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Topic: Back into Hell now... (Read 751 times)

A year ago my ex-ex and I were engaged to be married. Long story short, we moved into an apt after a year and a few months of dating, and she cheats /breaks up with me not even a month living in the place. She had this guy over all the time and would spend alot of time with him, in some instances until 5AM.

One of my worst fears was when she broke up with him that she would sleep with him in that apt, and it happened. Then she left me behind with alot of bills and such that I had to cover.

Suffice it to say after all this I was crushed and completley despondent.

Anyway, I had my sister recently move in for just 2 days but same situation. She had her BF spend the night, and again he was over the next day, found a used condom on my table, then she leaves because I just have a one bedroom apt and she moved in with my dad (He has a spare bedroom). Why did she move in? My parent's house got sold, and I offered my sis a place to stay if she wanted to. Considering she doesn't have a taste of that "freedom" from her parents, obv she took up my offer.

Anyway it all played out just like my ex-ex in a very minature version. Now I'm back to these feelings again.

Please pray for me, I need prayers more than ever now.

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“There is your brother, naked, crying, and you stand there confused over the choice of an attractive floor covering.”

She's touring the facility/and picking up slack.--"For in much wisdom is much grief, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow." Ecclesiastes 1:18--I once believed in causes too, I had my pointless point of view --Life went on no matter who was wrong or right

It's amazing how it triggered those memories like that. Not trying to be overdramatic but I had a phantom pain in my heart for 2 weeks when my ex-ex cheated/broke up and quite possibly the worst way possible.

I'm not at that level, but going to my apt does rise those unwanted feelings.

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“There is your brother, naked, crying, and you stand there confused over the choice of an attractive floor covering.”

Conquer evil men by your gentle kindness, and make zealous men wonder at your goodness. Put the lover of legality to shame by your compassion. With the afflicted be afflicted in mind. Love all men, but keep distant from all men.—St. Isaac of Syria

It's amazing how it triggered those memories like that. Not trying to be overdramatic but I had a phantom pain in my heart for 2 weeks when my ex-ex cheated/broke up and quite possibly the worst way possible.

I'm not at that level, but going to my apt does rise those unwanted feelings.

My prayers.

Did you have your priest over to bless your apartment?Maybe that will help.

It's amazing how it triggered those memories like that. Not trying to be overdramatic but I had a phantom pain in my heart for 2 weeks when my ex-ex cheated/broke up and quite possibly the worst way possible.

I'm not at that level, but going to my apt does rise those unwanted feelings.

My prayers.

Did you have your priest over to bless your apartment?Maybe that will help.

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I would be happy to agree with you, but then both of us would be wrong.