Friday, January 31, 2014

Jason faces the first night at home and Ariana is right there. Still struggling with insecurity he is nervous about the whole situation and worried having to share his bed with a woman again after such a long time. As they forget about all the worries and the hard times of the past weeks Jason and Ariana experience each other in the closest way yet and realize once again how much they love each other.

Jason made his way to his bedroom and felt tired and
exhausted. Glancing into his bedroom he saw some of Ariana’s things piled in a
corner and knew she was planning on sleeping in the same room with him. There
was one extra bedroom in the trailer, it did have a twin size bed in it, but it
didn’t seem like Ariana was planning on sleeping in a separate room. Jason’s
bed was a full size bed and it looked like Ariana had already laid claim on one
side of it, he saw a pair of her jeans on the bed. He knew he couldn’t expect
her to sleep in another room and inside his mind he slapped himself for even considering
it.

The rope was still dangling from the pull up bars on Jason’s
bedroom door frame so he could transfer into the smaller wheelchair inside his
room. It was still sitting right next to the door like it always had been. The
smaller chair was similar to a transport chair but with larger wheels and rims
so he could push himself. It wasn’t very practical at all to wheel around in
and he only used it to get from his door to his bed. He usually didn’t even
place his feet on the flimsy foot rests but just wheeled backward and his feet
dragging on the floor. He wished so much the door frame was wider but about two
inches took away the freedom of wheeling into his bedroom in his own TiLite wheelchair.
He had never spent a whole lot of time in his bedroom anyways, really just for
sleeping and there had been times when he actually ended up sleeping on the
couch in the living room. Lots of times Darryl would get whatever Jason needed
from his room so he didn’t have to make the transfer. Jason glanced over to the
kitchen where Ariana was cleaning up still. He didn’t want her to see him make
the switch from his wheelchair to the smaller chair. He felt silly in it and it
didn’t help heighten his confidence level very much.

Jason saw his back pack sitting in his room. Darryl must
have taken it into the room earlier when they had come home. He moved his chair
as close as he could to the door frame and then reached for the other chair to
pull it closer. He glanced up at the rope and he really didn’t feel like doing
the transfer but he had to get into his room. With both hands he reached for
the rope and pulled himself up, then swung himself over to the smaller chair
and slowly let himself down into it. It was definitely an arm work out every
time and he had to breathe heavy and his arms were shaky. He then put his hands
on the rims and pushed himself over with difficulties to get his sweat pants
and also a pair of incontinence briefs from his dresser. The whole time
he was hoping that Ariana would not show up in his room.

Once he had the things he pushed himself back over to the
door and threw the items over into his regular chair and transferred back into
it the same way and plopped onto the items in his wheelchair. He pulled out the
sweat pants and briefs from under him. It was all such a hassle and he hated
it. Ariana was still busy in the kitchen and Jason made his way into his
bathroom. It looked like Darryl had cleaned and straightened it. Jason pulled
the curtain behind him. Now with Ariana there he really wished there would be a
door and when he looked around he saw some of Ariana’s things in his bathroom
too. He really didn’t know how it was all going to be and it made him very
nervous.

He really felt the exhaustion now but he had to manage to
get out of his clothes, cath again, slip into the briefs and sweat pants and
brush his teeth. He paused for a moment, looking at himself in the mirror and talking
softly to himself, “You can do this man. Pull it together.”

With his motivational self-talk he somewhat wobbly pulled
his right leg up on his lap, untied his laces and took his sneaker and sock
off, then gently let the leg back down and did the same thing with his other
leg. His shoes and socks were off. He pulled his T-Shirt over his head and threw
it over to the chair in the corner, then he unbuttoned and unzipped his jeans
and with a wiggling from side to side he eventually got the jeans over his butt
and was able to pull them down. He was breathing heavy and he could feel how
weak he was. He leaned his head on his arms on the sink, catching his breath
and cursing lowly. Then he sat there in his boxers and after a moment repeated
the same process with pulling his boxers off until he sat there naked. He
glanced over to the curtain hoping Ariana wouldn’t come in.

Wheeling over to the toilet he got all his catheter supplies
to drain his bladder again. As he held the tubing into the toilet his head was
resting on his other arm on the counter just watching the urine flow into the
toilet. He felt his eyes heavy and even when there was no more urine he just
sat there.

