First fanfic *self harm and language. "What the hell is wrong with me? Am I so weak that I can't even tell my own brother that I needed him to stay with me? That I may need protection from myself, not the supernatural creatures that go bump in the night?"

After the death of his father, Sam is struggling to keep himself from cutting again. With Bobby out of the loop and Dean struggling to cope, who's going to keep him from starting again? What will happen with a new revelation in Sam's life? Sequel to my other story 'Never Going to be Okay'. You don't have to read that one first, though. Warnings: self-harm and language. *On Hiatus*

Separated from his brother at age sixteen, Dean makes a new life for himself. When finally reunited with Sam, he finds they're living in different worlds. How can they rebuild what they once had when demons, both literal and personal, attack from all sides? Part 1 of the Brotherhood series

He almost doesn't get out of bed again; because he's tired — too tired, and his bones, and fingers, and hair are tired. His soul is tired. Set in Season 5, with spoilers up to ep 5.14. Laced with heavy topics, but also with some heavy schmoop and brother-touching. GEN.

"At first, he kept calling it a joke and announcing that tomorrow there would be the punch line. It seemed easier for him to make a comedy bit out of it; tell himself that it was another one of Sam's weird phases."

Sam is alone in the motel room waiting for Dean to come back with dinner when he starts thinking that maybe he is nothing more than a burden for Dean. Set in season 7 after Death's Door. H/C, rated T for suicidal thoughts. Don't read if it is a trigger. Sorry if they are a little OFC I am not used to writing Fanfics. Enjoy

It gurgles. It growls. It flips. It flops. It nibbles. It slithers. It gnaws. It's Sam on an eating binge…or is it? Some crack-like Humor/adventure/little brother hurt/ big brother care. This story is complete. Posting in a few chapters.

Prompt fill for the Oh-Sam Triple Play comment fic meme. Takes place at some unspecified time during 8x12: As Time Goes By. Sam and Dean are at a motel with Henry when Sam comes down with a high fever which causes him to hallucinate being back in the cage.

Dean went to Hell. Sam chased after him. Two years later Bobby encounters two high powered demons with an unknown agenda and an angel of the lord trying to fix what was destroyed. But sometimes it's just not broken. AU after Season 3 with elements from 4 & 5. Dark one-shot

1-shot. A call from Caleb brings Dean to Stanford to check on his brother only to find things are not as well as they could be & wanting a closer look at the new girl in his brother's life takes on new meaning of checking on Sam when Dean gets a little closer to help his sick & fevered brother. *Sick/limp/upset!Sam & caring/protective/supportive!Dean* Pre-series for the most part.

Sam and Dean are Teenagers and Sam's being bullied, Dean notices something is wrong and has to get to the bottom of it. Hurt Depressed Sam, Protective Badass Dean, Upset John. One Shot. Minimal cursing and mentions of self-harm.

After the encounter with the Hook man (S01E07), Sam's shoulder is injured. But it doesn't heal. Dean is worried and soon they find out why it doesn't heal. Thus Sam is forced to relive an experience of his past. Features Worried and mother-henning Dean, hurt Sam and a little of Bobby later on. (Summary explanation inside.) Prompt by hotshow.

Sam's been keeping a dangerous secret but nothing stays a secret for long when you go to high school. He just didn't want Dean to find out this way. Sad!Sam and brotherly!Dean. May be triggering. One-shot.

Sam's childhood centred around his big brother and despite how hard John tried - it was inevitable that the truth about his role as a father would one day come to light. "Are you sure you know how many sons you have?"

While going through the storage room in the bunker, Dean comes across three boxes that hold memories of everyone except for one very important person. He decided to fix it and give Sam a very big surprise at the same time.

Set after the phone call with Dean in Season 7 episode 14 when Dean asks Sam what in the world the clowns did to him. Sam has a secret he's never told anyone, and when he sees a clown at Plucky's, his world begins to spiral out of control. Warnings for self-harm and discussion of past sexual abuse. Hurt/Limp!Sam Protective/BigBrother!Dean

A particularly brutal case involving torture and rape triggers Sam's PTSD, and he finally decides he has no choice but to leave hunting life for good and try to live the normal life he'd found with Amelia. But when Dean is kidnapped, they discover it's not just a case… it's personal. Not graphic, but obviously: trigger warnings for the above. Early season 8. Complete!

There were many times Sam woke up screaming. And Dean never stopped feeling helpless. Very T for language; also trigger warnings for mentions of suicide and implied non-con. Canon-ish in spots, just squint if any slight divergence bothers you.

"You're not really. Older than me, I mean. Not anymore." It's the first time he's heard Sam talk so bluntly, so honestly about the cage since the wall in Sam's mind crumbled. Just a little on-the-road sharing between brothers. Set between 7.17-23.

Teenchester! Sam deliberately breaks the rules when John is away, putting Dean in a difficult position. Written as a prompt fic for the word 'rat'. Protective big brother Dean. WARNING: contains the spanking of a teenager - please do not read if this offends.

