Here's a new twist on shy and something I struggled with my first burn. I would ride my bike along and this camp would call out to me saying "Hey, have some watermelon!". My first response was "No thank you". Not so much because I was shy (which I am) but because I didn't want to put them out. You know? I didn't want to feel like they were obligated to give me something. I prepared for the playa. I'm ready to go. I don't need help. I was truly "self reliant", right? Thanks to an upbringing that reinforced self sufficiency, I was not used to accepting help, or in this case, gifts, from others. (Thanks a lot, Mom and Dad.)

It took me awhile to really understand that people weren't obligated to give something, they wanted to. That is a powerful thing, if you really think about it. They want to give. And when you have 50,000+ people wanting to give things to others with nothing expected in return....that turns the default world we are so used to upside down.

By the way, that watermelon lady dogged me all day long. Each time I rode by, she was out there calling to me, heckling me almost. I finally broke down one day and sought her out, but when I arrived, the camp was empty. There is a lesson there somewhere I think.

I don't generally think of myself as a shy person, but reading this thread reminds me that I'm heading alone to a city of 60,000 people where I literally don't know a soul. I can't lie, that's a little bit intimidating. Of course, I'm going so that I can push my own boundaries and experience something new, but there's definitely a part of me that is nervous about my ability to approach strangers.

I am not shy but sort of I guess, I am a person who if I was able to I would be friends with everyone there and I will try striking up conversations all week but my problem is and always was,I do not want to start off on the wrong foot and do something uncool...so at first I am cautous,I still look it as there is there place I have been here including this year two times, some of these great people have been here for 20+ years! I respect these folks alot

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I for one feel safer when writing messages. I can look at what I wrote, the delete or add or re-word my statement until my initial blunders are corrected. Then send it.

But when talking in person, my blunders can't be taken back. I can only hope that the listener is tolerant (and smart) enough to expect some mistakes, and tries to understand what I meant to say. Or asks a question, giving me the opportunity to say it in a better way.

My experience at BM (2010) was that the people I met and talked with were not judgemental. They accepted some confusion and wierdness as part of the fun interaction. I did not sense as much automatic mistrust and avoidance by others as I often do in street situations. When I arrived at BM, hearing "Welcome Home!" and being hugged by a uniquely dressed and sexy woman started things well for me. I did feel emotional about this, and feeling accepted did help me to find the courage to reach out more to initiate conversations. When I did so, all were enjoyable to some degree. Then I would float off to see something (or someone) else of interest. My only regrets were the times when I was too shy to start conversations. I still need to overcome my (moderate) social phobia, and Burning Man is a great place to take a chance, set aside some inhibitions, and meet some interesting people.

Another shy person tip: try wearing some unusual article of clothing. I know it's hard to stand out at Burning Man where there are crazy costumes all around, but I can say that, without a doubt, my $0.25 witch hat from the thrift shop Halloween bargain bucket got me more comments, shout-outs, and general interaction from strangers than pretty much anything else I did on the playa. Except for volunteering with Lamplighters, of course.

Just make sure it's something you're comfortable wearing, in the sense that you can own it, show it off and in the practical temperature/wind/chafing sense. Bonus points if you made/repurposed the article of clothing yourself, because that can get the conversation going!

When he lights his streetlamp, it is as if he brought one more star to life, or one flower.When he puts out his lamp, he sends the flower, or the star, to sleep.That is a beautiful occupation.

it seems the more i have invested in Burning Man the shyer I become, last year when it didnt matter if i came back again or not i was not at all shy. This year I have a commitment to going so I didnt want to ruin it and not be able to come back. I imagine next year I will spend my whole time in the monkey hut refusing to interact in case i ruin it all and the dream ends with blood and tears

FREE THE SHERPASBurners with torches is right and natural and just.-fishy.CATCH AND RELEASE.

theCryptofishist wrote:No. I'm much better in print/writing. I spent years reading because I don't know how to deal with people. So, I'm an interesting writer. And I don't know how I got to be an opinionated cuss.

I too feel more comfortable writing than talking. My bipolar disorder makes me paranoid that I am talking too much, going overboard, and I often am. I appreciate the friends who get this and feel comfy telling me to shut my yap. Alternately I spend a lot if time just being quiet to avoid being annoying.

At the MnG this year Fishy I loved getting to see you, give you a hug, and sit quietly near you for a time. I did not feel pressure to talk or be quiet, I just had the pleasure of being in someone' s company who I respect and admire. You are always a revelation and entertaining even when you are just sitting quietly and perhaps throwing a pointed look someone' s way occasionally.

So even the shy and quiet have their moments when they shine and we all must remember that and be vigilant to notice them.

