My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Well it is Saturday and I am going out again and I am really looking forward to tonight. I was chatting with Karen on Facebook and she is also going out tonight so it will be awesome to see her again. I started getting ready at 5 and I had already decided I was going to try and do a Smokey eye look with black shadow again with a more dramatic look. Now with this makeup I think a darker brown hair looks better plus it is nice to mix it up a little too. Black eye shadow is hard for me to get to look right but I was pretty happy with the way it turned out tonight. And of course I chose to wear my black and gold dress and pearls.

I was ready to leave by 6:20 so I would get to the Escape a little early which was fine with me. Now when I got there the parking lot was full but I was able to find the last spot along the curb, wow they are busy early tonight. Laura, Cristine and Cassandra were already there so I wasn’t the first one to get here tonight. seems they had a pre-season football game today and several people came to watch it.

I talked to the girls a little, Cassandra was in the corner on her computer chatting on line and Laura and Cristine at the bar. it was great to be out again. I ordered dinner and then got my computer out and joined Cassandra online chatting. it is kind of fun especially when you have a web cam. it is kind of cool as you can chat with people from all around the world.

Karen showed up and she looked awesome, she had on this really cute top and skirt and heels, so much fun to get all dressed up and go out for the evening. my food came and I put away my computer so I could eat and talk with Karen.

Lynn and Jan showed up also so we had 8 of us here tonight. It is so amazing how relaxed and happy I feel when I can be Susan and that feeling is all the better when I can spend time with my friends who are really more like family. Now later in the night I did break out my computer again and show Karen how the online chat works, she had noticed Cassandra’s computer in the corner with her web cam going. It was fun as Melissa was online so I sent her a private message and we chatted on and off for during the rest of the evening. It was fun as I was chatting online, chatting with the girls around me at the bar and listening to the girls singing Karaoke.

Kitty also showed up tonight and brought Marlaine with her, It was nice to meet her, Always fun meeting new people and she seems really nice. Well I was still online and Kitty thought it was so cool and soon we were both on web cam. Cassandra came over and she is way better at the chat part of it, I have trouble keeping up with the chat and typing at the same time. Cassandra started chatting with everyone using my profile which I think confused people till they figured it out but most of the time we had 3 to 5 of us there all on the web cam. It was a lot of fun.

Well it got late and I had such a wonderful evening, spending time with my friends, chatting online with Melissa and a chance to be Susan, what a lucky girl I am. it was about 11:30 when we called it a night. What a wonderful weekend.

Well it has been a long and busy week but things are getting back to normal in my male life and that means more time for Susan. I did go out to Dinner on Wednesday night and had a wonderful time and now being Friday I am looking forward to a fun night out at Sweet Home with my friends. The funny thing is it’s not just the going out it is the state of mind I am in just knowing I am going to get to be Susan tonight and go out, even that has a peaceful calming feeling on me and makes my whole day seem better. Susan really does bring out the best in me for some reason probably because I feel more relaxed and normal as I am not really hiding anything when I am her. What I mean by that is I know people know I am not female and I am a crossdresser and I am okay with that on my female side but I still have to hide my female side when I am my male self and that can be stressful.

Well I got home from work and started getting ready a little after 5 you know all the girl prep stuff, shower shaving and trust me there is a lot more shaving for Susan than my male self and then time to do my makeup. Now tonight I tried something different doing my makeup as I saw this on a video. I actually did my eye makeup first before I did my foundation. It actually worked pretty well and only messed up a little of the eye makeup putting my foundation on. Not sure which is better so I will have to try I a few more times. There are advantages to both ways so I guess it will come down to which I like better. Again tonight I didn’t pay attention to the time as I wanted to enjoy myself getting ready. I was ready by 6:20 and out the door so even without rushing it was a little over an hour getting ready.

I got to Sweet Home about 6:40 and Chris was there already. It was kind of slow but always gets busier around 9 or so. I got to talk with Chris a little and then got out my computer and caught up on some e-mails. It is just so nice to be out as Susan and funny when I say that as I really am not aware or thinking about the fact I am out as Susan I am just out as myself so I don’t know why it should feel any different other then as I said I don’t feel I am hiding anything and that is a wonderful feeling. I went into a chat room and talked with a few people including Cassandra and talked her into coming down for the evening.

