diva's dwelling

diva's doppleganger

...diva...

i laugh too loud. i sing all the time. i cry easily. i've been told i have the oddest sense of humor. ever. yes, i'm the one in the movies laughing when no one else gets it. the only time i dance is for my kids. they love my "rubber dance!" remember in school when you use to shake your pencils til they looked all bendy and rubbery? yeah, it's like that! ha!
i stay up late and wake up early. i see a therapist who helps keep me straight and making good decisions.
i do not speak to my mother and think this is great! I am moody, opinionated, emotional, intelligent, and empathetic. i love all things girly but mostly shoes, and have a bizarre infatuation with the following: lady gaga, celine dion, stacy london, britney spears. (how the heck does that even make sense?!) oh yeah and i am addicted to my iPhone.

YES I AM ALREADY MADLY AWAITING BREAKING DAWN!!!!

Friday, October 09, 2009

i wanted to make sure that i made mention of a comment i got on my ready to spill...pt 2 post that really meant a lot to me.

i didn't see this comment until yesterday because for some reason it hadn't come through on my phone like all my others. but it struck a cord with me.

blaze ended her comment with a phrase that will be permanently etched in my brain. "I'm proud of you for breaking away because even though it's right it doesn't make it any less painful."

no truer words have i read than those right there. for years, i have been trying to make sense of my deplorable childhood. my angsty teen years. my awkward 20's. for years i have tried to explain why i keep giving my family a chance when clearly, they are too selfish to change. i never could get the right words together...which is rare. these words hit me like a ton of bricks because of how true they are.

so thank you blaze. not only for saying that you are proud of my decisions, but for acknowledging the fact that the decisions i made came with a price.