That sickness that pervades Creation has invaded my beloved, Paul. We call it cancer when it's in our bodies. The allopathic doctors have told him that there is nothing they can do for him other than, hopefully, ease the pain. Not the emotional pain, just the physical. It's hard to wrap my head around this.

Oddly, one of those old aphorisms popped into my head the other day. You can't make a silk purse out of a sow's ear. I think I was thinking of those many stories about the gift in illness. I have to say that right now illness doesn't feel like gift.

None-the-less the saying stayed with me. You can't make a silk purse out of a sow's ear. And I was thinking that the problem is that it's a silk purse. I mean, why would you even think that a sow's ear would make silk? You could, however, make a pretty funky leather purse out of a sow's ear, which I would prefer anyways and it would be more practical.

Not that any kind of purse fixes the shitty situation but it does give me an image to work with. In my sow's ear purse I'm putting all of the love, kindness and compassion that people have shown. When Paul posted the news on his facebook fan page, he received an outpouring of love, expressions of grief, good thoughts and musical accolades. They fill my purse to bursting.

Luckily my purse seems to be a bit magic. It keeps expanding to fit more. Hugs, prayers and healing energy have been pouring in from my friends, ministry and energy healing colleagues across the country and beyond. A silk purse would not have been rugged enough to hold all of this pulsing energy. Definitely needed the extra strength.

There is no silver lining in this purse. The whole thing is just shitty.

Hugs and prayers. Thinking of the three of you. It's not an easy road you're on, but your love will help you all when you get to where it's taking you.

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kimiko

10/20/2016 08:43:58 pm

Thank you, Lezah

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Alice Watson

10/20/2016 08:06:29 pm

You are both loved and loved and loved: music to our ears, melody of life, and now held in grace during this so horrid time. Please know I am loving you, grateful for the two of you and Finn, grateful for your wisdoms and peacefulness and liveliness.

You are indeed held in Love, Kimiko. May you and yours find healing in that embrace.

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kimiko

10/21/2016 09:03:22 am

Thank you, Ingrid

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Corinne

10/21/2016 11:43:28 am

Kimiko, we are all here for you Paul and Finn. Embrace the love, support and sentiments. I did it alone before, with little support and looking back I should have asked for help.

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Leanne

10/21/2016 01:43:38 pm

Holding you all in my heart Kimiko. And so grateful to hear that leather purse is being stretched with an outpouring of love and support for you, Paul and Finn.

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Bruce

10/21/2016 01:55:44 pm

Thank you for your beautiful, wise and honest reflections, Kimiko. Paul is an amazing person and you are all facing this with amazing courage, love and much wry humour. Thank you for sharing this piece of your journey. We love you three and are grateful for the opportunity to walk alongside you in some way.

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Terrie Chedore

10/21/2016 02:26:23 pm

Sending warmth and light and love to you and Paul and Finn. My heart is with you.

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Keith

10/21/2016 06:19:54 pm

Thank you for your care with us. Love poured out.

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Shirley Jensen

10/21/2016 10:16:49 pm

My heart aches for you in this time of pain. I hold you in my prayers, but somehow that feels so inadequate in the face of the anguish you're dealing with.
So I just ask God for His healing presence to bring you some comfort and strength.

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Faith Vint

10/22/2016 09:39:07 am

My thoughts and prayers continue for you and Paul. I know that this is not an easy road to be on, but I liked your thoughts on the "sow's ear purse". Yes, the situation is shitty and isn't likely to change, but you are already gaining strength from your ever expanding "purse" and that is a good thing.Keep looking for the good that comes from shitty situations. Sending many healing thoughts for both of you.
Faith

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Beth Bennett

10/22/2016 06:27:52 pm

Even in this distressing time you still manage to bless our lives
with your words from your heart. May the power of prayer help your scattered moments to be come sacred. Love to you and Paul.

Lots of love and prayer coming your way. You, Paul and Finn are so loved by so many. God Bless you. xoxo

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Mackenzie Jones

11/15/2016 09:24:59 am

Beautifully written Kimiko. We are sending all of our love to you guys.

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Pepper Kay

11/23/2016 10:12:44 am

There is so much Grace shining out from this post. You walk closely alongside Paul on the sacred journey, with love and compassion within and without. I send my most positive thoughts to you all, and pray for that enveloping comfort. Blessings to you! ✨❤️

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Kathy & Bill

12/7/2016 07:35:56 am

Wonderfully written Kimiko! Sending our healing thoughts for this journey. We pray for comfort and strength for you, Paul, and Finn.