Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

I was exposed to this in my Master's Counseling Program - National Convetion, Cherry Hill, NJ. As a counselor I used it to architect and launch an after school program, Chester 10/20 ZONE, that later became Harlem Kid's Zone, model program for the Obama Admin.

When you review this brief slide show, take your time, digest it, 'get it,' I NEED TO KNOW SOME OF YOUR THOUGHTS. I THEN NEED TO HEAR FROM YOU.

2. Go to the SearchInstitute site and deeply review the Developmental Assets for relevant age groups. Join, as I did - free, safe - gives you access to much more free stuff.* Parenting* Assets* Success stories* International

3. For what caring, loving, christian... adult should this not be the core foundation and competence?

* New Sustainable Economy* Legislative Agenda* International Development Work * Working for a Christian world

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Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

10.30.2013

***** Utterly astounding. Only one person in my entire 62 years, just one, has had a desperate, desperate, desperate, desire to spend time with me, to get to know me.

Do you know about whom I'm speaking? Do you know about who I am not speaking? I don't mean I'm Holding anyone off the list, rather that no one has been left off the potential list, persons who otherwise might be obvious choices.

I'm not speaking of any of my coworkers, not at any point in my career. I'm not speaking of any of my bosses, not at any point in my career. I'm not speaking of my biological children. Not speaking of my biological mother. I'm not speaking of my biological sisters. I'm not speaking of my brothers and sisters in law. I'm not speaking of the non biological family that literally have adjusted their own lives in major ways so that my life, my actual existence, would continue. I'm certainly not speaking of anyone in the so called church. I'm not speaking of anyone in the activist movement, including the few that I consider to be activists, and that may even consider me to be one.

Well, I just thought of one exception. My dog Ralf, truly,, and at some level that's probably very significant. But I'll not spend more time on it here. A college, early marriage companion. An extraordinary force of nature.

I'm not speaking of the one person that I know has loved me, and shaped me, more than any other life or the creator itself. My dad. I'm speaking of my dad. And though I will not explore it here, every aspect and more, including the implications, probably apply to him almost completely, and to no one else that he or I have ever known.

Me. I'm talking about me. The person that has desperately wanted to spend time with me, as much time as possible in each day,, to get to know me intimately, is me; no one else, at any time,.

Now, several things by way of reference.

I don't know how unusual it would be for a 62 year old man to have these perceptions, or woman, for that matter. My suspicion is that it is extremely rare that anyone in this society wants to spend much time with themselves at all, let alone massive amounts of time so that they know every relevant detail.

Some readers may be burning with the term narcissism at this point. But that is not what it is. Only in the last decade or so do I have any awareness at all of liking me. Any awareness before that I have is one of great dislike, great dissatisfaction, agony at my infinite shortfalls.

What has changed in the last 15 years? Not that these shortfalls had been healed! What I understand is that I am immensely of interest, beautiful, fascinating, of near infinite potential, of deadly shortfall; a project of infinite importance, of infinite potential to become what the world needs of me, of near total shortfall, and a project so absolutely in fixing himself that any other possible pursuit on earth tends to pale in its presence, for lack of interest complex in the detail challenge importance….

Now, this "me," that so doggedly has wanted to spend time with me, time at the expense of time I could spend getting to know others? No! No! No! No! But to me I was largely and uniquely available. And no one else wanted me to get to know them. Pretty much, ever.

The degree to which I've devoted massive decades to coming to know me, was that a preference over knowing others? No! No!.... But A. No one else cared to have me know them, and 2. As my own available Guinea pig, any time that I didn't have to get to know others, if I used that time effectively, I gained in my ability to use rare time with others more effectively.

Was my interest in knowing me, more especially, to know what was different and special about me? Absolutely not!!! Then, now, and forever, I perceive, I've learned, I understand, I've seen confirmed, that in everything from our DNA to our learned aspects of our nervous system, we are all 99.999% the same in our attributes. And that all important changes, differences, which tend to be the source of joy and suffering, are due to our ignorant, inept, clumsy handling of common features to make us mistakenly feel like alien beings from one another.

As I said at the onset, I've never had these thoughts before except an isolated fragment here or an isolated fragment there, but this is profoundly new for me within the last hour, and I'm immensely glad to have it. If there are a few that have known me for many many years, the few might find it interesting to know.

Will I be writing more on this subject? Will I be exploring this in some depth? Will this be my last writing in this domain. I have no idea.

