Archive for June, 2009

>Still no sign of AF…..I am wondering if the Metformin may be delaying it. I have no idea if there is any medical basis in that statement!I really want to get on with the next try!J said to keep some hope, as hormones levels vary in lots of women and some women only have 5 mIU/ml hCG even at 4 weeks! The tests I am using only detect 10 mIU/ml hCG.My temp is still high, with a small dip this morning.I went shopping on my own today and found myself in the baby section at Boots. If we are ever successful at making a baby then it is going to be a costly business! There was also a women there yelling at her kids….hmmmmmI have just had a thought…perhaps I am having a phantom pregnancy! That would be just about right for me.

>15 days this morning and no AF although I do have slight achey feeling in my stomach, but I could be imagining it!I did take a test this morning and it was negative again.I am obsessing so much about this, that the news about MJ floated over me. I loved MJ as a teenager and am actually very sad he is gone.

>Well I do actually…when it comes to food I have really surprised myself with how much control I can have over what I am eating.BUT pregnancy tests! Ahhhh! Every since it became apparent I may have ovulated after all (temp still rising) I have become obsessed with doing a test. S stopped me doing one, but she is at work today and I am on my own, so I did one and it was negative! Of course it was it’s too damn early to do a test, I know that, everyone knows that! So why did I do it? lolJ has been texting asking if I am pregnant, he is a pharmacist and should know full well it is too early to know yet. Perhaps I can blame him instead! haha At least he is excitied, which makes the whole thing seem so comfortable. I am so glad we have him 🙂No other signs of pregnancy yet, my breasts are not sore at all, and apart from one day off feeling sick I have been fine. Still feel very tired but that’s prob normal for me!I went supermarket shopping today and there was a REALLY pregnant lady there walking around. I had overwhelming jealousy towards her. That’s a new emotion for me, I never usually envy anyone. If ever I want something, I work for it and achieve it. I hope that doesn’t sound arrogant but thing whole getting pregnant thing seems so out ofmy control :S

>I imputed my temps this morning for the past 7 days, I hadn’t bothered to do it before as I was down heartened by the whole thing. Fertility friend thinks I ovulated last Saturday….. which if it were true would be great! As our last insemination was on the Thursday evening…. so I still have some hope. I will wait until 15 days PO to test again to not risk a second false negative. So that is next Sunday if AF hasn’t come till then.The ‘m’ button is flashing on my fertility monitor….no sign on AF yet.I go to work this morning with a smile 🙂

>I took a pregnancy test today, I just couldn’t help it. I knew it would be negative and it was, so now I can get started on the Metformin.In other news here is my current weight loss graph, I am very proud of it 🙂