I had my first ‘mystical’ experience in 1997 on the border of Mexico and California. I was living in Los Angeles and attending film school. I had this dream of becoming a filmmaker and photographer and had just finished the filming of my student film. I decided to treat myself to a spa weekend at Deepak Chopra institute just outside San Diego.

At the time, I dabbled in various spiritual and occult practices without much commitment. That was March of 1997 and for the next two years, I had a variety of mystical experiences in my waking and dream life that led me to leave the film industry and attend massage school and study energy healing. The Pisces Solar Eclipse of 1997 was in my 8th house of other people’s resources, the invisible/spirit world, and intimacy.

In the last 20 years, I’ve traversed a very eclectic path that led me to a disillusionment with all that was spiritual — and I banished the spiritual world from my life to live a ‘regular life’. It has become clear to me with this upcoming New Moon Solar Eclipse in Pisces at 8 degrees, again in my 8th house – I can’t run away from this calling any longer – however, with a more practical and much wiser (is that a word?) understanding –

As the moon will be casting a shadow on the earth as it is blocking the Sun’s light, we are called to let the mystical side of Pisces in. It’s like a moon on steroids because it is receiving an immense amount of light from the Sun – yet the Earth only receives a small portion of that light.

Let go of the burdensome thoughts and emotions you have – do not identify with them as a part of you – Neptune will conjunct this New Moon configuration – encouraging the letting go process – the mystical experience that could come if we let go – be careful not to get too carried away in fantasy and delusion or old co-dependent or drug addicted behaviors – the South Node will conjunct this configuration as well as Mercury– it is time to PURGE the old – let it go so we can let the beginning of something new enter our lives.

Uranus and Mars joining forces in Aries – watch out! The impulse to change can be so intense that you move forward before you have resolved any of those old issues – you could be highly triggered to explode

Pluto is going to be a player here as well – in Capricorn – we are breaking down old structures – and whatever Pluto demands must be done – it will happen no matter what – with Jupiter in the mix here – there are some big changes coming. Will you be ready for it?

Regardless of what happens out in the world or within you – do something Piscean related—get in touch with your intuition — soak in a hot bath, listen to your favorite music, do something for someone else, meditate, do yoga – it helps the purge feel less intense — it’s the birth of a new you — get in tune with your vibes, Baby

Thank you for reading — I’d love to hear from you — I’m curious to know what you are ready to let go of. Leave a comment and let me know. You might inspire or motivate someone by sharing something!

I’m not ready yet, I’m not ready yet, I’m not ready yet – has this been your mantra? No, I can’t quite take a chance, move forward, do something different – walk across the tightrope with eyes closed and hope for the best — don’t do that to yourself!

If you aren’t ready to move forward – then don’t take on projects or tasks that you aren’t fully equipped to handle. Why? Because that is where you are at and there is everything right with being exactly where you are at.

Do not fake it till you make it no matter how often people tell you it has given them more confidence to pursue and push through seeming obstacles (your own lack of readiness?). Fake it til you make it is really bad advice. It implies that you should not be authentic and it implies that you should not embrace the present moment. It means to embrace a feeling that is not you right now.

In the law of attraction they say to embody how you would feel, think and act if you had whatever it is you are wanting to create or attract. To do this, you have to (yes, I just said ‘have to’ ugh) embrace or shall we say, get down and dirty, with what you feel (and think) right now. Once you do that and peel that thorny thorn out – you are a bit closer to your light of authentic being. Trust me – it works. However, you have to want to do it. It’s not a walk in the park — that comes after you do the work!

You will know if you are holding yourself back out of fear or if you truly don’t have it all together right now to make a move. That is okay.

The energy of Mars wants to take action – not all Mars placements are adept at taking action in the way Mars intends – and that is the flip side of Mars – impulsive—so if you take impulsive action you will see how the result lands (Saturn) and the lesson (Jupiter) you take from that action.

For example, if your Mars is in an air sign – you probably have said this mantra ‘I’m not ready yet’ many times especially if Mars is in Libra – you hold back. Mars in an air sign is about taking action on ideas – so our ideas come from a mental place and our action comes from behavior – so it takes time before an idea becomes manifested within the body to take action – so it’s okay to wait. It is okay.

Now, we want to wait before we take action because we need to visualize what we want. We aren’t aimlessly waiting for something outside of us to tell us what we want — we decide all on our very own! How cool!

We need to dream a little bit about what we want to create for ourselves. It is that ‘law of attraction’ puzzle piece that assists us in manifesting what would truly nurture our soul’s purpose.

Visualize responsibly– sounds boring, eh?

