Tag: depression

In the last six months, my entire life fell apart. I broke up with my fiancé of seven years, cancelled a wedding, found out I didn’t get into a single grad school, and fully understood the consequences of my deteriorated personal relationships. As the entire world I’d created disintegrated, I watched my coworker with envy. … More The Art of Starting Over

I want life to be simple. I’ve moved passed my youthful, type-A black and white mentality to reluctantly accept the many shades of grey in this world, but some days, like today, I am forced to acknowledge how woefully immature I am. Sometimes we just ignore reality I often reach out to people for help, and … More Growing Up Is Hard to Do

If you’ve read some of my previous posts, you’re likely well-aware of the guilt I mention every time I do anything contrary. My whole life, guilt has been my water and I’ve never quite learned how to escape it.

As a child, I felt guilt constantly. I felt constantly bombarded with my failures and short-comings, despite the fact that I acted like the new intellectual savior. I was and always have been a perfectionist. With each flaw and error in my life and choices, I saw these as direct representations of my immortal soul, … More The Perils of Worshiping a Perfectionist God