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Sunday, May 8, 2011

I was doing good until my dad bought donuts. Great. And there's no good excuse to use to not eat one. 350 calories more than I needed. I had 100 cal before that. But now I've had like half of today's calories. And today isn't even half over. It's not even 11. So now I will have to have lunch and supper and there's no way that will be under 500 cal. If I'm lucky it will be under 1000. And since my parents are around I can't work out. So 0 cal burned today. So much for my I'll be too busy to eat logic. With D in Indiana I can't leave and not eat supper with my parents any more. I really need a day of fasting but I have nowhere to go and no one to see to get me out of eating supper. I have a feeling that I will be struggling to get to 120 and stay there.

1 comment:

you can do it, hang in there!! you'll figure out a way to eat less without raising suspicion and before you know it, you'll be at your goal! When I lived with my parents I faked a wheat allergy to get out of eating bread, pasta, pizza, pastries, cakes etc I basically complained non-stop of stomachache whenever i ate anything bready and the doctor said it might be a wheat allergy and that I should avoid wheat products. It meant I had a free pass to refuse anything fattening that had even an ounce of wheat in it. I would have to pretend to be upset that I wasn't allowed these things, but inside I was happy about it. I'm sure you will figure out something that works for your situation as well :)

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