Monday, 13 August 2012

sometimes you get knocked down...

It is often, far too easy, to allow yourself to become engulfed in self pity. I know this because for the past month or so that is what I have allowed to happen. Instead of focusing on the good things in my life I allowed myself to be dragged into a world of hurt, pain and sorrow. I focused on all the things I had no control over and let the darkness eat away at my soul.

Life isn't meant to be easy. We are all blessed with fantastic lives and wonderful attitudes. Every now and then i think it is natural for us, as humans, to get sucked into the darkness of depression and stress. It is how you work to get yourself out of the darkness that counts.

I am glad that I can now see what it was doing to me. Taking me away for my friends, shutting down my writing and making me one unhappy person to be around. No is the time for change, time for me to pick myself back up and dust myself off. Most of all it is time for me to stop feeling sorry for myself and to be at peace with the things in my life that i can't change. You can not control what life throws at you, only what you do and how you do it.

I know it wont be easy, these last two years haven't been easy. But I am finally healthy (thank goodness) and my writing was going great. I hopefully don't have to go through any more blood tests (if i be good) and the only doctors I will see will be the ones who treat me for stuff like the common cold etc. And even though I know next year will be just as hard as this year I am ready to accept it and move forward, starting with me writing this blog and committing to getting positive and being happy and productive.

I have one story sitting at 18k waiting for me to get over my funk and write some more and I have a few more sitting at only a few thousand words also waiting to be finished.

Thank you guys for reading this! Taking the time to let me share with you a part of my life. It is a real blessing to have people who are willing and wanting to be apart of your life, even if it is only online!

5 comments:

Hi, Rebecca. I'm sorry to hear that things have been less than wonderful recently for you, but am so glad to hear that things seem to be looking up. There is a great community of writers out there in the world wide web that are nothing but supportive and encouraging. I'm glad you have found that to be true. I hope things continue to look up and wish you nothing but the best.*hugs*

Glad to hear you're back to your good self. Be kind to yourself Rebecca and know you are not alone in this battle called life. Think of all the fodder you must've gleaned from the past two years that you can inject into your writing ;) Take care - glad you're back.

Rebecca,I'm glad your attitude is turning around. We all have these hiccups when something happens in life to bring us down. Concentrate on all that you have and the little things that bring you joy. For me it could be something my kids do or say. A hug. Or simply watching them sleep. Other times, I pour my thoughts into reading or writing, bring myself to a different world, then things don't seem so bad when I come back to reality.

You guys are making me cry! I am so blessed to have such friggin amazing, awesome and talented friends like you guys! Thank you for always being here for me! May we one day meet and share a drink :D Love you guys to Bits!!!!Rebecca

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