Monday, November 29, 2010

I just looked back at posts from a year ago....
My oh MY how much has changed in one short year and OH the blessings I have in my life!!!

Since I haven't had time to post a Thankgiving "thankful" speech
please allow to somewhat do that now.......

First - go back with me a little.......
One year ago - I fell in love with the man I now call my husband.
Yes that's right....
in less than ONE year....we fell in love and decided we didn't want to go on through life without being a part of each other's forever.
ahhhhhhhhh - weren't things simpler back then?! LOL

In one short - VERY busy..... and did I mention SHORT.... year - I have fallen in love, expanded my family, started ultrasound school (which I am now ALMOST to the half way mark of), quit my job, gone back to waitressing, found some new friends, lost some old ones.... oh the list goes ON and ON and ONNNN!! But just for one minute, I just want to gloat!
I want to BRAG!!!!
I want to look back at where I was at Thanksgiving last year...... (sooooooo HAPPY) and look how much my life has grown and flourished in just that one short year.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Someone approached me recently and said "ahhhh.... I love your look tonight. You're like Rocker Tami" I'm not gonna lie, it kinda threw me off guard. I'm sure the look on my face was priceless. As I stared back at this person, she continued on by saying, "you never know what to expect with you... sometimes your like the quiet innocent girl next door, and sometimes your smokin hot, and tonight your all rocker chic!"
I didn't realize I actually had different "looks"! LOL

So I got to thinking.......

Thank God I'm finally in my 30's and I can just be ME! That's it. I don't wear a mask, I don't pretend to be something I'm not. I just live my life trying to do the best I can and help as many people as I can along the way, but in the meantime, trying really hard not to sell out to anyone or anything. I'm just ME.
I dress how I want.
I act how I want.
I finally know who I am, what I want, what's important in life and the stupid little things that happen that throw existence into chaos... well - they just don't bother me as much as they used to.

I don't have to spend hours and hours trying to maintain some sort of image of who I want people to think I am. I just am.
Unintentionally, one day a rocker and one day the quiet girl next door.
Because inside aren't we a mixture of them all???

I'm so thankful to be past that point in my life where I need to "fit in" or pretend I like or don't like something just to "have friends"

If only I had known at 14 what I know at 34.
I guess that's the fun in life.
wearing the masks.....
and one day being comfortable enough in your own skin to lay down the masks and just be YOU.
You at your very BEST.
does it get any better than that?!