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Emotional Abusers

by Natalie P.

Most people have had it happen: at some point in our lives we
find ourselves manipulated or "guilted" into doing something we didn't
want to do. We end up angry at ourselves for caving in, and resenting
the other person for pressuring us. However there are other kinds of
emotional manipulation - covert abusive and hurtful techniques that even
the most stalwart Heartless Bitch can fall prey to, that undermine a
person's self-confidence, and may even make you feel like you are going
crazy. The thing is, while true Heartless Bitches would NEVER tolerate
physical abuse, they can get blindsided by emotional abuse, and not even
realize it's happening - especially if it is coming from someone they
trust and love. Like physical abuse, emotional abuse becomes a vicious circle that
chips away at your self-confidence, making it harder and harder to
leave. If you are in a relationship where you have a sick sense that SOMETHING is wrong,
but somehow it's always YOUR fault, and you find yourself always tring
to "fix" things, this article may be for you.

Emotional abusers are very insidious - some of them are much harder to
spot than others, because they mingle their abuse in between acts of
generosity, and often employ emotionally manipulative tactics, and passive-aggressive
behavior. Not all
emotional abusers overtly belittle and verbally harangue their
partners - some are much more perfidious and as such, their partners
may not realize that the source of their distress and an unease over the relationship
has been coming from abuse for quite some time. The
longer a woman remains under the grip of an emotional abuser, the
more she will start to question herself, her actions and her beliefs.
It is the abuser's goal to make her believe that she deserves his
cruelty and that only through her actions can she make it stop. It is his
intent to get her to feel that she is the cause of any relationship problems,
and that his (abusive) behavior is simply a response to her, and therefore acceptable.
It is true, that only through her actions can she make it stop - she must have
the courage to leave the relationship and avoid further contact with the abuser.

Abusers, physical or emotional, are abusive because of their own self-hate
and internal issues - not because of anything their partner did. No amount of
work or attempting to please will stop an abuser from abusing. They have to
be willing to recognize and actually work on their own issues before they
can stop inflicting cruelty on the people who love them. In many cases, they don't
even love their partners, because they can't even love themselves, and don't feel
that they deserve love, even though they crave it. Abusers may genuinely feel bad
that they committed another act of abuse, not because they have any real compassion
for the person they hurt, but because they get angry at themselves for "screwing up"
again. This drives them further into self-loathing, and further
into a cycle of abusive behavior.

It is common for men who are "called" on their
abusive behavior to blame the woman, and claim SHE was the abuser. He may even point to
his abusive childhood as proof that he is just an innocent victim. The truth of the matter
is that abusers generally DO have a history of abuse stemming from their childhood, with emotionally
abusive and/or physically abusive parents. However, it is important to note that though women
can become abusers, MOST OFTEN (because of the way we are socialized and the power setups in society),
if there has been no *successful* theraputic intervention, MEN from abusive families become "ABUSERS",
and WOMEN who grew up in abusive families become "Abuse VICTIMS".

Like the alcoholic, an abuser
must admit his behavior to himself and others, and seek help. Unfortunately,
not all therapy works, and not all people who go into therapy are ready or
willing to do the personal work necessary to get better and eliminate their
destructive patterns. As such, abusers are not safe people - even after
they enter therapy. It can take years of therapy to unravel and undo the
damage and self-hate that has driven someone to abuse. During that time,
the abuser may actually get worse before his behavior improves, if it
changes at all. It is quite common for deeply disturbed people who enter
therapy to initially use the therapy to project their problems on everyone else
and point out the character flaws of those around them, rather than face
their own internal demons. Until they can be honest with themselves and the
therapist, the therapy will accomplish nothing. For a person who has spent a lifetime
of lying and hating themselves, honesty does not come easily.

More disturbingly, some abusers can and DO go into therapy as a ploy - to make it LOOK like they are actually
working on their own behavior, and accepting responsibility for their actions, when, in fact, the real motive is to
arm themselves with distortions of the therapist's words and tools, in an effort to heighten and increase the
psychological warfare. The bottom line, is that you can't trust an abuser, the same
way you can't trust the married man who is having an affair and keeps promising
to leave his wife.

