For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the LORD."
Jeremiah 29:11-14

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

A Song In My Heart

"Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ." (Ephesians 5:19-20 NIV)

The one thing I know for sure is that my Lord, who resides in me, has put a song in my heart. Even when I am disheartened and weary from this battle that Jay and I are in, I am still able to sing a song of praise to the Lord. What an awesome gift.

Now, I don't have a voice like that of Karen, my beloved friend, who sounds like an angel when she sings, but I know that my Lord loves me to sing to Him regardless of how I think I sound. What is important to Him is that I sing...period. "Worship the LORD with gladness; come before him with joyful songs." (Psalm 100:2 NIV) He is worthy of such praise.

Jay Update

My honey just finished his last radiation treatment today. Praise the Lord! Now we wait. He can't get a PET scan for six weeks because the radiation will remain in his system for a while after today. So, Jay gets a small break. He still has to take oral chemo for a while until his oncologist sees him in a few weeks and makes a determination as to what the next step will be.

For those who are praying for my honey, please pray that there would be no cancer in his system and that there would be no new growth at all in between stopping radiation and starting the IV chemo. It's hard to get excited about stopping the radiation early because we stopped chemo early last year and the cancer came back almost right away. But, I'm not going to give in to my flesh and I am going to trust that the Lord has it in His hands and His will be done.

I am thankful that Jay still has energy and a will to live everyday very actively and not give in to the fatigue. He's a fighter and I'm so proud of him.

I am thankful to the Lord for holding me up through each day, for my wonderful support system at work/church, for my best friend who prays with me and keeps me going, for family who is faithful to check in on us, and for the song that the Lord has placed in my heart. I could not live without any of these. I love you all very much.

1 comment:

demandnlilchit
said...

I am so happy that you have your faith to lean on and that your DH, Jay is doing well! Thank you for sharing your story with me while I battle my own cancer. I find so much comfort in knowing others who are walking the same path as myself. And I am glad you can find comfort in reading my thoughts and day to day life while I once again prepare for battle...the key is to not stop living just because you have an illness that is trying to take yur life...that would be giving up before your dead...to many wonderful things to yet experience! And if you are the Jamie that donated to the Y-Me foundation in my honor....I can't thank you enough! The ripple effect of what that money can do can help so many others!

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About Me

This is my journey back from the depths of grief to living life again. My desire is to glorify the Lord by sharing my story...my testimony. God is a faithful and loving God and I pray that you can sense His nearness with my words. He is ever present. When I couldn't move, He carried me. When I couldn't speak, He put a song in my heart. I serve the most loving and merciful God. To God be the Glory!