Keeping My Sanity 8no more engagement. never thought it would be this short. my own fault. i tried the worst, falling for an old and worn line. and i thought i knew better. tsk tsk.
so sue me. this lonely heart does need blood to pump away. well i guess i have that now. pacing is the key and always always be in the same page. lol. what do i know? dont listen to me, im delirious.
it hurts when something good ends, even if it was all promises, masks and stupid stupid lies. its harder to open up again and be vulnerable. when one shows more distress and/or smugness after its all crap. they want it all back.
not me. not that relationship, it will unhinge my already addled mind. im not as cocky as not to realize that im making a terrible mistake. and losing a friend/s in the process is all but unfair. i cant give all that up for him. even how much i love him.
i marry, i tried, i prevail, i decide...
a life fit for a queen? i dont need that all i need is the contentment when i see his smile, whe

Drinking AloneAlright so I tried calling my friends and one is at work and the rest won't answer. So I'm stuck drinking alone in my own house on CT, damn I feel like an anti-social alchi, it's fucking saturday I'm 21 and I am by my lonesome, damn I wish I had something to do.

The Next Chapter“Yes I know you do” you reply as you look deeply into my eyes, “I know you want to please me.”
“I do, I only want to please you Mark, whatever it takes I want you to be happy” I say as I look longingly at you. “What do you want now Master?”
“I want you to lie here beside me for a minute and just listen to my heart, get to know what it sounds like . . . Get to know me”
“Yes Master” I lay my head down on your chest and listen to your breathing, it’s still a little fast and shallow but beginning to slow. Your heart is very rhythmic and soothing to hear, it puts me in a trancelike state.
“What is it Jess?” you ask me after a few minutes. I just sigh and answer that it soothes me to hear such a sound. I tell you that I am almost asleep just listening to your breath and heart, that I am very relaxed with you.
“As well you should be, that is what love is, complete comfort. I want you to know what love really is, what it feels like to have someone love you.”
I almost tear u

Iam Your CanvasThis is a dream I have....a dream of love. I thought I would share it with you all. Never let go of your dreams...no matter how distant they seem.....for they will come true.
I AM YOUR CANVAS
The moonlight streams in through the frosted bedroom window….illuminating the sheets of Thai Silk & throwing frosty shadows onto the canopy of our four-poster bed……outside the snow falls silently to Earth…inside, our sanctuary is aglow with flickering flames from the open fireplace & the naked flames reaching for the moon, from the candles lit on our altar. The only sounds…..the crackling fire I built to warm my lover & the faint, haunting cry of a Loon on the lake outside…..the gorgeous howl of an alpha wolf in the forest that surrounds our house.
Serenity.
I place another log on the fire & we watch the cinders fly, escaping into the cold & perfect night above. I turn & see my Goddess, the most beautiful woman I have ever known. She sits on our bed, ravishing….the delicate text

My Sonmy son is feeling better, temp is gone, and now maybe i can relax lol
ty to those who showed concern, you are great

ThoughtsThe light in her life dwindled away so quickly she began to wonder if it had only been a dream. When the shadows crept in, it was a bitter ominous darkness that shrouded her soul. But she embraced it as a prisoner embraces his cell, because it is easier to sit in the dark than it is to walk to the light.

PoetryThe sound of her own voice startled her.
In the room that was empty,
Alone for the first time.
For so long she had been intertwined,
Encompassed in another,
She found that she was a stranger
To her own self.
The echoes of her words
Resonated from within,
Like the soft chime of a bell.
Gently stirring her consciousness
To awareness
Of her thoughts
Her dreams
Her spirit
In the room that was empty,
Alone for the first time,
She began to speak again.

Letter To Newfie Son...Don't get all offended people i didn't write it just put it up to share.
Dearest Son,
I'm writing this slow because I know you can't read fast.
We don't live where we did when you left home. Your dad read in the
newspaper that most accidents happen within 20 miles of your home,
so we moved. I won't be able to send you the address because the last Gander
family that lived here took the house numbers when they
moved so they wouldn't have to change their address.
This place is really nice. It even has a washing machine. I'm not sure about
it though. I put a load of clothes in and pulled the chain. We haven't seen
them since.
The weather isn't bad here. It only rained twice last week; the first time
for three days and the second time for four days.
Auntie Maude has sent you a pair of socks she knit, she put a third one in
because she heard you have grown another foot since she last saw you.
About that coat you wanted me to send; your Uncle Billy said it would b

2 Old LadiesTwo old ladies were chatting one day. They were talking about this and that and the subject finally got around to sex. The first old lady said she enjoyed sex all the time, and just as much as ever. The second old lady was surprised and asked her what her secret was. The first old lady said when she hears her husband pulling the car into the garage she hurries and takes a shower, jumps into bed and throws her feet up over her head. When her husband comes into the bedroom he gets turned on and has his way with her.
The second old lady decides to try this approach so that night when she heard her husband coming home, she takes a quick shower, jumps into bed and throws her feet up over her head. her husband comes into the bedroom takes one look and says, “For God's sake Maude, comb your hair and put your teeth in.”

StashA couple of people have complained to me about me putting stuff in the ol' Stash. Honestly you can just remove me if you feel the need to complain about it. The stash serves a few purposes:
#1- It lets me watch the videos for songs that I've never seen before because I grew up without MTV for the most part.
#2- When someone asks what music I like, I can direct them to the stash... most of the good stuff is in there.
#3- Its a way to share the music I like, some of which you don't hear very often anymore. Most of the time when I drop stuff in there, I get a comment like, "Wow, I forgot how much I like this song... I'll have to download it."
So stop whining or delete me. The rest of you, we're cool and rock on.

Amazing!Ok so, just when u think that you are done with men...one comes into your life and blows you away! I was starting to think that I wouldn't find someone that meant something to me, someone to miss and someone to think about. I really didn't want to be with anyone and this certain somebody has changed my outlook! The time that I've spent with him has been AMAZING! This man has a great personality, intelligent mind and the best looks to go along with it! I never thought that I could possibly feel this way about someone so quickly, its amazing! I feel like my heart melts when he looks at me and I can't stop thinking about him no matter what I do! The reason that I had to explain all this is because I took a chance and went with it and it worked out and I think that its great that it did. I want to let people know that no matter how crappy your feeling about not having those great feelings about someone, sure enough someone comes into your life and changes that! I'm glad that this

Robisue Needs You!!!BEING THE WONDERFUL SIS I AM...LOL...I ENTERED ROBISUE IN A GIFT GIVEAWAY....NO TIME LIMIT...PLZZZ STOP BY AND HELP IF YOU CAN....SHE REALLY WANTS A MANSION...SHE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR EVERYONE SO LET'S GET THIS FOR HER...THANKS TO ALL WHO HELP
becbec

333-444-11:11-222I was looking around for other people that I might be able to help out with the number sequences.
(333, 444, 1111, 222, 555)
Mines always differant depending on what the Angels are trying to tell me.
Your spirit has woken up inside of you.
Ive been seeing these for over a year.
At first I thought of it as a coincidence,
or that I was going crazy.
But after reading alot of books of people going through the same thing,
and talking to people.
I figured out some stuff.
(333)= Father-Son-Holy Ghost
Is Sending me a message
(444)=Father-Son-Holy Ghost-Mary Magdelene
Is Sending me a message
(222) I found out is a sign of
"The Cathers" Reunilting.
Heres some books I read that will help explain alot.
"The Messengers" By: Julie Ingram
"Healing with the Angels" By: Doreen Virtue
http://www.angeltherapy.com/
"The Magdalene Awakening" By: L. Shannon Andersen
http://www.themagdaleneawakening.com/
"Angel Numbers" By Doreen Virtue
The Angel Numbe

Native American Indian Traditional Code Of EthicsAN OLDIE BUT A GOODIE
GOOD WISDOM WE ALL NEED TO LIVE BY, REMEMBER AND HONOR.
BLESSINGS…
This was originally in the "Inter-Tribal Times" in October of 1994.
NATIVE AMERICAN INDIAN TRADITIONAL CODE OF ETHICS
1. Each morning upon rising, and each evening before sleeping, give thanks for the life within you and for all life, for the good things the Creator has given you and for the opportunity to grow a little more each day. Consider your thoughts and actions of the past day and seek for the courage and strength to be a better person. Seek for the things that will benefit others (everyone).
Respect: Respect means "To feel or show honor or esteem for someone or something; to consider the well being of, or to treat someone or something with deference or courtesy". Showing respect is a basic law of life.
a. Treat every person from the tiniest child to the oldest elder with respect at all times.
b. Special respect should be given to Elders, Parents, Teachers, and Community

Punch Me In The Face!I wish I could be punched in the face. Then maybe the pain in my heart would go away! I really liked a guy. Liked him in a way I haven't liked anyone in a long time.... He's gone for the summer. He slept with another girl, I kissed another boy. And somehow I feel like he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore....
What can I do to make this better? How can you convince someone you want to be with only them when you drunkenly made out with some guy. And then felt the need to purge the sin... AHHHHH
Can someone Just shoot me so I don't have to worry about feeling hurt?

Lack Of MeMy sweet friends I want to thank you guys for the comments and love. Thank you lots!
There will be a greater lack of me here because I will be packing, moving and cleaning this month.
Just know I will return and I really appriciate the love you've given me. (even with my bad spelling I still adore you!)
xooxoxox,
Glory

Canadian Pizza Girl RantSo after about 2 years of being a pizza delivery girl, I’m fed up!
1. First off, lets put in a simple fact: Pizza delivery is considered a hazardous job by the US government. They are third most likely to be murdered on the job, right after police officers and taxi drivers. Myself being a 22 year old female, that risk is approximately 5 times greater. Although I’m not in the US, Canada has plenty of latent axe-wielding maniacs, disgruntled computer geeks that haven’t stepped out of their house in months, crazy cat ladies, pig men, and other potentially dangerous creatures. That brings me to my next point…
2. If I drive 10 km out of town to your trailer park, and you open the door in a sleeveless plaid shirt, and then ask me to come in, don’t get offended if I don’t. Don’t get offended if I take off running either. You might be a decent guy, but I’ve seen enough cliché axe murderer movies to know better.
3. Chances are, though, if you’re the creep in the plaid shirt living i

..... If You Do Nto Wanna Hear Me Bitch Do Not Read It That SimpleThis is how I feel...Proclein BY red hot chili peppers
Porcelain
Are you wasting away in your skin
Are you missing the love of your kin
Drifting and floating and fading away
Porcelain
Do you smell like a girl when you smile
Can you bear not to share with your child
Drifting and floating and fading away v
Little lune
All day
Little lune
Porcelain
Do you carry the moon in your womb
Someone said that youre fading too soon
Drifting and floating and fading away
Porcelain
Are you wasting away in your skin
Are you missing the love of your kin
Nodding and melting and fading away
Little lune
All day
Little lune...
I know you all are tired of my issues but then again no one forces you to read this shit. It is not like I am strapping you down to a chair and making you read line after line although I am sure some of you might enjoy that...hahaha. Plus rason I was thinking about things. I feel like I am loosing a lot of people in my life. Even people I am close

Realize It Before Its Too LateSunday, July 1, 2007
realize it before its too late
life is not as easy as it appears on the scene, life passes through a mode so called childhood though it is considered the best span of life but have its own hardness while life trying to pick the pace.
lot of children's face different kind of abuses on the chapter of life being week to face the tough mode of life. maturity has its own if & buts but here freedom to live & enjoy helps a lot- body structure supports life in general.
than it comes the age of agony. older age- again the body [ carrier which carry the life starts reflecting troubles] weakness surrounds the life- sickness strike again & again, lot of pains with their own profile, than above all its an attack on the self respect by the age itself which pains in a module which cant be explained in words.
there had been a prince named Siddhartha once go through the life on these three modes with strike hard at the the old age-week body due to the age factor whi

Excuses Vs ReasonsWriters block
Is a misnomer
There is always
Something to say
Lovely can be lonely
If the letters
Get in the way
If you sign a check
You have written
It is not that big
A deal
The only thing
That is difficult
Is writing what
You feel
Everyone is a writer
Not doing it
Does not mean you’re blocked
Sometimes instead of
Scribbling
You just get it out
When you talk

So HappyI cried tears of pain and noone will ever hear me.
they will never see me.
they will never smell my fear.
my fear was that i will live alone and struggle to find myself a home.
a home in which i can play and cook.
except i see a woman.
a woman which makes me cry these tears now of joy.
ALONE, no I´m home!
finally I´m full circle
loved and treasured I feel whole

HuckleberryThis is just to explain the status that I have sometimes. Its from the movie Tombstone and its said by Doc Holiday "I'm your huckleberry..." It means "I'm ready for anything you got".

Smokin' Aces MovieHas anyone else seen this movie...
I just did and all i can say is WOW..talking about i wasnt expecting that as an ending..
all the characters where crazy in there own way...Alicia Keys as a contract killer she did a great job...
the hilter crazed brothers scared the crap out of me...LOL
If u havent seen this one..if u like pulp fiction, kill bill 1&2, the departed or any other action filled bloody movie..then you gotta watch this one...

Mother...Mother, do you think theyll drop the bomb?
Mother, do you think theyll like this song?
Mother, do you think theyll try to break my balls?
Ooooowaa mother, should I build a wall?
Mother, should I run for president?
Mother, should I trust the government?
Mother, will they put me in the firing line?
Ooooowaa is it just a waste of time?
Hush, my baby. baby, dont you cry.
Mommas gonna make all of your nightmares come true.
Mommas gonna put all of her fears into you.
Mommas gonna keep you right here under her wing.
She wont let you fly, but she might let you sing.
Mommas gonna keep baby cozy and warm.
Oooo babe.
Oooo babe.
Ooo babe, of course mommas gonna help build a wall.
Mother, do you think shes good enough,
For me?
Mother, do you think shes dangerous,
To me?
Mother will she tear your little boy apart?
Ooooowaa mother, will she break my heart?
Hush, my baby. baby, dont you cry.
Mommas gonna check out all your girlfriends for you.
Momma wont le

Deleting My ProfileThis divorce crap is starting to get ugly, and I don't want to give him anything to use against me. For now, I will only have generic pics, etc here, and may possibly delete everything. Just so you all know, for the day when I am no longer here, or in case you wonder what happened to all of my content.

Ms TestingI went to the doctor today to find out if I have MS (Multiple Sclerosis). The neurologists does'nt think that it is..thank God...however in 2002 I was in the hospital with meningitis and the reports from that stay show a B-12 deficiency ( 148 count....normal over 500 count.) So I am being tested for the deficiency again. Hopefully this is where my problems lie. I want to thank all my friends and family and fans for their support and thoughts and prayers.....This is definitly good news..I would much rather have to stick myself with a needle the rest of my life than to have to deal with MS....Thank you all and I will keep you posted on the final outcome.

Hi Thaksi just wanna say thank you guys for doing what uve done especially dark witch much love to you and the others that helped me rank up and not giving me problems in the mumm thank you
so mote it be

Shoutbox JackassesI get so fucking irritated when assholes like these pop up. Read from the bottom up. He hasn't responded to my latest shout, so I'm assuming I hurt his ego.
->Knockout05: i doubt it. see, i have standards.....and you dont meet them. besides, i have this set of personal rules.....they're called morals. it means i dont cheat on my man
Knockout05: yup i did and in case u didnt know im in oklahoma and if u came i would have sex wit u and it would be much better then ur husbands
->Knockout05: i didnt say you said anything about sex. i just think me having sex with my husband would be more productive then hanging out with you. besides, you're in north carolina. in case you didnt notice, im in oklahoma
Knockout05: i didnt say nothing bout sex but think
->Knockout05: did you hear that? its a loud resounding NO. i dont want to hang out with you, id rather have sex with my husnand
Knockout05: haha 4 real u should come chill wit me
->Knockout05: ummm.....ok i suppose
Knockout05: u s

So Boredwow u ever get so bored u list every last movie u own on paper lol well that is what i did tonight only took me about 2 hrs lol

Driving Lesson No [insert Numerical Of Choice Here]WOW!!!! What a lesson...
It absolutely siled it down!! The windscreen wipers couldn't clear the screen fast enough....There were rivers running down the sides of the windscreen, and me staring through a torrent of rain!
The roads were flooded and I handled it like I'd been driving in adverse weather for years!
If that had been my test, my driving instructor said I'd have passed it.
Lets hope it siles it down on my test then LOL Damn it makes you really concentrate when you can't see 3 ft infront of your face! I can drive like that LOL It's when it's easy I make stupid errors!
Bring me tough challenges...I can handle it LOL
Awww and I got home, and there were a dozen Red Roses off Hubby waiting for me *smoochies*

Welcome 2 The Boom Boom Roomhttp://www.cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=7331
hello my cherries i am about to get the party train up and running this time. i asked that you would sign in on the blog that has the dj quad video every Thursday. i will have a place for us all to come and chat chill and enjoy each other you need to have a drink to enjoy the lounge and get on the train. i was asked where does the train go well since we are on cherry tap i thought that it would be a good idea for her to take you to Cherry land for grown ups. lol this is a drama free lounge and all cores are welcome to come.---the lounge opens @ 7pm every thursday nite and we party until-------------hope to see you there

Leveling UpHey there all my cherries! I am not far from leveling up, but I need your help. I am a little over 3,300 points away from my next level, so it would be awesome if you guys could help me out by commenting and rating my newest pics or any pics that haven't been rated yet. I have a new album of a photo shoot that me and my girlfriend took. Feel free to comment and rate those as well.

Happy Independance Day To AllHAPPY 4TH TO ALL, HOPE YOU ALL ARE HAVING A BLAST. I WENT OUT SIDE MY DOOR AND WATCHED A FEW BUT CAME IN AFTER A BIT, THE BUGS LIKE TO EAT ON ME SO I DECIDED I DIDNT WISH TO DIG AND SCRATCH ALL NIGHT FROM BITES. I DIDNT HAVE ANYTHING TO CHASE THEM AWAY, THEY FOR SOME REASON LOVE TO ATTATCH THEMSELVES TO ME LIKE A LEECH.
ANY WAYS EBOUGH OF THAT, I AM GOING TO GO FOR A BIT, GOING TO RATE THESE PPL. I LOVE ALL OF YOU EVEN IF YOU DISLIKE ME. TAKE CARE AND BE SAFE .
YOUR FRIEND LISA AKA TEQUILA SUNRISE OR SEXUAL CONTENTS, HEHE

“the Truth Of Who I Am” By Jöseph Lee Foster-shumpert-lear, 1996“The Truth of Who I Am” by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 1996
Published 12 April 2004 :: Poetry
Read more by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear
I see the rain falling
As I stand here within my doorway
Clad in mine armour
Of tears left uncried
Of sorrows I’ve never put to bed
But allowed life within me
Allowed life
Which destroys my soul
Look into my heart
What do you see
Is it the man
I was
Or the man
I will be
Upon a cloud of night
Mine eyes once saw
The beauty and wondour
Which the stars held
And I desired
But What of those nights now
When all there is
Are the clouds which darken my day
Making them as mine nights endless
Where is my love
And all that I longed for from you
Like sands upon the wind
I wither away
Until all that you see is my hurt and mine pain
Asking yourselves
If there ever was much of a man here upon
To love and receive it in return
Asking yourselves
Who is he
Where was he then
And What is this cloak
To which I find his hear

“sleeping Beauty” By Jöseph Lee Foster-shumpert-lear, 1997“Sleeping Beauty” by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear, 1997
Published 2 July 2005 :: Poetry
Read more by Jöseph Lee Foster-Shumpert-Lear
Clouds gather
Darkening a sunless sky
Birds flutter
Joining the harmonious pursuit
For he who would capture her heart
Setting her free
From the crystal
Which held her
For an eternity of loneliness and sorrow
A rose in hand
A man will travel
To the place
Where animals crawl
To the place
Where no man will traverse
Thunder sounds
Scaring up the wind
Causing me to shutter
And my rose to fall
Tears of pain and sorrow fall
As I hold her in my hand
Removed her from her captivity
I have
But opened her heart
I have not
Am I the one
She could truly love
Or just an image
Of happiness to come
Am I her gift
The prize for her eternity of slumber
Or just the beginning
Of the end
Upon her crystal bed I place her
Giving care to her every detail
As my hand I slide
Up her skirts
Releasing her center
From its clothed domain
Next

July 5, 2007Some excitement is coming your way, so savor this sweet, slow day. It's a great time to recoup your energy, enjoy the company of loved ones or get outdoors. Later, you'll be glad you took this respite.

