Monday, January 11, 2010

LOL dramatic title but ti's true. 1st reason, I got 2 texts messages from my college today saying it will be open tomorrow and one saying it will be open Thursday, I know its open tomorrow but I wanna slap the text message sender! The other reason is I'm constantly having conversations with the other person who is in a negative mind and even though I avoid that shit I say to this person"Its all good look on the bright side blah blah blah" and then they start complain more saying its all useless and then I just say "Hum OK well... if that's how you feel, I'm hear to talk." then they say "What? No, you know what I gotta look on the bright side, but I appreciate you trying!" -_-...

lol but anyway my babies they big freeze is ending and the snow is melted! My heart is warming and I'm sending happy and positive vibes.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

OK few people, as in everyone that knows me, know that I wants at least 5 tattoos... but right now I face eviction if I get one, typical... ANYWAY I wanted to get my first one, a Sagittarius sign, on my head but no can do because its not aloud, wonderful. So I decided first on shall be, drum roll please

brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr da bam pishaw!

On my side! Right side to be exact! whether I'm going to get Sagittarius or not is in debate! I like the one illustrated in this blog some the fuck where... I'm really bad with computers... but I also want a dance related tattoo so going to have to see!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

I am feeling so emotional right now. I am so worried about college next year and where I'll go and how I'm going to pay and whatever... I wanted to share with you guys my college entry essay. Enjoy.

I always loved to perform; I would say this is why I chose this course. I have always loved to entertain people. To be able to express myself through performance has always been very important to me and I believe I have the characteristics which are crucial for a performer to have. I'm an extremely reliable person and I'm very punctual; I believe these attributes are vital for a performer. I work with others extremely well and listen carefully to what is being asked of me and account for all opinions. Together, combining my endurance and strength, I never give up on something, regardless of how difficult I may find it. As an artist I am ready for physical testing as well as what is expected of one in my profession.Currently I am studying Theatre Performance in Marino College Dublin. There are nine different modules. It is quite a broad course and it has forced me look at all the different and enticing aspects of theatre, which is helpful because it reassures me of my love for performing.Attending university has always been a dream of mine. Ever since I was a child I wanted to finish my education to BA (HONS) standard. Should I ever want to teach, a degree would make that possible and I would someday like to teach in a university or performing arts school.When I was in fourth year in secondary school, I was sent on two two-week placements of work experience. The first was in December of 2005; I worked in my local primary school where I helped to organize the annual nativity play. In May of 2006, I worked in a restaurant in Dublin city centre, Yamamori Noodles. I worked there as a member of the floor staff. In December of 2008, I toured around Dublin with the Dry Ice Theatre Company performing a children's play, in which I played Ryan from High school Musical. We performed this play in schools and various venues around Dublin. In March of 2009, while still with Dry Ice, I was a chorus member in a production of Bye Bye Birdie. In September of 2009, I worked on a show called Madame Butterfly, which ran as part of the Fringe Festival. For this show I acted as stage manager, usher and program seller. I also volunteered for the Dublin Theatre Festival in the same year, where I did a lot of program sales and ushering.I like to be active. My hobbies include dance, drama, jogging, competitive swimming and cycling. This helps me as a performer and help to me maintain good physical health. When I was young I would go to summer stage school every year, this was the highlight of my year from the ages of six to seventeen. Other hobbies include reading, a keen interest in mythology and enjoy a wide verity music.I feel I stand out from others as I have been given the chance of a lifetime to participate in workshops with Nikolai Veprev and Lucjan Wesoowski, due to my participation in the Mythology at the Basics, anthropological and theatrical workshop. Although I have danced and enjoyed physical workshops beforehand, working with Nikolai has been the most physically challenging experience of my career to date. Nikolai had me doing things I never thought I would adapt to and though I would be physically exhausted the next day I found myself begging him to teach me more.Other achievements that I am very proud of include my participation in the Model United Nations, 2006. I have also completed a three week scholarship to study in Sendai, Japan in June of 2007, where I studied Japanese culture and language. I have helped raise funds for the Central Remedial Clinic and Daffodil Day. I like to stay optimistic and ask myself 'Why not?' instead of telling myself I can't do something. I like to motivate and keep others around me happy and enjoy helping people. With the knowledge I hope to gain in university I plan to make a career out of my art and hopefully one day teach to youths and show people that they are capable of achieving their goals if they work for the future while still in the present.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

*I'm not linking this because its just for you guys. And Rain I am very sorry for inconsistency.

If there is one this Amy Winehouse, Kate Moss and I have in common its the belief that snow covers up and makes things look beautiful. Even though we may be thinking of different types of snow, the results are the same. Both kinds are trecherous, both kinds make you feel refreshed and both kinds kill. Roses have thorns, mistletoe is poisonous and then there is snow, the most dangerous of all, because it lures you with its beauty and its not until your in too deep that you realize you've endangered yourself. When I look out my window and see my avenue covered with what looks like white powder making everything so white, so pure, so perfect I am filled with a feeling of excitement, new beginnings and a blank canvas on which I can paint a new life. Which is great! They are an amazing thing, new beginnings I mean. However, no matter how much you believe in yourself there is always going to be people form your past trying to hold you back. If you were a nasty person in the past and you decide to make amends and change your ways, there are always going to be those gossipers who don't want others to believe you... and if your alone, you could fail and revert back to your old ways with just another chip on your shoulder. Ignore them! Its hard but you need to just move on. If you want to make a change in your life focus on it, and when you are feeling like your succeeding, thats when they will strike, those bitches, cravings, whatever is holding you back. How do you deal with them? Humbly acknowledge them, "Yes I used to smoke", "Yes I did used to sleep around a bit", "Yes I did spread gossip", but don't give in to them, face them. Your past is your past. What you have done cannot be undone, but you can make sure it won't be redone, for get those who live in the past, they'll rot with their bitterness, and you'll be moving on. New people in your life won't care what you have done or who you were, they want to know what you are doing and who you Remember to love yourself. Mistakes may have been made but thats all a learning experience. You control who you are, no one else does, no one really believes rumors and scandal, people are naturally curious and once someone realizes that you are an honest, unique and humble person they will make they're own opinion on you. However the only opinion that really matters is truly your own, if you think your a bad person who is hated so will the people around you, however if you really believe in yourself and make an effort people will see this and love you.