Chris Brown: No One Knows What I Go Through

Chris Brown is living a simultaneously exciting and tumultuous life, and it’s starting to take a toll. Brown has been through a rough time, most recently after his house was robbed and his aunt was held at gunpoint.

Today, Brown went on Instagram to write another painstakingly candid message, this time on losing faith and finding redemption through it all.

“When u tired of the f**king devil ruining your life and u hear God speak for the first time,” he starts. “No one knows what I deal with on a day to day. The average man wouldn’t hesitate to blow his f**king brains out but that’s the cowards [sic] way out… Most won’t understand the genius and beauty in change and learning and the people who have devilish intentions will win in the short term.”

The more Brown wrote, the more open he became with his 11.9 million Instagram followers. “My soul will always be pure of heart,” shared the 26-year-old singer. “What’s on the surface always looks like one big party but inside there is a little boy looking for help and guidance. People say ‘be a man’. Yeah, that’s right but it doesn’t take away any pain you really go through. I just wanna stay out the way and do music. Most importantly and [be a] great father. I don’t have any more patience for anything that will cause me to self destruct!!”

Breezy airs out his feelings on social media all the time, and it’s usually a bad idea. But his latest post could finally give him the motivation to move on from the drama and live a life free from negativity.