"The mark of an immature man is that he would die knobly for a cause. The mark of a mature man is that he would live humbly for one" - Catcher in the Rye
-WARNING WRITER SPELLING CHALLENGED! But Sometimes you have to say "what the fuck!"

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Blackass and Much Ado about Nothingness

Blackass

Strikes againRevenge of the Bitch

Dangerous LiaisonsReckless abandon

I cant move

Do I care?-vadergrrrl Nov 2005

Bla Bla Bla.. Gabba Gabba Hey!Sitting home with nothing to do besides wallow in my writers block and holiday induced blackass. What to do besides try to write some fuckin poetry and then collect quotes from those who inspire me. Yeah Im a whore for quotes. I like posting on my Wickedly Insane Brilliant People Myspace group because I feel like its less pressure than writing on my blog. Too many people were reading my blog and then using my words to haunt me. That takes all the momentum out of me as a writer. I may post this dribble on both sites because since my disappearance from the blog world, few seem to bother me for my rants these days.

I cranked out a few poems here tonight. Thanks to a couple drinks, good poet dialog with a friend, and of course chain smoking Winstons. This poetry is very raw and un-edited so feel free to critique if you want.

The Gambler

Your dead man handTouching me

Red suit of heartsI covet

Strong handStoic eyes

Flushed with desireI fold-vadergrrrl Nov 2005

That poem I wrote about a special guy in my life. I met him in Colorado and he changed/saved my life. A very private person, I know he doesn’t want me writing about him on the relationship. All I can say is that he is one of the best things that has ever happened to me.

Laxative Dream

Overindulged excessTemporary pleasure

I purged you outAs fast as you came

Painful explosionsThen release

A little pill eradicatesMy past mistake-vadergrrrl Oct 2005

Quote WhoreSo here are some quotes I found. Many are from Hemingway because I truly take inspiration from him. Collecting quotes and re-reading “the greats” seems to help me deal with my writers block/blackass. Its so hard to move from wanting to sleep all the time to actually doing something, something as simple/complex as writing. I do think my depression leads to great inspiration and is the impetus for my writing. However how do you find that medium that keeps you feeling the fodder and not letting it kill you?

First, there must be talent. . .Then there must be discipline. . .Then there must be. . .and absolute conscience. . .to prevent faking. (Ernest Hemingway)

The most essential gift for a good writer is a built-in, shock-proof shit detector. (Ernest Hemingway)

My working habits are simple: long periods of thinking, short periods of writing. (Ernest Hemingway)

One of the difficulties in the language is that all our words from loose using have lost their edge. (Ernest Hemingway)

Everyone my age had written a novel and I was still having difficulty writing a paragraph. (Ernest Hemingway)

Prose is architecture not interior decoration. (Ernest Hemingway)All good books are alike in that they are truer than if they really happened and after you are finished reading one you will feel that it all happened to you, and afterwards it all belongs to you. (Ernest Hemingway)

I always rewrite each day up to the point where I stopped. When it is all finished, naturally you go over it. You get another chance to correct and rewrite when someone else types it, and you see it clean in type. The last chance is in the proofs. You're grateful for these different chances. (Ernest Hemingway)

Substitute "damn" every time you're inclined to write "very"; your editor will delete it and the writing will be just as it should be. — Mark Twain

Art is the lie that tells the truth. — Pablo Picasso

My own experience has been that the tools I need for my trade are paper, tobacco, food, and a little whisky. — William Faulkner

Get your facts first, and then you can distort them as much as you please. — Mark Twain

The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense. — Tom Clancy

The friends that have I do it wrongWhenever I remake a song,Should know what issue is at stake:It is myself that I remake.William Butler Yeats There are significant moments in everyone's day that can make literature. That's what you ought to write about. — Raymond Carver

The misuse of language induces evil in the soul. — Socrates

Fiction is the truth inside the lie. — Stephen King

Mediocre writers borrow; great writers steal. — TS Eliot I notice that you use plain, simple language, short words and brief sentences. That is the way to write English — it is the modern way and the best way. Stick to it; don't let fluff and flowers and verbosity creep in. When you catch an adjective, kill it. No, I don't mean utterly, but kill most of them — then the rest will be valuable. They weaken when they are close together. They give strength when they are wide apart. An adjective habit, or a wordy, diffuse, flowery habit, once fastened upon a person, is as hard to get rid of as any other vice. — Mark Twain

No time for poetry but exactly what is. — Jack Kerouac

Try and write straight English; never using slang except in dialogue and then only when unavoidable. Because all slang goes sour in a short time. I only use swear words, for example, that have lasted at least a thousand years for fear of getting stuff that will be simply timely and then go sour. — Ernest Hemingway

Short words are best and the old words when short are best of all. — Winston Churchill

From the moment I picked up your book until I laid it down, I was convulsed with laughter. Some day I intend reading it. — Groucho Marx

So if you made it this far you really care about what the fuck I say and thank you for reading. I must say I learned a lot about writing from this amazing woman, June Jordan, who I took a poetry class from at UC Berkeley. She was this strong powerful black diva who taught a very informational yet intimidating class. This class taught me so much, yet also scared the shit out of me. Before her class I was able to write freely, without self criticsim. After her class and all the “PC-ness” that a poetry class from Berkeley brought me, I started silencing my voice. Its coming back though. And I here that many have also gone through long dry periods. So… I just keep on keeping on.

PS I cant spell. But… then what is grammar and spelling but another cage that challenges us and blocks us as writers!??!!!

PPS I tried to find some google images for Blackass and all I could find was porn and death metal bands.