though the road ahead is long and promises are made and sometimes broken

So I like Dreamwidth. I like the community-driven feel, the idea of responsive, responsible, accessible developers, especially since right now the "LJ community" at large to me is Support and so many spr0t-associated folk are on DW which is amazing.

But what I'm really scared about is... leaving LJ-land and the familiar and six, seven years of history with livejournal.com so much so that I can probably type LiveJournal as fast as I can type my own name and probably faster since I rarely have occasion to type my name. I don't know if I know how to leave what's been home to me for so many years. I don't know if I can. And the thing is, the community will invariably be split. My community. My family. My friends. It's going to be Support friends vs. friends I had before Support. Either way I go, someone is going to be left behind.

I don't know if I'm being needlessly worried or emo, or if these are thoughts born out of frantic procrastination, but there it is.

for the Lord, he will renew their strength

That's definitely a promise I could really hold on to right now. Oh, I had around eight-ish hours of sleep, but I'm still a little scared of what'll happen on the physio exam today. It's not until 1pm, for which I am grateful and angry; grateful because it means extra time because I procrastinated yesterday, and angry because the extra time gave me the leeway to procrastinate.

... and of neuro, which is at 8am tomorrow, as I don't want to lose my essentially one and only chance at honors in some class this year. Sure, I've pretty much studied it all, but as this test block's material didn't feel very clinical, I feel very... uncertain about whether I know it all or not. And physio being at 1pm today leaves me precious little time to study...