By mid-March, we were well along the path of rebranding the yoga studio I had purchased a couple years prior to be the first “zen performance lab”. Sounds fancy huh?!? Anything but. Just typing the words makes me throw up in mouth a little.

The heart & soul that our clients connected to…and that we were so proud of…had become a distant memory. Instead, we were co-creating a sterile environment with no charm…no heart…no soul. Huh…that’s ironic…NOT!

But we couldn’t see the bigger picture in the midst of the chaos. For the first time in my life, I didn’t have the capacity…the energy…to pull up & out to see the bigger picture. It was like I was no longer able to think for myself.

I began doubting my abilities. My prior successes were “luck”& “lessons”. Because I was a “good student” & a “good person” the Universe rewarded me with success. The underlying message being that I better continue to be a good student if I wanted to continue to be rewarded. #threats

The manipulations were so subtle. SO SUBTLE! And he was sooooo good at his job. What job was that? Controlling & manipulating.

Ironically enough, during this time, the business went into significant decline. It was on life support.

Under any other circumstances, I would have fired the business coach that was clearly giving me shitty advice but this situation was anything but normal.

Whenever something didn’t go to plan, it was a “teaching moment”. Either we didn’t want it enough…or we didn’t believe we deserved it…or some sort of bullshit.

Now, I’ve had a business coach before. A real business coach. And I’ve spent most of my career coaching others. I’ve experienced the typical type of interactions you have when working with a coach or advisor. So I knew just how far from normal our interactions with D3 were…yet still, there was nothing I could do about it.