When I was younger I thought that I could/would do everything one day - and I dunno, a few years ago it dawned me that of course I never would and actually it doesn't matter. It's better to live your own life properly/fully and savour the moment than hanker after places I have not seen, and things I will never do.

You take it for granted when you're young, of course. The hurting comes from clinging, the voice that says, yes, you're happy now, but it could, and probably will, all be taken away at the drop of a hat, so that spoils and eats away at the happiness...

The fog has lifted and the computer connections seem to be in working order again.

A colleague at work had his second heart attack last week. A chap Fiona worked with in England emailed to say he was taken to hospital at 2:00 am with a massive nosebleed nad has chronic blood pressure issues.I am 46 this year and my body aches.We are approaching the age when our friends and contemporaries start to fail and fall.