Everyone is always excited for the count down of THE NEW YEAR! To find out its just another day. I don’t spend my life in night clubs bringing in the New Year. Or for that matter, I don’t even spend it in church anymore. why? There’s never any changes there either. Through out the year,at home, on the job, in church, we aways say there are going to be changes. I have took some serious changes in my life before the new year got here. With lots of praying, and carefully planning, I see what God is doing in my life. I have learn to bring the New Year in alone with Jesus. I can hear Him speak to me much more clearly than being around a lot of fake people. You must learn to put all your trust in the Lord. Start the year out with listening to God’s word and not man. I have grown so much being in my secret place. Yes I cry. That’s because God is breaking me. Being broken by God is very hurtful, but trust me in the lone run its builds character and your Faith in Him.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, is only for those that are happy for one drunken night. They wake up in the morning to realize that it was all just a lie. Yesterday day was the same as before.

Just another NBR. 2013. Thanking God for waking me up, in 2013 is The Happiness New Year of my LIFE

I love to rejoice in The Lord at all times. But lately I’ve been in a sorrowful pit. I’m drowning, and then coming up for air and drowning again. One minute feeling better, and the next drowning over and over again. Praying and praying asking God to help me let go of what’s eating at me. Why do we hold on to things that hurt us? Is it that we hope for the best. Or we are sitting back waiting for God to do it For us. I have fine out in life, the only way you are going to change your situation is pray and ask God to lead you the right way, and put your faith into ACTION! Cry it’s ok to cry, but while you are crying do something to change what’s making you unhappy.

Ministry is not thinking of yourself. It’s forgetting about you totally. I never enjoy myself, I’m always forever praying to God for others. I do,love to give and help others. To much is given much is require. The Teacup Ministry has been hard work. I have been doing it alone for two years now. There are days I fine myself just looking out the window with tears in my eyes. no one to love me, Like I have love everyone else. I’m know fake. I will tell you the truth I breakdown and cry lots of times doing Ministry for God. Even a little bitter. I had to repent today. I had thoughts in my mind and also said things. I put me first and not God. Yes I’m human and I do cry and get upset. And get mad and just want to give up. I have learn to go to God and cry out to Him. Asking him to cleans me and make me strong to do his will. My life belongs God. That’s way it is. I can’t change that or ever turn back. It will be death for me if I ever stop doing Gods will. Yes I feel just like everyone else. But when you play the role of a leader. Feelings is not apart of ministry. I must trust in God for every need to be met. God is good to me I must be good to others. Loving them is what I must do. Jesus did this, and still love all of us. No matter what we do God still love us. I have learn wrong or right, it’s not about me, it’s want God tells me to do.

I’m a wounded warrior. I pray for people that hurt me. I’m a wounded warrior. I ask God to forgive them, I’m a wounded warrior. Jesus Said he will fight my battles. I’m a wound warrior. I pray night and day for people that hurt me. Some prayers last for years. And they still hurt me. I’m a wounded warrior. Yes I’m the one they lie on accuse me of things I did not do. Yes I’m a wounded warrior. Yes I must keep praying, asking God to remove my pain. Warriors have feeling also. We fight in the spirit and cast everything back to the pits of hell. We stand in the gap for others that do us wrong. Jesus die on the cross for me. So I must kill my flesh all day. It’s hard to die to the flesh, when people hurt you. They hate me without a cause. God is the light of my life. I want my light to shine before men always. I must forgive them. But I’m a wounded warrior. Jesus is may presence help, my help comes from The Lord. He has the power to do all things, and that power he gave to me. You can’t never break a warrior. Why? The wounds heals very fast. The more you fight them the stronger they get. Warriors don’t give in and they don’t give up. A true warrior can withstand any test. They get back up fighting even harder than before. I put on the whole Armor of God. Praying for others rather they are for me are not, have made me the most loving and forgiving person in this world. Love is all I know. Love everyone even when you are wounded.

The grass may look greener on the other side, but it still has to Be mowed.

One day a stonecutter delivered a slab of of stone to merchant. Seeing all the merchant’s wonderful goods, the stonecutter said, I wish I was a merchant. In the twinkling of an eye, his wish was granted. Sometime later, the hot sun beat down upon the man and he said, I wish I was the sun…greater than any man. Instantly, he became the sun. He was happy for a time, until a cloud came between him and the earth. He said, That cloud overshadows me. I wish I was a cloud. Again, his wish was granted. He was content until he came to a mountain, which wouldn’t let him pass. He said, That mountain is greater than I, I wish I was mountain. Forthwith, he became a mountain and thought, Now I am the GREATEST OF ALL!

But one day a little man carrying a hammer and chisel climbed up the mountain and began to Tap at it. The mountain,unable to stop him , said, That little man is greater than I, I wish I was a stonecutter . Once again his wish was granted and the stonecutter remained happy and content ever after.