I Couldnt, I Wish

I couldnt be your first and you couldnt be mine
I couldnt love another, you couldnt take the lies
I wish i had so many words written over me
I wish our memories were the first you loved to see
I wish i was the first one you saw and you fell for me
I couldnt understand why you justified that kid
He broke your heart good memories or not
I couldnt understand what you did in your past
But now im left alone, sitting in my room
Eyes a little grayer and my heart is more consumed
Maybe one day when were back together
Ill be past this point
A city full of thousands
A room full of friends
Yet im sitting here lifeless
Feeling at my end