Olivia is having a hard time getting past the ordeal William Lewis had put her through. Her life was a mess. Her relationship with Brian Cassidy was crumbling. How will her relationship with Brian survive when all she does is push him away? Set two months after Surrender Benson.

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Two weeks later...

Olivia and Brian had signed the lease on their new New York City apartment and were practically almost done moving in. Their new place was huge compared to their old apartments. It had a very modern feel to it. It was spacious and had a beautiful view overlooking the city.

Olivia was in love with the new apartment. She felt like she could breathe here. Like she didn't have to be afraid.

As for Brian, he doesn't really care where he lives. He just enjoys the fact that it's with the woman he loves.

Brian walked in with a medium sized box. "I can't wait to be done with this," he complained.

Olivia, who was unpacking the kitchen supplies, looked over at her boyfriend. "We just have a few more boxes left. We should be done by today." She set the empty box on the floor. "I can't believe we're actually doing this," she continued.

He set the box down on the kitchen island and walked over to her. He put his arms around her waist from the back, while she continued to unpack. "You ready for this?"

Olivia smiled and laughed. "Well we have no choice now, huh?"

He laughed. "Nope. You're stuck with me."

She laughed and held his hands that were still around her waist. "I'm just kidding. I am ready."

Brian kissed her neck and groaned. "Mm you smell good."

Olivia pushed him away, knowing where this way going. "And you're all sweaty," she joked.

He smiled and kissed her once more. "Fine, I'll go get the rest of the boxes."

As Brian went out the door, Olivia closed her eyes and let out a sigh. They hadn't had sex since Lewis. About two and a half months now. She felt guilty that she wasn't ready yet. She loves Brian but, she still sees Lewis in her nightmares and she's scared that might be the case when she's intimate with her boyfriend. She just feels so guilty when Brian does things like that and she has to make up some stupid excuse. Brian never brought it up but, he knew she was struggling. He had to. Before Lewis, they had an amazing sex life. Now it was nonexistent.

She was shaken out of her thoughts when Brian walked back in with another two boxes. "What do you have in these boxes? It feels like a dead body."

Olivia rolled her eyes. "Shoes."

"Damn, how many pairs do you have?" he asked as he set the boxes down next to the couch.

"Hey, a girl loves her shoes."

"Yeah and I like my horn but, you won't let me put it up in the living room," he said as he picked up the huge horn.

Olivia laughed. "You can put it up somewhere where no one will see it."

"Fine. You're just jealous I love this horn more than you."

She rolled her eyes. "Ok go take your new love into the bedroom and hang it up there."

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Later that night...

Brian and Olivia had finally finished cleaning and unpacking everything.

They sat on the couch, enjoying a bottle of wine.

Brian noticed the smirk on Olivia's face. "What?"

"After thirteen years, here we are. It's just weird that it took us this long."

He nodded and smiled. "Well you broke my heart so I didn't have a choice."

She playfully smacked him on the chest. "You're never going to let me live it down, are you?"

"No. You just used me for sex," he joked.

She laughed. "I thought we both used each other for sex."

"Yeah at first, I did. Then I started getting feelings for you. I mean I always had feelings for you from the day we started working together but, I didn't want to get serious with anyone. Then after our night together, I realized that maybe getting serious with you wouldn't be such a bad thing," he admitted.

"I'm sorry. I just wasn't ready for a relationship at that time."

Brian laughed. "Liv, you don't have to apologize. It was thirteen years ago."

"Well you're making me feel bad," she defended in a playful manner.

"Ok, my fault." He reached over and gently pulled her towards him. He gave her a kiss on her nose then her lips. "Well look where we are now."

Olivia wrapped her arms around his waist. "I couldn't be happier."

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Olivia woke up the next morning and smiled, remembering they were in their new apartment.

She glanced over at Brian, who was in deep sleep. She couldn't believe that she would wake up like this every morning.

Half an hour later, she was ready to go back to work after taking a week off to move.

Olivia walked into the squad room with a smile on her face.

"Don't look too happy. Tucker is with the captain, waiting on you," Nick busted her bubble.

She gave Nick a confused look. "What does he want?"

Nick shrugged. "I have no idea."

She started walking towards Cragen's office.

"Good luck," Nick called.

Olivia turned around and jokingly glared at him. She knocked on the door and waited for Cragen's approval.

"Come in," Cragen barked.

Olivia walked in and closed the door behind her. "I heard you were waiting on me."

SVU~SVU~SVU~SVU

Tucker walked out of the office after explaining their new case. Brian had told her about Officer Groves' encounter with the 12th precinct and how he got tased the other night. Brian had said he wanted to go to IAB but, Olivia talked him out of it. Now Tucker wanted them to investigate a rape claim against that precinct.

Cragen and Olivia filled the rest of the squad in on their new case and they began to investigate.

Olivia and Nick walked out of the precinct to start their investigation.

"Wait, what do you mean you think Cassidy went to IA?" Nick questioned.

