[Verse 1]
Oh-kay doc / my occupation was thuggin'
The whole nine / I mean the robbin' the dealin' the muggin'
The clubin' / the premarital lovin'
The type to put one in the oven but I wasn't tryin' be the husband
Sin was Lord / and I always obeyed the Master
It told me / sell drugs just to get the paper faster
Let me go to church but wouldn't let me imitate the pastor
It only let me imitate my favorite rapper
So the deal was / I grew up doin' the ill stuff
Would fight the cops 'til they threw on the steal cuffs
Go in / do my bid / like the mack
When it was done / say cool out kids / I'll be back
But lately / there's been some friction
I've been feeling sort of sick from this heart condition
It's an unusual affliction / when I do wrong that's when it kicks in
(From your description, you know it sounds like conviction)
I knew something was going wrong when I bumped in
To a kid so soft / I thought his name should be Pumpkin
Recognizing / he was a weaker type of creature
I decided / to take his beeper and his sneakers
You could tell for this kid that a fight was a rare sport
Cause with ease I held him up like flights in an airport
He pleaded / don't take my beeper, I need it
And / not my sneaks, let me keep my brand new Adidas
That's when signs of the sickness manifested
My mind said / be nice and do what the man suggested
I broke down like a fraction
Gave him back what I took away like subtraction
I'm puzzled and I'm struggling through this distraction
The reciprocal / of my typical reaction / dag blast him!
I made tracks and / then a flash-back happened
That's when / the rugged me kicked back in

[Verse 2]
Now last week / I was in my dad's black jeep
Rollin' mad deep / with mad peeps / smashed in the back seat
We took a back street / a Pontiac tried to pass me
I sped up and made a crash by the trash heap
The accident was nasty / if you ask me
I would laugh but then it happened again / the sickness harassed me
Oh no / not again / I had hurt a lot of men
But never felt bad before / even when I shot a friend
For ease I / thought I should step to the weed spot
Cause I was loosing my cool like melted freeze pops
My knees knocked / as my conscience eaves-dropped
Found the weed spot / and said (you sin too much, please stop)
Peep the / situation as it gets deeper
I started getting second thoughts about gettin' the reefer
But what scared me / was this internal reasoning
It was: God sees ya man / and you're not pleasing Him
This was hard to swallow like food with out seasoning
Me believe in Him / I rather not breathe again
Before receiving Him / you would see a turtle beat a rabbit and a cheetah in the one hundred meter sprint
That's all / that was the last straw / I was ready to blast off
To a place I didn't have enough cash for
But with the swiftness / the sickness / turned up the pitch
And with the quickness / I felt it clutch me like a stick shift

[Verse 3]
Yea / you have no idea just how absurd it is
But check the word of this witness / now get this / I heard of this
Crew that could rip rhymes / murderously / but I heard it would be
Christian / I thought absurd as can be
And churches / to me can make the hard rocks feel nervous
But I went cause I heard this / would be a outdoor service
I got there and saw mad youth / noddin' to mad truth
Rockin' mad hats and boots / and not plaid suits
As truth / crashed through my heart / ached like a bad tooth
This hard rock got softer than brown spots on bad fruit
I came with a heart of stone like a statue / then the rap group
Got under my skin like a tattoo
They rapped about a man dying / and I was crying
They said He died so I could be saved like Private Ryan
We all could see / zoomorphically / He's a lion
Coming to rule / from Zion with a scepter of iron
Trying to hold back / tears that wanted to flow jack
Couldn't control that / it felt like my soul cracked in half
And Jesus started looking much bigger
Than drugs or liquor / or thugs pulling a trigger
And it was a first that / I ever felt so cursed
Next to One so perfect / my soul thirsted to worship
Scufflin' / tustlin' / my feathers, He ruffled them
I tried to duck Him and / tried to get back to my hustlin'
I must have been affected more than I could have imagined
Cause that's been all I could think about since it happened