14 December 2009

For better and for worseA woman carries his cross.Did she understand all the actsWhen she signed the contract?

When she falls offhe's impatient with her irrational attitudeas he can't stand his own soquickly she climbs back upSpreads her arms exposes her heart.The nails are easily back in andAll is well again, in order.

She accepts the consequencesDoes she know she's not there?That she doesn't exist?She cleared the place to accommodate his shit.

In returnHe gave her all the keys of his kingdom with one single ruleThe room of anger and rage is mineDon't ever use it or I'll kill you.

She's good, she won't even tryShe's probably even lost the key.She is what he expects of herAt all times.

Like a chameleonShe soaks up his atmosphereSlips inside his landscape andMakes herself part of itOblivious and invisible to her own.

I need help to discover what my own landscape look likeI'll accept all the help I can get to find out what my true colours are

03 November 2009

The more taboos and prohibitions there are in the world,The poorer the people will be.The more sharp weapons the people have,The more troubled the state will be.The more cunning and skill man possesses,The more vicious things will appear.The mmore law and orders are made prominent,The more thieves and robbers there will be.

23 May 2009

once upon a time a long, long time ago lived a little girl who always wanted to be a princess. She dreamt about it every day and every night so much so that one day she just knew that her dream had become reality. She had become a princess. She was the most beautiful little princess and she was so special that all the animals of the farm recognised her and loved her, and all the horses recognised her and loved her, and all the people recognised her and loved her. When some people didn't recognise her or didn't pay her the respect she was due she became very angry. But a princess cannot possibly get angry because it is so out of character and ugly. And so instead she would turn around and leave.

Now this little girl had many brothers and sisters and she knew that all of them wanted to become princes and princesses too and so there was stiff competition. And so she dreamt more than her brothers and sisters, and she asked always to be the most beautiful and the most intelligent of all and to be worshipped by all the people across the land. And when some people didn't worship her the way she was due she became very angry. But a princess cannot possibly get angry because it is so out of character and ugly. And so instead she would turn around and leave.

The most beautiful little princess left the land where too many people didn't love her and worshipped her the way she was due and arrived to a new land where all the people loved her and worshipped her the way she was due. And she was very happy. But as time went by the little princess was growing up and the love and worship of all the people was no longer quite enough because she wanted the most beautiful prince to find her and to love her and to worship her the way she was due. If the most beautiful prince could not find her then could all the love and the worship from all the people really be real? The little princess who was growing up became angry because the most beautiful prince obviously didn't live in this land. But a princess cannot possibly get angry because it is so out of character and ugly. And so instead she would turn around and leave.

The most beautiful little princess left the land where too many people didn't love her and worshipped her the way she was due and arrived in a new land where all the people loved her and worshipped her the way she was due. And the most beautiful prince lived on this land and found her and loved her and worshipped her the way she was due. But as time went by the little princess was growing up and all the love and worship of the most beautiful prince was no longer quite enough because she wasno longer that he was the most beautiful prince. She might have made a mistake and the most beautiful prince was still looking for her to love her and worhip her. The little princess grew angry the real most beautiful prince obviously didn't live in this land. But a princess cannot possibly get angry because it is so out of character and ugly. And so instead she would turn around and leave.

Once again, the most beautiful princess left the land where the prince had tricked her to think that he was the most beautiful prince and she erred for a long time. Finally she arrived in a new land where people didn't love her not worshipped her the way she was due. Because the people didn't love her and worship her she could be get angry, get out of character and ugly and she became very angry against the people of this land. But they didn't care and they continued living their lives without loving her or worshipping her. When she saw that being angry didn't change them one bit, she wept and wept and wept until the tears dried out and she fell asleep. When she woke up, the little princess had gone and only a not so young woman was there. And next to her stood a man who was not the most beautiful prince and she smiled at him.

22 May 2009

I had a dream a few nights ago. There was a cat in my garden and got out to scare him away as him and others keep pooing in the garden. This cat wears a beautiful dark grey fur and he was playing in the lower branches of a bush in the far left hand corner. As I arrived there he left and I saw in that same area 4 other cats and kitties lying dead on their sides. It didn't touch me more than that and I just wondered whether to leave them there or to bin them.

it is now hitting me - this part of me symbolised by the cats has died and it doesn't affect me emotionally.... Ouch!!