Recap

Dr. Bailey is coming back from a month long trip visiting her parents with her kid when the woman next to her asks her about the shooting.

Meredith bails Derek out of jail and brings him back to the hospital for his first day back, but Derek doesn't want to be chief anymore and resigns leaving the position back to chief Weber.

Meredith is getting interview by the trauma doctor Perkins and he wont clear her. She goes to visit the Chief, but he won't budge and is firm on what Dr. Perkins advises.

Derek has a brain surgery that is difficult and Meredith isn't sure if he's ready. During surgery Meredith is furious that Cristina is reading a bridal magazine and knows that she may be making a mistake in rushing into the pending marriage.

She confronts Cristina who makes Meredith realize her own problems with not telling Derek about the miscarriage.

Everyone takes turns talking to the PTSD shrink, Dr. Perkins.

Bailey tells Dr. Perkins about what happened after the shooting and how she up and left her boyfirend. Alex talks to Dr. Perkins and tells him about why he walked away from Lexie when she was having her breakdown.

When Dr. Perkins interviews Derek, he reminiceses about after he got shot and April visited him in the hospital apologizing to him. He tells her all if it was his fault. The scene cuts to Derek speeding away with his paper that allows him to do surgery again.

Meredith walks in to Dr. Perkins office and catches him kissing Teddy. She is furious that he's cleared everyone but her and it gets her thinking about her miscarraige that she hasn't told Derek or really anyone about.

Cristina meets with Dr. Perkins and can't be bothered with the meeting. All she wants to do is look at bridal magazines. She tells him that she doesn't want to be her, but someone that's simple. She flashes back to a time when the Shooter held a gun to her head and then to the time that Owen proposes and she said yes.

Ben is waiting outside of the hospital to speak to Miranda. She tells him that she can't be with him now because a part of her wishes he wasn't playing golf and he was just as messed up as she is right now. Ben understands and leaves.

Derek gets caught speeding and is thrown in jail. Meredith doesn't bail it out this time and just gets the ring. She gets to her house and tells Cristina that she approves of their marriage and walks her down the stairs to her awaiting fiance.

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