When we enter/are placed in this illusion we are given a mind, many minds in truth, and right there we are faced with our first choice: going visual or continue to use the HTML (energy-coding vision)?

The very majority of us settles for visual vision offered by the mind(s) with its pictures, interpretations, taste, colors, and all the senses and emotions programmed to delineate and consolidate what we end up believing is us.

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The dramatic feeling of been totally lost, is then partially relieved by the sensation of gaining a position in space which gives us some sort of delusional security.

The majority of people spend their whole life creating effects on others in the attempt of proving to themselves they are “alive”, they really “exist”.

I, too, choose the Vision-mode. Thought, for a while, Silvia was me. Struggled to fit in and, too, I was tricked, as the majority of fictitious, materialistic groups disguised as spiritual does, into believing being causative is equal to power.

Fortunately, I always aimed toward truth, never really cared about power, about competing or challenging others… and I say fortunately, because your true intent is what guides you and lays the stones to your path.

I have always been quite perceptive, but it wasn’t of any help when dealing with psychopaths or psychotic organizations. They have a way to present themselves so as to match your perceptions and ideals. It is all a pretense, an exterior outfit but never the less good enough to cloud ones judgment.

It was only recently with regaining the ability to read energy (the HTML program), I realized what we see with the body eyes, what the mind offers us, is most of the time very different from what it truly is.

When you read a code you can see all the components, the element which constitute the appearance and the one who are prompting its action. A beautiful flower seen by the mind as such, will reveal its poisoning properties to whom is able to read its energy and codes.

I started to work on this. I was puzzled to see how, quite often, the beautiful, genuine smile, convincing words of someone, would ‘read’ on its energy formation as untrustworthy.

So many times I battled with the mind(s) “it cannot be possible” but at last, I became strong enough, to trust my new mode of vision.

The other day, reading a post by David St Lawrence, a man who I admire deeply for his constant help, on effectively enabling people to advance spiritually in freedom, I realized… ‘seeing’ is not something you develop with time but is something we have all along, something we surrender when we choose to let the mind “see” for us.

At the very moment we choose the body eyes as the primary-eyes, our
spiritual sight disappears in the background like a foggy undefined
element.

When I read the energy is always spot on.
Again, where the ‘eyes’ of the mind see a beautiful person, event or
situation and the spiritual mind reading the energy, says exactly the opposite. I know the latter is the one to trust.

We entered a different plateau. Let’s keep in mind that, when you read a code, there can be a very early command which changes all the rest of the code and although the spiritual mind is way more accurate, by belonging to the material universe is still affected by its rules, lies and imperfection.

On the positive side, the reading of energy will give you a much broader vision, unlabeled, of the different flows. Please do realize that a this point there is no roads, mother, cat, sea, sky or any form as we have left the visual-mode.

All you see at this stage is the energy moving; no labels or judgments. And, if you make it close enough to the no-judgment, no-labeling zone, you have also gained a detachment from the mind and you are somewhat exterior to the whole material game of illusion with its duality.

As per the first graph below created and designed by David St Lawrence, the familiarization with the Spiritual world is a VERY necessary step. Only when it became a way of life, to you, to perceive and deal with other inorganic beings, your next door will unlock.

NOTE: All Inorganic beings, spirits, ghosts of a less dense, but still material (energy) form and the mind(s) itself belong to the game of illusion ordinarily called Reality.

Original Graph by David St Lawrence (above)

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I modified the original graph by David St Lawrence to add another field and notes.

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For who of you is ready to make the necessary arrangements and to take the necessary steps to enter the spiritual world, I strongly advise to contact David St Lawrence…

He can give you the tools, to get to the door of Awareness.

Of course, there is no place for dilettantism, you are required to work hard and to bring out all the courage you can possibly can… You are the only one who can walk the path.

Imagine if you were brought in front a big screen and shown a picture of a gathering with hundreds of people.

Imagine if you were brought in front a big screen and shewn a picture of a gatherer with hundreds of people. Imagine you were told you were all this people and the place too.

Imagine you were told you were all this people and the place too.

Imagine if you were also convinced you were each one of this people individually and every time you were actually observing one of them you would assume their program (mind) and adding another mind to the general one it was given to you when you sat in front the screen.

Imagine yourself, now, leaded to believe you’re those people, trying to make them survive, feeling responsible for their future, for each individual future and well being.

Imagine yourself, not knowing is a projection and not knowing they are all one image, starting fights one against another to protect and support the different minds (program)… in truth fighting yourselves.

Imagine yourself feeling something is really wrong and trying to unsuccessfully escape from the screen as a single person… Unsuccessfully, as while you are desperately trying to escape as one, you are continuing your participation in the play with all the others.

