Friday, March 14, 2008

don't flatter yourself

i've been having some strange dreams lately, and i posted them on facebook for interpretations from my friends. in one of them, my sister had some big bugs on her, and in a panic, i started clawing at my chest, until i ripped through my flesh and tore my rib cage apart, pulling out my bloody, throbbing heart. my sister, now crawling with bugs said "you shouldn't have done that amanda".

jackass (who i no longer feel is a jackass, i just call him that for your sake - we're actually friends now) offered his opinion: "don't tear your heart out over the wrong guy". HA! that's pretty presumptuous of him. we get along great, and we've hung out several times and had a perfectly fun time. but i am most definitely not tearing my heart out over him. here's my somewhat alternative interpretation of the dream: my heart was beating wildly. even while holding it my hand, i was still alive. And conscious of how alive i was. Look at it go! boomboomboomboomboom!! my sister was what truly frightened me; a walking corpse. not that i believe her life is over, but we are on very different paths. in retrospect, this dream actually reassured me of how much i still have in me.

i'm not tearing my heart out in agony over some self-absorbed boy. I'm marveling at the pounding, vibrant life within myself! I told him my analysis and suggested he keep his ego in check. hahaha!

3 comments:

Dreams are supposed to be our way of dealing with our lives and may sometimes give us a little hint as to how we should deal with the events that are going on ... we don\'t always think we know what to do but subconciously (or in our dream state) we seem to be that much more perceptive of things.

I think you made a great interpretation of your dream ...

... and \'jackass\' was way off considering there was no male symbols in your dream at all to make it about a male. Gotta give the guy a nickel for the little troll of attention he was working on there, though. ;-)