Hey Meredith,I read your story and just can't find the right word to write here. I wish i could do something, anything.. I have a grandma who is about 94 years old now. She always tells me the story of her two baby girls she had lost like 70 years ago. She never forgets.. She says not a day goes by without thinking of them. And last year she even admitted that she had felt their presence near the bed when she was very sick. She says they are waiting for her there in heaven excitedly.

70 years!! Now she longs to reunite with them. She has another kids, but always says "my girls" are different. They've always remained her baby girls.

and I'm sure B&K will always remain as your firsts and your little babies and nooone/nothing will ever fill the huge gap they left in your lives. And as my grandma says, you all will meet in heaven and live there together for eternitiy. hand in hand.. always smiling...

I wish you good luck with Kaidi's arrival. Can't wait to see her photos.