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Daily Ohio State journal (Columbus, Ohio : 1870), 1870-05-13

Daily Ohio State journal (Columbus, Ohio : 1870), 1870-05-13 page 1

OOLU MBUS, OHIO, FKIO A Y, Ma Y lc VOL. XXXII. 170. No. OHIO STATE JOURNAL. N V A 11 I 11 r. V IN ADY1M0I ihii.v i in not: mul In advanr, cr no mini ..! 1)11 P. (IIUllUll .. 4 AO j i li .j Ou I ilo Cl'ita f n-.e diii iqi Ni ibli tlu )u lo do 0 moiitlit, do do d.i do lutiuUu, Una coi y xtr to clubi il t' n. i). livercd by t tiuiut. l-ir u.iiUlii o .. 0 4 00 tf JO 'I- II I . w r. I- It I, V E l T I O V, Ultl.lSllKU KVBUV TfB"liAY, TUUKs"- DAY iMi bAlX'UDW MUllNlNOi B(loubw:til:i, t 'Milium 4 AO (III till f' UiHitliri k If. I il Ui JiiKiuit I 1A 'o ilii l iu inm ClniMuf flv. nd upi-itd, eutli oi do du n in .ruin di iln '! 3 "I .l;' Ow co;y xtr to tlubn of tuu. t 4 I'll V 00 I 0 vi:i:iii.v r.nrno.v, TCULLtSflfcU KVKHV BATUUUAY: Bin;.-lii lutHiintoti, r timim t'i CO ti aiublb.. I uo Five Colli)' ..... H OO ..... '4 OO BA UO AO 00 T0 (V Tvwntjr L'opl fitly Cn RATES OF ADVERIISINQ A ri.Vil.... -nrnr... t-arh insert I nil bp. c il in limine" No ice, pit WftHIV mill 111 'iTltflU I lrtc.il Noiic, Htf .-tu. Uur.tlr..i inbrti..D. A(lrUnn.nti oao H etu cumiRl lull m(i;-'i''li IiiK'i'ioii. J'RT- WKI'.lkLV-tiiunwiw Hilly. WliKttlY. -Hic nuiir-, Hmi inwrHfll...... 1 n fcuch ui .lti'in tl in vil ion I loiea- ur H'iiinw- holife-a, fur linn e,uh mi-filum SwTEnfM llni-H or 1-r in -i jni'. AJceiUin'in. Dm tut wiitt tuttt- nwisxl t O'T it-jplHi-eacU ru, wui-ti be I' .rummd ou p JrllCtlltlll. ui sitot imtc-ioitv. I "We invite tlie atttution of onr readers to thowlloivmnstol Uulurainw Buaiuea Hmufn.whichartaiaouirtiiomobtreliabie aud extiiaHivu enUbiiBliutout8 in this city, ai it'll i-:v It. KlUU A'-fornf t Itw. H-jiuoi d to Ko. 16 Nortb H.C. UOVtMAN, Att(.rnry-t-L. OUims, II Liut bUttf r.Met, Oilufabu. ml: AUolt;ytl' 117 Huuth High t. 1 J. nill'cUl-'lKLL-, Att..rm'7-idOaUttMi.iuri-uiiW. Uffiw Id Cilj Jt.iUA itibUuitf. 11KA- Kli NASH. ttonie)-iit-lvT UiUue, Mo. (iu Uuutb HiKli St., Arntid Hinlilm. AltUiUTl'. H T. UK HK&, .ArMiitMt.avt, to u.r, c Otliwi.H. E. oor. Ulnil ttl.J tjUi U.. ill ilOiJf. I1UI.II A. VI U. ULVOU. iVinc m L'ifffr Ik-t-r -u.n.iii. I'ttie W nr, Drau-iituji i.inui.m voi.t iiit mill iWM.Hitfut til.. I A It UK. kXCfcl.SinK ll.liLlAuU li.vl.l'. ',T-nT.utnl i'u '' Ai.u -, t.niu-it tbe '.H!1.! , 21 noottl Hik'i Htr.-cU lliuKIlitt.lti. . C11AS. O. PiKLW, PinA. bir..li.'f aua HKiik b.i,n Minutartar-r ir.imi 'i.lbt work d FtTiotliuatri buiiu.i i vr-vt it ui,r nmiM. M ki mul iK .-oi(li IlLli Stmt W.,Kh TA 11' All C.;M!.YbU1 III, tttatlor m, aud lie i.lh iu fcu op 1, itenuint Arawl 1' C t on- b W ti it two O n nig un). tii.il. ul a -1 nr-timi' wus IU L. Mint - 11. uuiti(ii:it. Uhu aduivr. a'wu iu ail kind bl DmiU mal cliuo-. N twi w-lb Uiubi. tlnAHN AU I OH AC . UMTTK to rilllTIL Haniifaotnipti ! n.l w ..iaIo nd retitt deal- Whole-ata aad 1I.-im t- air iu t'iri. H tub Uitf l (,iKnuiloi ia. ii . mni Itni'k kl'N OAl. UJ ' VllOlfHtbl. : liixh at. Ik-tau di-lr in "Hi Nottl J1AI'. LAV Kit, B,c II. F rtlfYDAll. It 'll- r In b'St .iiaiui 01 Uu.'ki.i Coal. OlHc Inot ul l;i"liHt i Htui.d. WhI hil Hl Ciiiia' hi IDMltllU AW UI.M'lllllAVr. ; Vikbrn mui.,iu . dea.ii in Co rutu tiuiU, Tot Ac.; tlyiura, Finliand .tarns ul n am uih-m.io IU I A. 1,1 I II. I. Al DI.SKH ttf. J..I.K 1'A. Tr.lt U.. I li.iil" T11. and w.e Hiwr F.jw V.'.ll I4J-V U'.MlB 'n-.-iyrr IWMlU tt.ki i.uihia " J..HKI'I1 MATT. Iipls l.t i en, ' oUi U I h St rictcnp- lion iart-iaii o iui"" - II U V lftlil. iimKiI(N fKttMHIW A ft I.. HuoroMan 10 J. i OA-em Vo,. Hi 8. Hl(h St. I'i La. Almiim!.'!. All'l'oll, Vcl.i'I, 111 M . tn -id loan to wlii MBJvin it U-iluutf. Ol C'ulh -up-nt Fuv r oiKHiii. i v 9 1 t "l'ul.1! MIll'S t'AlUN'KiMIJ . M 0ttrAturr of U kin-uul Furniure, rhitw. . tV'iutMals aud uLul ViuvtMut Jwl a. H.tfhlit. iilllfl FI'tlMiTl'Ilk: IHl.. ndf -uii. w n lomniii, i iiw ujihwihwi. ijiimfi nii WlmlM.I. .id ..:'. I w ...Ch..io Tl Wn ar l llnm.llc t.ulta, o. No. M Uli"t. IIAiH, I N ..III. 0.niMAn i.nmvlu. M iiiur.wat'.r ol ll.u ditMiiiHl tut., .nil rtl.r JKl:i.UV Arl W A I'o.i ... jT alitDHAV. Jni.i. by ... llrumiiuj .'.u wi. w a a i. i.RsuiTKRKPX. Whnltiai aad lUuii orairre in Watch, Cloau . r."i,.p M-r--"'. intllU.lA I I AI..UHK. M.ttb.n T.Ll' NolVli"!!!,!! iluor. Dnrtli ol 'i.y. THU OHIO MKltCUAN r TaIiAIUIMQ AkU lUHouth Blffh .t u.au'iiuiu U.d.toOid.r. KM(lrinMl. ''loinin. Daa. iuH. UUNIIKHHIIKIMKIL' . ... ...1 nu runubiu oii 1 mui hoiu. MnniniTi 101 Mia o,,i.r id iiaTmiv.wM.. I niii'im.. nn.l.iM;u, HAKPKR. ...JaiM. ... uu. a noun. J. H. WILKIK. 'PMhlMi.bl.Mlliln.iT.UrMM Trinmlair. F.ni Oood . ar. laurloa h Hih rt., up. Uoud. Uoum a W. HI V MllNH. ttlmlrMk M. H. tU Hm.l1.r7 UOOdf. ltl aoatA 1.11,11 HUH. aiiMitisBtt a aiiauk. &Mmhm Mttnhuta. AarUar la U SUda at WotlV rwtMiB,, uW, lafMta, Ma JB. BVtMf F.oratb. Nnw Y -rk Tritmn., M.y II THE TRUTH AT LAST. Mrs, Richardson's Statement. Her t-HI I Mioryof Hnr tlHrried I Ife-Hr ItulutioiiM o KlcliurtUoil Irom ttrwi i l. Itu lirduu. Nettled Sluiuuiunl i.fl c Opeuvd Kim's Ntutuiui'i.t L'oucurnt'. I III' ll!rr4tuitrf JtltrrlHHu'-A U. Hlili urdnun'h MtiUioruuduiu lur 4 U iU hTATtilHN'r AND AFFIDAVIT OK MRS. A I. lUCUAliUbUN. jjut fljr ttny aMomp-at my uwa viu icullun Jo 1 write iliif uxiilauttthtu. liuti f'T iuh titikH of tUe uo tile in co bdiI womtu wliu havostoou njr iuu ttiruun all rcvlliun-, ofitn with ul any XiUuitiii) from tue, auU al wuyH lu itu; mil luUU that, 1 whs uiohi cruelly w run ued ; fur tbulr sitlcu, auti for lib wtio lust li' iU lu my U'hlf, 1 rtfh io It 11 the whole siory of lay Uif. vVIko I wus oaceftJviseU io dobo auo tti'stidU'il, a good woiuiil oald to Uih. nut bo ill rat J to tell your alury ouce to alt the world. Tell It ui.ct exactly an you wuald it 11 It to your Ala lur, uil l lien ktep ulltncu furaver after." AuU thla Is wbiit 1 mean to do: to writu as cxuctlv as 1 can trie wbole am) t 09L4100U! trutb to tun mitiuleut detail, re strvniif nothing ana txtuuuaung noiu- lllR. it To but viry few of them have I ever told myitury. To a very aacred few 0 uve uy lips been unhealed. Aud tu ilie h ist uf tfeueruua mea aud woiuto kuuwu aud uKnuwu, wliohave upborut me wneu the Wuy Was very dark aud liar it lor a woman's feet tu tread-- abuvt- il to tlie wuiueu, brave aud uoblu be yuo1 ciprunntKQ, hoae aympatby hah lorever rtfutud I lie alaudtr tbat wuiueu are not generous to oue of tbelrowu MtxU) iiitm, 1 lay bare my heart O; an toy woaieu riienaa irom eanieat Rin tiooii. 1 kuuw of not one who liaa fallen nlt'lrum melu my great troaoie. Not miigie one. 11 it naa not oeeu ior vku unwcrviutru(t aud lu? aid armpit my; for tu redlutaa tin y have mowu Kiueni uie oeitr up niy inuvy uiiriicun; lur tint hravi ry with wuicU they tiav- rendtd me wUeru It wa a rturoucn to du a i 11 it bad uot bceu fir the in, I bt- iuvu 1 hlioald nave beeu uteii ori.clitd. I tiave accepted tUelr luvlup syuipaibyaa the oue cumpeucatiou for II tnu uiiHpeakuble mlry l my li r. 1 married ifulel 41 c bar la tin lu iwn I wua a girl of VJ, bora in Massac du ; iettn, aud educated lu New Kugltud ictiools. 1 bad bevn a ttacber ami wa I n hi bi-glotiinp: to write a Utile for the prt-as. UanWI UcF-trlaud w ta an Irlsb mau of HI or 38. wtioiud received a par ilal course at DartnioOtn Lollec . aud nad, seveu years before I kuc w QiiD,liern Admitted to the MasitucuUieUa bur. Wbeu I married bun, he rvpreseut.d tu melf tu be member uf the bir Id VUUihud, WtstODhin, with a fl'iurbbliig law practice, brilllHDt political proa-(if etc, aud pi8f'ed of pioeriy to the amouut ( f 20 000 or flO.UOU lie aln rultniied lo be a uiun uf temperate bub itit, ol the parent morale, aud, pr vloun to uiy roan inge, upp med ueliUer lultw-erate, 1 or biutal, nor proiaue. Imuiediuti'iv alter our marrlusi! we miidt' some viflla and ilieti wvut to ilui sun, an I tmpponed, to rtMe permmeut- lv. 1 reiiiuuiOLr wo were detained iu New York ilurlurf our very bridal tour while he burrowed the mtity to get lark to the West. Aner we uni bevii 11 Alii'linou a few weeva Mr. McFuraml uiformetl iuu that be wis g lut to remove to New York, that all his proper ty cuimlnied of Wmcouln State lands to tbu amount of a good tnauy tbuuraiid nerec, uu wit leu only a amuil aiuuunt p r Here was paid, lie told me lira mere were Urge opfionunltlea for trad- ng llitsu Uuoa lu Rett lurk city, aud iutt he wh uoiug lo re-Ue theie wiilie ne dtp ed of iinui for retl tgiaeor tteisutml property. Ue told me at the ime time that he bad no money txeep juit ttulllcb-nt to piiy onr fares to lh tviiHt, aud tlint be never bad any law ,irucnce uf i'ou sequence, hnvlutf devoted 111-11 Mikiy to laud biecU:auoua in the West. Wr came to New Y"rk, conflenucntlv. lu Pthruary, 18 8. 1 .an taken ill uu Uut way witti a violent cold and frvtr. iiid wu were detnlnid In H icbeater leu luva. Ou leaving It iciifati he bad to leave his watch and ctuln lo pawn with : hotel keeper for our board bill. In Nw Vrk city be kept me three or fmr weeks, and theu taking all the jewelry I d do Hit) pawu irukerB, lo pay the lourd "111, he mutt me home o my fath er s In new Hampshire, I tdmply tell theHo Uiiugs tu give seme Idea uf bow ihfy moot have elleuud a young girl fretd) fr m a cntuforitiblu Nw England couutry buine, to whnui a pavtibnki r's u wanamiurit uu unlietrd-'M tmsutu tl in, and ut to convey the Idea that it was his poverty which shocked or ea trjii'd me. 1 went bo in u then in Iefl than three mow In alter niarrUgi;, lie gave m no diiectiuns where to write him, aud for f'Mirtn-u days 1 n. Vtf beard from him. Nesily b-siile mytk-ir from auxiuiy, 1 weut lo N-w llivio, and from Himur teh-grrtped to a friend of his lu Nw York lor uewu ol bim. lleapp-ared lu two or Mine diy lu atiower Lo the telegram I lien, for the nrt iihr. 1 bad a vuue 11 f pic lo t tbit be uiliiht ou lutemiHirsu. but l Knew uotuing about intetuperauce l had never in all my lfe seeu a man trunk, except some accidental drunkard u me nirtet, and 1 trlto to dismiss the usplclon. Iu a week or two 1 agalu wetit to my lathers, and remnued through the summer of l-8 Durum bis time ho came odco or twice to vltdi iu. and seemed to be attuched lu me. Uut during the short time 1 bud lived with him. I dlicori-rd that he wat uot te in (a; ran- ( ilihuiili 1 had not then s-eu tn groily luoxicaitdf tnsine waster-rlhiy roUue In mypnaeuoe, and that itls it m pi r wi-s Very tltful aud pan ion-ate, asd tbat fr some siluht or f4tiob'd oaums hu would bt-comu iuilen and in ruse, nutsiM'aklugio me lor a diy or two. In did uni leave my father s roof in tin iriiot 10.13 wHuum many misaivii'gs ; but L was Vrry y ng ami Very cbeeriul ID (iinirusltloii, and honed rr the oest on returning lo new xorx nr. mc Farland hired a oottace In 13 rook 'v it, and furul-bed two or three rooms. F r a few weeks I kept a servsnt, but other- wine I lived all alone, almost without aroiialutanci a, and entirely at this man's mercy, home 01 tue nmu iernps ba f of the time he was good to me, aud urofissid for ido the mosteitrava gant aud passloDtte devotion, ilut he here Drst m'uan to come noma intnxi oated. lie would also coins borne sober. brlmtlna with bltn bullies called "dcldedam Schntpiw, containing a quart or ao of vile liquor, and would put them DV uu oeuiioe, a no oriux some- tiroes tje whole before morning When 1 ,.u,,.,rt him tint bi flit h i hw aal.l "h i bralu was on tire," and this mads hlin sleep. Thla Is the first time he began to ..it mi atuiitt hi "hraln liHtmr tin Hm' Whlcll III tT0Cll tipnwlon Uh hlin rt.r ho hail t to drluklnii, ,011 hi ulch io m.njr ptopla h.va w.Ufluil to hi. uxloit. n tn. rrcml trl.l fur hi. Uf. A. thla wu oult two or thrt mnoih. Iwfura mi Drat child tu b'iro, d all my aeiiwa men Bprvnumy acuta, ann aa , - .. - , I w. aiao. aa 1 Miiierr. a woui.o 01 rt- until uiaia auu iwiidk, hi. urvain .an whola body alutnilnK with the Tile lliiior which he drank during th.ee nlj-ou while I la? awake bnirfo him, mail. Iw I ....... . I i.-.. u Ixta married to him a tear my alTiOtlon lor hlin waa trry roucn cnuivo, 1 miani bt n.arlt deetroyrd. Dortni thla Fall ol W'S he rnaila two or three tradn of hit Wl'ooualn landa riir real eatale, and had made what he oallrd riorllent bar- aalna. Ilut durlna; all the time 1 waa a opprtaeea aiwaja oy want 01 muney, ana with areat dkftlculty not a acaaty ward- rube ror my baby, which was born la Dace mix-r. m. la Novajmbtrmriiilff came to visit I ma, and thsa 1 nnl away my mi van, and we did the nouns work. Dunug her visit, McFarUud took her to a muitnee at the theater; left her and returned at tb close ul the niailueo grossly Intoxicated; made love lu ber iu bta druukeu loohsbuess, aud frightened her exceed-Inuly. Wbeu 1 reproached him with thla conduct ho flwre b would never drluk uguin, aud ilrew up a wrlueu pledge to tbut elfect, whlcU be kept p pareully fur several mouibs. At Cbrbt-iDaa lime my baby was born, my moth n com lug ou to nurse me, and early lu the ptton i went home aain. My biby died at my lather e, aud wan buried iu our family burial place, my father bear lug tha iuuerul excuses, lu July ol 't)l 1 returned again to Mr. McFariaud. 1 reuiaiutd wuubim Ibis time about three uiouius. My heart was soreiy bruliud by tlie dudtb of my baOy, uud I was less aide to beir up under tbe brutality aud violence of Mr. Mc Far laud's temper. 1 will not cuter Into the details uf hia treatmeut uf me during these three inuuths but It wus so bid that I went oack to my father's lu Octooer, lHjtt, and reuiuiuifd almost A year, till Au-tfust, IbbJ. At this time, lu October, lbjU, wueul returned home. If 1 bad nad courage to have told my mother and father uf my troubled life, 1 stiouid prob ably never have returned to th'S man But I could uot spv.-ak. It wa so hard a thing 10 tell, aly ideas ol a wife's duties were most conservative. 1 believed jibe should suffer almost uuto death rather man resist the laws ol marriage. 1 Qad a conscience sensitive tu auy ap peals agaiust Itself, audi tried hard to love my husband and couvuCd myself I was lu the wrung JiHles, XWiS ex peeling, in a few muuths, the birth of auother child. No one snail say 1 mean , his narrative as an appeal losympaihy, out ihuse who believe tu my truth must see my case was hard, and realize Borne- j What Ibu suherlng I eudured. I Iu April, lelid, uiy sucoud child, IVrcy, j was born. W ulle at home during these , ten months Mr. McFarUud had rep re- j seuled to me tbat he Wis doing exceed 1 lugly well In busUee, and huU made large trades for real estate to the am juut of uiuuy thousand dollars. 1 lived at my faluer a duroig this year, which be descnoed u the ''guar ur hts prosperity, , und did uot share in it. i'artuf mis time, for the drat and only Lime in my married life, I paid a very urn ill ,-uiu lur my board, which was all 1 ever paid lu niy luug and repeated vlatts to my ftthct's bouse. I meuttun tula oecau-e Mr. McFartaud claims t j have suppurt- rd me while at my home Two ut my ! cnildreu were bora at borne, aud the ex-peusea came principally ou my father, although at tbe ninh ol my youuuest child 1 paid my physician's bill myself with the results ul a public readiug wnlch 1 gave lor thu purpose. Iu lHb'J, after I returued to Mr. Mc-Fanaud a suit was 0 ought against him , oy some oue to W If cousin for some mouey which was, as 1 believe, the borrowed capital with wuicb his Western lands bad Oeeu pnrohased. The suit Whb decided ugnust luiu by Judge Luouurd of New Yoik city. While it was p ud-; lug sir. nctaiiaua onitreu me .o puck up my ir units aud be ready lu leave the city, as he mlt(bl at any tliUw oe urrested and ptevunlid from leaving the Scute. , 00 ugaiu lu Decern uer, IwiJ, I was sent back lo my lathers witn my btby now six months old. Mr. McFariaad soon lulu wed me there aud he stayed till February, wtieu he told me agtilu to get ready aud go away with him He had at tuls tlnief l,2u0 which wus the lurgeht amount of money 1 ever kuew htm lo 1 have at auy lime, and wnlch he said he I had got Irom the aie uf a piece ol pro-1 per'.y, put out of bis bnds at thu time j judgment was oblitued against him. With tuls he rMtrua with myneir and Percy for PntladeipbU, wbero he left me say bghewas going on to Wa-hmgiuu ' tu seek uillce under Jjiucom s l u coin tug uduilnisiralion lu lew weeks he re turned and told me hu was goiuu West again, as hu was disappointed lu his political expectation. bo he Wiiit West lu the Spring uf I81SI just as the tioathcru guus wt re opt nei d on t ort su inter we wul b u k to Madipoa where we bad lived pre-1 vluu ly, took a small bouse aud weut to duct aud ihia abuse for hours, wntiotit bousi keeping. Wu lived here a year ud a syllable ur a motion b-ing made on my two months, and this wus the happiest part, and would theu burst Intotmrs, t me ul my life with him, althuugh 1 did j beg my pardon, say 1 wus the best wu-my own nousework most uf Hie lime muu who ev?r livtd. and llien goto and took cure of my bahy. lint I wus okep xtiuuud. I uever told hlin alu-r so thoroughly weary of the ternb e vu- tuls Winter tnat 1 could lorulvuor could abondiKh ilie I bad always lived with uve him, although tie sumetim-s lui-Ihls mau, that under sliU"bt any condl- pluied iuu lo do so, because 1 could uot tiun a hoiiw I could call vum seiued de ; say bo with truth. Ueuerally I told him llubUul Ui me. Mr McFarUud uver i I pitted htm, widen wus true, tioiu'- did auy work while lu Madison, or earned auy money i nvm witn x treme economy aud lie hai fuu or f !1UU It-It. when be reach if i Malison wiiieh wild Ihe addition of ik.UU or flOO more he received from the stle of a ir ct of laud A htch he owned somewhere. bouub the lurulturo for Our little houre uud supported us fir the 14 months we lived therr. At tna rxpirniiuu uf mis time McFarUud bt gnu t grow more and iu ru inoiost) and lll-'emiwitd, and told m ll ially be wan gut" lug out of muney and had no wy ul g-Htiug any 1 te tiideavond to get a pub! ic ofllce uf some kind In Madison lint was not supplied even bv tbo-e on whom he coumed as his friends. 