I've been bulimic and anarexic for about a year and a half now.
It all started at my year 10 formal, afterwards i was looking at my photos and just hated what i saw. I'm quiet, insecure and shy enough as it is but now I just feel so alone.
Recently whilst...

recover but i will most likely stop once i reach my goal weight. i am bulimic, at longest a week goes by before i purge, whether its because i over ate or there is drama or stress its just my way of dealing with things. i dont see it as a disease more like a coping mechanism..

that I've been struggling with my bulimia. It's helped me lose fifty pounds so far, and while I'm technically only a couple pounds above underweight, I still feel like I need to lose more. I know what the cycle of binging/purging does to me, both mentally and physically, but I...

for at least 2 years. And I can't say that anything's changed, at least not w/ regards to this issue. I'm still purging frequently. My eating is still disordered. It might be worse now as my weight has fluctuated more. Some days I feel so heavy and fat (although I know...

So I blurt out to my husband......."I have not kept any food down in the last 3 months"!!!! Wrong thing to do... now I feel like I am in a prison in my own miond and body.. it is so frustrating.... I just need so alone time in the Wash Room every once in awhile...

I am, like many others, a worshiper of the porcelain goddess. My offerings are not money, or any other materialistic form of devotion. Simply semi digested food and pleas for a slimmer waist. I began in '06 as a preventative measure so I wouldn't become large like the women in my...

I know I am afraid of failing and not being enough for those around me. Or not reaching my own expectations. I don't want to lower my expectations because its important to strive for the best of everything. I don't think my expectations are any more than others anyway. I don't...

and my weight was like a yoyo. 2 years ago I was 145 pounds at 5'3 and now I'm 105-110 so I found if I decrease my binges, keep up with purging and eat better then I lose weight. I've also been a vegetarian for 2 years and honestly bulimia doesn't make me sad anymore. It's...

another baby. I have not thrown up in 2 days and was feeling really fat and bloated. I asked the stupid question "will u still love me if I get fat?"
He said "no!"
What the ****???? I know it was a stupid question but u know I have a problem.... Y would u say that?!?? Now I'm...

I remember the night my life changed forever. I was a junior in high school and I looked in the mirror, at my lil love handles (I wasn't quite over-weight, just in the higher-healthy range) and I felt disgusted. I was much thinner when I was a freshman and I hated not fitting...

My mum has been fighting cancer for quite some time now and has been given the diagnosis of being terminally ill. I don't know the prognosis yet, but I have a feeling that she does. When I started university in 2010 I was away from her for the first time. When I was away she...

when I'm happy and punish myself when I'm not. If I'm not happy I will shove food in my face with a "that's what u get" feeling as I swallow the food I don't even want. When does food become such an emotional thing? I have two young girls and I'm terrified they will develop the...

and off with bulimia for 5 years plus. I don't know if it's bulimia or a purging disorder. I have been big my whole life. It's always been said "you're pretty for a big girl". I hate being me. I need to control everything in my body and hate when something is in my stomach or...

when I was in sixth grade. It was meatloaf and I was so proud of myself. I had tried to starve myself but I never made it past a day. It took me a few months to make myself really puke, the meatloaf incident was nothing more than a bite. My first real, powerful purge was a later...

since my first post about my struggle with bulimia. I am now down to 111 lb at 5'3 and am still very unsatisfied. Why is it I felt like I was thinner when I was actually eating food everyday and keeping it down? anyways, I broke and ate 2 sandwiches today with chips (followed by...

up afterwards. I'm addicted to looking at how flat my stomach is after, I've struggled with this for years. I'll stop for a while and then it takes over my life again. I hate it, but I love what it's doing to me...

after i had my oldest son. me and my ex was having issues(he had a **** addiction and loooved women,just not me) i thought he was gonna be the one to save me from any hurt i ever had.i chose him to be in my life but he failed me making me feel like i didnt measure up to the...

and have been using the binge/purge method to lose weight. I have been doing this for over one month now and even though I told myself it would only be for a week, over 7 have passed and i feel the control slipping through my fingers. Around a year ago I stopped all my sports...

And I found myself lying and sneaking around. I don't think I want to get better yet. Not until I'm beautiful. I admit, I thrive on attention. I love sexual harassment, to an extent, I love getting sized up and seeing that gleam in a man's eye that says "you're mine tonight...

Ok so im now 18 nd ive had bulimia since i was 16 . When i first started purging i was doing it alot like 7 times a day i lit about 20 pounds only nd then i started doing meth wich by the way is not a good drug at all it messed with my brain but once i started doing meth i ddnt...

I am 22 years old, in my 4th year of medical school (European program - 6 years), and I have been bulimic since I was 16. I have no sign of recovery, and currently am not actively trying to recover. I would love to stop, but I'm too scared of gaining weight. Somehow I believe my...

I became bulimic after I had my son at 18 and had put on weight from the pregnancy. I don't want to stop because I feel like my looks are all i have, I don't think I'm very smart, I have had little education after high school and don't have a career, my partners have only wanted...

I just started this, well not just started. I have been doing it for a few months now. I used to more frequently, but I stopped. I don't know why I do it, I think my family, mostly my sister are starting to suspect it. I don't want to be thinner, well I do, but I don't do it to...

since september 2014 and so far It has only done little to help. my husband is so supportive but I know it freaks him out. not only am I battling bulimia. I am a cutter and I have horrible anxiety and panic disorder. I wasnt ready for such a long time. it is hard to get better...

My mother and I are the same height. She is about 30 lbs lighter than me. That's how it started. For years I enured the torture of my brother's calling me fat and my mom telling me i dont need as much food as my brother's because they are growing BOYS. I got older. We would all...

Daddy issues for one( when you grow up with an unaffection dad it goes to your head, at least it did for me)
My abusive sister( being told your disgusting your whole life kinda ***** with your self esteem)
And some even say it comes down to the dolls I played with as a child...