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Thursday, May 5, 2011

Almost over...

It is almost over. My D&C is tomorrow morning. I find it a bit crappy that I'm getting the remnants of my 4th pregnancy removed Mother's Day weekend. Kind of sucky if you ask me. My Dr was so very humble and apologized that I am going through this 2 mo after finding out my baby died, and 3 mo now of him being in heaven. He said that in hindsight since my numbers were dropping but not as fast as he's used to, he should have done things differently. Hindsight is always 20/20. I appreciated his honesty and heart. He asked me to forgive him and I told him that I wasn't mad at him. We're all human and make mistakes, and I'm just thankful that I didn't suffer any other consequences of having this inside of me so long. Leave it to me to be a medical marvel, lol. God is in this and is doing something great, and I need to keep my thoughts on Him, and completely come out of agreement with any kind of self-pity. It is what it is, and God loves me so much that He is here to get me through it.

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I'm a SAHM of 4 boys, 1 girl, and two angels. I've been with my husband for 18 yrs and have been blessed immeasurably by him choosing to be with me and support me in my endeavors.
I was an atheist for many years, but the Lord just wouldn't leave my hard heart alone so I came to believe in Him. I stayed a lukewarm Christian for some time, and then the last ten years have really felt a deeper connection and calling to being a follower of Jesus Christ.
My life has been changing by leaps and bounds, and it's brought new life to my marriage, my day to day interactions, and my personal successes sprinkled with failures.
The Lord's GRACE is the key to everything. Jesus is my standard, and by grace through faith not only am I saved, but I can also lead the life He told me to. My days are spent seeking His humility, obedience to our Father, and letting His perfect love have its way in my heart.