Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Loud

Once I was in the hallway at church also known as the 'hallway class' or 'baby 101'
as that is where I spend 70% of my time at church.

You know, out there with the other few families in the same boat.

Got chatting

Got talking excitedly (that happens to me daily)

Forgot church was on in the chapel.

Usher came out and told me to stop talking and be quiet.

ummmm Embarrassment.

I think I've almost forgotten that this years New Years word resolution was Refined

I've got four months left to make something of myself.

I often take hold of myself and say - at the next social whatever (mothers group, bookclub, wedding, outing etc) I am NOT GOING TO TALK. I am going to let OTHER people lead the conversations. I am going to ask short questions of the OTHER PERSON to get them talking. I will TRY MY HARDEST NOT to talk over people (near impossible for me)

Why oh why am I like this? I don't mean to be rude, I just have so much I am busting to say (hence title of this blog) I read so much and have so many tidbits to share. I retain so much in this brain of mine, nearly ANY TOPIC people talk about I have: read about, know about or heard someone else have. I JUST HAVE TO SHARE!!!

I am going to have to go on a silence pilgrimage, limit myself from talking so much. (ha not really) but I will try my best to restrain myself from sharing everything I know. Shall that be a goal for this week? month? rest of my life? *sigh*

I was chatting with a friend on the way home from conference. We were talking about a lady we both admired. I said "yeah I went to their house for dinner when I was first married. All I could think about was how lovely, kind, softly spoken, generous, caring this mother of 5 children was. At 20 years old I thought I WANT TO BE JUST LIKE HER!!

However I said to my friend, as much as I thought about it. IT WASN'T GOING TO HAPPEN.

I AM ME. IT IS VERY HARD TO CHANGE ONES BASIC SELF.

Hopefully The Lord has a purpose for me. Loud me. I am they way I am for a reason.

so all that talking with my arms and whole body is useful for something :)

At the time I was pondering all this I was reading Eat Pray Love. I have given the book back, so I can't quote it, but when I got to the section about this same topic (she talks too much) I almost gasped! It was the answer. The same answer I was coming to. I smiled so much through that part! And it made me so happy that I'm not the only one like this.

1 comment:

ahhh...Bobbie you are awesome! :) I have a similar problem, I get louder (and more high pitched *sigh*) the more excited I am...which is often, and embarrassing...I can't help it - I have tried to stop...but I wouldn't be me if I ceased to be so easily excited...:) Eat Pray Love was fantastic, I know the part you are talking about...