I really am truly sorry for your loss. Being sad, crying, and sometimes even thinking about hurting yourself (to some extent) is normal for the grieving process. I'm sure your mom didn't want to die, no one wants to die, but unfortunately its the process of life. I personally have never lost a parent yet, however I have lost friends, and extended family members - so I can somewhat understand what you are going through.

If you ever need to talk to someone, you can always feel free to PM me. I'll keep you and all those effected by this in my thoughts.

Best wishes,Chris

Chris I hope you know that you deserve it all. The best, the most honest, the most beautiful purest love in the world. Not only to be loved by others, but to be loved by yourself. To look in the mirror and think "Yes, I'm exactly who I want to be". To speak up and be proud of yourself. To be brave and open. You deserve the nicest and most caring people to walk into your life. You deserve it all, you know. The whole world...