For the love…my brain

Now, in my defense, there have been a few (maybe even several) weeks when DB and I have bonded together on the couch, completing said painful homework on a Saturday or Sunday afternoon. Those weeks are Good Weeks. I learn the material and I do not (totally) suck at it. (Notice I did not say, “I do not cry”. Oh, for sure, tears are involved. But I still end up learning the stupid material.)

This week, and particularly today – not one of those weeks. (And did you notice I eliminated the is/are there? I couldn’t figure out which one to use, and my battery juice is running low.)

I have been sitting at this table in the library for the LAST THREE HOURS staring at the physics book. I check the Internet. I read blogs. I look at Facebook, the timesink of all time. I look back at Physics Book From Hell. I do a problem (ish). Check my email. (Hint: clicking “refresh” does not make people write to you. Seriously!) Blah blah blah…

I have, like, a few more problems to do, and then I’m going to call DB with my woes (the ones I didn’t understand – which is a painful ton of questions. Have I mentioned that physics isn’t exactly a strength? To say that is a gross understatement. I SUCK AT PHYSICS), and then I’ll probably walk over to turn it in with such speed and grace that it is a wonder I had EVER dragged my feet completing such an assignment. People watching me walk will say, “wow! That girl! She has so much energy!”

But right now?

No energy.

I just want to sleep!

In fact, I am no longer SITTING at the desk. I am STANDING at the desk. Trying to convince myself that, really, self, it is in your best interest to finish your homework. Really! Keep studying! Just 4…3….2…more problems! You can do it!

My brain: very, very, very frustrating.

In other news (before the computer dies), I went to my favorite doctor today – my opthalmologist/internal medicine guy. He is awesome. Verdict on my eyes? For the first time since, like, 2nd grade, my eyes are AWESOME. No change in acuity. No change in color perception (that’s a big one). No change in pressure. And: the biggest one: no change in my optic nerves.

Score!

So why, again, does my exuberance over my eyes not translate to enthusiasm for physics?!?

(If you actually read this post, congratulations. Seriously. It wasn’t very interesting, I know.)