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after the laughter (comes tears)

It is a sad day in YTMND history. Our good friend fyrestorm has comitted suicide. I wish this were a joke, but I have received confirmation from his parents that this is very true. I will be re-posting his suicide note so everyone can pay their last respects.

On 08/18/2008 George jumped in front of an F train in New York City, ending his life.

RIP Buddy.

-------------------------------I'm afraid I must now kill myself for real

Good bye to my internet friends forever!

But seriously folks, I really am killing myself now. I'm doing the cheesiest thing imaginable by posting my suicide letter in my LJ, but the irony of it is too hilarious to ignore and it's not out of a desire for attention, I mean good god, I'm killing myself, I don't need the attention. No, it's just so that the note will be easily found and read by all that it applies to.

I'm not going to post a long explanation about why I'm doing this. All I have to say is that this is what I feel is best. I know there will be people that will miss me, and I know there will probably be people that will be glad I'm gone. Of course, I'm sure there are also going to be a few people out there that believe this is a hoax, but let me assure you: I'm not trolling here. This is quite real!

The only thing I'm going to do is name names here and say my final words to the people that I have final words to say to. Some of these final words are going to be good byes and others bridge burnings.

Mom: I love you more than anyone else in the world. I know there are many times I haven't exactly shown that at all, but I want you to know it's true, and I think you do know that, but I just have to say it. You'll find a way to get on without me.

Dad: I know we have never really been close. At least now openly close, but just like mom, I love you dearly.

Grandma: I love you very much as well. You're going to have to be there for mom after this. I'm sorry to burden you.

Sue, Bobby, Michael: We've also never really been all that close, but we've grown a bit closer in the last year. Far closer than we were in previous years. Even though I don't think I've ever said it to you, I do love you guys.

Cody: Cody, you're the person that's making this the hardest for me. I'm not sure how this will affect you. I just want you to know that I love you very much. More than any other guy I've ever loved. That includes both Jeramie and Ira. I know I've talked about them a lot, and it's probably made you a bit doubtful about my love, but please rest assured that I loved you until the very end. PS, I'm sorry about the mess. It's not cool at all, I know.

Michael Francisco: Michael, you've done a lot for me. Please know that it doesn't go unappreciated. You can be a great guy, but other times you can be so heartless without even realizing it. Although sometimes I think you do. I love you very much as well.

Branden Loizides: This one's a bridge burning. Even though I said I forgave you for a lot of the shit you pulled, I never really did, and I guess now I never really will. One act in particular is one I never would have forgiven, and I think you know exactly what I'm referring to. You should be ashamed, and I hope you never forget about it.

Ira: Another "fuck you". You hurt me like nobody else ever has, and it's one of the factors in what I'm doing now. I hope you're happy.

John Williams and Howie: I wish you both the best. John, even though I hardly know you, I know that you're an amazing guy. I hope the very best for you. Howie, I didn't get a chance to talk to you after what happened to you, but unlike me, you've got a lot to live for. There's a bright future ahead of a bright guy here. Don't throw it away, please. And finally for both of you, I love you both very deeply. I feel kind of ridiculous saying that because I hardly know both of you, but it's true. It's a platonic love of course, but it's love nonetheless. Good luck guys.

And finally, my internet friends: Some of you saw throught he facade I put on online a long time ago. You knew there was a lot more to me than I let on, and I appreciate how some of you stuck with me no matter whether I was being sincere or a trolling jackass. And then some of you are just dumbasses who don't shit about anything to do with me. Everyone knows which part they belong under here; I think I've made that clear enough over the years. So to the people that will miss me online, good bye, but to the rest: fuck you.

And that about wraps it up. I'm sorry it had to be this way, but this is it, this is what I feel like I must do.

Don't feel too bad about it, though. It's not entirely out of depression or anything like that. A lot of it is simply boredom. I know that sounds stupid, but I'm bored of life. I want to know what comes next.

