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Ascension Avatar note: Lisa dedicates this to Starseeds who have gone through life as ‘targets’ or ‘victims’. It’s funny because just minutes ago before reading this article, I was thinking about how in this life, nothing and no one has ever been successful in ‘messing with me’. The ones who tried always ‘fell on their butts’ somehow, or in one case where they unjustly tried to get physically violent, got a broken jaw before they could blink. No, it isn’t good to be violent, but it’s nice to have a strong inner spirit as a personal protector and an example for others… It’s also good to have a wise loving heart that understands why people behave the way they do… and what’s even better is knowing the ‘final outcome’ of people and events… as a cue… to let go and keep going onward and upward…

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Many of us that are on the Ascension path, or have awakened to remember ourselves as a Starseed, have come to the earth during the Ascension Cycle to actualize our unique blueprint and mission, attempting to embody the highest template of Christos Consciousness possible, and to help support the mass planetary awakening. Most Starseeds chose very challenging earth bloodlines to incarnate into during this cycle, as well as co-created very aspiring spiritual missions in pre-birth agreements, to stretch themselves into the outer limits in order to reach their heroic probability. We knew what was at stake in this specific incarnation. Thus, many of us have front loaded intense consciousness lessons and karmic clearings in this lifetime, in order to master the polarities and entities, and to gain mastery over the technological mind control and learn about the anti-human culture impacting this planet. As a result of the front loaded 3D earth lessons, many of us have suffered through intensely disturbing and difficult childhoods, trying to make sense of the world around us, as well as cope with the dysfunctions and abusive situations arising between our own biological family members.

Most Starseed people suffer from extra levels of memory wipe and are harassed more directly by the NAA, starting in childhood, in order to discourage them from discovering their true mission and spiritual purpose. As a result of this specialized dark harassment, many of us may develop an unconscious complex and pain body thinking that something is deeply wrong with us, or that we are a bad person, because we cannot understand how we found ourselves in this strange predicament. Was I a mass murderer in my previous lifetime, that this ill treatment is actually justified? You have a right to be baffled and confused by this ill treatment, as nothing is as simple as it seems, and the narrative we have been told is false. We have to awaken and remember why we came to the earth during the Ascension cycle.

Before we incarnated into 3D earth, we understood our responsibility to heal the family of origin bloodline, and that the spiritual support we would have to complete ancestral healing would be made available to us. We just did not remember or know how much hard work that would actually turn out to be! Additionally, after some years of slogging through the miasma, at the master number age of 33, we generally reach another threshold of completed genetic pathcutting and kundalini activation. Our holographic re-patterning expertise is now applied to the collective consciousness grids of the earth, making us a gridworker by default, an acupuncture point to run rainbow frequencies into the grid, sharing our unique DNA pattern with the earth. We find ourselves with streams of light and kundalini current blasting out of random body parts, sparks coming out of our hands and fingers with an increasing sensation of an open and widening heart and crown used for spontaneous transiting and soul retrievals. Sleep no more Christos Starseed, because now your body is an organic God technology in which during sleep and awake hours there is no difference, you travel to the ends of the Universe to answer the clarion call, and work with other spiritual family members on what needs to be done.

In this stage of development our personal world explodes, all personal interest and preference in 3D is washed away into non-existence, and all that is left is the truth spirit and Service. As a result of this Starseed mission, many of us not only suffer from an Orphan Complex, during various stages of our ancestral clearing and healing process, but may also experience ourselves as being singled out as the “black sheep”, the oddball, the outcast, the weirdo. Many conventional 3D earth people around us seem to sense that we are energetically different, like they know we are different but cannot put a finger on what is different about us. They do not feel comfortable about those differences, and begin to develop clever ways to verbally attack, emotionally manipulate or cope with the fear that is surfacing by blame shifting. Gaslighting 101, straight from the NAA dark press. Many times a Starseed person can feel singled out for isolation, ridicule, ostracism, and being accused of things that they did not do, acting in the archetypal role of scapegoat. Oh my scapegoating, let me count the ways, how many times were others emotional burdens thrust upon me as if it was my fault? Standing there like a wallflower trying to go unnoticed, only to be subjected to another’s emotional theatrics, a boatload of dark spit balls and etheric weapons only to be told it was my fault. This repeated pattern does not exactly help our confidence levels, as when you are considered the odd person out in a group of people, where you don’t feel to be fitting in anywhere, it’s a lonely and bewildering proposition.

However, the most important piece in this Starseed experience is that although it is not pleasant to have people easily feel they can use you as an scapegoat or whipping post, it is a great learning opportunity to master the world of forces, and the 3D negative ego. To understand that if you do not completely love and accept yourself and reclaim your own spiritual power, someone or something will try to rip this light out from inside you by making you feel small. On this planet the default setting is to use ridicule and character defamation by the local schoolyard bullies to make you feel bad about yourself. We must come to the level of recognizing ourselves for who and what we are as Starseed people, unapologetically but harmlessly, knowing it is our job to take our power back, and to love ourselves unconditionally for all we have been through, knowing it all has purpose. We cannot keep acting as the doormat for parasitic exchanges, being sucked dry from idiot compassion, allowing our light, our heart and spirit to be eroded by those who are run by fear and intimidation.

