4.28.2015

We hear the word image and, more often than not, we immediately draw invisible lines: Those are images over there; this is reality. On the one side, we see paintings, ads, magazines, tv shows; on the other, we see buildings, mountains, people, traffic. Which is to say, we see images as images of the world, as representations, as reflections. First comes the world, then come images.

Henri Bergson offers a different image of the image. To him, the word matter and the word image can be swapped. The world, Bergson maintains, is images. By which he does not mean that everything is ephemeral, a dream, or hallucination. Rather, he means that everything we encounter is something we perceive — whether it's a painting, our faces, our brains, our blood.

The Socratic image of the image is something that is a shadow, a replica, a derivative. First, there are Ideas, Forms, abstract beings that are eternal and true. Then come things of this world, bodies and vases and such. And then come images which are imitations of things which are themselves derivatives of Ideas or Forms. There's the Idea Chair; there are actual different chairs; and there's a photograph, poem, or painting of a chair. For Socrates, it's a linear progression, a movement to and away from the eternal truths. Derrida refers to this as the metaphysics of presence: we get closer to or farther from some stable, absolute truth.

Bergson's image of the image is quite different. Everything in the world is just so much stuff going with other stuff. None of it is privileged. Nothing comes first. There is no hierarchy. When I take a picture of you with my camera, I'm not deriving something from you or the world. I'm making something new. Just as everything comes from other things — you, from a sperm and egg and a vast culture that surrounds you — a photograph comes from other things, namely, a technology, sometimes a person, and a vast culture that surrounds it. This doesn't make it any less new.

What is an image, then? Well, an image need not be visual. Sounds, words, ideas, smells — these are images, too. They literally make an impression on us, imprint themselves on our bodies, our senses, ourselves. And we imprint and impress (or not) back.

Images are things like other things. But different things go in different ways — a mountain sits content as it aspires, or until it explodes; a car vrooms and exhausts and conveys; I rant and rave and mumble and write. Paintings go as paintings go and different paintings go differently than other paintings. In fact, some paintings go like photographs and some photographs go like poems and some people go like dogs and some dogs go like cats. Things go as they go, with the world around them, as the part of the world.

Photographs are strange in that they are made by a machine that can see. So when you look at a photograph, you're seeing the seeing of a machine. Of course, this machine is more than just a mechanical device; it includes the mechanics of a human being (usually) and light, not to mention a culture at large. A camera takes a picture of the world — it takes that moment in the world and makes it its own, flattens out, fixes it this way or that. Which is to say, a photograph is not a picture of the world, a representation or reflection: it is another thing, a slice of the world metabolized by machine and culture and eyeballs.

A camera gathers up a perceptive event in its entirety. It'd gloriously stupid, or generous, like that. My eyes don't always notice what's right in front of them. But a camera doesn't know or categorize when it sees: it sees it all. Cameras are radically democratic.

And downright strange in that they do see. What the heck? I can say a rock sees in that the way it takes on the wind and water and other rocks; its wear is its perception. But a camera sees much like we see. In the very event of taking a picture, of making a picture, the camera sees. But, what's even weirder, is that it not only sees right now: it is a perpetual seeing, at least for that moment. That is to say, I see you and that image enters my body and there it stays, coming out in different ways over time. But a camera offers up its seeing in perpetuity in the form of the photograph. This is seeing untethered by a particular body. A camera promises and threatens — a camera offers — this seeing of you to all eyes everywhere, across time.

That is a different kind of seeing event. And if we are fundamentally beings who perceive and are perceived, then the terms of camera viewing create a different kind of being. When I think about it like that, it seems strange that I ever imagined that a photograph was merely a picture of the world. Cameras create a distinctive imaging event, one that's different than being seen by another person — it's being seen by a machine's eye that is all possible eyes across time and space.

I know that I, for one, get weird when people take my picture. I don't know how to act naturally. What could that even mean? How the heck do you act naturally in front of a camera? Does that mean to act as if the camera isn't there? Or does that mean to act as if the camera is there, which it is? What does natural mean in that context?

