Thoughts on nature, meditation and cabin life

September 21, 2013

Escape from My Cabin

Sometimes it takes a climate change event to really face the
idea of impermanence.

I was at the cabin this week when the skies dumped at least nine
inches of rain in two days. Going out to
check the damage in the morning, I found that the two creeks on either side of
me had been transformed from small, friendly brooks three feet wide to turbulent,
get-out-of-the-way-or I’ll-take-you-with-me brown rivers 30 feet across, spilling into the valley, up
the hillside, taking out huge trees and many bushes (Cabin Creek, right, and Tahosa Creek, below). More devastating to the
community here, the floods had removed the culvert over the main road, leaving
a torrent of water that was uncrossable (two bottom photos). We were now effectively separated from
those on the other side of the valley.

It rained again all night, while the ground grew more
saturated, the water poured down the face of Mount Meeker and formed a hundred
small rivulets down the hillsides, loosening whole forests and bringing down
trees and boulders onto the highway.

After the phones stopped working those of us left in this
small community—about 10 at that point, were effectively cut off from the rest
of the world (there is no cell phone service, although those who had satellites
could use email). When the sun came out on Friday, some of us ventured out and
found that the only other road out of here was blocked, so we were effectively,
maybe even officially, stranded.

At first, I had been annoyed. I had made careful plans to
just come up here for a day and a half, check to see everything was OK (and, in
fact, water was leaking into my ceiling and down into the living area). I had
planned to be back by the next night, had work to do for the rest of the week.
Maybe that was my first bump up against the realization that you can’t control
life, no matter how hard you try to schedule everything just perfectly.

Most of the time I love being alone up here, but now it was
forced. I couldn’t just get up and leave if I got depressed or anxious. Worse,
most of the valley, with my favorite places to hike, was now closed off to me, because of the now uncrossable creeks.

I had brought drinking water up only to last a few days,
thinking that if I did run out, I could drive down to Allenspark, some five
miles down the road, and fill up at the public springs. But I could no more get
to Allenspark than across the country. Suddenly, my whole world had shrunk,
with no escape. Always restless, I was now hemmed in by the forces of nature.
Always my ally and refuge, it felt like nature had turned against me.

Of course, not just against me, but the whole Front Range of
Colorado. It was only after I got home that I realized the extent of the
disaster. We were “rescued” by the kindness of a nearby resident, who used his
Bobcat to temporarily fix one of our closed roads, giving us access to the main
road and a long route back home.

Back home, with access once again to newspapers, email and
TV, I found out that a lot of people were still stranded, in towns like
Jamestown and Lyons, where 15 inches of rain had torn apart homes and towns,
left hundreds homeless with all roads blocked into town. I saw photos of people
being evacuated by helicopter, able only to take what they could fit in
backpacks, leaving their homes for who knows how long and for uncertain
futures.

All the roads to the west, in the canyons that connect the
plains to the mountains, that brought me to my cabin every week, are damaged,
and it’s unclear when they will be reopened, probably months, maybe a year. It
feels like a shift in the world, like something has broken.

The headline in the Denver Post said it perfectly: “Normal has
changed.”

It’s too early to know whether this extreme weather was an
“accident” of nature or related to climate change. But seeing whole landscapes
gone or forever altered, I can’t help but wonder if the forces of nature have
been unleashed by our extreme recklesness in using the resources of this
planet.

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It never fails to amaze me: we spend so much time and energy imbibing the Buddhist teachings on impermanence; we know very well that "you can't control life"; and yet we don't know how much "normal" we've taken for granted until suddenly, everything falls apart, leaving us astonished at how much it is possible to lose. (I believe it was Eudora Welty who said something like, "Seems like there ain't no end to what people can lose and keep on living" …) Thanks for this report from the front lines, Kathy. I wish I could be there to help you all rebuild—which is perhaps the positive expression of our folly. We just keep going back in there and putting together that which we have broken. Again. May you be able to return to your lovely cabin sooner than you expect, and may I get to go up there with you again this lifetime.

It's shocking to see such altered images of the place Jim and I visited you in only a month or so ago. You write beautifully about these changes. Your last line reminded me of an Aldo Leopold quote I read recently: "One of the penalties of an ecological education is that one lives alone in a world of wounds." Your post inspired me to look it up. Here is the rest: "Much of the damage inflicted on land is quite invisible to laymen. An ecologist must either harden his shell and make believe that the consequences of science are none of his business, or he must be the doctor who sees the marks of death in a community that believes itself well and does not want to be told otherwise." This time the damage is not invisible, but the cause is to many. Yours is the role of the doctor, a sometimes thankless task, saying what few want to hear, but what we must hear, as you say, "over and over." An illness must be recognized before we can begin to heal it.