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Before I went to bed last night, I asked my guides what was my purpose here on Earth, to let me know in my dreams and to help me remember it upon waking. Not quite sure if I remembered everything, but here goes.

Dream was in two parts. First part was me visiting my Tito and Tita’s house that, for some reason, wasn’t their real house (which is located in a posh village). This one was located somewhere in Cubao, a sprawling piece of property that was smack in the middle of a crowded neighborhood. In fact, getting there, you could see the white walls from the outside.

As I went in, there were lots of people in the house. Not sure if there was a party because half of the house was a sort of hotel. Just that there were lots of people (kind of like when you go down for breakfast buffet in a hotel). There was cake too. There were several kinds of chocolate cake.

I knew I was there on account of work. (My tita is my boss in real life) And I happened upon the party and wanted to taste some of the cake. While I was still trying to observe what was happening — and I don’t know which came first in the dream or what — my aunt and uncle came down, hurrying to get to an appointment. Some servants were following them. There were some big creatures that the servants were hanging onto with a leash and some leashes snapped and they roamed freely. It seemed everyone (including me) was disoriented at first, but relaxed when we realized that the big creatures were friendly dogs. But along with the dogs, some tigers, maybe two, came bounding down the staircase. I was close by and the tiger came up to me. It roared ferociously and was around two inches away from my face. I was scared but I stood very still and stood my ground. There was another tiger present but I didn’t know what happened with that. All I know was that I wanted to still get a slice of chocolate cake but decided to forego it.

That’s when I woke up.

I went back to bed though and this next part I remember very little of. It seems as though I met with my TF. He wasn’t very friendly and he kept his distance. And I don’t know what happened, but I think I physically moved closer to him and that’s when he “remembered”, kind of like allowed himself to let his guard down. I just know he was wearing a peach shirt. And the last shot was us cuddling like the lovers in the painting of Gustav Klimt.

As for the answer to my question – it seems as though part of my purpose is to be an evolutionary catalyst for this family I was born in. The pair of tigers are my parents, kept under the metaphorical wing of my uncle. The dogs are the rest of my relatives on that side of the family, cousins included. The folks in the house are the other people they are trying to help. The cake would be the good times with the family which I (in my dream) would choose to forego. My TF was just there for support.

I had a difficult time raising my vibration after that reading with JK. But, of course, the Universe was watching out for me, and one of those rare instances when I opened my FB, I saw that Starsoul Tarot (a.k.a. Hazel, Illumined Souls) had a special on, so I booked an appointment the day before M’s birthday.

I told her about the circumstances with my reading with JK and how I had felt that a lot of what she told me was off. I didn’t give too much information and certainly not the details of her reading because I didn’t want to convolute the messages that she got for me.

Anyway, the first thing she told me was that, as far as Soul Origin goes, she saw that I was surrounded by white light and that I was not obstructed by anything karmic. It was a day after the reading that she told me that her guides told me that I was an angelic.

This resonated because sometimes, when I ask to be connected to the Highest Aspect of Myself that I can connect with at the time, this is what I see.

She said that she got the Ace of Pentacles which meant that this was the start of a new cycle in my evolution. It’s a new beginning so I’ve got to let go of everything I’ve heard before that confused me.

She confirmed that M is my TF (as opposed to JK’s pronouncement that he was just my Soul Mate and that we would not get together in this lifetime and that my true TF was some guy with a limp) and all I needed to do was to wait for him to come into his truth. That’s why I couldn’t muster any enthusiasm to date anyone else even if I would like a companion for the future.

The effect of the energy of JK’s reading was to deflect me from this truth. Not one part of what she said to me was true. (can confirm! not even the bit about why I didn’t have security of home, or the role I play in my parents’ ascension.) All was just obstructing my truth.

She said that I had to view the value of the reading from a different perspective. I had to see it as a test to bring me back to the truth. It was a way for me to distinguish something that was outside who I really was and how it didn’t resonate. I guess, it was kind of like those game shows where you’re blindfolded and you have to guess what it is in front of you based on the texture or the taste. At least now, I know that whatever fiction JK trumped up, it was all fiction.

