What is your history like?

1 Fears, problems, and obsessions

I've covered my fears, problems, and obsessions in great detail in the "major fears" area.

2 Sleep-wake cycle

2.1 General

If you were to scan through my blog, you can see that the times I go to bed and wake up shift constantly going a whole cycle usually once every two weeks. What do you think of 11:30 PM as being? Late at night? Past bedtime? That's what most think, but how about just waking up or being awake for 6 hours by this time? Also, what do you think 9:00 AM as being? The time to be at work? Early in the morning? Still being asleep? How about it being bedtime? This is just what my sleep-wake cycle is like. To most, 2:00 AM is very late at night or extremely early in the morning. On one day, I may wake up at that time. A week later, I'd be going to bed at that time. Another week later, I'd be waking up at that time. I'm typing this at 3:30 AM if that tells anything. I've been finishing up typing the last of the school history document at around 2:15 AM. I woke up this day at 11:57 AM. A week later, I'll be waking up around 11:00 PM. It constantly shifts. I refer to it as a twenty-five forty cycle (being 25 hours, 40 minutes). Check my blog for details. The wake up time is when I officially get out of bed and the time I go to bed is when I officially go to bed (rather than the exact moment I wake up or fall asleep). There are some odd exceptions to this such as when I sleep 18 hours (25 hours of nonstop sleep is my record) or sleep for just 6 or forced to be awake for 20 hours (53 hours of being awake nonstop is my record).

2.2 24-hour cycle has failed

I tried a few times to see if I can manage to stay on a normal 24-hour cycle. Each attempt has failed. If I'm not sleepy, I could be laying in bed for in excess of 3 hours doing nothing. The cause is that my mind won't shut off. If I am sleepy after the 25:40, I then am able to go to sleep with little trouble.

2.3 Origins and history

The history of my sleep-wake cycle actually dates back when I was in elementary school. I had to "wear myself down" just to be able to get to sleep otherwise I wouldn't be able to. I often played games, silent ones to trick my parents into thinking that I was sleeping. Sometimes, I'd be up clear until 1:30 AM before I officially go to sleep. Waking up at 6:00 AM just so I can go to school often made me sleep-deprived and it could have been the cause to the troubles in school, or at least a contributing factor. I only first truly experienced my sleep-wake cycle when I went to the one-on-one teaching in tenth grade. I often missed a few days at school because of it.

2.4 Working around it

Sticking to any 24-hour schedule is extremely difficult with this, especially if it has to be done for months on end as with jobs and school. Setting doctor appointments is more of a guessing game with some planning involved. Going beyond a month in advance gives only a 1 in 3 chance of actually making it to the doctor appointment. Going a week in advance has about a 99% chance of being correct. The odd exception, and somewhat rare, is when I sleep unusually little or sleep too much or my parents look around when I'm out shopping just to get groceries often forcing my sleep-wake cycle to advance. The chance is very high because I try to target the mid-range. I use the 25:40 method and literally calculate the expected time I'd be awake and use this as a base. 14 days would go by for me when 15 have actually gone by and this causes some confusion with my calculations as I often forget to include this. If only I never had to sleep....

3 No transportation

3.1 General

I've run a study on myself. This study gave me some interesting information. Of 731 hours in a given month (close to the mathematical average), I'm out rarely any more than 10 hours of all that. That is, in a typical month, I'd be out, say 8 hours total. Out as in out shopping, having recreation, etc.. This leaves 723 hours of being stuck in my house. This is an extremely high ratio, 90:1. I wished I could do more, a lot more, but the severe limiting factors are these:

I live in a fairly remote area. The nearest place of interest is the bowling alley and that's over 5 miles away. Biking (adding in the fear of riding bikes) and walking aren't an option either - my body cannot handle it well and with the summers being hot and somewhat humid and winters being harsh, it's not really even an option. A taxi would cost me $30 just to get to the bowling alley and back home plus the fees for the bowling alley tacked on top of that. The bus service doesn't come out to where I live as I'm too far out of town.

No one is available to take me. My parents and sister are both working all the time and for quite a long time. When they wake up, they spend time getting ready for work and when they get home, they are too tired to go anywhere or do anything else besides relax. My sister hates taking me out and thus they are not an option. My neighbors don't provide an option either - they work like crazy as well.

