She, was like a heart that stopped beating on the day I left our doorstep to go to war.
She wrote me love letters that kept me warm when I was freezing in the rain.
I took a gunshot to the leg and ended up lying in a hospital bed.
But the horrors I had seen were a plague on my eyes, and I didn't know to get them out of my head.
She said,
Home is where the heart and I need you here now because I miss you.
It's been two long years since your smile brightened my day.
Come home to me.

On the day I returned home, I was merely a ghost of myself.
She knew it, and I knew it and she knew I needed help
So she held me.
And I cried so many tears that i soaked my shirt and then I went to bed.
Then I woke up at 4am, just wishing I were dead.
I left something behind, something inside of me. Hell, if I can remember it's name.
I took the revolver to my forehead, I was just going to stop the pain.
One minute I was close to death
The next minute so far away
She grabbed the gun emptied the chamber, and threw it all away.

There are memories of you if there are memories of anythingThere are stories to be told that won't fit the concept of this pieceThe beauty that we birthed in these goddamn wallsCould fill the Louvre to the brim with our masterpiecesAnd don't say you never felt it, because I know in fact you didI see the glint inside your eyelid when we speak as though we're kidsBut we're still kids and there's still loveAnd we can be that again, hell we still areBut these goddamn walls are holding me in like barsYou escaped from the prison through a hole carved with a spoonYou could slip into the cracks, but I'm not small enough to fit throughWe need a new home.This place isn't home for me anymoreI hope yours isn't eitherBecause if it is that means you've settled, and I've already lost the war.If I knew the steps I had to takeThe smile that it would make would be concrete evidence to the factThat there is love here, and here is my heartIt's not this apartment or the bedroom, or the fucking bathroom floorWe had a child here, as a scared couple needing a place to live.Not a place that we're going to eventually call our ownEventually title it our homeA temporary band-aid on the problem of homelessness.Because we we're bringing a child to this world, and he needed a roof atop his head.And as I lay here on the floor, elbows ground red from the carpetI wonder to myself, just how I could have stopped itHow to stop the gentle distancing that at night leaves my heart reelingHow to get so close to touch your skin, without hurting certain feelings.How do I let you know,that every day I wake up to an empty bed (just like you do)and I remember that once you were there, and even if you were sleepingI loved the look upon your face, hell I just loved your face andI loved the way you snuggled, and it sounds so damn clicheBut I just love your skin, and the way I can run my fingers down it slowlyAnd I don't need anyone, anywhere to tell me how I feel about youThis will never be more real than it is here. Minutes away but miles apartand I'm rambling now because there's so many things that I want to say and this would sound disgustingif it happened face to faceI'd make a wreck of trying to explain this, and I wouldn't use the proper wordsand you wouldn't hear my meaning, because I'd stutter on myself.But fuck.I love you.

Her wind is a boundless butterfly flapping its designer wings
To call her beauty simply magnificent would be an understated truth at best.
She dances pirouettes in limelight while onlookers lend their gaze to the most elegant of pagents
And the dance of her own death.

The sequins sparkle brightly amongst the illuminating light
The way her body flows its a wonder how we are all alive
To witness such a spectacle without a proper frame
A piece of art without the bounds of a four corner charade.

She falls to the floor to signal that her end is near
Who will throw roses to this angel in appreciation for the tears
While she was championing us with movement, as we are swelling with her pride
Her final dance, the darkest swan
The shadow of the broken night
Then her darkness washes over us
And the curtains cast us out to sea.
Leave it to the water
To wash the stains off our souls.
She was dead before she saw us
Throw a single rose.