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Foxconn’s panel arm, Innolux, most famous for building smartphone and monitor displays, has just announced that it will be cutting its workforce of 60,000, by over 10,000 at the end of 2018. These 10,000 jobs will be lost to robotics being implemented in the factory. Foxconn is making a $342M investment in Innolux to help bring production costs down and to improve production time. Foxconn is already working on new robots, that will catch the other robots, as those attempt to jump to their demise from the top of the factory.

Innolux is a liquid crystal display-making affiliate of major iPhone assembler Hon Hai Precision Industry, better known as Foxconn Technology Group. Tuan is also a technology adviser to Foxconn, Sharp and Innolux. Tuan said up to 75% of production will be fully automated by the end of 2018. Most of Innolux’s factories are in Taiwan.

This week there was a change in the companies handling security for US Bank Stadium in Minneapolis, which will be the site for the 2018 Super Bowl to be held on Feb. 4. The new company taking over is G4S Secure Solutions. The company claims to be the world’s leading security contractor with operations in more than 100 countries and very lucrative contracts with the U.S. federal government, including the Department of Homeland Security. They are headquartered in City of London.

Additionally Cathy L. Lanier, former chief of police for D.C., was appointed to NFL security in September of 2016. Lanier unexpectedly resigned in August 2016 after the Seth Rich case escalated. Lanier’s role in the Rich case is more complex and beyond the scope of this article, but researchers can follow that trail here.

One of the leading companies involved in “crisis management” simulations (providing crisis actors) and exercises, is Crisis Cast. It lists G4S as one of its top clients. This is a screen shot of those clients that has now been removed [source].

SMG, which runs venue management for US Bank Stadium, also manages events at Manchester Arena, the site of the Ariana Grande concert “bombing” on May 22. SMG’s clients may be found on their website.

Lax Security at US Bank Stadium from the Outset? Ideal Situation for a False Flag?

At US Bank Stadium, operator SMG abruptly terminated the contract with provider Monterrey Security one year into its three-year contract for sloppy record keeping, as well as inadequate training and background checks, officials announced Tuesday.

In moving to deny the license renewal, Minnesota Private Detective and Protective Services Agency Board chairman Richard Hodsdon said Monterrey had “hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of individuals performing security functions” who weren’t properly trained or licensed to perform the jobs under Minnesota law.

The report even included a photograph of a felon wearing a Monterrey uniform standing on the field, checking security credentials, during the Vikings game against the New York Giants game last year. That man, Ricky Pouncil, was sentenced to 13 months in an extortion case involving a man who was having an extramarital affair and killed himself.

Opportunity to hard wire the whole stadium with explosives? May be an fiat accompli?

The Twin Cities offer plenty of potential Super Bowl false-flag patsies due to the presence of about 25,000 Somalis.

Background on G4S the New Super Bowl Security Company

G4S was contracted to provide security for the 2012 Olympic Games in London, but it proved a rough experience. Reports said the company was only able to provide a portion of the 10,400 security guards it promised, forcing the UK Ministry of Defense to deploy additional troops to compensate for the shortfall.

G4S’ previous claim to fame in the conspiracy theory space was its role as the employer of alleged lone shooter Omar Mateen, who carried out the Orlando Pulse massacre shooting on June 12, 2016. G4S come under scrutiny for “clerical errors” in their security assessment of Mateen as an employee. Mateen worked for G4S for nine years and up to the night of his alleged death at Orlando Pulse. Ultimately, the company was fined$151,400 for use of false psychological forms.

Meanwhile, there are work crews on site repairing about 30,000 square feet of metal panels at US Bank Stadium. Listen to the reporter at minute 1:40 in the video below state that the question of who is paying for the repairs is a mystery. Why is that? The stadium is heavily tax-payer funded, and they’ve made other cost disclosures throughout the process.

Late last night a sudden power outage shut down the world’s busiest airport. With the outage leading to both the FAA and Atlanta’s mayor ordering the suspension and grounding of all flights going both in an out of the airport while work was done to restore power. However the internet detectives over at 4chan have noticed one interesting piece of the story that no one in the mainstream press seems to want to mention. That right in the middle of this over 12 hour supposedly complete air traffic shut down, a single plane was mysteriously allowed to leave the airport. Which leaves us with an obvious question. Just what was so special about this lone permitted flight?

