Dear Mr Boss,Thank you for hiring me for this job since 199X. However the time has come for me to move on. I would like to thank you and the management for trusting me with the responsibility. With effect from (date) I would like to tender my resignation as the (position). I am retiring so as to be able to enjoy my newly acquired fortune.Thank you,Yours trulyN.2. Dah siap tu, kena lah kira berapa zakat kena bagi pulak (2.5% from RM1 million) berapa tu?

June 29, 2005

I don't feel good writing about my sister's story. I know it is something that can be taken as a lesson learnt. There are so many similar cases out there, very similar stories, but many would not want to share or be vocal about it. I wonder why. Malu ke atau ini tak jadi kat diri sendiri? To those who have commented, thank you so much. So I am sorry that I may have to retrack both stories. At this point there is no ending or conclusion to the story. So there is no point whining about it. Wrong actually, I got to release my tension, I hear people's opinion. I know that she is not alone in this world having that problem.

As it is I am still at my wit's end trying to find a suitable idea for my entry. I am getting lazy, I know, I am getting bored perhaps, maybe my head is so "hot" with all the durian that get into my body the last few days. I don't really like durian, I can eat durian, but I prefer manggis, rambutan, mempelam (manggoes) any time better than durian. But my hubby just love durian so much. He planted different kind of species in our compound. Two of those trees have already fruiting and we have eaten them. He will still buy durian from the roadsite stall or any where he knows would have good species of durian. In other word I think my hubby is a durianmaniac. He is diabetic, but, he can't resist durian. He bought durian at Bukit Gantang on the way to KL recently, he found it to be good, so he bought some more on the way home. I have got a headache today, my head is heavy, my body feels hot, my throat is dry. I have been drinking water non stop in between visits to the toilet. But at any time I prefer him to be durian maniac or plant maniac, rather than he goes around chasing skirts hehehe.

This morning as he drove out of the compound, I received his called. I thought he must have forgotten something, NO, he sounded excited. Why? Because he saw a few bunches of dokong fruits ripening on the tree. He was excited to see them so much so that he had to share the excitement with me. Imagine that!!. He planted the trees quite sometime back almost at the same time as the durian, but only this year we see them fruiting. He was excited to see the fruit of his labour, a yellow bunch of fruits waiting to be plucked. He told me not to pluck them yet, to leave them a little bit more ripe before plucking them. It seems that this year we are able to eat Durian, Rambutan and Dokong from our garden. Alhamdulillah, berbudi pada tanah, hasilnya kenyang lah perut kan...

I chatted with Kak Long last night, after I watched CSI=NY. Hubby was dreaming away, while I chatted with her. She was doing her work at the same time. It was near midnite that we stopped chatting. She was telling me about her new roommate who has just joined her and the current roommate. So there are now 3 in the room. The new room mate is also from Penang and like Kak Long, this is her first time away from home and family. Unlike Kak Long, she is so teary eyed. It would be good for Kak Long to have another friend from Penang as they can travel back to Penang together during holidays. Her current roommate is also a nice girl, they seem to have got on well together. Although they are in the same course but they not in the same class. She told me she reads my blog so, I can't "mengumpat" her lah, hehehe.

My car road tax and insurance were expired yesterday. I have already renewed it, but had not displayed it on the windsheild. I went out to lunch today, with the old road tax still displayed. I had totally forgotten to even carry the road tax with me. It was in my bag. Phew, lucky I was not stopped by the police or the JPJ. What brought it to my mind was when I saw the JPJ patrol car passed me by and thathad jolted my memory. I would have no excuse whatsoever, so, as I was driving, I had to think of the excuse I would give if I got stopped by the police or the JPJ. I wonder if my sweetest smile would still do the trick!!. Senyum manis makcik kampung, tough luck I think, tak kan nak menjadi dah tu. Kalau masa anak dara mungkin lah kan, kan...Luckily, I was spared the embarassement and the fine. I need to remember to put it up before I go home afterward. Don't want to take any more chances on lady luck.

Bear with me with this story for now, I hope I will have something better on the next day.

June 28, 2005

Warning : A VERY long entry, you may be wasting your time reading this.I would like also to inform you that in order to protect the privacy of our family especialy that of my sister the names (initials) in this entry have been changes. My intention is to relate a situation that may have been familiar to many poeple, just as a lesson learnt. Thank you for your comments and opinion.We arrived from KL yesterday (Monday) afternoon. My other 3 girls "ponteng" their schools yerterday. At first we wanted to come back on Sunday night after sending Kak Long back to her college, but Kak Long of course, wanted us to stay longer and since her class started at 9.00 am Monday morning, we still could send her back early this morning just in time for class. And that what we just did, we left for cyberjaya from sis-in-law place at about 8.00 am and after sending Kak Long back to her hostel we started our way home. She seems happy and settled down. I am happy to see that she is already settled. So, I think she is going to be staying there until she complete her study. Right now, we have to figure out ways and means to meet the demand of her requirement. It's going to be lots of money needed for her. PTPTN is still not definite yet because of the change in the policy recently. If she is not elligible for the PTPTN then we have to find other ways. We will find a way, Insyaallah.

