Date: Mon, 04 Sep 2000 21:40:08 CDT
From: D Man
Subject: That's Life- Chapter 14
That's Life
Author's Note: La, La, La. You should already know what I write here after
the first
seven chapter. If not, go read it then. Keeping this short.
Previously:
Kyle left the room to join the others. He left Darryl in the room. He had
to figure out what to do. Darryl turned on the computer and got onto the
internet. This was the best way for now.
He typed an email out and attached a song to it.
From: d_man116@hotmail.com (Darryl Johnson)
To: deanna253@hotmail.com
Subject: I'm Very Sorry
Date: June 22, 2002 13:45 CST
I'm very sorry for what I'm about to do. I can't be with you anymore. I
found someone else. I know this is going to be hard for you. It is hard
for me. I can't even say this to you to your face. I hope that one day
you can forgive me. Please don't do anything. I'm really sorry. We
weren't meant to be. I know you will find somebody out there for you.
Attachment: Please_Listen_To.mp3 3.56 Mb
Darryl turned off the computer. He knew Deanna would see the email
soon and would call him. He would have to wait.
Chapter 14: Letting Go
The guys had walked out of the studio. It was a hard day recording
the song, but they were able to finish it. Darryl was humming a song, and
the guys around him were giving him odd looks. They had been recording
Friends Forever, and the tune did not sound anything like that.
"What the hell are you humming? It is getting on my nerves."
{Justin}
"None of your business." {Darryl}
"Yeah it is. When something is getting on my nerves, I want to
know what is. And what Justin wants, Justin gets." {Justin}
{Asshole.} "Well I see Justin hasn't been getting any lately."
{Darryl}
"Fuck you." {Justin}
"I don't think he is going to want to when he has me." {Tyler}
"Maybe I would." {Darryl}
"You fags." {Justin}
"I think you are speaking to more than just us two." {Tyler}
"Fuck you." {Justin}
"There you go with all that offering. You would think you would
learn by now." {Tyler}
"Would you guys just shut up? I want to go home now." {Kyle}
"Sorry, fag." {Justin}
"You are really crusin for a brusin, Just." {JC}
Darryl began to hum the song again. The tune kept repeating itself
over and over. If he sang whatever it was, he would be singing the same
verse over and over. It was still getting on Justin's nerves. He began to
clinch his fist.
"Shut up." {Justin}
"I think you better stop, Darryl. It would be for the best."
{Lance}
"Ok."
The guys walked to their cars. It had been a hard day, and they
did not need a fight to break out. At least not between Darryl and Justin.
The sky became dark. Everyone looked up. There wasn't a cloud in the sky,
so what could have been causing it.
"What the hell is that?" {Justin}
"I have no clue." {Joey}
"It's getting closer." {Chris}
"I think a little too close." {Melissa}
"I think we should go back inside." {Lance}
"Yeah. That is a good idea." {Kyle}
The guys except Justin began to walk back inside.
"Aren't you going to come in?" {JC}
"I'll be there." {Justin}
The guys were already inside. They were waiting for Justin come
in. They stared out of the window as the thing came closer to them. They
didn't think it was a good idea for Justin to stay out there, but they
couldn't stop him.
There was a huge rumble outside. The ground shook for a few
seconds.
"What the hell is going on?" {Darryl}
"Earthquake?" {Tyler}
"Here. Hell no." {Joey}
"Shit. Justin is still outside." {Chris}
The guys ran outside, but Joey and Chris ran into a brown, hairy
thing. They fell on their asses and looked up. They couldn't believe
their eyes. It was huge, and it had come out of nowhere.
"What the fuck is that?" {Chris}
"It's a bird." {Kyle}
"It's a plane." {JC}
They looked at Darryl to continue it. He gave them a perplexed
look.
"What do you want me to say? I know that is not fucking superman."
{Darryl}
"C'mon. We know it isn't, but it would have been funny if you kept
on with it." {JC}
"You guys are twisted." {Darryl}
"Where's Justin?" {Joey}
"I think this is his arm." {Tyler}
Tyler held up a battered arm. It looked like Justin's but crushed.
