Do you have any plans of getting her back at all or does that just start the anxiety all over again? What meds are you on again?
Have you ever though of going for couples counselling when you two were together?
CBT will probably help you alot with progressing and getting away from this disease as well as coping. Thankfully you don't have to wait too long before you go in and start your therapy.
Have you told her all this though??