Eine Geschichte der Heilung

_Testimonial 17.09.2008

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Avalon,
my friend, my teacher and my healer. Beautiful goddess, crazy shaman,
fearless light-warrior, demon-slayer and powerful wild witch.
I
would like to share some of my story of how you have healed me, because
there are so many others who may also have this opportunity. I would
like more people to know about your work.
You
have an extraordinary gift. I feel that you are here to bring a great
transformation of consciousness to the earth and to bring back all the
beauty and magick and sacredness to the earth
and to people's lives. I know that you have the power to lift thousands
of people out of the dreariness of disempowerment, and back into the
divinity of oneness with the source.
When
I first met you I was emotionally and physically crippled, due to
blockages in my spine, which no osteopath or cranial therapist could fix
-- because the problem was in my soul, not my body. Walking and moving
was a painful experience, and I could not lift a mug of tea to my lips
for 1 1/2 years, I was so weak.
I
went to see hundreds of healers, some of which helped a little for a
while but none got to the root of my illness. Many times I managed to
stagger to come and see you in tears, worn out with pain, feeling broken
in spirit and barely able to be in my body. The physical pain I was in
every day was so great that nobody in the world seemed to be able to
help.
You looked at me with your clairvoyant eyes and saw immediately the root core of the problem. After only a few healing sessions from you, and participating in one of your women's empowerment
courses, not only has all the pain completely gone, my body is
completely healed. My spine is healed. You have restored my body to a
sacred temple. It is thanks to you that I am now strong and healthy and I
can lift heavy things without a problem. You have brought back so many
parts of my soul that I had been without for so long.
It
is through your shamanic power and your unique gifts as a healer that
you have brought so much beauty and magick back into my life. You have
given me the tools to bring me closer to the divine than I ever thought I
could be. And yet it is beyond the tools, it is in your energy.
To
describe some of your gifts: I feel that you have a special gift to
empower women, and to bring us together as sisters to support each other
to heal ourselves and our sexuality, and to bring us back to the
ecstasy that is our birthright. You are doing the work to restore the
divine feminine soul to our earth -- no matter how corrupted it may seem to be, no matter what state it is in, everyone can be healed. You work magick to
a depth that few are able to touch. People with disabilities have been
touched by you and have gradually let go of their disability. Alcoholics
have come to see you and have begun to find their true spirit and have
given up their attachment to false spirits.
Last year I had chronic low energy and no sexual energy. I was carrying a big sexual wound. So I decided to embark on your women's empowerment
course. This was far more profound than any tantra or tantric exercises
I have ever done. At that time I had very little power, as I had given
most of my power away in my relationships with men.
During
magical rituals in the forest you guided us to clear out all the
damaged and negative energy that we were still carrying in our bodies
and in our wombs from past partners. In sacred ceremony we cleansed
ourselves of all the shame and everything that we as women were carrying
in our bodies that did not belong to us. We then brought back all the
power and all the parts of our souls that we had unintentionally given
away in relationships. You guided us to Aphrodite's temple where we
bathed in virgin pools and renewed and purified our sexuality. Then
holding the space in a circle for each other in the forest, we danced
our goddess-selves back into our bodies. After the weekend, we six women
shared how blessed we felt to be re-attuned to the energies of our deep
goddess nature. After only two weekends I felt reconnected to my sexual
power, and to the passion and beauty of being a woman, which I had
lost. I felt free from the "stuff" of the past, and well on the way to
being whole.
Your
power also lies in your purity of heart. You speak with the great
compassion and wisdom of someone who has experienced so much suffering,
and you are doing the work 24 hours, day and night to transform all the
pain, through your own body and through your healing and through your
teaching and your magick and through your neverending selfless service
to the Goddess. You are changing the world by standing up to all those who seek to oppress the feminine power, by being a fighter for Truth
and Justice, empowering women everywhere, calling us back to the
Goddess through your wisdom and your music. And once we have heard the
