Monthly Archives: March 2008

Even though I have a very public blog, I consider myself a pretty private person. I post only the details on here that I am comfortable with sharing, adding to and subtracting from reality as I see fit. When it comes to the weight loss stuff, I’m pretty open and don’t really care who knows what. And even the private stuff isn’t THAT private….I just tend to forget what I’ve included, and before way more strangers started reading my posts I assumed that it was just my friends stopping by here and that they had no problem piecing together the scattered details of my personal history that pop up from time to time. Obviously, I have a connection with evangelical culture because I was an AG minister when I was younger. Less obvious is the porn connection. Both pieces of my background are absolutely true, and I forget how strange it sounds to people, so I don’t really try explaining it. I wasn’t all pissed at God one day and decided to go and run a porno store…..it’s way, way more boring than that. A simple matter of working one job instead of two in order to pay the rent. So anyway, I’ve got some buddies out east, one of whom has a friend of a friend who writes for a pop culture periodical that will remain nameless until the issue comes out later this summer or whenever (and this isn’t Rolling Stone or anything, I only think it’s cool because the thing is actually in print instead of being an ezine or something). Bariatric surgery has become as common as lasik these days, and it has hit a point of saturation that makes the entire topic boring as shit to talk about. THAT is kind of the angle of the spoofy article, and not all of my stuff will be printed, I’m sure. At least that’s what I was told…it will be like one of those TV interviews on the news where they talk to someone for five minutes and use about fifteen seconds. So although surgery was my initial “in” when it comes to the interview, the thing that is obviously more interesting from a pop culture perspective is the pastor/porn angle. I have very good friends out on the coast, brothers from different mothers actually, and I tip my hat to them for managing to pull a schtick of this magnitude for my fame and benefit. Anyway, here are the guts of my wine-soaked chat (re-edited and formatted for fluidity from a .txt file) with a pop-culture reporter whom I would be more than happy to sleep and/or drink with…..

Everyone has a blog and everyone has had bariatric surgery, so is there anything you’d like to address about either of those things before we move on to question number two?

Ummm, not really. The blog is a tool for me to use up time that would have been spent eating. I can get weepy or heartfelt here if you want, and take a picture of me in my fat clothes. Or I can joke about how you know you’re really fat when you take off nearly 130 pounds and still need to lose weight. Your call though, I was informed that you talked to a couple of my friends so I’m pretty sure I know where this is heading.

So you’re comfortable with all of that, right?

Yeah, some would say too comfortable.

It’s just a funny combination, not a lot of people have your background.

True. Nobody else that I’m aware of. All of the tired Sam Kinison references aside, if there is a group of people with whom I share this bond we should probably make it a point to meet up in Branson every year or something and swap stories.

So for the record, born in Kansas on Independence Day, licensed minister with the Assemblies of God, and general manager of an adult bookstore.

Well, not at the same time. I wasn’t running a clandestine ministry for perverts or anything.

But we got the order correct, right?

Yeah, definitely. First I was born, and after my first year of wild college life I decided to turn things around and go into ministry, did that for several years, went to Bible College where I started having a big problem with the AG, went back to a state school, moved back home after a breakup and shortly after that got a job offer to manage a store for a company where I worked part-time.

So you didn’t just jump right into porn after quitting the church?

No, nothing that interesting. I was working one full time job at a regular video store, and picked up some hours at an adult store right down the street just to make some extra money. Once they saw I could count to ten, didn’t have a drug problem, kept the Friday night gawkers in line, and didn’t let my friends hang out in the store all night, they offered me my own store.

Okay, so let’s go back to ministry and Bible College. What prompted your disillusionment with the Assemblies of God and subsequent flight back to a secular school?

Long story, but basically when you grow up believing the most literal translation of the Bible, and you are so convinced that there is no other interpretation, end up alienating everyone who doesn’t think like you do, and then you truly study scripture for the first time…it causes a problem.

Quite a paradigm shift.

To put it midly.

But was there any tension with your family as your religious beliefs have changed?

My parents have always been cool, we’re good friends. My mom grew up in the same church where I worked and my dad started attending when they were married. Even though THEY were never overly religious, I have a lot of people in my family who are still AG and work in ministry to some degree. I think my parents were happy for me to find a “real” job instead of ministry, but I know the majority of my family took it harder when I quit…..and when I went to sell porn….well, my family doesn’t argue or fight too much, but I know they suffered in silence with THAT one, and my ears burned a lot.

So you’re okay with your family now?

Oh hell yes, judging from the families of friends and girlfriends I hit the lottery. They are all great. And seriously, nobody in my family was really on my ass to BE a pastor or to REMAIN a pastor.

From what little I’ve read of your stuff, not just your blog, and from what your friends have said, you really do hate evangelical culture.

I guess I have more animosity against the pastors I grew up under more than anything else. When you’re ten years old and get freaked out thinking “the rapture” happened whenever your parents arrive home late…I think you can conservatively say you’ve been sold a boatload of bullshit by people who should have known better. Not all denominations, or all AG pastors for that matter, are freakish literalists. I can’t remember how the saying goes, but it’s something about how people will continue to believe a lie if it means they can hold onto their power or their paycheck. And the whole evangelical thing is about power and guilt based on lies and scripture taken out of context. I’ve said this a million times, but fat Christians will burn in the same hell with homosexuals because a sin is a sin. If you’re going to pervert the Bible for your own prejudices, at least get it right. I think you can be fat or gay or a big fat gay and still be a Christian, and truly ignorant people with no concept of scriptural context have a problem with that.

So you consider yourself a Christian?

My worldview is the hand I was dealt, and after years of being angry and bitter about my experience I really do believe that the simplest application of the gospel and the intent with which it was written really is a great thing. I’m not going to preach at you, try to persuade you or pretend I’m a shining example, but at the end of the day I really do want to believe in something bigger than all of us. Evangelicals annoy the shit out of me, but so do former Catholics who take up paganism to be fashionable….without understanding the irony behind following a self-styled hodgepodge of dead religions that even the ancient Greeks abandoned. And Feng Shui…biggest marketing scam in the history of yuppie beliefs.

Do you ever miss working as a pastor?

I miss the part of me that had to exercise compassion on a regular basis, but I don’t really miss the role or the weird level of respect you get from church members. If I ever started going to church again, the last thing I’d let them know about me is that I was a pastor…especially an Assemblies of God pastor. People make things more complicated than they need to be already, so don’t go looking to me for answers.

Did you have to wear that collar thingy?

No, fundamentalist denominations generally consider that to be a Catholics-only thing, and Catholics are Satan to them. Seriously.