It was about 8:30 when Cassandra got here and also Kira, Now Kira has been out before but she was going by a different name before. She changed it as she liked Kira better. It is funny how many girls do this, I think some pick a name when they first go out as they are unsure about it and if they will be going out more and once they do then they put more thought into their name later. This is one of the wonderful advantages to being transgender as we get to pick our names. Think about it when you were born your parents picked your name and that was it that was who you were but as transgender when we embrace our other side we then get to choose who we are and what we want as a name and that is wonderful. Everyone has a different reason for the name hey have and why they picked it so I figured I would tell you how I came up with Susan, I may have already done this in an earlier blog so if I did you can skip to the next paragraph. There was this really cute girl named Susan and we were kind of friends but I was shy and too afraid to ask her out especially as at this time I really didn’t understand about my feelings of crossdressing. Well I figured if I couldn’t go out with her I could share her name and that is how I came up with Susan. Now my last name was kind of an accident. When I was 18 I got a PO Box so I could order things through the mail and get information, without dating myself this was before computers and the internet. Well I got the PO Box in my mail name but really didn’t want to use my mail name for ordering girl things so I stood in line to find out what I needed to do to add a name on my box. I had only had it a week or so and had a few pieces of junk e-mail from the last owner of the box. Well I got to the counter and asked and the man just asked me for the name so I said Susan real proud of myself. Then he asked for her last name something I had not even thought about. Well looking at the junk mail in my had the last people who had the box had the last name of Miller and without thinking that is what I told him so Miller was an accident but it worked out wonderfully though and I would not change my name now for anything because that is who I am on my female Side, Susan Miller.

Roxy showed up in a really cute dress tonight, it was good to see her also. Cassandra and I talked for a while which was nice. Eventually the conversation turned to stocks and the stock market. I actually like following stocks and the stock market and although I am no expert I feel I am well versed in it. I have been investing for years and I spend a little time each day checking the stock market and the stocks I own and follow, kind of my little hobby also. So there is a little bit about my male side I am willing to share that most may not know. Funny how over the years the line between Susan and my male side has blurred I am more willing as Susan to talk about my male side, where in my male life I cannot see myself talking with people about Susan. Any way we sat there as girls and discussed stocks and the economy again not something I would have thought 7 years ago I would be doing. It is funny as some people think because you are transgender or a crossdresser that you are somehow different but in truth we are not. I could have been sitting there with any of my family or friends and if they had been blind folded they would have had no idea I was Susan well they would have smelled my perfume. What I am saying is I really am the same person male or female. I think if people realized this then there would be way more acceptance of the transgender community.

Karaoke started and of course that is always fun but hard to carry on a conversation with the music and singing. We talked between songs and listened to the singers. It was a fun night. Cassandra left a little before 11 and there was a good crowd here by now, it was hard to move around. Monica and Raven showed up, it was nice to see them again. It was about 11:30 and I was getting tired so I was thinking about leaving but the people standing at the bar was huge and I needed to pay my bill yet so I stayed a little longer. Finally just before midnight the bar line died down so I went and paid my bill and called it a night saying good night to my friends with hugs. It is so wonderful how woman are so free to give hugs and men feel less at ease with hugging. This is a shame as a hug really makes you feel good.

Thanks for reading and please male or female it doesn’t matter give a hug to someone you care about today, you will both feel better.

Well I am getting out on a Wednesday night for the first time in a long time and I am so looking forward to it. Our group is having dinner at Who Song and Larry on the Columbia River tonight and that is always a fun time. I have actually been here probably 6 or 8 times as Susan.

I started getting ready just before 5 so I could take my time and enjoy the process. It is such a wonderful and relaxing feeling as I get ready for a night out as Susan. Now I was ahead of schedule and figured I would be early as we were not meeting at Who Song and Larry till 7 and I was ready to leave home by 6:25 and it is only 10 minutes but that would be okay. I was just getting ready to leave when Cassandra texted me to see if I was there yet as she had already arrived. Turns out everyone was early today.

