Friday, June 25, 2010

sssshhh you might not be able to hear me

Workout was good yesterday today should be even better. Feeling pretty good today but I still have a sore throat, runny nose and ear aches. But my latest issue is the lack of voice. Laryngitis. Yippee fun. What a way to start my weekend.

I have a doctors appointment on Monday morning thankfully so if I am not feeling 100% by then I will be able to find out what is going on.

I am happy to report that I have lost 10lbs so far since the beginning of this journey. Not as much as I would have liked but I am happy. I am still working on getting enough fiber in my diet. It isn't that easy ya'll. I love my raisin bran and my grape nuts thankfully. I also have become a fan of black beans! YUMMY. For all that know me I have always had a huge gripe with beans. I just never liked the taste, texture, feel etc. I think that tonight we will be having some black beans and brown rice.

I have a confession to make. I am nervous and scared. I need to go back out to Clermont and climb but I am just awfully nervous. I ride with a lot of great people, some of the best in the world. But almost all of them are all fantastic riders (much better than I) and climb the hills in Clermont just like they were overpasses. Whereas I am the one saying prayers and drooling from the mouth just to make it up. I have the fear of falling over. The fear of the pain. The fear making it up all the climbs but not having the energy to make it back to the car (like the last time I was out there.) Was this is stupid idea on my part to make this goal for myself? I am doubting myself big time. I just want to crawl under a rock some days. I know that I am stronger and lighter that I was before, but is it going to be enough? I have 3 more months to train for this journey. Will I make it!?

ok, I was there with you in Clermont and you did GREAT! I hardly noticed any drool at all;) at least you are not cursing everyone out like me.(Greg is not allowed to turn around and watch me as I come up,'cause it's ugly that's my rule.) Climbing takes time and you just go as slow as you need to. I have a horrible time in the hills 'cause I am heavy and slow, but set the ego and expectations aside and you will make it. You already did the hardest Clermont ride of your life- your first. You have nothing at all to fear. You can do it. When are you guys planning to go again? We just went last week in the stupid middle of the day and it was literally hell. Let's plan a ride...