"I took the little radio from the kitchen and I went and sat in the spare room and I turned it halfway between two stations so that all I could hear was white noise and I turned the volume up really loud and I held it against my ear and the sound filled my head and it hurt so that I couldn't feel any other sort of hurt, like the hurt in my chest"

Wednesday, July 21

weight loss

My goal for the next month is weight loss. And not just one or two pounds - I need a visible weight loss. I'll watch my food intake, ban snacks and or thoughtless consumption. I will drink bottles of water and exercise every day.

I really need this. If I want an internal change, there needs to be a tangible, visual change as well. And my health sucks. I sustain an incredibly unstable lifestyle. I sleep, eat, and wander at random hours. My whole body aches and I feel very unhealthy.