Faith • Motherhood • Simplicity

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You wouldn't think the two would go together, pregnancy and war, but oh, they do. From the minute I started even thinking my body might be hosting a new life in the near future, I started preparing. I started taking prenatal vitamins 4 months (yes, pretty much right when we got engaged) before the wedding, … Continue reading My Birth Story, Part I: Pregnancy and War

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There's a fine, dotted line between letting something go and standing up for oneself. It feels like a seesaw, where it's not any fun when you're always letting things go and becoming a bitter pushover, and it's no fun at all to make a fuss over every bump on the road. A wise man once … Continue reading Fighting For Peace

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As a child, it was so easy to believe it all. I wanted to be everything when I grew up. Well, now it's here. I'm grown up. This is the age when adults do adult things. I'm turning 29 in less than a month, and the people I babysat are grown up, too. As for … Continue reading Overflow and Fairytales

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Sometimes it feels like I'm chasing after something I may never fully grasp. Maybe it's the planner in me, or the drive to grow and improve, right? My eyesight is pretty bad on both eyes, and it could very well be from squinting to the future so much with the eyes of my heart. Is it … Continue reading Contentment

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November 13th. It would have been my 7 year wedding anniversary this week, ya know, had it not been for the divorce. I chopped my hair off, my beautiful long, blond hair and I felt so free! Of course, I asked his opinion many times, and he approved. I wouldn't have cut my hair had my … Continue reading Emotional Abuse and Neglect

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There are moments in life when you can taste fear. You can feel it in your belly, the cold. Brain goes foggy. Eyes go teary. This is it. This is where all the worst case scenarios are true. It's over. It's not gonna happen. It's the sinking versus swimming, and the flight versus fight. Helpless. … Continue reading Tasting Fear and Freedom

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Sometimes I get really tired. I get frustrated. I sometimes feel muffled, stifled, and discouraged. I say one thing, meaning it from the bottom of my heart in the best way possible, and it offends. I lose my appetite to speak again. I lose my appetite to even try to explain myself, because it's like … Continue reading Greener Grass