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I live round the corner from kraig, used to go round and see him near enough every day, only just hit me he’s really gone, just come from his house… why do the good die young? thats all i can think, he was too good to die young… great friend, an even better family man…

Kraig, my lasting memory of you will be the first time I met you, you were 10 years old, i will never forget that cheeky grin and freckly face.
Watched you grow over the years and turn into a very special young man.
Special people make special memories, gone, but never forgotten.
Helen

Kraig,Our precious son,God took you away from us because this world wasnt good enough for you.It has left us completly broken.We feel special too,because God chose us to guide you.We know that you will be with us,with every snowflake that falls,everytime the wind touches our faces we know you will be there.Night night God bless our little soldier. Mum and Dad

Kraig, I’ve watched you grow up from a little kid to a wonderful adult.
Thanks for all the years going to airshows, trips to Blackpool and other great days out. You’ll always be my little brother Kraig, and the memories will stay with me forever.
Thanks for being you! See you later matey.
Graham (Big bro) x

I don’t think I will ever really believe you are gone. I have such happy memories of our childhood, we were so close growing up, Jackie, Sharon, myself, Gary and you ‘scrag’! I cant even remember where that name came from even though I’ve tried so hard to think this last week. People keep mentioning your grin and when I close my eyes I can still see that grin and it makes me smile with you. I will always love you, always miss you but will never forget you.
Your Cousin Tracy x

I’ll miss you at football mate we always had a laugh and now I’m stuck with just Geordie! I’ll never forget those cut off jeans you called shorts! To me you were just a genuine nice guy and you will always be my friend. I will never forget you and I am proud to have known you. You will always be in my thoughts.
Foz.

Little brother. You will be in my thoughts every single day. I have such fond memories which i hold close to my heart. I am devestated right now and i cant imagine ever feeling any better.I cant imagine the day when that i dont cry, but I can laugh at the times i spent with you and cherish them close to my heart. I cant let go at the moment and dont think i ever will. I still cant believe that i cant pick up the phone and ring you. I cant imagine Christmas without you. I love you so much little brother. You were such a handsome lovely man. I will NEVER forget you Kraig.(Yey Yey) Sharon.

Kraig, you were special, a beautiful gift of love born to a special family,you had so much love around you and you will carry that with you always.
You were a very caring man,loved by all,and you loved everyone. You were our own “lovable rogue”.You will be missed so very much babe.
We will never forget you sweetheart

Kraig, it’s as though we have lost a member of our own family, we remember you as a young boy and then we watched you grow into a fine man.You will remain in our hearts forever. You will be sadly missed.
Jan, Mike & Jamie.

kraig u were such a gud mate and i fort the world of u and u were very lovingt and cairing and i am gunna miss u loads and loads i will never forget u and this is my finle goodbye and by the way tyhanks for all the good times and goodbye.

Kraig,
We will all miss you, The times we spent together ruining my kitchen with model cars were the best ever, no one could have spray painted my kitchen units like you. In fact you were definatley a special edition in everything you were involved in,including our freindship.

I never knew him, i’m a close friend of chaz’s. One splendor and one secrect sensed afar, that light and thought and sound are one in some sphere where no eyes are and no need of eyes! God help His family _
R.I.P.

when I was young I remember coming round to Les and Stacey’s to see Kraig.
I requested Kraig to draw my favourite cartoon hero Heman. He did atempt this to his best ability like he would and it made my day. Even though I was little I looked up to him as a family member and still to this day feel close to his family as I’ve been their next door neighbour since I’ve been born.

I know this is my second entry already but these lyrics are from one of my favourite bands, and it reminded me so much of kraig, not only from my experience’s with him but from what other people were saying today at the service

As they took your soul away
The night turned into the day
Blinded by your rays of life
Give us the strength we needed

Within Temptation-Dark wings if any1 wants to download and listen to it, its the last verse of the song.

to my darling husband thanks for the best 13 years and even better 5 years of being mrs garland even though i know your not gone from our life i will miss you every day i am so proud of you every one said i am brave you were the brave one thanks for everything you always made me feel special love you with all my heart len

kraig
i still have them game you gave me i will hold them to my hart and think of you, you looked after me and loved us all, you always put family first and we love you we are not letting death come apart. you looked after us all! and we will love you for ever your in my mind now and in my hart for ever
night god bless
uncle kraig
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

kraig. thankyou for being the best brother in law anyone could ask for. you were there when i needed you and you always did everything with a smile. i miss u so much already. u will always be in my heart. jason and kade send u there love. sleep well mate. x x x x x x (carly) x x x x x x x x x x

Scrag.
I cannot begin to explain how much I am hurting right now. People keep telling me that it will get better but it is getting worse each day. I want to see you sat at your computer just one more time. I want to be able to hug you one more time. I want to be able to tell you I LOVE YOU just one more time. We have grown very close over the past couple of years and you have given me lots of good help and advice. I loved going round to your house every day for a ciggie and a chat. I remember the day you was born so clearly, Brotherhood of Man had won the Eurovision Song Contest. Me and Shaz mothered you so much, we used to show you off to all our friends. You grew into a wonderful, loving, handsome man, married a lovely girl and had four beautiful children. I know you will be watching them grow from heaven.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH KRAIG….it hurts.
Dance yourself diizzy with the angels in heaven.
Kraig, My Friend…My Brother xxxxxx Jackie xxxxxx

Kraig, i wont be the fisrt or the last to say what a pleasure it was to have known you..such a great bloke who would bend over backwards to help anyone.
We had a few drunken nights together in one of your most popular places…coco’s. You brought many people who met you happiness and most of all laughter..heaven has a new angel…

well what can i say iam missing you more and more as each day passes you were not only my husband but my best mate i remember all the good times we were just big kids at heart even though we had to grow up fast thank you for being the best and i know you will carry on being the best your spirt is always with me i can feel you around me and your love with me lynice xo xo xo

A poem for my Beautiful Daughter,
I like to think,
Kraig is saying this to her,
……………………

When tomorrow starts without me,
And I’m not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
All filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry,
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn’t get to say,

I know how much you love me,
As much as i love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you’ll miss me to,

But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready;
In heaven up above,
And that I’d have to leave behind,
All those i dearly loved,

But as i turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life I’d always thought,
I didn’t wont to die,

I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That i was leaving you,

I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
The thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had,

If i could re-live yesterday,
Just for a while,
I’d say good-bye and kiss you,
And maybe see you smile,

But then i fully realised,
That this should never be,
And treasured thoughts and memories,
will take the place of me.
…………………….

God Bless you Kraig,
Everyone Who knew you, owe you a dept of gratitude,
You have restored the faith in friends,
That was sadly beginning to lack,
And pulled everyone you knew closer together,
Taught everyone just how short life is,
And to value one another a bit moor,
Not goodbye, but see you later,
Sheila,

Sat here typing this little message, but breaking my heart ! Still so very raw, thought time healed ??? it aint doing.
Wake every day, just not right,knowing Kraig aint going to be in Azda’s shouting Allright Nugget!!! Or calling down to ours, sat there chatting with that cheeky grin and that loveably laugh (at least Vicky has your laugh)
What is wrong with this world when scum seem never to go? You have gone and you were one of the good guys. I looked at you mate as my little brother, just like our Paul. Did I say a good lad? Sorry ment to say you are our Super Man. Not bothered what people think of what I am writing mate, just miss ya, little sod going like you have…..
You have left a gap no one will ever fill and like mum and dad say Kraig, “this world wasnt good enough for you” so very true…… X X X X

You never said I’m leaving
You never said good-bye
You were gone before we knew it,
And only God knows why
A million times we needed you,
A million times we cried
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we love you still
In our hearts you hold a place,
That none could ever fill
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you didn’t go alone
For part of us went with you,
The day God took you home.
A part of our hearts
have gone with you,
That can never be replaced
A look, a sign, a laugh
I need
Or just to touch your face
They say that time heals
all pain and sorrow,
And helps us to forget
But time so far has only proved
How much we miss you yet.

Hi Kraig,
Just thought I would let you know that I downloaded “From A distance today”The beautiful song which was played at your funeral, as I listened I looked at your photo on the boat with Sam abd Vicky and the tears flowed once again.
I only wish we could have gone on the French trip together with your Dad, I was really looking forward to that mate.
Keep in touch mate and I will write to you again shortly.

Christmas is nearly here mate,
And i know how you always worried that the kids had enough,
But look and see,
They have everything,
love and family,
That’s all they ever needed,
You were the best dad ever,
No one would ever dispute that,
Nothing was to much for them,
and you are still looking after them,
Even from the world of spirit,
As you are still looking out for us all,
I know you sent the policeman to me,,,”Thanks mate”
It has sorted everything out,
God is watching us Kraig,
Just as you are..
My love and blessings to you…

Your eyes are closed,
Your breath is still,
Your spirit is free,
You can do as you will,

Went to an outdoor carol service last night, i sang every carol up to the stars for you Kraig, I know thats were you will be, you were are star as a little boy and from reading the comments from your friends and family, you are a star as a young man.

Been up to your house today Kraig, and even though the world just carry’s on outside, felt very still in there. Expected you to turn up, but no. Stood in the rain at the Cemetery again as expected, very quiet mate. This just aint right.
Just knowing that I will never see you again, this is the hardest part.

kraig I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART EVEN THOUGH WE HAD TO PART I KNOW YOU REALLY LOVED ME. WE HAVE 4 KIDS FOR EVERY ONE TO SEE I KNOW ONE DAY WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN UNTILL THAT DAY I WILL HAVE TO STAY SANE I MISS YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS SO BAD BUT FOR YOU I AM GLAD GLAD YOUR IN A RESTFULL PLACE FREE FROM PAIN WITH A SMILE ON YOUR FACE GOODNIGHT DARLING GODBLESS GOODBYE MY LITTEL ANGEL IN THE SKY LOVE YOU NOW AND FOR EVER LEN XXXXX

I know you are here watching and guiding us. Your presence will give all the family the strength to get through Christmas. It will be hard but we will make tomorrow special for the children just as you did.

We all miss you mate what can we say,
There isn’t one person on here,
That cant say your name without a lump in our throats,
No one has had this happen so close to our hearts befor,
And right now there broken,
Even over time when the brake heals,
Like all breaks,
It will always hurt again at some point,
love and blessings to you,
Sheila.

merry christmas babe you have done the kids proud even though we had a night mear with jessies quad bike had to call for jimmy ha ha i know ya were laughin at us but it was funny hope ya were smilin to you were testing me to see if i could cope on my own ya bugger when it comes to building things i ant got a clue ya know that once a bird always a bird merry christmas love ya always now and for ever your loving wife xo xo xo xo xo xo

Went to mass tonight Kraig, i do believe you are in a special place. I still expect you to walk through the door though. Nothing is ever going to be the same without you. We are all coming to see you in today. We promise we will make the day special for the children even though they miss you like mad. Love you. Sharon. xxxxx

Hiya mate,
Happy Christmas,
It’s very hard to put on a brave face as your very much in our thoughts!
But I’m sure your watching down on us and appreciate that were trying to give all the kids a fun christmas just the way you would.
Cheers mate.
Graham (Big bro)

to our dad thankyou for all our presseies they are great jessie loves her quad as you can see we will all see you later merry christmas dad we all love you soooooooooooooooo much the kids good morning babe thanks for being here this morning and yes i could feel you tapping my leg and moving my hair every time the kids opend a pressie love ya hun see you later xo xo xo

You did your children proud today. It looks like Toys R US in your lounge. Vikki loves her Gizmo. I was proud too when I saw them playing with the presents you had carefully picked for them. Each day I came round you had bought them more toys to send to Santa.

Thank you for my pressie too, I will treasure it forever.

We have just got back from the cemetery. It looks great with all the Christmas wreaths at your grave. The kids rode there on the bikes you got them for Christmas.

I miss you so much Scrag. It still hurts so bad. I know you are with us is spirit but you should be here in person.

Happy Christmas Kraig.Just got back from the cemetery Lenny lit a candle for you and we all just stood there staring. Still too hard to believe you are gone but i could picture your lovely smile, smiling at the children riding their new bikes. Your house was packed with pressies as usual but i guess you know that as you bought them all with Lynice. Thank you for my Pressie mate, yours is still under my tree, it will come out each year and go back under my tree for you. We are all going to be together this afternoon to help each other through the day. Its so hard mate, we love you so much. xxxxxxxxxxxxx

hiya babe i have been to sharons today but not feeling very well had to come home as you know cos you are behind me i can feel the cold air on my back today has been the hardest day i have had so far you told me to keep it together till after xmas i tried but today it just had to come out i keep taking my self back to when we were 16 17 and you allways said to me every day i love you we will be together till the day i die you were right you just went to soon i miss you so much i dont think my broken heart will ever mend love you always lynicexo xo xo xo

Went to the cemetery,
I know your not realy there,
But the Christmas wreaths looked loverly,
I went after everyone eles,
Dident like to intrude,
On the family,
The sky was lovery so late in the afternoon,
It was a firey red and blue,
I think the kids had a lovery time today,
As you know becoues you were there..
God bless you mate,
your a Star….
Sheila.xx

my darling precious son
i dont have to tell you how i am feeling because i think you know. i cant imagine ever feeling any better,i keep going through your childhood and remembering what a happy little boy you were, and how very loving you were,always ready with hugs and kisses for me and dad.
i miss you so much darling.
the love you gave to us extended to your beautiful wife and children, and its them and the rest of our beautiful family that are keeping us going , your two wonderful sisters, your aunty mo and uncle brian, aunty bernie and uncle noel,tracy,fozzy,gary,karen,ian and graham. i dont know what we would have done without all the support weve had around us.
i cant think of the rest of my life without you right now, so i am going to take one day at a time and just love your kids as you did
god bless my darling for now. I LOVE YOU

went to Sharons house the other night and your mum and dad were there, my son in law was with us and he said that there was a lot of sadness in the house but also a lot of strength,and he felt very humbled by it, you would be very proud of them, we were, all of us, Carole Michael and Julie and Kevin and all of our family.by the way, we went to borrow some batteries but your dad did not have any???

hi bud
well its been hard ! for everyone ! just expecting you to appear and say its a dream ! and its all over ! but what do we say or do ! anyway all the best mate know your watching us all and laughing ! stop taking the micky cause i look like rudolph !! full of flu !! anyway will be dropping into make sure your ok now and again !
later mate

Uncle Kraig i love you soo much aswell as everyone else, but you wernt just my uncle you were my best friends aswell, you were taken to early, you’ve not gone anywere in my life because you are still in my heart, I just wish i could of sed goodbye to you in person, We’ve had some great times lots of love Jacob x x x x

To Kraig
U is for UNCLE for always being mine
N is for NICE because that’s what you are
C is for CRAZY for the things you achieved
L is for LOVE that you gave to me
E is for EVERLASTING, the love I give to you

Its 3 weeks today Kraig but it only seems like yesterday that i last saw you. You were sat on my rug laughing and joking at the fact that Ian didnt have a clue how to switch the telly over let alone understand what you were doing. You told me how to tell a male from a felame tv thingi, (i still dont know what they are called)and we went to you and me together the b&q. you sent me back to you and me i still got the wrong thing. We had to go back to you and me but you just laughed. As we went back to you and me together You were laughing at me and explained that a male had a sticky out bit and a female has a hole. We were laughing all the way to you and me again. You told me that something you did once was because you loved me, you know what i mean. I will treasure that conversation forever. I will miss your laugh you smile, the way you protected your family. I couldnt have wished for a better brother mate. I love and miss you so much. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

its touching and i’m sure that no1 here is suprised to see that every day which i visit this site… a few times a day i visit, but near enough every time i come on here theres a new comment to read, its just proof of how much love and trust kraig earned and just how much he will be missed

I guess posting here makes it seem closer to you Kraig,
As we write,
All the good, bad, funny, and sad, memory’s of you,
It helps us to know that in grief none of us are alone,
In that we are all missing you,
Your way of agreeing to fix things just to be polite,
But then put it to one side till the owner asks about it,
You answer? Awwwww just working on it now mate,
How many of your family and friends recognize that one,
I know because i was waiting in line for you to see to my pewter,
Doesn’t seem so important now,
I guess it never realy did,
miss you mate, and your screw driver..lol
Sheila. X

