Send my love to heaven

What can I say about a girl I loved since I was ten... that I love the way she laughs at me when I commit mistakes, the way she fusses over silly things and even the way she cries over some sad silly late night show...

She was my best friend and I have known her since we were small. She knew all my secrets, which reveals my feelings for her, that I love her not only because she's pretty and smart but also the way she laughs at everything and the way she sees life and love. I could still remember the first time we met; I was five years old then. It was one windy afternoon having no one to play with except for my best friend, Troy. He and his family just moved out to a neighboring state at transfer because his father got promoted. And so I climbed up our tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It stopped in front of the house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when came out the loveliest girl I've ever seen.

She was four years old that time but then even at an early age she was a beauty. She had long curly hair, which reached almost to her waist. She had fair complexion and eyes which could make a man lose his heart into them. I continued to watch her when suddenly she looked up and saw me watching them in the tree house window. I was about to duck when she smiled and waved her hand. I waved back and then watched in amazement as I saw her running towards the tree house. So I went to the edge of the ladder and said, "Would you like to come up?" she answered, "May I?" So I help her climb up and when she reached the top she then turned to me and said, "By the way, my name's Sam, what's yours?" I answered, "My name is Christopher but then you can call me Chris." She smiled and said, "Well I like your name. Hey your tree house's neat!" then I replied, "Thanks! Troy and I made this. This used to be our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball and go biking together. He was my best friend and I kind of miss him you know." She smiled and said "I'm here now, we could do things you do with Troy and I could be your new best friend too. I never had a boy for a friend before so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now how does that sound to you?" I smiled and said, "Well that sounds good enough." Then she held her hand and said, "It's a deal then!"

So that's how it started. So we became best friends and it was kind of strange at first for she was a girl and there are things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her like catching frogs, swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but then she tried and did everything just to please me. There was even a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped knee. I could still remember the time when she hit the window of our neighbor when we were playing baseball and it was I who talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damage, which meant having to loose a week's allowance. I remembered the time when I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten because Sam was near to tears when she saw the helpless kitten trapped in a branch. I even fought with the tough guy when they teased Sam and made her cry and I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. I remember Sam crying as she placed an ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything her little heart desires.

The lake was our favorite hang out. We had our Saturday swim routine. We would pack food and later eat them under the big oak tree. There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit together and tell each others dreams. She dreams of being a Ballerina and she knows my dream of becoming a doctor. She never laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they were quite impossible. It made me like her even more.

As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were slowly changing. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night, dreaming of her and having the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something different, something that made me feel strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It made me feel so alive. Whenever our hands touch, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once when we were at the lake having our Saturday swim routine and as I carried her towards the water edge, I had the feeling of not wanting to let go. I just wanted that moment to continue hoping it would never end. I then realized I was slowly falling in love with my best friend.

Many times I tried to deny the feeling for I was scared to imagine what would happen if ever I'd try to tell her how I feel about her. I was scared because she might think that I'm taking advantage of her and our friendship. I was afraid of losing her so I just kept my feeling hidden.

We reached the age of fifteen and I noticed that Sam grew lovelier each day. How my heart aches wherever I see boys glance her way. I want to punch their noses as I watch them talking to her giving compliments, flowers and chocolates. There were times when I watch her at a distance with mixed feelings of anger and hurt! Because it hurts so much to know that there were so many things I wanted to tell her but then I could not do so. There were so many presents which I long to give her but then I could not for she might see me only as a friend. I was also scared of letting her know how I feel about her as much as losing her.

Then one day, I just learned from a friend that she already had a boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumor. Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team to which Mark was the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot that afternoon, I watched her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces. I saw her wave at me but I just pretended not to see her for I was scared that she might see in my eyes the pain I'm feeling inside because of seeing her with another guy. Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my heart aches when I see her walk by me with him at her side. Every time we meet in hallways and I see him around her, there's a feeling inside me that makes me want to grab her away from him. How it hurts to see the girl I long possess was now owned by somebody else. That special smile I long for her to cast on me was now casted on him. As she passes by me she doesn't know that I whisper the words "God how I love you."

Then one faithful day they broke up. She came too me that evening crying on my shoulder. They had a big fight and it ended up with their break up. Mixed feelings were scaring me inside. I was happy because she was free and maybe I would have the chance of telling her my true feelings for her but then I was feeling so bad because she is crying her heart out just for him. At that time, I was not quite sure of what I wanted to do.

