Monday, December 29, 2014

If you're like me, you have a freeway paved with good intentions, and this time of year can be a mixed blessing as you consider all the things you had hoped to accomplish and all the things you left undone, unsaid, and unclaimed. Before I actually write out my goals for 2015, I wanted to look over some of my past goals. And because I found this interesting, I decided to share them. Because there are so many, I may even compile a nonfiction book. (That sounds suspiciously like a goal, and I promised myself I wouldn't go there...yet.) Here are some past posts on all things goal related.

My book, The Highwayman Incident, included. I'm about halfway done with the sequel, The Cowboy Encounter, and I have a rough outline for the third and final book, The Pirate Episode. Because I'm eager to start a teenage witch series, I hope to finish the Witching Well series by sometime this summer, so I can release the first book in my witch series before Halloween.

The witch series is little more than a few, vague ideas and a couple of half-hatched sentences, and yet I can feel the witch begging to be heard.

Thursday, December 18, 2014

As we draw to the end of the year, it’s bittersweet to
reflect on 2014 and what I learned—where I was, and where I am now—and how I
got to this place.

Before I begin, I have to stop and say how incredibly
grateful I am for so many things—my faith, husband, children and home, of
course, top that list. But I’m also deeply indebted to our extended families,
friends—near and far, new and old—and the amazing network of my writing colleagues.

And to be honest, I haven’t accomplished all of my 2014 goals. I didn’t:

Lose weight (well, I did, but then I gained it back)

Finish reading the Old Testament (I’m slogging away in
Jeremiah, but this doesn’t bother me since I’ll be reading the New Testament in
2015 and it’s much shorter, so by the end of 2015 I do expect to have read the
entire Bible. Which, by the way, is not a first—but still a worthwhile goal.)

Organize my whole house. (But I did clean out the garage, my
girls’ rooms and my closet, so it’s an improvement.)

On a personal level,
2014 was a bumper crop year.

Jared and Jen were married in the San Diego temple and all
six of my children were able to attend.

Natalie left for a mission to Taiwan. One week later,
Miranda left for a mission to Uruguay.

Nathan and Shirley welcomed baby Wrenn into the world.

Larry and I traveled to Boulder, Colorado. Stopped by the
achingly beautiful Moab, Utah, and drove through the Rockies.

I went to Washington to visit my dad and family…more than
once. And I went to Utah and Las Vegas…more than once. And China, Korea, Hong
Kong and Taiwan (but just once.)

On the book front:

I published:

BEYOND THE HOLLOW
and BEYOND THE PALE—books two and
three of my Beyond series. Both have bounced off and on Amazon’s time-travel bestseller
lists. As I’m writing, Beyond the Hollow is currently #25 on Amazon’s
bestseller time-travel list. I believe that their success is largely due to
fact that book one of the series is included in the Paranormal 13 anthology,
which has been wildly successful. Here’s the stats as of right now:

For the most part,
being included in anthologies has been great for me.

This year I also published STUCK WITH YOU, which was included in the Authors of Main Street
Wedding anthology. But I also published THE
WITCHING WELL in the Autumn's Kiss:
Ten Contemporary & Historical Sweet Romances. This box set has languished
from the beginning. I have my suspicions why, but since I’m only one of the ten
authors in the set (and my book is the very last one) I haven’t had much sway.

My story, ANYWHERE
ELSE, is in an awesome anthology of 101 stories written by bestselling
indie authors, called 101 Stories, On the Go. This was an interesting
challenge. The story had to be less than a thousand words. Mine is something
like 997. I loved doing it, and I’m really grateful to have been included.

And just a few weeks ago, I published THE HIGHWAYMAN INCIDENT, the first book in my Witching Well series.

So, production-wise:

3 novels

One novella (and one novella that grew into a novel)

One short story

Business-wise

I found an editor that I love, and she is currently
re-editing four of my books.

I discovered Draft2Digital, so I no longer have to pay for
formatting.

I learned that anthologies can help sell my other books.

And getting picked up by Pixel of Ink is like having Heaven
smiling down on you, and blessing you with enormous sales.

I also learned the awesome power of spreadsheets. I’ll admit
that in the beginning, keeping track of my money versus man-hours was just
depressing, but since I’ve started using spreadsheets and holding my feet to
the fire and my fingers to the keyboard, it’s so much easier to see where I’ve
been and where I’m going.

So, here’s my
projections for 2015:

Publish:

LOVE AT THE APPLE INN,
a Rose Arbor novella to be included in the Authors of Main Street Love in
Bloom boxed set. This is actuallyfinished
and with the editor. I’ll publish it on its own in early January, and it will
come out in the boxed set in the spring. I hope to have its sequel, LOVE HITS THE ROAD finished close to
the publication of the boxed set.

THE COWBOY ENCOUNTER,
the second book in the Witching Well series. I’m about halfway through the
first draft. I hope to have it published in March.

THE PIRATE EPISODE,
the third book in the Witching Well series, is little more than an outline. I
imagine a summer release.

Also, I have a teen-age witch who is whispering in my ear. I
really want to tell her story…and I will. In time.

Wrap up

When Larry and I were first married, we owned a little
pick-up truck and when we moved, and we moved a lot, everything we owned could
fit in the back of the truck. And if it didn’t fit, then it couldn’t come. And
then, like a snowball growing as it rolls downhill, we’ve grown. Our family
went from two to eight to fourteen. We own stuff…way more than could ever fit
into the back of Toyota pick-up truck. And we’ve learned stuff, made stuff, but
I think underneath all that accumulation of snow and stuff, we’re still the
same.

