Mommy to Isaiah Dumisani Millhouse
20 January - 17 February 2004
Born at 28 weeks due to severe pre-eclampsia
Died at 28 days old of pneumonia
610 grams at birth
950 grams at death
My Angel Boy
"My firstborn, I will never forget you, always love you, and never replace you"
[URL=http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/d/dumisani]Isaiah's Website[/URL]

Dear Kim,
Thank you so much for sharing your poem and your dear son with us. I am so sorry for your loss and your family will be in my prayers.
GOssamer

"Before you were conceived, I wanted you. Before you were born, I loved you. Before you were a minute old, I would have died for you. This is the miracle of life. " -Maureen Hawkins
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Kim --
That poem was very beautiful and expressed the way that many of us feel, thank you for sharing it with us.
I am sure that William knows how you feel and appreciates you remembering him in such a special way.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Take care.

Kim
Mother to
Allison Jean (born 5/23/2003), our beautiful angel who showed a spirit and strength that belied her small size and short time on earth
New Little One -- due January 3, 2005 but will be here in 2004 -- keep thinking of us

A year ago today I lost that twinkle in my eye
Pregnancy brings so many dreamsÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã‚Â¦.. babies arenÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t supposed to die!
Sometimes I feel I could end all droughts with all the tears I cry
The ache that I still feel for youÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã‚Â¦.. that I canÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t deny.

The pain they say will ease
And I know that that is true
For sometimes mommy has good days
But oh God! How she misses you!

The proudest moments of my life were when you were growing inside me.
Being a mom was something I never thought I would be.
At first I was very scared and your daddy held me tight.
But once I knew that you were there the feeling was so right.

It was that first morning that the rituals began,
IÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢d drive to work and sing to you, on my tummy was my hand.
ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã…â€œWho wouldnÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t want to be meÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã‚Â was our song.
I could never have imagined things would go so wrong.

You would have loved your daddy, he is such a special man.
Sometimes he feels lost when mommy cries,
But he holds my hand and does what he can.
Your mommy is so lucky to have him by her side
She couldnÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢t have a better man to help her through this bumpy ride.

My William Michael, my angelÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã‚Â¦ÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã‚Â¦
You will always live in mommyÃƒÂ¢Ã¢â€šÂ¬Ã¢â€žÂ¢s heart
I so wish things could have been different and that you were here with me today, but I know that cannot be and you are with me here in spirit and in my heart.
Mommy and Daddy will always love and miss you!

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance