Sunday, November 1, 2009

I have reasons for my long absence. Some of which I feel should not be disclosed in detail here simply for the privacy for my family, but to sum it up; both my grandparents have been very ill. And no not a cold, or a flu, but rather life-threatening complications. I have been so busy physically taking care of both my grandparents, taking them to their endless doctor appointments, surgeries, and therapy; waiting 2 months anxiously to see if all the medications and therapy is working, as well as trying to plan a wedding (which is another reason as to why I haven't bought any makeup!), save up and look for a place, and all the while working a full-time job managing 8 people. You can imagine that the last thing on my mind is to get on a computer period; let alone take pictures, edit them and do reviews, as well as responding to countless emails and comments. This also explains my absence across the web, or my sporadic updates on Facebook. And yes, even though "it only takes a few minutes" to post something, I have been so exhausted and emotionally drained; and each day has become so robotic for me, that there are just some things that went on the back burner, and thus includes me even remotely being on a computer.

The feeling of watching someone close to you go into surgery, and not knowing whether they will come out ok, is scary and it's hard for me to even describe it without bursting into tears.

I apologize to all of my loyal readers who have followed me post after post, day after day, from one life experience to another. I am SO incredibly grateful to those of you for your undying support, who understand and need no further explanations from me. It saddens me however that there are some people who were angered by my lack of writing about something so petty and trivial such as makeup which pales in comparison to the chaotic and most trialing time my family as well as myself is enduring. To even going as far as attacking my sister, and some of my family members who did ME a service by offering to respond to some of you. I am sorry if any of you felt like I abandoned you, but understand I could not and would not abandon my grandparents, or any one in my family who needed me there. Everything happened so fast and all at once; hitting me like a ton of bricks. That up to now it's still hard for me to swallow and wrap my head around everything, and therefore I was unable to even keep anyone in the loop, including my friends in real life.

I am honestly not obligated to blog for anyone. PERIOD. Unless you are putting money in my pocket or a smile on my face, I owe you nothing, as I don't expect anything from any of you. I blogged to help people with swatches, new products, or the makeup-challenged, and now that I have to turn my back for a bit to help my grandparents, I feel like I am being shunned. I could have been dead for all you know, and yet it's rude that I haven't blogged?!! There are MILLIONS of other beauty blogs, and anyone is more than welcome to start their own to entertain themselves, but to seriously talk crap because one hasn't blogged, and not even knowing the rhyme or reason as to why they haven't blogged is just RIDICULOUS. IT'S MAKEUP PEOPLE!!!! When it comes to my family, they are first no matter what. I am not going to even THINK about tweeting or blogging, or updating my Facebook wall just to say "Taking my grandpa for his surgery to get the fluid out of his lungs". And if you still feel like I should have blogged about all this sooner, again the last thing on my mind. It's personal and irrelevant to this blog.

This sad situation has made me realize that life begins and essentially ends, whether we like it or not. We MUST enjoy every minute we have with those we love, because nothing in life is guaranteed. Everything is in God's hands and all I can do is pray to have one more day and one more minute with the people I love. And as I grow older, I realize that my parents, as well as my grandparents are too, getting older, and their health is deteriorating. It's now my turn to take care of the people that helped take care of me.I have chosen FOR NOW to spend my time enjoying the company of my grandparents and to make sure that they are comfortable. I hope and pray that they are still here to watch me get married, and here long enough to see their great-grandkids.

It's hard to see the two people who practically helped raise me be in so much pain and I sit here feeling helpless because I cannot take the pain away.

Being the oldest, and the only one that lives near my grandparents; I must be strong for not only them, but for myself. I have to be there in every way shape or form. I DO miss blogging, and talking to the friends I have made here since I started this, and I hope that soon or oneday in the near future, even as an escape to everything that has been going on; that I can blog again. Maybe not as frequently, but I do hope that even if I am unable to blog about makeup, that I can at least blog about other things that are important to me, or to even just get some things off my chest. I am trying to not think about the inevitable so much, and to just take things day by day...but it's hard to imagine my life without them.

Again, I want to thank you all who have stood by this blog, or even me for that matter, and for just being true friends through and through. Many of you longtime readers know that this is the first time I have gone so long without blogging, and I would never intentionally just 'stop' without an explanation. I apologize for letting 3 months go by in silence, but it's been the hardest 3 months of my life. I do hope that once I have some peace of mind that everything will be ok in terms of my family's health, that I can pick up where I left off and continue to give you all something to read. Thank you again, and I love you all.

