Remember what they say about ‘Dhobi ka kutta’? ‘Naa ghar ka, naa ghaat ka.’ Well, I feel just the same. In an abandon. Belonging nowhere, to no one. And why do I realise this suddenly you ask? Because I feel terribly alone right about now. All I want to do at this very moment is just curl up in momma’s lap and die. But I know it’s practically impossible. And even if that happens, I’m gonna regret it just a moment later. Because that’s what I have become like. A loner. An outcast. A person who belongs to her family just in name. A person who oscilates between being homesick and sick of home. Homesick when away, and sick of home while there.

I could delve more into the subject, but I’m just too tired to pen my thoughts down. I miss my mom right now. I want her by my side. Meh.

“A loner. An outcast. A person who belongs to her family just in name. A person who oscilates between being homesick and sick of home. Homesick when away, and sick of home while there.”
Total resonance…Know what you mean…for me it even applies to my friends…no one understands…however, I know why it has happened and it feels so logical…but the emptiness inside me doesn’t understand..