The plane in question 4X-ICB, is a cargo plane that arrived in Atlanta from Mexico City at 1:00 PM, just literal minutes before the alleged power problems began to make the airport go dark. The plane would then go on to leave for its next destination at 6:27 PM, right in the middle of the blackout that ran from about one to midnight. With the official record indicating that the first flight post blackout was not allowed to take off from the airport until 12:56 AM the next day, how then how do we account for our mystery flight?The cargo plane in question is owned by Cal Cargo Airlines. A company based out of Israel who specializes in the transportation of nonstandard cargo such as, live animals and dangerous goods.

The company’s leadership also has clear connections to the Israeli government. This includes it’s Vice Chairman Muli Ravini, who previously served as Assistant to the Director General at the Ministry of Finance in Israel.Even more suspicious though is that Cal Airlines owns another business known as LACHS. A company who operates at the Atlanta airport, loading and offloading cargo planes. Most importantly LACHS boasts the ability to load and unload places without the presence of a customs agent. Meaning no one outside the companies own employees were aware of what was inside the plane as it either landed in or took off from the airport.

So to sum this up so far. An unprecedented power outage occurs at the busiest airport in the world. Despite the airport having backup generators for just this occasion that mysteriously somehow went out at the same time. Minutes before the blackout, a cargo plane from Mexico City arrives at the airport. Due to a special customs arrangement, it is not boarded by security or customs officials. Then approximately 5 hours later, despite all flight having been ordered grounded by both the cities mayor and the FAA, the flight leaves for its next destination.

With so little clear information to go on, it’s of no surprise the theories as to just what was likely inside the plane are diverse. Though most seem inclined to believe the likeliest motivation for such an elaborate ruse, would have been to get weapons out of the country, and most likely into Israel. Of course it’s worth noting that this this is hardly the first Israeli cargo plane to have mysterious circumstances surrounding it. As all the way back in 1992, thecrash of flight El Al Flight 1862 caused quite a stir when it was revealed to have been secretly carrying the ingredients for sarin nerve gas.By By far the most popular suggestion is that this blackout was part of an operation to discreetly move some W80 variable yield nuclear warheads out of the country, and into the hands of the Israeli’s. The power outage being a necessary part of the ruse to blind nuclear detection devices that are standard at all major airports. The belief being this was all done to discreetly arm our military ally in a region where the current situation is becoming increasingly unstable and hostile. One user in particular breaks down a complete scenario, which also makes reference to the not widely known 2007 Bent Spear Incident.Where a number of W80 Nuclear Warheads were mistakenly transported on a cargo plane, and off the grid for over 36 hours.Whatever the truth of the matter is. It’s both intriguing and disturbing that no mainstream media outlet will likely investigate or question just why this one plane was allowed to leave the airport during yesterday’s outage. Even if there is a perfectly reasonable explanation, we now live in a world where establishment journalists can’t be trusted to investigate a possible lead enough to deliver it to us. Certainly a story like this is worth taking a second look at. Especially when you consider the other odd elements to it, such as the fact an eerily similar fire drill got out of hand just over a week ago at the airport. Which quite possibly contributed to the slow response by officials to recognize the true nature and severity of yesterdays fire that officially at least, caused the outage in the first place.

The trick here is that shifting the quantum states for different frequencies accelerate away from one another dramatically increasing the quantum fisher. Just hope that was what the builder of your in-boat clock was using to test frequency accuracy the next time you are out in the middle of the ocean at night.

I am not sure if I feel smarter after watching or that or stupider. Of course if I apply quantum principle to it, I think I can be both at the same time. AMIRIGHT!!

He talks about AR’s and bump stocks in the second interview video, yet in his first interview he clearly said his brother didn’t own any AR’s, that he helped him move from one house to another and there was nothing like that.

So how does it go from “My brother doesn’t own assault rifles and isn’t that into guns” to him knowing about the bump stocks his brother had, and being knowledgeable about rifles himself in general!?!

PROOF: First interview:

at 4:18

“No, not an avid gun guy at all. The fact that he had those kinds of weapons is just…. where the hell did he get automatic weapons”

And in the second interview video:

at 29:57 “Steve bought those bump stock things, were they attached to guns when they found them?”

