Friday, November 16, 2018

Yes, I've cut my dreadlocks and we're leaving the city. Turns out that Amsterdam is way too expensive for us. After work we're mostly at home and we only go to the city sometimes on the weekends especially when the winter's coming. So it doesn't really make sense to live here if we want to collect as much money as we can for our own place in Poland. And since it's difficult to even find a room here we're going back to the hotel for workers outside of Amsterdam, but still not that far from it. Even though we never wanted to go back there but still it's always a roof over our heads and it's a different hotel than the one we used to live here so maybe this time it's going to be better, at least I hope so. Even though I am sick and tired of constantly moving, but well, this is life. In some time we'll try to find a room via broker and we'll see. We also wanted to find a studio but we unfortunately can't afford it as well, so if we get another room we're gonna try to get a social apartment because those are a lot cheaper.

And in October we also went to Poland for the second hearing against my psychopatic father who abuses my family, including my mom who's battling cancer. It was really nice to have all the support from my friends in court. I have a good feeling about it all. And while we were in Poland I combed out my dreadlocks. It's just because my hair got weak and I had to get rid of my locks after 13 years. Combing out was the painful process but we made it in the end, because my hubby helped me out :* I'm gonna miss my dreads but I know I did the right thing. I also wanted to change something after all these years :)

And here are the photos from our trip to Kinderdijk and the ones we took when we went for a walk in North Amsterdam by sunset :)

Sunday, September 09, 2018

As from August 1st we live in Amsterdam :) I barely had time for photos because we were on holiday in Poland and we were really busy ;) We had a fabulous time except for 2 hours when we had a first hearing in court about domestic violence committed by my father - a psychopath. He lied for the whole 2 hours making a total victim out of himself so there was no time for the real victims to speak. But our time will come.

Let me tell you about this wonderful city of Amsterdam now :) Ever since I moved here it's been... a little weird? I've achieved my goal but when we got back from Poland by the end of August I felt so sad. I love Amsterdam, I absolutely adore the city but still nothing will ever replace Wrocław for me. I left my heart there and I came here so I could go back to my beautiful city one day. The city that I was always showing you in the photos. Therefore I still have a goal, more than one actually. I want to go back to Poland to have a place on my own and to start an online store and this time my mentally unstable father is not going to destroy any of my goals and dreams. Never again.

In the meantime I'm trying to take in as much as I can as long as I'm here :) Even though this isn't the place I belong, one day I'm gonna get exactly where I want to be, reunited with my friends and family that I miss so much! Until then I can't wait to see them again :)

Tuesday, June 26, 2018

Pictures from the last month from Haarlem ;) I was so lazy lately it's crazy! :P But you have no idea how happy I am to be here, right next to Amsterdam :D This city compensates me all of the previous places we lived so far here in the Netherlands and Germany.

In Uden I longed for a beach and here I have a beautiful and climatic beach and a lot of water basically everywhere, I can just sit and relax by the city canals and knit ;)

In Weeze we lived at the airport area and I was excited because I thought we would watch the planes. But there was like 1 plane per hour ;) And at the Schiphol airport the planes are landing like every minute ;)

In Venlo where we lived for 6 months I longed for a big city center with a lot of stores and what can I say? I love Amsterdam for the stores as well :D

And we're going to live in Amsterdam in the next couple of weeks and that means I reached another goal of mine :) And we're gonna live with the great people that we get to know better in the meantime ;)

And as for now we live in Haarlem and enjoy the city as much as we can ;) This weekend the weather is going to be really nice and we plan to take some photos in the beautiful place my hubby found lately ;)

Sunday, June 03, 2018

My new passion! I tried to start knitting a few years ago, when I was still living with my father but I quickly gave it up. And it's just because no matter I was doing I kept hearing from him that why I am doing something if it doesn't bring me money and that I'm good for nothing anyway. That's pretty discouraging. Therefore I was quickly giving up on a lot of stuff, just because I didn't believe I could be any good in what I was doing :(

And now? Now everything is different. Now that I broke ties with someone who was putting me down all the time. And a part of me starting a brand new life is going back to knitting which also teaches me to be patient and trying again if I fail. And I've never actually learned that before. Whenever I was failing I was devastated and so angry, even if I continued trying I kept failing eventually. Everything is a matter of approach. And now whenever I manage to learn something it gives me such a pleasure and satisfaction it's crazy :D

And I knit wherever I go actually! I recently started to knit at work ;)