Sunday, November 29, 2009

How many times have I trusted you and how many times you breach that trust?
Why are you still so childish after all these years?
Seeing you like this makes me sick..
Can't you just be sure of what you want in life and put effort in achieving it??
Why create some lame excuses to cover your own mistakes??
Stop pointing fingers at others and start taking responsibility for yourself..carry your own cross!!
How many people you've hurt because you misinterpretated your feelings??
How many burden you've caused to your love ones??
Please...don't be so naive.
When you are committed into something...just do it and give your best
Stop being a quiter..will you???

Without the Holy Spirit, our lives will remain the same,
Without transformation, without a breakthrough.
No matter what you do in life, no matter how hard you try to satisfy yourself
There is still this emptiness inside of you,
a vacuum only to be filled by the Spirit.
So, begin with surrendering yourself whole heartedly to God and let the Holy Spirit dwell in you in all that you do..

Coz..

It is not about you, its not about me..
It is the empowerment of the Holy Spirit.

Then there's church presentation and celebration..it'll always be busy busy busy...preparing for Christmas day..

To me, Christmas is the greatest day ever because a saviour is born to us, our one and only redeemer!!

And yes, I love Christmas carolling..where we go from one house to the other house, singing christmas carols until our throat blow off...getting treats at each house..seeing the owner of the house smiling and enjoying our singing..!!

This year,

No Santa Clause, no socks filled with presents, maybe not much presents *as I grow older, the presents became lesser*=(

But I'm looking forward to spend time with my family and my love ones..

And yes, I'll buy presents for my parents and my brother every year-never fail..coz I can't stand to see my house's Christmas tree empty at the bottom!!!lolz...

All I want this Christmas is a happy warm dinner with my family...and with Uncle Brian here, red wine is a must for celebration...=D

Bangkok trip was fun...We went to the Grand Palace, Wat Arun, Wat Pho-location of the gigantic sleeping Buddha.Took a ride by boat alongside Chao Phraya river and visited the floating market.

Second day was to shop will we drop..Went to Siam Paragon, Platinum Fashion Mall..OMG!!everything is so cheap there!!!*screams*..

I shop like mad...seriously a shopaholic's paradise!!

Then we went to centre point-another Mega Shopping Mall..

Everywhere is so convenient because our hotel-Cha Da Bangkok is only minutes away from the MRT. Most of the journey we trvelled by MRT and Sky train..Sat once on the Tutu car and a few times on the taxi. Tutu drivers are better than F1 drivers..there's no rules when you're on a Tutu..lolz

Girls there are hot and sexy, everyone dress so well and even aunties have their make up on.

The only problem is to differentiate whether is it a she or a hidden he.=P

There I was, panicking and clueless of what to do..
The guilt filled me entirely, it is my fault this time..no one else to blame
How can I be so carelss?
At that moment, I'm willing to trade anything to fix the situation
To get back what is lost...all our memories and Joanne's property.

I turned to You for help, on my knees...sincerely and helplessly..
Then I felt peace in my heart, an assurance that everything will be fine.
But I interpretated it wrongly.
What is lost is gone...all gone.
There I was, holding back my tears..imagining the consequences.

I looked at you, you are calm...
How I wish I'm as calm as you
Although you're angry with me, you comforted me.
These are subtances in you that I truely admire.
The way you deal with things...the way you deal with me.

Still, what is gone is gone..
The mark of my carelessness has cause great lost.
I'm sorry dear..

How can I possibly concentrate on my studies when I'm so in a holiday and partying mood??
I think I'm more excited than the bride to be..XD
So many things need to be done
The chapel's decorations, the ushering, the "sister's trap"...and I'm so excited!!!
Just can't wait...

Friday, November 13, 2009

I went to Petaling street in search for devil's horns for the upcoming hens party..

And guess what? I got myself some cute stickers and all these unneccessary stuffs.=P

Popular sells RM9.90 for one. I

n Petaling Street, it's only RM1.50 each..such a big difference.

Cute??

Stuff that I bought..cards, letter papers, stickers, memo, book marks..

Horny devils...and Karen's angelic princess wand..

Can't wait for Karen's hens party!!!=)

As I was walking around Petaling Street,

I flash back alot of memories during my high school and form 6 life..those good old days when I don't need to worry about money...those sweaty days in school uniform..days packed with tuitions after tuitions..

Thursday, November 12, 2009

I once heard a story of an Iron woman.
She is truly admired by others because she is strong and she endure hardship.
You won't believe what life has given her..
Although sad and devastating things happening around her..
But still, she stands firm..like a ship in the midst of a storm
She'll just take whatever life has to offer, without complaints and without blames
Just like the saying goes-when life gives you lemon, you make lemonade.=)

I believe that her descendants will have the same quality as her.
To be strong in whatever they face.
To gain confidence back again in what she is passionate about
To gain trust in friendship again..=)
Because there are still people who truly wants the best for her.
People who don't give a damn about where she comes from, what she went through, what is her weaknesses..
All they care about is the girl standing in front of them to be able to be WHO SHE IS!!
and I know she is made out of more than this.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Yesterday...I got Jingle from two of my close friends..!!!=)
My 1st christmas present for this year...
Now, I can go starbuck and buy my favourite hazelnut hot chocolate and get RM2 discount.
Thanks so much Melissa and Terrence..
You both are the best!!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

There the song goes.. Count your blessings, count them one by oneCount your blessings see what God has done...

Tonight I choose to count my blessings instead of grieving over my misfortune
So many unpleasant things happened to me these few weeks
But I still find happiness and blessings surrounding me
Cares and love, concerns and friends
Those who truely care and wanted to help..
You know I won't accept it, but your mere offer have already touch my heart and it meant alot to me!!

After today, I realised deep inside I'm still the same old me
Still that cry baby...lolz

Just count your blessings and you'll see how blessed you are.=)
Sweetdreamsss..

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Things I find myself smiling/laughing at today..

*My breakfast was milk and cereals with choppedcucumbersandplum.=)

*I went downstairs and find Ah Wong all cleaned up..ready for me to use.
*I stopped at a traffic light, looked to my right and saw a car with a solar toy monkey swinging vigorously under the hot sunray...I smiled because it was cute.
*My last class with Jiunn Fong today, we came across a past year paper-Section B which have an article about ghosts..I laugh at how the examiner attempt to make the paper spooky andeerie..
*I went to class and witness LOVE..I find myself giggling at the slightest gesture of the love birds..*smiles*
*In class..my friends make me laugh so much that my stomach aches..
*My toe nail finally came off..this time I did it out of force..it was so ugly thatmy mummy got all worried about it. But chill..it aint painful..its just ugly.
*My brother called and guess what??YOUTH CAMP coming sooooon..gonna be a combined one with other churches..time to plan..time to get things started..time to SERVE HIM!!

The girl behind the scene

A girl who was saved by grace and mercy..A girl who don't fake things up..Simple and transparent..Shopaholic from birth..splurges on good food..stingy on gadgets..love God, love her family. love him, love her friends, love pasta, love the rain, love the outdoors, love to travel, love to sing, love to share, love the simpliest things on earth that brings happiness..A girl who have a strong ego and believes that she can achieve whatever she wants in life if she wants to. A girl who hold on to her principles, have no regrets in her choices and take responsibility of whatever she is doing.