Dec 11, 2014

I get too emitional when it comes to babies and mothers. If a baby cries for mommy's milk you don't shout "dah dua tahun, nak susu apa?" You know you are just being mean and denying her right. What kind of a father are you? Separating two loving hearts, who need each other. What kind of monster are you?

You are just an abuser. You are not a man. You are selfish and greedy and a monster.

Oh, my heart aches. And heartless grandparents. You are just the worst!

Dec 8, 2014

It's like there's a group of cells, that puts thoughts in my head everytime I am happy. It's like, you seem to be too happy. Why are you too happy? Woahhh, there's something need to be done. Here think about those times when you hurt the most. Oh, what about those times when your hubby did that to you?

It's been long since we fought. We are so happy. But these cells are very dominant. Since my confinement, I decided to put my feelings aside and focus on my baby. 6 months later, the baby grows big and healthy and I have nothing else to worry about, then come those damn cells again, trying to rip off my happiness.

Why do I always do this to myself? I have everything I ever want and need. My husband and son, family, great family and in-laws.

I just want to be happy. Why is that so hard, when it is actually the easiest thing to do?