25 abr. 2010

Mini Poetical Tragedy

A letter. Sometimes things can't be said simply. Sometimes they don't want to be.

PreludeWhen did the curtain rise?I always saw it in your eyes.Always, always, in your eyes.I flew, I flowed, I laughed and lovedAnd became Fear to your DesireAs you feared your own desireAnd the curtain got thicker andYour eyes less bright.

IYour name is Fear.I am Desire.Lycanthropes,My name is Lotus.I do cry to clean.I do sigh to mean…I always wanted to transform your pain.Do not howl but smile at the moon.I always wanted to believeYou were Lotus too…Believe, Believe, Believe!If you and I believeWe believe!We be alive… we live.And your surprise… the Oh!The O of love.You love, I live.(My “I” in live)

IIHello Desire.My name is Fear.I knew one day that it would come to this.The yin gone yang,The pointed spears turned round.All that I believed came true,You didn’t let meDownThe curtain came down.You believe! Did I somehowMake a change in you?You made a change in me.Did you make me me andI you you?Not in the same way.I stayed. You roared.I stayed.You did not make me believe.You made me doubt.I stayed.Will you stay?

III“I love you more than I can say”And do?You did, and never these petals were so tenderly devoured.And did you love love?For you it is a battle and for me asWell I tried and asked the mirrors what toDo I love or need or want to keep on changing you?We could never do the same things to each other.It would have, could have been a beautiful story.I like to think it still is.We are friends.Free.Ends? I don’t know.I don’t know what ends and what begins.Look at all the question marks!Now who is doubt and who desire?These last days I’ve felt a weight on all my soulA nausea against myself…It was not only you who changedIt was we who reverted roles.It was we…All so... unnatural!

IVNatural to be Wolf and LotusNatural to hug to laughTo argue to artThere is a bondAll so, All ways.It has been weWe who lie and who betrayAnd guilt.. both ways!In the way…So many things in the way ofSo many thingsSo many so so sorry’s…But there is a bond.We are both fear and desire.We both desire things were different.I desire you were different…We both fear the future.I fear you…We both fear each other.Leave like that?You laugh… a killing joke!To leave it at nothing?But that is life!EpilogueNothing… no thingNo plansNo turning back.Only vague promises…Only beliefOnly favors for favors forFlavors of happiness.Selfish me, selfish youSwimming down the same riverAnd begging each otherTo please please please…