So, in essence, it was like I had contracted a spiritual illness because of JK’s reading. She’s pulling people out of their vibrations all over the place. She told me to believe in myself and to not let JK pull me out of my vibration. She said that I was very spiritual, very high-minded, very intuitive, and that I was creating abundance out of my true nature. JK probably sensed this and so there’s a bit of jealousy going on there.

As for M, she said that he’s not ready yet. He’s also confused now because I’m confused. I have to get myself back on track so that he can also get back on track. I have to clear my energy field again and work extra hard to get my vibration back.

She said that JK was trying to rip twins apart. So I should get back to where I was before. I will come back stronger than ever and be able to put out high level information for others more than I used to do, and that I would become more powerful. I should create boundaries around myself to respect my true authentic self.

As for M’s birthday, I’m supposed to send a short message – nothing overwhelming. On a soul level, he’s waiting for that chance. He won’t reply right away but it’s going to be good for me in the long run.

Now, I did get that prompting about that birthday message from Spirit a few days or maybe even a week before. I had maintained silence all this time, giving him space, and I think the last message he got from me was almost two years ago, but that was long-winded and loaded.

She confirmed that, unlike JK’s gloom and doom prophecy, M and I were going to come together in this lifetime and incarnation. He’s not doing well right now. He’s not in his power emotionally because his wounding is still affecting him.

He’s still making a choice about his marriage. He’s not happy about where he is in life. He’s holding back from me because of the sadness that happened between us and he carries a lot of guilt and shame. He would like to reach out to me in some respects and that he thinks about me a lot in the physical sense. (meaning his 3D body is thinking of me, not in 5D). He thinks that I’m better off than him financially (not true – he’s just assuming this because I come from a political family and his culture says that those who come from political families also have wealth). So he thinks’ he’s not worthy of me and that I’m kind of out of his league.

He thinks about contacting me as well but thinks I’m out of reach (probably because of my last email which sounded like a definitive goodbye). So it’s best to send that birthday message.

He’s still in ego and sees things one-dimensionally. He still needs to make that decision to leave his karmic, but he’s moving on in the near future and leaving her.

She reiterated that he thinks a lot of me and that if he could turn back the clock 20 years, he would not have married B at all. Still, he’s keeping his feelings for me very close and locked up a bit.

Being my TF, he’s got a purpose beyond our physical reunion so I shouldn’t worry too much about the whys, wherefores, and when. They’re going to resolve themselves as soon as I resolve my inner conflict. He will come back to me.

And then she reminded me again to go ahead and send that birthday message.

And I did.

Of course, I didn’t get a response (wasn’t expecting any). And then, the Universe presented me with a whole host of other fires I had to put out (helpers tendering their resignation), but after the reading I felt Power returning to me. And Clarity. I’m still shying away from public readings, but I think I shall put out something soon.

As for JK, from the time I got that reading until quite recently, I was having second thoughts on whether or not I should send her feedback regarding the reading. She has a massive presence on FB, charges $300-$400 per reading, and seems to know what she’s talking about, “seems” being the operative word. But while I was just thinking about how odd it was that she would miss the mark by a mile when it came to my reading, it dawned on me that in her bio, prior to her awakening sometime in 2008, she had been a librarian for decades. Her awakening was prompted by her being fired from her job, for reasons beyond her control. They were downsizing, I think. And she lists this as the event that jarred her out of her sleep.

Now, there’s nothing wrong with librarians. They’re usually very affable and pleasant. One fact is indisputable though — well, not one fact, several which I shall mention — 1) they have a lot of time on their hands; 2) they are surrounded by books, all of which they have access to; and 3) the more you read, the better you write because you imbibe the material, the tone, the information being put out there by other authors. In other words, since there is nothing short of truly original in this day and age, almost all written work is derived from something else.

Hence, the loquaciousness. Hence, the verbosity. Hence, the prolific writing. And, most often, she churns out fiction. That’s very dangerous.