He thought about Ariana outside in the kitchen and he really
didn’t know how he could keep this up. As happy as he was to have her there
now, with him all the time, he couldn’t hide from her when he didn’t feel good
or when he was tired and exhausted. He couldn’t always pretend to be fit and
strong when sometimes he really wasn’t. He had just gotten released from the
hospital after weeks of serious health issues and his body having gone through
so much, it was no wonder he was extremely exhausted after this stressful day.
He lifted his head from his arm and with shaky hands pulled out the catheter
and disposed of all the supplies. He washed his hands over the sink and then
brushed his teeth. The last thing was to pull on the incontinence briefs and
his sweat pants. He really barely made it and once he was done he was too tired
to pick up his jeans or slide his sneakers out of the way, he just wanted to
get to his bed, leaving some clothes strewn on the floor in the bathroom.

When he wheeled up to his room he was surprised to find
Ariana sitting on the bed going through her bag.

She looked up at Jason and she saw how tired he looked, “Hey
baby, I am done in the kitchen for tonight. I will finish the rest tomorrow.”

He sat there outside his room in front of the doorframe and
she admired his naked upper body, now without sticky sensors and just plain
sexy, his naked feet on the foot rests only wearing his sweat pants and she
smiled at him.

Jason really didn’t want her to witness the whole transfer
hassle into the other chair but Ariana said, “Your dad explained the door frame
situation to me, it really sucks that you can’t get your regular chair through
it and can’t widen the door.” Jason nodded insecurely,
“Yeah, it sucks big time. It is either this or I get out of my chair and pull
myself across the floor to get into my bed.”

Ariana got up, “Is there any way I can help you babe?”

Jason shook his head and thought about his next move.

Ariana walked over to him and grabbed the rope and looked at
it, “You look very tired Jason. Are you o.k. to make it?”

“Yeah, I am good….”

He wanted to ask Ariana to leave but he knew he really
couldn’t and fortunately Ariana turned around and walked over to the bed, took
her bag and her things off the bed and pulled the blanket and sheets back and
Jason took that opportunity to quickly pull himself over into his smaller chair
and Ariana then turned around and smiled at him again, seeing just as he let
himself down in the small wheelchair.

Jason looked down embarrassed and Ariana sensed his
insecurity on the issue.

She said softly, “I wish you wouldn’t have to deal with such
a hassle to come into your bedroom. I am sorry baby.”

Jason looked up at her, “Yeah, it’s not fun.”

He wheeled over to Ariana, who sat on the bed again. They
were face to face and Ariana put her hands on his knees, “Jason, please tell me
if I can help you make things easier around here. I know you don’t like this
very much.”

He shook his head, “I don’t but there is nothing we can do
with this door frame. We tried. Right now I am just exhausted.”

Ariana nodded, “I will get ready real quick and I will be right
back.”

She kissed him quickly and walked out of the bedroom. Jason
transferred onto the bed and then pulled himself over to the left side, the
side next to the wall. He wanted to sleep on the wall side if Ariana would be
in bed with him. That way there was no chance of him falling out of the bed. He
adjusted his legs and then let his head fall onto the pillow. It felt good to
lay flat again. He felt nervous about Ariana coming into the bed.

She did walk in after a moment and with the small lamp on
the bedside table the room was dimly lit. She smiled at Jason and felt nervous
too. Wearing a tank top and shorts to sleep in, she slowly crawled into the bed
not meeting Jason’s eyes. Jason had his head resting on his arm watching her,
feeling his hands get sweaty. It was strange to see Ariana join him in his bed
after all this time.

They both felt nervous and as Ariana looked at Jason again
she put into words what they both felt, “This is so weird. I am….” She paused, took
a breath and smiled, “I am…a little nervous Jason.”

Jason was relieved to hear her say it and nodded, “Me too.”

With that he shifted and with his arms pulled himself to lay
on his side as Ariana laid down next to him facing him.

He softly laid his arm over her and Ariana smiled, “Jason,
I…I know we have to get used to this…but I think we need to tell each other
when we feel weird about anything.”

“I feel weird about lots of things.” Jason smiled in the
dimness of the light, his dark eyes shiny.

He stroked his hand over Ariana’s face. Her hair was held
together by an elastic band and draped over her left shoulder falling to the
front of her body. Strands of Jason’s dark hair fell into his forehead. A
slight dark shadow of facial hair was showing on his face.

