It's never being able to give your best effort. It's never being able to give it your all. It's never being able to dedicate your whole life to it.

It's always living in what if. It's always living in regret. It's always living in what could have been.

And yes, most of my blog post are my notes to myself. Because right now, I feel like I'm living in fear.

I have yet to give it my all. I'm blogging everyday, but I'm yet to express myself fully. You haven't seen the best of me. And that's what I'm afraid of. That you may never see the best of me. That my potential remains just that—potential. All because I'm living in fear.

And that's more painful than failing.

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[31 Day Challenge Update] I'm on a streak! Sadly, I'm on a streak of waking up late. Today, I got up at 6:30 AM. Because I'm living in fear, I'm finding it hard to sleep early at night. I'm always worried and anxious lately, especially at night. But, "perfect love casts out all fear." Will try again tomorrow.