Tired and Utterly Lost

A Reflection on the Current Political Situation and/or my Mental State

Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the lord my soul to keep guard and guide me through the night and wake me up at-- wait I can’t see the light Blinded by all this white

My skin peels back to reveal the chalk beneath When touched by black, they snap and I cough on their dust That fills the air like needless tear gas

Dark knuckles rap against my skull Knock and it shall be opened to you But the banging only resonates Floating through hollow space

Come, all who are thirsty And drink from the water Polluted by corporate greed Oil slicks and conspiracy Defend the sacred money

Whatever you do, work hardily for the Lord and not for men So the sores on my feet are payment to them I haven’t slept in four days but I owe four Ks to the institution funding my deprivation fall asleep with head on desk Maybe if they hold in all their breathe They can fit through the eye of the needle

No Greek nor jew, no slave nor free You are slave only to what you can’t see There is no male or female, for you are all one But guys just wanna have their fun In locker rooms painted black with blood Go ahead and grab me Then silence my voice with your candidacy

Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain My eyes shatter with reflected pain Brittle exhaustion twists my gut Finger down my throat, I cough it all up Rejecting nourishment, acceptance, and fetus

Judge not that you may not be-- Wait where were we? Oh right racism, homophobia, and misogyny Sorry I couldn’t hear me speak Over the sound of you interrupting

Love they enemy as thyself, though It’s not love that makes sand glow You must increase and I must decrease Unless you’re anything different from me No immigration in this god-forsaken country

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