Musings in the Mitten

This blog chronicles the years I jumped head-first into life; After college ended I got my first "real" job, married my high school sweetheart & became a momma to identical twin boys...all in the same year!!

Sunday, July 13, 2014

A quick civil ceremony with two of our best friends on Friday July 11th - 2:45 pm.

I am smitten <3 <3 <3

We plan to do the "whole shebang" in Fall 2016,

Where our little boys & families will all be witnesses.

This ceremony was so quick and to be honest, I don't remember everything that was said by the officiant - I just remember the feeling in my heart. I am the happiest women alive and so lucky to share a special bond for eternity with the love of my life! While this wedding wasn't the one of my dreams - it's outcome is exactly my dream, I will live happily ever after with my handsome high school sweetheart and our two little boys. <3

I am now 32 weeks along with our twin boys- so many exciting changes happening in our life - it's a big year for us!

We had a routine ultrasound on Friday - just before the wedding was scheduled. By the end of the appointment, I knew something was "up" and before I knew it, the tech brought in the only Dr. working -one I've never met and we received the news that I would be admitted to the hospital.

I was devastated. We had plans to get married, do a maternity session with a local photographer and spend our first night as husband and wife soaking up on the blessings in our life and enjoying each other's company.
I quickly learned that our day was not going to go as planned. I was a wreck. I just wanted my perfect weekend; I am still working full time and am always exhausted...I feel like I've been looking forward to this weekend for so long now and it's upsetting to see my plans ruined. (Maybe this situation is just God's way of telling me to slow down?) We were obviously still able to get married but almost immediately afterward, we had to return and begin our admittance to the hospital. Thank GOD my hubs gets to stay with me. . . poor guy is sleeping on an awfully uncomfy "couch" just to be here with me. I love that man with all that I am.

While I am obviously bummed, I am still thankful. Thankful for my health right now, and the health of our boys. Thankful that I was still able to marry the love of my life. It's all an emotional roller coaster, please excuse this mess of an update! And if anyone is reading, please send some prayers up for my family, we need good vibes and positive thoughts, now more than ever for a safe and healthy last couple days/weeks before delivery! We've accepted that the boys will be in NICU but our hospitals NICU is full so a transfer will be most likely. I just pray we can transfer too.

I guess I wouldn't feel so down about my situation if I didn't have so much left to do. I feel like I am drowning in tasks:

- We have not taken our infant cpr class, or any baby classes yet!

- We haven't met with any of our top pediatrician choices!

-I couldn't start the process of legally changing my name - our plans to share one name - may not happen until after the boys' birth

- We had to cancel our maternity shoot - but our sweet, sweet photographer has offered to reschedule and maybe take some maternity photos @ the hospital! Bless her heart, she's the sweetest!

- My baby shower is today :'( I am so bummed about missing this. . .

- I am so terrified that I will lose my job over this. I am still on probation and have no FMLA or any safety for my position - I am relying on the goodness of the company I work for to keep a spot for me!

- We are scheduled to move into our new apartment next weekend and have absolutely NOTHING packed for the move!!!! *yep, you get the pattern - everything last minute and all together *

I know I am not the first pregnant woman to go through this situation or other similar situations and I know I won't be the last - but this shit is mentally draining.

I plan to write/share more when I am not so exhausted. . .just getting this little bit off my mind in an attempt to hopefully get a little more rest this morning.

The news we've received since being admitted has only gotten worse but I know our situation could be 100 times worse and we're still hanging in there for now!!

I just keep praying that we all make it through this safely and everyone is healthy.
I can't wait to meet my precious little men and share this incredible journey with my new husband.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Two weeks after finding out we were going to be parents by the years end, we had our first ultrasound. . .

Some whispering between the Tech and Doctor led me to have anxiety that something was not okay. Sitting in the cold room, puzzled looks of wonderment from two first time "parents-to-be" trying to understand the image we're looking at and if everything is okay, the Doctor finally says:

"Do twins run in either side of your families?"

HA!

I laughed out loud at the Doctor's words.

Surely he was kidding...right?

But then I let his remark sink in...