He still smiled at her, “I am nervous too but I am happy you
are here and I know we have to make this work somehow.” He paused and
swallowed, “Ariana, you are the first woman in my life since everything changed
for me two years ago and it still feels so unreal to me. I really didn’t think
I would be sharing this bed with a woman again one day. I thought those days
were over for me and it really scares me now because the last time anyone was
in this bed with me was a lot different you know. I was a different guy. My
life was different. Having someone like you here next to me now in this time of
my life had never even crossed my mind anymore when I came home on wheels back
then. I am nervous about so many things and I am also worried that it could be
too much for you eventually.” Ariana just looked at him and listened to his
words as Jason continued, “…and I know you are different than any woman I have
ever known but sometimes I just can’t believe my luck I guess to have met
someone like you, someone who wants me exactly this way with everything that
comes along with it, the disability, the issues and the problems. Women usually
don’t want this, they don’t want a man like me and out of all the women I have
come across, destiny somehow brought you into my life, a perfect woman who is
attracted to an imperfect man.”

Ariana smiled and said softly, “You are perfect to me….I
wouldn’t want it any other way, Jason. I love you so much and I am so very
happy to have met you.”

Jason pulled her face closer to him and stroking her cheeks
he replied, “I love you too, more than you can imagine.”

He pulled her to his face and pressed his lips onto hers,
his hand on the back of her head, pulling her to him. They fell into a kiss
full of longing and Ariana realized how she wanted Jason so much. She moved
over some and pushed Jason’s head back on his pillow, kissing him hard and
feeling his tongue in her mouth, exploring every corner of it. Jason laid on
his back again and he brought his other arm out from between them and wrapped
it around Ariana’s back as she moved herself over him some.

Their lips were locked and Ariana couldn’t help stroking her
hands through Jason’s hair and pulling it somewhat in the back, forcing him to
stretch his neck back some as her lips pressed onto his. His breathing came
quickly now and Ariana let her lips unlock and let her tongue travel over to
Jason’s ears and neck. She felt his chest rise up and down as he took quick
breaths, letting Ariana flick her tongue over his neck, encircling his Adam’s
apple and nibbling on his ear lobes. Jason whispered her name in between
breaths. He put his hands to her tank top and quickly pulled it over her head,
right away feeling the warmth of her breast on his upper chest. He pushed her
off of him some to get a better look at her breasts and he stroked his hands
over them, perfect size breasts fitting perfectly into his strong hands. Ariana
was breathing quickly too and watched him admire her breasts and at the same
time admiring his chest as his pectorals flexed with every move he made.

He held her breasts in his hands, softly kneading them and
then pulling her to him so he could reach her breasts with his mouth and
tongue. Softly he let his teeth touch her nipples, biting her just short of
causing pain but triggering chills over Ariana’s arms and legs. His hands
stroked her arms and when he felt the chill bumps he let off the biting and
smiled at her and she smiled at him, pressing her lips back onto his and
falling into another kiss.

Her hands travelled over his arms, feeling his biceps
flexing as he grabbed her ass and pulling her body closer. So much he wanted to
feel her on his lower body but there was nothing. He felt her with his hands
but her body disappeared into nothing when it touched him. It felt like there
was only air between Ariana’s body and the mattress, he was invisible in
between. Momentarily he was reminded of the missing sensations and just for a
moment frustration tried to surface but he pushed it away by kissing Ariana
hard and demanding.

Ariana on the other hand felt her body on his and she felt
the soft material under his sweat pants when she moved her leg over him. She
pushed herself over Jason some more and almost laid on him now. His hands were
on her ass and her hands ran through his hair as their lips stayed locked tight
and their tongues went wild in each other’s mouths. Jason felt the arousal but
as always it didn’t go all the way into the far corners of his body beyond his
T-5 vertebrae. Even more so he pulled Ariana closer to him, his hands roughly
holding her tight to his body like he wanted to melt into her and feel just a
little what she was feeling. Ariana let her lips unlock from his as she felt
his demanding touches she hushed, “Jason, I missed so much being with you like
this.”

Jason was breathing quickly, “I missed you too. I wish I
could go inside you…it pisses me off that it doesn’t work anymore.”

Ariana was surprised at his harsh words and he roughly grabbed
her ass again with his hands, then whispering into her ear, “Let me taste you!”

Ariana felt her own arousal in every corner of her body and
she moved off of Jason.

Jason hushed, “I am going to pull myself up to a sitting
position.”

Ariana sat on her knees next to Jason as she watched how he
first got on his elbows and then up on his hands and pulling his legs and body
up and into a sitting position leaning against the headboard of the bed. Her
pussy was throbbing with desire as she watched him move. When he sat securely
leaning on the headboard, holding himself steady on his hands he looked over to
her and demanded, “Come closer!”

