Reader. Writer. Romantic.

Posts tagged ‘not love’

Don’t make me promises
You don’t intend to honour
If that which is so simple
Is a commitment
You won’t make
Then fuck it

Why should I give myself
Put in my heart and soul
For a man who doesn’t care
For a man who would only trample
On my hopes and dreams
To be torn apart
And lied to?

I am better than that
And I deserve more than this

You treat me like shit
And wonder why I want to run away
To curl up and to die
In a corner of the world
Where I’ll never be found
Or why I try to find comfort
In the arms of another
Who loves me for who I am
Embraces each flaw
And inspires my mind

Too long have I lingered
Rotting in this gilded cage
I am better than this
And I will rise above it
Find my voice
And soar

Each day I live
Imagining myself the moth
Thinking I would immolate myself upon that which I love
But it’s not true
It’s never been true
I have always been the cockroach

I think and I overthink
Analyse and overanalyse
So much so
That I forget to enjoy
That I forget the pleasures of life

I have the perfect life
But for what?
I have a flawless future
But for why?

Why prolong this suffering that is life
Why continue to live a pitiful existence
A future is not flawless
Nor a present perfect
Without pleasures and joys
Of each individual moment
Or of the people who matter most