For the longest time I have wanted to take to the stage. I adore the theatre, comedy shows and seminars and every time I go I get this bubbly feeling in my stomach that just wants to run to the stage.

I decided I wanted to bring my blog to life. I wanted to talk and discuss all the topics I post about so frequently because they mean so much to me and maybe, just maybe I would be able to help someone that little bit more. Despite wanting to take to the stage I didn’t want it to all be about me and I certainly didn’t want to profit from other people’s generosity.

My reality was I couldn’t run the event for free but I also wanted to make a difference where I could so I decided to run the event to raise money for charity.

Choosing the charity was an easy decision when I decided where I wanted to support. There are thousands of charities that support people every single day and do some incredible things around the world and I considered so many that I have either done stuff for in the past or have been effected by but after thinking about what the event was all about and what I talk about day in and day out on my blog it seemed the right thing to do to choose a Mental Health Charity – especially one who’s services I have used myself.

A few years ago on New Years eve I was home alone. Sophia was with family as I had plans to go out which didn’t go ahead and at the last minute and after an argument with the other half I saw myself going into the new year alone.

Now this might seem so ridiculous to some because they are happy in their own company but I wasn’t. I let my thoughts of being alone snowball into telling myself this is what I deserved, this is what my life would always be like.

My thoughts got out of control, they got deeper and darker til I was out of my mind. The closer it got to midnight the worse I felt.

I always use the phrase ‘start as you mean to go on’ and always believe in spending the new year doing something positive like celebrating or being with loved ones. I was doing neither at that moment.

Thoughts escalated. I got deeper into despair and my thoughts got worse and worse. I started frantically calling people in my phone book and no one would answer – I mean why would they! Everyone was out…this went on for hours and hours until this tiny thought trickled into my head…’No one will care if your gone’
I told myself it over and over and I mean, the reality of what was happening right now was the evidence I needed.
I tried to fight against the thoughts but I was so weak. I was low and the snowball got bigger and bigger and bigger. Before I did anything I picked up my phone and text my other half ‘sorry’ then I went to google.

It was like my mind was pouring into my fingers and I started typing…I pressed search before I knew it and the first website link that came up was MIND.

I had searched ‘I need help I am loosing my mind’

I clicked on the link and started reading the webpage. ‘Your not alone’ ‘talk’ ‘support’ were words that started filling my brain and I started to breathe slower, I started to pay more attention and I realised maybe, just maybe, I’m not the only one who feels this way.
I started reading, the about us, the info and support details and there was a big flashing sign saying ‘need urgent help now’.

The more I read the calmer I felt over time and I must of eventually fallen asleep. I woke up the next morning and I was so grateful I had.

I may have only come across a website which to some are Just words on the internet but MIND do incredible work for people who suffer with mental health and their website came to me just at the right time.

It wasn’t patronising or difficult to digest. It told me I was ok, I wasn’t alone and it told me there was always someone there if I needed them. Things I was doubting constantly.

There was a HUGE section on information about every type of mental health, daily tips on how to survive and support groups and helplines. Everything I needed was there at the click of a button.

It’s constantly in the media that the government are making cut backs to the mental health support in the NHS, the shortage of nurses, the long waiting lists, it is worrying. Which makes it all more important we support charities like MIND who are trying to do what they can to give people the help that they need. These charities NEED our fundraising to keep them fighting the fight. The world needs them, people need them, I need them.

Doing these events and being given the opportunity to raise money for them is an absolute honour. I’m not expecting to raise millions of pounds, dam I wish I could, but anything I can raise will be incredible. I want to be able to fund more of the amazing work that they do every single day.

So if you can come to London or Manchester please do! Come to the event and listen more about my journey and some other incredible inspiring women!

I am a phone addict. There is no denying it. I am on my phone ALL the time, whether its for work, blogging, giving advice and responding to messages, googling how to cure a hangover and cope with a 4 year old or just simply watching 176,986,556 you tube videos. Unfortunately my daughter at the tender age of 4 has become exactly the same!

If you have spent the 10 years in the western world there is no doubt your life has predominately been computer orientated. From homework to TV, video games and mobile phones – our faces have been planted on screens for the last decade and I am sure with the developments in tech it will only get worse.