I don’t know where we’ll go in 2015. I bet we’ll go to
Washington, Las Vegas, Utah and Colorado, because we love people who live in
those places. I think I’ll publish at least four books, but I can’t be 100%
positive. What I do know is that if 2015 is as kind as 2014, then I’ll be incredibly
grateful…even more than I am now.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

I love time-travel stories and the what-if questions they
carry. My husband feels differently. He once told me that he’s afraid that if
he ever time-traveled that he would waste the experience just looking for me. I
think it’s one of the sweetest things he’s ever said, and we’ve been married
for a very long time, so he’s said plenty of sweet things.

The Highwayman Incident is the first book in the Witching Well
series. I got the idea while watching a documentary about the Salem Witch
trials. (Side note, documentaries are great for novel fodder. I got the idea
for Beyond the Pale while watching a documentary about Rasputin.) Although I
grew up in Washington State and have lived most of my adult life in California,
I lived in Connecticut’s Fairfield County while my husband worked in Manhattan.
I definitely have a tender place in my heart for Connecticut—despite its
haunted past. Coincidentally, a whole host of my ancestors also lived in
Fairfield County. I like to think of them whispering in my ear while I write
this series.

I have three books planned for the Witching Well series, The
Highwayman Incident, The Cowboy Encounter and The Pirate Episode.

But then, I had three books planned for my Rose Arbor
series, and in a few weeks I plan on publishing my fourth Rose Arbor novel, so
you never know where my muse may take me!

Friday, December 12, 2014

Here's the first chapter of Love at the Apple Inn. Depending on my editor, it should be live in early January. It's a Rose Arbor novella (about 80 pages) featuring Janey, a minor character from The Rhyme's Library. The novella will be included in the Authors of Main Street spring anthology.

I'm not sure where I got the idea for this book. I think I wanted to show a contrast between a simple, private life versus a very public life. It's interesting to me how, as a public, we tend to idolize celebrities, and in doing so, although we don't mean to, we make their lives miserable. We love them, but our love hurts them, and keeps them from leading a normal life or forming real relationships.

Obviously, I don't know what I'm taking about. I'm not famous, and I'm not even closely related to anyone famous. But I do watch the news. Although, I don't watch TMZ or read People magazine. Really, I don't know what it's like to be a Justin Bieber or a Lindsey Lohan. I just think a life in that sort of limelight would be really, really hard.

CHAPTER ONE

Derrick wanted to stand up and walk
away from the girl leaning on his chest. She smelled of wine and her
product-stiff hair tickled his chin. But when a waiter placed another drink in
front of him, he picked up the glass. Even as his head told him he had had
enough, his throat burned in anticipation. The cold glass felt good in his hand.

His gaze wandered around the room,
taking in the hot-tarts as phony as their perky breasts, the guys, a few almost
as plastered as himself, and rare breed that defied gender generalization.

Techno music blasted through the
smoky air. He hated techno music, thought it sounded like a rumbly stomach
felt. But it didn’t give him a stomach ache. It made his head hurt. And his
heart. It also made him sad, because it was like music from a machine—not a
person. Someone once told him that he would like it if he were drunk, but that
person didn’t know shiest, because he was almost always drunk and he still
hated techno music.

He glanced at the girl smiling up
at him. Her features swam, and he couldn’t focus. Straight teeth? Brown eyes?
Did he know her? She looked like Jen Lopez, and
he’d always been blonde hound. Goose-bumps pimpled her arms. Weird. He was hot,
and she was cold.

He pushed away from her, and swayed
on his feet.

“Where you going, baby?” the
Jen-girl slurred.

Derrick held up his finger,
shushing her, and made his way through the crowded bar to the DJ behind the
glass. He knocked until the moron wearing the headphones looked at him. Derrick
slid his finger across his throat.

The DJ narrowed his eyes at him,
before catching a glance at the manager, dressed in black and hiding near the
bar. The manager gave a small nod.

The squeaky, thumping sounds
stopped. No one other than Derrick seemed to notice, but he sighed in relief
and let the tension between his shoulders ease. Unsure of what to do next, he
stumbled onto the small stage, sat at the piano and played.

A hush fell over the room as he
sang an old Irish ballad.

The soft winds sing across the sea,

While here I sit all alone and
cold.

Rapt in the rays of memory,

That flash from Golden days of old,

For oh, the oceans murmuring tune,

Speaks to my bosom of a time,

When life was as a harvest moon,

Or warbling of a sylvan rhyme.

The piano could never replace a
fiddle, but since it was better than the techno-shiest, he continued until the
Jen-girl put her hand on his shoulder.

“Baby, that song’s depressing,” she
whined.

But Derrick ignored her and
continued singing the song he remembered his grandfather singing.

“Whose eyes like Saint's from
sculptured niche,

Look into mine for evermore

Full voices 'mid the garden
flowers,

To soothe and sanctify the day,

These once were mine but frozen
hours,

Have stolen them all to depts away”

“Let’s go, baby,” the Jen-girl
said, pressing against him. “There’s a party at Mac’s in Brentwood.”

He lifted his fingers and a few of the
half-sober people in the room booed, begging him to stay and play. Standing, he
gave the crowd a smile and a half bow.

Brentwood. He lived in Brentwood. Maybe
someone could drop him off, because even though he didn’t know the girl on his
arm, or where he was, or what day it was, he did know he didn’t belong a
wheelbarrow, let alone a steering wheel. He had drowned out the driver in him
drinks ago. Killed him with a shot glass, which, as it turns out, can be as
lethal as a shot gun. The Jen Lopez girl
took his hand and led him out the door.

