Thursday, May 15, 2008

It's bad enough being sick, it's 10 times worse being sick and not being able to curl up in our own bed and go to sleep.

I'm pretty sure I have a sinus infection now. My head feels like its filled with hot oatmeal. The capper is I'm out of town and no one is here to feed me soup. wah.

Like a trooper I made it out to WSP last night. It was a small, but lively group and we played dealers choice mixed games. It reminded me of Cat's home game, but at 20x the stakes. Fun was had.

I attempted to self medicate and enjoy myself, mission accomplished. I was also hoping to erase some of the losses I've had at WSP the last few times here. No such luck, it is quite possible I over medicated.

Big thanks to Jamie for setting up the game on an off night and thanks to the NYdegenerateswhocame and relieved me of my $. See you next time!

It's bad enough being sick, it's 10 times worse being sick and not being able to curl up in our own bed and go to sleep.

I'm pretty sure I have a sinus infection now. My head feels like its filled with hot oatmeal. The capper is I'm out of town and no one is here to feed me soup. wah.

Like a trooper I made it out to WSP last night. It was a small, but lively group and we played dealers choice mixed games. It reminded me of Cat's home game, but at 20x the stakes. Fun was had.

I attempted to self medicate and enjoy myself, mission accomplished. I was also hoping to erase some of the losses I've had at WSP the last few times here. No such luck, it is quite possible I over medicated.

Big thanks to Jamie for setting up the game on an off night and thanks to the NYdegenerateswhocame and relieved me of my $. See you next time!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

I ended up close to bubbling and I went through my notes on the 15k last night.

I have never taken the time to figure out Bodog's screwy hand history keeping, and I can't really be bothered. They need to move on into the 21st century though, geez UPDATE YOUR FUCKING GUI ALREADY!

I felt pretty good about my game last night. I was fairly focused and played with confidence. The damn cards didn't cooperate though, I wasn't given much to play with and the Jacks hand should have put me in good position for a final table run. Instead I had to scrape around and play some marginal holdings vs. large stacks. Oh well.

I've been super tired lately and just can't get motivated to stay up till 1-2AM playing the bloggerments. I've already punched my ticket and can't play enough to contend for monthly goals, so again I'm cool with playing a limited amount and playing well.

I'll be heading up to NYC at the ass-crack of pre-dawn and will hopefully be able to hook up with my good buddies et al. tomorrow and Thursday.

I ended up close to bubbling and I went through my notes on the 15k last night.

I have never taken the time to figure out Bodog's screwy hand history keeping, and I can't really be bothered. They need to move on into the 21st century though, geez UPDATE YOUR FUCKING GUI ALREADY!

I felt pretty good about my game last night. I was fairly focused and played with confidence. The damn cards didn't cooperate though, I wasn't given much to play with and the Jacks hand should have put me in good position for a final table run. Instead I had to scrape around and play some marginal holdings vs. large stacks. Oh well.

I've been super tired lately and just can't get motivated to stay up till 1-2AM playing the bloggerments. I've already punched my ticket and can't play enough to contend for monthly goals, so again I'm cool with playing a limited amount and playing well.

I'll be heading up to NYC at the ass-crack of pre-dawn and will hopefully be able to hook up with my good buddies et al. tomorrow and Thursday.

Friday, May 09, 2008

That's how I feel in regards to this blog lately. For the two or three of you who actually enjoy reading my drivel, I am sorry.

I did have a thought this morning in regards to losing and a losing mindset. I've read a few blogs in the last couple of days that are perpetually semi-tilted and frustrated. I do realize that some people have a less rosy outlook than others and that's cool if that's your gig. Some people can vent, get things off their chest and everything is cool again. Others continue to see the worst of situations and keep dragging themselves down.

You must realize that what you are doing is nothing but programming yourself for failure.

I was there last year at this time and you can keep telling yourself over and over again that its just a rut or a downswing or the moon has left the 7th house if you want to. The plain truth is that until you get your head straight, you will keep falling down the path and wonder when the ground is coming.

I'm telling you , you have to reach out for that rock or that tree branch or something. Until you can reprogram your head you'll just keep falling.

"Well gee Dr. skidoo, you make it sound so easy" you say.

Well its not. And I really don't know how to fix it for you.

I can't precisely tell you what did it for me, but I can tell you winning helps. I did some deep thinking, question asking, reading, soul searching, drinking, changing my name ...you name it. I kept trying though.

What helped me was simplifying everything. I gave myself a list of rules to follow and I only played when I could follow the rules. Slowly but surely my confidence recouped, I took pride in small wins which turned into some pretty nice wins and once again I felt 'open' and free to play poker like the true donkey I am.

So, you've all heard it before from somewhere I'm sure, I did before my funky 2007 and I didn't heed any of it I just had to figure it out myself.

Here it is again then, from a poker player who is probably not as good as you are.