Somehow, Somewhere, Someway (more For A Guy Friend Of Mine)Artist: Kenny Wayne Shepherd
Album: Trouble Is
Title: Somehow, Somewhere, Someway
Now girl, i see you in my dreams
It happens every day and night now
You got me going to extremes
Don't seem to care what's wrong or right now
I'll make ya mine someday
Somehow, somewhere, someway
You say i'm really not your kind
I know i look a little rough now
If i could give you everything, girl
Would it ever be enough now
I'll make you mine someday
Somehow, somewhere, someway
It makes me wonder what's goin' on baby,
When the night rolls in
It something happens that feels so strong and
And i just can't pretend, oh yeah
~ solo ~
Oh don't you wonder what's, goin' on baby
When the night rolls in
It's something happens that,feels so strong and
And it will happen again so, you can turn and walk away,
But i know you would regret it,
If i ever had my way, yeah,
Do you think you could forget it,
It's gonna happen someday,
Somehow, somewhere, someway
I wanna ha

I Just Have One Thing To Say..I am glad my real life driving skills dont compare to my Playstation driving skills. Otherwise there would be a lot of dead pedestrians.

Stupid PeopleWhy can't people just mind their own business?
I saw a video on youtube yesterday in which a gentelmen purchased a hooker. The worked for Lowe's and was driving a Lowe's box truck. First he drove around a park where there are alot of hookers and he chose the one he liked. He drove her to a resturaunt and got into the back of the truck on proceeded to have sex with her. Then a gentelmen with a video camera opened the back of the truck and told the man he had called the cops and called his boss. The man with the camerea said if wasn't safe for his kids to play in the park or anyone's wife to go shopping because this gentleman was banging whore's.
First of all let me just say that I am not saying that buying a hooker is ok because its not. I just to share my thoghts on this video. The guy with the video camera I hope he dies tonight. I mean how is this banging a hooker gonna keep kids from playing in a park or keep anyone's wife from shopping. Answer is its not. This guy with the ca

Just About Through With CtSeems people are more interested in point whoring than making meaningful friendships...I'm 38, I don;t need the adolescent BS that populates this site for much longer.
Hope the door doesnt hit too hard on the way out when I make my decision.
:)

WastedArtist: Carrie Underwood
Album: Some Hearts
Title: Wasted
Standing at the back door
She tried to make it fast
One tear hit the hard wood
It felt like broken glass
She said sometimes love slips away
And you just can't get it back
Let's face it
For once this second
She almost turned around
But that would be like pouring rain
Back into a cloud
So she took another step and said
I see the way out and I'm gonna' take it
I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Another glass of whisky and it still don't kill the pain
So he stumbles to the sink and pours it down the drain
He says it's time to be a man and stop living for yesterday
Face it.
Cause' I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
But still every morning' the color of the night

American RigEighteen wheels and a mile of chrome
Triple air horn, a trucker’s second home
Movin’ goods through the states
Shiftin’ gears and tempting fates
Hitch up, gear up, saddle up and go
Take that rig on down the road
Mind the bear, pay the toll
Let nothin' stop these rigs on a roll
Haul the load, get there on time
Keep your hand steady, hear the diesel whine
Roll with your CB, handle and heart
Get a good night’s sleep and an early start
Hitch up, gear up, saddle up and go
Take that rig on down the road
Mind the bear, pay the toll
Let nothin' stop these rigs on a roll
There’s a stretch of blacktop up ahead
There’s easier ways of livin’, but you chose this instead
Keep your rig straight, keep that rubber burnin’
Caus that rig of yours keeps America turning’
Hitch up, gear up, saddle up and go
Take that rig on down the road
Mind the bear, pay the toll
Let nothin' stop these rigs on a roll

Tainted AnticitizenNew song in progress for Earthwhore.
Blood trickles from accusing eyes,
Matting hair and staining skin,
Weighing down your soul,
For your sin judgement.
Grief in realisation of ethereal abyss,
Godless in death despite attonement in life,
With this your hope bleeds.
Your intent is nothing, you are but fucking human,
What more could you ever hope to be,
When all you ever do is kneel and plead for the divine?
Your faithful, begging, mewling humanity,
Makes me retch in disgust,
Are you not strong enough to face life,
Without being part of a divine plan?
If your symbol knows all,
Your ascended lord,
Why are the clues so cryptic?
Why must circumstantial be treated as irrefutable?
There is nothing for me here,
No shining gilt light,
Nothing but searing agony,
Mercy in decay.
Yet you still choose to beg for inhuman help,
As if your fears of afterlife make sense,
Hide behind your faith, my armour is disdain.

What Kind Of Sandwich Are YouYou Are a Grilled Cheese Sandwich
You are a traditional person with very simple tastes.
In your opinion, the best things in life are free, easy, and fun.
You totally go with the flow. And you enjoy every minute of it!
Your best friend: The Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich
Your mortal enemy: The Ham Sandwich
What Kind of Sandwich Are You?

7/6/07If someone asked you, you couldn't tell them why you did what you just did -- except that it felt like the right thing to do at the time. Hmm. This is a different mode of behavior for you, but not necessarily a bad one!
WOW EXTREMELY FITTING....

You Dont Know MeYou dont know me
~Tony Martinez
I say I love you
Yet you doubt me
Why
Only goes to show
You dont know me
Can you really look into my eyes
And call me a liar
You want to let me go
You dont know me
This isn't make-believe
This is real
I am real
I hold your face in my hands
I kiss you deeply
You pull away unable to look into my eyes
Knowing I speak the truth
Knowing what's in your heart
Yet you still say no
You dont know me
Do you

My Yahoo Msnam allways happy to have friends if you have my space am on it badoo yahoo 360 flixster and i got msn messenger and yahoo messenger here we go if you want to be my friend at msn add me its smoothrider2007@hotmail.co.uk and my yahoo is stokoe709@btinternet.com add me today thankyou derek look forward to talking to you in yahoo or msn derek

You Have A Sexual Iq Of 144You have a sexual IQ of 144
When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends.
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My Son Is Going To Campwill tomorrow i wont be around my son is going to his camp that he loves and who does alot for him a speech and hearing camp hes gone for 6 weeks its going to be the longest six weeks of my life i should be use to it but i dont want him to leave me but i know it will help him mmore then the school. so off to bed i go soon 3 hours of driving to do tomorrow to get there and 3 hours to come home. but its all good i think this is the best camp there ever was. lions camp badgers here we come are u ready for my son lol. later all talk to you all when i get bk going to say night to my son for the last time until he gets bk home

Pat Benatar 7/7/07Well tonight I went to the first night of The Summer Jubilee over the city of Alhambra with my daughter and a friend to see Pat Benatar. I had the time of my life because for one it was my 12 yr old daughter's very first concert and 2nd is seeing Pat Benatar. Man, we got there a little before Benatar play and it was so fuckin packed! LOL I didn't even gave a fuck about my friend, I told him to keep up because my goal is to move through the crowd and get up close as I can to the stage or to get a good view!! LOL We got as far as we can go but it was good enough for me but my daughter had a little bit of trouble seeing at times. Neil Giraldo came on stage first and started playing his guitar then the drummer and bass joined in, they ended their song and Pat walked on stage. Pat Benatar put a kick ass show,that little lady can sing. Her vocals was so amazing when she hit the high note, she sang her old songs as well as one song they never played live and one new song! Neil kick ass with

Live The RichnessWhat's so great about today? That's for you to decide, determine and fulfill.
Is there any reason for today to be a memorable one? There is when you create a good reason.
This day does not have to be bland and indistinguishable from all the others. Because you are here to make it special.
There is something exciting and compelling that you've been meaning to do. Today is when you can put your plans into action.
Today is the moment to give life to your dreams. Today is your opportunity to offer your dreams to life.
Take a deep, slow breath, and focus on all the positive possibilities that are here on this day. Then get up, go out and live the richness.
-- Ralph Marston

Getting To Know A Man OnlineA while ago I received this e-mail from a
reader asking my advice about a guy she had
met online.
If you've ever tried online dating, or met
a man through the internet, I'm sure you can
relate to the frustration of the "disconnect"
between meeting a man in the "real world" and
getting in touch with someone online.
There seems to be a lot of confusion and
hesitation about what "online dating" is...
and how it works.
Lots of women seem to think that there's
some secret or weird "code" or language going
on... and that to "date" online you have to
get involved in this whole other world.
Guess what - they're partially right.
Some of the "rules" of finding and meeting
and ATTRACTING a man online are different.
And if you don't know how it all works, then
you're going to have a bad time with online
dating - just as you would with anything else
where you don't know all the "rules".
But the GOOD NEWS is that it's VERY SIMPLE
to learn abo

The Personality Type That Attracts WomenThe Personality Type That Attracts Women
I get a lot of emails from guys who read my
newsletter that say things like...
"I'm sure what you're saying is right, but I don't
want to be a jerk or an a**hole to women..."
...or...
"I have seen what you're talking about happen all
my life, but I'm a 'nice guy' and I want women to
like me for me..."
...and...
"This doesn't make sense..."
For most of my life, I was THE nice guy of nice
guys. As a matter of fact, when I first made the
decision to learn how to be successful with women,
this actually created an OBSTACLE for me.
Let me explain...
Because I believed that "being a nice guy" MUST
be the way to success with women, I ACTUALLY
COULDN'T EVEN PERCEIVE ANY OTHER WAY.
In other words, I could see a situation where a
woman was attracted to a mean, abusive guy and
think to myself that either she must be screwed up
in the head, or THAT THE GUY MUST BE REALLY NICE
TO HER THE REST OF

Just A Few Facts About Sex.....wink~- THINGS WOMEN MIGHT WANT TO KNOW -
1)94% of men lie about their penis size.
According to condom manufacturers, only 6% of men need to use extra large condoms.
(SO IM ONE OF 6% HAHA -Vince)
2) The average man is 4-5 inches long when erect; no matter what you have heard ladies, that's the truth. Incidentally the average vaginal capactity is only 6 inches, for you women who think you can handle king dong.
3) 80% of American men are circumsized, though Pediatrics say it is not necessary.
4) No matter what all the ads say nothing but time can make your penis grow. (most men reach the end of their growth by the early 20's)
5) There is no correlation between penis size and shoe size, hand size, or nose size.
6) Blue balls does exist! It's technically called "prostatic congestion."
7) Only 16% of men shave their privates. ***Guys hello, time to jump on board with this one!!! Its 2007, not prehistoric time, so get out that razor and groom, groom, groom!!!***

MaskI heard a song yesterday that I haven't heard in awhile and, like songs tend to do, it took me back in time.
This song came out while I was dating someone. I can honestly say she's the only woman I have ever dated. I've dated plenty of girls but she's the only woman. I remember why we broke up and all, I was just thinking about how nice it was to be with a real woman.
I could say what was on my mind, I could be me. I didn't have to hide or put on a mask. That's not saying I was an asshole or a jerk, I mean there's a time and a place for everything and to many people are jerks and claim to "speak their mind" but that's another subject.
Anyway, yeah, she had her faults as we all do. She would never win a beauty pageant but she was one of the most beautiful people I have ever known.
I'm not sure why I'm writing this... I guess a part of me still clings to the hope that someday I might meet someone that I can trust, another part of me knows what a crock of shit that is. The las

Meh, Just Thinkings....Sometimes I wonder why I feel so alone even though I'm surrounded by people that love me.
First of all: My Rob. Without him, I think I'd be a lot less of a person. He keeps me going when I think it's time to quit. Most definitely the yin to my yang. Everything in the world that I never thought I'd have. And just when I think that maybe I should run, he goes and makes me remember just why I love him. And that's a hell of a lot, babe...
But sitting here by myself in the apartment while he's at work, I find myself looking through my friends' Myspace or Facebook profiles, hell, even Cherrytap...and I know it's not real life, but I look around these profiles and wonder when I got so drab, so ordinary. And then I look around the room and find my cat, who never comes in this room EVER, really...and she's just here because I'm here, purring her little heart out and lying behind my chair.
And I stop and remember, that my life is whatever I make it to be. And if I've made it

Oooooooooo Babyi was thinking as i always do. this time i was in the shower while thinking of this. strange place but hey whatever works. that sex is a beautiful thing, least its supposed to be. i mean its the closest you can be with another human being, its the closest you can feel one with them. so erotic, intimate, romantic even. so where am i going with this? well i want to know whos funny idea was it to make the O face so umm unappealing? i mean everything else is so beautiful then you have that. i dont care how good looking you are, or how attractive i am to you. the O face is just not a pretty site. not to mention the body goes in an electric fit, although that is kinda hot. its like a bad ending to a great movie or something.
maybe i am alone in thinking its kind of unappealing. of course the idea of getting someone off is a turn on, to watch their face as you take them in your mouth or as they are inside you. nothing like looking them square in the eyes. the build up is there, the excite

Great AmericanIt is time to change from REDNECK humor to TRUE AMERICAN Humor!
Only it isn't seen as HUMOR, but the correct way to LIVE YOUR LIFE! If you feel the same, pass this on to your True American friends. 'Yall know who they are...
You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: It never occurred to you to be offended by the phrase, "One nation, under God."
You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You've never protested about seeing the 10 Commandments posted in public places.
You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You still say "Christmas" instead of "Winter Festival."
You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You bow your head when someone prays.
You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You stand and place your hand over your heart when they play the National Anthem..
You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You treat Viet Nam vets with great respect, and always have.
You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You've never burned an American flag.
You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You know what you believe an

Thousands Commemorate 1947 Ufo 'crash'ROSWELL, N.M. - If you truly believe a UFO and its crew of bug-eyed aliens came crashing down here 60 years ago, rest assured: You're not alone. At least 35,000 people have descended on Roswell this weekend for the 2007 Amazing Roswell UFO Festival to commemorate a purported flying saucer crash on a nearby ranch in July 1947. Participants have filled hotel rooms and nearly doubled the southeastern New Mexico town's population for a few days.
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The festival, which began Thursday, is a mixed bag that includes live concerts (one headlined by a band with a computer-generated 'alien' drummer), costume contests, a Main Street parade and a slew of lectures that ponder everything from body snatchers to "What Does NASA Really Know?"
The festival emerged in the 1990s to spark debate about the purported flying saucer crash, which the government says was a top-secret weather balloon. Believers in the Roswell Incident say the government is conspiring to hide the truth about the e

Crush??I have so many friends on here, yet no one has added me as one of their crushes......Makes me so sad.....So very sad indeed. :(

Its Not Over.Violet colored flesh pressing between the mass.
Singing blue.
We never look in their eyes.
They never look the same.
I see mass-less, huge humanity.
I see the falling stars, wishing for destruction.
You press against me.
Crimson passes over my eyes.
Eyes pass over me.
Streams of black conscious flow over velvet thoughts.
They make fools of us.
We they talk, but say nothing.
It hurts to hear the words, nothing is different.
Slighted songs of blasphemes ring in our ears.
Burning red crosses flash on our bodies.
We are the signature.
We are the last.
The lost ones.
Found nevermore.
Finding nothing more then coy cliches wrapped in gossamer wings.
We bleed.
Bleed rainbows of strained skin and anguish.
Flies pass over your dead and decaying soul
Harbingers of your prophecy.
The glorious sex of bleeding goes through us.
Ribbons of stained glass mask the screams coming from our hearts.
And all is left whole.
But shattered.
Dead.
But Spro

My Nsfw Picsive been getting strange men who i dont even remember adding to my friends list, requesting to see my nsfw pics
they arent nudes, i dont let just anyone see it, and if you want to that badly buy me a blast lmao

Im No Longerhi there, just a note to say that im not running with a.o.m bomb squad as it not working. so if theres a family that would have me it would be great.
i do like bombing but not be the only one.
cheers and thanks to maria
also thanks to all the angels.
richard

SomeoneSOMEONE
Someone is thinking of you
someone cares about you.
someone misses you
someone wants to hold your hand.
someone wants you to be happy.
someone wants to hug you.
someone will do anything for you.
someone needs to know your love is unconditional.
someone wants to tell you how much they care.
someone wants to stay up watching movies w/ you.
someone wants to hold you in their arms.
someone wants to see you.
someone wants to be your lover. : )
someone loves you for who you are.
someone loves the way you make them feel.
someone wants to be with you.
someone wants you to know they are there for you.
someone is glad that you're their friend.
someone is wishing you would notice them.
someone wants to get to know you better.
someone wants to hear your voice
someone loves you.

Fucking Suv'sso i had a bike wreck. thats why i havren't been on lately. a black hummer pulled out in front of me, but worry not. a broken elbow, and quite a bit of road rash later, i'm back up and working. so watch the fucking suv drivers. may they all burn in hell.
oh, and the bike is fine, just cosmetic. so yay.

FateI have realized something over the last 3 months... If you're single, why not just enjoy it. see the world around you. Look in differant areas. Never settle!!!Don't make it your lifes goal to find that "one". When you think you have found them and their only interest in you is to see what they can get and hurt you, never chase them. let them go their own seperate way. never plot revenge... it makes you as low as that person. When you are meant to find them, fate will make it so you are both in the same place at the same time... Trust fate. till then enjoy your life to the fullest. To a certain person.... You're on your own honey. :)

One Of The Greatest.I laugh every time I see this.Sam Kinison was one of the funniest comedians around.

