dysfunctional friends

The friendship started innocently enough. We had lots of things in common so small talk led to drinks after work, outings, and even group adventures. I was so happy that I had found a friend who really listened to me and supported me. As time went on, I started feeling heard less and less. I tried to make adjustments in the conversation, but it always circled back to whatever new and terrible thing had happened to her. Some nights, I would be on the computer for hours consoling her and helping her through something. I would go to bed mentally and physically drained. The “friendship” was not reciprocal.

My husband had enough and told me to just ignore the messages that always started out the same way. It seemed she wanted to catch up and “talk”, but we never did anything anymore. She didn’t call me on the phone, didn’t answer my text messages, and didn’t want to see me. She just wanted to use messenger as her personal dumping ground all night long.

I felt alone and isolated in the friendship. I was not important enough to make time for. There were other examples as well. An event we were going to go to together that she said we would plan…weeks later, photos of her with someone else at the event. Exercise class no show…and excuses on nights I asked her to do something with me, or just come over and chat. However, throughout this process, when she needed me or wanted to come over to see a mutual friend, I made the time. I was always making time because trust is something I value.

That’s when it finally hit me. I didn’t trust her anymore due to the lies and excuses. I was nurturing a friendship that was crumbling because I believed she would wake up and see what she was doing to me. It wasn’t going to happen because I was not the only one she lied to. She lied to her husband, to her work, to mutual friends, and most of all, to herself. I could not fix this. She had to get back to seeing a weekly counselor and nothing I did or said would ever be enough until she was ready to work on herself.

How to cope when a friendship ends?

Make a plan. What would you do if you were to run into this person again? What would happen if this person wanted back in your life? I know the answers seem hard to think about, but it’s best to run through that now while you are fresh to whatever happened in the relationship. The main question is does the relationship empower me or deflate me? Is there capacity for an authentic, honest relationship or not? Honestly, you already know the answers to these questions.

Write your feelings down. I know that this is not like a funeral…but in a way, it is. You are dealing with the stages of grief, and it is a serious thing. You have loved that friend, cared for that friend, and despite your best efforts, the friendship ended. I haven’t forgotten the moments of happiness the friendship brought me, and despite the fact that for the better part of a year I saw the friendship going down a steep hill into a black abyss that sucked all the joy out of it, I still regret the way it ended. But I also know it takes two working together to save a relationship. Not one. The primary emotion that comes to me is anger because of the way it ended. Anger that I was made to be in the middle of something that was never about me anyway.

Think about the qualities you really want in a friend. I was in a bad place when we met, but as I started to get better, it seemed to make my friendship worse. That doesn’t even sound okay to me now. How could a friend not be happy for me? I wanted someone who could talk to me in person and not make excuses because they were mad that I was doing better. I am not sure why I didn’t notice it before.

That brings me to “Don’t take it personally.” Everyone is dealing with their own demons. If the friendship ends, there is a good chance that it is freeing you up for something new. It will hurt for a long time, but eventually you will realize that you have broken the cycle and moved on. New friends await you, and this time, as soon as you see something that doesn’t sit well with you, be brave and have that conversation on what is important to you in a friendship. If this person is meant to be in your life, they will understand, value you, and most importantly, make time for you.

As your self-esteem and self-worth improves, these old friends WILL fall away if they are not meant to be in your life. You are making room for so much more my friend. In my closed group, the Head|Heart|Health Club, we are working on exactly what we want to attract in our lives and that includes new boundaries for ourselves and realizing that it truly is okay to feel worthy.

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