X Marks the Spot

I'm pretty sure I am done. I'll still hang around and stuff, for a while. But, I think I am done trying to figure things out.

I had a discussion with Dion on my Septenary Man thread, and it is crazy when I look at my old writings, writings more than 20 years old of mine. Fuck. I've accomplished them. I was on a quest to touch my soul, my spirit, and see what I was comprised of.

Throughout my entire life there has been an ache, a longing, to struggle through all the many illusions of what we are before we have been entangled in the web of the human condition.

The human condition is comprised of unreality. It is comprised of errors and distortions and longing and blindness, and false hopes and deception and the worst of it; relying on others to find the self. Co-dependence and crutches and fantasies and all the many, many disturbing, debilitating constructs of fear and doubt.

I have asked the questions throughout my life, since the time I can remember: What are we and what are we here for?

Even when these answers become known, there is no relief or release like we think there will be. Unfortunately, learning or suspecting the answers...well the answers remainbeyond human expression. It is akin to trying to describe, in full and in perfect form beyond equivocation , the reason why you love your child, or the reason you were born. Read the tales of the saints. [link to en.wikipedia.org] Read of St. John of the Cross and Saint Teresa of Avila. Their experiences, according to modern day Christians on this site would be of demonic influence.

Ah, I am getting off on a tangent.

There is no 100% absolution. I know now why the religious find such comfort in believing something from outside themselves will provide full absolution. How/why? Because it cannot be done save for fantasies and beliefs and the power of conformity that chains the soul.

The chains, the restriction, the boundaries that the human condition has constructed about itself...are comforting. We have been indoctrinated, composed of since our first breath, the predisposed human fallacy of not cycles, but of a singular beginning and end.

It all needs to be redone. The holy wars, the separation, the judgements, the righteousness. There is a problem though. Before, these things were isolated ideologies. Now, they consume the world. Not to mention the vices of greed and vanity.

We are due a cleansing. Cleansing does not mean death, but it does mean a painful SCRUB; a painful clearing of things attached to us that are not of our own self.

ALL the things you experience in this life are your own...

~ I need to get back in touch with myself. I have strayed a very long way from my center. It is difficult being this sensitized to the world, to the people surrounding my life.

I want to go deep, deep down into the thing that I am. Touch my soul and release it. Let it flow out and consume my subjective being.

I can sense it here. I feel it. It’s just out of sight. It feels strange. It is here. And it is me. But it feels like someone else.

I hope one day I allow it to span this chasm of fear and sorrow that I have dug. Let my soul cross it, and like the sands beneath the ocean waves, I will let it engulf me and let it preside over the confusion and doubts that have constructed my life.

Saptaparna ~ Seven-leaves, sevenfold; the man-plant, sevenfold man, seven-principled human being. ~ Spinning infinity. The wheel is spinning me and it's never ending.~ What if I say I'm not like the others? What if I say I'm not just another one of of your plays?

Luna is not the bad guy here. She is very sweet and feels a lot of what goes on around here.....Much more than others.She may have made me cry that one time. But....It was a mistake and she apologized to me right after it happened. It was a misunderstanding that as been fixed. With no ill will between us.

And for the poor guys on this thread.......Yes..we females are insane. lol

Quoting: Blue Skies

Noo...surely not.

The engravings translate to "This space intentionally left blank."

The prayer is inscribed in an ancient script, rarely used today. It seems to be a philippic against small insects, absent-mindedness, and the picking up and dropping of small objects.

The gate is open; through it you can see a desolation, with a pile of mangled bodies in one corner. Thousands of voices, lamenting some hideous fate, can be heard.The way through the gate is barred by evil spirits, who jeer at your attempts to pass.

The prayer is inscribed in an ancient script, rarely used today. It seems to be a philippic against small insects, absent-mindedness, and the picking up and dropping of small objects.

The gate is open; through it you can see a desolation, with a pile of mangled bodies in one corner. Thousands of voices, lamenting some hideous fate, can be heard.The way through the gate is barred by evil spirits, who jeer at your attempts to pass.

Questions always linger, like dangling participles, even though we've been presented with the answers. One resonant experience with Source is enough to wake up the 'dead', yet we seek more... Is it spiritual greed or thirst?

It's the insanity of it all. In delusion many cling to the solace of a life well lived. All the while that life in derision mocks us back...

Succombing to extreme swings leads to blind faith or nihilism.

Where does the 'I' fit in? As a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. And if 'I' self-efface, 'I' can slide 'right' through. But, that's what's expected.

To do the unexpected, to break the inherent functionality of a construct. To deprogram expectations and maintain identity. That my friend is the fun part. Once the Light is accepted, all paths are open.