1 had atiract d some attention lu p'tvaie circles oy my read uu, and had ttUeu a pu'dic iiathug fr the bi-n-ill of a soldiers hopkta. Ou this Mr. McFarlaud pro(oitil lo me ti at he should mke me to New York and li ve me Ulted for Hp stsge lu tin-prof fSlou uf au actress, lie also aunounci d that he shoald himself adopt tbu profession of an aeior In case my sucresa became asurtd. lie had tieen at some tone a teacher of elocuit-iu tn u military suiiool lu Maryland aud bu bi'ifan training mu iu tue readiug of siuge puric. lu Juue. vmi. he sold an our irue fnruliure In Madison and brought me Kat, tlrst going lo m? fathers in We l unnshlre, io i avomy mue rcrcy, to thai 1 could devote all my time lo thu stage. He made no secret oi ibis io my pireuts, who did not approve ol this steoon his pan, but did not Interpose, ou thu contf 'rvaliVaj Puritan ground that eveu the oarems have uo r luh t to Inter ferula the siinrsoi nu-ouiu aun woe. We went to New York, hoar Hug first ou llfach Ut , and afterward with Mrs on v.t. at BM Varlck St,. In the same vlclul ty. As soon aa we were nettle In the llrstoflhopUces, Mr. McFarhnd began drilling ma for the stage, which L m-ty say here, was the first aud on'y Instruc llou ol auy Kino wnaisuever ua ever gave me; and he a'sos nt me to take lessons of Mr. and AliH ueo. vandenhou, to be tltud for tbe aiaiiff I also beta n to give readings this b all, and pitd our board during ine laii aim winter wnu my own earnings. At Christinas lMit'J, 1 waft so anxious v nave rercy whq me and I felt so hopeful of dolug well dur lug the winter with the nrain-uic rctii tnira which I had begun, that I sent Mr McFarland to New-Hampshire to get Percy, Who had been all thla time at my father's. On tlnsoccHou Mr. Me bar land took with bltn all the HtUe stock of luwels I 0'ia-eaawl my rlnrf. brooches. waicn U d Ch-in twnion nao uy iuib iiim been so fr nuently pawnett anil repawn ed that I did not care for them), and sold them all In llouu. These were tbe last lewels 1 aver possessed, except a ptali gold ring, wnico is tne wetming ring placro ou my uaun oy my ueao nusnann Mr. McFarland was Duspeakablvornel to me thla Fall aud winter of lHili) and 18(13, while we board d at No. W Varlck street. We occupied the only sleep- tue apartment on the parlor Door, and he could give full scope to h's furies without fearofbflng overheanl. I was all the lime working haid to study for the profrasiuu for which hs ban design ed me, and lo make a suoceaa lu dramat ic readings, ny wnirn i waa support! n both bim and myself, l was sun v: vourni. and vert prond and reticent. had a mustuouaai chrerfulooas and etas tic ty of temper or 1 never should have lived Mirouiih so heavy trlala. Us wou lock himself Into the ro)m with me, alve way to such terrible furies tbat uud on ly the sxtramaat pride, and salf oontrol prevented roe from making my misery kuown. He brouubt, Imrao what be pro-lesed was prulc acid, and thr'ii'd lo take It and 10 force mn tolike P.. II-' would anaich my lsiura fnn my work-basket, and, teaiing opeu his breasr, he would traudislt tbem about, swearing he would "let out his heart's blood" before me. tie tuld me ('h'in a a'irluktiig glrl)tbut be kept loaded pistols with which he wool! at any moment shoot me. lie left me one evening, declaring lie should shoot a gi-ntlemnn b eaune he had luvlted me to join himself and wife and auotnt-r lady in a ptrty to some pu'dic picture-gallery, although I hid the must general acquaintance with the party and retused tbu invitation as -oon.au made Heraraiy uroUssed to bej nloiMot in', howt-v.-r. My'cof-duct gave b m no sfi dow of a cause. I owe it to ruyst'ir lo say that In my lung and pato ul life, I h.Vti seen many happy women, shielded by borne, by loving and gout husbands, and all that protects aud guards a wo in bo's houor, and, that never have I seen one thus guarded und cberlxhed who was more faltblul lo her wedded vows than I was tu the unhappy marriage re ailon lu which I lived, under the protection of a druuken and brutal master, and obliged agika and agalu to leave tbe boarding-houses 1 called houits to earn tne means to piyfor the r shelter. Ho much I shall say, eveu at tbe risk of seeming over bold in siying so. And In all my Journeys away from Mr. McFarlaud, when I went atone to read lu pu'Mlc, my prudence protected me even from gallantry or compliment, and 1 madn my successes am na the ut-si aud most couservative audiences. Oue morning during ibis winter which I am now describing, after Mr. McFarlaud had been out nearly all nlaht In a drunken orgle aud had rleeii from bed lo one of bis worst tempers, I approached him as he stood by the mirror fiui-mug his toiht aud beuau to say something soothing to prevent tho utitbuistof 111 temper whldi 1 teand was soou coming He turned around and struck me ahluw across ray face which m ule me reel back ward. Although be had often ptuched and bit me in some of h's tits ol druuk cum s, hu bad never before struck me so cruel and cold-blooded a blow. I felt as I shall never forget. 1 think an American woman dues nit easily forgive a blow like that. Atall events I reuiein- hvrlsuld to hlin without raising my Voice, "I shall never be siilo to Imglve you such an outrage," uud I think I uev- , er could forgive It. From that time 1 1 took an entirely din-rent course wan him when In oue of these furies. I had shed a great many tears under his cruelty, had tried to reason with bim, had tiird eutreutles and persir..dunH. After this, whenever he whs lu one of his iur- oxysms as be himself called them I never moved or spuku, our, keeping perfectly self-controlled as far as I could, I sa quiet, always keeping my eye on bltn becau-e I always faucied as long as I louked steadily at hi in he would nut do me auy mortal vtuleuce- And I believe now as L believed th-n, lint my I lie bus been suved by this silence andseli'-cou-trol lie has sometimes uppruacued me with his bauds extended, l he Angers bent like claw.", as if he were a';otit to clutch my throat uud c led, "How I would 11 ke Uke. to siraugiu you " Or "your life is buuud sumo lime to cud iu tragedy. Or '7'dir blood will be n your own bead," aud has, as I think, 1 eeures-ruined because I simply looked ut h'.ul with out saying a wotd. In these luiltsim wouiu 01 ten seize and oreak auythlug which was at hand lamp, glasses, mirrciie, and HuiueUnn 8 the heavier lumnure 01 the room, un co he would rise from bed In these lu- coutrollable attacks of passion tearlug away all thu bid-clothing, tearlug lu shreds his own nlg'it clothing, tnroivlrig anyttilnu he could flad which wastireuk-able crashlnu; about the uuligh-d room, till It has M-emud t me as il iheru could bu no I'iuileinunium worse tluu that In which I lived. And all this he would du wlihuut explauatlou ur even a pretext for complaint agaiust me, and when L knew uo more what excited bis frenzy than abiho unoorn. He would sometimes keep op this con 11 1 mea he said, ' lour d d silence irrl tnUa n.e more tliuu if you talked;" but 1 us sure my course whb tbu best. At the time hu struck me this severe oW lu 1HU4 L told Mis. Jnhu F. Cleve- ind (a sister uf Mr. Ureeley, who bad very kin. I to me in my oramatic resdluii-), ab iut the blow, and soiiih. lug of Mr. M r-ariami a couduct tome did 'hit le I her all, nor tbe worst, but loid her bow hu had struck m', priu-paily because t was i-nix-tgi-d Ul ruad . ihe hounu of s one Irlei.iU of tier's an venlng ur two after, aud I feared she uld notice thu mark uu my 'ace she as the only P'Twju lo Wiioni I ever poke ol Mr McFarland (otherwise than a maimer incoming ior a wue to nk of her husband) till ihe Winter of 1M)7. Aud 1 deV'iled alt my woman's ol ami tuct In billing htscomtuci from -Ul o'tervcisatuur boarding bouses viae w Here. or In urn Spring of Mr McFar and it apnoluteil iu a pmi lou lu thu olllce onu ol the I'rovosi-.iiirsnais under tlie Enrollment act. I wnt to see Mr n-eiey lu company with his sister, Mrs. evelaud, and also to see several ot'ter persons, to get Itilluence for Mr Ml F tr od, lu doing so l acted uuder Jir. Farianda orders, and agalusl my wu frettuus. which always reViilted at ihe Idea oi seeking olllce for bim, though he never scrupled to ue my i Uorts. As sjon as hu got this olllce 1 ceased my reading tn public aud my preparations ir tbe stagu, ami tn the spring alter he was appoluled went bime to my lather's and reinalued a short time. Then Mc- arland summoned mo to New Yurk with Percv. who wai HI at the thno aud hardly able lo travel, loiilected toluav- uu home, wueu ne sen. peremptorily. avtntt "ho would nurn my latuer s htni-e nvt-r niv head" If I did not c mo 1 ar rived In New lorn in August, nmi was there a few weeks wlfu the physician Haiti Percy would die 11 he were not sent back to tbe country, ami i again re turned to niT fuller, and staved till No verabt-r. In November, 10.1, 1 came ha -k lo New York Wo to-.k room lor a rw weeks on Varlck at . but soon re moved, early In Janinry, to No. HI La martlm-plsce, Went Twenty ninth st Durluir the winter of 103 ami I3IM had met Mrs Hlnclalr often at her com tn's, Mrs. Cleveland's, and she had shown me many and great kindnesses Htis had nlvcu me ber parlors for one oi my fadings, aud had sold the tickets among my frhnda. At the tune .Mr mcrtna.no ruceivvii inn piiuiu- thf Provst Marshal's olllce, bu used he hdluence and her husbaud'a io gut hlin nbilnled. No person living mi i stronuer claim on the gratitude of till man than thu noble woman wnosecnar- Ut he has an a'm-cd In ihls winter uf 1H(W and 1H0I, while we lived in bmar tine Piaoo, we were Aire, omuiair nelalibora. One nlsbt while there, M Mi-Karland came home so bruised and biwdlna from sums street broil a no nnoummon oouurrencnon bis part that I was obliged to call on Mr. Hlot'iair f aid In netting bim In bed. U we onl three or fonr weeka before the birth my young' at child or I should not have doue so. I'hen I kept Mr. McFarland tu his room for mm than a week, carrying bis meals to him myself, that his dl ii race rnluht not be seen and common' ou by tbe houwhohj where we boarded From the time he got his place in i F.nrnlltnriit Offlce in vi. until the r uf '04, Mr. McFarland sent ma home three limes, aud moved me wnoHditft ent board int bouses. If, for one moment, I was Dsareiul in the roaesslon of a shel ter, hia hablti 0r bit dlssatlsaod temper dreve h m tuchaugt. A'-Ust.tn the Fall of 14414, Mr. Sinclair t-u"-red us, r-m frt-e, his uixiccupled (arm hiuse uu lb; Hudson It'ver, sid w iiiovkI tliTe fur the Wmtir of 'ti4. During this year my youugt boy Danny bid been bjru on ourj o my visits to my fstu-rs i nsc. i staved ut C'roion, io Mr.aiuc'air's bouse, all Winter, and, during the Summer, in a small tenement, which wu nutcd there, an-i which 1 furnished very cheaply with IUO, sorrowed by Mr. McFarlaud from ray father. Here Mr. McFarland'- couduct was moreeudurable.tor ati wus away nearly ail diy, uud ihe quit aua pleas-anta -ssi uf the couutry wUeti hu came there, faucied had a good etl ut un him lu Hie Summer of 'bo, however, he 1W, bis pi ace auderUovurumunt.aud seemed W to uke no further attempt to do auy. tlil.'g. 1 1 j iul'inmd me oue day tbat he was out uf a place, aud hid no mont-y Theu I tuld him I supposed I should have to (five puoi.c readings again. As usual, when I male such suggestions, he swoiuutme lu hia urrlhlu way but made uo other answer. I went on aud inudo my arrangements to give dramat lc readings; gave several before leaving 0 rot ou, aud theu, with aoiuuof thu mouey I hud iaiud, I went to my father's, who hid now moved to Massachusetts, and irom his house weut away to give euverai other readings in New Euglaud, leaving the ctindreu with mother. Ai tuls time I paid the bill to the physician who attended mu ul Danny's birth, now 18 months uld,. which bad beeu all this time unpaid. I also arranged with Messrs. liurd & lioughton, ibis fall lo priut a Utile b sik for cnl dreu, railed '-Percy's Year of lihyiue?,'' which I had writteti duriutf the summer. Fruni Boston I went bick to New York, to occu py some small rooms tv r a sum lo thirty tdxtn street, which Mr McFar laud had hired. This winter I made a iGHpurate snuggle for life. 1 had my two uaulu.i tue youngest Juit Weaned; 1 bad this m.iii hatful the nine coming home Intone tied, mid I had uouilug but my woman's heart and bauds to look to for support. I gave all the readings 1 could. I did my owu housework when at borne. 1 'ook fultufml cure of my children, but I otten sank lulu such utter despondency ol heart us ouiy U.id kiiowrjand cuu pity, wheu be sees the bumau soul slnkm uuder It. On one of thes-e days Mrs Sinclair came tu. I hud uuVt-rsald a word lo her about my troubles, aud sue had b en Iuu deiicutu lo bionch thu subj-ct to me. Wuen she went away she put a little paper iu my hand, aud alter she had gone I round ft W is a 5(J bank note. Next moulug came a letter frum her in cl-islug ttUotuer f U note, wbicn she salt! waa a present Irom some other friends uf ml ite. 1 coul'e-s, I could not endure such a wound tu my pride. 1 had beeu reared in cumiurtaud plenty, and lu my veins ran Borneo, tne proudest blood In Mas sachusetts. I knew uot one of niy Mu had ever taken alius. I had to use some of tbe mouey sent me, for we were abso lutely ptncticd with waut nt that moment, Out the next week 1 sold all our furniture, which wus bought with mouey burrowed of uiy father, aud purled with many articles of comfort which had beeu seut to uie from my homu.aud wnb tho proceeds uf thu tales I was able tu siriid hack the money to Mrs. biiiclilr, telling her 1 could not yet receive alms from my friends. But her indefutluaiile friendship did not ccasu here, aud she si'iitmebjck muob of It In clothe and 0" lur necessities. Tiien In April, ltfiiti. Shu ami some uilie r friends urranue.it a reading alS;eiuwav's liooins, on Four tetuth street, i f which tbe proceeds weie UHru thuu alfiU. Air. McFarland abused mc lu hts nsual violent uy for giving this public reading at dteiuwuy's. He argued tbat If I wanted lu read I had Duller go out of town to do h), that lidii'raced him as a gutitleinan in the eyes ol thi) public for his wile to read in a city where be bid acquaintances. H m ide this an er.cuse for getting grossly lutoxicated on ihu ul mi; or mu retioiug, and coi- lecled tho whole n crilpts oi the evening, 1 gavu me out or the whole mouut to pay my furu and the children's my lathers house in Alissichusetts, reserving the ri for hts own uses. In May, IHnu, Mr. Mcrarland camp on to my lather s, nrnglug with bim f 1 000 lu mouey. He bud got this money from Vfulttiy owner or oil Unas tu IVnn- aylvanla, residing In iVw iork City (wimseuiine Ido not like to m utlon), by uiri-aieuing to expose ui tn lor some Irrignlarliy In ptiylng his lucune tax. I Mr. Mctarlaud told mu this muu 1 uiven bim the money If be "would not irouhlu bim turther." Hu also told that he had "sev rtl other inn Under s thumb In the same way." The man ner of getting this money was Inex pres sslhly stuK'klng to mu, and 1 told him and then 1 told him that 1 should try 1 make arraiigeinenls to uo on ihe auu lu ibe Fall, that I could not irv another Wlmeruf public reading, a pro lession so precarious alio so weariuir, and vis d him, since nu nail some money h eti i thouitni oisnonoruuiy ob'aiuio he should go into nuiuca at ouce bu- ru bu sinut lta He answered lu bl sual brutal manner, aud I said no more bout It. It waa agrei d, bowevt-r. lhat hould go to a small farm house In the idle Mouutatus, wheru I kuuw Mr. IverJohnstiD was going to spend the mmer, and that he should pav niv hoard there which was to be wry cheap Indeed for rnvseltaud ihe children. In nu. lbiili, I wtit from my father's with