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Tuesday, May 1, 2012

efficient dream

The easy flow of a rhythmic routine.

The steadiness of moving from one task to another.

Knowing the timing of your day.

These are just a few things I would love to be in my day. I want one day to be able to move through the tasks of keeping my home without thought because they are like the blood in my veins...a part of me that requires no conscious thought. Learning and modifying, adapting to changes and new awareness of how things work best in our season of life, my day, my issues.

Don't accuse me of striving for perfection....not true. I strive for improved. "Good, better, best"....when I know better I want to do better and I will only do that by trying. Its like anything you want to improve upon, you must practice - but not to be perfect....to do your best. I don't feel I do my best. I am the picture of inefficiency. I flit from task to task, often leaving the last unfinished....not intentionally. I am excellent at making lists and horrible at following them.

I dream of the day where I can meander through my day on auto pilot, merging from task to task easily and without thought. Loving what I do, even if my head is under the toilet. To feel the easy rhythm of a finely tuned routine and be interrupted without a surge of panic that things won't get done....but to welcome the interruption with open arms as the most important thing in that moment.

Today, I decided that coffee would be taken from my menu. Gasp, I know, I am too. Currently my brain feels as though it's in a tub of water and someone has carelessly bumped it quite hard. Yep....it feels a bit sloshy....maybe that's not a proper word but I'm going to use it anyway. It fits. I decided that since there is really nothing really redeeming about coffee...from a nutritional stand point.....especially considering that I can't seem to stand it without loads of coffee syrup and cream......perhaps I should try tea again. It is so good for you.....maybe I'll see some benefit either in clarity of thought or in removing that mid afternoon slump. It's worth a try anyway.