To step out of the path is not sinful. It's necessary. The Path is not limited to the path of least resistance, the fractal way.

Find integrity in nihilism. (got a major ear tone change when I typed that)

i just noticed somethingfor the past few days feedback has led the thread into emotion = energy

and when i awoke today i utilized the girls visible emotive expressions in word to describe the practical structure and function of emotion = energy expression

we are beta testing our "solid state" environment (universe) because we have discovered our environment (universe) is information labeled energywhat is information labeled energythe best word we possess to describe it accurately is emotion, non material cause of effectwe discovered that there exists emotional boundaries defining source of emotive expression within it`s environment of emotive expressionfor people it happens like thisour emotive boundary , the visible affect of our emotive expression, is our aura, that is our emotive boundary uniquely defining us , further within our boundary is our more solid surface definition of ourselves labeled skin

we emotively express ourselves within the emotive boundary of earth, labeled magnetosphere and further inwards from there is the more solid surface definition of earth labeled earths surface

so the emotional sensitives amongst us will sense the motivational emotions within others.

they can sense the emotional complexity of people within earths emotional boundary, will sense the solar system emotional affects within our suns emotional boundary , can sense the complexity of our suns emotional environment within the complexity of our galaxies emotional expression, etc, etc.

in fact you can scale your sensitivity to fit your motivated desire to know remembering that each and every emotion is shared within the emotions of that which you are experiencing your emotions within and it to, whatever it is, is as motivated as you will ever be

Quoting: aether

Awesome start to a beautiful day!!

Quoting: ArunaLuna

good morningthat information came from the collective information you girls expressed on this thread while i was asleep

i wrote what i saw when i woke up

Quoting: aether

and we went from there to here:

its the crossover boundary (translation) of the information/energy coming into earthwhat we are observing are the visible signs of the energy information (emotion) being translated upon arrival into emotional language of earths understanding (use)

like our aura does for us before our skin receives it

Quoting: aether

now what i just thought is this

there is no way for our sensitive posters on this thread and the marko thread not to be affected by the content (invisible architecture) being constructed within word on this thread today

this is not a joke post nor is the wording we utilize to describe our non material structural reality comprising of emotion

i did say earlier in the thread that the topics we discuss can and do prompt p.t.s. on occasions because we do return to our ancestral past

now i believe the topics can and must heighten emotion on occasions

Quoting: aether

I strongly agree and am so glad this thread keeps on motoring along. I am a lurker on this thread,I devote too much energy on two others to post with you brilliant people. In a way I come here to recharge and gain insight. Keep up the good work you bayards of truth and energy!

“One of the saddest lessons of history is this: If we’ve been bamboozled long enough, we tend to reject any evidence of the bamboozle. We’re no longer interested in finding out the truth. The bamboozle has captured us. It’s simply too painful to acknowledge, even to ourselves, that we’ve been taken. Once you give a charlatan power over you, you almost never get it back.” – Carl Sagan

>>I'm going with a natural organic feel here!Someone voted a single star rating, once again..keeping the natural dynamic flowing.<<

OK then.

>>Hello 272...

I was just noting to another how frequent is has been with me for the last few days.

I wrote a thread about it some time ago if you are interested...<<

hi 777! I am, thanks. I know what the ringing is but its when it changes that catches my attention and thought maybe Justadude might have more insight into that specifically.

ever have it go quite for a second on only one side or the other then return to normal? that also gets attension. BTW I should also thank you for all the great .jpgs you have posted on the forum here.. I use them for wallpaper/backgrounds!

“One of the saddest lessons of history is this: If we’ve been bamboozled long enough, we tend to reject any evidence of the bamboozle. We’re no longer interested in finding out the truth. The bamboozle has captured us. It’s simply too painful to acknowledge, even to ourselves, that we’ve been taken. Once you give a charlatan power over you, you almost never get it back.” – Carl Sagan

Now that I feel dirty for even setting foot in here. Off to go play video games. The only fantasy you people have that is worth a chit & fun. At least those on-line there, are more real in truth, than this. AND they know it.

Most have seen this for those who haven't, read up, explains the introduction to your greet with the universe.

[link to www.quantumk.co.uk] Read it through,resonance, fractal and sacred geometry, the crystalline lattice surrounding our DNA, healing, and acceptance of forgiveness(the most important).

Dionysus your exempt!

“One of the saddest lessons of history is this: If we’ve been bamboozled long enough, we tend to reject any evidence of the bamboozle. We’re no longer interested in finding out the truth. The bamboozle has captured us. It’s simply too painful to acknowledge, even to ourselves, that we’ve been taken. Once you give a charlatan power over you, you almost never get it back.” – Carl Sagan