Bob Holbrook Smith died of tobacco colon cancer; tobacco cancer is a dominant twelve step anonymous diagnosis: one of the cheapest versions of global positioning system is to find the largest secondhand tobaccowall in any city or district: global poisoning system. Wherever is the thickest tobacco stench likely designates a meetinghall.

{ There is a 2001 autobiography « Touched: The Jerry Sandusky Story » where he had asked « How much do you weigh, young man? ». « This book will be a special read for anyone who respects people who are unselfish and give a little piece of themselves to everyone with whom they come in contact. »; ending with « ...original piece of work! ». He had given a little Dick Vermeil meal of himself, an original piece of meal. Touched in the head, as well as the head, & that other head, very giving, and under the showerroom showerhead. « Kip » Keith Richeal, Beaver Falls, Beaver Field, Beaver Stadium, is approximately my age. [ wikipedia, wikimedia ] }

Child abuse, cancer & emphysema are largely what we get of twelve step anonymity, serenity. Cancer is a favorite twelve step suicide, including for those who receive their tobacco secondhand, @ an anonymous meeting &/or a gambling casino. And virtually everyone can join in @ a nearby grocerystore parkinglot.

As for a nonsmoke meeting, you might want to risk by attempting to walk past one without an oxygen tent, on a street adjacent sidewalk. The air, for hundreds of feet, stinks.

Very little good derives of twelve step anonymity, anonymous serenity.

Since 1962, two years old, I have hoped for my own death; in 1963 I learned of suicide, & became suicidal: obviously, an inept, procrastinator, cowardly suicide. So, I have decided, in 2011, to scribe a variety of suicide notes, suicide letters, on a variety of internet websites, including one in third person, for a humor parody cyclopædia | encyclopædia | cyclopædic | encyclopædic wikia website. Many of these websites are hosted on platforms of wikia, wetpaint, wordpress,...; somehow, a website that begins with « w » does tend to dominate domain.

Even occupywallst does have a « w » buried in there, Saint Wall of Occupation.

I have applied to an endless series of social service agencies since the 1970's, which have accomplished little or nothing, otherwise I would have far less to complain about. I am determined to try virtually anything that seems different that what I have previously attempted; but, I may have exhausted all that I am capable of attempting. I am a twelve step product, twelve step failure, twelve step wreck. My parents had been twelve step years prior to my 1959 birth, not that I had had any other.

Many Christians do seem to savor, gloat, of every opportunity to proclaim « merry Christmas », averting any possibility of potentially causing anything to be happier, merrier, pleasanter, kinder, gentler, better. In 2011 I decided « merry crapass », & created < http://merrycrapass.wikia.com > & < http://crapass.wikia.com >, which I do suspect violate some regulation.

Many Christians do demand the absolute right to chant « merry Christmas » everywhere, continually & perpetually, and never make anything merry for anyone who is not Christian.

Two of the worst entities to manifest are Christianity & Islam | Muslim, along with most other theism, being theist; I do not endorse atheism, atheist, either. Each of theism & atheism offer more certitude than I believe warranted. Theism includes the added insult that they often contend that every of their actions are authorized by a « god », « higher power », intoxicated on power.

With agnosticism | agnostic a person has authority to doubt; in my interpretation, my definition, ignosticism | ignostic is the ability to be convinced of doubt. Yes, I do advocate ignosticism of certainty of uncertainty; however, I am not sufficiently cognitive to comprehend the distinction of « noncognitivism » versus « cognitivism ». I do not cognate noncognitivism, nor cognitivism.

If any social service agency, government or private, theist or otherwise, had ever provided sufficient assistance, then I would not be typewriting this page. I have been insulted by these social workers, medical doctors, et al, in the 1960's - 1970's in Suffolk County, Nassau County, & Maricopa County, in the 1980's in Maricopa & Los Angeles County, in the 1990's in Los Ángeles, the 2000's in Los Ángeles & Riverside County, in the 2010's { 2011 } in Riverside.

I have, as well, been ignored on most websites, most of the internet that I have attempted to communicate on, much like having been ignored in physical reality. Being ignored & rejected does constitute virtually all of my experience, including what some people call the « virtual » of internet. The worse that I become, the more rejected I am; the more rejected that I am, the worse that I am: emotionally, physically, cognitively, & financially, I do deteriorate further & further.

Half of a century plus two drowning in, strangling in, suffocating in totgeschwiegen twelve step serenity. And every escape effort thwarted, including by my own ineptitude. Half a century in a « Twilight Zone » episode or an « Outer Limits » episode.

Pure socialism is both bad & impossible; our nation is likely as near to pure capitalism as feasible, & absolutely pure capitalism does seem to be wrong & implausible. Each nation does seem to strive toward purity of capitalism, socialism, &/or theocracy. I would prefer a reasonable balance & mixture of socialism & capitalism; but, that ideal is rendered impossible by those who have the power and authority to choose.

If there is any god, then that god, higher power, had been stolen from me @ the moment when it had decided to grant my parents' serenity to commit child abuse. That god is corrupt, vicious & inept.