So we found ourselves doing what we did in old days with our Saturday swim routine, spending time in our tree house. We still enjoyed doing childish pranks for we still are both young at heart. So many chances I had for me to confess my feelings for her but still I couldn't bring myself to her for I was scared of losing her once more. I once lost her, now I could not bear of losing her again by telling her, "I love her". So I just kept my feelings even if it was bursting to be expressed from my aching heart.

It was a week from our JS Prom, we were seated at the branch of an oak tree drying ourselves after our afternoon swim when she said, "I was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?" It just got out of my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happen. It took me awhile to answer her, "I thought there are so many boys who would die for you to be their partner?" So she turned away and quietly said, "Well I just thought I would like to spend that night with my best friend." Then she continued in a whisper I could barely hear, "Don't you want to die just like them to be my partner Chris?" I was too stunned to speak for it came close for me to blurt my feelings for her. We? we're silent for a while until I finally whispered, "I would be happy to be your partner Sam. "The she smiled and suddenly kissed my cheek. I could hardly contain the joy I felt that time. I saw her turned red and bowed her head. Suddenly she stood up and run towards the water saying, "Last one to reach the water treats to sundae fudge!?I ran slowed up so that I would lose which meant having to have her with me for another three hours or more.

Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured almost the entire bottle of perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Sam's mother greeted me and I went to sit in the living room waiting for her to come down. I was talking to her father when I heard her say, "How do I look?" I look up and saw her lovelier than ever in a strapless white dress with her hair flowing around her face. I stood up and opened my mouth but found out I could not find my voice. Then I got her hand shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist and whispered, "To the loveliest girl in the whole world." She then asked, "Is that true?" I nodded and she smiled and I smiled back then I turned to open the door for her. When we arrived at the gymnasium we hardly recognized our classmates. Gone were the jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with tuxedos and gowns. Then I held out her hand bowed and said, "Would you give me the honor of your first dance?" She laughed and curtseyed. Then I led her to the dance floor. It was like a dream coming true, a moment of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I ever loved. She was smiling up to me, as we were slowly moving in a smooth gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her beautiful face. There were so many things I wanted to tell her that moment. I wanted to tell that she was the most beautiful girl that night. I wanted to tell her that she would always be the beacon of light in my darkness, but what I wanted to tell her the most was that I love her. I drew up all my courage and bent to whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but still haven't done it.

We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends. I asked her if she wanted a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one. It took me a long time to get one and when I returned to our table, she was gone. I asked her friend, Katie, where she was but she told me that she doesn't know. So I went to search for her. As I was searching for her, I reached the garden. There I saw two silhouette figures outlined by the moon's silvery light. They were so close to each other that I could never describe the feeling I had when I recognized the white dress that Sam was wearing that night. I just turned and left the gymnasium.

Since that night, I avoided her. Many times she tried talking to me but I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say that she loves Mark and not me. I would rather have left in ignorance of her true feelings for me than to hear from those dreaded words and feel my hope crush and my heart break. I didn't return her calls. I would not see her if she comes into our house. In the hallways, as she approaches I would go to another direction. It also hurts to do those things but then I thought that was the best way to forget her. Those months were tormenting but still I kept my pride.

The day of our graduation came. I was planning to take up medicine at a neighboring state and was to move out the next day. As the program ended, she approached me and handed me a rose. As she stared at me, there was something in her eyes I couldn't describe. There was sadness in them and when she smiled it wasn't the same smile she had. I wanted to hug her at that moment, tell her that I love her but then she turned and walked away from me.

So I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at the university. I concentrated with my studies but still I think of her at night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried hard not to think of her but still I could not stop myself from loving her. Each achievement I have was done for her. I thought that if I will be successful one day, I would be able to tell her that I love her and by that time, I'm worthy of having her.

It was a year after our graduation when I decided to return home and see her again. I thought a year is too much for me not to see her and during the past year I felt like a person lost in the desert and only the sight of her could quench the thirst I have inside. As I got off the plane, I went home directly, desperate to get to her house desperate to see her, to hug her. Then I would tell her that I missed her and that I have loved her for a long time. This time I am determined to let her know my true feelings for her and I could not contain anymore the love I have for her. I reached their house; I saw her elder sister and I approached her. I smiled at her but I noticed she didn't smile back. I was confused for she used to be a cheerful lady just like my dear Sam. I then asked, "Hi Jen! I guess you're surprised why I'm here. Well I just want to visit you and I was also hoping to see Sam. I kind of miss her you know. Mmm? by the way have you seen her?" All I saw was sadness in her eyes as she replied quietly "Come follow me."

