The Last Day and the Lost Chance

This is an unusual day for me. I have not felt like this ever before. It has been exactly four years I have joined this college and this is the last day. Everybody is preparing hard and this is the final exam .

Some thing is peculiar since last night and I am not bothered about the Exam. I have been trying to concentrate on my book, but all in vain. All I can hear is the murmuring sound outside the Exam hall and some Wierd equations in my Text book.

I cant look into this any more. I closed everything and started looking for her arrival. Yes.. I have been desperately waiting. This is the first time I am having such a feeling for her. I know her from the first year and we were good freinds. We have shared all those happiest moments together.I cant just imagine that today is the end for everything.I am feared of

loosing her... Yes.... that is the moment I realised I love her madly. Oh .. this is absurd.. How can i think like this. She is my best friend.. I am totally confused....

She is coming...with that pink dress. God .. she is looking damn beautiful today. I dont want to hide my feelings anymore.I am going to tell everything to her.. I decided. She came closer and smiled at me. I am frozen. I dont need anything more I Just want to see her smile for the rest of my life. But she was so casual.

" Hi da. I am much feared. I dont remember anything" She told.

She is same as I saw her in the 1st year. She didnt change . She was turning the pages in a hurry.

" what.. have you finished everything. why is your book closed " She asked.

I was quiet.I dont know what to say. I was thinking how am I going to express my feelings.

"Hey.. what happend to you. Why are you looking like this ". This time she is looking at me waiting for my reply.

I told “ Nothing” .

And then the bell rang and everybody went in to the exam hall.

As usual I wrote my registration number 10 times and the Subject code 12 times in the front page. Finally I got the question paper.

They have exactly asked what i had left in the syllabus. This is not unusual and I am used to this in all these four years.I slowly turned and looked at her. She should have finished writing 10 pages by now . She was writing like she is the one who writes Exam for the whole college.

I turned back and looked at my friend. He was looking at a girl as i did. I can see the same reaction in his face as I got.

Suddenly the invigilator looked at me as if I have hacked his salary account. Finally I decided to write something and Still I got 2 more hours.

I wrote what all I know and I have just filled ten pages. For sure this wont be enough to make me pass. And those internals....

My professors used to give me internals based on their total number of family memebers. Now i have no other option.I just copied those 10 pages. Now i reached 20 pages and this is a good number. This is enough i thought.. Even if it is not , i dont mind.

As usual I am the first to get out of the Exam hall. I have been keeping this record for quite a long time. As i stood to return my answer sheet , Examiner told " 45 mins more" and he looked like he dont want to collect my answer sheet. As I was already in a big confusion , I went back to my seat. By that time she has changed her colour pens thrice. When the invigilator told

" 30 mins more " thats the moment... her speed Overtook Ferrari. I have not written that number of pages in my whole semester exam.

These were the words I have been expecting from the invigilator " Those Who finished can return your answer sheets".

Next moment I returned the answer sheet and I started waiting for her outside the Exam hall Starring at her. She finally managed to return the answer sheet and gave a cold smile at me.

I just wanted to say how much I love her. She came to me and asked

" Do you know how to solve that Part-B problem. I think I have done wrong unit conversion"

These words looked alien to me and I asked her

" Can we go to canteen ..?"

We both had a coffee and for the first time I am tounge tied before her. I dont know how to say and I gave her a strange look.

" Then .. We dont Meet after this na...? " She asked.

I nodded my head slowly. What is this.. Why cant i speak..?

"I am going to join by this month end " she continued. Yes. She got job in an MNC and Still i am struggling to clear the Signal Processing paper.

One of our class mates came there , and called us to take group photo. She called me and I told that I will be coming with my friends.

She went and I felt I lost those precious moments i got . I dont know what restricted me .

And finally I decided not to discuss with her about this anymore. Perhaps I dont have guts to do that. Let this be continued as friendship . I smiled for the photo standing behind her.