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Tuesday, 14 February 2012

Alhamdulillah wa syukurillah for everything, ya Allah :) Alhamdulillah, I finished my packing. It feels so great that after weeks by weeks, finally, it's done! hehe. But I think my luggage is more than 30kg so I don't know whether MAS will allow it or not. I just hope and pray to Allah that everything goes fine. Aminnn..

Well, just now, I scroll down most of the posts here in my blog. I see myself; from me being a JK-addiction victim to a person that want to change herself to become one that she wanting for. Yup, somehow, it feels fun to read most of the posts. I see myself in many conditions and I don't know if it's true or not but I see a flower blossoms in it's own way. (I don't know if it's true or not, but it's just from my own perception)

I can say now, from the writing itself, becomes more mature than before. Just want to tell a secret, actually I really hate to be an adult before this cause to me, being an adult is being a slave to problems. Maybe it comes from my observation. I really am an observer especially with people who I close to and I tend to get influence little bit with surrounding. But now, not so much. *coverlettew* haha :D. Also, I think my writings become more boring and not fun anymore. Always serious and I don't care about that cause I just write when I feel to write.

I just hope that my writings somehow, someday, somewhere can help people especially Muslims out there. But, I know that's not probably going to happen. In your dreams, bella, in your dreams..haha. I didn't plan at all to be like this. Seriously, I thought I was going to be other kind of person. But hey, who is the best planner? YES, ALLAH IS THE BEST PLANNER! Thank you sooo much, ya Allah ^_^

I don't know whether it is true or not, but this is just my personal thought. I feel like I have a little bit similar to Prophet Musa a.s. in terms of our plots of life. I heard this from a speaker in Southern Gathering program where he said the Prophet Musa's life is not going like what he thought. Remember when the Prophet thought that he saw a fire and he said to his family to stay for a while as he wanted to take the fire for them but it turned out that he had a chance to speak with Allah. Another one, is when he ran away from Egypt because he killed a man from Qibti tribe and he didn't even think that he will going to marry one of Prophet Syuaib's daughters.

Actually before this, I feel jealous when I think or listen to any person's life where he/she had their life exactly what he/she thought. She plans to further her degree in Medicine and do IB Diploma in KMB and Allah allows it to happen. But after listened to what the speaker said, I feel like hey, I'm proud that my life is not actually happened with what I'd plan, it's remind me that Allah is the best planner and I feel I have a similar feeling to share with Prophet Musa. hehee. (I'm sorry for you to have to read this...give me a chance just for a moment, okay? haha)

Okay, I think that's all for today. Thank you for spending your time, reading this thought of mine. Pray for me, I hope Allah makes NZ as a good place for me to learn to be His slave.

Tuesday, 7 February 2012

InsyaAllah today, will going to write something serious (is there any not-serious post in your blog, bella?). Anyway, before that, Salam Maulidur Rasul to all of you, my dear readers! Happy birthday, my beloved Rasulullah saw!! I really hope to be one of the people who sit along beside you in the Jannah, ya rasulullah!! T_T

As for Maulidur Rasul, I want to talk about our brothers and sisters in Syria. It started from this morning when I saw a tweet from one of my friends in KMB, praying for Syrians. From there, I googled about it and found out that there are many versions of Syrian Revolution.

I bet there will be some of the people who will have difficulties to know who's in the right side and who's in the wrong side. Actually, the revolution began from the act of children drew some graffiti that shown elements of objection to the Basyir al-Assad's government. After that, all the children has been abducted and there are a child that tortured to death. I don't know if all of the children are tortured to death cause I only found news about a child named Hamza Ali al-Khateeb for that matter.

I also found about As-syahidah Zainab Umar Al-Husni. This is where I get two different sources about her. Media can be so complicated and I can say, whoever conquers the media, he/she can conquer the world. You can't even tell who is actually the guilt unless you are the victim or you've been there in Syria. But now, alhamdulillah, people are more intelligent (I guess) where they don't believe one source only, especially the mainstream famously known media broadcasting (you think it by yourself, okay?).

I hope that me and you, my readers will be a very good Muslim, has this strong sensitivity about Islam and our brothers and sisters all around the world. Cause being a Muslim, it's not all about ourselves, it's about us and how can you say you love someone but you dare to laugh when he/she suffers. I thought by posting about this (Syrian Revolution) will help them somewhere somehow. Yes, I admit I don't always have the muslim-sensitivity button turns on. If there's something happens about anything especially about Muslim all around, just let me know okay.

I pray to Allah that one day (asap), Allah will reveal the truth and make all of His slaves happily ever after :) The syahids and syahidahs always energizes my dream to have that title one day..aminn!

Friday, 3 February 2012

What a great feeling when I heard the highly-spirited voice, talking about how important we have to be 'Ibadurrahman (Slaves of The Most Gracious), the Rabbani people. Oh, every time I heard the voice, the feeling was such a bless. I feel lucky, sad, repent and so much more. Alhamdulillah Allah, for giving me a chance to learn a lot this week. There shall be no things that I can repay Your gifts except for Alhamdulillah and a little effort.

Just hearing the voice makes something happens in my heart. Something that makes me feel sad, wanting to cry. How can a person who is so old and have to be helped when he walks can do all this dakwah with a great spirit! That day, I don't saw an old man but I saw a very energetic slave of Allah who did everything that he can for the sake of Allah. I feel so shame to complain for every trials that Allah tested me. T_T

To listen to the lecture, masyaAllah! A very deep and self-reflecting lecture. Indeed, it is a need for me to do everything that I can to have the blessings and strength from Allah. DO EVERYTHING, BELLA! Qiam especially T_T. Only Allah can give the inner strength that every 'Ibadurrahman has. Start working and working to build your inner strength! O Allah, only to You, I beg the strength and iman! T_T

This is not a playful things that we did. This is something for the sake of Allah.

To be the strong person, we must be the strong 'abid. Everything goes back to the basic ; relationship between you and Allah. If it's strong, then you are a true strong Muslim. If not, you are just like a robot that can be broken anytime.

One of the things that I love to point out from the session is one of the people ask a question, "What do you think of Malaysia, can Malaysia be like Egypt who already reach the Daulah Islamiyah stage looking at the political situation in Malaysia now?" A very interesting answer that I remember the most from the session is;

"Do not look at what people (Ikhwanul Muslimin) have achieved but look at how many has Ikhwan put the effort, how much things, money, lives etc. that they had sacrificed for the sake of Allah and Islam. It is not the result that we compared of but the works and efforts."

Allah...my heart cries to hear that. T_T

How many efforts that already we work? How many? Yes, we can dream to be like them but the crucial that we need to do now is to move and work hard.

Reflecting myself, I can say, it would take a long journey to be those rabbaniyin but insyaAllah, I am taking baby steps to be one of them and I pray that it is consistently happens. T_T

May Allah bless the speaker..and give all of Muslim the awareness to always strive to have an everlasting deep relationship with Allah. Then, we can be like those Great Quranic Generation that we know.