When I say visualize responsibly what I mean is visualize consciously. I’ll give you an example of visualizing unconsciously – an acquaintance of mine really wanted to make a million dollars a year. For him, this would be the pinnacle of success that would draw to him a hot chick and a mansion with a white picket fence. He actively and impulsively took action on these dreams – guess what? His idea to make a million dollars was based on a design he created (faulty because he had no clue what he was really designing) – he wanted a million dollars and he constantly received mail from reader’s digest and publisher’s clearing house to enter a contest to win a million dollars — a few people supported him in his design but refused to invest — so after a few years he was exhausted and bitter because he had not made over $25,000 in a year. The hot chick who believed in his dreams had a personality disorder and ruined his life.

Where it is you dream and visualize what you want would be an interaction with Neptune and the Sun – Neptune can take you on a wild adventure through foggy swamp lands and into confusion or it take you on a spiritual journey into the unknown in which you gain your spiritual wings.

So, please – visualize responsibly, consciously and in specific detail. Make it big, make it Juicy

The best place to visualize what you want is by being fully present. You create what you want or don’t want in this moment – not in the past or in the future – right here, right now. In this moment take a listen to your thoughts – what is going through your mind right now? That will be your clue about what you are creating – and if you don’t like what you are attracting to you – then identifying your thoughts will be really helpful to you. You will start to see a pattern if you watch long enough.

The more awareness you bring to these thoughts, the easier it will be to consciously create – you can totally reframe any thought that comes through your mind – you can let go of any core belief that causes you to make unhelpful choices.

This life is up to you – make it a good one.

Thank you for reading. Please like this post (if you like it) and tell me how you make your dreams a practical reality —

I apologize for missing the New Moon post – I was stricken with the flu. I was in bed for many days and all I could do was sleep. I did not feel like doing any mental work — I feel like this intense four day fever killed some toxins — hopefully not brain cells! Now, I have a lingering cough – and thinking about the upcoming Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Leo – February 10th – just in a few hours!

I couldn’t miss telling you all about this Full Moon.

This is an awe-mazing configuration we have right now – we have a mystic rectangle, a grand cross and grand fire trine, a yod and a t-square – I don’t think I left anything out!

We have some challenges, some magic and perhaps a miracle or two in the works —

What is a full Moon Lunar eclipse? The earth is traveling between the Moon and Sun and the light from the Sun is blocked by the earth. The earth creates a shadow on the moon. The light from the Aquarius Sun can’t reach the Leo Moon – What this means is that the shadow elements of Leo are being highlighted.

What are Leo’s shadow elements? Self-centeredness, narcissism, dictatorship – these elements are being exposed so we can heal the way we are approaching self-expression. Leo is all about creative self-expression and can get side-tracked when it is too self-consuming. Aquarius is about the collective mindset vs Leo’s version of the self – one is focused on what’s good for humanity and the other is focused on what’s good for the self – and we are all moving towards individuality that Leo demands – a more enlightened individuality that is aware of the collective needs.

The Sun’s light is just wanting to express itself and the polarity of the Aquarius Sun and Leo Moon is saying – shine – please shine but shine to inspire and motivate others to shine as well – everyone has a light to shine.

Where are you dictating and demanding of others? What is it your heart is longing to express? Where can you be more authentic?

It is, truly, an inner revolution toward greater authentic self-expression in which we boldly tell the truth to ourselves about how we have been behaving. This is not an invite to Criticize yourself — it’s an invite to be more loving to self and others — you can do it!

Jupiter in Libra is all about how we are relating to others in a big way – helps us to find a more harmonious and non-violent way to tell others what we think.

Wherever Leo/Aquarius is in your chart is where you will be called to be more authentically self-expressed – and go through a radical transformation – it is so cool that the planetary configuration is aligned in this way – so BE YOU, BOLDLY YOU!

The Solar Eclipse in Pisces is just two weeks away – the end of one cycle and the beginning of a new cycle – continues to assist us in the progress we are making –

Get Ready for Ch-ch-ch-changes – they are coming. Exciting times are ahead of us!

This upcoming full Moon in Cancer will be making a Grand Cardinal Cross in the sky – with opposition of Sun/Pluto in Capricorn, Jupiter in Libra and Uranus in Aries. A grand cross happens in the sky when four planets square one another – 90 degree angles. These four planets are also in opposition to another planet – 180 degree angle. This type of configuration creates tension and challenge. The opposition lends an either/or scenario – something is separated and opposed. Cardinal means – ACTION! During this Mercury retrograde, we have had plenty of time to reflect and now we can take action to resolve the tension. Changes are afoot with this configuration and unexpected change at that.

The moon is at home in Cancer – and with the backdrop of the constellation Gemini – differing opinions (been going on in the world for quite some time) these opposing opinions could turn into arguments – when your security is threatened, what do you do? Do you react in a way that causes a shit storm – or do you have good mediation skills? We could use our skills of reflection and mindfulness (you’ve been practicing, right?) – we know what we feel, we know how to cope and consciously we can intend to take the right action.

