all about MEEEEE...

beanizer_05

..simply to express..
a typical human who wanted to explore the sweet and bitter realities of love and life..i know one important thing, that is, IF MY LIFE FAILS, THE WORLD WILL NEVER STOP REVOLVING..it's a hard fact that i needed to swallow..i need to survive..let my thoughts explode before it poisons my system..

xtra-mind blower

xtra-ordinary friend

xtra-hearty friend

you make my day

TY karen!

~thanks karen

lovely awrd

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EVERY CREATURE HAS HIS OWN STORY. EACH OF US SHARES THE SAME WORLD. WE ALL HAVE OUR PASTS. NO MATTER WHERE WE ARE OR HOW FAR WE ARE, WE EXPERIENCE THE FEELING OF BEING LOVED AND BEING HURT. IF WE DWELL ON THE OUTCOME OF OTHER’S RUINED LIVES, THEN, WE ARE LIVING THEIRS AND NOT OURS. KEEP IN MIND THAT WE HAVE ONLY ONE LIFE TO LIVE, IF WE USE THE CHANCE LIVING SOMEONE’S LIFE, THEN, WE ARE NOT HAVING A LIFE AFTER ALL.

Time Flies. Listen how the clock ticks.See how the particles of life perish.

I playback what happened these days..and realize..Why do things lead me to thinking of you?..Last Sunday, we (me & my sis) went to the grocery section, my sis asked me if I want to buy chocolates, I just nod. But guess what, she picked your fave stuff (that red thing in the box), so I complained, instead I said my fave tastes better than that one. She asked me “What’s the difference between the two?”, I felt pissed being asked of that ‘lil thing, so I tried to explain though I know she’s playing me fool. I hate it, of all the stuffs there, why the hell did she find a thing that reminds me of you.
On that same day, at home, we were discussing ‘bout the upcoming double celebration for the next Sunday-Clyde’s b-day and his baby sis baptism. I said I can’t think of a gift for the baby. My sis told me to buy those photo albums she saw in the mall. It’s easy to find, it has an angel design. I said “angels are common why not.. ”, she interrupted “hai! Just get the one with angel”..i just smiled.
It was on that night when I texted you, I’m watching that funny anime movie, that character made me laugh..the name I used to call you sometimes..but you don’t only leave smile in my face but always in my heart (cheesy?)
You see, I felt paranoid even on the smallest things. They are just incidents I know..instances that tickles my consciousness.
The worst is just this morning.. I wore this organizational shirt I had in college last night before I go to bed..it has a big print in front (the name of the org) YAM..now, can you figure out how the mirror greeted me early in the morning?..

The reasons why I ask:1> I cannot read your mind.2> I cannot understand.3> I don’t want to believe my intuition.4> I am confused.5> I care.6> I am jealous.7> I am selfish.

The reasons why I don’t ask:1> I learned to know you well.2> I trust you.3> I am trying to understand.4> I am afraid of knowing the answer.5> I don’t want to argue.6> I am tired of asking.7> I don’t have the right to ask.

The reasons why I answer:1> You made me feel comfortable to listen.2> My mind is dominant.3> I wish you to believe me.4> I love to see how you react.5> I want to exchange thoughts with you.

The reasons why I don’t answer:1> I doubt your faith.2> My heart is stronger.3> You know me well.4> I am playing safe.5> You don’t care anyway.