Thank you for your kind words. Buddy you cannot be helped because you keep imagining you have contracted HIV when the reality is you were nowhere near a risk of contracting it. All you can be advised here is to let this go and get on with your life, really. If you chose not to then sorry mate this is your call.

The only person that is allowing HIV into his life is you and you are doing so because you are playing out what ifs and worst case scenarios. The actual real reality is that HIV is not in your life and was never even close to entering your life.