You made and broke your first promise to me while we were still very little. It happened after two months from our first meeting. We met in the kindergarten and somehow clicked immediately. I’m the kind of person who likes most people but you were difficult to read. I still remember your shocked expression after our homeroom teacher announced that you’re going to be responsible for girls group while playing games with boys. The teacher said that you are born leader and everyone agreed with it. Only you needed more convincing to do this. As much as you disliked the position you were put into, you did your work without any mistakes. That’s why we won so many war games against boys. The first promise you made sounded something like this: “Why would I ever make fun of you? I will never, I promise” But you did. Of course most of the time you joked about my height, some other friends of mine did that as well. Yuko, the squirrel girl, as most people used to call her, also joked about it even though she was only a couple of centimeters higher than me. How silly, right?

You made and broke your second promise when we started going to school. You promised to sit with me during all classes but as we grew up, our interests varied as well. We found new friends, we spend less time together and sat together only during the easy classes. But it wasn’t bad and I was glad to spend as many time with you as I got.

You also made a lot of small promises which if I’m being honest I have never believed in as they were kind of crazy and unreachable.

“I will call you every night before we go to sleep! Even if we spend that day together I will still call you to check up if everything’s alright!”

“I will take care of you when you get sick! I promise”

“I will escort you home after school at least a couple of times during the week”

“We will travel the world together! We will go everywhere! Just the two of us! How about that? It’s a promise!”

“I will always be your best friend, no matter what”.

In your defense you tried to keep up with these promises. For almost all year you managed to escort me home at least once a week and you did take care of me when I got sick. You had to stop that as it always progressed into you getting sick as well and skipping school for way longer period of time that I did. You even planned our trip around the world after our graduation and kept talking about it with passion. Even if I laughed it off you still didn’t give up and told me that we will certainly do it. “Just you wait!” You kept on insisting.

One year before our graduation you made a promise that our friendship will never alter. If we find someone to date we still find time for one another. You told me this so seriously that I thought that you were already in a relationship but that was not the case. Surprisingly for both of us, I was the first one who started dating. Few months later after our talk. But you broke this promise as well. You started avoiding me, didn’t text me back, answered my calls only if I repeatedly called for more than two times and left voice mails.

I was angry as you were the one who suggested this so I cornered you. I demanded explanation to this behavior and you snapped. You told me that you love me. As shock overtook my body I didn’t manage to say anything back. You even kissed me but I stood there frozen and felt the heat only after you left.

That same evening I got a long message from you but the only part that I kept rereading again and again was about another promise you decided to make: I’m so sorry, Minami. I can’t do this anymore. I just can’t be your friend now. I’m leaving for three months tomorrow. I will miss our graduation but that’s probably for the best. I know I broke so many promises during these years but this time I’m serious… I promise I will forget all the feeling I have for you. It might take some time but I will get over you. I know its going to be weird for you. It will be for both of us… I hope you still want to save our friendship. I promised you once that we will always be friends. I hope you can forgive my foolishness for trying to destroy that with my stupid feelings”

You turned off your phone and I couldn’t reach you for four months as you dissapeared for longer than you mentioned. Only a week has passed and I was already single and unsure of what to do next. Only when I couldn’t see or hear for you everyday I realized my true feelings for you. Our mutual feelings. But I couldn’t do anything about it.

You came back and told me that its okay now and I don’t need to worry. That was the moment I stop myself and started shaking and crying with a thought that I lost you. You hugged me immediately confused why I got this way.

That’s when I confessed to you. Also, that was the moment I was the happiest person alive as I’ve learned that this was another promise that you couldn’t keep.

“What?” Rena asked Jurina confused. Just a second ago these girls were walking down the street and talking about random, everyday stuff like practice, dance moves, the future of SKE and their past concerts. But all of a sudden Jurina seemed very determined and serious.

