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Little bit About Me

Hi I am Citra Pandianganand this is my personal blog. If you want to hire me to be your content writer, freelance writer or ghost writer, You can contact me as well as on my Email or Twitter. Keep visiting and Happy Life my friends.Drop me line on comment so I can visit you back...

Find Freedom at Batu

Altough the water fall is not so big, Like what I expected while decided to visit here place at Batu Malang. Actually I find my self freedom with the good oxygen and fresh view.

Happy in The Beach at Lombok

You never know what how to difficult to find Pink Beach at Lombok. I got lost, the motor bike got stuck in the middle of forest and I should lost my sandal because the wet land and make me motor bike cant move.

Kawah Putih Bandung

Spend a half hour at Kawah Putih at Bandung, I really find something differnt. The surfur and a nice view but I cant take a long time to stay there because surfur cant make people headache if to long.

Holiday at Bali with a friend

I never forget the most beautiful moment when I spend time holiday at Bali, especially explore Ubud. That is amazing moment in my life to see a beautiful and nature.

Juli 30, 2014

Good morning readers, as usually in morning time I would love to shared song. This time still from Jaci Velasquez. This lyric so touching and that's sound I still need God to hole my life and I wish God never leave me alone whatever life happened to my life. I believe it.

Check this lyric

When I'm in trouble
You rescue me
When I'm alone in my soul
You're here with me
Always unconditional
When I need a friend

You hold me and You're strong
But gentle enough to bend
You know my name when I call
You don't forget me when I fall
Youre my anchor, You're my wings
And I know You're listening

Touch me with grace
When You color my world
It's such a beautiful place
I put all my faith in You
Ill go where You want me to
Youll be there with open arms
When I have a fragile heart
Love save me, oh Lord make me

A reflection of Your love
Capture me, don't set me free
Surround me with Your love, love
The closer I am to You Lord
The nearer I am to love
Place the path to You before me
Keep Your hand above

Lord, I'm in the dark,
Seems to me the line is dead when I come calling.
No one there, the sky is falling;
Lord, I need to know.
My mind is playing games again,

You're right where You have always been.
Take me back to You,
The place that I once knew as a little child;

Constantly the eyes of God watched over me.
Oh, I want to be
In the place that I once knew as a little child,
Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me.

I will rest in You,
I will rest in You,
I will rest in You.

Tell me I'm a fool,
Tell me that You love me for the fool I am,
[And*] comfort me like only You can,
And tell me there's a place

Where I can feel Your breath
Like sweet caresses on my face again.
Take me back to You,
The place that I once knew as a little child;
Constantly the eyes of God watched over me.
Oh, I want to be
In the place that I once knew as a little child,
Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me.

I will rest in You,
I will rest in You,
I will rest in You.
I will rest in You,
I will rest in You,
I will rest in You.

Take me back to You.
The place that I once knew as a little child;
Constantly the eyes of God watched over me
Oh, I want to be
In the place that I once knew as a little child,
Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me.

I will rest in You,
I will rest in You,
I will rest in You.
I will rest in You,
I will rest in You,
I will rest in You.
Oh, la la la la la
I will rest in You.

(I) I will rest in You. (in You)
I will rest in You. (Sweet caresses)
I will rest in You.
I will rest in You.
(So take me back to You)
I will rest in You (I, I)
I will rest in You.

After a few days become lazy and now I'm writing again :) that's good time for me on holiday. I also have plan go to Bali for search something for writing too and also enjoy my time holiday before looking the new adventure again.

Sometimes life is so heavy and thinking that make me crazy. Single sometimes feel freedom and I can do what I want to do. I love the way I am. Whatever it is and whatever unperfect I am, I'm still human and love freedom and do what I want to do with blessing from God.

A month ago I have bad experience. This I want to shared. I really believe God. Because I do feel His caring me, even sometimes I'm making wrong over and over but He still care me.

A month ago, someone hit and want stolen my bag. But lucky me just my right arm get hit. That's so hurt and also my feet still weak after get lock and dark in office.

My friend ask me how can I turn down in the dark? I'm panic actually, in my mind just think that's imposible to turn from stair when the drakness and also afraid Pak Udin go away and already far.

