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Friday, August 03, 2007

Jeremiad!

You are expecting some forward mails or some quotes looking at the title? I don't have any of them here. Something more interesting than those! Yeah! Realistic feeling when life really sucks! It is the time when you get reminded that you forgot to sleep while you were mulling over something. And sometime around 3AM you get a SMS popping in the mobile conveying that your replies were indifferent asking if things were alright. And you have few mails asking explanation for the act of disappearance and not responding to their calls or mails or messages. Of course all these puts a smile in your face at least for a moment for some of your friends who bothers about you. But still what good is it gonna make to things that you are bothered about? You eventually realize that its high time you learn to cry with out tears, time to learn to cry without sobbing. Because you don't like crying in front of others! Anyways am glad that i was being cared about despite of me trying to act normal. To certain others who think "Hey! Were u pissed off. But u never sounded that way when i spoke with u" then its time to appreciate that am adept @ pretending. And to the rest who really didn't realize that i still exist in this world, I agree that there are 1001 other useful and important jobs for you to look after. Friends who have been telling that "am with so much of positive energy", "R u doing anything related 2 HR, u sound more like a relationship expert ", here is the other side of me! I am not all that I sounded always! May be how people take things to their heart really differs from person to person. And thats what sensitivity is defined as.By the way am not looking for any sympathies or empathies here. And more importantly any en queries about this post by any means will not be encouraged. After all no one is ever happy and no one is ever sad! Intention of this post is just to use my dear blog as a source for venting out my emotions.

Though the BLOG is not your invisible friend to share everything, im sure you can share your feeling not necessary the reason.

And well said that no one is ever happy or no one is ever sad. This reminded me about my dad's quote "Muppathu varusham yaarum aandatha sarithiram ille, muppathu varusham yaaru alinjatha sarithiram ille". Change is the only thing that is constant. Lets learn to live with all these :)

And you spit it out now. Shrek says "It is better out than in". How do you feel? Mood swings are a natural phenomena and I hate people come in refuge and throw a volley of questions that they did not mean at all. What do they do If I end up speaking to them on what is troubling me? Do you think they will have time for that? Nah... Best friends are those that know the emotion variation and know when to keep their a'hole plugged and when not to.

I know you will come back to yourself soon. Waiting for a msg until then :)

I see you are pissed off by something or someone...I am not gonna inquire abt it..Just saying ...these are parts of life everyone faces...u would know this simple thing...but still when u r down..ur mind fails to think rationally...:) keep up:)

no sympathy. no empathy. because you have no idea how happy your post has made me. it's that phase where i keep wondering if life is just as indifferent to everyone and it's really an illusion, a fake association,enthusiasm,frustration and every other emotion. i've been asking people existential questions and here you are answering ven before i asked anything.

Ponnarasi,"Learn to cry without tears".Hmm thats the first thing u shud practise when u get out of college and join a job, u ll need it then and there. Seems some one is testing your patience. Keep cool always!!!

if u ask me, these things are better kept with ourselves. I don't mean you should keep it within yourself. You can write it in your journal or talk to your best friend who really listens. But not in the blog, IMHO. Unless you want to get some cheap publicity from the "anuthaaba alai".

seems u had been pretty much disturbed by something or as the proverb suggests " idle mind s devils workshop" when i too sit idle i start thinkin abt soomethin n worry for which i dnt y :) it happens .. try to divert urself n something useful .. try reading some novels else go out watch movies ... roam aroudn with friends .. illaina try to study for some techinical certifications which mite help u in ur career :) ..

have u seen the movie called "ullam ketukumey" ?? athuley one song iruku "oh manamey" song .. a line n tat song states " inbathil valanthu inbathil mudintha yarum illai, thunbathil irunthu thunbathil valanthu mudiththa yarum illai" .. so no one s 100% happy ..even ambani n bill gates has his own worries ... when u all succeed u will never know sweetness of success ... u should lose some to realize the true fun of winning something :) ... so chill down .. best advice try to do something rather than sitting idle n watchin TV ... clean the house ... go pay some bills etc take up some work on ur own .. or better go for some gym do some workout ... do YOGA coz once u join comp u wil never get time to think for urself so use this time .. have fun n take care buddy :)

but as some1 else said, it purely depends on the way people take, infer things (blogs are no exceptions) as the term "revealing out" comes into picture.

I do agree with you 100%. There are tough times in individual's life and at when they seem to look back on what they had been doing and was it worthwhile. The time to this realization also varies from person to person as its mainly based on the circumstances around.

No wonder, you would have even weighed the people or started doing it atleast by then! Many may argue on this context when it comes to close buddies but *practically speaking* it would make sense only when the individuals are inside the circle!

Of course, i had never thought of a forward mail or something but din't expect this sensitive and emotional blog!

As many say, the solace is when you see someone listen to you at the critical times! Very true. I think you have got a few people of that kind.

Though the disclaimer looked odd, i could gradually understand the consequences and the reason behind it.

I am Sure you would find peace within and get back to your usual routine. Till then, enjoy this feeling as it would help you to **reinvent the wheel!!**

Take Care.

[Hope i have not bored you and perhaps haven't added fuel to the fire ;-)]

seems to me ( in my view) you are growing up and mellowed to handle your own emotions rather outbursting it. I appreciate it. As you know i am never great consoler nor a sympatheiser. But i am happy you are undergoing this phase to make you evolved more stronger and brighter to handle much more emotions that you soon to face in reality.

Pongi elundhuteenga. Anyway nice thoughts as at times even i get into this mood but the difference is i do share it with friends if i am feeling bad or lonely or whatever it may be. Anyway I hope u do come of this sort of emotion soon. Its not good to be in this mood as it affects not only u but also the people around u. Stay happy and enjoy the life as it is too short. :)

never mind .. off late .. (word perfectly used .. !!) few open up to speak .. and my reason for a space on this blogspot is all the same .. (just to express my heart .. not to ppl .. who can express their views .. not to ppl who can react to that .. but to ppl ... who still can listen to me .. yet no where to act .. !!) ... of course at time we need black space .. to sound loud .. still givin the silence to the world .. !!! .. ( am totally in pace with u and u r emotions .. but zero sympathy .. )

.. missed out .. time is leading us .. for longer period .. and hence .. hope .. things will change .. ( few i wish ... it shud .. few i cant deny .. !!) .. not so far .. to get back to u r page for another .. yet .. colurfull .. post .. ..

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I value people with self-esteem,self respect and I dont like to see people who go behind things/persons to satisfy their own needs.We know that there are different species in animals, similarly we are also aware that humanbeings are of different nature, I would like to see as many kinds of people as possible.