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DTP Part 52

To Stop Loving YouWritten on: April 2, 2003 (age sixteen)

It hasn’t changedThough I wish it wouldI wish I could stop loving youWhen I know you don’t feel the sameI turn to youYou turn to meWhen we need a little somethingTo feed the sexual frustrationTo smolder and calm the flamesWhy do I turn to youWhen I have anotherOne I should turn toIt’s scary what I would give upJust for youAnd for loveI am willing to give youSomething I could never claim back

To stop loving youIs like tearing myself in twoLosing half of meWhen you look at meCan’t you see the loveThe devotionDo you deep in your heartKnow what it isBut push it away out of fearOr do you know what it meansAnd you’d rather hurt me

Since you leftThe skies have been graySome daysBlue has peeked throughJust to be covered againGloomy and coldExcept those momentsIn your armsWith those small traces of loveWhere there’s sun and warmthBut as soon as you see what you’re doingYou turn away and leaveBack to the presentInstead of back to where we once were

To make a wish upon a starAnd hope it to be trueIt’s a wish for youTo hold me in loveNot just in lustFor you to see who I amA heart-broken girlWishing for my heart breakerTo come back to me

I stare out the windowDaydreamingWishing to find a wayTo stop loving you