Can't drive myself. I can't drive as I don't have a license. It's too risky to get a license due to my inability to concentrate and my mind involuntarily wondering off posing severe safety hazards. This makes driving not an option either. Oh, and considering cars cost several thousand dollars just to get, I cannot afford to get a car at all. I have no preferences on car types and color so that is definitely not a limiting factor at all, more of a helping factor actually.

3.2 Known workarounds

The only workarounds that I know of is that I'm only able to go places I need to go on the weekends. I hate weekends due to the fact that many businesses and the good places are always open at shorter hours and odd hours limiting my choices. About the only place I mainly even go to is the grocery store.

3.3 Huge issues this poses

I'd love to go swimming, but the fact that the YMCA is nearly 10 miles away and free swim is only available on weekdays when I have almost no transportation and when everyone else is at work, I'm almost completely unable to go because of it.

There are few other places of interest in my home town, but the nearest is a whole 3 miles away. Most of the good stuff starts around 4 miles away. I'm not going to be paying $20 in taxi fees just to be able to do something (at the minimum) or up to $40 for even the YMCA.

Just simply being able to go do something such as going to the gym is almost impossible.

4 Showers are rare

How often do you take showers? Once a day? Twice a day? Once every two days? How about 3 to 6 times a month? Lately, it's been just that. The reasons come down to these (in order of their impact with the worst on the top):

I'm always cold. The biggest reason is, when I'm done, I'm almost always cold for at least two hours after it and I hate it. When dry, I'm most comfortable from 75 to 77°F air temp (95% certain). When wet, this increases to 80 to 83°F or so (80% certain). When I get done with my shower, air conditioned rooms are my main enemy as 70°F, even when dry, is a bit chilly for me. I know because I have a thermometer. I recall a case where I got done taking a shower then went outside in 90°F+ air temps with a fairly high humidity, inside a car that has been sitting in the Sun all day. It was blistering hot to my parents, but I could handle it quite well although I do have my limits. During the summer when the air conditioners are running at high and during the spring and fall (usually from mid April to before June starts and from mid September to before November starts) are the worst of times for me to take a shower. My room is the warmest place in the house at any time of year, reaching 85°F during hot summer days (once even reaching 90°F) and hovering around 72°F during the coldest winter days, almost always 5°F warmer than the rest of the house.

Serious waste of time. It takes me 45 minutes to process the task of taking a shower in full and that's with shortcuts. It takes me about 5 to 7 minutes to find and check my clothes, 25 to 35 minutes for the actual shower itself, and about 8 to 10 minutes to dry off. I then remain cold for about two hours after it so in effect, it actually takes 3 hours total. Why does it take 25 to 35 minutes for the actual shower rather than 10 to 15 minutes? For one, I have timed this and it is quite consistant so I know the 25-35 minutes value is correct. Because the temperature knobs are very touchy, it takes much longer to get the temperature set, about 3 to 5 minutes right there. Even moving the knob 1/32 of an inch causes a 3°F temperature difference at the good zone and I have to maneuver the knob to a precision on the order of 1/100 of an inch for anything reasonable and it takes a lot of effort to get it that fine. It takes me about 1 to 3 minutes to adjust to the water and get used to it. Then it's about 5 to 7 minutes for the shampoo (the full process - warming it up first (this doesn't apply during the winter) getting it out of the bottle, spreading it around and washing it off in full - I do one round at it but use quite a bit of shampoo to cover otherwise two rounds at once to speed things up). Then it's about 8 to 12 minutes of using the body wash (warming it up especially (this takes nearly twice as long as the shampoo does, a good 3 to 4 minutes), moving the shower curtains so that they don't get in the way (I use water as a paste to "glue" the sides of the tub, otherwise they get annoying and in the way adding to my time), spreading it around, then washing it off). Finally, I spend another 2 to 4 minutes rinsing off before turning off the water. Then it's about ten minutes to dry off. It actually faster to dry off without a towel than it is for me with one. The reason is that almost all towels are stained in some way and when this was going on, I noticed that 15 to 20 minutes went by to find a towel that wasn't stained. Without the towel, it takes about 10 minutes instead, yet another reduction. To help with this, I have other tricks up my sleeve for further reducing the time - squeezing the water from my hair then going top to bottom removing whatever I can. This otherwise reduces the time by about 40% of what it would normally take. I get dressed after that then spend two hours fighting to keep warm by the time I'm back to normal again. Then, quite often, my mind drifts off which quite often adds an additional 5 to 10 minutes to my shower time. This is something that's hard to prevent from doing and it occurs at any time, whether driving, using the forums, typing, working on my game, eating, watching TV, etc.. With doing this every day, the amount of "wasted time" really adds up - a whole days' worth (well, 22 1/2 hours as a grand total versus my current 3 3/4 hours per month). I can do a lot with 18 3/4 hours freed up. I can do two whole mountain ranges in my 2D game (and that's about an 1800x170 image on average). I could watch an additional 30-minute educational TV show each day with a bonus every 4th day. I could type up a story about three times longer than some of the longest stories on my website. I could update my website in my usual way with 3-weeks' worth of details (dreams and my blog mainly) and still have time to spare. That's a lot of time and it adds up.

