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Good morning sunshines! I trust you are all having a blessed Easter Holidays despite the current state of the whole world. Thousands of lives have been lost this year since the corona virus outbreak as well as other causes. Death is like […]

I trust you are all having a blessed Easter Holidays despite the current state of the whole world.

Thousands of lives have been lost this year since the corona virus outbreak as well as other causes. Death is like a bad shadow that keeps following people around reminding them at some point they too, shall meet the same fate.

Everybody is afraid to die and more than that people are more frightened by what happens exactly after death. Where do people go? Is there life after death, do I get to meet my loved ones again? What really happens? Many questions, many questions, no answers, nothing but fear, pushing the thoughts aside once you feel your heart weighed down even more by the uncertainty and terror of it all.

There was a time I lived in constant fear of death, in fact I remember saying to myself in 2014, “I might not make it to next October”. I was afraid to die and more than that I was even more scared because I felt deep down I hadn’t lived a life that was worthy of truth if I died.

I was reading the Bible recently and I saw this verse that moved me to tears thinking about the grace of God since then till now. I thought, “had I died then, I would have been lost to eternal damnation”.

There is nothing as worse as having no hope and living a life that is filled with anxiety. In fact, I believe that it is better to be asleep than to be awake meditating on how hopeless life is and at the end of it all, the fate being death and to some even a cruesome death.

In retrospect, I believe God had His eye on me and knew I was destined for greatness. He had purposed an assignment for me that would alter the destinies of billions of lives and had I stayed stuck, I would have never come to its realization and ultimately fulfillment. Even in the midst of fear, cares and anxieties, He was patiently waiting for me to seek Him and find Him I did. When I had tried all ways, researched nearly all things and I was at the brink of concluding the meaninglessness of life like the Ecclesiastes writer. “All things are vanity, even my beauty which I took much pride in was vanity”

So how do we overcome these chocking thoughts? Do we have to suffer them some more then die? What happens really?

I will tell you what I discovered. I discovered how to beat fear. I remember thinking, “Eureka! I have got it! I have the answer! Now, I can tell everyone else and they too, can have the answer.” Little did I know that what I had discovered was not visible to the human eye and even if I shouted and shouted at the mountain tops, still men would not see nor hear it. The scripture say, “but the natural man does not receive the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him; nor can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned”. (1 Corinthians 2:14) I learnt that only the Holy Spirit can reveal the Kingdom of God.

I discovered the love of God. I found treasure. I found free treasure but discovered as well that it was found only by few men because just like a chest of gold, I sit here and behold all types of gemstones, coins, sapphires, diamonds, pearls, emeralds, rubies, turquoise and unsearchable riches, watching men pass them by day in, day out and not really seeing them. Even before I began writing here just now, I asked God, “what’s the point God, still they do not see, still they do not understand, “ and He said, “still, I want you to write”

How do you overcome fear? The question so many battle with.

You see, I get tired, I get weary, I give up, I can stop hoping for someone or something and I can step aside. But God cannot! Even if I am faithless, He remains faithful because He cannot disown Himself. God is not after my dedication, He is after you and He is using me to get to you.

He is so patient with you, that He is willing to make other people go through some discomfort and hardships to get to you. Now, do not get me wrong, when somebody is going through hardship, it is not a punishment, but it is chastening and training by God; the Potter working and perfecting the clay.

Today, He is saying to you.

Hebrews 3:7 So, as the Holy Spirit says: “Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion, during the time of testing in the desert,

God does not want men to die in sin because where you go, He shall not be there if you call upon Him. Now is the time to rend your hearts, today when you are alive. If you have read the story of the rich man and Lazarus, you remember the rich man pleaded that he return to warn his family of the fate of those who died in sin and Abraham told him, they have Moses and the prophets, if they listen not to them, they will still not be convinced even if somebody rose from the dead.

This goes to show how hardened our hearts are towards God. Even if somebody rose from the dead we would still not believe! Some of us have hardened our hearts towards God, some of us towards our parents, our friends, our neighbors, we have hardened our hearts with jealousy, pride, beauty, stubbornness, selfishness, self righteousness, drugs, fornication, pornography, masturbation, deceit, covetousness, lasciviousness, murder, adultery, slander, idolatry, adoration of religious practices, worship and flattery of men, disobedience, cares of the world and many other vices that do not give God glory.

My prayer to you this Easter is that today, you hear His voice harden not your hearts. God is able to remove fear from your heart. I know. I know very well. Through Jesus Christ, He washes every stain and gives you new life. His love is so deep that once you encounter Him, all you want to do is tell the world. “I met a man named Jesus and He saved my life, He can do it for you too.”

Maybe you have been a christian all your life but you have never had any depth, any real relationship with God. Today, you can pray with me as we join together to pray for many as well,

“Lord Jesus, I am a sinner, I desire a true relationship with You, I am coming to you by faith with repentant heart, wash me clean this day and help me renew my mind in You everyday. Thank you for dying for me on the cross. Amen”

I believe if you said that prayer God is going to work with you in His own way to build a relationship with Him.