call, the magick is irresistible. There is no turning back.
You are an enchantress. It is when you sing the songs that you have received from the Goddess, during medicine ceremonies,
that the power comes through. The power to heal just about any problem,
if the listener is open to receive it. Your singing is so beautiful
that it instantly transports me into a very deep space, sometimes into a
trance. The vibration carries an energetic transmission where the power
of Shiva,
Kali, (or whoever is singing through you in that moment) comes through
and goes right to our hearts. It seems to either take people into
oneness with the divine, or make them go crazy if they can't handle it.
Your singing does seem to unlock some of the secrets of the universe. I
cannot explain it, but I know the ceremonies would not be half as
powerful without it. We were crying tears of bliss, we felt so blessed
just to feel this love that is in this world but not of this world.
You
heal us simply by being in your truth and speaking your truth and
singing your truth, seeing through all the illusions that we get caught
in, and exposing all the false teachings and the injustice. Your power
is your core-splitting honesty and directness. Your light is so bright
that it shines on all the shadows and all that is hidden in us. In your
presence it seems that everything that is not in harmony with truth can
no longer tolerate itself! You seem to bring to the surface all the pain
and darkness from the core of our being. This can be quite
uncomfortable.
When
I first met you I was, to put it bluntly, a wimp. I had allowed my will
to be crushed by traumatic experiences with my family. You taught me
how to rebuild a strong will. You taught me courage to face myself and
you led me to embrace my darkest shadow. You taught me how to reclaim
the power and beauty I had given away. I was somehow or other an eternal
wounded child. You taught me about true independence and maturity.
In one healing session I came to you semi-paralysed. I lay down and you stormed down to my underworld
and pulled out quite a number of very repulsive ancestral demons that
had been paralysing my spine for weeks, making normal mobility very
difficult. I felt a big release of guilt and shame, which was ancestral.
After the session the paralysis mysteriously disappeared and I could
move freely.
I would like to share healing
experience in which you took me straight into my core wound and I
released a trauma I had been carrying all my life, which was still
keeping a part of me locked in darkness.
You
went to my base chakra and found the dark heavy energy of abuse still
blocking my life force from flowing. Going deeper you found a law
engraved on stone which said "I am unlovable." We called on my higher
self and we smashed and broke this law. This law had been formed from
being sexually abused as a young girl. I found myself inside a prison --
I felt cold, dark, lonely, abused, dirty and unloved. Together we broke
down the walls of the prison and I felt the incredible joy of breaking
free. I walked towards the rising sun. This man had taken my power and
creativity. This is partly why my body had broken down. Then you took me
on a shamanic journey
to meet my inner child. We found her in the forest all sad and lonely,
with dirty clothes, feeling dirty and disgusting. And you took the child
in your arms, washed her clothes, dressed her in beautiful clothes as a
princess, and gave her all the love she never received as a child.
I
allowed the feelings of shame and unworthiness and I fell asleep at the
moment where you liberated the trauma from my body. When I awoke I felt
a big beautiful strong part of my soul come back into my body. It was
the pure and happy child in me that had been taken away. Then you
breathed life back into my base chakra. We went into the garden and you
drummed out all the disgust and shame and you drummed in the power and
light as you rewove and rebuilt my aura. The moment you drummed the last
drum beat, the rain suddenly began to pour and there was a torrential downpour. I felt cleansed and purified.
After the session I felt somehow like I am all here. I felt so happy to be pure again and I felt so free.
This healing
is just one example of the many wonderful things you have given to me.
You are the busiest most hard-working person I know and yet you have
magickally managed to always have more time to help others, and you have
always been there to help me.
Avalon,
I love you and thank you from my heart. I still have so much work to
do, and yet I feel so close to home. I don't think I would have made it
without you.
Love, Suditi May (Miriam)

_I
wish to thank Suditi for the brave and candid sharing of her journey of
healing, which she has asked me to publish so that others who suffer as
she has suffered are given hope. The above testimonial is exclusively
for this website and may not be reproduced, copied or quoted elsewhere
without the author's permission!