There’s so much to talk about, and yet, brevity in reintroductions is probably the best way to go. On that note, here are some process pages for the next chapter of HLG. Roughs are finally done, and now with an increased page count of 60… so who knows when I’ll finish and publish this chapter, much less this comic. A few years ago I told myself working on one project for 10 years was too much, but I only have 2 more years to go on this before I hit the 10 year mark, so um, yeah, not even close! 0_0!

That’s what I wrote on 11/9/2016 on Twitter. I, as many like minded progressive artists are, am devastated by the surge of hate crimes occurring in the United States post the presidential election. And that’s just the beginning: as of this writing, the executive branch of the U.S. government is projected to be filled with the most racist, misogynist, xenophobic, anti-Semitic figures from what I would consider terrorist organizations in this country. I can’t even write them by name for fear of search results linking to here and getting an onslaught of online harassment (though I’ve probably written enough to get it by now.)

I’ve been writing and drawing my comic “Hockey, Love, & GUTS!” for almost 8 years now, never in a full time fashion, but as a personal project that I just can’t stop until it’s done. The initial purpose of the work was to highlight the untold stories of women in sport, specifically field hockey for its particular feminist history in this country, and how universal their stories are. Of course, I knew this was niche subject matter; for one I can count on one hand the number of women’s sports feature films, so I knew from the beginning that my audience was going to be small at best. It continues to be this way. But, I persevere… and sometimes I wonder why.

I think the cultural American climate is reason enough for me to keep going. I’m not very good at arguing politics with anyone in person, let alone on the internet, but I think I can create a story that functions as an allegory for social issues that I care about deeply, specially involving feminism and the rights of people of color. I created a microcosm in the fictitious Northern California city of Amberwood in my comic in order to mirror the macrocosm of our American culture at large (and there’s a lot more coming story wise on that too.)

After last week, I realized that the American culture I was portraying in my work was too idealistic, too progressive (even with the antagonists that I’ve presented so far) and that maybe the reason I didn’t “believe” in America anymore is because I may have never fully accepted the reality in which we live. Maybe it was my naiveté of considering myself as being “woke” and aware of the social issues that minorities face on a daily basis (after all, I’m a multiracial and bilingual Brazilian born American citizen, and I’ve been mistaken for being Middle Eastern in the past as well, so surely, I must have an inkling of what it feels to be like the other) and yet, I believed, in my atheist heart, that there was an America for me. But, no, I don’t think there is.

However, after much soul searching this past week, I think the job of many progressive artists now is to redefine, and reconstruct what “America” should mean for all Americans. Maybe doing challenging works is not enough if they can’t breakthrough the echo chambers; maybe contacting representatives and being more politically active is one way to create change, but can it break through political lines? I became interested in working in animation and visual storytelling for its inherent quality to synthesize ideas that anyone can understand, and that at its core can break language and cultural barriers; so it is in that spirit that I’ll continue to do so, and fight for the issues I believe through my work and hopefully more literally in person as well.

And, the comic will be on hiatus until 2017. Early, mid, or late 2017?… well, that I don’t know yet, but I’ll try my hardest to get back to this rhythm of releasing a page a week. This past year wasn’t too hard, since I had it all done before, but I may try and at least finish the roughs (I’m a little over halfway done as of this writing) for the next chapter first, and then see if I can ink, tone, and final edit a page a week (sounds intimidating already.) It’s been fun to share, and gain a few more followers this way, but if you’ve been waiting to read this whole chapter in one go, now’s the time! Besides, it’s really meant for quick reading, so thank you for all for your readership, and why not, read it again, and tell your friends. We’re maybe halfway through the story (I’m shooting for ~500 pages, but who knows, it might be more…) so stick around, there’s so much more coming soon. Thank you, and to be continued!