Thursday! I honestly thought it was Wednesday. These days are rushing like wild fire and waiting for no man. A person’s life is like a rock that is dropped from the peak of a mountain and as soon as it starts rolling […]

I honestly thought it was Wednesday. These days are rushing like wild fire and waiting for no man.

A person’s life is like a rock that is dropped from the peak of a mountain and as soon as it starts rolling the number of days start to decrease in number. That means from the time you are born, the rock keeps rolling until it reaches its destination. I wonder, by the time you reach the bottom will you look back at the mountain peak and feel regret or will you be proud of your journey?

If we are honest, you and I would both agree there is alot of emptiness in people’s hearts. Everybody seems to be happy and enjoying life externally, laughing, hugging and loving, promising each other forever even in friendships while deep down there is a void of emptiness and unfulfillment.

There is a great sense of purposelessness, loneliness, dissapointment and even the fear to lose the objects we have held on to as a source of strength and love to fill that void (material possessions, man’s love, validation and acceptance)

There was a time I really sat down and questioned life. Is this really it? Are men just born to live a life filled with anxiety, worry then die? I knew the Bible talked about not worrying but how was that even possible? How could that even be? “There are alot of cares in the world, needs that need to be met, bills that need to be paid, life has no time to wait for us not to worry because even while we are trying not to worry we are still in worry”, I thought.

I used to read that verse and quote it all over but I knew full well, that truly I was lying to myself. In fact ask me, I was an expert of worrying about my health and my overall journey in life. I knew what emptiness, despair and unfulfillment felt like.

My solution to all life’s questions! And I am confident of this fact, having looked into other solutions including researching other religions, marijuana, man’s validation, transcendental meditation and I thank God He did not allow me to plunge myself further into some other practices lest I would have lost even my life out of foolishness because He gave me the solution.

Jesus

I know it sounds silly and foolish to many but He is the answer. I was asking my sister, when Jesus said, I am the way the truth and the life; did He really understand what He meant by that, what impact such words would cause? Because with just that one statement He made life and truth very narrow! In fact I immediately got the revelation of what He meant when He said, narrow is the way that leads to life. Can you imagine a man just saying that He is the embodiment of all truth and outside Him there is no truth? Like really? We would think, what audacity for real! Who does He think He is? God is the only truth! (The Pharisees and the Sadducees thought the same way as well)

Jesus was not apologetic about it. So I can boldly tell you as well there is no other way, no other way, no other thing that has the name truth aside from Jesus Christ of Nazareth! If you have been looking for the truth, He is the truth.

Now here is the sad thing, men like to assume that there are many ways to God. In fact, I used to think that buddhism, judaism, christians, muslims, hinduism, spiritism, sikhism, african traditional practices and many others still led to God. We even say, even if we have different religions we still serve the same god. But I was wrong, and I am about to make this statement with boldness and confidence! Jesus is the only way to God.

Ask yourself what is the reason the whole world is in shambles and in a state of hopelessness despite having all these religions? If could truly get to God with all these religions then why is the world bleeding?

I’ll tell you why.

Because narrow is the road that leads to life.

Matthew 7: 13 -14 Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat:

Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

We can work on our lives and build empires here on earth but without Jesus all these things are meaningless; and I do not mean the Jesus you hear about in church, in the streets or the one your friends and family have told you about. I mean the Jesus you have met, Jesus you have seen with your eyes, Jesus you have encountered on your road to Emmaus, the one whom you understand what He meant by, come unto me all you who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest formy yoke is easy and my burden light.

That despair and emptiness will never go away until you meet this Christ at the cross. I do not preach religion, I do not give formulas! No! I preach the message of the His death for your sake at the cross and the power of His resurrection because that is where I found the truth and not just my truth but the truth of the whole world.

My heart pours out to the world, that the world may know there is a kingdom on this earth that is pure but remains a mystery to the ignorant. Religion has so blinded us that we cannot dare to believe anything outside the confines of what we know and have been taught by other men. My prayer for you today, is that you dare to learn for yourself what is the truth? Seek! Seek and ask God to help you He will lead you to the truth, but you must be willing. I said to myself while at the pit of despair, “what do have to lose anyway? I am not fulfilled and I want to be filled with life, energy, peace and joy, and I owe it to myself to know where I can find them”. I asked God to help me, I started a long way before I found the truth and that is why I am confident that Jesus is the only way, the only truth and outside Him there is no life.

Good morning! I am stretching my little body and being grateful for the day. It has rained throughout the night and those who have researched on the relationship between deep sleep and rain can tell me because I am curious as well. […]

Good morning! I am stretching my little body and being grateful for the day. It has rained throughout the night and those who have researched on the relationship between deep sleep and rain can tell me because I am curious as well.

Today, I would like to talk about faith. I know it is a bit of a puzzle and mystery for most people because I have met so many people who say they don’t have faith, ask how and where they can get faith. Other people say they try to have faith but it is hard, they can’t seem to please God.

One time, I met this wonderful lady who told me, she doesn’t have faith like her friends so she felt as though her friends were more closer to God. That time, still learning myself, I told her she can pray to God to give her faith. I did that severally.

Now, as for me, I am always praying for all things, since I came across the verse where Paul is telling christians to pray in all circumstances and for all things. At the beginning of this journey, I prayed to God to give me faith because I thought it was some sort of supernatural divine power you must have and if you didn’t have it God would never hear or listen to you.

