today was different.
i left the house at fifteen til five in the morning. the sky still was dark, then sun had not even shown a hint of rising. when i got to work i sat in my car and smoked cigarettes and watched the headlights file into the parking lot. skilled drivers made parking in reverse in a crowded lot look like a cakewalk... Read More

my girlfriend's cat of 12 years passed away yesterday.
i'm now sleep deprived and tired from work as well as emotionally and physically drained from this whole ordeal.
but i'm surviving and doing the best i can to deal with the things that need to be done to make sure ashley's segue into a world without her dear harley is as... Read More

i've been sitting out on the patio at my dad's house smoking cigarettes, drinking a few beers, and itching from the tramadol.
it's so nice to work all week and really enjoy a sunday evening. to just relax, have nowhere to be, nothing to do, just to sit here and talk to my dad and my sister and watch ashley xan out... Read More

despite my nifty new phone i still miss the limitless abilities of the intarwebs when it comes to keeping up with websites &c.
though it's not as though i know anyone these days that doesn't see me on a more or less regular even daily basis.
that's so weird to me.
i never saw myself like this but here i am.

I ache.
God. I look around me and it's always just a bunch of idiots. What is wrong with this place? Is it the gene pool? Is it the society of the place eating the hearts and souls and regurgitating a bunch of fucked up individuals? It makes no sense to me. Whats the hell.

I've somehow just rediscovered Head Automatica's Popaganda after ages and ages.
I think when I got fed up of hearing Graduation Day I stopped listening to the whole album and forgot all the other great songs it contained.

I'm off work until Tuesday. I'll have been off six days by then. It's going to suck going back to work. I... Read More