This morning I was waiting for doctors offices to open to begin making appointments. I watched the last part of African Catswhile I was waiting. [Spoiler alert] I found myself sobbing uncontrollably at the scene when elder lioness Layla dies after securing a safe position for her daughter, Mara, within the pride.

I keep telling myself (and mom) that I didn't come back to Florida to die. But the truth is... I don't know. I'm terrified and on totally unfamiliar ground. I've been working or in school full time (sometimes both) since I was sixteen. To purposely put myself in a position where I am not "in control" of my life like this is out of character for me. To admit that I don't know what tomorrow will bring... terrifying.

I don't know what to do. I don't know what tomorrow will bring. There is soooooo much going on right now... so many variables in our lives... and such a huge leap of faith for me right now with everything.

My faith has always been strong. Always been something to help me hold on. And I'm hanging on... hanging on...

Hi! I'm Cindi ... so nice to see you here!

Growing up an Air Force brat, we lived all over the country and traveled in Europe. My vision of Heaven will always look like Germany (with lots of dogs and cats), but for now my feet are firmly planted along the shores of Chequamegon Bay and Lake Superior