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Kerri Krysko is a beauty who spent more than a decade in the belly of the beast, trapped in an allegedly abusive relationship with a full-patch member of the Hells Angels in B.C.

The mother of two finally found the strength to break free in 2009 and last year, hoping to help others, she wrote an inspirational self-published book entitled, Kerri On, that became a national best-seller.

Now she’s well into writing her second book — Kerri-ed Away — which promises to delve deeper into the seedy underbelly of the world’s most notorious outlaw motorcycle club.

“This is my book of strength; it’s where I fight back,” Krysko told the Toronto Sun during a recent visit to Toronto. “And it’s going to be a homerun.”

In her first book, she avoided spilling club secrets — not out of fear, or a lingering sense of loyalty to the motorcycle club — but because she felt they weren’t her secrets to share.

“It wasn’t written to bastardize the club,” Krysko said. “I wrote it to help others.”

She instead focused on her life leading up to the marriage proposal from her ex-husband, who she identifies only by the pseudonym Damien but also refers to as “the Beast.”

“He is one of the most notorious Hells Angels on the west coast,” Krysko said, adding her ex belongs to “one of the richest chapters in the world.”

Kerri On begins with her childhood in Alberta and B.C., which she claims was abusive and resulted in her leaving home at 15 to be with a man in his early 20s.

That relationship, which ended with Krysko running for her life, was the first of many bad choices that ultimately led her into Damien’s arms.

Many of those choices are recounted in her first book — often in disturbingly vivid detail.

After becoming pregnant at 18 with her first child, Krysko moved in with a man who was a friend of the baby’s father and things were good for a while.

Then after her eldest son’s birth she began a downward spiral, tasting crystal meth for the first time and quickly becoming hooked by the drug melted that her pain away.

Many months would pass before she finally got clean.

“Yes, for nine months out of my life I did crystal meth, but never, ever will I touch it again,” she wrote in Kerri On. “It is not worth the price you pay in the end.”

Krysko was 23 when she met Damien — a moment forever etched in her mind.

It was 2000, Hells Angels were highly visible on B.C.’s mainland and she was enjoying a drink at a bar, near Vancouver, when a man walked up and yanked her hair.

“Hey there, whore,” she recalls him saying.

Krysko turned around to meet the gaze of a hulking 275-pound man in his mid-30s wearing his colours — her first glimpse of the alleged monster she later fell in love with and, against her better judgement, married.

She didn’t speak to the outlaw biker again until a year after that incident, which she thought was a chance encounter. But she later learned it was part of a sinister plan to settle a score over a drug debt with her son’s father.

Their second meeting was at an after-hours club frequented by the Hells Angels. Damien walked up and pulled her onto the dance floor.

Krysko says she was instantly drawn to his “wild green eyes” and “fierce strength.” And with the added allure of his leather Hells Angels vest swaying to the music, she was “a goner.”

Their first kiss brought her to her knees.

“It was like a rush of fire through my body that warmed me for days,” she wrote in Kerri On. “The chemistry was undeniable.”

But that chemistry soon became explosive.

Barely 24 hours after their first night together, Krysko knew she had entered a dangerous world when her roommate, who was invited by Damien to a Superbowl party at the motorcycle gang’s clubhouse, called in tears claiming a member sexually assaulted her.

Soon after, Damien cheated on her with another friend. And yet another friend was badly beaten by bikers during a club New Year’s Eve party.

One of their many break-ups came after revealing she was carrying his child and Damien turned to her eldest boy and asked: “Hey son, do you think your mom’s baby is even mine?”

Damien would push his way back into Krysko’s life after the birth of their son. The verbal abuse turned to physical violence over time and she eventually submitted, did her best not to provoke the Beast and waited for the next assault.

One night he caught her reading a happy mother’s day wish in an e-mail from a fellow parent at her eldest child’s school, a father who was a CN police officer. Krysko claims Damien beat her senseless, accused her of being “a rat” and told her the club would kill her.

Once again she found herself running for her life — this time with two kids in her arms.

It was soon after that outburst that Damien proposed to Krysko, which is where Kerri On ends.

Strangely, in spite of all the abuse, she agreed to marry the Beast.

“I should have said, ‘f--- you,’ but I was just so beat down I didn’t know I deserved better,” Krysko said.

Her new book covers the next three years, from 2006-09, and is about “life as a wife” of a Hells Angel.

“I don’t glorify it, but it is glorified,” Krysko said, adding she often “felt like a celebrity” when they were out on the town.

While she was reluctant to reveal details of the upcoming book, Krysko did hint she had a ringside seat during a time when “the landscape changed dramatically” thanks to deadly biker wars and police crackdowns.

Krysko said the Hells Angels installed puppet clubs to do their bidding, so members could continue to get rich off the lucrative drug trade while distancing themselves from crime.

And many members learned how to invest their money in legitimate businesses, she said.

While they’re still “very much mobsters,” Krysko said most Hells Angels in Canada no longer look like the stereotypical “greasy bikers.”

“They’re businessmen driving Lamborghinis,” she said. “A lot of them won’t get tattooed below the elbow now because they want to be able to wear suits.”

Krysko was also quick to point out not all Hells Angels are abusive or even violent.

But talking about the inner-workings of an outlaw biker gang remains very much taboo, which is why she “went into hiding” for six months after the release of Kerri On — available at Chapters and Indigo.

Krysko admits she stuffed pillows in her windows, fearing at any moment the red lights of laser sights from firearms might track her down in her home.

But in the end, there have been no repercussions from the club. And while her divorce was ugly, Krysko said she hasn’t experienced any backlash from her ex over the first book either.

Krysko said her journey of self-healing continues but she and her sons, who initially lived out of a car when she walked away from her ex, are flourishing now.

However, finding a job, renting a home and even dating are still difficult because people fear her history with the motorcycle club.

Krysko is not sure how the Hells Angels will react to her new book but she’s forging ahead undaunted, drawing strength from the support she has received from readers of Kerri On.

She is currently entertaining offers from publishers and hopes Kerri-ed Away will be in bookstores across Canada by Christmas.

Carolyn, a 911 call taker in the GTA who didn’t want her surname used, “loved the first book.”

“It was so refreshing to read something that was real,” she said. “But as a mother I wished I could have been there to protect her.”

“My heart just broke for her,” Carolyn said, adding “it blows my mind” to see how well she is doing now.

She shared Kerri On with friends and also gave it to her husband, a GTA cop.

“But he found it too disturbing and couldn’t get through it,” Carolyn said.

She can’t wait to read Kerri-ed Away.

“I’m anxious to find out how she broke away from the Hells Angels and survived,” Carolyn said.