When you begin reading the Bible for the first time, it is all confusing and it is possible to get lost and misunderstand scripture if you are not led by the Holy Spirit. I did severally.

There is a verse on faith that says that it impossible to please God without faith.

Somebody is already thinking, men! “This is hard, so now, I have to please God and have faith which I am sure I don’t have? This is too hard! God’s instructions are too hard, I can’t cut it, I’ll let the church goers have this one. I am too imperfect, I am broken, I am not worthy, I have made so many mistakes and even if I had little faith, how can I please God? He must have a list of all my wrongdoings, I struggle with lying, pornography addiction, adultery, self-indulgent pleasures, stealing, drug abuse, my life is messed up, I am always fighting with my family, I am angry and frustrated, I am unfulfilled, nobody truly cares for me, I am so lost in this world, I have no idea what my purpose is and now on top of all this, I have to please God? I will never make the cut, this is too much plus it is impossible.”

Well, not to blow your own trumpet but I have been there as well, feeling despair and hopeless. I think some people who have come to know me recently assume that I have always been this girl who loves Jesus all my life. Those who are seeing my life transformation now and knew me in the past, are still reconciling the books with the ‘what happened, where did we lose her?’ But to the contrary, I was lost and now I am found, this is me, alive and vibrant, self-aware and confident in my skin and true to who I am in Christ. I knew nothing about Jesus and God outside Catholic teachings but that is a story for another day.

So I’ll tell you how to get faith! It is simple and it is in scripture,

If you want to grow your faith read your Bible, there is no other shortcut, there is no other way around it. Not even your friends, pastor, priests can do it for you. Work out your own salvation with fear and trembling! Just like you require food for the body, the spirit also needs nourishment for the soul and this can only be acquired by immersing yourself to studying scripture.

If you read the temptations of Jesus, you learn that He responded to the devil beginning with only three words, it is written!

Mathew 4:4 But He answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.

Matthew 4:7 Jesus said unto him, It is written again, Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God.

Matthew 4:10 Then saith Jesus unto him, Get thee hence, Satan: for it is written, Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and Him only shalt thou serve.

He fought with scripture.

I am a writer, I keep record and the advantage of this beautiful gift from God is that, when life is passing away for so many and people wonder what happened in 2018? 2017? What did I do in my life? What did I accomplish?

For me, I know.

Now, the reason why I bring this up is not to make people writers, but to show you the immensity of my words. I would not write here in such a manner if I was not confident of what I was saying.

I am confident in my hope for Jesus not because man preached to me and convinced me but because through writing I met Jesus. I cannot explain it, I cannot understand how, but surely my own words cannot deceive me, I wrote them, I made the journey and so I see it.

Yesterday, I wrote it is possible for your faith to be switched off like a bulb and I still believe it is, Jesus said offences will come but woe to those whom they come. If you have nothing to fight offence, it shall carry you and sweep you into darkness.

Man shall not live on bread alone but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of the Lord.

If you neglect the word of God, you kill your dreams slowly, you waste away slowly. I am also confident of that! Because I have seen what His word has done in my life.

Faith cometh by hearing, and by hearing of the word of God. There is no short-cut. If you do not feed your spirit man, you waste away. In fact, the Bible says,

There are many weapons of warfare in the spiritual realm and scripture, I have found is my sword. For it is written, the just shall live by faith. —this means not by worry, not by anxiety, not by fear, not by hopelessness but by faith and now you know how faith comes, by hearing the word of God.

Have a blessed and productive Tuesday! Grab a Bible at the end of the day and start your study and if you are already doing that, keep going! Great discoveries you will find on that path.

It is drizzling! It is Monday! It is beautiful! I hope you guys had a wonderful weekend. Mine was truly beautiful. I am a woman of letters, I have realized that we are all blessed in different ways and with different gifts. […]

I hope you guys had a wonderful weekend. Mine was truly beautiful. I am a woman of letters, I have realized that we are all blessed in different ways and with different gifts. At times I admire those people who are gifted in speech— I am usually fascinated by their eloquence, tones, their way of expression and confidence with spoken word. For me, pen and parchment are my tools of trade, I am a warrior with my pen.

This past weekend I exposed myself to many questions and it was not intentional; but due to the activities I undertook, the questions arising were inevitable. I watched some very interesting videos on YouTube about the Jewish community that caused my mind to really just open up. The thing with me is that I love learning, I have always loved learning, one time a special person in my life once told me, “never be afraid to say you don’t know if you truly don’t know, because that is an opportunity to learn”. Since then, I approached any question posed to me whether in private or in public with the same perspective.

I am always ready to embrace new things, but I can tell you for sure, it has not been easy. My personality type carries a high proportion of rigidity; in that I look for the best method of operation in any task and when I find it I roll with it and believe resolutely, out of all outcomes, one to be the best possible outcome. It takes sometime for me to embrace something else but I eventually get there.

This weekend, I revisited my old journals and I was humbled by my journey— not just spiritual journey but as a whole—emotionally, mentally, physically and psychologically. I also had to face some hard questions and about my health that caused me to wrestle against my faith.

