Day 2 Cycle 1

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

I made it to day 2! The first week will be the hardest. I know from my first round that if I can push through this and mechanically go through the motions, I will be alright. I am already tired and lacking energy. But I know it is just for a few days, a week at the most. I can do this. I will say that the first round was alot easier since I had the pressure of my sister's wedding to contend with. I HAD to lose or I wouldn't have a maid of honor dress! This time around is a lot harder, but that is no excuse to fail. I know that if I keep trying I won't fail. I am not giving up. I still want to reach my 30 by 30 goal. 30 pounds by the time I turn 30 in July. I am at 20 right now, so I just need 10 more. Then I can focus on maintenance. Maintenance scares the fire out of me though.

On the fitness front, I am shooting to get back to jogging 3 times a week. I took 2 weeks off (while I was eating terribly...double wammy!). I went Saturday, but only for a mile and a half. I went yesterday afternoon and did my full route in my usual time. In those two weeks that I missed, summer moved in. I was sweating so much yesterday in comparison to when I'd run 2 weeks ago. Highs are up in the 90s already. I hate the wind because it makes my allergies worse, but I was thankful for it yesterday. I was glad that I could still do my old route, even though it was more challenging than it once was.

I am off to a start. While it might be an unenthusiastic start, it is a start nonetheless. I am determined to get back on track. I am trying to get more motivated and enthusiastic, but in all honesty, it's just not there right now. At least I am making myself walk the walk. I figure the other will follow. I think it is a combination of everything going on at the moment. End of school stress, allergies/sick, emotional time of the month, etc., etc. It is always something. If I wait to start eating right when things are great, I will be waiting forever! The time is now.

You are right - it is best to do what you can now and not wait. My friend and I were talking about motivation yesterday. We know in our heads what to do, we have done it and then we have failed at it. I too am making changes and hoping more motivation comes.

Way to go starting again even though you are a little short on the motivation... I felt down yesterday, but I am doing considerably better today and I am sure you will get that spark back. You have made great progress.