Re: [IPk] Good News Or Not?

Hi Dave
You're right as I have mentioned depression quite alot on this site.
Sometimes I feel guilty for sharing it with the pumping group but once I've
written I feel better as the replies are various, supportive and basically
make it more bearable when very down. I hope the group don't mind me saying
to use us in these times. Yes it's good to get it off you're chest but what
I find more helpful is the acknowledgement from other "diabetics" who do
understand and experience the same or similar feelings. For me having a
chronic illness at times is unbearable, watching the complications mount up
over the years and the constant struggle trying to control my blood
sugars..without
cess:(
One book I read summed it up. It was by Joan Williams Hoover: "And even the constant need for decisions might be tolerable, if only the results were predictable. Few things generate burnout like the awful frustrations of having followed instructions and done everything just right and still be failing to get the diabetes into control. At those times it seems no use to continue to try. Think how discouraging it is to fail at something you really want to do. Then consider what it must feel like to have diabetes and be failing at something you never, ever, wanted to do in the first place." (sorry it was abit long folks!)
I guess what I'm trying to say is the depression may still remain but I find it helpful to know other people are and have experienced these feelings...that no matter how you feel you are not alone.
I don't know about the research currently happening around diabetes and depression but I don't see how you cannot relate having a chronic illness with depression. As to which came first I'm not sure I'll ever know but as my moods are affected by low bloods and high bloods, as complications can affect every part of your body to some degree why should we question that it can cause depression as well?
I hope you feel brighter soon Dave but if not there are people here who can listen and chat with you (and me)
Hilly
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- Original Message -----
From: "Dave Sayer" <email @ redacted>
To: <email @ redacted>
Sent: Sunday, January 27, 2002 11:31 PM
Subject: [IPk] Good News Or Not?
> Hello Everyone,
>
> I had two hospital appointments this week, first my eyes, my
retinopathy
> is still fairly stable, this is the second year in a row, needless to say
> second year on the pump.
> Also my HbA1c was 8.4 not exactly low but identical to last years,
and
> the two years on the pump its remained 7.4 to 8.4 so i'm fairly pleased, I
saw
> a different doc not my consultant but he had obviously read my notes
before
> hand. He said before we start i can't really help you much as you know so
much
> but was fascinated about how much info I get from this group, he was
extremly
> helpful in listening and offering advice where he could, at the end of the
day
> i came away feeling quite pleased.
> I did point out that my weight had gone up to 13 stone which I'm not
> happy about as i do really watch what I eat so I planning on trying to
lose
> some weight.although most people say I don't look fat as i am fairly
stocky
> but obviously it concerns me because it can lead to complications.
> The real problem i have is my depression I have severe problems with
it
> and i feel that if I didn't get depressed I would probably have
signifficant
> better control, I am on antidepressants and have been on and off since i
was
> 14 and I get weekly group and monthly one2one counselling, its been about
18
> months the bout I'm having some days I can hardly function, which isn't
easy
> with a family which then makes me feel worse. I did explain this to the
doctor
> and he said that often diabetics do suffer from depression.
> I wonder are there others in the group who suffer as well, I know
Hillie
> did mention it, is it just me or have most of us gone or are going through
> this , I wonder has anyone heard of links relating to the two of these.
> Sorry to be a miserable git be I felt like asking.
>
> Dave :-(
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