Wednesday, 17 December 2014

I long to come alive, to never be alone
I'd do anything to call your name
to understand you better
to be able to just simply hold you
to be able to just simply love you better

whenever, wherever you need me to be
I'll try my upmost best to let you come closer, to get closer to me
whatever it takes to get to know this love better
to know myself again

this is the interlude
the loudness of comfortable silence
and the way that I move whenever you're present
the way my mind stops thinking

Chorus: you make me feel whole again,
like this is all i've ever needed
I'd give it all just to hold you tighter
I'd give it all just to hold you closely
I'll happily die in your arms tonight
knowing that this feels so right
that I am whole again
that you fixed me

if you want me to go,
I'll leave
there's no way that I'll ever hurt you
I just want you to be mine, and mine only
in the same way that I am yours
x2

I'll take care of you, you know that
you'll always be my first priority
and I will always dream of you

Chorus

End: you already mean so much, more than you'll ever appreciate
with your arms around my waist, there really is no better place
and this is the interlude
the loudness of our comfortable silence

Take me to the place I know best
where most tired eyes and aching bodies go to rest
I'll wrap myself around you, my legs tight around your waist
I'll take my time, I'll take you all in
you don't know how much I want you
how much I've wanted this

let's slow things down,
I want to taste you
you'll be begging me to stop
I'll be begging you to come
to just let go

just when I think you've had enough of my teasing
of my big eyed stare as I start on your tip
you pull me closer
you tell me what you want

Chorus: I want you,
I want you
I want all of you, every inch
inside and around me
holding me close and feeling my pounding heart
feeling my grinding body
I want you to notice how hard I'm going
how passionate it is

let's slow things down,
I want to feel you
I want to kiss down your body
taste the tension and excitement through your skin

Chorus

End: and after drips of my success run down my face
I showed you how much I want you
you filled me up, filled me up with warmth and admiration
and only minutes later, I want to do it all over again

I feel your skin, electric
I feel you all over me
inside every inch
our lip harshly intertwine
please tell me how I better myself
please tell me where I go
I keep giving it all, just to love myself
I keep giving it all just to love you

no one before you
you, the rising sun in my aching body
I'm so happy that I get to hold you
and I keep losing and giving it all
just to let you cut a little deeper
let you see who I really am

It's always been there
chemistry galloping in the background
a white noise so silent
we chose to ignore
and I never saw this coming
I never thought I'd love again
and I keep giving and losing it all
just to let you come within
let you come a bit closer

I see the flawed parts of you
far from anything I've held with heavy hands
I'm sewn together with doubts and kind intentions
but, you and I know, how much love I have to give
and how often I take pride in at all

I want to give you what you deserve
but why are you choosing me?
I'm not the only choice
so thank you for trying to make me your number one

I want to give you all you deserve
but there's just one thing
why are you choosing me?
I'm not the only one

I want to keep you warm on a cold night
and we've talked about our highs and lows
and what goes up must come down, as you know
I've been in a better place

Chorus: I must admit that all the time I gave you
I can no longer wait for approval
I want you, to really want me too
and I want you to really need me
because I'm forever feeling that it's all one sided
that all my love never sinks into your cold pores

don't trade me
I never thought that I would have the nerve to
tell you all that's within my head
don't trade me in for her
don't trade me in for anyone

Chorus

End: I can't wait to have you back with me
but I can see that you're starting to wish you'll see the back of me
and I don't want to lose this
I don't want to make this fall apart
I just really need you to need me, to want me
as much as I ever could for you

I watch your body give in,
give in to the exhaustion of your long dull days
I realise how much my heart belongs to you
you have my full love, always

I honestly feel like I've been here, by your side and in your arms
for much longer than I've been truly alive, truly breathing,
truly taking in every little thing that you have to offer
it feels like I've known you all my life
the natural abilities of our bodies and minds
the way we got so comfortable

Chorus: I've been waiting for a being like you
someone so pure and patient
someone so understanding
I've been loving so deeply
the wrong heart might I add
but you know now
it's you I always wanted
it was you all along
the proof is in the way we are
the way we are

to be completely honest
to be completely content
all I need is you
x2

Chorus

End: all my love, always so pure and demanding
I'll be here waiting for you
until you let my love go
until you give in to the impatience

You always leave, when I need you the most
you'll never know what's inside my head
I'm waiting for you to understand the darkness inside my mind
the way is subsides whenever you are near
the way you stare at me, like I'm broken but you can fix me
I'm forever fragile
I'm forever fretting

so why don't you ever stay?
I'm always waiting for you to come home
spend some of your precious time with me, one day, won't you?
will you ever?

I go through daily battles,
to be stronger for you
to deny any situations I've created and believe in
I go through battles for you
so that I can understand myself better
so that I can keep you with me
so that you'll still love me, even if a little

Chorus: your gentle lips, your voice that soothes my misshapen heart
it's all in the way that you move, the reassurance in every motion
I kept you away for so long, I made the wrong move
and why did I do so,
when you're my world now, you mute these demons inside

I go through daily battles,
to be stronger for you
to deny any situations that I've created and believe in
I don't do it on purpose, I promise you
it's a built in flaw
one of which you know plenty of now
and I'm so so sorry

Chorus

End: will you ever come home to me, darling?
will I ever come home to you?
I hate waiting to be where I belong
will you ever come home to me, only me, darling?

If you talk enough sense
I completely lose my mind
you are my focal point, I don't want to lose sight of all I want
I'm in deeper than I thought I ever could, and I love you more than I thought I ever would
If you talk enough sense
I completely lose my mind

I found love,
you're too patient, too kind, too reassuring
for it is my broken mind, my broken heart that prevents us from being content
right in front of me, you talk sense to me
and I absorb it like I absorb the knife that seeks my skin
I found love
no need to cut anymore

this is the love I've been given,
this is the love I've long craved for
you're everything I've ever wanted
this is the love I need to hold onto
the love I need to prove

Chorus: if you ever lock me out,
if you ever have had enough
please have the knowledge that I love you, always
my fear is always my downfall
and if you ever have had enough
please don't lock me out
I will keep on trying
until I am fixed

I've been attempting, so many times
to ignore all the voices inside my paranoid mind
to ignore all the pain behind my past
and please trust me, confide in me, when I tell you what's going on
to be able to do so, scares me completely
but for you I am trying, trying to prove

Chorus

End: I'll take this love you've given,
I'll take good care of you my darling
and I'm so sorry for everything
for every day
for each hour that I'm quiet, deeply thinking
about how to improve, about how to do better
for you
for you

Hard times are coming,
and all my friends are nowhere to be seen
I'm in the dark again, in the dark alone
all my good friends don't understand
my heart and eyes keep hoping that the darkness will be gone

my thoughts are full and plenty
of misery and consistent battles
it's no wonder I'm thinking really deeply
when you're better off
when you're better off
when you're better off

Chorus: All I do is drag you down,
you didn't want me anyway
don't even keep reminding me that this is a big mistake
please be aware I've been trying so hard not to break
now let me go, now let me go
there's nothing left for you here anymore
you didn't want me anyway

don't keep this fire burning,
when the fuel is long gone
we'll wait until the world stops spinning
until you realise that things are wrong
don't keep this fire burning
when the fuel is long gone
we'll wait until the world stops spinning
until I'm gone

And I couldn't have you anyway
not to myself, not ever
I watched this love fall apart
just like my first
and I couldn't have you any other way
now that I've lost my mind
now that I don't know what I am anymore