Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Moving On

So, the MRI showed that my knee is structurally sound. Tendons, ligaments, meniscus... All good. The MRI also showed that I do have arthritis and chondromalacia patellae. Doctor said to find a new sport. With less impact on my joints. I was already planning for this. These are my new toys:

BUT! I can also continue to run! In limited amounts. If I make other things (see above photos) a bigger part of my life. I am FINE with that! I can still run sometimes. Like maybe a few times a week. And maybe I can go have fun at some races here and there. I can learn to do that. Have fun, I mean. And those cute little girls with their outfits and ponytails can go right on ahead and speed past me. Let's face it, they surely don't have a bike that's half as awesome as mine (Did you see it's black and khaki and gray! With flowers!) OR super cool hemp hiking shoes (which is what happens when Hubby goes shoe shopping). And I know I get far more joy from the little things (like chocolate - do they even eat chocolate? Or running). I've had my heyday. I've done some things. Let someone else have a turn. (Right? That's right, isn't it? It sounds good. I'm going to keep repeating it until I totally believe it.)

AND! Of more immediate importance..... If I may quote Doctor: "If you feel okay, and you want to run on Saturday, that would be okay." Big Race, here I come! No, I can't see that I'll come anywhere near the time I was training/planning/hoping to run. It's not gonna be a PR day. But I'm running. There's the victory for me, right there.

Overall, I feel pretty good. Even with my stiff, arthritic knee. Even making some major changes. I'm moving on, in lots of ways.

4 comments:

You go girl! You have had so many wonderful races to be proud of. You'll never be sedintary, never. I know you too well. Your bike is awesome, by the way. You be proud of yourself, like I am of you. You are an amazing woman. I love you!!

Bummer about the arthritis, BUT, that's great you are excited about the new direction you're heading towards. And the fact that you can still run is great. And, like Mom said, you should be so proud of yourself for your amazing running achievements. We are all so proud of you for them.

And your bike is super cute :) And hemp shoes, hellooooo. That is kickass! Where did he find those and do they make cute shoes (not just practical ones)? Love you lots :)

It is good to have an answer, so you don't keep fighting a losing battle. I am sorry that this has been thrown on you, but I hope your new toys will be well enjoyed. And, at least you can still run. And the running will be fun and non-stressful and sometimes that is a great addition.