personal and professional musings from a Jesus-loving, center-right chica navigating life and faith in the ELCA ("takin' this bound conscience thing out for a test drive")

Saturday, July 7, 2012

The One

There's the one.

The one who knows nothing of your daily existence. The one who doesn't know what time you get up (8-ish, unless you work, and then 6), or go to bed (~midnight). The one who doesn't know what the weather is like where you live (hot), or what your work schedule is (a couple mornings a week), or about the quirky drink you had at your new favorite bar (the Vertigo). The one who doesn't know whether you saw that new movie (no), or the books you're reading (Hebrews for Everyone and Latte Trouble), or your new favorite kind of frozen yogurt (Pink Lemonade with raspberries and almonds).

There's the one.

The one who knows the big stuff. The one who knows how much you gave, and how much you just couldn't do it anymore. The one who knows how much it hurt when you lost your job. The one who knows how excited you were when you finally sold your house. The one who knows how unsure you were about grad school, and how pushed you felt to be someone you weren't. The one who knows how scared you were but how awesome you are, even when you don't believe it yourself. The one who knows how big your heart is and how loyal you are.

There's the one.

The one you never talk to, but still tell everything to. The one who never talks to you, but still tells you everything. The one with whom you share the crises and the triumphs, the joys and tragedies. The one who shares their own with you.

There's the one.

The one for whom distance is practically a hallmark of your relationship. The one with whom you conquered the odds of time and space. The one who, when something important - really important - happens, is the one you want to call.

I have this one. I miss this one.

This one is the one I want to call. There isn't a thing I wouldn't do for this one, and I think the inverse is true. But right now it feels like time, space, and distance have won. And my heart hurts.

About Me

I am a walking dialectic, so I suppose it's good that I'm a Lutheran. I'm into the Bible, geeky theology stuff, and staying up past my bedtime. I'm definitely "my own person" and I ask lots and lots of questions. I feel like I just wrote a personal ad.

Beautiful and Important

"The Son is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy. For God was pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him, and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross". ~ Colossians 1:15-20