My Story, My Continuous Evolving

Say not, “I have found the truth,” but rather, “I have found a truth.” Kahlil Gibran’s The Prophet

“You must unlearn what you have learned…. Life creates it, makes it grow. It’s energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous begins are we.” –Yoda

Ok, I’m going to talk about my own journey up until this current point in the grand illusion of time. There might be some embellishment, but I’ve got to keep it interesting, right?

As a child, I was the curious type. When all of the other kids were playing some sort of ball and participating in sport, I was playing God with bugs. I was always intrigued with what was crawling around the ground, in and on trees, swimming in the water, and flying through the air. I had bug books, and I was always trying to identify what was what. I was most fascinated by ants-how they were so amazingly resilient to any challenge they faced. They seemed to function as an organic machine. Whether it was bugs or the radio or the device in question, I was always intrigued by how the machinations of things worked, period–typical of most curious boys before the Personal Electronic Device (PED). Anyway, because I was in la la land, I didn’t exactly fit in, which wasn’t easy in trying to develop self-confidence, but I’m grateful that from a young age I just felt that there was more to life than what most people thought and believed. I just couldn’t put it into words, but I knew there was more. I was the kid that you were glad was too shy to ask questions…because if I did I would drive you nuts.

On this journey, I’ve had some pretty crazy and dangerous happenings, which further put a spin on how I saw life and existence. But when I was 17, I found myself in basic training, and up to that point I was so mad at the world that my goal was to be an “elite killing machine” as a result of the tough guy attitude I had. I’m positive that there are some connections with a former life as well, but that’s beside the point. Less than halfway through basic training, it was as if I had some sort of awareness experience, and I realized that if I continued on this current path, all I was going to amount to was just a government asset, a number on a piece of paper, and all of my fellow soldiers (guys who had stories and souls, too) were reduced to human possessions for an entity that cared nothing about them. Everything in me told me that for a seeking force to reduce humans to such a state was not right. Man was not meant to fill such a role. But this is where my changing began, and I knew that I wasn’t meant to be a faceless killing machine who would be discarded like a broken machine once injured or past his prime; I was more of a reluctant, introverted poet who had begun to see life a bit differently than most of the folks I was surrounded by, especially in that environment.

Over the course of the last 23 years, so much has happened. I have gone through some extraordinary things, some of which probably should have ended my life, but fortunately my soulmate whom the universe sent to me shortly after I turned 18 has been much of my guidance and strength.

When and where did my awakening really snowball? Well, in the late 90’s I was informed about “chemtrails,” which I strongly opposed due to an unconscious fear I had about them. I thought this idea that planes were spraying overhead was absolutely ludicrous, but the seed was planted nonetheless. And then there was 9/11, and most of us know how that “event” impacted us over the coming years. From that point on, it was authors and topics and rabbit holes galore. String theory, interdimensional concepts, parallel universes, the ruling elite families, secret societies, forbidden archaeology and hidden history, and the many etymological, philological, and symbolic distortions abound. Of course, I have two amazing brothers who’ve become teammates on this journey as well, and that has helped tremendously. We are a threefold cord that cannot be broken.

Over the course of the last eight years is when my awakening has really made itself known to me. No, I haven’t had an overnight kundalini rising, nor have I necessarily seen a morphic field. For me it’s been more of a hunger for truth and a daily process of learning to listen and sense the inner knowing/intuitive process–truly a growth of seeing and sensing without the physical eyes. For me, this process of awakening is more like an enlivening. It’s the knowing that there’s always, always, always much more around every corner or under every proverbial stone. But the greatest contributing factor that this process has given me is an awareness that we are all one, and our world is currently indoctrinated to believe we are separate entities totally detached from every other lifeform. We are blinded by ego and secretly attacked by wetiko. For it is this epiphany and warning regarding the ego (wetiko) that currently fuels my drive to communicate to others.
This story continues, and I’m glad to say that I’m not alone, for there are many others who are in this reality, and everyday more are added to our ranks. Are you ready for it? Are you ready for an eye opening experience that never ceases? Whether you are or not, it’s inevitable to occur. Even if it’s a part of your last breath. So, why not make it a part of your life.