Tuesday, December 20, 2016

Speech: IMPOSSIBLE!!

“Today has been
a difficult day.” That is the single sentence I wanted desperately to say in
the video above. I made it at noon and I’ve had medication today — the old
one. I’ve not been
able to speak at all today. It’s hard for you who can speak to imagine being unable
to speak, but I just cannot do it. It's the most intense frustration you can imagine.

I went to see
Dr. Shoja knowing she would help me and she did. She is terribly accommodating
when I have a major episode. I used sign language and showed her stuff I'd pre-written to communicate. New medication will help me and a new medicinal strategy
is now in place for days when severe symptoms suddenly and inexplicably
overtake me.

Our working
theory is: The Cirque woman has
caused this lingering anxiety episode.

Chris and Frani
are coming to spend the night. I hope I am able to speak with them; I’ve taken medication
in hopes of doing decently. They are true friends so it may go okay. After
dinner, I think I’ll propose that we watch a movie on Netflix.