Go within. Search for the cause, find the impetus that bids you write. Put it to this test: Does it stretch out its roots in the deepest place of your heart? Can you avow that you would die if you were forbidden to write? Dig deep into yourself for a true answer. And if it should ring its assent, if you can confidently meet this serious question with a simple, "I must," then build your life upon it. It has become your necessity. Your life, in even the most mundane and least significant hour, must become a sign, a testimony to this urge.

Not to be a bitch or anything, but it's getting to be a bit much. DO NOT COME OVER HERE LOOKING FOR 30 SECONDS TO MARS FAN FICTION. IT ISN'T HERE AND I WILL TELL YOU NO.

Friending policy is open (like a revolving door). If you want to friend me, go for it. I may or may not add you back, depending on our interests and such. To be considered, you should comment and tell me something about yourself (I know it's difficult, but it doesn't have to be a lot) and why you want to read this journal.

I don't post fan fiction here anymore, but you can still find links to all of my Harry Potter, X-Men, and 30 Seconds to Mars fan fiction below. Also, the one and only Dark Tower fic I ever wrote. I post mostly about my life on here when I get the urge to and yeah, I'm pretty nuts and things are always complicated, but that's everybody, right? So whether or not that's interesting is something that's pretty much up in the air.

For fic only, go to demon_deception - A writing journal I share with a friend. For my own fandom related journal, go to lustmordred. If you don't want to read about my boring RL shit, then one of these would probably be better.

Below is a list of all the fan fiction posted here when fan fiction was still posted here.

I dumped my f-list on this journal today. If you see that I've removed you, I promise it's nothing personal. I did it to everyone. I don't use this journal anymore and most anyone that I know from here who is still interested in me and what I'm doing has friended my other journal by now, lustmordred. If you remove this journal from your f-list too, I swear I won't get mad or anything. The fan fiction that's here will stay here but there won't be anything else. Sorry.

So I have this journal that I've had around for forever and there was something I intended to do with it that fell by the wayside but I kept it. I didn't really know what to do with it, though. Now I am thinking I want to use it as a journal for recs. I rec things on my own journals from time to time, but no one really seems to look at them because that's not really what my own journal is for. My journals are for my writing, and this one would be for the writing of other people that I've read and found awesome. I read a lot of different things in different fandoms, het, slash, AU, rps, rpf, fandoms you've never heard of, whatever.

Right, so the thing is, if you like my recs or if you think my opinion on such things might be worth a damn, then maybe go friend it and watch. The journal is 2ucif3r. I don't rec things with any kind of regularity or on any form of schedule, but when I find something really good, I'll put it there and tell you why I liked it and what I didn't like about it. I read Supernatural, Sherlock, Harry Potter, pop slash, and a hundred other things you probably don't care about. But anyway, if you're interested, go have a look.

I think I had a few people on my flist over here who watch this show/ read this fandom, so I'm gonna x-post this here.

Title: Stephen Hawking is an IdiotFandom: SherlockPairing: Sherlock/JohnRated: PGWarnings: NoneWord Count: 900Notes: I wrote this for a prompt over at comment_fic and it just sort of (a little bit) got away from me so I'm just posting it. The prompt was the movie title Frequently Asked Questions About Time Travel.

fagocytus asked me a while back if she could do this and I said yes, as that tends to be my policy on such things. Usually whoever asks me about it never contacts me again and I don't get links or anything, which is something I ask for, but eh.

Anyway, I don't speak or read Russian and in fact this looks kind of like an alien language to me, but I can't even imagine the amount of hard work that went into doing this. If you speak or read it, maybe go have a look.

Um, look, I know I'm not around on this journal that much anymore, so this might even be a little redundant at this point, but I think something happened--I'm even willing to admit it might be my own mistake--and a few people I actually know (as well as you can know someone you've never met) got removed from my f-list. I'm adding you back as I figure that out, so don't be all "Wtf is going on here?" if I have removed you and now I'm adding you back.

I know I swore I was finished with it, and hell maybe I am, but I've been thinking off and on the last few months about writing in HP fandom again. At least maybe to finish the two WIPs I left hanging if nothing else. I don't know, though.

Has there been anything really great written in the last two years that I absolutely must read? Rec me something?

So there's this blog I watch sometimes because I think the person writing it is sometimes really brilliant--mostly as a writer--and apparently she/he has a chance to do something great with themselves if they win this pitiful little competition/awards thing for Best Blogger to Follow. Anyway, I've quoted their work at the start of fic before and written several stories inspired by it. And I know this probably doesn't mean jack shit to anyone--hell, it hardly matters that much to me--but I figure it probably matters to them and it takes like 2 seconds. So do me a big favor, please, and go over here: http://mashable.com/owa/votes/category/31?c=31 and vote for pleasefindthis.blogspot.com

PLEASE?!

Thank you.

And yanno, I guess you could actually read some of the blog too, but it's not necessary. Heh.

Title: Forgive This Darkness Fandom: SupernaturalPairing: John/SamRated: PG-13Warnings: Incestuous overtones, language, pedophilia (Sam is 16)Word Count: 4,472 (this part)Notes: This is a WIP. Sam/Dean stuff will creep in a bit later, also. And the rating on this is going up as it progresses. Way up. Summary:When Sam was sixteen, he was bitten by a rattlesnake and everything changed. If John had to pick a moment where it happened, where everything that went wrong between them got its start; that would be it.

Title: A Little DreamPairing: Jareth/SarahRated: PG (maybe)Notes: Written for a prompt in comment_fic. Not beta edited, sorry. Also, it's been a few years since I wrote in this fandom, so if I fucked it up, I apologize. Summary:Sarah never really ever escaped the maze.