Not being the best, ( or “having” to be the best) at everything doesn’t mean you are mediocre or lazy, or that you have no ambition. It just means you have learned to stop comparing yourself with others and simply do the very best that YOU can in everything you undertake to achieve.

By having to be the best at everything, we leave ourselves open to frustration and disappointment and eventually loose the will to keep trying.

As long as we continue to strive for our OWN “best” in all things, we ARE actually the best we can be. That is all that should concern us. It also leaves us much more content with our lives and at peace with ourselves – and of course healthier on all levels.

Assistance Along the Journey versus Going It Alone-Powerful Message in a Dream

“When from our better selves we have too long been parted…how gracious, how benign is solitude”

The above is a quote by Wordsworth which I read last night in a book I am reading . I had actually woken in the middle of night, unable to fall back to sleep. When this happens to me, I don’t fight it, and usually get up to read until I feel sleepy again. This quote was used in the book, and after reading it, DID go back to sleep, only to find myself in the following dream, which kept recurring until I woke up just now, several hours later.

The dream:

Riding along in a bus and knowing where I have to go. The bus is going through a familiar area and I know where he must turn to get me to where I have to go (a place called givat Chen which in Hebrew means, loosely translated: “charming hill”). As he comes to the corner where he must turn right to get me there, I get up to get ready to get off, but then he passes that corner and keeps going straight. I KNEW I should have rang the buzzer and gotten off right away to continue the short journey to my desired place alone, but my mind told me “Sit down and wait. Perhaps he knows an easier way of getting there. Let him continue to take you”. As he drove further and further away from my desired location, I began to realize that something was wrong, but hesitated to question him, not wanting to bother him, or the other passengers. I eventually found myself so far from where I needed to be, that I DID go and speak to him, only to be told that he has no idea where the place is I am talking about, and it was never part of the route. I became flustered, and angry and frustrated and began shouting and at one point he yelled back at me but the other passengers just asked me to be quiet so that he could concentrate on his job of getting THEM to their desired destinations, and telling me I could not blame him for my not paying attention and knowing when to get off.

– just as I sat down on the bus and realized I would have to find my own way back, no matter how difficult it was, no matter how lost I was or no matter how far away I now was from my desired destination…I woke up!

There are times when we all need assistance. When we are so far away from the place we know we want to be, that we need help getting closer to that path along the journey.

It may be from a teacher, guru, healer, doctor, even friend, relative or relationship. When you find the assistance you need, it is a wonderful blessing and should be accepted with gratitude and joy. But you must also know when you have been taken as close to your own path as possible by another person…when you see you have come as far as you can with assistance, and then don’t be afraid to ‘get off”…don’t hesitate or you will be taken very far astray. You can always return to the place you wanted to be originally, but it will then take that much longer and require that much more effort and energy .

Knowing your own strength and trusting your own instincts will always keep you as close as possible to your own truth…assistance is needed at times along the way…no one can do it all by themselves, but we must also be alert at all times to the signs that we have gone as far as we can with the help of someone else and know when to once again go it alone.

Know which stop on the bus route is as close to your destination as the bus is going to get you and GET OFF. Walk the rest of the way on your own. Don’t hesitate-when you know for sure that this is the place, don’t think that perhaps there is a shorter or easier route. Let your own knowing guide you from there…And if you do NOT listen to your own inner voice, never blame someone else for taking you astray!!

The days move along and although the weather here has turned from clear to cloudy, my own inner “weather” is getting brighter and clearer with each day. I woke up very early this morning from an intense dream sequence, with the following insight and further clarity into the issue of redefining myself after loss.

Just an aside here…I also realized that in addition to the losses mentioned in the previous post, there was another situation of loss over that short 6 month period, one no less cutting and painful than the loss of my Mother or my love. I had traveled back to the States after a 37 year absence, never expecting to find the intense emotional upheaval which was the result of this visit. What I understood during my visit, was that I had lost something over all those years which I had never considered as something that COULD be lost, because I never thought of my life with, or without it. I was content with my family and friends in my new country and never once regretted having left home for a foreign land.

But it seems as if this was a mistake. I realized while there, and am now feeling the effects months later, that when I chose to leave the States, what I lost was my original family!! Dear cousins. Aunts and uncles, who were always an intense part of my life while I lived there, even though I never realized it. And of course rediscovery of a beautiful sibling relationship was no less powerful. This loss is something which can never be recovered, and the deep pain I feel inside at realizing this, is something which I doubt I will ever come to terms with. I spent deeply rewarding and beautiful hours, as well as deeply painful ones, with a few very special people there who know who they are, rediscovering myself, and even discovering for the first times parts of self. And now having reconnected with this “original family” , I find myself feeling the loss of it every single day.

