Wednesday, March 28, 2012

-gagging-heaving-barfing-sitting on the couch unable to move-not showering -battling with food, which i HATE but must have.-sleeping-wallowing around feeling ugly, disgusting, fat, sick, miserable.....and happy!

let me tell you how awesome it is to change poopy toddler diapers when you feel like barfing all day long. SO FUN.

so yes. first trimester, oh how i hate thee....but am thankful for thee nonetheless.

NT scan is on Wednesday. nervous of course. i will be 11 weeks, so hope all looks well and the way it is supposed to.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

ok. so ultrasound was today. and there is an adorable tiny baby blob in there! with a heartbeat!!

HOLY SHIT!!!

i have a pic....will add later. :)

Due Date: October 25heart rate was 136bpmbaby blob looked just like Dan.it's a boy! harharhar

i am in shock. totally excited. but in shock.

also...i feel like barfing all day long....but so far only have lost it twice. the key is to eat constantly. this is impossible when all you want to do is barf. but you must do it!

saving my life right now:

-cold cheese sandwiches. as in bread, mayo, cheddar, lettuce-ginger ale, 7up, club soda with lime-"Tea" made by grating fresh ginger, squezze of lemon and honey, add hot water. sip until urge to hurl passes. -Coconut water...right now it is Zico dark chocolate and it is OMG so GOOD.

i am girl who likes cake. i also like dresses and vases full of flowers. i have had a hole in my heart. this is was about filling that hole.

now my heart is full....and getting fuller.

journey so far...

aug 08 - start "not stopping" it from happening. also known as "sorta trying"oct 08 - first month of using opk's, FF chartingnov 08 - bfp at 11dpodec 08 - u/s at 6 weeks shows no heartbeatdec 23 - D&Cjan-march 09 - back to "sorta trying" but not really.may 09 - first month back using opk'sjuly 14- OMFG digital test says "pregnant"!!july 19, 2009-byebye to another hopeful pregnancy. another miscarriage....going to try again right away....Sept 11- bfp at 11dpo. hoping it sticks.Oct 6- we saw the heartbeat!Dec 22- IT'S A BOY!!!!!!!May 12, 2010- Milo is born on a beautiful sunny day in Seattle after a short yet mind blowingly painful all natural, drug free delivery.

August 2011- first PPAF (still BFing)

Oct 13- positive pregnancy test

Oct 24- Miscarriage #3

Nov 2011- on the bench

Feb 13 2012- bfp

Feb 15- bleeding, another MC, right?

Feb twentysomething- WRONG, blood test positive!

March 7- we have a heartbeat!!!!

May 24- GIRL!

blogs i read about women who are trying, have tried, are pregnant or have babies