Bye.

Current Mood: suicidal
Current Music: i dunno, something gothic for sure

he should have saved his money and went skydiving. it would have given him a whole new perspective of life and how insignificant everyone is. you know if any of you are really bored, you can always play world of warcraft. it's guaranteed to consume at least 68% of your day. and it is fun. guess he never thought of alternative activities.

Well would you have preferred if his last message to the world was a 2-page depressing emo rant about how everybody is against him? He was obviously going through hell but he spun his letter so it looked like everything was fine and he was just "bored". If you're so horribly depressed that you're going to go throw yourself in front of a train, writing a funny upbeat suicide note that doesn't give the real reason for why you're ending it all has got to be the hardest thing to do.

Typical feminist argues that women are powerless and men are powerful, yet more men commit suicide than women, and a male child is over 600% likely to commit suicide than a girl after he's exposed to the obligations of his male role. Despite these hard statistics, no one considers suicide a problem for men. Why?

I wish the best for the family in these hard times, and hope they can move on after such a big loss. And I find it sad that he had to view his life with a nonchalant quality. But its beyond f*cked up to solely point your finger at someone else and make them the burden of your suicide. Their is enough grief, sorrow, and guilt associated with a suicide of a close loved one, but to go out of the way to call out someone (even if they f*cked you over hard) and giving them a hand in the blame is so shallow

and petty that I can't even comprehend the bitterness. RIP and I hope you find solace and peace in your next adventure. May you encounter Cat on a keyboard and NEDM having robot laser battles (Now thats worth leaving this world for).

Nothing against anyone who liked him, but "boredom" has to go down as one of the worst reasons to destroy your life and, more importantly, that of your family. What kind of impact does that have on a Mother? You spend your life raising a child, fighting hard every day to get by, and they just selfishly throw it away. It's kinda sad, it's kind of pathetic, really unreasonable and altogether stupid. Whatever does 'come next', I sincerely doubt what he did puts him in a good standing in the afterlife.

He probably had other reasons but he wrote his suicide note like that so people would remember him in a positive way. From the looks of his letter, maybe "Ira" was his girlfriend and she broke up or cheated on him. It's one thing to say, "I'm so bored I could kill myself", but if he actually threw himself in front of a train because he was bored then that would indicate he was seriously mentally ill. He had to have killed himself for another reason, he just wrote his suicide note in a funny way

It doesn't take a rocket scientist to come up with what he said, but that isn't the point. The point is that I agree with his sentiments on the issue and instead of wasting my time converting what he said into my own words, I just replied with an agreement. (Now that I think about it, my statement comes off as flattery rather than agreement, but I assure you it was mostly the latter).

Well then instead of that just tell us which cemetery he's buried in after the funeral's over. I don't know the guy but maybe some people here would like to pay their respects. Heck, 90% of the music I own comes from his "soundtracks", so if I'm ever in NYC the least I can do is visit his grave.

Yeah, Internet people showing up to his funeral would probably be a bad idea. Some of them would probably sprint over to his casket trying to beat everyone else and the first one there is probably going to yell "FARST!"

If it comes to a point where you canít take living any longer choose death by life. When you have reached that point it is time to surrender completely to Jesus and stop everything including eating. Hope that he will give you a reason for living, what do you have to lose but the life you have abandoned. Jesus loves you and will not abandon you.

And certainly it's the people he affected, rather than himself (with what he's done) which will ultimately influence that judgment. Has he not become the least of our brothers, betraying the gift of life? We should hope for him, despite him. If God is anything, let him be forgiving.

It is out of Love for anyone considering suicide that I say these words. You only get one chance to make the most out of your life. If your life isnít working out, donít quit, change something fundamental. What do you have to lose.

