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Smooch update! (Reply)

He's got a scrip for amitryptiline and some blood serum treatment (!) for a painful herpes lesion in his eye. I do not at this time need assistance with that, but I did pay off three other small human-related medical bills this month, so towards the end of the month I may need help with food. I'll keep you posted on that.

We are hopeful, not necessarily optimistic. If this fails, there are other meds. If meds fail, there are a couple of other possibilities I will look into before I look into rehoming him.

Because let's be honest, rehoming an adult cat with health issues who is liable to develop more as he ages, and who has behavior issues and is not guaranteed to get along with other pets? That will be a nightmare. Even if I could do it, I would worry every day that he wasn't getting what he needed.

Thank you for your encouragement. It made asking for the meds easier. It wasn't a heartbreaking decision or anything, but it is a thing I feel a little apprehension over because . . . well . . . his dear little body is so small, and his problems are so big, and medication is so strong.

I pitched it at her as "I am in no way wanting to rehome him because of his behavior issues, I'd be wanting to rehome him because he is clearly miserable, and if I can't fix that, I need to get him in a place where he is safe." Because while it is true that when I catch him peeing on things out of vengeance, I get very angry and frustrated, I am primarily concerned with his happiness.

The vet said he's lucky he has me. In particular.

I don't feel like I deserve that. I don't.

I love him so much. I just want him to be better, and not be sad and angry all the time.