New Years Eve

Ania Anicca / Ania Ziolkowska, current day, at a drug infested psytrance party in Warsaw, Poland, March 2014 She’s the one smiling, to the right, dressed all in black. We’ll talk about her massive weight gain in another blog.

Ania Ziolkowska Destroys and runs. Here she is dancing at Riou, October 18th, 2015 In queens, at Psychill Psysundays.Ania Ziolkowska Knocked out my teeth, then “punished” herself by jumping on another dick, and partying around New York City.

I stopped cold, my heart stopped, I nearly dropped the muffler on my head.
I was frozen, and it was over 75 degrees F

I just couldn’t believe she said it.

Someone I cared about, and was willing to die for, and would have done anything for, using the worst possible term in the worst possible way, for no reason at all.

If I had attacked Ania Ziolkowska, now going by “Ania Anicca” (A subject to be touched on in another entry), I could almost understand it.
Hell, if I had called her a bitch or a cunt, it might have been justified.

But that’s not what happened.

All I did was ask her, for the third time

“Ania, could you please hold the flashlight lower? I can’t see what I’m doing.”

That’s it.THAT is what got the response that opens this experience.

We had bought a Jaguar XJ-S, a 1989, from a gentleman in Connecticut, and driven it back to Woodbridge, VA, where we both lived.
Ania has just been fired from the position I had arranged for her to get, when she was let go from a receptionist position she had been doing a week before.

So she would not have to wait for me, I gave her the keys to the Jag, and told her she could go home and get me later, when I got off.

We worked at the same place.

It turns out that one of the exhaust hangers, a special order item, had rusted through, and the muffler fell off, and Ania had been dragging it behind her.

The FIRST thing I told Ania, when she told me what had happened, was it wasn’t her fault.

It could have happened to ANYONE, it just happened to happen to her.

Not her fault.

I didn’t blame her, and I told her so.

Apparently that didn’t matter.

“FUCK YOU, YOU IGNORANT ASS NIGGER!!”

That’s what I got, from the blonde haired, blue eyed, Polish, white girl, while I was lying under the car, in a Wal-Mart parking lot, trying to find a way to hang the muffler, so we could get home, no longer dragging it under us.

And it wasn’t the last time Ania Ziolkowska, Ania Anicca, or whatever she wants to call herself now, as she vagabonds around the world, scamming family members, pretending she is suddenly a “spiritual yogini”, committing adultery with the ugliest white guy anyone has ever seen, Chris “Exeris” Sevanick

“He looks like a thumb….”

That was one of the most recent descriptions, by my 21 year old female friend, before she showed the picture of “Exeris” (my god, these nicknames, they do not FIT. The latin it comes from is everything BUT an accurate description of HIM…..) to her friends, and her girlfriend.

“He is NOT an attractive man.”

Is another description of “Exeris” (I’m sorry, but I chuckle every time I see the name, type the name, HEAR THE NAME) was the description given by several other females that have seen him.

But I digress.

This is not about THAT joke of a human being, but about Ania Ziolkowska, Racist Covert Stealth Narcissist Sociopath.

We could say one could not fault Ania, due to her father, Christoff Ziolkowska (whom Ania attempted to fool me for YEARS, into believing his name was “Ziolkowski”, however the name on their Deed to their house, is “Ziolkowska”. Ania tried Gaslighting for YEARS…..), also being a racist.

The first time I met him, I was standing in their second home (yes, Ania’s family is comfortably well off, I didn’t learn till MUCH later, while Christoff would complain how hard it was to make it in this country, but has a sailing yacht, and for years, two homes, completely paid off, and in relatively high dollar areas of Lake Ridge, VA) standing in front of him with my three year old niece, reaching out my hand to shake his.

“Get out of my house.”

Was all I got in return.

Not even a hand shake.

As I walked out, I just chuckled……..

………….and then had to explain to a three year old what racism was.

Ania Anicca / Ania Ziolkowska would use racial slurs as a way to erode my self esteem and confidence

And, apparently, Ania’s father, Christoff, liked him, probably because he was lighterthan me, probably because his father worked for one of the alphabet agencies in DC, probably because he had had a trust fund, that Ania promptly conned and cajoled him into spending……..ON HER.

I met Charles, when we moved to Old Town, Alexandria, because that is where Ania wanted to move, one of the most expensive cities in Virginia, bordering DC.

I should have realized THEN what Ania was, but I still didn’t.

I was blinded by love………..

THATwill NEVER happen again.

Ania never apologized.

I should be fair……Ania never apologized without being told she NEEDED to apologize.

This was a constant issue with Ania, the fact she would do horrendous things to you, THINGS SHE WOULD NOT ALLOW DONE TO HER, and she would NEVER apologize.

Not once

I waited to see if she would realize what she did was wrong. If she would have any sense of remorse, any awareness to even NOTICE HOW IT AFFECTED ME.

I waited a week

She did not care.
Ania Anicca / Ania Ziolkowksa did not have one iota of care, of empathy, of compassion, for how she treated me, at all.
Ania’s only concern was Ania.

I finally told her she needed to apologize for what she said, for what she did. “But, I thought that was okay? Like when someone says ‘Nigga, please!’ That’s not okay?”

Okay, hold on a second.
I know we should get on to what the worth is of an apology you have to ask for, but let’s hold off on THAT for a second.

The real issue here is how do you live in the suburbs of Woodbridge, Virginia, go to the high school WE BOTH went to, live in the United States since you were SEVEN YEARS OLD, NOW TWENTY EIGHT (at the time), and NOT know that you don’t say that to a black man, especially one that has never conducted himself as the average black man (the stereotype), and is someone you claim to love??????

And I, stupidly falling for this act, explained to her how they were different things, and it was NOT okay.

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We usually avoid any type of political post, however, we find this to be very important to EVERYONE in the world, and, in a way, if we think of a sociopathic entity, without empathy for others in any way, it still lends itself to our mission, which is to illustrate in all ways possible how we have normalized Sociopathy and Narcissism within modern humanity.

