..don't think we'll be given a new module today.. so i expect this to be one LONG day...

last night, i must have browsed over 10 web hosting sites... signed up at 3 different hosts.. i don't know why i'm already looking for a host when i haven't even started making the first page.. Johnell gave me a very nice site that compares hosting sites.. www.freespace.net.. sabi nga nya.. OK na OK na OK dyan.. (OK nga! LoL!) ... i plan to really concentrate on the fan site this weekend.. i'm so hyped up in this "project" that's why i'm so unorganized.. that's what i tend to become when i'm excited..all these ideas pop up that i don't know where to start.. getting a free host, free forums, making jpegs, surfing for free images, nice fan sites and other james blanco stuff, buying jologs magazines..etc wahhaha.. of course, i asked some of my friends to help me.. (especially Irvie... our plan is for her to do the research while i make the site..) Plus, i think i really need to improve my Photoshop skills.. actually, my so-called skills are bordering on "non-existent" so what i mean to say is i need to LEARN how to use Photoshop and go beyond cropping images (lol)..

System Time: 11:13 AM
..remember the Video system that i was making? i used the same user controls that they created here in the office... so when they upgraded it, i forgot to reflect the changes they made to my Video system so i got a LOT of errors when i tried running it.. most of them are okay now,.. i'll probably continue the data reports after lunch..

Wednesday, August 28, 2002

System Time: 1:16 PM
...Hi all!.. was finally given another module to work on.. haven't yet finished it...

...nasira headphones ko huhuhu.. napigtas ko LoL! jologs kasi demmit.. bought this very cheap headphones (mas jologs puh sa jologs?) just to suffice my need for music... the reason why i'm blogging and not doing the new module is that i'm at a complete loss; (without an answer, wedged, stucked.. ano pa buh.. stumped!) gaaaaaH.. don't know how to do this particular form requirement...

/me stares at breakpoint

...brought a soft copy of Return of the King.. another way to kill time if ever another "lull" occurs in our schedule... (or when i'm stuck with a program, like today :þ)

..hay.. magbabasa na nga lang muna ako..

System Time: 3:11 PM
.. turns out that what i've been doing is correct.. so now i'm finished with the module... continued reading LOTR.. (think i'm getting sleepier by the minute.. zZzzzzzZ)

System Time: 4:06 PM
...nuninuni-nuninuninuninu *twiddles thumbs*

System Time: 5:32 PM
..has been pretending for an hour...(puts on the programmer-at-work face) /me squints on monitor.. presses F8..debug..debug.. squints again.. takes a peak at system time..demmit, hasn't moved.. LoL

...at LAST Eboy texted me.. la lang..haven't heard from her for a while...any sign of LIFE is greatly appreciated

..speaking of non-communicating (endangered) friends... still haven't heard from PC.. i don't know what i've been expecting but i'm sure it isn't this,.. NOTHINGNESS (?)... life really is unfair... it has always been easier for other people to forget about me than i do to them.. ERGO: i'm such a forgettable person ... hayy paksowatnangalang!

before i get carried away in this depressing topic.. /me peeks at System Time.. yeeeeeishhh 5:55 PM.. i plan to leave at exactly 6 PM... la lang.. think i'm getting dizzy staring at my monitor..

System Time: 8:21 AM
..wasn't late today..had to make my own version of the 50-meter dash, though... punched in at 7:57 am.. (Yes!) with 3 minutes to spare.. :p

System Time: 1:29 pm
...pretended the whole morning..i feel so..bobo LoL.. mainly because it was my batchmates who discussed the solutions to the problems given to us.. (main reason of course is, I DIDN'T contribute anything hehe)

presently listening to the Corrs - Love Gives Love Takes:

just when i thought i was safe..
you found me in my hiding place..
i promised never again, i wouldn't give my heart, but then...

closer, closer i moved near you
the way i want you makes me fear you

love breaks and love divides
love laughs and love can make you cry
i can't believe the ways
that love can give and love can take away

i find it hard to explain
it's crazy but its happening..
and i'm falling again..
much farther than i've ever been..

i've fallen deeper than the ocean..
i'm lost in this emotion

/me sighs.. i think The Corrs makes the best love songs!