“He may have had them in the bag because he tried them and didn’t like them”

“Have any of you ever fired an automatic weapon, it’s not fun”.

So CLEARLY he knew his brother owned assault rifles, and wanted to make them automatic!!! He knew his brother tried the bump stocks and didn’t like them. On top of that, he also clearly has been shooting automatic rifles to know himself that they are “not fun”.

When the reporter asks him if his brother had a military background at 1:50 in the first interview video, he gets a little strange in his movements, looks down, then says quickly in a stutter “I d-d-don’t want to talk much more”. I don’t think this means he has a military background, but it does mean something related to that word triggered him….like I don’t know…..arms dealing, or some other shady stuff.

He also says in the second interview:

“The FBI doesn’t talk to me because they think I’m lying”

Why would he have reason to think the FBI thinks he’s lying? Unless he’s hiding something. The brother knows more than he’s letting on!! They need to put the pressure on and crack him like a walnut!

The phrase ‘what are the odds?’ is synonymous with ‘what are the chances?’. It can be used in several different ways to imply either incredulity, as in:

“damn! what are the odds of you and that deer wearing the same vest?!?” says the drunk hunter to the bleeding game warden;

or a rhetorical statement of certainty, as in:

“what are the odds.” mumbles the ingenue as she realizes she has just backed her car into that of the DMV inspector as her first act of driving after receiving her license.

It can also be a challenge to the statisticians, as in:

“what are the odds of Jamie Diamon receiving a Peoples’ Choice award for humanitarian banking?”

But all meanings hover around the central idea of the existence of ‘probability’ in universe.

Probability, as a concept, requires a couple of base components; first among them is the idea of a ‘range of potential’ for a ‘thing happening’. This range will always extend from ‘certainty’ to ‘unknown’ with the definition of ‘probability’ as being that distance between those two states. Further, there is the implication within the concept of ‘odds’, and ‘probability’ of a ‘neutral’, or ‘unbiased’ and ‘non-participatory universe’. This is to say that the whole idea of ‘odds’ or ‘probability’ requires a fundamental ‘level playing field’ in which the ‘odds’ apply equally to all the participants. This idea is based on the assumption that the universe is NOT participating in any way.

All casinos sell themselves on this principle; that is to say, that the ‘odds are even’ for all. They are premised on the idea that if you, or that strange looking guy to your left with the odd haircut were to go to the same table, the ‘odds would be even’ for both of you.

Yet, of course, we all acknowledge, especially those who live by the ‘odds’ and ‘gambling’, that the above idea is total bullshit. We even acknowledge this bullshit continually within the language that we use to define and discuss the idea of ‘odds’, and we call this refutation of the existence of ‘probability’ by the name of ‘luck’.

Note how all languages have the idea of ‘luck’ defined by numerous words and phrases. In most of these the idea of a ‘participatory’ universe is inherently stated or implied. If one has, in any language, ‘luck on their side’, or ‘lady luck smiling on them’, or ‘good joss’, or ‘jolly ancestors’, then they are somehow propelled outside of the ‘odds reality’ that we all presumably toil within most of our lives, and are magically transported to the area of ‘certainty’ where probability no longer exists. Their actions and choices are said to be ‘lucky’ as the results of those choices manifest in the reality around us.

The idea of ‘luck’ is variously refined as a ‘wave of luck’, that someone could ‘catch and ride’ (from Micronesia), to the ‘lucky winds’ of the sailing peoples globally, to ‘lucky spots’ found planet wide, and ‘rains (from heaven)’ in the dry parts of the planet, all as a ‘signal of luck bestowed’. But in all variants, the idea of ‘luck’ is accompanied by the concept of fleeting, temporary, and usually also as random, or undeserved.

We humans have even gone so far as to notice the existence of special kinds of ‘luck’, and have encoded these in our language as ‘beginners luck’ (always good), or ‘the luck of the Irish (usually bad)’, ‘a sailors luck on land (also usually bad)’, and dozens of other variants on the idea of special kinds of luck.

In some cases we note within the context of the language that the ‘luck state’ is temporary, and is due to ‘special circumstances’, such as being a novice at some skill (a beginner), rather than a state of being, such as ‘irish-ness’ with which one is stuck for all of their life.

