It is harder and harder for me to smile. Even laugh without covering my mouth. Surely, I know I am not the only one and many others have felt like I do.

Growing up until recent years, my teeth was the only thing that I liked about myself. (Now I have to find something else). I am being honest, after all, that is the meaning of my online blogging or being my own journalist.

Many years of not being able to afford a dentist or numerous pregnancies and of course the tons of medication has taken its toll on my teeth. From breaking and hurting desperately bad that I pull it out myself or to simply just let them rot. Didn't really bother me until the past few years.

My front teeth are chipping and I basically have nothing let in the back making it difficult to chew food. Even when we did have some money that I could get my teeth looked at, would in the end cost an enormous amount to even begin to get that "Hollywood" smile.

Dentist are outrageously expensive and realistically working at Domino's and my husband getting his retirement just isn't going to afford a dentist or even partials to make it easier to accept my smile just isn't pretty anymore.

I watch television and talk shows and it amazes me like with the audience number picked on Dr. Oz for a random person all seem to have wonderful, beautiful teeth. You rarely see anyone on TV that has a disgusting smile with bad teeth.

Sort of like all of Hollywood have a perfect figure.. We set our standards according to what society sets. Same as with a "Hollywood" smile, a common Joe, like I, can only wish upon a star that maybe, just maybe one day I will have a smile like that. But, just like many most of those wishes are thrown into the wind and blown away.

I do not think there is anything on the face of this Earth, than this moment, after 3 am and listening to a thunderstorm.

As I listen to the roar of the thunder, watch the sky light up in darkness, and hear the drops of water falling onto the ground.. It somehow always allows me to remember how Mighty my Creator is. To remember that nothing on earth, man-made is able to mimic the power of a thunderstorm.

The rain has the ability to lull one asleep, to bring comfort to a weary soul, and to bring your best friend (a dog) whimpering underneath the blankets waiting for the storm to pass.

The lightening has the ability to light up the darkness, strike in a moment to destroy, and set a forest on a rampage of wild fire within seconds. It has the ability to split a solid million old tree in half and hit the ocean causing hundreds of fish to surface from electric shock.

Finally, thunder.. Thunder had the ability to shake the very ground and cause it to rumble. It has the capabilities to get lower than a bass causing you to feel it in your chest. It has the power to startle one causing them to gasp for their breath and another to jump trying to hide. It has the sound loud enough to be heard miles away and be able to wake you from a sound sleep. It can cause animals to scurry and people to pull the covers over your head.

Yes, I love thunderstorms. I love everything that it offers and gives. I love the smells it brings in and the challenges it sets at that time. I love the way it is different each and every time it happens. Allowing me one moment to enjoy and the other wishing it away.