A survivor of Church abuse and cover ups goes on battling for her voice to be heard. A daily account of life after the Diocese of Winchester destroyed her and the slow and painful steps to rebuilding a life.

Introduction

This is a merge of my 'Wanderer' blog that tells of two years of my three years on the streets, and a new blog that tells of my life after the Diocese of Winchester ripped through my life for for the last few years on top of the previous serious harm that left me homeless

This is a day to day blog of my life as I continue to survive, work on recovery and on the social problems that I have and try to come to terms with limitless traumas I have survived along the way.

The former name of this blog and the name of it's sister blog are to do with my sense of humour, which I hope to keep to the end, which appears to be ever more rapidly approaching. At least I laughed, and I laughed at the people who were destroying me. Don't forget that.

Here are my books, which I wrote for you if you would like to know more: http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/JJNP

Monday, 8 August 2016

Monday Morning

Good morning peeps,

Well I have been up since 3.30am, I just can't sleep well.
But at least it means I can get on with music and writing. Well, music and editing this second book.

I have really been battling depression and flashbacks recently.

I was hoping to see the sunrise this morning, but just my luck, there was a bank of cloud so I didn't see the true sunrise, there are nice sunlit clouds though. The sea is big and it has fishing boats wandering around, followed by noisy seagulls.

Yesterday was a very difficult day, my mood is very low with flashbacks and fears of harm by the Church of England and their rogue safeguarding board in Jersey.

I didn't do much apart from writing and music yesterday. I did do some housework and I did go up to the cliffs and sit there with a book for a while and it was.

Today I have to work as normally as possible despite being too tired. Some people can go to bed late or get up very early without being affected, but I can't. It is going to be hot today, which makes it worse for me.