Monday, December 27, 2010

No matter how much I avoid himI always end up bumping into himEven in the Frost-Bitten WinterHe gives me that dazzling smileI just can't seem to get over This feeling I've had for awhile It's so hard & He makes it hardBut even in the Frost-Bitten WinterWhen I see him; as he retorts Makes my Heartgo

Sunday, December 26, 2010

So I had this this twisted lil thought last week about doing something for you guys but then the more I thought about I was like:

"So what exactly was my point again???"

& low and behold I got all depressed and confused as if I was walking about a forest naked while faeries of my favorite color followed me graciously like I was QUEEN!! Also I thought that I could get in 200 post before the new year and that seems haplessly impossible BUT THERE'S ALWAYS NEXT YEAR RIGHT?!?!?!?!? =D

Anyway so I thought about doing this 11 day thing until New Years but there wasn't enuff exciting STUFF you know for me to do for you guys and talk about you know so I said screw it and decided to find something else to do lol. & YAAAYYY found about it last night or was it this morning?? lol whatevs YOU GUYS ARE IN FOR A REAL TREAT!!!

ANYWAYZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KIDS?!?!?!?! How was you guys and dollz CHRISTMAS?!?! Mine was the same as last year. I'm too old for presents, candies, sugah plums & the Fat Man Santa; but then again I'm too old to give presents and I just happen to be TAGGED on presents' to/from tag lol. But we put up a tree tho!! it's been a while so I didn't put it up til like the night before XXDDDD I KNO very hypocritical of me but so what made my mamma smile hehehe ^.^. So uh, YEAH ok so we spent Christmas evening with my AWESOME GENIUS uncle and his wonder sweet cutie wife my fav auntie it was nice lol just got bored and did the same thing I did this Turkey Day

What's that you ask??? 6_6

Well....

Fell asleep on the table again ~_~ don't judge me KAY!!

Anyway it was nice and I was happy ^.^ so that was good thing.

OH!! Anyway here's the awesomeness part of this post =D. Well I'm working on a new picture and i think this will be my best one YET!!! And I'm sooo happy and excited regardless of what anyone has to say this makes me EXTREMELY happy!! I had a vision about her

like last week and I guess I been working on her ever since ;D and I can't wait to finish but I PROMISE that I'mma take my time and make this at least close to PERFECT lmfao!!

Sunday, December 19, 2010

So I happe to stumble upon this anime series known as "Clannad" I'll be honest and say that at first it was very borin and not that interesting but when it started to pick up it became unusally interesting and I can't help but to continue tto watch to see what'll happen next.

However for awhile this whole thing (below) it's call The Happy Dango Family. Now up unto this point I never understood what was the purpose of this song and little animation had anything to do with the whole story (since the whole damn thing is very much confusing at first and you gotta research stuff to understand what the hell is going on!!!!) anyway now that I've watched it I've understood why they have this at the end of the story because it has a lot to do with the story and how MUCH of an importance a family (or a family consisted of friends ^.^) and I just thought this was really cute to the point that I definitely had to take the time to find this on the YOUTUBE and post it on here for you guys ^.^ because as far as I'm concerned you guys are my Happy Dango Family and I love you all for always coming back here and checking things out and being so FAITHFUL and dedicated to me ^.^ it makes me happy and lets me know that I've gotta keep this going coz you GUYS INSPIRE ME =D yea you do (especially since I know that "Hollywood Divorce" is your favorite thus far ;D yes I know these things hehehe)

But anyway I just wanted to say how much I love and appreciate you guys and I hope you'll stick it out with me until I guess the very end but if that's the case and push comes to shove I'll adopt a kid and have her and my grandkids continuing this legacy of COOL AWESOMENESS LOL!!!

Well I'm done and I'm going to finish this I guess, OH ANOTHER THING!!! Fruits Basket I'mma have to post something about that to for you guys between today or this week OK?! ^.^

NOW!!! If you never seen Sailor Moon before I HIGHLY suggest that you watch this episode if none at all!! Why is this episode so gash dark awesome you ask??? Well how many 90 cartoons rated G or Y7 whips out tits and ass like it's something of 3008?? ^.^ now that I got ur ATTENTION!! 15:45 check it out ;)

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OMG!! I'm sucha obsessed dork over this show but I don't care!! It was such a hilarious, funny, interesting, THE BEST LOVE STORY EVER & it makes me reminisce my childhood and how much teenage life I can relate to lol

Sunday, December 12, 2010

OMG!!!! I can't be it's all OVA!!! feels like the end of the WORLD hehehe!!! Well I think besides the few difficulties we had along the way we did pretty damn good HUH?!?!?!

Welp today I slept in but I tried reliving my childhood that I soooo desperately (in a good way) miss soooo much ^.^. When I was a kid I was soooo in love with Sailor Moon. I don't know how it started or why it started but I fell in love with the story. I eventually read the comic books (which is sooooo much better than the anime) but I will say this that the anime in japanese is better than the english version because the cut a lot of the story out and censored what seems like NOTHING compared to the cuss words and bitches on TV nowadays lmao!!

But yep I decided to start watch it all over again and well too because I never finished the last season of the story in the first place. So I'm on the second season I got about 10 more episodes before I'm done with the second season and then it'll be time for the 3rd season =D. What I love the most about was the beautiful artwork done by Naoko Takeuchi she had vision and such a beautiful story that it just blossomed and for me it made my day ^.^

ANYWAY what I'm tryin to say is that even though you may be all GROWN UP or a TOTAL AWESOME COOL ADULT (like moi) you should always check in and see what your CHILDHOOD SELF is up to and plan a day that you can spend a day with them and do something MEMORABLE ^.^

But of course you know this isnt the end of the Christmas Cheer AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!

I WAS POOOPED TODAY!!! SO the uncle comes over and drops off sum salt coz its Winter time and theres a few snow flurries & ICEY planes out there lol. So he takes me to the store. HOWEVER!!!!! My mamma oreder sum shit and there was these 2 GINORMOUS BIG AS THE HOUSE BOXES there!!! Now after I went to the store and he dropped me off, now I SWEAR TO YAWL!!! NO LIE (and you kno i only lie to you a couple time XXDDDD YOU LUV THE WAY I LIE hehe) IT TOOOK ME A WHOLE ass 2hours to get them 2 big ol boxes from the porch to the garage which is only 18 steps away!!!! GAWD!!! By time i got in the house I DIDNT GIVE A FUCK WHAT HAPPONED coz I was tired as hell I need more tha oxygen and a cigarette to make me feel better. SMDH I go to my room hop in the bed and I WAS KO'd!!!!!! and really didnt give a gosh darn thing about it lmfao XXDDDD

WELP!! On to what I wanna talk about. I find it funny when ppl miss you. Like whether it's family, BFFs or EXes ya kno what I'm saying?? It takes a lot to me to actually say OH HEY I MISS THAT BITCH OVA THERE =D LIKE I AINT TALKEDIDID TO THEM IN 81YRS!!!! Like wth??

But still to me it's quite fascinating to me see someone just have you on their mind all the damn time and talkin that bs to you like we used ta do this, we used ta do that blah blah blah whatev! But then when you say "OH what so.....u miss me or sumtin??" THEY QUICK AS HELL TO SAY HELL NO RIGHT?!?!?!?! LIKE make up ur mind crack pot comin to me with that dumb ol bull. If you miss me TELL ME damn why keep secrets?? lol C'mon on now get it together. But what's the hilarious thing about this, about IT. It's always that person who cut shit off in the first place who realizing that their missin sumtin and they feel that if the use the same ol tactics they can get your attention.......NO. KK NO. They make me wanna act like Rihanna, "6IN WALKAH, BIG SHIT TALKAH I never play the victim I rather be a STALKAH!! So baby take me IN I disobey the LAW make sure you FRISK MEH GOOD; check the Panties & the Bra" type shit lol ^.^

But I usually say there aint nuttin to talk about and I don't really wanna see ur ugly face rather much talk to you dammit

Friday, December 10, 2010

kar·ma /ˈkɑrmə/ Show Spelled[kahr-muh] Show IPA –noun 1. Hinduism, Buddhism . action, seen as bringing upon oneself inevitable results, good or bad, either in this life or in a reincarnation: in Hinduism one of the means of reaching Brahman. Compare bhakti ( def. 1 ) , jnana. 2. Theosophy . the cosmic principle according to which each person is rewarded or punished in one incarnation according to that person's deeds in the previous incarnation. 3. fate; destiny. 4. the good or bad emanations felt to be generated by someone or something.