- Vanessa

163 comments

Hi Vanessa! I AM GLAD to hear that you are okay, Sorry to hear that you and your family has been thru a lot. I don't think ANYONE should be offended by your lack of posts since you blog just for fun and to help others out. People should just be more understanding. I hope your family will all be okay and that your grandparents will be better than fine. Thanks for being so considerate enough to even provide an update for your readers :-)

Hi Vanessa I'm praying for your grandparents for them to get well. I understand since I was close to my lola and when she became ill I also devoted my time to taking care of her. I feel sorry for the people who got angry about you not blogging. Yes you are a blogger but you have a life too, and a family to take care of, and it's their problem if they don't understand that. Don't mind them and I'm praying for God to give you strength to do everything u gotta do. Take care!

I'm so sorry to hear about what has been going on and it really is immature and sad that some people would react to you in such a careless way! It's not your job to entertain them! Anyways, I wish you and your family all the best and hope you stay strong and all goes well. ♥

Hi Vanessa, I'm sorry to hear that your grandparents have been very ill. I do hope they get well soon, they'll be in our prayers. I am saddened how some of your readers oblige you to blog despite what happened.. Hopefully, with this post, they will understand and not bug you anymore.

Again, I pray your grandparents get well soon, and that your wedding preps go smoothly :)

Vanessa, I hope everything will get better soon. I can't imagine people are so upset by your hiatus to attack your family members and I feel sad for their lack of lives. I hope this doesn't stop your blogging, because you were really great! Take your time; we'll be waiting :)

im glad you're okay... and my prayers and warm wishes are with you and your family... honestly it made me upset reading how people are actually ill-willed towards you about not posting... the audacity of some ppl... i will never understand..

Wow I can't believe people have been angered over your lack of posts. It's exactly how you said it, you DO NOT owe any readers anything.

Instead of being angry over your absence those people should be grateful for your previous posts and all your hard work you've put in to this blog. The blog is not your job and it shouldn't take a priority over areas of your life such as family, a job, major occasions or events etc.

Those readers are just selfish, rude and their behaviour is outrageous.

Even if you weren't busy with a wedding, a family illness etc no one should have the right to expect you to keep up the blogging. Many bloggers have decided that they just reached a point in their life where they wanted to stop.

I for one am thankful for the effort and time you've put in to this blog which has helped countless readers in many ways and in return you ask for nothing.

Good luck with the wedding, you'll be a gorgeous bride and I hope your grandparents' health starts to turn for the better.

Vanessa dear! I will pray for your grandparents! I hope they get better soon! I am so sorry for your grandparents illnesses. You are a good person, putting your family first! Please ignore all the rude and inconsiderate comments from readers...its ridiculous how shameless some people are. You dont owe anyone anything. I will keep your grandparents in my prayers! Stay beautiful inside and out like you always have been!

Hi Vanessa! I have been a follower of your blog for more than a year now and I have always loved your posts but this is my first time to comment. I pray for your grandparents' health, and strength for you and your family in these trying times. Hang in there sweetie :)

first off just want to say my prayers r going out for you and your fam!! second, you shouldn't even have to explain yourself. that's so sad that people would attack/ say rude things to u or your fam all because u don't blog. sorry to hear about your tough situation! hope all goes well with the medical treatments!! -tingy

I'm glad you updated and I'm sure there are a lot of people who misses you. In all honesty, I'm glad you put your family (grandparents) before blogging. I know how hard it is to go through what you're going through (I lost my mother). If people don't understand there is life beyond blogging, they really need to get a life. I know I can't do much for you but if you ever need someone to listen to you, I have big ears. I am always open to listen to your struggle. I will pray for you and your family *huggles*!

I completely understand where you're coming from. I'm in somewhat of the same situation you're in as far as taking care of your grandparents goes. It's gotten to that point for me where I hardly go out anymore because doing these things have suddenly become a priority in my life.

I just wish you all the best with you and your family. I gotta admit that I do miss your blogging and your cuteness (: But just focus on the important things in your life right now because your REAL fans are the ones that will understand that.