I got to Who Song and Larry at 6:35 and Cristine and Julie pulled in right after I did and Cassandra, Jan, Lynn and Teresa were already there. We had a nice turnout tonight which was nice and the staff here is awesome. Now for Julie and I this is close to where we live so always a greater chance of seeing someone we know but still wouldn’t miss it.

Now I got to sit between Lynn and Julie which was nice as I was kind of in the middle of the table so I could talk a little with everyone. It was especially nice to talk with Julie as it has been so long since I have seen her. It is so much fun as we talked about cloths, going and getting our nails done and lipstick all the important things in life.

We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation and every once in a while the conversation would move to politics and as in any group we have differences of opinions but that is okay as we could all agree on one thing, which color lipstick each would look good on each candidate and soon we were back talking about important things like makeup, after all this was a girls night out.

What a wonderful way to spend an evening with my best girlfriends, I really need more nights like this. The night went by so fast though and soon it was 9 and we had to call it a night. Cassandra, Julie, Cristine and I stood out front talking for a while as it really was a nice warm summer evening out.

It is Friday and I am so looking forward to tonight as I get some Susan time and get to go out and have fun with my friends. It has been 5 weeks since I have been out on a Friday night. Now 2 weeks ago I did get to go to the play Wicked as Susan but that was the only time I got to be Susan in 5 weeks which is hard when you are used to spending a couple nights a week as your feminine self. Now I did get out long enough last night for a manicure and pedicure, Toes just look so much better with polish on them, doesn’t matter if they are male or female toes.

Now as I said it has been a while so I really wanted to enjoy every minute of this including getting ready. It is so relaxing and therapeutic getting ready for me. When I start getting ready all my cares and issues in my male life go away, it is like they are no longer my cares they belong to that male side of me and that is a great feeling. Now normally I am thinking about going out when I am getting ready and of course I am looking at what time it is to see if I am running late but tonight I didn’t want to worry about anything including what time I would get there so I didn’t look at the time once while getting ready just focused on the fun of transforming myself. I started getting ready a little after 5 with a nice warm shower and then the makeup and finally getting dressed. Even without rushing or worrying about what time it was I was ready to leave by 6:40 so about an hour and a half to get ready. And I was really happy with the way my eyes turned out tonight. Here are a couple pictures, they were taken this morning after a good night’s sleep so I am not showing the whole face as the rest is less flattering. I know what you are saying, you shouldn’t sleep in your makeup but I was really tired last night so just wiped away most of it before bed.

I got to Sweet Home and Chris and Samantha were there, it was so wonderful to see them again and of course we greeted with a hug and who doesn’t love to get a hug. They were glad to see me almost as much as I was glad to see them. I have really missed being out with my friends, they are all such a big and important part of my life and who I am. Of course Debra and Paul were glad to see me, Paul owns the bar and Debra is his awesome employee. Even some of the regulars came over and said it was good to see me again. It was nice being out and being able to socialize with people. Of course I had my computer with me so I did catch up on some e-mails and Facebook friends, even my time online as Susan was cut almost to nothing the last 5 weeks. Another girl showed up and also Roxy so we did have 6 of us there which was nice.

It was also nice to see some of the other people here who I have gotten to know, friends not in our t-girl group. This really is a wonderful place as it gives me the chance to interact with people from outside the t-girl community and I have made some really nice friends here and I look forward to seeing them also. We even have some crossover between the groups here which is awesome. One of my friends Mareinna she met us here and started talking to Cassandra and I a while back about being Transgender, well she came out about a year ago to her friends in the other group and they have been totally supportive of her which is awesome, just goes to show how wonderful the people are who come here. Well I was talking to her tonight and it turns out the lady Chris had played pool with a few times earlier tonight is Mareinna’s mom. She has only known about her a short time and other than pictures this is only the second time she has seen her in person and she came out tonight to spend time with her new daughter how awesome is that. Some other people her I have gotten to know that were here tonight are Dawni, Alexis, Craig, Shryl, Blue and Heather, All are wonderful people and I look forward to seeing them when I am out.

