i feel so aliveso caught up in the momenti forget how to tryit's all just genuineit's all amazingfor now

before i go back homebefore i leavebefore i realize i have nowherei can truly call my owni'm so caught up in the drugs i forgeti'm just alone in the worldit's all about nowits all about escaping all the things that i've been through

i forget how to livewithout the vicodinmixed with vodka and rumi forget how to live without supplementary help

I enjoy the way your hairIs always kind of everywhereAnd the way your mind is like that tooAs if everywhere is nowhere for youThe way you explain so nicelyJust what you have to say, preciselyWhile your smile, beaming like an eclipseHides conversations behind your lipsSo thoughtful, so understandingWith a prescence simply demandingThat I smile around youAnd so, I do.

Verse II:

I miss the way your hairWas always kind of everywhereAnd the way your mind was like that tooAs if everywhere was nowhere to youI miss the way you'd explain so nicelyJust what you had to say, preciselyWhile your frown, the moon in an eclipseKept conversation far beneath your lipsYou were thoughtful and understandingWith a presence simply demandingThat I be there for youBut I wasn't.

I wrote you a note at 5 am,you read it,with no reply.Before you left you asked for a picture of the two of us.I made a joke and we laughed through the pictures.But all that I could think about was how it felt to have your arm around me.It was holding me, as I held you.I wish I could go back to that moment,but it's gone.

When we said our goodbyes,it hurt so much.I wanted to tell you so many things,but time was running out.I hugged you so many times,you thought it was strange.

As soon as you walked away,my heart felt empty;I missed your presence already.We touched hands as you drove awayin that big green van.I ran after you,as did other friends.But you were gone.

I can still see your eyes gazing into mine,and your oh so sweet smile;but you're gone.Nowhere to be seen.