Good stuff. And funny how there really is no logical segue from ministry to porn at this point.

You’re telling me. (laughs)

Okay, reading back through some of your writing you said once that it’s weird for girls to like porn? You said something to that effect, right?”

I should probably qualify any of my statements about women and porn. I don’t think it’s weird for women to like porn, because I know a ton of them that dig it. I do think it’s weird for women to like a lot of the same kind of porn that men like, and unfortunately there isn’t a lot of porn for ladies out there beyond the Red Shoe Diaries or Candida Royale mild hardcore, romantic variety. I’m not saying women can’t get into hardcore, because I truly, 100% believe that women are WAY kinkier, stranger and more adventurous than men when it comes to sex. It’s not a contest….it’s not even the same sport. You just don’t see that side of the coin very often because the industry is 99.9999% geared towards what men want…..and outside of some of the more involved fetish genres, men just want something utilitarian. Women just make a mental connection to sex and romance that most men do not…….and if you’re running a porno production company you can literally make millions of dollars off of a video that cost you five grand to make because it’s easy to get men off…..so why would you spend hundreds of thousands to produce something for women? They aren’t even on the radar in overall sales compared to men.

I’m not going to disagree with you on the female kink comments, it’s a valid point. With that in mind, did you have strange, female, porn obsessed regulars at your store?

No, my greatest customers were women, specifically, lesbians. You don’t spend a few years in an industry based on what men THINK their women want as far as sex toys go, without learning which toys rule the earth when it comes (no pun intended) to what women ACTUALLY like. The most annoying customers were the guys who were obviously ashamed and uncomfortable being there, and the worst of the worst were the ones who would come up chuckling nervously and go “hey, I’m supposed to find some movies for a bachelor party tonight, oh geez, I’m not even sure what to get….they make movies of naked women’s?”.

HA! A bachelor party? Are you serious?

Yeah, I mean if you want to call you and a box of Kleenex a bachelor party, it’s your world.

That’s funny. Also kind of hard to believe that kind of behavior was common among male adults though.

The sexual repression in the Midwest is a phenomenon that cannot be overstated. So the moral of the story is, whenever you go into one of these shops, you’re only annoying the employees when you act ashamed about it. Go in there proudly, like a lesbian. The lesbians would come right up to the counter and ask questions like “what do you have that vibrates the hardest?” and “which ones plug into the wall?”, or my favorite, “do you have any strap-on harnesses that are made from one piece of leather instead of the leather and nylon? They break.”. And I’d be like THANK YOU! Thank you for saying exactly what you are looking for without even thinking there are people out there who may think those questions are strange! Then I’d go into the backroom, put on my top-hat, grab my cane and put on the ritz as I broke down our selection in detail for them. Those moments were few and far between, but they were so refreshing.

Now I am familiar with the chain of stores you worked for. It’s more of a couples type store than one of those peep booth places. And I bring that up mainly because your friends have said you eventually left the business for a much lower paying job because it was so depressing.

Annoying and depressing.

I can picture the scenario, but tell me what was so annoying.

Well, like I said, the lesbians were the most awesome of all customers, but they were not in the store regularly enough to make a big difference. The rest of the clientele could be broken down into categories like……guys who were waiting in the parking lot EVERY GODDAMN MORNING as you drove up, so they could trade in the movies they got from you YESTERDAY for FIVE MORE. Of course there were the identical bachelorette party shoppers who laughed at the identical same penis keychains and penis water bottles in the identical way five or fifty times a week. Oh and creepy, CREEPY guys who would literally ask you if there were legal beastiality movies. Rednecks who would buy devices and lingerie as anniversary gifts for their wives and I would weep for whatever poor woman was about to be abused by such a lack of taste or insight. Guys who would peruse the magazine racks FOREVER and then ask to use the bathroom…..meth-head strippers who would come in and destroy the lingerie section looking for danceware and argue with me about the prices…..shoplifters…..the list goes on but you get the idea.

No argument here, I can see where that atmosphere could become surreal, like a bad 70’s movie. Where did it cross the line from annoying to depressing? Retail work is the bottom of the barrel in general.

Agreed, people are morons whether they are buying vibrators or cough syrup. I could have lived with the annoyances, but there were levels of things that made it all depressing enough to flee. The first thing that comes to mind is the overall desensitization that happens to you when your entire job revolves around the sex industry….you learn WAY too much about total strangers, and you have to gauge sales and inventory based on the latest trends and fetishes.

I’m picturing the cast of My Name Is Earl asking you whether the latest swinger-mags have arrived.

Thanks for that….I forgot all about that one. Scarily accurate…why can’t swingers be even remotely attractive? See? You’d be a natural running the store! (laughs) Seriously, I’m a guy, guys like porn, but by the time I left I was so sick of ALL of it that the only thing I’d partake in myself was Playboy…and that was just to do the ultimate cliché of reading it for the articles. Then there is the lifestyle….when you’re the “porno guy” going to all of the local hipster watering holes six nights per week , and you rub shoulders with the types of fellas that run the industry, and part of your job is to do PR at stripclubs in order to drum up more business, you are officially through the looking glass. To top it off, I was in a band for a while at the same time I was running the shop, so the partying and fair-weather bar friends become the lifestyle outside of work …..but the work that you do isn’t far enough removed from the lifestyle, so there is the tendency to get lost in it.

I know a lot of guys will read this and go BOO-HOO! It sounds like some world’s smallest violin shit.

Fair enough, and fuck those morons. It is such a lame industry that people try to make sound legitimate, and it caters to the types of guys who are bored with their wives and girlfriends. They are the addicts, and I’m sure an addict would love running that kind of asylum. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think screaming fire in a crowded theatre crosses the free-speech line, I’ll defend some demented porno genres because of that, but at some point you become a character straight out of central casting to anyone who knows you. I’m a total John Hughes eighties movie dork at heart, and it scared the shit out of me when I thought I had completely lost that part of myself. I’m sure there are people out there who can do the job and raise a perfectly normal family, I just wasn’t one of them. So I give any classless douchebag who cries crocodile tears for me the permission to state the obvious……I must be gay.

That was all, what? Ten or twelve years ago?

Yeah, about that.

So now that you are older and wiser, do you find that women your age find it intriguing, a turnoff, strange…..that you could go from one extreme to the other?

Not sure, I don’t really know any women my age.

You’re not dating at all these days, no post-surgery exploration?

Sure, I just don’t date women my age.

And why is that?

