During my anxiety I empty my bladder frequently, I get numbness in my arm, I get nightmares, I feel on the edge, when anyone snaps at me I keep thinking non stop about that, my decisions are indecisive, I’m afraid of the crowd and being left alone at same time, my body/muscles are tense and in pain, I’m easily frightened.

I don’t know what I’m doing and though thinking of my problems for hours, I don’t think they are resolved. To me, the world is just a big scary place. Basically I feel losing control. I’m afraid of what waiting me for me in the future.

Strangely enough, I keep thinking of the things I have not yet accomplished.

Feeling that the walls are closing in around to suffocating me.

Anxiety can destroy your confidence in yourself!!!!!!

I’m no a superwoman. I’m still trying to stand out strong. Next month I’m gonna be 32 years old, so I’m a survivor.

In the end it is no shame to feel unwell or to recognize that you are hurt or disappointed or depressed.

Being depressed doesn’t define me, it allows me to see my human emotions which I’m proud and ashamed of them.

PS: This post is in memory of my best-friend who passed away at a young age.