A few weeks ago I was asked to attend an evening about a new product being launched. I kind of had an idea what it was about as it had been explained to me by one of the creators prior but I wanted to see it in action and get an idea of what it was truly about. Apparently it was going to help me cure my addiction!

I am always dubious with events and product launches as I always imagine the creators are these uber smart, complex, business mad Alan Sugar types who are just pushing products to get even more rich. When I met Calvin, George and Ed I realised they were nothing like I imagined (don’t get me wrong they were uber smart) but they were regular men. They were fathers, they were husbands, they were pub goers (my fave kinda people) but ultimately they just wanted to make a positive change in peoples lives.

They have spent so long developing this amazing product because they have been affected with the same screen addiction as me and they finally wanted to get away from the screen. They wanted to #bepresent because they needed to feel #thehumanconnection and understand what it meant to them again.

TOME is a beautiful, sleek and dare I say it, sexy product. It is something that I think it needed not only in homes but board rooms, dinner tables, weddings, CHURCH – I mean anywhere you go to connect with other people there needs to be a TOME.

The concept of TOME is to (in the most basic sense) lock your screens away for a set period of time to allow you to be in the moment. Completely. Not a little bit (checking your phone every so often) but completely in the moment; and if I am honest – apart from my recent wedding where I didn’t have my phone with me, being in “the moment” is something I haven’t been in for a long time.

I am not sure because I use my phone for my blog that I am on it more than others, wanting to capture a moment not because of how wonderful it is but because it looks great on Instagram, but I know I am certainly on it far too much and I am not the only one. I have tried leaving it upstairs, turning it off, putting it away or just leaving it at home (haven’t managed this one yet) but just trying to be away from it and bloody hell, IT IS HARD. It often can feel like your whole life is in your phone – I am sure I have even said that out loud before when worried I might loose it.

But its not is it? I have lost or broken several phones over the years and yes the initial panic is scary and I worry how I will function but of course…I do. We do, don’t we? Because they may play a huge part in how we function day to day and manage our lives but they are just a tool. Simply a tool.

The internet is a great place and I am fortunate I have made so many fabulous friends on it, It has given me the platform to talk freely about my self love journey and inspire others but I have also had my fair share of negativity on there too.

TOME for me is about reconnecting. It is about having the ability to truly #bepresent with my family and friends and learn to disconnect from the digital world even if it is temporary. It is about remembering that life goes on even if the digital world stops just for a moment. It is about allowing myself that time to be grounded, understand the core of who I am and refresh my mind before I dive back into “Best winged liner” videos.

Price wise TOME is reasonable. I will be honest at first I wondered if it was “worth it” and considered really if it was something I would use. Then I remembered all of the above and realised that you cant put a price on being connected, you cant put a price on love and you certainly cant put a price on time.

Discover TOME. Find out more. Order yourself one and ask yourself what does TOME mean to you?

Part 2 of my Guest Speaker Annoucement…so much for waiting a week I am just far too excited!

Joining us in Manchester is
Jessica Millichamp – @jessontheplussize

I came across Jess on Instagram a while back and instantly I wanted her to be my personal stylist. (Her clothes are insaneeee)

I was just in awe of her style, her confidence and her all round fabulousness.

Looking back at her posts and I was literally obsessed with her wardrobe! Seriously, she is breaking down all kinds of barriers when it comes to plus size fashion and is the epitome of stylish. She rocks various looks, styles and bright colours showing every single woman out there that fashion truly is an art. Oh and did I mention this girl does THE most incredible make up too! #goals

I followed her a while and clearly she was body positive and encouraging people with every single post. One day she posted a picture of her and her husband and explained someone had made some negative comments. She told the story about how it made her feel and how she had turned her life around and with that I was sliding all up in her DM’s with tears rolling down my face singing her praises and telling her just how incredible she is…then BOOM!! I had a brainwave… Jess needed to be at #MyfatfunnyjourneyManchester .

She needed a platform to share her story so people could be as moved and inspired by her as I was. I mean you can never have too many Jess’ in one place right! 😂💁🏽💁🏼 I asked her and I was absolutely elated when she agreed to make the journey across to Manchester to be apart of the day.

Jess has recently launched a hashtag #mybeautifulbody encouraging women of all shapes and sizes to embrace their bodies, to shout about how amazing they are and for us to come together and support each other. She’s truly an advocate for self love and she is a perfect addition to the stage in Manchester.

