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Monday, June 24, 2013

For the past few days, Malaysians and Singaporeans had been living miserably in a critically air polluted state. If I am not wrong, it has been decades since we had such bad haze in Malaysia.

On Saturday, I woke up thinking that there were fire burning in my apartment because my house was so smoky and smelt extremely bad. And I had a shocked when I went to the balcony and was greeted by this view.

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View from balcony (22th June 2013)

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The weather was already very hot and humid on normal days but the haze made it so much worst. I had to shower three times last night in order to get a fairly good sleep because it was too hot.

As if all these conditions are not bad enough, I was most agitated by how our government is handling this matter. There were talks about cloud seeding to induce rain. But that was it, a lot of talking but no action. And out of nowhere, there were reports saying that cloud seeding is useless for now due to the current condition.

So are we going to just cross our arms and wait for the wind to blow the haze away?

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View along LDP (22nd June 2013)

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And it seems like there are some who is more idiotic competition around that we are unaware of, because despite the unefficiency shown by our gov, Indonesian gov managed to come up with even more moronic remarks.

Instead of apologizing or coming up with a solution to stop the haze, Indonesia's gov actually had the nerve to point fingers at us by stating that the companies that did the forest burning are owned by Malaysian and Singaporean.

What a ludicrous thing to say!

Dear imbeciles in Indonesia (I was so tempted to use foul languages here but had to control myself to make sure that this blog is clean of any vulgarities),

Let me tell you what I think about your brainless comments. So those who started the burning was actually Malaysians and Singaporeans, it happened in your country and it is up to your jurisdiction to prosecute them. And it is your land that they are burning. Are you trying to say that as long as the health of your people are not affected, you have no problem with them burning your land away?

Or have you benefited something from it, therefore, you can't take any action against them?

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Comparison between 21st and 22nd June 2013

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And for you to ask the Singaporeans to stop behaving like a child is such brainless thing to say. People's health are compromised, many have been hospitalised due to difficulties in breathing. Children, elderly and pregnant women are especially affected by this whole ordeal.

And eventhough it is advisable to stay inside our house but for God's sake, we are suffocating even inside our house. Of course we have every right to complaint!

I know by saying this will reflect on me badly, but I seriously hope that there are some serious calamity in your country soon so that your people would suffer the same thing.

Lorry emiting smoke in the midst of horrible haze

I am seriously hoping that it will rain soon to wash away all the smoke (I am pretty sure many are wishing for the same thing). And to G. Palanivel, you gotto seriously step up your game to oversome this problem, since your boss is no where to be seen, most probably hiding with his family in somewhere with fresh air and a lot of shopping malls.

I'm 28 this year and my biggest achievement in life would probably be giving birth to my son. Other than that, I have not done anything significant that I can be proud of.

Since young, I have always been a stay at home girl because my mom was really strict with curfews. I did some bowling, represented my school and won third place in a bowling competition and stopped playing after I left high school. I started to work in my cousin's workshop right after I got my SPM results. And studied part time in a small college in Penang. Got my diploma and dropped out of college because I couldn't afford the exam fees. Eventhough I was granted with a scholarship, the exam fees was too much for me to bear. I cam from a single family and I was the only one to work earning RM1400.00 a month.

I continued working for my cousin until I met my husband at the end of 2007. We got married and I gave birth in 2009. While pregnant, I worked in a bridal boutique, learnt some basics illustration and sewing. Resigned and stopped working for almost a year. Thought of starting a wedding business myself, so husband applied for some loans but the money was spent on moving to a new house and some of it got cheated by the wedding manufacturer in China.

And then nightmares began with me max out husband's credit cards and a lot more of things that I am too shameful to mention here.

After things got out of hand, I started working in a bridal boutique again. I was underpaid and overworked, working till 2-3am alone in the boutique trying to complete all the alterations on time.

Something happened and I started to find for a new job only to find myself landed in WG. I had a lot of fun and that's all about it. Fun.

Career wise, I have been jumping from one industry to another like a frog in boiling water. From motor insurance to bridal to F&B for like three months and now pest control and hygiene. Eventhough I am a fast learner and can reasonably adapt to any working environment, but the cons will be the limit on my knowledge towards an industry.

I can sew but I can only do alterations and that's about it. I can do fashion illustration but compared to others, mine is kinda mediocre.

