i havent updated in a long time so i stole this from amanda who stole it from travis who stole it from marley a long time ago

PAST1 First grade teacher's name: Ms. Frapeer2 Last word you said: "again"3 Last song you sang: "stricken"4 Last person you hugged: Grant5 Last time you had a bf/gf?: now6 Last time you said I don't remember: today

PRESENT9 What color socks are you wearing: black10 What's under you bed right now?: a lot of junk11 What time did you wake up today: 6:15 am12 Current taste: chocolate13 Current hair: brown15 Current annoyance: self pitty16 Current longing: to be truely happy with who i am17 Current desktop background: black with pink and green spots and then it says mmm chicken and then there is a frozen chicken18 Current worry: i am worried about amanda and rhonda19 Current hate: i hate that i care too much20 Current favorite article of clothing: my black bra21 Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: Smile22 Last CD that you listened to: "ten thousand fists" disturbed23 Favorite place to be: in grants arms24 Least favorite place: funeral home25 Time you wake up in the morning?: depending on the day anytime between 6 and 1227 Favorite color: orange28 Do you believe in an afterlife: yes 30 Current favorite word/saying: 31 Favorite book: are you my mother32 Favorite season: Fall33 One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: i cant think of anyone

FUTURE35 Where do you want to go for college?: U of M Flint36 What is your career going to be like: i am not sure anymore37 How many kids do you want: um...2

HAVE YOU EVER..39 Said "I love you" and meant it: Yes40 Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird.etc: Yes41 Been to New York: No42 Been to Florida: Yes43 Been to California: No44: Been to Hawaii: No45 Been to Mexico: no46 Been to China: No48 Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: not really crazy but a dream that has happened the next day52 Do you have a crush on someone: my boyfriend53 What book are you reading now?: currently i am not reading one54 Worrst feeling in the world: lonely55 What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning: what time is it56 How many rings before you answer: 259 Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no64 Do you do drugs?: no65 Do you drink: i have67 What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: brilliant brunette68 What are you most scared of: losing the people that i love69 What clothes do you sleep in?: tshirt/tank top and boxers/pj pants70 Who is the last person that called you: jenni or grant71 Where do you want to get married: in a church72 If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: i wouldnt change the outside of me i would change some things in the inside73 Who do you hate: people that think that they are better than others74 Been In Love: yes75 Are you timely or always late: i am pretty timely76 Do you have a job: no77 Do you like being around people?: for the most part78 Best feeling in the world?: happiness79 Are you for world peace: yes80 Are you a health freak: no81 Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after?: um no type....i like who i like82 Like someone you can't have?: nope, i have him83 Are you lonely right now: kind of i am home alone84 Ever afraid you'll never get married: no85 Do you want to get married: yes86 Do you want kids?: yes

ok so if you want to see my senior pics this is what you have to do...

go to brassshutter.com and at the lower right there is a link that says client images...and you click that then in session ID in all lower case with no spaces type perkins20791....THEN...they don't start till the bottom of the 5th page and the first few things that is shows are just things that you can get framed so they don't really matter.....and the pics that i am getting are 19(and that is also what i am using for yearbook), 85, 4(not to pass out in a wallet but to give to my family), 99, 62, 21, 29, 100, and 34.........my parents also ordered 7,9,and 8 to go in a fame together

when i think about it there i are some friends that i can live with the fact of knowing that i prob will lose touch of and there are other friends that i know i want them to be in my life forever because they make me happy and such......just a thought i had

1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.3. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.5. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.8. Put this in your journal.

so today was not as fun as i thought it would be. i was really excited this morning for a few reasons 1) i was excused from my classes all day to decorate for honors night 2) i was getting pizza for lunch 3) i was getting to see grant(along with my other friends) 4) I was finally getting my teeth! for the first time since first grade i was gonna have a smile with all my teeth and no metal.the decorating was fun but not as fun as i thought it was gonna be, the pizza was good but it gave me a belly ache, and i didn't really get to see grant i only got to see him for about 5min all this was ok but my day really started to suck when i found out that my stupid anatomy group didn't do very much on our cat and they messed parts of it up, it really makes me mad, i do almost all the work and i try really hard on it and they don't do anything and when i am gone they just f'^ the whole thing and then they get mad at me for me not being there like its my fault that they are dumb.(i sound kinda harsh but i am in a bad mood and i don't care) then in 6th hour i started to get a migraine. I was trying really hard to get past it and not let it get me down because i was so excited to get my teeth. So i went home and cleaned up my room a little more talked to grant on the phone and then got ready to go to the dentist and get my teeth. When i got there they called me in and gave me my flipper(its the little thing that is on my teeth to keep them in). They put it in and it felt a little strange at first but it was ok and then the dentist people keep saying the shade is a little lighter, and we(me and my mom) kept saying "yea we got it that way cause she is whitening her teeth" well the shade isn't just a little lighter it is a lot lighter, the shade guides that they have at the dentist office are off so the flipper is way whiter than my ugly yellow teeth. I have always hated my smile because i either had metal in it or i didn't have all my teeth i was so excited to finally have a pretty smile and it is just as ugly as ever. and it makes me feel even worse because everytime i look in the mirror i see how yellow my teeth are. *sigh* i shouldn't even be complainin i am so lucky to have the life i have and not everything can be prefect but after 11 years of waiting and it still not working it starts to get disappointing. I have been a good sport through all this time of ugly teeth and this time it just pushed me over the edge, idk maybe i am just being a baby.another thing that has been really getting to me lately and a lot today( i think it is really getting to me today because i am not very happy) is my grandma. It is really starting to hit me that she is gone. I am really starting to miss her. a lot. almost everyday i find myself almost breaking down into tears missing her. I feel like i have been completely alone through the whole thing with my grandma and it has had me really sad 2. It is partly my fault because i don't let people know that i need them i just walk around acting like everything is normal hoping that they will notice and then if they do i tell them that i am fine and i don't need the help even though i do and all i want is for someone to just hug me and let me cry to them. idk i have some thinking and reading to do, i found that it is kind of helping me to read my grandmas journals. sometimes it makes me even more sad but sometimes it makes me happy to remember her.

