How ironic! This thread started with my BFP and is ending with my little angel.

Have started new thread if nobody minds. Not sure how to put link in, so hopefully you can get it from here: http://www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/1673502-Rainbow-babies-Remembering-our-angels-riding-the-rollercoaster-and-hoping-for-little-rainbows-and-sunshine.

little, I'm glad you have your dogs, and good support around you xxx You are being brave, remember we are all here if/when you need us xxx So much love coming your way xxx

Wow - just one more sleep moomins, will be thinking of you (my friend who lost her little girl during labour in March is having her twins tomorrow by section, so will be thinking of you both).

rainbox & green hope you are getting on ok. It is so hard to hear that there are things that could have been done differently to save our babies, but tbh I try not to think about it - my consultant has said that any of the things that they have put in place for my care this time could have saved Nancy.

angel, I hope that Ant is getting on in his job.

How are you doing blizy?

Are you still doing well with SW and your training fan?

Have been referred to a physio for the PGP, and got an appt on Wed, don't expect them to do anything, but we'll see.

Little, I'm glad you are getting doggy hugs, they do 'just know' I think, don't they? I'm sure you are having swings of emotion and coping at the moment, and as we all know it's best just to ride it in the early stages. I'm glad you are being looked after. We are all here and thinking about you. X

MOOMINS.. Tomorrow then?! I'll be thinking about you! How exciting!

My scan went well on Tuesday, but they are going to rescan next Friday, just to keep me sane, then at twelve or thirteen weeks with consultant. I have my booking in with MW tomorrow. I requested a diff MW to the silly mare I had with Merryn, she was so useless she was funny.

Don't be in awe, ladies. I am not doing anymore than any of us on here and just trying to carry on. I may sound positive although am having good hours and bad hours! (But thank you anyway.)

Moomins - got everything crossed for you for tomorrow. How exciting! Can understand it being upsetting to hear that from the hospital, but as you say, you need to try to stay focussed on this little one for now. Good luck!

Rainbox - thanks for telling little Dexter about my girls. I don't know what I believe either really, but it gives me comfort to think that my Dad (who died when I was three) may be doing his Grandfather duties somewhere and looking after them for me. How did your scan go yesterday?

Green - how was your scan too?

Fan - well done on the weight loss. That's great going. Yes, my four legged friends do certainly help to keep me grounded and are such a comfort. They are currently curled up asleep on either side of me on the sofa keeping me warm as I type. Who needs central heating?

Angel - glad Ant has found a job even if it is only just tolerable. They always say it is easier to find another job when you are already in one, so hopefully he'll be able to find something more to his liking if it gets too unbearable.

Hope everyone else is ok and not getting blown about in the wind too much. xxx

Moomins: Our posts crossed. Wow a section Friday thats lovely news......do keep us posted! I hope tomorrow flies by so you will be enjoying lots of baby cuddles soon xxxxxxxxx

Thinking of all the other growing rainbows too xx

Fan: Hows the diet/training coming along? I'm trying very hard too. 6lbs is an amazing weight loss.....I'm too scared to get on the scales...Ive decided I'm only gonna get on when I'm alot slimmer so I'm not too aghast!

Kliene: Hope your ok xx

Angel: Glad Ant has got sorted with a job.....even if its just to bridge a gap for now. I know he was starting this week. Does he like it?

Love to everyone else. Gotta go I'm getting called to sort the kids out for bedtime xxxxxxx

Little: Your so brave. You are in my thoughts every day, its good to keep occupied.....anything that helps......whether its walking for hours with the dogs, decorating or seeing the 'Prodijig'. I hope you get some answers soon, but for now, look after yourself xxxxxxx

Tayto: I'm so sorry you lost your 2nd baby. Your are in my thoughts too. Its so unfair that you are on this terrible road again. Do pop in whenever you want for lots of sympathy or to have a good old moan xxxx

Split: Is your DH home yet? It cant be long now I hope xxx

Rainbox: I love spring. Hows the baby box? Did you get scanned yesterday? Your post about going to see Dexter reminded me how much I'm missing my boy this week. Gonna go Friday and take some flowers....good job I didnt go today they would have blown away its been very windy up here in the North xxx

So I had a hospital appointment Monday and they've booked me in for csection Friday.

They also admitted that my waters breaking early wirh ds2&3 were probably down to problems with my cervix, which is why they had booked me in for a cervical scan at 24 weeks with Jacob. I'm a bit upset, if they'd kept an eye on it they might have caught it in time. Trying not to think about it too much right now though.

little you are so full of courage, I am in awe also. Dont push yourself, but Im sure you know this already. And how sad that you do. Im sure your pooches are being a great comfort to you, furry friends are the best in these times. Take care

Little you sound so positive, I think I am in awe of you a bit! I am glad you have projects and events to look forward to, it sounds like you are in the best possible place and surrounded by good people (and dogs) to help you get through this. Take care, and as I am sure you know, no way you feel is wrong. IT is okay to have good and bad days, and we are certainly here for both.

Thank you for telling us about your beautiful girls. I don't know what you believe (I don't know what I believe half the time) but when I visited Dexter this week I told him all about them.

Spring is on it's way. So love to everyone and their Angels and Rainbows.

Thanks for all the support and to those for coming out of hiding! Have been on long dog walks everyday which has helped to keep my head clear and to help me sleep. I keep waking up early and only being able to doze but I am not going back to work until a week on Monday so plenty of time to rest if I need it.

Am getting my "need to do DIY" head on again. I want to finish painting the loft hatch and boarding the loft out which I stopped doing when I got pregnant with Lily. Also, will be going back to agility with the dogs after next week which I am looking forward to. I also need to lose the stone I have put on whilst pregnant so will be going back to the gym at work. Some of the girls at work are doing a "Race for Life" run this Summer so will aim to join them on that. Have also booked to see "Prodijig" in May (fantastic Irish dance group - winners from last year's Got to Dance). So I have lots of things to keep me occupied and moving forward.

Once we have seen the consultant again in a couple of months, depending on what he says, we'll probably start TTC again sometime after that. I'm not currently in any major rush as want to give my body (and mind/emotions) a break from all the stress!

The sun is out today, so keep those chins up everyone...Spring is on it's way!! Take care, xx

Little, I'm so so sorry to hear about Lily. I haven't been on this thread for ages either, but I remember you getting your BFP with Lily. I can't imagine what you're going through right now. Sending lots of love your way.

Dear lovely ladies, i have not been on here for a good while - apologies - but I just saw littles very sad news and wanted to say how sorry I am too. Sending a big hug to you my friend. So unfair that you have to experience this. Thinking of you xxxx.

little how wonderful (and how incredibly sad) that Lily looked like your DH's side of the family, but with your mouth... bless her, and her big sister Daisy too.

It's good to hear you're feeling well supported - and that you feel you are 'coping' so far. Like the others, I'm hoping so very much that you will get some answers from the PM and other investigations. You must be right - these two losses, so close together and at the same stage of pregnancy, surely cannot be coincidence. We'll all be anxiously waiting with you for the results over the coming weeks and months. Hope you are managing to eat and sleep a little - DH too -and that you are physically feeling ok as well. Much love xxx