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Monday, August 20, 2012

I Have Missed This.....

Well when I first looked at this blog and seen that I have not blogged in so long I was fairly taken back as I remember how vital writing was to me when this journey on blogging/carepages started. I have said many times in the last few months that I missed writing. I guess it is time to just get back to it. Not sure where to start after all this time has passed, but I guess a good catch up for starters would pry be a nice start for all of you right?!
Jessa is going to start middle school in two weeks....I am nerve racked that my first born is going to be in middle school already! Orientation is next week for her and I really wish she was not growing up so fast! She is so funny and caring! I am still amazed at the way she is. She had a very successful softball season this past spring moving into a catchers position! She made it to All-Stars and then went to Michigan State's softball catchers camp in July. She is also learning that you can be fashionable and modest at the same time!
Jonathin starts 4th grade in two weeks. He is excited about his teacher and I am fearful that him and Owen (Phil's son) in the same class may be a bad thing! Time will tell....Otherwise Jonathin had a not as successful baseball season, but enjoyed being on Phil's team.
Jayde starts 3rd grade in a couple weeks and that means she is in the big elementary school.....Hard to believe that she too is venturing into a new school. She had her last year of coach pitch baseball and will venture into softball next spring and has also decided that she wants to play basketball. She is growing to be quite the athlete.
Which I guess brings me to Phil....Well I am happy to report that we are still together. We are still just dating. I look at the last two plus years with him and boy has some of it been challenging. I suppose that helps me to appreciate the fact that I would have only wanted to share it with him. He is still my best friend, my favorite team mate, and honestly he holds the key to my heart. However when I say that it has been trying it has truly had its moments of trials, but has also had moments of pure joy! We have shared many adventures together and I hope there are many more to come, but there are times it seems to me that I can not get past the part that truly wants to marry this man and share all of my life and family with him. More often than not I am very torn by this subject....Any advice would be greatly appreciated and yes he knows I want to get married.....
Alright so June marked three years that Ethin has been gone. Hard to imagine three years went by so fast yet so slowly! I still miss him very much and have a hard days, but my life has truly gone on. My J Triplets and I still speak his name often. For Phil it is a hard thing for him to comprehend, but he tries his best though his words are usually not good. He has slowly learned to say nothing and just wrap me in his arms and listen. Hard to believe where my life is and all because of Ethin's life.....
Ethin's life has taught me great lessons. I have for one learned that the only healing I will ever get does come from my Heavenly Father. He has cried so much for me and with me. I am His child and He has loved me through this. I also have learned that no matter how long a life is they all hold a deep purpose in His plan. I have come to the conclusion also that my purpose no matter how big or small will take a long time to fulfill. While I am a bereaved mother I still find that I never know what to say to other bereaved parents which breaks my heart. To comprehend the fullness of losing Ethin is still something I deal with. It has never gotten easier, but the heart stabbing pain has lessened with time; though I am not saying it does not still hurt, because it does.
God has perfectly crafted my life. He has put everyone in it that I would need!! I am greatly looking forward to school starting, because that means women's Bible study starts too. We will be studying Esther with Beth Moore! God has greatly blessed my life and I am thankful to Him who is my Rock and Refuge!

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All Of Ethin

Click on this picture to read Ethin's life from CHD Warriror to Angel. This is our carepage his whole life is written here and was journaled. I encourage you to read about the boy who touched thousands in 5 1/2 months

Jessa

This is Jessa the oldest of the J Triplets. Everything I would ever learn as an everyday mother she taught me. She is 9 going on 19!!

Jonathin AKA "Little Man"

Jonathin is the only boy of the J Triplets and right in between the girls. He is my oldest son at 8 and truly a lover and a joy.

Jayde AKA "Tater Tot"

This is Jayde the baby of the J Triplets at 7. She is the informer of the household. She is the comic relief. Life with her is anything short of interesting!

Ethin's Letter of Hope

Click here to read Ethin's Letter of Hope

Cuddles From the Heart

I am the single mother of 4 kids. Three on this Earth and an Angel that God allowed me to watch for 5 1/2 months. I love my kids and they keep me going. Losing Ethin was and is the hardest thing in the world. Jessa, Jonathin, and Jayde (J Triplets) Keep me going. I am an involved mother with their sports and schooling. I have learned since 2009 that God is my only strength and I plan to follow His plans for my life.

Written For Ethin After He Passed Away and read at his funeral

Once upon a special day,In heaven up above,The tiniest souls sat at God's feet,Surrounded by his love.The time was coming...very soon,God said..."Do not be scared",Your family awaits your arrival,Now let us get prepared,And so... God looked upon these souls,In mute consideration,He knew the life each one would live,He weighed each situation,The souls chatted amongst themselves,And wondered who they'd be,They knew the day grew closer...soon,They'd meet their family."How would you like to change the world?God asked each soul in fun,"The chance to make a difference",Is held by only one.I'm going to make the world laugh,One soul said with a smile,For laughter heals a broken heart,And helps us through each trial,Then take with you the brightest smile,And share your laughter well,The soul thanked God immensly,And down to earth he fell."And I'll remind the world to sing,A sweet little soul told the Lord,I have the gift of a beautiful voice,I can hit every note...every chord.You'll have the gift of music then,A voice...lovely and strong,Share your gift with others,And let them hear your song.I will show compassion.,The next little soul raised her hand,Some people only need a friend,Someone to understand,Compassion is a good thing,In every time and season,To you... I will give mercy,As true love needs no reason.And so each soul...shared every thought,Their plans, their hopes, their dreams,As God explained that life...it is,Much harder than it seems.And as each soul began to leave,In a scurry of laughter and fun,Heaven became quiet... Left...was only one.Come sit with me my little child,God said with just a sigh...Do you know how many you will touch,In a world left wondering why?From the moment that your life begins,You... will know of strife,But you'll teach those who know you,To cherish the small things in life.And some may only know you,Through a simple photograph,They'll never hold you in their arms,Or memorize your laugh,Some may only know you,through the words they read each day,But you'll do something wonderful,You'll make them stop...to pray.The tiniest soul...raised his head up,To touch God's firm, strong hand,Father...I am ready for,The life...that you have planned.And I will do the best I can...Without a word or deed...For you Lord...are the planter,And I will be your seed.He could already hear many praying,And although they had not seen his face,They were praying for his safe arrival,They were asking for mercy and grace.Now go my little warror,With strength, and hope and might,Face your battles knowing,"You are precious in my sight".What talent do I leave with Lord?What gift do you impart?All that you will need God said,I've placed within your heart.And so God kissed this tiny child,Knowing all that he would be...And whispered as he watched him go,Go teach them...to see me.