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Depression bpd life positive negative mind childhood futureSun, 18 Jun 2017 14:23:52 +0000enhourly1http://wordpress.com/https://s2.wp.com/i/buttonw-com.pngThe key to deal with lifehttps://deangiffney.wordpress.com
Insecurity in Mehttps://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2017/03/24/insecurity-in-me/
https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2017/03/24/insecurity-in-me/#respondFri, 24 Mar 2017 15:41:27 +0000http://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2017/03/24/insecurity-in-me/]]>I am 24 years old now and I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder about 5 years ago and let me tell you, it doesn’t get any easier.

The past 5 years of my life have been made up of serious highs and extremely low lows. Nothing in between, all that’s in between is the build up to one of these and it is fucking exhausting. I don’t want to be me or be around me anymore so how can I expect anyone else hahaha

If I could have one wish I would obviously get rid of this horrible disorder but even less than that I would give myself the confidence I feel when I am on a high and make it fucking stick. That confidence shatters way too often for my liking and now for everybody else’s too! Well I can’t blame them like it is tiring constantly building someone up that you know is going to be low again at some point, what is the actual point ? I don’t see any.

Every day of my life for about 15 years I was told I wasn’t loved, my mother told me frequently, a couple of times a week how she felt about me and even worse she demonstrated how she felt about me just in case I didn’t understand all I have ever wanted is for my mother to love me and she can’t.. and now because of that .. no one can ?

I have some serious insecurity issues and i over think every little thing and become paranoid and it’s hard to tell the difference between what I’ve created in my mind and reality. That causes a lot of problems for everyone, but at least everyone can leave and escape … I’m stuck with me.

I am so so good at faking confidence it’s actually kinda funny? I put on a good act but where does that leave me. Of course I don’t want to be seen like the pathetic piece of crippling shit I am so I pretend to be the way I would LOVE to be … the way I think I’d be if I didn’t have this fucking disorder.

I’ve genuinely given it my all 10 times over to change and be a better man and attend counselling and talk to someone when things get “bad” and if you ever read any of my other blogs you can see I’ve been through the ringer they’re a rollercoaster in themselves !!…but honestly all of that has just led me to this point and I’m over it.

I genuinely can’t take it anymore and I can’t break my own heart anymore trying to make people love me … my insecurities will always push those people away

So I will continue down this fucked up little path of being empty but I am honestly so fucking used to it I don’t really feel anything ..

Its obviously just the way my life is meant to be so I should stop being surprised when it happens haha

I am unable to love myself, it was bet into me for years that I’m not able to be loved or I don’t deserve it and maybe I really don’t like, I feel so sorry for the people especially girls that come across me because no they don’t deserve what I put them through and I wish that they had passed by me and found a good man, that isn’t mentally ill, because it’s not fair on them and that’s perfectly true. They realise that in the end though, just a little too late for me.

The only thing I know for sure is that it doesn’t get any better, ever. It’s a lie. The life with borderline personality disorder is a life of torture.

I’m 24 today, and I’ve decided not to celebrate that fact because I don’t deserve to. The only significance this day has to me is that it marks the day I’m going to be a better man. I’m not superficial, I’m not materialistic I just want to be a good person.

If you’ve ever laughed at someone and made them feel small for being different to what YOU are like then you can Go fuck yourself

If you’ve ever made someone feel like it’s not okay to be who they really are …straight, gay, bisexual, asexual, trans, then please just realise that you are ruining someone’s one shot at life and happiness because of how small YOUR mind is…and simply Go fuck yourself for that.

If you’ve ever mouthed about my family, know that people that say the most know the least sooooooo Go fuck yourself

If you’ve ever made me feel like I am nothing. I am not worth the shit on the ground, I am not even deserving of life. Then I have some helpful advice for you, sit down, clear your head, and think about what has made you like this? Since when did you think it was okay to make someone feel like they don’t even deserve to be alive? Or want to be alive? What gives you the right to do that? Are you happy doing that? Do you feel powerful having that control? Do you think it’s funny? And if the answer is yes then YOU can Go fuck yourself.

