By Estelle Nora Harwit Amrani
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Since Diana's death I've had some thoughts about what made her so loved by so many around the world.
Since her death, no one will let her die. This is typical of idol worship. It's misleading and dangerous because in idol worship we give power to someone else, viewing them as special rather than developing ourselves and realizing that everyone is special. Sometimes it takes one person to trigger that specialness in ourselves. I think Diana did help people see the beauty in themselves and others through compassion and love. This was the goddess in Diana, and it was the goddess that touched people so much that they exalted and supported her throughout the good and bad events in her lifetime. I feel it is the perceived loss of the goddess in human form that is mourned.

Diana transformed many times throughout her short lifetime. She was a young woman
looking for herself and her place in the world. But I think the most significant
transformation she made had to do with her soul-sister connection to Mother Teresa, sharing
the desire to help those who were ill or poor, or suffered due to the effects of war. If you will
recall, both Diana and Mother Teresa died within a few days of each other. They were of the
same soul family, each of them choosing different sides of the same coin; one born and
raised in material affluence, and the other in poverty, and both finding that their greatest joy
and life's path was about easing the suffering of others. Within them they also knew
they held the martyr energy; denying themselves to benefit others. I do not feel this is
noble act, but a misunderstanding that that no one has to lack anything in order to help
others. I think Diana learned this near the end of her life,
while Mother Teresa never did - she never felt worthy of herself, by herself. I do feel they
helped each other taste the other's experiences and philosophies.

Diana was surprisingly open and public about her feelings and her desires. Her presence in the royal
family was no doubt a breath of fresh air and perhaps a threat to the old, stuffy routine.
On Diana's wedding day it was, as someone described it, as if fairy dust had been
spread around all of London - magical. It was one day where people were quiet,
did not riot, push, were not rude, but were totally respectful, supportive and joyful of the marriage.

But after the birth of her sons, Diana suffered post-natal depression, had bulemia,
lacked self-esteem, felt neglected and powerless. She also had a husband who was more interested
in someone else. Diana had her own love affairs. She was afraid. Yet, when it came to
others she was courageous, and probably never completely felt it. She burst the fairytale bubble,
exposed the myths about royalty, and saw her own failings of beliving in the fairytale marriage.
She was still a responsible and loving mother and fulfilled her duties as the Princess.

She used her position of power in order to bring humanity, compassion and love
to the public, and therefore to the royals by bringing them into the 20th century
and more in touch with commoners. She touched people physically and spiritually,
and brought to the public awareness the dangers of mines, and compassion for
those with A.I.D.S. Diana was also related to 17 million Americans, Churchill,
Lawrence of Arabia and many others, which no doubt contributed to the feeling
the world felt she was one of them.

Diana showed the expectations one couldn't fulfill, her personal pressures,
how she felt invisibility in private while being very visible in the public.
Now this is just my assumption about her: Maybe she was attracted to
Muslim men in order that she be more invisible and restricted? She
was a pleaser, which did her little good. At times she possesssed some very good intuition.
Her bulemia manifested due to a need for nurturing and escape - food was
her temporary source for those and created a false sense of control over her life.

Diana also exposed the role of women, abuse of women, and as a royal woman,
in her divorce. In this way, we have watched the role of the goddess challenged by
life (how to bring the goddess energy down by humiliating and disrespecting her).
The royals saw her as a problem. Divorce changed her life and she was
betrayed by the royal family. There was sabotage against her, and in her own words
she said that there was an intent to ruin her public image and kick her out of the family.
What a blow to her who had been so trusting. But, she wouldn't go quietly and fought to the end.
She was a woman who faced many of the same things all women do, and did her
best to deal with them.

We probably won't ever know the entire truth behind her death - whether or not
it was a planned assassination or an auto accident. I think it was an accident.
I also think the paparazzi contributed to the accident and her death. What I don't
understand is why she didn't have cars with curtains over the windows so
photographers couldn't keep invading her privacy and making her life more
of a hell. (Why don't the paparazzi realize the public really doesn't care
about the private lives and every movement of every celebrity?)

