Bipolar and can't take it anymore!

Over the past few days things have been going steadily downhill for me. I'm becoming more and more depressed everyday. My head is feeling so fuzzy and I can't think straight and even though good things are happening for me (and I KNOW they are good things) I just can't feel it. I can't feel the happiness.

All I want is for this pain to stop. I'm so sick of living like this, up one week, down the next week. It is mentally and physically draining. I just want to sleep and never wake up. I'm so tired of this life, I am just staring off into space, don't want to be around people and basically I just want to die.

I can sympathise with you on that one. For years I've had good things happen to me, yet not being able to feel the happyness. Now is the time to reach out for professional support. Tell your pdoc how you are feeling. You may need a slight med adjustment. Are you under any new stress as of late? Sometimes new stress (even though it seems new and healthy) can often trigger these numb feelings for me.

Been on meds for a few years now so doubt that would have anything to do with it and I get this fuzziness when I'm severally depressed but I don't understand why. There are no new stresses in my life really but there is alot of tension in my house at the moment so maybe that has something to do with it?