Sunday, January 31, 2010

I'm doing something new today......it's Sunday and I HOPE all my readers get the chance to read this. It's a beautiful story and I couldn't think of a better day to feature one of my new favorite bloggers and THIS specific blog. When I read it - it brought tears to my eyes....it reminds me so much of me...of my boyfriend... of lots of people I know. It also reminds me how CYNICAL people have become and how often we judge people by looks or even by "what we've heard" before that person even gets a chance. I'm guilty of it myself.... but I will tell you - Life has made me think twice about these days...

I hope you enjoy and if you don't already follow ThatGirl over at ThatGirl Blogs - you better go sign up right now.... she's insightful and has a big ol' heart and could just be another kindred spirit I have found here in the blog world..... I can feel so much emotion just by reading her blog :)

Most of the employees in the tattoo shop I visited are Adam Lambert lookalikes. The kids that work behind the counter are all about 18 years old, pierced/dyed/tattooed but obviously yuppies in disguise. Disgruntled rich kids from the ‘burbs. The shop itself is a boutique, with red velvet curtains on the booths, flat screened TVs, and spa chairs. Hardly a scary place.

Mr.TattooArtist did not fit that mold. He was not dressed in any kind of poser-wear like the others. He seemed more stereotypical of what I might think a tattoo artist would look like: shaved head, jeans, t-shirt, low key.

But… just like a trip to the hair salon, if you sit in someone’s chair long enough? You get to talking. Of course, when it comes to ThatGirl, it’s more like a Barbara Walters interview, because I’m very nosy curious. Like to know who I’m dealing with.

“How did you learn how to tattoo?”
My uncle brought a machine home and I just messed with it and taught myself. I practiced on myself and then did a lot of my friends.
“Your friends?”
Well, yeah. Gang members, actually.
“Gang members? Weren’t you scared?”
Nah. I was in a gang myself.
“A gang? Really? What was that like?” ThatGirl is nothing if not subtle and appropriate, Readers Reader.
It was bad. I did a lot of bad things, knew a lot of bad people. I got out, though.

This was very good news from where I sat… You know, in a chair with a needle on the other end of a gang member.

Mr.TattooArtist went on to tell me that when he was younger, he was a meth dealer and used all day long. He was extremely open with me. He told me how to make meth (I asked), and did you know that it’s just made with household chemicals? One of the ingredients he used was Drano. During this time, his best friend was shot and killed in a gang related incident. That was the final straw. He took six months and put his life back together. In the end? He married that man’s widow. They had always known each other, of course, and it was something good that came from all the sadness.

In all the time he was involved with gangs and drugs, he was never arrested. I said he was lucky, but he laughed and said no, not lucky — smart. He said he had a lot of tricks. They used “code” when texting each other. Then, he would put the meth in the change slot of a payphone, and the customer would take the drug and replace it with money.

Well, what if they didn’t? What if they just took the drugs and ran? Not good for them, he told me. He said he’d break bones or do whatever necessary to make it right.

Really? This was a teddy bear sitting in front of me. Holding my arm so gently in his hand that I couldn’t even tell he was doing anything at all, let alone poking me with a needle. A seemingly changed man in every way.

Before I left, he was kind enough to show me a photo of his sweet baby son. A boy who will never have to know the life his daddy had before he came along. A boy who is safe, and loved by his father in just the same way my kids are loved by their own dad. Mr.TattooArtist had so much pride as he told me all of the accomplishments his baby had already made — trying to sit up, holding himself up on his arms and looking around, rolling over…

Friday, January 29, 2010

You can make your own PhotoBooth Collage HERE. ( click the word)Just choose collage and find the 4 frame template. Drag your uploaded pictures into the frame and then edit.

My photostrip says:

GIRLS JUST WANNA HAVE FUN!!!!

These are my super chic girls!!! You have probably heard me speak of them often, but these girls are my lifeline... have been for years. I LOVE them :) Each of us are so different and therefore no matter what you need or when you need it - ONE of us are just what you need! :)

I got a message from one of my girls the other day - whom I feel like I haven't seen in an eternity.... (wait - it HAS been an eternity..GEEEZ! being a responsible adult is for the BIRDS!)
Anyway, in her message - she made reference to some of our must see CLASSIC chic flix and she told me how she missed her "super chic pal"
Yeah - that's me she is referring to.
The super chic
The rock
The balls to wall, emotionally hardened, shoulder to cry on, some guy deleted my girl on facebook so I delete him too, kick that guy in the balls, ALWAYS just a phone call away super chic friend.

But - here's the thing - here's my secret - here is what no one really understands knows about me.I don't live in your reality.

You wanna know something?!!
wanna know HOW I stay so strong and focused and positive and insane???
I create my own little world.
I create goals with NO boundaries.
I don't believe ANYTHING is impossible.
I truly believe if you put your mind to something - you can DO ANYTHING!...it's all mind control.
I play things out in my head and it makes me smile.
Who says I cant?!! ;-)

Someone quoted this to me one time yeah - he was a JERK!
"Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result." Einstein
I don't call that insanity - I call that hopeful :)
I call that having faith.

I'm the girl that auditioned to be on the Bachelorette. NO I'm no beauty DRAMA queen and no I don't have any acting experience or any of the crap they are probably looking for. BUT I have ambition and a sense of adventure and well.... you just never know.... You can't tell me NO!

I'm also the girl that can flip a switch and be over a guy like that. I can think you are the sweetest thing ever and see this big huge heart and potential in you. But guess what - let me down, hurt me, disappointment me - and I can flip that switch. I don't need to cry. I don't need revenge. I can just walk away and NEVER look back. That goes for anyone who hurts someone I love. I can shut you out like THAT *snap* DONE!

I'm the girl that watches "so you think you can dance" and I KNOW that if I tried - I could do that too. Nevermind that I have had vertigo

Yes - I too could have a brick house body like Brittney Spears (used to have) IF only I had the time....

I can do anything in my head.

SO - here's where it gets tricky. Sometimes, I have to give myself a reality check. Sometimes I get soooo caught up in what I CAN do.... Sometimes I get so caught up in what I want in my life and where I want to go and when and how....blah blah blah....that I forget that there is a REAL world around me! HA
So sometimes I have to step back and remember that I DO live in reality.
those days suck. (I much prefer to live in my head...in my happy place! LOL)
*no insane comments here people...shut it!*
so now you know....if I ever say I'm having a reality check day...it's because I have I have once again gotten so caught up in something that may or may not be real that I am now taking another "time out" to refocus on ME and where I'm going and what I'm doing - No I mean REALLY... in REAL life - not in my head!
*HEY - I said NO insane comments!!*

But after that - I just go hang out with my super chic girls and they remind me I'm a super chic too!
bwwaaaaha ha ha haaaaaaa

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

If you visit me often, you might notice something a little different!!!
YAY!
I got my blog DID!!!!
I wanna say a big ol phat THANK YOU to LiLu!!!!!!!
She did a GREAT job (....waiting for applause here people.....{{clapping}}...)
ok - LiLu take a bow.
My space looks GREAT
AND - you see that little button there in that top right corner.
that's for me!
my very own little button!
For all my lovely followers out there - pick up my button - put it on your page and send me some more peeps!
while your at it - if you don't follow her already....
pick up the button below mine AND go visit LiLu at Livit, Luvit

She is one crazy hysterically funny blogger chic!
(and she's HOT and sweet to boot!) :)
But seriously........she's got the awards to prove it.
no no.... not just fellow blogger awards (she has those too) but I'm talking REAL LIVE awards. Like people voted for her and stuff!
She is the coolest chic I know
and my new BFF!!!! ha ha
{Insert sound effect from slasher film here...}

Well anyway - enough of the gushing - go get my button, put it on your page & then go visit LiLu too!

But something finally broke in her; and all faith in life was lost
She turned away from friends and family and those who loved her most
The hurt and pain found a door to hell through drugs and alcohol
With a man to hold her late at night she would pretend it wasn’t real
But the pain and the shame were never far away
and soon enough all hope was lost.

She was beaten & battered & bruised inside
And the hand that she’d been dealt
Was kindly folded up and tucked away
While she closed her eyes and wept.

Time passed on and before too long a child to her was born,
And although with him came love & hope and new friends and some family
The shame and guilt just like before would never go away
So she closed her eyes and kept trudging on, hoping love would one day win
But one by one people came along and one by one they went.
Each one gave the same every time...disappointment and broken hearts.

She was beaten & battered & bruised inside
And the hand that she’d been dealt
Was kindly folded up and tucked away
While she closed her eyes and wept.

