Basically I'm just trying to practice expressing positive, not-reluctant interest in kink stuff, it's something I really struggle with and can be a problem

A lot of habits and behaviours I picked up in my early kink days were born out of like, fantasy noncon stuff, and even though I'm like, fully up on proper consent practices and stuff I really struggle with enthusiasm and not being crazy nervous whenever sex or kink comes up

I do want to distinguish the point of this account from exhibitionism, like, this isn't a thing where I want everyone to go follow my secret sexy account or whatever, this is like, a kind of stepping stone for personal growth, that also happens to take a lot of useless thirsty stuff of my main horny acct

You're certainly not missing anything if you don't follow it, like, this is where all the good stuff will be

Maybe some people find the shyness cute or w/ever (and tbh I don't think it's ever going away completely) but lately I feel like it's been an impediment, and I don't think it's as important as proper dialogue between play partners, especially if it's not an established relationship