i need to get rid of this pain

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i need to get rid of this pain

i'm going to try and make this last school year with my family count, although, i have been kinda neglected by my parents,they only seem to care about my little sister and the things she doesfor fun, they take her to events that are hours away (they even droveher to alabama for her to play softball), and they won't even take meto my cousin's house, which is 45 minutes away, and now they left mehome alone for the weekend with a list of chores and $20 so they couldtake my sister up to New Hampshire, and i feel very lonely

theyalso always seem to think that I won't be interested in traveling withthem to watch my sister's softball games, but i would love to supportwhatever she does, even if no one wants to support me

and ithink that it's the lack of support from my parents and other lovedones is what is causing me to be distracted in school, getting me badgrades, and caused me to develop chronic depression, which gives me suicidal thoughts

i think thatbrawl is just isolating me from my family, same with all my other videogames that i play, so i think i might quit smash in the near future,probably after the tournament i'm hosting in september, because eventhough i am ignored, i still love my family, they're all i have, and ifeel as if i don't mean much to them, and i really want that feeling to go away, it really hurts

........suicidal?..... thats baaaaad, your getting suicidal thoughts or r u saying stuff that connects to suicide ? neway if you think your parents love and adore ur sister moar then your wrong, if you want that feeling of neglect to go away go with your parents to wherever theyre going ,to support your sister , family etc ......wait do u choose to stay at home or do they leave u alone? i stay home only during the day caus its boooorinnng in mex and in san diego i dont stay at night cause im afraidof gosts

It's good that you're letting your feelings out, even if it is online. If your feeling so bad, and so hurt inside, just talk to someone. As a guy, I know people say it's "unmacho" to let your feelings show. That would be one of the reasons why I always put on a smile to hide any feelings I'm not comfortable with. I'm sure your parents love you, and I am assuming your sister is younger as well, so that would be a reason she seems to get more "attention". Just tell your mom or dad how you feel.

Knowing what is your priority is great, and making your family your priority is wondeful. I respect that. However, do not cut off from everything that makes you happy, some sacrifice is fine, but what's the point if you're sad all the time.

Which leads to my last point, suicide is one of the most selfish things any could do. In being lost in emotions, people don't realize that in trying to end their pain, they hurt everyone they care about in such a horrible and suffering way. I've had a couple suicides in my school, and I just remember thinking how bad it was. Here these kids are, with so many years ahead of them, all they could've have done, gone.

You may not realize it, but more people care about you than you think, shucks, I may not actually know you, but I still consider you my friend, and someone I care about. You just can't help but grow close to people after you've been with them for so long.Bottom line, suicide hurts more than it solves.

Dude, don't worry about it! You got your friends to help you out, I can hang most of the time since I have my car now.

Also I've had trouble with my parents ignoring me for a little sibling, although he isn't as old as your sister, he needs 10x as much attention because he is a baby still. So I'm cope with online games as well. I don't consider myself alone because I have people from THB, Maplestory, and my friends from school to chat with and play games with. You really aren't alone as the internet connects us all.

Your parents really love you man, they let you go to art school and hang on your own in your house and everything. You can't blame them for poor school work or problems like that because thats your job. (i've learned this lesson myself). I thought bad grades got their attention, but its not what I wanted, I discovered that getting good grades and learning to find friends elsewhere really helped.

Now I live with my grandparents a lot due to my Mom being afraid that I can't survive a day in my house... but I have the freedom of Driving and so do you! Feel free to use that freedom!

hey heavy i may not know u very well but i really see where u coming frm even my gf said that was sad but i really wish the best for you man u seem to be going through alot stress n thats not good for some1 your age dude really its not i hope everything start going well for you cause thats really sad mah gf went through the same thing she had problems with her family neglecting her but anyways i hope for the best for you and u should get threapy because those suicidal thoughts are dangerous