“I blame the doctors for my being an addict,” the mom of three says, adding that the doctors never educated her about the drugs she was taking. “I was prescribed all these pain medicines, Vicodin, Oxycodone, and I eventually became reliant upon them. I would be physically sick if I didn’t take them.”

Carrie says, however, that there was an upside to the medication; the pills gave her power to become a supermom.

“I had to maintain the big household, do all the chores, all the kid’s activities. I was in the school districts volunteering. The pills would give me a boost, that spunk of energy,” says Carrie, who admits she’s been taking Oxycodone for the last four-and-a-half years. “When I had to get up, drive my daughter to school, I’ve been on pills. When I had late nights doing homework or sport activities or a big dinner, I’ve been on pills. When my children had school events, I would go in the bathroom, take my pills.”

Hear more of Carrie’s story in the video above, including why she says her husband has not supported her. And on Friday’s episode of Dr. Phil, Dr. Phil has some strong words for Carrie. Is she ready to get – and stay – clean? Check here to see where you can watch.