A less significant reason is that my parents say water costs 10¢ per gallon and 13¢ per gallon now. I've asked them 3 times and they have said this with great consistancy. I recently (around August 7, 2006) ran calculations to find out an approximate average and I think my parents can't read the decimal point. It's not 10¢ or 13¢ per gallon, but more around 1 to 1.3¢ per gallon. Note the decimal - "one dot three". I even checked how much they are spending and this checks out, still triple of what many are claiming it to be. As my calculations go, I use 75 gallons of water for a shower. With 4 showers per month as my average at the moment, that's 300 gallons. Adding in my parents taking showers daily at 25 gallons per shower each, that's 1500 gallons. Then you have the sink and dishwasher which adds another, say, 300 gallons. The washing machine adds about 500 to 800 (we'll call it 600; I don't monitor it as much). The toilets take 4 gallons per flush on average, and with likely 8 flushes per day (I use most of them), that's 1000 gallons per month there. Do note that these are approximations and have about a 15% margin of error. Adding up all this, that's about 3700 gallons per month. The bill seems to vary from $38 to $43 per month which works out to 1.027¢ per gallon on the low end to 1.162¢ per gallon on the high end, about a tenth of what my parents have been claiming. Since I use 75 gallons (my showers last 30 minutes (±5 minutes), the showerhead mentions 2.5 gallons per minute maximum (which seems about right)), and using the average of about 1.1¢ per gallon, this works out to 82.5¢ per shower which seems okay meaning about 412.5¢ or so per month. If I took a shower every day, this would add on an additional 2062.5¢ per month. Earlier, from my parents' old claims, it would've run into the hundreds of dollars. Since I've otherwise proven them wrong to some extent, it's much more encouraging.

Low compatibility and low motive. The first reason alone has a huge negative impact on the compatibility with it. The second reason also has a considerable negative impact. The cost thing used to be until I worked out the math myself and disproved my parents' claims of the price per gallon of water. At the moment (as of August 13, 2006), my compatibility with showers is -12 with motive at -17. It'd take quite a bit of complaining from my parents before this motive actually gets above neutral or if I have to go grocery shopping or out somewhere. In the case where I was going to the lake, although it was only 4 days since the last shower rather than my usual 7, the motive was above +20 so in that case I didn't mind it. If I'm unable to go to the grocery store due to not being awake at any decent time, it'd only be my parents' annoyances that cause the motive to break past neutral (and since I can withstand a lot, it takes an even stronger effort).

When I need to go somewhere, my motive increases but rarely high enough to get just above neutral. With my parents complaining, it adds even more of an impact, enough to get it past neutral, adding about 4 times the impact (which turns 110 into about 220), but not as much when it comes to needing to go somewhere, even the simple grocery store. I once been without a single shower or bath for a whole month.

