For those of you who voted for Prop 8 (or any other Prop defining marriage as being between a man and woman) in an effort to support a “traditional marriage” and/or preserve “family values” lets take a moment and look at some things.

While you denied me my right to marry, you allow those heterosexual couples that sexually, mentally, and verbally abuse each other the right to marry.Is that your idea of a traditional marriage or good values or a good environment to raise a child?

While you denied me my right to marry, you allow those men and women with drug problems to marry and raise a family.Is that your idea of family values?

While you denied me my right to marry, you allowed children to languish in a state system because you refuse to allow unmarried people to adopt.Is that your idea of a good personal moral compass?

While you voted yes for Prop 8 you easily took rights away from me and other gay couples.Tell me was it easy for you to check yes?Do you sleep easily at night knowing you marginalize people?I’m guessing you probably do.

Well here is what I think…Any woman that voted for Prop 8 or any definition of marriage being between a man and a woman should have her right to vote taken away from her.It seems only fair considering we celebrated the 88th anniversary of your right to vote.You know the saying “an eye for any eye”…well now it should be a right for a right.

For any man that voted for Prop 8 or any definition of marriage being between a man and a woman you are small minded.Your inability to see past us being gay to realize that we are people just the same as you and deserve the same rights exemplifies just how narrow minded you are.You should have your right to freedom of speech taken away because what you have to say is filled with lies and bigotry.You take away one of my rights I should be allowed to take away one of your rights.

For any mormon that voted for Prop 8 or any definition of marriage being between a man and a woman you pouring 20 million into supporting Prop 8 shows me that you are scared worthless people.Your right to practice your religion freely should be taken away and we should get to persecute you.

For any Senator, State Representative or person holding public office if you state that you want to protect the rights of the gay community but believe marriage is between a man and a woman you make it morally acceptable for people to marginalize us.You lack the ability to stand up for those of us that have been marginalized and we deserve a strong voice in office that will stand up and fight for us and not just for another term in office.

For the members of the gay community that read this…now is the time to be angry.It is time we define ourselves differently.No longer should we be a gay community, we are a community committed to gay rights.We are committed to rights that we deserve and should be willing to have our voices heard for.Now is the time to picket the churches that we go to that depend on our patronage to continue.We shouldn’t give our money to them the same way they won’t give us the right to marry.Now is the time to have open discourse and discussion with those people who don’t believe we should marry and educate them properly.We need to show them that we are not a group of people who deserve to be marginalized.It is time for us to be angry and upset and it is time for us to be heard.

So first off I would like to say that I’ve officially reached 26 today the 5th of November!Yes the most important time in American politics lands right on the eve, or on the day of my birthday.But lets be serious, the American people aren’t really celebrating the election of a new leader for our nation…they are celebrating my…ahem…birth.To continue celebrating my birth…here is a gratuitous man picture…enjoy…it is my gift to you 😉

Now let’s get down to brass tacks my friends.I began my blog several months ago to try and figure out what I lacked and needed to do with my life.While I look back at my posts and recount the many fun times I’ve had I’ve also noticed that I am not really where I wanted to be by the time I turned 26.I thought at this point in my life after being partially out of the closet I’d have significant other.I don’t have a significant other, but I do have someone I full around with pretty consistently…even if he is much older than me.I thought I’d have a job in my field, I don’t, but Does it count if I’ve applied???These two notions make me kind of anxious considering I am closing in on 30.It isn’t that I’m getting older it’s just that I’m not where I thought I’d be in life by 26.I’m at a state of stasis right now…consistent yet happy, but I’m going to need some changes real soon.Okay so enough of this feelings conversation…I hope you all go out and have some good old booze gay man fun to celebrate my introduction to the world!Cheers for now.

So originally when I finished this blog the 2008 election wasn’t over now that it’s over there are a few things I would like to get off my chest.First and for most…shame on you Florida, California, Arizona, and Arkansas…you’ve taken away peoples rights.On what basis did you take these rights away, fear and your religion????This breaks my heart to know that there are people out there that feel the need to marginalize others.That is what they did plain and simple.Secondly, I just want to say that for those of you gay men and women who want to adopt, don’t do it.I hate to say it and it isn’t pretty to say but if people want to deny marriage then why should we help those children that languish in a state system.I’ve talked about this before and I genuinely hate to know that children will suffer from this but why should we gays sink money into state systems that feel the need to deny us our right to marry.I say let the systems fill with children until states realize that these kids could have wonderful loving homes but because of their moral issues they won’t get a home.

