Today is my father’s birthday. As I get older I now understand how important it was to him for us to just be there. We didn’t have to bring gifts of cake but our presence was what he wanted. It’s what I now want with the kids getting older and having their own lives and things to do. I’m learning to let a lot go and understand that they have to grow even if it means away from me. Tonight I thought we would all go out to dinner for my dad’s birthday and then over the weekend, I’ll work on finding a Scottish or Swedish dessert recipe to take place of his birthday cake, or even better a Scottish cake. If any of my readers have a recipe of Scottish or Swedish origins to share it would be greatly appreciated.

I thought I would try my hand at poetry again but this time kind of honoring my father and my quest to understand what he unknowingly passed down to me.

I Lost Something

I lost something I’ve never known.
Obsolete and unsure,
without the guidance from a living cornerstone.
Often wondering if I belong or even where,
Identifying with no one and solitaire.

I lost something I’ve never known.
Is it there and can it be shown?
Do I ask to learn?
Is this my concern?

I lost something I’ve never known
but promise an oath to learn of seeds sown.
How do I prepare?
I’ll start with some cookware.

12 thoughts on “Happy Birthday Daddy”

It is but one thing I’ve learned is that the older I get the more painful it can be. The longer we know and individual and the older I get myself it hurts just a little more. I also have a better understanding that it’s a part of life and I’m more capable of dealing with the loss.

I know! It’s truly delicious too. I love it and it looks so pretty in glass dishes or wine glasses. The tosca cake is unbelievably good too. I loved it and Mazarin for my fika! Fika is a Swedish coffee and cake with friends custom that I love!