So to continue my sister's story, here goes another long entry. If you guys feel bored reading this, please don't stay. I hope that, by writing this down I am not seen to have shown to all my family dirty linen. My intention is just to share something with all. Sesuatu yang boleh menjadi sedikit pengajaran kepada semua. If anyone amongst you who think that I should not blog about this, I am open to your constructive critics. Please be honest and sincere.

To continue, my BIL went to see my hubby at work. He poured his heart out to my hubby. He cried according to my hubby. My hubby called me almost immediately after he left him. Both of us were prepared to believe his side of the story and to give him the benefit of the doubt. Because this is the first time we were able to hear the opposite side of the story. So this was what he told my hubby.

1. My sister does not cook. He cooks all the meals. He buys all the fresh fish and seafood directly from the fishermen (from Kuala Muda), unlike all of us who buy from the market. How fresh can that be, when one buy from the market ?

2. My sis does not wash his clothes eversince they were married. She doesn't iron his clothes either.

8. BIL sold his first house and use the money to buy their current house, so why does my siskeep on insisting that the house is hers.

9. My sis is the cause of him not talking to his mother. Reason my sis told his mother that he was fooling around with another lady. To this my hubby adviced BIL that he should ask for his mother's forgiveness. To let bygone be bygone and talk to his mother. He must get the "restu" from his mother, for his live to be blissful.10. BIL doesn't respect and doesn't like my eldest brother (Abang Long) he said that my abang long took my sis to bomoh to "bomoh" him. My hubby counter act this by saying that, from what he obserbed in my family, my abang long is not the type to see bomoh for anything. He has can vouch for my abang long on that. Boleh tahan hubby aku ni no?The list goes on. He did add that he no longer has any "hati" for my sis and he can let her go free. He said that she would be in trouble if he divorced her as he has money to support himself and 4 of his children while my sis may be in trouble. I personally doublt it. She will not be penniless and we will see that she will have enough to eat. It is his opinion anyway. I think the table will turn on him.

When I heard these, I told my hubby, maybe he was right, my sis is not perfect but why, wait until now? Why not resolve matters at home together at the beginning of their marriage. Determine who would do what and what to expect. Why wait until after 21 years? My hubby agreed. So we thought this was the case of miscommunication. I had mixed feeling whether to tell my sis or not, but later I did tell her. My intention was to advise her, to make sure she corrects her actions so that they could be together again. Below my sis's reply to her hubby's "accusations".

1. In 1 week, he cooks only 2, or 3 times. Those other time when she cooks, those do not count is it?

2. She admits she does not wash his clothes. This is because she used to when they were first married, he re-wash the clothes she washed. He does his clothes immediately washed as soon as he comes back, hand wash and not using washing machine. My sis recently try to wash her husband's clothes and again the same treatment received. So why waste her effort and energy.

Ironing, according to her, she ironed almost a cupboard full of clothes, yet the one she does not iron, he will want to wear it. He will take the one she doen't iron to wear. To me this is simply trying to find fault in her.

3. My sis said admitted she menjawab, everytime he said thing degradatory to her, she will defend herself, does that constitute menjawab, derhaka?

4. On the nafkah. He is the man of the house. It is his responsible to provide the food, clothing etc for all of them. Yes, he buys the BASIC food, rice, sugar, cooking oil. And that's about all. If they go to the supermarket, in one trolley full of things, he will only pay for those items. The rest my sis will have to pay. The other thing he will only buy foodstuff that he likes to eat, he couldn't careless if anyone wants to eat or not, I buy them, you can eat or you go starving. The whole family knows he is so kedekut.

5. According to my sis, yes, he paid for the downpayment for her kancil. RM 4K, but all the monthly installments were paid by her. Recently when she sold the car to buy a new car, he took from her RM5K, so does the Kancil still belong to him?

6. My sis just doesn't like kenari. She is paying for the car so she has got the right to choose. She is your wife, if she looks good shouldn't he feel proud as well? He has never let my sis even drive his car. He needs to look good but not the wife, pure jealousy I think.

7. My sis, kept telling us that so many times she would hold out her hands to ask for forgiveness and blessings from her husband, but, he will just pushed her hands away. There was one time he even had his foot just an inch away from her face. He pushed her so hard at one time she fell and her back hit the steps. She had bruises for that fell.

8. Same case with the car, the house he paid the down payment she paid the installment, taken her EPF to pay all and he insist that she got no right to insist for the house.

9. Yes, it was my sis who told his mother that he was flirting with another girl. She discovered that a supposedly Langkawi trip had turned out to be a Phuket trip with a lady's SMS of sweet nothings in his phone. She had no one to turn to but to inform MIL so as to advise him. He was angry at my sis and his mom for reprimanding him. Until today according to my sis BIL will go to his parents house but don't speak to his mother. My sis is getting on well with her MIL.

I will let you guys judge first. I am sure you have some opinion. Sorry again this ia a very long entry.

Still there is no ending to this case. There will not be any part 3, my conclusion is simple, he is so egoistic, he will not change, marriage is a responsibility of both parties to make it work. I know my sis has her limitations but communications is vital to ensure happiness in the family. I have no idea how this drama going to end, but, I would rather see my sister go free, to start a new life than be unhappy with someone who doesn't respect her as a wife.Probably the man will be angry at me, for bruising their egos. Whatever, if there are some damage done here, I will later retrack the entry.I am trying to just potray something for the benefit of others.

June 24, 2005

Note : This is a very long entry, so to be read at your own risk of "wasting" your time.

