Noooo!

It was early, but I'd slept a lot since we got back from Hawaii. Not only was I recovering from a head wound, one I didn't remember how I got, but everyone else had told me it's because I was shot. I remembered pretty much everything else, or at least I believed I did. Tammy seemed excited I was home, and I was doing my best to be the best mother I could be for her. I loved her. I knew I always had, despite leaving her with Iris.

I tossed on the couch in my sleep. Dreaming of what happened that night. I dreamt about it a lot. Leaving Dante. Walking into the city... A gun and then--

"Nooooo!"

I screamed, bolting upright on the couch. That was all I ever remembered. I always woke up at that point, screaming.

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Thu Jan 10, 2013 9:53 pm

I sat up quickly, my breathing heavy as I wrapped my arms around Bianca. "Shh, beautiful. It's just me.. shh.." I kissed her head. "You're okay. You're safe.. you're with me and our daughter's asleep in her room.. shhh." I hugged her tightly to me, kissing her forehead as I did. "Shh, it's okay." She woke me up a lot with her fear. It killed me that I couldn't fix it. That I couldn't fix what had happened. "I love you.."

The movie had been over, I don't know how long, but we were still laying on the couch. He must have fallen asleep as well, because I could tell I had scared him when I had screamed out. I had scared myself. Inhaling deeply, I relaxed back into his arms, eyes closed tight and doing my best to relax.

"I'm sorry," I swallowed, my breathing heavy even if I was trying to relax. "I'm ok. I am."

I held on to him tightly, not wanting him to let me go. I knew he wouldn't, and I knew what he was telling me was true, but it always take me forever to calm down after that nightmare.

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Thu Jan 10, 2013 10:50 pm

"Don't be sorry." I murmured against her hair as I smoothed a hand down her back. "You're fine. You have no reason to be sorry." I leaned her head back just a smidge and pressed a kiss to her lips. "Was it.. a dream about that night again?"

My head barely nodded, but at least I was calming down now, thankful to have Dante's arms around me.

"Yes," I barely whispered. "I can't get past it. And it always ends in the same spot. I see the gun and the loud--" I sobbed silently, unable to say gunshot. I could barely think the word, let alone say it.

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Thu Jan 10, 2013 11:14 pm

"It's okay. I'm so sorry I wasn't..." I closed my eyes. "It's okay, baby. I love you. And it's over now.. you're safe. You'll ALWAYS be safe with me. Always." I kissed her head. "Maybe we should.. go to counseling?" And yes I had said we. It could do us both some good.

"As long as it's us," I told him, shaking my head only slightly. "I wouldn't be able to do it alone."

I didn't want to relive it, but I knew if I didn't sooner or later, it was going to bother me forever. And I didn't want it to hurt Dante, but what I was going through was hurting him already. I opened my eyes and looked around.

"Tammy's asleep?" I inhaled deeply, wiping my eyes softly. "Maybe we should go to bed too. Don't need to sleep on the couch"

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Sat Jan 12, 2013 12:47 am

"Yeah, she got sleepy during the movie and asked if I'd take her to bed. I didn't want to wake you so I walked her up there. She hasn't been up there long. We can lay here.. we don't have to go to bed. We're fine right here.. as long as you're comfortable I am.." I kissed her lips. "Are you feeling a little better?"

I nodded relaxing more against him. I didn't want to think anymore about my dream. I just wanted to be us. If he wanted to stay here, I was good with that. Besides, I hated sleeping. I was always afraid I'd have the nightmare again.

"Yes. We can stay here. Just keep me awake, please."

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Sat Jan 12, 2013 1:15 am

"What would you like to do? You hungry? I can whip us up something real fast? And then we can watch a movie?"

Standing, I grabbed his hand and walked with him to the kitchen with him. Hopping up on the counter, I tried to act as though I was ok. I knew he knew I wasn't, and I was sure he knew I didn't want to dwell on things. I just wanted to eat.

"What you gonna make me?"

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Sun Jan 13, 2013 1:31 am

"Hmm, that depends what you in the mood for?" I asked, opening the fridge.

I thought about it for a moment, crossing one leg over the other, making my nightgown slide up a bit.

"Do we have strawberries? And ice cream?"

I smiled. I knew it was cold, but we had a warm house, and we had our own body heat, snuggled underneath a blanket. It was what I really wanted.

