I'm Raymond Mar. My life is filled with new successes and new experiences. I recently experience a step backwards losing who I am. I'm happy the step backwards was short. I grew up again. I found new strength, new wisdom, and the old Raymond Mar from 2009-2012. The biggest success since 2011 is I found a new job. My new life is coming soon. The curses disappeared. There is new hope and new faith. Never take anything and anyone for granted.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

I experienced what was like losing someone yesterday at dance class. The attendance was around 60% of full size. There were quite a few students absent. We trade partners to make sure everyone has a chance to dance and to learn faster. Switching dance partners is an effective way to learn because we dance with different partners with different skills and experiences.

Some of the students have favorite partners they dance with including husbands and wives and boyfriends and girlfriends. I have favorite partners we dance together. Unfortunately, they were absent. Obviously, this is very small potatoes I forget tomorrow. However, I experienced the lost feeling—the feeling of physical, mental, and emotional attachment; in particular, during a dance between two people. I was one step closer to fully understand the experience of losing someone special. I lost the touch, the closeness, the knowledge of dancing technique (I forgot dancing because I have the lost feeling), the happiness and joy being with her. The lost feeling I experienced brought me one step closing to being more human.

Lost is part of life. We loose a family member to death. A friendship ends on worse terms. Boyfriends and girlfriends break up. Sometimes lost is on good terms such as a business partnership ending and they split the assets equally or a neighbor moving away permanently for a new job. Losing someone is like part of me disappeared. How can I continue life without him or her? It sucks losing someone. It’s going to happen.

About Me

Get up and do something, anything is my life motto. The irony is true: live a good life, live a happy life, one must work intelligently to achieve them. Earn them. I don't take life for granted. Be active. Be open. I always seek new experiences and adventures. Boredom kills life's motivation. Meet new people. Create new circle of friends. Exercise your body. Exercise your mind. Strong bodies, strong minds. Spend wisely. Rest is important. Feel a good person. Be a good person.