MEMORIES
1st April 1976
Sisters jumping on the bed shouting we`ve got a brother.
Taking a pair of football boots into the hospital his first pair
Kisses for me.We all used to sing it to him
Running off down Lancashire Hill.In front of housing officer.Helped to get house on Rectory fields.
Sitting on my knee and driving my car.
Learning his colours by the cars that passed.
Asking if i talk to much tell me to shut up.
Crab fishing in Cornwall.
Getting stuck in speed boat.
All singing green door [Shakin Stevens],on the way home.
Fixing my car with a claw hammer,after seeing them doing it to a stock car.
Plane spotting.
First holiday abroad couldn’t get near window Kraig wanted it.
Going into cockpit Kraig wanting to know who was flying it [automatic pilot].
Teaching him to dive.I cant swim.
Corfu, Kraig loved going to Corfu.
Rose garden.
The fires one year when we had to sleep on the beach.
Saint Annes football team.[that poor lads glasses].
Cycle speedway.
Lowestoft indoor finals.
All yellow bike,that later we had chromed.
Riding for England,and helping them to win the world cup.
While in Poole leaving Tim in the tent fast asleep.when it was flooded.
Always getting the lamb bone to pick at on a Sunday.[I had no chance].
Your first computer[an amstrad].
Husling Pete Tarmy on your pool table.
Your first job Gordon Fords.
Picking you up from the christmas night out [the only time i saw you drunk]
The firsr time you brought Lenny home
When you got married.
Four beautiful grand children.
You always fixed our tv,computer.
Always there at the end of the phone.
Recently,we played golf together,and you got the nickname of Swampy.
These are some of the things i remember of a great man.A man i am proud to say is my son.God has taken you but he cant take my memories.Missing you Scrags All my love dad

Kraig, strange since you have buggered off, when I go to do my door work, get the feeling you are still there with us!! What ever situation is, feel a lot more at ease now, dont know why ? Must be your spirit……

well babes it is new years eve you allways looked forward to it cos it was the only one night of the year we got to go out together apart from our anniversary i am going to try and enjoy myself tonight you loved it so much i think its the only time you would drink that only cos mandy talked you into it do you remember last year when you and mandy drank that cheap nasty beer but you were both so drunk you just both sat there giggeling at nothing then started on red then the clock struck 12 and you made everyone go out side for a snowball fight i know how much you loved new years so tonight i am not going to be sad but laugh as you always did i love you with all my heart seeya soon your loving wife lynice xo xo xo xo xo xo

i am missing you so much my darling
i dont know how i am going to get through tonight,we are all together though, all the family,including your lovely wife and children, we have to smile for them and i promise we will.
i remember last new year, dad and me stayed in as usual because of charlie and his fear of fireworks. you were the first person i rang after the clock struck midnight, i always missed you when you wasnt there,and i remember lynice told me you were outside playing in the snow,that made me smile because you were always a big kid at heart
i love you my darling
mum

I guess you will be playing in the snow tonight mate. i believe you will be doing all the thing you loved doing and will be looking in on us all at 12. We wont be celebrating the new year because we all miss you so much mate and there doesnt seem to be anything to celebrate. There is not a minute of the day that goes by when i am not thinking about you so 12.00am will be no acception. As you know it is Ollies birthday today, when i asked him who would be coming to see him he said you mate, uncle Kraig clear as day (nobody else) I told him you were an Angel now, he just said Yes. I love you and miss you so much. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Well mate, life goes on down here, just getting ready to go to work. I know your spirit is going to be busy tonight, with your family, friends and with me at work. Just wish you were still alive and here with us all Kraig. Well will pick you up at the Brinnington exit, so slide on in mate and here we go again…………….

***************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************** pouring with rain here, i have tried to find some pics of snow to send you, this is the best i could do, snowflakes so you can have a snowball fight…lots of love

The beginning of this new year is going to feel empty,
As i feel that we have left you behind in 2005,
But i know that you are with us,
Every one feels empty,
As if we have had our hearts riped apart,
We will all miss you Kraig,
Even now when my car wont start,
I think bloody hell; ill have to get Kraig to see to it,
Then i remember, and feel guilty,
God how i wish you were still here to fix it,
It’s not fare, I want to scream at god,
And ask him Why,
But i know the answer,
It was your time,
In my opinion, “TO BLOODY SOON”..
Bless you mate,
Sheila.

I know your with us, you always will be, you’ll never be really gone. Lynice and your children are so brave and I’m sure they get that from you, you must be so proud of them all. We all miss you so much but the memories we have of you are so precious and nobody can ever take them away.x

well my gorgeous son
i am struggling a bit today, so as you know i have just visited your grave,i then went to see if lynice is ok,she is a star and i am sure you are proud of her because we all are.
sammy was a bit weepy so i have brought him home with me for the night. he is ok now watching a film. we will help lynice to take good care of them for you,so you needn’t worry my darling
i love you with all my heart, for all eternity and beyond
mum

Time heals, thats what they say dont they? well as time goes on mate i am feeling worse. I feel so empty and alone. My heart is broken thinking that if i am feeling like this how are Lynice and the kids coping. We will all help them though and be strong for one another. Is is so unfair. I am starting to feel angry now, not at you mate as i am sure given the choice you would still be here. I love you so much. Sharon xxxxxxx

Don’t tell me that you understand.
Don’t tell me that you know.
Don’t tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.
Don’t come at me with answers
That can only come from me.
Don’t tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.
Accept me in my ups and downs.
I need someone to share.
Just hold my hand and let me cry
And say, “My friend, I care.”

No person is ever truly alone.
Those who live no more,
Whom we loved,
Echo still within our thoughts,
Our words, our hearts.
And what they did
And who they were
Becomes a part of all that we are,
Forever.

Hi Kraig,
Thank you for coming through with my dad george tonight at church,
I know you said try not to be angry,
But its easier said than done,
And its not easy; to not shed tears for you,
And Lynice! you have him, and spirit all around you,
Helping you to heal,
yes it is him twirling your hair,
Thank you mate.
Sheila.

As I was out sleeping, one dark winter’s night
Someone gently called my name, and I saw the brightest light
Two Angels appeared beside me
And slipped their warm hands into mine
“At last, they whispered softly, we’ve been waiting here some time”

“God sent us down to earth, to bring you safely home
He’s been watching while you suffered, and try to make it on your own
They gently took my arms and we soared into the sky
I said, “But God l have 4 children, and I didn’t say goodbye”
“Don’t worry,” God replied as he gave me the lightest wings
“Because you are an Angel”, you can do so many things
“Now these special children of mine, are just beautiful, you really have to see
And if you look into their eyes, you’ll see a part of me”

“Their names are Karl Vikki Sam and Jessi, and they are so clever and oh so smart
Look…….. I have their picture, tucked safe inside my heart
So my darling children when you look up at the sky
You’ll see your Daddy way up there
and know the reason why”

Although I’m here in Heaven, and only watch you from afar
For by day I am an Angel, and by night a shining star
So when you look up at night, yes way, way up high
You’ll see that I’m the brightest star shining in the sky

So sometimes when it’s dark, and you cannot get to sleep
And have a secret ‘secret’ that you really want to keep
Remember me, your Daddy who lives up in the sky
Your special Guardian Angel, who has wings and can really, really fly
Then at night he changes into the brightest, shiny shining star
Who loves you all forever, no matter where you are

When you look into the mirror whose face is that you see?
As you look through your own eyes, you are looking straight at me
So goodnight my darling sweetheart’s, and please, please never cry
For your Daddy he is watching, from oh so way up high
xxxxxxxxx

Now I am gone, release me, let me go
I have so many things to see and do
You mustn’t tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that we had so many years.

I gave you all my love; you can only guess
how much you gave to me in happiness.
I thank you for the love we each have shown
But now it’s time I travelled on alone.

So grieve a while for me if grieve you must
then let your grief be comforted by trust
It’s only for a while that we must part;
So bless the memories within your heart

I won’t be far away, for life goes on.
So if you need me, call and I will come
Though you can’t see or touch me, I’ll be near
And if you listen within your heart you’ll hear
all my love around you, soft and clear.

And then when you must come this way alone
I’ll greet you with a smile and say
“WELCOME HOME”.

Well mate,
It has taken me along time to do this.
I still find it hard to come to terms with what has happened. What ever I do or see I can relate to times and laughs we had. So many good memories
but you will never be forgotten and will always be remembered as your dad said

i am so sorry babe for gettin upset but i cant help it every day you are in my mind and i cant get you off my mind you were in my life for 13 years well it would be 14 years this january and my life is so empty with out you in it i know i have the kids to keep me goin but i need your loving arms around me even though i can sill fell them it is not the same as havin you here and yes i do feel you playin with my hair and strokin my cheek please come and see me even though you might scare me half to death but please come and see me i need to see you one last time i love you allways and for ever len xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

SORRY FOR MAKIN SO MANY SPELLING MISTAKES HUN BUT I HAVE HAD A DRINK AND AS YOU KNOW YA MATES HAVE BEEN LOOKIN AFTER ME AS YOU WOULD EVEN THOUGH IT IS A WEEK DAY THEY ARE ALL STILL HERE SAYIN I HAVE TO BE UP FOR WORK IN THE MORNING BUT SOD IT JUST AS YOU ALLWAYS SAID ILL DEAL WITH THAT IN THE MORNIN WHEN I AM TO TIERD TO CARE ITS GOOD TO KNOW YOU HAD SO MANY FRIENDS THAT WILL CARRY ON YOUR WAY OF THINKIN WHEN THEY ARE HERE IT IS LIKE HAVIN YOU HERE THEY SAY THE SAME THINGS AND IT MAKES ME CHUKKEL AND I SAY YOU SOUND LIKE KRAIG THEY SAY HE IS THE ONE WHO TOLD US TO SAY IT THE RUM BUGGER

Lynice,
“My beautiful brave daughter”,
You can make as many spelling mistakes as you like,
no one would ever questen it,
I am one of the proudest, and most privileged mums on earth,
I have the bravest daughter, i could ever wish for,
If only i had a quarter of your strength,
I would be the luckiest women alive,
I have nothing but admiration for the way you have couped,
And i could never even begin to know,
What it is like loosing a loved partner,
The way you love Kraig,
Or one of my children,
My heart goes out to Kraig’s Mum and Dad
I am a wuzz i know that,
And i have made a lot of mistakes,
But one of the best things i ever did,
Was to give birth to you,
I love you sweetheart,
And after what has happened,
I intend to tell you, i love you, every chance i get,
my new years resolution, it to,
appreciate, validate, and communicate,
With the people in my life today,
befor its to late,
God bless you, Lynice….I LOVE YOU SWEETHEART.
Mum xoxoxox

kraig we miss u so much no matter wat eva happens u will always b in our minds and hearts u r the biggest star shining in the sky and u will always will b the only star we look 4 late at night wen we r thinking of u luv kerry vikki carl sam jessy

Went to see Karl today. He wanted money for his birthday, im sure that doesnt suprise you. The house just didnt seem complete today without you mate. Everybody misses you so much. The children are ok though, Lynice looked lost. We lost a big part of our lives when we lost you mate. We need to all stick together and love one another as we all loved you. Love you mate. xxxxxxx

well babe karl 10 we were both dreadin this moment cos we new we were getting old he had a realy good day and i know you appoved of his birthday pressy i dont know how i got through today but i did as i do every day some days are hard to deal with than others but hey ho you know i will be fine cos your still here thankyou for being with me the other day i could feel you on my face but did you have to pull on my belt ya cheeky boy hope nana isnt bending ya ear to much ha ha ill see and speak to you soon llove ya loads and allways will len xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo

i would like to say a big thankyou to graham on behalf of me kraig and the kids for both web sites the pics are great even though i cant look through them for to long there are alot of good times rememberd as i look at them so thanks once again graham we all love you very much x x x

Pictures are lovely Graham. They hold so many special memories that we will all keep close to our hearts.

Kraig, i know you are watching somewhere.The picture of us deep in conversation over the table at Christmas, i remember what we were talking about. You were a very special person and always will be. I love you and miss you more. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Kraig, I have been to see your Mum and Dad today, I am trying to help them through their pain as i promised you that i would, but they are stuggling with it sweetheart, their love for you is so deep.I know that for them it seems that the light has been turned out on their life, hopefully time will heal, and together as a family we will do all that we can to help them to see the light again. I know that you want so much for them to happy again, and are shining down on them with as much love as they gave to you throughout your life.
You are the brightest shining star………..Watch over them sweetheart
Goodnight God bless xxxxxxxx Auntie Mo

I’ve scanned a lot more pictures and added them to the photo gallery,
please have a look.http://www.kraiggarland.fotopic.net/
Thanks for the photo’s Les,Stasia,Sharon,Ian & Jackie.
Anybody got any more?
Graham.

I Have a good collection now,
Thank you to everyone who shared there photos,
I wish i had some of my own to share,
But i haven’t sorry,
I have put all the photos on my website as a tribute to Kraig,
Thanks again to everyone especially Graham,
You are a special person Graham,
Bless You.
Sheila.

Sharon, thanks to you all for the pictures. As much as we are all still very much down, the pictures Graham has put onto the web site, have really helped. As we are feeling low, just look at the pictures. Nothing can ever take away our memories of Kraig! My mate was, sorry IS such a star……..

A poem for you. I wrote it myself. I hope you like it. Im no poet but i hope you like it.

You were taken away so suddenly
Why couldn’t I say goodbye.
I wanted to tell you that I loved you
And the reasons why.

You were a brother to be proud of
With four beautiful children to see
You were a friend I could lean on in times of need.
You were fun happy go lucky I can hear you say
Life is for living why wait another day.

You were ready to help anybody in need
You would give your last penny, so generous and easily pleased.

You taught me how to box, well I learnt in a fashion,
Competing with you, I had no chance this was your passion.

Your funny sense of humour could make me laugh till I cried
You never held any punches, these are just some of the reasons why.

But most of all I love you because you are you
I miss you so deeply the days seem so blue.

Remember all the good times we shared that what I intend to do.
And not beet myself up about what could have been or should have been,
That’s not what you would have wanted me to do.
For in my heat you never left, there you will always stay.
You were and will remain to be part of my life until my dying day.

Time heals that’s what they say,
but nothing will heal the piece of my heart that was taken away.

So keep it safe for me little brother
Until the day we meet
And I will take it back from you
To make my heart complete.

Its going to so be hard with you not around
Not to be able to pick up the phone
Hear your voice see your smile, laugh with you, but its only for a while
Because when we are all together again eternity’s what we have
Your in a beautiful place, I know, and my time here will surely pass.

There’s only one certainty in life,
And that’s ok with me
Because that means that one day we can share being brother and sister again
that’s what we will always be.

So until that day, drop in once in a while,
Let me know its ok, to cry therse tears I cry each day
And stay a little while
So I can say I love you and see your beautiful smile.

We work with Graham and Les, and never had the pleasure of meeting Kraig. However, after reading all of these wonderful thoughts and words of love, we now know what a fantastic person he was.
Our thoughts (and tears) are with ALL of you.
With love, Mandi and Jas. xx

my dearest darling,handsome,gorgeous son
Iam finding this so very difficult because as each day goes by,it is getting harder for me.
COMING TO TERMS I never will
UNDERSTANDING I never will
WHY such a beautiful and much loved person could be snatched away from us so suddenly.
You were such a beautiful child, so happy, so very loved,and you gave so much back as you grew into a wonderful adult. Thank you so much my darling for your four beautiful children.We shall treasure them forever.
You had everything to live for.
Dad and me had plans for you,things you wanted to see and do,places you wanted to go.
The world has changed for me Kraig,without you in it,it will never be the same.
I am sorry I dont visit your webb site very often but, darling sometimes I cant because I am hurting too much.
The few times that I have is because at that moment, for some reason I was feeling just slightly stronger, but it never lasts very long so I grab it while I can,just like now.
I hope as time goes by I might become a little stronger,people tell me that I will,then I will visit more often so I can keep telling you how precious you are.
I do know that you must be the most loved angel in gods heaven.
Your two beautiful big sisters visit dad and me virtually every day and bring us lunch. We know they are looking after us just like you did and we know they always will because they love us just like you do,and it makes dad and me so proud that we brought up three such beautiful people who also love and care for each other more than any mum and dad could wish for,but you know,they need looking after too right now,so please keep a look out for them just like you used to.
Visit me as often as you can,because I know when you are here.
I am going for now but I shall be back as soon as I can.
I love you so very much my darling.
your ever loving MUM
XXXXXXXX

Kraig, We are spending the night with Jackie, Sharon, Graham, Ian and the kids tonight, being with them always makes me think about you more but not in a bad way because you are such a special person. It’s nice to be able to remember the good times even though thats hard right now. I’m sure you’re watching Karl at football with pride because he’s becoming such a great player, a proper little goal scorer and a great team player.
Miss you mate.
Tracy.x

You’re beautiful so silently
It lies beneath a shade of blue
It struck me so violently
When I looked at you

But others pass, the never pause,
To feel that magic in your hand
To me you’re like a wild rose
They never understand why

I cried for you
When the sky cried for you
And when you went
I became a hopeless drifter
But this life was not for you
Though I learned from you,
That beauty need only be a whisper

I’ll cross the sea for a different world,
With your treasure, a secret for me to hold

In many years they may forget
This love of yours or that we met,
They may not know
how much you meant to me.