YOU can make things change, YOU are the key and YOU are the one who must change. Open up your focus and step away from the things that are bringing you down. Focus on yourself and you can accomplish anything you want.

Cheers and have a good weekend!

OH! Poker in my 'hood tonight if anyone wants to come! Drop me a line, you know who you are.

That's how I feel in regards to this blog lately. For the two or three of you who actually enjoy reading my drivel, I am sorry.

I did have a thought this morning in regards to losing and a losing mindset. I've read a few blogs in the last couple of days that are perpetually semi-tilted and frustrated. I do realize that some people have a less rosy outlook than others and that's cool if that's your gig. Some people can vent, get things off their chest and everything is cool again. Others continue to see the worst of situations and keep dragging themselves down.

You must realize that what you are doing is nothing but programming yourself for failure.

I was there last year at this time and you can keep telling yourself over and over again that its just a rut or a downswing or the moon has left the 7th house if you want to. The plain truth is that until you get your head straight, you will keep falling down the path and wonder when the ground is coming.

I'm telling you , you have to reach out for that rock or that tree branch or something. Until you can reprogram your head you'll just keep falling.

"Well gee Dr. skidoo, you make it sound so easy" you say.

Well its not. And I really don't know how to fix it for you.

I can't precisely tell you what did it for me, but I can tell you winning helps. I did some deep thinking, question asking, reading, soul searching, drinking, changing my name ...you name it. I kept trying though.

What helped me was simplifying everything. I gave myself a list of rules to follow and I only played when I could follow the rules. Slowly but surely my confidence recouped, I took pride in small wins which turned into some pretty nice wins and once again I felt 'open' and free to play poker like the true donkey I am.

So, you've all heard it before from somewhere I'm sure, I did before my funky 2007 and I didn't heed any of it I just had to figure it out myself.

Here it is again then, from a poker player who is probably not as good as you are.

YOU can make things change, YOU are the key and YOU are the one who must change. Open up your focus and step away from the things that are bringing you down. Focus on yourself and you can accomplish anything you want.

Cheers and have a good weekend!

OH! Poker in my 'hood tonight if anyone wants to come! Drop me a line, you know who you are.

Monday, May 05, 2008

I got 18 players to come and play in the 'man pit' Friday night. I really like the structure that I mostly stole from Kaja as it allows a fair amount of play, but didn't seem to last too long.

I busted in 7th or so when I ran a poorly conceived bluff at someone who was incapable of folding. I do believe I remembered my manners though. My big bro cashed in 2nd with Johnny "Dutch Oven" in 3rd and Francase's buddy Matt took the whole thing down. Good times.We followed up with a little cash game, but my head was fairly clouded by Heineken at that point. I'm pretty sure I spent more time on the back porch smoking a stogie with my brother and shooting the shit with various folks.

Saturday we slept pretty late, then we went to a Cinco de Mayo party in the 'hood for a little bit. We watched the derby and I picked EightBelles to win....I like the filly's. DOH, we spent the next hour or so explaining to the kids why she had to be euthanized.

We weren't in the mood for Mexican, so we ate at a FANTASTIC Italian place up the street. The kids had fresh hand tossed pizza, the wife had her fall-back manicotti, I had a seafood marinara dish with clams, mussels, calamari and shrimp. I can't wait to finish that off tonight. We finished off the kids night by watching Mr Majorium's...blah blah...I was less than impressed.

The wife had to go meet some friends after that, so of course I fired up the poker machine. I ended up taking down a $69 - 45 person while chatting up my brother, then cashing in the $100MTT. I promptly donked off all my winnings and then some..yay me.

I got 18 players to come and play in the 'man pit' Friday night. I really like the structure that I mostly stole from Kaja as it allows a fair amount of play, but didn't seem to last too long.

I busted in 7th or so when I ran a poorly conceived bluff at someone who was incapable of folding. I do believe I remembered my manners though. My big bro cashed in 2nd with Johnny "Dutch Oven" in 3rd and Francase's buddy Matt took the whole thing down. Good times.We followed up with a little cash game, but my head was fairly clouded by Heineken at that point. I'm pretty sure I spent more time on the back porch smoking a stogie with my brother and shooting the shit with various folks.

Saturday we slept pretty late, then we went to a Cinco de Mayo party in the 'hood for a little bit. We watched the derby and I picked EightBelles to win....I like the filly's. DOH, we spent the next hour or so explaining to the kids why she had to be euthanized.

We weren't in the mood for Mexican, so we ate at a FANTASTIC Italian place up the street. The kids had fresh hand tossed pizza, the wife had her fall-back manicotti, I had a seafood marinara dish with clams, mussels, calamari and shrimp. I can't wait to finish that off tonight. We finished off the kids night by watching Mr Majorium's...blah blah...I was less than impressed.

The wife had to go meet some friends after that, so of course I fired up the poker machine. I ended up taking down a $69 - 45 person while chatting up my brother, then cashing in the $100MTT. I promptly donked off all my winnings and then some..yay me.