7x17 After leaving the hospital with Dean, leaving Castiel behind, Sam gets his first night of sleep in a very long time. If only he could. While Cas shifted the visions of Lucifer, he left the reason they were there in the first place.

SUPERNATURAL: Sam's at college...Dean and Danny are having a hard time...Dean especially. Distraction leads to a hunt gone bad. Hurt Dean and Danny...some hurt Sam. Takes place between The Apple Doesn't Fall Far and Revenge, Not So Sweet. Three Bros.

Dean didn't even think about it when he took the circus spirit job. Because seriously, what were a couple of clowns after hallucinating freaking Lucifer? Casefic, S7, hallucinating/panic attack!Sam, awesome brother/stone #1!Dean.

Post 6.22. Dean finds himself with one broken arm, one broken car, and one broken brother. But they've had worse. With Sam safe, alive, and with him, they can handle it. Right? Turns out he doesn't know the half of it.

"It's Sam.Sammy was a chubby 12 yr old."Sam-pilot.Here is my version of where that came from.This is the summer bef. Sammy turns 12.So bef.he won the soccer trophy and Dean decides to embrace the hunter's life.For Fuzzball457, here's eating disorder Sam.

Sam has a secret, one that he's kept from his family since he was ten years old. When a fight leaves them vulnerable and in the hands of a witch, Sam's secret is the one thing between them and disaster. Can Sam survive this battle of life and death?

Based on the song "Fix You" by Coldplay. At sixteen years old, Sam Winchester is turning to heroin to cope with his unrequitted love for his brother. Can Dean stop him before it's too late? WINCEST DARKFIC

AU from end of "Devil's Trap", spoilers for seasons 1-5. Azazel forces Sam to drink demon blood, giving him an advantage over the other special children. How will this singular act affect the oncoming Apocalypse? Edited as of 11/14/10.

Dean and Sam are cursed to switch bodies for 48 hours toward the end of Season 5. It's just temporary, so they carry on as best they can, except that Dean finds himself struggling with the unfamiliar sensations of addiction and cravings. Warnings inside.

A bitter argument with his father leads Sam to drastically change everything that makes him... him. Instead, he becomes a stranger,cold and distant, even scary as hell. ANGSTY emotionally hurt Sam and very, very, very guilty Dean and John. PLEASE REVIEW

Tag to Swan Song. How Sam's toy soldier got stuck in the rear door ashtray and why, decades later, and in the wake of a complete rebuild, it's still there. Mild spoilers for the the 5.22 Season Finale.

Sam knew it was a bad idea to take the hunt in Palo Alto. Little did he know that a teacher’s curiosity would lead to a very dangerous situation. Not to mention that pesky PI who was apparently determined to get himself killed.

Written for the hurt/sick Sam meme prompt on LJ - When Dean went to hell, Sam self-destructed in a way completely unrelated to demons/Lilith, etc. Rated for themes of drug addiction and some bad language.

One shot: Sam moves forward, opens his mouth to ask what the hell is going on but is suddenly floored when his gaze travels downwards to what Dean’s couching over. Sam can’t breath for a moment. This can't be right.

A Teenchester fic. John is sexually abusing Sam. Sam is too scared to tell Dean. On top of that Sam has asthma and that does't help his breathing. What happens when Dean finds out what John is doing to Sam? PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW! UPDATED!

AU. 18 yr old Sam Winchester doesn't go to Stanford like his Family thinks he did. Instead, he ends up at Parris Island and then the battle fronts of Iraq itself. This is the story of that Journey and after. Please REVIEW the longer the better

Sequel to The Lost Son. A new evil threatens the youngest Winchester. An evil worse than Michael Wilcox. Can his family protect him? limp/Sam;protective/Dean,John,Daniel;helpful/Bobby,Caleb,Joshua Scenes of extreme violence against a minor/bad language

Teenchester! Since moving to Cedar Rapids, Sam's life has spiraled out of control. Will anyone be able to save Sam, when he can't save himself? Involves sexual abuse, violence, self-harm, attempted suicide! *Complete*

Not all battles are physical. Drugs have left Sam angry, paranoid and out of control. He refuses to help him self, and John doesn't quite know how to, So its up to Dean. Before its too late. Teenchester! Summary Sucks... Dean- 20 Sam - 16...smoking/drugs

What can you say or do to help the most important person in your life when you have stopped knowing him and his life has come apart? A fic about the week in Standford right after Jess death. Dean POV. COMPLETE!

Post Pilot. On their last day in Stanford, Sam has a break down, finally letting his emotions out over Jessica's death. Dean is there, but he is not sure how to help him. No slash, only brotherly love! One shot.

An unfortunate accident while hunting leaves Dean with an injured and delirious Sam on his hands. To keep his brother conscious however, Dean finds himself actually encouraging one of those brotherly bonding moments he so desperately tries to avoid.

Second Story in my Fade Series. With Jessica gone, Sam is beginning to feel a familiar darkness. But things are different now, and he doesn't think his family can help him. Is he right? Or can the love of the Winchester's save their youngest again.