I did get on Pal Talk on my computer and chat on and off through the night. It is kind of fun to have your web cam on and chat with people. It is amazing that you can chat with people from all over the country actually the world and get to know them even if only online, wow what a difference computers and the internet have made in our lives. Well I got a chance to chat with Melissa for a while, I have never met her in person just seen some pictures online and chatted with her but yet I feel I know her and have become friends with her. It kind of like talking on the phone with someone I guess. We had a wonderful chat. Now I am still not good on chat rooms as they go so fast especially if you have a private chat going on also so I was having trouble keeping up with it and I am sure I missed some things but still fun. I got to chat with Paula in the room who is also awesome, I met her through Cassandra who I was also chatting with in the room. It was a really fun night.

They started Karaoke and of course Chris sang and did well. Now it was pretty crowded here tonight so there were lots of people singing so Chris only got to sing twice but still fun. Some of the songs I knew really well and kind of sang along with at the safety of my table of course, it was almost midnight and was down to just Chris and myself from our group when we decided to call it a night and pay our bills. Chris left and I was getting my computer put away and decided to stay for a couple more songs, just hated to leave. But as always all good things must come to an end. I had a wonderful night and hopefully will be able to start getting out more again. The group is going to Who Song’s and Larry this week for dinner which I love so I am hopeful I can make that night.

Okay this is away from my normal blog about myself. I normally try to keep politics and for lack of a better term confrontational things out of my blog but I saw on a friends Facebook post that you shouldn’t really comment on others posts if you are not willing to put forth you opinions on your on post which I guess may be a valid point. Now first I only comment when I feel things are one sided, one of the things I am good at is being able to see all sides on things and put myself in the other persons shoes (well heels I prefer). So a little about me, for lack of a better term I would call myself an independent as far as what society views how people vote but I prefer to call myself an American as I vote based on what is best for the country and that may not always be best for me and I think that is the way everyone should vote. There are things about Democrats I like and dislike and the same goes for Republican. Both parties have good ideas and bad ideas and what I would like to see is a candidate that can bring both sides and mesh them together.

What has made this country great and don’t get me wrong I feel I live in the greatest country there is and I am proud to be an American and I fly our flag on my house proudly. I am not saying other countries are bad well some are but I feel you should be proud of your country and support it. If you can’t then you need to find a country you can.

Now on to the topic yes we have a lot of really rich people in this country and it may not be fair that they have so much but they did earn it in some way at some point. It is because our country allows this and yes anyone can become rich if they have the drive and a good idea. This is why all the great ideas and stuff come from the America. Microsoft, Google, Facebook, Apple and so on. These companies and the people who started them got rich but they gave us things we use every day and need to make our lives better and easier. As a matter of fact without them I would not be writing this post in Microsoft word on a computer built by Dell with an Intel chip running Windows software and posting it on Facebook through the internet which was developed in the United States. So all I ask is the next time you feel the need to speak out badly about the rich and big corporation take a moment to think about what they have given us also, as I said there is good and bad in everything you see.

Now are there rich that abuse their money and power, yes there are (the bad) but there are also Rich that give Millions to charities and do really good things with their money just as there are Poor who are really good hard working people struggling to get by and then those who abuse and try to take advantage of the system

Now my last thought and the one I will probably get the most comments and most will not be nice so I will put his warning out there first. If you leave a comment I do not care if you agree with me or not but I do care if you do it in a mean or personal attack those will be deleted. I am hoping this will get people to really think and try to see both sides.

Democrats want to raise taxes especially on the rich to pay for all the things they want, now don’t get me wrong the rich can afford to pay more the problem is if we don’t control spending you will always need to raise taxes and at some point you run out. There was a study a few years ago and I wish I could find it but it showed that if the Democrats had raise all the taxes they wanted to it still would not have solved the debt problem America has right now almost 20 Trillion dollar. Republicans want to cut spending, now that same study also showed that if the Republicans got all their spending cuts guess what it still would not solve America’s debt. We are going to have to do both which means cutting spending and raising taxes. These need to be done fairly which means the tax increases should be on everyone and yes the rich a little more. And the cuts should equally be shared by everyone, this mean me and you as we need to work together.

