have you needed something so bad you cant sleep at night...

so my last therapist session was eventful. i have two sets of homework for this week the first i have published on the "cutting and self harm forum" http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/sh...d.php?t=111323
as i think it could help people on there to cut down. but this is more like a questionnaire that i have to fill out every day that i self harm. it goes something like.....

What were the specific circumstances that led to you harming yourself?

How did the day start?

When did the thought of harming yourself occur the first time?

Did it grow over a period of time?

Did you attle against it?

What were your thoughts and feelings at the time?

Did you feel that your situation was so unbearable that you had to do something and didnt know what else to do?

Did you want to get relief from a terrible state of mind?

Did you want to "blot everything out" or escape for a while from an impossile situation?

Did you feel that you simply lost control of yourself and have no idea why you have behaved that way?

above are the questions that are directed at me and my situation. but these are also questions that relate to other peoples situations

Did you want to show how much you loved someone?

Did you want to make people understand how desperate/hurt or in pain you were feeling?

Did you want to signal to someone that you needed help?

Did you want to find out if someone really loved you?

Did you want to frighten or get your own back on someone or make people sorry for the way they have treated you?

Did you want to try and influence a particular person or get them to change their mind?