Thursday, 26 September 2013

Part Three.....There's a
girl in my mirror...

This
was the hardest revelation to come to terms with.The first....was a personal, spiritual
revelation, something new, something beginning. The second...was an acknowledgement
of something from my past that has always been there, always in the
background...but the third.This was
something from the present...something a little confronting, a little too
real.

I
had the privilege of being on the edge of a conversation and overhearing some
of the opinions that some of my close friends had of me in regards to the trip
that I had just taken...and it was a surprise....and to be honest...a
shock.They sounded proud of what I had
achieved, of what I had done.They
reiterated how perhaps now I would have more confidence, more assurance ...and
that was the surprising part.I never
doubted that I could have done what I needed to do.I never doubted that I had the confidence or
assurance so their remarks about what I had achieved sounded somewhat condescending....and
to be honest...a little like pity.

I
love my friends...I have only a few treasured, close, personal friends so I
know without a doubt that the comments they made were only made with love.And I thank them for being so honest, for
speaking from their hearts....because it certainly woke me up.It made me think.It made me reflect.It forced me to face up to reality....or at
least the reality that other people saw....not necessarily the reality I
felt.And that was what hit me
hardest...that what I felt on the inside...was not necessarily what people saw
on the outside.And really....HOW important was it that people saw
what I felt??

I
believe that being true to yourself is the biggest gift you can give to
yourself...or to anyone else.If others
view you as something different to how you feel....is it your fault for giving
the wrong impression...or theirs for getting the wrong message??I whole heartedly believe that if you are
being true to yourself, then that is what truly matters.We will never have control over others
emotions or actions...we only have control of our OWN reactions to their emotions and actions.

Think
about it.Deep breathe in....now.....think....
So where does that leave me in my reaction to other people’s emotions????Exactly where I want to be....by being true
to myself...by just being myself...the worldcan accept me for who I am...or it can just get screwed.Because I am who I am....and whether people
accept me for who I am or not...doesn’t really matter....because I am OK with who I am...and that is all that
matters...to me.

There's a girl in the mirrorI wonder who she isSometimes I think I know herSometimes I really wish I didThere's a story in her eyesLullabies and goodbyesWhen she's looking back at meI can tell her heart is broken easily

'Cause the girl in my mirrorIs crying out tonightAnd there's nothing I can tell herTo make her feel alrightOh the girl in my mirrorIs crying 'cause of youAnd I wish there was somethingSomething I could do

If I couldI would tell herNot to be afraidThe pain that she's feelingThe sense of loneliness will fadeSo dry your tears and rest assuredLove will find you like beforeWhen she's looking back at meI know nothing really works that easily

'Cause the girl in my mirrorIs crying out tonightAnd there's nothing I can tell herTo make her feel alrightOh the girl in my mirrorIs crying 'cause of youAnd I wish there was somethingI wish there was somethingOh I wish there was somethingI could do

I can't believe it's what I seeThat the girl in the mirrorThe girl in the mirror.......Is me

Britney Spears...The Girl In The Mirror...please you tube it :)

Yes....I am strong....I have my own mind....my own ideals....I am the person I wish to be....but that doesn't mean I am not vulnerable....or sensitive. I yam what I yam. And that is good enough for me and my reflection.