13 years. Why did I lose and regain? Why did the weight loss never stick before? I am doomed to regain ever now with all the knowledge I have? Am I just fighting an uphill battle? My eating habits as an obese child versus an obese adult are drastically different, but my weight is much harder to maintain now. Age, genetics, metabolism, the weight loss and regain all play a role in it. It is frustrating and downright annoying. The article just reinforces it all, the battle actually is tough and it isn’t just all in my head.

But, hold the phone. How come some people can maintain their weight loss?

Since I didn’t panel/survey weight loss maintainers I am going to take a guess; consistency. The food scales stay on the counter, the food tracker is their most used app, and banana takes priority over the biscuit. I told myself I never stopped these things after I reached goal the first time. That is roughly 50% true. I never did go back to my adolescent teenager eating habits. I continued with fitness. I was mindful of all food choices. Unfortunately, a daily guesstimate isn’t enough for me to keep the weight off. It never will be.

Weight goals be what they may but I have lost half of the amount of weight I want to lose. That is overwhelming. I have wondered what would happen if I just stayed this current weight? Would I be satisfied? Am I just settling because of this fear? These limiting beliefs are unproductive, seriously they are. Beliefs equal actions, I have said it time and time again. Over the past two weeks I have been eating a little more here and there, maybe an extra glass of wine too. The inner fat kid is hard to shake, I was truly comfort food eating. It lead to a -0.4 LB loss last week and a +0.6 LB gain this week. I am in no rush to lose weight but I know a hiccup in progress when it happens.

I refuse to let the fear of being a ‘loser’ dictate my actions. Stay consistent, stay the course.