Monday, July 27, 2009

It was pitch black all around. It seemed as if no life had ever thrived in that house. It was a deserted, gloomy place.

A candle's flame suddenly flickered indicating someone's presence....

Standing at the corner of one of its rooms she looked upon the memories of her past. Her eyes were still wet with tears.

Oh God! She had been shedding them since such a long time. But all this time, her faith had never wavered even an inch. She knew.....

She had been coming here every holiday. Everytime she saw this house, painted all over with the dust of times, she smiled at the prospect of their ever cleaning this 'Dreamhouse' of theirs for themselves.

Oh God!! How she wanted those dreams to come true now, the promises to be fulfilled now?

How many times had she wanted it to happen before she broke down. Before she lost herself.

Thinking of all the charming memories, she blew off the candle's flame and left with silent steps.

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These had been the hardest five years of his life. He had been through hell!!

But the thought of only one person had kept him going. He had to return, he had to clear everything.

It was dawn....

Their favourite time of the day!!!

He opened the cottage's door. He was shocked to see it plastered with dirt.

He smiled at himself......

Five years!!!!!

Anything would have layers of mud on it after such a long long time. Everything was in its place though. The way he had left it....

Except for a candle....

But he probably didn't notice.

The sun was shining now. The sunlight was peeping the open cottage door.

He opened all the windows.....

To let the warm light come in.

He was deep in thought. He had such a tedious task ahead.

It was to clean this "Dreamhouse" and make it fit for the princess...

His princess :)

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It ws a moonlit night with a clear starry sky.

She opened the door as she always did- silently with closed eyes. As if she knew keeping her eyes close would change everything. As if hoping to see a miracle when she opens them again.

She was surprised. It wasn't dark inside as she had expected it to be.

Their cottage!

It was lit with so many candles...

Beautifully lit........

It took a moment to flame her up. She was angry at herself.

She should have kept the door locked.

It was THEIR COTTAGE, THEIR "DREAMHOUSE"!!!

How dare someone entered and took shelter here.

She was about to shout out loud calling the intruders,,,,

But before she could have utterred a single syllable.. she saw something!!

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Some thoughts stick to your mind as a leech and suck away all your peace. These leeches can't even be plucked off your mind, no matter how hard you try.

I want to forget it all...The good moments, the bad ones... The ups and the downs...

And i am not going to loose this internal battle this time...I have been a SURVIVOR all my life...I'll come out of this phase with my head high I am sure....Insha Allah!!And the things, the people and the dumb heads who are the cause of my misery...would know in the end...

these leeches can suck my peace... every drop of it...But they can't take my spirit away..

"Beneath this smiling face, lies a broken heart...Where the road ends, I will have a new start...."

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Its strange....The way my priorities have changed!!I don't know why but i think about weird stuff these days.....I never worried about future...i was an easy-go person...from the very day i got some sense into my head..i was the sort of person who will take life on daily basis as, when and how it presented to me.But now, i am a different person.I am not ME anymore.....

I guess some decisions i took about my life were too spontaneous.... even for the type of spontaneous personality i have....But i don't want to regret them AT ALL....I do sometimes...but i don't want to....

I am confused....Hell confused about what i should do, its not my studies...No, they never bothered me much.Its something else.... Something which is probably much more important.

And there is only one person in this entire world.....AFTER ALLAH ALMIGHTY...who can help me get out of this confused, miserable, stupid, weird state of mine.....

About Me

I am a human if thats any qualification. I am a human who sees the world from her own eyes, who thinks a lot, who tries to please all those around her,
who works hard (as much as she can), who wants to be someone worth remembring, who wants to be cared for, who feels pain when others suffer, who dreams of a better future, who hopes for the best even when all is going wrong, who cries but hides her tears from the world, who smiles infront of everyone even when her heart is bleeding.
I am a prisoner of my own crazy mind and until now am unaware why i was born in a world of terror and cruelty.
Unaware of the purpose of my life, unaware of what is ahead, i continue my journey......
I am a person who is capable of staying alone among a crowd of thousands....
I read, i write, i speak......
Unable to cure my self of the mental agony, i am trying to learn ways to lessen the pain of others....
I am seeking my cure in being able to cure others who suffer...
It will be many years before i come to know if it works for me....