Friday, January 28, 2011

Okay so I really SHOULDN'T be blogging,
but I can't resist! yesterday someone called me "Osaka". Which, funny
thing, is from when I was in a musical back in the day. I was "Goddes of
the earth" :) It was a lead part, I loved it! Lots of cute boys brought me
flowers and loved my show, they came to watch it over and over, I can even
recall one of them {Jason. B} bringing a video camera, somewhere, somewhere
he's got my performance on tape! Haha!

Anywho,
I sat next to Diedra and Bryan at statistics and it was a blast! i LOVE my
friends :) Wyatt and I are going to try going rock climbing today, good luck
right? I was thinking about how petrified I was last time I went! I hope it
will be fun though, I think Wyatt & I can make fun of any situation if our
relationship is on the up and up.

So to
give you some laughs, if you ever read this blog, I stole this off of
wadeup.blogspot.com just some things he had taken note of when he was taking a
dump at a local bathroom :) some writing on the wall, I think it's hilarious!

*"Make love, not war."

Response: "Heck, do both: get
married!" (I obviously sighted this one in Utah! "Heck!")

Thursday, January 27, 2011

So, nothing too exciting has happened
these past couple of days, besides me waisting my time reading blogs, sleeping,
and watching TV. Really, I NEED to get my act together! And yet here I am
updating my blog. I just feel l like I Haven't done it in so long... so long I
feel like I needed to updated so I wouldn't completely loose sight about what's
happening in my life. Well I have had a couple of ups and downs in life since
my last post. Wyatt and I went to our new ward and It's pretty much AWESOME,
hooray for young married wards! However, it's HUGE and the women there are all
really pretty and seem to dress in expensive apparel, but I think overall it
should be a fun ward to be in.

Wyatt and I walked to church, which I loved
because we get to spend that little extra time together and we found each
others company pleasant. Uhm... I spotted out a lady on the bus i ride in the
morning who seems to get off at a buss stop and then wait for another bus to
pick her up (she gets off the 832 and waits for the 831) Anywho, she has no
gloves! or a scarf or anything! so I figured this would be a great opportunity
for me to become "cool" again. So, I decided that I would by that
woman a pair of gloves, as it would turn out I had a scarf that matched the
gloves I bought and my mom had made me some ear muffs (headband thing) that
matched so i gave her the complete gift! I felt an overwhelming sense of
self-esteem and I just felt good about what I had done! {I saw her wearing the
gloves today on the bus and It made me SO happy!}.

Another nice thing I felt was, I saw Linda
Flores, and talked to her for a bit, I mostly felt like i was just venting, but
it later turned out that something I said was something she really needed and
it made her feel closer to the spirit, so that made me feel great as well. Uhm Wyatt
and I have had our fights but overall I think it will work out just fine. It
seems like trevor + andi are going to buy a house and it is gorgeous! it will
be perfect for them!

Wyatt & I are planning a "Nacho
Libre" party and I've invited who knows how many people to it, I have no
idea if anyone will even show up... seeing as how i didn't write the address
down on any of the invites! But hopefully it should be fun, eh? One thing is
for sure, if no one shows up I'll at least have Wyatt there to celebrate with.
Speaking of which, we participated in this marital stud it took about two
hours, but they gave us cash. Wahoo! They put these weird sensor things on my
head and it felt crazy weird and it got my hair all wet! then we talked about a
time where we felt "connected" In marriage. Then afterwards I stared
at a computer screen for what seemed like an eternity and tried to identify
what way a small arrow in the middle of the screen was facing... Then I had to
listen to a voice say some numbers and I had to try and add the numbers he was
saying, it was bizzare, but we got our 30$ so were pretty happy.

Wyatt and Trevor got to go to the sandiego
game last night, I was pretty for wyatt. Apparently it was NUTs Jimmer Fredette
is now the apparent God of Basketball, and he's cute too. I am pretty sure that
is about it for things I have to say... bye!

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Whoa! It is burning up at the Anthony home. Last
night we had an EPIC battle, I mean we were throwing clothes at each other (okay so mostly I did the throwing of clothes)
It was nuts! I mean it was CRAZY I look back on our fight and i wonder how none
of us were physically injured!

I was reading my friend's Karen's blog. It seems
like her marriage is way to good to be true but who knows maybe they are just
that happy together... maybe? Anyways they both seem so happy together and it
seems like they never fight! He always seems to be doing nice things for her
and vice versa. I don't understand why my marriage can't be like that. I think
were both poor married people, students and young. Whats missing?

