Monthly Archives: October 2016

Okay, I just did a reading that I was supposed to put on YouTube for my channel when I just kept sneezing through the thing, lol. And during one of those sneezing bouts, I accidentally turned the audio off so that remains to be an unusable draft. Boo.

I’m actually worn out. From hosting the Halloween festivities at the office for 200 rowdy kids, to setting up my FB page (it’s up now so check it out and LIKE!) and just inviting folks to it, then getting some decent camera equipment and tarot cards to trying to edit videos and making the Opening and Closing Sequences, I’m just…. drained, depleted, and I badly need sleep and rest.

Aloha Pink Bella said to expect cold and flu symptoms due to the frequency upgrade and it looks like that’s what’s happened to me. I did the New Moon Ritual last night and cleansed and consecrated my new Tarot Cards too. I got the Gilded Tarot, Legacy Tarot, and the Animal something deck. I tried them out today but wasn’t too focused because I was looking for a way to film with my new camera and splice the audio into it. That, together with post processing took up most of my day. Hmp.

Oh, and include the intermittent sneezing too. I planned to get my Christmas list fixed, wrap some gifts I have, yadayadayada. Jeez, who did I think I was? Superwoman? In 5D, maybe, lol.

*** I just took a bathroom break after that paragraph, and guess what? I blew the lights out there too. That’s like the fourth bulb this week. Sheesh ***

So I haven’t connected with my Twin in a while. If he’s talking to me, I can’t hear him over the din. In fact, I can’t even hear myself because I’m just zooming all over the place like Wily Coyote.

Maybe tomorrow I’ll just be quiet.

Oh, I was going to write about Westerworld too. I just wanted to say that it would be awesome to have robots ala Westerworld. Then we could all avoid getting into skirmishes with karmics that make us take a destiny detour while waiting for our Twin to manifest in real life. Any love we give them would just be rerouted to our Twin because, technically, they’re just robots. And big walking vibrators that give off excellent conversation, so being sexually starved wouldn’t be a problem either.

This is it. The official start of my mission. I haven’t promoted it though because today I was trying to install some video editing software and I had technical problems. I seriously have to get that to work so that I can send video readings.

Okay, just a short update for today. Oh, last night, right before I was about to sleep, I commented on David Mills’ post that I loved his videos so much that I changed Siri to a British male voice. 😛 Of course, that made him laugh. But I was about to sleep already when my twin pops up and sorts of energetically sulks because of what I just did. So I had to go into this thing where I explain that I’m fond of David because he reminds me of how my twin looked like in one of those moments we had that I was so in love with him.

Which is true. So, truth was my defense. Besides, if you made both of them the same age, my twin would be more handsome and I’m not saying that out of bias. It actually even took me a while to see it. Everyone else was saying he was handsome while I was just shrugging it off because at that time, I was still enamoured with my karmic ex. But yeah, he’s got that Mark Harmon look that weathers any age. Well, except for the hair, lol, but we know he’s done something about that haha.

This is going to be short because I’ve just gotten done tweaking the last bits that need tweaking on my website (live now, btw, but still unpromoted) and it’s 3AM!

I think…. I think… I think that my Twin is getting hair implants!

I got a call on my Magicjack from an unfamiliar number and when I reverse looked it up, it was a prominent Hair Transplant salon, LOL.

Now, why do I find that funny? Well, it’s because since my twin is relatively almost two decades older than me, he’s been losing his hair, and that was a very worldly concern of mine. I mean, I my standard line shouldn’t be, “Well, he had a full head of hair when we met, ya know?” Of course, I’d love him even without hair and all that, but it would really, really, you know, make my day, if he had done something about it. Like, hair transplants or something like that.

I swear, it’s so shallow that whenever I would ask this question to my reader, even he would laugh. It was more of a “humour me” kind of thing.

Anyway, it sort of fits in with the QOD (Question of the Day to my Higher Self and Spiritual Team). I asked them to give me a message on how my Twin was since I was so busy with mission and really couldn’t find time to consciously connect.

I had three answers today.

First, was a love song playing on the radio. I forgot the lyrics now, but it ran along the lines of how he would love me when we’d see each other again.

Second, was the 222s. Two cars swerved right in front of me with plates that had 222s. Well, I really think this was the answer to my other question. I asked for messages regarding my Spiritual Business. This is what the 222s mean from Ask-Angels.com:

The Angel Number 222

222 as an angel number is one of the more common sequences shown to those who are awakening to the presence and guidance from the angelic realm.

The Angel Number 222 has a very significant and powerful vibration. It contains the attributes of 2 and 22, the Master Builder Number of inspiration, big ideas and the focus and persistence needed to manifest big dreams into reality.222 as an Angel Number has to do with manifestation, keeping in balance, and creating blessings on a huge and global scale.