..i'm gonna stare at somebody else's monitor now.. :p

System Time: 3:18 PM
PAK m so sleypi.. -_-

System Time: 4:48 PM
...just got my caffeine and nicotine doses.. hehe.. now i feel like i wanna.. (you know.. LOL).. hope i could continue scanning when i get home so that i could start making the "class libraries" section..
...Koji has been teaching me the logic of his Resizing procedure.. VB sucks.. i mean, if we were using Delphi, auto-resizing would just be a form property..in VB we're coding it step by step... succcccccccckkksssss

Monday, August 26, 2002

System Time: 8:17 AM
..demmit. was late again. punched in at 8:07 am. huhuhu

..its just another manic mondayyyyyyyyyyy..

good news bad news time!!

good news: was able to get my clearance last saturday and receive my last payroll

bad news: was in CHECK so i asked ate Eden if she could deposit it to my account today

good news: amount received was BIGGER than expected

bad news: has no more excuse in paying my dad (i owe him for paying my overdue globe plan hehe)

good news: bought a scanner yesterday!!

bad news: i thought scanners were cheap! was only expecting a price range of 1,500-2,000 BWAHAHA ehhhhhhh i tot i tot..!

good news: my sister leaves today and i'm roommate free!

bad news: she took most of her stuff..i wont be able to use them while she's away! LOL!

good news: i scanned the night away :p

bad news: today is a working day :( (may connection yan! i couldn't continue scanning today because of work :p)

good news: i was able to buy this super jologs magazine with james blanco on the cover hihihi

bad news: when i scanned his picture it showed some pixels (? .. actually i'm not sure what it is) so the picture wasn't clear..but its passable

good news: irvie was able to buy another magazine!

bad news: its still with her!

good news: have started making a fan site for james blanco hIhIHi

bad news: project will be put on hold because i'll try to finish the "class libraries" section of my HP

good news: my site will soon contain pictures! Yeheyyy!

bad news: fafa james' site will be put on hold (hehe inulit ko lang)

hehe.. the good news still outweighs the bad news, right? i don't usually look for the negative stuff in every situation.. it's a MONDAY so pleeease excuse me for my outlandish propensities.

System Time: 9:17 AM (exactly an hour passed)

waaaaaah just realized that i didn't bring a diskette hUHuhuhu.. i don't know what i'll do with this blog.. perhaps one of my batchmates brought one that i could borrow..

/me stares at monitor

watdapak are my batchmates doing.. i mean..i think we're all just doing stuff to kill time but sometimes they get so serious on what they're doing that they forget that its break time! and i have to convince one of them (all i have to do is make one stand up..and the rest will follow.. like a CULT :p) to stop and take a breather...

System Time: 9:42 AM ...ouuuuuuuchh.. just corrected the Date on my watch.. was 2 days late... so i rotated the dialer(?) for i think, at least 5 minutes... talk about having nothing to do.. LoL!

gaaaaaaH.. all i want to do is finish my HP and my fan site.. is really the disadvantage of working.. can't do my Web stuff.. i'm such a frustrated Web developer (lol).. but i guess its best to develop my software programming "skills" with web developing as just my hobby...

just got a call from ate Eden (info's payroll-er) on my cell.. seems that the reason why the check wasn't yet in cashed was because the computation was wrong! (awwwwwwww i knew it was TOO good to be true).. was lessened by 2000 bucks..anywayz.. it's still bigger than the amount i expected.. sayang lang talaga hehe!

..presently listening to Mase - Feels so Good.. was tired of listening to the same p3s so i copied Chipper's Soul'd Out mp3s..

/me stares at my monitor again

LUNCH TIME! (12:10 pm) gotta rouse up my batchmates.. later!

System Time: 2:58 PM
woah.. my head hurts *_*
think this could be attributed to the fact that it's cold in the office but hot when we went out for lunch...(eh?) basta yun na yun.. waahh tsakit -_- i could actually feel the veins throbbing in my head..

