Insight: First of all, you need to make the most of life no matter where you are. When you start enjoying yourself you will find that when you think of home you will not be miserable but you will be happy you were able to talk to them. Once you allow yourself to feel negative feelings they tend to overwhelm you and you have a hard time enjoying even the time you have with your family in communication.

Insight: God has forgiven you. My question for you is have you forgiven yourself? You need to forgive yourself, in order to be effective in repairing things with your mom. She needs to know you are coming from a place of love and not guilt. Once you have forgiven yourself and allowed all of the pain to fade away, face your mom. Tell her the truth about how you felt, what changed and how you feel now. Ask her to forgive you and continue to treat her with love and respect and I am sure the damage to your relationship will be healed and restored.

Insight: I continually struggle with that. I am also an independent person and I find that many times I try to do things on my own without God's help. The result is not pleasant. I am usually worn out, defeated, and worst of all I end up feeling guilty about not asking God to help me right from the start.