The days and months kept passing by and that child he did grow
Into a strong and fine young man of which she grew so proud
She too had grown...strong, yet bitter and she gave up on life and love
She did her job, she loved her son and no one else was ever given
the right to enter into this life of safety for him she’d created
No longer could they break her heart for it was no longer for the taking

She was beaten & battered & bruised inside
And the hand that she’d been dealt
Was kindly folded up and tucked away
While she closed her eyes and wept.

You will never believe what happened next, a miracle straight from heaven
Into their lives - in he walked - bringing the hope and love she’d forgotten
For remember that hand she had tucked away, so very long ago
He gladly retrieved it and showed it to her... there was a plan all along
Those scars she bears are there for reason, they made her who she is
God built a woman with the strength of an army filled with love and faith and hope
To carry the man God brought to her who had the strength to carry them both.

Monday, January 25, 2010

I struggled with getting started today.....Mondays are always a drag in a sense and I try to put on a happy face when I get up - because I swear your mood can be soooo affected by your perspective on the day. BUT - I struggled today....I struggled to get going, I struggled to get motivated and I really struggled to put on my happy face.....
So for lunch, I went home and did a little house cleaning. Laundry - check; dishes - check; trash taken out - check; PRODUCTIVE right.... and yet still I sat....without motivation...without anything to talk about... without any POSITIVE motivation to pass on....

Now - I am a FIRM believer that sometimes - you just have to stop trying so hard and just listen and wait. So that I did. I relaxed and enjoyed my lunch......and suddenly it came to me why I was soooo off kilter. Do you ever feel like you are going nowhere..just peddling your wheels in place??? Do you ever feel like you are so consumed with everyone else's faults that you fail to take care of your own? And not just faults, but maybe - for me anyway - by nature, I'm a helper... I love to listen and talk and help... and I get so caught up in others issues and what I can do help them, that I forget to give myself a direction....Do you ever feel like you are just riding thefence through life?

I came across this quote today - totally randomly {{yeah right - Thank you Lord!}}

"If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for everything."

As I read it....I realized......I don't ever STAND when it comes to me. I can give everyone else advice and voice my opinion, but when it comes to ME - I sit on the fence and wait to see what everyone else is going to do..I wonder how my decisions will affect everyone else...and I worry and sit. Unchanged. Unmoving. I just sit.
This is not true in EVERY aspect of my life, but it is true in some pretty big places. There are certain things I believe in and I will tell you and don't care WHO I offend. BUT when it comes to ME and the things I need to fix about ME - I will simply tell you I'm not sure how I feel about that issue, I will make excuses, I will justify......and then I just sit on it.
There are soooo many GOOD things happening in my life right now...and yes I'm thankful. Make no mistake about that. I will tell you a million times how thankful I am and how blessed I am. But sitting around being thankful and doing NOTHING with it - has made me....well... sad. Stagnant. Guilty. and just plain dissappointed in me. And I don't like where I am.
Why?
Well - I'll tell you {{if you are offended by religious beliefs - HERE is where you might want to exit because I won't apologize for my beliefs}} I believe that God blesses us with gifts. Some that are tangible gifts & rewards and some that are meant to be USED to give back to him. In other words, I believe that along with gifts, God also ASKS things of us. And I believe that he will only ask so many times before he will stop asking. I have BEEN at that point in my life.
I have walked SOOOOO far away from God that I didn't hear his voice anymore. And trust me, that's a lonely place to be. Now - I'm NOT saying that God EVER turned his back on me.... he was ALWAYS there, all I had to do was take his hand...and just listen. I chose not to. I walked away. He NEVER turned his back on me... and I could tell you for DAYS how he took care of me and my son...even when I turned my back on him...
But the gifts he gave me were fruitless at that point in my life.

I know what these gifts are. I know how they can be used. I know how they glorify Him & I know what is asked of me every day.
My problem is picking a side of the fence, standing for something no matter WHO it offends or hurts along the way.... I KNOW right from wrong. I also KNOW the GOOD that comes from taking his hand and trusting that doing HIS will may just offend a few people - but in the long run - the example that YOU are for all the other people far outweighs the ones you offend. (and I'll share a little secret with ya... the ones that you offend, are often under conviction about that very thing you have offended them with... just sayin...)

