Monday, August 07, 2006

the pen writes

I don’t know what to do anymoreI’m lost at where I am supposed to beEvery time I think I’ve got something goodIt turns out to be just an illusionI don’t understandI don’t see what I am doing so wrongHow can I feel so good then hurt so bad?I just want to screamThis is all so frustratingI wish I could make sense of it allBut I doubt that could ever be doneIt’s all fucking bullshitNot supposed to make sense at allJust there to make me more confusedTo make me cry more tearsI don’t know if what I am writingeven makes senseI’m hardly looking down at the pageJust letting the pen writewhat the tears are trying to say