Here are the unleashed pages of a sober chick in recovery. My journey (date of sobriety) began on June 13th, 2005. For 29 years of my life I was spiritually sick. Emotinally defeated by drunken black-outs, bulimic binging and purging episodes and self-mutilation, I finally surrendered.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Friends

Yesterday Mitch and I went to one of our good friend's wedding, WOW! He is a Jedi obssesor as we are and an oober geek like us! During the wedding the minister was speaking about Jesus and how Mark and Sarah asked for JC to be the center of their relationship. The commitment cerimony was so beautiful, I fought my tears back only because I did not want my make up to run. But seriously, I was feeling the serenity and power of two people commiting to one another touch my soul.

In my dark days I would be sooooooo pissed off that this minister would suggest any type of God-like idea to be the key, the center to their lives, marriage, and happiness. To me I felt the growth of my inner being on display with self yesterday as I have become to accept a God to my understanding. It is purely wonderful!

At the reception alcohol was EVERYWHERE. It was miraculous to say "no thank you" when offered a glass of some alcoholic beverage. It was nice to really be there for these friends that I love. Mark saw me at my worse and still loves me today and supports my sobriety as my other handful of "normie" friends do. There was no one there in program, but that was ok, I was there and so was my HP.

todAAy i am thAAnkful & grAAteful 4:- Mark & Sarah's union with them and their HP, JC- May & Mark C, and Shelle friendships and their love and support of me in recovery- to not wake up with a hangover from the night before- Mitch and all the laughter we can create together, I love him so much- The balance that I am feeling all this past week and today- my OCD being managable and not controling me- The time spent today with Mitch & his dad (a late father's day)- Our animals, and that Olive had a good time with her daddy when he took her down South to visit his friends- That summer is here and I am cool with doing sober things, so many plans in the making- All of you and the growth you offer through your blogging journals

16 Comments:

yeah, we went to a wedding too, had those same feelings... had to fight back the tears... (i am such a sap, I know...) We ended up being unable to go to the reception cuz we had to drive 2 hrs back home and had an early morning planned the next day. I love going to weddings. It's fun to celebrate the newness of a marriage. But, having been to our first wedding together as a married couple, I couldn't help but take a mental inventory of where we're at based on the sacrament of marriage and all it's intended to be. A really kool perspective...

Why do we cry at weddings?! LOLAnd the alcohol factor is insane!Hubby and I did not have a drop of alcohol at our reception or wedding.(why ruin a good day right?) You sound so serene these days Sober and I love your heart in your writing,its is inpriational!Thanks for sharing ~

I am glad I was sober when I got married. I am glad my husband is too. The vows at our wedding really meant what they are suppose to mean. Not yeah yeah lets get to the reception. It is a whirl wind but at that moment at the altar we both felt the presence of God and truly blessed to be together. Glad you had a good time.

Thanks for your kind words. It feels good to say "no thanks." Congrats and best wishes to the couple. Enjoy the CSS. It's great learning and fun. I've been doing the html thing for over ten years. It's hard to keep up with the changes! Then again, alcoholics don't care much for change!LOL...Buh bye!