A fear of ever opening up to someone, worse then ever talking to someone your intrested in, a geneal fear having your heart broken again and feeling all the pain it caused before. The fear that drives you to deny yourself of what you need most, companionship, seeing other couples male, female, both, or mixed etc. holding hands, hugging and kissing makes me long to have someone of your own. Yes I have always wanted this in my life again but to be so close to a woman still scares the heck out of me, to a point I just start getting the shakes. I can be very sweet to the right woman if I find one again to spend time with in my life. I have no problem talking to a woman online, feel free to say hi, wink, mail, whatever...