Although he played a sexy rocker on Modern Family, Reid Ewing has long struggled with confidence and self-acceptance.

In a blog entry for Huffington Post posted on Thursday, the actor reveals he has long battled body dysmorphic disorder, which he defines as a mental illness where "a person obsesses over the way he or she looks."

To deal with this disorder, the 27-year-old adopted an unhealthy addiction to plastic surgery.

The thespian writes :

"In 2008, when I was 19 years old, I made my first appointment to meet with a cosmetic surgeon. I genuinely believed if I had one procedure I would suddenly look like Brad Pitt."

Ewing underwent cheek implants, but had a nightmarish recovery period.

He was forced to wear a full facial mask for two weeks. Embarrassed to be seen, the thespian stayed in a hotel the entire time, completely "doped up on hydrocodone."

Unfortunately, the results of his surgery were "horrendous."

This caused Reid to get procedure after procedure, to fix the previous surgeon's mistake.

In 2012, he finally had enough.

"At the beginning of 2012, all the isolation, secrecy, depression, and self-hate became too much to bear. I vowed I would never get cosmetic surgery again even though I was still deeply insecure about my looks. It took me about six months before I was comfortable with people even looking at me."

While Ewing doesn't think plastic surgery is completely bad, he wishes he never went under the knife.

"Plastic surgery is not always a bad thing. It often helps people who actually need it for serious cases, but it's a horrible hobby, and it will eat away at you until you have lost all self-esteem and joy. I wish I could go back and undo all the surgeries. Now I can see that I was fine to begin with and didn't need the surgeries after all."

We applaud Reid for his honesty, and we hope his story helps others in need.

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