Afraid

So......now that i've decided to dread my hair...i feel like a total chicken shit. I am currently in school and yea there are other people here with dreads but..idk. Last time i started with tnr so my "dreads" had some form to them and allowed people to get used to them gradually as they fell out and became a birds nest. lol. This time i am goingb naturally and my hair is already wicked curly and turned into a poofball from one night of sleeping on it. I AM TERRIFIED to walk out like that i rarely even wear my hair down for more than a couple hours cause it gets to fluffy. I need a boot to the ass to get myself going :/