And now back to this morning. My phone is still not working but I am sure this is part of the plan. Instead of talking to people and making plans for visiting, taking trips, etc., in addition to the overcast weather, it is easier for me to move inward and begin working there. I am not completely at peace with this idea right now and have been wondering for the past couple of days what I am afraid of finding there. I have asked in my prayers and meditation over the past couple of days to be able to release any fears I have regarding this process as well as expectations as to how it will move forward. Just allow it to flow. The overcast weather puts a further damper on my spirits but again is an incentive to stay close to home and go inward.

And then the insights of this morning…regarding redefining roles with the death of parents. When our parents are gone, WE become the family “elder”. We have to be careful not to allow this to color the way we picture ourselves.

Let me explain: I do not become suddenly “old” because I become and “elder”. My Indian friend reminded me of this yesterday. I was sitting at her house feeling really down and said “ I feel like an old lady this trip – tired, no energy, etc.” She said that when our parents are alive we can still feel young but when they are gone we begin to “be old”. It was a very clever thing to say and a wake up call for me to really begin thinking about what thoughts I have been having, what I have been saying verbally, without realizing it, and how deeply they have been effecting me on all levels, including physical! Just more food for thought along the way.

I realized that I need to get back in touch with my free spirit, with the child inside me. It is still there, still alive. It did not die along with my Mother! I have a lot of work to do and believe the panchakarma, which I begin on Monday, will help in this process as well.

And then I gratefully began my morning meditation, which revealed further issues…the things I was afraid of discovering…the emotions and feelings which I do not like to believe I am capable of: And what surfaced were feelings of anger, guilt and deep sadness, as well as regret. I called upon Archangel Michael, who is a powerful remover of negativity, to do a cleansing both inside me on all levels, as well as in my aura, to remove all of these negative emotions, wherever they may be blocked, and any others that I may not be aware of, to release them back as energies of love and light and then to fill me with pure white light of love, joy, healing, and contentment and to help me move forward in complete freedom from fear..

I am feeling lighter and less troubled as I sit and write this, and grateful for all the love and blessings I receive each and every day.

It has been quite some time since I’ve been here, and I will not try right now to bring this blog up to date with the events of the past 6 months or so…that I will do my best to accomplish over the next few weeks.
But yesterday, during my morning meditation, I was given the following guidance/message: “Start reading your blog randomly, on a daily basis, and begin posting to Facebook”!. Don’t quite understand the Facebook part but this evening I DID open my blog and begin to choose random posts.
The second one I chose was this:

After reading this post, I remembered a very recent reading I did for myself, just about 2 weeks ago, (on May 12th to be precise) which once again found me dealing with the issue of finding my soul mate. I thought it would be interesting to share it here as it is so similar to the previous one dealing with the same issue, from December 19, 2009. I continue to put my efforts into bringing this vision into reality, but there are times when my patience fail me and I need further support and encouragement. Which is precisely what happened here….

You can see the cards I chose 5 months ago by going to the link above. And here, with their message, are the cards I chose 2 weeks ago!. I was urged to check the cards during my morning meditation, right after realizing that May 12th is my father’s birthday (he passed away 3 1/2 years ago, but is still with me). I wished him a happy birthday and in reply he said to me: “It is now YOUR turn! – MAKE IT WORK!” (yes, he was shouting a little)…not quite understanding what he was referring to, I then followed the guidance I was given and opened the cards. Here they are:
LAXSHMI- BRIGHT FUTURE: Stop worrying-everything is going to be fine
MOTHER MARY – EXPECT A MIRACLE: Have Faith that your prayers have been heard and are being answered
ABUNDANTIA-PROSPERITY: The Universe is pouring its abundance out to you – be open to receiving

ISABELLA: Yes, the timing is right for this new venture – a happy outcome follows your positive expectations
ARCHANGEL URIEL: Your emotions are healing which enables you to open to greater love
CARESSA: You are at the end of a cycle in your life. Happiness awaits you now

And an extra card which fell out of the deck by itself:
ISAIAH: It is a good time to give birth to new ideas and situations in your life – I am watching over you, guiding you and protecting you during these changes.