A Letter From Ella (for Her Friends)ALLURE TALENT COMPANY
10250 SPENCER STREET
LAS VEGAS NV 89183
(702) 824-0692
ELLA@ALLURETALENT.NET
To whom it may concern;
This letter is to inform all of you that I will no longer be on cherrytap. Or on yahoo IM with the SN of faeella.
I am also announcing the closing of Allure Talent Company possibly for a temporary time however as of July 31, 2007 all shows are canceled and the company will be undergoing a complete and total make over.
Once again I am sorry for the inconvenience to everyone concerned and I am truly sorry that it has come to this. I do need to let everyone know that it is not because of the fact that I do not care of what may happen to you all I do but I have personal things to tend to at the moment and am currently unavailable to take care of everything needed to do so.
For those of you who need to reach me you may to so via email at sprytes@gmail.com, once again I am sorry for any trouble that will be caused by these actions but please try

My Surgrey Updatehad my 1 week check up after having surgrey last monday all test came back great im doing great still alittle tired but getting my to normal lost 7 pounds total 10 in the month now im going to spend a quite romantic nite with hubby if you know what i mean its been over a month with intimatcey so we r catching up with things lol
hugs talk soon
evis

You're Not AloneArtist: Chicago
Album: Chicago Xix
Title: You're Not Alone
I see you there, a silhouette in the moonlight;
Looks like you've given up on love.
You used to be the face in the spotlight;
Now lonliness fits you like a glove.
You walk around in your cloak of darkness,
Too blind to see the light.
Your wings are broken, now your spirit can't take flight.
You're not alone, you're not alone,
While your heart's still young and free.
You're not alone, pick up the phone
And talk to me; baby, you will see
You're not alone.
Pools of sorrow and tears of joy;
There's a broken-up girl for every broken-down boy.
But you don't wanna hear it,
You like the rhythm of the blues;
Wanna be a sad story on the late-night news.
I don't mean to burst your bubble,
But the world's got troubles worse than you.
And everybody else out here gets lonely too.
You're not alone, you're not alone,
I;ve been waiting patiently.
No, you're not alone, pick up the phone
And talk to me, bab

Don't You Just Love FuckThe Fucking Disclaimer:
If you are offended by the use of bad language fuck off now! Don't read all of this and then say it annoys you.
Uses of the word Fuck:
FUCK is an international word. It doesn't matter where you are in the world, everyone knows exactly what you mean when you say "Fuck Off".
It's the atmosphere it creates, that's why you will never read something like: "Fuck off", he hinted.
Grammatical Usage:
In language, "fuck" falls into many grammatical categories, making it one of the most versatile words in the English language.
It can be used as a verb, both transitive (John fucked Jane) and intransitive (John and Jane fucked). It can be an active verb (John fucked Jane) or a passive verb (Jane was fucked by John) or an adverb (Jane is a fucking bastard) and a noun (Jane is a terrific fuck). It can be used as an adjective (Jane is fucking beautiful).
Further Structures:
As you can see there are few words with the versatility of "fuck". Besides its sexual co

Star CrossedThey dance in the darkness. The wind thru the leaves sounds the melody, their hearts the beat. As they sway to the rhythm.
The moon shown upon them, casting them in an eeire glow, like two ghostly silhouettes among the trees.
They embrace in a kiss, a kiss that seems to stop time and cause the world to spin.
Lovers reunited at lifes journey's end.

Bikini-clad Reporter FilmedMy cuzin say thet gurl probly a GREEF COWNSELOR
Bikini-Clad Reporter Filmed At Home of Missing Mom
(CBS) CHICAGO A Chicago television reporter is in hot water over her technique in pursuing a source in the disappearance of Lisa Stebic.
The Plainfield mother was last seen by her husband, Craig Stebic, on April 30, and there has been no sign of her since despite an intense investigation and repeated searches.
Craig Stebic is not talking to police, but as CBS station WBBM-TV in Chicago reports, he appears to be talking to a local reporter.
A video captured Friday shows WMAQ-TV reporter Amy Jacobson wearing a bikini and wrapped in a towel at Craig Stebic's home. Also seen in the video are Stebic himself, his sister from Iowa, and Jacobson's two children.
WBBM-TV shared the video with Northwestern University journalism professor Michele Weldon.
"Clearly, this is a conflict of interest," Weldon said.
Weldon said it represents a case of gravely crossing a journalisti

ContestI have just entered my first contest, will everybody please help me out and come comment bomb my pic? Here is the link
http://www.cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=630153&albumid=444087&i=4267899147
I really appreciate all the help I can get :) Thank you

Help Me Understand?Anyone who reads this, help me understand. What are we fighting for? As per my stash entries today.. I have been trying to find some online resources to help me make sense of the wars we are fighting in Iraq and Afganistan. Up until this point, I have deliberately remained blissfully ignorant. I didn't want to know. I still don't. But I NEED to.
How did all this start? A discussion with a friend on US plans to invade Iran. I still have found no online articles or evidence to support or refute this claim, and until I do, I cannot give it credibility. I can not believe or accept that a country would invade another simply because it *MIGHT* be a threat. That seems so... Hitler.. to me.
So.. why are we there, then? Six years after the fact, we can't still be retaliating for 9/11. Realistically speaking, going to a country's homeland and blowing up its civilians does not seem like a logical way (to me) to end terrorism. It seems more likely to propagate it. Hell it seems

I Guess This Makes Me A PunkThere are sometimes that someone in particular will say something to me...something that will either hurt my feelings/upset me/anger me.
But I cant make myself say "Hey, that hurt my feelings..." or whatever.
Why?
Because, to me, that seems juvinile.
But lately its more constant...so dont be suprised if I just cuss this person out one day. It wont be pretty.

New Site For Adults...heheI don't usually pass on any porn (which I accidentally received); however, I felt that you're old enough and mature enough to handle this one. At least I hope you are. If you just delete it, which of course is your privilege, then you will never know how good or bad you think it is. Click on the link below and if it doesn't work, copy and paste it onto your address bar:
http://drunkfriends.com/quickies/freesex.html

Guest Bookhey are signing guestbooks cool or nor? if they are cool would you mine signin my guestbook please? when u have time of course lol. much love to all of my friends and family thanks to you i would be where i am now on ct thanks to you all

Offline For A BitI don't know if I'm going to be back online tonight...I just got in a fight with my boyfriend and we didn't leave off too well. He says he's going to call back at 11pm, and I'm sure it will just continue........It's a long story that I'd rather not get into. But for my friends out there, I just wanted to let you know, in case you are looking for me.

MeI will be out of pocket for a couple of days. Some of you already know why and to you guys I say thank you for your love and support.
L.

Whateva:: whateva ::
don't try to sit there telling me i aint shit cuz i know better. I don't need your negativity so take it somewhere else.
don't think you can just holler at me like i'm a piece of shit or some dumb hoe cuz im not. I'm better & smarter than that so bitch please.
i done seen alot of shit & been thru alot of shit. you dont like what i have to say then "oh well" i'mma shrug my shoulders & not let you get to me. i got enough people in this world that care about me & my daughter to tolerate your stupid ass shit & games.
i don't need a player, a hater, one thats down for them childish games. i'm as real as it gets & if you cant handle it then i guess you aint grown enough to understand it & probly neva will.
i don't need someone dictating my world & how i live it. I'm doing wonderful without your dumbass so move on or get stepped on.
i don't need you trying to "get some" or think you can treat me anyway you please. Cuz you dont wanna fuck w/ me!
all i n

Mystical Havenhttp://www.cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=8841
That right there is the link to my lounge, for now....I'm having serious issues and if anyone knows how to help me, please let me know. I could use all the help I can get. Thanks guys. xoxoxoxo

Homosexual CommentsDoes anyone ever get tired of the Homosexual comments? I do!! I am not bi or lesbian..but I seem to get those kind of comments. I dont like them. I dont want them on my page. I dont want someone to think that I like that sort of thing or that I am that way cause I am not. Just wanted to vent here and let people know where I stand:)

Divorceyour belongings should remaine yours when you get married but that isnt the way it works i think it is wrong but who am i lol,once your married everything of yours becomes hers and nothing you can do about it if you should get a divorce you may loose what was yours in the first place,may end up paying out your ass for alamony,child suport it isnt worth it

Dont Know Why I Wrote This.it Is Just A Letter To An Emotion Im Not Sure Ill Keep It Up Of If It Even Came Out How I Wanted But Hey None Of Us Are Perare you there?
I have waited patiently.It seems like an eternity.I see you every night infront of me just out of reach.I try to approach you and never get closer.
I want you.My love grows more painful everyday,tearing at my soul.Such a cruel joke.Wanting something so pure and beautiful and to recieve such pain.
My body is thick with lust.Just hoping for that kiss.Your lips parting allowing me to taste you.To feel your embrace arms and legs wrapping around me pulling me to you showing me that I am loved.
I wish to be in you.To feel your warmth,Smell your scent,hear your moan,to feel your nails drawing blood down my back in the heat of passion.I can feel your bite on my neck followed by your moan in my ear urging me on to take you ,fill you , satisfy you.
and yet i wait some more on and on it goes.I will not give up hope not even in the darkest of nights.I will not let my passion for you die out,like a smoldering ember it just waits for you to breathe

Making A Baby (ty Muerte Bella!)The Smiths were unable to conceive children and decided to use a surrogate father to start their family. On the day the proxy father was to arrive, Mr. Smith kissed his wife goodbye and said, "Well, I'm off now. The man should be here soon."
Half an hour later, just by chance, a door-to-door baby photographer happened to ring the doorbell, hoping to make a sale. "Good morning, Ma'am", he said, "I've come to..."
"Oh, no need to explain," Mrs. Smith cut in, embarrassed, "I've been expecting you."
"Have you really?" said the photographer. "Well, that's good. Did you know babies are my specialty?"
"Well that's what my husband and I had hoped. Please come in and have a seat".
After a moment she asked, blushing, "Well, where do we start?"
"Leave everything to me. I usually try two in the bathtub, one on the couch, and perhaps a couple on the bed. And sometimes the living room floor is fun. You can really spread out there."
"Bathtub, living room floor? No wonder it

My Poemeven though we are far apart you will always be in my heart,your smile makes me want to go that extra mile,every day i dream of walking on the beach hand in hand and bare foot in the sand,feeling the breeze going through my hair,love me if you dare,keep it real and feel the rush going through your head,the closenessof our hearts trying to beat as one for now lets have fun

I Keepi keep thinking life is what you make of it,not what you have to.some of us have it harder then others and the more i think about it no matter how hard my life gets i think of people that have it worse then me,some dont have a home i do some dont have family i do some dont have food i do see there is always some one worse off then us i am thankfull for my life in some ways it is hard raiseing a daughter that is special needs and being bipolar myself it is so hard keeping my peace and sanity,but i do it,it still gets lonely with out someone to hold and comfort me and tell me how everything will be ok,i guess we cant have everything huh,well anyways be thankfull for what you have in life

DreamsDreams to come
I am compelled to list those things that I think -for now- that I would like to do when I get older: my dreams.
I want a family.
I would either like to teach or go into law.
I want to better society.
I would like to visit Alaska, Maine, Canada, Norway, Sweden, Finland, and Russia.
I want to see my children grow into passionate, caring adults. I want to see my grandchildren born.
I would love to learn greater compassion.
I want to cast out the anger and bitterness I feel at times for my own past faults and failures: I want to forgive myself.
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God I Am Hot.Omg. The other day I was geting my car fixed and I had this really short skirt on I didnt think enything of it. The whole time I was there the guys looked at me. When I left one guy came up to me he was so cute we started talking. Wow I never thought I was that pretty that I could stop guys in there tracks.

Momentsi know where i need to be but its not my desire
my heart skips a beat in ur presence
the passion we feel engulfs us like fire.
wanting ur touch even if only for day
holding u never wanting to let u go but know i
must
losing ourselves in the moments we have left
but a lifetime of memories will never fade
we shall remain together in our dreams.
for an eternity

Two AlligatorsTwo alligators were sitting at the side of the swamp near Washington DC.
The smaller one turned to the bigger one and said "I can't understand how you can be so much bigger than me. We're the same age,we were the same size as kids. I just don't get it".
"Well" says the big 'gator, "what have you been eating?"
"Politicians, same as you", replied the small 'gator.
"Hmmmm. Well, where do you catch them?"
"Down at the other end of the swamp at the parking lot, by the capitol"
"Same here."
"Hmmm. How do you catch them?"
"Well, I crawl up under one of those Lexus cars and wait for them to unlock the car door. Then I jump out and grab them on the leg, shake the
crap out of them, and eat them".
"AH!" says the big 'gator, "I think I see your problem. You ain't getting enough nourishment. See, by the time you done shakin' the
crap out of a politician, there ain't nothing left but an asshole and a briefcase".

The Important ThingsWhen you only take care of the urgent matters, many new urgent matters will appear to take their place. When you take care of the important matters, then you're making real progress.
Many of life's most important concerns do not jump up and demand your attention, at least not right now. It can be easy to ignore them in favor of more urgent matters.
Yet most of the urgent concerns turn out, in the long run, to be fairly trivial. If you focus only on what demands your immediate attention, there will surely come a time when you regret it.
The quality of your life depends upon where you put your priorities. The most important and meaningful aspects of your life deserve your consideration and support on a daily basis.
The more attention you give to the important things, the less you'll feel the need to be controlled by the urgent, but relatively meaningless, matters. The more you focus on what's truly important, the more firmly you'll be in control of your life.
When investing

The Concept Of GodThe other day a co-worker and I were discussing a recent documentary that I watched on the History Channel called "Banned from the Bible." I was telling her about one book in particular mentioned, "The Book of Enoch". It goes into detail about the creation of the Nephilim. When I saw the confusion on her face I asked her if she knew what I was talking about. She was like no I've never heard of them. So then I was like "you go to church every Sunday and have no idea what I'm talking about." So then she says "Well I've gone all my life but I've never read the Bible." I started laughing at her and asked how could she sit and listen to the Preacher and not have any clue as to what he's saying or if it is true. So then I told her that to me the concept of God can be compared to a tree. No matter what country you may go to or what language is spoken a tree is still a tree no matter what it is called. So then she was like "Well I never thought of it that way." Take the Quran for exa

Mean PeopleI posted a MUMM tonight, and received a lot of votes, along with a lot of comments. Some of them were downright malicious.
To all the people who didn't vote, but made nasty comments: Is this what you do for fun? Is your self-esteem that low, that you have to go picking on someone else and making deprecating remarks about their appearance to make yourselves feel better?
That's okay. Because I can always lose weight, but you will still always be assholes.
And eventually, you will turn into wrinkly, not so pretty assholes. And then what will you have going for you?
Thanks for sharing!

Something I Should Say But My Ego's In The WayDays have gone by,still your smile lingers on my mind.
Thought I could push you out,leave you far behind.
It seems the harder I push,the firmer you stand.
Your memorys entrenched in my mind,ready to battle to the end.
My thoughts now jumbled,no longer ready to engage.
My heart beats to rapidly,as if it were afraid.
To look up and see you is something I fear.
My thoughts have become flooded with wanting you near.
Tears well up and one begins to leave my eye.
Please forgive me,don't make this our final goobye.

Tag...you're It!The rules are: Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird random things, facts, or habits about yourself.At the end, you choose 5 people to be tagged, list their names, and why you chose them.Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" on their profile and tell them to read your latest blog. ENJOY!!!1. The details of my life are quite inconsequential... very well, where do I begin?2. My father was a relentlessly self-improving boulangerie owner from Belgium with low grade narcolepsy and a penchant for buggery.3. My mother was a fifteen year old French prostitute named Chloe with webbed feet.4. My father would womanize, he would drink.5. He would make outrageous claims like he invented the question mark.6. Sometimes he would accuse chestnuts of being lazy. The sort of general malaise that only the genius possess and the insane lament.7. My childhood was typical. Summers in Rangoon, luge lessons. In the spring we'd make meat helmets.8. When I

People.......That make all their photos and whatnot friends-only are lame, and rather gay. It's obviously just a ploy to get adds. Do you need numbers that badly, online of all places?
You+Bath+Toaster.

Get Me To The Airport...I tell the driver to hurry as I slide into the deep leather seat of the limo. Feeling self conscious of the glancing eyes from the rear view mirror. I’m being silly I tell myself, chauffeurs see these things all the time I’m sure, it is LA for god’s sake. Half naked women dressed in ankle length fur coats, racing to the airport. Well, maybe so, but this is new to me. The anticipation of meeting you, no surprising you, on your arrival, months of planning what to wear or not to wear has me in a near state of panic. I finally decided on the black lace bustier with the red ribbons laced up the back, matching satin garters and sheer, thigh high silk stockings, and fabulous black stilettos. The naughtiness hiding under the satin lined mink is almost more than I can bear. I love how it feels sensuously sliding across my barely contained breasts and bare bottom. I may have to have a quickie myself before I get to the airport… I laugh just thinking about the look of surprise on your face when

I Know YouI know you
I know you
You were too short
You had bad skin
You couldn't talk to them very well
Words didn't seem to work
They lied when they came out of your mouth
You tried so hard to understand them
You wanted to be part of what was happening
You saw them having fun
And it seemed like such a mystery
Almost magic
Made you think that there was something wrong with you
You'd look in the mirror and try to find it
You thought that you were ugly
And that everyone was looking at you
So you learned to be invisible
To look down
To avoid conversation
The hours, days, weekends
Ah, the weekend nights alone
Where were you?
In the basement?
In the attic?
In your room?
Working some job - just to have something to do.
Just to have a place to put yourself
Just to have a way to get away from them
A chance to get away from the ones that made you feel
so

Blah Blah Blah You're A WhoreAquarius
You are very random, changing moods everyday. You are very genuine, and you like to do a lot sexually. When you find something that you like, you like it a lot and want your lover to like it too.
Ideally you like to find a partner who is as into sex as you are. You want a lover who is just as independent as you are and you like an equal amount of give and take in the sack.
Sex matches: Aries, Gemini, Libra
Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com
haha yea maybe the sex match is right but i dunno this thing isn't to right. I think the only think that is on is I am very random, changing moods everyday. As well as when I find something that i like, I like it alot.

Just A ThoughtWatch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

Wat Its WorthWats it Worth
..
How many times have you fallen in love just to find out that theres something just not right?? you break up, fight, whoop ass, watever your temper level is depends wat ya do , or if your the calm type.....i'm the calm type myself.. i'm pretty blunt to, once ya get to know me im told im a good person but a lil twisted with my humor, anyway wats it worth to be happy, worth a bumpy ride, you meet someone you go out have fun, talk up a storm, then they dont talk to you again, or you make another date, goes good till you light up a smoke or say something that just came out wrong, was it worth it? i'm upfront about everything, then someone says theres gotta be something wrong with you , you to nice, yeah there is its called being lonely, but not desperate, lookin for the specail someone that will just turn your world inside out and fill your heart back up with love and a feeling in your soul to last forever, wats it worth?? its worth everything....feelings people have a

Tainted Anticitizen Complete And Up!Have finished recording Tainted Anticitizen and it's currently uploaded to myspace here.
Hope you enjoy it. This is the first of a new direction for Earthwhore with far less synth and more general ambience. See how you like it anyhow.

11's And StashSince I cleaned out my friends list, I've actually been able to give away all my 11's. If I haven't hit your page, I will ;)
Also, please let me know if you have any stash or blogs or whatever. I'd like to rate that too - and I don't need 11's to do that ;)
Stay safe
/kisses.

Elton John - Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest WordWhat I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there
What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when its all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word
Its sad, so sad
Its a sad, sad situation
And its getting more and more absurd
Its sad, so sad
Why cant we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word
What do I do to make you love me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

Thoughts Of Mine Dec. 12, 2003March 15, 1999, at 12:00 p.m.; was the FIRST DAY I BEGAN TO DIE. Struggling to know the TRUTH TO MY EXISTENCE. Is if all "Fiction" or "Reality"? Drifting through MYTH or DREAM? Some medical sources say I am dying of "Natural Causes"; But LISTEN & KNOW, ALL of You who know me and ALL of You who don't.. I AM DYING from being SILENT when I should be SCREAMING, CRYING when I should be OUTRAGED!! Because of being Sick, but Refusing to let anyone know because I FEEL MY PAIN MAIGHT INCONVENIENCE THEM....
I AM DYING from an overdose of Other People clinging to me when I don't even have enough Energy for Myself. I AM DYING from Men who don't even LOVE themselves & can only OFFER me a "Crippled Reflection". I AM DYING from raising My Children ALONE & for not being able to do a COMPLETE job. I AM DYING from the LIES My Grandparents told My Parents, & My Parents told to Me. I AM DYING from being SEXUALLY ABUSED as a child & having to take that TRUTH EVERYWHERE I go, EVERYDAY for the

SoulmateYou are everything I have wanted.
You are everything I have looked for.
You are everything I have dreamt of.
Can not stop teh feelings I have.
Can not stop the thoughts I think.
Why do you live so far away?
Why does it have to be this way?
I do not want anybody else.
You are the one for me.
I feel I am the one for you.
It hurts to deny it.
It hurts to admit it just can not be.

