I have a few dark posts lined up that I’ve been working on. They are a part of my past that fuels who I am now. I feel the need to get them out there, out of my secret darkness as something hidden away. It is as if I give them light I can walk away and move on psychologically or at least dampen the anger.

I wish I did not understand this poem in ways that I do. I commend you for the steps you plan to take. Yes, bringing them to light will indeed help. Be prepared for the rebuttal from those who do not understand and prepared for the embrace of those who do and care and the loneliness from those who stand by and do nothing.

Thanks for your like. If you could read my posts Mask- part one and two and then Unmasked. It is a based of what you are about to do and what I did. So much I could share and would love to if you need it. I mourn for what you went through and will pray for you and know you will be well. Though remnants may remain you will come to a point of saying. “It is well” cheering you on in a somber sort and hoping to help any way possible. Be strong because that is what you are.

Thank you for your kind words. I am sorry you do understand it because that means you have been through it and I would not wish it on anybody. The good news is my situation was in the past. I am in a better place now but I am finding that some of these memories are negatively impacting some decisions I am making now. I kept it bottled up inside and I don’t want to do that anymore. If I understand you correctly, you are talking about the reactions I am going to get based on the poem. I appreciate that. No one can possibly hurt me more than I can myself so while I can’t say I am ready for rebuttal I am strong enough to stay the course on what is best for me. I will indeed check out your posts and thank you for the support.

Well I meant as you unmask yourself. Maybe you have in your life but as my ex wife left me after cheating- and I asked to be able to restore it mind you and was flat out rejected, though I was cheated on- I began to transform and just be me. I knew if she wee to come back I wanted her to come back to the real me not who she wanted me to be. She didn’t and actually disliked me more so. Then when I finally agreed to the divorce as long as we went peacefully. After that and walking with my heart, intentions, soul unmasked. I was left by most everyone I knew. Then two who didn’t leave betrayed me. One hurting me very deeply in the process.

My unmasked self was looked at with contempt or that it was ill. The could not see that the ingenuous honesty and walking unashamed and soul naked was good and beautiful but hung up on details.

A lot I could say on that one portion of my life but I found that in just being me I was rejected or left alone by those who I thought were closest to me. Now I have learned to enjoy solitude and when there is ingenuous and mutual love to cherish it more. Most is masked emotion or motives.

That is one portion. There is much more in the past. Either way as you said it is in the past and made me stronger. Facing the blackness is what helped me heal also. So know you are beautiful right at this moment and brave. Since you are face it all. Whatever your it is and overcome it. Hope you can find some solace and encouragement.