4.22.2015

There's something just plain old creepy about this concept of cheating — in romantic relationship terms, at least. I have to think about cheating in the broader sense. But in relationships, the word irritates me.

Picture this. You have a sweetie. She's cool and pretty and smart and funny and all the things you like. She's out on the town no doubt being cool and pretty and smart and funny. And she catches some guy's eye or he catches hers. They talk, laugh, and — whoa! — kiss. Then they kiss some more. Then they head back to his place and do what they want.

From one perspective, she's betrayed your trust. How could she?!? But what is it, exactly, that she did wrong? After standing five feet back from the scene, it is absolutely insane that this could possibly be construed as a bad thing. That this is cheating! Who is she cheating? Two people enjoyed each other's company. And not just any two people but someone you love! She enjoyed someone else's company and had fun. Isn't that awesome? When she comes home, shouldn't you be happy for her? And shouldn't she be able to feel happy and safe and content — rather than guilty and ashamed?

How does this become a crime? Well, because we — myself, I fear, first and foremost — are weak. We take our sweetie's pleasure in someone else as a rejection of ourselves rather than as an affirmation of her (or him, of course). In our weakness and self-doubt, we demand ownership of our so-called love's desires and actions, body and soul.

I'm not suggesting all fucking around is groovy. There are sleazy and manipulative guys and gals who are in relationships while enjoying the psycho-sexual company of others. They feel guilty but do it anyway. When questioned about it by an insecure lover, they deny and lie. They even make their presumed sweet pea feel like a lunatic for even thinking that they could be with someone else! And that — that lack of self presence — is reprehensible, or at least distasteful. This is what I want to call cheating.

Cheating is not the act of getting it on with some strange. It's the act of not being present and loving with your avowed partner. To cheat is to believe there's a way around being present, a way around being yourself, a way around the cosmos. Which is downright stupid seeing as everything, alas, is the cosmos. There's no way around it because you are it.

I am not saying that we must be fully honest with our lovers all the time. There is a space for secrets in all of our lives; these secrets can be a source of tremendous power. To be the only one who knows this thing about you can be affirming.

And, often, people confess their sins to their lovers in the name of honesty. But that's bullshit. If you're confessing then you believe you did something wrong and you hope, in declaring it, that you'll be absolved. That just repeats the Catholic regime of dominance and self-loathing.

Which is to say, there are times to keep your mouth shut, for sure. You don't have to tell your girlfriend about every fantasy and flirtation. Guilt should never be your motivation. Me, I'm not very good at keeping my mouth shut and, as I want to be self-present with my lovers, I tend to avoid doing anything that might make me feel I can't be present. I'm a terrible liar. Which is not a brag. In fact, if anything, I see it as a fault. I know people, including women I've dated, who can effectively maintain multiple goings-on, keep that fact from all parties, and feel just fine about it. Power to them. Indeed, I'm impressed by that ability. But I just can't do that. Perhaps I'm too under the yoke of bourgeois bullshit.

My point is not that we should or must tell each other everything. My point is that we should rethink romance as the work, and the will, to be present with one another. My point is that it's insane to feel guilty or judgmental because someone had sex or desires. My point is that we should shed all the bullshit of possession and ownership that our sense of romance demands and that marriage ratifies. Defining romance as absolute sexual and desiring fidelity makes everyone in the relationship weak; it justifies our guilt and our judgement. It makes all of us miserable. True romance, I imagine, is all too rare in that it demands self-presence and acceptance of the other — not judgement, ownership, domination.

Sure, sometimes all of us are weak. Sure, sometimes all of us are insecure, self-doubting, self-loathing. Sure, it's incumbent on the one who messes around elsewhere to be calm, cool, reassuring. But it's also incumbent on the other to be cool, calm, as self-possessed as he or she can. That's what marriage is. It's not saying I'll never bone, or even desire, anyone else. It's: I'll work continuously on being present to, and with, you. Relationships, and marriage, are not about dominating the other person, owning him or her, denying the other desire and frolic. It's about deciding to be fully present to another person. Marriage should be a commitment to excellence, not an act of ownership. (That is, if you feel the need to marry at all.)

