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Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Fear

I have a lot of fears that most people would think are stupid. Lately one has come back into the mainstream of my life and that is the fear of scary movies. It all started when I was like 8 or 9. I'm not totally sure, my parents would know better. My dad loves to watch scary movies. His favorite thing to do is just when it is the scariest scream really loud and make everyone jump. I think it had a bigger impact on me than my other siblings. I wasn't even able to watch Jurassic Park without running to my room in tears. My siblings would make fun of me but I knew that if I watched anything remotely scary I would have nightmares for weeks. It took me 2 years after Jurassic Park came out to finally be able to watch it on my own. I don't even have to watch a scary movie to have nightmares. There was this one night my dad had rented Poltergeist and everyone was watching it except me. I had shut myself in my room so I didn't have to watch it. The problem was my room was in the basement where everyone was watching the movie so I could hear the sound and the scary music. I didn't sleep for two days. I know it is a silly fear but it is a fear that I cannot get over no matter what. I'm trying so hard to because Todd loves scary movies. Two Halloweens ago, we had cable, and all month long on AMC they had horror movies. I watched a few and found that some of them were funny, but there were some that still haunt me to this day. I watched 30 min of Nightmare on Elm Street and I haven't been able to sleep some night because of it. That is one of the movies that Todd wants to watch. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy certain scary movies. I've seen some of the Shining and thought it was alright. Todd wants to see; IT, The Shining, Misery, and Nightmare on Elm Street. I refuse to watch IT. I'm terrified of clowns and I've seen ten minutes of it on tv when I was like 11. I think Sarah was there with me. Misery looks okay, but I will never watch Nightmare on Elm Street. I know it sounds funny to some people but this fear is one that I have tried for years to get under control and just when I think that it is a movie comes on and my fear is right back to a high level again.

2 comments:

This is just something that some people cannot do. I just don't even try, because I don't want the nightmares that go with them. Years of nightmares for some scary movies. Not worth it. My husband likes scary movies, too, but he knows that I won't be watching them with him.

When I was in Russia, I would do that "screaming thing" that your dad used to do, to the girl's that i was watching the movies with. They hated me for it. and I mean, they weren't even humorous about it all--they really did get angry at me (for scaring them more...) whatever.