A few months ago - I listened to a sermon that referenced a prayer that was prayed in Kansas in the opening session of the House. I'm sharing it with you today. And I'm sharing it EXACTLY as it was written. Joe Wright, the pastor of Central Christian Church in Wichita was the guest chaplain that day. He prayed a prayer of repentance that was written by Bob Russell, pastor of Southeast Christian Church in Louisville, Kentucky. The prayer stirred up PLENTY of contraversy, but I can't help but wonder, how many people it touched. No one ever bothers to point out those results from something contraversial.

Heavenly Father,

We come before You today to ask Your Forgiveness and seek Your direction and guidance. We know Your Word says, ''Woe to those who call evil good,'' but that's exactly what we have done. We have lost our Spiritual equilibrium and inverted our values. We confess that; we have ridiculed the absolute truth of Your Word and called it pluralism; We have worshipped other gods and called it multiculturalism; We have endorsed perversion and called it an alternative lifestyle; We have exploited the poor and called it the lottery; We have neglected the needy and called it self preservation; We have rewarded laziness and called it welfare; We have killed our unborn and called it choice; We have shot abortionists and called it justifiable; We have neglected to discipline our children and called it building self-esteem; We have abused power and called it political savvy; We have coveted our neighbor's possessions and called it ambition; We have polluted the air with profanity and pornography and called it freedom of expression; We have ridiculed the time-honored values of our forefathers and called it enlightenment. Search us, O God, and know our hearts today; try us and see if there be some wicked way in us; cleanse us from every sin and set us free. Guide and bless these men and women who have been sent here by the people of this state and who have been ordained by You, to govern this great state of Kansas. Grant them your wisdom to rule and may their decisions direct us to the center of Your Will.

I ask in in the name of your Son, The Living Savior, Jesus Christ

I'm not asking you to AGREE with everything that was prayed that day. I am simply pointing out that sometimes, we have to stand for what we believe in. Pick a side of the fence and tell people what God lays on your heart... and then - you know what?! CONTINUE to stand for what you believe.

My motivational message to you today is simply this:
If there are things in your life that you don't agree with or you don't like - get rid of them. If you are living in a way that doesn't glorify YOUR God and your beliefs, leave those habits by the wayside. If there are things you aren't doing because your scared of who you might offend or your scared of falling on your face... trust in God and just do it. God will never let anything done in His Name go in vain. You never know who is watching and what a difference one decision in your life could make to someone else.
Stand for something.
I'm making changes today.

Friday, January 22, 2010

I promised this on Tuesday in my post its. Sorry I'm just now getting it out.
My good friend Hailey read the poem that I shared with everyone last week. She told me of something that she had written long ago and asked if she could share it with me.
I absolutely fell in love with the words.
So I asked if I could share it with you all..
You will be amazed at the power in the words...

Depending on your perspective,
If you have ever been hurt, let down, or had your heart broken,
OR
if you have met that person who saved you because they just knew exactly what to do and who to be....
either way you look at it, the words are wrenched with pain, yet yield a little glimmer of love and hope.
We have all been hurt, broken and scarred, but only a few ever get to see the real person left behind.
Our scars make us beautiful.

I hope you enjoy!
Have a great FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!
Tami G

He wears her scarsShe goes unnoticedher footsteps leave no printsshe could fade into the shadowsand there would be no questionsBut he would askShe lives brokenher wounds go unhealedand her pain is hiddenBut he seesShe appears cheerfulher smile is constantand the tears behind her eyes never fallBut he knowsShe is lonely but never aloneher words leave no meaningshe is scared of being rememberedand terrified of being forgottenBut he remembers..every look, laugh and tearand he wears her scars because she can't

Thursday, January 21, 2010

So for days now..... my BF has been asking me what's wrong. Nothing is wrong I keep telling him. And nothing really is...life is grand! Well.... I mean - I have a few issues, but don't we all. I'm trying not to focus on the negatives and just thank God every day for all the GREAT things I have in my life. And yet - he keeps asking me what's wrong. His description was simply that I seemed "blah." I don't get it. I thought I was fine!
BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTT
Guess what!!!!!!!! (he MIGHT have been a little bit right....)
I went to the gym tonight!!
YIPEE!!!!!
yes I did!
And for those of you who go to the gym - you will understand - I can't TELL you how much better I feel after going. I'm ME again and I didn't even realize I had lost me. (Remember this girl... she apparently went into some sort of deranged hybernation....YUCK!)
yeah yeah... all you naysayers can zip it!
I'm a firm believer that exercise and healthy living DO play a role in your attitude and how you feel about yourself.
SOOOOOOOo - anyway - I just wanted to share that!
If you don't go to the gym - what better time to start than right now.
This time of year wreaks HAVOC on my attitude! I'm living proof that excercise DOES have a positive influence in your life! :)
Now........go sign up somewhere and get started!

