Saturday, September 12, 2009

Adakah Aku Yang Berubah?

Salam,Sedar x sedar, it's already my third week in Brunei by now. However, I sense that I'm changing.. eversince my departure from the UK. I am not the person I used to be anymore, not the unpredictable, "normal" me. I am getting more & more quiet than ever, prefer being on my own, safely and feeling secured in my own home, my own room.Yes, I am hiding a deep secret that I shared with only some of my friends. At times I feel so worried that silence would be the only cure to it. I know the day will come and until then, the rush and fast heart beats are my bestfriends. My sleeping times are so overspent. I cannot bring myself to wake up as early as possible. It's as if my mind needs the rest and the body is willingly giving up and surrendering to the restless mind by keeping on sleeping. This should be stopped. I need the life I had before, back!Ok ok now... let's change the topic... Raya is just around the corner and yet the preparations to it are near to nil. Usually by this time around, I'd be the one happily getting rid of all the stubborn dusts hiding on the furnitures. The house entirely is not ready and doesn't even have the raya look yet. If only I could be more efficient and more willing to start the cleaning up SOON!