I'm just out on day leave so probably won't get to respond to this message straight away.

I'm still in the private psych hospital and have been going through hell.

I saw an intern on admission and rather then talk to my pdoc he decided to cold turkey me off the clonazepam (which is the only drug that works on my anxiety) without any backup plan. I went into hospital sick and have since got way sicker. I couldn't feel my hands or feet on Saturday as the anxiety was so bad. My pdoc has since started me back at 75% of what I was on 2mg per night now 1mg at night and .5mg in the mornings. He said there was no reason for me to withdraw just yet off the med. I'm so angry, scared, frustrated, anxious well you get the picture.

I've just now got to wait for the med to get back into my system and I know when I'm well and it's time to withdraw to do it very slowly and in very small amounts. The people I've met have been fantastic and the unit (depression and anxiety) everyone treats each other like family and supports you (better then half the staff but that's another story).

I hope everyone on here is hanging in there, I feel like I've taken some giant steps backwards but am now taking tiny steps forward again.

Hang in there Aussie, you are doing a brave and scary thing. I know it's awful when doctors take you off meds like that suddenly. Remember that your body will adjust (eventually) and it's normal to feel all those feelings of anger and confusion. Praying for you sweetie xxxI alone can do this, but I cannot do it alone.

here is an idea im thinking of doing. Im thinking of doing a total body cleanse, im gonna take some intestinal cleansers that i found on a good site , drink nothing but water, eat veggies, no junk and take half of my clonozapam . I will start in a few days after i research more

AAYou are really doing a brave thing as was p[osted and yes we are all here for you I have no idea why that doc was so adament in stopping you "cold" from the meds but I am surely glad your Pdoc is doing what he is doingMy God I dont know how you managed with the hell you had to deal with and the w/d's as well .......PLease Please hang in there we are here and we are supporting you 110% as always A brave and wonderful woman you are

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AA,I haven't been on site a lot lately, but want you to know that I am cheering for you and know that you will make it thru this for the strong brave lady that you are! Hopefully, just knowing how much others care about you will help you feel a little better at least! I'm glad you're in good hands with supportive folks around you!((((((((((HUGS!!!)))))))))))janet

I just spent last night at home on overnight leave. I didn't leave the hospital until dinner time and only after taking a valium as I was so anxious.

It well until just now when the 15yr old started having a major tantrum about school.

Anyway I just want to thank everyone for their kind words, it's wonderful to know people care.

I see my pdoc today when I go back to hospital and will discuss the med situation with him then. I'm still feeling anxious most the time which isn't good. Maybe I need the 2mg again? I use to just take it as my night med and didn't even think about it now after what they've done I find I'm waiting for it in the morning as my anxiety is there. I feel like a junkie.

Anyway I'm hoping to be home next week, I've just started classes at the hospital (they had me in the wrong group) that is teaching me coping techniques so I also want to get some more of those in.

I'm home on overnight leave again. My daughter has a big parade early at school tomorrow. After the doctors botched handling of my meds my pdoc has returned me exactly to what I was on. He just wants to get me even again so we can start psychotherapy.

The week of over heightened anxiety caused by the withdrawal has really taken me backwards to the point I'm scared to face going to the shops etc, so I've been challenging it.

Yesterday a nurse took 2 of us to the markets and we supported each other but when we got into the car to return to hospital the other girl had a massive panic attack, swinging her arms around and holding her breath. It was enough to send me into one so I did a lot of breathing techniques I've been learning.

I guess I'll always be sick mentally whether it comes as depression, OCD or anxiety so besides meds I'm really putting myself into the hospitals program..... learning a lot of techniques to lower anxiety and keep grounded.

One positive thing to come out of it is the foods so bad I've lost about 6 kilos and don't have much of an appetite anymore.

Hi Aussie. I am on the same medication you are on. I have no idea why a doctor would cut you off cold turkey like that. Even though I feel nothing when I take my dose 3 times a day, I have tried myself to stop. Not good at all.

Hang in there and tonight when I am just laying here, I will say a nice prayer for you. You will get better.