Some of you may understand the cards as referring to a new business adventure, a new course of study, moving to a new home, finding a new job etc., but for me, this is just further affirmation that my moving forward in every way possible towards coming together with my soul mate, is precisely what I should be doing at this point in time.

I’ve begun putting all my energies into the soul mate issue for the first time.
After numerous dreams and messages over the past few weeks, even the book I first read upon my arrival, which I have had the intention of writing about but the time never seemed right until now (I will go back to it now and I can only imagine that the messages there now will be even more crystal clear to me than they were 2 months ago…then they were just hints to what was about to unfold for me), after my readings in Angel Medicine, and the initial steps I have taken this past week…I feel that for the first time jy intentions are pure and true and clear and focused, and that it is NOW the time for this to manifest itself. This morning, (it is now 7:30) I woke up after an extremely powerful dream about a lovely but surprising relationship between two seemingly completely incompatible people and decided it must be some sort of message for me as well….I was guided to choose a card to get further information. When I opened the deck of cards, (more…)

Reading the Angel Medicine book is proving to be a very powerful awakening for one of many things that I know deep inside but never connected with previously. In addition, I am receiving strong confirmations for my routine daily practices and healing “techniques” which I have come to practice by following guidance from my guides, angels and ascended masters over the years.
The more I am cleansed by the panchakarma, the more room there is for personal growth on deeper levels than ever before.
The book has written about the effects of sunlight and this connects up with what I learned so many years ago in Soul Love…of the sun being the soul of the universe and the immense power of sunlight in helping us connect, and stay connected with our soul’s needs. It also speaks of the importance for (more…)

I went to sleep last night with a general feeling of being at “loose ends” and with the earlier feelings of anger, frustration, fear and worry and not being able to wholly reconcile them as being related to dealings with the insurance companies. So before going to sleep I asked for direction and purpose – I have not written for a very long time and feeling the need to “find my way” again. I woke at 5 AM with the vivid scenes from a dream still in my head, and realized that the dream, the book I began reading 2 days ago, and the new understandings written about regarding my feelings and reactions in my earlier post of today, are all connected to the quote from the book by Cecelia Ahern in my last post which deals with getting lost in order to be found. Nothing in this life is by chance, but putting it all together into a big picture, is not always easy.

In the dream I was driving my car (which I also sold TODAY – once I released my fear of NOT being able to sell it!), and the road was undergoing major construction. I was so busy watching the messed up road in order to avoid obstacles, paying attention to what was wrong and focusing all my attention on the technical driving, that I did not really notice where I was going and when I finally did, I was completely lost and very far from the place I had intended to arrive at when I began my journey.

I thought about this as I came fully awake, and realized this was not necessarily a bad thing that had happened in the dream. It also is directly related to the book I am now reading: “Three Cups of Tea” by Greg Mortenson (one man’s mission to promote peace…one school at a time), as well as the quote in this recent post about getting lost:
(click here to follow link) LOST AND FOUND

In the beginning of the book, Mortenson describes his being so engrossed in the technicalities of his failed attempt to reach the summit of K2 – second highest peak in the world – that he never saw the truely amazing beauty of the landscape. Only after getting lost and almost dying did he take the time to see the big picture, and this getting lost and allowing himself to be “found” in an entirely unexpected place is what lead him to find his true life’s purpose.

So, when things seem to be going wrong, when it seems that obstacle after obstacle is blocking your chosen path, perhaps it is time to allow yourself to “get lost”, to relax into the confusion, and eventually find yourself moving along freely and joyfully on an entirely different path than you originally planned to follow. Life is full of miracles if we just let them happen!

Below a few favorite quotes related to the above:

In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.
– Janos Arany

“If you take your eyes off your goals,
all you see are obstacles.”

Don’t wait for your ship to come in. Row out to meet it.

There ain’t no cloud so thick that the sun ain’t shinin’ on t’other side.
– Rattlesnake, an 1870s mountain man

Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get run over if you just sit there.
– Will Rogers

One of the secrets of life is to make stepping-stones out of stumbling blocks.
– Jack Penn

Love
Jane

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I am a former American, living in Israel for the past 45 years. Mother of 6, grandmother of 16 ,healer, Reiki Master, Israeli folkdance enthusiast, enjoying the wonder, surprise and blessing of every step of the wonderful journey called “Life”.I have been living in India, Rishikesh to be exact, every year for the past 10 years – several months of each year – and it is indeed another part of my amazing journey.