My, it has certainly been a few days since I last left off. Life
has been crazy, but then again it always is. If not for my hectic life I feel
like I could fall into a deep depression. Life has had it ups and down
this year and stress has been among the top of my emotions. I always try
to do my best to stay positive. I believe everything happens for a reason and
that God has good things in store for those who do what is right. This year,
friends, life was difficult.

It was a struggle to find work first and foremost. In my situation
I don’t have a lot of child care options outside of the normal 8-5 shift so
that cut out a lot of potential jobs. Alas, I found a job, albeit a part time
position, it was a job! I was elated. The hours worked out great with my
children’s schedule as well as my class schedule. My supervisor has been
gracious in working my schedule so that it fits my crazy life. And the goal all
along has been to go fulltime. One of my co-workers is retiring next month.
Having been here since May, I feel like my chances are fairly good that I would
be hired.

One step forward two steps back. After only a couple of months at
my new job, my car, which I paid off several years ago, decided it was done. It
was a 98 cavalier that had seen its miles and had surely gave me years of reliability,
but now it was time to move on. So on a rainy September day I headed to the car
lot and found a newer, larger vehicle that would accommodate my family as they
grow. I was happy for a reliable vehicle with a warranty, but not happy that
here I was again with a car payment. Life had been so stressful and the last
thing I wanted was another bill.

Two weeks after I acquired my car, the ex quit paying his child
support. Now I will not talk about the ex very much because he is just a piece
of crap and I don’t want to waste my energy on him. Having said that, he quit
paying child support and as of today, still nothing. As a matter of fact he
owes his children in excess of $21k. So yes, that threw everything off and I
mean everything. Thankfully I have wonderful parents who have helped me as
needed and with my stable job I have been able to keep us afloat. Then even
more bad news came…

The full time position that will be vacant next month has been put
on hold. No, the person is not staying, but rather the powers that be have
decided to hold off on filling the position. My hopes are that they simply do
not want to pay overlap. But as of today I have no new news to report.
Hopefully I will know something either way before we break from Christmas
holiday.

So friends, that is what has been happening in my world. My grades
have slipped a bit, my time has been spread thin and I am ready for the 11 day
break that lies ahead. I am going to use this time to regroup, relax and
re-evaluate. My prayers are that I will have full time employment next month
and that this gloom that has seems to befall me will pass. Until next time…