February 12, 2015

I made this jacket for my boyfriend as a birthday gift. I wanted to do something funky, modern and edgy, and combination of fake leather, black&white tweed and bright orange really rocks :) He was really happy and is wearing it proudly, as you can see on the pictures :D

If you are interesting in having similar one, don't hesitate and write me! :)

January 26, 2015

Dear readers,Firstly, I wish you all the best in 2015.It has been a long time since I wrote a proper post.

I want to thank you for still reading Drama in my head. Really. That makes me feel that there is someone out that cares about what I write. So thank you.I tried many times to write for blog. Even now that you are reading this, I'm writing and deleting rows because I cannot find the right words to express what I want to say.

So let's say that this post is kind of introduction. A pilot version for 2015.What I learned in the past few months and weeks and days and I want to share with you, RAW version:- There is always going to be something depressive in your life. And only you can change this in your head. So don't wait for the perfect condition because it will never happen. Live with it.- That we all need to feel more connected. Because that's the thing that prevents us to be depressed and unhappy. So let's gather together with positive people more often. (blogger meetup anyone? :) )- That we should love more. And be aware that love hurts. I'm not talking one night stand, platonic and surface relationships fuelled by passion of the moment. I'm talking about loving someone that drives you crazy because he reflects like a mirror all the points that you need to work on. Really hard. But it is worth it. Because there is no thing such powerful as love.- That we should love ourselves more. And be tough and soft in the same time. To be that kind of person you always wanted but didn't have courage to do it. And to give yourself permission to glow. Because we all need that.- You are going to do mistakes. Like, serious mistakes. That will last days, weeks, or years. Ant that in the end you should use all those, embrace them and make a good art form them. And make a step forward.- All good things require hard work and dedication. But in the end, isn't that the only reason we get out of bed? And even if we don't feel like doing so, we have to push ourselves like our mothers used to do it when we were in school.- Be your own cheerleader. Because only you can lift yourself up even if there is everyone pushing you down. It seems surreal but it is true. Be your own coach, make art that feels good, put the dark sides on paper and leave them there.----------------------------------------------------------------

My last work: series of paintings Tropical depth.I am working on creating happy artworks, works that inspire you and give you that air of summer breeze and warmth.Prints available upon request!

August 26, 2014

I came back from a travel holiday few days ago, and I found myself sticking around, not knowing what to do with all this stable dynamics. When traveling, time passes differently. Even tough it was just a twelve days trip, it seemed a month. And in the end me and my boyfriend both agreed it could be just a great beginning.

We traveled with a motorbike, which is a completely different experience than traveling with a car or with public transport. I was afraid of motorbikes few years ago, along with many things. I remember trying to convince my boyfriend to go with a car instead, picturing in my head all the brutal accidents that could happen on the road. But as soon as we started driving, I realised how enormously stupid fear is. And this fear gets me every time. After few miles of driving through the forest we catch the sight of the sea, my other lover. I could already smell the salty breeze that caressed our naked necks. What I love about traveling with a motorbike is that you sense everything so intense. You are not closed in a safe box of a car, you feel the temperature, you hear the voices and sounds on the road, you smell the odours of nature, cities and cars, you feel the danger and the speed.Motorbike gives you freedom, but every freedom has a price. You are like a nomad, wandering around in big boots and motorbike jacket even when it's 35 degrees with sun shining. You have to carry around all of your belongings including protection belts, gloves, documents and helmet. It's not for everyone, but it is for everyone who craves of something wild and free.Maybe few years ago I wouldn't be ready for a travel like this. My travel bags were usually full of shoes, dresses and accessories. That outfit needed that bag, and I couldn't be in the same dress everyday, what kind of fashion girl would do that. And yet I find traveling light so deliberating, I had just one small bag, smaller than hand-luggage on a plane, where I had to put only urgent things that I'll need on the road. When my brother saw the bags, he asked me how was I supposed to put everything in those two small bags, I smiled: just one is mine.This kind of travel changes the way you see yourself. With a everyday use of helmet, you can forget about good hair days. And your make up routine gets down to a lipstick and sunscreen. But the most curious thing is that you don't even need all those tricks that society states them as required. The wilderness and the road need no gold, no shiny belts or bracelets, no super full lashes mascara. What is a real beauty is waking up with a sun shining on your tent, hearing the sea waves few meters away, beside a person you love and you are so grateful for everything that exist in this world. You start enjoying small things as having a DIY salad on the beach, making grill with other people in camping, playing with small kittens on the street, enjoying the silence and darkness of the night full of stars.Most of the time we are too spoiled and we forget that those are the things that make our existence full. No fancy beach bars, no loud music and cocktails, no glamour, nothing superficial can overcome the beauty of simplicity. If you are lucky and have a chance to find a private corner, I say also no clothes.Now I crave for another voyage. I'd love to make longer one, the kind of travel that stretches your mind, that puts you in a position where you have no option but to hold on tight and ride. Through life, through your toughts, through the questions that may be life changing. Every non-conformist travel is a kick into reality, making you notice things you need to change, areas where you need to grow, fears you need to overcome.And after any of this, you feel a bit more free, a bit more naked to yourself, but more strong. More wild.

I made this cotton dotted top few days ago and I've been wearing it like, all the time. I felt the need of creating something that I can wear, something simple, classic but with a twist. So I designed a top with simple front and with open back. It can be worn both as lingerie or daywear, and this is what makes me thinking that I may need more versatile clothes like that.

The fabric is quite old, I found it in a pile of stuff that my grandmother used for sewing, and it could give a touch of vintage, but then it recompenses with the open back that is sexy in a non traditional way.

The pictures were taken in the morning, I wear no make up. Few years ago I'd be horrified to have my face photographed without make up, but with years you grow and your self-love also improves, you accept things on your body that you used to call them imperfections, and translate them into specialities. Everything is in your interpretation and attitude, you decide if you want to feel beautiful or not.

July 30, 2014

In the last few days I feel that my life has going to have a slight twist. Not in a bad direction, I mean. Let’s say I was too scared to admit, but it had to come to this point, where you need to take some compromises, in order to find yourself and your purpose.

Before writing this I went for a walk in the nearest park, where was a swing. I sat for a while and start pushing my legs up in the sky and down, in order to get higher, faster. It was just me and this simple act of swinging, the sky had Monet’s colours because of previous storm and there was no one around. How can you become so quickly focused on something? It’s true that usually when doing simple and repetitive actions that we’ve been doing for all our life, or things that we used to do as kids, we get the best ideas and memories, feeling memories.

I said some weeks ago to my boyfriend that I don’t want to grow up because the world is too scary and too rough for me. I was in a Peter Pan’s mood and nothing could change my view on things. Than happened few things and I realised that maybe not everything is so dark and heavy, but there are people who do have feelings, dreams and fears as I do, and thinking in this direction it helped me open more.

I am still in discovery, still searching for the right light. And I need to learn to be patient. I need to relearn how to play. How not to forget to feed that Peter Pan inside me. Slowly, gradually, with baby steps. Less comparison, less self-judgement, less perfection, more play, more love, more faith.

July 22, 2014

Last friday I had a presentation of my work at La Casa delle Artiste in Milan, Italy. It was really nice to be there and meet other similar minds. I' m sharing with you some pictures, and let's say, outfit post after a long time.