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Title: Our Scandalous Days Behind UsAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters: Downton Abbey, Lady Mary/Matthew Crawley, Mrs Hughes/Mr Carson, Daisy Mason/OMC, Lady Edith/Miss O’Brien, Anna Smith/Lord GranthamWord Count: 5100 wordsRating: ExplicitWarnings: Light bondage, spanking, strap ons, wanking, male prostitution (in drag), bathtub sexytiemz, and repressed upper crust discussions of virginity.Summary: Mary and Matthew are glad that Downton Abbey’s scandals are over.Disclaimer:Downton Abbey does not belong to me. If it did, there would be no post-amnesiac Canadian accent ever. A/N: I had something completely different (and completely manageable) in mind for BBTP until aldiara and I started discussing what would have to happen on Downton Abbey to reignite our interest. (Hint: Hauling Shirley Maclaine off the slag heap so we can all laugh haughtily at the gauche Americans is not going to cut it.) Needless to say, this happened. Endless thanks to aldiara for listening to endless complaints about how stupid I was to choose a fic with so many sex scenes, and for beta-ing at the very last minute.

Title: the thing with feathers that perches in the soulAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters:The Hunger Games, Haymitch and other District 12 tributesWord Count: 1200 words Rating: GenSummary: Haymitch Abernathy thought winning the 50th Hunger Games was the hardest thing he would ever have to do. He was wrong.Disclaimer:The Hunger Games do not belong to me. If they did, my cats would be eating the fancy catfood.A/N: Endless thanks to my beta, amo_amas_amat, for holding my hand as I dip my toes in this new fandom and making the ending a thousand times better. The title is from Emily Dickinson: Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul, and sings the tunes without the words and never stops at all.

Title: At The MomentAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters:Alles Was Zählt, Deniz, Roman, Marc with mentions of othersWord Count: 3500 words Rating: Gen Summary: A night at home with the GBWI and their favourite TV show.Disclaimer: Not mine, though if they were they would not be suffering through this shit.A/N: Dear Momo, your birthday fic started out as a just a simple update on what the boys and Keule were doing these days. Then it turned into a cathartic braindump that's half crack, half meta, and half the state of my current feelings on fandom. (Yes, that's three halves, just go with it - it makes as much sense as anything else happening on Show these days.) This fic would not have been possible without the input of many people: aldiara and praderwilli and the other tweetskimos for cop school and Alkim, redcouchaddict for ~walking~, Hans von Hozel for his inspiring stories, the always lovely Celine LaFraud and always crappy Antoine Doucheford for At The Moment, George and Sheepie and others whose names have thankfully disappeared in the anals of time (typo intended) for generating such mockable wank, the possum and his pompous predictions of preposterousness, and finally to Alles Was Zählt who has become like the best friend I had in college who turned right wing and now supports the death penalty now; love her still, love what we had, but just don’t know her anymore. In any case, I hope you enjoy it, and know that my love for you and the sane corner of this fandom abounds.

Title: The Lonely RentboyAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters: OC (or are they?)Word Count: ~1000 wordsRating: Gen with metaphorsSummary: How a sad lonely rentboy found true love, fame, and fortune. (Alternative summary: This is not the fairy tale I should be writing.)Disclaimer: This is a true story. A/N: Because I don’t have it in me to write porn for National Porn Sunday, have a cracky fairy tale instead. This will make no sense at all unless you are a Tweetskimo. I blame them.

Title: Five Times Marc Hagendorf Called Roman WildAuthor:lilithilienRecipient:giorgiakerrCharacter(s)/Pairing(s): Marc, Roman, Jenny, René, mention of some Turkish kidSummary: Five moments when Something Could Have Happened and Everything Would Have Changed.Rating: GenWarning(s): Present tense AUs, angst dripping with sap, non-flattering depictions of France, and crack-tragic character death.Word Count: 8000 wordsAuthor's Notes: Thank you to the wonderful Hofest mods who are making my winter so much brighter by masterminding this fest. Thanks to the always incredible aldiara for everything, but especially for making my writing better (and for saying that she wanted Deniz out of the way – her highest compliment). Thanks to AWZ and the ultimate reminder that timing is a bitch, and particularly to Timo Hübsch, who’s left a big Marc-sized hole on Show. Most of all, thanks to my recipient, one of the awesomest people in this fandom. She DESERVES to have Marc come back, in these and many other incarnations, and to have the very sparkliest of holidays!( Five Times Marc Hagendorf Called Roman Wild )

Title: FallingAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters:Alles Was Zählt, Diana, Jenny, Deniz, Vanessa, Lars, RomanWord Count: ~1000 wordsRating: GenSummary: Every skater falls differently.Disclaimer: Not mine. (Sigh)A/N: For the brilliant, generous, gorgeous, loveable, and all-around fabulously sparkly amilee123. With thanks to aldiara for being the Beta Queen and to Show for being so full of suck these days that I am inspired to write again.

