I FINALLY HAVE TIME ON MY HANDS. As of today (May 2), I am a college graduate.

This past semester I have been so busy that I have not had time to do much else except go to work and school.

This summer will be full of job searching and finding the job I wouldn’t mind having for a while, but I am going to try to still doing all the things I enjoy to do. Here are some of the things I want to accomplish in May.

Graduate

Go hiking

Work in my Grandpa’s garden

Read (at least) 1 book

Publish (at least) 4 blog posts

Film and post (at least) 1 YouTube video

Write & publish (at least) 2 short stories on Tumblr

Workout and meditate (at least) 3 times a week

Volunteer

Finish watching Lab Rats (then rewatch Criminal Minds)

Write people letters

Photoshoot

Do 1 thing out of my comfort zone

Start writing a book

Rearrange my room

Here are the things I want to do in May! I am hoping to actually get things done this month even though we are still going through a pandemic. My goal is to also be more organized and productive. I want to try keeping a calendar and sticking to it.

This April had been a rough one for sure. In the middle of March I had to go home for what I though was going to be 2-3 weeks. It turned out to be the rest of the semester. This month there was a lot of working, photo taking, moving, and social distancing (when I was not working).This month has been difficult mentally, but on the bright side, I am now officially a college graduate. My official graduation won’t happen until August, but I am hoping to get some pictures done sometime in the Summer.Anyway, here is my April in pictures.

The main thing I struggle with is motivation. My mind is really good at convincing me to not do something even though I know I would regret not doing it later. This happens frequently with schoolwork, getting up early, going out, working out, and meditating. I know these things will make me feel better in the long run, but I still find it hard to get myself to do it.

I did have a good week of self-care. I was pretty consistent with my morning/night routine, being productive, meditating, and even exercising.

This week is my spring break, and I am excited to enjoy my time out of school. I won’t be lazy though! I am mostly going to be working this week so I’ll have a little extra money next paycheck. I do have a ‘Spring Break 2020 Bucket List’ that I will be posting about soon. I am still going to be productive even though I am on a break.

I know that sometimes doing nothing is a form of self-care too. The only thing is that when I do nothing, even for a day, it starts to take a negative toll on my mental health. I need fresh air and positive people at least once in a 12 hour period.

These next couple of months are going to be rough. I am graduating in exactly two months. I am so scared. I am not going to get everything done. I also don’t know what I am going to do after graduation, but I am not as worried about that.

My mental health has not been good, but I am finally doing something about it. I have come to realize this past week that I do not take care of myself enough. My motivation has been almost nonexistent. I knew what things would help my mental health, but I did not have the willpower to do them.

I have decided that to try and motivate myself this week by vlogging my week of self-care. Self-care comes in many different forms. I picked out a few for this week, and I plan on doing several each day. I am making a YouTube video out of it because I am hoping it will keep me continuing to do some of the same self-care every day. Plus, I haven’t posted a YouTube video in a while.

My plan for this week is to do my morning/night routine, exercise, meditate, mindfully drink coffee, drink more water, take a walk outside, jam to music, and be productive so I won’t be stressed out later.

Today I have done quite a bit of my self-care. I got up early this morning and went to the gym. I meditated afterward. I have drank more water, but not as much as I wanted to. I will get better about it tomorrow. I mindfully drank coffee. It was nice. I was even extremely productive today! I got some schoolwork done, and I got A LOT of my internship work done. Today was actually a down day for me, but I still pushed myself to be better.

The way I feel is not going to change overnight, but I am super excited to see how this week goes. I will, of course, continue doing more self-care in the future, but making a video is certainly a much needed push.

Another week, another mental health Monday. You may have noticed that it is in fact, not Monday, but I was so busy (and tired) on Monday and Tuesday that I forgot all about writing a post.

This past week has been rough. My anxiety has been at an all time high. I’ve had multiple panic attacks (I’m mostly ok now though). This past week was definitely a down week for me. As I said in my last post, I did go to my counselor last Thursday. We concluded that all this happened because of my thoughts, and that is something I can work on.

Essentially, I worry too much.

She did give a few suggestions on how I can help this issue. First of all, we noticed that even when I say something positive I follow up with something negative. For example, I told her a plan how I was going to get everything done that day that I needed to, but I followed up with “well, probably. We’ll see how it goes.” I’m working on just doing what I planned to do. I have a bad habit of losing motivation.

My goal is practice not thinking so much . Overthinking, I mean. My anxiety has been so high because I overthink every little thing. The dialogue in my head is never quiet.

One thing I have not been doing even though my counselor said I should is to not drink coffee or tea. She said other things too, but coffee and tea is the only thing I drink out of what she listed. I have not stopped drinking either one of those. I know they don’t help my anxiety, but I drink one of those every single day.

I’m still trying to exercise and meditate every day because I know it would help, but it’s hard to find the motivation to do either of those.

Does anyone have self-motivation tips? Please tell me.

Also, don’t get me wrong. I do get everything done, but I want to get everything done before the last minute. I hold off doing everything, and I am thinking about it the entire time. You may think that if I worry about it all the time then I could just do it then, but it doesn’t always work that way. I can’t concentrate long enough to get most things done unless I am in a time crunch.

I have been super busy this past week, and I feel like this week is going to be even busier. I’m not going to lie – because of how busy and stressed I have been, I’ve had a breakdown or two. I am in my last semester of school, and it is so stressful making sure that I have everything I need to graduate.

On a positive note, I have been sticking with working out! I have worked out 5/7 days this past week. I am super proud of myself, and I hope to keep working out as I know that it makes me feel better about myself. There was a few times that I got up early and went to the gym or just worked out in my room. When I go to the gym, I try to have a list of workouts that I want to do so I won’t get there and be scratching my head on what I want to do next. In my dorm room, I have multiple different websites that I use to do workout videos. There’s beachbody (not free), blogilates (free), YouTube (free), and FitOn (free).

The reason I’m talking about working out so much is because it has helped me so much. As I think I said in my last Mental Health Monday post, I have noticed that exercise and meditation have helped me become happier.

Doing those things aren’t the only thing I have been doing. Since last semester, I have been going to counseling at my health center on campus (so it’s free). I feel like I have made progress. My counselor helps me realize that the thoughts I have are “irrational” – my words, not hers. I actually have a session this Thursday so I will let you know how that goes! My main problem is that I have a negative way of thinking. While I have come a LONG way, I still have a long way to go.

Here are some things I want to work on this week:

1. be more social/get out of my comfort zone

2. work out regularly

3. use less negative language toward myself

4. be more mindful

5. eat healthier

Do you have any goals for this week? How are you going to practice self-care?

Do you ever have that weird experience where you can’t tell if time went by really fast or really slow? That’s me right now. Part of me is like “oh wow, January is already almost over,” but then another part of me is like “oh wow, it’s ONLY January.”

Anyway, here’s what my January looked like!

My January has been quite interesting. I started an internship (which I love). I am working out again. I’m drinking lots of good coffee and even been meditating.

I want to give an explanation for the last picture. The last picture is (obviously) of my shower (which I share with two suitemates). Last night one of them called me and asked if I knew what happened to the shower head. I asked. “.. what do you mean what happened to the shower head?” I went into the bathroom and it was literally GONE. We don’t know who took it or when. I know it was sometime yesterday between 12 p.m. and 11 p.m. but other than that, we have no idea exactly when or how or WHY.

On Instagram, I follow the hashtag “#Mentalhealthmatters” because I love reading motivational quotes and people’s stories. I was scrolling through my Instagram earlier when I see a guy that had ‘Mental Health Monday #2’ as the start of his caption. (His insta is nickfituk). This post struck me differently than the others. Every Monday he is going to post a blog about mental health, and that is what I decided I wanted to do too. (You should join in on Mental Health Monday also!)