Imagine yourself feeling something is really wrong and trying to unsuccessfully escape from the screen as a single person… Unsuccessfully, as while you are desperately trying to escape with one, you are continuing your participation in the play with all the others. But again, you do not know that anymore.

And so, you start focusing in campaigns to save the world, while part of you knows there is not such world and, frustrated and upset, is trying to destroy this screen… the very same world you are trying to save.

Some philosophers say we are one and we are responsible for everybody, we are everywhere while some other say we are a single being. From a mind prospective they both potentially right.

However, outside the “minds”there is no us, me, you or I in this projection.

There is a projection and the only way out, is not to play any part in the movie we see.”

In truth, if there is ever going to be a truth understandable or even perceivable and by a mind, there is no us, me or I in this projection. There is a projection and the only way out, at least from the “movie”, is not to play any part in the movie.”

“…In true mysticism there is no sacrifice of feeling. Mystical sensations are sensations of the same category as the sensation of love, only infinitely higher and more complex. Love “sex”, these are but a foretaste of mystical sensations. “Ouspensky: A NEW MODEL OF THE UNIVERSE “Sex and Evolution”————“Mystical sensations undoubtedly and incontestably have a taste of sex… Of course all we know in life, only in love is there a taste of the mystical, a taste of ecstasy. Nothing else in our life brings us so near to the limit of human possibilities, beyond which begins the unknown.The Strange Life of PD Ouspensky by Colin Wilson

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“You know part of me still feel married to my last husband?”

“Yes, I know and that’s Ok.” he answered me while caressing my heart with his beautiful smile.

“Part of (me), of this human form, have never left W. and another part is now loving you.” I painfully added.

He holded me tight: “I feel the same about the woman I last loved at times. Even if I love you now with all my heart.”

There was a moment of peace. Truth often gives me that soothing effect.

“How many people can you actually love at the same time?… and that being pure love?” I asked myself. Today, unlikely few years ago I know the answer to be ‘an infinity of people’.

I know love starts on a higher dimension than this rudimental delusional world where pure love degenerates and at times manifests itself through pain.

On the top of it every ‘I’ could project on you an idea of love.

Crazy…

B. is not just someone I deeply love, is a soul mate. I never understood what soul mate really meant until I found him. During our energy circles, with my eyes closed, I could locate every participant, I could see their energy as little condensed sparkles of different colors, motion and intensity… I could recognize people by their energy.

To my surprise, when I looked for B. I couldn’t find it. All I could see it was my energy estended to him… or his energy extended to me? There was no me or he. Our energy was one. Our energy is one. Just like 2 drops of the same substance coming out from a spoon. Identical, separated yet, part of each other.

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I do not know what this illusion would do with such a beauty, I have learned truth has no business in this universe but I have also learned two beings can ‘see’ beyond the energy, beyond material perceptions and when they do they are touching each other into the infinity of unconditional love and lose any sense of separateness.

And so, where into this material world you think to love many people, you see all this people be one, be you, Bruce, William, Luca, Rhett, Randy, Aida, B..

You lose your energy form, they all lose theirs and the only thing remaining is the essence of pure love…

“The rock and the water”

In a golden universe, of a very far away land, just beyond Orion; in a world without time or energy, a rock and a lake fell in love.

The light weightless character of that universe permitted the rock to jump onto the water and keep touching the very surface of it for as long as he wanted… that was his way of kissing the water.

And the water, of course, also being in love, kissed the rock back.

They kissed many times, feeling deep into each other…

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The water of the lake, when kissing, turned warm and peaceful, while the rock would shine and reflect the most beautiful unimaginable colors all over the sky.

Everyone who happened to see would stop – captured by beautiful the blend of colors and emotions.

They were in love.

But one day the rock and the water decided to go for a trip to a strange planet were it was said there was a very peculiar thing called gravity.

And so, at the same time, they both jumped into the unknown of that dimension…

When they opened their eyes they found themselves surrounded by beautiful mountains. The sky was the most intense blue color …just below, the mountains were blanketed by a deep vibrating green.

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The sun seemed to be kissing the sky and so both felt a sense of peace. There they were; the rock looking at the lake from the shore and the lake looking at the rock from the foot of the mountains.

In this new dimension they fell in love again, thinking they just met.

This strange universe did not allow the existence of anything else; this strange world of gravity felt like the only existent and real thing – and very soon the lake and the rock lost memories of their true home.

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The rock and the lake looked at each other for long time and then they decided to kiss.

