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I had a cry.Thinking about the moments followingHis deathThe stark and unequivocal presence ofMy spirit crashingInto His

The two of us in aweAnd wonderAnd shockAnd terrorCarefully investigating the territory of Our new existenceThe nightmare we had never dared Imagine.We would never hold each otherAgain.I would touch his LifelessBodyOne more timeAnd send him away to be meticulously Picked apartThen burned to ash Returned to dustForever Gone.

I had a cry. Because I longed to hold himBecause I longed to touch himEven if my touch wasNot reciprocatedEven if he was growing coldOn that gurneyUnder hospital sheets.I longed not only for him aliveBut for those final PreciousMomentsIn the presence Of hisHumanness.