Sunday, June 29, 2008

Begin emotion defragmentation subroutine0%...CorpseDefinition: A Body without a Soul. GhostDefinition: A Soul without a Body.

We need both, in short.

10%... Make my dayYou do it without tryingI am sensitive to your wordsYour touchYour breath.BreathDefinition: It keeps you alive. See also: love

20%... Feel somethingThis is not a suggestion.Every day I remind myselfEvery time you miss somethingAn angel gets its wings.LoveDefinition: This will wreck your world. See also: Hate, Lust, Fate, Trust, Fake, Dust.

30%... GodTalk to himHe will not listenTalk to yourselfYou will not listen either35%... (No one is coming to your rescue.)FaithDefinition: Insanity, pretty packaging. Used in a sentence: My faith is of the slave’s towards the slave master. I know when he will beat me. I know what he wants from me. I know how he feels about me. I trust that he will remain inconsistent, brutish, short-tempered, violent. I trust that He will remain inconsistent, brutish, short-tempered, wrathful.IreDefinition: You’ll know it when you feel it.

40%... DespairWelcome.Please try to keep your feet clean.The mat of human emotion. Wipe them down.When you focus on one thing you might not succumb.

50%... AloneI am never alone.Eyes watch me through crevices.Cracked blinds and huge bay windows.Standing outside and waiting for me to join them.I watch myself and feel the eyes from the future.When I look back on my actions what will I see?A story: When I was younger I would sit in my room and feel someone watching me from the ceiling. I have come back to that memory countless times from the viewpoint of the watcher. I am the watcher.AttentionDefinition: If you pay too much you might go broke. If you go broke you might do something crazy. Pay attention to that too. See also: Despair.

60%... ArtMake it when you feel it bubbling out of you. I look in the mirror and see it spilling out of me. I can feel it in the hands that clutch at me. See also: Corpse.Don’t wait too long: the willow bends but the oak breaks under the strain.

70%... Love, reduxEvery time I hear love described as a hurricane,I can feel it welling up in me.The violent eye wall tearing out of me something necessary to survival. See also: GhostLoveDefinition: You need this more than anything. See also: Money, Pain, Loss, Gain, Blood, Stain.Definition: “A hundred miles of pounding rain.”Definition:

80%... HistoryDon’t let it define your future.We aren’t trapped in a glass box called Earth.We aren’t polluting your water.We aren’t stuck in these bodies.We aren’t lost and searching.We aren’t breaking down now.Error: stop.It sucks.Solution 1: Deal with it. Find a way to make your future bright.See also: Ghost (A Soul without a Body.)Solution 2: Let it consume you. The devil is hungry.See also: Corpse (A Body without a Soul.)

90%... EmotionDefragmentation almost complete.Commence Erasure.Let’s not be sentimental.What did it ever do for you?That sick feeling in the pit of your stomach? That’s reality.Look at the most beautiful girl in the world.Vapid and vacant: eyes like a cow facing the hammer.Watch out for the pitfalls. See also: Faith, God, Love, Summer, History, Happiness, Despair.

100%... HealthyYou will feel better.We have precisely tuned you.We have stripped away what makes you incomplete.Now, shattered and broken, we urge you: “Go forth into the world… something about Jesus.”See also: Love, Faith, Despair, Corpse, 3 Days, BreathMoreover, you will love freely.Zeros, zeros are nothing.10%100%1000% better. More effective at the things you need the most.