Note: LOL. What I do know is that by Monday, 10 days of recovery from a massive, massive, massive operation will be behind me. That my veins are coursing with morphine: that more pain signals are being sent into me than I am paying attention to. Make no mistake, I have zero time, now more than ever, for idle chatter. I'm writing this because I am certain it is worth sharing. But that does not mean I am correct. And I owe it to anyone that has read this far to be reminded of what physically is going on with me.

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***** BUSH: Brownie, you make me feel like the most competent guy in the room. That’s a “Hell of a Job.” Thanks. // BARACK: Kathleen, you are obviously the world’s most quilified person for this impossible job. // Friends, is there any
thing you don’t understand here?

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

***** Loving - Sebelius has my Full Confidence. I'd have her on any team I've ever had any day. Stunningly Competent. G.reedy O.ffensive P.redators. Sebelius: "Hold me accountable for the debacle" of HealthCare.gov CBS News

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Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Cancer Update: Out of Cash - no cell phone - hospital problems - no pain meds this weekend??? We'll see. I NEVER ask for donations for my work, except by DOING my work. AND BY GOD, I DO THAT, EVERY BREATH, FOR 15 YEARS NOW.

It falls on totally deaf ears. Always has since I switched from making folks rich, or richer, to bringing more joy and less suffering into the world. Hmmmm.

It is 100% wonderful, because it is so clear, and so clarifying. We have totally lost the ability to measure value except in terms of what others pay for it, or demand for it. (LOVING NEVER WAITS TO SEE, or it is not Loving.)

We've gone Value Blind - 100%. And it is my joy to rediscover value, and joyfully joyfully and repeatedly die for it, and thereby make our blindness potentially manifest. But probably not soon enough for me - I'll trip the trip wire, go over the edge. No matter. I've been on the edge soooooo many times - just inches away from the edge of the cliff that just a few bucks were required to survive, with it only to arrive from the Creator's Angel, just in the nick of time - well, it is too close tho the edge for too long now. Will it get me this time? It is only a matter if time. And that is good.

Maybe the cell phone. $27 bucks every 3 months only for emergencies. I never use it. I hate it, but doc's, depts, some won't use it.

One that is trying to arrange my meds for this weekend may be one. Without a refill, I'm naked. No, I'll not run in front of a bus, but the thought will occur to me, often over the course of the weekend, and later.

I NEVER MANIPULATE - too little, too weak, too late. BUT I ALLOW MYSELF TO BECOME A MANIPULATION, IN THIS CASE, A LITMUS TEST, BY FINDING, FOLLOWING, LIVING OUT WHAT THE TRUTH NEEDS OF ME.

How useful to Truth and Visibility if I go without meds this weekend because the value of my work (and in Jesus' eyes my work IS MORE valuable THAN THAT OF A VERY FEW, ZERO CREDIT TO ME) is invisible.

I couldn't be more joyful, at peace of heart, for being used so creatively, so usefully, so cleverly.

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

I've never before come close to a 100% psychotic break, as I did upon awakening in the OR, Oct 18, my birthday.

But I have come closer than ever before, since then, one or two occasions, also drug induced.

My work is sooooooo isolated, so profoundly isolated, from folks that breathe, these last 15 years or so, because the Real Activists are mostly long dead - for decades and centuries, and 1000's of years. So, it is not my fault, but rather an affirmation, that I am so isolated -I'm willing and able to pay the price - living with the Real Activists in books, and my imagination.

But ooooooooohhhhh the danger. And in what extremely important, life and death, winner take all, is it not fraught with danger??????? Right.

But the Responsible, Master, Practitioner, works all the harder then to see and grasp what shreds of reality, and unreality, exist in the current time.

My encounter last week, and my encounters in dreams the other night, are very frightening to me, because of the harm I could play a role in happening to the worthiest among us. I must work to learn to see the impossible to see boundaries, every day, getting better every day, so if and when I am called to Lead, I do it from Reality.

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

But
it doesn't stop them from trying! Now the pigeo...er... Tea Party is
in a furious fight with moderate Republicans. Watch their asinine "Tea
Party Leadership Fund" ad, which urges REAL ‘MURIKANS to get rid of
anyone in the GOP who might actually make sense, here: http://bit.ly/1aPEQXI

***** pic. 'ARGUING WITH THE TEA PARTY, It's like playing chess with a pigeon....'

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

10.28.2013

* She expects I will be welcome in the infirmary for at least the 2 months of expected healing.

* She was able to hear the deep Truth if my Appreciation for she, and Doc Hwang, GUH, saving my life, which it seems they may have done. Deeply humble - her gratification is from the Solidarity with other humans - Christ-ian, Christ-like, Other-Centered.

* Every aspect of my recovery she seems to feel is normal, and proceeding well under the circumstances.

