I DON'T NEED THIS.....I AM DONE!

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

That is it, I am done! I quit, I don't want it that bad! I don't need this, I can find better thing to do with my life!

That is what has been going thru my mind since Saturday when the calf muscle popped and then it felt like a knife was stabbing in my calf...... all I could think this BULL, I don't need this. So I started walking back to the car but I wasn't ready to believe that I was hurt again(on the leg that did not have any problems), no way I just can't have all this good luck, so I gimped the quarter mile back to the car and got on the track and did another half mile.

Conclusion, yep it happened again! I did my warm up, I have been stretching, I have been patient, I have not pushed any pace, I stretch after........Why another one???? I have been hurt off and more on since January 2009 and I knew why then, I never gave anything a chance to heal, I would feel a bit better then out I would go for a run then be hurt again, a vicious cycle.

In March of 2012 I stopped running and just biked until the end of July at which point I reset my plan. No more pushing, I was going to start over, so I started clean just like a new runner with the C25K program. I was patient I did a few weeks over because I felt I was not ready to move on but I eventually made to the 5K, no pain! I began to work to a 10K which was also good, no problems, no pain and no pushing. I skipped doing hills, skipped speed work but I did cheat one day and did fartleks (very easy ones) still no problems.

I backed off for about a month went slower, reduced miles just to be on the safe side. Then a few weeks ago I felt a slight tweak of the good calf .......hummmm so I took it easy, keeping runs at 3 miles or less, I could feel something but I did not notice it until later and later in my runs and not really pain, more of a knot. I got back up to 2.5 miles over a few weeks time and it was good, a little tight but got better as I ran.

So here comes Saturday's run .23 miles and that was all that was good, down hill after that, so I did what I said I would not do, ran another 3/4 mile......Stupid yep but I was really ticked off!

How could this happen again? I just dropped $90 to register for the Flying Pig half in May friday night, $130 on new shoes the previous weekend, already registered for the Rock and Roll half in August, and was planning to register for a 70.3 in September, again I am done, I don't need this anymore, 4 years was long enough!

Then I got up today and realized if I quit now I would have learned nothing from Sparkpeople these past 5 years. You will have setbacks but it is how you handle the the setbacks that will determine the success of your Spark journey and your journey in life. I gave up chewing tobacco and put on 30 lbs but that is ok, it is a temporary setback, because Sparkpeople has taught me how to be healthy and to lose weight. So the injury is just another setback, I will be back! My spark family will be there for me along this journey, you will pick me up when I am down. My wife and my kids are there supporting me every step of the way, so how could I not have success.

Why would I do this? Because I DO NEED THIS! (don't you). Soon I will be able to say Bobby's BACK!

See you all at the PIG AND if I can't run I will be a cheerleader for you all!

PMAY0313
What pair we are. I will say an extra prayer for you! Thanks for your note yesterday. I am still in disbelief. There was no signs that they were going to let me go until they called me in and did it. I still have some issues from the bike crash but have not let it affect my job. I will try to contact everyone tomorrow to see if I can find another position at UCLA or if I need to start over some where else. I have never been fired before. It was still in the 6 month probationary period and I am rehireable. I am going to try not to freak out too much. I need to find out tomorrow about applying for unemployment just in case I don't find a job right away. I have to see about insurance and all that kind of stuff. I hope you are recovering form your injury. It is just plain annoying when life keeps smacking you around. I am going to up my workout minutes while I can. I might even try to start riding my bike a little again. I haven't gotten back on that horse yet. I know we can both bounce back. Best of luck!Pam1244 days ago

CHSHULER89
:-( the bumps of life, never know where they are leading us to... I miss running, due to shin splints that I can't seem to heal. I need to work on making them stronger. Keep trying to be positive... we will suceed even if it is not the way we wish. Thanks for all your hard work and motivation! Prayers and blessings:-) 1412 days ago

DDHEART
Aw Bobby, gosh I'm sorry to read this but I know you will be back and in the meantime those of us who are on the injured reserve list will be providing lessons in hope to our healthier friends.

The whole sparkpeople philosophy is about challenges...some we choose and others we get when we most don't deserve. But we're strong baby! And we will triumph!

One more thing....can't imagine a better cheerleader for the team running the Pig....what color are your pom poms?!!!!!!1413 days ago

WOODHEAT
Oh Man Bobby! Yes that does SUCK!!!!!! However we both know what you're made of and you're not just going to roll over and play dead! I still do very little running, but I hike, I ski, I bike and for me, life is good! It will be for you as well!

NOVABOY009
That stinks Bobby. Was this a bad pull or just a little set back? Maybe worth getting into some yoga and stretching/strengthening as part of your recovery program. Were you overcompensating for the "bad leg" leading to more work on the good one? Either way, I'm sure you'll make it back just fine. I had to take some time off to fix my hip problems and all is well now. Just part of the journey.1415 days ago

BILLALEX70
Love or loath this hits the mark and has carried me many times...

Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever. Lance Armstrong1415 days ago

I know firsthand about "POPPED CALVES". I reinjured mine last year at the beginning of the summer tennis season and was benched for the majority of the season. I was a cranky girl. However, as co-captain, I went to every game and discovered that being on the sidelines wasn't the end of the world. I got to know my teammates (their game - strengths & weaknesses) and enjoyed cheering for them. I made it back for the last two matches of the summer.

I have faith in you! YOU'RE NOT A QUITTER. YOU WILL PERSEVERE and FIND NEW WAYS to be SPARKTACULAR!

CONFIDENTLY_FIT
So sorry to read that you are hurt. Please listen to your body and rest.I had to defer a 1/2 and a full marathon last year because of an injury. I spent $122 on shoes I will never wear.The nice thing about running is that it is always there. It will be there for you when you are ready. Rest for now:) 1417 days ago

COOPSM
Bobby!!!! I am so sorry to hear about this set back....but this IS TEMPORARY!!! Rest, take care of yourself and you WILL be back stronger then ever!!! Believe!!! Can you do ST'ing while not running?? Praying for a fast recovery!!!!

Do not be so hard on yourself, you are flesh and bones not a robot. Treat yourself well, be easy on yourself when it comes to exercise, your body is doing the best that it can. This is for a lifetime not just an event.

MIAMIA7
I so wish I had the answers for you. It is so hard to watch you have to struggle yet again through all this. Just know that I am always here for you and will help you with whatever decisions you make with running, biking, swimming or whatever else you want to conquer! But you are right, this is not something you quit...this is life and we will live it as healthy as we can...together! Love ya!1417 days ago