What I sensed in the reading (which Illumined Souls confirmed) was that she was getting impression but did not know whether they belonged to the past or the future. For those she couldn’t tap into, she would just spew fiction. So best to leave that all behind and charge it to experience.

Strange dream after watching (and not finishing) Castaway. Working on something for the office and so I just picked a movie to play in the background but not really watch.

Well, the entire thing reminded me of my Twin Flame journey. And the tears kept coming, my chest was hurting, and I didn’t get to sleep until it was about 6am. And I was wondering if, like in the movie, I should just let him go, or like in Hancock, another movie, I should just try to be happy here with someone else.

When I did get to sleep, I had this strange dream. I dreamt that I was in the US at my relatives’ house there. For some reason, D (my TF’s eldest son) and his fiancee were there also. I wasn’t minding him at first because I didn’t really know him, but later on, he approached me to give “respect”. He told me that that’s why they were there, but that he actually lived around 3 hours out. It was something like he was the “advanced party” of his dad.

And he was much smaller than I imagined him to be. A little smaller than me, even. I do know that he’s tall, like his father, but in my dream, he was small.

Next scene was that we were on a double date. That’s the weird part. He sort of set me up with his friend and even though I was “attached”, it was a different feeling trying to be nice and pleasant to someone new.

No more details of the date, but it seemed we went back to the house afterward and there was a presentation. And D was being accommodating, pretty much like my cousin when he was here, and he danced with us except he was wearing this striped red and white (big 4 inch stripes, mind you!) sleeveless 20s style bathing suit. Hahaha! Now, I don’t know where that came from. LOL.

I just finished a wonderful session with Angel Linamarie. I got in touch with her because of a dream I had the other night. I’m not sure if jotted it down in this blog or what, but it was about me in a marketplace and then being approached by this huge Great Dane (bigger than the normal Great Dane) and this other dog. They were not aggressive but the big dog wanted to hump me and I escaped into this house nearby which turned out to be the bigger dog’s house. Met its owner who said I shouldn’t fear the dog, but I still tried to escape and when other people came in and the dog was distracted, I was able to get out of the house.

I thought it was pretty innocuous (the dream), but apparently, I was right to ask for guidance regarding it because it was heavy stuff that had to do with stuff I still needed to clear. Linamarie even asked that it be towards the end of the session that we deal with the dream since it brought on heavy stuff and we were to tackle the twin flame stuff first.

In my session, we were joined by AA Michael and AA Metatron. Let me jot this down in no particular order just so that I remember.

I should share my TF story about me and M to others more because it facilitates clearing

M’s Higher Self joined us. M said that there is not a day goes by that he doesn’t think of me; that he loves me very much (at one point he was giving me kissy faces). Linamarie thought he was so cute.

He said that 99% we will be together in this lifetime.

M said that he is doing everything he can right now to clear his ancestral lineage, as I am doing, so that he we can get back together again. L said that there’s around 30% more to clear. I said that the 70% took about a decade to clear and was just wondering what the 30% would translate like in time. She said that the guides don’t work with time because they have no concept of time, but that since I’ve been doing so well, things will happen rapidly. I mean, once the 30% has been accomplish, things will rush in fast. It will create an energetic avalanche for the both of us to come together. AA Metatron was saying that it’s just this 30% that needs to be done and taking it step by step. We’re in the home stretch.

Part of what I’m getting when I feel that “I don’t want to do this anymore; I want to give up” it’s part of the next step of surrendering, also part of the process. It’s feels like letting go, but it’s really a letting go of control of how it’s going to happen. Like fake labor pains that help us get ready when we’re really giving birth already.

She also said that, before, time was very loose, and that we had a lot of leeway to exercise free will, but this is a time in our planet where things are speeding up because we have missions to do so that 30% will be faster than the 30% that I had to deal with before. There’s not much time left that’s why M and I are needed to do our missions and bring the light energy to the world. The guides said I should try my best to be patient because they’re doing their part in the back end to get everything into play.

They’re also saying that they have this magical surprise for me so I just have to show up.

