Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Easier said than done. I know I’m not the only one in the boat of no income with a surplus of bills right now, but I try to calm my mind and be thankful for all that God has given to me. God gave me my vocation, and I firmly believe He has a door He is preparing to open for me to work with a healthy and growing church active in outreach efforts in its community where I can serve Him full time in the music ministry He has called me to. I even think that the music and cooking videos I’ve made have been teaching me skills I didn’t have before I had all this time on my hands to experiment with them. But the anxiety from waiting returns constantly. I’m ready and willing to move to wherever the Lord sends me and am looking forward to beginning that new journey. In the meantime, I can’t even find a job bagging groceries because everybody else is in line ahead of me. So the faith-worry roller coaster starts all over again.

Lord, in the sacred Name of Jesus I come before You now. I know that You know all that is on my heart and mind. You are my Provider, my Deliver, my Hope and my Strength. I know that You are in control and will work out all things for my good, even though I’m not seeing past my nose right now. Give me the grace of peace in my heart and protect me from those who would seek to cause me harm spiritually, mentally, emotionally and financially in this time of trial. Fill me with the light of Your Presence that I may walk this valley in a confident faith instead of the wavering faith that torments me. Forgive me, Lord, for my fruitless worrying and help me to stop. Lord, I know that You hear my prayer and that there is no waiting line to be heard. I thank You for providing the blood of Jesus to wash away my sinfulness and to sustain me in times such as these. I claim that precious blood and, like the Israelites on the first Passover, I consciously paint that blood over my life as Your promised protection. I know that Your love and Your promises never fail. Jesus, I trust in You!