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Its 1 day after the fight of the century took place at mik’s apt in Lansing. Honestly I am so emotionally drained from all the madness that it doesn’t make sense right now.

The fight took place one day after I discovered I had been duped into doing something I didn’t want to do yet again. Yall know I am slow sometimes so I didn’t realize what had happen until the next day. My reaction tho was not pretty. I went off on those to girls for the first time since they had been living in the apartment and right then it felt that no one was listing to any one. We yelled, called each other names and both had a line of defense for every attack. After all of the yelling back n forth we decided we would do our best to respect each others space and that was that.

Later on I got on the phone to vent to my mom and she really lit into me sayin I should be the mature one and try to mentor to these girls because maybe they need help. She went on tryin to explain a story about a girl who used to be my friend but eventually got into a big argument with my mother about respect. After that day the girl never spoke to my mom, and she ended up going off to have babies and have some what of a hard life. My mom obviously felt like she didn’t reach out enough when my friend at the time was acting out because of stress at home.

I understood my mom but she was basically telling me to take on these girls possible problems because they are cryin out for help. If that was true, I honestly don’t think I would be up for the task and would not want that burden on me, since I have to much of my own stuff going on. I admit I have a lot of growing to do and because of this, I can’t mentor to girls that probably need more help than I can give.

The other thing I feel is that I had to stand up for myself and not let these girls continue to walk all over me and last night I did that. Everything can’t always be rosy and there will always be hard times in life. All I can do is learn from this and do my best to make sure It won’t happen again.

In gooder news I am on day 14 of my fast. I never considered myself to be a stress eater but this week has truly been a test of will. My boyfriend has been extremely supportive of my eating habits and he wants me to stay committed to finishing what I started even with all the stress. I am thankful for him because I would have thrown in the towel a couple days ago. Our relationship as of today (cuz it changes like the wind) is going good. We got a lot out in the open and the more time I spend with him and talk to him, I see that he really cares about me.

He did ask me to live with him but I explained that I wouldn’t be living with another man until I was married. He respects my decision and we went on about the business of finding him an apartment. We found a really nice one that we both like and hopefully he will be moved in next week. Its a big step for him to move to my city and its going to be interesting to see how we will pan out. I remember when I moved here for a guy and that move changed my life. My prayer for s and I is that we will both grow with each other and both end up happy together.

Now this may seem odd since I just started the Experiment, BUT its been put on a slight delay/hold until I am done playing hostess. Yea I said it, (John doe) Has come into town for a few days for work and I invited him to crash at my house so he wouldn’t have to drive back n forth to Detroit (gas is high don’t trip). So last night was the first night and other than the fact that its 2am and im typing this at the apartment complex clubhouse, everything is good. I couldn’t sleep so I came to get hopefully some work done, and do my workout for today (another blog).

I had decided earlier in the afternoon that I would venture out to the grocery store so I could make us dinner and get a few things for the rest of the week, lunch meat, grapes, cheese cake, you know the usual. When I returned to my apartment (John doe) was already there waiting for me and he helped me with the groceries. I was making lasagna (frozen kind yall know I don’t cook). John needed to get some things from the store so we ventured back out while the food was cooking. When he returned I was able to introduce him to my roommate (whom has been coo thus far) We kicked it for a short minute and I told her I was making dinner and for her to eat when it was ready. John doe ended up hooking up the salad and I popped the texas toast in the oven. 20 minutes later the 3 of us was kicking it, eating, and having a cool ass time. John doe went to MSU so he proceed to tell us about the Flinstones which we laugh at because it was way before our time. Dinner was on point too!!

Later we both cleaned the kitchen up and put the food away. John joe I must say is extremely thoughtful and helpful, kinda like a simp but in a nice sweet gesture way (oxymoron). He has always been the chivalrous type of guy, which he was able to quickly remind me of (fallin into the trap). The rest of the night was spent talking about the type of work he does and how we both have dreams and aspirations to do bigger things. I didn’t agree with some (actually 95%) of his ideas for businesses but for the most part he was in line with my same ideas. It always excites me to see a man aim higher for himself and take the steps. He gave me a lot of helpful info about my business venture, and we talked about my building a website which should be up and running by this time next week. Getting side tracked is a bitch when you finally have goals and a ton of things to do, but its all good thats why I’m am up right now getting stuff done.

All and all its been a really really great,fun relaxing day. I haven’t been pressured to “Do” anything yet and I am determined to stay a good girl, I didn’t waste 8 months for nothing!!!! Is John doe someone I see myself with? Yes in some ways and no in others, but right now this is my quest for this to be nothing more than us getting to know each other for the next few days, like we should have in the first place.

So I really did plan to work on the Experiment and in so many ways this is part of it so for my fans,supporters and loved ones give me a minute to work out the kinks. No matter what I am doing I promise to always update. I hate to be MIA for days on end and have people wondering whats up (hate that in blog world) on top of that I just find it good to speak on what im feeling at the moment, it really does help me. This will be an interesting next few days.

As for now I’m finna go hit the tread mill and hopefully take my ass back to bed!