mama blues

My second is turning two tomorrow and I suddenly feel weepy, missing the time I had with Olive, my first, when it was just us. Is that strange? Maybe it’s because I just watched an episode and half of “Parenthood” and that show always makes me cry. This one was when Sarah consoles Amber, who confesses to her mom why she slept with her cousin’s ex and is so sad and confused. And Sarah’s heart breaks for her daughter’s pain- you can see it in her eyes. I’m sad that I don’t usually get focused time alone with Olive for an extended period of time anymore. We had so much of it before. And she can’t really remember what life was like before Obi because life now seems like how it’s always been. Anyway, I just wanted to speak this sad little mama song before I go to bed.