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Monday, 31 August 2015

Well I started a journal in a different app on my phone which worked out terribly because their system just deleted all my entries...so I decided to come back to blog world.

A lot of shit has changed, quite frankly I have changed majorly in the past 3 months. I almost can describe how much of a different person I feel since winter and spring. This summer was a big game changer for me, I know a couple things that contributed to my attitude/personality change or rather than something was just unlocked in me. I always knew there was a part of me inside that I was too scared or I want confident enough to let out.

My main goal this summer was to push myself to face fears, be adventurous, try new things, care less and to just live in the moment. Which I would say I was completely successful with and because of it I feel like I am my whole self. I can't think of a time that I was more happy than I am right now. Especially in my adult life.

I know I will have my downs, hell if the winter is bad enough I may lose this piece of myself again but I'm going to do my best to not allow that. I just feel so much being myself and not worrying so much about other people accepting that. I know I'll change another million times, we are people we constantly grow in our soul. Our bodies may stop growing at a young age but our brains and our souls grow until the day we die. And who knows what comes after that maybe we still keep on keeping on afterwards.