Saturday, August 24, 2002

hayyyy just got home from the event

as expected i got the "TANG-ina mo sissssssssss nagpakita ka!!" and the "who? di kita nakikita".. "PI CHapter?" LOL! hahaaaay.. but it was okay 'cause i got to see most of my batchmates again...i can't remember when i last saw them.. i left at around 9:30 pm... i even met a chartered member (the pioneers)!
they say that this year was the biggest turnout so far..( i wouldn't know.. it was my first time.. :p) i must have shook hands more than 50 times.. Ma'am Belle was there, of course... she's really the main reason why i went... but no regrets ... i'm happy that i saw them again and met my brads and sis..from batch 60s to 2002!

Wednesday, August 21, 2002

System Time: 8:18 AM
mawnin all! demmit.. was momentarily using the internet when i got this "Access to website is restricted" message ek ek on my browser... ok so bawal talaga maginternet pak LoL

System Time: 10:49 AM
..still haven't given us a new module so i continued doing this Video System thing..gosh,ang dami pang errors! hu-hum.. i brought my jologs headphones.. its longer than the non-jologs one.. (i can't even lean back with it).. have i told you why i call it jologs? 'cause some of the black coating are gone and you could already see the copper(?) wires..LOL...

System Time: 11:05 AM
...stared at my monitor for about 15 minutes (LOL).. i'm so fucking sleeeeeeepy.. slept at around 12am.. woke up at 5:45 am.. actually, anytime before 12 am usually works for me.. (i mean i'm a normal, comprehensible, lucid person the next day)

my mind's not yet completely functioning... probably the reason why i can't solve the bugs in my Video program yet...maybe i could just stare on my monitor the whole day... :p
why do i get the feeling that this is gonna be one LONG blog?...

SYSTEM Time: 12:08 pm
whydapak am i still not eating? LoL.. will eat in a little while.. Ma'am Belle (or Sis) approached me and asked me about the upcoming APO anniversary ..wahahaha.. she told me to go with her (a subtle threat) if ever there'll be a happening.. not that i don't want to go.. its just that am not that active anymore in APO (she knows this.. probably the reason why she insists that i go) and you know how it is with these frats/soro..kakahiya kasi di na ako masyado nagpapakita..pero kakahiya ding ndi pumunta..(because of Ma'am Belle)..hmmm..will think about it more later (after we eat :p)

SYSTEM TIME: 3:14 pm
changed layout of my Form..(TSK..mortal sin in programming..) didn't realize that some of my code was form dependent.. wahaha.. *sapok sarili* .. reduced some of the bugs..but there are still soo many..

Tuesday, August 20, 2002

System Time: 9:00 AM
mawnin /me stifles a Yawn...punched in at 7:44 am.. presently doing nothing.. they're checking our codes right this moment... (hmm...i'm sure they'll find bugs in mine.. no program is completely error-free, you know..)
i brought a non-jologs headphone.. but i think it's wire is even shorter than the other one...i shouldn't have left my jologs headphone at home.. baka magtampo yun LOL!

System Time: 9:44 AM
modified my code 'cause Froi (my batchmate) said we've done something that wasn't allowed...(in the template...)at first, it wasn't working.. then Chipper (my other batchmate) showed me the error of my ways (LOL!)... now i'm back doing nothing HeHe..
..just remembered what irvie texted to me last Sunday...guest daw si fafa james blanco (:p) sa Kool ka Lang.. that's on 9 pm today.. /me kelegs all over HAHAHA..hope i don't forget to watch it..
i'm not much of a TV person...i'd rather go online..i think the main reason is because i always forget what day it is...ergo, forgetting that the TV show i once watched and liked is on TV (eh?) basta yun na yun..

System Time: 10:34 AM
..presently listening to Hole-Violet
gooooooooo take everything , take everything, i want you to, goooooooo take everything, take everything, i dare you to

GOSH IT'S SO KAKAINIP UH!

System Time: 1:17 PM
..just ate lunch (at jollibee as usual :blech).. we're still not doing anything...i'll try to do the Video Inventory System that I promised my sister...later

System Time: 5:54 PM
..almost time to go home.. i started making the Video System but it still has MANY bugs..at least it gave me something to do.. i think we'll be given another module tomorrow.. so i'll just continue doing it when i have the free time...
..just found out that our PCs have internet connection already.. yahoooooo... eto na buh ang pagbabalik ni AsaWork? LOL!.. probably happen on the next month or so.. pa-good girl effect muna...