Now, with this grand cardinal square we have some helpers to make the emotional tension bearable – we’ve got Neptune conjunct Venus which is a wonderful aspect for romance and adventure – music, poetry – art – and idealism. This aspect is making a biquintile with the Full Moon – so a talent for lifting our mood is to create, create, create – listen to your favorite music, write some poetry, go see a movie or to an art gallery. Get thee to the art house now!

We can harmonize our actions with our emotions by bringing attention to our intentions. Saturn sextile Jupiter puts the brakes on overdoing it – even though the Moon in Cancer will want comfort and security – we have to push ourselves past our comfort zone – Cancer is about emotional security. Playing it safe keeps us stuck in past conditioning – Instead of writing this blog, I could sit on the sofa and eat bon bons and pizza all night while watching re-runs of Doctor Who (which isn’t that bad of an idea) – or I could do something more productive that pushes me out of my comfort zone – could it be vlogging instead of blogging?

We also have Saturn trine Uranus – so if we focus on grounding ourselves in our bodies – we can limit the amount of shock waves that run through us. If you’ve ever practiced deep breathing or meditation – over time this practice makes conflict easier to deal with – and more present and grounded.

As Mercury is still in retrograde – at its midpoint- when you plant your new Moon seeds, let them simmer longer than you normally would– reflect more deeply about what you want to create for the long-term. 2017 is going to be a long ride and unusual ride.

Capricorn is an earth sign and earth is more receptive to the outer world. Saturn, the lord of time, its ruler – this is a seed that needs to be planted deep in the earth and watered and cared for correctly – as you plan on building structure and foundation to those things you want to last.

This new Moon is asking us if there is anything we have done in the past that we would like to try again, this time with more refinement, more responsibility, less emotionality — that benefits humanity in some way. No tall order, here. We can benefit humanity by being more mindful and cleaning up our side of the fence.

Uranus is still in opposition of Jupiter and Mar is conjunct the South Node and Neptune. Are we going to hold on to the past and react in old conditioned ways? We can move toward understanding what triggers us and find healthier coping skills to deal. Perhaps, we all can benefit from an attitude change – whatever will burst – the energy is calling for us to move toward that Virgo energy – discern, discriminate, analyze – and as Virgo is all about health – start finding new ways to live a healthier life.

Be in this world but not of it. Perfect mantra for us in regard to the astrological sky – and for us co-dependents!

During a Mercury retrograde – mishaps in communications are likely. Delays are likely with travel and communication devices. Do not fear!

This is a time to sharpen up our communication skills. A time to edit it out what doesn’t work with the story we want to live. This will play out through the theme of Capricorn/Sagittarius and the houses these signs are in your chart.

Mercury is asking us to reflect and listen more – in many instances, when we communicate with others we place our own spin to what we hear – . We don’t always say what we think. We don’t always say what we mean. We don’t listen to others because we are only listening to what we want to say next in response. We are talking at one another but not with one another.

So, going within, listening, reflecting – is a good thing – on any day of the week. Going within assists you in promoting change from within outward.

Then, there is the force of your exterior world to change to match your desires. If we look at the recent events in Aleppo, we see how physical force caused destruction of the structures of the city and the emotional quality of its inhabitants. This force was executed by a faction of people who desired to snuff out the rebel forces. Atrocities took place that are supposed to be prevented under international law – and destroyed a historical city and brought so much suffering to its citizens.

So, can you feel it? Can you feel the tension in the air? Something must burst to reset itself. We can look at the astrological position to talk about this – Mars will conjunct Neptune and the South Node in Pisces, Uranus in Aries opposite Jupiter in Libra, Pluto conjunct the Sun in Capricorn all on New Year’s Day – and I think within the week between Christmas and New Year’s there will be sparks of the angry kind exploding – wanting to explode in our personal lives and in the world at large.

Mars in Pisces conjunct the South Node means we are reverting to actions that are based on old conditioning – and Neptune in the mix has this covert energy about it – so we won’t really know what has hit us – and it is going to make a quincunx to Jupiter (ruler of Pisces) opposite Uranus – so whatever unexpectedly disrupts our fun will bring attention to coming together as a community. Kind of like the 9-11 kind. For those who don’t want to make conscious change – the hard shit happens to open our eyes.

The good thing is this trine with Saturn and Uranus. What comes as a surprise and catches us off guard is something we will be ready to deal with.

Mercury retrograde will pass over the area we just experienced over the last three weeks so we re-experience that same theme. When it goes direct, it will pass over that area again. We get to edit and re-edit, revisit and redo – yeah, it’s like we are rewriting a script.

This particular retrograde has already shown me the plot, setting, players and possible results that will be affecting my life – so I’m ever so watchful.

Capricorn falls in my 6th house of routine, work, health and service and Sagittarius, 5th house – what I love to do, my performance, creativity.