I asked myself, “what is faith? How is my faith? Is my faith built on a lie or is it built on truth?” I remember the first time I decided to breakdown my writings into the different categories —where every topic falls under a specific category; and I remember vowing that I would be vulnerable with my spiritual journey. I would not hide any wounds, but open them up and trust they will heal if I expose them in truth and let the chips fall where they may.

I do know if any of you reading this article for the first time know, I had struggled with my an issue my doctor called colitis /gastritis for a long time and I just remember telling God, “I cannot take it anymore. I am tired of taking pills, I am tired of medicine, I am tired of worrying and worrying, anxiety after anxiety! I am tired Lord, I am done!”

Yes! That’s how I said it. I do get emotional but I have learnt with Him, I can be myself and He loves it that way.

Now, one time I was reading the Bible and God had spoken to me about my healing way before I broke down above and I will never forget that Bible verse. I read it for the first time from the Good News Bible and it said,

Jeremiah 30:17

I will make you well again; I will heal your wounds, though your enemies say,‘Zion is an outcast; no one cares about her.’I, the Lord, have spoken.”

And I knew with this verse, I would get well for sure but here I was, frustrated and honestly so tired of the fear and anxiety cycle.

Long story short, I held on to this verse and I stopped taking the drugs. I started a new diet and I placed my faith in God.

⚠Disclaimer —I do not recommend anyone trying this anywhere. Kindly take your meds if you have been instructed to take your meds by the doctor. ⚠ This was an individual decision, nobody talked me to doing this, it was a faith move on my part. (please note this is my journey, mine– do not compare, do not imitate)

There was this rapid improvement to my overall health and I stopped holding back from foods I would previously not have eaten because of acid reflux and some out of fear.

Amazing! Amazing! Amazing! Shouts of praise to the Lord. Glory to God.

It was all great until recently, when I felt this weird pain in my stomach again, all the way to my nerves and I remember thinking “Oooh no, not again, not again, not again Lord”

And legit, I was truly devastated. Let me tell you, it is possible for your faith to be switched off like a bulb. One minute you’re on the high roll, you are a flying bird and the next something just hits you and you fly down rapidly to the ground laying there wounded.

I had questions, I still have questions, I am the one to get into the interrogation room and say, “okay, Agnes, what’s happening, it must me something you did, God is angry with you and we are not leaving here until we find it and fix it”

This is my heart (the heart refered to as deceitful and desperately wicked, who can know it? Jeremiah 17:9), this is how my carnal mind looks at things sometimes. “It must be something I did, God is punishing me, I must rectify it, I must gain back His trust, I must pray unceasingly, I must submit to Him, I must work back His trust,”

I truly thank God for the Holy Spirit. And legit I am not lying, I would be okay in this world if I just had the Holy Spirit as my only companion. A therapist is great, a good friend is great as well but there are places they can never get to, there is a darkness that overcomes you that they cannot get you out of. Only one person can get to it, (the person of the Holy Spirit) and He just asked me.

“Who are you?”

I said, “well, I am Agnes.”

He asked again, “who are you?”

“I am Agnes and I am trying okay? I am not perfect, I am trying!”

“Who are you?”

Finally, after getting it wrong severally, I said,

“I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus.”

And it is settled.

I don’t care what the hell my body does, what it feels like today, what it feels like tomorrow, what it was, what it will be tomorrow, how it will behave, if it will bleed, if it will scratch, if it will be in pain, if it will get hurt. Whatever it is!

I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus.

That is the truth, that is not just my truth or some delusion! It is the truth of the whole world. Jesus Christ is the way, the truth and the life!

Outside Him, we are all dead! There is no life, so I will ride with Him in life, I will not always feel like it, but He doesn’t need my works or for me to do anything more to earn salvation. I follow Him and let the miracles unfold.

I love reading my old journals, because I can truly see what He has gotten me out of in the past.

And I put my whole trust in Him. I am fish in living water, if anything pull me out. I die period. Outside Jesus, I have no life.

My faith, is ever-being stretched, I love that about my journey. God doesn’t allow me to get comfortable with it, He says, “wait a minute, I need to take my fish into deeper waters” Notice, He doesn’t remove me from the water but takes me deeper, so my carnal mind will automatically assume someone just yanked me out, I am drowning, I am going to die for sure— but it is just God teaching me to swim into new deep waters.

I pray for you reading this, to encounter Jesus Christ in a way that will make you question everything that you have ever come across. Because that is what He does. He gives you new life, you question the old life and you desert it at the cross. I serve a God who raises the dead! That’s enough for me to know, that the greatest is on my team! The rest are just offences trying to pull me down but only end up plunging me deeper to my Savior.

Peace be unto you all! Good morning! 😆 I was talking to my sister the other day and she was telling me that animals are going back to their natural habitats during this time men are quarantined in their homes. They returning […]

I was talking to my sister the other day and she was telling me that animals are going back to their natural habitats during this time men are quarantined in their homes. They returning back to the places where they have been forced to migrate from as a result of the disruptive and destructive nature that human beings have adopted and I thought, amazing! That is a good report to think about! Nature is taking back it’s order.