I am actually still very , very lazy. Malas sesangat ni. Maybe it is also due to the "time" of the month. The PMS factor. But then at the same time I know I have some obligation to the readers of this blog. They frequented my blog, either passing thru to other blogs or they came to read. I should be thankful that they keep on coming. Meaning at least there are people who find my blog of reading quality. If not, why should they come. I read and some times re-read my entries and others. I do not really think that what I have written are really that good. I am not trying to get praises for this statement, but, compared to others, my writing is just normal to me. Tak lah bagus sangat, tambah-tambah kalau compare dengan makcik-makcik lain tu kan. Sapa lagi kalau bukan Makcik Blurr, Makcik Pencentu pun boleh tahan, Makcik Gomenyang dah bertahun ada blog, makcik yang ada Broodtu atau yang baru aku kenai Makcik-san. Dan lagi sorang makcik kembarayang aku tak tau apa status blog dia tu. Entah apa-apa lah yang aku tulis tu kadang2 aku fikir balik.

Enough, enough, before you turn your readers away or make them vommit blood (muntah kedarah kata orang utara, maksud nya dah lain tu). As at now, I am still not so sure what I am going to write, I have one or two in my mind, actually. Hmmmm, but I think I am going to leave you guys with a trailer for the week-end. And please also take note especially to OOD, Tenah and Ely ( *pssst* depa ni kalau tak bagi notis nak mai sebat aku pulak tu, susah sungguh ada stalkers ni, hehehe). Jangan marah no, saja gurau2 je ni. The note is girls, I am going to be away for the week-end. Tu baba dah tak tahan rindu kat Kak Long tu, dah tak tau dah berapa kali dok ajak pi visit Kak Long ni. So I WILL NOT be posting over the week-end, even Monday OK!!!

Let me start my sister’s story here.

My little sister started work as soon as she finished her SPM. Un-like me she did not further her study. As years goes by, through rank and file and also good performances, she had been promoted. She did change her work place once before to get to a better position. She is currently an Asst. Manager, For someone who has no degree, I thinks she does well. If you see me and her she seems to be more spunky than me. Me, probably the lady like type, "pijak semut tak mati type". Orang baik lah kata kan ni hehehe. She is tall and pretty, her face if you compare to me a little bit more fiece while I look softer (cewah, puji diri memanjang ni, hehehe). But as Tenah said my voice is very tegas, straight to the point type of person. In the beginning she used to ride a motorbike to work. I am scared of riding anything with 2 wheels, (told you I am so lembik one!!), but you can give anything to drive on 4 wheels, lori pun aku dah pernah drive tau…

So it was not very surprised that she was courted and got married before I did. I was still studying and her beau was eager to tie the knot. Even, so willing to give me a "persalinan" for the "langkah bendul". They have been dating for a while, the man (now my BIL) had been sending her home from work, almost everyday. The whole kampung was talking about them. At that time if you were always fetching and sending anak dara orang, the kampung folks were really concerned.

So to cut the story short, they got married, and soon after she started her family. Almost every year she was pregnant. They have 5 children, 3 sons and 2 daughters. This year marks their 21 years of marriage and I think she has been happy ONLY a fraction of that 21 years. Perhaps the first few years of her marriage were bearable. Although we know her husbands attitude, he is so egoistic, he thinks he is the one and only one who is right, panas baran etc, she seems to be able to bear it and try so hard to cover things up. We know there had been squables but, it is normal to any marriage right? For the last few years, we have seen that the squables are getting more frequent and violent.

I don’t really know exactly when their marriage turned stormy, or what was the trigger point, but it is clear that the 3rd child is the reason. According to my sis, her husband showered so much love to this boy when he was young, but as he grows older and more stubborn I guessed, he seems to have fallen out of his father’s grace. My nephew, W, (very similar to Syazuan, the birthday boy today) is almost 18. He is just 3 weeks younger than my Kak Long. In fact we (my sis and me) were spending our confinement together at our mom’s house with the "makcik tungku" each. The boy is, somehow is not like his other siblings, he is naughtier, not really the book worm type like the others. The type who is always late for school, but still go to school, who is the one the disipline teacher will call when there is something wrong. But odd enough he doesn’t smoke and eventhough he did not study, he still passed his SPM recently. His result is definitely not as good as his older brother and sister, but OK lah. He is almost 6 foot tall, big size, eats a lot ( you will have 2 buy him 2 packets of Nasi Ayam or 2 pcs of burger to satisfy his hunger if you want to belanja him).

My BIL wanted W to toe the line (BIL’s) like his other children. But W, is not that type, if he doesn’t like to do anything you just can’t make him do it. In my eyes he is a good boy, just a bit rebellious, but still with proper guidance can be a better person. He has friends and although he always hang out with them until almost midnite but he is not the one to be involved with the wild motor races (lumba haram tu) or get into mischief. Quite normal for a boy that age don't you think?

