Friday, October 19, 2007

Month of Weeks

Everything wants to shit on me today.Even my Firefox browser refused to start. I clicked on the icon and it just sat there.I reset the computer and it didn't help.I deleted the program and redownloaded itand it still did the same goddamned thing.I repeated the download and reinstall and resetprocess probably 3 times. It didn't do shit.Now I am using Internet Explorer and I feel ill.The internet is a vital entity in my well being.Sometimes people knock on my front door.Tonight is somebody's birthday or something.I think I am supposed to go sit around and be nice.Someone has allowed a couple baby birds to live outside my window. I am going to invest in a BB gun.I am going to sit behind my blinds and plugeveryone that goes by and not hide my face whenthey look. If I were a girl I think I'd take naked pictures and sell them to a website for extra money. Or for regular money, and that would be my main job. I think tonight I am supposed to go see some movie.Movies are good sometimes because you sit there and just look at the screen and not talk or think.While at movies I sometimes imagine if the screenweren't there at all. And that everyone in roomwas just sitting there looking straight forwardat nothing. I think that would be a better thingto do. I imagine if more people paid $9.50 to gosit in a room with a bunch of other people and sitin nice rows of padded chairs with beverages andjust look at nothing, everything about everythingwould be a lot better. I am going to take a loanout from the bank and open the first nothing theater.I am going to go severely in debt. By taking on the debt and providing a service that will create anew hole in people's evenings, I will be somethingto someone sometime. There are a lot of wordsyou can pick to type. I don't know why anyonepicks one word instead of another except based onsmall unconscious alterations in their awareness caused by what they ate in the past several hoursand how long and well they slept the night before.I don't know why anyone goes anywhere except totry to make themselves feel better or to maybe see a car accident or a fist fight or someone nude.Next time it is my birthday I am going to distributemy phone number on the internet in as many places asI can think of and sit around talking to otherlonely people all through the day and into night.