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Monday, November 28, 2011

I am feeling a little sad tonight. I am hoping for a miracle. I am hoping that you will have spent the money, and the decide that you don't need that computer. I am hoping that you will take it back to my Aunt and Uncle's house and abandon it in one piece on the front porch. I am hoping because on that computer are the last 2 years of my family's life in pictures. My babies entire life... all his pictures... they are all there. That was my Christmas project, to print off pictures, to hang them in my house and send them to grandparents.

Petty Theif/Probable Drug Addict, could you please return my memories? I'm not angry, I just wish I had them back. My daughter's first steps. My baby's first crawling. Family vacations and playing in the back yard. May I please have them back?

You've probably already pawned that computer. I know I'll probably never see it again, but maybe not. And if not, could you please please please bring it back?

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Six years ago tonight I was stressed out of my brains on the edge of tears...

I was getting married in the morning.

I didn't have a whole lot of things I needed done, it wasn't extravagant by any means, I just wanted everyone to be rested, happy and in the Temple. I wanted to be able to enjoy spending time with people, and for them to enjoy that time as well. We were all so tired, but it was perfect. I married a man who was everything I had always wanted.

On Saturday, Melissa and Chris are getting married.

I'd be lying if I said that tonight I don't feel about that way I did six years ago...

There is so much to get ready, and we're doing it out of a hotel room...

I want all of those same things for Melissa and Chris this weekend, that I wanted for Cori & myself six years ago.

I want to be in the Temple together as a family and feel the peace and joy there that is so abundant, when you are prepared. I want to know that those first few hours of Melissa and Chris's marriage, are full of happy memories of their family celebrating this best of days with them.

I want to feel the joy of eternal promises being made.

I want to sit with my family in the Temple and feel the Love of God, our Father.

Because, that is really what makes it all work in the end.

Faith in each other.

Hope for the future.

and the beginnings of Charity, that pure Godly Love, toward each other.

We go to the Temple to learn to be those things.

To learn to be like our Father.

On this Thanksgiving night, I am grateful that Cori is the man I get to learn to be like Him with.

He is the man that I measured everyone else against, and found them lacking.

He is the man that I am always amazed by.

He is the man I cannot imagine living without.

He is not perfect, but he knows it, I am grateful we get to learn to be better together.

He is my soul mate, because we want the same things, and are working to get to the same place.

Monday, November 14, 2011

Look at these two handsome men... they have nothing to do with this picture... their parents just happen to live kitty corner to the first house my parents ever built from the ground up... so look past the men and to the house.

I have a lot of happen memories of building that house and the short time we lived there. Fun to run into a little bit of your past on someone blog. Thanks to the York's for that. :)

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Sometimes there are big miracles in our lives...well I guess, miracles that seem like a big deal to lots of people. But I think the best ones are the little things that seem impossible to bring together and then just when you feel like there is no way, they fall into place with little to no effort on your part. I think that they happen most when we are trying to live good productive lives, to do what is right and good. I know God makes a way for us when we are living like that.

Today that happened for Melissa and Chris. A way was opened, and they will have transportation so that Chris will be able to take a job in Idaho Falls when they get to school. He had the job, just no way to get there. They have been praying and trying to figure out what to do for weeks... and today, it all just fell into place. In one hour, a car- totally in there basically not existent budget, that gets good gas mileage and I know has been taken care of.

Melissa and I knelt down with Havah and Lilly after it all came together and talked with them about miracles. About how Heavenly Father can do anything good, and how He wants to help us. We talked to them about how Melissa and Chris want to be able to support themselves through school with out going into debt, how they are trying to make correct choices, and how when we live that way, life can still be hard, but when we need help to do good, Heavenly Father will open doors we didn't even know existed. He will make what seems impossible possible.

I know that is true. Over and over, in my life and the lives of people around me, I see his hand has he opens the windows of heaven and pours down blessings upon his children. Over and over and over. I know it is His delight to bless us like that, to make our difficult roads a little easier, our burdens a little lighter, because He is our loving Father.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Tonight on our way home from an awesome ward party, I listened to my girls have the following conversation:

Havah, "Lilly, I was trying to talk to you and you did not reply and then (another girl) said 'go away you're annoying us!' That was so sad to me Lil."

Lilly," I am sorry Havi. I am sorry. If people say mean things, you can still come to me. You can always come to me."

Havah's hurt was so honest and Lilly was so sincere in her apology. So sorry that someone had been mean to her sister, that she hadn't responded... She explained that she hadn't heard Havah talking to her, and then reassured Havah again.

I love these little girls. They teach me every day. It's these times when I am especially grateful that they are as close in age as they are.I am sure when they are 13 and 14 I might not feel this way all the time, but, I hope we can continue to foster their friendship and sisterhood. It is so precious.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

My girls are pretending in the playroom right now. They excel at pretending. They wake up pretending and go to bed pretending. Sometimes we have to make rules about 'being ourselves' while we are in stores or having dinner, because mom can't handle trying to remember who they are all the time.