I cried for you
And the sky cried for you,
And when you went
I became a hopeless drifter.
But this life was not for you,
Though I learned from you,
That beauty need only be a whisper

Without you now I see,
How fragile the world can be
And I know you’ve gone away
But in my heart you’ll always stay.

I cried for you
And the sky cried for you,
And when you went
I became a hopeless drifter.
But this life was not for you,
Though I learned from you,
That beauty need only be a whisper
That beauty need only be a whisper

Hi mate. Well you would be proud of your wife, she has started on the childrens rooms. We will be helping her decorate etc, she has bought all new bedding lights curtains etc. We have ordered new beds, she just needs a skip now.
I had Vikki on Friday because i took her to Gymnastics on saturday. She was really good, she had her quiet moments because she is missing you but we will all help her with that mate, as we will with all of the children. Jackie and Graham were here with Bekki so was Tracy Damion Ben Luke and Nathan.

I picked up Jessica today so Lenny could empty the rooms, she was a star. Ollie and her are lovely together, they kiss and cuddle. There is a little bit of the not wanting to share etc coming from Ollie but i have that in hand, on the whole they are lovely together. She wouldnt eat her sprouts though, dont blame her really.Mum and dad had dinner too, they are finding things really hard mate as we all are but i am worried about them, if you can, please try to help them through, i know how much they meant to you.

Lenny and me are taking them to K8 tomorrow providing the council have come to fix the heating. I will be there in the morning to give them what for. Like sister like brother hey. Wouldnt have it any other way. On wed we are taking the babies to Gymnastics, that should be fun.

Went to your grave yesterday. It was such a beautiful day. i just stood on my own for a while talking to you, i hope you could hear me. The flowers we put down from Nannas funeral look so lovely.

Ian me and Ollie went to smithfield today before we picked Jessi up. All i could think about was you mate. Thats nothing new though because you are on my mind 24/7 and i wouldnt want it any other way.

Feel i need to keep you posted on what is going on but i believe you already know mate, just my way of feeling i can still talk to you.

i do not come to tell ya much often babe as i find this so very hard i cant do much with my life at the moment as your not in it i hope you can forgive me for not comin to see ya as much as i would like to but it is hard for me to do so there are things i want to say to you but in person just me and you they say you feel better in time that is such i lie you are on my mind from morning till night i love you so much and i know i always will i cleard the kids bedrooms today and ya littel mate drew helped me wot a star that lad is and ya knew there was somthing about that kid thats why ya took him under ya wing darrel mark simon and big dave most of all have all been looking after me as you knew they would it is good to know ya left knowing i would be well looked after by family and friends as you know i sleep wif ya tshirt ya wore that night i just want you to know i did do every thing i could for you that night but it just wos’nt ment to be brave i was not at all scard yes and i know you love me more for doing that you told me in my dreams doing the bedrooms wif out you today was hard as i know it is wot you have wanted for our kids for a long time but i am going to do you proud we all are as a family to make sure our kids have the best bedrooms ever i have got everthing i need for them now just need to go and get the paint and we can all start on them poor graham has to paint west cost customs on the wall but that is just our lads for you i want you to know i love you so much it hurts so bad cant still come to terms with the fact you have gone you are such a wounderfull person and husband and an even better sole mate and best friend i love you so much it hurts so bad inside my broken heart do not think i have the will power go on wif my life even though i have cos i have your kids and your home and your spice for life willing me on i love you kraig with all my heart and sole and so do our children see ya again some day wait for me so i can see them sexy eyes again and that perfect smile words can not even come close to how much i love you

Well Kraig m8y, down hill from here now !! Early Jan, only gone and lost my job!! Swine trying to get another. Little Jo-Marie has to go into hospital for a minor op and too top it all I have been diagnosed with Diabetes… What else can go wrong ??? Keeping an eye on Lenny for you, chat with her on the phone. She is keeping a front up for the kids I think, but boy is she missing you. Just like all the family m8. Caugt your mum and dad in Azda not long ago, think they were shop lifting ???? Well thats it for now Kraig, back soon.

Hey mate. i know i’ve not posted for a while. i keep checking back and i go past your house most nights but the lights are out. i really want to post something everyday but when i come to type my mind goes blank.. anyways see ya soon
Darryl

Hi Mate,
Still cant listen to sad songs yet,
Always gets me crying my eyes out,
Isn’t it weired,
That you notice all the sad songs when someone passes,
Anyway Kraig,
Have to go now chuck going to church,
I am baby siting for your lot sat,
If they dont behave can you drop in and give us a hand,
Not Goodbye,
But See ya later mate,
Sheila.

Hi mate, just wanted to say Hi, its a comfort coming to this site, its like i am talking to you. I look several times a day. The messages are getting fewer. I guess you know we are all thinking about you. I still think about you 24/7 you are the first thing i think about in the morning and the last thing at night. Strange as it is i dont dream about you though. I was told that you dream about the last thing on your mind, thats not true mate or i would have had a dream about you every night, i go to sleep willing myself to dream about you but i dont, strange dont you think? Maybe your behind that, giving my mind and heart a break.

My box has been broken since just after you went. I have had Marks number for weeks now but its you i want to come to fix it mate, i will ring him eventually. The morning you went Mark was ringing your phone, there were several missed calls and text messages, he was worried about you mate. I believe you spoke to him the night before. I answered your phone and broke the news to him, he didnt respond and the line went dead, i think he was probably in shock. We all still are mate. We will never accept loosing you. I love you so much.
People say “if i had three wishes” well thats just greed, if i only had one mate, I dont have to tell you what i would wish for.
Your ever loving sister. Sharon.

I was told of this book of condolence for Kraig by Sharon who i know loves and misses Kraig so much, so i hope all the family and freinds of Kraig will not mind if i add a few words.
I am in the Philippines right now and was informed of Kraigs passing in text and email from Sharon. Although i only met him on 2 occasions while i was working at Sharons house, i was gobsmacked to hear of his passing becuse he seemed so fit, healthy and full of fun. Sharon used to talk about him a lot while i was there, and i know how much she loves him and how much he will be missed by his family and his friends. I only hope that when my time comes to leave this world for a better place that i get half as many messages of love and fondness as Kraig has… The greatest thing anyone can achieve while on this earth is to leave a mark on this world, and judging by the many messages on here , Kraig certainly did that, and his memory will live on for many many many years.
I am sat in my shop in the Philippines with tears in my eyes reading the lovely tributes to Kraig, but i am so happy that he left behind him so many positive happy memories for his family and freinds. Only hope i can leave those same type of memories when my time comes.
God love you Kraig, and i hope to meet you for a 3rd time later(you can teach me how to work these bloody computers properly then.
My heartfelt condolences to ALL his family and freinds,
PS my youngest Sons name is also Craig

Hi mate still cant get use to the fact that i cant call you five or six times a day.I feel as though i have been away for a long time and you will be waiting for us at the airport.Mum and i miss you so much,just wait for us.while mum and i are still here we will help Lynice to bring up your beautiful children in your image. karl is coming on with his football. i think i have convinced him that he will be a great back four player hes a fast learner and i am teaching him a few tricks. Vicky is going to gym club with shaz and is really enjoying it We need to find Sam a hobby,we are taking him to curry strip for his birthday.What can i say about Jess she gets more beautiful by the day,and is really coming on.Lynice has her hands full and we are all proud of her, she is being very brave.Graham and i started the boys bedroom and hope that we will have both theirs and the girls ready this weekend.Mum and i miss you so much and the days get worse rather than better.love and miss you so much Dad xxxx

Hi Mate,
I know its been a long time since i last wrote here,
But i know that there is not much i can say,
That you dont know about,
We all still miss you,
But things now are starting to get sorted out at your place,
So no worries,

THIS VALENTINE MESSAGE IS NOT OF THE ORDINARY KIND
IT HAS TO BE SENT ON THE WINGS OF LOVE
YOU SEE ITS DESTINATION IS HEAVEN ABOVE
IT IS BEING SENT TO YOU MY SON WHO LEFT EARTH TOO SOON
WHO IS NOW IN HEAVEN WITH THE STARS AND MOON
MY LOVE FOR YOU IS DEEPER THAN THE OCEAN IS BLUE
ITS SENT WITH HUGS AND KISSES FROM ME TO YOU
I KNOW YOU ARE WITH ME EACH DAY AND EVERY DAY
YOU LISTEN AS I TALK TO YOU AND HEAR WHAT I SAY
I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT GODS UNDYING LOVE
SENT TO BEREAVED PARENTS FROM HEAVEN ABOVE
I KNOW YOU ARE IN THE BEST OF CARE
BUT IT IS SO HARD FOR US LEFT ON EARTH TO BEAR
COULD YOU PUT IN A REQUEST FOR US LEFT BEHIND
FOR GOD TO SEND US THE ANSWERS SO A CURE WE CAN FIND
SO THAT NO OTHER FAMILY HAS TO GO THROUGH THIS PAIN
OUR LIVES WITHOUT YOU WILL NEVER BE THE SAME
WHEN I GET LONELY I WILL LOOK TO THE SKY AT NIGHT
AND SEE YOU SHINING DOWN YOUR BIG BRIGHT LIGHT
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY MY SON I MISS YOU SO MUCH
I KNOW YOU KNOW HOW MANY LIVES YOU HAVE TOUCHED
YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY NUMBER ONE SON I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART
I KNOW WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN AND THEN WE WILL NEVER PART
SO YOU SEE THE MEANING IS STILL THE SAME
THE METHOD OF DELIVERY IS THE ONLY CHANGE
MINE MUST BE SENT BY A LITTLE WHITE DOVE
ON THE WINGS OF LOVE

hello babe i have just come to say happy valantines day and i love you so much i know you did not like me giving you a card even though i did anyway so as you know i have took a bear with i love you on it to be with you i love you kraig with all my heart and allways will your loving wife ps i miss you so much xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo

THIS VALENTINE MESSAGE IS NOT OF THE ORDINARY KIND
IT HAS TO BE SENT ON THE WINGS OF LOVE
YOU SEE IT’S DESTINATION IS HEAVEN ABOVE
IT IS BEING SENT TO YOU MY SON WHO LEFT EARTH TOO SOON
WHO IS NOW IN HEAVEN WITH THE STARS AND MOON
MY LOVE FOR YOU IS DEEPER THAN THE OCEAN IS BLUE
IT’S SENT WITH HUGS AND KISSES FROM ME TO YOU
I KNOW THAT YOU ARE WITH ME EACH AND EVERY DAY
YOU LISTEN AS I TALK TO YOU AND HEAR WHAT I SAY
I DON’T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT GOD’S UNDYING LOVE
SENT TO BEREAVED PARENTS FROM HEAVEN ABOVE
I KNOW YOU ARE IN THE BEST OF CARE
BUT IT IS SO HARD FOR US LEFT ON EARTH TO BEAR
COULD YOU PUT IN A REQUEST FOR US LEFT BEHIND
FOR GOD TO SEND US THE ANSWERS SO A CURE WE CAN FIND
SO THAT NO OTHER FAMILY HAS TO GO THROUGH THIS PAIN
OUR LIVES WITHOUT YOU WILL NEVER BE THE SAME
WHEN I GET LONELY I WILL TALK TO THE SKY AT NIGHT
AND SEE YOU SHINING DOWN YOUR BIG BRIGHT LIGHT
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY MY SON I MISS YOU SO MUCH
I KNOW YOU KNOW HOW MANY LIVES YOU HAVE TOUCHED
YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY NO.1 SON I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART
I KNOW WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN AND THEN WE’LL NEVER PART
SO YOU SEE THE MEANING IS STILL THE SAME
THE METHOD OF DELIVERY IS THE ONLY CHANGE
MINE MUST BE SENT BY A LITTLE WHITE DOVE
ON THE WINGS OF LOVE

Kraig, a special day for you and Lynice mate, just wish you were here to be with her. Time just goes on mate, dont stop for nobody – very cruel. Been down to Mikes today, just aint the same, you not turning up with your cheeky grin ! Well Kraig, will keep visiting here everyday, people write such lovely things mate…….

Although I come here at LEAST twice a day to moderate comments, I very rarely leave a comment myself. For some reason I felt I needed to today.

I am missing you so much. Everything I do is an effort. I can’t even be bothered with Graham’s birthday on Sunday and I hate myself for that. I know I will be waiting for you to pop round with a card and a ‘six pack of beer’ for him like you always did.

I am back at work now. Although I really didn’t want to go back, I pushed myself and I am glad I did. It has helped me cope and I can visit you at Highland whenever I like. My Manager is great……if I go missing she knows I will be at the cemetery having a ciggie with you. She gives me a quick call to make sure I am OK then tells me to stay as long as I like.

I still go round to your house to see Lenny every lunch time. The house is looking great. Graham and Dad have almost finished the decorating, just a bit of glossing left to do. Lynice has worked really hard getting the place just how you both wanted it. All your mates have helped loads too.

I am so proud of being your big sister Kraig. Sharon and I are lucky to have a brother like you. People say that you can’t choose your family but I am happy with what I got, God made a perfect choice putting all of our family together.

hello sweet just come to tell ya the boys beds are done justin has done ya proud tonight he came straight from work and was here till 10 just doin the lads bed karl was a great help he said to me karl is a great kid and he will be a great bloke just like his dad it made me so proud to here that spoke about the both of you that i had a tear in my eye cos karl has turned out to be like that cos he has a great roll model and that is you the girls bed is being done tomorrow anne is sending jay over cos justin cant get here now till after weekend and vikki is upset cos she has not got a bed and jess keeps saying big girls bed so mick said he will come and help to he is even willin not to open the unit to come and do it must say you have some crackin mates and a very loving family i am so glad i met and married you cos the day i married you they became my family and i dont know what i would do with out them well i will fill you in on the girls beds cos if mick is helpin it will be a laugh i told him to keep bol away now i know ya laughin with me ill see ya soon sweetheart god night dont let the bugs bite if they do bite em back do you remember we used to say that to each other every night and you would say it fast and try and get it in before me i love ya babe xo xo xo xo xo xo xo

hi dad just niped here to have a little word coz i thik vikki has spoke to ya more times than i have sorry about that.I got man of the match on saturday i wish you were there to see it coz me and my team are getting along so well now .we finished my bedroom today well me and justin did guess what we got a bit wrong at the start and had to hammer to get the things out we were so clumsy we got the poles the wrong way round but its right now.Hey i have ya laghin now dont i guess what he got stressed out just like you would of hey he somked about 20 fags he got that stressed we have westcoat customs just like ya wanted and mum has chose great colours for me room everything matches its well cool. we have had the hall staires and landin done like ya wanted aswell.BUT! mum stresses out about muddy feet ha ha.me and mum might start going to karls bekkets gym im teatching mum my self at the moment ha ha ha ha lhats a laugh nar she is good at it she still cant do a tornado ha ha ha we have still got ya golf clubs we are keeping them for me coz i bet thats what ya want coz ya liked ya golf dint ya well then im goin now i will keep you informed with the latest every saturday night now coz i know ya miss us god bless karl

Just had a little word with your son Karl on messenger, sounds and looks a very nice young man, credit to you, I have told him I am 5_10 slim and blonde, please dont put him right. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi mate
Well Ollie made a tree at nursery Tuesday, i asked him if he wanted to give it to you or his dad, he said you. You made an impact on a two year old mate, can you imagine what you did for us. We went straight to Highfield to plant the tree, it was made of pipe cleaners and he had made his own leaves, we planted it for you. Ollie also had his very first hair cut and tells people he had it done at Kraigs hairdressers (Jimmys). Jimmy did a lovely job and Ollie was proud that he had his hair cut where sammy spider and you had your hair cut. He has given that name to Sam, not sure why but it seems to have stuck, you know what i can see you laughing now, i miss that so much. You will never stop being part of our everyday lives mate we love and miss you so much.
Went to look at the finishing touches of the childrens rooms today after taking Lenny shopping, they are looking lovely, you would be proud. Everybody has pulled together to help. You have some great friends mate.
I love and miss yo so much and so do the boys.
Bye for now matie. Love you so much.
Sharon (Ye Ye) xxx

hi chick hows it goin well as ya know it is the school hols i walked the kids to mackys on monday it was funny they said can we get the bus and i said no its only down the road they walked in the end and i took them to stockport to the £ shop yesterday mick has been comin up more often he is funny we were talkin about the good old days and bol he has gone totally lol stef called in aswell she has a new car she took vikki to the shop in it she calls it a buggy cos it only 2 seats sometimrs i dont know what to say cos i konw you know everything that has happened and as daft as it my be i needed to speak to you cos it is snowing vikki said hello dad how are you today vikki has told me to tell you that she knows you are her cos of the snow and you come with the snow well i am goin to clean up now after me and vikki has stoped laughin at jess see ya soon we love you so much xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo

Hi mate. A few words to say, it aint getting any easier Kraig. Everyone I speak to, miss you to bits. Was down at Mikes yesterday and all we talked about was you. Still not right you not being here………….

