Yes, it still hurts…I know I shouldn’t have feelings for someone who makes me feel like I always need to prove myself. Right now, pretty much everything he’s said to me is bull…I don’t even know what we were doing. If he got cold feet about being in a relationship with me I wish he would have just been honest with me.

I haven’t eaten for two days, including today, and I barely got any sleep last night. I wish I wouldn’t let things affect me so much, but I can’t help it. I still like him a lot, but how do I tell myself it’s time to move on? This is so conflicting I can’t even deal with this right now.

I think a huge reason why I’m feeling like this is because he really was the first guy I was able to develop feelings for since my last relationship. So it’s just not a great situation overall…