06/18/2012

The Big Two-Oh!

As of today, my weight loss number is officially 20kg. Twenty WHOLE kilos.

I was sitting on 19.8 for so long there. I went down half way through one week, then replaced my scales battery and it added 1.2kg back to my weight. I got back down to 19.8 and have been going up and down between the same 200g on some kind of plateau - it has, to be honest, been doing my head in!Now I know we're only supposed to weigh once a week, but I generally weigh on both Sunday and Wednesday - today though, I just had a gut feeling - and there it was!

I know weight isn't everything, and that my inches and measurements are decreasing every day, but this was a number that I was wanting to see. I was waiting for it, striving for it, picturing it every time I didn't want to go out and run.And it's finally here!This was my BIG, major goal the 12th of October last year, the day I joined the gym and weighed myself and started this entire crazy journey. It seemed so unreachable back then, like I would NEVER get there, but here I am!

As a reward, I took myself into work and filled in an annual leave application for my birthday in a month's time.It falls on a Thursday, so I decided to take Thursday & Friday off to get a massage, maybe get my hair did, have lunch with my boy, buy myself a nice outfit, then on Saturday night, have a big Teppanyaki dinner with a beautiful group of friends, many of whom I met through 12WBT!

It's so exciting and scary to have reached that and to be setting new goals to work towards - completely exhilerating!

The last few days I've been in a bit of a funk, thinking "well, maybe my body just doesn't want to ever get there, maybe I set my goals unrealistically, maybe I'm just not MEANT to weigh less than I do now, at all, full stop, that's it".This was just the push I needed to get my head straight again.

I know I said yesterday that it's the little wins that make it worthwhile, but those big ones usually feel bloody awesome as well!xxxSJ