What's truly sad is the fact people ignore Karma or just chose to ignore it. Like the definition REGARDLESS of what it is whether its good or bad, there is always going to be a consequence, reaction......Karma. They forget when they do something nasty or mean to someone else and just write it outta their mind. They wave it off like it's a petty situation or trivial conversation. However these are the same people who are facebookin and interneting WHY OH WHY IS THIS HAPPONIN TO MEH?!?!?! WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE A LIFE LIKE THIS???

I'll admit it that I had a VERY KARMATIC moment in my life. And I've learned from it and I know that no one can't judge me becoz I'm only HUMAN. I make mistakes too! I was soooooo mad at what happened during my 4yrs at Penn State. For me it was very traumatic to accept the death of the love one and continue with the daily routine. It was hard and continued to be hard! I blamed everyone and everything even a talkin piece of paper woul SET ME OFF!! Lol I'm not like that any more becoz I had to learn. Love, Accept, Understand, Come to Terms with what happened, Forgive, Never Forget, & MOVE ON. Once I did ALL OF THAT which TOOK FOREVER to me, I was able to clear my mind and say HEY I wanna be happy right?? Well if I don't fight for it then I can't blame no one but myself. I stopped feeling so guilty and evil and mean. And I learned that it's not about getting the wrong life or wrong living situation. It's about compromise and being able to say WHAT YOU WANT WITH THIS GIFT given to you. God and people will only help those who help themselves. We have trials & tribulations because He wants to know who's worth fighting for and who He knows needs that extra little push! And once you start fighting for what youo love and believe the more He can do for you.

For example when Moses talked with Rameses about freeing his people, all that happened [the plague, the grasshoppers & toads, the death of the 1st son] was all Karma. Here's another laughing at someone when they trip or fall down, you giggle, I know it I do too (OFTEN lol). But then what happens you end up tripping or falling??? ^.^

I kno what I'm talking about and it's the truth. Stop being so selfish and worrying just about you. If you want to be happy think about what it is that you want and HOW FAR ARE YOU WILLING TO GO FIGHT FOR IT???

I Believe in KARMA and the What Ifs of this solitary life. Its hard to find your plae and see where you fit in, but what I will say is that, if you be yourself and don't let people judge you the way you feel God will (and he won't). Show the world how IMPORTANTE & SPECIAL you really are!! ^.^ if you do that and let people know how you feel about them you'll have and live a happier life ^.^

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Well the other I thought about my dad. And for those of you that don't know my dad died Thanksgivng Thursday, November 28, 2008. Yea it was a sucky holiday and I sttill absolutely DESPISE the bloody holiday lol. So how bout this year, I totally missed that day can't even REMEMBER WTF I was doing or what happoned that day.....its crazy stuff lmao. So today 2 years ago was the day we buried him. ITS LIKE WOOOOOWWW!!! I still miss him alot but I think that this year is so much better and it shows that I'm able to grow and move on ya kno?? That makes me happy ^.^

Can yawl believe that we got 3 MORE DAYS?!?!?!?! I can't lol

WELP!! Not much happoned today lmao just kinda chilled and kicked it. SLEPT IN even tho I did go to bed kinda EARLAY XXDDD I'm sucha LOSER but fuck it IDC

I'M THE COOLEST DAMN LOSER YOU'LL EVER MEET!!

hahahahahah!!!!

SOOO who's done they're Christmas shopping already??? I know what I want to get my mamma but since I'm broker than the toys from The Island of Misfit Toys lol. SOOOOO IDK what I'm fin to get her to show its L-O-V-E from Mz. Bunny lol EH I could always draw her sumtin and color it for her ^.^ or make her sumtin AWESOMELY COOL *NODS* UH HUH =D

Anyway how many of you guys are waiting till Christmas Eve EVE to buy whatever left and call it a day?? lol

So I'm still job searching tho 6.< I think I may try at a few of the local hotels, see what's up with them. I don't really care what the job is at this point in time I just want a JOB. I GOT BILLS and stuff to pay for ya kno??? eeehhhhhhh maybe a couple Sextillion DOLLARS will drop in my lap lmao!!! But here's the best part it's not that I'm not able to work you kno?? It's the fact that since my credit is soooo fucked up like POOP I can't get a job.
Ok let's explore that!!!
HOW IDIOTIC IS IT TO FUCK UP SOMEONE'S CREDIT WHICH STOPS THEM COMPLETELY IN OBTAINING A JOB?? Like what idiot came up with that dumb ass rule?? However the debt collectors are bitchin and complaining that they wanna be PAID, LIKE if you wanna pay that off for me bitch then we'll all be happy right??
Makes no sense to me of whatsoever lol
BUT OH TO THE WELL!!!!
I ain't fin to let this dumb ol stupid BS ppl wanna dish out to me and fuck up my program. I'm gonna enjoy myself and still be enjoyin myself when 2011 and 20-12 HITS!!
Plus I'll be takin pictures when the world turns inside out in 2012 and if not I'll be just a disappointed as I was when 2K0 no that's not it 6_6 is it 2KY?? OH OH OH NO NO 2YK =D......that dont even sound right -_- hold on a sec
*elevator music plays*
OK!!! and we're back took me a minute lmfaoooooooooo XXXDDDDD it was only 10 years ago!!! CRS haha (can't remember shit) lol ok it's called Y2K HELLO!! I was mad bout that tho lol but then I said fuck it and continued watchin Heavy Metal 2000 it's a good movie that and the original Heavy Metal yawl should check that out tho ^.^
ok so I'm rambling and I kno yawl don't wanna hear it lmao I'll HIT YAWL UP for Day 10 2mrw or *checks clock 6.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

HEY GUYS!!!! So what's poppin?? Now that WE ARE ALL COT UP & ON THE SAME PAGE CHAPTER AND PORNO SCENE....WASSUP?! LOL!!

So lets talk about something we can't never seem to come to terms wit lol. NEW YEARS RESOLUTION!! Like OMG IDK how many resolutions I've made that were a total BUMMER!! lol or a disaster XD. Well I have a few that I've decided I'mma MAKE THEM WORK this up coming year, and plus I can't really believe that 20-11 will be here in like what?? 22 days just about right?? Anyway I'm gonna share my resolution with you guys, coz I luv yawl you all make this worth my while not to mention ***AAWWWEEEESSSOOOOOOMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEE*** hehe ^_^.

Resolution #1

DIET!! So little did I know but I found out that I lost 14lbs!! I KNO RIGHT!!! Anyway I'm like I wanna loose like a few more pounds lol or at least at a good healthy weight and that CELEB SUPA MODEL BODY so I can show my big ol booty and ginormous tits in a awesome bikini XXXDDDDD BUT I SERIOUSLY WANNA O_O. So I've decided that when the new year hits I'mma go back on my baby food diet, now since I know what I like and will eat. People judge me and I see you doin the same thing *does fingers: I'M WATCHIN U >_>* the baby food diet aint that appealing but it's healthy and good for you.

Here's the deal. See babies can have the food we eat on a regular basis because it's not healthy and not nourishing enough for their cute lil bodies. So most of their food is basically organic non preserved or fucked up wit sodium & corn syrup and stuff. ITS THE PERFECT FOOD if you get what I mean...OK so you know how the news and doctor and QUACKS out there are always like you need all your food groups and lettuce and beans rice & meat fish blah blah blah only 2,500 calories bs. FUCK ALL THAT coz food's expensive!!! You can get a big ol jar of baby food for 50 cents!!!! CMON now like cereal is damn near $7 a box which is OUTREGEOUS!! But hell try sum you make like it lol

Resolution #2

I'M FIN TO ENJOY THE YEAR, JUST LIKE I ENJOYED THIS ONE!!

