Earlier I was reviewing my old work "Sweet Halloween", created back in 2010. I was so fascinated by that idea, so I decided to bring out something new around it. Nothing to do with Halloween this time, "Split" the new work has everything to do with expressing the struggles of our Personality.

And you might notice this new drawing is quite different from my previous style. More details, more intriguing, oh well, at least to me :D I'm simply thinking that it's time to step up for something new and better, and I'm loving the result.

Split

I love using contrast to express deep emotions, and “Split” is this perfect example.

Bright almost white background, it should feel as pure as ice, yet you could taste the blood and terror. Soft almost feather like brushes, smooth skin and fabric, an innocent dull eyed girl; versus a cold and hard icicle, exposed flesh and bones, a terrifying black eyed demon. What do I want to express through such striking contrast?

Well, I’ve been through some pretty dark times, and I constantly struggle with anxiety, OCD, rage and depression. But people, even my family barely would notice that because I’m always this sweet and happy person in their eyes. I need to cover my true feelings up, because one time I let my raging beast slip out, it’s definitely not acceptable by my loving family. Since then, they prefer I keep my happy mask on, somehow it is easier though for everyone. But what’s underneath this smiling mask? I can see my numb and dull face just like this innocent girl on “Split”. But deep down, we can’t wait to let our raging, dark demons out, who would hurt no one else but only chewing ourselves up.

And this is what “Split” wants to tell, every single one of us has this darker side in heart. You might worship it, you might deny it, you might fear it, you might struggle with it; but it’s there, waiting and seeking the moments to expand and strike, hurting and consuming you until you want to seal it back in.