Tuesday, March 26, 2013

And I usually respond with an answer along the lines of, She is everything.

Now I can understand that it must be hard for some people to grasp my love for her.

How you can you care so much for someone that you've never met? Right.

I get that.

She doesn't even know who you are! Yeah, I know.

How do people get so obsessed with celebrities?

I'm not sure, but I CAN tell you that to me, she isn't just a celebrity.

She is like a friend to me.

A person I look to for inspiration.

Someone who is there for me when I need them.

And a flawless example of the type of person I would like to become.

And I'm sure that this is hard to understand because unlike most friends, I've never got to hang out with her.

I've never spoken to her and she has no clue I exist.

But, it's ok. Because Beyoncé has done more for me than damn near all of the people I have met in my life.

But enough with the serious talk, I wanted to write this post to show people how much me and Beyoncé are actually alike. They are kind of silly things, but maybe it will help you to understand how connected to her I feel. I swear that everything that has ever came out of her mouth, I have thought some version of it in my head. She is able to say the things that I cannot put into words. We are soul sisters and I don't care what anyone says.

Me and Beyoncé are Similar Because:

1.Both of our mother's were Cosmetologists and owned hair salons. We both hung out in the salons as kids.

2.We both only have one sibling, a sister.

3.Both of our sisters only had one child, so we both only have 1 nephew.

10. Beyoncé has said if she wasn't a singer she would have become a therapist. I have been going to school to become a therapist, but if I wasn't I would become a Beyoncé.
11.My middle name is Teal, like the color. She named her daughter Blue, like the color. Blue is also my favorite color.
12. We both feel most beautiful after a shower

I could name 100 little things and these may sound like stupid little things to you. But when you think about it, it's the stupid little things that make you feel connected to your friends.

I know if I were to meet Beyoncé and sit down with her and have a conversation, we would become friends.

Now, the chances of that happening are slim to none.

But that's ok. Because I don't need her physical friendship.

She has done more for me than I can ever explain.

I wish that everyone could have someone in their life that does for them what she has for me.

Friday, March 22, 2013

But I feel like people are confused about what I believe and how I feel about things.

Granted, sometimes I am confused myself about what I believe, but I want to try to sort things out.

I consider myself to be agnostic. This is different from atheism.

Atheists do not believe in a higher power.

Agnostics don't believe in a higher power, but they don't NOT believe in a higher power either.

They accept the possibility of either outcome, because there really is no way of knowing until the end.

So then I get the question in my mind: Then where do you think we came from?

And I really can't answer that. In my opinion, no living person can.

So most of the time, I try not to think about that part. Hahaha a cop out, I know.

I can tell you, that I don't like the idea of organized religion.

I think it's strange to have one religion for millions of people.

Everybody is so different, and I feel like the religions can't really be tailored to every specific person's ideas.

I think that this leads to people following the religion blindly instead of really reading into it and seeing if these ideas mesh with their own.

In fact, I think that it discourages people from creating their own ideas. I mean, why would you when you could just follow the ideas that are already written out for you?

I mean, if 2 billion other people are Muslim, it must be the right thing to do right?

People tend to go with what they know, and that's human nature.

My parents cussed, so now I cuss too.

If you took a baby from Iran and raised him in Utah, he would most likely become Mormon.

But if you left him in Iran, he would most likely become Islam.

There is nothing wrong with this, these are the dominant religions of the areas.

I just think it's funny that because they were raised in a certain area, they will most likely become a certain religion and believe that their religion is the true religion.

I think that being raised in a religion from a young age prevents people from exploring other religions and seeing which one is right for them.

That is part of the reason why I never picked one.

My parents never baptized me or blessed me under any religion and I am very grateful that they did this.

They wanted to wait until I was able to choose for myself.

Now, I still read the children's bible.

I watched the 10 commandments.

I went to church with friends.

And I was able to ask my parents as many questions as I wanted because they had religious backgrounds.

And sometimes growing up this way was hard for me, but

the reason why I never picked one, was because I didn't think it was fair.

Why would I pick one if I hadn't really looked into every single one?

If you were told to pick 1 flavor of ice cream that you had to eat every day for the rest of your life, but you could try as many as you wanted first, wouldn't you try them all to make sure you would pick the right one?

This was sort of my thought.

Now, I haven't read into every religion. Nowhere near that.

And I probably never will.

Because I don't want to choose one.

I don't feel like I need to choose a religion to fulfill my spiritual needs.

And the agnostic side of me says: If you were to pick one, there is no way to prove it's real.

I can't follow something whole-heartedly that may end up not being real in the end.

Another reason why I don't want to follow an organized religion is because of the role women play.

In my opinion, women should be allowed to be popes, bishops, priests, and pastors.

Why wouldn't God want women to have the authority to teach the spiritual teachings to others?

I don't agree with this.

Now, please don't get me wrong.

I think religion is a wonderful, beautiful thing.

The comfort that it gives to people is amazing.

Children raised in religion are taught values and it gives them something to bond about with their families.

Religious families have always seemed so strong to me and I love that.

The community that comes from religion is incredible, having people that are there for you is something that everyone needs.

Religious people are happier and even live longer than those who aren't religious!

But, it just isn't for me.

Now, just because I am not religious doesn't mean that I am not spiritual.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Saturday, June 23, 2012

People say, "There's so many fish in the sea"
That shit is true, but what people don't realize is there are also sharks, whales, sting rays, baracudas, ugly fish, little fish, fish with teeth, fish with lamps on their heads, mean ass fish, and seaweed.
So that is why it freaks me out that people fall in love.
Like what are the chances that you (maybe you are one of those ugly fish), and you find another ugly fish and then you guys think each other are the prettiest fish?
It blows my mind.
Everyone will find someone.
Someone like them.
Someone that is weird like them, laughs at things they laugh at, and likes hot sauce in their ramen.
How in the hell did I find, in ST. GEORGE of all places, the guy that matches my type exactly.
Fine as all hell, thinks talking animals are funny, cusses as much as I do, loves watching the movies they play on BET, doesn't care about religion, drinks kool aid by the gallon, and swag like a motherfucker (pardon my language, didn't know how else to put that)