lump sum.

Here’s the simple difference between the normals and me, the alcoholic: normal people drink because it gives them an altered feeling that’s a fun ride to go on every once in a while; like seeing a movie, or bowling. For me, alcohol became a prerequisite for living. I couldn’t function without it.

The most insidious part of this disease for me?The long-held belief that I was being thoughtful to those around me by constantly shutting down and running away.

Step 1:we admitted we were powerless over alcohol – that our lives had become unmanageable.

And I continued to drink long after I knew I was an alcoholic. Long after everyone knew I was an alcoholic.It was an inoperable lump pulsating between my left ear and left eye.It influenced everything I saw, interpreted everything I heard, and uglied everything I said.