OTOP: One Time, One Place. AKA: Ichi go, ichi e, or one life, one meeting. In any encounter there is only one chance. Now is
absolute, tomorrow is only a maybe. Your whole life is in this moment.

Friday, May 1, 2009

Breathe..........

I went to yoga today...slow flow yoga...it was wonderful and rejuvenating and healing and empowering. It was a special class, reminding me that yoga can heal the body and that with good intention and meditation you can change your life. So everyday I will use my body's strength and deep intention of the mind to try and heal myself....to try and fend off preeclampsia and the other complications that could arise as a result of preecplampsia.

And...I'm going to stop googling and reading about it. It's just feeding the monster. I read blog entries and NYTimes articles...I've found a ton of inaccurate information.

I am just going to focus on good health for me and my growing baby and keep positive. Even if things don't turn out the way I hope and pray for at least I'll have cradled myself in positivity and strength instead of anxiety and fear.

The thing is....I haven't always been like this. Trevor has really brought a lot more positivity into my thought process, having been through a lot with his health in 34 years. Also, being a nurse and working in health care for along time I see how we don't have a whole lot of control over what happens to our bodies and our lives. I still think like a pessimist sometimes but I try so hard to think like an optimist because it's just FEELS better....and really puts that energy out there that you desire good things.

Great outlook! :) Don't feel bad...I was convinced that I was having conjoined twins (even though the doctor reassured me there were 2 amniotic sacs). When you're pregnant, all rational bets are off. You are doing great! :)

That is beautifully said. You are doing the right thing! I realized somewhere in my pregnancy that I just needed to focus on loving my baby in there. I put all the books away, watched, read, listened to nothing about problems, etc. And just enjoyed cradling that precious, sweet bundle of LOVE inside me. I am so happy for you. It's so nice to hear you are enjoying these optimistic feelings. Keep 'em coming!