I know this is much easier said than done. I know that the forces of weakness dominate our culture as well as our very selves. They sure as shit pervade me. It tells us that cheaters be cheaters and they're sleazy and bad. That it's good and right and normal and healthy to demand the absolute attention of our spouse or lover — all the time — when this is in fact the sickness, the madness, the disease that poisons the well of romance (not to mention life itself).

I say: Let's be done with the whole concept of cheating. People sometimes desire each other; that's not a bad thing. In fact, it seems like a good thing. So rather than ownership, let's seek self-presence with another. Let's make it ok and good to say: I love you and I wouldn't mind kissing that person's neck. There's no but, as it were. Love is and to infinity.

4.20.2015

My mood changes. My opinions change, often behind
my back (pace Nicholson Baker). Sometimes, I feel edgy or angry but only
because I haven't eaten or slept or because that Ambien hasn't worn off.
Although what does "only because" even mean? Does my fatigue or hunger
generate my mood? Or do they fuel it? Or just create the
conditions for its emergence?

Often, I am carried along by the mood of the day —
the toothy exuberance of the San Francisco sun irritates me while the low
hanging grey of fog and cloud mellows me with melancholy. Then there's traffic
and my kid's issues and the toils, trials, and tribulations of dating and
working and heaving this ridiculous body through space and time.

I mean, I can wake up and be so freakin’ angry with
someone (usually, it's a woman). And I think: Oh, I'm so done with
this! I'm ending this relationship! And then I go to the kitchen, make
my smoothie, drink my coffee and find my anger has subsided. So she's a
little nuts, I think. So what? So am I. My magnanimity trumps
my rage — at least for the moment.

Amidst all this pushing and pulling on my entrails
and moods, how am I to make a decision? Which mood is right? In which state
should I make a decision? How do I make this decision? When I think
about it all, it seems a miracle that I ever decide anything. Suddenly, I
understand Beckett.

I've been rewatching the achingly brilliant Deadwood
for the umpteenth time (my unbridled love and appreciation for this show
deserves more space and time and eloquence than this). One ongoing issue is
that Seth Bullock, played by Timothy Olyphant, has a tendency to fly into a
rage, to let his immediate mood dictate his actions and decisions, often
fucking things up for those around him. In fact, this is true of many of the
characters in the show: they feel something and act in the same moment, usually
to everyone's detriment.

But then there's Al Swearengen, played by the
brilliant Ian McShane, who doesn't act on his immediate feeling but waits,
thinks, strategizes, finds the angle, the best way to play the situation to the
advantage of both himself and his community, namely, the camp of Deadwood.
(Watch here >) He continually subverts his
immediate drives in order to contemplate the angles so that he can make a good
decision (whatever that is).

After all, making a decision based on how you feel
right now is often silly. The now may be everything but it is not one thing: it
is a juncture, a nexus of everything that has happened and everything that
could happen. Yes, right this second, you drive me apeshit. But in an hour, a
day, a week you may very well delight me again. So how do I make the move to be
with you or not? To break up with you or not?

I, for one, tend to avoid decisions. I like to
float along, to drift with the flow of what's happening. I applied to one
college. I applied to one grad school. I've never applied for a job. But,
working for myself, I don't solicit work: I let it come to me. At least this is
how I've operated up to now; things can change. My feeling is: I'm not one to
try and dictate the wills and forces of the cosmos. I want to slide into the
pocket where I fit best. Even my divorce, like all beginnings and ends of my
relationships, happened as it happened. I didn't bring it about; nor did she.
We did it together.