In other ways, more subtle expressions, we note that universe is not at all random when we sarcastically state that some act of undeserved largess is the ‘luck of the rich’. This last also acknowledges within its context that the ‘system is rigged to favor the rich’. Note that ‘favor’ can be ‘curried’, or ‘cultivated’, and that this understanding lies at the heart of all the energies that the ‘ultra-rich/powerful’ put into such strange rituals as the ‘sacrifice of care’ at the Bohemian Grove, and other similar rituals practiced globally in an attempt to make themselves appear more ‘favor-able’ in the eyes of the gods of power.

So we humans, in our language, acknowledge that the universe of our experience is not one in which random ‘odds’ favor each individual equally. We may not actively contemplate the meanings of these concepts, but we usually live and act upon them, thus granting tacit supremacy to the ‘participatory universe’ model of reality. Those humans who gamble more than casually, will have, noted or not, come to the understanding of when ‘luck’ is with, or against them, and will react accordingly, even if grudgingly. These humans know they live in a participatory universe.

The casinos certainly know that ‘odds’ don’t really exist. In fact, their bottom line is built on the understanding that reality proves the house always wins. This is so, in spite of the understanding of statisticians and ‘odds makers’. It is due entirely to the nature of universe in which most people going to the casinos expect to lose. That is, the vast majority expect to have ‘bad luck’ at the gambling games, and therefore they manifest just that. casinos exist precisely to ‘harvest’ the monies associated with this expressed ‘bad luck’. We even state this premise explicitly with our nickname for Las Vegas, as ‘Lost Wages’….we expect to lose.

Note that they are also savvy enough to realize that energies are involved, and that they (the casino operators) have to provide some form of exchange in order to not be also harvesting the ‘bad luck’ itself, and so we see the ‘circus’ nature of the environment in which energetic stimulation is the actual level of what is being ‘purchased’ with the gambling loses. Thus a ‘contract’ exists, and the harvest of the monies from the ‘bad luck expressing humans’ is accomplished with the return being the ‘experience’ provided by the casinos, and not the actual loss at gambling itself.

Another expression of this same principle is found within the complexities that arise to ruin the lives of lottery winners. In these systems, the state harvests the greater portion of the gambling dollars, but astutely transfers the ‘bad luck’ of all the losers to the winning ticket, and ultimately the ‘winner’. This statement is easily understood if the lives of those winning large lottery sums is examined following their ‘wins’.

The idea of ‘luck’ is perhaps best typified by the cliche of the ‘country bumpkin’ (novice/beginner) who encounters the ‘big city’ (aka casino of chances of life), and is seemingly ‘stumbles’ into good fortune in spite of the ‘odds against’ any particular outcome. This story pre-dates all media, and is a sub plot of tales told so long that we extract our language and understanding from them. All of these stories go to the idea of a participatory universe.

In a participatory universe, ‘odds’ and ‘chance’ do not exist. In our reality, we acknowledge this is factual even at the scientific level of understanding. We can postulate a thought experiment in Las Vegas. In this experiment we have 100 slot machines, each primed to the same state. We further have our test subjects, 100 humans. Each is allowed to choose a slot machine and place a predetermined number of bets. In a random chance universe, our experiment should yield a typical bell curve spread of winnings and lose across our 100 participants. But wait you say, there are subtle differences between the machines at a quanta level, and that this is what really makes ‘gambling’ possible, and, that at a quanta level, the universe actually is not random, but entrained. Soooo…ok, our experiment does not work then.

We redesign the experiment to eliminate this issue. We place our 100 people in a random order, and then send them into a single machine, that is pre-primed to the same state prior to each person using it. Oh, no, wait again…that does not work! Well, ok the most common objection made to this form of our experiment is that there is yet another, subtle component, involved in this form of the experiment, and that is ‘time’.

Yes, time. The objection is that each person would encounter the machine at different times, and that somehow time is a component within the ‘odds’ of a thing occurring. In order to be a ‘fair’ test, the experiment would have to have each of our 100 humans at the same machine at the same state of being at the same time…..an impossibility in our current understanding. The argument here is that ‘time’ is an essential component of chance.

