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Thursday, April 14, 2011

A very old post. One I never posted, because I lacked the time to proof read it. Somehow it got lost in the shuffle. I found it interesting how it is the same sort of thing I just posted, but slightly different.

As I drive around, I often feel I am moving about with only half my brain. Many times, I am off in my own little world. So many thoughts, chasing each other around my head. These random thoughts circle around, and vary from all of the many things I need to get done, to just plain, old sadness.

I have always been a considerate driver, never one to honk unless it is absolutely necessary, and even then, it is a friendly honk. I have always thought we are too fast paced. As I watch other drivers, I am often amazed how some lack a single sliver of common courtesy. It is more than obvious that some do not stop, and think of what others may be going through.

In light of what has happened, I am now that hurt person. I have been through the worst of the worst. As I drive, I stare at others, and wonder where they are in their lives. I wonder what has happened to them....

Have they recently lost a parent?

Have they lost a child?

Are they caring for someone with cancer?

Have they recently found out their spouse has been cheating on them?

Was one of their family members murdered?

Or missing?

Are they in the depths of a deep depression?

Did their marriage of 13 years just come to a sad end?

Did they just find out about a rape that occurred under their very nose?

Do they have a family member stuck in the throws of some sort of addiction?

Was one of their children's classmates just diagnosed with a brain tumor?

Is their favorite animal on earth suddenly battling leukemia?

It is truly amazing what each, and every person may be up against on any certain day. In light of all of the things that can go wrong in a lifetime, it is actually understandable as to why one may stall, pause, or react slower than normal.

I look at people and wonder the same things. Everytime I drive by the vet office I wonder if someone taking their pet in to be put to sleep. I do look at people in their cars and wonder. My cousin just lost her baby born too early, and as I told her is the worst part is is that your world stops but everyone else's goes on, and you are in such pain its hard to imagine that life could go on.