Another Abusive day at work. Went off and played video poker when I got off. I was playing dollar deuces wild and ran up $150 to $850. Went down to $500. Got crazy and jacked it up to 25 dollar bets. Ran it up quickly to $1200 and then lost it all.

Get paid tomorrow but I will be depressed and punish myself all weekend now thinking what I could of done with extra cash.

Garage still broken. Back out of whack after lefting 3 car garage up and down for 3 months. Urli offered to help me fix it after meeting Tuesday night

Got to get my new SUV in garage before I crash. I get paranoid someone going to **** with it every night. I surrendered old truck. Ford took that vehicle faster than I could sneeze.. I still owed 14k on it. I ran it into the ground driving back and forth from OK but it was only 4 years old.

My lawyer says my chapter 13 BK payment could go up to $2400. No way in hell I can do that. Maybe I'll just dismiss the whole thing and let everybody sue me. I'm not behind on mortgage or new car note.

I think I did it more out of guilt to clean up my debts but this getting to be a bum deal.

Went back out. Almost break even now. Hit a wild royal on 1 dollar deuces wild. Switched to lower stakes and now pounding on quarter -9 6 jacks or better. I hit like 4 quad deuces on wrong machine and stakes... Lol. Trying just pound out a regular 1k Royal. I can slam like 1000 hands an hour.

op no disrespect, you cant see that you are not winning at gambling, also no strategy at playing slots, amirite?
you should just work as much as you can, pay your family and friends back, stop drinking,
it seems you have lost respect for money, do this at least until everybody is paid back and you got at least six moths living expenses in the bank for life emergencies,
gl maybe one day you will share the story 1.5 to bankrupt

What I don't understand, how OP doesn't get rationally, that he won't be making money at slots?

He is not dumb, so he should be able to grasp the concept of EV. I understand, that he doesn't get it emotionally - GA is a *****. But at least rationally he should be able to grasp, that he will be loosing money forever and also able to calculate how much per spin.