Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Oh, Father, why do I forget? Why do I lose sight of the depth of Your goodness? Why do I let the shadows cloud Your goodness? Oh, for eyes to see this clearly everyday. For eyes to really see Your goodness. Your gifts everyday, not just after a period of darkness.

Hmmm, maybe it is the darkness that helps me see more clearly? Maybe those days where shadows over take; darkness seems to hide You, only set the stage for the days when I am over taken by your beauty. Maybe if it weren’t for the darkness that light wouldn’t be so bright. I am not sure.

All I know is that I love You. I long to have that heart that whispers thanks and peace and inner joy even when the shadows come. But for now, today, I will revel and dance in the light.

Everywhere I turn I see You. I see You in the little boy who digs holes in the yard and yells ‘mama, mama’ every time a tractor comes down the road.

I see You in the little girl who tries so hard to give up her pouty ways.

I see You in the boys who have become men, who love and serve and are adults who are just as cool doing manly things and sporting suits and ties as they are playing capture the flag or doing the Virginia Reel in the front yard.

I see You in the eyes of each of these children, I feel You in the arms of my husband. I see You in blue skies and green everywhere and the lilacs that were spared in the frost.

I hear You in the birds singing in the morning and the evening.

I hear You in laughter of children at play out back and in the tears of women whose hearts have been shattered. I see You!!

Thursday, April 5, 2012

This short video is so beautiful and awesome. Please take a moment to watch it. I promise you will be so blessed. The song that plays in the background is one of my favorites. Shortly after God healed me nearly two years ago, we sang this song over and over every day as we basked in His goodness and His love for us.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Twenty years ago, today, you, my sweet Joshua was born. What a blessing you are. Such a tender heart. Incredibly gifted and talented. Josh, you are a perfect combination of a manly man and yet a tender gentle man.

You are so strong and capable of so many things, yet incredibly tender and compassionate. You love deep and are fiercely protective, especially of me, your mama.

I am so proud of the man you have become. I see you struggle with waiting and trusting God, but you persevere. I understand the desires you have for your future, and while I would love to ‘make it all better’ and just give you your heart’s desire, I see your Father working something infinitely better than I could ever offer.

You are extremely accomplished in the arena of music. You have a passion for it written deep in your heart. I look forward to seeing the full purpose of such passion.

I will FOREVER be thankful for your hugs. I am not sure if you need them or if you know I do. They always calm me and center me. You have even learned the fine art of walking away, if a hug is the last thing I want to receive. Funny, though, your instincts are right, in times like that a hug is exactly what I need. I just don’t know it.

You are going to be an awesome husband and father one day, I know it. Your wife will be so blessed. You know, they say a man treats his wife like he treated his mama? See what I am saying, she is going to be blessed. The tenderness and care that you show me melts my heart and will her heart too.

About Me

I am a wife to Brian and Mama to fifteen children, nine here on earth, and six in heaven. I am also 'Mimi' (Grandma) to three. I am passionate about Jesus Christ and His Word. From this passion flows my desire to be obedient to God and to know and fulfill His purpose for me as a woman. (See Titus 2:3-5) On this journey, my hope is to encourage my daughters and other women in the areas of: marriage, parenting, devotions, home education, nourishing foods, frugality, physical fitness and simple living.