Ya, in 10 minutes in the dark no light my phone light isn't to bright to make light. I'm panic and I'm afraid if I can't go out from office. I just think I won't in here, I should go away. Then I try to go to downstair and isn't easy but lucky me I'm not fall down.

After that try to not crash the sewing machines then I try to call pak Udin name and he already go. Lucky me again some porter still in front of the shop. They heard my voice but they think ghost, I'm trying to make sound to make them realize I'm exist and get trap in the drakness shop.

Lucky me, they call pak udin and I'm freedom ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ... :D ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ :D that's really bad and make me so damn weak. I'm walking to get to busway stop. In three junction someone want to stolen my bag. I realize and try to keep it and hug it. Suddendly they are fall down. If I try to yell "Maling" (Thief) they will go to jail. But I'm not coz they already get the risk. Fall down and none help them.

Juli 25, 2014

Dear diary, this already 3 days I'm in Bintan Island. I'm home because I want to renew my id card which already expire on july.

Bintan already change, especially the airport. The airport already good then I go last year ago. Yea, goverment always do building and make this city good then before.

I'm also still exciting to writing the three stories, the first about the last posting I told you, short story for contest still on progress plus now kids story should finish soon too.

I have time to make it become true and finish in time. I'm so exciting to writing what in my mind. Dear diary, I also have plan before back to work. I want to adventure to Bali. Even I ever work there but I don't have time to explore Bali.

So this is my plan and I wish I can survive to find the new adventure about job. Ya, before that's begin. Let's try become backpacker first. Then spirit to do that to make book and background of setting my stories.

Juli 19, 2014

Ah finally this chocolate finished. Bye bye chocolate Belgium, you are sweet but not less sweet sugar in mouth, when I'm eating you.

I guess this chocolate really compotition most of chocolate then sugar. That's why Belgium chocolate so famous in Europe. People always notice that's Belgium always give the best service for chocolate.

Talking about chocolate, Indonesia also have chocolate plants and many coco trees but I wish one day, good and intelegent people can make Indonesia chocolate will famous too with good taste and mix with great flavor and have different unique taste when eat it.

Bye Belgium choocolate, I wish one day can eat more you ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ... :D ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ :D and • · ♥·♡ τнäиκ чöü ♥·♡. For my friend from Netherlands who gave it to me. God bless you guy

Good morning readers, I'm so glad this is the last time to go to work. Because tomorrow until august first we got long day holiday. This time, I want to used to make my next book.

I do already have "big" imagination to make it plus the short story either for contest at @feminamagazine which this female magazine always present writing contest to people like you and me who desire to be writer.

So this morning I wakeup early and make some draft and search backgroud or setting which part I want used. So I do need research. Even last night I make some friends hate me because I sent the message which the words make them shock. ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ... :D ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ :D ya that's will be good, I hope and I wish.

Happy sabbath and this saturday I should work and can't spend time at church because this week I should work, poor me but • · ♥·♡ τнäиκ чöü ♥·♡. God for the idea this time. After stuck with the book "Man, Sex and Marriage".

Juli 18, 2014

Some part in Europe still get economic crisis, especially in Greek. My friend said he got lost the job and very difficult life a year ago some of Greek friends tell me about it. The last the young boy from Netherlands, also said same. I don't believe so I am searching and I find some information and that is good for shared on my journal online.

