I took a year long fitness training program at Ashmead College, and worked for several different gyms over the years as a personal trainer and also competed in MMA at a professional level.

Truthfully: I stopped personal training and leading boot camps because I couldn’t stand my own oxy moron. I have, historically, been an oxymoron. I couldn’t stand personal training because I felt like a liar, telling people how to be healthy. Yes – I had always been an athlete…but I had been smoking since I was sixteen (though I had quit for eight years)….I’m quirky and need to tame my quirks. It’s hard to pretend to be someone that could help other’s find health and wellness when I may have looked the part…but it was a lie to pretend to be a role model. It felt wrong, talking to someone about how to eat healthy, when I myself lived out of 7-11’s.

I’m currently following a blog: A WordPress blogger sharing her journey. It’s inspiring me as I work to tame my quirks and congruent myself, to hear of how someone else is creating change in their Today. Yesterday is my resume – the Present is a gift. And Tomorrow is a holiday in Heaven, cause I will never set foot in it in this life.

I started working out again today for the first time in quite a long while. Waking up from a long stint of depression has been like waking up from a coma. So first I had to just stand again…then I had to remember how to walk…