“You know how people these days are obsessed about happy endings? Romantic movies or even comedies have to end happily. Books as well. There are people who even get angry if someone goes wrong along the way though let’s face it that’s author’s choice after all. They are so obsessed with endings and forget about the beginning and the middle. Isn’t that the most important part? To be happy right now?”

Rena stopped for a moment and looked at Jurina. They have been dating for almost two years now. Of course no one knew about this as they were forbidden from relationships. Only Churi and Airin suspected something but they never confessed to it. After all this time this was the first time when Jurina talked in such a serious manner.

“Are you…breaking up with me?” Rena asked honestly confused.

Jurina also stopped in her tracks and turned around to face her lover. She even laughed quietly but as she suspected that older Matsui can get angry at this and answered immediately “Why would I do that? Of course not! I love you!” She walked closer to Rena and took her hand. After all, no one cared if they saw two girls walking down the street and holding hands. “What I want to say is… you gave me a happy beginning… and I’m really happy right now. I just don’t want us to obsess about a happy ending. I want us to enjoy every moment as it is. Can we do that?”

There weren’t a day in my life when I wouldn’t have to hide your little so called “love bites” from others. Usually a layer of make-up did the trick. Other times two layers weren’t enough. Every time you saw that I’m hiding them you get a little angry and mischievous. Mischievous to the point where you were convinced — previous love bites weren’t enough.

Day by day I had to explain your love bites for my co-workers, boss, friends and even relatives. Some got curiuos, other looked at me suspiciously and wondered if I’m hiding my future husband from them. No not a husband… not a guy either. Quite the opposite. I was hiding a squirrel looking girl who just couldn’t get enough of me.

Only one of our mutual friends knew about our secret relationship. Only Minami kept laughing every single time when someone mentioned your love bites and I lowered my head trying to hide my blushing face. I was embarrassed… how could I not be?

Also, only Minami pointed out the thing I never considered before… the fact that we’re both the same. I realized it clearly as I saw you walking in a fast pace from smirking Atsuko because of my special love bite that I left on you neck last night.

I ran as fast as I can. I was breathless, even felt that I might lose consciousness at any second but I still kept on running. This can’t be happening. That’s not true. It can’t be… just can’t. These and similar words were aimlessly reaching my mind and I couldn’t block them. I couldn’t block the bad thoughts either. Actually the more I ran and the closer I get to the hospital the more tantalizing they were. I couldn’t take it anymore. I even breathed out with relief when I finally reach the place. Relief that shouldn’t be there… relief that soon was washed away from me.

“I’m so sorry, Rena… they tried to save her. They really did… but they couldn’t do anything. She’s dead”

Churi kept repeating these words with tears in her eyes but I couldn’t believe it. I kept on insisting that it can’t be true, that its just a nightmare. That I will wake up next morning and everything will be alright. I fainted back there because of shock, shortage of breath and never stopping tears.

Only few weeks later after the funeral Churi and I sat in my room and talked about everything. We couldn’t meet anywhere else because I didn’t want to leave the place where Jurina and I shared our happiest moments. I felt exhausted and couldn’t even cry anymore. Churi mentioned that I’m emotional mess right now but as Jurina’s best friend she understood me the best. She’s the only one I talked honestly about all of this.

“She was always so reckless…rushing to meet me no matter what… if I haven’t called she wouldn’t had driven so fast”

“Yeah, Rena… but she has never been careful. She broke her leg couple of times before, do you remember? She always ran whenever you called even if she had enough of time. She loved you too much to wait another second… everyone around her saw it. I think even Jurina realized this but she didn’t care”.

“That’s not fair, Churi… if I wasn’t in the picture maybe… its not fair”.

Churi frowned a little and scolded me “Jurina wouldn’t want for you to blame yourself. Also, she was the happiest when she was with you. I’m pretty sure she was in cloud nine when she was driving to see you… maybe she even di…” she stopped herself as we both promised not to mentioned word death as to this point I still couldn’t accept the truth. “You should go out more… you can’t stay locked in this room…”.

