Death of a Child

The other day, I was out in the backyard with Bella when I noticed a big nest way up high near the top of one of the pine trees. I thought, ‘That’s too big to be a squirrel’s nest unless the squirrel has a major Type A personality or is an overachiever.’ Then, moments later,…

I finally returned from my trip late last night. I’m glad to be home because, although it was a fantastic trip, it’s the longest I’ve been away from home. I missed my kids, my grandkids and Bella so much. First, we went to Norway to visit Rune’s relatives. Then, after five days, we went to…

I’ve been watching the DNC, and the chaos is deafening. Although I’m not a fan of Trump, Clinton or Sanders, I’m proud that Americans stood in protest when their voices were quietened by a rigged system. HRC was destined to win anyway, even if superdelegates were a nonentity, but people are sick of politicians on…

First a few announcements. You will notice soon that the archives have changed. Instead of listing them by month and year, they’ll be listed by title. That will make it easier to cherry pick the posts you want to read. Also, I finally figured out how to make the Lisa Williams channeling event into an audio only YouTube…

Rune and I will be flying to Denver tomorrow morning to attend the Channeling Erik Weekend of F-ing Enlightenment. I’m so excited! Every time I go I think it can’t be better than the one before, and I am proven wrong. I’ll let you guys know all about it when I get back. I probably…

A lot of us have lost children, and, as I can attest, the pain is especially excruciating. To make matters worse, the healing seems to take longer than when we lose other family members or friends–not always, but generally. As for my journey through grief, this blog and especially the upcoming book has done a lot…

Yesterday was a brutal day. A bittersweet one. We finally cleared out all of the yellow crime scene bags (and there were a lot of them) from Erik’s closet. In a way it was a relief, but I still had to cry because now I’ve let go of the last physical part of him. I…

Blog member, Daniel Lucas, created the masterpiece below. How, I don’t know, but it gives me such a sense that we’re all family, connected. If you’d like a picture of yourself in the image, please send a good quality, bright photo to him at daniel-lucas95@hotmail.com. Thanks, Daniel! This is the continuation of Erik’s description of his…

This part of the channeling transcript was not at all easy for me. The graphic memories, the heartache, the sense of loss, it all flooded back to me like a tsunami of dread and despair. For that reason, I’ve transcribed just a portion of Erik’s description of his death. The heart can only endure so…

Jamie’s assistant, Amy, wanted you guys to know that there are a few spots open for the following channeling calls. All others are booked up. Griever’s Call June 2oth Erik’s Conference Call July 11th Griever’s Call July 18th This post was published just 4 months after Erik died. It makes me sad to read it…

Today is a very sad day. A friend that my daughter, Annika, has known since preschool died Friday in a very tragic way. She and our family were very close. She even traveled with us to San Antonio and Florida. I went to the viewing yesterday, and, as is always the case, it was clear…

Happy Monday everyone! I’m still transcribing my first session with Robert as well as the Ask Erik answers to the winner of that submission. It takes a long time with these fingers which, for some reason, seemed to have turned into nubs with a mind of their own or fat little Vienna Sausages that can’t…

Me: At what point did you ask for help? When did you finally say, “I need help”? Erik: When I wanted to get back to my family and I didn’t know how. Me: Aw. Did you miss us? Erik: Yeah! Me: So, who appeared. Jamie: This was a female guide. Not his aunt. This was…

My vision is slowly improving. Please forgive me if I haven’t attended to your comments and emails as I usually do. It’s still very difficult to read them. Next week, I’m having the surgery on my other eye, so both will be going through that blurry period at the same time, and my current glasses,…

You may find typos or spelling errors in this entry, but again, I didn’t have the stomach to proofread it. Sorry. Me: Who was the first one to meet you? Erik: Well, hell, I can’t even remember. Me: Was Denise (my sister) there? Aunt Denise. I think she was also there to greet you, right?…

Tomorrow, I have surgery on one of my eyes early in the morning. I think I’ll be able to post something, but if I don’t, you’ll know why. I’m having the other eye operated on the following Tuesday. Wish me luck! Maybe I’ll finally not drive at night with sweaty palms! Meanwhile, here, Erik continues…

A few weeks ago, a blog member wanted to say that, although she enjoyed my posts immensely, she had not forgotten the tremendous tragedy that had brought me to this point. I so appreciated that comment, because long gone are those earlier entries about grief and loss as we have moved into the uncharted territory…

It’s been a long time since we’ve visited those posts where Erik talked about his own death and death in general. In this three part post, you’ll notice how different Erik is now compared to how he was then. Part One: Grasping for contact of any sort with a lost loved one is natural. Years…

Note: In this session, Erik needed the help of my guardian angel, Veronica. Me: Alright, I’d like to get a little clarification on the concept of evil and demonic spirits. I’ve had some tell me there is no evil, that all is Love and all is good. So, are we dealing with semantics here? Are…

Here I sit in a Kroger parking lot typing this on my phone hoping my CE peeps can help me. Erik put a bullet through his brain at 1:20 P.M. almost three years ago on October 6th. Around that time, I can’t be in my house, because I imagine him sitting in that chair with…

Today, I’d like to devote this entry to my beautiful son. I’m so proud of you, Erik. In three years, you’ve accomplished so much to make the world a better place. You’ve brought wisdom and love to us all. I’m so grateful to call you my son. I wish you were here for me to…

Before we begin this typical Erik topic, I’d like to make a few announcements: 1) I’m very excited about the response to the San Diego event. If anyone has any questions, please ask them in the comment thread or email me at emedhus@gmail.com. I know one reader asked about bringing children along. I’m not sure…

My mother was moved to rehabilitation for her hip yesterday. It looks like a great place. Wish us luck! Please forgive the lack of editing here. If there are glaring boo-boos, I would appreciate the heads up, though! Erik: You know what, Mom? I kind of find it funny now that when people—just the spiritual…