November 2007

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you

Dude, this beer bong song is especially dedicated to you. A friend in need and a friend in deed. Eventhough sometimes and most probably most of the times you talk craps but your craps makes sense. Dude, I’ve known you for like how many years already eh? 12 years .. That so damn fucking long. If we were married we might have tons of kids already but then I’m not marrying you. How old are you again? Oh ya, no details right? But nevermind, who the fuck care.

I slept around 7:30 pm just now. Just right after I got home from work. I switch off my mobile and went straight to bed. I woke up suddenly and I thought it’s 3:36 am but it was 9:36 pm. I switch on my mobile, 3 SMSes. 1 from a very good friend, 1 from a friend and 1 is the one that I’m waiting for. I replied all three, then I went to bed again. I hope that when I open my eyes I will see tomorrow and indeed I saw tomorrow (today) ; it was 12:35 am and now I can’t even close my eyes.

I realize something or some things. I’ve been missing a lot of things

I missed the time spent talking for hours on the phone. Crapping about everything and nothing at all. We could go on and on until we both fall asleep even if sometimes I reluctantly put the phone down.

I missed the morning calls. How you sound when you just got up from your beauty sleep stayed in my mind and it keep on playing there every single day. When it hits 6:30 am, it reminded me of how I used to be the alarm clock. Silly …

I missed those words ; Honey, Baby, Darling and I missed all the IMISSYOUs

I missed walking in the park, happily as we go. Eventhough that was the only time but still …

I missed those SMSes that accompanied me everytime I do nothing in the office. Eventhough sometimes I do have a lot of things to do but I didn’t say it out because I just can’t stop looking at my mobile every single second.

Those are a few of those few little things that I’ve been missing a lot of late …

When I look around
I see your smile I see your face
Girl you’re just so beautiful
I just can’t resist

Summer seems not long enough
Winter seems so cold
Will I get the chance
To be the one by your side

It’s all a miracle
In my life that I can say
Is it so hard to let you know?
That I care and want you more

In my life you’ll always be
Someone that I’ll cherish
Someone that I’ll give my heart
For the rest of my life
You’re the only one for me
There’s nothing more this world can give
And I love you more
Each and everyday

When we talk about forgiving somebody we often think about forgiving someone whole heartedly. Seems so difficult to do rite? It is indeed very hard and almost impossible to do that.

“Forgiving is an act of will, not from the heart”

Sounds scary but that’s the truth. Even if your heart says no but you can do it with just following not your heart but asking your head to say,

“I will forgive you and I will do that and say it”

It’s like saying :

“I love you, but I don’t like what you did. It hurts me. But I will forgive you”.

Well, to be honest it does bring something to me. Come on man … give me some space to write something useful and insightful. I mean this is something that we would love to talk about. (Only when we’re sane enough – which most of the time we are not)

I am reading this book currently titled “If You Really Love Me“. It’s a religious book la. I’ve been reading it for the past few months. I took a long while to finish a book actually. I just read when I feel like it. It’s an interesting story, I mean book. It talks about how a relationship should be based on, I mean in a sense that a lot of things that we took forgranted all these years. I guess for me it’s time to look back and reflect on what I have done in my life and what I haven’t.

Most of the time, we do care and take note of the things that we should have done right. Too much concentration on that make us lose track on what we do best. Well tend to say :

“I’ll improve on things that I’ve done badly”

But what about the good values you have? I mean the one that you already posses? That must stay. It’s a must.

One phrase that have been clinging on my mind of late :

“I don’t like what you did, but I still love you. That won’t change. Because what you did make me feel bad”

I don’t know. But it seems like it’s a phrase that really struck me deep down my thoughts.

Talking about relationships and all, all of us have gone through different phases of relationships. Friends, families, girlfriends and all sort of love. In general, we all are worthy to love and to be loved.

I had a chat with a friend last night and he said :

“Love is not like in movies, it’s not fantasies. It’s like this steel that I’m holding : cold, hard and when I smack your head with this, you will bleed”

He always says stuffs like that. Maybe he had bad experiences. I don’t blame him but look at the bright side of what he said, I think it’s almost true.Then he will continue his thoery of MONEY=LOVE=HAPPINESS.

Everybody knows Einstein. A genius .. total genius who came out with this idea of relativity. The most significant one? Yess .. E=mc². Einstein contributed more than any other scientist to the modern vision of physical reality. His special and general theories of relativity are still regarded as the most satisfactory model of the large-scale universe that we have.

Now, in this decade. A new formula was created.

Standing for few hours + loud pitching = productivity+Quality

Yess, this is something that just can’t find in your textbook. I tried so hard to google for it on the internet but my effort goes to waste. I just can’t find the bloody connection on how on earth those that theory leads to productivity and above all QUALITY! Go and check everywhere, I bet you won’t find this equation. It’s because of the level of intelligence of the creator of this equation, I think that he should win a noble award for that. Paksu! Paksu!

Indeed it’s the most interesting idea that man had ever created that I think if Einstein is here with us, he would be totally amazed. Noooo!!!! That actually fucking annoyed me. God damn it!

MunKyHeAdSteIn – That would be a proper name for that person

Fuck it, I won’t jump into the bandwagon and get stupified with it. – I can’t be arsed!

P/S : I would like to take this opportunity to wish a very dear friend, Jani a sweet 24th birthday. Go with your dreams girl and pray that there will be more to come. Have a blast on your birthday!