The choices I make seem to alienate me. I\'m either too \"light\" or on the flip side too \"dark\" for most people. At work people will judge me for not drinking or for not being in casual relationships but then in my personal life people judge me for supporting things like divorce. I find it so ironic what the two worlds will hinge on and I always think to myself - if only you knew who hated me at work or if you only knew who hated me at home. I feel like there\'s no way for me to strike a compromise. I also get frustrated because I honestly don\'t understand why people care about what I think anyways. I am a 26 year-old female living on my own. I\'m a tiny fish at work, doing a simple job. I guess it would just make more sense to me if I was a manager or married with children. But when you\'re on your own like I am, making payments with a tiny job, why people get so wriled up about me is beyond me. I feel like people are constantly talking behind my back. I get negative feedback on my facebook all the time. I don\'t know how to stop it. I can\'t help it if I don\'t agree with you. It doesn\'t stop my life if you hate my hair, my beliefs, my one bedroom apartment with no washer-dryer or dishwasher. I don\'t see why anything I say should stop yours. My life could fit into a shoebox. You have a spouse, a good paying job, a stable family. On the scale of life you could beat me out of the park without even trying. What does it matter what I think when you\'re already winning? The way I see it from where I\'m standing, people should take one look at me and then forget that I exist. Why the opposite is true is starting to overwhelm and suffocate me. Especially since I never seek them out.

I think I\'m developing feelings for my sister-in-law\'s aunt... I really don\'t know much about her, and rarely ever see her... but the times I do, my insides stir. My superego works overtime to keep myself inline. To make matters worse, I already have a GF of 5 years that I love dearly (and want to marry, but $$$). Luckily, if both my GF and my brother\'s aunt-in-law (is that a thing?) are in the same area, i can focus my attentions toward my GF and away from her, but if I find myself alone with her, I fear what my id might make me do...

Getting with/F*****g her would not only ruin my brother\'s marriage & my relationship, but my family would pretty much disown me (they\'re honorable like that)... But she is single, and attractive (at least to me, I kind of like older women of her persuasion)... I want her so bad, SO BAD...

SO F*****G BAD... just typing this makes my insides stir up again, I think of what I would do to her if I had her to myself... But this is the real world, not a porno... FML

have been in a complicated relationship with someone for 2 years on and off all the time, given him so many chances, a few months ago he was begging for me back constantly wanting to talk to me all the time but I had decided I was over it.
Decided to give it another try and after about a month he doesn't say anything to me, just leaves and now it's frustrating me so much because I gave him another chance!!!
and now it feels like he doesn't even care about me anymore but I'm left still caring for him
WHY DOES NOTHING GO RIGHT FOR ME AND BOYS

I was the most happiest, socially confident person I ever knew but ever since college has started I've developed social anxiety and depression and now my life has turned for the worst. The shame and anger is too much to bear. No one understands and I have slowly isolated myself in my room. I have become a shell of who I once was. Oh how I long for a genuine laugh, a deep conversation or a sign that it might get better. I am at the end of my ropes... A true hero to zero story.

I was the most happiest, socially confident person I ever knew but ever since college has started I've developed social anxiety and depression and now my life has turned for the worst. The shame and anger is too much to bear. No one understands and I have slowly isolated myself in my room. A true hero to zero story.

Im involved with a married man who is buying a house with his wife just to dump her and move me in . If that isn't crazy enough we own a business together that is hanging on by a thread. I've given up my profession to invest time in this business whatever the cost and I can't provide for myself . I love this man , my heart is his but he has no time for me while pretending to be there for her so the deal on the house goes through . I'm getting older and I'm an attractive woman with three guys who try to talk to me right now , non of which I care to have a relationship with ! I feel left out , broke, confused , mad , jealous at times , I want to drink and have sex till I drop dead because these are the only two things that make te feel good enough to forget what a crappy life I'm living . It's Alwsys been one disaster after another for me probabally a result from my dumb unthought of decisions ! Sometimes I wonder why I go on I just know there's no choice unless I take a cowards way out . I just pray for strength and keep looking for options keep me in mind . Looking for my rainbow .

everything i did was for you. and you never acknowledged how important it was. i struggled for you. and now you have a new girl....who you picked over me. its been a year. ive felt fine. this week, im not. 5 years was a long time. and you threw it away. now ive moved on, mostly. why are you bothering my thoughts this week? go away. i thought i was done with you. GET OUT.

I think I might be bi-sexual, but I know I could NEVER reveal this fact to any of my friends or family, because they are very religious and would try to 'cure' me. I live in stupid-in-the-middle-of-nowhere town where everyone goes to church. I want to get out of here! I hate this Hell hole pretending to be Heaven! Every single bi-sexual or lesbian I've ever met is completely nuts or attention seeking, so I can't start a relationship with the same sex. I have a crush on my best friend, who is a straight girl I go to church with. She'd hate me if she ever found out. If I tell my parents, my friends, anyone, how I really feel, I could lose everything.

I feel guilty for thinking that my life is going down the drain because you are in it and that as long you are in it, nothing will change--that I will continue to feel as though something is dragging me down, making me feel guilty for things that are not even my fault, making me feel bad for things that you do to me as if I deserved them, the very things that I carefully do not do to you because I know you will not like it. Yet somehow, you always find a way. It's not fair that you get to get away with these things while I live my life carefully to keep myself under constraint. It's not fair. It's just not fair. I thought being a good person would at least have its perks. That somehow life will be good to you if try your best to be good to people around you. But it's just not fair. People can be cruel and inconsiderate, cold hearted, self centred, and arrogant. As if the world revolved around you. As if people lived to please you. As if the universe conspired to make me miserable as you feed on my misery. I just don't understand. It's just not fair. I hope one day you wake up and realize that the world isnt yours. I hope one day you wake up and feel bad for the things you have done. I hope it hits you like a bullet so badly just to put you in the same place as I'm feeling now. The sad part is you have no idea how I'm feeling right now and I have no plans of letting you know. I feel like one day I will just choose to get away from you and everyone else just so I can escape, because I don't know how to tell you directly that I no longer want you in my life. You're toxic to me. How could I have let you kill me inside all these years.