Hi VanessaThough I rarely leave comments I read your blog daily. I admit I was worried something might have happened to you or your family so I'm glad to see you back.Some people can be so rude! It's hard to believe. They need to step back a little and put things in perspective (and get a life as well).The past months have obviously been hard for you, I'll pray that things will get better for you and your whole family soon.I'm sure all your efforts will be rewarded and you'll have both your grandparents attending your wonderful wedding.hugs

o gosh, nessa.. i figured you were busy with the wedding and stuff but i had no idea things were this trying for you :( i'm so sorry to hear that your grandparents are so ill and i wish them both fast comfort!!

it's amazing how rude people can be when they think they can hide behind the anonymity of the internet

just focus on keeping your life and your well-being in order! you have a heart of gold and anyone who matters knows this already

Don't worry about them, they have sad lives, who are just caught up in the cyber world and not the real world doing real things they have nothing better to do than just give you and others crap for no reason, just because htey are bored with their lives.

sorry to hear about what you've been through. and if you want to stop blogging, so be it! you shouldnt have to make thousands of people happy by writing them blogs, which are great by the way though you've already written enough.. I only started follwoing you before you stopped blogging and i havent gotten through them all yet. you've been so helpful and informative. we will all grow out of blogging at some stage and I think this is vanessa's time now. even if its for now or for good. Put yourself in her situation then see how you'd feel.

We sahould all just thank Vanessa for everything she has given rather than be angry cause she hasn't updated!

wow hello rant.

all in all Best wishes Vanessa, I hope your life turns out really well and I pray for you, your family and most importantly your grandparents!!!

Hi Vanessa!You are an incredibly strong and wonderful woman, taking care of those who spent at least 20 years of their lives taking care of you. Not only did you have to deal with personal and important family issues and a wedding, but you also dealt with the issue with your blog and your readers gracefully. Forget about those who have been impatient and downright rude to you behind your back [so to speak]; they obviously have no lives if all they do is read your blog and anxiously await a new post from you. Just keep your head high and do what you've been doing for the past 3 years; everything will turn out fine if you just stay positive :]

It's crazy that some people annoyed you because of your lack of writing :o it'zs just a blog, and even though i like reading yours, there are things way more important in life ! I can't help your grand-parents but I will pray for them. I hope that you and your family will be allright.

I'm so glad u posted! That's really shitty of ppl to talk shit about you not blogging! Sometimes I just wanna delete my blog cause, like you, I don't feel like I owe anyone anything! I hope everything gets better for ur grandparents.

You NEVER, ever, ever have to justify or explain your actions to anyone, sweetheart. Period. You do what YOU need to do for yourelf and your family. Those people who are rude to you will be rude regardless, so don't even waste a thought on them. Also, remember that there is life after this one, and it is much better on the other side-there is no pain or suffering or death there. I know you are suffering and I do not want to preach to you, but simply offer you some words of comfort in troubling times. God bless.

Nessa! I'm glad to hear from you ! i thought you're preparing for your wedding so I thought of giving you space and was cheering for you! I am so sorry you have to go through all those! I am praying for your grandparents and I can't help but agree with you a million percent when you say blogging is something you do and not "your job" to do it..I am so sorry some people are too insensitive

Welcome back Vanessa! I'm so sorry to hear about your grandparents' situation, hope they get well soon. It is very hard for anyone to take care of someone who needs medical care, and in your case there are two people you've been taking care of. Many kisses and hugs.

I've been a long time follower of your blog, and I will for sure keep on following it. Your blog is amazing, but we all know the internet is not the most important thing in life, people should understand that. I'm sorry you had to deal with such mean comments, some people are rude, especially on the internet, it's so much easier.I hope everything will turn out ok for you.

I just wanted to say that it so good to see that you are doing alright and I'm sending my prayers that your grandparents are doing good.

Also I don't think you have to explain to anyone about why you weren't posting, it's none of our business. This is your blog and if you don't want to post for 3 years that's your decision, I'm sure they can find another one to read.

my prayers are with you and your family during this very difficult time. there are so many people, me included, who are grateful for any time you can spare to blog. but we know that family should always be your #1 priority. don't be concerned with anyone who thinks different. just focus on what really matters and know that your true fans will support you no matter what. take care and hope everything turns out well!

I knew you were having some problems and I also imagined that some people would be rude with you. It's incredible how can they think first about make up than if you or your relatives are OK.Cheer up, all my good vibrations-Veronica.

Awww I'm so sorry to hear Vanessa, pls know that I am praying for your grandparents. I missed ur blogs, and even tho u weren't blogging, i still wud come back and check out past swatches. I appreciate you girl, forget the haters...they need prayer lol

omg i almost cried...i figured you were just busy with wedding stuff...im so sorry : ( my prayers go out to your family.

and im ashamed of those who would get angry at you for not blogging. honestly, it's probably because you're the only light they have in their lives, which is sad, but im sure they just missed you and didn't know how to express it.

i have started my own blog = ] you were definitely a part of my inspiration just because of the hard work you put into your own space! <3

Hey girl, I'm glad you are OK. I guessed you have been busy preparing for the wedding but oh my, you've got a lot of things on your plate! Since your priority is your family, we understand and hope your grandparents are going to be fine. Don't worry, you are in my following list and it's not going away.

