Friday, March 11, 2011

Ya ALLAH..

Ya Allah..

How do I get over him?

If we’re not meant to be together, why does this stupid heart still keep shouting his name? I know I’ve surrendered everything to you ALLAH, including this love I have for him. I know that this is beyond my control now. I made a decision to end our relationship, and I have to stick by that decision. I hope that one day, you will change my heart. You will slowly change this love I have for him. And although there are days when I know I’d be okay, there are also times when I’d just break down and cry. There’s still love left in my heart. And I don’t know if I’ll ever get over him. I’ve tried meeting other guys, but my heart still keeps coming back to him! I don’t know if I should be more patient and allow some time for my heart to heal. I just don’t know how long this will last.

Please Allah, if he’s not the guy that you want for me, please change my heart. If he’s not the guy for me, I will embrace that truth with all my heart. But I’m praying that you’ll change my feelings. Change my heart and prepare it for what’s to come.

I want to follow the road that you’ve mapped out for me, Father. Please help me to accept whatever happens next…