i know i said i wont blog anymore. and i probably wont.. unless i feel like whoring to everyone what im going through.... and hows my day like...

this post is for a special someone...

my bestfriend, that blew me away... yes love, you blew me away.. and i loved you.. and i still will, you will forever have a place in my heart..i wished i could turn back time, to the time when everything was easier... when we were so close.. ... you made me happy. you made me whole...... i know you care... but i just wanted to know if you realy loved me...cus i really love you. (puking on my own cheesy-ness) somehow, deep down. i know it was all out of concern.... and i am, truly. just a brother??. i heard it times too many... i do cry at night because i miss you. i do cry at night because i know it will never. ever. ever be true. you will never ever ever be mine.

i just want you to know love. that you are something special to me. you know who you are dear friend... i just want to tell you all these. all this things that are kept locked up in my heart, for i fear the truth...