UntitiledGood personality.
Great sense of humor.
Loyal to friends and family.
Nice to everybody.
Caring for the people that are loved.
smiling and laughing most of the time on the outside.
Crysing on the inside.
Happy go lucky on the outside.
Depressed on the inside.
Out spoken, open and honest.
Outgoing. Will talk to almost everybody.
Determined but is held back.
Knows exactly what wanted and how to get it but can't quite reach it.

Zip Code LocatorThis for all my fans, friends, and whom ever isn't aware. I had no idea til a friend warned me, but having your zip code in your profile provides a Google map link to your house. I don't mean your location, or city- I mean your house! It uses satellite to pin point and photograph your house! I used it on mine and could even see my pick-up parked in front of my apt. Be warned, take steps to protect yourself from the idiots, and those that would cause harm to you or those you love!
your friend, Apachahokee
ADDENDUM: I have learned that it is not always accurate, but, better safe than sorry! It was way too close for me!

HurtI hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Thank You To My Independent Family , Friends And The Git R Done CrewI WANT TO THANK EVERYONE WHO HELPED MAKE THIS POSSIBLE FOR ME..I LOVE YOU ALL....IF YOU NEED ME ANYTIME NIGHT OR DAY I WILL BE THERE FOR ALL OF YOU JUST GIVE ME A SHOUT AND WATCH ME COME RUNNING...THIS WAS MY 1ST CONTEST AND I WON....WHOOOO HOOOOO...I NEED TO SAY A SPECIAL THANK YOU TO PONY FOR BELIEVING IN US WHEN I WAS READY TO GIVE UP...COULDNT ASK FOR A BETTER FAMILY THEN I HAVE... I LOVE ALL OF YOU.........CRAZYLADY

A Great Big Thank You To My Independent Family, Git R Done Family And All My FriendsI WANT TO SAY A GREAT BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HELPED ME WIN MY 1ST CONTEST THAT IVE EVER ENTERED....IT WAS A BLAST AND I HAD LOTS OF FUN AND MADE ALL KINDS OF NEW FRIENDS AND THAT WAS ACTUALLY THE BEST PART OF IT ALL FOR ME....I WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW I LUV YA AND IM HERE FOR ALL OF YOU ANYTIME YOU KNOW WHERE TO GET ME AND DONT HESITATE .....YOU PEOPLE ARE THE BEST DAMN PEOPLE OF CT!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOO HOOOOOOO WE DID IT GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!! I GOTTA SAY A SPECIAL THANK YOU TO PONY BECAUSE A FEW DAYS AGO I WAS READY TO GIVE UP AND HE TALKED TO ME AND TOLD ME TO HAVE THE FAITH AND WE WOULD WIN AND SO I DID. THATS THE KIND OF FAMILY LEADER EVERYONE NEEDS ONE WHO BELIEVES IN HIS FAMILY EVEN WHEN ITS LOOKS LIKE THE WORST...YOUR THE BEST PONY AND I LOVE YA.........CRAZYLADY

Lov YaOne day a man's wife died, and on that clear, cold morning, in the
warmth of their bedroom, the husband was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't anymore.
No more hugs, no more special moments to celebrate together, no more
phone calls just to chat, no more "just one minute."
Sometimes, what we care about the most gets all used up and goes
away,never to return before we can say a good-bye "I love you."
So while we have it, it's best we love it, care for it,
fix it when it's broken and heal it when it's sick.
This is true for marriage ... and old cars .. and children with bad
report cards, and dogs with bad hips, and aging parents and
grandparents.
We keep them because they are worth it, because we are worth it.
Some things we keep -- like a best friend who moved away or a
classmate we grew up with. There are just some things that make us
happy, no atter what.
Life is important, like people we know who are special, and so, We
keep them close!
S

My Story, The Loss Of My Youngest Son (long)This is a LONG story.. But its my Life.. Please rate my Blog when you are finished...
We lost our son Feb 10th 2006. He passed away 4 weeks before he was due.. He was 4 Lbs- 6 OZ. He is missed dearly!! This letter is in detail of what i had gone through. Emotionally, Physically and spiritually
My story,
The weekend had just passed. We went shopping for a Van because the truck wasn't big enough for all the kids.. Being so excited we had gotten a Van and picking it up that Monday I hadn't really paid much attention to my pregnancy. He had moved Normal so I didn't bother to think something was wrong.. The 8th day of Feb. I went to my OBGYN Being 2 days shy of 36 weeks pregnant. The day before Tuesday I remember he wasn't acting his Normal rambunctious self .I had tried everything to get him to move.! Camron seamed to stop moving. At 3:00PM. I had gotten to the Labor and Delivery Floor. Waiting on a cold table for a Dr to come and see me. I had all my children in there with me.

HurtThe hurt.
I can't explain this feeling.
This aching, and pain.
I know why it's happening.
I know what has done this.
Losing you, my heart is broken.
I can't explain the agony my heart has right now.
I want to let it out.
I want you to know what you meant to me.
What a real friend is.
And that was you, to me.
I have died inside a little more each passing day.
trying to take it in, to understand.
But nothing eases the pain I have.
tears pouring, feelings, memories.
All jumbled, all strong.
it's this pit of hurt.
pit of pain.
The hurt.
It hurts.
You would have been the one to take it away.
but now I cry for you.
Not in your arms.
or on your shoulder.
But out loud, to you.
In the night, when no ones around.
Whispering to the dark.
Looking at you, your pictures.
So unreal to me that you are gone.
But I feel and look in my heart.
A little piece of me is gone.
But I know where it is.
The hurt, will fade.
But my love wont.
the hurt.
this hurt.
is love,

Someone Named MamaSomeone Named Mama by Robert VanDerslice
The hallways of the nursing home smelled of antiseptic, and as I rounded each corner in the long corridor from my sister’s room to the main doors, the smell seemed to chase me, mixing with the tantalizing aromas of a Thanksgiving meal being prepared in the kitchen off to my right. I finally reached the last corner, made my turn, and started the last of the straight aways to the vibrant and living world beyond the drab green doors.
About halfway down the runway, I saw an ancient woman strapped into a wheel chair, her body limp and bowed with time, yet her eyes strained to see me as I got closer to her. About 20 feet from her, a weary voice tiptoed from her quivering lips in uncertainty as she said “Frankie, is that you ? Frankie my baby! My sweet baby boy! I knew you would come!”
I looked around, as her shaking arms lifted into the air to hug this Frankie that had come to her at last, but there was no one there in the hall

Ct At It AgainJeeze now they don't like the adult images on my profile...asked me to remove them

Things Not To Say During Sex1. but everybody looks funny naked!
2. you woke me up for that?
3. did I mention the video camera?
4. do you smell something burning?
5. (in the janitor's closet) and they say romance is dead....
6. can you please try breathing through your nose.
7. a little rug burn never hurt anyone.
8. is that a Medic-Alert pendant?
9. Sweetheart, did you lock the back door?
10. but whipped cream makes me brake out.
11. person 1: this is your first time...right?
person 2: yeah.. today
12. (in the No Tell Motel) hurry up! this room rents by the hour!
13. can you pass me the remote control?
14. do you accept Visa?
15. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
16. on the second thought, let's turn off the lights.
17. and to think- I was really trying to pick up your friend.
18. so much for mouth-to-mouth
19. (using body paint) thry not to leave any stains, o.k.?
20. hope you're as good looking when I'm sober...
21

Mod Of The DayPLEASE CHECK OUT THE SEXY AND BEAUTIFUL MESHA...SHES TODAY'S "MOD OF THE DAY"!!!

My RemorseAs I lay here the words they won't come.
The sadness I've caused the things I have done.
The hearts I've broken,for me beyond repair.
The loves I've lost because my heart wasn't there.
Lies that I told with a smile on my face.
Have left me ashamed and full of disgrace.
When I remember tears rolling over lips that once smiled.
Seemingly leaving you devastated me not caring all the while.
The cruelty and pain I caused only now can I see.
My only hope is that someday somehow you can foregive me.

Passion Of The OceanLike the ocean
So wide and powerful
With its waves rolling in and
Crashing against the rocks
With the same force
As my admiration
Towards the man
I want to get to know
I want to know and feel his strength,
And feel the power of his touch,
Crashing against my soul
I want to feel his passions
His desires and the dreams he has
Like the waters that go on
Forever and ever
I want to feel his tender touch
Caressing every inch of my body
Like the kiss of the sun
Over the ocean horizon,
Faithfully each morning
I want him to know
That with each and ever word spoken
Is like a ripple
That spreads throughout
The deepest waters
In my heart
For the day is coming closer
And the nights are getting longer
In the desire to be near you
I dream of that moment
When the waters of the ocean
And the rocks of the cliffs
Finally meet in a storm of passion,
His every touch will be like
A soft caress to the rocks
Of the cliffs below
With each encounter

Because Of You - Kelly ClarksonI will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your slee

Love In Words And ActionsMany of us have confused notions about what it means to be loved and cared about.
Many of us were loved and cared for by people who had discrepancies between what they said and did.
We may have had a mother or father who said, "I love you" to us, and then abandoned or neglected us, giving us confused ideas about love. Thus that pattern feels like love - the only love we knew.
Some of us may have been cared for by people who provided for our needs and said they loved us, but simultaneously abused or mistreated us. That, then, becomes our idea of love.
Some of us may have lived in emotionally sterile environments, where people said they loved us, but no feelings or nurturing were available. That may have become our idea of love.
We may learn to love others or ourselves the way we have been loved, or we may let others love us the way we have been loved, whether or not that feels good. It's time to let our needs be met in ways that actually work. Unhealthy love may meet some

Please Show Some Love To A Great GuyI've known Mike in RL for about 5 yrs. he's a down to earth, honest, hard working single father and family friend. Please fan/rate/add.. show him some love.
viper@ CherryTAP

Shout BoxOk see that the shoutbox is not working this morning so thought I would say good morning to everyone here instead. Big thanks to Johnny who rated me a 1 this morning after I rated him a 10 then took it upon himself to block me! And also to Woody who rated me a 5. LOSERS!

How Kinky Are YouYou scored as Very Kinky, You are very Kinky. Yuo are not over the top but you like kinky arousements and you are willing to try something new every time. You will make a very fun sex partnerVery Kinky100% A Sicko60% Average50% A WUSS !!20% How sexual are youcreated with QuizFarm.com

Too CuteA frog goes into a bank and approaches the teller. He can see from her nameplate that her name is Patricia Whack.
"Miss Whack, I'd like to get a $30,000 loan to take a holiday."
Patty looks at the frog in disbelief and asks his name. The frog says his name is Kermit Jagger, his dad is Mick Jagger, and that it's okay, he knows the bank manager.
Patty explains that he will need to secure the loan with some collateral.
The frog says, "Sure. I have this," and produces a tiny porcelain elephant, about an inch tall, bright pink and perfectly formed.
Very confused, Patty explains that she'll have to consult with the bank manager and disappears into a back office.
She finds the manager and says, "There's a frog called Kermit Jagger out there who claims to know you and wants to borrow $30,000, and he wants to use this as collateral." She holds up the tiny pink elephant. "I mean, what in the world is this?"
(You're gonna love this)
(A masterpiece)

Highhey could somebody pass scooby the baggy so he can roll shaggy a doobie

Am I Seeing Things?Her eyes seemed broken,
When I saw her that day.
My eyes froze on hers,
I could not take them away.
In my mind I wondered,
Why in her I saw pain.
If I tried to help her,
What would she have to gain.
If I reach out to her,
And in fact her pian is real.
Do I have it in me,
To heal her really heal.
This is my delemia
My quandry if you will.
I really want to help her,
But here I am standing still.

Grieving The Loss Of A Pet.So, I got home after a wonderful dinner and the unexpected "romance" of being stranded in the parking lot of a secluded restaurant near the bay. My boyfriend's BMW decided we needed to sit in the parking lot to digest our meal. After the tow truck driver gave us a jump, we giggled our way home relieved it didn't turn out to be more serious than just a dead battery.
We said our "good-nights" and I closed the front door behind me. Then it hit me. Like a blanket of emptiness thrown over me from the kitchen where I would usually be greeted by happy faces and wagging tails. I was, instead, met with the single face of confusion and loneliness. My poor little Guinness. It hit me. I collected Guinness' bowl and started preparing a single dinner of dog food with tears in my eyes. It hit me, and I think it hit him too as he uncharacteristically laid there silently with his head all the way to the ground until I set the bowl down.
"Oh boy! Dog food again!"
It hit me that I was back to wh

~what Slavery Is/what Slavery Is Not~What Slavery Is
What Slavery Is Not
slavery is not about suffering . . .
. . . slavery is about service.
slavery is not about humiliation . . .
. . . slavery is about humility.
slavery is not about pain . . .
. . . slavery is about being present.
slavery is not about being used . . .
. . . slavery is about being of use.
slavery is not about control . . .
. . . slavery is about letting go.
slavery is not about what is done to you . . .
. . . slavery is about what you do for others.
slavery is not about abuse . . .
. . . slavery is about acceptance.
slavery is not about proving anything . . .
. . . slavery is about being real.
slavery is not about contempt . . .
. . . slavery is about respect.
slavery is not about how you look . . .
. . . slavery is about how much you care.
slavery is not about denying yourself . . .
. . . slavery is about being open.
slavery is not about bondage . . .
. . . slavery is about freeing your spirit.
slave

Questions???I sit here all alone day in day out wondering what I could have done?What would make you realize that going on this way is something I just can't do? You think because you "pay" for me that I will look the other way? That I won't see what you do? That I can't tell how you feel? Even when your here are you really? You think just because I let you get away with things you can hurt me all the time? Do you know what it's like to live in the silence? The past replaying in my head? What could have been? What will never be? You left a long time ago like a season that comes on slow but is over before you know it. Are you ever going to except some responsibility? Any at all? Ever realize that how much you give from your pockets will never measure what's in your heart? That all I ever wanted was you? Other things are nothing! They will never be important to me. Why is it when I am all you have you push me away? Why are you so scared to just let go? Let go of the past and hold on to our future? T

Read!!!I JUST GOT A VIC FOR MY BIRTHDAY, SO PLEASE DISREGARD THE LAST BULLETIN....
THANK YOU~LAWRENCE~
~k~

In A Dreami dont want to talk
i just want to scream
all that is left is a stalk
of the flower from my dreams
i used to think i would find love
now i know its just a joke
all i need is a little shove
and my life will turn to smoke
all i know is nothing but lies
and i am learning to hate
when it becomes too much i shall die
for i know this is my fate
my chance for love has been lost
but i know death will set me free
no longer do i care about the cost
so i think you had better flee

U.s.a.Anyone that loves photography will appreciate the precision of the photo. As the jets are probably moving at around 400 mph and you being just right to get the shot at that instant. And that is a hard formation to stay at as the ones in the "S" are just a little graduated degree behind the next one and staying that way to maintain the formation. It is a great photo of an Air Force training squadron flying in a never-done-before "USA" formation over the control tower "Taj Mahal" (HQ building) of Randolph Air Force Base in San Antonio, Texas.

Clown Lovemuch motha fuckin clown love used by Juggalos and Juggalettes as a way of expressing there clown love for each other
MMFCL my friend

To Brattybytch, Ashes To Ashes And All Those That Have Visited !I wanted to take a minute and thank Kathy, Rich and All of the Great People that have stopped by my profile since BrattyBytch ( aka ) Kathy pimped me out on her blog .. And thanks to Rich for makin a suggestion .. Luv you Guys * Hugs*
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Now that im getting back into this .. if Any of you ever need help in Level'in up .. or anything Please Feel free to let me know ill do all I can to help ...Xoxoxoxoxoxox
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DownratingStupid ass people take this shit too seriously. Why do I have random people telling me that I downrated there friends. Dear god. Suck it up and give me a f*cking 1 or whatever you want. If you feel I single you out then give it back to me. People feel like I walk all over them, and crap. well do it back if it'll help you sleep better at night. It's not my fault your friend isn't attractive. haha. I'm not attractive, but I guess I have a bigger backbone when it comes to being rated a 1. Oh boy. silly people in this silly world. CT drama. haha.

ArousedAwakened by the sound of your voice,
sensual kisses leave no choice.
Your touch burning!
My body yearning !
Wanting to feel you even more,
our clothes falling to the floor
The kisses i lay around your neck.
You grow more aroused with each new peck.
The smell of passion all around,
as you lay me down.
My body squirming beneath yours,
as you thrust deeply it purrs.
Grabbing,squeezing, moaning, yelling,
our bodies as one the orgasms coming.
The ecstasy overwhelming us,
we make one last thrust.
Dropping together in each others arms,
panting as if we were in harm.
Laying next to you cuddling together,
I know our love will last forever.

Finding It!!I am finding it very hard to commit to anyone.
I was never scared,Scared to jump right into something.It seems like the more time i spend
getting to know someone ,it doesn't go any where.
I was recently in a 2yr living together relationship,So i was/am trying to pase myself.
The pasing seems to be taking longer then expected.
As soon as anyone gets close to me,I fuck things up ,some way /some how.
Now i am pretty sure, it could possible be that some where in my pea headed mind that I'm not ready to give my all to someone again.It doesn't make conscious sense to me though.When your looking ,your looking.So why am i pushing people away,Its a pretty age old question,Considering the fact that everyone has doubts about them selfs.Its not registering with me.
Could their be a deeper meaning /or is it just simple put..

BabyBaby do me here and do me now,
Do it fast then slow it down,
Baby please fuck me right,
Do it good and go all night,
Baby can you make me scream,
Do it just as in my dream,
Baby kiss my body good,
Do it like I knew you would,
Baby you just bust a nut,
So now we're done, my legs are shut!

A Thought During A Conversation With A Friend...my spirit and my body co-exsist... but are two separate things.... i can be a warrior and not be filled with hate.... i can love, and embrace without sacrificing my warrior spirit, in fact im coming to learn that compassion and love are parts of the true warrior spirit

38 Special - Hold On Loosely (live @ Sturgis '99)You see it all around you
Good lovin' gone bad
And usually it's too late when you, realize what you had
And my mind goes back to a girl I left some years ago,
Who told me,
Just Hold On Loosely, but don't let go
If you cling to tightly,
you're gonna lose control
Your baby needs someone to believe in
And a whole lot of space to breathe in
It's so damn easy, when your feelings are such
To overprotect her, to love her too much
And my mind goes back to a girl I left some years ago
Who told me,
Just Hold On Loosely, but don't let go
If you cling too tight babe,
you're gonna loose control
Your baby needs someone to believe in
And a whole lot of space to breathe in
Don't let her slip away
Sentimental fool
Don't let your heart get in her way
yeah, yeah, yeah,
You see it all around you
Good lovin' gone bad
And usually it's too late when you, realize what you had
And my mind goes back to a girl I left some years ago,
Who told me,
Just Hold On Loosely, but don't l

Swirling In My Own Head, Drowning In My Emotions, Choking On My FearDrowning, wallowing and fading fast...I am cold, scared and confused. I want the answers. I want to be in control. Stop the spinning. Stop the voices. Stop the world I wanna get off. Yet here I am, still hanging on. Why??? Now that is the ultimate question!!! Will I ever find the answers. So many people tell me no. But in my past I do find answers. Are they the right answers? Who knows???!!! I sure as hell don't. But I continue searching, hoping for some clarity in the swirling abyss of my mind and emotions. Am I really letting fear control my life? Maybe, maybe not. I ask for time, time to sort through the layers of crap my life has built up. Well I asked for it and I got it!!! But is it what I really wanted...only time will tell...I do know one thing for certain, this emotional rollercoaster I am on is killing me, and puking up blood is not a good sign.
And on that note I am running to the nearest bathroom...

Mum Laid To RestToDay I have finally Been Able to Go and Put My Mums Ashes In Her Mum and Dad grave. I Promised Her I would and To Me it Feels Like She is Layed To Rest.
GOODBYE MUM.
R.I.P. MUM. LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.

