Chapter Reveal – A Saving Grace – Annie Stone

A grave injury leaves Hunter in a dangerous state. A place where he can no longer see the light. In anything. But Mackenzie can’t—and won’t—accept that.So she sends him a reason to live. With that comes unforeseen difficulties.Once again, Mackenzie sees firsthand how strong Hunter’s love and determination can really be. But is that enough? Will their lives ever be the same again?

ONE

HunterOn our way back to Camp Leatherneck, I sit in the back seat, looking out the window at the monotonous wasteland around us. Our mission at the COP is over, and I’ve completed my second deployment to Afghanistan. It’s back to Virginia for me.I’m looking forward to going back to the States. Maybe I’ll manage to meet up Carey this time. The more time that passes since the thing with Mac, the easier it gets to live with it. I haven’t forgotten her, of course—and I never will—but it no longer hurts as much as it did in the beginning.Suddenly, the front left of the car is yanked up off the ground. I hear screams and swearing as I try to steady myself in my seat. But our armored vehicle flips and lands on its side. All I can hear are shots, moans, and screams in Pashto, Dari, and English.I can’t move. My leg is stuck. I try to say something, but nothing comes out. As I attempt to free my leg, the vehicle is hit and thrown up in the air again, throwing me through the window. I land on the ground a few feet away, disoriented and confused.I want to get up and look for my buddies, make sure everybody’s okay, but I realize I can hardly hear anything. Then my field of vision shrinks, blackness creeping in around the edges. Before I can even lift an arm, I pass out.

TWO

MackenzieI’m antsy throughout the entire flight, unable to focus on anything. Reading, watching a movie, distracting myself in any other way—forget about it.I knew it all along. I was up all night, sure something had happened to Hunter, and the next morning, Carey and I heard Hunter had been injured in an attack and flown to Ramstein. By the time we were notified, he was in surgery. And that was all they could tell us.I immediately got on a plane to go see him, even if it was tough for me to leave Hazel with Carey. I had to. I don’t know if Hunter is going to survive. I need to see him again, tell him how much I love him. I can’t let him go without that knowledge. Even if he can’t speak to me. He only needs to hear me. He needs to know I care.I knead my hands until it feels like my skin’s going to fall off. I’m sitting beside the aisle, so I keep getting up to pace the length of the plane. How long can one flight last?Twelve hours. Twelve long, agonizing hours later, we land in Frankfurt, and I board a shuttle bus Carey booked to take me to Ramstein Air Base. Carey also made sure I’ll get a visitor’s pass when I arrive.The entire hour I’m on the van, I chew my nails, my thoughts going in circles. How is Hunter doing? Is he still alive? Am I too late?Please, don’t let me be too late! I can’t imagine life without Hunter. Please, no! I don’t want to be without him.When we get to the gates, I have to write my name on a form and show them my ID before they give me a pass and let the shuttle through. I go straight to the hospital and tell them at reception I’m here to see Hunter, but they ask me to have a seat in the waiting room. So I wait.And keep waiting.I call Carey to tell him I got here and ask about Hazel. Carey instructs me to hold the phone to Hunter’s ear as soon as possible he can hear him.I swallow. “What if…” No. I can’t get the words out.“No, Mac, no!” Carey snaps. “If it was that bad, somebody would have told me! I haven’t heard anything. We need to hope for the best.”“You’re right. I’ll call you back later, okay?”“Okay, wait a second. Hazel wants to talk to you.”“Hazel?”“Mommy! When you tummin bat?”“Soon, angel. I’ll be back soon. You be good for Carey till then, okay?”“Otay!” she squeals. “Ice tream!”I smile. “Lots of ice cream, and then I’ll be back. I love you, honey.”“Love you too!”I didn’t cry on the plane, because I thought I simply had no tears left, but now they start rolling again.“Mackenzie Hall?” somebody calls across the waiting room.I turn and see a doctor in a doorway leading back into the hospital. With trembling legs, I get up. “Yes?”