I could list our accomplishments and failures but to do so feels like a needless attempt to justify my existence by holding them next to the deeds of others. I have no desire for such measurements to be taken of my life and efforts. I am happy to say that I feel no urge to attach myself to any of it.

This emptiness is a welcome thing and so I will make more room for it. I realized when contemplating the creation of this ‘year end in review’ that I had almost no desire to do so.

The lack of wanting, needing, planning, anticipating seems like a good place to begin a new thing.

Not that I feel anything really changes with the passing of a new year, only the numbers we use when we write-out the date. Why should be a schism or break?

Life just goes on and I am grateful for that opportunity.

Opportunity for what? I don’t know. Continued existence?

It seems such an unfortunate habit to try and plan, predict or otherwise exert control over what is to come.

Often I think the thing we are meant to do at these times is wait.

Truly wait.

Not to fill our own heads with expectations and busily wile away today by thinking about tomorrow. Rendering us so preoccupied with what is to come next that we constantly miss the current moment.

I wish not to spend my time quarreling with reality because it doesn’t resemble what I thought it would become.

There are indeed many things I hope to experience or make a part of my life. I can’t help but feel I need to let them go and just wait for the unforeseen opportunities that will surly come.