Monday, January 23, 2012

Zeus is pretty quiet, which is no different than when I met him. So when he offers up advice or suggestions I do not mind listening. Some times I ignore the request because it might require much more of my time or energy, and we can't have that now can we.

Over the holidays Zeus asked me to change my hair. He actually asked if I would go blonde, yeah I almost choked to death. Are you kidding? No, he was serious. He said he never dated a blonde. Ummm, no since I'm the only one he's dated I guess that was an easy answer. I couldn't believe he was serious. I continued to listen. He asked if I would cut my hair too, short, really, really short. Are you kidding, I love my curls.

But he did have a point. My hair had gotten to be so long that it recently was getting caught in the car door. It was getting caught when I put my coat on, it was even getting pulled when I put my purse on my shoulder. I love it. Its beautiful. But one event takes the cake and well, however embarrassing it may be was the thing that made me finally decide to control this out of control head of hair.

So here's the story, one night I went to bed to play on my Ipad while Zeus worked in the office for a bit. I laid down and turned off the light and put my head on the pillow, too tied to do anything else. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw something moving on the pillow. My first reaction was just what you would think if a girl or in my case a woman saw a mouse. Yea, I screamed and ran as fast as I could down the hall to the office, startling the sleeping babies the whole way. I told Zeus I saw a mouse on my pillow. So he comes in and says there is nothing. I was a nervous wreck and replayed the whole thing through my head. After a couple minutes, I realized that it was indeed my own hair that I saw move, that I thought was a mouse. Nope, no mouse, Just my massive amount of hair. At that very moment I told myself I needed to make a change. I can not continue running like a crazy woman from my own hair.

So in an effort to surprise Zeus I made a change. While he was gone this last week I got a crazy hair and walked into a salon. Then I walked out a completely new color, with highlights and 14 1/2 inches shorter. Just not blonde.

Now that the newness has worn off, here it is with me doing it. I like it curly and its natural so I do not see the need to fight it.

I think Zeus likes it. I can be that new woman for the 2 weeks he's home. Zeus asked so I delivered

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Dreams do come true. Tonight I lived out a dream by performing in my first skating competition with a local Synchro team. I'm hooked. We had so much fun. All our hard work paid off.
We won 1st place. So fun. We have at least 4 more competitions to look forward to over the next 2 months. So glad I never let nay sayers tell me I was too old to become a skater. Follow your dreams no matter what the obstacles in front of you are. I achieved something tonight I have dreamed of for over 20 years

Friday, January 13, 2012

Oh my goodness is it cold here. Yesterday our high was 20 degrees and that was about 5 pm for 20 minutes, the rest of the day it stayed in the teens with serious winds bringing the windchill down to 4 degrees. Then throw in a nasty snow, ice and lazy road crews and you have what I call a disaster. The funny part is that we really did not get too much snow. I think we had about 3 inches at our house by bedtime, which is not much to write home about. I've seen worse, much worse. However with the lack of preparedness of road crews the roads turned to skating rinks quickly and then accidents were piling up on every roadway. We had hundreds of accidents in the area. It was downright dangerous. If that wasn't bad enough the schools decided to have the kids come in on time. That is absurd. Those buses were not doing well on the ice but thankfully none of the kids were injured to or from school in almost white out conditions.

In all of it though I had a little amusement. Because of the wind and blowing snow this little fella decided to find protection underneath my park bench on my front porch. He and his partner stayed and visited me for a few hours. However they did not stay still very long so I did not get a picture of both of them together.

Old man winter is back today with our high of 23 degrees. I do not think I would complain so much if it was not 53 degrees the day before this rolled in. This is so silly. I just wish Zeus were here with me so we could cuddle up and watch a movie together or hang out. But, the Air Force comes first in our lives so he must travel days, upon days. TDY is now a common word. Oh well, back to snuggling under my blanket and preparing for tomorrow's Ice Skating competition.

