"The heaviest of burdens crushes us, we sink beneath it, it pins us to the ground. But in love poetry of every age, the woman longs to be weighed down by the man's body.The heaviest of burdens is therefore simultaneously an image of life's most intense fulfillment. The heavier the burden, the closer our lives come to the earth, the more real and truthful they become. Conversely, the absolute absence of burden causes man to be lighter than air, to soar into heights, take leave of the earth and his earthly being, and become only half real, his movements as free as they are insignificant. What then shall we choose? Weight or lightness?"

Yesterday morning, I woke about 6:30 from a dirty dream with an erection. As I lay in bed considering if I should try to go back to sleep or instead get up a little early to start my Saturday morning routine, my thoughts began to drift to erotic subjects. I quickly latched on to my wife and I inviting over for dinner a guy at my work who gave us a bunch of movies on a USB hard drive which my wife bought for the purpose. He is a young guy who is an ex-Marine and the thought of my wife coming on to him at dinner in front of me and him hesitantly accepting her advances was a delight f...

The orgasm clock on my blog indicates I am approaching the 1 year mark. This will be a first for me. Strangely, I have grown use to living in sexual frustration and the effects it has. The credit for me learning this goes to my wife for giving me the oppertunity to discover that I can be kept locked and live a happy life too, all while in service to her. This past year, I have learned several things about being kept chaste. There is the euphoria that sometimes last days from the male biology of courtship behavior. Those are great. On the flip side, there was also the absence of ...

I want to get back to the use of my blog as a journal for my thoughts. I seem to have drifted away from that and want to again get back to this intent. This past week I was sapped of energy, finding it difficult to get enough rest. I know this was partly due to a bug, but also partly due to depression. As Mr. I'm Hers wrote about in this post (CLICK HERE) and Mistress Kathy wrote about in this post (CLICK HERE), the reality of a 24/7 service submissive relationship with a domme as the sole person in authority is not 100% perfect. The reality is life is a complicated endeavor.

My last post was a bit of raw honesty more so then I had done in the past. Why I felt I would enjoy giving a guy a blow-job, swallowing his cum after he made love to my wife, and that not an indication of me being gay was a complex thing to put into words. However, for me that is what my blog is for. I find putting into words my thoughts in an unfiltered and honest approach to be helpful in sorting them through. I am thankful for my wife permitting me to do so. A commenter to my last post asked, “*Does your wife allow you to have any sexual pleasure? Besides an orgasm of course...

It turns out my penis seems to be "*less*" sensitive then before my 16 months of prolonged enforced chastity. I seem to have stamina during intercourse I did not have before. It is so wonderful to have a beautiful woman under me while I make love to her. My wife's neck, breasts, jet black hair, and skin tone are all so erotic together to be able to gaze on while I have my penis inside her. Her erotic beauty is just so wonderful to be able to enjoy. I have been told I am to be locked again soon. My wife is leaving out of town and wants me locked while she is away.

It has recently become increasingly clear to me that we are living in a
world where men are best served living under the authority of a woman.
It is my deeply held belief that this is the natural order ordained by our
creator and conveyed to us in the creation myth of Abrahamic religions.
It is said,
"*It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make him a helper*" (*gen
2:18*)
The Hebrew word for "*helper*" is azar.
It is the same Hebrew word used to describe godde's role over the nation of
Israel as their "*helper*".
It conveys a position of spiritual superiority and auth...

I was unlocked by my wife after about three days of her being back home.
She had me make love to her a few times and locked me back up before
leaving on another vacation.
This time, my wife took both of our children and went to Florida. She is
spending time with her good friend from college. I am left with $50 for
food and a full tank of gas. She is scheduled to be gone for about three
weeks.
I am locked in a chastity device too. My wife seems to enjoy the
flexibility of doing so during her absence. Also, she has let me know she
is unsure if she will be unlocking me upon her re..

My wife started working at school again. She sent me a quick video of her
putting the keys to my chastity device away in a drawer at work.
She just teased me that although she has to go back to work, at least the
good news is she will be keeping me locked and I will be just waiting to do
the next thing she asks of me when she comes home and the focus of me will
be on getting her off since that will be the only thing I get to do
sexually.
She likes the idea of me just forgetting about being able to be unlocked
anytime soon and instead find ways to enjoy getting her off and doing...

Starting on Thursday of last week, I went on a three day full open, balls to the wall, 18+ hrs days. When my wife returned to work last Monday, I was set to provide a video nanny link to home to monitor the children in her absence. I do so using a set of headphones at my desk at work and some technology to leave open a video conference link to the living room at home. I can provide some parental oversight that way. The downside is the distractions. I work in a technical group and my work requires a great deal of uninterrupted concentration. Five days of distractions lowered my w...

I am two and a half months chaste, I routinely get used by my wife to get her off, I do all the chores, and I am permitted some sparing amount of time to play with my nipples each night if I had behaved well in the eyes of my wife. This has become my life as of late. I have found being used by her to get off to be the thing I look forward to most. A close second is her nightly decision on giving me an erotic charge from my nipples being played with. She has also taken to referring to me as a not a real man. Often she tells me that she is the woman in the house. It is therefor...

Each night, I am forced to verbally ask my wife if she grants me permission to play with my nipples. I am forced to do this because if I do not, I do not get the one opportunity to feel some erotic pleasure. I find I need to summon courage each time. It is embarrassing to ask for permission to play with my nipples. For one, it is seen as a very girly thing to be doing and this is a difficult thing for me to verbalized to my wife as it is a form of emasculation. Further, having to come to my wife for her to grant permission is an additional embarrassment, as it demonstrates just...

Last night, my wife played with my nipples and then prompted me to cuddle with her. As I lay in her embrace, it occurred to me that it must be a real comfort and benefit of keeping me locked that she can have me cuddle with her and know I have no way of ruining the moment by trying to take it further when all she would like at that moment is to cuddle. Instead, she knows I am going to remain as a companion who she can enjoy such moments with uninterrupted. She mentioned last night how nice it is for her to have the keys kept at her place of work. She brought them home last wee...

I received a comment from Mistress Janet on my last post concerning a method to humiliate a man who is being kept locked in chastity by his wife or girlfriend. She suggested sending him to a strip club with some limited number of one dollar bills. This would embarrass him and also serve to accelerate the fostering of his docile attitude. This got me thinking on a side topic that I wanted to put into a post. Some women enjoy the entertainment of inflicting pain on a man who is being submissive to them and a select few actually feel a form of pleasure doing so. These sadistic dom...

The October 10th airing of Voices of the Sacred Feminine had Janet Bennion, Professor of Anthropology at Lyndon State University (*PhD in Anthropology* ). Dr. Bennion spoke on the topic of Feminist Polygamy, which she has researched extensively. She is also a prominent spokesperson for including poly relationships into marriage rights laws. This includes polygamy, polyamory, and polyandry. She indicates that in a modern society, monogamy often works out poorly for the women. According to her research, only 4% of the worlds cultures condone polyandry.