I pray that the tears have been wiped from the eyes of the little boy in that picture naked and crying.

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Luke 6:20-2120 Then He lifted up His eyes toward His disciples, and said: "Blessed are you poor, For yours is the kingdom of God. 21 Blessed are you who hunger now, For you shall be filled. Blessed are you who weep now, For you shall laugh.

I am so choked up there are no words to describe how my heart is breaking for us left behind. Sea I cant believe I never told you how much I love you. But you knew, yes you knew. I am so sorry i wasnt there for you at the end. I did not try to kill myself i just wanted to make the voices and the faces go away but things got carried away. i would endure anything if I could have been with you instead.

You are now free of the pain and tortures of this life, and for that i rejoice.

Here are the words to the song we were talking about, the one you were looking for.

Winds of Change---------------------------------I follow the MoskvaDown to Gorky ParkListening to the wind of changeAn August summer nightSoldiers passing byListening to the wind of change

The world is closing inDid you ever thinkThat we could be so close, like brothersThe future's in the airI can feel it everywhereBlowing with the wind of change

Take me to the magic of the momentOn a glory nightWhere the children of tomorrow dream awayin the wind of change

Walking down the streetDistant memoriesAre buried in the past foreverI follow the MoskvaDown to Gorky ParkListening to the wind of change

Take me to the magic of the momentOn a glory nightWhere the children of tomorrow share their dreamsWith you and meTake me to the magic of the momentOn a glory nightWhere the children of tomorrow dream awayin the wind of change

The wind of changeBlows straight into the face of timeLike a stormwind that will ring the freedom bellFor peace of mindLet your balalaika singWhat my guitar wants to say

Take me to the magic of the momentOn a glory nightWhere the children of tomorrow share their dreamsWith you and meTake me to the magic of the momentOn a glory nightWhere the children of tomorrow dream awayin the wind of change

Music and Lyrics by Klaus MeineMade popular by The Scorpions

My brother you and Marc share my heart like none before and none to come. Your memory will live on forever. When we meet again you will see that this is so.

I love you, my brother, my friend.

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Those who dance appear insane to those who cannot hear the music. Mark Kleiman

Al I am so glad to see you again in print. I sent an email to you and Marc. I hope it helps with the demons that you face. We are a lot alike brother. Have a look and feel free to contact me at any time. You might be able to help me too. Are we not lucky to be blessed with brothers who truly love us and are there for us every step of the way. I had no idea of Gunnar's losing battle. What a courageous young man. As I said elsewhere Gunnar represented all that is good and great about humanity.I am glad you are back among us my Brother.

In five years so much has changed for me. You where the first person I ever told. You made be believe in my sef. You shaped my life in ways no one else could. For this I will always remember you, my friends, my teacher, my hero. Good bye my friend I hope that you have found peace an will be happy forever.

I did not know Seaotter. He sounds like a great guy. I was filled the anxiety and grief when I read this post from the beginning. Got triggered pretty good on this one. I am not sure but what a series of private posts might have been better because of the way it started. My prayers and thoughts are with the family and friend of this brave boy and the man who carried him inside all those years. May the good Lord receive his soul with ten times the love and peace that may have been denied him in this life.Rest in peace Seaotter.

All this was before my time, but the tragedy is one a lot of us are familiar with. As I read this it reminds me how grateful I am for our community, and how glad I am my own thoughts of ending it (when I was 11 and 12) were unsuccessful.

I know Gunnar was a special guy to you Nathan. I hope your good memories of him help you when you think of his premature passing.

Much love,Larry

_________________________Nobody living can ever stop meAs I go walking my freedom highway.Nobody living can make me turn back:This land was made for you and me.(Woody Guthrie)

I did not know gunner, when I got further down and read "Gunnar Einarson died today." I cried, I did not notice the date, but it does not matter, he was one of us and it is sad to loose someone who has shared in our experiences. I never used to feel much emotion before I came here, I do now. As Mike said he paved the way for us, and for that I am grateful. May he rest in peace.

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