This letter seems to have been written off so casually for the sole purpose of not giving the Internet any fodder to use against him; surely if he had cited any emotional distress no one around here would have any sympathy for him. If that's the case it's pretty sad; not quite as sad as actually killing yourself "out of boredom", though, on top of leaving spiteful remarks to some people with your last words. Didn't know him; not trying to ridicule his choice, but given his tone I'm suitably apathetic. RIP.

I don't think I really believe this. But if it is true, it sucks and I feel bad for his friends and family. But seriously...naming names and telling certain people they should feel ashamed and they are partially responsible-I think that is really sh*tty. Unless they killed or raped someone, I think this is probably worse. I just think if it is true, it is a really selfish thing to do. Sorry if I'm not compassionate enough or something.

Seriously, why would one just want to end it all before their time? Technology will change civilization before our eyes, thanks to the sky rocketing prices of oil, our society will be forced to change our power sources, and soon. (Which would be an interesting thing to be around for) Not to mention how fast computers and other technology has come around in the last two years. Imagine what TV watching will be like in 2020. It makes me wonder why someone would overlook everything the world has to offer.

Today is his birthday, according to his YTMND Wiki page: http://wiki.ytmnd.com/User:Fyrestorm .... man, I'm still busted up about this. It better not be a hoax (although that would be good news). Can someone post a real news article if one is ever released by the local news or newspaper?

Anyone who can't joke about this and has the nerve to say they are offended makes me kind of irritated as we live in a community who's bread and butter comes from jokes on racism, terrorism, aids, death, homosexuality and a relatively limitless grab bag of "offensive material." It really shows how one dimensional some people are.

Why would you find a hypocrite less trashy? It's "decent behavior" like that makes people support the war in iraq but refuse to send their kids because they are too precious so instead some low SES kid with no future ends up dying in Iraq for their "patriotism."

99% of people are racist homophobes who want to destroy america and kill babies, thats why you see sites like that on ytmnd. Joking about this suicide, however, is out of line and anything who thinks its funny should shut up and get banned.

The F-Train? Are you kidding me? No one picks the F-Train. There's a reason it's letter F. You want to go out in style you pick the 1-train.
If anyone comes across a two headed turtle running around here, let me know please. There's a reward for it's return and I want to collect it.

I'm struggling to find an angle on this. On the one hand, if YTMND was a family, this would be an extremely serious and awful occasion. On the other hand, we've pretty much found nothing to be too sacred to satire. For Christ sake, max posted the suicide note directly within the news. And it seems like the guy couldn't take himself seriously at the most judgmental of times. Why should we take this seriously then? The fyrestorm myspace suicide is an obvious consequence, as well as a true ytmnd tribute.

Sure babbles on like a drunk woman for someone about to turn himself into a stain. He should have kept the whining and bitching to himself and just get it over with. No one likes a 'look at me!' suicide, especially your parents.

"Police Rescue Man On Bronx Subway Track
POSTED: 11:59 am EDT August 17, 2008
NEW YORK -- Police said officers rescued a distraught man who tried to leap off an elevated subway track in the Bronx.
Three officers got to the 2 line track near the Jackson Avenue stop at about 5:30 a.m. Sunday to find the man running on the tracks and attempting to jump. They were able to grab hold of the man and pull him to safety.
He was taken to a hospital for evaluation. No further information is immediately available."

Sad and all, but sh*t, couldn't he have done it in his house? Now the poor train conducter feeling all guilty and sh*t, poor dude will be bugged by that the rest of his life. Just silly doing it that way.

honestly. this has been hilarious reading all the comments. how stupid can people be? they read something and automatically believe it's true. i could come on here and say Will Smith died in a horrible plane crash, and at least 75% of the people would believe it's true just from that. how f*cking retarded can you possibly be!?! do you not check sources at all? try finding a news article about someone jumping in front of a train recently, nothing. therefore not true, something like this would make news...

on a side note though... if it had been true... it would've made it all the funnier, and i really wish i could've been on the train near the front at the time of impact, or on the station platform with a good line of site to witness the blood fly... but... oh well... some things really are just too good to be true