History

After gaining its independence from the empire of Philip II of Spain
in 1581, the Netherlands experienced almost a century of explosive
economic growth. A technological revolution in shipbuilding led to a competitive advantage
in shipping that helped the young Republic become the dominant trade
power by the mid-17th century. In 1670 the Dutch merchant marine
totalled 568,000 tons of shipping—about half the European total. Pillars
of this position were the dominance of the Amsterdam Entrepôt in European trade, and that of the Dutch East and West India Companies
in intercontinental trade. Beside trade, an early "industrial
revolution" (powered by wind, water and peat), land reclamation from the
sea, and agricultural revolution, helped the Dutch economy achieve the
highest standard of living in Europe (and presumably the world) by the
middle of the 17th century. Affluence facilitated what is known as the Dutch Golden Age.
This economic boom abrubtly came to an end by a combination of
politico-military upheavals and adverse economic developments around
1670.
The Netherlands did not industrialize as rapidly as Belgium after
1830, but it was prosperous enough. Griffiths argues that government
policies made possible a unified Dutch national economy in the 19th
century. They included the abolition of internal tariffs and guilds; the
a unified coinage system, modern methods of tax collection;
standardized weights and measures; and the building of many roads,
canals, and railroads. However, in sharp contrast to Belgium, which was
the leader in industrialization on the Continent, the Netherlands moved
slowly, probably due to the high costs associated with high wages and
geography, and the emphasis of entrepreneurs in trade rather than
industry.[15] However, the provinces of North Brabant and Overijssel did industrialize, greatly between 1850 and 1890, and became the most advanced economically.[16][17]
As in the rest of Europe, the 19th century saw the gradual
transformation of the Netherlands into a modern middle-class industrial
society. The number of people employed in agriculture decreased while
the country made a heroic effort to revive its stake in the highly
competitive shipping and trade business. The Netherlands lagged behind
Belgium until the late 19th century in industrialization, then caught up
by about 1920. Major industries included textiles and (later) the great
Philips industrial conglomerate. Rotterdam became a major shipping and
manufacturing center.[18] Poverty slowly declined and begging largely disappeared along with steadily improving working conditions for the population.

Government

While the private sector is the cornerstone of the Dutch economy,
governments at different levels have a large part to play. Public
spending, including social security transfer payments, was at 28% of GDP
in 2011.[19] Total tax revenue was 38.7% of GDP in 2010,[20] which was below the EU average.[21]
In addition to its own spending, the government plays a significant
role through the permit requirements and regulations pertaining to
almost every aspect of economic activity. The government combines a
rigorous and stable microeconomic policy with wide-ranging structural
and regulatory reforms. The government has gradually reduced its role in
the economy since the 1980s. Privatisation and deregulation is still
continuing. With regards to social and economic policy, the government
cooperates with its so called social partners (trade unions and employers' organizations). The three parties come together in the Social-Economic Council (‘Sociaal Economische Raad’), the main platform for social dialogue.

Controversial issues

Labour market and social welfare

The Dutch labour market has relatively strict regulations for employers on firing employees, although[when?] the House of Representatives
has agreed to loosen these regulations as a part of austerity measures
to reduce the governmental budget deficit to less than 3%. Unemployment
benefits in the form of a 70% benefit of the employee's last-earned
salary for up to three years (with a maximum of roughly 2500 euros per
month) are available for fired employees, provided that they have worked
for a certain minimum time period.

Age of retirement

Every Dutch citizen gets the AOW,
a state pension, from age 65. Married couples or those who live
together receive 50% of minimum wage per person (about 750 euros per
month), single-person households receive 70% of minimum wage (about 1000
euros per month). Because of an aging population
and the current economic crisis, there is a political debate on raising
the retirement age. Current plans from the parliament include a gradual
annual increase of the pension age until it reaches 67 in 2023, after
which it is pegged to the average lifespan.[22]

Home mortgage interest deduction

The Netherlands is one of the few countries in the world where the
interest paid on mortgages is fully deductible from income tax. This
deduction is a politically controversial subject. Some argue that it
inflates housing prices and that it has an anti-leveling effect on
income distribution, since people with higher incomes generally have a
more expensive house and pay a higher percentage income tax, and
therefore benefit relatively more from the deduction than lower incomes.
Proponents of the deduction argue that it stimulates private house
ownership and that abolishing the deduction would de-stabilise the
housing market. Although many political parties and economists have
argued for a (partial) abolishment of the deduction, it is still in
place as of 2013.

