I often wonder about the grand scheme of things... where do I fit in? Am I headed in the right direction? Why am I so unlucky in love? Why do I have to work so hard to get things that others get easily? What is the purpose of me being here?......you now get a peek into the life of a fellow who feels held back by invisible chains....curious?

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Joe's long walk

He stared long and hard into those cold eyes, striving to catch a glimpse of remourse in them ... less than an hour between him and the electric chair, ... between life and death ... and yet, ...

~~~How many wrong turns does one have to take before ...

before one gives up trying to find the right path, and start walking down the road one is on?

before one accepts that dreams are just that ... dreams ... and reality mandates consciousness ... wake up!

before one realizes that wishes are only granted in fairytales and that this life ain't no fairytale?

before one gives up praying ... only the prayers of the righteous are answered. Right?

How long does it take for a man to give up? ... to stop rebelling? ... to conform? ... to accept the pointlessness of it all? ...

How long before one gives up grappling with fierce desires and just goes with the flow? Why bother about the consequences? One has to die someday, right? Is there such a thing as right or wrong? Aren't your needs and desires greater than that of everyone else? Isn't that what the world requires from you? So when you do what's required of you, why are you being singled out and punished? ... Damn it, who are you kidding? ... it was plain wrong ... you major league screw-up!

Does it end here? ... or were your parents right? Is there heaven? Is there hell? Is there any way to be sure about that?

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. ... (1 Corinthians 13) The Holy Bible