Because I don’t have to. (laughs) Sorry, I just had to throw that in there to sound like a bastard. It’s kind of true, I mean I don’t date twenty-five year olds because we wouldn’t have anything to talk about, they are generally at least in their thirties.

You should have just stuck with your statement that you don’t have to. Good material to work from.

Or said I don’t have to……because I own a Sybian. (laughs)

I forget, I’m talking to a huge Stern fan.

Absolutely. But I knew about the Sybian way before I listened to Howard, real lost weekend product. You have to remember, I learned from the lesbians. None of that yuppie poser tickle and spank shit there, not even close. The girls with the warm vibratey feelings all through their guttyworks.

And the movie quotes begin.

Right, right, right. (laughs)

You know they actually have or did have at one point, a Korova Milkbar in New York City.

Sure, totally cheesy but a nice try. Not sure if it’s even still there. A real tourist and bridge and tunnel mecca. My guys you talked to earlier keep me away from all of that shit when I’m out there. Best city in the world.

So lastly, going back to what we were talking about before it got derailed.

I do what I can to derail.

All kidding aside, I don’t imagine that surgery changed your personality or attitude very much, but it has better enabled you to express yourself. True?

For better or worse, I’m the same guy I’ve always been but the volume is turned way, way up.

And that is a good thing?

Good for me, entertaining for the people who are close to me, at least most of the time. Seriously, I’ve got a pretty great life right now. I’m pretty happy.

You said you’re dating, just not women your age…were you being funny or are you reaping the benefits of being in better shape?

Well, I was trying to be funny, but yes, I have a situation.

What kind of situation?

Too early to say, I don’t want to curse it by saying too much. But of course, keep an eye on the blog and I’m sure it will come up at some point whether it ends in joy or tears.

I wanted to leave my stupid dog’s post at the top as long as possible, to make her insubordination worth it as her broken legs heal. That’s right…type your fundamentalist bullshit with spiral fractures, you little Whore of Babylon! Be my guest! Also, I’ve been pretty busy with work, school and doing my first real “interview” that will be published in a semi-renowned monthly periodical within the next few months. I’ll post the transcript on here pretty soon…as long as I don’t name names or the the magazine I was assured I would not get into trouble. I have it, I just need to get a copy that isn’t in .pdf format….no way I’m transcribing that shit. Apparently, the whole bariatric patient/ex-minister/ex-porn dealer angle isn’t represented well enough in today’s market, so who am I to refuse such an intriguing experience? I will say that it is weird to see your words in print, and this was no stupid Oprah moment…..thank God.

Anyway, I am always eager to put SOMETHING on here every week for my few faithful readers to enjoy, and instead of yammering on about how I am literally down to one pair of 20 year old Dockers jeans that I can still fit into, I’ll post something that I wrote a few years ago. Even before all of the “never forget 9/11” chain emails, there was a particular breed of cheesy feel-good “daily blessing” email that just rubbed me the wrong way. Not only were they poorly written, a derivative of “Footprints”, and laden with an annoying amount of cute graphics that would crash Internet Explorer, they always had some guilt-based chain email horseshit at the bottom. “If you truly love God and/or your family you’ll pass this boring shit onto everyone in your address book….”. I hate them…..hate them all. There is not one worth reading or forwarding, and if you send one to me you are not my friend. I don’t care which memory of a dead relative inspired you to send it along, I would literally rather get an icepick to the testicles and lose all of my money to one of those “my father is the president of Ethiopia” email scams than read ONE MORE definition of “What Love Truly Means” or see ONE MORE Special Olympic-level photoshop job touting the dedication of “The Lone Marine”. Seriously, if you are under the age of 70 and you are sending this stuff to people…..kill yourself, and take all of your scrapbooking buddies to hell right along with you.

So with all of THAT in mind, I wrote my own chain email and sent it to everyone that I know. It’s definitely not my sickest work, and it is not fucked up enough to completely freak the “Oprah Nation/Focus on the Inbred Family” people out, and I did that for a reason….I wanted it to be normal enough to actually receive it as an unsolicited forward one day. It hasn’t happened yet, but I am still hopeful. Anyway, I give you Johnny’s Magic Blanket to do with as you feel necessary…..

When Johnny was growing up, it was just him and his mother. He never met his dad and had no brothers or sisters, but his mom loved him very much and did what she could to keep their little family happy and secure. As a baby, he would lie in her arms, listening to her tell stories about her family when she was growing up, and how happy it was. She would keep him wrapped in a blanket that her mother had used when she was just a baby. Johnny would lay there quiet and content in his blanket, night after night, listening to his mom talk about the fun she had as a girl, playing with her cousins and helping her mother prepare the Sunday dinner. She had moved far away from home when she was young, and always wished for the old days, for her and her son.

As he grew a little older, his mother always had to work at least two jobs to make ends meet, and Johnny became a latchkey kid at a very young age. They were very poor, and he didn’t have many friends at school. He would come home every day to their dark apartment, doing the best job he could to make dinner for his tired mom so that she could finally get some rest when she returned home. On most nights she would come home to find Johnny asleep in the chair by the front door, lying quietly on that same blanket that wrapped and quieted him as a baby. He tried the best he could to stay awake long enough to see her when she got home. They spent what little time they had together laughing and telling stories, transforming that dark little apartment into a happy home. That blanket became his magic blanket. It helped him remember the stories his mom told him about her family when he was alone, and he would lay there as he went to sleep, wondering if he would someday have his own family and stories to tell. Many children have a security blanket, but it became more than just that for Johnny. Without other kids to play with, and all of the responsibility that was forced on him so young, it truly did become magic for him. Whenever he was sad, it helped him remember how much his mother loved him. When he was lonely, it helped him remember all of the good things that were possible. When he was tired at the end of a long day, or when other kids picked on him, it was a comfort as he went to sleep.

One day Johnny was all grown up, living on his own and curled up in a chair in his very own apartment. There was a S.W.A.T. team surrounding his building and he could hear the bullhorn, “Okay Johnny, this is your last warning! Don’t make us come in there after you! We don’t want anyone else to get hurt! Just let the hostage go and we can work this out!

Needless to say, things had not gone well for Johnny after his mother skipped town with that seasonal laborer she met at the bar. The events that brought him to a place where he was facing several felony counts, including kidnapping, were all a blur in his drug addled mind. In one last attempt to deal with reality, he remembered his blanket. His magic blanket. He ran to his closet and dug it out from the bottom of a box, then wrapped it around his shoulders. “This blanket saved me as a child”, he thought, “It can save me now!”.

