Not much has gone on with this website as of late. So many things have changed for me in the past year and a half. My writing had to be put on the back burner for a while. Where does one begin to describe how much life changes? I suppose I should just start at the beginning.

In late February of 2014, my husband and I brought his parents from Illinois to live with us. We had both expected about six months of that and they would have their own place somewhere close to us. In April 2014, I was certain that I was beginning to go through menopause. HA! That couldn’t have been farther from what was really happening to my body. On April 17th, 2014 we found out that we were going to have a new baby in our home.

As the months went by slowly at first, I realized that I had no energy to sit at my computer. Morning sickness kicked my ass the first few months of the pregnancy. By the time that I was four months along the doctor was a bit concerned about my lack of weight gain. I was put on a seafood diet. I was told to eat anything and everything I wanted to try to add pounds.

By the late sixth month, I was tired of seeing food at all. I was also beginning to have problems with my blood pressure. For most people a 120/80 is completely normal. For me that is very high. My normal usually stays around 90/65. Close to the end of month six, my pressure was staying around 130/95. Very high.

At 35 weeks the doctor and I agreed that it was time for the baby to be born. My pressure was staying too high and there was the worry of preeclampsia. So on Veteran’s Day of 2014, our sweet young man was born. That’s right! The woman that had never been able to carry a boy finally gave birth to one! I couldn’t have been happier.

Our son was small for a baby born at 35 weeks. He weighed in at just barely over 4 pounds. He spent eight days in the hospitals NICU before being sent home. The day he came home was one of the happiest of my life. I finally had a son!

My happiness was short lived. Having only been home from the hospital for one short week, our son stopped breathing one evening. It scared the living hell out of me. Even though we were able to revive him fairly easily, we wasted no time in getting him to a hospital to be checked out.

The hospital wasn’t equipped to handle his size or his issue so they sent him via ambulance to a different hospital. The new hospital we went to kept him for four days. They had no idea what had caused him to stop breathing the way he had. They watched and waited. He had no episodes while there. He had test after test done to figure it out with no luck. He saw several specialists.

One test that he had done showed that he had a brain bleed that was healing on its own. They had no idea what had caused it unless it was just from being a premature baby. We also learned that he was and still is allergic to most formulas, he is taking one that is an amino acid based formula.

During our stay at the new hospital we were notified that someone from the first hospital we had taken our precious baby to had called DCFS on us for the small size of our baby. While worrying if our son would again stop breathing, we had to deal with an investigation into our parenting ability. Thankfully we were able to show DCFS that we were and still are loving parents that only had the health of our son in mind.

After all of that my husband’s parents found a place to live a few towns away from us in January of 2015. We in turn moved from our very small house into a much larger home (we needed more room). Now we are much more comfortable in our new place and my husband has a new job. His new work keeps him away from home far too much, but he is doing what he has to in order to provide for our family.

Our son is now four months old and to look at him you would never believe that he was born so small. He is growing too fast already. It won’t be long and he will be crawling. I have wanted to spend every moment possible with him. Each time I look at him, I am still amazed that my husband and I created such an amazing gift. I have a son!! Yes I know I keep saying that, but honestly that’s how I feel every time I see his smiling face.

Each laugh he gives fills my heart with such pride. I helped make that handsome young man!

I want to write about all of the hot things that float through my head. There doesn’t seem to be enough time in my days to fit it in along with staring at this beautiful boy lying next to me. As he continues to grow and amaze me each day, I find myself wanting to get back into the swing of my writing. This post tonight is a small way for me to get my feet wet again so to speak.

Maybe once my feet get wet other things can too. Then maybe I will feel up to writing the sexy stories that my husband wishes I would get back to writing. So please keep your eyes on this site, more stories are already starting to pop into my head. Maybe writing will again lead to other things popping up for me too!

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Some days you just want to be fucked and fucked hard. Some days you want to be held and loved on before your man makes love to you. Other days you just want him to leave you alone. Still there are other days when you know that you could get yourself off better than your man could if just left to yourself.

So how is a guy to know what day is what? How should he know when you want to be fucked hard or when you need more lovin from him? Let’s face it ladies, our men cannot read us as well as we can read them. Sure every now and then he may guess our moods right. There are many more days that he will get us totally wrong though.

Wouldn’t it be nice if there was a way for him to know our needs or wants every time? Hell yeah it would be nice. Oh but guess what? There is a way for him to know exactly what we need! It’s called communication! If we don’t tell our men outright what we need from them, they will only be playing a guessing game that they will lose. When they lose that game, we are the big losers.

Before you can start to have such an important talk with your lover, you need to know for yourself what it is that you need. Do you need more foreplay? Do you need less of it? Do you need your man to hold you close in his arms and kiss and cuddle before you are ready to make love? Do you need him to stop with the foreplay and be rough with you as he shoves his cock in and out of you? You have to know exactly what you need and when you need it before your man can come closer to knowing.

Once you know what it is that you need from your man, the next thing is to tell him what it is you need. How do you go about telling him without sounding like you are putting his love making skills down? Do not say things to him like, “When you do this I don’t like it very much”. That is a surefire way of putting him on the defensive. Whatever it is you are trying to get across will just shut him down from there out.

A man needs his ego stroked much like you stroke his cock. Soft and gentle until it’s time to get more energetic. “Honey you know how you do such and such when you are about to explode? I love it the way you do that.” Things of that nature are going to make his ears perk up and listen a little more. So if you love having his hands wrapped around your throat as he gets ready to shoot you full of that warm sticky sweetness, tell him so! “Honey you know how you cum for me with your hands wrapped around my neck? I love it when you do that and want you to do that more often!”

Whatever the case may be, do not be afraid of talking to your man about what you like, don’t like, or that you love. Some people are great when it comes to sex, but lousy talkers about it. Find a way to get your needs across to your loved one. Talk, write a note or email. Whatever it takes to make your sex life all that it can be should be your goal. You love sex or you wouldn’t be here reading this website. Make sure he knows you love sex with him!

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Are you interested in becoming a beta-reader for the stories I am working on for books that will be available for download on this website? Do you have time to read what I send you and give you honest full feedback about the story you are sent? Can you give the story your full attention to get it back to me with your feedback and any mistakes you see?

If you can answer yes to the above questions then please sign up here in this thread with your email address and I will send you the first of your beta stories. Now please understand that the story is not complete and you will receive parts of the story as I get them finished. You may receive several emails or up to ten or so for one book. As you finish each part you sent you will be required to send back your honest feedback and corrections.

If you receive a part and do not send your feedback to me within 4 days, I will assume you are no longer interested in being a beta reader and you will be removed from the list of beta’s that I send to.

When I send the first part to you I will include questions that I need you to answer about the story line. You will need to send the list of questions along with your answers back to me in 4 days.

Sign up here if you want to beta read for this website. I need your email address to mail you the first of many beta stories!

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If you plan to read The RoomMate Chapters 1-4 you need to read them very soon. I will be pulling them from the website on Sunday 3-16-14. The reason that I am pulling them down is that this story The RoomMate has taken on a mind of it’s own. A story that I had guessed would be a small short story is turning into a novel.

Once I have completed the whole story and that includes making changes to Chapters 1-4, you will be able to purchase the whole e-book here on my website. At the rate this story is now going (I have written over 14,000 words since yesterday) I should be able to have the story completed by the end of March. Then of course the edits will kick in and I will have the completed story for purchase and download by the 15th of April if not sooner.

The new version of chapters 1-4 will only be available in the e-book. I promise to keep my prices low so everyone can afford them.

So if you want to read the first version of Chapters 1 through 4 now is the time to get to reading them!