Happy birthday Caitlin!!!!!!! You’re catching up to me! I wish I were home to take you to Wash Sq Noble Romans and to that neon icing cookie place for a birthday lunch!!! PS. Sorry some pics are blurry, some of them are super old! @caitlinemiller5#happybirthday#embarassing

When you're on a safari and see a cute animal and start to speak baby language with it, but then remember a stranger is sitting next to you , and you're embarassed by your behaviour earlier lolol 😂😂😂😂 .
#lol#safari#embarassing#독일#ㅋㅋㅋ#셀카#원정여행#부끄럽다

I AM UNCOMFORTABLE #2
(An attempt at doing something helpful)
I am uncomfortable. I am afraid this presents me as humourless. I want to people to know that these statements do not represent my entire world view. I don’t want this to come accross as a miserable focus on horrible things. This is just an opportunity to say that it’s okay. Okay to speak about them. To exorcise the bad we all hold more often than we should let go. I feel fatigued by a constant wanting. I am making steps. I am striving. I am fighting. I have been defined by a deep struggle for so long that I am now lost in trying to find justification beyond and without that. I am trying to teach myself that exhaustion is not a status symbol. I do not know what makes a good life. I don’t even know what makes a good day. I am never satisfied with merely being. I am often confused and feel like i’m thrashing my arms around in the middle of a fall. I know that beyond all of this, I am still trying. So I must have something inside me that is strong. And good. I need to remind myself of that more often. I don’t know if I am succeeding, but I am trying.

Today I set off all of the fire alarms at work on the day of our 1st soup competition. Not because of the flavor but because my soup actually started smoking when heating it up on the stove...I was in a meeting when all of the sudden the fire alarms started going off. I knew immediately, it was MY soup. Already horrifyingly embarrassed I ran up stairs opened all the windows and shut the stove off. I thought my embarrassment was over...and then I heard it...the fire truck sirens. Not long after the firefighters, fully dressed ready to put out the flames arrived. Needless to say I have never been more embarrassed. I don’t know if I will ever walk away from a stove again...I’m just thankful no one was hurt. #soupfail#workhardhavefun#agencylife#embarassing@epic_creative

"You gotta role with the punches, to get to what's real" - Van Halen
Back to the gym today and listening to my wonderfully random workout playlist. Everything from 90's pop like Chumbawumba to Usher, Queen, Fall Out Boy, and even some WWE wrestler theme songs.
Days like today make it even more important to spend time working on yourself and zoning out from the world and the news.
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#workingout#workout#fitness#fitnessjourney#running#walking#gym#music#embarassing#90s#wrestling

I want to continue the self love today ❤️❤️❤️
🙃Vulnerable post ahead🙃
I woke up today feeling a little blue. I didn’t get any flowers or special texts or surprise gifts for Valentine’s Day. (I feel silly about it, but keep reading.) However, I also didn’t SEND any. So it got me thinking, how can I become more of the person that I want to attract? If I’m looking for a driven, passionate, present, loving, and adventurous man... how can I be more of those things? How can I love myself more today and become more of the person I ✨desire✨ to be? And WHY are we so embarrassed to talk about this stuff? ✨Funny thing is... my acting teacher told me this week that my constant need to hide true feelings behind a smile is what is really holding me back in my career. ✨
Is this a little embarrassing to share? 🤷‍♀️Yes.
Do I hope women who hide their feelings with a constant smile will read this and feel like they aren’t alone? 😎Absolutely.
Am I constantly trying to become the person that can truly help Julia of her early 20s love herself more? 💃Constantly.
So much love ❤️❤️❤️ Comment ❤️ if you’re going to choose to love yourself a little more today. 😘😘