The Difference Between Me And Them Is....The difference between me and them is...I DONT SHOW MY SHIT ONLINE...dont ask me to show myshit in a pic or on cam... it wont happen..i personally am shocked at all the chics on Lc and men equally that show there shit online...and asking me to add u to msn or yahoo doesnt warrant me showin my shit online just because i added you...i have alil more respect for myself than that..and if you dont like it well too bad....i dont change for anyone...not to mention the fact im in a relationship and i sure as hell wouldnt want my bf to be showing his shit for the world to see online...even if i was single i still wouldnt show my shit on here lol....if you wanna show your shit on here go ahead do so its your choice and my choice is to NOT show my shit!!!!lol...so ya thats what im saying..I DONT SHOW MY SHIT.
MySt

Think Before You SpeakThink before you speak...
Here are six reasons why you should think before you speak -
the last one is great!
Have you ever spoken and wished that you could
immediately take the words back...
or that you could crawl into a hole?
Here are the Testimonials of a few people who did....
FIRST TESTIMONY:
I walked into a hair salon with my husband and three kids in tow
and asked loudly,
"How much do you charge for a shampoo and a blow job?"
I turned around and walked back out and never went back
My husband didn't say a word...
he knew better.
SECOND TESTIMONY:
I was at the golf store comparing different kinds of golf balls.
I was unhappy with the women's type I had been using.
After browsing for several minutes,
I was approached by one of the good-looking gentlemen
who works at the store. He asked if he could help me.
Without thinking, I looked at him and said,
"I think I like playing with men's balls."
THIRD TESTIMONY:
My sister and I were

A Poem I Got From A FriendDaddy's Poem
Her hair was up in a pony tail,
her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school,
and she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her,
that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
if she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid;
she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried,
for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
she tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school
eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees
a dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back,
for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently,
anxious in their seats.
One by one the teacher called
a student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
as seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
a man who

Everybody Do The Flintstone Flop!!!! Woot!!!"Cow belly, pot of beans
tie a rope around your jeans
tell your mama not to wait
you ain't getting home till late
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
we're gonna Twitch!
There's a town I know where the hipsters go called Bedrock
Twitch! Twitch!
And when you get an itch then you do the Twitch in Bedrock
Twitch! Twitch!
it's a twitchin' town so I'll see you down in Bedrock
Twitch! Twitch!
Well, we'll twitch around the clock tonight in Bedrock
Twitch! Twitch!
And Rock is gonna roll with all his might in Bedrock
Twitch! Twitch!
It's a twitchin town, so I'll see ya down in Bedrock
Twitch! Twitch!
Yeah the twitchin's fine, have yourself a time in Bedrock
Twitch! Twitch!"
Bwaaaahahahahahahahaha!!!!!

Hat Do All Of The Things In A Group Have In Common?What is the one thing shared by all three items in the same group?
A.)a cow
a shoe
a baby
B.)a doctor's office
a post office
music
C.)a zipper
a shark
a comb
D.)restaurant goer
a bird
the Senate
E.)a potato
a hurricane
a target
F.)a river
a person
a cave
Shout out to me or private message me if ya know the answers.

Free Porn Pics.well this site has it all. and i mean it. sometime ago i joined this site and posted pics of myself. maybe you can find them? well here is the link to the newest pics of the day.
Clicky click for free porn =)
yeah i know most of u wont click it. well i like porn. and i like free porn the most lol. well, give it a shot, dont like it? then dont go back.

A Few Funnies..............repostWHACK!!!
There was this little guy sitting in a bar, drinking his beer, minding his own business when all of a sudden this great big dude comes in and -- WHACK!! -- knocks him off the bar stool and onto the floor. The big dude says, "That was a karate chop from Korea."
The little guy thinks "GEEZ," but he gets back up on the stool and starts drinking again when all of a sudden -- WHACK!! -- the big dude knocks him down AGAIN and says, "That was a judo chop from Japan."
So the little guy has had enough of this... He gets up, brushes himself off and quietly leaves. The little guy is gone for an hour or so when he returned. Without saying a word, he walks up behind the big dude and -- WHAM!!!" -- knocks the big dude off his stool, knocking him out cold!!! The little guy looks at the bartender and says, "When he gets up, tell him that's a crowbar from Sears.
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REDNECK VASECTOMY
A Kentucky couple, both bonifide rednecks, had 9 children.
They went

Pink FleshSatin pink flesh upon my tongue, the soft sensual smell, the sweet juices dripping down my chin. I wrap my lips around the moist substance and suck the juices into my mouth. I lick a drip that travels down my finger in a slow tantalizing trail to the tip. Again I partake of the sweetness letting the juices trickle down my chin. Sucking, licking, feeling the heavenly texture in my mouth, tasting the luscious sweetness, smelling the heady aroma. I feel a bit dazed with the pleasure invading my sences. I dive in again and again, each time climbing a bit higher in my ascent toward heaven. The satiny feel of my tongue licking the sweet nectar from my fingers hightens the pleasures. My teeth nibble lightly and more juice comes rushing to my taste buds. I eagerly lap them up and nibble more. I close my eyes and just feel. The gentle sweet smell, the satiny texture on my fingers and in my mouth, I hear the sigh on my lips and taste the sweet luscious flavor. I am fullfilled in a way only this

New DrinkA woman and her boyfriend are out having a few drinks. While they're sitting there having a good time together she starts talking about this
really great new drink.
The more she talks about it,the more excited she gets,and starts trying to talk her boyfriend into having one. After a while he gives in and
lets her order the drink for him.
The bartender brings the drink and puts the following on the bar --
A saltshaker, a shot of Baileys, and a shot of lime juice.
The boyfriend looks at the items quizzically and the woman explains.
"First you put a bit of the salt on your tongue, next you drink the shot of Baileys and hold it in your mouth, and finally you drink the lime juice."
So, the boyfriend, trying to go along and please her, goes for it.
He puts the salt on his tongue -- salty but OK.
He drinks the shot of Baileys - smooth, rich, cool, very pleasant. He thinks - this is OK.
Finally he picks up the lime juice and drinks it.
.... In one second

Neat Test!!! Please Take It!!At the end of this message, you are asked a question.
Answer it immediately. Don't stop and think about it.
Just say the first thing that pops into your mind.
This is a fun "test"... AND kind of spooky at the same time! Give
it a try, then e-mail it around and you'll see how many people you know
fall into the same percentage as you. Be sure to put in the subject line if
you are among the 98% or the 2%. You'll understand what that means after
you finish taking the test.
Now. Just follow the instructions as quickly as possible.
Do not go to the next calculation before you have finished the
previous one..
You do not ever need to write or remember the answers, just do it
jusing your mind.
You'll be surprised.
Start:
How much is:
15 + 6
3 + 56
89 + 2
12 + 53

It's Christmas To Me!!!!!YOU CAN'T STEAL
MY CHRISTMAS
Poem by Sharon Steege
I don't know who they are
Saying I can't greet the crowd
The way that I want to
Can't say CHRISTMAS out loud.
I walk into a business place
See things that I'd rather not see
But dare I not say CHRISTMAS
And ask for a "holiday" tree.
What happened to freedom of speech
And living in the land of the free
How can they take my CHRISTMAS money
But can't say MERRY CHRISTMAS to me.
Men and women have given their lives
So we could still go free
I wonder how they would feel
At saying "HOLIDAY" TREE.
Come on AMERICA let's wake up
Don't let our freedom escape
If they get by with doing this
What else will they take.
This is starting to get out of hand,
And I've begun to keep track
Well I've just about had enough
I'M TAKING CHRISTMAS BACK.
So MERRY CHRISTMAS AMERICA
I hope this gets all over the net
If we all stand united and take freedom back
'Twill be our best CHRISTMAS YET!

For Our SoldiersChristmas Poem
Twas the night before Christmas
He lived all alone
in a one bedroom house made of
plaster and stone.
I had come down the chimney
with presents to give,
and to see just who
in this home did live.
I looked all about,
a strange sight I did see,
no tinsel, no presents,
not even a tree.
No stocking by mantle,
just boots filled with sand,
on the wall hung pictures
of far distant lands.
With medals and badges,
awards of all kinds,
a sober thought
came through my mind.
For this house was different,
it was dark and dreary,
I found the home of a soldier,
once I could see clearly.
The soldier lay sleeping,
silent, alone,
curled up on the floor
in this one bedroom home.
The face was so gentle,
the room is such disorder,
not how I pictured
a United States soldier.
Was this the hero
of whom I 'd just read?
Curled up on a poncho,
the floor for a bed?
I realized the families
that I saw this n

What's A Name MeanEILEEN
E
is for
Extraordinary
I
is for
Inspirational
L
is for
Luscious
E
is for
Expressive
E
is for
Entertaining
N
is for
Natural
What Does Your Name Mean?
SWEET
S
is for
Sensational
W
is for
Wicked
E
is for
Expressive
E
is for
Emotional

I Don't KnowI don't know how common this is, but for me, the main problem is that I feel
disconnected from everyone and everything.
I have a few people out there who I care about, or who care about me, but no real
intimacy with anyone. Worse yet, this is a long term pattern with me, it's been going on
for enough years yet that it's quite possible I will be alone for the rest of my life.
This totally sucks.
I would like to have friends I could be truly close to, someone that I could be in love
with, but I'm psychologically fucked up enough that I don't know how to make this
happen.
I like to think that if I had love and intimacy in my life, life wouldn't suck nearly as much.
And hell, I think I've reached the point where I'm jealous of cult members. Those poor
deluded fuckers who shave their heads and dance around in public begging for
donations, or the heaven's gate suicide cult, at least they have a sense of purpose, of
belonging. They must have a sense of devotion for thei

The Buffalo Theory"Well you see, Norm, it's like this... A herd of buffalo can only move as fast as the slowest buffalo and when the herd is hunted, it is the slowest and weakest ones at the back that are killed first. This natural selection is good for the herd as a whole, because the general speed and health of the whole group keeps improving by the regular killing of the weakest members. In much the same way, the human brain can only operate as fast as the slowest brain cells. Now, as we know, excessive drinking of alcohol kills brain cells. But naturally, it attacks the slowest and weakest brain cells first. In this way, regular consumption of beer eliminates the weaker brain cells, making the brain a faster and more efficient machine. And that, Norm, is why you always feel smarter after a few beers."

PoemLooking for my prince
written by Susan Du Four
11/29/2005
I'm just a simple Cinderella,
looking for my Prince,
One that has a slipper,
The one that's meant to fit,
I've been searching everywhere,
Looking high and low,
Looking for a sign of him,
The one that makes me glow,
Have I finally met him,
Is he really there,
Only time will tell me,
As he already cares,
Time and space is maddening,
For there's a lot between us,
But if it to truly be,
Then this prince will be with me.

ChiliTexas Chili
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Texas Chili Contest
If you can read this whole story without laughing then there's no hope for you. I was crying by the end. Note: Please take time to read this slowly.
If you pay attenti on to the first two judges, the reaction of the third judge is even better. For those of you who have lived in Texas , you know how true this is. They actually have a Chili Cook-off about the time
Halloween comes around. It takes up a major portion of a parking lot at the San Antonio City Park . Judge #3 was an inexperienced Chili taster named Frank, who was visiting from Springfield , IL .
Frank: "Recently, I was honored to be selected a s a judge at a chili cook-off. The original person called in sick at the last moment and I happened to be standing there at the judge's table asking for directions to
the Coors Light truck, when the call came in. I was assured by the other

DivorceA judge was interviewing a woman regarding her pending divorce,
And asked, "What are the grounds for your divorce”?
She replied, "About four acres and a nice little home in the middle of the property with a stream running by
"No," he said, "I mean what is the foundation of this case?"
"It is made of concrete, brick and mortar," she responded.
"I mean," he continued, "What are your relations like?"
"I have an aunt and uncle living here in town, and so do my Husband’s parents"
He said, "Do you have a real grudge?"
"No," she replied, "We have a two-car carport and have never really needed one"
"Please," he tried again, "is there any infidelity in your marriage?"
"Yes, both my son and daughter have stereo sets. We don't necessarily like the music, but the answer to your questions is yes."
"Ma'am, does your husband ever beat you up?"
"Yes," she responded, "about twice a week he gets up earlier than I do."
Finally, in frustration, the judge asked, "L

I Could Be WrongLet's assume, for a moment, that there is a God. We may not know the nature of God, or
which religion comes closest to the truth, but we can be sure of one thing:
God does not love you.
Look at all the cruelty and misery in the world, which God does nothing to stop. Right now,
as you are reading this, there are children in various places around the world being raped
and tortured. Most of us would risk our lives, give up our lives, to save them if we could.
God stands by and does nothing. God has abandoned these children, and clearly does not
love them. God does not love you, either.
There are some religions which claim that "God's love is a different kind of love", which is
supposed to explain and justify what appears to be God's divine indifference. This is total
bullshit. If I claim that I love my neighbor, and then set his house on fire and shoot him in
the head, anyone can see that my "love" is not love at all.
Another fallacy along these lines is the statement

PoemThe day after Christmas
Monday, December 26, 2005 08 09 PM
Written by Susan Du Four
The Day after Christmas
It's the day after Christmas
and all is not well
My house is a mess
and my leg hurts like hell
there's a man that I miss
he's so far away
I can't wait to meet him
till he comes home to stay.
the timing is early
and it's to soon to tell.
will he even like me
will it ring from the bell
I don't want to rush him
I don't want him to run
I want him to know
my love can be fun
I don't play the games
that mess with the head
I'm honest and true
and will be till I'm dead
so as this day comes to an end
I hope he will know he is my best friend.

We're All TrappedEach of us is stuck being who we are. Sometimes we fight to change ourselves, but
ultimately this has little effect. We can change what we do, but we cannot change who we
are.
If you're a happy person, you don't feel trapped. If you're surrounded by people who you
love and who love you, if you can do what you want to do in life, if you are at peace with
who you are, why would you ever feel trapped? You wouldn't want to change yourself, you
wouldn't need to try.
If you're a happy person, hey, you got lucky!
I am not a happy person. Maybe you're not either. Maybe you're too fat, or too thin, too old,
or too young. Maybe you're ugly and nobody wants to sleep with you. Maybe everyone
wants to sleep with you, but nobody loves you and it's all meaningless. Maybe your body is
fucked up and you're in pain all the time. Maybe your mind is fucked up and you're in pain
all the time.
So you struggle with all these problems year after year, and you're getting nowhere, and
you

PoemBUT FIRST
written by Susan DuFour
January 4, 2006
My darling I'll love you
but first I have to like you
I want to come see you
but first I must save my pride
I want to hold you
but first I need to be held
I want to have you
but first I have to stop needing you
I want to laugh
but first I have to stop the tears
I want to be with you
but first I have to trust you
I'll give you the chance to love me and give me the world
but first you have to stop the excuses and tell me the truth

May I Kiss You?I ask if I may kiss you.
You just smile; no answer is necessary.
My initial kiss is just a flirting of our lips.
My tongue lightly flicking -
Like I am asking, "Do you want me?"
The tip of my tongue runs all around your lips.
Touching every part,
Inside and out -
Over and over again.
Tickling you, tickle, tickle, goes my tongue.
Now I press my lips gently to yours.
Rubbing your lips back and forth against mine.
My kisses are hot and fast.
I cannot rest long in any one place.
I have such a need to go on.
I trail kisses of passion all over your face.
Then back to your mouth.
Our tongues dance together.
We are exploring.
I circle your tongue with the tip of mine.
You echo the pattern back to me.
I lick the sides, underside and the top.
You echo back.
I suck your lower lip.
You echo back.
We repeat, repeat, repeat.
The sensations are driving our emotions.
We are wild for each other.
You thrust your tongue in and out.
The movements are rhythmic and stabbing.
S

The CasinoTwo bored Vegas casino dealers are waiting at the crap table. An attractive blonde from California arrived and bet twenty-thousand
dollars on a single roll of the dice....
She said, "I hope you don't mind, but I feel much luckier when I'm completely nude." With that, she stripped from the neck down, rolled the dice and yelled,"Come on, baby, Mama needs new clothes!"
As the dice came to a stop she jumped up and down and squealed..."YES!
YES!! I WON, I WON!" She hugged each of the dealers and then picked up her winnings and her clothes and quickly departed....
The dealers stared at each other dumbfounded.... Finally, one of them asked, "What did she roll?" The other answered, "I don't know -
I thought you were watching...." MORAL - Not all Californians are stupid and not all blondes are dumb, but all men are men....

PoemFeeling Invisible
written by Susan DuFour
January 5, 2006
I'm feeling kinda lonely
feeling kinda blue
I don't really know how or why
Or even what to do
I like to talk to people
and today I want to play
but all I feel is lonely
Like I've been pushed away
I want to be held all night through
but I know others have things to do
Today I need attention
I know I got the blues
but today I feel invisible
and no one has a clue
I'm reaching out to others
Crying in a way
I guess I cry myself to sleep
and wait another day.

Life Always Kicks Ya In The AssWELL IVE FINALY MADE IT TO SSG. MAN IT TOOK AWHILE BUT IM NOT ONE TO GO CHASING RANK...WOOT WOOT. THEN THE ULTIMATE BETRAYAL HAPPENED....I HAVE BEEN APART OF THIS UNIT BUILDING IT FROM THE GROUND UP SINCE ITS REACTIVATION IN 2003, TRAINING ALL THE NEW PRIVATES FRESH FROM AIT, ALL THE SOP'S TO BE WRITTEN, AND AIRCRAFT TO BE FIXED. I HAVE BEEN BACK FROM THE "STAN" SINCE MARCH, AND FIND OUT YESTERDAY THAT THE UNIT WANTS TO REPAY ME BY KICKING ME OUT AND OVER TO OUR CRAP ASS SISTER UNIT....TO FILL A SHORTAGE THAT IM NOT TRAINED FOR. tHE KICK IN THE ASS IS THEY ARE GOING TO IRAQ EARLY NEXT YEAR...GRRRR OH WELL I GUESS, LIFE IS BULLSHIT AND I NEED A BERR!!!!

Hey....hey everyone im back from the hospital, i feel like shit, been at the hospital for 4 days, and i wanna see what happend while i was gone.

PoemMy cries fall on closed ears
Written by Susan DuFour on January 9th, 2006 at 6:12 pm
Does my mouth not open wide enough and know one hears me crying out I feel so down and out of it and no one seems to care about I know that people care for me but that is not my point Right now I am hurting inside and wanting to hurt the out This is scarring me I don't know what to do I have posted topics in hopes to get a clue To see how others cope with it I want to have that glue Another day has come and gone the night is darker yet I must be the sadest one that you have ever met

Do I Have A DogI have a Labrador retriever. I was buying a large bag of Purina at Wal-Mart and was in line to check out and the woman behind me asked if I
had a dog? On impulse, I told her no, but that I was starting The Purina Diet again, although I probably shouldn't because I'd ended up in the
hospital last time, but that I'd lost 50 pounds before I awakened in an intensive care ward with tubes coming out of most of my orifices and IVs
in both arms.
I told her that it was essentially a perfect diet and that the way that it works is to load your pants pockets with Purina nuggets and simply eat one or two every time you feel hungry and that the food is nutritionally complete so I was going to try it again.
I have to mention here that practically everyone in the line was by now enthralled with my story, particularly the guy who was behind her.
Horrified, she asked if ended up in intensive care because the dog food poisoned me.
I told her no; I'd been sitting in the street lickin

The Heat Of My DesireIn the still of the evening
Without sunlight to intrude
I see the twilight's in your eyes
As the moon sets up the mood
Playing music soft and low
While romance fills the air
I can't help but feel aroused
The very moment you come near
You submit to my embrace
While candles flick their flame
And the smell of sweet perfume
Seems to drive my lust insane
As I look into your eyes
And run my fingers through your hair
I taste the sweetness of your neck
As I nibble at your ear
I then whisper words of love
As you answer with a sigh
And in a very sexy way
Your sweet body comes alive
Your the heat of my desire
As we slowly come undress
I then start to lay you down
While you welcome my caress
With your luscious sexy curves
You have a taste I can't resist
And your breast show some response
When I touch them with a kiss
As I soak inside your love
To a sexy love condition
Feeling passions start to rise
While making love in all positions
You give me so mu

Grrso i called the cable company the other to schedule an appointment to recieve cable and internet services. when they showed up this morning they said that my cable line was dead and that i could not get cable or internet. stupid apt and stupid cable. now i am stuck with usiing only my work computer for my internet usage, plus i will never be able to get my new pics online. plus my friend commited suicide on halloween so i have had a freakin great week. somebody love me............

