Welcome To The Hermit's Desk

May. 6th, 2017

May. 6th, 2017

There's just not been much to say as of late. I've been tired and sleeping a lot. The only noteworthy thing is that Jesse and I have been watching Lexx, an old science fiction show.

I remember catching a few episodes with Pat and his parents when it aired in 1997. It was goofy. A little graphic. And it's still goofy and graphic, but in that WTF kind of way that makes you want to keep watching to see what the fuck happens next.

Here's another truth about chronic illness: It can be boring. Mind-numbingly boring. You'll sleep and sleep and sleep until your bones can no longer handle laying prone. You'll crawl out of bed to find that the last 30 hours of sleep has not left you rested, but instead has left you with just enough energy to not be able to go BACK to sleep, but not enough energy to DO anything with.

Crossword puzzles? Play a video game? Read? Have a conversation with a loved one? Go out to the park? Pet the kitties? Hell, even write? All things that require energy. All things that you can't do, even as your body refuses to rest anymore.

And so you sit on the couch, or on the bed, and stare at the tv until your bones feel soft enough to lay down again, and you'll curse yourself for not being able to do something, anything interactive. Long stretches of time are spent this way. Days. Weeks. Maybe longer.