Category: What Narcissistic Abuse Feels Like

“…Conscience…is an intervening sense of obligation based on our emotional attachments–including most especially love, compassion, and tenderness… Fortified with potent emotions, conscience is the glue that holds us together and it is stickier than it is just… A strong conscience insists, You must take care of him [or her or...

Dear __________, I understand everything now. It feels like a grenade just went off. The shrapnel is falling, scattering, and all of the clues are flooding into the right cracks all at once, but too quickly for me to absorb each in isolation. I begged you for answers so many...

I thought I had things under control. I was so naíve back then. So innocent. But still … I saw signs of trouble. There was the incident where he told me to stop going out with other guys before we’d even met in person. I’d found it mostly amusing. Surely, he...

Letter from November 2015 (some identifying details removed) Dear ___________: I don’t feel anything anymore. That’s not really true. I feel an aching sadness that I don’t feel anything anymore. I used to feel hope that you would change the way you treat me, and I used to feel hope...

I’d be lying if I said I never missed you. I’m not even sure what it is I really miss. But it’s… something to do with you. The shape that you once put in front of me, the presence that you had wrapped around me, the soliloquy of your voice...

There comes a time in the recovery process when you have to face all those things that the narcissist did that you didn’t want to face during the relationship. Yeah, those things. The things you only heard about in whispers or learned accidentally. The stories you could only corroborate with...

He used to ask me all the time what I loved about him, and I’d ramble on about all the things I thought were wonderful about him. Sometimes I’d return the question, curious about what he’d say. Then much later in the relationship, I’d ask him why he kept trying...

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