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Sun Jan 13, 2013 3:09 am

"Mmm, you always make the best choices." I opened the fridge, pulling the strawberries and ice cream out before setting it down on the counter next to her, letting my lips brush over her bottom lip as I opened the ice cream box, slid a giant serving spoon out of the holder behind her and dipped it in, bringing it up toward her lips. "Open up.." I grinned.

I knew I was blushing, but that's what he did to me. He'd always do it to me. Opening up, I took the bite, closing my eyes and savoring the taste.

"Mmmm, soooo good."

Opening my eyes, I smiled at him, softly.

"I love you, babe. Per sempre."

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Sun Jan 13, 2013 4:12 am

I felt my cock lurch at her lips moving against the spoon but didn't utter a word of it. "I love you too, beautiful." I said, picking up a strawberry and feeding it to her after I licked a little bit of the ice cream off her bottom lip.

I couldn't help but moan softly. I loved when he did that, food on my lip or not.

"Mmm, Dante."

Opening my eyes, I looked at him, uncrossing my legs and sliding so I could wrap them around him. Picking up a strawberry, I rolled it in the ice cream, letting it get coated in ice cream before holding it up to his lips.

"For you..."

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Sun Jan 13, 2013 4:56 am

I leaned forward, taking a soft bite, moaning as I swallowed it. "Thank you, Bianca." I said, letting my harden cock be known between her legs.

I couldn't help but moan myself, feeling his cock at my core. I pushed myself more against him, letting him know I wanted it.

"More?"

I didn't want more ice cream. What I wanted was for him to push me back over this counter and make love to me, but if he wanted a little more foreplay, I could do so. Besides, foreplay was really good. I let my finger dip into the ice cream, scooping up some on my finger and holding it up to his lips.

"Open?"

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Mon Jan 14, 2013 5:15 am

I slid my mouth over her finger before tugging her closer, the container full of strawberries hitting my arm and sliding off on the floor, sending strawberries all over the place. I tugged at her pants quickly, pulling the panties with it as I slid my own down. I had to have her. Here and now. "I want you!" I slid her to the edge some, slamming hard into her, groaning in pleasure.

I smiled, even though he'd surprised me. Yes, I knew he wanted me, but not this badly, not as much as I wanted him. I gripped at his biceps, moaning out almost breathless. We'd both been recovering from the hurricane, and we hadn't been able to be so rash with each other. It felt so good, so perfect. I couldn't remember the last time it felt so amazing, and every time was indescribable.

"Dante!"

I gasped. We had a little girl upstairs to be quit for, but Dante always made me scream so loud. No one could make me feel the way he does. I slid my hands up his arms and over his shoulders to the back of his neck and up into his hair.

"Oh!"

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Mon Jan 14, 2013 9:58 pm

"Bianca," I grunted, lifting her up off the counter and placing her back on the kitchen table, noticing and loving thankfully that that was easier, because I still was sore. So I moved at a quicker speed, the table making a soft squeak each time I moved. God, I had loved and missed the hell out of her.

I gripped at the table, arching my body to him so he could fill me even more. Nothing was like making love to him. Nothing ever. I loved him more than anything and I felt soo good every time he touched me, and making love to him was so incredible. I knew it would always be.

"Dante!"

I gasped out.

"Yes! Oh, YES! Dante!"

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Subject: Re: Noooo! Tue Jan 15, 2013 12:10 am

I pounded harder, and felt my balls tighten before I exploded inside her. Harder than I could ever imagine. I had needed this. Her.. so badly. And it felt so good. I kissed her shoulder. "I love you, Bianca. I love you so much." I whispered before kissing her lips.

I laid with him there, enjoying the feeling of the culmination of our love, my orgasm and him exploding deep inside me, then him throbbing inside me. There was nothing like any of this. Nothing in the world. I kissed him again, my hands lazily, and tiredly, gliding over his back, whispering against his lips.

"I love you, Dante. So very much."

I just wanted to lay here with him, no matter how uncomfortable the table was, and enjoy this, but we had a little girl sleeping asleep, and there was no telling if she would wake up because she needed something, or she had heard our lovemaking and come to see what it was. I didn't want to move, not just yet, but I knew we'd have to soon. I kept my legs wrapped around his waist and my hands resting tiredly on his back.