FESTIVAL AT ADHAR'S HOUSE

Yoga and the six centres — The state of samadhi — Keeping individuality
after samadhi — Two classes of paramahamsas — Paramahamsas
as teachers of men — Master sings of divine joy — Renunciation, true
and false — Prema, the rarest love of God — How to attain pure love
of God — Degrees of knowledge — The time factor in spiritual progress
— Master teaches M. — Master at Adhar's house — Narendra's music
— Master in ecstasy.

Sunday, August 3, 1884

SRI RAMAKRISHNA was sitting in
his room in the temple garden at Dakshineswar after his midday meal. A party of
Bauls from Shibpur, several
devotees from Bhawanipur, Balaram, and M. were in the room.
Rakhal, Latu, and Harish were then living with the Master. They too were
present.

The Master began the conversation by addressing the Baul musicians
from Shibpur.

MASTER: "Yoga is not possible if the mind
dwells on 'woman and gold'.
The mind of a worldly man generally moves among the three lower centres:
those at the navel, at the sexual organ, and at the organ of evacuation. After
great effort and spiritual practice the Kundalini is awakened. According to
the yogis there are three nerves in the spinal column: Ida, Pingala, and
Sushumna. Along the Sushumna are six lotuses, or centres, the lowest being
known as the Muladhara. Then come successively Svadhisthana, Manipura,
Anahata, Visuddha, and Ajna. These are the six centres. The Kundalini,
when awakened, passes through the lower centres and comes to the Anahata,
which is at the heart. It stays there. At that time the mind of the aspirant is
withdrawn from the three lower centres. He feels the awakening of Divine
Consciousness and sees Light. In mute wonder he sees that radiance and
cries out: 'What is this? What is this?'

"After passing through the six centres, the Kundalini reaches the
thousand-petalled lotus known as the Sahasrara, and the aspirant goes into samadhi.

"According to the Vedas these centres are called 'bhumi', 'planes'. There
are seven such planes. The centre at the heart corresponds to the fourth
plane of the Vedas. According to the Tantra there is in this centre a lotus
called Anahata, with twelve petals.

"The centre known as Visuddha is the fifth plane. This centre is at the
throat and has a lotus with sixteen petals. When the Kundalini reaches this
plane, the devotee longs to talk and hear only about God. Conversation on
worldly subjects, on 'woman and gold', causes him great pain. He leaves a
place where people talk of these matters.

"Then comes the sixth plane, corresponding to the centre known as Ajna.
This centre is located between the eyebrows and it has a lotus with two
petals. When the Kundalini reaches it, the aspirant sees the form of God.
But still there remains a slight barrier between the devotee and God. It is
like a light inside a lantern. You may think you have touched the light, but
in reality you cannot because of the barrier of glass.

"And last of all is the seventh plane, which, according to Tantra, is the
centre of the thousand-petalled lotus. When the Kundalini arrives there,
the aspirant goes into samadhi. In that lotus dwells Satchidananda Siva, the
Absolute. There Kundalini, the awakened Power, unites with Siva. This is
known as the union of Siva and Sakti.

"When the Kundalini rises to the Sahasrara and the mind goes into
samadhi, the aspirant loses all consciousness of the outer world. He can no
longer retain his physical body. If milk is poured into his mouth, it runs out
again. In that state the life-breath lingers for twenty-one days and then
passes out. Entering the 'black waters' of the ocean, the ship never comes
back. But the Isvarakotis, such as the Incarnations of God, can come down
from this state of samadhi. They can descend from this exalted state because
they like to live in the company of devotees and enjoy the love of God. God
retains in them the 'ego of Knowledge' or the 'ego of Devotion' so that
they may teach men. Their minds move between the sixth and the seventh
planes. They run a boat-race back and forth, as it were, between these two
planes.

"After attaining samadhi some souls of their own accord keep the 'ego of
Knowledge'. But that ego does not create any attachment. It is like a line
drawn on the water.

