Victim

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

I am done being a victim of my excess weight. I only have a few clothes that I can wear as I refuse to buy anything new that will fit when I have a closet full of smaller clothes. I hurt, my joints crackle and creak. My hip replacement pops. I have to use my arms to help myself out of chairs when sitting. My feet hurt after being on them for a couple hours. I am at risk for heart attack, stroke or diabetes to name a few. I will be 62 on Sunday and would like to retire from my job in spring. Would I be able to get health insurance at my weight??? Probably not. How can I retire without health insurance??? I Can't. Risk insurance is a possibility but at a price. Therefore I am a victim and my weight is the cause. And I am the cause of the weight. As long as I am obese I cannot live the life I want. So starting last Monday, I have resolved to unvictimize myself. I will no longer allow my weight to dictate my life. The weight will be gone pound by pound. It will no longer overpower me. I am fighting back and I will retire and live a long and healthy life.

Good for you! When I start to feel sorry for myself about the health issues I've had, I tell myself that I can not be a victim and a survivor at the same time. The choice is mine to make. And I choose to be a survivor.