The more subtle forms of emotional abuse can be the hardest to escape from, because
the gaps between the loving, caring behavior and the emotional cruelty can span
several weeks or months. However, someone who is nice and caring, and helpful for 2 or 3 months at a time, but then
deliberately does or says something very emotionally devastating and cruel to a
partner is no better than someone who does the same nice things but then
PUNCHES his partner once every few months. The pain, the insecurity,
the uncertainty, and the heartache are the same. The bruises and the
welts are on the inside instead of the outside, and they take far longer
to heal. While someone may be emotionally blindsided by
major episodes of emotional cruelty, and may even recognize it as abuse, abused partners often "overlook" the subtle everyday criticisms,
"chain yanking", and emotional blackmail that are woven into the fabric of their
relationship, accepting (or denying) it as just part of a "relationship". Unfortunately,
it's part of a very UNHEALTHY relationship.

It can leave the woman wondering if the pain is worth the good times, and even
wondering if this is as good as it gets? What if there isn't anything better?
When he distorts the past and blames you for the relationship problems, you may even feel like you are going crazy, and he will certainly do everything he
can to imply that you ARE. The truth is, there IS something better. You don't have to put up with a relationship
where you are treated poorly, with disrespect, or emotional cruelty, no matter how
infrequent those acts are. And of course, when you do get upset, the abuser
will infer that you are overreacting, or "too sensitive", so it adds to the confusion and hurt that
you may feel.

What are the signs and symptoms of Emotional Abuse?

A common misconception is that emotional abuse has to take the form of a partner
yelling over every little thing, belittling or constantly criticizing a partner. Other forms of emotional abuse, can
however, be just as damaging, and far less overt. They can include being disrespectful,
discourteous, rude, condescending, patronizing, critical, judgemental, "joking" insults,
lying, repeatedly "forgetting" promises and agreements, betrayal of trust, "setting you up", and
"revising" history.

To outsiders, abusers often appear as decent, successful, sensitive, calm and
nondescript. To their families, they are often controlling, self-absorbed, hypercritical, compulsive, childish
and mean-spirited.
Most of abusers are actually BOTH. It is the disparity between the one they love
and the one that harms them that keeps the woman confused. He may intersperse
episodes of abuse with words of love, telling her that she is "the best thing that has ever happened" to him,
and that he wants to start treating her that way, confusing her further. She keeps hoping that
if she does enough, if she gives enough, he will stop hurting her and the loving, caring
side of him will prevail. Unfortunately, this is a fallacy that often keeps
the woman in the relationship for far too long. Ask yourself: Do you have a drawer
full of "apology" jewellery, or a closet full of "apology" clothes?

One of the most difficult things about identifying and leaving someone who is a
psychological and emotional abuser, is that the REALLY successful abusers are highly
intelligent and hide their abuse incredibly well. They may have shelves of filled
with psychology books; many are well-read and very well spoken. They know how to twist and manipulate language and people.
They present an exterior of calm, rational self-control, when in reality, they have no
internal control of their own pain and chaotic self-hate, so they try to control others,
and drive others to LOSE control. If an abuser can cause YOU to lose control, it proves how
healthy HE is, so he can say, explicitly, or implicitly (it's amazing how sighs, and rolling
of the eyes can accomplish as much as words), "There you go again, losing it,
crying and yelling. I'm not the one who needs therapy, *you* are." Unfortunately, if an
outsider sees the abuse at all, all they see is an outburst from you, NOT the abuse that triggered it.
It may make you feel as if you have had all your lifelines withdrawn, as if you are going
crazy, because nobody believes you that this charming, "nice", helpful, successful man
could be so incredibly psychologically cruel and deliberately hurtful.

Abusers play the pushme-pull-you game threatening to withdraw their affections, dropping
statements out of the blue intended to destabilize. This has the effect of making their
partners insecure and uncertain, but that plays right into the abuser's hand as he then
can accuse the partner of being "too needy". Ploys such as casually talking about how
he's thinking of taking a job in another city are one such example of destabilizing talk.
In this kind of case, it doesn't start with any discussion of your relationship, or what
might happen to it - he talks only of the cool job opportunity, with no recognition of the
impact it might have on you, your relationship, or your family.

An emotional abuser may make fun of his partner, or make subtle or
not-so-subtle disparaging remarks about her while with other friends,
and encourage the friends to make disparaging remarks. He will then
be sure to tell her about the jokes they made and act surprised when
she doesn't find them "funny". He may even tell her that she is overreacting
and that it was "all in fun" and that no harm was meant by the "joking".

Not all emotional abusers criticize their partners directly - sometimes
it can be as simple as constantly criticizing how someone keeps a kitchen,
or complaining about the mess in the house, or continuous grumbling about
the laundry, or complaining about the noise and mess the kids make. He
will make her think it is her job to keep him happy, and imply that
household things are contributing to his unhappiness and bad temper.