The rock took a big jump toward the lake – but to his disappointment did not move. He tried and tried again thousands of times, but with no luck. The water did the same, but all she achieved was to splash water on the nearby land, while getting weaker and weaker.

Time went by, when finally a kid hiking arrived at the lake and sat on the rock.

I do not know how or why, but the kid looking at the rock decided to throw it in the lake. Maybe he just wanted to play or maybe he heard the rock asking him to help him kiss the lake.

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It was an exciting moment when the rock found himself flying towards the Beloved One!

As the rock landed and they finally touched… the kiss. The beautiful feeling of that so longed kiss.

The passion of true love pervaded them in its magical touch. They were ready to spend their life together… when, suddenly, the rock touching the surface went through and disappeared into the bottom of the lake.

“What happened?” the rock cried in disappointment. “Where’d the rock go?” the lake shouted with surprise.

A feeling of sadness and betrayal filled them both. The lake ripples turned into dark and scary waves.

The rock stopped shining and cried. The tears were melting into the lake and the lake felt a very strong nostalgia for the loss of the loved one. The rock wanted to stop crying but it couldn’t because unknown to him, the lake surrounded him, and these ‘hugs” reminded him constantly of her love.

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They were in each other, but because of the clinging nature of this strange universe, its ruling by appearance they could not see it, and they thought they were apart.

The only thing which remained was that instant when they touched, which seemed so brief and at the same time infinite.

Infinite indeed in their home universe, but not in the land of appearance.

Perhaps one day, the lake and the rock will remember that this was just a trip, an adventure they decided to do together – and they will return home, where they belong, where there is no limit of space, of time and love last truly forever.

The business of lying…

“Therefore be “unattached”; let things work; let brain centers work; work incessantly, but let not a ripple conquer the mind. Work as if you were a stranger in this land, a sojourner; work incessantly, but do not bind yourselves; bondage is terrible. The world is not our habitation, it is only one of the many stages through which we are passing” Swami Vivikananda

I have been told many times from my teachers my problem was I did not like myself, myself being to them my illusionary image in this illusionary world; Silvia Kusada.

It never felt right while at the same time it was true.

But as for any partial truth, that piece of information halted me.

I always felt trapped by the fact I was recognized and identified with a piece of energy. I had been fighting this ‘Silvia Kusada’, trying to change her or make her disappear. That has been wrong too. As a spectator of a play. It is both wrong to fall into the delusion you can help improving a character or to try to destroy it. It is both ways an identification with a lie.

Today when I look back I see that if my cohorts approach would have been toward me being able to detach from the illusion of an identity/ies, (Note, detachment has no business in any creation or destruction), I would have recognized in that a meaningful step on my path.

The stage where billions of billions of movies are projected, crossing and overlapping is an endless playground.

“The stage where billions of billions of movies are projected, crossing and overlapping is an endless playground.”

Detachment, self remembering has many layers, but none of them are useful until they reach the level of the higher spiritual mind, the one outside the duality and energy form.

A data is of no use, until is understood. Still at that point is of no use until it becomes true for you, and again it is of no use till you able to own it.

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These are all steps.

A movie or a play is emotionless, unless we put there emotions to be felt.

And so it is by our self-deception, weakness and delusion that we laugh and cry. We look at the beautiful nature, at life achievements, and we feel happy. But once you know the truth, there is no happiness. Happiness in this illusion is regarded in higher planes as suffering and limitation.

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” To this level suicide would be to stay. To forget or compromise their freedom and knowingness of truth.”

And so once your eyes are open the only way to continue to be ‘human’ or spiritually ‘human’ is to lie to yourself.

The strong black energy surrounding this Silvia Kusada’s program has nearly deformed and destroyed her; what the rational mind calls heavy depression is nothing but an awareness of lies. A form of transformation which destroys a non-functioning or deteriorating program. It is the wind of a new illusion slowly supplanting an old weak one.

Depression is just an appearance, as death.

What is suicide? An unaware method to abandon the ‘story’ while you believe your place still on the stage.

Yet, many higher ‘enlighted’ have left the stage, knowing they never had to be there in the first place. They stop creating it and giving it the soundtrack of emotions, the stopped to listening to the sounds.

To such levels of awareness suicide would be to stay. To forget or compromise their freedom and knowingness of truth.

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Again, my aim is not to achieve material happiness or to stop suffering… It is truth and truth only at its higher levels.