Why Do Opinions Cause So Much Drama.....Its like people sit there and force there oninion on you....they think there opinion is better the yours cause its theres...Wtf people! we are all entitled to our own opinons..

Lost Cherry Marriage. It's Getting Interesting NowHere's another license for ya. I kinda like the look of this one better than the Cherry Tap version. Hey, for all you polygamists out there, these two liceses (see previous blog) should just make your day. Now you can get cyber married on Lost Cherry and Cherry Tap. Who's gonna know?!?!?! Shhhhh. I sure won't tell. Lol. Oh, boy!! Let the games begin!!!

Drugs Suck 2This is not entirely true. Given the right drugs, you can change yourself in major ways. You can feel good, relaxed, comfortable, you can feel happiness, excitement, you can experience your life as a great meaningful adventure, you can feel that all of your troubles have been washed away... for a little while.
For many of us, the only time we ever really feel good is when we're on some drug. Of
course, it's one of life's little ironies that the only thing you have to make you feel good is
also the thing that will destroy your mind, your body, and your life if you do enough of it for
long enough.
I suppose if you're a well-balanced person, you can get high from time to time without
much of a problem, as you don't really need to do it. However, if your life sucks, then
when you find a drug you really like, just doing it occasionally won't be enough for you.
You want to do it every day, you want to do it all the time.
And this unleashes a whole host of problems, and befo

What Can This Be?Name an ancient invention, which is still used in some parts of the world today, that allows people to see through walls.
Shout out to me or private message me if ya think ya know the answer.

What Did The Builder Forget?James recently moved to his first brand new house. When he arrived there he discovered that the builder had forgotten something. James popped down to the local DIY shop to enquire about the prices. Luckily the items are quite cheap at the shop. 7 cost £1.00, 10 cost £2.00 and 100 cost £3.00. What had the builder forgotten and how much will 210 cost?
Shout out to me or private message me if ya think ya know the answer.

UglyEveryone in the apartment complex I lived in knew who Ugly was. Ugly was the resident tomcat. Ugly loved three things in this world: fighting, eating garbage, and, shall we say, love.
The combination of these things combined with a life spent outside had their effect on Ugly. To start with, he had only one eye, and where the
other should have been, there was a hole. He was also missing his ear on the same side. His left foot appeared to have been badly broken at one
time and had healed at an unnatural angle, making him look like he was always turning the corner.
Ugly would have been a dark gray tabby, striped type, except for the sores covering his head, neck, and even his shoulders. Every time someone saw Ugly there was the same reaction. "That's one UGLY cat!!!"
All the children were warned not to touch him, the adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down, squirted him when he tried to come in their
homes, or shut his paws in the door when he would not leave. Ugly alway

Thank YouThank you all who has welcomed me on my first day to this site and for the ratings. I have gotten back to a few of you. Just bare with me and let me get the hang off this site and I will respond to all of your comments and ratings. Thank you!
Stephanie

So RightStars lit so bright,
Waters glistening in the full moon light,
Winds whisper through out the night,
Kiss your lips start to soar in flight,
Look into your eyes what an amazing sight,
There's nothing I would take back,
After what we shared tonight,
Never a moment gone wrong,
These feelings I have so strong,
With you is where I belong..

Back To WorkWell, after 30 days off from work, i have to go back tomorrow night. My surgery was a success and now I'm better. I'm actually looking forward to going back, I was getting tired of being at home. I like to be outdoors and for 3 weeks i couldn't. I have to go back to the real world. Until next time...

Pet RulesPET RULES
To be posted VERY LOW on the refrigerator door - nose height.
Dear Dogs and Cats,
The dishes with the paw print are yours and contain your food. The other dishes are mine and contain my food. Please note, placing a paw print in the middle of my plate and food does not stake a claim for it becoming your food and dish, nor do I find that aesthetically pleasing in the slightest.
The stairway was not designed by NASCAR and is not a racetrack. Beating me to the bottom is not the object. Tripping me doesn't help because I fall faster than you can run.
I cannot buy anything bigger than a king sized bed. I am very sorry about this. Do not think I will continue sleeping on the couch to ensure your comfort. Dogs and cats can actually curl up in a ball when they sleep. It is not necessary to sleep perpendicular to each other stretched out to the fullest extent possible. I also know that sticking tails straight out and having tongues hanging out the other end to maximize spa

Picshey everyone just wanted to let u all know to come and check out my pictures and rate them if u want. i know alot of u have already did and thats great but for the ones that have not, come and check them out please.

How Many?As I was going to St. Ives,
I met a man with seven wives.
Each wife had seven sacks,
Each sack had seven cats,
Each cat had seven kits.
Kits, cats, sacks and wives,
How many were going to St. Ives?
Shout out to me or private me if ya know the answer.

How Many?As I was going to St. Ives,
I met a man with seven wives.
Each wife had seven sacks,
Each sack had seven cats,
Each cat had seven kits.
Kits, cats, sacks and wives,
How many were going to St. Ives?
Shout out to me or private me if ya know the answer.

How Many?As I was going to St. Ives,
I met a man with seven wives.
Each wife had seven sacks,
Each sack had seven cats,
Each cat had seven kits.
Kits, cats, sacks and wives,
How many were going to St. Ives?
Shout out to me or private me if ya know the answer.

Now Was This Really News WorthyOk so here I am at it again, those that know me know very well I just cant seem to keep my mouth shut.
Ok so check this out, i'm sittin here watching the news over the past couple of days ( what they call the news anyway) and here in Houston there has been this huge stink about child predators and offenders and letting people know where they live etc..
So the news report tonight was touching on that topic but they took it a step further and asked "What if your child was in school sitting next to a child predator?"
now this questions struck me as odd because I was sittin there thinkin wdf is some old pervert doing in a school building in class? I mean know they arent hiring predators as teachers.
Well as it turns out they where talking about other children that had been caught or punished for some type of sexual crime. Now we arent talking about highschool age children, we are talking elementary and Jr high kids.
So as I was watching the report my first thoughts and instinct was "d

Woot WootUnder 10,000! Thanks everyone. Hopefully now I'll be an Epic cherry before the weekends over. I'm such a cherry point whore.

Now Was This Really News WorthyOk so here I am at it again, those that know me know very well I just cant seem to keep my mouth shut.
Ok so check this out, i'm sittin here watching the news over the past couple of days ( what they call the news anyway) and here in Houston there has been this huge stink about child predators and offenders and letting people know where they live etc..
So the news report tonight was touching on that topic but they took it a step further and asked "What if your child was in school sitting next to a child predator?"
now this questions struck me as odd because I was sittin there thinkin wdf is some old pervert doing in a school building in class? I mean know they arent hiring predators as teachers.
Well as it turns out they where talking about other children that had been caught or punished for some type of sexual crime. Now we arent talking about highschool age children, we are talking elementary and Jr high kids.
So as I was watching the report my first thoughts and instinct was "d

John 3:16In the city of Chicago, one cold-dark night, a blizzard was setting in. A little boy was selling newspapers on the corner; the people were in and out of the the cold. The little boy was so cold that he wasn't trying to sell many papers. He walked up to a policeman and said, "Mister, you wouldn't happen to know where a poor boy could find a warm place to sleep tonight, would you? You see, I sleep in a box up around the corner there and down the alley and it's awful cold in there,
of a night. Sure would be nice to have a warm place to stay."
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The policeman looked down at the little boy and said, "You go down the street to that big white house and you knock on the door. When they come out the door you just say John 3:16 and they will let you in." So he did, he walked up the steps to the door, and knocked on the door and a lady answered. He looked up and said, "John 3:16." The lady said, "Come on in, Son." She took him in and sat him down

The Abc'sAlthough things are not perfect
Because of trial or pain
Continue in thanksgiving
Do not begin to blame
Even when the times are hard
Fierce winds are bound to blow
God is forever able
Hold on to what you know
Imagine life without His love
Joy would cease to be
Keep thanking Him for all the things
Love imparts to thee
Move out of "Camp Complaining"
No weapon that is known
On earth can yield the power
Praise can do alone
Quit looking at the future
Redeem the time at hand
Start every day with worship
To "thank" is a command
Until we see Him coming
Victorious in the sky
We'll run the race with gratitude
Xalting God most high
Yes, there'll be good times and yes some will be bad, but...
Zion waits in glory...where none are ever sad!

Did This Out Of BoredomGIRLS FILL THIS PART OUT
About guys: Turned ON or OFF or DC (dont care)
If he is taller than you: On
Wears a grill: Off
Dresses Gangsta: On
Dresses Gothic: Off
Dresses Skater: Off
Dresses Emo: Off
Cuts themself: Off
Has green eyes: On
Has blue eyes: On
Brown eyes: DC
Drinks alcohol: DC
Wears glasses: DC
Smokes cigarettes: DC, but preferably they don't
Smokes weed: Off
Plays sports: DC
Smiles a lot: On
Calls/Texts you just to say hi: On
Compliments you: On
Good dancer: DC
Wears jewelry: DC
Smiles when you walk in the room: On
Has curly hair: Off
Has straight hair: DC
Has brown hair: DC
Has Black hair: On
Has blonde hair: DC
Has Red hair: Off
Loyal: On
Laid back: DC
Plays guitar: DC
Plays drums: DC
He can draw: DC
Easily jealous: Off
Has a tattoo: On
has a lip ring: Off
has a tongue ring: DC
Nipples pierced: DC
Goes to church: On
Hugs from behind: On
Kisses your neck: On
None of this is set in stone though, of course I would be willing to

Whats This Really Say?What is represented by this BrainBat?
wear
long
Shout out to me or private message me if ya know the answer.

A Few Questions1. Give me your number?
2. Have sex with me?
3. Let me kiss you?
4. Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. Let me take you out to dinner?
6. Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. Take a shower with me?
8. Be my bf/gf?
9. Have a fling with me?
10. Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
11. Buy me a drink if i didnt have money?
12. Take me home for the night?
13. Would you let me sleep in your bed?
14. Sing kareoke w/ me?
15. Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
16. Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
17. Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
18. Do you think im ugly, cute, or handsome?
19. Do you like my style?
20. Do you think im funny?
21. Do you care about me?
22. Would you cry if i died?
23. Would you stop me if i tried to commit suicide?
24. Would you dance with me?
25. Would you sing happy birthday to me?
26. Would you hold

Thank YouI just wanted to say a huge THANK YOU to all who voted for me earlier this week in the Sexist Lips and Prettist Eyes Contest. I won both so yay!!! Again thank you all so very much!!!!! Love Ya'll!!!!

"i Am A Christian"When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I am saved"
I'm whispering "I was lost"
That is why I chose this way.
When I say..."I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need someone to be my guide.
When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And pray for strength to carry on.
When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And cannot ever pay the debt.
When I say..."I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are all too visible,
But God believes I'm worth it.
When I say..."I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartaches
Which is why I speak His name.
When I say..."I am a Christian"
I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority.
I only know I'm loved.

Whats This Actually Say?What is represented by this BrainBat?
one all all all all
all one one one one
Private message me or shout out to me if ya know the answer.

Lip PrintYou may think of me as silly,
and it's a little thing to most
I keep the glass you drank from
the last time you were here
the last time we had a toast.
I don't clean it not in the least
you see it has this lip print on the rim
that does soothe this beast.
I bring it out on special occasions
that's every night to me,
I gently place ice in the bottom
then pour our favorite wine carefully.
Holding it up to the light to gaze upon
your lip print so sensuous, and full
my eyes brim then water, becoming a pool.
I place my lips next to where yours had been
inhaling the fragrance of your essence
and sipping the wine, so slowly you'd think it a sin.
Lighting a candle and listing to a favorite song,
I rock my body with an unseen partner,
where my white dove had been, now gone.
carefully placing it far to the back not to be misused
I'll bring it out again when I feel my heart to be abused.
Thinking of you softly not believing you have flown
still holding my heart in hand for

Gone FishinHoward County Sheriff Jerry Marr got a disturbing call one Saturday afternoon a few months ago.
His 6-year-old grandson Mikey had been hit by a car while fishing in Greentown with his dad. The father and son were near a bridge by the Kokomo Reservoir when a woman lost control of her car, slid off the bridge and hit Mikey at a rate of about 50 mph.
Sheriff Marr had seen the results of accidents like this and feared the worst. When he got to Saint Joseph Hospital, he rushed through the emergency room to find Mikey conscious and in fairly good spirits.
Mikey, what happened?"
Sheriff Marr asked.
Mikey replied,
"Well, Papaw, I was fishin' with Dad, and some lady runned me over, I flew into a mud puddle, and broke my fishin' pole and I didn't get to catch no fish!"
As it turned out, the impact propelled Mikey about 500 feet, over a few trees and an embankment and into the middle of a mud puddle. His only injuries were to his right femur bone which had broken in two places.
Mikey ha

Here's The New Cherry Tap Cyber Marriage License.Alright cherries. Here's the new cyber cherry tap marriage license for us to play with. Pick you favorite guy or girl and ask him or her to join you in Cherry Tap cyber marriage. You set the parameters or set none at all. Have fun everybody!!!!

Prayer Of An American SoldierPrayer Of An American Soldier
Dear Lord,
Please tell my son that I was sorry
that I was not there when he was born
Tell him that missed his first step and
the first time he said "dada"
Tell him that his first day of school was a
story his mommy told me in a letter from home
Let him know that I wish I could be there to play
catch with him on a hot summer day and I will not be the one to cheer him when he pitches his first no-hitter.
I will not see the light in his eye when he brings home his first of many true loves
and I will not be there when he finally chooses the one
I will not be there to hear his son scream
at the first moment of life.
and "papa" will not be there to hold him.
Dear Lord, please do not tell him that you last saw me I was laying face down in Iraqi sand stained with my blood
Make sure to tell him that with my last breath I said for you to tell him that I love him.

Reason Season And A LifetimePeople come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you will know exactly what to do.
0ooo
Some people ( )
come into our lives ) /
and quickly go.. ( _ /
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( ) Some people
( become friends
_) and stay awhile...
leaving beautiful 0ooo
footprints on our ( )
hearts... ) /
( _/
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( ) and we are
( never quite the same
_ )
because we have made a good friend!!!
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually.

Unfolding The RoseUNFOLDING THE
It is only a tiny rosebud,
A flower of God's design;
But I cannot unfold the petals
With these clumsy hands of mine.
The secret of unfolding flowers
Is not known to such as I.
GOD opens this flower so sweetly,
When in my hands they fade and die.
If I cannot unfold a rosebud,
This flower of God's design,
Then how can I think I have wisdom
To unfold this life of mine?
So I'll trust in Him for His leading
Each moment of every day.
I will look to him for His guidance
Each step of the pilgrim way.
The pathway that lies before me,
Only my Heavenly Father knows.
I'll trust Him to unfold the moments,
Just as He unfolds the rose.

For My One - E ;)It's the way you make me feel inside
So many desires coming alive
Feelings I'd buried for an eternity
Awaking passions overwhelming me
How could I ever let this feeling go?
If I asked you to stay, would you never go?
Just hold me for one more day and night
Blessed I am for you've entered my life
With the light in your eyes
And the love in your heart
So scared of my emotions
Now I can let them part
Come see through my eyes
And then will you know
I've let you in my heart
For you understand my soul
"~ Let there be such oneness between us, that when one cries, the other tastes salt~
*No cord or cable can draw so forcibly, or bind so fast, as love can do with a single thread*"

Two Old MenTWO OLD MEN DECIDE THEY ARE CLOSE TO THEIR LAST DAYS AND DECIDE TO HAVE A LAST NIGHT ON THE TOWN. AFTER A FEW DRINKS, THEY END UP AT THE LOCAL BROTHEL. THE MADAM TAKES ONE LOOK AT THE TWO OLD GEEZERS AND WHISPERS TO HER MANAGER, "GO UP TO THE FIRST TWO BEDROOMS AND PUT AN INFLATED DOLL IN EACH BED. THESE TWO ARE SO OLD AND dRUNK, I'M NOT WASTING TWO OF MY GIRLS ON THEM. THEY WON'T KNOW THE DIFFERENCE." THE MANAGER DOES AS HE IS TOLD AND THE TWO OLD MEN GO UPSTAIRS AND TAKE CARE OF THEIR BUSINESS.
AS THEY ARE WALKING HOME THE FIRST MAN SAYS, "YOU KNOW, I THINK MY GIRL WAS DEAD!"
"DEAD?" SAYS HIS FRIEND, "WHY DO YOU SAY THAT?
"WELL, SHE NEVER MOVED OR MADE A SOUND ALL THE TIME I WAS LOVING HER."
HIS FRIEND SAYS, "COULD BE WORSE I THINK MINE WAS A WITCH."
" A WITCH, WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU SAY THAT?"
"WELL, I WAS MAKING LOVE TO HER, KISSING HER ON THE NECK AND I GAVE HER A LITTLE BITE, THEN SHE FARTED AND FLEW OUT THE WINDOW

What Am ILarge groups of people board me, yet they know with full knowledge that they are going to end up at the same place from which they started, and that there are no stops. They know that they will see very little if any at all of the local areas of interest or any rolling landscapes on me.
They pay money for the trip, yet my managers have received very few complaints about the route covered. I have been running for a number of months, but I am due to close down soon. I will re-open in the same location next year, to follow the exact same route.
I operate many times a day, normally taking different groups of people each time. Some people may take the journey more than once in the same day.
What am I?
Again private message me if ya know the answer.

PoemWhy the Fuck do I care if your my friend?
Why do I give a fuck if you are sitting on the other side of the computer screen crying?
Why do I Fucking bother to say hi to you and ask you how you are doing?
Why do I let myself cry myself to fucking sleep at night because of something you said to me?
Why do I try everyday to contact you when you don't even get the fucking message cause the computer is fucked up?
Why can't you see who the fuck I really am inside?
Why the fuck do I have to look like a fucking super model just for you to give me a second look?
Well some of the answers are simple.
Cause I care about you and want you in my life as a friend.
Cause I care that someone I care about is sad and I can't be closer to help.
Cause I care about you and have missed you and care how you are doing.
Cause I care so much that it hurts when you say things that hurt me.
Cause I care and what to talk to you.
I can't answer this one cause I don't know the answer.
I don't have an

I Come To TheeCome...
let me feed You...
fuel your desires....
satisfy your needs...
cleanse your soul...
and be your slave...
We find ourselves in each other...
two halves of one whole...
an ever flowing circle...
an energy that ebbs and flows...
mixing together to create a new entity...
Why is it that the need for you grows...
a constant ache inside of me...
filling my heart with desire...
curling between my thighs from even the mere touch
of you in my mind and soul ...
Why does your voice touch me in the night...
calling to me as my fingers search...
why do I close my eyes and imagine your hot touch
upon my flesh... probing... claiming...
For you are my safe harbour....
I come to Thee......

Poem Nov 2ndNight of snow
Twilight falls
on a heavy sigh
waiting
for a quiet stillness
the evening snow
looked through a window
eyes blinking
and a hope
For a new day
with peace inside
and a joyful triumph

Marbles, Coin, And DieIf I have:
a normal coin with a heads and tails;
a 6-sided die;
and a bag containing 4 blue and 2 red marbles,
what is the probability of me flipping a heads, rolling a 4, and picking out a red marble?
Private message me if u know the answer.

