Forever and Always

~One of the hardest things to deal with is being secretly in love with your best friend.~ Alaina and Harry have been best friends since birth and they spend every waking moment together. Her life is perfect but except for the fact her uncle abuses her and it gets worse everyday. While dealing with that, she feels like she's falling in love with Harry. But what happens when a new girl, named Kendall, comes in and starts to hang with Harry, making him ignore Alaina every day for Kendall? Will Harry go back to Alaina or will her jealousy cause her to lose him forever?

16. Chapter 15

Chapter 15

Alaina’s POV

“Alaina!” went a voice.

Josh and I froze and stop kissing. I look up and my eyes immediately widen with embarrassment and guilt when I find Harry standing by the couch looking hurt with his hands clenched into fists. What the hell is he doing here? Shouldn’t he be with Kendall since he couldn’t seem to get away from her all day today? I guess he figured out a way to get away from her for once and he decided to come here to apologize for what he did today.

“Harry…. I-“

“You again?” Josh spat, cutting me off, as he looks at Harry with pure hatred. “This is the second time I was trying to have a moment with Alaina and once again you interrupt,”

“I would shut up if were you,” Harry mumbled.

“Yeah, okay,” Josh scoffs and gets up off the couch, putting back on his shirt and I do the same.

I take one look at Harry and I can tell that he’s trying to hide the hurt look on his face but he’s not doing a very good job. To be honest I feel bad that he caught Josh and I making out but at the same time I’m kind of embarrassed because he wasn’t supposed to see that.

“Alaina…how could you do this?” Harry asked me.

“Harry I’m sorry. We were making out and then it got…. kind of heated,” I exclaimed.

“Yeah I can see that,” he snapped.

I hear Josh laugh and he walks over to Harry, shaking his head.

“So that is your name…Harry,” he said.

“Yeah. Got a problem with that?” Harry sneered.

“No, just saying,” Josh replied.

Harry rolls his eyes at him.

“Why don’t you just give up on Alaina?” Josh continued. “She obviously doesn’t want a dorky looking boy like you. She wants a man…like me,”

“You know nothing about what my best friend wants,” Harry scoffed.

“As a matter a fact I do,” Josh shot back. “She was about to let me fuck her but I never had the chance to because you obviously came in and ruined it,”

“Look man if you don’t-“

“Guys! Just shut up!” I cried.

They stop and looked at me with shocked expressions on his face. No one has ever really heard me yell before so it was quite a shock for Harry and Josh to hear that.

“Now before you two start a fight, let me ask Harry why he’s here,” I continued.

“I’m here because your mum sent me here. She said you two are spending the night at my house because the snowstorm is going to get worse,” Harry explained.

“Okay. Why didn’t she tell me this earlier?” I asked.

“She tried but you didn’t answer,” he replied.

“Oh. Well I guess I should go and get my stuff then,” I said.

I gently push past them and then I go straight up to my room to pack my stuff for the night.

Harry’s POV

I watch Alaina gently push past Josh and I so she could go up the stairs to her room to pack her stuff for tonight. While she walks down the hallway to the stairs, I notice Josh staring at her ass, biting down on his lip. Ugh. Why is Alaina with that asshole? She doesn’t deserve someone like him! She deserves someone nice, good looking, and respectful…someone like me. Not a rich ass douche bag that fucks girls for fun and treats them like shit. Thank god I walked in at the right time because who knows what that guy could have done to her? He could have raped her and she would have been scarred for life. Like, she’s been through enough already and if something tragic happened to her again I don’t think I would be able to handle it because seeing my best friend hurt, makes me feel hurt too.

“So,” Josh said after a moment of silence.

“So,” I repeated.

“How long have you known Alaina?” he asked.

“Since birth. What about you?”

“About a few weeks. To be honest, you’re lucky to have her as your best friend. She’s quite sexy,” he smirked.

