i was so stressed out today, i have a deadline for an essay on wednesday that i wont get done, i am having problems with housing for next year. i had some serious reservations about the house, the contract and the land lady, but when explaining this to my friends i felt like i was speaking another language, they were trying really hard to understand what i was meaning, but maybe i wasnt explaining it well coz they couldnt see my point. then i got frustrated coz i felt like i was going mad, where only you can see (or understand) something and evryone else seems calm and not getting me.

see, i cant even explain it here. it got so bad i went to the docs, but they had no appointments so i left my doc a note asking for some diazepam or something to calm me down while i deal with the anxiety.

it got worse after trying to explain myself to my friends and at one point felt like i was going to have a nervous breakdown or something, i cant expain it, i felt like i was on the edge of something (the edge of sanity or something) and really felt like i was going to snap. i know it sounds melodramatic but i have NEVER felt even close to this anxiety (not even with my phobia of flying, which i take valium for). this was terrible, my friend was understanding and once i called my mum and she told me that my worries about the house were not crazy and that i should trust my instincts, my stress levels reduced somewhat.

im still a bit on edge and cant even begin to think about my essay, so hope they wont chuck me out of uni. i am on fluoxetine which supposedly helps with anxiety as well as depression but ive never had an attck like this before, its like its getting worse.

sorry for the rant, i just needed to get that all out, still feel jittery and my hands are still shaking from the stress. just want to run away from all my prolems (even though i know they will follow me). x

Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly. (Langston Hughes)

It's easier to go down a hill than up it but the view is much better at the top. (Arnold Bennet)

you are trying to control the anxiety by tensing up and fighting back, just relax and breathe deep and slow

if the fluoxetine/ prozac was helping, ask about upping the dose

valium as needed also helps by rekaxing you

claire weekes advises, float dont fight, try to read any of her booksrecovered former longtime anxiety and panic attack sufferer and helper of other sufferers but no training or qualifications in medicine or psychology, any remarks that may be taken as advice must be confirmed with doctor or other health professional

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Great input harry Yes go with it dont fight it You are using all your good energy to try and keep afloat and you can do that with more positive ways Take care LynContribute today to support Healing Well Forums...Donate @

I am sorry you are going through this. I know how anxiety and depression can affect school work...My semester starts tonight and I will be back in that boat once again. Have you tried to go for a run or walk to try and "burn off" some of the jitteryness...Sometimes when I cant calm myself down I go and run sprints. Heck if nothing else it gives my heart a reason to be racing...Sometimes it takes off enough of the edge to be able to get ahold of it again. Also try and sit down with the essay and just even jot some of it down. Sometimes once you can sit yourself down and try to start it things actually flow...Hope you can get that essay done. If you need to talk feel free to e-mail me...my e-mail is in my profile on the left. Keep us posted...--MichelleModerator Anxiety/Panic Forum