KILAshabeera

Saturday, December 31, 2016

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Every year when its comes to end of the year. I will said times fly so fast. This year was different. But I still
just a small girl who been called kila, shabeera, shebie, shabeb &
others nicknamewhat i trying to say that, i was happy for what happen to me this year.
I felt blessed with what I have. I have family whose never stop make me
laugh so hard. Well, sometimes problem hit, its okay! I know they loved
me as much as i granted my life for themnobody in this world doesnt have problem, everyone have one, two or
more that that. Like me, where to eat at this evening also a problem Now, i am in third year degree, senior in rotu, devil sister, faithful
member, stranger. what i want to do in this year, i already do. I can
said that my wishes for 2016 is accomplished! Yeahh 🙌🙌🙌 One of the biggest dream is----------------------- I want to be selected as one of the student for exchange student outbound. Checked☑ Frankly said, i love the memories there & hope in future, being a traveler again soon, perhaps in 2017. what`s next country? Hehehe. Every step while traveling, places, persons i met, things i saw, different view, different lifestyle, the money that i invest for, raining or sunny day, awake or sleepy, scared or confidence. I am typically a person who have many question in mind. so many. Those things answer my weird question. I can said I am so obsessed with traveling.This new hobby so expensive yet more precious. I need to make a hard saving so, every year i can fly over the world.

When I am getting older, i always lost my words to say. i pretend everyone can understand what i am talking about. what happen, i just keep itself. what hurt me, i just cry to let the anger out. Back then, i always offense for what others say about even they take as a jokes. But, if i keep being like that, i pretty sure, I NOT WHO I AM RIGHT NOW. As long as i true to myself, i already won. i think its enough. Actually nobody really cares, it just you, yourself. Through 2016, the person who I thought will never let me down is the reason i easily give up. The person that I make most important, special in life just throw me away like a rubbish. I think that person need to consider that he should not underestimated my ability to throw away him too. I do not know whats hurt the most, being hurt or being broken apart. I really sure once I really-seriously to move on, i will never look back. Well, sometimes, people only appreciate once it gone, regret when realizes it so priceless to have someone who knows your worst, flaws but still think you re amazing. Take your time until the time up!

It is a longgggg time i left for drawing. I hope in 2017, i will start
again draw, paint and typogrphy. and books. I really love the smell of
books. Perhaps in 2017, the wishes can be true and smooth like this one,
2016. Most of the things, to the people who struggle with their faith and feel lost, I pray that
you find your peace and that you never have to feel lost again. I hope that God heals whatever is hurting you. Whatever
is causing all those precious tears to fall from your eyes; whatever is
breaking your heart, if it’s stress, anxiety, pain, illness, sadness,
worry, the loss of a loved one,
anything.

I pray that God heals all that is causing your distress and that He gives you something greater in return.

P/S: The prospects I can already see for myself in 2017 are exciting me ;)

2015.
Kat mne puns dalam dunia neh kau pergi, Home always be the best place
ever. What the most surprised in 2015, baru akue tahu akue sanggup
berkorban ape saje demi family. I thought I will care more about the guy
I love since form4 but its surprised myself. Tyme tuh, akue takde pk
pun sbnrnye nyawa akue dihujung tanduk jehh. Trust me, family is your
strengths. Akue puns sangat bersyukur dpt big family yg sangat support
gegile life akue. Even sbnrnye byk dugaan yg kami kena hadap dlm tahun
ni, we still united. Gituuu. Happiness is not about how many money you have, how rich you are, its
enough just be grateful what you have now because some people doesnt
have happy fmily. Happy me.

Love.
Trust is important. Once
you lost my trust, you will never get back. Akue harap akue takkterlalu
percaya dah kt orang. Basically, I believe generally people are born to
be kind. Ok, dunia kan. Takde org baek jeh. After this, I will treat
people just they way she/he treat me. Well. Give-take. Sbab manusia skrg
semakin kejam, kau takboleh lembut. Tapi just be kind je ok. Hope
Whenever happy or terrible things happen, its blessing from Allah.
Keep hope in Him. Never stop pray, He listen. Never ever blame on Him
when your wishes not be what you want. He knows better and only.-Dr
Mahmudul Alam(2015).

Sometimes, making others happy can heal my pains. But, dont ever break
someone's happiness just to fix yourself. Unless, you want to felt how to felt broken too . Hehe. Dont make fun of others life,we know nothing what they fighting for. Just be kind. Stay humble to the earth. I learned a lot. More than what I said in this post. What I hope in 2016. I still have my family besides. I have friends that stick by me. Im know, it
gonna be tough than this year, so, I hope Im still strong and more
stronger to face it. I hope I doesn't know what is giving up but just
keep going. I hope whenever or whatever stuck me, I dont hold my tear
back but let it down on my face. Let it
go and start all over again. I hope what I dream, what I plan to do in
2016 will be come true. Most of the memories in 2015 will stay memories
but leaved a big impact on me. 2015 taught to be better me. Thanks who still stay with me. I'm really appreciate.