Keep The Faith"Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ."
The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.
"You're a Christian, aren't you, son?"
"Yes sir," the student says.
"So you believe in God?"
"Absolutely."
"Is God good?"
"Sure! God's good."
"Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?"
"Yes."
"Are you good or evil?"
"The Bible says I'm evil."
The professor grins knowingly. "Aha! The Bible!" He considers for a moment. "Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help them? Would you try?"
"Yes sir, I would."
"So you're good...!"
"I wouldn't say that."
"But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't."
The student does not answer, so the professor continues. "He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he

Inner PeaceBy following this simple advice on the Dr. Phil show, I have finally found inner peace.
Dr. Phil proclaimed, "The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you've started and never finished."So, I looked around my house to see all the things I started and hadn't finished, and before leaving the house this morning, I finished off a bottle of Merlot, a bottle of White Zinfandel, a bottle of Bailey's Irish Cream, abottle of Kahlua, a package of Oreos, the remainder of my old Prozac prescription,the rest of the cheesecake, some Doritos and a box of chocolates.You have no idea how freaking good I feel.

River HottieAnother design originating from my days living by the lake in AZ. This design is for the ladies to let everyone know what's hotter than the desert in Arizona and maybe even the sun. Great apparel for heading down to the river on those lazy summer days, or even just to reminisce on these cold winter nights. Available on a section of tees this design can make the perfect any time gift for that special lady! Note to the guy... if your gonna buy a boat you better buy your girl this shirt!
I've personally worn this shirt (white ladies tee) while tubing down the river and been compliment by many! I think its perfect for any of the female rafting guides out there! Nothings cooler than the "River Hottie"! So head over to the store and pick yours up today. DeXine Graphic Concepts

You Don't Know Who I Am...I want to tell you
All the things I want
I want to show you
All the things I want
I want to do everything with you
Only problem is
You don't even know who I am
You don't know what makes me cry
Or when others are irritated or fustrated I feel it and it hurts
You don't know that when you curl up your lip when you smirk
that it makes my heart flutter...
I want to tell you of all these things
But you don't even know my name
Maybe you knew the old me
The old name
And the old scrapes on my knees
But what about the new ones
All the bumps and bruses
All the skidmarks on my brain
Saying stop don't go that way...
Danger ahead
My heart is going to get hurt
So please don't go that way
So I stand back
And watch you move
Watch you talk
Watch you think
Wow Just wow
You would not even like the real me
I'm angry and full of hate
I'm fragile and weak
I'm nothing that I seem..
Nothing at all what I seem...

Sex On MarsThe year is 2222 and Mike and Maureen land on Mars after accumulating enough Frequent Flyer miles.
They meet a Martian couple and are talking about all sorts of things.
Mike asks if Mars has a stock market, if they have laptop computers,how they make money, etc.
Finally, Maureen brings up the subject of sex. "Just how do you guys do it?" asks Maureen.
The Martian responds, "Pretty much the way you do. "A discussion ensues!
Finally the couples decide to swap partners for
the night and experience one another.
Maureen and the male Martian go off to a bedroom where the Martian strips.
He's got only a teeny, weenie member about half an inch long and just a quarter-inch thick.
"I don't think this is going to work," says Maureen.
"Why?" he asks. "What's the matter?"
"Well," she replies, "It's just not long enough to reach me!"
"No problem," he says, and proceeds to slap his forehead with his palm.
With each slap of his forehead, his member grows unt

To Say Good Nighti'm still sick...
but i found this video and thought about so many things...
it's like just came to my mind when guys cheated on me (once i found out like in the video, my best friend with my bf... both are ex, for sure now)
sometimes i think if i'll someone honest someday...
anyways enjoy it, and sing with me!
I feel so unsure
as I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor
as the music dies, something in your eyes
calls to mind the silver screen
and all its sad good-byes
I'm never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool
Should've known better than to cheat a friend
and waste the chance that I've been given
so I'm never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you
Time can never mend
the careless whispers of a good friend
to the heart and mind
ignorance is kind
there's no comfort in the truth
pain is all you'll find
I'm never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
thou

Another Brain TeaserMurder in front of the bay window
Carrie Marshall had recently joined the Riverside police force, and on the first day of her job, she was sent out to investigate a new homicide case. The murder involved a wealthy bachelor, Steven Andrews, who lived in an expensive, grand oceanside mansion. At the time of the murder, there had been five other people in the house: the cook, the maid, two friends, and his niece. Both the cook and maid had rooms in the mansion, and the three guests had all stayed overnight.
When Carrie got to the mansion, the five suspects had all been lined up in front of a large bay window. It was mid-afternoon, and through the window, Carrie could see the beautiful sunset.
Her partner, Lieutenant Linda Newton, who had arrived an hour earlier, sketched out the details for Carrie. All the suspects had agreed that Steven Andrews had been found murdered in the morning, shortly before six-thirty am, but he had been alive a few minutes past midnight, when they all

Birthdayfor my birthday i went to the bars and got absolutely wasted!!
Got my eyebrow pierced!
well i did more then that but, its really not gonna be posted here hehe
well all is good and i had a great time
Well thanks for catching up with me! Laters

GrrrrrrrToday I took my senor pics. I helped a teacher grade papers. I played games at my friends. I started making an Amv. The song is Antestor's "Bridge of Death". I am waiting for my girlfriend to call now and hope she does. But I missed her call at like 7 and I was gone to a friend's house. Everytime I go there she calls earlier. I think I should stop going. I don't know though. Grr.

Urgent>>>>>>If MARC JAMES wants to add you to their list dont accept it. Its a virus. Tell everyone on your list because if somebody on your list adds them you will get it too. It is a hard drive killer and a very horrible virus. Please pass this on to everyone on your list. We need to find out who is using this accounts. Sorry for the inconvenience. Right click on your group name of your buddy list and click Send Message to all. Copy and paste this message

BreastsA woman, in her fifties is at home happily jumping unclothed on her bed & squealing with delight. Her husband watches her for a while & asks,
"Do you any idea how ridiculous u look? What's the matter with you?"
The woman continues to bounce on the bed & says,
"I don't care, what you think. I just came from having a mammogram & the doctor says that not only am I healthy but I have the breasts of an 18yr old."
The husband replies, "What did he say about your 55 year old ass?"
The woman replies, "Your name never came up."

Slow HandsYeah but nobody searches
Nobody cares somehow
When the loving that you’ve wasted
Comes raining from a hapless cloud
And I might stop and look upon your face
Disappear in the sweet, sweet gaze
See the living that surrounds me
Dissipate in a violet place
Can’t you see what you’ve done to my heart
And soul?
This is a wasteland now
We spies
We slow hands
Put the weights around yourself
We spies
Oh yeah we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself now
I submit my incentive is romance
I watched the pole dance of the stars
We rejoice because the hurting is so painless
From the distance of passing cars
But I am married to your charms & grace
I just go crazy like the good old days
You make me want to pick up a guitar
And celebrate the myriad ways that I love you
Can you see what you’ve done to my heart
And soul?
This is a wasteland now
We spies
Yeah we slow hands
You put the weights around yourself
We spies
Oh yeah we slow hands
Killer, fo

Joining With MeTo see
the essense...the life
the heart and soul.
To know
his thoughts...his needs
his hopes and dreams,
To touch
to hear...to feel
the whisper of the soul,
To feel
deep inside....to guide
as darkened pathways come alight.
To live,
to thrive..to grow,
to be.
First within the one,
coming to know...to accept.
Then, outside...joining with me.

New To This.I am new to this and just wondering what this does. Let me know how I am doing?

I'm TiredI'm tired... of loving
of sharing
of believing
of caring for those who cannot love me back
I'm tired... of fighting
of crawling
of crying
of clawing at the walls, a hole deep and black
I'm tired but... I cannot sleep
I cannot rest
I cannot dream
I cannot stop believing in love
But I'm so, so very tired...
From the depths of the arid plains of a ravaged soul and the emptiness of a desolate heart.

Into Your Safe Keepingall my life, i've searched
never knowing what urged me
i just knew that somewhere
something waited...
all my life i've hungered
for what, i didn't know
only that my soul ached
and my heart was empty...
all my life, i've yearned
for the taste of reality
trying to find it in the mundane
yet always needing more...
all my life, i've settled
for what was presented
never daring to believe
what was possible...
now my life is different
filled with magic
of a sort i never dreamed
a feeling of wholeness...
now my life is moving
in directions undreamed
along a new path
holding Your hand...
now my life is fulfilled
in giving up the one thing
i always jealously guarded
and kept locked up in my soul...
now my life is complete
with You at the center
as i hold Your hand
and give my soul...
into Your safe keeping

Month From HellWell i work at a pretty shitty job. I have to deal with this guy at work.. tuan who doesnt ever do what hes supposed to do but hes been ther for 15 years so nothing i say will ever stop his doing whatever tuan wants to do. We get into an arguement and he tries to hit me in the face twice with a tape gun and im the opne that gets yelled at. WTF ya know.
So then i get a phone call during work form my mom, one of my wrestlers (i coach high school) was shot and killed by his half brother with a stolen gun that had been used in a previous murder. It was all over the news. Then his mom came up to me and told me that i was the best wrestler that came out of the high school and it was mikeys dream to be better then me. Man what a load that was on my heart to bear..... His brother was left him there to die basically.Wouldnt call 911 or anything he wore gloved when he shot mikey and kicked the shell under the bed.
Then at work i get into a accident and injured my neck. 3 different doctor

Brain TeaserCan you find 13 animals hidden in these words?
Pheasantoadderaturtleechareelionewtiger
Send me a private message or shout out if you think you know the answers.

Fuck John KerryWell, Frankstein is back to waste another minute of our time. How appropriate that the square-headed gentleman from Massachusetts showed up right before Halloween. Speaking to students at a California university earlier this week, John Kerry managed to finally dfemonstrate for the world how the Democratic Party REALLY feels about the men and women defending your freedoms. Here is his exact quote: "You know, education - if you make the most of it, you study hard and you do your homework and you make an effort to be smart, you can do well. If you don't, you get stuck in Iraq."
Of course, Kerry said that it was a botched joke aimed at the president. When I tell a joke that doesn't go over well, I usuallu laugh nervously, or at least smile. Kerry did neither. He also said that he would not apologize because there was nothing to apologize for. Yet, he has flip flopped again and apologized. Yet, he didn't REALLY apologize. He did it on his web-site, and apologized for people taking i

Waxing Moon Above UsEvery month the moon rises in its fullest glory. During that phase, and sometimes the quarters before and following, I go through severe depression.
I glimpse up into the sky, wanting to appreciate the beauty that the glorious moon is bestowing down upon me...but, I can't. Behind the alobaster shine lies a tornado of emotions with a resulting ebb of depression.
Hoping that as each month brings a full moon, so shall I continue to shine upon the people who love me.
If I don't make it one phase soon, please know I love you and always will. Please know that I am finally happy and at peace.
For now, I roll with the tides and wane with the moon.
Peace

To A DreamThe dark takes me, sinking to sleep,
and I look into the eyes of a dream.
I fall slowly, my arms outstretched,
in a yearning immeasurable,
and a longing unfulfilled.
My heart pounds, pulse racing madly,
writhing as my body is filled with fire.
I lie on the floor trembling,
before a dream desired.
Does the dream know, and how can it,
what I ache to give, what drives me?
What draws me to a submission that binds,
and frees this woman's heart?
It is a sweet pain of the flesh,
and an agonizing whip to the soul,
this need to give myself.
It's the heated touch of illusion
searing my being.
I look into the eyes of the dream,
and struggle to awake,
shuddering to my very core.
Eyes piercing the darkness, I look,
and beg, screaming it out.
Take this gift i can't deny,
Accept all that is me,
and give me the freedom of bondage,
take me to that other world...
to a Dream

Thinking...dangerous I KnowHow come it always seems that when things are going so well, something ALWAYS happens to pull you back down? Its like, life won't let someone be happy. I know, I'm just being a girl, haha...I just wish things would turn out the way I want them to from time to time. I guess I'm done complaining for now...later gators =)

X- Rated RiddlesQ. What is the difference between a drug dealer and a hooker?
A. A hooker can wash her crack and sell it again.
Q. What's a mixed feeling?
A. When you see your mother-in-law backing off a cliff in your new car.
Q. What's the height of conceit?
A. Having an orgasm and calling out your own name.
Q. What's the definition of macho?
A. Jogging home from your vasectomy.
Q. What's the difference between a G-Spot and a golf ball?
A. A guy will actually search for a golf ball
Q. Do you know how New Zealanders practice safe sex?
A. They spray paint X's on the back of the sheep that kick! ?
Q.Why is divorce so expensive?
A. Because it's worth it!
Q. What is a Yankee?
A. The same as a quickie, but a guy can do it alone.
Q. What do Tupperware and a walrus have in common?
A. They both like a tight seal.
Q. What do a Christmas tree and priest have in common?
A. Their balls are just for decoration.
Q.What is the

It Is Possible.Yes folks.
IT IS POSSIBLE to be SEXY without:
- Squishiing your boobs together in an illusion that you have massive cleavage
- Having a thong wedged in your ass crack and a zoomed in close up of it
-Laying on your couch in your $4.97 teddy set from WalMart with $12.97 clear plastic pumps/heels.
- Bending over in front of your webcam and taking a photo in every pair of panties you own
- To wear pants that do not say anything across the behind
- To not wear three layers of eyeshadow, glitter lip gloss and ten coats of mascara (really I saw a pic like this and the girl looked like a clown and all the guys said how SEXY she was...??)
That is all from my little brain tonight folks... I'm thinking about leaving the site because everywhere I look, I am being forced to look at someone's ass, crotch or boobies. And I do have the adult images turned off.
Oh well. Can you blame me? I voted Republican.

I Hate Being Aloneto my friends who will take the time to give this a glance thank you and i hope you will post back i am so alone i have not gotten to talk to my baby girl in 2 days and i am felling so deperssed

Some To Think About...I believe Being HAPPY is definitely a state of mind ...
you must CHOOSE it over sadness ....
whatever happens to you in your life you always have a CHOICE....
Sometimes choosing to make the best of a situation is difficult ...
no one said being happy comes easy....
Make "being happy" a major focus in your life....
then the more you experience it...
the more you'll encounter it.
Discover what robs you of your happiness,
then either change it or let it go ........
also be picky who you surround yourself with ....
find persons who build you up not drag you down,
leave you feeling low....
....and just as you seek such persons....
be such a person
Cancel your "stinkin thinkin" and replace it with positive ....
when painful thoughts over run your mind,
become aware and CHOOSE to replace them with a lovely thought or picture.

Crossbreed Footage In Battle Creek, Michigan 2004My film company (Ignition Films Ltd), and I drove 2.5hrs to shoot some live footage for a band out of Tampa, Florida called Crossbreed. The band was killer, and probably some of the funniest dudes I've met so far. Here's a little clip of that night, and some insight on how it is touring from place to place in a van. Let me know what you think.
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What Mythological Creature Are You? (cool Pics!)You scored as WereWolf. WereWolf: Craving rare Meat, feeling caged, aggitated by being around people. Unable to control one's anger or temper. The person will give off symptoms of the shift. They will seem more hostile, blood thirsty, aggitated. They may even growl, bare their teeth or other animal like tendencies. In rare cases, some will physically change. Facial hair will grow thicker or darker, nails will become longer, canine's will seem longer. Embrace your wild side, for you are The Misunderstood WereWolf.WereWolf100%Demon75%Mermaid50%Faerie50%Angel50%Dragon50%What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)created with QuizFarm.com

A Butterflies DreamFloating on wings of sheer Beauty
flutters of the heart,
butterflies dancing within,
feel them, there dancing
deep inside, stealing your
breath, a gasp to survive,
trying to beleive, a wanting
to experiance, there brillant
sheer breath taking beauty.
Delicate and fragile is the
butterflies heart, when touched
it leaves a fine silken dust, that coates
its possesor's scenses, and embeds
itself forever within, within to stay,
be it forever, or only in the heart?,
never the less it stays, and its likeness
NEVER to be known again, and its
beauty everlasting.
Rare one of a kind, flutters of
LOVE bringing of heartach,
soft murmurs, silken flesh,
distant and alone in sadness
confusion, soaring to highs
to be fluttering so low,
WHY? tis the cycle of life
brief intense, then for instant
NOTHING! close enough to
feel but to far to touch,
the butterfly so near but yet so far.
Shhhhhhh but LOOK....it waits, waiting,
hovering in the stillness of this place,
fooli

Can't Resist... One More Redhead Joke.Two sailors on shore leave, walking down the street. They spot a beautiful blonde.
First sailor asks his friend "Have you ever slept with a blonde?" Second sailor replies that he has.
They walk on further and see an even more beautiful brunette.
First Sailor: Have you ever slept with a brunette?"
Second Sailor" Why yes, in fact I've slept with brunettes on many occasions" They walk on a little further, and see a gorgeous redhead, who leaves the other two girls for dead.
First Sailor:" Have you ever slept with a redhead then?"
His companion looks at him and replies "Not a wink!"

What Horror Killer Are UYou scored as Hannibal Lecter. You are Hannibal Lecter. You dont need to eat human flesh to live, but do so because it just taste good. You are very intelligent, and enjoy using it to your advantage to keep people guessing. You arent a killing machine, but when you do decide to let loose, watch out! Dinner is served, with some fava beans, and a nice chianti!Hannibal Lecter100%Jigsaw90%Pinhead80%Michael Myers60%Freddy Krueger60%Candyman60%Leatherface60%Captain Spaulding40%Buffalo Bill40%Jason Voorhees20%

One More Redhead Joke...Two bored casino dealers are waiting at a craps table.
A very attractive redhead comes in and wants to bet twenty-thousand dollars on a single roll of the dice.
She says, "I hope you don't mind, but I feel much luckier when I'm bottomless."
With that she strips naked from the waist down, and rolls the dice while yelling, "Momma needs a new pair of pants!"
She then begins jumping up and down and hugging each of the dealers. "YES!
I WIN! I WIN!"
With that she picks up her money and clothes and quickly leaves. The dealers just stare at each other dumbfounded.
Finally one of them asks, "What did she roll anyway?"
The other answers, "I thought YOU were watching!"

What Vampire Are UYou scored as Dracula. You are the smooth sexy cool Dracula. Patient and lustful. If you were any cooler youd be ice. Great style with a way of seducing those around you. And three brides who wouldn't want to be him. Armand100%Marius100%Dracula100%Deacon Frost92%Blade83%Lestat67%Akasha67%Angel67%Spike67%Louis17%Whose your Vampire personality? (images)created with QuizFarm.com

Strange Coinscience..I just read that I first signed up on MySpace on 2/23/07. My due date is that day. (Well according to my Ob's office it's the 23rd but officially it's the 22nd if you do the math. With my last period being May 18th 2006.) I just thought that was a little odd. Little did I think a year ago I'd be where I am now. I was still dealing with Kris's bullshit and John wanting to be with me. I thought I'd wind up with Kris but truthfully I couldn't have asked for a better outcome. Nice guys really do finish last. John has his faults but he loves me with every fiber of his being and that's all I've ever really wanted. I love him so much it hurts me that I've ever done anything to hurt him. But we are human and we all make mistakes.
Another strange coinscience...Today 4 years ago was supposed to be my wedding day to a guy named Steve. I'm so glad that things turned out the way they did. I'd be miserable if I was married to him. I know I would be. We had alot of stuff bought, deposits made, dr

Everyone Read :-)BOYS!!!: If any girl you know is crying, and you see them, don't just stand there like an retard and say you're sorry, hold them, kiss them, and tell them everything will be ok, even if you have no idea what is wrong with them. Girls go through more drama than you can imagine! Girls just want to be held and know that someone cares about them. Girls: Repost this if you're tired of dealing with the drama, and you're sick of putting up with the crap! Boys: Repost if you're a loving, caring, sensitive guy, who hates to see a girl hurt like this and you hate to see a girl cry!

