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"thangs" have been weird lately but good.i have been having some hard times and some good awesome times.dealing with myobsessivecompulsivedisorder, trying to figure out what my shrink says about drugs, trying to be productive with the things i love, staying happy, it is all crazy but good a lot of times.its like i got this great way of looking at things and this unity with the universe but i am also kind of fucked up which allows me to do that, but its also debilitating and stops me from using all my love and ideas.life man.trying to figure out who i am and trying to deal with my ocd.trying to love and be happy.life.man.

intrusive thoughts are overwhelming. paralyzing. makes me anti-social and compulsive to the point of making it hard for me to get things done.guilt.anxiety.i still love life and feel good a lot. but i really need to work on the ocd- it is healing i hope.

You are taking xanax and adderall? Uppers and downers that sure seems like it would help your "disorder".............................................

Or how about you take some damn control of your mental state? Or is that too much for you to handle? I know life can throw shit at you but damn come on dude it's in your mind. I could be like "yea i used H all day everday cause if i didnt i would freak out so I must have OCD or some retarded doctor prognosis" because we all know how doctors like to categorize everything. Most "disorders" of your sort stem from being socially retarded in some way or another. IMO

Quote:Tangerines said:You are taking xanax and adderall? Uppers and downers that sure seems like it would help your "disorder".............................................

Or how about you take some damn control of your mental state? Or is that too much for you to handle? I know life can throw shit at you but damn come on dude it's in your mind. I could be like "yea i used H all day everday cause if i didnt i would freak out so I must have OCD or some retarded doctor prognosis" because we all know how doctors like to categorize everything. Most "disorders" of your sort stem from being socially retarded in some way or another. IMO

feeling better nowjust a healing process i guess and i am healin right nowgettin over the attackhad anothernow i am really gettin over iti can't let it discourage mei am and will stay that waythings are getting, and will get, better!i really should take a good dose of mushroomsi mentioned it to my therapist, who i think might have tripped before, and he said not tohe said that i am going through hard stuff right now and a trip is a solo jounrery and it may be darker and scarier than i think. i disagree with him but since i trust him and he is a cool guy it kind of gives me some bad vibes. i think what might make it a bad expereience is him saying it might be a bad expreieince.he says that we should focus on my ocd in session instead of me and a mushroom trip but i say why can't the two both exist and have a symbiosis? i think it may be a beuatiufl thing