23 August 2012

Of Eid Mubarak .

Selamat Hari Raya to all !

Wahhh it has been 4 days but i wished you guys just now! Fewhh , it is due to my busy-ness with alonk's wedding . Speaking of that , we just had this year's raya ala kadar and our family potret still not been taken yet ! -.- . And we were not balik kampung or going to visit other relatives JUST YET . I guess after the weding we are free to go RAyaaa!~ After all , they said , darah pengantin itu darah manis . Sooo , prevention is better than cure . You know what i mean :)

Le cuzzies. The only family photo for now -.-"

Okey , so , we have this Cleaning Day , where we have to kemas2 rumah ,. I mean THE WHOLE HOUSE . Big changes are bound to happen ! Our 24-years-old desk is being remove to make space for the room :( .And so many ! Wahh . I cant belive this moment is actually happen to me nowwwww ._. .

the things i found that once my childhood;s hobbies :')

Have i ever told you that , ever since i heard that alonk is gonna marry this year , it gives me all-shiver ? Hahaha , yeah yeah , macam aku yang nak kawen kan ? But what i meant is , because it just feels like im losing herrrrr . Somebody is taking her fromm usssss . Soo saaaddd T__T. Or maybe i feel this way because we are all like hanging and clinging to her , especially me . Because i am the second child , and next to her is me so ill feel the greatest burden when she's not here . And im honestly not ready yett T_T . Actually this kind of thinking that make me so hype up to cook and all before Ramadhan . Remember the time when i have Masum training n i still come back home to do the chores ? Yes , THIS is the reason. To prepare myself. Ahaaa . Surprise much ? But after masum ended and during Ramadhan , i became the person i was before - all cluless and unreliable :'( . Waahahah , i dont know how to put this . Im just worried of how im going to face the future because if Alonk is here, she will put up with major responsbilities and shes the one whos gonna listen my craps if i had fight with mummy . Whos gonna calm me down after this ? Whos gonnaa give me thoughts on what to think and behave ? I know she still can do all those things i mention above , but now she has a new responsbility ! Kirenya my problem will be just as tiny as ants , and the range would be 1-4 . It should be 8 or higher bro (HIMYM) ,. Hahahahaha -.-".

me and Alonk

So , i have this some kind of pressure right now . Even before the wedding ! Gosh ! Am i being too hard with myself ? Am i overthinking ? Zzzzz. One thing for sure , the Most pressurized me in the wholee universe is when they will compare me with Alonk in many terms , especially the cooking part ! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! I CANNOT LIVE LIKE THIS ! I HATE BEING COMPAREDDD ! WHY DONT YOU JUST LET ME DO MY OWN WAYYYY ?! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! * Gasp*