I'm on a journey with a set destination. Heaven! I want to journey well and bless those traveling alongside me. I don't want to sit - I want to make progress - everyday. But I know, I must feel the brush of His Robes, or I'll never make the climb. This blog will chronicle my journey, but more importantly, it will share my moments of reaching for the Robes of Christ.

Friday, April 10, 2015

Ask...

Samuel was the son of Hannah, the
barren woman, who prayed to God asking for a child. She gave birth to
a son. Hannah had promised God, “if you will bless me with a son, i
will give him back to you”. She kept her promise.

Samuel grew up living in the temple of
the Lord, under the care of Eli.

These chapters in 1 Samuel have been
the focus of my readings of late, there's so much to learn here.

This time around it's the wisdom of
“questions” that is on the class syllabus. In Samuel, we see many
questions placed before the Lord. It begins in 1 Samuel chapter 3
when the Lord first speaks to the boy Samuel in the temple. Waking
the child from his sleep, the Lord calls, “Samuel”. And Samuel's
response, “Here I am...”

These are the first recorded words of
Samuel the servant boy who would become a powerful prophet of God.

“Here I am...”

These 3 words ---- change lives.

There's an eagerness in them, can you
hear it too?

A whisper unspoken that says “yes...
what is it...did you call me...what would you ask of me?”

And these are the first words God chose
to let us hear come from Samuel's mouth.

It's at the beginning of Samuel's days,
serving Eli in the temple, with a heart asking... “what would you
have me do?”. His mother Hannah taught him early, you were born to
serve the Lord.

Before serving, we must “ask” to
know what is needed, we must ask to know what God wants.

Little is known of the “boy”
Samuel. 1 Samuel 2:18 – 21 gives us a glimpse of his life. And in
verse 26 we read that he grew taller and in favor with the Lord and
the people.

Then in chapter 3, those three words
come.

“Here I am...”

He didn't hide in fear.

He didn't yawn and roll over.

He didn't strut with self-worth.

He didn't yell back with rebellious
attitude.

He was “clean” and able and
willing. No “dirt” of self held him back.

He was eager and ready ---- for
whatever would be asked of him.

Samuel thought Eli was calling out to
him. He would not presume the Lord would be speaking to him. For in
those days the voice of the Lord was not heard often. (3:1)

So when the voice awakens him, Samuel
runs to Eli to ask, “did you call me, what do you need...?”

Eli had not called him, Samuel was sent
back to bed.

Three times this happened in the dark
of the night until finally Eli realizes the Lord is calling out to
Samuel. He guides Samuel to respond the next time, “Speak Lord,
your servant is listening”.

That's Samuel. A boy awakened from his
sleep by the voice of God.

The surrendered son who served.

The boy who became a prophet and spoke
over the heads of earthly kings, because he served One who was
higher.

We read further in the book, and find
the story of Saul and David. How Samuel was instructed by God to
anoint Saul to be the first king of Israel. And then David, the
shepherd boy who played the harp to calm the fretful king Saul. David
who killed Goliath with one smooth stone. David grows in the favor of
the Lord, Saul does not. Saul disobeys God's guidance to him. The
tension grows in the king's palace as Saul's jealously increases. He
wants David killed.

Then we come to Chapter 23 --- David is
hiding from Saul, Saul is pursuing him with plans to kill him. And
the powerful lesson of questions comes front and center. (NOTE: all
parenthesis w/comments, bold font, and underlinings added by
me)

