Friday, August 15, 2008

I stay in the hospital with TheodoreHe's thin as the bar on his bedTheodore gasps for breath, praying for his lifeAs his roommate bursts into tears.

He's thin as the bar on his bedHe's running a fever it burns my handAs his roommate bursts into tearsTheodore's doctor checks his pulse.

He's running a fever it burns my handHis bony face is full of sadnessTheodore's doctor checks his pulseQuietly, like a soft wind passing by.

His bony face is full of sadnessHe hesitates, then speaks to TheodoreQuietly, like a soft wind passing byHe whispers, "Theodore, I think it's time..."

He hesitates, then speaks to TheodoreTime stop in the cold roomHe says, "Theodore I think it's timeShould we call your family now?"

Time stop in the cold roomTheodore looked up but he doesn't speak"Should we call your family now?"The only sound in the world: a construction site across the street.

Theodore looked up but he doesn't speak"We need to call them now before it's too late."The only sound in the world: a construction site across the street.The doctor peels off his gloves and leave me and Theodore alone.

"We need to call them now before it's too late."Theodore groans, his hand reaches mineThe doctor peels off his gloves and leave me and Theodore aloneTakes one last look and left the room.

Theodore groans, his hand reaches mineHis roommate who hears everythingTakes one last look and left the roomI take his hand, ask him what he wants.

His roommate who hears everythingThough he pretends to cry moreI take his hand, ask him what he wantsHis voice slow and thick, "I don't know what to decide."

Though he pretends to cry moreI know Theodore is trying to pull himself togetherHis voice slow and thick, "I don't know what to decide.""I can't think about it now. Tell me a story."

I know Theodore is trying to pull himself togetherI rack my brain for something to say"I can't think about it now. Tell me a story.""Once upon a time there was a sweet boy named Theodore."

I rack my brain for something to say.I stay in the hospital with Theodore"Once upon a time there was a sweet boy named Theodore."Theodore gasps for breath, praying for his life.

My husband is leaving on August 22 and will be working on a cruise ship for six months. This is going to be the first time we'll be apart. Our kids already felt sad and I know it's not going to be an easy journey for all of us...

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Yesterday was my cousin's wedding day. It was such a lovely wedding. My daughter was one of the flower girls and she sure had a wonderful time. Everyone was there except for grandpa who's for sure smiling down on us from heaven...