Tuesday, April 1, 2008

I believe in destiny. Somewhere, someday, somebody is meant for someone. This topic has been and I think will always be controversial. Destiny, soul mates - some believe it, some don't, depending on their spiritual affiliation or personal experiences. But of course every girl dreams of someone who'll sweep her off her feet and make her hypothalamus release those feel-good endorphines. Every girl has her dream guy or ideal man. It could be their long-time crush, their guy best friend, their current boyfriend, or some adorable faces they see and idolize on TV. Sometimes they live happily ever after; sometimes, they end up with someone exactly the opposite of what they were initially looking for.

I had my own share of experiences about this lovely-but-sometimes-sad topic. Teenage love, puppy love, first love, whatever you want to call it, I had one – my first love – my “Romeo.” As young as we were, sometimes I call it immature love, or maybe it was not love at all. All I know is that at that time, I was happy. But because we were still immature then, it didn’t work out. And it turned out he wasn’t as ideal as I thought. It was my first heartbreak so just imagine how I acted – like a little girl who lost her Barbie doll. Today when I remember those times I just burst out into laughter because of how immature I was. But I believe that every time one stumbles down and makes a mistake, the wisest thing to do is not just stand up and go on with his/her life but to find out what that situation is trying to tell him/her or what God wants him/her to learn through that circumstance. Mistakes and downfalls that recur are signs of lessons refused to be learned. I’ve been in love and in the process, got hurt. But despite getting broken-hearted, the dream of meeting “the one” lives on.

I’m not dreaming of someone with a knight-in-shining-armor personality, or someone who’s filthy rich to give me my dream of traveling the world, or someone who’s super handsome like those guys we see on TV. Although I get allured with their temporary and sometimes artificial beauty and good stuff they can offer, but, it may be a cliché, it’s really true that what’s inside is important and of course the fact that you make each other happy. And just like Shakespeare said in his sonnet, love’s not time’s fool, though rosy lips and cheeks, within his bending sickle compass come, love that lasts despite the challenges of time is true love. I believe that God has prepared someone for me. Maybe I’ve already met him, maybe not yet. But what I’m certain is that now is not yet the time. Singleness is a gift and it is also the time when one should serve God with undivided attention. It is also a time for preparation for the future and a time set for us to be at peace and united with our family before we go and build our own family in the future.

All girls have their own Romeos just as each of us has our own destinies. But we are given free will and it’s our choices that make our destiny, our future. When you believe you have found the right one, they say don’t let him go. But I say that we should be wise enough to know and decide if he’s really the one and not depend on our emotions solely. “Happily-ever-afters” only happen in fairy tales and our lives are not fairy tales. Finding and maintaining a relationship requires so much more than fairy grandmothers and magic dusts.

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This blog-entry-like essay was a requirement for our English 4(Literature) class.. It took me weeks to start writing this essay because I didn't have any idea of what to write at first. But i have this weird attitude - when i am pressured because of a deadline, ideas suddenly rush in through my head and voila! - my essay! hahaha!