I was confused with the way she's acting but still I followed her. As we were walking, I was trying to indulge her in a conversation but she just answered my question briefly. Then I realized that she was leading me to the direction of the lake. It was still the same as I left it, with the same oak tree, Sam and I used to climb up. I smiled upon remembering the kiss Sam gave me when I agreed to be her partner. It's been one of the happiest days in my life and I realized that I missed Sam more than I thought. Then Jen stopped walking and pointed to the tree. She then whispered, "There's Sam."

I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I ever loved. I could not believe at what I saw and desperately tried convincing myself that this is all just a nightmare and I would soon wake up. I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for explanations and she slowly started saying, "It has been a week since she died. She died of Leukemia, but even though she was sick, she never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regards this place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent the happiest days and that was when she was with you. By the way, she also asked me to give you this." She handed me a parcel and with that she left.

I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it contained the dried orchid from the corsage I gave her for our prom. Then at the bottom I saw a letter. It was dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands and started reading........

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I know? by this time you read this letter I'm gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it just bloomed each day that's why the happiest days of my life was? when you were by my side. You just don't know how I dreamed of you at night and wake up in the morning and dream no more for you were with me. When you were away, I can't stop crying because I was afraid to think that you are with another girl. I just can't bear to see you with another girl. I just want you all to myself. I may sound selfish but that's how I feel.

Each time, you held me close to you, was like a dream coming true, for to be close to you and feel your heart beating next to mine was like heaven. So many things I did so that you will learn to love me but I NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please you because I love you so much that I even tried to fool myself that you're in love with me too. So many nights I've cried when I think of myself unloved by you. Well you might think that what I'm saying are lies but, I tell you, my heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling a lie to the one I love. I know you might be thinking of Mark; but I just did that to make you jealous, to make you see me as a young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to know? how you would react and with that I'll know that you love me too. But I failed for you didn't give me any clue. When our prom night came, you just don't know how happy I was when you handed me the corsage and saying that I was the loveliest girl in the whole world. While we were dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you love me too but you NEVER did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression so I told him we would talk in the garden. There I explained to him that it's you whom I really love.

What happened next was that I found you missing and later learned that you were searching for me, I just concluded that you saw us together. The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance to do so. You continuously avoided me and never knew how much pain I've experienced that time. I felt the world crushing on me. In our Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted to tell you? how much I loved you but I decided that I just couldn't do it. I could not bear to hear that all you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love. For I want you to love me as a woman and not as a girl or playmate. So I just turned away and left.

Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late, but still I want you to know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.

P.S.: Think of me sometimes... and always remember that loving you was the best thing that ever happened in my life.
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I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout out to let her know that I love her, if not as much, but more than she did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. I knelt touching the soil of her grave and rain started to fall. I continued crying softly and whispered, "Oh God, send my love to heaven.

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Comments

At least both of you spent the happiest time together. :)the best feeling on this earth is when you know the person you love a lot also loves you

Jenny says: 21 Sep, 2011 09:11 PM

There isn't anything to say except: Meet her in heaven and pour your heart, and soul out to her. Don't move on. I know that sounds bad but, like Sam said in her letter she doesn't want you to find another woman. Wait for her, and find utter happiness with her in heaven. I'm sorry that it ended this way. She LOVES you.

no you should move on i think.when she wrote it she was a human n u never kno what happens after death.You should be practical.but move on wen u think you can love some1 else.

Lucy says: 23 Sep, 2011 08:43 PM

I cried reading this. It made my love problems seem minor by comparison.

ohman says: 24 Sep, 2011 12:06 AM

I actually cried because this story is really similar to something that has just recently happened to me... I feel your pain bro but just let things be...

Dianne says: 25 Sep, 2011 09:19 PM

Im pretty sure this is a good story. I just can't handle reading it because of tons of grammatical errors. :/. Anyway, this story is supposed to be sad right? I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you meet her again in heaven someday. :(

i konw it really hurts ... and i was too sad of your story .. if you just tell her the first time you want to tellyuor love for her .... but i guess you and sam were not really meant to be coz she's dead now .. i hope someday yuo'll meet a girl that will caused you to move on .. thats all

melanie says: 26 Sep, 2011 10:24 PM

very sad story... sometime we ignore those people who love us.. in order to save our pride..and shameful... we do not know that was too late to tell what we really felt for them...so if we love someone try to show them you care and tell how important they are...