* Kindly added Zantac to my pre-meal regimen.

* Gave me advice on how to compensate when my primary pain meds fall short.

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

There's no exaggeration in this. There's no particular importance to this accept that as a career, ardent, passionate psychologist, it is profoundly useful to me that I had this learning experience.

It took me about a week to put together all the details. I don't remember when I first heard information trickling out but I suspect it was a week ago Saturday, the first day following the operation. In reasonably good spirits, but with a tinge of alarm, a very nice and competent Dr., a surgical assistant to the primary liver surgeon on my case, the head of the department, with good humor, but with a tinge of concern, he very briefly noted that I had been extremely confrontational in the OR, after the operation.

It would be interesting to reconstruct how I put it all together, over the following week, because for obvious reasons it was something they did not want to discuss further. And I did not press the point. But I do not feel up to a full reconstruction to you, so I'll go right to what is now clear to me happened.

And even as a recount this I find this a profoundly interesting insight into how our nervous System Works, and into of the exact stuff of what is a full psychotic break with reality. A break such as that woman from Connecticut had, with her child in the back of the car, ramming into White House pylons, and then racing across town to get shot at Congress, because with zero question, Pr. Obama had her under surveillance.
In earlier times, whatever general guessing I have made as to such a psychological experience, such guessing is of no use compared to my actual experience this last week.

When I awoke in the OR, the following things were perfectly clear to me, though I never opened my eyes at any point. Were my eyes bound? I have no idea. Did I open and have zero recall of that? Zero registering???

The following was absolute certain fact to me:

1. I was immensely upset because they had obviously, unmistakably, immediately aborted what was to be a 5 hour operation. I knew this with certainty, because with zero clues, evidence, anything, to the contrary, my body was perfectly clear - I had been under anesthesia for less than 10 seconds.

2. Oh I was not in the OR. I was in the recovery room. This was obvious, because in the OR I would not be being treated by such incompetent imbeciles. Note: I recall what I said quite clearly and in no way did I Express any such derogatory sentiments (I pray). But it was clear to me that these were inept trainees.

3. My pain was an 11 on a scale of 1 to 10. It was sheer agony. The pain was in my back, not in my stomach. On this item I was actually correct.

4. My pain was due in large part to being ignorantly placed in an upright sitting position. In point of fact I am a highly trained back care specialist. This is true in the real world as well. This excruciating pain was stemming from these inept trainees attempting to set me up with no support behind my pelvis. I do not suspect I was able to touch any one during this break. I suspect I was already under restraint, or placed there real quick. But I know that I attempted to use my arms both to supply lower back support to my pelvis, and to stuff a pillow against my lower pelvis where I knew it would relieve the pain.

OK. In the highly trained, relevantly trained, domain of my mind, I was absolutely correct in all this. Really. Impeccable.

But in the real world of commonly observable facts, truth, I was dead wrong, completely wrong in everything I've just shared with you except for those several points where I've made note.

1. I was absolutely in the OR, and not the recovery room. Note, why I never opened my eyes and saw anything I have no idea. Was I clenching against the pain? Were my eyes bound? Was I 'blind' even with my eyes open???

2. The operation was not aborted, it went the full 5 hours that was planned, I believe. Anesthesia is just amazing. In my case, this time, it is as though they completely cut power to my nervous system, to my brain, and then instantly restored power when the operation was over. Astonishing.

3. Oh I have no information whatsoever that they were trying to set me up right. Much more likely they were seeking my help in shifting to the gurney. As best I can recall, within 120 seconds of this incident beginning they had put me completely out again, and I have no recollection after that, thank god. That pain was too much.

4. On November 10, as I recall, I meet with my liver surgeon for a checkup and the staples to be removed. Oh, what fun. If I feel that me asking the following question will not be destructive of our communication I intend to ask, why it was my back that was so extremely painful? Do you hyper extend the back in some way so as to make the internal organs more exposed through the incision? This would make perfect sense. But in any case, why was my back in such extreme pain, and why for the next four or five days was my back always more sore than my belly? Just curious.

So what did I learn about complete psychotic break? That our brain has a mode, a switch if you will, that can be set for absolute certainty. By virtue of this switch we can have absolutely necessary clarity, confidence, forceful assertion.... We'd be crippled without this.

What I have more personally experienced is how that switch, and the setting thereof, can be totally divorced from reality without the slightest clue that it has been incorrectly set; and worse, without the slightest interest in, or openness to, the possibility that it has been incorrectly set. 'Why waste time on the totally obvious?' Argh.

At the most basic level I suspect that I have just clinically laid out 'psychotic break', as well as 'psychotic break' can be laid out.

