Wisdom of the Rooms: May 14, 2018

This is still hard for me to accept. My ego tells me that my plans and ideas about how things should go, and how you should act, are 99% right, and that if everybody would just fall in line, then everything would be great and I’d be happy. But how many times has my self will twisted or bullied things into place and got me what I thought I wanted, when I’d eventually realize it wasn’t what I wanted? Most of the time is the short answer.

There’s an old gypsy curse that goes, “May you get everything you want.” Once again, my ego hears that and says, “That doesn’t sound like a curse!” but my experience understands the wisdom in it. And one of the gifts I’ve received in recovery is the willingness to pray for the knowledge of God’s will (not mine) and the power to carry that out.

And that’s when the miracle truly happens for me and countless others. You see, the wants and needs of my ego are limited and short sighted. But God’s will is vast and includes infinite possibilities for happiness and fulfillment. By developing the faith to truly seek God’s will, I’ve been able to let go of controlling others, to show up and look for ways to be of service, and to let go of expectations.

And doing this has enabled me to see that, “Things aren’t necessarily going wrong just because they’re not going my way.”