Looking Into Your EyesLooking into your loving eyes Wanting to hang on to time Holding tightly to every memory A moment when you were mine Before you became just a dream When all my life was clear Never expected what lay ahead Thought your voice I'd always hear I try to fill all my days With lots of things to do This doesn't seem to matter Thoughts always return to you Now I fear the break of day You leave with morning light Hours are so hard on me Yearning for the dark of night As I lay down to sleep I pray for one last thing To see your handsome face Tonight, even if it's just a dream

Damn StarsDaily Horoscope: Taurus
For July 20,2007
Whatever scares you the most is also what holds the key to your freedom. If it sounds maddeningly paradoxical -- well, it is. But the stars are saying it's high time to examine your fears and gain your liberty.

Do You???Do you ever look in the mirror,
and find you dont like what you see,
or the face looking back at you ,
Isnt much like it should be,
its almost like a stranger ,
Thats invaded your space,
like someone else is living their dreams,
and your staring at their face ,
Like a fake imbation ,
of something you once thought was real,
something you know that you should want lingers ,
but still you cant help but feel ??
Almost like a passion ,
you forgot to endure ,
Like a hurt with anger ,
a sickness without a cure ,
Like a body thats broken ,
tainted and week ,
and you wonder how it got this far ,
and where on earth you can be,
are you still inside there some where??
will you ever see you again???
Or is this second world and someone else ,
all there really is ????

You AreYou are the one that can bind me in chains,
the one that will inflict the pleasure
and the pains.
You come to my bed like a thief in the night
You torment my senses but it feels so right
Yes, you know I want you again as your ready to inflict the pleasure an pain.
Your lips on my neck cause the fire to grow
Spreading throughout my whole body
as your hands explore to my breasts, then below
You can feel I am more than ready to go
Your fingers caress my dripping slit
Then find the spot that is aching
You bring me so close to the boiling point
Yes, I am yours for the taking
I’ve gone straight past the moans to the screams
As your tongue replaces your hand
You taste my loving cream for a moment driving me insane
You then pull back and drive you member inside
And in the pleasure an pain you thrust your member in fast an hard like thundering rain
on final thrust you consum whole as our entwin we both explode....

Out Of TouchHello Everyone,
Sorry I've not been in touch for the past week, but we moved and didn't have internet. We got turned back on today and all is somewhat well...lol Hope you all are doing good and to hear from you soon!! HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!!

Inside My MindBecause I am the kind of person that has & always will care about what others think of me, I wanted to explain why I might not be as talkative these days as I used to.
I have been dealing with some really serious depression. Too long of a story & probably too boring. I have come to a point in my life where I seriously need to "shit or get off the pot". I either need to work on making me better or.....Anyway, I can't handle feeling the way I am feeling anymore.
I am not looking for sympathy or anything really. I just wanted to explain a little of this so that if you email me, comment me or IM me & I don't reply right away, it's nothing personal.
Hugs & love to all.
PS. I am not going to do anything stupid. I could never hurt the ones I love like that.

July 21, 2007A change might do your world a whole lot of good. That means it's time to get out there -- yes, even you need to show your public a little face time. It'll mean even more coming from a famously private type like you.

Eyes OpenAsleep,
as I feel your touch,
as if my dream world,
and reality are meeting,
I feel your breath upon me,
as you rub my shoulder,
sensations awaken me,
as you kiss me gently.
I love the gentle touch,
of those fingers upon me,
makes me yearn for more,
as I pull you even closer.
Skin to skin and hearts together,
kissing deeply as tongues play,
we begin the rythmic dance,
of lovers in the heat of passion,
Shared moans our music,
and soon it crescendoes,
as we melt into each other,
in an explosion of love's power.

Ozzy Sucksso bad anyone who thinks that sellout can sign has no taste in music

Survey Says....1. What is in the back seat of your car right now? I have a truck with a BIG backseat....but I have only a cd case that belongs to my daughter
2. When was the last time you threw up? A long time ago....
3. What's your favorite curse word? Fuck
4. Name one person who made you smile this morning? Flippy......
5. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? Sleeping
6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Getting ready.
7. If you could marry any celebrity today who would it be? A rich one who is sane, good looking, has a decent sized penis, is straight, has nice teeth, and likes fat chics! Yeah, he doesn't exist, I know lol.
8. Have you ever been to a strip club? Yes
9. What is the last thing you said aloud? Oh shit.....when I almost tripped over my dog!!
10. What is the best ice cream flavor? Chocolate with any type of goodies.
11. What was the last thing you had to drink? Diet Coke
12. What are you wearing right now? Black Dickie capris and a black shirt

Let It Die.I'm just on for a min before I'm off to fake a smile and act like I am fine in front of the girls for dinner. I have to talk about a damn wedding when i just want to crawl into bed. It's funny that "grown ups" can't stick around and talk. I hate fake people and I hate liars. Hate is a strong word and I dislike using it but it really is hate that i have for those two things. I'm a very non conformational person and would rather spare peoples feeling for as long as I can. even if it means that it's killing me or that I throw up from holding shit in. That's how I am and that's how I will always be. I will deal fine I always do, it hurts and i guess mostly because of the way I was treated after being asked over and over what's wrong. This my friends is why I don't open up unless I really think I should.
Don't try to change me........Just walk away and never look back like the rest of them.

I Miss You Aaliyah[Chorus]
It’s been too long and I’m lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I been needin’ you (wanting you)
Wondering if you’re the same and who’s been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
Off to college
Yes you went away
Straight from high school you up and left me
We were close friends, also lovers
Did everything for one another
Now you’re gone and I’m lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow
Come back to me (to me)
Can you hear me (callin)
Hear me callin (for you)
For you
Cuz
[Chorus]
Now I’m sittin here thinking bout you
And the days we used to share
It’s drivin me crazy
[ Miss You. lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
I don’t know what to do
I’m just wondering if you still care
I don’t wanna let you know
That it’s killing me
I know you another life you’ve gotta concentrate baby
Come back to me (to me)
Can you hear me (callin)
Hear me callin (for you)
For you
Cuz

Friends...When you do find a person that becomes a friend and you get closer as the years go by, there is nothing like having them around you. A dear close "best" friend cannot ever be replaced! I have one such friend and he is the most wonderful guy with the biggest heart ever. I would do ANYTHING for him and he would for me.
Never take your friends for granted for they will stand beside you no matter what you have done. Show them how much you love them and never let them go!
Here's to all my friends..... Hugs!!!
Thank you for being my friend!

I Wanna Be With YouI wanna be with lyrics by Mandy Moore.
I try but I cant seem to get myself
To think of anything but you
Your breath on my face
Your warm gentle kiss I taste the truth
I taste the truth
I know what I came here for
So I won't ask for more
I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one who's in your arms
Who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you
So I'll hold you tonight
Like I would if you were mine
to hold forever more
And I'll saver each touch that I wanted
So much to feel before (to feel before)
How beautiful it is
Just to be like this
I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one who's in your arms
Who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
(I wanna be)
[ I wanna be with lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
I wanna be with you
Oh baby

Body Is A WonderlandI love this... the exploration of the body of someone I cherish. Learning and discovering new parts, new emotions, new feelings...
The sweet beginnings to a new relationship... what I would love to find is someone for whom this doesn't fade with me... Am I wrong to want that?
We got the afternoon
You got this room for two
One thing I've left to do
Discover me
Discovering you
One mile to every inch of
Your skin like porcelain
One pair of candy lips and
Your bubblegum tongue
And if you want love
We'll make it
Swim in a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break 'em
This is bound to be awhile
Your body is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands)
Your body is a wonderland
Something 'bout the way the hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase
You tell me where to go and
Though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it
You want lo

♥bout Me!♥JUST SEND DIRECTLY TO ME IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE THEN REPOST THE EMPTY QUESTIONS AS A BULLETIN OR A BLOG AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN SOMEONE RESPONDS TO YOU AND YOUR QUESTIONS.....
♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥
1.)Q. Can you cook?
2.)Q. What was your dream growing up?
3.)Q. What talent do you wish you had?
4.)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be?
5.)Q. Favorite vegetable?
6.)Q. What was the last book you read?
7.)Q. What zodiac sign are you ?
8.)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9.)Q. Worst Habit?
10.)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11.)Q. What is your favorite sport?
12.)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13.)Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14.)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15.)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you:
16.)Q. Do you have any pets?
17.)Q. What if I showe

My Aries Love Profile *lol*Aries - Your Love Profile
Your positive traits:
You're quite the charmer. You've got the wit and attitude to attract almost anyone you meet.
Out spoken and honest, any date knows how they stand with you.
Fearless, independent, and willing to try anything twice - your dates should expect the unexpected.
Your negative traits:
You tend to be vain, and you expect your partner to feed that vanity often with complements.
Hot tempered and impulsive, you've occasionally ended things ... only to regret it later.
You're obsessed with being the best, most loved girlfriend or boyfriend your sweetie's ever had.
Your ideal partner:
A risk taking, free spirit like yourself - who can keep up with your latest wild child antics.
Someone stylish, attractive, and fit... who can keep you attracted for months.
Is hard to get - and lets you pursue things. You prefer to be the chaser, not the one being chased.
Your dating style:
Wild, unpredictable, fun, and daring. Your id

Tight Skirt?One day, at a bus stop there was a girl who was wearing a skintight miniskirt. When the bus arrived and it was her turn to get on, she realized that her skirt was so tight she couldn't get her foot high enough to reach to step.
Thinking it would give her enough slack to raise her leg, she reached back and unzipped her skirt a little. She still could not reach the step. Embarrassed, she reached back once again to unzip it a little more. Still, she couldn't reach the step.
So, with her skirt zipper halfway down, she reached back and unzipped her skirt all the way. Thinking that she could get on the step now, she lifted up her leg only to realize that she still couldn't reach the step.
So, seeing how embarrassed the girl was, the man standing behind her put his hands around her waist and lifted her up on to the first step of the bus. The girl turned around furiously and said, "How dare you touch my body that way, I don't even know you!"
Shocked, the man says, "Well, ma'am, aft

II WANT FOR THINGS I KNOW I WILL NEVER GET
I WISH FOR THINGS I SHOULDN'T WANT
I THINK OF THINGS THAT WILL NEVER BE
I NEED FOR THINGS I CAN'T HAVE
I HOPE FOR THINGS BUT KNOW THEY WON'T HAPPEN

I Dunno Why ButI dunno why but I just found peace of mind, body and soul. I feel truly at peace and ease. In a long I truely feel I alive and in well form. It like I found my heart and soul again. I like the feeling of talk to people and making friends I for some time was fake and lost but now I getting back to my roots and back to the way I should feel and be. i have been a lil lonely but given time that will take care of itself with time. Some of you are going to hate me and stop talking to me. I must take myself off the market and I started talking to someone who I can see myself with and I don't want to live with regrets so I'm going to have to try this out I'm sorry you had to find out this way but it up to you with what you do with this if and how many of you read these do it will show me who my real friends are. With whatever in the near and distent furtur I wish you all the best I hope you will wish me the same my thought and prays will go out to you. No matter what I will always be your fri

"a Plausible Finish"I was reading "The People Look Like Flowers At Last" by Charles Bukowski and came across this poem...Ahhhhh
a plausible finish
there ought to be a place to go
when you can't sleep
or you're tired of getting drunk
and the grass doesn't work anymore,
and I don't mean go on
to hash or cocaine,
I mean a place to go besides
a death that's waiting
and a love that doesn't work
anymore.
there ought to be a place to go
when you can't sleep
besides a tv set or a movie
or a newspaper
or to read a novel.
it's not having that place to go
that creates the people in madhouses
and the suicides.
I suppose what most people do
when there isn't any place to go
is to go to someplace or something
that hardly satisfies them,
and this ritual tends to sandpaper them
into a dullness where they can relax
without hope.
those faces you see everday on the street
were not created
entirely without
hope: be kind to them:
like you
they have not escaped.

Arghhhh .. Sorry ... Rant ...Ok .. am writing this through utter frustration lol ... I love being on here and chatting to people .. but some just dont listen ... and some of the comments men send are hmmmm .... interesting to say the least .. as they seem to get repeated over and over again I thought id show some of them .. if youre a woman please feel free to list some ive forgotten lol ....
Questions that get asked all the time ...
Do you have msn? (Im on a pc chatting .. of course I have msn .. )
Can you get on cam for me? (Errr no??!!)
Do you wanna see me on cam? (For that I would have to give you my msn .. hence the answer .. no...)
Heres my mobile number .. can you send me a pic and then ill delete your number? (LMAO ... yeah right!!!)
Youre gorgeous .. why are you single? (If I knew that I wouldnt be single would I .. sigh)
Do you want a toyboy? (This gets asked a lot .. and to be honest id rather not .. unless you look like Brad Pitt then I may reconsider ..)
Now, those are some

Roadie69 - FffOK - here's the deal. I have gotten into a contest and could use all the help I can get. If you can comment for me it would be appreciated greatly. Another fubar member with an ax to grind has sworn to keep me from winning by rallying her friends to bomb against me - not being very fair to anyone really, but oh well.
Several friends, including myself, have used up all their comments and one wonderful friend is in there on dialup commenting by herself. Could someone please go in and at least keep her company???
Thanks
Roadie

Amazing Home Remedies1. If you are choking on an ice cube simply pour a cup of boiling water down your throat. Presto! The blockage will instantly remove itself.
2. Avoid cutting yourself slicing vegetables by
getting someone else to hold while you chop.
3. Avoid arguments with your wife about lifting the toilet seat by using the sink.
4. For high blood pressure sufferers: simply cut
yourself and bleed for a few minutes, thus reducing the pressure in your veins. Remember to use a timer.
5. A mouse trap, placed on top of your alarm clock will prevent you from rolling over and going back to sleep after you hit the snooze button.
6. If you have a bad cough, take a large dose of
laxatives, after which you will be afraid to cough.
7. You only need two tools in life - WD-40 and Duct Tape. If it doesn't move and should, use the WD-40. If it shouldn't move and does, use the duct
tape.
8. Remember: Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

Myspace Asked To Identify Sex OffendersMySpace Asked to Identify Sex Offenders
Posted May 15th 2007 9:22AM by Tom Conlon
Filed under: Computers, MySpace
http://www.switched.com/2007/05/15/myspace-asked-to-identify-sex-offenders/
The attorneys general of North Carolina, Connecticut, Idaho, Mississippi, New Hampshire, Ohio and Pennsylvania have issued a letter to MySpace asking the social networking giant to supply a list of the registered sex offenders who use the site. According to a statement by North Carolina Attorney General Roy Cooper, the demand comes after law enforcement agencies in those states identified 200 cases of kids being "lured out of their home by predators they met on MySpace."
Unlike public chat rooms that can be patrolled by the fuzz, MySpace allows direct and private contact between predators and potential victims, making them harder to catch.
Unfortunately, when asked to turn over sex offenders in the past, MySpace has claimed that producing such a list would be impossible until there is na

To Every Guy ...To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes
To every guy that would give his seat up.
To every guy that just wants to cudd

Necrophiles:On December 30, 2006, the complete and partial skulls of nineteen people four women, eleven girls and four boys - were discovered on the property of an upscale home in Nithari, a suburb of New Delhi, precipitating a search for more remains. It was obvious at once that the police were dealing with a serial killer, but investigators would soon learn that they in fact had two suspects, possibly three.

Passionate ImpatiencePassionate Impatience
Your touch, I desire.
Your lips I can taste.
Help me calm this burning fire.
Don't let it go to waste.
Your tongue down my spine.
Our bodies intertwined.
Sweating together.
Can't think of anyone better.
The image is making my temperature rise.
How much longer must I wait?
See the passion in my eyes.
Come feel my heart rate.
Up against the wall,
Or do you want me to crawl?
Under a star filled sky,
Or on a bed we can lie.
You're takin my breath away
You're the one I want, you're the one I need.
I refuse to wait one more day.
My body & soul to you I cede.
June 14, 2007 By NYBella

Letters To The Ex...f'in Hilarious!!Dear Husband:
I'm writing you this letter to tell you that I'm leaving you forever. I've been a good woman to you for seven years and I have nothing to show for it. These last two weeks have been hell. Your boss called to tell me that you quit your job today and that was the last straw.
Last week, you came home and didn't even notice that I had a new haircut, had cooked your favorite meal and even wore a brand new pair of silk panties. You ate in two minutes, and went straight to sleep after watching all of your shows. You don't tell me you love me anymore; you don't want sex or anything that connects us as husband and wife. Either you're cheating on me or you don't love me anymore; whatever the case, I'm gone.
Your EX-Wife
P.S. Don't try to find me. Your BROTHER and I are moving away to West Virginia together! Have a great life!
**********
Dear Ex-Wife -
Nothing has made my day more than receiving your letter. It's true that you and I have been married for seven years,

Dont Open Or Read Thisfuck you i told you not to fucking read this asshole...what the hells ur problem...i ought to smack you with fish...then ull listen...itll serve u right too...haha if u read this u got fish slapped...eat me :P

On The Pain Of Running...I've been in the Army for the last 15 years. During that time, I've come to appreciate the joy of running. It's not like I was always a runner. Prior to joining, I weighed in at a hefty 250 lbs, and not in a good way. (I'm 175 lbs now, just in case you wondered; not bad for 6'0" tall and 34 years old).
Since joining, I've run the Army 10-miler twice, and I've run a few half-marathons, 10-K's, and 5-K's. No, I haven't won any races, but I have a butt-load of t-shirts from each run (a veritable wardrobe!).
And while I enjoy running (it's cheap...a pair of good shoes, shorts, and shirt), there is one thing I can't stand about it...BLEEDING NIPPLES!!! OH MY GOD, they hurt SO bad!!! A lot of that comes with lack of preparation. Most of the time, I just start running, so I don't really know how far I'm going. BIG MISTAKE! Next thing I know, I'm 5 miles into it, and my shirt is drenched and rubbing HARD against my sensitive man-nips! Nursing mothers know best what I'm talking

Lets Play Spin The Bottle!The rules are that you post this and wait for someone to send you a message telling you what they would do with you. All you have to do is repost this
with the subject "SPIN THE B0TTLE"
1.I Would Feel your ass
2.I Would kiss you on the cheek
3.I Would kiss you on forehead
4.i would just give you a hug.
5.i would give you a kiss on the lips
6.i would french kiss you
7.i would make out with you
8.i would try and feel you up
9.i would try and fuck you
10.i would shag you all night long
11 i would egnore you after i got your hopes up
If you do not repost this dont worry nothing will happen it just wont be any fun SPIN THE BOTTLE

When Will I See You...forgive me if I'm being sappy this a.m. I'm tired but content this morning... must get coffee into me and snap out of the sappy mood... :) ...
When will I see you again?
When will we share precious moments?
Will I have to wait forever?
Or will I have to suffer and cry the whole night through?
When will I see you again?
When will our hearts beat together?
Are we in love or just friends?
Is this my beginning or is this the end?
When will I see you again?
(When will I see you again?)
When will I see you again?
Are we in love or just friends?
Is this my beginning or is this the end?
When will I see you again?
(When will I see you again?)
When will I see you again?
(When will I see you again?)
When will I see you again?
(When will I see you again?)
When will I see you again?

Mumming RightsI made a mumm about band camp and if it changes your childs life. OF course, IT WAS FLAGGED. Its great to be SHER :) SO Please write scrapper and beg for my mercy. WHY are mumms being flagged, that have no sexual comment, swearing or anything else.

