God’s Promise

God’s Promise

God’s promise was to never leave or forsake me. However, the absence of my short-term memory has left me dependent on others for daily living.

Often, I stare in the mirror, not recognizing the person staring back. I ask myself, “Who is this decrepit person?”

While looking in the mirror, I place my wrinkly hands on my face. My fingers pulsate with pain from arthritis with each movement.

My wobbly legs prevent me from standing for long periods. I cautiously descend to my wheelchair to prevent falling.

While ambulating with my wheelchair across the other side of the room, my body experiences uncontrollable tremors.

I grow frustrated and depressed thinking about my physical and cognitive infirmities.

I feel guilty and ashamed of having someone care for me.

If only I could dress and feed myself. If only I could prepare my own meals. If only I had my short-term memory. If only I were continent. If only I would not repetitively ask my caregiver the same questions.

While gazing out of the living room window, a ray of radiant sunshine compliments a beautiful blue sky.

I see several hummingbirds hovering near a large Oak tree with their beaks devouring nectar from the feeder.

I see a young woman pushing her infant in a stroller on the sidewalk, as others congregate to take a peek.

I see a beautiful Blue Jay, flying near a Maple tree, while sparrows perch on various tree limbs.

Despite my infirmities, I’m thankful for God’s goodness, and the beauty I see.

God’s been so merciful, for I could have been dead and gone.

As I reminisce of yesteryear, I’m thankful to God who brought me from a mighty long way.

Throughout my relationship with God, I’ve always been an avid reader of His Word.

While thumbing through various Books of the Bible, I turn to Isaiah 46:4.

“Even to your old age and gray hairs, I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.”

While meditating on this passage, I realize its simplicity, truth, and relevance.