I once saw what I wanted to believe.
Convinced I saw what truly was.
No one tell a different tale-
this is freeing, a light breeze through my soul.
False as it may be, in this moment, it is reality-leave me be.
Don’t crash land.
Don’t go away.
For this second, I believe.

I didn’t know what I thought I did,
so time stood still.
Grinding under newfound wisdom,
unmoving.
Aware yet denying,
paralyzed…
until recognition rears its ugly head.
In the light of a new dawn-
uncertain and afraid.
One step forward, unknown.