Some days in our relationship, there may be times that I just
feel like sitting down and crying. It seems that so many things have gone wrong, or are
going wrong, and I probably play reruns in my mind of many of the mistakes me and my SO
have made, and/or continue to make.
When such times come, it may help me to ask myself why all those mistakes
dont seem to bother me as much other times? When I have good days and happy moments,
it isnt because someones waved a magic wand and changed the past.
It might help me to compare crying to emptying a glass of water. Each time I
feel a little hurt, another drop gets added to the glass. Sometimes big drops get added.
Once there are enough drops, its only natural that the glass would begin to
overflow. Maybe I can find a better way. Instead of burying little hurts when they happen,
perhaps I can find ways of releasing them regularly, whether its by writing them
down in a private journal, talking to my SO or a friend about them, or some other way.
Just for Today
Today, Ill remind myself that both my partner and I are human beings,
and both of us will always make mistakes that will leave the other feeling raindrops of
hurt. Ill decide how I want to release those raindrops, whether through a bucketful
of tears when enough have collected, or before my "glass is full". Ill try
to remind myself that tears are a natural and healthy release, and that I dont have
to drown myself in them when they appear.