But, does it really matter now? She's gone. What matters is what power you give to the archetype Diana
symbolizes for you. What do you resonate and reflect with in Diana? The mother? Her beauty? Her humility?
Her defending the underdog? Her misery and suffering (martyrdom)? Her fairytale princess self? Her openness and
vulnerability as a strength? Her unselfish, compassionate universal self that found
fulfillment in helping others? Or, do you see her as the ancient Greek Goddess, Diana?
Are you addicted to loss, or a life lived with unfulfilled
dreams? Whatever it is - if she does show you a mirror, a need, a clarity,
thank her spirit, release your hold on her, and let her rest in peace; for you do no one
a great service by hanging on to her memory and feeling sorry for her, or missing her.

Probably the greatest tribute we could give Diana is to keep the goddess alive
in ourselves. Let's use what we've learned of what's good and what works by
her example, and do what is right for our lives, within our personal power and
healthy self-esteem, with celebration, honesty, compassion, joy, and responsibility.

CHARLES & CAMILLA WEDDING UP-DATE, APRIL 9, 2005:

C & C's wedding is only two hours from now, postponed one more day due to the Pope's funeral.
According to my friend, Universal Harmonics Analyist Norma Smith, the 9th is a much better day for their wedding.
Norma says: April 9 sum of 65 is more precise for a wedding:
65 reduces to 11, or pair of 1's.
Tarot card #65 is the beginning of the "Earth" element suite called
PENTACLES. And the first card in any suit is THE KING, thus April 9 as
65 is Tarot card The King of Pentacles. That is a much happier image
than today's [April 8th] Tarot #64, the 10 of Swords ~ image of a dead man with 10
swords sticking out of his spine.

I recall Charles was badly advised by a relative to have affairs - after all, what King of England doesn't?
Why should a prince or king be unfaithful to his wife?! What kind of crap is that? Well, he had an affair with Camilla,
and it was insensitive, disrespectful, and hurtful to Diana. Not knowing him personally, my opinion of Charles (as
felt by what I've seen, heard from his mouth) is a spoiled man, but at least he does work hard for his charity.
I don't respect him. (I don't have much respect for the monarchy, in general.) But my opinion doesn't matter to anyone else.

The important thing to realize is that Camilla has always been the love of Charles' life, and I think he should have married her first.
Of course, that would have meant that Diana's sons wouldn't have been born, and I'm sure they were the
great joy in her life, and had to fulfill the royal lineage. William will be King one day and he is so much Diana.
The royals also needed Diana's energy and her mission in her life. There is one thread that is part of
their (Diana's and Charles') lives - abandonment by a mother. It's too early to say if that is a theme
that will continue with future generations. But one good thing did come out of this - Charles did have
to spend more time as a parent to his sons. I guess it had to play out that way - and
Charles is admitting how silly all the laws are requiring him to marry a virgin, and how it really messed up his life.
I think he and Camilla are sticking it to the late Queen Mum (who didn't approve of Camilla), by giving Camilla her wedding ring and having their honeymoon in her mansion.

Camilla jokingly mentioned to Charles that her maternal great-grandmother, Alice Keppel, was the long-time mistress of Charles' great-great-grandfather, Edward VII. Parker Bowles -- then Camilla Shand -- is said to have told the prince: "My great-grandmother was your great-great-grandfather's mistress, so how about it?" I think there's a lot of truth in what Camilla said. I think it's even possible that they were those people in their past lifetime,
reuniting now. I think their connection runs very deep, and I have no doubt that Diana knew it. There is a bittersweet feel to this wedding,
but I do think it's their karma. In that ceremony, the couple must publicly confess "our manifold sins and wickedness" -- a line from the Book of Common Prayer, the inclusion of which is seen as an acknowledgment of their prior adultery. That is them meeting their karma/responsibility and perceptions.
And at this time, we still have memories of Diana's life and her impact upon the world. The connection she
had with Mother Teresa; and yesterday's funeral for the Pope. I think this is coming full circle for everyone. I hope they will
be happy, now that it's legit and out in the open.

Hasn't this been a religious week? From the Catholic Church in the Vatican to the Church of Christ in England.
What's next?