Thursday, February 23, 2012

off medication?

I'm sitting at a train station 50 minutes before visiting hours start. Ever heard the expression worried sick? It can happen. My stomach is in a knot and I feel like my heart could beat out of my body. If she had a good night she is off the medication and we start the 48 hrs. Im so nervous. I want her off but in the same breath I'm worried that she won't react well. Yesterday she was so calm and peaceful. I hope she is ready to start her life outside the hospital.

As an aside both bparents came yesterday. I left after I said hello. Bdad was there for about an hour.

The anguish you are feeling is something that I hope soon dissipates. One person can only handle so much. I pray that you continue to face this most difficult situation with your head held high, and strength, courage, and a love for that baby girl that she will never know from another human being.

Amber I hope you don't get cold feet because of this!! I swear every breath I don't take is well worth it. I have yet to sugar coat my blog posts, I've without a doubt held back a lot but have been honest w what i feel.comfortable sharing.