I know it crass, mean, and down right deplorable of me to say but why is it that we have to take the moral high road.You know what I’m saying, that voice in your head, your conscious that goes, “you know even though people have taken your right to marry away we should still adopt because there are children that need us…it’s for them.”Screw that I’m over being Mr. Nice Gay.I’m sick and tired about people being so scared of gay marriage.Is it really that crazy or scary that two men and two women love each other and want the sanctity of a marriage to prove their love and devotion to each other?

The other thing that I’m kinda over is people calling us progressive as a nation.Yes we are progressive but I believe we are selectively progressive.Don’t get me wrong I’m enthralled at having Obama as my President.But if we were progressive don’t you think that gay rights would have won.People “selected” not to progress gay rights.We only choose to be progressive when we want to or when the time is right.We tout being progressive but I just think we pick and choose our areas of progression based on how we feel at that time.I mean we chose to progress in some areas of animal rights and abortion.

On a final note I just want to say I hope Obama and Biden stay true to their word protecting what gay rights we have.I have said from the beginning that I was a Clinton supporter, but when she did not get the nod for the presidential position I was left with Obama and McCain…obviously I would not vote for McCain so that left Obama.The hardest thing for me to swallow about Obama was that both he and Biden stood up and said they will protect gay rights but believed that marriage was between a man and a woman.First, I believe marriage is a right that should be given to me…and currently the states show that they don’t believe in that right, secondly, people look to Obama and Biden as not only leaders of our nation but as moral leaders too.When these two men stood up at the debates and said they believed that marriage was between a man and a woman they told people that is okay to give certain rights to gays.They made it okay, they made it comfortable, acceptable, for people to give certain rights to the gays while still holding them an arms length away from total equality.Because of this I came down with the choice of either not voting for Obama or compromising the feelings I have about equality for gays for the greater good.That’s not an easy decision to be asked or to be made.What makes the decision even worse is that Obama is in office and that is great but will he and Biden do anything to help the gays in the state that just had their rights to adoption and marriage taken away from them, or will they just support the rights for gays to visit their loved ones in hospitals etc?I think it is an important question we have to ask ourselves and our new President and our new Vice President.Like I said I’m not bashing Obama and Biden.I am just a concerned, marginalized, second class citizen who has questions and is hoping for change.

Okay now I’m over my political rant.This should be a happy day so as a gift to me go out and get drunk and have some crazy gay fun times with the people you care about the most.

P.S. Congrats to Obama and Biden!Let hear it for change!

P.P.S. I think it’s kind cool that I get to share my birthday with a significan piece of American history!!!!!

It’s your civic duty and it shouldn’t be taken for granted.Also, let hope that Prop. 8 does not pass…I’ve got my fingers crossed for you in CA.I have already voted…7:30 a.m. this morning bitches.No I’m not going to tell you who I voted for…and yes it did come down to standing at the voting booth.No I didn’t flip a coin I made an informed decision.Here is a little something to get you to the polls!!!! 😉

I know all of you that read my blog are feeling neglected and miss my gay musings. I apologize!My event for work is done but things are still flying by.I am impressed with how booked my October has been.So here are a few quick updates.

Last weekend was low key lots of laundry and wedding gift shopping.I have an uber big wedding I’m attending in Oklahoma the second to last week this month.Both myself and Lauren are going to be in the wedding.Unfortunately, I will be unable to blog that weekL.I also have two back to back weddings this weekend.The nice thing is that I am just a guest.Whew just dancing, eating, and drinking.

