Do you use the worst times in your life as motivation? Or as a point of reference?

...I'm undergoing a major shift in consciousness... because I always used my depression times from 97'/98' as motivation in my life, and as a point of reference. Then at 32-33 (my age now) when I was pretty settled into that mentality, I ended up living in Indonesia for some 8 months and it pretty much blew everything else out of the water—the city I was in was so claustrophobic and unlivable. Now I'm finally out and onto something better..... but to have to undergo a complete psychological overhaul at 33 is not what you expect.

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"I will make records as big or bigger than Death Row". -Dre, Source 1996

"I didn't do nothing but make people money and I didn't leave nobody high and dry. Any album (on death row) people are going to check for. But it's time for Dre to worry about Dre. I'm focused on the new Snoop Doggs, not like that but you know what I mean."

Dre - Source 1996 cover

"Eminem will be bigger than Michael Jackson as long as he doesn't change."

Basically looking back I had credit agents calling me which I did not enjoy. They calling nagging me every week. Then I finally did somethang that changed my life forever, which I am very happy. I went for a swim in the west and never looked back. It was so joyful/humiliating. thank god

I don't because I left the teenage angst stage 10 years ago. And you lived in Indonesia for 8 months ? Did you bring your kid with you or did you just ignore him for 8 months you pathetic piece of shit ? I hope for your child your ex wife tells her someone else is his father, I never met your kid but he deserves a better father than the cowardly piece of shit that your are.

How often do they spring into my mind? 2-3 times a year maybe. How often do I actually think about them ? Never. There's no point in thinking about the worst moments in your life, unless you are trying to come up with ways to fix them.