Mother May I

21 January, 2009 - 1:41pm — MrBlueSky

My mother is a bitch I have decided. And I often feel she doesn't really 'get' me. Being 16 and all I suppose this is natural. It's not that she doesn't care and stuff and we do have some things in common. I don't think she has realized this but one reason I think there's now more space between us is my brother, in a somewhat indirect way. You see my brother is a few years older than me. My brother and her argued a lot, about everything, through the whole teenage period. And I pretty much heard everything.

So when the same time came for me I subconsciously decided that rather than coming up against a brick wall like my brother I took the easier option. In a word i lied. She is somewhat conservative when it comes to certain topics you, sex, alcohol, language etc. Not being gay though surprisingly. She would be quite horrified I imagine. She would not like fact that once when i was 15 I got with a guy who was 21. No. Or the fact that I occasionally skip school to go shopping and drink in the park. Or that I once went up our beach house with my then bf and we did in my parent's bed all night. Or that when I went to see The Dark Knight with that "lovely boy" I missed most of the movie either because my tongue was down his throat or we were in a toilet cubicle.

These things are extremes to some degree I'll admit but still they're really just the tip of the iceberg. I must admit often now I'll just lie even to save a 30 second explanation, even if once that's done she wouldn't mind at all. It really does make me feel so very free sometimes to know that they might have no idea at all of where I am and what I'm doing.

I suppose a side effect of this is that some of the time at least my mother (and even more often my father) have hardly any idea of what's actually going on in my life. This will always cause some tension I suppose.

Comments

1. Parents usually know more than you think, just by osmosis.
2. Parents want to know more about their teenagers than would actually be good for them.

As long as you don't become a compulsive liar, I see no harm in sparing your parents the details of your tongue's itinerary. Some day you may want to come out to them, but that's for you to decide. Just don't get hooked on crank or wind up in prison please.