At age 14, Noble Richmond becomes devastatingly aware that he is gay. Being raised in a Christian home and church, Noble believes that being gay is a sin, and desperately seeks God's healing and deliverance – telling no one of his secret. Now, nine years later, Noble is engaged to a Christian girl, Rebecca, who he believes he is genuinely in love with. Convinced that God has answered his prayers and delivered him from the sin of homosexuality, Noble sees his future with Rebecca as bright and promising. But when Rebecca's step-brother, Jonah, shows up at their engagement party – Noble is forced to question his deliverance and finds himself struggling with emotions and desires he insists is not natural for one man to feel for another.

At age 14, Noble Richmond becomes devastatingly aware that he is gay. Being raised in a Christian home and church, Noble believes that being gay is a sin, and desperately seeks God's healing and deliverance – telling no one of his secret. Now, nine years later, Noble is engaged to a Christian girl, Rebecca, who he believes he is genuinely in love with. Convinced that God has answered his prayers and delivered him from the sin of homosexuality, Noble sees his future with Rebecca as bright and promising. But when Rebecca's step-brother, Jonah, shows up at their engagement party – Noble is forced to question his deliverance and finds himself struggling with emotions and desires he insists is not natural for one man to feel for another.

“So please, please, please go
I'm not strong enough to say no
Please, please don't stay
I'm not man enough to walk away
Please, please pass by
I can't resist you even though I try
So please go, I'm not strong to say no.”

- I'm Not Strong Enough To Say No,BLACKHAWK

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I don't need your kind of help.

The short hall that ran between the bathroom and the daycare room, leading back to the sanctuary, was at most twenty feet. For reasons that had yet to make themselves clear to Jonah, the short walk
had the feel of the last mile of his life.

Stay away from me.

The soles of his dress shoes took each step silently as they sank into the soft maroon carpet. His hands hung loose by his sides but the tension in his shoulders crawled up the back of his neck,
burrowed into his skull and began to throb.

Don't ever touch me again.

The door to the sanctuary seemed to withdraw from his approach, as if he were caught in a strange dream from a movie. But he didn't pick up his pace. Suddenly the thought of going back out there,
sitting with his family – nearly assaulted him with a bout of anxiety induced nausea.

Somewhere behind him, outside the haze of his thoughts, he heard the bathroom door close quietly – and lock. Afraid you'll come back? Take more of what doesn't belong to you?

Jonah's steps faltered when the door stopped pulling away from him, and it was right there before him. He slid his fingertips over the smooth knob; brass plated and cool to the touch. He stood
there, caressing the cold metal, then glanced through the large wall-length window into the daycare room. The walls were plastered with cartoon depictions of Jesus with little children, Jesus
holding a lamb, Jesus holding out his hands invitingly with the words 'I Love You' at the bottom.

Jonah's eyes locked onto those words. Back in the bathroom, the faucet turned on. A quiet, barely detectable choking sob filtered through the closed door. Noble's face formulated in his mind; the
man hunched over the toilet, eyes red and puffy from crying and puking his guts out. His mind cracking beneath the stress of what he couldn't accept.

He'll never accept it, Jonah spoke silently to the picture. As long as he thinks you hate him for it.

Jonah closed his eyes, took a deep breath, then released it on a weary sigh. The words from the picture stared back at him when his eyes opened again. I Love You.

“Do you?” he whispered, his voice thick. “Do you really?” He didn't ask it in bitterness, or with a lacing of sarcasm. It was an honest question. One which he had little hope of being
answered.

The cool knob squeezed against his palm as his fingers tightened and he twisted, slowly opening the door. The congregation was onto a new hymn, though now everyone was seated. He stood in the open
door, his hand sliding off the inside knob and lightly gripping the edge of the door.

The music was comforting. He loved being in church, loved the soul soothing hymns, found peace in the word of God and fellowship with God's people.

How many would fellowship with you...welcome you with open arms...if they really knew you?

This wasn't his church, his hometown. He came here off and on, even owned a house here. But this wasn't his home. Very few knew him. Would these people – who expressed the love of God so vibrantly
– expel him from their church if they knew what he was? Not that he had to worry about them discovering it; his dad respected him and wouldn't say a thing without his consent, Colleen believed in
keeping family issues private and within the family, and Rebecca...