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WHAT IS YOGA? page 259

A NEW MODEL OF THE UNIVERSE by Ouspensky

“The chief principle of Karma-Yoga is non-attachment. A man who follows the methods of Karma-Yoga must practise non-attachment always and in everything, whether to good or to evil, to pleasure or to pain. Non-attachment does not mean indifference. It is a certain kind of separation of self from what happens or from “what a man is doing. It is not coldness, nor is it the desire to shut oneself off from life. It is the recognition and the constant realisation that everything is done according to certain laws and that everything in the world has its own fate.”

KARMA—YOGA

KARMA-YOGA teaches right living. Karma-Yoga is the Yoga of activity.

Karma-Yoga teaches the right relation towards people and the right action in the ordinary circumstances of life. Karma-Yoga teaches how to become a Yogi in life without going into the desert or entering a school of Yogis. Karma-Yoga is a necessary supplement to all other Yogas ; only with the help of Karma -Yoga can a man always remember his aim and never lose sight of it. Without Karma-Yoga all other Yogas either give no results or degenerate into something opposite to themselves.

Raja-Yoga and Hatha-Yoga degenerate into a search for external miracles, for the mysterious, for the terrible, that is, into pseudo-occultism. Bhakti-Yoga degenerates into pseudo-mysticism, into superstition, into a personal adoration or into a striving for personal salvation. Jnana-Yoga degenerates into scholasticism or at best into metaphysics.

Karma-Yoga is always connected with the aim of inner development, of inner improvement.

It helps man not to fall asleep inwardly amidst the entangling influences of life, especially in the midst of the hypnotizing influence of activity.

It makes him remember that nothing external has any significance, that everything must be done without caring about results.

Without Karma-Yoga man becomes absorbed in the nearest, the visible, aims and forgets the chief aim.

Karma-Yoga teaches man to change his fate, to direct it at will.

According to the fundamental idea of Karma-Yoga this is attained only by altering the inner attitude of man towards things and towards his own actions.

The same action can be performed differently, one and the same event can be lived through differently. And if a man alters his attitude towards what happens to him, this will in the course of time inevitably change the character of the events which he encounters on his way.

Karma-Yoga teaches man to understand that when it seems to him that he himself is acting, in reality it is not he who acts, but only a power passing through him. Karma-Yoga asserts that a man is not at all what he thinks himself to be, and teaches man to understand that only in very rare cases does he act of himself and independently, and that in most cases he acts only as a part of one or another great whole. This is the “ occult ” side of Karma-Yoga, the teaching concerning the forces and laws which govern man.

A man who understands the ideas of Karma-Yoga feels all the time that he is but a tiny screw or a tiny wheel in the big machine, and that the success or un-success of what he thinks he is doing depends very little on his own actions.

Acting and feeling in this way, a man can never meet with failure in anything, because the greatest failure, the greatest unsuccess, may further success in his inner work, in his struggle with himself, if he only ﬁnds the right attitude towards this unsuccess.

A life governed by the principles of Karma-Yoga differs greatly from an ordinary life.

In ordinary life, no matter what the conditions may be, the chief aim of man consists in avoiding all unpleasantness, difficulties and discomforts, so far as this is possible.

In a life governed by the principles of Karma-Yoga, a man does not seek to avoid unpleasantnesses or discomforts. On the contrary, he welcomes them, for they afford him a chance of overcoming them.

From the point of view of Karma-Yoga, if life offered no difficulties it would be necessary to create them artificially. And therefore the difficulties which are met with in life are regarded not as something unpleasant which one must try to avoid, but as very useful conditions for the aims of inner work and inner development.

When a man realises this and feels it constantly, life itself becomes his teacher.

The chief principle of Karma-Yoga is non-attachment. A man who follows the methods of Karma-Yoga must practise non-attachment always and in everything, whether to good or to evil, to pleasure or to pain. Non-attachment does not mean indifference.

It is a certain kind of separation of self from what happens or from “what a man is doing. It is not coldness, nor is it the desire to shut oneself off from life. It is the recognition and the constant realisation that everything is done according to certain laws and that everything in the world has its own fate.

From an ordinary point of view the following of the principles of Karma-Yoga appears as fatalism. But it is not fatalism in the sense of the accepting of the exact and unalterable preordination of everything without the possibility of any change whatever. On the contrary, Karma—Yoga teaches how to change the karma–how to influence the karma. But from the point of view of Karma Yoga this influencing is an entirely inner process. Karma-Yoga teaches that a man may change the people and events around him by changing his attitude towards them.

The idea of this is very clear. Every man from his birth is surrounded by a certain karma, by certain people and certain events.

And in accordance with his nature, education, tastes and habits he adopts a certain definite attitude towards things, people and events.

So long as his attitude remains unchanged, people, things and events also remain unchanged, that is, corresponding to his karma. If he is not satisfied with his karma, if he wants something new and unknown he must change his attitude towards what he has and then the new events will come.

