Saturday, November 20, 2010

Yesterday wasn't as bad as I thought. Yeah it was rough, but I knew it would be. Turning 31 isn't so bad when you have a wonderful husband and great family and friends. My FaceBook page was filled with birthday wishes, and I had a beautiful dinner waiting on me when I got home from work, courtesy of my wonderful husband. Yesterday truly marks a new chapter in my life. Not only did I turn 31, but I also left my job after 6 years. I will start fresh on Monday. My life has been full of changes lately. Most are good I think. I guess losing my little girl has made me rethink my life. Its time for me to slow down, to shake things up, to be what I am truly meant to be. Or at least try to. I know things happen for a reason and this new job is a brand new opportunity for me. A wonderful, unique opportunity for me to be normal, to work a normal schedule, to be less stressed out. Most importantly, to just enjoy my life. Its going to be hard to enjoy life without my daughter, but I know she's out there somewhere, watching over us and that helps. I hope she is happy. I hope she knows that she is loved and, although we may have other children, she will always be our first born. Change is good. I honestly believe that...I just hope its true.