There’s a theme here..either I’m a pain in the ass or people here in STL lie alot…to themselves or each other, especially when it’s about someone or something they don’t have a clue about.

20 years ago, I moved into a very beautiful building into a very unique condo apartment. Unfortunately, it was full of very ugly people, who did everything they could think of to make me pack up and leave. Instead, i stayed for 10 years, long enough for my beautiful little black dog to pass away and long enough to make an embezzler leave town. I believe this guy was stealing the condo association’s money to support himself because he couldn’t find a job as a graphic designer. I also believe he stole money from the city for the same reason. Of course, I can’t prove any of this! Anyway, to make a long story short, I stayed and it didn’t matter what they did, I was going to stay.

Let’s fast forward to 2016. My then landlord wasn’t interested in maintaining the apartment I was living in and on top of that, he moved his girlfriend in and since she was jealous of me and had a nasty habit of dropping stuff on the floor over my bedroom late at night, after 6 years and one job loss, it was time for me to move. 2 months after she camped her fat ass upstairs, I was gone.

November 2016, I moved into a beautiful historical landmark building, that once again, is full of ugly people. Don’t get me wrong, the building is beautifully rendered, inside and out, renovated from the walls in with about 200 unique apartments holding a varied group of people, across all socio-economic backgrounds. Unfortunately, for me, the person to the east of me, seems to enjoy dragging something across the floor at irregular intervals, creating disruptive, screeching sounds at all hours of the day and night. One Friday night, this jerkweed spent an entire evening dragging shit across the floor. Most “normal” people probably would have gotten bored after a couple of hours. Not this mental defective. I discovered that this person is able to do this because the floors are connected under the walls so any sound produced on the floor transfers to the next apartment.

The other odd thing, I seem to be the only person complaining about the noise to management. Because of this, there has been no action taken. Emails ignored, calls to security unanswered and the sound, like nails on a chalkboard, continues unabated.

I wouldn’t recommend any one coming to live in this historical building across from the 8th and Pine metrolink station in St. Louis, MO for this very reason. They’ll make you pay outrageous rent, bug the shit out of you if you don’t pay on time and ignore any requests for help until it suits them to respond, which is never.

What’s left for me to do? I had considered knocking on the next door, but, considering that it’s obvious this person is creating the racket on purpose, what’s the point? I’m actually opting for total public humiliation by confronting the dragger, just to embarrass him or her (likely a her) completely and utterly.

My perception of the management people is that because they don’t live here and the security team can’t afford to live here, complaints about the racket or anything else has very little meaning to them, other than collecting the rent and pretending to present something to the public at large that is essentially NOT TRUE.

At first, I thought the noise was coming from the top floor community room, (which the tenants can’t reserve, but management can for their events, whenever they feel like it and then charge tenants to attend). I figured the racket out early one Saturday morning (1:45 am) when I was up watching a movie and all of a sudden, the screech. Put my ear to the wall, and there it was.

The next weekend, it was party central with more dragging along with yelling, thumping and some loud music. This time, I called security (who didn’t answer) and left a message asking that they come up and ask 18XX to shut the party down. Less than a minute later, blissful silence. Which makes me wonder if the guard wasn’t in there partying with them.

It’s the beginning of a new week, and once more into the noisy breach. as I did in my other condo, I’m not leaving until I’m ready to go, not because they may be trying to harass me out.

Some vague attempt by the management team to get me to abandon my lease so they can put someone else in my apartment.

I’m still going to opt for total and complete public humiliation. I’m lying in wait for my chance to embarrass the hell out of everybody.

ladies and gentlemen, I’m here to tell you that you have put a man in office who became a TV star as the “leader” of a scripted show. your current president has absolutely no skill to run an entity as ephemeral and dynamic as a country. we are not a script to be followed. we are a living, breathing entity and you have picked the wrong man to run it.

the same thing happened with Richard Nixon and since you have forgotten your history, it is about to repeat itself.

On April 30, 1973, Nixon fired Dean and Ehrlichman and Haldeman resigned.

Subsequent investigation revealed that President Nixon had a tape-recording system in his offices and that he had recorded many conversations.

In the shortened version of this story, the white cop did not sustain enough damage to justify killing an unarmed black man. If he looked like Rodney King or Reginald Denny, I would be able to understand his shooting this young man to protect himself from being beaten to death. Looking at the pictures that were taken of him at “hospital”, left me shaking my head in wonder.