Karma-Yoga is the only way possible for people who are tied to life, who are unable to free themselves from the external forms of life, for people who either through their birth or through their own powers and capacities are placed at the head of human communities or groups, for people who are connected with the progress of the life of humanity, for historical personages, for people whose personal life seems to be the expression of the life of an epoch or a nation. These people cannot change themselves visibly; they can change themselves only internally, while externally remaining the same as before, saying the same things, doing the same things, but without attachment, as actors on the stage. Having become such actors in relation to their life, they become Yogi; in the midst of the most varied and intense activity. There can be peace in their soul whatever their troubles may be. Their thought can work without hindrance, independently of anything that may surround it.

Karma-Yoga gives freedom to the prisoner in a gaol and to the king on a throne, if only they can feel that they are actors playing their roles.

“The WEALTH of the BLIND”

My identifying with this human nature has been in opposition to my work.

My long past in $cientology which has given so much importance to the mind and to what it perceived (pictures, thoughts) has placed many hurdles on the path.

Recently, there was a breakthrough:

From THE SUFIS by IDRIES SHAH

‘The first is the essence of a thing, which is the inner essence
(dhat) and the truth (hakikat) of that thing. Truth here means
objective reality, the inner meaning. People normally see or perceive
only the outward use of a thing, are ignorant of any ultimate function
of that thing. A lamp, for example, gives light. It may be used for
heating, or for decoration. But other functions of its true reality
are imperceptible to the ordinary man. If, by a stretch of
imagination, it were found through delicate scientific measurement
that the lamp was giving off certain communication rays, this activity
might be the expression of the true reality or essence of that lamp.”

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I started to look at things, this mind considered to be positive, and found several of them to be of a discordant energy. Some feeding onto mine energy, some deteriorating the flow of Silvia’s program, some other neutral and some other of extreme and rapid destruction.

But to the eyes of the body, to the ordinary reality, was not the same.

It amazed me how the same things seen through the eyes of the minds where totally different if seen on their energy level. At time they even resulted to be the opposite.

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I looked back into the illusion of my track and found that to be true,

for many of the things or people my mind considered at the time to be positive,

turned out to be quite damaging.

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In order to get you to take the proper ‘medicine’, this program using the mind, it makes it to taste good.

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… “Oh! I’m going to do good things for my child! Baloni! That’s all EGO. Just work on yourself. (…) What are you offering a child? Not a set of social roles passing in the night… You offering a child here and now-ness. The treasure of consciousness The treasure of awareness. If you don’t help other beings cutting through the illusion because you are through the illusion, what else? What else is there? What are you doing? Doing more of the dance within the dance??? Are we always going to meet on the stage? Don’t we ever take off the costume? That is what I felt as a child. We are always on the stage, with our costumes… (I’m a good child that is what I’m). I know to play good child I have been in that role for years. I know how to do it. I’m a master in that game. Is anybody home????” – Ram Dass –

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A lie has no effect unless you act upon it.

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BE HERE NOW by RAM DASS

“Oh! I’m going to do good things for my child! Baloni!

That’s all EGO.

Just work on yourself. (…)

What are you offering a child? Not a set of social roles passing in the night… You offering a child here and now-ness.

The treasure of consciousness The treasure of awareness.

If you don’t help other beings cutting through the illusion because you are through the illusion, what else? What else is there? What are you doing? Doing more of the dance within the dance???

Are we always going to meet on the stage? Don’t we ever take off the costume? That is what I felt as a child.

We are always on the stage, with our costumes…

(I’m a good child that is what I’m). I know to play good child I have been in that role for years. I know how to do it. I’m a master in that game. Is anybody home????

-Ram Dass-

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I have been writing this blog for years,

I left and shared much material for whom is truly interested on finding spiritual truth and freedom.

The material I left and suggested as research tools

it can be considered nonsense by who approaches

mistakenly this path with an Ego, a rational and analytical mind.

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These people who walk the path for personal gain

will never find the gold in anything

not even in the gold they have in their own hand.

“Do not throw pearl to the swine” Jesus said…

Not only they would step on it or choking while eating them,

but they would turn against you.

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So here I leave you and if you have made it honestly to this point

you will know where to go.

I will be working on a book if that could be of help.

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There are only few who are walking away from the illusion,

they are not luckier than you, not the blessed or the wealthier.

They just really wished for it and their will, their un-bendable intention is what made the difference.

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There are many people willing to help you to continue to sleep.

To give you the illusion of success, of being someone or having arrived somewhere.