HI Vanessa I'm sorry you've been going through so much the last few months, i really hope your grandparents will get well soon. I know the feeling of having sick grandparents... my grandfather is also sick.. but its something he cannot recover from :(

you're not obligated to blog like some people think, and i think people should be grateful that you even updated on us. I do miss your posts! I don't blog anymore but i still like reading blogs, and hopefully I'll see you post something happy soon.

Hey Darling,it's good to have an update from you.I'll keep you in my thoughts as you go through this tumultuous time. This is what life is, not always nice, not always easy. You're strong stuff though, hang in there.I'm so glad to know that you have the support of your wonderful family and friends. They've got your back.You're a stellar woman.

Lots of Blessings for you 'Nessa.Don't forget to take care of yourself too while you're doing so much for the others in your life.

Hi Vanessa!! So glad to hear from you! I'm terribly sorry about your grandparents. I hope they do recover soon and God bless them. I cannot believe that people can be so rude and inconsiderate. They should at least show some respect that you haven't blogged in a very long time. Hopefully everything will be okay for you girl!

hey Vanessa, hang in there girl & keep your head up...& youre definitely right that no matter what the situation, family is always first, so continue to do your thing...i send out my prayers to you as well as your family...stay strong <3

keeping you and your family in my prayers! Im so sorry you are going through such a difficult time- like others have said- you do you, your loyal readers will be here waiting. hope everything ends up ok!!! xoxo

Sorry to hear bout your grandparents... I do hope they get better. My grandmother just recently had heart surgery and I know the feeling. Thanks for taking the time to blog about what's been going on in the midst of what you're going through. Take care.

Hey Vanessa, I love your blog. Sorry that you've had family 'issues'. But truely they are yours and yours alone. Take your time and do YOU girlie. Life goes on. Your true followers will return when you do.

Hi Vanessa, My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family right now. I hope that everything goes well with your grandparents. Family is way more important than anything so, you owe no one anything in regards to why you haven't blogged. Sometimes people forget that life goes on out side of makeup and beauty talk.

Thank You for taking time to even write this post b/c you didn't have to and for people to be rude to you is so not fair and uncalled for.

vanessa! i hope things get okay and your grandparents get better. i understand you not being able to blog because of personal issues, dont let those who don't understand trip you up! your deserve your time to spend with your family, even if they arent in a time of need. when my grandma passed away i was just in denial because i missed her very much and i was really really sad. and when i think about my grandpa dying, who has been here my whole life, raising me, i cry. but life does have to come to an end, and we DO have to try to enjoy and live every moment of it. lots of love and i hope you feel and everything just gets better. good luck with the wedding, your gunna be a beautiful bride! i will pray for you. <3

i'm so sorry to hear about your situation :( i'm lucky in a sense that my grandparents are gone.. if they were still alive and getting worse right NOW i dn't know if i could bear it. be strong, like you are! who cares who's angry at you for not blogging! how rude!

I am so sorry to hear about your grandparents!! All this time, I thought you were just in a super busy wedding planning mode!! Hope it will all be ok soon. I wish you all the best! And don't worry about all those people :))

I'm sorry to hear about the situation with your family. I'm pretty much going through the same things that you are right now (except for planning a wedding =D); my dad just had a double-bypass surgery. It makes me angry that people can be so inconsiderate of your situation just because you haven't been blogging. With all the things going on in our lives, you realize what matters most, and I'm sure that you and I both know that what matters most right now is family. Forget about anyone else who tries to put you down! You go on and do what you need to do. There are many others out there (myself included) who will back you up 100%. I'll be keeping you and your family in my prayers. Take care, and God bless. Hope to see you again soon.

Take good care of yourself. I know how you feel as I also facing the same situation on September whereby my parent in law and my mother admitted to hospital almost at the sametimes, 2 major operations and one dengue which almost admitted into Intensive Care Unit. Is really tired but this also alert that is time to spend more on them. May your grandparent a speedy recovery.

She's ALIVE! I really did worry that something had either happened to you (yes, I even wondered if you had been killed in a car accident or something), or that the wedding plans had gone so bad that you crawled into a hole and just wanted to stay there.