Hi scrag, i have not posted for a while because i have not had a pc, you know i have been thinking about you though dont you. I am missing you more with every passing day mate. I love you so much. xxxxxx

There is nothing i can do, to make him come back
There are no words I can say,
that can replace the words you long to hear

There are no answer’s I can give, that will satisfy your questions
There is not another soul I can introduce you to that will ever replace his
And, there is no love I can offer that will ever replace the love you shared

I can not promise your broken heart will ever be complete
I will not say it could have been worse
I will not deny it was a tragedy
I will not lie and tell you he will come back

He never really left

I do promise he hears you when you speak
I will say he loves you no matter the distance
I will not deny he is in a better place
And, I will not lie; he is waiting to greet you someday

He is every you step you take
He is in everything you do
He is the air you breathe
He is every beat of your heart

” He is like the wind. You can not see him…but you will always feel him”

I have very fond memories of Kraig and though I did not know him in his later
years I will always remember him. When I do remember Kraig I smile he always
made me smile.

Hi Mate i know i haven’t been here as of late,
Thank you for coming to visit us at your home when i was giving Healing to Lynice,
And for confirming that you have been chatting to the kids,
And touching Lynice on her foot,
Chat Soon,
Not Goodbye,
But see ya later,

ello babe just had to come and say hi i know i have not bin for a bit but finding it hard with the snow its just you thats wot has made me come and speak to you i pictured you getting up this morning saying its dinner time why did you not wake me and its snowing but it needs to stick . as you know jesse is saying a lot now she called karl a monkey today and when i was talkin to my mum today on the phone she said is it nannie i said yes and then she told her to shut up she has lernt to sing round the garden but she makes us laugh cos she says 1step 2step really fast do feel sorry for her cos vikki makes her say it over and over and laughs at her simon rang me today he is comin doin the boys light at weekend still do not know what colour to do the hall your mum said a light lemon but i am thinkin an oatmeal or caremel to carry the brown through from the living room you will have to put a colour in my mind so i know still want it to your taste wot do ya think ? i will have to go soon got to get up early to get the kids to school its goin to be cold tomorrow which means nicola wont be out lol she likes her bed to much i have to say that drew is missing you a lot he comes to see you nearly every day and brings the kids to see you 2 he comes ever day to make sure i am ok and i am not crying he dont like it when i cry he allways says dont cry kraig will not want to see you cry he loves you to much and i guess he is right and i know you do and i love you to more than you will probaly ever know no thats wrong i know ya know cos i tell you every night and you tell me to by pulling my foot and i know its you cos you told my mum and she would have not known that that cos i did not tell anyone what you do its a bit cheeky though dont ya think will have to go now its late good nite god bless love you for ever xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxo

hello my precious son, my soldier,my kraigy baby and swampey, the latter being a name you got for yourself during your recent love for golf which you shared with your ever so loving dad

wasnt it so nice to hear from elaine after all these years.

her poem was so lovely

do you remember how she spoiled you,with everything she could,but that was so easy because you was such a loving and special little boy

elaine has offered to donate towards the car boot sales to help us to take your four beautiful children to your special place in corfu and that means a lot to me and i am certain it will to you

big dave is so constant, he never says much but he says it so often, and that will do for me.HE IS MISSING YOU DARLING

MOIRA AND KEVIN, i am sure you will remember them with your cheeky smile,they have helped me and dad so very much through this very dark time, but i dont have to tell you that because i tell you every day and i know you hear me

Good morning mate, the sun is out, first time for a long time cos spring has arrived. Yet another time of the year which reminds me you are not around, makes me feel down. You are a special friend Kraig, one I will take with me where ever I go for the rest of my life, allways there. Miss you more than anything mate……….

hi babe just come to tell you i did get through today with sharon and i think you know what i am talkin about. got weepy in the car on the way sharon and i were talkin about the dreams she has been having i have been asking my mum what they mean i understand why you pick sharon now and ill tell you ya have picked the most special person to let us know you are ok and i know you knew she is the best person for the job our shaz i can hear you saying it. had a good weekend mick drove me and the kids to blackpool and payed for them they had a really good time drew came aswell he was more giddy than the kids he made me go on this blinkin ride i felt sick ya know me and rides i was so not lookin forword to goin on it our jackie was laughing at us calling us wimps saying that our beeki has been on bigger rides than that i felt like a wimp then so my next task is to go with bekki hey i know you like this mick has got the new shape m3 he came in it at weekend so i had drew jay woody even neil came to have a go i was the only one who did not get a ride in it jay wanted to take me round the block but know one would let me get in the car with him the kids even went for a spin in it well i am saying a spin more like take us to the shop and buy us a lot of sweets well i could chat all night but ill have to go and bath the kids ill come again soon love you soooooooo much miss you even more love ya always xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo

Well its almost your Birthday you would have been 30, we are all going to do something special for you. We have a tough time ahead of us though because you should be here with us, its not getting any easier mate, i still think about you all the time i think i always will. I have some days a little better than others, this is not a good day. Its mothers day tomorrow, its going to be difficult for Mum and Lynice but i know you are watching over them. I love you so much little brother, i would do just about anything to bring you back to us. I have never in my entire life felt pain like this and you know as well as anybody i have been through some tough times. I hope my dreams were real like somebody has told me. I am holding on to that. If they are let me visit you again really soon. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hey mate, as you know i was at lyns last night, i just want to say thanks for visiting us, i know your always around in the house but i don’t ever really feel ya presence and i did last night… speak to ya soon

We went to Woodbank Park this morning where Dad gave Mum the most beautiful Mother’s Day present – a memorial in your honour. It is lovely. She cried so much when she saw it – we all did. Now she can visit you everyday when she takes Charlie out for his walk.
It is going to be really hard for Lennie and Mum today. Please help us to get them through it.

We are all going round to Mum’s later just like we always do but it won’t be the same without you there.

Just to echo the sentiments of your family Kraig, everyone that knew you do really miss you. Your time came to soon mate. Every day I think away on you. Close my eyes and your there, just not right you have gone………….

trying to write something, I dont know what to say, it is a cruel world sometimes………. reading everybodys comments it is very very sad, you should still be here Kraig, lovely young man, lovely family, it is so sad……thinking of you all

i come here near enough every day.. except for when i’m being held captive by len and mick, and everytime i goto type something, to talk to you.. its like you take it straight out of my head, and i get stumped with what to say… there are soo many songs that i listen to make me think of you, so many things that go on in the street, things people say… you all around us all…

I have been trying for days to think of something to write for your birthday and found it from the kids. We were driving home from Jackie’s before and they started to talk about wishes, what they would wish for if they could wish. Of course they gave the obvious answer and said ‘more wishes’! I asked them to think about what they would want if they could only have one wish and they sat and thought. Ben then said if it could only be one then it would be to have you back with your family and Luke agreed. But then thats what anyone that knew you would have said. I see you smiling and thats how we will remember you on your birthday. Happy Birthday Scragg.x

Hi mate i am not going to say all the usual birthday things. I cant even say i will think of you more.Truth of the matter is you are never out of my mind.I was very lucky to have spent lots of time with you when you were young,what i would give to be stood in the pits freezing,cleaning your bike off for the next race.I have so many good memories of our time with you.I only hope that they are enough to get me through this special day.

The tree in Woodbank is an Oak tree I chose it because an oak is big and strong , just the way i think of you.

Miss you son will have to go, going to football with Karl will see you later today.

Happy Birthday Mate
Have a great Birthday up there in heaven mate!
We all miss you down here mate and so wish you were with us and your family on your special 30Th.
Nothings much changed Kraig, Utd are winning, City are losing! and It’s throwing it down here on earth as usual!!
I watched Karl the other week play Football and you would be so proud Kraig, he’s like a young Keano!!
Maybe one day you will watch him on Sky tv playing for the red’s!!
We will all celebrate your birthday in the style you deserved mate.

hi babe just to say ilove you so much and miss you more than anything i know your here now you have a special way of lettting me know your here i have all your friends sat here waiting to go and see you you have so many my phone has not stoped ringing i know you love me like i love you i miss you so much thinkin of you on this very special day happy birthday sweet love ya xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo

Like Tracy I have been thinking of what to write on here for your birthday for ages. The reason I am struggling with what to say is because I shouldn’t be having to do this – you should be here with us today to celebrate your 30th.

Your past birthday’s are buzzing around in my head. One memory I have is your 16th. Mum gave you a party at home. She gave you everything, just like she always did for all of us on our birthdays. When it was time to sing Happy Birthday you stood at the dining room table next to your cake and Sharon and I brust into song. We were loud and very much out of tune. We couldn’t sing and still can’t now. Your big sisters had embarrassed you AGAIN!

Graham took a video of that day. I remember at that time – everytime a camera or the video was pointed at you would make a face – you hated the attention.

We won’t embarrass you today Kraig, we will make you so proud instead, all of us.
We are a strong family and we will help each other to get through today. I know if you can be with us, you will.

well m8 lot going on at moment ! family etc but guess you’d know that ! u would have been a year older today ! so happy birthday at least u wont have to worry about grey hairs !lol
not been able to get round to lyn and your family as much as id like but i am going to try just not enough hours in the day ! still think about them all and u
was up at smithfield just aint the same without you ? billy just arrived so must go take care m8
mark
oh dawn and kids all say HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Well mate you must have been laughing your rocks off at me and Big Dave!
Couple of nuggets trying to put some balloons on your grave, First I got stuck in the mud (Dave swears you were trying to pull me under) then as we stuck some balloons down you pushed them out and made me look like a right plonker trying to catch them before they blew off! Street cred gone!
I think it cheered big Dave up a bit he was looking very sad when I turned up

Birthday wishes mate where ever you’re celebrating it, miss you now and forever!
See you soon
Graham (big bro)x

jacquie is so right you did hate a fuss right from day one
i have been thinking a lot lately about the day you were born,remembering how the midwife told me that you wouldnt come untill tomorrow, so try and get some sleep,you decided you didnt want any fuss then so you waited untill everyone had gone and ten minuits later there you were
there i was waiting for someone to come in and tell me that i have a beautiful baby boy
they came in and told me what i wanted to hear
they put you in my arms and you looked right up at me with those gorgeous eyes
well that was just the start of millions of beautiful memories you gave to me over the years
well my love you are going to get the usual fuss today, on your special day whether you like it or not
i love you with every little piece of my broken heart
your ever loving mum
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Hello mate, yep do feel down, but when Graham turned up, well funny wasnt the word !! Hold the baloons tight Grahem, ha ha ha…. Both of us knew it was you !!! See you in a while as I will be back up…..

happy birthday wish ya where here well i think all of us want that i got man of the match today everyone sed i played brill i rearly wanted to score but i just did not get the chance guess what it hale stoned as soon as the half time whistle went ha ha. it was quite funny when it started raining because is was on the full sised pitch and there was 2 more teames on the 5 a side witch is what i play on normaly but whaen it started raining the other 2 teames ran away ha ha wll im goin now cya

as kids we were like brothers not cousins, both had them naggin sisters that didnt want to hang round with us. we were just the irritating little brothers. so we were there for one another, thru thick and thin eh mate! we grew up so alike, people still see me in you, a bigger compliment i couldnt have. i miss you mate, everyone does.

Well mate you know I came back up, you have all your family around you mate. Just a wonderfull birthday Kraig, but one slight complaint. Mate we shouldnt have been there, you should be on a boat now…… Its easy when all your family are around, but it is bad when you are on your own…. Miss you Kraig……..

Hiya litte brother,
Happy 30th Birthday. I love and miss you so much. Just been to Highfield we were all there together, your floweres and cards are lovley. Mum and dad got the children a balloon each to write a message on for you, they all let them go at the same time. Beany even came home from France so he could be with us today. You will always be so special to all of us. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

its me again we have all been to your grave as you know its was so nice jess got very dirty drew came and left you a card the words were so nice big dave was there to with us all but then again i have allways classed him as part of the family it was so nice to be with every one a few tears were shed but that was expected love you so much happy birthday babe see ya soon xo xo xo xo xo xo

Hi Kraig, Me Carly and Corinne, put some flowers on your grave,
I put some artificial ones on so they will last all year, (hopefully)
The sun was shining this morning, and i thought of you smiling,
And saying,… look at them silly buggers there,
Then went to see Lynice, and the kids,
She was telling me about your visits to her,
Best wishes Mate,
Not good bye But see you later..

hiya soldier
we sprnt a long time at your ressting place tody for your special birthday
i am not sure if i am coping with it
i love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much
love you more than anyone could ever imagine

just 2 say sorry i dint say happy birthday i just found it hard! we got sum flowers 4 u on the fire place. i miss u so much n love u more ! we all found it hard but got through it coz we r all family
love u
lauren xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Just to let you know that i wanted to write yesterday with my birthday wishes for you but began to read what all your wonderful family and friends had wrote to you and i became a little tearful,I spent a lovely day in your memory with all your family who are being so brave and so strong but all missing you so very much babe.

You are always in our thoughts.
Auntie Mo and Uncle Brian xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

We came from the other side of the world
We waited all day for you to come
When you arrived we spent so little time together
We are so happy that we met you
We will always remember that short time together
We may be far away but our thoughts are always with your brave family

Hi mate.
Jacob wanted to leave a message for you but he said when he looks at this he feels like somebody is stabbing him in the throat. I think that is a lump in his throat, the children are all dealing with loosing you in their own way. Alex i think is in denial. He came with us on Saturday, He misses you so much, i think you took his dads place for quite a while. Alex speaks about Lenny a lot, he loves her to bits just like he loves you, he thinks she is a good laugh. I know mum told you we spent a while at your resting place, we did mate. I dont think any of us wanted to leave. Ollie was playing in the puddles so was Jess. Tracy was laughing because Jess thought it was so funny when she jumped in a puddle, it was so big, She wanted to do it again. Her boots were sopping wet. Ollie was wet from the waist up, he had dried out by the time we left. Mum brought a cake and a flask and some deck chairs. Noel gave the kids sweets from the back of his car. Good old uncle Noel. Can you remember when we were kids he used to bring us sweets too. At rectory fields the cupboard in the kitchen was always full.
Its so hard mate, We all love and miss you so so much.
Your ever loving sister.
Sharon

Vicky stayed last last, both her and Bekki had a lovely time making Hama beads and doing girly things. When she looks at me I see you looking right back at me. She is your double. It gives me great comfort.

