On February 18th, 2011, our lives were changed forever when our son Christian Taylor Buchanan entered the world. He was born with a bilateral cleft palate and lip and almost completely blind. This blog is the story of his life, the joys we share, the challenges we encounter, and the amazing and trying journey ahead of our family!

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Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Just The Way You Are - October 6, 2011 - Dealing with the Diagnosis

I will
never forget the message left on my phone the day my doctor found something
wrong on my son’s ultrasound. He was “concerned” about the results. He called
three times that Thursday, each time sounding a little more urgent, but never
giving details. I didn’t get the messages until Saturday evening, and by Monday
morning I was ringing his phone off the hook trying to get a hold of him. When
I finally heard the news, I came unraveled. The next few months leading up to
and including Christian’s birth were a rollercoaster of emotions. It was hands
down the most challenging thing I have ever had to face and I can think of few
things that would be harder.

I am not alone in this experience,
however. This experience happens more often than we’d like to hope. Dealing
with the grief and other emotions that comes along with hearing your child’s
diagnosis can be very challenging. So where do we turn for help? I have found a
wonderful site that discusses how to deal with having a child with a
disability, and I would like to share it with you. Not only so that parents who
are having to cope can understand how to deal, but also so that those who are
on the outside looking in can better understand what the parents are going
through and know how to help them.

Learning of your child’s disability
entails a mourning process, much like that of losing a loved one. Why you ask?
Well, I haven’t found any research to back it up, but my theory is that the
grieving happens because the parent really has lost something, be it their
hopes and dreams for their children, their wishes to see their child grow up
healthy, or a vast array of other things. But either way, the process is similar
and there are several stages that a parent might find themselves going through.
First is shock at the initial news. This may show itself in the form of
confusion or a feeling of being overwhelmed.

Next, and most obviously is
sadness. Sadness is sometimes given a negative implication but it is very
necessary to the process and helps the mourner to move on. It is also not to be
confused with depression. Depression impedes the likelihood of moving forward,
while sadness is a release of emotion that is necessary to moving forward.

After sadness, a person may find
themselves angry. Whom the anger is directed at can vary from case to case, and
unfortunately, sometimes that anger is focused on close loved one.

Next, many parents go through a
stage of denial. They do not want to hear the diagnosis of their child, so they
don’t. Like anger, this reaction is not voluntary. It happens as a defense
mechanism that allows them to get through such a horrible time.

Loneliness is the next stage. It is
easy to feel isolated when everyone around you has healthy children and you
don’t. I remember feeling like the only parent who had a child in the Vanderbilt
NICU, even though every day I walked by the board in the lobby that read
“Babies in the NICU today: 77” and passed at least ten rooms with occupied
cribs. I also remember feeling like no one would understand if I tried to talk
to them. Of course, neither of these was true and it didn’t make sense for me
to feel this way, but I couldn’t help it.

Finally and hopefully, acceptance
will come. This doesn’t mean that you give up and let the cards fall where they
may. It doesn’t mean that you let your child fall by the way side because that
is just what happens to children with that disability. It means you are ready
to stand up and advocate for your child. It means that you have realized that
you are strong enough to handle the challenges that will come with raising a
child with a disability.

The
key to getting through this process successfully is time. It is a process that
happens over a period of time and in the course of events that begin the
journey of raising a child with a disability.

I would like for you to understand
the importance of recognizing this mourning process. When a grieving person is
angry and you feel like turning away from such an unmanageable person, that is
when they need friends and loved ones to hold close and comfort them. When
someone is mourning and you can’t understand their feelings and thoughts, it’s
not necessary that you understand, only that you be there for them when they
need you. Please realize that they are mourning and dealing with their pain as
best they can, and they need people to support them and help get them through. It
is vital! It may seem like nothing you say is getting through to them or making
a difference, and it may not be at that moment, but I assure you, down the road
when they remember the kind words you spoke to them, trust me, it will make a difference.

I
have discussed only the beginning of the journey that is raising a child with a
disability. Next time, I would like to discuss the importance of caring for the
caregiver of a child with a disability and further discuss a healthy and
proactive management of raising a child with a disability andresources that parents can turn to for help.
If you have any ideas, comments, or questions, as always, please e-mail me at laceybuchanan@gmail.com. Thank you
for the opportunity to share my thoughts with you!

To end, I’d like to share a quote I
recently stumbled upon and I hope it inspires you as it has inspired me: You
were given this life because you are strong enough to live it.

1 comment:

Thank you for posting this. Parents need this. I am the mother of a disabled child. My child does not have a physical disability, and it didn't show up for several years after his birth. My son has a psychiatric disability. He is severely bipolar and ADHD. He's 10 now, but when he was 8, we had to hospitalize him for psychosis. It has meant years now of medication changes, psychotic tantrums and violent agression toward teachers and other children. It's scary and it's isolating--and it's no different than what you're going through. And I love what you wrote about the mourning process. It's so true! I mourned for quite a while, because my little one appeared to be perfect when he was born, and somewhere along the line, that happy little boy was lost. But I learned something the day I had to leave him in the hospital. A friend told me that God had given him to me because he trusted me to care for him. You, Lacy, must be an extraordinary woman for God to entrust Christian's care to you. God bless and Godspeed!

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I am a Christian, mother, wife, daughter, aunt, sister, and friend to some amazing people. I am a student at Nashville School of Law. I work at a daycare. I am passionate about disability advocacy and education.