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I’ve expressed and given examples on my views of apology in the past, with my own entries, such as the two Satya blogs, however, here, Betsy Nelon has provided another, very similar, perspective.

I will admit that Betsy is much more “positive” in her message, which is one of the reasons we look for others to contribute to Neon Plastic Lotus.
Our only regret is the use of pronouns in the writing. It alienates one sex for another, which is unfortunate, as men can be victims also. –

They reflect different degrees of admitting responsibility. They reflect different degrees of accepting how the other person has been hurt by your actions.

There is the true sincere apology statement, and then there is the one where the person understands the social obligation of at least acting sorry. One is real, the other is fake. Don’t be mislead. Even saying “I’d like to apologize for” doesn’t mean anything. The person would like to apologize, but isn’t actually doing so.

And worse, saying sorry doesn’t really even mean anything. If you hammer nails into a tree, and then pull them out, there are still holes there.

Expecting the victim to forgive can actually revictimize her. It puts the burden on her, instead of the abuser. It minimizes her…

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In yoga, as part of the Yamas and Niyamas, you will learn of Satya, or “truth”. However, as it seems all in Yoga are hedonistic and live in only their “Id”ego construct, they will also do whatever they can to escape blame and fault. –

The first statement is about as ego filled as can be. the remainder is just you going to your friends again, and not being able to think for yourself. and what do you think you are doing letting people read personal emails between us? the emails are meant for your eyes only.
(Author’s note:remember that sociopaths work to keep their abuses and manipulations PRIVATE.)

Ania Ziolkowska Destroys and runs. Here she is dancing at Riou, In queens, at Psychill Psysundays.Ania Ziolkowska Knocked out my teeth, then “punished” herself by jumping on another dick, and partying around New York City.

Ania Ziolkowska will say, later, in the emails below, that she did, in fact, apologize.

I had a couple of insights at the meditation. Both concerned my behavior in relationships with others. The first was in relation to my relationship with Charles, the second, with my parents. I realized that I was certainly not faultless no …matter what my perceptions at the time were. When I was a small child, I thought I was faultless and I could not understand how I could have been punished for anything. Instead of seeing how I could be making my parents life less stressful, I only saw the pain that was being caused to me. I could not see them as human beings with feelings themselves. I figured that as parents who demanded utmost respect and authority, they must have been on the path themselves. Now as an adult myself, I see that that was not necessarily the case. The other insight concerned my relationship with Charles. I was bitter that he did not give me the love and affection that I expected from a relationship, and so I acted out. I did not have he skill of communication. I was immature. I pushed him further away.

As for my relationship with you, I think it began similarly with me continuing this with you. I had certain expectations of what a relationship should be like, and how the perfect partner should behave, that I did not see my own faults. For years this trend continued till I finally began to find my own way thru meditation and yoga. But you might not be ready to allow me to change. You still remember me as this little brat who would throw fits when she didn’t get her way, and feel I need to pay for this before I am allowed to move forward into happiness. Perhaps you feel that for years I made your life miserable, and now do not deserve to be happy. I can understand where you would be coming from especially in light of the most recent events of drama in our lives. Know that I have always done and am continuing to do the best that I can. I am sure that I have hurt many along the way including you as I was coming from a place of pain myself. I am sorry for hurting you.

Sent from Ania’s iPad

It may seem like an “apology”, however, notice the date? Notice the date of the messages that preceded it?
Ania Ziolkowska’s supposed apology was just another act, one she had played so many times before, that I fell for so many times, but was no longer going to fall for ever again.

Basically, Ania Ziolkowska has, though she refuses to realize this, DESCRIBED HERSELF AS A SOCIOPATH –

“Ultimately, the sociopath typically emotionally destroys those who are close to him or her, but the sociopath destroys them in a way consistent with their unique approach to others: They take them out like your average person kills off characters in a video game. Those in the wake of the sociopath suffer because they have the liability sociopaths don’t: actual human feelings that stem from a deep sense of social obligations to others, a moral anchor that is supposed to be part and parcel of having relationships.

The sense of entitlement that comes with sociopathy is astonishing to those who abide by the social laws and conventions of our culture. Where does the entitlement come from? It stems from an underlying sense of rage. Sociopaths feel deeply angry and resentful underneath their often-charming exterior, and this rage fuels their sense that they have the right to act out in whichever way they happen to choose at the time. Everything is up for grabs with sociopaths and nothing is off limits.

In relationships, sociopaths are the epitome of Machiavellian creatures. If they were astrological signs, they would be Geminis, with two distinct ‘selfs’ at work. They are duplicity incarnate, with a polished self shown to the world and a covert, hidden self that has a rigid and calculating agenda: assume the highest level of the social hierarchy and win, win, win. It is often the kindest and most trusting individuals who suffer the most at the hands of sociopaths, and the healing process for these individuals continues long after the relationship has ended. Those in the wake of the sociopath are often left wondering, What happened to me? Why does this one individual have such a powerful effect on me?”

Basically, Ania Ziolkowska is a sociopath, pretending to be a yogi.
And she, like all blinded by the new age, want’s a free pass.

Ania Ziolkowska refuses to see there are steps to apology, that, after years of abuse, expect to just say “sorry”, and it all brushes under the carpet, expect it all to suddenly change to what SHE wants.

See, that supposed apology may seem like an apology on the SURFACE, however what it really is, is just another sociopathic manipulation. It’s a way for her to seem as though she made an effort, when no effort was made at all.

It’s the average narcissistic sociopath manipulation, blurring the lines, so that she seems the victim.

Ania Ziolkowska has just found a new mask to don, a new part to play.

That should have been made clear, due to the fact the “apology” came in 2010, and the correspondence that preceded it, came in 2011.

That mask fell away quickly, because it was apparent to her that I wasn’t falling or it.

