Sunday, November 30, 2014

Unusual by Francesca Battestelli

“You’re a zebra in a
pony show, you wear your faith just like a light standing up for Jesus name
living out what you believe being who you were made to be. Oh for Heaven’s
sake, you’re unusual and unashamed.” Unusual
by Francesca Battestelli

A few
months ago when this album was released a friend texted and said number four so
describes you! Of course I had been blasting the CD since it was released and
there had been one song that filled me with a joy I didn’t understand, gave me
a sense of peace and a feeling of accomplishment and that I had repeated more
than any other song. When I clicked over to specifically check out track four I
quickly realized that was the song I had been so drawn to and why I had been so
drawn to it: that is me! My favorite lyric is, “you’re a zebra in a pony show.”
I surround myself with amazing women of Christ: friends, accountability
partners, mentors, leaders, servants and prayer warriors but God has given me
something that I don’t quite see in anyone else around me: completely, blind
faith. It is my illness that got me here and I wouldn’t wish this on anyone but
then again maybe I would.

The moment I let go the day I was
saved by grace and stopped trying to control and squash what God was doing
inside of me was the moment I also felt my lungs start to give out. For hours
that day I had thought I was running on adrenaline and excitement like I never
had before and my body was reacting strangely but the truth was Satan tried to
oppress and depress me by inflicting me with a terminal illness and God immediately
started using it for good. I can still feel this spiritual battle within me
daily, this pull going on inside of my body because God will not let my earthly
body give way before His plans with me are finished but the enemy of my soul
tries to use pain and a lack of breathe to discourage me from living out loud
and in God’s will. I have my moments when I don’t understand what makes me so
special, why either God or Satan would care about my salvation so much but the
truth is we are all in the middle of this battle to one degree or another.

Two weeks before this album was released
God had been speaking to me about the specific plans He had for me in reaching
out to women and sharing how loved, cherished, pursued and chosen they are by
the Lord of Lords, I was coming to the end of one of my prisoner to my body
terms, this one was nearly five months long, and I was having some serious Moses
like doubts: how could I, trapped indoors so much of the time, possibly reach
any women and share this amazing truth with them. God is so patient with me and
we often have this back and forth, a lot like you read about in Exodus 3, and
He reminded me that my gift of writing was still waiting to be utilized for the
Kingdom. At this point I was reacting to those gentle writing nudges with a
three year old mentality and folding my arms in front of me and stomping away. He
also promised that my time in the latest sickness wilderness would be coming to
an end and I He had much for me to accomplish. Plus, other than Jesus the
biggest part of my life is the care of THREE young boys, where and how was I
going to get women to listen to me about God. But, God delivers and most of the
time more than I ever expected possible in the coolest God wink ways! A small
Bible study started with a high school gal from my home church, over the summer
I was well enough to attend four sessions at church and lead tables of people
in discussion over hot topics and how Christians should respond and met many
women who desperately needed the message God had equipped me to relay and when
Proverbs 31 Online Bible Study started up again He had stirred a fire to be involved
in a way I never had before. He is also constantly reminding me of the ministry
He had already put in my life years ago which is made up of all women. I am
back in a season of being home bound but are more productive for the Kingdom
today than I ever have been before because I am only taking God assignment for
my life and not trying to do things that God does not have for me. I also
refuse to dim the SONlight that I know radiates from me, God put it there for a
reason so I could attract those who are hurting and give them the greatest,
most precious gift: Jesus!

9-10 “The Israelite cry for help has
come to me, and I’ve seen for myself how cruelly they’re being treated by the
Egyptians. It’s time for you to go back: I’m sending you to Pharaoh to bring my
people, the People of Israel, out of Egypt.”

11 Moses answered God, “But why
me? What makes you think that I could ever go to Pharaoh and lead the children
of Israel out of Egypt?”

12 “I’ll be with you,” God said.
“And this will be the proof that I am the one who sent you: When you have
brought my people out of Egypt, you will worship God right here at this very
mountain.”

13 Then Moses said to God,
“Suppose I go to the People of Israel and I tell them, ‘The God of your fathers
sent me to you’; and they ask me, ‘What is his name?’ What do I tell them?”

14 God said to Moses,
“I-AM-WHO-I-AM. Tell the People of Israel, ‘I-AM sent me to you.’”

15 God continued with Moses: “This
is what you’re to say to the Israelites: ‘God, the God of your fathers, the God
of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob sent me to you.’ This has
always been my name, and this is how I always will be known.

16-17 “Now be on your way. Gather the
leaders of Israel. Tell them, ‘God, the God of your fathers, the God of
Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, appeared to me, saying, “I’ve looked into what’s
being done to you in Egypt, and I’ve determined to get you out of the affliction
of Egypt and take you to the land of the Canaanite, the Hittite, the Amorite,
the Perizzite, the Hivite, and the Jebusite, a land brimming over with milk and
honey.”’

Thank you! You are so sweet, I was just saying to God that I fully expect my "audience" to be of one or two and if that is so I am good with it, I know I just need to obey and get God's message out through my mess that is now redeemed. Thank you for being that audience! :)