Monday, November 18, 2013

Over the weekend I took some much need time to be with family and friends and head over to When Brothers speak here in Toronto. Man, I used to love SPOKEN WORD AND STILL DO...

Truth is you get so wrapped up in life you forget to embrace, and make time for the things you love. I decided a while ago I was going to live. I mean live like I never knew the full meaning of life. Like I needed to build my self from scratch.

You get what I mean...

So like I said I headed over to When Brothers Speak and it was amazing, the show was off the chain. I will post a video of the show at a later date. I did want to say though shows like these make you feel empowered, makes me want to grab a pen and pad an exploded all over the page. I love to write and for people like me, it's my soliloquy.

Friday, November 1, 2013

It has been such an amazing year and I am sure it has been for you too.
Like I indiciated in many of my post I am on a spiritual journey. I do not
know when it will end, I just know this journey continues. I dont see an end to
the life of true "Wealth" and I mean in every area of my life.

I know what I want, where I want to be and who I want to be. I believe that what ever you are faced with in you life this movie will bring some sort of understanding. I once heard Rob Hill SR say "heal people, heal people" and I strongly believe that these words are true and can resonate through your body.

Take the time to enjoy life, take the time to live life, take the time to see your life where you want it to be.
As you all know I have taken breaks from my blog and I do sincerely apologize, I feel like I can write again because I have so much to say and so many updates to post on my hair. I look forward to sharing my progress, what I have learned and updates.
Until next time...Love, light,

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

The power of the mind, the power of you, if you only knew how powerful you are

Lately I have been doing so much growing and exploring my self, being self aware of who I am and what I have to offer the world, my family, my goals and where, why, who I am as a person, as God created me.

I have this amazing video that describes many introverts and why I can write so much but often seek to avoid crowds. I do love being around people but I often find myself wanting to do things rather than be someone I prefer not to be. I have always been this way, always perferred a movie rather than a club.

I am exploring my love of life and living it to the fullest, sharing times with those that love me and that I love.
Ignoring what negativity may come my way and what anyone thinks that arent revelant to my existence on this planet. I am also learning to respond to negativity with the knowing of self, pleasant and responsive love.

Yes this is why I have not blogged in a while, I am truly learning and on this quest I will share as much as I can. I plan to remake my website and hopefully make more videos. For the time being I enjoy just growing, learning and building a close relationship, my own personal relationship with God, taking chances that make sense to who I am and what my goals to achieve.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Bantu knots have to be one of my favourite for elongated our natural hair structure. It does not matter
what your hair type this style will help you achieve a wave patterned, or curls you desire. This really
depends on how you do them.

You can choose to braids, twist, or just wrap your hair into a bantu knot. Know that each style will
give you a different look, but ultimately the variety is great and easy to achieve.

Below are a few videos of Bantu Knots I have done to my own hair over the past two years....

In the first video this was early on in my journey, I did have a few pieces in my hair, I love using them to create highlights and more fullness... in my natural hair..also note that I do wear wigs now...

If you'll notice that my hair went through alot of growth but I definitely enjoyed each look at each length.

Curlformers

Personally I have never used these but after watching many youtube videos I love the definition
they can give your hair. Also temporarily altering the patterned of your hair.

Flexi-rods

Another one of my favourite especially for achieving fullness with natural hair.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Hey y'all,
Happy Tuesday, hope your all having a wonderful start to the week. I have a treat for you all today, some of you may have already viewed this video but once in a while it is nice to remind ourselves while on our journey, no matter what journey you are on, why you wanted this. From time to time your minds may change and that's okay. As long as it's what you believe is best for you and always in a positive light of course.
I really wanted to stress how important when on this hair journey, fitness journey, self-love journey- patience and love for yourself is so important.

I have complied my top 3 helpful tips....

1) Learn to love yourself

Loving yourself means loving the good, the bad, the ugly about who you are as a person. When you learn to do that you can really work on the bad and the ugly and become a better person to yourself and to others.