As all the other guest speakers I asked Jess to write a little bit about herself and here is what she said.

‘I’m Jess, a geordie lass, full of beans and all the good vibes! For most of my life I have hated so many things about my body and never thought I was worthy of love.

There are many things along the way that have helped me change my attitude and become the bold, brave, beautiful woman that I am. I can’t wait to share my story with all of you lovely lot in the hope that I can inspire you on your own journeys of self love. Be warned, laughter is my medicine and I plan on giving you a big dose of the LOLs.’

To grab your tickets to meet Jess with me at Manchester on Sunday 15th October for some serious girl power and fashion tips click here

Probably the MOST random title for this blog post but I promise you it will make sense.

When I originally set up my events I didn’t want to be the only one speaking simply because not everyone was going to be able to relate to me because I haven’t experienced everything! I wanted people to attend to have someone they could listen too whilst nodding their head in agreement so I decided I wanted other speakers to come too. People who inspire me all the time and ones who I admire.

It took me all of 2 seconds to work out who I wanted to ask because sometimes there is just something about someone that draws you to them and these people are exactly that for me.
Over the next 6 weeks I will be sharing the details of every speaker/panellist and how I connected with them. I cannot wait to share these stories with you and I absolutely cannot wait to share the stage with them.

So…to introduce my first speaker…here goes…

Kaya Cansfield – @kayacansfield

At the beginning of the year I posted a video on Facebook of me attending hands down the worse spin class ever, over 70,000 people watched me ranting about bike seat sore booty but cutting a very long story short my friend Fiona saw said video and popped me a message inviting me to another class and promised me it would change my life. She wasn’t wrong.

Kaya was the teacher at this class and that was our first connection. Click here to read the full review.

Kaya was incredible! She literally made me feel so liberated and so excited..and yes this was all whilst exercising!

The thing I noticed about Kaya was that even though I was excercising (my most favourite thing to do ever 😒) she had this infectious positivity and I could not stop smiling. I almost felt ovehelemed with emotion because she made me feel so incredible with every word that she said.

I left the class and didn’t get a chance to talk to her and was asking my friend if she knew much about her. She told me Kaya was amazing (I obviously knew that now!) and that she had overcome a lot to be the positive inspiring person she is.

I was desperate to know more about her and went home to frantically stalk Instagram so I could find her. I started talking to my husband about it and was going on and on about ‘this amazing instructor’ at Psycle London. Trevor (who was actually listening for once) said ‘I know a girl who works there! Her names Kaya’ …my face (you can imagine) was a mix between elated because now I had a chance of contacting her and then a little bit psycho wondering how the F*ck he knew her! 😂

It transpires that they went to school together! I mean seriously…WHAT ARE THE ODDS! They are friends on FB and with a friend request and a few messages later and I was connected to Kaya.

She is everything I imagined her to be and more and with every post I read and every message we sent it pressed on my heart that I needed to have her at this event. She is exactly my guests needed, she was exactly what I needed.

Words won’t describe how perfect this has turned out for me and the universe truly knew that myself and Kaya had to connect to deliver what we plan to at this event. I am truly honoured that Kaya has agreed to be apart of #MyFatFunnyJourney .

I asked Kaya to write a little bit about her for the event and again – she didn’t disappoint. Here is what Kaya had to say…

‘I’m ALL about the good vibes and am a big advocate for self love and self worth, I truly believe thats why I am here, to pass on what I have learnt through life and promote the importance of self love. The most important relationship we have is with ourselves so lets look inwards, not outwards, embrace who we are and our vulnerability and spread it like wildfire, together ❤’

To meet Kaya, listen to her incredible Journey, have an opportunity to ask her questions and be apart of #MyFatFunnyJourney London grab your tickets by clicking here

Now I am well aware that this isn’t how the saying normally goes but this seems more true to me. I have always been the emotional type and always take on board people’s ideas and opinions of me. I know you shouldn’t take on what people say all the time but it’s easier said than done! If someone tells me something I often believe what they say and then get it in my head that if THEY think it then surely others do too?

