What They Say

Reviews

“There is scarcely a page that does not engage you personally… nothing is held back. Some will find Anthony’s story disturbing and confrontational and others will find it liberating and an example of the triumph of the individual human spirit. For those who want to understand human frailty, courage and personal redemption it is an invaluable resource. I highly recommend it.”– Roger Fedyk, Sydney Morning Herald Margo Kingston’s Webdairy

“Ultimately, as the theme that emerges is about being true to yourself, ‘A Life of Unlearning’ should be compulsory reading for every man, woman and child in Australia, whether gay or straight, young or old, religious or non-religious.”– Gary Fishlock Editor of SX Magazine, part of the Gay News Network

“In this well written autobiography, Anthony Venn-Brown takes the reader on a remarkable journey ……. a heartfelt story of someone attempting to reconcile two disparate, but equally powerful, elements of his life – his sexuality and his faith. Anthony wonderfully invokes growing up in Sydney in the nineteen fifties and his prose really rings true for a first time author. As our exploration of who we truly are always affects those closest to us, and it is their pain that echoes through this book. Through it all, however, we come to see the essential nature of ‘character,’ despite the dramatic changes of scenery along the way.”– Wellbeing Magazine

“A Life of Unlearning is still, in the 21st century, a shocking and much-needed work… it’s an extraordinary life story, and ultimately a positive one.”– Greg Spearritt Sea of Faith in Australia

“Anthony’s book is well-written, a ‘must-read’ for all (adult – though some may disagree with that) Christians, especially Christian leaders. It’s confronting, occasionally (appropriately) explicit, irenic, sad, honest, and well-researched. There’s a commendable integrity about his approach.”– Rev Dr Rowland Croucher, John Mark Ministries (Read full review here)

“Anthony shares his life with us with all the colour that a story-telling evangelist can capture. The honesty of his story is compelling. His story faces the hard issues, HIV/AIDS, Suicide, Sexual Assault, Relationships, Marriage, Parenting, Domestic Violence, Loneliness, Guilt, Shame, Rejection, Love and Sex. He has nothing to hide and it is refreshing. I recommend this book as a non-threatening way to understand and process the issues of sexuality and spirituality; however, I can’t say you may not experience discomfort as the honesty in these pages invites you to be honest in your own life. Read it if you dare.”– Dr Wendell Rosevear – O.A.M., M.B.,B.S., Dip. RACOG., FRACGP.

“Despite his background in church leadership and Bible study, the author does not assail readers with a revised understanding of the scriptures generally thought to address sexuality. Instead, he simply tells his story, doing so with breath-taking honesty and self-exposure. It is reminiscent of some of the brutal bio-sketches found in Scripture and comes alive by virtue of not being uni-dimensional, idealised or sanitised.

“Some will be confronted by images contained in the story, a story of the tragic-heroic struggle of a talented church leader and preacher trying desperately to harmonise his Christian calling and religious understanding with the deep realisation that he was gay. Even today, despite a growing body of research highlighting the innateness of sexuality, many church-going people hold judgmental attitudes towards gay and lesbian believers. Bigotry is part of the problem, but the larger problem is ignorance. Too many neglect to investigate a topic that they are convinced was resolved nearly three and a half thousand years ago, by the writer of Leviticus.

“As Anthony notes towards the end of his book, ‘There are two types of people in the world: those who are asleep and those who are awake; those who are aware and conscious and those who live in a state of unknowing. It’s time Christians woke up.'”– David Potter. Lecturer and General Studies Convenor. Avondale Seventh Day Adventist College.

‘The title is just superb, challenging our puerile assumptions as to what it really means to be a Christian, indeed what it means to be a person of integrity at all. As well as being very hard to put down, this excellent autobiographical spiritual journey will be of interest to anybody who wants to learn more about the nature of their faith and how it can impact our life. In this book, hope is found through being honest and truthful – and learning what it means to live a life of integrity – rather than pretending to keep up an illusion of holy living, according to the demands and expectations of many church-going folk. I can hardly recommend this book too highly. If you allow the honesty of the author to challenge you, it will change your life – for the better.”– Jeremy Marks COURAGE, U.K.

