Friday, August 18, 2006

My nurse left me a message at my home number telling me to come in on Monday for another Beta test. She said she did not receive a specimen (blood draw) from me today. BUT I SO WENT AND GAVE ONE! I gave one at the DC office. I have the stab marks to prove it! I have a bruise to prove it!

And now she's GONE, GONE, GONE for the weekend!

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!

I'm seriously about to cry. This is not good. I can not handle this. They can NOT do this to hormonal women. This is not okay.

Crap. Now I'm going to spend all weekend wondering what's going on with me.

Jennie,Thanks for your comments. I did, eventually find out the problem... they had forgotten to run my test, so they stayed late and made it happen.

Today's number is 569!!

Stil cramping a LOT, still bleeding a little. I'm nervous, but getting over the panicky feeling. Apparently, it's not terribly uncommon to bleed regularly during the first trimester. It's like a cruel joke from G-d: Hah hah! You struggle with infertility and now you can't even enjoy the news that you're pregnant! Hah! Hah!

9/8/06: Discharged from fertility clinic. Off to OB land with healthy heartbeat and 95% odds of carrying to term.

10/4/06: A reason for the bleeding comes to light... a subchorionic bleed is diagnosed, but the fetus is healthy and happy on ultrasound. Fingers and toes accounted for. Perfect beating heart. Perfect growth and development.