It's Whatever

Thursday, January 31, 2013

According to you i have changed
I don't appreciate you and i'm not the same
Get angry to quick, even with all the help you send my way
And with all our arguments i don't think you want me to stay
Got a boyfriend now, and y'all seem to be doing alright
And although i wanna beat his ass every time he puts his hands on you
I gotta realize that this isn't my fight
All i can do is stand on a side and just watch
But its harder than you think
To stay outside of the rink
I realize we all going through some hard times
I ain't stupid in fact i realize
That most of this shit came from myself
And i don't blame no body but self
I came to you for help, and you gladly said yes
But the struggle has put our relationship to the test
I feel weaker now than i have ever felt
I can feel a storm coming in other words i will just melt
I can't be the weakest link, and i'm on a brink
of ending this shit right here, death doesn't scare me cuz i lost all fear
i wipe my face all night long so you don't see my tears
This isn't what i wanted, this wasn't my plan
I fucked up too many times, and i know i'll do it again
I'm only a human, and i'm trying to straighten my shit out
But i just hope i get there before the last blow out

Because

I can't live like this no moreMy time here is done and now i gotta goI'm sorry if it hurts you todayBut i'm doing it so that we may live better another day

"Guys are such douchebags, all they care about is sex"
Bitch shut the fuck up, sit down and try to relax
Lemme tell you where you're wrong, and quit blaming it on us
Bitch you were bein pleasured too, but im the one that you shouldn't trust?
You also came, right before i got to bust
So why am i the one that's being cussed?
They say pussy makes the world turn
That means you bitches, when it comes down to it are in control
No matter how much you say we don't give a fuck
We wouldn't be able to do shit if you didn't let us fuck
And yes we lie and do whatever it takes
"I love you baby" or even begging "fuck me for gods sakes"
And that's about as far as our influence goes
everything from here on is up to you hoes
whether you laugh it off, or spread your shit
whether you let us eat it or hit that clit
quit crying in self pitty that we break your hearts
you can't grow a pair of balls so try to equip yourself with some smarts
fuck you calling me an asshole for?
you fuck a dude a night, and somehow all i care about is my bitch score?
You say i think with my dick, and i admit that i do
But don't tell me that you thought our night together meant something
Cuz you say that to every dude
Unless you taking me to court, and gon accuse me of rape
Don't try to play yourself as a victim and call me fake
I didn't promise you nothing when i went in balls deep
I aint spooning next to you, i just want some sleep
Leave me alone i busted and now i get disgusted by you whore
So lemme be a gentlemen and sleep alone on the floor

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

You weren't there, you didn't help me up
Instead you acted like you didn't give a fuck
Didn't matter, one way or another
You didn't offer help, didn't even bother
All you wanted was to know
Where all of it is gonna go
"Keep us posted" was what you said
Why the fuck should I? so you can be glad?
So you can finally say "I told you so!"
So you can finally see that i can't go nowhere no more?
So i come back saying that i'm sorry?
I should of listened to you, and that whole story.
You wanted me to fail, so i come apologizing
Begging you for mercy as i was agonizing
But it isn't gonna happen, i'm not gonna do it
Imma see it through that i succeed
Cuz there are people who love me and will help me do it
No matter how often i messed up
No matter how far i fall
They were always there for me
Always there when i call
I put them through pain, and i regret it
But even then what they did for me, i will never forget it
Cuz they stood by my side, through thick and thin
They watched me cry, laugh and grin
There is no side of me that they haven't seen
So as much as you wish, for your plan to work out
I wanna tell you that it won't happen
Thanks for the try though, I'm out

Monday, July 4, 2011

What the fuck you doin writin me letters saying that your sorry?
Oh all of a sudden now you start to worry?
But i know you aint worried bout us
Your just scared for yourself cuz you bout turn to dust
Dying slowly inside and out
And sayin that you found God, fuck you talkin bout?
If God exists, he probably aint gonna answer
Why else do you think he gave you cancer?
May be its because you have left us
May be because you broke our trust
May be its cuz you burned too many bridges
And left too many hearts in bloody stitches
Remember when i was only ten?
Your drunk ass held me outta nine story window back then
Ignoring when i said put me on the ground
I hope you fucking hell bound
Screaming and asking me if i trusted that you wouldn't let me go
But i couldn't trust you, cuz you let me go long time ago
And now you tryin to make shit right
Did you think bout this shit when you decided to kite?
Yeah you gave me life, yeah you put me on the planet
But then you kitted on my ass, what the fuck? God dam it!
I just wanted to grow up, with someone for a father
And now i get a letter from his ass, and i don't even bother
You turned me to stone
And may be someday i'll forgive you, but for right now i want you to be alone