“I’ve read many books about coming out and on the theme of the conflict with sexuality and faith. Venn-Brown presents a work that rings an authentic tone as he unearths the pain of living a closeted life. He does so without self-indulgence or bitterness. His words brim with hope, humor and integrity. As he unfolds the complexity of being a Christian who also happens to be gay, he reveals the many horrors we can inflict upon ourselves in attempts to submerge parts of our personalities. He also models the courageous process of starting anew while remaining faithful to the people and beliefs at our core. I highly recommend this book.”– Peterson Toscano, author of Doin’ Time in the Homo No Mo Halfway House–How I Survived the Ex-Gay Movement

Endorsements from academics, and community and Christian leaders

“A Life of Unlearning is an incredible book. The honesty and openness is amazing, and something I never have come across before. This is a very important book for the LGBT people, but it is also a book with a universal message, of relevance to all of us, who want to live decent lives. Reading Anthony Venn-Brown’s story has been a very valuable gift that will continue to live inside me.”

Johan Vilhelm EltvikSecretary GeneralWorld YMCA

“A Life of Unlearning by Anthony Venn-Brown is the best autobiography on the intersection of faith and sexuality that I have ever read. It is honest, raw, and yet filled with hope; a perfectly written exploration into the nuance that fills life’s uncertainties. Venn-Brown has gifted us with something very special, and his life on these pages should not only be treasured, but read the world over. I could not recommend this book more!”

Andrew MarinPresident of The Marin FoundationAuthor of Love Is an Orientation

“It has been over ten years since I first made contact with Anthony Venn Brown. Back then I was a Pentecostal Minister in a thriving mega church. A minister with a growing suspicion and gnawing doubt about the treatment and marginalisation of LGBTIQ people by the wider church. Anthony was an angel. I look back at my ignorance and blundering questions – he helped clarify so many things with grace and without judgement. Today I would count him as my dear friend.

His book, “A Life of Unlearning” is a must read for anyone serious about research and education in the area of sexuality and conversations about LGBTIQ. Matters such as this are often discussed in a clinical and uninformed manner. Stories like Anthony’s make an important personal contribution to gaining understanding of who we are as human beings created in the image of God.”

Nicole Conner

Writer & Blogger

“In ‘A Life of Unlearning’ Anthony shares his life with us with all the colour that a story-telling evangelist can capture. The honesty of his story is compelling. Many Christians love to argue, gaining a sense of safety out of ‘being right’. Anthony doesn’t do that, he simply tells his story. You can’t argue with it. It is neither right nor wrong, it simply is.

“You can feel the genuineness in trying to build a relationship with God and the internal tensions of sexual guilt and self-rejection. The tension between his truth and his sense of value and worth is the key battle. We see Anthony rising to success as a popular preacher only to fall with scandal when his truth comes out. His pain deepened as others got hurt, including his wife and daughters.

“Even as he left the ‘safety’ of religion and ventured into the homosexual world, he learned the spirituality of honesty and the caring of each other beyond what he had experienced in his denomination. Anthony deals with Fundamentalism by reverting to the fundamental of LOVE. His story faces the hard issues, HIV/AIDS, Suicide, Sexual Assault, Relationships, Marriage, Parenting, Domestic Violence, Loneliness, Guilt, Shame, Rejection, Love and Sex. He has nothing to hide and it is refreshing.

“I recommend this book as a non-threatening way to understand and process the issues of sexuality and spirituality; however, I can’t say you may not experience discomfort as the honesty in these pages invites you to be honest in your own life. Read it if you dare.”

“By providing powerful, personal and accessible insights into how an individual experiences the tensions, meshings and meeting points between religion, spirituality, sexuality and family, ‘A Life of Unlearning’ is essential reading for students and teachers of social sciences, religious studies, family studies, psychology and health studies at both upper secondary and tertiary levels.”

