An engineer by profession but I have always been a writer at heart. A simple girl with big dreams of becoming a person that God wants me to be. My life used to be perfect, at least that's what I thought.. until I was struck by an invisible disease called Lupus & everything in my life changed. I gotta adjust with a lot of stuff. I used to be depressed about it but I'm learning to trust God more & hold on to my faith. I'm not really sure yet of what life has to offer but I plan to live my life as meaningful as possible.

I don’t feel well. I’m not really sure if it’s the gloomy weather or if it’s simply my Lupus illness that’s making me feel weak, tired and lonely. Ever since the “break-up” my friends have been really supportive and always trying their best to cheer me up. They make an extra effort to call, text and even visit to check on me. Generally, I am fine. I’m not really crying in my sleep, actually I’m not even crying at all. My friends say that I should... that sometimes we just need to have a good cry to let go over someone, somehow a chance to mourn over your loss but I don’t feel like crying. Maybe, I’m still in denial mode or the reality of having him out of my life forever hasn’t sunk in yet. But since yesterday, there’s an overwhelming sadness and it’s starting to scare me. *sigh*