These images are stamps for me – I watch them and remember who I aspire to be. I watch them and think: life is crazy and I will make something even more crazy with it. I watch them, love them. They do not care about anything, they just want to have a good time and that frivolity is, for me, the most transcendental and subversive dogma I want to be exposed and surrendered to.

I watch and describe: I know I do not understand what they are thinking, I think I do, I name it, I am wrong. I am so utterly wrong it is aberrant, and arrogant to think I understand what is going on in that scene.
I just can recognize my pathetic aspiration of wanting to “correct” the elements I consider out of place. Pathetic, not only because of its weakness, but because of its wrongness. What is “to be corrected” in the scene? Why does it make any sense to correct those “unwanted” elements? During my life i learnt the only intervention admitt is under the objective of the suppression of pain.

…maybe I am disturbed by a line i was once told – “you have a heavy karma”. I see around me, I judge, just as that premise judges me, I judge back: I see so many people around me with a so-called “light karma”, “good karma”, “easy karma” – their will frayed and opaque, always under the regimen of suffering and complaint. They suffer their children, their work, their effort, their choices, anything is experienced as a ” sufferance”; incapable of providing themselves joyful experiences and re-invent their hours with effort and imagination. I see and judge: that is a “heavy karma” in my view. I see, judge and say: f–k karma, I go and eat life.
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by coincidence i found this, and a kind of relief there is this conception of sickness/cureby carl gustav jung_ psychiatrist and psychotherapist and essay writer

“a person can be conduit to the path of curation, but he can not be cured: is a myth, a lie, is insane, a fraud saying someone can cure us. but we can make a lot of goodness making activate in people those actions that are enjoyable: that is curation, because we make them enter in the path of realization. Life is a constant cure. We are cured just by being on the way of changing, and move forward to situations and experiences each time more comforting and pleasant for ourselves. Being cured, means entering the progress path: being sick, is not posting the problem.”