It should be obvious, no change was made at all.

Also, that apology is no apology at all, and her supposed apology to ME is an AFTER THOUGHT.

Narcissists, especially female narcissists, deserve oscars for their performances. They are relentless actors, and masters of crocodile tears.

Ania Ziolkowska is one of the only people on the planet that can make apologizing to some ELSE all about HER.

They’ll put on a show, IF they ever apologize (rarely), but will somehow make that apology all about themselves.

And they’ll cry. Especially the females. They’ll cry, make you feel uncomfortable, and manipulate you, and then go right back to acting the same way they acted before.

Apology has three stages:

An acknowledgment that admits what you’ve done (and without being asked, or told, you must apologize), restitution (making up for what you’ve done), and EFFORT (ensuring you do not repeat that action, or SIMILAR actions).

A narcissist will play with this.

They will put on the show to manipulate you into forgiving them, they’ll expect to SKIP that restitution step, and they’ll play with the effort part, gaslighting you into believing they didn’t do the SAME EXACT thing, so how can they be at fault when they knowingly do something similar, AGAIN?

I read your journals because I was in love with you. I wanted to know everything about how brilliant you were. I was in awe of you. I am sorry this hurt you, as that was not my intention. I called Ross because I wanted a guys perspective, but also from someone who loved you because I wanted to give you the benefit of doubt. I wanted to understand you because I loved you. Same with the situation with your mom. She loves you and will always love you no matter what. I felt safe sharing my worries with her and did so from the perspective of someone who also loved you. I never cheated on you with Long. There was nothing at all physical that happened between us. As for Joel and Liz, yes I lied a lot. I am sorry. I did not mean to hurt you. I respect you and was and am remorseful. With time my interests began to change, and I made friends. I never said for you not to go to yoga or hooping with me. I do not like for anyone to be disrespected. Not me, not you, not my friends, not my family, not my coworkers. No one. I did not call your job and tell them you were suicidal. At yogaville, I told you not to visit because I was studying. You came and brought Shiro. You sat in the rain and made people worry for me thru your emails and behavior. I wasn’t talking to people about you. You sent the emails. You got people talking. I can only take so much. Eventually my emotions get the best of me and I begin to fall apart and then I finally talk for support, but not out of hate. You came to my job and the police came there. I talked about you at work as little as possible. Always out of love not hate. I do not want anyone to think you are a horrible person. I do not want to be in the middle of hate between anyone. I do not want to be around people that hate you.

Sent from Ania’s iPad

Pawel Tulin & Ania ZiolkowskaPawel lied to me and stated he did not know them – See the Psytrance Cults Blog

NO. Ania, like every sociopath, read my journals to learn how to pick me apart, control, and manipulate me. I was respectful enough to never read her journals, at least until after she left, and intentionally left them behind. Her leaving her journals behind, was like the protagonist in “Gone Girl”, another way to manipulate and still come off as the victim.

Early 2001 you go through my things in my room and read things that are personal to me without permission from me. Sometime in 2002 you call Ross to ask him some personal questions concerning me instead of speaking with me about it like a rational person. Sometime in 2003, I let you go to the club with Long, Completely trusting you, and I find out after that you have a crush on your co-worker, Long. While that’s happening you tell others I am the problem, it’s all my fault. It’s all about you. Sometime in 2004, we meet Joel and Liz and YOU decide you want to have a lesbian experience with Liz. I point out that this is not a good idea and you try to go through with it anyway, making a further mess of our relationship. You LIE to me for a month about everything that occurred during this incident, including being in touch with Liz for that time. You establish at that time you are capable of lying without remorse and that you have absolutely no respect for me in any way. Multiple incidents after this, but sometime in 2005 you decide to talk to my mother about how I am supposedly a horrible person, while not realizing she has witnessed how horrible a person you are and how much patience I have had with you. Again, multiple incidents, but sometime in 2010 you choose to meet your new friends, you create incidents that have no reason to be as problematic as you make them but you choose to anyway, further illustrating your disrespect of me. Incident occurs over the summer after a canoeing trip with Brandon, Katie, and Angelina wherein you disrespect me, friends that are doing you a favor AND saving you money, then you punctuate that by further disrespecting me due to a mistake YOU made on the way home. You did again what you did with Joel and Liz, making a mistake, attempting to make me look at fault for your mistake, and then using the pity caused by that align yourself with people I initially took the initiative in meeting. Not able to make friends on your own HONESTLY, but able to steal the ones I make for US, DISHONESTLY. Again you messed up and ran to SOMEONE ELSE. 2010, you state you are not saying negative things about me, only for me to find out you are, then I demand a public apology, as I was sick of you embarrassing me publicly and you renege of that and also talk to people you told me you were not talking to. You go to marriage counseling, make an agreement, and then violate it immediately. You align yourself with someone I have had to hear from for years about how much you and his girlfriend look alike and had just recently confirmed want to be swingers. You call a friend in LA and destroy the vacation I had prepared for myself, my vacation from you, so I could get MY head sorted out, and then force me to go to PEX with you. You lose my apartment for me, you call my job and tell them I am suicidal, you create so much negativity I am pushed to my wits end and I have done nothing, NOTHING to deserve any of this treatment, whether it be the past years I have been more than patient with you, or whether it be the last few months. You tell your parents I have done things I have not done, you tell your friends a warped version of events (And then send me a BULLSHIT email 2 DAYS AGO about how it’s all perception. Facts are facts, and perception does not color facts.) You have an intimate encounter at PEX, in an environment any idiot could see was sexually charged, and then act as though I am just too thin skinned and I just need to get over it. You asked me questions in some previous emails?

Since you refuse to see reality as it is I will say this: YOU are too thin skinned. Get over it.

