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Saturday, December 27, 2008

Becoming...Stupid...

I don't consider myself to be dumb or stupid. I can speak to most people, carry a conversation, and am a literate person who reads a variety of genres. So, why do I sound so stupid on the phone when I talk with him? I hate it! It's like my mind just is dumbfounded and I can't get out the thoughts that I want...I get tongue-tied and feel so incredibly stupid. Why he still talks with me is a mystery...not entirely, I'm sure. And to those of you who know me...I have a date! I'm excited. I pray a lot more these days, for myself, for him, for peace. I don't have a lot of dating experience, so I am trying to not pressure him, put expectations on him, or in general, just scare him off. So any dating advice (serious...Troy), I'll take it. The advice I know right now is...be myself (doing), have fun (doing), and don't worry till you have to (not doing). So...give me advice and I'll let you know how the date goes...btw, it'll be another week, but that's okay. More time to get to know him before.

This is the first post I've read of yours in such a long time ... reminded me why I so loved reading your blog when I was a more active reader. You sound so much like me here! My fingers are crossed ... but I know there's no need, that you'll be just fine!

I know you know to be yourself, but make sure that it is the authentic you...because although it is tempting to make yourself seem more appealing to him - you want him to like who you really are. The good, the bad and the ugly. And if he does not end up liking you for who you are, then I guess it was not meant to be.