I feel my hands clench up into fists again. How dare he called my best friend sexy. I’m only allowed to call her that. Well, I haven’t called her that to her face before but I have when she wasn’t around.

“Shut up!” I sneered.

“Jealous aren’t you?” he sneered back.

“No. I’m not jealous,”

He lets out a fake laugh.

“Please. Every guy that knows me wants to be me. I mean who wouldn’t because I can always get the girls that I want, the sexy ones of course. And as matter of fact, Alaina is the next girl on my list,”

“Your list?” I scoffed. “It’s a shame how you’re using my best friend as your sex toy and then dumping her to go for another girl,”

“What can I say? I’m Josh Evans. I get whatever I want,” he shrugged.

I begin to bring my fist up to punch him but I hold back. I don’t think Alaina would like it if I punched her “boyfriend”.

“Now you listen here and listen good. Stay away from Alaina! I’m not going to let my best friend be with an asshole like you. She doesn’t deserve you,” I snapped.

“Who do you think you’re? Her father?”

“No. I’m just being her best friend,” I replied.

“Listen fag. If you like Alaina so much then you should have asked her out already but sadly you lost your chance. She’s is mine now so deal with it!” Josh snickered.

Did he just call me a ‘fag’? Oh hell no! No one has ever called me that before but it still didn’t hurt my feelings. Now I really want to punch this guy and I don’t care what Alaina thinks. Ever since I heard about him I thought they were just stupid rumors but when I saw him drugging girls drinks at a party I went to, I realized that people were right. Alaina is literally putting her life in danger. This guy could hurt her and I don’t want that to happen.

“Now you really crossed the line,” I said. “I may not know you personally but I’ve heard about what you do, Josh and if you hurt my best friend you will regret it big time!”

“Oh I’m so scared,” he said, pretending to act scared.

“I mean it,” I mumbled.

“Whatever. I’m leaving. Tell Alaina to call me,”

“Good! Don’t let the door hit you on your way out,” I sneered.

He rolls his eyes and just as he turns around to walk away, I give him the finger. Asshole. Just as the front door shuts, I hear Alaina come walking down the stairs. She comes into the living room with her Victoria Secret drawstring bag along with her backpack. She even changed out of her leggings and into her track and field sweatpants and black Nike Pro sneakers. She also took off her makeup and fixed her bun since it got all messed up from her make out session with Josh. She’s so beautiful in no matter what she wears. I feel so lucky to know such a beautiful girl. It makes me sick how she’s wasting her time on being with a guy like Josh. She deserves a guy that would treat her with respect and love her unconditionally, not who would only use her for sex and then dump her. I wonder if this is how she feels whenever I’m with Kendall.

“Hey. Where’s Josh?” she asked me.

“He had to go,” I said.

She nods and then we leave. I’m surprised she didn’t ask any more questions. Just as we got to the front door, Alaina stops and turns around, giving me a look. Shit, I guess she realized I was lying.

“What?” I asked.

“You and Josh didn’t get into a fight did you?” she asked me.

“What? No! Of course not,” I replied, obviously lying.

She crosses her arms and raises her eyebrow like she always does when I lie. I have to admit, she looks hot when she does that.

“Okay,” I sighed. “We kind of got into a little argument,”

“What did you tell him?”

“I-I kind of told him to stay away from you and-“

“You what?” she cried.

Shit. I shouldn’t have told her that. But I didn’t want to lie to her because if she found out then she wouldn’t be happy with me.

“Alaina, I’m sorry but I had to. You don’t know what you’re getting yourself into. Josh is not that the kind of guy you deserve,” I exclaimed.

“Oh come on don’t start with the ‘he’s not a good guy’ bullshit again!” she exclaimed.

“It’s not bullshit, Alaina! I’m serious. That guy is a player. All he does is sleep with girls and then dumps them,”

“And how do you know that? You don’t even know him,”

“I don’t have to know him! I know well enough that he’s a fucking asshole that you don’t deserve! You deserve someone that will love and respect you,” I exclaimed.

