It’s not enough the be aware of andrail against the thing that interferes with my will, discourages me from action, causing me to engage in addictive behaviors. etc. To act in defiance is just to react with what I imagine is the “correct” response. No. I have to go in and remove the thing that hampers will.

Behind the idea of improvement is the idea that the past is dead. For some reason people want to crowd out the past when they expand the present. They need to think they are improving the world when they help someone. But change does not improve. Transformation affects only the present. The past is still memory and memory has great power and must be respected. The present does not change the past.

There really is no such thing as time. The reason you can’t go back “in time” is gravity. The universe is not 3.5 or 15 billion years “old.” That’s how far it has expanded. “It’s not your age, but the mileage.” The reason people have a hard time grasping time is because it doesn’t exist A million years isn’t an easier a concept than one year.

​A fusion of metaphorical and “literal” aspects of a black hole: the hole poked in faith has grown larger until we earthers are traveling constantly in the near vicinity of a black hole. Road Runner’s Coyote noticing we are not standing on anything.

Just as doctors did not know about germs, we do not know the universe is alive and sentient and has presence.

We’re mistaking the mirror for the real. What we’re looking at is not what we are.

​Our culture has imagined individual fates for our souls. We are heirs to that. We think personal immortality or annihilation. We have to get past that. But is there anything we can do in this life to change things? Not a good deed gets you to heaven, but is there anything we can do from this side to change the structure of things (assuming there is one) on the other side? which might involve changing basic reality. & losing the idea of sides.

Just as the moreclosely we look at something, the more we use our imagination, in the same way the more we look at the past, the more we see either a) the unknown or b) the future. A corollary of this is that it is the past that we should be looking at, since that is the foundation of all error. That is, our past.

Yet:All ideas are false unless they are kept living.Which means, if memory is an idea, all memories are false, unless they can change.Which means that history is wrong. All of it.

The relation between the past and the future is the same as the one between what is there and what is imaginary: they are the same.