Truth Or Dare...borrowed LolTRUTH OR DARE
5 questions.
5 chances.
5 honest answers.
Thats all you get.
You get to ask me 5 questions.
(TO MY INBOX) Any 5 questions,
anything, no matter how crazy
they are.
And I promise to answer them truthfully.
No catch.
But I dare you to repost
this and see what people ask you

Nigerian 419 Scams Go Live On Im!(yet another article I wrote last year)
I’m an avid user of Instant Messaging (IM). It’s great for immediately contacting friends and family around the globe, sharing family photos, even live video feeds for grandparents thousands of miles away.
There are some terrific IM applications out there like those provided by Yahoo, Microsoft and AOL and for the most part you can chat happily without any issues. I’ve taught my kids to be safe and only allow people they actually know to be added to their list of friends. I use content filtering features and applications on the PC’s in my home that allow me to further protect them. However, because you might host a profile on one of the aforementioned sites, you may still receive the odd request for a chat from someone outside your normal circle of friends and family. Be careful.
We are continually barraged with ne’er-do-wells who are intent on undermining what should be a relaxing experience. Whether its identity theft by Phishing email

Everybody Wants Something.damn Needy People.Well as always everyone want something,but when i need help.Their is not a single damn soul to help me.I am just getting tired of this fucked up bullshit.People ar like fucking spoil brats.Help mr level up,Oh Monster i need a design for a tattoo,Oh i need help rate my picture,rate my profile.Need this,need that.My family is the same,Buy the grocery,help me with this bill,buy me this buy me that buy,need.I fucking had it with this bullshit.I had it with life.I had it with women also.I just give up.I'm to damn tired,and stress out.I draw,cause i love to draw what i want to draw.I want people to like my design,not just leave it as if it was a piece of crap.Oh don't judge a person until you met him or her.Then you be the judge of it.Was he or she a good person,or a good friend.Accept them for who they are,not the color of their skin,or how fat their wallet is,or how they look,or do they have something missing.Thats why the world is so fucked up,cause they pray on ignorance.Anyways i am dis

Sorry Ya'll .. :(Ive been tryin to get to anything so i can get comments for everyone page . and Mozilla is not likin me tonite . and I think its Paired up with IE .. cuz that shit just aint workin .. :( So .. Im sending Luv to everyone thru this . cuz lawd knows how long ill be here before im tossed into the abiss ..
Hugs to all
Wen :)

Good NiteTo all my friends, family and fans!
I am fixing to go to bed for a bit and then get up and go back on the road, just wanted to say good nite/ Good Nite! I will be back in a few days and while i am gone my wife will keep my posted on things. See ya soon!! For all the contest goers in my contest I did not get my check today and i promise as soon as i do i will get your prizes. I will have prizes no later than Friday so please bare with me on that .
Your friend,
Kewlrunning!!!!!!!!!

Inside The Mind Of A PoetWith all the poetry I post here on fubar, I get alot of questions about where and how I come up with my work. So I wanted to take the time to write a little about it to help clear up any confusion there may be out there. Most of my poem are NOT about one specific person. In most cases my poems are from experiences I've had in my life or by watching others, and a bit of fiction to help with the flow of the poem. Granted the "my angel" series is extremely personal and is 99% based on things I am going through right now. I am the fighter in the poems, the hero if you will. Who or what "angel" is, is open for debate and that's fine. Different people are going to take different things from it. Some say "angel" is time, some say she's a real person I'm fighting for, some she it's an opportunity lost to the past. To be honest "angel" can mean 100 different things to 100 different people. I think that's where the beauty of poetry really shines through. Since every one can take whatever they wa

When I Have Nothing To Say, I Close My Eyes...i picture myself in a darkened theater...
no lights... and the screen is blank...
i close my eyes and clear my thoughts, (so hard to do for me sometimes)
i hear no sound, i taste nothing in the air.
when i have nothing to say, i close my eyes...
and they are closed now.
when i open them, i see you there...
your black wings caress my face,
your mastery of my soul completes this
impossible task...
you take my face up into your hands...
you whisper something that i dont understand.
a thousand times i would give my blood to have one moment with you...
you feel the breath leave me as your nail digs into my cheek...
a thousand more i would give my life, to spend one moment inside of you... to feel you pulse with the last moments of my being... to know that the last traces of my mortality was spent to live the moment that i longed for most...
you visit me when i close my eyes,
you leave me when i breathe again...
if you only knew what you did to me...

Monkeystwo mokeys in a bath
one monkeys goes ooohhh ooohh ooohhh
the others says well put some cold water in then

In Need Of SuggestionsHEY ALL MY FRIENDS AND FANS AND FAMILY MEMBERS CHECK OUT THIS SITE YOU CAN FIND ALL SORTS OF SKINS AND TAGS AND TUTORIALS FOR SKINS AND TAGS AND ETC JUST CLICK THE LINK BELOW... I'AM LOOKING FOR SUGGESTIONS ON THE SITE AS TO WHAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE ON THE SITE AND WHAT YOU THINK WE SHOULD ADD TO IT SO PLEASE CHECK IT OUT AND LEAVE A COMMENT WITH UR SUGGESTIONS ON THE SITE AND WHAT YOU THINK WE SHOULD ADD TO IT
Fu-Tags

I HaventHave I ever told you that if I sit really still and silent, sometimes. I like to think I can hear your heart beating in time with mine? Have I ever told you that when I watch you speak to me through lines and cords, and bytes and ram, I imagine your voice, whispering into my ear? Have I ever told you that I wait out each day in anticipation, wanting only an hour or two, just a second in space and time, to feel close to you? Have I ever told you that there has been times, when I ached for you, ached for you so badly, that the emotions overwhelmed me.. and so I sat and cried? Have I ever told you that sometimes, I will reach out, touching your name on this cold screen before me, wishing I could reach in and pull you to me? Have I ever told you thatI love you?

Keep The ManureA man was going out of town and needed to board his horse for a couple of months. He asked a local farmer about it and was told, "Sure, but I charge $50 per week, and I keep the manure."
The fellow can't afford that, so the farmer referred him to ol' Jones, down the road. When approached with the request, Jones said, "Yup, I can do it for $40 a week, and I keep the manure."
This is still too much, and Jones suggested that he try Mr. Brown. When our desperate friend asked Mr. Brown, he is surprised to hear, "Sure, Sonny. I'll be glad to for $5 a month."
With delight, the young man exclaimed, "WOW! I suppose for that price you'll want to keep the manure."
The old man looked at him with kind of a squint, and replied, "Feller, for $5 a month, there ain't gonna be none!"

Seven Dwarfs...The seven dwarfs were each on different little trips. Happy was into grass and grass alone... Happy, that's all he did. Sleepy was into reds. Grumpy. Too much speed. Sneezy was a full blown coke freak. Doc was a connection. Dopey was into everything. Any old orifice will do for Dopey. He's always got his arm out and his leg up. And then, the one we always forget, because he was, Bashful. Bashful didn't use drugs. He was paranoid on his own. Didn't need any help on that ladder.
-George Carlin

Lost And FoundThere is a storm in my heart
It tears my inside apart
I am bleeding and I am hurt
Like a wingless little bird
Then it turns dark
And for a moment I see
The pain that was inside of me
And on a journey I embark
In search of answers
In search of truth
In search of understanding
In search of you
My guiding star in darkness
Like a little stream in the desert
Everything about you seems flawless
But that is what causes the hurt
Your perfect features do not belong to me
You do not deserve my chains
You need to live and see
What it means to be free
So spread your wings and fly away
For I can not fulfill your dream
But if you should fall one day
I'll guide you and be that little stream
So go and discover it all
And know that wherever you go
Whatever you do and might feel
The only thing you need to do is call

Ladies Ladies,,,,do You Get What It Takes?????????Alright ladies, it's time to see if you have what it takes to claim the title of FUBARs' Top Pimpette! Unique Dream is holding a contest to decide just which of you ladies is The Lady!
It is simple.
Rules:
Must have a salute photo.
Pic cannot be NSFW!
No drama of any kind!
Comment bombing and self bimbing allowed.
No down rating.
Points System:
Photo Rates= 10 points per rate.
Photo Comment= 1 point per comment
*At end of contest the winners are decided after total points are added.*
Prizes:
1st Place: 7day Blast or 1month VIF
2dn Place: 3day Blast
3rd Place: $20,000 shopping spree. (in gift shop)
*Contest will run exactly one week (7days) from the time it opens. I will open the contest as soon as i have enough Ladies to join.*
-If u wish to join please send the link to your pic you wish to enter to me via Fmail-
For any questions please contact:
~Unique Dream ~@ CherryTAP
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Where Are All The Virgins By (my Home Girl--shanelWhere are all the virgins!!!!!
Where are all the Virgins???
There are no more left, get over it!!!
U want a nice girl a good woman, a saint!
Shut the hell up because a saint you definitely aint.
I like sexing too, oops don’t say that you’re a lady, that’s not true!
What the hell! Of course its true, and sometimes I like sex, and I don’t like you!!! Sometimes im lonely and I call on you, but at the end of the day that’s all we can do!
Uh oh excuse me if im blunt, you got a wife but you’re not happy!
Well maybe if you were home and paying bills and making love to her we’d all be happy! Instead of running my ear off and wasting my time, while I could be over there talking to that dude who’s single and on the grind! and not to mention he is mmmh mmmh fine!!
Oh I am sorry! Excuse me your not married!!!
My fault! Oh I see you have no job, but you got nice shoes, a gun in your pocket and nothing to lose…Woh! your scaring me! I think im gonna go over there!
Excuse me m

3 Women In Mexico Ha Ha HaHa
Three women go down to Mexico one night to celebrate college graduation.
They get drunk and wake up in jail, only to find that they are to be
executed in the morning - although none of them can remember what they did the night before.
The first one, a redhead, is strapped in the electric chair and is asked if
she has any last words. She says, "I just graduated from Trinity Bible College and believe in the
almighty power of God to intervene on the behalf of the innocent." They
throw the switch and nothing happens.
They all immediately fall to the floor on their knees, beg for forgiveness,
and release her.
The second one, a brunette, is strapped in and gives her last words.
"I just graduated from the Harvard School of Law and I believe in the power
of Justice to intervene on the part of the innocent." They throw the switch and again,
nothing happens.
Again they all immediately fall to their knees, beg for forgiveness and
release her. The last one (you

Life-pictureLife paints a picture..??
Everyone's life is a picture,
Painted by only one person,
Life itself.
The picture shows everything you're doing,
And everything you have done.
But sometimes, Life gets tired.
And doesn't want to paint a picture.
So, Life sends problems to stop you,
If you give up, your picture is finished.
If you keep going, so does your picture.
So the question is:
How soon do you want to see your picture?
Do you want to see it now?
When it could be so much more?
Or later, when there's so much more than before?
It's your choice,
I'll keep going.

This One Is SadThere was a blind girl,
who hated herself
coz of being blind.
She hated everyone,
except her boyfriend..........
One day the girl said;
that if she could only see the world
she would marry her boyfriend.
'they Loved each other'
One day someone
donated their eyes to her,
then she saw everything,
including her boyfriend.
her boyfriend asked her;
"Now that you can see,will u marry me?"
the girl was shocked when she saw her boyfriend is also blind.
she refused to marry him.
Her boyfriend walked away with tears and said,
"Just take care of my eyes dear..."

Cnc Routeri just bought a cnc router, but i have no idea how to set itup it came in a kit, i have a computer and im going to run emc linux on it, but i have no stepper motors or driver board anyone want to give me the kindergarden version of what i need to do ? any help ideas or sugestions will be mostly apreciated, i know what you people are thinking, he cant spell why the bleep bleep is he even considering such a project, well, because i want to
well im not sure of the date but here is an update, im stuck, frozen, fuck!, oh well, i well get going on this someday and have pics, but alas, today is not that day, and tomorrow aint lokin so good either lol

Why My Picture?ok I do not mind if people rip my photos. take a piece of me so you can adore me anytime, but when someone I do not know rips my photo and puts it on their page well that is just nuts. why would anyone want my pic for their page? do you want to be like me? or are you just an insane net freak living in your moms basement? just kinda weirds me out.

Long Distance LoveThe beauty of love lasts a life time, but what happens when the relationship is long distance? It's still the same only hundreds (if not thousands) of miles away. When you're in love it doesn't matter if your loved one is in the same city, state or even country. Love has no distance. Your loved one is always close to you in mind, spirit and soul.

Promise By Tracy ChapmanIf you wait for me then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me, If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find m

Tame The BeastWithin me deep
Lies a hungry soul
Dormant only for
The time being…
When the time comes
It will crawl out
Of my mindless exterior…
The pain for me
Is way too
Much to bear
I cannot tame my beast
Someone please
Take away this pain…
Though sometimes
I try to stop
Before I fall
In too deep
Before my beast
Comes out of me
To go on a search
For its worthless prey.
I am not myself today
Can anyone explain
To me why
Before I start
To cry?!?
Please save me
Before my
Own monster decides
To take me away
From this world
Of ours, forever…
Oh I have
A dark secret
Which within me
Lies way in deep…
No one can
Kill the beast
For it will
Always be part of me.
At least try
To pacify it
Back into its
Original state…
Then and only then
Will everyone get
A peaceful night's rest.

Oblivion Answers To My BeckoningThrough this hazy glass
I see my true desire
Though I cannot grasp it
In the palm of my very own hand
As time passes on
The pain only escalates
Through the tendrils of my heart
The more I see you
The more attached I get
To your Aura
Beauty, and sense of life
Inside I have
Already died for now
Each time I am
Around your presence
My heart re-awakes
In one form or another
I will have to love you
At a distance
Sit back and watch
The time-consuming show
If to have is to hold
Then just what
Will I ever hold
Much less
Be told
Then, that
Life goes on, or even
Now is not the time…
Excuses, Excuses,
There is a real reason
Despite the fact
You want to give
Me a teasing…
Who are you?
What are you?
I will never know…
If I'm held down by you
Then what in the hell
Does it matter?
You have what you want
Go ahead and take it
But

ChangesIt's that time of the year again it seems and I'm growing my moustache and goatee for the end of year cycle rides. I always seem to teeter between clean and this so here we go again. I'll try to get some new pics.

Talk About Throwing Your Money Awayhttp://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20070726/hl_nm/pepsico_aquafina_dc
Aquafina labels to spell out source - tap water By Martinne Geller
Thu Jul 26, 5:31 PM ET
PepsiCo Inc. will spell out that its Aquafina bottled water is made with tap water, a concession to the growing environmental and political opposition to the bottled water industry.
According to Corporate Accountability International, a U.S. watchdog group, the world's No. 2 beverage company will include the words "Public Water Source" on Aquafina labels.
"If this helps clarify the fact that the water originates from public sources, then it's a reasonable thing to do," said Michelle Naughton, a Pepsi-Cola North America spokeswoman.
Pepsi Chief Executive Indra Nooyi told Reuters earlier this week the company was considering such a move.
Pepsi's Aquafina and Coca-Cola Co's Dasani are both made from purified water sourced from public reservoirs, as opposed to Danone's Evian or Nestle's Poland Spring, so-called "spring wa

Don't Say A WordEddie went shopping for a new motorcycle. He finally found one for a great price, but it was missing a seal, so whenever it rains, he would have to smear Vaseline over the spot where the seal should''ve been.
His girlfriend was having him over for dinner to meet her parents. He rode his new bike to her house, where she was outside waiting for him. "No matter what happens at dinner tonight, don''t say a word." She told him, "Our family had a fight awhile ago about doing dishes. We haven''t done any since, but the first person to speak at dinner has to do them."
Steve sat down for dinner and it was just how she described it. Dishes were piled up to the ceiling in the kitchen, and nobody was saying a word. So Steve decided to have a little fun. He grabbed his girlfriend, threw her on the table, and had sex with her in front of her parents. His girlfriend was a little flustered, her dad is obviously livid, and her mom horrified when he sat back down, but no one said a word.
A few

5 Signs Your Boy's Cheatin1. Lack of intimacy. This doesn’t always have to be in the form of sex. It can be a decline of touching, cuddling, holding hands or kissing.
2. He cheated on his old girlfriends. If you can talk to some of his old girlfriends, by all means, do it. However, make sure to ask his ex-girlfriends in a kind and calm manner so they do not become defensive. A cheating boyfriend will usually repeat their behavior with their next girlfriend.
3. He avoids you. A big sign of a cheating boyfriend is when he makes up all sorts of excuses as to why he can’t be with you because he’s spending time with his “other” girlfriend. If he has to work late, stay after school, is always with his friend’s or co-workers more than usual, these could be the excuses your boyfriend is using to cover up his cheating ways.
4. He never answers his cell phone around you. A way to tell if your boyfriend is cheating is if he always turns his ringer off around you or walks out of hearing distance from you. These a

Abusei can not stand abuse any abuse it makes me sick i just want to tell them people what there doing is wrong and they should be shot or put in the street run over by a car don't you agree with me that im right ain't i leave comment and tell me what should be done in this country

Girls, Girls, GirlsGirls...what are we doing these days? Now I want to say that not all of us are like this but many are showing what we are not and representing a sex symbol rather than an intelligent being. We are using our bodies to get what we want and if we don't like our bodies we spend thousands of dollars to fix that. Now there is nothing wrong with plastic surgery but going to the extreme to get jobs and attention is wrong. We are fighting with other girls, judging and always having to be on top! Like Pink says in her song, Where are the girls with Ambition? The girls that have a future and have a vision? Where are they?

Interesting ObservationsThe paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much , and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger thin

Our Circle Of FriendsIt is by chance we met, by choice we became friends.
Friendship is a strange thing---
we find ourselves telling each other the deepest details of our lives,
things we don't even share with our families who raised us.
But what is a friend? A confidant? A lover?
A fellow email junkie? A shoulder to cry on?
An ear to listen? A heart to feel?...
A friend is all these things...and more.
No matter where we met, I call you friend.
A word so small yet so large in feeling,
a word filled with emotion.
It is true great things come in small packages.
Once the package of friendship has been opened,
it can never be closed.
It is a constant book always written
waiting to be read and enjoyed.
We may have our disagreements, we may argue,
we may concern one another,
friendship is a unique bond that lasts through it all.
A part of me is put into my friends,
some it is my humor, some it is my listening ear,
some it is real life experiences, some it is my romanticism
but

*** Last Night ***I lie awake waiting for you. As I lie on my bed, thinking about you, I feel the strong urge to grab you and squeeze you, because I can't forget last night.
You came to me unexpectedly during the balmy and calm night, and what happened in my bed still leaves a tingling sensation in me.
You appeared from nowhere and shamelessly, without any reservations, You lay on my naked body....
You sensed my indifference, so you applied your hungry mouth to me without any guilt or humiliation, and you nearly drove me crazy while you drained me.
Finally I went to sleep.
Today when I woke up, you were gone. I searched for you but to no avail, only the sheets bore witness to last night's events.
My body still bears faint marks of your enthusiastic ravishing, making it harder to forget you.
Tonight I will remain awake waiting for you.......
"You fucking mosquito!!"
he he he...Tc n peace..Boo

Avoid This Personcannabis user name thinks if you rate a guy off a guy youre gay all my friends and others avo

-1- Lost!And just so y'all know, I found my way to where I was going, turns out the road I was on turned INTO Pecos Rd, so I was good to go!!
Leave some love, let me know if ya liked it!
*kisses*
~Sinful

Which Tarot Card?You are The Devil
Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession
The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.
Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because

Song For You LyricsThis song is very special to me. Not only the music is beautiful, but the words make it awesome.
I've been so many places in my life and time
I've sung a lot of songs, I have made some bad rhymes
I've acted out my life in stages with ten thousand people watching
But we're alone now and I'm singing this song for you
I know your image of me is what I hope to be, I've treated you unkindly
But darlin can't you see, there's no one more important to me
So darling can't you please see through me, 'cause we're alone now
And I'm singing my song for you, you taught me precious secrets
The truth withholding nothing, you came out in front
When I was hiding, but now I'm so much better
So if my words don't come together, listen to the melody
'Cause my love is in there hiding
I love you in a place where there is no space or time, I love you for my life
'Cause you are a friend of mine, and when my life is over
Remember, when we were together
We were alone and I was s

A.r.k.Just watched the movie Evan Almighty...Awesome movie! Very funny! And picked up a great piece of inspiration from it. If you want to change the world,all you need is an A.R.K.(Act of Random Kindness). If everyone did this(without looking for any type of personal gain) The world would be much better than it is, I think...Comments on this are welcome:) Have a wonderful day to all of you:)

So True!If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you
deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends."
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like
he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different
women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you
any differently?
Always have your own set of f

Laugh For July 30Wags to Wagers
One night a man decides to visit his local bar...
He takes a seat and orders a beer.
After polishing off his beer, he beckons the bartender over and says, "Betcha $20 I can bite my eye."
The bartender scoffs and accepts the wager.
The man then calmly removes his false eye and bites it.
The bartender be grudgingly forks over the loot.
Later that night, after a few more beers, the man wanders back to the bar and says rather drunkenly, "Hey barkeep, betcha another $20 I can bite my other eye."
Wanting to win back his money, and seriously doubtful that the man has two false eyes, the bartender accepts the wager.
The man calmly removes his false teeth and bites his other eye!
Scowling, the bartender hands over another twenty.
The man leaves and wanders around the bar as he drinks a few more beers.
He strolls back over to the bar, leaning on it, again and calls the bartender, "Hey, barkeep," he burbles,
"I'll give you a chance to win

Pay The Bill Or We Dig 'em UpROTORUA, New Zealand, July 28 A New Zealand funeral home director allegedly threatened to dig up a teenager's body because his family hadn't paid for his funeral.
Richard Bennison of Gray's Funeral Services in Rotorua said he hoped the threat would pressure the family to pay up, The Herald on Sunday reported.
Bennison said he would not have been allowed to carry through on his threat, but the dead teen's sister said Bennison "gave me the impression that it would happen."
Copyright 2007 by UPI

PainMy back hurts. It hurts so bad I can barely sit here and type. I wish I knew what I did to make it hurt so bad. I just want to break down crying right now. I just want to go home and lay down and go to sleep but I can't, I dont have any time I can take off work and I have stuff I need to get done here. Ahhhh.

