Hard To Hope - Poem by Stabby Ray Arsenault

I'm so tired of this cold world, I cant seem to do anything right.After 18 year's I finally found someone who made me feel.She made me feel thing's I have never felt before.She cared for me for who I am and didn't judge me for the thing's I did but I fucked it up.Everything in my world is black, I am so numb that all I can feel anymore is sorrow.Time has broken me, Im not who I use to be and I cant seem to find the man I once was.I need help but no one is ever there when I could use them.Every time I try to commit suicide I cant follow threw with it, I have tried many time's......I stand on life's edge but I just cant jump.Every time I try I get vision's of what has made me Happy threw my life and it give's me a lil hope, A lil strength to hold on.But over time these vision's fade away and it get's harder and harder to keep hoping.