Monday, February 27, 2017

Personally, it's a lot easier to submit to some people than it is to others. Certain people that I think are better qualified to lead are usually easier for me to submit to. If someone rubbed me the wrong way earlier that day, instruction from them is a lot harder to submit to with the right heart. I know that this isn't how it's supposed to be, but I'm a work in progress. God has been teaching me a lot about how to submit the right way through being in Ignite. Praise the Lord for good old Paul who never sugar coats or allows for exception in his letters to the churches! He doesn't tell the Ephesians to submit when the other person is right, or when they were nice about it, or anything even close to that. The instruction is to simply submit to one another in the fear of God. Not in the fear of man, for "God has not given us a spirit of fear," but in the fear that comes from a loving, respect for our Creator. This submission cannot be one that leads to sin, for then the fear would not be of God but man. For example, if my "one another" is instructing me to go against what the Bible teaches, to submit would be sin. The fear of God forces us to die to self daily, but it also keeps us safe from sin that leads to eternal death.

The American Dream is to have as much freedom and prosperity as possible, to live a nice, comfortable life. But, instead of being content, the drive is always for more. Nothing up until now has ever been enough but maybe the next iPhone, camera, game system, etc will be enough. Looking at this mentality biblically reveals just how weak of a lie it really is. We as believers know that God alone satisfies, but our culture has forgotten this. As 21st century Americans, we have incredible freedom. My American passport allows me to go into most countries freely with a huge safety net to fall into if something goes wrong. I can worship the God I want to worship with no fear of the government. I can go to school, get a good job, and live a comfortable life in a nice house. While there is nothing wrong with enjoying the blessings of the freedom we have, to live in freedom but not liberty would be to miss an incredible opportunity. I am free to worship God, so why not worship with abandon? I am free to have a job, so why not be an example of Christ to my co-workers? I don't want to use my freedom as an excuse to get away with sin. I want it to be an open door for me to glorify God with my whole life.

Friday, February 17, 2017

Hebrews 13:17 Obeying authority has never been something that comes easy for me. As a general rule I like to do things the way I like to do them, regardless of what the authority says. God has definitely been working on this but it still isn't easy to submit with the right heart. In this verse we are told to obey in addition to being submissive and the difference between the two words makes all the difference. Obedience is an outward act of doing what you are told, following the rules. Obedience is not a hard thing to do. Submission, on the other hand, is sacrificing what you want long term for the sake of someone else's mission. Obedience is an outward action, submission is an inward heart change. So not only are we told to do what our authority tells us but we are told to do it with the right heart. (Yikes. I am terrible at this.) I always say that when I know the reason behind a rule, it's easier to obey it. The writer of Hebrews tells us exactly why we are to both obey and submit to authority. It is because they too are going to give an account for how they handled the position God gave them. Whether you are the leader or the follower, God is the one who put you there. We are told to obey and submit in a way that our authority can rule with joy and not grief. This is the way that, as christians, we should be obeying authority.

Oh man. If ever an IBS verse convicted me, this one is it.
The command to obey your parents is so straightforward and yet it is one of the
hardest to follow. When I think of good examples of children obeying their
parents my mind goes straight to Abraham and Isaac. I can’t even imagine what
was going through Abraham’s mind when God told him to sacrifice Isaac. For 3
days he walked with Isaac to where God was leading him to sacrifice his only
son as a burnt offering. That Abraham was so obedient is incredible, but what
Isaac did is just as mind blowing. Abraham at least had years of personally
experiencing God’s faithfulness to keep His promises, Isaac was still a kid. Just
because of the age difference, Isaac could have easily overpowered his dad. No
matter how healthy, a 100+ year old is not going to be any competition for a
young guy. Despite all the odds being in Isaac’s favor, Genesis 22:9 tells us
that Abraham “bound Isaac his son and laid him on the altar, upon the wood.”
There’s a chance Isaac questioned what his dad was doing, and honestly who
could blame him? If my dad told me I was the answer to God’s promise and then
tried to sacrifice me on an altar, I would at least question what he was doing.
Whatever conversation did or didn’t happen, Abraham was successful in preparing
Isaac as the sacrifice. For Isaac, obedience was enough of a reason to get on
that altar. He didn’t demand an explanation or refuse to comply because what
was asked of him didn’t make sense. Isaac simply obeyed the authority God had
placed in his life. If I could go back in time and tell a younger me one thing,
it would be to obey with the right heart. The amount of pain and frustration I
could have saved myself if I had just obeyed would have been worth giving up
what I wanted in that moment.

