welcome im new there too. its great to hear from people with the same problems as me. i too have been down the road of endless doubt( not only in myself but others too) not thinking im good enough, self pity . i too wish us all the luck and happiness with our journey. i see those fit and trim people on tv in magazines movies and get jealous. im 5'6 243 lbs(was 245lbs lost 2 lbs last week and plan on losing 2 lbs /week). i get very jealous and envious of those women. i get so bad that sometimes i cry and get really down on myself my goal weight is 135-145 lbs( my mini goal is to be walking right ( not like frankenstein as my husband would say) i have a herniated disc and its affecting the way i walk i want this to be done my apr(husbands graduation) i will continue to keep you in my prayers and thoughts and hope you will do the same. good luck and God bless you