Introductions – day 1

Finally, I met my gorgeous boys for the first time. All in all, it was a very overwhelming day. I spent most of the morning in tears but as I went into the house, this was the last thing on my mind as oldest boyby said ‘mummy!’ Amazing!

The rest of the two hours is a complete blur. I just sat and played with them both. They were both really hyper and I left utterly exhausted.

When people asked how I felt, I gave the ‘correct’ answer of saying it had been an amazing day but actually I found it much more complicated than that. I couldn’t put my finger on it but I just didn’t feel right – in retrospect I think this was just nerves etc but it was certainly not the rush of love I had expected.