5 My annoying nose

5.1 Frequent nosebleeds

Sometimes, out of nowhere your nose starts to bleed and you have to abruptly stop whatever you are doing and head for the bathroom. This is what my annoying nose always does for me. Most of my nosebleeds are minor. The worst I've had was about 320 drips, but above even 80 is rare. Frequent, but minor, and extremely annoying. That's the main reason why I hate my nose. Otherwise it just hurts often. I have seen a doctor on this, but the "fix" seemingly was just temporary and the frequency returned to normal in about 6 months. The doctor used these strange sticks that looked like matches and gave a small burn sensation.

5.2 Almost no sense of smell

The purpose of the nose is to smell, right? My nose doesn't seem to be able to pick up most anything besides smoke where I'm extremely sensitive to. My parents once bought chicken from KFC. They can smell the chicken from even ten feet away. I, who was holding it, couldn't smell it from even a foot away! If a dog's sense of smell was 10,000,000 units, as an example to compare, the average human would get about 2000 units (smell masters would get more around 4000 units). My nose seems to output more around 80 units, a tiny fraction that of normal.

My nose, to conclude, has almost no use, but has a lot of strong negatives to simply having it.

6 Limited choice of foods

Although I eat quite a bit, the choice of foods to me is almost nothing. Between cheese pizzas (degreased as much as possible) and, less often, Hamburger Helper (cooked without the hamburger as I hate all meats), they comprise about 95% of what I eat. 4.5% is in snack foods and just recently cereal without milk but from the box. The remaining 0.5% is for that very rare other case. This 0.5% could be bread (a biscuit is the most common case minus the butter), candy, a grilled cheese sandwich, macaroni and cheese (Hamburger Helper's version (Cheeseburger Macaroni) tastes 5 times better.), and hardly anything else. According to my parents, I would eat almost everything when I was around 4 or 5 years old. Nowadays, cheese pizzas (88%) and Hamburger Helper (7%) make up my main meals every day. I eat once a day, but when I do eat, I eat a lot. I've eaten a whole two-pound pizza before (Red Baron's 4-cheese rising crust pizza to be exact).

7 Getting a job

7.1 Jobs I'd accept and/or enjoy

There are many jobs I wouldn't mind having or even would likely enjoy having, but there's almost always at least one issue that prevents it. This table lists them. Note the frequency of issues 1, 2, and 3.

Job

Notes

Skilllevel‡

Compatibility*

Issues and limitations**

Game designer

I do this as a hobby, but don't get paid for it

2

60

1?, 2, 4?, 5, 6?

Shelf restocker

Restock merchandise on shelves

3

8

1, 3?, 7, 8

Cashier

Process items at checkout

1

3

1, 2?, 3, 4, 7x

Web designer†

Build and maintain websites

1

2.5

2, 5?, 6?

Game tester***

Test games, especially console games

6

40

5?, 9

News reporter

Tell the news

1

2.5

1, 2, 3, 5?, 6, 7?

Type stuff up

I'm given papers and I need to type them up.

4

3.5

1h, 3h, 6h, 7xh, 8h, 9

Truck driver

Ride/Drive one of those 18-wheelers across the country

0

80

2, 3?, 5, 7, 8?

Computer repairer

Fix computers at the hardware level and a bit at the software level (drivers, etc.)

2

15

1h, 2, 3, 5, 6?h, 8h

Computer tech support

Troubleshoot computer issues such as no sound - usually at the software level

1

4

1h, 2, 3, 4?, 5?, 6?h

Math teacher††

Teach math (I'd target 4th to 6th grade math)

4

100

1, 2?, 3, 4, 5, 6?, 7x, 8

Music/song writer

Write music and songs

3

10

2, 5?

Story writer‡†

Write stories

3

12

2, 5?

Janitor†‡

Clean places and probably some other things I don't know about

5

1.5

1, 3?, 7x

Accountant‡‡

I don't know what they are or what they do

0

1

1?, 2, 3?, 4?, 5?, 6?, 7?, 8?