Humanity was made to worship. Everything we are longs for
something to fill that God-shaped whole, something to live for, a reason to get
up every day. The list of things we worship could go on forever. Romans 6:16
tells us that we are slaves to whatever we obey. It is a sobering thought to
know that you can be enslaved to the approval of mankind, the fear of the
unknown, or just about anything else you can think of. Personally, it is even
more scary to know that I can be enslaved to something that isn’t necessarily a
bad thing but just isn’t the right thing. For example, loving your family is
not a bad thing at all, family is a gift from God. But, when that love begins
to prevent you from following the Lord’s call on your life, that love becomes
bondage. A passion that God has given you for leading worship is not a bad
thing, until you begin to worship worship instead of the God you are supposed
to be worshipping. Humanity has a need to glorify something, we do it without
realizing that we are even doing it. So, what is the answer to this massive
question of who, or what, am I supposed to bow to? How am I supposed to know which
is the right voice telling me “Obey me! Worship me!” The moment we accepted
Christ as our Lord and Savior, the question was settled once and for all. No
longer do we have to fight to find what it is we are needing to fill that hole.
Verse 18 says “And having been set free from sin, you became slaves of
righteousness.” There is now just One voice for us to worship and obey. We are
no longer in slavery to sin but free to live fully for the glory of the Lord.
We have been declared free by the King of Kings and Lord of Lords! I do not want
this freedom to be a slave for righteousness’ sake to ever be something I take
for granted or treat cheaply.

We absolutely should obey God rather than man, this isn’t a
new concept or something hard to understand. God sees the whole picture, He
knows what is actually best for us, and ultimately controls the whole universe.
But, it’s one thing to know that God loves you and wants the best for your
life, it’s another thing to actually be willing to submit yourself to His
methods. His plans are usually the complete opposite of what we want or think
should happen but they are still the best. In Deuteronomy 5:29 God says, “Oh,
that they had such a heart in them that they would fear Me and always keep all
My commandments, that it might be well with them and with their children
forever!” Human nature tends to lean towards the idea that God likes to make
rules for the sake of making rules, but this verse reveals so much of His heart
behind His commandments. God does not make rules to restrict us or prevent us
from having fun but to allow us to experience true life. His commandments, when
obeyed as an act of worship, transform us into His image. My mind can’t fully
grasp the concept that following the Lord’s commandments brings freedom, but I
have seen it in my life and in the lives of those around me so it must be true.
For me it is so easy to fall into a legalistic obedience and completely forget
that that is not the point. My legalistic nature flares up even with the
“homework” that has been assigned since being in Ignite. I know that it isn’t
really homework like in high school but an effort made by the leadership to
deepen our knowledge and love of the Lord. Every time I sit down to read an
assigned book or write an IBS, a battle goes on in my heart as to how I am
going to treat this assignment. If my mindset is not one that is desiring to
know the Lord more deeply than before, it becomes an empty action that is only
done to obey what man has told me to do.

Over the past few days the magnitude of what it meant for
Jesus to take on the form of man and die on the cross has really been sinking
in. The incredible amount of humility that it took for Him to give up
everything to save mankind blows my mind. Being God, He really could have done
it any other way and yet He chose to follow the Father’s plan. Matthew 26:39
shows the obedience that Jesus displayed. It says, “He went a little farther
and fell on His face, and prayed, saying ‘Oh my Father, if it is possible, let
this cup pass from Me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will.” He knew
the pain and suffering He was about to go through but He was still perfectly
submitted to the Father’s will. There really is no better example of obedience
than Jesus. When I remember the sacrifices Jesus made for the sake of
obedience, it becomes a lot easier to lay down my own life. I mean, look at
what the Son of God sacrificed for me, is anything I give up for the sake of
obedience even a sacrifice? In light of what He did, it really does become our
“reasonable act of service.”

Friday, February 10, 2017

“As for me, I will see Your face in righteousness; I shall
be satisfied when I awake in Your likeness.”

