08/26/2013

Re-evaluation

When things aren't going horrible, but they're not going the way you want them to?

That's where I am right now. I just feel like things need to be re-evaluated. Re-designed. Re-done. Things with work. With my routine. With my daily choices. With my life.

And I'm pretty sure most people feel this the morning of January 1st but for some reason, I'm feeling it here in late August. I'm feeling the need to take more ownership and be more authentic. Which is something I've been feeling for a while but the need to do an overhaul has been creeping up behind that feeling.

I feel like I should be doing something like Yoga. And getting in touch with my inner-self. And stop caring so much about what other people think of me. Mostly because in our world of online-ness and keeping-up-with-the-internet-Joneses (or real-life-Jonses) it's really hard not to care. But I'm tired of caring about things that don't matter. I'm tired of not caring for me enough. And caring for people and myself in a superficial way. I want to care with my whole being.

If any of that makes sense.

Because I have so much good in my life and I want to be able to truly enjoy it. And enjoy people. And enjoy what I do. With authenticity.

Eternally going through that right now. I just turned 31 and it was harder than I thought. I've been re-evaluating so many things, from the stuff I consider important to friends and family, to what I want to do with my life.

Oh my gosh. It's so not just you. I've been feeling this way for the past couple of years. I'm tired of always being the "yes" girl. And then ending up e.x.h.a.u.s.t.e.d.
(Just typing that made me tired.)
I want to focus my energy on the people and things who deserve it. Ya feel?