Needless to say, this strategy doesn't always work
out as I find myself at the mercy of events I'd rather not be and in
relationships that have long soured. Which sometimes makes me wish I were some
alpha dog who knew what he wanted and demanded that or nothing. Ah, but that
seems so exhausting to me. It takes so much energy! Such exertion!

No, I prefer to play it loose — although not
passive per se, even it often looks and feels and, I suppose, is passive. The
fact is I don't trust my moods. I know they come and go. I know they can be
dictatorial, demanding their way. And I know that the tenor of one day is not
necessarily the tenor of the next. Somehow, I try to let things happen rather
than deciding them, if that makes sense.

The day is filled with decisions, little and big —
breakfast, which New Yorker article to read, whether to respond to this or that
text, whether to shave, to shower, to buzz my balding head or not. I don't have
a plan for any of these things. I await a moment that beckons me as much as I
beckon it. I picture the banana, its taste and texture, its after effect and I
see it play out in and over my body and then, in my actions, I say yay or nay.

It's a funny kind of surrender to the mechanics of the day. Sometimes,
it works out well for me. Other times, less so. Sometimes, I miss the
opportunities that nudge and wink, kairos passing me by — including financial,
sexual, or appetitive delights. But, frankly, often I feel snug and content in
the bosom of the universe, even when things go awry. Because what happens
happens and amor fatiand this is my life
happening whether I do this, that, the other thing, or nothing at all.

4.16.2015

My son is now 11. Each of his years has brought
with it certain delights and challenges. Of course, when he was young, I kept
thinking: When I don't have to change his diaper anymore, this whole parenting
thing will be easier.

So he outgrows diapers but then it means we often
find ourselves with about 30 seconds to find a toilet from the time he declares
his need to shit and the time of said shit's arrival. And then I need to wipe
his ass.

So I think: when he's older — say, 10 or 11 — this
whole parenting thing will be easier. He'll be a person, not just a bundle of
tasks. Which has certainly proven true. But now that he's a person and not just
a bundle of tasks, he has real person problems — fears, anxieties, considered
desires. I wish all I had to do was wipe his ass.

So then I think: I just need to make it until he's
18 and on his own. Then, oh then,
this whole parenting thing will get easier. But then I think of my mother and
all the things she's endured since her three kids left home, most notably,
watching one of them die. Holy fuck, this parenting thing never gets
easier.

Alas, there are no thresholds in life. There are no
points we pass at which time life just gets easier, gets normal, gets sorted
out. I know that I've imagined that adulthood — whatever that is — would bring
a certain calm and continuity. I'd know who I was and what I wanted and how to
get it.

But, well, I'm 45 and that's just not the case. On
the contrary, life has only become more complex, more turbulent. Every day, I
face the loss of youth and the onslaught of death and decay — mine and those
around me. I have to earn my keep to pay for my kid's needs, the roof over his
head, the clothes on his back, the food in his stomach. The humiliations
abound.

And with these complexities, anxieties, and
humiliations comes flux. Sure, there are stretches of time when I feel calm and
composed, sure footed, even wise. And then something happens — I get
evicted; the kid starts having nightmares; my girlfriend steps out on me. And,
like that, my stretch of calm gives way to vertigo and existential mayhem. I
careen. But then, just as I think this careening will never end, a new calm
comes over me.

It's nice to imagine that life has thresholds: if
only I get to that point, then everything will be ok. It's one way we parse the
uncertainty and terror of time. All I
need to do is make it to there then, then everything will be great! But
that's not the way it is. Life is flux. Yes, there are plateaus but there is no
normal, no true, no sure ground. There is no figuring it all out, ever. All
there is is the ride, relentless and merciless.

Except perhaps for death. Death sure seems like a
threshold, a continuous plateau. Man, I hope so. Can you imagine dying and
still not knowing what the fuck is going on? Sartre nailed it: hell is eternal
life.

Of course, this is one reason many profess the
power of now, of meditation, of being mindful of the present, of what's
happening. To try to throw an anchor either forward or backward is to throw
yourself off kilter. Ah, but to focus on the now, to be present with what's
happening, is to avoid the trapping of threshold thinking and its inevitable
letdowns.

