my progression through twin mommyhood

But for real. I left this little slice of web alone for well over a year. I was feeling a bit of a struggle between documenting life and living life. I LOVE my mom blogs (absolute fav) and I felt a desire to have everything so well documented, something that I could reference until the inter-webs crash (…probably reading too many dystopia novels).

Problem is, I just don’t spend that much time on a device. Honestly, even without blogging, I think I spend a little bit too much time surfing Insta and FB and I’m still usually the last one to see a post or hear the news. There must be a trick to being a mom of one, two or five kiddos and still finding time to blog/Instagram/Facebook but I just don’t know that secret. I’m thinking those mommies must not sleep and that is something I’m NOT willing to give up. (hahahaha..sleep.)

Moving into 2018, I’ve decided I want to write again. When I can. I want to update and track and document and share. When I can. My family is number one and everything else comes after that. Well, God is numero uno actually but you get what I mean. He comes before all else.

So here’s the update:

I went back to work. Gasp. And I LOVE it. Cough. Like really love it. Choke.

If you know me, you know my background is HR. When we became a single family income, I tried think of all kinds of SAHM ideas to bring in extra money AND to give me something to do. I wanted to be a photographer (like Brittany). I wanted to own a small online shop of cute tees. I wanted to do alllll the things I saw other SAHMs creating and working and balancing a family.

What ended up actually occurring was I realized those are all super HARD work also. I had zero knowledge of photography and although I learned a LOT online, I really needed hands on guidance. Editing also took up SO MUCH time. I would get faster the more I worked with it but watching You tube videos and reading tutorials, while working on a photo was time consuming.

I also failed miserably at sewing. I tried but probably not nearly hard enough. I also really wanted hands on learning. I want to ask a question, “what did I do wrong here?” You Tube didn’t help much with that either. Afterwards, I learned that I was actually starting out with a pretty difficult fabric to work with for a beginner.

That is my learning style though. I’m a very visual and interactive student. If I had more patience and time, maybe I could have excelled at both. Now that the boys are FOUR, maybe I’ll try again. Or maybe I’ll wait a little longer.

In the meantime, an opportunity presented itself in my “corporate world”. It was going to be a 3 month contract position and my mom volunteered to live with us (eek!) and watch the boys while I tried this whole working-outside-the-home thing again. A few things lead me to take this opportunity.

It was temporary. If I didn’t like it, I’d quit.

It was exactly what I was looking to do (in HR) before I had the opportunity to be a SAHM.

It would be an easy transition for the Nugs because they’d be with their Momo. Their schedule and school days would stay the same and everything.

The role was for four months and I was guaranteed flexibility

I started in October 2017 and I’m actually waiting to hopefully be hired on full-time. That’s what they keep telling me at least. Its an outstanding locally headquartered company and my boss is the best part. She was a SAHM for almost 20 years and she has made the transition so great. I know my experience could have been much different so I’m very grateful.

The Nuggets. They’ve have had a harder time transitioning. They most definitely do NOT like going to school every day. We put them in a Primrose school and they go from 7:30a-4/4:30p and even after two months it’s still a little challenging.

Once they get to school it’s fine. Most of the time they do not want to go home when we pick them up. But the battles of getting out of bed, dressed and out the door are tough. It’s super tough on me because I feel like I’m making the wrong decision but let me tell you how it was before I went back to work.

Corbin and Weston were SICK and tired of me. And to be honest, I was a bit worn out with them too. Maybe more then “just a bit”. Both boys were always SO excited to see Daddy when he came home from work and I was pretty much always chopped liver. I was constantly desperate to get out of the house and would dump the boys on the Hubs far too often because I needed a break. They went to school Tues/Thurs from 9a-2:30p which was great but I dealt with the guilt of doing “nothing” while they were in school and I didn’t want to spend money either. So I started working with a friend, helping with her business, credit card sales (not my dream job) and I was feeling a bit more fulfilled.

Then I received an email from a friend/old coworker and she told me about this opportunity. After some discussion with the Hubs, and the commitment from my mom, I decided to go for it. Since they’ve extended my contract, I’ve been happily growing relationships with adults and learning so much.

So that’s where we’re at right now. I’m not sure the boys are in the best school for what works for us but that’s another story and decision for another time. There is no way I can catch everything up that has happened for the last 16 months so we’ll just move forward.