Please Join My LoungeYOU CAN NOW JOIN ME IN MY OWN LOUNGE #3883 CALLED PONY'S PLAYGROUND. IT IS GREAT PLACE TO COME TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS OR CATCH UP WITH THE ONES YOU ALREADY KNOW. THE ONLY RULES ARE 18 & OVER (which a good majority of the CT already is unless you are lying through your teeth & feel like getting banned & reported) AND ZERO DRAMA/NO HATERS ALLOWED. I JUST WANT MY PLAYGROUND LOUNGE TO BE A COOL PLACE TO HANG OUT, CHAT & HAVE A GOOD OLD FUN TIME IN A RELAXED AND LAID-BACK ENVIRONMENT. SO PLEASE STOP BY AND SUBSCRIBE TO JOIN US THERE TODAY. THANKS MY FRIENDS. I REALLY DO APPRECIATE YOUR TIME & THE HONOR OF YOUR PRESENCE & MEMBERSHIP IN MY LOUNGE. I AM LOOKING FOR THIS THING TO TAKE OFF IN A BIG WAY & BECOME A POPULAR PLACE ON THE CHERRY TAP TO HANG OUT. ONE DAY I HOPE THAT PONY'S PLAYGROUND WILL RIVAL THE WICKED PLEASURES LOUNGE IN POPULARITY AND MEMBERSHIPS. A PONYGIRL CAN DREAM, CAN'T SHE?(LOL) AIM HIGH I ALWAYS SAY.
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Another Redhead Joke!!A redhead walks into the drugstore and asks the pharmacist if he sells, x-large condoms.
He replies, "Yes, we do, would you like to buy some?"
She replies, "No sir, but if you don't mind I'd like to hang out here until someone does."

Would You Die For LoveWould U Die For Love???
If you would jump in front of a bullet for your girlfriend, boyfriend,
ex-girlfriend, ex-boyfriend, best friend, a homie, family member,or
just a person u love, repost this.
Tonight, your 1 true love will call you,
kiss you or ask you out...
....if you break this chain,
you will be lose someone colse to you AND you wont ever find
true love!
Repost with this exact title: "W0Uld U diE F0R LVE?" i would die for my true love jeff he is my life

The 4 Spiritual LawsJust as there are physical laws that govern the physical universe, so are there spiritual laws which govern your relationship with God.
1. God LOVES you and offers a wonderful PLAN for your life.
(References contained on this page are from the Bible and should be read in context wherever possible.)
God's Love
"God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life" (John 3:16 NIV).
God's Plan
[Christ speaking] "I came that they might have life, and might have it abundantly" [that it might be full and meaningful] (John 10:10).
Why is it that most people are not experiencing the abundant life?
Because...
2. Man is SINFUL and SEPARATED from God. Therefore, he cannot know and experience God's love and plan for his life.
Man Is Sinful
"All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" (Romans 3:23).
Man was created to have fellowship with God; but, because of his stubborn self-will, he ch

Redhead Jokes!Q: What's the true definition of a blonde?
A: Redhead with the fire of passion missing.
Q: What is the difference between a redhead and a computer?
A: A redhead won't accept a three and a half inch
Q: What do redheads and McDonald's have in common?
A: You've never had it so good.
AND MY PERSONAL FAVORITE!!
Q: What do you call a woman who knows where her husband is every night?
A: A redhead!

Lqqkin 2 Hang OutI'm lookin for some real kewl ppl in the Metro DC/MD/VA area to hang out with. I'm tired of being stuck in the house staring at the boob tube or talking to mt peeps across the lines.
Anyone interested in going to get some drinks/chats/something.

So Just Who R You?Over the past week I have learned alot about true friendship and fake people. I've known the diffrence between people who will be there for You and the ones that just want to take You for what ever they can get, and turn on You when given the chance. I have alwasy prided myself on being able to know the diffrence, but this time I WAS CAUGHT SLIPPIN. I wont put out any names cuz that just aint me. I think every one has had a person like this in their life at one point or another, and You can probably relate to what I'm saying about those "FAKE ASS PUNK MUTHER FUCKERS". They sure have a way sliding in to Your life just under the radar. I just goes to show that one can never be to cautious in trying to decide who to let in and who to tell to "GO FUCK YOURSELF YOU LITTLE BITCH ASS MUTHA FUCKA" I shouldent be so bitter at these people because it's those type of people that come in and out of Your life that make the real ones that much more valued in life. So to all of the people out in

Wats Ur Hidden Sexual Talent?Using your hands
Your sexual hidden talent is your ability to use your hands. You are damn good with them, and know how to make your lover feel incredibly sexy with just one caress.
Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

My BedI just want everyone to know that my bed is so comfortable. I lay in it a lot for no reason at all, just to be lazy. It was worth every penny.

How Do You Effect People?Tracy Pills:Will cause a decrease in ability to focus
'What effect do you have on people?' at QuizGalaxy.com

How To Become A Christian - Eternal OptionsRealizing how to become a Christian is the most important discovery of your life! Becoming a Christian is more than joining a church or saying a prayer. It is a personal relationship that will last for eternity. Do you know what will happen to you the moment you die? Where will you find yourself? Where is your destination?
There are only two destinations - and both are eternal: You will either find yourself living for eternity in heaven or existing for eternity in hell. Where will you be?
* Eternity in heaven - This destination is reserved for those who receive Jesus Christ's gift of eternal salvation. Contrary to popular belief, heaven is not for the church-goers, the devout, or the "good people." The only stipulation is receiving God's gift of salvation.
* Eternity in hell is reserved for those who reject Jesus Christ and His Gospel. The Bible sums up the Gospel like this: : ". . .That Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures, that he was buried, that he

Thoughts On My Mind....Whats the real reason she didnt come see me?
What next weekend going to be like?
Should i leave las vegas?
When am i going to get my shit together?
Why am i a horrible father?
How is my daughter doing?
Will i ever love another girl as much as i loved her?
Will she ever come back to me?
Why arent i happy?
What will make me happy?
Why do i think about sex so much?
When will i learn?
Why am i such an asshole?
Why dont i follow through?
Why am i so shy?
Why dont i cry?
Will i eve feel "normal"?
Am i going to wake up tomorrow?
Why do i rather spend my life intoxicated than sober?
Why do i spend 90% of my time at home in front of the damn computer?
Am i ever going to have a career?
Did she lie?
Why are some people so fake?
Why is my heart pounding right now?
Where am i moving to next month?
Should i?
Can i?
*sigh*

New ProfileWell I created another profile because for some reason I can no longer sign in on my other account but I don't know why. So yes, it's me. Add me on this profile if you want, and delete me from Ivanna_Tuchmetew.

An It Harm None....Hear now the word of the Witches, the secrets we hid in the night,
When dark was our destinys pathway, That now we bring forth in the light.
Mysterious Water and Fire, The Earth and the wide-ranging Air,
By hidden Quintessence we know Them, and we will keep silent and dare.
The birth and rebirth of all Nature, the passing of Winter and Spring,
We share with the life Universal, rejoice in the Magical Ring
Four times in the year the Great Sabbat, returns, and the Witches are seen,
At Lammas and Candelas dancing, on May Eve and old Halloween
When daytime and nighttime are equal, when sun is at greatest and least,
The four lesser Sabbats are summoned, again Witches gather in feast.
Thirteen silver moons in a year are, thirteen is the Covens array,
Thirteen times at Esbat make merry, for each golden year and a day.
The power has passed down the ages, each time between woman and man
Each century unto the other, ere times and the ages began.
When drawn is the

The Way What Will You Decide?We have all sinned and deserve God’s judgment. God, the creator of everything, sent His only Son to satisfy that judgment for those who believe in Him. Jesus the eternal Son of God, who lived a sinless life, loves us so much that He died for our sins, taking the punishment that we deserve, was buried, and rose from the dead according to the Bible. If you truly believe and trust this in your heart, receiving Jesus alone as your Savior, declaring, "Jesus is Lord," you will be saved from judgment and spend eternity with God in heaven.
What is your response?
Yes, today I am deciding to follow Jesus Yes, I am already a follower of Jesus No, I don't believe this

DeathDEATH
THE FINAL STEPPING STONE
ON THE ROAD OF LIFE,
WHEN YOU CHOOSE IT
THERE IS NO TURNING BACK,
SO I TAKE THIS KNIFE,
AND AS I CLOSE MY EYES,
I SEE YOUR FACE
FOR THE FINAL TIME.
I THINK ABOUT YOU
HOW YOU USED TO BE MINE.
WHEN YOU CLOSE YOUR EYES
SEE ME PLEASE, HOLD ME TIGHT,
MY SPirit WILL BE WITH YOU,
ALL THROUGH THE DAY AND NIGHT,
I WILL KEEP YOU SAFE,
AND OUT OF HARMS WAY.
UNTIL YOU COME TO ME,
ON YOUR FINAL DAY.
YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME
YET YOU WALKED AWAY,
AND I THOUGHT OF YOU
EVERY SINGLE DAY,
YOU DID NOT THINK OF ME,
YOU DID NOT COME,
SO MY DARLING MY LIFE IS DONE.
NO TURNING BACK, NO MOVING AHEAD,
THE NEXT MESSAGE YOU GET
WILL SAY I AM DEAD.
YOUR LIFE WILL GET BETTER
THIS I SWEAR,
YOU WON'T HAVE TO TALK TO ME,
YOU WON'T HAVE TO CARE
SO GOODBYE MY FRIEND
GOODBYE MY LOVE
I WILL BE BESIDE YOU
IN THE FORM OF A DOVE.
FROM THIS DAY FORWARD
I WILL BE THERE
RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE.
REMEMBER ME MY LOVE
THE REASON WHY I DIED
AND UNTIL WE ME

Am I Bi? Well.......am I?I think that I have written this type of blog on just about every site that I've been on. I actually can't believe I've not blogged it here until now but I guess I'll take the time to answer the majic 8-ball question.......again.......
AM I BI?
I have a true appreciation for women and can acknowledge a beautiful one and also find something extraordinary in those that some may consider less attractive. Does that mean I'm bi? No.
I am strickly dickly but that doesn't mean that I'm a homophob. Yes, that term can apply to women too in case you are unaware. I am very comfortable in my own sexuality which is why I am completely unaffected by the sexuality of others. I have female friends that have crushes on me, in which case I'm very flattered. Guys you may not know this but women are pickier about their women in most cases than guys are about their women...LOL. It is what it is.
I am not a person who "claims" to be progressive. I am very progressive, however I've just

Qualities Of A Good Person – The SourceQualities Of A Good Person – The Source
Kind, helpful, caring, understanding, patient, and loving are some of the words that come to mind when asked to list the qualities of a good person. One usually knows a person is good by what they do, such as performing thoughtful deeds. A good place to look for insight on the qualities of a good person is God’s Word, the Bible.
Qualities Of A Good Person – Show Kindness To All People
The Bible instructs us to give to those in need – that is one of the qualities of a good person.
“Don't forget to do good and to share what you have with those in need, for such sacrifices are very pleasing to God” (Hebrews 13:16).
“Tell them to use their money to do good. They should be rich in good works and should give generously to those in need, always being ready to share with others whatever God has given them” (1 Timothy 6:18).
It is easy to show mercy to people we like and those in need. However, a person who possesses the qualities of a good

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GOODNIGHT AND SWEET DREAMS

Its My BirthdayAs always,im very thankful to all my friends who is always been there for me especially my Family..I LOVE YOU ALL..Words are not enough to express how much you've done for me and im truly blessed to have been able to stay with you all..However,a lot of trials that comes in our life since we was young and grown up that sometimes even now we still can remember everything when we was young down to the smallest details.Like me,if i think all over again,bringing it back to life,my mind always feel a strange combinations of sadness and joy...(but its not very tough as what u've think too)now im matured enough and i can manage myself in everything i want to do...sadness,joy/happiness are feelings we always have in our lives...I wish i could roll back the clock and take all the sadness away but i have the feeling that if i did,the joy would be gone as well...so i take the memories as they come,accepting them all,letting them guide me whenever i can.THIS HAPPENS MORE OFTEN THAT I LET ON..

I Can't Think Of A Clever Title This Time..Not much has changed. I went to the general doc yesterday and was told I have a sinus infection. I also got a flu shot. I asked him if it was a good idea to get one because I heard conflicting stories on it and he said that he'd check then he came back and said yeah it's a good idea to get one. So other than a sore arm I'm fine.
Lately I've been wanting to eat everything in sight and in mind. I better be careful because last week I gained 4 3/4 lbs!! I'm getting anxious for the baby's due date to get here sooner. Still three long months to go! Only about 112 days though and about 16 weeks. Doesn't add up right does it? If I'm 6 months and have 16 more weeks to go that would be 4 months.. But the way they look at it is that I'm in my 6th month not necessarily 6 months along but in my 6th month if that makes any sense. So at the end of this month I will be in my third trimester! Pretty cool huh? I just hope she doesn't weigh too much! I don't want her to weigh too much or too little.

Great QuoteNaturally the common people don't want war; neither in Russia, nor in England, nor in America, nor in Germany. That is understood. But after all, it is the leaders of the country who determine policy, and it is always a simple matter to drag the people along, whether it is a democracy, or a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictatorship. ...Voice or no voice, the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. That is easy. All you have to do is to tell them they are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. It works the same in any country.
-- Hermann Goring

Questions To Ponder.....Why do people who know the least know it the loudest?
How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?
If money doesn't grow on trees then why do banks have branches?
Can you cry under water?
How is it that we put men on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?
If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?
Why are you "in" a movie, but you're "on" TV?
Since bread is square, then why is most sandwich meat round?
Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don't point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?
Why do you have to "put your two cents in," but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"?
Why do we choose from just two people for President and 50 for Miss America?
Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up 10 times every hour?
Why does a round pizza come in a square box?

Costume Contestplease stop by and rate my boys for the costume contest show them some love

Worship And The Witness Of The Word In Today's WorldWhen we share our experiences from many different countries we find that in one sense there is not a single "world", but that the situations in which Christians are involved are many and varied, and that the reality with which they must deal and to which they must witness takes many different forms with different problems and different opportunities. As in the Book of Revelation, the Spirit says something different to each church. There is no one exclusive way to worship, there is no one form of evangelism, there is no one challenge given to all the churches. This does not, however, lead to confusion: in a real, if mysterious, way the variety of the Spirit's words to the churches becomes a coinage with a wide currency, assuming additional values. When one church hears what God is saying to it about its life, others may through that situation hear a word which helps them in theirs to ponder the fruitfulness of the word of the Lord.
Are there yet elements which distinguish our varied

From God Jesus And MeShe jumped up as soon as she saw
the surgeon
come out of the operating room. She said: "How is
my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can
I see him?"
The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could,
but your boy didn't make it."
Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer?
Doesn't God care any more? Where were you,
God, when my son needed you?"
The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time
alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out
in a few minutes, before he's transported to the
university."
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she
said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly
through his thick red curly hair.
"Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse
asked.
Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the
boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to
Sally. The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to
donate his body to the Universi

Fucking PoliticiansFuck the Vote. No one gives a shit anymore.. Just look at the asshole we call president. This money hungry SOB is heading us towards a hundred year war we won't win. Because we are in the wrong. The US no longer holds the moral upper ground, we are now into the realms of Nazi ideals.
The Republicans are going to point fingers and call those that want to leave Iraq cowards. We are in 1984, and our goverment is playing Big Brother putting the proper spin on our lives.. The Thought Police are editing what we say, what we do, what we THINK. It's time to drop the double speak, Stand up raise YOUR middle finger off the remote control and tell them FUCK YOU.

For Now It Stays Off...and while I'll check the bulletin board "manually" from time to time, if someone has something important to tell me, use a blog post or tell me directly.
Besides a recent inanity/stupidity/insipidity which I won't go into right here and right now (it probably belongs in the Politics blog anyway), other reasons to consider the Noise-to-Signal ratio in the Bulletin Board just. That. Bit. Too. High-- at the risk of this reader's blood pressure which is not so great anyways – have been .... (In the blogs too, to be fair. Many too many.)
It reminds me of a line from a Terry Pratchett novel (Men at Arms)- everyone has some good in them sir! Yes, I'm prepared for a deep mining expedition... (or in this case, finding the wheat among the chaff.) something like that, will have to find it...

Yeppersgonna go get my lip epierced 2mw after work. i miss it and feel naked without it. and i dont like the scar there either.

Fed Up!!!I am just having one of those days!!! I just want to scream as loud and as long as I can. I wan't to crawl in to a dark space and hide from all reality! Do you ever just feel like you have just lost every ounce of control that you had on you life, on your family, on your finances??? OMG!!! I hate feeling like this and I am just so far into this funk that I don't know how to get out. I am just tired of all the things that are supposed to happen never happening. The things that are never supposed to happen end up on my front porch... My kids are just not in the listening mood these days and I feel lost. I have not that much support. It is just my husband my kids and I. I have one close friend and I have some "aquaintances" You know that group of people that only call when they want something. All our family that is worth something is either in another state or too old to help with things. Lately I feel like I am running up a down esculator that is set on high speed. I can probably keep

My Lucky Night??I bought $10 worth of scratch off lottery tickets tonight and won $50!!! Could be my lucky night? thought about getting my $10 back and buying 2 $20 tickets tomorrow... think I will win more or should I take the $50 and run? LMAO

Gone.as i looked up to the sky,
i saw your eyes,
shadows of yesterday
as i smoked my last ciggarette,
memories flooded in.
I shouldnt judge,
for i am not you,
i did not walk with you,
and for that i am truely sorry.
The lost dreams of a shattered future,
reborn in her eyes.

Why Us?there is this stupid blonde whore who i thought was my friend but it seems i was wrong.me and this guy i like finnaly got together about a month ago and my so-called friend is always telling lies about me and him to each other and the other day she told me that he had kissed 2 other girls and that is wrong i even asked everyone that i know pretty much if it was true and they all said no.and she was not even there at the place.and she said that he wanted to break up with me a week ago and she is still going on and on and on about things and she just won't leave us alone!why us?!?she has a b/f!why does it have to be us she tries to break up?!?!?why can't she just leave us alone?!can't she see how much it hurts?!?even though we know it's not true.?!why us?

