Snippets of my ordinary life

annoyed

I feel like some people get a kick out of pissing me off. I tell them to not stand in the back and later they will come and stand near me and watch for my reaction 😒

I’ve also got a few people who got angry at me because I told them they would have to wait to enter the meeting because they didn’t RSVP or are last minute additions that just show up, hoping to get in. This is what happens when you don’t follow directions. You’re not the king of the world; don’t expect me to give you special treatment just because you fucking drove 15 hours to get here.

What’s worse is that these are grown adults. I talk to them politely and patiently but they act like I killed their whole family. I can’t with people.

I got another hair cut yesterday. Tried out a new place and the guy cut my hair wayyyyy too short. I look like a guy now. Sighhh…oh wells. Tried something new and it didn’t work out. What can I do? Definitely not going back there again though.

At work – closing registration for the upcoming event this weekend. We already extended the deadlines three times already! From May 8th till today. It’s ridiculous and I still have people sending in their qualification forms requesting for a RSVP. Like dude, the last day to RSVP was YESTERDAY. There’s this one CEO (his wife) in particular that is annoying as fuck and sends their shit multiple times despite us telling them no the first time already. I’m just gonna start ignoring it. Why do people always wait until the last minute and expect to get an exception? Like homie, we gave you a month to do this shit.

Other than work, I’ve just been really sad and depressed lately about my life. I just keep telling myself it’s only three more weeks. Just gotta hold on for three more weeks and then I’ll be free.

At first I had planned to stick it out at my job until the end of September but I honestly don’t know if I can hold out that long anymore. On Monday, I realized yeah, I really can’t and decided I’m going to quit at the end of June. I told my coworkers (the ones that I’m close with) and one of them asked me how sure was I about quitting in June. I was feeling about 60% on Monday. Today is Wednesday and it’s gone up to 80%. Every minute I’m at work I hate my life more and more.

I believe I am a really patient person with a high tolerance for bullshit but I’ve come to realized that I am just not fitted for this position; I can’t deal with all these people and bullshit and this and that. Enough is enough.

One of my coworkers is really starting to piss me off. I have decided I’m not going to talk to her anymore.

I don’t know what her problem is but most of the time when we’re talking (or she’s talking to anyone in general) she gets hella defensive about her thoughts and opinions. Or she pushes them like she’s correct and the rest of us are wrong. Like chill, we’re just talking.

Yesterday I was just telling her about this thread I read on reddit about unethical things doctors do. I was just saying if I ever needed surgery or something major, I would go back to the US to do because I trust the doctors in the US more than, let’s say, China (for the record, I have nothing against China). She goes off on me saying that doctors in the US are horrible and that so many malpractices happen in the US too. Well, okay, I agree, there’s shitty doctors everywhere but if I had to choose between China and US, I’d choose US. But then she continues lecturing me about the bad shit doctors in the US do and that I should do my research before going into a major surgery.

Bitch, if I have to do a major surgery, I would most likely dying or heading in that direction. I wouldn’t have the fucking time to do my research. Ugh! She’s so fucking irritating with the way she talks.

It’s not only me though; she’s pissed off my other coworkers with the way she gets so defensive about her opinions and shit.

But lately, I’ve been getting annoyed at people really easily. Every little thing everyone around me does annoys and irritates the shit out of me and I don’t know why. I’ve just constantly felt this way for the past week and it’s not fair to others because they really didn’t do anything to receive the cold shoulder from me.

Cheerful and upbeat people especially,are getting under my skin easily. I’m not saying you can’t be happy – just be happy somewhere else.

I’m not uptight; I can take a joke and laugh at myself from time to time. Though if someone does or say something that gets to me, I don’t let it show visibly and just keep it inside.

That being said, I get extremely irritated when people constantly tease me or make fun of me. It’s the people that are constantly doing it and the people who are always making fun of me about the same thing that really gets under my skin. I grew up with people always teasing me and making fun of the way I am and the way I look that it’s just torn down any chance of me having any self-confidence at all. I’m an extremely insecure person and lack self-esteem. And it just makes me feel awful when people make fun of me in jest. I know they don’t have any harmful thoughts behind it but it still gets to me.

There’s this guy at work that is always making fun of me and teasing me about things that I have told him. I’m a pretty open person and when asked questions, I usually answer them honestly and truthfully. I’ve got nothing to hide. But then because of him (and the rest of my coworkers) it has made me regret being honest and opening myself to them. They’re always making fun of me every chance they get. They think it’s all a joke and do it for shits and giggles but it really annoys me. I can’t even say anything about it because I don’t like confrontation.

Maybe it’s because I’m a people-hater or something, I don’t know but I have this friend who I’ve known for almost a year? We met online and have been chatting through a messaging app. She seems nice and cool.

The problem is though, every time I’m talking to her it feels like I’m being interrogated. All she does is asks question, after question, after question. And these questions come off as condescending. I feel like she’s looking down on me. I’ve been nice and haven’t said anything about this but it really bothers me. Especially when she would send me five questions in a row and they would all be about something different! I’ve just started to pick and choose which question to answer because it’s really starting to annoy me how she does this. I don’t think we’ve actually ever had a ‘real’ conversation where we can just talk about something. It has always been her firing off questions and me answering them. (╯︵╰,)