My future in laws DID miscarry a twin pregnancy the year before their first son (my boyfriend) was born.

And okay, my mom's oldest brother had fraternal twin girls...

But twins for us - What are the odds?

"The odds of having identical twins is about 3 in 1,000, whereas the birthrate for all twins is about 32.2 in 1,000"

Ultrasounds have shown that we are having mono zygotic twins or rather, Identical twins!

Despite twins "running in both sides of our family" our twins are simply a random occurrence.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

I have been writing and editing this post for a while now, but I think I am finally ready to share it. . . .

I rang in the new year, at home...in bed...sicker than I've been in a LONG time! I couldn't stop sneezing or shivering. I felt AWFUL! By January 3rd I started to feel a little better but something just felt ''off'''.

I decided to take a pregnancy test. Around 9pm my boyfriend, Josh, and I bought two pregnancy tests and quickly headed home to find out our result. I wanted to wait until morning, since the instructions insisted that first morning urine is the most accurate...but I was just too impatient. I took the test and before I could walk out of the bathroom I was pretty sure I saw a two lines quickly appearing. I was too nervous to read the results so I asked Josh to read them.

"Uhm it's positive...Literally, your test looks like it could be the sample test pictured on the box.." And we both started laughing really, really hard.

We have been graduated from college less than a year, still not employed in stable jobs (at the time we found out) --> no health insurance and we're living in the tiny hole-in-the-wall apartment we've shared since college. What in the heck are we going to do?We both entered shocked mode. Suddenly, we had A LOT to figure out!

Josh had to work at 11pm. Life changing news and we spent the night apart. I cried. I cried hard, for most of the night. I am mostly type-a personality, a planner, I need an answer for everything type of girl! This was a quite the curve ball. I had so many emotions running through my head but the one that never changed was my love for this tiny fetus growing inside me. Incredible. <3 <3

When Josh came home from work that next morning, he was much more talkative. He was so optimistic and even excited about our expanding family! His excitement quickly melted away most of my anxieties and I became excited too! He is so so so wonderful and I am so lucky to have him <3

Friday, March 7, 2014

Uhmm, let's not talk about the heartbreak that was the "Superbowl" : ( Ohhh, broncos.... maybe next year?

Alienssssss!

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Pleaseeee, someone tell me that I was not the ONLY person in denial about Leo losing out on yet another Oscar! I'll be honest, I did not see Wolf of Wall Street OR watch the Oscars -- but somebody give the man a damn Oscar already. Have you not seen his acting? Good grief!

t h r e e

Any Juan Pablo fans? Who am I kidding -- it's like a rule, all bloggers must follow the bachelor/bachelorette series! My heart was broken when he sent Renee home after hometown dates... Potentially the next Bachelorette? I kinda hope so!

As for the last three ladies standing, I can't really choose my "favorite"? Who are you rooting for?

f o u r

Health care in America. Is there anything more frustrating????? I've been researching so much on this topic and feel so sad about how many go without proper care because of insurance or lack of, in this country. : ( How do people afford to get sick? Suffer an injury? or have a baby in this country?

Okay, let's end this on a positive note:

f i v e

OMG! You guys/gals/beings on blog-land: I, me, this lady here has finally got a big girl job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know about you, but I've never experienced such pride in myself! This new job marks the beginning of my next life chapter. I have so many emotions. I've mentioned it in a previous post or two, but I interviewed in early Nov. 2013 for this position and finally got hired and I start tomorrow night at the County Jail as a Booking Clerk!

Monday, January 20, 2014

O N E Can I just say, I can't stand how much anger is involved in the sports world. My world would not have been crushed if the Broncos had blown last nights game...nor do I crap talk my friends who are fans of other teams. I like all of the teams really, I just love football. The Colts - and Peyton - just happened to be my first favorite team. Both my boyfriend and my dad LOVE Peyton Manning...so when I started watching and enjoying football, I too became his fan! Isn't that how everyone becomes a fan? You grow up rooting for a team, you live near the team, etc.? I can't stand all the "bandwagon" talk! Who really cares whom someone else is rooting for, which team they like or when they became a fan?? Not this girl! I know I didn't care for Tebow and didn't know much about the Denver Broncos before March 20, 2012. AKA The day Peyton signed to play with them after being released from the Colts! With that rant over being said, The Broncos are going to the Superbowl and I am SO excited for February 2nd. I love Peyton Manning!!!!!!! <3

