Tuesday, May 26, 2009

For a girl who had been horizontally-challenged most of her adult life, I’ve always dreamed of wearing a two-piece bikini in public without cringing or feeling ashamed about it. The dream had been achieved, but the doubts lingered still. Instead of being flattered, I take umbrage whenever a guy gets interested in me because of my questionable “intellectual capabilities” and not my limited physical qualities. My attempts to expunge the self-destructing tendency to compare where I am now against where others have gone fail more often than not. Drawn from the deep wells of insecurity, such concerns—although superficial and unreasonable—are hard to overcome.

Your insecurities, I continually tell myself, are devoid of reason. Why let yourself be ruled by the irrational? Why compare yourself with others? Why let societal norms and convention define who you are? The internal tug-of-war persists. Often filled with self-doubt in this world that attaches a bottom line value to everything and where one always has to be good enough, I continue to question my self-worth.

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I also feel insecure about so many things in myself. when i compare myself with others, oftentimes, i get more depressed. i often see how people are better. Anyway, from where I stand, I do not see any reason for you to doubt your self-worth. :)

sometimes you can't really control the urge to compare ourselves to others. I believe this can be a positive sign that in one way or another we want to improve or develop that we see on other people. but if you compare yourself and then becomes miserable after then it's pointless.

I believe that people who fail to question themselves, their motivations, their intentions etc are not really on the same planet as everyone else. Your self doubts will keep you sharp and focused and alive to opportunities.

Consider the alternative; narcissism!

Pat yourself on the back, you are a real and genuine person deserving of all good favour. :-)

there is always somebody better and lesser than we are. it's just a matter of accepting who we are, knowing what we are capable of doing, and believing that we can always improve some aspects of our lives that can make us better individuals everytime.