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about

I started writing these compositions for solo saxophone
about four years ago out of desperation and loneliness.

I was sick with severe vertigo and spending the summer
living alone in an attic in Vermont, a very special attic
where I live every summer. This was the most depressing time in my entire life thus far, waking up every morning with the hopes that when I opened my eyes I would see things to be still and clear, and instead everything seemed blurry and swayed as if I was on a boat in the ocean. I felt like I was in hell and I was going to die.

Seeking some sort of remedy, I exhausted all western medicine for my condition: steroids, MRIs, inner ear tests, everything.... Nothing seemed to help and on top of that no one could tell me what was wrong with me. It was at this point that I thought perhaps the whole thing was psychosomatic and I had simply gone mad.
It was through this desperation that I was led to a very gifted Five Element acupuncturist who happened to live in the same town as me in Vermont. I was terrified of needles and was very nervous when I met the acupuncturist. However the moment he needled my shaking body for the first time I felt energy gushing through my body in a shocking and undeniable way. It was at this moment that I started to realize how much untapped energy potential humans possess. It was almost as if humans were merely seeds pretending they are trees. I also had a very strong yet subtle feeling that healing myself as well as healing others would become a vital part of my life and that this would not be a separate practice from my music.

I didn’t know it at the time, but this exact moment was the beginning of my walk toward uncovering this untapped energy potential, becoming what was once called a shaman. A shaman embraces life rather than escapes from it. He/she transmutes difficult situations into springboards for unfoldment, recognizing that all life is spiritual when lived from the viewpoint of Soul. The unfoldment is never-ending.