Anniversary

25/10/2017

Hi my darling boy, today marks 2 months since that fateful day… It hits me like a ton of bricks sometimes. I had coffee with Anne today – and we spoke of you and that wave of overwhelming grief washed over me again. How I miss you, love you, like you wouldn’t believe and curse the day I said you couldn’t come to stay with me. Tonight I am going to a bereaved parents group. Do you remember I said to you that I never wanted to enter that club? Why – just why? How many pills did you take?? I pray you didn’t suffer. I would give my life to give you yours back… my baby boy. Always my baby, forever loved and missed. I don’t know how this void will ever be filled – it won’t – there is a gaping hole where my heart used to be. I love you my baby