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Monday, April 22, 2013

After being glued to the tv Friday night watching the news unfolding in Watertown, and then learning that my Sabres are, for all intents and purposes, done for the season, I tried to just enjoy my weekend and not think too much. After Religion class, David and his classmates practiced for 1st Communion which is now only 2 weeks away, and after that we went out to buy his outfit. We had a fun afternoon of shopping & walking at the Mall and we finished it off with lunch at McDonald's. I am now realizing I didn't get any pictures of my beautiful daughter :-( But she was with us too. I adore my babies.

Also our new mattress finally came, and now the bed is so freakin' tall I literally have to climb into it...but it looks nice! Besides that, we just relaxed and enjoyed being home. I'm on the bus to work now, hoping I can make it through today with a positive attitude, focusing on helping people... Well I'll give it a try. Happy Monday all. Let's hope it is better than last Monday.

Sunday, April 21, 2013

I haven't posted in a while... I just haven't had the energy. Been overwhelmed. This past week's news has been so horrific, I am still having trouble digging my mind out of it all. The morning of the bombings in Boston, I took this photo as I waited for my bus... It was such a beautiful morning, I got the distinct feeling that even though it was Monday, it was going to be a pretty great day. Boy was I wrong. Now I look at this photo so differently - as if it was God getting ready - opening up the gates of Heaven to welcome his newest angels. The cloud in the center even almost looks like a heart. I am devastated for the victims and their families. I don't even know where to begin........I really just don't.

Every time something like this happens, I wish more and more that I could build a giant bubble around my family to keep them safe from the evil in this world. While shopping with my children Saturday, we heard a loud boom off in the distance - probably construction or something, but it stopped us in our tracks. My daughter looked at me, wide-eyed, and said "Was that a bomb?" It made me so sad. That should NOT be the first thing a child thinks of. This is not how life should be.

I truly have to force myself not to think about this for a while, because tomorrow is Monday again. That means I face another busy week of long days away from home, helplessly praying that we will all return to each other safely at the end of the day. Sorry, just speaking true to what is in my heart right now. Going to sleep, hopefully I will wake up in a better frame of mind. God bless you all...hug your loved ones tight.

Monday, April 8, 2013

#1
Being a Mommy is my purpose in life and my children are the center of my world. At times, people have criticized me for spending so much time with my kids & not doing enough things just for me. While I understand their point of view, I know that one day my kids will be grown up and have better things to do than spend time with their Mom. When that time comes, I won't have any choice but to accept it. So why would I waste these last few years that I still have their attention, only to end up wishing later that I could get that time back? No thanks. Having regrets about that would crush me.

#2

I have always wished people would remember this about me, but they never, ever do.
I promise you - I'm fine :)

#3

I've been through a lot in my thirty-something years. The good and the bad - it all brought me to where I am now. I have grown & learned so much about myself along the way... I'm not saying I have no regrets -- I absolutely wish I could go back and change some things...but if I did, how different would things be? I have a wonderful life. And I am a true believer that everything happens for a reason.

Sunday, April 7, 2013

For the past several months, I've been struggling to make a decision on an age-old question...

Tumblr or Blogger?

Which is the better platform for me? I really can't decide. There are a ton of pros and cons to both. Being a Mom who works outside the home, I have very little time to write out stories about my day's happenings the way many like to do on Blogger. Most nights, once my butt hits the couch at the end of the day I'm out like a light within a half hour. What I love about Tumblr is how it makes blogging effortless and fast. Posts can be anything ranging from tiny snippets of your day to to full out, wordy narratives. Tumblr makes it super simple to post photos, videos, text -- anything you want... it's fun and easy while on the go...and you can post 20+ times a day and no one minds. Ok so, point to Tumblr. But what I love about Blogger is that it's a lot more personal and is definitely populated with more "grown up" people. I do kinda feel out of place on Tumblr a lot of the time because it's obvious that most Tumblr users are well under 20 years old. One minute you could be scrolling through photos of flowers, animals, adorable shots of kids and their mommies, and BAM - suddenly your looking at someone's bare....well, you know. {I don't want to type out any specifics here because then googlebots will be crawling my blog and indexing it to attract allllll kinds of unwanted visitors. No thanks} So then I ask myself - do I really want my kids photos and my personal thoughts mixed in with the "anything and everything" content that ends up on Tumblr's dashboard? Not really. Ok - point to Blogger. I guess I've come to the conclusion that what I'd really like to do is use Blogger like Tumblr. Post as often I want, whatever I want, however short or long I want it to be, and stay in the Blogger community. I love the Blogger community. Tumblr, as effortless as it is, is not a good fit for my personality and the personal content I share... So I guess I just made my decision. Maybe. Do you have a Tumblr? I'm interested to hear your thoughts...

Thursday, April 4, 2013

I am, first and foremost, a Mother and Wife.
Daughter.
Animal lover.
Sister.
Friend.
Amateur photographer.
Sabres fanatic.
Coffee-addict.
Proud, native Buffalonian.
Christian.PPD survivor.
An insecure thirtysomething.
I'm lazy. I lllllove when I have NOTHING I have to do... sometimes I resent beautiful, sunny days because it means I can't relax because I need to get outside and be active...ugh.
I don't like to cook or bake - in fact, I kinda suck at both and I'm mostly ok with that.
Introvert.
Child-at-heart and a lover of all pretty things...truly a girly girl.
Constant thinker...I don't say much {in person} but my mind is always working.
Computer geek.
Technology addict.
PACK RAT
Scary movie lover.
I love to play the Sims 3 and I don't care who knows it ツ
I will cry if you cry. I'm extremely sensitive and empathetic...
Sentimental...to a fault {ties into the packrat thing. I have trouble parting with things that remind me have emotional attachment to something}
I try my best not to judge... Everyone deserves respect...we are all fighting our own private battles.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Last night was one of the longest nights of my life. David had his first sleepover at a friend's house, which for most kids (and moms) is more of a fun milestone than a scary one. But when you have a child with food allergies, anxiety surrounds every decision you make. At first when he asked me, I wanted to flat out tell him no - he couldn't go. But I can't tell him no for this kinda stuff forever...so I talked to the friend's mom, who I found out during the course of the conversation is a nurse, and she helped ease my mind. She has a leg up on me actually, because she knows from experience how to use an Epipen. She suggested what I was already thinking - David could bring his own food and they wouldn't feed him anything else (sometimes I feel like I make it sound like my poor child is a gremlin). So we let him go spend the night there...he's still there now and I can't wait to hear all about the adventures when I get home tonight...