I am on a huge journey at the moment, learning about myself, my relationships and how I let people effect my life. Every day I find out something about myself I didn’t realise or I never knew at all! One of the most prominent to me is how I let people’s opinions determine my attitude, shape my perception of myself and more obviously my mood. For example, I recently ordered a dress online, now I am very aware that it won’t look on me how it does on the model because she looks like she hasn’t eaten all her life and I look like I just strolled out of an all you can eat. None the less, I have dressed my body for many years so aware of what should work and what wont. I ordered it, it came. I took a selfie (as you do) and I sent it to a friend. A friend who’s opinion I value highly. I had a choice of 2 dresses and simply asked which was better, neither was I a HUGE fan off and I stated that I hated both but I had to choose one.

NOW…I know I am not the only person who has done this or something similar, whether it’s your hair, outfit or sofa! As humans we often seek out on a second (or third or fourth) opinion so we can confirm how we feel about something or so we can simply have someone tell us because we just can’t decide! Now when you ask for someone’s honest opinion you have to be prepared for any answer they give but there is some level of trust between people that the answer will no doubt be what you want to hear or you have an idea of what they are going to say. This wasn’t the case for me, at all.

Now equally as prepared as you have to be for not hearing what you want the person giving you that opinion has also got to be open enough to know you may not like what you hear! I was upset at what they had said, I didn’t understand and I was disappointed because they pointed things out to me that I actually hadn’t considered! After my phone call I spent 10 minutes crying and then 45 minutes searching for an alternative dress, I had the worst night’s sleep worrying that if they thought this then surely others do! Then I realised, I have just wasted almost 10 hours of my life and a night of sleep because of what someone else thought. Collectively how long have we wasted worrying or concerned over what other people have said, done or think?

I find it silly when people say “other people’s opinions don’t matter at all” because realistically how true is that? If your boss doesn’t think you’re good at your job then that’s a problem! If you’re a comedian and your audience don’t find you funny they won’t come to your shows, if you’re a singer and no one likes your music no one will listen to it! If you’re a designer and no one likes your clothes then no one will buy them! People’s opinions DO matter BUT it’s how you deal with them that determine who you are.

So your boss doesn’t think your good at your job, you work harder, you think differently you take a new approach OR you stick your two fingers up and find another job! (I only really advise option1). So for me, I am not going to run to the nearest gym so this dress looks “better” or buy a completely new dress. I am simply going to change my way of thinking.

It also made me think about times I have said something not so nice or too harsh to a friend. Did I consider how they would feel? How the information or opinion I was providing would affect them? Sometimes it’s not what you say it’s how you say it! I can honestly say I haven’t always been nice and sometimes I don’t always watch what I say or how I say it, did this then make me a hypocrite?

I read somewhere recently that you must let the words that pass through your lips go through three gates; is it true? Is it necessary? Is it kind? I am going to try to live by this mantra and learn to understand the value of what I say and that you may not think what you say is important but you have no idea how deeply your words can effect someone else.

Learn to understand that people will always have their opinion on you, whether it’s positive or not but you must learn to take what you need from the information given and then move on. Move on with self-worth and understanding that what you think, you will become. So if someone tells you, you are no good and you take on what they say you will become exactly that because you will spend your time justifying what they said about you rather than questioning what they said.

Do I think my friend was telling the truth, I don’t know. Do I think it was necessary, no? Was it kind? Well, that depends on the intention and that I am unsure of! When you say something to someone, consider why you are saying it. What is your intention by giving someone this piece of information? If it is not to empower, encourage or help then there is no reason for you to say it at all. Be selfless in the giving of information and your opinion, don’t do it for your own gain.

For me, I am going to watch what I say more carefully and question myself when I am about to tell someone what I think. I will learn not to seek others approval and do things more for myself, regardless of what they think (unless it’s my boss). I will learn to love myself enough to value my thoughts and opinions over someone else’s. I will be honest, kind, thoughtful and considerate. I will try and be and do what I would like from others.

So the next time you speak to someone or you’re going to say something, ask yourself!

Soooo I am NO fashion blogger but my self love journey has allowed me to make fashion choices I would never have before! It has allowed me to have so much freedom and ‘play’ with clothes and fashion styles that I would always have dismissed, claiming they were for ‘beautiful slim people only’.
So my new found love for clothes (much to the despair of my credit card) has given me a new lease of life and I have started sharing little things here and there but wanted to actually do a full blown haul!
A proper haul – check me out!
Anywho I have categorised them sort of incase you want to skip some and look for something in particular! Not too many items though as I tried a few pieces on that I will be exchanging for different sizing etc or just looked ridiculous!