I know this sounds odd, but you cannot possibly imagine how relieved I am that you're ok (physically, at least)!I'm glad to hear that you're alive and well, not dumped by the boyfriend, not hit by a train, or anything like that. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandparents though. Been there, done that, but with my own parents. Just a few short years ago, I moved my mom and dad up from Palm Springs to a couple of blocks away from me to be able to take care of them (my mother has Alzheimer's and my father's heart was failing him). I was there hours every day, and in the last couple of weeks before my father passed, I spent 18 hours a day at his bedside. It's stressfull, it hurts, it's hard. I pleaded with my father to eat, pleaded with him to get out of the house, pleaded with him to maintain some semblance of a life he once had. It saddened me to no end to see my hero become a shell of what he once was. Life really does go full circle - my parents had become my children. Then one day, I saw it from my father's eyes. I could see where he felt he'd lived a full life, did the things he had wanted to do, was blessed with 4 children and a loving wife - at 85 and a failing heart - what was there for him to look forward to? That really hurt. I didn't want to let go, but realized that he'd lived his life. It was time to move to the next. 364 days after I moved them up here, he passed away. I was thankful I was there. Spend the time you need taking care of those who need you; you'll regret it later if you don't.

I will pray for you , your family, & the people who may have hurt you in any way. Reading this tugged at my heart strings. I am also going through a similar situation. The only family living near my grandparents and taking care of both of them is harder than taking care of my two children, and a single mother at that. I get chocked up just seeing them in that condition, it's heartbreaking. Definitely take the time to focus on you, reserve your strength for your family and not on distractions, such as the negative comments made about you or your family. You are a great person to take care of your grandparents. It's obvious that you have a lot more support from your followers than you do with negative readers. Big picture, they're insignificant and you are the bigger person. I understand that it's hard to watch our family sick and helpless but in the future I know I'll feel better knowing that I was the one by their side.

Hi Nessa! it is so good to hear that u are alive and im really sorry about the hard time you are living with your grandparents. From now on, they are in my daily prayers and I really hope their health can get better. And dont pay any attention to those hard comments from people that are no sensitive and think you "own" them something. It was your idea to create this blog and im really grateful for sharing your time with us. Please, dont pay any attention to them because its more the people that love you and understand you. I really hope your family get stronger during this hard time and i truly trust in God your grandparents will recover. I hope you can have a good week.

Hey Vanessa--I don't think I've ever posted a comment before, but I thought I would this time. I had wondered if something had happened either to you or to a loved one to cause the lack of posts, and I'm glad to hear you are okay and that things are looking up for your grandparents. You are right in saying that your first priority is spending time with your family; this blog should really be your absolute last priority, and it is a further testament to your consistently gracious personality that you even took the time to reassure the faceless masses online. In no way do you deserve any of the malicious comments that people have aimed at you. God bless you, and may He grant you, your fiance, and your family, particularly your grandparents, many more happy years.

Vanessa, I had the brief pleasure meeting you at this years IMATS in Pasadena, and you were incredibly gracious!I so feel for you right now. Since June my DH had surgery on his ankle and has been out of work since. My 10 yr old DD had a case of pneumonia, then broke her elbow 5 weeks later. 2 weeks ago my younger brother(age 45) passed away very unexpectedly: AND I just got home from the peds office with my 7 yr old DS, and he has H1N1. Thanks god it's a mild case, but still. I haven't blogged in months...haven't had the time or the energy for much else but waiting on my family.I just wanted to let you know I feel your pain, sister, and will be praying for you and your family!Warmly,Laurie Gauthier-Jones

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandparents' health. While I am so happy you found some spare time to update your blog, please know that you are not obligated to do so! Your personal life is your business. Your family is the most important thing in your life. I commend you for devoting your time to them. I am sending many prayers & good thoughts your way. May things only get better from here on out. <3

Glad your ok!!! I will keep you and your family in my prayers!!! Who's talking sh!t? Do I need to cut-a-hoe?? Ignore the 'haters'!!! Blog or update when YOU WANT, IT'S YOUR BLOG!!!! Take care!! XoXO Kendall

You are a strong person and have such a great heart for being there for your family, even though you have so much on your plate. I hope that you are taking care of yourself as well. Don't let the negative comments from rude people get to you. You are doing US a favor by sharing your experiences and knowledge, no one has the right to complain about you being there for your loved ones and not blogging. Hope things look up soon and take care,

Aww Vanessa, I admit, I was wondering where you were hiding. lol. But I'm glad to know that you are okay. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. You gotta do what you gotta do. Take all the time that you need. There are so many more important things than blogging and family is definitely one of them. Take care of yourself and your family. God Bless!!!

