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Before and After

Elliot writes, “I’m what my (legally mandatory) psychologist would call a transsexual. I got an official diagnosis and everything — gender identity disorder! Certificate of disorder in hand, Dr. ***** was convinced I was a real transsexual. Little did he know I’m actually a bisexual-tranny-fag-dyke genderfucked kid! And now I’ve got my own little fuck-you-gender/sex-binary body!”

16: Yeah, that’s what I meant… I didn’t want to get into “born with girl parts” because some people feel that “girl parts” would refer not to, say, a vagina and vulva but rather to any parts belonging to someone who identifies as a girl. So I went with “female” as a marker of sex. *shrug*

yay Elliot! *cheer* what a great attitude, look at that happy little smirk in the second photo! so glad that you’re getting you body to the way you want it to be – what a fabulous looking reconstruction!

#4: While I’m sure it’s painful, having breasts implanted is probably a lot more painful than having it removed because of all the pressure put on the skin.
Regardless, will those scars go away? Or does this genderfucked kid like ‘em? :]
Also, I’d kill for those breasts. >.>

#28 – the scars usually fade, and as they’re placed kind of following the lower side of pectoral muscles they can often end up almost hidden or even making the pecs look bigger as it eccentuates the shape of them.

That said, some people have quite visible chest scars all the way and love them – I dare assume this genderfucker would too!

that is, by far, the absolute best chest reconstruction i’ve ever seen! there’s no weird dents or odd bulges – it looks like a perfect chest. i really hope you are happy with the results and healing goes/went well – you look phenomenal!

Lookin good with the chest! I am hoping to do mine within a year now, just need some funds. I’d also say the belly fuzz is due to having a script for ‘T’, as hair will change according to cues from hormones.

Max Brand, I find your comment baffling on a site like BME, and a bit insulting.

It would have been easier for me to be a girl and get over it, except I would have been living a lie and would never have been happy. Yeah, the hormone treatment, surgeries, abuse I face from people, it’s all worth it when I look in the mirror and see the man I always knew I was inside. I don’t think anyone takes on gender related surgery without really needing to!

I’m another person who had same surgery, but went to regular local plastic surgeon. I do not have much pain when I got the surgey.
It was not too bad. I’m so glad to get my stupid boobs removed.
I just need small revisions.

That’s very nice work. The nipple realignment (and resizing, if I’m not mistaken?) is also very good work; I’ve seen some truely botched examples in the past. The hormones are also doing nicely, with an interesting time lapse between the two images. Congrats.

*groan* I don’t have a problem with people being whatever gender or combination thereof they feel is right for them, but when you make up these polysyllabic titles like it makes you some kind of awesome person, that’s kind of wanky.

i heard this awesome interview on This American Life with a F2M tranny (you can prolly podcast it) and it was kind of funny because he was talking about how he used to be this edgy butch dyke that would read edgy poems in coffee shops about fucking chicks and stuff like that, but then once he became a dude, he was basically just a misogynist

Wow it looks great. Im really immpressed. The chest is gonna look even better when its healed. I seen some healed F2M chests and you cant even see the scarrs once its healed and couldnt tell that the chest was once female. But the rack Elliot had was great as well. I totally wish boobs could be donated to extremely flat chested women like me. I have honestly never seen natural boobs on a lady that are as small as mine. If there was a way to get fat implanted in my boobs then I totally would. I just dont like the idea of having bags of saline in my chest. I want the real thing which is more fat for my rack! Haha! My chest is so bony that I dont even know if it can hold dermal anchors.

#50 – To transpeople wanting to be who they are inside comes with the price of convincing a psychologist to get the stupid letter of recomendation for hormones, surgeries, etc. This means that a transperson has spend their life trying to get to the point of transition, and then they have to often spend a lot of money on psychologists appointments to get “permission” to continue to be who they are. If he walked in, and said I’m a “bisexual-tranny-fag-dyke genderfucked kid” or the psych was picky and even thought they weren’t 100% serious, then the hormones and surgery could easily be denied. Some psychologists today are more relaxed about it, but I know quite a few the stick to the very strict restrictions of the HBSOC guidelines, causing some people to face years of therapy with promises of eventual surgery that never happens. I am going thru the same processes with money being the only thing holding me back right now thankfully, but when they thought I may have cancer and it was even recommended by my oncologist to have a hyst/oph surgey – I had two doctors refuse because of my gender expression – the doctors both wrote refused due to GID – causing me to transfer hospitals ti find a young doctor that would do my nessesary surgery which was covered by insurance no less.