Sectors

Services account for more than half of the national income and are primarily in transportation, distribution, and logistics, and in financial areas, such as banking and insurance. The breadth of service providers in financial services and an Protestant work ethic have contributed to the Netherlands achieving a DAW
Index score of 5 in 2012. Industrial activity, including mining,
generates about 20% of the national product and is dominated by the
metalworking, oil refining, chemical, and food-processing industries.
Construction amounts to about 6% of GDP. Agriculture and fishing,
although visible and traditional Dutch activities, account for just 2%.
Of economic importance is BrabantStad, a partnership between the municipalities of Breda, Eindhoven, Helmond, 's-Hertogenbosch and Tilburg and the province of North Brabant. The region lies within the Eindhoven-Leuven-Aachen Triangle (ELAT).[23]
With a total of 1.5 million people and 20% of the industrial production
in the Netherlands is BrabantStad one of the major economical
important, metropolitan regions of the Netherlands. The province of Noord-Brabant is one of the most innovative regions of the European Union. This is shown by the extensive amount of new research patents by Eurostat.[24] In BrabantStad there are every year 2100 patent applications made at the European Patent Office (EPO), which is 900 per million active employees.[25] Mainly due to the Dutch electronics giant Philips' scientific centers, BrabantStad has grown more important than similar centres like Paris, Stockholm and Stuttgart.[26] Together Amsterdam (airport), Rotterdam (seaport), and Eindhoven (Brainport) form the foundation of the Dutch economy.[27]
The Netherlands continues to be one of the leading European nations
for attracting foreign direct investment and is one of the five largest
investors in the United States. The economy experienced a slowdown in
2005, but in 2006 recovered to the fastest pace in six years on the back
of increased exports and strong investment. The pace of job growth
reached 10-year highs in 2007. The Netherlands is the fifth-most
competitive economy in the world, according to the World Economic Forum's Global Competitiveness Report.[28]

Energy

While its oil reserves in the North Sea are of little importance, the Netherlands is the second largest natural gas
producer in Europe and the ninth in the world, accounting for more than
30% of EU total annual gas production and about 2.7% of the annual
world total. Proven natural gas reserves of the Netherlands are
estimated (as of January 2005) at about 50-60 trillion cubic feet, or
about 0.9% of the world total. Although the Netherlands owns substantial
gas reserves in the North Sea, most of its production is from on-shore
wells, and much of the natural gas produced by the Netherlands comes
from Groningen
Province, which borders the North Sea. Consumption of natural gas in
the Netherlands is only about two-thirds of its production; the rest is
exported and the Netherlands is the world's fifth largest natural gas
exporter. Almost all Dutch households are connected to the national grid
of gas used for heating and cooking, and most electricity in the
Netherlands is generated by gas burning power plants.
The Netherlands has a liberalized energy market. The share of the
large three companies in the electricity and gas market steadily
declines every year, and was in 2011 beneath 80%.

Nuclear energy

Researchers in the Netherlands began studying nuclear energy in the 1930s and began construction of research reactor Dodewaard in 1955. Researchers’ goal was to introduce nuclear power technology by 1962 and replace fossil fuels. In 1968, a test nuclear reactor was attached to the power grid. This unit was shut down in 1997. In the 1970s, the Dutch chose a policy that required reprocessing all spent nuclear fuel.
In 1984, the government decided to create a long-term (100 years)
storage facility for all intermediate and low-level radioactive waste
and research strategies for ultimate disposal. In September 2003, the Central Organization for Radioactive Waste created an interim storage facility for high-level waste. The Netherlands' only commercial nuclear reactor is Borssele, which became operational in 1973 and as of 2011 produces about 4% of the country’s electricity.[29] The older Dodewaard nuclear power plant
was a test reactor that later got attached to the national grid but was
closed in 1997. A 2MW research reactor is located in Delft, as part of
the physics department of Delft University of Technology. This reactor
is not meant for energy provision, but used as neutron- and
positron-source for research.
In 1994, the States General of the Netherlands voted to phase out nuclear power after a discussion of nuclear waste management. In 1997, the power station at Dodewaard was shut down and the government decided it was planning to end Borssele's
operating license in 2003. This has since been postponed to 2034, if it
complied with the highest safety standards. The owners, Essent and Delta,
will invest 500 million euro in sustainable energy, together with the
government—money which the government claims otherwise should have been
paid to the plants' owners as compensation.[citation needed] After the 2010 election, the new government
was open to expanding nuclear power. Both of the companies that share
ownership of Borssele are proposing to build new reactors.[30][31] In January 2012, Delta announced it postpones any decision to start building a second nuclear power plant.

