i deal with it by being aware of my thoughts. i pay attention to what i feel and why i feel it. so i recognize when i am anxious. and i let myself feel it knowing what it is and understanding why i feel that way. i take some deep breaths and eventually those feelings of anxiety leave and i go on with my day.

you might want to look up how to practice mindfulness. it really helped me out. it's basically just practicing being aware of our own emotions and thoughts.

it's easier if you can find a way to enjoy it instead of feeling like it's a struggle.

are there healthy foods you like? or are there ways to walk that you and enjoy? as for the physical therapy exercises, those require a different mentality. often by enjoying how far you can push yourself and test your limits.

i'm back to eating fruits again. i miss them so much. in exchange i'll just stick with lean meats.

still going 5 days a week to the gym. yesterday i did an hour going up a stair machine, slowly increasing the speed until i was basically running up the stairs on the last minute. afterwards i work on a punching bag for a bit.

i'm thinking about taking martial arts classes twice a week though on the two nights i have left open since i don't plan on taking school classes this semester.

Still working out regularly normally 5 days a week, i'm still rotating through deadlifts, squats/lowerbody, chest, back, arms, and bodyweight/cardio. Though yesterday i didn't because i was very sleepy. I was going on overdrive for the past few weeks and over the weekend i did some major sleep recovery. i slept a total of 28 hours in the last 48 hours. also i'm back on diet and sticking with it.

that's weird because i saw and interview with him talking about how, in European countries, he isn't getting horrific reviews and how his vision must be more suited to their tastes than of viewers in the US.

it's actually good that you give so many details into exactly what happened and it's clear that you understand that you over react.

it sounds like we have a similar problem. when i get emotional my mind races. it's running a mile a minute but also in circles and goes nowhere. i just fret and jump to conclusions and over read into things. "she said this, it could mean that she felt this way" "she did that, "obviously she's not considering me when she blah blah blah".

i've come to recognize when i get like that. and when i do i will distract myself and do not act on those feelings. i'd just do other things. and not talk to people involved in those emotions and not let them control me. anything i think of or conclude while on this rush aren't actually well thought out. its like each thought i have is a lego piece and i'm scrambling to put them all together to form a conclusion. and it always ends up being a stupid hunk of junk because i didn't take my time.

so after a while of not acting on those feelings i'll eventually calm down, then i can better reflect on how i feel and how the other people involved feels and have a better understanding of exactly what is going on and also how to communicate what i've concluded in a way that the other people can understand me. remember that empathy is key to any relationship (romantic or otherwise). try to see things from his side before accusing him and he should try to see things from yours.

also, expressing how you feel is fine. but make sure that you understand yourself. and i can't stress this enough, you need to learn to notice when you're emotions are getting out of hand, calm yourself down, and then take time to reflect on yourself and your emotions.

also also, never waste times of distress and shitty feelings. you're obviously feeling awful, learn something from all of this. it would be a great shame to feel this bad and leave the situation without any sort personal growth.

i fell off of diet for about 6 days. basically i've been eating stuff in my fridge left over from the BBQ instead of getting rid of it and buying new healthy food. but i finally got myself to throw it away on sunday. no more breads, no more buns. so i'm back on diet. i'm still working out a lot. and it feels good.

can you give me some details of what you weigh, what you want to reach, an good estimate on how long it took you to lose that 15-18 lbs, what a normal day is like before your small changes, and what those small changes are. also a description of your build would be useful. if any of this is something you don't feel comfortable posting out in the open, feel free to do so by pm. though we're all hufflepuffs here and we're all trying to lose weight together.