A car with leather seats that smelled
of cigarettes and fried food careened down a canyon road. Derrick let the car’s
swaying control his movements. It occurred to him that they weren’t heading for
Brentwood, after all. Somehow they had left the city. Derrick didn’t recognize
the guy in the driver’s seat, but he did know that whoever he was, he probably wasn’t
any more sober than himself.

Rocking with each hair-pin turn, Derrick
thought about death without fear or sadness. The alcohol and drugs had muted
any panic, and he found he could consider his life from a spectator’s
perspective. Curious. At that moment, he didn’t care whether he lived or died.
He didn’t even have the emotional energy to muster a slow down or a hey, let’s
call a taxi. It was almost as if he was already dead.

#

In
the upper room of the Rhyme’s Library, the children sat transfixed as Janey
read from The Velveteen Rabbit. The
light from the window shone upon their rapt and upturned faces. Most sat cross
legged on the rag rug, some leaned against their mothers, a couple fidgeted,
unable to sit still, but there was a hush in the room as Janey read.

“‘Real isn’t how you are made,’ said the Skin Horse.
‘It’s a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long
time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become real.”

“’Does it
hurt?’ asked the Rabbit.

‘Sometimes,’ said the Skin Horse for he was always
truthful. ‘When you are Real you don’t mind being hurt.’”

Janey
came to the end of Margery Williams’ story and slowly closed the book. The
children began to reluctantly stir.

“Miss
Janey,” Henry chirped, his blue eyes gazing at her from under a lock of
shockingly white hair. “Do you think toys can really die?”

“Not really, do you?” Janey stretched out her
legs and wiggled her toes. She loved story-hour, and she was okay sitting on
the floor with the kids, but somehow when she read, she would forget to move
and her legs or feet would fall asleep. She thought it an okay occupational
hazard to have.

Henry’s
forehead crinkled as he thought.

“Maybe
when toys die, they become zombies,” Brock said, as he pushed his glasses
further up onto his nose.

“But
how can you know?” Brock stood up and straightened his shoulders, reminding
Janey that Brock’s dad was an attorney. She wondered if a love for a good
argument could be inherited.

“I’ve
never seen a toy zombie, have you?” Janey stood and held the book to her chest.
She loved lots of stories, but the Velveteen Rabbit was her favorite.

“Have
you ever seen Jesus?” Brock asked.

“Hum,
no,” Janey said.

“Do
you believe in Jesus?”

Janey
put her hand to her forehead. “What does Jesus have to do with toy zombies?”
she asked, but she could guess where this line of questioning was headed.

“Just
because you’ve never seen something doesn’t mean that it’s not real,” Brock
told her.

“Right.”
Janey looked around at the children staring at her with big, questioning eyes
and worried about what they would say when they got home. Someone would tattle,
and Janey knew the Friends of the Library would be talking about the Jesus and
toy zombie debate if she didn’t change the subject soon.

Downstairs,
someone screamed.

Now what?
Janey wondered. As far as Janey knew, no one had screamed in the Rhyme Library
since Charlotte Rhyme had been found dead in the basement last year.

“Jessie
and Amber.” Emma twisted a lock of her dark curls around her finger, something
she often did when stressed about the mis-filing of books, or a computer
break-down. “They just heard about Derrick Cordell.” Emma’s voice cracked and
her eyes welled with unshed tears.

“The
singer?” Janey didn’t follow Derrick Cordell’s career, but she would have to be
living in a cave in the hindermost part of the world—which, of course, some
people argued was exactly where Rose Arbor was— to not to have heard of the heart-throb.

Emma
nodded and choked back a sob. Tears spilled down her face. “He’s dead.”

Henry
turned to Janey. “Will he be a zombie, too?”

Janey
put her hand on top of Henry’s brown curls. “I hope not,” she said.

#

3
Months Later

Eric
Roudel sat on the edge of his bed gazing out at the Caribbean Sea. The sun
glistened on the white sand. The trade winds blew through the window, ruffling
the white curtains. Someone somewhere played reggae on a xylophone.

He
had grown to hate the tediously, gloriously sunny weather. It was like that
Clap Along Get Happy Song forever sounding over the airwaves. He wanted dark,
brooding music. He longed for a riotous thunder storm. He wanted what he knew
he could never have again.

He
wanted to go home.

Standing,
he faced north. Even if he stayed dry for decades, he couldn’t go back to Rosslare
Harbour. According to his therapist, if he wanted to maintain his fragile
sobriety, he needed to avoid alcohol. Forever. And trying to avoid whiskey in
Ireland was like trying to avoid a Kardashian on TMZ.

He longed
for the sharp, bone-chilling damp, the crash of waves, and the craggy shore.
The calm, unruffled Caribbean endless blue was like an ocean on Prozac. Sure,
the ocean was the ocean, but the Caribbean Sea was as unlike the wild Atlantic
as a toy poodle was to a Doberman.

Rap,
rap, rap.

“Come
in,” Eric said, his gaze not leaving the window.

“Good
day,” Lee said, as he pushed into the room with a tray full of food. “I see
you’re wearing pants. Must be a good day. Got something special planned?”

Eric
grunted and eyed the food. Sometimes he felt so much like a caged animal, like a
parrot in a beautiful aviary that he resorted to guttural noises. Sitting at
the table, he considered the grapefruit halves, the oatmeal topped with
berries, and the turkey sausage links. Even this healthy breakfast should have
made him put on weight, but Eric, already emaciated by his substance abuse,
didn’t gain a pound. He had always seemed to float above the common problems
plaguing everyone else. His life, overall, had been as sunny and easy as the
Caribbean Sea.

