Last months were full of simple being, and learning about it. A lot of meditation, diving into now, where you can see flowing thoughts, reality around and nowness of the now are like natural flow of the surface world.

Besides that a lot of work with Kambo. Presence and support for the others. Pretty intense time.

During my last plant diet with Chiricsanango in Peru i started to learn about more aware presence. Observatwion of thoughts, reality, everything thats part of it and changes it. How world around us changes, depends where we put our attention. My teacher-plant showed me, that using other plants can be helpful, but is not necessary. Truth and peace are already inside of us. We only got to find them.

Everything interwoves with moments of loosing conciousness and coming back of starved ego. Coming back of its exspecjartions, judgements, disagreements, distructions, fears and overgrown ambitions. Sometimes its strongly, sometimes mildly, but hopefully that with time less frequent.

So happening of these things are inclining various reflections. Many times I thought in front of myself what sense it makes – to do what I do. Where it comes from.

I try to come back to moments of pure essence, when all was just flowing by itself – I was just pressing shutter, and putting letters. Sharing from pure will of telling the story, just share it.

My activity in photography got marginalized during last few years. Decided not to compromise in my work. Doing something makes sense if its honest, and from comes from heart. Not for ego, yours or others. Not to proove anything to someone. Not to wear this or that mask, social role. Not because of fear about disregard. Not for illusory prestige. Not for money, which after all are not that important. Not for world of illusion that starves for bigger illusion, empty nourishment, covered by thicker and thicker layer of sweeteners. If I’m off from all these dramas, there is no need for compromises. There should be freedom, everything according to internal clock and heart. Or letting it go with peace.

After two years of being on the road, some old traces of thinking from big cities or filmshool – got dissolved. I let it go.

Meanwhile so much happened, that it feels like that I could easly make another book about Road.

And now some another circle got rolled. I feel that I could easly do – this or that. Slowly approaching harvest of good changes.

So another time digested the matter of motivation for sharing and its roots. And another time it turns out – its worth. After such a conclucions in my case there is no sense to announce anything :) It will just appear. Thank you for all support.

Tomorrow I go to Finland for about two weeks. Retreat with Kambo and other medicines, which we make with lovely finnish friend Jussi. Important meeting, what was waiting for long.