Tourism

In 2011 the Netherlands was visited by 11.3 million foreign tourists.[32] In 2012, the Dutch tourism industry contributed 5.4% in total to the country's GDP
and 9.6% in total to its employment. With its global ranking of 147th
and 83rd place for total contribution to respectively GDP and
employment, tourism is a relatively small sector of the Dutch economy.[33]North Holland
was by far the most popular province for foreign tourists in 2011. Out
of all 11.3 million tourists, 6 million visited North Holland. South Holland
took the second place with 1.4 million. Germans, Britons and Belgians
made up the majority of foreign tourists, respectively 3, 1.5 and 1.4
million.[34] There are seven World Heritage Sites in the Netherlands. The Netherlands is well known for its art and rich historical heritage.

Largest companies

The Netherlands is home to a few very large multinationals. Royal Dutch Shell is the largest private company of the Netherlands by revenue and the second largest in the world after Exxon Mobil. Other well-known multinationals are Heineken, Ahold, Philips, TomTom, Unilever, Randstad and ING, all of which have their headquarters in Amsterdam except Unilever which is located in Rotterdam. Thousands of companies of non-Dutch origin have their headquarters in the Netherlands, like EADS, LyondellBasell and IKEA, because of the extremely low Corporate tax. Multinationals that pay tax in the Netherlands can agree a special rate with the Dutch Tax and Customs Administration.
These lucrative arrangements are bound by a vow of secrecy, thus the
effective tax rate in specific cases is unknown. However, some companies
pay less than 1% corporate tax. This has led to the Netherlands being
called a tax haven,
both by critics within the Netherlands and by foreign governments and
politicians from France, the United Kingdom and the United States among
others.

*wikipedia resour

Dutch working environment

Working hours in the Netherlands

According to Dutch law, you should not work more than eight hours per day or 40 hours per week.Depending on the industry, a maximum of
nine hours per day and 45 hours per week could be the case, but no one
is allowed to work more than 2.080 hours a year. Consequently, the
average working week in the Netherlands is approximately 40 hours.There is also the option of a "four-day
week" meaning you work 10 hours per day. However, a specific agreement
with the employer should be made in advance. Organisational culture and
employment policies are also important factors to consider.Finally, no matter what, all employees should be given a 30-minute break after they complete 4,5 hours of work.

Labour contracts in the Netherlands

In general, there are three labour options that differ on the
employment period and dismissal procedures. As always, specific
arrangements with the employer can be made.

› Temporary labour contracts

This type of contract has a pre-specified
startand end date. In other words, there is no dismissal procedure at
the end of the contract.

› Permanent labour contracts

In this
case, there is no end date. The contract can be terminated by either
the employer or the employee only under pre-determined conditions.

› Contracts with a recruitment agency

The recruitment agency
is your legal employer even though you work for a specific
organisation. Note that there is no arrangement for your protection
against dismissal.

Gross salary & net income in the Netherlands

With a 2.500 euros contract per month you will take home around 1.770 euros. Salaries are sky-high but so are taxes.
When you sign a job contract, you negotiate a gross salary (i.e. before
tax subtraction) but what you are really interested in is the net
income (i.e. what goes directly to your bank account).You can download the income calculator here.

Remuneration packages

Salaries, holidays and bonuses are offered
as a package in the Netherlands. Yet, what you should ask for and
expect depends on your academic background and work experience. As an
example:› For an entry-level position with a Master's degree, the monthly salary varies between 2.300-2.500 euros gross.› Every May there is a bonus equivalent to 8% of annual earnings.› The
number of vacation days is usually 24 per year. However, it is common
for companies to offer more days off as an additional incentive.› Some employers offer the possibility to "buy" extra days off.› The nation's minimum wage can be changed every six months to adjust to inflation.

Minimum wage in the Netherlands

For an employee aged 23 or over in full employment, the gross minimum
wage as of July 1, 2014 is 1.495,20 per month (8,36 euro an hour)

- See more at: http://www.iamexpat.nl/career/main/environment#sthash.ExZNlIEf.dpuf

I got idea when going home, the fenomenal idea and that was just come when going home after working all day.