Mental health is a part of everyone. Sometimes it can be good mental health, but then sometimes it can be bad. I’ve dealt with a lot of bad mental health in my life. I don’t always know why it is there. It just shows up in the middle of nowhere. Luckily, I think I am slowly getting out of an episode. I have been more productive and slightly happier these last few weeks. I think I mostly needed a break from school. I was severely isolating myself.

For 2020, my main goal is to take care of myself better. Sometimes I get so frustrated with myself because I know things that would make me feel better, but I talk myself out of doing them anyway.

Two of the main things that improves my mood is exercise and meditation. Exercising has been a bit more difficult here lately because every time I run, I feel like passing out. I’ve been dealing with a sinus problem since November (and yes, I’ve been to the doctor). There are other workouts that I can still do, I am just still trying to force myself into a routine. I want to start getting up early and working out/meditating.

I am hoping writing this post motivates me to do better. I will update you on if it did or not next Monday!

Hello everyone! I hope you have all had a great year so far! This year I am really putting a challenge on myself to become a better and happier person. I wrote out a whole list of New Year Resolutions that I want to complete this 2020. I actually put them in a notebook and am logging the things I get done. What I mean by this is, for example, I want to workout at least three times a week. To keep myself motivated, I created a ‘workout log’ in a notebook so I will more likely hold myself accountable each week. Here are some more resolutions (and how I keep up with it):

1. Self-care to help your mental health – I wrote a list of things I can do that could help my mental health. For example, workout, dance, hot shower, face mask, ect.

2. Be a better friend and family member – I wrote out ways I could do this.

3. Read at least x books in 2020 – When I read a book, I write the title, author and the date I finished reading it.

4. Save money (goal: $5,000) – I write out the date I deposit money, the amount deposited and the total amount saved in 2020.

5. Workout log (goal: 3 times a week) – I have writen ‘week x (month date – month date), and then under it have the day, how long I worked out and what kind of workout.

6. Podcasts (goal: watch 2 a month) – I write the podcast name, the author and the date listened.

7. Trying new things (at least 4 a month) – I write down the new thing I tried, the date I tried it and a note about if I liked it or not.

8. Learn how to cook – I list the things I have cooked and when I cooked it.

9. Youtube ideas – I have a list of ideas for my youtube channel.

10. Blog ideas – I have a list of ideas for my blog.

11. How to be more extroverted.confident – I have a list on things to achieve this.

These are the New Year Resolutions that I have for this year. What are your New Year Resolutions? Do you have any suggestions on what else I can do to have a happy 2020?

Hello everyone! I am finally on break for Thanksgiving, and I am so happy about it. I finally get a bit of a break to see family and relax. Well, kind of relax. I will still have to do work, but I have all weekend to do it. Plus, I might actually enjoy the work I have to do.

Anyway, I decided to upload a Thanksgiving break to-do list. At the end of break, I’ll follow up with what I did.

Get my nails done

I am actually going to do this today. I should have probably waited because I don’t really need to spend money right now, but I’m doing it anyway.

Vlog my break

I hope to vlog my break. I am trying to get back into youtube again.

Practice cooking

I have been wanting to learn how to cook for a while now. I can follow directions. I just have to build up the motivation to actually do it. I don’t think my family has any plans for Thanksgiving so I was thinking about having my grandpa and I cook something.

Volunteer at the local animal shelter

This is a big maybe, but I really do want to. I just don’t know if I will have time. Plus, I plan on going with my friend so our schedules need to line up.

Work at the restaurant as much as they will let me

I need the money, lol.

Powerpoint for Comm Law and Ethics

I kind of dread this, but at the same time, I don’t think it will be hard to do. The hardest part is always starting it.

Meditation homework

I actually forgot about this, and I hope my printer will work or else I won’t be able to do this homework until I get back to school.

Prepare for interview!!

I hope when I come back from break I will have an interview for this internship I want next semester. I need to prepare for my first real interview ever.

I have finally posted a new Youtube video after MONTHS of not posting. I hope to get back on track with everything, but I am not sure how that’ll go. I am just going to take it one day at a time.

But anyway, I decided to try Sonic’s iced coffee because I heard about it from a friend, and I then tried a new coffee from my favorite local coffee shop. I also bought three new lipsticks. Click on the link, and it will take you to my new Youtube video!

I can’t believe it is already the end of October! It’s been a few weeks since I have posted, and I apologize for that. However! I am hopefully back. These next few posts will be somewhat October related – although some will be after October is over.

Here’s a recap of my favorites this October:

Favorite book: The Scotch Series

It’s actually three books, but when I read them, it was online, and they all blended together. Sadly, this is the only thing I read this month. I am going to try to start reading more. I really recommend this series though – unless you could possibly get triggered by rape-related things. (Rape does not actually happen, but I still would not recommend if it is a trigger.)

Favorite movie: Coraline

I had never seen this before, but I like it. It is quite creepy but intriguing.

Favorite TV show: The Originals

Favorite song: “Panic Attack” by Scotty Sire

Favorite drink: Pumpkin Spice Latte

Favorite place: Martin, TN

Favorite app: Trello (I’ll do another post talking about this app – among others.)

Favorite memory: My best friend and I carved pumpkins. I carved a vampire, and she carved what I call a “basic white girl.” I’ll post the pictures in “October in Photos.”

I finally posted another Youtube video! I tried honey in my coffee, and I also started doing blood/bruises for a mafia original character I have on Tik Tok.

What kind of youtube videos do you like to see? I like doing sit down videos. Do you have any suggestions about what I could talk about? I’ve been thinking of doing coffee talk videos, but I don’t know what I want to talk about.

The YouTuber, Scotty Sire, recently released another album. I’ve written about his song “Get Better” before. I think that his music is very relatable. He’s one of the only people I listen to now. His newest album is probably my favorite by far. His new album consist of 10 songs:

Ain’t That Something

Notice Me

Never Satisfied

What’s Going On

Panic Attack

Smile

Funkin’ Fun

Dream Girl

Words

Kids in the Summer

To me, the first six songs are hardcore relatable. I honestly could not tell you which song is my favorite. Most of the songs on this album is about depression and anxiety. For someone who deals with both, it’s nice to be reminded that you are not alone and that others deal with it too.

I’m going to start doing more “Music to Me” blogs, and the first six songs are definitely going to be written about.

I was going to explain what I think the songs are about, but I am just going to wait to talk about the songs in my “Music to Me.”

You should check out my YouTube video! It’s been so long since I’ve uploaded so I apologize. It’s not because I haven’t filmed anything, but I haven’t had the motivation to edit! Hopefully I’ll do better…

I would appreciate it if you liked, commented and subscribed to my YouTube channel. 🙂

I can’t believe it is already fall. It should still be the beginning of summer! Honestly, I am not ready for fall weather. I don’t like cold weather, but I made a bucket list in hopes of making the best of it.

Fall: September 23 – December 21

Carve a pumpkin

Practice ‘halloween’ makeup

Drink pumpkin spice coffee

Watch at least 2 halloween movies

Have a bonfire

Go to homecoming football game

Consistent with working out / meditation

Go hiking at least once

Post at least 4 YouTube videos

Journal at least twice a week

Finish watching “The Originals”

Try something new (coffee, restaurant, food)

Read at least 2 books

Post on WordPress at least once a week

Watch at least 2 Christmas movies

Have Thanksgiving with my family

Do Christmas shopping

Get rid of clothes I don’t wear so I’ll have room for new clothes

After fall season is over, I am going to post the end result of how many of these I got done. Hopefully all of these will be crossed out!

This is going to be an update on my life from the first two weeks of school. My first two weeks have been a rollercoaster of emotion.