Fortunately, his hostage and all but three of the police officers at the scene lived to tell a very different kind of story to their own families. As for Johnny, I think we all know how well an old cotton blanket protects you from thirty or forty 9mm rounds to the torso.

This is not a chain email, but if this message has touched you in any way, please pass it along to those that you love.

Hi there!My name is Annie and I’m a six-year old wiggle-butt!I’m the most special kind of doggie because MY person loved me enough to adopt me from a shelter instead of going to one of those people who raise puppies for money!I love my person VERY MUCH, and I love all of you too!As a matter of fact, I wish all of you could be as happy as me, and that is pretty happy!I think most people have big hearts and they want to do what’s right, even though life isn’t always easy.Now, things aren’t always as complicated as you might think, and I don’t want you to think it’s too weird to hear about the gospel from a wiggle-butt!I’m here to tell you that NOBODY needs to be unsaved, especially not when Jesus is there to take care of everything and make YOU as happy as ME!You know what?I’m just going to tell you this right now…even if you don’t know anything about him, the lord has a plan for you and if you can be patient enough to listen to a sweet little doggie I’m going to tell you all about some things that will help you out.

First of all, I know some of you good Christian people wonder what the best way is to talk to your unsaved loved ones.That is no joke, and even though I’m a dog I sure do know it!When my person isn’t around, I go onto his website and I look at AAAALLLLLLL of the different things you saved people type into Google about your unsaved loved ones that directs you to his website. This website makes it SOOOO easy to find out how people get in here, even for a little wiggle-butt like me!I know my person doesn’t care about all of you like I do, so I’m going to help you out!He’s not a bad person, he just doesn’t understand things like we do.I get on this computer machine to see what all of you are wanting to know when my person drinks too much of that funny smelling water and falls asleep in his chair.He gets mad when I pee-pee on the carpet, and I wish he’d remember how many times I’ve seen HIM pee-pee all over himself when he has too much of that funny smelling water….oh, it’s very scary when he gets like that.I pray for him, and I hope YOU pray for him!

Boy I sure do hate my person’s font, so I’m going to use my own!And like I told you, there are so many things you all come in here wondering about, and I’m going to help you RIGHT NOW! I know I’m just a doggie, and I don’t have an eternal soul like all of you people who are reading this. But I STILL think it’s very important for me to explain things to you!First of all, it hurts to talk about how happy my person’s home used to be when I had a mommy AND a daddy.When I came here to live I had a doggie brother and two parents.Then one day my mommy and daddy started yelling at each other so much that finally my mommy and my brother were GONE!You know what I think the problem was?My mommy and daddy weren’t ever MARRIED!Sure, I’m just a doggie but even I know that the lord doesn’t approve of two people living in SIN!I think if they got married I wouldn’t be missing my mommy and my brother like I do now, because the lord would have taken care of everything if they chose to honor him first. That’s what made me realize I need to get on here and help you figure out how to talk to YOUR unsaved loved ones, just like I wish someone had talked to both of my parents.

I’ll probably do this every once in a while until my person figures out what I’m up to on this here computer, but basically I’m just going to list aaallllll of the questions you type into Google and tell you what to do.A lot of them sound alike, so I’ll group them together when I can.I’m so happy to have you here!I really do want you to be happy!And you know what will make you happy?Some old-time gospel truth!

“Should I hang around unsaved friends”

Hey, if you aren’t around to share the gospel with them, who will be?If they can’t understand that the BIBLE is the rule book, then it is YOUR job to make it happen!Faith without works is DEAD, so get to WORK!If they try telling you all that gibberish about how they don’t even believe in God, or they are of some other pagan religion like a Buddhist or a Jew, don’t be afraid to turn up the VOLUME!Get into the Book of Revelation because NOTHING motivates the unsaved like a healthy fear of HELL!I can’t remember where exactly Jesus said it, but I know somewhere he must have said something like “love me or I will scare you into loving me”.How else would there be so many Pentecostals if he didn’t say that?It works!

“How to minister to our unsaved loved one”

Boy, I sure can relate to this and I sure do feel for you.My doggie heart is broken every day watching MY unsaved loved one walk around oblivious.But fortunately for you, the solution is very similar to the one for unsaved friends.At some point you just have to give up on your friends when they won’t listen to you, but if you have a close family member who won’t listen then you have to go the extra mile.I only weigh eighteen pounds and don’t have opposable thumbs, or I’d do this myself….have you ever heard of the drug-assisted aversion therapy known as the “Ludovico Technique”.If not, read up on it. I think you will like it because it is 100% effective with minimal lifelong trauma.

“Death of an unsaved loved one”, and “Unsaved relative just died”

Um, yeah.I don’t know what it says in YOUR Bible, but in my Bible this situation never ends up too good.Oh well, if nothing else use the story as a cautionary tale to scare people with.

Oh boy, I think this is my favorite thing to talk about!Long story short, when someone refuses to get saved, just KEEP QUOTING SCRIPTURE!Not just one, ALL OF THEM!And when you get tired of talking, or you just have NO personality at all and lack the social skills to live by example, then be SURE to visit www.chick.com.They have got what you NEED!These tracts are the best because they condense the whoooole gospel down into a tiny little comic book that you can hand to people.And the best thing is, almost ALL of them talk about hell!And even the ones that aren’t about hell are good, because they tell good stories about bad people turning their lives around and getting saved.I think the one called “Lisa” is my favorite.It’s about a little girl whose father molests her until he finally gets saved……and he got saved so good that child services didn’t even have to get involved!They just lived happily ever after!“Lisa” is good, but the ones about the Catholics are pretty good too.Did you know that The Pope is the antichrist, and there are mass graves of dead babies that are the bastard offspring of priests and nuns buried right under the Vatican?It’s true!I don’t even think Catholics can GET saved, so don’t even waste your time!

“Why are the unsaved so hostile”

You got me.They are even hostile to me and I’m a precious doggie!Deep down, the unsaved know they are lost, and it makes them angry way down in their belly.Don’t let them scare you though, what’s the worst that will happen? They’ll go to Hell #2?Stay on top of them and don’t let up because sometimes you have to be very rude, thoughtless and mean in order to show someone how much FUN it is to be SAVED!Oh boy, talking like this sure does make me wish I had a soul, because I want to go to heaven one day and talk to all of you about how much I’ve helped you.

“Simple question to ask your unsaved mother”

This is a sensitive subject, because it is VERY important to honor your parents.At the same time, who would you want to get saved more than your Mommy?The bottom line is, you can’t be shy about it. The next time she’s in the kitchen, sneak up behind her and hold her hand down on the stove.Then start yelling, “Remember how bad it hurt when I came out of your tummy?Well that’s NOTHING compared to HELL!You wanna feel this burning all over you FOREVER?LISTEN TO ME WOMAN!NO MOMMIES IN HELL! NO MOMMIES IN HELL!!!!”Trust me, she’ll come around.