ie children to tibelburne, N. 11 , aniunu the mountains. I remained there till Septrinhcr. During this Hummer In ul me a I (10 lu a check, slcued bv Mr. nciair, auo i nad f)0 on arrlvlntr. hlch he nad uiveu me. maklnu In ail iHi, with which 1 paid my board at-d ashing bills for mvelf ami the cull ren, during my four months' stay iu EMieiuuruo. Iu NeptombiT, Mr. McFarlind came to sht'burne hmveir instutd of wait- lug for me at my father's, as 1 had pro mised. He nad to hi me little ormitbiuD of bis financial condition or prospect urlng the summer, aud I had written Ivlelug him of various plans for earn- lug his living. Iu thu Fall he told uie tbat hu had got out of mouey, aud was una Into some kind of patent irus com pany, which I did not Uin1frsiai.il fuliv, aud wus going to make hts fortune. IU paid my fate to lloston, aud then told me he ass out of m tney, ami akcd mc to go to H U. iiotigiHon s uo. s, whom he knew were going lo print my Utile book that rail, and see If 1 could ire. soma money. I did do this, aud g l $"i0 while In ilostnii, where I stayed uearly a Week, Air. flit r trland s n I tee, a ilauyh r or ms onitneruwen, bad been at tin White Mountains with rue, und was with mu tn n iston. After getting tbe m-m- y from Hr. Iloutllnon. I u-tvu McFarlaud b ilf of It, and with Ijo 1 went with Miss Murv McFarland to Newark, where her father lived. Owen McFarlaud waa worse, If possible, In bis Ilia of lutein perancs. than bis brotbor Daniel, stayed there three weeks lu scenes wh1 would Ditlla description, often In dall or nightly (ear of my life from this ter rible matlmao, all ol whose family held him Hi ujoai supreme tear. While he lu the Winter of 1800. had met Mrs. L. 0. Cdhoun. and during litis hummer at Hbeiburne, I had eirres pontled with uer 1 have been moit for tuuatelumv friendships, but I not. knew auy women moie loyal to sffec Hon, more overll iwlng with tenderuess, more na-iy with htlpial sympathy than she, my wn no nature, naual y reucun went out to her InoouUdeucuaud frleml ship, and I had written from the Mou of Ulna asking her aid in grt'lng an eo gaameiit on the singe. Hhe had sucoeed- In arrauiii ig an tnguemuni at Wii leeOtnlen. lbs theater which Mr K win II sith ooutrolletl, ami a plane which we boih consitioreii particularly form ate ior a lady to ha oomieoivd with. account of Mr. llmtb'a immUIob aa gcntlrtnan In private life, aa well as eminence in nm protessmu. This Fall ol IHild, whlie at Newark aw the tnanaiier of WluUr Garden, am my engagement was made certain at alary ol f-iO per week. I wrota this Mr. McFarlan l, who still n-malued be bind lu Mss-ucUusetts and New Ilumn-shire, and also wrote bim that I could nut and should not stiy longer at his brother's. He cmi down to New York shortly urttif this, birrowlng money I u sinaii sums oi toy latuer to pay msex-p.'iMi-s back, and took mc from bis brother's and to a wretched boarding-hou e in Amity st. near Hixtb avenue. Here be borrowed some muney ut Mr. Sinclair, unit gave me fJf, which Is the last money I ever received from bim. Tills was id October, lbGU He left me at this home, Informing me that he should pronably uot b hack very much of ihe time during this Winter. Then I was so worn out bv the auxtc ties mid thu terrible weeks I had spent at Newark that I broke down and was ill at ihls strange boar Hug-house, alone wlrb my two babies. White here, Mrs. Oalhuuu called u 1 found melu this condition, and, goiug homo, she wrote a note tu which sue told me, In tbe most delicate manner, that whenever I wanted mont-y ber purse wus at ray service. The same day Mrs. diucialr called, and, shocked at ibe wretched and desolate condition In which she saw me, took me and buib my children to her no a at. As su booo as L Was there aud bad began to recover, Mr. McFarland came back and made his prepura'lons lo cume there also. As gently as I could I told hkui Mr. Sinclair's hog-e was over-lull, and If bu were coming back to town I must get u pi tee somewhere for all of us. It was theu about two weeks before my en engine tit begau at Wluter Garden. Mr. .Mc Farland Instructed me tnat 1 might get bom! for myself and the chlidreu but only occasional board for himself, as he should be absent about the gas bualuesn most of the time. I then tngiged board In Macdotigal street, in a very respectable house, where I had a small attic room for all my family. As soon as I got here my health again gave Way, and I wus 111 lu b-d ueur'y two weeks. It was only by sheer force of will that I got up from bed anil dragged myseli to the theatre 'o heiiln my eugaut-ment. During thu two weeks' Illness, Mrs. HlnclalrantlMrs. Calhoun visited and ministered to me Uotuoftheiu sent me nourishing food irom their own tuble, by their own sur vauts. They eeui me money, and gave ine the loviuttest sympathy woman ever gave to worn tu. 1 bad already got an etiuuucmcut to write for th- Jdverslde Magazine, aud one dy during this Illness wheu Mrs. Cilhoun found mu sitting up iu bett, weak and exhausted, Quishlnir a child's story, with my two noisy little children playing at my bed sole, sliu tuok it away, aud Interested thu inuuagiug editor of the Independent In my work, so that hu sent mu word be would uke some of my stories for his piper. As soon as I went ou the stage (this wus the litJUioI November, 1SU0) I tuld the worn n lu whose bouse I bad been boarding about three weeks, of my new profession, i-ibe Immediately told me that she could not possibly have an actress lu her house, and I mint gut a new plucu us soou as convenient. Asqtncklv as I could I found a new place at No fed Amity st. I went to No. 811 Amliy-at about tho lOtb or 17'b of December, lso'd Ou the gOcb of December I had au engagement lo read ut Stlein, Muss , before toe Lyceum Lecture Courr-e. My mother bad written us that if I would bring on oue of the children she would tuku bim and take care of him for an ln-delluite period, because she feared I had too much to do w;tb the two children and all my other duties Ho Iconciudrd lo take thu youngest child Danny lu my own home on this Journey to Salem. I played at the theater thu olght before uurilug io Massachusetts, and wus oh llged to sit up nearly all night to get mself and child ready. About 1 o'clock iu the ulubt Mcturland came home lu a state uf oeustly luioxictilon, He was st talking then, but toward daliubi. title I was tfditinir ready to tuku the rooming tralu lor Ji stou, I routed him. I lod bim 1 bad been Inteudluo- to take Danny bome, uut now I thought 1 would lake boih the cnlldren and leave them wlih mother illl I could do some- ng better, and come back and sepa rate, uiys If liom bim eutlrely, that I uld uot possibly wo. k as I was doing I iiear his bablig auy louuer. On this proteased great penitence, and ben tied mc lo try bliu once mote. Hilit he would do bettor If I would vu hlin this one trial, tVc tfce. I md it believe hlin, hut 1 hardly knew what oo, auo i ii ii any weut ou with Dannv my mother s, This was thu morning tbu 10th. Head In haiem tbe 20th. r. - turning to New York the 2Ut, aud go g lu the theater the same evening At luur a time I foolishly allowed cFurUud to draw a two weeks' ssUrv from ihe ihrater, which had been lying r uecuue me mouey i hid earned at Salem paid the uecessary board bill, aud Weuiagtiu aui got drunk, and re- k'ued so fur two or three days. At this time L made up my miud 1 wuti'ddu something. Ou tue a lie moon of Janu ary 1 wiole a long letter to Mrs. Ual-liuitu, lo whom, lu sll uf my acquaintance, I bud never spoktn of McFarlaud, except lucidt utally, telling bur uf some my i roubles. lu Una b iter, which It cost me terri ble paiu sbd humiliation lo write, be cause my haolts or couceaim- nt wru so natural aua uimciiu to overcome, 1 ur -d over so mo uf the worst tacts. I cuucraled the tact of nts huieiess Intern-(h ranee, and I tried with all the buinuo Uy and justice which was In my nature, to speik most geniiy aud Itnpirtiauy of th s uidoriuiiatu mau. I he roiiowlug l-the exact copy of the flfi-tc iiifldence 1 ver nude to this loyal friend ol myaux leltes ai d struggles: Jam g IH(i7. My Darling and Coufohtkii : 1 tvuseaud myself with the liueullunof riilna yu along letter: uf telilus vuu jine things which I have never before ild auy onu; but Which, kept secret ml hruuded uver, seem lo eat out my art atn consume my lire aa? by day was miserably unhappy yesterday, all the latU-r part of the day. Yesterday morning, alter l hud got all ready to go Airs, sinciairs, aner i nad Kini ,'erey "Good by," and hail my parcels in my arms ready to lake iheiu over, some tile impatient words l satd irrlta'ed Mr. McFarland, who Is very si-osiuve i.d nuick-lemperiti. it arue from my i-kiiig him to help mu cany somu oi my bundle, aud his resell Hug It, aud our both selling a Utile bit auurv. I did uot say half as much as I bear women every tl iy s ay to their hu-bamU.wiihout being remembered un cither side. J hould uot have remembered tl one lu taut, but hu dous, and I Went away without stnooibi. g out the snarl. It was perhaps a little perversa but got llrid of constautly sinootblug aud coaxing. Ilut all day 1 was uurvuus, when ho did not call with lvrcy ua nu had promised, and I was Very an Mou i could out get away In ihe oveulng without showing how uneasy L was, so 1 stayed. Wueu I got home, 1 found Percy in bed, nuiuing up a book wnn whltb bo nad got minvir asie. p aumc, Aiiur an hour or two or an muting wait ing, wailiug-1 steninufor ioo steps, and dieadiug to hear them whlcll am only a few u tha Auhuam ut iiours l hav siient so -he c tin - In, two thirds intoil Citud and very morose. I asked hi how ho could so spoil my d y, aud 0 iusv io much unhapplneas. and nt aim we red that 1 had treated him "Ut raveousiy, and he should speud the Ne1 leer s aa lie ciiowv' Two wei ke ago tha morning of tha Tuesday o- lore l went to oirm i-i reau, you remeuiber I got uiurly dtscourag- o1, aud I saltl oinetiilug, not npMiicn- lul. to Mr. Mi Farla d about my lee itm. One mnnot always keep up, )ou know, There ws no unklodness ne iween us. only win n I sink a little I hoiw he sinks In despair. I h it ulaht he his did nut Home home to slimier, and 1 wa- ohllued to leave mr bibua when I Went to the tbeaier, awake an I a 'one. A the eveuina 1 was burning wt n anile' I io net borne. He did not ooine lor me, to and 1 went bome alone after 1 got through tbu piay. I found hhn In a I'castly slumber, from which I cuuM uut route hlin; he had been dr uhiug sll day. I wus tn htart that uxt morning for Massachusetts, and It made me almost crazy. Next morning lie was In sack cloth and us ties fur bis couduct. He wepr, ami begged me to forgive him not to tell my father and mother, and sworu bu would vindicate himself. Injure me by a diilerent life this year. D.:ar, I try to write these things coldly aud mechanically. 1 aunt to do so, so us uot to bu unjust, but I must write you. 1 fuel I muH let vou know some thing of my iuuur tlie, aud of the strug-gitsiliut no one can iee, or 1 shall die. You know, mvdarllug, when I was matried 1 hud not much experience of iu , or .luiumeut ol chiracUr, Wheu tr. Mel'ar and usk-d me to marry hlin, I said "yes," without proper deliberation. I was nut lu love wl!.h any oue else; ererylvitf got married, I thought, and L u ver questioned whether I wis sulllcuntly in luvu or not. I tfiought I was, and did not r ason. After 1 was married aud begun to know Mr. McFar laud, I lonud him radical to the extreme lu all his ideas. He seemed to have many heartfelt schemes of philanthropy aud lovely traits of cbarucler. He hid Deuuillut theories, und be hel eved he acted uu them, when hu did uot, and was uftcu cruelly mjiHt to me and my mo iked. He wus madly Jealous of me frum ihe Ursl a jealousy which seemed to me to Imvo Its root lu a radical wuut of con-llleujo lu woman's vlituu. A bachelor experience h d made bim believu women aero uot always chaste, I think; but lu me, who wus cnustuus Ice snd pure as snow, il ever women were chaste, ihte tilings were horrible outrages. They -truck the Urst blow at the teuderness I felt lor him, which might have rlpeued Into a real uH'-utlou, 1 nave no doubt. This was the Hist shock thu second was the discovery that If auythlug au uoyed ni m, if 1 wis Impatient or a Ul le cioss ( is 1 think all women are at times, uud I know my temper is uuturally sun-u), orii busiuess cares oppressed bim, or a hundred other annoyances wnlch might trouble onu, theu, as a refuge from any of these, be would drink Honor, and come home uuder its Influence. I wa bred in the New Kuilaud Idea of temperjuee, aud thu wus to me a vice mre odious tnau I cuu speuk. Iliad for It little lompussion. Wnen Mr. Mc-F.rwmd turn- horn.; thus, I loaibel hlin with uuspeukuhiu loathing uud dl-gust I wum living, wheu this tl.H happened, in Itrouklyu. Iliad not a sniuiu lull-in ite friend in either city. I bad no one to speak with from in iruluir lid niiht. and I was pngnant with my first batty, i which made iuu very nervous aud easily . uirectcd. What I snil'-red tluttlrst year, I G id uuly knows; wlut I sutured many i hundred times since, He only knows, but i It is enough lo lell you that In a year the possibility of ever kviug him was utterly extinguished. I ms la an awful thing to say, dearest. To drug out for eight ur Urn years an existeucu with a man whose whole na ture uveilljwed wltu passion, who by turn adored and abused you, aud wh J wauied la absorb both body aud soul, uu Vv ir-ui uutuiuK uu. a jeeiiutfoi P'ty. I trifif io do Mr. McFarland Justice, and I pity In m more than I pl.y myself, in cuu iiuou hnii ais suturing are worse, perhaps W: bad noble theories ami not -irengin cuougu to realize them, Ihe mi-Likes mat bu made embllteied a d still embitter him. Ho nieaut bis life to be noble, aud it 1b a failure. I am glad and proud tu say llv.it for the last years uu naa cuaseu io oe jeaious oi me or uf my feeling toward any man. 1 should ui ver bd anything but a chaste Woqiju in myrelatlous with men. but bis lei ling has ma.'e mu more than pru all day, remsluing at liuaic, aud gulag dent, and 1 have been always most re- uot every littiu wulle lo the uuarest bur-revived. 1 hitve uever had any sen ll- room tu drink, aud then cumin r iu still meuiSTO wurm aawrkwdiihiu for other men, and my actlous Would bear the most j-ialous scrutiny. Alter bis tttlulrs nu buslnog siMrs had become hopelessly cutuugled (ibis was lu the third year of our marrisge), ne iLKisietion reiurnin mat, wneru ne i had formerly lived. We stayed there tor a time, aud cuinu back here again, The first year alter our return hums 1 from the West, before he took ibe po-l- Hun tu thu Provost Marshul a olllce, his loxlcattd lhat his caau Would be preju-b ltd is were igaln dreadfully bad, aud diced by that fact. drank II a w ty in wnich n-mu of my runs nnsiruM'-u it. uu wouiu so oui eveuiugs and spend them lu low bsr- room, ino comu nomu at a or o o cioca the mom inn reeking with lluuor. Lhrcuiimts hu nus come nomu beuten ud bruised. While be Is drunk, all the good lu bim is turned toevli; belsslm ply and truly a lleud. UunUclphned in hlslemiierin bis beat momenuj, hu bis then beeu dreadiul, My daillug, I have spent hours and Ignis lu scenes tie lore which trsgedy iuwi pule. I luvu no words to speak i nun. I have tried and do trv to do mv dntv have the most sincere pity for this un- irtuiiHte muu; my bean bleeds fur him trv. Heaven knows, lo be aa uattf nt as c n With ail my troubles, my life is mit as unhappy as his. My beart aud soul are mv own: he cmnot touch them, I pity hliu, but 1 do not love him enough U let mm wouu-i me to ine qnicic. I don i know what lo d-i whai course to t ike. 1 want tu be advised. 1 have rltum these wild words, Incoherently, know, since writing Is not my natural thod of expression. lo uet some this weight ob"m", an) I have tried to write Justly I kuuw I must tu sorm wav protect myself 1mm McFarlaud's intiilu uf reveugiug any careless word up n m. 1 hsve matte un my mind to dav to tell thu blnclalrs that I fear Ihe eu- erosebinents of his habit. I dread mv fu'uruso much, and 1 have my bi'iles to Liit nk of liesl e. Yesierday be drew two weeks or my alary at thu theater and paid the week's isrd bin, aud l foir will spend a good ilea1, of tno m tnoy, While we need much, in liquor. iJun'fcoiuu to me aner reading this; tear I snin repent wriuug iu inUrsfMui'i.V'i AliiiT. P. S-l Just went down lo breakfast ud left bliu lu bed When I came up he was gone! I shall be su auxluua tit lit hi. Tim evening after I thu wrote hor, Mr. McFailuud not coming home. I went lo Mrs. Sinclair's, before going lo Iho the it re, and told her what greatd s tress I was in. Shu then told me she had been herself to Mr. McKirath, who was a friend of Mr. Sinclair s. aud had asked him lor a plucu mr Mr. McFarlaud, tu thu Cu-tom boune, and hu bad pro in is- ed to give bun one. Uui," she added, If he gets drunk habitually, I onu'l ask Mr. SlncUtr to recommend htm, because Mr. MoKlrath will notnlvo a man of such bablis a place" I ihea Implored br to say nothing about it, because be mudgot the place, else I should not know what to do with him: aud she nroinlsetl to aav nothlutr of It. unless s imeihlng more was doue on Mr. Mo Fariand a part. Wiintn a few dava aftee tha 1st of Jannary, 1X07, I found the boarding- hoiisu at Wo hu Ainttv-at Into ur. i ior vsrloiis reasons, ami mmovad ui No. Ti Amity st., taking the hick pulorand extension room for mv rooms, and ore Paring our meuis lor myseir, 1'ercy, and Mr. McFarland. The roous were very comfortable, and I rentnl them from a Mra Mason, who herself rented half Iho hou-e. I took these rooms some- where In the first or second week January. 