So
why had he destroyed it?

Why
couldn’t he be as happy as Lee? Lee wore the same thing every day: a pair of
cargo shorts, a Hawaiian shirt, flip flops, a red string tying back his
dreadlocks, and a smile.

It had taken Eric
months to get used to eating three meals. Breakfast had always, until recently,
made his stomach roll. When he had first arrived, he had flushed most of his
breakfast down the toilet as soon as Lee left the room, rationalizing that that
was the foods ultimate destination anyway. He was merely expediting the
process. But Lee must have become suspicious, because he had since found a
reason to stay until Eric finished his meals.

After
setting the tray down, Lee settled into the chair in the corner, and propped
his feet up on the ottoman. He generally liked to talk about his girlfriend,
Marla, and today he announced, “Marla and I are done.”

Eric
knew Lee would never leave Marla. He might curse her, but he would never leave
her.

“I’m
not sure yet,” Eric said before he spooned oatmeal in his mouth.

“Then
why would I join you?”

Eric
swallowed a slug of orange juice before he said, “I’m giving you an out.”

Lee
chuckled. “Your last way out landed you here. So, no thank you, sir. I be
guessing I a’staying here. You should, too. This is a nice place.”

With a very nice price tag. But Eric knew that Lee didn’t expect him to stay on
the island forever. “When you going to get me a guitar?”

Lee
shrugged, reminding Eric that even though no one considered him a suicide risk,
the center had strict “health and safety” policies. “If I wanted to off myself,
don’t you think I would have been successful before now? Besides—who wants to
die by way of a guitar string? If I wanted to, I’d drown myself. There’s plenty
of water.”

Eric
wiped his mouth and set down his napkin. “I’m serious, Lee. Why don’t you come
with me?”

“Nah.
You got to go and make yourself a new life.”

“I’ve
got nothing.”

How
many people had to scrap their old life and make a new one at only thirty? At
his tri-life crisis, he had nothing to show for all his living.

“Now,
Mr. Roudel, how be saying that? You know that’s not true.”

A
voice in his head reminded him of the millions in the Caribbean banks, his
sixteen thousand square foot Brentwood mansion, (what had he been thinking? He
must have been drunk when he bought that mausoleum,) and his Tesla. Where had
he left the car? Was it still in the garage? Shiest, good thing he didn’t own a
cat.

Eric
bent over his breakfast. “If that’s what you think, she’s not good enough for
you, and I’m going to tell her to whip your skinny—”

Footsteps
pounded into the room, and Leslie burst through the door. Her dark hair looked
while and her olive skin was pink and flushed. She paused to catch her breath
before she said, “Mr. Cordell, you got to go!”

Lee
bounced to his feet. “Who knows?”

Leslie
pushed her hair off her face. “Everyone knows.”

“How?”
Lee and Eric demanded at the same time.

“It
doesn’t matter,” Eric threw down his napkin and climbed to his feet. “I knew I
couldn’t hide out here forever. We all knew this day would come.”

“No,”
Lee said, his voice turning steely. “You are not going back to your old life.”

“Then
where do you suggest I go? I can’t go back to Ireland. I don’t want to go back
to L.A.”

“Right
now, you can hide out at Marla’s.” Lee stood and took hold of Eric’s arm.
“Three months ago, you were as good as dead. That ain’t happening again. Not
while I’m breathing.”

#

“It’s
like Elvis sightings,” Janey told Emma as they worked together shelving books.
“Everyone thinks they’ve spotted him. Next thing we know, they’ll be finding Eric
Cordell’s face on potatoes.”

“It’s
not like Elvis, at all. They’ve proven the…” Emma choked up, and then cleared
her throat, "the body they thought was his, isn’t.”

“Because
of the teeth?” Janey asked.

“That,
and other things,” Emma said, her face stony.

Janey
touched Emma’s arm. “I hope he is alive, but if he is—where is he?”

Emma
sniffed and looked up at the ceiling. “I think if he was dead, I would know
it.”

“Really?”
Janey studied Emma. They were only five years apart, but sometimes she felt
like Emma’s grandmother. Janey bit back a sigh. In some ways, living with an
alcoholic mother had made her grow up too fast. But in other ways, it was like
she was trapped in her childhood home, because she had to look out for her baby
brother. When she had graduated from school she’d been offered a scholarship to
Western Washington University, but the thought of leaving Noah alone with her
mom kept her Rose Arbor.

Emma
interrupted her thoughts. “We share a spiritual connection.”

Janey
loved Emma. No matter how dark her thoughts, Emma always managed to make her
smile. “Does Matt know?”

Emma
tossed her dark curls over her shoulder. “Why would Matt care?”

Janey
stopped fighting her smile. “I think he would like to know.”

“I
don’t care what Matt thinks.” Emma deliberately shifted her attention to the
books on the cart.

“What
I think about what?” Matt stepped out from behind a shelf, and tucked his
earbuds in his pocket.

Emma
flushed an interesting shade of pink. Janey envied Emma’s coloring—it was so
dramatic and changed so rapidly. Janey, on the other hand, was blonde, pale and
about as interesting as vanilla.

“About
Derrick Cordell,” Janey said.

“That
pretty boy?” Matt scoffed, and straightened his spine so he stood taller.

“You
got something against pretty?” Emma asked.

“I
like pretty women, not boys,” Matt said.

“Good
to know,” Janey muttered.

Matt
ignored her. “You need a ride home?” he asked Emma. “I brought my dad’s bike.”
He showed her the helmet he had tucked behind his back. “I brought this for
you.”