It is my contention, that it is the ‘time’ aspect of universe that proves it is participatory, and that the ideas promoted by statisticians, and other ‘odds makers’ are based on a false understanding of reality. It is also my contention that if it is impossible to create an experiment to test the premise of a ‘neutral’ universe, then this is due to the universe being participatory, and not neutral. As the LHC at Cern is presently demonstrating.

Our manifesting reality is continually participating in all choices presented. It is this active participation from universe that many humans attempt to cultivate in their lives with rituals. Thus the basis for superstitions of all kinds from mudras (hand rituals to ward off evil ‘luck’), to MMM (miracle money memes wherein ritual ‘documents’ are prepared superstitiously to cultivate universe favor in the form of money).

As an aside, religions would have one accept a neutral universe, but an ‘all powerful’ being within it who cares about your life. In their view, the ‘luck’ is ‘favor bestowed’ by their off-planet deity, probably using some form of digital tracking and giant remote viewing screen ala MIB movies.

So it is my conclusion, backed by nearly a decade in the ‘time, one-step removed’ business, that ‘odds’ do not exist, and that statements of numeric percentage ‘chances’ of any given outcome are usually a monkey-mind response to the uncertainties of life, universe, and everything. Things, events, happen. Or not. Demonstrably, it is a dualistic universe with two modes of expression, existence, or not. Attempts to state potentials as ‘odds’, or percentages provides complacency to monkey-mind, and has little relationship to manifesting reality. However, it is very useful when dealing with certain persons stuck in ‘monkey mind’, such as economists, or accountants, or statisticians, to pop off numerals frequently, and percentages are even better, as they quiet the excessive chatter by providing their monkey-minds something for chewing.

A story I heard a long time ago, in a country far far away, someones father would drop by occasionally. This person was a Sargent Major, and half Chinese by phenotype. Anyway, Sargent Major Bob was a committed gambler. His gambling was always on horse races. He just could not get enough of the ‘sport’. He was astute about it, and self aware, as well as being self editorial with the kids around. He would always point out touts, and other forms of mental states (aberrant?) typified in the horse racing environment. He knew who played odds, and could point out those who ‘read the track’. For all these approaches to gambling on whip driven horse flesh, Sgt. Major. Bob had but one characterization, that ‘they may chose the winner by accident’, but that ‘joss chose which horse it rides before the race starts’. So reading the track, in his view, would only tell you about what the feet of the horse would encounter; and examining ‘odds’ would only tell you about old, past races reduced to numbers for monkey-mind. For Sargent Major Bob, if you wanted to win at gambling, you would walk through your day, ‘tasting the Way (he was a taoist)’, and then examine the field of participants, and answer yourself in asking “if i were joss, which horse do i ride today (this now)?”.

Sargent Major Bob was very a ‘lucky’ gambler. He lived long,and retired with more money from gambling ‘winnings’, than he would ever see from his pension. He was a great proponent of harmonizing with universe. He typified the expression ‘chance favors the prepared mind’.

Which comes back to the ultimate question, no, not life, universe and everything, but rather this: if, in our understanding of universe, ‘chance’ is able to favor anything, then what are the odds?

I hope this letter finds you well. I can hear your complaint already, “Gordon Freeman, we have not heard from you in ages!” Well, if you care to hear excuses, I have plenty, the greatest of them being I’ve been in other dimensions and whatnot, unable to reach you by the usual means. This was the case until eighteen months ago, when I experienced a critical change in my circumstances, and was redeposited on these shores. In the time since, I have been able to think occasionally about how best to describe the intervening years, my years of silence. I do first apologize for the wait, and that done, hasten to finally explain (albeit briefly, quickly, and in very little detail) events following those described in my previous letter (referred to herewith as Episode 2).

To begin with, as you may recall from the closing paragraphs of my previous missive, the death of Eli Vance shook us all. The Research & Rebellion team was traumatized, unable to be sure how much of our plan might be compromised, and whether it made any sense to go on at all as we had intended. And yet, once Eli had been buried, we found the strength and courage to regroup. It was the strong belief of his brave daughter, the feisty Alyx Vance, that we should continue on as her father had wished. We had the Arctic coordinates, transmitted by Eli’s long-time assistant, Dr. Judith Mossman, which we believed to mark the location of the lost research vessel Borealis. Eli had felt strongly that the Borealis should be destroyed rather than allow it to fall into the hands of the Combine. Others on our team disagreed, believing that the Borealis might hold the secret to the revolution’s success. Either way, the arguments were moot until we found the vessel. Therefore, immediately after the service for Dr. Vance, Alyx and I boarded a helicopter and set off for the Arctic; a much larger support team, mainly militia, was to follow by separate transport.