This is my public confession as a Starseed, that I have always been considered to be the oddball, the black sheep, the weirdo. The one that people around me cannot understand, and to be constantly criticized and put down by those around me that seek to gain control over what they cannot understand. As a youngster, I had thought of myself as the red head step child, the beat up kid that the Universe didn’t want. God knows it took me most of my life to understand and fully accept my Starseed-ness, in so that I could reclaim my personal power and stop caring what others thought about me. In order to fully reclaim my authentic Christ Self, I had to choose expressing my personal truth over all things, and learn to ignore the stream of dark accusations leveled towards my service mission. The dark is the darkness, and it lives in the shadow of ignorance and confusion in people’s minds, it just is the way it is. As a spiritual catalyst, as a person that loves truth over discomfort, I have never been popular or well liked, instead my mere presence makes some people deeply uncomfortable. All of my life was a struggle to conform to others expectations of me, struggling to make ends meet, struggling to make it through the day, living as someone else that was unrecognizable to me. Even now in my own direct field of experience, I tend to be labeled as things I’m not. I live my life on earth as generally feeling very misunderstood by the majority of people, the fish in the wrong pond, an oddity here on planet earth.

I share this experience with the Starseeds of this world so that you know you are not alone in feeling this way, the earth is a strange and beautiful place, but the judgmental nature of the mind control here is set up on turbo. And this takes some getting used to, that you will be labeled or looked at to be the black sheep, or an oddball, for just being yourself. And this is the made up persona used by others unconscious pain in so that you are made to be the whipping post for that unresolved emotional content which is not understood, and remains unreconciled in the shadow selves. Some of the most baffling things I’ve learned about being on the earth, is that in general, 3D people do not understand the value system of ‘live and let live’. Instead, they tend to immediately act threatened if you do not want to conform to their lifestyle and agree with everything they say. Somehow 3D people take this personal, which is really strange to me. How is it that just being myself, as authentic as I know my inner self, to be threatening to another? This is earth, and its surreal down here.

Recently, we had a Starseed community member share that she felt she walked around the earth with a big “F-You” on her forehead. This blog is dedicated to you, and all of us that have felt this same way over the years. She shared that people seemed to react to her in excessively negative ways to put her down, and wondering why this parade of people seemed to want and even enjoy sending an stream of emotional garbage while excluding her. I laughed out loud, having recognized this pattern throughout my life also, as in the hardest times of my spiritual nomad phase, I was convinced that I was marked with a message in my etheric layers that said “kick my butt”. Later I learned that my butt was getting kicked really hard because:

I had to learn my lessons, see my influence and not abuse my power.

I had to totally love and accept myself, the real part of me that is unique and seems weird to others.

I had to take full responsibility for my mission, my life, as it is now.

I had to toughen myself up and stop with the idiot compassion.

I had to listen to my inner spirit always, no matter what.

I had to trust God and no one else, fearlessly.

I had to see where the darkness was blocking me from achieving my mission.

I had to motivate myself to keep going, never give up, even when the dark was royally kicking my butt.

Starseed people, you have been blessed with unique and sometimes otherworldly gifts that make you appear to be different to others. So many of us struggle to find common interests with the 3D lifestyle, and yet this is not who we are and what we came to offer this world. In many ways, you are a person from the future, and are some of the brightest and biggest lights in this world. You have much value to offer the people in this world. Sometimes the brightest lights threaten to outshine others around them, and sadly, this tends to make others feel insecure about themselves. So next time someone says an off-color remark, remember this person feels insecure about themselves. I know you don’t think you are powerful and so bright, but you really are! Muster the courage to reply and say something kind, bless them to find inner peace, and go on your merry way. Insecure and fear based people are a plenty in this world, and a simple act of kindness in the face of insults can actually restore faith in humanity.

Starseed people, do not make yourself small and cringe when you are ill-treated in this way, called the black sheep or weirdo, a person that is excluded from the mainstream acceptance. We are here to resist the mind control programming, we do not conform to the slave mentality, you are here to show the way for others around you. Being unique and different means that you are making an original contribution to the earth culture and impacting the world by fearlessly shining your light, and speaking and acting in your personal truth and from personal integrity. Personal Integrity is the quality of being truthful and honest with yourself and others, it means living as you are right now, aligned with your own personal value system. From this day forward, may your personal prayer include that you commit to serve your heart and that you will always be true to you. Honor your entire being and honor your life force, inquire and put forth the effort to know the real contents of your heart’s desires and look for that higher purpose to keep spiritually growing. And only really give to others what feels joyful and aligned for your person. Do not bargain yourself away or sacrifice your truth, be bright, be light, be harmless, but stay strong and steady on the course! We are in this together.