On Monday night's episode of MTV’s “Teen Mom OG,” the 25-year-old reality TV star, along with cast-mates Amber Portwood and Catelynn Baltierra, traveled to Puerto Rico with their beaus. However, what should have been a celebration for Baltierra’s 25th birthday turned out to be a reflective experience during a tropical getaway.

When Baltierra asked whether anyone close to Edward has “talked to him about going to a treatment center,” Bookout responded that, “[Ryan] would do it. It’s everyone else around him that’s too afraid to admit it.”

“What I’m saying is that everyone else around him is too afraid of what it will look like more than his health,” she added. “Absolutely, it’s all denial. They all know. Honestly, the hardest thing is for me to see Ryan not love himself because he is a person worth loving. He deserves to love himself.”

Bookout then broke down in tears and revealed her fear of Edwards dying.

“I’m just sick of cleaning up his mess,” she said. “I get tired of dealing with the s---t. Just being the only one that f---ing sees everything and cares. I talk to [my husband] Taylor about it like, ‘I wonder if today’s going to be the day that Ryan does something that he can’t come back from?’”

Bookout later announced that she was planning to tell Edwards that he needs to attend rehab.

“Right now is legitimately about saving his life,” later said Bookout to her husband. “Most nights I’m crying in our bed talking to you about whether or not today is the day that he’s going to die or when I’m going to do something about it or how I should do something about it.”