On the dating front….things are still a big old gay muddled mess.I met Craig out for drinks on Monday…it resulted in LOTS of fooling around in his car.It was welcomed!I tried to let Craig know that I wasn’t really looking for anything official; I’m just looking for STF aka sexy time friends.That may be mean but its true.I just hope he understands.We have emailed back and forth and talked on the phone a couple of times.I have offered myself up to have some fun times but he doesn’t seem to respond to my advances.I can’t figure out if he is just worried about it, or the age difference is too much (I am five years younger than his last boyfriend), or if he is looking for something more in terms of a relationship (which I’m not in the market for as of yet).He certainly seemed interested while his hands were down my pants.But then again, I am advocating a no strings attached fuck buddy kind of thing (excuse the swear, but I have no idea what else to call it other than “friends who occasionally see each other naked and do gay things to each other”) LOL.I’m sure this comes with the territory.It will be nice to have a weekend free where I don’t have to think about it…although I do hope to get a salacious text from him or something.

With that in mind I consider myself still on the market.Lauren just discussed with me a coworker that she has who she believes is gay and she seems to think we would be a good fit.I have stopped by at her work and she’s pointed him out to me.So last night I made an emergency stop at her place of employment with Lucy in the hopes of introducing myself to him.IT WORKED!!!!After some minor shopping, you wouldn’t believe what you home with from a store when you specifically go there to flirt with a guy, Lucy and I stepped into line.As we are standing there I ask him about his other job and he looks at me confused and I casually mention that Lauren who works with him has mentioned him a couple of times and that it was nice to put a face and a name together.I introduce myself and Lucy to him he shakes my hand.Nice firm grip…he is quiet spoken, taller than me, short almost buzzed reddish blond/brown hair, he has a beard…there is a certain dreamy quality about him.Something happened to work out in my favor, I couldn’t find an item in the store so someone had to go and get it for me…they left me at the checkout allowing me some quality time to flirt SCORE.Lucy and I get into an economic discussion while he checked someone out as I waited for my item.Afterward he finished the check out he ended up commenting on our conversation that we were having between us meaning he was listening!!!So my item comes and I check out, just before I leave I lean over and say to him “it was nice to meet you” and I think I said I hope to see him again.I think I’m not sure but besides that he responded with something like “I’ll see you again” or something like that.So it was a good gay flirting adventure.We’ll see what happens.

So that’s the mess known as my love life at the moment.

Also, in the political rant realm I would like to say

VOTE NO TO PROPOSITION 8!!

I’m over these people trying to stop gay marriage.If you vote for it you are simply voting against the “equal protection clause of the California Constitution.”Basically what people are saying is that every one is due equal protection except when it involves two men or women who love each other and want to be married.People are fucking hypocrites (and I’m not sorry about that swear).

For those of you who do not know what Proposition 8 is let me explain.When two men want to marry each other, in California, previously they would run into a little problem called Prop 22.Prop 22 defined, in California, marriage as being between a man and a woman.Just as a side note, at one point in time in California their marriage language looked like this “…defined marriage as: “a personal relation arising out of a civil context, to which consent of the parties making that contract is necessary.””Sounds pretty gay friendly doesn’t it?Well eventually those people who can’t handle to men loving one another (and women loving women) managed to get Prop 22 passed thus gay marriage was done for.That was until May of 2008 when the California Supreme Court declared that Prop 22 violated the California Constitution.To the happy gay couples of CA this meant that they could marry, and marry they have.Now in a desperate legal turn individuals have produced Proposition 8.This is basically the same language as Prop 22 only if it wins in the voting booths in November, Proposition 8 will change the language of the California Constitution.This means the equal protection, guaranteed by the California Constitution, guarding will be done away with.

Literally the words protecting the right for men to men and women to marry women will be erased from the law.A RIGHT THAT WE DESEVER WILL BE TAKEN AWAY FROM US.I DON’T KNOW HOW CLEARLY I CAN STATE THIS.LET ME TRY AGAIN….LEGALLY PEOPLE WILL TAKE AWAY A RIGHT THAT WE WANT, DESERVE, AND CURRENTLY HAVE IN CALIFORNIA.