I mean I've had my ups and downs but you know I don't regret it. I've learned and loss and it makes me a better person as well as being more mature. And it makes room to learn and gain more for the future you know?? I say you have to find your happiness and just stand your ground and don't let no one or ANY THANG get in your WAY!! It's importante and you need to hold it close to your heart you know??

Resolution #3

I'mma stop fuckin round with ppl who don't know how to treat me good ya kno?? I'm not just talking about relationships but friendships too. Coz idk wtf is up wit ppl nowadays they wanna be stingy or act like it's your fault you're not ripping you heart and head out/off for them. What was that Lady Gaga said?? Oh!!

"I'M KINDA BUSY!! I'M KINDA BUSY!! I'M SORRY BUT I'M KINDA BUSY!!! I LEFT MY HEAD AND MY HEART ON THE DANCE FLO!! DE DE DE DE DE DE DE DE DE STOP TELAPHONIN MEH CAN CALL ALL YOU WANT BUT THERE'S NO ONE HOME & YOU NOT GONNA REACH MY TELAPHONE COZ I'M OUT AT THE CLUB SIPPIN THAT BUBB!! I SHOULDA LEFT MY FONE AT HOME COZ THIS IS A DISASTER STOP CALLIN STOP CALLIN I DONT WANNA THANK ANY MO! STOP CALLIN STOP CALLIN I DONT WANNA TALK ANY MO!! NOT GONNA REACH MY TELAPHONE!!!!"

Um, ok I'm done singin now lol so yea that's what I'm fin to do. Since I am single now, MAN I feel like a poor lil cute sexy antelope in the lion's den at the zoo!! However I'mma tigress in that antelope costume XXDDDD CTFU. But it's the truth tho like damn can I have a PAUSE moment geez I need some THINKIN TIME yaknowatumsayin??? OMG I like being a relationship don't get me wrong but if it's a bad one you need time to reflect and ask yourself, "Soo WTF just happoned?? O.o??" But IF I have to be in a relationship or I decide to be in a relation in the up coming new year, then I'll make sure that this time it'll last for a lil while LONGER ;D

Resolution #4

IS

to keep you guys entertained and still intertwined ;D hehehe. I appreciate you guys checking my site or blog out and enjoying what I write. I write what I know and whatever pops UP lol. Its been what a year and half just about and I'm happy being able to have you guys around. YOU ENTERTAIN ME ^.^ and you make me happy knowing you love my stuff. SOOO since I am back online I'mma try to get the use ta be RUE ETC together........might change the name and a few ppl to entertain yawl IDK I'm still thing about it.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

YAY WE KINDA MADE IT TO A WEEK RIGHT??? lol had some technical difficulties.

ANYWAY lemme tell yawl what happoned Monday night after all that BULLSHIT!! So i was talkin to my BFFFFFFEFFF (aka my baby cuzin who's 8yo ^.^ she's wild but sucha sweetie pie lol). So I told her I'd BRB coz I need a potty break and sumtin to drink. So I get distracted into watchin tv and then I'm like OH *grabs iphone*. So how bout the bitch (my iphone thats what I refer to it....as o_o) UM KAY anyway, so the bitch screen is in an OFF MODE black screen I pushed all them muthafuckin buttons. Now it was able to receive calls just couldn't PICK EM UP or text back NOTHING!!! I tried 3 different plugs chargers and a MANY OUTLETS!!!So now I'm mad as hell. Theres no way something that costed $600 and the bitch don't work YAKNOWATUMSAYIN?? So how bout BOTH APPLE & AT&T are closed. I'm like WTF O_< but you bitches are selling shit 24/7 WTFTOSIT?!?!?! So I'm cussin and mad like I'll call them assholes bitch dick suckers in the MORNIN.
So I'm thinkin to myself like well we can try one more option, hook it to the comp. So I and pushed the buttons and it came on which blew my muthafuckin mind coz I would think that electricity is more importante than compooter juice @_@......
Anyway here's the best part of the day. So I go out to get the mail coz I hadn't gotten it in a couple days and there's PACKAGES MAMMY out on the porch and to say the least mail scatter all over the garage floor (thank goodness it wasn't in the wet spot lol). So 2 of the packages I knew what they were and then it dawned on me what the ginormous one was for. So I'm lookin at this other box like WTH are you about?? When I get in the house I opened it and here it was my new Internet.
So my other source of Internet had broken for the 2nd time and I just gave up on it. So couple nights ago I saw this commercial for Internet didn't really pay it much attention. So Sunday or Monday I see a commercial same company but it was sellin this Lil thing no bigger than a regular sized celly and it's called the hotspot. Well it's a wifi 4g Internet connection and I'm like OMF THIS IS AWESOME LIKE THAT COULD SOOOO WORK FOR ME!!! So I decided to order it was the same price as the other but seemed more useful to me than that piece of junk. So i was expecting that it wouldn't be here for a couple days but low and behold there it was in this GINORMOUS (quite ridiculous) BOX. But here's the best part, there's no wires or cables and my fuckin internet is EXCELLENTE!! How awesome is that??? =D I say pretty gosh darn snicker doodle awesome ^.^ lmao!!
So no worries, ur favorite PinUp Gal is def back ONLINE *boop boop boop booop*
(^з^)-☆

Monday, December 6, 2010

So today was very eventful. Extremely eventful to the point that it actually rocked my socks lol.

So what you guys don't know and now that I get a good thought about it, I dont know if you really know but WTH ^.^!!!! Ok so I'm bisexual if you didn't know now you know lol. and I have been almost 2 years. I had always been curious and well curiosity got the best of me, however had a jacked up relationship and at the time I forcefully decided it out of anger. However in the end I felt soooooo MUCH better you know?? Anyway(!!) I did and have talked to a few girls some a cool and.....well, I'mma get to the point.

So like early September I met this girl and we hit it off cool or whatever and had a few dates. Long story short, I'm assuming we broke up, even though I'm pretty sure we did lmao IDK YAWL IDK!! So in the midst of our "hooking UP" she introduces me to a friend of hers I'm assuming now that it was to keep me preoccupied while she did HER ya know?? However, I was aware of her man from the get go so I cant really get mad right?? Anyway so me and dude kinda hit it off not too much (he wasn't who I wanted lol). I'm not gonna get into real detail but I find out and that her and dude used to date. Yes you read that write, least you didn't have to endure the conversation xp *ew*. Ok so like after MID-October, they both stop talkin to me, why I don't know. So I ended up leaving something importante at his crib and I had to chase him for a WHOLE ASS MONTH to get my shit ya know?? So he was playin games and took his time bout gettin my shit. Not to be crude, but I aint come to yo house to have a fuck session I want my shit so I can leave, right?? Anyway so she came over we watched a movie, and she's ready to go home, I'm like can I catch a ride?? She's like NO I gotta go home.......T_< *what?? exsqueeze me??* So he can take you home. His excuse was that he had no gas in his car *but low and behold you had enuff to go get ur kid and possibly take him home right?? BS*. So had to hitch a ride home that night and I wasn't a happy camper (I'm pretty sure yinz picked up on that).

