Sunday, December 29, 2013

I do not
label myself a carebear, yet I do not think of myself as a griefer either. The
way I play EvE is based on actually making it in the game, because EvE is to me,
a virtuality… a virtual REALITY and I want to live and experience it as a alternate reality…
I don’t want to cheat by buying wealth (buying and selling PLEX) I want to make
my way, and pay my way with the ISK I earn in game.

Now making
ISK in EvE is not ‘easy’. EvE is, as we all know, a Reward equals Risk game. In
Hisec PvE the risk is low and the ISK is shit, however put together a gang and gank
a fat loaded Freighter and Hisec PvP can give you a shot at a real payday… but
you have to cover the losses you WILL take and recover the loot before the
vultures snag it… risky.

I
found my way into Anoikis early in my Evelife, Negative Security space, negsec… the highest risk for
the highest rewards (for smaller groups) than even nullsec. The PvE is very
risky and I also greatly enjoy being a Mercenary, PvPing for ISK and being a Merc
fits my personal Moral Code. In Anoikis I was finally making enough ISK to
support getting really involved in PvP and I had found my Modus Operandi, one which
allowed me to PvP without qualms… as I like to say, “I’m just doing a job. You did something to cause me to be here, look to
yourself for the reasons why.”

So… I am not
a carebear at heart, as I first said it a few years ago, I consider myself a
Carebadger, an EvE player who wants to make enough ISK fast enough to afford to
PvP in something other than cheap T1 frigs and cruisers… I like faction fit T3s,
Oracles and HICtors… I like living Anoikis and I like living in a POS (yes, I
actually LIKE it… oh I do wish we could dock and shit… mebbe one day) and living
inna POS in Anoikis can be a logistical nightmare… and a costly one.

I my time I
have tried many forms of PvP, some for the experience, some just for fun and some for the ISK...

-I once
joined a WarDec corp (run by a Hisec Noob WarDec'er), I got one fight to a (personal)
draw while my 2 corpmates got a WarTarget kill;

-I joined
RvB for a while... fun at first, but that's moar mutual masturbation than PvP
really;

-I have joined in many late-night-after-the-Op-is-done lowsec roams… some funish, some not so much;

-I fleeted
up with Allies once (and only once) to gank a freighter in Lowsec, but, well...
simply amazing fail was had that night;

-I have fleeted up to kill-all-the-who-ever-I-am-PAID-to-kill...
This I would do again in a heartbeat… for ISK and
glory;

Ganking just
seemed stoopid to me, even if we had won; War Deccing was boring, and TBH felt
dirty; the roams were never really fulfilling, same as RvB… but Merc Ops
and cloaky hot drops in Anoikis are the life for me! Merc Ops cause you’re
getting paid and Anoikis Hot Drops are simply not the same as Hisec ganks at all… it’s
Anoikis, wormhole space, negative sec… If you jump the crazy marble you accept that you are risking it
all, and I am one of the reasons you are.

The thing for me is, I hate,
morally, the idea of virtually destroying another person's virtual stuff
without a reason (IE rationalization) I can live with… one that fits my moral compass.

In a recent
post, “The
Corruption of Ideals” by Sugar Kyle of “Low Sec Lifestyle”, Sugar opines about
Killing-all-the-things in EvE, the morality of PvP in our very weird and unique
sandbox. She talks about how morals, values, focus, reason and goals are all
lacking in the basic structure of EvE… How the game sets no path or overreaching
quest for you, how nothing shapes these but we ourselves. In this post Kaeda Maxwell,
the Wild Rose of Molden Heath,
commented and the post and comment stirred the electrons in my
grey matter…

*** NOTE ***The following is in no way personal nor is it a slam against Kaeda or even on grifers/griefing as a playstyle... It is just a discourse on my thoughts and feelings on griefing as a playstyle in EvE...

Kaeda said,
"I take viscous (real) delight in
griefing (in the knowledge it is only a game and I'm not causing any real
damage)." When I hear/read this I always ask myself, where does this delight in ‘not really’ destroying
these ‘not real’ things come from? What is the basis? Where is the enjoyment? How is this fulfilling, what makes it "fun"?

This is my
moral line-in-the-sand. I have read so much from so many who enjoy griefing, and
it all leads me to believe strongly that most, if not all, do it because they enjoy the ‘upset’
this causes other players. They see this upset as childish because to the griefer it
is really ‘only’ a game and nothing more... The rationalization they justify their actions against other players by is that as it wasn’t a ‘real’ loss of a ‘real’ thing then the
other player is being juvenile for being upset about it and that in turn justifies their playstyle...

