this really sucks, I really feel I was so close to killing myself but I could tell how upset my dad was when he heard me talk and I could tell he cares about me and would probably be devestated if I killed myself

I just cant believe what I have done to my life at this point and people have helped shape me to get where I am at

shit happens, though. if you're attentive enough to recognize and brave enough to admit that pieces of your life are in shambles, you're also attentive and brave enough to fix it

it's just whether or not you want or have the drive to....

:hug: i'm sorry

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these problems cant be fixed, it goes beyond mental at this point, I always had the drive and ability to fix mental problems but these problems are physical and life changing and I am not sure if I am able to live with it