The biggest step is the first one.

Unless you catch my twitter, I've been somewhat silent about John on my blog, and partly its because I wasn't thrilled to get the reaction. See, I've spent the last couple of years in Buffalo being the cruelest gaming asshole ever. I've dated a few guys, broken a few too many hearts, and pissed off a whole bunch of people. I've come to the conclusion that I no longer wish to continue this trend; it seems to get in the way of me finding real happiness. To go from player to lover, deceptor to devoted, is as easy as flipping a switch. However, proving that that switch to people is a lot harder. Thus, the second part of my conclusion is that I no longer care how people will perceive my sincerity on this because I only have to prove myself to one person, and i quite like it this way. I've fallen quite deeply for this redheaded bear named John. John lives in Maryland. I most recently spent President's day weekend with John, and we seemed to have fallen in love. I'm a firm believer that if you care for someone, then you make sacrifices and take chances that you wouldn't normally do for anyone else. The risk of failure is only high when you hesitate, and is most surely 100% when you don't take the risk at all. The mechanicals of our relationship are very intersesting, merging social technology and cross-culture immersion to make up for the physical gap between us. A uniquely funded travel budget may be in the future, and beyond that is too early to tell. All I can say is this dude completes me in every way I could ever have possibly imagined and to pass this by based on something as stupid as distance would make me a fool. Oh, and he twitters...

Oh Hai! I'm Nate and I live in the sometimes beautiful, always exciting, city of Buffalo, NY. I'm not too focused on this blog, but you'll probably end up reading something about Buffalo, my toy obsession, burly bears, club drama, Google Android, and some damn good music. This is my blog. Read it. Cheers.