Calmness washes over me
as fingers gently brush my hair,
but these fingers turn to claws
and turn my hair a deep rouge
and the sound of screeching
is all to be heard.
Listen.
My heart beats softly
to a happy melody
and a hand rests there
then slowly sinks
a clenching around...

If you dwell on negative it will only bring you down. I used to do this. I still have to fight myself from thinking about it. However I am getting better. I have changed a little of my reactions and thoughts to some situations. I have only started some of this things very...