They were surprised that Tyler was even holding it.
"Put it down. That's disgusting." {Melissa}
The ground began to shake again. The creature began to move again.
"It's King Kong." {Joey}
"No way." {Lance}
The guys were amazed that they actually saw King Kong. He was
actually living. Not once did they show remorse for their fallen band
mate. Darryl began to smile. Only Tyler saw his happiness.
"What are you smiling about?" {Tyler}
"Nothing really." {Darryl}
"C'mon. Tell me." {Tyler}
"Remember that tune I was humming." {Darryl}
"Yep, but why is that making you smile." {Tyler}
Darryl began to sing. He was quiet about it, but audible enough
for Tyler to hear it.
From the sky above Came King Kong full of love He would look at his prey
Before he smashed it away
Darryl began laughing. Who would have guessed?
"That is pretty funny." {Tyler}
Tyler and Melissa looked oddly at Darryl. He had a huge smile
plastered on his face.
"He must be having a pretty good dream." {Melissa}
"It's probably about me." {Tyler}
"Well don't we have a big head? {Melissa}
"Ah, but I'm his boyfriend now. What else would he be dreaming
about that would make him smile." {Tyler}
"Not you." {Melissa}
"How would you know?" {Tyler}
"I would think you would know. He's not hard." {Melissa}
"Oh. Darn. I wonder what it is then." {Tyler}
"I guess we are never going to find out." {Melissa}
Deanna had gotten home early from work. It was time to check her
messages. She turned on the answering machine, and they all were from
tele-marketing people.
"I wonder what that boyfriend of mine is up to. Can't even drop me
a quick call." {Deanna}
She turned on her computer and connected to the internet. She saw
she had a few messages, but only one caught her eye. It was from Darryl.
She opened it and began to cry. She couldn't believe her eyes. She
quickly downloaded the song to see what was going on.
A small piano intro began to play. She was already weeping.
One day, one night
We met each other at first sight
I was lost in your crystal eyes
Because your soul completed me inside
I felt new sensations being with you
You gave me something that nobody could
The love that I have gained from you
Will remain in my heart, forever forever forever
Deanna couldn't understand what was going on. The first verse was
only words of love and happiness, but with a sad tone. She wasn't sure
where it was going. She didn't even know who it was from.
But it is time for me to go
Because I know this can't be true
You may be there waiting for me
But I cannot be there for you
I don't have the strength to leave my life
I don't have the power to stay by your side
Because I have realized you and me isn't right
It may seem that we should be together
It may seem that fate has played its role
But the only thing that I know
It's not meant to be
Your touch, your beauty, your heart, and your soul
Came to me when I thought I had control
Your kiss surpassed any possible words
But I know that I have to let it go
Because the only thing that I know
It's not meant to be
She couldn't believe her hears. How could Darryl do this to her?
This song was putting her in depression, but she couldn't stop listening to
it.
I can't explain the decision that I've made
I can't explain the feeling that I have for you
It is just that my life that I've only seen is here without you
I may be wrong or I may be right
But all I know is that I will be alone through the night
Seconds, minutes, and hours will pass by
And I am still lost in confusion through the night
But there is only one thing that I can say
I'm sorry for causing you so much pain
Because you thought I was the one for you
But I know that if this was true
I still could not stand strong with you
It may seem that we should be together
It may seem that fate has played its role
But the only thing that I know
It's not meant to be
Tears flow down her face. She couldn't stop it. She wanted to,
but she couldn't. She reached the phone, but she couldn't force herself to
call him. She couldn't confront him. Maybe it was all dream. If she
didn't call, then it was real.
Your touch, your beauty, your heart, and your soul
Came to me when I thought I had control
Your kiss surpassed any possible words
But I know that I have to let it go
Because the only thing that I know
It's not meant to be
You may agree with me or you may not
You may stand by my side to the end
But I can't give you what you want
You may forgive me or you may not
But you have to understand
A life together is not right
Love is strong in the heart
But it is not enough for my life not to fall apart
Dreams and fantasies are what they are
Because our relationship is just a flaw
So open your eyes and see
What my heart tells me
It's not meant to be
Not meant to be
The phone began to ring. Darryl was still sleeping, and Tyler
didn't want to wake him up. He grabbed the cell phone and answered it.
