"One of the most calming and powerful actions you can do to intervene in a stormy world is to stand up and show your soul. Struggling souls catch light from other souls who are fully lit and willing to show it."
- by Clarissa Pinkola Estes

Friday, April 6, 2012

F is for Fragile (warning sad)

I wasn't planning to go this direction with F. I was thinking flirting with words, people, etc. Then
Marian at Toads asked us to pen a poem. Her poem challenges involve music. She shared with us her love of this talented man, Vic Chesnutt. She shares, "His songs are like no others, his music soaring on some other plane, his words poetry. I have long adored his work, and I still mourn his untimely passing on Christmas Day in 2009." He had a car accident, that put him in a wheel car.

I couldn't help but think of a friend of mine, who ended his life too soon. He was the last person on the planet, I thought would ever walk this road. I wasn't home when it happened, but I remember the last time I saw him. He was happy and his usually self. I heard there was trouble in his marriage and he started doing drugs. Everyone liked him; he was always smiling. He was a jock, smart, good looking, and funny. I know what you are thinking, maybe... maybe not.

31 comments:

This hits close to home for me Ella.There is no easy way for those left not to feel some sense of guilt at all. All the 'what if's' that have to remain unanswered.Hard subject, hit close to home for me too.Lovely, poignant and tender.

Oh my God, Ellie, this is one of your best. FANTASTIC write!!!!!!!! So so true. The frayed rope, the clown crying and where oh where is the damned net? This is simply spectacular. So sorry about your friend. A friend of mine from high school that I lost touch with then found again in 2000 committed suicide to one year later. It really rocked me, as it was like I'd let him down a second time, not been tuned in enough to his troubles. It took a long time to get over it. Marian's prompt has brought peoples' poems out from the painful places - awesome to read from one to the other, where every single poem really really speaks from the heart. Great job, kiddo. You must never ever again question whether you are a poet.

Ella, this is a wonderfully executed poem, each narrowing shape of a stanza returning the reader to the title. I'm reminded of my sister who ended her life years ago... and of how 'fun' is often just a brave face 'fragile' puts on for others...

That was beautiful...I WAS the net once for a friend who wanted to committ suicide and she was so mad at me she hasn't spoken to me since despite my attempts to re-connect. I wouldn't change a thing but I do missher friendship.

Ella- So many wise words in this, and you know I can relate to losing a friend that way. Life is like a carnival and we need to remember we can always get off the roller coaster and walk on smooth ground again (although at first things are a little shaky).

Wanda-Have a Happy Easter, too~Thank you, yes, it is part of our journey, the highs and lows, but the bottom is not a place I want to visit. Sad...

Misha-Thank you, yes, I think we all can understand losing someone...you are kind.

Dave-Thank you, it was hard to write.

Cheryl-You are right! My memories of him were all happy, so it was hard to believe.

Jaycee-Thank you for your thoughts and for visiting me.

Susie-You are right about the deep scars!~ Thank you

RaShelle-I am sorry, you know this pain...it alters us! Thank you~

Shelly-I am so sorry! Don't go to Toads site and read the rest, everyone was crying, so touching!Unless you need a good cry...justa warning! I don't think I have ever seen a prompt bring so much raw emotion!

Thank you Mama Zen!

Laurie-Wonderfully said...yes, we do need to remember and think of others, too. I am sorry for your loss~

Tracy-Wow, to be someone's net and then be treated this way. I know you did the right thing. Someday he or she will see the light...You are so brave! I admire the strength it took you (((hugs)))

Melissa-Thank you! I am sorry and sad for your losses. I think in that fragment, we can all relate.I think it is important to share our feelings~ (((hugs)))

Audra-Thank you! It was a difficult write, but I needed to write it...if that makes sense...

rch-Thank you! It did blur the lines between carnival and circus. When I was younger the old carnivals did blur the lines...

Tracy Jo-Thank you, so well said..we do sometimes need sad!

Marian-It kind of does, doesn't it...Thank you for such an unique prompt. I think everyone's poems touched upon a lot of sensitive subject matter! There was such an emotional response!

Thank you Christine!

turtlememoir-I am so sorry for you loss! It is so sad to lose one so close to you~ I can't imagine how big a hole that left in your heart!So sorry... (((hugs)))

Alex-Yes, we do wonder, if we could of been. In this instant I could not be. I was at the opposite end of the country, but one wonders how he came to this awful place. I do believe the mind must snap, distort the view.

Kerry-Thank you, yes, it is tragic when one's life spins that far off course and hope ends~

Sherry-It was a difficult write, but we all have dealt or know someone that has or has attempted this.Thank you, I am so sorry for your loss. It does make you wonder..."what if" but remember there were a lot of other around that didn't see.I am glad you have moved on to a different view...time does that.(((hugs)))

Bren-I am sorry, it touched so close to home! I think we always wonder, what if, but we have to know, sometimes we don't truly know their mindset. If this person was intent on the end, there is no way we can stop them.They will continue to find another way. So sad and haunting! I am so sorry for your loss (((hugs)))

man...marian hit a nerve with this challenge because folks have been hammering 16 penny nails one handed with one whack...this is no exception. Painful, desperate, frustrating, and oooooooo so real. Hate to hear about these things, but one of the great things is the words that it inspires from your pen. Really good.

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