When you repetitively see 222, it’s a message from the angels that you’re on the right track. You’re in the right place at the right time. Stay positive, know that your angels are supporting you, but remember to ask for angelic assistance.222 offers assurance that things are and will work out for the best when you focus on your desired outcome, stay positive, go with the flow, and continue taking steps in creating your desired result.

The Angel Number 222 is a reminder to keep the faith, to stay focused on what you want rather than what you do not, and to trust that all is well, and everything is working out according to Divine will for the highest and greatest good.

The third one, was the mysterious dropped phone call.

So that’s it for today. Oh — I’ve also been zonking out light bulbs and draining batteries so I need to do extra grounding work.

Anyway, I love my Twin! He’s funny. And I do hope he does get that new head of hair, lol.

Actually, that should read “Manic Weekend”, but it’s a Monday now and I didn’t go to work. Why? I’ve been working on my website – Yael Alchemy – (and, yes, once I publish I will tag that here), but it’s still in the works.

For the past three days, I’ve been sleeping at 5am because I’ve been trying to figure out the sitebuilder, setting up the pages, sourcing “no attribution” required pictures and trying to reconcile regular pricing with the local pricing discount. My marketing and branding designer is still working on my logo and peripherals, so in the meantime that I had to put something up on the site, I went with the prototype. Heck, it’s an original creation of mine anyway, plus it was inspired by Spirit. It was just my lack of advanced Photoshop skills that got in the way of excellent execution, lol.

The Artist that’s working with me is my cousin, who happens to be a Twin Flame herself, an Orange Ray, whose twin is not incarnated and is in a relationship with a soulmate now. She herself has experienced much tributlation and hardship in her life but this gets transmuted through her art and she has become one of those artists celebrated and exhibited by our local National Museum. I suppose it was why I told her about my ideas for the website and revealed to her my authentic soul nature — being a twin and all — I did not have to explain much. She understood.

Anyway, our timeline in developing and creating the site has been marred by delays and what not. It seems like dark energies want to put the brakes on this one. Last Thursday, my cousin got in touch with me with a warning to be careful. She told me to be careful of picking clients because not all of them will have good motives. She also picked up on the dark trying to sabotage our efforts because the day before, a spectre had been following her. Then, when she was about to work on my stuff on her computer, her computer and phone simultaneously shut down, and she couldn’t power her computer back on again. That’s when she understood the whys and wherefores of the spectre.

I was worried for her and told her to shield herself, but she told me not to worry because it’s as if there’s a glass barrier between her and the spectre. The strange thing was that I had seen the spectre too on that very day she saw it.

That morning, on the drive to work, I did something unusual — I invoked the protection of AA Michael and Faith and their Legions of Light. I don’t know why I did it. I just felt that I had to. Normally, I would start the drive with “Angel of God”, the Soul Mantra, and an invocation to my Higher Self and Spiritual Team to send me messages. Anyway, as the day wore on, I actually forgot I did that (invoke AA Michael, Faith, et al.).

Later in the afternoon, after work, I headed to the mall to work on the website in my favorite cafe. I had just found a slot in the parking lot which was facing the sun. In front of me, there was an SUV parked there, it’s hood facing my windshield. (Are you getting a visual now?)

Anyway, I was rummaging through my bag, seeing to it that I had everything I needed when I look at the car in front. That’s when I see the spectre.I saw a humanlike form peek out from behind the passenger seat of the SUV in front of me. Yes, head and shoulders and all. I did a double take and paused. I mean, maybe it could have been a real person left in the car, enjoying the A/C while waiting for the driver. That’s not uncommon in my country where the heat sometimes gets oppressive.

So I observe awhile and look closer. But, nope, nope, nope. The car was empty. Of course, I am freaked out and get out of there as fast as I can. It was only when my cousin was telling me about it that I recognized that that was why I asked for protection from the Archangels. My soul knew it before my human brain could process it.

After my chat with my cousin, I went double time on the protection. I did a smudging around my room and surrounding areas, got out my Labradorite bracelet which I only just found out is the stone of AA Michael, again, courtesy of another twin’s post, and I went on full battle gear with my Diamond Sword of Truth, Crystalline Shield of Light, and Golden Helmet of Protection.

I’m still being plagued with Ascension symptoms due to purging — the venom from my exotic bite marks have subsided but have been replaced by a rash; I’ve got a purulent inflammation somewhere on my body, yadayadayada, but I’m trying to not let it bother me while I am in Manic Creator Mode.

