My heart is so proud;My mind is so unfocused.I see the things You do through meas great things I have done.

But now You gently break meand lovingly You take me.You hold me as my Fatherand mold me as my Maker.

I ask You, "How many times

will You pick me up

when I keep on letting You down?"

And each timeI will fall

short of Your glory;

how far will forgiveness abound?

And You answer, "My child, I love you,

and as long as You're seeking My face,

you'll walk in the power

of My daily sufficient grace."

Sometimes I may grow weakand feel a bit discouraged,knowing that someone, somewherecould do a better job.

For who am I to serve You?I know I don't deserve You.But that's the partthat burns in my heartand keeps me hanging on.

I ask You, "How many times

will You pick me up

when I keep on letting you down?"

And each time I will fall

short of Your glory;

how far will forgiveness abound?

And You answer, "My child, I love you,

and as long as you're seeking My face,

you'll walk in the power

of My daily sufficient grace."

You are so patient with me, Lord.

As I walk with You, I'm learningwhat Your grace really means.The price that I could never paywas paid at Calvary.

So instead of trying to repay You,I'm learning to simply obey Youby giving up my life to Youfor all that You've given to me.

I ask You, "How many times

will You pick me up

when I keep on letting You down?"

And each time I will fall

short of Your glory;

how far will forgiveness abound?

And You answer, "My child, I love you,

and as long as You're seeking My face,

you'll walk in the power

of My daily sufficient grace."

When looking for a song to sing, I really try to seek what God wants for me...I feel so blessed that He allows me to sing for Him. There was a time that I sang for myself, and He has given me a second chance, as He has about so many things in my life...I have said this many times this week: "If ever there was a song that is my testimony, this is it."

As I was frantically trying to find sheet music, accompaniment, or at the very least some chords for the song I WANTED to sing this week, God literally put this one in my lap. It was one of those things you can't ignore and can't get out of your head. One of those God moments that gives you chills.

Today, little Jeffrey asked me, "Mommy, can we listen to 'How Many Times Will You Pick Me Up?'" Hmmm.... my little man had been listening to Mommy practicing. I thought about how "practice makes perfect" and how "little eyes are watching" and how ingrained in our minds things can become. Jeffrey knew the words because he had been LISTENING to it OVER and OVER again. What a life lesson from this precious little guy...

A good friend told me just last night that the Word has to become so much a part of our lives that it is ingrained in our minds and hearts. What if I focused on God's Word as much as I focused on practicing my song last week? What if my heart truly sought His heart? How many times will He have to "pick me up" when I keep on letting Him down? As I continue down this road of life, I learn more and more that practice really does make perfect...

"Your Word I have treasured in my heart, that I may not sin against You." -Psalm 119:11