Ariana moved closer and Jason used his one hand to pull down
her shorts. Ariana helped and threw the shorts off the bed as Jason just admired
her body.

She saw his chest rise up and down quickly as he scanned her
breasts in full view, his eyes moving down her flat belly and ending at her
pubic area, “I want to go inside you with my tongue.”

She slowly moved over onto his lap, then sitting down on
him, feeling the softness of the incontinence brief through his sweats on her
pussy. They looked at each other for a moment, the dim light casting shadows on
their faces and Ariana said lowly, “I want you to be naked Jason. I want to see
your legs and your cock.”

Jason was thrown off for a split second as she said it and
he almost considered not taking this any further but he wanted to taste her
sweetness and wanted to be as close as he could to her and he didn’t have the
right to keep his battered body hidden from her. He kept reminding himself that
Ariana was o.k. with him the way he was, she wanted him like this, he didn’t
have to be ashamed of anything and she had seen him naked after all when they
spent a night at the Venetian. All of this seemed like ages ago though and it
felt like it really had only been in his dreams. Everything was still difficult
for him and he was distracted in the moment of so much lust he had just felt a
minute ago.

Ariana sensed it and put his face in between her hands, “It
is o.k. for me Jason…I want you so much in whatever way I can have you.”

She let her fingers run over his chest, tracing is tattoo
and giving him time to think. After a moment she added softly, “Please let me
take off your sweats and your briefs!”

Jason pressed his lips together but then nodded slowly.

Ariana pushed the sheets off of Jason’s legs and moved over
to the side. He held himself steady on his hands watching her run her fingers
along the elastic waist band of his sweats and eventually pushing her fingers
under it. Right away she felt the warmth inside the pants and she slid her hand
under the brief elastic and felt his pubic hair. Jason’s lustful desire had
faded somewhat and even though he admired her beautiful and sexy body he felt
so nervous at her taking his sweats and briefs off. He was worried he had
possibly already peed and as much as he tried to remind himself about Ariana
loving him the way he was it was difficult for him to let down his guard in
this moment.

Ariana stroked over his pubic hair and felt his limp cock
inside the briefs, it was warm and soft and laid in its deep sleep, but even though
soft it still filled out her hand. For a moment she pictured how it must have
looked erect and hard when Jason was still o.k. She looked up at him and when
she met his eyes he looked away.

Realizing his feelings, she said softly, “I love you so much
Jason.”

Jason swallowed and with a scratchy low voice he replied, “I
love you.”

Ariana then gently started taking his sweats off, pulling
the elastic over his butt, and down over his legs and with exposing every inch
of his naked legs she felt her arousal and the blood pumping in her body. She
let her hands feel over the skin on his legs until the sweats were off. His
feet and legs lay totally still, not moving, not twitching, not showing any
gratitude to her exposing them. Her eyes travelled over his legs, her hands
felt the soft hair on them from his shins up over his bony knees to his thighs
and she ended at his incontinence briefs.

What she experienced as a total turn on, Jason experienced
in a totally different way. He couldn’t even look at her as her eyes met his
again, he felt the strongest urge to tell her to stop, cover him up and maybe
even leave him alone. Just a few moments earlier he felt he had the power of
kissing her in his favor, letting his hands explore her body, letting his
tongue push into her mouth and wanting to push it into her pussy, hopefully
giving her a memorable orgasm.

Now she was so far away, he couldn’t reach her with his
hands because he was busy holding himself up and he felt exposed and vulnerable
that he doubted very much he could get his moment of lust back.

Ariana though said in the sweetest soft voice, “I am going
to pull your briefs off now.”

She looked at him but he looked away and could only nod
weakly. While she pulled off his briefs gently and breathing very quickly he
thought about how hopefully his last cathing had emptied his bladder all the
way. Ariana pulled his briefs over his feet and then let her hands stroke over
his legs again, she was in a moment of absolute desire and longing, letting her
hands and fingers glide over his legs and whispering, “Oh, I love touching your
legs Jason…”

She let her hands travel up to his sleeping cock and touched
it softly. Jason had moved his eyes down watching her touch him. She leaned
down to his manhood and he was surprised as she kissed it, not in a way of
wanting to awaken it or in a way of longing but in a way of total acceptance.
She smiled up at Jason, “Baby, you turn me on so much.”

He tried to relax and just enjoy the moment for what it was.
As Ariana was still caressing his legs and feeling for the scars the accident
had left on them Jason demanded lowly, “Ariana, come back up here and sit on me
please.”