Jonah licked his lips slowly and stared at the back of her head. Rebecca would rather die than reveal to her church family that her step-brother was a homosexual. As if it might somehow reflect
poorly on her.

What're you going to do, Becca – when you discover your fiancéis a gay man desperately trying to convince himself he's straight?

........................

“Are you feeling better, hon?”

Rebecca sat beside him on the blanket spread out on the soft grass behind the church. Noble sat with his legs draw up, arms resting across his knees. He watched a flurry of children dressed in
their Sunday best chasing each other around, darting in between the sparse evergreens at the far edge of the large lawn.

So innocent, Noble thought. Not a care in the world. Too young to know just what they will...be when they get older.

“Noble?” Rebecca touched his back and he looked away from the kids.

“Huh?”

“I asked if you were feeling better?”

Drawing a slow, deep breath, he nodded and smiled. “Yeah.”

The nausea had abated soon after vomiting. When he'd returned to the sanctuary, Jonah had been gone. He didn't ask where he'd went, and no one offered the information. It didn't matter. Everything
was better when he wasn't around.

A sting of guilt needled him but he swiped it away like a pesky bug. He had no cause to feel guilty – the man had brought it on himself. Jonah couldn't hardly expect him to want him around after
the crap he'd pulled.

Rebecca slid her arm through his and laid her head on his shoulder. Her eyes followed the children. A smile touched her lips. “I can't wait to have a baby with you.” She whispered.

A baby. A chill swept through Noble and his heart thumped hard against his ribs. He and Rebecca had talked about having kids, how many they wanted. She had her heart set on three or four.
Noble had been all for it – then. But now? God, his mind was so fragmented lately that he couldn't even think straight.

When he felt her eyes on him, he glanced at her. “What?” he asked softly.

“Well...I guess I was expecting some form of response.” Uncertainty darkened her eyes. “You're not having second thoughts...are you?”

Noble rubbed the back of his neck, finding his skin damp with a light sheen of sweat as the warm sun beat against his back. “About what?” he asked. “Having kids?”

“All of it.” Rebecca's brow tightened. “Getting married.”

“Why would you ask that?” Noble's guts began to knot up again. Would he ever know another moment of peace again in this life? He was beginning to have his doubts.

“It just seems that...you're stressed a lot lately.” She pointed out. “More than just typical pre-wedding anxiety.” She shook her head. “What am I supposed to think? I mean...maybe deep down, you
don't want to marry me.”

Noble slid his arm around her shoulders. “I don't know what's stressing me out. But I know for certain it isn't that.”

The lie slipped out so smooth it left him somewhat disturbed; would it always be this easy to lie to her?

Rebecca leaned up and kissed his cheek. “Well, whatever it is, I'm sure it will pass.”

“I hope so.” Noble murmured, but knew he had about a snowball's chance in hell of it passing.

A shadow fell over them and Noble glanced up.

“Rebecca.” Mason said. “Your mother asked if you could come help her in the dining hall.”

Smiling, Rebecca nodded. “Of course.” She touched Noble's chin and turned his face, kissing him lightly on the lips. “I'll be back soon. I love you.”

“I love you too.” Noble offered in return, his words thick, quiet. Please, God, let it still be true.

When Rebecca got to her feet and walked away, it dawned on Noble that he hadn't kissed her back. It was just a peck on the lips, she didn't give you time to kiss her back. Don't make an issue
out of nothing.

“Mind if I cop a squat?” Mason asked.

Noble chuckled and shook his head. “By all means – squat.”

Mason laughed and it gouged at Noble how much his laugh sounded like Jonah's.

The man took Rebecca's place on the blanket, his legs drawn up, much like Noble's, arms resting across his knees. His gaze went to the trees where the children were playing. A smile stretched his
lips. Noble found himself studying Mason's face, cataloging every feature that was reminiscent of Jonah's. He hadn't realized just how much they truly resembled one another.

“You okay, son?”

Noble blinked. Mason was staring at him, still smiling. Noble looked away quick. “Uh, yeah.” he chuckled low then pressed his lips tight. “I was just noticing...how much you and Jonah look alike.”