1 had not moony to in rrom tue n'ner nosMing-plars, and, Informing M r M. Farland nt tha faoi. told me hn 'hould think I would bar row tl from Mra, Calhouu, as she had loaucd mu mnne before!" and I weut hie and luiriMWiil i'JA In nblul.in other sums revived fMm her, boftiro inu to tha house at Nu 72 Am It? At this new pUce, besides going ulghtly Ui nei I -rin mv ntn at tha Winter Oar deu, I wrote during all of my spare mo mtile. being then engaged lo write n- ff marly for tha Uiverside and tha chll (Iron e enlnmn of Tbe Indeiwndi nt. , audeavotlng to do work for Qtliatr pers. Ami 1 also did all th - cooktug for three persons, a large part of tbe washing aud ironing for three, and all the sewing, m-udlug, &c, for my family. Cocjt quently, I had little Uluu for any thlr.g but wotk. tki me where about the last of Juuuai or llrst of February, Mr. Hlcbardson camu to lodge at this bouse. He cam theru Itccause there was ugood l oom va cant there, aud hu was obliged to muvt his lodgings, which wore In the vlclult) and bu told me that be did not wish i niovo very fur, as he expected to leav. the city altogether very soon. He call ed on me when he came to tho house tn sue the room, wnlch wus the first time he ever culled on uie, or that I ever saw hlin iu auy house wUero I was boarding al'houufi I had before mul bim occasion ally at Mrs. Muclulr's, where he wus a fr-queut visitor, aud at Mrs Calhoun's, when he hud been au Inmate of her mother's family On the 4 h of February, Mrs. Sinclair and Mrs. Calhoun wure going to tVtish lnuton. Just before g dng Mr. McFar-laud had a terrible aud unusnally duu gerous attack of rage, of which I told Mrs. Calhoun, bhu said she was afraid to go away and leave me with that mau, for fear he would kill in, and asked li she raiulit tell some of our friends about his conduct, ho ibut we could have some advice In thu matter before she wuut away; but I full as If I could not consent to this, and tuld her so. Mr. Oliver JobPBou told me ufierwurd that she dlu speak tu himself aud Ills wife of bur creat anxiety for me, and her fear that Mr. McFarlaud would murder me In somoofhis paroxysms. Alter Mrs Calhoun and Mrs. Sinclair Were gone, 1 devoted myself m re closely than ever to my work. Mr. Kichurdaou wus there In the same bouse. Hu hud been there a few days, perhaps a week, when they went away. Ou tbu evening of ibo HKh of February, when Mr. McFarUud cume In frum Hie Custom-House, where ho had beeu employed since the 1st of February as clerk In thu olllce, procured fur him through tbu Inllueute of the Bine. air, I was stunding at Mr. Hichardson's door lu thu front hall, and be wus Just handing mc some manuscripts which he had of. fered to leud me to make use of, If 1 c mid, In suiiie literary work. Mr. Hicburdson's room was Used us hi, working room; aud at this time, as at all pans of tbe duy.hu had with bun a stenographer, a messenger-boy, uud an arilsi, who were engaged lu bis literary works When Mr. McFarland came iu be objected so my going to Mr Hichardson's room, to which I replied that "I bad not beeu lu, was nut In tho habit of going there, and even II I bad been lu thure, It was not a putvatc room, but an oil) e In the day tliie," With this the in titer dropped, au i 1 supposed this was all of it; but In a few momeuls Mr. McFarland commenced to suy something aaln on the same sub ject. I saw he was In Ul humor, and I supposed he wished tu mak! anything the pretext for otic of bis pus -do us and I said little or nothing. From this he worked himself np into a grat lury, tu which I left him to go to my ncce-.sary wura at mu meaier. tie cou'iuutd In tate raKB trough the night, and I speut a terrible ulght with him. All througn the next day (the UO) he remained ut noine abusing and tormenting me. II used to ma eXDrusaiuua winch 1 nev.T could forgive or endure; and, hi III harp iiiir on the fact of inv belnir at Mr. Rich. ardsuu's room, asked me before Percv. who was all tbe time present : "Did Mr Kichardsun ever kiss you 7 ' 'Have you ever Deeu lu nis room alone with bliu r ami others which I considered lusulllug and uupardouablu. He was under tho Innuenca of llnrmr muru fariuus. At Ihhi he declared he was willing to be separated from me. and that 1 might go home lo my fultb r's aud leave him. W hen I assented to ibis, he wanted lo bring lu som-of my frle:ds to talk the matter uver before them, but i reiusea to take counsel ot any onu till my lather conld be seut for. And I only prevented bim from rushing uut aud call I ior In aoiuuof mv irlemu b n-nrr. -.en Hug to him tbat hu waa theu so lu- On tbe evenluir of the SOth. before ifo- ini! lo tne lbcalr. 1 SLtruU-d bia ra ir-. bis pocket knife, my scissors, aud all ar iicies 1 considered dai c- rous as L i nueuilv did uu auch uccasiuns aud left nun. When 1 cams home be was still rammr He had freuueuilv made liirc-n. ot commuting suicide, olieu goiug uu ot d-Hirs with that avowed purpuse. On this occasion, about midnight, he bade ma an unusually solemn "eternal tarr- well." and told me lhat this lime he wa- cm-July goiug uut to destroy himself lie hud duue tula so mmy times tbat 1 said nothing, aud nude uo ell irt tu de l-lu bim. At ibe dttor be besltaled, and asked If I bad nothiug to say "lu this parting " 1 said, "I cau ou y say "at 1 am aupciussiy sorry ror you." "o went oui, anu lu a lew minutes re tnrued, as I kuew bo would, cooled and sobered by the cold night, and Uun, It being uearly morning, as mildly auu i unuy at i poasm y coui-i, i uean io iai wun nun. i iota nun uecnu-ai that 1 should leave bim loruver; tnat 1 had boinu with patleucn for many yearc great outrngt-a (r..m him; that hu hat matte my life miserable, aud hui often put mu iu gr at dread of uiy I lie, that 1 uld not endure li auy lunger; that by I bis uutrueous conduct lor iuu two da I pas , and ny tbe language be bad un d wneu ne toun i mu at air. iticnarosuu door, he added the last drop to my cut of endurance and I should no away from btin at once, uu thla be groveled at my leet In ibe must abject penitence Ue wept and sobbtil, and bggtil me l forgive hlin. He confessed thai, ho bad wronged me, tbat no woman would have borne with bltn as 1 had done, and about daylight weut lo sleep exhausted. i The next morning 1 did uut allude to my purpose, but afiur seeing bim leav thu house ior air. aicr.iraihs ouice i went to Mr. Sinclair's and placed myself under Ihe protection of his roof, aud never afterward saw Mr McFarland ex cept otico or twice In tho presence of oilier uu hit haiuwos'i acouaintakc wirn MR and mis cohMvi-uoN wmt my cu. Up lo tho time of hli coming to room atth-sume house In Amity atrcet m acquaintance with Mr Kiciuni-on kid beeu very Oght and formal. Hu was a frequent vlnlior a, the house of two oi my most Intimate friends Mrs Sinclair and Mrs. Ualhouu-in wnoae nmtnei f family bo had been an in mute alter his return from prison, ami wueru bo wus like a son and a brother. 1 met bim there quite oiten, out on very lo'mti terms. At the ilme, on Ibe 1st of Dj otmtier, wneu i was uonuen to wave me nlace in Mac-luugal street, because the boarding-house kit per relu-ed lo keep suy ubo m the proesion oi an actress in h. r hnuae. I spoke uf this Clrcninsunce lolbo family at Mrs Calhoun's Wbeu we u. wrre all at me iiincn taoie, aim sir Hn hartlson ws present. They weio all Indignant, and Mr Ulchardaun, With the friend uesa ami aympatuy wnirn wen tils chiei cnaracunsuca, propusm mat i alvertle for a boarding place. Ho l o said that at the hotie where he lodged of wpm nme vacant room, and that If 1 were to look at ttn ra aud liked them be In would himself siwsk lo the laud lady ul ve my profession, auihelhoughtabe Wtnld on I not object to il he On ihla I called next diy at Hie honse w Intra Mr. Itichantsoa lodged, lMikid ai the vacaut niiiu, and aaw him at thu to lime for a moment In the rrout hdl tn Tha isanma wtra ton einenslve fnf flie gtt- and I took lodBlngsalihaitlme at No.Hfl at lAmltvHt. Hhort v aller tins, aoout un I lat of Decrmber, Mr McFarland, who - fane id Mr i(irbMiHiii nao puma mnu enre In the I'aoimi K-tlUoid, seut me io - call on hlin to ssk for hi aid tn getting a pUoe aa clerk or something of tha ana kind on that railroad, lie nan not into pa- received the place pro mind for him at Mr. McBiruib's depfirtojeut ai the tus-turn Hour". I lie' e wr-ru lb twouixa--toi.s ou which I was at f ho fioui-e where Mr. Uictnrdtou livid. Iu thecoursu of btse inatiio-e he sent oue several Unit 9, one of them luclomug a letter of Intro-luctlou or Mr. McFarland to Mr. Ueorgu F. Triel'i, Q.skuitf suinu favor of ilru uu tho Pacific Hailroad, which I nlitve Mr. McFarlaud presented wlth-'Ut lesult. Tucso notea were all writ-eu by .ur. Itich trdsou'a stenographer, ill of them uns- uied. Tbey reiait d to he favor 1 had asked of Mr. Iticburd-oii at Mr. McFarluud'a auggesuuu, and bis was tlie extent of my aeqaaiutauco v' n ji r. iCtcuardauu up to January leofj. Aiht I reinovid to No. 73 Amlty-st, Ur. Hichartlsou bel.-g obliged sudUeoiy to chuugu his lodiugs, aud knowing 1 was livlug nearly uppositu In thu same street Willi himself, cainu tu see If he oonitl get rooms there. I Introduced mm to Mrs. Mason, the lodging bouse woman, out beyoud that had uo mterest r Iniluenco lu getting bim InsiuIUdj there. Mrs. Mason, wuo Is au Irbb woman, and iu lull sympathy with Mr. McFarlaud, has lu this case made many er- ' runeous -tatetnenis. It I hid any fuel- ' ing abort t Mr U chardnou's coming to take a room so near Mr. McFarlaud and myself, U was oue uf aversion, irom tbe lact that he could not be Hit re without mowing rometblng of my unhappy life, ami I felt keeuly tnat such a kuuvierfgn 'Vuu id pam aud humiliate tue. Hut I cuuJtl uot control the event, snd a'-oitt a muuih before 1 dually left Mr. McFar-latitl, Mr. Jtichurdso.i had comu there tu lodge. I suw him uftcu, ami he did roe many kmduesses, I knew very well de pitied mc, because he thought I waa overworked, and not very happy. Hi treatment i me wus always mostre-i-peel fit l aud reseired. Tu.-rt; was never, prior to my leaving Mr McPariand, a Word or eveu a look passed Dei ween US Whlcll I should not oo glad now II' all iuu world bud seeu aud board. Hu called sometimes at my room, which was ntxt his, but from Its situation, uud thu fact that It wis mysleep-lug-room, parlor, and dlnlu-rooiu la one, U was iu uj sense a private. room. ly boy, who was theu avi-n )ears uld, wasalwaya with me, and Mr. Uicbanl sou's calls were made u-ualiy in the sf-ternoou aoout thu time begot thruunh work, ami u lienor alter Mr. McFarlaud had got buine frum duwu town. This is the exact and careful statement of niy scquaiutauce wlih Mr. H cnaulnon up to thu tunc of my separation frura Mr. McFarlaud. Ine utiernoon, or night of the 20th of February, wuile Mr. McFarland wus in his worst rage, 1 wrote in uiy d rest. lug-room ut thu t busier a letter lo Mrs. Sin clair aud Mrs. Caluouu, theu in Wash ington, lulling them wuut I wassud'-r-ing, and toy lejrs lur my suluty I telt that If M". McFarland shomd murder melu Home of his uutburcis, It waa right that they should know tbu very wort,and I was fruuK to thu utmost. Tney unswurcd that 1 tier ou thu In stant, with tho two onoltt aud womiuly let ers which have b sen already pr dactd u print as vi deuce oi "liieir conspiracy to tuko a duvutuJ vtlfe Irom a loving ulU cmviiroua busoaud. On t io lust nlylit of my life with Mr. McFarland, the night oi thu UOib of Feb ruary, It happened, as was not usual, thai Air. Jticuaruson was in nis room thu whole eveumg. Uo almost al way i spent bis uvuuiugs at Mrs. Gilbert's, which was his homu la New York, uud where bo was loved liku a sun. He has since told mu tbat be heard the greater part of what bad passed that ulnht, us wus unavoidable Irom tbe position of bis room, ami that uu feared bo might bu obi I uud to call blp,or himself luttfitro lu my behalf agnlust Mr. Mc-Firlund'a violeece. The uexitfay, when 1 lell my looms ivo tu Mr Mnolalr'e, 1 fail ml Mr. lticharusoo there when i eo-lered. No one erne wa present but Mist Perry, Mrs. Hiuclair'a older sister. Under unliuary ckrenm-xtauces L should have cuutrulled mysuif uulli I could see Miss Perry aloo ; but woiuontus I was by ibe misery and excitements of the last iwo days, and tbe fuel that 1 had still beeu obliged to) keep at wurk at home a ut) at ibe thea'ur, i brokmlown, aud burst into tears ua soon us 1 entered tbe room. As soon as I could sp uk 1 beg iu tu talk Ui the ui bj'-h. Mr. Itdi-anlnuu sild very little. IretiHuib- r bo sain, ' i his is a mum r lu which 1 cmi-uot advise you, lur. whiteVi ryou mike up yuiir mind todo, I sliU 1 be glad to help yon in." He (i'ut imp me In ten tlumsind ways in which L never should buvu pcruilt-ud hlin to tuk-i part li I hid had the rdlgUluSt KUOWOtlfcUUl the Itl-dllg HlllCll Wus tu giOW Up between IH. He II- Iptd uie iiiako arraiigriiiM.ts tu stool IVrcy ionic, wtitcu wus Uie llrt tinng I ws aiiXloim tu do. Hu tvli -grapbeo lor mo tu iuu- or two Irli-uds. and tvrote to .Mis Cilll iuu uud Mrx. S ih l iirof lltes't p hidlakcii, wtiii Ii L asked h m o do ut once. Ad lliesu llt'iigs win U i tMUiiioU urn Mice would li tvu ur.-vt-iiu-d lion doing II there bad Oe-u auy guilty recret beiWiH-u us or any reluiou ix.epi the sluiplit oue ou bis part of syiiips by 0 wirtl a veiy wieiou d wouuu, ho old openly uud unreservedly, Hu stw Mr. ticFarluud aud told hittt he Has my fru-nd to till-, and that lm had tele- grih d to tny fatnor to cume on. Ou t u lilt i my fa' ber csme, and on tho U u, iu thu pr-euc4uf Mr aud Mm Oliver Jonns-di, Mr etiuclatr, and myf-ith-fraud Mr. McFarlaud, I auuuumed to him uiv a'liolute tlnbermlnuiiou to leavo mm. 1 told hlin h knew ho had lo my atleciloiin yetrs b:lore, aud thtl what L uow did would b. ilual. I ankd very little citvpt this, for any bIIU'Ioii to bis induct Mr. Mi r arlau liiierruoteu Im mediately. It at be was uuuuallv calm irhlm.anl said aevrral ilmea that be scceptid uiy decision as llnul,and add bow to it aud sunmlt. to It- 1 treuutl h in wltb a u'eatiU-al uf pity, as ultvuya had, and urged my fa'b r to no iiume and reuiaiu ail uight with him to lint be did uothlngtleiK-rate in coUise, hlaconaiuut threat that he would commit suicide, aud thst.lu such a cuse, Ida blood would bu on mv head," hail always cau set I uie s-one amluty, which I am now convinced I might have spurttl myself. Too i von'ng a'tcr this dons ration took plaeo Mr. liiuitirtlsoii called at Mr Sin ciair'a and stayed an hour or two with tlie family. He told us all that In a few duye hu was going io Hartford to finish his book: l was going to Massachusetts bo?ibof April, when my cousin nmut expired at ibu ibeater, nn-1 1 thought If he went uwuy tn a dny or two l mtghi not see hlin sgiio, so when he arose tbat ovetilog, I weut to the door to say what I could not iy before tbe others bat be bad beeu wry, VKiiYgood tome, thU I tnvurcoiiol reiny him, but tbat Uud wou tl surely bl.-ss HI u ior It. I could not say tula without strong emotion, and while I spoke, hu said i "How lo you feel abont facing ihe world with two Itablisf I ans-ven-l! "It Inoka hard lor a Womau, but Uk ii, I am sure I can get on heller without that man. than witb bim." At mil Mr khsrdon. still holding my band, winch 1 had given bun to say "good, bye, ptoopru tiown, and, speaking lu a lower tone so that be could not be ht-ard through the door opening luto c par or wheie the others uni aiittuu: ' I wii-u you to remrmoer, my child, that any rtspiuslblllly lhat iu choose to give me In anypoMiblo future, I sbill bv glad to take. 1 I tblutc tboau were lea extct words. And with thla.hu w nt awsywhliout a tlngla word more u tig sp ok. u by either of us. I tumid and wnt upstairs an t said nothing loany one Hut night. It nuy have Is D Iwo U)H UitT Mr. Itirhard stiu csli.d sgaln. Dhtvind 1 was In Hie parlor ii'ins whi-n tie t amo In In Kit talk vililcli tHik pisre tin n, be told me that during tlw storms of the last ffW iluvsol my life he hid become Inter-uirl In me su I very (ond of me, that I waa Hie womm of all tha world whom he had seen in whom bt Would glstlly Intrust the caro of his inoitierl.e child rcu; th-ii my prusVtiee and rvervedur VnHmltt en VkrA ftp)

