Monday, March 12, 2012

Another round done..and another Big Fat Negative...Im sad, crushed, hurt, upset....My body has been feeling strange..Very tired at night,cramps, hungry...I dunno i test again on Thursday i can only hope for the best but im sure i will get the worst...When do you throw your hands up and say...Im done?! In June it will be 8 years of trying with an 18month break in between...The medication is crazy expensive...we don't get help from insurance...It has put stress on Leo and I relationship...The doctors appt are nothing besides heart achs and disappointments...So what do i do next?? Do another round and hope for the best? Take a month off?? Go into the doctor and see about ovarian drilling?....UGH!!! im sick of all this...NO one understand ( my internet friends do) but as for family and friends No one understand!! I hurts hurts hurts............Im so over it.................Im going to go on a diet and do protein,veggies, and fruit NO carbs...NO junk food...and get these extra 10 lbs off!!!!!!!!

I know this is going to be mean...But im soo sick of people getting pregnant around me! I know its going to happen...

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So sorry to hear about the BFN! Were you taking the meds, and trying to conceive "naturally"? have you tried IUI?? I know its expensive, but maybe that would work. Or maybe save save save and try IVF. I know how expensive that is, since we will be doing it come July or August. But if you get your BFP, it would all be worth it. Even if you had to take out a loan, 15K isn't THAT expensive in the LARGE picture of completing your family.