Andsothenext7.5yearspass… moreandmorelayersandpointsofviewIattachedtomeaboutloveandwhatthatmeansforme… yetmoretwistsinthethreadsoflove, creatingabastardizedversionofitinmyheadandheart… debt, financialstruggle, lossoffamilyandfriends, coveringupthehurtwithasmile, workinghardtoavoidbeingathome, agreeingtohimhavingagirlfriendjustsoIdidn‘thavetosleepwithhimasmuch, (I didn’t know about all the other girls he’d had over the years but by the time I did find out it didn’t matter to me any more, we were over), doingallthehouseworkandupkeepjustsoIcouldpretendtomyselfasmuchaseveryoneelsethatitwasn‘tallacrockofcrapandIhadfailedtochoosecorrectly… and thatmyMumwasright… thatwastheworstpart… havingtotellherthatIhadendedtherelationship and why…