I’m 19 years old, and I’ve been dating my girlfriend for two years officially, but I’ve loved her for more than three years now. We’re currently doing long distance after living together for a year.

When we lived together, we had a very dependent relationship meaning she would beg for my attention and be clingy and I’d live my life and be happy without many worries. She recently realized that she wasn’t happy the way we were going, so she broke up with me a few weeks ago.

At that point, it felt like my whole world collapsed and I finally realized how much she means to me. She then kept texting me for a few days and then decided to get back with me once she realized how much she loved me. We then decided that I should see her a week after that.

I was very excited to see her, and I already felt like I had growing anxiety from the breakup and was scared to lose her, but I thought once I saw her everything would be alright because she’s always been so clingy and full of affection. But that wasn’t the case when I arrived she was very casual and didn’t give me much attention, at that point I realized that she changed.

She was also going through an exam period, so I still don’t blame her for not giving me attention. For the next few days I’d be her dog and always did what she told me and was always waiting for her attention, sometimes I’d even cry when I could see that she wasn’t giving me any, whining about how she doesn’t love me anymore. Crying made everything worse for us because she kept telling me that she was frustrated and was questioning our relationship and our well-being. So I cried more.

When she finally finished her exams we had a petty argument about me wanting to get drunk and her not wanting to do it with me, which lead to me crying my eyes out and getting more anxious. The next day the real trouble began, I started to have panic attacks every few hours and kept crying for no reason, my heart felt heavy, and I was confused to how I felt, at that point she started giving me all the attention I needed but I think it was too late, I decided to take a flight home, and we both agreed to a break so I can “fix myself”.

That was a word that kept being thrown around, but I do not like it for some reason. I have been home for a few days now, but I feel even worse and keep having thoughts of breaking up with her which make me even more anxious because I want her so bad. We’re still texting to this moment, and she’s very supportive and patient. What should I do?