oh. this is very... touching, if i may say so. as disturbing as it is, it's also familiar. the fourth part, with the "i couldn't expect him to wait forever" line, it's so true for so many girls/boys that it kills me. this whole thing has the most realistic feel to it that i've read in a poem in a long time. thank you for sharing and keep writing please, your talent is glaringly obvious in this work.