Couldn’t forget THIS one. It’s where Ania Ziolkowsia admits to trying to cheat on me with Elizabeth Stephens. She also lies about how she speaks about people, as you already know, and can see in the emails before this. Ania Ziolkowska is not capable of saying ONE HONEST THING.
By the time Ania Ziolkowska had written that email, she had had both a lesbian experience and threesome experience, adulterously, with Eva Annika Backstrom, and Uzi Grindler (More will come on those two, later), and had already begun her adulterous relationship with Chris Exeris (Christopher Michael Sevanick)

Also, Ania Ziolkowska would always tell me –

“You are too thin skinned.”

And, again, Ania Ziolkowska is LYING about calling my Job.
Denise Kane is willing to give a statement to this. Denise Kane was MY BOSS THAT ANIA CALLED AND TOLD I WAS SUICIDAL, which I WAS NOT AT THAT TIME. That came after all this. Ania Ziolkowska lies about not talking about me.

Email from Simon Padgham about her talking to him about divorce, but above she says she talked to NO ONE in YOGAVILLE about me –

Begin forwarded message:

From: Simon Padgham <simon@simonpadgham.com>

Date: September 6, 2010 10:03:22 AM EDT

To: annaziolko1@gmail.com

Subject: Hey Ania

Hi Ania,

How are you doing? I’m sorry that I didn’t get to say goodbye to you before you left Yogaville but I thought you were staying on for a few days. Anna and I came back late on Sunday and you’d already gone! So how are you doing? I hope you’ve managed to make all those big changes in your life that you were planning to do and things have been working out for you. Its always very hard to make such big changes and have the courage to walk away from things that may provide security, familiarity or safety but if you know deep down that they don’t serve you or that you don’t want them you have to do what is necessary to move on, grow and change. Otherwise you’re just going to stress yourself out massively, make yourself ill and be generally unhappy. Its hard to thrive, be at your best and reach your potential if you are working against yourself and compromising yourself I find. Still what you were planning to do requires courage, support and having to face many of fears. Have you talked to Anna at all? She has done what she intended to do and, despite continual stresses and problems, seems to be moving in the right direction for her. Maybe you should drop her a line? So are you going to come back here? There is lots to do and plenty of need for a lady of your talents! Michael mentioned that he had invited you back if you needed to return. Well, life here at Yogaville has been pretty good. The first few days after all you guys left was very strange for me. I felt pretty lonely and a bit down……but then so did Michael so I’m guessing that was a pretty normal thing to feel, especially after such an eventful and emotional month. I saw Satya today and she likened a place to a morgue last week!! So funny coming from her! I was quite busy and involved last week with the Taiwanese group which provided a nice distraction and kept me occupied. It was quite nice to sit in on their lectures and join them for morning practice. This week I have been doing the Structural Yoga Therapy course with Mukunda Stiles, which has been quite entertaining and eye opening. I have to admit I find all the A&P stuff very dry and I do tend to switch off when he does diagnostics and starts looking at people’s knees! He does talk a lot about Ayurveda and the Sutras though, which is more my thing. We finished the course on Friday and I then went to Charlottesville to pick up a rental car. I just want to be able to get about, go shopping and eat some different food every know and then. I am finding that I really need to eat some animal protein as I am feeling a bit weak and seem to be constantly hungry. My Ayurvedic doctor has told me to get some meat at all costs as soon as I can. I had thought about trying to snare the squirrels or deer hear but I don’t think that would go down too well! Only kidding! I’m going to keep the car for couple of weeks so Michael and I are planning a trip away for 4 or 5 days to the Outer Banks in NC. He loves it there and knows the place inside out so I’m happy to drive if he navigates and plans everything. Apparently he knows this great place to get freshly caught Yellow Fin tuna, which is supposed to be sublime. Sounds good to me. I imagine we’ll go next week or the week after, certainly in Sept and before the split TT starts…….which we are both involved in staffing for Swami Dyananda. The weather here is so much nicer now. The intense humidity and heat has gone and has been replaced with those lovely cool air. Its still beautifully sunny and hot but just no humidity. Its perfect for hiking and cycling, which I’ve been doing a lot of lately. Michael and I are off out this afternoon I think. He knows all the great places around here so I’m making use of his knowledge whilst I can before he leaves in early October! So I’d better get a move on an get ready. I’ve laundry and some major room cleaning to do before lunch. Anyway, you take care Ania. Namaste, Simon

One lie after the next.

Notice the date of THIS email and the dates of the others?

Notice how Ania Ziolkowska thought she could manipulate me even AFTER I already had all the facts?

Below is Ania Plotting with her mother, while lying to me. You will have to run the text through google translate, as they thought I couldn’t translate the polish –

From: Gosia Ziolkowska <gosiaziolkowska@yahoo.com>

Date: August 26, 2010 4:54:31 PM EDT

To: Ania <annaziolko1@gmail.com>

Subject: Re: rozne

If you are both responsible for lease payment, if you leave and stop paying your share, he will have to pick up your share. If he does not and the apartament management does not receive the full monthly payment, they will make him move out. If he picks up your share and pays the full montly rent , he will stay and later if you decide to divorce, I am sure he will make you return the money, but it will be money you owe him and it will not break yur credit record. what if you write a statement and send it with registered mail and keep track of delivery and keep the original – a statement to the apartament management that you are not able to continue staying in the apartament for personal resons . The besst reason is if you have legal paper like restraining order or seperation papers. Please check what needs to be done, So many couples split, break lease etc , it has to be a way out. —

How is not cheating advers to trying to cheat? Both are not cheating. The only diff is that in one you accuse me of not doing something which I didn’t do. Were both agreeing that I didn’t cheat.

