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Written and recorded from August 2014 - September 2015
All songs written by Strange Apparition
Engineered by Josh Govier and Nick Bernstein
Produced by Nick Bernstein
Mixed and mastered by Josh Govier
Drums performed by Jeb Polstein
Cover art by Luming Chan
Special thanks to Anthony Rago, Mark Durkin, Josh Govier, Jeb Polstein, and Luming Chan

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And there's no likelihood to dance
Until she looks the other way
Must be the sweat palms of your hands
Know it's time to put your mind to play

It's righteous thoughts and clean promotion
And people asking you to stay
Show your cards you know their watching
Yet you delve into it anyway

I've heard you're not the type to share
And there's the fact we've never met
This could lead us to despair
But we don't talk about that yet

And I know that you're able
It's just a walk through the park
I didn't work so hard to get here
Just to see your face light up in sparks

I'm all over you
You know that it's true

Writing it down in your head
You asked me how much it meant, to you
I said I didn't know, I said I didn't know
I didn't know that it was true

Track Name: SSRIracha

I know I’ve got to let you go
But babe please stay
The smell of you is on my clothes
The best part is that no one knows

Don’t tell me the truth
Save it for tonight
Come up on the roof
Let’s see what we find

You make me feel so hot inside
My mind’s at ease when you’re in sight
Heading north or heading south
Bring a bottle and ignite my mouth
Just when you think that your life’s on track
You’re at the point where you can’t go back
Crying eyes for a solemn stare
It’s not your life, so why should you care?

I woke up on my bedroom floor
And you’re all at the door
A cocktail of anxieties to abhor
But it doesn’t mean much anymore

Waiting all this time
but I’m not next in line
Keep it on the downlow
Good old Sriracha and Lexapro

You make me feel so hot inside
My mind’s at ease when you’re in sight
Heading north or heading south
Bring a bottle and ignite my mouth
Driving down these streets of tar
Didn’t know that we could take it this far
Choked it down and made my move
Of course it ends the way these usually do

And I know in the end
You were never my friend
But I can’t help but feel
That I know now what’s real
And what’s not.

Track Name: Fifteen Years

Hiding from the side, all my life
Patience
Let go of my friends, they're on their own
Who needs them

Sorrow brother
Straying mother

Shake me to my bones, off the throne
Patience
Take me on my knees, they're on their own
Who needs them

Short of breath
Saving up all your breath
But who's looking at you in the mirror when it's down to sudden death

Waking up just in time
Then stepping back into your mind
Why pretend that you can be useful when you can sit back like it's some kind of crime

Falling apart, you're
Falling apart
But when there's someone at the end of the street that's when you find a new place to start

It's too old
You sold your soul
Leave it all
Move uncontrolled
Turn me back down and I'll go home
Just give me a reason to go home

A white room with a two-inch display
Nothing there but nothing done today
And right as you're starting towards it you hear a sound

And he's waiting at the door
And he says it's time to go
And you reluctantly oblige
But where's it gonna be tonight, way out in space or in the pines

Moving around, then
Falling back down
What do you do when you suddenly find your inner strength is something to hide

It's too old
You sold your soul
Leave it all
Move uncontrolled
Let me back down and I'll go home
As soon as I get out of this chokehold

Track Name: Chaser

Look at those times
We walked the backroads
And then untwine

You thought so rude
Never really on the same side
Held my hand

I'm fighting life
Please come inside
I've got my hand on a radio
So come and play old

I write it down
And try to retain the static
We never found

Now I regress
It's a shame you really lead me down
My minds a mess

I'm fighting life
Please come inside
I've got my hand on a radio
So come and play old

I'm fighting life
Please come inside
I've got my hand on a radio
So come and play old

Track Name: High Class Heels

I remember it like it was yesterday
Ooh do you feel the change
Standing on the bathroom floor in your high class heels
Ooh baby tell me how do you feel

Fragrant rum was in the air
On your clothes and on your hair
All your friends were down the hall
But they didn't seem to care at all

To clear my name, just to ease the pain of you calling
To clean the stain, and feel my shame I'm crawling
To clear my name, just to ease the pain of you calling
To clean the stain, and feel my shame I'm crawling

Your high class heels don't fit just right
Prolonging days for an ounce of life
Now you're washed up and out of luck
I think you and yours have had enough

To clear my name, just to ease the pain of you calling
To clean the stain, and feel my shame I'm crawling
To clear my name, just to ease the pain of you calling
To clean the stain, and feel my shame I'm crawling

Track Name: Decorate Life

Decoration of my life
You really know how to glow
She's sitting here now wondering how
You got so left alone

And I really don't know
Delinquency's grown

Recognition of my old past
In the eyes of the reasons why
Sporting figures around my chest
In a time when it flew by

I'm out of the water
Thrive with affliction
Your sons and daughters
I'm gonna show you the way

Decoration of my life
You've slipped to be unknown
Wiping my brow and wandering down
Misunderstanding roads

And I really don't know
You've gotten so old

I'm out of the water
Thrive with affliction
Your sons and daughters
I'm gonna show you the way

So long reputation
I dance with the devil
Soul made of metal
I got a heart made of glass

Track Name: Green Mask

Locked in the confines of my own unconscious
Saw myself throw away the key
There's a side of me that wants to stay here forever
But there's no doubt I want to be free
And the people around me are twisted and clueless
'cause I'm looking green, but feeling blue

I try to face them but they keep looking past me
Puts my mind beyond belief
You talk to me as if I was a nobody
But our memories will cease to speak
And my deep cloud of visions won't show me the future
Leaves my past without a clue

Recurring actions proved to be unfaithful
They taught me just how to free
Turn off the clocks counting the mental betrayal
Let my mind begin to speak
Show me the way now, I'm losing connection
And I won't stand on the blue

She wanders, knowing what she's done
I wander, regretting all my fun

And yet I know how this has begun
And I won't show until I'm sure I've won
And past unknowns are the only one

Track Name: Blown Out

Simon dying
In the heat of the shade
While I'm out here rhyming
Another lazy day

And I know it's not for fun
He's making moves but he's on the run
Nothing subjective on his tongue
But he's older now

Undetected he writes in
For the daily wage
Yet wine and visine
Get him through a world of gray

And I know it's not for fun
He's making moves but he's on the run
Nothing subjective on his tongue
But he's older now

Track Name: Anvil

Yes I know, that my life is very strange
And these skeptics that I've known will never change
Know my accounts my name my place please understand
The nature of my youth you'll cease to reprimand

Are you the real me?
My blood is running cold
Abandon this remedy
Don't trap me or I'll break open

I'll whisper in your ear
And you'll kick me to the ground
Something you'd never fear
As you're flying upside down

You move along in life I wait for your reply
I try to fish with words but end up in the fly
With all my undone schemes you've got no alibi
And your detest for grace shines long before my light
You're dying anyway just learn to love your fears
Just give me strength to find as I move on in years

Are you the real me?
My blood is running cold
Abandon this remedy
Don't trap me or I'll break open

The thought of what was dear
You told me was a crown
But cast in blood and tears
I'm alive and sorrows drown