On August 24, I packed everything up in my car (forgetting some important things like my coffee maker), and I moved back into my dorm room at school. Honestly, I don’t mind living in a dorm. It’s a whole lot quieter than being at home. Although I do miss my animals. Sometimes it gets lonely. I have suite mates (so we share a bathroom), but I do not that a roommate because I paid for a private dorm.

I was really nervous to start school this year because I heard some negative things about a couple of the classes I was taking. Attending the classes have slightly eased my worry about them. I know one will be slightly difficult, but I’ve had this teacher enough to know what he wants on his tests. The other class has a different (better) teacher than previously. He’s actually one of my favorite teachers, and I think he’s going to make this class somewhat enjoyable. I also had concerns about an English class. Previous English classes I have taken have been somewhat boring. The teachers were good, but the material wasn’t interesting to me. I have a short attention span so something has to be interesting to keep me from going “squirrel!” every five seconds. Obviously not literally, but hopefully you understand what I am referring to.

Then there was Labor Day Weekend – which was super fun because my family and I went to Illinois for a family reunion.

We do this every year, and I honestly love it because I get to see family I literally only see during Labor Day Weekend. Most of my family went for the whole week, but since I had school responsibilities, I could only go for the weekend.

We mostly just all caught up with one another, ate really good food and played corn hole. If you don’t know what cornhole is – bless your heart.

On Sunday, my grandpa drove me back to my dorm (because he also picked me up). I didn’t do anything for the rest of the holiday except play “Detroit Become Human.”

My second week of classes were not too bad, but procrastination has already taken a hold of my life. I did all of my homework the day it was due.

I’m not going to life. My anxiety has been awful. On Wednesday, I almost had a panic attack. Over the weekend, my grandpa was kind enough to bring me my coffee maker since I left it at his house. Well on Wednesday, I was actually motivated to make a new YouTube video of me trying instant coffee for the first time.

Well.

As I was getting my coffee maker out of the box, the coffee pot fell off and shattered on my floor.

I don’t know why it does, but it does to the extent I was almost have a full-blown panic attack. If you don’t know what anxiety can feel like (for others it could be different): shaking, numb, can’t breathe, heart racing.

That’s what was happening to me.

Luckily, I was able to calm down somewhat, but I still felt and uneasy feeling for the majority of the day.

I did end up buying a new coffeemaker and the YouTube video should be up within the next few weeks.

That same day, however, I started catching what I thought was a cold. I come to find out it was just really bad sinuses. I could barely function. It was terrible. It took me a week to finally start getting over it.

Finally, September 9 was my birthday. I am officially 22 years old. It honestly does not feel like I am 22. I mean, I looked like I’m 16 and sometimes I act like it too.

Those are how my last two weeks have been like. I’ve left stuff out like how I’ve been obsessed with Tik Tok here lately – probably because I literally have no close friends at school. (You can add me on there @ kelliyoung42). Also, I’ve taken a break from working out, but I hope to start back now that I feel better than I did.

At the end of May, my best friend and I started going to a local gym. We typically went at least five days a week. While I may have worked my arms and my abs – I think that was it. I feel like I didn’t push myself hard enough. I did the same things every time I went.

I’m not saying gyms aren’t good. I go to my school’s gym, and I probably feel more at home there because most people around me are my age. There are also a ton of fun, free classes at the gym at my school.

For a few weeks, I stopped working out completely. I barely had any motivation going to the gym so you could forget about me doing my own at-home workouts.

However, one of my friends is a coach on Beachbody. (It’s this great workout program that you should checkout.) I don’t know if it is required or not, but she has been posting about her workouts every single day. She’s talked about how good it has made her feel. It sparked my interest.

What drew me in completely to start working out again was when she talked about the preworkout she used – Beachbody Performance Energize.

The main reason I don’t workout like I want to is because I don’t have the energy to do so. As soon as she talked about it, I knew that I needed to try it.

I got it in the mail, and I love it! I have worked out for three days straight so far.

It may not seem like much, but I already feel better mentally. I’ve also been more productive. When I didn’t have to work, I usually didn’t want to do ANYTHING. Now I do my own random workouts. I’ll do some outside, but I’ll also play music inside and dance/workout. I’ll even get things done afterward that I’ve wanted to do.

I know when I’m sweaty, but happy I’ve had a good workout.

Here’s pictures of my day 2 & 3:

I’ll post more on my overall progress in a few weeks or so. I will be posting my every day progress on my instagram @ kyoun42

5 Ways to Win My Heart is a previous post I have written on the topic. Those five are definite ways to win my heart.

1. Love cats and dogs as much as I do.

Cats and dogs are my life. Not to mention, I have several of both so if you hate them then it would not work out at all. Also, you can’t hate/dislike penguins. Penguins are the cutest things ever.

Penguin at the Gatlinburg Aquarium

2. Space

I have a personal bubble, and I don’t like when people invade that personal space (all the time). I mentioned in my previous post three pet peeves about how I don’t like people being in my personal space. I appreciate when people understand and respect that. If someone does not respect that then I will more than likely pull away from them.

3. Food

Food makes me happy. I turn into one of those typically girls that dance while they are eating. If a person buys or makes me food then I will probably keep them around a little bit longer (lol). This was the reason I kept some guys around for longer than they should have been (mostly kidding).

The person that inspires me the most in this world is/was my Nana. She was my mother’s mother. She died in 2010, but she still inspires me to be the best that I can be to this day. I lived with her and my grandpa for a very long time – since she was alive and several years after. They both looked after me.

To this day, I have never heard anyone talk bad about my Nana. She was the most amazing and nicest person I have ever met. She would give you the shirt off her back.

It has been nine years since she has been gone, but I still think about her every single day.

There are a lot of moments I wish I could remember from when I was younger, but being told by my Papa will have to be enough.

Apparently one time, I burnt the kitchen cabinets. I didn’t really burn them down myself, but my Nana was so busy playing with me when I was a baby that she forgot she was cooking something. My Pa jokes that she probably did it on purpose because she wanted new cabinets anyway.

I do remember one time asking her how long she had stopped smoking. She looked at me and asked, “How old are you?” I told her how old I was, and she replied, “That’s how long I’ve quit.”

My Nana was kind, patient and humble. She dried my tears when I would get hurt. She made me laugh. Her (and my Pa) taught me how to farm, clean and do laundry. She kept my Pa in line when he would say things that he shouldn’t. She was rarely ever in a bad mood.

I miss her a lot.

I hope that I am able to be at least half the person she turned out to be.

I have posted about some of my pet peeves in the past. You can find it at the link 5 Pet Peeves. I have quite a few pet peeves, but I picked out only three other pet peeves that I have.

1. Judgmental people

There are so many judgmental people in this world. They want to judge people based on how they look, act, dress, speak, love, etc. In my opinion, I don’t think it should matter as long as no one is hurting anybody. Plus, it’s exhausting to judge people all the time. People really put all this time in effort to talk bad about people when they could be filling the world with love instead of all this hate.

2. Personal bubble

I’m not usually a touchy-feely person. I have a space that I don’t like for people to be in. There are always exceptions. If I’m really sick or tired, I might want to cuddle up with someone. I also am more lenient when I have a boyfriend. Boyfriend cuddles are the best ok. However, I do have (a lot) of times where I don’t want people to invade my personal bubble. When people do invade my bubble, I’ll usually try to move as soon as possible, and if they are trying to give me a hug I won’t hug them back. I don’t mean to be rude – I just like my space.

3. Thinking you are always right

I cannot stand people who will not admit that they are wrong or that there might be more than one answer. I know people who will argue with you until they are blue. I’ve learned that instead of letting that kind of negativity take over I just say, “You can think what you think, but I am going to think what I think. I’m not going to argue about this anymore.” Truth be told, I don’t usually do most of the “arguing.” I state my opinion then I hear a lecture why they think I’m wrong. I tend to walk away.

