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Lots of dreams last night. I had some trouble last night after I found out George H W Bush had died on the 30th. Early the morning of the 1st it rained very hard here at the house…..like someone crying. No matter what I think, no matter what I have felt about him in the past, I am sad for those he’s left behind. I thought of George who has now lost both his Mom and Dad. I don’t care who you are, that hurts.

Something telling is his age was 94 and that is the same number value for human being! No matter what someone has said, what they have done in the end of it all that is what we are. We aren’t perfect. We make mistakes. We do things and say things we regret. Where the roads split is whether we have any remorse or not about those things. What we do to make amends.It’s important to at least try.

I learned in AA about making amends to those I had harmed with my drinking and behavior. Sometimes it would hurt someone more deeply if you try to say your sorry than if you just don’t say anything at all and just try to be a better person. There is some truth to this I imagine. Who wants to be a world leader? President of all things? A lot of people think they do until they actually have to walk into that office and start signing paperwork and making decisions about an entire country of people….much like a king of times past. We, the people not in positions of authority, don’t know everything that is going on behind the scenes. I think sometimes if we did, it would be too much for the average person to handle that is already handling way too much in their own lives. I appreciate the truth. For me personally, honesty would be appreciated so lies and mistakes don’t have to be discovered and covered. What a tightrope to walk. Just my opinion.

human being in Simple Gematria equals: 94

Some of the dreams slipped through and I lost them but what is in my notes above and this phrase as I woke up did stick with me:

“I’m not part of this moment anyway. I’m part of millions of different ones.”

im not part of this moment anyway im part of millions of different ones in Simple Gematria equals: 734

A girl in my dream in the convoy was humming this song. I had Kyle show me the video and there was a lot of information for me. There always has been a lot of information for me in these types of videos because I’m the type of person, thanks Grandpa Schmidt, who doesn’t always take things at face or surface value. I’ve been accused and guilty of being incredibly gullible and easily influenced during my life. I learned from those accusations. Am I digging too deeply? I doubt it. The words we use are not “just words.” The numbers we use are not “just numbers.” They are both language and numbers….a song even.

I believe the God of my understanding speaks to and works through us to convey the messages we need at any given time. Not every song from every genre will resonate with me. Sometimes it takes a very long time and I will come back to a song when I am ready or need to hear it. I just love music as does Kyle.

When I get goosebumps hearing a song, I know the person singing is genuinely singing from their heart.

Last night we attempted to watch the Lady Gaga documentary 5 Ft 2. I think I watched just enough to get the keys I needed to unlock what I’m sharing with you now. She is a very old soul and it comes through in her voice. Hearing her sing the National Anthem, hearing her sing Million Reasons in the video gave me goosebumps.

Around the World (La La La La La) – this song and video has information

Inside an empty room my inspiration flows
Now wait to hear the tune around my head it goes
The magic melody you want to sing with me
Just la la la la la the music is the key
And now the night is gone still it goes on and on
So deep inside of me I long to set it free
I don’t know what to do just can’t explain to you
I don’t know what to say oh not another word

Just la la la la la it goes around the world
Just la la la la la it’s all around the world
Just la la la la la and everybody’s singing
La la la la la and now the bells are ringing

The kisses of the sun (it goes around, around, around, around, around around the world)
La la la la la it goes around the world
Just la la la la la it’s all around the world
Just la la la la la and everybody’s singing
La la la la la and now the bells are ringing

seven billion reasons in Simple Gematria equals: 229/13

million reasons in Simple Gematria equals: 175/13

Million Reasons – this song has heart

You’re giving me a million reasons to let you go
You’re giving me a million reasons to quit the show
You’re givin’ me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin’ me a million reasons
About a million reasons

If I had a highway, I would run for the hills
If you could find a dry way, I’d forever be still
But you’re giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin’ me a million reasons
About a million reasons

I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I’ve got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one to stay

Head stuck in a cycle, I look off and I stare
It’s like that I’ve stopped breathing, but completely aware
‘Cause you’re giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin’ me a million reasons
About a million reasons

And if you say something that you might even mean
It’s hard to even fathom which parts I should believe
‘Cause you’re giving me a million reasons
Give me a million reasons
Givin’ me a million reasons
About a million reasons

I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I’ve got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one to stay

Baby I’m bleedin’, bleedin’
Stay
Can’t you give me what I’m needin’, needin’
Every heartbreak makes it hard to keep the faith
But baby, I just need one good one
Good one, good one, good one, good one, good one

When I bow down to pray
I try to make the worst seem better
Lord, show me the way
To cut through all his worn out leather
I’ve got a hundred million reasons to walk away
But baby, I just need one good one, good one
Tell me that you’ll be the good one, good one
Baby, I just need one good one to stay

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