I had ti rehome 3 of my dogs and that was at least 3 months ago. I am severely depressed about it still. I cry everyday and my boyfriend doesn't even care. We have been living together for almost 3 years now. We have been homeless together and everything, these dogs are my family and the people who have them won't talk to me anymore or give them back. I feel like I have lost myself along the road somehow. I used to be in a mental institute for like 4 months and the ladies there told me if my mom were to kill myself it would be my fault they were evil there and didn't care about anyone. they were there just to get paid and serve useless medication that didn't even work on anyone it just made them more crazy.

Welcome to the forum forgotten angel....I am very sorry to hear about your loss and how you have been treated by the so called medical "professionals". Losing animals is a very serious thing and anyone who is close to you should be able to understand that and be there for you. In no way are you acting unreasonable by being upset because of it, that problem is on him. I also had a time when I traveled and lived in a somewhat random, day to day manner. When you lose all stability you do begin to lose other things as well, not permanently, but they begin to become out of focus. When you are only concerned with survival, and especially when great loss of that kind is heaped on top of it, the parts that you identified as "you", your personality, likes, passions....they begin to get fuzzy. That is happening because of the intense need of your brain to focus on survival and dealing with the traumatic situations it is presently handling. You still have those things, they have gone no where...it has just become difficult to see them in the same light. I would suggest trying to build as much stability as possible, and cut as much stress out of your life as you can (by the sources of the stress). Also your boyfriend needs to understand these things as well and be there for you, that is his place and if he is not filling it, maybe someone else should be. Take some deep breaths, really think about it all...the parts you feel you have lost are not lost, just a bit hard to see. Support is extremely helpful and I am glad that you found your way here. Keep on posting, and just know that you are not alone, we are here to listen and help all we can.

Please don't think of yourself as "forgotten". You have come to a good place here on the forum and we want to help you as much as we can.

I am sorry you had to rehome your dogs, that was probably the best thing for them right now. I am sure the people who took them will look after them or they'll be in trouble. You have to look after the most important person right now and that is YOU. Have you found somewhere to live, are you eating and sleeping okay? Are you taking any meds or seeing a therapist? It would be good if you aren't if you could get yourself to a doctor as soon as possible as you will feel much much better.

Maybe you will be able to get another dog further down the track when you are on your feet a bit more. I love dogs too and I have a golden lab named Holly, she is absolutely beautiful and the most faithful animal I have ever had. Remember there are better times ahead for you Forgotten Angel, look after yourself and let us know how you are going soon.