Saturday, May 8, 2010

My journey to Motherhood began on September 25, 2009, the day I found out I was pregnant. I was scared at first, overwhelmed. I didn't have complete faith in myself in my capabilities to Mother. Those feelings were quickly fleeting as I dove into pregnancy books, researching all the do's and don't and preparing for my precious gift. I can remember like it was yesterday, rubbing my big ripe belly talking to my unborn daughter as I watched her move within me. I was shocked at the love I had for a person I had never met, dreaming of her face, her laugh and touch. The last week of my pregnancy I cried everyday, longing to hold her in my arms, to look into her eyes, to smell her soft skin. June 15th, 2009 that day came. The first time I laid eyes on her I felt God, in that instant I no longer lived for myself... I took each breath for her. We were made for each other, he gave me these arms to hold her, feed her, teach her.

'Yes. It is true. I was created in you, It is also true that you were created for me. I own your voice. It was shaped and tuned to sooth me. Your arms were molded into a cradle to hold me, to rock me. The scent of your body was the air perfumed for me to breathe." -Maya Angelou

Watching her grow has been the greatest gift in my life. I love Bella not just for the joy that she is, but for the person she makes me. If I am remembered for one thing, let that be as a Mother.

That Maya Angelou quote is awesome!!I didn't feel that love right away for either of my babies though... it came later when I got to know them... odd! Maybe in 7 weeks when I have #3 it will be different!Just blog hopping around :)http://elislids.blogspot.com/2010/05/momday-morning.html

Hi there. I wanted to check out your blog after I read a comment you left on another blog that I follow. I love your blog! I am a Navy wife and SAHM to a 21 month old daughter, so I can relate to the rollercoaster life that that entails. I will continue to check your blog for new updates and posts :) Thanks for sharing :)http://reflectionsofanavywife.blogspot.com/