OOLU MBUS, OHIO, FKIO A Y, Ma Y lc VOL. XXXII. 170. No. OHIO STATE JOURNAL. N V A 11 I 11 r. V IN ADY1M0I ihii.v i in not: mul In advanr, cr no mini ..! 1)11 P. (IIUllUll .. 4 AO j i li .j Ou I ilo Cl'ita f n-.e diii iqi Ni ibli tlu )u lo do 0 moiitlit, do do d.i do lutiuUu, Una coi y xtr to clubi il t' n. i). livercd by t tiuiut. l-ir u.iiUlii o .. 0 4 00 tf JO 'I- II I . w r. I- It I, V E l T I O V, Ultl.lSllKU KVBUV TfB"liAY, TUUKs"- DAY iMi bAlX'UDW MUllNlNOi B(loubw:til:i, t 'Milium 4 AO (III till f' UiHitliri k If. I il Ui JiiKiuit I 1A 'o ilii l iu inm ClniMuf flv. nd upi-itd, eutli oi do du n in .ruin di iln '! 3 "I .l;' Ow co;y xtr to tlubn of tuu. t 4 I'll V 00 I 0 vi:i:iii.v r.nrno.v, TCULLtSflfcU KVKHV BATUUUAY: Bin;.-lii lutHiintoti, r timim t'i CO ti aiublb.. I uo Five Colli)' ..... H OO ..... '4 OO BA UO AO 00 T0 (V Tvwntjr L'opl fitly Cn RATES OF ADVERIISINQ A ri.Vil.... -nrnr... t-arh insert I nil bp. c il in limine" No ice, pit WftHIV mill 111 'iTltflU I lrtc.il Noiic, Htf .-tu. Uur.tlr..i inbrti..D. A(lrUnn.nti oao H etu cumiRl lull m(i;-'i''li IiiK'i'ioii. J'RT- WKI'.lkLV-tiiunwiw Hilly. WliKttlY. -Hic nuiir-, Hmi inwrHfll...... 1 n fcuch ui .lti'in tl in vil ion I loiea- ur H'iiinw- holife-a, fur linn e,uh mi-filum SwTEnfM llni-H or 1-r in -i jni'. AJceiUin'in. Dm tut wiitt tuttt- nwisxl t O'T it-jplHi-eacU ru, wui-ti be I' .rummd ou p JrllCtlltlll. ui sitot imtc-ioitv. I "We invite tlie atttution of onr readers to thowlloivmnstol Uulurainw Buaiuea Hmufn.whichartaiaouirtiiomobtreliabie aud extiiaHivu enUbiiBliutout8 in this city, ai it'll i-:v It. KlUU A'-fornf t Itw. H-jiuoi d to Ko. 16 Nortb H.C. UOVtMAN, Att(.rnry-t-L. OUims, II Liut bUttf r.Met, Oilufabu. ml: AUolt;ytl' 117 Huuth High t. 1 J. nill'cUl-'lKLL-, Att..rm'7-idOaUttMi.iuri-uiiW. Uffiw Id Cilj Jt.iUA itibUuitf. 11KA- Kli NASH. ttonie)-iit-lvT UiUue, Mo. (iu Uuutb HiKli St., Arntid Hinlilm. AltUiUTl'. H T. UK HK&, .ArMiitMt.avt, to u.r, c Otliwi.H. E. oor. Ulnil ttl.J tjUi U.. ill ilOiJf. I1UI.II A. VI U. ULVOU. iVinc m L'ifffr Ik-t-r -u.n.iii. I'ttie W nr, Drau-iituji i.inui.m voi.t iiit mill iWM.Hitfut til.. I A It UK. kXCfcl.SinK ll.liLlAuU li.vl.l'. ',T-nT.utnl i'u '' Ai.u -, t.niu-it tbe '.H!1.! , 21 noottl Hik'i Htr.-cU lliuKIlitt.lti. . C11AS. O. PiKLW, PinA. bir..li.'f aua HKiik b.i,n Minutartar-r ir.imi 'i.lbt work d FtTiotliuatri buiiu.i i vr-vt it ui,r nmiM. M ki mul iK .-oi(li IlLli Stmt W.,Kh TA 11' All C.;M!.YbU1 III, tttatlor m, aud lie i.lh iu fcu op 1, itenuint Arawl 1' C t on- b W ti it two O n nig un). tii.il. ul a -1 nr-timi' wus IU L. Mint - 11. uuiti(ii:it. Uhu aduivr. a'wu iu ail kind bl DmiU mal cliuo-. N twi w-lb Uiubi. tlnAHN AU I OH AC . UMTTK to rilllTIL Haniifaotnipti ! n.l w ..iaIo nd retitt deal- Whole-ata aad 1I.-im t- air iu t'iri. H tub Uitf l (,iKnuiloi ia. ii . mni Itni'k kl'N OAl. UJ ' VllOlfHtbl. : liixh at. Ik-tau di-lr in "Hi Nottl J1AI'. LAV Kit, B,c II. F rtlfYDAll. It 'll- r In b'St .iiaiui 01 Uu.'ki.i Coal. OlHc Inot ul l;i"liHt i Htui.d. WhI hil Hl Ciiiia' hi IDMltllU AW UI.M'lllllAVr. ; Vikbrn mui.,iu . dea.ii in Co rutu tiuiU, Tot Ac.; tlyiura, Finliand .tarns ul n am uih-m.io IU I A. 1,1 I II. I. Al DI.SKH ttf. J..I.K 1'A. Tr.lt U.. I li.iil" T11. and w.e Hiwr F.jw V.'.ll I4J-V U'.MlB 'n-.-iyrr IWMlU tt.ki i.uihia " J..HKI'I1 MATT. Iipls l.t i en, ' oUi U I h St rictcnp- lion iart-iaii o iui"" - II U V lftlil. iimKiI(N fKttMHIW A ft I.. HuoroMan 10 J. i OA-em Vo,. Hi 8. Hl(h St. I'i La. Almiim!.'!. All'l'oll, Vcl.i'I, 111 M . tn -id loan to wlii MBJvin it U-iluutf. Ol C'ulh -up-nt Fuv r oiKHiii. i v 9 1 t "l'ul.1! MIll'S t'AlUN'KiMIJ . M 0ttrAturr of U kin-uul Furniure, rhitw. . tV'iutMals aud uLul ViuvtMut Jwl a. H.tfhlit. iilllfl FI'tlMiTl'Ilk: IHl.. ndf -uii. w n lomniii, i iiw ujihwihwi. ijiimfi nii WlmlM.I. .id ..:'. I w ...Ch..io Tl Wn ar l llnm.llc t.ulta, o. No. M Uli"t. IIAiH, I N ..III. 0.niMAn i.nmvlu. M iiiur.wat'.r ol ll.u ditMiiiHl tut., .nil rtl.r JKl:i.UV Arl W A I'o.i ... jT alitDHAV. Jni.i. by ... llrumiiuj .'.u wi. w a a i. i.RsuiTKRKPX. Whnltiai aad lUuii orairre in Watch, Cloau . r."i,.p M-r--"'. intllU.lA I I AI..UHK. M.ttb.n T.Ll' NolVli"!!!,!! iluor. Dnrtli ol 'i.y. THU OHIO MKltCUAN r TaIiAIUIMQ AkU lUHouth Blffh .t u.au'iiuiu U.d.toOid.r. KM(lrinMl. ''loinin. Daa. iuH. UUNIIKHHIIKIMKIL' . ... ...1 nu runubiu oii 1 mui hoiu. MnniniTi 101 Mia o,,i.r id iiaTmiv.wM.. I niii'im.. nn.l.iM;u, HAKPKR. ...JaiM. ... uu. a noun. J. H. WILKIK. 'PMhlMi.bl.Mlliln.iT.UrMM Trinmlair. F.ni Oood . ar. laurloa h Hih rt., up. Uoud. Uoum a W. HI V MllNH. ttlmlrMk M. H. tU Hm.l1.r7 UOOdf. ltl aoatA 1.11,11 HUH. aiiMitisBtt a aiiauk. &Mmhm Mttnhuta. AarUar la U SUda at WotlV rwtMiB,, uW, lafMta, Ma JB. BVtMf F.oratb. Nnw Y -rk Tritmn., M.y II THE TRUTH AT LAST. Mrs, Richardson's Statement. Her t-HI I Mioryof Hnr tlHrried I Ife-Hr ItulutioiiM o KlcliurtUoil Irom ttrwi i l. Itu lirduu. Nettled Sluiuuiunl i.fl c Opeuvd Kim's Ntutuiui'i.t L'oucurnt'. I III' ll!rr4tuitrf JtltrrlHHu'-A U. Hlili urdnun'h MtiUioruuduiu lur 4 U iU hTATtilHN'r AND AFFIDAVIT OK MRS. A I. lUCUAliUbUN. jjut fljr ttny aMomp-at my uwa viu icullun Jo 1 write iliif uxiilauttthtu. liuti f'T iuh titikH of tUe uo tile in co bdiI womtu wliu havostoou njr iuu ttiruun all rcvlliun-, ofitn with ul any XiUuitiii) from tue, auU al wuyH lu itu; mil luUU that, 1 whs uiohi cruelly w run ued ; fur tbulr sitlcu, auti for lib wtio lust li' iU lu my U'hlf, 1 rtfh io It 11 the whole siory of lay Uif. vVIko I wus oaceftJviseU io dobo auo tti'stidU'il, a good woiuiil oald to Uih. nut bo ill rat J to tell your alury ouce to alt the world. Tell It ui.ct exactly an you wuald it 11 It to your Ala lur, uil l lien ktep ulltncu furaver after." AuU thla Is wbiit 1 mean to do: to writu as cxuctlv as 1 can trie wbole am) t 09L4100U! trutb to tun mitiuleut detail, re strvniif nothing ana txtuuuaung noiu- lllR. it To but viry few of them have I ever told myitury. To a very aacred few 0 uve uy lips been unhealed. Aud tu ilie h ist uf tfeueruua mea aud woiuto kuuwu aud uKnuwu, wliohave upborut me wneu the Wuy Was very dark aud liar it lor a woman's feet tu tread-- abuvt- il to tlie wuiueu, brave aud uoblu be yuo1 ciprunntKQ, hoae aympatby hah lorever rtfutud I lie alaudtr tbat wuiueu are not generous to oue of tbelrowu MtxU) iiitm, 1 lay bare my heart O; an toy woaieu riienaa irom eanieat Rin tiooii. 1 kuuw of not one who liaa fallen nlt'lrum melu my great troaoie. Not miigie one. 11 it naa not oeeu ior vku unwcrviutru(t aud lu? aid armpit my; for tu redlutaa tin y have mowu Kiueni uie oeitr up niy inuvy uiiriicun; lur tint hravi ry with wuicU they tiav- rendtd me wUeru It wa a rturoucn to du a i 11 it bad uot bceu fir the in, I bt- iuvu 1 hlioald nave beeu uteii ori.clitd. I tiave accepted tUelr luvlup syuipaibyaa the oue cumpeucatiou for II tnu uiiHpeakuble mlry l my li r. 1 married ifulel 41 c bar la tin lu iwn I wua a girl of VJ, bora in Massac du ; iettn, aud educated lu New Kugltud ictiools. 1 bad bevn a ttacber ami wa I n hi bi-glotiinp: to write a Utile for the prt-as. UanWI UcF-trlaud w ta an Irlsb mau of HI or 38. wtioiud received a par ilal course at DartnioOtn Lollec . aud nad, seveu years before I kuc w QiiD,liern Admitted to the MasitucuUieUa bur. Wbeu I married bun, he rvpreseut.d tu melf tu be member uf the bir Id VUUihud, WtstODhin, with a fl'iurbbliig law practice, brilllHDt political proa-(if etc, aud pi8f'ed of pioeriy to the amouut ( f 20 000 or flO.UOU lie aln rultniied lo be a uiun uf temperate bub itit, ol the parent morale, aud, pr vloun to uiy roan inge, upp med ueliUer lultw-erate, 1 or biutal, nor proiaue. Imuiediuti'iv alter our marrlusi! we miidt' some viflla and ilieti wvut to ilui sun, an I tmpponed, to rtMe permmeut- lv. 1 reiiiuuiOLr wo were detained iu New York ilurlurf our very bridal tour while he burrowed the mtity to get lark to the West. Aner we uni bevii 11 Alii'linou a few weeva Mr. McFuraml uiformetl iuu that be wis g lut to remove to New York, that all his proper ty cuimlnied of Wmcouln State lands to tbu amount of a good tnauy tbuuraiid nerec, uu wit leu only a amuil aiuuunt p r Here was paid, lie told me lira mere were Urge opfionunltlea for trad- ng llitsu Uuoa lu Rett lurk city, aud iutt he wh uoiug lo re-Ue theie wiilie ne dtp ed of iinui for retl tgiaeor tteisutml property. Ue told me at the ime time that he bad no money txeep juit ttulllcb-nt to piiy onr fares to lh tviiHt, aud tlint be never bad any law ,irucnce uf i'ou sequence, hnvlutf devoted 111-11 Mikiy to laud biecU:auoua in the West. Wr came to New Y"rk, conflenucntlv. lu Pthruary, 18 8. 1 .an taken ill uu Uut way witti a violent cold and frvtr. iiid wu were detnlnid In H icbeater leu luva. Ou leaving It iciifati he bad to leave his watch and ctuln lo pawn with : hotel keeper for our board bill. In Nw Vrk city be kept me three or fmr weeks, and theu taking all the jewelry I d do Hit) pawu irukerB, lo pay the lourd "111, he mutt me home o my fath er s In new Hampshire, I tdmply tell theHo Uiiugs tu give seme Idea uf bow ihfy moot have elleuud a young girl fretd) fr m a cntuforitiblu Nw England couutry buine, to whnui a pavtibnki r's u wanamiurit uu unlietrd-'M tmsutu tl in, and ut to convey the Idea that it was his poverty which shocked or ea trjii'd me. 1 went bo in u then in Iefl than three mow In alter niarrUgi;, lie gave m no diiectiuns where to write him, aud for f'Mirtn-u days 1 n. Vtf beard from him. Nesily b-siile mytk-ir from auxiuiy, 1 weut lo N-w llivio, and from Himur teh-grrtped to a friend of his lu Nw York lor uewu ol bim. lleapp-ared lu two or Mine diy lu atiower Lo the telegram I lien, for the nrt iihr. 1 bad a vuue 11 f pic lo t tbit be uiliiht ou lutemiHirsu. but l Knew uotuing about intetuperauce l had never in all my lfe seeu a man trunk, except some accidental drunkard u me nirtet, and 1 trlto to dismiss the usplclon. Iu a week or two 1 agalu wetit to my lathers, and remnued through the summer of l-8 Durum bis time ho came odco or twice to vltdi iu. and seemed to be attuched lu me. Uut during the short time 1 bud lived with him. I dlicori-rd that he wat uot te in (a; ran- ( ilihuiili 1 had not then s-eu tn groily luoxicaitdf tnsine waster-rlhiy roUue In mypnaeuoe, and that itls it m pi r wi-s Very tltful aud pan ion-ate, asd tbat fr some siluht or f4tiob'd oaums hu would bt-comu iuilen and in ruse, nutsiM'aklugio me lor a diy or two. In did uni leave my father s roof in tin iriiot 10.13 wHuum many misaivii'gs ; but L was Vrry y ng ami Very cbeeriul ID (iinirusltloii, and honed rr the oest on returning lo new xorx nr. mc Farland hired a oottace In 13 rook 'v it, and furul-bed two or three rooms. F r a few weeks I kept a servsnt, but other- wine I lived all alone, almost without aroiialutanci a, and entirely at this man's mercy, home 01 tue nmu iernps ba f of the time he was good to me, aud urofissid for ido the mosteitrava gant aud passloDtte devotion, ilut he here Drst m'uan to come noma intnxi oated. lie would also coins borne sober. brlmtlna with bltn bullies called "dcldedam Schntpiw, containing a quart or ao of vile liquor, and would put them DV uu oeuiioe, a no oriux some- tiroes tje whole before morning When 1 ,.u,,.,rt him tint bi flit h i hw aal.l "h i bralu was on tire," and this mads hlin sleep. Thla Is the first time he began to ..it mi atuiitt hi "hraln liHtmr tin Hm' Whlcll III tT0Cll tipnwlon Uh hlin rt.r ho hail t to drluklnii, ,011 hi ulch io m.njr ptopla h.va w.Ufluil to hi. uxloit. n tn. rrcml trl.l fur hi. Uf. A. thla wu oult two or thrt mnoih. Iwfura mi Drat child tu b'iro, d all my aeiiwa men Bprvnumy acuta, ann aa , - .. - , I w. aiao. aa 1 Miiierr. a woui.o 01 rt- until uiaia auu iwiidk, hi. urvain .an whola body alutnilnK with the Tile lliiior which he drank during th.ee nlj-ou while I la? awake bnirfo him, mail. Iw I ....... . I i.-.. u Ixta married to him a tear my alTiOtlon lor hlin waa trry roucn cnuivo, 1 miani bt n.arlt deetroyrd. Dortni thla Fall ol W'S he rnaila two or three tradn of hit Wl'ooualn landa riir real eatale, and had made what he oallrd riorllent bar- aalna. Ilut durlna; all the time 1 waa a opprtaeea aiwaja oy want 01 muney, ana with areat dkftlculty not a acaaty ward- rube ror my baby, which was born la Dace mix-r. m. la Novajmbtrmriiilff came to visit I ma, and thsa 1 nnl away my mi van, and we did the nouns work. Dunug her visit, McFarUud took her to a muitnee at the theater; left her and returned at tb close ul the niailueo grossly Intoxicated; made love lu ber iu bta druukeu loohsbuess, aud frightened her exceed-Inuly. Wbeu 1 reproached him with thla conduct ho flwre b would never drluk uguin, aud ilrew up a wrlueu pledge to tbut elfect, whlcU be kept p pareully fur several mouibs. At Cbrbt-iDaa lime my baby was born, my moth n com lug ou to nurse me, and early lu the ptton i went home aain. My biby died at my lather e, aud wan buried iu our family burial place, my father bear lug tha iuuerul excuses, lu July ol 't)l 1 returned again to Mr. McFariaud. 1 reuiaiutd wuubim Ibis time about three uiouius. My heart was soreiy bruliud by tlie dudtb of my baOy, uud I was less aide to beir up under tbe brutality aud violence of Mr. Mc Far laud's temper. 1 will not cuter Into the details uf hia treatmeut uf me during these three inuuths but It wus so bid that I went oack to my father's lu Octooer, lHjtt, and reuiuiuifd almost A year, till Au-tfust, IbbJ. At this time, lu October, lbjU, wueul returned home. If 1 bad nad courage to have told my mother and father uf my troubled life, 1 stiouid prob ably never have returned to th'S man But I could uot spv.-ak. It wa so hard a thing 10 tell, aly ideas ol a wife's duties were most conservative. 1 believed jibe should suffer almost uuto death rather man resist the laws ol marriage. 1 Qad a conscience sensitive tu auy ap peals agaiust Itself, audi tried hard to love my husband and couvuCd myself I was lu the wrung JiHles, XWiS ex peeling, in a few muuths, the birth of auother child. No one snail say 1 mean , his narrative as an appeal losympaihy, out ihuse who believe tu my truth must see my case was hard, and realize Borne- j What Ibu suherlng I eudured. I Iu April, lelid, uiy sucoud child, IVrcy, j was born. W ulle at home during these , ten months Mr. McFarUud had rep re- j seuled to me tbat he Wis doing exceed 1 lugly well In busUee, and huU made large trades for real estate to the am juut of uiuuy thousand dollars. 1 lived at my faluer a duroig this year, which be descnoed u the ''guar ur hts prosperity, , und did uot share in it. i'artuf mis time, for the drat and only Lime in my married life, I paid a very urn ill ,-uiu lur my board, which was all 1 ever paid lu niy luug and repeated vlatts to my ftthct's bouse. I meuttun tula oecau-e Mr. McFartaud claims t j have suppurt- rd me while at my home Two ut my ! cnildreu were bora at borne, aud the ex-peusea came principally ou my father, although at tbe ninh ol my youuuest child 1 paid my physician's bill myself with the results ul a public readiug wnlch 1 gave lor thu purpose. Iu lHb'J, after I returued to Mr. Mc-Fanaud a suit was 0 ought against him , oy some oue to W If cousin for some mouey which was, as 1 believe, the borrowed capital with wuicb his Western lands bad Oeeu pnrohased. The suit Whb decided ugnust luiu by Judge Luouurd of New Yoik city. While it was p ud-; lug sir. nctaiiaua onitreu me .o puck up my ir units aud be ready lu leave the city, as he mlt(bl at any tliUw oe urrested and ptevunlid from leaving the Scute. , 00 ugaiu lu Decern uer, IwiJ, I was sent back lo my lathers witn my btby now six months old. Mr. McFariaad soon lulu wed me there aud he stayed till February, wtieu he told me agtilu to get ready aud go away with him He had at tuls tlnief l,2u0 which wus the lurgeht amount of money 1 ever kuew htm lo 1 have at auy lime, and wnlch he said he I had got Irom the aie uf a piece ol pro-1 per'.y, put out of bis bnds at thu time j judgment was oblitued against him. With tuls he rMtrua with myneir and Percy for PntladeipbU, wbero he left me say bghewas going on to Wa-hmgiuu ' tu seek uillce under Jjiucom s l u coin tug uduilnisiralion lu lew weeks he re turned and told me hu was goiuu West again, as hu was disappointed lu his political expectation. bo he Wiiit West lu the Spring uf I81SI just as the tioathcru guus wt re opt nei d on t ort su inter we wul b u k to Madipoa where we bad lived pre-1 vluu ly, took a small bouse aud weut to duct aud ihia abuse for hours, wntiotit bousi keeping. Wu lived here a year ud a syllable ur a motion b-ing made on my two months, and this wus the happiest part, and would theu burst Intotmrs, t me ul my life with him, althuugh 1 did j beg my pardon, say 1 wus the best wu-my own nousework most uf Hie lime muu who ev?r livtd. and llien goto and took cure of my bahy. lint I wus okep xtiuuud. I uever told hlin alu-r so thoroughly weary of the ternb e vu- tuls Winter tnat 1 could lorulvuor could abondiKh ilie I bad always lived with uve him, although tie sumetim-s lui-Ihls mau, that under sliU"bt any condl- pluied iuu lo do so, because 1 could uot tiun a hoiiw I could call vum seiued de ; say bo with truth. Ueuerally I told him llubUul Ui me. Mr McFarUud uver i I pitted htm, widen wus true, tioiu'- did auy work while lu Madison, or earned auy money i nvm witn x treme economy aud lie hai fuu or f !1UU It-It. when be reach if i Malison wiiieh wild Ihe addition of ik.UU or flOO more he received from the stle of a ir ct of laud A htch he owned somewhere. bouub the lurulturo for Our little houre uud supported us fir the 14 months we lived therr. At tna rxpirniiuu uf mis time McFarUud bt gnu t grow more and iu ru inoiost) and lll-'emiwitd, and told m ll ially be wan gut" lug out of muney and had no wy ul g-Htiug any 1 te tiideavond to get a pub! ic ofllce uf some kind In Madison lint was not supplied even bv tbo-e on whom he coumed as his friends. 