“Dating unsaved” and “My girlfriend is unsaved”

Well, I’m assuming that you got saved after the two of you started dating, because no real Christian in their right mind would unequally yoke themselves with a nonbeliever.You are headed for a nightmare, my friend. Stay away from all of that.And if you are banging away already, then YOU need to get saved!Take my unsaved person for example, for some reason he has stopped eating all of the food I used to steal off of his plate and he’s shrinking more and more every day.Now he is acting like a ladies man with new clothes and he is in mortal danger of finding me a new unsaved mommy, and I just can’t deal with it.And I feel sorry for any good Christian girl who would get stuck with him, because they have NO IDEA what he is like.Sometimes I wish I had a voice instead of a cute doggie bark, because I’d yell, “Hey! Fat Boy!Just because YOU don’t eat yummy food anymore it doesn’t mean you can’t give it to ME! And those naughty girls you like to watch on your picture-box aren’t what you should be after!Go to church!”.And I don’t know what a “safety word” is, but he sure does insist all his filthy harlots choose one as soon as they come over here to MY house!Anyway, you Christian people should stick with other Christians. That is just the bottom line.

“Explaining the Old Testament to the unsaved”

Shalom Aleichem!You’re Jewish, right?I mean, I can’t get my doggie brain around how many saved people use the Torah when they don’t even understand the NEW Testament well enough to be effective!If you become a Jew for Jesus then I’ll let you come over here and teach me some good material from the Old Testament.Even though there is no logical reason for saved folks to use the Old Testament because they are under grace now (and the Old Testament is a book of laws), there are a LOT of us who like to live by the law so that we can judge OTHERS by the law!Especially dirty homosexuals! YUCK!I eat my own poop and even I think that is just the most disgusting of all sins!And there is some good spooky stuff in the Old Testament to use against the unsaved!Come explain it to me so that I can come back here one day and explain it to all of my person’s readers!

“How many unsaved people die per day”

Well, as much as I love to preach the gospel in the tough-love manner that is required for all true believers, this question bothers me for a couple of reasons.First of all, it’s just creepy. And secondly, if you’ve got time to Google something like THAT then you’ve got too much time on your hands that you should be using to witness to people.Maybe then more SAVED people would die every day!You ever think of THAT?You better start sending that timber up to heaven if you want a mansion, fella!

Well it sure has been a lot of fun coming on here and talking with you good people!I sure hope you like me, and not just because I’m cute but because I have such a command of the gospel truth!My person is stirring around in the other room…….I think he has slept off his last blackout, and I sure do hope he doesn’t find out what I’ve been up to because he gets MEAN!Then again, what is he going to do about it?Beat and starve me even more?You know what you get when you accidentally spill paint in the garage in THIS house?A cigar burn!Ouch!And he just spent money for people to put me in a CAGE!For DAYS!He’s a tough case alright, but it’s not to late for HIM or any of YOUR unsaved loved ones to wise up and turn things around!

Okay, just for the sake of sanity and dealing with boredom, I’m going to kick it old school and do the type of blog entry that I generally hate. I’ll keep it all to one post, and if it sucks too badly I’ll just delete it later. The type of blog that I hate is one where you spend your time reading pointless updates about random shit…….which, now that I think about it means I hate my own blog because I thrive on the random AND the pointless. I’m currently on a business trip out east, and I’m staying at a hotel right next to a strip mall that could literally be in any metropolitan area in the country…….I can look out the window of the Hilton and see a Chipotle, Boston Market, Borders, Bed Bath and Beyond, Quizno’s, Sam’s Club and McDonald’s. There is absolutely nothing that sets this place apart from Omaha, Des Moines or Tulsa. So as I sit this close to the nation’s capitol and still manage to be bored, I’ll give you updates between now and Thursday with a handy little timestamp…

March 10th, 2008- 11:25PM EST:

Two things…..First, I HATE to fly, and I have to say a lot of the pressure is lifted when you are finally at a “normal” enough weight to fit into a cramped airline seat without completely alienating the person next to you. Hooray for that. I know how mundane that must sound to most of you, but for me it was a real breakthrough. Secondly, I have zero embarassment about the fact that I can only eat or drink a small amount before I am full…..so it’s fun to eat four “happy hour freebie” mozzarella sticks at the Hilton lounge in front of your co-workers and say, “damn, I’m full”.

The best thing about the trip so far is this African guy downstairs named Lawrence…he’s kind of a bellboy/concierge/go-to guy that I liked immediately due to his eagerness to engage us in conversation about the whole New York Governor scandal, why it was okay for us to snatch Noriega and bring him to the U.S., etc. I’m going to tip this guy every time I get a chance, because that sonofabitch earns it. They have a shuttle here to run you around where you need to go within a five mile radius, and earlier tonight when we were sick of paying hotel prices for drinks he commandeered the shuttle and ran us over to a liquor store. When you go above and beyond to take me to a liquor store so that I can numb myself to the fact that I’ve got several days of corporate hell in front of me, you are my friend. I’ll get a picture with this guy tomorrow and post it on here, because he just fucking rules. So far he is the greatest thing about Gaithersburg; the strip mall capitol of the east coast……

March 11th, 2008- 11:58PM EST:

Do you all remember that scene towards the end of One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s nest where Nurse Ratched calls out young Billy, who just got laid and lost his stutter? Well, my first day of training was a lot like that. Nurse Ratched goes “Aren’t you ashamed?”, Billy says “No, I’m not” (no stutter!), then she says “You know Billy, what really worries me is how your mother is going to take this”. Then the meltdown begins……”Um, um, well, y-y-y-you d-d-d-don’t have to t-t-t-tell her, Miss Ratched.” To which she replies, “I don’t have to tell her? Your mother and I are old friends. You know that.”

Flash forward to ME at 8am EST this morning when I go down to the lobby to meet the group of people with whom I will spend the rest of the week…….and suddenly I morph into Billy….”P-p-p-please d-d-d-don’t m-m-m-make me do this…….n-n-n-no…NO!…n-n-no….p-please, NO! N-n-n-NOT gonna d-d-do it!”…..first I slapped myself across the face, crying uncontrollably, and finally grabbed someone’s Snapple bottle, broke it and started carving gouges down my cheeks.