Dr Maria Pallotta-ChiarolliAuthor and Senior Lecturer in Social Diversity, Health and Education School of Health and Social Development Deakin University, Melbourne Australia

“‘A Life of Unlearning’ is a thought-provoking and disturbing insight into the oppressive stereotyping of ‘acceptable’ maleness in Australian culture. This stereotyping has ruined the lives of so many men (and their partners and families) and which, causes years of unhappiness, often severe psychological damage and – just as disturbingly – a denial of the possibilities of the rich life of thought and culture. Venn-Brown has been able to free himself from it’s limiting constructions and bovine constrictions. This brave book is a ‘must read’ for all students of constructions of gender and sexual identity (and how these have been abetted by the churches, especially those of biblical-fundamentalist character) and of the history of social definitions of maleness.”

“From internalised hatred of self, perpetuated by homophobia in society and specifically the church, Anthony Venn-Brown climbs millimetre by millimetre from a place he describes as ‘a suicide of the soul’ to a place of light, true acceptance, love of self, love of others and discovering the true meaning of the love of God.

“‘A Life of Unlearning’ is a story of courage and resiliency, providing powerful insights essential for any professional considering working with people; teachers, health and social workers, psychologists, counsellors and those who minister. This work is also extremely relevant for individuals with similar issues who, unfortunately still in some circles, frequently feel alone in their struggle to overcome the stigma attached to homosexuality and find self-acceptance.”

“I read many books about coming out and on the theme of the conflict with sexuality and faith. Venn-Brown presents a work that rings an authentic tone as he unearths the pain of living a closeted life. He does so without self-indulgence or bitterness. His words brim with hope, humour and integrity. As he unfolds the complexity of being a Christian who also happens to be gay, he reveals the many horrors we can inflict upon ourselves in attempts to submerge parts of our personalities. He also models the courageous process of starting a new while remaining faithful to the people and beliefs at our core. I highly recommend this book.”

Peterson ToscanoAuthor of Doin’ Time in the Homo No Mo Halfway House–How I Survived the Ex-Gay Movementwww.petersontoscano.com

“The title is just superb, challenging our puerile assumptions as to what it really means to be a Christian, indeed what it means to be a person of integrity at all. As well as being very hard to put down, this excellent autobiographical spiritual journey will be of interest to anybody who wants to learn more about the nature of their faith and how it can impact our life. Anthony Venn-Brown bares his soul in sharing what it meant for a man in a very public position as an Assemblies of God pastor and well-known evangelist to come to terms with his same-sex orientation and learn to live a life of integrity as a gay man rather than just “keeping the show in the road” out of deference to the spiritual demands of others.

“Necessarily this book describes what has personally been a very tough journey for Anthony Venn-Brown, but then the Christian life IS hard for anyone truly walking a life of faith. This book describes what it can mean to “take up our cross” as Jesus commanded, and allow God to challenge our tendency towards an ego-centred Christianity – a popular “religious” form of Christianity that is commonly found but a form that leads to spiritual stagnation and is actually anti-Christian in its long-term effect. For anyone who is tempted to think of the Christian faith in terms of certainties about what we ought to believe (rather than what we honestly do believe in our hearts), this book will blow apart our illusions and offers instead a more substantial picture of what it really means to live a Christian life.

“In this book, hope is found through being honest and truthful – and learning what it means to live a life of integrity – rather than pretending to keep up an illusion of holy living, according to the demands and expectations of many church-going folk.

“I can hardly recommend this book too highly. If you allow the honesty of the author to challenge you, it will change your life – for the better.”

“The Church has wrestled with a dozen major paradigm-shifts in its history. The first had to do with accepting Gentiles. The Protestant Reformation was built on the radical proposition that we are saved by faith purely on the basis of God’s grace, and that we can trust ordinary folks to read the Bible. Then there was slavery, charismatic renewal, women in leadership… Conservative groups have recently wrestled with issues like dancing, divorce, Sabbath/Sunday-behaviour, dress-codes, and rock music.

“And now the Big One: Homosexuality.

