Thanks TJ. I decided to come off the meds made me feel so much worse, and not just for the short term "adjustment" period, but for months. I wasn't depressed before taking them and I certainly hadn't had any thoughts of not wanting to be alive anymore either, I really did give them plenty of time to work, and I know from previously recoving well with meds that when they work, they work really well, and relatively quickly (for me anyway), but not this time. It was a really hard decision to stop taking the meds, and I too feared that I would never be back to normal (mentally), but touch wood, I'm almost there.

My GP is convinced that there is something "organically" wrong (i.e. something is out of whack that is cause the anxiety, such as my hormones) because it wasn't/isn't a perminent state, but comes in waves and cycles but I honestly don't know if we'll ever get to the bottom of it.

i developed anxiety after a virus wasnt depressed before that although bwen running on high stress levels as my son was due to have a second op in america. i worry could be hormone related as my mumwent through perimenopause early..i did stop funtioning though which meds helped with so will give bit longer. really pleased for you though an imspiration to us newbys x

WOW, Lauz you sound like a different person!! You have done so well, so pleased for you!! I love reading when people are doing well it gives everyone else hope!! Well done you!! Keep it up!!

Hows everyone feeling this morning? I'm not to bad today, had a good sleep and woke up feeling canny!!

Still have loads of fears about going places but I have got to get off my backside and overcome them!! Feeling positive again today so we will see, not ready to go back to work Monday and I know I need to push myself but I am not pushing too much like I did in February and ended up totally back to square one!!

Nicola hope your feeling better today poor lass you must be fed up!!
Mr W Please you had a lovely day out, your doing well just need to get a happy medium with the meds!!
Angel hope the increase is going well for you!! You can do it!!
Laura hun nearly time for appointment, you will soon be sorted out and feeling better!!
Joy hope your feeling ok today?
Pink hope your ok too.
Sam - hope your ok and still having fun with the pup!!
Sorry if I have missed anyone out!! Hugs for everyone!!

Morning, How are you Laura and Nicola today?glad you had a nice day ww and are feeling better, Wow lauz what agood brave post. Also how are you Pink, Angel and Sam.
I cant wait for these relaxation classes to start as I defo need something to stop the early morning screaming eebie jeebies. trouble is they last all day sometime. No point in ringing the duty officer as she wont let me speak to the shrink and suggests stupid things that any one with bad anxiety couldnt possibly do

Hi Joy - yes I am here! sorry your anxiety is still there - don't even think of ringing those stupid duty workers - more change of winning the lottery than seeing a shrink through them! I have nothing more about my complaint. We'll see!

My anxiety is bad but it's the depression I feel is holiding be back with being on no meds - just glad when I see him next week! but crying all the time and don't want to go anywhere - am still at my mums - go back and see husband when he is not at work - but just want to be at work and normal again! suppose we all want that!

Lauz really pleased for you - you have done very well and success stories are what we need to keep us motivated. Once I get on the correct meds - and I do need them - will try and go back to work - they did say pick and choose your hours - do what you want to do - open door! and my boss did phone me the other night saying we want you back. So that was nice. See what happens.

mornings all, hope things are better for samhar, nicola, mr w, joy, laura and anyone who was having it bad yesterday. lauz is sounding pretty hot in more ways than one at the moment and it sounds as though hubby has got his hands full(?) this weekend. its always good to see people getting it back together.
have a good day, alan.