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August 12, 2009

A Beautiful Mess

Thank you so much for the well wishes. We are doing better. I'm not sure how I am functioning on such odd sleep, to be honest. The kids- they tag teamed me. Yesterday there was a bit of a reprieve as we all walked about in slow motion and rested, hardly ate, and slept what we didn't sleep the night before.

But then last night it started again- Gray was sick and so I was up all night with him. At 5 am it was him, me, & Ivy up and I did laundry and put out fresh blankets and was thankful for the amazing motheradrenaline that kicks in when you have nothing left to go on.

After a while I got them both back to sleep this morning, and myself, too. There was a moment where everything was quiet and the morning sunlight crept into my room. And I felt peace all around us. It was the most amazing feeling to fall asleep to.

What appears in the photo above is something I have looked at from my bed the past few days. For some reason, looking at it brought me comfort. It didn't remind me that I forgot to hang up Ivy's dress or put my necklace in my jewelry box. I thought it all hanging there was quite pretty. So, while sick, I took a picture.

You can even see me in the doorknob's reflection. And my unmade bed. My beautifully messy unmade bed, life, soul, and body.

21 comments:

I so love your peaceful, beautiful moments ... feeling I frequently have but just am not able to put into words as you are! I do love the positive beautiful moments you find even during a dark moment. If more people had this outlook, there would be more peace!

I'm so sorry to hear you were sick, and your babies were sick...all while still nursing! I imagine you're exhausted. I'm glad to hear that you're doing better and enjoying those little peaceful moments. Take care.

Steph,Glad to hear you guys are surviving the flu. It's making the rounds here too. Who'd a thought the flu would be around in summer??? Maybe, since we had it now, we won't get it again this fall/winter. Wouldn't that be grand?!!!