I am Me

hello, anyway I'm Syaza. Uncle Nana's & Aunt Shelly's daughter. Turning to 20. KLMU student. Taking Diploma in Advertising. Actually, idk what to write ! :D I smile &a laugh too much for stupidest reason sometime. Tetapi seorg yg pemalu when first time meet someone new, a paper bag has never seemed like a BETTER accessory for hiding embarrassed laa. I love my friend :) I grown up already, to be a BETTER PERSON & even more meaner than before :) I am not here to pleased any of you people out there. This is just a place where I share my thoughts and random personal things about myself. My sincere thanks to those who became my follower and keep on reading my post. You're most welcome to drop in your comments and opinion, it may help me alot in the future time.
Thanks for dropping .
Loves,
SyzaJacob
TQSM<3

Thursday, February 24, 2011

I love you and I will tell you everyday. Everyday until you forget the things that hurt. I hate the things that make you hurt. And how I wish I could take them away. If only it could be done, I'll do it for sure.

*ohh i love you so much Sunny. just you and you and you.im belonging to you Firdaus Zainal hearts,

Its already 2 month i dont spend my cash to buy a new apparel.I miss having a gaga feeling when having a new clothes.lolWill shop till drop and head over heels on,by the time has come,im rich baby hahaha*sounds like bitches :O

Monday, February 21, 2011

i get the idea from SHAZZ. haha she started first. then i try to find some words that is hard to say it :) anyway. this is what i get. actually byk lagi. but this is much better. thank you SHAZZ for your idea. HAHA,

heee :) the only one that make my world become upside down :) love you syg ! anyway, semalam petang we went to taman layang layang at selayang. actually ada byk gmbr kami. but gmbr single. tade gmbr couple. neyh gmbr dekat rumah saya. yeah , we are almost a year being each other. and bawah sekali gmbr saya pegang box SYFILY. inside there byk memory kami. HAHA, even tough tak dapat simpan tiket resit since first day being together, tapi dlm tuu a lot of memory jugak yg saya jaga .

my tears fall down again. but who care ? right now, i am missing him so much ! only GOD knows how much i miss him. baby, can u back to me ? can i repeat all our sweetest memory ? can u be mine back again ? can he make you alive again ?

I need to feel your hands all over m
e to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch

living this way
I need you her

Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on
e with me
Why could he take you away, from me

anding over your grave
And I know I'll

It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm s
tnever hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay

self
I would've given you anything
Jus

Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with m
yt to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell and back over and over again

there's no doubt that if I could take your pl

Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And
ace in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry

me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my

Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave
world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself
I just don't know what to do with myself
I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf

uch it hurts to be missing you
Baby Im missing you
Baby Im missing yo

Knowing it was just one week ago, i stood there and took that picture
There's just one thing that I wanna know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad,
Does He know how
mu
I love you
oooh ohhh
oh God damn it I love you
Why did he take you away... from me
Cause I love you so...

yeahhh, cant wait for this moment . i love you so much deeply do FIRDAUS ZAINAL. you are my heartbeat baby, trust me. i'll be waiting for you okayh ? you are the one i want to spend my whole life. seriously excited gila ! we plan everything now eventhough lama lagi. HAHA. damn, i cant describe how much you mean to me.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

you start to scrub your eyes, pinch your cheek, slap you face and try to sleep.

its useless. you're now realize that your eyes facing a dysfunctional. you can't see anymore. Period.

YES, you are now one of them.

THE B-L-I-N-D.

you started to cry,asking, why this thing happens?

what have you done? you started to recall, about yesterday, you tried to picture the last image you had seen, you started to miss the joyable of sight.

you beg, begging to god to give back you sight again. you cried, again. you screamed, no one's stimulate. you wanted to call someone and tell them about it, but you've failed, you forgot where did you put your cellphone and you totally forgot that youre now blind.

you gave up, you wish you were better off dead. tense made you fainted.

reborn, god loves you.

you woke up,now with your both eyes are working.

you glad, you thanked, you prayed.

the thing is, why did we seek for a help at our god only when we caught up with troubles? with something that we swore to our life,we dont want it to be happen?

THINK. Before your nightmare overcomes you. But this time, no more reborn with second chance.

Monday, February 14, 2011

i dont know why should i mad or feels devastatedi dont think its worth to blow up my anger to someone that really dont know how to appreciate.yeah itis dedicated to my bestfriend, well not really a bestfriend before, but i admit its really warm and comfort to friends with her.i dont know why you'd change tremendously?hate to say that you look critically delirious right now,because of them.them that you and i tend to hate for the whole life. its sucks that youre are now a two-face skankcongrats lah kan?

i try to be strong now . but its hard. i try to accept the reality, but its hurts. what else can i do ? im hoping too much ! but nothing gonna be the same as before. Mama, Abah, im sorry. i know we have a lots of problem now. but what can i do now ? im not working. im still studying. i used my own money for my expenses. i dont want to burden both of you. im so sorry :( maybe you look like im not care. but deeply, i am trying to help our family mama, abah.

and another thing, SYAZA PLEASE ACCEPT THE REALITY ! whatever happens it is not our will. DIA yang menetukan. what can we do, we just can pray to him. hidup, mati, jodoh, pertemuan, everything, HE already decided. not us.

dont get too proud if you are beautifull or hot , seriously, dont . sebab kenapa , ramai lagi perempuan lawa sexy on fire dalam dunia ni , and if you are one of them , dont think that you can say or do whatever you want to anyone you want . and dont ever think that you always right and pleaseeee , if you think you are the pretiest among the pretiest , wake up ! jangan nak perasan sngt lah kan . there's nothing special about you if you are preety but hati perangai mulut bahasa macam WTF . heh remind urself can you? remind urself that just preety face means nothing and cannot bring ur any where. use ur brain pleaseee. dont be too proud .

but i dont know somehow, through my eyes , i can see everybody is special in their own way . i still do even budak tu annoyinggg gila and buat aku rasa nak bagi kaki ke , heh i still do .