May All Beings Be WellMay All Beings Be HappyMay All Beings Be Free From Suffering-Buddhist Blessing

graidawg wrote:it seems the more i have invested in Burning Man the shyer I become, last year when it didnt matter if i came back again or not i was not at all shy. This year I have a commitment to going so I didnt want to ruin it and not be able to come back. I imagine next year I will spend my whole time in the monkey hut refusing to interact in case i ruin it all and the dream ends with blood and tears

I call bullshit! You were a wonderful and fun presence this year. You hit on me the last night in a very non-shy and adorable fashion. If I wasn' t in a committed relationship I might just have taken you up on it ( wink). You are clever and witty and humorous and self- deprecating in the best way. Keep up the good work

May All Beings Be WellMay All Beings Be HappyMay All Beings Be Free From Suffering-Buddhist Blessing

graidawg wrote:it seems the more i have invested in Burning Man the shyer I become, last year when it didnt matter if i came back again or not i was not at all shy. This year I have a commitment to going so I didnt want to ruin it and not be able to come back. I imagine next year I will spend my whole time in the monkey hut refusing to interact in case i ruin it all and the dream ends with blood and tears

I call bullshit! You were a wonderful and fun presence this year. You hit on me the last night in a very non-shy and adorable fashion. If I wasn' t in a committed relationship I might just have taken you up on it ( wink). You are clever and witty and humorous and self- deprecating in the best way. Keep up the good work

I typed a long response to this and my internet connection cut out.

it was long and mostly sad explanation of why i said i will get more shy the more often i come to BM, the esence being the longer i know people the less they like me, so cut down on contact the longer we stay friends.

i guess being back in defaultia weighs just as heavily on me as last year. i miss you all so much

FREE THE SHERPASBurners with torches is right and natural and just.-fishy.CATCH AND RELEASE.

I call bullshit too! You are willfully wallowing in self-pity. Look up to the light. It is there. You just got some fantastic praise, from someone who was there with you, spent time with you. Someone who found you interesting, the way you are. She smiled at you, so smile back. You are more likeable than you realize. You have been accepted as part of the BM family. So do your part and spread the blessings to others. You are valuable that way.

You're forgiven. We all are self-defeating to some extent. I, for example, have often held back due to fear of looking stupid. But I do that less now. We are all stupid. That's my motto. We are all creative geniuses. That's my motto. Maybe a bit of both, and we don't develop unless we give our ideas a try. If we present them as a gift, to please someone else, it is so much fun that it is worth the risk of reaching out of our shells.

<snip>By the way, that watermelon lady dogged me all day long. Each time I rode by, she was out there calling to me, heckling me almost. I finally broke down one day and sought her out, but when I arrived, the camp was empty. There is a lesson there somewhere I think.[/quote]

Maybe this lesson? ImmediacyImmediate experience is, in many ways, the most important touchstone of value in our culture. We seek to overcome barriers that stand between us and a recognition of our inner selves, the reality of those around us, participation in society, and contact with a natural world exceeding human powers. No idea can substitute for this experience.

I'm the MAN in a truck, burner who is stuck, you're in luck! I'll whip out my BIG tow chain and not charge you, not even one lousy buck!

If your first instinct is to refuse it, that is a sign you need to do the opposite of your instinct. It reminds me of George on that show Seinfeld and George doing everything opposite of his instinct and it working out:

"If every instinct you have is wrong, then the opposite would have to be right."

"I used to sit here and do nothing, and regret it for the rest of the day."

So don't regret it. Better to regret what you did than what you did not.

Or not. But at least it's something to try. Hey, you're at Burning Man, climb out of your shell no matter how much it hurts. I try to be my own "conscience" where I try and give myself that shove in the direction to do something outside that shell. It doesn't always work, unfortunately.

"The essence of tyranny is not iron law. It is capricious law." -- Christopher Hitchens

BBadger wrote:If your first instinct is to refuse it, that is a sign you need to do the opposite of your instinct. It reminds me of George on that show Seinfeld and George doing everything opposite of his instinct and it working out:

"If every instinct you have is wrong, then the opposite would have to be right."

I was questioning my instincts the whole of last year because it seemed like I wasn't having fun like others. Cultural differences were staring at my face and it seemed like it would be wise thing to adapt. This year's burn was simply great because it helped me understand the basic fact that I am where I need to be, even if I can't seem to belong.

BBadger wrote:If your first instinct is to refuse it, that is a sign you need to do the opposite of your instinct. It reminds me of George on that show Seinfeld and George doing everything opposite of his instinct and it working out:

"If every instinct you have is wrong, then the opposite would have to be right."

I was questioning my instincts the whole of last year because it seemed like I wasn't having fun like others. Cultural differences were staring at my face and it seemed like it would be wise thing to adapt. This year's burn was simply great because it helped me understand the basic fact that I am where I need to be, even if I can't seem to belong.

I can't imagine, you not "belonging"........people love you here. You fit nicely.

BBadger wrote:If your first instinct is to refuse it, that is a sign you need to do the opposite of your instinct. It reminds me of George on that show Seinfeld and George doing everything opposite of his instinct and it working out:

"If every instinct you have is wrong, then the opposite would have to be right."

I was questioning my instincts the whole of last year because it seemed like I wasn't having fun like others. Cultural differences were staring at my face and it seemed like it would be wise thing to adapt. This year's burn was simply great because it helped me understand the basic fact that I am where I need to be, even if I can't seem to belong.

Imagine one of us wandering around a festival in India, delightfully confused. Sometimes that culture shock can be delicious.

wh..sh wrote:I was questioning my instincts the whole of last year because it seemed like I wasn't having fun like others. Cultural differences were staring at my face and it seemed like it would be wise thing to adapt. This year's burn was simply great because it helped me understand the basic fact that I am where I need to be, even if I can't seem to belong.

You? Can't seem to belong? That's crazy talk. You must've completed the transformation before I ran into you this year.

"The essence of tyranny is not iron law. It is capricious law." -- Christopher Hitchens