Existence: The continued survival

Kim was beginning to feel those uphill moments creeping back into her life. Those moments when her smiles do nothing but hide the pain and loneliness she was wearing inside.

The moments when that glaring look on her face described only the beauty of the outward appearance but hides the anguish of the inner torturous moments that was ripping her apart psychologically, mentally, and emotionally.

The thought of suicide comes to mind, like a motionless corpse she stared and questioned while she was still alive. She imagined as the feeling of abandonment consumed her already overwhelmed thought process. It was as though everywhere she went, others went in the other direction.

However, the horrific pain suicide will leave behind dinged a slap on her face. The reality of what she was feeling stared right in front of her like a nervous groom waiting for his bride to show up. The feeling of a bowling ball slamming right through the stomach comes to play as she leaped out of bed, pulling herself together with a weak smile that felt rather forced.

Uncertainty being the master of the day for Kim, she knew it was time to seek the help that she needed to be okay. The body was willing but the mind was weak. There was not much time left to hide behind those awakening smiles that sets a false hope and impression.

Kim knew the interval was now to be set free from the pangs of depression, loneliness, and anger. There is a friend within a friend ready to reach out, to love and to care for her which is finding her own self first by realizing and understanding her worth and holding on to the most precious gift ever which is life.

We are all beautiful inwardly and outwardly. Specially made and unique in our own special and extra ordinary ways. A lot of us are lonely and too scared to reach out for fear of rejection. A genuine smile alone is enough to calm a lonely heart and a little chat opens a whole new world for a heart desperately in need of a listening ear.

Kim plopped a few berries in her mouth with some milk, the thought of a new start lightened her day as she sets out on a path to healing and rediscovering who she is.

: Dedicated to all contemplating suicide! There is hope to living and light waiting to shine on a whole new you!