Under Construction

How did the great Bette Davis know I would need her famous quote to describe Part 1 of our season finale? She was a warrior, and so am I. As I've been known to say before, "bring it on." I am ready as I ever will be.

Most of you knew it was coming. The season has been leading up to it, without me even wanting conflict. I didn't want it, nor do I want it now.

I have said to a lot of my close friends a saying that best fits my life right now is "I'm under construction." What I mean by that, is I'm rebuilding myself to be a stronger, independent business woman who simply wants to surround myself with people who love me and believe in me and will make me smile. I'm not where I'm going to be, nor am I who I was. "I'M UNDER CONSTRUCTION" says it all.

This season, I really tried to be nice and play nice, but sometimes no matter how hard you try, it doesn't always end up the way you want it to. Heather's party was so elegant and so classy, and I was very happy to be there. Things felt like they were finally coming together for me in my life and all I wanted to do this year was to show my "reality" -- that I'm happy, a little bruised from the recent divorce, but really coming to peace with where my life is headed.

Heather and Terry's house is a beautiful chateau sitting on a cliff overlooking the Pacific Ocean and is simply breathtaking. Everything was so perfect until the end of the evening. Then without looking "s--t hit the fan."

Regarding Alexis, I really have come to love her and we have become friends this year. She is easy to be with and there never is any conflict or drama with her. She's "nice" and, at this time in my life, easy and nice is what I need. I have gotten to really know her this year, and she is much more than what you see on TV. I think we all are for that matter. Everyone has a friend that is out of line at some point -- especially when liquor is involved. I don't think it was Alexis' fault that her friend Sarah misbehaved (as she was completely classless and out of line). This is not the first time Sarah made a spectacle of herself. I just don't understand that type of personality. Too much drama for me.

It seems like from season to season Tamra targets who she is going to go after, and unfortunately this year it was Alexis, Brooks, and myself. It makes me sad because I have been so supportive and happy for her and Eddie. I just had hoped she would have been the same for Brooks and I. The four of us had gone to Cabo to celebrate Eddie's birthday at the end of March 2011, and we spent a lot of time together. We spent many couple date nights together and had even planned on taking more vacations together. Everything was fine with our relationships, until suddenly she became a different person towards Brooks.

Tonight was Heather's night. This was Heather's first season and her party and she deserved the attention. Heather did not deserve Sarah to be disruptive and rude. I also believe Tamra should not have chosen Heather's party to replay her drama with the wine episode with Jeana. Remember why Tamra was mad at Jeana last year? To refresh your memory, it was because Jeana was getting involved in Tamra and Simon's marriage and "butting in." Hmmm. . .isn't that what she has been doing with Brooks and I?

I wanted to thank you all for being so supportive and I believe I have the greatest fans. Most of you like me, encourage me, and send me the most amazing emails. Unfortunately there are some that don't. I am OK with that, as I have had to come to terms with it. Although I want everyone to like me, it's just not realistic. I have to admit, I don't like some people (not many), but some I don't. I do listen to all of you and I do read your comments.

Next week's episode is the season finale. It will be a rough episode for me to watch, but unfortunately it's behind me. It's like reopening a wound that happened eight months ago. It's going to hurt, but it will be OK because time does heal.

So anytime I get anxious or sad, I somehow hear my fans yell "Woo Hoo" in my head and it makes me smile. Recently I was in Las Vegas for an appearance and while walking through the hotel the crowds all yelled "Woo Hoo." Even when I was in the Paris airport, crowds yelled "Woo Hoo." Every time I hear you say that famous, silly phrase, it makes me happy.

I have a lot of new projects that I am working on, in addition to my insurance and retirement planning companies. I'm building my empire, as I had been wanting to do for a long time, and the sky is the limit. I'm 50, I'm on my own, and I'm going to control my future -- not anyone else.

I’m so excited that the Wines by Wives memberships are quickly growing. If you haven't signed up yet for your membership, visit WinesbyWives.com to enroll in our club. It's a great way to get two bottles of wines shipped to your home monthly which are chosen tasted and picked out by Tamra and myself. Although Tamra and I may be going through some "hiccups" with our friendship, we are completely focused on our company. Our business is in no way going to be affected by any of our disagreements.

This week I launched my new collection of t-shirts with my favorite phrases and I chose "Woo Hoo" to be the first one. When I see you wearing my new Woo Hoo t-shirts, I will stop and give you a hug. You have given me so much love and support these past seven seasons, and you have encouraged me to stay when many times I didn't think I could. I never had any idea really that anything I would say or even yell out would be recognizable to all of you. When my t-shirt collection was completed last week with all with my favorite sayings. I was humbled and excited all at the same time. If you have any other suggestions, please visit my Facebook page and post some ideas.

In closing, I hope you have enjoyed this season. I wanted to give you an update on my family. Michael is doing great and is now 26 and a half. He's turning into a fabulous life insurance salesman and is the top agent in my office. I couldn't be more proud of him.

As of today, Briana is six months pregnant and for those of you that don't know -- she is having a boy. Her due date is October 10th, 2012. Ryan and her are very happy and are excited to meet their son. I went to her ultrasound visit the other day and it was so amazing seeing my future grandson move his fingers and toes and be active and healthy. The "circle of life" song became very real to me now anytime I hear it.

You can view my new collection by going on my Facebook page or to this link.

Thank you for reading my blog, and I hope you have a fabulous week. I will be going to Ft. Lauderdale on Friday through Monday to see my client and also to have some R&R to clear my head.