An emotional abuser will seem to encourage his partner to grow,
to develop new skills and expand her horizons, but then will do things to
impede or prevent that progress. He will mope and sigh about how little time she has
for him now that she is working more or taking that course, or back in school.
Or, he will "encourage" her to advance herself, but refuse to provide any
additional assistance around the house/family to ease her workload, effectively
making it impossible for her to take that course or job. If he DOES provide
assistance, he will let her know how HARD it is for him, and how MUCH he is
doing for her, every step of the way... he will play the "sad puppy"
to the hilt, trying to get her to feel guilty for the burdens she has put on him.

An Emotional abuser will try to make his partner responsible for his
happiness. Either through direct comments, or indirect implications, the abuser
will let his partner know that he is not happy, that it is somehow
her fault, and that she must fix it. The problem is, no matter what she
does, it will never be enough, and it won't ultimately make him happy.

The abuser may take this behavior to an extreme, insisting that he is the
best partner or relationship she will ever have, the only one who can
truly love her (despite all her faults!), and that if she doesn't live
up to his expectations, he will leave the relationship. Since abuse is
really about control, the abuser knows he can have the upper hand in the
relationship if he can keep her uncertain and insecure.

Emotional abusers overcompensate for their self-hate with a warped kind of narcissism.
They genuinely believe that YOU SHOULD know how they feel, and know what to do to make
them happy. AND that you should be willing to do those things without having to be asked
or told. They believe that they DESERVE to be treated better, to be put first, to be
given preferential treatment. He will expect you to read his mind. He lives by
the "if you really loved me, you'd KNOW how I feel" game, and of course
will punish you for not being telepathic. If confronted with the
unreasonable nature of this behavior, the abuser will blame his partner
for his lack of communication - it will always be her fault that he
couldn't tell her what he needed or wanted. He will project HIS behavior on her,
and insist that he couldn't talk to her about what was bothering him because
she was too intense, or critical, or angry, or judgemental, or needy. Don't buy it.
Those are HIS issues. Not yours.

And speaking of narcissism, the emotional abuser will be envious and resentful if
YOU get more attention than HE does in a social setting. He will likely punish
you for it by one of any number of techniques: ignoring you, sulking, disappearing for hours, flirting heavily with someone
else, or leaving the party or function without notifying you.

Emotional abusers expect the rest of the household to live by their
waking, sleeping and eating schedules. If his schedule is interrupted
or disturbed, or if the partner chooses not to follow the same patterns,
the abuser feels justified in "punishing" the offender. This can include
the full battery of emotional abuse and passive-aggressive tactics - because in the abuser's mind,
the partner or household member "deserves" it for not caring enough about
him to live by his schedules and activity calendar.

Emotional abusers may use punishment tactics like leaving (without a word to you), a party or
function that you both went to. They will have socially plausible, pathos-laden excuses for their unannounced
departure, like they couldn't find you, or they were tired and wanted to go home. However, the REAL reason
they left without a word, was to punish you; to wind you up, to get you worried about them, and ultimately,
to have you feel guilty for not paying enough attention to them. When you confront an abuser on
the concept of COURTESY around these sorts of things, the abuser will either apologize weakly,
(but the damage has been done), or insist that your distress over his behavior is overreacting.

Emotional abusers will remind you of your flaws under the guise of trying to be "helpful" or sensitive.
He may make comments like, "You seem unhappy with your body" - even though you have made
no comments about your body image or otherwise, or "You are running late again - you never can get anywhere on time", or
"There doesn't seem to be much point in planning things with you." All are comments intended to
unbalance and remind you of what he perceives to be your weaknesses.

Emotional abusers will try to isolate you from family and friends. There are several tactics that may be employed.
If he can't manipulate your friends, he will either find reasons to denigrate them or will be "uninterested"
in doing things with you AND your friends. He may find them "boring". You may find yourself caught in a double-bind where he "encourages"
you to go out with *your* friends, refusing any invitation to participate, but then mopes that you never spend enough time with HIM.
Over time, you may find yourself isolated from your friends by virtue of the demands on your time that he makes.
You may also find him VERY upset if he finds out that you have been talking to a close friend or family member about him
and/or your relationship with him - especially if that person is likely to tell you he's behaving like an ass.

