Random Ramblings of a Jumbled Mind

Bitch Session

Ok. So I am not a happy camper right now. Yesterday, the boss went around and gave everyone a bag of popcorn and a plastic bin for popcorn. The little bin/box thing was really cute. It looked like an old time popcorn box that you would get at the movie theater or carnival ages ago, except instead of being cardboard or paper, it was plastic. Well, in fact, she hadn’t given one to everyone. She gave one to everyone but me.

I had been talking to CS who also thought it wasn’t fair that I keep getting left out. Someone overheard us talking and went to the boss. I got called into her office and was yelled at. She completely humiliated me. She kept yelling at me about how I was complaining about not getting any and that she only got it for a few people. In fact, that wasn’t true but I wasn’t going to point that out since she was already yelling at me (with her office door open and people standing around outside).

I wanted to crawl underneath a rock. I am constantly made to feel like I am worthless there.

They had decided to do Secret Santa. Apparently, they decided to do this last week and supposedly everyone knew about it then. CS told me that she wasn’t told until this morning. I wasn’t told until someone came and asked me why I wasn’t going in on it. I told them I didn’t know about it. Next thing I know, the boss comes up to me asking me why I wasn’t going in on it. I told her the same thing. Since YL said she told me last week, they believed her. She did not tell me last week. If that were really the case, then when VV asked me last night if we were doing anything like that in the office, I would have told her. Instead, I told her that there weren’t any plans for it. In fact, they didn’t ask the MR tech until after we pulled names if she wanted to participate.

I am constantly made to feel like an outsider there.

I just really needed to get that off my chest. It was really bothering me today at work.