Had my baby

This morning at 9:40 am Carson jax was born via c section 8 pounds 21 inches. I wouldn't dialate and my water had been broken and he was showing signs of stress so they went ahead and did the section. I'm in a lot of pain. I feel like a bad mom because I can't pick him up and I'm in pain when ever I move :( I'm glad he's safe I'm super loopy and soooo tired but were trying hard with breast feeding