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Saturday, November 20, 2010

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress to writing out by judging myself - simply because I defined it as not good enough, and then instead of correcting myself accordingly and realizing my process location - I compounded energetically therefore my self expression can not flow naturally but of energy what is unacceptable. I stop. I express.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear from making mistakes instead of realizing that if I do not make mistakes - I am of unmanifested mistakes what I judge before I could express, I can not learn of it because I never actually did. I stop judging, I stand here as One Vote For Equal Money System, I stand here as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire after something what I already realized that is of inner perception of separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my expression and not realizing by judging myself I stop express therefore I am not able to physically correct myself therefore I must stop self judgement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself by defining I am powerless because I am of the money system, I do not have enough money to support me and others unconditionally.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I must use math: 1+1=2 - move day by day, moment by moment, realigning myself with the principle as what is best for all, seeing what blocks me to express myself in this and then applying self forgiveness, writing, sharing and stopping and moving on. Simple.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to solve everything in one moment instead of realizing that is of mind - the current system is not in the stage what can be corrected or changed in a single moment therefore if even I try it - I can realize - I am not capable of - and then I must not judge myself according to this act - but realizing that there is a group with I can stand and moment by moment accumulating all within the starting point of Equal Money System we can proceed but then I must stop all desire, all separation, all fear, all definition from within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to money.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my freedom according to money.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move according to money because I defined myself through money.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge money instead of realizing I am judging myself.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame money system instead of realizing that I must take responsibility to stand up for money system and be the change.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for change instead of being the change.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest myself as locked in within the money system as a slave of it.I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to express myself who I am because I judged myself as I do not have enough money.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself because of the lack of money.I forgive myself to think, believe that if I would have tons of money, I would be 'more free' instead of realizing that no one is free within the current money system, I must push the point of exposure and change as myself.I forgive myself that I procrastinated to express myself according to money because I constantly allowed myself to judge my situation as not having equal money to express properly that I am not satisfied with the current money system.I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to express equal money system unconditionally because I judged it according to how I judged others and then that judgement was actually projected self judgement.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be my job my god by doing it for basic money income and without my job I am moneyless, without money I defined myself powerless.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as powerless when I do not have enough money to eat, to have a place to sleep etc.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to taking granted what is being given to me here in my country instead of realizing that nothing is being granted, actually always somebody is paying for everything.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Equal Money System instead of being it, instead of moving it, instead of promoting it, instead of manifesting it.I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think that it is enough to pay an amount for support instead of realizing that it is not about the amount, it is about who we are as starting point within the system, as equals.I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to justify and reason why I do not express myself according to how I experience money system.I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to fully consider what I am responsible for within the current abusing money system simply by 'wanting to have things' within the current money system.I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear from being exposed as communist because of stating out 'equality' instead of realizing that communism never really worked as equality.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be possessed with the idea that I have to make tons of money to be able to stand up for the current money system.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to earn much more money than what I currently get for my job to be able to become the directive principle -- yet not really manifesting it, always planning, but not really acting.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find excuses to keep my money and then buying things what are not exactly necessary for supporting me within the process.I forgive myself that I have not allowed to realize that within the current money system everything is based on money, sexuality, expression, having a child - are bound to money, so if I have a desire for anything related to money - I am of it, through the money point.I forgive myself that I have not considered that the equal distribution of money could work first only within groups.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate to express my point on Equal Money System by prioritizing this as not urgent instead of realizing that within my reality I must be the change what I want to see, therefore I move, I express.I forgive myself that I have not considered that if one has no money, has no access to health care system, have not access for proper shelter, food, water, what is unacceptable. Each mush get food, basic support within the physical. Until this is not manifested - there is nothing more outstanding issue. Therefore who I am is what I do, what is my starting point, I am Life as Equality - let's manifest it.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to concern about Banks, Current Political, Military Establishment by placing myself as smaller, as less than these systems - it is unacceptable. Rather realizing that the math works here as well: 1+1=2. Agreed Equals stand together and form a group and share and support realizations and promote Equality actually stars HERE.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear from temptations regarding to money, corruption instead of realizing who I really am as Life, who and what I stand for and I forgive unconditionally upcoming temptations what are of self-interest, what are my self responsibility as I created these within myself as the reflection of my starting point. I stop. I stand, I breath, I act within the starting point of 'What is best for all?'.