So. For the past week he's been talkin to me like crazy. So saturday (Dec 4) we're coming home from shoppin and I'm ready to put shit away and get in the bed my feet and back hurt and I'm exhausted!! So he asks me what I'm doin, and I'm like comin home from shoppin. He's like oh ok. So by time 10pm came that night I was flyin off my tylenol and KO'd. She calls me at 1:48pm and leaves this attitudal message, like ITS ME PICK UP THE FONE....U NEED TO CALL ME RIGHT BACK. Now I find out about this its 3something in the AM ok?? So crazy shit was on facebook and I'm like I never know WTF's goin on when I go to sleep or cop a nap, which is tru. How bout she pops a tude on my FB (facebook lol). I'm like well idk if your up now (4something now) or not. What was it that you wanted?? Oh I wanted to see if you wanted to hang out with US (him and her). I'm like oh ok. So she's like oh what you don't like me no more?? No never said that, its just since you dont have the time anymore you kno what's the point. So she's like well my dads in the hospital blah blah blah--- OH KAY now before we move on. I can understand that and I have sympathy ok? However if you're going out and having parties and drinking excursions and shit AND the hospital can only doo so much. So......like watchutalkinBOUT?? Ok back to it. I'm like I understand that but still, then I'm like fuck it whatev I'm goin back to bed, which is what I did eventually. So she goes to his FB and says I'mma call you in a few moments.

SUNDAY. I get up a lil late, wasn't feel good, I wasnt. So he goes into this why don't i see you no more why dont you come aroun no mo act?? I'm like what you talkin?? So he's like I just wanna spend some time with you just wanna see you. Why what you miss me?? Well I aint seen you in a while, you saw me last month T_T. So then he's goes into this argument and I'm like HTFU its a lil cold out to be hitch-hiking it ya know?? Well I'm come pick you up...WTF bout goin home. He's like WHEN DID I NOT TAKE YOU HOME?? O_O!!! O_o?! A COUPLE OF TIMES (coz she took me home at least 3 times ya kno and then of course the i no have gas bs nite). So he's like well there was only one time. OH!! OH!! OH!! Oh oh ok........So I ask him, is this about last nite?? He's like what happoned last nite idk what you talkin bout *lying ass and horrible at it too* I told him she called me wantin to kno if i wanted to hang wit yawl. He's like IDK nuttin bout that.....Let's review shall we ^.^

"Ok back to it. I'm like I understand that but still, then I'm like fuck it whatev I'm goin back to bed, which is what I did eventually. So she goes to his FB and says I'mma call you in a few moments."

And you don't know WTF's goin on?? Hmmm. So I'm hella agitated at this point and I let him know how I feel and he's like well I'm sorry, I apologize. *Really?? Really dude?? T_<* Well do you forgive me?? NOOOOO. So back and forth he got mad.

Here's the kicker tho, How bout lol he sends me a friend request like OOPS MY BAD I AINT MEAN TO DELETE YOU, ERRYBODY GOT THESE CARTOON PICTURES UP AND ITS HARD TO TELL WHO ERRYBODY IS.

Sooo kids!! If I wanna delete Raechel coz she's sucha slut and slept with my boyfriend and gave him rabies. Is it gonna be difficult for me to delete that skank?? And not delete Bethany in the process coz she wouldn't hang out wit US saturday NITE T_T.

I'm not stupid and that was sum OL BS as far as I was concernt. So guess what I did

*HITS IGNORE BUTTON* 6_6

So whatever. I did tell her how I felt tho lmao XD. But I'm cool wit it ya kno??? I'm not gonna let ppl fuck up my happy gay as hell button (and I mean gay in a happy joyful way lol). Coz thats petty and childish and last time I check I'll be a 24yo GROWN ASS WOMAN. May not do everything but just as long as my happiness isn't jeopardized I'm truly....Satisfied

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Why is that everyone becomes sooo OVERLY emotional during Christmas time—no scratch that during December?? Hmmm?? I mean most ppl are agitated and depressed some are happy and more are more...... Disgusted. Which is understandable. And I respect that, HOWEVER, must you pass on you ur sour bitter twisted ass mood on to someone else?? Better yet, why must there be that one person for the holidays that's a total ASSHOLE BITCH & fucks up everyones happiness mood and the food. Smh I don't understand it but I guess it must be a traditional expectation for Christmas coz I guess without them Christmas would be all holy and unexciting lol *shrugs* ion kno

Saturday, December 4, 2010

So today my auntie took me and the mamma to walmart to do sum, basically, grocery shoppin. However the store was HELLA PACKED with all the Christmas crazies and weirdos. To the point it started makin my feet hurt I got ruined over and fondled by a many of carts and pointed objects -_-. Well anyway so we bot us a Lil Christmas tree it's one that wishes to be 2' tall some day ^.^. We're doin it up in Limw Green and Luscious Gold with white & colored lights. Lime Green baby skirt & gold Star topper. Awesome I kno I'll take a pick for yin guys after I put it up ^.^.

So were ready to check out an while we're in the check out lone my mamma almost runs this Lil boy over wit her scooter. But instead runs my foot over >_< *YEOUCH!!*. After we finished checking out we're just standin there ya kno talkin about getting something to eat when all this noise drew ERRYBODYS ATTENTION!! I look over here's these 2 black chicks FIGHTING like they on the yard (jail stuff ya kno ok whatev). Um so YEAH they fighting right so a sales associate comes over like, "TINA THEY FIGHTING OVER HERE" monotone & nonchalantly like that. Time runs over even tho her big ol stripper booty was holding her back *XXDDD CTFU*. So it's said that Shonquita jipped in front of Crayola. So Crayola or mad and bitch slapped Shonquita so thus the fight broke out. Damn shame that they fighting and it's not Black Friday or Cyber Monday lmao XD Oh well maybe next time (^з^)-♡♥

So tell me what's yawls favorite Christmas treat??? I love having danish cookies (the ones in that awesome tin can lol), Sugar cookies of course & Ferrero Roche or Bon Bons as I like to call em. It's just not Christmas without awesome sweetz!! Lol

Christmas Tree.

So now that I'm done singing Lady Gaga's 'Christmas Tree' song lol

I'm all for it being a chore to get the tree up to impress the kids, family & friends. But must it be up before Halloween?? WHY is it still UP for 4th of July??? LMAO!! omg!! I understand that it's a HUGH HASSLE to take it down after all that hard work in putting the bloody thing UP!! lol but why not make it FUN??

How bout this?? Plan a day in January or EARLY FEBRUARY to take the tree down. Make it a fun family project!! Pick a weekend or hey do this every night for a whole week. Take everything down and put it all away. And as a consolation prize take the family or significant other out to that new hot awesome movie or plan that ultimate vaycay for the summer to the beach or Disneyland ^.^

Christmas Spirit

There's nothing that gets me into the Christmas spirit like Christmas movie and music. It blows tho that they won't play the music early ya kno?? I used to get sooooo excited to hear the 12 days of Christmas song when I was little it let me know it's time for Christmas. But since the radio stations are so stingy we need to take a moment now and THANK THE LORD & JESUS for iPods and MP3s ^.^

*PAUSE*

So tell me lol what are some of your favorite Christmas movies??? I LOVE JUST ABOUT ALL OF EM. But to name a few: A Mom For Christmas, Mickeys Twice Upon A Christmas, Pirates of the Caribbean pop up every now & then lol, um what else?? OH Christmas Vacation *Sparky lol*. Anyway if you got you a little family or a BIG GINORMOUS HUG ONE plan a movie night. And watch something worth while you kno?? Also so that it can def go in the memory scrap book ^.^

Eggnog

So why do ppl make such fuss about eggnog. IF UT TASTES GOOD ENJOY IT DAMMIT!! lol like I LUV IT it tastes good (never had the "ADULT" version lol) and idc if there's nutmeg missin or half an egg gone so what I still see u drinking it dammit lol

Thursday, December 2, 2010

So my iPhone has been messed up but workin since i brought it. But when the home button started NOT working or doing it's MFin JOB I call up Apple. They tell me well you have to make an appointment. So I'm like alright so this maybe July or August-ish. And I go so the Nerdy Black Dude says to me OH U HAVE TO COME BACK 2MRW AND PAY $80 TO "TALK" TO A TECHNICIAN.....