Bullies are everywhere, in your childhood, in your adult life, in work, even in your family sometimes, in your own friendship circle, and just in society as a whole. They get kicks out of making other people feeling like shit because they’re pretty hollow inside and they need something to do. The point is, they’re always going to be horrible people unless they cop on and change, but it’s not your fault they have a problem with you. You just need to keep being a good person and don’t let them make you cold and bitter. For every bully there is a genuine person willing to help you feel better, so listen to them and not the abuse because really..they can all go fuck themselves.
This is personal to me but a message that anyone that take and adapt to their own life. Give those lowlifes the two fingers, and continue on keeping your head up and treat people how you want to be treated!!
Peace !

]]>https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2016/04/16/go-fuck-yourself/feed/2deangiffneyLights Outhttps://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/11/23/alone-ii/
https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/11/23/alone-ii/#respondMon, 23 Nov 2015 08:15:41 +0000http://deangiffney.wordpress.com/?p=297]]>Insomnia starts creeping back in
3am..4am..5
Waves of pressure mount on your shoulders
Drowning in disappointment
Your mind is a prison cell
A lifetime without parole
Old friends rear their ugly head
Weed and alcohol offer the escape
You feel yourself falling under
You feel yourself getting weaker
You feel them getting stronger
The battle each day gets harder and harder

Alone in the way you think
Alone in the way you do things
Alone in the way you feel

The world is cruel
That much is true
It’s been a good show
Now feeling this low you know
That all good things come to an end
No way to to heal, no way to mend,
It’s a permanent mental battle that you know you’re going to lose
From the rattle to the grave
Is there any way of being saved?
Your brains scarred
It will never be the same again..Your destiny is to feel this beautiful kind of pain

Being alone is dangerous.Being alone with your thoughts is worse.

The sun rises across the sky, looking beautiful looking hopeful .. But just like your soul..how long does it take to turn dark again? For the lights to go out?

Sunrise In Dublin on 23rd November 2015 at 8am.

]]>https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/11/23/alone-ii/feed/0deangiffneyIMG_7667.JPGThere She Goeshttps://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/10/20/there-she-goes/
https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/10/20/there-she-goes/#respondTue, 20 Oct 2015 20:14:35 +0000http://deangiffney.wordpress.com/?p=278]]>I love you. Your happiness means more to me than anything else in this world.. If you can find happiness without me..then I am glad. So long as you feel a smile on your lips and warmth in your soul I will find it in myself to be happy too.

]]>https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/10/20/there-she-goes/feed/0deangiffneyIMG_7478.PNGThings I Love/Hate about relationshipshttps://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/10/01/things-i-lovehate-about-relationships/
https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/10/01/things-i-lovehate-about-relationships/#commentsThu, 01 Oct 2015 21:40:32 +0000http://deangiffney.wordpress.com/?p=275]]>Okay so.. Basically I’m a relationship kinda guy..despite what some people may think. 80% of the time I prefer being a relationship than being with a load of randoms. I like things to mean something. I’m not even embarrassed to say that I like romance and I like to be romantic. I think lads should pay for stuff and pull out girls chairs and open their doors etc etc. Might be old fashioned but I enjoy it so fuck it.

Anyways, I haven’t been in a relationship for quite a while and I’m trying to figure out if it’s what I really want right now so I’ve made a list of things I Love about them and things I don’t love so much. This was originally me just trying to organise my thoughts but fuck it I’ll post it if anyone’s bored enough to read this ..

Things I Love

– Having someone there that will listen to you when you need to talk..help you with a problem or even just have a laugh. I like my girlfriend to be my best friend.
– Cuddles and Spooning.
– Very regular sex.. Nuff said
– Good morning texts.. And “other” texts that only a girlfriend would send.
– Showing her off. I’m proud of whatever is mine so Im happy showing my girl off in front of my mates. And smirking at the fellas who can’t have her because she’s mine.
– Knowing that someone loves you, cares about you, and wants to be with YOU makes it pretty hard to ever be sad.
– Having crazy deep stupid conversations that you only have with someone you’re mad comfortable with instead of bullshit small talk.
– Having someone that understands you and accepts you for who you are and still loves you is an amazing feeling.
– Date nights, holding hands, netflix and chill.. All that good shit
– Stupid inside jokes that crack yous up that no one else understands
– Not wasting time trying to pull when you’re out because you have a beautiful girl already.
– Getting drunk and high with your girl should be top of this list tbh.

