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For 26 years the mind has been conditioned to solve problems, to figure things out, and to THINK. Breaking that habit pattern is not easy, but exactly what this journey and course is all about. The mind will rebel, it will become agitated and annoyed, you will feel like running away and questioning why the heck you are doing this - but in the end you will realize it is all part of that journey, going deeper into your body and starting to peel off layer for layer, going deeper and deeper into the mind and soul. Making you realize the important things in your life, making it easier to make decisions, and knowing what is right and wrong (not in a sense of morality, but in a sense of what is right for you in that moment), and gaining so much clarity on your past, the present, and even the future.

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Some of the amazing girls I met at the Dhamma Malaya Vipassana Centre in Kuantan, Malaysia

Let me tell you it is hard work. It is not just sitting around doing nothing all day, saying ‘ooommmm’ and clearing your mind. It requires a lot of strong determination (to stick through the ten days, let alone to get through one day at a time!), and to focus for so many hours a day! Focusing on one single task, going deeper and deeper into your mind every day. At times your brain will start throbbing and you will feel pain in most parts of your body (who is used to sitting crosslegged for 11 hours a day?!). But it is all part of the journey - to cut through all the conditioning, the normal reactions of the brain, and to focus and work hard to change that pattern.You will go through moments of pain, of overwhelming sadness, of boredom, of agitation, but also of peace, of clarity, and of being absolutely content in the present moment.Essentially that is what it is all about - being aware of every single moment and living in the present. Easier said than done, of course! The teaching of Vipassana will help with this and the ten days are almost a step to step guide on how to reach the ultimate longterm goal of enlightenment.

So what is it all about?!Vipassana, the Law of Nature, is a technique demonstrated in its purest form. It is universal and international, not associated with any religion, sect, or including any rituals. It is all about focusing and sharpening the mind to be aware of the smallest sensations on the body. And to realize that nothing is permanent. The body, nature, and everything surrounding us constantly changes. The same river you walk past every morning is never actually the same river, carrying the same water... Think about it. It is different water streaming through every day, every hour, even every second.The first three days, you are taught how to meditate and focus on breathing. Breathing in, breathing out. Breathing in, breathing out. Your mind will rebel and quickly have enough of ‘just’ concentrating on that one simple task. But how aware are you really of your body naturally breathing in and out all the time?! Or your heart beating?! Or feeling the blood rushing through your veins?! It happens naturally right?!You will start to sharpen your mind and focus on the touch of the breath on a triangular area around nose and upper lip - observing what sensations arise.A sensation (such as itchiness, tickling, throbbing, vibrating, heat, cold, pulsating, pain, etc) good or bad, gross or subtle, will come and it will go again. Observing these sensations without agitation, aversion, or craving is the key! Remaining un-phased and indifferent about it, letting it come and go, as nothing is permanent and everything changes.You WILL be agitated, you WILL be annoyed, and you WILL think what the heck am I doing here. But soon (or maybe a bit later) you will realize that it makes no difference and that the pain or the sensation will still be there no matter how your brain reacts to it.On the fourth day the actual Vipassana starts - the surgery on the brain. You will have laid the groundwork the first three days and will now cut deeper into the brain, observing sensations all over the body. Observing, acknowledging that it is there, and letting it go. Reacting with neither aversion or craving and becoming Equanimous.The art is in realizing that everything constantly changes, a sensation on the body comes and it goes again, observing that sensation and staying equanimous about the process. Towards the end of the ten days, you will be taught how to take this into every day life and how to apply it to daily situations and how to continue to work on this technique from home. The tenth and last day, noble silence is broken, and the exchange you will have with everyone that MADE IT (!!) is overwhelming. So many thoughts and experiences to share - you will soon realize that everything you went through or felt, is completely normal!

Something most people think meditation is about - to not think and just focus on breathing. As you can see there is a lot more to it, but also there will be thoughts, of course there will be. It is not about erasing them or getting angry that they are there. It is about observing them, and ignoring them, not going after every thought and thinking it through. Letting it be there, in the background and focusing on the present moment and present task.

Ten days of no communication with others (no talking, no gestures, no eye contact), no phone or electronic devices, no books, no reading material, no pen or paper to write on - essentially no distractions at all. Sounds crazy and a bit too strict?! Might at first, but it is truly helpful. If you were able to talk, you would not be able to focus completely on yourself or the meditation. Same goes for writing or reading, you are instantly taken out of what you are here to do!You live on five precepts during the duration of the course: no stealing, no lying, no sexual misconduct, no killing, no intoxication; which are the five precepts most Buddhist will live on as well (and as a moral guide something I completely agree with).Warm food is served twice a day, at 6:30am breakfast and at 11am Lunch. There is a short Tea Break at 5pm where only tea and fruit is served. Lights out at 10pm and a lovely morning wake-up call at 4am to start the day!