His father and grandfather accused him of always being in bad company but, when he told them he wasn’t they did not believe him. Until today they don’t. When her husband refused to buy for the boy a motor bike, my sister bought for him. That motor bike has since become one of the reasons for their quarrels. Her reason for buying is because she wanted him to go to school on time, and also because in fairness and equality between siblings. Husband bought the other 2 older children a bike each and refused to let W ride those bikes even if they were not in use.As days goes by things are getting more sour. BIL now refused to accept that W is his responsibility, no food for him ( he sometimes said that the food he bought is HARAM for the son, right within the earshot of the son), no pocket money, nothing. He has not spoken to the boy since he was 16. BIL, even locked the gate and house doors not permitting the son to get in. My sister will opened the locked at the risk of her husband’s wrath. True enough when they quarreled, he will bring out all these things. My sister argued, what happened if out of desperation W would do something stupid by sleeping at the road side and being caught by the police? Wouldn’t that brought shame to them? What makes matters worst is the grandparents are also not treating him well. W and his siblings from when they were small were taken care of by the gandmother and it is a wonder how they can treat the other 4 with so much love and treat him differently.

When W was met with an accident recently, as he was on his way to get something to eat, a drunk man hit him with his car. He didn’t dare to say anything to his grandfather, knowing full well his mom will be in trouble he just endured the pain. The bruises turned bad and he was down with fever, then only the secret was out. Because of the late in getting treatment his bruise turned into puss and he was hospitalised for 3 weeks. BIL, refused to see his son, refused to pay for his bill, refused to "lend" money to my sis for the bill, eventhough she knows well that he has money, he just said that he has no money. BIL is the "genggam tak tiris" type. BIL even cursed the poor boy. He said he coldn't care less if he dies, I couldn’t just believe my ears for this.

So, my sister was still trying to patch up her marriage, she did everything she possibly could, she prayed and she prayed but, yet nothing came. But that does not deter her from praying. I could understand her attitude, she quarelled, husband called her names, told her she is derhaka, refused to accept her hands when she asked for forgiveness, yet she still hoped and prayed that he will change. She called me so many times sobbing while pouring her heart out to me, and yet she still stayed on. I think finally her patience just run out or that Divine intervention finally is taking place. 2 weeks ago after a few times of being challenged by the husband to report to the Pejabat Ugama, she went to lodge the report.

She called the following day and we talked. I told her the same thing. She had now to make the decision what she wanted to do with her marriage. It was clear that he will not change for the better. Kalau asyik dok cari kesalahan orang tanpa tengok diri sendiri, macam mana nak berubah. I told her, if she decides that she wants to stay on, then she will have to endure, no more complaint. But if she thinks that she wants to start a new life she can still do it. She is 45 years old and still very attractive, she has a career, she will not starve. Her husband said he will take care of 4 of his children and will leave the "anak celaka" in her care, so what is stopping her then. When she came to our house later the same thing was told to her by my hubby. My hubby even said to her, he was getting a bit fed-up of this on-off drama that my sister and her husband was pulling. Sat OK sat not OK, dok main jongkang jongkit macam tu. She went home almost at midnight, he husband was in KL at that time.

So she summed up her courage and lodge a report with the Pejabat Ugama. She did also called and talked to a lady counsellor who refer her to the Ustaz in charge. He listened and adviced that she put up a formal report so that they can call both of them for counselling.Her husband received the report on Monday morning the following week. To our surprised he went to see my hubby at his office. Hubby was having a discussion when someone said that there was a gentleman wanted to see him urgently. The first thing he said to my hubby was " This is most shameful thing to have happened in my entire life. My wife dah malu kan I ni" Hubby looked at the report and replied "Why, malu, there are only 3 people who know about this, your wife , the ustaz and you. If you don’t go and tell the world no body will know." Well now thanks to me the whole world knows hehehe.

June 17, 2005

This morning, my hubby drove me to work. There is nothing wrong with his or my car. Just that once in a while we do that. He drives me to work then he will pick me up later. Like someone said to me, he and his wife go to work in one car during school holidays. Boleh lah bersembang bertampar mesra, or something of that effect. So yesterday and today I arrived early to work, no need for someone to "shoo" me off to work like the other day.

I was thinking of what to write for today, is it going to be the story of my younger sister (Adik S), the one who is having a marital problem with her husband or something else ?. My sister came to my house yesterday evening, she stayed until almost midnite. Her story will definitely be a long entry. Or the other option is to take up the idea from Atenah's entry about the "forbidden love" my grandfather and father's version. If I want to blog this, then it would have to be soon, so that the flow is still there. Still warm, and belum basi lagi. But then again, I feel a bit uncomfortable to "steal" someone's idea (not that I haven't done it before, hehehe). The other bloggers did the same thing what, so OK lah tu kan? Bloggers kan inspire each other kan, kan?. But maybe that is a story for another day. Or the other option is just put up a recipe. I still have a lot to put up, but I think, I should try to create a more systematic way of putting up the recipes. So that they are easier to access. I saw someone has opened a blog just for her recipes. A new project maybe?? Kalau rajin lah ni. Boleh bubuh segala rempah ratus yang dipakai dalam resipi-resipi tu, jadi kalau anak2 nanti nak masak senang lah kenal bahan2 sekali. Ni dah cerita ni mesti ada yang tolong pressure ni.

But, in the car, my hubby put a CD which is much more interesting to me. The title is "HOW TO MAKE PEOPLE FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU" by Dato Dr Fadzilah Kamsah. I was amused at first, but suddenly questions start creeping into my "pretty" head. Almost nak tukar jadi incredible hulk ni, hehehe.

