I’m only like 9 days late!!! but yes Happy New Year!!! Made it through the first week of the year, couple of crazy days but made it none the less. Don’t worry I wont post a full blog about New year new me bull crap because I’m a big believer that you don’t need a new year to make better choices, try new things, leave old habits behind or tweak yourself a bit, I believe this is a year round thing. I’m constantly looking for way to become a better me.

I was off for two weeks with my girls and Monday was my first day back at work. As we had our daily huddle and catching up he showed us this song, the song itself is a bit stupid but the message is where it’s at. He says they played it when he graduated in 99 (I was 13), people past their mid twenties understand that but a younger person wont, and I know because I showed it to my 13-year-old daughter and she was like this song is stupid and listen but didn’t really pay attention. So maybe it will help you now or prepare you for the future or simply say should have.

Sometimes when it rains it pours but its important to know that there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel. So like I wrote previously my mother got injured, I took her to the E.R twice between Sunday and Wednesday and to her specialist yesterday, I drove a total of 5 hours yesterday back and forth from my job to her house to the doctor and back home. Now I don’t mind helping her out because she’s my mom. I am not complaining but all this going on at once has made me tried not to mention I’m anemic so I get tired easily. So when i got home yesterday as I was settling down I felt my belly button start to hurt with every movement. I decided to shower and relax, its only been 4 1/2 weeks since my surgery. After my shower I went to lay down and noticed my belly button was red and hot to the touch. I immediately called my doctor and she called in an RX for some medication, she explained it could be a simple bruise or something major but I would have to take the medication before she could see me to let the swelling go down. I came to work like this because I can’t miss work when at approximately 9 am my eldest called to pick her up because she felt like she couldn’t breathe. She had been complaining of a cough but couldn’t get an appointment to her pediatrician until Saturday so I bought medication to suppress her cough, well it didn’t work and I’m heading to the E.R right after work. Pray for us so that we could all get better!

So a few posts back I wrote about my eldest liking a boy. While on my writing break the little douche bag asked her out and without my permission starting “dating”. I found out about 3 days later. I got really mad and explained how disappointed I was in her. We had agreed that she wouldn’t have a boyfriend till she was 15. I know all teenagers are rebellious, I know because I was and it ended in me getting knocked up at 14. So even without my permission she continued to date him. During this whole time she would tell me things about him and I would explain and give her reasons why he was just not good for her. I know as a teen it must have seen like I was just trying to have them break up but this kid is no good at all. This went on for about 3 weeks then the little douche bag broke up with her through Instagram direct. he couldn’t even tell her in person. I felt like doing my I told you so dance because I was right but she was heart-broken. I thought of 48435 ways to kill this kid with my bare hand but I don’t look good in orange so I had to restrain myself. I let her be and gave her time to heal. We had long talks about boy and my person experiences but not till that moment did I realized that my mother always knew best, if I would have listened to some of her advice some things in my life would have turn out better than they did. Sometimes you just have to let your kid stumble and fall before they learn.

Today as I was driving to work the topic on the radio was “who were you in your past life”. Now a lot of people do not believe in reincarnation but I’m very open to thing and I for one do believe in that.The host brought this up because he says that he met a girl and there was just this special connection he couldn’t quite explain, nothing sexual just a plain connection, like she was a friend for many many years. His only explanation was that they might somehow be connected in his past life. One of the girls says she had a reading a few years ago and she was told that she was a servant that had a daughter and her daughter then is now her sister. Creepy!!!

So it brought up the question; who was I in my past life? I need a past life reading ASAP because now I want to know. But here’s what I’ve come up with so far.I think I might have been a man!! A leader of some sort, maybe a king or a commander of an army. I’m very strategic you know. Why a man you must ask, well it’s because I don’t really like girly things like fashion shows and shopping, I like sports particularly barbaric ones like MMA. I love war movies and really like guns. I like to cuddle but not as much as most girls. I’m not your common girl.

I went on a site that gives you a short one but you must pay to get the full reading, which is something I’m not doing.

You were a male in your last earthly incarnation.

You were born somewhere in the territory of modern France around the year 1800.Your profession was that of a seaman, dealer, businessman or broker.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life: Bohemian personality, mysterious, highly gifted, capable to understand ancient books. With a magician’s abilities, you could have been a servant of dark forces.

The lesson that your past life brought to your present incarnation: Your task is to learn, to love and to trust the universe. You are bound to think, study, reflect, and to develop inner wisdom.

My teen daughter has this little crush on a boy and he has a crush on her too, they were friends and decided to finally tell each other that they like one another, she isn’t allowed to date yet but she’s allowed to like a boy and talk to him. I have eyes and ears at the school so I’ll find out if she starts to “date” anyone (I know that sounds a little stoker mom but it is what it is) They have been texting each other non stop. Nothing out of this world, just little kid stuff. Well last night it went up a notch, she told me that he texted her that he loved her. I almost had a heart attack, I turned to her and said, “what the hell do you guys know about love?” At that very moment I felt like I had gone back in time. I remember telling my mom about the father of my kids about how I loved him and he loved me, I remembered my mother standing the same exact way and spitting out the same exact words. I knew I loved him but now that I’m older I grown to know that Ive loved the same person in many different ways and for many different reasons all which have changed over time. Its a constant love but a changing one. I felt bad about saying what I said and this being the first boy that she likes and he likes her back of course it will feel like love. She tell me how she has butterflies, and thinks about him often, she even told me she feels like she’s floating. I remember having all those emotions and I didn’t know what other explanation to give than I was in love but little did I know it was puppy love. That the reason why I thought I loved that person would soon change. I’m planning to talk to her tonight and explain to her a few things about love but I don’t want to ruin the feeling because its part of being a girl of growing up.