Day 2: Write something that someone told you about yourself that you never forgot.

Growing up, I have always gotten compliments about my looks. That’s what old people do.

“Oh, you are so pretty!”

Most people compliment how pretty you are, how smart you are, or how good you are at a sport. All those compliments tend to blend together. I give the automatic respond of “oh, thank you!”

Don’t get me wrong – I do appreciate those words, but those just tell me how I look, and how good I am at something.

I will never forget those that have complimented my personality. The one’s that have said that they like the kind of person that I am.

That is what I will never forget.

I have been told by some friends that they liked the kind of person I was – which I really appreciate, but the one that really stood out was this old couple that comes in the restaurant I work at.

They’re regulars (people who come in often) who love to talk so I tend to talk to them every time they come in.

They told me that I’ve really come out of my shell since I had first started working (which was years ago). I used to not want to talk to anyone. I was extremely introverted (now people probably want me to shut up lol).

They also said, “you have a great personality.”

It really caught me off guard, but in a good way. It was honestly the best compliment I had ever received.

It really warmed my heart because in life all I want is to be the best that I can be. I want to be a positive vibe in other people’s life. I’m glad they’re one of the ones that I am.

I challenge you to compliment someone’s personality. I bet they will love it more than if you complimented their appearance.

I am never motivated to come up with anything to write about. This goes with writing a blog post and for a book. It wasn’t always this way, but here lately I’ve been in a writer’s block.

However, I was searching on Pinterest the other day, and I found a 30 day writing challenge that I thought was perfect for my blog. My book is still struggling lol.

Let’s hope I can keep writing every day. If you would like to join in on this challenge, take a look at my last post here!

Day 1 – List 10 things that make you really happy

(1) My animals

My animals (4 cats & 1 dog) are my babies. To be honest, they are not all mine, but I treat them as if they were. My favorite thing to do (if my cats will let me) is to hold them in my arms as if they were a baby. What’s baby fever? I only know of kitten fever.

(2) Working out

Working out helps my mental health. If I am ever anxious at school, I always head to the gym. I’ll either do some yoga (their classes are amazing) or I’ll go for a run. It genuinely makes me feel better. I also like doing other things/classes, but those are my two main ones that I do in order to make myself feel better.

(3) Coffee (with or without friends)

Coffee is life. I love drinking coffee – especially with friends. It’s perfect when a friend and I can sit together, talk and sip on some coffee.

(4) Walking outside (especially hiking)

When I am in a good mood, walking outside is perfect. I love listening to the birds and looking at the scenery. I walk around my college town quite a bit.

(5) Reading books/blog posts

I’ve always been a book reader. Sadly, I have not been able to read as much as I used to before I graduated high school, but I do occasionally when I have the time to read. Do you recommend any? I try to read blog posts every day. I find them very interesting.

(6) Harry Potter

I can’t remember a time when I didn’t love Harry Potter. Almost everyone at least has one thing that they are obsessed with. Harry Potter is mine. I’m thinking about making a youtube video about all the Harry Potter stuff I have. Spoiler alert; it’s a lot.

(7) Socializing

I used to be extremely introverted. I never wanted to talk to people that weren’t one the very few close friends I had. I was super shy, and I could barely speak to people when spoken too. Sometimes it’s still hard, but since I started college and started working at a restaurant, I have become more extroverted. Talking to people (that aren’t toxic) makes me happy.

(8) Traveling

Getting away from my town makes me happier. I love going on vacation and getting away from everything. I hope to find a job that allows me to travel. Staying in one place makes me feel trapped.

(9) Working

You may be thinking “working makes you happy? You must be crazy!” I might be crazy for liking to work, but I love how it keeps me busy. It’s something that I HAVE to do so it makes me get out of my house. Otherwise, sometimes I don’t want to do anything. Those days don’t turn out so great.

(10) Music

I love singing at the top of my lungs. It puts me in a good mood to do that and dance too.

In August, I am starting a writing challenge. I was looking on Pinterest when I found one that really interested me. I don’t know how blogging every day will go, but I am going to try my best. You should also join in on this challenge. The writing challenge I’m doing is pictured below, and I am also putting the link below it!

I just want to start by saying that this post could be a TRIGGER to some people. I talk about mental health issues that I’ve had/have.

Past

I’ve had severe problems with my mental health since I was a freshman in high school. For me, high school was the absolute worst. I hated myself. I didn’t want to live. I’m honestly surprised (but also very glad) that I survived. I’m not going to get into major details, but freshman and sophomore year was rough. I went to the school counselor often although I don’t feel as though it always helped. I’ve always had a hard time telling people how I felt and why – especially back then. I would end up telling the counselor that I had some boy drama. Boys certainly did not help the way I felt about myself, but they were not the main reason I felt that way.

My junior and senior year of high school was definitely better, but it was not great. I still struggled a lot, but the friends I had made it more bearable. To those I was close to during those two years, I just want to say thank you. You helped me through so much, and you probably didn’t even know it. I appreciate you. I love you.

Even throughout college, I’ve struggled with loving/accepting/appreciating/caring about myself. I’ve never been diagnosed, but I am pretty sure I’ve been living with depression and anxiety all these years. Some days are definitely better than others.

A message I sent to a friend of my mine today has been stuck in my mind since I’ve been writing this post. It’s a great thing to remember:

“It’s just life. We live. We mess up. We learn. We try again.”

Present Day

Yesterday started out as “meh.” I don’t know how else to describe it. When I’m in that kind of mood I’m just… there. I only do things because I’ve learned to force myself to. I’ve never felt better by just laying in bed all day. And boy do I feel tired of feeling like that.

However, I did sleep in yesterday. Even though I woke up feeling “meh,” I still went to my grandpa’s house. I ate food, and then played video games with my cousin for hours – which did not help my mental state. I felt even more “meh.”

But it got better.

I became more productive. I went home. I took a shower. (Showers usually help a great deal.) I made several tik toks (@ kelliyoung42). I wrote in my journal. I even watched a really good movie called The Backup Plan.

Today was even better. I woke up early to go eat breakfast with my grandpa and my cousin. My pa makes THE BEST chocolate gravy. I went home a couple hours later. I actually started my laundry (and finished it). I went to help my dog get unstuck from which his chain latched onto a tree root. Don’t worry, a couple hours later that tree root was cut out so he can’t get caught anymore. I even ended up cleaning my room up quite a bit. This was all before it was even 1:30 p.m. It was then that I went to work until 10.

I’m very proud of my productive day. Being productive makes me feel accomplished, and like I’m doing something right. I’m hoping I will have this motivation for a little bit longer. Wish me luck.

Future

I don’t know what my future holds, but I am pretty sure that I will always have mental health issues. I know I should be diagnosed, but I’m scared. I’ve been told multiple times in my life that it was just a phase, and that I would snap out of it. I’m not snapping out of it. I’ve learned how to deal with it better, but you can’t just snap your fingers or turn a certain age for it to go away.

But I am proud of how far I am come. How much I have grown as a person.

I am way better than I was, but I also know I’m not as good as I am going to be. That thought makes me happy. This period of my life is not going to be the best time of my life.

Last month I only finished about half of goals that I wanted to do. This month I’m going to start making a calendar of when I am doing to do things. This way I will be more motivated to get things done.

Here’s a list of the goals I have for July:

See fireworks

Post on Twitter at least once a day

Post on Instagram once a week

Post on tik Tok at least every other day

Do at least 6 hours of community service at the animal shelter

Post 2 Youtube videos

work work work work

see a baseball game

Go camping

Go hiking

Get tanner

Go to the gym at least 3 times a week

Post on Tumblr once a week (at least)

Clean room (and try to keep it clean)

Learn how to cook basics (if you have any easy recipes please send them to me)

Good morning! I decided to write a little writing update before I go to work. I know I don’t post a lot, but it’s because I don’t really have the time! I work long days and it’s really hard to find the motivation to write after work.

