Life is full of crazy moments, ups and downs and mixed up plans. My life changed in September 2008 when my fiancé was killed in Iraq. Nothing like what I planned, I continued forward. Support from friends and family, as well as my inner strength kept me moving. Now married and raising a pup, I am taking life one moment at a time, living in the present, and working to be happier every day.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

New York to California

It's all about perspective, ladies and gentleman. I continue to be reminded of that over and over.

(Pause...Are there even gentleman that read this blog?! Anyway...)

After a few mentally exhausting days that had me filled with anger, but without anyone to direct that anger toward, I broke down last night. I cried in my car, I withdrew from participating in any part of dinner/discussion/pet parenting/school work. I just didn't want to. I felt horrible. Because all I wanted to do was throw something through something else, break something, run over something, and scream until I felt pain in my throat. I haven't felt that angry in a while.

Then it happened- a change of perspective. I crawled out of my hole and I heard a song randomly selected by the iTunes shuffle gods. New York to California by Mat Kearney. A song I used to think about in very different terms, but it brought me 180 degrees from where I was. Made me stop dwelling on what I have not, and rejoice in what I have. What I have is so much.

If you find yourself lost out in this worldThen I'll find a way to get back to your side.No mountains to high, no stone is too smallI'll build a bridge through the fireFor you I would crawlFrom New York to California.

I have the best partner, who is on my side, believes in my goodness, and throws love my way. And I'd crawl anywhere to get to him.