Easier said than done. Still after few more weeks I managed to leave my home. Most of the time I visited Jurina’s grave. Other times I just sat in the park and started blankly at the view in front of me. Until one day everything changed.

“What’s on your mind? It seems like you can’t get over something”, unknown girl commented as she sat next to me. Strangers never bothered to talk with me and I didn’t bother to answer but this time felt different. Something about her was different. I couldn’t quite grasp what that was.

“I lost someone I love… I don’t really care how it looks”.

“Oh really? And this park has significant meaning for both you and that person, right? I can see it in your aura”.

“What? Yes its was our special place but… why are you talking so strangely…and who are you?”

“You can call me, Airin, but that doesn’t matter. So what would you say if I told you that I can take you to one exact moment in time where you can change something. It can be something that occurred three or five years ago, even ten. Well, actually ten is my limit.”

“I would say that its the craziest thing I have ever heard and I have to go”, I stood up angry thinking that this stranger is mocking me but she caught my hand and smiled sympathetically “think about this… what if there’s such opportunity and you will just pass on it? You know… you can go for now… if you come to this park tomorrow at the same time like now and tell me the date… I will bring you there. I’m sound like a crazy person and I’m aware of this but you should at least consider my suggestion. Take your time. If I won’t see you here tomorrow…I will understand your answer”. She let go of my hand and I just ran. Who would believe something like that? That’s insane.

Still it kept bugging me for all day long, I couldn’t sleep at night either. What if? Without me realizing I left my home early in the morning and went to that park. I still had few hours for the exact time when I met the strange girl. Maybe that’s just some trick and someone will actually abduct me or will try to kill me. Do I care? They can do whatever they like. But what if…?

After two hours Airin sat next to me. I didn’t see where she came from as it looked like she appeared from thin air. Before I opened my mouth she commented “I can hear your answer…I can see where you want to go… good luck”, she smiled friendly, stood up and walked off.

This must be fake. I sat on that bench for few more hours but nothing happened. The feeling was so strange… while sitting I noticed something. The newspaper…I need to see the date on that newspaper. I ran after the old lady and asked nicely to see the front page. 2011/09/19… four years ago. I need to get out off here. I looked around and hid behind the tree when I saw familiar figure walking down the path to the same bench that I sat on before. Jurina, my baby… you’re here. I just stared at here for ten minutes while hiding. I remember this day as it happened yesterday. We met in this park after chatting for some time on the internet. We came here with distrust because someone you met on the internet can be killer or just child who wants to play games. But after three months of communication through Tumblr we decided to risk it. That was the day we fell in love with each other and Jurina never left my side after it. Until she died… I had to remember this. I forced myself to remember it because that was the reason why I was here. In this moment in time. My heart wanted to go… go there and meet Jurina all over again. But my mind told me otherwise… that’s why I turn around and walked out of her life. Not that I was even in her life… at least not in this reality. Jurina will probably think that her pen pal stood her up. Its better this way…I can’t be selfish now.

She will never know about me but at least I got a chance with her. At least I know that she will live…she will meet someone else and be happy… even if all of that happens without me.

(Btw, it's appreciated if you check out some of my fics and oneshots... ) Anyway, looking forward to it! Maybe Airins an actual person instead of someone who can get people back in time, I can't wait to see her character.

“I don’t like this idea at all… how you two even came up with it?” Akane asked while glaring at her two best friends Matsui Jurina and Matsui Rena. Double Matsui somehow managed to convince Akane go on a blind date. At first she was excited but at this moment it sounded like the worst idea ever. She was way too nervous and wanted to back out of it. If not her friends (who were actually dating and hoped that Akane can find her happiness), the girl would have stayed at home and missed out this date.

“Please repeat to me what I need to know”, Akane asked her friends with obvious nervousness.

“Her name is Airi. Furukawa Airi. Yuria, Kanon, Kumi, even Akari know her and you have to remember that Akari is quite picky with her friends. Airi is quite artistic so she can understand your passion for photography. She also likes to draw… oh and also she’s kind of obsessed with anime and manga. They are pretty sure that you’re gonna like her… and they are probably convincing the girl to go on a date with you at the moment too”.

