Hi there, I’m Jen.

Rebuilding 101

1 Corinthians 13:12

“For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known.”

The sun is shining, the birds are chirping and I can feel the signs that a new season is finally breaking forth. As with any new season, I am trying to brace myself and prepare for the changes that will occur over the summer months. My favorite twins are moving out and moving into a new phase of life as young adult men. They’ll be making the transition in the next few weeks and it has my heart reflecting on the joys and the journey we’ve ventured together over the years.

Everything about this is natural and healthy and everything about this is hard and painful.

What a paradox.

On top of that…. my littles’ are coming and going and I find myself with more time on my hands than I remember having for years and years.

We’ve all had so much change and we all know there’s more to come and such is life.

Over the years God has hounded in the importance of me knowing how to let go of things with elegance and also how to embrace change when it comes. Neither of those things are easy to do, but both are a requirement for every ordinary life.

As I sit here on this glorious sunny Sunday afternoon trying to picture what my future will look like… Trying to control how often I’ll see my boys and wondering when we will have “family time”… I realize that yet again Daddy God is calling me into a deeper place of trusting Him.

I sense that my job in this season is to just sit still and keep my hands open to His will for my future. He knows the broken pieces of my life and He knows how to put it all back together.

I can’t help but think of the word God gave me at the beginning of this year… The word ORDER.

God is the God of order. He knows the process for wholeness. He knows that we mama’s like order. He knows that it’s hard to see the season come when your children venture out, yet He designed it to go like this.

He knows what we need more than we do. He knows the gift given to us in letting go and the treasures we find on the other side.

My prayer:

Daddy God… I already love and hate this season. I know that it’s going to be painful and joyful at the same time. Help me to trust you more deeply as you lead me to what’s next on the road ahead.