Category Archives: Mental Health – Child

I want to believe him. I want to have faith that his meds are in his body. I want to not overdose him on melatonin and clonidine. Is it even possible to overdose on melatonin? Experience tells me differently. twice tonight he has spit up his meds. 10 mg of melatonin each time plus .2mg of clonidine each time, should have him sleeping for 8 hours minimum. yet he is awake. with a litany of excuses as to why. He had such a good day too. plus he has some electronic device that I can periodically see the glow to, but I haven’t been able to actually catch him with it yet. Tweet #fighting4answrs

I am utterly exhausted. I am tired of being hyper-vigilant. I am tired of the constant lies about keeping meds in the body and not on the floor, or in the garbage. I am scared. Someone threatened to stab his sister yesterday with a pair of scissors. Our experience has been that we can put him in the hospital, and they will send him home when he gets stabilized. So I will spend today on the phone trying to find some place for him to go. I can’t force my family to live like this. Why did he do this? She asked him to turn down his cd player. and then when he moved it, she was going to give him the cord for it, but didn’t move or respond fast enough for him. He evidently said, that he would get it from her “one way or another.”

So, it is 5 am here in whynotfathers.com land. I was ready to go to bed myself. Suddenly started getting email notifications of items being installed on my kindle fire. Guess who is awake? Guess who admitted that he spit out his meds? Even after I ran my finger around his gums and under his tongue. So his meds were replaced. Made a note to clean out behind his bed, evidently that is where he spits his meds. Yuck!!! Even after he pretended to be asleep for three hours. I dozed, woke with a start and decided to go to bed. Now, I guess I will be up until mom wakes up and then will go to bed. so much for spending time with the family before school starts. He has stolen the Kindle twice today, now. so frustrated. I wonder if I should sleep with it under my pillow…