The 100 Star Breaks Down Raven's 'Selfish' Decision: 'I Was Shocked'

Lindsey Morgan‘s character made a life-changing decision on Wednesday’s The 100, and according to the actress, it was so not Raven.

But before we dive in, a quick recap of the episode: While Clarke attempted (unsuccessfully) to establish herself as the new Commander, Octavia traded her gardening tools for weapons to join the battle of the tribes. Back at Arkadia, Jasper and Harper — among a handful of other hopeless teens — decided to party their way to the grave, rather than join the others in the bunker.

This brings us to Raven, who continued to suffer from hallucinations — this time of Becca, who offered to help her space-walk. (“If you’re going to go out, you might as well go out with a view.”) During Raven’s final scene, she revealed her plans to Murphy: “Do you have any idea what it feels like to be in pain every day?” she asked him. “When I was space-walking, everything was right. I just want that again.” And if anyone asks? “Tell them I floated myself.”

If you found yourself stunned by Raven’s suicidal thoughts, you’re not alone.

“I was shocked because Raven has always been so selfless, and I thought killing herself was actually very selfish of her,” Morgan tells TVLine. “For once, she’s doing something completely for herself, with no regard for her friends. I thought it was not very Raven-like, but I can empathize with her. She feels like she would be a waste in the bunker, taking up space and air that someone else could use.”

Morgan admits, “It took me a minute to wrap my head around her decision and understand where she was coming from. It wasn’t an easy decision to make, but she’s facing her death head-on, and accepting it. That’s what it is, it’s an acceptance of her death.”

As for why she chose to confide in Murphy, Morgan acknowledges, “Murphy and Raven’s relationship is very unique because of everything they’ve been through. I mean, he disabled her. I think he admires and respects her, in addition to feeling an insurmountable amount of guilt for what he did to her. He may fight her, but he’s going to support her either way. I don’t think he feels he can stop her.”

100 fans, are you worried about Raven, or do you think she’ll change her mind before doing something she can’t take back? (Also, editor’s note: Am I crazy, or is this whole storyline insanely problematic? #LeaveRavenAlone!) Drop a comment with your thoughts below.