In the long, drawn out version told to the alleged Grand Jury, this officer feared for his life at the hands of a big, black teenager. There’s a possibility that this young man generally used his substantial size to bully and coerce others into doing his bidding. His parents said he was a gentle giant, but the video of him picking on the smaller adult in the store he took the cigarillos from, you can extrapolate that this young man did know he was big and burly and could get what he wanted by using his size to do so.

By the way, the cop was well-coached by his lawyers. He had to tell his story as straight-faced, unemotional and neutral-voiced as possible in order to be credible, even if he was lying through his teeth.

In the next version (mine), you have to wonder if the white cop was thinking with his primal brain when he kept pulling the trigger because Brown Jr. just wouldn’t stop coming and Wilson knew that if he just kept shooting, he could make this big-ass bear-child stop walking towards him with murder in his eyes. In my version, the question arises “was Wilson afraid or was he playing target practice with this young man?” In my version, I would also include the question of why Wilson couldn’t take a couple of punches from this unarmed black man and if he did take couple of punches, why isn’t he walking around with at least one black eye, some knuckle-shaped purple-black bruises, a broken or dislocated jaw or a thoroughly damaged ear? If he was afraid for his life, does that mean that the slaps he probably got from Brown did, at least, dislocate his jaw? To me, that much damage might justify this officer shooting this unarmed black man to death.

The pictures I’ve seen of Wilson, there’s not enough facial damage done to warrant shooting Brown to death. The grand jury should have found probable cause to indict, based on the evidence. There should also be questions as to why Wilson was “walking” shots up this young man’s body. Was it target-practice? A well-placed couple of shots to the knees or femur would have gone a long way towards putting this young man down and preserving his life, extra “witnesses” be damned.

The question this so-called Grand Jury didn’t ask: why didn’t Wilson shoot to disable (a knee cap, femur or ankle) instead of taking the life? Was he thinking with his primal brain (kill the threat/or run like hell) or with his logical brain (play target practice on the n-word and make him suffer).

It appears to me that cops are no longer attempting to disable or maim, they are killing young black men, even if the circumstances don’t warrant it. They are not being trained to recognize when the primal brain is trying to take over to end a confrontation at all costs, instead of the logical brain which would calculate where to put a bullet to stop or slow further mayhem from happening. I would rather see an alive human being, missing an arm or leg rather than see a human being lying in the street unarmed and dead.

Some time in the not too-distant future, we’re going to find out that the 3 black jurors probably caved in to the 9 white jurors. Blacks here in MO are notoriously afraid of white people for absolutely no good reason. The blacks here keep giving whites some sort of power over what they say and do and always seem to be acquiescing to them, even to the detriment of their own opinions, ideas and lifestyles.

I think it’s way past time for black people to “stand their ground” and demand to be treated and given the same privileges as the white people in Missouri currently enjoy. There is economic opportunity everywhere in this state if everyone would realize the only color that matters is the color of your money.

It’s time for Black folks to stop ”stepping off the sidewalk” and “getting out of the way” and to demand respect, fair treatment and equal rights from whites in Missouri.

A leader is needed who’ll tell it like it is and confront the issues that are holding race relations in the state of Missouri hostage.

Black people here are living and working as if it is still the 1950s and Jim Crow is alive and well. The only place it’s okay to sit up front is on the bus or the MetroLink and only in a seat by yourself, because a white person will not sit next to you.

Missouri needs a governor who is not suffering from “tunnel” vision when it comes to what is really going on among both groups of his constituents. Missouri needs politicians who are aware and not afraid to confront and speak about what is holding this state and its’ people back from becoming an important player in the world market.

Missouri really needs to stop trying to keep the world off its’ doorstep and allow real progress to be had both in education, economics and racial equality, access to information and genuine communication. If MO wants to be a player in the world market, its’ leaders need to stop controlling “outsiders” access to creating businesses and come up with a plan to properly educate all of its’ citizens.

MO needs a leader that is willing to welcome business ventures from outside the state that would help the state to grow and truly enter the 21st century global market. It needs to have leaders who are non-exclusive in who they will deal with or communicate with in this current global environment.

There is a man in the White House who should NEVER have been voted president. There is a resider in the highest office of the USA who takes children away from their parents, just because they’ve shown up at the US/Mexico border as emigres.

The thought that this country’s citizens were so afraid of having a WOMAN president, that it put an unqualified, poorly educated person in that office.

This country is so AFRAID of a strong woman president, that it has cut its’ own throat in the global arena so she would not get there.

The release of all that DETRIMENTAL information about HRC was done deliberately. To cost her the election PERIOD.