It was just too sad! I dont know what to say really! its me crying out loud and whispering about how sad life can be sometimes. I have heard a quote saying 'always tell them that you love them before its too late' I believe on this quote because it gets too late too soon!
Thanks

rumi says: 28 Sep, 2011 01:53 PM

I am realy sory about ya if u r in luv with some1 just tell them coz if u r ready to tell them they might not be with u.........i pray that some day u will meet her in heaven(ameen)

bro,your story really touched my heart.I shed tears when reading your story.But bro,you still have a life to live hear on earth.She may be your love,but I believe it was not in God's plan for you to be together for life.There is still a girl out there that is meant for you bro.God has a plan for you bro(please read your Bible-Jeremiah 29:11)_God has a special plan for you.God bless you.

jimmy says: 29 Sep, 2011 08:49 PM

js.. but if that ever happened to my.. i couldnt bare but to hurt myself in some way hoping to die so i could be with her. I once had a situation like this.. girl named becky. i loved the girl to death from when i was like 6 or so all up until now. you know those boycotts and shit in england? well yea.. i got a call from her mother that she was in the house with her friend mariah when the house burned to the ground. :(. worst day of my life.. worst week.. probably thte worst thing that will ever happen to me kuz people dont realize was death is until they really lose someone that close to them. you never never NEVER get them back. it hurts

Subir says: 30 Sep, 2011 02:54 AM

UM..........The pain cannot be define.....might It will end with the time

sangavi says: 30 Sep, 2011 05:59 AM

nice and fantastic story.chanceless and amazing

sangavi says: 30 Sep, 2011 06:02 AM

it is too bad.i realise tat if we love someone we have to express our luv to him at tat moment

kindale says: 30 Sep, 2011 05:23 PM

yeah right.

keerah says: 01 Oct, 2011 05:39 AM

..I almost cried when I read your story because we have the same story,even if its almost 4years ago that my boyfriend died I can still feel the pain and the feeling that I miss him so much..Its painful but I'm still fighting for the feelings that remain..

ParK says: 03 Oct, 2011 01:24 AM

i like damn much this story!!!,..it's make me cry and more appreciate for what i had just now!!,.is this your real life story??..i've watching a movie that same like this story lines,..btw it really interesting..like it!..;-)

oh.. I'm really sorry about it... you know my first love was passed away b'coz of brain tumor. he did never say Good Bye b4 he's gone. it's too late... it's okay for me... you should find another but i hope that i will find new one...

Shubham says: 09 Oct, 2011 03:23 AM

i m sorry for sam.... wish u a happy life christopher

kristieeee says: 10 Oct, 2011 12:50 AM

OMG! Thats like..So me and my ex right? I love him...I dont know if he loves me cuz he likes this other girl but he doesnt know tht i LOVE him..My friends talk tht he tries not to like the other girl..But the thing is..If i cant stop loving him until im 13 and we never date..Im doing suicide..If you knew the full story,Youd understand why..And im 11 so i have two more years...I love this boy so much that it makes infinity look like nothing.. But im happy you both love each othher(: Thats why im hoping my ex will confess if he loves me sooner before i go...

Dude this is sooo sad. I literally cried by the time i got to the end of it.. It really made me think twice about my own love and girl problems. But all i got to say to you is, God has a purpose and a plan for everything in life. Never give up, even when all hope is gone.. You got to believe always that God knows your pain and his promises will remain, and that he will be with you ALWAYS!! Stay strong bro!

Sadness says: 02 Nov, 2011 08:11 PM

actually, i already read ur story twice. and OMG! the story really touched, my tears fell from my eyes. well, thanks for sharing this story. i hope sam RIP :)

Good story. Way too sterotypical tho. Seems like a combination of music videos and dramas and movies. Try to be real. But for a made up fictional story, pretty good.

mike says: 06 Nov, 2011 12:39 AM

There is nothing in the world so wonderful as to love and be loved,there is nothing so devastating as love lost.even i lost my gf before 11months stil im alive only becoz to fulfil her dreams........i love her a lot...

bernadeth says: 09 Nov, 2011 07:20 PM

MY God, im crying while reading your story..dont blame yourself. You will meet her in heaven..now I realize that my love problem is minor...thank you..and i will pray that you will be happy too... God bless

nicky says: 22 Nov, 2011 10:34 AM

Wow. this is such a beautifully written story esp the letter. If u see it after its happened, you'll think love is such a foolish thing and getting rejected is definitely more painful than anything else