Monday, August 19, 2002

just got home... this is my blog from the office:

System Time: 3:02 pm

...am already finished with assigned module (HurraH!).. was actually finished before lunch.. it was pretty easy.. just a matter of copying the template, changing variable names, adding a few more and voila.. a working Emissary (that's what they call the class module that connects the form to the server).. wish all of the project is as easy as this..
i am writing this blog on my notebook (nope, not my laptop.. as in notebook na papel..how low-tech LOL).. forgot to bring a disk..tsk².. my handwriting sucks.. hope i'll be able to decipher my own handwriting later hehe..

....last night, i joined my sister make bracelets and necklaces which is actually a pretty cool hobby of hers 'cause i get to wear a different one almost everyday (plus) it's a very good conversation piece... i mean, people always ask me where i bought the bracelet/necklace that i was wearing.. and i'll say.. "ay hindi.. gawa ng kapatid ko..." *ding!* instant conversation topic hehehe...i made 4 bracelets and 4 necklaces (i think).. i made one for jj.. he called last night and i just asked him if he would like one.. he said.."color pink uh" ... as if! LOL! as if we would actually buy pink colored beads....

... why the fuck am i blabbing about stupid bracelets! LOL!

aaaaahh.. i think i remember why... it was because while making those bracelets/necklaces (watever), i was so engrossed in doing it that i lost track of time.. when i looked at our clock and saw 11:30 pm on it.. i suddenly felt this pain in my chest.. the same feeling that i always get when i become nervous/scared.. because i remembered that we'll be starting on the project proper the next day (which is today) and i still haven't even opened the sample module provided to us.. and now that i've finished the assigned module for this day, it now seems silly and preposterous... ^_^

being bored is way preferable than panicking and cramming on an unfinished module

YeHey! my favorite song.. drive by kiss...

..copied a whole block of mp3s to my local drive here.. ( a total of 806 MB which is almost 2 hundred songs).. my sister brought their company's external CD-ROM home last friday.. but i wasn't able to burn my mp3s last weekend so i'll probably be doing that when i get home.. (after i type this looong blog)

System Time: 3:59 pm
killing time is sooooooooooo hard...
is that pizza i see?
break time!

System Time: 4:49 pm
... yep .. it was pizza... only ate a slice, though... (am still shy around my other officemates).. probably the best thing here at radix.. there's usually free food.. (read:nakakatipid)

System Time 5:45 pm (15 minutes before logging out YaHoo!)
... to kill time i renamed ALL the mp3s in my harddisk.. LOL... they used to have a filename like this:
13. Sick of Myself - Matthew Sweet now its:
Matthew Sweet - Sick of Myself
LOL!
actually i'm not yet finished.. our supervisor is right behind me so i couldn't continue hehe.. so i'm pretending to be writing something meaningful (or at least work-related) on this notebook...will finish my renaming activity then log-out...that concludes another (boring?) day as a programmer.. hehehe..bye all!

i've decided to focus on the good things happening in my life... actually... this is usually how i deal with my problems.. looking for that silver lining...it's just that lately.. i've been having a hard time seeing the goodness in things...but i'm trying to change that and hopefully.. it'll work and help me become sane and rational again..

i was still contemplating (?) on whether to e-mail PC or not... but then i realized the futility and uselessness of my doing so.. i mean.. what would i write? Hello.. do you remember me? How are you doing? I wrote to check if you're still breathing?.... i don't think so!

haHAY! /me sings again..

and its wrong to think about forever... when you know it doesn' last..

just got home (from arcade again...)
anywayz... on monday we'll start programming again... was a good thing i got the simple module (bunutan lang... mabait tlga si God hihihi).. since yesterday, we have been trying to understand the project template given to us... it's really hard cause when i program, i usually have my own style of doing it.. but because of the template.. we're forced to have almost uniform codes and work as a team... plus the template's pretty complicated... i promised myself to study it again this weekend... cause i can't really afford not keep up with my batchmates... and i don't want to look like i don't have a clue on what we're doing... (hehehe..in short... ayokong maBISTO na ako'y nagpapanggap lang na marunong hehe)

tapos etong kausap ko (na nawawala na ang pagkakras ko) sabi saken..."it's just a stupid headphone" OKI PAYN WATEVER! as if he would know HOW sleepy you could get sitting in front of a PC programming for 9 hours... and my only salvation is that STUPID headphone... dadagdag puh sa kabwisetan ko...