M picked a very difficult ancestral line to heal and so have I.

My ancestors were also present and they said that a lot of them incarnated to help clear the lineage but they couldn’t do it. So they sent me to do it and here I am, doing what they thought was impossible. They are very proud of me and will help me.

L said that it was very difficult to do — at which point I cried, because, yes, it’s been very difficult. We took a moment to hold space for the sacred tears.

I need to ask assistance or help from others in the things I have to do.

M and I are old Twin Flames. We’ve already incarnated together before and we’ve gotten together against all odds, so this isn’t new to us and we will do it again. The other TFs that we are currently helping right now are babies compared to us.

M remembers me a lot because he’s getting signs. He usually gets signs from nature, with how the wind blows, a bird, etc.

M said to hold on and that I shouldn’t lose faith; he is coming back. He is doing everything he can to get back to me. He’s come up with challenges and it is affecting him physically.

I asked if we would see each other in person this year, and M said that there is a large possibility that we would, the chances are very good. I told L that I wasn’t getting in touch with him anymore, and she said that the guides (AA Metatron) was working hard to set up our reunion. We might even meet randomly (bleh, I want to be prepared, what if I look like crap when I come across him?). But there’s something magical in store for us regarding our connection, so there’s a good chance of that random bumping into each other. However, they’re still cautioning because there’s still work to be done. It’s time to come into my power as a lightworker in my mission and that’s really needed right now.

When I was asking about time, I told L that M’s old already, and M said he thinks he’s young at which point I rolled my eyes and told her that yes, he’s confident, he even said that he could live past a hundred years for us to be together. Rolled my eyes again on that one.

M also said that he liked the idea of asking his Higher Self to snuggle whenever I wake up and to talk to each other before I go to bed. Why am I not surprised? The guy is infinitely more mushy than I am.

When asked about my job and my mission, the message was to hang on, hold on because AA Metatron is preparing a situation for me wherein I will be able to use my lightwork in my real work. I am still needed in my real work job. There’s some job that they are preparing for me where I’m going to take what I’m learning in my job now and my spiritual work and they will line up together. When that happens that whatever they have prepared for me will kick in already, it will be magical.

Everything is happening in the exact way it’s supposed to happen, and she said that she doesn’t always say this, but in this case, it seems almost impossible for us not to be together because our souls want it so badly and with the experiences we’ve had before – this is not our first lifetime together – in line with the intuition that I’m already getting.

My dream (the dog dream) is about clearing that dominant, aggressive masculine energy. Even if I’ve cut the karmic cords with my dad and my brother, I should up it a level. So my next mission order is to EMBODY COMPASSION. I’m already doing it in a lot of ways, but this is kind of a push to take it further. Because when I’m already in that embodied compassionate place, I’m no longer saying — there’s no right or wrong anymore. It’s just two souls that came into this lifetime to learn lessons; and be grateful that they were teachers in this life and you release your soul from that soul contract with them. And I do that by having great compassion and empathy for them.

She then told me about the Buddhist practice of Tonglen. Where I take in the suffering of others and transmute that into compassion. Take no more than 7 breaths because it is very powerful. During the in-take breath, connect with the person, imagine the breath you are breathing in is red, warm, hot, take it to your heart center, swirl it around until it becomes a cool blue, then breathe it out. This changes the energy, the dynamic, the situation.

Throughout the session, the connection would fluctuate and there were times when I couldn’t hear her or see her. She said that this sometimes happened when there were intense high vibrations between her and the twin she was helping out. I immediately took hold of my Shungite crystals to filter out and lower the vibrations a bit, and the connection stabilized.

So that’s it! I had other questions, but my time was up, and I didn’t feel any urgency in asking them. I still have to work on the 30% in the meantime.

I love M. And he loves me too. Even if she didn’t mention it, I knew that already. But, as always, it was nice to hear.

When I was looking for more insight on my Black Unicorn vision, I came across Bemay Le. She is the Keeper of the Great Crystal, High Priestess of Atlantis, Cleopatra of Ancient Egypt, an Ascension Master of Rainbow Energy, The Legion of Black Dragons and Unicorns & the Sacred Arts of the Divine Feminine. So I messaged her the other day.