One emotional abuser went so far as to "set up" his wife so that she would isolate herself. He did it by
"reminding" her of her "shyness", and how socially backward she was. He did this under the guise of "being sensitive" to her
and the areas she "needed to work on". Then he would offer to "help" her by
suggesting she come along to a party or social function with him. Prior to the function he would again
"help" her by briefing her on people attending the party, so that she could "have something to talk about" with them.
As part of his tactic, he told his wife distortions or half-truths so that she would make social faux-pas at the function.
If she ever questioned him, he would insist that SHE must have heard him wrong, and it must have been HER
nervousness that made her forget or screw up. The man was a "pillar of the community", so to his friends,
she looked like a bumbling (and even insensitive) fool, and they "couldn't figure out why a man like him was with a woman like HER."
Combined with his subtle denigration of her friends and family, she gradually isolated herself by not attending social functions, and cutting off
relationships with her support network.

Instead of "lying" to a partner, an emotional abuser may "forget" significant promises he made
to his partner - especially if forgetting that promise will hurt her. He may
also "forget" things so that he can let her know that things that are important
to her are NOT important to him. This tactic can take the form of
making a special dinner for her, containing shrimp when
he has known for years that she is allergic to shellfish, so she can't eat it,
or buying a feather comforter for their bed, when he knows she is allergic to feathers. He will
claim that his lapse was due to "forgetting", when in fact, it was a
passive-aggressive ploy to trick the partner into believing he
was doing "something nice", get her hopes up, and then bring her
down with the fact that she could not enjoy this "gift" of his after all...
It is a passive-aggressive slap-in-the-face.

Emotional abusers expect more from their partners than they are willing
to put into a relationship. The problem is, no matter how much the partner gives, it
will never be enough, and the abuser will expect more - because the relationship
isn't about love for the abuser, it's about control.

The more independent a partner becomes, the more abusive the abuser will be,
because he sees he is losing control of his partner.

Emotional abusers expect to be forgiven for their "mistakes" (otherwise
known as abuse) but are unable to forgive their partners for legitimate
mistakes - and will continue to "punish" their partners for those
mistakes, long after apologies and restitution have been made.

Emotional abusers expect their partners to change for them. Unfortunately,
the changes the partner makes will never be enough - the abuser will always
want more.

The abuser says it's not completely his fault, or she pushes his buttons,
or that something she did triggered him to do or say something hurtful
or damaging to her.

Emotional abuse can take the form of him insisting
that she isn't spending enough time with him, forcing her to "prove
her love" by booking extra time and adjusting her life and her schedule
around him, so that he can then reject any suggestions she has for activities,
and act disinterested when they do have time together.

When she tries to make plans with him, the abuser will remind her in a condescending
way of how poor she is at planning and how he doesn't believe that
the plans will work out. Over time, comments like this insidiously undermine her
self-confidence, by telling repeatedly that she is untrustworthy. Her untrustworthiness
becomes yet another excuse for him to "punish" her with abusive language
or actions.

Another emotional abuse tactic is to reject activities that she suggests
and then do them with other people - letting her know that he is doing
them with other people - establishing control and implying that she
is not worthy of doing the activities with him, but other people are.

An emotional abuser will often use condescension as an effective tool in
manipulating and hurting his partner. In expressing his own internal anger,
he targets his partner. But because she has done nothing to "deserve"
his anger at this point (or any point!), he may be rude, brutally inconsiderate, condescending,
patronizing, or even use the "silent treatment" to get her upset or angry.
When his partner gets upset, and an argument ensues, he can then express his anger at her,
and blame the fact that she "got angry" at him, for the whole argument
- even though HE started it. Don't let him convince
you that your anger at his disrespect and emotional cruelty, is somehow wrong or abusive
to him. That is part of his control and escalating cycle of abuse technique.

As part of this "control" technique, the abuser may "set up" his
partner, pushing as many buttons as possible to get the partner to
lose control by breaking down in tears or getting angry or yelling.
If you raise your voice, he will insist that YOU are the abuser. Don't buy it,
and don't believe it. While there might be better ways to handle the situation,
(more easily enacted if you weren't emotionally involved with this person),
chances are that he has inflicted so much psychological warfare that you have
been backed into an emotional corner, and are reacting in self-defense. Emotional reactions
in self-defense to an abusive situation do NOT make YOU an "abuser".