1 had atiract d some attention lu p'tvaie circles oy my read uu, and had ttUeu a pu'dic iiathug fr the bi-n-ill of a soldiers hopkta. Ou this Mr. McFarlaud pro(oitil lo me ti at he should mke me to New York and li ve me Ulted for Hp stsge lu tin-prof fSlou uf au actress, lie also aunounci d that he shoald himself adopt tbu profession of an aeior In case my sucresa became asurtd. lie had tieen at some tone a teacher of elocuit-iu tn u military suiiool lu Maryland aud bu bi'ifan training mu iu tue readiug of siuge puric. lu Juue. vmi. he sold an our irue fnruliure In Madison and brought me Kat, tlrst going lo m? fathers in We l unnshlre, io i avomy mue rcrcy, to thai 1 could devote all my time lo thu stage. He made no secret oi ibis io my pireuts, who did not approve ol this steoon his pan, but did not Interpose, ou thu contf 'rvaliVaj Puritan ground that eveu the oarems have uo r luh t to Inter ferula the siinrsoi nu-ouiu aun woe. We went to New York, hoar Hug first ou llfach Ut , and afterward with Mrs on v.t. at BM Varlck St,. In the same vlclul ty. As soon aa we were nettle In the llrstoflhopUces, Mr. McFarhnd began drilling ma for the stage, which L m-ty say here, was the first aud on'y Instruc llou ol auy Kino wnaisuever ua ever gave me; and he a'sos nt me to take lessons of Mr. and AliH ueo. vandenhou, to be tltud for tbe aiaiiff I also beta n to give readings this b all, and pitd our board during ine laii aim winter wnu my own earnings. At Christinas lMit'J, 1 waft so anxious v nave rercy whq me and I felt so hopeful of dolug well dur lug the winter with the nrain-uic rctii tnira which I had begun, that I sent Mr McFarland to New-Hampshire to get Percy, Who had been all thla time at my father's. On tlnsoccHou Mr. Me bar land took with bltn all the HtUe stock of luwels I 0'ia-eaawl my rlnrf. brooches. waicn U d Ch-in twnion nao uy iuib iiim been so fr nuently pawnett anil repawn ed that I did not care for them), and sold them all In llouu. These were tbe last lewels 1 aver possessed, except a ptali gold ring, wnico is tne wetming ring placro ou my uaun oy my ueao nusnann Mr. McFarland was Duspeakablvornel to me thla Fall aud winter of lHili) and 18(13, while we board d at No. W Varlck street. We occupied the only sleep- tue apartment on the parlor Door, and he could give full scope to h's furies without fearofbflng overheanl. I was all the lime working haid to study for the profrasiuu for which hs ban design ed me, and lo make a suoceaa lu dramat ic readings, ny wnirn i waa support! n both bim and myself, l was sun v: vourni. and vert prond and reticent. had a mustuouaai chrerfulooas and etas tic ty of temper or 1 never should have lived Mirouiih so heavy trlala. Us wou lock himself Into the ro)m with me, alve way to such terrible furies tbat uud on ly the sxtramaat pride, and salf oontrol prevented roe from making my misery kuown. He brouubt, Imrao what be pro-lesed was prulc acid, and thr'ii'd lo take It and 10 force mn tolike P.. II-' would anaich my lsiura fnn my work-basket, and, teaiing opeu his breasr, he would traudislt tbem about, swearing he would "let out his heart's blood" before me. tie tuld me ('h'in a a'irluktiig glrl)tbut be kept loaded pistols with which he wool! at any moment shoot me. lie left me one evening, declaring lie should shoot a gi-ntlemnn b eaune he had luvlted me to join himself and wife and auotnt-r lady in a ptrty to some pu'dic picture-gallery, although I hid the must general acquaintance with the party and retused tbu invitation as -oon.au made Heraraiy uroUssed to bej nloiMot in', howt-v.-r. My'cof-duct gave b m no sfi dow of a cause. I owe it to ruyst'ir lo say that In my lung and pato ul life, I h.Vti seen many happy women, shielded by borne, by loving and gout husbands, and all that protects aud guards a wo in bo's houor, and, that never have I seen one thus guarded und cberlxhed who was more faltblul lo her wedded vows than I was tu the unhappy marriage re ailon lu which I lived, under the protection of a druuken and brutal master, and obliged agika and agalu to leave tbe boarding-houses 1 called houits to earn tne means to piyfor the r shelter. Ho much I shall say, eveu at tbe risk of seeming over bold in siying so. And In all my Journeys away from Mr. McFarlaud, when I went atone to read lu pu'Mlc, my prudence protected me even from gallantry or compliment, and 1 madn my successes am na the ut-si aud most couservative audiences. Oue morning during ibis winter which I am now describing, after Mr. McFarlaud had been out nearly all nlaht In a drunken orgle aud had rleeii from bed lo one of bis worst tempers, I approached him as he stood by the mirror fiui-mug his toiht aud beuau to say something soothing to prevent tho utitbuistof 111 temper whldi 1 teand was soou coming He turned around and struck me ahluw across ray face which m ule me reel back ward. Although be had often ptuched and bit me in some of h's tits ol druuk cum s, hu bad never before struck me so cruel and cold-blooded a blow. I felt as I shall never forget. 1 think an American woman dues nit easily forgive a blow like that. Atall events I reuiein- hvrlsuld to hlin without raising my Voice, "I shall never be siilo to Imglve you such an outrage," uud I think I uev- , er could forgive It. From that time 1 1 took an entirely din-rent course wan him when In oue of these furies. I had shed a great many tears under his cruelty, had tried to reason with bim, had tiird eutreutles and persir..dunH. After this, whenever he whs lu one of his iur- oxysms as be himself called them I never moved or spuku, our, keeping perfectly self-controlled as far as I could, I sa quiet, always keeping my eye on bltn becau-e I always faucied as long as I louked steadily at hi in he would nut do me auy mortal vtuleuce- And I believe now as L believed th-n, lint my I lie bus been suved by this silence andseli'-cou-trol lie has sometimes uppruacued me with his bauds extended, l he Angers bent like claw.", as if he were a';otit to clutch my throat uud c led, "How I would 11 ke Uke. to siraugiu you " Or "your life is buuud sumo lime to cud iu tragedy. Or '7'dir blood will be n your own bead," aud has, as I think, 1 eeures-ruined because I simply looked ut h'.ul with out saying a wotd. In these luiltsim wouiu 01 ten seize and oreak auythlug which was at hand lamp, glasses, mirrciie, and HuiueUnn 8 the heavier lumnure 01 the room, un co he would rise from bed In these lu- coutrollable attacks of passion tearlug away all thu bid-clothing, tearlug lu shreds his own nlg'it clothing, tnroivlrig anyttilnu he could flad which wastireuk-able crashlnu; about the uuligh-d room, till It has M-emud t me as il iheru could bu no I'iuileinunium worse tluu that In which I lived. And all this he would du wlihuut explauatlou ur even a pretext for complaint agaiust me, and when L knew uo more what excited bis frenzy than abiho unoorn. He would sometimes keep op this con 11 1 mea he said, ' lour d d silence irrl tnUa n.e more tliuu if you talked;" but 1 us sure my course whb tbu best. At the time hu struck me this severe oW lu 1HU4 L told Mis. Jnhu F. Cleve- ind (a sister uf Mr. Ureeley, who bad very kin. I to me in my oramatic resdluii-), ab iut the blow, and soiiih. lug of Mr. M r-ariami a couduct tome did 'hit le I her all, nor tbe worst, but loid her bow hu had struck m', priu-paily because t was i-nix-tgi-d Ul ruad . ihe hounu of s one Irlei.iU of tier's an venlng ur two after, aud I feared she uld notice thu mark uu my 'ace she as the only P'Twju lo Wiioni I ever poke ol Mr McFarland (otherwise than a maimer incoming ior a wue to nk of her husband) till ihe Winter of 1M)7. Aud 1 deV'iled alt my woman's ol ami tuct In billing htscomtuci from -Ul o'tervcisatuur boarding bouses viae w Here. or In urn Spring of Mr McFar and it apnoluteil iu a pmi lou lu thu olllce onu ol the I'rovosi-.iiirsnais under tlie Enrollment act. I wnt to see Mr n-eiey lu company with his sister, Mrs. evelaud, and also to see several ot'ter persons, to get Itilluence for Mr Ml F tr od, lu doing so l acted uuder Jir. Farianda orders, and agalusl my wu frettuus. which always reViilted at ihe Idea oi seeking olllce for bim, though he never scrupled to ue my i Uorts. As sjon as hu got this olllce 1 ceased my reading tn public aud my preparations ir tbe stagu, ami tn the spring alter he was appoluled went bime to my lather's and reinalued a short time. Then Mc- arland summoned mo to New Yurk with Percv. who wai HI at the thno aud hardly able lo travel, loiilected toluav- uu home, wueu ne sen. peremptorily. avtntt "ho would nurn my latuer s htni-e nvt-r niv head" If I did not c mo 1 ar rived In New lorn in August, nmi was there a few weeks wlfu the physician Haiti Percy would die 11 he were not sent back to tbe country, ami i again re turned to niT fuller, and staved till No verabt-r. In November, 10.1, 1 came ha -k lo New York Wo to-.k room lor a rw weeks on Varlck at . but soon re moved, early In Janinry, to No. HI La martlm-plsce, Went Twenty ninth st Durluir the winter of 103 ami I3IM had met Mrs Hlnclalr often at her com tn's, Mrs. Cleveland's, and she had shown me many and great kindnesses Htis had nlvcu me ber parlors for one oi my fadings, aud had sold the tickets among my frhnda. At the tune .Mr mcrtna.no ruceivvii inn piiuiu- thf Provst Marshal's olllce, bu used he hdluence and her husbaud'a io gut hlin nbilnled. No person living mi i stronuer claim on the gratitude of till man than thu noble woman wnosecnar- Ut he has an a'm-cd In ihls winter uf 1H(W and 1H0I, while we lived in bmar tine Piaoo, we were Aire, omuiair nelalibora. One nlsbt while there, M Mi-Karland came home so bruised and biwdlna from sums street broil a no nnoummon oouurrencnon bis part that I was obliged to call on Mr. Hlot'iair f aid In netting bim In bed. U we onl three or fonr weeka before the birth my young' at child or I should not have doue so. I'hen I kept Mr. McFarland tu his room for mm than a week, carrying bis meals to him myself, that his dl ii race rnluht not be seen and common' ou by tbe houwhohj where we boarded From the time he got his place in i F.nrnlltnriit Offlce in vi. until the r uf '04, Mr. McFarland sent ma home three limes, aud moved me wnoHditft ent board int bouses. If, for one moment, I was Dsareiul in the roaesslon of a shel ter, hia hablti 0r bit dlssatlsaod temper dreve h m tuchaugt. A'-Ust.tn the Fall of 14414, Mr. Sinclair t-u"-red us, r-m frt-e, his uixiccupled (arm hiuse uu lb; Hudson It'ver, sid w iiiovkI tliTe fur the Wmtir of 'ti4. During this year my youugt boy Danny bid been bjru on ourj o my visits to my fstu-rs i nsc. i staved ut C'roion, io Mr.aiuc'air's bouse, all Winter, and, during the Summer, in a small tenement, which wu nutcd there, an-i which 1 furnished very cheaply with IUO, sorrowed by Mr. McFarlaud from ray father. Here Mr. McFarland'- couduct was moreeudurable.tor ati wus away nearly ail diy, uud ihe quit aua pleas-anta -ssi uf the couutry wUeti hu came there, faucied had a good etl ut un him lu Hie Summer of 'bo, however, he 1W, bis pi ace auderUovurumunt.aud seemed W to uke no further attempt to do auy. tlil.'g. 1 1 j iul'inmd me oue day tbat he was out uf a place, aud hid no mont-y Theu I tuld him I supposed I should have to (five puoi.c readings again. As usual, when I male such suggestions, he swoiuutme lu hia urrlhlu way but made uo other answer. I went on aud inudo my arrangements to give dramat lc readings; gave several before leaving 0 rot ou, aud theu, with aoiuuof thu mouey I hud iaiud, I went to my father's, who hid now moved to Massachusetts, and irom his house weut away to give euverai other readings in New Euglaud, leaving the ctindreu with mother. Ai tuls time I paid the bill to the physician who attended mu ul Danny's birth, now 18 months uld,. which bad beeu all this time unpaid. I also arranged with Messrs. liurd & lioughton, ibis fall lo priut a Utile b sik for cnl dreu, railed '-Percy's Year of lihyiue?,'' which I had writteti duriutf the summer. Fruni Boston I went bick to New York, to occu py some small rooms tv r a sum lo thirty tdxtn street, which Mr McFar laud had hired. This winter I made a iGHpurate snuggle for life. 1 had my two uaulu.i tue youngest Juit Weaned; 1 bad this m.iii hatful the nine coming home Intone tied, mid I had uouilug but my woman's heart and bauds to look to for support. I gave all the readings 1 could. I did my owu housework when at borne. 1 'ook fultufml cure of my children, but I otten sank lulu such utter despondency ol heart us ouiy U.id kiiowrjand cuu pity, wheu be sees the bumau soul slnkm uuder It. On one of thes-e days Mrs Sinclair came tu. I hud uuVt-rsald a word lo her about my troubles, aud sue had b en Iuu deiicutu lo bionch thu subj-ct to me. Wuen she went away she put a little paper iu my hand, aud alter she had gone I round ft W is a 5(J bank note. Next moulug came a letter frum her in cl-islug ttUotuer f U note, wbicn she salt! waa a present Irom some other friends uf ml ite. 1 coul'e-s, I could not endure such a wound tu my pride. 1 had beeu reared in cumiurtaud plenty, and lu my veins ran Borneo, tne proudest blood In Mas sachusetts. I knew uot one of niy Mu had ever taken alius. I had to use some of tbe mouey sent me, for we were abso lutely ptncticd with waut nt that moment, Out the next week 1 sold all our furniture, which wus bought with mouey burrowed of uiy father, aud purled with many articles of comfort which had beeu seut to uie from my homu.aud wnb tho proceeds uf thu tales I was able tu siriid hack the money to Mrs. biiiclilr, telling her 1 could not yet receive alms from my friends. But her indefutluaiile friendship did not ccasu here, aud she si'iitmebjck muob of It In clothe and 0" lur necessities. Tiien In April, ltfiiti. Shu ami some uilie r friends urranue.it a reading alS;eiuwav's liooins, on Four tetuth street, i f which tbe proceeds weie UHru thuu alfiU. Air. McFarland abused mc lu hts nsual violent uy for giving this public reading at dteiuwuy's. He argued tbat If I wanted lu read I had Duller go out of town to do h), that lidii'raced him as a gutitleinan in the eyes ol thi) public for his wile to read in a city where be bid acquaintances. H m ide this an er.cuse for getting grossly lutoxicated on ihu ul mi; or mu retioiug, and coi- lecled tho whole n crilpts oi the evening, 1 gavu me out or the whole mouut to pay my furu and the children's my lathers house in Alissichusetts, reserving the ri for hts own uses. In May, IHnu, Mr. Mcrarland camp on to my lather s, nrnglug with bim f 1 000 lu mouey. He bud got this money from Vfulttiy owner or oil Unas tu IVnn- aylvanla, residing In iVw iork City (wimseuiine Ido not like to m utlon), by uiri-aieuing to expose ui tn lor some Irrignlarliy In ptiylng his lucune tax. I Mr. Mctarlaud told mu this muu 1 uiven bim the money If be "would not irouhlu bim turther." Hu also told that he had "sev rtl other inn Under s thumb In the same way." The man ner of getting this money was Inex pres sslhly stuK'klng to mu, and 1 told him and then 1 told him that 1 should try 1 make arraiigeinenls to uo on ihe auu lu ibe Fall, that I could not irv another Wlmeruf public reading, a pro lession so precarious alio so weariuir, and vis d him, since nu nail some money h eti i thouitni oisnonoruuiy ob'aiuio he should go into nuiuca at ouce bu- ru bu sinut lta He answered lu bl sual brutal manner, aud I said no more bout It. It waa agrei d, bowevt-r. lhat hould go to a small farm house In the idle Mouutatus, wheru I kuuw Mr. IverJohnstiD was going to spend the mmer, and that he should pav niv hoard there which was to be wry cheap Indeed for rnvseltaud ihe children. In nu. lbiili, I wtit from my father's with ie children to tibelburne, N. 11 , aniunu the mountains. I remained there till Septrinhcr. During