penny3333, no need to apologize at all; that did not come across as selfish. It's clearly heavy on your heart and in your mind. I hope the treatments are being successful. You are in my prayers daily. You don't say much about it but but I think about you often. I am a five-year prostate cancer survivor and have a special place in my heart for anyone touched by this dreaded disease.

Thanks y'all. I don't say much, because it sucks and this is a place for fun/happy thoughts. I think what helps the most is looking at my old cruise pictures, praying I get to go on my next cruise, and sharing the enjoyment of others cruises. Sure brings a smile to my face and heart. Thanks again for being understanding!!