think I am losing, my mucus plug, had quite some brown tinged mucus this morning. For my 'normal births', I usually lose my plug and then give birth a few days later. So hoping that this means that I will miscarry within a few days!

It sounds really weird to 'hope' for a miscarriage, OTOH, at least I know that things are wrong already and have started dealing with it emotionally. A friend asked me, knowing what I know now, would I still have had the u/s that diagnosed the fetal demise? I have thought about it, and have to say that yes, it was not fun to find out, but at least I know now and can start processing it and dealing with it.

I want this mess to be over with, and start a fresh cycle with fresh chart and put it behind me! I have decided to be finished miscarrying, and I'll only do keeper pregnancies from now on!!! (I can hope, right??? :-) Positive thinking has to have some positive influence on it all!!!!!

Karen, I understand exactly what you mean about getting the miscarriage over with so you can start fresh again. I had the same type of experience and had a miscarriage impending for a week and just wanted it to "happen" so I could move on. I had already dealt with the grief part so when it happened I was ready for it, though most thought I should be more upset at the time...you have to go thru it to understand.
Anyway, good luck and hopefully all will go as well as possible.
Best wishes for next time...
Ann