The fuck?? $80 for a CONVERSATION?? FUCK OUTTA HERE HELL NO NOT ON MY TIME WATCH!! T_T I said screw it I'm not doin that. So as of recently my fones not doing shit. Last night my Safari ain't workin my apps are tellin me "Can't load without a network or wifi connection." Now my bill is paid ALWAYS and always on time if not earlier. So I'm like Bunny WTF is goin on here?? My reception was like ALANTIS and it just wasn't working. Pissed me off. I'm cussing the fone out cussing Apple out, promise to WHOOP THEY ASS you know?? So I said I'll call them in the morning. I end up havin a restless night or whatnot and I watch me a movie Vampire In Brooklyn. Eddie Murphy, Allen Payne & Kadeem Hardison at they're SEXIEST FINEST!!! *whew >;)* lol any way so then I'm thinking. Don't we all get pissed when our shit or even our favorite shit breaks, stops working, or just died for no apparent reason???

I KNO I DO!! So Imma take it back real quick. So 2006 daddy brought me a laptop for school. Power cord stops workin, I had rubber bands all OVER IT!!! It was ghetto big time lol. So! 2008 I buy a new laptop and besides havin sum space issues, that laptop is a SOLDIER!! FORREAL!! But had the blue screen of death and Internet problems ya kno?? So 2009 July-ish buy another NEW laptop HP. By February 2010 the screen GOES BLACK so called them fixed it for min and it stopped workin pissed me off. So I was computerless. March my iPhone (I had since March) falls out my jacket pocket into the toilet EPICNESS OF EPIC FAILNESS!!! So end of March I took thr hard drive outta the HP & put it in thr soldier and it gave a couple problems and space was mostly it ya kno?? So April 9, 2010 buy a NEW WHITE IPHONE. I find out around my birthday (May 20) that the new iPhone's coming and you kno who's PISSED!! So by my birthday I buy a new computer and by June I had a new iPhone. But after all of that. I get pissed and frustrated an wanna cut ppl ya kno??

I think it's a mental complex when all intelligent thoughts and common sense goes out the window and we act like Cave Men & Women and start tearing shit up coz were pissed. It's understandable. And I know I'm not the only one who feels like. It's AMAZING and quite interesting that we being the smartest creatures on the planet can SPAZ OUT when shit don't work lol. But hey it happens I'm not gonna deny or try to calm it down. You do what's best even if it has to involve gasoline & matches (^_−)−☆

So on to the 2nd thing I wanna talk about. And it's about relationships to a point.

So like I'm always in and out and in an out of a relationship alllllll the damn time. But like I said I want to change that, meet someone nice and actually DATE instead of always "hookin up" yaknoumsayin?!?!

Anyway what I've yet to understand is how ppl say well one can't live without a man/woman. That may very well be TRUE; however there's a lot of ppl who HAVE YET to experience 1st let alone knowing who they need or how they need to survive. We're not VAMPIRES so why are we soo dependent upon someone who isn't a parent. Like how women say WELL I NEED A MAN IN MY LIFE. If you're planning to reproduce well I guess u would dontchakno?? But to say without that person you couldn't be you or even survive without them. I think that's crazy. REGARDLESS if u THINK therefore YOU EXIST. If you couldn't then ur either a vegetable, in a coma or DEAD.

Like for me the only real MAN I got to kno was my father he was great and absolutely awesome. He loved and cared for me and did things most men wouldn't do let alone consider. He gave a lot to know and assisted in making me the person who I am today. However I don't need a man to tell how I should feel blah blah blah.

ITS RI-DIC-DIC-DICULOUS, 'DICULOUS, 'DICULOUS!!!

I think it makes you look weak to be so overly dependent on someone. I can understand well s/he's there for me (or us if theres a family ya kno) or they're the main bread winner. I GET THAT DEPENDENCY, makes sense to me. But o say u cannot function as a person.....THAT BEATS THE HELL OUTTA ME 6_6 just doesn't make sense idk maybe I'm overly independent lol

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Genesis 1:1
"1 In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth."

Time had a beginning, people and animals have a beginning. Even life had a beginning and so do months years and days. NO MATTER what it is or could be or will be it has a beginnin. Conversations, jokes, TV series, buildings, everything. But it also has an END. The go hand-N-hand. Some things you never know when it's gonna end and others have that wonderful expiration date ;D. But we have to accept this order because we can't change it and I do believe we'd be HELLA LOST without it you know?? Lol

So keep that in mind ok?? But I must say I'm happy it started snowing. I just hope that we don't have another year kof the Ice Queens Period!!

But shoppin season has begun, the weather is 2 degrees from freezing lol. And I need a new winter coat!! 1 is too too small & the other got ruined so I need a new coat maybe a hat & sum more gloves & HAT SCARVES

But I ain't diggin this cold tho yawl =\. U hott state are BLESSED!!

Anyway!! It's Christmas and for this post imma talk about shopping for ur loved ones or special sexy someone.

Now shoppin for someone else is HELLA HARD!! Not unless u got one of those simple ppl (and that's a 1 in a SEXTILLION!!) it's hard to find sumtin and they ENJOY IT ya kno?? Believe I kno my mamas kinda like that so I be lame & buy her 2 or 3 movies and sum word searches ya kno??

But imma tell you NOW just how it is!! AINT NUTTIN WRONG AIN'T NUTTIN WRONG WIT GIVIN THEM A MFin GIFT CARD. Hey go to a store like giant eagle or kmart something HEY even the store itself online or brick & mortar ( the building itself) and purchase a gift card or two. Hey they like itunes or Apple products get em a $50 gift card. Like don't be stingy like a $5 or $10 is like waving at sumbody. It's not gonna do shit. EMBRACE THEM & get em a gift card. I would!! And hey if they don't want the gift card with there Lil ungrateful ass self send them to www.CardWoo.com ya kno??

Don't let all the high tech and CHRISTMAS EXTRAVAGANZA get to you be cool take ur time besides all the good sales are the week before Christmas so wait it out!! ^.^

I ain't talk to yawl in a minute but wit crazy ass school and crazy ppl you kno what I'm talkin bout!! So imma tell yawl what hap but instead of it bein hella long I'll keep it short & sweet but before I get into that—

Sooo Christmas time is here!!! Finally right?? Lol well I decided last night while I was out & about that imma gonna do the 12 Days of Christmas. But I'm not jottin down random thoughts it's gonna be holiday family ooo what do I buy kinda posts. And plus I thought this would be interesting ;D lol. So after I'm done wit this post imma start the MONTH OFF RIGHT and spread my Christmas cheer (like Lady GaGa ;}).

So!! A buncha shit went down yawl lost a couple more friends, gain sum who are selfish as hell who got to GO!! Had my clothes voluntarily stolen had a couple fights. Finding myself as usual, realizing a few things.

And you know, now I can honestly say that as far as friends go (& I'll get into what happen another time) the special ones are those ones you can go FOREVER w/o talkin or seein them and can still pick up where yawl left off. There's no she said an that ho said and this bitch said shit or whatever. Yawl cool!! & to me that's a BIG ASS accomplishment!! Finding a good friend is hard but you gotta go thru a few losers & assholes to get to the good stuff ^.^!! Believe me I kno!! Also get to kno somebody first before yawl claim each other as BFFs!! A lot of crazy shit happens when you get a head start in a relationship prematurely lol. But I will say this, friends are great and an awesome asset to have, but if you don't know how to kick it and have FUN on ya own....well my friend imma need you go to Borders, Barnes & Noble, AMAZON & check out sum self help books. But if u wanna save a couple bills I'll do it for free XD!! HAHA!!