What does my soul long for? Really, what does it long for?
What satisfies me and leaves me feeling full? What is it that doesn’t make me
feel empty? As I look back over the bits of my life that I can remember I have
realized how real the “God-shaped hole” in each of us is. By nature we try to
fill it with things, people, experiences, you name it. History is the story of
mankind trying to fill that hole and failing more times than not. When nations
invade a land to conquer it and claim it as their own, it is to fill some kind
of hole. Whether that hole is lack of security, greed, or a hatred that can’t
be quenched, there is a void that needs to be filled. Men marry multiple wives
to fill the hole that pride leaves or to try to find an earthly love that
satisfies. More recently, polygamy stems from the desire to be seen as
righteous in the eyes of God; multiple wives mean more rewards in heaven. Acts
of terror are committed because of the same hole left by unrighteousness. All
the religions in the world cannot seem to fill that God-shaped hole in each of
our hearts no matter how hard they try. Religion always leaves people more
empty and lost than before and yet we keep trying religion as the cure. Even as
Christians we look to religion to satisfy. If you just go to the right church
or tithe the right amount or sing the right song, you’ll be satisfied. Before I
really started walking with the Lord, I looked to distractions to satisfy. I
would distract myself with reading, homework, TV, etc. But those things are
never enough because they end. The book has a final page in which the story is
wrapped up, you graduate, or the show stops being produced. Things that have
beginnings and endings are never enough to fill that hole. Only my relationship
with Jesus has proven to be something that satisfies because it has no ending.
Yes, it had a definite beginning but because of the eternal nature of God it
will have no end. Not to steal Hannah’s thunder, but there is a song by Bethel
that says “I’m full but I’m not satisfied, this longing to have more of You.” I
am so thankful that my God satisfies in a way that leaves you full but longing
for more.

“Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with
such things as you have. For He Himself has said, ‘I will never leave you nor
forsake you.’”

Honestly, I’m really not sure how to talk about this verse
for 300+ words. It’s so straightforward that there isn’t much to explain. But
isn’t that the nature of God? Yeah, He’s bigger than our finite brains can
fully grasp but His commands and promises to us are so black and white. Its
clear that our lives are to be lived content wherever the Lord has placed us.
This is easy to do when life is comfortable and everything is going good. But
the minute God takes us out of our comfort zones we begin to complain. I am
reminded of the Israelites that I used to look down on for being so stupid. As
soon as God took them out of Egypt they complained because the wilderness
wasn’t any better in their minds. Instead of rejoicing in their new season of
life they looked back on what they knew, wishing they could go back to slavery.
It is so easy to see their foolishness but man, don’t we all do the same thing?
We have been declared free from sin and yet we go back to it again and again.
The question that keeps running through my mind is “is it better to die in the
wilderness that the Lord has led you to or in slavery?” This question hits home
for me. This season of being in a whole new country with new people isn’t all
rainbows and kittens, but I know it is where the Lord has called me. So why am
I having issues being content? Using the Israelites as a mirror I can pretty
much figure it out. Like the Israelites, my eyes have been on what is just
before or just behind me. What they saw was a sea in front and an army behind and
somehow they missed the presence of the Lord that had not left them since they
walked out of Egypt. My eyes have been fixed on my family back home and field
time that is coming up so quickly. Throughout the first 14 chapters of Exodus
the Lord promises again and again that He will rescue them out of slavery, take
them to the promised land, and gain victory over their enemies and yet they
complain about the methods He is using. In Exodus 14:5 the Lord says, “Why do
you cry to Me? Tell the children of Israel to go forward.” It is as if He is
asking them “Did you forget what I promised? Why did you stop following me?”
They had the Lord on their side, and so do I, what more is needed?

“Likewise the soldiers asked him, saying, “And what shall we
do?” So he said to them, “Do not intimidate anyone or accuse falsely, and be
content with your wages.”

