Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Let’s get this out of the way first.I know that not everybody agrees with me and
I accept that.No two people have had
the exact same life experiences and therefore it’s impossible for two people to
share the exact same opinions on everything.This election cycle though I feel almost like people forget the reason
why people make the choices that they make.So instead of talking about those choices I’m going to talk about the
things that matter to me because they’re fairly straight forward.

Being a woman matters
to me.The knowledge that it took a
Constitutional Amendment to get me the right to vote matters to me.The fact that women fought and lost so much
to gain that right to vote matters to me.It means something to me to know that no one has power over me.That no one can make decisions or life
choices for me.It means something to me to think that I would
get paid the same as a man for doing the same job.

Health Care matters to me.I’ve spent a good part of my life without health insurance.I’ve been forced to go to the emergency room
for an ear infection because I didn’t have insurance.I’ve then had to lower myself to ask
hospitals for assistance because my job didn’t pay me enough to pay the nearly
five hundred dollar bill.I’ve watched
season after season as my aunt suffered from crippling allergies but had to
just push through the pain and the sickness because, as a caretaker, she can’t
afford personal health insurance.And
yes,I’ve heard the arguments against
Universal Health Care.I can understand that
people disdain giving their own money to pay for people who can’t pay it
themselves but I believe that it’s our duty as a nation to take care of those
less fortunate.

Which brings me to Social Security, Medicare, Medicade, SNAP
and the myriad of programs known as Welfare.I hear many people deriding these programs saying that those who take
part in Welfare programs don’t want to work and just want to milk money from hard
working Americans and though I don’t agree with them I can accept their point
of view for what it is.But here’s the
thing, I don’t believe that 99% of the people on Welfare are on it because they
want to be the way I often hear the complaints go.I believe that most people who receive
public assistance receive it because it’s either that or their kids don’t
eat.It’s either that or their power
gets turned off.It’s either that or
they’re one of the millions of homeless in America.

Education matters to me.I went to school to BE a teacher.A lot of the time I think like a teacher.But I’m not a teacher.I’m not a teacher because I don’t know that I
could survive seeing program after program taken out of schools because of
budget cuts.I don’t know if I could
survive seeing standardized testing that only accurately shows a small
percentage of students’ achievement looked at as the be all end all.Schools need more money.I’ll leave the teacher pay argument for
someone else because EVERYONE makes more than I do right now.But I can’t look past the facts that most
school districts are underfunded and understaffed.I can’t look past the fact that schools are losing
important extra-curricular especially in the arts.There is little more important than the
education of the youth and yet each year we get more and more behind.It’s time to realize that what’s being done
isn’t working and try something that might work.

The environment matters to me.And it’s long past time that we stopped
killing the planet in order to squeeze out more profits for already bloated
corporations.And while I recognize the
need for energy independence in America I do not believe that it should be done
with complete disregard to environmental issues the way that it has been in the
past.

I can hear the arguments now.Our country is dealing with a crippling
national debt how do you think we could pay for all these things you’re talking
about?And I wish I had an answer but I’m
not an economist.I don’t know the answers.I just know what I feel.It’s why I’ll never be a politician or a
political pundit.I don’t know how to
fix the problems I just know that they need to be fixed.

I am a (fairly) young woman.The first president I remember is the first President Bush.I lived through a time when the world seemed
to change every day.And, for a while,
it looked like it was changing in good ways.I remember this overwhelming sense of possibility attached to the world
I grew up in.But somewhere that world
twisted.I’m not sure when or where
though I’m sure that there are those who would attach it to that cool morning
in September eleven years ago.But some
time.Somewhere.The world stopped feeling like it was about
possibilities and started feeling like it was about limitations.Yeah, I’m sure that part of it was growing up
and being divested of those rosey hued glasses that all extremely young people
tend to wear but it isn’t just me.And
it isn’t just people my age.I don’t
know, maybe I’m still living in the shadow of those rose-colored glasses and
disappointed that the world isn’t the place I wanted it to be.But if I’m living there, I’m certainly not
alone.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Okay, normally on the odd occasions I write something here I write about books because books are the thing I love most and the one thing that tends to stay front and center in my mind. But lately thinking about new authors and the ways that favorites manage to never disappoint me has taken second stage to something that too many of us know too well. That overwhelming feeling of not being able to find work.

I know I'm lucky. I still live at home so I don't have rent to pay but I can see how my unemployment is affecting everyone else. It used to be that my grandma and aunt could count on me to buy the extras that Grandma's social security just doesn't allow. Every time I hear my grandma talk about how hard it's going to be to pay her property taxes this year I feel a little more helpless. Every time I know that we won't be able to get a movie or TV show on DVD I feel a little more lost. Every day that I try and fail to hear back about the dozens of resumes I've sent out I feel a little more overwhelmed. They don't talk about how much you feel like you're drowning when you're unemployed. They don't talk about how useless you feel. How stupid you feel. How completely ill-prepared to deal with the realities of the modern job market you feel.

Instead they politicize it. And I'm tired of it. Yes, I am what most people would probably call a liberal. My beliefs lie strongly in the camp that we should help people out. But I've asked for nothing. Because other people need it more and I understand that but it doesn't lessen the fear. It doesn't change the fact that I dread every day that goes by without an interview. It doesn't make me feel any less stupid for not being able to do the things that are necessary to get the interview.

Because I still don't know what those things are.

There are innumerable rules in the modern job market. Resumes should only be one page long. No, wait, they can be two pages long. References should be included. References should be a separate document. You need a cover letter. A cover letter isn't necessary. You need to know someone who already works there. There are jobs, people are just to lazy or too proud to take them. There's a constant barrage of well intentioned people constantly telling you what to do, what to say, what to embellish and what to leave out. All of the supposed rules make my head spin.

