Hey guys, Just wanting to know if i would be welcome back in here for a short time. I know that I havent posted much in here over the past few months following our failed IVF attempt. Just wanted to get to know you all again and give you all some hope and encouragement.

Praying for you all and hope that you will all be into the pg ark really really soon.

The ttcaml thread is getting smaller and smaller which is a great thing but it is also getting quieter and quieter which means i am finding it hard to chat at times when i need to.

Thanks again to those who replied my msg re: microinjection, My girlfriend (Penny) was overwhelmed by the kindness of those who shared.
Here's hoping she will join BB soon.

So SO sorry. I've been MIA for the last week. I tell you, when things are happening, the weeks just fly past. I did post on Tuesday (a big long post) but it got lost. I was so cross coz i couldn't retrieve it and i had sat here typing and pouring my heart out for ages and then it was gone. The upside i suppose it that i got everything off my chest. So today you will get the short version in what has been happening with me.

Firstly i wanted to say to Shez how sorry i am to hear about your other cousin. It is even harder when they are so young.

Secondly - hello to Merideth and Rose..Welcome
Thirdly - A big hello to all the rest of you girls.

Well Sunday night i ended up in hospital due to a huge gush of blood and DH was a bit concerned, so he rang the hospital and they told him to bring me up just in case. So that was a bit scary. (although, I may be pulling at straws, that was the night after the 2 year anniversay of my little angel, so maybe that was why??? Anyone believe in fate?)

I had my Fasting Gloucose Tolerance Test on Monday (2 hours and 3 bloods) - not fun, but turns out that my gloucose is 100% spot on, so they won't be putting me on Metformin after all.

Yesterday i went and saw a kinesiologist, and tell you what, it was the best thing i have ever done. I had so many energy blockages in my body, no wonder things were going wrong. Anyway she gave me some affirmations to keep saying to myself and some herbal drops for under my tounge 3 times a day, and really got me positive about all of this. She also said that because of the blockages, that i had so many toxins in my body that she wanted me to book in for a massage. So that's booked for Monday

I would reccommend it to absolutely everyone. It's just amazing what your body can do (and not do).

Danni - dont know much about the tickers, I could never get one to work in the first place let along get it into my sign off, plus I tend to be a bit irregular and couldn't be bothered having to change it every month, aren't I lazy LOL

Special Child - I have often though about joining the ttcaml thread but I still find after two years I can't think too much about my miscarriage without getting really down, probably a good reason to join I know. My sister has just miscarried this week for the 2nd time in 4 months and I have found that a lot of stuff has resurfaced again for me. She talks to me about it because I have experienced it as well but now I have all the infertility things to deal with I find it all a bit much.

Shez - I am so sorry for your loss, it is a terrible terrible thing to go through

Cherie - hear you loud and clear about multiples. DH and I have the "official" sensible view on not wanting to go down the multiples path but deep down there would be no complaints here if it happened

Meredith - glad to hear all went well for you

I hope everyone else is going well. I am still floating around taking it easy. I had my stitches out yesterday and had my follow up appointment with the surgeon where he confirmed that all the pathology reports came back and it was all endo that he removed. I am going to go back to work on Monday and try and make the most of my last couple of days off work.

Shez, I am so sorry to hear about your cousins, depression is such a sad, sad illness and takes a lot of out family members especially when it ends so tragically. Make sure you look after yourself.

Cherie, I agree with you re the multiplies too, we got bombarded with advice as to whether to put one or two embryos back but in the end we went with two. The only thing that worries me is that I am quite small, only 5'2" but I figure if it does happen this time [-o< round and I dont manage to carry twins to term then we will only put one back next time. But yes, two seems like a bonus when you have tried so long to have just one.

Meredith, glad you got your op in on the day you wanted. I HATE all the waiting around you have to do before a lap. The second lap I had was to remove endo from the wall of my bowell (very charming, to be sure) and I had to drink this horrendous concoction the day before to clean my bowell out, it was absolutely hideous to say the least. Anyway, I couldn't eat or drink for 24 hours befor the op and was so weak and thirsty when they took me in I was ready to kiss the feet of my anethitist - just knock me OUT! I don't think he's ever had someone that keen!

