Chapter Nine – Alter

It’s been way too long since my last post so it’s about time to do a bit of house-keeping. For a long while now I’ve been working on a piece talking about the psychology of decision making and our subconsciousness, but since there is a book involved, this one is taking a lot longer than my posts have done in the past. All we can do is to just sit and wait for it to be ready.

After finishing my bachelors I imagined that I would be able to focus, and the plan was to put more time into being productive. And yet the change in my surroundings brought surprising difficulties and distractions to replace those that studying imposed — the ones that I thought I would finally get rid of. Finding a balance in one’s life can be extremely difficult, and many times external factors make it impossible. For an example, a year ago I started a job that very much drained me mentally and emotionally, and basically prevented me from doing anything productive for over a half a year, until I decided to quit. There’s only so much a human mind can take, and if it’s constantly pushed over the limit, one’s whole life will take a hit.

Anyhow, now it’s time for another new chapter in my life, which hopefully allows me to find the balance I’m looking for and to develop a routine for being productive. I have just moved to Sweden for masters studies. After bachelors I didn’t actually think thought I’d end up doing masters, but life always has the best surprises to offer. I came to understand that in the society that we live in, the papers with your name on them and the official titles that come with it possess a significant value in both the conscious and subconscious reactions in people, when it comes to authority. In many cases, it doesn’t really matter much if you’ve done the studying/research by yourself or at a university, but the latter just gives you an advantage in persuading others into change, no matter how obvious the thing is. Thus I chose to do my masters in Environmental Science, which takes a step away from biotechnology that I did my bachelors on, and thus will most likely broaden my understanding of the sustainability dilemma that we have in our hands. The studies have just began but I’m already really happy with the decision to start, as the atmosphere is very inspiring.

That being said, I am currently working on setting up my new life, and creating a routine that allows me to write and be productive outside of the school work, without sacrificing other aspects of my life. If all goes well, this will mean that the next actual post will be ready during this year (wink).