I...cannot count the times people I hardly know have referred to me as a "friend," or have written to me and signed their email "your friend," or done some such thing... I have come to believe that, second only to "love," friend is the most misused word in the world...

It is not my wish to offend or to hurt anyone who has, in the past, called himself my "friend," but merely to set them straight. There are a good many upstanding people...people whom I admire...who have called themselves "friends." Most of these are people who I enjoy spending time with and conversing with, but they are not friends. These people must learn to distinguish between "friendliness" and "friendship."

Haha..anyway I am not the type of person who has just one best friend...I would like to think that I have many best friends. There are a few people that I would spend time with after class and would go to the mall or the movies, and such. But on the other hand I have friends I would never spend time with after class, they are fine has school acquaintances, but nothing much more. Well, for those who don't know me..actually I am very shy at first, once I get to know the person...I am not shy at all. Now I do not think I am a hard person to get along with either. Sure I have my ups and downs, but everyone is not perfect.

I still think that I suffer from split personality in the most mild sense of it. There are times when I am extremely hyper that I irritate everyone including myself but there are also times when I just shut myself up...that people don't know what's going on in my head. I can be loud, sarcastic (many can testify to that..haha), moody,but above all, here is the cheesy part...I do actually love my life...my family and my friends... they make me happy :)

I'm no hero, you remember how I was, you know..all I ever did was worry, feeling out of controlto the point where everything was going end over end..I'm spinning around in circles again..this is where you come in..All of this to explain to you why I had to separate myself away from yesterday's life please remember this isn't how I hoped it would be..But I had to protect you from me..That's why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there..I know you felt unprepared..But every single time I was around I just bring you down..And I could tell that it was time to be scared..That's why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there..And I know the way I left wasn't fair..I didn't want to be around just to bring you down because I'm not a hero but don't think I didn't care.........................

Err..I have no idea how on earth this "diamond-girl's best friend" quotes suddenly popped up in my mind..anyway, the traditional way of getting your hand on a diamond used to be either mining or marriage!..haha..but modern science has brought us synthetic diamond, created in lab using multi-million ringgit technology..however there's a *myth that you can make your own precious diamond, all from the comfort of your own home..but how? well, you need metals like nickel, cobalt and iron, a few dunno-what chemicals and a initial seed-some small diamond (what? you need a little piece of diamond to start the diamond?? ) and a pressure cooker..wow..a home made diamond..haha..we know how this works..in the end we could be a millionaire! =D

Could somebody please make all the reality programme go away? I have enough reality in my life already. I don't need to see any more of it when I turn on my television..especially Akademi Fantasia ( freaking hate this so called reality show"!)

I'm not even sure why shows like this are called "reality." Alas, my reality does not usually include singing . My reality is far, far more exiting. If Astro really wanted to have a show that seemed realistic to me, it wouldn't be Akademi Fantasia, it would be Man Vs Wild. That is the reality out there..hey..c'mon lah..what is the point? do we need more singers?

hey..today (22 April 09) Earth Day kan..but sadly no one is celebrating it..maybe busy dengan exam kot..well, say if you don't know anything about Earth day..erm..ok..Earth Day ni, celebrated on April 22, is a day designed to inspire awareness and appreciation for the earth's environment. It was founded by U.S. Senator Gaylord Nelson in 1970 and is celebrated in many countries every year..and in Malaysia..it is still not that popular due to unknown reason i guess..haha..

" you have one apple and I have one apple..then we exchange our apple. In the end, both of us will only have one apple. Let say you have one knowledge and I have one knowledge..then, we exchange our knowledge..in the end you will have two knowledge and I will have two knowledge.."

1. Avoid stressful people.Stress actually is contagious. During exam week, resist the urge to have a study session with your super-tense friend, especially if she/he is complaining about all the work she/he has to do. His/Her stress will only add to your stress.

2. Eat healthy and exercise.Ha..It’s a wonder how many people forget this. Skip the sugar, which will make you crash, and go for snacks like healthy cereal or fruits to keep your blood sugar stable. If you’re studying for a long period of time, eat some protein too. Also, try to get some form of exercise. Even a 10 minute walk will leave you calmer and more focused.

3. Force yourself to take breaks.For every hour or so that you work, take a 10 or 15 minute break. Let yourself do whatever you want (check Facebook, check your blog (tngh buat sekarang..hehe), stare off into..whatever you want, call a friend, and etc. for those 10-15 mins, then start working again. Don't malas-malas okay?