RELATIONSHIPS!!! Who needs em?? I don't understand or get them no more. Like if imma be in a relationship wit somebody, IMMA WAN TO BE WIT THEM ALLLLLLL THE DAMN TIME!! like I can digg we need our "ME-TIME" gig and I respect that ya kno do u boo-boo I got it I understand. But what I don't understand is this PART TIME bullshit. Like how u goin tell me how much u miss me an care for me an blah blah yada yada ylangylang!!! But why not call me text or better yet come see me!! Ya kno I like surprises too bitch lol. But I don't like well imma see ya this weekend and I don't see u till New Years 2035, like cmon now what typa shit is that?? BUT!! if I pulled sumtin like that I'm bein mean and uncaring and insensitive and shit!! Smdh!!! But with all that said and done lol I kinda wanna get back out there on the market ya kno?? Meet somebody get to know em and make sumtin of it [that is if there's sumtin there to keep & be worth it yaknoumsayin!??]. So well see what's poppin ya kno??

Lastly!!! Laughter is the best medicine don't sit there all snot ballin cryin sobbing go get a movie or sumtin or come on here an laugh a Lil bit bitch. STOP THAT CRYIN!! lol have FUN you only live once and experience life take that trip to Hawaii or Australia (just don't drown nobody O_o). You need fun and a few jokes to function properly in this fucked up society we live in yaknoumsayin??!!!

Christmas is just about everybody's favorite Holiday. I decided in the year of 2010 to do a small project of reflecting Christmas in a more realistic, non-advertising for awesome things like toys and layaway, way. The craziness, the mishaps and everything in between without those things Christmas wouldn't be as fun and cherished as it is.

So I hope that you enjoy the 12 Days of Christmas according to me. As well as look forward for future renditions of this new Bunny Tradition.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

This is my #Taurascope as I call it for today ^.^ and it's pretty much true hehehehe =)

Even tho I failed my driving test lol

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The energy of the day should have you feeling pretty good, Taurus. Your spirits should be high, and laughing may well be a good part of your day. When you laugh, it gets other people going. This is a powerful effect to have. You may find that you can transfer the enthusiasm and good feelings you have to those around you. Share your positive energy by smiling, laughing, and just being yourself.

Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got, got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Toes, toes done up with her fingernails matchin'

Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got, got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Toes, toes done up with her fingernails matchin'

Shake it up, up rock ya bodyMake it knock, knock when you partyin'Take a break, break in the audienceDo ya footwork break and stop again?

Aye, rhinestones all in they faceGold charms and paper chaseTalk smack from around the wayGotta put these chickenheads in they place

I ain't rockin' no stupid, babesI ain't trippin', I juke all dayI ain't slippin' 'cause either wayWhen I hit the block all the people say

Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got, got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Toes, toes done up with her fingernails matchin'

Aye yo this mothafucka jammin', I'm on it, it's a anthemWho is that in the Phantom? Please no camerasThey gone have me on concrete loot in my pajamasTo hide the goods, I would need pants big as Hammer's

I be tippin' them dancers, they be sayin' I'm handsomeI was pretty before the dough but now I'm just the manYou remind me of my old chick on that '84 shitOh shit, did you see the way she got her toes did?

Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got, got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Toes, toes done up with her fingernails matchin'

Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got, got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Toes, toes done up with her fingernails matchin'

Girls be so thirsty, thirstyFast forward to the end of my songAnd say third verse me, verse meWhenever I hit the block I see

Oops, I'ma go, nails like whoaAcrylic base, top all goldClothes on my back to the paint on my toesStay fresh 'cause I'm accustomed to gold

Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got, got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Toes, toes done up with her fingernails matchin'

Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Got, got her toes done up with her fingernails matchin'Toes, toes done up with her fingernails matchin'

Sunday, November 14, 2010

When God makes a good man he throws that mold in the wrong pile and then realizes that he messed up and uses the same mold he's been using since the dawn of time. So it's a First Come basis when it comes to the ladies coz ain't nothing changed in that Eve mold right?? Lol

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

So it's one of those days where I wanna crawl back into that protective shell an let it embrace and hold me; tell me that life will always be hard and hurt me. But then again.... It was that same shell that was holding me back and keeping me from what coulda been the best years of lifetime. But honestly I must say that even tho that shell held me a Lil too close; I'm happy it did, coz I would never be able to come this far with the wisdom knowing truly who Swan shoulda been but to believe of what She can be makes every Lil pain an heartache and crazy idealistic irony worth for me to be a better person and to say that i was truly happy and I sacrificed that happiness to protect someone whom I luv dearly. Coz the big picture of life is that you win some and you lose some but everyday is an experience worth having. It keeps us focus and alert, even though we repeat alot of stupid things. It's done for a reason & there's always something much great & better in store.

I just hope I'm able to keep my sanity and be able to experience the wonder years lol. I luv my mom I truly do......

Monday, October 11, 2010

I would DEFINITELY ALLOW my Teenage son/daughter get a tatt even piercings like I don't see a prob w/ it & even if my kid asked about mine I have no ISSUE or PROBLEM saying I like my piercings & tatts ^.^ I got em for a reason. Bottom line ;D

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Sooo where are guys who have a job, a car, their own place, NO KIDS (don't play GAMES), good sense of humour, possitive attitude, good looks, DEF GOTTA KNO BOUT #LINEN #NAPKINS & nice restaurants, sum1 who don't mine me watching THE GAME or taking me to one, one who can OPENLY tell me how he feels, A guy who say that he's interested in a 3sum or someone else (& no I won't get mad), someone I can talk to, be open to, let them to really get to kno that girl Bunny, to have me, to hold me, no you don't always have to say "I Love You" but if you show me enuff that's all that counts, I want to be happy wit you, I want to be happy to show you off and meet my friends (even the Ex & Lame ones), I want to feel that it's only u & I in the world, I want you to be my everything, No you may not think your PERFECT & you've made mistakes ..... But to me ur the MOST PERFRCTEST THING I can say I KNO, I want to miss you, think about you, Say 'Im waiting for my Baby,' coz ur the only thing I want and the only one I luv.

But if ur reading this..........D____ can u give me a call?? I just wanna talk 6.6

Friday, September 24, 2010

This my shit rite hurr (âŒ’â–½âŒ’) I may be a chick but I man tendencies ;D hahahaha

Lyrics:

[Intro: Big Boi]I be on it all night, man I be on it (day day)All day straight up pimpIf you want me you can find me in da[Crowd]AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)

[Verse 1: Rock-D]Time an' time again I gotta turn back round an' tell dese hoesDat I'm the H-N-I-C, bitch dats just the way it goesI be on dat shit dat have you on it I don't want no moAt dis time I'll need all my freak hoes to get down on the flo'If you came to rep yo set break dat nigga I let 'em kno'If it's jail I get for stompin' hatas to sleep, fuck it I goFreak I'll be off in yo sheets straight geeked swervin' down yo streetIn a stolen Bonneville wit 23's on the feetCollection while he do brown, back in town to do re-bagGive me face, I love the soundSlap the taste they hit the groundBack in the AHooked up, clicked up wit sum people dat don't playOn dat Kryptonite staySo high we might fly awwwaaayyy

[Chorus][Rock-D]I be on dat KryptoniteStraight up on dat KryptoniteI be on dat, straight up on datI be on dat Kryptonite

I be on dat KryptoniteStraight up on dat KryptoniteI be on dat, straight up on datI be on dat Kryptonite

[Big Boi]I I I I I be on it all night, man I be on it (day day)All day straight up pimpIf you want me you can find me in da

[Crowd]AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)WhoooAAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)AAAHHH, (I'm on it)I'm on dat Kryp-to-nite (I'm on it)I'm on dat Kryptonite (I'm on it)I'm on dat Kryp-to-nite (I'm on it)I'm on dat Kryptonite (I'm on it)

[Verse 2: Blackowned C-Bone]Time an' time again I gotta tell dese niggaz an' dese hoesI'm from College Park where we move dat weed an' we slag dat blowGet dope on a daily basisGet high make dem ugly facesPull the dro' an' I'm on probationMy blunts I don't be lacin'I'm on KryptoniteCome to my crib tonightLet me beat dat puss all nightRun tell yo buddies I fucked you rightTell 'em bout all the plaques on the wallTell 'em how you licked my ballsTell 'em how Konkrete run the streetsBig Boi, he put us on

[Chorus][Rock-D]I be on dat KryptoniteStraight up on dat KryptoniteI be on dat, straight up on datI be on dat Kryptonite

[Verse 3: Big Boi]Time an' time again I turn back round an' tell C-BoneGrab kurl on out my book bag, I smell dro' all on you homesSuppose the po-po get whiff of the spliff dat you just smoke, dem folk gon tripProbably will cause canines, move it the side of the road lets take a sniff (arff)Shit, the only thing we ridin' dirty is GBK cd, TackleberrySo may we be on our Mary wayCuz you just ain't gon find no yahPlay, I got a tough team of attorneysMake a judge lean like he sippin syrupyThey play dur-ty, he cain't touch meVerdict be not guilty, search me

[Bridge: Killer Mike]

[Chorus: 2x][Rock-D]I be on dat KryptoniteStraight up on dat KryptoniteI be on dat, straight up on datI be on dat Kryptonite

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Have a thoughts to write. Idk if it'll have a flow or not. Nor if yawl understand what I'm sayin but I'm just—well....dammit it's something I gotta do......regardless.