For all you Bowling Green followers - Get Toned Fitness is a GREAT place to start! David does personal training and coming from someone who has NEVER committed to a gym in my life.... (oh - I committed to PAYING - just never committed to GOING) trust me when I say, the results you get with him and the FUN you have when you are there - will keep you committed :)
David also has a fitness blog you should check out!

Here's my song for the day!
I'm alive...and well... and today that's good enough for me!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Tonight I was making tea and accidentally dropped some sugar on the stove. My stove is a glass top - so the sugar fell and rolled across the top and when it reached the burner I had just used, it then slowly turned from little grains of sugar to what appeared to be tiny little tear drops on the stove top.

And I thought - wow, how true to life is that. Things can be so sweet one second and in an instant, by one small circumstance, you can be brought to tears.
words spoken... action taken... diappointment revealed... high hopes let down....
one quick second and your sweet is suddenly tears.

I have really been struggling lately with keeping my sugar away from burners.
My life is sweet most days......and I'm not complaining by any means.... just need to learn to stay away from the fires!

EDIT:
I came back today to clarify - I am NOT sad...... my life is GREAT!!! I just have the tendency to have high expectations from life and not enough patience..... just pointing out that stupid little fires try to turn my sweet into tears... and I need to stay away from those things.
Put it in God's hands and trust....and stay SWEET ;-)

Monday, January 18, 2010

So - I had a REALLY rough night last night and I've been struggling with what to share today in order to be ANY KIND of "motivational" for anyone else.......
It is so amazing to me that the ones you LOVE the most are the ones who can HURT you the most... unintentionally even. My son and I had a really tough night last night. He said lots of things to me... not to be intentionally hurtful - but instead he was sharing his honesty in how he feels I have hurt him. Now granted - he's 14 and emotional and has a skewed perspective on things that have happened in our lives as he's been growing up. BUT - even knowing all of that - his words can cut me to the bone.
I don't let him know that. He has a right to express his feelings too. So I listen.... and try to explain the best I can. THEN - I go to my room, shut the door and slowly let my heart break.
This morning was tough... recovering from a night full of tears and regret and heartache.

But - as always......when you are at your worst - God will send answers and healing; you just have to have faith and the patience to wait for it.
I'm not saying all my problems are solved, but I am saying - when I am at my worst, God gives me music and answers and he sends people to help heal that hurt.. and I know that everything is going to be alright.

2 things I'm sharing today.

First - I got a message from Adam today that said this: EVERYDAY GODS GRACE, LOVE AND MERCY IS SUFFICIENT FOR US. IT IS MORE THAN ENOUGH. ITS ALL IN THE PERSPECTIVE IN WHICH WE CHOOSE TO LOOK AT THINGS, FEEL THINGS, AND APPROACH THINGS.
He's right - and when you are sad and nursing a broken heart - it's nice to know that someone can remind you that you have lost perspective! ;-)
So - I'm passing on his message to all of you... when you feel sad and defeated, take a minute to step back and change your perspective...

The other thing I'm sharing is a song I heard today.
I put in the lyrics also.
Today - I just want to thank God for ALL the love in my life. God's love, Adam, my son (though I have to look a little harder to see that one - ha), my family, my extended family, and all my friends.
I hope the song touches you too and reminds you of all the love around you.... with that - you can get through anything.