T W O My 23rd birthday was great. The best weather I've had in YEARS! And I spent all day being lazy with my love. He even took me to Red Mango for Frozen Yogurt Parfaits. yummmT H R E E Santa brought us a surprise for Christmas, I can't wait to share photos and more info on that!F O U R I am STILL waiting to hear back from those two job interviews I've had... phew! In my next life someone remind me to choose a career that doesn't involve such extensive background checks...takes FOREVER!F I V E I have obviously taken a break with blogging...I enjoy getting my thoughts out there and looking back on my past posts but I have a lot to figure out when it comes to blogging. It's a hobby and I never intend to make money or have a "religious" following of readers, I just simply enjoy venting, or sharing my thoughts!S I X Valentine's Day is so soon. Haven't even begun preparing for that...ooh I'll have to share the neat date idea I did last year with my boyfriend. so fun and best of all FREE! ; )S E V E N Sadly, I have yet to see Wolf of Wall Street. : ( but I am pretty hopeful that Leo may FINALLY receive an Oscar. Seriously, how does the man NOT have one yet????

"If you can’t fly then run, if you can’t run then walk, if you can’t walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward." -- Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Christmas was great, I enjoyed spending time with my mom and grandma. We baked cookies and just got to hang out all together, which is too rare these days. Then I spent time with my dad and we even went sledding -- SO MUCH FUN!!! : )

New Year's Eve, well that's a whole other story! J and I had plans to drive down to our hometown and play cards against humanity and ring in the New Year with our best friend and his family. I woke up feeling just awful. Full blown sinus mess, I was sneezing and sounded almost as terrible as I felt. But I convinced J I was okay enough to go, I really didn't want to be a party pooper; so got bundled up and started towards the highway. My mom called and said a guest she just checked in at the hotel said if a person didn't have 4 wheel drive they were crazy to travel in this weather! He was right, the closer we got to the highway the worse the road conditions got. We made the call to turn around and spend the night at home resting being lazy and safe after all. . . I am finally beginning to feel better.

Ahahaha.

Jobby-Jobs: At this rate, any job in my field will make me more than happy. I got a call from the background investigator assigned to me through the county jail, they're still moving forward with me as part of the hiring process . . .*fingers crossed* And I also have an interview Monday tomorrow morning for a Parole Agent Position. What a killer first job out of college? I can't even imagine...but I truly want it and I'm hoping for the best! Then J also got a call from the Sheriff's Office, he did really well on the national dispatchers exam and they want to interview him!!!! I am so excited for him. He's such a hard worker and while he actually has a full time position in his field, the company he has worked at for two years and currently works for is just not where he wants to be. Soooooo, fingers crossed that 2014 is finally our year. . . I have a sneaking suspicion that it will be a fantastic year for the two of us ; )

My birthday is January 13th. Yayyyyyyyyyyyyy.
I never know what my plans will be, but one thing I can count on is crazy weather!
This year? The snow storm came early and I hope there isn't going to be a repeat the week of my bday. . .
Holy cow! Basically everything is closed already, for tomorrow!
Every school, colleges included, banks and many other businesses.

Ohhhh, Michiganders. ahaha

I know the southern states are freezing their arses off in the chilly-for-them weather, but this arctic mess is no joke!

Wind chill temps in the negative double digits?
So much snow cars are stuck in the middle of the road?
Multiple cities issuing state of emergency and asking for help to remove snow?
Governor Snyder and the Michigan State Police issued a statement/warning saying do not venture out if at all possible...

Yep, and I love the Mitten state! I mean, I don't always love the cold temps and I may complain about shoveling or even wish for Spring to come early but I would sure miss all this snow and cold if I didn't get to live and experience this season every year!

So that's all I got for this post, hope everyone is enjoying their Sunday evenings! Stay warm, friends