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Wednesday, January 26, 2011

It wasn't suppose to happen like this

"It wasn't suppose to happen like this."

Those words keep ringing in my ears.

As I was driving home from work today I returned a call I missed from a friend. She didn't leave a message and we don't talk often via phone even though we live across the country from each other. I knew if she called it must be important.

What I didn't know was that when she answered she would be sobbing so hard she could barely speak. That I would literally feel her broken heart as she told me that her husband of just 2 1/2 years died this morning. His heart stopped working and he passed out while feeding their dogs. The paramedics could not revive him.

Her husband died.

"It wasn't suppose to happen like this."

That's what she told me. She moved from Minnesota to Nevada to Texas because of him. She stood by his side when he was diagnosed with colon cancer in the fall of '09.

She helped him fight his battle. She changed their eating habits. Cooked organic food. Changed their cleaning products. Made drastic lifestyle changes to help him have the best possible chance of beating cancer.

And today his heart stopped.

He didn't die from cancer. He just died. She didn't get to say goodbye. She didn't get to say I love you.

"It wasn't suppose to happen like this."

No Su, it wasn't. And today my heart breaks as well. The tears fall endlessly from my eyes. My arms ache to give you a hug and tell you that you were an amazing wife for 2 1/2 years. You loved him so well. And I am so very very sorry.

My heart is with you. I am very sad. This is twice in the past two months a young husband has died and it makes me realize how much I love, need and want my husband. Praying for your friend Su, and all of his family and friends.

In Its Time

I am a wife, a mother and a saved-by-grace writer who is learning to rest in the truth that He makes everything beautiful in its time. I write about the One whose timing and ways and plans I do not understand, but who gives joy in the midst of waiting and brings beauty out of ashes.