I can write and I can see a vast improvement in my writing but I am not terribly good at it. I still have to look up to thesaurus in order to come up with a good article. And each time I submitted my writeup to my superior, it had to be amended at least 4-5 times, with the help of my superior in order to get it right.

"Jack of all trade" is probably the word that I would use to comfort myself, but the truth is I am pretty much, a master of none.

I felt that I had totally wasted a few years of my life away. If I had started my career in a corporate world, I would probably be somewhere up there now instead of a low level executive that I am right now.

And shamefully, besides donating a few bucks away to charity homes and temples, I have never done anything impressive that could help make the world a better place.

If I were to die today, my family and some of my friends would probably be devastated but that's it. Nobody would remember anything about remarkable me simply because I have done nothing.

I really hope that I could do something that one day my son would lookup to and be proud of. To carve my name on an achievement instad of just getting along in life. I hope it's not too late.

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

16th of June 2013 is definitely one of date worth remember. It is this day when I finally met my favorite Running Man. Kim Jong Kook immediately became one of my favorite Korean celebrity ever since I caught the Running Man bug a few months back.

Kim Jong Kook being asked some silly questions

Waited almost an hour for his appearance but it was definitely worth the wait. He didn't performed any of his song, but seeing him in person is enough to make the fans grinning from ear to ear. As the event focused on fan-signing, Kim Jong Kook was ushered to the signing table a few minutes after the short interview by a lousy host.

Me, my colleagues and a random dude that we made friend with on that day

After the fan signing session started, we went to Chilli's for lunch. The amazing part was, the signing session lasted for almost 2 hours. Can you imagine signing your name for 2 hours straight? That was probably one of the reason why Kim Jong Kook trained his muscles hard.

Lunch at Chilli's

My colleagues left after lunch while we went back to the center court. I was hesitating to leave eventhough there were nothing else to see besides watching him signing on his posters. One thing I felt quite unethical was that fans are made to pay RM100 to get Kim Jong Kook's signature. What happened to those days when fan signing are done for free?

While lingering around the stage, I saw Kim Jong Kook's manager. This guy here appeared on Running Man quite a number of times so I was not surprised when fans wanted to have their photos taken with him too.

Kim Jong Kook's manager in the limelight as well

It was one of the best decision made when we decided to wait till the very end because posters were thrown to the fans after that. And I got myself one of his poster. The feeling was amazing.

I hope Kim Jong Kook had fun in Malaysia and would return again, maybe with the rest of the Running Man members. For now, please excuse me while I drool at his poster.

Monday, June 10, 2013

I'm grateful to God that I have yet to face death of any of my close family. Thus far, the only death that I had to deal with painstakingly was the death of my pet kitten, who died in front of my bedroom door. Images of me and mom digging a hole to buried her is clearly engraved in my mind. And I think I cried for almost a week over this incident.

I was reading the late Christopher Reeve's wikipedia this morning (he remains my favorite Superman ever!) and his story had me pondering about dealing with the depart of the loved ones.

Christopher Reeve fell down from a horse and sustained severe injuries on his spine which led him to paralysed neck down. The story of his struggles to live really had me teared up. There was once where he thought of suicide because the pain that he had to go through physically and mentally was too torturous.

But Christopher Reeve was considered quite lucky to have his wife supporting him throughout this agonizing journey.

"I am only going to say this once. I will support whatever you want to do, because this is your life, and your decision. But I want you to know that I'll be with you for the long haul, no matter what. You're still you. And I love you." This are the words that wife, Lana Reeves said that stopped him from giving up on his life.

Despite being wheel chair bound, he never stopped living his life and was actively helping others, and this was really inspiring. In 2004, Christopher Reeve had a cardiac arrest and was finally rest in peace, leaving behind Lana and 3 children.

But the saddest part was, Lana was dianogsed with lung cancer in 2005 and passed away in 2006. And this made me feel that Lana was really pitiful because she had to faced her illness alone. Maybe not alone, but I feel that it is different when your spouse is not there. The nights that she had to sleep through alone. I felt, if it wasn't for the children, she would have attempted suicide too.

I don't know why I am summarizing the facts on wikipedia, and I don't even know how to end this post without letting it hang midway. But I really hope that all my loved ones live longer than I do because I don't think I am able to handle it well. I know it sounded selfish but I really rather die first than being devastated.