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Trying to get an update on the news is one of the most painful things that one can do nowadays. The safest way is to read it on the web. As visually, most of our tv channels are following the worse style of reporting and practicing yellow journalism.

Just yesterday, Express News covered the story of a guy who bit off ear of his opponent outside the court room and repeatedly, the channel showed the bitten off part and the ear separately, that too clear, without any sort of censoring like boxes or smoky glass effect or anything. Continuously, every channel shows dead bodies, blown apart body parts and violence, without any shame or warning. Never do we see any warning before anything!! its horrible!

Even nudity wise, its way ahead of international channels. I was watching the CNN coverage of Veena Malik story and not even once did they show the whole picture, it is otherwise in our country.

This is desensitizing our people, we are old enough to still realize the difference and to condemn them but this media fever is most detrimental to our younger generation. For them, blood, gore, bodies and violence are normal things. They take them as they take any other usual thing in life like eating or breathing.

All day long, the focus is on the bullshit news, none of the them are talking about the real problems of the people or the system. They can talk about how sick Zardari is and when he will come back etc but they are not willing to ask the most important question that if the president of the country does not feel that his country's medical system is good for him, how is it good for its citizens.

This culture of violence and nudity and sensationalism and discussions on bullshit news needs to END! What is PEMRA doing? Some one needs to sue these bitches!

"The only thing we have to fear is fear it'self - nameless, unreasoning, unjustified, terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance."---- FDR - First Inaugural Address, March 4, 1933

However, fear is some thing that we all encounter at various points of our life. There are various stages of fear, the worse kind is phobia. That kind of fear is definitely extremely unhealthy and anyone reaching that stage of fear indeed should sought medical help.However, the fear that we will talk about today and which in my opinion makes life much more worth is the initial fear of unknown.

I believe that life is not about being fearless but its all about overcoming your fear. The journey to overcome ones fear which ultimately leads us to doing some thing that we need to or want to do is truly gratifying and that journey when taken always makes life more worth it.

Just yesterday one of my friends was saying how he is scared of roller coasters and does not ride them, while talking to him, I realized that roller coasters or any other such activity will not be fun if we would not have any fear for it.

The person who is afraid will show guts, take a start, prep for it and then put himself in the position of point of no return and experiences what he fears and then learns from it. If one is not afraid of doing some thing he would find no joy or challenge in doing that thing. So for example if I am not afraid of sitting on roller coasters, I would probably not find them to be too much fun. Instead, if I am afraid, I would first dread about it and then prep and buck my self up that I can do it, then I will take a plunge by putting myself in the seat where I am locked up and once the coaster will start moving, I will know this is the point of no return and I will tell myself, " Its too late to be afraid now so lets see how it goes" and then will just enjoy the ride as I will be expected the unexpected at every turn. :)

So basically, showing courage in the face of fear is what makes us better and stronger men and women. fear is a wall which blocks us from whatever there is on the other side and we cannot walk through it, we can only climb over it and courage is the only tool which helps us to do that.

To live and to live life fully, I pray that we all feel fear and find courage to overcome that fear. Let those be the experiences of our life. :)

Hum TV has played a big role in the revival of TV dramas. It has been showing high entertainment value dramas which are well written, acted and directed.

Now a days, TV Drama serial MAAT is being aired. It has been directed by Amna Nawaz Khan and written by Umera Ahmed. It is an extremely well directed play and all the actors have been utilized to their full potential. the story is great and has a good twists. However, one of the crucial mistake that has been made is that the title track's video gives away the whole story. It is also aired at the beginning of every episode. One of the main ingredients for the success of any play/movie etc is the element of suspense or surprise for the viewers. That keeps them hooked to the television and keep em asking for more. That element of surprise is lost by the title track's video. The idea of the promo is to generate the interest of the viewer by providing enough information without giving away the story. The promo here fails to do that. For example, the wedding night scene is shown between the two main characters of the play. That is the main twist of the story which is given away from the very first episode because of the title track's video.

I would still recommend the stakeholders to edit that video to save the rest of the episodes which still remain to be aired.

