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Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Today at work was pretty tough. It was a combination of several things-Carleigh's upcoming birthday, my care with rainbow, and reading a pregnancy after loss book. I just felt on the edge all day while I was working. I felt like any minute I would break and just lose it. It was harder toward the end of the day but I made it through. When I got home with Kyndra I felt much better and the rest of the day was fine.

I wonder what tomorrow will bring for me. Hopefully it will be better but tomorrow makes no promises.

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Holly, In a counseling class I took the Prof. showed us a graph of at traumatic incident and then the ups and downs of coping with the situation and at the one year mark the stress of that situation was higher than it was when it actually happened. My grandpa (who was my hero) passed away the day my first was born (his first great grandchild) and her one year birthday party was hard for me. To see her birth date is hard for me because that day was so bittersweet. I kept telling myself that the one yr mark is the hardest. I pray for you because the loss you have is inconceivable to me and I pray that you will cling to the One who can carry you through this time. Much Love~ Mindy (Cadeemom).

Hugs and prayers, Holly. These days come, sometimes without a reason. I can certainly understand your feeling this way with Carleigh's BD coming up.I'm so sorry and I hope tomorrow is better.Blessings, Sarita

Oh Holly.... These are tough times... I've been finding that the weight of the world on my shoulders has been alot heavier lately too. I can't think about much else other than 'this time last year.....' Sending you love and strength... and know that we will get through this together.

As the days go by, I hope that you are able to find some moments of peace. It was harder on the days leading to the birthday and then the anniversary. But, you take it one moment at a time and that is all you can ask of yourself.

My dear Baby Girl, (yes, you will always be MY baby) as the time approaches of the 1 anniversary of Carleigh's passing there is no doubt it will be very hard that day but God has carried you this far and HE will help you this day too. Just lean on him and call on him for the help and guidance and the day I am sure will be just a litlle bit more easy for you to get through. I know it will be that way for me too. I love you and look to the day to see my little granddaughter again.Love you much-Mom

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