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17 January 2017

2016 was the year of... "just realizing stuff"-- 1ST POST OF 2017

Hello lovely bloggers,

Long time no talk. Seriously. College has been such a whirlwind, and I guess you haven't really heard from me because I've just been taking it in. I really wanted to focus on school the first quarter and get the hang of things-- "adulting" some might say (they probably don't say, but let's just stick with it). The campus is beautiful, the classes are interesting (well, some are), and the people are amazing. I've met so many great people here, and they've become my second family. It pretty much helps that my dorm is also themed as the "visual media" hall where I would meet like-minded people. Even though this is known as the art hall, there are so many different majors here that ranges from criminology to to film studies, from biology to drama.

Although, I admit that first quarter was kind of hard because some classes I took were almost to impossible to understand, I'm so glad that I was able to overcome those difficulties. Seriously, I don't know why I took philosophy. I thought it was going to be the most easiest and interesting class I would take last quarter (it was actually the hardest). This quarter, I vow to only try harder.

As the infamous Kylie Jenner would say, "This is the year of just realizing stuff." 2016 was truly the year for realizing stuff. 2017. New year resolutions. New year, new me, right?? Well, kind of. This year, I'm focusing on me. Bettering myself for myself. I spent last year worrying about other people's well-being rather than mine, and I think it's high time to change that. I'm not saying that I shouldn't be considerate or caring point-blank, but I need to consider myself for a change. I was always hurt or disappointed whenever my expectations weren't met by other people. I was also hurt when I focused on having a "crush" on somebody and it never really working out in the end. It seems at this time and age, people are always with a companion. Somebody to share their whole being with. Social media and today's newest indie movie featuring couple-of-the-year doesn't really help either. I guess when I thought I'd go into college, I'd immediately find that somebody. Thus, expectations met with hard, cold reality.

New year, new me. This year, I'm focusing on myself. Me trying to give constant content on All Things Vanessa. Me trying to better my photography and videography skills. Me trying to motivate myself to finish my first year of college. Me trying to maintain strong relationships with my loved ones. Me trying to find myself.

Cut the bullshit out of my life. Cut the people who weren't really there for me when I was for them. Cut the unnecessary drama and the obstacles standing in my way of truly reaching my potential.

Cold, hard truth. But, the truth, nonetheless.

2016 was the year of just realizing stuff, and this is me moving forward. Here's to 2017.
Happy blogging, loves. Talk to you next time. Xo, Vanessa.