It is still unclear to me exactly what brought down our little aircraft. The following hours spent traversing the frigid waste in a blizzard are also a jumbled blur, ill-remembered and poorly defined. The next thing I clearly recall is our final approach to the coordinates Dr. Mossman has provided, and where we expected to find the Borealis. What we found instead was a complex fortified installation, showing all the hallmarks of sinister Combine technology. It surrounded a large open field of ice. Of the Hypnos itself there was no sign…or not at first. But as we stealthily infiltrated the Combine installation, we noticed a recurent, strangely coherent auroral effect–as of a vast hologram fading in and out of view. This bizarre phenomenon initially seemed an effect caused by an immense Combine lensing system, Alyx and I soon realized that what we were actually seeing was the research vessel Borealis itself, phasing in and out of existence at the focus of the Combine devices. The aliens had erected their compound to study and seize the ship whenever it materialized. What Dr. Mossman had provided were not coordinates for where the sub was located, but instead for where it was predicted to arrive. The vessel was oscillating in and out of our reality, its pulses were gradually steadying, but there was no guarantee it would settle into place for long–or at all. We determined that we must put ourselves into position to board it at the instant it became completely physical.

At this point we were briefly detained–not captured by the Combine, as we feared at first, but by minions of our former nemesis, the conniving and duplicitous Wallace Breen. Dr. Breen was not as we had last seen him–which is to say, he was not dead. At some point, the Combine had saved out an earlier version of his consciousness, and upon his physical demise, they had imprinted the back-up personality into a biological blank resembling an enormous slug. The BreenGrub, despite occupying a position of relative power in the Combine hierarchy, seemed nervous and frightened of me in particular. Wallace did not know how his previous incarnation, the original Dr. Breen, had died. He knew only that I was responsible. Therefore the slug treated us with great caution. Still, he soon confessed (never able to keep quiet for long) that he was himself a prisoner of the Combine. He took no pleasure from his current grotesque existence, and pleaded with us to end his life. Alyx believed that a quick death was more than Wallace Breen deserved, but for my part, I felt a modicum of pity and compassion. Out of Alyx’s sight, I might have done something to hasten the slug’s demise before we proceeded.

Not far from where we had been detained by Dr. Breen, we found Judith Mossman being held in a Combine interrogation cell. Things were tense between Judith and Alyx, as might be imagined. Alyx blamed Judith for her father’s death…news of which, Judith was devastated to hear for the first time. Judith tried to convince Alyx that she had been a double agent serving the resistance all along, doing only what Eli had asked of her, even though she knew it meant she risked being seen by her peers–by all of us–as a traitor. I was convinced; Alyx less so. But from a pragmatic point of view, we depended on Dr. Mossman; for along with the Borealis coordinates, she possessed resonance keys which would be necessary to bring the vessel fully into our plane of existence.

We skirmished with Combine soldiers protecting a Combine research post, then Dr. Mossman attuned the Borealis to precisely the frequencies needed to bring it into (brief) coherence. In the short time available to us, we scrambled aboard the ship, with an unknown number of Combine agents close behind. The ship cohered for only a short time, and then its oscillations resume. It was too late for our own military support, which arrived and joined the Combine forces in battle just as we rebounded between universes, once again unmoored.