Just got back from the last game of the season, what a great little team they are now, even though they lost today they all played well. Beany came to watch today as he is home. Karl has come on so much and I’m sure you watch with pride. Sam came with us on Tuesday to training and got to join in (even though his boots wouldnt tie up!) I miss you being there with us so much. Karl puts everything into the game to make you proud, he’s a credit to you and I love spending time with him, as I do all of them because you live on in them.x

Thank you for coming to see me today. As you know i am very sceptical (or should i say was) You heard me saying that today before you decided to prove me wrong. Its a feeling i cant put into words, i know you were there and you touched my hand. Thank you Kraig, i miss you so much and love you more than ever.
You are in every living moment of each and ever one of us. See you soon. Visit again, if only for a split second like today.
xxx

Four months have gone since that terrible night,
Full of pain, grief and sorrow, now nothing is right.
I cannot take in and believe that it’s true,
How could this possibly have happened to you?
I scream and cry, ‘Oh why, oh why?’
Why did my beautiful son have to die?
So young, full of life, so caring too,
So many things in life left to do.
It doesn’t make sense and it never will,
How could this happen? You wasn’t even ill.
The shock the horror begins to take hold,
I feel dizzy, I shake and go very cold.
I shout and I scream, please,please let it be a dream.
But it’s true, it’s real my family no more,
Ruined and shattered, heartbroken and raw.
Dark days ahead, life holds no joy.
I yearn for my old life, I beg, I implore,
It isnt meant to be not ever no more.
Nothing seems real, I float outside my world,
Memory has gone and I feel so very ill.
All those cards and flowers, it is all quite mad,
It isn’t for my son, it just cant be.
Please go away a mistake has been made, can’t you see?
I want to be alone, but that can’t be,
Too many things to be done and people to see.
No let up, no peace, just an aching desire to see and hold my son once more,
To kiss you and hug you and not let you go.
My new life begins,
Every day brings fresh pain.
Peoples laughter and comments just drive me insane,
I want to shout and scream, can’t you see?
Nothing you do or say can help me.
I am amazed with myself that I am still alive,
With such torment and grief ripping at my insides.
I struggle along day by day,
With anniversaries and birthdays haunting the way.
Time marches on and drags me there too,
Every day in the news a tragedy new,
How I have learned the pain a mother goes through.
I think of my son every minute of the day and night,
Too wanted too precious to be out of sight.
I hope you are safe and looked after too,
Protected by angels who love you as I do.
Never forgotten, loved untill I die,
But always will think, ‘Why, oh why, oh why?’

hi dad its me again well i dont come and talk that much coz i just cant buck up the courige to come and talk coz it upsets me but thats ok i supose coz i know you tickle me in bed to check im ok like you always do iv not kept you informed on football there is so much to tell you im sorry i just so wish you where her right now. it was funny the other week coz sam came football and it was midges last time before the babby so we did a cross bar challeng and god bless sa coz he had is timbolands on ha ha he could not get it off the ground
but hit post twice out of three times ha ha midge sed we might get you a medal for hittin the post the most times.ha ha im goin any way now later dad

I think of you
and I feel sad
Recalling the good times
that we had
Siblings by chance
friends by choice
Now far too late
I find my voice
I’ll think of you daily
till the end
Always and ever
My brother, my friend.

Though it hurts to go away
It’s impossible to stay
But there’s one thing I must say
Before I go
I love you (I love you) you know
I’ll be thinking of you
In most everything I do

Now the time is moving on
And I really should be gone
But you keep me hanging on
For one more smile
I love you (I love you) all the while
With your cute little ways
Will you promise that you’ll save
Your kisses for me
Save all your kisses for me
Bye bye baby bye bye
Don’t cry honey don’t cry
Gonna walk out the door
But I’ll soon be back for more
Kisses for me
Save all your kisses for me
So long honey so long
Hang on baby hang on
Don’t you dare me to stay
Coz you know I’ll have to say
That I’ve got to work each day
And that’s why I go away
But I count the seconds
Till I’m home with you
I love you (I love you) it’s true
You’re so cute honey gee
Won’t you save them up for me
Your kisses for me
Save all your kisses for me
Bye bye baby bye bye
Don’t cry honey don’t cry
Gonna walk out the door
But I’ll soon be back for more
Kisses for me
Save all your kisses for me
So long honey so long
Hang on baby hang on
Don’t you dare me to stay
Coz you know you’ve got to save
Your kisses for me
Save all your kisses for me
Bye bye baby bye bye
Don’t cry honey don’t cry
Won’t you save them for me
Even though you’re only three

hi babe sorry not bin for a while cant come on coz when i do i read all the things peopel say and i get so upset it hurts really bad and i just want u whith me 24 /7 u are all i think mornin noon and nite its not fair kraig why u thank u for comin to me the other nite it was a weird feeling but i know u were there and thank u for coming to shaz to she was telling me u came to prove a point ya rum un love u so much and miss u more love ya always ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox xo ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox ox

Not a moment of the day goes by when im not thinking about you, your children your wife, Mum, Dad. Everybody misses you so so much. I question when the pain will go away but i dont think it ever will. I know you are here with us, just that you are in a mmuch better place.
Love you little brother.
Yey Yey. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

There is nothing i can do,
to make him come back
There are no words I can say,
that can replace the words you long to hear

There are no answer’s I can give,
that will satisfy your questions
There is not another soul I can introduce you to that will ever replace him
And, there is no love I can offer that will ever replace the love you shared

I can not promise your broken heart will ever be complete
I will not say it could have been worse
I will not deny it was a tragedy
I will not lie and tell you he will come back

He never really left

I do promise he hears you when you speak
I will say he loves you no matter the distance
I will not deny he is in a better place
And, I will not lie; he is waiting to greet you someday

He is every you step you take
He is in everything you do
He is the air you breathe
He is every beat of your heart

” He is like the wind. You can not see him…but you will always feel him”

Hi mate. Just looking at the photos, i still cant believe its true. You are so special to all of us and you always were. We miss and love you so much. I know people say it was your time but its just not fair. It shouldnt have been your time mate. I wish i could bring you home and put a smile back on everybodys face.

Everybody is doing a car boot sale tomorrow to raise money for the children so Mum and dad can take them to Corfu. Auntie Mo Uncle Brian Bernie Neol Tracy and damion. Everybody who cant be there have donated things. The children will never go without and we are all pulling together to make sure they are all ok.

Karl made you proud last night picking up his first football trophy. It brought a tear to most peoples eyes. Not a dry eye i believe. I couldnt get there but everybody told me all about it.

Vikki is doing great at Gymnastics, i still take her every Saturday. Sammi, well Sammi is just sammi, he has that special little smile just like yours. Ollie loves him to bits, poor Sammi spider cant go anywhere without a kiss and a cuddle from Ollie, and Jessi she is growing up so fast. Lenny is a star and i know how proud of her you will be, its been so hard for her mate but we are all with her every step of the way as im sure you are. I know you are watching over them all.

Well mate, you take care and drop in once in a while to say hello. I love you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi mate,
Went to watch Karl get his certificate for “most improved player” on Saturday night. We’re all very proud of him!
Also braved the wind and rain this morning to do a car boot. Everybody did very well raising over 300 pounds for the kids trip to Corfu!

safe kraig, i aint done 1 of these yet, i dint know how to do it, but everyone is missin you mate, cant say how much i miss you ma main man, i hope to see you in heaven when its m turn, love you loads mate

Two great European narcotics,
Alcohol and Christianity,
I know which one I prefer

We never went to church,
Just get on with work and sometimes things’ll hurt,
But it’s hit me since you left us,
And it’s so hard not to search.

If you were still about,
I’d ask you what I’m supposed to do now,
I just get grubbin’ scared,
Every now,
Hope I made you proud.

On your birthday when mom passed the forks and spoons,
I put my head on the table I was so distraught with you,
You tidied your things into the bin,
The more poorly you grew,
So there’s nothing of yours to hold or to talk to.

Put your hand up and interrupt the conversation with a, but..
People say I interrupt people with the same look.
Sometimes I think so hard I can’t remember how your face looked,
Started reading about dreams in your favourite book.
Panic and pace when I can’t see the right thing to do.
You’d be scratching your head through the best advice you knew.
And I feel sad I can’t hear you reciting it through,
I miss you dad but I’ve got nothing to remind me of you

Chorus

I needed a break when your book about dreams was taken,
I needed to pray or see a priest that day,
I needed to leave this trade and just heave it away.
But I cleaned up my place like you so I could see things straight.

I never cared about God when life was sailin’ in the calm,
So I said I’d get my head down and I’d deal with the ache in my heart,
And for that if God exists I’d reckon he’d pay me regard,
Mom says me and you are the same from the start.

I guess than you did leave me something to remind me of you,
Everytime I interrupt someone like you used to,
When I do something like you you’ll be on my mind or through,
‘Cause I forgot you left me behind to remind me of you.

Chorus x 2

But you you still tell me how you didn’t know what to do even now,
And then I’m not so scared somehow,
‘Cause I know that you’d be proud.

I got a good one for you dad,
I’m gonna see a priest, a Rabbi and a Protestant clergyman,
You always said I should hedge my bets.

You probably know that Auntie Kathy died this afternoon. I expect that you, Gary, Nana, Grandad, Uncle Ted and many others in the family were there to meet her.

I went to see her last night, she was sleeping and had been for the past couple of days although when I spoke to her I am sure she heard me. I asked her to give you my love and a big hug. This side of life just isn’t fair – she has suffered but at least the pain has gone away now that she is an angel in heaven like you.

Look after each other and please give all our family the strength to get through yet another sad and tragic loss.

Feels like i have not left a message for a while but i have been thinking about you every minute of the day, and visit every day. Help us all through this week mate. I know you will be with us. I miss you more and more as each day passes. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello mate. Been while, but I do visit everyday. You know whats going on, so no need to say. Do miss you Kraig, no easier as time goes on.Called to see your mum the other night, think it helped, I hope so, but she does look down. Will keep my eye on them and will get over to your house to see Lynice and the children. Keep watching over us Kraig as I believe you do……..

My thoughts and prayers are with you all,
Found this and thought of Kraig and Cathy
sending it to you from Heaven, hope it helps.

“Hope From Heaven”
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This Holy poem from heaven will help God’s children cope.
It’ll help encourage your spirit, and give your soul some hope.
This is your private letter, you personally got from home.
A message from your family, as proof you’re not alone.

Although you cannot see us, we’re here behind the scene.
We’re walking right beside you, as family and a team.
We really do still love you, you’re cherished as our own.
We’re anxious you’ll be with us, make heaven your new home.

Your tears are felt in heaven, your sorrow touched us too.
We want to lift your spirit, and help you make it through.
We know that it’s not easy, your training as a king.
To walk by faith on earth, to believe but haven’t seen.

Each day we hear your prayers, your moans are heard at night.
We sent some mighty angels, to help you with your fight.
We know it’s really tough, sometimes it’s hard to bear.
This poem will give you hope, and show we really care.

This poem will help remind you, the gifts you have in store.
The splendour that awaits you, to help your spirit soar.
If you could see your kingdom, Jesus promised you.
Your heart would leap for joy, it’ll Bless your spirit too!

We’ll have a celebration, with cheer you’re welcomed in.
He’ll wipe away your tears, your new life will begin.
We’ll all stand up and cheer, ovation just for you.
Our precious overcomer, because you made it through.

You’ll get to meet with Jesus, you’ll get to see His smile.
Hear His cheerful laughter, His glow that spreads for miles.
Your head rest in His bosom, you’ll snuggle in His lap.
You’ll feel His warmful glow, enjoy a peaceful nap.

You’ll get to meet your family, we’ll have a great parade.
Your cheer will never weaken, your joy will never fade.
You’ll visit hosts of heaven, our charm exhilarate.
A loving Holy people, we live and walk by faith.

His book of life we opened, saw your name was there.
Proof you’ll live forever, be honored as an heir.
You’ll grow in Holy wisdom, your kingdom will be great.
You’ll rule along-side Jesus, inherit your estate.

Your training down on earth, will help you wisely rule.
Remember every lesson, as if you are in school.
We surely want to help you, to prosper and to cope.
That’s why we sent this poem, to give your soul some hope.

This is your private letter, you personally got from home.
A message from your family, as proof you’re not alone.

I first found out about Kraigs passing in January. I did a search and on his name hoping to find something in a newspaper and found this link. I wanted to leave a message then but wasnt sure weather i should.

Since then I left it and left it and have watched the updated messages unfold, day by day, month by month. After returning from holiday i see that Kath has passed on also. I only met her a couple of times and they werent in the best of circumastances. Daves message of the 10th of May was my first thought ‘how much does your family have to go through !’

My heart goes out to you all especially Lynice and the children, Sharon, Les, Stace, Jackie and all the children. i can only guess what you must have been through, are going through, and will continue to go through. It is impossible for me to fathom.

I only knew kraig for around 3 years, and my first memories typifies all that is written here. He was a family man, for Lynice and the children and for the Garland Family as a whole. He was defensive of Sharon, his big sister in all the time i was with her. He would not allow her or anyone connected, to get hurt if he could help it. That speaks volumes or the man.

I really do hope that i havent upset anyone, just wanted pass on by belated respects and condolences to you all, not Just for Kraig, also Nana and Kath.

Hi mate
I have been to the park today with Ollie and put a single Yellow rose by your tree for you. You were in the paper today, a reminder how much we all miss you so much.
Its Ollies Christening on Sunday, we will all be thinking about you. I have 45 yellow roses, everybody is to take one and think about you during the christening, then they will write a message to you and i will bring them all to your resting place.
I love you so much and miss you more every day.
Sharon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i have just come to say thankyou to my loving husband for my white feather it was so nice to come down stairs in the morning knowing you are still around it made me smile for the rest of the day and i have told and shown it to everyone its amasing how something so littel can make a big impact on your day i want to say thankyou to mark for leaving a message its nice to know pepole are still looking at kraigs site as every day passes i miss u more and more and this year seems to be going so quick its your dads birthday on sunday and i havnt a clue what to get him so i would be greafull if you could help me on that one babe i love you so much xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo

hello my angel
i read the artical in the newspaper today
it broke my heart all over again
that is the part of my heart that is still left
the rest of it went with you
i have loved and lost and hurt
but nothing has ever felt like this
i want god to give you back to me
i didnt know anyone could feel the pain that i am feeling
i love you and miss you sooooooo much my darling
i sometimes feel like i am going mad
i took life so much for granted
just like most of us do
then something happened that changed me forever
and now i realise the pain that so many other parents have felt
i would hear about someone losing a child
and i would hurt
but i had no idea how severe that pain was
but i do now
i will never be the same person again
the horror that greets me the minute i wake up in the morning
then i have to try to be normal, but i cant
i have a long day ahead of me
the torture, the pain, i watch the clock, i want the day to be over
i want les to come home
we have a drink,go to bed then it starts all over again
i just want you back my sweetheart
my little boy
i love you
i want you to come home,with that cheeky smile
please come home kraigy baby
i went to the hospital today with sharon
we were on the floor where you were born
crucified me
all the memories came flooding back
i love you so much,my beautiful boy
this just isnt real
i still feel that you are going to come home and tell us it was a bad dream
maybe that will happen when i die
god will give you back to me
i want god to give you back to me
i think he will
untill then my scragg
wait for me
i love you more than words
to my precious son
love you for eternity

hi dad just want to say im ok and how are you doin had a break from footi and school thats bin fun haha dont come on here often coz i just dont av time haha got lots of m8ts that come nock on for me.
got a mimi moto im quite good on them the one you had was the best it was well fast i can remember when i went two fast and you told me off that was funny well im goin now so see you later

Hello mate.
I have been thinking about you all the time, not a minute of the day goes by when you are not in my thoughts. We are all low at the moment, we are a strong family and will all stick together and help one another. Im a little worried about Mum and Dad, will you keep your eye on them for me. We love and miss you so much. Your ever loving sister.
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memories
like the corners of my mind
misty watered coloured memories of the way we were
scattered pictures
of the smiles we left behind
smiles we gave to one another
for the way we were
can it be that it was all so simple then
or has time rewritten every line
if we had the chance to do it all again
darling would we,could we
memories may be beautiful and yet
whats too painful to remember
we simply choose to foget
so its the laughter
we will remember
whenever we remember
the way we were
the way we were

hi babe well summer thought it would be easy cos i could get out with the kids think it is the hardest time for me u loved it so much showin off that body of yours ha ha and every year you would burn ya back till you couldnt even sit back on the chair you always did silly thing that made me laugh the kids have had a really good holiday cos of the weather drew got his swimming pool so they have been jumping off the trampoline into it even jess has had a swim i got her a sit in inflaterble car with a stirin wheel she has had a ball this is the first year she has played out with her brothers and sister and they really look after each other just like you wanted it makes me proud to wach them even thou they do have littel fights even jess ha ha well i am goin sitting on the door step now jess is in bed think i will have a beer aswell cos the kids dont go back till tuesday you comin sittin with me babe see ya soon xo xo xo xo love you and miss you xo xo xo xo xo xo

i still ask why. nobody has the answers. i think bout shaz, jackie, your mum and dad all the time. how do they cope? i struggle. i hate goin into my mums back room at times and seein your picture there. you`ll never be back, we all accept that now. the pain doesnt go but we accept it.

sometimes i feel guilty when i enjoy myself, why cant you be there to join the fun? think about me and you as kids. growing up. remember the day you first introduced me to lynice, she never spoke to me (i still remind her about that). ignorant cow!

i try to see lynice when i`m home. but i`m home less and less these days. your jess makes me smile. shes a dolly. and your vicky is so like my ella. she always tells me she hates me but lynice tells me se always asks bout me!

