Saturday, 4 October 2014

In Time

Time is a funny thing. Humans created it as a way of keeping track of our lives, so we were prompt and knew what we were doing. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, years, centuries, millenniums - all a human bred concept. We all hear that phrase every day almost, "I don't have enough time." Yes, you do actually. Time is the most important thing that you could ever give somebody. Parts of your life that you could never get back.

We live in the present; not the past or the future. What once was, will never be the same. That's the funny thing about time, it's always changing and growing - much like the person I want to be. Time can be selfish and greedy, taking things away from you when you didn't expect it. When we're asleep and our eyelids first flutter open, our world starts again. But in reality, it never stopped. We just gained consciousness, and were present in time, not just our bodies because our noisy minds needed a break from when we were awake.

I have realised, that time shouldn't be wasted. You can say to yourself, "I'll just do that another day." If you are capable of doing that thing you pushed aside, do it today. Do it before a list of things that you wish you had done comes piling up to your eyelids and you can't do it anymore. Time has a funny way of working. It can decide that a person's time here on earth is up, due to circumstance. Value your time with someone, even if you see them everyday. Find the beauty in the cracks of imperfection in someone, or the colour that the sun makes the sidewalk at 8am. We don't always need to be so literal, and have to understand everything going on in our lives, we don't always have to be completely aware of the changes that makes us grow. Isn't it beautiful, when you get lost in doing something you love, and the time has gone so quickly? We weren't counting down the minutes, waiting for something else, but enjoying what we had at that particular moment, in time.

I see the things that other people wouldn't normally see. I feel everyone's pain, and the things they don't necessarily need to say. Getting older, it's scary but I only have one shot at this life. I've read so many books, seen so many movies, been taught so many things, and I've felt things that I couldn't pinpoint with a particular emotion. Time does that to you. There are certain things in this world that school or a lesson can't tell you. The thing that we don't understand is that there is so much more out there in this world than we could ever even attempt to understand. Someone you never thought existed, you meet and they change your life forever. The things you do and the choices you make, change every bit of your life.

Time with people you love, is precious. Seeing them every day shouldn't change that. Just because we get used to having people around, doesn't mean that they could be here forever. That's why I never intend to leave someone feeling like I don't care, or produce hatefulness towards them, because what if someone that was dear to you, that you hadn't spoken to for a while because of a petty rift in your friendship/relationship with them, and they were to suddenly die? To leave earth's atmosphere with the malice of what you said to them on their mind. What if that was the last thing you said to them?

Even when we take a deep breath as a human, little jagged pieces of life cut into our throat. Problems that we haven't faced, or have to face every day can set our world spinning in a motion that we can't control, makes it hard to stay as a human. Always busy, never not doing something. Life is beautiful. WE don't understand that sometimes. We abuse it constantly everyday, taking for granted that we are here on this earth, present in no matter what body or mindset, we are here. Without understanding the depth of how we live. Certain emotions can cloud our judgement and enforce brutality upon our actions, because we failed to see the bigger picture. Time is this hidden creature. It is what keeps everything from happening at once. In time, something will click within you, it doesn't matter what it is but it will make you want to get up and do something you were meaning to do, intending to do but didn't.

To stop the bickering pain that seeps into you when you want to feel sun-happy, is to merely embrace it. No matter how hard it is to deal with emotional pain, it shapes us and that is how we grow. Loss is always going to be apart of our lives. Just like rain will always fall, or a metal toy left out in the rain will go rusty. No matter how much you don't like the loss of something, or someone, it is going to walk your way at several times in your life. Learn to embrace it and get closure. Time will do this.

"There is never time for anything. If you want it, you must make it."

A dear friend sent me this quote:"Try imagine a life without timekeeping. You probably can't. You know the month, the year, the date of the week. There is a clock on your wall or the dashboard of your car. You have a schedule, a calendar, a time for dinner or a movie. Yet all round you, timekeeping is ignored. Birds are not late. A dog does not check its watch. Deer do not fret over passing birthdays.

Man alone measures time.Man alone chimes the hour.And, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other species does.The fear of time running out."