He kept asking me to leave him and move, he wanted me to break up with him first and he did not want to end it first. He told me he can take the blame even if I leave him first. Because, we don’t have a future together. He is not ready to think of even giving it a try, instead he wants me to accept the reality and move on.

He says we both knew it right from day 0 when we started this relationship. He stopping coming near me even via texts, he is now ready to turn back and leave. I’m trying so much to go closer to him but today he told me “Move away”.

I feel so heart broken. I asked him if he doesn’t expect my love anymore and if the only thing he wants from me is moving away. He said “I want you to move on and be happy”. Oh god, I’m so in love with him and he knows that, how can he say that to me everytime I say I love him. He told I’m spoiling his peace with my questions.

I told him he gave me a reason to live and now he gave me a reason not to live.

I told him to be peaceful, and I’m sorry for loving him so much. I deleted my fb apps, whatsap, everything. Let him be peaceful, he wants me to go away and that is what will make him feel satisfied, not my love.

When he is no more expecting love from me, not trying to be lovely to me, and when all he wants me to end it first, what should I do with all this love. I wish I could die now. I want to die so much but I don’t have any option right now. Shitt.

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He doesn’t say he loves me. But he said his answer to my question, “Do you still love me?” remains unchanged and it is constant. i.e, yes. He wants me to move away only because I’m suffering in depression over the reason that there is no future with him and that I will have to miss him soon.
His last nite text said “Our destiny is known to both you and me, when you know the reality why are you trying to undo it?”.
I can’t seem to get angry or upset, instead I just miss him so badly that I want to die:(