Things I dislike
– I dislike how relationships either end in something very serious or they end all together. I think that’s a lot of pressure. I guess you just have to be prepared for that and make sure the girl is worth it, either way.
– Jealousy. I can be a very jealous guy.. I’m very protective and I can get angry quick enough if I think something’s going on which I need to work on because it’s either that or I don’t give a fuck at all so I need to find a middle ground.
Your girlfriend can get jealous too. Which CAN be cute sometimes but it can be an absolute nightmare aswell if she’s going psycho every time a girl looks at you or likes your pic.. Relax.. It’s not my fault I’m good looking.
– The fear that they will cheat on you. This is a constant fear of mine because I’ve been cheated on before and I’ve been fucked over loads of times so I just think people are really hard to trust. And sometimes it’s easier to just be single and not worry about that shit.
– Their family and friends have to like you. For me, this is a must because I just think it’s crazy awkward when you know her sister or friends think she shouldn’t be with you or her parents hate you etc I want an easy life and I could do without that.
– Having fights and seeing your single friends care free. I hate when I’m fighting with a girl and I see my mates and I just think fuck that it’s really not worth it.
– When you’re in a relationship all of a sudden everyone wants a piece of you. This leads to serious temptation but results in nothing but daydreams.
– When you’re single you have no one to answer to.. Which sometimes I actually like because I like being looked after but most of the time I rather do my own thing and not have someone nagging me about my life decisions.

That’s all I can think of at the moment.. I do think relationships are better than being single overall but they both definitely have their flaws.
Making this list has just made me more confused….

Oh well .. Laters guys !!

]]>https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/10/01/things-i-lovehate-about-relationships/feed/2deangiffneyLeech on Societyhttps://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/09/19/leech-on-society/
https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/09/19/leech-on-society/#respondSat, 19 Sep 2015 01:10:16 +0000http://deangiffney.wordpress.com/?p=273]]>“Dean, young lads like you don’t amount to anything, they sponge off the government and are nothing but leeches on society”.

Nice, encouraging words eh?

This was said to me after class when I was 16 years old by my English teacher.

She was an absolute bitch of a woman and about 100 years past retirement age, she smelt like cats and she had a bark on her that could make my balls jump back inside my body. She was a decrepit hag who thought she knew it all and she absolutely hated me. I will say one thing though… She had a point.

I was terrible at English, I could talk for Ireland but when it came to writing it went really downhill. I’m dyslexic and I was pretty bad at stringing sentences together. I hated poems and the old English stuff so I didn’t try. I didn’t do my homework because she always said it wasn’t good enough anyway so I just dossed and wasted my time. She kicked me out or gave me detention most days and then she completely gave up on me. I don’t blame her. At the time when she said those words to me they completely flew over my head, being honest, I didn’t give a fuck. I was 16, arrogant and immature. All I cared about was girls, football, and the lads. School was never ever a priority to me.

But that was nearly 7 years ago.. And out of all the things a teacher has said to me that has definitely struck something in me. At this point in time, I could see where she was coming from, she was taking a stereotypical approach because I came from a broken family and because I did badly in school she assumed I would end up on the dole for life/ a junkie / alcoholic etc with no positive future. That could have easily been the way. There’s been plenty of times where I have acted like a waster but that’s not who I am and there’s much more to my life and my future than that.

I’ve worked full time since I was 18 years old. When I’m at work I work hard. It motivates me because I’m earning money and I’m creating something new. I worked in carpentry and now this year I’ve started working in construction. This year is pushing me to my limits and I’m working harder than I ever have. I work 50-60 hours a week most weeks, which is tough but it’s exactly what I need. Hard work pays off.. And doing something that I love has certainly helped me see that. I want to travel the world and have nice things and do my ADULT life right since I made more than enough mistakes as a teenager. I want to have enough money so that money is never a worry. I have goals for my future and I am working extremely hard in every aspect of my life to achieve them. Not bad for a “leech on society” aye?