However!

Tomorrow I have the day off, and I have already put in my schedule to sit down and write some blogs!

Scotty Sire is a YouTuber. He’s made quite a few songs. “Get Better” is probably my favorite of his. Although I am really fond of his new single “Notice Me.”

Fun fact: When Scotty Sire and Bruce Weigner sat down to write a song, they were going to write a happy song. They were not feeling it, and they wrote a song about breaking down. I think Bruce said that he had just broken down in his car just that day or the day before.

This song really speaks to me.

Everyone breaks down crying sometime in their life. I’ve done it plenty of times (especially when I’m on my period, yikes). When writing this song, they were thinking about their girlfriends and about how they break down in front of them sometimes. I can’t relate to breaking down in front of people because I do it when I’m alone, but the feeling this song gives me is still strong.

With that being said, I’m going to pick some lyrics from the song and explain what they mean to me.

“Walking around like the weight of the world is on my shoulders / Two big boulders, trying to get up but I’m sinking / And I’m plagued by my overthinking”

I overthink a lot.

My mind is always going a mile a minute, and sometimes I can hardly even hear myself think because everything gets blurred together. I’m not going to lie. For the past few weeks it’s like my mental health has been buried six feet under, but every day I am trying and trying to crawl back out again.

“But I don’t wanna open up ’cause I don’t wanna bring you down”

In my group of friends, I am known to be more closed off to talking about my feelings. I don’t like people pitying me, and I’ve always had the mentality that I could get better on my own.

I think it does start with you though. I’ve tried to turn to other people to make me happy. It would work for a little while, but they would eventually leave. You can’t always depend on people. You need to figure out how to make yourself happy first.

I really am trying to get better on my own. Today has actually been a step forward. If you need help trying to “pull yourself together,” there are many different things you could do.

Read a good book. Hang out with some friends. Spend some time in the sunshine (get that vitamin d). Go explore a new place. Exercise. Talk about how you’re feeling to somebody – if this helps, I greatly recommend it.

One thing that I learned recently is that you need to make sure you eat good because that could be one reason why you feel low.

“I wanna get better, it’s gonna get better”

There are a lot of things I don’t know. I don’t know how I’m going to feel today, tomorrow or next week. All I know is that, at some point, it is going to better. I may feel bad again at some point, but it will always get better.

I just recently got a PS4 about a week ago as an early birthday present. I received three games, not counting the extra two I got because I am a playstation plus member.

My favorite that I have played so far is Just Cause 3.

If you love games where you kill people and blow things up then this game is definitely for you.

The graphics are great on the PS4. I didn’t realize just how great it was compared to years ago until I played one of my PS1 games. Major difference.

In Just Cause 3, the story is that a guy has taken over pretty much everywhere, and the guy you play is part of the rebels and has to take it back over.

He finds different cities or whatever place it may be, and he has to do certain tasks to take it back over. The list of objects could be to blow up the fuel tank, take over the police station, tear down the statue, etc. After you finish the list you take down the enemies flag, and you put up the rebel flag.

I enjoy going around and blowing things up trying to take back over cities. The guy also has a gadget on him where he’s kind of like Spiderman. I don’t remember exactly what it is, but like Spiderman, he has web-like things coming and helping him move to places. It can even help move other things too. I usually use them to travel faster, climb up mountains, and tear down statues.

You also have a wingsuit (which I don’t really use), and a parachute (which I use a lot).

I would 10/10 recommend Just Cause 3. I also heard that Just Cause 4 is better.

Sadly, I did not do everything I wanted to last month, but hopefully this month will be better. I’m going to work hard to volunteer and post on YouTube this month.

Go to the gym at least three times a week

I am confident that I’ll have this goal down because we (me and Tawnie) have been doing pretty good so far. We typically get up at 5 am, and we get to the gym by 6-6:30. We both like going to the gym earlier instead of later. It makes it feel like you have more time in the day to do other things.

Volunteerat the animal shelter at least twice

I did not volunteer at all last month, but I’ve discussed it with Tawnie, and we might go by and volunteer after we leave the gym. I’m really excited to do this because volunteering at the animal shelter makes me really happy.

Post on WordPress at least twice a week

I’ve been pretty good about posting. I’m going to try to get a tad bit better about it though. I haven’t post much here lately because I’ve been using my wifi to download some games on my new PS4.

Post at least two YouTube videos

I tend to neglect my youtube channel. What kind of stuff do you like to watch on youtube – vlog wise. Maybe reviews, mukbangs, advice, etc. If you want any advice just let me know!

work work work work work

I’ve been working so much it’s better to ask when I don’t work. But honestly even then I probably couldn’t tell you because I get called in last minute… No one else seems to want to work.

Plan a vacation

I was going to plan a trip to Panama City Beach, Florida, but it’s gong to cost way too much, and I do not have a lot of friends that could go. I’m thinking about going to The Smokey Mountains instead. It’s been a while since I’ve been, and I would love to go there with some friends.

Go on a hike with friends

I love hiking with friends! I think I’m actually going this weekend. There are a lot of parks around where I live with hiking trails.

Here are seven goals I hope to complete this June. Do you have any goals for June? What are they?

I have been putting off getting in shape for a very long time. I used to go to the gym at my school regularly, but this whole year I have made some excuse as to why I shouldn’t go. (Most of the time it was because I was “too tired.”)

I’m back home, and I’ve finally talked myself into joining a gym (with my friend) for the summer.

Today was my first day, and I am kind of proud of myself! I wanted to blog about it so I could stay motived to keep working out and growing stronger. I might do a progress on how I look and feel every 1-2 weeks.

I also want advice. What workouts should I do to improve upper body strength? I’m also walking/jogging/running because I want to be able to do a marathon one day.

Can someone help me out with a workout plan?

I’m going to post pictures down below of what I look like now. (I know I have a dirty mirror, but it’s my mom’s mirror, and I am too lazy to clean it.)

I went to one of the local lakes in my town with a friend of mine. We had an amazing time even though I am not really fond of swimming (especially in lakes).

As we were swimming, however, we noticed something around us.

Litter.

The litter at the lake wasn’t a bad as some of the pictures I’ve seen of some, but it all starts with one piece.

People littering is one of the things that irritate me the most. My friend, Tawnie, and I decided to pick up all the trash in the water we could find. We even swam pretty deep to get reach a bottle. We also picked up a lot of paper on the way to the trashcan.

It’s insane how much litter is on the ground EVERYWHERE.

With that being said, I have a challenge for you.

When you walk by a piece of trash on the ground, pick it up and throw it away.

Also, throw away your piece of gum in a trashcan instead of throwing it on the ground. A bird can eat it and die from it by choking.

Let’s come together and save the planet. We have to live on it for many years to come.

“I love you” is something that is said automatically where I live. After ending a phone call or leaving to go somewhere, “I love you” is always said to a loved one. “Ok, I have to go. Bye, I love you.” *hangs up*

The problem with this is that I am not one to tell how I feel verbally. I feel awkward telling the people I love “I love you.” As soon as someone tells me, I get an anxious feeling in me, and I try to leave or hang up as soon as possible.

But that does not mean that I do not love them.

I show love differently.

I show love in the way I am there when they call me last minute asking for a favor. I show love in the way I smile at them. I show love in the way I put down my phone so I can listen to what they have to say.

I usually show love in actions instead of words.

It does not mean that I do not love someone any less just because it’s hard for me to sometimes tell them how I feel.

I believe as long as someone shows that they love someone – the words shouldn’t matter.

Pinson Mounds State Archaelogical Park has approximately 15 mounds built by Indians. When first discovered, there were believed to be about 30-40 mounds. After some research, some mounds were found to be made from erosion or something similar (not man-made). Some mounds also began disappearing because of the nature of things – fallen trees, water, etc.

