The following is a personal and private e-mail that Sosbee sent to a supporter on March 21, 2002 . The message is printed here for the record:

Thank you for your question. I have no way of knowing how many others are in this situation. I suspect that no one else is in the exact same dire nightmarish existence that I face on a continual basis daily. Indeed, I may be the only former fbi agent (or cia agent) in history to be so aggressively retaliated against for my taking well-documented reports of fbi/cia fraud, corruption and treasonous conduct directly to Congress, the United States Supreme Court, the People of the United States, and now the People of the world. My reports are corroborated with compelling evidence (inside the fbi) which cannot be dealt with honestly by these two agencies; therefore their agents, operatives, thugs and assassins must silence me. I know of no other fbi agent who has survived terrorist assaults as I have (for 4 years) with such a monumental case against the fbi/cia. I am not proud of my efforts to destroy the fbi/cia for their murderous ways; this is my duty and I am saddened by the prospect that I must now show the world that my country is a fiendish fraud, both on the world at large and on Humanity for allowing the fbi/cia to continue their *atrocities. I plan to live for many years, even while the fbi and the cia continue their assaults and mind games against me. Someday, the record that I now present will be eagerly accepted by a nation and a world that must inevitably come to grips with the fundamental issues associated with governmental corruption and human suffering. I will probably not be around to witness such an awakening, but I know that such a phenomenon will occur and I trust that the world and its inhabitants will be the better for such a re-engineering of civilization that I envision. Of course all of this speculation assumes that the world will survive long enough to come to its senses. I give credit to others alive today who also live with similar terrorist retaliation by the fbi/cia; indeed, I draw some of my strength from their warm assistance and reassurance. Again, thank you for your astute interest in this matter and for your occasional queries of my humble opinion. Geral

21 Apr 2004 @ 14:35 by vaxen : deep blackwell, you do know, at least, that there are 'others' who, though not in the exact same circumstances as you are, are nontheless aware.

you are not alone in your fight, either, though i am sure you must feel totally alone at times. that is the plan, after all, to relegate all whistle blowers to the dung heap of existence denying them the basic comforts of 'contact' with others of sane and like mind. 'shunning' is a most effective tool with which to bring the 'outcastes' back to the fold and/or 'silence' them.

you know that i, for one, am overjoyed that you are here at NCN and that you have a relatively 'safe' place here from which to garner a support base. i worked 'deep black' for many years and should have died a long time ago. fortunately the deeper you go, the more you find out about what is really going on, the closer you come to those forces which are inimical to the present charade.

my earnest prayer and my deepest hope is that you will somehow find the strength and courage to continue on in your battle which is really not just 'your' battle. remember brother jonathan. we will turn the tide brother. we will!

21 Apr 2004 @ 18:59 by sharie : Yes many people know about the FBIand the CIA, and how corrupt they are.

It's been going on for decades, and many, many people are aware that they are essentially a mafia.

The lower and middle management and agents of both agencies think they are working for patriotic/american agencies whose intentions are good for the public, so they're not aware of what goes on with the upper eschelons and the other factions of the agencies. So these good agents present a good face at their churches, with their church-going wives and all (believe me, I have known people who are a part of this charade). But so many, many people know what these agencies are really up to, so don't think we've all been duped. The crimes, the military take-overs, the economic exploitations of third world countries, of forced labor, drug trafficking... we know.

23 Apr 2004 @ 04:38 by ashanti : Msg removed and sent privatelyDear Geral, I wrote a long and heartfelt message to your Log. After leaving it for a day, I felt very uncomfortable about it being there - NCN is a good place, but it is not the sort of place I feel comfortable about baring my soul like that. For me, NCN is not a "safe" place at all. But it *is* the best place on the Net to Blog. So I have deleted my comment, and sent it to you privately. I know you will understand.

With love,
Ashanti.

23 Apr 2004 @ 05:10 by jmarc : they are essentially a mafia.Right on Sharie, and in some cases they ARE the mafia. Try googling whitey bulger and the winter hill mob and learn about how the fbi supported one of this country's deadliest mobsters for more than a decade. Now he's on the most wanted list,but don't count on him being captured.

23 Apr 2004 @ 20:29 by nemue : There Are More Aware Than People ThinkMore and more of the deception is becoming known and people prompted to think rather than to accept without question. We need to encourage more thought and messages such as yours do that. Would you mind if I shared your message with people I trust on another web forum? You are not alone.