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I feel tired when the alarm goes off, but I have to get up and get ready for work. I could feel annoyed having to wake up when my body wants to stay in bed, and start harboring negative emotions towards the 9 to 6 office life. Instead I accept my tiredness, and promise myself to get to bed earlier tonight. I start slowly getting myself ready for work, giving my body and mind the time it needs to get going.

The train is again packed with people, and I hardly have space to move. I could feel annoyed at the other people of pushing me around, and not giving me the space to read my book. Instead I understand that also others have to go to work, and fully accept the situation. I stand surrounded by my fellow commuters, and start listening to a good podcast.

I get a mail from my colleague, him letting me know that he doesn’t agree with me. I could be annoyed with my colleague, considering him unable to understand my point of view. Instead I remember that all people make sense in their own head, and accept his opinion. I call him to ask more about his mail, to fully understand his point of view.

At the end of the day I have still loads of things that I wanted to achieve. Some work issues are pending, I had promised to organize the holiday pictures, and I haven’t even cleaned the kitchen yet. I could be disappointed in myself, feeling like a loser for not being able to achieve everything. Instead I accept that I also have a limited amount of time and energy in the day, and decide to feel happy about what I did achieve. I accept myself, and feel free!

On Friday 11th of March, I was suddenly woken up from my afternoon nap. The 9.0 magnitude earthquake in the North-East coast of Japan felt tremendously strong even in Tokyo. The aftermath of the earthquake has been terrible for the people directly affected. And distressing for many more…

I admit that I was also stressed, being especially nervous about the nuclear situation. During the first week of the crisis, when the situation in Fukushima was still escalating, I was continuously thinking about the possible risks. By using too much of my mental energy on this kind of negative scenario thinking, I was creating a feeling of grey heaviness inside of me. Continue reading →