“After 25 years counselling ex-pastors, what generalizations can I make about Christian homosexual ministers who declare their orientation/ practice?

“If they were credentialed by a fundamentalist denomination they will be treated, with very few exceptions, as lepers/pariahs, and even with hate. If from an evangelical background, the neglect will be more benign: they may receive one or two contacts from their colleagues (or they may not). Mainline Christians are less homophobic, but also often uncaring.

“Fundamentalists/Pharisees quote Paul: ‘[Do not] associate with anyone who bears the name of brother or sister who is sexually immoral… Drive out the wicked person from among you’ (1 Corinthians 5:11,12, NRSV).

“Progressive Evangelicals align their stance with that of Jesus, who was castigated by religious leaders for hanging out with ‘publicans and sinners’. They might agree with Tony Campolo: ‘In the likelihood that most (homosexuals) will still have their basic sexual orientations regardless of their efforts to change, we must do more than simply bid them be celibate. We must find ways for them to have fulfilling, loving experiences so that they might have their humanity affirmed and their incorporation into the Body of Christ assured.’

“Anthony Venn-Brown is probably Australia’s first openly-gay Pentecostal leader. His story is both typical (he attempted suicide) and atypical (he attends a Pentecostal Church and has set up a ministry – Freedom 2 B[e] – a network for GLBTIQ – Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, Transgender, Intersex and Queer – people from Pentecostal and Charismatic backgrounds).

“Wikipedia says he prefers to be known as a gay ambassador rather than a gay activist. That’s also atypical: most homosexual ex-pastors (and serving pastors for that matter) still lie very low.

“When I tell clergy conferences that every Christian denomination has pastors and ex-pastors who are gay, that used to be greeted with disbelief. Now, of course, they’ve all moved beyond the ‘Don’t ask, don’t tell’ stance.

“And when I write/preach that the Bible has nothing whatever to say about homosexuality as a (non-chosen) orientation, most conservative Christians just don’t understand. Non-chosen? Yes: I’ve not met a homosexual or lesbian client who chose to be that way: most of them would prefer to be a much-less-complicated – and socially more acceptable – heterosexual.

“But not Anthony: if reincarnation was true, he writes, he wouldn’t mind coming back as a homosexual. Again, atypical.

“Sample paragraph: ‘I was overcome by a feeling of utter failure. I thought about what I’d done to Helen and the girls, the people who might lose faith because of my transgression, the humiliation of everyone knowing my sin, the way I’d discredited the ministry and how unworthy I was of anyone’s love, even God’s… I was a failure as a husband, father and servant of God’ (p. 285).

“Anthony’s book is well-written, a ‘must-read’ for all (adult – though some may disagree with that) Christians, especially Christian leaders. It’s confronting, occasionally (appropriately) explicit, irenic, sad, honest, and well-researched. There’s a commendable integrity about his approach. (My main suggestion would be that in the next edition he adds an appendix with a more in-depth summary of the biblical/theological material.)

“Two of the most difficult questions for conservative Christians relate to a ‘cure’ for homosexuality and the issue of same-sex marriages.

“Anthony’s experience demonstrates that the advice often given to people with same sex orientation – that a heterosexual marriage will solve the problem and be the final evidence that they have received a ‘miracle’ – frequently ends in a traumatic and devastating experience for the partner and children: one that can take years to heal. Also most will be shocked to learn, from the emails Anthony has received, that some Christian parents and church leaders suggest hiring an opposite sex prostitute to help with the ‘cure’. Obviously there is still a great deal of ignorance out there about sexual orientation and church leaders need to be more informed.

“On the issue of same-sex relationships, I have said often that there’s a great deal of hypocrisy in our churches. In an ABC TV program I suggested that churches have been selective in their indignation re the three so-called ‘deadly sexual sins’ – adultery, fornication, and homosexual practice. We condemn the first and third, but most (yes, most) of our Christian young people practise the second one: but are not excluded from the memberships of most churches on that account. (Why? They’re the children of church leaders!).

