He wore his cap backwards just like Adam. He swaggered like Adam. He even looked like Adam in a way. It was probably the overall look that got me. He just reminded me of Adam. And then I missed Adam ever so strongly. More than I normally would on a walk back from the pharmacy. It was surreal in a way.

Feeling so flat, scared….scared of the floodgate that might open up..There are people who want me to call them but I really don’t feel like seeing or speaking to anyone. I know I shouldn’t isolate myself but its just how I feel right now. There’s nothing that can help.