#50, because psychologists have very narrow, twisted views of gender, it’s identity and expression, and how that should be mirrored on a transperson. There are some psychs out there who wouldn’t believe in a trans patient if the patient didn’t want a husband, three kids, wearing dresses and makeup, or a wife, muscles, male-pattern baldness, and snakeskin boots to go with their beard. Such views were a lot more common in the past, in the fifties and even in the 80′s.
Now a-days that view is less common, but since doctors are not taught or trained about trans-issues in medical school, non-specialists can refer to older texts and their own biases of what men and women “do”, thus trying to explain how someone feels “inbetween”, or totally beyond two pre-determined genders can be confusing. Since all treatment hinges on the psych’s OK, it’s really common for transsexuals to omit parts of their identity that are less socially accepted and understood [which is the psych's loss], or even not discuss their doubts [which is a bad thing.]

In short, science doesn’t have better modifiers for one’s precise gender identity [I see you, 55;] and society doesn’t yet culturally understand anything other than longhair+dress=woman, shorthair+pants=man. Even if we can understand tomboys and butch lesbians, or sensitive men and flaming fags, trannies aren’t given the same leeway [if one behaves femininely, then why can't one be comfortable as a female, I guess. Being such an incorrigible faggot, I worry about having to answer that to some power-tripping know-it-all psych.]

Really though, what the fuck does “bisexual-tranny-fag-dyke genderfucked kid” mean???? Either you are straight or gay or bi. If you feel you need to change genders, go for it. But after you change genders you are still either straight or gay or bi. So what the hell does “genderfucked” mean?!?!?

Chinaman9, you’re getting gender and sexuality confused in this context. “Genderfucked” is essentially a dysphemism for transgendered and other variations of ‘gender expression’. It means that you’re not identifying as *just* a female or a male, that you are maybe identifying as somewhere in between, or a combination of both…or neither.
And gender is now commonly understood to be something different from sexuality, so the labels used to explain who a person fucks (gay, bi etc.) really say nothing about a person’s gender expression.
It can be complex to grasp when you haven’t been through it, or exposed to it, yourself. And I’m certainly not wanting to patronise you, but it really would be worthwhile for you to do a bit of research into what ‘gender’ actually means, because it’s pretty interesting!

Ahh… Too many big words.. Modblog people are too linguistic for me this time of night… Great job with the reconstruction though, I’ve seen alot of things on Oprah and Dr Phil (don’t judge lol I get bored on my days off work) about people doing a whole gender reconstruction and they all seem incredibly happier with the end result XD

There are places between gay, bi, and straight. And there are places between male and female. Maybe things are clear for you, and you feel comfortable in those socially-endorsed binaries, but I certainly don’t, and neither does this person.

way to go max, now you look like a bigger idiot.
why did you use your lovely control of urges to prevent yourself from getting tattooed since that’s not “natural”
go find some dark hole to crawl into and stay there

um….well, we all wear clothes, and that’s pretty unnatural…..duh….I never said there was anything wrong with altering your body…..I just don’t think it’s a good idea to alter your body because contemporary gender stereotypes take over your mind and your thought process…..

Max, you are quite possibly one of the most ignorant people I’ve seen on modblog. How do you believe you’re in any position to speak to whether or not Elliots gender idenity is “contemporary” (which, judging by by your moronic comments beforehand, probably means “trendy” in your vocabulary) or something he truely needs to be comfortable with? As someone has trans family members, ex’s & close friends, you should realize they are only playing on the same right we ask of people who look at us modified people oddly; to be accepted for their choices & loved for who they are.

Elliot, the surgery looks amazing. You seem so happy in both pictures & I share your happiness. <3

This is amazing!
I myself am Genderqueer
as in i feel like i am neither male or female
I wish to remove my breasts like this but keep my feminine lower parts
it is the whole idea of there not just being two genders (male and female) but actually a third or more gender

sorry….having an opinion doesn’t make me ignorant. And contemporary doesn’t mean trendy, it’s just something that occurs in the present time…..but I guess big words aren’t for everyone….and anyone that changes the appearance of their body does not love who they are, they love who they have become, or who they made themselves into….jeez…..don’t you have any mods….you should know this….

I disagree with you on that one, Max. All my mods are my means to the end of becoming on the outside more like the person I am on the inside. So I do love who I am, and I wish to express this by adorning/altering certain parts of my physical body to “match” the person inside my head. :)
Nothing like as extreme as this brave (and hot!) individual, though. Personally I adore being female, but it’s a very admirable thing to do to actually change your body to such extreme and painful lengths to become who you really are. Max, honey, take a look at some gender theory and that may confuse you just enough to open your mind a little.
Kudos Elliott! You’re looking mighty fine, you cute little queer. :)

It’s a pity that total FTM transformations aren’t exactly as “perfect” and realistic as MTF tend to be. Sure, you can pass off as a male on a superficial level, but there’s no real FTM penis equivalent. A functional one, anyway. I realize that there are hormones for clitoral enlargement, and certain implants – but I’ve never seen an enlarged clitoris that could have passed in performance or appearance for a penis, and certainly not an ever-rigid implant. The MTF vulva typically looks pretty realistic, and I’ve read accounts that, with a little help, it can also pass for a vagina in touch.