I am amazed how women say that they did not scream at all. I just don't understand! I, perhaps, as I must accept it now.. am WEAK. Screamed my heart out when the contractions truly took their toll. Nurses from the neighboring room came in to inquire if every thing was ok. Labor room should be sound proof. At the height of pain I screamed, "Get it out of me!!" "Kia bakwas hai!" etc etc. The worse part of being in labor pain is that you realize, it too late to go back. You curse the day you burned in the heat of passion. Though you want the consequence of that but the journey to it is quite hard. You are stuck in the middle at that moment and you realize that the only way to go now, is forward. The dilation would continue and the contractions would only get worse and all you can do is scream. I rose from my bed and pushed the bottom of the bed edge so hard at every contraction that I felt that it will break any time. There is nothing you can do except be happy when the contraction ends, dread that the next one will come any moment and ofcourse endure the excruciating pain while the contraction lasts.

As smart as I am, I had already decided to take epidural which they finally gave to me when the contractions were half a minute apart. Then my doctor came and said that I shouldn't have had it, as now.. how would I feel the urge to push if I am not in pain. Then she made a statement that I would always remember.. "Birthing is not easy, it requires a lot of hard work, that is why it is called LABOR". Going through the whole process myself truly made me understand that statement. All my life, I casually referred to the birthing process as labor and now I realized there is nothing casual about it, it is but true labor. After the epidural, it was a very smooth sail. The doc said push! and I pushed the kid out with a pop! he flew out and the resident doc had to catch him before he fell. In a sec, my bundle of joy was out. The most beautiful creature that I ever saw in my entire life.

JEE HAAN.. meri literally phat gaye thi! but as they all say.. my labor of love was worth it for the bundle of joy that I got in return.

“In my next life I want to live my life backwards. You start out dead and get that out of the way. Then you wake up in an old people's home feeling better every day. You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension, and then when you start work, you get a gold watch and a party on your first day. You work for 40 years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You party, drink alcohol, and are generally promiscuous, then you are ready for high school. You then go to primary school, you become a kid, you play. You have no responsibilities, you become a baby until you are born. And then you spend your last 9 months floating in luxurious spa-like conditions with central heating and room service on tap, larger quarters every day and then Voila! You finish off as an orgasm!”
― Woody Allen

Ultra sound - wow!! it looks like a whole person now. The whole i think i am gonna be a mom concept seems like an unavoidable reality now

More food!

I am fat syndrome kicks in

Its moving inside

High energy level

Third Trimester:

So this is how it goes:

Loss of energy levels

Some pains kicks in

I need to rest more

The alien inside learns how to play football

Need lots of hubby love and attention

Tummy is huge, I feel like a penguin

I learn the delivery details

Stay in shock

Now shit scared

GOD HELP ME!!!

I haven't seen it yet, so every time it moves, and damn does it move! I am reminded of movies like species , aliens or shows like war of the world, where they show an alien moving in the tummy. hahahha .. so yeah.. i got an alien moving and living in my tummy.

Till it realizes into an actual human being for me. This is alien in the tummy's mom to be signing out!

Before I share with you guys what happened, let me start by telling you all, at the moment I am fully 8 months pregnant or you can say in my 36th week of pregnancy.

Yesterday, it was my second wedding anniversary. On my way back from office, I asked one of my colleagues from office to accompany me and help me buy gifts for my hubby. She agreed, we went to random places and after shopping I was on my way to drop her off at her home who lives in Gulistan-e- Juhar. We were standing at the juhar chorangi signal driving direction was from Juhar mor to juhar. It was about 6:15 pm a little before iftar and very crowded with cars and pedestrians alike.

we just chitting chatting when suddenly we heard crazy firing from our right side. The bustling pre- iftaar last moment iftaar shopping turned into a big panic. People started running shouting "bhaagoo! bhagoo!"(Run! Run!). cars started breaking the signal and driving away fast. My colleague also shouted, " Lets go! Lets Go!" Just when she said that. The car standing on my left just rammed into the car right in front of it. The guy in the car panicked and crashed it into the car in front of him. I carefully maneuvered my car and we too broke the signal and sped away. I reached her place and then i Drove to my place from the back road.

I didn't have the heart to tell my family as that would only scare them for me more, so i only told my husband.

Yes! it was crazy and it was scary. As we saw the news later on, the firing continued for quite some time and 3 people were killed. Karachi's situation is terrible. And we.. the citizens of Karachi live in constant fear and danger. Not sure that whether our family members and us will make it home alive every day or not. This beautiful city is now like battle field. I sincerely hope that things start getting better soon.