1. Phuket
I just returned from my Phuket trip last night. I've been there for the third time, and we stayed at the same hotel, same room again. On the second day of the trip I felt that it was really boring and I would not return to Phuket again. But now, I miss that place. Sort of. It was boring, but it was nice too. Lying around in a pretty resort, room service and water slides, those are always perfect combos.

2. LDR
Ok. This might be a sensitive topic. One of my close friend just broke up, I think. Anyway it's been a rocky relationship for her recently cause her boyfriend went to study abroad. Some relationship survives the distance, and some just break. As an outsider, I feel that I know how the distance 'ruined' them. I see both point of views, but I have no solution. I don't want to say it, but I feel like I have 'been there, done that'.

They were so close together before the boy went away to study, that the girl just cannot get used to it. It doesn't help that the girl doesn't have a big circle of friends. I can tell that she loves the guy very much and just wants to spend time with him. But boys being boys, he likes his freedom to do things and doesn't want to be 'tied-down' in front of the computer spending hours skyping.

I feel that I can relate to her, cause I was in a situation similar to hers. I don't say exactly cause I don't even remember what the situation was for me. Seriously, I feel like I have some sort of amnesia. I don't remember much of how I felt with the ex.

Anyway, I understand how it feels but I have no solution for her. I think this problem is unsolvable unless both of them change their attitude, one less clingy, and the other one more sensitive. & attitudes and mindsets are really hard to change.

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I myself is trying to maintain a LDR. My boyfriend lives in Thailand. I'm very, very lucky that our relationship is now going pretty well despite the distance. He is often busy, my mum told me she has never heard of a young man having to attend so many meetings. But I am blessed that despite his business he texts me during the day and we Skype at night.

Sometimes I am surprised at myself, that despite this distance I am still very much in love with him. & mind you, we are only 100 days old. 100 days old are supposed to be the crazy-in-love period in the relationship, how agonizing is it to be away from him. ):

I think the reason that this is working for me is that I believe he misses me, and I believe that he thinks of me. There is no need for me to constantly bug him to talk to me or reply my texts. I know this is very cheesy, but it's true. Vice versa, even though I don't text him constantly, he is always somewhere in my mind. We live our life separately, but a small part of it together.

(Man I hope I don't have to eat my words in the future.)

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I learnt from observation and experience that if you constantly try to talk to your boyfriend, or to tie him down, he will not be happy. Just let him be.

But then again, I couldn't do that before because I didn't trust the ex. & I was right, I couldn't trust him because he lied. Sometimes women's instinct are very accurate, if you feel suspicious or you know that he is the type who like to manipulate and lie, chances are he is doing some form of cheating.

Men like this are too immature, and undeserving of your faith in him. So just screw them and move on to better men. I know it is hard, but it has got to happen.. 人生流流长， 总要爱上几个人渣的 (directly translates to life is long, you inevitably will fall in love with a few assholes).

3. Mushroom soup

Queennie coming over later. I'm going to teach her the secret to my secret mushroom soup. Cooking is an awesome weapon to get guys ok. The way to a man's heart is through his stomach. :P

How does one move on from one relationship to another? Surprisingly, it comes very naturally. I don't remember how it felt to be in this stage of relationship with my ex boyfriend, so I cannot compare.

The last time I had a boyfriend of 2 months was 3 years ago, so I don't remember anything.

It feels weird you know, to be a stranger to who was once so close to you. & you wonder how can you ever 'get over it him'. You just do. So I guess this is the ending to my once upon a time love story? From the beginning, to the peak, to the gallows, and now this. All recorded in this little blog of mine.

I know I didn't blog for the whole 4 months in the States, some feelings were so personal I couldn't share it. & also, my life was really filled up... Oh, not forgetting I didn't had the DSLR with me. I couldn't take any artsy-fartsy photographs. My dad said I can bring the DSLR with me this time when I go back, lets hope he keeps his word.

I'll come up with a proper update soon. I just feel like I should do a very brief introduction to my life right now, cause this 4 months of absence was a really big change.

1.
Like the beginning of the post suggested, I'm dating again! I can go on and on about this, but I figure I'll let it out slowly in the following post. I'm pretty happy with my new love, but there are times when I'm afraid of history repeating itself. I hold back sometimes, but I free fall most of the time (typical woman). He is not from Malaysia, so right now it's kind of an LDR. I'm quite okay with that, I don't cry cause I miss him even though I do. Maybe I finally grown up (a little). I'm trying to keep my mind clear, and like i said before 'calm the fuck down'. More about that I promise.

As mature and as 'in control' I sound, he does make me happy. He surprises me with how happy I can be, & that I deserve to be happy. So yeah. Thank you God for putting him in my life.

But then now I'm kinda annoyed at him. Lol. He keeps working and I don't get to talk to him and it's annoying! Ok anyway moving on.

2.
My cousin, Jane, whom once was an acquaintance with blood relations is now my good friend! It's weird how fate works, really. I use to see her once or twice a year, and I never thought that Jane & I could have so much to talk about! I'm really glad that she's studying in Penn State with me. She's unbelievably nice, and just so much fun to be around.

I think those are the more prominent changes, I just wanted to write that down so that whenever I write Jane, or mr.bf, I wouldn't feel like nobody gets who I'm talking about.

Other than that. I'm still pretty much the same. Just better. hahaha. whatever. This post is going to come to an abrupt end right about.... now.

Lol. It's 7.30am right now and I'm skyping with tee rukkk. Had a really really bad nightmare last night. ): So glad he is jet lagged and he can talk to me...

I'm back from States already, time flies right! I really enjoyed my time there, so much that I didn't bother to write any post. Sometimes I feel that feelings are too personal to be shared. Right now I'm blogging and it's kind of contradicts with my thoughts but whatever I'm bored.

I was really excited to be able to come home and eat all the food and see my friends... but now since I'm here I'm not so excited. It's getting really boring. Later I'm going out with the bestest best friend in the world, Queennie! Her mum is making my favorite noodle! Omg #excitesss

As excited as I am to be able to eat, omg I'm so fat. People who are close to me are probably annoyed at me cause I keep saying I'm fat. But really, I AM FAT LIAO. ): Maybe I'm going to have my period soon. I don't know...

Also I don't feel like shopping anymore cause I shopped at States and all the nice stores are there. & things sold here are overpriced.

See my life is boring. For now.

Ok there are so many things I want to say, but I still don't have the balls to say it out cause I feel like it's so private. Give me a few days or two. I'll start yakking on my blog again.

For now I'm going to think of what to eat for breakfast, but unfortunately I have no appetite. ):