“1 When David was told, “Look,
the Philistines are fighting against Keilah and are looting the
threshing floors,” 2 he inquired of the Lord, saying,
“Shall I go and attack these Philistines?”The Lord answered him,
“Go, attack the Philistines and save Keilah.” (question
1, answer 1)3 But David’s men said to him,
“Here in Judah we are afraid. How much more, then, if we go to
Keilah against the Philistine forces!” (no
question, just a telling – no answer from God)4 Once again David
inquired of the Lord,
and the Lord answered him,
“Go down to Keilah, for I am going to give the Philistines into
your hand.” (question 2,
answer 2)5 So David
and his men went to Keilah, fought the Philistines and carried off
their livestock. He inflicted heavy losses on the Philistines and
saved the people of Keilah. 6 (Now Abiathar son of Ahimelek had
brought the ephod down with him when he fled to David at Keilah.)7 Saul was told that David had
gone to Keilah, and he said, “God has delivered him into my
hands, for David has imprisoned himself by entering a town with gates
and bars.” 8 And Saul called up all his forces for battle, to go
down to Keilah to besiege David and his men. (no
question, no guidance from God)9 When David learned that Saul was plotting against him, he said
to Abiathar the priest, “Bring the ephod.” 10 David said, “Lord,
God of Israel, your servant has heard definitely that Saul plans to
come to Keilah and destroy the town on account of me. 11 Will the
citizens of Keilah surrender me to him?Will Saul come down,
as your servant has heard? Lord, God of Israel, tell your
servant.”And the Lord said, “He
will.” (question 3,
answer 3)12 Again David asked, “Will the
citizens of Keilah surrender me and my men to Saul?”And the Lord said, “They
will.” (question
4, answer 4)13 So David and his men, about six
hundred in number, left Keilah and kept moving from place to place.
When Saul was told that David had escaped from Keilah, he did not go
there.14 David stayed in the wilderness
strongholds and in the hills of the Desert of Ziph. Day after day
Saul searched for him, but
God did not give David into his hands.”

Saul searched...

Saul could not “find” what he
wanted, he wandered, he was unsuccessful...

Do we fear asking because we don't
think God will answer? -- is He there? -- does He care?

Or do we not ask because we want our
way, and we're afraid God won't give the “right” answer?

Or perhaps we don't ask because we
don't realize our need for help. We think “we've got this”.

Doesn't that have the
bad-smell-of-Saul?

He thought he was clever enough to know
what he needed to do ----- he thought he didn't need to ask.

And as a result ---- he got neither
answers nor guidances from God ----- and he “searched” but did
not find...

The dirt of the slum seemed worse
somehow; the smells stronger and the drunks were out. There were too
many puppies and ducklings and children and babies and too much
filth. My heart twisted inside me and my words went flat. The
children's hands were stickier and their grasp was not gentle as it
so often had been, instead it felt... more... desperate.

More roofs and walls and locked doors
were needed. Eleven new huts were being built to replace the last of
the trash dome houses. SO many people had come alongside the work, it
was all God's work, we could claim not one speck of it. The much
needed moneys had been generously given. The physical work was being
done by Kenyans. It was a partnership choreographed by the One who
loves.

Much more was in the works --- concrete
floors for every hut, then jigger treatments for each and every
sufferer. And finally shoes for every bare foot.

Many people heard about it, and ----
they ---- cared! They gave.

In less than 5 months every needed
dollar was donated and ready.

Our task shifted from raising the
needed funds to insuring the wise, proper allocation of them.

Today we visited to see the progress
and hold everyone accountable to honesty. Too many thieves live in
this place, accountability is a priority.

At the first new hut we were greeted by
a drunk woman and my heart sank low. She twirled about in her drunken
state asking us to take her picture. Her posing was disgusting and my
ugly-flesh wanted to shake her hard. Her children ran around the almost
finished hut, excitement gushed from them. Reality was coming too
quickly to process. The drunken mother was demanding my attention,
but the squealing children was where my focus wanted to be. They were
happy beyond words that someone cared enough to build them a place to
live; a place with walls and a metal roof and concrete floor and a
wooden door. They felt loved and cared for, they felt seen...

Beside me danced the drunk momma who
should have been providing this for her children, but instead she had
chosen the brew that was rotting her mind and helping her forget.
Forget where she was and what she had endured.

And my ugly flesh wanted to judge
her...

Oh God --- i wanted to mentally convict
her and lock her out of my mind and heart.

And so... i did just that.

My focus lingered only on the children
and i prayed for them. They need so much that their mother can't give
them --- can't, or won't --- or couldn't, or just doesn't ---
confusion comes with poverty, and i was standing in the place where
confusion and poverty had won.

We have to choose to not be devoured
--- we have to choose to focus on what is true and noble and right
and pure... excellent... praise worthy... (Philippians 4:8) The
impact of those words comes close when the drunken mother has not
kept her focus where it should have been ------- but the children
dancing around her wobbly legs are still trying to. And my heart
crashes over it all. It's a crash and burn moment that no one can see
but my Father.