On Feb 11, 2011, at 19:22, HVBB Gmail <*********@gmail.com> wrote:

You are so self important you can’t even read what’s in front of you. I can put your response against the message you are responding to and it shows you blatantly tried to confuse the point, something you always do verbally, in writing this time. Why don’t you re-read the original message and see who you are REALLY calling a liar? Correct, I didn’t cheat, which is the adverse of you trying to many times. I compared you to me, and showed I was faithful while you were always disrespectful and self absorbed with no regard for anyone but you, but you state I am the one in search of a potty party for stating the facts? See how that works? See, you made yourself self important. You continue to make yourself self important and you also neglect to admit to facts you already admitted. Kirsten, Molly, Joel, Liz, Flight, and even Annika and Uzi all know you headbutted me in the mouth. You ADMITTED IT TO ANNIKA AND UZI. All the others listed were there when you did it.

according to you insanity is saying you didnt cheat when you didnt cheat.

and you are calling me insane? and dont even try to say that i called pablo a liar. i do not need to go to him for anything.

the three of us as well as the owner of the restaurant know the truth. you are just fishing for pitty once again. get a backbone.

learn to rely on your own strength rather than building your house on other peoples weakneses. and you are the only one who thinks he is crazy and seems obsessed with proving to others that you are not. you never forced me to do anything, not even admitting to lying.

I didnt have to admit to anything, nor did i need to apologize, which i did both. i am not looking for you to accept my apology. you can only make peace with your own self.

You tried to cheat several times and constantly pushed me away-WITNESSED FACTS.

You really have walked over the edge when you compose a message such the one you just did while ignoring even THOSE SIMPLE FACTS and there are SO MANY MORE that are verifiable and proveable. Maybe you should read this, then re-read what you wrote and then MAYBE you might see reality for what it is.

> Why do you speak as though I can do something to salvage our relationship. You are the one who has called me a liar and has sent me away with your words.

I threw my things out of the apartment, and have locked me out on multiple occasions, not the other way around.

This shows that you dont want me as a wife. I was too deaf to hear it.

You contacted my friends family and coworkers to tell them what a terrible person I was according to you, so you do not want me as a wife.

So there is not me coming back to you. Coming back on what terms?

You are the one who doesnt want me. It is not my fault that i am not there right now. I was finally respecting your words.

———- Forwarded message ———-

From: Hector Barrientos-Bullcok <********@gmail.com>

Date: Wed, Mar 16, 2011 at 7:46 AM

Subject: Fwd: relationship

To: anniqq@gmail.com, grandbleu@gmail.com, kandykidd13@gmail.com

The 3 of you know the incident in question but apparently the person who actually did it lives in psychosis. So, does that mean that all that crap that happened years ago, the reason we ever met Kirsten in the 1st place, suddenly didn’t happen?

Go figure.

———- Forwarded message ———-

From: Ania <annaziolko1@gmail.com>

Date: Fri, Feb 11, 2011 at 2:40 PM

Subject: Re: relationship

To: HVBB Gmail <********@gmail.com>

You are attacking my emotional stability and memory by saying I tried to cheat?

What else did I TRY to do???

If I had WANTED to cheat on you, I would have.

You are really fishing for drama and sympathy.

Is your addiction to drama this intense that you would rather not have a wife than a made up dramatic relationship?

Sent from Ania’s iPad

On Feb 11, 2011, at 20:17, HVBB Gmail <hvbbmail@gmail.com> wrote:

Wrong again.

You made an effort that I never did and then you try to say I was the one that pushed YOU away when you tried to cheat LONG before I ever got sour. Your treatment of me AND your attempts to cheat are what MADE me sour in the first place.

Cause and effect.

You refuse to acknowledge basic logic and physics.

But that is no surprise.

Logic comes from emotion.

The fact you cannot fathom logic shows your lack of emotion.

To use a fictional character, the vulcans are highly logical, but ALSO highly emotional.

They combat for emotional control all the time. Memory also comes from the emotional attachment one places on events and facts. This has been proven via study. You have a poor, actually horrible, memory. What does that say about grasp of emotional ability?

How is not cheating advers to trying to cheat? Both are not cheating. The only diff is that in one you accuse me of not doing something which I didn’t do. Were both agreeing that I didn’t cheat.

On Feb 11, 2011, at 19:22, HVBB Gmail <********@gmail.com> wrote:

You are so self important you can’t even read what’s in front of you.

I can put your response against the message you are responding to and it shows you blatantly tried to confuse the point, something you always do verbally, in writing this time.

Why don’t you re-read the original message and see who you are REALLY calling a liar?

Correct, I didn’t cheat, which is the adverse of you trying to many times.

I compared you to me, and showed I was faithful while you were always disrespectful and self absorbed with no regard for anyone but you, but you state I am the one in search of a potty party for stating the facts?

See how that works?

See, you made yourself self important. You continue to make yourself self important and you also neglect to admit to facts you already admitted.

according to you insanity is saying you didnt cheat when you didnt cheat. and you are calling me insane?

and dont even try to say that i called pablo a liar. i do not need to go to him for anything. the three of us as well as the owner of the restaurant know the truth.

you are just fishing for pitty once again.

get a backbone.

learn to rely on your own strength rather than building your house on other peoples weakneses. and you are the only one who thinks he is crazy and seems obsessed with proving to others that you are not.

you never forced me to do anything, not even admitting to lying.

I didnt have to admit to anything, nor did i need to apologize, which i did both.

i am not looking for you to accept my apology. you can only make peace with your own self.

At least I admit to lying when I do and recognize it as a fault that I am working on. You on the other hand call me and as for me to lie for you, but then criticize me for lying.

Yes, i have lied to you for selfish reasons, but not with the intention of hurting you.

I have already admited to this, so this is not major discovery on your part.

As for your teeth, all I can say that Pablo was there, so he knows exectly what happened. You think that just because you tell everyone something, that makes it so? You and I both know the truth. You are wondering perhaps why you can’t find a job, and why you have other problems???

Funny how you had a lot to say when you thought you could turn it to pity for yourself but nothing to say when the facts state you are actually the one at fault, when you are actually the unstable one.

The only person wishing to live in DRAMA is YOU, as it always has been, witnessed by so many you separated yourself from them because you KNEW you shat where you ate.

