Wednesday, 21 April 2010

well i was on twitter earlier and i saw @SomedayBabyT saying she wanted to start a twitter campaign to get 'infertility' onto the trending topics, i LOVE this idea and im definitely on board !

First of all, twitter is a socialnetwork where you have 140 characters to write to your followers, simple eh ? trending topics are things that people are saying a lot so basically if your on twitter you will have seen Justin Bieber on the trending list, well thats because loads of people have put the words 'Justin Bieber'in their tweets,

we want to do the same thing but with infertility so on April 26th 2010 when it turns midnight in your country/timezone, start putting #infertility at the end of your tweets, remember the hash tag because thats the important part.

If you follow celebrities or famous people, then tweet to them the link to my blog, http://babythornburgh.wordpress.com/ because she has details of the campiagn on her blog as well, hope to see all your tweets and remember to write #infertility at the end of them !!!

Sunday, 18 April 2010

right. yesterday i went to see my doctor, you remember ? the horrible cow who told me it was my own fault?, well i saw her because she was the only one available, I'll call her Dr. R here so i know who i mean. i tried to talk to her about my PCOS and my lack of AF visits. As ususal she just said that not having any wont do me any harm and theres no need to treat it, a couple of ladies said about birth control to regulate them, well she wasnt up for that either, she said the risk of stroke was to high.ridiculous i know but thats all she could say to me.

Then we moved on to weight loss, my dietican had written Dr. R a letter saying that had been no weight loss and that maybe treatment for PCOS may help, well as i said before that didnt work out so well. i tried to talk to her about getting a gastric band. (If you dont know about me wanting a gastric band then click here to read my post about it.) basically, im overweight, very overweight, its not just my health but being the way i am is making me so unhappy. i hate myself, i refuse to look in a bit mirrror.

I tried talking to her about a gastric band but she basically ignored me and changed the subject. im serious about this, and when i see her again 3 weeks i will bring it up again, as well as trying to talk to my dietician about it.

So after all that, she has given me Orlistat 120mg or more commonly known as Alli, click here to read information about Orlistat. basically orlistat blocks about a third of the fat you eat from going into your system and works its way through undigested. you take one 3 times daily with your breakfast lunch and dinner. its not a wonder drug and you still have to diet, no offense to the people who have had good results on it, but i want something permanent, losing weight and then coming off tablets and putting it back on isnt what i want.

So far im on Day 2 of Orlistat and im going to be honest with you all. i hate it, the side effects are awful, i keep feeling sick, bloated and basically crap!! the website link above has a list of side effects that i will put here.

The main side-effects are caused by the fat which is passed out with your faeces. You may get fatty smelly stools, urgency to get to the toilet, oily spotting on your underclothes, and excess wind. These side-effects are less likely if you eat a low-fat diet. They tend to settle with time, possibly because if they occur they remind you that you should be eating a low-fat diet! Other side-effects are rare. (Read the packet leaflet for a full list of possible side-effects.)

now this may sound simple to fix by not eating much fat but it is harder than it sounds, my appetite is a big problem for me, and eating a low fat diet that i enjoy is hard work and im not enjoy it, and even when i eat barely any fat, i still feel sick and bloated. I'm hoping that next time i see Dr. R i'll be able to get off this horrid tablets and get sorted with something that i can actually do.

*everyones entitled to there opinions and i encourage and love all your advice but I'd appreciate it if you would refrain from making the whole fat and lazy comments, im not lazy i am desperate to lose weight but i dont want to feel ill to get there!*

Saturday, 17 April 2010

Well today marks the 100th day in my cycle (CD100), i'm not gonna go into it all now but basically doctor still won't give me treatment for PCOS, not a thing. She says there's no need which I disagree with but that's for another post, but for now this is my very unhappy anniversary. Before I go, I was wondering whether anyone knew any natural ways to try and bring on AF, no point waiting around for my doctor to sort it out !

Wednesday, 14 April 2010

Ok. So today is one of them really crap days, well Im like this all the time but today it has been really bad.

I've always had issues with the way I look (Its a woman thing) but with me being the weight I am, it has gradually got worse. I'm at the point where I can't stand looking at myself in a full lenght mirror. I don't even own one anymore because I despise myself that much. I've been on diet after diet, pills and more pills but nothing works.

Right now I'm considering a gastric band, now I'm 18 it's something I'll be able to have. A few people had said they know people who had it who hate it, but people have also said that they know people who've had it, lost the weight and are happy. I had thought about a gastric bypass, but I wouldn't want that kind of surgery and also gastric bands are reversible if needs be.

I'm seeing my doctor tomorrow, so I'm gonna speak to her and then see how I go from there.

Saturday, 10 April 2010

Wahoooooooo :D I'm 18 today !!!!! i feel pretty old now that im called an adult ! I've had my hair and nails done and im getting ready go partying with some friends and get extremely drunk ! hope you all have a good night, i know im going too !!

Sunday, 4 April 2010

I was Reading through tweets when I came across the debate about the risks of formula feeding and how you HAVE to breastfeed. Now I agree that if you can breastfeed then it's worth doing it, there are many benefits, but I don't agree with people dictating what you have to do to be a good mum. My sister formula fed all 3 of her children. Me and my sister were both formula fed. I also know a lot of mums who have actually CHOSEN to breastfeed. I don't see why this is a problem, yes there are certain downsides to formula feeding but what does it matter ? If you are happy formula feeding then why should it be a problem ? also, what about the mums who actually can't breastfeed. Does that mean you should starve your baby ? No, it doesn't, so as much as this might annoy people, I'm giving my honest opinion. I believe in choice, and how you feed your baby is your decision. When I have children I will try and breastfeed, but that is CHOICE. If I can't breastfeed or decide I don't want too, then I will not feel guilty about it and I hope that any mum reading this ignores those people who tell you to breastfeed and that you get on with your CHOICE and be happy with your baby. :)