Saturday, May 28, 2005

You Know You Drank Too Much When...

I've been on this island longer than those castaways have and I'm still waiting for some feeling of redemption for the things I did in my past.

I know what you're thinking "Dammit, it's only a TV show!" But there's usually a pretty good reason why someone might prefer science fiction to say romance novels. The idea of doing something so wrong and then just not being able to fully let it go, until you get a chance to relive your life almost with a starting over point really appeals to me.

Anyways, I guess the time to start to try to be a better person is now.

I once mentioned liking a band and saying that they sounded poppy, but not in that One Tree Hill kind of way. So now I'll further contradict myself and post the lyrics to a song (the One Tree Hill theme song, actually) that I really like.

I don't need to be anything otherThan a prison guard's sonI don't need to be anything other Than a specialist's sonI don't have to be anything otherThan the birth of two souls in onePart of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming fromI don't want to beAnything other than what I've been trying to be latelyAll I have to doIs think of me and I have peace of mindI'm tired of looking 'round roomsWondering what I've got to doOr who I'm supposed to beI don't want to be anything other than meI'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turnI'm surrounded by impostors everywhere I turnI'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turnAm I the only one who noticed?I can't be the only one who's learnedI don't want to be Anything other than what I've been trying to be latelyAll I have to doIs think of me and I have peace of mindI'm tired of looking 'round roomsWondering what I've got to do Or who I'm supposed to beI don't want to be anything other than meCan I have everyone's attention please?If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leaveI came from the mountainThe crust of creationMy whole situtaion-made from clay to stoneAnd now I'm telling everybodyI don't want to beAnything other that what I've been trying to be latelyAll I have to doIs think of me and I have peace of mindI'm tired of looking 'round roomsWondering what I've got to doOr who I'm supposed to beI don't want to be anything other than meI don't want to be

I want to be someone who is brave and who can not run scared from things when they get tough and someone who will always (or most of the time) do what's right in a situation. I think in the past, I've let self-righteousness sometimes and fear other times make a mess of everything, and I hope here, where like on the TV show Lost, "moving" to the island has given me a second chance at life, I can really become the person I really want to be, or at least accept the ugly parts I have, and realize that everyone has them.