Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Beautiful Things

I wonder
if I’ll ever find my wayI wonder
if my life could really change at allAll this
earthCould
all that is lost ever be foundCould a
garden come up from this ground at all

You make
beautiful thingsYou make
beautiful things out of the dustYou make
beautiful thingsYou make
beautiful things out of us

All
aroundHope is
springing up from this old groundOut of
chaos life is being found in You

You make
beautiful thingsYou make
beautiful things out of the dustYou make
beautiful thingsYou make
beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me
newYou make me new, You are making me new

Lyrics to "Beautiful
Things" by Gungor

This
song has been on my mind, my heart, my ipod for days and days now. I love it.
What is interesting is that, in the past, if I had listened to this
song, I might have been very sad, listening through tears, but clinging to the
words with hope, that God could make something beautiful out of me.

You see,
I have been in a deep pit of depression.
Even with Jesus in my heart, I found myself in a dark, lonely place. And after many failed attempts to “get out
there” to try to connect with other moms of young children, I came to believe
every other mom already had all the friends she needed, and my personality just
wouldn’t allow me to jump into an established group of friends. So I isolated myself further.

God, in
his mercy, decided to save me from my own self-pity and self-loathing, and that
dark place. He gave me MOPS. I never got to experience MOPS as just an
attendee. But as I looked into this
ministry, I realized the opportunity it provides for moms to connect could have
saved me from the pain and loneliness I had endured. I was determined to provide this opportunity
for other moms, because I knew there had to be others like me in this
community.

God used
MOPS to change my life. Not as a mom,
but as a leader. I discovered my true
joy was not going to come in the form of a BFF with the same aged kids and the
same hobbies and the same parenting views (which is what I desperately wanted). But my true joy came when I looked beyond
myself, and served God by serving others.

So I
listen to this song with a smile on my face, and tears of joy welling up. Because I am so, so thankful God made me new
and made a beautiful thing out of me.

It has
been my privilege and my honor to serve you in College Heights MOPS.