Category: Other

I’m sixteen and I’m not sure if I have philophobia.I have a lot of guy friends but i haven’t had a crush for 4 years up until now.I don’t like showing affection or intimacy, like hugging with both guys and girls. I also don’t like to open up to people and usually keep my thoughts to myself.I tell myself that no one will be capable of loving me and feel that people deserve love except me. I like to think of love. I imagine myself on dates or make up scenarios in my head about falling in love but when its in real life I end up being scared.When I find out that a guy likes me I panic. I also feel disgusted, I don’t know if its towards myself or the guy.My parents fight all the time, especially when i was younger but now they only do it once…

The first time that I had a boyfriend was way back when I was 15 years old. I have known him all my life and our families were friends. I have never thought of falling in love with him, for me, it was too cliche to fall for someone you have known for so long.But eventually, I started to fall for him. The feeling was new. I felt that someone loved me for who I am. He made me feel like I was his queen. And he even planned our future, that after 12 years, he would marry me. And in return, I promised him that he will be my forever and always. But after 3 months, we fell apart. I was the one who broke up with him. Just because of a stupid misunderstanding, i lost everything.I tried to get him back, but he said he was too hurt.…