Now let me say this if you are gay and living in California and not registered to vote then shame on you.This is important for the gay community.I don’t care if you don’t believe in marriage or don’t want to get married.There are a significant amount of others that do want to get married and because you didn’t register to vote you are basically apathetic.Rights that we want are being taken away from us and you can’t even go register to vote is offensive.Those hypocrites that want to take away our rights depend on people like you with your apathy to help rewrite state Constitutions to their liking.It’s sickening.Also, if you are registered to vote and vote for Proposition 8 I think all your rights should be taken away from you…do you like talk of taking away your rights.I didn’t think so.

Finally, I would like to point some things out about the VP debates from last week.First, I love LOVE that Palin can tolerate me, lucky me (ahem dry sarcasm).Secondly, go figure they would spend only two questions on the whole gay marriage issue, once again we gays are second fiddle to the economy and foreign policies.Finally, I am a liberal Democrat and I would vote for Obama except Biden exemplified exactly the reason why I find it hard to vote for them.Biden stood in the national spot light and said he would protect gay rights (notice he said rights but never said marriage) but when asked if he believed in gay marriage he said personally no, the same with Obama.Now I know it is nice to finally have an Administration that will to some extent fight for gay rights, but publically Biden said he didn’t believe in gay marriage.I have to be passionate about my gay rights because there are many people who will not back them.How can I vote for someone that only goes halfway?He will protect gay rights but he doesn’t believe in gay marriage.Isn’t marriage a right I should have?It’s like me saying something like, women can vote but I personally don’t think they should vote or be in the political world.

I’ve voiced this to several of my friends who are upset over the fact that this issue is keeping me from voting for Obama (and may I say I would never vote for McCain).I’ve been told it’s the best I have right now.Well, why do I have to settle, am I not allowed to want more from my President and Vice President?It’s like being paid lip service.If Obama or Biden don’t believe in gay marriage personally how can I expect them to fight for it on a nation wide level if need be?It’s not an issue that can just be swept under the rug.How can I be sure that they would be passionate advocates as others are about gay rights and marriage?I want a politician who believes in what they say on a political and personal level and perhaps that’s more than I can ask from someone but I truly believe it is something that should be asked of our leaders.

Well that’s about it for now…I know it’s long but I had a lot to say.Have a great weekend.Let me know your thoughts about Prop 8 and the VP debate.

I hope this finds you well and enjoying your Friday.Things are good with me, busy, but good.There are a couple things I’d like to cover.

First a questions:Since I can see Canada from Erie does that mean I have foreign policy experience?I’m just wondering.

Secondly, perhaps if Bush wasn’t to busy trying to invade Afghanistan and Iraq, or trying to define marriage as being between a man and a woman we wouldn’t be in our current financial mess.ASSHOLE.For the record, Bush and his buddies were given a surplus of $128 billion.Check out the article.

As far as I’m concerned it’s we middle class folk that will be the ones carrying the burden.Can anyone else see the disconnect that the republicans have with the working class?What concerns me the most about it is that I’m starting to get use to it.Isn’t that awful?Gas prices soar, I have to get use to it.Food prices skyrocket, I have to get use to it.The American financial system is a mess; I’ll get use to it.It’s like I wake up everyday and see some new and senseless problem our government has gotten us into and I’m not surprised any more.

One more thing on my political rantyness (I know it’s not a real word).I love how Palin met with 9 foreign leaders in 30 hours this week.There’s nothing like a cram session before the debates.HHHEEEELLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOO I don’t know about anyone else but when I would cram for a test the end result was never in my favor.

As for the upcoming debates I would just like to say I hope Palin is ready one, because of the lack of foreign policy experience, and two because she is a woman.For those of you who will cry that sexism will run rampant and that Biden should go easy on her, you can all go to hell.We are in a fast paced political arena and Palin had better be ready to carry her own.This self proclaimed barracuda will have to do battle in the media spotlight and frankly it isn’t going to be pretty.The other thing is would the world have been willing to give Hillary Clinton an easy run at the debates.Hell no, they would have tried to tear her apart.

Okay I know I could go on and on about this forever (except its making me sick) but we have more important things to cover…like my love life…or lack there of.

