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What started out as a promise to blog everyday for 2013, hasn’t exactly turned out the way it should have. I find myself in April, with my last blog entry being back in January! How has this happened? How has time gotten away from me so quickly? And how, has it been so easy for me to break my own promise to myself?

The truth is simple. Lots has happened on the love, work, life, health front and blogging just fell to the wayside. I can’t guarantee that won’t happen again, but I can guarantee I feel bad that I haven’t been on here and I will try harder.

In a nutshell what’s been going on to keep me so busy? Well here it is (in the brief format, and I hope, over the next month or so, to go into it into more detail):

The Lieutenant – it has been on and off, and then on and off. We are now, since yesterday on an off, an off with no contact allowed. As I talked about before, the Lieutenant wasn’t long out of a relationship when we met. The aftershock (as I like to think of it) of that relationship is continuing even now. Emails from the ex, reminders of the boy she cheated on him with, little things that you can’t run away from, keep happening. And then, with me, he realised he was falling in love again. And he consciously stopped himself because he didn’t want to get hurt. As soon as he did it, he knew he had to let me go, until his heart was ready to love again. It hurt. But I believe he has done the right thing and I am prepared to let him go, in the hope that one day he will come back and he will be ready to love. We tried being friends, but whenever we met, there was a clear sexual tension in the room. The night would end with kissing and then tears. It is best to stay apart until his heart has healed.

Health – you may recall I had a scare at the end of 2012. It was the thing that topped off the so called ‘worst year of my life’. I had an abnormal pap smear test. Then in January I went to the colposcopy clinic and was told that it didn’t look like anything. The results came back, and it is something. I am booked in for a large loop excision of the transformation zone (LLETZ) next month. It’s a scary prospect and the more goggling I do the more scary it gets. We all know that if you look anything up on the internet, it always point to death. I am staying positive, and will blog about this to give my perspective for anyone going through the same thing.

Work – I slog my guts out for very little reward. This coming week will see what reward I get.

Life – my life is getting more and more simple and that is the way I like it. My puppy and I have spent this Easter chilling out and enjoying each other’s company. Which is exactly what we were doing today, when this picture was taken:

Too tired to play

After a long walk around Sydney Park, Jess was tired. Too tired to play. And today’s #fmsphotoaday is ‘play’. A great pic and a great memory to kick start this blog again!

Bunchie McClune is a girl in her 30s (eek!), who had the worst year of her life in 2012. There was no massive tragedy and often she thinks how lucky she is to have the life she does and even, the problems that comes with it.
It seemed in 2012, from the very beginning, every time Bunchie managed to get back on her feet and take a positive outlook on life, something else came along to knock her back down. As her flame haired best friend told her, "the last 12 months have been an insane rollercoaster for you. Being made redundant and having to face coming home when you didn’t feel ready was tough. Then finding yourself nearly homeless and dealing with all the ex shit- honestly most people would have lost the plot. I think you have been incredible the way you have just hung on in there and dealt with it."
And so, as the world celebrated the New Year coming into view, Bunchie raised a glass and decided this was her year, and she wanted to share it with the world.