this Hummer In ul me a I (10 lu a check, slcued bv Mr. nciair, auo i nad f)0 on arrlvlntr. hlch he nad uiveu me. maklnu In ail iHi, with which 1 paid my board at-d ashing bills for mvelf ami the cull ren, during my four months' stay iu EMieiuuruo. Iu NeptombiT, Mr. McFarlind came to sht'burne hmveir instutd of wait- lug for me at my father's, as 1 had pro mised. He nad to hi me little ormitbiuD of bis financial condition or prospect urlng the summer, aud I had written Ivlelug him of various plans for earn- lug his living. Iu thu Fall he told uie tbat hu had got out of mouey, aud was una Into some kind of patent irus com pany, which I did not Uin1frsiai.il fuliv, aud wus going to make hts fortune. IU paid my fate to lloston, aud then told me he ass out of m tney, ami akcd mc to go to H U. iiotigiHon s uo. s, whom he knew were going lo print my Utile book that rail, and see If 1 could ire. soma money. I did do this, aud g l $"i0 while In ilostnii, where I stayed uearly a Week, Air. flit r trland s n I tee, a ilauyh r or ms onitneruwen, bad been at tin White Mountains with rue, und was with mu tn n iston. After getting tbe m-m- y from Hr. Iloutllnon. I u-tvu McFarlaud b ilf of It, and with Ijo 1 went with Miss Murv McFarland to Newark, where her father lived. Owen McFarlaud waa worse, If possible, In bis Ilia of lutein perancs. than bis brotbor Daniel, stayed there three weeks lu scenes wh1 would Ditlla description, often In dall or nightly (ear of my life from this ter rible matlmao, all ol whose family held him Hi ujoai supreme tear. While he lu the Winter of 1800. had met Mrs. L. 0. Cdhoun. and during litis hummer at Hbeiburne, I had eirres pontled with uer 1 have been moit for tuuatelumv friendships, but I not. knew auy women moie loyal to sffec Hon, more overll iwlng with tenderuess, more na-iy with htlpial sympathy than she, my wn no nature, naual y reucun went out to her InoouUdeucuaud frleml ship, and I had written from the Mou of Ulna asking her aid in grt'lng an eo gaameiit on the singe. Hhe had sucoeed- In arrauiii ig an tnguemuni at Wii leeOtnlen. lbs theater which Mr K win II sith ooutrolletl, ami a plane which we boih consitioreii particularly form ate ior a lady to ha oomieoivd with. account of Mr. llmtb'a immUIob aa gcntlrtnan In private life, aa well as eminence in nm protessmu. This Fall ol IHild, whlie at Newark aw the tnanaiier of WluUr Garden, am my engagement was made certain at alary ol f-iO per week. I wrota this Mr. McFarlan l, who still n-malued be bind lu Mss-ucUusetts and New Ilumn-shire, and also wrote bim that I could nut and should not stiy longer at his brother's. He cmi down to New York shortly urttif this, birrowlng money I u sinaii sums oi toy latuer to pay msex-p.'iMi-s back, and took mc from bis brother's and to a wretched boarding-hou e in Amity st. near Hixtb avenue. Here be borrowed some muney ut Mr. Sinclair, unit gave me fJf, which Is the last money I ever received from bim. Tills was id October, lbGU He left me at this home, Informing me that he should pronably uot b hack very much of ihe time during this Winter. Then I was so worn out bv the auxtc ties mid thu terrible weeks I had spent at Newark that I broke down and was ill at ihls strange boar Hug-house, alone wlrb my two babies. White here, Mrs. Oalhuuu called u 1 found melu this condition, and, goiug homo, she wrote a note tu which sue told me, In tbe most delicate manner, that whenever I wanted mont-y ber purse wus at ray service. The same day Mrs. diucialr called, and, shocked at ibe wretched and desolate condition In which she saw me, took me and buib my children to her no a at. As su booo as L Was there aud bad began to recover, Mr. McFarland came back and made his prepura'lons lo cume there also. As gently as I could I told hkui Mr. Sinclair's hog-e was over-lull, and If bu were coming back to town I must get u pi tee somewhere for all of us. It was theu about two weeks before my en engine tit begau at Wluter Garden. Mr. .Mc Farland Instructed me tnat 1 might get bom! for myself and the chlidreu but only occasional board for himself, as he should be absent about the gas bualuesn most of the time. I then tngiged board In Macdotigal street, in a very respectable house, where I had a small attic room for all my family. As soon as I got here my health again gave Way, and I wus 111 lu b-d ueur'y two weeks. It was only by sheer force of will that I got up from bed anil dragged myseli to the theatre 'o heiiln my eugaut-ment. During thu two weeks' Illness, Mrs. HlnclalrantlMrs. Calhoun visited and ministered to me Uotuoftheiu sent me nourishing food irom their own tuble, by their own sur vauts. They eeui me money, and gave ine the loviuttest sympathy woman ever gave to worn tu. 1 bad already got an etiuuucmcut to write for th- Jdverslde Magazine, aud one dy during this Illness wheu Mrs. Cilhoun found mu sitting up iu bett, weak and exhausted, Quishlnir a child's story, with my two noisy little children playing at my bed sole, sliu tuok it away, aud Interested thu inuuagiug editor of the Independent In my work, so that hu sent mu word be would uke some of my stories for his piper. As soon as I went ou the stage (this wus the litJUioI November, 1SU0) I tuld the worn n lu whose bouse I bad been boarding about three weeks, of my new profession, i-ibe Immediately told me that she could not possibly have an actress lu her house, and I mint gut a new plucu us soou as convenient. Asqtncklv as I could I found a new place at No fed Amity st. I went to No. 811 Amliy-at about tho lOtb or 17'b of December, lso'd Ou the gOcb of December I had au engagement lo read ut Stlein, Muss , before toe Lyceum Lecture Courr-e. My mother bad written us that if I would bring on oue of the children she would tuku bim and take care of him for an ln-delluite period, because she feared I had too much to do w;tb the two children and all my other duties Ho Iconciudrd lo take thu youngest child Danny lu my own home on this Journey to Salem. I played at the theater thu olght before uurilug io Massachusetts, and wus oh llged to sit up nearly all night to get mself and child ready. About 1 o'clock iu the ulubt Mcturland came home lu a state uf oeustly luioxictilon, He was st talking then, but toward daliubi. title I was tfditinir ready to tuku the rooming tralu lor Ji stou, I routed him. I lod bim 1 bad been Inteudluo- to take Danny bome, uut now I thought 1 would lake boih the cnlldren and leave them wlih mother illl I could do some- ng better, and come back and sepa rate, uiys If liom bim eutlrely, that I uld uot possibly wo. k as I was doing I iiear his bablig auy louuer. On this proteased great penitence, and ben tied mc lo try bliu once mote. Hilit he would do bettor If I would vu hlin this one trial, tVc tfce. I md it believe hlin, hut 1 hardly knew what oo, auo i ii ii any weut ou with Dannv my mother s, This was thu morning tbu 10th. Head In haiem tbe 20th. r. - turning to New York the 2Ut, aud go g lu the theater the same evening At luur a time I foolishly allowed cFurUud to draw a two weeks' ssUrv from ihe ihrater, which had been lying r uecuue me mouey i hid earned at Salem paid the uecessary board bill, aud Weuiagtiu aui got drunk, and re- k'ued so fur two or three days. At this time L made up my miud 1 wuti'ddu something. Ou tue a lie moon of Janu ary 1 wiole a long letter to Mrs. Ual-liuitu, lo whom, lu sll uf my acquaintance, I bud never spoktn of McFarlaud, except lucidt utally, telling bur uf some my i roubles. lu Una b iter, which It cost me terri ble paiu sbd humiliation lo write, be cause my haolts or couceaim- nt wru so natural aua uimciiu to overcome, 1 ur -d over so mo uf the worst tacts. I cuucraled the tact of nts huieiess Intern-(h ranee, and I tried with all the buinuo Uy and justice which was In my nature, to speik most geniiy aud Itnpirtiauy of th s uidoriuiiatu mau. I he roiiowlug l-the exact copy of the flfi-tc iiifldence 1 ver nude to this loyal friend ol myaux leltes ai d struggles: Jam g IH(i7. My Darling and Coufohtkii : 1 tvuseaud myself with the liueullunof riilna yu along letter: uf telilus vuu jine things which I have never before ild auy onu; but Which, kept secret ml hruuded uver, seem lo eat out my art atn consume my lire aa? by day was miserably unhappy yesterday, all the latU-r part of the day. Yesterday morning, alter l hud got all ready to go Airs, sinciairs, aner i nad Kini ,'erey "Good by," and hail my parcels in my arms ready to lake iheiu over, some tile impatient words l satd irrlta'ed Mr. McFarland, who Is very si-osiuve i.d nuick-lemperiti. it arue from my i-kiiig him to help mu cany somu oi my bundle, aud his resell Hug It, aud our both selling a Utile bit auurv. I did uot say half as much as I bear women every tl iy s ay to their hu-bamU.wiihout being remembered un cither side. J hould uot have remembered tl one lu taut, but hu dous, and I Went away without stnooibi. g out the snarl. It was perhaps a little perversa but got llrid of constautly sinootblug aud coaxing. Ilut all day 1 was uurvuus, when ho did not call with lvrcy ua nu had promised, and I was Very an Mou i could out get away In ihe oveulng without showing how uneasy L was, so 1 stayed. Wueu I got home, 1 found Percy in bed, nuiuing up a book wnn whltb bo nad got minvir asie. p aumc, Aiiur an hour or two or an muting wait ing, wailiug-1 steninufor ioo steps, and dieadiug to hear them whlcll am only a few u tha Auhuam ut iiours l hav siient so -he c tin - In, two thirds intoil Citud and very morose. I asked hi how ho could so spoil my d y, aud 0 iusv io much unhapplneas. and nt aim we red that 1 had treated him "Ut raveousiy, and he should speud the Ne1 leer s aa lie ciiowv' Two wei ke ago tha morning of tha Tuesday o- lore l went to oirm i-i reau, you remeuiber I got uiurly dtscourag- o1, aud I saltl oinetiilug, not npMiicn- lul. to Mr. Mi Farla d about my lee itm. One mnnot always keep up, )ou know, There ws no unklodness ne iween us. only win n I sink a little I hoiw he sinks In despair. I h it ulaht he his did nut Home home to slimier, and 1 wa- ohllued to leave mr bibua when I Went to the tbeaier, awake an I a 'one. A the eveuina 1 was burning wt n anile' I io net borne. He did not ooine lor me, to and 1 went bome alone after 1 got through tbu piay. I found hhn In a I'castly slumber, from which I cuuM uut route hlin; he had been dr uhiug sll day. I wus tn htart that uxt morning for Massachusetts, and It made me almost crazy. Next morning lie was In sack cloth and us ties fur bis couduct. He wepr, ami begged me to forgive him not to tell my father and mother, and sworu bu would vindicate himself. Injure me by a diilerent life this year. D.:ar, I try to write these things coldly aud mechanically. 1 aunt to do so, so us uot to bu unjust, but I must write you. 1 fuel I muH let vou know some thing of my iuuur tlie, aud of the strug-gitsiliut no one can iee, or 1 shall die. You know, mvdarllug, when I was matried 1 hud not much experience of iu , or .luiumeut ol chiracUr, Wheu tr. Mel'ar and usk-d me to marry hlin, I said "yes," without proper deliberation. I was nut lu love wl!.h any oue else; ererylvitf got married, I thought, and L u ver questioned whether I wis sulllcuntly in luvu or not. I tfiought I was, and did not r ason. After 1 was married aud begun to know Mr. McFar laud, I lonud him radical to the extreme lu all his ideas. He seemed to have many heartfelt schemes of philanthropy aud lovely traits of cbarucler. He hid Deuuillut theories, und be hel eved he acted uu them, when hu did uot, and was uftcu cruelly mjiHt to me and my mo iked. He wus madly Jealous of me frum ihe Ursl a jealousy which seemed to me to Imvo Its root lu a radical wuut of con-llleujo lu woman's vlituu. A bachelor experience h d made bim believu women aero uot always chaste, I think; but lu me, who wus cnustuus Ice snd pure as snow, il ever women were chaste, ihte tilings were horrible outrages. They -truck the Urst blow at the teuderness I felt lor him, which might have rlpeued Into a real uH'-utlou, 1 nave no doubt. This was the Hist shock thu second was the discovery that If auythlug au uoyed ni m, if 1 wis Impatient or a Ul le cioss ( is 1 think all women are at times, uud I know my temper is uuturally sun-u), orii busiuess cares oppressed bim, or a hundred other annoyances wnlch might trouble onu, theu, as a refuge from any of these, be would drink Honor, and come home uuder its Influence. I wa bred in the New Kuilaud Idea of temperjuee, aud thu wus to me a vice mre odious tnau I cuu speuk. Iliad for It little lompussion. Wnen Mr. Mc-F.rwmd turn- horn.; thus, I loaibel hlin with uuspeukuhiu loathing uud dl-gust I wum living, wheu this tl.H happened, in Itrouklyu. Iliad not a sniuiu lull-in ite friend in either city. I bad no one to speak with from in iruluir lid niiht. and I was pngnant with my first batty, i which made iuu very nervous aud easily . uirectcd. What I snil'-red tluttlrst year, I G id uuly knows; wlut I sutured many i hundred times since, He only knows, but i It is enough lo lell you that In a year the possibility of ever kviug him was utterly extinguished. I ms la an awful thing to say, dearest. To drug out for eight ur Urn years an existeucu with a man whose whole na ture uveilljwed wltu passion, who by turn adored and abused you, aud wh J wauied la absorb both body aud soul, uu Vv ir-ui uutuiuK uu. a jeeiiutfoi P'ty. I trifif io do Mr. McFarland Justice, and I pity In m more than I pl.y myself, in cuu iiuou hnii ais suturing are worse, perhaps W: bad noble theories ami not -irengin cuougu to realize them, Ihe mi-Likes mat bu made embllteied a d still embitter him. Ho nieaut bis life to be noble, aud it 1b a failure. I am glad and proud tu say llv.it for the last years uu naa cuaseu io oe jeaious oi me or uf my feeling toward any man. 1 should ui ver bd anything but a chaste Woqiju in myrelatlous with men. but bis lei ling has ma.'e mu more than pru all day, remsluing at liuaic, aud gulag dent, and 1 have been always most re- uot every littiu wulle lo the uuarest bur-revived. 1 hitve uever had any sen ll- room tu drink, aud then cumin r iu still meuiSTO wurm aawrkwdiihiu for other men, and my actlous Would bear the most j-ialous scrutiny. Alter bis tttlulrs nu buslnog siMrs had become hopelessly cutuugled (ibis was lu the third year of our marrisge), ne iLKisietion reiurnin mat, wneru ne i had formerly lived. We stayed there tor a time, aud cuinu back here again, The first year alter our return hums 1 from the West, before he took ibe po-l- Hun tu thu Provost Marshul a olllce, his loxlcattd lhat his caau Would be preju-b ltd is were igaln dreadfully bad, aud diced by that fact. drank II a w ty in wnich n-mu of my runs nnsiruM'-u it. uu wouiu so oui eveuiugs and spend them lu low bsr- room, ino comu nomu at a or o o cioca the mom inn reeking with lluuor. Lhrcuiimts hu nus come nomu beuten ud bruised. While be Is drunk, all the good lu bim is turned toevli; belsslm ply and truly a lleud. UunUclphned in hlslemiierin bis beat momenuj, hu bis then beeu dreadiul, My daillug, I have spent hours and Ignis lu scenes tie lore which trsgedy iuwi pule. I luvu no words to speak i nun. I have tried and do trv to do mv dntv have the most sincere pity for this un- irtuiiHte muu; my bean bleeds fur him trv. Heaven knows, lo be aa uattf nt as c n With ail my troubles, my life is mit as unhappy as his. My beart aud soul are mv own: he cmnot touch them, I pity hliu, but 1 do not love him enough U let mm wouu-i me to ine qnicic. I don i know what lo d-i whai course to t ike. 1 want tu be advised. 1 have rltum these wild words, Incoherently, know, since writing Is not my natural thod of expression. lo uet some this weight ob"m", an) I have tried to write Justly I kuuw I must tu sorm wav protect myself 1mm McFarlaud's intiilu uf reveugiug any careless word up n m. 1 hsve matte un my mind to dav to tell thu blnclalrs that I fear Ihe eu- erosebinents of his habit. I dread mv fu'uruso much, and 1 have my bi'iles to Liit nk of liesl e. Yesierday be drew two weeks or my alary at thu theater and paid the week's isrd bin, aud l foir will spend a good ilea1, of tno m tnoy, While we need much, in liquor. iJun'fcoiuu to me aner reading this; tear I snin repent wriuug iu inUrsfMui'i.V'i AliiiT. P. S-l Just went down lo breakfast ud left bliu lu bed When I came up he was gone! I shall be su auxluua tit lit hi. Tim evening after I thu wrote hor, Mr. McFailuud not coming home. I went lo Mrs. Sinclair's, before going lo Iho the it re, and told her what greatd s tress I was in. Shu then told me she had been herself to Mr. McKirath, who was a friend of Mr. Sinclair s. aud had asked him lor a plucu mr Mr. McFarlaud, tu thu Cu-tom boune, and hu bad pro in is- ed to give bun one. Uui," she added, If he gets drunk habitually, I onu'l ask Mr. SlncUtr to recommend htm, because Mr. MoKlrath will notnlvo a man of such bablis a place" I ihea Implored br to say nothing about it, because be mudgot the place, else I should not know what to do with him: aud she nroinlsetl to aav nothlutr of It. unless s imeihlng more was doue on Mr. Mo Fariand a part. Wiintn a few dava aftee tha 1st of Jannary, 1X07, I found the boarding- hoiisu at Wo hu Ainttv-at Into ur. i ior vsrloiis reasons, ami mmovad ui No. Ti Amity st., taking the hick pulorand extension room for mv rooms, and ore Paring our meuis lor myseir, 1'ercy, and Mr. McFarland. The roous were very comfortable, and I rentnl them from a Mra Mason, who herself rented half Iho hou-e. I took these rooms some- where In the first or second week January. 