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Just like the blistering cold winds and pitch-black skies that accompany winter, my life seems to be in a state of continuous downfall right now. Even as the signs of a spring come up, it seems that there is no light for me at the end of this long tunnel.

I saw this one coming just a few weeks ago. I felt so desolated both inside and out; it seemed that all I wanted to do was to eat, drink, and sleep. I even lost my appetite for a couple of days…

I’m very happy that Kayseri has happened. I thank God that I was able to spend five days with my friends and cherish every single second of it. I thank God that I was able to see people I’ve though I’ll never see again in a long time. And I thank God that we were able to do a lot of amazing things together.

But on the other hand, things are going very awful for me. I’ve just failed my IS100 exemption exam (the first to happen in a long time), I’ve just got a life-changing nightmare (I’ll never relate it to you. Ever.), and I’ve got a lot of hiccups to deal with (Especially with my twisted university life?!)…

There’s something that needs to be healed inside me. The problem is, I don’t know what to do right now (and what needs exactly to be healed). Maybe it’s time to instill a lot of effort and discipline into my life…

It is said that “Great endings always start with terrible beginnings.” I don’t think that’s the exact quote either, but I still believe that despite everything that’s going on, there is still hope. Even if it is a small one.

I don’t want it to happen again. Ever.

And what will I do if ever happens again? Seriously, I don’t know the answer to that.