Wednesday, November 11, 2009

so i am officially surrendering to 2009. i know it is a bit early, but i feel like i have no choice. i fought the good fight, but i think it is going to win, so instead of continuing to fight i will conserve my strength for 2010. i won't go into the ins and outs of it, but generally things have been kinda sucky and i haven't felt like myself in months. and that's sucky because i usually like myself, but this person-- me no likey AT ALL. i didn't celebrate my birthday. i didn't feel like it. so there. take that 2009. i miss my friends. "hi friends!" i miss you guys. oh, and the thing about me and being down in the dumps is i don't like being down in the dumps. i spent lots of years in them there dumps and i didn't much like it there (the food is crap and the accommodations crap, too!). then i start feeling guilty for being down in the dumps. i beat myself up for feeling sorry for myself and for not being just generally happy, because a bad year for me is still a pretty darn good year for most. so then it becomes this nasty inner dialogue myself vs. myself and as you can see if myself wins then myself loses. i think they call that a lose lose situation. for now, i will carry on. i will try not to be completely erased by this big bowl of yuck, but please, pardon me if i have been a bad blogger, bad friend, bad wife, bad sister, daughter, partner, customer, e-mailer, bill payer, call returner, polaroider . . . you get the point.

Youre still an inspiration to me. Your post so succinctly put into words how i have felt on a regular basis this year, and it was of great comfort to read. You write as beautifully as you photograph. x

sometimes a case of the blahs brings out a really well written piece...and that's surely the case here. hang in there, i haven't had a drink in a looooong time and come 2010 i'm going to need one! we'll plan an outing with the ladies to celebrate a fresh, new year!

Ah, yes -- it's a vicious and perfect little cycle, that. I am always amazed, when I get caught in those endless downward spiralings, just how much self-loathing one can manage to cram into an average day. Shocking.

I hope your world is fizzy and balloon-filled soon, and for all of the coming year.

Hi there. I hope you are well. I don't know what happened, but I just now realized that I hadn't been getting updates from your blog. Now I am remembering how much I love and admire your work. Seeing it pushes me, makes me fall in love, and does a number of other wondrous things. So, I hope you are well. I really really do.

I can't believe how exactly I know how you felt when you wrote this. Only now to know there is another person out there feeling perhaps the same way, makes me sad. HOPE for a new year, for you and me. See you there.

I hope and wish that everything will turn out fine for this year. Let’s bring on 2010 a great one. As what you have said, balloons makes you smile. So whenever you feel blue, just look for the balloons.

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