Spiritual Journey of self-discovery in the Magical universe: When I arrived, realised I never left:only my the views transformed the Universe

No one will ever know unless Walks the walk of Solo Auditor: what self-control, what will power, what courage it takes to walk that lonely road until one commit self to step on that Path and walks on.

No one will ever know just how many questions one need asks in order to learn the answers to understand the SELF created universe.

How one crawls half unconscious at times in quest of understanding: the why?

What the body goes through in this session, how it is assaulted with immense amount of energy masses.

How many times one falls on ones face and grits teeth get up have a win enjoying the moment of victory the cognition than back to session one goes.

In each session One walks through Hell which is the MEST in every shape and form.

The cycles of depressions, commands of suicide: to eliminate self are there in each persons life and are powerful implants, and all illnesses and their sources must be confronted and as-is since they do influence all activities and alter the body: all these considerations-agreements have to be confronted one by one.

Of course there are thousands of ”run of the mill implants” one has to confront: one must walk though, and also dig up and confront the magical universe!

Let’s not forget the greatest traps we set for self “the Great Unknown” which we have created by believing: talked self into that those incident don’t exist that we don’t know anything about it, that it is a mystery now, the “unknowns” and we must solve these puzzles, which are filled with un-confronted experiences but were pushed away by us because their weight we no longer could carry also has interfered with our newly created games.

But every one of these experiences from the track which contains all the game we ever created have to be summoned up once more and confronted since they contain not only triumphs, great victories our monumental achievements but our punishing fears and our fails and these forgotten games still effect the present daily activities and in them we experience again those past activities in a much smaller scale and on a much lower tone level.

We have immense amount hidden stuffs- junk in form of considerations which is out reality and these believes- agreements are the walls – curtains screens and separate sand at the same at the same moment holds the ”self” in the confinement within these beliefs.

The states after death[ existence without the body] is very difficult to walk through but need to be confronted and these are the beliefs one has to face while having a body in order not to be effected when one no longer is anchored to one.

And I won’t leave out the greatest traps one have to face and these are all the PLEASURE MOMENTS since they are the most difficult to confront but they hold the experiences which have addictive nature because of those reasons they pull the being back into the MEST games over and over.

The self seeks, wants, needs desires these moments because accept as true’s that what they contain is happiness, pleasure, bliss –amorous sensations and they are the answers out: the very beliefs that when one experiences these conditions than one is out of the MEST :Key out of injury-hurt and is into survival.

I say from experience: there are traps so well concealed from self that one must use power of the greatest determination ferreting them out in order to confront them once and for all in order to regain the power of self which is knowledge self- determinism.

There are many straps which indicates there is no more that finally one has walked out of the traps but they are the very beliefs “that there is no more, that one is free, one is finally out” but these concepts are implanted in order not to let the person go but to still remain in the grip of the MEST beliefs.

Just how many times one believes that it is finally over,[ in 40 years in session I have accoutred dozens of these implanted beliefs] than one realises that one still have stimulations: there are feelings, thoughts, views and one has to go back to session with pick and shovel and carry on.

Finally when the cognition hits and one knows: totally convinced that one is OUT because sees nothing: no more pictures [only some sensations] and that is one major powerful trap one just fallen into in the form of VOID [ same goes for the considerations of nothing-ness and empty-ness and secrets] and here one becomes aware there are no paths leading, no signs marking the path toward the Theta universe and MEST U.

the experience of The VOID is empty: holds no AWARNESS.

Now one is in-between universes, MEST has gone: one has been emptied: One is hallow.

YET after a while this void restimulates turns on: The agony –misery of the emptiness: the void of all what was known experienced , the huge feeling of loss hold one in prison and these are the indicators of a new beginning, new day, back to session one must go and only confronting the VOID and all its related concepts one slowly become aware again and can move out of the great emptiness.

The Void was created as a trap to lead one back to for reach once more for the MEST games.

One finds out is session even that void that emptiness is part of the MEST it is there to pull back the person into MEST to the “Mama”, it is there because one feels lost without and must go back to MEST which he knows – understands and where can have game going: to the familiarity.

Hundreds of auditing hours needed to overcome that barrier alone!

The rewards pour in as one walks the self-created path one regains understanding on MEST down to the last rusty nail and understands all about energy and how it works and what is.

The power one has which can as-is everything:can melts away titanium, which is fluff and nothing more. MEST is made up from, by tiny energy particles and nothing more, what it is there outside of those particles are the illusions which we call life.

Incomprehensible magnitude of knowledge is gained in form of cognitions after each sessions: that is understanding of self, what self is capable doing and what is ones role is in the universe and how that knowledge which one has accumulated do affects the universe.

That attained level is not duplicable in long as one has the MEST reality because from that reality Theta do not exists.

Words, knowing words will not do the trick to free one from the grips of the MEST. Since believing I am a spiritual being, I am a light, or I am love: or a free spirit will not erase the masses of energy we are using as anchors.. Knowing the language of spirituality is not the same as finding the path and understanding the meanings why we use those words to describe what is spirituality means.

One has to duplicate the belief one has in order to gain knowledge and knowing the meaning of the words is not good enough.

Oh.. thank you for your communication, please grant me the wish to let me know who you are.. You have gotten to know the reality what my universe contains but yours is mystery.. outside of Germany and you read very fast I know nothing! If you don’t want to give your identity in public blog than endlesstringofpearls@gmail.com will welcomes you writing. E.

Oh.. than you will note that my writing will improve..that will help reading. Sometimes when I have to go back to some of those old post I have difficulty figuring out what I meant. Writing down cognitions is not easy since one has to recreate, use words to describe intangible. Looking forward to your comm. Thank you!