Saturday, September 30, 2006

alot of stuff. not so much time. im spending saturday in the house willingly.time to make sense - thats how the end of the month comes together. so happy project runway is having a marathon. i get to catch up!

Thursday, September 28, 2006

i am here. in manchester, england. the trip was a brief one, and i just left the beautiful flat they set me up in to wait at the coach station so i could finally check email. over one hundred and something of those suckas! damn

i havent been on myspace in days, yes. i am having an allergic reaction! so what?

and i miss home. i think i will try to bake a cake for the upcoming birthdays. the baby and his are days apart. they are so much alike, its freaky. but i would never say a word :)

writing is slow. so slow that i forgot i was still a writer. so i guess the performance for speakeasy/cw was much needed. something nathan p said when i took over hosting was "stay in touch with the performer in you" and when you are hosting - it's hard to think about what poem to do, because you are worried of everyone else'se time limits 'n tings...

so it was good. to be an artist again. must remember to get that equilibriam thing back on track. performer, writer, host, owner, mother. too much on most days. but damn, the journey feels good so far.

and i was commissioned to write some love poems for an anthology here. that's exciting! and i mean hey -- i know about love, don't i?

and it gets my juices flowing. really it does. so now i want to figure out some topics to keep those juices motivated. any ideas?

Friday, September 22, 2006

finally got the website issues under handles, meetings - both promising - completed. and then i wake up to take amari to school and that incredibly loud ticking coming out of my car - has grown into a molestation of passerbyers ears. i cant even turn up my radio loud enough - it sneaks thru the space by the pedals! so i finally drop amari off, trying not to make her look too bad with the hooptie noise following her thru the cafeteria and make my way to the repair shop by my crib.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

though i have not forgiven you - i wish you all the best.i can succeed. it is within my reach. i believe in me.if i could fall into your arms everyday, i would.there are not enough days to keep you small enough for me to hold closer than my own breath.i feel bad for vivica fox (though she is dancing the hell outta this fox trot!). she went from movie screens to lifetime tv to reality tv. but then hey - as long as she got rid of FIDDY she aint that bad, after all.i like you listening. and i love when you think im not listening. im sorry if you think i'm an ass. i love you. i love me.

Monday, September 11, 2006

Sunday, September 10, 2006

there was a brief moment therei almost allowed my shine to be stolenplaced in his pocket like a businesscard/and after i remembered how much was accomplished in life in breathing in spacei smiled it off/which was hard for me causeim all about telling you how it is. butthese days: im an adult. a grown woman.and i don't have time to make you see whati see -- even if it's correct. we all makeour own choices. and if your choice is to become asshole - i welcome you to be the bestasshole you can be :)

seriously, i am happy. no one can steal myshadow and sunshine. im uninterested in mostthings. if its not about progress -- good luckbut i dont want whatcha selling! to date: i am very proud of my friends. they have allowed me growth and silence and spurts and throat ticklinglaughter. they are beautiful. so here is a homage of them. dasha you are brilliant, tee you areon thecusp of something beautiful - i know you can feel it, kim find more moments for seeing the golden, ipromise you - you are worth it, erika - my sis, yourhappiness is all that matters. congrats on the engagement...

Friday, September 08, 2006

talked to a friend today. she made me feel happy for making her happy without trying. does that make me vain? worked non-stop for 3 hours. booked shows til march, recorded isbn numbers and bar codes. how much should my new book sale for? was that a run on sentence? im always thinking like this. he is great. he held my pants so tight i thought the wedgie would split me in half. atleast i knew i wouldnt fall while rolling on 8's. i just found out about his passing. all our love is in texas. im happy. no, really happy. im happy about life. and what's next to come. soul salsa revisted. must make sure reggie is cool with that. taalam's album came out. im on it. so excited to hear what it sounds like. me and tech should get together soon. another track to record while i write up a masterpiece for him. that might be considered too much, but i think i like that more than not. amari is in the greatest class ever! i love life. i love you back. are you ok with that?