“I’ll take you to your fiancé now. Sergeant Tilman’s brother told us you were authorized to see him. Obviously, Sergeant Tilman will need to confirm that when he wakes up from his coma.”“Coma?” I repeat, shocked.“Don’t worry. We thought it was best to induce a coma after surgery. We’re already reducing the meds, so he should wake up within the next few hours.”“Can you tell me what’s wrong with him?”“He suffered several non-lethal wounds, one to his shoulder, one to his arm, and a graze to his thigh. He has internal injuries, but we were able to stop the bleeding. The worst of it is that when he was ejected from the vehicle during the ambush, his leg suffered the greatest damage. We had to amputate below the knee.”“Amputate?” I repeat dumbly. “He…He only has one leg now?”The doctor nods gravely. “Yes. Amputating was the best option. He can wear a prosthetic, and if he’s lucky, he’ll be able to walk just like he used to.”For a moment, I feel like I can’t breathe. But then relief wins out. “But…he’s going to make it?”“There may be some other complications, but if everything heals like we think, then yes, he’ll make a full recovery. With some rehab and therapy, he’ll be able to lead a good life with his prosthetic.”“Thank you,” I say, the words coming from the very depths of my heart. Everything is going to be okay, as long as Hunter lives. “Can I stay here with him?”“Of course.” The doctor nods over his shoulder. “We’ll set up a cot for you in his room.”“That won’t be necessary. I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep.”The doctor gives me a strict look. “Ma’am, you look like you haven’t slept in a long time. You breaking down with exhaustion is not going to help Sergeant Tilman. He needs you to be strong right now. Do you understand?”I nod. “I’m a trauma therapist. I understand.”“Okay. I’ll take you to him.”I follow the doctor through the double doors of the waiting room and down a hallway, only stopping in front of the last door the doctor walks through. I have to work up all the strength I have left in me.Hunter needs me to be strong, I repeat to myself.When I finally step through the doorway and see him, I’m shocked. He looks so different than he did three years ago. Like I expected, he looks more masculine. He’s grown a beard, and his brown hair is still cropped short, but he has a ghastly tube in his mouth, and several others protruding from his body.But the worst thing of all is seeing the place where his calf used to be. Because now there is…nothing.I’m glad he’s not awake, because it gives me a chance to get used to the sight of him. This way, when he wakes up, I really can be strong for him. It’s good I’m getting this moment. I shed a few tears before reminding myself it could have been worse. People live with prosthetics every day, and an amputation below the knee is the best-case scenario. Everything will be okay. What matters is that he’s alive, that he’s going to recover. And that he’s finally going to listen to me. The stubborn ass.Sliding a chair next to his bed, I sit down and take his hand without the port in it. Gently stroke his knuckles, I watch his beautiful face. He seems bigger—at least wider. He didn’t have shoulders like that three years ago, did he? Even though he’d already grown in width back then, he seems even bigger now. But my memory is surely a little blurred. I met him when he was seventeen and only saw him once at the age of twenty-one. What a history we have.“I don’t know if you can hear me, Hunter,” I say, swallowing. “Some say people in comas can hear what’s going on around them. I’ll tell you all of this again once you’re better, but just in case you can hear me, I want to tell you right now that I love you. I’m sorry I didn’t take your hand without hesitating, even for a second. I can only blame a moment of derangement. I did not choose Carter, do you hear me? I chose you. I love you. So much! And you have given me the greatest present a man can give a woman. Her name is Hazel Claire. H for her daddy, C for her uncle. Carey is crazy about your daughter, Hunter. And I hope you will be, too. I’ve missed you so much. Carey has missed you so much. Hazel