"may not beautiful but beautifully made these way, believe that perfections are rivals, free to be yourself, speaks only truth, genuinely enjoy the blithe around us, loves the oxymorons, adore reverse manner, that's makes a life like my life"

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Confession of a USELESS girl

Climbing too fast n forget the ground wher i use to stand. Thats sounds like smth big. I dunno how..why..when..what..is dat a lexicon. I was extremely in guilty mood. When we take things for granted there are few stuff will turn upside down.Too much steps till ur leg cripple wif each other..firstly i dunno to whom i shud brag diz but i really wanna say sorry..i really mean it..i really wont do it on purpose..blame my hippocampus. This is wht feeyra owez complain n mum always complain. You remember thngs bout other but u forget bout urself..this wasnt reli read by ppl..huh..never mind,dats better..Everything i did reli wasnt on purpose n i dunno d rite word to xplain..but i hate my past,reli hate it,dats my 2nd fault,ur past shud be place wher u learn but u simply forget it...telling the truth can be painful smetime but it makes u feel better. Tho ppl wont accept ur xcuse but den dats reli make things feel better in me..at least telling d truth is good.What make d difference between time tu n now..i dunno either..just mulot ni xspill everything dlu but now it starts to spill everything..For the god sake i really feel bad for making him think dat way. I had enough causing trouble to his brain (m so bad m i)..m trying to be the good gf but i make him feel bad. m such a tiny germ y menyusahkan..sorry so badly..He's d reason i have this beautiful dream. Have my spirit to study. Dats make him special n i dun care fall so many times for him. I dun care m going down wif him wen he feels so.I'm willing to share thing dat i never share wif ppl wif him. Dats make him so special~How i wish i cud spent every oxygen for him.That makes d difference between dlu n now..m fear of loosing him,thers alot of his name in my brain stem...i wish i have an entire nite for d rest of my life wif him..i share thing dat i never told ppl..sit next to him n do the talking non-stop~he's more den everything dat i hav in diz world (i bet he didnt noe)I dunno how can i xplain how important he is in my life,till i cant even get my sleep wen i worry bout him~n now i make him feel bad..m sorry..really sorry..(sorry wasnt enough wasnt it)..i noe it never be enough.if i have to give up my entire life for him pn i do willing to make up my mistake..he's d only thng dat i have..y i tell thngs more den i wht i tell my frenz...feel like screamin hell loud i love you!!...m such a bad person!!!he's so warm n nice to me..i make him feel bad,,dats y god punish me for owez not being so happy..m such a bad person i hurt one dat i love so much!tp xberani..cuz maybe he's so disspointed at me..aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......:((..aisya jahat!