I Hurt Myself Today…

No, it’s not what you’re probably thinking…

I hurt myself todayTo see if I still feelI focus on the painThe only thing that’s real

— Johnny Cash

For some reason, this song (which happens to be one of my favorites of all time) just feels really apropos here.

I totally let myself get worked up over something that really isn’t a big deal. I had a meltdown. I cried just enough to make it hard to sleep (not that I generally sleep at “normal” times, anyway). You know the feeling, dull headache and burning eyes to match. And for WHAT?

A small but necessary change in my schedule gave me a mental nuclear meltdown. The thing I got upset about even feels dumb to me in retrospect (which, I’m sure, is going to be a topic of conversation with my therapist this afternoon).