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This was a tough question and I really had to dig deep and bring into the light my true fears. I am afraid that I do not have what it takes to succeed against opposition and that my skills and gifts are not enough for what I want to accomplish. I am also afraid of growing old and becoming weak and useless. And finally, I am afraid that I am not being a true light to everybody in my life. I look back at how situations played out and how I responded and I think "Is that how Christ would have responded?" All my fears are truly pointless because God knows exactly what I need and he knew the course of my life before he even created the world.

1. I am afraid that Things like lust, pride and anger will sneakily come into my life, consume me, and force the holy spirit out of my heart. 2. I fear not achieving to my full potential. I fear not taking life by the horns and making of it, what God has intended. He gives us all tremendous gifts to use, so I feel we owe it to him to use these gifts fully for him.3. I fear jealousy. in my relationships jealousy frequently comes up and I use it for pain making my partner feel distrusted. God is a jealous God, so i believe that jealousy is necessarily bad, but it must also be controlled, and looked at rationally. Jealousy has a knack of clouding any rational thoughts.

1. I am afraid that I will not be the best mother I can be to my 2 boys. I am always worried I am being selfish and not thinking of them. I worry I am not good enough for them. I shed tears thinking I am not a good mother. 2. I am afraid that I will never grow into the woman that God intends me to be. I take 2 steps forward and I feel success then I fall back 3 steps. I am not becoming whom God wants me to be and I am afraid I will not get there. 3. I am afraid that greed, jealousy, and self love is something that is going to live in me forever and I will not learn to put all my insecurities in God's hands.

1. My first fear is the fear of failure. I absolutely despise letting people down, my family down, and myself down. I need to learn that sometimes failure is needed in order to succeed, and that The Lord will always love me despite my failures.

3. I'm afraid inadequacy. Often times I feel and think that no matter how hard I try I won't be as successful as other people, or when I fall because of temptation I feel extremely inadequate for Christ. I need to learn that despite my inadequacies God loves me anyway, and often times it's hard to swallow how The Lord can really do that.

The essence of this passage is contained in this verse "If we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us." Jesus boiled it all down to one thing:love. Love yourself, love God, love your neighbor.

The fears I have now are not of material matters, physical weakness, or growing old. Don't get me wrong all of that mattered to me before. I had a fear of not being wealthy enough, a fear of not being buff enough, and a fear of being unable to take care of myself as age decayed my body. I have hit a very critical time in my life. A Chaplain once asked me that God speaks to you everyday, but do you listen? It wasn't until I hit near rock bottom that I realized that I hadn't. It wasn't until now that I saw the shell of Christian that I was. The fears that I have dwelling inside is a fear of not loving enough. I fear that I will not be able to give agape love to my family, wife, child, and God. I fear that I will not have to commitment needed to pursue the life with God that I need to have. That I should have had all along. I fear that I will lose my family if I am not able to do these things. Only God knows what is next up in my life and what will be waiting at the on deck circle. Jer 29:11: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."