in my spiritual journey, i'm learning that love is all there is, that God is love, that we are loved. i have fear, but i'm growing.
it's hard to grow, but worth it. So I invite you into an exploration with me of the possibilities of what can happen when we say Yes to Love.
AND a note: i'm not on duty here, so my language and thoughts are not for the impressionable.

Monday, April 7, 2008

that now was all i had

a friend shared a song with me by an artist named dan bern. oh my lord. what an amazing song - it's called "god said no." i won't attempt to tell the story of, or have you get a feeling for, the song, because it's too beautiful, (although, here are the lyrics). but the point, for me, is this section, in which god answers the speaker's request to go back in time and fix what went wrong:

God said, "Time,Time belongs to me;Time's my secret weapon,My final advantage."God turned awayFrom the edge of town.I knew I was beatenAnd that now was all I had.God said no.

that line ... "now was all i had."

that, for me, is a huge, powerful truth. when i stop running yesterday in my head, or the tomorrow that absolutely will not happen (it never does - not in the way i imagine it), i am free to breathe and be still. for me, that isn't about being beaten.but the speaker's plan is beaten. he wants to fix it. god says No. figure out your own story - everything will be different if you do that.