The current White House tenant had a lot of help to accomplish this theft. Ultimately, after all the investigations, testimony, reports, tweets, news articles “fake”, mainstream and real media, the TV talking heads, the news at 11 and fecklessness, it’s going to come out that this country was so afraid of a STRONG woman finally running the country, that they have all perjured, fabricated, slandered, libeled and STOLE, to keep that from happening. The people who voted for this squatter, bought the lies hook, line and stinks to high heaven.

It doesn’t matter how long it takes Mueller and team to get to the bottom of this travesty, as long as they get to the bottom of it…

This is a monumental crime that has been perpetrated upon the people of the United States and anything that happens while this investigation is ongoing is a smoke screen from this truth.

The elephant in the room is the fact that with all of the strides society has made, this country has unequivically stated it is NOT ready for a woman head of the country.

We can run dynasties, families, companies, homes, restaurants, tanks, planes, you name it, but not the United States of America.

The problem we have today is there is a “slippage” in morals, in being respectful, courteous, kind, polite, honest and concerned for fellow man. We look around at the lack, not so much of religion, but of civility. That thing that makes us human, the ability to empathize with someone, not cognizant of a person’s color, gender, nationality. We have lost the concept of this country that is being welcoming of all people in spite of the way this country began.

Religion was a great controller of people without putting much effort into it. Hire a preacher, get a stack of bibles, pass them out and then guide and direct people to those passages that made them behave in a way that was “acceptable to GOD”. It’s actually society working to control the masses. Religion, church and spirituality are mutually exclusive (and that’s a story for another day).

Religion slipping away is one thing. Morals slipping away is something else entirely. The internet may be largely to blame for this slippage. It’s become the place to go to say and do things one cannot do out in the open. People form opinions about themselves and others, because there is no self-editing. You can say what you want, become someone else and make up what ever story you like that fits the online persona. The Golden Rule no longer applies.

The problem with that, what you say and do unfiltered online, seeps into the common speech, in the loss of being courteous. I’d bet money that the old lady in the restaurant who disrespected the pregnant soldier had been in a chat room or on a website that told her that black people (in the 21st century!) are animals that need to be neutered and corralled so they can’t breed, infest or infect the many good (white) people who are struggling to keep a roof over their heads, food on their tables and clothes on their children’s backs.

There are way too many stories online, on TV and in magazines and newspapers daily talking about a black person was shot, arrested, jailed or in some manner persecuted just because they are black. The ultimate conspiracy is the fact that black men make up the majority of the nation’s prison population. I guess that’s one way to make sure another MLK or Malcolm won’t crawl out of the woodwork

People of color are daily subjected to overt and covert racism, bigotry, bias, insults, the slings and arrows of outrageous persecution, psychological trauma, mental anguish, overt and covert taunts; the likes of which haven’t been seen since the days when lynching was the norm to keep the “colored” population “in check”.

That was outlawed. So now, instead of a rope, people use words, laws, rules that are designed to slowly bleed away the rights of brown-skinned people, the world over. People have become so comfortable with this once again overt racism, they even managed to put a man in an office who should never have been put in there in the first place. Trump is so unfit to be president, I think if Sigmund Freud were alive, he’d be scratching his head. Classic narcissistic tendencies, a touch megalomanical, manipulative, sociopath who surrounds himself with syncophants and enablers, including his children who have been in thrall since birth.

I’ve noticed that when people think you’re actually happy, comfortable or peaceful, they make it their business to cause some sort of psychological trauma to disrupt those conditions. They’re unhappy, uncomfortable and not peaceful, so they want to you be that way also. My ex-husband called that “crab in the barrel syndrome”.

It’s a situation where you’re somewhere and for some odd reason, people think it’s ok to either victimize you or be rude and to them it’s entertainment of some kind. Somehow you’re being punished for being somewhere you’re not wanted or because you’re perceived as “different”.

I’m living in a city where people don’t invite different people into their circles so that what you have is a stagnated environment where nothing improves or changes because no one wants to invite new ideas or new ways or new concepts into their lifestyle or system or group of friends.

They avoid this by assuming that because a person looks a certain way, they can’t be anything other than what someone else says you are, not what you say you are. If someone tries to present themselves as other than what everybody else does, that person becomes “crazy” “funny-acting” or some other label/handle that misses the mark entirely. People here need to start discarding assumptions about someone that are based on the way a person looks or what stupid high school someone went to. Looks have absolutely nothing to do with a person’s education, life experiences, abilities, etc. You can’t f**ing categorize anybody by something so trivial as high school and who someone is as an adult has nothing to do with high school. Perhaps a personality was formed during high school, but if you keep living, you hopefully get many years away from that event for it to make a difference in the big picture.

