Wednesday, March 01, 2006

I'm feeling cranky, so I probably should just step away from the computer...

I promised not to post anymore about my medical ups and downs, but that is hard to do when it is ruling your life. I'll give out the short version. I ran yesterday, felt pretty good. Nice easy run, didn't feel sick, a good solid run. Later in the morning, phone consult with surgeon. Prescribes some medicine for the stomach. Pharmacist is surprised and questions me about it. How am I supposed to know why the doc picked that medicine over another? I try it yesterday, and actually feel a little worse on it - and it has to be taken two hours after you eat, then you can't eat for an hour after you take it. Having my stomach that empty really makes me feel sick, then of course eating makes me sick, so now I feel bad even longer. Take it this morning before going out for a run (my last food or drink was at 9:00 last night, this doesn't seem like a good idea, but I've got to do it to follow the schedule). Let me just say, bad idea, bad run, really sick. I'm taking myself off the medicine till I see my family doctor tomorrow.

I am so ready to be done with this. I did talk the surgeon into ordering another HIDA scan - that's set up for the week after next. If it comes out the same as the last, then off to surgery we go. I'm ready. Oh, and when radiology called to schedule the test, they questioned me too. Why are you having another test? You just had one. Yes, I know that! I'm beginning to feel like I need a second opinion, soI'm also going to ask the family doc about getting another surgeon to look at the first test and see if the response is the same. Having thought about it all weekend, I am just plain old ready to move on and get this done so I can feel normal again! I don't want to hang around another month waiting it out.

Okay, I'm done. Sorry for the cranky post. (One more thing, Eric probably should be nominated for sainthood!)

Edited to add:After I wrote the grouchy post above, I went to work. As some of you know, I am the parent educator at a cooperative preschool. Today was one of my observation days. I pushed and pulled and rolled green playdough, I dribbled watercolors on lace doilies, I admired shakers made of cookie tins and macaroni, I watched three boys create an RV out of a large wooden truck and doll house furniture. I played outside, I listened to a story about a very messy room, and I sang and danced with cookie-tin-macaroni shakers. I came home in a good mood. There is simply no way to spend a morning with a class of moving and shaking four and five year olds and not come home feeling better. Next time you are feeling grumpy, find a preschooler to watch - or better yet, to talk to. You'll get a whole new perspective on life.