Digging Up Old Landmines

There is a conscious awareness that has been making itself known for as long as time has existed. The ascension shift is here and many of us are feeling it, the more unpleasant aspects seem to be the topic of discussion with many of my clients lately.

Now surfacing are emotional issues that had been restrained for so very long. The ones that have created the same chaos in your life over and over again. The emotions and behaviors that seem to destroy your dreams, your goals or your relationships.

At times some of these emotions and behaviors are in place unconsciously to destroy anything in their path; after all they kept us safe. Or did they? I believed they protected me from impending failure, for it is better in your mind’s eye to shut down on your own terms and not anyone else’s.

But there’s a shift happening in humanity, a shift in consciousness, happening now because it has to happen now ~ Eckhart Tolle

But do they keep us safe; these trigger responses that are so deep in our psyche that we are not even aware of them until the pattern is so set in stone that there is no way of denying their existence?

If your reaction to a situation in your life is putting up a wall, and for some that means a fortress with a moat, are you actually protecting yourself or are you so very sure of the outcome? Do you try to avoid pain by causing the familiar ‘nothingness’, the disconnect? I’m sure you know what I’m talking about.

I have had personal experience with this situation many times. I have chosen relationships that I knew would not ‘hurt’ me. They were emotionally shallow, sexually charged and very temporary. I had the ability to walk away without so much as a second glance, I was over it. Next please!

Over the years this became my modus operandi. Had I saved myself any pain? Nope, not at all. With this behavior I just cemented the facts I thought to be true, namely that nothing ever lasts, that I’m not good enough and that I don’t ‘love’ on the same level as others.

The only mistake that we can make as human beings is to be asleep, unaware of ourselves ~ Guy Finley

I questioned what they saw in me. What if they ‘really’ see me? Not pretty enough, not smart enough or just not enough, period.

Instead I would choose relationships with men that I had no real connect with. It was safer that way. Not for them, but for me. Wow, did I have some work to do!

And where did this all come from? At what point in my life had I decided this is who I am?

It is still a work in progress and my first step was to put into practice new beliefs about myself. Yes, I am pretty, I am smart, I am spiritual, I am love and I am an amazing ‘catch’.

Digging up all those old ‘landmines’ of self-defeating belief systems has been quite a journey. So, don’t expect things to change overnight, but there will be change. Shedding old belief system and getting in tune with one’s truth isn’t just going through the motions. It’s a moment by moment, day by day process.

As we grow in higher consciousness, we discover that it is more important to be the right person then to find the right person ~ Ken Keyes, Jr.

Each situation you deal with you put into place your new operating procedures. For me that means analyzing each emotion I feel. Do I connect with it? Is that how I really feel or is it how I think I should feel? That’s the tricky part and I must say it takes work, real work. These are not New Year’s resolutions; they are change, real change.

I have spent my life doing, thinking and saying what I believed others would expect of me, even if it meant sacrificing my needs to accommodate theirs. The end result – disaster!

The ascension process is such that it seems like you have created your worst nightmare. Everything bubbles to the surface; you become physically ill which is a physical way to purge your being. This is a very personal journey and many will have similar symptoms.

Your spirit self would not have brought this all to the surface unless you were ready to deal with it. The symptoms include sleep problems, fatigue, no appetite or eating constantly, emotional ups and downs and loss of friends that no longer are vibrating at the same level you are. You feel easily overwhelmed, physically ill, stressed. All of these and more are part and parcel of the extremes many of us are going through at the moment. Your soul is adjusting to the higher vibration and this will level itself out.

I think it’s darkness before the dawn, because the next evolution is going to be a consciousness evolution instead of a communication revolution ~ Ram Das

Although you may not believe it at this very moment, you will find your way through this and you will be very happy you did. Reaching for aspects of yourself that you didn’t even know existed will propel you forward in leaps and bounds. It’s liberating and it’s a peaceful place to be.

I am still a work in progress and still have to examine some of my old belief systems, but, I have embraced my spirituality and I don’t hide it from the masses anymore. I am also more open to love and the risk that may accompany it. I am focusing on love that nurtures; a spiritual and growing experience in all aspects from friendships to romance, with no pre-conceived notions on how it should be, just on what is.

This is not to say there may not be any struggles, but it is worth opening yourself up to experiences you would have never in your past been able to experience. Scary? You bet! Worthwhile? When you see and feel the difference all this makes in your life you will then know it was worth it.

Love to all of you that are on the journey and even more love to those who are avoiding it.

About The Author: Isthemus

Isthemus is an experienced psychic advisor with her own Metaphysical Company based out of the Fraser Valley of British Columbia. A natural born empath, clairsentient, clairvoyant, intuitive Counsellor and psychic advisor. Patty still does Paranormal Investigations as well as teaching workshops on how to interpret signs. You can talk to Isthemus at PsychicAccess.com.