break-ups

Maybe this is the sad songs and beer talking (I had one, just ONE)...

Anyway, my ex and I got back together about a month ago. We went out for nearly 5 months and broke up for nearly 6..but we got back together towards the end of August. I really wanted to. I missed him a lot and the break-up annoyed me. It's a long story and it's just really complicated. I was scared of getting back together because I will be moving away (well maybe) within the next year...that's the plan anyway. I didn't want to put him over my career and maybe that sounds selfish but I've always told myself I'd always choose that over a guy. So yesterday, after a month together, I broke up with him again. He wasn't mad. I was crying a lot (Wow I sound like a baby, don't I?)and he was trying to tell me it's okay just because he didn't want to see me crying. He actually kind of agreed with it and we're still friends. There is also a feeling from me that he wasn't "the one", in some ways we just weren't compatible. But I cared about him a lot and I think he deserves the best. He isn't a bed person.

This time, I broke up with him and it was just an awful feeling. I "know" its the right thing but right now it just doesn't feel like it. He was my first serious "one" and we had a lot of firsts and I just feel sad about it. I think about him a lot.

"I always felt that when someone introduces you to the outdoors, you come to feel like you owe them something. ‘Cause what they really gave you is a lifetime of memories, and a lifestyle you’ll always love. Of course I suppose the best way to pay them back is to be that person for someone else. "

Aww, break-ups really do suck. I'm sorry to hear it didn't work out, Alyssa. Like you said, though... if he didn't feel like the one and you know this is the right decision, then know it'll get easier with time. The fact that there is no animosity between the two of you may make it a bit easier. Best of luck, I hope you start feeling better about it all.
(((Hugs)))

Sorry for such a late reply. I find myself feeling slight nostalgic thinking about it. And I DO think about it everyday. It doesn't really help that all I listen to is country music which tends to tug at your heartstrings a little bit more. I KNOW it was the right thing to do, just sucks to have to be the one to do. He wished me and a happy birthday and all anyway, so I don't think he took it as hard as I thought which is good. We're still friends as of now. Thank you all for the support and encouraging me that it was the right decision.

"I always felt that when someone introduces you to the outdoors, you come to feel like you owe them something. ‘Cause what they really gave you is a lifetime of memories, and a lifestyle you’ll always love. Of course I suppose the best way to pay them back is to be that person for someone else. "

Sorry for such a late reply. I find myself feeling slight nostalgic thinking about it. And I DO think about it everyday. It doesn't really help that all I listen to is country music which tends to tug at your heartstrings a little bit more. I KNOW it was the right thing to do, just sucks to have to be the one to do. He wished me and a happy birthday and all anyway, so I don't think he took it as hard as I thought which is good. We're still friends as of now. Thank you all for the support and encouraging me that it was the right decision.