"Hanuman kept the 'servant ego' after realizing God in both His Personal
and His Impersonal aspects. He thought of himself as the servant of God.
The great sages, such as Narada, Sanaka, Sananda, Sanatana, and Sanatkumara,
after attaining the Knowledge of Brahman, kept the 'servant ego'
and the 'ego of Devotion'. They are like big steamships, which not only
cross the ocean themselves but carry many passengers to the other shore.

"There are two classes of paramahamsas, one affirming the formless Reality
and the other affirming God with form. Trailanga Swami believed in the
formless Reality. Paramahamsas like him care for their own good alone; they
feel satisfied if they themselves attain the goal.

"But those paramahamsas who believe in God with form. keep the love of
God even after attaining the Knowledge of Brahman, so that they may teach
spiritual truth to others. They are like a pitcher brimful of water. Part of
the water may be poured into another pitcher. These perfected souls describe
to others the various spiritual disciplines by which they have realized God.
They do this only to teach others and to help them in spiritual life. With
great effort men dig a well for drinking-water, using spades and baskets
for the purpose. After the digging is over, some throw the spades and other
implements into the well, not needing them any more. But some put them
away near the well, so that others may use them.

"Some eat mangoes secretly and remove all trace of them by wiping their
mouths with a towel. But some share the fruit with others. There are sages
who, even after attaining Knowledge, work to help others and also to enjoy
the Bliss of God in the company of devotees. 'I' want to eat sugar. I don't
want to be sugar.'

"The gopis of Vrindavan, too, attained the Knowledge of Brahman; but
they were not seeking It. They wanted to enjoy God, looking on themselves
as His mother, His friend, His handmaid, or His lover."

The Bauls from Shibpur began to sing to the accompaniment of a stringed
instrument. A line in the first song was:

We are sinners: redeem us, O merciful Lord!

MASTER (to the devotees): "It is
the attitude of a beginner to worship God out of fear. Please sing about
God-realization — songs expressing divine joy.

(To Rakhal) "How well they sang that song the other day at Nabin
Niyogi's house: 'Be drunk, O mind, be drunk with the Wine of Heavenly
Bliss'! While singing religious songs one should not constantly refer to one's
worries. One should rather feel joyous and ecstatic as one chants God's
name."

A DEVOTEE: "Sir, won't you sing?"

MASTER : "What shall I sing? Well, I may sing
when the spirit moves me."

After a few minutes the Master began to sing. His eyes were turned upward. He sang:

Behold the waves of Gora's ecstatic love;
Under them all the universe lies submerged!
And in his love I, too, long to be drowned.
O friend, Gauranga's love has swallowed me;
Who else feels for our misery like Gauranga,
Dragging us from the mire of worldliness?

He sang again:

Dive deep, O mind, dive deep in the Ocean of God's-Beauty;
If you descend to the uttermost depths,
There you will find the gem of Love. . . .

Then he sang about the Divine-Mother:

Can everyone have the vision of Syama? Is Kali's treasure for everyone?
Oh, what a pity my foolish mind will not see what is true! . . .

He continued:

The black bee of my mind is drawn in sheer delight
To the blue lotus flower of Mother Syama's feet. . . .

And again:

O Mother, what a machine (The human body)
is this that Thou hast made!
What pranks Thou playest with this toy
Three and a half cubits high! . . .

As Sri Ramakrishna sang the last song he went into samadhi. The devotees
sat speechless, gazing at his radiant figure. After some time he regained partial
consciousness of the world and began to talk to the Divine Mother.

The Master said, "Mother, please come down from up there." Did he feel
his mind still lingering in the seventh plane of consciousness, the
thousand-petalled lotus of the Sahasrara?

"O Mother, everybody's future is determined by the tendencies of his
previous births. What shall I say to these people? Nothing can be achieved
without discrimination and renunciation."

