Saturday, January 05, 2013

From Tenth Avenue North: There are a couple of lines in By Your Side that to me really encapsulate the whole song. One is in the second verse that says, "Why are you looking for love? Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough? To where will you go child? To where will you run?" And the last verse it says, "Look at these hands and my side, they swallowed the grave on that night, when I drank the world's sin so that I could carry you in and give you life." By Your Side is just a call to anyone who's struggling or fighting against God thinking they have to work to earn it. It's calling them to stop looking for what you can do for God and fix your gaze upon what God has done for you. Let that motivate you. We love because He first loved us.

Why are you striving these days?Why are you trying to earn grace?Why are you crying?Let me lift up your faceJust don't turn away

Why are you looking for love?Why are you still searching?As if I'm not enough?To where will you go childTell me where will you run?To where will you run?

I'll be by your side wherever you fallIn the dead of night whenever you callPlease don't fight these hands that are holding youMy hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my sideThey swallowed the grave on that nightWhen I drank the world's sinSo I could carry you inAnd give you life

Here at my side wherever you fallIn the dead of night whenever you callPlease don't fight these hands that are holding youMy hands are holding you

And I, I love youAnd I want you to knowThat I, I'll love youI'll never let you go

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Sorry to take some time on this forum to gripe, but I feel like those of us struggling with various health conditions are sometimes afraid to mention some of the things we have to deal with. I'm tired of "hiding" and just going by the names of the various diagnoses I've had through the years. All the symptoms are even starting to run together at this point to where I don't know what issue is causing what symptom anymore.

Nonetheless, I'm tired of:

having to spit out mouthfuls of blood every time I brush my teeth [this pic was after I'd used cold water to try to slow down the bleeding]

bruising very easily at times [I never know where the next bruise is going to pop up or how bad it is going to look and how long it will last.]

excess layers of skin forming to the point it starts cracking

suffering from severe headaches that can often strike with no warning

issues that affect my vision - from the headaches to nerve palsies that are triggered to reduced peripheral vision

dealing with the pain at the varying degrees, to the point it is now affecting my concentration and memory