So currently I’m torn.I have Steve on one hand.He’s cute and totally out but he has a certain roughness about him.Some of the things he has said has been harsh or a little mean.I’ve had several friends tell me that I could do better which is new dynamic in flirting with him.Also, I came out to him “officially” a couple nights ago and I think it changed the flirting that was occurring between us.I don’t want to flirt with him but I just can’t help myself.Have you ever noticed that when people say they can’t help themselves it usually ends badly with said person having to admit that they made a huge error or lapse in their judgment…I don’t like that.But when I’m around him I just can’t stop.I get all school girlish and I’m not normally like that.

Then I have Dave the older guy that sexually harassed me this week (jesus that sounds like a messed up line…Dear Diary, I’m crushin’ on the man that sexually harassed me (said in a school girl voice)).We exchanged several emails and I find that I’m aroused at the fact that he is older and hitting on me.But he doesn’t strike me as my type.If we were ever to get together to do man “activities” I really think it would just be for the gratification of it.I try not to do fall into that stereotype of instant self gratification that we gays sometime find ourselves stamped with, but my hormones sometimes over power my ability to make sound decisions.

I’m very torn…and horny…a dangerous combination…ugh.

On a brighter note, it is my almater’s homecoming and Lauren and I have a ton of friends that are in town and staying with us.I’m uber excited about it.One because I love my college, two I love my friends, but three, I hope it will take my mind off my current crush crisis.There will be ample booze to sample and food to eat.We have our football game etc and its always such a great time!

I’ll let you know how the weekend goes in my next post.Wish me luck with the boys and have a fun filled weekend! Don’t stay indoors blogging to much the days are getting colder, enjoy the weather!

Good morning bloggers! I hope you are doing well.I have some fun stuff to talk about but first I want to look once more, briefly, at Palin.

I’m not sure what American people are thinking supporting McCain and most importantly Palin.I am going to break this really easily.Why in the world would anybody vote for a woman who has little to no foreign policy…especially if we are in a war in a foreign country?Is it just me or does anyone else see the absurdity of this?I’m telling you it is flawed reasoning, plain and simple.

You know the invasion into Afghanistan and the war in Iraq has been a heated topic for the past 8 years.It has been a long conversation across party lines and here we are 8 years later on the cusp of an election and people want to elect someone who doesn’t have any foreign policy experience.This is despite whether you are for or against the war…this is about running a war in a correct manner.I do not think Palin could advise adequately regarding the war.More importantly that is just a glossing regarding foreign policy, there is so much more involved.Think of what would happen if McCain passed away in office and Palin assumed the role of President.America would have a young woman with little to no experience running the country.I just don’t know what people are thinking.

Okay I’m getting off my soap box.

So this weekend was good, busy…but good.Friday night I was invited out to a gay bar with friends whom I’ve not come out to yet.They were going with another gay friend so that he could spy on his ex-boyfriend.So my reasoning is go any chance to become acclimated to a gay bar is a good chance, plus what if the friend is cute…there is always a catch.So we meet and go to a straight bar and have some drinks we are having a good time and the boy is cute…we’ll call him Steve.He has a wicked sense of humor and is wildly inappropriate…which a plus in my book is always.I’m slowly getting drunk and think we are hitting it off, we are discussing LGBT issues in the election and I want to get his number.So we exchange number and then the group goes off to the gay bar.We dance and drink and are having an all around good time.That’s when Steve confides in us that he has a crush on this 21 year old.I glance at the guy.Young, very gay…and I’m like ugh.I’m a little disappointed and I decide to take matters into my own hands.While at the bar I text him asking if he could keep a secret.He’s drunk and I get a text back from him saying yes.So I tell him that I thought he was one of the cutest guys in the bar and that I thought he was way to good for the 21 year old video gamer.(On a side note I’m positive I have blown my gay cover with these friends and it is only a matter of time before they ask me about these texts and Steve.)Well I don’t hear anything and I’m kinda sad…but it’s the norm.So we get ready to leave.We go home and imagine my surprise when I get a text from Steve.It’s like 2 in the morning now and I’m exhausted and know I have to be up in 5 hours to work a fundraiser.This touches off a two hour text messaging session.Obviously, I’m drunk but not in a crazy I can’t contain myself kinda way…I wasn’t that lushy that night J.The texts are tinged with flirty overtones and stuff.Over the past 3 days we’ve texted each other and I am excited.Some of the texts are flirty some are just regular texts but the problem is I can’t gauge if he’s interested in me or not.

