addiction

A few days ago I checked my site stats and noticed that someone had found my site by searching for “crazy desperate pathetic friend” and I had no idea how that would relate to anything I’ve written. I was wrong though and it linked to this post from back in 2010, and not just 2010 but this very day back in 2010.

I was reading through this old post that I never remember writing (I was probably in a rant mood about how addicts can be so gross and who the hell smokes other peoples disgusting cigarette butts!) and noticed this paragraph:

So now, I’m sure you’re asking, what is it that I am addicted too? What would make me have a tantrum if I didn’t have t? It is kind of embarrassing really, however many women around the world suffer my fate. Lipgloss. Yes, if I were free of lipgloss for more than 10 hours I might cry. The dry, cracking lips that hurt and yearn for some gloss! I don’t know what breaking point would be for me. Let me know readers. If I had lost my last lip gloss what could I do to ease the pain?

Approximately this time last year I remember feeling like that. I’d been challenged to give up on lipgloss because it was a waste of money and a bunch of random, unpronounceable chemicals I was putting onto my lips hourly. Initially I thought “There is just no way I can do this. My lips need lipgloss and it smells so pretty and all the colours!” but I reluctantly threw all the lipgloss I owned into a drawer and attempted to rise to the challenge.

I made it! I don’t use lipgloss hourly, or daily or even weekly anymore. I have some that I keep for if my lips happen to split or get dry but I don’t rely on it being with me every second of the day like I used too. It was pretty tough for a while though, I had cracked, split lips for weeks and they dried out a lot but eventually, like everything, they adapted back to not needing a constant oily sheen.

I’m so ok with it now that when I moved I found all my old lipgloss in that drawer and threw it all out. I’d forgotten it was even there. So there is hope for all the addicts out there, no matter how small the addiction (by the way, coffee is an addiction.) is that you can get through it and it probably won’t even take as long to get over as it did for me and the dreaded lipgloss.