1 had not moony to in rrom tue n'ner nosMing-plars, and, Informing M r M. Farland nt tha faoi. told me hn 'hould think I would bar row tl from Mra, Calhouu, as she had loaucd mu mnne before!" and I weut hie and luiriMWiil i'JA In nblul.in other sums revived fMm her, boftiro inu to tha house at Nu 72 Am It? At this new pUce, besides going ulghtly Ui nei I -rin mv ntn at tha Winter Oar deu, I wrote during all of my spare mo mtile. being then engaged lo write n- ff marly for tha Uiverside and tha chll (Iron e enlnmn of Tbe Indeiwndi nt. , audeavotlng to do work for Qtliatr pers. Ami 1 also did all th - cooktug for three persons, a large part of tbe washing aud ironing for three, and all the sewing, m-udlug, &c, for my family. Cocjt quently, I had little Uluu for any thlr.g but wotk. tki me where about the last of Juuuai or llrst of February, Mr. Hlcbardson camu to lodge at this bouse. He cam theru Itccause there was ugood l oom va cant there, aud hu was obliged to muvt his lodgings, which wore In the vlclult) and bu told me that be did not wish i niovo very fur, as he expected to leav. the city altogether very soon. He call ed on me when he came to tho house tn sue the room, wnlch wus the first time he ever culled on uie, or that I ever saw hlin iu auy house wUero I was boarding al'houufi I had before mul bim occasion ally at Mrs. Muclulr's, where he wus a fr-queut visitor, aud at Mrs Calhoun's, when he hud been au Inmate of her mother's family On the 4 h of February, Mrs. Sinclair and Mrs. Calhoun wure going to tVtish lnuton. Just before g dng Mr. McFar-laud had a terrible aud unusnally duu gerous attack of rage, of which I told Mrs. Calhoun, bhu said she was afraid to go away and leave me with that mau, for fear he would kill in, and asked li she raiulit tell some of our friends about his conduct, ho ibut we could have some advice In thu matter before she wuut away; but I full as If I could not consent to this, and tuld her so. Mr. Oliver JobPBou told me ufierwurd that she dlu speak tu himself aud Ills wife of bur creat anxiety for me, and her fear that Mr. McFarlaud would murder me In somoofhis paroxysms. Alter Mrs Calhoun and Mrs. Sinclair Were gone, 1 devoted myself m re closely than ever to my work. Mr. Kichurdaou wus there In the same bouse. Hu hud been there a few days, perhaps a week, when they went away. Ou tbu evening of ibo HKh of February, when Mr. McFarUud cume In frum Hie Custom-House, where ho had beeu employed since the 1st of February as clerk In thu olllce, procured fur him through tbu Inllueute of the Bine. air, I was stunding at Mr. Hichardson's door lu thu front hall, and be wus Just handing mc some manuscripts which he had of. fered to leud me to make use of, If 1 c mid, In suiiie literary work. Mr. Hicburdson's room was Used us hi, working room; aud at this time, as at all pans of tbe duy.hu had with bun a stenographer, a messenger-boy, uud an arilsi, who were engaged lu bis literary works When Mr. McFarland came iu be objected so my going to Mr Hichardson's room, to which I replied that "I bad not beeu lu, was nut In tho habit of going there, and even II I bad been lu thure, It was not a putvatc room, but an oil) e In the day tliie," With this the in titer dropped, au i 1 supposed this was all of it; but In a few momeuls Mr. McFarland commenced to suy something aaln on the same sub ject. I saw he was In Ul humor, and I supposed he wished tu mak! anything the pretext for otic of bis pus -do us and I said little or nothing. From this he worked himself np into a grat lury, tu which I left him to go to my ncce-.sary wura at mu meaier. tie cou'iuutd In tate raKB trough the night, and I speut a terrible ulght with him. All througn the next day (the UO) he remained ut noine abusing and tormenting me. II used to ma eXDrusaiuua winch 1 nev.T could forgive or endure; and, hi III harp iiiir on the fact of inv belnir at Mr. Rich. ardsuu's room, asked me before Percv. who was all tbe time present : "Did Mr Kichardsun ever kiss you 7 ' 'Have you ever Deeu lu nis room alone with bliu r ami others which I considered lusulllug and uupardouablu. He was under tho Innuenca of llnrmr muru fariuus. At Ihhi he declared he was willing to be separated from me. and that 1 might go home lo my fultb r's aud leave him. W hen I assented to ibis, he wanted lo bring lu som-of my frle:ds to talk the matter uver before them, but i reiusea to take counsel ot any onu till my lather conld be seut for. And I only prevented bim from rushing uut aud call I ior In aoiuuof mv irlemu b n-nrr. -.en Hug to him tbat hu waa theu so lu- On tbe evenluir of the SOth. before ifo- ini! lo tne lbcalr. 1 SLtruU-d bia ra ir-. bis pocket knife, my scissors, aud all ar iicies 1 considered dai c- rous as L i nueuilv did uu auch uccasiuns aud left nun. When 1 cams home be was still rammr He had freuueuilv made liirc-n. ot commuting suicide, olieu goiug uu ot d-Hirs with that avowed purpuse. On this occasion, about midnight, he bade ma an unusually solemn "eternal tarr- well." and told me lhat this lime he wa- cm-July goiug uut to destroy himself lie hud duue tula so mmy times tbat 1 said nothing, aud nude uo ell irt tu de l-lu bim. At ibe dttor be besltaled, and asked If I bad nothiug to say "lu this parting " 1 said, "I cau ou y say "at 1 am aupciussiy sorry ror you." "o went oui, anu lu a lew minutes re tnrued, as I kuew bo would, cooled and sobered by the cold night, and Uun, It being uearly morning, as mildly auu i unuy at i poasm y coui-i, i uean io iai wun nun. i iota nun uecnu-ai that 1 should leave bim loruver; tnat 1 had boinu with patleucn for many yearc great outrngt-a (r..m him; that hu hat matte my life miserable, aud hui often put mu iu gr at dread of uiy I lie, that 1 uld not endure li auy lunger; that by I bis uutrueous conduct lor iuu two da I pas , and ny tbe language be bad un d wneu ne toun i mu at air. iticnarosuu door, he added the last drop to my cut of endurance and I should no away from btin at once, uu thla be groveled at my leet In ibe must abject penitence Ue wept and sobbtil, and bggtil me l forgive hlin. He confessed thai, ho bad wronged me, tbat no woman would have borne with bltn as 1 had done, and about daylight weut lo sleep exhausted. i The next morning 1 did uut allude to my purpose, but afiur seeing bim leav thu house ior air. aicr.iraihs ouice i went to Mr. Sinclair's and placed myself under Ihe protection of his roof, aud never afterward saw Mr McFarland ex cept otico or twice In tho presence of oilier uu hit haiuwos'i acouaintakc wirn MR and mis cohMvi-uoN wmt my cu. Up lo tho time of hli coming to room atth-sume house In Amity atrcet m acquaintance with Mr Kiciuni-on kid beeu very Oght and formal. Hu was a frequent vlnlior a, the house of two oi my most Intimate friends Mrs Sinclair and Mrs. Ualhouu-in wnoae nmtnei f family bo had been an in mute alter his return from prison, ami wueru bo wus like a son and a brother. 1 met bim there quite oiten, out on very lo'mti terms. At the ilme, on Ibe 1st of Dj otmtier, wneu i was uonuen to wave me nlace in Mac-luugal street, because the boarding-house kit per relu-ed lo keep suy ubo m the proesion oi an actress in h. r hnuae. I spoke uf this Clrcninsunce lolbo family at Mrs Calhoun's Wbeu we u. wrre all at me iiincn taoie, aim sir Hn hartlson ws present. They weio all Indignant, and Mr Ulchardaun, With the friend uesa ami aympatuy wnirn wen tils chiei cnaracunsuca, propusm mat i alvertle for a boarding place. Ho l o said that at the hotie where he lodged of wpm nme vacant room, and that If 1 were to look at ttn ra aud liked them be In would himself siwsk lo the laud lady ul ve my profession, auihelhoughtabe Wtnld on I not object to il he On ihla I called next diy at Hie honse w Intra Mr. Itichantsoa lodged, lMikid ai the vacaut niiiu, and aaw him at thu to lime for a moment In the rrout hdl tn Tha isanma wtra ton einenslve fnf flie gtt- and I took lodBlngsalihaitlme at No.Hfl at lAmltvHt. Hhort v aller tins, aoout un I lat of Decrmber, Mr McFarland, who - fane id Mr i(irbMiHiii nao puma mnu enre In the I'aoimi K-tlUoid, seut me io - call on hlin to ssk for hi aid tn getting a pUoe aa clerk or something of tha ana kind on that railroad, lie nan not into pa- received the place pro mind for him at Mr. McBiruib's depfirtojeut ai the tus-turn Hour". I lie' e wr-ru lb twouixa--toi.s ou which I was at f ho fioui-e where Mr. Uictnrdtou livid. Iu thecoursu of btse inatiio-e he sent oue several Unit 9, one of them luclomug a letter of Intro-luctlou or Mr. McFarland to Mr. Ueorgu F. Triel'i, Q.skuitf suinu favor of ilru uu tho Pacific Hailroad, which I nlitve Mr. McFarlaud presented wlth-'Ut lesult. Tucso notea were all writ-eu by .ur. Itich trdsou'a stenographer, ill of them uns- uied. Tbey reiait d to he favor 1 had asked of Mr. Iticburd-oii at Mr. McFarluud'a auggesuuu, and bis was tlie extent of my aeqaaiutauco v' n ji r. iCtcuardauu up to January leofj. Aiht I reinovid to No. 73 Amlty-st, Ur. Hichartlsou bel.-g obliged sudUeoiy to chuugu his lodiugs, aud knowing 1 was livlug nearly uppositu In thu same street Willi himself, cainu tu see If he oonitl get rooms there. I Introduced mm to Mrs. Mason, the lodging bouse woman, out beyoud that had uo mterest r Iniluenco lu getting bim InsiuIUdj there. Mrs. Mason, wuo Is au Irbb woman, and iu lull sympathy with Mr. McFarlaud, has lu this case made many er- ' runeous -tatetnenis. It I hid any fuel- ' ing abort t Mr U chardnou's coming to take a room so near Mr. McFarlaud and myself, U was oue uf aversion, irom tbe lact that he could not be Hit re without mowing rometblng of my unhappy life, ami I felt keeuly tnat such a kuuvierfgn 'Vuu id pam aud humiliate tue. Hut I cuuJtl uot control the event, snd a'-oitt a muuih before 1 dually left Mr. McFar-latitl, Mr. Jtichurdso.i had comu there tu lodge. I suw him uftcu, ami he did roe many kmduesses, I knew very well de pitied mc, because he thought I waa overworked, and not very happy. Hi treatment i me wus always mostre-i-peel fit l aud reseired. Tu.-rt; was never, prior to my leaving Mr McPariand, a Word or eveu a look passed Dei ween US Whlcll I should not oo glad now II' all iuu world bud seeu aud board. Hu called sometimes at my room, which was ntxt his, but from Its situation, uud thu fact that It wis mysleep-lug-room, parlor, and dlnlu-rooiu la one, U was iu uj sense a private. room. ly boy, who was theu avi-n )ears uld, wasalwaya with me, and Mr. Uicbanl sou's calls were made u-ualiy in the sf-ternoou aoout thu time begot thruunh work, ami u lienor alter Mr. McFarlaud had got buine frum duwu town. This is the exact and careful statement of niy scquaiutauce wlih Mr. H cnaulnon up to thu tunc of my separation frura Mr. McFarlaud. Ine utiernoon, or night of the 20th of February, wuile Mr. McFarland wus in his worst rage, 1 wrote in uiy d rest. lug-room ut thu t busier a letter lo Mrs. Sin clair aud Mrs. Caluouu, theu in Wash ington, lulling them wuut I wassud'-r-ing, and toy lejrs lur my suluty I telt that If M". McFarland shomd murder melu Home of his uutburcis, It waa right that they should know tbu very wort,and I was fruuK to thu utmost. Tney unswurcd that 1 tier ou thu In stant, with tho two onoltt aud womiuly let ers which have b sen already pr dactd u print as vi deuce oi "liieir conspiracy to tuko a duvutuJ vtlfe Irom a loving ulU cmviiroua busoaud. On t io lust nlylit of my life with Mr. McFarland, the night oi thu UOib of Feb ruary, It happened, as was not usual, thai Air. Jticuaruson was in nis room thu whole eveumg. Uo almost al way i spent bis uvuuiugs at Mrs. Gilbert's, which was his homu la New York, uud where bo was loved liku a sun. He has since told mu tbat be heard the greater part of what bad passed that ulnht, us wus unavoidable Irom tbe position of bis room, ami that uu feared bo might bu obi I uud to call blp,or himself luttfitro lu my behalf agnlust Mr. Mc-Firlund'a violeece. The uexitfay, when 1 lell my looms ivo tu Mr Mnolalr'e, 1 fail ml Mr. lticharusoo there when i eo-lered. No one erne wa present but Mist Perry, Mrs. Hiuclair'a older sister. Under unliuary ckrenm-xtauces L should have cuutrulled mysuif uulli I could see Miss Perry aloo ; but woiuontus I was by ibe misery and excitements of the last iwo days, and tbe fuel that 1 had still beeu obliged to) keep at wurk at home a ut) at ibe thea'ur, i brokmlown, aud burst into tears ua soon us 1 entered tbe room. As soon as I could sp uk 1 beg iu tu talk Ui the ui bj'-h. Mr. Itdi-anlnuu sild very little. IretiHuib- r bo sain, ' i his is a mum r lu which 1 cmi-uot advise you, lur. whiteVi ryou mike up yuiir mind todo, I sliU 1 be glad to help yon in." He (i'ut imp me In ten tlumsind ways in which L never should buvu pcruilt-ud hlin to tuk-i part li I hid had the rdlgUluSt KUOWOtlfcUUl the Itl-dllg HlllCll Wus tu giOW Up between IH. He II- Iptd uie iiiako arraiigriiiM.ts tu stool IVrcy ionic, wtitcu wus Uie llrt tinng I ws aiiXloim tu do. Hu tvli -grapbeo lor mo tu iuu- or two Irli-uds. and tvrote to .Mis Cilll iuu uud Mrx. S ih l iirof lltes't p hidlakcii, wtiii Ii L asked h m o do ut once. Ad lliesu llt'iigs win U i tMUiiioU urn Mice would li tvu ur.-vt-iiu-d lion doing II there bad Oe-u auy guilty recret beiWiH-u us or any reluiou ix.epi the sluiplit oue ou bis part of syiiips by 0 wirtl a veiy wieiou d wouuu, ho old openly uud unreservedly, Hu stw Mr. ticFarluud aud told hittt he Has my fru-nd to till-, and that lm had tele- grih d to tny fatnor to cume on. Ou t u lilt i my fa' ber csme, and on tho U u, iu thu pr-euc4uf Mr aud Mm Oliver Jonns-di, Mr etiuclatr, and myf-ith-fraud Mr. McFarlaud, I auuuumed to him uiv a'liolute tlnbermlnuiiou to leavo mm. 1 told hlin h knew ho had lo my atleciloiin yetrs b:lore, aud thtl what L uow did would b. ilual. I ankd very little citvpt this, for any bIIU'Ioii to bis induct Mr. Mi r arlau liiierruoteu Im mediately. It at be was uuuuallv calm irhlm.anl said aevrral ilmea that be scceptid uiy decision as llnul,and add bow to it aud sunmlt. to It- 1 treuutl h in wltb a u'eatiU-al uf pity, as ultvuya had, and urged my fa'b r to no iiume and reuiaiu ail uight with him to lint be did uothlngtleiK-rate in coUise, hlaconaiuut threat that he would commit suicide, aud thst.lu such a cuse, Ida blood would bu on mv head," hail always cau set I uie s-one amluty, which I am now convinced I might have spurttl myself. Too i von'ng a'tcr this dons ration took plaeo Mr. liiuitirtlsoii called at Mr Sin ciair'a and stayed an hour or two with tlie family. He told us all that In a few duye hu was going io Hartford to finish his book: l was going to Massachusetts bo?ibof April, when my cousin nmut expired at ibu ibeater, nn-1 1 thought If he went uwuy tn a dny or two l mtghi not see hlin sgiio, so when he arose tbat ovetilog, I weut to the door to say what I could not iy before tbe others bat be bad beeu wry, VKiiYgood tome, thU I tnvurcoiiol reiny him, but tbat Uud wou tl surely bl.-ss HI u ior It. I could not say tula without strong emotion, and while I spoke, hu said i "How lo you feel abont facing ihe world with two Itablisf I ans-ven-l! "It Inoka hard lor a Womau, but Uk ii, I am sure I can get on heller without that man. than witb bim." At mil Mr khsrdon. still holding my band, winch 1 had given bun to say "good, bye, ptoopru tiown, and, speaking lu a lower tone so that be could not be ht-ard through the door opening luto c par or wheie the others uni aiittuu: ' I wii-u you to remrmoer, my child, that any rtspiuslblllly lhat iu choose to give me In anypoMiblo future, I sbill bv glad to take. 1 I tblutc tboau were lea extct words. And with thla.hu w nt awsywhliout a tlngla word more u tig sp ok. u by either of us. I tumid and wnt upstairs an t said nothing loany one Hut night. It nuy have Is D Iwo U)H UitT Mr. Itirhard stiu csli.d sgaln. Dhtvind 1 was In Hie parlor ii'ins whi-n tie t amo In In Kit talk vililcli tHik pisre tin n, be told me that during tlw storms of the last ffW iluvsol my life he hid become Inter-uirl In me su I very (ond of me, that I waa Hie womm of all tha world whom he had seen in whom bt Would glstlly Intrust the caro of his inoitierl.e child rcu; th-ii my prusVtiee and rvervedur VnHmltt en VkrA ftp)