It didn’t feel the tears of the 39-year-old woman slowly coming down, when she started telling about her life which was getting bitter.

Since she was married to hers deceased husband Stefanus Adol, she was forced to survive amidst the onslaught of poverty.

Living in poverty and inadequacy is still close to accompanying her living space, as if is not willing to go.

Not only about the lack of economy, the house for Anas and her five children settled was really sad. The size is only approximately 4 × 5 meters.

The walls and roof are made of bamboo. Ground floor. Hers family seemed to be jostling while sleeping at night.

Their beds are also made by Anas from bamboo in the form of tents. There are no special rooms for families and guests, as the home model of most people.

There is no mattress in the tent. Their bedding is only a mat that is sewn from a cement sack.

There is no bulkhead in the all-designed house of bamboo. The only partition is the kitchen, where Anas cooks for hers children. It was not walled, like a hut in the middle of a rice field.

Behind her house, there is a fairly steep ravine. There are various trees that grow with apits on the cliff.

Work Hard

Since her life partner Stefanus Adol died in 2010, Anas’s life began to be miserable and full of suffering.

The direction and sustainability of the family’s life were entirely on Anas’s shoulder, without hers beloved husband.

Anas is willing to live it for the sake of his five children as a result of her marriage with Stephen Adol.

The woman who was born in Lompong, January 6, 1980, kept trying to get up and work hard not to wallow in wealth, but only to support her children.

There is no dictionary tired in her life. She was forced to penetrate all the duties of the husband as the main backbone of the family, up to the task of a housewife.

Anas worked as a temporary worker in the neighbour gardens and rice fields in Lompong village.

Usually, she claimed to be paid 30 thousand – 35 thousand rupiah per day. Even so, not every day she gets daily wages. Money can be obtained by Anas, if there are people who need her energy.

“Sir, daily money to buy rice, to keep my children,” she said.

The woman who only graduated from the Elementary School admitted that not only in the form of money as a wage she worked in the neighbour fields and gardens.

Sometimes, she said, there were people who gave her salary in the form of rice. There is also no standard measure of how many sacks of rice in one working day, depending on the pity of the owner of the garden or rice field.

“If someone is pity, sir, they can give one sack of 50 kilograms of rice,” Anas said.

Although there are three fields of candlenut inheritance from the husband, but Anas admitted that his crops were not strong enough to support family life. The yield of candlenut is only a maximum of 30 kilograms.

Anas Undik (center) with two her children (Photo: Ardy Abba / Vox NTT)

Dropout Children

No parents want their children to grow up in school dropouts. This principle is still embedded in Anas’s heart.

However, economic conditions and poverty make her children have to accept the harsh reality.

Of Anas’ five children, the other three had dropped out of Elementary School because the economy was unable. Meanwhile, the other two are still in Elementary School.

Anas claimed that there was indeed assistance from the Hope for Families Program for her. It was varied nominations, ranging from 400 thousand to 1 million rupiah.

The Anas family also received assistance from the Indonesia Smart Program. The last receipt, said Anas, was 900 thousand rupiah.

Husband Suicides

Anas’s tears fell again, but her tears did not break when she began to tell about the death of her beloved husband.

Conversation with VoxNtt.com then briefly paused. Her head bowed with a sad face again. Tears continued to fall from his two eyes.

She looked silent, then wiped away his tears with the sarong she was wearing that night.

Not long ago, Anas began to tell about the death of hers beloved husband in a tragic way which was hanging himself.

She recounted, her husband Stefanus Adol went forever in 2010 ago.

Before dying by hanging himself, two years before Stefanus had migrated to Malaysia with the status of illegal Indonesian Workers.

Anas admitted, at first she had forbidden Stefanus to go abroad.

However, at that time her husband’s determination seemed to be unanimous to leave to earn fortune in the neighbour country.

As long as he was in Malaysia, Stefanus had no information or message for his family. Anas continued to wait expectantly that her husband could return home with blessings, especially for the improvement of the family’s economy.

Two years later, Stefanus returned home. However, the reality is far from Anas’s expectations.

Because, Stefanus returned home with ’empty hands’, not taking the money.

In fact, he came home leaving only clothes on his body. While the clothes that were taken from his village before went the country were gone and were no longer visible.

However, Anas claimed to still accept her husband with a big heart. She was not angry because he did not bring money.

Even her feelings are satisfied and happy, because of his longing for the husband to come home already realized.

After a few months later, Anas actually saw a strange signal from her husband. Anas was always angry with Stefanus, if there was a shortage in the household ark.

One night while sleeping, the story of Anas, her husband woke up. Late at night, Anas saw her husband get up and take a nylon rope.

Anas peered from behind the gap in the mosquito net, the husband tried to tie the nylon rope around his neck. Anas got up and immediately intercepted it.