So let’s get into business, one time the Pharisees asked Jesus in guise of a test for a sign from heaven of the end times. And He replied to them,

Matthew 16:4 A wicked and adulterous generation seeketh after a sign; and there shall no sign be given unto it, but the sign of the prophet Jonas. And He left them, and departed.

What sign did He mean of Jonas (Jonah)? I believe He meant the sign of a man calling people out to repentance, to turn away from their sin and look back to God. But what a form this message has come to take overtime! It has come to represent in the present age ‘fanatiscm’ in fact people have associated the word repent with fanatical christianity. “These religious fanatics! What do they mean when they keep repeating repent, repent, repent, aren’t we already Christians? Aren’t we already going to church, giving, doing the best as Christians? Isn’t that a show we have repented?”

Well, I do agree there is real christian fanatiscm in the word and the truth is only one walking in the Holy Spirit can be able to truly distinguish the difference. Otherwise, most men will always perceive vigorous preaching as fanatiscm.

So to my point, I wonder to myself, why do we see signs and speculate? If there is an earthquake, “end times we say“, if there are floods, hailstorms, hurricanes, “end times we say”, if there are diseases and sicknesses, pandemics, “end times we say” Always speculating! Always speculating! Never sure. These same things have transpired 200, 600, 1000 years ago as well. If you read throughout history the persecution of early christians was indescribable! Burning at the stake, mass murders, brothers betraying sisters, imprisonment, torture, executions, beheadings, hangings, crucifixions and earthly signs too, surely! That was cause for people to say “end times” as well.

I do not refute the signs, Jesus taught warning that in the end days we shall see these things and we shall know, that He is near, at the very gates.

But think, perhaps the reason we speculate is because we really do not understand? And in the midst of these speculation we say to ourselves, ” I know these things, end times are near” but deep down you still have fear in your heart, you still have worry about what is transpiring in the world. There is a part of you that holds on to the hope of Jesus but there is also a part of you that says, “just in case, I will do this and this”, you adopt methods the world has put forth as a protection mechanism. Deep down, you have no rest.

Now, my writings and I pray to God, that they never be such to condemn people and make them feel worse, but to make people question truly and honestly. “Could I be missing something? Is this it all Lord? Isn’t there anything more deeper and profound than this?” My concern is to attract people into deeper waters in Christ, to awake people’s consciences, no more shallow stuff and the ‘Jesus loves you’ which He does truly. But to reveal to people a gigantic kingdom, where there is peace, peace, peace, peace, peace, peace inexhaustible, everlasting peace! Even in the midst of storms! More peace there you shall find. Because truly, there are people who believe but still have no rest, wonder why they have no rest, why they have no peace yet they know these things shall come to pass.

Jesus told Nicodemus that unless a man be born of the water and the spirit they can never enter the Kingdom of God.

Born of the water? Through baptism we have a new life, which most people have already done but where the thorn lies is born of the Spirit. Why? Because most people have not truly received the Holy Spirit in their hearts. Deep down you wonder, why do I have unrest? Because it is only the Spirit that gives true rest in God.

The beautiful thing about the gospel is that it does not need my defence. The gospel defends itself, how? I cannot explain it. It is something divine. It is startling as well how we can be so close, just at the heart of it and never really experience any of it. I lived all my life in oblivion, thinking I knew much, thinking religion had me sorted, my mother’s prayers had me sorted. But looking back I truly weep at the ignorance that had me in chains and has caught so many in this day.

Now, my prayer today, is that many may invite the Holy Spirit to dwell in their hearts and transform them to be who God created them to be. May the Holy Spirit of God, who is our comforter, our friend, our helper, our counsel and advisor, light the path for us and shine upon the dark areas in our lives that we may behold a new creation.

Thursday already! To be honest, I thought for sure today is Tuesday when I woke up, I think because of having limited human contact the world around me has become quite small and the days seem to move along fast. Today, the […]

Thursday already! To be honest, I thought for sure today is Tuesday when I woke up, I think because of having limited human contact the world around me has become quite small and the days seem to move along fast.

Today, the Holy Spirit is leading me to talk about the grace of God.

I believe that most people have heard these words (grace of God) at one point in their lives and if you have never heard them then fret not! This is day!

Nobody can understand God’s grace, the Amplified Bible calls it the unmerited favor of God —meaning we are getting something that we ideally do not deserve, but because He has loved us with an everlasting love to the point of giving up His only son to a cross, we receive justification, forgiveness, eternal life, redemption and we are sealed for all ages.

There are times I ask God, “what did I ever do to deserve Your son’s death, this calling?” Some days, I search my spirit and there are times I try and convince myself that I was able to come to this point, to inherit the Kingdom of God by my own works of seeking and studying the Bible, by my own deeds, by my own strength I made it this far but— he reminds me, that before I loved Him, before I sought Him, before I even tried anything, before I existed, before my birth, long before I was, HE IS. And therefore, there is nothing that I ever didor will ever do, no works will ever make me justified, only through His grace that I receive the gift of salvation.

C. H. Spurgeon said, it is a good thing God chose me before I was born, for He surely would not have afterwards.

This means He knew me even at the Genesis of all things.

All of us are deserving of death! All of us are deserving of condemnation because in the eyes of God, we have all fallen short of the glory of God.