Sex DriveKiss it all
my order is tall
fullfill my desires
and take me higher
Give it to me rough
when you are inside me
talk dirty to me
you know how I like it
make me cum
you know I can't fight it
pull my hair
make me scream your name
fuck me so good
that i'll never be the same
I'll play your game
wear whatever you like
be your maid
we can go all night
wear me out
make my body writhe
if you've got the passion
I've got the drive

Solve This Puzzlesolve the puzzle
You are riding on a beautiful white horse.
On your left side is a drop off.
On your right side are several ostriches being chased by a lion.
In front of you are four large gazelles which won't get out of your way and you can't seem to overtake them.
Behind you is a stampede of horses.
What must you do to get out of this highly dangerous situation?
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* Get your drunk ass off the merry-go-round. *

Graphics SitesI know some time ago i posted a blog with some graphics sites .. but after a while its good to have something new .. If anyone has some good ones they care to share .. toss em at me :)
Thanks
Xoxoxox
Cherrypye

Former Adolph Guilani Is Shooting His Mouth OffGiuliani: Dems want nanny government By PHILIP ELLIOTT, Associated Press Writer
12 minutes ago
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070730/ap_on_el_pr/giuliani_democrats
Republican presidential hopeful Rudy Giuliani on Monday accused Democrats of favoring a controlling "nanny government" as he continued his bashing of the rival party.
The former New York mayor, opening a two-day campaign trip in the first primary state, also claimed that Democrats would raise taxes between 20 percent to 30 percent. He offered no specifics to back up those figures.
"Democrats are kind of falling over each other seeing who can raise taxes faster," Giuliani said. "It looks like they're going to raise taxes anywhere between 20 to 30 percent. John Edwards just said he's going to raise the capital gains tax double that. Last time we did that, we lost 40 percent in revenue. The last time we did what John Edwards is discussing, the United States lost revenue by basically discouraging people from making

Next Happy Hoiur Mine 7th So Farhappy hour up next one is mine come on fans friends family interseted people getting points rock the fubar god bless derek lets all level up

Thank You Levelers.I just wanted to again say thank you for all your love you show everyone every day.A special Thank you to al of you that continuely bombed this page so we could start off at a decoent level. Im going to be setting the homepage up one of our level ups we did today has offerend to make us a special skin for it so im excited about that.
Im going to be adding as our tags things you can use like showing love and all kinda of different things.Thank you Lauria and Jodi for making us leveling tags.Ive got some other friends that have offered to do them too.I need some guy things...Hint hint Mark:)
Have a great night Much Love BooBoo

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The Court System Sux....Went to court today, to try and get custody of my oldest son. Well it didnt happen. The reason I was trying to get him is cause his mother beats him, she lets her husband hit him. What is wrong with the system! What does she have to kill him for them to do something?? The DHHS wont do nothing at all. We cant find any proof that any thing is wrong. I havent stopped crying since I left him there. My son even told them he wants to live with me. Im just at a lost right now.

Now A Days Sex Is A Matter Of Life Or DeathI'mma
Flirt...
I'm happily married with two kids. I like to flirt. I
flirt with my wife and with my wife watching. Flirting is both a turn on and
fun. I love it when women flirt back because it challenges the mind. But no
matter what I say or how I say it, I'm not breaking my vow. My most treasured
rule has helped me keep that vow.
I will not have sex with a
woman I do not trust.
(And just for the
record... I will never have sex with a man.)

Plz Rate My Profile!!!i would be so thankfull if u could rate me so i could rate more pictures then what my status will let me...thank u to whoever took the time to read this.love all my fubar friends..take care and have a good one..

So True....LOVE starts with a SMILE,
grows with a KISS,
and ends with a TEAR.
DON'T cry over anyone
who won't cry over you.
Good FRIENDS are hard to find,
harder to leave,
and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push.
ACTIONS speak louder than words.
The HARDEST thing to do
is watch the one you love,
love somebody else.
DON'T let the past hold you back,
you're missing the good stuff.
LIFE IS SHORT.
If you don't look around
once in a while you might miss it.
A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover,
HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE.
Some people make the world
SPECIAL just by being in it.
BEST FRIENDS are the siblings
God forgot to give us.
When it HURTS to look back,
and you're SCARED to look ahead,
you can look beside you
and your BEST FRIEND will be there.
TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS.
Friends are FOREVER.
Good friends are like STARS
You don't always see them,

Martha Stewart's Tips For Rednecks>
> GENERAL:
>
> 1. Never take a beer to a job interview.
>
> 2. Always identify people in your yard before shooting at them.
>
> 3. It's considered tacky to take a cooler to church.
>
> 4. If you have to vacuum the bed, it is time to change the sheets.
>
> 5. Even if you're certain that you are included in the will, it is
still rude
> to drive the U-Haul to the funeral home.
>
>
> DINING OUT:
>
> 1. When decanting wine from the box, make sure that you tilt the
paper cup
> and pour slowly so as not to "bruise" the fruit of the vine.
>
> 2. If drinking directly from the bottle, always hold it with your
hands.
>
>
> ENTERTAINING IN YOUR HOME:
>
> 1. A centerpiece for the table should never be anything prepared by a
> taxidermist.
>
> 2. Do not allow the dog to eat at the table, no matter how good his
manners
> are.
>
>
> PERSONAL HYGIENE:
>
> 1. While ears need to be cleaned regularly, this is a job

We Are Not Living In A Free Country!http://www.infowars.com/articles/ps/flag_couple_terrorized_assaulted_arrested_for_upside_down_flag.htm
Couple Terrorized, Assaulted and Arrested For Flying an Upside Down U.S. Flag
Police officer recently returned from Iraq smashed into Kuhn's home, choked husband and then claimed they assaulted him
Prison Planet | July 31, 2007
Alex Jones & Paul Joseph Watson
A North Carolina couple who were terrorized by a police officer who had recently returned from Iraq are now fighting back, after sheriff's deputy Brian Scarborough broke into their house, assaulted them and then arrested the Kuhns for the crime of flying an upside down U.S. flag.
Mark and Deborah Kuhn of Asheville, North Carolina made headlines last week when they were arrested for flying an upside down U.S. flag, a commonly recognized sign of distress, in their backyard, after police claimed they were violating a statute for "desecration of the flag".
As is supported by the United States Flag Code as well as

Never Again.I don't know how to feel at all anymore,
Not since you lost me.
And the actions I take,
every day of my life should make me feel remorse
somewhere deep inside,
but I don't,
I don't feel anything.
I'm empty since you.
And I'm not that person
that I know you think I am,
You had me once,
I'm broken,
never again.

The $10 Drinking BetThe $10 Drinking Bet
A fellow walks into a bar,
notices a very large jar on the
counter, and sees it's filled
to the brim with $10 bills.
He guesses there must be more
than ten thousand dollars in
it.
He approaches the bartender and
asks, "What's with the money
jar?"
"Well...you pay $10 and if you
pass three tests, you get all
the money and the keys to a
brand new Audi TT. The man
certainly isn't going to pass
this up. And so he asks.. "What
are the three tests?"
"Pay first... those are the
rules," says the bartender. So
the man gives him the $10 and
the bartender drops it into the
jar.
"OK," the bartender says, "
Here's what you need to do:
First - You have to drink that
entire liter of Blanco tequila,
the whole thing, all at once ... and ...you can't make a face while doing it.
Second, there’s a pit bull
chained-up out back with a
sore tooth. You have to remove
the tooth with your bare hands.
Third. There's a

Mumm Comment On Giving AdviceAnother MUMM comment. Some people were telling this guy to mind his on business and were being very rude about it. Most of them were women. Some even thought he was a woman and thought maybe he was the woman he was referring to.
The second paragraph in my comment is called the "Etiquette Shutdown." It will get you this biggest apologies from any woman who ever rude to you. That is, unless they storm off, which hasn't happened to me yet.
http://fubar.com/mum.php?id=132713
"Should she keep him or send him packing?"
Q: Someone close has been seeing a guy who she had dumped a while back. The short version is that he was arrested for a DUI, not his first time. He's a schoolteacher and as such should be a role model.
Anyway, she took him back now that he is going to meetings and treatment. I tend to think he's bad news since she's already tending toward alcoholism herself, but what do I know?
Considering this is an online bar, perhaps you all know far better than I...so pl

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Plz Help A Great FriendTHX so much for helping out a friend. Come on and click the pic...cant wait to see u all there. *Muah*

Word 's Of Inspiration“Therefore, I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours” (Mark 11:24, NIV).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
Has God spoken things to your heart that haven’t come to pass yet? Sometimes when we are believing for things, it’s easy to let circumstances and the pressures of life drag us down. But when you make the choice to receive your promise by picturing it in your mind’s eye, and declaring it with the words of your mouth, your faith becomes stronger. You begin to feel more confident. You begin to feel more settled. You begin to have joy and peace because you know God is working behind the scenes on your behalf. What are you believing for God to do in your life today? Can you see it in your mind’s eye? Can you see yourself healed? Can you see yourself paying off that last debt? Can you see yourself at your ideal weight? Can you see yourself sharing the gospel with a family member or coworker? Ask the Lord to give you the

Things To Ponderhad amnesia once -- or twice.
*****
Protons have mass? I didn't even know they were Catholic.
*****
I am neither for nor against apathy.
*****
All I ask is a chance to prove that money can't make me happy.
*****
If the world were a logical place, men would be the ones who ride horses sidesaddle.
*****
What is a "free" gift? Aren't all gifts free?
*****
They told me I was gullible and I believed them.
*****
Teach a child to be polite and courteous in the home, and when he grows up, he'll never be able to merge his car onto the freeway.
******
Experience is the thing you have left when everything else is gone.
*****
One nice thing about egotists ... they don't talk about other people.
*****
My weight is perfect for my height ... which varies.
*****
I used to be indecisive. Now, I'm not sure.
*****
The cost of living hasn't affected its popularity.
*****
How can there be self-help groups?
*****
If swimming is so good for your figure, how do you explain wha

You Have Got To Be Fucking Kidding Me!!I cannot believe this...so much for reforming...and punishing...for the wrong that people do!!
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4200 To LevelWE ARE FINISHING CIARRA HERE IS ONE FOR THOSE FO YOU DONT RATING...THANKS FOR HELPING
Shes a leveler ..And she return the love...
MammaT@ fubar

What If?O.k. I wanna stash some items in which I believe isn't right an you all may think the same but it's just fer show and not meaning anything by it. HITLER is what I'm thinkin? If it's not kewl then I shall not post it...What do you think?

I Give UpOk I have to see that there is something about me thats not what men want for a gf.. Im so sick of men wanting me for just sex.. more so the men like this fat fucker that keeps writing me about WOULD I HAVE SEX FOR MONEY. u know what F U.. Not only that im sick of the whole lieing.. If ur a man then act like one.. I know im not pretty or in the best shape. I also know that I like to be spoild.. Never had it before so DUH like it when i get it.. U know i hate this cause i dont want to be alone.. An i have found some one that im happy with.. An he has all the things i want in a man.. But two things.. Does not want me in that way. An looks at other girls. Im not one of a kind.. Im just not that girl.. All i get feed is BS.. Y cant i have that good man.. why cant i be treated well and be able to call them mine.. Im puting my heart up.. i wont fill with it any more.. I want love with it only for my kids and family.. there are friends i love.. but i just cant do this.. I will always be a fri

Short PoemzLOVE IS JUST A WORD
SO IS FUCK
BOY FREINDS GIRL FREIND
BABY FATHERS BABY MOTHERS
WORDS ACTION MEANING
IS IT NOT WORDS START WARS
END THEM AND START AGAIN
WORDS ARE THE MOST POWERFUL THING
WHY PEOPLE WACTH WORDS THAT COME FROM LIPS

That Was Funn-ay!so we've finally found a ride that Mami is scared of. I don't know what it's called but I've never heard her scream before in my lfe. My mother isn't scared of ANYTHING.... but that ride. :D

Real TalkReal talk..... You know what I'm talking about. Nothing but honest, straight up talk. No bullshit, honesty, no games. Saying it all whether it hurts or not. The intention is not to hurt, but to relate to a person on a certain level. This type of talk feels good, because they actually care what you have to say, no matter how silly it is at times. They want to know you, what makes you who you are. You want to know them inside and out. This brings you to a certain level of intimacy. Not sexual but spiritual I guess could be the word for lack of a better at this time. It gives you a connection, a closeness an undescribable bond. Something you were never expecting in your life, but there it is smacking you in the face. Makes you feel good to, to have a confidant this close. Has your back no matter what life brings to your relationship. Thanks.. you know who you are.

As A Reminderi want to remind all my family and friends that Saturday is my birthday and we will be celebrating it at little Country Lounge on Dort hwy, near stanley road....I wont have a computer for the rest of the week, hopefully will have it by the weekend. However i NEED to know who all can make it so that i can save tables....So with that being said please call Danielles Cell phone at 810-820-5706 and let us know if u can make it or not....I really hope to see everyone there,..it would mean alot to me and make a really great birthday....
~Steve~

NaiveIt feels great doesn't it
To put me down and beat me senseless
The tears dampen my shirt
and you don't even know you caused them to
I'm sick of the pulling of my heart
One day you're so sweet
Then the next you rip out my heart
Its more painful that way
But you like that don't you
You build me up so you can tear me down
its a vicious cycle
and i fall for it every time
In hopes you have changed
That you really do care
But thats just the hopes of a naive lil girl

What Is Up With Theok what's up with the entering of characters now before posting comments? or is it just me LOL or am i under probation for some bad commenting or something...

Live Life To The FullestThe other day I got to thinking about life and what it is all about.
I must admit that the more I thought about it the less I realized I knew what it meant.
But this I tell you, with the anniversary of the death of three of my first taking place this month and my grandfather dying late last month it became apparent to me life is fragile and short. Live life to the fullest.
I have swum with stingrays, at 85 feet bellow the surface of the Caribbean ocean.
I have seen the world from 10,000 feet high up on the Himalayan Mountains.
I have tasted love from the purest fountains.
I have felt the sweet embrace of a woman who loved me and I loved her.
I have felt the despair of losing the love of a woman I loved more then my life itself.
So I tell you it is better to have loved and lost then never have loved at all.
I have felt the agony of defeat.
I have felt the thrill of victory.
I have felt the pride of doing the seemly impossible.
I know what it is like to be tough.
F

On VacationIm out and about living a real life for a bit.
Ill be back online whenever Charter decides to hook the net back at my new place.
I miss you all.

Long ForI long for your soft lips on my burning skin to take you, possess you, make you mine warm flesh pressed so close onto our bed your master and slave in love's sweet service in sweet surrender to love's sublime call lay beside me, moan for me, a hungry melody in time hours pass in our journey to that secret place where we flow like river currents entwined twin streams bound tightly by true love your back arches, in sweet surrender you belong to me forever your mountain strong until the end of time I shall protect you and never let you go I cherish the gift you bring to me so freely that you win my heart and I cry your name we are both bound tight in this dance for I am a slave to you in love's service bound to you forever body and soul as you are my love slave forevermore sweet surrender to love's seductive call two wild hearts thunder together as one

I Think It Is Funny....I really think it it funny that my mumms have been reported everyday, every week, for how long? now that it is bothering some people, they want to have these mumm compaigns. THIS HAS BEEN GOING on for along time and it doesn't really matter until it happens to you!
LIFE GOES ON....
AND I broke up with SUGA for good :)
CARRY ON

8500to LevelPLEASE SHOW SOME LOVE PICTURES ARE MAXED...HELP LEVEL UP
I LOVE AMY LANETTE ROBERTSON@ fubar

SickWell lets see. This is Tuesday. On Sunday, I had to take Izayah to the emergency room. He is 3 months old and had a fever of 102.6. We went straight there and by the time we got there his fever spiked to 104.2. The had stuck him 6 times trying to get blood from him. I was so pissed. It turns out that he has viral pharynitis. In other words...hand foot and mouth disease. Its just a virus that people get mainly during the summer. Now 2 days later, I got it. My throat is killing me. I can barely swallow. It sucks so bad. I slept all day long due to a fever. I got up long enough to go to my kids' practices and went right back to bed when we got home. This just sucks. I hope nobody else in the house gets it cuz it just makes you miserable. Well I will write more later, xoxo

Ed For Married Men???As I listened to the radio this morning, I heard a startling fact from a study just done out of China (I think). The statistic was that 80% of men that have been married for 5 years experience E.D. This scared the crap out of me! I am getting ready to come up on my 3rd year (December 11) and wondered 1> does it just happen, or 2> do you just not end up being "that into her" after a while and can't get it up? So, I wonder if at year number 5 if I should find a little on the side to make sure I can please my wife forever? (Not really, just a silly thought).

