Oh, absolutely, I have no doubt I have a huge issue trying to hit that same total in a meet. I never claimed to have a "total", I said those are my personal bests.

I got lots of form stuff and programming stuff I wanna figure out right now. When all the movements feel 100% natural to me, and I feel I learned most of what I need to know about my body, I will look forward to competing. In my mind, I'm not there yet.

What I don't agree with, is that I have to pay some arbitrary organization $100 and step up and have 3 people judge me to call myself a powerlifter or give others advice on how to become stronger.