Police men are searching all the cars parking in the lot across the street from my apt. I am creepin through the blinds! Tehehehe.....Watching Law and Order and watching possible police bust across the street = awesome morning! Out of meds and havent slept in 3 days = fucked up.

What does my doctor suggest when I tell him I am worried about taking so many meds?..........TAKE MORE MEDS! omg....I am so confused by doctors. I say I am worried about my body and taking so many pain killers daily and the answer is to just take more because I am not at a dangerous level of use yet.

Fail X4....I couldnt stop myself. All wounds heal with time.
I am thinking about getting a cane to walk with like Dr House....lol
I can hardly stand up and barely walk around. I force myself to though. Sitting down is aweful. Laying flat on the floor help a little.
New MRI this afternoon. Lower back lumbar spine to look at my herniated disc... Read More

Mood swings are becoming scary.....I see a hospital visit in my near future. I can see myself falling. I almost started cutting again but thankfully talked myself out of it early enough this time. I think the pain killers are causing my bipolar meds to be less effective. I am falling apart. I try so hard to look normal and happy but I am... Read More

I am trying to make it through. Thank goodness my friends live right around the corner so they can be here in a minute if i need their help. Mom left a few months ago. I cam home from taking my last final in school and everything was gone from the apt and they were gone. I cant reach them.