Now you try to say they are all crazy, and they never saw you act the way you did.

This is called psychosis. You fall back on Pablo?

He despises you.

He has SEEN how you treated me and he thinks you are absolutely insane.

Let’s talk about me needing to sleep and you following me from the bedroom to the loving room to the bedroom over and over again, turning on lights, pulling blankets off of me, yelling at me, kicking me, hitting me, all because I was trying to sleep.

Then, when I finally locked the bedroom door and said “let me go to sleep or I’m tossing your clothes out the window”, you kicked in the door.

Really?

That’s rational behaviour?

You did all of this at 218 E Mason, more than once, I may add.

So don’t you even think about attempting to point fingers or try to name call as to who the drama causer was.

It’s ALWAYS been YOU.

Always looking to bully or control.

And I guarantee you won’t have anything to say to this because there is no way you can even TRY to turn it around as you have attempted to do with everything else.

On Feb 11, 2011, at 14:43, Ania <annaziolko1@gmail.com> wrote:

I’m not even gonna bring up me getting locked out, and then you not letting me back in even though you had keys.

I’m referring to about a dozen or more situations where you locked the door and wouldn’t let me into our apartment.

Tell me those didn’t happen.

Go ahead.

You yourself said it takes me a while to figure things out. Well, here’s my delayed reaction. You wanted me out, now I am out.

Sent from Ania’s iPad

On Feb 11, 2011, at 20:20, HVBB Gmail <********@gmail.com> wrote:

Me me me me me me me.

You LEFT, remember?

Get it right.

You left both emotionally AND physically.

And if I remember correctly, you locked YOURSELF out and then ORDERED me, who was out with you, to let you back in.

You said I was disrespectful. And what do you call locking your wife out of your joint apartment???!!!! Answer that!

On Feb 11, 2011, at 19:22, HVBB Gmail <********@gmail.com> wrote:

You are so self important you can’t even read what’s in front of you.

I can put your response against the message you are responding to and it shows you blatantly tried to confuse the point, something you always do verbally, in writing this time.

Why don’t you re-read the original message and see who you are REALLY calling a liar?

Correct, I didn’t cheat, which is the adverse of you trying to many times. I compared you to me, and showed I was faithful while you were always disrespectful and self absorbed with no regard for anyone but you, but you state I am the one in search of a potty party for stating the facts?

See how that works?

See, you made yourself self important. You continue to make yourself self important and you also neglect to admit to facts you already admitted. Kirsten, Molly, Joel, Liz, Flight, and even Annika and Uzi all know you headbutted me in the mouth.

You ADMITTED IT TO ANNIKA AND UZI.

All the others listed were there when you did it. This is another example of you attempting to edit facts. Simple fact- the tooth was pushed down due to you headbutting me in the mouth, an action you never apologized for and smiled after you did it.

There is an X-ray to prove this.

This cause a root canal to have to occur. You made my perfectly straight teeth crooked. You went to another dentist to ask if he could knock it back up an straighten it.

YOU DID THIS ON YOUR OWN TO YOUR DENTIST.

The now dead tooth with a hole in it came out shortly after.

Those are the facts so get them straight.

I would still have a tooth of you had never headbutted me in the first place.

Not only did you do that and there. Are witnesses and evidence, but YOU created evidence by consulting more doctors.

according to you insanity is saying you didnt cheat when you didnt cheat. and you are calling me insane? and dont even try to say that i called pablo a liar. i do not need to go to him for anything.

the three of us as well as the owner of the restaurant know the truth. you are just fishing for pitty once again. get a backbone.

learn to rely on your own strength rather than building your house on other peoples weakneses. and you are the only one who thinks he is crazy and seems obsessed with proving to others that you are not.

you never forced me to do anything, not even admitting to lying.

I didnt have to admit to anything, nor did i need to apologize, which i did both. i am not looking for you to accept my apology. you can only make peace with your own self.

Oh, and you don’t lie????? Do not talk to me about lying, till you don’t yourself… At least I admit to lying when I do and recognize it as a fault that I am working on. You on the other hand call me and as for me to lie for you, but then criticize me for lying.

Yes, i have lied to you for selfish reasons, but not with the intention of hurting you. I have already admited to this, so this is not major discovery on your part. As for your teeth, all I can say that Pablo was there, so he knows exectly what happened. You think that just because you tell everyone something, that makes it so? You and I both know the truth. You are wondering perhaps why you can’t find a job, and why you have other problems???

> Why do you speak as though I can do something to salvage our relationship. You are the one who has called me a liar and has sent me away with your words.

I threw my things out of the apartment, and have locked me out on multiple occasions, not the other way around.

This shows that you dont want me as a wife. I was too deaf to hear it. You contacted my friends family and coworkers to tell them what a terrible person I was according to you, so you do not want me as a wife.

So there is not me coming back to you.

Coming back on what terms? You are the one who doesnt want me. It is not my fault that i am not there right now. I was finally respecting your words.

THIS is who Ania Ziolkowska really is – Here is another Ania Ziolkowska tactic. She will ensure the email she is responding to is not in the email history, as though the history does not exist on the other end. This is a form of gas lighting via digital medium :

On Oct 27, 2010, at 10:01, HVBB Gmail <********@gmail.com> wrote:

I’m just forwarding YOUR email, so who looks crazier?

The one that lied and then shows they lied in their own words or the one that let’s everyone know they were lied to?

I don’t care either way. You painted a picture of me being crazy BEFORE the emails were sent.

You only don’t realize this because you lime to play with timelines to support your lies.

That’s why I also have an email from you that says to forget the timeline.

Your lies fall apart under scrutiny and chronological order.

So none of these people had any intention of getting the real story or they would have made an effort to meet me and I don’t care how I look in front of hypocrites.

They look worse by definition.

They are no one to me as I am no one to them.

I should care about how I look WHY, again?