I am so exciting and sent to some friends about the idea but I just sent some words without tell that it will be my new book. Like the idea about collect information, "Man, Sex and Marriage" The project stop because my first laptop broken.

So, this idea still fresh and I am so exciting to writing it but the problem. I should know the rule to the setting of the story. I sent that xxxxxxxxxxxxx (sensor) then he got mad and say DON'T SENT ME MESSAGE AGAIN!

A friend said CITRA you are crazy, that is not so easy like that. What do you think about hahahaha. Sorry, I just want to know the reaction first. Because I need the reaction to make it look like alive. Like my first book, Simpul Terujung, people think that was true story. No it was not, I just do research first.

Next week I am holiday for 2 weeks and I wish this novel will be finish before I back to work! So Keep spirit and wish me luck to finish this book. This book will be in English version and I just need background search for that story.

Some friends still keep ask whats my next book, okey this will be my next book and I wish that will be great and make my book become different from other. Because I love to read Barbara, all her novel so exotic and good.

When I was watching Frozen movie at my room and already 2 times after buying the disk. I love this song so badly and I would love to shared it.

"Let It Go"

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight,
Not a footprint to be seen.
A kingdom of isolation and it looks like I'm the
queen.
The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside.
Couldn't keep it in, Heaven knows I tried.

Don't let them in, don't let them see,
Be the good girl you always have to be.
Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know.
Well, now they know.

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand and here I'll stay
Let it go, let it go

The cold never bothered me anyway
It's funny how some distance makes everything
seem small
And the fears that once controlled me can't get to me at all.

Up here in the cold thin air I finally can breathe.
I know I left a life behind but I'm too relieved to
grieve.

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand, and here I'll stay

Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway
Standing frozen
In the life I've chosen.

You won't find me.
The past is all behind me
Buried in the snow.
Let it go, let it go

Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand, and here I'll stay
Let it go, let it go

Sometimes we won't let something we love to go. But if we still have to hold it, just have feeling blue, hurt and sad. So I will let it go for better life and feeling. No more wonder, no more sad and no more feel nothing. Let it go to make you feel bless.

Maybe you don't think I'm spesial after short meeting. Because we have different think about something.

Maybe you think I'm not good for something and make you feel bad. Then step by step you move on and ignore me. Whatever and wherever you do, you still my special friend and I always try to keep communication with you until I don't have words to say something and just sent the icon :)

Friends, maybe you think you have anything in your life. So you don't need a friend like me. Till you realize you got wrong so I'm still here, waiting you and still open heart to make friends with you.

Dear diary, today I do decided to feel happy, no more worry about something I know that's imposible to be real. Because many different think about life.

Dear diary, sometimes I'm feeling bored with the people who judge me because what I WANT to DO! I know what's good and worse but sometimes become good person isn't making you HAPPY.

Sometimes I'm thinking, why this time should be so heavy. I just need something that make me happy. Then I realize happiness just illusion, nothing enternity about that. Feeling happy is the way I'm thinking about myself and don't think about what people opinion.

I will be happy with my way and I know what's good and bad for me. I just decided to move on and look good people around me. Like my friend said "find guy who has same thinking with me" so I will think about it or just decided to try new adventure more deep then I ever do in hole my life?

Early morning I did new about the flight Amsterdam to Kuala Lumpur Malaysia shooted in near line Russia. And all passengers death because of that.

In news I read the total of the passanger around 280 people and it was Indonesian people around 11 people, australia around 15 people and the most were dutches people 158 people.

That was so bad! I was reading a month ago Russia still have war with some people who want some part become freedom. But I never think it will killed many people who were not guilty.

War always bad, that was making world was not safe. I'm so sorry to the people who lost their family, the beloved people in that Malaysia Airway. This is sad/blue story for the people who has family there and also blue news for the people who love peace.

I'm Citra Pandiangan really feeling sad about this news. Why people should death like that. Why "you" kill them because you are so selfish and never think about anything who will sorry for the future.

Juli 15, 2014

A few days I'm doing search informtion about night college for sastra inggris (english mayor). I found a few and the payment variation. But for the third group the price is more expensive to pay. But some college already closed registration.

