Blue whales fly upwards (2018)

Verse 1

I started playing this game when I was desperateI chose to close my heartI couldn't sleep well so I talked to themThey were smartAnd I never, told you baby,How bad I wanted to be nearBut if you´d been braver and let me love youI would have never disappeared

Chorus:If you saw meIf you hadn´t been so blindThen I could be still aliveIf you loved meNot only in your head,Then you wouldn´t regret

Verse 2The first step was to cut myselfI had to show the bloodThey wanted me to leave my homeI spent that night in parksWake me up at 4 a.m.Tell me I don´t have to dieCuz if you reached meThat wouldn't happenNow it's no more need to cry

Chorus 2.

Reprise

I wasn´t perfect, and knew you liked itBut you kept silent, that´s what the life isThey were so cruel, I thought they helped me/were to help meI wasn´t sure, the death was betterIt seemed much warmer, than freaks around meIt gave me harmony, calmed me downThough I was stupid, I needed safetyNow it´s too late to chase me

Chorus 3:

If you noticed thatHadn´t been so fucking blindThen I should be still aliveIf you love meYou just move on and forgetNoone has to regret

Stars (2018)

Verse 1

Oh, shiny stars, oh, dark blue sky,

I’ve got a question for you

Why do my heart earn tiny scars,

When my life seems to bore you?

Bridge I’m getting red, I’m getting scared,

My blood is racing through me.

And if it’s real, what I bear,

Then I’ll stay strong and gloomy.

I love you stars, I love you, sky,

Please, let us be connected,

Just let me, only for a while,

Not be so staid and sceptic.

ChorusMy heart is always aching when I touch the sky,

I want to rise, but it is hurting so bad.

I try to bring you my love through the crowd

And give you more, than I can ever expect.

But I am losing you, losing you forever, forever (x2)

Verse 2

I try to stay away from threats,

I aim to rule my being

After I play, I’d drop the meds

And start a thoughtful clearing.

Bridge 2

I’m so afraid to be alive,

I’m running from my calling.

So trembling trying to survive,

Not purposeful, just strolling.

I love you, stars, admire you, stars,

Please, give me a path of motion

And give me strength not to be shy

While showing a devotion.

Chorus

Sandwiched

Verse 1

How do you wanna give

How do you wanna give up this way

How do you wanna live

If you just always keep up to this game

Bridge

And if you fade away

You never will regret you will find

A new place where you can

Keep playing with your toys, be alive

Chorus

They decorate your whole life

You want them only behind

You have no place in your heart

For those who aren´t that smart

Post Chorus

As you

As those who´ve been before

So true

You never thought of more

Verse 2

The first, oh, he has no face

He dumb, but he is good to you

He can get what you chase

The second one has sex, can fuck you

Bridge

But you love the third

He´s gonna cheat on you, being smooth

He never loves his girls

He s praying to the white god

Bridge

But he´s interesting to you

You believe in a happy end

What he says is never true

But you always want to mend him

Chorus

They decorate your whole life

You want them only behind

You have no place in your heart

For those who aren´t playing that hard

Post Chorus

As you

As those who´ve been before

And squeeze you in your heart

Family (2018)

Verse 1

You need the drugs for writing right You need a fight to call a muse To let it go you need a fight And for some words an intense abuse

Bridge1

So, what, what for he drops this in Why is he killing down that brain? He never stops to let it spin He starts it over and again

Chorus

Only the oldest wait for everyone Only they understood:Whatever you do in life in your lifeDo it for the good of your family They ll never give upYour family They tell you when to stop....

Verse 2

This kick's a thrill for everyone It so much happiness A drug, a fight, a love and sex To hunt away the stress.

Bridge 2

Don't scold yourself for being weak Just yield to the temptation But poise your brain, don't let it leak Just switch it off and on.