"What?? Hubby bought this CD? "" Who does he want to fall in love with him?"" Am I not enough for him?"" Is there another woman in his life?""No lah, cannot be lah, so very lovey dovey my Mr Z nowadays, sure not those lah "

Not good thoughts eh? Hmmm. So we listen together until we reached the factory. But, I told him that I want the CD to listen while I work. Ni nak make sure I know better than him, so any potential "enemy" is driven out before anything can happen. I am definitely taking the proactive approach, applying the Sun Tze' principle of Know Your Enemy stuff. Hehehehe.I am also making sure that I "sense" his behaviour, as to check his not so becoming behaviour. Put as stop before the lump becoming cancerous.

Anyway, I think I would put down some tips from this CD, to help those who are looking for someone to fall in love with you. From the CD, I don't think that married couple should not listen to this, because, we could improve ourself to further enhance our attractiveness to our spouse. But singles are encouraged to listen, there is something to be learnt here. But feminists, I must warned you, take the good things discard the not so good things. Some I agree, some I don't. I will let you judge for yourselves. I am not promoting this CD, if I do, I might as well go anad get the commission from the distributor.

Ladies attributes that attract Men.1. Attractive face (as a first impression, but good personality will preceeds a beautiful face when man get to know you)2. Well behaves/pious 3. Good family background4. Good personality (good behaviour, curteous, patient, not overly jeleous etc)5. Smart girls (but never to overshadow the man smartness)6. Sense of humour7. Not too combative, and argumentative at all time. Can argue but not overly so.Men attributes attractive to Women.1. Attractive and macho (kah, kah, sian un macho man!!)2. Wealth is a + point.3. Good personality, a gentleman, polished, caring4. Smart, mature5. Able to control their ego, unable to control their ego is repulsive to ladies ( I fully agree)6. Appreciative of women's need (Man, take NOTE!!!, generous, not kedekut)Some tips to make people fall in love with you.

1.Be a positive magnet by cleansing your heart, do your prayer,repent.Forgive everyone around you, Have positive thoughts.Love begets love, hatred begets hatred.2. Physical well being and presentation, well dressed, good Body adour, good mouth adour.3. Open your heart for love - Are you ready for love?4. Mental communication always in positve manner. Send your love one or potential live partner mental vibration especially at night when everything is quiet and at peace. The love of your live or potential live partner will feel it.5. Do not procastinate inn indicating your feeling to someone you like. Jangan bai dia tunggu macam buah tak jatuh OK?6. Communicate with passion, sincerity and don't be a hiprocrite (yang ni aku tambah). Be yourself.7. Treat your potential live partner like an old friend, be comfortable with him/her.8. Evaluate yourself for any unbecoming or repulsive habits (nose picking in public, spitting everywhere, a miser, etc)Cukup lah tu. kalau nak lagi pergi beli sendiri lah CD tu OK.HAVE A GOOD WEEK-END

June 16, 2005

As far as I can remember we never did celebrate father's day or mother's day. Only the girls birthdays, mine or hubby's are celebrated by having a meal outside as a family. Somewhere a little bit more special than the usual. The day before yesterday hubby received this SMS from Kak Long:

"Eventhough you have a stern face, but through your twinkling eyes, I can see the gentleness of your heart. BABA, you are the best!Happy Father's Day!"Not bad coming from my anak dara ni. I don't know where she got it from but it did make her father a very happy man. Hubby really missed her so much. I have never seen my hubby like this before. Usually, it was a bit difficult for him to express his emotion. It was me who always take the girls out for shopping or any other things that need to be done. Almost everything about their welfare was supposed to be my responsibility. But maybe then all of them are at home. So when one is away, he seems to be missing her so much. Every night he would be calling Kak Long, so far. This is their conversation after the SMS.

Baba : Hello darliiiiiiiig!!!!!! What are u doing?Kak Long : *Giggled* Baba cakap kuat sangat. Awat baba telefon?.Baba : Baba rindu anak baba lah..Kak Long : Ya ka? Amboi, boleh tahan anak dara aku ni tease baba dia. Ye lah turun dari mama dia lah tu.Then he would asked her what she did for the day etc. etc.Baba : Dah makan ka? Kak Long: Dah, makan maggi saja tadi.Baba : Awat tak pi makan kat kantin tu, bukan jauh punKak Long : Malas lah.Baba : Lain kali beli bungkus bawak makan kat bilik lah kalau malu, tak pun ajak room mate keluaq sama.Kak Long : Tak apa lah Baba, nantilah.Baba : Malam2 ni tak buat apa ka? Awat tak pi tengok TV ke.Kak Long : Tak buat apa, boring sebab lecture 2 subject 1 hari saja. Malam boring lah. TV tak ada lah Baba. ramai yang tengok dari PC saja tu. Baba beli lah satu.Baba : *Laugh*, nanti lah.Pandai ngendeng rupanya anak dara aku ni. Maybe not lah I told my hubby, later she may be too tight up to watch TV. Right now because they don't have any assignment yet, so she is a bit bored.Last night, when I was about to go to sleep I heard my handphone rang. She usually make a missed called to us. To save her prepaid cost. Hubby was already asleep, or so I thought, but he made me tell him every single detail of that conversation. I had to tell him that Kak Long said she was stuck in the lift with her friend ( a girl) with 4 boys. The girls were on their way back to the hostel after lecture. They rang the bell and one of the boys called his friend to ask for help. While waiting for the help to come one of the boys said they might as well get to know each other, and he said that they can write in their diaries today that they were stuck in the lift with who and who. Like they are so famous, right ?