So today I was doing some soul searching while
doing my assignment for family law, and it hit me! I'm emotional abusive!!!
Well, not always, but looking back at our fight I said and did some REALLY rude
things! I feel horrible for saying those things to him, I'm almost besides
myself at my surprisingly horrible behavior.... I don't get it... why do we
fight so much?

Then I wondered, are my expectations too high? I
quickly realized that they were! I was in the wrong, well I'm sure we both did
things in the wrong, but really Wyatt has been doing a GREAT job of trying to
be a good husband and i haven't really given him credit for all the amazing
things he had been doing such as... *Telling me I look nice EVERY DAY *Making
my lunch when I can't *doing my laundry *holding me when I cry * cuddling me in
the morning {which I love} *asking me how I am doing {on a regular basis} and
then actually intently listening *working a weekend shift so we could pay for
our bills... How is it that i completely overlooked these things I keep
expecting more and MORE out of him, it's like I never get my fill. I remembered
an assignment that I had done in one of my classes about the miscommunication
between Wyatt and wife. Like, when the husband offers the wife a gift {working
so she can stay home} but she wants a different gift {help me with the kids,
buy me flowers} both of them end up mad! I also read my assignment for my
family law class on emotional abuse, and found to my horror that I am a
monster! Without considering how mean or sharp my words can be to Wyatt. I also
read a type of emotional abuse called "Trivilizing I guess that is when
you make what the other person is doing for the relationship look like less
than what it really is... I do that too. Whoa. I have SO much work to do it's
kind of unbelievable. Hopefully I can get better at this whole MR. and
MRS. thing. Because I have been married for a year and a half now and I am
SO over being dramatic and it fights all the TIME I am
going to see the bishop today, so maybe we can hack out some of the drama in
our marriage so that Wyatt and i can actually be happy and enjoy our marriage.
Cuz I'm done with the fights and my hair is falling out WAY too much...
Hopefully here's to better times, I always thought that marriage would be like
dating except with no limits... I still think it can be like that.We are
planning on having at least 5 good years to ourselves, we have plenty of time
to play, I think.

xoxo Cindita

PS. today's post title was brought to you by Nacho
libre! LOVE that movie, we hare having a nacho party, hopefully it goes well :)
I am also going to attempt to call wyatt "Guero" maybe the name will
stick!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

I know this picture looks silly to you but I love it! I am so done caring with what other
peoplesay or think about me. I think caring about what other people think
about me has gotten me in to a sufficient amount of trouble. I really
want to try being my own person & while being nice to others, I don't want
to let them control my life like I have been letting them for the past 5 years.
This is the closest picture that I could get when I used to be cool and not
because people thought I was but because I knew I was.
This is me! I'm nutz, annoying, and loud. I also have problems spelling!
Anywho, these past couple of days have been kind of nutz. My hair is falling
out because of all the stress I am feeling! all the pressure {in case
you haven't noticed I have discovered the ability to make some words bigger
than others} I have lots of homework and while work isn't necessarily hard it
still takes up time. however I LOVE the people I work with, they have proven to
be amazing friends.

Speaking of friends the Lord
has blessed me with being able to see SO MANY of my friends! I see Matt Wise all
the time, I see Mika every saturday at Fiesta Practice, I also watched
devotional with her and Auna Janice with her today! I am beginning to see my
roommates more, Alyssa also goes to Zumba with me. I have seen Emily Jacobsen,
and so many other people. I feel like God has sent them my way to let me know
that I'm not alone in the world.

Things between Wyatt & I seem like a roller
coster up an down. So I called bishop and requested an interview with him to
help us keep our marriage more on the happy side rather than the sad side. Last
night I kind of broke down in tears because I was looking
through our special box and I realized that it had been a LONG time since we
had been happy together like maybe we were for an entire month, sad I know. But
I was thinking today and we can still have fun together and fall in love again, I
don't think we are completely lost! So i talked to Wyatt about doing fun things
like we used to. Things that would help us enjoy each others company again.
hopefully with some ideas we can have
that spark in our marriage again. Here is hoping for the best!

xoxo

Cindita

PS. Today's Post title was brought to you by anonymous!
He had cheated {a little} on a test and he seemed anxious about it. So I asked
him, do you feel guilty about cheating? He replied... "No way! I did what
I needed & wanted to do! I just don't want to get caught!" Godly
sorrow for you :)

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