And so I try. I try everything I can think of. I change my resume. I write a cover letter (even though I'm still not even sure what a cover letter is). I do everything that I can think of to make myself into the candidate that people want even though I still don't really know what it is that they want.

After fifteen years working in bookstores I want to make a change in my life. I want to actually start saving money. I want to eventually be able to travel, to buy a car, to take over the bills when I have to. These are all eventualities that loom large over my head while I try to find something. People tell me to take retail but retail doesn't want me because I can't work nights. Offices don't want me because I don't have the necessary experience and training. I could teach but I don't really want to. And day by day time ticks by and I'm still here. And I'm still trying and I'm no closer to work now than I was six months ago.

It's too bad that no one pays us to dream. It's all I seem to be doing these days.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Granted, this is one of those areas where I'm definitely speaking more from my own feelings on a topic than anything else but I have to say I get irritated when I hear people putting down adults who have turned to Teen and Young Adult fiction as being incapable of understanding the nuance of adult fiction. So before I get further into why I feel that YA is a viable genre for adults to read without judgement let's just get some bare facts out of the way.

I have a degree in literature.

I can analyze fiction with the best of them (thank you Aunt Sherri for giving me a complete base in archetypes to make this a simple task).

I have a great dislike for modern "literary" fiction (I'll get deeper into this in a moment).

Okay now that those basic facts have been addressed I'll continue. I've long felt that Young Adult or Teen fiction does many things better than their adult counterparts though I don't think that it's because they're always more skilled writers (though sometimes I do feel that's the case). More than anything though I feel like the reason that YA fiction is often more successful in garnering readers isn't because it's easier (have you read some YA fic?) I think it's because the writers are less caught up in being "important". Rather than spend their time making themselves seem somehow better than everyone else these authors instead focus things where they should...on the story and the reader.

There is no doubt in my mind that John Green is one of the most literate voices of my generation (I'm speaking as someone his age not as a teenager). What he's done in books like Looking for Alaska or An Abundance of Katherines is at a par as far as pure skill goes with any of the authors who are today's golden literary children. But he chooses to write for teens. And not only does he write for teens but he speaks to them. He hand signed every pre-order for his latest book, The Fault in Our Stars, not as a marketing ploy but as a thank you. How many "literary" authors do you know who would do that?

The most recent Teen Blockbuster has been, of course, The Hunger Games which I like infinitely more than Twilight. The Hunger Games series is acutally a good platform for my point since it's something that many people are familiar with. A quick reading of the story and you see a girl who's fighting to the death in gladiator style games. And that's all well and good. But a deeper reading tells a much different story. It tells of a society so corrupted that it uses the deaths of children as entertainment. It shows how easily a person, no matter how morally and physically strong can be manipulated by those with more power. It shows us a world and a hero that is far from perfect and how even the smallest choices (and refusing to act is a choice) can have far reaching effects. Is it really fair to discount those thoughts just because they were written for a young audience?

Now let's get into my issue with "literary" fiction. It seems to me that all too often modern literary fiction falls into two camps the "let's be so completely incomprehensible that everyone sees me as a genius" camp and the "let's put my character through an emotional wringer" camp. Neither camp really has an interest to me as a reader. Because, here's a big surprise for everyone, I read to enjoy books. This has led me to the fringes of the literary world. Instead of reading the latest literary titles I long ago moved to reading Fantasy, Romance and Teen. Yep. Teen. And I'm not ashamed of this fact. I look forward to a new book by Sarah Dessen, Libba Bray or Deb Caletti with as much anticipation as I do something from Sherrilyn Kenyon, Julia Quinn or Eloisa James. This doesn't make me stupid. In fact, I think it makes me smarter because I'm smart enough to know that my intelligence doesn't hinge on how people judge my reading habits. I'm better (and smarter) than that.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

I'm always happy when I manage to get my sticky little fingers on something early (thank you egalleys they're like chocolate for my soul) but there are a couple of authors who make my heart go pitter pat more quickly than others. One of them is always Julia Quinn.

I discovered Julia Quinn quite by accident one Sunday morning. I knew my family was going to be busy all day and I needed to entertain myself so I picked up a random book at my local Target. That book was To Sir Phillip with Love. Which is rather appropriate as I fell completely in love with the Bridgerton family in that book. Since that day I'll eagerly anticipated every new release from Julia Quinn. And I have to say that this one is well worth the wait.

Everyone who knows about the Bridgertons has witnessed a Smyth-Smith musicale. They're things of legend within the Julia Quinn universe and I was thrilled beyond measure when I read that she was bringing this particular family to the forefront. And I'd really, really enjoyed Just Like Heaven. I felt that Honoria and Marcus were a fun pairing. But A Night Like This far surpassed it. There were sections of the book where I giggled for pages on end. The three girls: Frances, Elizabeth and Harriet were delightful. Daniel was the kind of hero that a girl loves to read about. And Anne was a heroine to root for. The interactions between Anne and Daniel were witty with their dialogue jumping off the page and often reminding me of the exchanges between leads in a 1930's comedy.

I don't want to give away too much plot because it's too much fun to get there on your own suffice to say that it's more action oriented than one typically sees from Ms. Quinn (a welcome change). My biggest question now is who the third Smyth-Smith is going to be and if I'll ever find out what ultimately happens with Hugh, who is without a doubt my favorite minor character so far this trilogy (though Frances and her unicorn obsession comes in a close second).