Friday, January 17, 2014

Overwhelmed or underwhelmed?

I honestly can't figure out how I feel.

At some points during the past few days I have felt so overwhelmingly happy to be here! I have been able to do and see so many things that I have been dreaming about for a while now. Kensington, Big Ben, Chelsea, Piccadilly, and more! My apartment is great and the location is even better than I imagined. My budget seems to be going as planned....

But I don't know. I feel weird. I don't know if I should allow myself to feel this but I can't help it. With Rome there was such a big shock factor...it was like everyday I did something new and became a slightly new person. Here, I know I am seeing new things but for some reason it isn't the same as Rome. Most of it seems familiar or similar to other things.

I still don't know how to explain it properly and I know that in a few weeks I will forget all about this feeling. In Rome, I went through something similar where I was feeling a bit out of place. I felt excited and happy but something just wasn't right (then I became better friends with Janelle, Sophia, Travis, and Areeya and everything fell into place). I hope something similar happens again. I am sure it will.

Sunday we are going on a Primrose Hill and Camden Market walking tour so I think that will really boost me into London more! It was where Annie and I first went when we got to London a few years ago and where we stayed, too.

Again, I hope (and know) this feeling will go away eventually and I debated whether or not to write this post. However, I don't want to forget that this is a normal reaction to a big change and I don't want someone studying abroad feeling like this to stumble across my blog and think I didn't go through something similar.