There must be a way to tear down those psychological barriers that only serve to hold everyone back from their true potential.

We’re fighting the wrong battle from the wrong end. This is an environment where people who look a certain way are given opportunities and people who don’t look a certain way are denied opportunities because they are seen as not deserving of the same opportunities given to certain other people (aka white privilege).

Here in STL there was a man living with a gun to his head that may have been because of these circumstances. He may have been forced into thug life so he could provide for the people he loved in the only way he was allowed to do. It may have been his environment, his family’s environment; it may have been his education or the lack of it. He may have been forced to live in a place similar to the one over on Chouteau @ Tucker, where the vermin are ruling and not the humans. If a restaurant had that problem, the city would shut it down and a whole lot of folks would be paying a whole lot of fines.

Yep, he was a drug dealer, living with a gun to his head, and we need to be addressing the whys of that condition, not the end of that condition. How’d he get to that point in the first place? Was he trying to save his mother and siblings from more victimization? Will his offspring (cousins, nieces, nephews) end up there also?

We live in a victimization culture. I thought originally that it was only against brown-skinned women, but it’s actually across all races and not just against women.

Can’t figure out if it’s because of rap music, violent video games, no religious or moral upbringing and all of which is embedded in culture, which no one recognizes anymore.

We have a president who is a victimizer. So, it stands to reason that the people who voted for him either allow it to happen or participate in the activity.

But I digress.

We live in a culture where (most) men have been exposed to and internalized behavior that in the 1970s, would have caused a backlash so severe as to shut down a whole lot of shit and not just several streets in the Delmar Loop or the streets around the mayor’s house in the Central West End.

This is not the case today because any one is capable of victimizing someone else and then stand there acting like nothing is happening and the person complaining about it must be crazy.

It’s a victimization culture when a man asked his opinion on live TV he comes up with “I believe in the 1st Amendment and I believe in boobs. They’re the only things that haven’t let me down.” The female newscaster shut the whole thing down and good for her.

The problem here is that victimization and hate speech have become the norm in our society as moral behavior and religious restrictions are shrugged off, these activities/behaviors/concepts are becoming more and more embedded in the US culture and even the entire world.

There are countries that mutilate girls’ genitalia. There are countries that stone, beat or gang-rape women who are out after a certain time at night. There are countries that conscript/kidnap young girls to stop their education and force them into prostitution.

I would not walk down the street in my downtown neighborhood after 8 pm without carrying a taser or pepper spray (and I live in a nice neighborhood!).

Pick a city, any city and the culture is now allowing police officers to shoot someone even if they are running away and there are no consequences.

The officer in STL who was acquitted of murder charges for killing a drug dealer after a high speed chase. Even though he only made one recorded comment about killing the guy, the prosecution, according to the judge, “did not prove beyond a reasonable doubt there was premeditation in the shooting.” The funny thing is, that human being was very likely deprived of his “due process under law”.

The horrible thing about this,the wrong human hasn’t died yet. AIDS wasn’t a “problem” until Rock Hudson died from it. Then everybody got all excited. At some point in time, some cop somewhere is going to shoot the wrong person and then those constitutional amendments and deprivation of due process of law will get a workout.

The excuse all the officers are using “I was in fear of my life”. This is becoming rote and trite because someone somewhere taught them this in a class and very likely included the warning “sound sincere” when you utter the phrase and they’ll believe it.

This brings me back to the “victimization culture”. In this culture, people don’t call you “nigger” to your face. They think it and it comes out in their behavior. Think about that for a second. The internet, because of relative anonymity and “safety” of the computer, allows people to say, post, film, write, anything they please, with no hint of repercussion. Now, there need to be rules applied to internet usage because people don’t seem to be able to self-censure themselves any more and now it’s leaching into what used to be polite society.

In this cop’s case, he spoke words, which may have included thoughts (nigger) that we can’t prove (unless he slips and says it in the future) and then proceeded to act upon those words and possible thoughts. The “thoughts” are inadmissible in court. Dash and body cams can’t record thoughts. And, since the officer knows he’s being recorded, he’s going to “act” to that recording to evade “capturing” his real intent.

