Saturday, May 2, 2009

Huh. I just noticed this is going to be my 331'st post. What's the significance of that? Not a durn thing to every one else, but 331 happens to be the radio number of the guy that used to be my night call partner, and guy that hurt me simply by not needing me back. He's gone now. He doesn't even realize the good he did for me, or how much it hurt when he left. I mean, it's been over 2 years and I'm just now getting to the point where I feel like me again. Anyway. That's not what I was going to blog about tonight, but I couldn't help but notice it.

We rained out of the race track tonight. Bummer. I was really looking forward to the show. That, and I had about 3 more chapters in Eclipse, and even though I've already read it, and know the good stuff comes in Breaking Dawn, it's still aggravated to be that close and yet, not there.

We have a confirmed case of the H1N1 virus here in my county. Shocker. I figured it was just a matter of time, especially since we have 3 colleges that just came back from Spring Break. Not sure I'm entirely concerned at this point . . . I mean, it's the flu, right? Yikes. Did I just jinx myself?

I read a theory somewhere, the 10/10/10 practice. When making a decision, think about how you'll feel 10 minutes, 10 months, 10 years, or something like that. I made a decision a couple of weeks ago. I felt so relieved when I did, I know it was the right choice. I also made one a little over a month ago, and when I did, I remember thinking, "I sure hope I don't regret this." I don't, but I got hurt in the process. Dang, but I'm tired of getting my feelings stepped on. I think it's time I pull them back in and just stop for a while. I'm done dating. I'm so tired of wasting my time, that I just want to be me, and be happy with that. I'm not sure my friends understand, but I hope they will.

And now that I'm feeling thoughtful and melancholy, I'm going to go check my puppy for ticks. I found one on me and one on her and I'm thoroughly creeped out.