4. If you’ve studied all you can, get up your confidence!When test-time rolls around, it’s time to get yourself into confidence mode. You’ve prepared as much as you could, and now it’s time to ace the test. The tip here is to do whatever works to convince yourself you are going to do really well. If you think you don't study that hard..then do what Hariz always do..which is...well..you know kan?haha

Funny how in real life, we don’t talk to family and friends about the Top Ten Reasons for Living or for Writing a Blog.

Funny how we don’t speak so scholarly or perfectly or as much filled with wisdom and insight like when we used to when posting our best articles on the web.

Funnier still how they always seem interested in what we’re going to say, even if it just be our perennial whines about the college or about a movie we have watched the night before.

Why do they yearn to hear us even though they’ve already heart about most of what we’re going to say?

Why do they continue to await our company?

Why do they keep on tuning in to our hearts?

Maybe the answer lies in that last part. We wanted to keep in touch not with the external things, but with the person deep inside. You see, that’s how love works, and when love works, you never get tired of it.

" Have you ever thought of an answer to reply to anyone, when they ask you, "What was the world like when you were a child? Some of the experiences may cause us to smile, or even laugh, while some of them may bring back bitter memories. It is always hard to express the childhood incidents or experience in a clear and interesting way, since they were past memories that happened long time ago..and, if you ask me about this picture, I can't really tell you what it is all about. Therefore, I'll let the picture speak for itself..but one thing for sure, budak kecil yang pakai coat biru tu akan cakap "I'm having a good time! yay!"..alahai..I miss my childhood very very much..anyway, sayalah budak tu :p"*This picture was taken at Newcastle, England around 92-94.

huhu..last night nampak circular halo..and it is very beautiful..my very first time nampak circular halo during night..well, what is halo? game? not really..A halo is an optical phenomenon that appears near or around the Sun or Moon. Circular halo usually caused by ice crystals in cold cirrus clouds located high in the upper troposphere. The particular shape and orientation of the crystals is responsible for the type of halo observed. Light is reflected and refracted by the ice crystals and may split up into colors because of dispersion, similarly to the rainbow. well..again..we can see..how wonderful our world is..and again..the world is just awesome.. subahanallah :)

It is so simple and so easy to get what we want that we have a hard time to believe it. We are programmed to do things the hard and difficult way, in order to get what we want. We can not believe that we can get anything without hard labour, sweat and tears, obstacles and misery.

This is nothing else but a tough old programmation, a conditioning from our childhood. If you are like me, you were bombarded as a child with expressions from adults about how hard life is and how we have to struggle to get something. We needed to avoid being bad or wrong, but disease could strike us anyway. Sometimes they even said : "It's again a good one who's punished, and the bad one take off easily like usual without paying anything!". We learned that life wasn't fair. We lived in fear and thought life was a valley of tears, fear, struggle, pain, disease and death.

How would it have been if they've told us the truth? The truth, nothing but the truth? That life is easy, wonderful. That miracles happen all the time and that we have the power to make them happen in our own life! That the universe loves us. That there is wealth and health for everyone. That we don't live in a universe of scarcity but of abundance. That we only have to put the right thoughts in our heads to make these dreams real for us.

If you would have known from the beginning that you were a creation of the Creator, that you will always remain, that you will always be around, that you were created for a reason, and when you find this reason you will be happy, what would your life look like now? If you were told that you had talents, unique qualities, that make you a special person, and that you are on earth with the mission to offer these talents to others, where would you be right now and what would you be doing now?

We are already wonderful! We are already loved! We are already rich! We are already free! We are already intelligent! We are already healthy!Why? Because we were all this before we started our life. It is the way we really are. It is the way we were created, we were born. This is the truth about ourselves. Everything else is "learned" afterwards.

And again, life is wonderful, because a positive thought is 10,000 times more powerful than a negative thought. So you don't have to take another 40 years to undo the negative conditioning in your head. One positive thought can counterbalance 10,000 negative ones.

Perhaps it is the most difficult question to answer..but think wisely and you will find the answer..look around you..the world is just awesome..and the way i see it, we definitely have at least one reason to live..and some people have countless reason to live..we are here because we are the messenger of god..we are here because we need to protect the earth..we are here because we have what animals don't have..not the brain, but "akal"..and therefore we must think and act the way a human should behave, because if we behave like animals..than we've lost our dignity, lost our soul..lost our pride as a human..what I'm trying to say here...for whatever reason we live today..we must take that reason and continue to do what we must do..and do it wisely..and one more thing, give a wise man instruction, then he would be yet wiser...

well..just wanna share my thought..to deal with a backstabbing friend..When you realize a friend has been talking bad, or what so freaking ever about you behind your back..what should you do? well..ignore him/her would be the best way to do or what i call "silent protest"..freaking hate this kind of people!