It’s been a decade since Lauren Conrad played herself in MTV’s The Hills, but she’s revealed that she still cringes at certain scenes of the show.

“I get so embarrassed for myself. We were so unfiltered and I think that’s what made the show. We were honest, and we just didn’t know any better. I said some of the stupidest stuff,” she tells People.

“One that was really hard to watch was my first on-camera kiss with Brody [Jenner],” says Lauren.

“The producers were like, we know you’ve kissed off camera, we need to see it on camera. I agreed to it, but it was just so uncomfortable. I wanted to die. I still get idiot shivers when I watch it.”

Idiot shivers, LOL!

Lauren and Brody on the show

Lauren left The Hills in 2009, halfway through it’s fifth and second to last season.

“I stayed as long as I could,” she says. “I had a lot of pushback, but it was the right time for me. I don’t have any regrets about that.”

But she reveals that fans still love to talk to her about the show, admitting “the only thing people bring up to me is Paris!”

“People still want to give me a hard time about not going,” she adds. “I’m like, ‘I went the next season!'”

The Hills: That Was Then, This Is Now airs tonight at 9 p.m. ET on MTV.