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THE DIARY OF A CHICK WHO WALKED AWAY FROM ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS (THE CULT)

Go-Go Rach once was a girl whose world was controlled by the idea that she was POWERLESS. After a chain of events, she realized she'd been lied to. Now she does whatever she wants, whenever she wants, with whomever she chooses to do it with.

Her blog chronicles the horrors she experienced in the halls of Alcoholics Anonymous (THE CULT) and the wonderful things she does now that she's escaped. *IF SHE BIT HER TONGUE ANY LONGER, IT WOULD BLEED!*

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

THEY KNOW...

HIYA PEEPS!

Howsit? I feel like I've been away forever; it's only been a few days. I love yous and my blog. I miss hanging out with you guys all the time. SO MUCH. I'm gonna try to make a video tomorrow or the next day. I dyed my hair a funky color by mistake. It's fixed. So, fingas crossed, the light is good...

I'm grateful for my new position. I found out today my title is ACCOUNT MANGER. Pretty frickin' saweet, huh? I'm working for a really great firm for great people, with great people. Truly, I couldn't be more pleased. I plan on staying for a while, and I really hope they'll keep me. That is why I am a little upset at the moment because news of my blog has been leaked.

Truth be told, I mentioned it. It was quite innocent, really. I spilled it during my interview when my boss asked me about my Internet/computer knowledge. I am proud of the of this blog, so I didn't even think about the content when I told him WITH PRIDE a little about it. Of course, I said it is very controversial, being against A.A., and all.

He said he worked in a treatment center and agrees with me that POWERLESSNESS IS A LIE THAT SUCKS ASS. I made it clear to him that it would be hard to find, unless you know my handle, since I keep everything separate, usually.

Assuming that would be the end of it, I wasn't worried. Until he mentioned I have a blog that has porn (er, that was a joke) during a staff meeting. Of course, people asked about it, and I did not lie. I explained the Go-Go Rach persona and the content, then gave a few people my URL. YUP I DID. I believe what happened to me in THE ROOMS was wrong and I want to STOP IT from happening to others. I can't waiver, or hide from anyone.

How could I call myself an ACTIVIST if I keep it a secret? I live like I mean it and PRACTICE WHAT I PREACH. My message is too important for me to shrink before anyone.

For a minute, I got scared. I thought, MCJESUS, what the hell was I thinking? Now they will find out about my past. That may not be good. SHIT. What if I get fired? What to do? What to do?

I have to ask myself why on earth I would do something so stupid, when I SHOULD not have said it?

Then, I thought about all the people who have come forward about what happened to them in THE CULT. They need and deserve a voice, I believe I am here to give it to them. I have to give it to them. I have to and I want to. Plus, who knows who they know? Maybe one of my co-workers will think twice about what they are doing before shoving someone they love into THE CULT.

Maybe I should not have said anything, but I would be a sell out if I held back. CHANGE NEEDS TO HAPPEN. It won't if I stay quiet, or ashamed, especially since I'm not. In fact, I am quite proud of myself and what we're doing. The past is the past. I am WHOLE. I would never do any of the things I've talked about here again, because I have MYSELF and MY LIFE back. I make my choices today, based on LOVING myself. I gotta stand by my decision.

It is what it is. I hope I don't lose my job because I LOVE IT and I am a killla sales person. It would suck if I was fired, but it would suck more if I kept my mouth shut. So, I'll keep ya posted 'cuz THEY KNOW...

My Tolstoy Has Gone To Heaven

COMMENTS POLICY

You people are ill equipped to contribute to any intelligent conversation on my site, as long as you subscribe to dogma and lies.

Your comments are trite and boring and do not belong here.

Also, I will not allow you to assault my readers with the filth and perversion you call "well."

Please Note: I did not ask for your advice, yet you keep coming back in your precious free time away from meetings as a way to indulge the feelings you used to drink or drug over.

I encourage you to get some authentic help with your issues so you may get to the bottom of why you've replaced your substance abuse with the incessant need to troll the internet for places to spew your insecurities and rage.

Why bother with such a waste of time?

Some are sicker than others.

I do not welcome, nor appreciate your obsession with me.

I put up with your insanity for much too long as a member of Alcoholics Anonymous. I have a right to protect myself from those of you who insist on doing it here.

Go-Go away now and get some help before you find yourself in jail, dead or in an institution.

With love and an epic internet hug.

I do hope you feel better soon.

Go-Go Rach

SOMEONE WHO HATES YOU NORMALLY DOES FOR ONE OF THREE REASONS. THEY EITHER SEE YOU AS A THREAT, THEY HATE THEMSELVES, OR THEY WANT TO BE *YOU!*

*SMOOCH*

Thanks for stopping by. I've got *MAD LOVE* FOR YA. XXX Go-Go Rach

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HEADS UP, PEOPLE!

THIS IS THE DEAL.

THE SUBSTANCE IS *NOT* THE PROBLEM.

The *REAL* issue is whatever pain the abuser needs to kill.

The substance of choice works (until it doesn't).

If we take the pain out of the equation, substance abuse will disappear.

POWERLESSNESS is a billion dollar business that has spread across our hearts and minds like a venom.

The "disease concept" kills people, lives and families every single day.

Labels LIE.

Ask "WHY?"

It's your life.

How do you want to remember it?

Don't get "sober."

Get WELL.

Revolutionary Recovery, baby!

Go-Go Rach Says:

ONE SPOKE.THEN, ANOTHER SPOKE.WE ALL SPOKE.AND IT STOPPED.

CHANGE IS COMING.

*BUCKLE UP*

"There's nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and open a vein." Walter Wellesley "Red" Smith

Get Me

I am a grown woman with a foul mouth, sharp wit, and lots of stories to tell. I will never apologize for what I write, or how I write about what interests me.

Life is not all roses and butterflies; I am fascinated by the darker side of it and the fucked up shit people do to each other in the name of "love."

I find it incredibly humorous when people read my work (over and over), then bitch about it, as if I have, somehow, tricked them about my content.

Finally, this blog is not about healing for me. I've moved well beyond the need or expectation that I might heal from the way I've been betrayed.

There is no healing from the shit I've been through.

Instead, I choose to embrace and accept the pain as a vital and appreciated part of myself.

I am a writer. I write. It's what I do and will continue to do until I take my last breath.

Until that time I will always call to the carpet the injustices I see via stories about the perpetrators. If you don't like it, don't read it.

If we behaved better, I would have nothing to write about.

That's What's Up.

“Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing. Use the pain as fuel, as a reminder of your strength.” August Wilson

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"First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win." Mahatma Gandhi