Okay, I've decided to move no matter what - there was some extensive self judgement built up while I was under this medical treatment - there was a suspicious scar on my chest what doctors decided to cut out - still waiting for the final labor result but I never was seamed on my skin before - it was not that cool, but by resting all day I had time to reconsider what I am, what I represent and what I must act.

I start with some money issues what I shared on multiply - actually I must push expressing more on my multiply account -- that one is specifically about and on the money point.

http://talamon.multiply.com/journal/item/132/My_current_money_points

Actually I should repost it here:

Actually I am a bit concerned about how to proceed. My initial point first was to be able to make as much money as I can - to be able to 'have then time by not needing to robot for money as job at workplace - to be able to express myself, to be able to share and support by money, basically to become a directive point by being able to financially stand and be.There is a possibility to remain within the situation of serving corporations for money, the money should be okay(of course not to mention that the current money system supports all the abuse, therefore if I am participating within the current money system - I support child abuse, starvation, destroying nature etc), but then I do not 'feel' comfortable when I see directly how big profit I support the corporation to make.My current job is about building massive websites with people can build, test, process and deploy specific websites for the company very dynamically. With this system, the website building, testing, fixing, deploying process is far more effective, therefore the company can deliver MANY quality websites in short time, by people who are not really technical. Therefore my responsibility point regardless to my salary - is that I support this international corporation to expand more, to aggressively take over the market and increasing the revenue of the company. Of course, I am a bit piece of this machine but I am - therefore my concern initially was to support myself yet I stand for Equality.My first upcoming status was to leave this company and find a new job - but my 'profession' is about programming website functionality(background services mostly), so I have experience in this. Shall I remain within 'programming scene' - or I should find a new area to express and to live on with what I can stand and express my vote for equality - in action, not only in words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become confused about what company I do work for and what I stand for within the system - not realizing that I am part of the system, I must generate money to support myself to be able to live and express.I forgive myself that I have judged the company where I work, instead of realizing that judging anything is of definition, is of self deception, self dishonesty because I do compare, I do use memory to rely on what is of the past, what is not actually HERE.I forgive myself that sometimes I simply want to quit my job because it is not always comfortable to sit all day in an air conditioned office and watching, manipulating program codes, databases, environments all day - instead of purifying my starting point and remain stable and express myself and see my contract as support - I do my job and I am able to stand within AND expressing myself unconditionally as I want change, I want Equal Money, I want to give up all within me what does not support Equal Money because this is what really important within the equation of 'what is best for all?'Because 'MY' happiness and statisfaction I already realized, never will be full until I am experiencing this level of equality being manifested physically: no one is being harmed for profit, noone is being excluded from basic support as food, shelter, water, healthcare because of lack of money.How to do it practically - continously promoting, speaking, bringing up on forums and face those who are being opposed by it - simply because they fear from losing what they already have. Common sense I should use, by explaining that what they have is not really personal, it is a polarity system and how they could enjoy continuous entertainment while many has to suffer for it - by this every good becomes bitter, by directly researching how the current system works, directs - anyone can realize that we must change the value from profit and greed and survival to Support Life.For two months I was obsessed about 'wondering what to do' - instead of seeing what is actually HERE and act immediately within the starting point of what is best for all - and if realizing mistakes, dishonesty - then applying the self forgiveness, self honesty, writing, sharing, blogging, vlogging to stop dishonesties and walk walk breath act walk breath act within the group.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not express myself unconditionally by judging the situation and the thing to be expressed by judging it as not relevant/not great enough/not final instead of realizing the math of 1+1=2 and express myself withhout self judgement .

I forgive myself that I have not realized that by judging and suppressing myself actually I am not here as myself but as of definition with the starting point of fear.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to express myself without judgement.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to desire toexpresz myself instead of realizing that the desire is here as myself as of separation from what I judge and suppress and compound instead of naturally I

express as undefined as simple self trust here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hesitate by fear of judgement, even when it is fear of judgement of others, it is in fact self judgement. I stop. I breathe.