Disfigured ears.

Sections of my ears are filled with cauliflower. This isn't from fight, but from rubbing.
When I was little, my favorite things to do were to play with my ears and suck my thumb.
When I got older I still played with my ears. Constantly. The number of bumps increased from one to two in High School.

In College I ruined my only good ear. Now it looks like a curly, disfigured, protruding, mismatched abomination.

The truth is that every time I try to stop, I continue to do it subconciously. Sometimes they burn and the only way to make it stop is by rubbing them.

The doctors never drained them when I needed them too, and they are now permanent. By the time I was in college I knew what was wrong with my ear. I went to the doctor's immediately and he said they looked normal, but after a month the small bumps grew into huge permanent scars.

It will take $3000 to fix my ears.

I feel ugly and grotesque. It just eats away at my self-esteem all day.

I'm sorry to hear you feel this way, and that the doctors didn't see how to fix this before it became permanent. If there isn't a way for you to get the money right away, maybe you can start putting aside like you're spare change? You could put all that in a jar and save up...?
Hope you find a solution...and keep looking on the bright side. I'm sure there are good things about you. Keep posting here if it helps.

I know that saving up that much money will take a while, but one thing I found that helped was, every time I came through the door, I threw all of the change I had into a jar. It builds up so quickly. It is just a thought to try and help you.

People who judge who just because your ears look different are idiots who do not deserve you. I get where you are coming from with how you feel. I have scars that get pointed at and it makes you feel hellish. :hug:

It will take $3000 to fix my ears. I feel ugly and grotesque. It just eats away at my self-esteem all day.

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This is a real shame, I am assuming you live in the USA. My brother in law had this operation 2 years ago and it was available on the NHS, hence it was free. He did have to wait 6 months for it from initially visiting his GP. He did get a price for it to be done privately and it was £1000 through a BUPA hosptial.

Doctors never dry them when I need them too, and they now know that up permanent.I that will take a while are saving more money, but one thing I was helped every time I Doors found came through, I throw all of Dihapriverton I was in a jar.

Doctors never dry them when I need them too, and they now know that up permanent.I that will take a while are saving more money, but one thing I was helped every time I Doors found came through, I throw all of Dihapriverton I was in a jar.

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Do you speak another language natively? I'm having trouble understanding your post.