“You don’t know anything. What you heard was a lie. Josh is a nice guy and I’m going to be with him whether you like it or not,”

I can’t believe that she’s not listening to me. She’s my best friend and supposed to believe me. Like I would ever lie to her.

“Fine. Just like I said before. If he ever does something to you, don’t say I didn’t warn you,” I said.

“He won’t do anything,” she replied, rolling her eyes.

I shrug and then we walk out the door. After Alaina locks the front door, we head down to my car. The snow has gotten pretty heavy now and there’s a lot of it on the ground and on the road. Just great. Our drive is going to take a while. Thankfully Alaina is going to be in the car with me so I won’t get bored.

“So…how’s Kendall?” she asked once I pull out onto the road.

“Fine,” I replied.

“Shouldn’t you be spending time with her since she’s your girlfriend?”

“Okay 1. She’s not my girlfriend and 2. I wouldn’t dare to ditch you and spend time with her again, especially when you’re spending the night at my house. Just like I said before, we’re only seeing how things go,” I said.

She nods, seeming to believe me again. The rest of the car ride was quiet, we exchanged a few conversations here and there but they were kind of awkward. By the time we got to my house, the snow has started to get heavier and the wind also started to pick up so we hurry inside. Our mothers are in the living room watching The Bachelor so they didn’t notice us walking in. After taking off our coats and shoes, Alaina and I go upstairs to my room. I shut the door and go over to sit on my unmade bed while Alaina puts her stuff down in the corner before she comes over to join me. Just as she lied down beside me, there was a knock at my door.

“Come in,” I said.

My door opens and my mum walks in.

“Just came up here to tell you that school is cancelled tomorrow,” she said.

Yes! No school. That means I can spend some time with Alaina and not have to worry about Kendall getting in the way. Speaking of Kendall, I haven’t heard from her after I left school. She’ll probably be texting or calling me nonstop tomorrow.

“Okay, thanks for telling us,” I said.

She nods and instead of walking out of my room like she always does, she notices Alaina and I cuddling on my bed making me give her a look.

“Are you sure there’s nothing going on between you two?” she asked. “Because every time I come up here you two are laying so close to each other,”

“No mum. There’s nothing going on,” I sighed.

“Okay. If you two are in a relationship, don’t be afraid to tell me or Katie. We’ve been waiting for that happen for so long,” she said.

“Mum!” I groaned with frustration.

“Alright. I’m going,” she said and starts to leave the room. “And this door better stay open once I get downstairs,”

“Mum-“

“Harry, don’t start. You know my rule,” she sighed.

“Fine,” I mumbled.

She thanks me and walks out of my room. Finally. I love her but she can get so annoying.

“It’s not like we’re going to have sex or anything,” I said.

“I know. Like do they not trust us?” Alaina laughed.

“Probably not,” I shrugged.

Ever since Alaina and I first became teenagers, we always had to keep our bedroom doors open. Even though we weren’t anything but I guess our mothers wanted to keep a sharp eye out on us since we could end up doing it. Well, we almost did it last month when I was home alone with Alaina at her house during that snow day so it’s possible that we could try to do it again. Well not right now anyway since she’s with Josh and I’m with Kendall. Sometimes I wish we actually did it that day because we could be a couple right now if we did it.

“Should we do our homework so we can get it out of the way?” Alaina asked me.

“Yeah. I guess we should,” I replied.

We grab our bags off the floor and then we start doing our work. Like always, we do Algebra, English, and biology together and after that we do our other work independently. The whole time I was trying to do my homework, I couldn’t stop staring at Alaina. Even though she has no makeup on, her hair is tied up, and dressed in sweats and a sweatshirt, she still looks beautiful. I’ve always loved her natural look because I always thought she looked better without makeup. Don’t get me wrong or anything she’s still beautiful when she wears it but I just prefer her not wearing it. She has some flaws here and there but it doesn’t bother me. Most guys my age want girls that look and dress like they’re in some beauty pageant but not me. I go for girls that are not afraid to show off who they really are and that’s the kind of girl Alaina is.

