i realized i'm totally at fault here. for bringing things to this point where it's difficult to drop off. for being a slave of my feelings and tradition at the same time, and not knowing which one i should obey first. for falling too soon and agreeing too early, just because i was threatened and pressured. at this point, can i still quit and forget everything? and just bring it all back 8 months after? for the sake of what? my parent's trust that i have already been mishandling ever since i gave in? i don't know. i guess not. ako na lang naman pala problema e. isang matinding paalam kasabay ng pagtanggap na hindi ko natupad yung pangako ko sa mga magulang ko. na katulad lang ako ng ibang kolehiyala na sarili lang ang iniisip, madaling mahulog, madaling makuha, at hindi marunong makinig. nadidisappoint ako sa sarili ko.