Romans 3:23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.

None! Is worthy, none! Not one!

But through Christ we now have a claim to the kingdom of God, not by any other means! But by the means of the cross! By the means of the blood of Jesus Christ.

Romans 3:24 and all are justified freely by His grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.

I cannot explain God’s grace with words, it is beyond any human experience. It cannot be touched, nor can it be gained by works or good deeds! It is free! It is the type of grace that sees a man dealing drugs at this very hour, one that sees a little girl in prostitution or being sold through human trafficking at this very hour, a christian lying his way out of a situation at this very hour, a rebellious child at this very hour, a woman being defiled at this very hour, a suicide mother at this very hour, a rapist at this very hour, a child, a man, a woman deserving death at this very hour but says, NO! I AM NOT DONE WITH YOU JUST YET! YES YOU! JUST AS YOU ARE! COME!

It is the type of grace that penetrates through the cracks of walls barricaded with fear, anxiety, hopelessness, despair, failure, depression, pain, rejection, hurt, loss, angers and frustrations and says! YES YOU! I WANT YOU, I WANT TO SAVE YOU.

To make you justified! Just as though you have never sinned!

It is undeserved favor! You deserve nothing but death but by His grace you are redeemed!

Now most of these things I speak of sound familiar to the ears because they have been preached, preached, taught, spoken of for many years they have become too familiar that they have lost their saltiness, even you yourselves have talked about God’s grace and favor at some point. But truly, most of us do not understand a thing about it! Even when I myself wrote the post ‘graced introvert’ my understanding was still jaded, it was still needing! So therefore, it is possible to speak of things with such certainty and not know anything about them, just like it was possible for Judas Iscariot to have been at the very heart of salvation and not have entered it, to have been on Jesus’ team and not be saved. It is possible to be almost in the kingdom, just at the door but not all together in. The sad thing unfortunately is that almost does not count.

When I look at it, I am confunded by the means unto which God used to bring salvation to the world! He did not use any blowing trumpets or fleeting angels descending down from heaven to reveal the Messiah! But He used a cross, something that was so despised, so looked down upon, a criminal’s fate, the old rugged cross.

God’s grace does not make sense in any human way! I am dumbfounded by it myself! This is the point I get to and say, for it is written, “His ways are higher than my ways, His thoughts are not my thoughts” who can understand them? It is by His grace, I write to you. How can I explain it? What do I know? Nothing I know! But I take His loving grace by faith because it is written and the just shall live by faith.

Now, may the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all; and may the same grace lead you into a deeper experience of Christ Jesus and walk you to the cross where all things are made new and whole.

April! What a blessing to see the fourth month of this year. Truly, I am thankful to God for His wonderful grace. Thousands of lives have been lost since the pandemic of Corona Virus hit the world. It is truly heart breaking […]

April! What a blessing to see the fourth month of this year. Truly, I am thankful to God for His wonderful grace.

Thousands of lives have been lost since the pandemic of Corona Virus hit the world. It is truly heart breaking because these are not just numbers but friends, brothers, sisters, mothers, sons, daughters fathers, grandparents—all people’s loved ones and they all they matter.

I always strive to see the good in all things and I believe the reason why such a time is important is because more than ever we need unity, solidarity, to speak with one voice and in agreement not only to defeat a common enemy but to build bridges of love and togetherness. I commend and salute all the people who are at the front-line physically during this battle.

I also believe that, even more than we need health care workers, volunteers, donations, sharing and giving, hand sanitizers, protective gear and all provisions— we need prayer. We cannot win any battle out of our own strength. I believe each and every person on earth has a belief system, acknowledging truly there is a creator of the universe; of you and me, the one who is eternal and controls all time and being.

As I have come to gain understanding over many matters with time, I realize as well that all earthly battles are never really physical or tangible, they are all spiritual. The whole of life is spiritual.

As we send out the health team to assist during this time, they too, need all the support from us including our obedience to our governments and authority.

For me, I strive to live my life by teachings of Jesus. I live by faith and I trust in all His words completely—Do not let your hearts be troubled, I have overcome the world.

There is an account of Jesus raising Jairus’ daughter from the dead. When Jairus received a report, that his daughter was already dead in the midst of requesting Jesus to heal her, the people who brought the news told him, “no longer bother the master for she is dead”. Jesus overhearing them, He understood their eyes could only see as far as the physical situation, it moved His heart as well seeing this was the furthest they could perceive of the situation—and that they might too, see life in the spiritual, He raised her from the dead.

But when Jesus heard [it], He answered him, saying, Fear not: believe only, and she shall be made whole~ Luke 8:50

Believe only

What the world is experiencing at the moment is uncertainty, fear, turmoil, confusion, loss, pain, death and much grief and suffering. But Jesus has always been saying fear not, only believe and all will be made whole.

My prayer goes out to all people in the world, of all kindred, to all nations, tribes and tongues— I touch and agree that we have healing in the mighty name of Jesus. We shall not die but live to proclaim the goodness of God, for even though we walk through the valley of the shadow of death — we will fear no evil. For He has already overcome the world.

