LAD please be wise buddy, please, I'm not sure if that idea about water fast is good at all for you at the moment.You went trough hell in last 10 days as I know, whit a lot of happenings and changes, there were some destructive actions and at the end you were kicked off your house. That is a lot. And it could be that avoiding taking pills, food and other stuff will bring more stress

You need heavy grounding and therapy with some expert in field the most at the moment...

Several years ago I went on a water fast for religious purposes. It was a big mistake. I became alternately very belligerent or very suggestible, ping-ponging between the two extremes until a friend of mine had the good sense to use my suggestible state to convince me to eat. I'm not saying that's a normal response (its not), I'm just seconding the caution to be careful, especially if you have to be in a situation where tempers can flare.

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I come here now, and I see lots of anger.I don't blame anyone for that. It is perfectly understandable.But it is not healthy for me.So I'm going somewhere else.

It seems that you may be trying to control your chaotic situation by making it more chaotic so you can tell yourself that you are in control. Please do not do this. You need to find a place to live and you need a job. Please, focus on the basics.

Trust your EMDR T. The EMDR isn't going to be a magic bullet, and hypnotherapy is even worse. Nothing you remember in hypnosis is admissible in court.

I understand the not-knowing is frustrating. I live with it, too. But giving yourself crisis overload is a recipe for disaster.

Maybe that was a typo but even so the rest all looks like slow suicide regardless. This coupled with your efforts to permanently disable your GI tract... It makes me wonder how much of this is a "cry for help".

LAD what is happening there buddy?Please can you slow down a little bit?Please think how to be supportive to self and caring. You know just like diaper thing not destructive and hurting self

I think that we have more than enough reasons to be concerned for you, is so difficult to acknowledge and accept that you are in some terrible spot and that you need immediate help ?Please think to call that your T or social worker or someone from that ward and speak about all things that are you doing at the moment and that you've done in last two weeks?

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