Sometimes I still wonder why I’m with a girl like Kendall and not Alaina. If she wasn’t with that asshole Josh, I would have dumped Kendall and asked Alaina out by now. I feel so stupid for not doing that a long time ago but I was so afraid that she was going to say no. But it never hurts to try. Maybe if things don’t work out with Josh and they break up, I’ll probably ask her out but at the same time I don’t want to because I don’t want to hurt Kendall. I like her a lot and I know she likes me just as much and if I dump her for someone else then she’ll probably get upset. I’ve been there once and it’s not pretty. So if I dump Kendall and she gets upset I’ll immediately feel bad.

“I know you’re staring,” Alaina giggled without looking up from her homework.

“How do you know that I’m staring when you’re not even looking?” I asked.

“I can tell,” she said, looking up at me. “Who were you staring at?”

“You,” I replied without hesitation.

She blushes and smiles but she tries to hide it. I always found it cute when she does that.

“Come here,” I said.

“Why?” she asked.

“I have to tell you something,”

She gives me a look, raising her eyebrow like she always does when I lie.

“Sure you do,” she giggled with a hint of sarcasm.

“Just come here,”

She sighs and playfully rolls her eyes before putting down her book and crawling over to me. Just as she got over to me, I pull her into my lap, making her straddle me and before she had the chance to react I gently bring my lips to hers, kissing her passionately. She immediately kisses me back and loosely wraps her arms around my neck as she deepens the kiss. It’s been a month since I last kissed her and I have to admit I actually miss it. Even though we only kissed once but I missed the feeling of her lips and the way they moved against mine.

I know I shouldn’t be saying that when I’m with another girl but I can’t help it. Alaina’s kisses actually mean something to me. Well, Kendall’s does too but it’s different with Alaina. When it seemed like forever, she pulls away taking a breath before leaning back in to kiss me again and I run my tongue along her bottom lip begging for entrance, which she gladly accepts. Our tongues start battling each other and I run my hand up her t-shirt, feeling her warm soft skin before laying her down on my bed with me hovering over her. God, I want her so bad but our mothers are home and they could come in unexpectedly which wouldn’t be good.

“Harry…you have a girlfriend,” Alaina whispered as she pulls away.

“She doesn’t have to know,” I whispered back as I start to go down her neck.

Before she was able to say anything else, I cut her off by gently biting down on her neck, making softly moan with pleasure. It’s been a month but I still remember where her sweet spot was. I feel accomplished.

“Harry, I’m serious,” she playfully whined after she calmed down.

“Since when did you not want to make out with me?” I asked, obviously joking.

“Never,” she giggled. “But seriously. Imagine how she would feel if she found out that cheated on her,”

I sigh. She’s right. Even though I love Alaina more than anything in this whole world, I would hate to see Kendall upset if she found out that I cheated. I give her one last kiss and lay down beside her.

“Alaina?”

“Yeah?” she replied.

“Can I ask you a question?” I asked.

She frowns and nods her head.

“Sure,”

“What do you like about Josh? And please be honest,”

She thinks for a moment and sits up against the headboard of my bed.

“Well…I think he’s cute, funny, and he’s really nice,”

“How did you feel when he almost had sex with you today?” I asked.

“I don’t know…nervous, I guess. I felt rushed, pressured,” she said. “Even though I like him but he was taking it a little too fast and I was kind scared to tell him to slow down,”

I sigh. I can’t believe my best friend is wasting her time with this guy. I just wish she would listen, I mean she’s putting her life in danger by being with him. He’s going to hurt her and I don’t want to see her heartbroken. She’s been in enough pain as it is.

