Oh
come on! Do I really have to say these words? I really hope not! July
is my birth month. And I am hoping that no one nor nothing is going
to ruin this special month for me. Please try not to create more
drama in my life. I am so over these dramatic cliché! I want
changes. And I want to believe that this is possible.

24
years have passed. Many things have changed. I am not the same girl
that I used to be on my 18th birthday. And I am not the
same lady that I used to be a year ago. Now that I am about to enter
another stage of my life, I could say that I am proud of what I have
become.

Stronger.
Fiercer. More mature. Have learned a lot from previous experiences.
This is Zephyr. The new Zephyr. Though I am still vulnerable to pain,
I can say that now, I am more prepared on how people will treat me. I
became an open-minded young lady that can accept that fact that some
people could never like me, or treat me nice. Some people will come
and then leave with no apparent reason. And my response on these
things will always be: “That's OK”.

For
the biggest change in my life. I will start with LOVE. Yes, love. I
hope that I can do this one. I will now focus on my job, on my
career, on what I truly want in my life, I will focus on myself now.
I am turning 24 and I want to see myself as a successful young woman
at the age of 25. As I would say, “tama na muna ang landi, trabaho
muna!”. No more chasing. No more boys. No more thinking about my
ex. This time, my life will just revolve around me, my family, my job
and my friends.

So
July, bring on the rain! Bring on all the positive vibes. I know we
can make it. I can make it.

Of
course, there's no report for that. I found out by myself. My request
to follow has been rejected. I saw that coming but I refused the idea
of being rejected. I hoped high to being approved rather than being
rejected. But that's fine. After all, this is not the first time. So
it didn't hurt that much.

Oh
well, I have been rejected many times. But what I have realized on
those countless rejections was, in every single rejection, multiple
acceptance by worth it people came rushing to me. So what's the sense
of being sad? Why on earth should I care for those people who can't
like me back. Always remember that we can never please everybody.
Never!

So
tonight, as I think of the last person who've just rejected a
“connection request” from me, all I can say is: IT'S OKAY. Thank
you for not giving me a chance to show myself a little more. I won't be angry, I won't take this badly. I know you have your reason. And yes, I have been rejected by you, but I am still happy because you're not mad at me. And that's one of the few things I need to know. :)

Today
is Saturday. After having myself busy at Cubao to meet a friend, have some
breakfast and drink some cheap lemon tea, here I am in the office, again. I love
the ambiance here in the office especially when I can do anything because less
people are here today. Wondering of what to do next before I meet another set
of friends to do food tripping somewhere (can’t tell where), I decided to put
my thoughts on notes.

It’s
pretty amazing to look on my desktop’s background. I have his handsome face as
my wallpaper. It really gives me the inspiration I've been longing to feel. By
seeing his face, I want to strive more, harder, just to make sure he’ll notice
me. Erase that, he already notice me, what I want is to get close to him, even
as a friend.

So,
here I am, typing while my eyes are all locked to see his face, mind blowing
with crazy thoughts and ears that listens to a voice that used to irritates me.

I
have a lot of things to write. I have a lot of things to share. God never fails
to bless me with positivity and good days. He put me to a situation where I pushed
myself to the limit of becoming better. I've learned the true meaning of
sacrifice, love, friendship and being me. Now, my life is better than
yesterday.

And
if ever I finally decided to leave, I won’t worry because I have a great
back-up. I have God, which I know will never let me down. And my friends will
always be there for me. But if I decided to stay a little longer, few months or
a year, I guess it’s my choice to get stranded on a place where I can see a
part of my dream. In a daily basis.

23
years and I haven’t met my father. I do know his name, his province and a
little something about his life. I never get tired of thinking that someday,
one day, I will be able to meet him.

23
years and I am wondering. Does this man ever wonder where I am? What I have
become? Or if I am still alive? Because that’s how I care about him. I am
thinking about him, what he really looks like or if he even is still alive.

23
years and I’m chasing this man that I shouldn't be chasing at all. He should be
the one to chase me. He should be the one to find me. He should be the one to
reconcile.

