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Wow. Just read the last three posts. Congratulations! That must be such a relief.

Yet, I feel sad for you, too. As you said, the house where your life with John occurred is now 'gone'. That's an additional level of loss. I'm sure I'll feel very strange when/if my Dad finally sells the house. It helped to be there to clear it out and say goodbye then, but it will still be weird when it's finalized.

And the burst pipe! UGH. That sounds dreadful. What a hassle in the middle of SO many other house hassles of late. I still can't believe they expected you to cough up $5000 at the drop of a hat. OUCH.

It's funny -- because you started this transition quite some while ago, and yet the moment when it happens still feels momentous.

I read your post about selling the only place you lived in with John and the twins together. It hurts, and I can remember how that feels.

All I can say is that you are where you need to be now. bad stuff happens from time to time, and, as you say, having been dumped on a lot in the past offers no immunity going forwards -- when life's little irritations want to strike, they surely will.

For all those reasons, that's why you need to be where you need to be. As one door closes, another one opens, and I have absolutely no doubt in that.

Now the old home is not bound to you by ownership, perhaps the new place will feel more like home now, and I'm sure you'll feel properly rooted in your new life like never before. Attagirl!