But this doesn't eliminate the flux! The flux happens no matter what.
You can be the wisest sage in the world, calm and cool and collected, but
you're still in the flurry, fray, and flux of it all. But rather than being
surprised and disappointed, rather than skipping the now as you await some
illusory threshold in the future, you welcome everything and anything else that
comes your way — from getting laid to getting cancer. Because you know there's
no there there. You know that your plateau is temporary and, like everything
else, will give way.

A friend of mine calls this seeing
through — seeing through the plateau to the flux around and below and
through it. Seeing through the flux and mayhem to see that it's all flux — including yourself. This
means not fixing your eyes too hard and sure but letting them see through the
facades of certainty and uncertainty to glimpse the beautiful flux of it all.

4.09.2015

I loved writing my dissertation. I was 27, San
Francisco was beautiful and cheap and full of freaks, and all I had to do all
day was think about how best to think about and express this idea I had. It was
incredible to inhabit this one space, to build this structure of words, texts,
and ideas into a more or less (mostly less, alas) coherent shape. It was like
building a house while living in the house; I got to add whatever room, not to
mention mood, I wanted next. It was luxurious.

For the few years after that — that was almost 20
years ago — whoa! — I was always
writing a book. I never did anything with my books; publication always seemed
like a chore, like another job. The joy, for me, was always the writing. I
didn't do much editing. But I did inhabit a space for many months, even years.

After my son was born and, at the exact same
time, San Francisco became incredibly expensive, I no longer had the luxury of
writing books. I didn't have the time or space — physically, emotionally,
intellectually. And so I began writing essays, first as a lesser version of a
book. But then I came to love the essay — its freedom and brevity, its
indulgence of style, its indifference to scholarship, its love of the next
move, the next turn of argument or phrase. If writing a book is building a
house from the inside out, writing an essay is catching a wave — thrilling,
immediate, brief but intense.

Recently, I've started writing a book again. As I
began writing, I realized that I had a lot of writing on my hard drive from
over the years. So I began to peruse it, dig for it, even read it — including
my dissertation (or at least parts of it; I will admit I've never read the
thing all the way through).

There are times I don't recognize myself. All
these quotes and references! All the pedantic readings of the minutia of a text
— the prepositions and punctuation of the titles, the use of this or that
metaphor, the chapter breaks. Parts of my damn dissertation are large passages
from Deleuze in French! And translated by
me! (Much Deleuze wasn't yet translated into English back then.) I don't
remember knowing French that well. It's a very a strange experience to be
reading things I've written, to recognize the thinking but not the
writing.

Or, rather, I don't recognize the mode, mood,
tone, and posture of the writer. Who is this guy? He seems so, well, annoying. Smart, yes, and out to prove
it at every turn. But so annoying. It's exhausting to read. It must have been
exhausting to be me. (It often still is.)

Then I found some essays I wrote in between then
and now. And, well, some of them are incredible — so sharp, so insightful, the
prose flowing so readily and gracefully from turn to turn of argument. I don't
remember writing or thinking that well, ever.

Writing is odd like that. It's both us and not us
— like shit, hair, or toenails. We make them but then they enter the world,
orphaned (as Socrates would say). And then I come along all the years later as
if that writing were my own even though I barely recognize it. I see all these
different selves punctuating my timeline. Part of me can remember the energy
that propelled such writing and such aggressive turns of argument and I at once
sigh and shudder.

And yet I do recognize myself, if not in the
prose or even the thinking, then in the ideas. But I've been conspicuously
consistent lo these many years in what I think. So much has happened to me and
the world around me — kid, divorce, balding, the internet, cell phones. You'd
think my basic vision of the world would have changed. And yet when I think and
write about things, I come back to this same idea — that language is not
symbolic or representational but constructive and creative and that this
yields, and demands, a different way of making sense.

