Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Trying to avoid it

So it's another 3rd, this time November 3rd which means it's been 7 months. And I'm trying not to think about it because Mother Nature (that nasty bitch) has made it so that I am about to ovulate and thinking about dead babies is not conducive to making more babies. (Funny how that works because if I didn't have a dead baby I wouldn't be worried about making babies right now.)

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At my last counseling session, my counselor suggested trying another form of therapy, EMDR. (there's lots of info here so I won't get into details.) I know I'm not getting better, I can see myself getting worse with every anniversary and bfn, but I have no idea how to make myself feel better. Just letting myself live with the grief and waiting for time to pass isn't working. I have no idea if this will work for me, but I guess it's worth meeting the therapist who uses it to see if she thinks it will help. Has anyone else had any exposure to EMDR?

6 comments:

u know what's funny? i read medical records for work and the woman i read about today was having this treatment. never heard of it before! it seemed to really be helping her get over a v traumatic past. i hope this it is something that brings you peace.gl w the baby makin!xoxolis

I haven't done that treatment yet. But...oddly enough,I am here at 9 months out and ovulating like a MoFo. And reading blogs, writing blogs in bed, dressed for "success" but in no way in the mood at all. but it's time and the gettin' needs done.

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30-something who thought she had everything figured out. Then April 3, 2010 arrived and everything changed. My son Reid died at birth leaving me, my husband D.G. and my daughter D, here to try to pick up the pieces. In January 2012, Reid and D's little sister, C.S. joined our family.