i have seriously been sitting at my computer all morning – i started 3 different blogs, got distracted, ate breakfast, cried a little {good cry}, and then started all over. i blame nicki minaj. i have been listening to the song “fly” on repeat since i woke up. it’s my new theme song. my favourite lyrics :

“Everybody wanna try to box me inSuffocating every time it locks me inPaint their own pictures then they crop me inBut I will remain where the top beginsCause I am not a word, I am not a lineI am not a girl that can ever be defined

I am not fly, I am levitationI represent an entire generation…”

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mm, that just resonates with me — i love a girl who can rap!

well, the main thing i want to say this morning is i am CHANGING. i am transforming. morphing, shedding, cleansing. i mean i’m seriously like a transformer, shifting into this new person… it’s wild. i feel so chill, so focused. normally i find things to get worked up about – whether good or bad, i find something. i have the hardest time just BEING. i always say that i’m not comfortable with the plateaus in life… i’m usually creeping up a big hill, or i’m plummeting down from one… i struggle with just you know… walking.

but here i am, walking. one little step at a time, toward a much bigger goal, a huge change. shedding layers upon layers of thought and pain and emotion that no longer serve a purpose for me. letting go of habits that do not define me. opening up to a new version of me, to the REAL ME. it’s like my true essence is coming through.

i am so much like the leaves are up in aspen right now, morphing through a series of beautiful colours, changing… looking something like this :

so – less words lately. maybe wordy wednesday will become wordLESS wednesday… or at least bounce between the two…