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I Blog...Therefore I am

October 17, 2012
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Once upon a time, there was I.

I, the single girl living alone in new city (ies), working in a job where I meet many people but none of them my friend, bruising a half broken heart, still dreaming some broken dreams, curbing desires of being in good company, lonely, bored with television and looking for a new start.

There were too many words, left, right and center. Some on top and some inside the heart, deep under. I wrapped some in spreadsheets and swept off some in presentations but actually, a lot of them waiting to see the light of the day.

It's then a close friend reminded me of my blogging aspirations and pushed me to start a blog of own. How? I wondered. My boss gave me his laptop to work on his analysis which I painfully carried home everyday and now needs to put into some use. Tata Indicom's VData card too came in handy and I must tell you Facebook was not that popular then :)

I started writing. Tinatinabulations in my head gave birth to Numerounity and I started blogging. Words understood me when people failed to do so. So I made words my best friends without fear of prejudices and judgments and began to write.

My blog became my best friend. I write when I am happy, I write when I am sad. i write when I something to say and I write when I have nothing to say. I write when I am angry, I write when depressed. I write when I am loved, I write when I feel unexpressed. From poems to reviews to stories, to haiku to satire, I have myriad things under the sun. I just cannot tell you writing is what a fun!

Blogging gives me a platform, where I can be me. Blogging is my companion, loneliness can never seep in. Every minute that I give to blogging, it returns back the favor. It restored my confidence in self and it helped me win few more admirers and friend. There was a time when people new for the work I did at office, the products that I launched. Today when my profile changed to a more passive one, a lot of people know me from the blogs I write.

And then came Indiblogger in my life.....

I have almost left blogging at one point and continued with me disconnect for almost 2 years. My URL got hacked, my viewership was lost and my inactivity instilled still no fear. Its then I revisited Indibloggers website and took stock of few things they do. Their contest stuck on me and I vowed to return back to writing with one of them. In the meantime, many recruiters and companies and celebs (yes) asked me to restart my Numerounity platform and write for them. My bosses read through my blog (some against my wish and some against knowledge) and that did change their perspective. People started noticing the person behind this face with her words. yes words. Words are magical, mystical and myriad and yes, Mad!

I skipped many contests of Indiblogger on account of lack of that killer idea or killer confidence until one contest that took my procrastination away. Lo and behold, I won a position in that contest and blogging re started. Blog gave me bloggers meets and bloggers meet got me face to face with real people, people behind those posts, people those comments, people behind some victories and people behind the virtual world. People became my friends...yes, many friends. Cities changed- Kolkata to Hyderabad to Gurgaon. Priorities changed- I am not known for walking in herds and gossiping about mere stilettos and laces with people who sees me just as "the circle" but I know myself as a "rebel with a cause". I no longer seek approval from people who do not care to know me or judge me otherwise, I rather seek opinions unbiased.

I am flowing with ideas and that zeal inside me is awake again. The zeal to visit places, meet people and blogging as medium helps me move towards a lot of them. When corporate politics and working without any recognition or sense of belonging bogs me, I switch to my pen, my keyboard who gets me closer to friends who understands me and stands by me. It tires me when I open my office mailbox to see mails by people who think of me as mere dumb coordinator to fix any meeting or take printout of their stuff to shove in with authority, completely mocking my education, achievements and abilities to larger things. Its then my personal mailbox delights me with mails from admirers who like my skills and wants me to do bigger things from them from review, to write up to cover an event to share my opinion on important matters of decision making.

Today I blog about movies that I have seen, books I have read, places I have been and also places where I haven't been yet. I always wanted to work on FMCG products and live those dreams by at least writing about them along with products that I have used, products that can be introduced. I write my poem and publish without the fear of mockery. And discovered that people copying my ideas is nothing but another sort of flattery. Yes, blogging has changed a lot in my life and I hope it continue to do so, continue to do so, positively! Happy Blogging!

Ah! Blogging, how much you complete me. Yeah blogging, how much you help me to discover myself. Thanks blogging, for being there in my life. Hallelujah! Blogging to heal me. Adore you! Blogging to help me focus, help me communicate.Love you blogging, for making me do things out of comfort zone, comfortablyBless you! Blogging for a successful life together.

64 comments:

I am glad you started to blog. Otherwise, I would have never come to know you. One small correction. Your viewership was not lost. May be dwindled. I have been your reader before and after your "sabbatical".

"Words are magical, mystical and myriad and yes, Mad!""I write my poem and publish without the fear of mockery."Prize-winning sentences surely... loved the post as it went straight into the heart of the topic and remained there confidently.

Loved your journey, more so because I can relate to it. Perhaps, as bloggers, we are all united by our common love of words. Keep blogging and keep writing. I am glad I follow this beautiful blog of yours :-)

You are so very right...Blogging to me is an alternative identity which doesn't need any approvals or planning.Just a free flowing feel good identity , that comes minus the baggages :) Oh!! How I love it :) Wonderful post..