Monday, March 14, 2011

I am thinking about getting a HRM. I want one that will tell me exactly how many cals I have burned for the day too. I don't want to spend a lot of $$$. I did see a Timex HRM that monitors calories for approx $60. Any thoughts, advice, words of wisdom?

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Day 1 of the Diva Cup....LOVE IT! Ok, it takes a wee bit of time to get used to inserting it and so forth but let me just tell you it is well worth the learning curve. You MUST try it. Trust me!! I am actually "enjoying" my visit with Aunt Flo. Weird, I know.

I would like to make a clarification/correction in my earlier post. I am not giving up SUGAR, I am giving up SWEETS. I mean come on, fruits have sugar. Trust me, I don't over indulge on bananas! So, no sweets for 40 day and 40 nights. Day 1....CHECK! Oh yeah...happy dance. I even got my happy-little-diva-cup-ass to the gym after a freaking week and a half. That felt good. I am back baby!!!

I'm not Catholic....actually far from religious but I need to do something so I am gonna hop on the Lent bandwagon and give up Sugar for 40 days. Ha! I figure I would give up sugar because then I can't have ice cream, candy, cookies...you know, all of the crap we aren't supposed to eat. So, day 1 (noon) so far so good. Granted I have only been out of bed since 6:30 am but hey...still going strong. I will keep you all posted! You know I will!!!

So today Aunt Flo decided to make a visit. I normally can't stand the bitch but this time I was looking forward to her visit because I recently acquired a Diva Cup. No more tampons or pads. No more leaks. Clean and Green. If you haven't heard of the Diva Cup, Google it. Trust me, it is awesome. Day 1 of the Diva Cup is AWESOME! Google away my friends, Google away!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

I am not always "good" about reading other's blogs but yesterday I did skim through the blogs and had to stop at Amy W's Blog (love her). Well, I am soooo stinking glad I did because she (as usual) said something that really stuck in my little brain. She said:

"Tomorrow is another day."

Thank you Amy W. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

Yesterday I blogged that I was back on track and going to stay that way....hahahahaha! Well, I came home from a long day at work and ate! A few cookies, a little bit of ice cream, slice of pizza and DIDN'T go to the gym. I just had one heck of a time finding the energy to get my big ass up and go to the gym. I found the energy to go to the kitchen, funny how that works. So, today is another day. Yesterday is gone. I am moving on and moving forward. Back on track (again) today!

I know I won't be 75lbs lighter by my birthday (March 27th) but maybe, just maybe, I can get into the 260's. I am so GD sick of the 270's. I would be happy with that. So, new goal for my birthday...get into the 260's. Gee, that's a whopping 3lbs. I hope I can do it!!!

Thank you to everyone that responded to my post yesterday. I wish I could figure out why I self-sabotage. I wish we could all figure it out. Maybe my therapist can help me. Let's keep our fingers crossed.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Why do we (I) self-sabotage? Last week I stepped on the scale and didn't like the # I saw. I hated the freaking # that popped up. I wanted to scream and kick and punch something...really hard. I threw in the towel and told myself that I was destined to be fat forever. I ate a total of 3 half gallons of ice cream. Gawd, I hate typing that. I ate like crap over this past weekend, past week and didn't step in the gym the entire week. I did go see my therapist and she helped me figure out (even though I already knew) that I was self-sabotaging. Why do I do that? Everything was going so dang well until I stepped on the scale and saw a # that I didn't want to see. I should have just stayed on track but instead I continued eating ice cream (and anything else that I could get my grubby hands on) and stopped exercising.

The good new is....I am back on track today and will be going to workout tonight. I am counting my calories and will try to stay around 1,000 cals (intake). I'm going to TRY to not focus so much on the # on the scale and focus more on how I feel. I do feel better when I exercise and eat well. I have more energy and am slightly less grouchy. I feel like this weight loss journey is a roller coaster ride. Sometimes there will be highs and other times there will be lows. I may enjoy the ride one moment and the next be sick of it and want to get off. I may even get off the ride and go get some ice cream with the intention to get back on the ride asap. I know this is a journey but damnit...it is hard as hell.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

I am looking for some help from all my blog buddies. Can you please vote for my daughter, Macy? We are trying to win a free photo session and need as many votes as possible. Please head to the following link and vote, vote, vote. (For Macy of course)