“Here’s a heart-felt comment from Anthony on this question: ‘Those who are privileged to have a close relationship/friendship with gay or lesbian couples know that the essentials that build and maintain their relationships are the same as heterosexual marriages: love, trust, respect and a desire to create a life long partnership. These are all honourable traits and should not be condemned as evil but supported by those who believe God’s love is for all. To welcome them into our churches is an acknowledgment of the right choices they have made.’

“And I would add that no one should be definitive on this broad issue until/unless they have listened carefully to the stories of homosexual people.

“We may not agree with all Anthony says, but if our homophobic judgmentalism can’t cope with this sort of ‘in your face’ truthfulness, or if we don’t cry with Anthony sometimes – he cries a lot – my gentle suggestion would be to get help!

Rowland CroucherRev Dr Rowland Croucher is a well-known theologian, international speaker, best-selling author of more than a dozen books and director of John Mark Ministries. A Christian counselor and former Baptist pastor (of the biggest church in Melbourne – Crossway), Rowland has been preaching for more than 50 years, and has spoken to Christians from most denominations in 37 countries.http://jmm.aaa.net.au/

What readers said

“A Life of Unlearning is compelling, refreshing reading. It’s not a diatribe, not angry or bitter. It’s simply one mans story, simply told, with authenticity and, one senses, a great deal of love. However, there is also pain here, and it runs deep, and cannot help but touch the reader, deeply, eye to eye, with a steady, confident gaze. This book looked into my soul, at first convicting me, then educating me, then drawing me into a narrative of deep yearning, love, tragedy and compassion, finally helping me better understand my own place in the matrix of affirmation, social inclusion and justice for the LGBT community”
– Jo Hilder (read full review on Amazon.com)

“Thank you for enlightening my world & I can confidently say changing it forever.”
– Janet (a Christian mother whose son left the church and his marriage of 3 years after accepting the fact that he was gay)

“My future of ‘unlearning’ has begun thanks to you. You are truly a wonderful inspiring human being bringing awakening & happiness to all who are touched by your life. Thank you for your total honesty and willingness to put it all out there without fear of what people will say, because you now know who you are. The gift of your life has certainly affected us in an amazing way.”
– Angela, mother of a gay 22 year old son.

“The final chapters of your book broke my heart! I had to put it down almost every paragraph to refocus my puffy red eyes. I had a moment where something inside me wanted not to be broken anymore. For the first time I wasn’t convincing myself that I was loved and valued and that everything was ok. I actually knew it.”
– Matt, 22 (London)

“Wow! Thanks for writing your book which has given me insight & some much needed healing.”
– Trish (a mother whose 15 year old son required psychiatric treatment, after attending a Christian school and being taught ‘all homosexuals will burn in hell’)

“I’m 63… I wept as I read your first chapter. I too, have fought the battle. Your book gives hope to men like me.”– George from Canada

“At 43 years old I attempted suicide. I believed that I was a worthless abomination to God. Thank you for your autobiography, which I hope, will help many.”
– John (Ex Baptist minister)

“Your penned words certainly describe how I feel. I’m not sure that I could endure the pain, hurt, guilt, and shame, lost as you have. I commend you for your courage.”
– Nikko (Japan)

“It is a superb book…absolutely gripping… I didn’t want it to end… I know this book will touch lives.”
– Steve (ex-Pentecostal minister)

“Thank you for writing your book … I couldn’t put it down until I finished reading it! After reading I guess I felt a little less alone, and helped me view life much more positively… thank you.”– George

“It’s 6 am and I’ve just finished reading your book, which I was unable to put down. Thank you so much for writing about your really quite extraordinary life with such vividness and emotional candour, and for the message of hope that underpins it.”– Steve

“It had me completely spellbound until I finally turned the last page.”
– Peter (heterosexual Christian)

“I would say it is the most valuable book I will ever read… I have been in limbo not being able to understand him or what he was going through… but reading your story has helped put the pieces of the puzzle together.”– Margaret (whose husband came out 2 years ago at the age of 62 after 29 years of marriage)