It didn’t do any good, I was totally fucked at that point. Apparently they get this reaction all the time. The rest of the day is not worth mentioning, SO…….flash forward to 7:30PM EST this evening and I’m standing in front of the White House taking pictures. You don’t have to be clairvoyant to know that I’m not the biggest fan of the current administration, so NORMALLY I’d be getting pictures of me grabbing my crotch, giving the finger or simulating autoerotic asphyxiation with my belt, right in front of the rose garden. But….there is something about the vibe down there that just…..scares you. It’s either the centuries of history, or the spooky amount of security and surveillance that you DON’T see that makes it too formidable to properly fuck around. In fact, I was downright polite to people…..like, OLD SCHOOL polite. I didn’t start saying “my liege” and shit like that, but when I went to ask one of the White House cops the quickest way to the National Archive area, it blew my mind because it came out like, “Excuse me kind sir, would you do me the honor of illuminating the path by which I may best traverse this fair city and find the archival landmark that will surely put me closest to that jolly tavern known as Cafe Atlantico?”. I guess they get this all the time, because he goes…”Certainly, you just go straight down this street, which will turn into Pennsylvania Avenue on the next block, follow that till you get to 9th street and turn left”.

Really, DC is one polite fucking city, at least up in the serious tourist corridor. It’s too polite and people are way too helpful when it comes to teaching you how to use the metro or give extremely useful directions. It bothered me. Fuck that town, man.

So dinner at Cafe Atlantico was fantastic, and I’ll write about that on another site for the food nerds who won’t roll their eyes when I wax poetic about how the combination of eel, jellied pineapple and toasted quinoa is a miracle that will eventually bridge the gap between the tastebuds of the elitist gastronomist and the lowly midwestern housewife.

As I rode back on the train from Metro Central to Shady Grove, I went to an emotional place that I have not experienced since I was eighteen years old and I was riding the train between New Haven Connecticut and New York City. The diversity of the travelers prompted me to pull out my food-nerd journal and take notes, as I connected with them in my own personal way…..it’s not often that I look at random people as actual human beings and make broad, emotional assumptions about them. There is a weird nobility to the stereotypes I place on strangers as I completely understand them after nothing more than a few seconds of observation. I became this portly Hugh Grant character who takes his patented self-deprecating method acting to a level where literally shitting your pants makes you the most smoothly murderous player in all of whoredom. So I look down the length of the train and see the gaunt, bookish girl with the ponytail, who is just TOO immersed in her book, zoning out in a way that makes a total scene….in order to ignore everyone around her, and I realize that she is secretly into the most exquisite styles of heavy BDSM. And there is the well-manicured business boy who takes such joy in brandishing his iPod that he loses control and begins to quietly dry-hump it and weep into a kerchief. The aggressively happy and loud Spanish girl in front of me is so animated and intense about making her points to her shy friend that when she gets off at the next stop and leaves the other girl behind, the entire train car feels bad for the lonely refugee because she has nothing left with which to entertain us when she is sitting alone. The obviously wealthy deaf man down the aisle is so flamboyant when he is signing to his friends he can’t know how loudly he is smacking his lips as he mimes along. The fuming, angry African immigrant next to the door is grinding his teeth so hard that he is drooling. There is a construction worker talking to his friend, and he has taken this train ride so many times that he doesn’t even know where he is…it’s simply a reflex action when he gets off at his stop. My favorite character of all is the tortured old man in his North Face jacket who buries his face in his paper to ignore his smiling, yammering wife. I miss those people now. All of them. I miss them like I’m missing my crazy dog who is sitting back home at a kennel thinking I’ve abandoned her.

Did it take surgery to calm me down enough to jot random observations onto a notepad like I did when I was eighteen and on the train to New York….and not only that, feel comfortable enough with myself to publish such pointlessly sophomoric imagery based on total strangers? I couldn’t figure out what brought such high-minded bullshit into my head, and I still can’t figure it out. In order to break out of it, I stole a big fire hydrant from underneath one of the seats and carted it through the Shady Grove station. And the only reason I did it was to see if my cab driver would give me a strange look when I heaved it into the backseat. I wonder what he is going to do with it. There was no way it was going with me onto the plane on Thursday.

March 13th, 2008- 12:58AM EST:

Unfortunately, I was unable to complete a blog entry this evening, but it was due to events out of my control. Jimmy the Cross-Eyed Cripple, Spastic Petey, Incontinent Gary, Louise the Hemophiliac Stutterer…..I apologize for not being able to fulfill my “Make A Wish” obligation to you and write a story where you all had parents who actually cared enough about you to not live a life of sin and curse you with such hideous afflictions. When you grow up you will have to learn the hard way that there are people in this world who think it is “all about them”. I was dealing with one of those people for the past hour or so…they were all like “hey, I’ve got cool things to say that you can’t help but respond to”…it cost me my integrity and it cost you a momentary, yet sweet respite from the fact that you are……fucked. Hopefully I’ll catch you on the flip side…….or not. I’m traveling tomorrow and by the time I get home I’m probably not going to be in the mood to crank out anything for you. The only reason you were getting it tonight was because I was bored and didn’t have any drinking money left. When you are saying your prayers before you go to sleep (or Petey, whatever it is you do in an iron lung at night), I want you to remember……it’s your fault your parents drink. Hey, you were going to hear it from someone, so it may as well have been me. Just keep counting your blessings…if you were my kids I probably would have drowned you or sold you off for parts by now.

Your Friend,

Jerry

March 14th, 2008- 12:09PM CST:

Got home last night, and more than anything I’m wanting to catch up on all of the HowardTV episodes I’ve had to miss all week. You have no idea how serious I am about that. Guess I also need to catch one of the million reruns of the season premiere of Top Chef as well…….I wish they would rerun No Reservations from Monday night. I hear it was the first not-shitty episode in a long time, so of course I was out of town and stuck with hotel cable programming. Yes, I DO know about the invention called a DVR…..but all of that money goes to my HowardTV subscription.

Anyway, I was going to put a picture up here the other night but forgot to take my USB adapter to upload pics onto my laptop. I’m not sure about the picture quality because my desktop monitor is about to die. But this is my Kenyan brother from another mother. Other than my meal on Tuesday night, he was the high point of the trip. He’s the kind of guy I would be more than happy to go out and get alcohol-poisoned with, because he’s a smooth talker and great storyteller….even better than ME, and definitely cooler than all of my damn friends combined (Yes, ALL of you! Bow to the master!).

Then of course I guess I’m obligated to throw in the gratuitous shot of dumbass’s house….

