Heaven may be hidden in the clouds, but I see it every day, just by being with you.

Feeling really terrible , coughing non-stop until i lost my voice .damn!I miss going out , i miss boyfriend so much :(& i still wanna watch his bball match .hope i recovers before sat , haha !

So anws , woke up at 7:30am and head to clinic with my parents.felt alright all the while & suddenly i almost black out in the clinic , super sudden.nurse immediately brought the wheelchair for me .. & check my blood pressure.i got low blood pressure -.-my fever increase despite eating sooo much medicine .they brought me into a room so that i can rest there while a doc came to take my blood test .hate it man .now i have 2 plaster on my arm .. tmr there gonna be a third one.

Anyways , i got dengue fever which currently have no medicine to cure.(why did i even bother to see a doctor then .)and it got worse cause i'm also suffering from anorexia hence i do not have enough platelets(white blood cells) to fight against the bacteria ..Normal healthy humans' platelets should be 170 ++Ytd's my platelets was 110 & today decrease to 76 .the doctor said if it decreases to 50 and below .. they would be worry & i would be asked to stay in hospital for observation.but i told my mum that i will never stay in hospital because like the doctor said .. there isnt a cure right now..i will only be asked to drink more water & eat normal medicines everyday .why waste my time to stay in hospital -.-hahaha !

the weirdest thing was that i'm not skinny enough to be consider an anorexia loh!!is like i still have not reach my ideal weight??& anorexia are people who are EXTREMELY underweight okay ..Am i extremely underweight?? NOOOO , i'm not even close .i'm like 49-50kg .. how is it even possible.shags ~the doctor wanted to put me under psychologist which i immediately decline !i'm not going to some stupid brainwash thing when i dont even feel i'm suffering from anorexia can .told the doctor i can handle myself and i would just come back for another blood test ..

Oh wells , i just can wait to go out again . i feel soo lifeless now -.- sleeping almost everyday ..eating medicine every 6hr .. going back to clinic for blood test & checking my blood pressure.omg! i feel like i'm rly a patient la.tsk !!& i'm so gonna get fired from my work.

Am waiting for boyfriend to reach home from his match & give me a call ..miss him so much.stay tune (: