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This is my walk with Jesus. This is where I am opening up and sharing my experiences, joys and pains. We all have trials, tribulations and insecurities that we are sometimes embarassed to talk about. I hope to help is all be a bit more open and vulnerable with each other. Only when we are open and honest can we truly support and love each other through it!

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I know that when I am feeling down and out, I can rest in God and know that all will be well. What I have learned more recently is that things work out even better when I ask Him to help me gain a different perspective in life.

God is good and He will shine a light in the midst of the dark places, this He has shown me time and time again. I have lived it, I can personally testify to it and that makes it easier each time I turn to Him. The same is happening with perspective. Each time I sit before Him and open myself up to His perspective on my life, I am blown away.

Our Lord and Creator reminds me that I am His. He reminds me that Jesus loves me and died on that cross for me. He reminds me that the Holy Spirit dwells within me. That I am His child and that I am here on purpose. This perspective changes everything.

When I look at this life from the perspective that Jesus places before me, I can rest on it. I can walk more confidently and be less anxious. I can stand in the midst of the storms and know for certain that there is purpose in it and that I will come out on the other side exactly the way I am meant to. I can know that the people I am around are there to either impact me, be impacted by me or both. There is purpose behind everything.

As Jesus shows me more and more, I am able to see a clearer picture. The seemingly randomness of life is diminished. The thoughts that I am unloved and left to fend for myself in this life are squashed. The lies the enemy whispers to God’s children are heard as lies rather than seeping in as undetected.

Jesus is amazing and has widened my narrow point of view and I am excited for Him to continue to do so. He has taught me to trust Him more and to open myself up to His plans as they are always good. the Holy Spirit is ever moving through me and all around me and I am learning to stop long enough to see it and to enjoy the beauty He brings.

Take a moment to sit before our Lord and to lay yourself down in order to be transformed in ways unimaginable. Let Him our into you and to broaden your perspective. Let Him show you the purpose and love that surrounds you. Ask for guidance and for clear vision. He will give it to you, all you need to do is ask for it and to be willing to receive.

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Something I am reminded of often, in order to have true appreciation, I have to ask for it. It is so easy to take my life for granted. I can easily fall into the place of complaining and ungratefulness. This is especially true in my marriage. I have found myself slipping into the place of taking my wonderful husband for granted. I easily get into the place of complaining about the little things and forgetting what an impact my words have on his heart. My prayer for some time is that I would be able to step out of the critical mode and into the appreciative mode. I drive myself nuts, I can’t imagine how my poor hubby feels!

Lately I have been blessed with memories of when we were first dating and married. Clear memories and the flood of emotions that go with them. I have been remembering how excited I would be when I was going to see him, how heart wrenching it was when we had to part. A reminder if how luck I am to have this man by my side every single day. I get to see his handsome face every morning and fall asleep in his embrace each night. I cannot take this for granted. I have a wonderful husband that is perfect for me. We balance each other out in ways only God can understand. He has made me a better woman, a better mother and a better friend.

Today I just wanted to share this with you all and remind you to take a step back each day and remember the reasons you have to be happy. you may be in a rough spot in life and you may feel overwhelmed, but you will come out of it if you allow God to work in it. He will show you the beauty that surrounds you if you open your heart and ask Him to. It may not come quickly and you will struggle still, but you will also find pockets of pure excitement and appreciation as well. Ask and He will deliver. Our God is always on our side and wants us to be happy in the life He has provided to us. Only we can get in the way.

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So many people have shared with me that they see strength, certainty and self-confidence in me, especially when in the midst of troubled times. I think I laugh every single time I hear that. I am glad that I can come off as someone who “has it all together” as it comes in handy in my professional life. I am more than happy to share with everyone that I am quite uncertain all the time! I question my decisions, my motives and my abilities every day! I do not necessarily dwell on them. If I have been looking to the Holy Spirit for guidance, I can rest on that. If I have been moving in my flesh, then I need to seek forgiveness and then let it go. Sounds so easy, doesn’t it?

When I was younger, I had a false sense of confidence that I portrayed in order to hide my vulnerable side. I would put on a very tough exterior in order to keep people out and to keep from having to face my wounds. Today, I have a certainty that I wish for all, a foundation that has literally changed my life. I am confident in the fact that I am a child of God and that He is working such amazing miracles in my life each and every day. This is NOT an exaggeration.

Since I have come to know Jesus, He has brought me to places within me that I locked away long ago. There are so many experiences in my short time here on earth, that have damaged me deeply and have brought me such shame. As I have learned to allow Him access to these places, He has shown me just how much He loves me and has brought such healing. This is a testament to the power our Lord has, this is something I can stand on in moments of uncertainty.

As my path takes me into new and uncharted areas, I am most definitely terrified, uncertain and stepping out in pure faith. This does not necessarily make it easier to do, but I do know that no matter what, my God is on my side. I mean, how can I question the Creator of the very ground I stand on? He has shown me that He loves me, He has met me in my hour of need every time. He has taken care of my emotional, spiritual and physical needs beyond what I could have ever imagined.

I am a child of God. I am here for a reason, He has a purpose for this life. I have found that I can trust Him and that is what allows me to step out in places unknown, despite the anxieties that try to keep me from doing so. My spirit longs to be used by our Living God and that is something I have to remind my flesh of often. I have to make an effort to rest in Him and to know that He is God. He is for me. Who can be against me when He is by my side? These words ring so true in my heart.

I know I have a long journey ahead of me and have so much more to learn. I know that I am not even close to having a clue! The thing is, that I don’t have to. I am learning that I don’t always need to know the long term plan, I just need to know that this is where God has me going right now. There are people in my life right now that are there for a reason. Maybe I am to learn from them, maybe they are learning from me, maybe it goes both ways. All I can do and want to do, is to seek His face in all I do. I want to know that no matter how far off I am, He is right there. No matter how many times I fall, He is there to pick me up. No matter how insignificant I feel, He knows me and cares more for me than I could even begin to understand. That is a certainty that I can stand on, even when I don’t feel it in the moment.

I am so thankful that Jesus has been breaking down my false self-confidence and has been replacing it with the knowledge that He will always equip me for any journey He asks me to embark upon. The key is to wait on Him and to allow Him to lead the way. I cannot forge ahead on my own just as I cannot procrastinate in my insecurities. I must seek our Lord in all things and let Him show me the steps I need to take, that is when the miracles happen. Take it before the cross and you will be amazed at the outcome!

5 “Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing.6 Anyone who does not remain in me is thrown away like a useless branch and withers. Such branches are gathered into a pile to be burned.7 But if you remain in me and my words remain in you, you may ask for anything you want, and it will be granted!8 When you produce much fruit, you are my true disciples. This brings great glory to my Father. John 15:5-8

You may think, why is it so important to sit before God each morning, I would say that we need that time to plug in so that we may bear much fruit. If we remain in our Lord and allow Him to guide our days, we will be living much more productive lives. By productive, I mean spiritually. Each day when we rise and often times during the day, we must live purposely and Jesus in all we do. Some things you may find to be insignificant, just remember that God views nothing as insignificant. All things can work towards His Glory if we allow it to.

I have come to a place in my personal walk where I wake to the alarm and my mind is instantly on Jesus. I wake up speaking to Him, offering him praise and asking Him to please guide my steps. I open myself before Him and pray that He would use me each day in an impactful way. I do not have a standard as to what impactful looks like, I just trust that the people I come into contact with each day will take something away from me if the Lord so desires. I do not need to see the impact, I just know that I need to keep my heart in the right place in order for it to take place.

Today I pray that I will always keep myself in the midst of God’s will for my life. I know that each of us has a purpose and we all need to live in that place. Plug in, trust in Him, let Him lead the way. You may not always know where you are going, but you can trust in Him. Keep your eyes on Him and He will not fail you.

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I have been in a strange place lately. A place of wondering who I am. I know for sure where I have been and I know where I want to go, but I think I can struggle with knowing who I am at this very moment. Is it the spiritual transformation that is taking place? Is it the change that is taking place in my professional life? Perhaps it is just an approaching my mid-thirties thing? Is it that Jesus is removing the negative filters I see myself through, is He showing me my true self?

Do you ever find yourself in one of those places? Who am I? What do I stand for? Where do I fit in? Do I make an impact? Am I succumbing to the pressures of my culture? These are some of the questions swimming around in my mind these days.

There is one fact that I can always stand on and that is the fact that I am a beloved child of God. I don’t always understand why He loves me so much, but I know that it is true. He tells me and shows me in so many ways. Often times we can forget that we are made in our Great Creator’s image and that He purposefully made each and every one of us. We can forget that we are stewards of the world we are living in and can take it all for granted. We lose sight of our core purpose along the way.

For some time now, I have been asking our Lord to allow me to see myself the way He does. I want to see the beauty He sees. I want to see the impact I have on those around me. I want to know His desires for me. I want to walk the path He has laid out for me. I want to see His lost children turning to Him. Perhaps He is answering that prayer and that is what I am feeling.

I pray that He is doing a work in you too. I pray that He break the chains that hold us back, that He allows us to see ourselves as He does. I pray that you start each day with a desire to bring Him glory in all you do. I pray that you know that He is ever present and loves you unconditionally. I pray these things in the precious name of Jesus. Amen.

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