just switched radio stations in the car, and the exact song and part of the song came into my mind before i switched over. always weird when that happens. and now i am eating peppermint frosted sugar cookies. mmm.

I wish I was more outgoing ..I've lost touch with a lot of people.
I'll be happy when the snow melts and hopefully I'll get out more.
I want to move out west. or to another country. haha anyone have free living space for me?
le sigh xxo

I've been out of commission past few weeks with Strep Throat and Sinus Infections that don't seem super keen on going away. I don't have health insurance so I try to get by as much as possible with over the counter meds or holistic remedies but sometimes a bit more than that is needed.
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I rarely post here because I don't like always being the bearer of bad news. My happy times are so fleeting they escape me before I get a chance to mention them, but anyway...there is still a glimmer of firey hope down deep inside me somewhere. Hopefully I will re-emerge to the world when the new year rolls around

i am so damn sorry about your puppydog... i have never had a dog myself because i know the odds are that it would die before me and i dont yet know how i cope with death as nobody i am close to has ever done it.
as far as your girl goes... i did not want to be pushy and nosy and butt into that private part of your life. i sort of wondered what the story was... but i would feel... i dont know. i feel like it would be classless to ask you to dish the dirt. that would just be wrong.
so i wondered if you wrote about it in here at all...
oh my.
sweet sweet lady.
i can think of a couple of reasons that she may have vanished on you... 1. she didnt want you to see her dying and in the hospital constantly and getting sicker and sicker because she thought that would hurt you... 2. she is hospitalized right now or undergoing surgery and is unable to communicate with ANYONE... 3. she thought it would be best for you to live your life and forget about her.
i know.
sometimes people can be stupid. but this was maybe in her mind a mercy to you. so you wouldnt have to watch her die.
on the other hand; my grandma rose was diagnosed with breast cancer when she was in her early 40s. the doctors gave her 3 to 5 years.
and she just died last august. you just dont know. no. wrong. sorry. i meant to say i just dont know.
for whatever its worth... you certainly have me. and i mean that. and i dont say things like that lightly. because people come and go... and when it comes down to it; words are just words. a bunch of letters jumbled up to make sense. but you have me.