Forty and freaked about being fat. I had my LapBand placed April 20, 2009. On my Bandiversary one year later-April 20, 2010- I had all of my excess skin surgically removed. I am starting this decade of my life much healthier and happier.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Tucking

With a "t". So, I've had a strange yet cool NSV this week. Last weekend, I went on a little shopping spree... and it was very wonderful because I wasn't just looking for cute shoes and accessories. I was looking for cute CLOTHES. I think I've decided my new body shape is rectangle, with boobs and a butt. Anyway! Getting back to the NSV... I've been wearing some of my more casual clothes to work because I can, BUT I've had to tuck in my shirt a couple of times or my outfit looked too sloppy. TUCK.IN.MY.SHIRT! It doesn't even make my pants look like "mom jeans". I don't have to wear my shirt like a tent anymore to cover my tummy and junk! It's flat. I can tuck! I think I love tucking!

Now that I've reminded myself of boobs and butt... I think I'm stalling on weight loss, because I don't want to lose any more of either one. Mr. W has requested that I not lose those, and now when I eat that little treat, I think to myself "I'm doing this for him!". I am eternally stuck at 174. Even though that is technically 15lbs overweight for me, it wouldn't kill me if I stayed here. It's ironic, because I'm actually having to talk myself off the ledge about eating more than 1500 calories a day on the days I eat more than that. Crazy.

Tracy had a really good post yesterday which included how many calories she used to eat VS what she currently eats. I've run those numbers for myself. At 300lbs, I had to consume over 2700 calories a day to maintain that weight. I think I was taking in WAY more than that. To maintain 174lbs, I can eat just over 2000 calories a day. That's a lot of food! It doesn't sound like a huge difference in number per day (to me anyway), but it's a difference of approximately a quarter of a million calories per year!

I must be in a plateu because I'm averaging about 1800 calories per day, and technically should be losing weight. It seems true for me that it's more difficult to see dramatic weight loss the further out I get from surgery. Maybe it's denial when I say I could be happy here for life, but I don't think it is. I'm REALLY happy here. I can move, I can shop, and I can tuck as much as I want to!

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I know this is completely wierd to say, but when I read the title "tucking" I thought of drag queens and the tucking they do of their male parts between their legs while in drag. I'm wierd that i think of the more obscure association rather than the obvious!

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Lap-Banded 04-20-09 and it was one of the best decisions of my life. At 299 lbs, I refused to see 300 EVER, and decidided something drastic had to be done. The second my insurance covered bariatric surgery, I started my Lap-Band process. I've now lost over 100 lbs!