18. Goodbyes and Hellos pt.1

Harrys P.O.V

Why I am such an idiot? She trusted me like she trusted no one else. I just want to die. Maybe it'd be best if I die, since no one likes me anymore. No one would care if I disappered, everyone would think of it as a miracle. The only one who would care is Louis, or would he? I honestly dont care, I just dont deserve to live any longer. The pain is already killing me, and knowing that Sophie isnt gonna take me back anyway hurts me even more. All the memories of me and Sophie are running through my head, it hurts. I've done this to many times now, she should go back with Niall. Niall would love her more than I ever would. Niall only got Lily to get over Sophie, but he still loves her.

"Guys, I'm gonna leave, it'd be for the best. Goodbye..."

No reply. So kind arent they? Yep, so I'm just gonna go home and do what I have to do. They wont ever find out, well they will but no one will even care. When I walkd out everyone just looked at me, so I ran out the hospital crying. I could hear Louis calling me, so I stopped.

"Harry, what happened in there?! Are you okay!?"

"Louis, you shouldnt care, since no one else cares! I'm leaving, forever! Dont tell anyone please, I cant bear to live anymore..."

"Harry dont ever speak like that! Dont even think about killing your self. We do care, we all understand it was an accident! Come back, we can sort things out. Honestly."

"No! I'm not coming back! It'd be for the best!"

And with that I ran to my car and drove home. I just left Louis in the parking lot crying. I'm such a horrible person. Once I say I'm gonna do something, I will! Better get home quick and get it over with!

Louis P.O.V

What the.... Harrys gonna kill himself! I have to stop him, hes my best friend and I cant bear to lose him! I texted everyone saying what happened. Zayn, Amelia, Jaymi, Zenia, Niall, and Lily were all heading to Harrys to stop him. I went back up to Sophie and sat by the bed and looked at her. I took her hand in mine and said these words...

"Sophie, Harry is upset. The kind of upset where you cant bear to live anymore. Please do something about it I cant do anything he wont listen to me!"

I couldnt carry on, I was already soaking the bed sheets. I've never cried this much. Not even for a family member or girl. He is basically my brother, he is sooooo close to me. I looked back up at Liam and Sophie. She had her head in Liams chest crying her poor heart old. Bless her, shes been through so much lately. And now this?! I still had her hand in mine. I stroked her hand with my thumb to calm her down. I'd forgot Harry did that and it made her cry more. I stopped but kept held of her hand. She was shaking, and I felt so helpless. I pulled her into a big hug and let her cry. Liam got up and left, but I knew where he was going. To Harrys. Sophie looked at me, and then turned around.

"Wheres Liam?"

"Gone to... well you know."

"Oh, ok. Can you get me jade please?"

"Yeah sure."

I kissed her forehead and went to get Jade. She was in a cot at the end of her bed. She was sleeping and I didnt want to disturb her so I left her.

"Sleeping?"

"Yep, sleeping!"

She looked down and fiddled with her fingers. She was trying not to cry. I felt like she needed to see Harry, to be with him. I know exactly how she feels. I got up and sat on her bed instead of the chair. She asked me to lay next to her, so i did. I put my arm around her and she fell asleep. I was about to fall asleep when I got a text message from Zenia

(Text Message)

Louis, I'm sorry. We werent there in time. We found him in the bathroom, with a razor, and there was a puddle of blood. We called tyhe ambulance and they took him away. They said they need to get him some blood. His blood type is B, but we dont know who has blood type B. They said that it is unlikely he'll survive if they dont get some blood soon.

Love Zenia xx

(End of text)

I burst out crying which woke Sophie up. She looked at me with worried eyes, which made my heart melt. How can I tell her? ________________________________________________________________________

Hi guys! Just to clear up any confusuion, when they left zenia placed jade back in the crib/cot thingy!