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Friday, September 23, 2011

I Need to Pump the Brakes On Life

Has anyone seen my sanity? Or my blood pressure levels? It seems that I have let the busyness of our life totally take over and leave me grasping for solid ground lately. So, I feel like this requires a bit of a brain dump from me today, because I've already "dumped" all of this on B too many times this week. Please bear with me!

Why aren't there 28 hours in each day? I feel like this would leave so much more time for things like sleeping, and checking things off of my to-do list.

The whole house buying process is super stressful, and has given me a bunch of anxiety recently. I have heard so many stories about things going wrong so close to settlement for other people, that I almost haven't allowed myself to be excited about our first real home.

Due to our impending purchase, I have been on strict money lock down this month, and I think I'm developing a "can't have it, now I want it more" complex. I am DYING for some new fall threads. Jeans? Tops? Boots? Oh well, a place to live is more important, right?!

We had to postpone our anniversary trip to prepare for the above mentioned impending purchase, and I know it was the right decision, but I am pretty bummed about it. Especially with all of the stress that I've been under lately, this vacation would have come at the perfect time!

We had to take Riley into the emergency vet last night after she had another bout of seriously upset stomach. I like to consider myself a rational person, but my "Momma Bear" instincts come out when I know she is really sick. Thank God B is the calm one, because I am afraid to see what I'll be like when we have actual human children. Luckily, after about two hours of non-stop sickness, an injection of fluids and some anti-nausea meds, Riley is totally on the mend and sleeping the day away.

Are you tired of hearing me complain yet? I'm sorry for the droning on on a Friday, but I had had to get all of these thoughts out somehow. I was listening to the radio yesterday, and heard a woman talk about a process she uses when the stress of life starts getting to her. She simply writes down all of the things that are bothering her on a napkin or piece of toilet paper, crumples it up and flushes it!! Now, doesn't that sound relieving?! I might be trying that this weekend.

It's times like these that I try and make myself focus on all of the positives, because the truth is, I am one lucky lady. A wonderful man by my side, a healthy and loving family, the anticipation of a new home and the best friends a girl could ask for! God has given me so much, and I am working on praising him for that, rather than nit-picking at all of the things that are "wrong" at the moment. This is a challenge for me, but I'm still a work in progress!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend! I'll be back next week with some more positive posts, promise!!

Wife to my dream guy. Expecting our first baby in July. Business owner, blogger, DIYer, wanna-be kitchen goddess. guilty of buying one too many F21 tops and watching a few too many hours of reality television. obsessively neat and organized. lover of God, crafting, shopping and the New York Jets. Thankful every day for this life.