Is Everything Really Bigger In Texas?NOT SURE ABOUT EVERYTHING ELSE BUT TEXXAS HAS GOT ONE BIG OL BUTT THATS FO SHO, AND SHE LOVES TO SHOW IT OFF, NOW IF YOU GO TO HER PROFILE AND SHOW HER SOME LOVE, I KNOW SHE'LL GIVE IT ALL BACK, AND MAYBE SOME EXTRA *wink*!
TeXXas...@ fubar
SO HEAD OVER THERE AND DROP SOME LOVE, IF NOT FOR HER, DO IT FOR THE ENTIRE COMMUNITY, OR FOR YOUR DOG, OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT!!
CHEERS TO ALL OF YOU!
DRINK DRANK DRUNK
Drunk1{NSFW MILFsStalkingVictim}{theTanksGM}@ fubar

MeI DO ALL THE THINGS THAT I DO, FOR OTHERS. I DONT EXPECT THINGS IN RETURN BUT NOW PEOPLE ARE TAKING ME FOR GRANTED WITH THEIR DEMANDS AND WANTS FROM ME. I AM MORE THAN WILLING TO BE FREE WITH MYSELF. I DONT ASK FOR ANYTHING FROM ANYONE AND I DONT THINK OTHERS SHOULD KEEP ASKING FROM ME, BUT RESPECT AND I DONT WANNA F**K EVERYONE! I AM HERE FOR FUN AND SIMPLY SAID THATS ALL! LOVE TO ALL!

Pumkins!!!I can't play these fugames at work. This computer is lame and won't let me play.
So don't think I'm ignoring the requests, I just can't play them! :(

Really Far BehindMake Me Miss August! Vote for Miss Lush- Keep up the votes everyday!
Currently #2!!! Let's keep me on top! YOUR Votes DO count and HELP!
I need your help to put me into the tristate hotties calendar!
Vote in the Calendar contest as well as playing cards contest!
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Help me win!! PLEASE JOIN!!!!!!! It will really help me get further!
Vote for Miss Lush for August!! Let's do it this time Really! Thanks for all who have been participating and helping and thanks to those who will make me win this upcoming month!!

Damnyes i have big tits and a huge ass..big fucking deal..don't state the obvious to me..when it's attatched me my body ..so i know it all to well..i swear some of you act like you never seen tits and ass before...

RisingIt begins
You slowly lay me down
And the magic begins
I feel it beginning to flow through me
Slightly at first
Growing stronger with each passing moment
Ecstasy? Pleasure? Euphoria?
There are no words to describe your touch
I am soon enveloped in your strength, your hold
I feel you gripping my entire being
Every inch of me at the height of it's senses
I close my eyes... and feel
This is all I can do
I want to cry
I let a tear slide
If only this feeling would never end
And we've only begun

Ta For The DrinksI WANT TO SAY THAT U ALL CAME THROUGH FOR ME,I HAD NEVER BEEN ALL THE WAY DRUNK,IT WAS VERY NICE,LETS KEEP IT UP..MUCH LUV MY FRIENDS

It's OfficalI'm coming home to the states on Sunday... i'll be leaving here on Sunday afternoon and arrive in Dayton Ohio at 3pm... i hate the long ass flight but i'll deal.. i won't have to do it anymore... oh yeah thats whats up? i am too excited... i am ready to leave this place! that is for sure! but its for the best and so i can move on and be happy! i have a kid to think about! so i am excited but keep me in your prayers... for this flight... i hate flying! and its like 13 hours... ugh...

So I Just Realized....That some motherbastard stole my blue pen and replaced it with a black one.
I've been so busy i JUST noticed I was writing with a black non retractable pen.
O_o

Please Pray For HerI was watching the local news last night and seen a very sad story that happened around here. Well their was a mom and her 2 daughters, one whom was 11 and her name was Hannah, well anyways the were going through a stop light and all of a sudden this woman ran the light and hit Hanna's mom's vehicle. Well Hannah's mom and sister are ok but little Hannah is in the hospital in Pediatrics ICU, in critical condition. Well the woman who ran the light just got a ticket. Well I would like everyone to please pray for Hannah that she makes it, this happened 10 days ago. It is so sad to here this, seeing that I have a 4 year old and pregnant. It just breaks my heart. I don't have a picture of her, but I just ask to please pray for her cause it could be you or your family. Thank you for taking the time to read this.

18 Years Of Wasted Time A Life Full Of Happiness To GainWithout getting into to much detail I will say this and what I learned. I was what I thought Best friends with someone for a long time. To my surprise.. this person never really cared.I only saw what I wanted to see..I thought that he was caring,devoted and loving and that our friendship would never end. Instead what was really there was a self absorbed person who never cared about anything except his own wants and needs. He had left my life a few times before because I wasnt giving him what he wanted which was me those times were hard on me, This time I see the light and realise that this is the beginning of my life, he was holding me back in many ways. The bad thing was I was letting him. God that was stupid ! Well there is nothing I can do to change the past and change the fact that he was in my life but now I can say I can not make the mistake again. Out of everything in my life he was the worst mistake I have ever made in my entire life and trust me I have made plenty. They say th

Screamsthis is a poem i wrote for my mother r.i.p. it is called "screams".............i want to be in your body mind and soul...and in your heart and love you more than a dream could ever be in the deepest sleep of anyones night with my face pressed up against a glass window wanting that life back so bad but its so far out of reach deeper than any ocean blue leaving me lost like flowers without rain....like thunderstorms without lightning ...i wanna live and not just exsist and it is all more than a dream to me can i go on?without my SCREAMS?and be happy? in love like a dream??or is it all just make believe? none the less its more than a dream to me .........and makes me wanna scream.............

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Funny....A woman pregnant with triplets was walking down the street when a masked
robber ran out of a bank and shot her three times in the stomach. Luckily
the babies were OK. The surgeon decided to leave the bullets in because it
was too risky to operate. She gave birth to two healthy daughters and a
healthy son.
All was fine for 16 years, and then one daughter walked into the room in
tears.
"What's wrong?" asked the mother. "I was taking a tinkle and this bullet
came out," replied the daughter.
The mother told her it was okay and explained what happened 16 years ago.
About a week later the second daughter walked into the room in tears. "Mom,
I was taking a tinkle and this bullet came out."
Again the mother told her not to worry and explained what happened 16 years
ago.
A week later her son walked into the room in tears. "It's okay" said the
Mom, "I know what happened You were taking a tinkle and a bullet came out."
"No," said the boy, "I was playing with myself a

No One Has A Crush On Me. :(I guess my theory of me being is true. I am that ugly! Rated a 6 on a photo that I deleted because it pissed me off. I went to put my picture up on a radio stations web site and out of 10 I got a 1 or 2! :( yeah so I thought I share what was on my mind. :(

Life Is Like A Bunch Of RosesLife is like a bunch of roses, It changes day by day
but then when the roses die there's nothing else to say
like a rose life changes, it is once beautiful, but then dies
when the soft red petals hit the ground you want to harmonizelife is like roses in many ways, it doesn't last long enough
but even though life is short the roses stand up tough
like life a rose is a beautiful thing, and shouldn't be gone to waste
life is taken one step at a time even in a slow pace
don't ever take life or roses for granted, or you will always regret
karma will always come back to you and do something you wont forget
life is like a bunch of roses, once beautiful, but then dies
like roses life should be taken seriously not just for sympathize.

I'm Pregnant!I've been with my boyfriend on and off for 6 years. We've gone through some of the worst times in my life. However, every best time in my life has been with him. A few days ago I found out I am pregnant and we without hesitation started lauging and hugging and kissing and smiling. This will be my first child, as well as his. Our money situation is good right now but not exactly stable (we just started a business so even though it's doing well, who knows if it will stay that way). I've wanted a baby with him since I fist started dating him. For all of you parents out there, I want to know, do kids really mess up a relationship? I'm scared to death something like that will happen. My boyfriend and I have somewhat of an open relationship. I'm bisexual and of course, he doesn't mind. We don't lie to each other no matter what and we have the same goals, fantasies, and ways of thinking. BUT I'M STILL SCARED TO DEATH! What if I'm not a good mother, or we break up and have to seper

Just One Of Those Days ...ever had one of those days when you just do not care. seems like too much effort to worry, to think and to do anything. that would be how I feel today.
*sigh* feel like no body switched the light on in my brain this morning. feels weird. was riding the bike to school this morning and I so easily could of had an accident just because I was off in fairy land. ever had that feeling like you're not moving, but you physically are moving, like walking on a treadmill, the scenery changes but you're not going anywhere. really is a mind fuck I know.
got this eery gut feeling of loneliness as well. creeps up every now and then but I try and bury it. this will sound so pathetic and desperate but I miss love but more than anything else I miss being loved. however I do not get this from anyone, not even my family. just makes me sad and lonely.
yeah, just one of those days ...

Bullshit For Today I Guess!WELL THE BULLSHIT FOR TODAY IS! THIS FUCKING HEAT! TV SAID IT IS GONNA BE 103 TODAY. THAT IS WAY NOT KOOL. PLUS EVEN IF U DID GO SWIMMING LIKE I WOULD LOVE TO DO THEN YOU WOULD BE BOILED ALIVE LIKE A LOBSTER OR AT LEAST I WOULD CAUSE I GOT FAIR SKIN AND FRECKLES. I MEAN COME ON IT IS AUG. CAN'T WE HAVE A FREAK COLD FRONT EVEN IF IT IS FOR A FEW DAYS. MAKES YOU THINK YOU IN IRAQ WITH THE SOLDIERS WITH ALL THIS FREAKING HEAT. OKAY THAT IS THE WEATHER BULLSHIT. NOW OTHER BULLSHIT IS I AM A CRAZY BITCH! YES I KNOW IT AND THEREFORE I AM EVEN MORE CRAZY. INSANITY IS MY BEST FRIEND AND IF IT HELPS ME ESCAPE FROM THIS FUCKED UP WORLD EVEN FOR A FEW FLEETING MOMENTS IT IS WORTH IT. ONLY THING MISSING IS A BIG BOTTLE OF VODKA AND GOOD FRIENDS TO GET DRUNK WITH. BUT JUST THINK THE WEEKEND IS RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER HELL YEAH. I AM READY FOR THAT BITCH TO GET HERE HOW ABOUT THE REST OF YOU? WELL THAT IS THE BULLSHIT THOUGHT FOR TODAY I HOPE YOU ENJOY THE READ AND IF NOT THEN SUCK MY BIG FAT JUICEY

Just VentingOk so im a failed attempt to fit in, get points whatever i choose to host a contest. I wanted to go with something different other than the average boring sexiest tatoo, boy, girl, chest hair, back hair, toupee, wig whathaveyou. And i went with a personal favourite of mine, latinas well after posting for 4 days i get 4 people to join, 4 friggin people out of the numerous amounts of people who read and post bulletins. So it seems to me that people would rather post a metric shitload of pointless useless Mumms and Bulletins then actually sit back and actually read one or two, as if reading is too much trouble. If i tried to sponsor a contest for like biggest tits, or biggest dick or hottest ball hair or some lame senseless shit like that i'd have entrants out the ass. And BTW people, there arent that many child molesters, child stalkers, sick kids, prayers needed and all that bullshit. Who cares if somebody down rates you, lifes a bitch deal with it. So fuck it, i apologize to the ladies

Loving Me For Metoo many times
head filled with lies
you said you were different
but you weren't
and all the while
living in denial
falling prey
to all your hurt
so easy for you
to tear me apart
to break down my walls
and rip out my heart
to covet
and keep me
while loving another
to mind fuck
and beat me
and make me a mother
to smash all my dreams
and devour my pride
to say that you love me
when i say goodbye
to blame me for all
that's gone wrong in your life
you abuse and confuse me
and fill me with strife
so low
and so small
so saddened
and alone
yet I managed to rise
and go out on my own
to walk away
from all that every bad moment
to feel pride once more
and actually own it
to rebuild
to strengthen
to make whole and new
to go on each day breathing
and finally have a clue
i am here
yet i am lost from you
never again your victim
all the world can see
i am starting over
and loving
me for me

Im Backwell for a month i was off the internet due to broken modem but i wanna just say im back on now :p

Redneck Medical TermsBenign - What you be, after you be eight.
Artery - The study of paintings
Bacteria - Back door to cafeteria
Barium - what doctors do when patients die
Cesarean section - a neighborhood in Rome
Cat scan - searching for kitty
Cauterize - made eye contact with her
Colic - a sheep dog
coma- a punctuation mark
D & C - Where Washington is
Dilate - to live long
Enema - Not a friend
Fester - quicker than someone else
Fibula - a small lie
Genital - a non-Jewish person
GI series - world series of military baseball
Hangnail - what you hang your coat on
Impotent - distinguished, well-known
Labor pain - getting hurt at work
medical staff - a doctor's cane
Morbid - a higher offer
Nitrates - cheaper than day rates
Node - I knew it
Outpatient - a person who has fainted
Pap Smear - A fatherhood test
Pelvis - second cousin to Elvis
Post Operative - a letter carrier
Recovery room - place to do upholstery
Rectum - darn near killed him
Secretion - hiding something
Seizure - a

Too All My FriendsWell I wanted to let everyone of my friends know that I have now moved from Washington State to the beautiful state of Pennsylvania. I also now have my internet back so let me know what has been going on with all of you.
Love ya all and missed ya all
Connie

Sexhey there ladies i am looking for phone sex or real sex leave ur number

Makes You ThinkAfter hearing the news of my friends two year old little girl drowning it has made me sit down and reflect a bit.
A perfect little baby girl taken away so quickly. A family left distraught. With my deepest sympathy to my friends I also sit and wonder if I have told my children I love them enough and have given them enough hugs and kisses.
I couldn't imagine one of my children being taken away from me and would not hope it for anyone. Even though I know that I am a good mother this brings a realization to me of how a persons life can be taken so quickly even that of a child. I ask every parent who reads this to make sure that they give their child a big hug and kiss and tell them that you love them. To maybe not be so hard on them when they get into something that they maybe should not have. And to enjoy every moment that you have with your children and other loved ones.
Loves, Hugs, and Best Wishes.
Missy

Take The Time.Sometimes we go through situations in life and feel we deserve more , we are so "self " absorbed in our little world that we tend to forget just how good we have it good , bad or indifferent , sure we think we are living in a situation where "WE " feel alone or left out , but we have to remember that God provides what we need and not what we want in life , Take a minute to look around you and appreciate what you have right in front of you , it may not always be what "we expected" it to be ", but it is what God gave to us for a reason, it is ours to be proud of .... Try to be a bit more loving to each other , except the faults they have cause we have them too, try to be more understanding of those we live with, be more loving of who they are and not what we want them to be ,we both had to sac rifice things in our lives for each other. If you think you have it "so bad" don't stay in your pain or misery and drag others along with you that is not how God taught us to be..... Spare t

Blast Blast BlastOK GANG. I WAS GIVEN A 1 DAY BLAST! WOoT!! SO IF ANYONE SEE'S IT PLEASE GET A SCREEN SHOT FOR ME...MUCH APPRECIATED, AND THERE MIGHT BE A GIFT IN IT FOR YOU IF YOU GET IT FOR ME....
tHANKS ((HUGZ))
jENN

IdkI am just so alone anymore. I just get so tired of having my heart broke. What got me depressed was that I saw the profile of my ex. She is in a realionship and I realize just how alone I am. Yes I kind of am seeing someone, but see is married and I don't get to see that much of her. Guess thats not much of a realionship is it? But its the best I can do. I know, I know, I keep getting told thats not true but it is. It just seems like nobody wants me. I don't get hit on or flirted with at all. Guess I am just to ugly. I haven't felt the touch of a woman in sometime now, no hugs no kisses nothing. I am just so alone. So when I go home in a little while from work, I am going to get undressed climb into my bed, hug my pillow and cry myself to sleep once again. How did I get like this????

Biggest FearI'm sure alot of ppl mighta seen today that I'm not in the greatest moods. Time has caught up to me. I go to court tomorrow, with a big chance of goin to jail for some time. I'm not the kinda person who belongs there along with alot of other people. I always seem to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. On top of that I feel like I have eyes on me, just waiting for me to slip..
Why you ask I may worry, this is my 4th public Intox, note I was set up on two. Ask and I'll explain.
I go to court tomorrow at 3:30 not knowing what to expect. I expect the worst and I know I shouldn't, I guess it's so I know it can't get worse, but then again it may be better than I expect.. It's just paining me not knowing and I fear that I'll be jailed, although I might get to walk away with a hard sentence but no jail time. just hope for me I don't go.. thnx I can't think of anything else to say.

My Birthday DateYour Birthdate: November 28
You have a Type A personality so big it makes other Type A's shrink away in shame.
You never shy away from adversity - and you love to tackle impossible problems.
Failure is not an option for you, and more than a few people are put off by your ego.
You tend to be controlling, and you hate leaving anything up to chance.
Your strength: Your bold approach to life
Your weakness: You don't accept help
Your power color: Bronze
Your power symbol: Pyramid
Your power month: October
What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You've Asked.. So Here It Is.This blog is basically for all the people that want to know why I'm such an angry person. So.. here you fucking go.
I've been cheated on 4 times by my ex. I live in an apartment that has way too many fucking memories. I just recently quit my job. I don't have any money. I have bills up the ass that are not paid. I don't have any fucking gas to go see my daughter that lives with her grandmother. I'm struggling to even keep food in my house. I have to move out by the 1st of September with no where to go. I'm struggling to find a job. I recently had a miscarriage. My so called friends arn't real. My ex roomate took off with my shit and won't return it. I've been emotionally fucked. I've been mentally fucked. I've been lied to my face numerous times so in turn I've become a gullable person. I've been called fat so many times, so I believe it. I've been called ugly so many times, so I believe it. All my friends have fucked me over, so I become anti social. I'm on depression medication th

My AuraYour Aura is Blue
Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.
You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.
The purpose of your life: showing love to other people
Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah
Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor
What Color Is Your Aura?

Its To Dying In Anothers Arms And Why Id Like To Try ItI can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand all the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big dreams
It's always you
In my big dreams
And you tell me that its over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
And your restless
And I'm naked
You gotta get out
You cant stand to see me shaking
No
Could you let me go?
I didn't think so
And you don't wanna be here in the future
so you say the presents just a pleasant Interruption to the past
and you don't wanna look much closer
cause your afraid to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had
crashed
and it did
because of me
and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that your alone
and I'm sleeping in your living room
but we don't have much room to live
And I had these dreams in them I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rock star
And there was hope in me t

= Three Long Years =got a phone call Saturday night, from someone i had not heard from in 3 years.
seems my mouth got me in trouble, as per usual, and this time, with someone closer to me then i am myself. my lifetime friend Bill, who started off as a boyfriend of my oldest sister, and ended up more of a brother to me. hell, Bill is part of our whole family, and loved and respected by all - so, it come as a shock, to have this bond severed, and for so long.
all is well, and to be sure, my elated ass missed the time apart, but it was my doing, and the taste of crow and my nasty foot for 3 years was shitty. anyway, he emailed me, and asked me if he had the correct email address, and this is my longwinded, overly verbose reply.
(i know no one cares, so if yer reading this, piss off, it's for a mutual friend, and anyone who values a relationship)
yup yup yup.
was really glad to hear from you, made my year.
i really didn't know why our bond was severed, i just knew it was my fault

The Happyest DayClick pic
(repost of original by '¢¾Duckie¢¾Owner/Dark Angels Haven¢¾Outlaw's Fubar Wife¢¾' on '2007-08-13 07:07:01')

My First "stick And Move"I’ve had an insatiable sex drive for as long as I can remember. When I was in 11th grade I bought my first dildo’s I stuffed them up my cunt and asshole every opportunity I could find. On several different occasions I pushed one deep inside my cunt and wore it to school. It would be forced part way out by my cunt muscles, not to mention gravity, but my panties kept it from falling out at my feet. It would still protrude an inch or two, which made a fantastic time of sitting down. During boring classes at school, I’d
raise my ass up a little off the chair and then press back again, pushing it deeper into my cunt. Several times I brought myself to orgasm during class without anyone knowing.
One time though, as I was squirming around, trying to cum, Seth, the school creep, had his eyes glued on me. Seth was older than anyone else in my class, and was only there because he kept skipping class all the time and couldn't pass the tests. He only showed up when the social worker threatened

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