If it seems like I have this urgency to talk to you, I guess it’s because part of me is always wondering when the other shoe will drop. When will you wake up one morning and decide this was all just a really bad idea?

It’s days like today that I really question what kind of person I must be to have created a situation like this…I can’t change how I feel, but I should be able to control how I act. I’ve been very selfish. No matter what I do at this point, the damage has been done…