Rubbing his hand across his mouth, Mason grinned. “Well, I'll take that as a compliment.” He winked. “My son's a handsome man.”

Indeed. Noble fought the shiver that tried to race through him as the surface of his skin began to tingle slightly.

Mason's smile faded somewhat and Noble felt his eyes on him. Nerves instantly spun his guts into knots. Please, God, don't let him somehow see the truth of Jonah's effect on me.

“Did you speak to Jonah earlier?” Mason asked. His voice took on a slightly concerned tone. “He said he was going back to check on you. Do you know why he left without telling us?”

Shifting on the blanket, Noble shook his head slowly. “I don't know.” The lies seemed to be pouring out in a steady flow these days. “I spoke to him...briefly. Told him I was okay, just a little
nauseous.”

“Hmm.” Mason looked forward again, eyes squinted with thought. “I tried calling his cell but it went straight to his voice mail.” He sighed. “I guess he'll call me back when he feels like it. I
don't know what is with him lately, but something's off.”

Mason shrugged. “Well, the thing is...Jonah is a pretty laid back guy. Not a lot gets to him. So when his behavior begins to change...it usually means something is bugging him.”

“He don't talk to you about stuff?”

“Usually, he does.” Mason said, then shrugged and frowned just a bit. “But not this time.” He sighed then grinned, and winked again. “Maybe he's fallen in love. Nothing like getting bitten by the
love bug to spin a man's world off its axis.” He nudged Noble lightly. “Am I right?”

“Yeah.” Noble chuckled, but detected very little humor in it.

Maybe he's fallen in love.

No, Noble wanted to tell him, but remained silent. He isn't in love. Whatever this is – it has nothing to do with the heart.

........................

Just one more thing.

Jonah's lips burned with the memory of that kiss – taken by sheer will, without permission, as if it had somehow been his right to steal.

Thou shalt not steal.

Yeah, well, that didn't seem to be the only commandment of the Ten he'd been violating lately.

Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's wife.

Jonah leaned his head back against the driver seat and closed his eyes. What about coveting your step-sister's fiancé?

He suspected that fell under the same umbrella.

And how about keeping the Sabbath day holy?

That one had been a lost cause from the moment he'd opened his eyes that morning, body drenched in sweat, heart smashing against his ribs as he awakened from an intense intimate dream of
Noble. His morning rituals – shower, shave, coffee, breakfast – had toned down the memory of the dream somewhat. But when he'd pulled into the church parking lot and laid eyes on Noble, all decked
out in his Sunday best, looking like an angel come down from heaven on a specialized mission to torture him with what he couldn't have – the dream came back with force, burning through Jonah's body
with such heat that he hadn't dared even get out of the car for a few minutes until he forced his body to calm.

One thing had led to another, escalating until he'd found himself squatting beside Noble in the bathroom, wiping his tear stained, flushed face, aching so bad to just scoop him up and take him home
and prove to him once and for all how amazing it could be to love and be loved by another man.

Jonah trembled. A shaky sigh worked up his throat as he opened his eyes and stared the underside of the car roof. He didn't know what he'd been hoping for when he'd followed Noble out of the
sanctuary. It wasn't as if he'd been expecting something in return for trying to help him. His brain didn't seem to be working so well these days. In Noble's presence, it tended to glitch
and freeze, and at times come up with crazy notions Jonah seemed helpless to follow through with.

Like the little stunt you pulled in the wine cellar? The kiss you stole at the dinner?

A groan stuck in his throat. He raked his fingers slowly through his thick, black hair then on back to grip the head rest of the seat. He was still in a quandary over his reasoning behind that
kiss. It wasn't planned. The teasing? Yes. Uncalled for? No doubt – but still premeditated. Noble was in such fierce denial – even after the incident in the cellar – that Jonah couldn't
help but prove to the man that he still craved Jonah's kiss. Clearly a juvenile move, but his brain had been in one of those glitching fits.

But the kiss. Now that hadn't been on his agenda. When he'd turned to leave, that had been his intention – just leave. Get out of the way. Why stay where he wasn't wanted, by
anyone, save for his father? Noble had made it clear he stood with Rebecca on all things concerning him. He'd turned for the door and then...

Just one more thing.