One of the more subtle but effective ways an abuser can "wind" his partner
up is by invalidating/rejecting/showing no compassion for the feelings of his
partner - especially in conjunction with a deliberate act of malice
that was designed to upset or hurt the partner. He will claim the act was either "accidental" or intended to help the partner. He will
try to tell his partner that it is NOT OK to feel angry or hurt or upset
by his actions - or that if she DOES feel those things, her
"feelings are her own" - that he has no responsibility towards repairing
any emotional damage he may have caused. As part of this tactic
he may pay lip-service to personal responsibility by
saying he "takes responsibility" for his actions, but then make no offer to do anything
about the resulting emotional pain, or say that there is nothing he can do to repair the damage or make restitution.
If she tries to get him to do anything to make restitution he will use the word "blame" as if it is
a dirty word, and accuse her of trying to lay "blame" on him for his actions.
This is the functional equivalent of someone using a board to "fan" you and when
he "accidentally" hits you over the head, telling you that he was just trying
to HELP and that if you feel PAIN, well, your feelings are your own, and
he can't be responsible for YOUR feelings, and there is nothing HE can do
about it now... Non-abusers who genuinely ACCIDENTALLY hurt a loved one's feelings,
do not refuse to nurture those feelings - they help repair the emotional damage, and
they don't repeatedly make the same "mistakes" over and over with their partners.

The flip side of this, of course, is that emotional abusers want to reap
the emotional rewards for being nice and doing "good" things for their
partners - they want the affirmation, appreciation and attention they
feel they deserve when they do something positive for a partner.

The truth about responsibility for one's feelings is that if you love and
trust someone - if you open your heart to the love and caring, you also
open it to the potential for hurt. Yes, in the strictest sense of the
word, no one can make you feel anything - you choose to let them
affect you for good or bad. But very few people, (except perhaps those with
borderline personality disorder), can be completely "unfeeling" when dealing
with someone they care deeply for. Most people are unable to open their hearts up completely
to love and be able to "let" only good things affect their feelings
and not the bad. To disconnect yourself from feeling hurt and pain is to
disconnect yourself from feeling love and joy. When you open your heart to
someone, you are granting them your trust as well as your love. You are
trusting them to respect and honor your love. If someone abuses you
by violating your trust, you are not wrong for trusting - THEY are wrong
for breaking that trust and using it to hurt you.

Emotional abusers have huge double standards. What is ok for them, is NOT
ok for their partners. I.e. THEY are allowed to get angry - their partners
are not.

Abusers will blame their partner for "allowing" or encouraging them to be abusive.
In as much as a refusal to capitulate can trigger an abusive attack, any sign of "guilty" feelings or weakness in a partner is like blood in the water for sharks, when it
comes to abusers. Of course, according to the abuser, it is up to the woman not
to provide him with the temptation to abuse, by changing HER behavior.

If caught in a lie or exposed in a situation where he can't immediately
manipulate his partner into taking the rap, he may try to go for the
sympathy ploy, in an attempt deflect the situation away from his bad behavior.
For example, one abuser caught in the middle of a lie, blamed his lie on "bad memory",
almost started crying, and began bemoaning what he would do if his memory was going,
because his whole job depended on being able to remember lots of details. All of
a sudden, the situation turned from him being caught in a lie, to
his partner being expected to feel sorry for him because of his "bad memory"...
Other deflection techniques he may use when his behavior is exposed, are:

-to bring up stories of childhood/parental abuse (watch these, they are the same old stories each
time, and if you listen closely, you may see that his behaviors closely match those childhood
abuse patterns...)
-to bring up troubles and things bothering him at work
-to bring up his hurt and "pain" over something YOU did ages ago, and have long-since paid for.
-"missing" a grown child who has left the home, or children he abandoned and his former
partner "won't let him" visit (big wonder why...).

If you DO manage to get an abuser to a relationship counsellor, (something many abusers will insist
you two don't need - he'll insist that you "can work things out yourselves..."), the abuser will work to ensure that
the counsellor sees HIM as the mistreated partner, or at the very least, that his behaviors are
one-time incidents rooted in just cause. These kinds of emotional abusers are often highly intelligent
and manipulative. They will manipulate and lie to the counsellor, pinning the onus back on YOU
to change your behavior for HIM. You may find it very frustrating and difficult.
Even if he can't avoid having his trust-breaking behavior exposed, he may find a way to manipulate
the situation so that his "reasons" for breaking trust were because of YOUR inability to meet
his needs. Beware. Sometimes counsellors buy into that stuff, and you end up getting a double-whammy.