Ummm No One Understood!!!!OK so I posted a blog earlier today and I have a few comments on it, THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO DID THAT!!!! BUT, No one understood it I don't think!!! I was referring to the blog I posted the other day!!! I WANT VOICE MESSAGES!!! If you go to my profile under my about me there is a voice message box and you can leave me voice comments!!! Go too the bottom and follow the directions!!! YOU CAN HEAR MY VOICE TOO!!!! I am the first one and it is a message too all of you!!!
THANK YOU FOR THE RESPONCES!!! HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON!!!
~MISTY~

This Is How I Will Die...Bryne: At age 35 the artificial intelligence software you programmed becomes self aware and devours you. You will be saved to disk though, so no worries.
Check out how you die.
SHare yours in a comment if you like. =o)

Call Me!!Wanna leave me a voice comment, its
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to do!!
Just dial 1-641-985-7800 then enter the code 634799
You can use a landline and its no charge. (yippeee)
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Look In To My Eyes!Looking in his eyes
All i can see
Is happiness
Like i see in me
I look in his smile
And all i can do
Is smile back
and say i love you
Holding him cloes
Day after day
this never gets old
This is way i'll stay

Look In To My Eyes!Looking in his eyes
All i can see
Is happiness
Like i see in me
I look in his smile
And all i can do
Is smile back
and say i love you
Holding him cloes
Day after day
this never gets old
This is way i'll stay

Lmao.I think all the studying got to my brain.
Cause im listening to:
Back street boys.
Nsync.
Britney Spears.
And Spice girls lmao.
Kim said ew..
I dont wanta cry a tear for you
so forgive me if i do
if only you were here tonight
i know we could make it right
i dont know how to live without your love
i was born to make you happy

A Bit Of Humor : )Jake next door was on his deathbed. His wife Susan, was maintaining a vigil by his side. She held his fragile hand, tears ran down her face.Her praying roused him from his slumber. He looked up and his pale lips began to move slightly.'My darling Susan,' he whispered. 'Hush, my love,' she said.'Rest. Shhh. Don't talk.' He was insistent.'Susan,' he said in his tired voice. 'I have something I must confess to you.''There's nothing to confess,' replied the weeping Susan.'Everything's all right, go to sleep.''No, no. I must die in peace, Susan. I slept with your sister, your best friend and your mother.''I know,' she replied. 'That's why I poisoned you.'
Apparently Posh and Becks have been hounded out of the UK and set off to Spain to play football and buy a ranch. Unfortunately, after just a few years they are in financial trouble. Years of designer clothes and Brooklyns Pokemon habit have taken their toll In order to keep the bank from repossessing the ranch, they need to purchase a b

Cherry Tap RapYeah yeah so ... this is my rap. I don't rap don't intend to rap but .... it would make a good one if I did : )
The Cherry Tap Rap
As I skim through the pages of all of my friends
I think to myself where does it end
Cause everyone I know is sure to be
In our own lil word on CT
The lounge is a place to sit and relax
For chattin and hearin those hot tracks
then it's time for a cherry fix
uploadin all my newest pics
hopin some cherries come by to rate
an' for a comment I can barely wait
all of my friends would surely agree
Go surf CT an' screw TV
How many times have I thought to myself
Gotta close CT and do something else
But it's hard to quit at midnight I find
I've been on this site since a quarter to 9
The place I'll surely be is a place called CT
Aint got no time for TV as an addicted cherry
spinnin those tracks for you to hear
as I down my final beer
you know u love the way I do my game
and playin requests as they came
I luv ya'll for hear

Shameless Self Pimpin-lolOk ya'll I been commenting and rateing you guys,,,reposting things for yas,,show some love and do the same,,
thanks,,,

Feelings About X Out In The Open.... Release (ahhhh)How does it feel when I say "I'm over you."?
Do you feel the knife? - It stabbed me too.
I don't mean to hurt, I don't mean to be rude.
I only share what I have come to conclude.
Does it hurt as bad as you hurt me?
How much does it make you bleed?
This sounds bad, I mean you no harm...
I'm just so happy, let's sound the alarm!
I'm independent and free!
Allowed to be with me and only me.
Good luck to you in all you do,
Good luck to all the ladies you fuck too.
There I go again, I sound like a bitch.
I still love you as always, but I am rid of the itch.
The itch you made me scratch,
Every time I wanted you back.
I see now that we will never be -
Oh well, who cares? Go fuck a tree.
Shit - Mean again....I am on a streak.
I guess it isn't my style to be so meek.
I'll end this here on a cheery note.
On you I no longer dote.

OddIt was my mother, little niece, older sister and I that went out earlier this morning before my sister and I had to go to work and so we ventured to The Dollar Tree.
Exciting? Not really. The store had the radio on and a song by The Wallflowers was blaring over the speakers. Me being me decided to sing along with it. After all, I tend to sing at any time I feel the inkling to do so.
I don't know who he is but this guy that works there told me of his friend that has a recording studio up in Hartsille..Heartsville? Fuck. How is that town's name spelled? Anyways, the guy told me that I need to go and talk to his friend about getting a demo out and whatnot. I was like, wtf?
'Are you a singer?' -worker
'No. It's a hobby...' -me.
'I have this friend with a recording studio in (dunno the spelling) and he is looking for new talent. Here's the number.' -worker.
'....okay..?' -me.
Eventful, ne?
Question is, do you find this odd?

Given Up Giving A FuckEver have days where you just dont care anymore? Yeah me too.... today is one of thise days. I am boycotting the nice factor for the rest of my night and prolly most of tomorrow too. WHY???? BECAUSE I FUCKING CAN. I don't feel like being the nice one for once! I'ma be a fucking bitch for a little while and see where that gets me cuz being nice sure isn't getting me where I want to go. Soooooooooooooo a word to the wise.... you have a problem with this.....plz keep it to yerself. :)
Kriss

The Ultimate Blasphemy...and Yes I Am Going To HellOk, you want me to believe in some great deity that controls everything, knows everything, and sees everything? Ok. Lets take alook at this deity. So, first this deity creates the world and universe as we know it. Ok, Ill buy that. Creates man, ok, for the sake of argument Ill go with ya on that. Then this thing creates creatures to do nothing but worship it. Um, sounds like this guy is a little egotistical, but ok. Then tells man not to eat something but puts it right there in the middle of perfection. Um, what? Somehow that seems like putting a kid in front of a cake and telling him to not take a taste and walking off. Then this deity gets pissed because one of the creatures doesnt want to worship him anymore and talks man into taking a taste. Hmmm...sounds like peer pressure to me. Supposedly man was created in this deity's image and was perfect. If thats the case, why was man even tempted? That shouldnt have been possible. Then this deity kicks man out of paradise f

Is This On????man...I'm still not sure how this place works... ok, I titled this blog "if I had a web cam..." because Hubby always brags about how if we had one he'd show me off...I don't know if he means it...probably not, but who knows, he's kinky sometimes, lol. Either way...I'm kinda hyped up right now with nowhere to go (if you know what I mean....). Hope everyone out there is havin' a better time than I am right now...I need need a break....bad :(

HeyHey everyone it is about 29 hours before I have surgery. I am a little but nervous and scared. I am pretty upset they wont put me under for the surgery which is almost 3 hours long, but oh well. I shall keep everyone posted on how I am doing

Tee HeeWho's going to the BODIES... The Exhibition???? I AM!!!!!!!
http://www.bodiestheexhibition.com/bodies.html

Stupid Spider.Why does it keep going up the spout again? Doesn't it remember the rain?
On a related note, do you think that rain is caused by spiders crawling up your spout?
hehe... spout.

Weeeeeeeeeeeee!Clearly I've had way too many of those... um.. things. In my brain area. Or something.

Hey Allhey all im kinda new to this thing and im getting use to it slowly thank you for all you people who have stop by and left me shouts and comments much appreicated well look forward to more comments and shouts all take care much love xo

SexyYou scored as Abs/Stomach. You are attracted to: the abs/stomach. You are a abs/stomach guy/gurl.Abs/Stomach67%Face50%Penis33%Butt17%Boobs0%What Body Part Are You Attracted To?(pics) ver. 2.0created with QuizFarm.com

My FamilyDuring my search for all the information I could find on the clan Gangrel. I ran across a new fledgling named Alea. She to had lost her Sire to the flames of a fire. I took her under my protection and began to teach her the Gangrel ways. Alea showed a strong ability to learn quickly. She also showed abilities that are not normal to the Gangrels. So in our travels, she taught me the abilities that she had and some that she had learned from a few other kindred she had met along the way. She became my sister and remains at my side as such. Alea is much more than just my sister, she is my confidant. I still train her in all that we Gangrel are. And in turn she trains me in what abilities she has from both her mortal life and the other vampires she had fed from and ultimately took there undead lives. I will come back to my sister at a later time.
As Alea and I traveled the world together learning from each other. We came a cross a young lady named Cherie she had been seeking out a Gangre

What's Kurt's Issue, Anyway?Kurt Angle is arguably this generation's Premiere pure wrestler. It's hard to find another person with the skills he has at his disposal.
And yet he lately has been exhibiting some very serious personal issues.
5 Weeks ago, he gets released from the WWE, and states on his Website that he has been battling Pain Killer addiction, and needs time to get healthy again.
4 Weeks ago, his admitting to Addiction and other health issues vanishes from his Site.
3 Weeks ago, he joins TNA.
Now, with all respect to Total Nonstop Action - I'm not sure they have done the right thing in seeking his services - And at the same time, I believe Kurt HIMSELF is going to cause irreparable harm to his health.
Why is Angle doing this? His place in history is already assured. He WILL be remembered as one of the greatest wrestlers ever. But is his Ego causing him to push himself into becoming like those like Freddie Blassie, whose quality of life was severely diminished? Or even worse, is he g

Fall Of RomeIf you were to take a look at a map of Europe that is keyed to vegetation, you'll notice something quite striking. France, Germany. Italy, the Low Countries England and Hungary are all dominated by cropland and pasture. Arable country-- that is the kind of land suited to the establishment of federal states, manors and later large cities. These are the areas that we claimed. We went to the mountains, north into the forests of Scandinava,on to the steppe, or south into the uncharted Africa. As a clan, we Gangrel aren't good at staying put. The Beast in us cries out against settling down. When we move into a civilized place, some other vampire invariably has staked out terrain of his own, which leaves us without domain. So we scatter to the winds and stay scattered.
The oldest Gangrel punctuate the era of Rome with the two greatest sackings of the Eternal City: first by the Gauls in the earliest days of the Roman Republic and last by the Ostrogoths as the end of the Western Roman Empire.

"one Wish For You"If I could have one wish for you
I wonder what it would be
Wealth? Fame? Material things?
Not good enough to me.
May all your hopes turn into dreams
May all your dreams come true
May you find happiness wherever you go
These things I wish for you.
While wealth, fame, and material things
Are all good 'tis true
Only hope, dreams, and happiness
Are good enough for you.

InvictiDuring the late years of Imperial Rome, a Gallic Gangrel Embraced two worshippers of the Syrian god Sol Invictis("Unconguered Sun"). One of the pair, whose name is lost to history, faced an early group of vampire-hunters who forced her to great her deity the morning after her embrace; of course, she was destroyed instantly. The other a martyred soul who later took the name Constanus, chose to become a "protector of the undead", if such a thing can be believed. Specifically, Constanus took it on himself to hunt mortals who destroy vampires. Constanus told his childer that he took his mandate from the "Book of Nod" itself, wherein it states that no mortal shall be permitted to raise a hand against those wearing the mark of Caine. Since all Kindred wear that mark, any mortal who destroys a Cainite forfeits his life. Constanus and his brood, The Invicti, took this duty.
Over time the Invivti earned a fair share of debts and boons and obviously the enmity of witch-hunters. They became a po

Carthage And RomeWe, Gangrel didn't have a great presence in either Carthage or Rome. Our abilities gave us the advantage in the wilkderness, on the ride or the hunt. Vast empires and their capitals held little attraction. Certianly some Gangrel spent time in Rome and Carthage, but both were seen as to dangerous-Rome because the Ventrue allowed the Malkavians to share dominance with them, and Carthage because the Brujah and Assamite plan for the city went against to many if Caine's edicts (decree or commands).
The Gangrel acted as Cassandras in both Rome and Carthage; Gangrel elders wasrned the Phoenician Cainites of the danger of Roman armies, but the Brujah and Assamites were confident in the strength of the Carthaginian navies. Still other Gangrel made it painfully clear to late Imperial Roman Kindred that tribes under Gangrel domain planned to attack the Eternal City;they to were ignored.

Greek CivilizationsThe Cimmerians destroyed the Mycenaean Civilization around 1200 BC. What we do know about the Cimmerians is that they were tribal barbarians who lived north of Greece and they fought a few wars against the Scythia. The Cimmerians are said to have split into two groups, the Scythians drove one group northward out of their homeland though if they popped up somewhere else the historical record does not show it. The other group of Cimmerians fought to the death against the Scythians rather than give up their homes and they did die to a man. Now that's conviction.
The Greeks and Scythians fought multiple wars (in later years, Scythia was to become one of the few nations that was not conquered by Alexander of Macedon). Scythians were horse-riders, slave-takers and fierce warriors; Herodotus described their ability to quell a slave revolt by standing firm and holding horsewhips. The fought the Greek Darius to a stand still. They describe themselves as decendants of Zeus or his equivalent.
D

MesopotamiaSumeria represented the first real human civilization as far as the West is concerned. If you ask a Chinese anthropologist he'll talk about mythical dynasties until he's blue in the face,but such things have little importance to us as Cainites. Looking at the eccentricities about Sumeria, their language, their writing, a monarchy and cities, it's easy to come to the conclusion that Sumerians decend from the inhabitants of Enoch. This question is the sort that keeps Kindred anthropologists up all day.
Historically, we Gangrel lurked outside the cities of Sumeria, as we would do with other cities over the next 6 millennia and some still do to this day. As other Caninites roamed these great cities influencing Sumerian culture to some degree or another, we withdrew hid from the eastern giants and at times marauded like barbarians. From reading this I get the impression that back in those nights, when the idea of a mortal city was a relatively new one, savvy Gangrel did everything they cou

"in My Mind"In my mind
We move effortlessly
Across the floor
Our bodies together
In perfect harmony
Our hearts beat in rhythm
To the music of our souls.

PrehistoryAn early draft of the document had been passed around and fell into the hands of a Dr. Nona Abbott, a Gangrel Historian and critic. (this happened prior to me finding thid document). In thois 20 page history there was 34 pages of corrections and footnotes as an initial response. Some of her text is apparently unprovable intellectual wankery or resentful misanthropy, but had a few compelling points which is summerized below.
The rise of cities like Ur and Jericho in Mesopotamia in roughly the Fourt millennium BC marked the end of a purer, simpler culture for mortals and Cainites. From prehistoric times wander tribes of mortals lived according to a matriarchal/matrilineal code. When the tribe spent every day on the move, its social leaders had to keep the tribe together through force of personality rather than threat of violence, for when a tribe is tied to no land it is trivial for a dissatisfied member or family unit to flee the rest of the group. Such a social structure did not lend

Other MythologyTorvas, the Viking has started an entirely different myth of Creation. It is his opinion that Caine was a favored and blessed warrior of Odin. There us no doubt that Gangrels such as Laibon of Africa and Anda of Asia have different ones as well. This is just the stories the European Gangrel shared. The main problem with historical research among the Kindred and Gangrel in particlar, is that we have maintained an oral tradition throughout history. Over time our Elders tend to become monstrous beasts who lack the capacity for speach. If you have information from a reliable ancient source please by all means let me know.
My email address is DanielSilverCougar@hotmail.com
I will read each one and respond to it.

Cainite LegendI hold a pretty plan opinion on Kindred legends about the fall of Enoch and about Ennoia's relationship with the Ravnos Antediluvain, whom some call Ravana: I think they're mostly specious or legend misinterpreted as fact. I'll talk more about this later when I talk about the Rroma. For now, here's the legendry as I understand it. Ennoia and ravana were sister and brother in dome sense. After the Ancients killed the second generation and Caine cursed them, the siblings wandered westward onto the vast steppe of Central Asia. They encountered native tribes, mostly nomads and wanderers and the found sustenance and companionship in them. They Embraced childer creating the creatures we now think of as Methusetahs of the Gangrel and Ravnos clans. A few myths place the number of the 4th generation Gangrel at 4 or 5, but I think that number might be conservative. As I said before, the only witnesses aren't talking. Legends say Ennoia did the same thing to her prospective childer that most Gang

DiasporaArchaeologists say the earliest cities were contempories of the Mesopotamian city of Ur, which existed around 4000 BC. That gives a four millennia period after Enoch during which human kind had been hunting and gathering and possibly building the occasional family farming village. In any of the hunter-gatherer societies Gangrel must have been virtual gods; even in comparison to other Vampires, the Gangrel stood out as the ones who could do the most important things. They could travel with a nomadic group; they could help mortal hunters find the best prey: and they could stand up to any challenge. But they couldn't travel by day of course, but that in itself is a different story.

EnochI shall start with Ashton's commentary on our fabled progenitor "Ennoia". In Gnostic mythology, "Ennoia" is the represents the female half of the God. I can not imagine that our Ennoia is that Ennoia, but onw does hear regular references to our Antediluvain as "Mother Nature". I'm not convinced that Ennoia isnt't a feminization of Enoch, who is named one of the second generation. Perhaps she was one of his mortal childreb or a favorite vampiric child.
Ashton describes Ennoia as a child of Lilith raised by wolves. (Leaving aside the Bibical commentary on the whole Lilith issue and my opinion of feminists who've adopted this myth as their flag), consider what Ashton continues with : "Ennoia took a mate from the pack and bore him children and it is from that that Lupines trace their ancestry". This explains the "special relationship" that the Lupines and Gangrel have apparently. I'm unsure as to what Ashton ment by this , but I assume that he had something specific in mind. We, Gangrel,

Axe And Javelin.As I began my search for any information on the clan, I uncovered a rambling set of papers written by someone calling himself Lord Ashton. I have a strong feeling Lord Ashton was altogether sane when he wrote what he wrote. I had scaned a few if his moe amusing screeds and emailed them to variousdead friends on the net.
It appears on the whole that Ashton was right- in the grand sweep of things- but he had apparently gotten several of the details screwed up.
I will try to distill reasonable truth out of the stuff I've read, from Ashtons writingsand commentary on it, a few conversations I've held with older Kindred, history and common sense. I'm not going to guarantee its unassailable, but its the best picture I can piecetogether out of the amalgam of myth, history and bullshit that I've gathered over the last 30 years.
The scientific estimates I explored put Caine's murder of Abel and God's curse around 10,000 years ago or maybe 10,000B.C., which would be 12,000 years ago. This is

My Search BeginsAs I began my search for any information on the clan, I uncovered a rambling set of papers written by someone calling himself Lord Ashton. I have a strong feeling Lord Ashton was altogether sane when he wrote what he wrote. I had scaned a few if his moe amusing screeds and emailed them to variousdead friends on the net.
It appears on the whole that Ashton was right- in the grand sweep of things- but he had apparently gotten several of the details screwed up.
I will try to distill reasonable truth out of the stuff I've read, from Ashtons writingsand commentary on it, a few conversations I've held with older Kindred, history and common sense. I'm not going to guarantee its unassailable, but its the best picture I can piecetogether out of the amalgam of myth, history and bullshit that I've gathered over the last 30 years.

Gangrel And The GarouThe Gangrel enjoy a special relationship with the Garou. This is, acording to legend, due to sharing a bloodline.
They are our half-brothers. In the beginning when God created Adam, he made for him wife out of the same clay he made Adam. Her name wis Lilith. She was the first feminist and unwilling to be subservient to Adam. She was banished from the Garden of Eden and Eve was made from Adam.
When she left Eden, she was pregnant, and gave birth alone in the wilderness, attended by the wild beasts, for they did not know if they were to be predator or prey. Four children were born, midwived by animals. A bear, a wolf, a tiger, a serpent were all in attendance. All but the serpent recieved a child to care for, whose foster-child was a stillborn.
When the one raised by the wolf, known as Ennoia, was full grown, she took a mate from among the pack, and bore him children. These children were the first of the lycanthropes, lupines, garou, werewolves, or any other name you wish to call them

NarrativeThis is a little bit of the infromation I had found at the beginning of quest to learn what the Blood would teach me. In my mortal life I was a jouranlist, so I will attempt to put together a history of the Clan Gangrel in one spot. Some of the information I have found and seems to be the most accurate is contained in 2 books the first entitled Vampire the Masquerade and another entitled Gangrel Handbook. But I will try and break the information down so that most who read this will understand the inforamtion.
There are a few rules all Kindred follow and they are::::
1) We never reveal what we are to anyone
2) We hold to no prince or their laws
3) We swear loyalty to no one but our clan
4) Our history is never written down but told in stories from one generation to the next
5) We are the true warriors and we often fight for the fun of it
6) Our sworn enemies are Clan Ravonos, but we trust no one.
In doing research on the Clan Gangrel I ran across some books called the Vampire Ch

Rr - An IntroI've been doing the Rants for about 6 years now. I originally did it as a Columnist for a few Wrestling websites, and moved on to do it on my own.
However, time passes, and I let the site go - But the Rant has been living on through Myspace.
So, I've decided to bring it here as well.
Most of the time it WILL be wrestling related, but at times I'll just be ranting at things like Life, Religion, Politics - You name it.

