Tag Archives: ANXIETY

[Buddie]

Hi, I’ve been off for a couple of years but lately, the past 2 or 3 weeks, I’m back where I was during my withdrawal, anxiety, pounding chest etc. Is it even possible that the aftereffects can last this long or is this just the way I am and I was covering it up with the meds? This is no fun.

[Buddie]

Hey […] .. here’s one to bring a smile to your face.. sad thing is it is all true ! This is even better than the smiling at yourself in the mirror each morning to see if you had had a stroke..!
Anyhow last night I woke up in the night and got up to go to the bathroom and noticed blood on the pillowcase… not a lot but enough to be scary on a white pillowcase , right where my mouth had been … could feel the fear just rush through me.. what on earth .. my mouth felt kind of sore , could it be a new type of stroke?? I had a small paper cut just at the side of my mouth that is taking a long time to heal.. I figure in the light of day I must have scratched it and it has bled a little.. added to that ,reflux and you have a messy pillowslip.. oh no , could I be that logical in the middle of the night ?? Not on your life.. I was bleeding internally , I was bleeding from an artery in my nose somewhere.. oh my goodness… funny now as I tell it but you can bet it wasn’t funny in the night … the sight of blood always scares the daylights out of me…. health anxiety in the extreme ….xx

[Buddie]

Hi All,

I have introduced myself here before as the director/producer of As Prescribed, a documentary (in production) about the benzodiazepine scourge. I find BB member […]’s theories about benzos to be compelling, and would like to contact her. Does anybody know her? I believe that she is based in Maine. I don’t think she visits BB much anymore, but I would not be surprised if some current members know how to reach her. If so, I’d be enormously grateful. And if you have additional questions of me before sharing contact information, please PM me here, or email me at hollyhardman88@gmail.com.

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[Buddie]

Assuming these posts aren’t a cut & paste patchwork of various research data obtained from the many resources that exist in cyberspace, I do admire you and appreciate the time and painstaking analysis involved in contributing to the BB.org information collective…

…unfortunately, I find the essence of many posts to be discouraging, disheartening, and offering little to no hope to those severely debilitated and crippled from the hellacious symptomatology of iatrogenic illness, as it exists in benzodiazepine withdrawal.

Words such as “permanent;” “irreversible;” and “learning deficit,” inspire hopelessness, fear, and a deep-seated sense of despair and anguish that isn’t easily resolved or relinquished; in fact, often thrusting the reader into a downward spiral, deeper into the abyss.

The scholarly, didactic verbiage that is necessary and inseparable from professional clinical trial and research writing format, further confuses and exacerbates the reader’s fragile psychological state.

For example:“In rats given benzodiazepines chronically, the common α 1 γ2 sub-units are down-regulated, while rarer sub-units are elevated proportionately (Holt et al, 1999). It is suggested that transcription of the Gene cluster on Chromosome 5 (which encodes for α1 β2 γ2 sub-units) is inhibited on chronic benzodiazepine administration, while the transcription of the Gene cluster on Chromosome 15 is upregulated (Holt et al, 1999). In certain brain regions, the Chromosome-5-encoded receptor sub-unit proteins are replaced by those encoded in Chromosome 15, which show less sensitivity.” (4)

This excerpt is quite esoteric in nature and would require the highest level of comprehension and routine familiarity found mostly in researchers with PhD’s (not practitioners).

The one thing I’ve learned in neurology is that few things are conclusive or certain. BWS is severely under-researched and much is not fully understood by the medical community.

One question I continually ask myself since joining BB.org is, “How many people have I inadvertently hurt through bad advice?”

If for every 500 I helped, but hurt 1, I would cease to interact any further, simply because it’s not my call to make in weighing human wellness, health, and life.

[Buddie]

You were tapering too fast. I would go back to .5 and try again tapering much slower. OCD feeds on anxiety and so once you will go back to .5 you will have relief. It may take a few times until you learn how your body reacts to the withdrawal so don’t look at this as a failure. I now gone back to my original dose again because I tapered too fast. Everyone has different way they react to withdrawal and take different time to taper off. You need to give yourself time and keep trying.

Sunny14

I read where women get urinary tract infection symptoms but are tested and it’s negative. I had one small spotting of vaginal blood, because I went through menopause 5 yrs ago went to dr who ordered an ultrasound and follow-up with gynaecologist. it does look like my vaginal discharge may have blood in it as it’s dark yellow and seems to stain underwear. I’m terrified that they’ll want to do something invasive when this may all be due to hormonal stir up caused by benzo.

[Buddie]

Night before last i went to the ER and the doctor there told me that after 2 weeks off of xanax, the symptoms I’m having are no longer physical. He thinks I’m no longer in the acute phase of withdrawal and that it’s all anxiety causing the symptoms. This doesn’t make a lot of sense to me for a few reasons.
1. He doesn’t have any idea how bad my anxiety is or what it’s been like during my taper.
2. I’ve had these same symptoms at the worst parts of the taper.
3. I was feeling bad, but bearable, and then suddenly I woke up feeling awful a couple days ago, so why would it just pop up out of nowhere?
4. I don’t doubt anxiety contributes to symptoms, but to cause all of this by itself seems like too much. I’ve had anxiety make me nauseous, but not all of this.
5. That’s the first time I’ve heard anyone say that after two weeks, the symptoms would be gone.
6. Everyone I’ve talked to here on the site has said it may take months for things to disappear.

This guy bragged first thing that he and his team were experts on withdrawal of all kinds. I listed off my symptoms to him and he said “all the things your having are not typical withdrawal symptoms. We don’t associate these with withdrawal at all”

okay, so nausea isnt?
tremors arent?
headaches?
dizziness?
on and on
none of those are withdrawal symptoms? I guess millions of people are full of shit then
how could a doctor think this?
thats the most ridiculous thing ive ever heard

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