She told me what she did in classes etc. etc. She was telling me about her room mate's idea of sharing books. They are in different class, eventhough in the same course. Her room mate is a nice girl. Kak Long must be very bored or missed me like hell and very likely both. It was already mid nite when she called. I asked her whether she will be OK in all her class so far, because I know she has limited capability especially in drawings. Whether she or her room mate is thinking to change course if any one of them receive another offer from the IPTA. She isn't sure yet she said. At least she has a few weeks to decide, being able to experience the classes. I don't want her to feel that she can just quit if she find this unsuitable for her. At the same time I think I know her capability limit. But Kak Long so far I have seen she does not complaint easily. We will see how things goes.

I don't know the exact date for the father's day, but would like to wish all fathers out there

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY. May God Bless You and May You always love your children and be loved in return.

June 15, 2005

I actually planned and drafted a different entry. But when I open the blog just now I saw the heading. I just need to write this tribute to the 2 ladies.

When I saw Kak Tehchocolate blog head, kecur air liur or terliuq kata orghang utagha tu. Although I know where to ask but I don't know Maknenek so well to ask her to make one for me. I have been reading her blog but I did not make an attempt to comment as often as in other blogs. Then I saw Tenah got hers, others started asking also, so, I pun buat muka tak malu minta jugak lah kat Maknenek. Her response was very fast lah. Siap dia minta e-mail add and cepat sungguh dah dapat dah tu.

But then, I thought to myself, there will be some people who will start teasing me as "ibu ayam" pulak tu, habis macam mana ni sebab bukan salah dia, aku yang tak beritahu dia image apa yang aku nak. Aku rasa macam aku ni banyak songeh pulak nak mintak tukar tu. Tapi rasanya tak boleh jadi jugaklah kan. So I replied her e-mail told her what I thought and she was so very sportingly said, she laughed out loud when I said someone might call me "ibu ayam" for the header. She then created me another one which is so breathtakingly beautiful. I hope nobody will feel homesick looking at the new blog head.

Then KakTeh YM me to ask whether I wanted to put in the header. Of course I do but I told her the "ibu ayam" story. She laughed as well and said no, there was already a new one. Wow, these two ladies are so remarkable, if they ever start a business together, I can tell mesti meletupnye lah tu. Very very aggressive lorr. So I gave Kak Teh what she wanted.

Walla, there you see it, from the goodness and kindness of their hearts, my blog has got a new blog head. Makin berseri lah blog makcik kampung ni no... I cannot thank you ladies enough. Nasib baik jauh-jauh belaka tu kalau tidak I am sure kena belanja tu. Hahaha. Just kidding ladies. If you are here, somewhere in the northern state of Malaysia, please don't forget to let me know. I will take you makan-makan whatever your hearts desire okay?

June 11, 2005

I am going to be busy for the week-end. I have to finish the other 12.5 hours of my lecture at the college. I know, some of you will come to read this blog. Thank you for coming , I do appreciate your coming by. I will leave you with something to ponder upon for the week-end.

DON'T EVER BE AFRAID TO BE YOURSELF

In a world of comparisons

and conformity,

make your own statement.

Honour your own truth.

Have the courage to be yourself;

risk speaking your own thoughts

and claiming your emotions

Share your vulnerabilities

fears, doubts and insecurities;

let others experience the real you.

Have the courage to be yourself,

and realise that you are

a wonderful person

- Diane Holcomb-

and

HOPEThis is a word that lightens the heart and gives courage today to help face tomorrow.

Have a nice week-end everyone, be positive and do something productive, like me of course, hahaha....

June 10, 2005

About the last quarter of last year 2004, I was getting bored at work. AF2 was just over. My daughters, like other teenagers were into the Yahoo Group. Me being the mother, has got some "tentacles" out of my senses, worried that they might get into the wrong channels, but at the same time trying to understand their needs as teenagers. When the home PC was down, they gave me their password to check their e-mails. Because of that I discovered the blogs written for the AF students. Amongst the earliest that I went into was Javard (not knowing at that time he was my hubby's nephew). I like his writing, he supports someone I like in the AF2, I so keep on reading, and one day he posted about his aunty. It was too much a coincidence and I had to get a confirmation that he is my nephew. At that point I had not met him for 18 years. We met when I stopped by his mom's house during my honeymoon!!!. He had never met any of my daughters. So when we know for sure that Javard is my nephew, I have been going to his blog as frequent as I could, Because it means that I have a relation in the blogging world. Our communication has become very personal. Long before that I had been asking my hubby to pay a visit to Javard's home to meet his grandma, it was only last week that wish came true. I could not explain why I missed her so much, maybe I was thinking of arwah MIL.

