11 failed IUIs, IVF #1- miscarriage, FET #1-nada, IVF #2-triplets but we lost them all at 9, 18, and 21 weeks in 2013. When all hope was lost a friend stepped forward to be our gestational carrier and carried in our twins... 2 years later we decided to try for one more baby with me carrying again...this is our story

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Dr. Lee's My Man

February 17, 2013

On Friday Darren and I made the cross over the bridge to get my "supression" check. AKA to make sure the Lupron injections put my little ovaries to sleep. Some new fun vocab I've adquirred from fellow bloggers is the "vampires" (nurses that draw my blood all the time) and the "babymakers" (our dear RE friends).

The Vampire was a little over the top. She wanted to put a heat pack on my veins and asked if they have trouble with finding the veins (in my 1240957325 blood draws over the last two years I've never had issues). It took her like 5 minutes to put the needle in. I was like "Just do this already." I hate the "waiting for the poke" feel. Whatever. She was nice, but it was a little over the top.

OHSU has 4 different REs and it just depends who is on call/duty for that day that does whatever procedure that needs to be done. On our last IVF try, during the protocol all 4 doctor's did different things. On Friday, I had Dr. Lee Babymaker Lee (he was our favorite from the beginning). I know 100% he will be the one who does my egg transfer. He is really nice and took time in the busy schedule to "try" to connect with me by mentioning that he read I'm a Spanish teacher and his high school son wants to study abroad. I chatted with him about it a bit and then said, "You are going to do my transfer March 8th!" (I probably sounded like an overly happy child.) He said "Great!" I left feeling hopeful. I pray everyday that God will protect our frozen embryos and I pray for Dr. Lee. That God will bless his hands and that March 8th is a really good day for him.

I got the call that everything is on track, I'm "supressed" so now I'm on the down hill count. I made this cute little countdown that sits in our kitchen (on left, today we are down to 19 DAYS!!!). I'm onto the oral pills (estradial) and before I know it, the PIO shots. I have some many mixed emotions of hope, fear, terror, delight. Deep breaths Holly, deep breaths.

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Meet the Bensons

Hi! I'm Holly and Darren is my husband. We have been married 5 years; after our 11th fertility treatment in 2013 we lost triplets (2 were stillborns in the 2nd tri). It nearly destroyed us. The day I delivered my son a friend emailed us and offered to carry some of our biological remaining embryos. The transfer was a success and we had twin boys born almost exactly a year-to-the-date later than when I delivered my son. If I'm not blogging about our journey, I'm teaching high school Spanish, drinking Starbucks, hanging out with family, eating candy-and then working it off at the gym. If you ever need to contact me directly you can at hollybenson10@yahoo.com or if you want to see more into our daily lives, my instagram is hbenson10

How Long We've Been At It:

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Babies in Heaven

We have had two miscarriages and 2 stillborns (born 3 weeks apart). I'm 50/50 on naming the early miscarriages but it gives me a sense of peace and reality of their lives. In heaven, I will call for them.

Jaden lost 11/2012 blighted ovum (my sister gave me the idea for this name, it means "God has heard" and he had because it was our 1st pregnancy)

Isaac lost 8/2013 everything was perfect and then stopped at 9 weeks (my sister is law gave me this idea. Isaac means "laughter" and everyone's first reaction to us having triplets was laughter)

Stillborn daughter born 10/30/13

Stillborn son Jude born @21 weeks 11/17/30

Infertility Treatment Journey

Me: 31 I have mild PCOS and ovulate very randomly (I respond to femera and on that have normal cycles)