Archive for the ‘In the Flow’ Category

As a rule, we rarely give ourselves time and space to adjust to events in our life. There always seems to be a pressure for things to return to “normal,” whether pressed for by others, or desired by us. Yet we are very sensitive life forms, and every life form needs to find its point of balance and equilibrium – especially after dramatic shifts or changes. And this is as true for inner events as it is for outer events. It would be great for our health to become more aware that we are always in process with many, many things – some to rid ourselves of, some to assimilate, and some still we are yet to reach. It’s a process, not instantaneous. And it can’t be any other way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane:So I had two other dreams. In one dream, I seem to be helping take care of some people that need to live in group housing. And, the way it’s structured, there’s one kind of building in the back, and then maybe some lawn or something, and then there’s another similar building where people stay. So it’s almost as though these are people that are either elderly, or handicapped, and need a certain amount of assistance – so I’m one of the assistants.

And there’s a woman that I’ve been working with to help her adjust to living in the group housing, and it feels like just as things are starting to go better she moves back into the building in the back where she had been before.

But when she goes back there, there’s some younger people, or different configuration of people, that have moved in and she’s having a lot of trouble getting along with them because they’re maybe a little louder, or just different. And a woman who’s overseeing all of this is talking to me, and explaining to me, that there’s not a lot I can do about that. The problems that she’s having with adjusting, it’s like I had done my best to get her to adjust to the house, you know, where we were, but it’s like she’s chosen to go back, and that where she’s gone back to has changed.

And, of course, you know, she doesn’t like the changes, but there’s nothing much I can do about that. It was kind of like her choice.

John: So what you’re dreaming about actually has to do with your attention being upon something. And so when one takes and looks at what your attention is upon, the thing that comes up is: you can be appreciative of an effect that takes and causes you to open up or move inside. However, unless you hit a total emptiness, it is still process-oriented. As a consequence, there will be things that will drift into the situation and cause it to suffer.

Now, you’re looking at the situation as a suffering that occurs as a kind of blowback effect, and it’s a strange way that you portray it because the image that I saw was that in which like maybe the way of saying it is let’s say Ryn has a certain effect upon you. You learn something, you grasp something, it awakens something, it’s refreshing, it’s exciting, or whatever. However, when it comes to Ryn, she blows back and gets caught in the blizzard of things. She still has to fight her way in terms of the blizzard of things.

So she gets a momentary reprieve from it, in which there is able to help create an inflection that still has its effect as a kind of reflection inside of you, because you’re looking around and understanding it, and coping. It’s like moving things around a little bit. And the blowback effect of that, because the object is to have the pure touch, to have the pure emptiness, the pure awakening that puts you into a zone in which you really totally let go – like the image of the first dream.

When you don’t have that there is a collateral effect. And the collateral effect depends upon where you’re at in the physical conditioning of life. And it’s like the collateral effect on some teachers and people who have reached a particular point and that’s it, and they experience the collateral effect, they lack something in their nature to be able to assimilate it, to take it in and let it go. And it tears at them.

I saw in a flash a lot of different teachers getting affected at the very end of something, where they lacked a certain key because of the physical breaking down of something. Now, what causes this? What causes this is that it is extremely difficult. This is a step that has to be taken. It’s extremely difficult to be able to be in an emptiness in relationship to everything around you, to be in an emptiness, an emptiness in such a way so that it doesn’t set in motion something else.

So here’s the problem that comes up. Let’s say you’re relating to somebody that is fairly linear and fairly dense, and you choose to relate to a person that’s like that. That has a tendency for more crackups because the person is not able to let go enough inside of their nature to be able to maybe take on a particular light without a defense mechanism. And when that defense mechanism hits, the reaction that they have is like a type of poison, it’s like a spell.

And none of this is intended, it just is how it is. And so if your physical condition, the nature of what your heart can take in, is worn down, then the blowback effect, instead of being something that you can absorb, or just take in, and let go of into the empty space, if you can’t let go of it, if you lack the fluidity that you normally had, it gets caught in the bile or bladder of your nature yet. That’s how I saw it in the flash image, and so it malingers upon you. It tears you down, it causes you to suffer.

That’s the deeper quality of this, and you were kind of dealing with the deeper quality because the dream you told created the image of a blowback.

