This was one of those shocks that come out of nowhereand loom over you, almost menacingly, because It knows and You know that you are going to have to make a decision.

The kind of shock that drops your standing form down into the chair, whether there's a chair behind you or not, and the only thought you can form for several minutes is, "Oh, shit." because your brain has frozen and any form of higher thinking has shut down.

Yeah, that kind of shock.

I suppose I should have known, with a word like Fearless.

I should have known that I would be put into a position where I would have to choose to stay in my warm and safe, unchallenged haven or stand tall, with arms flung wide and bare my heart and soul, stripped of all the defending armour I have built up around me over the years.

I should have known a word like Fearless would challenge me like that.

With that challenge the possibility of a new path has emerged.

A new path that may be just a short jaunt leading right back to my current path, but with a few answers to old questions, or a new path that could take years to travel.

A new path with more situations, most likely, in which I will need to be Fearless.

But, it also holds a possibility, albeit a small possibility, of a joy I have long wished for.

You might have jinxed it... But then as you say, it might bring joy. And trying to be fearless has many ways to growth. Not always a comfort, but still. Love the pages you made with this word. The pages look quiet and thoughtful, just like the words you wrote down. You are on your way!

I just discovered your blog and it is just beautiful! I especially love your words on fearless. Isn't it amazing how we "think" we know where the ship is going and suddenly the wind shifts and we are off what we thought was our course? I love it. In that scary-roller-coasters-are-fun kind of way! Look forward to browsing more. Your photography is beautiful!