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It started last night I have been back talking, being disrespectful, and using words that are not to be used in this house. Anyway Dear Sir finally had enough of it last night, he grabbed the flyswater and went to town on my bottom. I slapped him wrong thing to do, he just spanked harder and harder and I turned and looked at him and said something that I totally regret and do not ever want to say again I am not sure where it even came from. But he told me if I ever say any of the four letter words again that he would spank me and wash my mouth out. I really do not want that to happen!

I am sorry that I was giving him such a hard way to go. I know better than to talk back and to use bad words in our home. But I turned around and did the same thing this morning, without the bad words. This time he took a spatula to my bottom I cried it hurt so bad. I was still hurting from last night I really did not need any more this morning.

Needless to say I have been very good the rest of the day. I have not even had an attitude!

I was very good on Christmas day! DS and I were having fun dancing around and being able to talk with each other about DD without anyone being around. It was wonderful to have fun and talking with one another. We were also getting ready for out company! It was a really good Christmas and I did not get into any trouble I just did what was asked of me. I really did not have any stress this year it has really been nice. He has been so proud of me and I am proud of myself!

I was so spoiled by him and my family that it is know wonder why I am a complete brat sometimes!

I was very disrespectful to Dear Sir yesterday morning. I was upset that the dishes were not put back in the right way. When I went to get something out of the cupboard everything came at me. I was so upset and frustrated with the dishes and the person that put them away or got something and then did not put it away properly. I did forget who I was talking to for a minute, does this ever happen to any of you? Well, he did get on the person that did make the mess in the first place, but then he talked with me this morning and he told me that even though he could understand why I was upset it was no excuse for the disrespect that I had towards him. I do agree that I should have watched my tongue and that I should know who I am talking to at all times, I also agree that I should not have been disrespectful.

Well the punishment that I received was I had to write 5 scriptures that had to do with our relationship and disrespect. Then I had to right out each one of them 5 times each. He had to approve each scripture that was chosen. It is due tomorrow at 10:00p. Well I got it all done today. Here are the scriptures that I looked up. (Just incase your curious)

1. Esther 1:20 – And when the King’s decree which he shall make shall be published throughout all his empire (for it is great) all the wives shall give to their husbands honour, both great and small.

2. Esther 1:22 – For he sent letters into all the King’s province according to the writing there of and to every people after their language, that every man should bear rule in his own house, and that it should be published according to the language of every people.

3. Job 2:9-10 – Then said his wife unto him, Dost thou still retain thine integrity? Curse God, and die. But he said unto her, Thou speakest as one of the foolish women speaketh. What? shall we receive good at the hand of God, and shall we not receive evil? In all this did not Job sin with his lips.

4. 1 Corinthians 11:3 – But I would have you know, that the head of every man is Christ; and the head of Christ is God.

5. Titus 3-5 – The aged women likewise, that they be in behaviour as becometh holiness, not false accusers, not given to much wine, teachers of good things. That they may teach the young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children, to be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed.

He would usually would give me lines about disrespect but he decided to give me scripture. I think that I learn more from the scripture then I do from lines but I do not like to write things in a repeptive order.

22 For wives, this means submit to your husband as to the Lord. 23 For a husband is the head of his wife as Christ is the head of the church. He is the savior of His body, the church. 24 As the church submits to Christ, so you wives should submit to your husbands in everything. 25 For husbands, this means love your wives, just as Christ loved the church. He gave up his life for her 26 to make her holy and clean, washed by the cleansing of God’s word. 27 He did this to present her to himself as a glorious church without a spot or wrinkle or any other blemish. Instead, she will be holy and without fault. 28 In the same way, husbands ought to love their wives as the love their own bodies. For a man who loves his wife actually shows love for himself. 29 No one hates his own body but feeds and cares for it, just as Christ cares for the church. 30 And we are members of his body. 31 As the scriptures say, “A man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one.” 32 This is a great mystery, but it is an illustration of the way Christ and the church are one. 33 So again I say, each man must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband.

After being good for those 7 days and receiving a reward from Sir, I have just not been myself. I have had lots of little snippy attitudes (his words). He really spanked me yesterday with his hand and the paddle. I am not sure how many that I received but there were many of them that came, I also received corner time on my knees. He said that the next time that he has to punish for this behavior he would not be so easy on me. I did not think that it was that he was that easy on me. I did figure out part of the problem, it could be that this is the third time this month that I am on that time of month.

I am trying to do better. Usually on days that he has to work I can stay out of trouble more than I can when he is here. If I do something that I know is outside of our boundaries then I will tell him and just wait on the punishment that I have earned. Some people ask me how I can tell him when he was not with me to see or hear me do it and that is because that little voice that lets you know you did something wrong gets the better of me and I have to tell him. I do not like living with guilt, but I do not like it when someone says that I did something wrong when I did not do anything wrong. Dear Sir is good about listening to all sides before he makes a decision on if I should be punished or not.

I am glad that DS is my husband and leader, he is mine. He is fair, kind, and strict when needed. He listens to what I have to say and then acts on it depending on if any action is needed. I have found that communication is one of most important things that a couple can do in a dd relationship and any relationship as far as that goes. Yes, there are the rules, boundaries, and the punishments. But under that there is a couple that has open communication that means, that one person really does listen and understand while the other is talking. There is a deep love, appreciation, and respect for one another that unless you are in a dd relationship you honestly can not began to understand. I am not abused or unloved quite the opposite, I am loved, very loved, cherished, protected, and respected! He loves me much more than words can ever explain. I now feel more loved and protected than I ever have by anyone. I just wish that more people would understand that and live like people did back in the 50’s.

I woke up at 7:00 a.m yesterday morning, I had to give my wife a maintenance spanking that morning, my wife was still crying over something that took place two days ago we went over how to work Christmas and we talked about other things. She left for work and dropped me off at work something told me that the day was going to be rough. I went to work the day was busy, a few people including my wife encouraged me when the day got rough as i was cleaning up and taking down my fish case I found a whole thing of shrimp had been left out all day. when I got home I talked to the guys on-line in the chat room.It helps to have support.