I am off to Melbourne for a few days, I was a bit nervous about flying during my TWW but my doctor assured me that a 1.5 hr flight wouldn't be a problem and I have a little radiation absorber to take that my natropath gave me. It's a girls weekend with some friends, so a nice diversion during my TWW.

Hope everyone is going okay, it's so nice to have you guys to talk to. Take care.

Hi ladies,
nice to know that a site like this exists and makes the whole experience much easier. We have been trying to conceive now for 2.5 years but at least now we know why.

We have done all the preliminary tests and the doctors recommended ICSI as hubby has a low sperm count etc. We have a scheduled appointment in March to see the nurses and sort out all the paperwork and then will hopefully start in April.

In the meantime I have gone to have my breasts checked (as the doctors recommended this) and the GP found that my left breast is quite lumpy!...she thinks its due to my hormones (i'm expecting a period tomorrow) and thinks its nothing to worry about but has given me a paper to go off and do an ultrasound.......very scary....I can't help but think that they are going to find something nasty and that my IVF and dream of being a mum is once again going to be put on hold.... :fuming:

Whilst a part of me know that I need to get the ultrasound done and get clarification the other part of me says to not go and just do the IVF and risk it.......

Wow what a wonderful day I have had, Firstly i won a cd by being the 8th caller thru on the radio and then this avo I went to check the mail and low and behold i entered a competition 2 weeks ago in the local news paper and one, 2 tickets to John Farnham Concert next Thursday night.

I am just so excited. DH said that it comes in threes so may be just may be this could be our month.

Nola - Of course you're welcome back here hunny. Congrats on your wins as well. I hope some of your luck rubs off :luck:

Danni - Best of luck at the specialists tomorrow. I've forgotten (sorry ) - do you have PCOS, or are you suspecting that you don't ovulate for a different reason?

Shan - I replied to you in TTC buddies, but wanted to say congrats on your GTT results. It's always great to know that there's one less complication to worry about (and one less medication to have to purchase LOL)

Rose - I hope you have a great weekend in Melbourne. A girly weekend sounds like fun! I am having a 'ladies lunch' on saturday with a girlfriend ... I'm going to cook Nigella style food, and actually put a tablecloth on the table :shock:

Destiny - lumpy breasts are definitely not unusual (my GP describes mine as being like a bag of rocks LOL), and I really think you'll probably worry less if you do get the ultrasound done. Otherwise, you'll always have the 'what if' hanging over your head.

I start a course of progesterone tomorrow, to bring on AF. Since my CD21 blood test showed that I didn't ovulate, the OB has increased my clomid dose to 100mg, and gave me the prescription for provera, since my anovulatory cycles last anything up to 90 days (and I wasn't prepared to wait that long).

Hi ladies, Still have another couple of days off work recovering so more time to chat he..he.! Nola -welcome to this thread. I have followed many of your posts in the TTCAML loss forum. I will probably join in there soon so don't worry, you won't be alone. Congrats on the wins -hope that your luck is changing and you soon get the biggest prize of all!Shan - Great news re your GTT -they are a real pain eh? I hope the next one I have to do is when I am heavily pg!Destiny - Its not for me to tell you what to do but I would go and get the scan. You would not want to find out that anthing was wrong during a pregnancy and have it affect the outcome. Plus, the odds are that the results will be ok and then you will not need to worry. Good luck!Rose - I am very glad I got my surgey over and done with -otherwise would have had to go through the whole thing again today or next week. Good luck for your TWW -hopefull good news in here soon!

As for me, still very tired and a bit sore but not too bad -just want the next few weeks to get over with so I can get back into another treatment cycle. I will be doing OI with Monash IVF again -anyone else from melbourne with them?

I am so tired today. I was wide awake half the night for no reason, I have never experienced insomnia before. Ohhhh maybe it's a pg symptom LOL. Shops going along well, lot's of nice cute little bits'n'pieces in here now. I just LOVE coming to work everyday, finally I have achieved the happiness I have searched for with working. Now I have set myself up so I can work and have a baby with me at the same time, it's time for it to be my month!!!

Shez - I am so sorry about your cousin, what a terrible time for your family. My thoughts are with you.

Mrs Mac - With you on seeing a Kinesioligist. The one I went to did wonders for me, really 'corrected' my body as they put it. Since seeing her I have never felt more healty. So glad something lovely has happened for you, been thinking of you hun.