Emotional abusers will hide their abuse in acts that they can claim were
done to "try and help" their partner. For example, taking a partner's
kids away camping for the weekend, ostensibly, "to give her some time off",
but without phoning and checking with her first, "forgetting" she had made plans with them already,
and deliberately making sure the kids didn't have time to pack up and be
properly equipped. This is designed to get her upset, but have it look like, on the surface, he
was "just trying to be helpful and she got upset at me." Similarly, an abuser
might do some of your laundry "as a favor" to you, without your asking, and then
shrink or stain your clothes. When you get upset about the fact that
not only did he do this without asking, but it caused damage, an abuser will imply that
your anger is invalid and unwarranted, that you are ungrateful, (he was just trying to help!),
and that there is nothing he can do about it now.
The abuser learns and goes for the most sensitive "buttons" on his partner, so that
he can get a response out of her. The abuser seeks ways to violate her boundaries through
calculated "acts of kindess", and may resort to using her
children, her personal belongings, her friends, or her personal space as tools.

In addition to favors which cause damage, the emotional abuser may do legitimately helpful "favors"
for his partner, but again, ones that the partner never asked for. The problem is that the abuser never gives freely or unconditionally. He expects some kind of
recompense in return, often without stating what that expectation is. This then gives him another
opportunity to feel justified in punishing his partner when she doesn't live up to his unstated expectations of gratitude and reciprocation.
When his partner stands up for herself, you may hear him using phrases like, "everything I did, I did for her", and
"after all I did for her, THIS is how she treats me!". Abusers will often complain (especially to others outside the relationship) about how unappreciated they are/were,
and how they gave and gave and gave, and got so little in return...

Another destabilizing tactic that the abuser may use is to reneg
on a committment, or on a stated belief, catching you off-guard,
possibly even putting you in a position where he can accuse you
of "hurting" him because you didn't know his beliefs/principles/goals
had changed. He will use the excuse that he "changed his mind" as
a tool for keeping you off-balance. If you question his about-face,
he will accuse you of not allowing him the right to change his mind.
While people legitimately DO change their minds about things, abusers
will do it often, and without warning, with maximum rug-yanking effect
for their partners.

Emotional abusers will use the "mind change" tactic to set a
partner up in a no-win situation. No matter what the partner does,
the abuser will find a way to find fault with it - if the cat craps
on his bed and she doesn't clean it up, she is uncaring and selfish.
If she DOES clean it up, then she was invading his personal space.

Emotional abusers encourage their partners to do "self-indulgent"
things that the abuser will later resent them for. It may be as simple as encouraging
her to go out dancing with her friends, or to go visit her mother,
or it may be as serious as encouraging her to take a job or go back to
school. In many cases, his "encouragement" is part of the "if she
really loves me" test - if she does what he encourages her to do,
she is diverting her attention from him, and he will feel justified
in hurting her as a result.

Once someone starts to detach from an abuser and refuses to play the
games, he may go for the sympathy ploy. If his partner doesn't capitulate
and refuses to pander to his emotional blackmail, she will be
accused of being cold and heartless, in the hopes that THIS escalation of
emotional blackmail will hurt her further.

Emotional abusers often display different personalities to other
people in their lives - watch for a completely changed demeanor,
behavior, body language and even tone of voice, when they are at
work, or with a circle of friends. The abuser may claim that this
is just different "facets" of his personality, but in fact, it is
a warning sign that he puts on different personnas to suit the situation,
and you will never know which one is the REAL person. It belies
huge insecurities - the way children try to act like the crowd they
are with in order to be accepted - and is an indication of the emotional
immaturity of the typical abuser.

Emotional abusers, like physical abusers, can be exceedingly charming
-that's why it's so hard for the victim of abuse - their friends only
see the charming side, and don't see the discourtesy, lies, meanness,
condescension and rudeness that happens inside the relationship.

Because abuse is about power and control, the abuser will often try to
become "buddies" or friends with his partner's closest friends. If her
female friends are attracted to him at all, he may even try to prey on
that, so that if she has a conflict or a problem with him, she doesn't
have a close supportive friend to turn to. Abusers will use things
like stories of childhood abuse or trauma, lost friends or the death
of relatives to get her friends to feel sorry for him. He will play up
the "sensitive guy" role. If he can cozy up to her
best friend, the friend will feel caught in the middle - which
is exactly what the abuser wants - to cut off his partner from external
support. If he can, he may even flirt heavily with her friends, have
an affair with one of her friends, or become
pals with one or more of her former friends as another
way to hurt and attempt to shame her. As much as possible, he will
perpetrate this behavior in front of his partner, so that he
is exhibiting his control - going for maximum hurt to her through a blatant
display of compassionless disrespect.

The emotional abuser often plays pushme-pullyou. He will indicate that his interest
in his partner is waning, and when she begins to start separating from him,
he will become attentive and interested again. He may even use sex
as a weapon against her - by telling her that she isn't paying enough
attention to him, spending enough time with him, or isn't initiating sex
enough, but then will reject her advances when she tries to initiate.