She walked over to the passenger side of the car while Nick headed for the driver's side. "Brian was with Groves when he got tased."

"Well what does Cassidy say?"

"I don't know. I can't get a hold of him," Olivia answered.

With that, they went to talk to their witness.

Olivia kept calling and texting Brian all day but, he never answered her back. She wanted to know if he went to IAB.

Their leads were all dead ends and they had nothing else to go on so they got sent home for the night.

Olivia got home and had a quick dinner then tried calling Brian again.

Still no answer.

She decided on a nice hot bubble bath until Brian arrived. He should be home within the next hour or so.

Olivia hopped in the big tub that she had filled with hot water and bubbles. She laid her head on the small towel and felt her body relax. She sipped on her wine and closed her eyes. She hadn't felt this relaxed in a long time.

Fifteen minutes later, Olivia opened her eyes when she heard the front door.

"Liv," Brian called.

"In here," she called back.

Brian found his way to the bathroom. "Hey, sorry to disturb you," he said as he leaned down to kiss her.

"It's okay." She set her wine glass on the side. "I've been calling you all day," she informed him.

"It's been a crazy day. After they put Groves in the psych ward, I've been doing double the work," he explained and sat on the edge of the tub.

"A text would've been nice."

He rolled his eyes. "Are you really going to make a big deal about this?"

Olivia could tell he was in a bad mood. "Tucker came by the squad today. Did you go to IAB, Brian?"

"No but, Tucker came to me. He wants me to go undercover at the 12th," Brian informed her.

"What did you say?"

"I told him no but, he promised me my shield back if I do this."

She nodded. Tucker was a real piece of work to bribe Brian with his detective shield.

"Anyways, finish your bath. I'm going to get ready for bed." Brian gave her a kiss on her forehead then went to their bedroom.

After another 10 minutes, Olivia stood up and grabbed her towel. She changed into the shorts and a tank top that she had sitting in the bathroom for after her bath. She walked into their bedroom to see Brian lying on their bed. She crawled in next to him but, he didn't say a word. She could tell he had a bad day at work.

"So you're going undercover?" she asked as she lay down next to him and wrapped her arms around him. She didn't want him to do this. It was very dangerous, especially to go undercover in a tight knit precinct like the 12th. If he was found, it could put him in great danger.

"I don't know," he mumbled.

"It's too dangerous, Brian. They're cops."

"I know that. I've been undercover for three years," he replied, harshly.

She started to move away from him but, he wrapped his arms around her shoulders and pulled her back in. "I'm sorry. I had a bad day at work. I shouldn't take it out on you," he apologized.

"It's okay. I just want you to come home safe, that's all," she whispered as he played with her hair.

"I know, babe. I won't do it if you're not comfortable with it."

"Brian, it's your choice. I know you want your shield back and you deserve it. I know you can handle it but, that doesn't stop me from caring."

He nodded and kissed her head. "Let's get some sleep, huh?"

They both stayed quiet until they finally fell asleep.

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Olivia was sitting at her desk the next afternoon. Tucker had just come in and told her that Brian decided to go undercover after Tucker promised him his shield back. He also informed Olivia that she and Nick would be his look out if that made her more comfortable with the situation.

Olivia and Nick had been following Brian and Officer West, from the 12th, for four hours now. There was a call at a club that a girl was getting rowdy. Brian and West took her home. West insisted that he take her up.

West came down and beeped the horn when he saw Brian dozing off. West got into the car and Brian looked over at him. "So Gretchen, my turn?" Brian asked.

"Next time. Quinn needs backup," West replied.

West drove off and a few minutes later they were met up with Quinn and the rookie. Quinn ordered the rookie to stay outside and listen to the radio for any calls that might come in. West and Quinn led Brian into the building.

Olivia and Nick sat outside the building, listening to a woman who was coming on to Brian. They heard her lead Brian to a private room to have "some fun".

Olivia and Nick sat there in an awkward silence when they heard Brian moaning.

Nick looked over at Olivia and saw her blankly staring outside the window. "He's just working."

She kept her gaze still. "I know."

SVU~SVU~SVU~SVU

Olivia sat at her desk when Brian rushed into the squad room. "Hey Liv, listen what you thought you heard-"

Olivia stood up. "You were working."

"Yeah."

"So we don't have to talk about it."

"Look, it was nothing-"

"Tucker is waiting for us," she says as she walks away.

The rest of the day got more dangerous. While Rollins was undercover in the room, West got a call. He called for Brian that they had to leave. They were in the stairway when West and Quinn pulled their guns on Brian, making him as an undercover cop. They put in a fake 911 call as they drove him away from the building. The call led the detectives to where they had taken Cassidy. Before the officers took their shots on Cassidy, the detectives quickly got there in time.

After closing their case, Brian gave Tucker the key that Groves handed him the day he got tased. He urged Tucker to get Groves' release and he will find out.

Brian signed Groves out and took him home to his family. After Brian dropped Groves off, he went on his way home.

Hmm what will Olivia say about the girl coming on to Brian? Stay tuned! Please review! :D

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