The words were spoken before he even knew he was going to speak. And then his mouth was crushing down on Noble's. Perhaps if the man had resisted, even a fraction, Jonah would have backed off. But
Noble hadn't resisted. Hadn't fought him. But rather dove into him, and that eagerness and need in the man had set fire to Jonah that blazed through him like a fire storm.

The scene played through his head on a consistent loop. Had he kissed him merely out of spite? Because Noble had insisted he would stand strong by Rebecca's side? Was the source really something
so...petty and immature? Yet he didn't recall feeling spiteful. But if it hadn't been instigated by spite – then what?

His head tilted forward and Jonah slid his hands up around the curve of the steering wheel, his gaze settling on the double entrance doors of the church. When he'd left earlier, he had no
destination in mind – just needed to be away from there. But away from what exactly? What was it that had truly caused him to flee the premises?

Stay away from me. Don't ever touch me again.

Those words dealt a sting that hurt much worse than it should have.

Jonah leaned back against the seat again and rubbed his hands down his tense face, a pressure in his throat and chest impeding his breath. Both hands shoved up into his hair as he squeezed his eyes
shut. Why had he come back here? To apologize to his dad for just walking out without a word? That's the excuse he gave himself when he turned the car around and returned to the church. But now
that he was here, the excuse felt weak, as if it were just that – an excuse.

What're you doing? He don't want your kind of help – remember?

The tight grip on his hair loosened. His hands dropped back to the steering wheel. The kiss from the other night taunted and teased his lips with the torturous memory. The craving for another was
nearly more than he could bear. His pulse quickened and he grabbed the ignition key, ready to crank the engine, get the hell out of there before his brain went haywire and caused him to stumble
into another puddle of stupidity.

The key squeezed between his fingers, the smooth metal of the ignition slot cool against his fingertips.

Just go. Leave the man alone. You're causing him more harm than good.

Forcing Noble to succumb to his base desires wasn't an indication the man truly wanted him. He just couldn't help himself. There was nothing real in Noble's reactions to Jonah's advances.
The man was merely acting on his baser instincts.

Noble didn't want to be helped.

He wanted to be saved.

........................

Unease jabbed at Noble's gut when Mason excused himself. It was a frightening and unsettling thing for him to be alone with his thoughts anymore. At home, he watched television, or cranked his
music, or busied himself in ways that left no room for destructive thought.

But here, the distractions were minimal. Not nearly enough to keep his thoughts in line. He considered seeking out a conversation with someone, anyone. But he didn't feel like talking. He longed to
just lay back on the blanket and take a nap, but he was afraid of sleep the most.

There are better places to take a nap.

Noble's face pinched as Jonah's voice exploded through his head. His eyes squeezed shut and he shoved his forehead against his arms, struggling to push the recent memories from his mind with sheer
physical force.

God, just get him out of my head – Please!

His hands slipped into his hair, clutching fistfuls. He could still feel the cool, damp cloth against his skin as Jonah washed his face and brow with a gentleness he couldn't allow himself to
contemplate.

Don't you dare do this – don't you dare change your game now!

“Babe?”

Noble yelped and jumped when Rebecca suddenly appeared, her hand dropped gently on his shoulder.

She laughed and frowned as she knelt beside him on the blanket, sitting on her heels. She reached back and slipped off her shoes, setting them aside, then rubbed her hand up Noble's back.

“Are you okay?” she smiled. “I didn't mean to startle you.”

“Yeah.” He rasped then cleared his throat. He ran his fingers through his hair to straighten the mess after clutching it in his fists. His arms came back to rest on his knees as his fingers
interlaced loosely and he stared at his hands absently.

Rebecca's hand slid up to the back of his neck, her thumb gently caressing the tender skin at the nape. There was a time when her doing that had sent pleasant shivers through his body. He closed
his eyes and willed them to manifest once again.

Rebecca laughed softly. “Some of the other older ladies came in and shooed me away. They said I better keep a close eye on my handsome fiancé before someone else snatched him up.”

Jonah's face materialized behind his eyes so suddenly his pulse caught. He tried to banish the image, though it resisted with force.

“Don't think you have to worry about that.” He chuckled, but it sounded hollow.