Opening Statement And IntroductionI will be posting both my history and what I have learned though my search of the Clan Gangrel here. I will mark each entry appropriately.
Well where to start I guess at the beginning. First an introduction, bows, I am SilverWolf. A Gangrel Vampire. I was born to the mortal world in 1955 and my given name is Rydian SilverWolf. At age 19 I met my Sire, though I do not know his name. I was embraced into the Blood on Oct. 31st, 1974. Shortly after my embrace, my Sire saught the peace of a funereal pyre. He left me with nothing more than a note and all the money I would every need. The note read," Learn what is in your Blood, follow it, it will teach you all you need to know." So I proceeded to learn what the new blood would teach me.
After learning the immediate skills to survive as this new fledgling vampire. I did not at the time know what type of vampire I was. Everything inside of me screamed that I walked on the outside of normal cultures of most Kindred. But I attributed that

You're Damn Right Im ProudYou are god damned right Im proud. I'm not saying I'm better than you. I am saying I've already been there. Through all the drugs, the alcohol, the decisions made without (apparently) self preservation in mind, I am still here. I've seen the down side of the human condition. I've lived it. I have seen humanity at it's worst. I'm not saying it's right. I'm not saying I'm better than you because of it. I am saying I appreciate my life just a little bit more than you. You scream out how my decisions are wrong. You run to everyone you know and tell them that I have done all these things wrong. But Ive been there. And here I am. Still standing here trying to figure out how you know so much with out being there. You're goddamned right I'm proud. Proud of the fact that I have live thru all that I have and I am still standing here with this fucking kool-aid smile. I'm standing here in front of you despite all the bad decisions, the near overdoses, the trials and tribulations t

Show Me Some......cum on people show me some love i need some cherryTAP points......so show your girl some love please......

Blah.Ive done nothing but study for 3 days.
Im taking a break.
Its annoying.
I think ima change my hair color.
I know i like the black too.
But i unno i just wanta change it.
If i dont like it ill put it back to black.
Blah.

Am I? Would You?Just as a curiosity, I've been going througn the MUMMs lately, and I see an interesting trend...
Seems that some people need reassurance of their Sexuality, or their appeal.
Now, some of them I can understand - You can tell it was sheer boredom that made them post. I mean, if you KNOW you're attractive - Why bother asking, right?
But it's the ones that ask "Would you fuck me?" that are really amusing to me.
Why? Not because they get YES answers - But the ones that get a NO always seem to be so - offended - That someone doesn't like their look, their body, or whatever.
So - Is it just for the ego boost? Or is there something ELSE I am missing here?

This Is My Friend Please HelpOK I'm in YES ANOTHER CONTEST... This one is for my lips.... heres the rules...
Come on and start rating. Contest will end on Monday at 4 pm.
1.) can only rate once.
2.) can comment up to 3 times per pic.
and heres the link.......
SOOO COME VOTE FOR MY SEXY LIPS.
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Suzy-q Rate My Crap Then I Will Add U As A FriendHEY GUYS JUST A WORD SENCE SHE BLOCKED ME I JUST WANTED TO SAY SHE DID IT AFTER I RATED ALL OF HER PICS AND HER PAGE AND NEVER DID I ASK TO BE ADDED TO HER FRIEND LIST AS I ALLREADY HAVE ALOT OF FRIENDS ON HERE IT JUST MAKES ME LAUGH I WONDER HOW MANY OTHERS SHE HAS PLAYED THIS GAME ON WELL IT IS HER LOSS NOT MINE I GUESS IT JUST TAKES ALL KINDS

New Cell PhoneFinally broke down and spent some decent money today. It's not like I'm broke, just hate spending money on stuff I don't really need, but I did it!
Sony Ericsson W300i.
And a Bluetooth Headset just because I could.
So Far I'm Loving It.
-Robert

What Is Failure?What is Failure to a person depends on their thoughts.
Many successful people are familiar with failure as they take them on as lessons to be learned in one's life. You will not know success if you don't know what failure is. The failure you faced are experiences for you so that you can learn from each lesson that life is trying to teach you and it broadens your knowledge and each step of failure which will mold you into a better and more successful person.
The next time that you think that you have failed and feel like giving up, then think of Abraham Lincoln.
Age 21: Failed in business
Age 22: Defeated in a legislative race
Age 24: Failed again in business
Age 26: Overcame the death of his sweetheart
Age 27: Had a nervous breakdown
Age 34: Lost a congressional race
Age 45: Lost a senatorial race
Age 47: Failed in an effort to become vice-president
Age 49: Lost another senatorial race
Age 52: Elected the President of the United States
The real FAILURE i

Why?My world is crashing around me....The bombs overseas seems like they are next door..The baby crying in cali seems to be in the next room..My mind is all over the place and my broken heart seems to be getting worse my health seems to be fading away...Why do I continue to fight? Why do I continue to listen to Dr's? Why?

Tells AlotHave you ever noticed how many people go through the trouble of getting all made up and even put on the best looking panties money can buy. Yet they don't bother to pick up the dirty laundry or pick up the trash on the night stand. Then Take a seductive picture to post here. All I can think is what a messy house.

Imaginative Presentation Of SexOnce you get married the license to perform sex opens and you are free to have sex with your wife/husband.
Marriage is about the commitment to experience life together in intimate partnership.
Within this framework sex can become the ultimate union of two people.
But sex does not always reflect the very cleaner version of what it seems.
For instance many men will tell you that they somehow remove their emotions from the bedroom and that sex is a purely physical act satisfying a need for penetration, ejaculation and stress release.
Thus they can go to any extent to feel that fun out of sex and be free from the various stress and other problems.
Sex is about being naked with your partner. In the beginning we may take this literally but soon being naked means a deeper exposure. To do this in a real and connected way means that you will feel vulnerable. Thus this can sometimes lead to the beginning of the erotic sex in a couple and it is often found that unless and until sex

Thanks For All The Love!!I want to thank Blondie for whoring me out and for all of you who took the time to read her message and come and rate me and check me out! I really apprecaite the love. I have tried my best to return the favor to all of you. If I haven't gotten to you, i will. For anyone else, please come and rate me and check out my pics. I added some new ones!! Thanks, and that is all for now!!

Midnight BlueThe Moon
both, Mysterious and Mystifying
always faithfully illuminating
your path, in Darkness
Midnight
the enigmatic half-way point
dividing, Night and Day
all that is obscure, must
soon surrender to The Light
Under The Midnight Blue
ominous cascades of
purity and Hope, search
for a believer
"When your heart skips a beat, that's simply my thoughts giving it a gentle embrace."

Absurd Cat?You scored as Love Machine Cat. Look out! The love machine is on the loose. You might want to take off a night of permiscuity and go get your junk checked out. Nothing sadder than a cat with herpes.Love Machine Cat33%Drunk Cat25%Couch Potato Cat17%Pissed at the World Cat17%Ninja Cat17%Derranged Cat8%Nerd Cat8%Which Absurd Cat are you?created with QuizFarm.com

Hey EveryoneIf you stop by my page at least leave me a comment on my page or on some pics please... I will return the favor!!

DisconectedI feel disconnected from my heart
as if to be a part of the heart
would somehow at this moment
be overwhelming
all the truths that are so clear
would somehow weigh to heavy
in that moment
so I disconnect
if only for the length of time
it takes to write these words
or maybe a few days more
it is odd to watch life detached
not at all something that fits well this soul
to watch as I always have
yet watching removed from the real
from the soul in life
that I cherish so very much
I promise myself
that I will come out from
behind that growing wall
of misguided comfort soon
after all while the heart
may be heavy
it is a heart uniquely fitted
to just my soul
it will never weigh more
then my human spirit can bear
tjs2k61102

EverEver wish you can restart life all over again? There are times I wish I could, but whats the point in it...NO ONE GIVES A SHIT

HurtHey I have been thinking about a lot of shit. People everywhere do nothing but hurt me. Sometimes I just want to dissapear. I have no reason to be here. My sister hates me...even though I have given her everything...Done everything for her, and he boyfriend. They can't see that if I didn't want them here then why would I have given them the option? They say that I get my way all the time. I make them feel like shit...but do they really know how I feel? I am so fucked. I fucked myself over when I said that they could live here. But it's like I gave them a place to live...it was either that or on the streets. They say the most hurtful shit to me all the time. I can't even talk about this to them cuz I looked to the history of my computer and saw what they have been saying to one another about me. Calling a bitch, that I'm worthless, useless and it was a mistake to move in with me. I think I am just gonna go and cry and be by myself for a lil' while. Love Emilie. xo

Oral StimulationOkay you people with dirty minds...this is not a blog about penis and vagina, although I wish it was. Well, I guess it is indirectly but whatever...
While driving down the road and holding my mans hand I like to pull his hand close to my mouth and kiss his fingers. When he smiles at me I then put his finger in my mouth and link and suck on it as if it is his dick. He absolutly cannot take it. Why is it that things like this excite us? Is it the stimulation and the lubrication of our mouths or the thought of that being done to a different part of our body...more than likely both, but I love to do this when we are getting close to our destination, whether it be home or dinner. He will either want me so bad when we get home or be thinking about me so much wherever we go that he will have no choice but to do me. ;)

My BeautyI really think that balance is the key to life..
I want to not only be a beautiful woman..
But a brilliant one as well.
I want to not only turn heads when I walk in a room..
I want them thinking about me long after I leave...
and since physical beauty is so over rated..
That's why I'm always hated!
So HOLLA AT YUR GIRL!!

Da WeekMan!! so far, it's been kinda crazy, i mean monday was aite, but goin to class and having to liftweights for football and run 100's on the football field which was not dat bad cuz it was cold outside.
I feel like walkin outside naked at times but dat's just me aite.. it's supposed to snow here soon plus football has been gud with the record of 6-1 in conference and 6-2 overrall, we have two games here left and if we win both, we go to playoffs while it's snowing outside somewhere up north n montana which is freakin cold u know...
otherwise... I had to get a new battery for my car because when the driver side tire popped out, it took along the battery and my crusie control too which pretty much sux for real... but i'm gettin da work done on so it's been lookin real gud in my opinion.
I have been gettin over a sore throat sickness that got to my tonsils and made me not be able to eat nothing but just yogurt, wha's up with dat but today i'm finally gettin over it so that's goo

UhgggggI"m starting to get sick and I dont' like it... I get my other shot (the left side) on Tuesday and if I'm sick, they will postpone it... DAMN.... took forever to get this appt.. don't want it postponed......anyone got any home remedies to cure a sinus infection before it starts? lol

How Dark Am I?What Dark Being Are You?
You are a Dark Fairy. This is the least of the dark beings. No doubt you have a dark side to you; its just not common that is comes out, at least that anyone knows of. You are beautiful and gentle, a person that most people like to be with. Youre coning at the way you get things in life, and can be a little self absorbed. Dont let your wings carry you of into fantasy; know that your feet are always on the ground.Take this quiz!
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Lake Effect Snows Tonightwell here we go again lake ontario is ready to bury us again with its lovely lake effect they are calling for close to two feet of snow yeee friggin ha!!! stay tuned for more details !!!

This Is Not My HomeMusic Video:HOME (by Three Days Grace)Music Video Code provided by Video Code Zone
NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, NEVER SATISFIED! THIS IS NOT A HOME, I THINK I'M BETTER OFF ALONE! YOU ALWAYS DISAPPEAR EVEN WHEN YOU'RE HERE! THIS IS NOT MY HOME I THINK I'M BETTER OFF ALONE! HOME! HOME! THIS HOUSE IS NOT A HOME! HOME HOME THIS HOUSE IS NOT A HOME! HOME HOME THIS HOUSE IS NOT A HOME!...
I THINK I'M BETTER OFF ALONE!!!
my song of the moment and cut up lyrics...adrenaline rush...urge to scream, to break, to smoke, to get high, to rebel, to die, to leave...
in case you didnt hear, i've changed now...out of necesity to not get hurt again. i'm coldhearted, i dont give a fuck anymore. i chased away friends when i was the way i was before, so why bother having friends now? i talk to guys i like, guys i want to at least be friends with but then as soon as they hear i wont go along with their hormonal needs, they drop me and it hurts. i'm FUCKIN TIRED of it all!!
i'm tired of co

Help Me Out HereHey gang I am having a great time here on LC. I love this place it is a hole lot better than My space that is for sure. All i need now is alot more friends> So help me out and i will do the same for you. So hit me up some time I promise i will do the same thing for you and i hope that i will talk to you later. Have a great time.
Country Boy.

Sex SymbolsSex is the most pleasurable aspect of life. No one can deny that, The passion that ignites in a person is not an individual thing. Everyone experiences the pleasure offered by sex in its entirety. It is usually said that men most of the time think about sex. Sex, sex, sex and more sex. A human being thinks about sex most of the time and the craving for more erotica makes sex carnal and raw. This mysterious passion and desire for sex is innate.
We usually fantasize about having sex with someone we find extremely gorgeous and alluring. According to a certain study, man fantasize about having sex with women who are extremely attractive , women who possess large curvaceous body types and facial features as opposed to women with boyish or small facial proportions. And, sex symbols just possess that.
The sex symbols in the world since time immemorial have been women who dared to show more skin. Models, action girls, singers and actresses mostly fall in this bracket. Sophie Loren ste

Stranger In My HouseI don't understand
You look just like the man
In the picture by our bed
The suspence is pounding and clouding up my head
I'm checkin' your clothes
And you wear the same size shoe
You sleep in his spot
And you're driving his car
But I don't know just who you are
1 - There's a stranger in my house
It took a while to figure out
There's no way you could be who you say you are
You gotta be someone else
Cuz he wouldn't touch me like that
And he wouldn't treat me like you do
He would adore me, he wouldn't ignore me
So I'm convinced there's a stranger in my house
I'm not sure who you are
Don't see your shadow around when you walk
Ain't leavin' no kisses
Goodbye with no words
If these walls could talk
They would have nothing to tell
So what could it be?
Is there someone immitating me?
Could she be taking my place?
Look me in the face
And tell me that I'm wrong
When I say...
Repeat 1
Pop quiz
Tell me where we first kissed
Tell me where my spot is
Tell

The 22 Traps Of LifeHi my name is miranda . While surfing on the net for few hrs, i found this worth reading article. I would like to share this to everyone.
Trap # 1: The Trap of Tomorrow
Tomorrow. Tomorrow can be feared, or desired. Tomorrow could be anything. Tomorrow could be nothing. This unpredictability of tomorrow is why we must live in the present. You could die today. You could die tomorrow. Wasting your time thinking about tomorrow is a terrible idea. Fearing tomorrow is just as bad as wanting tomorrow. Whatever tomorrow has in store for you will happen. Tomorrow will come soon enough. In fact, tomorrow will come too soon. Screw tomorrow. Live for today. Tomorrow will come whether you like it or not, so stop worrying about it. It’s pointless. Living for tomorrow is a veil that can blind anyone; be strong, don’t be blinded by it.
Trap #2: The Trap of Yesterday
Yesterday. Was yesterday good or bad? Why do you even care? Are you ever going to feel what you felt yesterday again? Prob

The MemoriesPlaying in the corn fileds
Walking through the orchard
Pickin black berries for my
Grandmotherto bake us a pie
As I grow older my memories
are fading but as long as
I write them
down they will be here forever
Never let go of what is dear to you
for that is who you are

What Up Every OneHey whatz up i'm new in this thing and i like to be naughty in bed anytime and anywhere.

Living -kamasutra,..beautiful BreastsIf Austrian actress Hedy Lamarr had once remarked that American men as a group seem to be interested only in two things, breasts and money . Little did she realize that before making such a vague statement, breasts have fascinated men since time immemorial the world over. And no man (straight) can find breasts less attractive.
Breasts have various synonyms in romance novels such as bazongas, cupcakes, boobs, peaches, watermelons, boobies, dueling banjos, floaters, fog lights, hand warmers, hooters, tatas, twangers, jugs, warheads, and woffers. In comparison, "He cupped and gently squeezed her creamy flesh" does seem to elicit a much more sensuous message than, "He grabbed and honked her hooters."
Any woman indulging in passionate and crazy love making loves her breasts being caressed , circled, crushed, fondled, kissed, kneaded, lapped and licked. Steamy love making is never complete without these steamy moves mentioned above.
Historically, breasts were regarded as fertili

ThankfulIm always thankful for people who stay even if I show them the real me, coz I cant be someone others pressume or expect me to be.. it's nice to know you remain while I can just be me..
Saying I love you doesn't only mean loving someone coz you like someone, but for friends, it's the way to show concern and how much you care, so let me send this message saying I'm here for you coz i love you.
It's unfair to think so much of you when you're not missing me at all. To cry when you never shed a tear. To love you when you say words that hurt my heart... and to live when you breathe for someone else.
I loved someone before, I took the risk in loving him even if I dont know what will happen... One day I decided to give up. My friend ask, "Bakit ka sumuko?" I answered back, "napapagod din pala ang puso..."
May mga taong tanga sa pag-ibig, alam ng mahal niya at mahal siya pinakawalan pa! Ang tanga talaga! Tapos sa huli sisisihin ang sarili... iiyak... Ikaw tanga ka ba? Hwag naman san

Woohoo My First BlogOk I am bored and majorly drugged up on pain meds..... so here ya go... wooh
The straight up facts
How big is your bed?
Queen
What are you listening to right now?
something on the tv..... not really sure what it is
What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?
7189 I think can never remember it, I don't call myself
What was the last thing you ate?
a percocet
Last person you hugged?
Seth my son
Roomate?
my hubby, chris, seth and jack teh beagle
How is the weather right now?
sunny, haven't been outside today so it could be hot
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Rhonda from work
What is the first thing you notice in the opposite sex?
eyes,smile
Favorite type of Food?
Italian, mexican and puerto rican
Do you want children?
been there done that
Do you drink?
yep chugging down water as I type... oh you mean that kind ... occasionally... bring on the taquilla
Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night?
y

Letter To John Kerry{This was written by my husband, Aaron, who is currently deployed to Iraq, in defense of a recent comment made by Senator John Kerry. Pass it along, it might inspire someone else to speak up! ~ Michelle}
Yesterday John Kerry said, "You know education, if you make the most of it, you study hard, you do your homework, and you make an effort to be smart, you can do well, and if you don’t, you get stuck in Iraq”
So I wrote him a letter:
I am a Sergeant in the United States Marine Corps. I am currently on my second tour in Iraq, a tour in which I volunteered for. I speak Arabic and Spanish and I plan to tackle Persian Farsi soon. I have a Bachelors and an Associates Degree and between deployments I am pursuing an M.B.A. In college I was a member of several academic honor societies, including the Golden Key Honor Society. I am not unique among the enlisted troops. Many of my enlisted colleagues include lawyers, teachers, mechanics, engineers, musicians and artists just to name a few

We Are Called The Ghost?we ar called the ghost? we are the deadliest elite military force in the united states army. we move threw the dark of the night like a knife moving swift threw the wind. we kill all enemies of the united stsaes and those that hurt the weak and the innocent. we love this great nation. we will die and protect america and our loved ones at alllllll costs. we have honor, self discipline, courage, faithfullness to the corp, and hope and success for our futures and others. we are called the united states army green berets. we are called the GHOSTS.

Lee Roy Mercer Electronic Whoop-ass Gift Certificates!Electronic Whoop-Ass CertificateNow available from the Lee Roy Mercer online store - Electronic Whoop-Ass (Gift) Certificates! Let your friends/family choose their own gift by giving them an electronic whoop-ass certificate for merchandise. Conveniently, it's all done via email. You can choose from one of four dollar amounts: $25, $50, $75, and $100. Additionally, you can choose WHEN someone will receive the whoop-ass certificate.Here's how it works:You purchase the gift certificate and provide the email address of the recipient. You will be asked to pick a date when you want the recipient to receive the gift certificate via email. Forgot someone's birthday? Haven't got your holiday shopping done on-time? You can purchase the gift certificate today and have the option of sending it immediately or at a later date. Personal messages can also be included in the email that delivers the certificate. It's easy, fast, and convenient and it's a great way to let people choose the gifts they rea

Wanna Be Startin' Something-michael Jackson-I said you wanna be startin' somethin'
You got to be startin' somethin'
I said you wanna be startin' somethin'
You got to be startin' somethin'
It's too high to get over
(yeah, yeah)
Too low to get under
(yeah, yeah)
You´re stuck in the middle
(yeah, yeah)
And the pain is thunder
(yeah, yeah)
It's too high to get over
(yeah, yeah)
Too low to get under
(yeah, yeah)
You're stuck in the middle
(yeah, yeah)
And the pain is thunder
(yeah, yeah)
I took my baby to the doctor
With a fever, but nothing he found
By the time this hit the street
They said she had a breakdown
Someone's always tryin' to start my baby cryin'
Taikin', squealin', lyin'
Sayin' you just wanna be startin' somethin'
I said you wanna be startin' somethin'
You got to be startin' somethin'
I said you wanna be startin' somethin'
You got to be startin' somethin'
It's too high to get over
(yeah, yeah)
Too low to get under
(yeah, yeah)
You're stuck in the middle
(yeah, yeah)
And the pain is

Time For Sleepsoon i shall rest my head
my pillow which has been there all along
the one thing that makes me smile after a hard day
a new time to dream
to dream of the things u want
dreams are there for a purpose
a dream is a healing drug
forget your worrys
lose the cares
your dreams will protect you
and when your head rises
and u wish the dreams wouldnt stop
call in sick to work
and tell your boss to
FUCK OFF
love yall night
dutch

Duuuuuuuuuuhhhhlook it u dumb rmy people weve all been there done it every bit counts but plzzz save me the boredom 12 yrs and three wars later do ou think honestly give a fuck no i have zero love u waste your life now the government will not be there for

StuffSo, um, the site design on this place blows. Good ideas, though.
Really freaking buggy, too.