Wednesday, August 14, 2002

wasn't late today (yeHey! "7:45 am" punch-in).. we left our house at 6:35 am... which i think SHOULD ALWAYS be strictly followed (especially by my evil sisters 'cause we leave the haus together)

still no sign of getting started with the project.. i guess it's okay...though time's so slow when you're doing nothing... (or in my case.. pretending to be doing something worthwhile)

momi signed my gb again... still didn't leave any contact number.. it's as if he doesn't want us to meet which completely confuses me, 'cause WHY wouldn't he? (except of course for the OBVIOUS reason that he doesn't REALLY want to see me)his e-mails/posts don't indicate that he doesn't...I just want to spend time with him again which is now more feasible being that he's here in manila... oh WELL...i guess he'll show up when he wants to...baka lang kasi umuwi na sya na hindi man lang kami nagkita :(

still 30 minutes before lunch time... wahaha... i should be grateful actually,..to be doing nothing but still getting paid.. but all this idleness reminds me of my first few months at infoSTRUCTURE (sorry bout the quiz guys..my mistake..) i think i used the internet for a whole day...LOL! at least all PCs there are connected.. the PC i'm using here isn't... huhuhu... (nilipat na nga kasi kami dito sa mga bagong computers)

Tuesday, August 13, 2002

woah..no blog for two days?

actually i'm writing this at the office (on a notepad) 'cause it looks to me that i won't have much time to blog this evening mainly because i want to start this "web project" i have in mind.
i wasn't able to blog for the last couple of days because i was busy doing tin aka bubblegum a favor. i did a simple webpage for her (consists only of 5 pages.. its her project) which isn't really a problem for me EXCEPT she gave me only 2 days to do it...it isn't even a full 24-hour day!.. i mean, she asked me on Saturday, gave me her info on Sunday morning .. but of course, my family and I usually go out on Sundays and we were only able to arrive home at around 10 pm...started doing it from scratch on 10:30 pm...and then finished the first page close to midnight...(arte ko puh kasi..gumawa puh ko graphics for roll-over buttons)

...continued doing it after i arrived at home (from work).. was about 8:00 pm (had to fight my sister for exclusive PC use) and finished the whole thing at around 11:30 pm...

this morning tin called me up on my cell saying that she couldn't open the file...after many failed attempts...she told me that it would be better if i just uploaded it... waaH...i could have uploaded it last night and saved me the trouble of having to ask (very nicely) my supervisor if i could "e-mail my father" (an e-mail emergency?) .. after giving me a stern look (and some hushed words to our network admin) she told me i could use the common PC...

so i opened her e-mail..downloaded my attachment...created her a brinkster account... uploaded them...(wasn't able to test it, though) all in 15 minutes (with my poor heart beating *doog doog doog* so loudly from fear of getting caught UPLOADING files and urging the webpage to load faster)

whew!

AND DID I MENTION I WAS LATE AGAIN THIS MORNING! demmit!
8:19 am huhuhuhu (/me anticipates red circle on punch-in)

waHaha.. we're still not doing anything here at the office, we're finished with the training modules (tomorrow pa daw magsisimula yung project perce) so basically what i did the whole day was make a BASIC HTML tutorial (*secret cough*) for my (*secret cough*)...

my system time says: 5:54 pm (yaHooo)

they already gave us some documentation on the project that we're gonna be involved in.. i was like uhh... woaH.. (ano daw?../me reads again...and again..and again)..okay, okay... so i still haven't read it for the third time but i plan to later... while i was reading it (and trying my mightiest to actually understand it)... i got afraid all of a sudden i realized that all the pressure, difficulty will be doubled (or tripled)... nyak iskeyri... /me reads it again

Saturday, August 10, 2002

Opened my eyes today
And I knew there's something different
Saw you in a brand new way
Like the clouds had somehow lifted

And if yesterday I heard
Myself saying these words
I would swear it was a lie

I don't know why but suddenly I'm falling
Was I so blind
I was loving you all the time
Now I'm hopelessly addicted
Helplessly attracted