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It is often hard to describe what coming from inner into outer actually looks, or feels, like, and this dream helps with this fundamental idea. Because we know when someone is good at something, that we won’t be as good as them if we just copy their movements. A great chef could give you a recipe, but it might never taste the same. Or a musician can show you the chords of his song, but it doesn’t have the same impact. That is because the true act is coming from within the person, and no two people can be identical in that way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane:My longest dream last night, it seemed like I was studying the qualities of Payton Manning – and it didn’t have anything to do with football. It was just like he, and maybe his brother or some other family member, were in my dream.

And, in my dream, they were somebody who had accomplished a lot, and I was studying, and what I was realizing is that when people tried to copy him they weren’t able to accomplish what he was accomplishing because what he was doing was not visible. And what he was doing, in a sense, was a little bit like the video game in that he had these kind of multicolored balls that, if you lined them up and they kind of imploded, they caused a certain effect but you never saw them, you know, it was just something that was done invisibly. And it was a certain alignment, and that alignment caused a certain implosion of energy.

And also, you know, it’s like if you got there earlier he was always going to be there earlier. And other people might try to do what he was doing, but they were copying something on the outer and it wasn’t working because what was making him really good at what he was doing was on the inner.

It was interesting because the dream didn’t have any football in it at all. It was just about the quality of achieving in life, and somebody else who was trying to accomplish that but I was maybe talking to them because what needed to be aligned was on the inner, it wasn’t on the outer which is where other people were focusing. And that dream went on for quite a long time because I was studying what kind of alignment was involved.

John: The detail aspect behind a dream like this has to do with how do you relate in an outer world which is reflective. In other words, the outer reflects the condition of something and then, typically speaking, a person contends with that by trying to cope with that reflection with another reflection – in other words, with an understanding or something.

And, until I had the final dream, I didn’t realize or wasn’t realizing, and I had the final dream in order to correct the fact that because I was coming to kind of a harsh reality, that it’s just reflection upon reflection, and that’s a pretty dire condition to be left in, which means that you just go around and around having to contend with things that affect the heart.

You can get into an emptiness, but not really because then out of that comes some sort of reflection, or relatability, and when you tie into that you then are back to the cycle, the up and down cycle of reflection upon reflection. And we are slowly being directed away from having to be in such a limited way because that is still personal when it’s like that.

In other words, that which isn’t personal comes from a place beyond reflection, it’s a pure light or something. And we aren’t aware of that, so we’re affected by reflection. And when we’re affected by reflection, and we relate to that reflection, then we do something that involves a vying within the heart. In other words, there’s a weight, or burden. There is something that the heart is still trying to sort out, or align, as if it can align or figure out reflections on top of reflections.

And what you were looking at is, you’re aware that there has to be something more than that. There has to be something that goes beyond all of that, that doesn’t stay caught in this mired condition. And so when you were looking at Payton Manning, what you were looking at was this quality where he can get in zone, and in that zone he can see anything, and everything that can happen – and it’s a kind of a knowingness. If he’s paying attention to that, as if he’s trying to act like he’s the one that’s capable of doing this, then he will get back into the realm of reflection.

And so the criticism of Manning is that on the big game he loses something that he is able to carry in the regular season. In other words, he breaks under pressure. For him to break under pressure would mean then that he gets caught in the reflection of things. He gets caught in the thrill of that moment, or something, as opposed to being in the zone.

When that sort of thing happens, when you go into a zone, you affect everything around you, like when Michael Jordan used to go into a zone it would affect the entire team. They would suddenly start getting the rebounds that they weren’t getting. They would suddenly start being in the right place, and he would start being in the right place, and everything would seem to have a synchronicity to it that supported being in the zone. But being in a zone can have a collateral damage effect, in that it can be more than what others are prepared, or capable, or able to handle And when it’s like that, then you get a blowback of a reflection coming from another part that isn’t able to be carried by your presence.

In other words, Manning as the quarterback has to carry the entire team inside of himself in order to make the zone inflection properly work. If you don’t, and something can’t be maintained, or has its doubts or whatever it is that go back into the reflection of things, then it will not work.