The message of the gospel demands a response that affects
every part of who we are. How is it that being raised going to church has
created a cold, religion based group of “Christians?” We act as though going to
church once or twice a week is enough to have a rich relationship with Jesus.
The mentality of Sunday morning Christianity has saturated the way we do everything
from devo time to washing the dishes after dinner. We act as if our heavenly
Father is a vending machine of blessings, just begging us to allow Him to give
us a new job, car, or house or even certain spiritual gifts that we think we
need. We act as if Jesus is a backseat driver instead of the one who made the
car and is the only one who actually knows how to drive it. We have adopted
this false theology that Jesus is along for the ride wherever we take Him when
in reality that is never the way it was meant to be. So where did the church
get it wrong? Should we sing Psalms for worship on Sunday mornings? I mean,
David was called a man after God’s own heart and that’s what he sang so maybe
that’s the magic solution. Or maybe everyone should be in one sanctuary
together because if the message given is good enough for the adults its good
enough for the children, none of that diluted nonsense they teach children in
Sunday school! Perhaps the pastor should wear jeans and a button down so he’s
more relatable to the middle class than if he were to wear a full suit and tie.
Oh I know, the worship leader should probably always fit the mold of being a
young hipster who wears skinny jeans. Or perhaps the scriptures being taught on
should be projected onto a screen, no, wait, that would encourage people to
leave their bibles at home… How, then, will they know where the book of
Ecclesiastes is?!

The church has stopped asking “and what shall we do?” We
have given up asking the question that leads to actual solutions and have
instead started asking “and what will they do?” I understand that not everyone
is called to adopt, but for the sake of using an example from my own life I’m
going to use this. For 6 years now my family has looked different than most.
When we go out to dinner we get weird looks, questions, and comments. The
question we rarely get, though, is “and what shall we do?” The church as a
whole does not ask this question nearly enough when their eyes are opened to
what goes on every day in their own backyards. You may not be called to adopt,
but I can assure you that you are called to do something. Psalm 10:14 tells us
that God is the “helper of the fatherless” and as His hands and feet our job is
clear, we are to love those who are helpless. And yet the foster care system is
still overrun with children who no one will call their own. The church is big
enough, enough people know what Jesus teaches, but not enough people ask the
right question. We turn our eyes away, say a prayer that the ambiguous someone
will love these children, and move on with our lives. The tragedy of this lack
of action in our own life is not something we should stand for. I encourage you
to ask the question that leads to a necessary action.

“Now godliness with contentment is great gain. For we
brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out.
And having food and clothing, with these we shall be content.”

When I read these verses in the context of the verses around
them I can see that Paul is contrasting two very different groups of people.
The first group is described in verses 3-5. We see that these are very ungodly
people whose minds are so twisted by sin that they actually think that
‘’godliness is a means of gain,” instead of a work of the Holy Spirit in your
life. This strikes me as extremely foolish considering that during this time
period Christians were being heavily persecuted and martyred for simply
worshipping Jesus, so what exactly they were selfishly gaining I’m really not
sure of but I know it wasn’t a comfortable life. The first group are proud of
how much they know but their knowledge hasn’t left their head, therefore, it
just causes them to argue in circles over unimportant phrases, picking apart
each individual word to the point of it having no meaning. Arguments like these
are useless, they generate division in the Church that wouldn’t have existed
otherwise. They suspect everyone of being out to get them and hate them for
their suspicions that aren’t grounded in truth. Paul exhorts us to walk away
from these people, they’ll only tear us down. From personal experience, I can
tell you that if these words describe you the only thing to do is get on your
knees and pray. And if you have someone in your life like this, listen to
Paul’s advice. Self-righteousness is a weed that will grow bigger and bigger
until you humble yourself and allow the Lord to cut it down. The second group
is where I want to be, even though learning this wouldn’t be fun or easy. Being
content where you are at is not something you can manufacture in your own
strength. In 1 Corinthians 7:20-24 Paul is telling the Corinthians to be
content wherever God has placed them. He tells them to be content whether they
are a slave or free and to not obsess over elevating their own status. If they
were a slave they are now free in Christ, if they were free they are now slaves
to Christ. The Egyptians believed that you could take earthy wealth with you
into the next life but we can see their error so clearly in the rooms of
treasure still found in the pyramids. Instead of obsessing over gaining as much
earthly wealth as possible I need to set my heart on storing up treasures in
heaven. There’s a quote that describes this so perfectly, “Only one life,
‘twill soon be past, only what’s done for Christ will last.” I have plenty of
food, clothing, and a relationship with Jesus, how blessed I really am!

Friday, February 3, 2017

“…that you do not become sluggish, but imitate those who
through faith and patience inherit the promises.”