It’s crazy to think that Indians made all of these mounds. They gathered dirt in a basket, and they carried it however far to make these mounds. Some hilly places at the park are believed to be the places the Indians gathered the dirt (and sand) from.

Tawnie (right) and me (left) in front of the Museum

The picture above is Tawnie and me in front of the park’s museum – which is built under a mound (so cool!) Before you say anything, yes, I know I look like I am about to go rob a place. The only thing I was thinking when I was putting on my outfit was that I did not want to get eaten by mosquitoes.

The night hike was fun. Learning about the mounds was interesting. They believe that they had used the top of the mounds for burial and ceremonial purposes. They think that there was fire on top of some/most of the mounds.

Side note, one person joked about them maybe doing sacrifices. I 100% believe this could have happened back then. You never know.

Kizer (left) and Hunter (right)

In the picture above are a couple of guy friends that came on the hike with us. I took this picture to show how dark it was when we started hiking. Of course, we could still see up close just fine because of all the flashlights, but it was hard to see far out. The hike was from 8:30 to 10 p.m.

Tawnie (left) and me (right)

The last thing we did was climb on top of Sauls Mound. The picture above was taken on top of it. Sauls Mound is the highest mound. We were eye level with the tallest trees. Steps were built up Sauls Mound, and the total amount of steps is 125.

Climbing up Sauls Mound was by far the most exercise we had the entire hike. I was out of breath by the time I got to the top. I am pretty sure I drunk a whole bottle of water.

Hiking is one of the activities that makes me happy. I have already decided that I was going to go back to Pinson Mounds during the day time so that I could check out the other trails. The one we were on was mostly flat land, but I noticed one trail that was extremely hilly.

I feel like my blog is all over the place. It is not about a specific category like lifestyle, travel, fitness, DIY, etc. My blog is very personal. It’s about my likes, my dislikes, and stories about me. I thought I would lay out in bullet points would should be expected on my blog.

Advertising my YouTube videos

I don’t really post as much as I would like. Right now I am stuck as to what I should video. I haven’t been motivated either. If you have any suggestions, I’m always open to them!

Movie reviews

This is a new thing I started. I love watching movies, but I don’t really take the time to do so. This might motivate me to just so I can write about it.

Music to me

This is something I haven’t started doing yet, but I will soon. Two or three times a week I want to write about a song that I like. I might write about how I interpret it, but it’ll mostly be about what it means to me. (I’ll want you to tell me what it means to you too!)

Lists

I like making lists (such as this one). It’s a way to give advice or tell what I like or dislike about something.

Travel blog

I haven’t done this yet, but I will start soon. I have some things planned for the future! This will just tell about what I did on a trip, and it will involve pictures.

Story Time

Sometimes I might tell about something that happened, but it probably won’t be often.

Reflect

I didn’t know what else to call them, but it’s a mixture of reflecting on my life, and giving you advice on what to do or not do.

That is all that I can think of right now! I know it’s a lot of different things, but this is a personal blog. I want to share a lot of things about my life. I hope you don’t get too bored!

I have never done a movie review, but I think I am going to start. This way I can force myself to sit down and watch movies.

SPOILERS DOWN BELOW:

The movie was about the crimes and trial of Ted Bundy.

Overall, I liked the movie. There were good things about it that I love, but there were also things that I wish would be changed.

One problem that I have with the movie is that it seems to glorify Ted Bundy. Zac Efron almost made me believe that Ted Bundy was innocent. It is crazy to think that he kept up the act of saying he was innocent for over a decade.

The way Zac Efron played Ted Bundy was incredible. At the end, it showed clips from the actual trial, and it was incredibly similar.

I also kind of understand why they “glorified” Ted Bundy. During this time, a lot of women were strangely attracted to him. It was said that some even dyed their hair the right kind of brown so that he might be attracted to them. Ted Bundy was extremely charismatic, and this was how he lured women to their death.

In the movie, they showed that side of him. The side that all the women liked. I wish they would have shown the evil side of him more. The movie did not justify how bad of a person he was.

Yes, you read that correctly. My cat got stuck in a trashcan. There was a trashcan that came to my waist beside my bed because I wasn’t feeling too well. I wasn’t asleep but I was on the verge of it. I kept hearing the plastic bag rattle, and I finally look, and I see one of my cats, Leo, messing with it. Without my knowledge, it had gotten knocked over.

I tell him to stop, and pick the trashcan up again. I lay back down, but I get irritated at him because he keeps messing with it. I finally get up, and go to pick it up to take it back to the kitchen, but I realize just how heavy it was (there was nothing in it).

I look down and see one of my other cats, Thea, laying down in it.

She was apparently laying in the trashcan when I picked it from where they had knocked it over. I noticed that it seemed a little heavy, but I wasn’t feeling good, and I didn’t think anything of it.

This was the reason Leo kept trying to mess with the trashcan because after I made Thea get out he laid down beside me.

What really made me laugh was the fact that the only reason I knew Thea was in there was because I felt how heavy the trashcan was. She made no noise indicting she wanted to get out or anything. I guess she was comfortable. 🤷🏽‍♀️

These goals are mainly for my benefit because it is easier for me to get things done if I have them written out. With that being said, down below are the things I hope to do in May of 2019.

Volunteer at the animal shelter at least twice.

I love volunteering at this local animal shelter with my friends. At the time of day we go, we usually finish walking what ever dogs have not been walked yet. Then we clean what ever it is that they want us to clean.

Plant the flower seeds I got.

I love planting seeds, but I honestly have a hard time keeping them alive. I don’t have a green thumb when it comes to my own plants. I do help my grandpa with his gardening though. He grows lots of watermelons, cantaloupes, and tomatoes. We sell them all summer.

Post on WordPress at least twice a week.

I’m hoping that I am able to stay consistent this time. A year ago, it was hard to decide what I wanted to write about, but now that I’ve decided to go with what ever is on my mind – whether it be a story, a recipe, or something like this – I’m going to go with it.

Post on Tumblr at least once a week.

I like to write fan fiction and post it on Tumblr.

Go to two festivals – Strawberry and Folk festival.

I went to the Strawberry festival a few days ago, but the Folk festival is next week. I’m really excited to go because there’s going to be music, crafts, and old cars.

Post at least 2 YouTube Videos.

The only problem I have with posting YouTube videos is that I have to be really motivated and happy, but here lately I haven’t been that so I have been struggling to make content.

Start working out again – 3 times a week.

I’ve been neglecting working out. This is probably part of the reason why I haven’t been motivated to make YouTube videos. I’m hoping to start running and lifting weights again.

Work work work work work.

I have to pay for some schooling next school year so I need to work as much as I can. On top of that, I have to pay for groceries, books, and what ever necessities that I have.

These are eight goals I hope to accomplish this month! Do you have any goals for this month? If so, comment them down below! 🙂

Hello! I am actually a YouTuber, and I try to post videos once a week. In my YouTube video “Moving Back Home 2019,” I, well, move back home. This video consists me moving back home for the summer because (sadly) I can’t live on my college campus all year around. I show you some of my drive home, my pets, and my favorite co-workers.

I’m still trying to figure out how I want to do my YouTube videos. I also still mess up a lot. I sometimes forget to triple check to make sure the editing is right, but I’m getting the hang of it.

I posted the YouTube video down below. I hope you have a fantastic day!

Hello everyone! I’m back! It has been a very long time since I have written a blog, and I have missed it so much! There has been quite a bit going on in my life, and I hope I can share it all on here at some point. College and work has been taking up the most of my time, but I hope I can finally start posting content regularly.

I am not sure what you should expect from my blog yet. I have always been unsure as to what I should blog about. It’s probably going to be a little bit of everything from my life. Everything from my YouTube Channel to some favorite recipes to my travels. There will be a wide variety of topics.

