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What is the purpose of our existence if we can’t be true to ourselves?! Are we created to be made – or just to be?

The answers have always been simple, it’s the quest that determines our strength and persistence. It takes courage to remain loyal to yourself and avoid man-made distortions. Living in the Middle-east is uneasy and being a female who happened to be different makes it worse. Choosing to be true to yourself is SUICIDAL.

Over time everything changes. You get to learn that traditions are volatile. Self-discovery is essential, challenging society and questioning dogma are the noblest acts. Nevertheless, it is not an easy journey. The cattle will stand out to you, vilify and attack you. They will delude you to believe that there is no choice and that we are merely owned. The path to enlightenment is loaded with thorns, but what is bliss if not for the struggle.

We rant and whine “Life is cruel” but life has disowned us long ago. Life is not to blame, it’s what we made out of life.

They established laws to mold societies and shape future. It is your choice, will you lose yourself to conformity or seize your liberty?

Limits are an illusion, our strength is infinite and freedom lies in resistance.

I wanted to call my piece “born in Egypt” but I found “made in Egypt” more appropriate, eventually in this country we are more of “made” NOT “born”; born suggests living with free will and free will is the mother of sins where I come from.

Usually I end every year with positive thoughts and bright new year resolution, but who am I fooling, we all survive here with a manual of terms and conditions…. and once you decide to oppose the herd, you become a misfit like me.

Let me introduce the external shell, on a professional level I am doing pretty well and thankfully, my lifetime war with family and society ended up with victory. But the price of where I am and who I am was/remains unbearable, for I decided to be my true self and speak out loud in a country that despises freedom, let alone a woman who speaks of freedom.

I am angry.

I am full of rage, I can no longer handle the way this society perceives me. I am tired of explaining and expressing that I might be human after all. I am severely sick from hearing “Rana, regardless of your eccentricity and odd thoughts, you are good – genuine -trustworthy and supportive.” these statements don’t make me feel proud, it suffocates me, it’s like a razor blade piercing each and every ounce of hope that I create from shattered pieces to hold on, survive…. Breathe.

I am dissapointed

Once upon a time there was a revolution, we all had hope, we live in an utopic delusion – we sensed euphoria and we failed to understand that it’s just momentarily.

Our hopes and dreams faded because of everything we failed to understand. Not only an oppressive rooted regime – but our corrupt morals, fragile ethics and HYPOCRISY.

How did we manage to fool ourselves? Change? Freedom? Are you kidding me? How could we expect change when we barley face ourselves with our misfortunes. When we breath hypocrisy, when we betray everyone even ourselves on daily bases?

How could you speak of freedom when you still believe that atheists, agnostics etc. should be sentenced to death? What part of the word “freedom” allows you to harass me just because I am different, how could you speak of human rights when you insult, hurt, mislead dozens of people for nothing other than personal reason rooted in your distort mind.

How am I writing all of this while I hurt many people along the way due to the circus in my mind and the traumas I can’t defeat yet. I might have not hurt anyone “intentionally” but I did by every mean during the war with myself. I am as corrupt…

I am numb

I have lost touch with my feelings, 2015 is such an enlightenment. I got to see the raw ugly image of my society, my people… I wonder why am I surprised? Am I that naive?

However, being numb is pretty useful my friends. I don’t get shocked from daily sexual and verbal harassment anymore, I just live with it – After all, I am an Egyptian pierced and tattooed, I am definitely asking for it, if I was a foreigner then I wouldn’t be asking for this but being Egyptian and different equates and invitation for everyone to occupy my body or at least pierce my brain… What’s the big deal anyway?

Someone told me few days ago that I “escape” from my emotions and I runaway from feelings… Seriously! Why is it hard to absorb my numbness… Live with it, I am not there….

If you live in a country where people resist Police and military abuse and torture but they don’t have the guts to speak of domestic violence and child abuse. What change are you expecting?

