What I did with contest win

I don't know where this will go but somebody might direct it . I want to say thank you for contest $50 I won awhile back. It was incredible and I made an incredible mess to match. Made playthrough cashed out $150, reversed, got a royal in clubs dealt, tried to withdraw it, kept going in, after about $200 I hit deuces. If I stopped then I would have $1300. It's all ugly after that. I'm so sorry I feel I let you down.. I forgot the beginning The $50 I played at Rich Reels, on Hitman with 45 cents hit $600 with 3 guys in middle. I had a screen shot, but too painful now.. Before that I hit 2's, 3's, 4's, on double quarters, got dealt 4 aces, drew the kicker. It was one thing after another, and up down. This just goes to show how backwards I am. I think I took $300 out there. Thank you, it was quite a rush.

Helwin, we're here for you! You just let it all out! LOL"
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Don't be too hard on yourself thinking you let us down. We have all been there, done that and will do it again. I think you are feeling that you let yourself down."
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And hey, that's the name of the game, gambling. You win , you lose, you cashout, you don't cashout. You will have another chance to bring home some cash, eventually, I'm sure."
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Congrats on some nice hits BTW!!

Thank you you ladies. I should have started in the beginning instead of the end. But then should have done a few other things. You don't know how your support eases some of the pain. I'm just wondering if I'll ever be able to tame these tendencies. I do what I intend and even more and then the plans change at the end. Someday I will do it right. First thing I need to do is get a cage! And my poor husband. You don't know how many times I ran out in the hall and blurted out an excited update and ran back in. He probably would have had a heart attach if he could hear better or if I said it so he could actually hear what I was saying! Thanks again for being here and listening.

helwin wrote: And my poor husband. You don't know how many times I ran out in the hall and blurted out an excited update and ran back in.__________________________________________________________

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That is something I quit doing a while ago. I use to run and tell my honey what I just hit, how much I had in my balance and that I cashed out. Well, sometimes after the huge hit, the big balance and the cashout, it all seemed to go back into the casino. Played it and/or reversed it.

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The look on his face after the 100th time I did that was not a happy look, so I quit telling him all together. No sense in getting anyone's hopes up that some money was coming home and then shoot it all to hell.