I miss you more and more each day. It is definitely NOT getting easier.

You are in my thoughts all day long. I especially think of you when I watch Big Brother. Remember you tried to get me, you, Graham and Lynice eviction tickets last year. When you couldn’t get them you said you would try again next time. You would love Pete! I probably shouldn’t say this it is not very P.C but you thought tourettes was hilarious.

I understand exactly what Beany means when he says he feels guilty enjoying himself. It is something we have all spoken about. The sun is shining outside but it may as well be dull and grey because without you it is wasted.

I don’t think I can cope with this much more – I want you to come home!

I have just come back from spain with Ellie, we had a nice time but no matter where i go you go with me. We spent 1 whole evening on the balcony talking about you and crying. I watched men in the pool about your age and all i could think was why cant you be doing this with your family. Mum and dad are still finding things very hard. I am trying my best to help them. I know you will be watching over them. Saw Lynice in stockport today with Jess. Lynice was going to get you something for Fathers day for you off the children, another day to try to get through and support Lynice and the children. We will have a lifetime of reminders, as long as we all stick together we can all help one another.
I love you from the bottom of my heart little brother. Drop in soon.
Sharon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

It is Mum’s birthday today Kraig – her first one without you. Please help her to get through it.

Dad struggled on Sunday (Father’s Day), he was quite teary. He was so upset for Karl, Vicky, Sam and Jess. The children let balloons off for you in the cemetry. Each one of them wrote a special message on it for you. It wasn’t the same without you.

It has been almost seven months but to me that awful day in December only feels like yesterday although it seems such a long time since I saw you. I miss you so much. xx

league fixtures came out today. we got arsenal 16th september, chel$ki 25th november, and the derby the 9th december.

always remember me and you as kids goin wiv ya dad. singin on the stretford end, all the bad songs, we both knew ya dad heard us, but think he was proud we were both red thru and thru and turned a blind eye on it. bad dad! sure we`d both do the same. red thru and thru eh mate! stretford seats. my bums still sore, not the best were they mate.

Hi mate
Im struggling today, i love you so much and just want to give you a big cuddle. I miss my little brother, you were a pain in the arse sometimes, who’s little brother wasnt buti would give anything to have you back.When i saw Gaz last weekend there were little expressions he made that reminded me so much of you. Its so hard you not being with us. I have made some very big changes to my life and you influenced them. For the first time in a long time i feel happy with my life but i so wish you were here to talk to. As i am sat here talking to you i can hear you laughing and they are the memories i hold on to tight. If only we could turn back time mate. Love you forever. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Dave’s words were how we all feel EMPTY. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Still time just trundles on, with out a care in the world for any one. Memories just get stronger mate, you will allways be here with all the people that love you and all your mates Kraig. Maybe not in person, but in all our hearts…..

hi mate sorry i havent left a message lately. you know me,absolute rubbish with words. took mum to corfu to mo and brians new house over there.. you would love it.mum had some good days and some bad.i know when she is feeling bad now.jackie and graham bought her a locket for her birthday.graham told mum that everytime she feels low to clutch it tight and you will be there for her.the biggest moment that upset us both was going to the rose garden on our last night we both remembered how much you enjoyed your meal there.mum said she could see you running round and playing there then i saw the messongi beach hotel. and i could picture you dressed as a clown for the fancy dress contest,which you won.i also remember the night we had to sleep on the beach because of the fires,and you telling me to stay awake in case the came too close.it was a big step forward for mum,and i am so proud of her as i know you will be because i know you are watching over her. i shouldnt be writing these memories on this web site,todays sunday and you should be here with lennie and the kids for your dinner and we could have a long chat. i really miss you son why did you have to leave us all..you took a big piece of my heart with you.please make me stronger than i feel.love and miss you,see you soon love dad xx

Hi matie.
So sorry i have not had chance to leave a message, i have not had access to the internet. I have moved into my new house now, it only rented but its cozy. I came to the grave today and renewed the flowers. I miss you so much and as dave says you will always be in our hearts mate. There will never be a day that passes when i am not thinking about you. You make sure you pop in on me once in a while i need to know you are there. Look over Mum and dad always. They miss you and love you so much. Now i am back online i will pop in again very soon, always love you and miss you. Sharon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hiya mate,
just reading ya dads message made me remember the fire, we were staying in kavos at the time and we came up to see you.
i`m in austria at the moment. on return i`m off to my mums villa, everyone keeps tellin me how nice it is, just to hear ya mum had some good days is nice, everyone knows the bad days will always be there but to know she can smile now helps everyone. hopefully lennie can get to see it wiv the kids. be nice for her to get a break.

Ello mate, came up to see you yesterday. Lovely evening and very quiet up there. You know what we chatted about, and yes the tears came again !!! Called in on Lenice and your two youngest were there. She seemed chirpy enougth, but didnt stay long. Like I said to you down at the grave side – Your time came to soon, you had so much to live for Kraig, just so wrong you where taken from your family. Keep remembering the times you and I would take the world on at work !!!! That time when we were coming home from Manchester and we were nearly wiped out. You wanted to get out and kill the tosser, but we went onto to the Kebab house, it was shut !!! Now I was angry !!! Memories Kraig…..

HiYa, Kraig. Sent Your Mum,Dad,Sisters,their family’s and your wife and children a card yesterday, I appologise, i called your wife Lenny, i wan;t sure of her name and hope Lenny was’t to personal ( i have never met her). I just w2anted to let them know I often think about you all and light a candle in church for you all. It’s all sad and painful kraig but in my own mind you are happy and in heaven you are with your family all the time you are happy as long as they are ok you were special Kraig so there’s no doubt that you will be fine it’s just the people left behind who hurt sooooooo sooooooo soooooo sooooo much. I have a very very special song that I want to share with your family the words are beautiful and so meaningful, I will explain the full story to your mum fully when I do eventually get to see her again after all this time. But in 1999 I was trying to help a young 15 year old girl with the very sudden death of her 38 year old mum, one piece of advice I could give her was that one day she’d find a song that would always remind her of her mum and it would always warm her heart. A few days later she’d been going somewhere with her dad even before the funeral and out of the blue it played on the radio (it’s actually a B side I think it’s Blue or five or someone like that i’ll find out) next thing she came to me annd said listen to this Ally, I’ve found Mum’s song, she’d been and bought the CD and everything. I’ll send a tape to your mum anyway, Maybe I am Crazy but I believe in these things and I think these words are special, In this case it really was the words meant word for word something for me too even after (then) 22 years although by now to me it was just beautiful to hear to her it was helping her through lots and lots and lots of pain. I am typing the words for your Mum, Dad and all your family, I really hope there is no problem with copyright or anything:

All the things I said
or should have said and didn’t say
and I wonder why
yes I wonder why

I think about the time we spent
the places that we went
still makes me cry, yes it makes me cry

Why do they say that time will heal this broken heart
they would know it isn’t true
if they’d lost someone like you

Some things can never be replaced
Some things are with me for always

These are the things I will remember
when I remember when

I’D RATHER LOVE AND LOOSE IT ALL
THAN NEVER HAVE YOU TO RECALL

These are the things I will remember again again again and again
when I remember when

You taught me how to love
I am all I am because of you

Everytime I lost my way
you’d shine your light
and make my day

you’d see me through
yes you’d see me through

So who’s gonna come around to heal this broken heart

You showed me how to laugh and cry
but never how to say goodbye

somethings cna never be replaced
somethings are with me for always
I’d rather love and loose it all
than never have you to recall

these are the things I will remember
when I remember when

Yes life goes on, you carry on and it’s ok
yes love goes on and I will live to love another day

Yes life goes on you carry on you do and it’s OK

I WILL LAUGH AND I WILL CRY BUT I WILL NEVER SAY GOODBYE

XXXXXXXXXXXX

I hope there is some comfort for you in this xxxxx take care xx love Ally

Hi It’s Alison again I’m going through some things at the moment and I briefly
told you today Stacia about it. I am not going through anything near what you
and the family are going through. I can’t describe it I just feel a connection
and I for one beleive in all the things you all seem to be believing in i.e. the feather for Lynice just the little things like that. the little things you hope you’ll see then when you do even though you believe and strongly believe, you can never be really 100% sure. You don’t know if your just seeing these things becuase you just want to, something to help you through your pain. I believe it’s real I believe these signs you see are there they are real. I believe Kraig will walk beside you he will want you to smile again and even though it’s hard right now you will do one day and when you feel like it it is ok and that is what Kraig will want. He Knows how much you hurt right now that’s ok too his little signs are there to help you through, you will get through it and one day you will smile again and he’ll be happy to see you do it, when you are ready. This may sound crazy but this is what I feel in my haert and this is what I believe through experiences I have been through myself
xxxxx take care Alison xxxx

Here Is another beautiful song about goodbyes it’s by the young New Zealand singer Hayley Westenra, the CD album is called Pure it’s generally quite a relaxing tape Stacia so might be helpful for bedtime,if you fancied getting it. Although some of the songs are in Maori language but it’s still peaceful and calming. Maybe I’m going on with myself here, but I really will do all I can to help ease any of your pain and suffering if I can. Our families have a close history, whether or not we lost touch and you are part of my family x x x
anyway here’s those words:

If I could take this moment forever
Turn the pages of my mind
To another place and time
We would never say goodbye

If I could find the words I would speak them
Then I wouldn’t be so tongue-tied
When I looked into your eyes
we would never say goodbye

If I could stop the moon ever rising
Day would not become the night
wouldn’t feel this cold inside
and we’d never say goodbye

I wish that our dreams were frozen
then our hearts would not be broken
when we let each other go…

If I could steal this moment forever
paint a picture-perfect smile
so our story stayed alive
we would never say good bye

There are loads of songs that remind me of Kraig, some of which I can listen to some I can’t.

The two played at Kraig’s funeral I definitely can’t listen to. You don’t hear Bette Midler’s From a Distance much but James Blunt’s Beautiful seems to be everywhere. When I hear it on the radio or on a music TV channel I have to turn it off. I don’t think even with time I will be able to listen to them without shedding a tear.

Our loss is not getting any easier. I think of my brother all day every day.

Hi Mate, Sorry i haven’t been here for a while,
I have started a new job and i have been very busy,
And i know you will always be here waiting patiently,
I have passed two funerals this week, on the road,
And each time you came in my mind,
And yes i did have tears in my eyes, Sorry,
Still miss you mate, and always will,
People dont know it; but you were like a son to me,
And i miss you like i would one of my own children,
Take care of your brood for me mate,

Hi matie, it was Lynice’s birthday today. I feel for her i really do, i know how i felt on my birthday. You would call me and say “happy birthday Shaz, cant get to you today so i will see you tonorrow” you always did come with a bottle of wine etc. I relly cant imagine whhat Lynice has gone through today. I love you mate always, you are in my thoughts every single day. xxxxxxxxxxx

I have no idea how I got here, but losing someone is extremely hard I was actually just surfing and thinking about my grandmothers passing and this website popped up.. very weird.. My regards to the garland family.. this is all very weird.

Hi Kraig,
I think God is calling on you to do one of the special jobs he has in mind for you, I hope it’s ok for me to tlk to you here. I’m having a very hard time at the moment and this is a very very dark hour for me, my sleeping tablets have failed yet again, there’s no one here only the dogs and they are just protecting me and giving me a good lick now and again to remind me that I am loved. I know I have a very loving family and many true and caring friends who love me dearly too it’s just too difficult to explain here but i’m desperatately in need of someone to talk to and it’s 5am and there’s no one here.I have an ilness which causes drastic mood swings and I need medication to help to balance them and I also need to learn how to recognise and learn to manage the signs etc. I was in hospital until yesterday, but they threw me out,
(no-one ever could take me anywhere!!!) anyway I made a complaint to a nursing officer about a night staff nurse who accused me of costing the NHS £1,000.00
per night and I wasn’t even trying to get better. She was shouting at me almost waking the other patient up too, she said it because I’d had the maximum
dosage of my sleeping pill and had woken up through a nightmare after a couple of hours and no matter how much I tried, my head just woul not let me go to sleep at all and the more I tried the more restless I got so, I got up to go for a cigarette and try to clear my head and also so I didn’t disturb my room mate, which is when bumped in to Miss Hitler!!! After shouting at me outside my room she stomped off without letting me speak and flitted off to the offic which is on the Men,s side (I think she was tired she was heavily pregnant and I think i’d disturbed the (illegal staff “sleep break” rota). I was a bit annoyed with her so in order to keep myself calm and avoid myself getting wound up I decided to report this immediately to a nursing officer (I know the procedure I’ve worked it) I popped my head through the door and calmly requested to see the duty Nursing officer, she the replied, “Do you want me to press that alarm”. That was a threat cause that means when the alarm is pressed staff are being attacked so loads of other staff come running off other wards pinn you down and jab you with a needle that puts you to sleep. I’m really sorry for going on Kraig and maybe your site isn’t meant for this but I really need to talk to some one and you are the only one available at this momemnt in time. I have also re worded a song for your family which is another rreason I was going to visit your site this weekend. I was sorting some CD’s
of my Claire’s and listened to a few I kept playing one over again and have re worded it for your mum dad and all your family. It’s One True Voice, from Popstars, I think they were the boy band who came second to Girls Aloud, anyway the song is, After you’re gone (I’ll still be loving you), I’ve re worded it for here and called it A Song For Kraig (hope it’s legal!)

A SONG FOR KRAIG

WE START THIS LIFE TOGETHER
NEVER KNOW WHAT LIES AHEAD

WE KNOW IT’S NEVER EASY
NEVER REALLY KNOWING WHAT LIES PLANNED

WE ALWAYS KNOW THAT TIME WIL MAKE US STRONGER
NO MATTER HOW HARD THINGS MIGHT BE
WE NEVER SAW US WITHOUT YOU

WE TRY TO CALL UP ALL THE MEMORIES
OF YOU TO HELP US THROUGH

TO FIND THE STRENGTH TO HIDE THE PAIN INSIDE
TO HELP US START A NEW

AND WE NEED YOU TO KNOW
WHEREVER YOU WILL GO, OUR LOVE
WE’LL STILL BE MISSING KRAIG
TO THE END OF THE WORLD

AND WE NEED YOU TO SEE
WHEREVER YOU MAY BE
LONG AFTER YOU’RE GONE
WE’LL STILL BE LOVING YOU xxxxxxxxx

NO-ONE SAID IT WOULD BE EASY
NO-ONE TOLD US WHAT TO SAY

EVEN NOW WE TRY TO SEARCH OUR HEARTS
TO FIND SOME WORDS TO BRING YOU HOME

THE LOVE WE SHARED WE MISS IT EVERY DAY
BUT AS LONG AS WE THINK OF YOU KRAIG
WE KNOW YOU WON’T BE FAR AWAY

WE TRY TO CALL UP ALL THE MEMORIES
OF YOU TO HELP US THROUGH
TO FIND THE STRENGTH TO HIDE THE PAIN INSIDE
TO LET US START A NEW

OH KRAIG YOU KNOW WE LOVE YOU TO THE END OF TIME
NOW WE MUST BE STRONG
IN TIME WE’LL BE MOVING ON

AND WE NEED YOU TO KNOW
WHEREVER YOU MAY GO OUR LOVE
WE’LL STILL BE MISSING YOU TILL THE END OF THE WORLD

AND WE NEED YOU TO SEE
WHEREVER YOU MAY BE
LONG AFTER YOU’RE GONE
WE’LL STILL BE LOVING YOU xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

