Confusion reigns as I rack my brains
Bewildered by my own thoughts
Uncertain in everything I feel or think
Perplexed by my heart, struggling mind.

Turmoil wages war at all the stages
Chaos is endless with no inner order
Mayhem shouts and screams inside
Upheaval of the soul, of the heart.

Embarrassed by these thoughts of mine
Awkward in their lonely expression
Self-conscious of all that I say or do
Uncertain of what I feel, misinterpreted.

My head is aching, and my soul breaking
Too much pain, too many feelings to see
Noise in my head drowning out all thought
What should I do? What do I feel? Why?

~ Wrote this on the 15th Nov. Just about my confusion with myself and my feelings about a certain person who told me he loves me but I don't know how I feel in return ... it would be a long distance relationship and I just have too much in my head really without this tagging along. ~

------Give me a reason to love life
Prove to me happiness is real
Show me the undying light of hope
And I will cast away the darkness.