I'll make a wish this day
And I'll send it to the heavens
That we will always stay
Entwined like this forever
And though the world may change
Coz nothing stays the same
I know will survive

I don't know why but suddenly I'm falling
Was I so blind
I was loving you all the time
Now I'm hopelessly addicted
Helplessly attracted
Naturally we acted
Hopelessly addicted
Helplessly attracted
Chemically reacted
Naturally we acted

wasn't late for work today... saw my 8:29-punch-in yesterday circled in red.. (LoL).. tsk tsk..then my file was corrupted... couldn't fucking open it.. crystal report would crash EVERY time i tried opening it... waaaH... (of course i had no back up...lol).. but at least i was able to do it again... i did it for less than 2 hours ... it took me a whole day just to make the original... i guess when you know what you're going to do, it'll take you 1/4 the time...

demmit..someone called (thought it was him).. was just my neighbor, jon.. (waaH sama ko)

hayyyyyymisshim..

he called me this morning... at around 6 am.. just got out from the shower and wasn't even dressed yet when i answered the phone..(phone was later drenched hehe) haayyy ... i don't want to expect... i try my best not to think about him much... or miss him so badly... but then he calls me in the oddest times and i can't stop wondering that maybe he misses me as much as i miss him... but then, i remember the e-mail ate cha sent to me... was something about ahm.. don't-expect they-call-because-they-just-feel-to-call-you-at-the-moment-it-doesn't-mean-anything blah-blah ...best advice i received...

but this is my blog and i can say what i want to say!! LoL!

(or sing it, i might add...)

...i lie awake and feel your nearness
i never wanted more than this....

ei good news.. i started reading again.. am reading the novelization(eh?) of spiderman (the movie)... usually, i like the book better than the movie..(except of course with LOTR which bored me to death but was forced to read it out of curiosity on what was going to happen to Legolas .. and yes, Gandalf is still alive and is now Gandalf the White).. maybe because you know what the character is thinking... the a walk to remember book is great... movie had just the main "happenings/situations" (there's a play, a sick girl, a rich boy.. a pastor...that's about it, i think)... mostly, it was different from the movie.. but of course she still ended up dying hehe.. almost made me cry...(almost, but not quite hehe)
..am still at the first few chapters of spiderman.. he was just bitten by the spider..(even read the thoughts of the genetically-enhanced spider.. how cool is that? LoL) most of the dialogue are similar to the movie.. (like LOTR was..)

tomorrow i'm going to UsT to meet Mon.. he's doing me a favor (my notebook still doesn't have an o.s.).. he'll help me install windows on my notebook.. grr sana hindi ko nasira.. i was making some (stupid) attempts and it just isn't working out.. am a network dummy..

Wednesday, August 07, 2002

hay i was such in a bad mood yesterday.. couldn't even blog to explain what i was feeling.. basically it started with a petty fight with my eldest (evil) sister.. kesyo i was hogging the PC blah blah sya naman daw blah blah... (/me makes the W sign).. then she committed the MORTAL sin of siblingness.. she told my dad! (sinumbong ako in short) so my dad scolded me (blah blah blah blaaaaaaaaaaaah) and told me to allow my sister use the pc.. hay ewan.. i was already in a bad mood even before that ... i think it was because of some unfinished modules/exercises at work.. (i think.. i forgot already)... plus i haven't talked to him for like... 3 days! (4 days including today haaaaay)

i still see him in irc, though... i think i'm in his notify list because he macks me before i even join a channel... but he doesn't call me anymore... which SHOULD be just fine cause i'm just a friend of his plus he apparently loves someone already (accdg to his qm)... oki, oki tama na, sori na lang ako...better luck next time (eh?!)

i'm asking my officemate's help in installing an OS in my notebook.. but he wasn't able to do it.. he gave me the cds and stuff ... but i've been trying to do it for about an hour but i still can't boot from the CD-ROM .. i guess i'll just have to bring it again tomorrow (grrr my notebook's too damn heavy.. mainly because of the transformer and adaptors) and i think they'll have to do the installation or else i might do something to it that wouldn't be repairable..

momi still hasn't replied to my e-mail.. tsk asan buh yun..

ei.. mark this day pala.. for the first time i was the one who finished the assigned exercise first.. iYeHey! hehe...

if i had to rate this day... i'll give it a 7 out of 10.. is high because our family dined out plus the first finisher thingie... isn't perfect because of my freaking useless no-os installed notebook and of course...my missing him...