“I am 68 years… happily married as far as possible for almost 49 years… A Life of Unlearning told my own story in so many ways… my wife could not put the book down either… a wonderful inspiration.”– William

Page Turner

“I normally don’t like books like this but it was so good I read it in one sitting. It brought back so many personal memories for me.”– Ronald Shaffer

“This was a great read. .. so compelling. I didn’t want to put it down.”– Working Ghoul

“I loved ‘A Life of Unlearning’ – could not put it down. Read it twice in two days.”– Jacqueline Adeney

“Yes I highly recommend the autobiography of Anthony Venn-Brown, A Life of Unlearning. That one kept me up all night cos I read it twice – and cried both times.”

“It’s 6 am and I’ve just finished reading your book, which I was unable to put down.”– Steve from Paddington, Sydney

“It had me completely spellbound until I finally turned the last page.”– Peter (heterosexual Christian)

“It is a superb book… absolutely gripping… I didn’t want it to end.”– Steve Adelaide

“I bought your book on a Friday and had devoured it by Sunday afternoon! Your journey touched me, it saddened me, made me laugh out loud at times, and ultimately inspired me and filled me with strength.”– Adrian

“What a great read and thoroughly motivating story. You are such a wonderful writer. I devoured the book in 2 days.”– Andrew

“I ended up reading the whole book in one sitting… a deep and sincere thank you for telling your story so honestly and openly.”– Colin

“This is an amazing story. When I started reading it, it just gripped me more & more. Thank you for giving me hope.”– Peter @amazon

“The story is told with brutal honesty and reads with a ‘can’t put it down’ quality.”– Peter Matthewson

“It was riveting reading; a compelling story told bravely and honestly.”– Amazon.com

“I couldn’t put this book down. I often found myself in tears as I read through. Everyone who has struggled with their faith and its pronouncements about being gay must read this story!!– AmazonUK

Honesty

“This is an amazing book for the simple reason that it is gut wrenchingly honest. Nothing is ‘prettied up’ or made more presentable; a very real and very human struggle is described and the book is life changing and powerful as a result.”– Brian

“Anthony’s story reads like a novel to me. I kept thinking this is fiction, it couldn’t have happened to one man. His style is engaging, honest and raw even.”– Peter J Johnston

“I have read many books and heard many speaker discussing coming out and as they address the conflict with one’s sexuality and faith. Venn-Brown presents a work that rings an authentic tone as he unearths the pain of living a closeted life. He does so without self-indulgence or bitterness. His words brim with hope, humor and integrity.”– Peterson Tuscano

“Thank you so much for writing about your really quite extraordinary life with such vividness and emotional candour, and for the message of hope that underpins it.”– Steve from Paddington, Sydney

“The story is told with brutal honesty and reads with a ‘can’t put it down’ quality.”– Peter Matthewson

‘There is scarcely a page that does not engage you personally… nothing is held back. Some will find Anthony’s story disturbing and confrontational and others will find it liberating and an example of the triumph of the individual human spirit. For those who want to understand human frailty, courage and personal redemption it is an invaluable resource. I highly recommend it.”– Roger Fedyk, Sydney Morning Herald Margo Kingston’s Webdairy

“Anthony shares his life with us with all the colour that a story-telling evangelist can capture. The honesty of his story is compelling. His story faces the hard issues, HIV/AIDS, Suicide, Sexual Assault, Relationships, Marriage, Parenting, Domestic Violence, Loneliness, Guilt, Shame, Rejection, Love and Sex. He has nothing to hide and it is refreshing. I recommend this book as a non-threatening way to understand and process the issues of sexuality and spirituality; however, I can’t say you may not experience discomfort as the honesty in these pages invites you to be honest in your own life. Read it if you dare.”– Dr Wendell Rosevear – O.A.M., M.B.,B.S., Dip. RACOG., FRACGP.

“I was impressed with the way this book was so well written and easy to read. It was riveting reading; a compelling story told bravely and honestly.”– Amazon.com

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