She looked up and moved her body over his lap, her naked
pussy being tickled by his pubic hair and touching his soft cock. She sat in
front of Jason and he pulled her close again, their naked chests touching and
the warmth radiating between them. He pulled her in for another kiss and Ariana
let him. His right hand stroked over her butt cheeks and travelled around her
waist and hips to the front of her pubes. She pressed her pussy to him,
stimulating it and feeling the blood rush into her labia. Jason’s tongue
travelled from her mouth over to her ears now and down her neck where he
latched on and took in the taste of her skin.

Ariana stretched her neck to him and let her hands caress
over his shoulders as Jason suckled on her neck and his hands travelled over
her back. Ariana moved slowly on his lap, rubbing her pussy against him and
feeling the arousal increase. Jason moved his lips and tongue down her neck and
to her shoulders. She heard and felt his breathing on her skin. She stroked her
fingers through his hair and pushed his head against her body.

His lower body was still and motionless, just lying on the
bed while his hands travelled over Ariana’s every body part. Jason muffled into
Ariana’s skin, “Stand up in front of me or let me lie down again and move your
pussy to my face!”

Ariana thought for a moment and decided to let Jason lay
back down. As she watched him, he pushed himself off
the headboard to slide his body down on the bed. His legs twisted oddly and he
adjusted them quickly breathing heavy. When he laid down he nodded at Ariana
and pulled her over himself again. Before Ariana let him taste her she wanted
to kiss him again and pressed her lips back onto his. Once they unlocked their
lips, Jason put his hands on Ariana’s ass and pulled her up, whispering, “Put
it in front of my face.” Eventually Ariana sat on her bent knees at the perfect
angle with her pussy right over Jason’s face.

She held on to the headboard as Jason explored her female
sweetness, smelling her and flicking his tongue around her inner thighs and up
to her almost bare pussy with just a thin line of pubic hair in the middle. He
licked her outer labia, letting his tongue glide back and forward on her lips.
Her sweet scent surrounded his face, the smell of arousal and a girl excited. The
heat surrounding her pussy made him warm but he didn’t want it any other way.
She was close to his face, his tongue able to reach every corner. He licked
around her clit and flicked it with his tongue. Ariana was breathing quickly
and whispered, “It feels so good Jason, keep going!”

Jason couldn’t get enough of Ariana, he wanted to bury his
face inside her, he wanted to taste her and experience her arousal with her. He
felt her legs tremble and the slow rhythmic movement she had fallen into,
pushing herself to his face and letting him get all of her. He felt his own arousal
through the senses in his tongue and in his mouth, smelling Ariana, letting her
heat surround him, her skin touching his face, his chest and his hands feeling
and grabbing as much as he could of her, making up for the lack of sensation in
one half of his body.

His tongue pushed into Ariana’s moist opening and he tasted
her juices flowing of desire. Jason wanted to push his tongue into her over and
over again. He felt his arms and hands tremble and he could barely breathe
anymore, his head was spinning with the thoughts of Ariana being so close to
him physically and psychologically. His tongue surrounded by soft tissue
and moisture he swallowed Ariana’s lust and he heard her moan above him, “Oh
Gosh Jason….”Her excitement boosted his arousal even more, he wanted to lick
and taste her all the way. He pulled her ass closer and her pussy right on his
face. He was trying to breathe as good as he could but he felt like he wasn’t
getting enough air and thoughts were racing through his head as he felt anger
at not being able to penetrate Ariana the common way but making him even more
crazy for her with his tongue and mouth. It was like the anger turned into a
type of obsession racing through his head and he licked her and pushed his
tongue into her moist pussy, his hands grabbing her ass hard and Ariana
breathing quick breaths and moaning softly over him, “Jason…I am going
to….come….” Her breaths turned into quick gasps and her fingers turned white
holding on to the head board of the bed as she felt a vibration radiating from
the depths of her pussy and travelling to the outside into every part of her
body. Ariana came hard and kept pushing herself toward Jason’s face, moaning
and almost whining, shock waves racing through her whole body.

Jason held on to her hard, he didn’t want her to get away
from his mouth as he felt the juices of her orgasm run out and on his face and
he kept licking and swallowing and he felt her insides tighten around his
tongue. His tongue stayed inside her as he felt soft vibrations travel into is
mouth.