Hi vanessa =) welcome back (even if its for a bit)! I know what you mean, the past month my dad was in the hospital doing tests and such and the last thing on my mind was to blog. and yes its fun but it is also draining to write, edit etc...remember we are here for you if you need support =)

Ugh people just annoy me sometimes!! How rude of them to attack you and your family because you haven't BLOGGED?! Wow, if they spend that much time on the computer checking out blogs, it's time to find a new hobby. In any event, I'm sorry you're going through a rough time taking care of your grandparents, we all have things that take us away from our hobbies and friends, but family is the MOST IMPORTANT thing EVER. Just delete all those inconsiderate people's comments and rest assured that the rest of us are nice and will patiently wait for new posts if at all possible! I hope your grandparents get well as soon as possible and see you get married to your sweety! <3

so good to hear from u! i understand. cherish ur family; they are more important than anything. ignore all the stupid and rude people. take as much time as you need and hope to see u blogging again soon!

Hi Vanessa! I hope and pray that your family get well soon. I know what you're going through coz I have been through those tough times too when my grandparents and great grandparent got so seriously ill. Just try to be as strong as you can. Don't worry about us..we understand..Keep safe and strong Vanessa! God bless

aww i hope you get lots of rest soon..i can totally relate dear..i'm very much close to my grandparents on both sides because i literally grew up with them..i feel closer to them than my parents..when my dad's mom got sick of cancer it was like dying for me as well.. anyway, i hope everything goes well as God wants it to be..we all know that everything is in His hands..will include you and your family in my prayers..stay strong, we'll still be here when everything's alright for you..

So sorry that youa nd tyour family are going through though times. However, I would not even respond to the negative people. Take that energy and invest it in your personal life. I will keep your family in my prayers.

I hope your life gets less hectic. I will definitely keep your grandparents in my prayers. Don't worry about us, we will be right here when you come back. Take all the time you need to decompress and focus on more important things. Haters will always be haters.

oh honey! i know you must be going through such a rough time right now! pls don't listen to those idiots who are trying to bring you down! your true followers will be here to support you no matter what! just remember that :) i wish you and your family well :)

I'm so sorry that your followers were so rude. You are absolutely right that you don't owe anyone anything. I'm also sorry to hear about your grandparents. I can certainly sympathize as my mother recently spent time in the hospital and was diagnosed with congestive heart failure.

you poor girl! I did miss you blogs but I didn't know there was so much going on in your life!I wish you all the luck you need and hope your grandparents get well soon!I am sorry to hear that readers are upset and don't understand the situation you are in!I wish you and your family the best of luck and may you have the best wedding you can wish for!

I'm glad that you're okay. Sorry you're exhausted!! But its really good to hear from you. Screw people who expect you to update your blogs.. it's not your job to provide service and they didn't even pay you. Rude people, leave vanessa alone!!!!!

I'm so sorry to hear about what you've been going through... I wish I could help somehow but all I can offer are my prayers for you and your family. To think that people are so vain as to believe your life revolves around their makeup is sickening. I hope everything turns out ok and your grandparents get better.

Oh, Vanessa,I am happy you are ok but I am feel so sorry about your granparents. You are right: Everythings in God`s hands..its the best way. But never lose faith and trust in God. I wish the best for your family.KissesHanid

Vannessa. im glad to here that you are doing ok, i guess some people are just very inconsiderate. You take care of what you need to take care of. we will always be here to support you!Much love, take care and God Bless-Sheree

I totally understand why you don't have time or feel priority into blogging, and please let those people talk sh*t if they want to, don't listen to them! I know you are not, but I also know it hurts when people you don't even are being rude and angry for no reasons. Just do what you gotta do, take it easy and focus on the things that are important to you and your family, because that is all what matters right now! Wish you and your family all the best!

My thoughts and prayers to you and your family, and bless your heart for stepping up to the plate and making your grandparents feel so loved and taken care of.Way too many people just dump their elderly relatives into homes and don't visit or take care of them, it warms my heart to know that there is still love and consideration in the world.

Don't worry about any naysayers; you have enough old or archived blog posts to keep anyone busy forever trying to replicate looks :)Stay beautiful! (inside and out)

My prayers out to yo and your grandparents.. No one undersands but close loved ones what you go through through. Your grandparents are very appreciative of you.. You are truly a blessing. No matter how overwhelming you are, have faith, it will be ok...Michele bigshell123@aol.com (NYC)

Good luck with the wedding, and I really hope your grandfathers will get better.

I don't understand that people can be so rude, you made this blog to help others and as you said, you owe your readers nothing, they should be nothing but glad you put as much time and effort in developing this site!