It's been w whole year since I met you. 6 months to let me get to know youEven though I still want to know more about you. It only took me 18 days to realize hoe much I love you. How much I wanted to keep youHow much I wished you were mine.

We had a few good talks& the eye contact is something I guess everyone wish they sought. There was just sumtin about you that made me look at you. Everything that was me, you liked itUr smile was so illumines Couldn't wait to see it

I knew it from the startFelt it in my heartYou filled up a void I thought I had lostYou made me happy when I thought ALL was LOST. You were my everything—still is

I can't seem to get passed this feeling in my heart. It hurts feels like my chest is caving inwardsI keep tellin myself no it's not true When in actuality, I'm the one being difficultBut I miss you. In sucha way I never thought be true

11. Smile with her.12. Take pictures with her.13. Pull her onto your lap.14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she cant get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Play with her hair .only if she hasnt spent 382745623 hours on it .17. Kiss her unexpectedly.18. Hug her from behind around the waist.19. Tell her shes beautiful.20. Tell her the way you feel about her. One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it. 21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.22. Tell her shes your everything – only if you mean it.23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESNT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her24. Make her feel loved.25-kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!!!!*

THEY MIGHT DENY IT BUT THEY ACTUALLY LIKEAND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE THEM

26-dont lie to HER.*27-DONT cheat on her.*28-take her ANYWHERE she wants29-txt messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesnt need you, just be there so shell know that she can ALWAYS count on you.*

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, ITS IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when shes cold so she can hold YOU too.32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.*33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).*34 . While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automaticall y put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like youre mad. Ifshes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU AREWITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.*37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.*38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fing ers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you .39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.*40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible*

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS*

42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.*

43. Take her for LONG walks at night.

44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.*

45. sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down toher face and kiss her while sitting on her.

What happoned to DATING & GOING OUT?? like why must I be da Baby Mamma?? I think I'm good enuff & I know I'm something special. I'm a BIG DEAL lol. No I don't come cheap and MickeyDs ain't my kind of thing. & Before you ask well ain't nobody gonna do that for you, my dad did. I've yet to meet a guy who treated me as good as he did. WELL YEA I'M SADDITY!! I'm suppose to be if I want better. That's what you're suppose to want in life; something better than what you got. Shoulda Coulda Wouldas don't fly no more. Love IS built on Trust Loyalty Dependability. That's how it should be. Love isn't on well he loves me or she loves me or coz THEY SPOIL ME. THEY DO THIS THEY DO THAT. Saying I love you and doing SO is sooooooo much MORE!!! Will & Jada said it best love isn't about reputation, where u live/d, how good u cook, how GOOD u look. It's about HOW COMPATABLE you are within one another. & HOW you can make something so HARD & DIFFICULT WORK. Especially NOW. Since everyone has children. You have to be able to say WELL DAMMIT I LOVE YOU AND WANNA MAKE IT WORK. & in even in that case (& I agree with Jada) you gotta make that relationship work with the baby mamma or babys daddy. & if y'all can come to a COMPROMISE at the end of the day your main WORRY & CONCERN should be the child and how they feel & how you can make THIS a very HAPPY HAPPY LOVING FAMILY. No I'm not the type to go into an ALREADY MADE FAMILY. I'm not judging it, I just can't handle a Lil crump snatcher saying I ain't their mamma 1 their gettin their ass beat & 2 so is the mama & the daddy for accepting the bullshit. Like if you accept me for who I am. What I feel and how I'll feel. Accept that no I'm not perfect but I'm pretty good at being IMPERFECT. I have issues of my own and PET PEEVES just like everyone else. I'm educated and an intelligent. I deserve someone of EQUAL VALUE. SOMEONE with a job it doesn't has to be NOTHING GREAT a jobs a job don't matter to me. But you gotta teat me good and act like you enjoy my company. Yes I LOVE THE FINER THINGS IN LIFE. I HAVE A TYPE, ok & if I say you ain't my type then your not. A man would know if I'm interested. I'd do whatever to get his attention or to get him to talk to me. No I'm not no ho and it cost money to drop these panties. So don't get it twisted. & I ain't afraid of no man, I'll fuck him up like he was one of my kids. I DON'T PLAY GAMES. If I think I'm important, then dammit I am. NO I DON'T WANT TO BE UR WOMAN OR BABYS MAMMA if u don't have shit goin for you then no I'm not interested. I'm going to school and I'm in a very happy place. I don't need no man or his "child" fucking it up. Saying one thing and doing another bull. And I don't have no time for bull. You wanna hook up wit Bunny then you need to step the game up. I don't come cheap and McDonalds don't impress me. I deserve better and if you can't give me better (and sex don't matter) then we don't even need to have a conversation. I'm a good girl and a damn good woman and if you can't PROVIDE. Well honey baby I can do it on my own. If I think it's possible then I'll make it possible. I'm something special and something extraordinary but I shouldn't have to tell you that if you truly want to be with me. & so far....... I've only heard one guy say to ME how special I am. Damn shame I've yet to hear it from anyone else. If u feel offended or your pissed. Think about how I feel when you say all I'm good for is to be ur SEX SLAVE &/or BABY MAMMA. Smh.

Ok. It's a baby doll a FIGURINE like really???? What bout barbie?? Her mom was a TOTAL SLUT & we never got to SEE "HER" smh like WTF??? Anyway read this mess.....

Bratz dolls come dressed in sexualized clothing such as miniskirts, fishnet stockings, and feather boas. Although these dolls may present no more sexualization of girls or women than is seen in MTV videos, it is worrisome when dolls designed specifically for 4- to 8-year-olds are associated with an objectified adult sexuality

â€“ APA Task Force on the Sexualization of Girls, Report of the APA Task Force on the Sexualization of Girls[6]

Monday, August 16, 2010

It's been a LONG ass time since I talked to my luv muffins ^.^. So ALOT has happened over the past 3 months haha. But imma try to keep thangs short and sweet. And make this post interesting, exciting, mind-boggling, & ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!! (⌒▽⌒)

Sooo...um, last time I posted was right before my birthday. May 16 (had to go check that myself lmao). So if u didn't already know... I got my tongue and nose pierced ^.^ on May 13. Week before my birthday. It didn't hurt a bit am I'm happy to have both of them; even tho I say that the nose ring was a bad idea after all the times I snatched it out >_

Well as for my birthday. My DAY. it wa the worse fuckin birthday I've EVER HAD IN MY 23YRS OF LIFETIME T_T fuckin bill collector fucked it up saying I got money for my birthday that I could give to them or gifts I can go RESELL to give the money to them. Like WTF. What's funny bout these bill collectors. They threaten u sayin they're gonna fuck up ur credit while bitchin they want a cool SEVERAL THOUSANDS as payments. But here's the catch with a fucked up credit score u can't get a JOB!!!! ！(◎_◎;) SOOOO how I'm fin to get a job an pay you if yawl fuck wit my credit which makes the employers say OH HELL NAW!!! So yea wasn't a good birthday.