* Compatibility is how much I would like this job, in times better than neutral. 1 would mean I wouldn't care much for it (neutral). The higher, the more I like the job and the more I'd want it.
** These issues and limiations are as follows:

0 - No known problems
1 - No transporation - using public transportation would cause very little gain defeating the purpose of getting a job, or even a loss. Why not drive? My mind drifting off (it happens without warning and without my control) and my inability to concentrate make driving for me dangerous and is more of a problem than if gas was $10 a gallon.
2 - Lack of experience - I don't have any worthy-enough experience for getting this job. Getting it would often cost a bunch and wouldn't get me anywhere.
3 - Daily schedule required - getting something done within a week is an acceptable kind of schedule, but having to available at set times daily is not possible.
4 - Inability to get along with others - a simple half-second whistle would either send me running from whereever it comes from or tempers to rapidly flare. I'm also bullied a lot but I've built up a monster of a defense against this.
5 - License required - a license may be required in order for me to get this job.
6 - Use of a chair is required - either I stand or use the floor instead.
7 - Stairs, mirrors, and other problems - mirrors mean taking detours or some areas being blocked off, and if there's no elevator, and being required to work on anything but the ground floor will not work. Various other mental problems also may play a role.
8 - Lack of showers - This is only a minor problem. Though a -13 motive, having a job will add a +2 affector to this reducing it to -6 to -7 meaning, instead of a week between showers, it may be 3 or 4 days between showers. Resolve the "being cold" issue and this increases to neutral or slightly above neutral making it once every 2 days. Stopping my mind from drifting off would help some adding a further 1.3 otherwise guarenteeing neutral with all others.
9 - I don't know how to get involved with this.

These may be appended at the end.
? - An indication that I'm not sure if this applies or not. This is used if less than 70% certain.
x - Not always a problem, it depends on the location and/or case.
h - Only applies if not done at home

*** I regularly do this for entertainment and I seem to be an excellent candidate for this. Just look at the "video game screenshots" section and you'll know what I mean. Many of the screenshots involve oddities due to bugs and anomalies I've found due to studying the game mechanics in great depth. There are many problems though. First, newer games are too adult-oriented and it's very difficult for me to find any games of interst. Second, now that the Xbox 360, Playstation 3, and Wii are out, there's almost no chance of this since I have no interest (and can't afford) any of the newer consoles. PC games are almost out of the question since it's not familiar territory (and considering I don't have a joystick or controller to test with, only the keyboard and mouse). Third, I'm no longer a hardcore gamer as I was prior to 2003. Lastly, and most importantly, I don't know how to get into it.
† Though I run my own website for nearly 6 years, I have had very little progress in learning in the last 5 1/2 years (which is almost since I first started).
‡ How skilled I am on a scale from 0 to 8. 8 is where I'm a master and 0 is where I have very little or no experience at all. Jobs with 4 and above would be more worthy.
†† I've done this in front of a real class when I was still in elementary school. I've also been told I should get into this many times.
‡† I've done this from early 1996 to about mid 2000, but only as a hobby. I have yet to go published and the closest chance I have is with my "The Legend of the 10 Elemental Masters" story, of which I'm thinking of another near-complete rewrite (the fifth or sixth one).
†‡ My mom and dad have both suggested this. Cleaning is my least-liked things. Considering I haven't cleaned my room since April of 2004 or so and still have double-digit negative motive for doing so, you may be wondering why this is even listed.
‡‡ I don't know what an accountant is. My parents have mentioned and suggested it a few times. The skill is unknown for this reason and compatibility is neutral (which is where things naturally start) for the same reason. This same reason applies to the limitations since I don't know much about it.

7.2 Major issues

Why not get a job? Many of the same issues for going to college apply to getting a job as well. In order from worst to best:

Lack of experience. To get a job, you need experience. To get experience, you need an education. To get an education, you need money to pay for it. To get money, you need a job. This is an endless loop. My strong point is math, but there isn't much that could be useful with. Often, you need to be certified (or educated) to get certain jobs. I can't get certified without having to pay a load of money and to get the money, I need a job. It's this endless loop that doesn't get me anywhere.

No transportation. Without any transportation (more details in section 3 above), there's no way I can get to any workplace. The nearest possible is 3 miles away, way too far for me to walk or bike, especially in the hot summers and harsh winters. You may think I could use a taxi, but, if I went 3 miles there and back every day, I'd need to work about 3 hours to cover the costs of the taxi and that's before taxes. At the far end of town, I'd be paying more for the taxi service than I'd be earning with a fulltime job and thus a loss.

