I’m coming up on an important milestone. And I’m going to be spending it in a heartbreaking place. Saturday, September 23rd will mark ten years since Nate and Sam died. 10 years. That very day, I’ll be at the International Stillbirth Alliance conference in Cork, Ireland. On the Saturday night, there will be a memorial…

I’m always conscious of writing on Still Standing Magazine about my children who came afterwards. Of my rainbow babies. About half of women who have a stillbirth go on to have another child. But of course, not everyone does. And Still Standing is for all of us who are grieving a child, whether the child…

[media-credit id=19 align=”alignleft” width=”707″][/media-credit] Words have meaning. As someone who writes, even if just as a hobby like this blog, I know that. But words have great important to me in my day job too. As a medical librarian, I speak daily in the language of MeSH, or medical subject headings. MeSH is just one…

I love This Is Us. When I heard there was going to be a stillbirth depicted on a major network show, I was excited about it! It is so rare to see stillbirth even mentioned, whenever it is part of a story arc, I am eager to see if the portrayal is real. How well…

There was nothing out of the ordinary about this one gravestone. When I go through my cemetery walks, I love looking at the names of as many people as I can, but this one was unusual. It made me catch my breath. “Killed in Action at Mons, November 11, 1918.” My God, that poor boy!…

I wore my favourite black dress with a jacket over it, even though it was unbelievably hot for the end of September. The dress was pretty much held together by safety pins, so I really had no choice. I had bought it as a treat to myself just a few months before, in the height…

Another one came up today. I wasn’t expecting it, unlike some of the others where the dates are imprinted on my mind. But there I was, smiling back at myself, with my mother and sister smiling back too. I look hot and tired but still happy. My sister is glowing, which is ironic, because she’s…