Among the many reasons that I by my nature drive away who otherwise might be active Allies on the left, is because I refuse to close the door on any and every possibility for error which may exist. Obviously I'm a person of action. Obviously I'm a person of strong views. But I am very deliberate and determined that I not with any breath close off entirely the possibility that I am incorrect. Obviously this does not cripple me from acting. It is burdensome in the sense that I am constantly seeking new information where others have moved on. The creative greats throughout history have spoken of how such humility is absolutely necessary to the pursuit of truth.

I'm nothing but glad at having this experience. I've learned a lot. I'm told I hurt no one, except maybe myself, physically. And this psychotic break was 100% do to the introduction of external chemicals, drugs.

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Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

pic. 'Imagine how different our country would be if people had the same passion and fury for ensuring access to doctors as they have for ensuring access to weapons.'

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

The
area downwind of the tarsands in Alberta has more air contaminants than
some of the world's most polluted cities. The rural area is seeing men
suffer elevated rates of cancers linked to carcinogenic chemicals used
in tarsands extraction, like 1,3-butadiene and benzene. #NoKXL

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

NO
OIL TRAINS in north Idaho and Spokane! Come to Clark College in
Vancouver, Washington, before 5 pm on Tuesday, October 29, to
participate in a rally, press conference, and the first public hearing
about the unprecedented, proposed 360,000-barrel-per-day Tesoro Savage
rail-to-port Bakken shale (and eventually tar sands?) oil terminal at
the publicly owned Port of Vancouver on the Columbia River. Based on
public input, the Washington Energy Facility Site Evaluation Council
will make a recommendation to Governor Inslee, who can grant or deny
facility construction. A Bakken shale oil train exploded and killed 47
people in Lac-Megantic, Quebec, on July 6, and Tesoro is still cleaning
(covering) up a September 29 pipeline oil spill en route to a North
Dakota rail terminal.

Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html

TRANS-PACIFIC
PARTNERSHIP - The Trans-Pacific Partnership could sharply increase U.S.
exports of natural gas - creating incentives for more fracking

The
Trans-Pacific Partnership could sharply increase U.S. exports of
natural gas - creating incentives for more fracking. The Department of
Energy could lose its authority to
regulate exports of natural gas to countries that have signed a "free
trade" agreement with the U.S. that includes "national treatment for
trade in gas."
The TPP could also eliminate the government's prerogative to determine
whether the mass export of natural gas to TPP countries - including
Japan, the world's largest natural gas importer - is in the public
interest. The resulting surge in natural gas exports would not only
raise gas and electricity prices for consumers, but would ramp up the
dangerous, chemical-laden practice of fracking. Learn more at
http://www.exposethetpp.org/TPPImpacts_TheEnvironment.html

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Salvation. Being the son or daughter of creator devoted to the least of these.

Your life is your only influence.

Problem is 100% this.

Wisconsin Public Radio interview

Cross country missionl: a brief description

This doesn't look promising.

If you envy Jesus....

After all these years I think I figured out how to offer a way that I don't waste people's time. For those who find a deep Envy for the quality of life of a Martin Luther King jr., a Gandhi, Malala, Jesus..., and yearn for such a quality of life for themselves and those who they love, I think I have ideas and example to offer. For those who do not feel such deep Envy for the quality of life of the likes of these I think I have nothing of value to share.

Leadership. Loving. Ultimate power, Only hope.

mlk jr. what will happen to him? click for album

Draw out the poison

THE MISSION REQUIRES YOUR HELP

"I came to bring a fire, and oh how I wish it were raging." Jesus said something like that. That was his mission. That's my mission. Why? Because nothing less now than a raging fire of Hearts against insane destructive greed will give any part of creation a decent future now. This Mission, exploring for life in US, EFLIUS, will get my last breath. But unless you help that last breath isn't far away. those that wish to see, those that desperately wish to see, this Mission continue can contribute financially through PayPal at start underscore loving at yahoo.com and by watching the route that this journey takes and helping to secure a place for my sleeping bag and or tent along the way.

"Truly I say to you, there is no one who has left house or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or farms, for [for the sake of our global neediest]; but that she shall receive a hundred times as much [in Joy, Meaning] now in the present age... [True] brothers and sisters and mothers and children ... along with Persecutions...." Mark 10:28.

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Born to a father of immense spiritual health but end in a town of degenerate material wealth after 50 years lost in an orgy of that material wealth finding my way back to my natural being, loving Spirit of goodness in action, and dying to lead others to the joy of that. More here. http://www.lsgiabeing.com/2017/01/lsgia-being-james-mcginley-cultivating.html