And my soul erupts in the middle of the
filth and i ask, “Lord, HOW COULD SHE possibly keep focus? How much
suffering has pressed in on her to wipe away any glimpses of what is
right and pure and lovely and... Oh God, it's a pit that sucks-in
those who come near... maybe that's why most DON'T come near this
place of sin-filled-stench. I feel myself sliding ---- Lord, we need
to get these kids OUT OF HERE. Before they get pulled d-o-w-n into
the pit that has already taken their mother's mind. Oh God, what are
we doing here? ...”

...and then...

We walked on to the next hut, just
sticks and a roof so far, but 3 layers of mud were soon to come. I
was despairing in more ways than words will fit into. The children
still clung to our arms, their dirty feet leaving muddy footprints on
my once-clean-shoes. And my soul asked again, “Lord, are you SURE
you REALLY want this work done here in this slum? Are you really
certain this is the right thing to do? GOD, i must hear You speak or
i'm going to run... LORD, shouldn't we use the dollars given to
rescue these children OUT of this horrible place??”

Then the gentle-faced young mother
carrying her swaddled newborn baby walked humbly to the door, looked
me in the eye and said, “Thank you so much for this home, God bless
you and those behind you.” It came out in Turkana, but my heart
knew what she had said, even before it was translated for my ears.
Her eyes spoke it perfectly...

She was the second momma of
the day. The momma of the second house. She was young and barefoot
and as she unwrapped her precious child, i could see just how “new”
it was. Her whole face gleamed through her shy demeanor as her every
move and gesture conveyed love and care.

PEACE was present.

And the confusion in the
filth was washed instantly --- the reassuring answer came to my
soul---

As 3 powerful words spoke
in the middle of a slum ------

HERE...I...AM...

“donna, see... i love her
d-e-a-r-l-y. I love them d-e-e-p-l-y. My love is NOT altered by where
my children are or even by what they choose to do. My love is abiding
and near --- and I want this one to know i'm w-i-t-h HER. I am God
and I will NOT be chased away by evil. I will enter into the places
where darkness torments ------ I would have My love brought to the
places where no love is found. donna, don't doubt what I've told you
to do, just do it. It doesn't make sense... I know that full well...
the outcome might not “work” in your eyes... but it will
accomplish the plans I have. Don't question MY plans donna, just obey
Me, and love, love, (wash your hands lots) and then love some more.
You can trust Me donna ---- this is My work, My plan, My love, and MY
WAY.”

And in the middle of
Kipsongo slum, Samuel and David and Saul flooded in just as if they
might be found around the next stream of mud huts.

Samuel... “here i am
Lord, speak Lord, your servant is listening...”

David... “shall i
attack ?... Go, attack ---- and save ----.

And then the thought of
Saul --- who didn't ask --- but he only did what seemed right to him
--- and he wanted, he wandered, he was unsuccessful...

God
says ----------------------------------------------

“Ask...

I'm God, ask Me...

I'm listening to you...

I am with you.

Ask Me.

I will answer.

In my way, for my purposes (not
yours, but mine)... for the good of many (and for you ----- but ---
not just you).

Ask – I'll answer --- and the
outcome will be mine, I'll take responsibility for how it “looks”
and what it accomplishes --- you take responsibility for whether you
believed ME enough to obey Me.

Saul searched, but did not find. (He
didn't ask God...)

David asked, and got answers, and was
rescued from his enemy.

Samuel began his discourse of life
----- asking, responding, serving, and getting answers.

-------------- and the Lord called out,
“Samuel!” --- and Samuel replied,

About Me

Married to Steve, mother to Michael, Maggie, and Peter, daughter of Donald and Kathryn Glover, sister to Kathy Williams and Jeff Glover ----- follower of Jesus Christ, and life-long learner. I was an elementary school teacher for 14 years and then worked serving those preparing to go on missions trips to Africa. I've enjoyed free-lance writing for several years. Now, we serve in Kenya teaching Godly Principles of Marriage as we mentor and encourage couples to bless each other, bless their children and homes, honor God, and multiply goodness around them. What a life we are living... so thankful.