Friday, June 10, 2011

Fixing the past

Once I got sober I started to recognize how horrible I was to the people I love while I was drinking. No manner of apology can ever erase some of the pain I caused and I have to accept that. I have a tendency to want to "fix" everything right away and that is just not how it works. It will take time to turn my life back around and I need to be patient with myself.
The problem for me comes when I want so much for a person to see how I have changed but all they can see is the old me. Well the old me has been around a lot longer than the new me so guess who is going to come to mind first when someone things about me? I need to stay confident that I am doing the right thing even if people never come back to me. It's hard but I need to deal with reality now and not in a dream world like when I was drinking.
Sobriety is just the first step in my recovery. It is a difficult first step to say the least but after that I can take a look at other character defects and begin to solve those with confidence. Some of my difficluties will take longer to fix but if I keep at it I am confident that I can become a better man. One day at a time.

Post a Comment

Followers

Blog Archive

About Me

43 year old male who quit drinking Dec. 29th 2011. At five months many of my wits have come back to me and this blog is a way for me to share my experience, strength and hope with those in recovery. While I may write some humorous things it is gallows humor and anyone who struggles with the same demons as me will know that to be true. This is not meant to be advice but a way to connect with others who share the same goal. To make it one more day without a drink.