I am a little bit uncomfortable to tell to much about what bothers me, but it has something to do with habitual sins and it is the ghosts in my closet from my old. Have let my priest know that i need to talk to him about this and getting some advices-help-hope.

Trying to pray every day morning and eve, read the scriptures, praying the Jesus prayer and live as fully as possible. But sometimes i hit the ground so hard and one feel so guilty, shameful and sometimes even in despair.

So please pray for me. I admit my problem and know i got a battle ahead of me, a daily one.

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The meaning of life is to acquire the grace of the Holy Spirit.Saint Seraphim of Sarov

Do not try to be perfect. You are not perfect. You are not going to be perfect. Christ did not die on the cross for perfect people. You will fall. Over and over and over again. It is what you do after you fall that matters. But perfection is not going to happen. Do not even start beating yourself up in this. It is not what you do so much as what you are trying to do.

I am a little bit uncomfortable to tell to much about what bothers me, but it has something to do with habitual sins and it is the ghosts in my closet from my old. Have let my priest know that i need to talk to him about this and getting some advices-help-hope.

Trying to pray every day morning and eve, read the scriptures, praying the Jesus prayer and live as fully as possible. But sometimes i hit the ground so hard and one feel so guilty, shameful and sometimes even in despair.

So please pray for me. I admit my problem and know i got a battle ahead of me, a daily one.

I struggle with this also. Definitely talk to your priest and obey him in what he advises you to do. That has been helping me.

May the road rise up to meet you.May the wind always be at your back.May the sun shine warm upon your face,the rain fall soft upon your fieldsand until we meet again,may God hold you in the palm of his han

Update: despite being ill, my priest contacted me today and will offer help. Glory to God (and His servant) in all things.

God guide you and have mercy!

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Question a friend, perhaps he did not do it; but if he did anything so that he may do it no more.A hasty quarrel kindles fire,and urgent strife sheds blood.If you blow on a spark, it will glow;if you spit on it, it will be put out; and both come out of your mouth

"Thoughts are like airplanes flying in the air. If you ignore them, there is no problem. If you pay attention to them, you create an airport inside your head and permit them to land!" (Priestmonk Christodoulos Aggeloglou, Elder Paisios of the Holy Mountain Mount Athos, Greece, 1998,pp. 29-30, 48)