So that’s it, a run of the mill update type of blog entry with pictures. I hope to not have to rely on that type of thing very much, but travel stifles my creativity.

Oh yeah, I’ve been noticing something weird lately…I’ve lived alone since I got home from surgery in August, and I live in a nice, quiet crime-free zone where I don’t really have to lock my doors (but I still do). Nothing is ever missing, unless it’s something that my crazy dog thinks is food, but sometimes I’ll notice that my computer and mouse are all askew and the resolution on my monitor will be reset to something huge. If it’s a poltergeist, it really needs to work on its methods. Anyway, final boring observation of the day. I’m picky about my keyboard and mouse placement.

Oh man! I know it! The craziest concept I could have EVER come up with……..yet here it is.

This was an especially shocking revelation for me. Not just because I’m about as far left as it gets when it comes to things like gay marriage and public vivisections for anyone who thinks the Patriot Act was a good idea, but also because I live in this weird alternative universe of my mind that is always more interesting than reality. One of the most interesting facets of that universe, which also happens to be the most gay, has to do with my roommates. Basically, I live with Tim Gunn and George Tekai; men who inspire me with their quick wit, charm and seemingly endless supply of wisdom and kindness. Life isn’t always easy for me despite the tough facade that I use to keep people at a distance, so their constant input helps to temper my outlook and my mood. I don’t feel as if I expect them to micro-manage me, because I pick up on resentment pretty quickly, and that is not a predominant vibe in our house. It is all about give and take, and we all bring our unique sense of humor and style to the party. And honestly, with all of the changes that come with bariatric surgery, people like Tim and George are EXACTLY the type of people you can depend upon to voice realistic concerns as well as their heart-felt support.

I won’t go into too many details about our daily routines, or how tough it is to coordinate schedules when you have three busy men in the house. Suffice it to say, we do make the most out of our quality time together when we are in town at the same time. We have a traditional high tea (which we all make fun of) any day we’re together…..whether the event has to happen in the morning, afternoon or evening….schedules dictate that. I can’t really say that we watch much TV or anything, we generally serve as each other’s entertainment and sounding boards. We’re just a fun group, and I have to say that it feels GREAT to play the “attention whore” role with these guys. How I write is exactly how I talk…anyone who speaks to me regularly can tell you that. And I have no problem knocking these two over with a feather when I start in with one of my tales or theories. George’s signature “oh MY!” never gets old, and you can work Tim into a tizzy without even trying….”JERRY! You have got to get it together! That girl is what? Twenty three? What do you two even have to talk about? But even worse, my GOD, those BANGS! Her GRANDMOTHER may have been Bettie Page, but that look was dead before she was even BORN! Just awful!”

So I know what you’re thinking, these are the only two guys who make me feel butch and I’m using them for that. Now I can’t prove a negative, but I will say that you are totally wrong. We have a mutually respectful and supportive relationship that works equally for all of us. Each of us brings a unique sense of style, humor and support to the relationship, and there’s just no way to qualify that for those of you who view the scenario with some weird preconceived notion. There is a level of bonding that goes beyond explanation or rational thought…and I think that is the exact type of inexplicable dynamic that is the cornerstone of our friendship. Obviously, I can only theorize about THEIR bond with each other. From what I witness, it is honest and fun , and there is no evidence that would make me believe otherwise. As far as what “I get” out of all of this, and I guess you can call it feeling “butch” if you want to, are those quiet and private moments where (and maybe this is all in my head) I feel like I can act as some sort of sentry or protector for these two gifted men. I want to protect the world in which they live…and there are times at night when the conversations are winding down, before we all retire to our rooms, and I make some final and ridiculous act of showmanship. I’ll make some insane point about wine or women that has absolutely no possibility of resolution, then suddenly leave the room in a flourish and hear their laughter as I shut my door and head to bed. Once I’m ready to go to sleep and I can hear that they have retired as well, and the house is silent and dark, I will simply stand in my doorway for several minutes appreciating who they are and wishing for the best of all possible things for them….silently channeling Atticus Finch in my own protective and fatherly way. It isn’t much, but when I do it I mean it…and you can either understand that or you can’t.

So…..how are great guys like THEM ruining America? First of all, I’m no social theorist or city planner, but I’ll start this off by telling you to think of the “cool” parts of your town. More likely than not, they are what Paul Fussell would refer to as the “Bohemian Enclaves”. In Kansas City, the 39th St. corridor is a good example of the exact phenomenon I’m talking about. It is the part of town where you’ll find a high concentration of galleries, high-end and ethnic eateries, weird little boutiques…..basically wherever your gratuitous and ubiquitous “FIRST FRIDAY” ground-zero happens to be. You like those places? Well so do I. You know who you have to thank for them? Gay people (and artists). You know who is responsible for their imminent destruction? Gay people (and artists).

It sounds insane, but follow along with me here…… the majority of the “cool” parts of town spring up where there was once urban blight. This is not always the case, but it happens enough to map a trend. Space is cheap so artists will set up studios. Once they have established the territory and there is enough of an infrastructure to support life, the trendier urban gays (and developers too…I know that) come in and begin to rehabilitate houses and turn industrial space into nice lofts. I’m not breaking it down like this to sound flippant or demeaning, I dearly love all that hipster shit….lofts, markets, studios, ethnic grocers and eateries….those things are all right in my comfort zone. And let’s face it, I’m white, you’re white, we’re ALL white….so we make it easy for ourselves to overlook the fact that we’re capitalizing on blighted areas that were abandoned by the urban poor….it’s all in the name of progress, right? Right. God bless the bountiful bowls of pho, overpriced art glass and the homemade candles the hippies are so fond of creating…….and God bless the gay (and artist) pioneers for creating these sanctuaries…..

But this is as far as it goes before it is ruined. If you know of an area like this that is currently thriving with all of the locally owned and independent businesses, take one last look before it is gone. In “Fear and Loathing…”, Hunter S. Thompson notes a similar phenomenon when he says “So now, less than five years later, you can go up on a steep hill in Las Vegas and look West, and with the right kind of eyes you can almost see the high-water mark….that place where the wave finally broke and rolled back”.

The wave in your Bohemian Enclave has already crested, and it has begun to roll back. It is a victim of its own progress and white-ness…..because things are about to get a little TOO white…..

How, you ask? No punches pulled here, this is how the damn gays (and artists) are ruining America…..