One more thing that I thought I should is to tell you a little about myself. My name is Kelli Young. I am a Communications major and English minor. I am going into my last year of college starting fall of 2019. I have four cats and one dog. I love volunteering at a local animal shelter. Coffee helps me feel more like a person and less like a zombie when I first wake up. I guess you could say I am a Harry Potter geek. I have so much Harry Potter merch that it would be easier to ask what I do not have.

One last thing, I have had a love for writing for as long as I can remember. When I was little, I used to write little short stories and sell them for a quarter to some of my family members. I have thought about getting a job after college that has to deal with writing, but I do not feel like I would enjoy writing for other people. I like being about to write what ever I want to write about.

Hello everyone! It’s been a while since I have posted anything! Oops! School has been so hectic and I got lazy, but here I am again. I can’t believe it’s already June. To try and get my things a bit more organized, I wrote done some things that I want to do in June!

1. Write part 1 for “Flower Shop Girl”

I’ve started writing a book (one of many that I’ve started, lol) and I’m kind of excited for this. There’s probably not going to be too many parts, but I think it’ll still be cute. I’ll have it on my Tumblr so I’ll link my Tumblr profile at the bottom!

2. Give friend driving lessons

One of my friends is 19 and she doesn’t know how to drive so I told her that I’d teach her.

3. Start YouTube videos again!

I’ve been severely neglecting my YouTube channel. I’ll hoping be shooting a video today though! I’ll leave my personal channel and my joint account I have with my best friend at the bottom.

4. Get sea shells from Shell Island

In a few weeks I’m going to the beach with my dad, stepmom, and little brother! I love sea shells. 🙂

5. Catch ’em all – Pokemon Go

When this first came out I played it A LOT, but after a while everyone pretty much stopped. My guy best friend and I just recently started playing a lot again.

6. Tan

I feel better when I’m tan than when I’m white as a ghost. I’m happy with how my progress with it has been.

7. Read at least 2 books

I used to read all the time, but so much goes on that I don’t make myself have time for it. I’m about halfway done with one book though so I know I’ll be about to read another one before June is over with.

8. Be healthy

I’m going to try to start drinking a lot more water (I’ve already pretty much cut out sodas). I’m also going to start running again and cleaning my face more.

Hello everyone! College is such a struggle. Period. While I am procrastinating my homework, I decided that I would write about some of the struggles of being a college student.

1. 8 a.m. Classes

These are the worst! I am such a zombie in these classes that I honestly don’t know how I pass those classes. But then again – I would rather have these classes than a late class. I say NO to classes after 3 p.m.

2. Lectures

Being in a lecture hall is so boring and with my short attention span I am always drifting off to a world not in that classroom.

3. Food

Honestly the food kind of sucks. There are very few things that I’ll eat in the cafeteria and that’s pizza and fries. Our pizza is usually good, but our seasoned fries is ALWAYS good.

4. Sharing a Dorm

Sharing a dorm isn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I’m in one of those cheap dorms so I don’t have my own room or bathroom. I’m a deep sleeper so I don’t hear my roommate if she’s loud or comes in late. There are still some struggles though. Sometimes she might have her TV to loud or her snores might be aggravating everyone once in a while. Another struggle is that it seems as soon as I need to use the bathroom, it seems that my suite mate needs to go to so that gets very agitating.

5. Frat Parties

In the movies, they seem like sooo much fun. Which I mean, they are fun. If you’re drunk. If you’re not, they’re the lamest thing ever.

6. Time

Time is a big struggle! There is so much that I want to do and it’s extremely hard to fit it into 24 hours. I have to go to classes, do homework, eat, shower and sleep. Then there’s the things that I want to do like have a social life, watch Netflix, take a walk, workout, do yoga, and so much more. I wish I had more time.

These are just some of the things that make up struggles of college life. My best friend and I actually did a YouTube video on a lot of those things so if you want to, please check it out!

I think everyone in the world has some type of pet peeve. I, personally, actually have quite a few, but I thought for a bit and choose 5 of my biggest pet peeves.

1. Noisy eaters

I just cannot stand people chewing loudly. I understand some food is just really loud to chew, but I know some people that chew with their mouth open and make that annoying smacking sound. It’s gross. Please stop.

2. Someone interrupts me

I say when someone interrupts me, but really just when someone interrupts anyone. I know that it accidentally happens all the time because there have been plenty of times when I’ll excitedly remember something and it’ll just come out of my mouth. The kind of interrupting I’m talking about is when it seems like someone just won’t let me talk. I used to just shut up and let them talk but now I’ll stare at them and say “Hello, I was talking.” …. I’ve gotten to where I can speak my mind more.

3. Drivers

Honestly, I was just going to put “When drivers don’t use their turning signal,” but honestly “drivers” fit it better. I HATE driving. I always have. But other people’s driving annoy me even more (well, when I’m driving). I have severe road rage against people who don’t use their blinkers, people not paying enough attention, those who drive too slow, those who drive too fast.. pretty much those who exist. I know I’m not the best driver, but I at least know how a blinker works.

4. Littering

I can’t stand to litter. I love the earth. I’m going to have to have to live on it for hopefully at least 50 more years and I want it to be as clean as possible. I don’t even through my gum out the window anymore. I once saw this article where a bird can come and eat that gum and choke and die. I don’t want any birds dying so I try not to litter at all. I beg you not to litter either.

5. Cursing around children

This is one of my biggest pet peeves. I cringe so much when someone curses a lot around children. I am always getting onto my friends when they curse around kids. I also cringe when someone curses around people that don’t like cursing. I try to be respectful.

Hello everyone! I can’t believe that the year is almost over! It’s like it was just yesterday I was enjoying my summer break. I’ve decided that at the beginning of each month I’m going to start doing goals for the month. Down below are my goals for November 2017.

Having to choose just ONE book I love was really hard. I really love to read. The book that has really stuck with me that has a lot of meaning is Beastly by Alex Flinn.

I love the big message of how it’s not the outside that matters in a person but it’s the inside that should. There are way too many people in this world that are only with guys because they’re so “hot” and “popular.” While these guys would also be the biggest jerks.

So a word of advice: I understand that you need to be somewhat attracted to the guy to want to date him. I get that looks do matter to an extent. Just don’t stop at the looks. Look at the guy’s (or girl’s) personality too. How are they like? Are they kind? Are they big-headed? These kind of things matter. Don’t just settle. You deserve more than that.

I have taken a 30 day writing journal challenge and there’s some of them that I would like to post on here. This is day 1 of 30. The picture below is of the rest of the days in case you want to participate.

1. Pay Attention

Honestly just pay attention to the things I say. I love when people remember some of the little things I say. I think it shows how the person cares.

2. Make me laugh

The way to my heart is being able to make me laugh. If a guy can’t make me laugh then it’s a no go because I seriously laugh all the time.

3. Encourage me

I need someone to motivate me to be the best I can be. Someone that would be willing to push me to be a better person.

I know a lot of people want a relationship to go fast nowadays but I’m not one of those people. I’ve never been one to go fast in a relationship. If a guy tries to speed things up then I’m more likely to walk away. I wish I was born back when dating was way different.

You probably do a lot of things that you don’t need to be doing and maybe you need a reminder of it.

1. Stop thinking you’re not good enough

You ARE good enough! Whoever told you weren’t good enough don’t know what they’re talking about. You can do anything you put your mind to.

2. Stop procrastinating

I am the WORST (or is it the best?) at procrastinating. There has been so many times that I will put something off until I just absolutely have to do it. There have been so many test I could have probably made a 100 on if I would have studied before the day of the exam. So stop procrastinating and I promise it’ll make you feel better about yourself.