So simply put I support the Republicans when it comes to big government and spending and I support the Democrats when it comes to taxes. When it comes to Immigration I support the republicans as I feel you come into this country illeagally you are breaking the law and you should be held accountable for that and we should secure our borders. When it comes to Social Security I support the Democrats as this is something we were promised and they keep changing it, for me when I started working I could get full Social Security at 62 now they have changed it to 67 and want to change to 70. That is not fair to me and other. Why do my retirement age keep going up when the taxes I pay to the government that covers government retirees to retire after 30years no matter what age they are? Let’s be fair across the board. If I can’t touch my retirement savings (401k and IRA) till I am 60 and full social security till 67 then let’s make government employees and elected officials the same, any money they put in Deferred comp they can touch at 60 and the government pension at 67, fair is fair.

Minimum wage I am against the government raising it so much federal from 7.65 to $15 or even states. Oregon has one of the highest minimum wages $9.4 raising it to $15 is over a 50% increase and that is too much. My reason is this will not really close that gap between rich and poor as that gap is so huge. What it will do is make the middle class disappear. Now if you raise the minimum wage that much the gap between poor and middle class goes away and instead of having poor, middle class and rich you just have poor and rich. My reason is if minimum wage goes up the cost of everything goes up so unless the middle class get a raise of equal per portion their buying power goes down. Now if the middle class does get an equal raise then the poor have not really gained anything as everything cost more and we are no better off. The sad fact is there will always be rich and always be poor and there are government programs to help the poor which some of them will lose if they make more money and in some cases may be on worse shape.

Now the last thing deals with how we treat other and how we want to be treated. I have always lived and will continue to live by this. I am okay with people not liking me or the way I live, they have that right just as I have the right to dislike someone else or the way they live but we can do that in a civilized way. I don’t like tattoos I would never get one, I don’t find them attractive one people. If you ask me this I will tell you this. That being said if you like tattoos and want one go for it. I won’t tell you that you can’t have a tattoo and you don’t tell me I have to have one. This is its simplest form but can be used for any topic. I am not gay but I am transgender so I am part of the LGBT. It is funny as years ago 15 20 years or more I remember people in the LGBT community asking for begging for acceptance, tolerance, to let us live our lives the way we want and now we are starting to get it but I have noticed that some in our community are now becoming intolerant of others. I have seen posts that say get rid of all republicans or even kill them, get rid of religion and churches because they don’t fully support us and that is wrong. We have to accept their right to believe what they want just as much as they do us. If you don’t like my crossdressing then by no means to you have to come to my house or be my friend but you do need to respect my right to dress how I want. If you want to tell me you think it is wrong or bad you have that right but you don’t have the right to deny me service if you are a business open to the public.

I have seen people post that if a church speaks out against gay marriage they should lose the tax exempt for political speech, I am sorry I have to disagree as we have the freedom of speech in this country and that same right gives me the right to post this blog. Gay Marriage is the law now and that means people have to accept but they don’t have to attend one. I believe in the separation of Church and state but it goes both ways. I don’t think the state should impose on Churches beliefs, there are churches that feel being gay is okay and others that feel it goes against their belief. If a church teaches something then they have the right to restrict their membership to those who believe the same. If you have a business that caters to a belief system and you are in business for that reason (Christian book store) then yes you have the right to sell that belief. If you are just in business for money and serving the general public (bakery in Gresham) then you can’t deny service to someone even if it goes against your belief.

In other word if you want to speak out against me you have that right just as I have the right to speak out for the things I believe in. if you tell me how I am living my life is wrong that is your opinion but you have no right to call me a freak or verbally or physically assault me. I realize that if I want people to accept me and my point of view I have to do the same to them even if I disagree with them.

The last thing is the statement “Black lives matter” this is just wrong, all Lives matter no matter what race, color, religion or sexually orientation you are. These protestors het burn and destroy cities to protest a police shooting which is some cases were justified and some were not is stupid as all they do is show people that they break the law and hurt innocent people. The businesses that were burned or destroyed in these riots had nothing to do with the police shootings they hurt people and in some cases destroyed lives of innocent people. If you really want to protest killing do it for all killings. White on white, black on black, police on citizens, citizens on police or any other combinations. It doesn’t matter who is doing the killing it is wrong. And yes there are bad police officers out there but they are a small minority as in any group. We cannot blame all police for the actions of a few any more then all in the LGBT community or the black community, or the Hispanic community should be blamed for a few. It would be like saying look at those protestors burning those building and saying that’s what all blacks do which is wrong. The sad thing is a few stupid or bad people is what gets the news and then everyone tries to convince you that is how everyone is. Let’s come together as a nation instead of ripping us apart.

