;)I think I can relate and I am here for you when you need me Kilo and I agree with acomment I saw to you early you are a talent and need to keep the bullets out the gun stop the running write it down like you have been doing and you will survive this and many more things in this life But you must stay strong we cant make it to better days until we make it through the night

You're preaching to the choir my friend ...except for the drugs.I'm a 59 year old substance virgin.Well ... ok ... I drink but I've never used it as an escape.Much to the opposite.I am freakish about losing control over myself ... or my situation.It has happened ... and it wasn't pretty.I've never had a gun ... never will ...but I have 2 big bottles of pills I have saved from changesin medication and keep enough insulin on hand to put a moose in a coma ...so I get your point.

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