Today, she responded, thus:

BL:Black Unicorns are very sacred animals and work with the ancient divine feminine goddesses. The black ones only appear to those with the purest of hearts. I believe the blue horned ones are imbued and blessed with the blue ray starseed energies of protection, power and purity of Archangel Michael and Archaia Faith. I believe this blue horned black unicorn gave you a very magical and powerful blessing to open up your blue ray starseed third eye.

I then told her that I knew I was a Starseed and a Blue/Golden Ray Twin Flame. I also told her that as part of enhancing my abilities, I used the Divine Codes to help further open up my Third Eye the day after New Year. While I am mainly claircognizant, I do get visions from time to time, but I would like them to be clearer.

BL: Wonderful! I think your answers to your hopes of “seeing” came in the form of this blue horned black unicorn. You must have a very divine sacred connection to the black ones. I love them personally.

Your blue ray third eye will be activated immediately which means you can see very clearly indeed. I received both of mine (the eye of Horus and eye of Ra) from AA Michael when I was initiated as a blue ray protector for Gaia. Try it out.

Oh, it just occurred to me that I forgot to tell her about the Unicorn Energy that came upon me during the 11/11 Portal. What I did remember to tell her was that in my meditation this morning, I found it strange that a single teardrop wept from my left eye. I found this seriously weird because I know when I am overcome with emotions and weep, and believe me, that’s not just one teardrop. And when I Googled the Eye of Horus/Ra, there was the single teardrop. And now, she was telling me about it. Which makes me really think that there are no coincidences in this world.

BL: Sounds like your teardrop is confirmation of your blue ray eyes working! Love sacred water as it the representation of the divine mother and sacred feminine energies we hold within!

Most people think that the third eye is just one eye but it’s not. When you have both blue ray eyes open, it’s very very powerful and you will know deeply that it is two eyes you are seeing from, not one third eye. I haven’t bothered mentioning this but I will do a post on it when I have more time to settle back from my holidays.

I seriously think that if I stop whirling around checking off things on my to-do list, that I could reap major benefit from my 5D life — or at least major understanding.

But that’s another thing, too. Remember my botched Akashic Record Reading yesterday? I did check out AA Uriel and here’s what I got on him:

Uriel’s name means “God is light,” “God’s light,” or “fire of God,” because he illuminates situations and gives prophetic information and warnings. For example, Uriel warned Noah of the impending flood, helped the prophet Ezra to interpret mystical predictions about the forthcoming Messiah, and delivered the Cabala to humankind. Uriel has also been credited with bringing the knowledge and practice of alchemy-the ability to turn base metal into precious metal, as well as the ability to manifest from thin air-to humankind.

And this, too:

In many senses Archangel Uriel is the Archangel of illumination and is humanity’s link to the spiritual realms and Uriel can show you how to find your inner power, raise your vibration and accelerate your shift and into the higher realms of consciousness.

Archangel Uriel can also help you to learn to listen to your body’s inner wisdom, along with opening your channels to directly receive divine guidance.

Additionally things like the realm of ideas, creativity, insights, judgment, magic, alchemy, astrology, universal consciousness, divine order, the distribution of power, the cosmic universal flow and the Earth’s environment are all within Uriel’s rule.

Divine Alchemy, Manifestation, Prophecy and Second Sight — these were the things that I wanted to work on in the coming year and it looks as AA Uriel will be the perfect guide in this part of my journey. Her, and the Unicorns.

And here’s something else. Remember the Citrine Rock I purchased yesterday? I got it not knowing anything about AA Uriel and only finding out today that Citrine is one of AA Uriel’s crystals. Now, I don’t think that’s a coincidence. Do you?

In the sport of Badminton, whenever there is a tournament, there is a “levelling” session first where participants get matched with other participants with the same skill set. This is so the game becomes even, and all participants get the most out of the game. The same principle applies whenever you’re just playing. In order to “level-up”, you have to play with players who are ranked on a higher level than you in order to learn from them.

