It’s rare to find something that makes you cry, laugh, and smile at the same time.

I’m moving soon and, in the process of going through my old things, I found a note I wrote to myself close to two years ago. This note was written about a week before I had a breakdown, the same breakdown that led to my awakening.

At the time, I was on a downward spiral – suicidal, self-destructive, and isolated. Every day just got more and more painful and every day I tried harder and harder to take the pain away, any way I could. Beyond my dominating facade, few people around me knew just how much mind space I was devoting to thoughts of suicide.

And then, someone was kind to me. And, in that moment, for just a second, I got a shred of hope. And this is what I wrote:

“You know, this feeling may pass and I will likely forget all about it and think that this note is not real, only the pain is. But, just now, for one second, I felt like everything would be okay. Remember that you can still feel that next time you’re thinking about leaving this world. You’ll be okay, Vironika. I know you. You’re strong and beautiful and you’ve got life by the balls. Never forget that.”

I can’t tell you that it was all downhill from there, because it wasn’t. I still had to learn my lesson the hard way and I still had to suffer to heal all the wounds I was too busy bandaging for years.

But this note, this precious little note, it just goes to show: there’s always hope. There’s always the possibility for hope. And hope is one of the most beautiful gifts any of us can give someone.

Zig Ziglar once said – “When you see someone without a smile, give them yours.”

You never know what people are going through. When I wrote this note, I lived in an armoured fortress in my isolated, sick mind, miles away from everyone else. I was hiding a mental illness from everyone around me, pretending like everything was okay.

So, smile. Be kind. Be generous. Who knows how many lives your love can save?

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