Sri Ramakrishna had now regained full consciousness of the world, and
he continued: "There are many kinds of renunciation. One of them may be
called 'markatavairagya', 'monkey renunciation'. It is a false renunciation
stimulated by the afflictions of the world. That renunciation doesn't last
long. Then there is real renunciation. A man with everything in the world,
lacking nothing, feels all to be unreal.

"It is not possible to acquire renunciation all at once. The time factor
must be taken into account. But it is also true that a man should hear about
it. When the right time comes, he will say to himself, 'Oh yes, I heard about
this.'

"You must also remember another thing. By constantly hearing about
renunciation one's desire for worldly objects gradually wears away. One should
take rice-water in small doses to get rid of the intoxication of liquor. Then
one gradually becomes normal.

"An aspirant entitled to the Knowledge of God is very rare. It is said in
the Gita that one in thousands desires to know God, and again that among
thousands who have such a desire, only one is able to know God."

A devotee quoted the text from the Gita.

MASTER: "As your attachment to the world diminishes your
spiritual knowledge will increase. Attachment to the world means attachment to
'woman and gold'.

"It is not given to everybody to feel prema, ecstatic love of God. Chaitanya
experienced it. An ordinary man can at the most experience bhava. Only
the Isvarakotis, such as Divine Incarnations, experience prema. When prema
is awakened the devotee not only feels the world to be unreal forgets
even the body, which everyone loves so intensely.

"In a Persian book it is said that inside the skin is the flesh, inside the
flesh the bone, inside the bone, the marrow and so on but that prema is the
innermost of all. One becomes soft and tender through prema. On account of
this prema, Krishna became Tribhanga.1

"Prema is the rope by which you can tether God, as it were. Whenever
you want to see Him you have merely to pull the rope. Whenever you call
Him, He will appear before you.

"The mature stage of bhakti is bhava. When one attains it one remains
speechless, thinking of Satchidananda. The feeling of an ordinary man can
go only that far. When bhava ripens it becomes mahabhava. Prema is the
last. You know the difference between a green mango and a ripe one.
Unalloyed love of God is the essential thing. All else is unreal.

"Once Rama was pleased with the prayer of Narada and told him to ask
for a boon. Narada prayed for pure love and said further, 'O Rama, please
grant that I may not be deluded by Thy world-bewitching maya.' Rama
said: 'That is all right. But ask for something else.' Narada replied: 'I don't
want anything else. I pray only for pure love.'

"How can a devotee attain such love? First, the company of holy men.
That awakens sraddha, faith in God. Then comes nishtha, single-minded
devotion to the Ideal. In that stage the devotee does not like to hear anything
thing but talk about God. He performs only those acts that please God. After
nishtha comes bhakti, devotion to God; then comes bhava. Next mahabhava,
then prema, and last of all the attainment of God Himself. Only for
Isvarakotis, such as the Incarnations, is it possible to have mahabhava or
prema.

"The knowledge of a worldly person, the knowledge of a devotee, and
the Knowledge of an Incarnation are by no means of the same degree. The
knowledge of a worldly person is like the light of an oil lamp, which shows
only the inside of a room. Through such knowledge he eats and drinks, attends
to household duties, protects his body, brings up his children, and so on.

'The knowledge of a devotee is like the light of the moon, which illumines
mines objects both inside and outside a room. But such light does not enable
him to see a distant or a very minute object.

"The Knowledge of an Incarnation of God is like the light of the sun.
Through that light the Incarnation sees everything, inside and outside, big
and small.

"The mind of a worldly person is, no doubt, like muddy water; but it can
be made clear by a purifying agent. Discrimination and renunciation are the
purifying agent."

The Master spoke to the devotees from Shibpur.

MASTER: "Have you any questions to ask?"

A DEVOTEE: "We have listened to your words."

MASTER: "Yes, it is good to listen to these things. But
nothing will happen except at the right time. What can quinine do for a fever patient when he
runs a high temperature? Only when his temperature comes down through
the use of 'fever mixture' or a purgative should quinine be prescribed. There
are patients who get rid of their fever even without quinine. A child said
to his mother, when he was put to bed, 'Mother, please wake me up when I
feel the call of nature.' The mother said: 'My child, I shall not have to wake
you. The urge itself will wake you.'

