It's been wonderfulnthroughout my life. I have got everything that I liked most of them rebeled. But there lies one thing that I have never got. No one could even help me getting it....

For that most special lady out there...
Most beautiful one that dragged me the entire life...

Dear,
This blog belongs to you. This entire work... every single letter just mean you. You know? The day I was getting tattoed I literally made up my mind... I just not love but live for you. And eery single time the needle peirced, it was just you on my mind. Thats very weird to say even I had girl friends althrough this period, everyone knew that you were my first preference and they were next. I liked you that way. I respect you, and thats the reason why I even stayed away from you. Even now! I wanna give away all my courage to come before you. But I dont dare... because I want all my 10 years of wait to be ended in a beautiful saga and Im not in a position to accept the bitter truth. As you said, I will one day speak to your mom about us. Trust me! And I always even knew that you faked that you had someone. And you accepted it. I will come please TRUST me!

As you see you find everything weirdPeople, trees and buildings all aroundIts like a mothers womb, I seeFall down... and you cry in painYou cry.. and you'll be saved by the doctorIt heals in time... but as times pass by, you can see the scarsYou laugh.. only because you're aliveYou silent? Youre dead

The other time when I was sitting in my balcony and seeing all the busy world around me, I felt that mother's womb is the only safe place on the planet with no worries and tensions

As I changed hands, you were destined to be born
As you passed away, I made your doom
Days you worked hard for me, I lived near your heart
Days you slept lazy, from your life I went apart
Made you cry when i'm lost
And smile when i'm found in the frost
In my dreams you spent a lot
Without me you cant even depart
For your love, love me too than it does to you
Your dad earns you that it belongs to you
A day without me can make you frown
And the day with me can take you to throne

P.S :- who am I.... any guess...
Yea, money.

Nothing is there wihout money...
People say "smile costs nothing" its not true...
You were here on this planet because your parents paid money to the doctor. :)

Yesterday i.e., 28th nov, 2011 was the 22nd day of my relationship... and it's the most wonderful night I've ever experienced as a teen with his girl friend on phone...

The reality went like this...

day before yesterday we had a really long night together texting on phone and slept at 4am i guess...We were normal till the afternoon... she texted "am having luch now break.. did you have?"I said "Am shopping with cousin and had some chicken"I got no reply...In the evening something suddenly went on my mind and all of a while she suddenly said "catcha after a while"

I was literally to say PISSED OFF...!!Then after an hour she texted me back saying "sorry :( mom was on phone :("I was so mad(went nuts) that i texted her "call or catch me after every thing gets over. may be we can talk tomorrow or day after, good night"She texted me back saying "what can i do if dad was on phone with mom?"I said her "ok listen am not pissed off... am sick, am damn busy. i'll catcha tomorrow. good night. love you(i didn't feel anything while i wrote the above love you. am sorry)"After 10 minutes i got a text... "you didn't feel what?"

In the mean time i scolded myself for short temper.. wept a while and to forget i made a cut on my palm... it started bleeding...I replied her "wait a min. hand is bleeding. feeling vertigo"

I really felt loosing her at that instant... i loved her so much and am so stupid to get such angry for such small issue....Then i called her... she was like crying... i said "am realy sorry for what had happened... and for the 1st time on phone with lottza guts i whispered I LOVE YOU... she said "Po da"(which meant get lost) i again said her sorry and then she said ok.. we'll text... let's not talk nowShe texted me back "listen it's just 22nd day of our relationship and you were angry on me? we still have 3000days to get together.. are you sure you can make up with me? im sure i can give up anything...be frank. can you?"

we got together really well... and finally it's 12am.. everyone is sleeping in our both the places...she sleeps with her mom and i sleep alone in my room... so i got some privacy to whisper something.. rather than talking....