FOR KRAIG GOD BLESS RIP XXXX

I hope the family like that song kraig and find some comfort in it I know your mum’s heart is broken beyond repair, probably your dad’s and everyone’s is too but I’ve spoken too your mum and I know she’s in sooooooooo sooooooo much pain. Elaine brought your mum to see me in hospital last week It was such a suprise I was really choked after all this time and in such circumstances. I love your family Kraig I really do it’s my extended family remember lots of laughter and fun. Bernie is just and always will be like another sister in my eyes, she’s part of my growing up, so are you and the girls nad your mum and dad. Anyway when I first looked at your mum she looks really well, I thought it was Bernie at first, you would never imagine the pain and hearbreak she is carrying. That’s just it, it’s the same with mental illness, it’s not written across your forehead, what’s going on in your heart or your head. Your mum bought me the most beautiful bouquet of red roses which was, amazing and more than appreciated (i know money isn’t exactly flowing!), I brought them home with me and have just tidied them up and put them in my new “hospital room”, Claire’s bedroom, that might sound strange but I shouldn’t be home yet Kraig. I have no choice though at the moment I have to take this step by step since I was “EVICTED” if things get reaaly bad there’s alwaya A&E again but I can’t go back to stepping hill, i think maybe where I am I’d be able to go to MRI A&E.
It’s really hard being here at home and i’m so glad you’ve been here to see me through at least it’s daylight outside now. (I’m still wide awake but feel a bit better not so low). I can’t go in my own bed yet cause that’s too much “back at home, I can’t explain Kraig, but I’m paranoid to hell here cause of my Hyper manic moment which put me in hospital in the first place, running through the streets of reddish naked, carrying a crucifix screaming and shouting at everyone and anyone, all I remember before that was going for a sleep, next thing I know I’m there naked in the middle of the road being stopped by a police man. Anyway with what’s happened now nad since and everything it was my GP’s, my Psychiatrist’s and my CPN’s cock ups that led me in there in the fist place now it’s them that’s led me here now, but I can’t give in Kraig I have four babies i have to live for I have to get through this for them, i know I’m an embarrasment to them I know they can’t understand sand even if they do because they love me then they stand to take a lot of stick for it from their fiends or other people because of because of ignorance, illiteracy and idiots, I particularly worry about and hate what me and my illness have done to (my baby) Liam, I hope he doesn’t get bullied cause of itit’s a nightmare, he must hate it really. Anyway Kraig thank you for being there Angel, I really needed you, you’ve seen me through a very dark and scarey night. I will try to get a copy of that song for your mum and dad and will type the words A Song For Kraig as soon as I can and send it to them, I know they find it very difficukt and extremely painful to visit your site. Thank you for being there my angel, god had a task for you tonight and you carried me through thank you soooooo soooooo sooooo much, love you, god bless, love Alison xxxxxxxx

ps every time I visit this site i see your picture, even though I didn’t see you for years, that special “twinkle” in your eyes that was there when you were little is exactly the same as ever. You are special and I believe YOU ARE ONE OF THE BRIGHTEST MOST TWINKLING STARS IN THE SKY XXXXXXX THANK YOU AGAIN XXXX

Hi mate, just had a nice week in Angelesy with Karl,Vikki, your Mum & Dad, Jackie,Thom,Bekki & James (Thom’s mate).
I’m sure you were there with us.
I’ve put some pics in your Gallery…
Click on “Kids on holiday ” to view them.

hi bro. this bloody site , every time i come on i read the messages and i shed a tear, grown up an all, guess sometimes you cant fight how ya feel can ya. me and sharon were out the other week, cant take her anywhere, such good company but boy she gets drunk. shes so happy at the moment, and thats makes me smile. i`m away again, as usual. not seen lynice in ages, feel guilty bout that, i`ll see her soon promise, as much as anythin i miss the kids. see karl at football but not the others, bad uncle bean!
love you, we all do.

Hey you, been a while since I wrote although you know not a day goes by without thinking about you or visiting here, had a friend round yesterday who looked at your picture and commented on how good looking you are! but we know that anyway. Football matches are about to start and the boys got their new kits on Tuesday, apparently Karl managed to get his dirty without even playing a game yet! in fact dont think he even left the house! They are white tops and socks so gona be fun getting them clean in the winter! Think they are all ready to start playing again just hope they do as well as last year. 1st game is 9th September so make sure your there with us to cheer them on, although you know Midge can shout enough for all of us! She’s so great with the boy’s and they all adore her.

Didn’t know Kraig personally, my heart goes out to all of his family and friends though as I know how they feel as I lost my Brother the same way and he was only 39. Five years on I still miss him dearly.
Jason

Hi mate
Well the time is drawing closer now for my parachute jump 16th Sept. We are doing it in memory of you mate for British Heart Foundation. Marks girls and Karl walked the street and raised £150 over the weekend. The kids are all taking a sponsor form to school, dad is taking one to work and i am going to ask Graham if he will take one into his work for me. Mark has also taken one into work NTL are putting the first £250 forward. BHF have put a link on their site so people can sponsor me and Mark online with debit or credit cards. (thats a hint for anybody who visits the site to sponsor) http://www.bhf.org.uk/sponsor/sharonsibbald or http://www.bhf.org.uk/sponsor/markrutter . We are hoping to make plenty of cash for them. I am so nervous, i was saying to Mark i dont know if i will do it when i get up there. As its for you i will jump no matter how scared i am. Keep an eye on me mate, dont want any broken bones. We are jumping from 15000 feet so we get to freefall. Im excited and nervous. Will let you know how i get on. Love you so much mate and miss you more.
Your big sis Sharon.
xxx

Hi mate, bet you were so proud of Karl last Saturday, weather was bloody awful but that didnt stop them and Karl played a fantastic game. First game of the season on saturday, make sure your watching.
Miss you.x

Hi Kraig. Just a message from me to you and your family. I visit the site on a regular basis but find it hard to find the words to type.

I have been back with Sharon now for sometime, and during that time, I see the grief that fills her heart each and everyday. We often sit and talk about you, what happened, and how much Sharon, your mum, dad, Jackie, graham and all the kids still hurt at the injustice of your passing. I was not around at the time of your passing and so didn’t have to go through what they had too. Only last night, Sharon went through the day that it happened and the events that lead up to it. its heartbreaking to listen too. I cannot begin to properly understand what it must feel like for them. my heart goes out to them.

I don’t have the right or the knowledge to be able to write message of a personal nature about me and you as we only knew one another for a couple of years. What I learnt during that time was that you were a complete family man, not just for lynice and the children, which is expected, but for Sharon and all of the family. Your Family that you have left, while filled with grief, have a special bond that not allot of other families possess. That’s something I personally admire as I rarely see eye to eye with mine. Your mum and dad and everybody else in the family have accepted me again and involved me and my children in anything that might be going on, and for that I am truly grateful. I cant remedy what has happened, I can only promise to look after your sister to the best of my ability and promise to help her through the grief she feels, each and every day. she and the boys mean the world to me. I believe your passing had an influence on Sharon and I being together, and I’m grateful for the chance to Love her forever. I also thank you for your honesty. Sharon told me of the conversation you both had, a couple of days before you passed.

On a brighter note, Big Congratulation to your dad and graham who between them, walked off from the recent Lune Golf Society with pretty much a clean sweep. Your Dad was made up that he won the “Kraig Garland memorial trophy” and I know Sharon, your mum, and Jackie were equally proud of both of them. Something tells me you had a little say in where the trophies ended up though.

Also, the tandem skydive is fast approaching. This Saturday, Sharon and I will throw ourselves out of a plane, 15000 ft above the ground, in memory of you, and for the British Heart Foundation charity. Kraig, I can tell you that Sharon is petrified but I know how much she wants to do this. I myself, I’m a little scared lol. I’m cackin it lol.

Big thanks to everyone who has donated. We are currently around the £1000 mark to date. When we started this, we would have been happy with a couple of hundred pounds. Just shows you how much people thought of you and feel for the family.

Still here Kraig, just sitting and watching. Time just rolls on with out a care for anyone. Doesnt get any easier, knowing you are not about.Made up for your dad for winning the trophy. Be around for us all mate…..

Well its been quite a while since I spoke to you last. I wish I could pick up the phone and have a chat with you. A lot of things have happened that I would like to tell you about. Mum and I have taken Karl, Vikki And Sam camping, Sam only came to Prestatyn,but he has shown us what a great camper he is. He really enjoyed himself,as did Karl and Vikki. They have gained a lot of confidence in the water, Karl’s top bombing is brilliant. Karl is now playing eleven aside at football They won 5-0 in a friendly and Karl scored a great goal. They were back to school last week Sam’s first week in the juniors. Vikki won a merit and Karls gone on his school trip. As for me and mum it doesnt get any easier.
The Lune Golf Society had its silver day last Saturday. As well as the usual trophies,we also played the last round of your memorial shield. Kraig, thank you for helping me to win it. Iam so proud to be the first person to have his name on the shield I know you were there, you sent me a feather,and I wore your shirt. You were all around me. I think your memory also inspired Graham who came second and Sib who came third.Mum and Jackie helped present the tropies, it was very emotional and a few tears were shed.
Sharons doing her parachute jump this weekend in aid of the British Heart Foundation. Shes got more guts than me.
Miss you very very much and still can’t get my head around you’re not at the end of the phone. Love you always see you soon.

hi babe soz i have not been for a while find it hard to say things to u this way u no i talk to u every nite anyway so i dont think u mind today is not a good day i am finding it hard cos as u know it is littel ants funeral today cant bring myself to go and i dont know wot i am feelin i know i did not know him very well but he was one of karls friends and i have got to know his big brother rick he is a nice lad i did not tell karl about ants funeral today coz he is on his pgl trip and i know he wouldnt of gone and i wanted him to enjoy himself really cant think of anything else to say hun talk to u later see u soon xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo xo

Hi mate
Well we are here for a second day at Hiblestow airfielf waiting to jump out of a plane. They did not let us do it yesterday because the weather was not good enough. We are both very hungover and have been here since 7.30am. I have a picture of you that i will have with me when i jump, i wont tell you where it is though. Dad said you would feel a right tit. I am also wearing your golfing t shirt. I will report back once we have jumped. Make sure you are watching over me and Mark. Talk to you soon. Love you mate.
Sharon Mark

Thank you mate, i felt you with me the whole of the dive. Freefall, well how can i expalin that? i felt like i was with you, it was the most amazing experiance i have ever had in my life, i felt like thats what you are feeling evey day where you are. Mark and i are still in awe, we loved every minute. There was a point when i thought i would have to be encouraged to jump, not a chance mate i wanted that sponsor money for you and the kids. Mark shit it as i was first, he saw me jump out of the plane and cacked himself. He did it though, screamed and shouted all the way down. Me on the other hand, well i was with you mate, we jumped together, you were just giving me the feeling that you have now 24-7. I smiled all the way down, the freefall was amazing, i was so quiet because i was thinking about you. i love and miss you so much.
I enjoyed every minute of our weekend away, even though we had to dump the trailer on a farmers field on the way back because it was knackered and we lost the car keys and had to join the aa at a cost od £120 to get the keys that were in the car.Im going to jump again because i felt close to you. Probably April mate so i am not going to tell you to look over me but to be with me again. Love you with all of my heart and miss you more.
Sharon Mark.

Hi, me again.
I know this site is for talking to you mate but im sure you wont mind this.
We just wanted to say a huge thank you for all the sponsors. Everybody has been so kind and generous. Mark and i have worked our total out to be 1343.00, thats amazing. Just another reminder of how loved you are mate. Sharon Mark. xx

well mate its been an absolute age since i last posted, but i’m sure you’ve seen that i’m here every day checking what people have put, miss ya loads, miss that laugh of yours, well i start my new job tonight, postman daz:D who’d have thought it, i can here ya now saying stick with it, job for life that mate etc… still don’t beleive that your gone all the time…. it hits me over and over again that your not around and makes me take a step back, then i have flashback memories of you and me having a right old laugh playing golf on werneth… lost all your balls except 2 that we found in the trees…

a day doesn’t pass when every1 on here doesn’t think of you… every day your in our minds and our hearts

Ello m8, just in from work so I thought I would say ello !!! Look in all the time Kraig, thinking away on you. Like everyone says it dont seem right you being so young. Maria is finally accepting that her mum has passed on now and has put together her pics of her mum and dad on the wall in the back room. We have put your pic up amongst them as well as you are a special person Kraig and part of my family. I woke up this morning (Monday 2.10) its David’s 21st mate, and thought away on you. You were only 8 years older than Dave and this is sad to think you have gone. Just wish I could see you just one more time – Where is a ghost when you want one !!! Just so sad Kraig…………

hi dad played footbal on saturday won 3-2 nearly scored a cracking header so close to gettin it in how are you im my normal self been at nanas all weekend.luke come nanas all day on saturday haha selebarting our victory haha sharon has rearley took up campin haha never thought she would do that haha so miss you wish you where here so upset at the moment cant concentrate at all at anythin its hard at school but im slowley gettin through it haha its all kool its all quiter am home than it was. and do you know atony cheaton he died in a car crash so sad ive got his footie boots im goin to score lots in them boots haha and yours that you bought me ive scored lots in them and more to come nana and grandad ok nana takes me shoppin every friday haha im a big help coz it all gets done quicker ive seen your scycle speedway track its mint saw some boys messin bout skidin wif there brakes it broke my heart got to go see ya later

Its just gone 02:15 in the morning mate, everyone in bed. On my own thinking away on you. Strange the only noise is the pc and that bloody clock !!! Just read what your Carl has wrote, god that is a choker. He is growing up very quick just like the rest of your children. Not been up to see Lynice for a while, but will get up soon. Its hard when I go up as I will allways come and see you but when I call to your house its different now Kraig. I am pretty sure your Lady is getting through, but she misses you bad. Well time to sod off as I have to get up to take Jo-Marie to school. Bye mate…….

Hi Kraig,
So sorry haven’t been on to say Hello for a while, been so busy, I’m decorating and my house looks like a bomb site and I’m working all the overtime I can to pay for it. I haven’t been in touch with your mum lately either, tried to ring her tonight but got some strange person on the phone checked the number and it’s the one I have not sure if they’ve changed it or not.
Anyway Kraig thought I’d ask you to say Hi to Daniel for me it’s his 25th Birthday 1/11. Tell him he never leaves my thoughts and will always remain in my heart. Sometimes I think I see him when I walk Benji and I feel a warm glow inside and smile.
I know he’s never really left me just as you haven’t your mum. It’s that horrible time of year Kraig, it starts with me this time of year and carries on until the New Year.
It will be so much worse for your mum and your family I cannot believe nearly a whole year has passed.
Everyone around you is busy preparing for Christmas and inside I just want it all to be over, that feeling has never left me as I’m sure it will never leave your mum.
It just makes the memory so much more poignant somehow. Anyone who has lost this way will understand and those who can’t will try.
Be close to your mum at this time of year Kraig, wrap your arms around her and support her, she will need it.
I’m sure Lynice will feel pretty much the same also though she will have to brave face it for your children.

Well sweet Angel you take care and watch over your loved ones, When you speak to Daniel be sure to say Hi to Matthew aswell he will be trailing behind his big brother up to mischief no doubt. (It will be his 21st in May, maybe you could all have a party for him there in Heaven?)
Tell them both I love them with all my heart and miss them everyday just as I have done from the day they were taken from me.

Good night God Bless Kraig, Speak to you again soon, all my love Elaine XXX

Hi mate,
Jackie & I went to see your headstone today, you should be proud of your family it is a real fitting tribute!
Had a good cry, I guess now it’s finally sunk in.
Miss you mate, see you soon. x
Graham (big bro)

When will reality kick in? – I still can’t accept that you have gone. Each day I think that you will come home and everything will be OK. But it’s not OK. I still have that awful feeling in the pit of my stomach and my heart is aching.

We had a wonderful brother/sister relationship and I treasure every single memory I have of the times we had together. One of which is this time last year when Graham and I came over to see you, Lynice and the children – Children In Need was on TV and we were sat waiting for the Catherine Tate sketch. It was getting late and we had to get the kids home. The phone was ringing as we got in – it was you telling us that we had missed it. You thought it was so funny. I remember sitting up till about 2am to watch the repeat!

Hi Kraig Mate, How you doing? did Daniel have a good birthday? I really don’t know who else to turn to at the moment Kraig. You know I work for the police and I get all sorts of jobs come in on a regular basis, sudden deaths, concerns for welfare etc. and most of the time it’s the same old same old and I must admit you kind of get used to it and become a bit hardened to it all!!!
Has Someone called Paul Davenport said hello yet? Oh Kraig I’m so sad and despairing I don’t know him or his family from adam but he decided to end his life on my shift the other night and for some strange reason I cannot get him out of my head I cannot come to terms with it as just part of my job as I normally do. It has really really affected me and I keep crying regarding the circumstances of his death etc. Please if he is with you tell him I am sorry and I hope now that he is at peace. Please tell him to make his parents feel better they must be falling apart. I don’t understand why but then I didn’t know him but he must have been cared for so much by his family and friends you can just tell. Kraig, Scragg, I am sorry I didn’t didn’t stick around to see you thru your older years seems you did Marvelous job without me but anyway you touched my heart and remained there Angel.
I think about you so much just lately I can’t seem to get you out of my head please don’t think I’m psychic cos I’m not and I’m a real scardy cat when it comes to that, but I have felt you just lately so much. What?? what is it you wnat to say to me and why me?? Kraig I am always here and I always think of you and somehow strangely I feel closer to you than I have for years.

