So, I kinda wanted to share a series, a series on some of the thoughts that go through the heads of girls struggling with eating issues, distorted thoughts and lies that are not true, but hard to put out off our minds.

There are these magazines in stores. They preach a wrong view of beauty. It’s a vanity, a lie about what a woman’s body ‘should’ look like. Women spend their lives dieting their way out of one body into the next, and my heart hurts for them because of all the silly, unrealistic bodily ideals into which they are pressured.

I have been right at that spot along with them. I couldn’t get the images of thin ladies out of my mind, and often my heart even burned in a bit of a jealous way, wanting something that God had not given me, and putting it in the forefront of my desires.

I would think, when I saw those ‘thin ladies’, that I was ‘fat.’

You see, that’s not what matters. God has gifted each women with a unique metabolism, a unique bodily structure, and it isn’t right or beautiful to smash your body into a mold that God didn’t mean it for, instead embracing the curves and the ability that God has given your body to work naturally, function normally, and even have babies, something which is difficult for un-naturally thin women.

These are not thoughts that you go through alone, and I want to tell you, girls, that these are LIES. Don’t listen to the lies.

May this be our prayer. Psalm 86:11, “Teach me your way, O LORD, that I may walk in your truth; unite my heart to fear your name.” May God teach us His way, so we can walk in His truth and so that the lies of the world may fade away in the presence of His AMAZING truth.

When we’re ‘stuck’ in the cycle of overeating, under-eating, purging, we are often overcome with fear. It’s a fear of what other people would think if they knew. It’s a fear of man, that displaces a loving fear of the one who made the universe, God.

Don’t let this earthly fear drive you. Don’t be so consumed by what men think, and use that fear to destroy the good gifts that God has given you.

Look at God’s promises in Psalm 145: 18-20, “The LORD is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth. He will fulfil the desire of them that fear him: he also will hear their cry, and will save them. The LORD preserveth all them that love him: but all the wicked will he destroy.” God promises to preserve those who FEAR Him. He is a great God, an awesome God who deserves a loving and awe-filled fear.

Don’t fear man. May God fill you with the power, love, and sound mind, that only He can give. 2 Timothy 1:7 says, “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”

Grace. While we were still in sin, Grace was a sunbeam, a sunrise coming through the dark clouds of night.

Romans 6:1-2 says, “What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?” No longer do we live in sin, but we live in obedience to a loving father and awe of His amazing grace.

‘Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me.’

The Grace of God is an immense thing. It is not something that we could possibly comprehend or even fathom, but it is infinite. There is a phrase from the hymn, ‘Marvelous Grace of our Loving Lord,’ that says, ‘Grace that is greater than all our sin.’

When I looked back at the 6 years of uncomfortable pressure I put on my family through my selfish obsession over food and my body, I cringe. I do. I wasn’t the only person wounded by my own sin, but people I loved were also hurt by this.

Although, I have since made things right, and by God’s grace, I have settled into a better pattern and healthier way of eating and living, there is still that guilt feeling that creeps up on me.

I can’t open the chest of the past. If I continue to open it in constant regret, I deny the grace of God to cover all our sins. If I continue to apologize and cry tears over it, I haven’t truly moved on and repented. Part of walking forward from eating issues is repenting, changing, and closing the door.

We can’t dwell on the past or worry over it. God has control of it, and He meant everything for our good.

Now, I gaze in retrospect, and I am grateful, that despite all my sin, God can bring flower out of the ashes and make a new story.

God can redeem your story too, because if we are faithful to confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. (1 John 1:9)

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I am a very ordinary girl. I’m 21, but if you met me, you wouldn’t believe me. I am passionate about girls finding true beauty in Christ. I love peanut butter, icecream, and salad. My hobbies are cooking, baking, sharing laughs and tears with others, and sharing the fullness of joy that Christ has put in me. I love reading other blogs, and I hope that this will be a place where you can find encouragement, recipes, smiles, and joy. Click here to read more about me...