For example, at a Sufi conference there was this guy who was going to take people to various levels at a depth that was like a zoning out inside of themselves. And he was going to do it with music. And he explained it ahead of time as to what he was going to do and, initially, just as it was getting exciting, just as I was sensing that he had gone through what I consider introductory stuff and was now getting to the point where he was going to be sending people into a revelry, a person tips over in their chair and almost knocks himself out going over backwards. And that’s when he realized that the reflection, a reflection yet was too much, and that then limited the degree because he couldn’t shoot through that. Once something cracked like that, he wasn’t able to go beyond that. He wasn’t able to take something through that.

So that’s what you were looking at. You were looking at this quality and this trait, and you had a fairly clean, pure view of it.

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Sometimes our dreams have a message that they are trying to get to us and, when they do, the images can be dramatic and even shocking. Other times the images can be descriptive of the state we are in and what we are trying to process, and in those instances the dreams can show the element of timing, or the feeling of waiting, or the sense of feeling unsure. Yet our relationship with our dreams is a lifelong affair, and the next dream, or the next night, we see the update to our situation, perhaps more clarity, or perhaps more bewilderment, depending on what we’ve contributed while we were awake. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane:My dreams weren’t as clear to me last night. I know the first dream, what I remember of it, is it seemed to be at night and things were rather gray. And I was going along a street looking for a place where I lived, and also I had a friend who lived nearby that I hadn’t seen for a long time.

But that’s all I remember, from that dream, is just a sense of looking for something, looking for the place that I lived, or the right room, something like that. The second dream was different in that it was more… I was a man in the second dream.

John: In the first dream… first of all, the theme of the dreaming had a lot of bewilderment to it – as I experienced it and, therefore, you follow a similar parallel, except with the fact that you’re dealing with something that you’re just directly in, as opposed to trying to ponder the to and fro’s or something.

What happens is, the reason why it comes across as a theme like this, is that the human nature is such that it has to have something to lean on – in terms of how it’s unfolding, or proceeding – even if it’s just a fabrication, or a lie, that it tells to its soul.

As long as it has something to lean on it seems to be able to have the sense that everything is cope-able. The thing is we have that needing to be able to lean, or be, or know, or have a sense in some particular way. We have that, as a kind of defense mechanism, because if all of that were to be stripped away the heart would go in a swirl. It wouldn’t know how to hold onto anything because it is so used to having a kind of identity established, or nailed down, that it embodies.

And so when you get to a particular point, especially when something is about to shift, or needs to shift, and you’re in the flow of this, you’re experiencing the transitioning, in order to shift you have to let go, and when you let go you’re kind of caught in an in-betweenness in which things are going to break one direction or another – but you don’t know which.

And so you can have images of back and forth, something going up and something going down, or in your way of doing it is you just have an image, and I experienced this but didn’t have the image of it, you know, like yesterday was a day in which I felt fairly flat and benign, and nothing necessarily made sense, in terms of any focus that had to be acted upon, or done. And so as a consequence I went around and around in a circle just kind of in a glorified, or something, because there was nothing that pushed or resonated or compelled.

In your dream the sense of that sort of thing is expressed by not being able to figure out where you’re going, or anybody that you know of yourself knows, either. And so that is a sinking, emptiness feeling that is an oddity to have to feel in the heart when the heart is accustomed to, like I say, denoting something even if it’s a fabrication.

Jeane:What I remember of the second dream, that was earlier this morning, is that it feels like I’m a man, and we’ve all been assigned roles in a… it’s not like a game, it’s more like those game shows, like you see on TV. There’s some kind of a game, or a contest, that’s going to take part and I’ve been assigned one role and other people have been assigned other roles. And then we’ll kind of play against each other.

And I’m kind of just exploring what that role will be. It wasn’t that much detailed, yet, because we hadn’t started whatever the game was.

John: Yeah, that’s, like I say, first of all you had to have the first dream in order to kind of clear a space, so that there was a way that you could possibly listen to the transitioning. And the kind of transitioning you’re listening to goes along with kind of the statement that: something is coming from inner into outer. And, in order for you to be present, to be able to be there to be aware of it, to be a bridesmaid in terms of it going through you, you have to get to a particular point where you’re able to be in a receptive, flow state, in relationship to that.

In other words, it’s kind of like this other where you didn’t know your whereabouts, kind of left you in enough of an emptiness so that in the second dream you’re sitting there, so to speak, on baited breath wondering what’s coming next.

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