Sleep-wake cycle. As explained in section 1 above, my sleep-wake cycle poses almost as big of a problem as the lack of transportation. I'm unable to manage a 24-hour work schedule because of it. Even missing school was becoming a problem because of it and school was only for an hour.

Inability to get along with others. I have a hard time getting along with others when up close and when dealing with jobs, there's almost no workaround to this. A simple whistle can bring out my temper very quickly and it's difficult to control although I have gotten better at controlling it.

Chairs, stairs, mirrors, and other problems. Often, chairs are involved for the workplace, especially any computer-related workplaces. Either I'd have to stand up and do the things, be on the floor where typing is tough, or be on my knees which is a bad thing and highly uncomfortable. The fix would be to lower the computer system. Stairs are a lot more minor. Quite likely, multi-story buildings would have elevators. It would be a problem, however, if there was no elevator. There are very few 3-story buildings or taller ones in my area so this is highly unlikely. Mirrors are less of a problem as there's almost always detours around them. There are a few buildings, however, where I'm completely blocked by mirrors and thus unable to get around, the case of my local Wal-mart.

Lack of showers. This is more of a minor issue. When I need to go somewhere, showers will be more frequent. With an income, I'd be able to cover the already high cost of once-every-two-days showers.

7.3 So many ideas, but all won't work

You might be thinking of getting an online job. Well, it comes down mainly to the number 1 issue: lack of experience. Webmasters require a degree or something and often scripting knowledge. I don't have any webscripting knowledge. I know so little HTML. I was once thinking of being a beta tester (as from a dream I had in 1993, the oldest dream I have (as of Dec 11, 2005)). For this, you need extensive knowledge on programming for most cases. The game I'm making doesn't use any scripting language known to most so it doesn't really fully count. Plus, most games have too much adult content in them nowadays, I've lost interest in gaming because of it. Software programs are different though and strongly questioned. Another thing to add to the list is that I once also tried writing a movie script. I've had two rejections so far (one true rejection, the other where I had no response). Yep, it's likely that lack of experience that gets to me. Computer repair might seem possible, but you have to be certified and I somewhat lack knowledge and I can't do that at home. I'm almost entirely out of options.

I've submitted about 25 or so job applications and so far, no one has been interested in me. I usually don't care much what the pay is. Even the $5.15 per hour minimum wage is actually a lot to me. For 20 hours a week, I'd be making over $400 a month. I was once invited to an interview, but had a doctor appointment at the time that I forgot about entirely thus it never happened. So far, everything has just been a failure.

7.4 Light at the end of the tunnel?

The only chance I have of really getting anything, is from what I do on the computer day in and day out. My 2D game, for example, would be one of my first things. Again, I lack experience in something: selling stuff. I don't know how to manage shops, process orders, or even exactly how to go about selling the product. From a poll I posted on the 3DGS forums, I'm in positive territory for everything mentioned (the menu system, challenge system, manual, gameplay design, graphics, etc.). That's a good sign. 5-star ratings count as 2 points, 4-star ratings count as 1 point, 3 for 0, 2-star ratings mean I lose a point, and 1-star ratings mean I lose two points. I have +2 (out of 7 votes) for everything, some as high as +7.

I have other games in the works as well, made with Gamestudio. A critically needed feature is preventing me from continuing with them and with the update having this critically needed feature seemingly not being released, progress is impossible. The design is already well thought out so making the game will be easy to do, just very time consuming. It may be several years before this game is even available. I have a third game also thought of, but lacks planning and is too complex for me to do at the moment.

