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Friday, March 8, 2013

The twins are now 5, going on 6, weeks old. They say this time goes by so fast, and it truly does. At their appointment this week, Chase was up to 7lb, 10oz and Alexis was 7lb, 12oz. It's funny how they weigh pretty much the same, but for some reason she looks so much bigger. I attribute it to Chase always wanting to be scrunched up, and therefore doesn't look as long.

I'd like to say the sleep deprivation has gotten better, but it really hasn't. I've just become more use to it at this point. It also helps that Jeff and I decided we need to start being nicer to each other during those wee morning hours. Can't say it always happens, but we're trying....

I don't have much to write about as far as milestones go. The babies are still pretty much just sleeping, waking about every 3 hours to eat. They do have times where they are awake for a period of time, but nothing consistent. I'm still at a loss as to what to do with them when they are awake. I put them under their play gym, talk to them, and do tummy time. I feel like I should be doing more, which makes my insecurites as a mother creep in already.

One thing we are struggling with right now is Alexis' acid reflux. She has this "episodes" where she arches her back, foams at the mouth, and cries in pain. They only last for a couple minutes, and she only has them maybe once or twice a day, but they scare the crap out of me because she always appears that she is choking/can't catch her breath. Luckily I've always been there to pick her up and pat her on the back to try and help her. The pediatrician swears up and down there is no way she can choke. However, it still makes it hard for me to sleep at night - I'm scared to death of taking my eyes off her for one minute. The babies sleep in their Rock 'n Plays right beside my side of the bed so for now I'm okay sleeping because I can hear if she starts doing this. However, we feel like we need to start transitioning them to either their cribs or Pack 'n Play, and I'm reluctant to do so until we get this reflux under control. We started her on Zantac last Monday, but it doesn't seem to have helped. The pediatrician said to give it two weeks to kick in, and if it still isn't working she will switch her to Prevacid. It's so frustrating though having one more thing to worry about.

poor guy always seems to end up wrapped in pink or purple :)

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Other than that we're doing well. I will admit being home with them all day long gets pretty tiring and makes for some long days. I hope this doesn't make me sound like a horrible mother, but I don't think I'll be too upset when it comes time to go back to work. I miss interaction with adults and feel like I'm so out of touch with the real world at the moment. It would help if it was summer and warm outside so that we could get out for walks. I have decided that I need to force myself to start getting out - at least to walk around the mall or something. I've been too scared to venture out by myself with them, but know the more I do it the less scary it will be. So that's my goal from here forth - to get out and go somewhere at least a couple times a week.

About Me

Hello and welcome! I started this blog in 2011 in the midst of our infertility journey. After 3 unexplained miscarriages (likely due to my PCOS diagnosis), and the help of some drugs, I conceived twins! Our miracles, Chase and Alexis, were born in January 2013. Life has been crazy since they were born, and my hope is to start dedicating more time to sharing the good, bad, and the ugly here with you all!