I am extremely impatient when it comes to just about
everything. I don’t want to wait until April to be in Costa Rica, I want to be
there now. I don’t want to wait another 30 minutes until breakfast, I want to
eat now. I don’t want to wait on the Lord for Him to strengthen my heart, I want
to be strengthened now. I don’t want to wait until I die for Jesus’ work in me
to be completed, I want it to be finished now. The list could go on forever,
but you get the idea. Unfortunately for my very American, instant gratification
mentality, the Lord puts us in seasons of waiting in order to teach us
something we couldn’t learn if He was a vending machine of blessings. The
season of waiting that He has called me to right now is not a season of
relaxing before the next thing but one of actively pursuing Him in order to be
ready for the next step. Moses had a similar season in Exodus 4. God had taken
Moses out of His homeland, Egypt, and brought him to the land of Midian. As a
parallel, God took me out of Bakersfield and brought me to Antigua. It was in
Midian that Moses’ identity was changed from the inside out and he became a man
who knew the Lord. For 40 years he lived as a shepherd serving his father-in-law
and Exodus 2:21 tells us he “was content to live with the man.” It took 40
years for God to finish teaching Moses what he needed to know before the next
step, and yet here I am struggling to patiently wait through the next 2 months.
After 40 years God called Moses back to Egypt, not to go back to his old life
but in order to proclaim that the great I AM is God alone. That is my job, my
reasonable act of service, here in Ignite, once I am back in Bakersfield, and wherever
God calls me after that. There is no greater purpose than to proclaim who the
Savior is. Moses knew the promise. He knew that God had promised to bring His
people “up out of the affliction of Egypt… to a land flowing with milk and
honey (Exodus 3:17).” It was not Moses’ job to rush the fulfillment of the
promise or convince everyone that it was true, his job was to be a willing
servant of the Lord and speak truth to Pharaoh and the Israelites. It is not my
job to rush God’s promises, either. They will be completed in His timing and
not a second sooner. So I have a choice. I can sit here and waste a good
portion of my time here not being content to sit and learn or I can be thankful
for this time of preparation before the next step. We all know what the right
answer is, but actually living it out is difficult.

“I, John, both your brother and companion in the tribulation
and kingdom and patience of Jesus Christ, was on the island that is called
Patmos for the word of God and for the testimony of Jesus Christ.”

I don’t know about you, but I need fellowship in order for
my walk to be strong. As soon as I start to isolate myself I fall into sins
that previously had no hold on me. The devil knows that when I am alone I am weak
and vulnerable, but together with my brothers and sisters in Christ I can stand
with them against his lies. If he can keep us distant from the body of Christ,
he can keep us distant from the Lord. On the flip side of that, if he can keep
us focused on the people around us in an unhealthy way he can get us to a place
where we feel okay but end up becoming stagnant and eventually backsliding in
our walk. The devil will attempt to convince us that we are the only one
struggling, that no one else would understand where we are coming from. I came
to Ignite in this mentality and yet again and again when I open up about
something, someone else understands exactly what I’m going through. It is so
encouraging to know that the other girls here can empathize with me but even
more encouraging is knowing that Jesus Himself understands. Hebrews 4:15 says,
“For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses,
but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin.” Part of the beauty
of having a human high priest was his ability to sympathize with the spiritual
needs of the people he was serving. This ability to put himself in their shoes
would make it possible for him to be compassionate. Jesus, then, is the perfect
High Priest; He knows exactly what we are going through and yet He never gave
in to temptation. So when He says that there is always a way out of temptation,
a way to flee from sin, He is speaking from experience and not asking us to
blindly trust Him.

