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Saturday, July 7, 2012

I let myself get too tired again and ended up drinking last night. It's amazing how quickly I can go from thinking I'll never drink again to that being all I can imagine doing. I'm moody, but I don't think I have mood swings. (Or hell, maybe I do! It's hard to tell from the inside.) But my goals and priorities can certainly shift dramatically and sometimes quickly.

Anyway, there was more going on to my drinking than just fatigue. I suppose we all have our secret shames, but there are some things I can't disclose, even in an anonymous blog. But yesterday I had an emotionally draining episode related to a burden I've carries for decades. I could no longer process it, so I drank.

Science Fiction Double Feature

I was determined not to spend another weekend in bed, so I dragged myself out of it this morning afternoon. I walked to the gym and spent an hour on the stair-stepper and then some upper body strength training. I normally only do thirty minutes, but I knew it was going to take a lot to burn off all the calories I consumed last night. As a reward, I called a friend to see if she was interested in dinner and a movie, but she never called me back. So I just went on my own.

I ate dinner at Genhis Grill. I love this place because you get to choose exactly the ingredients you want. I'm such a picky eater, but when I eat there, I don't have to pick things out of my food. I tried to keep it healthy with lean beef and brown rice. I did break down about extraneous calories with some frozen yoghurt afterwards.

I went to the theater and saw The Amazing Spider-Man. It was entertaining, but frankly I though the three movies with Toby Maguire were better and (except for the biological basis for his web) truer to the source material, at least as I remember it. Having a taste for the superhero movie, I then thought "What the hell" and went to showing of The Avengers. Jiminy, no shortage of hot men in that movie! I decided my favorite was Jeremy Renner. (Besides, I've always been partial to the bow.) The film was great with a great plot, which is not surprising seeing how it was written and directed by Joss Whedon.