Why on earth am I talking about badminton? Well, today, I got an “Akashic Record Reading”. Yes, in quotes. One of my subscribers messaged me on my FB business page because she wanted to get in touch with another Twin from the same country. We chatted. She seemed okay, and then she raved about this woman who gave Akashic Record readings who identified her as a twin and whatnot. I got excited and asked for leads to get in touch with this reader and, subsequently, made an appointed — which was today.

Prior to the reading, I was nervous. So I got my Lemurian Seed Crystal and my Divine Crystal Grid Crystal out of my pouch and activated them while in the waiting room. I even called in my guides to keep me company — and it was my guide from Lyra — I call her Fleur — who came in. She helped keep my nervousness at bay with her lighthearted energy.

Come to think of it, I should have been tipped off by the energy of the person who came out of the room before it was my turn. The best I would describe it — all in retrospect, of course (which I am now kicking myself in the behind for) — was exasperation. It wasn’t elation or the kind of energy that you’d get after a good healing session. It was more of an “Hmp” instead of an “Oooohhhh”.

Anyway, my turn came promptly at 2pm. It was supposed to be a one hour session, but a we only got to 45 mins. And I know because I timed it. Of those 45 mins., a good chunk of it was an interview. I didn’t really see the purpose of it. It’s like I was the one giving her information instead of her giving me some. Then she said that my energy was blocked in the stomach area by dark energies which were preventing my light from shining through. Seriously, I didn’t know where she was getting what she was saying since I knew/know that I’m a clear channel now. Especially since I just had a clearing with MK prior to the new year and I had a Reiju Reiki reattunement at the first hour of the new year.

She tells me that some guides of mine have to retire because they’ve been there since I was seven. So we did an invocation and clearing so that only the guides of love and light would remain. Sounds innocuous and good, right? The thing is, after the session, I didn’t feel right. I didn’t even sense any energy transfer from her. I mean, heck, the crystals I handled gave off more energy than she did. Plus, it left me with a gargantuan headache near the back of my head and this wasn’t the feeling after being energetically cleared. Far from it.

Anyway, this was the information that I got from her (all after a million leading questions):

AA Uriel wants to work with me — (will have to check that out)

I have from a clan of witches (mother side) who weren’t really good because they were corrupted (bribes) and used their power for the dark side — this, after I told her I have never resonated with Wicca and/or Witchcraft even though I tried it. I’ve always resonated with High Magick.

She kept asking about my grandfather, saying that he has some sort of power but didn’t tell me what

When I asked her if I should continue my mission, she said that I should stop it all together and concentrate on my career because it was through my career that I’d get what I wanted out of life. Now, this is as off as off can be. In my reading with Starsoul Tarot, the message was to continue my mission while waiting for my twin. Even in my session with MK, when we called in my guide from the 22nd Dimension. my guide and HIS guides were telling me to continue my mission. In fact, the answer was YES, YES, YES. Emphatic.

NOTE: It actually wasn’t responsive to my question because my question was how as I to balance mission and career. Bleh.

I asked if I would come into union with my twin in 3D and she said, “It’s possible, but you still haven’t merged energies yet.” What? I don’t know what she’s talking about because we’ve merged in 5D already and can talk telepathically.

Three hours later, my headache hadn’t dissipated. I already tried shopping, eating, etc. — and ended up buying Past Life Oracle cards to see if I could get a more accurate read on it — but nothing worked. It wasn’t like a migraine either because I’m familiar with how that feels.

It was also the birthday of Jeeves so I stopped at a restaurant to buy food to celebrate it. While waiting for my order, I did a 911 text to MK searching for answers and confirmation to the “blocked energy in the stomach area” diagnosis. It was 3:00 in the morning, thereabouts, when I messaged him so I wasn’t expecting an immediate reply, but it came. He wanted to clear my energy STAT because it was blocking me.

