Fernando, I guess because we are still considered "newbies" would be the reason we seem sad and don't go out so much. I have to get out as I said because I have two young children and they need that from me. They have been a life line for me (I'm sure that they are unaware of that). I guess you need to understand that you may be sad and alone or you can be sad and not alone...I chose the latter. I figure that with time it will get easier, perhaps not "better" but at least easier. Who knows, when I go to Ecuador for this operation with Dr. Kao, I might be better, that is the hope I have...I will let everyone know either way. Just know that you are not alone! [img]/forum/images/smilies/rolleyes.gif[/img]