On the other hand, this pre-mission work has taken off focus from my twin, and he’s getting somewhat anxious because he keeps sending messages like “please stay”, “don’t go” and stuff to that effect. All these happenings though seemed synced with the Collective, based on their own accounts of what’s been going on with them and channelled messages. It’s supposed to give the Divine Masculine space to sort out his shit pre-reunion. So all is as it’s supposed to be.

There are times, of course, when I have my own uncertainties about all this — the mission, I mean. Am I ready? That seems to have been answered by Spirit in other posts and dreams. I don’t even know how the reception will be or if this will take off at all. I’m just going with the flow and doing what I’m called to do. I figured, I’m going to do the groundwork; and Spirit will take care of the rest.

For several weeks now, a renegade thought would just enter my head — what if my twin recognized that we were meant to be together before I did, and all this time he was just waiting for me to be ready? What if all this time that I was thinking that he was the “slowpoke”, it was me that took the longest time to “come around”? That I was actually the “unawakened one” instead of him?

I shrugged it off the first time it surfaced. Bollocks, that couldn’t be possible. But the thought kept coming back, nagging at my subconscious. Still, it simmered there and although it took a while to seep past my ego, when it hit my core, I realized it was true.

It took a thread in one of my twin flame groups to tie this groundbreaking concept in my mind. Someone had asked that everyone post something about their twin that they loved. I said that I loved my twin because he is more infinitely compassionate and patient than I could ever be, but that with this TF journey, I felt that I was levelling up on the patience, lol. I wrote that answer on the spur of the moment, but soon realized that I siphoned out some truth out of my situation.

After all, he was already older and more mature when I had met him. I was young and still hankering after the very human drama aspect of relationships then. Plus, he was Pisces all around which made him very intuitive, if not psychic. Perhaps he got what the essence of our connection was before I did? Maybe he’s not aware of what it’s called or all the twin flame lingo, but the recognition of the connection is there.

Last night, I finally asked the cards for confirmation of this. It was a very insightful reading, practically screaming YES at me. I could just imagine my guides slapping their foreheads in near exasperation and then patting themselves on the back for finally getting through to me, lol. Which also explains why I’ve had sudden bouts of bursting into tears the past couple of days where I apologize to my twin for being so slow on the uptake. It’s like even if I had been energetically chasing him all these years, even if he liked me, even if he was attracted to me, even if he was tempted to reply to all those ignored messages, can you just imagine what self-control he’s had to exercise to not pre-empt our reunion in full glory before we were both ready?

If he is truly enlightened, then he would have seen/known where I was coming from, similar to the way I can tell if a person is coming from ego or not. And like a teacher, he would be able to gauge if his “student” had already learned all that they needed to and was ready for graduation.

After bawling my eyes out at this epiphany and my full acceptance of it, the next morning, the first video on YouTube that I was called to watch was David Mills’ You can have your Twin Flame Union NOW. And it just confirmed further what I just realized to be true. Not only that, I was the 33rd commenter and the 33rd liker which just cements the confirmation. This was more than just synchronicity. This was a message I was meant to receive.

If I know it; he knows it. We are already in Union now. I choose to be in Union with him now. And we love each other… unconditionally, across time and space, through past lifetimes and other dimensions. So what’s the problem? 🙂

Earlier in the day, I thought about Hazel (Starsoul Tarot) and her journey out of the blue. It wasn’t prompted by anything, I just had this feeling that I should go see how she was. When I got home, before I could even shoot her an email or a message, I chanced upon this video she just posted on YouTube: Twin Flames Current Energy & End of My Journey.

She said she was told that she had achieved union frequency and needed to take her story offline for her twin’s sake. Well, that among other things that I also resonated with. She talked about completion energy. Something that one would feel if one has already done all the steps needed to bring one back to a sense of wholeness. As soon as that is completed, you’ll also be resonating at the same vibration that she is.

Once you’re resonating at this vibration, there’s something else that occurs. And some people aren’t going to like me saying this, but this is just what happens; and what happens is you lose the need for that person to come back into your life. So it just goes; it dissolves; it drops away. And after that, what happens, I don’t know because we’ve only just got into this energy. But i’m just letting you know that’s where you get to. And it’s a good feeling. It’s like… liberation.

I’m resonating with this. The need to have my twin in my life isn’t as urgent anymore. It remains a desire; not a need. Disengaged non-attachment is what I think it is. Am I resentful to the Universe for not delivering to me a 3D union on a silver platter? To be honest, a little bit, yes. Like I don’t deserve it when others do. That bit of it still hurts. Okay, a lot of it still hurts when I focus on it. It’s like that gut feeling that I had when I realized I was on a TF journey that regardless of the twists and turns and how challenging the journey was, it might end up like the story “Kaharian ng Araw (Kingdom of the Sun)” and one would end up physically alone while providing beneficial assistance to the rest who are coupled up.