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Well with everything going on in my life I have not gotten out much the last month which is sad as I really need my Susan time. I am hoping to get out more but will not be as much as I was getting out at least for the next couple months. That being said I will have to take advantage when the opportunity comes up like tonight.

Now I didn’t have a lot of time tonight but I really needed a pedicure and wanted a manicure too as it has been almost 2 months sense I got my last one. I got home late and figured I would call Dream nails and see if Anna could fit me in. I called her at 4 to see if she had an opening about 5:30. Anna said she could get me in if I could be there by 5, now this would be a rush but I really needed / wanted a manicure and pedicure so I told her I would be there. I had 1 hour to transform to Susan and get to the nail salon, luckily it is close to my house.

So at 4 pm I jumped into the shower and started my transformation. I think this is a record for me as I went from male self to shower to makeup and dressed and was out the door and to the nail salon by 4:50. I was really looking forward to this as it really is a fun and relaxing way to spend some time. Anna was waiting for me so I picked out a pretty bright red for my toes and of course it will be a clear coat for my fingers.

Anna started on my feet, wow it is such a relaxing feeling to get a pedicure, woman are so lucky to be able to enjoy this any time they want. More men should really give this a try as I am sure they would love it. Another lady came in to get her nails done and she sat next to me. She no more then put her feet in the tub and she got a call. Turns out her daughter is getting married this Saturday and she like me have been trying to fit a trip to the nail salon in. well she had to hurry so she told the lady to skip the leg message. Well Anna called another girl over as they were not as busy as the last time I was here and had her start on her hands while the other girl did her feet so she could get the leg massage. How awesome is that what great customer service? Well I got in a conversation with the lady which was so nice. Herd all about the wedding which is in the gorge. It was nice to just have a nice girl’s time at the salon.

Well she finished my toes and I moved over to get my fingers done and decided to go with a clear gel polish again as my nails were breaking a lot and I hope the gel polish will help them look better. It’s a little more expensive but hey I am worth it. It was a wonderful hour or so. Gel nails polish is a lot quicker as there is no drying time.

Now as I said tonight was a quick and have to be a short trip out but I didn’t want to go straight home so I made a quick stop to get dinner at the Panda Express drive through before heading home and changing back to my male self as I had to be at a meeting at 7:30 so it would be a rush to get back to my male self. I hit the shower at 6:50 and was back to my male self by 7:15 and on my way. I think this is one of the fastest and shortest Susan time I have had but still worth it as with my schedule right now any time I can get is worth it. Thanks for reading and I will try to post a picture of my toes when I get a chance.

Wow it has been over 3 weeks since I have been able to spend any time as Susan. Sometime Life interferes with the things we really enjoy and we have to put them on hold for a while but that makes us enjoy the time we get all the more. Now I was going to enjoy tonight as it will be a couple weeks more before I get a chance to spend some Susan time again.

Now we decided several months ago to go to the Play Wicked and dress as witches from the play. We tried to get 10 of us to go so we could buy tickets in advance but we only ended up with 9 so we had to wait till they went on sale, We all paid Cassandra and she bought the ticket at one time in hopes we could all sit together but as we couldn’t get the in advance we wound up with 5 together and then several rows back the other 4.

Now as I said my male side has had a lot going on and it was only Friday I new I was going to be able to get out and go to the play. The down Side was I didn’t get a chance to go out and get something I could make a Witches outfit out of, I really wanted a fancy dress so I could be Glinda the good witch as she is really pretty. Well that was not going to stop me from going even though I knew all the other girls would be in costume. My only choice was to look as cute and pretty as I could.

Now we were meeting downtown at 6:15 so I had to rush as I didn’t get home till after 4 and as I have nit had time to be Susan for 3 weeks I needed extra time to get to my feminine best. I was was ready by 5:45 and on my way.