"Different kinds of people come here. Some come by boat with the devotees.
But they do not enjoy spiritual talk. They keep nudging their friends
and whispering: 'When shall we leave here? When are we going?' If the
friends show no 'sign of getting up, they say, 'We would rather wait for you
in the boat.'

"Those who have a human body for the first time need the experience
of sense enjoyments. Spiritual consciousness is not awakened unless certain
duties have been performed."

The Master was going to the pine-grove. With a smile he said to M., on
the semicircular porch, "Well, what do you think of my state of mind?"

M. (smiling): "On the surface you are very simple, but inwardly very
deep. It is extremely difficult to understand you."

MASTER (smiling): "True. It is like
the cement floor of a house. People see only the outer surface and do not know
how many materials there are under it."

It was about four o'clock in the afternoon. Balaram and several other
devotees got into a country boat to return to Calcutta. It was ebb-tide in the
Ganges. A gentle breeze was blowing from the south, covering the bosom
of the sacred river with ripples. M. looked at the scene a long time. As the
boat disappeared in the direction of Calcutta, he came back to the Master.

Sri Ramakrishna was going to the pine-grove. A beautiful, dark rain-cloud
was to be seen in the northwest. The Master asked M.: "Do you think it
will rain? Please bring my umbrella." M. brought the umbrella. Reaching
the Panchavati, the Master said to Latu, who also accompanied him, "Why
do you look so sickly?"

LATU: "I can hardly eat anything."

MASTER: "Is that the only reason? It is
also a bad time of the year. Are
you meditating too much? (To M.) I have a request to make of you. Please
tell Baburam to stay with me a day or two during Rakhal's absence. Otherwise
I shall feel very unhappy."

Presently the Master left them, going in the direction of the pine-trees.
After a few minutes M. and Latu, standing in the Panchavati, saw the
Master coming back toward them. Behind him the sky was black with the
rain-cloud. Its reflection in the Ganges made the water darker. The disciples
felt that the Master was God Incarnate, a Divine Child five years old, radiant
with the smile of innocence and purity. Around him were the sacred
trees of the Panchavati under which he had practised spiritual discipline
and had beheld visions of God. At his feet flowed the sacred river Ganges,
the destroyer of man's sins. The presence of this God-man charged the trees,
shrubs, flowers, plants, and temples with spiritual fervour and divine joy.

Sri Ramakrishna returned to his room and sat on the small couch. He
began to praise a medicine that a certain brahmachari had prepared for him.
Referring to this man, Hazra said: "He is now entangled in many worldly
anxieties. What a shame! Look at Nabai Chaitanya of Konnagar. Though
a householder, he has put on a red cloth."

MASTER: "What shall I say? I clearly see
that it is God Himself who has
assumed all these human forms. Therefore I cannot take anybody to task."

HAZRA: "Narendra is again involved in a lawsuit."

MASTER: "He doesn't believe in Sakti, the Divine Mother. If one
assumes a human body, one must recognize Her."

HAZRA: "Narendra says: 'If I believed in Sakti, all would follow me.
Therefore I cannot.'"

MASTER: "But it is not good for him to go to
the extreme of denying the
Divine Mother. He is now under Sakti's jurisdiction. Even a judge, while
giving evidence in a case, comes down and stands in the witness-box.

(To M.) "Have you seen Narendra lately?"

M: "Not during the last few days."

MASTER: "See him and bring him here in a carriage.

(To Hazra) "Well, what is his relation to this [meaning himself]?"

HAZRA: "He expects help from you."

MASTER: "And what about Bhavanath? Would he come here
so frequently if he didn't have good tendencies? What about Harish and Latu?
They always meditate. Why is that?"

HAZRA: "That's right. Why should they devote all their
time to meditation? It is quite a different thing for them to stay here to attend
to your personal needs."

