Friday, September 30, 2011

pinky hand phone casing, winnie the pooh little bag and the little cutie bear (which lin thought was a kambing. hoho!) was sent by my mom through courier and I just received them today. Love them! thanks Mummy! XOXO!

birthday card from my coursemates! OT/4 you guys rocks!!!

the pinky bear, thank you maz!
this was the most wonderful birthday ever! thanks a lot guys. love ya!

gifts fr my thesis supervisor.tq dr!:)

got so many gifts within a week. wow! hehe. guess that luck is really on my side this week.XOXO.

*been through a week of posting in HKL doing neurology. hopefully next week will be able to get a case study. amen*

Saturday, September 24, 2011

As I've mentioned before, I'm extremely tired as I have just finished lifting, carrying and moving my things and stuffs to the new house. The distance - faaaaarrrr.

I opened my locker once I finished taking bath, and see what I found inside?? those cute little cupcakes! OMG... sooooooooo cute. My roomies surprised me with the cupcakes... I felt like crying.. terharu la knun.. but anyway, thanx a lot my dear roomies!

This two weeks had been the busiest days of my life. I still remember that it is my birthday this 24th Sept but with all the things happened, I kinda feel nothing, as if the day is like any other usual day.

I admit, I've been looking forward to this day.. since august! and now that the day is a few hours ago, I still feel nothing. huhu. pity me.

First and foremost, thank you Dear Lord, for You have given me another chance to live in this world, for all the family and friends around me and above all, your blessings . Thank You Lord!

Secondly, thanks Mummy! thanks Didie!.. I am a Cesarean baby, so you see how difficult it is for my mummy to have given birth to me. I was born two weeks earlier than the due expected and once I was born, I'm only 2.2 kg, even my nail hasn't grow yet! and look at my size now, no one would ever thought that I was just a small little baby before this.hoho! Didie, who try to fulfill every wishes that I had especially that I am the only girl in the family. Once again, thanks mummy and didie! I love you both! mmmwaaaahs*

My Sumandakz! thank you pretty sumandakz! sooo sorry that I won't be able to hang out with you guys on my birthday, still got unsettled things here. huhu.

My roomies , of course- for the surprises. hehe. .

Friends from far and near, whom I cant mentioned all here, thank you all. For all the wishes and supports you have given . I appreciate them all. May God shower you guys with abundant blessings! Amen.:)

Birthday wishes for this year ; a boyfriend, a slimmer body, a fairer skin.

Friday, September 16, 2011

I saw this at FB and I think everyone need to know. General information ni.hoho.;)

1. Tell her she is beautiful

2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.

3. Hug her from behind

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.

5. Wrestle with her :)

6. DONT GO HANG OUT WITH YOUR EX WHEN SHES NOT WITH YOU,YOU MIGHT NOT REALIZE HOW BADLY IT HURTS HER...

7. If youre talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her....let her know she's yours and they aren't.

8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"

9. Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.

10. Play with her hair.

12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it

11. Pick her up (she loves it)

13. Make her laugh

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.

15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.

16. If you care about her, then TELL HER

17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal (she'll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she'll treasure it forever), and one of his t- shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed) or sweatshirts sprayed with his cologne!! and flowers or something occasionally.

18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile.

20. Hang out with her on weekends

21.Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)

22.Kiss her just for the heck of it

23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.

24. Remember her birthday and get her something,even ifnits simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER.

25. when she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)

26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don't care so call even if you can only talk for a minute.Girls don't necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.

27. Give her what she wants

28. Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.

29.dont hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out.

30.hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang wit your girl friend all the time..

Makes it worse, we've got to send our proposal draft this monday, which I haven't started yet. Doing this require internet connection. Need to search for journals and articles kan. But, then, our current residential college sekarang, no internet connection. So, need to nomad to K1, for free internet connection.

Thank God, I've got my clinical placement nearby. But still, I need to study and prepare myself before going posting. But, all my stuffs and books still in K1. With this nomad lifestyle, there's no way I can carry books around and be able to read them.

It's normal that whenever we feel down, stress, frustrated or even happy, we tend to share them with our friends or loved ones. Well, same goes for me, with all the things happen in such a short time, I tend to go and talk and share with my friends. To be exact - girl friends.

Yesterday, after meeting the person in charged and knowing about the result that still unsure yet, I suddenly felt so hopeless, speechless and don't know what to do and even think. I felt like crying but the tears won't come out. I think you guys know what it feels like, you wanted to cry but can't, and all stuck up in your chest.

I suddenly feel the urge to spill out what I felt inside to a person. But not just a random person. And of course, not a girl friends.

Because you see, I've shared everything to my girl friends here ( who's having the same problem) and now, I wanted to search for someone out of the circles I'm in now. ( circles - yang bukan org UKM)

Frankly speaking, I wanted to talk to a boy. I don't know if you realize this, but talking to a boy and girl about the same matter is soo different. Not that I wanted to discriminate either one, but at one time, you'll need to talk to them - boys.

At this point of frustration and sadness, all I want is to turn to that someone ( which I don't know who, in my case. For others, maybe their boyfriend), I just want to talk and share what I've been through and felt to him. I don't care if he won't say anything but the very least he can do is listen to me. And it would be an advantage , if he offers words of encouragement and support or saying "It's okay, everything will be fine".

A "no - no" if he says the other way round, meaning like, " I told you so " or etc. Those short phrases may hurt a lot especially when it comes to this special person talking.

See, the power that this special person holds on you. It's either a he or she, they can destroy you or makes you the happiest person in the world in just a second!

I don't have that special someone or boyfriend at the moment. So, I don't know who to turn to. Somehow, at this point, I felt so pity for myself. Not that , my previous bf symptoms is back but I just wish that I have the special person to turn to at times like this.

I start scrolling for my phone contacts but I don't know who is that person that I wanted to talk too.

At last, I sms my bff - a boy. But after a few messages, he went missing. : ( This the other thing that I soo don't like. Another down moment here.

I did try sms another one ( this one is not a bff,kinda have a crush on him a bit. hoho). But he went missing even before I started to spill out things. I tried again, sms-ing him at night, and that if he free, I wanted to just have a chat with him, but once again I was ignored.

damn frustrated again. :(

Thanks to my roomies, after doing a little bit of silly things, I felt much better.

Later at night, the boy- bff that went missing at the day called me. Thanks,you! It was a relief to be able to have a chat with you. Thanks for making me laugh. At ones, I felt the burden became less heavier. Thanks kawan.

Nomad is in Malay term. I'm not quite sure what is the term in english though. Never mind.

Nomad - check your history classes way back when you were or maybe still in secondary school. Sure you guys have heard of this term. But then, just in case you haven't heard of this nomad term, let me explain it briefly for you.

It's been a week now , here in KL since my arriving from Sabah last weekend. * still homesick*

For this semester, mostly, me and my course mates were given the outside residential college. But , some of us got the NOT SO GOOD one.! huhu. :(

Upon arriving at the room, looks soooo old, dusty. The only best thing is that, our room got our own bathroom / toilet. but then, NO WATER! and the toilet looks so damn creepy. I bet we can make a haunted / horror toilet movie in it. astaga. !

Me and my room mate went exploring the whole house Got another bathroom. Oh damn! looks dirty and creepy too. Water resources, ada. TAPI, so little that I'm not even sure if it is enough for the whole house.

Sorry to say this. and I don't care what ever thoughts you have of me. Although at the age of almost 22 ( hehe) , I cried seeing the condition of the room. Not to say that I'm manja , but then, the room looks so frustrating. huhu. :(

Glad that me and my roomies tu memang satu kepala, starting from that first night, we decided to go and stay at our other friend's house - Plaza RAH, which is faaaaaarrrr beyond comfortable than this one.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Today is Monday, 5th of Sept 2011. This is the final week I've got here in Sabah. : (

Uwaaaa!! I don't want this holiday to end. I don't want to go back yet.

This semester's was the longest holiday I've ever had. From May to Sept - around 4 to 5 months la! Minus one month for the Industrial Training and still left, sooooo many months (hehe!) to be in holidays mood, aite?!

And since I only have my part time during the weekends, and the weekdays spent at dearest home sweet home.. oh., splendid! hoho! best hols ever. ! haha.

I can't deny that there were times that I'm feeling bored to death . Doing the same routines almost everyday - wake up, laundry , sweeping, cleaning the house, cooking n bla bla bla.. hoho! Never mind, I take that as an additional classes to polish my skills for a future housewife post. haha! (a total euw kan? hoho)

Although I've been mentally ( I think ) and physically prepared for my going back to KL trip - which I've started packing some of my clothes a few weeks ago and now started searching and washing for other stuffs that I need to bring, but my dearly little heart hasn't prepared for it yet. : (

I wish I could stay home a little bit longer. And since some of my friends has finished their study and will be graduating soon, it feels much worser. I now wish that I've finished my study and then, can sit goyang kaki at home while waiting for the convocation day. huh!

What makes it funnier is, I even pictured myself (in a new transformation) with a slimmer body and a shorter hair. The image that I would display once I got a job. ( kunun. astaga!)

Oh no! Time do flies fast. I can't believe that I'm going back to campus again. It's not that I don't miss what I have there, but I've grew attachment staying here, at home, Sabah. huhu. :(

Since I'll be entering my final year this coming semester, this is another thing that makes me feel uneasy, nervous and butterfly in the stomach ? hoho ( sorry, I don't really quite remember idioms these days like I did when I was in school days! )

I'm afraid that I won't be able to handle the stresses from the thesis, clinical posting, case study, presentation and maybe etc. Who knows? I just have this thought that, final year would be a very tiring, stressful and busiest time I will ever had. In short, it looks ugly for me. ;(

I'm not quite sure for myself if I'm able to handle all the upcoming circumstances later on. But, anyhow I just hope and prat that everything will go fine and a success! * Amen*

Heart is still in a holiday mood. ;(

*Dear Lord, shower me with your blessings that I may have my safe journey back to my campus. I pray that I'll be given the strength, courage and motivation to face my final year and to be able to do the very best of my ability. Amen *

Farewell then Sabah, I'm 201 % sure I'll be missing you. See you again next year. !

I have been very lucky + fortunate recently. It's like a dream come true! hoho. *Thank You Lord*

I'm not sure if you guys had seen my previous post in fb ( which, I don't quite remember when did I post it - last year maybe). I posted about the desire to have a Swatch watch and a Nose heels. I think! hoho. and today, I mean a few days ago.. I got a Swatch! ohemjih! betul2 dream

come true punya kan.

A million thanks then to my brother . He bought it for me - birthday gift in advance! hoho.

my pinky colourful swatch!!

Oh then. another gift that I got was from my aunt. She went to Spain for the World Youth Day and look what she got for me. : )

earrings! love them!

Actually, she got me another one. A red rosary beads, which I totally forgot to take picture of it. Nevermind then!

Since holiday has almost come to its end, I've quit my part time job - mo menghabiskan sisa- sisa cuti kunun! I'll be missing those kids, although they were quite naughty. This has been one of the most wonderful experience I had.

with some of the kids - the other, absent!

Another Fb- post mentioned here. This one was quite new la. A few days ago about getting a hair cut or not. Blame my eyes. hoho! this is because, I've seen my friend with her hair shorter, so saya pun mau2 mcm tu. But then, I'm in dilemma. Afraid that, if I cut it short, I might regret them later.

At last, another episode of hair rebonding. haha!

p/s: sorry. no picture available for this one. hoho. I still look the same, only with the straight and flat hair. hoho.

It's Raya Season now and most of it, I mean Raya 1st till the 3rd day, fully occupied with the invitation.

Sure I've gained weight because I won't stop eating. *habes la*

and then, Sumandakz Reunion. -fantabulous!-

Feels good to be able to catch up with them. hoho. :)

This holidays had been amazingly great for me . I learn and been through a lot, met new people and be friends with them as well as catching up with old friends. Thank God, for another seconds of being able to breathe and enjoy this creation of Yours. Amen!

I'll stop here then. Till then, take a good care of yourself and do appreciate every moment you have. Have a joyous and enjoyable time with your loved ones.