Bald!

Bald!

I am not sure if it’s the lack of sleep, stress levels, or what. But, I am losing it. I just wanna scream. I feel like going bald, oh wait, I am!! *sigh* This is all driving me insane. My life is falling apart at the seams. Cigarettes seem like a necessity now just to keep my stress level down and keep me going day to day, to keep me from losing it even more and possibly being really stupid about it.

I don’t know even it’s the holiday season, the whole single mom thing, or what. But, I am finally wearing thin. I am to the point where I don’t care what you think any more. I might love you and you might be my best friend, but if I’ve made mistakes and you can’t forgive me than forget it.

I am sick of idiots. I work with them. I provide service for them. I’ve dated them. But, I am done. I’ve taken it so far. But, I can’t do it any more. I lucky don’t live with any. And my family (who counts) aren’t idiots. My friends are idiots. I have a couple, but it’s ok. I am just done with the aceholes!

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3 thoughts on “Bald!”

I don’t know what your schedule is like, and I know single mommyhood is the hardest job in the world, but maybe you could find a “healthy” stress reliever….like seeing if there’s a mall-walking group who take their kiddos in their strollers and walk around the mall to get some exercise and de-stress without having to worry about daycare.

Also see if there are any small groups/bible studies with single parents/young adults/etc. That’s probably the hardest because you’re still taking the risk of invovling “not so smart” people, but it is so necessary to have others in similar situations of life that you are, who can give you Godly advice…not just lipservice of what they want to the truth to be, but what the truth actually is. I found that out the hard way. If you can’t find any, think about hosting one yourself. You wouldn’t have to teach it, but have it at your place if you have room (and if it’s just starting there probably wouldn’t be many people anyway).

And I fully, fully support you in walking away from people who can’t move past things. It’s good to have a few people you trust in your life who can tell you that things are ok or not, but ultimately you have to decide for yourself and live with yourself, so you GO.