We have a president who does things like this, http://www.cnn.com/2017/09/17/politics/trump-tweet-clinton/index.html which proves he is the titular head of this victimization culture. Bet money there’ll be a retraction stating “he didn’t send the tweet, a misguided aide did”. I think this tweet actually does fall under unprotected hate speech, because it specifically targets a particular person.

This tweet comes after everyone dumped on Kathy Griffin for her photo while holding the “head” of the current president. She had gigs cancelled left and right. She got trashed on TV, internet, in magazines and newspapers.

Maybe it’s time for the US to move toward an impeachment culture and get this victimizer out of office.

Going home as usual, not really concerned with my environment, but somewhere mentally always monitoring my surroundings while waiting for the Metrolink train to take me to the building I live in. Too much time went by and the usually punctual train was not in evidence.

A lone security officer was walking up and down the eastbound platform and I heard a burst of sound from her radio saying something about a person wearing a white t-shirt and blue jeans in the area, not realizing what was about to happen.

Next, the officer is asking us to please move to the opposite platform to catch the eastbound train. As I cross over, I can see further down there’s a human sitting in between the eastbound railroad tracks.

Before the train appeared, the human moved just to the left outside rail and then we saw the train rolling slowly up the westbound side.

The human saw this also and got up to move into the train’s path, again lying down. When the human moved, it appeared to be a female.

The woman you see on the right began to scream very unkind things about her finding someplace else to go and kill herself so she could go home, undoubtedly out of some misguided reverse psychology, which could have had the exact opposite effect. I began to pray that the lady would move on her own, having a full understanding of what that kind of despair feels like.

You try to live your life in a way that’s beneficial and unselfish, but the rug gets pulled out from under you in ways you don’t expect; losing a job, a spouse, a child, a parent, a pet, a limb or something or someone you think you can’t possibly live without.

I understand this kind of despair. This kind of loss unfortunately, had the effect of teaching me not to become over-emotionally involved with another human to the point of despair ever again.

You know that old saying: “it’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all”.

Only problem with this is you have to recover from that loss and there are those of us out here who may not be able to recover. Hence the lady sitting on the train tracks. For her, it was a cry for help, that maybe someone actually answered.

The picture you don’t see is the man who walked down that eastbound platform and coaxed the despairing woman away from the train’s path. He stood with her and held her as we all boarded the train and moved out of this sad woman’s life.

My wish is that he took care of her and talked to her and helped her to get help and not despair. Not screaming at or belittling her like the woman in the picture did.

No one gets to try to take my life from me like that ever again.

And then, this guy showed up:

Superman actually got on the eastbound Metrolink and chatted up the passengers, even though, like the proverbial Calvary, he was too late to do any good!

US Constitution: The Fifth Amendment says to the federal government that no one shall be “deprived of life, liberty or property without due process of law.”

US Constitution: The Fourteenth Amendment “limits the actions of all state and local officials, including those acting on behalf of such an official.”

The US Bill of Rights, Article 6 states: “The right of the people to be secure in their persons, houses, papers, and effects, against unreasonable searches and seizures.” Article 7 states “…nor [shall any person] be deprived of life, liberty, or property, without due process of law…”

Anybody know any good constitutional/civil rights attorneys interested in taking on local police stations? Pick a state, any state…

Maybe we need to add a 28th Amendment saying cops are not allowed to use guns to deprive a [Black] human being of life unless that [black] human is actually shooting at them. A person with a gun stuck in their waistband or a toy replica is not grounds for depriving a human of life.

A human being should not be deprived of medical care while in the custody and control of a police or peace officer.

“hate speech is any speech, gesture or conduct, writing, or display which is forbidden because it incites violence or prejudicial action against or by a protected individual or group, or because it disparages or intimidates a [particular] individual or group.”

any time the donald stands up in front of a crowd and cameras, he is practicing “hate speech”. nowadays, people hide hate speech in dog whistle rhetoric, pretending concern over the current state of affairs vis-a-vis “the immigrant situation”, “the crime situation” or “the muslim situation” . it’s all cleverly hidden rhetoric for the same tone, language and attitudes that many whites had when I was growing up as a child. “the only good ni-word is a dead n-word”, except now, it takes 20 words to say the same thing the previous 8 words say. if you notice, these words are coming out of the mouth of a human who thinks his money makes him invulnerable to consequences. if anyone complains, his lawyers get together and throw money at the problem until it goes away. trump gets the bill and that’s all he gets.

if you thought reagan and bush were bad, wait’ll you get a load of “the donald”. bend over and kiss this country good-bye.

this probably means we need to now add immigrants, gays and muslims to the “protected” category in the 1st amendment.