4.1 About me home - General overview and background
4.1-1 What this is
4.1-2 My current life
4.1-3 The future
4.2 Dream journal - My dreams I get while sleeping - contains over 500 dreams and grows rapidly
4.2-1 Introduction
4.2-2 Special notes
4.2-3 Dream stat descriptions
4.2-4 Dream statistics
4.2-5 The categories
4.3 Favorites - What I like and dislike most
4.4 Imaginary friends - Learn what my imaginary friends were like and their special abilities
4.4-1 History
4.4-2 In depth descriptions
4.4-3 The future
4.5 Video games - My history with video games and the many bad things they caused
4.5-1 The beginning
4.5-2 Too much video game playing
4.5-3 Making my own games
4.5-4 The future
4.6 School - Learn what school was like for me, how the classes went, and other events related to school
4.6-1 Elementary school
4.6-2 Middle school
4.6-3 High school
4.6-4 Filling my need for education
4.6-5 My education future
4.7 Special events - Learn about how YMCA camp, tours, and other special events went for me
4.7-1 Triangle YMCA camp
4.7-2 Touring my home state with my friend
4.7-3 Shakespearian play
4.7-4 The state fair
4.7-5 The antique car club
4.7-6 Trip into Canada
4.8 Math skills - I can work wonders with numbers and perform calculations in my head at a blazing fast speed
4.8-1 Well beyond most everyone else
4.8-2 I became unforunate
4.8-3 Super fast mental math
4.8-4 If object gets numbers, I get a formula
4.8-5 The future
4.9 Special abilities - The special capabilities I have outside mathematics
4.9-1 General
4.9-2 Hypercount
4.9-3 High-speed, high-accuracy mental math
4.9-4 High-res vision
4.10 Developed systems - Status System, Spell System and other systems I've developed
4.10-1 My Status System
4.10-2 My Spell System
4.10-3 Color system
4.11 Stories - The birth of my story-writing efforts
4.11-1 The "Wonderful Adventure" days
4.11-2 The "Rise of Atlantis" days
4.11-3 One other story
4.11-4 No more story writing
4.11-5 My sources of ideas
4.11-6 The future (general)
4.12 Online activities - The history of my website and the usage of online forums
4.12-1 Online forums
4.12-2 My website
4.13 Music - My history with music - learn the origins to why I listen to songs at different speeds for thousands of loops at a time
4.13-1 History
4.13-2 The present
4.13-3 The future
4.13-4 Music FAQs
4.14 Major fears - My list of fears, problems, and obsessions, both past and present
4.14-1 Introduction
4.14-2 Current fears
4.14-3 Old fears that have been overcome
4.14-4 Current problems
4.14-5 Old problems that have been overcome
4.14-6 Current obsessions
4.14-7 Old obsessions
4.15 Major issues - Major issues I have in my life at the moment
4.15-1 Fears, problems, and obsessions
4.15-2 Sleep-wake cycle
4.15-3 No transportation
4.15-4 Showers are rare
4.15-5 My annoying nose
4.15-6 Limited choice of foods
4.15-7 Getting a job
4.16 TV and movies - How I am with watching TV and movies, both past and present
4.16-1 History
4.16-2 The present
4.16-3 The future
4.16-4 FAQ
4.17 Food and drink - My history with food and drink, including past meals I made, as well as the present and future
4.17-1 History
4.17-2 The present
4.17-3 The future
4.18 Travel and vacations - Past vacations and travel, as well as the current case of 6+ years without a vacation, including places of interest
4.18-1 History
4.18-2 The present
4.18-3 The future
4.18-4 FAQ
4.19 My senses - Things involving my 5 main senses - strong, high-res vision, but very weak smell to name some
4.19- [document yet to be created]
4.20 Doctors and meds - My past involving doctor visits and meds to fixing my issues as well as the present
4.20- [document yet to be created]
4.21 Hobbies - My hobbies, including things I was involved with in the past not in any other category
4.21-1 History
4.21-2 Computer
4.21-3 Sports
4.21-4 Collecting
4.21-5 Television
4.21-6 The present
4.21-7 The future
4.22 Game design - My history of game design as well as the present and possible future
4.22-1 History
4.22-2 The present
4.22-3 The future
4.23 Noncomputer games - Backgrounds on various noncomputer games, such as throwing cards to play Hit-a-bump and other things, including past games not listed on my website, as well as general evolvements and what caused me to create them.
4.23- [document yet to be created]
4.24 Other memorable events - General events I recall unusually well, but not anything special
4.24- [document yet to be created]
4.25 Other things - Dates, marriage, having kids, friends, religion, holidays, and various other things
4.25- [document yet to be created]
4.26 Myself in the year 2050 - How I envision myself and a day in the year 2050
4.26- [document yet to be created]
4.27 My greatest wishes - Activities I would love to do