I forgive myself
foraccepting and allowing myself
tofear living
the word 'steadfastness' because I have concentrated and focused so much only
on the hardest parts of this process of change, and have projected them out in
front of me for as far as the mind’s eyes can see. I have not allowed myself to
enjoy and enhance the change and the steps I have already taken towards
expressing myself as thepresence and
theawareness I
have thus far managed, however little or lot that may be.

I commit myself to
stop making thisprocess so much harder
for myself by only ever being aware of the hardest parts, without also allowing
myself to simultaneously be aware of what comes AFTER the hardest parts, which
is the growth, the change, and a Life where I am actually living and expressing
ME- not my insecurities, self-judgments,fears, doubts, and everything else that enslaves and
imprisons humankind to a diminished version of itself.

When and as I see
that I am creating the experience of myself as nothing but facingconsequences, I stop, and Ibreathe. I bring myself back to awareness by reminding myself that
if I am using the moment to think/manifest this experience, then I also in fact
have the moment/opportunity to breathe, and let go, wherein I can remind myself
that such an experience can just as easily crumble away as it was never real,
and in that stopping I give myself the gift of real freedom- by standing up
from within the influence and direction of the mind, andchanging with
it/as it, to the presence and awareness that I know I am In Fact capable of.

I forgive myself
for accepting and allowing myself to play martyr to myself, demonstrating
perseverance and steadfastness mostly in the face of my self-created hardships,
which is like ‘treading water’, wherein I’ve enhanced the ‘hard’ part of this
process while denying myself the gift of life that I am able to give myself in
the ways I am currently able to give.

I commit myself to
breathe through my reactions towards the word steadfastness, particularly and
specifically thefear that
seems to take my breath away.

I commit myself to
walk this process step by step only, and not pave a path ofstruggle and
toil with my mind’s eye, which I would then manifest as my actual experience of
myself within and without.

I commit myself to
face and begin and continue to stop my enslavement to the mind-, and to the ups
and downs offeelings and
emotions, wherein I commit myself to continue stabilizing myself by pulling
myself out of lows and bringing myself down from highs.

When and as I see
that everything just ‘seems so hard,’ and my experience of myself is that of
burdened and heavy, I challenge myself to stop, and breathe. I challenge myself
to take a step back, to step away, and to bring myself back to the simplicity
of the physical, by moving myself physically, to physically ground myself, and
them to ask myself: what would I be doing right now if I were stable within
myself, how would I ideally be handling this situation? And then moving myself
to practically, physically do that.

I forgive myself
for accepting and allowing myself to create an entire experience which allows
me to more easily justify thoughts of giving up and self-doubt by only focusing
on the consequences and the hardest parts of this process.

I commit myself to
expand my awareness to also include and so to simultaneously enhance the change
that I have already managed within myself- the stability within conflict, the
stability within interactions with others, the ability to stop my racing mind
at night, the ability to direct my world/environment to one that supports me
and one that I am in control of in terms of things like finances, work,
education, responsibilities, etc. Also, being more assertive within myself,
moving myself through 'lows' to do things that are beneficial to/for me instead
of being self-destructive, getting to work on time- every day, making time for
myself to exercise enjoy the outdoors/do yoga/cook, staying calm in stressful
situations, bringing myself back to stability when things seem to be falling
apart, learning to HEAR others, learning to communicate more self-honestly, not
participating in activities that do not honour me, learning how to ask for
help, and when I actually need it, being more independent and self-sufficient,
developing self-trust and self-worth, and the list goes on.

When and as I see
that I am narrowing my awareness to only include the hardships and difficulties
of change, I stop, and I breathe. I remind myself that my mind will use/create
any situation or experience to seduce me into giving up/talk me out of continuing.
I remind myself that I gift myself the power to continue, every time I stop
myself as my mind from manipulating me and how I feel within myself, by being
aware of and stopping the thoughts that subconsciously direct my focus to all
the hardships and difficulties and consequences, without giving any attention
to what I have already accomplished. I remind myslef that I can in fact utilize
these moments to assert myself as the change that I want to be, because each of
these moments is like a test, will I stand? It is within m power and control to
do so, nothing is stopping me but me.

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Hi, my name is Kimberly Kline (nee Doubt). I stand for an Equal Money System- I stand for a dignified life for all beings and I will no longer accept or allow this system of human greed and self-interest that is causing suffering, starvation and abuse for the masses. Every 'solution' we have tried so far has failed- from the United Nations to the United Church. Individual self-change and leadership by example is where it's at. I humbly commit myself to this process and invite anyone who has respect for Life to join me and walk with me, beside me, as self-willed equals, until all are free from the global compromise humanity has created for itself.
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