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“Lament for the Queen of Disks” was an unexpected work— gorgeously rapturous, mournful, yet determined— inspired by a tarot reading artist Eden Gallanter gave to me during the creation of her Cheimonette Tarot Deck. It was dusk. We sat on my living room rug.

I was going through a turbulent time— extreme heartbreak, confusion, feeling lost, discouraged and unsure of everything in my life. The Queen of Disks kept surfacing. Eden’s depiction of the Queen reminded me of 19th-century voodoo iconMarie Laveau. She seemed exotic and sad too. I felt a kinship with her. Lost souls always seem to find each other.
Eden told me:

“The Queen of Disks is a powerful woman (like the earth-mother), who has an endless stream of inspiration, ideas, energy and beauty to give (and whose power can never be taken away or undermined.) But she is disappointed in the misuse, misunderstanding— or denial of who she is and what she has to give. A part of the Queen of Disks is not appreciated, understood, or seen— and this is what she desires most of all.”

The Queen of Disks was me.

I was captivated with Eden’s exquisite colors and imagery. She kindly left the 78 original Tarot paintings in my care. That night I enveloped my studio with them and conjured this piece of music. The only thing I could call it was simply “Lament for the Queen of Disks.”
It became a sonic spell for melancholy souls…

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