A journey through places we never thought we'd have to go…

Make something beautiful out of all this suffering

The emails and posts on Facebook started arriving the other day about planning for my 10 year high school reunion, which will take place in 2012. Someone set up a group on FB where anyone can have open conversations. One person asked how many people have kids now. I couldn’t believe how many people were posting they have 1 or more kids. Some of the people I would have least expected even. It’s just another painful reminder that I am in a minority. Though I know I’m not alone, I definitely have been feeling that way the past few days. I started this year off feeling so positive and hopeful. Only a little over 2 weeks in and it has already come crashing down. Some days I feel like God just doesn’t want me to be happy. Deep down in my heart I know He has some plan for me…I have NO clue what that plan is right now…but I refuse to allow myself to stop praying for answers.

I’m at a loss for words, there’s nothing to say
I sit in silence wondering what led me to this place
How did my heart become so lifeless and cold
Where did the passion go?

When all my efforts seem like chasing wind
I’ve used up all my strength and there’s nothing left to give
I’ve lost the feeling and I’m numb to the core
I can’t fake it anymore.

Here I am at the end I’m in need of resurrection
Only You can take this empty shell and raise it from the dead
What I’ve lost to the world what seems far beyond redemption
You can take the pieces in Your hand and make me whole again, again

You speak and all creation falls to its knees
You raise Your hand and calm the waves of the raging sea
You have a way of turning winter to spring
Make something beautiful out of all this suffering

Here I am once again I’m in need of resurrection
Only You can take this empty shell and raise it from the dead
What I’ve lost to the world what seems far beyond redemption
You can take the pieces in Your hand and make me whole again, again

You have a way of turning winter to spring
Make something beautiful out of all this suffering