I'd like to know who the authorities are, and send them a complaint. Just about everything that has had a chance of being great and fantastic or just nice, has either turned to shit, been underwhelming (and that's with my already low expectations) or just fallen apart after a while. It's not like it has put me in a state of 'oh nothing good is ever going to happen to me and i will now expect and make everything shitty for myself', it's just rather annoying that it's a strategic advantage to never have any positive expectations about nearly everything, and enjoying the few good surprises when they come.

That being sad; I understand why hope is needed for everyone else, but I still have yet to see why it's needed in my case. Whatever happens, happens, and if it's good, then it's a nice surprise, and if it stays the same, then so be it. I just don't get the whole hope concept. I can hope that my friend doesn't get raped by a gorilla, but that seems pointless, like everything else that doesn't change reality or likelihood of pleasant things to happen