When we caught up with her at the Bravo offices, we had her address the accusations herself and offer up an explanation. It makes sense to us, but see what she has to say for herself in the video above. She also discusses that infamous dinner with the cast when no one stood up and called her a friend. A brutal moment for anyone! But it turns out that was an especially important moment for Lilly—one that will have big effects on the rest of this season even.

Lilly also gives us an update on her friendship with each of the Shahs, many of whom she was hurt by but still loves. See which one she “wishes she was more like”, the one who is a total “stud” and the surprising one she has “nothing bad to say about.” Interesting! Lilly also revealed that she was encouraged by many of the castmembers to not be friends with GG when she arrived on the show, but see where they stand today.