so my spring break started out kinda ruff, i was supposed to go shoppin on thursday with my sister and then grant was coming over on friday but my sister decided at the last minute that we were gonna go shopping on friday so i was kinda mad because i had been waiting all week to go shopping with her and then i had been waiting all week to spend friday with grant. So i changed all my plans to go shopping on friday and have grant come over on saturday. When my sister got home on friday she had changed her mind again....this time i wasn't mad i was pissed. So we went on Saturday and we took to long so grant couldn't come over. That made me sad. After i had diner and such on saturday i had to go upstairs and clean my room so my mom could work her easter magic. I got to put my sisters laptop in my room and talk to people while i cleaned. I was really excited to go to church on sunday with amanda and my mom and i was really excited because my mom said that grant could come over. So i wake up on Sunday and my mom is on the phone with my aunt and as i am getting ready for church i listen to what is being said. I figured out that my great grandma wasn't doing very good and when my mom got off the phone she confirmed it. So we do our easter thing and open our baskets and find all the eggs and then me and my mom (and amanda) went to church. When we got home you lounged around for a little bit and throughout that time my mom was on and off the phone with family about my grandma. So we got ready and headed down to see her. I didn't realize how bad she actually was. When i walked in my stomach and heart dropped and my eyes started to water. It took everything i had not to just start crying my eyes out. My grandma was just laying there. She couldn't talk, or eat, she didn't know who anybody was, and she could barely wake up and open her eyes. Most of the visit she was sleeping...it was horrible it was like she was already gone. When we got home grant came over and we had an awesome time. It was a great pick-me-up. On Monday i started to clean out my room.....it was already clean but i had to clean it out and get rid of all my crap. I cleaned all day. Tuesday morning i woke up and came downstairs and me and my mom were sitting on the top of the steps talking about me finishing my room. Then the phone rang, my mom answered it. I knew in my gut what the call was. I never took my eyes off my mom. She knew too. She hung up the phone and burst into tears as she said "grandma aggie just died" I hugged her for a min as we cried and then she went upstairs to tell my sister. I spent the rest of yesterday cleaning my room and grieving. My grandparents stopped by for a little bit on there way home, it was nice to see them even if it wasn't under the best circumstances. Amanda talked to me a few times yesterday and it really cheered me up. She is the best friend a girl could have. And jenni was such a sweet heart she stopped by at like...idk late and gave me the cutest flowers. It was really nice. Then i got really tired and i went 2 bed. Even though my spring break has kinda sucked i am actually happy. I have typed a lot and i haven't eaten anything yet so i am gonna go eat...sorry if you got bored ready. Oh and sorry if there is a bunch of mistakes. Have a good rest of break.

Today was an ok day. I had a lot of work and that sucked and i was upset about something and that sucked too but i got over it. What kinda sucked but kinda didn't was finding out what exactly is wrong with my uncle. I guess he has a giant bleb(pocket of air)on one of his lungs and a large one on the other and at the moment he is using only 30% of his lungs but he can get it fixed in surgery. If he doesn't stop smoking tho it will kill him...duh....he says he has stopped but i am not sure that i believe him because he is a compulsive lier. Another thing that sucked today is i found out that my great grandma is in the hospital. I guess when my uncle(a different one) saw her this morning she was doing pretty good but then when he went back to see her this evening she was really bad. She had had a seizer during the day and my mom says that she thinks it might be really bad and she is goin to see her tomorrow when she is done working. Other than those sucky things my day has been ok and i am trying to not let things get me down and upset because i have a lot of other things to be happy about. Right now all i can really do is pray so that is what i am going to do. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day-Cassi

...sssooooo.......i haven't updated in a long time, and i am sure that there is a lot of stuff that i could say but i can't think of anything at the moment except for the same stuff as always...meaning...i'm still stress because i still take on to much stuff and never have time to do any of the stuff that i take on.....i think that i need a nice bubble bath.....and a sub....but not in my bath...before and after my bath......a snow day would be nice 2.....but i don't see that happening......i want some cheesecake....no maybe not...but chicken nuggets sound good....i wish i was at my cabin cause i want to go fishing....i wish it was warm so it would be fun to fish........this summer i am definatly gonna fish a lot....i hope.....i am really tired and i have a lot of stuff to do but i don't want to do it so i am just typing every thought that comes into my head......i don't have anything else right now.....