Saturday, January 1, 2011

As some of you guessed, the reason I stopped blogging over here so often was because I'm pregnant again. We're due July 11 and I'll be 13 weeks on Monday. I didn't post anything here because there are family and friends who read this blog, and I wasn't out yet. Well, as much as I'd like to keep it completely secret from EVERYONE until I'm actually given a real, live baby to take home, we made the announcement to family and friends over Christmas and New Year's. I also didn't post because when I was deep in the throes of grief, it seemed like every time I found a new loss blog to follow and fall in love with, the writer found out she was pregnant. Which was great for her, but holy shit painful for me. I was SO not there yet...so there were a lot of blogs that I followed and then immediately unfollowed. Well, now I'm one of those writers. I won't be writing about my new pregnancy on this blog - this is Caleb's blog - but if you are so inclined you can follow the progress of this little one at Baby H, Take Two. Some day I might make a new blog and combine them all into one epic site, but...well, let's be real. I won't. Far too lazy for that.

Anyway, I hope that I haven't caused anyone too much pain by posting this, and maybe (just maybe) even provided someone suffering a loss a little bit of hope. This will be the only post about a current pregnancy here, I promise.

About Me

My name is Lara. I lost my first child, and only son, Caleb, on April 12, 2010, after my water broke prematurely at around 19 weeks. After my loss, I discovered I might have incompetent cervix, so I had a transabdominal cerclage (TAC) placed in September 2010. Read about our pregnancy with Caleb, my loss, and subsequent surgery, as well as general posts about loss, here.

**PLEASE NOTE**

I blog much more often on my baby blog, but I understand that might be difficult to visit if you're fresh (or not so fresh) off a loss of your own. Trust me, I've been there. I know the sadness, the jealousy, the anger, the frustration....all of it is normal.

If you have ANY questions about the TAC or anything else, please feel free to email me at the following: