hey, i think she's still breathing...

hey, i think she's still breathing...

I've been stuck in this string of mishaps and ill-intentioned occurrences since... oh god knows when. but i'm still alive! ha, yea, just barely.

i suddenly realize that I have completely detached myself and deprived myself of everything that is familiar to my life 6 months ago. not that this is all bad. I have a new job, which requires me to dress all business-y and important, although i really am not... (god forbid i ever wander into the realm of shoulder pads in business wear. I'm tryin to keep my style in check, even if i have to do the whole "business casual" thing.) I'm okay with all that, as long as they don't make me do my hair all poufy and make me wear gaudy, iridescent dresses so that I end up looking like a Dynasty hussy. Oh wait, 80's flashback. *looks at picture* it really WAS a terrible time for fashion. sorry, sidetracked. anyway, i am again moving out into a nicer living situation so that i don't have to deal with people who live upstairs from my room who feel the need to move furniture (or do SOMETHING that makes waaay too much noise) at 1 am, and school... well, yea. school is school. Can't say much about that. so yea, it hasn't been all bad. But that is the extremely slim silver lining I keep telling myself i've gained so that I won't break down into a state of utter defeat after all the CRAP that has piled up on my plate.

Yep, crap. That's exactly how to describe my experiences thus far since venturing out into the unknown abyss known as life. (garden state!) Kids, once you move out of your mom and dad's, it aint easy. No one has to do ANYTHING for you. People can screw you over just for the fuck of it and there usually aren't very many people willing to help a girl out. (very few exceptions.) Since the car crash fiasco, I've shifted my focus to my life on my own. I went from selling video games (a job that kicks ass, i must say...) to selling cell phones. Laugh all you want, but it'll pay off soon. Hopefully... that is if my company will ever issue me a damn paycheck. That's right. In another twist of "what the hell else can go wrong for me," the now-former manager of my territory quit the week after he hired me. In his final week of dicking around and generally not caring, he screwed up the new hire's paperwork (that would be mine...) and now I can't get my check until my damn company actually knows I WORK for them. So in the meantime, I've been slaving for these jerks for a month without pay, while my money has dwindled down to the lint in my pockets. (that's literally speaking; the last check on my checking account revealed that i have $.82 left to my name. yea.) it's sad when the only time i have to update here is because I HAD to miss work, due to the lack of funds to fill up my gas tank to cover my shift. Ha. Now if that ain't rock bottom, i don't know what is. throw school on top of all that, too. dealing with my stupidity in art history sucks. for some reason, i just cannot get myself to stay awake in a classroom for two hours to stare at slides and get lectured to. it's not my professor's fault either... she's actually pretty cool. But it's hard to teach a subject like that and not end up having half of your class asleep when you flip the lights back on. She starts to sound like Charlie Brown's teacher after awhile. Political Science sucks too. If any CSUN students read this, don't ever be late to this guy's class. You'll want to knee him in the balls when he tells you that you can't sign the roll sheet for walking in at 8:01. (yes, that's 8:01 AM.) Plus, he's just generally a douchebag.

worst of all, this lack of money situation has caused a rift between myself and my love for gaming. what else can i do but sit outside the window and peer into EB like Tiny Tim on Christmas Eve? I'm being deprived. sniff. there's been so much released since i've fallen into a money pit... damn being constantly reminded of my financial situation! I'd normally be on top of all the games I anticipate, but I just don't get the chance to anymore. Dynasty Warriors 5, especially. Anyone played it yet? I know I know, it's the same stuff every time, but I can't help it. It's hack-n-slash goodness. I heard they added some more combo moves, blah blah blah... eh, doesn't matter. As long as 2 player co-op stays, I'm good to go. Anyone have any thoughts on Devil May Cry 3 as well? That was another one I have yet to pick up. Dante makes being an asshole look damn good, i must say. God, every time i look into the mags, there's a game coming out that I haven't kept up with. i think my last game purchase was Katamari Damacy... damn. I've had to try and keep my hunger for new gaming occupied by firing up a few rounds of Halo 2 rumble pit. But the quick fix is wearing out fast. For shame. What kind of gamer am I? Not keeping up with the latest and greatest.... tsk, tsk. Anyway, enough self-deprecation. On the bright side, I have gotten the chance to spend some quality time with the PSP though, and may I say... freakin gorgeous. that, along with this pictorial below, is all i need to say. Looks like the whole world will soon fall under the spell.... Sorry nintendo, but i think you just got served.

im bored

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Those PSPs aren't even playing the same game.
I think the PSP vs NDS war is far, far from over... contrary to that pic, I think Pictochat alone is more fun than half of the PSP's current library. All you need is a friend, and the gaming taste to appreciate more than just Madden games, GTA clones, WWE Smakdown in Your Momma's House RAW!! --*BANG* *BANG* *BANG* *BANG* *BANG* --or whatever the frat boys of America are playing this week.