But I question these notions of "coming
back" and "the same idea." No doubt, there is conceptual
consistency. But the way I think about this idea, my approach, my focus, my
concern keeps shifting. For instance, I wrote 20 years ago that language is a
living system, an emergent system and, at the time, that made sense to me. Now,
I'm not so sure what that even means as I find myself trying to picture what
language is — a separate organism? A part of our flesh? An element like air,
wind, earth, and fire? Or an element like atoms? A spectral agent of concepts
and bodies? What was once not even in my purview is now my focus. And this
shift in focus shifts the idea — its tenor, its shape, it timbre, some of its
implications.

I certainly think differently now. I see many of
the same things. But when I was younger, I leaned forward in my seat, literally
and figuratively. I noted and parsed every darn thing that came my way. I see
it, feel it, in my personal archive. These days, I see all those elements but,
leaning back, I am less moved by each detail. This shift in posture and hence
focus creates different constellations of things and concepts, a different
architecture of the idea. I am less interested in proving how smart I am; I am
less interested in every little detail (even if attentive to it). I want
something else now, a more resonant sensation. I am thinking the same idea with
different parts of my body which, in turn, creates shifts in the idea — and
certainly in my writing.

I will say that I repeat myself (in Deleuze's
sense of the word — repetition always entails difference). It's not the same
idea that I keep regurgitating (well, sometimes it is); it's an idea in motion,
taking shape and being shaped as I shift my place in the world and the world
itself shifts shape.

Henri Bergson says that a philosopher has an
intuition, an image of how things go in this world. And then he, or she, spends
the rest of their lives trying to articulate that flash, that intuition that this
is how things go. I had, and continue to have, that intuition. There are
times, for sure, that I think this idea out of habit. But, mostly, I feel it. I
see it. I believe it. I know it.

And as it makes its way through my body and
spirit (for lack of better words), and as the world changes around me, this
intuition is inflected. I am tempted to say it becomes meatier or more refined.
But I'm not sure it's worth trying to quantify it as a more or less. Rather,
the idea has shifted its qualities, become something slightly different. Just
as light fleeting through the universe bends this was and that with a universe
that is infinitely dense, so my ideas are inflected in and through me. (We are
all a general theory of relativity.)

In some sense, I've been living in the same
house, the same space, since I had that flash and wrote that dissertation
nearly 20 years ago. But, in another sense, this house and this space keeps
morphing, sometimes so radically that I can't recognize myself. And, while sometimes
alienating, it's always beautiful in its way.

4.03.2015

Thanks to the madness of San Francisco, I'm looking for a new house to
rent. I'm using Craigslist, of course, looking at pictures of my possible new
homes. And then I go to these houses and, well, the experience is different.
It's not that the pictures were wrong. It's that the pictures are different.
They enjoy a different perspective on the scene. How could it be otherwise? A
camera, not to mention a landlord, sees a house differently than I see
it.

Maurice Merleau-Ponty — I do enjoy
saying his name — says that a house is not a house seen from nowhere but a
house seen from every possible perspective. This is to say, there is no
absolute house, no house outside of it being presented to the world as
something to be seen. This is not to say, however, that the house only comes into
being by being seen but that the house only exists as something that is
seen, that is experienced (by humans or not).

There's a house there. See it? I see it, too. But I see it from here and
you see it from there. We are standing in different positions. We are different
heights. Our views of the house are therefore necessarily different. And this
doesn't even get into how we see, the amalgamation of experiences, ideas,
concepts, memories that make sense of this house as well as houses in general.

And yet we're both looking at that house. Which? That one there. Our
views of the house are not subjective; they don't only exist in our respective
minds and bodies. No, there is a house which we both see. But we see it from
different perspectives, literally.

To say there is no house per se is not to say there is no such thing as
objectivity. It is only to say there is no such thing as a total or absolute
perspective, at least not for any living thing (including humans). There
is still objectivity in that we see that object right there.