MASTER: "Possibly you are right. Perhaps
others may take their place now.

Hazra left the room, leaving the Master alone with M.

MASTER: "Does what I say in the state of
ecstasy attract people?"

M: "Oh, yes. Very much."

MASTER: "What do people think of me? Do
they think anything in particular about me when they see me in that condition?"

M: "We feel in you a wonderful synthesis of knowledge, love, and
renunciation, and on the surface a natural spontaneity. Many divine
experiences have passed, like huge steamboats, through the deep of your inner
consciousness; still you maintain outwardly this utter simplicity. Many cannot
understand it, but a few are attracted by this state alone."

MASTER: "There is a sect of Vaishnavas known as
the Ghoshpara, who
describe God as the 'Sahaja', the 'Simple One'. They say further that a man
cannot recognize this 'Simple One' unless he too is simple. (To M.) Have I
any ego?"

M: "Yes, sir. A little. You have kept it to preserve your body, and to
enjoy divine love in the company of the devotees and impart spiritual knowledge
to them. Further, you have kept this trace of ego by praying to the
Divine Mother for it."

MASTER: "No. I have not kept it. It is God
Himself who has left it in me.
Can you tell me how I appear in the state of samadhi?"

M: "As you said a little while ago, you see the form of God when your
mind rises to the 'sixth plane'. When you speak after that, your mind comes
down to the 'fifth plane'."

MASTER: "It is God who does all these things. I do not know anything."

M: "That is why you attract people so much. Sir, I have a question to ask.
There are two opinions in the scriptures. According to one Purana, Krishna
is Chidatma, the Absolute, and Radha is Chitsakti, Its Divine Power; but
according to another, Krishna Himself is Kali, the Primordial Energy."

MASTER: "This second view is held in the Devi Purana. According to it,
Kali Herself has become Krishna. But what difference does it make? God is
infinite, and infinite are the ways to reach Him."

M. remained speechless with wonder for a few moments and then said:
"Oh, now I understand. As you say, the important thing is to climb to the
roof. Our goal will be achieved if we can accomplish it by following any of
the means — a rope or a pole."

MASTER: "It is through the grace of God that
you have understood that. Without His grace doubt is never cleared up.

"The important thing is somehow to cultivate devotion to God and love
for Him. What is the use of knowing many things? It is enough to cultivate
love of God by following any of the paths. When you have this love, you
are sure to attain God. Afterwards, if it is necessary, God will explain everything
to you and tell you about the other paths as well. It is enough for you
to develop love of God. You have no need of many opinions and discussions.
You have come to the orchard to eat mangoes. Enjoy them to your
heart's content. You don't need to count the branches and leaves on the trees.
It is wise to follow the attitude of Hanuman: 'I do not know the day of the
week, the phase of the moon, or the position of the stars; I only contemplate
Rama.'"

M: "I now desire that my activities may be much reduced and that I may
devote myself greatly to God."

MASTER: "Ah! Certainly your desire will be
fulfilled. But a jnani can live unattached in the world."

M: "True, sir. But one needs special power to lead an unattached life."

MASTER: "That is also true. But perhaps
you wanted the worldly life.
Krishna had been enshrined in Radha's heart; but Radha wanted to sport
with Him in human form. Hence all the episodes of Vrindavan. Now you
should pray to God that your worldly duties may be reduced. And you will
achieve the goal if you renounce mentally."

M: "But mental renunciation is prescribed for those who cannot give up
the world outwardly. For superior devotees total renunciation is enjoined
— both outer and inner."

Sri Ramakrishna was silent a few minutes and then resumed the conversation.

MASTER: "How did you like what I said about
renunciation a little while ago?"

M: "Very much, sir."

MASTER: "Tell me, what is the meaning of renunciation?"

M: "Renunciation does not mean simply dispassion for the world. It
means dispassion for the world and also longing for God."