Boringlook it u dumb rmy people weve all been there done it every bit counts but plzzz save me the boredom 12 yrs and three wars later do ou think honestly give a fuck no i have zero love u waste your life now the government will not be there for youlacounthref="http://cherrytap.com/user.php?u=71910&friend=71910" target=_blank>rmyof1@ CherryTAP

DontchangeLately you've been questioning
If I still see you the same way
We gonna both physically change
Now don't you know you you'll always be
The most beautiful woman I know
So let me reassure you darlin that
My feelings are truly unconditional
[Chorus]
See I'll love you when your hair turns gray
I'll still want you if you gain a little weight
The way I feel for you will always be the same
Just as long as your love don't change, No
I was meant for you and you was meant for me yeah
And I'll make sure that I'll be everything you need
Girl the way we are is how its gonna be
Just as long as your love don't change
[Verse 2]
Cause I'm not impressed, more or less
By them girls in the T.V and magazines
Cause honestly I believe that your beauty
Is way more than skin deep
Cause everything about you makes me feel
I have the greatest gift in the world
And even when you get on my last nerve
I couldn't see myself being with another girl
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
So

Perform Good Sex...know The Steps!!! (part 2)Cont....
First Intercourse: The male partner should slowly begin to excite the female by gently stroking her thighs and groin area. The female will respond to these actions by opening up her posture. If the female has never had a close contact with the male, winning over her confidence is crucial point for the male partner. It is always the male counterpart who has to take the initiative.
Gentle talking is the best way to win the confidence of such a woman. It should be followed by gentle caressing, stroking, fondling etc. of her sensitive parts so that the female acquires an open posture. It is also the high time to start undressing the female partner. Intercourse is a bizarre experience for a virgin woman. She doesn`t know how to express her excitement and sentiments. Hence, a prudent male must be watchful of her postures and natural responses. During the first intercourse, a woman leaves her body loose, closes her eyes, and rubs her thighs against those of the male ultima

The Ocean(poem) By:blake A. UnderhillOn cold long nights when I am all alone
Al I need to do is look at her deep blue eyes to feel right at home
She has an open ear when there is nowhere else to go
On some days she can feel like the only thing I know
When I look for an escape or a way to get away
It is in her cold arms I wish that you could stay
She can calm my soul with her every sound
Her soul and mine are eternally bound
She is full of power and unquestioning love too
She will never turn her back no matter what I might do
She is my friend, my companion, and my one true place for emotion
I can always rely on my friend, my companion, my love, the ocean.
From the heart of, me, a sailor who came to terms with the mighty ocean.

Where Is The Love?-black Eyed PeasWhere Is The Love?
by Black Eyed Peas
Album :Elephunk (2003)
[What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance fro

Guess Whatguess what everyone i have new pics you should check them out.

Life....Hey ya'all just a quickie on my life...I've finally made it in to college. And for those who know me you know my waitting has been well over due! It's an art college (2 year) I start my full out adventure tomarrow, I'm a bit nervouse but extreamlly excited to experiance this new change and adventure in my life. On the down side; I've recently brokken up with the man I was with...though I trully still Love him, him and I both know we need a well long extended break (if we even get back together) we were 2 of a kind, way to much of the same person and if any one that has been or is in this same kind of relationship probibly knows why we separated...I just need to find me a new kind of man..A man that can keep up with me (I have quite a rep of being wild) if you like what you see and you think your that guy that can truly keep up and show me a great time, them halla back...You wont regret it trust me!!* Now I never said I'm looking to get in a relationship or anything Just inisent pure Fu

Through The RainWhen you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved but nobody comes
And you feel so far away that you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It’s ok, won't you say
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith and I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And if you keep falling down, don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly and you'll find what you need to prevail
Won't you say
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith and I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don't be afraid
There’s no

New Show Up Tonite!Tonight's a BRAND NEW HOTTEST SOUNDS with another Guest DJ MIX. With another mix from that straight outta Seattle DJ HYPHEN of KUBE FM with 30 minutes of his LEGEND KILLER MIX. You're Gonna love it
The theme for is SOURCES. With Music From Music.Download.com and the first part of a 2-part Myspace Music set. Yes, friends, some of YOU are providing the music. There's so much music out there that I'm going to bring it TONIGHT AND an even bigger show next week. Show me some love and reply to this bulletin to HYPE YOUR PAGE WITH DOWNLABLE CUTZ.
Get Your Tuner Ready and be there RIGHT AFTER THE HARDCORE SHOW Click Here To Listen Live @ 11PM ET-8PM PT
Check out DJ Hyphen's Myspace page: DJ Hyphen
For tonight's show, check the playlist on my RADIO ENIGMA Homepage: The Playlist, Baby!
Check the schedule for the time all up in your area: What Time Are You On, MrScorpio? This Blogs for you
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This Makes No SenseI have 414 profile views and only 54 ratings on my page... that is sad. =o( I want more friends, more fans, and more votes. Please, hit me up and tell a friend. I'm not feeling the cherry love here today.

Bloomthe sun rises
brightening the day
shining its rays down
onto the soft flower
slowly the petals open
the bloom begins to show
showing its beauty to all
the sun goes down
soft light from the room
i see the bloom of my lover
as she lays on the bed
so tempting to touch
the aroma drives me wild
wanting to taste
savioring each drop
finally temptation takes ahold of me
i can not stop
opening the bloom
tasting so deep
using my fingers
to open an hold
probing all around
hearing your soft moans
diving in deep
face covered in juice
licking my lips
not allowing any thing to waste
watching you rise an fall
with each breath you take
feeling you hands on my head guilding me around
taking my time
wanting your complete pleasure
finally
a gusher comes forth
as i drown in your love

Don't Laughat me fucked up accent but I found something I did a while back on a site that you can leave voice messages at etc so did a wee spiel about the Scarybird stuff and where it all came from as i am crap at explaining in writing, anyway feel free to leave voice message questions, as you can probably hear I laugh quite a lot.
Me blethering on about the history of the League of Scarybirds

You!!!!Sitting at your gravesite, none of it seeming real.
People saying "I'm sorry for your loss" or "I know just how you feel".
I remember you; Laughing, Loving, Dancing, Smiling
I picture you; Elegant, Beautiful, Glowing, Curious
We met while still in high school, you were the quiet girl in her shell.
I passed you during lunchtime, It was at that moment that I fell.
We dated; Movies, Dinners, Walks, Talking
We loved; Passionately, Yearning, Faithful, Abandonless
We married when I was 21, and you yourself just 20.
We bought a small two room house, you assured me it was plenty.
We decorated; Tasteful, Expensive, Stylish, Modern
We celebrated; Birthdays, Christmas, New Years, Valentines
It happened one cold winters night, I insisted that we go.
The roads were wet and icy, it had just begun to snow.
Sounds; Screaming, Screeching, Sirens, Cries
Words; "Is anyone hurt", "Are you O.K.", "You need to let her go", "Sir, she's gone"
I've loved noone but you my sweet, I love y

Someone To Love YouI betcha that I could read your mind
And tell you everything you’re going through
Baby, I cry to find a thousand reasons why
You’re alone and acting so cold
Tell me how long you’ve been this way
Maybe I can open up your heart
See, I’ve been waiting all my life for someone just
like you
And I know you’ve been waiting too
For someone to love you
All you need is someone who cares (For someone to love
you)
Someone who will always be there (Mmm...mmm...)
All you need is to say is that you want me to be with
you
Girl, I know you waited so long
For someone to love you
Ooh...
Mmm, mmm, mmm
Baby, I wish I could be there
For every time you ever shed a tear
Baby, I hate to see a pretty girl like you
Goin’ through the things that you do, yeah
Girl, I think you’ve gone for far too long
Without a good man to make you smile
Now how can I appeal to you and make you understand
That I’m here, what are you waiting for
Someone to love you
All you need is s

Hey Allhey all..just wanted to let you know i have been doin some updating to my pictures your more then welcome to take a look.. and if you want some feel free to rip them. if you get a chance could you plz make some comments on them for me and also rate them.. and if you have a chance and wouldnt mind could you plz rate my profile for me..
thank you

Owwi have a massive headache and my eyeball feels like its going to pop out of its socket. that is all.

You Say Vanity I Say RealityWhen others look at me they might see a vain man. It is out of misunderstanding and quick judgment that leads people to this conclusion. When I look at my body I see a thing of the past and a vessel to my ambition. I am on my path to allowing my body to become my vision of perfection. No matter how much pain and perseverance it may take I will mold my body into my temple.
I wasn’t handed genes that instantly made me skinny, and muscular. I am taking what was handed to me and building myself it into my dream. You call it vanity I call it reality. It is no different than showing a new pair of shoes or a new car. You are excited because something you only dreamed of is in your possession. I dream of possessing a mind and body that are sculpted for knowledge and power.
It isn’t easy forcing yourself out of bed to do another agonizing workout. It takes weeks to see the first signs of improvement. It is a long road and not many make it to the destination. It is not a road for the meek

Until Your Resting Here With MeAnother one for some very special people. You know who you are. In both of these dedications...the music is just as important as the pics.....Enjoy!!!

We AreWe Are
Feel us?
we are here.
watching. waiting. listening.
wanting.
searching for a door. a vessel.
ready?
we'll show you things You never
thought you wanted to know.
secrets. knowledge.
we know all.
past. present. future.
open the door...
we are the ambassadors.
we know what it is you seek,
and don't.
we were here before Time.
we are Time.
We Are.
in your dreams, your soul,
your breath, in the back
of your hearts and minds.
remnants of what you
know, but forget.
that nagging, that doubt
that makes you question
what your mothers and fathers
taught you.
like an old faded memory
we hide
feeding in your daydreams,
in your rebellion....
we are.
we are Your potential
untapped.
ignored.
unused.
we have the keys.
open the gateways.
open the doors.
open your minds.
we are waiting.
Ready.
9:22 PM -

Perform Good Sex...know The Steps!!!Your lovely woman, lying on the bed,
grasps her own feetand draws them up until they reach her hair;you catch her breasts and make love:this is "Vyomapada" (Sky-foot).
This is just one way of making love to your woman on bed and having hot sex. Ardent young men, do not neglect the preliminaries! Endeavour to satisfy your mistress. Listen to her desires. It is such a delight to kiss, to caress, to nibble one another... To explore with your hand or your mouth her body, her breasts, her neck, her belly, down to her innermost curves. Fulfilled, the beloved shall return these kisses and caresses wholeheartedly. No part of the beloved's body should be neglected. Her lover shall make it his duty to discover them, to reveal to his mistress all the pleasure she can receive from them.
When Kama is practiced by men of the four castes according to the rules of the Holy Writ (i.e., by lawful marriage) with virgins of their own caste, it then becomes a means of acquiring lawful progeny and g

Quotes Of The Day For 11/2 - Mothers And Motherhood"Children require guidance and sympathy far more than instruction." Annie Sullivan
"Mothers are fonder than fathers of their children because they are more certain they are their own." Aristotle
"Women do not have to sacrifice personhood if they are mothers. They do not have to sacrifice motherhood in order to be persons. Liberation was meant to expand women's opportunities, not to limit them. The self-esteem that has been found in new pursuits can also be found in mothering." Elaine Heffner
"Time is the only comforter for the loss of a mother." Jane Welsh Carlyle

Kinky TestYou scored as Biting. When it comes to being kinky, your biggest turn on is biting. You love the ectasy of teeth sinking into your flesh, and are probably willing to return the favor. Sex just isn't sex without using your teeth.Biting100%Bondage83%Whips67%Blood67%Chains/Handcuffs67%Blind Folds33%What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with QuizFarm.com

Dog Property LawsDog Property Laws
1. If I like it, it's mine.
2. If its in my mouth, it's mine.
3. If I can take it from you, it's mine.
4. If I had it a little while ago, it's mine.
5. If I'm chewing something up, all the pieces are mine.
6. If its mine, it must never appear to be yours anyway.
7. If it just looks like mine, its mine.
8. If I saw it first, its mine.
9. If you are playing with something and you put it down, it automatically becomes mine.
10. If its broken, its yours.

Chat On Cell Phone, Become Infertile?Chat on cell phone, become infertile?
More than four hours a day may lead to less viable sperm, researchers in Cleveland, New Orleans and Mumbai find.
Caroline McCarthy, for News.com
Guys, you might want to put down those Razrs. Cell phones have been linked to just about everything bad these days: tumors, eye cancer, an increased risk of car accidents and even flaming pants. And now you can likely add male-reproductive problems to that list.
Last year, a study by the University of Newcastle in the United Kingdom found a possible connection between cell phone radiation and male infertility, and a new set of results presented this past Sunday at the American Society for Reproductive Medicine's annual meeting seems to enforce that link. An observational study conducted in Cleveland and New Orleans, as well as in the Indian city of Mumbai, has found that heavy cell phone use may contribute to a reduced sperm count and less viable sperm.
Between September 2004 and October 2005, a

Quiz FarmYou scored as butt. You love the butt. You love how its squshie and smoothe. You like to look at other peoples butt allllll the time. You are a loser and need to get a life.butt100%bOObs67%Penis50%belly button33%feet33%What body part are you most attractive to?(cool)((**PICS**))created with QuizFarm.com

Hiwell, this is my first post. so it's going to be fairly pointless! this site is crazy - thanks to all the nice comments from everyone so far!
xxoo

Steps To Wisdom - Things To Ponder1. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.
2. Don't worry about what people think, they don't do it very often.
3. Going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymore than standing in a garage makes you a car.
4. Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.
5. If you must choose between two evils, pick the one you've never tried before.
6. Not one shred of evidence supports the notion that life is serious.
7. For every action, there is an equal and opposite government program.
8. If you look like your passport picture, you probably need the trip.
9. Eat well, stay fit, die anyway.
10. Men are from earth. Women are from earth. Deal with it.
11. No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes.
12. There is always one more imbecile than you counted on.
13. Experience is a wonderful thing. It enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again.
14. Thou shalt not weigh m

Gorilla In A TreeGorilla in a Tree
A man walked into his backyard one morning and found there was a gorilla in a tree. He called a gorilla-removal service, and soon a serviceman arrived with a stick, a Chihuahua, a pair of handcuffs and a shotgun.
"Now listen carefully," he told the homeowner, "I'm going to climb the tree and poke the gorilla with this stick until he falls to the ground. The trained Chihuahua will then go right for his, uh, sensitive area, and when the gorilla instinctivly crosses his hands in front to protect himself, you slap the handcuffs on"
"Ok, got it." the homeowner replied. "But whats that shotgun for?"
"If I fall out of the tree before the gorilla," the man said, "shoot the Chihuahua."

ColdLet me be as cold as ice
Let me Shiver in my own cowerdess
Let my Blood start to freeze
Let my body be cold to you and me
Give a new meaning to the cold sholder
Cold as Ice
That's a nice thought
To not feel a damned thing
To be numb inside and out
Never think of others
Never let others get to me
Just to be Ice cold
Frozen
To feel nothing
To hinder others from touching myself as well
Stay away I want to be ice
I want to be the Ice Queen
So Everyone Stay the Hell away from me

18 Views And 4 Calls, Damn Thats Sad!!!!WELL I FILL SO LOVED!!!! NOT!!! I had 18 veiws on the blog and 4 messages!!! THATS SAD!!! :( Well it will be there so holler at me!!!!
GIVE ME SOME LOVE!!! PLEASE!!! I NEED IT!!!

InterviewingWell folks after years of being a mom and going back to college, I have been called in for an interview with a very good company. I am thrilled about this new direction my life is taking and hope that I ace the interview. It has to be said that they called me I didnt call them. They got my resume from someone and called me. I am so happy. Wish me luck my friends and hope that my life finally turns for the best.

If Your Life Was A Movie, What Would The Soundtrack Be?So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, Creative Zen, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. DON'T LIE AND PRETEND JUST SO YOU CAN LOOK COOL
Opening Credits: David Byrne - Smile (lol don't know why I even have this)
Waking Up: John Williams - Back To The Future Theme
First Day At School: Iced Earth - The Phantom Opera Ghost
Falling In Love: Pantera - 5 Minutes Alone (lol)
Fight Song: King Diamond - 2 Little Girls
Breaking Up: Saigon Kick - Feel The Same Way (omg lol)
Prom: Drowning Pool - Let The Bodies Hit The Floor!
Life: Billy Idol - Mony Mony
Mental Breakdown: Boston - More Than A Feeling
Driving: Champ Car Flyby (LMAO) sound of a champ car driving by at high speed!
Flashback: King Diamond - The Wedding Dream
Wedding: Flotsam & Jetsam - Are You Willing
Death Scene: Rush - Double Agent
F

Clemson Wedding -- A True StoryClemson Wedding -- A true story
This is a true story about a recent wedding that took place at Clemson University. This was a huge wedding with over 300 guests. After the wedding at the reception, the groom got up on stage and took the microphone to talk to the crowd. He said that he wanted to thank everyone for coming, many from long distances, to support them at their wedding. He especially wanted to thank the bride's and groom's families for coming and to thank his new father-in-law for providing such a fabulous reception. To thank everyone for coming and bringing gifts and everything, he said he wanted to give everyone a special gift from just him. Taped to the bottom of everyone's chair (even the chairs of the wedding party) was a manila envelope. He said that was his gift to everyone, and told everyone to open their envelopes.
Inside each manila envelope was an 8x10 picture of his best man having sex with the bride. (He had gotten suspicious of the two of them and hired a priv

ThoughtsMemories reflecting upon my soul
A soul of never relenting anger
Love isn't what it used to be
To my aching mind a wandering
Haunting images cloud the days
Days fun, laughter, tears & fears
Those were the best days
Memories that could wash away
Hurt & despair no longer burden me....
A old willowing tree
Embarking upon the countryside
Chasing away the images
Swallowing up all my pride
Where should I go from here
Thousands of answers
Yet the choice isn't always so clear
Nuture your soul, take the toll and
embrace this life
By,
De Anna Brandon
January 27, 2003

SighI keep feeling.. like, I don't know.
I wish life was simple once again. I hate feeling like I've lost something.. like I'm so empty. Blah, whatever.
God fill my hole please because I'm tired of wishing he could do it for me.

Interesting Chat TodayI managed to speak to Donald who is the head of animation at Edinburgh College of Art so have sent him the stuff so maybe able to get some help with trailers for the projects if he likes it, so fingers and everything crossed.