Anayway mate I feel a drunken ramble comimg on now though I could just stay on here for hours and talk to you I know I must go to bed. Please please help me sort my kitchen out, send the kitchen fairy to sort it for me I cannot bear it anymore and when it’s kind of livable or cookable I’m inviting your mum and dad, Jackie & Sharon & their families up for a meal.

Kraig help me bring us all back together I so want it and I so miss them all so much, we used to have such good times let’s make them happy again.!!!

Like your Jackie says, its nearly a year Kraig, and I just wish I could see you again. Even if it was in the darkness when I come home from work, I do look and hope. As everyday goes by, it dont get any easier. Just wish you were still here Kraig.

Ello mate. Called up to your grave yesterday. Must say your family have really done you proud. The stone is magnificent. It has a lovely picture of you on it Kraig and the words are very special. Since I came up to visit you last time, your plot has been really looked after with all the white stones. Nearly a year now, and still can not get my head round the fact that you have gone, just to young…..

Hi mate.
Had Jessi again last night and took her to Gym tots today, she loves it. She enjoys playing with Ollie although as you can imagine they have their moments. We talk about you a lot and she looks at your photo when we do.
I love and miss you loads. I cant believe its almost a year mate, it seems like only yesterday the last time i saw you. Miss you always.xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hello. I’m not sure now how I’ve come upon this site, but I want all of you to know that I am praying for you. I have never lost someone so close to me, so I cannot even begin to imagine how hard this year has been for you all, but he has been with you. I wish you all the best, and only happy memories. Continue to keep hope, and know that God, and Kraig, are with you always. May your holidays be filled with love and smiles.
-Melanie Corinne

HI Kraig. Well we all can see its nearly a year now, time just dont stand still for no one mate. I hope you will be about for us all on the 8th, because we are all going to be a mess. Just shows that we all are still thinking away on you all the time………….

Hi mate.
Just wanted to say i love and miss you so much. Mum and Dad have put a double sleeper in the spare room for Karl Vikki and Sammi. They all stayed this weekend, they hae a great time. i was thinking about when that was your room, do you remember Lynices waters going on the bed when she was having Karl. That seem such a long time ago but the memories are all still so fresh in our minds. Do you reemember me and you sat in the delivery suite when Lynice had Vikki and we were laughing at her, she was not impressed. I videod the birth and was shaking like a leaf. I still have that video to this day. It hurts too much to watch. Vikki is the image of you.
I moved back to Kedleston green Saturdy, whilst i was sat in the garden i saw the most amazing shooting star, i believe that came from you mate.
The 8th December is drawing closer and the closer it gets the the more it hurts. Mum and Dad have arranged a dove release at your resting place at 1.30, Terry will be there also to talk about you. We will all be there and thinking about you as always.
I love you so much mate. You are in my thoughts every minute of every day. xxxx

Hi Uncle Kraig, I miss you lots and lots and I love you loads. I wanted to tell you this, I know you already know but I do. Over the pass couple of weeks I have been really missing you. I cried at school but Mrs Davis one of my teachers said you wouldn’t want me to cry so I stopped but I feel so much better when I talk to you. I’m sorry I havn’t talked to you for a long time but I just wanted to let you know that I love and miss you lots .

Hi mate.
We had the press here yesterday with the BHF, we were presented with a cheque for the money we raised for the sky dive and to help give your children a holiday. The press have taken a copy of your photo, we have asked them to print it as a tribute to you. We all miss you so much Kraig. We will all be with you on Friday. Mum and Dad have arranged a dove release at Highfield at 1.30pm and for Terri to be there to say a few words. It has been a very hard year for all of us and will continue to be however many years pass. There is not a minute of the day that goes by when you are not in our thoughts. Please look over Mum and Dad as they are so very sad at the moment. You were and always will be their little soldier and best friend.
Take care mate, i miss you with all my heart.
Sharon xxxxxx

Thinking of you and saying extra special prayers for you and your family lit another candle in church last week and will light another on sunday. RIP Kraig my prayers are with you all for Friday 8th Dec xxx God Bless xxx love Alison

Well not looking forward too tomorrow mate, god knows how your family are going to cope. So please be there for every one Kraig, especially your Lynice, and all the children, mum and dad, both your big sisters and the rest of us …..

You know this should not be happening mate,no Bloody way. Miss you very much.

Hello Kraig ,its Maria here-big Daves missus. Its one year tomorrow,that God took you for whatever his reason was,only he knows. I never went to see you, to say Goodbye because my Mother had gone 11 weeks befor you. I couldnt go back home to say Goodbye it was too hard. I just grieved here on my own. Some day I will come to visit you at your Graveside and say goodbye. We keep your photos beside us and you will never be forgotten because you are a loyal friend to those that love you. Dave misses you so much Kraig, you were like a little brother to him. You allways made us laugh, so many funny stories,and you never stopped smiling, a wee cheeky one. So many people love you and miss you so much. Say hellow to me mammy for me, as you are both in Heaven. GodBless allways kraig, our prayers are for you , and your family maria xo talk to you soon x x x

Hello Kraig, its Maria big Daves wife. Sorry I havnt been too your grave and I couldnt face your funeral. It was only 11 weeks after my mum died and I have only just come to terms with her going. We have your picture up and its such a shame you are not here. Dave really misses you really bad. Not a day goes by when you are not in our thoughts. You were always smiling, a cheeky smile I remember. Such a lovely person. I will come up one day to your Grave Kraig, I promise. Say hello to my mammy as you are both in Heaven. God Bless x x x

hi m8
i often look in on the site to see how people are feeling and see a mirror image and cant think of anything to put !
anyway i suppose you know how we all feel ” just wish you were around ” theres not a day goes by that anyone who knew you or was close to you doesnt think or mention you in one way or another !
i cant believe its a year since you went to a better place, time has passed so quickly but in other ways so slowly !
we all miss u in our own ways and know we have to help where we can with your family just as you would with us !
u know they will be taken care of in the best way we can thats why i think you got the friends you did !
speak to you soon
mark

It has been really hard this morning Kraig.
That day last year is going over and over in my mind and it hurts so much.
I have been to see Lenny this morning then I took Thom to the cemetry – he hasn’t been for a while he can’t bear to go.
You are in my thoughts everyday, I love you so much.
Your big sis Jackie xxxx

Well thanks Kraig. You answered our prayers, you kept us all strong. Was a little better today being with your family and friends at church and then at your grave. What a touching moment when the doves were released mate, I even held the one for your Jess ( She is growing up a beautiful little girl Kraig. The rest of the chidren are getting so big mate )

This has helped Kraig, all the ” 1st ” anniversaries are out of the way now…..

merry christmas mate, all of a sudden a few people are asking my about nitro cars that they are getting for xmas… makes me think of you… all those things you told me about my mp6 when we was on werneth field and your GS storm ran perfectly beause you know what you were doing and my was rough… lol good times

Sammy was so cute that day Kraig. He came to Dave and I after he let the lively dove go and said, ‘Auntie Jackie that DUCK bit my finger’. Dave told him it wasn’t a DUCK it was a CHICKEN. Dave you are awful. LOL.

Just wanted to say i love and miss you so much. You were the best brother anybody could wish for. No matter what, you stood up for and stood by your family. You looked out for me the odd time or two. Just one of the things i miss about you and loved you for.
sharon, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Just thought i would share the poem i wrote and read out on 8th December 2006.

1 year on and still you stay, in our thoughts each minute of every day.

Time has passed that may be true but time stood still in our hearts the day god called for you.

You are and you will always be a part of our hearts for all to see,

We look at your children, a vision of you, to hold on tight to, for that we want to thank you.

You are the brightest star, the still in the night, the warmest sun, the snow drops dancing having fun.

Each one of us has memories so precious, to count them is not possible, take a look around you and try if you dare, when you have finished counting we will be there.

You are so special to each and every one of us, 1 yr 2 yrs 10 yrs away doesn’t make a difference to us you are here each and every day.

You are a brother to be proud, you looked out for us all. Missing you is a feeling we will never learn to live with it’s a feeling that will stay with us all.

We know the day will come when we are together again, so until that day little brother, Son, uncle, friend, cousin, nephew, daddy, husband. Drop in once in a while,
Let us know its ok, to cry therse tears we cry each day
And stay a little while
So we can say we love you from the bottom of our hearts. And help each other through our so very special memories of you.

Hi Kraig, just thinking of you and your family, wanting you to know I’m still
lighting the candles for you all. Its not been a good time for me and I’ve been struggling so lighting them for myself too now!! I had an added medication and ‘oops I did it again’ no it’s not funny really it has serious consequences for me when my medication causes a major mood switch over which I have no control. I’ve been giving my angel a very hard time rercently with all this, if you see him tell him I’m so so so so sorry – that’s all I can say, I know he’s been there though and I know it’s hard for him. Anyway Kraig thanks again for being there in that deep and dark hour I had recently I needed you. Angels are real and you are a very special one. Take care in heaven and god bless xxxxxx Wish we could all go back to how things were a long time ago!!

hiya bud, i never know what to say when i get too this page and see what people have posted, i find it comforting as i’m sure most do when people post comments about all the good times they’ve had.

i was thinking about you yesterday, i met up with a friend in manchester and went in HMV and saw the cd murder was the case… it reminded me of when you’d just opened the RC shop. some1 was geting you a copy or something, whenyou used to stand n the mardave shells to show customers how strong they were.

Hi mate
Its snowing and you are always in my thoughts when it snows (i think about you every day) when it snows i remember you used to dive out of bed to take the children to school so you could play in the snow.

Just another memory we hold close to our hearts. Do you remember going to Vernon park to sledge down the hill. You loved the snow so much.

I Know what I have to do now thank you Kraig Thank you jesus, Thank you jonathon (for being there for 30years) To all you angels the hell is over from this day on you make me feel band new xxxx Morning has broken !!!! Thank You I will be there for you too to the garland family xxxx still lightin my candles xxx

Still looking in on ya. Well had the privelage to have had your pc to bits !!! Fully rebuilt it for your children, and Karl has it all set up at your home…. Going to try and get a few bits for your mum & dads pc as welll. Then they also come on here and chat away Kraig……….

Hi mate,
We watched Karl,Vikki & Sam in their School production of Joseph tonight,
they were fantastic, we’ll have Karl on X factor next year with a singing voice like that!
I’ve put some pics in your gallery, have a look you should be very proud!

i think we all look in regular but are all the same! stuck what can we say ? we read each others thoughts etc ! we then realise that there are others with the same thoughts and realise how many people you touched with your friendship and kindness ! you know and i think everybody else does that you will be always in our thoughts !! the thing is thoughts are on the inside ! not shown that much ! u know your in everyone thoughts that ever knew u ! and your missed so much by everyone ! ill drop in again soon! ( round your birthday !!!! ) take care m8

I have got loads of video footage of you from when you was about 14 until just before you passed. For months I have tried to bring myself to watch some but can’t bring myself to do it. Then tonight Graham came across your wedding video and I found myself pressing play on the machine.

For the first time in 15 months I heard your voice, saw your cheeky smile and heard your hearty laugh.

Hello Kraig, well if we weren’t the bain of your life when you were with us we certainly are now!! My family I mean! Well one of them anyway. Alison means well you know she misses your family and the way things used to be and that’s alot of her problem really she just can’t seem to move on. I know she gets comfort from speaking to you on here and I know it’s ok really, she just loses her way sometimes and forgets it’s about you and your family and friends sharing their thoughts with you. She would have been your friend Kraig if she had the chance. Alison makes friends so easily. I know it may seem like she’s using this as a sounding board at times and goes on about her problems but that’s because she feels she has no-where else to turn even though she does really!! We are always here for her she just forgets that sometimes and we don’t always tell her what she wants to hear. Forgive her if she goes off on one sometimes, I sometimes regret telling her about this site but I thought it might help her appreciate someone elses pain. I know it does at times and she so loves you all so very much she just looses her way sometimes that’s all.

I’ve not been on for a while Kraig haven’t really known what to talk about. Everytime I think of you and your family’s pain especially your mum it makes me so sad. I Know it’s approaching your Birthday and I know just how hard that is going to be for your mum and I sometimes can’t find the words to say I understand. I do I really do and both you and your mum know that. Maybe it’s just because I know what hell it will be for her.

Look down on her on your Birthday Kraig, wrap your arms around her and let her feel your glow. No-one else can take away her pain, comfort her and whisper to her, let her know you’re close.

Hope you’re planning a great Birthday Party up there, I know you will be, lookdown on your family at that time and comfort them wont you?. I know you will.

Hi Kraig, just wanted to tell you i lit another candle for you all at mass today. I spoke to your mum last week and know she found it hard on Mother’s Day. I know how hard it will be for your family as your birthday approaches next week so I said an extra special prayer for them too asking for strength, peace and extra love. I,m thinking of you all and will light an extra special candle just for you on your birthday next Sunday, RIP special angel xxx Thanks again, goodnight god bless xxx Thinking of you all, love Alison xxx

Hi little brother.
We are all low at the moment, not looking forward to another birthday, you should be here with us. You are such a special person Kraig, you touched so many hearts. I think about you all the time. Ollie said to his Dad yesterday ” Daddy , Mummy cries sometimes” when Ian asked why he said “she misses uncle Kraig” I do try to hide tears from him but sometimes its so hard. I do talk about you a lot to him. We lit a candle in church last week he asked if you could hear us then shouted at the top of his voice “I Love you uncle Kraig”
He is such a lovely little boy and loosing you makes me cherish every moment with the people i love.
Take care mate. I love you so much.
Sharon

MY BEAUTIFUL SON
WELL,ANOTHER BIRTHDAY IS APPROACHING,YOULL BE 31 ON SUNDAY.
TIME HAS GONE SO FAST AND YET SO SLOW.
TIME DOES’NT HEAL FOR ME,ALTHOUGH I HAVE LEARNED HOW TO SMILE AGAIN.
PEOPLE SEE THE SMILE BUT THEY DONT SEE WHAT IS GOING ON BENEATH THAT SMILE UNILL THEY SCRATCH THE SURFACE.
I THINK I HAVE ACCEPTED THAT THE NEXT TIME I SEE YOU IS WHEN I PASS
IN THE MEANTIME I HAVE A JOB TO DO FOR YOU AND I SHALL CONTINUE WITH THAT JOB UNTILL THEN
I HAVE TRIED DIFFERENT PATHS BUT I AM FINDING THIS LIFE WITHOUT YOU EXTREMELY
HARD, BUT WHILE I COTINUE TO FOCUS ON THE KIDS, I THINK I MIGHT GET BY.
WE HAVE BOOKED A HOLIDAY FOR YOUR KIDS.WE ARE FLYING THEM TO DISNEYLAND, THEY ARE VERY EXCITED.
HAVE A GOOD BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN MY ANGEL
DONT FORGET YOU ARE TOP ANGEL ON SUNDAY.
YOUR EVER LOVING MUM

hello my beautiful son
just been to buy some balloons for your birthday and a cake so the kids can celebrate your life.
it is hurting me so much cause you should be here so i could give you one of those great big smacking kisses that used to embarass you
i love and miss you so much my darling
do you know sweatheart, if it was love alone that kept us alive, you would have lived forever
mum
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Mate
Its the eve of your Birthday. I am missing you like mad. We are all coming to see you tomorrow. Mum has bought you a cake. We will all be thinking about you as always. I love you.
Sharon. xxxxxxx

Well came up to see you earlier, didnt want to be seen as a mythering git so came up on my own. God it was cold up there today but very fresh. I know you were there m8. Wll its yet another birthday Kraig, again one you should be spending with us. I dont ever think I will get over you not being here now Kraig. Whist you were on this earth you were a great friend, not long enougth to be honest but I feel you are still about watching over us all………

We appreciate and would like to thank everyone for all of your messages to Kraig and our family and we are aware that you are still visiting the site but often can’t find the words to express how you are feeling.

Therefore, after a lot of consideration, we have decided to set up a different website ‘Dedicated to Kraig Garland’ @ kraiggarland.wordpress.com. You will still be able to leave comments either for Kraig or about the posts on the new site, where we will be letting you know what Lynice, the children, family and friends are doing. Obviously there will be tributes to Kraig on his birthday, anniversaries etc….

We need to reassure you that this ‘Book of Condolence’ website will NOT be deleted and will stay available for you to read anytime.

Jackie and I would also like to thank Mike Little for the use of his webspace to enable us to create Kraig’s ‘Book of Condolence’.

Once again….Thank you and we look forward to seeing you over at ‘Dedicated to Kraig Garland’.