He said that she was working on fear-based energies that’s why I didn’t resonate with it and, hence, the headache. Now, I didn’t expect to do the clearing then and there — I was just getting ready to drive off going home, but that’s what happened.

He told me to lie down as he cleared me. I told him that I was in the driver’s seat in my car and all I could do was lean back. Then he started washing away her energy to get my energy and kundalini flowing. And, as with our very first session, the results were immediate and kundalini-blowing, lol. I came over and over and since I was parked facing a restaurant, a security guard came to inspect. I tried to be as still as possible and pretend I was talking/texting to someone on my phone which is why I was idling, but that seemed like an episode for Hold the Moan on Reddit.

I was very circumspect with MK, trying to describe what was happening clinically without getting into “foreplay/tease” mode. But the guy could feel my energy and could tell when my hips were still vibrating even if I had stopped describing what was happening on my end already.

I know it sounds like an erotic short story — but my slickness seeped through my panties, past my dress and into the car seat. Six hours have passed but I still keep cumming in waves as soon as my mind goes idle and i’m not busy doing a task. I know that sounds weird, but I figured, if my mind is active, I can block it but once it relaxes, I’m in receiving mode, the inverted triangle, legs wide open, ready to receive. This part, I don’t think I will tell him about. But my headache is gone and I feel light, like I’m glowing from the inside — and no, this isn’t post-orgasmic glow. I can feel the energy circulating through me again.

Even MK acknowledged that we had awesome sexual energy together and that it was good that we lived far apart — continents away, in fact. And this reminds me of my former spiritual teacher (who betrayed me because he ended up wanting to possess me) — who was doing all sorts of magic on me because he wanted to teach me the ways of tantra with him as the recipient. And I get it, since I’m mostly made up of Fire.

So, I guess, the question is, if I get energy healing sessions where the unintended consequence of it is raising my kundalini which manifests in multiple orgasms, am I cheating on my Twin? I can feel energy. This is how I dodge unwanted attention from men. I’m one step ahead. My weak spot though is being touched. Once there is physical contact, I unravel. Anything before that, it’s a cool discipline in being detached.

I can ask my twin telepathically but I’m afraid to do that because even now, I can feel him energetically sulking. Kind of like, he knows I needed the clearing but he didn’t like the part that some other man’s energy was mingling with mine. So on that score, I’m just going to stay quiet until he stops muttering under his breath.

The only good thing from that botched Akashic Record encounter was that I was able to purchase a big citrine rock on an orgone generator base — which I was really looking for. They were selling various crystals in that place and this one was the one within my budget that had the most energy coming out from it.

Of course, that, and the kundalini rising from the clearing afterwards. It isn’t over yet. Waves, I tell you.

It’s 4am and I just finished the live 12-strand DNA Activation event with Jen Mccarty. Very powerful stuff and I just loved the visualization that came along with it. Everything was clear in my head.

For posterity, this is what the event was all about:

“The next webinar transmission will be taking place on the 12th december 2016 at 6 pm uk time, in this transmission we will be masterfully activating the 12 strand DNA helix in the personal energy fields of all the participants and of course in their divine twin flames, and we will be activating the 12 strand DNA helix in the 3rd dimensional consciousness as a whole, spirit has called this master circle to gather on this highlighted gateway date to act as the conduits for this potent light dispensation and alignment.

For those of you who come forward to take part in 12:12 activation transmission to activate the 12 strand DNA helix please know you will be energizing and stimulating your pineal gland to release its highest multidimensional codes,and you will aligning with your full clairsentient gifts in a powerful and lasting way. you will be stimulating and nourishing the memory codes of eternal youth that are stored in your pituitary gland and you will vibrationally be aligning with the aspect of your consciousness that resides in the realm of miracle activator. You will be standing as the forerunner for this templatewhich is awaiting all of humanity to align with, supporting and enabling you to fully break free of the limitations imposed upon you by the 3D realm, and move freely as a liberated being, unbound by the false programs that dominate the 3D consciousness.

