In a sad way Raepdog misses you... Oh gay friend.. oh I love the gays..

Essentially, I did it because I’ve got no motivation to do most things. Sure, I’ll wake up and get dressed, go to school, etc. But I’m not getting things I want done. I’m losing the joy I get from things I used to enjoy, including FW. Because of the no-motivation, I see myself not being able to hold onto a job and then eventually ending up homeless.

This also leads into my mentality of, “I’m a useless burden, I shouldn’t be wasting people’s stuff. Since I can’t get anywhere, I’m just hurting them.”

When I took the pills, I initially thought everyone would be better off in the long run. But when I got so many people’s replies (IRL replies), I realize I’d just be harming them.

TLDR; I’m still miserable, but I’m not going to try to do it again, because that’d hurt them.