(Pause)

I’m still trying to figure out if I’m blaming my twin for not getting with the program. I’m still weighing how I feel about it. I mean, it’s kind of inane that after all these lifetimes that we’ve had to learn our lessons, the time comes where we actually get to incarnate at the same time here on Earth to help the planet during a crucial time in its existence, and then we don’t get to do that because someone was resistant to doing the work, right? It’s like a mighty waste of a perfectly good opportunity to ascend. On the other hand, there’s the realization that he has much healing to do and then, you know, unconditional love kicks in. I really don’t know. He’s already told me he’s sad and frustrated but what do you expect if you’re not living in authenticity? What else does he want me to do? I’ve been doing as much as I can to help him but there are some things that he has to decide on his own and to work on them. I’m not saying he isn’t. I feel that he is and is just going at a snail’s pace. So there, that’s why we are where we are. And all I can do in the meantime is be patient, and just hope everything works out for me while he is still trying to make his mind up.

All these “graduations” and “end of journeys” are giving separation anxiety, really. First, it was Cirrias. And now, it’s Hazel. The two people whose readings I resonated with the most. Everything else on YouTube seems to be directed towards the Second Wavers, or those who have just discovered that they’re on this journey. And abandonment is a big trigger for me since I’ve had so much of it in real life. So, I don’t know; I don’t know; I don’t know. I’m feeling quite a bit lost without Hazel, especially since her journey is so similar to mine. Ten years and counting. She forecasted union with her twin sometime in September, and I’m guessing from how it’s played out it was an “energetic union” and not a union in the physical. I’m still hoping for her happy ending here in 3D and that they get together soon. Somehow it will be reassuring that such a story is entirely possible to be manifested in this reality.

Last night, I was weighed down by a lot of things. I’ve got hives again and this time around they were located in my right arm and smack in the middle of my back. I suppose some exotic insect bit me again, but part of me suspects that it’s ascension symptoms, brought on by the Hunter’s Moon this October.

That was itching enough to be bothersome. And even though I am still full go on my mission — I just installed video editing software and all that — the response on my trial video up on YouTube was short of dismal. I had one thumbs down and about 30 views. Which brought me to thinking if I really did have “spiritual gifts” and if I should share them publicly.

I took Benadryl to help me sleep despite the itching, but it seemed like I didn’t need it. I fell asleep while doing self-healing Reiki on myself. Woke up and tinkered around the computer for a bit and then fell back to sleep. That’s when I had this strange dream.

I was in an illustrious and old campus, walking by a pathway beside one of the big buildings. I stopped by a hawker’s stand. There was this guy there giving out flyers and samples (not quite sure what the samples were for, but they looked like micro-cassette tapes). He was a psychic and I was looking at him and his wares, curious if he was the real deal.

While I was doing this, things started happening to me. I turned the golden knob of the grills nearby which revealed a secret passageway to the college down below. And when I looked up at one of the life-sized statues that decorated the college (it looked like St. Francis of Assisi in my dream although I’m not sure), the statue suddenly turned its head to me. Jeepers, this was getting creepy.

When I turned down to look at the guy’s calling card which he had handed out earlier and which seemed to contain my initial logo for my website, the logo was spinning as though it had life.

That’s about all I remember, but I think there was much more. I think Spirit was telling me that I did have psychic powers and not to doubt it because the “psychic hawker” by the wayside didn’t have an inkling that all those strange things were happening to me. Okay, okay, maybe I can help some folks out. I’m still not definitely backing down on this. I have to birth it and let God.

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Telepathic Arguments with my Twin

I’m the one with Mars in Aries and since this Supermoon is in Aries, I’ve had to catch my temper many times the past couple of days. Thank God that we’ve been given guidance about how this will affect us, so no bridges were burned so far.

On the other hand, I’ve felt my twin picking an argument with me several times now, telepathically though. I feel that he is lashing out at me, but I didn’t want to engage because I could tell that it is his own frustration and anger with himself that’s the source. You know how men pick a fight so that women would break up with them? That’s how it felt like. I told him I was here to stay and that I wouldn’t go. I suspect it is his own feelings of self-worth that are at play here. He thinks that because of his failed relationships, his codependent way of coping with problems, that he’s no good for me. But I know that that argument is neither true nor valid.

So I’m letting him stew for a while. I miss our loving connection but these are issues that have resurfaced for a purpose. He needs to heal them and get rid of the guilt he associates with them. All is forgiven. I’m not pressuring him anymore to fit his healing and return with my timeline. He just needs to do it.

In the meantime, I will continue to heal myself to help him heal. He is, after all, my twin. I’m just glad that I am in a place right now where I can tell what this is. If I were any less enlightened, I would have responded likewise in anger and frustration.