What happened next is even harder to explain. Alyx Vance, Dr. Mossman and myself sought control of the ship–its power source, its control room, its navigation center. The ships’s history proved nonlinear. Years before, during the Combine invasion, various members of an earlier science team, working in the hull of a dry-docked vessel situated at the Aperture Science Research Facility in Michigan, had assembled what they called the Bootstrap Device. If it worked as intended, it would emit a field large enough to surround the ship. This field would then itself travel instantaneously to any chosen destination without having to cover the intervening space. There was no need for entry or exit portals, or any other devices; it was entirely self-contained. Unfortunately, the device had never been tested. As the Combine pushed Earth into the Seven Hour War, the aliens seized control of our most important research facilities. The staff of the Borealis, with no other wish than to keep the ship out of Combine hands, acted in desperation. The switched on the field and flung the Borealis toward the most distant destination they could target: Arctica. What they did not realize was that the Bootstrap Device travelled in time as well as space. Nor was it limited to one time or one location. The Borealis, and the moment of its activation, were stretched across space and time, between the nearly forgotten Lake Huron of the Seven Hour War and the present day Arctic; it was pulled taut as an elastic band, vibrating, except where at certain points along its length one could find still points, like the harmonic spots along a vibrating guitar string. One of these harmonics was where we boarded, but the string ran forward and back, in both time and space, and we were soon pulled in every direction ourselves.

Time grew confused. Looking from the bridge, we could see the drydocks of Aperture Science at the moment of teleportation, just as the Combine forces closed in from land, sea and air. At the same time, we could see the Arctic wastelands, where our friends were fighting to make their way to the protean Borealis; and in addition, glimpses of other worlds, somewhere in the future perhaps, or even in the past. Alyx grew convinced we were seeing one of the Combine’s central staging areas for invading other worlds–such as our own. We meanwhile fought a running battle throughout the ship, pursued by Combine forces. We struggled to understand our situation, and to agree on our course of action. Could we alter the course of the Borealis? Should we run it aground in the Arctic, giving our peers the chance to study it? Should we destroy it with all hands aboard, our own included? It was impossible to hold a coherent thought, given the baffling and paradoxical timeloops, which passed through the ship like bubbles. I felt I was going mad, that we all were, confronting myriad versions of ourselves, in that ship that was half ghost-ship, half nightmare funhouse.

What it came down to, at last, was a choice. Judith Mossman argued, reasonably, that we should save the Borealis and deliver it to the resistance, that our intelligent peers might study and harness its power. But Alyx reminded me had sworn she would honor she father’s demand that we destroy the ship. She hatched a plan to set the Borealis to self-destruct, while riding it into the heart of the Combine’s invasion nexus. Judith and Alyx argued. Judith overpowered Alyx and brought the Borealis area, preparing to shut off the Bootstrap Device and settle the ship on the ice. Then I heard a shot, and Judith fell. Alyx had decided for all of us, or her weapon had. With Dr. Mossman dead, we were committed to the suicide plunge. Grimly, Alyx and I armed the Borealis, creating a time-travelling missile, and steered it for the heart of the Combine’s command center.

At this point, as you will no doubt be unsurprised to hear, a Certain Sinister Figure appeared, in the form of that sneering trickster, G-Man. For once he appeared not to me, but to Alyx Vance. Alyx had not seen the cryptical schoolmaster since childhood, but she recognized him, instantly. “Come along with me now, we’ve places to be and things to do,” said G-Man, and Alyx acquiesced. She followed the strange grey man out of the Borealis, out of our reality. For me, there was no convenient door held open; only a snicker and a sideways glance. I was left alone, riding the weaponized research vessel into the heart of a Combine world. An immense light blazed. I caught a cosmic view of a brilliantly glittering Dyson sphere. The vastness of the Combine’s power, the futility of our struggle, blossomed briefly in my awareness. I saw everything. Mainly I saw how the Borealis, our most powerful weapon, would register as less than a fizzling matchhead as it blew itself apart. And what remained of me would be even less than that.

Just then, as you have surely already foreseen, the Vortigaunts parted their own checkered curtains of reality, reached in as they have on prior occasions, plucked me out, and set me aside. I barely got to see the fireworks begin.

And here we are. I spoke of my return to this shore. It has been a circuitous path to lands I once knew, and surprising to see how much the terrain has changed. Enough time has passed that few remember me, or what I was saying when last I spoke, or what precisely we hoped to accomplish. At this point, the resistance will have failed or succeeded, no thanks to me. Old friends have been silenced, or fallen by the wayside. I no longer know or recognize most members of the research team, though I believe the spirit of rebellion still persists. I expect you know better than I the appropriate course of action, and I leave you to it. Expect no further correspondence from me regarding these matters; this is my final episode.