Desperately need help

I love what you said. For me “it feels different “…how I hate justifying it…i can walk away, I build my account…and one day…im absolutely a lunatic in the casino…im sick of it…i have stopped, then go again…been to GA, counselors, meds…i hate how dismissive I am when it comes not to having that somebody called “courage “…it is a sickness…id be a millionaire if I walked away, instead…im in such debt

I love what you said. For me “it feels different “…how I hate justifying it…i can walk away, I build my account…and one day…im absolutely a lunatic in the casino…im sick of it…i have stopped, then go again…been to GA, counselors, meds…i hate how dismissive I am when it comes not to having that somebody called “courage “…it is a sickness…id be a millionaire if I walked away, instead…im in such debt

Lady Bug, Stopping is a big step and the is so wonderful that you decided to stop on your own. That is the easy part. One of the things that I have learned through the G.A. Program is the motto One day at a time. You only worry about today, not tomorrow when it comes to not gambling. Also, being on a sight like this is very helpful and attending the G.A. meetings in your area as well. You get to be introduced to new people that do not judge. you are in a friendly environment. And I keep a progress journal here on this sight. i write in it every night after the time of night that I stopped gambling which was 8:15 p.m.33 days ago. I decided to stop on my own as well. I was making positive changes in my life and I am continuing to do so and gambling wasn’t one of them. Unfortunately, it took me three times around the block to knock some sense into me. I know this sounds cliche, this time just feels different. You are right it is an obsession very much so. I have learned that it is also classified as an illness just like a drug addict or an alcoholic maybe even more so. I wish I could tell you how to beat the obsession. the truth is I don’t know. I do know that staying positive and moving forward and removing things in your life that draw you into the situations. For me it was lotto all three times, scratchers. For the first few days I didn’t go into the gas stations or liquor stores to get sodas or water or when i was at the store I couldn’t even walk past the machines. Now I am okay! It doesn’t bother me anymore. For some people it takes a lot longer. i was just ready to stop. The only thing that bothers me about gambling now is what a fool I was for spending so much damn money on it. I wish you the best and hope that some of this helps a little. Keep fighting and remember one day at a time. Stay positive! Also, keeping busy helps at first!