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Just some stuff and updates and bullet points

Hilariously we appear to be the local sake experts now. We're taking people to the bar all the time and giving advice. I'm really hoping the bartender starts paying a finders fee though, this ain't cheap. Loaning me Japanese movies doesn't count.

The strangest things remind me of Ed and cause me to get all weepy. Today's culprit: the end of the Fellowship of the Ring (which we were rewatching with book group, cause why not?) where Boromir dies and Aragorn kisses his forehead.

On a somewhat related note, I've been wondering if my increased anxiety and heartburn is somehow related to Ed's passing. I was terribly depressed and drank quite a bit, maybe I fucked up my mind and stomach. Eh, it's more likely just the case with the heartburn that I'm just falling apart as I get older and I've always had bouts of anxiety over various things.

When we were at Kinokuniya yesterday I just broke down and bought Redline (you might remember me rambling about it two weeks ago). Like FLCL it falls into this category of thing that I must buy because it is stuck in my head. Also, I'm curious if I can correctly peg who will and won't like it.

Despite the fact I have several unplayed video games, now that I sent a bundle off to Laceblade all I want to do is play those ones again. Like I have any spare time right now.

Work continues to be super busy, but my anxiety about it isn't as bad any more. Though I am more likely to veg out when I get home, which has put me behind on budgeting, cleaning, and Japanese homework.

Wrdnrd and I watched all of Honey & Clover over the past two weeks. That left me a bit melancholy for my dorm life. Definitely should have watched it earlier in the day so we could have had an upbeat movie chaser.

Found out one of our book group hosts has a nicely stocked liquor cabinet. I expect I may be a bit more loquacious next time we're over.

Current identified heartburn triggers: drinking too much of too many things, the delicious saag paneer from the place around the corner, about 2/3rds of the pizzas I've had (usually meaty ones), thinking "oh hey, my heartburn isn't bugging me right now".

Oddly enough, the longer I have this heartburn the more normal the symptoms become. The type and location of the pain now seems much more like what most people describe.

On my doctor's advice I'm working out a bit again, even if it's just a little bit at night. I have managed to go almost a week without hurting myself, a new record I think.

I flicked my fingers a couple nights ago to get some sake off and slammed them into the cup I was holding in the other hand hard enough to break the skin and draw a fair bit of blood. I'm an idiot.

Ed's not very Boromir-like, tho'. The Ring woulda been too much trouble for him. He's more an Ent -- a Kibble Ent. "Listen, i just want peace and to be left alone, OH MY GOD YOU TOUCHED MY KIBBLE I KILL YOU NOW."