The same weight loss journey, but with new resolve. Looking to conquer the fat once and for all!

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

My body got jujitsued

Last night, I had my first official personal training session. My ass was seriously kicked. Lunges, Squats, crunches, presses - you name it. My trainer kept asking me if I was okay - but of course, I had too much pride to tell him I was dying. DYING. Especially since he's seriously buff, and dangles my five-pound weights in his hands like a pair of earrings.

So, I woke up today feeling like jelly. According to the "plan", I'm due back to the gym tonight for another cardio workout. This is nuts! Tomorrow, I go back again for some more personal trainin' love. I am overwhelmed in some ways. But I'm starting to feel like I'm in control of my body again. And I really like that.

Yesterday, I successfully resisted chocolate. I got through the entire day without a single drop of sugar. This morning, I felt like complete poo-poo. My tongue felt like it had licked the bottom of a cleaning bucket. I felt sluggish, crabby, and desperate for some injection of sweetness.

Well, it's 10:30. In the morning. And I've just eaten three small chocoates off my co-worker's desk. I feel like a million bucks again. Really, truly - chocolate is a wonderful thing.

Me Me Me

I've struggled with being overweight for most of my life. I've lost and gained many times. Two kids later, it's not just about me anymore. I've decided that being healthy is my top priority. Inside, I've always wanted to be a "runner". I've only ever run a 5K race, but it ignited something in me. My dream is to get fit and run as far as my legs will carry me. A marathon even. Someday.