I'm thinking to continue my study till I got master. I know that's maybe imposible with the time and also the money. But I should to do and rise what I want to do. This planing already long time ago I make.

But I want pay it by myself. Step by step thinking and do it. So next month I should more make budget more economic for study. Then for this time, I will search customer for dwirafashion.com every night and also doing craft at night plus writing book, join contest writer about short stories, novel and any articles to get knowladge, practices.

I know that's not easy and I do already imagination about it. Everyday I got arrive at home around 7 pm, rest for a while because sometimes don't get seat on train or bus. After that cooking for dinner, shower then eating. Wash dishes and prepare what should cook for tomorrow.

Then, writing stories and reading or study language an hour everyday. Before sleeping pray and read Bible for a while then sleep. Wakeup around 5 am, cooking rice, vegetables then shower and sometimes doing laundry for 3 times a week. After that writing for a while before going to work.

Can you imagine? Yes suck and tired. But that's will be my daily activities before continue study.

Ah I don't know why this time my stomach already hungry. I wish I'm still strong till I'm arrive home and cook vegetables. I already seldom buy food on the street. After I got trouble eat chicken noodles. Plus I hear the seller said the water already dirty and need change, then the saus tomato also isn't good.

Better I'm little tired but healthy. Cooking is making me try to creative menu so I will not bored. I'm hungry and I want "eat" you. If I said like that some of my friends will be tease me so badly.

Are you hungry too? Because fasting or you forget to eat something so now your stomach sing a song ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ... :D ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ :D

Ya, this last food we order in south europe restaurant in Sarinah. In the night, we eat food. Salmon fish before my friend back to Netherland. Because this food for one portion is so big.

Plus the menu to much seafood and I can't eat seafood. So, I choose salmon like my friend. I really can't finish that food, salmon was so good and the testure also soft and yummy. I eaten it slowly plus make me get "lil" stomach pain and should go to rest room because to full ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ... :D ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ :D

After eating, my friend look some waiter bring fried patotos in the basket. My friend wants eat that too until waiting the rain stop. So, I told to my friend that's the french fries but my friend didn't believe me and order crush patato. In the end, that's not eat at all ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ... :D ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ :D

We back to the hotel to take my friends stuff and go to air port. Raining and we rent umbrella from the kid who offer it to the people and that was awesome. But that's just memory behind the past. Because I know that can't be reply again ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ... :D ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ :D

Sometimes I don't understand about life, some people so easy to find their happiness but some people can't find the true happiness. Ya that's life so complicated. Just don't waste the time to find the happiness if that's just illusion and I wish I will find the happy ending.

Juli 14, 2014

Indonesian women skin are very exotic. Yes like me hehehe, I have skin with the brown color. As the way I am, I never think to change my color become white. Even sometimes my picture look like white, it depend on the light and the angle how to get good picture.

This is a few days pictures I took with the background, I am behind the sun. So the light make my brown color look like brown. This picture I just taken from camera from laptop. Yes, that is look like my original skin.

Long time ago, i don't like my color skin because to brown and I really like the white skin like my sister and brothers. But when I am grow and thinking, God never give the worse to the children. So here I am, I love my skin and I love also to play angle to take pictures

Woman never change, kid, teen and adult sometimes they love put dolls on bed to company themselve all night, including me.

I make simple design to my bed. I make 2 style pillow because sometimes I like put my head without look tv and sometimes I love to lay down and watch TV and typing stories or just browsing.Clean bed is very important to make you sleep well.

Yea, even now my rent get up price poor me. More expensive without good reason the owner ask more money but that's ok because I want to try to move to better place in near there. Ya who's know I find good one and same price.

Dear diary, tonight I can't sleep! I don't know why! Including I got stomach pain suddenly when eat noodles in the street. My friend already remind me don't eat there but I really want it that. Even my stomach still full, I eaten there alone.

Dear diary, today when I look my feedjit, there has someone from Argentina click my old folder on 2008. So I click it back and I saw some my articles on that date always about "THE MARRIAGE" but with the different way. "THE DARK of MARRIAGE" maybe in around me on that year, I found something unhappy about marriage. Because many cases and that make me think, better become SINGLE!