Emma’s
cheeks flushed again.

Janey
wanted to ask if Mr. Harnett knew Matt had his bike, but she bit her lip and
went back to shelving books. She might feel like a grandma, but she didn’t need
to act like one. “We’re almost done here,” she told Emma. “You should go.”

“Are
you sure?” Emma asked, glancing around at the empty, but practically immaculate
library.

“Absolutely,”
Janey said. “I can finish here on my own.”

After
locking up the library, Janey climbed in her truck and offered a silent prayer
that it could take her home. The Toyota coughed a few times before roaring to
life, and Janey sighed in relief as she pulled out of the parking lot and
headed west.

Minutes
later, she pulled into the parking lot of the Apple Inn. She loved the inn, she
always had, even when it had been an old and abandoned ramshackle, Janey had
loved coming there as a little girl. Even now after all these months, it was
hard to believe that she got to live in it. So what if she got the attic room
without air-conditioning or central air? She used a fan in the summer, and a
space heater in the winter, and every day she got to walk through the cranberry
red front doors like she owned the place.

Janey
let herself in, and the bell chimed a welcome.

Victoria
hustled through the spacious hall, wiping her hands on her apron. Most of her
dark, curly hair had escaped its hair pins and it looked almost as frantic as Victoria’s
face. “Oh, heavens, Janey, I’m so glad you’re home!” She dropped her voice to a
whisper and motioned for Janey to follow her into the kitchen. “We’ve got
cranksters staying! They were supposed to be in the Golden Delicious, but I had
to move them out to the Granny Smith cottage because they didn’t like the birds
in the trees outside their windows.”

Janey
passed through the large kitchen and headed for the mud room where she hung up
her coat on a hook beside a collection of aprons and traded her shoes for a
pair of slippers she kept underneath a bench. “And there aren’t birds in the
trees next to the cottage?”

“Well,
of course there are! But I didn’t know what else to do!” Victoria rolled her
eyes and went back to her rolling pin on the spacious butcher block counter.
“They seem happy…well, at least not as cranky…there.” She covered her hands in
butter and shaped the dough into a large circle.

Janey
collected a paring knife, a cutting board and sat down at the table in front of
a big bowl of apples. “Don’t we have someone renting the cottage?”

Victoria
sighed and sprinkled brown sugar, allspice and cinnamon over the dough. “He’ll
get here tomorrow.”

Janey
peeled, cored and chopped apples. “And when do the cranksters leave?”

“Not
soon enough.”

Janey
nodded, understanding. “You want me to make up the Gala?”

“Or
the Pink Lady? No wait—it’s just a man, staying alone.”

“Definitely
not the Pink Lady, then.” Janey took her apple bits and dumped them on top of Victoria’s
dough.

Victoria
rolled the dough, forming an apple, cinnamon roll that, come morning, would
warm the hearts of even the crankiest, crankster. “I don’t know what I would do
without you,” Victoria said.

“You
would hire someone else.” Janey leaned over the kissed the older woman’s cheek.
“But I don’t know where I would be without you.”

#

With
his hair dyed black and a UW baseball cap on his head, Eric pulled into the stadium’s
crowded parking lot. He adjusted his glasses, and gave himself another critical
glance in the rearview mirror before climbing out of his rented Subaru. All
around him, other peoples’ families and friends milled. A few had portable
barbecues set up, and the smell of roasting meat mingled with the sharp tangy odor
of beer. He braced himself.

He
could do this.

He
had chosen Seattle for a number of reasons—the music, the vibe, the gloomy
weather that matched his mood—but mostly because it reminded him of Ireland.
Finding Rose Arbor on a map had been just a fluke, but he hoped a providential
one, since he intended to make it his home. He knew that Rose Arbor could never
replace his village, Rosslare Harbour, but since he couldn’t go home, he hoped
to find a next best thing.

Eric
tucked his hands into the pockets of his Levi jeans and made his way to the entrance.
No one noticed him. The crowd in the stadium surged around him, reminding him
that it really was much easier to get lost, and feel lonely, in a crowd than on
an almost deserted island.

#

Janey
pulled her battered Toyota pickup truck into the Husky Stadium parking lot.
Beside her, Noah bounced in his seat, his excitement rolling off of him, making
Janey smile.

“We’re
going to get Husky-dogs, right? Uncle Ted promised me Husky-dogs.” Noah thought
for a moment. “But did he give you money for lunch? Because if he didn’t,
that’s okay.”

Janey
checked her wallet for the tickets and cash. “No…he gave me money.” Which
wasn’t true, but she knew from her own experience that Uncle Ted regularly made
promises he couldn’t, or wouldn’t, keep. Noah would learn that disappointing
lesson soon enough. He didn’t need to learn it on his birthday. At least Ted
had given her the tickets.

As Noah
hustled out the door, Janey disconnected her phone from the power cord. Before
leaving home, Janey had downloaded her homework. She didn’t want to study per
se during the game, but maybe when Noah wasn’t looking she could catch up on
her reading for her online accounting class. She tucked her phone into her bag
and followed Noah to the entrance.

Noah
held onto her hand, and jumped more than walked up the concrete concourse.
Janey glanced at the tickets—the seats on the fiftieth yard line made her happy
and mad. Happy, because she knew that Noah would be thrilled, but mad, because
she knew that the seats were outrageously expensive and Noah could have used
the money for much more important things…like milk, socks, or underwear.

But knowing
that Noah would gladly trade-in, or abandon altogether, his underwear for a
chance to see the Huskies up-close and personal, Janey steered Noah to their
seats.