Peace, love, joy and unity keep all your minds and hearts in Christ Jesus. May this month, wrought more blessings and deeper understanding of who God created us to be, that we may walk in purpose, in truth and without fear of whatever circumstances we face because greater is He who is in us than he who is in the world.

New week! New things! New challenges to overcome! New ways to be spread joy and cheer! I take all days to be like Christmas mornings. Bursting forth with love, joy and cheer. Most mornings I never feel as cheerful as soon as […]

New week! New things! New challenges to overcome! New ways to be spread joy and cheer!

I take all days to be like Christmas mornings. Bursting forth with love, joy and cheer.

Most mornings I never feel as cheerful as soon as that alarm sounds because for some reason sleep is most delicious during the early mornings and all you want to do is hold on tightly to the blankets and keep snoozing the alarm. Wouldn’t that be nice?

But that’s the thing, the flesh desires the things of this world, it will never tell you. ‘Hey, let’s go out for a jog in the early COLD morning, or let’s wake up at four to do some morning meditation’ The flesh will always desire instant gratification. That is why even when Jesus was praying on the mount of Olives before He was arrested and found His disciples in deep sleep urging them to stay awake and pray lest they fall into temptation, He told them ‘The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.’ (Matthew 26:41)

Our spirits are capable of doing extraordinary things. In fact, if you observe most people who are successful, they have managed to tap into this inner man because they have discovered the treasure that lies within. With training, the spirit is sharp, focused, disciplined and capable of stretching into dimensions far more deeper than one could fathom possible.

There is nothing in this world that is as powerful as a strong spirit.

How is that possible? Because we are created in the image and likeness of God.

Genesis 1:26 And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth.

Note that part ‘let us’ Who do you perceive God was talking to?

And the spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters. Genesis 1:1-2

In the beginning of time, there was God, there was the word (who is Jesus—and the word was made flesh) and there was the spirit (Holy Spirit).

I do hope I have also gotten that right, I am also a student 🙂

The spirit is capable of reaching heights unimaginable, that is why you see even men and women who are not Christians but rely on strengthening the spirit man prospering and tapping into profound intellectual depths —take for example these masters of mediation and yoga, chanting their dharmas and lotus sutras, aligning their spirits to some energy.

So how come we are not able to recognize and walk by this? Because of the desires of this world being, money, sex, fame, instant gratification, sleep, food, cares and provisions, pleasures and the like.

The spirit and the heart work in unison, in fact the mind is actually a bit far off these two because imagine this—you could listen to positive messages all day, all month and all year but still have no visible change in behavior or character. Why? Because you have only managed to tap into the mind but not affected the spirit and the heart. The spirit is the likeness of God, that means just as He is in strength and power so are we also.

Now, if you invite the Holy Spirit inside your heart, He transforms your heart into His likeness. It’s not however an easy process but if only you are willing. One thing I can tell you for free —your flesh will behave as though it’s has been set on fire!Complaints, complaints, grumblings, murmurings, reasonings why you should quit, more and more complaints and now here is where those who give up easily give in.

But those that are willing, will get up everyday and tame the flesh! When the spirit man is nourished it begins to take charge of your whole life, telling the flesh ‘You have no power over me, you do as I command, you exercise even when you do not want to, you eat during the times I command, you wake up and sleep during the times I command.’ And once you have achieved this kind of discipline it becomes a habit and a way of life.

We have in us something far more precious than gold! The spirit man! But forever remains asleep until one is willing to wake him up and exercise his muscles.

I mean the reason why most of our lives are jacked up is because we have exercised the minds with knowledge, our bodies at the gym, our hearts with worldy pleasures and our spirit man with laziness, then you wonder. Why isn’t my life working out? Because before you came into being, God created you a spirit, your spirit existed before all else, if you tap into that! All things align! And I mean all other areas will hearken to your spirit automatically and your whole life takes into shape.

Now, as we begin our week and day, may we meditate upon these words and consider them with great thought. That we may understand who are truly are in our creator so that we are able to become who He created us to be.

May the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ keep us, lead us, guide us, cover us and increase unto us an abundant provision of the will to learn, to be better and the desire to deposit the gifts of the Holy Spirit in our hearts.

I am by nature, a seeker of freedom, of truth, of the basis of life and because this is my nature, I am bound to seek things that have long been hidden and have stayed hidden. Once I find them, I make […]

I am by nature, a seeker of freedom, of truth, of the basis of life and because this is my nature, I am bound to seek things that have long been hidden and have stayed hidden. Once I find them, I make my own conclusions based on what type of knowledge or information I stumble upon—that is, either man has buried it himself or the universe is keeping it far from the reach of the wickedness of this world.

Now, this post is such among those that make those who catch offense uncomfortable, others will even go upto the extent of questioning what audacity to write such words, others will accept some words and disagree with other words and hopefully we will all get enlightened.

After all, I am not speaking out of my own wisdom, but of things that I have touched, fear that I keep silent of such matters and more are kept bound and strayed in their ways by my silence.

Martin Luther once said,

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So yes! Jesus was not soft. I fear He is getting more and more misrepresented in the world. So am I the one representing Him perfectly? No, I am just but a path finder passing by and seeking the truth of His words for myself and sharing the knowledge to all men.