Encouragement and support from certain people has helped me enormously along the way. If people tell you something enough times you start to believe it. Don’t put down people’s dreams or abilities, encourage them to go after them.. Encourage them that they have the power to do whatever they want.
If someone told me I was good enough in school I would have tried harder, but I was a ‘bad student’ so therefore that could never change. Don’t encourage the bad cycle.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not all work and blood sweat and tears, I do dibble dabble in the good stuff at the weekend and wot not.. So maybe you don’t completely change hahah
But that’s okay because everyone is unique and everyone has a worthwhile life that they can do anything they want with. I just think it’s sad that people on the dole will never know the satisfaction you get from working hard to earn YOUR own money, it’s priceless.

I want to make something of myself and I never ever want to prove my English teacher right.

Never let someone tell you what you can and can’t do with your life.. And don’t let anyone tell you that you will never amount to anything or you’re not good enough because fuck them. They obviously don’t know you so show them how much they don’t know. Everyone has the ability to do great things.

So fuck my English teacher.. I’d love her to read this, because I didn’t grow up to be the mongo that she thought. I might still be a dope and not very good at analysing fucking Shakespeare but who gives a flying fuck about that when I have a good job, I’m making good money, and my English has seriously improved because of THIS blog? I love writing now, and reading ain’t bad either.
Hahah she’d die if she knew that.

So basically, don’t let one persons opinion define who you are. Your past, your parents past etc does NOT define YOUR future. The person you are at 16 is a million times different to the person you are at 22. People change and it can always be for the better. Remember that.

Leech on society my holeeeeeeeee

Laters xx

]]>https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/09/19/leech-on-society/feed/0deangiffneyIMG_6935.PNGJustice for Conradhttps://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/09/01/justice-for-conrad/
https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/09/01/justice-for-conrad/#commentsTue, 01 Sep 2015 17:04:24 +0000http://deangiffney.wordpress.com/?p=259]]>I was on my way to work this morning when I came across this article. It caught my eye so I read through it and I can’t even describe the sick feeling I got in my stomach. It instantly made me angry and so so sad.

The article was basically about this young one Michelle Carter in America who helped her boyfriend commit suicide. She’s been charged with involuntary manslaughter and I really really hope the horrible bitch gets everything she deserves.

There was loads and loads of screenshots of their conversation the night he died and it was so evident that there was doubt in his mind. He was battling depression and was probably going through a very bad time, but he was scared and it could have been prevented. But instead of trying to make him come down and see sense his girlfriend encouraged him to do it and repeatedly made sure he was 100% going to do it. Sick Freak.

She could have told his parents, his friends, the police, anybody at all if she felt she couldn’t handle it on her own but she fucking didn’t and she let the whole thing happen and I really don’t think he would have gone through with it without her constant push. There was one point where he got too afraid and tried to stop (got out of the car he was filling with carbon monoxide) and she ACTUALLY told him to get back in.

WHO in the right mind encourages someone to kill themselves? They are sick minded and deserve to be treated as a murderer.

Not only that but the way she reacted after his death is what makes me really angry. She put posts on Facebook about him fishing for a few pathetic likes and went out with her friends and went to her prom happy as Larry.

Reading this article has left a bad taste in my mouth and I really really feel terrible for that fella and all of his friends and family.

There have been times in my life where I have had suicidal episodes but thanks to the support and understanding and HELP from certain people in my life I got through them and I’m still here today and I’m happy. But IF during those points when I was at my lowest, not thinking properly, sick of everything, depressed beyond words and someone I cared about was telling me to “do it” repeatedly and saying it was the “only thing to do” I would have done it 100%.

The whole thing is completely her fault and being his girlfriend, someone that he LOVED, meant that she had the power to stop him and change his mind. She is a stupid stupid heartless cold bitch. She has absolutely no excuse for what she did, and anybody feeling suicidal CAN be helped.

One day she WILL realise what she did and she can deal with that herself, alone for all I care.

Disgrace of a human being.

If you haven’t read the story yet you can do so here and feel as bad as I did this morning —>

]]>https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/09/01/justice-for-conrad/feed/4deangiffneyHow to get over someonehttps://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/08/30/how-to-get-over-someone/
https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/08/30/how-to-get-over-someone/#commentsSun, 30 Aug 2015 12:19:17 +0000http://deangiffney.wordpress.com/?p=255]]>1. Do You
If you loved someone and it broke down and you’re trying to move on, the first thing to do is focus on yourself. Think about the way you want to be, your goals for the future, HOW you’re going to make yourself happy.