Again, I wish you all the luck in the world, and I hope everything will turn out ok.

Its sad to know that people got mad at you for not updating. seriously .. People? There is life outside of the internet. it got me mad to know that people got mad over that, lol. I personally thought you've been busy with planning your wedding because i know exactly how its like, it takes all your time. It was hard for me to plan a wedding, work and attend school, its too much work and it really does take too much of your time. Nevertheless, whatever happens in in the end, family always comes first and it always should. I really hope your grandparents get well soon. You Take Care.-Shruti-

so sorry to hear about your grandparents. they are SO lucky to have a granddaughter like you. as for all the people getting MAD at you for not blogging....it is sad that it is that important to them, but i guess that just means you're that awesome! but it also means that they don't know what IS important in life. lucky for you, you do. good luck!

blogging is just one part of our lives. but at the end of the day, family and friends and real life is more important. dont worry about negative people in life and especially online. you are beautiful inside and out - and you have a wonderful wedding to look forward too.

First of, I'm so happy to hear that you are ok. As a longtime reader I knew this wasn't something light that you were gone so long. I was hoping it was for wedding reasons though and not this reason. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers, and it's so important to have your family and friends around you in this time. The only concern of yours should be your grandparent's health and also making time for you to enjoy yourself.

i know exactly how you are feeling it is very tough and trust me nothing in the world is more important than family, you be strong and take care of your family ,you will be in my prayers god bless you dear

Good to read you again, sorry about your grandparents hope things get better and back to normal soon.

And don´t worry most of us understand that the last thing you´ll do is coming here and write when there´s so much going on in your life, it´s something you can do any other moment when you have more time.

Hi Vanessa, I haven't commented before but have loved your blog for a long time now and I know it's strange as I don't know you but was starting to worry about you and hoping that you were ok! I'm so sorry that things have been hard, keep smiling and I hope and pray that everything gets better for you and your grandparents.

I'm shocked that anyone would say something like that to you. As if you owe something to some stupid readers. I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through. I wish you and your family the best, and we'll be here ready to see one of your great posts again.

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandparents, and I'm especially sorry that some rude, ignorant people mistreated you like they have. It's absolutely disgusting.

Like I've said before, it's clear how much love you have for others, and how much you are willing to do for readers whom you've never met. You are truly a great person through and through. Even though we've never met, you'll always have my support. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. XOXO

Hey Vanessa, I am glad that you're okay. I totally understand. I really do miss your blogging, and you've inspired me since day one of my makeup journey. I will pray for YOU and your grandparents. I hope they get to see their beautiful granddaughter walk down that aisle. I hope you stay strong and smile =D. These are hard times, but I know you'll get through it!

Shame on those people who are angry at you for not blogging or attacked your family members...

For now, I will anticipate your next update...whenever it will be! Take care Vanessa!!!

Hi Vanessa, sorry to hear about your grandparents being sick I know personally how hard and stressful caring for one person can be let alone two! The things people were saying the last time I popped by to read up on your posts (of which there are zillions!) were disgusting I actually couldn't believe that people would be so cruel, thoughtless and self-centred. Forget the negativity, I'm praying for your grandparents to get well but even though you're looking after them make sure you're taking care of yourself :) x Tilly x

Hi Vanessa, sorry to hear about your grandparents being sick I know personally how hard and stressful caring for one person can be let alone two! The things people were saying the last time I popped by to read up on your posts (of which there are zillions!) were disgusting I actually couldn't believe that people would be so cruel, thoughtless

I don't want to be redundant, so I'll keep this brief (it must be tiring reading the same comments, lol)...

Your blog is the first makeup blog that I ever came across, and I'm proud to say that. I like that sometimes you'll post random stories, or interesting new pictures from your daily travels - whether it be with family, friends, work, etc.

The problem is that these people with spiteful, rude, and un-nessasary (hehe =X) comments are forgetting the real purpose of a blog. It doesn't have to be about makeup, even if it's the name. You're right that you don't owe anyone anything - except maybe family and close friends and your significant other, but it's not that you owe them anything, but rather that THEY DESERVE your love and attention. Just as you have a right to their affection.

It would be nice to see more reviews, but if anything, I'm just glad that you're safe and healthy! There will always be ups and downs, but you're HUMAN, which means that anything can happen to you, but I'm glad that you're not living your life in regret. You're taking care of the people who mean so much to you, and being there and doing that is really important. And NO ONE should be allowed to criticize you or take away your freedom of choice to do what you think IS RIGHT. I wish/hope for the best.