He was breathing in gasps and could barely focus anymore and
suddenly felt overcome by a kind of exhaustion he seemed to remember from a
long time ago after having had good sex and a satisfying orgasm. Ariana’s
movements were slowing down on him, she was breathing softly now and he slowly
let his tongue come out of her and fell into kissing her pussy gently, trying
to process what had just happened to him. He had totally forgotten about his
lower body, about his sleeping cock and he hadn’t thought of his lack of
sensation but instead had been fully focused on Ariana’s arousal and it had
sprung over into him, taking his breath away and making his head spin. He felt
like his hands had somehow been glued to Ariana, he had felt her soft and warm
skin with every nerve in his fingers and her ass on his chest had done its part
too making him completely forget what he couldn’t feel but instead everything
he could still feel and as he slowly licked and kissed her pussy he felt such a
happiness like he hadn’t felt in a long time. Ariana had almost stopped moving
and he heard her voice whispering, “Jason, baby…where are you?”

Jason let his face come out from the cave of Ariana’s
sweetness and she looked down to him with a smile. He smiled up at her weakly,
still thinking about the previous moments.

Ariana asked softly, “Can I lay down on you?”

Jason nodded but he still didn’t say anything. Ariana let go
off the head board and she moved herself down and laid over Jason some. When
she reached his face she smelled herself on him. Jason turned to look at her
and Ariana smiled at him, leaning her head on her elbow next to him. She asked
him softly, “Jason, are you o.k.?”

He nodded and said lowly, pulling her close, “I love you so
much.”

Ariana smiled, “I love you so much too…this was awesome
Jason. It felt sooo good.”

He nodded again and while scanning her face, added in a
stutter, “I….I am glad it felt good….for you. It felt really…good for me…it
felt…,” he paused and he took a breath, “…it felt almost like….like I somehow
was able to come or like I had an orgasm or something.”

Ariana was surprised about his confession and very happy to
hear him say this, “Jason, that…I mean that is…wonderful but how…what was it
like?”

Jason softly let his hand travel over her back and shrugged
his shoulders some, “I don’t know…it was like…I felt like I was suffocating…but
in a good way and my head…it was spinning with all these pictures of…you and
your body and your feelings…I felt your…pussy vibrate around my tongue.” He
stopped and Ariana just smiled at him still caressing his face with her hand,
“That makes me so happy Jason.”

Jason continued softly, “I guess I have...I have heard that
some of the guys say their orgasms are in their head after…you know after they
became paralyzed. I couldn’t really imagine what that would be like…” His voice
faded out and Ariana asked, “Do you think you experienced that a while ago?”

“Maybe yes….”

Ariana let her hands softly caress his face and moved closer
to it and with a smile she let her lips touch to his, the faint taste of her
sweetness still on him, but she didn’t care. They fell into a gentle kiss
filled with only love replacing the lust which had been fulfilled for the
night.

As they unlocked their lips, Ariana pulled the blanket up
over them, she was feeling a slight chill and they laid under the blanket in a
loving embrace. She felt Jason’s still lower body on her, her leg was laying
over his legs. Jason smelled her hair and they just held each other.

After a while Ariana whispered, “You don’t think your dad
heard any of this a while ago?”

Jason shook his head, “I don’t think so, he closes the door
to his bedroom and it is on the other side of the trailer….but if he did hear
anything, oh well…” He kissed Ariana’s hair still lost in the moments with her.

Ariana had her head on Jason’s chest and felt his heart beat
and the soft movement of his breathing. She felt so happy to finally be there
with him, she had missed him so much and had longed so much for a moment like
this, where they could just enjoy each other and be close without having to
worry about any health issues or other things. Jason was the man she wanted to
spend her life with and finally have what she always had wanted. Her main goal
now was to get away from Escorting and be everything for Jason in his life. Her
thoughts drifted off to Connor Ridgeway and she knew she would call him after
some time would go by and she would talk to him about his business opening in
Vegas or how he could help her maybe get a place back in Northern California. For
a moment she had visions of Jason and her living in a cottage by the ocean,
accessibly built for Jason so he could fit through all the doorways, a sturdy
ramp going up to a large front porch, lots of space in all the rooms, no carpet,
a large bathroom with an accessible tub and a large back porch with view of the
ocean. A porch where they could sit in the mild summer nights of Northern
California, a breeze blowing from the coast and she saw Jason in his wheelchair
and her sitting on his lap as the sun went down over the Pacific.

She felt tears collect in her eyes as she thought about a
future with Jason, the man of her dreams for so long who was now lying beside
her and the joy she felt in her heart was overwhelming.

