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For 2017 I chose Reconnect as my word of intention. I have to give myself a failing grade on that one. I never once got together with my old high school friend, I missed getting several birthday cards in the mail, I’m not even sure if I sent my grandmother a birthday card. Sigh 😦 I am going to attempt this again this year. No reason to give up because I’ve chosen a new focus for the new year.

In 2018 I am going to focus on Soft. It is a term that I come across a lot lately. Someone I follow on fb even teaches a course by that name. For me it is embracing my femininity. There is always a time and a place but I believe that we don’t always have to be “hard” to compete with a man. I think feminine qualities are needed in daily life for balance.

I decided on this word yesterday. Daddy was getting grumpy as the end of our vacation time is quickly approaching. I was pissed that he was getting that way and I wanted to go off on him. Fortunately I like to think before I speak and Soft popped into my head. So I took him by the hand and brought him in the bedroom and had him lay down with his head in my lap. I stroked his head and put another hand in his shirt so I could touch his skin. “I can’t do this for the next three days.” I said in a calm tone. We talked a little and it didn’t totally change his mood but it softened his energy.

It is easiest to embrace the soft parts of me with Daddy but I am curious to see how I can use it in other relationships.

Text conversation that happened pre-Christmas.
D: “What do you think about a yoga trapeze?”
Me: “I think a sex swing would be put to better use.”
D: “I am being serious. I would like to decompress my spine. There are also leg stretching exercises.”

I WAS being serious. 😉 He sent photos of the trapeze and exercise poster that goes with it.

That night when I got home in addition to a new ceiling fan there was also a large eye hook in the ceiling. The trapeze had not been purchased yet.

A few days later this conversation took place in my room.
Kid2: “Yeah kid3 pointed that out.” (pointing to the hook)
me: “What is that?” (feigning shock)
Kid2: “Yeah we know it’s for your sex swing. Gross”

Daddy was a bit embarrassed when I replayed that conversation.
D: “Sex swing?! No it’s for a yoga trapeze.”

On Christmas day after gifts with the kids we retreated to the bedroom where I got to open naughty presents from Daddy. The big one was a sex swing. 😉