One thing I will point out is sizing! I have a massive range of sizing in items here from 12-20! I can’t stress enough how much the number on a tag means nothing! Size seriously doesn’t matter so please don’t worry about that! For me it was all about getting the right fit and that’s all that matters.
So here is my little mini Primark haul! Work

As many of you know I am starting a new job tomorrow morning and wanted to just get a few new work bits to freshen up my work wardrobe (and make 5am starts worth getting up for).

Navy V neck blouse – £6 / Size 18

I really love this blouse! It isn’t stretchy hence why I got an 18 because I wanted the girls to have room to breathe! The V neck detail is perfect as it isn’t too low where I will worry about hoisting my top up all day in a bid to not scare my new colleagues with a flash of boob! It has little fold over cap sleeve which is nice too!

Length is great – I am 5.1 so on anyone else it will be on hips but it’s a bit longer in me (as you can see).

All in all a great all round blouse – don’t worry I will remember trousers when I wear them to work!

Ivory T shirt blouse – £10 / size 16

I literally look like I’m pooing in this pic – I’m not but I wanted to get the sleeve detail in and the pocket and between that and being rubbish at this fashion stuff my pic ended up like the above!
Really nice blouse with fabric that Has a little more give hence the size down. I love the detail on the sleeves and the pocket and the colour is lovely too! Too white for me = make up stains in the first 2 minutes so this ivory/cream is perfect.
Black sheer sleeveless blouse – £8 / size 16

I love this blouse and the fact although it’s sheer across the boob etc it’s jet black so you can’t see through!

Sleeveless is something I don’t normally do at work but I really love this simple easy style. Size 16 which is fine but I could of gone a size up to ensure it slipped on especially over my hip as it’s a little longer than the average blouse.

Brown wide fit shoes – £8 / Size 4

Pretty self explanatory! I had wide feet so I love that primark so wide foot shoes!

I always think there shoes are great value altho after 6-12 months I always think they stink a bit and end up with a new pair but for the price I don’t mind so much! Love the buckle detail on these too!
Lunch box/Snack bag – £1

Probably one of the most important purchases for me. I mean it’s lunch soooo it’s high on my list of priorities!

They had some incredible ones including Disney ones, trolls, belle and so many other patterns! Holiday

Miami print swimsuit – £4 / size 14

For £4 I literally couldn’t leave it. Fab price for a swimsuit and the fit is lush.

I always size down in swimsuits so it’s tight enough to hold up the girls – don’t want to be tripping up round the pool!

It’s a really low scoop back but really comfortable and actually really great support.

Palm tree print swimsuit – £4 / Size 14

The colour of this swimsuit is AMAZING! Really beautiful – it was Sophia who picked it out for me and I am super glad she did. I was going to choose between the two swimsuits but at £4 each I just threw them both in.

Pizza LILO – £10

Do I even need to explain?

There are no words to describe the excitement about lying on this on holiday! *pics pending*

Blue print dress – £6 / Size 20

I massively sized up on this but I wanted it to be baggy! It has a draw string around the waist so I could tighten it accordingly as I have in the pic.

It has cut out shoulders and a little drill detail at the end which I really love.

Very light fabric almost like a Kaftan but not sheer (and was in the dress section)

Will pair with som wedges on holiday and dress up for dinner in the evening. Other random shitty bits from the till

I am the worst for picking these little bits up! And today was no different!
Teeth products (pricing on individual items in pic)

Tooth brushes and paste are pretty self explanatory! I needed some for hols so purchased them…

The coconut pulling? That was a ridiculous impulsive ‘I’ve seen it on YouTube’ purchase!

I will attempt it – I don’t have much hope and will no doubt do it once but at least I can say I tried right?

Meal planner board – £5

I LOVE this! They had a choice of two patterns – this and another that had swirls on but Sophia chose the watermelons (I taught her right)

I plan meals and not for weight loss but for saving money and keeping organised! When I do online shopping I try and stick to a rough idea of meals and check prior what we have in the cupboards so I don’t overspend (like the traumatising £88 in Lidl)

With my 5am starts for my new job I wanted to make sure that I have everything I can in place to keep me on top of everything! Plus who can resist watermelon print on anything!

More random stuff by the till – prices on items

Did I need these? NO.

Will I return them? NO.

