Grasping at straws :( with no answers....warning long post

First month ttc, I have always had a 28 day cycle but I have been off of birth control for five years and just never keep up with it until now ugh!! So I started this ttc going on my last af was on Aug 25th and counted my 14days just to give me an "idea" of when I may ovulate. On cd 9 I am almost poitive I ovulated I had achy cramping but thought that cant be its ealy but then came the ewcm.So we bd and started the tww. (I just thought I o'd early)

All of these cycle days are "assuming" by the way because now i'm confused. Four days after I thought I o'd I started having sore boobs which I always get a few days before af. But I knew it was too soon for af I was on cd 15.Then on cd 17 began having achy cramps that lasted all last week! I thought this was a good thing because once again I only cramp one day or maybe two before af. On cycle day 21 I was achying cramping pretty bad that morning (which was this past saturday) but each time I checked no af. But I thought maybe I have been having shorter cycles so I counted back from saturday to when I thought I o'd early and well that would have been just right for a 21/22 day cyle. (By the way took a frer at 9dpo BFN.) So I thought ok so thats the deal with all the sore boobs and cramping my cycles are no longer 28days and I've just just not noticed. But then still nothing on my liner so saturday evening (tmi) when wiped kinda stuck my finger up "there" a little ways and had brownish of all colors discharge so I really thought af was coming..Sunday still no af and nothing on liner only when I wipe and stick my finger up some I started getting pinkish all day sunday sometimes with red streaks.. This morning no af just burgandy looking blood only when I wipe still not enough to get on my liner. Its now several hours later and very very little I have to actually go up like i'm checking my cervix and its light brown and begining to feel like sticky cm. Tested again today which I think is 12dpo and a BFN.

I'm so sorry I ranted so long but dh (dear husband) is tired of hearing me..Its just not like me I always have to use a tampon for af, not sure if I can even count this as af since I only seen red streaked blood one day and it was on tp only not even on liner?

So I understand next month I just need to pay more attention to when I start af I am going to count this as it since I have no clue what else to do and see what happens over the next few days but actually I made this whole post just to ask..Is there ANYWAY possible this was implantation bleeding it started sat and looks to have ended today? And if so would I have gotten the bfn even on the frers? Or anyone else have had spotting that may have or may not have been implantation bleeding and bfns then AFTER spotting get a BFP?

Thanks for listening (if anyone does haha) I have posted another asking about spotting but now since I see its clearing up I'm just wanting to know can I still get a BFP??

Comments (3)

I wish I could answer or help you, but I am literally experiencing the EXACT same thing. All I can say is I am sending good vibes your way and if you ever need to talk...I would be there to listen to your rants :)

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