports program.2005-05-11오후 11:22:50[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I somtimes play the baseball2005-05-11오후 11:23:02[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Wow,2005-05-11오후 11:23:08[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_It was very excited.2005-05-11오후 11:23:17[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Ah.2005-05-11오후 11:23:36[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Baseball is only one thing that my family likes sports.2005-05-11오후 11:23:48[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Really?2005-05-11오후 11:23:56[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.but to me, that is little boring.- _-;;2005-05-11오후 11:24:03[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Do you like it?2005-05-11오후 11:24:11[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.little?;;;2005-05-11오후 11:24:17[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Ah...2005-05-11오후 11:24:37[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Sorry, the time is very late.2005-05-11오후 11:24:49[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.Oh.2005-05-11오후 11:24:52[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.No, no2005-05-11오후 11:24:58[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.time to bed.2005-05-11오후 11:25:09[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.very good time to me.2005-05-11오후 11:25:10[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_I was very enjoy chatting with you.2005-05-11오후 11:25:15[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.me too.^^2005-05-11오후 11:25:19[지원] The end.[혜진]Have to_Good bye~^^2005-05-11오후 11:25:19[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.see you tomorrow.2005-05-11오후 11:25:21[혜진]Have to_[지원] The end.bey^^

Loose control

After the mid-term, I usually feel sad. I can't concentrate my works(study), sometimes I'm abstracted. I miss my boy friend, my family, and my house. I just want to sleep and enjoy sweet dream. Actually all of these things are just my greed. I have to study. I must study. Since mid-term leave very awful result, I can't do anything. People say "A failure is success's mother". I think that is not to me. When I take one fail, I fall a big sarrow and can't come out. I think this is my big flaw. To overcome this situation, I go to libraty to study, listen light music, read a books, even go to circle and meet friends. I still feel sad. I want to comeback 'before me'. I forgot homeworks or times or classes, so I got minus points. I'm very sad. I'm very sorry to my parent.

Saturday, May 07, 2005

Brother comes hometown

Sunday is parnets day so my brother's family come to hometown. Actually, I don't like them. They dosen't like me too. I'm very uncomfortable but for my parent, I stay there. Well, I like my brother. Just still disappointed. Nowadays I try to think 'He is just other person. Not me. If he not my brother just known-person, he is very kindful to me'. My parent, me and my brother's family go to park at Kim-cheon. We separate two team. One is father and me, and other is mother and brother's family. Father and me hold hands and walk. We talk and take some pictures. Father is disappointed to brother too. Father doesn't talk to much, except to me. We are in park about 2 hours and than go to E-mart to shopping. We buy some foods and brother's son present(Well, I have to call him a nephew but I hate the title so I usually call him like that). Very uncomfortable day.

Friday, May 06, 2005

went to my hometown

Wow! straight holidays come! Thursday is Children's day. That is holiday in Korea. I don't have class in Friday, So I can enjoy straight holidays. I finish homeworks on Wednesday night. I wake up early and take a train to go to my hometown. I arrive at lunchtime. I meet my high-school friend and eat pizza. That is first time to meet when we grauate high-school. We have many talks. That is very happy time. We promise to meet again. I arrive my home. Father hugs me. He buy a new digital camera, so show me that. That is very good camera.(and very expensive) I'm desirable that but my camera is good too, so just look at that. He downloads some movies to me, so we see a movie. (Home-theater system is in there.) Mother comes at night because she has works on today. She catch a cold. I'm sad and sorry to her. She works for me, but I'm very pool marks at school. I decide to study more harder.

Monday, May 02, 2005

send boyfriend

Today is boyfriend joining the army day. I have 3 classes (These are very important to me) but I'm absent. I think that I never absent class before, but I changed my mind. There are many reasons but now I think these are my rationalization. I just like him and want to see off him. Anyway, we go to in front of training camp and eat lunch. We have little time, so we find some place and take pictures. We dosen't talk to much. Well, we dosen't cry too. We just hold hands and smiling. If he dosen't join army, we break up on the past. During he ready to joining we have been separated for a month, he feel love(?) to me than we meet again. I think there is enough time to us, but that is not. He don't have enough time, we can't say good-bye just he run to a crowd. I still sorry to him I can't say enough. Actually, I don't want to say something. I just want to hug him. I want to see him and touch him.

Sunday, May 01, 2005

visit Jin-ju

I went to Jin-ju with my boyfriend for his joining the army. He apply the air force, and the training camp is in Jin-ju. Before we left to Jin-ju, he cut his hair. That is my first time to see his short hair. I think I will feel very sad, but that time I just think nothing. I just think 'cute'. We take a bus during 4 hours. I'm very hard but he take care of me, so I'm fine. We grasp hands during in bus. That is very happy and good for me. He never take off hands. I'm very thankful. Get off the bus, we find rooms. That is first time to visit Jin-ju, so we dosen't know way and places. We find river and room too. The fee of rent is very expensive. Unfortunately, we doesn't have other way. We pay for charge and rent a room. The room is very small. I'm disappointed because the room is very small. However I draw a curtain back, I'm very surprised. We can see the river on bed. That is very beautiful view. I'm very pleased.