My sleep routine has been interrupted by some noisy neighbors who have illegally rented from the tenant and I’ve had maybe 12 hours sleep over the last 3 days. This contributes to a rather bitchy, Moody gal. No one wants to piss off a Leo with Leo rising and Moon in Capricorn. That’s like – not good. The rigid General appears with strategic battle – to win at all costs! Mars in Libra tries to sweep all the bullshit and bad feelings under the rug for peace and harmony – and the angry ember is still burning within especially when the pact is broken. Then all hell breaks loose!

Or not.

My attention is being grabbed with these unexpected twists and turns (Uranus – unexpected, excitement) square Mercury retro as it stations backward – and Saturn, the ruler of Capricorn and ruler of time – is kinda placing a huge red STOP sign in front of me. Capricorn is the material world, Mercury is the world of the mind – and Sag is ruler of philosophy, truth, and beliefs – so it’s time to disconnect from the material world and the world of the mind to enter into this meditative space to observe and review.

When shit hits the fan, do you try to clean it up? That’s what I’m doing. I’m getting involved in other people’s shit and trying to clean up the mess – I’m all up in other people’s shit.

When something happens, we are ‘triggered’ to respond – we have physical sensations that are the result of our emotions. These emotions ‘trigger’ these thoughts that are a part of our world view – and then we do something about it to relieve the tension. Or we run from it. Or we blame others.

Let’s put all that aside (I’m going to), in favor of observing our inner world without doing anything to change it – that brings us into a state of mindfulness – Mercury’s highest evolution is mindfulness. When we enter into a state of mindfulness we suddenly realize there is nothing to do. Not yet. In time, we realize what we do – and that ‘what we do’ if we are to come from a 5D reality — stems from a 5D perspective and not from the physical sensation of emotional intensity reacting.

The 6th house is also work and with Mercury about to go retrograde – I should pay close attention to how I communicate at work and with co-workers – maybe some old clients will return – maybe run into previous co-workers. I’ve run into two previous co-workers unexpectedly in places I unexpectedly and rarely visit who also had, at the last minute, decide to venture into new territory.

No big deal, you might say. It doesn’t mean a thing. And yes, it is no big deal. It doesn’t mean anything except the meaning you give it. We wouldn’t grow or evolve if we didn’t apply a meaning to something and then investigate this meaning on a deeper level to evoke some inner change.

Remember: As above; so below.

So, allow the machinations of disruption, interference, and possible chaos happen so you aren’t a pawn in the karmic game.

Life is an inner journey. The outer journey is the experience that you use to understand, learn and grow as a human being. Or not. Be an observer of your inner and outer reality – be in this world but not of this world —

Get off the weird mystical tracks that try to make this out to be a magical thinking mystery ride.

Switch the power track from outer to inner – and start the REVOLUTION from within.

The power has always and will always be within you.

Thank you for reading —

What do you think about this upcoming retrograde? What are you experiencing? Share in the comments below — hit like if you like it.

In this age, which believes that there is a shortcut to everyone, the greatest lesson to be learned is that the most difficult way is, in the long run, the easiest.Henry Miller

For some people, glossing over the truth is the easiest way to avoid potential conflict and have other people approve of us. In some instances, avoiding communication altogether is a way to escape conflict that ‘might’ arise out of telling our truth.

Gemini is not known for emotional depth; it’s known for facts and information and communicating that information to others. Gemini is known for its witty and clever quality – not necessarily concerned with the truth (that’s Sagitarrius’ domain). This Full Moon in Gemini is not one of those moons.

The Full Moon illuminates Gemini so it brings to light information or facts that we previously weren’t aware of, perhaps even hidden from us. The Full Moon is opposing Saturn in Sagittarius so there are some serious conversations we must have.

Let’s talk.

These two words, for some reason, sum up a lot of fear. We can’t have fun all the time. Sometimes, we have to have those very difficult conversations with people about where we are coming from. Conversations we don’t want to have because we are afraid of what others will think, afraid someone will leave us, afraid we will lose our job – afraid we will look like a weirdo – this is the time to put on your big girl pants.

In the Eastern time zone, the moon is moving through the 12th house of endings and karma – so we see here the culmination of our actions. When we understand how our actions resulted in our circumstances, we can then let go, move on, transform our lives.

This is going to be easy to deal with because we have the full moon making a grand trine in air signs – so lots of talk (not the Mystical kind, yet). By the next new Moon we know what it is we want to do differently.

Moon trine Jupiter in Libra and Mars in Aquarius – so these sobering talks we have will be about harmony, peace, social justice – and Uranus in Aries will add an unexpected spark to the mix as it sextiles the moon and trines the sun and Saturn – I think some really good things will come out of what we talk about.

You’ll be glad you did.

Mercury Retrograde in Capricorn is going to affect this Full Moon – stay tuned for more —