I am such a sucker....

Thursday, July 04, 2013

I called my dad the 4th means a lot to him cause of the Bristol Parade and we use to go every year as kids. I wanted to check in on him as I haven't felt great to see him and we're only down to one car and hubby is always working.
He told me his blood sugar was 58 this morning and he only ate once yesterday! I told him I thought they were making meals for you? He changed the subject, I was making shells and spaghetti sauce for MIL's birthday party so I put some aside for him and I made italian sausage for it.
I went over my brother was there he told my brother that my nephews wife said a suspicious car was outside the house and he locked up everything, so my brother was there.
I got there they were out side waiting for him to let them in he was all out of breath and oxygen tube was around wheels of cart.
My brother didn't speak to me and I' m not kissing his butt either, they told my dad to stop being paranoid, he probably called them cause they haven't been down in a while. I waited to see if they were going to ask if he wanted anything to eat they didn't so I said it cause I had to get back to get ready for party.
I made him the shells and italian sausage , made him a tea and my brother says oh well your eating so I'm going to go eat my lunch. believe me my brother could stand to miss a meal he's over 400 lbs and he's not worrying about his 87 yr old dad eating.
My dad didn't talk to me, no thank you nothing and so I left before my brother...... I'm an idiot I know this why do I ever think he's going to change??????????? I put the rest of the shells in little bowls for him to heat up easy.
I did what I could , I don't have the money for gas to be doing this don't have the extra vehicle and the ones that have the means do nothing!!!!!!!!!

MJREIMERS
You are doing what's right and that's all you can do. You are doing your best and no one else can ask more of you. Your brother will have to live with the choices he is making. As for you, you are a good daughter! 1623 days ago

ARCHIMEDESII
No, you're a kind hearted soul ! Remember, you are doing this for YOU, not your father. You want the best for your family, but he isn't responsive. that's why you can't take his slights so personally. This is how he is. You can't change him. You can only change how you react. And you've been making good progress !

I suspect the hot weather isn't helping. It's too hot. I would normally go into Boston to see the festivities, but not this year. taking it easy.