Sorry to put this on you (mc mentioned)

Hello Ladies. I know that I have not posted on here in awhile (I did check in often) but I felt the need to tell you that we unfortunetly lost our precious baby. I'm feeling so lost that I don't know what to do?!?! We went for a "cheating" ultrasound on 1-31-12 at which time I was 16w5d (we even had our two children with us) to find out if our bean was a boy or girl. Instead, the lady told us that she was having a hard time finding a heartbeat. We then took the kids home and went to L&D and they confirmed that our baby did pass. I was scheduled for the next day to have a d&e, since the placenta was too close to cervix. I've had my follow up with my doctor (who has been wonderful to us) and he believes that our baby's growth slowed down (he measured 2 weeks behind) and eventually passed. He is pretty sure that our baby was a boy but not 100% so we have named him Taylor since it is gender neutral. My doctor is confident that we can try again after two cycles if we want to but I'm so torn. They don't know what caused Taylor to pass and I think that is the hardest part. I don't think I could go through this again. I'm going for more testing in a couple of weeks to see if there is a clotting issue but I'm not getting my hopes up to get an answer. I miss being pregnant and Taylor but I know more than ever that life is not fair!

I wish all of you the best and enjoy your pregnancy, even though it is hard at times. I hope that the rest of your pregnancy journey is healthy and that your little ones are healthy. If anyone replies please don't turn off your signatures, I'm happy for all of you.

I am so extremely sorry for your loss. It breaks my heart that you lost Taylor. There aren't any words that I can say that will help ease the pain. Take your time to grieve. There is no limit on how long you should take. I wish you all the luck in the future and stay strong. And remember, if you need any support, these boards are filled with wonderful, understanding women all willing to lend an ear.