“…Strengthened with all might, according to His glorious
power, for all patience and longsuffering with joy…”

When I think of why
Jesus died I have to consciously decide to go beyond the obvious “for our sins”
answer. While that isn’t wrong, there is so much more to why He died. Through
the death and resurrection of Jesus we have been promised an inheritance in
Heaven. Romans 8:14-17 says, “For as many as are led by the Spirit of God,
these are sons of God. For you did not receive the bondage again to fear, but
you received the spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, ‘Abba, Father.’ The
spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and
if children, then heirs - heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed
we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together.” I am blown away by
what being in Christ means in our life. Through His power we can walk in a way
that is worthy of the gospel, pleasing to the Lord. This is not possible
through works and sacrifices but through the condition of our heart. Psalm 51
tells us that God does not desire that we would sacrifice but that we would run
to Him in our brokenness. Abraham sacrificed but we are told that his faith was
accounted to him for righteousness, not how religiously he obeyed the law. Throughout
the whole Bible the truth that we cannot please God in our own power is so
clear, it has to be a work of God in our hearts. Despite our sin, we are given
the privilege of having a personal relationship with our Creator through Jesus.
Exodus 6:7 tells us that God desires for His people to know that He alone is
their God, the One who rescued them from bondage to lead them to the promised
land. According to Ephesians 1:19-20, we also get to live in the same power
that raised Jesus from the dead. It was not possible that death should hold
Jesus in the grave (Acts 2:24) because God’s plan for life was always going to
win. Because we know who wins, we endure trials with joy. The seasons of
waiting can be patiently endured because we know that He who promised us an
inheritance with Christ is faithful.

Yesterday, class 12 hiked a volcano together, the analogies
that I could pull from today are basically limitless. But, the one that stuck
out to me the most was the one I liked learning the least. In the days leading
up to the hike I was completely set on getting to the top no matter what. Then
I realized what “no matter what” actually meant. I had no clue how strenuous it
would be and how endless the path would feel. The monotony of putting one foot
in front of the other for hours on end quickly bored me, partially because I
was so focused on the path that I rarely stopped to look around me. And if I
wasn’t fellowshipping with anyone, it just got worse. Life is a climb and at
times its completely exhausting. At some point, a decision must be made to finish
the climb no matter the cost. I am so thankful for the common goal that we all
shared, and through that unity we were able to encourage each other to press
on. Philippians 3:12 says: “Not that I have already attained, or am already
perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus
has also laid hold of me.” My goal as a follower of Christ is to spend eternity
worshiping Him, whether that is on earth or in heaven. While He keeps me on
earth I can worship but my sinful nature will always find a way to mess it up
somehow. It is so sweet to know that through all my failures, His grace covers
me so that “for whatever reason we may call upon Him(Deuteronomy 4:7)!”

“Now the parable is this: The seed is the word of God. Those
by the wayside are the ones who hear; then the devil comes and takes away the
word out of their hearts, lest they should believe and be saved. But the ones
on the rock are those who, when they hear, receive the word with joy; and these
have no root, who believe for a while and in the time of temptation fall away.
Now the ones that fell among thorns are those who, when they have heard, go out
and are choked with cares, riches, and pleasures of life, and bring no fruit to
maturity. But the ones that fell on the good ground are those who, having heard
the word with a noble and good heart, keep it and bear fruit with patience.”

When I first read this, name after name pops into my head of
people that I know that Jesus could have been describing. Countless members of
my family have heard the simple truth of the gospel and have not believed, I’ve
seen people at school or church who are at first so eager to walk with Jesus
and then fall away when it gets hard. And then there are those who hear the
gospel and believe but quickly their career, school, or significant other
becomes their god again. I am so quick to point my finger and say “they need to
hear these verses taught in church next Sunday.” Very quickly I turned into the
Pharisees who condemned the woman caught in adultery but did not repent of
their own sins. But God is so faithful to correct me when I’m wrong that this
didn’t last for very long. When I read the verses over again, really praying
through them, I realize that each of the different soils describe me at one
point or another in my life. The one who hears and believes but has no root is
exactly how I was for a good portion of my childhood. I went to church and knew
the answer to every question, but I had no real roots. I share a room with my
sister who is two years younger than I am, and man, she used to annoy me so
much. For anyone who has ever shared a room for any length of time at all, you
can imagine the fighting that happened between two very different people who
refused to give up their way. I can remember my parents telling me to die to
myself and be the peacemaker which I knew were the right things to do, I just
didn’t want to. I had the knowledge, but no roots. Therefore, no growth or
fruit was being produced. Verse 15 talks about keeping the word and bearing
fruit with patience. If you are having to exercise patience before there is
fruit, then time is passing in which God is working but the fruit of that just
isn’t showing yet. Psalm 27:13-14 are the verses I have to choose to rest in
during this season of growing.