Taylor Armstrong, following her primal meltdown on Monday’s edition of The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, admitted she was a “train wreck” during the filming of the show’s second season, also opening up about her young daughter’s reaction to seeing her father’s dead body.

The show was taped prior to August 15, when her husband Russell — who she claims abused her — was found hanged at a Los Angeles home.

On Monday’s show, Taylor went nuts at Brandi Glanville‘s Malibu party, screaming and crying at Camille Grammer for publicly discussing her claims of abuse with the other housewives.

”When you’re in [an abusive relationship,] you’re so scared, and you can’t really get a good handle on it,” Taylor said. ”I ended up in this situation because of my own flaws and my own insecurities.”

Also on Watch What Happens Live, Taylor opened up about how her 5-year-old daughter with Russell, Kennedy, was at her side when she found Russell’s body. She said the child asked her, “Did Daddy do something dumb?”

In the wake of Russell’s death, Taylor said she and Kennedy “each have good days and bad days,” and that she’s found support under the wing of fellow housewife Kyle Richards, who has a 4-year-old daughter named Portia.