2.27.2008

we thought we'd skate right on through without it. we thought we were lucky. we never really had to deal with it. not really. and then - the last week of febraury. it's here. winter! i am not a fan of being hot. so i typically enjoy the winter. i don't get active in it and actually exert myself, oh no. but i love the quiet. the temporary blanket of clean. the temporary cover up of all the really crappy houses that exist in upstate ny. did i mention the quiet? i'm a fan of quiet. so i woke up this morning to a beautiful cover of snow and peace and quiet. love it.

my night time hours, not so much. i've been having nightmares lately. vivid, i'm screaming out in my sleep kind of nightmares. last night was one in which my neighbors house was surrounded by swat and the husband (and no Kathy - since i KNOW you stalk my blog - it was my other neighbors - not you guys! hehe)had barracaded himself in with some sort of military rifle... and his wife and family were locked in a bathroom. i could see all of this in technicolor in my dream, from my bedroom window. my dreams are usually premonitions too, seems like. i dreamt last week my best friend's husband was having trouble with his diabetes again and was about to have his foot amputated. i called her the next day and told her and she said he had just got home from the doctor and has a severe infection in his toe. freaks us out. her husband calls us "Charmed". i had a nightmare two weeks ago that we were victims of a home invasion and i was shot. not killed, but shot. ron said i was yelling out in my sleep and i woke up crying. strange, eh? some battle is going on in my head while i sleep. PHEW! think it's time to get a refill of the good ole ambien!

not much other excitement going on here these days. an unruly 3 year old... going through a phase. we HOPE... ahh parenthood. i've got a horrible cold. i'm blaming girls at We B that were sick on saturday. i haven't been sick with sinuses in almost 3 months. i spend one day with a coughy, runny nose bunch, and POOF. sick. my nose is cracked. i can't stop it from running. i have sinus head.

in light of all that - i'm being productive at work this week - thank GOD. as it's only getting busier. i get to travel next month to texas. kind of excited about that. always like the personal interaction with my co-workers. i'm fortunate - i've got a pretty amazing bunch of folks on my team that i just adore. so i'm really looking forward to the trip. not to mention - i will get to go to Sam Moon, IKEA and hopefully the container store! not that i will be able to BUY anything, but I will be able to go! hehehe

2.07.2008

i will do anything for recovering from surgery type friends... hahaha an still nothing earthshattering to share. been working 13+ hour days.. killing myself. for. NOTHING. anyhow - here goes...

*You must post the rules before you give your answers.*You must list one fact about yourself for each letter of your middle name. Each fact must begin with that letter. If you don't have a middle name, just use your maiden name.*After you've been tagged, you need to up-date your blog with your middle name and answers.*At the end of your post, you need to tag one person for each letter of your middle name.(Be sure to leave them a comment telling them they've been tagged and need to read your blog for details.

M - is for mortician. my father was one. funeral homes don't really creep me out. i used to play hide and seek in the casket room. i thought it was cool to get pickd up from school in a hearse. yeah - i know - that explains A LOT.

A - is for my attitude. it's a strong one. opinionated one. sarcastic.i really think people misunderstand me quite often. my sarcasm is often taken for high strung or an inablity to deal. i'm often told lately with work - to check my emotions. it's not emotion. i'm a girl with a strong attitude about lots of things and base the way i think and feel on procedure and principals. most of the time. oh and A is for actress - too. i was supposed to be one. consider myself still one. i can act, do improv and even a little stand up comedy. have about 20 years experience under my belt.

R - is for realistic. i have a very realistic view of life. things are not perfect. and it's ok. it's possible for your heart to be broken everyday and yet somehow still love the man you're married to. i LOATHE materialism and un-realistic people. could spit on them - that's how mcuh i loathe them. nothing is really cloudy for me anymore. my life is WHAT i make it. and that's about as real as you can get.

I - is for impossibly cute and adorable. that's what i think my daughter is. she has me in stitches daily. she's so very funny. we are convinced she thinks of things all day long to crack us up with at night when we get home. she's intelligent, genuine, loving, cuddly and by far the most polite, proper, well mannered, empathetic child i've ever known. love her.

E - is for exestential (sp?). it's a word my BFF uses to describe our meltdowns. i think she stole it from the cavemen commercials for geico. but it's sure to bring a huge smile to my face and laughter to my ears when she stops me - mid-bitch session and asks/tells me - "so are you saying you had an exestential meltdown? love that girl.

ok consider your self TAGGED

Holly - the cute military wife holly who is a crafty GODESS! so GLAD you are back to bloggin girl http://hollyscharmedlife.blogspot.com/

Holly T - my prom date. because she's just fabulous. and has a fabulous dog. and a fabulous husband who's name is the same as my husband http://www.itsallaboutholly.blogspot.com/

Melonie - well - because she's just too damnd cute and clever and crafty and sweet and selfless.. love this girl http://wwwmel-o-drama.blogspot.com/

lance - because he stalks me. he should blog. maybe this will prompt him. and if we worked in the same office, people would talk. ;)

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today's thoughts...

"Often people attempt to live their lives backwards; they try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want, so they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then do what you need to do, in order to have what you want."~ Margaret Young