“I’m sorry you felt like that,” I sighed.

“It’s okay. I mean, I didn’t want to have sex with him anyway…well not right now at least,”

Now that kind of made me feel relieved. I should have known she wouldn’t give her virginity to someone that she doesn’t really know. She’s smarter than that. But I know that guy is going to make her have sex with him against her will, I mean it’s obvious I’ve seen him do it before with other girls by drugging them at parties. He’s a total jerk.

“I should have told you this earlier but I have to admit I felt kind of hurt when I saw you with him,” I said.

“You did?” she asked.

I nod.

“Yeah. It felt like someone punched me in the stomach and got the wind knocked out of me. I’m sorry for saying this but I wanted to punch him, it made me so mad to see someone else making out with you,” I explained.

“What are you saying?” she asked with a confused look on her face.

“I know I said this already but you don’t deserve him, Lainey. You deserve someone who will treat you right and not rush you into things, someone who will respect your friends and family, and someone who will love you for who you are,” I said.

“Yeah…I have to admit that I would actually like that,” she smiled.

“Then why won’t you break up with him and look for someone like that?” I asked.

She shrugs.

“You never know. Josh could change. I could talk to him and ask him to slow down in our relationship,”

I sigh and shake my head. She’s obviously not getting the point. I want to tell her but I can’t seem to get the words out of my mouth.

“Guys like him don’t change. I’m serious, they don’t,” I exclaimed.

“You’re right,” she replied, giving me a sad smile. “But to be honest, I don’t think there are a lot of guys out there who are good people,”

“Yes there is,” I said.

“Really, who?” she asked.

Okay, here it goes. After so many years I’m finally going to say what I’ve always wanted to say to her. It may not come out well like I expect it to but I’m ready.

“Me,”

“What?” she frowned.

“Break up with Josh and be with me,” I said.

“Harry-“

“Please let me finish,” I said.

She sighs and nods, letting me know that I can continue talking.

“You’re the most beautiful and sweetest girl I’ve ever known in my life and I’ve always wanted to be more than friends with you ever since we were 13,” I continued. “You know I will treat you better than Josh…I’ve always have and you also know that I will never pressure you to do anything that you don’t want to do. I know I haven’t been a good best friend ever since Kendall came along but if you say yes then I’ll dump her and I’ll show you how a real girl like you should be treated. Please Alaina! I just want to see you happy. Please…be my girlfriend,”

Finally! I got that out of my system. It wasn’t exactly how I expected to tell her but I tried. Alaina looks at me with a shocked expression on her face as she tries to think of something to say but no words come out of her mouth. My heart is pounding out of my chest as I wait for her response. I know she’s going to say yes but I’m afraid that she isn’t. I feel like I should have waited but I kept that secret to myself almost all of my life and I just had to tell her. I mean, she’s my best friend and best friends tell each other every thing, especially their biggest secrets, which is what I just told her.

“Alaina say something,” I said.

“Harry…. I-I can’t,” she finally managed to say.

I feel my heart stop and my stomach twist into knots. This is exactly what I was afraid of. I always told myself to think positive but sadly that didn’t work. I literally told her all of that for nothing. Ugh! Why did I tell her? I should have just kept it to myself but sadly I couldn’t because I’ve been hiding that secret for long.

“What?” I asked.

“I can’t be with you, Harry,” she whispered. “I mean…I want to but just not right now,”

“Why not?”

“I can’t leave Josh. We just started dating and I kind of want to see how things go with him,” she replied. “I know you don’t like him but, I do and I just…. I don’t know,”

I can tell she’s about to cry because her voice is beginning to trail off a little and I can see tears starting to glisten in her brown eyes. She tries to hold them back but they just start rolling down her cheeks and I immediately pull her into me as she cries into my chest.

“No, don’t cry,” I said.