On Oct 27, 2010, at 9:51, Ania <annaziolko1@gmail.com> wrote:

Nothing I do would make you look crazier than the emails which you yourself have sent out. What one says about another is an opinion, what one does oneself can’t be disputed. I am not dying the emails make you look crazy, because that is not my place to judge, but just think about this.

Sent from Ania’s iPad

On Oct 26, 2010, at 21:58, HVBB Gmail <********@gmail.com> wrote:

It is because you have shown a history of saying one thing to ME, but saying the OPPOSITE to EVERYONE else, so I am covering myself due to having become tired of being made to look “crazy” by you.

I am sorry, but that is the price of “the boy who cried wolf” method you have been using.

You may become angry in seeing this, but you may want to “put yourself in MY shoes.” When toughening yourself from the emotion of being “embarrassed” you may see that I am justified in doing this.

-Hector

The email that followed –

On Oct 27, 2010, at 10:43, HVBB Gmail <********@gmail.com> wrote:

It’s also funny it took you 3 days to get to this but only about 5 minutes to get back to your friends.

Something to be said there.

Next time I will follow my OWN instincts….

On Oct 27, 2010, at 9:51, Ania <aniazmail@gmail.com> wrote:

Nothing I do would make you look crazier than the emails which you yourself have sent out.

What one says about another is an opinion, what one does oneself can’t be disputed. I am not dying the emails make you look crazy, because that is not my place to judge, but just think about this.

Sent from Ania’s iPad

On Oct 26, 2010, at 21:58, HVBB Gmail <********@gmail.com> wrote:

It is because you have shown a history of saying one thing to ME, but saying the OPPOSITE to EVERYONE else, so I am covering myself due to having become tired of being made to look “crazy” by you.

I am sorry, but that is the price of “the boy who cried wolf” method you have been using.

You may become angry in seeing this, but you may want to “put yourself in MY shoes.” When toughening yourself from the emotion of being “embarrassed” you may see that I am justified in doing this.

-Hector

The email that followed THAT –

On Oct 27, 2010, at 16:27, HVBB Gmail <********@gmail.com> wrote:

And now we step into Ania world, where the facts and actions of the people around her are in NO WAY an indication of any action she may have taken.

And let’s not forget his friends are so intelligent they do not tell in themselves and therefore tell on her as well. Aren’t the rest of us happy we do not live in Ania world?

Yes.

Yes we are.

On Oct 27, 2010, at 10:15, Ania <annnazioko1@gmail.com> wrote:

You do not know that.

What if in fact I do not tell people that you are crazy, but that instead you have made yourself look crazy due to your emails?

What if in fact I tell everyone that we have a normal relationship with ups and downs, and then you go forwarding my nice emails to you to all of my family and friends attempting to show them that in fact they are proof that I am crazy and a liar.

Who looks crazy in the end? I do not want my friends and family thinking you are crazy!

I am married to you.

Either way I love you.

Are you at work?

Sent from Ania’s iPad

On Oct 26, 2010, at 21:58, HVBB Gmail <********@gmail.com> wrote:

It is because you have shown a history of saying one thing to ME, but saying the OPPOSITE to EVERYONE else, so I am covering myself due to having become tired of being made to look “crazy” by you.

I am sorry, but that is the price of “the boy who cried wolf” method you have been using.

You may become angry in seeing this, but you may want to “put yourself in MY shoes.” When toughening yourself from the emotion of being “embarrassed” you may see that I am justified in doing this.

-Hector

See how she attempts to manipulate, even via a date stamped email?

THIS is NOT“Satya”.

I should have done this YEARS ago.

You now know you cannot believe a WORD SHE SAYS, VIA HER OWN WORDS. And there’s still text messages and voice recordings.

Amy Roman and Ania Ziolkowska / Ania Anicca are “FRIENDS”Proof of Ania Ziolkowska sending people to spy on me

Or are Amy Roman and Ania Ziolkowska the same person?

See, it seems Amy Roman elected to recently begin to “follow” my friend, Shiva Ka Li, which really means try to spy (stalk me) for Ania Ziolkowska, my wife, whom is supposedly happy in her adulterous relationship with Chris M Sevanick, also known as Chris Exeris of Grains of Sound (a failing side project), and Mindless Faith (a project that seems to have done infinitely better WITHOUT HIS INVOLVEMENT)

This is not the first time Ania Ziolkowska has done this. Back in 2011 Ania Ziolkowska created a Facebook profile named “Haleigh Clairee” to spy on me directly, on my page, saying she had gone to the University of Georgia, and that she had learned to hoop in Virginia, so I gave her a show.
Instead of doing the right thing, she continued her adulterous relationship with Chris Exeris.

In all reality, they seem to actually be the same exact person, as Amy Roman and Ania Ziolkowska “speak” exactly the same in writing.

I usually do not care what goes on, on Ania’s facebook page, and merely type the link (mostly because I can’t believe Ania STILL calls herself “Mukti“) in the blog, as a hyperlink, however, a dream last night made me get up and check something, which brought me this current discovery.

I’ve instructed my friend to check her “followers”, and block anyone that seems “questionable”, to her.

If Ania Ziolkowska wants to know what’s going on in my life, she will have to do it herself, not continue to hide behind sock puppets.

Our next blog concerning Ania Ziolkowska will be about how she is supposedly a yoga instructor, but the only one anyone has ever seen that has GAINED subcutaneous fat, while most female instructors LOSE it.

Like this:

What you just heard isn’t “Grains of Sound”, but it was put here to make a point.

I made that.

I am a novice, just beginning in the electronic music scene, at least as a producer. I’ve been a dancer since 1993, in nearly every genre of electronic dance music there is, from house, breaks, to gabber hardcore, to, yes, even psytrance (though I’ve left that scene behind).

This will be a first HONEST review of the one man act known as “Grains of Sound”.

