And is does anyone know of a spell that can help someone meditate? I've never been one that can sit still.. I need help with that.. Im always fidgeting.. and I NEED to learn this... I have an IMPORTANT spell I want to try but Im afraid it wont work cause Im not able to mediatate right..

Why meditate if it is something that goes against your nature? There are other ways of focusing energy such as drumming or dancing. Magic should compliment you in your path not force you to do something.