I believe, deep
down, that if NO ONE ever got upset... griefing would be far less fun than it
is for all who play that game. The ‘real’ enjoyment griefers get is over the
very ‘real’ upset (“tears”) they
cause another ‘real’ person whom they can then justify looking down on because
“it’s just a game”… Well, IRL people get murdered over poker, a gods damned card game, and
for far less RW dollars than some of the ‘cost of doing business’ in EVE. They say
“It’s only a game”, “It’s not real” and “I’m not causing any real damage.”… Really?

SYJ has been paid many times to raid and kill… we got paid billions of ISK (in loot n ships)
to take down TLC’s “Office” wormhole… 3 Lrg POSes destroyed, a massive crap
load of Capitols, BPO&Cs/mods/ships.etc/etc/etc stolen or destroyed… with an approximate
value of 517,000,000,000.00 ISK… and because there is a direct RW USD to ISK ratio
thanx to PLEX, that equates to a RW value of $19,460.00 that was ‘not really’
destroyed and ‘not really’ stolen… Yea… it’s only a game… but it can be a
damned expensive game to lose at. I wrote up a post about that Merc
Op in which I even discuss my moral qualms over the fact that we were paid
by a traitor in TLC to do the job…

But it’s the
other aspect, the outright disregard for another human beings feelings, that is
why ganking and griefing has never sat well with me. Yes they can get just as
upset and 'hurt' due to my actions as a Merc, but that is not ‘why’ I do what I
do and it is the part I get no enjoyment from at all.

To enjoy that aspect of an
open sandbox PvP/E game, you have to have absolutely no empathy at all for the
players you target... no empathy for other people. Kaeda said also, “I no longer recall ‘the faces’ of my in game
victims, I used to... But they have become faceless ghosts behind keyboards…”
I don’t know about you, but I am not a faceless ghost… and the thought that there are so many out there who see anyone they
don’t know personally as such does not sit well with me.

No matter how much EvE Online is a game, the players, each
and every one, are real people, with real feelings and they are each as
different in game as they are in the street, at the office and at home.

Just because someone is different from you, just because they invest more of
their ‘feelings’ into the game than you do... to me, this does not justify or provide an acceptable rationalization for enjoying hurting
them emotionally just because you 'can'…

And don’t
say it is ‘just about blowing up ships’… cause it aint JUST about blowing up
pictures of internet spaceships, otherwise griefers would fukkin LOVE PvE…
but they don’t do they? Nope... NPC's don't cry. The truth is, in the end it is not about unreal pixelships or virtual
explosions… It is about the very real emotional reactions griefers have to the very real emotional reactions of the very real people they grief against.

EvE is not harsh and hard, EvE is what we the players make it… we are the reason EvE is harsh and hard and dangerous and full of everything-going-pear-shaped risk... and I may even be one of those reasons on occasion, but it aint ever
for the tears... for me, it’s all about the ISK.

Monday, December 23, 2013

This is just a silly but potentially interesting quickie... I'm still here, just, you know got some RL>EVE n shit goin on... will write an update soon.

The above links show how Raziel and Kane play EvE. Here is how I do it... This is in my Pub (I married a Brit so a 'Bar' is the thing behind me one sets one's pint, or in my case a Cuba Libre, on and leans against whence pontificating... and a 'Pub' is the place where the bar is...)(anyhoo)...

This is my view of EvE... Triple screens; 22" Main on the left, 17" Secondary on the right and the 50" Distraction up center there on the hearth...

My system is a maxed out nothing-special-here HP sittin onna lapdesk as my ass, gravity and multiple Cuba Libre's work together to slowly conform my "spot" to perfection on the new sectional... ahhh... =]

Them as what follow me...

Graphiti...

Round and round we go...

Fav Post Bytes...

"Maybe we're not that different after all and I have my own reality to get to grips with."Absence of Substance

Now THAT is wisdom...

We are, each and alone, the absolute center of our subjective 'verse... this is the way of life.To see another's POV as if it were your own... this is the way of truth...To allow that some others have POVs you cannot and will never understand, and yet accept them as they are, this is the way of acceptance...To kill them all without rancor or anger, but in brotherhood... this is the way of EVE.

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