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time seems to speed up in the happy moments & they fade away quickly I don’t remember by the end of the day & lately I haven’t been real with me like no matter how hard you try to make them see they won’t & don’t care to but being okay with that is the hardest task…it’s okay to question yourself….it’s okay to fuck up but don’t allow it to be repetitive..letting unbalance emotions drive you to put yourself in uncomfortable situations reopening wounds from the past…having no where to run felt like the room was caving in & that’s on me…a mistake that will never be erased due to my own insecurities..maybe I have to hit rock bottom to be where I’m suppose to be
I can be vulnerable involving everything rather be there for you than for me ..karma do you come even if I have a reason ? do you come because I know better & I didn’t seem to care that day?
I’m afraid I won’t show up for who I am suppose to show up for…I’m afraid the damage is done

1.the way your eyes focus on me when you talk & I look everywhere but at you
2.the gripping of your hands
3.that you say you can not live if I am not in your life
4.how I invite you in everytime knowing your true intentions
5.that you are the only mistake that makes sense
6.the truth is I loved you by a mistake
7.we only fuck when Im in need of comfort I’ll rather you hold me but you don’t know the true meaning of being there
8.you were never my first choice you just looked to good to say no to…
9.the way your love has blind me
10. the fact that I am the lamb that has been sacrificing & everyone has ate but me

someone to share your blessings with
someone to share your secrets with no judgement
someone who fights & you see it clearly
someone who accepts & understands
someone who forgives instantly
someone who knows when to control when not to
someone who can balance it out for me
sometimes I’m scared
sometimes I want to fall short just because I see you
sometimes you get upset but your anger isn’t what I’m use to
sometimes that’s scary too
sometimes I see them in you
I know I’m not worthy of your inconsistency
You are going to have to let me go because I won’t do it…
I won’t do it

I’ll start each day with you…
1.waking up to your face & smiling because you are always the first thing I lay my eyes on…
2. Sade – (By your side) playing in the background then we go outside to the sun shining brighter than the day before…
3. we walk the beach & eat strawberries
4. we walk back into the house & it smells like breakfast the way grandma use to make it but it’s our daughters cooking , laughing & cracking jokes
5. We hold eachother hands & pray
6. we work & work
7. We cook dinner together I do one half you do the other in between we share kisses , conversations about what we love & who we love
8. We eat & eat
9. We shower together & do karaoke
10. We stay naked & make love until my voice cracks
11. We dream
12. We repeat

I promise you that I’ll kiss you like you are the only one
I promise you I’ll fuck away the pain
I promise you that you can’t sacrifice yourself & still be happy & sane
I promise you I’ll abandon you
I promise you that actual good things don’t happen very often but you did & I’m afraid I’ll run away
I promise you I will
I promise you I will…

I pray for your peace
for your growth
for you to discover self love in order to love me correctly
pray you find courage
pray you find the beauty in you
pray you see the forevers in my eyes
pray you feel the chills on my skin & know this body belongs to you
pray you stay
pray you make a way everytime back to me after arguments
pray you forgive yourself
pray you forgive me
pray you stay

I understand alone time
I understand not wanting to talk about how you are feeling at a certain moment
I understand boundaries
I understand balance
I see your scars
I see your heart
I see how you contradict yourself trying to convince yourself that you’re not ready for love when in reality you are just afraid that love will leave you again…
but you pushing love away will make it leave….
you denying love existing will allow it to not exist in your life no matter how much someone wants to love you… no one is going to allow you to make them your own personal punching bag …
they do not deserve it not being loved
& You deserve love so please let it in..