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Do you know what it feel's like to walk into a building, a room,school.... And feel like everyone's mocking you talking about you.Do you know what it feel's like when people look at you and all you see in their eye's is pure disgust and hate?Do you know how it feel's to feel like the most ugly unhuman over-weight no life looser who doesn't even know what they want to be?Do you really all know how bad your word's can hurt other people... Do you know what it feels like when someone call's you a f**,Ugly,Whale,Pizza Face,Sissy,Princess?It feels ******** terrible. It makes me me feel ******** worthless. It makes me feel like i'm nobody special. It makes me feel like everyone hates me. It makes me feel like a waste of human breathe. Do you know how it feel's to loose so many people you love over and over again?Do you know how it feel's to love someone so much and want them to stay in your life forever?Do you know how it feel's when someone leave's you even after all the love you gave them? After everything you've been threw?I'm tired of loosing people in my life over and over again. It ******** hurts knowing that even after everything you do and all the ******** love you give them they still ******** leave.After everything you've been threw with them. After working so hard to not loose them and trying your best to love them. And they still leave?Do you know how it feel's to wake up everyday and feel worthless? Do you know how it feel's to hate everything about yourself?I try not to but everyday i wake up i just feel worthless. What am i doing with my life? I start to feel like what everybody says about me is true. Maybe i am ugly. Maybe i am a whale. Maybe i am an eye-sore. it just hurts.... I'm tired of hurting. I want it to stop. I don't want to wake up everyday hating myself and feeling worthless. I don't want to loose more people that i love with all my heart. I'm tired of hurting.