You are now the size of a snow pea. Your heart is beating — almost twice as fast as mine — and you are starting to sprout your arms and legs, which might wiggle by the week’s end.
This is a busy week for you. You are starting to grow your eyes, ears, nose, cheeks and chin. Your intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will eventually grow to your lungs has appeared. Your pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of your brain, muscles, and bones.

I continue to be very tired, but it has been fun telling people this week that you will be here in June. I did have a blood test to confirm that you really are there, but we won’t get to see you until November 1st. I had your Dad take a picture of me so that we will be able to see you grow from the outside. It will be a while before I will start to show, but it will be nice to be able to watch the changes.

I plan to make scrapbook pages with the pictures each week, so that I will have a pregnancy scrapbook to remember these precious days.

My blood was drawn at what I estimate to be 5 weeks 4 days and the number was 964. My midwife didn’t order a repeat beta so I guess I just wait till Nov 1st and see what happens from there. It could just be that my dates are off. The number is definitely high enough for me to be pregnant! So that is good news, but it still doesn’t ease my fears much.

I can’t believe I am still waiting! My midwife’s office has not called back with my beta # yet. I love my midwife to pieces but it is very obvious her office is not used to dealing with infertiles. They didn’t understand why I wanted the beta to begin with, and when I went for the blood draw they were going to do a full OB panel. I asked them to only do the HCG for now.

They also failed to originally tell me the times that the Lab tech is at the office to draw blood. I went Monday after work, but she had already left. I wasn’t able to make it down during the hours on Tuesday (only 9-11 or 1-1:30) so I finally made it in on Wednesday. It is now Friday morning with no results. I hate the waiting game, especially when I see everyone else getting their 3rd draw numbers back.

I still feel pregnant. I have the queasiness, the sore bb’s and constant bathroom trips. I have also had no bleeding so there is no logical reason to think the pregnancy is not progressing normally. I am just not a logical pregnant woman right now. I want peace of mind.

After a few months off I decided to add my blog to the ICLW list again this month.

A brief history of us. I have 2 kids from a previous marriage that are 6 & 8 yrs old. We met February 2007 on a blind date. We dated for 2 years and he proposed on our 2nd year anniversary. We got married in my parent’s yard 7 months later. Right before we got married my PCOS raised it’s ugly head. I only had about 5 normal cycles in a 12 month period. In March 2010 I went to see my midwife who put me on met, provera and femara. I hated being on the drugs and how they made me feel, but we did 1 unmonitored cycled with Femara in June. I didn’t get pregnant and AF didn’t show. I decided to stop the met and not take provera to induce AF. We took the summer off to focus on other things.

This month I got a surprise BFP! We are anxious and nervous, but hoping to bring home a little bundle of joy in June 2011.

It is October 16th and by my estimation you are five weeks (by gestation). I just found out today that you are on the way. I had waited testing all week. Imagine my surprise when those 2 line appeared!

You are now the size of an apple seed or sesame seed, but you look more like a tadpole. When I told your daddy this he said he was going to name you Kermit. I don’t think it will be the final choice once we pick your name, but it is fun to refer to you as “kermmie” right now.

Everything I have been reading says that weeks 5-8 are the most important developmental times during the first trimester. This week you are forming major organs like your heart, kidneys, liver, and stomach as well as your nervous system, circulatory system, and digestive systems. After I took the test yesterday I started eating my prenatal vitamins.

I haven’t noticed any obvious differences yet, but I definitely feel “different” I am making more trips to the bathroom that is for sure. All week I have been so tired. Twice I have fallen asleep before your Daddy has got home from work. I had to drive to Alpine on Friday before I tested and it was a very difficult drive. I felt really carsick and very tired.

Well I am bringing this blog back from the dead. Are there any readers left? I sure hope so because I have some big news! When I last left this blog I was waiting for AF to arrive after a failed cycle using Femara. I stopped all meds … the met, the provera, the fermara … ALL of it. AF returned in August and then came right on time for a 29 day cycle in September on our Anniversary weekend. This weekend I was on CD36 and had some symptoms during the week (tired, carsick during a drive) so Saturday afternoon I went and bought a pack of FRER. I came home and POAS to find:

The two lines appeared at the same time! There was no denying that I was seeing two lines! I called DH immediately at work. He asked if I was kidding. I don’t think this is something I would really joke about. Do you?

After he got off work we went to dinner and then I came home and POAS again just to show him. It also was positive. Since it was a 3 pack I used the last test on Sunday morning. I labeled them because they all looked so similar:

I plan to take a digital just so I can see that “pregnant” without the “not” in front of it. I already called my midwifes office and I have an appointment for Nov 1st. I asked for blood work before then so I am waiting to hear back from the assistant. I will feel so much better once I know a number!

Sorry this blog has become inactive since I signed up for ICLW this month. With the last failed cycle we have taken an extended break. I am still waiting on AF to arrive naturally without having to take provera. If you would like to stop by my non TTC/IF blog you can find me here:

It is a party planning blog so there are baby showers and kids birthday parties. If you stop by please don’t mention TTC/IF