When I was trying to get over someone this year it felt like it would never happen. Of course you can take your few days to have a cry and feel sorry for yourself or if you’re me get off your head hammered. But after that you need to snap out of it and realise it’s over and the sooner you realise that the sooner you will be happy. I decided I was going to put all of my effort into work. I was going to earn loads of money, save up, move out and travel, which would hopefully make me happy. I’ve been doing that all Summer and I feel really proud for how hard I’ve worked and how far I’ve come.

2. Chill with the lads/girls
Your mates love you and they don’t want to see you sad over some bastard/bitch. You should have a rule that yous never mention their name in convo. Chill out, go cruising, go on a night out, do anything that takes your mind off what you’re feeling because you’ll soon realise 2 hours has passed and you haven’t thought about them once. Do not isolate yourself and listen to achy breaky love songs… trust me..it won’t help.

3. Delete and Block it all Those photos you have on your phone are no good to you now, they will only make you sad/pissed off. Delete them all so you don’t have to see them ever again. Block your ex on everything, because we all know you be checking their whatsapp last seen like there’s no tomorrow wondering who they’re texting, why are they online, and worst of all sending drunk texts that don’t fucking delete from the convo. Block all that shit, you don’t need the stress of that. Out of sight, out of mind.

4. “I miss you”
This WILL happen. No matter what they did.. It will suddenly hit you that you miss them. You will want to text or ring them and hear their voice or have a chat, maybe try work things out?
This is because at one point you did love them but you miss what you HAD. Most of the time you do not miss THEM. You hear a song, or see something that reminds you of them and you’re hit with a PANG. When this happens think about the bad things, why it broke down in the first place.. How annoying they can be.. How they never shut the fuck up.. How mean they can be.. How THEY haven’t text/called you once..Whatever it is about them that you don’t like, fucking focus on that shit and make sure it’s all you think about when they unfortunately come into your head. Remember that they’re not missing you.

5. Get with someone else
This is selfish but I believe it has to happen. You need the attention and you need to know you still got it. Go out and talk to someone you like, and be with them. It can just be a one night thing, no strings attached but being with someone else will make you feel better in the long run. You realise you can have other people and that down the line there will be somebody else for you. And if nothing else, it’s sex so end of argument haha.

6. Give it enough time
Getting over someone you really loved is never going to be an easy or quick process. I seriously think it’s one of the hardest things to go through in life but if you give yourself enough time and enough space away from that person you should feel your heart slowly mending itself and after awhile you feel a lot stronger than you did when it first happened.

7. Realise what you’re worth
Now I’m pretty sure you are all wonderful people but unfortunately not many people give themselves the credit. You need to value yourself and recognise that you need to be treated WELL. Nobody deserves to be treated badly and you should never let anyone do that to you. Gain back your confidence and learn to love yourself. Which is a VERY hard thing to do for some people, including myself, but once you do…you find happiness. Write down one thing you like about yourself everyday until you have a long list. Once you feel good about yourself you will feel positive about YOUR future and not dwell in the past.

8. Keep Busy
After these 7 things a few weeks maybe months should have passed, and through doing these things you should encounter new people and new things. So all of a sudden you realise that you haven’t thought about them all day. You don’t even care who they’re texting or what they’re up to because you’re busy with YOUR life. You’re on your way to achieving your goals whatever they may be and you might even like someone else who’s making you forget about them completely. For the first time in a long time you know you’re going to be okay.. which means you’re well on the road to happiness.

It took me a long time to get through these steps especially since I have BPD and when I love someone I reaaaally love them and when it ends it can feel like my whole world is falling apart and there’s no point in even being here. It can get very bad. But I’ve changed my mindset and literally forced myself out of bed so many times so that I can go out and better myself. A few months down the line I’m finally happy, I’m seeing someone I really really like and care about, (She loves me ), and I’m working hard towards my goals.

You deserve to be happy and if you’re going through a break up I feel for you. But don’t stay at the pity party too long because the rest of your life is waiting and life is extremely short. Try spend it happy.