The being of a thing is always and already run through with perspectives
both actual and virtual, existant and possible. There never was, is, or will be
a single, unified thing that is that house. The house is lived in, lived
through, by bodies, ideas, bugs, wind, sun, ground. The house is multiple —
food to termites, water to ants, a certain resistance to wind, home to you and
me (and two different homes at that).

Each thing — human and non-human — experiences the house, sees the
house, from its perspective. We all see the house, all experience the house.
But it's not one thing we experience. Or, rather, it may be one thing but it is
one thing that is many things, that is an assemblage (of materials, ideas,
experiences, histories, perspectives).

Of course, my perspective is not limited to my precise physical
perspective. Part of my ability to experience and see the world is to see from
different perspectives. I have seen pictures of houses from all kinds of angles
— including blueprints, which really offer a strange perspective. Blueprints
are like ghosts of a house, its virtuality, its possibility, the house stripped
of nearly all adornment including heat, speed, memory, smell, and touch. And
yet they are a perspective that I see, in a sense, when I see the house
standing right in front of it.

And part of what makes me something that enjoys perspectives is that I
can imagine other perspectives, including yours. After all, I know that we are
all stuff of this world, stuff going with stuff, stuff seeing stuff. (We can
say that the house sees you as you see it only it sees in a very different way
— it creaks, wears, bears weight and activity.) So when I'm standing in front
of the house and can't see the back or the roof, I can be pretty sure that
there is a back and a roof — not because I know there's a house there but
because I know that other things, including me at another time and place, could
see the house from there.

My perspective is not my subjectivity. I may have a subjective
experience seeing that house. It may remind me of a feeling I had in a camp
cabin when I was seven; it may smell to me like my grandmother's closet. But
the house I'm seeing is not strictly speaking subjective. No, that house is an
object (although it has its perspective and subjectivity) that I see, you see,
the wind blows against, the termites eat.

We can say, then, that there is no absolute objectivity just as there is
no absolute subjectivity. I am a thing in the world who has private
experiences, sure, but I am still a thing that exists with other things. Those
things and I go together, forging different kinds of events that more often
than not are aparallel (I may be overwhelmed by the sight of that ocean but the
ocean is barely nudged by my gaze.) But, in any case, we collide, attract,
repel, touch each other (vision is a kind of touch) — we affect and, perhaps,
effect each other.

For Henri Bergson, it's silly to ask whether there
is a true house or if it only exists in my mind. That is a subject-object
dichotomy that is abstract, existing only as an idea for philosophers who ask
silly questions. (He doesn't use the word silly; he says "false.")
It's absurd to ask, Is that house there? Of course that house is
there. Look at the damn thing! And it's equally absurd to then ask: Is the
house there absolutely? Who would ask such a question? Who would answer
such a question? Only philosophers asking false questions, thinking outside of
time, outside of experience, outside of life. (Many philosophers would echo
this sentiment — Wittgenstein, J.L. Austin, and Nietzsche, among others. In
fact, Nietzsche calls those who think outside of life nihilists.)

And so, for Bergson, everything is an image. Or we could say everything
is matter — to Bergson, the two are interchangeable because matter is always
presented to us, to the world, as something to be perceived. It's goofy to ask
whether there is matter absolutely or if we experience the world hermetically,
locked in our subjective senses. I see the house; you see the house. We see the
same house but we see it differently. This doesn't efface the being of the house.
Or, rather, it does efface the being
of the house by putting that being in motion — by transforming it into a becoming.

All things — including human beings and houses — are of this world,
things going with things. We are neither absolute nor removed. We are of the world — multiple, dispersed,
temporal. We are perspectives that are always morphing, lava lamp like.

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About Me

I am a flailing sophist who takes great pleasure in ideas, in philosophy, in words and images and booze and delirious states and images and films and more. I once taught at UC Berkeley and the SF Art Institute and I wrote that book. My desire is to imbue life with ideas and ideas with life as the two, for me, are not opposed. In fact, I find that few things are opposed unless you oppose them. Thanks for reading.