I moved to Jakarta also with that reason. Far from pressure from my parents who always ask me "WHEN MARRIAGE" AH diary, why I can't just be single until I am ready to marriage. This time, I am also not sure, DO I already find someone who want spend his life together with me? DOES he will love with the weakness I am. Because as a woman I am not perfect but I always learn become good woman.

Dear diary, today in afternoon time I also read one article about the TITLE Woman and Marriage but then the TITLE become change. Do you know what is about? YES, that is about marriage too. WHY INDONESIA always want their children get marriage. WHY about life can't like in EUROPE who does not MATTER about couple, single! If i am there, maybe I am so happy because NONE will ask when I will marriage and NONE will remind me WHEN I will MARRIAGE. HOW OLD I AM already!

Dear diary, long time ago, honestly I WON'T kid but this time, I really want my own kid. Because I DO learn about craft and if I got a daughter, it would be good life for me. Because I want to make something cute dress and also cute hair accessories with my own HAND. She will be good and become "TRENDSETTER" in her environment.

Dear diary, why I feel so hurt inside my heart. I never ever feel like this. I love my freedom life. I love as the way I AM. I am still have many dreams and I want my dream step by step will be come true. Dear diary, a few my friends don't believe me I am so independent and also I can do anything what I WANT TO DO!

I know life is so complicated and LIFE is never easy. Many conflict in it. BUT I won't give up about my life. Yea I realize now I am already 33 YEARS OLD. I am not YOUNG ANYMORE! But my PASSION and my desire still YOUNG. I would try and TRY until I don't have energy to do anything.

THE FIRST STEP WHAT SHOULD I DO, dear diary. I want to publish children book. I DO HAVE DRAFT but the problem I DON'T HAVE TIME to WRITE IT. But this time, I want reload all again. SPEND TIME to rise my dreams. WHATEVER it need work-hard. I ALSO WANT TO GET GOOD JOB AGAIN with the SATURDAY ABSOLUTELY OFF. Because I WANT GO to CHURCH.

Dear diary, I know I don't believe fairy tale that is just tale for children. But I wish I have magic words to make me STRONG and STRONG to get what I want to get. Dear diary, the problem this time my battery laptop suddenly got trouble after the electric shutdown because "a NEIGHBOR" do something who make the electric on this house down and that making my BATTERY become trouble.

Dear diary, I know I SHOULD DO IT STEP BY STEP. SO this time I want to do is making children book then the stories will make cartoon with my friend. I WISH and I HOPE it can done and perfect. If none of publisher who want publish it. THAT is OK. I will give it free as ebook, RIGHT. BUT I HOPE IT CAN BE PUBLISH and all over world can read it and the result I WANT TO GIVE TO POOR PEOPLE.

Dear diary, today I also look about volunteer, this time someone who want to be volunteer should pay fee for them self. Uh, I am so damn sad, because to JOIN on INTERNATIONAL ORGANIZATION just big dream and never BE REAL. Like a dream to be famous writer.

Dear diary, I am not lucky and I also don't have spell magic word to make me disappear to visit many place around the world. CAN I be JEALOUS with the people (I READ ON MANY BLOGS about TRAVELING BLOGS from some people who do it by himself/herself or couple. Dear diary, is my dreams to much and that never become real?

PEOPLE think I can't cook, but see I CAN COOK. I am learning it step by step even that is not perfect. MY FRIENDS don't believe me I CAN SEW DRESSES. SEE, I have some own dresses I MADE by myself even THE DRESSES is not PERFECT.

TIME is making me change. TIME also make me more old. TIME make me feel this TIME so fast then the other times and I CAN'T STOP THE TIME. Dear diary, one by one my friends sent me invitation of their wedding. SHOULD I JEALOUS? but I AM NOT JEALOUS. In my mind just how I GET MORE MONEY to make travel and make a book about my ADVENTURES.

Dear diary, I know sometimes I wash my time just search some friends in around the world. Because I JUST HOPE ONE DAY, I can visit them and they can help me to rise my dreams at least I CAN STAY a few days and continue to other places.

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