whips and wasps

Words like whips and waspsStung my eyes, tongues lashing, teeth gnashing,Life gushing out of meI fell unable to riseFor heavy did your Declarations of hatredRest on my heartTurning to white with the Awful weight of your hysterical and hypocritical accusationsYour finger pointing Turned me into a wax figureSome days I lay prostrateOn the floorArms outstretched As in a crucifixionI related then to theSuffering of my LordWhose friends abandoned Him in the final hour.I knew your betrayalI knew your nameI knew your faceI knew your loveYet you betrayed my loveI want to forgetYour existenceAnd the violenceYou forced in my faceI want to wipe from my memoryAll the falsehood and pretence of your smilesI am almost thereThe bitterness has begunTo subsideIn its placeGrows up a strengthThat you cannot tap intoOr destroyWatch me growFrom your caves of cowardiceAnd remember thisI will love you to the graveI will forgive you til it hurts but we will never speakAgain