MASTER: "You are right. You no doubt need money for your worldly life;
but don't worry too much about it. The wise course is to accept what comes
of its own accord. Don't take too much trouble to save money. Those who
surrender their hearts and souls to God, those who are devoted to Him and
have taken refuge in Him, do not worry much about money. As they earn;
so they spend. The money comes in one way and goes out the other. This
is what the Gita describes as 'accepting what comes of its own accord'."

The Master referred to Haripada and said, "He came here the other day."

M: "He knows how to sing the stories of the Purana, He sings melodiously
about the life of Prahlada and the nativity of Sri Krishna."

MASTER : "Is that so? That day I looked
into his eyes. They had an inward
look. I asked him whether he meditated a great deal, but he sat with his eyes
cast down and didn't answer. Then I said to him, 'Look here, don't strain
yourself too much.'"

It was now dusk. Sri Ramakrishna, as was usual with him during this
part of the day, chanted the names of God and turned his mind to contemplation
Soon the moon rose in the sky. The temples, courtyards, and trees
were bathed in its silvery light, and millions of broken moons played on the
rippling surface of the Ganges. Rakhal and M. were with the Master in his
room.

MASTER (to M.): "Baburam says, 'Oh, the worldly life! God forbid!'"

M: "His opinion is based on mere hearsay. What does he know of the
world? He is a mere child."

MASTER: "Yes, that is true. Have you noticed
Niranjan? He is utterly artless."

M: "Yes, sir. His very appearance attracts people. How expressive his eyes are!"

MASTER: "Not only his eyes, but his entire person.
His relatives proposed
that he marry. At this he said, 'Why are you going to drown me?' (With a
smile) Tell me this. People say that a man finds great pleasure in the
company of his wife after the hard work of the day."

M: "That is no doubt true of those who think that way. (To Rakhal, with
a smile) We are now being examined. This is a leading question."

Both Rakhal and M. were married.

MASTER (with a smile): "A mother
says, 'I shall heave a sigh of relief if I can procure a "shade-tree"
(The word means "wife")
for my son. He will rest in its shade when scorched by the heat of the world.'"

M: "True, sir. But there are parents and parents. A father who is spiritually
illumined doesn't give his children in marriage. If he does, his is a fine
spirituality!"

Adhar Sen arrived from Calcutta and saluted the Master. After a few
minutes he went to the temple of Kali, where M. followed him.

A little later M. was sitting at the bathing-ghat on the Ganges. The flood-tide
had just set in. As he listened to the waters lapping against the bank,
many pictures of Sri Ramakrishna's divine life flitted before his mind: the
Master's deep samadhi, his constant ecstasy, his joy in the love of God, his
untiring discourse on spiritual life, his genuine love for the devotees, and,
above all, his childlike simplicity. Who was this man? Was it God who had
embodied Himself on earth for the sake of His devotees?

Adhar and M. returned to the Master's room. Adhar had been to Chittagong,
in East Bengal, on official duty. He was telling the Master about his
visit to the Chandranath Hills and Sitakunda, sacred places of Chittagong.
ADHAR: "Near Sitakunda I visited a well where I
saw fire in the water. It is always burning on the water with leaping tongues."

MASTER: "How is that possible?"

ADHAR: "The water contains phosphorous."

Presently Ram Chatterji entered the room. The Master said some kind
words about him to Adhar.

MASTER: "Ram's presence in the temple garden has
relieved us of many
anxieties. He searches out Harish, Latu, and the others at meal-time. Very
often they are absorbed in meditation in some corner of the temple garden.
It is Ram who sees that they eat at the proper time."

Saturday, September 6, 1884

About three o'clock in the afternoon Sri Ramakrishna was seated in
Adhar's parlour on the second floor. Narendra, the Mukherji brothers,
Bhavanath, M., Hazra, and other devotees were with the Master.

Arrangements were being made for Narendra to sing: While he was tuning
the tanpura, one of the strings snapped, and the Master exclaimed, "Oh!
What have you done?" Narendra then tuned the drums. The Master said to
him, "You are beating that drum, and I feel as if someone were slapping my
cheek.

