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Working heavily on NaNoWriMo this November. Doing well with it so far. This might actually be the first year I win (It's my 8th time participating). Plan to continue writing the novel until it's done through December, so could actually finish the 1st draft of a novel for the first time by year's end. Wrote and illustrated a children's book in maybe the 2nd grade, so technically I have finished writing a book before but a novel is very different creature. Once I break the ice on that milestone, I'll be able to knock that off my bucket list. I did get to knock something off the bucket list earlier this year, and something else just yesterday, so probably do a thing up for that stuff at year's end.

It's likely I might blog about this stuff a little. Hoping to do some updates on what I have been up to soon.

Friday, August 3, 2018

Thing the first: I expect to resume regular normal Bent Realm activities on the website, and it's various sections, my Instagram and my Twitter have already resumed posting, my Facebook Bent Realm page should resume regular posting soon, as I have specific preferences in that.

I was away for awhile due to alien abduction. Well, I was kidding, but then I tilted my head and thought about it for a few seconds, and discovered, much to my own amusement that there is a way I actually could think of it all that way metaphorically. Among other things an alien must have absconded with the part of my brain that usually would have handled many of these situations very differently.

I did the best I could but some of it wrecked me extra (some of it was the stuff of true nightmares, yep, new stuff was added to my mental repertoire of PTSD flashbacks, things I wish I could have figured out how to stop or protect myself from in the moment but because horrible things had been happening for so long that I could barely do more than try to talk about them after). There were naturally moments of joy and laughter etc interspersed but not nearly enough to help me respond to both the good, the bad and the people better in the moment. So I made sure I also took the time to get a big chunk of the most raw healing and grieving done too. It was a varied cluster of many things that required energy, time and emotional sorting that usually went into the handling of my website and presence, and more project work than what got done. Heck there was this two and a half month period where I could barely walk or put weight on my right knee, just woke up one day with a ton of knee pain barely able to walk.

Plus I felt like it was important to work on the following:

Take some time to practice varied writing approaches, such as making sure that wordcount goals and outside accountability really weren't for me.

Allow the projects I'm working on some extra time to roil around the back burner in my mind

Apply myself to trying to make all manner of decisions including about projects, platform approaches, strategies, improvement methods, and more.

Worked on lots of Ink and marker abstract and geometric designs, which a big part of why I do them is to practice linework, intricate design work, and so on. (the merch shop that will soon begin having these items posted, ideally within a week or so of posting this)

I also have been studying all manner of things in everything I encounter etc, much of which should if nothing else add to all that will continuously make me a better writer.

Plus had to try to gauge just how radically my PTSD and my Autism, and the other conditions that stemmed from there really affect everything, and try to ponder possible shifts in approach and whether they may or my not help.

I learned so much, including many things about what not to do in future situations. Definitely reflected on problems I encountered and try to imagine how could I handle them better if anything like that came up in the future.

So many additional projects arose out of the efforts to do better, and in trying to process everything.

Mentally preparing to do more in my poetry section of the website. Poetry is such a great writing warm up, among other things. Plus, I noticed recently there may be some sort of regular poetry circle at my local library.

More is planned & in the works for my Decadent Angels series, some work has been done on that in the background. Release of new parts and so on will begin as soon as they are ready. Though I'm still unsure what to do about the current format, it's currently in ongoing story poem and it has long felt like it outgrew that format, not surprising since it originally began as a writing warm up exercise and only took a few parts to become a full blown project.

Then there was this shift where last week (end of July) I realized a chapter change was approaching (I will discuss the chapter change thing in a later post which I will link here, but I came up with a technique around the idea of it and started using it a little over a year ago to survive something I didn't know how to make it through). I will go into more detail about many of these things another time. However as I began shifting to the new chapter this Sunday, and today (Friday well Friday night) I am certain I am solidly adjusted and firmly in the new chapter. The shift was like stepping through the looking glass, it's a totally different and way better dimension, although I do have to say that this new chapter also explores processing deeper more difficult layers of my traumas and my life position, especially in comparison with how much work I have to do on soooo many fronts.

