Wednesday, November 30, 2005

I trusted youThen this you doFor a first I am scaredI feel so impairedI can't even sleepAfraid you will creepInto my room you will comeAnd I will become a victimI fear to fall into sleep to deepFor I fear you shall leapAnd take my innocenceRemove my essenceI shall become a hollow shellNothing more to tellYou have become my first fearFor you have made my life unclear

Friday, November 25, 2005

You all tried to help meYou wouldn't leave me beNow I think of what would have comeIf what I wanted was doneFrom up above I would watchAs they lit that single matchI would scream when it hit the strawMy mother with feelings so rawWould watch as the pyre got higherThose tears would never tireAs my beloved flames destroyed all that was meI realize what would beIf I did what I threatenedA life would have endedA flicker of life forever goneNever able belongNow I leave you in doubtWhat was this written aboutWas it about a life endingOr a life beginning

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Every night I sneak outEach time by a different routeI do it just to see youBecause you are always trueNight by night my infatuation growsYet still nobody knowsYou brought me backKept me on this trackEvery night I just stare into youOnly me and you knewThose nights when you are hidden from viewMy heart throbs for just a glimpse of youI shall see you soonFor you are the moon

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

You tell me no,I wish for yes,You don’t want to bring pain,You wish for what’s best,I day-dream, think, and wonder all about you,I truly don’t know how I’d live without you,Me and my dad, we get into fights,But it’s the thought of youthat keeps me going through these nights,You don’t understand how I feel, or maybe you do,My point is, I Love YouI dream of the day that you’ll say yes,I can’t believe I’m getting this off my chest,The pain you would impart wouldn’t be bad,No I wouldn’t like it, but eventually I shouldn’t be sadWe would still be friends, nothing more,My heart wouldn’t be screaming, crying, and sore,These are my emotions, believe it or not,Please don’t leave this world,You’re all that I’ve got.

Today I saw you againI couldn't hold it inI walked to a windowI was back to my lowAs I watched the snow fallI realized I had lost it allI'll never return to normalI was always so formalOnly once did you see me cryThose tears could not lieYet even more continue to fallI sit waiting patiently for your callYou have never left my thoughtsI barely hold back these onslaughtsOf powerful raw emotionFor my heart you have stolenI will always love youFor you I will always be true

Sunday, November 13, 2005

You say you'll do anythingThat your heart is achingI don't want to hurt youI could never be trueYet you still want meHow could that beI warn you just to stay awayBefore you mislayThat which is most importantDo not wish for what isn't presentMy only wish is to disappearIts your pain that I fearDo not hold me dearFor I do not wish to be held

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

I can't take it anymoreI just wanna walk through that doorI try to hide within my own headBut I am always brought back with dreadA rubber room seems so appealing to meI wish you would all just leave me beEveryday I go through my classesAlways reminded of these gashesNobody realized I hurt so muchNobody knew I had lost touchMy dreams are becoming more realMy body barely able to feelLife is becoming less belivableEvery day more trivialWhy can't I just end itMy feelings so hard to admitMy mind is getting more blurryDreams becoming more bloodyI barely make it homeIts like im moving through foamI am rarely able to sleepI believe things like to creepIm going to lose my mindReality harder to find