Radhika says: 26 Nov, 2011 04:14 AM

such a touching story...i am in tears..omg

M1k3y says: 27 Nov, 2011 10:36 AM

i am so touched by ur story chris u need 2vwait 4 her she is waiting 4 u always remember ur time w/ her. Not too much later, u will join her in heaven

when i first started to read i lost myself in your world and believe me it's truley beautiful, i will pray for Sam to go to heaven and for your happiness as well and for the two of you to meet. please do keep on living for Sam's sake =)

i cant say anythn...:(.... m speechless... i m undergoing sumwt same situation.... i m dieng evry minute.... bt i knw wts the end... ur story brot me to tears i was eager to read the end n so i rushed omitin so many wrds... may god giv u peace... tc...

cassy says: 25 Feb, 2012 03:35 AM

I'm also speechless I can't believe this

fuzzy says: 26 Mar, 2012 10:43 PM

Just remember she loves you. She'll always be with you.

cronal.louis says: 30 Apr, 2012 05:26 AM

hey bro its really said to knwo...........bt i guess u should have have confess her abt ur feelings........anyways........tk cr .............bye.......

Juletin Mohanty says: 24 May, 2012 10:04 AM

This story is really paifull.if i was in the position of that girl then also icant leave without my love.its really painfull to leave without my love.Oh god

i aint sure how yu wuda handled it , i just feel like a zombie after reading that and typing now , yu shuda given her a chance but LOVE always fails in one way or the other , am partially cryin now , yu'da wantd second chances of wanting her alive wel kinda same thing happend to me yu can see that in my profile , lyk yo Sam was my Dan .. LOVE SUCKS !

victoria says: 28 Oct, 2012 03:13 AM

wow this is beautiful...tragic..it made me cry

Eden says: 01 Nov, 2012 03:48 PM

i am so sorry.I dont know what to say...............

michelle says: 04 Nov, 2012 01:48 AM

cried when i read this, this story is beautiful yet sad...my heart goes out to you and her,r.i.p sam<3

Danielle says: 24 Nov, 2012 06:08 PM

As I was reading this I kept thinking about me and my boyfiend! I yes it made me cry, but at least you had the most wonderful day of your alls life, Just remember, You both loved each other and still do till this day. here's a saying.... Say now or forever hold it in and miss ur chance<3

The saddest and the best best love story ever!!! Awww may lord keep u save, secure and happy... I'm crying so hard.

Chanie says: 13 Nov, 2013 10:55 PM

Best n saddest love story of all time<3 I cried soo hard....I can fell the pain in ur heart.

moillVewthell says: 18 Nov, 2013 03:23 AM

I come here from Google, it is impressive of your post.

KAILEY says: 17 Dec, 2013 09:35 PM

U r strong cause if that was me I would have wanted to be right next to him in that grave do not ever ever forget her keep her in your soul and heart and she will be right there with h even if u can't see her she is apart of u she is living inside if u she is your missing half

Manahil Aftab says: 28 Jun, 2014 08:42 AM

Really sad

Partha says: 17 Jul, 2014 08:40 AM

I am in a similar situation and this was exactly what I needed to release my emotions. You cannot possibly imagine how much this story helped me tonight. I thank the writer from the bottom of my heart.

I have read this story when I was still in high school. Same title also. I am looking if you even try to credit the source of your story.

Mark says: 24 Sep, 2014 04:17 PM

God Wanted The Best For You And Her Trust Me In This You Are Making Her Happy If You Love Again

muni says: 16 Oct, 2014 05:18 PM

Am crying oh so sad

Siddharth Rishabh says: 20 Oct, 2014 02:14 PM

Oh god, I am crying. And the thing is I also fell for my best friend......

