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Month

December 2018

This year was particularly difficult for me. It’s funny because looking, at this time last year I was at the beginning of my downward spiral. At the time though, I thought I had hit rock bottom, I didn’t realise it was just the beginning. LOL

As the year is slowly coming to an end, I am forced to look back and reflect on the progress I have made. In the earlier parts of the year, I often said I didn’t want to do life anymore. I broke down a few times, almost gave up a few times but somehow I managed to make it this far. (Thank you, Jesus!)

Here is the thing though. Somewhere along the line, I realised it was okay for me to put myself first. I had to decide if I was doing things because I wanted to or because I was trying to prove a point. I had to accept the fact that my gas tank was almost empty and it meant I couldn’t do certain things anymore. I had to choose wisely and be proactive about my peace, my rest, my mental health. These probably sound like obvious steps to many people, but they weren’t to me. They were difficult, and every time I thought I had things figured out, something would happen to push me right back to edge.
However, towards the end of the year, I found myself cutting me some slack. You might find it surprising, but it was a difficult thing for me to do. You see, I’m quite good at telling people to look out for themselves, to extend the same kindness they extend to others to themselves. However, I am terrible at taking my advice. (I’m getting better at it!)

I guess at the end there is one thing that has remained true for me this year. Sometimes life is difficult, other times it doesn’t feel as challenging. The truth is though, that life is always moving. It doesn’t stand still for you.

There will always be something begging for your time and your attention. You have to realise that creating your peace and enjoying that peace is your responsibility

There will always be something begging for your time and your attention. You have to realise that creating your peace and enjoying that peace is your responsibility because best believe, life isn’t going to hand you any if you let it. And when you find that peace, you need to protect it.

Sometimes this involves cutting people off or making space for new people. It might be saying no to an opportunity, or saying yes to something new. Whatever it is, it’s your responsibility to look out for your peace. The role your mind plays is too important a role in your life to take for granted, and so it is vital that you look out for it in whatever way necessary. Take the steps needed, be proactive and keep your peace.

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