Title: Too FarAuthor: Lilith (lilithilien)Fandom & Characters:Alles Was Zählt, Deniz Öztürk/Roman Wild, Lars Berger Summary: He knew it was really fucked up to listen to his flatmates fucking each other.Word Count: 2000 wordsRating/Warnings: NC-17; fisting, voyeurism, exhibitionism, surly alcoholic grumblingsDisclaimer:I own absolutely nothing.A/N: Finally, just in time for bbtp_challenge 2010, the sling-fic that has been teasing me for ages. Twice as long as I planned it to be, which hopefully will make up for missing the challenge last year. Sloppy kisses to the fabulous aldiara who, as always, cleans up my random tenses, makes it clear whose body part goes where, and generally makes writing worthwhile.

Title: And Then You Opened Up The DoorVidder: LilithFandom/Characters:Lady Pochoir, Yv/SaschaSummary: The battle of the heart isn't easily won.Disclaimer:Lady Pochoir belongs to sistas inspiration. "Soldier" belongs to Ingrid Michaelson. I own nothing at all.A/N: Hello, Sascha, my lovely new girlcrush. So you've just met someone intriguing, someone who's just messed up enough to make you want to know more. Yeah, I know how it is. See, I'm doing the same thing with you and your frustratingly minimal backstory. Damn minor characters piquing my imagination again! So yes, dear Sascha, please accept my sincere apologies for the blurry porn-like shots that aren't you, I know, but Schatz, this just means there's room for a sequel.

Title: KarmaAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters:Alles Was Zählt, Deniz/VanessaWord Count: 1440 wordsRating: PG maybe?Summary: She should have known it had to do with Roman. "It always did," a small part of her sighs in frustration.Disclaimer: So very much not mine.A/N: Hmmm. I'm not sure how this happened -- I wrote DeVa. IDEK. I'm blaming it on my evil plan to conquer the SEXYs Het category for yet another year. But I'm dying to know what she will think when she hears of Deniz's frustrations with Marc. She's got so much to gloat about. Huge hugs to aldiara for overcoming her DeVa squick to do the most fabulous beta job ever!

Title: Opposites AttractFandom/Characters: Alles Was Zählt; Marc/Etienne, past Marian/EtienneWarnings: None/gen, 250 wordsSummary: Deniz is not his only rival.Disclaimer: Totally made up, not real, just nonsense.A/N: Written in sdk's awesome post of awesome but reposted here because she made me. It is commentfic, be gentle.

Title:Flesh and Blood DanceCreators: Words by lilithilien, art by chosenfire28, video by mamoru22Rating/Word Count: R / 58,500 wordsPairings: Merlin/Arthur, Merlin/Tony, Bradley/Colin, Nimueh/Morgana Summary: The 21st century is still a land of myth and a time of magic. The spells and enchantments that Uther banished are gone, but myths and magic live on, conjured on screens large and small with scripts and CGI. But one day, inspired by boredom and not a little mischief, an entertainment mogul (who just happens to be an ex-evil sorceress) decides it might be a lark to tell the Arthurian legend—as it really happened. It's just a little BBC series, just something to amuse herself (and annoy Merlin, of course). But when they awaken the Old Ways, not even the greatest Seer of all can foretell what awaits them. This is a story of destiny and choices, about what happens when sorcerers and kings collide with actors and beasts, and just how bad morning breath would be after a 1500-year sleep.

Title: CaptiveAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters:Alles Was Zählt, Jenny/MarianWord Count: 600 wordsRating: R maybe?Summary: Marian circles like a shark, but Jennifer Steinkamp could never be mistaken for innocent prey. Disclaimer: Property of Sam and Silvia and RTL (but I can dream).A/N: This pairing should happen. If it doesn't, it's a crime. Kind of involves some kinky stuff, but it's canon-based (~ep680). And it's sappy too, IDEK. And to complicate things further, I tried to get all structural and do these as drabbles, but the final one insisted on being a double-drabble. Anyway, have at it!