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Logan Borg says: 09 Nov, 2014 09:13 AM

This story was so touching. I was crying at the end and I could not stop thinking about how horrible it would be to find out that the person you secretley loved loved you back but it was too late. My heart aches just writing this and I absoloutely have not read a story like that before. Who ever you are, you are an amzing writer and you have changed my life.

abby says: 11 Jan, 2015 08:31 PM

This was a really sad story I actually cried

daisy says: 14 Jan, 2015 11:08 PM

This story is super sad I cried at the end and I wish I could also tell this guy I like that I like him but I'm scared he won't like me back I want to tell him before it's to late

wum says: 17 Mar, 2015 03:45 AM

cried alot after reading this. iat least you know that she loved you soo much and that will always remain with you forever. thx for sharing

rosie says: 30 May, 2015 04:25 AM

This is seriously sad. I have goosebumps now and I am crying. This is reminding me about what happen 2 years ago. I didn't tell or show a hint that I love a guy who I know him for 7 years. Now I feel like I was an idiot and I really want to kill myself. I had a good chance that time but I lost it all.

rosie says: 30 May, 2015 04:30 AM

I love this story! It made my heart went to heaven. This story is so sad and I can't stop reading this again and again. This made me learn to be brave to express the thing you want to tell or else all the chance would be gone.

Diosany says: 17 Jul, 2015 01:15 AM

That was so sad
This is what u get if u don't say I love u. It was the best story. I feel happy and sad.

Diosany says: 18 Jul, 2015 08:22 PM

Wow I am going to comment again. I am in pove with this story. I hope there is a happily ever after. Because they should be together.

Crystall says: 23 Dec, 2015 04:06 PM

Its really so sad to loose one's love...

high-ker says: 12 Jul, 2016 06:47 PM

i feel so sad about your story. i hope u get strong and move on. stay blessed.

high-ker says: 12 Jul, 2016 06:53 PM

oh am back again. from ur story u seemed like there was hardly a chance that u had another girl after u went for ur medical studies. i think its better if u try to forget abt her (dont take me rude) bcz life goes on. u loved her, yes, but bcz she is no longer with us, i think its better if u get another person who will bring a new world in ur heart. thats wat i think.

Richie Blaisuis says: 13 Aug, 2016 03:13 AM

I can't tell you how much this hit me. I felt like my problems were so bad, then reading this...I couldn't even believe this happened. I seriously can't tell you how sorry I am for you. I'm so sorry. This made me realize that my loved ones lives and my own are short and that I shouldn't be mad at them. Your story helped me, and I wish and pray that all my heart that Sam was still alive for you.

Satori says: 04 Mar, 2017 02:03 AM

;( omg ive read so many stories like this but not as sad AS this I CRIED

Yug Hang says: 20 Apr, 2017 01:54 PM

It gave me a titanic kinda feeling.

Jillian says: 27 Jun, 2017 03:13 PM

Omg I cried at the end this was a beautiful story I love it

Trevor Belmont says: 20 Jul, 2017 11:41 AM

it was not his story, it was just a shared story, here is the author of the story

The one you love means everything, they are your heart and soul. And when you find out they don't love you too, your heart is broken, a knife has been stabbed through your heart. You look for closure and get nothing but tears, it seems like your life is over. But never regret something that once made you smile, and always remember the past, while looking into the future.

John L. says: "Nevertheless you have done well that you shared my distress." - Phillippians 4:13 Thank you so much Cursten. You seem amazing. Religious, smart, and you seem like a really good hearted person. He is missing out. All you can do

"Nevertheless you have done well that you shared my distress." - Phillippians 4:13 Thank you so much Cursten. You seem amazing. Religious, smart, and you seem like a really good hearted person. He is missing out. All you can do is pray that the lord heals you. I know that he can make everything better for you even though it's hard right now. If you ever need someone to talk to don't be afraid to ask and i'm sure you can add me on FB or email me. Either way stay strong and have faith and the lord shall take care of you.

Shh_Maddz says: that is really hard to go through. especially since you're still so young, i mean, i'm only 13 years old but i can relate to some of the things you've been through. not that drastic.. you honestly didn't deserve to

that is really hard to go through. especially since you're still so young, i mean, i'm only 13 years old but i can relate to some of the things you've been through. not that drastic.. you honestly didn't deserve to go through all of what you did, and if i hope you find your place in life someday. a happiness. being pushed to suicide is absolutely terrible.. gladly you're still alive. i care, even if i don't know you personally & might not ever. i wont stop caring. hopefully you're doing much better now as it is August and your story was written in May. would like to hear updates on how you're doing.

John L. says: Cursten thanks a lot and although I wasn't with her as long it still hurts as though I had been. I will pray for you as well and no worries it all gets better. It has been 6 months now

Cursten thanks a lot and although I wasn't with her as long it still hurts as though I had been. I will pray for you as well and no worries it all gets better. It has been 6 months now and I still miss her but I am not as hurt as I was before and I am looking for someone else, someone who won't hurt me like I have been in the past. Thank you again for your comment I greatly appreciate it.