Sunday, 29 April 2007

There are a few things that all sissys should be, and over time I will adopt all of these:

1. A sissy should always be hairless from the eyelashes down2. A sissy should always wear panties - even if every other item of clothing is male3. A sissy should always wear stockings or pantyhose. If she can, the sissy should wear one or both of these items of clothing under her male clothes4. A sissy should always wear make up and nail polish5. A sissy should always wear at least 4" heels.

GOLDEN RULE. A sissy should always appreciate the female form - this is what she aspires to, worships, longs to be

These are the rules I have set myself and will try to obide by as long as I want to be a sissy.

Rules 1 to 3 are easy and I should adhere to them everyday. Tonight I had a very relaxing bath, where I used Veet on my whole body so I am silky smooth. I try to always wear panties, so rule 2 should be easy enough to follow, as is rule 3. Although I have a huge pantyhose and high heel fetish, so rule 3 and 5 will cause some initial arousal, which after some time will subside as wearing both will become natural.

I am Victoria. I love panties, pantyhose, high heels and cock.

This is my mantra, I say it as often as I can and will, from now, start and end every blog post with this.

Saturday, 28 April 2007

Yet I would love to please a cock. I know, a cock is male, and to please a cock is to have sexual interest in males but I honestly dont find any other part of a male attractive.

This is another small step on my journey to becoming a gurl.

I want cock. I dont want a man.

I have been watching a video of cumshots from porn videos, where all you see is the womans face and the mans cock. I would love to be the woman in these shots. To please the cock, suck, rub, tease and please it, then to drink its delicious cum.

Some day soon.

Ideally I will end up with another sissy, who like me desires to be a woman, wants to pleasure cocks, but doesnt want the man attatched to the end of it. I know, its odd, but thats what I would like, a good sissy like that I long to be or maybe a shemale.

Shemales are wonderfull, you get the prettyness of a sexy, femenine woman, yet a nice cock to please. I would love this.

I also belive that every potential sissy should have an achieveable role model on which she should base herself, and her is mine.

I dont know her name, but she is a model for secretsinlace.com

I am a curvy person myseld, and everything about this woman screams elegance and sexuality. I want to be just like her.

I must admit that I was becoming a sissy, then for some reason I abandonded it! I know, I was shocked too. I dont know why, it just didnt feel right at the time. Maybe I wasnt totally accepting who I was? Maybe it was all too fast, all too soon?Maybe because I wasnt being forced and every other sissy was that in someway I wasnt a sissy?

As the title of my new blog suggests though, this is a new me.

It took me a while to realise that a sissy can be many things, especially after re-reading and reading some of the new posts on sissy school.I am not attracted to men, though I do desire cock from time to time. This is ok, and I accept this. I also am attracted to she-males, as deep down I think I would love to be one.To be that femme perminantly would be great! Which im sure is what all sissys desire, to be femme all the time.

So, this is the start of the new me. I still crossdress from time to time, which will get more regular from now on. Starting small and working my way up.I have a small collection of my own panties and pantyhose (still my number one fetish hehehehe) which I plan on wearing more and more every day, until it is a natural reaction when I wake up to grab a clean pair, rather than male underwear.I will even wear panties with male clothes sometimes, to further aid transition.

I have also purchased a few items of makeup, including some blush, eye shadow, mascara, lipstick and nail polish, which I will practice putting on when I can.