I know no one might care, but I wish to tell you...Because...Why the **** not?

Being a large man, I am usually seen as an intimidating person. Its hard to make friends and even harder to achieve anything close to a girlfriend. All of my friends though, all 4 of them, can say I'm probably the nicest man they've ever met. But...I still don't see it. It's sad, but I'm moving on in my own way. Even if I am left alone for all my life I will be happy in the fact that I had friends and a place I could go to have laughs...and feels.

I... I think I just found another me. I'm literally almost the same way. I have a few close friends and we care for each other deeply. But I've been alone my whole life in the fact that I can't find a girlfriend either. No matter how hard I try. But I can be happy just knowing there were those few people in my life I was able to make happy and spend those precious memories with.

I've been a bigger sized kid since... well very young because of childhood depression from moving (Always in the same state) more times than I could count and constantly being the new guy my social skills developed slower than other kids. The shortest time I was at a school was about 2 weeks only to move again so during my earlier years of school I was that one kid who seemed to be quiet and constantly day dream. After 2 years of finally living in one place I finally have a few friends, but then we move again this time 2 states away. So I never had that one friend from childhood that every one seems to have. Mid-seventh grade something snaps and I start being more funny, and I get a few "friends" by friends I mean people who are just around every so often and develop my first crush, one of my actual friends. High school rolls around and I finally ask her out, feels good man. We break up because of a rumor, after a month and 2 weeks, Every other relationship lasts about the same length, feels bad man. Go through high school, Senior year go through-out unafraid of being humiliation because I was used to it and used it against others because self-deprecation is funny and everyone laughs at it. Senior year ends and now I don't really see any of the friends I had...

The right girl will come. I'm a 6'6 former left tackle and my girlfriend of 4 years is 5'1.. she doesn't see me as being as huge as I am anymore and it's funny some of the reactions you will get when you're out or when you meet their families/friends. But it is what it is sir one day it will happen

You two guys are like other me's. I'm 6'4 (and rather built but only by need, I wouldn't bother otherwise) and an armed response cop. I have a few amazing work friends, and equally amazing non-work friends, two of whom I've been friends with since Nursery (kindergarten), so about 18 years. It's hard for me to find a girlfriend unless they have a weird thing for uniforms or like men who practically dwarf them, but I could live my whole life alone as long as I had my friends.