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Friday, February 15, 2013

Forgiveness comes from the heart

Can take you straight to heaven

Forgiveness.... It has always been
easy for me. Never did I kept a grudge for long. It has always been easy forgiving
no-matter what the other person did but what happened this time?? It’s so
strange, confusing and I am going all crazy over it.

Has that ever happened to you that
you want to forgive someone and God stops you!!! Aint it crazy?? I know you
people reading this would be like "WOOOH...she is going mad. God is the
most merciful and forgiving how will he stop another person from forgiving another
being?" I completely agree with you all. Never has this happened to me but
why?

God came to my dream and told me that
you have rested your case in my court so I will be the one dealing with it so
no-matter how much you try, you heart wont say yes to the forgiveness until I put
that in your heart.

I mean I prayed to God, cried and
cried again to let my heart let go of things but somehow it isn’t listening to
me and the strangest of all is that I don’t hate the person but still.... I just can’t seem to understand
why am I feeling that way?

Yes I did rested my case into His
court because my mind couldn’t seem to understand what’s going on but I knew
that I would eventually end up forgiving the person but it just aint happening.
Sometimes I think, is there a lot more to it that I don’t know? Is there
something else that I am unaware of and God wants me to know that. I just cant
question God because he knows the best so I can only think that maybe there is
something that He wants me to witness or experience.

I wont say that I have forgiven
almost everybody who has hurt me. There are few people who I haven’t forgiven
yet but now it seems that forgiving them wasn’t that difficult as compared to
this person. This is all crazy and odd.

While recitation of the Quran, I came
across a verse saying that Allah knows the best for us as He is the planner so
we shouldn’t question what He is doing as He knows the things we don’t know.

The state of mind that I am going through with right now is massive crazy as I just don't know what to do as I don't want to lie and just utter the words of forgiveness. So, I have decided to stop
over-reacting or over-thinking on it and instead leave it on God because He
loves me and for sure He has his reasons for making me feel that way.

13 comments:

God said that the one who forgives will get a higher regard so I cant imagine forgiveness making us weak. On my part, it has always been a source of strength n I feel light as a feather n this time as well I am craving for that feeling again. Thank you for commenting :)

Don't feel bad. To hate is totally natural.It is God's will that you will slowly learn how to be honest with your self. i.e. to admit that you feel the hate. After you truly admit that you feel the hate - then you can start to learn how to forgive (not to forget - to forgive).To forgive is the basic of life. A person that cannot forgive is already dead.In taekwondo we say: never hurt someone. But we still practice it. Practicing taekwondo teach us that hate, violance, evil - are all exist. And that we cannot ignore this fact. But still - we learn how to control our selves (usually with tears in the eyes).

The person that hurt you, she or he, will learn the correct lesson - soon or later. You just have to let the hate come out of your soul, admit it, cry and hate. In the end - the hate will be gone.But never forget that some people are evil. It's true.All the best. shian.

You are very right that hate is a very natural feeling. I believe that the person who gives space to hate can never feel the emotion of love so I try not to give space to hate. I can rest my case in the hands of God and forgive the person and believe you me, God does give them what they deserve. Thank you so much for your comment. It was really motivating and brought back the smile on my face :)