Thursday, August 1, 2013

I heard that herding one cow is
as tough as herding 10 cows. But when it comes to raising children, I think it is opposite.
More kids mean more trouble at home. I can feel the chaos going through.

When we had our first child-daughter,
there were two pairs of hands to take care of her. I could take care of her
when you attended to other chores. Although it was heavenly to have our other
halves, there were some painful moments revolved around us.

The careers and family; we
made five years successfully, to say so. Then we planned for our second child and discussed the change of my job. You gave birth to our beautiful other
halves. He brought us happiness which is still going strong. The career plan
got materialized and I could only share the close moments with our son for only
3 weeks. It saddened me even after I knew I had to face this soon.

I have told you about the new
place here. I have also shared how soon I adjusted to the new work place and learned to harmoniously co-exist with the new colleagues. You are happy for me.

If physical comfort has to bring
happiness to people, I would love to see the names of the billionaires hitting
the top places every day. There is no trend as such and although I am not a
billionaire, I will tell you why physical comfort is not a criterion to make
person happy.

My life has slowed down. Unlike
in the past, I start my day from 8.45 in the morning. I
reach office at 9 most often although I see the liberal to report any time.
There is no traffic on the way. I don’t remember a time I had to grumble unlike
I used to on Thimphu roads. I eat from the common mess which sells any kind of
dish at half the price. I stay in the office until I have my dinner from the
same mess and go home around 9 in the night. The house is quiet and cold. With no one inside I can
walk around in my birthday suit.

If you think I live like a king,
you are wrong. I often think of you with kids. We have two lovely kids now. But
it pains me to think there is only 1 pair of hands to hold them. Women
may be great to be able to do many things at a time but without other helping
hands, it will be challenging. I feel guilty. This freedom is painful.

I miss all of you every night. I
have to console myself. I think that I have not gone away from you to
battlefield where homecoming depends on the enemy’s bullet. I console myself
that I am not in the country mopping the grossly whiskers from master’s bed. I
console that I am in our motherland just few mountains away.

You know, one morning, as I sat
to have my breakfast, a colleague told me that he found me “so decent”. He
explained that he did not find me roaming in the odd places with odd women. I knew
what he meant. I would not do that. There will not be purge from my mind even
if I soak in the holiest water for eternity. It is good that girls don’t make the
move first. I have the upper hand not to make that move. By the way, I have
come up with this thought that all women should marry dumb husbands. Ah! In
another thought, all smart men become dumb husbands after marriage, right? Just
kidding.

I am looking forward to meet you all. This time, I will have three of you to make me churn my stomach. I
will blush and fall in love all over again.....again and again.