needs her dad. Please, Hunter, wake up and get well again. For me, for her. We need you.”I tell him little stories about Hazel, like when she tried to eat the needles of the Christmas tree we bought last week. And how she learned to write the letter H and took her paintbrush to write Hs all over the hallway. That she’s a good eater but doesn’t like Brussels sprouts, even if you mash them together with potatoes. That she can say “Dad,” even if she never gets to use it. But she knows her daddy from pictures and videos.At some point, I put my head down next to Hunter’s hand on the bed. I’m exhausted. I haven’t slept in three days, which gives me an idea of how he must have felt in boot camp—minus all the other types of torture he had to endure, of course.A nurse wakes me up to measure Hunter’s vital signs, and I look around sleepily. It looks like morning. “Why don’t you lie down on the cot?” she suggests gently.“I want to be with him,” I murmur.She nods. “But you need to take care of yourself, too. And your little girl.”“How do you…?”She smiles. “You told him stories about your daughter for hours last night. Hazel.”I nod. “She’s so precious.”“And he doesn’t know about her?”I bite my lip. How do I explain that he doesn’t know we have a child when I’m supposed to be his fiancé? “He hasn’t met her, no. He hasn’t been home.”“It’s okay, love.” She pats my hand. “I don’t need details.” She winks at me before leaving the room.I don’t want to leave Hunter, but I need coffee. So I scurry away to the cafeteria and get myself a cup before returning to his bedside. The doctor said he would be awake within the next few hours.How many hours? I think miserably. Maybe he meant days…“Hunter?” I rush forward. Fluttering—I saw his eyelids fluttering!I squeeze his hand, and all of a sudden, he’s squeezing back.“Hunter!” I put a hand on his cheek. His lashes twitch in unison with his eyelids. Oh my God! He’s waking up! “Hunter, it’s me!” I sob. “I’m here. Please wake up.”He moves his head a little, and then suddenly his eyes fly open. There’s panic in them. He fights against the tube in his mouth.“Hunter, calm down, it’s all right!” I put both hands on his face, forcing him to look at me. “Shhh. It’s okay. They’ll remove the tube in a second. It’s okay. You’re safe.”He gives me a confused look but calms down a little. Releasing him for just a second, I press the button to call the nurse, and she comes in a moment later. She calls the doctor, who checks Hunter’s pupils and vital signs before removing the tube from his throat. Hunter gasps, coughs, and retches, but when he starts breathing again, tears run down my cheeks.“Mac?” he asks hoarsely.“I’m here, babe,” I say, taking his hand again.He squeezes my fingers.“Sergeant Tilman,” the doctor interrupts gently, “I’m Dr. Ferguson. I operated on you. You sustained injuries to your shoulder, arm, thigh, and leg. And there was internal bleeding from damage to your spleen. Do you remember the mission on which you were injured?”Hunter squints. “Yeah. We were on the way back to Camp Leatherneck… Wait, what happened to Jax?”“Jax?”“Corporal Jackson Halliwell,” Hunter clarifies with difficulty.Dr. Ferguson shakes his head sympathetically. “I’m sorry. I’ve never heard the name. He wasn’t brought here.”Hunter swallows heavily.“Do you remember what happened?” the doctor asks.“We were ambushed.” It’s still difficult for him to speak, so the nurse hands him a glass of water with a straw. He carefully drinks a few small sips before continuing. “The vehicle was thrown up into the air, and I was ejected through the window.”The doctor nods. “Ripping off your leg.”Hunter’s eyes widen, his nostrils trembling. “My leg?” he repeats, like he doesn’t quite understand. He tries to sit up, squeezing my fingers so hard I hear a popping sound.“I’m sorry, Sergeant,” the doctor says. “We had to amputate your left leg below the knee.”The nurse presses a button that raises the head of Hunter’s bed. The panic in his eyes breaks my heart. And when he sees the blanket lying flat on the mattress where his leg should be, he sobs. I squeeze his fingers, not knowing how to help him process this. It must be surreal. The last time he was awake, he still had two legs. Now he only has one.