I am a single mother of 4 wonderful children. I am recently divorced and had to move back in with my father. I get so mad at my ex and it just ruins every part of my life. I want to just get over it and what he has done to me but it seems like it has ruined so...

What the phuck is wrong with me? Why do I feel like this? Why do I keep getting more and more upset about nothing?
WHY IS IT THAT EVERYTHING I DO IS WRONG AND BAD AND HORRIBLE?
I'm just so sick of being me. I'm sick of being the bad person. I'm sick of making everyone feel bad...

I get so angry with myself sometimes when I allow negative people to affect or bother me. I wish I could just be transparent to these types of people and allow their attitude to just wash over me instead of letting it affect me and get to me.

~ When the night terrors won't let go. When the fear takes over & I get so tired of all the responsiblity. When all I want to do is say screw it & leave everything & everyone behind. When I dream for something magical to come along & fix it all...

Even though he didn't want me and didn't truly care how i felt i let him sleep with me. I let him touch my body and that is not something i let happen easily, but i trust him and i always had. The difference was ... this time he was using my body as his toy, to get himself off. I...