Abusers are completely self-centered. They blame other people and seldom
take responsibility for their own actions.

Abusers are self-righteous. They find ways to justify their behavior.
As a result, he always focuses on her problems, and insists that she
change to make the relationship better.

Emotional abusers hate apologizing - and if they DO apologize, they
will only do the same thing again. They know this, and will even try
to make it seem like any expectation of an apology is really an attempt
to "blame" them. (Again, "blame" being that dirty word). For example,
"You just want me to say I'm sorry and promise I'll never do it again,
so that when I screw up again, you can point a finger and blame me and
get angry with me and say, "See? You did it again and you promised you
wouldn't!"" This is called "projection" - abusers do it all the time. They project
THEIR issues onto their partner, and try to make it their partner's
problem. They make it sound like the partner's is somehow wrong or attempting
to set them up for "blame", for wanting some sign of compassion and remorse,
and an indication of willingness to work on the behavior problem.

If you do get an apology out of an abuser, it is a quick-fix, not a long-term
solution, because they will do the same behavior over again - that is why
they are often so resistant to apologizing and saying that they will work
on the behavior - because they KNOW they will repeat it at another time.

Abusers may, early in the relationship, in a moment of "opening up", tell
you of their abusive or manipulative nature. At the time you may think that
this is some kind of indication of a willingness to work on their past problems,
or that somehow it will be different for you. In fact, what they are looking
for is absolution in advance for behavior they will later inflict on you. They
may even go so far as to say, "I told you this is how I am."

Emotional abusers often grow OLD without growing UP. They are emotionally stunted
and immature. Emotional abusers are self-preoccupied, and demonstrate a passive-aggressive
interpersonal style.

Emotional abusers may do seemingly loving, kind and considerate things, that actually
convey a subtle message that you aren't "perfect", that you aren't quite good enough.
For example, it may seem very sweet that he rubs cream into your hands before bed, but then
you remember that he also didn't like you touching him if your hands were the least bit
dry or rough - it "hurt" his skin, so you always had to have hand cream to make your
hands soft before you touched him. Sadly, the REAL message behind the seemingly loving act
of rubbing cream in your hands is that you aren't perfect, you aren't living up to his needs
and expectations, NOT that he loves you... In their own subversive way, these "messages", couched
in "loving" acts, eat away and erode your sense of self-worth.

Emotional abusers deny that they have any problems and/or project their problems
onto their partner, often accusing their partners of abuse - especially AFTER the
partner has woken up and called the abuser on his behavior. At this point he will
be sure to tell as many *mutual* friends as will listen, that she is controlling and
abusive to him, in an attempt to further undermine any support she might get.

In order to gain sympathy, the abuser will share convincing stories of his burdens, including
stories of how he was abused as a child, or how he witnessed his mother being assaulted by his father.

An emotional abuser demonstrates little capacity to appreciate the perspective of
another person when his own interests are at stake. Emotional abusers often
flip between being a martyr and a self-absorbed asshole - there is no middle
ground, and they use the martyrdom as an excuse for their behavior when they
are in self-absorbed asshole mode ("I was just doing something for *me*. I'm tired
of you making me feel bad about myself."). However, that "something" often winds up
breaking a relationship agreement, a promise, or involves
him being condescending, ignoring, or rude.

An emotional abuser sees himself as a blameless victim, and denies his
own provocative behavior, even going so far as to bemoan the fact that a partner
left him, or threw him out, "after all the things I did for her"... The emotional
abuser will play up the "pathos" in an attempt to garner sympathy, all the while,
continuing to stalk his ex, making jokes about things he could do to upset her,
and invading her personal space and boundaries at social functions.

Like physical abusers, emotional abusers will often stalk their former partners.
The stalker's objective is often to control her through cultivating fear
rather than making direct or specific threats, or confronting the her.
Sometimes this stalking can take the form of simply moving into the same neighborhood
as a former partner, and letting her know, through friends, where he is living.
His move into her neighborhood will be "justified" by him for some specious reason,
but the reality is, he can't let go and is still trying to control her and
inflict pain on her after the relationship is over. This is a subtle form of
terrorism, because abuse victims are often very emotionally (if not physically)
afraid of their abusers once they wake up. She will know that she might run into him at the
local convenience store, gas station, supermarket, or on a walk. He is, in effect,
pissing on her boundaries (something abusers have no respect for) and trying to make them his own. He may even begin
dating someone who lives very close to her, so that he has an excuse to go by
her house, or park his car nearby.