My sister said ‘the bigger the hoop the bigger the hoe’ so maybe I should exchange them for some bigger ones aye 😩😩😂😂
I love liquid liner – can’t wing it for shit but might as well give it a go! I often find the cheaper products like this do actually turn out to be the best so I’m hoping this is too!

That’s everything! I got a few treats for Sophia and some socks for Trevor (so he doesnt moan about how much I spent) and that was that!
Hope that was helpful and you find some items you may even want to purchase yourself! If you do get any of the above let me know and tag me in all the pics on social media!

Thanks for stopping by x

The Fat Funny One x

P.S – Can you do a weekly shop in primark like in tesco? Is that acceptable?

As a full time working mum fashion isn’t really high on my priority list, I mean checking something matches and is clean is normally my go to. Who am I kidding. It doesn’t even have to match and what is febreeze for right?
Becoming a mother isn’t really an excuse because I have never really been one to know what goes with what or what looks good! I mean I can dress myself (just about) but style has never been my ‘thing’ so I made myself a news years resolution that I would make more effort and learn more about my body so I could dress it accordingly. However, I made this resolution about 6 years in a row.
I quickly learnt it didn’t really matter what I wore but I needed to love my body enough so when I dressed it, it meant something. When I put it all together I started to take more interest about what suited my shape, what made me feel wonderful and what looked great!
Shopping isn’t easy when your height of a smurf, have a chest the size of Jessica rabbit and you have more rolls than a greggs baker and when shopping I found the majority of the high street stores most of my friends shopped at only really went up to a size 16 but when trying the items on I began to question if they mean age 16 because no voluptuous woman I knew could squeeze all their fluff into these jeans! So I was more thankful a year or so ago when in my local shopping mall I walked past a ‘yours clothing’ store
Historically ‘plus size’ clothing stores have always had the same ‘shape’ clothes inside, all of dark colours and quite frankly haven’t ever really been ‘sexy’ but Yours was nothing like this.
I walked in and it was filled with bright colours, sparkley tops and I didn’t have to look right at the back of the rack for the last size 16 that was floating (that normally turned out to be a 12 on the wrong hanger)
Hoorrahhh! I finally found somewhere I could get lovely clothes (that were clean and matched), stylish, at reasonable prices and that fit my body type and didn’t make me feel like I had to dress in black baggy clothes because I didn’t fit the ‘Norm’
I more recently started shopping online and much to my delight they have a lingerie section, shoes, accessories and loads of other fab brands with amazing curve hugging clothes.
The lingerie section is all I could want! I’m a ‘5 pack’ kinda girl…(comfort is my priority and if your knickers don’t come up to your bra are you really wearing knickers?) but also for the occasions when I am feeling far more sexy they had some fabulous baby dolls and sexy sets all in plus sizes. They have a great choice of colours too..bye bye beige bra and hello hot pink! I mean big girls love bright colours too you know!
I’m a short one (5’1 to be precise) with size 4 wide feet so shoes are another thing that are a little irritating to buy. I was happy with the selection on their website which had a range of wide fit with varying widths which made it even easier buying without having to worry I was going to have to squeeze my tootsies in shoes that only barbie could wear.
They have a variety of other great brands available on their website too including chi chi London who do the most gorgeous dresses! Scarlett & Jo, AX Paris curve and Voodoo Vixen. It was nice to be able to scroll through and see a variety of styles for a variety of different tastes and fashion preferences.
Now being the novice fashionista I am I was really impressed with the ‘what’s hot’ tab which had tips like finding your perfect jeans, dressing for comfort & style (obvs clicked here first) and even a preview of the next seasons trends.
All in all I am really enjoying Yours clothing as a brand. In my opinion, it is a great option for ladies size 14+ whether your looking for a party dress, work clothes, just every day casual or like me at the moment …some honeymoon undies!!!! *insert wink emoji here lol*
I often feel intimidated by other popular high street brands where I kinda don’t know where I start with outfits, the models don’t give me a true indication of what the clothes might look like as the are not really ‘plus size’ and everything almost seems like you need a degree in fashion to work out how to put it on! It often makes me feel a bit put off when I just want nice, stylish, simple outfits that I can put together myself and feel great wearing.
So any brand that has models true to size, has high street stores as well as online and sells 5 packs of big girl knickers alongside a lacy baby doll is defo a brand that gets my custom.