At first I thought that blogging is just for the entertainment world (maklumlah makcik kampung kan, sempit sikit fikiran ni), because the same kind of bloggers seems to flock within the same community (Am I making sense here?). Then a colleague sent me via e-mail Pokku's Mujo entry. It was lawak sakan, so I asked where did he got it from and he gave me the url. At the same time, I also checked-out Badrul's blog and got to know him and his readers. One day, Joeposted a comment there and Badrul's reply had kind of sparked off my curiosity. People say curiosity kills the cat right? Perhaps that what happened, I got hooked. From Joe's blog I got to know many friends. When at first I thought only the young people blog, ( I consider myself old, so anyone younger than me is young), I began to know there are MakAndeh, Auntie Yan and Wynn who are within my age range. Still I could not bring myself to start a blog. Still procastinating because, although I know I can write, but can I handle the pressure? I could see how the readers usually pressure the writer for updates. Could I handle comments which may not be to my liking? Would it be just for me to retaliate to rude comments? I ni jenis yang straight to the point, tak suka beat around the bush so kalau aku cakap tu takut jugaklah pedas kat telinga orang tu. Nak kena berlapik sangat bercakap ni. Oleh kerana aku ni dah mature (veteran lah ni, tak nak mengaku tua dah) aku lebih banyak diam bila baca sesuatu yang aku tak suka.

Atenah said I was like the phantom, my nick was here and there but could not find my blog. Atenah actually said like she always do to others, AuntyN start a blog lah!! Redah saja lah kata dia tu, when I told her I hadn't got the courage to start a blog. Yes, I was kind off scared at first for those reasons above. I have been reading her blog but could not comment at that point since she did not allow anoynamous comment. Kakak tu (nak panggei makcik takut kena marah ni!!!)kata dia buta IT. I sort of promised her that when I start a blog I would let her be the one to "cut the ribbon" which I did. The rest is history, I get to know so many others, people like Kak Teh, Mutiara, Omar and the others (sorry there are too many of you to mention one by one).

I enjoy reading blogs and I enjoy writing one. I find connection with the other bloggers. Happy when they write about happy things, shed tears when the entry touched my heart. Feel the emotion that the blogger is trying to potray in his/her way through their writings. Each blogger has his/her own reason for blogging, many are their life experiences, it is difficult (at least for me) not to put something personal in the entry. How much we try to generalise, there is something of yourself there in the entry, in the blog. There are lots of things one can learn from these entries. Of course there are some craps too, but at least we learn not to be a crap right?

I feel sad and angry when some people post viscious or rude comment to an entry. Worse still if by that action had cause the demise of the blog or an unwarranted ill feelings between bloggers. Someone said to me that a blog is like our garden, what we plant in there is what we like to have in that garden, so how do we react when someone trample all over your garden? And since the garden is in the open space, can't we just try to enjoy the beautiful scenery without being critical on how the owner organise his/her garden? Or if we don't like the garden, just leave it. Who knows that blogger may be someone close to you, how would you react in that situation?

There is no guidelines for blogging but as a human being a little respect for an individual goes a long way. Whether we have met that person or not, I believe that there is always a reaction to every action. Nazrah has written a lot on this, I don't want to say more, her pot-pet is enough to send the message across. Please read her entry titled "Does Not Hurt To Be Nice"

Petang kami melawat lawat sorang aunty yang aku dah lama rindu nak jumpa. She is my MIL's cousin, she is 86 years old, still going strong except for some hearing problem. She is still very beautiful for her age. She is staying with her daughter and grandsons. One of the grandsons is a blogger, Javard. Eversince I discovered Javard is related to me I have been keeping in contact with him at his blog. We read each other's blog and support each other. He is still available too. J, jangan marah no.. memang lah mak menakan kan macam tu selalu, hahaha.

June 04, 2005

It truly has been a birthday like no other for me. I have never had so many wishes and Doa from so many people before. Most of all, from people whom I have never met before.

Since this is my first birthday as a blogger, I wanted to really put up something that reflects who I am. I have always been very critical of myself, I would like to know what people think of me and things that I do. Again, it is difficlut to write it here because I am scared that I might be misunderstood. I will write more when I write about how I "terjebak dengan blogging ni". Maybe as the next entry.

I can't thank you enough, for all the wishes coming from all over the world. They are encouragement for me to continue to write my blog and try to provide the emotional support and extend a hand in friendship to those who need/want it. If love can be transmitted through the keyboard and the cables, I hope that I have been able to reach you with love. I am sure you all know that what I mean by love is not the love between a couple, between man and women. That love is reserved for my one and only man in my live. The one who suka merajuk tu!!!!

I do not know, most of you personally, only just a few I have met, and those who I have met I found that I do get along well. I do know there are unscruplous people with hasad and dengki in their hearts out there, but I DO want to think that those who have come to blog are sincerely coming to read and to get something from me as a mature person. If there is a lesson to be learnt from the blog, I must say Alhamdulillah. Insyaallah, I will be further blessed.

So for this birthday, from the bottom of my heart, I say thank you to ALL of you. You are very special to me. Without you there will be no AuntyN. Because, I can write but I would not get enough motivation to continue without your encouragement.

Special thanks to Omar, the anakdagang in Nashville, who had make the trouble to send me a bouquet of beautiful red roses. I know I hinted a month ago, but it was all in jest. Not to be taken seriously. I am so touched, truly touched. Anyway Om, terimakasih daun keladi Om, tahun depan hantar lagi OK, hahaha. (Ni dah melampau ni dah kan?)... The photo of the roses is as posted above. I tried to put it here but it does not come out.

