Hoping to share the love, joy, and grace I have received in my own life.

Recycled

by danacox31 on April 22, 2016

I like the Facebook app “On This Day”. Every morning around 5:15, I receive a notification of things that I posted on that particular date in past years. I love the way the app gives me the chance to be reminded of little day-to-day things that I may not otherwise remember. For example, I posted this on April 21, 2010…”Trevor has a Wii, yet chooses sometimes to play the ancient Super Nintendo. Last night he was playing it and his controller wasn’t working. After listening to him whine for a few minutes, I said “Use the other controller.” Trevor’s reply…”I can’t, Mom! I made a sweet pair of sunglasses out of it last night.” Hmmmm???”

I got a little choked up reading the post, but instantly remembered this happening and smiled because it is something I might have forgotten otherwise.

The post not only brought joy to my heart, reminding me of my silly son, but it got me to thinking deeper. Trevor was always a rebuilder, a recycler, of sorts. From the time he was very young he loved to take things apart and put them back together. If I was getting rid of something, he would find another use for it. Sometimes it wasn’t even something I was prepared to get rid of. Like his Super Nintendo controller, turned into sunglasses, Trevor saw things that I didn’t always see, but he always wanted to create something new.

As I reflected on that, I thought about how Trevor has done that with me. I know that it is not all him. God is working on me all the time. Through Trevor’s life and death, God has given me eyes to see a new life, a rebuilt life.
Just like an old electronic gadget that Trevor took apart to repair or to make into something new, God’s rewiring me to be someone new. My life will never be what it was before and I won’t see or hold my son as long as I am alive on this earth, but after his death I have come to really understand the grace of God and that His grace is a gift that brings new life. I’ve been recycled.

I am reminded this morning of God’s promise to restore Israel not only physically, but spiritually. Ezekiel 36:26 says, “I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you. I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.” This is what God is doing in my life! Through Trevor’s life and death my heart was changed (and is still being changed) by the hands of God. My life is new.

At Trevor’s funeral, my youngest brother, Jason, played guitar and sang Josh Turner’s song, “Me and God.” I’ll end this post with the lyrics. My son is in my heart and on my mind every day. Just like both of my daughters, Trevor continues to help me see that “there ain’t nothing that can’t be done by me and God.”

There ain’t nothing that can’t be done
By me and God
Ain’t nobody gonna come in between me and God
One day we’ll live together
Where the angels trod
Me and God

Early in the morning talking it over
Me and God
Late at night talking it over
Me and God
You could say we’re like two peas in a pod
Me and God

He’s my Father
He’s my friend
The beginning
And the end
He rules the world
With a staff and rod
We’re a team
Me and God

I am weak and he is strong
Me and God
He forgives me when I’m wrong
Me and God
He’s the one I lean on
When life gets hard
Me and God

He’s my Father
He’s my friend
The beginning
And the end
He rules the world
With a staff and rod
We’re a team
Me and God