Jason’s breathing came steady and soft and when she looked
up she saw he had his eyes closed, his lips slightly parted. She whispered,
“Jason baby, are you asleep?”Jason shifted sudden and slowly opened his eyes,
saying lowly, “Ariana…I am sorry…” He looked at her and his hands travelled
through her hair, “I am so tired now…”

He remembered though that he was still bare naked under the
blanket and he knew that wasn’t a good idea because most certainly he would wet
the bed during the night and he needed to pull his briefs back on. Slowly he
shifted and without having to say anything Ariana said, “I can pull your briefs
back on you.” Jason was too tired to worry about anything anymore and he
nodded, “That would be good. I don’t want you to wake up in a puddle.” He
smiled and Ariana shifted and sat up, finding his briefs on the side and after
pulling the blanket off, Jason let her pull his briefs on him and then she also
helped him with his sweat pants. When she was done, she climbed over Jason, “I
will be right back baby.”She pulled on her sleep clothes real quick and
disappeared out of the room heading to the bathroom. In the bathroom she rinsed
her face off, peed and then wet a wash cloth with hot water, then heading back
to the bedroom where Jason lay unchanged but looking over at her as she came
back in. She climbed back onto the bed and said softly, “I brought a wash cloth
for your face.” He smiled, impressed by her thoughtfulness and just as he was
about to take the wash cloth out of her hand she said, “Can I do it?”

He nodded and let Ariana gently wipe over his face, cleaning
off her smell and her lust off of his skin. She smiled and Jason opened his
eyes smiling at her, “Thank you my love.” Ariana was surprised by the pet name
and she laid the wash cloth on the bedside table, then snuggling back next to
Jason.He wrapped his arm around her again and she looked up at him, “Jason?”

“Hhm?” Jason could barely hold his eyes open anymore.

“I don’t ever want to lose you and I don’t ever want to have
to worry about you. I love you so much.”

Jason opened his eyes some more, wanting to reply to her and
not falling asleep on her. He said softly looking deep into her eyes, “Ariana,
I told you before that I can’t promise blue skies all the time but with you by
my side I think we can make it through whatever storm comes our way….” He
paused and smiled, “…preferably storms coming in from the Pacific while we are
at home and having wild sex and you giving me many more para head orgasms.”
Ariana had to laugh softly at his words and was surprised at Jason’s thoughts
matching hers from a moment ago so closely. She nodded and he pulled her
closer, “Ariana, I love you more than anyone and I can’t imagine my life
without you anymore. We will be together for a very long time. I will be your
paraplegic dream guy forever if you let me.”

Ariana smiled at him, nodded and leaned down. Jason pulled
her close and they fell into another kiss. Eventually their lips unlocked and
Ariana fell asleep in Jason’s strong arms and Jason’s last vision before he
drifted into a deep sleep was a picture of Ariana sitting on his lap with his
wheelchair parked on a porch watching a sunset over the Pacific.

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

We had a "snow" day today, so my class was canceled (yay!) so it means I can get this week's episode up a little earlier than originally planned.

Last week, we saw how Jon let Renee stay the night, which gave her some fresh insight into Kai and renewed her resolve to be with him--she even told her roommate about his disability.

Though Renee and Kai have spent a lot of time together, they never had a real first-date, so, as promised, today's the day. I've been waiting to share this episode for a while, and I hope you'll enjoy it.

Thank you again for your great comments. I really appreciate them, especially since I've been working on some really hard (emotionally speaking) episodes that'll appear down the road. Next week's is one of them--it's a really long episode (like 10 or 12K words), but it feels wrong to split it into two installments, so I'll post it like I did the season finale: divided into two parts, but both posted together.

Monday, January 27, 2014

Hello Everyone,
Thank you so much for sharing this journey with me, and Paige and Madison. I hope it's been worth your time and interest. It's been a real treat for me to share with you, and to interact with you. Your feedback has just been so great, so kind and encouraging. And now we're here at the last chapter. I hope you will let me know what you think. I'll be checking back to see. You are fabulous readers and writers, and I've learned so much from you. Thank you!

Sunday, January 26, 2014

This chapter is extremely personal, and one of those ones that was really difficult to let go of and post. That having been said, don't be shy to let me know, as ever, exactly what you think - I think your comments and encouragement have helped me develop my writing over the course of posting this. It's also quite a long chapter, but I couldn't break this one up really.