First……that NAME!!!
Seriously, let’s just think about that name. What, and I mean what, if anything, would anyone think when hearing that name?
I personally think of fingernails across a black board, but that’s just me.

Now, let’s look at other information about the party in question, specifically, the line up –

What’s that? Do you see it?

Now, I know it may not be immediately apparent, so we’ll bring it a little closer –

Still not seeing it?

Okay, we know it’s not immediately apparent, so we shall point out the glaring fact to you –

NOW do you see it?

See, I don’t know about anyone else, but this is New Year’s Eve, and it’s also Europe, where things begin MUCH LATER than the United States, except for maybe New York City, Los Angeles, and Vegas.
However, also realize this is nearly right after midnight.

Who is going to be in the Chill Out Room that early?

NOBODY

That’s the truth.
Most will still be dancing to something more lively and not giving a damn about chilling out.
Let’s face it – Most people won’t even show up till near midnight as it is.

This is happening the Same time as Grains of Sound, in Berlin, on NYE 2013

This is happening the Same time as Grains of Sound, in Berlin, on NYE 2013

Now, I don’t know about YOU, but if I’m supposedly on a “European Tour”, I would think I would be going where I would get THE MOST EXPOSURE, right???

The definition of “Delusions of Grandeur” is –

Grains of Sound: Delusions of Grandeur

And he utilizes lies and deception.
I have been to Playa Del Fuego. And I especially went to Playa Del Fuego in the fall of 2013 (Spoiler alert!!! PDF never occurs in August. It has two dates: Labor Day weekend and Memorial Day weekend). In August of 2013, Chris Exeris was in Poland with Ania Anicca / Ania Ziolkowska.
So how does he have a picture claiming to be at PDF at the same exact time???

Chris trying to lure the burner crowdHe’s NEVER played Playa Del Fuego

It’s another lie. A deception, trying to sway the Burner crowd, to say “Look! I’m one of you!!!”in hopes it will get him more bookings.

We all hope you are laughing at this as much as we are.
Our next installment will show how this is New York City all over again, and show additional pictures as to how Grains of Sound never had anyone show up to their shows, with pictures of him playing to empty fields, with only Ania Ziolkowska watching……

Ania Ziokowska essentially the only one watching Chris Exeris play his Grains of Sound set at an outdoor festival called Respect Gatherings August 2013Apparently his “celebrity” status makes Ania Ziolkowska more devoted than she was to ANYONE else

Happy Holidaze!!!

Update:

Seems Grains of Sound / Chris Exeris, was NOT invited back to the Life Celebration Festival –

To make a point as to how simple it is to make chill out, I made this track today. It’s not complete, since it needs editing and some EQ, however, using NO STOCK SAMPLES, and keying every note in with my Nektar Panorama P6, this was the result –

Try stepping into my arena, Chris.Try making HOUSE

You know……something that requires more than knowledge of a few chords and the ability to add ambient filler to make the rest of a “song”……..

Every time I listen to one of his tracks, I think he’s taken stock footage from a George Lucas film.
When they fire up the Deathstar to fire on the Rebel Planet?
THX-1138?

Ania Ziolkowska Destroys and runs. Here she is dancing at Riou, In queens, at Psychill Psysundays.Ania Ziolkowska Knocked out my teeth, then “punished” herself by jumping on another dick, and partying around New York City.

Covert Narcissists, of which both Ania Ziolkowska, and Chris “Exeris” Sevanick are, are damaging, without empathy, opportunistic, and what we would all consider the exact description of “evil” The most pitiful aspect of this disorder is something we would consider so simple, yet seems so difficult, even impossible for THEM –

The basic idea is that a narcissist wants to secure himself against the need to say, “Okay, I made a mistake, I was wrong.” To a narcissist, this is a fate worse than death, and many narcissists quite literally suffer death to avoid the possibility. Normal people are willing to be found wrong, over and over again, because this is in the nature of life. Such people expect their personal creative process to eventually bear fruit, and are willing to experiment with reality, walk paths not yet explored, sometimes stumble and fall, in the hope of contributing something new to the store of human knowledge. At some risk of oversimplification, a normal person is willing to be wrong 100 times in order to create something uniquely new and useful, while a narcissist sacrifices this opportunity, this stage of personal evolution, in order to be secure against the possibility of being found wrong. For a normal person, being wrong is the price we pay for the creative process. For a narcissist, being wrong is too high a price to pay — better to label other people as wrong, from within an impregnable fortress of mediocrity.Unfortunately, in exchange for an infantile kind of security, narcissists sacrifice any chance to positively influence the world.

Dr. Brene Brown illustrates so eloquently something I attempted to show Ania Ziolkowska for an entire decade how to be –

This is something Ania Ziolkowska, and later, many of her mutual friends, such as Angelina Panaugua, Kirsten Norman, and Eva Annika Backstrom, began to resent me for (Ironically, it was also the more they dove into teaching of Wayne Dyer, Eckhart Tolle, “The Secret”, Ram Dass, Osho, etc, that they began to resent me more for pointing out the one thing NONE of those ever point out, which is vulnerability. The one thing all of them refuse to acknowledge.)

Even their friends in New York City, now that Ania and Chris have left to Warsaw, Poland, to live in the apartment that Ania and I were meant to raise our children in (it’s all revenge tactics, designed to hurt me, for not letting Ania Ziolkowska have her way) are now willing to come out and say, honestly, what they think of them.

Charlee Zee Monkee’s opinion of Ania / Ania Anicca and Chris Exeris

There is much more that can be said, however, now that I am finally getting back into the actual writing of this blog, and need to clean up the earlier entries, And my need to complete previous series, as well as an upcoming entry illustrating all the people that have thanked us for helping them through their narcissistic abuse, I will attempt to keep things concise, and end with two visual points. One humorous, and both serious.

Happy Holidaze to all.

Ania Ziolkowska / Ania Anicca – Ugly on the outside, and the inside as well