Wednesday, February 9, 2011

not so great

this week has not been going well. I am not exercising...except the two hours shoveling snow tonight...and I have no motivation to do otherwise.

I am in a funk.

I have gained back a bit of the weight I just lost and I can feel the old lethargy and pessimism creeping back up in me. I need to just do the next thing. Quit whining and crying about it and just do it.

For me. That's what it comes down to, doesn't it? Do I think I am worth the trouble?

Good question. Tonight my answer would be no.

That's not the right answer, though.

I am worth it. I am worth it because I am created by the Most High God and he deems me worthy.

so tomorrow begins the struggle again. and there will be a struggle because i refuse to give up.