Saturday, August 22, 2009

SOTD: Caedmon's Call, "Table for Two"

It's not that I'm not content with who I am and where I am in life. No, I really do believe that I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be right now---if I were in a relationship, how could I even consider packing up my life and moving to a city I'd never laid eyes on before? But when I think about the future, I don't see it as a one-woman show. Though I'm having great adventures now, I'm starting to get tired of going it alone. Soon, I think I'll want to adventure with someone else.

And sometimes I worry if I'm missing my chance. In all my time growing and discovering myself, am I closing myself off to my chance of having a husband and a family? I read this article today about Christians and the resurgence of young marriage and it stressed me out. I can't be past my prime already, can I? My parents got married at 24. I have a lot of friends who are married already and plenty more who are on their way. Is it slim pickins from here on out? I guess it's a good thing I'm allergic to cats..

I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. I had dinner with old friends tonight, and, as can be predicted when girlfriends get together for the first time in a while, the conversation soon turned to the old standby-- boys. One of the girls is in a relationship. One just ended one. One wishes she was in one. One is not sure if she's in one or not. As we went around the table expounding on our relationship statuses, there seemed to be only one constant-- uncertainty.

Someday, we'll probably all look back on our twenties and just laugh about how silly and confused we once were and how the answers were right there in front of us all along and we didn't even know it. But today, the future is terrifying and hazy and close but so distant at the same time.

And I think this song gets that.

We made speculationOn the who's and the when's of our futuresAnd how everyone's lonelyBut still we just couldn't complain

And how we just hate being aloneCould I have missed my only chanceAnd now I'm just wasting my timeBy looking around

But you know I know betterI'm not gonna worry 'bout nothingCause if the birds and the flowers surviveThen I'll make it okayI'm given a chance and a rocksee which one breaks a windowSee which one keeps me up all night and into the day

1 comment:

This is definitely one of my all-time favorite songs. Granted, I'm also just a Webb fan, but this song manages to comfort me / make me laugh / cause me to think deeper...all at once. Ah. Given a chance and a rock....great stuff.