“Can
we get the Huskydogs now?” Noah asked.

“Now?
You can’t be hungry. I just watched you eat five bowls of Captain Crunch!”
Janey doubled checked the row numbers as they descended closer to the field
where the cheerleaders shook their sparkly pompoms. “We’ll get the dogs at half
time.”

“Before
half time!” Noah shouted over his shoulder to be heard over the band. “If we
wait until half time, then there will be a long line and they might run out.”

Janey
put her hand on Noah’s shoulder to keep him from bumping into a man carrying a
baby dressed in a dog suit. “I don’t think they’ll run out.”

“But
there’s so many people here, they might, right? So, we need to get them before
half time.”

Janey
pointed at their seats in front of a couple of gray-haired men, and a woman
with knitting needles and a ball of yarn. A family with several children who
looked younger than Noah sat in front of them, and a group of students were beside
them. The students wore purple Husky shirts and hats and seemed to shuffle
seats a lot. Janey hoped they would be louder and noisier than Noah, because
she worried about him bothering the senior citizens and the lady-knitter.

Noah
wiggled in his seat, making it bounce up and down, but once the players ran on
to the field, he focused. “See there, number 32. That’s Nolan Keener. He’s the
first string quarter back.”

“Huh,
huh.” Janey’s gaze followed Noah’ finger.

“And
that guy, number 25, he’s the running back.”

Janey
smiled as if she cared.

Beside
her, one of the students chuckled.

A
whistle blew, a horn blasted, and a Husky kicked the ball.

“Ugh!”
Noah groaned with the crowd when the ball landed near the 30 yard line.

Janey
nodded, tried to look somber, and tucked her hands in her pockets. Her fingers
closed around her phone. Her thumb sought out the on button. While the teams
faced off, Janey took a quick glance at her taxation preparation homework.

“First
down!” Noah groaned.

Janey
looked up, sent Noah and conciliatory smile, and went back to her phone.

The
student beside her chuckled again.

Janey
shot him a quick glance that turned into a stare. He looked slightly older than
the other students, and oddly familiar. His blue eyes gazed back at her through
dark rimmed glasses. His jet black hair didn’t match his skin, and while it
wasn’t so unusual for a guy to dye his hair, it seemed off with this guy. He
wore a purple University of Washington sweatshirt that looked way too big for
him, no name jeans, and a pair of Ranger boots. Guys that died their hair black
typically dressed Goth, or Emo. This guy didn’t fit a stereo-type. In fact,
taking note of the wrinkles around his tired eyes, she wasn’t even sure he was
a student.

The
guy’s face turned white and his hand trembled. “We haven’t met,” he said in an
accent that Janey couldn’t place. “I would have remembered.”

Janey
nodded, smiling. “You probably just look like someone on TV.”

“Hey,”
one of the students leaned over, “what about me? Do you think I look like
someone on TV?” He batted his long eyelashes at Janey, grinning and reminding
her of a large Teddy Bear. But she couldn’t tell him that.

“Sure,”
Noah said, “you look just like a wesen from Grimm.”

“What?”
the student sputtered. “Well, you look like—”

The
insult was lost in the crowd’s roar.

“Interception!”
Noah yelled. He climbed onto his seat so he could see over the people standing
in front of him.

While
everyone else watched the Husky’s lineman carry the ball to the ten yard line,
Janey checked her phone.

The
guy in the black rimmed glasses chuckled again.

Janey
frowned at him.

He
leaned over and whispered in her ear. “You don’t really give a rip about the
Husky’s, do you?”

Janey
gave Noah a quick glance, before telling the non-student to hush.

“Don’t
worry, I won’t tell.”

Noah
perched on the edge of his seat. “We’ll get a touch down here, or at least a
field goal.”

“So,
who do you think I look like?” the nonstudent asked, leaning in so that his
shoulder nearly touched hers.

“I’m
sorry?” Janey sat back to see his face more clearly. She realized that if he
didn’t look so tired, he would be incredibly handsome.

“You
said I reminded you of someone. I want to know who.”

“Really?
You might not like my answer.”

“What
if I told you I think you look like a younger, prettier Nicole Kidman?”

“Do
you want me to reciprocate and tell you that I think you look like a young
George Clooney? Or be honest, and tell you that you look like Curious George?”

The
non-student seemed satisfied with this, and leaned back in his chair just as
everyone around them bounced to their feet. “I don’t look like Curious George.”

“Maybe
not, but you’re kind of acting like him.”

“Ouch,”
he said with a grin that let her know she hadn’t hurt his feelings.

“Touch
down!” Noah screamed. “I knew it! I knew Nolan could do it!”

Janey
clapped along with everyone else while Noah bellowed out the Husky fight song.
He knew all the words, while Janey had to read the jumbo-tron to keep up.

The
nonstudent kept his lips pressed together.

“You’re
not a Husky die-hard?” Janey asked when the song ended and they settled back
into their seats.

Noah
tugged on her hand. “Janey, do you think it’s time to get the dogs?”

“Um,
sure. Do you want to come with me, or stay here?”

“Stay
here!”

“Okay,
but if I leave you here, you have to promise me you won’t move.”

Noah
froze in place, and Janey laughed.

She
turned to the guy next her. “Can you keep your eye on him?” she whispered.

He
nodded. “Maybe you can read while you stand in line.”

#

“See,
aren’t you glad you didn’t wait?” Noah asked thirty minutes later when the half
time buzzer blew and thousands of people headed for the bathrooms and
concession stands.

“You were right. Again.”Janey nodded and bit into her hotdog.

“Besides,
you want to be here for the camera contests,” Noah told her.