“Well I should hope not.” Rebecca murmured, smiling. She kissed his cheek and combed her fingers through the hair at the nape of his neck. “Though it may not be for the lack of effort on another
woman's part. Who wouldn't want you for their own?”

Another woman. Noble sighed. It isn't another woman you have to worry about.

His heart ached as she laid her head on his shoulder and continued to twist her fingers through his hair. I'm so sorry, Becca. You deserve better than this. So much more than what you're
getting. I should have told you the truth about me right from the start.

Tears stung his eyes and he quickly blinked them away. He owed her the truth. But what if she left him? Forsook him? He couldn't fight this on his own. He was barely keeping his head above water as
it was. If she walked away, he would have no one to turn to. He would drown. His parents didn't know about his problem. And he could only imagine what his dad would do if he did
find out. They weren't a source of strength and support. They never had been.

Noble laid his head on his arms and closed his eyes. Rebecca's hand remained on the back of his neck, caressing. He could feel her eyes on him, her concern for his well being. Don't worry about
me, Rebecca. Don't care so much. Please. I don't deserve it.

........................

“Dad?”

Mason turned from speaking with Pastor Rick and Emmett Anders, a deacon of the church. Jonah stood a couple feet behind him, seeming fidgety and, if Mason were to categorize it – on edge. It was
rare for Jonah not to tell him when something was bothering him. Granted, their father/son time had diminished since his marriage to Colleen. Jonah didn't come around nearly as much these days. His
reasoning tore at Mason's heart, but in many ways, he felt caught between a rock and a hard place.

“Jonah.” Mason excused himself from the conversation as he and Jonah moved away from the two men. Mason rested his hand on Jonah's shoulder as they walked towards the shade of the tree line. “Why
did you leave earlier?”

Jonah rubbed a hand over his mouth and stared at the ground, seeming to follow his own footsteps. “I, uh...” he cleared his throat, his lips pressed into a tight line.

“I tried to call, but just got your voice mail.” Mason went on. “Where did you go?”

A low breath slipped from between the young man's lips. “I just...needed some air. Went for a drive.”

Mason pressed his lips between his teeth and nodded slowly, his gaze distant, thoughtful. “Did something happen with Noble?”

Instant tension seized Jonah's shoulders beneath Mason's hand and the man halted so suddenly that Mason took a couple extra steps before he realized his son had stopped.

“What do you mean?” Jonah asked low. His voice strained and squeezed with stress and a sudden, strong defensiveness. Furrow lines cut across his brow, pinching his handsome face and filling his
eyes with a wariness and uncertainty that caught Mason off guard.

“I...didn't mean anything, really.” Mason said slow, studying his son with a measure of confusion. “I was just wondering if maybe...you'd had an argument or something. You left right after checking
on Noble.”

Jonah jerked his eyes away and looked to the tree line again, but his stare remained stone, brow tight. “No.” His voice had a sudden roughness and thickness to it that hadn't been there a moment
ago. “I barely spoke to him, just made sure he was okay, then I left.”

There was a hesitant note to his voice that Mason remembered well from Jonah's adolescent years. It was that skip in his tone when he'd done something he knew was wrong, and was trying to
get away with not having to tell the exact truth – without actually lying about it. He hadn't heard that in his voice in many years. As an adult, Jonah apparently hadn't come across anything he
felt he couldn't talk to his dad about, because that telling note had all but faded entirely.

Until now.

“What did you do, Jonah?”

Jonah's stare snapped back to Mason's, his violet eyes slightly wide with a measure of shock as if he'd just been caught with his hand in the cookie jar.

“What?” The single word question puffed out on a stiff exhalation of air, his breath suddenly quick and uneven.

Mason slowly lifted one eyebrow and looked at his son. If there had been any doubt that Jonah was concealing something, it dissipated the instant the young man's eyes quickly averted away and
looked anywhere but directly at his father.

“I don't know what you're talking about, dad.” Jonah's voice skipped again, betraying the lack of truth in his denial. “I just came back to apologize for walking out.” And there it was
again. Mason's eyes narrowed slightly as he stared at his son's face. Jonah's eyes were distant, seemingly staring at nothing – until Mason followed his gaze and discovered it resting tensely on
Noble.

