Friday, November 9, 2007

"Though the fig tree should not blossom and there be no fruit on the vines, though the yield of the olive should fail and the fields produce no food, though the flock should be cut off from the fold and there be no cattle in the stalls, yet I will exalt in the Lord, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation. The Lord God is my strength, and He has made my feet like hinds' feet. And he makes me walk on my high places."

Habakkuk 3:17-19

Berny is leaving us this coming Tuesday. He has been a joy and a blessing to us in his time here. I am embarrassed to admit that I want him to stay. I firmly believe that a child should be with his biological parents. If they are loving and nurturing, then that is always always always the best scenario. And yet, selfishly I have fantasized about him staying with us. Every night for the past few weeks as I put him and D to bed we would read a book, sing a song and pray. For prayers I had been praying for God to prepare Berny's heart to go home to his Mom and Dad. So the other night when I asked for requests D said, 'Berny's hawt (heart)' and Berny pointed to his blanket and I said, 'you want to thank God for your blanky?' and he nodded his head. These are the kind of precious moments that God has blessed me with. Who wouldn't want that to continue?? I know without a doubt that God has HUGE plans for Berny. He is one of the most amazing people I have ever met. He has had multiple surgeries, multiple home transitions, multiple country transitions, complete paralysis and recovery, and through it ALL he has remained one of the most joyful, contented, beautiful souls I have ever known. I love him and I will miss him. God answered our prayers. Berny WILL walk off that plane to his parents!! Though Berny is not mine to keep, though my heart will break, yet I will praise the Lord for His grace on this little boys life.

You have been SUCH a good Mama to Berny. Truly above and beyond the call to duty, but knowing you, it doesn't surprise me in the least. Loving him as completely as you have is a huge part of what has helped him through all of his "rough start".

I am so sad that I will not be able to say goodbye. He has truly become one of my grandchildren, but I am so glad he will be with his family again. Like you, I believe that God has big plans for this little guy. I love you, Mom