"Hello." {Tyler}
"Is Darryl there?" {Deanna}
"Could I please ask who is speaking?" [He could hear some song in
the background. It sounded very sad. It was approaching the end. It
sounded very familiar.] {Tyler}
"Deanna." {Deanna}
(Oh no. What am I supposed to do? She sounds like she has been
crying for a while.) "Could you please hold?" {Tyler}
Tyler shook Darryl, but he wouldn't wake up. He must be a deep
sleeper. He wondered if he slept harder than JC. It wasn't possible, but
Darryl could be a worthy adversary. What was he thinking? He had to wake
up Darryl.
"Darryl wake up." {Tyler}
Still no response from his boyfriend. He went in for the kill. He
unzipped Darryl's fly. Melissa gave him a puzzled look. She thought he
was losing his mind. Darryl grabbed his cup and splashed ice, chilled
water all over his little buddy. Darryl jumped up yelling. Melissa began
cracking up.
"What is going on?!" {Darryl}
"Phone." {Tyler}
Darryl took the phone and wondered who would be calling him. He
had forgotten all about his so-called ex girlfriend. Maybe it was not
meant to be.
"Hello?" {Darryl}
"Darryl! I can't believe you." {Deanna}
"Who is this?" {Darryl}
Darryl was still groggy from his nap despite the fact that Tyler
poured frozen water all over him.
"You better be messing around, or I'm going to really beat you in."
{Deanna}
The tone of the voice finally woke him up. He was filled with
rage.
"Deanna?" {Darryl}
"You'd better know it. I can't believe you are doing this to me.
How could you find somebody in that short of time? What are you doing out
there? Who is this person? How could you do this to me? How could you?
I hate you so much." {Deanna}
Tears began to drop from Darryl's face. He couldn't believe what
he was doing to Deanna. The one verse that he heard a few days ago kept
replaying in his mind.
It's best to run and hide away
So nobody can see the beast you've made
It may seem wrong to leave them high and dry
But emotions run high when you're by their side
So stop it there and decide
It's time to leave
"I can't really explain it. It just happened." {Darryl}
"What do you mean by it just happened? Do you know what you are
doing to me? I gave you my heart. It hurts so much right now. I don't
even know why I am talking to you." {Deanna}
Tears continue to fall. He didn't know what to say, but he had to
explain it to her. It was only fair. He just caused pain in her life.
Tyler stood there with Melissa. He wanted to comfort his boyfriend, but he
had to let him get through this one alone. Melissa couldn't believe how
life had become complicated for Darryl. Would it have been different if he
never left with Aaron? The guys continued to work on the song. They were
oblivious to what was occurring outside of the booth. Kyle was in the
mixing room, so he didn't know what was going on either.
"I guess I should start from the beginning." {Darryl}
"You better." {Deanna}
"I'm bi." {Darryl}
"You're what?!!!" {Deanna}
"I'm bisexual." {Darryl}
"What did I do wrong? How did I make you gay?" {Deanna}
"You didn't do anything. Its me." {Darryl}
"You are dumping me for a guy. That is the only reason why you are
telling me that you are bi now. I can't believe this. I was going out
with a fag." {Deanna}
"You know you don't mean that." {Darryl}
"What did you expect? I come from a very religious, Christian
family." {Deanna}
"Don't be using your religion as an excuse. I never believed in
that bullshit, and you know it. Religion has an influence on a person's
life, but ultimately the person makes the final decision." {Darryl}
"Don't you dare start preaching to me. You are the one that is
gay. So who is this guy? Oh my god. It's Kyle, isn't it? No wonder you
went out there to visit him. I can't believe this." {Deanna}
"It's not Kyle. It's someone else." {Darryl}
"Who?!" {Deanna}
"I can't say." {Darryl}
"I can't believe you!" {Deanna}
"I didn't mean to. You know I love you." {Darryl}
"Don't you dare say that to me. You can't love me. You're gay. I
don't ever want to hear those words from you. I don't want to hear another
word from you again. I will tell you this much Darryl. From now on you
are dead to me. When I see you again, you'll just be another stranger in
my life. My crushed life. The life that you killed. I HATE YOU DARRYL!"
