Wednesday, April 6, 2011

(Story?) Continues On

I don't know if I'm doing this the right way. I feel like yesterday's entry came out a little too 'high-drama' even though I did not intend it that way. I literally just sat down and wrote about the things I was remembering. I hardly edited at all, really only to correct misspellings or insert a forgotten word in a sentence. I want to tell the story, and I want to remember and confront the memories but I'm not certain when to pause and reflect. Do I examine each memory in turn? Ruminate on how it made me feel, why those feelings were warranted or perhaps silly? Or do I look at the tapestry of memories from a course of time and address them together? I've never been to see a therapist, someone trained in getting us to examine our emotions and behaviors. Nor do I think I've done a particularly good job of it on my own (obviously). But short of googling something like "learn to love yourself" or "improving your self-image" (which feels completely ridiculous) I'm not sure what's the right course of action. Anyway, this meta question has dominated my thinking more than the memories themselves, today, so that's what you get. I'll marinate and get back to you.