This is self-realization. This is me claiming my own power. I try my best to internalize my pain, sadness, guilt, and self-doubt. But I have begun to realize that is the wrong thing to do. I deserve support and love, but I have not been asking for it. I understand loved ones get sick, relationships end, hearts are broken, and change is inevitable. But it doesn't mean I haven't been struggling.

I have decided this approaching 28th year of my trip around the sun will be about one thing: authenticity. I lose myself in my relationships(romantic or otherwise), I allow myself to be taken advantage of, dismissed, and let fear of loss overtake my life.

I'm done soaking my soul in the superficial. I'm through with putting on a good face in a painful situation. If you do not like me, somewhere down the line you have chosen a "side", I rub you the wrong way or I annoy you, then goodbye. You may leave no questions asked. Goodbye and I wish you well on your journey. I hope I have added something positive to your life. At the very least gave you a better haircut..

I have tried to make myself small and meek. It doesn't work. Because I am loud, powerful, silly, and challenging. I don't want to change these things anymore. I want to embrace it and run with it. I want to be loved for the things I am and to be supported to grow into the things I need to become. I am embracing my authentic self and learning that it's okay to be selfish.

I am taking back my narrative. I am powerful. I am beautiful. So, is Rue.