Spice Up Your Sex Life With SalsaThe different forms of art have always touched the sensibility of not just art lovers but also the common laymen like you and me. The portrayal of art can also be manifested in different aspects of life . The greatest portrayal of art can be revealed in the art of lovemaking.
Of course, all of us have our own personal secrets of making love, which we guard so preciously from other couples. However, there is a novel way to manifest passionate and sweaty intimacy namely Salsa. Salsa is a partner dance form that corresponds to salsa music, however it is sometimes done solo too. The word is the same as the Spanish word salsa meaning sauce, or in this case flavour or style.
Having passionate sex the Salsa way, is the best way to set the temperatures soaring high for groovy moves which can make love-making extremely beautiful. This sensual form of dancing gets hotter by the minute when the graceful gyrations of the woman takes the form of passion . The dance form of Salsa is a seduc

Yes Yes More Updatez On Me..Thursday, I still have that headache for 17 damn days and I finally went to the store and go something for it.. I am going to take it in a bit and than I am going to get some sleep.. Well I hope every one understand that I did not go through and comment on their profile or comment on their pictures I am sorry you all when I get better than I will try to as many as I can.. I have Yahoo groups to take care but I will be on here when I can.. I have to do yahoo groups newz for the memebers in there.. I will try to do what I can ok.. thank you for understanding me..
Virgo24

Someone I'm Not... A Poem Of Lies....Of all the things that I am
These are the things that I'm not
I'm not someone who glows when I walk into a room
Or the person whose smile makes others smile in return
A person who no one takes advantage of
A peson who keeps everything under control
Someone who is pleasing to the eyes of others
And someone that everyone wants to know
Of all the things that I am
These are the things I'm not
I am not someone that people envy for some reason
I'm not someone that works too hard
I'm not someone that doesn't work enough
I'm not someone who gives all of me to anyone who deserves to be taken care of
I'm not someone who doesn't care
Not someone who shoves everything inside
I'm not deserving of others
Not deserving to talk to another
I'm not someone who loves
I don't know how to love at all
I'm not someone who wants to be loved
I'm not someone who wants someone beside her
I'm not someone who even thinks outloud
I'm not someone who needs to take care of others to have

New Meatalright, friend just got me on here.
gettin lots attention right off the bat
yall gona have to be patient, this shit is so fast-paced, i can't keep up. gota get used to this site. but thanx for everythin already.
MWAH
christie k

Star TrekOk Is there any Star Trek Fans On Here If there is get back to me im gonna start posting messages bout some stuff I have found out

OrdinationTwelve priests were about to be ordained.
The final test was for them to line up in a straight row, totally naked,
in a garden while a sexy, beautiful, big breasted, nude model danced
before them.
Each priest had a small bell attached to his weenie and they were told
that anyone whose bell rang when she danced in front of them would not be
ordained because he had not reached a state of spiritual purity.
The beautiful model danced before the first candidate, with no reaction.
She proceeded down the line with the same response from all the priests
until she got to the final priest, Juan.
Poor Juan; as she danced, his bell began to ring so loudly that if flew
off, clattering across the ground and laid to rest in nearby foliage.
Embarrassed, Juan quickly scrambled to where the bell came to rest and
bent over to pick it up.
Then all the other bells started to ring....

Online GirlOne day i wish i can say she's mine
But i know in my mind i'm not her type
And i know in my heart that i am right
Her beauty and her charm sends chills down my spine.
I wish we woke up next to each other all the time
She's smart, sexy, gorgeous, and cool
Me thinking i'll ever have her makes me feel like a fool.
So i guess for now she'll be my on Dream Girl
Cause why would she pick me when she can have any guy in the world............
A poem done by
(Joe Blake)

Spice Up Your Sex Life With SalsaThe different forms of art have always touched the sensibility of not just art lovers but also the common laymen like you and me. The portrayal of art can also be manifested in different aspects of life . The greatest portrayal of art can be revealed in the art of lovemaking.
Of course, all of us have our own personal secrets of making love, which we guard so preciously from other couples. However, there is a novel way to manifest passionate and sweaty intimacy namely Salsa. Salsa is a partner dance form that corresponds to salsa music, however it is sometimes done solo too. The word is the same as the Spanish word salsa meaning sauce, or in this case flavour or style.
Having passionate sex the Salsa way, is the best way to set the temperatures soaring high for groovy moves which can make love-making extremely beautiful. This sensual form of dancing gets hotter by the minute when the graceful gyrations of the woman takes the form of passion . The dance form of Salsa is a seduc

Stubbornshe sits on the corner with a cigarette in her mouth
shes dirty and broken and has no soul
the girl needs help but who will reach out a hand
a girl like her might have whats coming to her
i walk for a while and my mind spins round
should i go back
or should i walk
my mind tells me no but my heart tells me different
i turn around to find this mystery woman
what is it about her that has me like this
shes dirty and broken and has no soul
returning to the scene she lays on the ground
lifeless
she has gone
who was it
was it my fault
a smile and a wave
might have saved her day

PoemToday is the day i begin my new life
I spent so many years searching for a wife
I looked high and low near and far
But she won't appear tell me where you are
I'm a nice guy who feels he deserves the best
So till i find my one love i will not rest
People tell me that i should sit and wait
But most of the time i think i'm too late
What if my true love passed me bye
When i was in and out of relationships that made me hurt and cry
All i want is a girl to like me for me
And than finally and live happy as can be
Another Poem By
(Joe Blake)

PatheticTHE ONE THING I FIND PATHETIC IS THAT I GOT MORE ADDS BY SHOWING OFF SKIN AND TITS AND STUFF THEN I DID WITHOUT DOIN ALL THAT STUFF WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE...MAN THERE IS ALOT OF PERVERTS IN HERE ARENT THERE OH WELL I GUESS I LIKE IT HAHAHA....WELL THANKS TO ALL THAT DID ADD ME EVEN THOUGH THEY DIDNT NEED TO SEE SKIN JUST TO ADD ME..

PoemThe sky turned dark and the rain came down
Thunder in the sky lightning hit the ground
I pulled you close to ease my fear
Dribbling down my cheek a single tear
How dare you leave me on an awful night
Cause you know these storms give me such a fright
If you cared for me even just a little bit
You wouldn't just dump me and leave me in this awful fit
Hold me please till the storm passes by
If you leave me now alone i'm bound to cry
Cry for you love that i once have known
Even though your love for me was never shown
I loved you to the ends of the earth and back
But now i feel your love for me was just a silly act
So take your fake love and leave me be
It's ok i'll survive trust me you'll see.
Another Poem By
(Joe Blake)

PoemI was walking through the pouring rain
I saw a girl holding her ankle she seemed to be in pain
She had a bloody lip and a ripped up skirt
I looked at her closely and she had a black eye
She said her man beat her for talking to a guy
I picked her up and carried her to my home
Cause what she had gone through she shouldn't be alone
We got back to my house and she said with a fright
There is no way i can stay here with you tonight
I said fine i'll take you back to that awful man
That treated you like shit and beat you with his hand
2 days later i opened the paper and saw an awful sight
You that girl that i helped.....well her man got mad and killed her last night

Your Zodiac And The Way You Kiss ;))) WowwwwwwAries
Your kisses are quick and passionate fits of lustful pleasure that are there and then gone
Taurus
Your kisses linger; they are deliberate, heartfelt and they can go on and on and on.
Gemini
Your kisses are interrupted by spasms of giggles, smiles and funny observations.
Cancer
Your kisses are warm and tender, and you never want to let them go.
Leao
Your kisses are wild and uninhibited, biting and clawing; you expect applause for your performance.
Virgo
Your kisses are so subtle and tidy, your lover only notices them once you've finished.
Libra
You're too busy worrying about your breath to really get into your kisses.
Scorpio
You skip the kiss and get straight to whatever comes next for you.
Sagitarius
Your kisses are surprising, spontaneous affairs that leave the kissed wanting more.
Capricorn
Your kisses are intense moments of sublime relief from th

Not Dealing With It So Well....Well he left....he's gone....back to florida. The love of my life, gone as quick as he came. I miss him so much....already...my head is pounding so bad from the tears that have fallen from my eyes. The thing is I didnt even cry when he left...I didnt break down till I got home, to my empty house...with no history channel or the miltary channel on. Silence....the scent of his colone filled my nose when I walked into my room grab something, and that is when it hit me. And it hit me hard. It felt like running into a brick wall. I fell onto my bed just ballin my eyes out. And I havnt been able to stop since. I want him to come back....oh god how I want him back here. :: cries ::
Cry baby aka
Natasha :: Ernies Perfect Drug ::

Dedication To LoriThis is a follow up to The Last Walk Blog
I remember that day
as it was yesterday
A day that ended in tears
For thirty years you were always there
A sweet memory incased in my mind
As the days and years went by
I often sat and wondered why
why two people so much in love
were forced to live apart
Although our lives went seperate paths
we were never far apart
The day your sister told me
My heart just fell apart
I read your letters to her
and if only i had knew
I would have walked the thousand miles
To bring you back into my arms
But deep in my heart I know
You are waiting for me
At the Gates of heavan
To be together once again
Lori and me were childhood sweethearts but sadly she had to emigrate to Australia with her parents, over the years we never lost touch and exchance letters cards etc. Both of us had failed marriages. Tragically three years ago she was killed in a bush fire in Australia. her sister showed me the letters she wrote her saying she wished s

God Is Soooo Very GoodAfter living what I felt was a "decent" life, my time on earth came to
the end. The first thing I remember is sitting on a bench in the waiting
room of what I thought to be a courthouse. The doors opened and I was
instructed to come in and have a seat by the defense table.
As I looked around I saw the "prosecutor." He was a villainous looking
gent who snarled as he stared at me. He definitely was the most evil
person I have ever seen. I sat down and looked to my left and there sat
My Attorney, a kind and gentle looking man whose appearance seemed so
familiar to me, I felt I knew Him.
The corner door flew open and there appeared the Judge in full flowing
robes. He commanded an awesome presence as He moved across the room. I
couldn't take my eyes off of Him. As He took His seat behind the bench,
He said, "Let us begin."
The prosecutor rose and said, "My name is Satan and I am here to show
you why this man belongs in hell." He proceeded to tell of lies I tol

One Question,its Important To MeI was wondering if you think im hung enough, or do you think I need enhancment pills...I was just wondering and love to know what you ladies think.
Please give me feedback, It important to me

PoemTHE GIRL I WANT
BY:
JOSEPH BLAKE
I want the girl to love me for me
Not the guy that she wants me to be
I want her to share my joy and pain
I want her to be nice not really insane
I want a girl that i can trust
Cause if she cheats on me my heart will turn to rust.
I want a girl to be honest and kind
I want a girl i can trust all the time
So i'll search the world from back to front
Until i find that girl, The Girl I Want

How Do Things Look To You Today?How do things look to you today?
The wicked will not rule the godly, for then the godly might be forced to do wrong.
Psalm 125:3 NLT
Seeking what is really there
"Life under Louis XIV was not easy for the French Huguenots. They loved to sing psalms, but the king made an edict that forbade the singing of the Psalms almost everywhere. So the Huguenots went out to the fields and forests and continued their singing. Psalm 125 was a favorite of theirs, maybe because it said that the wicked would not rule the godly. Or maybe it was because the Huguenots could see something that Louis XIV couldn't see.
Remember the story of Elisha and his servant (2 Kings 6:8-23)? The servant couldn't understand why Elisha wasn't bothered about the hordes of enemy soldiers surrounding them. It looked like disaster, but Elisha could see horses and chariots of fire surrounding the enemy soldiers.
The same has been true for many other saints, including Paul and Silas, who sang at midnight

Attractive Booty!'The buttocks are the most aesthetically pleasing part of the body because they are non-functional.
Although they conceal an essential orifice, these pointless globes are as near as the human form can ever come to abstract art." This memorable quote by Kenneth Tynan is nothing but the insightful truth on the beauty of the human body.
Nothing seems more attractive to men than women's booty in super tight sexy jeans. As for women, most of them pay attention to men's buttocks first and foremost - they find them much more gorgeous than anything else that a man can boast of.
Super hot celebrities like Jennifer Lopez, Kylie Minogue, Cindy Crawford, Eva Mendes, Eva Longoria, Charlize Theron , Kate Winslet, Catherine Zeta Jones ,Sophie Loren and someone I know here are known to have the best backsides in the world.
Arse, backside, booty, caboose, apple cheeks, bum, cushions, rump and tush are most commonly used terms for buttocks.
Since time immemorial , buttocks are consider

Sex And Relationships With Libra ~~ Darkside HoroscopeSEX!
Easy, Teasy
At first provocative glance, you are sex on wheels (well, you've got the Brightsiders fooled), Hmmm, You flatter and flirt, fondle and kiss, and make boudoir eyes at your prey; but you don't do unbridled lust because that would make you sweaty and out of control. When you look deeply into your lover's (or lovers') eyes, it's because in those dark pupils, made huge by desire, all you can see are the reflections of two perfect little yous. So let's be frank, you are in it for the money, or the sports car, or the Rolex; you do sex because it's better than working, not because you can't help yourself.
And no one could say you don't do a professional job; you know everthing there is to know about seduction, deferred gratification, and teasing, and you've got a very naughty toy box; but by the time you have adjusted the mirrors, lit enough candles to constitute a fire hazard, slipped in and out of something more comfortable several times, and reconfigured the satin

"lead Us Not Into Temptation. Just Tell Us Where It Is; We'll Find It.""Lead us not into temptation. Just tell us where it is; we'll find it."
This profound yet humorous quote by Sam Levenson is a true statement for those who want indulge their desires and can't resist temptation.
Everyone on this planet are tempted one way or the other. Like all other natural processes in the world, temptation is nothing new. Temptation is mostly strong. Some resist temptation and others succumb to it.
Which (straight) man can resist an absolutely stunning woman with a beautiful and an hourglass body?
Like all other passions in life, the desire to have sex reigns super strong. This act is a basic need like eating food to satiate your hunger. The idea of passionate sex with a beautiful person is inexplicable. All of us fantasize about sex most of the time with a beautiful stranger we met on the street , club , next door neighbour, an extremely curvaceous model or may be even hitting the sack with dream fantasy icon Angelina Jolie.
For those lucky ones who

Freedom-->unto Lawless GrammarI've been Freed......Thank you Nightshade
Nightshade replied to a message i sent her. it was her reply that led to my rescue. The actual relpy is not relevant. It was just that Nightshade was being Nightshade.
Here is excerpt .......... an exchange of mind material...... two warriors united in cause. One blind (me) the other blind as well (Nightshade) ..................my captors were identified...........my freedom unshackled. ..a valiant story ---------------> let your light shine forth..... if it is from within you don't need to see......... to lead others to be free
NightShade not wanting to take credit..... well didn't even know. ...........and even if she had would probably not want credit..................... lead me quietly (with unconcious focus) to the land of lawless grammar.
Nightshade, you gave me one of those ahaass. You can't really battle an enemy you don't know. Punctuation.....
A dark angel... posing... as an angel of light......... its name

One Of Those Dayz... :pI amjust having one of those days!!! I just want to scream as loud and as long as I can. I wan't to crawl in to a dark space and hide from all reality! Do you ever just feel like you have just lost every ounce of control that you had on you life, on your family, on your finances??? OMG!!! I hate feeling like this and I am just so far into this funk that I don't know how to get out. I am just tired of all the things that are supposed to happen never happening. The things that are never supposed to happen end up on my front porch... My kids are just not in the listening mood these days and I feel lost. I have not that much support. It is just my husband my kids and I. I have one close friend and I have some "aquaintances" You know that group of people that only call when they want something. All our family that is worth something is either in another state or too old to help with things. Lately I feel like I am running up a down esculator that is set on high speed. I can probably keep o

Soundtrack Of My Life...this Is Awesome!!!So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, Creative Zen, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. DON'T LIE AND PRETEND JUST SO YOU CAN LOOK COOL
Opening Credits: She Is Beautiful – Andrew W K
Waking Up: Young And Depressed - MXPX
First Day At School: Thriller – Kidz Bop
Falling In Love: Build An Army - Fightstar
Fight Song: The Monorail Song – The Simpsons
Breaking Up: Here It Goes Again – OK Go
Prom: This Is Halloween – Marilyn Manson
Life: Obvious – Blink 182
Mental Breakdown: Young And Hopeless – Good Charlotte
Driving: All The Things She Said – t.A.T.u
Flashback: Be A Man – Aqua (lmfao)
Wedding: The Sharpest Lives – My Chemical Romance
Death Scene: Trashed And Scattered – Avenged Sevenfold (hahaha)
Funeral Song: Snow White Queen - Evanescence
End Credits: Sweet Transvestite – Frank O (ha

What Sign Is Your True Love?Your True Love Is a Scorpio
Why you'll love a Scorpio:
Strong and sexy, Scorpio will overpower you into falling in love (before you even realize it!).
You'll love being swept away by Scorpio - into a world of insane passion.
Why a Scorpio will love you:
You don't mind letting your Scorpio take the reigns, as long as you know you're truly cared for.
Loyal and devoted, you would never do anything to set off insanely jealous Scorpio.
What Sign Is Your True Love?

Which Laguna Beach Character Are You?Take the quiz: Which Laguna Beach Character are You?LCYou are LC, very fashionable, rich, and GORGEOUS. You are bitchy but in a silent way. Who cares though with looks like that!?Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!

Just Not In The Mood For WordsJUST NOT IN THE MOOD FOR WORDS
Looking into life lived
the past and present fold into
leaving me at a loss
for all word
the mood is passion
action
lips mouthing
hands fingering
body testing the bonds
letting the passion flow from the outside in
feeling it make me
mould me
drive me
to the furthering of the me that I am
love flows in the veins
passion guides the thought
just not in the mood for words
give me you
to feed upon
let me live
in your world
your hand upon all that drives me
let me feel your touch

New Pix! New Piercings!YAY! I got my eye brow and nose pierced and I took three new pix! Check em out and rate them!

Your Personality...............repostYour Personality Is
Guardian (SJ)
You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.
Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules.
You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.
You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you.
A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.
You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up.
In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly.
At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions.
With others, you tend to be polite and formal.
As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself.
On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!
The Three Question Personality Test

Warning New Fruad!!!Someone e-mailed me a few days ago telling me I won some powerball sweepstakes online..BULLSHIT!!
I did somehomework today and found out that these people have stolen info from powerball and are trying to say its a new overseas thing they are trying..Please anyone with half a mind would know it is fake...Well now thats off my chest..I feel tons loads better

What Drug Is Your Personality ?Your Personality Is Like Ecstasy
You're usually feeling the love for the world around you - you want to hug everyone.
And while you're usually content to sit back and view the world with wonder...
Sometimes you're world becomes very overwhelming and a little scary.
What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

New Concepts Of Matter, Life And MindNew Concepts of Matter, Life and Mind
by Ervin Laszlo
Author, Founder of Systems Philosophy
In light of the current, revolutionary advances in the natural sciences and in the study of consciousness, the concepts of matter, life, and mind have under-gone major changes. This paper outlines some basic aspects of these changes, taking in turn the emerging concept of matter, of life, and of human mind and consciousness.
The concept of matter
The Western common sense view has held that there are only two kinds of things that truly exist in the world: matter and space. Matter occupies space and moves about in it and it is the primary reality. Space is a backdrop or container. Without furnished by material bodies, it does not enjoy reality in itself. This common sense concept goes back to the Greek materialists; it was the mainstay also of Newton's physics. It has been radically revised in Einstein's relativistic universe (where spacetime became an integrated four-dimensional mani

BeautifulBeautifully stated
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. So send this to all of your friends (and me)and remind them how precious life is , not to get mad over the small things.......

What Type Of Girl Are You??You scored as Popular Bitch. Popular Bitch100%Hippy69%Slut50%Nerdy Girl44%Athletic Tomboy38%Preppy Girl31%Goth0%Loser0%What type of girl are you?!!created with QuizFarm.com

Poor Dan..lolSubject: Poor Dan..............
When Dan found out he was going to inherit a fortune when his sickly father died, he decided he needed a woman to enjoy it with. So one evening he went to a singles bar where he spotted the most beautiful woman he had ever seen. Her natural beauty took his breath away.
"I may look like just an ordinary man," he said as he walked up to her, "but in just a week or two, my father will die, and I'll inherit 20 million dollars."
Impressed, the woman went home with him that evening and,
three days later, she became his stepmother.
Women are so much smarter than men..

Will You Be Abducted By Aliens??????............repostYou have a 50% chance of being abducted
You have a fairly good chance of being abducted. You may be somewhat skeptical about the existence of aliens, but you know that they could exist… somewhere.
Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com