Thanks for reading I hope it helps someone.

Peace x

]]>https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/08/30/how-to-get-over-someone/feed/3deangiffneyFuckGirlshttps://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/08/24/fuckgirls/
https://deangiffney.wordpress.com/2015/08/24/fuckgirls/#respondMon, 24 Aug 2015 17:54:48 +0000http://deangiffney.wordpress.com/?p=249]]>So just about everybody has heard the term ‘fuckboy’ at this stage. It’s going around a lot nowadays but incase you don’t know what it means it’s basically what was formerly known as a prick/player/dick/bastard to women.. Whichever you like yourself hahah.. Generally it’s the type of guy that leads girls on, messes with their head, looking for one thing blah blah I’m sure you know one or two off the top of your head

To be completely honest with ya I’ve been called a fuck boy a few times haha but “of course” I don’t think I am.. Maybe I was.. But I really don’t think so anymore.. At least I try my very hardest not to be.

Anyways this blog is not about fuckboys because tbh us men get a pretty bad rep the whole time and it’s hard for us to fight back cause in fairness to girls they do have a lot of evidence to go on and BY FUCK are they good at getting that evidence hahaha …

BUT there are fuckgirls too. Or fuckgirlos if you’re from Dublin and you’re dealing with these moths that think they are the bees knees like, hunreal. When really they’re a walking STI…By Deans definition they are a head melter/ teaser/ mindfucker / or basically just a heartless bitch..in case you didn’t understand what I was getting at hahah but unfortunately for us blokes they are usually unreal looking and what’s in our jocks controls a lot of what we do and think… and anyways you can’t really be playing people with a face like Freddie Krueger now can ya? Hard to get?! You’re hard to want! Hahahaha

These girls will chew you up and spit you out on the daily. They think you’re going to hurt them so they hurt you first. Yeno why? Because they’ve been hurt in the past..

Who the fuck hasn’t?

They tease you, flirt their hole off with you, leave you thinking you’re DA FOOKIN MAN, LAD of all lads, make you feel like you’re in there like bleedin’ swimwear but then nothing. They don’t want anything.. “They’re not that kinda girl”. Yeah fucking right… They hook you with a good sense of humour and some interesting shit to say and if you’re anything like me those two things combined with a nice face (ass) is enough to make you wanna marry this girl. BUT she’s the same with everyone, she’s texting a few fellas and they’re all thinking the same.. I’m in there, she wants a piece of this.. look at the amount of winky faces she’s giving me ehhh!! Hahaha yeno the craic…

Meanwhile she’s screenshotting everything your sappy ass sends her and sending it to her girlos in a groupchat being like “awww bless” and the rest of them are ripping the complete piss out of you. You’re a goner dude. Game over.

To me getting played by one of these bitches is worse than being stuck in the friend zone for all of eternity.

ITS NOT CHRISTMAS BUT I CAN MAKE YA MY X MISS !!

I’m not saying girls can’t flirt and have fun without it having to lead somewhere but these bitches go one further, they make you trust them, open up to them, fall in love with them but in reality you actually don’t mean anything to them man. You’re just another fella that’s probably going to hurt her down the line anyway so she’ll cut it off when it gets “too much” and he’s proper fallen for her which leaves him heartbroken, hating on bitches and vowing to be an asshole for the rest of his life ha..sad face…

It’s a pretty bad circle to be stuck in.. You’ve got hurt before and you don’t want that to happen again so YOU do the hurting, fuck them.. Boys don’t have feelings! Haha they don’t care! They only want sex anyway…Hmmmm

I’ve learnt to try avoid these girlos but they are quite good at the game, and sometimes mans be weak. But if a bitch starts playing me I’ll play her twice as hard because after all .. Lads are pros at it anyway

!!

All jokes aside, it’s not a good way to live life and it’s just a fucking shitty way to treat people. Nothing I value more than someone who is outstraight about how they feel.. No need for the mind games ..She loves me..She loves me not kinda shit …

Nobody got time for that

But if your girls a hairdresser fucking keep her cause free cuts man! She can do what she likes better than paying 15 quid every 2 weeks hahaha