I didn't realize how bad it had gotten until last Monday morning. After promising my wife I wouldn't drink anymore I guilted her into picking me up a fifth of bourbon. Even told her I didn't need the 1.75L bottle to make it appear like I was thinking responsibly about it. Alcoholics tend to be able to manipulate people from what I understand. Monday morning I felt more conviction about stopping than I have maybe ever before. My wife and I are okay. She is unaware of the thread I created or the issues I brought up. I don't intend to bring it up. I was upset that night and went too far in my comments.

If it's okay I'd rather not discuss the details of that night. I just want to get back to posting like normal.

“Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it's time to pause and reflect.”

Glad to hear it. If you have been an alcoholic, it's best to just stay away from the stuff altogether. Not trying to preach at you, that's just what I have observed from alcoholics. Good luck, let us know how things are going from time to time.

That's a big step dude.
And while being addicted to smoking isn't exactly the same thing I can for sure understand the odd realization of how bad it is once you become aware it might be a problem and not just something you do.

I remember one of the first times I quit smoking and how I convinced myself it was ok to just have one smoke because things were really stressful. Then later on... Another... And then on my way home... A pack. This went on for years.

I remember thinking that by telling people I was quitting it might pressure me into going through with it but all it did was make me embarrassed when I failed. Then after a while it became sort of a joke. Oh I'm gonna try quitting again, ha ha might make it a month this time hardy har. Only inside I was sort of ashamed of myself. My willpower was in this instance non existent.

Oh well eventually I got my shit together and now I only want to smoke about once or twice a week. Three years later....I think anyways.

Part of the problem for me that you might face is I wasn't just addicted to smoking, and I didn't just feel miserable, no I actually enjoy the act of smoking. It all boiled down to the fact that I didn't really want to quit but I knew I should. Eventually I wanted to quit as well so it worked.

"I think of myself as an intelligent, sensitive human being with the soul of a clown which always forces me to blow it at the most important moments." -Jim Morrison

(24-12-2012 12:13 AM)lucradis Wrote: That's a big step dude.
And while being addicted to smoking isn't exactly the same thing I can for sure understand the odd realization of how bad it is once you become aware it might be a problem and not just something you do.

I remember one of the first times I quit smoking and how I convinced myself it was ok to just have one smoke because things were really stressful. Then later on... Another... And then on my way home... A pack. This went on for years.

I remember thinking that by telling people I was quitting it might pressure me into going through with it but all it did was make me embarrassed when I failed. Then after a while it became sort of a joke. Oh I'm gonna try quitting again, ha ha might make it a month this time hardy har. Only inside I was sort of ashamed of myself. My willpower was in this instance non existent.

Oh well eventually I got my shit together and now I only want to smoke about once or twice a week. Three years later....I think anyways.

Part of the problem for me that you might face is I wasn't just addicted to smoking, and I didn't just feel miserable, no I actually enjoy the act of smoking. It all boiled down to the fact that I didn't really want to quit but I knew I should. Eventually I wanted to quit as well so it worked.

I can relate to everything you posted. I did manage to quit smoking completely back in July though.

“Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it's time to pause and reflect.”