On this powerful day we have also been guided to assist the masculine polarity counterparts to finally come into full and unequivocal recognition of the identity of their bonafide twin flame. Please know there has been a call sent out from the masculine counterparts that they require deep assistance to attune to the truth that exists beyond the veil of samsara/illusion/the 3rd dimension as the illusion has been far more convincing than originally intended……”

as ever gathering in an enlightened group setting to activate these remembrances is extremely potent, and working with these specific activation dates also exponentially increases the efficiency of these intentions.

We are also being called to use this powerful time together to further assist our brothers and sisters who are on the front line at standing rock, we will be bringing through an extremely important prayer and meditation specifically calling in the higher selves of the police, and enforcement officers who are working and indeed many could argue selling their souls to the corrupt corporations… Your presence is deeply required to be on this call, This is a huge soul offering that we are initiating and the more high vibrational lightworkers that gather on this important date the more swift and proficient the changes will be.”

I don’t know how to describe how I felt afterward. On the Twin Flame level, there was intertwinement of the highest degree, the kind that has no words but just IS. I know that doesn’t seem to make sense, but at this level, there are no more questions. Everything has been answered.

On the planetary level, after we had anchored the 24-strand DNA into the planet and released the dormant codes laying in the caverns tucked away at our own grid point (and there are many in my country), Gaia started to feel like Lyra. That is the best way for me to describe it. Where everyone is ONE with everything else — the trees, the waterfalls, the sky, the air.

Anyway, I wasn’t able to get weekly readings out or even a reading on the 12:12 portal because I had my interview with the Embassy for my visa. That was a huge step for me, even applying for it, because it brought up all those nasty wounds that I decided to ignore, wounds that I had received when I went through my “Series of Unfortunate Events” that ultimately resulted in trauma and spiritual awakening. The kind where you have nowhere to turn to but God because he’s the only one who can help.

It was difficult preparing for it because I thought that since I had “overstayed” the last time, that would put me out of the running. And when the question was asked of me, “How long did you stay during your last trip?” and I answered, “So and so years”. Needless to say, my interviewer’s ears perked up. I said, “I was a victim of crime.” And out the story stumbled. She said she was sorry it happened to me. I told her that the right side of my face was still numb up to now and that I left as soon as my appeal was denied. Then she asked for documentation of the crime, and I’m glad that I still kept one copy of my entire petition and didn’t burn it for want of forgetting.

The four people in line before me were all denied. The girl wanting to visit her boyfriend got denied, too. Families had it easier, probably because it would be hard to tuck all of them away into illegal immigrant status.

I was nervous, but the entire time I was in line, I was clutching my shungite and invoking the Violet Flame to help transmute my nervous energy into calmness. Then, the verdict came in: Your visa is approved.

I thanked her and shuffled to get my things in order, still in shock. I even asked her where my passport was and she said it was already with her. I think I am still in shock now.

My twin was with me the entire time. He was so gentle and supportive and loving that I could not ask more of him , energetically speaking. I felt him giving me a warm embrace before I went into the embassy and could sense him smiling when I got approved.

I am truly, truly grateful for EVERYTHING.

When my appeal was denied, I hit rock bottom. It was an all or nothing venture for me when I headed out there. It depleted me on all levels and I wanted to kill myself. I was actually about to do it when an angel in the guise of a friend, called me out of the blue and snapped me out of my stupor. Then I prayed and prayed some more. And I made a promise to God that I would live.

I came home and was still faced with a myriad of challenges after that, but now, I feel as though I’m looking at everything that’s happened from the other side. It’s like taking a rough slide to home base and someone shouting in my ear, “You’re safe!”

And I know I am. For that, I am truly, truly grateful to God, to my Higher Self and Spiritual Team, to my angels without whom I could never navigate my days successfully, to the Archangels, especially AAs Michael & Raphael and their Archeas Faith and Portia, to the Unicorns and the other ascended beings, to my Galactic Ancestors — the Lyrans, the Arcturians, and to the Ascended Masters who have guided me and held my hand along this journey. And to my Beloved Counterpart, my Other Half who fills the true essence of my expanded Heart. I love all of you. And I am truly, truly grateful.