“Oh… so she needs convincing?” Akane asked quite annoyed after Rena’s speech. Obviously she just tried to get out of it again.

“We’re not taking no for answer so go get dressed and get ready… both of you will have red rose in your hair so without a doubt you will recognize each other. Now go”. Both friends pushed Akane to her wardrobe so the girl would finally change her clothes.

Akane didn’t complain but wined one more time “At least you could have showed me her picture. This is so weird…”Two hours later she was near the restaurant she was suppose to meet the girl. Nervously Akane walked through the door and looked around. She could just leave and lie that Airi didn’t show up or that something unexpected happened when she was on her way and she couldn’t make it.

All of these thoughts repeated in her mind right until the moment she saw the girl sitting alone by the table. Akane noticed how Airi nervously looked around while playing with her phone and smiled brightly the moment her eyes met with Akane’s. The girl stood up to greet her and nervously Akane walked to her introducing herself. Seeing the beauty of Airi the girl realized that there’s no way back.

For the rest of the evening they somehow broke the barrier and talked comfortably. By the end of the night Akane was even thankful for both Matsui girls… after all blind date wasn’t a bad idea. Not when she got to meet Airi.

A/N: the incident in a shop is based on real life situation as it actually happened to my friend few months ago. We talked about it yesterday and laughed while remember it so I decided why not turning it into a short oneshot. I got my friend's permission though because if not and if she find out about it any other way she would probably kill me. So yeah... hope you will enjoy

This time we could see Matsui Jurina and Matsui Rena outside, Jurina sitting on the sidewalk and smoking, Rena looking around then sitting next to her, just leaving some distance between them.

Jurina glanced at Rena few times in a row kind of annoyed “why I have to see you everywhere?“

Rena sat more like a guy in a comfortable way bending back just a little bit “circle of life?“,“irony?“,“fate?“,“tragedy of life?“,“horror movie?“,“disturbance of our times?“

Rena laughed this time without a care in the world or maybe she was acting like independent girl while talking with younger Matsui:“It is how it is, Jurina. You can‘t change that“

“You could stop coming here“

“Yeah…the problem is Churi has a crush on your boss…so that‘s difficult…“, only now Jurina noticed that Rena was alone and looked around curious for the first time this day “wait a sec? She stayed inside with Airi alone?“

Rena raised her eyebrows expressively “yeah“. Jurina looked back at the door then at Rena repeating this few times while squinting her eyes “so what? She‘s not gonna talk with her. Probably just stand there for few minutes and then run away as usual…“

Rena raised her shoulders innocently “probably“ with Jurina still glancing back at the shop too curious to think about anything else, even her own cigarette which almost reach her fingers if not Rena who took it and put it to down getting annoyed look instead of a thank you.

“I can bet…that‘s exactly what‘s going to happen“,“let‘s BET then“. Rena seemed not to care about anything, after some time you just get used to this kind of look, though Jurina was probably the only one who didn't and sensed some swindle “mmm…what do you want?“

“What do you want?“ Rena asked back with smile.

Jurina thought for a moment and finally answered more quicker than she planned “break up with Yukirin…“

“Well breaking up is kind of harsh don‘t you think? You want to hurt your friend just because you don‘t like me?“

“FINE.“ Jurina almost shouted with rage but calmed down with a new plan “date her, do with Yukirin whatever you want, but never show any lovey dovey signs in front of me“

Rena thought for a minute (torturing minute because that was all Jurina wanted) “okay, I can agree with that.“ And turned her face looking straight forward waiting, also swaying her head just a little bit, as if listening to some music only she could hear.

Jurina waited for one more minute staring at her intensively “and me?“.

Rena took her time before looking back at younger Matsui with a smirk “You don‘t believe that Churi is going to talk with Airi. So why you worry?“ and her little smirk grew even bigger.

