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Monday, May 27, 2013

It's almost June and July 13 will be here before I know it. A friend of mine is getting married and she is encouraging me to bring a date/friend. What's a girl to do? Currently I have no boyfriend so it's not like I can just call up my man, give him all this wedding info and tell him when he needs to pick me up. Nope! Not that easy. For me it's a little difficult. Asking a guy out, even for something I may not even consider a date is hard. It presents thoughts and questions. Oh well, guess I'll keep praying/thinking about it. It might also help if I had any idea of who I would like to ask. Anyway, we'll see what happens.

Sunday, May 26, 2013

Pastor Jimmy Evans from Gateway Church out in Texas said, "Satan puts fear on us so we won't do God's will. You'll regret EVERY fear-based decision you make."

Fear is the absence of Faith. My mind says one thing, my heart says another. So what do I do? I definitely don't want to be a coward because of my fear, but at the same time I don't want to look like a fool for going with my gut (shall we say). Plus, if I go with what I do feel and not fear, what if it does not go the way I was "hoping" it would? Then it would be hard to trust any kind of feeling ever again. I'm guess that's where the risk-taking comes in. I would have taken the risk and even though the response may not be what I intended or hoped for, at least I could say I didn't let a fear get the best of me. Fear didn't win.

Some of you might be wondering what I'm facing, but to be honest, I can't tell you. All I know what I'm going through, I am not the only one in the world. Taking a risk can go for any and all situations. I keep praying for God's will, that's number one. Secondly, I just ask for little things to take place, nothing huge. Little things can speak huge volumes. Of course, sometimes that's where I get in way over my head. I do know more than anything, that God has everything under control. I will continue to pray for His guidance. I will have faith and trust God completely.

Friday, May 24, 2013

It's been brought to my attention several times about taking risks and stepping out on faith. My life has not experienced much risk taking. In fact I remember one step I took that scared me to pieces. It scared me so bad, I told myself never again. Well, ain't it funny how God has a sense of humor. Being a little old school, I was raised differently, but that is just how it is. Anyway, risk taking is something I have to learn. Times have changed but sometimes I just can't escape my old school upbringing. Let me just say this: Jesus help me.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Ever have a day where you just feel out of place? Today was that day for me. Lord! The only place I felt like I belonged was at my house in my bedroom. That was it. Didn't want to be anywhere today. To be honest, I can't really pinpoint as to why I felt that way. The feeling eventually went away, thank God, but it felt almost too much to handle.

Saturday, May 18, 2013

My confidence has boosted this week!! On Monday I went for my check-up and found out some great news. My total weight loss as of May 13, 2013 is 17 lbs. That means two more pounds managed to get lost. Can't forget to mention that I have lost 5 inches off my waist. Talk about being a little giddy. After these stats, the nurse went to take my BP, and the machine couldn't read it because of all my excitement. I couldn't contain myself. For once, especially in a doctors office I couldn't sit still. I was laughing and I know my smile was from ear to ear. So I had to calm down, breathing in and out to do so and try again. It finally read 110/76. AWESOME!!

My overall goal is to lose anywhere from 70 to 100 pounds. However, I know that I can't think of it like that so I gave myself a set of short term goals. My first short term goal is to lose 20 lbs. I am almost there. It's been a lot harder than what I thought it would be, but not impossible. I am surrounded by people that are encouraging and helpful.

I am so thankful for what has been achieved so far. I must continue to move forward.

Once I reach my goal of 20 lbs, I plan on taking a picture just to see if I can tell a difference. Others can tell by looking at me; the only way that I have been able to tell my weight loss is because my clothes are becoming loose. In fact, bought a pair of sweat pants on Wednesday and I got them them a size and a half smaller.

Saturday, May 4, 2013

I am so happy right now, can't really contain myself. I have lost 15 pounds as of this morning (May 4). What have I been doing? No sugars. Little to no carbs. Towards the middle of April I was diagnosed with Type 2. That explained a lot as to why I was always not feeling very well. I knew that changes had to be made. Beginning the diet I weighed in at 270. Already by losing just 15 pounds, it has boosted my confidence. I am determined to not deal with this for the rest of my life. It must go!!! My goal is to lose about 100 pounds. Along with eating right, I have also been praying for God's help and strength. I have people surrounding me that will encourage and have been encouraging me. I am truly blessed with those people in my life.

About Me

Writing is a gift from God. I am thankful for this particular way to express real feelings and emotions. A lot comes out of my mind and onto my paper/blog.
I hope that whatever you see encourages you as a reader, but also as a believer. If you don't know and do not have a relationship with Christ, I encourage you to ask Him into your life and heart. Let Him write your life's story.