I haven’t posted anything for quite some time. I could blame school or myself, so I’ll just blame both. I really don’t know what to write at this very moment. I’m still in the process of figuring out what I want this blog to be used for. Perhaps a place for my photography? Or maybe about fashion and music? Whatever I do decide I need to figure out how to do it so that people can read and come back.

Because I didn’t want to go down to the dungeon that is my basement to use the internet, I am writimg this post from my iPod Touch. That may seem cool but I’m making so many mistakes on my side of the Internet it’s not even funny. It’s actually making me a bit angry.

But I’m doing it for a good reason other than laziness. Since the Tour de France started I’ve been getting up earlier, but I’ve also been going to sleep kind of late. Obviously, that eqaution doesn’t work. I whole heartedly blame the Internet. There, I said it. The Internet is evil and has me in it’s strong grip. No use of helping me now.

My fingers are tired so I’m going to stop here for the night. But if you want to follow me even more, like a stalker, follow me on Twitter. Just search Joelxx. That’s me. Good night.

I haven’t been blogging as much as I usually do. I blame school…fer sure. To fill the void that’s been left by school work and laziness, I’ve compiled a list of all the things I wanted to post over the past week or two.

My first solo show has gone live: After about a months worth of waiting, my first solo show has gone up. I’m so happy right now. But I have one final thing to do before my show is complete-create an artist statement. Here’s where the show is on display: http://tinyurl.com/cxw8mj. Make sure you go into street view and turn the image 180°.

Next stop…Stonewall Dems: So at my school we have a thing called Fellowship. All fellowship is is a time when all juniors get sent to non-profit organizations here in DC. It’s way cooler than I make it sound! Starting tomorrow, I’ll be interning at Stonewall Democrats. I can’t wait.

One of the scariest things that well, scare me about the college admission process is the portfolio. I have a ton of questions about “it”. The first one being: “What the heck do you put in one?” I understand it’s meant to show off your best work, but how should you come at it? Do you just stuff all your glitzy pics or should there be more thought behind it?

I’m asking this because I’m a junior in high school with no portfolio. Now some people may say that I still have time, but I don’t buy that one bit! I feel naked and unprofessional without one.

So what’s the first step in creating a portfolio? Taking pictures I guess. Any art school students out there with advice?

For the past few weeks or so I have been debating with myself on the topic of photography and my future. I’ve been asking myself: “Is this really what you want to do?” And the answer has always been yes, but in varying levels of enthusiasm and passion. I know it’s what I want to do but I’m not pleased with myself and my lack of passion towards actually taking photos. I haven’t really shot anything that I spent a lot of time on and subsequently been proud of. Perhaps it’s because I haven’t focused on what I know I can do now and only on what I want to get to. Maybe so, but I feel as though there is much more to my lack of confidence and enthusiasm.

Maybe if I were to stop looking for “inspiration'” and just shoot what’s already on my mind I could actually produce something worthwhile. I mean I have a camera and no school on weekends. Seems perfect huh? Not really. I always seem to get up on weekends lazy as ever and not artistically inspired! What am I to do?!