Referring to the kirtan, Narendra said: "There is not much rhythm in the
kirtan. That's why it is so popular and people love it so much."

MASTER: "How silly! People like it because it is so
tender and full of pathos."

O Lord, must all my days pass by so utterly in vain?
Down the path of hope I gaze with longing, day and night.
Thou art the Lord of all the worlds, and I but a beggar here;
How can I ask of Thee to come and dwell within my heart?
My poor heart's humble cottage door is standing open wide;
Be gracious, Lord, and enter there but once, and quench its thirst!

MASTER (to Hazra, smiling): "That
was the first song he sang for me."

Narendra sang one or two more songs. Then Vaishnavcharan sang, describing
the grief of the gopis at the sight of Krishna as king of Mathura:

O Hari, how shall we know You now?
In Mathura's royal splendour You have forgotten us....

MASTER: "Won't you sing that one —'O
vina, sing Lord Hari's name'?"

Vaishnavcharan sang:

O vina, sing Lord Hari's name!
Without the blessing of His feet
You cannot know the final Truth.
The name of Hari slays all grief:
Sing Hari's name! Sing Krishna's name!
If only Hari shows His grace,
Then I shall never be distressed.
O vina, sing His name but once;
No earthly gem is half so rare.
Govinda says: In vain my days
Have passed. No longer may I float
Here in life's trackless ocean waste!

While listening to the song, the Master became abstracted. Saying "Ah
me! Ah me!", he went into samadhi. The devotees were sitting around him,
their eyes riveted on him. The room was filled with people.

The musician sang again. As he improvised new lines describing ecstatic
love of God, the Master stood up and danced. He himself improvised lines
and sang them with outstretched arms. Soon he went into samadhi and sat
down, with his head resting on the bolster in front of him. The musician
was also carried away with emotion and sang new songs. Sri Ramakrishna
again stood up and began to dance. The devotees could not control themselves.
They too danced with the Master. While dancing, Sri Ramakrishna
every now and then went into deep samadhi. When he was in the deepest
samadhi he could not utter a word and his whole body remained transfixed.
The devotees danced encircling him. After a while, regaining partial
consciousness, he danced with the strength of a lion, intoxicated with ecstatic
love. But even then he could not utter a word. Finally, regaining more of
the consciousness of the world, he sang again, improvising the lines. An
intense spiritual atmosphere was created in Adhar's parlour. At the sound of
the loud music a large crowd had gathered in the street.

Sri Ramakrishna danced a long time in the company of the devotees.
When he resumed his seat, still tinged with the lingering glow of divine
fervour, he asked Narendra to sing "O Mother, make me mad with Thy
love".

Narendra sang:

O Mother, make me mad with Thy love!
What need have I of knowledge or reason? . . .

MASTER: "And that one — Upon the Sea of Blissful Awareness'."

Narendra sang:

Upon the Sea of Blissful Awareness waves of ecstatic love arise:
Rapture divine! Play of God's Bliss!
Oh, how enthralling! . . .

MASTER: "And that one too — 'In Wisdom's firmament'. Perhaps
it is too long. Do you think so? All right, sing it slowly."

Narendra sang:

In Wisdom's firmament the moon of Love is rising full,
And Love's flood-tide, in surging waves, is flowing everywhere.
O Lord, how full of bliss Thou art! Victory unto Thee! . . .

MASTER: "And won't you sing that one — The Wine of Heavenly Bliss'?"

Narendra sang:

Be drunk, O mind, be drunk with the Wine of Heavenly Bliss!
Roll on the ground and weep, chanting Hari's sweet name!
Fill the arching heavens with your deep lion roar,
Singing Hari's sweet name! With both your arms upraised,
Dance in the name of Hari and give His name to all.
Swim by day and by night in the bliss of Hari's love;
Slay desire with His name, and blessed be your life!

