I wrote a post yesterday about the Cardinal Grand Cross that is still holding today, but I'm now called to share an experience of inner Grand Cross craziness to apply it to the chaos of the current outer world. As Within, so Without.

My car was towed on Monday. Bummer. I commended myself for not falling into the self-loathing, "Brett, you're a $*&#$@^ idiot and you really can't afford these types of shenanigans!" territory this type of experience used to inevitably ignite. Perhaps a sign of benefiting from participating consciously with the evolutionary energy of Capricorn Pluto. I instead went straight for the eccentric intellectual pioneer Aires Uranus territory of "what new lesson have I called in for myself here?" but I also felt an almost uncontrollable response of wanting to sob and call my mommy. Perhaps that was a little flavor from the Cancer Jupiter camp. My mom is amazing, but that would not have been a productive phone call. Back to "what is this powerful emotion here to teach me?" Oh, and "I am my mommy."

My friend dropped me off at the tow yard and I waited in line for a bit. When it was my turn at the counter I was told my car was not there yet. This information was delivered quite rudely. It felt as if I was being attacked for doing something wrong, but I stilled the emotional reaction that wanted to fight back and demanded to know how I could have beaten my car to the shop... that inner voice yelling, "are there no rules here? Is the driver out having a bacon cheese burger with my car on his truck or what?"

I sat patiently and waited, feeling the lady behind the counter attack her customers again and again, justifying her negative energy by saying things like, "what a day I'm having!" and "if you only knew about MY day." Did she not remember everyone she was addressing had just had their car towed? I calmed my inner critic by reminding myself there are worse events than a car towing. Perhaps her child had just been deployed to war. Perhaps her parent was sent to a nursing home. Who could say? I chose to send cosmic hugs from my inner Cancer Jupiter.

I waited and waited. Something was off. I reminded myself to get back to my practice. This experience could be more than some mysterious lesson from the University of Hard Knocks. Why not change it up? Why not reward myself for calming my reactionary tendencies and bringing light? I gave myself love, sent some more over to the counter lady who was apparently having the worst day of all time, and some to the truck driver (wherever he was). Equality, balance, justice, love, abundance... Libra Venus. As within, as without. Diffuse myself, diffuse the situation. And so I did.

When I was called to the counter, I was told the driver lost my ticket so they were letting me go with no charge. I thanked them, smiled with my heart, honored myself, and split checking Grand Cardinal Cross manifestation off my astrological agenda.

But it's not all about me, is it?

Last night at 2:35am the Moon reached last quarter in Gemini shortly after Mars left the nurturing home of Cancer for his new Leo Lion's den. Leo... the king. Gemini... the court jester.. the only one who can tell the king the truth without having his head cut off because he's not doing it for personal gain, he's doing it for service to Spirit... service to truth itself. And the king (Leo) can take the jester's advice without suffering the shame of allowing the court to know he's doing so because the words are traveling through clown's makeup and juggled swords or whatever.

Last Quarter Gemini Moon squares Virgo Sun / Pisces Neptune then Virgo Mercury / Pisces Chiron. This post is already too long to get as deep into that as I'm called to, but for know I'll say there is a huge amount of spiritual support. Healing, empathy, and a calling to our sacred work all come to mind.

And that's a good thing because things are damn crazy right now. The powers that be are trying to start world war III. If the US / UK attack Syria and China and Russia aren't bluffing, things are going to get way out of control really quickly. Court jester here to say, please bring your awareness to this craziness. It is a reflection of our inner craziness. We have an opportunity to diffuse this situation, not by writing congress and picketing in the streets, but by bringing peace to our inner wars.

This is not possible if we continue to ignore conflicts without and within. I'm finding it's about patiently examining these energies with a full heart, no fear, and no expectations. If we change the way we react to external madness, the external madness will depart, but this will never happen if we continue to ignore it. We've called it in as an alarm clock. We have the option of hitting snooze until it's too loud to ignore (if it isn't already) or we can follow that beep beep beep to our inner struggle, war peace within, and watch it spread to the outside reality. Let's turn off the FOX, NBC, CNN, Huffington, etc. filters and honor real news from independent sources while we can. Let's turn off those filters inside as well and honor the real deal us.

I should stop typing now because I could talk about this forever, but whether you agree or just think I'm a ranting lunatic, it can't hurt to join me in this prayer...

Tap into inner peace. The calmest part of you. Resonate the gratitude for the life you've manifested where you experience peace and freedom from violence then send that peace to the outer world.

I am experiencing peaceI am experiencing peaceI am experiencing peaceI am at peaceI am at peaceI am at peaceI am peaceI am peaceI am peaceThe world is peaceThe world is at peaceThe world is experiencing peace