Monday, January 6, 2014

Today is a new day, full of possibilities to see some
beauty. And you are here reading this blog. J
Let me stop writing for a sec to tell you that you are Ahhhmazing!! Ok, on to
my new thoughts for the day…

So, I was thinking about this last night… how do I define
child abuse? There is physical, emotional, and verbal abuse, but for me, the
bottom line is how it makes the child feel.The emotional fall out from child abuse are feelings of feeling
unworthy, unloved, abandoned, tossed away, betrayed, a disappointment, scared,
a failure, just trying to survive, helpless to make it better or escape, and
hopelessness.

For me, recovery of child abuse is learning to live, not
with those emotions, but without them. Which is a miracle in itself because
they were such a big part of me.

I don’t know how other child abuse survivors do it, or how
long it takes them to heal.Not many
people talk about it, we all go on with our lives. Which is a good thing! I was
rescued by God. I don’t know how to talk about God on a blog without sounding
preachy, but I don’t mean it that way. It’s the simplest way to say how I
learned I was loved, and it’s true.

Recovery for me has had its own fall out- having to have
boundaries with my family, and the resulting cutting off of the relationship. I
wonder how many other people are like me, who are cut off from their families.

So I am here today spreading the word- no matter where you
are in dealing with your past, there are people who can relate with you and how
you are feeling. You aren’t alone. Have a good day! *big hugs if you need one*