Wednesday, January 16, 2008

oh my god! Apple comes out new tech again. this time, i really like this new notebook "MacBook Air"

it's so thin. so light. such a big screen (13.3 inch), LED screen, cool match color with silver and black. it's so cool!!!

i fall in love with this new product at the moment i see it. such a beautiful machine!

it's definitely suit light user like me. i can even bring it along anywhere i go, go shopping, go cafe and go online anytime as well. put in my laundry bag(the big denim bag i carry everywhere i go,almost everywhere i go) or Celia called it as "rubbish bag" and i will not feel the weight of it.

such a advance creative stuff and i absolutely love this!! it suits me so much just the price will not suit me at all =( Apple is selling USD1799 for this. can you imaging how much they will charge it here??

i can not afford it =(

anyone thinking of my birthday present 5 months later?? take this into consideration okay? i m sure MacBook Air already out in Malaysia market by then.. hehe..

"MacBook Air is ultrathin, ultraportable, and ultra unlike anything else. But you don’t lose inches and pounds overnight. It’s the result of rethinking conventions. Of multiple wireless innovations. And of breakthrough design. With MacBook Air, mobile computing suddenly has a new standard. " from Apple.com

Sunday, January 13, 2008

i lose a friend, somewhat. what i mean somewhat because this guy still alive, not a dead one. i lose him because he is not he anymore.

you feel sad when you lose something, do not even talk about a human being. in case, disappointment is more than sad. he is still alive. i will be more sad if he is dead. so no sad for this cases so he is alive =p

love is wonderful.being in relationship with love is absolutely wonderful. this i totally agree.

i first felt happy for this friend as he finally found his love after years of searching. it is so great if someone you care with someone he cares and someone who cares about him. this is beautiful, no doubt. the next minutes, i find out this friend has become someone else for what happen to him and what he does. a person that i do not know anymore. and, i question myself if i am the one who change or he is the one who change. very obvious, i am not in for this case.

i am so disappointed. because he has lost himself. and, people change, all the time, for the good one and for the bad one. this depend.

before, he is someone i feel secure with, someone i can trust and someone i can share with. i told him quite a number of stuff that i do not tell anybody else(maybe with ah boon). he is this kind of friend. here, i do not criticize that relationship kills a person. this is more like individual cases. relationship will not kill you if you stand for you who are. see, who has strong core characters will not change because of relationship or what who are mature enough not to change for who he is except for habits, like bring along partners when out for yumcha or spending more time with partner at home or outside. that 's about it. and for sake, do not lost own self. however, most people do change for a narrow one, sad to say so.

now, i do not think that i will disturb him anymore. still friend of course but not someone that i feel secure with anymore =(

friends come and go. friends play important role in life, this is something that we all know. we all need friends for reasons. i believe that when life cycle goes, friends will change, come and go, come and go.

hope that the girl will not screw him up. even so, nothing i can do. this is a lesson. life lesson we all need to go through.

good luck! as long as he is happy. still he has my blessed, deep down in my heart.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

i have been bothered with this stupid question the whole evening. yes, it is absolutely stupid to keep mingling with this in my mind. we all know, there will be no answer. i do not take into consideration for any religion stories here.

in malaysia, malay have to be in islam(i m sorry, malays do not have a choice to choose, born to be). chinese and indians always have more choices to choose. i, as a chinese, can either be into taism or buddhism if i do not choose any other religions.

this is confusing for definition of death for both taoism and buddhism. one believes to go UP and one can go DOWN. Up means in Nirvana(heaven)(i do not mean Nirvana S/B here okay. no offence at all); down means Hell.

if you are in buddhism, with your karma, you will be with Buddha at Nirvana. then you will be another Buddhas, REBORN with your spirit and never ever will physically alive again.

if you believe in taism style, with your karma, you will be in either Heaven, Human Life, Asura, Hungry Ghost, Animals, Hell and reborn.

so what if we stuck in the middle and where will we be?? where will we be?? do our altars offered with flowers and fruits or with joss stick and hell bank notes??where our souls will be? how funny it will be for my family has to trouble for what to offer to my soul when i am not alive..

