My grandfather went to the Vetrans home which is really good for him.The only thing is is that I got memories of my other grandfather my grandfather Gary.My grandfather and me were close before he died.But now I really don’t know what to say it is like almost every time I go up there I want to cry and there is like nothing that I can do to stop the pain or the memories coming back I mean I want to have my grandfather and I to have a good relationship before he goes up to Kearney because it is supposed to happen.I also can’t do anything about it.I am just not ready for my last grandfather let alone my last grandparent to die.I am getting really depressed and when I am in 10th grade the vetrans home is supposed to move and I am afraid that it will eventually effect my school work I really don’t know what to do and besides that it feels like everything is crashing down around me. Advice would be helpful thanks so much.

I’m sorry. Grief is difficult, but don’t let it overtake your life. Pray, read your Bible, and maybe try reading a book or something about grief that may help you (I recommend CS Lewis) or try talking to someone about what you’re going through. I hope you’re doing okay.

Ive been through grief before. Five people I were close to died in 5 yrs, and my Momma dealt with the same thing that killed them. Cancer and much much more. She was paraplegic for a while, paralyzed from the waist down, and God did so many physical healing miracles on her. She just died in Dec. About a week after my 18th birthday, and she wasn’t sane enough to know I turned 18. Grief hurts. It just hurts. I felt so weird once my Momma died. Because I didn’t really grieve. The bible says that God’s children don’t grieve the way the world grieves. I finally understand that. I held on for so long. She dealt with sickness for 7-8 yrs. I’m not glad she’s gone, I mean I had one bad day so far, where I cried for a few hours, but honestly it hasn’t felt like the grief I had experienced b4. This life is preparation for the eternal destiny and the eternal plans that God has for us. So we had a “life celebration” for my Momma instead of a funeral. It was fun. I’m really so excited though that she is filled with God’s glory. It makes me happy that I know she is getting started on REAL LIVING. I do still miss her though. I’m sorry. I hope this helps.