Unease squeezed Mason's insides. Noble sat motionless, knees drawn up and his face buried in his arms as Rebecca sat beside him. Her head rested against him and she seemed to be speaking quietly.

Mason's gaze shifted back to Jonah's face. And what he saw resonating forth from his son's eyes heightened his unease and pressed against his heart.

Oh Jonah, son...no...no...no...what have you gotten yourself into?

........................

The exact details of Rebecca's words were lost on Noble. The ringing was beginning to come back into his ears and it felt as if Rebecca was speaking from a distance. He couldn't shake the stress
oppressing his body, mind, and soul.

And heart.

He fought the urge to shrug off Rebecca's hand as she continued to play with the hair at the nape of his neck. It wasn't annoying – but rather, every touch against his skin reminded him that he was
lying to her every second more that he refused to tell her the truth. But was it really lying if she wasn't asking outright questions?

Omission is betrayal.

If it was something she had a right to know – and he was keeping it from her – then yes, he was lying. There were no gray areas. Not with this.

He raised his head slowly – and was instantly caught in the trap of Jonah's powerful stare. He sucked in a short, sharp breath before he could stop himself and a shudder rippled through him.

He came back.

Noble's pulse quickened, speeding up faster and faster like a nascar racer shifting gears. When Jonah seemed to register that he was staring, he turned away with an abruptness that felt far too
much like a stinging slap to Noble's face.

The scene from the bathroom spun on a loop in his head. Jonah had done nothing to warrant Noble's hostility. He'd simply been trying to help him, as he'd done out in front of the church. And rather
than thanking the man – he'd dismissed him, as Rebecca had done earlier.

The look on Jonah's face, the hurt in his voice...it came back on Noble now as he stared at the man across the expansive lawn, speaking with Mason. His suit jacket was gone and the sleeves of his
white dress shirt was rolled midway up his forearms. The navy blue tie he'd been wearing earlier in church had disappeared and the top few buttons of his shirt were unfastened.

Jonah shot him quick, discreet glances, almost unwillingly it seemed, as if he was trying not to look at him but couldn't stop himself.

Guilt jabbed at him as he again thought about what had happened in the bathroom. But he'd had every right to say those things to Jonah. The man had crossed the line before, and surely it was only a
matter of time before he crossed it again. Wasn't it?

So why was guilt weaving around his heart like a web, slowly and steadily locking him in?

Just apologize and be done with it.

Noble shifted then crawled to his feet. He expected Rebecca to ask where he was going, but she didn't question and he didn't offer an explanation. The grass was soft and thick beneath soles of his
shoes as he walked towards Jonah, the air warm, soothing on his face. The faint, hardly detectable breeze played with Jonah's black hair, casting strands over his forehead, into his eyes, then
gently brushing them back again.

Noble's heart quivered against his ribs and his fingertips tingled with the need to slide through those soft ebony strands. He tried to fight the unacceptable thoughts but found he had no strength
– nor will – to do so. His eyes were locked tight with Jonah's and he couldn't break away, didn't want to break away.

As he approached, Mason drifted off to speak with others, leaving Jonah standing alone. The man stared at Noble, just watched him intensely as he came closer – then suddenly turned away and walked
into the trees.

Noble's steps faltered, an unexpected stab of pain piercing his heart, rejection stinging his eyes. Should he follow him? Did the man just want him to stay away – as he'd told Jonah to do? He
glanced back at Rebecca but she was gone, perhaps having went back inside to help her mom. His gaze slowly turned back to the trees. They were sparse at the front but more dense the further back
they went. Jonah's white shirt stood out as he weaved around the tree trunks, going deeper, not looking back.

You came over to apologize – so do it.

His heart pounding, Noble hesitated, casting another glance behind him. Was he searching for Rebecca in hopes that she would beckon to him, draw him back to her?

Or was he simply making sure she wasn't watching as he stood ready to go after the very man he swore he would never chase?

You're not chasing after him. You're simply seeking him out to apologize.

Too entangled with his erratic emotions to consider alternative motives, Noble embraced the lie and walked into the trees after Jonah.