{Deanna}
From there she hung up. Darryl couldn't believe his ears. He
didn't want them to break apart. He still wanted to be her friend. Why
did life had to be screwed up. He had controlled the tears for those mere
minutes, but now it was too hard. He couldn't hold them back. He had to
let them go.
Tyler and Melissa came up from behind him and held him. Even
though their past still needed some mending on, she couldn't abandon her
baby brother like this. No matter what happened. They were still related.
Kyle and the rest of the guys walked out of the mixing room. They
saw Darryl there crying. Kyle kinda knew what happened, but the rest of
them were left in the dark. There wasn't anything left to say. Not even
Justin could speak a word. His heart may have been made of coal towards
Darryl, but his enemy was in major pain, and that was not his style.
On the other side of the world or actually where Darryl was from,
Deanna laid on the couch crying her heart out. She didn't mean those words
or did she? She was mad at Darryl. They had been together since high
school, and now he was leaving her. She would get her revenge. She would
find the guy that tore them apart, and break him and their relationship
apart.
No, she couldn't. Despite the pain Darryl had given her, she
couldn't do the same to him. She loved him too much to do that. She
didn't know what there was to do. She had to move on, but she couldn't.
She couldn't move on without Darryl. She saw the knife on the table. She
knew suicide was wrong, but it was an answer to every problem. She stood
up and walked to the table. She raised the knife and brought it to her
wrist. She would take a clear slice, and then no more pain, no more
problems, especially no more Darryl.
She closed her eyes, but dropped the knife to the ground. She
couldn't do this to herself. It wasn't right. She would have to live with
this, but she didn't know what to do. She ran to her phone. It rang a few
times, but nobody picked up. She left a message.
The guys were able to calm Darryl down. Tyler had taken him back
to his place. Tyler sat there on the bed. He didn't know what to do.
Darryl had taken it hard, but who could blame him? The thing that amazed
him though was that Just was compassion towards him. He could have made a
move that could have crushed Darryl, but he didn't. He even offered to
help. Either the boy was plotting something, or he was actually human like
everyone else.
Tyler turned on the radio. He needed music to drown out his
thoughts. They were running at a hundred miles per an hour, and music was
the only thing that made his thoughts empty.
"Here is the new one from Ryan Tedder. It's "Not Meant To Be".
This is his second single from his CD Both Sides." {DJ}
The song started to play. Tyler listened to the words very
closely. The song had sounded familiar. Every word struck him. When it
was over, he finally realized what it was. It was the song that Deanna was
listening to. It must also be the same song that Darryl had been listening
to when he came out of the shower to find Darryl crying.
Darryl had woken up by the song too. He was forced to listen to it
too. He didn't want Tyler to know that he was awake. The words pierced
his heart and soul.
His heart was clouded with fear now. He was able to cause this pain to
Deanna. Was he capable to do it to Tyler too? Those words began to repeat
themselves in his mind again.
It's best to run and hide away
So nobody can see the beast you've made
It may seem wrong to leave them high and dry
But emotions run high when you're by their side
So stop it there and decide
It's time to leave
He didn't know what to do anymore. He thought his life would be
complete with Tyler, but what if he was wrong? He might destroy Tyler. It
would be better to end it before it started, but could he bring himself up
to it.
Well that's it. I am writing this very late, and I need to sleep. All
comments, question, and anything on your mind belong in one place. My
inbox. So that means email me at d_man116@hotmail.com. My web page is
http://www.geocities.com/d_man116 for those readers that are reading this
on nifty. Peace out everybody. One final note, suicide is never the
answer. It may seem like it, but it is not. If you feel the urge to do
it, get help please. There are people that really care for you. They are
just around the corner. They will help you get through whatever it is.