2) Appreciate the things you have accomplished in life

It really is okay to celebrate life and to live life to the fullest. Goals are meant to be met, so when you meet them reward yourself. Sometimes even for trying you should reward yourself. Remember your reward doesn't always have to be expensive, it could as simple as getting a manicure or relaxing at home with some candles.3) Be patient, Be Consistent

It is so important to take one day at a time on this journey, not every journey will be met overnight. Some take a really long time. As you will see in the video posted below patience is the key to growing healthy, long hair, whether it be locs, or maybe uou just want healthy hair and length doesnt interest you practice, consistency and patience

Thursday, March 14, 2013

There are some days where I want to just throw my hair in any old thing and really create simplicity from my natural hair texture. I wont lie to you some days this seems to hard to even think about or bring myself to do.

Recently I decided that it is imperative to remind myself of all around care that means hair care, mind and body. Despite how lazy I may get, I know we all have those days and I am definitely not alone.

I found the best ways to protect my ends is to simply put my hair in a bun to protect the ends, Right?!?

I think so, anyways I been trying more styles with my hair some fun, some weird, some unique and some well
I just love. I think my most amazing styles for me is the most creative. Which I will share in the future.

I should add that I am really enjoying my new camera. I love the quality Ill be able to provide you with.

Sunday, February 17, 2013

I'm sitting at my computer and I just feel overwhelmed as tears beginning to form in my eyes. There are so many reasons that I hurt. I know everyone goes through alot in life but I've been through so much that sometimes the thought of it all consumes me. I often don't share any of this with anyone not even my friends knew or know. I am very private and it sometimes causes me to lose friends, I can be an introvert so people don't seem to understand me.

I can type as fast as my brain can allow these words to flow through my fingers. I thought me sharing these thoughts would help someone that feels alone; an overwhelming feeling I have been having alot of lately. Thinking about every thing and sometimes for me it's better to just shut down. I often revert to shutting down my Facebook phone, everything around me. I pray often enough that my prayers are now conversations with my father. Yes were connected like that!

"Life is what you make it", was the text I sent to my cousin. Whom I adore for so many reasons, she has had my back, my ride or die, my everything. If there is only one friend I have left in the world it would be her. I spent alot of time being unbelievably bitter for so many years. I had moments of ups and downs at every moment. I often found myself just isolated, tears falling because I was hurting. I want to say you aren't alone whether you have been neglected, cheated on, raped, lost a child, treat badly by family, bullied, teased, lost confidence, hurt by the love of your life, lost friends who probably weren't friends, lost good friends, feel like your losing your mind, grew up poor, no food-hunger for days, depress, going through illness, left an unhealthy, the list can goes on and on and on but your not alone.

I have experience so much of this and so much more. It feels like it just keeps happening but I just keep going. I know I can make it and I know you can too. Strength comes from being knock down and getting right back up over and over again. I think these people are the most beautiful because they have experience hunger beyond the food satisfaction. Alot of times it takes very little to satisfied the hungry because you see without food your stomach begins to shrink the body eats away at itself, picture this as the heart.

The heart is so fragile it can stay in the state of hurt for such a long time, it is hard to mend a broken heart. I think broken bones are easier to mend. The heart becomes scared, bitter, fearful, non-trusting and completely close like a brick wall or cold as an ice box to anything or anybody.

I know anybody reading this is wondering what I am really saying but you get the idea. Writing is so therapeutic to me. I have been writing since I was 11 years old. It help get me through so much, thoughts that consumed me and it always seem to calm me down. I wrote anything from poems to letters, to journals. I hope you can find a way to clear your mind and heart for those of you in such distress.

Living life to the fullest is a must for me, lately I have feeling like I haven't been doing what I originally set out to do. I have lost alot of friends, I wont say a negative thing but I keep saying God knows best. I think about how many came to see me after my accident, how many cared enough through my mom's illness, how many only called when it was convenient. It makes sense why it all fell into place now.

Don't get me wrong I haven't been the greatest friend to alot of these people either, I was a good friend sometimes and sometimes completely shut down to the friendship. However this all happened after college as I found myself always being a yes women, and being taken advantage of. Always sweet and nice to everyone, even to people that treated me poorly. I guess I got tired of it. Believe it or not I open the idea to anyone that felt like they needed to walk away from a friendship with me as long as they realize any relationship is as much as work as the next. It goes hand in hand to want a good friend is to be an good friend, Sometimes even giving more of yourself in that friendship.

So what is my plan to get out of this funk, renew my life: How should you deal?

