A sudden barrage of thoughts and ideas hit me forcefully one night—an acute brain thwacking if you will.

I scrambled madly to scrawl in my journal before the thoughts left me.

The idea of sharing my words has always unconsciously (and consciously) occupied my mind. But sharing myself is something I have always struggled to do,

By sharing my experience and feelings here, I hope to encourage other introverts, who often feel out of place in this social, extroverted world, to share their thoughts, opinions and views as well. Because I believe they can be of value and benefit to others, even if those words aren’t shouted.

By sharing today I hope to connect with those who struggle. I hope to contribute to the quiet but powerful literary community and give back what it has given me—a voice. A medium to connect. A way to make meaningful change in the world.

I hope we can continue to build a place of support and encouragement—to inspire each other to keep on sharing, even when it feels like there isn’t anything to be shared.

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Sharing fully—oneself.

I’ve never done it. Fully.

Why?

Because aside from being selfish—or that is the story I tell myself anyway—I am scared.

Scared to allow myself to be fully vulnerable. Scared to be rejected. Scared to be ignored, judged or ridiculed.

I guard my thoughts and emotions like gold. Safeguarding them deep inside myself, where no one else can see.

Maybe, being the selfish person that I am, I feel like my thoughts, ideas and emotions are more valuable than other peoples?

No, I don’t think that that’s it.

I think it is less risky this way.

I only share when it feels safe. With those few, carefully selected individuals with whom I feel I can trust with my most vulnerable feelings, thoughts and emotions. The sharing is done on a personal, one-on-one basis. It is controlled, secure. I know the recipient well. I can trust their reaction. My thoughts and feelings will be protected and unharmed there.

There is little risk of rejection, no matter how harrowing my thoughts or feelings may be.

Let other people share themselves with reckless abandon. So openly baring their hearts and souls with such apparent ease on their latest Facebook post or blog or website. So fearlessly revealing their most intimate desires, dreams and goals. Or perhaps voicing their personal thoughts and opinions at some large social gathering or community event, willingly throwing themselves at the mercy and endless judgement of the social masses we live in today.

I could never be one of “those” people who share themselves so completely, so unapologetically. So shameless in their honest divulgence.

Oblivious to all the doubters, the critics, the judgments waiting in store.

Let others take that risk.

Not me.

I must guard my thoughts, my feelings, my ideas and dreams carefully.

Because don’t those people know what could happen by sharing so overtly?

They could be ignored—not even considered to be of enough importance or value for one to even give attention to or engage with.

They could be judged and evaluated. They are putting themselves on an open panel for everyone to appraise without mercy.

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Michelle Amanda is a child of the globe, chaser of sun, a wanderer and a wonderer. She is a patriotic expatriate. She is a free bird. Her mind – like her passport, is also all over the map. Freedom, flexibility and mobility are the currencies she finds most valuable. She believes creative and expressive lifestyle design is key. Her happy places are often near water, and likely involve the company of cats and copious amounts of sugar. She grew up on the West Coast and can often be found swimming, running or practicing yoga.

Michelle has an innate fear of wasting things, and believes we can greatly reduce our impact on the environment by simplifying. She believes less is more. She has an inherent love for learning and practices re-examining all we know to be “true” on a daily basis. Challenging conventional norms and looking at things from alternative view points are what makes life interesting for her. Connect with her at Child of the Globe.

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