And thank you for all the help you've given to people, as well as other happenings in your life - people love to hear about others (even if we deny it!). I'm jealous that you're so close to your family - I'm going to work harder to re-connect with mine.

Vanessa, do not worry, those who love you understand your situation and support you ... All the days spent by your blog to know if there has been updated ... Well the first blog makeup and since then I still fond of this, and even created one. Solo decirte que animo champion and gradually move forward ... a thousand kisses, esther

Wow, I am shocked you've been going through so much, and also the fact of what some people say on the internet without really thinking about the consequences. I wish your grandparents a fast recovery. I can't imagine what you're going through, but it must be a challenge everday. You should be proud of yourself that you're putting in the effort to care for them. Stay strong!

I've wondered where you were, but simply thought you were planning your wedding. I'm sorry to hear about your grandparents and hope they get better soon. Come back when you're good and ready! Those of us who really love your blog will be here waiting.

Don't know how people can be mean about you not blogging in a while... There is an entire archive of looks for people to keep them busy for a lifetime and enough reviews on so many products. You are only human and there is only so much you can do, and true fans will be supportive regardless of if you are writing a lot or taking it slow because of personal reasons... People should learn not to selfish and self-centred...

I've been checking out your blog for ever and I LOVE it! One of my new years resolutions was to get a makeup blog of my own going, and it's just getting started, but it'd be really cool if you'd check it out!http://twocentsmakeup.blogspot.com

i've been MIA for like forever too hehe so for me, i can only be happy for you that there are more "actual" happenings in your life other than blogging. :) congrats on your engagement and belated happy holidays! am sorry about your granddad and i hope he recovers very soon.

i hope you know, i love you too not only because you encourage girls/women like me to be beautiful outside and inside as well.

My heart goes out to you and your family. My grandmother recently got injured and was hospitalized. For two days her condition was critical but she's luckily doing better now. Family first, that's what I always say. I've been absent from the blogging as well as the internet for a while since I couldn't deal with everything that was going on in my life. I don't have the same dedicated followers that you do so no rude comments were made. Know that you still have some caring and dedicated followers who are still here.

Some people can be so ridiculous! So sorry you had to deal with all that madness and on top of that have to worry about some frivolous issue on here. Be strong alright and we'll definitely be waiting for your return, when you feel ready for it.

Hi, Nessa...I hope you're doing ok. I am a big fan of your blog. Your blog was one of those that got me into buying good makeup brushes. I hope you'll get by each day with grace and hope. Thank you! And God bless to you and your family.

sometimes i still pop in to check out some of your tutorials and hoping that maybe there has been a new post. just to make sure that you're okay and your family is alright. A lot of people miss you and your blog turned out to be very important to me. It encouraged me to become more girly and aware of enhacing my beauty. so thank you very much for this, I hope that someday you can come back and I really really hope that you and your family are okay, my prayers go out to you.

Sorry to see your post about your grandparents but all your friends and supporters hearts go out to you. It's so true that you are not obliged to write anything and you should only do so when you want to. You're not even obliged to share anything personal if you don't want to.

The most important thing is to take care of yourself and family and it seems that you are a very strong girl.

Hi Nessa, Just stopping to say hello. Thank you for ever having interest in makeup and taking any and most of your time to share what you found, know, and love. Your blog has been one of my favorites because you do put so much of yourself in it. I still check out your blog when trying to do one of your looks or need info. on something you've reviewed.

I'm praying for you and Jon and your family. Thanks again for giving us this bright little spot called Nessasary Makeup.

Good luck with everything at home with your fam. Don't let the suckkas bring your down! I guess that's the price you have to pay for having so many "loyal" followers... some of them are bound to be a little koo koo :D

When you do get back into helping out the makeup-challenged, and need to re-up on some new things, check us out: BeFlurt.com We are real people with real, authentic brand names for less.

hey thanks to every one...i m very happy to know about ur feelings andI blogged to help people with swatches, new products, or the makeup-challenged, and now that I have to turn my back for a bit to help my grandparents, :f:

hi Vannesamaybe I was a new follower of your blogbut I really like your blogI was surprised after seeing your postsI was very impressed with your decision to prioritize the family than a blog postI hope you are given strength by God in all that happens to live your life!hopefully in another day you have the opportunity to be able to post again on this blog

Vanessa, and everyone reading this, can you please share your makeup tips on my new facebook page? Especially you Vanessa, I would love for you to leave your tips! The facebook page is called, "Ladies, Share Your Makeup Tips" at http://tiny.cc/makeuptips

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