“Oh God,” he mumbles, again and again and again.“Hunter, babe,” I murmur, putting an arm around his shoulders.“Fuck, Mac!” He leans his head against my chest and cries. I reach around him with both arms, pulling him firmly to my chest.“I’m so sorry.”His tears soak my shirt. Somehow, it’s different to not just see his pain but feel it, too. I kiss his head, whispering calming words, even though I know they’re completely inadequate. His world is breaking down.“Everything’s going to be okay,” I murmur into his ear.He pulls away, and there is madness in his eyes. “Nothing is going to be okay! I lost my leg!”“I know, babe—”“Don’t call me that! You chose him, you fucking whore!”I know he doesn’t mean to hurt me. He’s just unable to deal with this situation. “Hunter—”“I don’t want to see you.” He averts his eyes to the ceiling. “And I don’t want you to see me like this.”“But I—”“Get out, Mac! Be happy and forget about me,” he says bitterly.I reach for his hand, but he pulls it away. “Don’t, Hunter, please… Listen to me!”“Get out! Now!” He’s almost screaming by this point.Though I don’t want to leave, the doctor and nurse escort me out of the room. Hunter’s not listening! He’s not interested in what I have to say. Not now.“Ms. Hall, please go now,” Dr. Ferguson says. “You can talk to him later, when he’s had time to calm down. Right now, it’s best if you leave.”“No, please,” I beg. “He needs me—”“He does, but as long as he doesn’t understand that, he’ll just keep sending you away,” the nurse interrupts gently. “We’ll let you know when something changes. You can sit in the waiting room.”“Okay,” I say defeated. “But please…d-don’t forget.” I walk down the hallway, my arms wrapped around myself. I haven’t felt this lonely in a very long time.I don’t actually want to talk to anyone, but Carey must be worried, so I dial his number as I sit in an uncomfortable chair.“Mac?” Carey answers. “How is he? Have you seen him? Can I talk to him?”I sob the moment I hear his voice.“No, Mac, no, no!” he desperately calls into the phone, his voice breaking.“He’s alive, Carey, he’s alive,” I hurry to say, launching to my feet. His thoughts are taking him down the wrong track, and I can’t let him go there. “He’s awake.”“Fuck! Mac!” Carey swears, relief evident in his voice. “What happened?”“His convoy drove into an ambush. They were shot at, the vehicle was thrown up into the air, and he was ejected. His leg was ripped off.”“Ripped off? What do you mean ripped…? Oh, no…”“They amputated it.”“Fuck! No! I… Oh my God!”After a long moment in which neither of us know what to say, Carey asks, “How is he taking it?”“Not great,” I admit. “And I didn’t make things any better. God, Carey, he hates me.” I lean against the wall, trying to control my tears.“What did he say?”“At first, he let me hug him, but then he sent me away and said he never wants to see me again because I chose Carter.”“That was just the shock,” Carey says lamely.I nod, even though he can’t see me. “Yes, I know, but I think he meant it, too.”“Oh, Mac. Give him some time. He needs to sort himself out. After that, you’ll get your chance. I’m sure of it.”I shake my head. “You didn’t see him. So cold and distant. I’ve never seen him like that before.”“Give him time. Don’t rush things,” Carey insists, nearly begging. “You can’t leave him alone right now.”“I’m not. I’ll stay here with him. Even if he doesn’t want me to.”“Thank you, Mac.”“How is Hazel?”“She’s sleeping. She misses you.”I smile a little. “My baby girl.”“Mac, he loves you. I know he does. You just need to get through his hard shell. Don’t give up. He needs you.”“I know.”After we hang up, I wait there in the waiting room for hours. Every time I ask after Hunter, they tell me he still doesn’t want to see me. I curl up on one of the benches there, wrapping my sweater around myself for warmth. At some point, a nurse brings me a blanket. I fall asleep, but I’m restless the entire night.

I’m a contemporary romance writer, who likes her men tattooed, her women independent and her coffee strong.My stories are all about love, but some are of the romantic kind, some of the sad kind and others of the very steamy kind. So if you can stand drama, foul language and sex, you came to the right place.Love, Annie