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Yes! A look into Jonah's thoughts! I knew he wasn't an asshole! I like it when he's looking at the illustrations of Jesus at the daycare room and says that Noble will never accept being gay as long as he thinks Jesus hates him for it. It felt like there lay the source of Noble's problems and he made a silent claim "do something about it!" It's good he's worried about Noble and that he's looking back at the despicable things he did to the poor man. Shows he's capable of recognizing when and where he'd crossed the line. Especially when he remembers the kiss at the fireplace and recites a few of "The Ten". Now, now...Isn't Mason a cool dad?! He knows and understands Jonah so well. It took him no time to see the meaning behind Jonah's gaze when he was looking at Noble. I can't wait to see what he says or does about it, if anything ;) Rebecca, I'm sorry, but she's invisible to me lol (Go away, woman!) It's very nice of Noble that he wants to apologize to Jonah. After all, Jonah was trying to help. Can't wait to see what happens when they're alone, surrounded by the trees! XD Loved it!!! Gimme more!

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Sat, September 28th, 2013 9:14pm

Ah Yes - Jonah is a good guy ;) A bit impulsive, no doubt lol but he's got a heart of gold. And his words to "Jesus", they came from the very heart of his heart. He hates to see Noble suffering because of a despicable lie that's been shoved down his throat. And oh yeah, he sees "the error of his ways" lol don't mean he won't "error" again at some point but at the moment he's regretful ;) lol Mason! I love him ;) He's does see everything where Jonah is concerned lol love his little catch of the 'skip' in Jonah's voice - damn parents! lol He may just stand back a bit and see what happens, or he may do something - remians to be seen. They don't tell me anymore than your boys tell you lol. Rebecca...hmmm...don't hate her, but she's not my "priority" right now ;) And I agree, it's very "sweet" of Noble to want to apologize. He may be playing with fire, though, following him off into the trees...hope they don't start a forest fire! ;) hehe So thrilled you loved it! ;)

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Sat, September 28th, 2013 9:36pm

Great chapter. I like Jonah's point of view. I really like this story and it's pulling me in just like the rest of the stories. Your writing is like a drug. Every day I go online several times looking for a fix. Thank you so much for sharing.

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Tue, October 1st, 2013 12:13am

Thank you :) I love Jonah :) I like this story because there are so many out there who have grown up under the belief that being gay means a one way ticket straight to hell - and it's devastating, often to the point of suicide (as in Patrick's case in this story). It's so heart breaking, and so sad the level of suffering that goes on because of unnecessary bullshit. I want the true message of this story to be that God created us as we are, and He loves us as we are. And there is nothing wrong with loving another person - regardless of their gender. I don't think people get this "memo" nearly often enough :)

Is it bad that I liked Jonah from the start? If his pushing of Nobel causes him to break off the impending nuptials it will at least save him from divorce later on. Good writing as usual xx

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Tue, October 1st, 2013 12:01am

Thank you :) No, I don't think it's bad that you liked Jonah from the start - I love the boy :) Noble was caught in some level of "illusion" that he was healed. He needed to be jolted out of it. Yes, he's still trying to cling to it, but deep down he's coming to the realization that this isn't something that can be "overcome". He will get through it, eventually. For now, the poor boy is going through hell :( And now Jonah feels helpless since Noble told him to stay away. It's a tough situation for them all, sadly.

I fell in love with Jonah the moment he walked into the story. His personal pain is so sad; after all, his gallery is not in his home town. I'm sorry, I do not like Rebecca, her unreasonable hate for Jonah makes me wonder if she isn't just upset because that gorgeous man is not interested in her? I have learned, Audrey, your stories always take unexpected twists and I look for them :-)!! Mason is to be admired, a wonderful father; now, maybe he can also be a father to poor Noble and let him know his feelings are really ok and not sick. (Nobel's parents need to be strung up by their toes.) Then, Mason can teach Rebecca not to be judgmental, when she has no idea what those two young men have had to accept. I really hope they are not outed by a compromising situation in the woods, they have enough to deal with. ...things that make you go hummmmmmmm LOL I look forward to the next chapter! write! I hate waiting!

So glad to see Jonah's troubled heart. Feel bad for being so suspicious of him, but then again I'm an old lady and I've seen more heartached and drama than I care to remember! Glad you gave us his point of view. Nice job!