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This season, as we take time to thank God, we we are going to pause and allow you to see glimpses of the individuals we are reaching for Jesus. He is the whole point of our year-end campaign, to reach each one FOR THE [ONE]. The reach of Choose to Invest can sometimes be confusing, because the ministry is both in the U.S. and abroad. But, for us, that the beauty of it, because we honor the mission field in our back yards just as much as we do the ones in distant, often isolated, places. Here is a glimpse into the lives of one we are reaching that is closer to home, a former Journey Intern, Kate McMordie. Here's her story. #fortheone

REACHING EACH ONE FOR THE [ONE]

I'm really bad at confrontation. I'm often rather selfish. I'm messy. I lose things that are important. I'm flaky. Sometimes I cut people off in traffic and I rarely feel bad about it. I'm spread far too thin on most accounts. I have more pride than the rest of the world combined. I complain a lot. My priorities are often out of whack. I fall asleep in the middle of prayer all the time.

I know the parts of my heart that are cluttered and dirty and I have locked them up safe in a closet that I put a bookshelf in front of. But I know it’s there. The Lord knows it’s there. It’s really not a secret to anyone that walks into life with me.

But in a silly way, I embrace my sin. I do that because it’s easy, and because I have confused that as humility.

I have been so afraid of coming across as prideful, as conceited, as falsely sinless, that I don’t let Jesus triumph in me. He is working to break through sin and darkness, and I pat him on the head and whisper “Shh, Jesus don’t shine too brightly. Someone might mistake Your goodness as my own, and I don’t want to come across as prideful.”

I don’t let Jesus triumph.

I forget the power of identity. I forget that right now, in this moment, as I sit here writing this, the Lord has made me so specifically. So detailed and with such intention. He stuffed His glory into the cracks of my being. He did the same to you too.

Of course, the Kate McMordie that I am is flawed. But it's the Kate McMordie that Jesus has called by name. It's the Kate McMordie that the Lord has intricately laid a path for. It's the Kate McMordie that God has given great gifts of joy, and empathy and sense of exploration to serve him best.

Jesus is doing amazing things in my heart and it’s about time that I give him some airtime and spend intentional time just thanking Him for being triumphant over some of these sins that have held me down for years.

I thank Him for not taking No for an answer from me. I thank him for demanding my attention until I willingly say yes. It’s that kind of pursuit that changed my life. I thank Him for friends and family that stretch across the globe that know me. I mean really know me. I thank Him for teaching me about contentment. Happiness is fleeting, but a soul that is content and well and satisfied in Jesus is foundational.

I sit here overwhelmed that I am as loved as I am by Jesus. Mostly because He knows better than I do just how rotten I am. He took this junk that I dragged into that safe in the closet, and is moving it out piece by piece. He’s tying up my loose ends and dusting off my ledges. He’s flipping on lights that I didn’t even know had bulbs in them. He’s making me into the creation that He had in mind in the beginning, and I’m finally letting him do that.

My God died on the cross for me. He did and He would do it again. and again. and again.

So to Him, I'm not rotten. No matter how often I just insist on being that way.