"Unstoppable"

So, so you made a lot of mistakesWalked down the road a little sideways Cracked a brick when you hit the wall Yeah, you've had a pocket full of regrets Pull you down faster than a sunset Hey, it happens to us all When the cold hard rain just won't quit And you can't see your way out of it

CHORUS You find your faith has been lost and shaken You take back what's been taken Get on your knees and dig down deep You can do what you think is impossible Keep on believing, don't give in It'll come and make you whole again It always will, it always does Love is unstoppable

Love, it weather any storm Bring you back to being born again oh, it's a helping hand when you need it most A lighthouse shinning on the coast That never goes dim When your heart is full of doubt And you think that there's no way out

CHORUS You find your faith has been lost and shaken You take back what's been taken Get on your knees and dig down deep You can do what you think is impossible Keep on believing, don't give in It'll come and make you whole again It always will, it always does Love is unstoppable

Like a river keeps on rolling Like the north wind blowing Don't it feel good knowing Yeah

CHORUS You find your faith has been lost and shaken You take back what's been taken Get on your knees and dig down deep You can do what you think is impossible Keep on believing, don't give in It'll come and make you whole again It always will, it always does Love is unstoppable Love is unstoppale

So you made a lot of mistakes Walked down the road a little sideways Love, love is unstoppable

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Do you ever have one of those days when one thing happens and you can just tell.......EVERYTHING is gonna get on your nerves that day?!!!
Really?? YES?!!!
well - today is gonna be one of those days for me. I can already tell. I have been outta the bed for approximately 2.5 hours and have had contact with......oh.......maybe 5 or 6 people so far......and I can feel it. Every time someone opens their mouth - I wanna quickly put my hand over it for them and tell them to just shut it. I mean really........ur just gonna annoy me.....so don't bother. Slowly walk away......{snarl}
it's gonna be one of those days!

I hate days like that. Usually I'm all happy sunshine and braggy about my life and how happy I am and how everything is going so great...blah blah blah......
NOT TODAY.
Today - I'm just gonna vent........yup - that's what I'm gonna do. (then I can be on my nerves too!) HA!

here's the short list of things on my nerves right now........

I'm SOOOOOOOOOO over winter!!! I'm tired of being cold, I'm tired of the freaking static, I'm tired of my hair sticking to my face! I'm TIRED of being pasty white!!!!!!! I crave the SUN!!!

I'm soooooooo over being a mom. I love my boy - don't get me wrong. But I'm so sick of being reminded EVERY day of all the things I have done wrong! being a parent SUX MOST some days and today is one of those days where I feel like I have done NOTHING right. We had a decent morning today, which after last night is like a miracle.... but after he got out at school this morning, I just wanted to cry for all the things I have done wrong.

I'm tired of being BROKE! I'm 33 years old for God's sake. At some point, don't you get to the point where you can PAY the bills when they are due out of the funds that you work your butt off for every day! NOPE - not me. I'm 33 years old and still feel like every day I'm robbing Peter to pay Paul and for WHAT?!!!!!!!! I still can't get ahead.

which leads me to......I'm SICK of NEEDING to work TWO jobs!! (Is 14 too young for a child to be forced to drop outta school and work full time......and pull some weight!???!!) huh? what??!! Anyway - I have recently decided to start working at home again (transcription) - as IF I had the time or energy to do ONE MORE THING!!!!! but when it's not an option - you just DO IT! bring it on.

I'm REEEEEEEEEEEALLLY missing the gym. I haven't been in a month and a half - PERIOD. and I can ALREADY tell a difference.... in my attitude, in the way I feel, in the way I look..... BUT - as much as I preach that you have to MAKE time for the gym...... you can't ADD hours into the day and with work, and basketball, and taking on concessions, and blah blah blah.....there just aren't enough hours in the day. So I lose the gym. (who can PAY for it anyway?!!)

I HATE having to wait to see if I get into the ultrasound program in August. I won't know until MAY! MAY people.......that's like 4 months from now right?!!! How the heck do you plan a life around the unknown??? ONE day at a time...... and IF I get in - then I have to worry MORE about money because the program is full time and what will I do about my job and health insurance and money and.... blah blah blah..... (I try not to get overwhelmed with that one...but I mean geeeeeeeeez.... sometimes, it's just too much uncertainty!)

I could continue......but the more I type - the CRAZIER you people will think I am! as if you don't already! So I'm shutting up and going back to my little solitary cave here in my office! I hope you all have a freaking FABULOUS day....... I'll just be hangin out here.......bangin my head on the wall. Yeah.... I'm an excellent driver...dad lets me drive slow on the driveway.... uh oh... five minutes to Wapner...

