Amber Portwood talks about temptation to use drugs

Teen Mom reality star Amber Portwood will return to screens for an upcoming season of the show. She has been invited back with the original cast – with the exception of Farrah Abraham.

Amber is also promoting her memoir, Never Too Late. She tells the new issue of OK! Magazine (via RadarOnline) about getting out of prison and her continued battle with the temptation to use drugs.

“I didn’t realize when I did get out [of prison] that I would have even more temptation out here than I would in there,” said the recovering addict. “And I had to prepare myself for that.”

“The first day I was out… it’s whenever things are overwhelming for me, or any sort of emotion — sadness, depression, anything — it is very easy to go back to doing drugs because you don’t want to feel that way,” she admitted. “You just have to stay strong and remember what you’re doing and move forward.”

“I did 500 hours of rehab classes in prison,” she added. “I was well aware of what was going to happen when I got out. It wasn’t a shock to me. It does bother me on an almost everyday basis but it is starting to get easier.”

“And I never thought that would happen,” she continued. “If you asked me that question, probably last month, I would’ve told you no. But the way that life is going now and how everything is moving forward, I just feel so much more comfortable.”

“I don’t go out really,” she said of her recreational time. “I stay with friends and family. I moved 20 minutes away, to a small town — and I’m just trying to do everything right… A lot of times it just depends on what I’m feeling, if I’m depressed or I’m sad or I’m bored, I have to learn to cope with it and I have to learn to do things. If I’m bored, I’ll call somebody or I’ll go do something or I’ll take a drive.”

“I’m not on any kind of medication,” she admitted of bipolar disorder, anxiety and depression. “I’m kind of scared to go to a doctor. It is hard but the sad thing about it is that I probably do need to be on medication for my bipolar but I kind of messed that up to where, at this moment, I don’t feel I would be strong enough to go to a doctor… I’m just afraid.”

“The one thing about an addict is that there’s so many temptations and if you know your temptations, you stay away from it,” she added. “And I’m not about to put myself in that position right now until I feel like I am completely ready.”

“But it is hard,” she revealed. “There are times where I’m really depressed, where it’s really hard and it’s not necessarily my fault.”

Last week, Amber shared photos of her new hair colour on Twitter with the caption, “Dyed my hair booboo’s favorite color and put my favorite color pink as the highlights….sending love everyone.” Adding of the below, “The pink highlights show better in this one…”