“Camera
contests?”

“Heck
yeah!” He pointed at the jumbo-tron. “See, they’re doing the Rock It Out
contest now.” The camera flashed to a girl in the audience who pretended to
beat a set of drums with imaginary sticks. Her hair whipped around her head,
moving faster than her hands.

Noah
climbed on his seat and rocked out. Janey watched, silently praying he wouldn’t
fall onto the senior citizens or puncture himself with to the knitting needles.

Noah’s
hand froze mid-air. “Ah, gross.” He climbed off his chair and settled back into
his seat. “I hate this part.”

When
the camera focused on a couple, the guy grabbed the girl and bent her over
backwards in a Fred Astaire sweeping kiss. The second couple had more
reservations, and did little more than peck at each other. The crowd booed.

Janey
snuck her phone out of her pocket. She was reading about tax exemptions when Noah
nudged her. “You’re on the camera!”

Janey
dropped her phone back into her pocket, just as the Teddy Bear student grabbed
her and planted his beer-stained lips on hers. He grinned as he pulled away.

Janey
smiled politely and looked over his shoulder to watch the man in the black
rimmed glasses walk away with shaking hands.

Monday, December 8, 2014

I
can’t speak for everyone, only myself. And please know that I’m not a
therapist, or a scientist, or a doctor of any kind.

I’m
a writer.

Aside
from letters and this blog, I write fiction, which means I make stuff up and
write it down. But everything I write comes from somewhere—some dark and
shadowy parts of my mind.

Today
at my critique group, I read a few pages from my novella in progress, Love at
the Apple Cheek Inn, and it made me look into those aforementioned shadowy
corners of myself…something I don’t often do.

In
my story, after a near fatal car accident, Eric Roudel, a mega-rock star disappears into first
rehab and then, with a false identity, hides himself in the tiny town of Rose
Arbor where he meets and falls in love with Janey. (Janey is a minor character
in The Rhyme’s Library. You can read that book, but not Love at the Apple Cheek
Inn, because it’s not finished yet.) In this scene, Janey takes on the paparazzi.

Standing, she shoved her feet into a pair of wooly
slippers and threw a nubby sweater around her shoulders. Padding down the
stairs, she stopped by the cleaning closet and got out the fire-extinguisher.

Creeping down the hall, she headed for the back door.

Who’s the ninja now? she thought.

CHAPTER

The cold air took her breath away. The pale moonlight
had turned the yard and grounds to gray. The whole world slept, while Janey
hung out in the dark. Was she crazy? Had she seen someone? She walked out into
the middle of the lawn, letting the heavy dew soak her slippers. Slowly, she
turned and saw no one and nothing. Behind her, a twig snapped, and Janey
whirled—her extinguisher raised.

A rabbit darted out of the bushes. Feeling stupid,
Janey blew out a breath. She let her weapon dangle at her side and headed back
for her room.

Light flashed in her eyes, blinding her. Janey hoisted
the extinguisher, pointed and aimed. She still couldn’t see, but she could
shoot. White foam sprayed. Not really caring what or who she hit, Janey slowly
circled, sending the foam in all directions while cameras clicked and lights
flashed.

Victoria’s lips lifted in a kind, amused smile. “Why
don’t you come inside, dear. I’m thinking that by tomorrow, you’ll wish you had
taken the time to fix your hair…and changed your clothes.”

#

Eric slid away from the window and sat down on his
bed. She knows, he thought. But for how long? Had she known when they were at
the lake? No. And if she had known—why would she face the photographers dressed
in plaid boxers, an oversized T-shirt and elephant slippers?

Eric rubbed his hand over his stubbly chin. After a
moment of thought, he slipped on his jeans and headed for the attic.

He met Janey on the stairs. Her blonde hair stood up
in strange places, foam spattered her clothes, bare arms and legs, and mascara
smudges stained her eyes. He thought she was the most beautiful thing he had
ever seen.

“Thanks,” he said, leaning against the wall so she
could pass him.

“You’re welcome,” she replied.

“That’s it? No questions? Just you’re welcome?”

Janey sniffed. “No. That’s not it.” She thought for a
long moment, then added, “Call your mom.”

Eric burst out laughing.

She turned to him, concern puckering her brow. “It’s
not funny. Your mom has probably been dying inside with worry for the last six
months.”

“You don’t know my mom.” Eric’s voice sounded hard.

“But I know moms.” Janey paused. “Look—I hate my mom
and I’m sure the feeling is mutual—but if I was missing…well, she would want to
know where I was.”

Eric pulled away from the wall and stepped inches away
from her. “You are, I think, the bravest, stupidest person I know.”

“Thanks?”

He slowly shook his head. “You don’t even know.”

“Know what?”

“If not tomorrow, then soon, your picture is going to
be all over the news.”

She shrugged.

Eric lifted his lips into a slow grin. “Because you’re
with me.”

“I am?”

He nodded. “This is going to be way bigger than it
ever was before.”

Janey lifted her hand as if stopping traffic. “Okay,
let’s think about this. Right now, you need to disappear.”

“It’s too late.”

“No, it doesn’t have to be.”

“In a few hours, the press will be swarming.”

Janey lifted her shoulders. “Let them swarm. You can
stay in my room.”

Eric’s grin deepened and his eyebrows rose another
mili-inch.

“Not with me. I’ll stay in a different room.”

“I liked my idea better.”

Janey put her hand on his chest and pushed him away.
“Sorry, Romeo.”

Eric grabbed her wrist and pulled her against him.
“When did you know?”

“About twenty minutes ago.”

“You know there’s a reward.”

