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Posts tagged ‘Mindset’

I have been working on losing weight for the past couple of years and as you do when you’re working on losing weight it goes UP and then down. You fluctuate all over the place you get discouraged and you give up, then you get back to it for what ever reason. My reason is that I need to beat Diabetes and need to get healthy. At the age of 50 and have many different ailments I don’t want to be laid up to early because I have two young daughters, two beautiful grand-daughters, and another grandbaby on the way. I can not be laid up and unable to be there for them.

“I used to live for the next meal. Like…literally eating lunch I was thinking about what I would eat for dinner. I have learned to enjoy NEW things about food. I’ve learned to love cooking and am finding new ways every day to make low sugar/carb meals that taste great but don’t keep me from my goals.”

FIRST – I want to say I believe that going all the way to a size two is too small unless you feel this is the size you are comfortable being and you are healthy. I know some people who are size 2 both because of medical issues and because that is just the size they have always been. But, if that is the size you are aiming for because you think that is the size you should be due to peer pressure or “public notions” – nope – be what ever size you feel healthy and comfortable at.

Now that I put that out there, I do agree with what is said in the article and the quote above. Shifting one’s mindset about food and eating in a different way is how to lose weight and keeping it off, not “dieting”. Remember everyone is different, I am learning about myself, with my nutritionist, I am one who literally doesn’t eat enough. Yes, I know that phrase “doesn’t eat enough” seems contrary to trying to lose weight, I thought so too.

BUT, I forget to eat, I avoid food cause I just have no interest in it, which causes my body to shut down, my metabolism to shut down and start saving the fat for “that rainy day”.

I like to cook, I love to bake but unless I have someone to cook/bake for I could do with out except late at night sitting working on the computer or watching tv then I snack generally on unhealthy food, except I am learning to change this habit, and it is a habit. When you are changing your mindset you are breaking a habit or working through an addiction. Some people are literally addicted to food or some foods. I am addicted to Dr. Pepper, not just any soda but Dr. Pepper and coffee. So, I have to break these addictions and learn how to live with these addictions but control them. I don’t mean they are like someone who is an alcoholic because I can have a Dr. Pepper and not want another and another etc. BUT, If I have a Dr. Pepper seems in my mind to say no to more Dr. Pepper day after day. I just tell myself, oh I just have one a day, or this one won’t hurt me because it is just ONE. Or I even have one when no one is around and not report it on my food log. These actions are the actions of someone who is addicted. So, I take it one day at a time

I am addicted to Dr. Pepper, not just any soda but Dr. Pepper and coffee. So, I have to break these addictions and learn how to live with these addictions but control them. I don’t mean they are like someone who is an alcoholic because I can have a Dr. Pepper and not want another and another etc. BUT, If I have a Dr. Pepper seems in my mind to say no to more Dr. Pepper day after day. I just tell myself, oh I just have one a day, or this one won’t hurt me because it is just ONE. Or I even have one when no one is around and not report it on my food log. These actions are the actions of someone who is addicted. So, I take it one day at a time and do my best to avoid Dr. Pepper.

I also have a body dysphoria issue, no matter how skinny or bulked up I ever got or will get I will see myself as fat, which partly causes this lack of interest in food but it is other issues too, which I am worked on. These issues keep me from noticing any changes with my body and within myself, this builds discouragement within me. When I am discouraged I tend to return to my “I am not interested in food and hate my body” mode. It is a horrible circle, however, if one works on their mindset towards food and eating differently and on breaking those old habits and addictions they have with and towards food, then being discouraged isn’t apart of the whole thing cause you aren’t in it to actually “look different or lose weight”, you are in it to learn about the way you eat, to learn about healthy foods and what to eat, what makes you healthy.

The losing weight is a side benefit and it also helps you be healthy mentally, physically and emotionally.