A pallid house, moon-engulfed,
corridors beget more corridors:
where are the lights? Stupid,
there are no lights
only the monstrous goboes of the
windows, latticed like prison bars
black on white, like the movies.
Which movie am I in?
Why am I running, sweating,
terrified? Because from a
gust, a creak, a rustle I made
the man who killed me.
His knife is sharp and I know
he is behind me as I run full tilt
into you, dead 30 years:
cropped hair, roman nose, eyes brimming.
“O Finn, you found me!”
And hot in my hands you kissed me
boundlessly, your tongue a
technicolour thing in my mouth,
aching to penetrate into my
monochrome life instead of
being stranded here,
a ghost in a dream.

It’s my palette, you know—
night-wet streets, neon cycling
red, white, red, blood
black as cola—but rather spoilt by the
blue flashes of the rozzers,
sharper than usual, so I sigh,
slide off through the throng, the
thrill making my thong chafe.

It’s so easy setting strife in Soho,
just like Athens or Aulis,
Mycenae or Melos, but with
mobile phones, forever filming me as the
boys do the knife dance (my favourite),
the girls scream so charmingly and the
photographers find their frames
funnily empty where I should be.

I shimmy across Piccadilly Circus,
glancing at that grotesque statue:
Eros? His tedious brother, more like!
Unselfish Love? Boring Fuck. No,
Eros is elsewhere, down-river:
I can smell the burnt air from his
missiles and miss his
chubby insolence.

Haymarket is quiet, the theatres dark, but the
beacon on Parliament burns bright,
division bells are ringing in pubs and restaurants:…

My Colorful Life as a Bisexual Minx…real life tales with the man I love, and our fun-filled shared playmates…and all things about being the woman that finally discovered how to be ME and what LIVING LIFE is all about <3