After those few seconds of eye contact Rena turned her face and looked in front of her again, doing the same time she did before. Jurina stared at her for few more seconds worried and then started glancing at the closed door wondering what was happening inside. Also looked down at her finished cigarette annoyed that she didn't take with her more because at a moment like this, she really needed it.

*Meanwhile in the shop*

Churi stood by the counter staring at Airi as if she was some statue, maybe even Zeus or any other God you can watch but better not touch. Even Airi who was always too involved in her manga to notice anything at all (unless Jurina who occasionally said she‘s taking a break for smoking because she was annoyed and bored in this place) asked keeping her eyes on the book “Do you need help?“

Churi looked around surprised and scared with definitely mixed emotions written all over her face. It seems like she imagined the outcome in these two ways: either dying or running away.

“You‘re the only one here so yes…I‘m asking you“, Airi commented calmly finally looking up from her manga, putting bookmark inside and standing up walking closer to this girl who stood mesmerized “I..am..need..you know…I…am…“,and looked around also touching everything with her fingers with hope to touch something useful but for her misfortune the thing she touched fell on the table and it was a condom.

Airi stood in her usual spot behind the counter and raised eyebrows slightly while looking shortly at the thing on her counter and at the girl who was as red as a tomato “That‘s all?“

Churi nodded immediately not daring to look back at Airi and somehow manage to put money on the table grabbing the condom and running away without a glance back too embarrassed for everything what just happened.

“There‘s too much…“ Airi tried to say seeing that Churi left more money than needed but didn't feel the need to run after girl also realizing she probably wouldn't be very happy about her shouting that she gave Airi more money than needed for the condoms. So Airi just smiled to herself putting money in the counter then going back to the same spot with the same book as if nothing happened.

Meanwhile Churi ran off immediately throwing candom at Rena “I talked with her! Thank you so much! Now my life is really ruined!Forever! Let’s gooooo!” she also shouted wanting to run away from there as fast as possible, not even noticing curious look that Jurina just gave her. Rena looked at the condom trying not to laugh and stood up, she didn’t manage to say anything with Churi already dragging her after herself “whyyy you’re still standing here?I’m going to die…”, she shouted almost in a hysterical cry.

Rena walked with her without fighting but still managed to turn back to Jurina and say ”I think I won right? The truth is… I’m not dating Yukirin anymore… So after this BET… I think I just won a date with you” the girl winked at Jurina with a smile leaving stunned Jurina still sitting on the sidewalk and staring at two friends who disappeared around the corner with both happiness and surprise.

After some time Rena finally commented ”I’m pretty sure it’s not as bad as you think…” but soon had to shut up because of Churi even bigger hysteria knowing that saying things like that won’t help her embarrassed friend at the moment like that. Rena decided to give her friend time to recover and smiled while remembering Jurina’s expression after her last announcement.

After all, she won that date fair and square. Maybe she should do more betting in the future.

Takahashi Minami was putting books in a locker meanwhile Kojima Haruna make out with dorky looking girl next to her, hands tangled in her hair, meanwhile the girl’s hands were around her waist, there was also some tongue fighting. In other words. Full PDA.

“Kojiharu? Yuko? Please can you not…?“

Takamina asked desperately also looking around embarrassed because most of the people walking past them looked at the couple and of course at awkwardly standing Takamina who still rushed to put all her books in a locker.

“Its not even my locker.Its yours..you know I will need to use it later again…”,and sighed with desperation looking behind Haruna’s back where was here actual locker “you could move..just like..a little bit..”,and tried pushing her best friend lightly without any good effect,only the fact that Kojiharu opened her eyes shortly and glared at her, Yuko didn’t even react, and their make out session didn’t come even close to the end.

Takamina put last book in Haruna’s locker slamming doors loudly with hope maybe that can get their attention but of course it didn’t “I need new friends”, she said to herself, obviously ignored again and turned around walking away from the happy couple.