Trust always seems to be a pressing issue; I just never thought it would be the lack of trust in myself that would be the root cause of my fears and insecurities with both personal and spiritual issues revolving around myself. It seems that everything in my life I'm stuck in a one foot in and one foot out scenario. With God, my romantic and platonic relationships as well, it's as if I can't give my whole self in anything. The odd thing is that my brain tells me what is right; thus I have assurance logically in these areas. However, my heart is struggling to focus on the most important things in my life. It's quite the paradox.

These conflicts are surfacing, and once actually confronted to make a move, I run away. Some form of change is necessary, and I feel that the people...[read more]