The real life adventure of comedian, writer, caterer and fun gal Vicki Ferentinos. It may not all be pretty but it is all true.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Figuring out my life oh and 12 doughnuts and a can of pringles

I decided to give up my apartment in NYC in order to go and do the Edinburgh Fringe festival, so I packed up all my stuff and moved to NJ to the house I grew up in and live (temporarily) with my Mom. Well the first little bit before I left for Scotland was pretty great, focused on my show, saved money on rent and put off thinking about the entire rest of my life because I was focused on Scotland. So I went to Scotland for the month- you can see prior posts to see how that went (it went well). I came back and am now starting week 2 of "you better figure your life out soon Vicki" , my internal monologue.You see, I did not grow up in the house that was filled with the smell of cookies as I opened the front door after a long day at school. I grew up in the house that I plotted to escape since the age of 12 (when I got my first job and my first taste of money=freedom). So now being in my 30's and moving home for the first time since I left over a decade ago is well a sure fire ego out the window move. I am thankful and starting to save (sort of).Besides the money thing, it is the "where do I want to live?" element. I moved to NYC three years ago and loved it, I skipped I felt like the Mary Tyler Moore Theme song played everywhere I went, I found me. But the last six months of living in NYC, I realized my money was vanishing my spirit was breaking and my heart well kind of on auto pilot. So, I started to look at my wish list and doing my one person show was on it so I wrote it and started to perform it, now starting to figure out perfecting it and finding a new home for myself.My thoughts......Astoria, Brooklyn, LA......a farm in the middle of no where???? If I were completely honest I kind of know LA is next, I just would have to have the funds, confidence and fully healthy happy self to start over again. I think LA because in my head I make these rules that are based on no fact what so ever like- rule: I learn in NYC and do in LA, rule: when I am a fully happy and open , love will find me I don't have to look for it, rule: people who seem mean are really weak and people who are kind are super strong. So, LA may win, just have to stay in NJ for a few months to amass a fortune that will be enough for a one bedroom apartment and a little car (not too hard). Just waiting for another person from craigslist to show up and buy some more of my furniture----trying to get down to four boxes of belongings , no matter where I move to, do not want to rent another U-haul. xo