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Reading through my folders and files randomly, I came across a text file I had put down. I read through it and made a few realizations about myself, mostly that even if hopelessness and depression weigh down like a building, the things I can enjoy will always ease the burden.So, I began to read it. I laughed a bit, and I cried some, but most of all, I felt a glow that doesn't come from anything other than living, something a lot of people, especially myself forget about all too often.I went back and thought about why I had made such a thing. I read a PM or two, thought about this guild, and the people that make it what it is, and decided to share what I put down. And to, at the suggestion of Reeves, revive a concept now hiding in the memorable threads.

So I give to you, the return of the 100 Things I Love thread.

1. That little chill I get when I hear a new song for the very first time, and I know I'm going to love it for the rest of my life2. The contrast of cold air and warm sun on my arms3. Riding my bike in an autumn afternoon4. Inhaling that little bit of fog on a freshly opened glass bottle of peach crush5. The quiet you can only find in a cemetary6. The smell that comes right after a warm rain7. Late night thunderstorms8. Windy, overcast days9. Stargazing in winter at fourty below10. Sitting down and talking aimlessly about nothing for hours11. The taste of a fresh cigar12. The warmth of a sip of whiskey13. Dancing alone in the early afternoon14. The crunch of leaves under my feet in autumn15. Taking a long walk in the rain16. the quiet suspense of late Winter17. The first bite of a fresh plum18. Reaching into my pocket and finding a dollar19. Completely forgetting about something for years only to rediscover it all over again20. That smell when you walk into a good mexican restaurant21. Crying every time I sing along with Detlef Scrempf22. Shutting everything out and hiding under my blankets in bed23. Being thanked for even the smallest things24. Being complemented, even if rarely.25. Losing track of time when reading a good book26. Staying up well past time for bed because I don't want to leave my friends27. That overwhelming relief when I think I just broke something but didn't28. Discovering that I now love something I used to hate29. Laughing so hard I can't breathe30. Sitting under a shade tree in the middle of summer31. The first day of summer when I can finally jump into the pool for the first time that year32. Singing along to the lyrics of a song perfectly having only heard it once before33. Those moments of strange luck that make me laugh34. Perfect timing35. The feeling of having a shower for the first time in two weeks36. The feel of freshly washed and dried shirts37. Taking a wrong turn just to see what's out that direction38. Realizing that there is no such thing as a wrong turn, just another path to take39. The sharp hiss of opening a glass bottle of pop40. The strong burn of good ginger ale41. Talking to a friend for the first time in years as if no time had passed at all42. Cutting into freshly baked bread43. Having my head scratched by someone else44. Thinking I'm late, but I'm actually about ten minutes early45. Knowing what people think of the music I share with them46. Immediately knowing what someone means despite them being as vague as possible47. When something isn't what I expected, but even better48. Sitting around with a close friend and not needing anything said to be the perfect time together49. Hearing something for the first time in something I've always listened to50. The smell of a freshly vacuumed carpet51. Discovering new combinations of things to eat or drink52. Peanut butter, barbeque sauce, pickle, mustard, and onion ring sandwiches.53. Being made to think about things54. Theremins55. Chapman Sticks56. Ukeleles57. Looking back at my life and seeing all of the pain and abuse I took, and knowing that I'm now free of it all to rebuild myself as I should be58. Jeff Magnum's voice59. Conor Oberst's voice60. Being able to say exactly what I enjoy and don't free of influence61. Owls62. Getting lost in a moment63. Hearing what other people think64. Taking a cold shower on a hot day and sitting in front of a fan in the window65. Having sudden, brilliant ideas66. Being able to forgive67. Being forgiven68. When a mistake turns out better than the right way69. When ideas flow like water from a fountain70. Sharing a meal with friends71. Not having to bother with my "family" any more72. Finding clothes from years ago that fit again73. Finding a hat that not only fits, but looks good74. When the right song comes on to fit the situation perfectly75. When conflict is resolved without conflict76. Ice cold water on an empty stomach77. Swedish Fish78. A yawn and a stretch that wakes me up better than coffee ever could79. That moment when I finally understand the lyrics to a song perfectly80. When I hear a song in a show or commercial and immediately recognize it81. When the song I desperately wanted to hear starts playing on my mp3 player82. BASS (Not the fish; try not to drop it)83. Walking alone for hours on back roads84. Getting lost in a forest for fun85. Climbing trees and having picnics in the top branches86. Fish tacos87. Curry88. When someone knows exactly what I'm talking about, without needing more information than a word or phrase58b. Jeff Magnum's voice89. The sound of a fan in my window in late summer nights90. laying tangled in my sheets in the early morning91. When the perfect pun strikes in conversation92. Unexpected gifts93. Giving unexpected gifts94. Dancing to a song in public and having people join in95. Singing out loud and having people join in96. Learning new things97. Sharing myself with my friends98. Being heard99. When I manage something I never thought I could pull off100. Never knowing what to expect, and always being surprised by life and myself. Sitting here and writing this out has made me feel a hell of a lot better about my life; but, at the same time, most of this list are things that I have not experienced in years, or may not experience again for a long time, and that serves to bring me down again. But at the same time, I know I still have a long time left and I can always have it again.

Thanks, Reeves, for helping me out and making me think a bit when all I wanted to do was lie down and give a revolver a b*****b. Makes me feel better every time I think about where I was, and how you pointed me in the right direction, that time.

Posted: Tue Oct 02, 2012 10:55 pm

I remember getting this in a PM from you, Oral.

And I'm so glad my concept helped you out and made you feel so good about yourself and your life.

It's nice to know that I've positively affected someone in some way. That means a lot to me.