Monday, January 7, 2008

on and of, I'll hide myself. hiding does not mean i will find a place and hide. or i would say "missing-in-action".

people who knows me will understand that i am positive outer and negative inner. i do not think same as what my face tells you. i always surprised people with how i think,normally it's always the bad side. i am not a very knowledgeable girl. i do not impress people when i talk. it's absolute normal if you find my conversation to be empty and plain.

sometimes, people like me, always got depressed by something easily. it can be a song, a movie, a picture even a number, anything ridiculous things you can name. basically, nobody can help. recovery takes times and/or money. some serious who need to talk to doctor. a doctor can listen to you and give you medicine, what we so called "psychologist"; some not serious(like me)just look for our own ways to release. each individuals has their own way.

for me, there will be no certain way. i can be at home do nothing or do anything. i can go out to buy stuff (buying philosophy works sometimes). i can go to Starbucks/coffee beans order a hot latte and read book or play psp(not mine. borrow one) and lazy the whole evening. the worst, I'll workout and cry myself to sleep. when my body is freaking tired, it's absolutely easy to cry to sleep.

i do not know how to encourage a friend who is in depression now. it's absolutely too personal to ask for anything.(by the way, i do not ask and i do not expect people to ask too. I'll tell when i want to) there is no right way to say anything. still, i wanna him to know, we are just a call away. it's okay for what you are right now as long as this made you feel alive. laugh when you want to laugh, cry when you want to cry, hide when you want to hide.

when emotion over mind, it's just too much to say anything.

we lose our mind too, sometimes.

we do not need words to get well by. it's too far way for what words can easily do.

p/s: pardon me for all the missed called and no reply msg when I'm lost.

Thursday, January 3, 2008

first song, quite meaningful as it tells me i can be stronger and be myself..second song, trix told me she thinks of me when she listens to this song.. (i know why..)

seriously, i know you guys just worry about me, for me being too negative and be blinded.. well, like trix said so i can be more wiser in relationship. every relationship makes me stronger, this i confirm.

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

for some stupid reasons, i blamed ppl for not a valid reason and/or evidence. i jumped into conclusion without even think. when you got pissed, you will find all the reasons to make you yourself feel better. haha.. this what i did yesterday night when i could not find my bowl. my bowl = a bowl belongs to me myself. it is okay for him or for her to use it. but remember to put it back after use right. do not put it back never mind, still ask me for bowl. = . = ! he knew i was damn pissed at the moment i could not find my bowl and i knew there is no reason to misplace my bowl(because i seldom use it and im sure the bowl was in the cupboard last week when i cooked). just so so coincidence that she moved out this week. what lah? do not expect me to put a straight face and do not expect me to say something good okay. it is a cheap bowl. so what? this doesnt mean ppl will not take your cheapo stuff right? so what happened was i thought she took it when she moved out.

oh okay. fine. it is my fault to jump into conclusion too fast without searching for any proof. luckily he found my bowl and returned to me.. anyway, i cursed the one who took my bowl.. so ..

for this craving, i suggested to go korean bbq today with my coworkers. uncle lim always brings us out for food. he brought us to this Nak Wok at korean village(ampang). just that, this korean bbq restaurant does not serve the favoured tea(some sort of grain tea).very full for lunch..

i had korean bbq again for dinner!!

1 day 2 meals 2 korean bbq.. haha..

tomorrow.. i wanna go for fruit diet.. i wanna go to buy fruits and only eat fruits..

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

happy 2008! being the first day of 2008, just cheer for a good year ahead!

this year, oh last year actually. i had a quiet and peaceful evening on both christmas eve and new year eve. i basically rot at home. did nothing and just watched dvd. a very different way for me. the quiet moments calm me. hope you guys had a great evening.

pardon me for all the missed calls and no reply msg. thanks for your greetings. when i write it here, it will remain =)

happy 2008! being the first day of 2008, just cheer for a good year ahead!

this year, oh last year actually. i had a quiet and peaceful evening on both christmas eve and new year eve. i basically rot at home. did nothing and just watched dvd. a very different way for me. the quiet moments calm me. hope you guys had a great evening.

pardon me for all the missed calls and no reply msg. thanks for your greetings. when i write it here, it will remain =)