Hiding My Face

I've been feeling so blue since my dad got sick on last November 2009. I just want to tell the truth about my feeling because I have no one special who never get deaf to listen my problems. Sometimes, I walk too far and speak so far as well, even in the place that I shouldn't speak up. I feel so sad when somebody out there told me that I'm over reacting in some case, or even too much to expression the sadness. Did I bother you? with all of my words? Even some of them are people I called 'sibling'.. Oh where are you when I need you as a family to hear my sore? I'm just feel like a barbie, who always smiling for fake and forced to do that right know.

Sometimes, you shouldn't tell the jokes story to cheer me up or act like a clown to make me smile-sincerely. A piece of intention named attention is much better. You should know, people aren't made just like you. There are always a painfull gravel on it. Inside, that not all the people know how it feel, before they feel it by themselves. Be a flower occasionally, you are not a stranger for me. I should feel free to start a conversation, but I'm sorry.. I'm not feel that way. For now. You messed-up my room. My heart.

By the way, my camera's take a rest for too long. So I asked my friend Tino from See You in Paradise to take some picture out there quite far from our housing. I interested with his shirt! x)

Just found my forever-sweater got by my sister.. It's her sweater when she was on Senior High School. I love the color which is never get fading though that it's been more than 3 years! <3 and also I love the illustration ;)

About me

Hello. It's Fira. Twenty-five years old lady with pencil and paper in her hand, recipe in her mind, passport in her bag, strings in her melody, and Telecommunication as her study. These are all my thought, hope you enjoy every words! xx