Monday, November 7, 2011

Dreaming Of You.

I've been in such a contemplative and dreamy sort of mood as of late. I just want to spend all my time lazying around in my cozy bed with my kitty cat, dreaming of my future, and listening to Birdy all day. Ahhh...what an absolute dream that would be!

Along with being rather dreamy, I've been noticing these changes in myself as of late. However, I can't quite put my finger on what they are. I just feel...different...somehow. I feel myself evolving and letting God take me into his hands and mold me into whom he wants me to be. Some mornings I wake up and look into the mirror and see a girl so different from the one I saw just a year ago. Sometimes it's scary to realize how much I change and how often I change. I'm a gal who's scared to death of change and I'll do anything to stop it, but this change in disposition I'm having I cannot stop. It's inevitable and unyielding and scary. I don't want to look in the mirror tomorrow at the morning and not recognize myself completely. I want to grasp and hang onto every little thought, memory, and piece of myself before it disappears into who I used to be...

I probably don't make any sense to any of you. I hardly make sense to myself most days. Perhaps someday all of these jumbled thoughts will start to make sense. Maybe I'll look back at this blog post a year from now and think to myself, " I didn't know where I was going or what I was doing, but it doesn't matter now. Because I got there."

With much love, Lauren.

P.S. Thank you for all of your enchanting, beautiful, encouraging words as always. You all are my heart and joy ❤

13 comments

This outfit is really pretty. :) I know it's kind of weird to say "Don't be scared of change", but I mean I guess you have to go with the flow. Change is kind of scary, but I'm glad I changed. Eleventh grade me is pretty much a better version of eighth grade me. And I know that you'll become a better version of you each day. That's the beauty of growing up! :D ISo yes, change is scary, but there's no way you can stop it. :) Hannahhttp://alittleburdtoldme.blogspot.com/(Sorry for my ridiculously long comments. I kind of get carried away.. :) )

Beautiful post Lauren, Don't worry about making sense, I love to learn more about you and that's what makes you such a great blogger. Sometimes i look in the mirror and dont even recognize the change.. consider yourself lucky that you do. God has amazing plans for you and he uses you every day through this blog <3

Oh I love this look on you! The beret brings that dreamy quality to your look that you were discussing. I can relate to the dream-like state of my life lately as well. I hope you get to all of the places that you dream of going :-)

I understand- I always feel really frightened of change. In my head I am still 12, not 30 and everytime I have to face a difficult situation at school, I just want to curl up and cry and be a child again, not having to make constant decisions which I am not very good at. It doesn't change whatever age you are I guess, we just have to go with it and cherish the moments we have as they are here (and never try to grow up too quickly!)

I’m Lauren. A 24 year old Ohioan living in Brooklyn, NY and the blogger behind this nook of the internet. This is the place where I write out my soul, bare my heart, and welcome you to do the same. Grab a warm cup of something and stay awhile. x