Sri Ramakrishna and the devotees rested awhile. Narendra said to the
Master in a low voice, "Will you kindly sing that one?"

MASTER: "My voice has become a little hoarse."

After a few minutes he asked Narendra, "Which one?"

NARENDRA: "'Gaur, whose beauty delights the world.'"

Sri Ramakrishna sang, describing the beauty of Sri Chaitanya:

Who has brought Gaur to Nadia —
Gaur, whose beauty delights the world?
His face, covered with ringlets of hair,
Shines like lightning against a dark cloud. . . .

Again he sang, This time about the grief of a gopi at her separation from Sri Krishna:

I have not found my Krishna, O friend! How cheerless my home without Him!
Ah, if Krishna could only be the hair upon my head,
Carefully I should braid it then, and deck it with bakul-flowers;
Carefully I should fashion the braids out of my Krishna-hair.
Krishna is black, and black is my hair; black would be one with black.

Ah, if Krishna could only be the ring I wear in my nose,
Always from my nose He would hang, and my two lips could touch Him.
But it can never be, alas! Why should I idly dream?
Why should Krishna care at all to be the ring in my nose?

Ah, if Krishna could only be the bracelets on my arms,
Always He would cling to my wrists, and proudly I should walk,
Shaking my bracelets to make them sound, shaking my arms to show them;
Down the king's highway I should walk, wearing my Krishna-bracelets.

The music was over. The Master began to talk with the devotees.

MASTER (smiling): "Hazra danced."

NARENDRA: "Yes, a little."

MASTER: "A little?"

NARENDRA: "Yes. His belly danced too." (All laugh.)

Pundit Shashadhar's host had been thinking of inviting the Master for
dinner.

MASTER: "I have heard that his host is not an honest man. He is immoral."

NARENDRA: "That is why you didn't drink the
water he touched. It happened the first day you met Shashadhar at his house.
How did you come to know he was immoral?"

MASTER (smiling): "Hazra knows of another
instance. It happened at Sihore in Hriday's house."

HAZRA: "The man was a Vaishnava. He came
with me to see you [meaning Sri Ramakrishna]. As soon as he sat in front of you,
you turned your back on him."

MASTER: "We learnt later that he led an
immoral life. (To Narendra) You used to say, at first, that these were
all hallucinations."

NARENDRA: "How was I to know? Now I see that you are always right."

Adhar had prepared a feast for the Master and the devotees, and now he
invited them to the meal. The Master said to the Mukherji brothers: "What?
Won't you eat?" They said humbly, "Please excuse us."

MASTER: "But why? You are doing everything
else. Why this hesitation only about eating the meal?"

Adhar was a low-caste Hindu. Therefore some of the Master's brahmin
devotees hesitated to eat at his house. They came to their senses at last when
they saw Sri Ramakrishna himself eating.

It was about nine o'clock. The Master was resting in the drawing-room
with the devotees. He would soon leave for Dakshineswar.

The Mukherji brothers had arranged with a singer of kirtan to entertain
the Master the following day. Ram was taking singing-lessons from this
musician. Sri Ramakrishna asked Narendra to come to Dakshineswar to
hear the kirtan.

MASTER (to Narendra): "Come tomorrow, won't you?"

NARENDRA: "I shall try, sir."

MASTER: "You can bathe there and also take
your meal. (Pointing to M.) He may dine there too. (To M.) Are
you quite well now? I hope you are not on a diet."

M: "No, sir. I shall come."

Nityagopal was living at Vrindavan. Chunilal had returned from Vrindavan
only a few days before, and the Master inquired about Nityagopal.

As Sri Ramakrishna was about to leave, M. saluted him, touching the
Master's feet with his forehead. The Master said to him tenderly: "Then I
shall see you tomorrow. Narendra! Bhavanath! Please come tomorrow."
Then with several devotees he set out for Dakshineswar.

The other devotees returned home in the moonlit night, cherishing in
their hearts the Master's ecstatic music and dancing.