Out gay sissy tv

I confess since coming out I've become a tv sissy and love dressing up ,have met lots of guys/ TV's. I dress up that much thar I want to be all the time, I want to be more than just a tv Have been sucking c*** for years and dressing for 25+ years I've just started dressing as a sissy with another guy who's married, we was caught by his wide yesterday now he's on his own, I want to be with him but as a full time ts. Can anyone give me advice on taking hrt to grow bigger b****** please