same routine, too much coffee, too many headaches, one too many disappointments.

maybe next weekend will be better.

post scriptum: the upside is that i finally got my pumpkin protein odwalla i’ve been craving since the beginning of autumn. & here is a bit of a treat. click this for a free download of the tallest man on earth concert.

tomorrow! so excited. can’t wait to be in good company and hear some of my favorite tunes at my favorite venue. it’s been a while since i’ve done anything of the sort, so why not make an appearance in town when i have the opportunity? a was delayed, and she got to eat some of my raspberry plum pear pie, watch 8 mile with me, and eat this:

i have found my newest and only muse at this time. unfortunately, jaime oliver is married with kids, but i still find him to be so terribly cute! the way he cooks outside on an open fire, how he cans and pickles and makes his own ketchup- oh he’s just so fantastic. maybe someday, when i’m pursuing my passion, i’ll meet someone with similarities to jaime, and then, if fate permits it, we’d get along famously.

i’m planning on doing a lot of cooking this week, so look out Vin et Grub, recipes galore tba asap. i survived standardized testing today, actually, i’m quite confident. i made some progress on b108, and i cleaned the kitchen and reorganized all the cabinets. i also took a trip to the market, and picked up some food for the upcoming week. i’m rarely excited enough to talk about what i will be cooking- but i think i’m elated tonight, so i may as well share. tomorrow evening’s menu: seared mahi mahi wrapped in a thin layer of russet potato with brown butter and sage sauce. monday evening: roasted stuffed tomatoes, with artichokes, chevre, and panko, served with a watercress and black cherry salad. tuesday evening: roasted chicken, basted in champagne vinegar and aged balsamic, with tarragon, three-variety mashed potatoes, stuffing, and brownies. wednesday evening: fagiolini in umido, and fried chicken. thursday evening: tandoori tofu, and basmati rice. friday evening: a trip to local, or perhaps figa/new miyake. so excited for my week in food. in addition, it’s obvious that i’ll be swamped in homework, and also, i’ll be baking a black plum raspberry pear pie tomorrow night. it’ll be more like a free form tartette, but it should be wonderful nonetheless. i’m headed to sonny’s tonight to visit with some folks, and party just a little bit. tomorrow: so much homework, so much baking, coffee, and lots of sleep, plus a brunch date. VERY EXCITED FOR MONDAY NIGHT @ SPACE. DARKDARKDARK= BRIGHTBRIGHTBRIGHT.

it’s been a crazy start to summer thus far. i took a short hiatus, because i was simply enjoying life sans a worry to enter the blogosphere. last year, around this time, portland was plagued with a permanent rain cloud, but needless to say, the weather currently has been more than i could have asked for. 80s every day, sunny, breezy, and wunderbar. in addition to the fantastic weather, you could say that i’ve had a pretty stacked past week and a half. besides going to d.c. and meeting some really awesome people, i also made a bit of cash, saw Ted Leo & the Rx at SPACE, had a picnic on the west end, ate tortellini pizza from enzo’s on the eastern prom underneath the delicious rays of the sun with Izac, saw KARATE kid, and then, of course, took a beach vacation with annie- complete with milanos and strawberry pie, and sunbeams. not to mention, i’ve been jammin’ to Drake…yes, uncharacteristic of me, but his tunes are making me quite cheery. i’ve got to buy some film, save some cash, work on my beverage regimine, cook some grub, and sleep. tomorrow, therapy, working, farmer’s mkt, clothing swap. ridiculously busy, but just the way i need it. i’m tryin’ to capture summer, but i’m lacking the funds to purchse batteries. splurged a healthy half of a typical day at work’s income on RUSK hair product…. what else will i make a foolish decision about.

as if i should be leaving for the NO, i’ve decided i’d rather make the trip come autumn so i could miss some class and not have to worry about payin’ for my ticket. on a darker note, i’d like to discuss something quite tragic.

thursday evening, garrett cormier, a 16 year old boy in my graduating class, died in falmouth. i didn’t know garrett too well, in fact, it’s quite possible him and i never exchanged any words, but his death has effected me greatly. he was the first kid who has passed away in my class, and it was yet another wake up call that life is way too short. i feel so much sorrow for his family, and my heart goes out to them. he didn’t deserve to die young, he was honestly, a rather good person, and extremely loyal from hearsay. there’s not much i can do, but reflect. it’s actually coming up on the year anniversary of my father’s death- next monday. i’m a bit sad, and i’ve cried a good amount the past few weeks. i don’t think i want to understand death, but the entire idea of it, is really terrifying and i dislike it so much- but i do accept it. there’s no hiding from death’s dark hand. it’s part of life, and everyone ends up in the same place. my friend made a wonderful point about reincarnation, which was, that really is the optimistic way to look at what comes after death. i think that whatever you believe in is what happens to you after you pass… so i suppose i need to find a faith of some sort. a new start, a new me, a new life.

enfinoui

i’m ridin’ through the city with my high beams on- can ya see me, can ya see me, get yo’ visine on.