Well, I was tired when finally I back to my house again after three days locked (wew, too harsh) in Omah Jawi for a retreat event .
bbbBUT ..
when I was ready to lay my body to the bed, I heard my mum called me and said : "Gangga, this morning Naoko sent you something AGAAAIIINN.. !!" . Between shocked and curious, I ran out from my bedroom to the living room's table where the package had been put . And,, VOILA!! these were what I'd got :

a greeting's card, a 2011 japanese calendar, a small mirror, a lip balm from Osaka and chopsticks with its cover ^^

.. and also a MAGIC CHRISTMAS TREE, special hand made from JAPAN!
It was just a brown paper that its shape looked like branches of a tree like this -->

in only ONE DAY it turned into a tree like this -->

MAGIC..?

YES! IT'S DEFINITELY A MAGIC CHRISTMAS TREE :)

Thanks to Okaasan, Naoko, who sent me those unbelievable Christmas gifts .

Last week, on 17-19th December 2010, me and all my friends (not all exactly) went to OMAH JAWI villa in Kaliurang to hold a RETREAT :)

So, shortly, on that three days I've got a great memories . I got to know my new sisters and brothers in "Persekutuan Mahasiswa Kristen" Faculty of Agriculture Technology Gadjah Mada University ♥

The activities from outbound, KKR, SaTe, all session made me felt grateful for having a new family there .

Although what I've expected with "him" was not happened but I really excited in every session . Waited what will happen next . All became so crazy (paskah, olando, yadauw, cs) & the other were so religious (ka risa, ka fanny, ka anggi, ka yudhis cs)~!

And the best part was when the TALENT SHOW session ^^v

Me and my teammates, as the freshmen, became the first performer and we sang four traditional songs and also danced :)

Then came the 2nd performer, the class of 2007. They read a poetry in three different languages. Javanese (ka evan), Batak (ka agus), & Nias (ka ajay). Class of 2008 played a drama called "Malin Kundang met Jesus" and that was sooooooo "unbelievable" ! hahaha..

Next we got class of 2009 who acted too. But the story was about "The Missing Son & His Father" in a modern way. They played hilariously! I couldn't stop laughing and laughing watched Paskah (he's the main actor) cs acted with "innocent" face!! wakawakaaa e e *rollsrolls

The last performer was class of 2006 and above. The seniors section. They sang a song from Bondan feat Fade 2 Black, Kita untuk Selamanya. Very good *marvelousindeed

Back to my problem.

I didn't know why and how the distraction ruined the good times when we were together but THE TRUTH WAS he looked like went away from me without an unthinkable reason! Did I do something wrong?? I still don't get it until NOW! Was that because our "twin cell-phone chains"?? Was thaaaaaaaaattt..?!?!

Oh my goodness.. If it's all because he was embarrassed with that problem then FORGIVE ME :"(

I didn't realise that you were such a swing-moody person. Once you told you didn't wanna come to retreat event because of "something". Then you said yes, you wanted to come to retreat because of "something". And after all conditions, we got there and you turned your SILENCE MODE ON..

But..

There was a man. I didn't know him so well until retreat came. He's the one made my day after knowing the coldness of b**** to me :\

This man joked me and said a lot of silly things about everything in me. First, I felt he was annoying but I realize that if he wasn't saying like that I wouldn't forget the pain I got and all of the miserable hopes which blew away~! So, one word for that man, THANKS ^__^v

I met you as a stranger or maybe an enemy at the first time .
I have adored your smile and your sympathy .
And I knew that a lot of girls were chasing you .
It didn't matter .
I was trying to be a good and tolerant secret-admirer .

But then, you came deeper into my life because that unpredictable incident .
I was sick and yeah, the pain was killing me that time .
And from all of the people there who helped me to keep breathing,why it should be you who got to take a risk to carry me on your back?!?!

From that moment I know you're such an ANGEL! hahaa
Too much?? Yeah, but that's the truth!
Many girls around look for your attention, but me? I don't need to!
YES! because you have known me more than just another girl, haven't you?
^^v

You know what?
You are the 1st guy who wanna help me from that suffering sick (I don't want to mention its name) by a piggy-ride-back . The others maybe just offered me with oxygen can or medicines .
And although I was so embarrassed until forgot to say thanks, believe me, THAT WAS THE GREATEST HEALING I'VE EVER FELT :p

By the way, I'm not the girl you are searching for .
I realize . We have a differentiation on what we trust .
But, I won't let it be the one that can ruin our relationship .

Anyway, THANKS FOR BEING MY HERO .
There's always be a SPACE FOR YOU deep down in my heart ♥