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I had written yesterday that I wanted to start a tradition of writing to our baby every year on October 15th. Unbeknown to me, Tom had already done so. He gave this to me last night when I got home from work. Framed. I read it and cried. It took me a while to read it because I couldn't see ...

I've spent the better part of the last 6 years vacillating between considering trying for a baby again and not trying again. There is so much fear. Fear of losing another baby. Fear that it might break me completely if we lose it again. Fear that I will die. The fear, though, seems secondary to ...

The days that followed the loss of my child are dull, covered in a haze of depression. All I remember is laying on the couch. I don't think I bathed that often. It seemed trivial. Tom went to work. I stayed home, I had to. I was losing tremendous amounts of blood, waiting for my body to dispel ...

I went to work the Monday after the test was positive. A few coworkers I was close with had known my battle with fertility, so I was ecstatic to share the news with them. We decided to go out to lunch to celebrate. Finally, after all this time, I was getting what I wanted... to be a mother.

I'm sure that most of you do not know that today is National Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Day. In 1988, President Ronald Reagan named October as National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month saying, "When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or ...

After I calmed the crying enough to clothe myself, we quickly made our way to the car and onto the hospital. I wept the entire duration of the drive. I don't remember if Tom or I had called all of the family, but one of us did and by the time we arrived there was an entourage of support waiting ...

I remember the day I found out I was pregnant. We had been trying for so long. We'd seen doctors. I'd taken fertility drugs that made me feel something other than myself, but I did it because I wanted a baby. It seemed I was a healthy person overall before the moment I decided to try and get ...