Brinley hasn't had a fever since midnight last night, but they are keeping her to watch her tonight again. She is feeling so-so, one minute she's happy, the next minute she looks yucky. They said there was pnemonia on the x-ray, so they are treating her for that. She will continue day 2 of one of the new chemos, ara-C, today, which could possibly be a cause of the fever, so we'll see what happens in a few hours. She is getting it right now. In the meantime, we have had to find a way to get Taylor to her soccer tournament in St. George, thank goodness for people willing to help. She'll stay with aunt Huenu, who will be her soccer momma for the weekend. Thanks Huenu!This all just makes me so sad. Jade cried last night when I told her I would have to go stay with Brinley at the hospital again. Taylor has to go to a tournament without us. I know this month will be hard, yesterday at clinic I was talking with the oncologist about our last inpatient stay last week, and he said "it won't be the last hospital stay this month." We didn't know how right he was! So she is starting the second part of DI (delayed intensification) and they said it is hard on the kids. I just want to huddle my family together and say "we can do this! One month! We will have our normal back, it might be a couple years to feel totally normal, but that day will come!!" My poor kids. How can I possibly give them all what they need?? Ugh.

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I've managed not to cry for a while, but I couldn't help it today. It's one of those time we just ask why? I don't have the answers, of course, and today it just seems particularly unfair. But just know that we love you and are your constant traveling companions on this terrible heart-wrenching journey.

Allways the last steps to the top of the mountain are the hardest,and you don't will be alone. Just endure and the top will show up. We send are love and we wish to be able to embrace you Brin Kristin and David!Love David and Lidia