I Wish...

I wish there was some way, Any way at all, To sum up how I feel about this, About you. I wish there was an easy way to say that I like you, Some way to soften the blow those horrible words inflict. I wish you could find it in your heart to forgive those words. I cannot help them. I wish you hadn't figured this out, That my horrible, Hurtful secret, Was still locked inside my hurt self. I wish that I didn't care, Wasn't wounded by your horrified words. I wish you weren't horrified. I wish that I could take it all back, Reverse time, Deny you the clues that led you to your terrifying, But true, Realization. I wish I had never cried, Never shed a single tear for this, Though the thought of losing you, I too overwhelming to bear. I wish you felt the same way, Though I'd never wish to compromise your morals. I wish that this wouldn't change things, That what you see in me is no different, Than what you saw in me five minutes ago. I wish that you would hate me, Drive me off, So I may preserve what is left of me, Move on. I wish I had never met you. I wish I had never realized the truth of my affections, That I could have remained oblivious, And that we could have remained friends. I wish there were more stars in the sky to wish upon, More false hopes to blindly trust in. I wish, I wish, I wish... I wish that wishing really worked, But the hard truth of it is, it doesn't. And though magic does not exist, And simply wanting something will not make it so, I wish you the best.

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