A bit geeky and a bit glamorous

Ok, so we have all seen those people at the mall before it opens. The people walking around the inside of the mall like they are walking the most exuberant exercise ever. And yet here I was doing the same thing.

I was already at the mall to retun something to H&M. Pants that I ordered that were the “same” size as the ones at Target that fit only to find out the were in fact 3 to 4 sizes too small at H&M. Which makes someone really get depressed. I was almost in tears and then when trying pants on it was the same thing. Almost in tears and wanting to just curl up in a sweatpant wearing ball and just exist. On the way home from this debacle I wanted to just get rid of my blog and social media and climb under a rock. Because what was the point of it all? And my mind was like OK, no one read my blog any way and no one engages on my insta either. I see people with similar amount of followers getting hundreds of likes and I get 20. Yikes. I guess I am not that interesting.

Shit.

This post was not meant to go there but it did rather quickly, but this is how things got to me being a “mall walker”

And the depression is something I struggle with.

So all of that was after I had just walked the mall for an hour. I had my baby in the dual baby trend stroller, and moms, that thing is a life saver for a mom with a child on the spectrum!

I loaded it up with heavy stuff and walked. Of course I downloaded my old Pokemongo app and started to play again. Hence the hilarious picture on my instagram.which you really should follow me! Pleaaaaaasssseee 😭

I walked and walked with my little around the lower level of the mall. It was fine no one was there and we were nice and cool. I normally would walk my neighborhood for a walk with the littles but it is way to hot. And my littlest has health problems. Last thing I want to do is make it worse.

Before I knew it my legs were getting a bit sore and I was happy,at that moment. The thing is I never have time for me anymore. Never. I dont get to just pick up and go to the gym, yes they have baby centers but i have a child with autism who likes to run off. I have a baby with health problems, so that isnt in the cards for me. And no i have no family to watch them. And my husband wants to go with me so i can not go alone so he can watch the kids.

So right now my.life is not my own. At all. My blog has become hard to keep up with because of my family needs. I will have to write a whole other blog post about that later.

But, I am going to walk the mall. After I drop the husband off at work, I will get my flabby mom bod over to the mall and walk. Because I need that, when i try to do yoga at home i am constantly interrupted. What is the point? So i became a mall walker.

Yikes.

Make fun of me if you want. But, I am getting some exercise and pokemon.

6 Comments

MollyOctober 13, 2018 at 7:27 PM

I don’t see what anyone can make fun of you about. You do a great job with your blog. I know that I look forward to your updates on an almost daily basis. I apologize for not commenting and liking your posts as much as I should.

I have seen a lot of mall walkers. It’s great exercise and no weather issues to contend with. Great idea for you and anyone else who wants to exercise and needs a controlled environment. Keep up the good work. I know you don’t want to hear this but one day you will look back smile and sigh. Then you will say oh how I miss those days when my boys were little. These times will become some of your most cherished memories. You’ve got this. Proud of you.