So May was pretty suckie for me.

JUNE!!

Well my friend insisted that I go back to school. And I am. It's called Bidwell Training Center. You can go for free if your a PA resisdent. All expenses paid and waved and all that goodness lol. So I'm taking up OFFICE TECHNOLOGY. It's a 5 month program from October to March and I graduate April 2011. ^.^ total plus rite??? WRONG!!!!! T_T so after u go to an information session & take the placement test (which I passed) u have to have an interview with the director of the program. & I'll get to that in a minute too.

So!! I had this friend who I consider a sister to me. Ya kno I was always there for her did everything for her. So long story short. Me being nice I buy her sum clothes then she got outta hand wantin to buy up the whole fuckin STORE T_T!!!! Spending THOUSANDS. Smh. So me and my homegirl tryna help her out get her to do sumtin constructive wit her life. So we called her all weekend long so she can go to Bidwell and she says ok. We didn't hear from her until the day of the information session like I'm ready to go. Ms. Kitten (my homegirl) tells her well it's 8:30am we don't have time to make it at 9. But we'll take you to a few places & apply for jobs. And she told her that I'd call her. So 12:30 rolls around and I'm up & red to go and I call her. She has this pissy ass funky ass attitude and after her convo she hangs up on me. Which pissed me off for the 2nd time coz before we took her to the amusement park and she acted a complete ass. Then had the nerve to say I have a tummy ache and a headache but the bish (excuse my French) wanted fuckin cotton candy cheesecake ice cream funnel cake all that shit. WTF if ur stomach hurts?? So I stop talking to her all together.

JULY!!!! *does air guitar riff* >_< ...... O_O *ahem* o_o anywayz

So I stop talkin to the crazy girl and did me. Coz I was tired of help someone that didn't want to help herself ya kno what I'm sayin?? So her main excuse was how her bf felt. But like look.... IDC that she has a bf that doesn't phase me. It's the fact you want to act like he's the best thing since toasters when I'm taking care of ur ASS!!! *ahem* so. I did me. Went to school for my placement tests and I passed with flying colours *hehe* and ribbons an all that goodness (⌒▽⌒). So I had an interview with the director of my major on July 29th. So I'm excited getting ready for that day. Got burncha clothes just in case coz I wanted to look nice!!! Even bot new earrings so I look presentable ^.^. Well I go. One I missed one bus so I said to myself the busway will get me there quicker right?? Wrong took me a whole hour -_- which made me HELLA LATE =(. So it took me 4 calls before I could get anyone to tell them I was having transportation problems rite. So when I finally get there I had to wait another hour. Around 9:45a it was my turn. So we gonna make this short. This lady jumps on my ass like I robbed 10 banks within the past 10 hours....she didn't like what I was wearing ALLL MY PIERCINGS were offensive my shoes were acceptable either blah blah blah so I walk away there pissed. Coz she judged me coz I was late because of the fuckin bus system *slaps forehead* So I need retainers for my piercings and a bracelet or sumtin for my tattoo on my left wrist (yea it's been awhile lol). Smh right??

So the 30th I decided to go out coz I was still pissed over that fucked up issue -_-. So I go to the nail shop around 2ish-3ish. So the 28th I finally talk to the crazy girl after a good month. And so I asked her if she wanted to spend time wit me. Ya kno I'm bein nice tryin to make our friendship work. So Friday the 30th. She comes to nail shop I pay for my nails & toes & her toes. So I had to go to the waterfront to pick up a few things. I stopped at the connivence store to get me a drink and this bish says to me that her BF SAYS I HAVE TO BUY PAMPERS AND BABY SHIT FOR THEIR BABY COZ HE SAYS SO. Look this bush grabs a cart I'm like o ain't BUYIN SHIT!! T_T PUT THAT SHIT BACK PUT IT DOWN DAMMIT. So we leave and she has an attitude or whatev and I couldn't do the waterfront that day.

The 31st of July.

So me & the Velvette Kitty is on our way to the waterfront to have a movie day or whatev. So crazy sends me a text message. And u kno the hello hey how u what's new convo or whatev. So I ask her what u doin today she's like haven family time wit the bf & the baby at the waterfront. I'm like oh ok that's nice. So we're at the movie theater & we bot our tickets so we went & grab a bite to eat. So Kitty wanted to say hello to her coz Kittys been workin and haven't had much time. So she says the bf won't let her tell US where they are. And we went back & forth so she leaves this voicemail & her Lil punk ass bf is draggin MY NAME THRU THE FUCKIN SHIT PUDDLE!!! Piss me off so it's like 10ish I tell her to tell him to stay where he at coz I'm comin to see him. He's getting smart and shit so when I find his punk ass I cussed him the FUCK OUT!!! But before I did that I was lady like and called & asked WTF the prob was. He goes in this stupid act & it pissed me off and then the Lil bitch HUNG UP ON ME!!!! THATS A NO NO WHEN U TALKIN TO BUNNY T_So I call her and she's in a dumb act to and it pissed me off. And her excuse is that coz he's the fiancé she obligated to him. I'm obligated to piss in the morning WTF's ur point?? I was mad at her coz one she wanna be like how u gonna let *HIM* come between us like it's my fault & my dude. Then she's like well I'm just telling u how he feels. He's mad coz u all talk bout him behind his back. Well he ain't doin shit for u. Ur in a "transitional housing" & he's in a house living Scott free WTF that's not love. So I'm arguin wit her and him. So by time 1130 rolls around I'm still arguin wit her and she hangs up on me. She calls me 2 seconds later like my fone died. Yea I bet it did. So I was like fuck her fuck him fuck their issues I don't need.

AUGUST...... T_T

So August 1st. She's blown my cell up BIG TIME. Talkin all stupid an shit so it was a HUGE ASS FIGHT. It included me Kitty, my mother & her & him. So in the end nothing really got accomplished. Well except that they felt that it's my responsibility to take care o their baby ..... Which it's not. But I'm not gonna allow you to kick me in my ass for no reason coz you feel it's right. That's BULLSHIT!!!

So all together I stop talking to her........AGAIN. The time before she played me to the left.

WHICH BRINGS US TO YESTERDAY THE 15th of August.

Now I haven't had a real convo wit her in a minute. So she sends meThis IM like Hi there. Would it be possible for you to watch our son today. O_o! WHAT!? T_T. I told her no. 1 coz I have a cold (cot it the Wednesdays before got cot in a rain storm =p) & 2 u knew wt u wanted to do last week. WTF?? So she gets a tude & says well u wanted to before what's changed?? I mean, u claim him as ur nephew, so......??

I'm like look I don't claim him no more. It's for the best for all of us. No I am not watching ur kid u knew WTF u wanted to do today last week. 3 i have things to do in the morning and I'm not leaving ur baby with my mother since U 2 don't get along ok. So no she couldn't accept that she pops another tude and calls my fone 7 times last nite sayin how I'm being petty and how what happened 2weeks ago wasn't a big thing. So I argued wit her for a minute. And she's like u need to be a woman and call me. I'm like I have a fuckin COLD & A SORE THROAT WTF I'm not gonna waste what lil voice I got on arguing with u. So then she's like well if u have a prob wit my bf u talk to him. Which is how we all got to that fucked up weekend in the first place. I'm like WTF does that you kno??

1. It's not my place to talk to ur bf thats ur job.

2. He ain't got NO SAY in WTF I do on my spare fuckin time or any other time.

3. If u really wanted to be my friend my bff my sister NONE OF THIS WOULDA HAPPENED am I right or am I wrong???

So at this point in time I'm TOO THRU wit her & her punk ass bf. I got my own issues ya kno what I'm sayin?? And right I'm trying my damnest and hardest to make my life right and if ppl don't want to help a chick out.... That's COOL NO PROB. I mean hey OH WELL. But I'mma keep it movin ya kno what I'm sayin