Saturday, March 24, 2007

End

During the last season of HBO’s Six Feet Under, life was aptly summarized in 4E’s. Everyone. Everywhere. Everything. Ends. No matter how you live your life, truth is, it will eventually end.

There was a time that I loathed happy endings, be it in movies, television shows or novels. I thought they were just sorts of fantasies existing in imaginations and dreams, or escapes to the real essence of life. Death is after all a topic no one wants, nor comfortable, to talk to.

Indeed, I don’t talk about death to anyone. In my quiet moments, lots of questions regarding it are being raised, yet no hints of answers. Scenarios of seeing any of my loved ones waving a permanent goodbye are very painful to foresee. Or leaving them without permission is also very hard. When will be my last sleep? Theirs? Fictional dialogues are not helping me either, they are increasing the stress level.

Funny that I do not like the way how death is avoided mostly in produced entertainments but I am too afraid to accept that it will soon come my way.

i think your feelings are universal; we all think about death and are afraid of it when it finally comes our way....while most of go through life thinking it will come in the twilight of our years, i often wonder how i would cope if i KNEW it was coming sooner....i've seen many loved ones (young and old) die - some deaths have been tragic in their knowledge of it, others have been accepted as the inevitable end and they go in peace....i often wonder which of these two i will be...

I liked your thought provoking post and musings. I waver in between- frustrated too.. due to much of the aspect of death being glossed over, sappy..or just not really touching any real depth? Great photo capture with your thoughts-