The system is corruptWe are called to live in fierce integrity with the world we say we want to live in

In this time of further division and fearwe are called to live connection and courage

In this time where so much feels brokenwe are called to bring forth healing

"To live so fully and presently in Love that there is no room for anything else to exist." This is my understanding of "Ahimsa." Now more than ever, we are called to be the space of so much LOVE in EVERY Thought, Word, and ACTION, that all that is not love, begins to disappear.

i wrote this recently for some friends who just got married. But it is really lessons for us all, so i am sharing it here too. :)

May the sun shine upon you, nurturing you both in your beautiful growth.

May the moon remind you that everything has waxing and waning.

May the trees remind you to remain rooted in all that sustains you,and at the same time to be flexible in the storms of life. Bend, don't break.

May the flowers remind you to share and be beauty with and for one another.

May the rocks remind you of the ancestors.

May the animals remind you to be uniquely yourself as they do not strive to be other than they are.

May the stars remind you of magic and gems-- the true wealth-- that is all around us, all the time.

May the water remind you that sometimes what seems soft can wear away at the hardest stone (remember to be soft with one another--especially when the other is being hard ;) and be refreshment to each other in times of need.

May the forests and mountains remind you that we live on and with a Sacred Temple. May it source the Sacred within you.

May the Cosmos remind you of how Magical you are, even as it reminds you how small you are. May this knowing of this dance between Magic and Dust inspire you to live big while remaining unattached to results and outcomes. This makes the dance of life joyful and beautiful!

May Gaia bless you will all you need to support you in your journey together.

i had many memorable experiences while i was in Italy. And even though i was in excruciating amounts of pain and my Lyme was flared pretty badly, i was still so touched and moved by so many of my interactions there.

i led a retreat at ​www.lepianore.it and i can not even begin to describe how wonderful the place and the people were and are!!! The family who created this magical center started with crumbling buildings and mostly barren land and restored and healed it and brought their magical vision and love to the place, and you feel it everywhere you go on their land and in their ancient, restored buildings.

Everyone who participated in the workshop as well brought their own unique gifts, insights, and offerings and i am forever touched and reminded that magic continues to exist, even when i am exhausted, in debilitating pain, and cynical. i bow in humble honor to the family at Le Pianore, to the cook and her helper there who created DELICIOUS joyously, vegan food, and to all who came from all over the world to participate in co-creating magic together.

i have been so sick and in so much pain and fatigue for so long now, that my already overly sensitive self is even more so. It is an intense path to try to navigate. Every smell, sound, and lights hit me like gun shots... and i am not exaggerating. People do not understand because they keep saying, "Well, you LOOK good!" And that is part of the problem... because i am a fighter and i am not lying around in bed (well sometimes i have no other option because my body refuses me anything else) ... people don't get how intense my health situation is.

The other day in the vegan restaurant, i had to use the restroom. Even though they use natural cleaning products, the smell was SO intense for me, that i had an immediate headache and my asthma kicked in. i pulled my shirt over my face and breathed as shallowly as i could. But when i went to open the door, i could not get the lock to let go. i can not even begin to explain the absolute terror that took over me. It was a purely physical reaction that then kicked into my mind. i did my best to calm my breathing and my mind, but people do not understand what Lyme Disease does to both the body and the mind. i can not truly explain what it is like other than to say that in this moment, EVERY tool i have in my mental, spiritual, and emotional toolbox would not work. i did not have my phone and i did not have my inhaler as i had left both at the table. i literally collapsed onto the floor, pounding on the door, begging for someone to come and let me out. i am soooooooooo incredibly grateful that someone who worked there was nearby and heard my pounding and helped me get the door open. "Grazie Mille! Grazie Mille!!" i repeated over and over, my body shaking uncontrollably.

i am the woman who lived for over two years in a tree surviving things most people will never be subjected to. But now, tiny bacteria combined with car wrecks where i was hit from behind without seeing them coming, have reduced me to a hyper-sensitize, over reactive mess.

As i write this, i am crying because i am just so raw right now. i am so tired of trying to be strong all the time. i am totally and completely exhausted.

There is a band Imagine Dragons and they have a song "RADIOACTIVE" that really speaks to me right now.

The first link combines two of their songs, is live, and is completely and totally amazing to me.

i feel radioactive on so many levels right now. As weird as it might sound, i am so grateful to this band, this song, and especially the way they perform it live. It makes me cry everytime i watch it because somehow it validates what i am going through right now.