Amy Schumer’s first sexual encounter “was not a good one,” the comedian recently told Marie Claire’s Allison Glock for the magazine’s August issue.

In the interview, where they also discussed Schumer’s career, her upcoming book and her family, the 35-year-old revealed that when she lost her virginity at 17, it was not consensual. Schumer said that, at the time, she didn’t realize what had happened.

My first sexual experience was not a good one. I didn’t think about it until I started reading my journal again. When it happened, I wrote about it almost like a throwaway. It was like, And then I looked down and realized he was inside me. He was saying, “I’m so sorry” and “I can’t believe I did this.”

Schumer told Glock that the man is no longer in her life and she doesn’t feel the need to punish him for what he did. “This was 17 years ago. There are just so many factors,” she said, adding: “I had another time with a boyfriend where I was saying, ‘No, stop,’ and it was just completely ignored.”

In the profile, Glock writes that she and Schumer discussed how common that type of experience is. Although Schumer didn’t specifically identify herself as a victim, she alluded to our culture of victim-blaming.

“You know, with the rape survivor, it’s not just shaming, it’s fury,” Schumer said. “It makes people so mad if you’re not a perfect victim.”