Title: Oops!Artist:lilithilienFandom/Characters: Alles Was Zählt, Deniz/RomanSummary: Deniz continually fucks up leads Roman on, accidentally...or not. And the song was too perfect to pass up!Disclaimer: Deniz and Roman belong to RTL/Grundy UFA. "Oops I Did It Again" is by Richard Thompson.A/N: I made this for shellydkitty's mom because she loves Deniz. And apparently doesn't mind all the boykissing -- of which there is plenty!

Title: Powerless Against Love and Beautiful WomenAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters:Alles Was Zählt, Marian/Etienne, Marian/NadjaSummary: Etienne is powerless against love and beautiful women; Marian is powerless against Etienne. Kind of a Butch & Sundance take on AWZ -- and as we all know, the thieving is just a metaphor.Disclaimer: Marian and Etienne belong to RTL/Grundy UFA and Shelly; "Mr Hyde" is by BB Brunes.A/N: Another vid? How did that happen? Made for sdk, Etienne's #1 Fan!

Title: There's A Chance I'll Start To WonderAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters:Alles Was Zählt, Roman/DenizSummary: Of course he's not going to be able to keep his mouth shut, and of course he knows that he's better off without Deniz, but always, always, Roman wonders if he did the right thing.Disclaimer: RTL/Grundy UFA owns Deniz and Roman, although they don't have a clue what to do with them. Tegan & Sara (and WMG, more's the pity) own the song "Call It Off"A/N: A vid infiltrating my fic journal? It'll likely be a one-time-only thing--I never imagined I would ever become a vidder, but this song was so perfectly Roman that I couldn't resist. (Now live on YouTube--I beat WMG!)

Title: The GiftAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters:Merlin, Merlin/ArthurWord Count/Rating: 750 words/genSummary: After his coronation, Arthur realises what he's been given.Disclaimer: Mine, all mine! Except not.A/N: Happy birthday to kabal42!! I hope that you have a truly fabulous day, and that someday, when you look back on this year, you'll remember it as the one when your dreams took flight! Set a few days after "Excalibur" (just long enough for Merlin to get those robes clean).

Title: Accidents Will HappenAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters:Merlin RPS, Bradley/ColinWord Count/Rating: 3000 words/NC-17Summary: It isn't like Bradley hasn't thought about it. A lot. It's more that the timing's never right, that at first he's still reeling from a nasty split with Michelle, that he isn't even sure he's that into guys. Besides, he has no clue which side Colin comes down on, and he really doesn't want things to get weird between them... Valid excuses, all. In the end, not one of them matters.Disclaimer: Utter fabrication and gross lies.A/N: When plotty Big Bang plot gets too plotty, fluff comes out. Or as fluffy as I ever get anyway. What can I say—uncommunicative boys are my weakness! Thanks to aelora who convinced me not to pitch this in a fit of pique. Extra helpings of fries and baklava to my lovely porn aficionados betas sdk and aldiara.

Title: Not SentimentalAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters:Merlin, Arthur/MerlinWord Count/Rating: 1000 words/GenSummary: Since the first day of his service, Merlin had wondered about the helmets perched on the prince's cabinet.Disclaimer: Property of the BBC and Shine, sadly not mine.A/N: Arthur doesn't strike me as a knick-knack man, which is why I've wondered about these helmets in his room. I think Merlin must wonder, too. Huge thanks to the lovely ladyflowdi who inspired me by saying that in 1000 years these model helmets would be model x-wing fighters, and to the wonderful sarcastic_jo and aelora who helped whip this into shape.

Title: Three MinutesAuthor:lilithilienFandom/Characters: Alles Was Zählt, Deniz/RomanWord Count: 260 words Rating: GenSummary: Three minutes. That's how long it takes for Deniz to fall in love.Disclaimer: These characters belong to moonshine-addled monkeys RTL and are so very not mine.A/N: The first AWZ muse that's reared its head in months, and it's Öztürk's? WTF? *scratches head* Okay, whatever, I won't question it. Anyway, this is for my dearest aldiara, as is this vid, which hopefully will both bring her joy and make a bit more sense of this wee ficcie.