Friday, January 6, 2012

After taking many years off from reading so that I could mother my children and go back to college I have finally picked up a couple books. Since the New year began I have now finished two books. I am a reader of true life stories, the ones where people overcome great obstacles. I feel these books give me the opportunity to learn something and take something away from the book. I do not read because it is enjoyable, Thanks to High school AP English. I read for knowledge or lessons, I guess.

The first book I was really excited to read and had it on the self for months. It was a book sent to me from a dear friend all the way from Ithaca, NY. The book was a terribly painful story of a husband and wife and the loss of the wife just 27 hours after the birth of their first child. I was interested in this book as the Husband/Father is a fellow blogger I have followed for a few years. I was anxious to read his feelings and how he managed to navigate life after such a tragedy. Matt Logelin, Two kisses for Maddy was an awesome book. I finished it on New Years day, another reason I was very teary that day.

My second book was also a tragic story with an amazing ending. The story strengthened my faith in the Lord and assured me that Heaven is waiting for my arrival. The Bible tells us what to do and how to get to Heaven but showed little proof of such a place. I have been a Christian since as far back as I can remember. This book written by a loving Father shares his amazing love of his son and the journey his once dieing son took to Heaven when battling appendicitis. It is gut wrenching and amazing all in one cover. Heaven is for Real, written by Todd Burpo about his son Colton's 3 minute journey to Heaven is breathtaking and calming. This story was perfect to restore my weary spirit as my family begins our many days with a long distance husband and Daddy.

Colton allowed me to feel calm and understand the true power of a simple prayer to God. I have never witnessed such a miracle but this story opened my eyes as wide as they have ever been.

Today, I look forward to completing more and more books about life lessons during the coming days. I am thankful to people writing their life stories so people like me get a chance to learn something new or gain a little strength from the inspiration shared through these wonderful stories. Thank you Matt and Todd.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Happy New Year, so they say. I'm not in such a happy mood today as I look forward to the coming months I'm more sad than anything. 2012 has many nasty things in store for us.

It was awesome to have my parents here for the holidays. My children will remember that for many years, if not their lifetime. Christmas was special having Grammy and Grampy here. But today brings the New year and Grammy and Grampy had to go back home. Today also brings taking down the Christmas decorations as we prepare for Zeus to depart at the end of the week.

This year will not be fun as Zeus will be gone multiple times for a total of about 9 months time or more, Thank you Air Force. I am really anxious and somewhat sad knowing that all the kids birthdays, my birthday, Zeus's birthday, Valentines day, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and the New Year will all be spent Zeusless. This makes me very sad.

He has a heavy travel schedule that entails him leaving the first few months of the year for two week intervals. This is the worst. Then he'll come home for a bit (a couple weeks) before taking that dreaded (LONG) tour overseas fighting for America and all the rights afforded to each of us.

So this new year makes me sad. I dread walking through each of these many months and weeks alone as a single parent and whats worse is my family and inlaws are many hundreds of miles away. With the kids in school I will have to stay out here with little to no travel back home for help or relief or even companionship. I must go it alone. The worst thing about TDY's and deployments is the dread of departure. Guess I better start looking for a reliable babysitter as well, with skating competitions quickly approaching. UGGGGGGGG.

Today I am sad.
Today I am scared.
Today I want 2013 to be here already.
Today I want this nightmare to go away.

Pray for me, Pray for my family, Pray for patience, safety and pray that I can find and build a support system fast. Pray that all the tears will run dry and that God will guide me step by step through this overgrown jungle of loneliness. Pray God gives me the words to comfort my four precious babies through their emotional roller coaster as well.

This New year is not a happy one for me. I guess this is just a pity post filled with my emotions as all the leaving begins and will continue through the last day of the year. YUCK!!!! Anyone want to trade?

I hope all of you have a Fantastic 2012 with many new blessings and wonderful events to look forward too.

Thanks for listening, errrr I mean, I guess reading. Being able to blog helps me deal with all the swirling emotions dive bombing me this new year.

Blessings to all and may God Bless Our Troops and bring them all home safe including my Zeus.