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INFINITE JEST WITHOUT THE ENDNOTES IS LIKE READING A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT NOVEL. THE EXPERIENCE I HAD WHEN I FIRST READ INFINITE JEST WAS UNLIKE THE EXPERIENCES I HAVE HAD SINCE GOING BACK AND RE-READING PASSAGES AND ENDNOTES OVER AGAIN. IT WAS LIKE WATCHING A SOAP OPERA OR REALITY TELEVISION, EXCEPT IT WASN’T ANYTHING LIKE THAT BECAUSE WHAT I EXPERIENCED WAS LIKE READING NONFICTION. THE CHARACTERS FORMED CONCEPTS THAT WERE CONDENSED INTO TINY PARTICLES THAT MADE UP PERCENTAGES OF THE HUMAN BRAIN. I STARTED SEEING MY REFLECTION IN THE MIRROR OF THE WORLD THAT I CREATED, THANKS TO DAVID FOSTER WALLACE, AND THEN MY LIFE STARTED FILLING IN THE BLANKS AND I BEGAN TO FEEL WHAT IT WAS LIKE TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IT MEANT TO BE A HUMAN BEING.
I felt like I had a conversation with David Foster Wallace, and this conversation included us talking about our life experiences and ourselves. The love that you have for your fellow human beings grows so much that you completely forget about yourself and you accept all that has happened in your life because you understand that somewhere else in the world, someone has it worse then you do. You feel this love inside of you that isn’t expressed on the outside, and I can only describe it as this silent awareness of everything in life, and this world that you are in is unbiased and thoughtful. I’m sure to the people who did not experience my experience I probably came off as some selfish prick who didn’t care about anyone but himself, when in fact I cared about everyone and not myself.
When I was like 11 or 12 I was playing with a bar of soap (dove soap) and I was acting like a child and I was like key look I love Dave and we thought it was so funny
And when I was younger like 9-14 I made movies
Cartridge tapes
Made them with their own covers and reviews
Watched them for my own satisfaction and even needed a master tape to put the smaller cartridge in
Kind of like a VHS cassette if the center where the title is was empty
And when I was 16 I used to tell stories of a sir Wallace of crumb no idea why I just thought it was funny
…. Dave Wallace 2 in the Pale King is from where? Tammy do you have an idea? Um. Kentucky? Sorry pal, I was looking for Philadelphia.