Saturday, August 03, 2002

*depressed mode*

demmit.

i was about to send an e-mail to PC... i wasn't able to fnish it... ergo.. didn't send it... had just written about 2 sentences when all the things he said to me came rushing back again... and then i felt this pain on my chest and i couldn't type another word... i couldn't fucking believe it.. i couldn't fucking believe that i was crying again in front of my stupid monitor... first i thought that maybe the reason why i was crying was because i wasn't over him... but then.. i realized that i wasn't really that... it was more of ..."why things like this always happen to me".... that someone i care about simply vanishes in my life... and when i say vanish... that's what really happens... they cease to exist in my life... sometimes it feels like they were just a figment of my imagination... but then the dream is over and now i'm fully awake... but it still hurts and the memories are still locked in my mind...

pretty boring day... just stayed at home... didn't even go to the EB at ust... didn't even attempt to ask permission for that cause i knew (for sure) that my dad won't let me go... my dad already bought me a new hd for my notebook... i'm planning on selling my notebook after it's fixed... i've realized that i really don't need one and it's pretty expensive to maintain.. (what if the hd crashes again... would that mean that i would have to buy a new hd again?) .. plus.. i'm thinking of buying a gaming console... still haven't decided which console though... i'm not much of a gamer, actually... all i want to have is a drummania at home... LOL... or a dance² revo pad (double LOL)

/me hihilo na rin ata sa tapat ng monitor

God, I need a sim. hehehe.(am still disconnected... i plan to ask my dad to lend me some money so i could pay my phone balance next week)

Friday, August 02, 2002

blogging at office (for the first time).. there's a lull in our schedule... this morning we went through some naming conventions, programming style standards etc.etc... ms.chuck has to teach another group so i'm here entertaining mahselp hehe...

i'm still using the windows explorer though as my browser,... it isn't as noticeable as ie perce... good thing that blogger has a white background...

oops don't want to get caught... technically we're allowed to use the internet (cause the pc we're using is already connected) but of course... only at a minimum...

... i'll be home a little late cause i'll meet irvie and the rest of my x-officemates ...(aarcade kami hehe).. blog you later ^_^

Thursday, August 01, 2002

i feel so HenYo. HAHA

i was able to finish the assigned module today...when you're programming, time really moves fast! it has been an everyday joke that my batchmates and i are always forgetting that it's breaktime...our supervisors always have to remind us to go and take our break... or else they'll tell manong guard to lock us in the office lolz... ms.chuck would even say "ohhh kayong 4 wag na kayong tatayo dyan uh.. wag kayong magbreak!" .. thinking that reverse psychology would be more effective for us (hehe)... i know that all programmers would testify to the fact that when you're in a groove.. you don't want to disrupt your flow of thoughts.. or else you might forget whatever's on your mind.. whether it's a solution to a bug... or a new procedure... baka masira logic! hehe

About Me

i'm addicted to blogging, and reading other people's blogs.. i'm a super couch potato, absolutely loooove Dr. House, Capi from GREEK, Dan Humphrey and Johnny Pacar.. i'm a reader.. chick-lit, paulo coelho, dan brown, you name it, i probably got it.. i'm the luckiest girl in the world to have found a husband who is so endearing, so loving, so faithful and so masipag..i constantly want my hair short..and i can't KEEP hobbies, i can't give full effort to anything, other than TV...i'm very ningas cogon, i would get excited over something whether it's cooking/baking or a business idea/travel plans to the extent that i would exert energy on it every minute, every hour over the entire week then forget about it on the next..my music preferences change so much..currently i like Franz Ferdinand, the Killers, Coldplay, Muse, Death Cab for Cutie, Switchfoot..wish Gavin deGraw gets a new album..i used to be a big fan.. i easily lose interest to a particular band/singer 'cause when i absolutely love something, my winamp list just repeats the song/s over and over and over and OVER again until i get so sick of it.