It’s a typical Thursday evening at some kind of themed bar or restaurant in a stripmall, and Todd and Tina Exurb are chatting with their boring friends about whatever boring shit people yack about out there in their pre-fab tombs. Then suddenly you hear “OH! I read in the local alternative paper about this restaurant that opened up in a part of the ghetto where they don’t automatically kill white people anymore! Oh, they said it was GOOD! They use SAUCES! We need to all get in our gigantic Humvee’s and get down there! Sometimes I feel like the waiters out here don’t respect all of the money we spend, so this is new territory for us to monopolize waitstaff and leave SHITTY TIPS!! WHEEEEEEE!!!!”.

And so it begins. The gayness and artistry have drawn in the very worst of humankind….yuppies who like all of the trappings of that environment but think it’s still too “icky” for them to actually live there. With the suburban buzz created by Todd and Tina Exurb, comes the totally familiar and totally corporate…..they want the same five dollar Starbucks drink that they can get out at the cookie-cutter stripmall….the independent coffee shops just don’t do it right, they never make it sweet enough and the staff isn’t hip to the fine art of kissing yuppie ass. So just like the 39th St. corridor in Kansas City, Starbucks comes in, followed quickly by Chipotle. Soon the “icky” factor subsides enough for Todd and Tina to realize….”oh look at all of these quaint houses and lofts…they’re so much cheaper here than they are out in our paradise of suburban sprawl….and those roving gangs of black teenagers our friends warned us about haven’t done a home invasion and massacred an entire white family in AGES! I want to LIVE HERE!”. Then because you obviously need one on every block, Walgreen’s comes in and takes up space, and before long the corporate dollars have driven overhead so high that the independent shops and restaurants can no longer afford to exist in the area that they made successful. So the damn gays (and artists) flee the scene to create and ruin the next Bohemian Enclave. One minute you and I are blissfully strolling the avenues of our hipster nirvana, and the next minute we’re getting cut off by gigantic SUV’s driven by total fuckers who think they may have seen an empty parking space right in front of whatever familiar retail chain they cannot live without…..

And yeah, as soon as more people in the West Bottoms of KC can afford to put air conditioning in their lofts and shops, it will all happen there too. Todd and Tina can’t ruin it for everyone until they can do so in a climate controlled environment.

Whether it’s corridors like 39th St. or Westport, or it’s the gigantic and hideous pre-fab ready-made communities like Zona Rosa or The Power and Light District, one thing is certain….people with absolutely no taste are running the show. Now I can’t blame the gays (and artists) for the prefab communities, but just knowing there are cooler parts of town to spend your weekends makes the development of those monstrosities even more torturous. You can’t even have a decent dinner in them without being inundated by the rudeness of the overgrown fratboys who don’t see a problem with wearing their favorite team’s ballcap at the dinner table, or their tanorexic skanks who literally have their cell phones surgically attached to their ears……so thanks gays, artists and gay artists….THOSE are the people you are drawing to our happy little biospheres! As soon as they pick up a copy of the local alternative rag at Applebee’s and read about the good work you’re doing…….the ruination cometh!

Now, I don’t want to sound like even more of an elitist dick than I already do, so I will say this….I understand that big box stores and corporate chains have their place in this world. I do realize that unless you just have a ton of money, you can’t venture down to the hipster brasserie every time you don’t feel like cooking and want to feed your family. I know that it would be insanely cumbersome to visit ten independent stores every time you go shopping when Target has everything you need in one spot. What pisses me off is the fact that the need for comfortable, familiar, brand-recognition generally wins out over its locally owned and operated counterpart. Taking advantage of the kid’s menu at Chili’s is one thing…..fucking over a local business just so you can save ten cents on a cup of coffee is another issue entirely. The suburbs are already there, and they have everything you need….feel free to visit the Bohemian Enclaves but don’t let the door hit you on the ass on the way out. We have enough McDonald’s, Ted’s Montana Grills, Hooters, brewpubs, sports bars, GAP’s, Old Navy’s, and all of the other shit that is apparently like crack to Todd and Tina Exurb. Always having one of those places two minutes from wherever you happen to be isn’t the “new manifest destiny”…..it’s time for you to fuck off now. Seriously. You people who view the corporatization of every square inch of ground as progress, just because it’s familiar to you and easy, embody everything that is ugly about The Ugly American.

My GOD I just get so worked up because of those GODDAMN QUEERS (AND ARTISTS) coming in and doing something cool and then leaving us with all of the corporate chain bullshit!

Obviously, the real point of this post other than to vent my frustration at corporate sprawl, is to give my readers a tool with which they can blow people’s minds. Everyone who stops by here and takes the time to read my rambling is obviously very intelligent, attractive and cutting edge…..so I don’t have to spell it out for you but I will anyway. We ALL know at least five or six Huckabee-lovin’ dumbasses, and I’m sure you all love to jack with their feeble worldviews as much as I do. Now, you can either approach the topic from a standard Socratic methodology or go with the whole “your enemy of your enemy is your friend” angle, but the point is to get people to equate homosexuals (something they hate) with stuff like Wal-Mart (something they love). Be sure to leave enough holes in your argument like I have, so that they don’t just blow you off. If you make too airtight of a case they’ll just ignore you instead of engaging you with their banter (as evidenced by my “Why I Hate Guys Like Huckabee” post….it just made TOO much sense).

So there you go, have fun with it. And speaking of corporate hell, I’ll be in DC for the next several days for the type of training that could be accomplished in a few hours, BUT being corporate America they take way more time than necessary to insure that everyone is tortured as they teach to the dumbest person in the room…..

I’m sure I’ll be checking in here at some point, I just wanted to get this extra-lengthy ramble recreated so you’d have some entertainment……..I hope you all have a great week, even you damn gays (and artists)!

I’m in the middle of reconstructing a truly inspired post after a heartbreaking computer/site crash yesterday, but in the meantime I want to communicate something that is truly significant….

I am officially adding a new person to my current lineup of “Ultimate Dream Women on Earth”. Of course, some of them are way too young, and all of them are insanely out of reach…..however, they do represent a very specific type of woman that has a combination of looks, body of work, sex appeal, looks, eccentricity, and a certain “I don’t know what”.

Until now the list has included Kate Winslet (edited to add: not the skinny Winslet…I’m talking about the Quills/Holy Smoke version) , Zooey Deschanel, Thora Birch (the Ghost World version) and Rachael Leigh Cook (edited to add: Kathleen Hanna of Bikini Kill). Again, go to hell if you’re simply going to call me out on the age difference thing, this is my world.

So the newest addition to this illustrious group is: Amanda Palmer from The Dresden Dolls. I am assuming no explanation is needed.

Obviously, Kim Shattuck from the band The Muffs trumps all of the aforementioned ladies, but that just goes without saying.