Romantic ramblings of an irrational teenager

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You’ve been so open to me all my life. You make yourself available constantly. Even on my worst nights, on the nights when I curse the moon and stars, you don’t abandon me.

But Lord, I cannot keep pretending that I love you. When hugging and holding are so important to me, it’s hard to feel close to you. I need to feel your arm around me when I cry, your high-five when I finish a hard school day, your embrace whenever I feel empty. The physical divide between heaven and earth just breaks my heart. How can I show you my love when you’re not there to receive my hugs? How can I pretend that you satisfy me when you can’t give me the kind of attention I long for and require?