I went for a deck officer ticket a few years ago and before I could finish, unfortunately, I came down with epilepsy and couldn't write the government exams. That pissed me off because I figured the whole world had it in for me.

If there is anything that you can use in any of my stuff, feel free to use it. Good luck with your degree. You know you can do it so just go ahead and do it. Finishing the degree will mean more to you than you can think.

Screen name Sailor John

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I will mourn the teenager I never was and strive to make that dot of light way out in the far reaches of the end of the tunnel turn into a bright sun.

I've already gotten through half of my document and I just finished domestic violence. I have a feeling the csa part will go faster -- kinda like a steamroller. I don't want to squash this woman. I just want her to know that we (csa and asa survivors) deserve --no, are entitled to our presence. A big part of male suffering on the csa, asa, and domestic violence recovery process is the bullshit of the "damsal in distress" or children of the present being the opnly ones who have validity. I know of men who have huge peices of furniture, etc. thrown at them, who were beaten regularly with pots and pans - and NOBODY was there for him. But were he to raise his hand in defense --- Not even use it, just raise it. He's be in jail.

I'm telling you, the same, even as a faggot, of being devalued by people because as a baby I was "adult enough" to fight off two abusers weighing probably doulbe than me with four arms twice as long as mine. Legs 3X as long as mine. Every fucking thing bigger and more powerful than mine How the hell can these creeps have the audacity to think that child that huiman being could even come close to fending off those mutha fuckin pigs!!!!

Sorry, now I am so mad! I'm mad at the pricks who abuse us now. they tell us to get over it. They question our ability as human beings and our experiences. They ---well, you know.

Thanks, Gary. And to everyone else, thank you. As it turns out I stuck with Oprah's show and general stuff on this site.

The reason I did not use anyone's material is this. I wasn't willing to use any of my own. I figure if I can't/won't use my own, then it would be disrespectful of me to use yours. What's most important here is looking out for each other. If i can't trust me putting my stuff out there I can't trust me putting your stuff out there.

I love all of you too much to mess around. A few have you have been life savers (really) and I owe you. Thank you.O

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