If you live in a country where many people would fight sexual harassment but wouldn’t dare to open topics like incest and parental abuse. How can we forge change?

If we live in a country where people still consider parenthood as a sacred institution and domestic violence is god given right, how the fuck will we change anything?

If we are living in a country where men are granted to fool around and cheat while women would be tortured to death in the name of honor. Will we ever witness critical change?

Bottom line

“There can’t be large scale revolution until there’s a revolution on an individual level”

Disclaimer: Jihadi+ Content. This is a real fatwa and it is not April’s fool. Yes, beautiful it is real, Middle East fanatics will cease to surprise you every day.

Today I came across a brilliant video of a Muslim cleric, who clearly supports LCBT rights. The very unique cleric speaks about a special Fatwa which allows homosexuality during the Jihadi trainings. You know a very improved martyrdom method, in which you widen your anus by anal activity exchanged with your fellow Jihadi pals. Hallelujah queers, who wants to join the parade?!

The brilliant Fatwa was issued on Lions of Sunna internet forum, responding to a Jihadi who askedSheik Abu Dimaa Al-Qassab for an advice regarding committing suicidal operation through this method. The Jihadi said ” They had invented a new form of suicidal operations – explosive capsules are inserted into your anus. In order to train for this method of Jihad, you must engage in anal activity for a period of time, in order to widen your anus to insert the capsules, my question is whether I should allow the Jihadis to f**** me for training purposes”

The extraordinary Sheik braised allah and said “In principle, sodomy is forbidden. However, Jihad is more important. It is the pinnacle of Islam. If sodomy is the only way to reach this pinnacle of Islam, then there is no harm in it. Following the rule of “necessity makes the forbidden permissible”. Therefore, you must be sodomized… Afterwards, you must ask Allah for forgiveness. Know, my son, that Allah resurrects Jihadis on Judgment Day on the basis of their intentions. Allah willing, your intention is to support Islam. May Allah include you among those who heed His call.” Accordingly and in the spirit of Jihad, and highlighting that necessity makes the forbidden permissible, I invented a list of the things we can do following the former rules (To be confirmed after fatwa from the fabulous, the one and only Abu Dimaa Al-Qassab)

Halal Sex – We should be allowed to sleep with foreigners without marriage in order to monitor information about the western infidels, more importantly, to seduce them enough to join Islam. It is a (win – win) situation.

Halal Bisexuality – We should be engaged in threesome activities with western infidels for monitoring and spying purposes.

Halal Orgy – Orgy activities should also be allowed in terms of greater monitoring, sucking… energy of the infidels, consuming their physique..

Halal Homosexuality – Gay activities should be allowed, not only with fellow Jihadis but also western infidels, but maybe this time we can use more TOP Jihadis to widen the infidels anus and shove explosives in their ass!

Halal Dancing – You know belly dancing is exotic, in addition to we can add cameras and whatever monitoring equipments we might have, to the belly dancing outfit 😉

Halal Alcohol – Yeah babe! I mean it’s known that Beer after Whiskey is risky – Tequila after Beer is Queer and Beer before Wine is fine 😉 So Let’s get the western infidels drunk and recruit them to our end. Unfortunately, they won’t enjoy drinking unless we have a couple of drinks, I won’t mix alcohol I promise. I am very well trained to avoid hangovers.

The list goes on and on but I included the stuff that are forbidden from us Arabs just because we are not engaged in a Jihadi tribe, but come on! Everyone can do Jihad in their own way. For example, my Jihad is mocking your bullshit, exposing your sexual suppression.

Why so serious dude? Why would you excuse being gay for Jihad and use everyone’s asses for this concern, just come out of the closet and you will find those who supports your right to fuck or be fucked!!!

One final question: I wonder if Jihadi men went to heaven and meet the 70 virgins, will they enjoy sex with them, or they will request toys and stuff, you know strap-ons. Link to original article and video: http://fellowshipoftheminds.com/2012/07/31/sodomy-widens-your-anus-for-jihad/