I just don’t know what to do.I’ve invited him to join me on a couple of things (we have a mutual friend I had to pick up a birthday gift for and asking him if he wanted to go) but has kindly declined.I am trying to play coy but I hate playing games.If you are interested then tell me if not tell me so I can keep looking.I just don’t know.The other thing is when we text each other they are usually long text messaging sessions.

I’ll keep you posted on the wooing of Steve.Here’s a little description.He is shorter than me probably about 5’6”, he has dark short hair and light blue eyes.He has a wicked sense of humor and has some of the funniest stories.He has no facial hair and his ears are pierced (the piercing goes through this lobes from the side…it’s weird but cool).He always seems to have some funny story or some witty comment come back with, but when we were talking about gay right he sounded well read.I want to get the chance to talk to him about more serious things.

So imagine my surprise when I opened up word today to re-write my Palin politic blog and found that the computer somehow recovered the document.Needless to say I WAS EXCITED.So below is the blog I was working on. Enjoy.

I think it is safe to say that McCain has made a decisive choice in selecting Palin as his running mate.I mean those of us who were Hillary Clinton supporters are now left with several choices considering she is out of the running for the presidential ticket.We could vote for Obama and keep to our political party lines, we could vote for McCain and cross party lines, or we could exercise our right to not vote for a presidential/ vice presidential candidate (while there are some out there that believe not voting in the election is a vote for McCain…I look at it as a personal decision that people are allowed to make as long as it is an informed decision and not just out of laziness).

Why shouldn’t McCain make a play for the Hillary voters out there?I mean they make up a decent voting block.But, and I stress but, here is the funny thing, just because McCain chose a woman as his running mate doesn’t mean he is going to sway the Hillary supporters.It’s degrading to think that just because McCain has picked a woman to run on his ticket that Hillary supporters (especially women) are going to flock to his camp.It feels as if McCain’s camp thinks that women voters will vote for a woman despite her policies.I’m now going to call this gender voting and if I were a woman I would be repulsed by this assumption McCain’s camp has made.Also, if McCain is trying to sway Hillary supporters to his side why in the world would he pick a conservative governor?There are certain policies that appealed to those of us who were going to vote for Hillary if she were a candidate.Perhaps some of us liked her views on education, or LGBT rights, or her being socially liberal, what about her stances on abortion, the point is Hillary supporters supported her for specific reasons, not just because she’s a woman.Palin policies do not match Clinton’s policies (okay so they both approve of the death penalty…big whoop).Strategically speaking, shouldn’t have McCain’s people advised him to pick someone who was more center of the road?

I would just like to point out that in perusing of several blogs that it has come to my attention that McCain was suppose to be on CNN and field questions regarding Palin but he backed out.The reason for this is that one of the listed questions was going to be asking him name one foreign policy that Palin has backed and McCain felt that was stepping over the line in terms of questioning.First, asking someone about their foreign policy (especially if they are going to be in the second most powerful position in America) is not crossing the line.Like all good job interviews it’s nice to know the skills one has.I’m just saying Palin doesn’t seem to have those skills.Secondly, it wasn’t like CNN (of all groups) asked about her pregnant unwed child.That would be below the belt and not something necessarily for the American people to judge (while they do find it easy to judge the gays).But it also brings up a talking point.It is only and example, but Palin’s policy on abstinence only sex education.Let us talk about how it is a flawed policy that has hit home with her.I think it is very telling about Palin’s ability to govern.Another point I’d like to make is that this is big time politics here.And please don’t get me started with her supporting the teaching of creationism in science class.We are not talking the population of Alaska (and I’m not trying to bash Alaska).What I’m trying to say is that we are looking at a much larger extended population she would have to deal with and to go from Alaskan politics to world politics is a big change.

Let me also ask all of you this…if McCain died in office is this the person that you would want leading out country?

Personally, I don’t want this “hockey Mom” leading out country.I want a decisive leader who has experience and frankly Palin doesn’t do it for me.

Jesus, if McCain and Palin are voted in I’m moving to Canada.This is going to be a long two months.