We can all relax. Someone we were meant to care about died tonight – it wouldn’t be a Grey’s premiere otherwise – but Dr. Richard Webber lived. Thank God! I need a hug like you wouldn’t believe. EW reader, I know you are not a hugger, but I NEED YOU TO HUG ME BACK.

The chief (heh) power struggle in this two-hour-long season 10 premiere was between Yang and Bailey – with almighty drama queen Catherine Avery butting in/thrashing against the OR glass near the end. Bailey, still guilty over telling Richard he’d disappointed her years ago, felt in her gut that there was some problematic tissue left…somewhere in Richard after Yang kept his aorta from rupturing. Bailey wanted to operate, but Yang insisted his heart was too weak.

“Letting that tissue die is like taking a gun and killing him!” Bailey yelled. But he’d coded four times. “You sound like a family member who Googled ‘electrocution’ and is trying to remain optimistic,” said Yang, who couldn’t help throwing in an “I own this hospital. You work for me” in there. That’s how we’re playing it now.

But surprise! Richard had designated longtime daughter-figure Meredith as his power of attorney. After Adele died, he’d revised his directive for extraordinary measures. Catherine may be his girlfriend, but according to Richard’s living will, Meredith was his family.

So what’ll it be, Mer? “I was just thinking that I wish my mother could have seen my kids. But you know what that is. That’s delusional thinking. Because my mother would make a horrible grandmother. Because she was a horrible mother.” Good God, woman, we’ve heard it all before, get to the point!

“I’m delusional. And hormonal. And I can’t trust my delusional thoughts.” Meredith let the labs determine Richard’s destiny for the time being – so to the OR he went. Twice. “You always taught us when you know, you know,” Meredith recalled to her mentor Bailey, who ended up screaming the same line in triumph once she’d found necrotic tissue (I cannot believe I Googled that and it worked) under Richard’s pancreas.

The episode’s best moment for me was right in the middle, just before Bailey made her incision on Richard as the *sexy operating dance remix* threatened to overtake us all. I started crying during Richard’s voice over, as what he said could apply to all of the other characters – and let’s be honest, all of us: “We’re all gonna die. We don’t get much say over how or when. But we do get to decide how we’re gonna live. So do it. Decide. Is this the life you wanna live? Is this the person you wanna love?” My entire life flashed before me, too, and I don’t even own a white jacket. All of that as he’s being wheeled into surgery by one of the people who love him most.