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Anyone seen my brain?

I want to write, but I barely have the brain function at the moment to put one foot in front of the other. I do love to share though, it’s the curse of the blogger bug. So I’m sharing with you 10 things about my writing journey.

When I was in primary school I wrote a poem for a poetry competition. It was the most morbid poem about a swan getting shot by a hunter. It got picked to be published in a book.

The first ‘book’ I wrote was in year 10 and it was 30 pages long.

For an English assignment in year 11 we had to write an autobiographical piece about a major event in our life. I wrote about harming myself while in inpatient care. I got a B and raked over the coals by the Principal and Head of Department because they were worried what teachers who were doing the review process would think of the school.

I had a livejournal when I was a teenager. Every now and then I go and have a look at it..I cringe every single time.

At one stage I had two journals going at once. I had my normal journal and I had a random journal which I used felt pens in. I still have it, it was my favourite journal to write in.

I started this blog (originally on blogger) in 2011. My first post mused about how I would probably give it up after a couple of months because I was bored. I hadn’t counted on the great community that is the blogging world, and how much I missed writing.

I tried sitting at a desk to write..I hate it. I much prefer to sit on the couch, in front of the television while alternating between writing and checking social media.

Very rarely do I have posts in my drafts…I just get too excited to share it and so if I do wait then it’s just the next day!

I do however have pages full of notes in my phone for when a post idea strikes me. I have a perfect sentence written..pity I can remember where the hell I was going with it!

To me, writing is like breathing. I went for a time without writing because the medication I was on fogged my brain too much. It felt like torture. The words were just stuck inside my head, with no where to go. I hope that I never get to that point again.

What hobby do you have that feels like a natural extension of yourself?

Yes it’s writing for me too, just a shame a lot of my writing has to be targeted because I’m paid to do it. Oh to just be able to spend all day writing what I’d like to do! Must write down my ideas more often, especially when in bed as I forget so many of them!

I go through stages where the words just flow and I’m getting better with holding off on hitting the publish button. As you know I’ve been in a bit of a blogging rut lately but I think finally this week, I’m back to being more focused.

I am sitting here shaking my head at your former school Principal and Head of Department ~ they should have been commending you for your courage in writing about such a personal painful experience in your life…I would like to think society has come along a fair way in recent years, and that this wouldn’t happen today, but I honestly don’t know :/ (I know of two recent teenagers lost to suicide; if only they could have spoken up!)
Writing is definitely my most natural hobby…I struggle with pushing the ‘Publish’ button because I worry that my words are never good enough, but I guess that is my shyness coming through…
I hope you start to feel a bit brighter soon ♥ I have been there, those days where it is a challenge to do anything at all are not fun 🙁 Thinking of you..