The first thing I want to do is LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, DO ALL THE THINGS I WANT TO DO, next I will make a vision board of where I see my life. I have a vision in my head but motivation is what I need. Next I need to forgive myself, I have done pretty good with this but I need to let it all go. I mean completely lift all the burdens off my shoulders. I am so consumed it is amazing I am still standing. The occassional let loose is a must, I do find myself laughing alot more but also crying alot more. I think that's okay too. I will never allow anyone to treat me poorly again, I set that rule up for myself years ago. Always remember you are beautiful regardless of what the world thinks of you. Dont let anybody take away your confidence! I realize I need good friends, really good people surrounding me that will bring out the best in me as well. I no longer accept friends into my life just because, I look at the bigger picture I only want friends who will inspire, and create good friendships with me. Lasting, trusting friendships. I continue to keep my family and fiance close treating them like Gold. God's greatest gift to me. The friends that are still here, I mean truly here I treat them as Gold as they have grown to do the same with me. I have come such a long way and once in a while I need to remind myself, pat myself on the back because I am doing okay. Everytime I accomplish a goal I will celebrate in whatever way pleases me.

Be a healthy version of myself: eat right, workout, get right. I will continue to create conversations with God because I know I need guidance. I have forgiven alot of people and I hope they have forgiven me too. Forgiving is for yourself too.

That's it I am sure I will update you guys with more but this is where my journey continues as it began a long time ago to a healthier mind, forgiving heart, my journey to becoming a humble, beautiful person. I having been working on myself for months now. It has thought me so much, made me much happier, made me cry, made me sad, but most of all brought me closer to myself and a relationship with God. I realize I spend so much time on my skin, hair, the outside beauty, the inside needed work too. My journey began about 2 years ago, I lost track and restarted again 8 months ago and it continues. I hope this helps anyone and I thank you all for reading. My last step is to LIVE MY LIFE LIKE I HAVE NEVER LIVED IT BEFORE.....LET'S GO!!!

Saturday, January 19, 2013

For those of you that have followed my blog from the beginning knows that
I am Trini (Trinidad & Tobago) yes, sweet sweet T&T and I love, love is a
understatement but I LOVE SOCA!!!

I met patrice roberts last year and I was so happy to meet her. She is the
sweetest person I have ever met and she killed the hell out her performance
with Machel (another favourite soca artist).

I have had this song as my ringtone, on my ipod, on everything for the last few months,
I was so happy to see the video. For all my Trini family massive and to those who
are new to it enjoy and take a little wine :)

Saturday, January 12, 2013

A few days ago I adorn Kelly Rowland "ICE" video, so imagine how excited I was to listen
to Destiny's Child new song. I find it to be very Solange but I'm loving the very soulful,
unique sound. Definitely shows alot of maturity and I love that they slowed it down....
but, is it a comeback song? I'll let you decide.
I am looking forward to the rest of there new music

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

This has to be one my favourite songs right now, I can listen to this song over and over
and over. I cannot express any more how much I love this song. Kelly sings it flawlessly
and looks stunning in the video

Kelly Rowland to me is often not notice and I can honestly say she is very talent and beautiful.
I am extremely happy that she is finally getting the recognition she deserves.

She scorches in ICE, the video, her look was HOT. I think the song is by far one of her
best songs to date. Choreograph by Frank Gatson she nails ever dance move, and is surrounded
by some amazing chocolate, chiselled male models.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Some of you may have already seen it, but I really enjoy her show on OWN and wanted to share it with you. I love her advice and everything she has to say to really take anyone's life to the next level.

“Be willing to share all of who you are. So many of us want a partner, but we’re not willing to show all of us. That’s why we have a weave, we’re wearing Spanx and everything is ‘fine.’ If you’re not willing to let your partner see your cellulite or know your biggest fears, then you aren’t really ready to share yourself…” –Iyanla Vanzant

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Sometimes finding yourself takes years rather than days, hours, or minutes. I know this because it's true, I have been there. At the end of 2012 I truly found myself, I achieved more in a few months than I could ever imagine. Although I lost alot of "friends" through making a decision to change for the better, I became a better person, a happier person, truly myself.

In 2013, I will continue to make these changes, achieve success, weave out the negativity in my life, stay close to the ones that truly whole-heartedly love me, continue to build my personal relationship with God, and put the positivity in the universe I want for my life and choose wisely the people I allow to walk with me in this life of mine. I look forward to this year it's going to be a great year....I wish you all a very Happy 2013.....