I've included this warning in the text, but I'll put it here too:

*TRIGGER WARNING – CONTAINS DESCRIPTIONS OF ABUSE AND RAPE*

Also, I included note about English educational system as most of the readers seem to be American:

“Upper Sixth” is the name for the top year in school, also known as “Year Thirteen”, and is the year you take your final school exams, called A-Levels (the better your results in these, the better your chances are of getting into good universities). “Lower Sixth” (aka “Year Twelve”) is the year below that. It’s not a major plot point, but might help with clarity.

Friday, January 17, 2014

Happy Friday, Everyone! (and it didn't take too long this time),
Thanks so much for all of your comments on Chapter 20!! I can't tell you how great it was to see such a response. I'm so grateful! So many of you took the time to provide detailed feedback that I was just blown away--really! This has been such a terrific journey for me, and I'm so glad so many of you have come along to share it. So here's Chapter 21. I guess I could entitle it "In the Basement" for the table of contents. :-) I don't think I'm especially good at coming up with clever titles for the chapters. Fortunately we just have to number them.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

My ASL class starts today, so what better way to celebrate than with a new episode? This week's is a little shorter, but it has some "sandwich moments" that I hope you'll enjoy.

Thank you so much for your comments on last week's episode. I'm happy to see everyone's liking David--I really enjoy writing him, especially from his perspective, so you'll definitely see more of him as the series progresses.

Today's episode is Friday, the day of Kai and Renee's history midterm. Let's see how things go, shall we?

The episodes November 2 - 4 really snuck up on me when I was writing. I hadn't planned for them initially when I was writing Season 2, but they ended up kind of just "happening" once I began to explore Kai dealing with his midterm anxiety, etc., and I hope you'll agree that they deserve a place in the season.

Please keep the comments coming! I don't always reply to every one, but I do read them all (usually several times when I need a boost). Part of the fun of writing Kai is he and I are so "close," but it also can lead to emotional burnout, which has been plaguing me a bit as things later in the season get . . . hairy.

In addition to all I have planned, I do have several flashback-type episodes to share, I'm just not sure where they'll fit in just yet, but you WILL see how Kai & Jon reunited, for example, at some point this season.

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Hi Everyone,
As always, I first want to thank all of you who kindly share your feedback with me! I really love hearing from you. It's so great to learn what you think of Paige and Madison, and all those around them. And I'm very anxious to know what you think of Chapter 20. Some issues in need of discussion (as many of you have pointed out :-) ) finally get a hearing. It's a little long, but there are breaks. I just couldn't figure out a short way to set the stage.

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Hey, everyone! I was able to sit down and make some more ASL lesson videos for those who are curious. I decided to make several at once since I'm not sure when my next opportunity will be! You can watch them here: (Lesson #2, Lesson #3 - Part 1, Lesson #3 - Part 2, Lesson #4). I cover name signs, numbers 1-20, and ages, some basic vocab you'll recognize from the story, and question words. Hope you guys find them useful and I apologize for any errors made since I did them all in one take each.

This week picks up a few days after Halloween. Kai and Renee's history midterm is coming up, and Kai is stressing badly, but good thing he has his brother and his friends to help him through, right?

(This week is a long episode, but I didn't want to break it up, so I apologize for the length.)

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Hello Everyone,
Thanks so much for all of your comments about Chapter 18! I can't tell you enough how much your feedback means to me. I try to reply most times, although I'm not sure who--if anyone--goes back to see. The interaction just means so much and I appreciate you taking the time to let me know what your think.

And boy--the site's been busy this week with fantastic updates! It's a lively place and a treat to visit. So here's my weekly contribution Chapter 19. And Paige gets some good news. :-) I hope you enjoy.

Friday, January 3, 2014

Thank you so much for your lovely comments on my last chapter. I was really touched, and if I'm honest, the comments are my key inspiration to keep going with this story, so thank you for your kind words and helpful, constructive criticism throughout the course of this little tale, please keep it coming if you'd like more from Sam and Alex (Alex cooks dinner for her in the chapter following this one.)

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Sorry for the late update this week, guys. I was hoping I'd have a chance to make another ASL video, but unfortunately, it doesn't seem like I'll have the chance until next week. So it was either go a week without an update, or post now and make it up to you later.

(I figured you'd guys would rather me post now, lol.)

Last week, we saw the first part of Halloween, with Renee and Kai spending time together, and Renee getting a chance to see a different side of Kai, along with learning a bit about his childhood.

This week, Halloween continues as Kai heads to the party at the Jonesville School for the Deaf (JSD). We also get to see a scene with Jon, at work.

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