June 02, 2005

Today 2 June 2005, is my 47th birthday. Wow, I have been alive for 47 years!!!. I was told that the Queen E of England is also celebrating her birthday on the same day. In Malaysia we are celebrating the Hari Keputeraan Yang di Pertuan Agong on the first week of June and sometimes it would coincide with my birthday. So it does give me a warm feeling that I am sharing the birthday with royalties. Ni dah perasan, macam aku ni royalty lah pulak no...... hehehehe. Ada lah sorang tu yang cakap aku ni perasan tu, jadi dah sah lah aku ni kaki perasan kan? Tapi aku ni sikit pun tak de blue blood lah.

I have written about my child hood and schooling time, my married life, whine about my hubby, my children, so what else is there for me to tell you all about me. What I can say is that I am truly a Makcik from a kampung like what my profile say. But, so far in my 47 years I think I have some accomplishments that I can truly say I am proud of. The very recent accomplishment is of course me being a blogger. This week will be my 3rd month as a blogger. I started my blog on 5th March, after some encouragement from some friends who I have met in the cyber world. Each day I am a little suprised at what I can do or write in my blog. Each blogger has got his/her up and down, sometimes we have absolutely no idea what to write and sometimes we have so much thing to write. Maybe I will create an entry on how I started blogging in the first place.

In life, I think I have accomplished a good a career. Eventhough I may be just a Makcik from a kampung, but I have done quite well in the corporate world. Again, no I am NOT a Datin who owns this company (though I wish I would be that, really!!!!), and of course I am not at par with Datuk Maznah Hamid or Datuk Zetty Akhtar etc, etc. Just someone who is a little bit successful in the what lots of people term as "the rat race"Please don't ask me to reveal the company name, it is enough for you to know that I work in a factory. Aku ni Minah Kilang tau. Jadi jangan dok perlekeh minah-minah kilang ni tau. Kami duduk kampung, jadi minah kilang pun tapi boleh tahan jugaklah kan lifestyle tu. Anyway, it's HALAL what? Of course, I am not an operator, but still kalau dah kerja kilang, minah kilang lah namanya kan?.........

I did not come up to my current position, without hard work or struggle. Being a lady, married and also Melayu (I am NOT a racist when I use this term, my closest friend is an Indian, I have lots of Chinese friends and other races), but sometimes we have to come to term with the competition we have to endure in the job market. So being able to sit in my current office surrounded by male colleagues, and in the position which is usually male orientated is to me an accomplishment. Mungkin ada yang nak fikir ni, vah, vah this makcik very vain, suka puji diri ni, kalau ampu sikit mesti boleh jalan ni..., Please think again, really hard. I am just trying to say that, whatever we decide to do in life, do it in a proper way to receive the best possible result.

I have been told by a few new people whom I have met that I look like a teacher. Remember the pregnant sales lady whose stool I borrowed to sit on when I went shopping the other day? She asked me first whether I work and I said I do, next she was asking where and I said in a factory. She said, "You look like a teacher". The Chinese couple who hit my car that day thought I was not working, the wife was supprised when I told her I was calling from work. So how do I look, a house-wife or a teacher? But many so far said that I look like a teacher. How does a teacher look like?? Tenah, maybe you can tell me that, lembut ke, garang ke? Macam mana tu? Teaching is not something that I would like to do full time although I must say I don't mind doing it, part time, which is what I am doing now.

I am a very people person. If you have ever chatted with me anywhere, the way I potray myself in the chat room is very much the way I am outside. If you have met me you should know that I am the over ramah makcik from the blog. I have never pretended to be what I am not, and perhaps because of that I may be a little naive at times. I do tend to believe in people too much, too vulnerable and therefore too open to people's dishonesty. As much as I can, I will try NOT to pre-judge people especially those who I have not met. So do not pre-judge me as well. But then again if you think you would like to get to know me, don't be shy if you see me and you think you know me please say hello and introduce yourself.

In private life of course you all know already, how blessed my life is. A loving yet suka merajuk hubby, 4 lovely daughters, and a house full of cats for Sya. My mak is living with me and I live in almost a small scale orchard. I have rambutans, durians and dokong trees within my compound. In my backyard we have bendi, limau kasturi, serai, lengkuas, putat, pandan, kari (karapole) leaves, kunyit. We are almost self sufficient and we utilise the land to the max.

So, can you imagine, with such a life why should I be whining. I should be counting my blessing. I do, I do. I am so THANKFUL to ALLAH for what HE has bestowed upon me. My 47 years have been quite good with trials and tribulations which I learnt from and mature from. The only thing perhaps, I MUST do is to improve myself in all my ibadah to HIM. I am still learning a lot of things (one should never stop learning even till the end of your life, that's my philosophy), on how to improve myself be it for dunia or akhirah. I hope that I could accomplish much more in a few years going forward.

So in a little restrospect that is who I am. I don't know whether I am likeable or not. I do like to get to know you all better, so drop me a comment while wishing me happiness for the next year at least and tell me who you are and what have you accomplished so far (if you like).

I would also like to wish CK of Singapore and KakTeh's eldest son, Hafiz, Many Happy Returns of The day, they share the same birthday with me, although I am the elder of the 3.

Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life.The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.

You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.

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About Me

I was born in a kampung (village), raised in a kampung, educated partially in the kampung, earned a living in the area that can still be called a kampung and living my life in a kampung. Now spending my early retirement in the kampung.