This blog is (mostly) a near-verbatim transcription of my writing journal. Margins are the same as the journal. These are exercises, not finished products. Other types of writings will most likely emerge at some point.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Journal 13 – Scepticism and Hope

I suppose research is tedious yet irresistible inits call, like whole fish flounder with crustedcrab meat – bony and overwhelming. When willresearch discover hope – real hope in the browntoothy smile of a basketball bellied African living eachday in hope the new American Junior League fundedbusiness will perpetuate and stimulate her fly swarmedeconomy and territory out of its great drastic depression.I've seen the excitement in the eyes of wealthybystanders feeling the call to support of a goodcause – unable, well unwilling, to act themselves,they flood non-profit organizations with their semi-hard earned money. They1 can't be bad. Sure we can'tknow their expenditure or balance sheet, but todoubt all they do is just stupid right? Right?No-one would ever do that. (Ebbers, Madoff, Stanfordothers...) Hope is the bread winner of somany starving Africans that our faculties arealmost unnecessary. HA. With so many foundationswhy are we still in such a terrible wretched mess?Not enough folks like the good Birminghamanians?I'm being obstinate and ignorant. Of course we'restimulating their economy. Of course without ustheir life would be utter shit – as ours is sowonderful and fulfilled2. Each day the skin stretchestauter against my brittle jaw bones until itflaps in the lightest wind like in a G-force machine.It's the grape of the Rhône valley. Our bonds areeasily broken and re-forged with that bastardization ofhope we wondrous Americans call practicality – orpragmatism. Realist. That's where wisdom andgood behavior reigns. What did Nietzsche sayabout the realists? Nothing good. Pragmatism is aphilosophical ground based on no more certaintythan its own assumptions – that what works isright; just as reason is not based on anything butits own assumptions – namely, reason. Lines withcircles arching backwards get me through my faintstruggle with the possibilities of time and accomplishments.

2.28.09

1 The organizations.2 I realize there are lots of problems and holes in what I wrote above (and below). Snippets of arguments, like most of the other stuff written in this journal. I just thought in this case I would make it clear I don’t agree with everything I wrote. Remember this is a journal that I try to use as a ‘write whatever pops in your head as quickly as possible’ journal.