Thursday, July 19, 2007

a cry of truth

if i live i cry, but if i die i will losecrying, lose, it all the samelost and confused about fateobstacles fill my wayfor every brick wall i brakeanother one is not to far awayno rest in this placeall i want is a brakecrave for happiness that is so far awaydays come and nights goand the pain does not fadea sound that's in the airis a song of happinessthat tells a story which i hatean angel here but is so far awayand my soul is emptyand my heart still betsand does not stop at this timeno matter how i trymy mind does not stop and sleepand sleep lost its worthdays so long and night longerwith only day dreams of lost hopeand my blood is red and filled with hateand spill it shall flow all awayuntil there's nothing leftand i become an empty shellat the shore of the ocean of pain

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

count down

hands shaking, heave breathing, nicotine cravingnerves sending singles to my mind making it work over timedoubt and worry of whats unknownno concentration at all no piece of thoughtvary time consuming, no way of runningenergy depletion, sitting thinking alonesleep deprived from non-stop thinkingcoffee the only thing that keeping me alivecan't eat and feeling like i can't breathgiving up the fight the unrested mindgiving into this place of my mindfeeling bad but not depressed just unrestall the different kinds of questions at thing timepredicting a future, preparing my self at this timehopeful for peace within my mind

Friday, July 13, 2007

dreamless

a man can only dream of what he does not have and desiresand only when he feels it close and with in his grasp he will stopand i have had dreams for a thousand and one nightsthe same thing the same way as in real life, not changein thousand dreams at night where i felt so great and i sleptso perfect, so sweet, an angel from heaven for man to wish forbut i dream no more for love for you're in sighti seek no more i now its righti want no more just you at my sideone world, one place, one truth, and there is only one youso rare and nothing shines so brighti only hope you can accept me for what i ambut dreams come true and you are Profsorry for what i do but is not right butjust looking at you makes me feel like becoming a better personbecause you are so perfect and i am but just a human

Thursday, May 31, 2007

the first angel's walk of the clouds

an empty place no one around not even a soundwalking alone praying to god for a chanceand my angel appears in front of memy nerves are shocked and i can barely standi open my mouth and say what i cana moment feels like my life time that pass byand an angel looks into my eyesand the smallest word comes out that bundles my mindnerves high but calm and time goes by and i feel like if I'm flyingevery word rings in my mind every movement makes me thinkthe angel hides the truth and her feelingsshe knows why and i feel that she likes the ideathe angel is shocked as much as imy angel unable to continue and the guardian that by her sidethe gardian say what my angel can not saybecauseits not what she believes and she feels a different wayshe looks at me and can't speak and looks away andsays what she says and i look and i look and i cant believethat i am finally here i broke the silenceand my curse of sleepless nights and hopefor forsaken dreams to fade away a trueflower of the desert that i have gained the smallof achievement and i am finally so happyand i thank my lord and kneel to him forhelping me reach, and becoming a knight and meeting my queen