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Being Left Behind: A Personal Story

Today I am going to get a little personal. (Okay maybe a lot personal so bear with me)

I feel like this is a situation that a lot of people can relate to, so I wanted to share my story and talk about how I am dealing with it.

So today I am talking about being left behind by people you considered to be your friends.

Since I was a kid as young as 6, I have been ignored by people I thought were my best friends. I have had friend after friend move on from our friendship for pretty much my entire life.

It didn’t really bother me as much when I was a kid. I just thought it was what happened, as you got older. And maybe back then it was. But once I hit high school, I started to think that maybe there was another reason.

When I hit high school, I had two main best friends, and they were people that I have been friends with for years. But one day, a new girl came around. And she started inviting my two friends everywhere, but left me out. I spent every weekend of my sophomore year by myself, because my two closest friends already had friends with someone else. When I finally got the courage to talk to them about it, they said they were sorry and would change, but not much changed right away.

And while I am still friends with them, there are times when I know I am not being invited out, because they are hanging with the other girl.

More recently, I thought I found friends, real friends who wouldn’t ignore me or leave me behind. And they were great friends. We all got along and always had a blast together. But I guess that wasn’t really the case. Everything was going great until we met up with a couple of other girls. And while they were very nice and fun to hang out with, I eventually got left behind in the group.

I never really understood why people who I claimed to be best friends with were leaving me behind. And since most of the instances would happen suddenly, it made my anxiety a lot worse than it was.

I thought I finally had my anxiety under control in the winter of 2013. However, after being left behind again, it came back full force. I couldn’t sleep, I didn’t want to be on any type of social media and I really didn’t want to use my phone. All I would see were people who I thought cared about me, ignoring me and communicating with those people they found more exciting.

Now almost a year later, I am finally coming to terms with all of this. And I am finally starting to get my anxiety back on track. I realized that I don’t need people who can’t be there for me in a time of need in my life. And as much as it sucks, leaving the past in the past is the best way to go.

I know I’m probably not the only one going through this, so I’ll end this piece with some advice. There is nothing wrong with you. If they can’t see how amazing you are, then you don’t need them in your life. So smile and move on, and you’ll be much happier.