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Osiris

The darkness surrounds me, almost comforting me, as I sit and get used to the emptiness that swells inside, I begin to realize how alone I am.

the darkness is my only friend, always there always embracing me. I fight it but it only make me want it more, the more I wish I could see the blacker it gets. no thought any more fits, the insanity of the night creeps, and from my chest my blackness seeps. I walk hoping this is just a tunnel, that the further I walk itll be a funnel, eventually leading me to the light.

I fall to my knees and pull my hair, the endless night is not fair. all my seams begin to tear, and my dreams begin to blow away.

the tears build in my eyes, a drop falls to the ground, and flickers a bit of light. I look up to see a sliver of hope rising,

the immaculate blue light drenches my face like water, and the moon rises to the sky. the brightness seems to good to be true, the hope once lost begins to reform, my mind an emotional storm, begins to ease, I begin to stand and feel the breeze,

I spread my arms wide and embrace the light, I than realize i have not lost my sight.

The moon my savior, Leads me to a new life, away from all the strife, She is the reason for my smile.

My head is pounding My heart is aching I don’t know why I feel so lonely For a while I was lost I could not feel a thing I tried so hard, but I could not fake Cos I don’t fake.

It hurt so much It does hurt bad Sometimes I cry Sometimes I smile Sometimes I get scared if losing you.

Is this LOVE,what I feel?

It can’t be…

I need to wake up!

This can’t be happening to me.

I hate it and I love it. But I don’t want it. It is too deep. It kind of hurt in a pleasant way. I wanna wake up. Wake without this feelings.

Come to think of it. you might not even feel this way about me. Maybe It is Just a joke to you. Maybe I took you way to seriously.

I think I will pretend it is a joke too. Yes! We are both acting. That way it might hurt less and it might be easier Well I might not feel like so tomorrow Cos tomorrow is full of surprises.

Maybe it is okay to feel this way once a while

Maybe I am missing you so much It can be so lonely … So frustrating too… So much uncertainty… Fear of what lies ahead…

Maybe I Just let things be One day at a time. What will be will be I will hold on to the knowledge that for now, What we feel is real. Even if it fades… I will forever cherish the fact that it was, and it was as real as can be.