It's gonna be a world of work getting my web presence rolling again, and tons of situations I have to address like figuring out what the heck I am supposed to adjust for that change they made with European laws recently, and how to handle using the Tumblr section since they had made all photos downloadable straight from Tumblr (particularly on mobile) and I just do not license my photos and art that way. Maybe the way I have been using Tumblr just isn't going to work anymore, there was no setting for disabling that so I expect I'm going to have to contact them & find out what I can get done to allow me to still use the platform close to the way I want to. And that situation makes me concerned about the other platforms I am using, so lots of ongoing technical aggravation is still taking energy that I would prefer to put into my actual projects. I shall as they say, soldier on, anyhow.

Initially had to post this while falling asleep typing it. I took an editorial pass (the Monday night after originally posting) and then occasionally had to add a link or some such later. I had many blog drafts started that just didn't get finished or posted in the last couple years, and I didn't want to fall into the same territory with this. While I am not an actual perfectionist, I do at times get carried away with wanting to fine tune in an overly fashion to the point of missing my timely relevance windows, a thing I am trying to mellow out on, especially since it leads to other real life difficulties outside of creative projects and their releases.

What did you most relate to amongst the obstacles I mentioned? Did you discover any helpful ways to address it, that you would like to share here?
What life lessons have you taken some extra time to focus on recently?
Who likes Decadent Angels? And who would like to weigh in on the formatting of Decadent Angels?

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

A gazillion changes and and projects currently in progress all over Bent Ream Studios and in my personal life.

A glimpse at the main personal life stuff that affects my project schedule and more for BRS:

My divorce is final. So now I'm single and looking to get more involved with community and friends, and am in the process of returning to my old name. There is a swirl of activity surrounding this change on the whole. It's a huge adjustment, and I'm doing as well as I can under my circumstances.

I'm packing for a move and on a waiting list for an apartment while also exploring as many housing options as I can reasonably look into. May even be moving in with my parents for the interim. Lots of things will go into storage, possibly even in a tedious back and forth sort of way, etc.

Working on figuring out which paths I most want to pursue in pretty much every area of my life (as well as with Bent Realm). Some things had been set for a very long time, but it's obvious I need to re-evaluate many long standing plans and get them more up to date and in line with more recent developments in all areas including resources available.

As far as Bent Realm Studios itself goes, the current basics are:

Going through my supplies & projects and assessing thoroughly what's going on with each

Going through my shops; taking stock and making plans, designing and preparing stuff to go in.

Made a chart of areas that need balanced attention and endeavoring to follow it

Working on a better task list system

Getting rid of unnecessary more burden than help clerical tasks (Like I stopped most counting of my words and the associated logging, will do a write up on that)

Development work on my larger projects

Small project work

Setting up a few primary projects to work on more majorly in different project categories (ex - novel series, board/ card game, comic book series etc.) Once those are all determined I'm likely to put up a post on it.

There is always so much more going in in the background with Bent Realm Studios than I could ever express in a lifetime. As I post additional information on the above mentioned BRS stuff I will add in links as appropriate.

How's your week going? Who else is in the middle of big life change stuff? Who else is doing a bunch of organizing and prioritizing?

Sunday, August 30, 2015

What the homepage of the old format looked like in an edit preview vs. the new format in early build on homepage.

Just changed the format of the root site portion of bentrealm.com and some of the smaller sub-domains. For many reasons. Yes I loved and will miss much of the old homepage and what I was able to do, when I had the time, to the other regular pages. Rarely had the time and energy to truly put into it the way it was set up though. After having done this transfer, I'm feeling a great deal more uninhibited, more free and less blocked and held back. Which is exciting.

Figured I'd get into a few details of this change, including why I left the old format in the dust, why I picked this new format in particular, and some plans for the main blog. Bear with me I know this is more of an explanation / informational post on some boring format stuff, but it's pretty much here for anyone who loved the old format and is curious why it went away. Tried to be as brief as I could below while still being comprehensive.

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