Sam knows he has dreams outside of hunting... His escape is the acceptance letter in the bottom of his bag. But he can't leave his family. His choice to stay leads to a whole new world of pain for the Winchester's, leaving them to wonder if Sam should have left his family behind him. **Second Story in this series Disintegrate is now up**

The pain of Stanford is still fresh on Dean's mind, while Sam is still struggling from the loss of his normal life. During a case about missing teens in Michigan, the brothers learn what they had forgotten about each other and rediscover the brotherhood that they thought they had left behind. Brotherhood AU by Ridley

All hunters carry scars, but some effect the people around them as much as the one who bares them. This is a story about two brothers, the one who embraces being a hunter and the other that has to decide if he should stay with his family, or run from the darkness that he feels inside him. Brotherhood AU as created by Ridley. You know how this goes, Reviews food.

Sam has found a way to cope with the struggles in his life. The question is, how far will he take it? And does he have the will to survive the craziness that is his life, and can his family pull him back from the edge? Warning: Involves Self Harm Rated M

Just as the The Guardian, Dean Winchester faces the fact that it was time to move on without his little brother, he gets a call from Caleb that changes everything. With Sam back from the cage, but not quite right, can the Triad help Sam get better, while still keeping the Brotherhood from sinking? Brotherhood AU by Ridley.

When Dean sneaks out of the motel to go to CBGB he gets himself in trouble, and isn't exactly happy to be dragged out by his father and taken to Caleb's apartment to sleep it off. Brotherhood AU by Ridley Based on the story Dean tells in "The Things We Leave Behind" I like to hear from you guys so leave reviews... and story ideas... cause I am getting low on them.

Dean didn't know much about what Sam was going through but he did know that Sam needed to grieve... maybe a bottle of whiskey and a starry night would give him a chance to help heal his brother. Set in early season 1.

After Dean goes to hell, Sam stops returning Caleb and Bobby's phone calls. Caleb goes searching for the youngest Winchester and finds a broken man, who needs Caleb's help to be led back to his remaining family. Please comment. Positive criticism welcome. Rated T for some language. Brotherhood AU

Sam Dean and Caleb are captured, leaving Sam in a position of agony. Dean questions the man Sam has become, and the reasons behind Sam's choices. Caleb just wants to hold his family together through this war. Set during Season 5. Some descriptions of torture and gore. Brotherhood AU by Ridley Positive Criticism always welcome.

Conversation after The Devil You Know. Sam has always had a blind spot, is Brady right? Is it because they have the same stuff running through their veins? Or is it something else? Something just as dangerous but for completely different reasons. Brotherhood AU by Ridley. Oneshot

During what should have been a simple ghost hunt, John ignores Sam's warning that it may not be a spirit after all, and Sam pays the price. Brotherhood AU by Ridley. No copy write infringement intended.

Sequel to Haze. Read that story first. After Sam loses Jessica, and runs into some familiar faces in a small California town, and he turns back to old demons to find a way to be happy again. Please leave comments

Sequel to Fixing Broken Children. When Sam leaves for Stanford, Dean loses the one person who has always held him together and pulled him out of the dark places in his mind. Caleb needs to help his friend move on with half his heart intact.

When Sam falls for a girl in the wrong crowd he is sucked into a world of sex, drugs, and lies. Will his family notice in time to dig him out? Or is it too late to save Sam from his mistakes? Warnings for swearing, drug use, sexual material etc. Please leave reviews.

They were just another family, in a small Kansas town, none of them knew that night that their life would be burnt down... Spoilers season 1-9! I really am not a poet, so don't be expecting anymore, but I really enjoyed writing this. Comment please! Let me know what you think.

This is the story of Caleb Reaves and Dean Winchester. Or the story of how a boy with demon blood helped fix the soul of a boy, and helped him find his voice. 5 year old Dean, 13 year old Caleb Brotherhood AU created by Ridley Supernatural created by Eric Kripke and co. Rated T: for some language Positive criticism welcome. Sequel Fixing Broken Men is now up!

Jessica sees a man in a coffee shop wearing a ring that is the same as the one Sam keeps in a safe under his bed, and she discovers how little she knows about Sam and his past. Brotherhood AU created by Ridley. Comments and positive criticism welcome.

Set in the Brotherhood AU created by Ridley. Sam Winchester and Caleb Reaves have a discussion about their psychic abilities. And discuss their destinies, and what makes the who they are. Set post All Hell Breaks Lose. Rated T for some swearing.

Caleb Reaves runs into a familiar face when waiting in a hospital for John to recover from surgery. Brotherhood AU Do not own any of the characters in this story. Supernatural belong to Kripke, The CW, and company. Brotherhood universe belongs to Ridley, thank you for letting me play in your sandbox. Rated T for Swearing Please Comment! Positive criticism welcome.

When on a vampire hunt, someone from Sam's past makes an appearance that could complicate their "Staying dead" plan. Takes place before the end of season 7, but after Sam's hallucinations stopped. Rated T: for some swearing.

Dean can tell Sam is struggling with his memories of hell, but he won't talk about it. When a simple demon hunt turns into situation that brings up memories for Sam, can Dean pull him out of the fire? Rated T for some Swearing