I never had anger inside my heart. I can never
be mad at him. I am not aware of the real story. I have no idea what happened.
Why he left me. Why he is not here with me. All I know is somewhere out there, I
do have a father.

I
wish I have him. Here. With Me. I wish I was a Daddy’s Girl. I wish I have a
dad whom will guide me and teach me about guys. I want a father-daughter
relationship like how I watched them in the movies. I want a father who’ll
drive me to school, to work, to my friends’ house just to make sure that I am
okay. I want a father who’ll stay beside me specially on my darkest hour. And above
all, I want my own Father.

June
is the time when we celebrate Father’s Day. 23 years and I never cared about
this “special day”. Why should I? But this year, I decided to finally write
something about this day.

So,
for my father, I want to greet you a Happy Father’s Day. I hope you are well.
And someday, when I am ready enough, I will be the one to come after you.

How
can a lady tell who's hot and who's not? For me, a guy can be so hot
by having a body which seems so perfect (six-packs of abs, why not?),
a cheeks with deep dimples, eyes that can melt even your soul and a
smile that could bring you to a place that you've always dream of.

Aside
from these physical looks, guys can be so HOT in our eyes by being
successful on his career, knowing that this man has a dream and he's
living to pursue them. Manners do matters as well – kind, caring,
honest and one-woman-man are the qualities of a true hot guy.

With
so much deliberation with my self, I have here a list of 5 of the
hottest men in the world, FOR ME.

To be
honest, ranking these five guys is one of the hardest things I have
done in my life. :)

5th
- Joseph Gordon-Levitt

I
watched several movies where Joseph Gordon-Levitt is the main actor
but I have only noticed his hotness on the film – Don Jon. Yes,
that film defines Joseph Gordon-Levitt as a hot, sexy man with a
good heart. At a very young age, he appeared on several movies and
TV shows. And now that he's 33 years old, he has grown to be a
successful screenwriter, actor, director, producer and the owner of
hitREcord.

Clothes
on, clothes off, Joseph Gordon-Levitt will always look hot! Whether
he put that cute smile on his face or he shows a seducing look. This
man is truly a good catch.

4Th
- Tyler Blackburn Tyler
starred on Pretty Little Liars as Caleb – an American TV show with
Ashley Benson as her love team. This actor-singer looks definitely
hot with his long sexy hair and pair of eyes that could melt you
when he stare. The success of PLL also takes Tyler to another TV
Series or a spin-off which is Ravenswood.

This
year (2014), Tyler had his hair cut which made him look hotter than
before.

3Rd
- Neymar Jr. Because
today is the opening of FIFA and there are 32 countries to defeat
against each other, I might as well pick one players from them.
Among Ronaldo (Portugal), I find Neymar Jr. as the hottest player on
this year. This 22 year old footballer plays for Brasil as forward
and winger and also plays for Barca in La Liga.

I
have this man in my mind since morning. He is my inspiration for this
post. Neymar looks hot when he's shirtless and his tattoos are
visible. Young yet successful on his career. Many years from now, I
hope that he'll become like Ronaldo or Beckham.

2Nd
- Misagh Bahadoran Second
on my list is a Filipino-Iranian Azkals footballer - Misagh
Bahadoran. He plays forward on Global FC and winger on Philippine
National Team. I started to like Misagh when I first saw him plays
in Azkal. Number 09.

Misagh
is 27 years old and graduated with Dentistry degree at CEU. Among
this list, I've already met Misagh and he is such a nice guy.
Handsome, hot body, one of the best soccer player and an educated
man. Who else could be the hottest. And mind his eyes, you might kill
yourself by staring.

1St
- Naive Lord I
guess you haven't heard this name, well neither did I. But this man
is on my top list. He has no great body like these guys on my list,
nor the popularity points but he is the hottest because of his
smile.

Every
time Naive Lord smiles, he automatically leaves a smile on my face as
well. When he smile, his eyes smiles as well. He can brighten up my
days, the room, the gloomiest scene every time he give his smile.
And he is a good, loyal, one-woman-man. The best description of a hot
guy.

There,
so have I mentioned any of the guys that you adore? And oh, Aren't
They So Hot?