08.01.2013

to be young, gifted and beautiful

C: I don't feel very intelligent . . . any more, at times, for a long time . . . . when I get high I feel—J: that has two meaningsC: yeah? well—J: I mean intelligentC: I don't feel able, capable of the work, the effort, not the effort itself, I go through a lot of effort, you've seen me man, I've been on my feet here for sixteen hours. I—J: you can't keep something upC: I can't write it, I can't say, I can't, ah, you know, I mean, I'm—I can't get anything personally done like that