I got downtown and parked in the garage across the street and walked over to The Keller Auditorium where people were already standing in line. Jan, Cristine and Sophie were already there, Cristine as a good witch and Jan and Sophie ad bad witches. We had to get a couple pictures out front. this is Sophie me and Jan. I so wish I had been able to dress in costume. now we just had to wait for the rest of the girls and it wasn’t long and Cassandra, Peggy, Victoria and Lynn showed up. Cassandra was a good witch also and everyone else bad witches. Now Cassandra had left her purse in the car as she didn’t want to ruin the loo of her costume which I could understand the problem was all are tickets were in her Purse.

Peggy said she would go get them but didn’t want to go alone so I walked with her which was nice as we got a chance to talk as it has been a while since I have seen her. We got the tickets and on our way back we stopped to talk to the lady by the garage who said we looked great. She wanted to know what kind of Makeup Peggy used to get her green face which looked great by the way. on the way back we ran into Teresa so all 9 of us were here now.

We got back to the group and found out the start of the show who plays Glinda had come out and got a picture with Cassandra. now the fun began as we had all kinds of people who came up and wanted pictures with us. even another of the cast members named Jordan came out after she saw Glinda’s picture with us and she wanted a picture with us. she even told us to be sure and come around to the stage door after the show as the rest of the cast wanted to see us.

It was finally time to go inside and of course more people wanted pictures with us. it was so much fun and it turns out we we well the other girls were the only ones dressed up and so many of the people said they wished they had thought about doing a costume. We took some more pictures and of course I had to get one of just me in my cute outfit. Now I did do Green eye shadow for tonight so I wasn’t totally without some Wicked colors. We had a blast and took so many pictures with people.

It was time to go in for the show and Cristine, Jan, Lynn, Sophie and me sat together and a few rows back behind us Cassandra, Peggy, Victoria and Teresa sat together. The play started and it was really good. if you get a chance to go see Wicked you should.

Now at the intermission I went out to get a drink and a snack, Peggy, Victoria, Teresa and Cassandra were also out there and of course more people wanted pictures with us. I think we had more pictures taken of us tonight then any other night we have been out.

The second act was just as good as the first and it was such a fun night out. Now this is only the second musical play I have gone to, the first was Mamma Mia which was also awesome but this was the first as Susan. This is really a fun thing to do and so much more fun as Susan.

After the show was over we had a few more request for pictures with us so my advice is if you go to the play Wicked dress up as you will be the center of attention. We all walked around to the stage door and there were about 30 other people there to meet the cast. they started coming out and they all loved the costumes the other girls wore, I really wish I had been able to get a costume. they were all so nice and I got most of their autographs. It was a wonderful night out and just what I needed to after a busy and long 3 weeks.

It will be hard to go without being Susan for 2 more weeks but then I hope to get back to being able to go out once a week at least.

About

HI all my name is Susan Miller and I am a crossdresser in my mid 50’s. I live in the Portland metro area of Oregon in the beautiful Pacific Northwest. I like to dress up as a woman and go out with friends. This does not mean I am gay, far from it. I am only attracted to genetic woman sorry guys. I just have a love of all things female, makeup, dresses, high heels and long nails, acrylic nails. There is nothing like going to the nail salon and having your nails done.

Some people may not understand my way of life so I thought I would create a blog to write about it to try to help explain why and how I feel when I am Susan. This will also serve as a record for myself of my life as Susan Miller.

I am not a woman trapped in a man’s body and I have no desire to be a woman full time but I do have a woman inside that needs to be able to express herself. I guess the best way to explain is that I have both a feminine and masculine side to me and both feel right and comfortable to me although I will admit that I probably lean more to the feminine side. This means I am more gentle and caring and more soft spoken and I enjoy a lot of what society would call feminine activities. I just really like being Susan sometimes and I love dressing up and wearing pretty clothes and makeup. Women are so lucky. They have all the cute clothes and shoes while men get plain boring stuff to wear.

Please feel free to read my blogs and leave comments, but please be respectful. I do not judge others and respect your right to agree or disagree with the way I chose to live. I would love to have you post a comment and you may agree or disagree with me and my life and I will not delete it as I think it is important to have all views but if you leave a disrespectful comment I will delete that. Also any crossdressers or genetic girls that are okay with this please feel free to contact me. Also if you have any questions please feel free to ask and I will do my best to answer them but remember any statements made here are the sole opinion of Susan Miller and no one else.