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Tuesday, 10 January 2012

What a day!

Today is my Grandad's first anniversary. I know he is in a much better place, happier with my Nanna, and no longer in pain or distress brought on by the Alzheimer's but we were really close and I miss him lots.

This morning, I had lost another pound on the scales. Very pleased. This is the start of a good day, I told myself and this was important because today my mum had a hospital appointment to get some test results. Long story short, she has one lung half full of fluid. The doctors ruled out pneumonia and pluracy and she had a CAT scan and a sample of fluid taken for testing.

We were hoping/expecting today to be told it was some sort of infection which has so far been resistant to the anti-biotics and be given stronger or strain specific ones to sort it. Sadly, it's not. She has to have an operation on Thursday to drain the fluid and inspect the the inside of her lung for growths, which would be biopsied then. The doctor she's seeing doesn't like to speculate but it sounds (to me) like they are preparing her for not good news. I'm seriously stressing. Having come to the conclusion not so long ago, that I can't take any more and good things are due to come my way, it feels like the opposite is happening.

In other news, I posted the in one of my random facts that I have just been given a friendship cake and Barbie asked what one was. It is basically some cake mixture that you are given and "feed" for 10 days with milk, sugar and flour. Then you split it into 5 portions. You give 4 away (or 3 and keep one to start again) and to the final portion you add eggs, fruit, cinnamon, baking powder etc and bake it. The idea is that like friendship if you feed it and share it it turns into something wonderful. I did one when I was little (6 or 7) and loved it. I remember handwriting out the instructions to give away with the mixture.

Sorry to hear about your Grandad. I know how you feel. I lost my last remaining Grandparent a few years back to Alzheimer's/Dementia too. And he suffered so much, missing my Grandmother.

As for your Mom, I will keep good thoughts for you. I just got bad news tonight, that my Brother is in the Hospital with multiple problems. One of which is a problem with one of his Lungs too. And like your Mom, so far they do not know what exactly the problem is....we just need to keep good thoughts going.

I know it seems that it's all just too much right now but just keep putting those positive vibes out there and good things are bound to happen. Last year was similar in the bad news front so I feel your pain. I'll be keeping your mom in my prayers. ((HUGS))