Here is a more detailed timetable of the daily routine for the ten days:

​No pain, no gain as the saying goes. It is tough, no doubt about that; it requires very strong determination to make it through the 10 Days; will you want to run away at some point - everyone will reach that stage; but going through all this and making it out the other side with so much knowledge, clarity, peace, and equanimity is one of the best feelings ever.Go try it. Go make that change. Go find your inner peace and realize that everything (literally everything) lies within.

I hope you found this article helpful on my personal experience with the 10 Day Vipassana Meditation Course. Everything I wrote is of course based on my personal experience and of talking to others on the tenth day, realizing that to a certain extent most of us went through similar motions and had similar reactions or ways of processing. It of course will not be completely the same for everyone.Please get in touch if I left any questions unanswered or if there is anything else you would like to know! Contact me, let me know what you think, are you going to make that change?Share your thoughts on this article by leaving a comment below, liking it, sharing it with friends and family, or by following our Cutting Loose Facebook page!

Hey Jacqueline,
feeling quite happy and touched about how you describe the experience. Really looking forward to share some of our experiences and development when we meet again! Crazy that its almost a year ago now that we spoke about presence and perception of things with a clear open mind. Thinking about it makes me even a bit melancholic right now since my situation has changed rapidly and my connection with presence faded a lot. The perks of getting back into business and "settled society life" I reckon.
Anyways I'm feeling very blessed to hear how your journey continues fruitful and fullfilling :)

Hey Marco!!
So good to hear from you after so long! I cannot believe it is already almost a year since we last saw/met! I remember our talks about the precense and life and our perceptions about it. We should have a skype call again soon! Have you done a course like this before? I think you would really like and appreciate it! Especially now that you are more “settled into society life” again - it will give you more clarity on it and make you see things in a different way. It will probably take you back to how you felt while travelling and what we spoke about. There are courses like this everywhere, even in Germany, so have a look! :) can’t wait to talk to you again soon!
Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts! I am glad you like my article so much, it means a lot to hear that!
Jacqueline

I did a retreat for a couple of days, not as intense but I felt really refreshed afterwards. I don't know if I could without reading for 10 though...

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Jacqueline

18/3/2018 04:38:24 am

That is great Delphine! Any course like this is helpful to clear the mind and focus on oneself - I bet you felt refreshed after that! Yeah the no reading and no talking seems intense and almost undoable, but believe me it really helps to focus and get out of the course what you are there for!

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Sarah

17/3/2018 05:20:35 pm

What an incredible sounding experience. I can barely get through 10 min a day. But I want so much to be successful at meditation and learn more about myself and the world. Your post inspires me to keep at it and try harder!

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Jacqueline

18/3/2018 04:42:01 am

Aww thank you Sarah!! That means a lot to me to hear! I am glad my post is inspiring to you - you should keep working on it every day! I still meditate every morning and every evening and it helps me so much! Try one of these course, it will lay the groundwork and give you a proper teaching to then apply every day and at home!! Please do get in touch with me if you want to ask anything or talk about it more!

Wow. This does sound orepre difficult. I'm not sure I could go for ten days without communication, but I am impressed you managed it!

Was it strange to have so many group activities without interacting with the other participants?

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Jacqueline

18/3/2018 04:48:10 am

Thank you Josy! It is difficult, but not communicating actually helps. If you were allowed to talk you would loose all focus on yourself and think about the conversations etc too much.
There are no group activities, only group sittings, which means you all sit in a big room facing to the front and listen to the teacher and meditate - communication is not necessary as there is no interaction with the others. If you do have questions, you can ask one of the teachers helpers at the end of the session.
Let me know if you have any more questions! :)

I am so glad you underwent the course ... Hinduism which is the precursor to Buddhism and Jainism has always stressed on Mind-Control through Meditation.And,I can so well understand the feeling of 'knowing and being aware of one self ' that you experienced through Vipassana.Indeed a wonderful narration :)

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Jacqueline

19/3/2018 05:02:15 am

Thank you so much for your kind words Meenakshi! It means a lot to me!
Indeed it is a wonderful feeling and truly amazing to experience and get to know yourself in that way. Already thinking of the next course I would like to be a part of and serve.