I am the one who wrongfully bashed B&C

I am the one who wrongfully bashed B&C and shouldn't have. I am messed up myself, and need help. I have what appears to be a perfect life (house, white picket fence with kids in richer suburban America). I may have worked for it all, but my wife taketh away..... B&C, you have guts, I wished I knew you for I am the one who truly needs help right now, my life a ruins, a wife who doesn't care, essentially cheating on me, even if it is an emotional affair.... I didn't deserve what I got, but I got it anyway,and I hate my life for it.....I wish I were just dead....