Please Help

by LK ()

Dearest Lord;
I come to you as a sinner. I come to you begging for help. You keep on bringing me opportunities to get out of my abusive relationship and yet, I am still with him. Why? I am afraid–I am afraid of what he will do to me, what he will do to my children, my reputation… Last week I had the opportunity to get out of the relationship and unfortunately, I was too weak to leave – I had one more week of work left. I have evil thoughts every day and I wish you would just put me on the right path. There are so many things that I need to confess and ask forgiveness for and some of those things I know are the reason my relationship with A is the way it is. I honestly wonder how our relationship would be if it didn’t have to endure all of the things I have brought to it. I really wish I could get the chance to find out. I have nothing left in me – My head tells me that there is no hope, but, my heart tells me that the Lord will intervene even if it is at the very last moment. Please help me. Please forgive me and please let me have love – true, kind and unconditional love.