Ex-partners of abusers will often express fear of their abuser, and will have
no desire to be anywhere near the abuser. On the other hand, the abuser may try to appear as
if he is calm, rational, and still supportive of his ex-partner, despite the fact
that he will also express the opinion that he believes she is quite unstable.
He will make statements such as saying that he "bears her no ill-will", etc., but then
will show no respect for her boundaries or her requests for him to stay away from her.
The abuser will still inquire with friends as to how she is doing, implying that his inquiry is
because he cares about her - he does care - about retaining those last vestiges of control, even
after the breakup. What he really wants to know is if she is suffering or doing
badly, because that feeds his sick ego. He feels best when he puts other people in
as much pain as he is in.

People in relationships have conflicts. But there is a right way and a wrong way to
resolve them, and no matter what the other person does, no matter what a person's "issues"
are, abuse is the wrong way. Emotional cruelty and abuse are choices. A man can choose to be
abusive or choose to be non-abusive; he can choose to be honest and straightforward, or passive-aggressive and covert,
and no matter how hard a man tries
to blame his partner, there is no justification for abuse.

If you are a victim of emotional abuse, you have to wake up to the fact that this person
*does not love you* and probably hasn't loved you for a very long time, if ever. Because the
truth of the matter is, someone who can be emotionally cruel,
malicious, and compassionless with people who have given him their love and their trust, is so absorbed in self-hate that he is
incapable of loving himself, much less anyone else. What the abuser feels is obsession, not love.

If you find that you are having to explain the basics of respect and courtesy to
a partner - if you are finding that he just DOESN'T SEEM TO GET IT, when you try
to explain why his behavior or actions were disrespectful - run far and run fast. People
who are capable of maintaining and contributing to a loving, supportive, healthy
relationship, DON'T need to constantly have the concepts of respect, compassion,
and consideration explained to them.

Just because he admits his behavior (and WATCH - some abusers are VERY
good at acknowledging they did something without apologizing, or
admitting there was anything WRONG with the behavior.), does NOT mean he
is willing to change it, that he will not repeat the behavior, nor that
he even believes he did anything unacceptable, hurtful or wrong. DO NOT
take admission of an act as a sign of integrity, acceptance of
responsibility, a show of remorse, or an indication of genuine caring,
unless you see EXPLICIT behavior that demonstrates it.

It is NOT wrong, or unhealthy to want someone to love and care about you and care for you,
and to want to reciprocate. It is only through this kind of openness that we can acheive true intimacy
with another individual. And two emotionally healthy people, CAN do this without becoming
co-dependent. Unfortunately, abusers violate the trust that this kind of
relationship requires, and are incapable of true intimacy. They want you to be dependent. People who ARE capable of genuinely loving you in a healthy
and safe way, DON'T WANT TO HURT YOU, and do not DELIBERATELY DO THINGS TO HURT YOU. They don't
play on your insecurities and they don't wage psychological warfare on you. They don't blame
YOU for all the relationship problems, and they don't fabricate problems just so you can be
the scapegoat.

People who love you will treat you with respect, consideration, courtesty, honesty and compassion.
If you are with someone who matches the abusive behavior in this article, get help.
The sooner you wake up to the fact that the relationship is unhealthy, and move on, the sooner your life will improve.

Remember: Safe People are people who draw you closer to who you were meant to be spiritually,
emotionally, mentally and physically. They encourage you to be your most loving, growing self.

The Blame Game - How Abusers with Borderline Personality Disorder set people up in "no win" situations. If you want to learn more
about BPD, check out the entire section at Suite101. It might be that the abuser you are dealing with has this very debilitating disorder.

Many people have written to me asking where
this article came from, what are my references? It came from "eating the
fucking dog food" (figuratively, folks) - from fucking up. Bigtime. From
getting sucked in and having to dig myself out of the shit. It came from
having to take a long hard look at myself and figure out what was wrong
with ME that made me susceptible, and learning about what I should watch
out for so it doesn't happen again. It came from reading, and counselling, and introspection, and talking to
people in the counselling profession, and talking to others who had been through similar experiences, and all that hard work stuff. No, I'm not a doctor, or a
psychologist (though one of my ex's thinks I SHOULD be), but over time,
I have developed a deep insight into the human condition - largely because
having life bite you in the ass has the side effect of opening your eyes, if you let it.

There wasn't a great deal of resources online about covert emotional abuse when I wrote
this. So in addition to being catharic, I figured hey, if it helps ONE OTHER PERSON to figure out that
they are being taken for a very shitty ride, then it's served its purpose.