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So, I’m in my winter funk. i don’t go anywhere, i don’t really speak to anyone. I hate apologizing for it. If anyone is a good friend of mine they know i go through it EVERY year. It’s never anything personal, I just have a hard time coping with the cold. I want it to be even just a little warmer with no snow. Warm enough i can take Muirne to the park, or warm enough that i want to go on a drive. I can’t seem to drag myself out. I can’t find the motivation to do much. And i have a ton of excuses like ” i have to pack up the child and make sure she is warm.” or ” i have to warm up the car and use more gas.” It’s not going to ever change about me. I try very hard, everyday i wake up and say “I’m going to get out of the house and do something.” It never happens. But maybe if i keep saying it, it will happen soon. I hope that mary is right about Imbolic (sp?) It did snow and i hope it goes away. I would more likely believe that, than the stupid big rat. At least that has been around longer, so the chances that it is right is more likely. I wish that i could handle winter better, because i was born here and it snows every year, its not like its something new. But its not likely that i will move somewhere warm. I would love to move but then i dont want to move away from so many people and things.

On another note, i am trying to make an effort to blog more. Not that i think i have much worth saying, at least to have a place to put my thoughts. Besides, i have a really cool blog page, (thank you hon) and i update it all by myself =). Well my child has a full diaper, so until the next blog, have a good day!

So my hubby and i are maybe going to be writing a children’s book. Well, he will be doing the writing i will be illustrating it. I’ve been working on sketches. I’m really rusty, i haven’t been doing any sketching or anything really artistic in almost a year. It feels good to be doing something artistic again, i just feel like i have nothing to draw. Its almost like i lost my edge. i think i might work on something else other than the char. sketches. I’m just not sure what to draw. I stare at the blank paper and nothing happens…..But as Alex Ross once said, you need to draw everyday, no matter what it is. Its also hard to find time in the day. I did manage to get some sketches done when i let Muirne play at McDonalds. I came up with a cute monster char that i kind of like. That’s also why i wanted to have a blog. I’m not a very good writer but it is something creative and it also helps me get some of my mundane crap out of my head. It also reminds me that I’m a bad speller and it takes an effort for me to use punctuation. =) Anyway, i might take Muirne somewhere to play today so that i can get some more sketches done =)

So since i have have my own blog page i have been doing my own work on it. I have add plug ins myself and other nifty stuff. I have to say its not that hard. im having a problem with just one plug in, but D said he had some issues to. Well i suppose i can always ask him about it. Im just proud of myself that im not a total lamer and i can actually do some stuff myself. The thought of working on a web page or anything like it has always been intimidating, but alas here we are and i have done it. Yay me! That is all for now.

So this is my blog page =) I hope you like it and i hope that i will have interesting things to say in the future. I will start with saying that yesterday was the worst day i have had in a long time. My job is starting to wear on me. Im not sure what im going to do about it now, but i do know i was almost done yesterday. I would go into detail more but i just dont have the energy. it was a giant emotional drain yesterday. not sure if i am fully recovered yet.