PEACE OUT!
Tami G

PS - Par for the course today - ANOTHER thing annoying the CRAP outta me......I can SEE this is posted - it's on my blog. And I can link it to facebook and twitter........BUT it's STILL not showing up in reader!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY........I'mma smack blogger.com in the MOUTH!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Well - 100 posts later, I still can't believe I have that much to say!!! ha ha
and I REALLY can't believe that you read my random rambling emotional mess!
But I'm SOOOOOO grateful for it and so unexpectedly blessed by the things I read from you all AND even MORESO by the comments left each and every post!
My gift from God is definitely my heart and the love and joy that fill it. Making someone else smile is what makes me smile - and I just want to take today to thank you for letting me know when I do :)
YOU make MY day :)

So today - as a special treat........for me... for you.... who knows?!?! I'm gonna share something that is a little more personal and intimate and even more emotional for me than usual (fancy that?!!)
A few weeks ago... on my post its - I mentioned a heart felt "poem" I had written the night before.
Well today - I'm going to share that.
I'm VERY protective of my writing... it's definitely how I express myself best and I rarely share it with anyone... but today (after sharing it with my bf...) - as a gift to you - I'm sharing ME. (hey hey hey... don't be ugly - it's SPECIAL - LOL)

here's the catch....well it's not REALLY a catch... just wishful hoping I guess...

As of today - I have 77 followers.... which I'm HUGELY thankful for...
BUT - as today is my 100th post - I would like to officially have 100 followers!
how cool is that?!!
So - I'm sharing me with you...will you share me with your friends!??
send them my way :)
I could use 100 smiles today :)

Enjoy the poem :)
its just one more way to say how lucky I am... how BLESSED I am ... and mostly how IN LOVE I am with not just Adam... but with every aspect of my unexpected life :)

Monday, January 11, 2010

Here's the thing... it's Monday and alot of people look at that as a bad thing. But I say - every day when you get outta bed - you make a CHOICE on how to look at your life.

Happiness does not come from seeking new landscapes,

but from having new eyes on the same life you've always been living.

In other words, you don't need some grand gesture or some big CHANGE in your life to be happy. Simply take the time to sit back and re-evaluate your life, look at it from a different perspective.

I could make a list of all the "crappy" things in my life.... I could go back and rehash every mistake I have ever made and cry about how it changed my life and made things so much harder - and beat myself up time and time again.

OR

I can wake up every day, thank God for all the blessings in my life and know that all those mistakes and crappy decisions and consequences made me who I am today. I learned from each and I'm a better person today for it. Thank God for bringing me through those dark and rainy roads and bringing me back to see His face again and His hand at work in every single part of my life.

I get comments all the time on my blog about being positive and happy and being inspirational....

Here's a little secret....it makes ME happy - to make OTHERS happy.
It's what I love. Knowing I can put a smile on your face, puts a smile on mine.
I hope everyone has a GREAT week and take the time to look at your life from a new perspective.
We are ALL blessed in different ways.....you just have to take the time to appreciate it!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

(and don't tell anyone - but I really love the ones that come with rules where you have to tell things about yourself that otherwise bloggies may never know... I know - I'm like 12 - and I love games! Plus I love getting to know you all!)

OOOOPS - before I could get this posted - I got this lovely award from LEE the HOT FLASH QUEEN!
and she is just that........THE queen!!!!!
go check her out!

here are 10 things I love..... (boyfriend friends and family are givens....)

I LOVE:

1. the smell of my boyfriend :)
2. the fact that my son and I can truly talk about anything... I hope he trusts me like that forever.
3. the beach...nothing compares to the smell, the sounds, the feeling... I LOVE it!
4. SUSHI - I could eat it every day.... LOVE me some sushi
5. expensive jeans that fit so good! (yes - I know... it's ridiculous but truly my one indulgence..)
6. I love ab day at the gym but moreso I love when my abs are soooo sore the next day that I can feel them when I stretch!
7. love getting together with my girls and catching up on life.
8. flowers...I LOVE flowers! I love planting them in the spring, I love decorating with them. I love smelling them... I love the colors and the uniqueness in each flower. (PS - I DONT have a green thumb!) ha
9. church on Sunday morning and knowing that God has a plan in everything he does.
10. music... though I may not KNOW much about it (Adam....) I love to listen .... all the time... always have music on... and I especially love LIVE music :)

I'm supposed to tag 10 people in this post for this award - but most everyone has already RECEIVED this award! Sooooo.... if you are one of those few who are reading this and have NOT received this award yet - consider it passed to you! I wanna know 10 things you love :)