I'm a lesbian. I'm an ex'd Mormon. Divorced. ExH remarried. Living the single mom life. The journey is difficult at times but I'm happy to be out and finally living as me.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Disciplinary Council

There was a knock on my door this evening. I wasn't going to answer and then I wondered if it might just be....

And it was.

"To Kelly...

The bishopric is considering formal disciplinary action in your behalf, including the possibility of disfellowshipment or excommunication, because you are reported to have: (1) committed a serious transgression, which is defined as a deliberate and major offense against morality, (2) been in apostasy, which is defined as repeatedly act in clear, open, and deliberate public opposition to the church leaders, (3) been a predator with tendencies that present a kind of serious threat to other persons, (4) a pattern of serious transgressions especially since they have resulted in past Church discipline and (5) a serious transgression that is widely known (i.e. on a social network).

You are invited to attend this disciplinary council to give your response and, if you wish, to provide witnesses and other evidence in your behalf.

The disciplinary council will be held on Wednesday July 11, 2012 at 8:30 pm in the bishop's office.

Sincerely,"

I have many thoughts in regards to all of it, but I'm full of anger tonight. I will say that I'm NOT a predator. I have NOT been in apostasy. And any "facts" that they think they may have stem from speculation and a piecing together of many different parts of my life so that they could make a case against me. This letter, just like my visits with both my bishop and stake president, reminds me that they've already made up their minds. They don't seem interested in "witnesses and other evidence" but I'll go and present a letter that I will create soon.

I would be lying if I suggested that my heart isn't breaking. I don't want to go through this again. I feel like I'm being chased away and their words have cut me to the core. After reading the bishop's letter, I am left feeling like one of the worst criminals in existence. The interesting thing is that LOVE is what I'm guilty of and nothing more. But I will remember where my heart is and that my Savior loves me. Everything else work work itself out.

Who Am I

I am a 43 year old gay woman, divorced from my husband of 18+ years. We have three beautiful children.
I finally recognized my homosexuality in 2006. I am out to my exH, my friends, my family and our children. I am an ex'd member of the LDS (Mormon) church. I was excommunicated in July 2012, for having a relationship with a woman while I was married. My exH got married in August 2013 to the love of his life and I couldn't be happier for him.
I am doing the best I know how. This blog will serve as a journal for my progression in the Gay/Mormon life. Please follow me on my journey.