“I know.”

“You could have made a lot of money. I would have
forgiven you.”

“But I wouldn’t have forgiven myself.”

Eric lowered his lips so that they were inches above
hers. “Did you really want to kiss me when you thought I was just Eric?”

“I liked Eric.” Janey swallowed. “I’m not sure if I
like Derrick.”

“Why’s that?”

“I could see myself with Eric the music teacher.”
Janey blinked long and slow. “I don’t think I can be with Derrick the
rockstar.”

“That makes two of us.”

“Yeah?”

“Why do you think I’m hiding in Rose freaking Harbor?”

“We should go to bed,” Janey said.

When Eric lowered his head to kiss her, she placed her
hand on his forehead stopping him. “But not together. I might have let Eric
kiss me, but I just met Derrick.” She tapped his head with her finger. “Go hide
in my attic. We’ll deal tomorrow.”

Why
do I love this scene? Why do I love that Janey grabs a fire extinguisher and
goes on the attack? I think it’s because Janey demonstrated strength when Eric
needed someone to be strong.

And
I think that for me, falling in love was like that. When I was young, I needed
someone strong. The people who were supposed to be strong, the people who were
supposed to love me the most, fell down on the job (and one of them died.) I can look at the situation with a lot more compassion now than I could
then—but the gut-wrenchingly honest truth—I had a need and I found someone who
filled that need.

Maybe it wasn't the ideal basis for a marriage, but every day, I thank God that I married someone who would pick up a fire
extinguisher and go to battle for me, someone who gets up, puts on his shoes and goes to work to support our family, who puts on his tie and goes to church meetings when he'd rather be out boating, who is willing and able to have hard conversations with troubled children, someone who is strong when I'm weak--and gets that I'm weak, and loves me anyway.

Thursday, December 4, 2014

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But Celia and Jason must tread carefully, as what happens in the past can reverberate through the ages. Their lives, hearts and futures are caught in time’s slippery hands.

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Monday, December 1, 2014

As a kid, our family always spent Thanksgiving with a
collection of aunts, uncles and cousins. I grew up in the Pacific Northwest,
but my parents belonged to a large tribe of displaced Wyomingites. They congregated
for feasting on Thanksgiving Day—usually in my aunt’s basement. I remember the
basement being unfinished—cement floors, wood beams with exposed electrical
wires. We ate on paper covered long, folding tables borrowed from the church
and cold metal chairs. Once, I remember my mom saying that there was over 80
people there. To me, it seemed like a sea of people.

We stopped attending after my mom died. That first holiday,
my dad and I went and left after five minutes. By the next Thanksgiving, my dad
had married my stepmother Marie, and we celebrated with just my siblings and
new step-siblings.

When I went college, I didn’t come home for Thanksgiving,
Instead, I spent the long weekend my sister, her husband and children in Boise,
Idaho.

After I married, I spent the holiday with my husband’s
family. My mother-in-law always made a lovely meal, and typically, the four of
the Tate children who lived in Southern California would come to Lake Arrowhead.
Although, only 90 minutes from Orange, County, Lake Arrowhead is high in the
San Bernardino Mountains and often there would be snow.

When we lived in Connecticut, we took our children,
including baby Nathan, to the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day parade and had dinner in
a Korean restaurant in New York City.

Eventually, Grandpa Tate’s memory began to slip and living
in the mountains became increasingly difficult for my in-laws. They moved to
St. George, Utah about the time my children began attending school at Brigham
Young University. This worked out perfectly for us. For many years, we would
drive to north to St. George, and our children would drive south, and we’d meet
at Grandma’s. We would hike in Zion National Park in the morning, eat in the
afternoon, and play games all evening.

But Grandpa’s health declined, and my in-laws moved to Salt
Lake City to be closer to my husband’s sisters. My daughter married and she and
her husband moved to Las Vegas. So, my children attending BYU would drive south
to Bethany’s and Larry and I would drive north. We would hike in the morning at
Red Rock Canyon and eat in the afternoon and play games all evening.

This year, two of my daughters are on missions. Natalie is
in Houston waiting for her visa to Taiwan. Miranda is in Uruguay. My son,
Nathan and his wife and baby are in Peru. We had Bethany’s family, my oldest
son, and my youngest son and his wife for dinner. We made a turkey, ate a lot
of food, and played a lot of games. On Friday, we went shopping at IKEA and
bought a lot of stuffed animals. We hiked in the canyon and tried to teach the
dogs how to skateboard. Adam bought everything to make turkey pizzas and we
each created our own with peppers, pepperoni and pineapples. On Saturday, we
went to Oceanside and rented six people bikes and cruised up and down the
strand. After church on Sunday, we decorated the house with Christmas garb, and
cookies with frosting and sprinkles to deliver the elderly families who attend
our church.

My sister-in-law once said of the holidays, it’s not always
the same, but it can still be very nice. Sometimes, I miss the years in Lake
Arrowhead with my fun-loving in-laws. I miss my young children with a gentle
ache. But I find that my grandchildren have come to fill in all the empty
spaces. My husband once said that as time passes, we have more and more people
to love. I doubt that we’ll ever
recreate the Thanksgivings of my childhood with 80 people in an unfinished
basement, or that we’ll have a house in Lake Arrowhead like my in-laws. I don’t
see us going back to New York City. I don’t think my daughter will live in Las
Vegas for much longer. Eventually, my children will all graduate from BYU. I
hope they’ll each marry and have children of their own. In time, they will host
their own Thanksgivings, and Larry and I may, or may not, be their guests. The
challenge will be to make every holiday special in and of itself.