Break windows and enter. Nail shut all the doors. Show them how violence is done. After prison. After being left to rot under cement. And think of the flesh. Make art that will make the oppressors bleed and cry for blood, plead on their backs or wobbly knees, and wallow in the remembrance of hate. This is a creative act: alterial wounds, a deer hoof unsucked by lips, sucked lies, the lights and reels, an invitation to artful snuff as healing vengeance.

This complex is a hazy face, an abandoned labyrinth of whips.

This mental weather is a hollowed out brain in love with the slow violence of unspooling film. Of a film within a film.

And, no, this is not a house, unless houses become such when filled with miserable slaps to the ear, saws whirring hot blood-to-skin action, ill-lit. There are too many stairs. Too many cameras giggling reels behind doors. We need to pretend to hurt you until we hurt you, and, be sure, we will hurt you.

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A VHS copy of The Last House on Dead End Street is unearthed from a box of similarly unmarked videocassettes dropped near a dumpster in the parking lot of a non-violence non-profit in Binghampton, New York. The tape is marked by two red circular smears on the front of the tape, and the recipient only discovers the film by accident as the tape slices into the film’s opening sequence preceded by twenty-seven minutes of home video footage of a cement cell: bare bulb hanging from the ceiling, the sound of water dripping through unseen pipes (barely audible), the clatter of tools scraping metal, footsteps pacing behind the camera. Waiting. Breathing. And, suddenly, the swelling of the film’s title over black slams into focus, stuttery throughout. The film’s quality crackles with grains and pops, white lines of wear like ghost-veins staining (or enhancing) the experience. And what better experience of Roger Watkins’s first film than something discarded and erroneously found, for this is the cinema of what is thrown away, discarded, obliterated. Of what is ignored until the subject itself wreaks his revenge through the act of framing his spite. He will show you how much he hates you. He will place himself in the center of this torture and abuse himself by being caught in the act.

The red smears on the tape will be forgotten. The recipient will eventually tape over the film, which is only proper given the nature of the film’s haunting prophecy, a message once uttered by the King of Denmark, himself, who spoke from beyond the grave, saying, “Remember me.” And we will. And Watkins, too. This film is what happens when you are forgotten, when what you are seeking lies in the dregs of extremity. There is nothing fun about this film.

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Lie down. Lie down and rest, little deer. There is no way out of the maze.

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But the original title of the film was apparently The Cuckoo Clocks Of Hell, its runtime doubled from the version we are able to experience today, the original cut lost to the folds of time, a punishment of Fate, perhaps, for this display of blessed vileness captured by Watkins as director, actor, producer. Most of the names in the credits are fake, its budget purportedly spent on drugs. On clocks and doors. I heard there was scene in the film where a character flees through the underground hallways, opening door upon door upon door only to emerge in a room in his own house, thus warping the sense of place (and time) that the film already manipulates. This scene was cut. I can only imagine the profundity of this scene, though, and how it would serve to escalate the insanity that plays out in the film’s third act of violence. I think it would add a necessary sense of unreality to a film that subjects its viewers to a starkness seeped in nihilistic performance art. There would be something sublime in this escalation of being lost.

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The story is thus: Terry Hawkins, a drug-addicted youth, just released from prison, vows vengeance on those who oppressed him through the creation of a snuff film that he plays off as fake.

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This was not the first Roger Watkins film that I saw, though it is his most well known. After another pseudonymous directorial venture with Shadows of the Mind, Watkins would spend the rest of his career directing pornographic films. If we look at The Last House on Dead End Street through the lens of pornography, we find that Watkins, even from the outset was already there, for there is no turning away in this film. When Watkins takes us to the basement operating table, he allows us to enter the chaotic bloodletting of amateur surgery. Even in the film’s first act set-up, he lets us know his intentions. We follow him as the foreplay of the violence to come. But this is not simply a work of “torture pornography.” This is not just a snuff-like film depicting the circumstances and execution of the creation of a snuff film. Watkins character, Terry Hawkins, in the recruitment of his cast of masked murderers, plays with an erotism embodied in Hawkins’ manifestation as an intensely sexual young man with a proclivity to destroy the lives of his oppressors through a violence of the body.

In one scene, Watkins lies under the bed of an unknown couple. The scene is filmed as softcore pornography with one exception. Watkins is not simply lying under the bed as a voyeur. Prior to the couple’s entrance into the room, we see a phallus-like thrusting welling up from the boxspring. The thrusting could, at first glance, be that of a sexual deviant, but suddenly a large knife jabs up from a hole in the mattress, a knife being wielded by Watkins. The knife retracts and the couple enters. They continue to make love on the bed. Everything about their tender actions is marred by the presence of Watkins under the bed. We don’t know if or when he will strike. He does not strike in the scene, but given the hidden nature of things and the set-up that we know is there, we can assume that he does. We can assume that the corruptive nature of Watkin’s work is on full display in this film. What can be worse than being fucked by a knife?

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My grandfather shot a deer and hung the deer in our garage. A bucket was placed below the deer to catch the blood, a blade used to slice open the deer. The deer dripped in the bucket. Meat was eventually scraped out from the inside. My grandfather broke the deer’s bones, and stuffed the carcass in a black garbage bag. It was autumn and the sky hung in crisp and blue shivers.

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The Last House on Dead End Street is Watkins’s most excessive piece of work, even given his extensive experience in the production of pornography that would follow, a film that unrelentingly exposes viewers to a fleshy interiority of the vitality of a violence that explodes, keeps exploding through the simulation of sex, through the blood and blades, through the labyrinthine corridors and smokey offices of exploitative producers. The slain animals. Animals in the act of copulation. A fiercely psychotic narrator. The lens of what it feels like to orgasm spurts of a stranger’s blood, and weaken, and never stop. Never satiated. Perhaps, Watkins’ excessiveness is kept alive through his characters’ inability to feel joy without harm. In this cinematic universe, the only sense of happiness possible comes from bashing someone’s skull in with a lead pipe or a deer hoof.

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Pull out the guts, spill blood in soft patterns on the floor like poems to honor the dead. They’ve never seen a film like this, a film to enhance the feeling of what it will be like to die. Make them die, Terry. Bury their lives under the click of your camera. Brings masks to the party. Bring switchblade knives and women who like to hit to the party and listen for the tick.

I hear my grandfather in the walls. I hear a stack of tapes being smashed in a cement room. I’m in a parking lot at night. I’m climbing the hill to the university. We’ll make it look like a sanitarium of roses. I’ll hold your hand, help you down the stairs. I’ll frame you in front of a window in autumn. In winter, the colder the better. The colder the hotter my touch when I knock on the door and sleep in your bed.

In the end, we’ll all become streets of horror. There is nothing fake in the enaction of the extreme. To be lucid. To be master.