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"Why," you ask? Because we want profile pages to have freedom of customization, but also to have some consistency. This way, when anyone visits a deviant, they know they can always find the art in the top left, and personal info in the top right.

It never happenedNo possible way to breatheYour massive hands I lovedWhen they were inside meCaressing meYour massive handsPinched my nose shutPushed over my mouthBlack dots swirling in my visionThis is how I will dieI will die looking at youLooking at the face I loveThe face I stared intoWhen my hands gripped your hairWhen you were inside meMaking me screamMy screams cut off my breath cut offI love you mom I’m sorry I didn’t listen to youIt never happenedThe sound of bone snappingArm limp and twisted as it fell out ofYour graspThe grasp I craved around my hipsOn my breastsMy screamsThe flowersyou were sorrySo sorryIt will never happen againIt never happenedThe pillow over my faceThe kick down the stairsThe knife to my throatThe Russian rouletteI am okayIt never happened

"Look outside, the wilderness The wilderness is calling our names The blackest skies, the daunting stars The desert sun, melting our cold hearts If you feel like the spark has gone We just need a place where we can belong."

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Please discount the deviant i.d. above, as it was made in 2005. I haven't uploaded anything to deviantart since 2009. I am starting again on 10/04/14. Patience is needed because i might be a little rusty.

I had lost all drive, inspiration, and creativity because of my battle with drug addiction and alcoholism. I have not submitted anything since 2009. The addiction was my whole life, and I forgot about my passions. I lost my drive, inspiration, and dignity.

I have had two 90-120 day stints in rehab at Transformations Wellness Center, in Klamath Falls, Oregon. I graduated the first time, was kicked out 10 days away from graduation for non-compliance. This was in May of 2013. Since then there have been a lot of slip ups&full on relapses; but, I kept trying. Every time I tried again to be sober, I learned a little more. On 09/20/14 I committed myself fully to sobriety. I now have 46 days. That is the longest I have been sober (outside of a rehab center, it's easy to stay clean in there) since I was 19 years old. A decade.

My inspiration, my love of art, my love of writing down anything and everything that might make for a good project...it's all coming back.

I am awestruck. To have my creative drive back is an incredible thing.

Point is - I will be submitting more, even if i'm a little rusty at it. I will work on my art, design, or writing every day.

"There's a storm on the streetsbutyou still don't runwatching and waitingFor the rain to come

&these words wouldn't keep you dryor wipe tears from an open skybut I know but I knowbut I know I'm right