Tuesday, January 24, 2006

More about today...

I felt even worse, when I discovered that Luey had not put the Angelite in the bottom of the pram, but rather in my nappybag, and so it wasn't lost at all...Anyway, it looks like the other two purchases I made at the Crystal stall were very timely. I bought (based on attraction) a Manganocalcite and an Amazonite... This is what sources say about these Crystals (from, http://www.crystalsandjewelry.com/metaphysicalproperties_a.html) :

Manganocalcite: is a calming stone that eases andheals the heart chakra. It fills the heart with universal and self-love. Itoffers hope for the best. Manganocalcite heals inner child hurts and past abuse by filling one with a sense of motherly love.Manganocalcite It is also excellent for channeling and astral travel. It also greatly helps with studying and retaining information learned.Manganocalcite is a nurturing stone that helps us take care of ourselves. It enables us to accept love and have self-love, and act on and with loving behaviors. It is a high powered stress reliever that relieves anxiety, stress and tension. It also removes fears of all kinds and reduces nightmares.

Physically, pink manganocalcite is beneficial for general health and healing, bones, joints, kidney, uterus, and physical heart issues. Manganocalcite is associated with the heart chakra.

Amazonite: is a mint green to aqua green stone of truth,honor, communication, integrity and trust. It is said to enhance intuition, psychic powers, creativity, intellect, and psychic ability. Amazonite is often associated with the throat chakra, and as such, can be beneficial to communication. It aligns the physical and astral bodies. It can lessen stress and self-defeating behaviors by calming and building self-esteem. Amazonite can assist with peacefully making the transition out of this life. Amazonite is said to heal emotional disturbances and the after effects of emotional trauma. It is reputed to have spiritual energy healing powers of preventive energy that's goodfor one's health in general, decreasing heart problems, benefitting the muscles, helping the nervous system, lessening tooth decay and osteoporosis.

While these Crystals didn't prevent my distructive behaviour this afternoon, I feel that having them in my possession may have had something to do with how sick I felt afterwards. Certainly, I feel compelled to work harder on this part of my relationship with my children. I apologise to both of them this after, especially Luey - I know that won't take back my actions, but I hope it is the last time I have to apologise for those actions.

4 comments:

No your apology won't take your actions back but it shows your boys that EVERYONE makes mistakes, that we all do things that we are not proud of at times, that we all loose it when we wish we didn't.. and that it is ok to admit when we are wrong and ask for understanding. It's shown your boys that no matter what you still love them and you still want them to love you, warts and all... and I know they do. HUGE HUGs...

(((hugs))) If it makes it any better, I think most mothers have moments like that, even if they don't admit to it. I just lost it at Liam because I could hear Sienna screaming behind the bedroom door, and I thought he was locking her in there. Turns it it was *her* who shut the door, and he couldnt move her to open it. Now I feel awful yelling at him :( But yeah, I think its fine for our kids to see we are human-the most important thing is apologising.