Many people, I included view Him to be gentle, to be kind, to be forgiving, to be loving and protecting, to be making intercessions for the whole world. But also, Jesus has come to be to the world, the ultimate sweet guy who loves all mankind but to the life of the world, the world can’t seem to reconcile why and how they would pray in His name and still suffer even some more. So I concluded either it is God who has changed (which both you and I agree that God is still the same, He changeth not) or it is man’s interpretation of Him that has changed and become twisted.

If you study the scriptures well and ask the Holy Spirit to guide you and help you understand them without necessarily carrying the mind of ‘I know Jesus’ but empty it completely; like that of a child, empty all your minds contents, all religious teachings (of all denominations) you will behold another Jesus.

Jesus was not a sweet guy of ‘ooooh my little children let’s go to heaven, don’t worry I have come to save you’

He brought peace and division at the same time, He came with a sword and for spiritual war (Refer Matthew 10:34, Luke 12:49-53)

Like 12:49-53

He was the one who said, “I am the way, the truth and the life! No one comes to the Father expect by me.” That means there is no other way! Not even through, our pastors blessings, our parents intercessions, our blessed mother Mary or the saints intercessions and all prophets.

He is the one who when John the Baptist was put into prison and John sent a word through his disciples asking, “are you the one who is to come or should we expect another?” And Jesus told the disciples “Go your way, and tell John what things ye have seen and heard; how that the blind see, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, to the poor the gospel is preached. And blessed is he, whosoever shall not be offended in me.” (Luke 7:21-23)

I interpret, John wondered, how he could be in prison and his cousin, the Messiah not bother to have him released. “And blessed is he, whosoever shall not be offended in me.”

Jesus was unpredictable in His dealings and His affairs to many but if you observe with a keen eye, He was also predictable.“I have come not to call the righteous but sinners to repentance”(the sick in mind, body, spirit, heart, soul) Luke 5:32 He was concerned with healing both of the body and of the heart, but most importantly healing and restoring the heart. Because He knew the sickness of a man’s heart causeth much infirmity even more to the the spirit and body.

When He spoke to thousands of those who followed Him, many left and abandoned Him because they said His teachings were too hard, who can understand them? He rebuked the unbelief of His disciples not in private but in public! How about that? His concern and only purpose was to fulfill the will of God, and that was spread the message of salvation. Not pleasing his disciples or His friends, His mother or father. Yes honor your mother and father! “I am not come to destroy the law but to fulfil it” (Matthew 5:17) He called men evil and wicked not because He did not love us, but because He understood the hearts of men are capable of devising much wickedness and evil.

Jesus was compassionate but with the same zeal He was ruthless when it came to dealing with sin and for that, He did not compromise and He was not two-way about it! He was clear!

Overtime and with religious teachings, His message has been distorted and passed down by many to represent Him as one who is okay with lukewarm people—and that is why now, we have a bleeding world today. So many christians in the world but little faith, little belief! He said, “O faithless and perverse generation, how long shall I be with you? how long shall I suffer you?” (Matthew 17:17)

Unfortunately we live in a world of a lot of pampering and flattery! “You are not of the world, even as I am not of the world” (John 17:16) “If any man will come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me. (Luke 9:23) “No one, after putting his hand to the plow and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.” (Luke 9:62) “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.“ (Matthew 7:13) “Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.” (Matthew 7:22-23)

We have been accustomed to softness and pillows, sleeping generation! People only want to hear of nice things, pleasing to the ears, like healing, blessings, overflow, abundance, favor, enemies crushed, prayers answered instantly but they turn away when the message becomes a bit too intense, ‘not too Jesus for them’ Almost like, we want some parts of Jesus but not some others parts.

I love knowledge and wisdom truly and therefore I am daring. So, I am daring people today, to put their religious cloaks in the closet and set aside their religious practices for just once in a week and dare to labor themselves into the word of God.

Do not take my word for it, if you maybe have some doubts lest my words mislead you. Spend time in the word of God and find the truth for yourself. This is the only way to get the truth, not by a pastor, a priest, a sister of the cloth, a friend, confessions, givings, charity work or by your own righteousness or faithfulness. It is only by working out your own salvation as Paul said. Repent or perish! I interpret it as ‘Renew your mind in Christ or perish‘

If I am blunt. Your kind heart and good deeds do not cut it. What you do with your life for Jesus in this life is what will matter and I do not say it because I consider myself more privileged seeing that it is the path that I have chosen to walk, but because God created you for a purpose and that purpose must influence the life of another, if you fail to fulfill that purpose you fail that other person, that means you fail generations.

“Well isn’t that a bit to harsh? I don’t think God created us to then force us into relationship with him.”

I agree, God doesn’t force anybody into anything but He has given you salvation that is Christ and what He taught, not what you have learnt from religion— what Jesus taught. It is just an invitation to come to Him. If you do, well and good if you do not well and good. Both are choices.

—He that hath ears to hear, let him hear

As for me, I am going to enjoy the weather today and look to cook something new! I’ll figure it out, maybe watch something, read a book, rest a bit. I love the rain so I am usually super active, I have never really understood that correlation— all writing emotions just burst forth, I can write and write and write for hours especially poetry.