It’s not easy being the newest public figure in the transgender community—needless to say, Caitlyn Jennerhas a lot on her mind.

In a sneak preview from the July 26 season premiere episode of I Am Cait, Caitlyn admits that she is having some serious sleep problems. She has explained that she wants to be a good role model for the transgender community, and do her part to help, and the pressure is keeping her from getting her beauty sleep.

An exhausted, makeup-free Caitlyn sits up in bed at 4:32 a.m. and films herself saying that she feels “bad that these [people]—especially young people—are going through such a difficult time in their life. We don’t want people dying over this. We don’t want people murdered over this stuff. What a responsibility I have towards this community. Am I doing everything right? Am I going to say the right things? Do I project the right image? My mind’s just spinning with thoughts. I hope I get it right.” These are some of the same concerns she voiced in the powerful, tear-jerking speech she delivered when receiving the Arthur Ashe Courage Award at the ESPYs on July 15.