3. Stop letting yourself get too stressed

I used to have the bad habit of letting everything get built upon my shoulders and the heaviness would weigh me down. Don’t let that happen! Do something that helps the stress go away (that’s healthy of course!) Some of the things that I do is I may just be around people who I enjoy being with and I laugh a lot with. I also love to do yoga and workout at the gym too. Them two really help me with the stress I have at school.

4. Stop making excuses for others and yourself

There is no excuse! If a person is acting a way they shouldn’t be or treating you a way they shouldn’t be; don’t make up excuses for them! It is what it is and there is no excuse for it. Also, stop making excuses for yourself. Don’t try to find an excuse to not do something you need to do. Just do it.

5. Stop comparing yourself to others

You are your own person. No one is the same so don’t try to compare yourself to someone else.

6. Stop saying ‘yes’ when you want to say ‘no’

Don’t agree to something just because someone wants you to! If you don’t want to do something then say NO. If they keep trying to pressure you into say yes, keep your ground. Don’t let anyone push you around.

7. Stop giving your time and energy to people who don’t respect you

I have an ex-boyfriend that I was on and off with for years. I gave so much time to this one person and they didn’t even respect me! If someone doesn’t respect you, don’t waste the limited time you have in life on them. Once you let a toxic person go, you’ll eventually find someone that is good for you; whether it be a friend or a lover.

8. Stop letting yourself live in the past

Everyone makes mistakes. Let go of what happened in your past and move toward the future.

Hello everyone! I’ve realized that I haven’t properly introduced myself so here’s what this post is about! First of all, my name is Kelli and I’m currently 20 years old. I have 10 facts about myself listed below!

1. I am a college student in Tennessee.

2. I love to travel! Every year I usually go to Michigan and Florida for vacation. I would love to travel to more places (as long as I don’t go alone.) Below is a random picture from when I was in Panama City Beach, Florida.

3. I love Harry Potter. I have always loved Harry Potter for as long as I can remember. Last May I actually got to go to the Harry Potter World.. Picture below.

4. I do a variety of things. I love to read, but I also like to play sports. I also like playing video games too. My favorite ones to play are Pokemon, Harry Potter, COD: Ghosts, and The Last of Us.

5. I’m a really shy person until I get to know you. My best friend says that I’m like a completely different person then. I can be very outgoing when I’m comfortable around the people I’m with.

6. I’ve lived in Tennessee my whole life though I am open to moving to a different state if need be for a job. Hopefully if I do move, one of my sisters will be able to come with me.

7. I’m very picky in who I date. I can’t make myself go on a date with someone whom I don’t feel any connection with or I don’t think I could ever feel any connection with.

8. I have 4 siblings, a niece, and a nephew. Sibling wise, I have a little brother and 3 older sisters. My niece and nephew are from one of my older sisters.

9. I have a retainer and I hate it. I’ve had it for years. My teeth would have been straight already if I hadn’t lost/broke 2 retainers already.

10. I have a YouTube channel! My first ever post was actually just about my YouTube channel. I don’t upload much (I’m going to try to get better but I’m just so busy) but you should check it out. I’m going to try to upload a lot more often. It’s just the time to take editing is what hinders me from doing so.

So far I’ve been zip lining and rock climbing with some friends and I’ve got to say, it was awesome! My favorite was zip lining, which is weird because I hate heights! (ps. this is me fixing to rock climb.)

2. Make tie-dye shirts

It can be time consuming but it’s worth it. Well, worth it if you like tie-dye stuff. I have 2 tie-dye shirts and a hat.

3. Ride around singing your heart out

My friends and I are always riding around on backroads singing to music at the top of our lungs.

4. Go camping/hiking

Sadly, I haven’t gotten to go camping yet! No one’s schedules have been open enough to spend the night somewhere, but hopefully I will be able to sometime soon! Hiking is always a fun thing to do, especially if you love nature.

5. Play some sport

I’ve always been a sports kind of person. So I love getting out in the sun and playing some sport with my friends – whether it be basketball, soccer, football, etc.

6. Go to a trampoline park

If a trampoline park is “for kids” then I am a kid.

7. Bowling

Is there really something that needs to be said about this? I mean, it’s bowling. Who doesn’t like to bowl?

Sadly, I don’t really get to watch much YouTube anymore due to being in school, but I still try to watch at least the super interesting ones. I’ve constructed a list of 8 of my favorite YouTubers. These aren’t all the YouTubers I watch (though if you want me to I can make a list of all of them.) Also, fun fact, I started watching most of the YouTubers I watch because I first watched an ouija board video of theirs.

1. Mikey Manfs

I don’t like his Walmart videos, but I love his normal vlogs and exploring videos. I first started watching his and Jake Dufner’s “scary” videos.

2. Jake Dufner

I think I started watching Jake’s videos before Mikey’s because I got hooked on his ouija board videos.

3. Lance Stewart

I also got hooked on Lance’s channel by first watching his ouija board videos. I kept watching his channel because I love watching him and his friends (especially Chris) in his daily vlogs.

4. Elton Castee / TFIL

I also began watching his channel because of an ouija board video (I was obsessed, okay) and his are just full of fun pranks and beautiful places he’s visited with friends (mostly his TFIL channel.)

5. Colby Brock

I met him on Elton’s video but I didn’t really pay attention to him. Somehow I started watching Sam and Colby and loved it. Now I mostly just watch their personal channels.

6. Brennen Taylor

I fell in love with his personality. He’s started daily vlogging and he always keeps it interesting.

7. Liza Koshy

Her videos are so hilarious. She acts so crazy but I love it. My favorites are when she makes puns.

8. Dolan Twins

On the left is Grayson and the right is Ethan. They mostly do a lot of challenges. A lot of times they make up their own.

Hello lovlies, cool weather has come upon us and as my first (technically second though) post, I wanted to share some things that I love about this season!

1. Pumpkins

I think my love for pumpkins started when I was little and watching Cinderella. That has always been my favorite princess movie and I’ve kind of associated pumpkins with it. I also love carving pumpkins (though I’ve only done it twice.) And let’s not forget about pumpkin spice lattes! Yum!

2. Hot Chocolate

Honestly, hot chocolate is good all around but especially during the fall. The mixture of the cooling weather and the holidays throughout the fall season just calls for some hot chocolate!

3. Halloween

It’s probably one of my favorite holidays. I love to watch Tim Burton movies during this time. Also, just giving out candy to trick-or-treaters makes me really happy too.

4. Cuddles

Normally I just like cuddling animals but during the colder months I tend to want to cuddle humans too. (Weird, I know.)

5. Bonfires

I love being around a bonfire with friends just talking and roasting marshmallows.

6. Football

I don’t thank my ex for much but I do thank him for getting me interested in football.

7. The changing of the leaves

The colors of the leaves changing is probably the best part! I just look in awe at the colors.

8. Thanksgiving food

My family’s food is seriously the best! We pretty much have a huge family reunion (with a lot of family friends too.)

9. Putting up the Christmas tree

I love decorating the Christmas tree. As soon as Thanksgiving is over, I get out the tree!

10. Christmas music

I love getting in the Christmas spirit and music is the way to do it. My favorite song is All I Want For Christmas is You.

Hey guys. I am currently a 19 year old college student. I hope to be someone some day. One of my hobbies that I do that may help that some day is vlogging. About a month ago, I finally start uploading videos to YouTube like I’ve been wanting to do pretty much since I got a computer when I was 10. I would really appreciate it if you would subscribe to my YouTube channel. You can do this by clicking my name at the end. I upload vlogs at least twice a week if not more. Thank you so much.

Welcome to my Blog

Hello! My name is Kelli Young, and I am a personal blogger. I like to post a wide variety of things on my blog. It could be from my travels, favorite recipes, my bucket list, YouTube channel, something Harry Potter related, and much more!