Thursday, 31 May 2012

Day 29 This Is My Song

Choose a song which means something to you. It can be one you wrote yourself, it can be about EDs and/or recovery, it can be something that you feel is generally positive, uplifting and/or encouraging. Post the song title, artist and lyrics and write about what this song means to you and how it has helped you during your journey. Give as much detail as you are able to do.

Amy MacDonald

This Pretty Face.

I don't careWho does her hair orWhat clothes she wearsI don't care if it's Y.S.L. I don't care if it's ChanelWhat matters to me is a strong beliefAll this beauty is skin deepDon't care about hair, don't care about eyesIt's about what's inside

You'll never know who you'll meet on you way to the topYou'll probably see them again when your fame starts to dropDown down, I'll meet you on the groundIt's no good with your hair and your shiny blue eyesIt's no good when you finally start to realizeI need something moreThis pretty face don't work no more

What happened to achievingWhat happened to believing in yourselfWhy listen to the musings of someone, somebody elseI'm sorry I don't see and I can't quite believe it anymoreWhat happened to believing that beauty's in the eye of the beholder

You'll never know who you'll meet on you way to the topYou'll probably see them again when your fame starts to dropDown down, I'll meet you on the groundIt's no good with your hair and your shiny blue eyesIt's no good when you finally start to realizeI need something moreThis pretty face don't work no more

You'll never know who you'll meet on you way to the topYou'll probably see them again when your fame starts to dropDown down, I'll meet you on the groundIt's no good with your hair and your shiny blue eyesIt's no good when you finally start to realizeI need something moreThis pretty face don't work no more

Apart from the fact that Amy MacDonald is a wonderful singer/songwriter and this song has a wicked uplifting melody line, for me the words mean so much. Our society has changed so much and there is so much emphasis put on physical beauty and attributes.I particularly like the line You'll probably see them again when your fame starts to drop as realistically fame wont be the only thing dropping or sagging.

I could have picked several other songs such as Ingrid Michaelson, Be OK, or Fix You by Coldplay but I picked this one for a particular reason.

Yesterday I sat in a clinic in Harley Street in London waiting for someone very special to me to have Botox. She is 29 and bloody beautiful.Whilst she was having her consultation I sat in a very posh waiting room, with airbrushed models on posters on the walls telling me how wonderful I would look after having the top layer of my skin peeled off or being injected with botulism!!!

I couldn't help but wonder as I looked around the room at the people coming and going, what they were having done. They all looked so perfect, wonderfully groomed, shiny hair, white straight teeth, pert boobs........I was beginning to feel anxious. What on earth did they think about me? I seriously began to feel ugly!!! At that point I wished I had post it notes in my handbag so I could leave messages inside the beauty magazines and before and after brochures and tell these people they were wasting their time and money as they didn't need it.

I don't have an issue with cosmetic surgery but I have an issue with professionals making money out of others insecurities when they do not need something doing.

The sad thing is that despite my nagging and 'youre beautiful as you are,' speeches, she still had the Botox done!!

Little old me.

For someone who generally can't shut up talking writing about myself is posing quite difficult.
I started this Blog in 2010 when I began my journey through recovery from Anorexia. I have been as honest as I can without being triggering or posing a risk to myself or my readers. In the beginning my blog was a medium of putting down my thoughts during recovery and mapping each step forward or backward I made. Some of it will make you laugh others may cry. Now I see myself as not in recovery but fully recovered. I continue to write as I believe Eating Disorders in whatever form should not be hidden away, they should be given a voice and that voice can say 'I will beat this.'I have a passion inside me to spread the message that you are not on your own and recovery can be within reach.Thank you for reading, it is because of you I carry on. Please feel free to comment on any entries.