Not Convinced

The Cirlot Agency, PLS’s PR firm, released a story about my weight loss journey today. I’m not sure how I feel about this. I don’t think anyone understand the added pressure this creates. Yes, it’s a good thing but it’s also another thing.

I want to say that I’m not ashamed of my size but I can’t say that wholely because if I could keep it a secret a would. I think that’s what makes this entire experience so surreal. Some days I feel like I’m being congratulated for bad choices. I know, I know, that’s not the case. It’s my committment to correcting those bad choices. But, again, I said some days.

I don’t know if anyone will pick up the story but I am prepared to be alright if they do. At this point there really isn’t room to be anything else.

The irony in all of this is that I am feeling very antsy and scrutinized, feelings that usually lead to my emotional eating.