(ranting) from the heart

When is enough, enough? When does the pain end? Does it stop when someone calls my bluff After I type “I’m fine” and hit send If I never react to their foolish taunting They are being denied my prized pain But that doesn’t stop their words from haunting Every little corner of my brain If I refuse to snap They don’t get a show And when the entertainment is crap Maybe they will stop the blows One to the face One to the heart Cruelty isn’t a race But they already said start One to the jaw One to the gut I want to bring out my claws But I’m determined to keep my walls shut One to trust One to pride All of the fun times are in the dust I’m alone on this ride One to hope One to confidence I can’t always cope To being treated like a complete hindrance One to life One to love If I create such strife Without a push or shove Without a word If me being me Is so commonly deterred By all those who can only be Hateful conformists Then perhaps I will do A spectacular performance An act that is all true For those who thought I would take it In humble silence The front row is where all of those special people will sit So my presence is giant To all of the ones that made me feel small I will scream at them Show them I don’t care at all About where they think I come from Or what I should be about I will deliver revelation after revelation In a fury that will leave no doubt My stance of the situation They’ve put me through so many times in my personal history Which happens to be their misfortune And my victory Because my new position shows me that high school Is not threat The drama and social hierarchy is a game for fools Ultimately, the only things that are going to matter are the grades you get Because all of the people from high school Who tangled themselves in playing with other teenage lives Well this is the only time they rule They will not continue to thrive In the real world Where spreading rumours for fun Only causes all of your relationships to be hurled To the state of oh so done High school is a scam Where the mean think they win But I’m just going to pass these exams So I can leave this place where I’ve been Put through hell While the social kings and queens Get locked further into their cell Forever stuck in the good old days of their teens Because they will not move on Always cruel and “perfect” While the ones like me are long gone Making a name of respect Instead of just the past popular girl Who still works at a fast food place And that is as far as they will unfurl Living life without leaving a trace In the end high school will just be a part of my past Where I got the grades That got me places fast Your stupid teenage gossip doesn’t persuade My future into going downhill So as this rant comes to a close So does your everyday thrill Of giving my self esteem a good bulldoze Because that phase is over I hope you aren’t too upset That I just took over The life I let You take away But it is mine once more And I’m going to live every last day Knowing I am being me to the very core And you can’t change that No matter what you say or do My identity is a fact One that will always remain true So, may I show you the door? Even though you are going nowhere, you must be on your way My path towards greatness is much different than yours And even though I could stray A time or two Right now I am content knowing that I Did everything I needed to do To make it to this goodbye Where the bully is beaten And I uncover the reason That I no longer have to fall And I stand tall On the stage Where I shattered the cage And the crowd is in awe Of the spectacle they just saw A girl Taking back her world In an epic story full of twists and turns The tale from which I will always learn From my past mistakes Of letting high school dictate My who, what, when, where, and why But alas this is goodbye! So, farewell to my dreadful past My dark days are done and today is ever so bright in contrast And whatever my future brings I’m moving on to much better things Without you

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