Reliving some important years

Growing up and growing old

Maybe it's because you're getting older.
Maybe it's because I am grown.
Maybe it's because I can start to see what it would be like to lose you.
Maybe it's because I am starting to realize how much you cared all along.
Maybe it's because I can see how much being around kids means to you.
Maybe it's because I can see how much you love them, in a way you couldn't love us.
Maybe it's because I found him and created them and I am seeing how hard this all is.
Maybe it's because I understand how much you need coping skills to do this.
Maybe it's because I can't imagine doing it the way you two did.
Maybe it's because I don't want to fight anymore.
Maybe it's because I don't want to hold on to anymore anger.
Maybe it's because it is all starting to melt.
Maybe it's because I can accept you for who you are.
Maybe it's because somewhere in all that tough and hardness, there is a soft human.
Maybe it's because you find a way to love, even if it is just your way.
Maybe it's because I won't let you define who I am.
Maybe it's because I did it my way too.
Maybe it's because I spent so much time away from you.
Maybe it's because we lost so many years.
Maybe it's because I left, and got clarity.
Maybe it's because I'm just tired.
Maybe it's because I can see you are too.
Maybe it's because I didn't want our story to end like that.
Maybe it's because I moved back.
Maybe it's because I am raising a family now.
Maybe it's because I found someone who melted my heart.
Maybe it's because I found a way to forgive,
even when an "I'm sorry" wasn't exchanged.
Maybe it's because we're all getting older...
and the fights don't matter anymore.
and the past can be let go.
and what happened back then doesn't define right now.
and you have found a way to happy.
and you have found some sort of peace,
and so have I.
But, I see you.
I see who you always wanted to be and didn't know how,
and didn't have the time to show.
I see how you want to be remembered.
I see how you want to care.
I see you.