Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

cant stop crying please someone

Im sorry to post this, i dont want to bring anyone else down but im frustrated and im crying and i need support. I went to my appointments today, I start anger management tomorrow and I got into the adult partial program and did my intake today. I am trying sooo fucking hard dammit. But nobdoy sees that. the one time in days that I sort of get an attitude with ben he flips out. Saying im all a front and im lying that im getting better, but cant i be angry sometiems? anger is normal I thought, why cant he see that. He threatened to leave me again and I cant take that. I just want him to love me, and im trying so hard to get better. Im doing everything everyone is telling me to do, honeslty I am . I am working so hard on it, and even when I have bad thoughts I get over them quickly using the tools that I have to deal with stress. I cant take it anymore. GOD I just cant do it . The more I try the more it looks like im not trying. What do i have to do to prove myself. All I want is for people to love and support me, is that so wrong? I have a illness, I am depressed. I have taken all the proper ways to get help, I really thought I was doing okay. Now I feel like I have keep silent even when he does something that should make me mad, like today accusing me of talking to someone else on the phone when I was really talking to my mom because I was proud that I actually went to the appointments and im going through with it all and im getting the help the hospital told me to get. I just want someone to love me for who I am . How much more could a person take before breaking down? Im so ready to give up, i cant try any harder and its not good enough so what else is there to do? I know my answer and i know thats wrong, but I cant help but think about it .

Anger is a natural feeling hon. Even in anger management they will teach you that. You are doing all that you can and more than many do. YOu dont have the problem hon...it sounds like ben needs counselling as well. Be proud of yourself. Be strong just knowing that you have gone to intake and are getting the help you need to make you better. What you are thinking of is not the answer hon. You called your mom today to tell her about the intake. That tells me that you and her are close. If you werent here any longer...that would kill her. Think of something else to do that does not involve hurting yourself. big hugs hon. you are doing all you can to help yourself.

I am trying i just cant stop crying. Ive taken my meds, and another klonopin but im sick of dulling out the pain. I wish he knew how bad I hurt, and how I keep it inside so he can see me do better. Its like the standard is set so high that its unatainable (sp?) and there for im not getting better in his eyes.

when I went into the hospital.. they had a family meeting. DOes the intake facility offer any meetings that could include ben? maybe he could be told that you are still going to get angry and be told that the standard for you is set too high right now.

Maybe make him read literature on depression? Maybe he's in denial or just doesn't know how to handle it. Everyone gets mad and he should understand it. Make him read something so he can understand because he needs to learn that you are trying. Maybe bring him to the DR with you so the DR can explain it? xoxo Hugs hunnie!

he knows what depression is, he is a recovering addict and he just got some paxil so start taking, so dammit he knows but he still lays into me about it. Dont get it wrong, hes not some awful abusing man or anything, in reality when things are good hes a GREAT guy. He loves me and my kids and does alot for us. But emotionally hes just not there. Im just so sick of trying. Fuck it im taking a couple trazadones and putting myself out for the day. I cant handle life right now.

HONEY, I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU MEAN. MY HUSBAND WOULD SAY THE SAME THINGS TO ME. THAT I'M NOT GETTING BETTER. BECAUSE I HAVE TO TAKE MEDICATION. I HAVE MAJOR DEPRESSION IF I DON'T TAKE MY ZOLFT ALL I DO IS CRY. YES, ANGER IS NORMAL YOU DO HAVE A RIGHT TO GET ANGRY. ALL I CAN TELL YOU IS BELIEVE IN YOUSELF. YOU KNOW HOW HARD YOU ARE WORKING. EVERYONE HAS AN OPINION. MY HUSBAND IS NOW SUPPORTIVE BUT HE USE TO SAY. HE WAS GOING TO DIVORCE ME. WHICH WOULD UPSET ME.
WHAT I TELL EVERYONE WHEN THEY SOMETHING TO ME IS &quot;WHEN YOU WALK IN MY SHOES YOU WILL KNOW JUST HOW HARD IT IS TO BE ME&quot;I HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH MAJOR DEPRESSION FOR SO LONG.
I HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH STUDPITY, I WOULD HAVE THEM READ UP ON DEPRESSION SO THEY WOULD KNOW WHAT WAS CAUSING MY DEPRESSION.
THERE ARE MANY RESONS FOR DEPRESSION
ENVIRMENTAL IF THIS IS THE CAUSE YOU NEED TO FINE OUT WHAT I IS IN YOUR ENVIROMENT THAT IS CAUSING IT.
GENETIC IS IS CAUSE BY HEREITY. MAYBE THET YOUR DOCTORS CAN GET YOU A MEDICATION TO RELEVE IT.
TAKE CARE,

thank you very much. Everything you all said makes so much sense to me. I am sorry your husband put you through the same thing, i now know im not the only one. It gets so frustrating. They dont understand that above all them I am the one who wants to get better the most dammit. I know what they want, but I want the same thing. I wish they would see im not fighting to keep being depressed I am fighting the beat the depression. Idont want to spend the rest of my life feeling so bad about me and my life. Why cant they see that dammit. ugh the traz is kicking in, i gotta lay down. Maybe by the time I wake up he wont be so angry at me.

i know exactly how i feel. i am in the same position you are. but worse. my husband hates me. you try living withsomeone like that. i have just written in my journal and ifyou want to be on my friends list let me know so you can read it.

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