thank you for the mention! it feels nice to have LEGIT HARD WORK recognized. i may be a shitfucker, but at least i'm not a phony.

No need to thank me. Your record speaks for itself. You deserve it!

But, many people around here who do the work quietly and do not get recognized. Ming and Kagan have both earned Brown belts in Judo since we first met years ago. I have personally seen Tom grow incredibly training at my club as well as Oishi's, where he also trains. Tom had attended the first sambo summit 6 years ago. He came this year to the camp in Chicago and people were very impressed with the incredible changes. Aaron Fields noted the difference to me.

Matt outlined Ben's transformation. 1 point 2 is the actual the poster boy for Bullshido conversion (as opposed to Hiro the troll). He turned himself around and put in the hard work!

Even Sirc, for all his internet drama, has put in the work and grown some real skillz. Matt as well took his GS experience to heart and trained up.

You are still posting. So, packing is like you being banned because you cant stop yourself.

Last post, I promise! :)

Actually, quite simply... I got to go.

Originally Posted by Hedgehogey

And don't get a fursecution complex about this. We treated Pizdoff like Carrie for exactly this offense so don't think you're special.

No offense taken. I had it coming since the day we posted those videos. It was never my intention to delude anybody; heck, I gave people here, in all innocence, access to info on my life that most of my friends don't know. So, again, if I had intended to appear somebody else, frankly, I would have chosen a cooler persona.

I know I have work to do, I will get it done. This whole affair just serves as extra motivation. Like, seriously, "3-9 ammy record"? I am just so embarrassed right now.

Originally Posted by Matt Phillips

1) You're insulting the intelligence of everyone here with these repeated excuses. As Pointy indicated, your ignorance shines through the very excuses you intend to explain it away; an experienced person would not make THESE excuses because they'd see them as transparent.

Again, I have to say, I think you are mistaken there. But then again, it's me who caused that impression, so I really cannot fault you for that.

Originally Posted by Matt Phillips

Look at this... i mean really LOOK. Do you honestly think I committed some kind of crime by commenting that this was bad?

In all honesty, yeah, I think you're still wrong, and that you were out of line. But we will talk some day, and likely sit face to face. Then, we can talk this over, if you still want. Again, I have always read your posts as pure hypocrisy. If I was mistaken in that, I will make up for it.

Originally Posted by sambosteve

Maybe so, but not to your own skill, as much as your posting history and "conversion" would suggest otherwise.

Not quite, actually. I learned how to do correct lifting thanks to you guys, put on 15-20 kg in little more than four years. Also, frankly, I had to deal with way more serious **** than my martial arts hobby in the last few years. Not to end on such a melodramatic note, but without some of you guys, I wouldn't have made it to where I am now. Don't be mistaken: I will never forget that.

That said, truly, last post in a while. Quite simply, I will be off any computers for a while anyway, and, frankly, I feel like I need to earn my right to speak here again. Like, I feel like this is such a big injury my personal honor that I will have to do something big to feel better about it myself.
So, there, I was just talking to somebody that my three-year journey had just ended. Seems another one is about to begin. Like, the "3-9" thing has me wobbling, and all watery, and ****. Jesus Christ.

So, happy Thanksgiving, everybody!
I'll be back if I accomplish something awesome!

Like, seriously, "3-9 ammy record"? I am just so embarrassed right now.

This is not some ancient slip up, you said earlier today that this was an understatement.

In all honesty, yeah, I think you're still wrong, and that you were out of line.

Then you still don't understand anything.

But we will talk some day, and likely sit face to face. Then, we can talk this over, if you still want.

Yes, after face punching, over falafel. I know just the place.

Again, I have always read your posts as pure hypocrisy.

The levels of meta here are making my head explode.

If I was mistaken in that, I will make up for it.

You are, and you will. And then we will move on.

Also, frankly, I had to deal with way more serious **** than my martial arts hobby in the last few years.

I know how that is; I posted about it in my log and you took the opportunity to remind me how much you "really, really dislike me". You're not a very compassionate person right now. That is something you might want to work on.

Not to end on such a melodramatic note, but without some of you guys, I wouldn't have made it to where I am I am going to be. Don't be mistaken: I will never forget that.

Fixed. *sniff* thanks :)

That said, truly, last post in a while. Quite simply, I will be off any computers for a while anyway, and, frankly, I feel like I need to earn my right to speak here again. Like, I feel like this is such a big injury my personal honor that I will have to do something big to feel better about it myself.

Right now you haven't shown a lot of honor in your dealings with this community. If I were you I would focus less on how bad it feels to be criticized, and worry about making it right by actually practicing what you pretended to endorse all these years.

So, there, I was just talking to somebody that my three-year journey had just ended. Seems another one is about to begin. Like, the "3-9" thing has me wobbling, and all watery, and ****. Jesus Christ.

You're making a pretty noise, but you're showing all the signs of "not getting" it. I sincerely hope you come back here and kick some fucking ass; that would rock.

Now darkness comes; you don't know if the whales are coming. - Royce Gracie