I get so cold in the morning that most of the time I just crack my window a tad bit just to let some air in. Yesterday morning I was in such a hurry, I woke up a bit late and then took forever to get ready. I also needed to put gas before jumping on the freeway. I was doomed to be extra late to work. As I’m turning into the gas station I suddenly smell shit. Yes shit, I asked my eldest if she had farted because it smelled weird. She immediately got upset because I would ask such a thing. When I got to the gas station I turned off the ignition but the smell was still there., I ran into the gas station to pay for my gas. When I get back to the car I find the reason for the foul smell.

Yes bird CRAP!!!! ahh it was like a bird had major diarrhea and decided to bless me so early in the morning, perfect aiming too because my window was not opened all the way.I cleaned it off with a wet paper towel but gagged so much, I thought I would actually throw up. So how was your morning?? LOL

Yesterday i got home and seasoned my turkey!! Yayyyyy!!! This is my third year hosting Thanksgiving at my house. I have to confess, the kitchen is not my favorite place to be but I love to see the finishing product. I started this not because I choose to but because it fell on my lap, one year we were invited somewhere and things changed last-minute so I had to rush out and pick up a whole meal the day before Thanksgiving. I thank god everyday it happened that way because if not I know I would have never had the courage to just make a meal on my own.

This year on the menu I have

Turkey (of course)

Brown Sugar Spiral Ham

Mash potatoes

Gravy

Rice with carrots

Something with Cranberry (Still doing a recipe)

Corn on a Cob (mom’s special request)

Salad

Corn Bread

Organic Dinner rolls

Red Velvet Cake

Fun fetti Cake (both will be made by my daughter)

Pumpkin Pie

Hope everyone has a blessed Thanksgiving!!! Eat up and enjoy your time with your loved ones!!!

My grandfather has Alzheimer and dementia. Occasionally he forgets things or people, or sometimes just stares at us. It makes me feel bad because all his life he was a very strong man. He was and is still constantly reading. He used to know Spanish, English and a dialect now he only knows Spanish. It sad to see a man who was so amazing spend his last few days not remember a thing. When my youngest was just born it took a few months for him to get past the question of the gender of my little one. It broke my heart but he eventually got past it. He may not be all there at times but I’m glad my kids got to send time with him and my grandmother. This disease has made him be a baby all over again. He can sit there and go at it like a 7-year-old with my daughter. Below is a picture of him looking at me while I was one my phone, he started at me for about 30 mins, i decided to take the picture because I wanted to capture this moment. I wonder what he was thinking?

This weekend my eldest spent most of the weekend with her best friend and her family aka her other family. So I spent the whole weekend trying to make my little one happy so she wouldn’t miss her sister. They fight like crazy but when they are apart they miss each other you know the typical sister relationship. Well I never had a sister so I don’t fully comprehend, I’m always making them hug and kiss each other, show some type of affection. I occasionally force them to play with each other but it always ends up in a screaming or hitting match. On Saturday I realized I didn’t need to force them to do any of that, that they love each other regardless. It was midnight and I was watching Vampire Diaries while my little one sat next to me watching a movie on Netflix. She turns to me and says “mom when is this child coming home?” (Child as in her sister) I informed her that she was coming home Sunday night and that’s when she said the one thing that yet again made my heart melt and also made me realize how much easier my life would be if I had a sister, she said ” Mom I have faith in Pepi, if she misses me as much as I miss her then she will come home right away” I looked at her and didn’t even have a response for it. I just had to hug her. I never had a sister and always wanted one because all the bad times in my life would have been made easier with a sister next to me.

The next day when Pepi got home, I thought she would hug her and really express how much she missed her but my little one pushed my older one away from here when she was about to greet her and that there ladies and gentlemen is sisterly love, the good kind LOL

Today marks yet another anniversary of the tragic events that rocked (in a bad way) the lives of many families. It didn’t affect me directly but as most that weren’t affected directly it hurt me to see so much pain, so much suffering and loss. I remember the day like it was last week. Everyone was so scared, in disbelief and felt lost and unprotected. I remember getting home from school and just hugging my 8 month old daughter. I couldn’t stop watching the news as they replayed the towers as they collapsed. Every year my eldest watched the documentaries on History channel and very year we both cry. So many innocent lives were lost that day. The days and weeks following the tragic event have been the most united Ive seen people be. It shouldn’t take a tragedy for this nation to be united. It should be like that always. So today as we take a second to remember those lost on 9/11 lets also remember that we are a nation and united we should stand. A special god bless to all the families affected by this tragedy, we will never forget!