Wednesday, 12 May 2010

"Within the sacrocanctity of early morn, she housed her true identity.

The above phrase is from a current work-in-progress manuscript from a survivor of Mk-Ultra, mainly I. As mentioned in my first posting on this site, I was forcefully taken from my loving and devoted parents prior to reaching my sixth birthday. It was after this politically motivated action that I first was exposed to Mk-ultra and the method called psycho-driving. I remember the fact that a tape recorder was constantly being played while I slept. This invasion into the subconscious was done for the purpose of driving out the stored core memories of my biological family and implanting in its stead programmed information and an altered personality state.

My parents had been married for nearly five years prior to me having been conceived. Since my parents very much wanted a child, my coming into the world and their lives brought much joy and happiness to them. My parent's feelings of genuine love and gratitude were transmitted into every communication they shared with me. Invisible but not unnoticeable, our home was permeated with the precious emotions of respect and love.

Physical possessions are sometimes the most treasured and valued things in peoples' lives. For some, the things which are regarded above all else are their children, their values, their principles and standards. Attributes like ethics, integrity, and a person's word are not easily compromised commodities for the many, or the few who desire a humane and civilized society.

Encyclopedia BritannicaSacred

The power, being, or realm understood by religious persons to be at the core of existence and to have a transformative effect on their lives and destinies. Other terms, such as holy, divine, transcendent, ultimate being (or reality), mystery, and perfection (or purity) have been used for this domain. "Sacred" is also an important technical term in the scholarly study and interpretation of religions.

Within the sacrosanctity of early morn was housed her true identity. In the hallowed moments of emerging dawn, ascended, intentionally obstructed images of my family, home, faith practices, personage and innate frolic and imagination. Snippets of memories of my earliest childhood would peer when I became absorbed and interacted with the emerging cosmic elements of dawn.

Deeply rich purple ascending clouds bellowed within extraterrestrial space like advancement of mysterious time. Also, deeply rich was the inner howl, non-audibly emitted, the word, "Mother, mother." The benevolent colors of approaching morning submitted to me reflective hues of reminiscence of colors contained in a floral house gown which was once worn by my mother.

If the properties of the human mind is not considered sacred than I question what is considered sacred?

An individual's birth and biological rights of free thought and imagination should not be usurped and stagnation on the blood-stained altars of governmental self-interest.

If the human experience is not free to function within the propensities of ones' own innate drives, aptitudes, talents, spiritual expression, and moral stance, then I present the question what is freedom and how is it defined?

If the soul can be thought of as ones’ own self awareness, ones’ own inner dimensions of thoughts, belief, critical discernments, a multitude of complexities contained within the space of nothingness and everything; how than can it be robbed of its inherent rights of individual function and decision making?

Mk-Ultra forcefully aborted its subject’s rights to emotional and spiritual personalized development; and instead, Mk-Ultra injected into the spiritual veins of its subject’s empty awareness and a subjugated spirit.

Say not, “I have found the truth,” but rather, “I have found a truth.” Say not, “I have found the path of the soul.” Say rather, “I have met the soul walking upon my path.” For the soul walks upon all paths. The soul walks not upon a line, neither does it grow like a reed. The soul unfolds itself, like a lotus of countless pedals. --- Kahil Gibran, The Prophet, 1923

Put your ear down close to your soul and listen hard --- Anne Sexton

When you do things from the soul you feel a river moving in you, a joy. When action comes from another section, the feeling disappears. --- Jalal ad-Din Rumi

When a person's imagination is violently ruptured throught medically unnecessary electroshock treatments, Is not the soul affected?

About Me

I am a survivor of Mk-Ultra. A United States Government Human Experimentation Program which used unwitting human subjects for a human behavior modification program. In enduring the extreme pain of having my mental state altered from excessive non-medically necessary electroshock treatments and sleep deprivation, and other inhumane form of torture, through the grace of God, I survived. I pray each day that in the wonder of my personal survival, that I will be able to be of service to others.