She texted me "hey i'll call you and i wont speak... please sing a song for me"I said i can just whisper...she was like "ok.. whisper i love you... i will call"

Frankly i thought Jeez... what the hell is wrong with us...!! we are alright now...She called me... i said "i love you"... then she whispered slowly "say some thing.." i said "i love you" again... then she asked me to kiss her through the phone... i said ok and kissed my phone...she laughed and said "po da" again...!!Then she said "love you too..." in such a sweet voice that tears rolled out of my eyes i said "fuck you" to my self in a low voice and disconnected the call...and then we texted for some time

She said me that " your voice is ...y"(guess you people know that word :p :p :p)I said "thank you and your 'love you too...' made my day :p"

We again called and dared whispering on phone...!! we don't know what we spoke... because we spoke something that only love knows...

I love you kutty... i'll never leave you and make you cry...! muahh muuahhh.....!

P.S :- this is just a beginning... I'll let you know what ever happens in my relationship my blog...!! because after my girl friend i love you so much...! :p

this picture says us that "As dry leaves that before the wild hurricane fly, when they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky. So up to the house-top the coursers they flew, with the sleigh full of toys, and St. Nicholas too." --Clement Clark Moore

Oh baby am so sorry for what i've doneIt's hell without you and am already inIs the infatuation that played with my brain?Or your dreams that i'm lost in

Are you the one which i saw you in that mallIn the hall and on my bed sitting on my couch?It's so annoying that i should now i should stand stillOn my own with out your support , On the wall of the angel's hell

Deep below buried in meis the land of agonywhich is now bursting out, in the form of tearsAnd Loneliness reigns by royal decree.

Am now without an answer, no not even a clueShould i wait or wake from this dream of youThis is a torment that i cant fight anymoreMy tears were out and i can't cry anymore

I thought you would be with meTill the end of the sun and moon's light in the nightBut i came to know that it's just a dream in twilightThat can never ever be cherished even though i fight

Guys now a day’s people’s way of thinking have changed
drastically. Even the parents now a day are just forcing their kids to join
either in engineering stream or medicine stream.

Well
particularly in my state Andhra Pradesh where education has become a business
here. They just force a kid of 11th standard to study for nearly
13hours a day in college without any extracurricular activities. Which I think
is too insane. But what all they need is marks. Well even an average guy like
me can score 100% marks if he is made to study in the way he likes.

Listen
guys’ studying is important. But I say studying the subject a student likes is
very much important. And “RANKS ARE NOTHING BUT NUMBERS, BUT TALENT IS THE ONE
THAT EARN YOU THAT NUMBERS”

And who the hell said that “arts is for dummies”. For those who think like that I’m saying that
“arts is for people those who wish to
live their own life”. And “engineering
and medicine are the subjects for money bugs!”

See
even the great scientists at the end write their own book called “auto-biography”
which is an art not science. And the books you are reading are also a form of art
and the machines that engineering students use also 1st came from
artwork and designing…

Am not criticizing the people who studied
engineering because I myself is a student of engineering. But the way of
thinking in this country should change. Here everyone thinks of money fame and
luxuries. And they think only way is doing a professional degree…! Isn’t it
insane?

Even most of our parents have done their mainstream degree in arts they
don’t wish their child to read arts. Why?. It’s not the problem in some
families. But many of them wish their child to become either an engineer or
doctor. Are they the only professions that can earn money?. I say NO.

You know guys in my state alone there are nearly 800 engineering
colleges and 100 medical colleges. Why does the government and even the private
sector start colleges for only engineering? Why can’t they open colleges for arts,
architecture, literature, pure and applied subjects and other courses?

The reason is only one. Parents here wish their son to become either
engineer or doctor right from their early childhood. And even the kid even
though after some period of time likes another subject he is getting forced to
join in an engg or medical college.

I myself want to become a photographer right from 15. I applied for MIT,
JJ and HALLMARK. But I can’t go there now only reason my parents don’t like me
becoming a photographer… the reason might be simple guys but the impact on me
was terrible. I’m now getting good grades but there is a place in me for
photography. Like that I know many people are suffering around the world.

Only
way to get out of this depression is just do what your parents say else explain
them the subject you like and please them.