“I-I’m sorry, Harry,”

I hold her close and softly kiss the top of her head as I hold her tight. I hate when she cries, really I do. It literally breaks my heart to see tears streaming down her face because then it makes me want to cry too. I know that sounds cheesy but it’s true.

“It’s okay, Alaina, it’s okay,” I whispered. “You don’t have to be with me if you don’t think the time is right,”

That just made her cry even harder and she nuzzles her face into my chest. I can feel her hot tears soaking through my sweatshirt but I don’t care one bit. I never did.

“I-I do want to be with you, Harry! I…. I just can’t right now,” she sobbed.

“I know. I understand why you don’t to right now but if you end up changing your mind then I’m here,” I said.

“No you won’t, you have Kendall,” she sniffled.

I sigh and kiss the top of her head softly.

“Yes I will be there. If you ever want to be my girlfriend just tell me. I’ll break up with Kendall and then you and I will become a couple,”

“Are you sure?” she asked.

“I’m sure,” I replied.

I feel her nod against my chest and she tries to calm herself down before sitting back up. I gently wipe the tears that remained on her cheeks with the sleeve of my sweatshirt. Then we lay back down on my bed and she immediately nuzzles her face into my chest again. Even though we cuddled a few times but I still love when she does that.

“Harry?” she mumbled.

“Yeah?” I replied.

“I have something to tell you but do you promise you won’t get mad?” she asked.

“Sure tell me,”

She sighs and fixes her position a little.

“I have a date with Josh on Friday,”

The fuck? That douche asked her out? Ugh! I can feel jealously and anger build up inside of me but I manage to hold it back because I don’t want to upset Alaina. Even though I don’t like Josh but I should still be happy for them. I swear if he hurts or even lays a hand on her I will beat the shit out of him and I don’t care what anyone thinks.

“Okay,” I said. “Just be careful,”

“I will,” she whispered. “I’m tired,”

“Yeah me too,”

She giggles and then I get up from my bed and go into the bathroom to change. After a few minutes I walk back into my bedroom and join Alaina under the covers. Right away she cuddles up into me and she fell asleep within minutes. I try to fall asleep myself but I can’t seem to because I can’t stop thinking about her rejecting me when I asked her to be my girlfriend. Why does she not want to be with me? I love her. I love her so much and she knows that. Wait…scratch that out. She knows that I like her. I wanted to tell her that I loved her but I didn’t want to Alaina to think I was rushing things since we’re not dating. Ugh! I just hate how she would rather be with that asshole and not me. She deserves someone like me.

I mean she’s perfect. Everything about her is perfect; her smile, her eyes, her personality, the way she would she laugh at my cheesy jokes, and how she would treat everyone with respect. That’s what I always looked for in a girl and Alaina is the one I want. But sadly I can’t be with her because she would rather be with that douche Josh. She told me that she felt pressured with him today when they were about to have sex and was scared to tell him to stop so I don’t know why she just won’t break up with him.

He has also been very disrespectful to me and she’s seen the way he’s acted but never stopped him. I just wish she listened to me when I told her about who he really is instead of thinking that I’m jealous. Which is true, I’m not jealous of him. He’s an ass and she deserves someone better, like me. If she were my girlfriend, I would never pressure her to do anything that she wasn’t comfortable with, I would love her unconditionally, and treat her with respect like I always do. I know she wants to be with me but I guess she’s just afraid to admit it. I don’t know why though. Or maybe she’s afraid that I’m going to cheat on her since I’ve been ditching her for Kendall.

If that’s the reason why then she’s wrong. I would never cheat on her. Even if some hot chick decides to flirt with me, I still wouldn’t make a move. Cheating is wrong because why are with that person if you want to hurt them? I sigh. I hope after Alaina see’s the real side in Josh, she dumps him and comes to me instead. If she doesn’t, I won’t force her, I’ll wait just like I am right now. When it seemed like forever, I finally feel my eyes start to get heavy and I slowly start to fall asleep with Alaina cuddled up into my side.