Thursday, 18 December 2014

Should I Stay or Should I go Now?

I think about hope a lot these days. When it's helpful, when it's not. How to tell the difference. I'm none the wiser for all my ruminations, but I'm hopeful one day I'll have a better understanding of when to keep going and when to walk away (see what I did there?) And on the second day of flashing, here is what I wrote. ***********

She tricked herself into making it smaller. Shrank it down with critical thoughts. Trimmed the edges with
intellectualization.

She woke each day determined to keep
herself safe, keep her expectations reasonable. So she kept her eyes down and tried not to
look around. Tried not to see what others had made possible.

She shut out the thrum of her blood, the
clutch of her stomach, when accidentally - unsupervised - her mind drifted back to
the familiar words and images, drifted back to the well worn places she had
created with care.