Our story of fertility frustrations, pregnancy, and parenting after multiple losses.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

The waiting is the hardest part...

Apologies to Tom Petty for stealing his line, but I don't believe truer words have ever been spoken. I am SO anxious and SO ready to meet Baby C! I'm not even that physically uncomfortable now that s/he has dropped, I'm just mentally exhausted from playing the waiting game, and super excited to meet him or her!

I haven't blogged about this yet, but we've had quite a bit of excitement this past week. DH and I made our first "baby could be here any time" trip to L&D on Friday morning. I had woken up several times throughout the night Thursday night/Friday morning and was leaking quite a bit of fluid each time, so I called my doctor's office to see what I should do. They wanted me to go get checked at L&D, so off we went. Before hanging up the phone, the nurse said, "make sure you bring your hospital bag, we might be having a baby today!"

Cue holy-crap-reality-moment!

Of course, I understand that the logical outcome of pregnancy is usually a baby, but this entire time an actual baby seemed to be just an abstract idea for some time in the future. DH and I hadn't even packed a hospital bag yet! So I showered, we threw some stuff together, and off we went to the hospital. After getting checked by the resident and being monitored for about an hour, we learned my water had not yet broken and we were sent home. I also learned I was now 2 cms dilated, 80% effaced, and Baby C was at -2 station. The resident said it could be any time, so of course DH and I have been even more excited and anxious -- especially since we just had an official dress rehearsal for the big day! lol

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Cut from Friday to this morning about 3:30 am. I was jolted awake from a dead sleep with some quite painful contractions. I literally couldn't even get up right away, I had to lay there for a minute to catch my breath. Once I was finally able to get up, I used the restroom and walked around for 10-15 minutes... and then they stopped. I was so bummed, of course I was hoping THIS time was the real deal!

Luckily, I had my 38 week appointment today so I didn't have to wait long to see if I was making any more progress. Unfortunately, I hadn't really progressed much from last week. :-( I would be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed. My doctor again told me he thought I was 1-2 cms, but now 90% effaced and with Baby C's head lower than it was last week. I know that any progress is good news, but I was hoping for more. *sigh*

So, that's where I am at now. Stuck waiting for Baby C to make his/her appearance any day (or possibly weeks) from now. DH and I went to the mall after my appointment and walked until I couldn't take it any more, and we plan to go do it again tomorrow. I haven't gotten desperate enough to try any of the other old wives' tales yet, but I might cave soon if this baby doesn't come on his/her own!

Having intercourse helps if you can do it at this point, and if you are allowed. If your water is at all broken though nothing should go in the vagina, and if I were you, even with negative nitrazine testing I would still not do it if leaking fluid.

Something funny: I also did not clue in that I was having a baby until I got contractions and THEN I packed my hospital bag. I would have been completely unprepared were it not for the "dress rehearsal" contractions. It will happen. Just hang in there.

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About Me

I'm a twenty-something wife to my wonderful DH. After more than a year of waiting, we finally started trying for our first child in January 2010. We were thrilled to discover we were expecting in May 2010. Sadly, we lost Baby M at 7 weeks in June 2010. Three chemical pregnancies and a diagnosis of Recurrent Pregnancy Loss followed. In March 2011, we found out we were expecting Baby C, and she was born that November. We are so in love and so thankful for our little miracle!