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Sunday, January 17, 2016

mornings with grace

dear grace,

It's hard to believe it's been an entire year since I've run my fingertips over the lines of your sweet face, pressed your spotted pink nose to mine, or witnessed your goofy little grin when we walked through the door. I remember wishing often that our time together on this earth would never end… During one such moment, your Auntie explained it to me- why this couldn't be. She said she came across something a little boy once said:

“People are born so that they learn how to live a good life – like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?” The four year old continued, “Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don’t have to stay as long.”

These words have stayed with me… from then, until now. Thinking back, I remember how the skies seemed to transform on the eve of the last day we shared together. From the bleak, cold greys of winter, to beautiful sun-filled days that yearned to warm my soul… Of course, this year was no different. -On this morning, the 13th of January, exactly one year later, I arose from my bed just as the sun's light began to peak over the horizon. I tip-toed through our kitchen and cracked open the back door. The dawn's crisp air greeted me as I took a step out onto the porch. The clouds were like rolling waves, saying their hellos, the countless colors of your spirit washing over me… And as I stood with my bare feet pressed to the cold concrete, my face continued to linger on the heavens. I closed my eyes and inhaled the richness of the quiet surrounding me. Then my lips parted with a wisp of fog that accompanies warm breath on a cold day, and what followed was the whisper of your eternal name…