In the hospital, water broke UPDATED

I am 20 weeks and and spent the night in the hospital. My water broke last night. Now there's bleeding. I am terrified and waiting to see if baby will make it ;_;

UPDATES: I copied some from comments I made. Had a hard time navigating the site from my phone.

Ok, I am on my phone with one finger so bear with me. I talkws to two perinatologists who said thae thw prognosis is not good. Something like 90 % thar happen this early deliver within a week. And beforw 23 weeks the baby can't survive. So we arw hoping beyond hope that I can keep this baby inside for 3 more weeks or longer so he or she has a chance to live.

I will have to stay in the hospital the entire time hooked up to an IV on bedrest. They say they will try to keep me pregnant up to 34 weeks, which is best case scenario and will have to be c section. I was looking forward to a natural birth w a midwife, but I will be so grateful to seey baby live. He or she will most likely stay in the nicu till Feb if he or she lives at all ...

I have spent much of my first day here fighting back tears. I love this baby so much and want to see my son or daughter live. My heart is breaking.

Thank you all so much for your support and encouragement. Every ray of hope and every prayer help...

I am about to get an ultrasound (9/16) will update again after. They had a hard time finding the heartbeat this morning. I was supposed to have it tomorrow to check on the amniotic fluid, which was completely gone when I got checked in.

9/17

I found out yesterday morning that we lost our baby. I was induced starting at 1PM and by about 12 hours later, our baby daughter was born. We named her Emma Avonlea. She was 9 inches long and 7.5oz. I got to see her, and she looks so much like her daddy. We get to take home tiny footprints.... Thankfully, the delivery was easy and now I am recovering and we are able to properly grieve.

Here is the "birth story" I posted:

Basically, it was a Friday night, DH and I were dreaming of our future. I had just had a dream two nights earlier that we were going to have a daughter. We were so looking forward to 9/17, when we would have the anatomical ultrasound. Little did we know that day would be spent in the hospital, making funeral arrangements.

We were speculating about what it would be like to bring our little one home, when I suddenly felt a gush of water. I lost all my amniotic fluid. We rushed to the hospital, I was shaking. It was a nightmare. I was literally shaking as they put me through a battery of tests, only to tell us "The Doctor will let you know." We didn't know if we had already lost our baby.

The doctor told us the prognosis was grim, but we said we would do anything to try to save our child. So, we were facing the possibility of weeks, months even, in the hospital on bedrest.

I spent Saturday trying to cope with the idea that our baby's life was holding on by a thread, but was encouraged by all the others who had come out ok. I held on to hope every time I heard that heartbeat at 160bpm.

Sunday morning, the nurse came in around 8am to check the heartbeat again, and had trouble. She brought in two other nurses who couldn't find it either. They ordered an ultrasound. Again, all I heard was "The Doctor will let you know."

I wasn't worried because our little bun had been evasive before. So a while later, I came out of the bathroom to hear a nurse telling my husband, that inducing would be the best option. I knew it was over, but I was stunned. I sat on the bed and started weeping into my husband's shoulder.

It was a very long day. I waited until 1PM before they would start giving me the meds to induce labor. The next few hours were painful, waiting and worrying how horrific the next step would be. I had never been in labor before and now I had to go through it like this. Without the light at the end of the tunnel.

At 10pm, my mom arrived from 2,000 miles away. I was glad to have her there, but so scared. The contractions kept getting stronger, and I finally got some meds to calm me and relieve the pain. I relaxed for the first time that day, and had barely slept since being admitted. After midnight, I felt something and called the nurse.

Shortly after, I delivered my precious baby girl. I couldn't bear to look. They took her away quickly, and thankfully, I was able to deliver the afterbirth. I tried to rest a bit and then the nurse brought her for my husband and mom to see. I wasn't sure I wanted to look. But I was afraid I would regret it if I didn't.

I held her, named her Emma, called her by her name. She looked like her daddy. It broke my heart seeing him hold her and cry, saying "We love you so much". She was so light, so tiny, but so unmistakably human. So very much our baby girl.

I still can't believe this is happening. Three days ago, we had her in our futures. Now she's gone. We went from hopeful first time parents to grieving parents, going home empty handed within a period of 3 days.

I will always wish I got to know her. I wish she could have known how loved she is. This is so very hard.

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We lost our baby Emma Avonlea 9/17/12 at 20 weeks, but are grateful for the short time she was with us.

Praying for you ! I went into preterm labor at 18 weeks and had a lot of cervical problems, my water never broke but i had tons of complications with my first. I know being in the hospital on bedrest is HARD because no matter how many times you say i am doing this for my baby you start to get antsy to get up and walk or just be out of your room. Eventually you find what helps calm you when you just start getting that urge to get up and walk also i TOTALLY reccomend the preemie board as a mom of a 33 weeker those women are ussually VERY helpful and can offer suggestions i had never heard of/thought of and sometimes there suggestions helped a lot or were something i asked my dr about

My dd was born at 26 weeks after I went into labor at 20 weeks. It was a long hospital stay for us both...but she is a happy, healthy, smart almost 4 year old!!! Praying for you and your LO. I hope everything is ok!!! <3