I Promise

Lexi is an 18 year old girl who has been best friends with Justin ever since they can remember... But when things get difficult , a promise tears them apart. Justin's tour stops by Canada and Lexi is forced to go to his show. What will happen when they see each other again? Will they express their feelings , or will things get worse?

4. Nowhere But Up

I was woken up by my mom , patting cold rags all over my face. Everything seemed blurry.

Mom: Lexi , honey , babe wake up. Are you okay?

Lexi: W-what just happened?

I kept talking as tears were streaming down my face.

Lexi: Why are you here , why am I in a bed , what's happening , is Justin okay?

Mom: Sweetie , everything's fine. You had a nightmare and you started sweating bullets and crying in your sleep... And what's this talk about Justin?

She handed me a tissue and I started to wipe my eyes.

Lexi: Oh , oh nothing. Everything's fine... It seemed so realistic.

Mom: Why don't you go take a shower? It's already 11 , we should get going around 1.

I started to get out of bed and put my glasses on , pulling my hair into a loose , messy bun.

Lexi: That's fine , and Justin wanted me to meet with him like an hour before sound check , is that alright with you?

Mom: Of course , but may I ask , is something going on with you and Justin? You guys seem to be finally talking.

I started to make my way to the bathroom.

Lexi: It's nothing mom , okay , it's fine. Nothing's happening.

I walked through the bathroom door , slamming it behind me. I stared into the mirror and started to think about everything that just went on. What was up with my dream? Why would I even think about marrying Justin... There is no possibility that would ever happen. Why did it seem like I cared about him so much? I couldn't control my feelings , and those random thoughts wouldn't escape my head.

I got out of the shower... This time putting on high-waisted shorts and a tight , urban-looking crop-top. Today I was going to try my hardest to look cute , and I could pull it off quite well actually. But why? Why did I wanna try for once... I shook my head trying to escape the unusual thoughts. I brushed my teeth , brushed my hair , the usual. This time I decided to try to put on a little make-up. I applied some foundation , mascara , eyeshadow , and a pinkish-red lipstick. After , I took the curling iron and made loose curls at the ends of my hair. I stared in the mirror making sure I was 100% satisfied with my look and opened the door.

Mom: Lex , you look adorable! What encouraged you to wear that today?

She winked at me and I gave her an annoyed look.

Lexi: Would you stop? I'm seriously tired of it mom , just leave me alone.

I walked out the door , slipping on my studded combat boots, and was on my way to wait in the car.

Lexi: I'll be outside , come down when you're ready.

I automatically felt terrible about the way I acted towards my mom. Why did I always act like such a bitch? It's not like I tried to , I love her more than anything , it just gets hard after awhile once everything builds up inside of you.

After my mom got in the car , we sat there in silence.

Lexi: I'm really sorry mom , I-I really didn't me-

She started to cut me off.

Mom: No , no it's fine , I know I shouldn't of been bothering you , it's not my business , im sorry.

We pulled up to the arena. Toronto , Canada - Day 2. I walked inside not even remembering Justin had a special surprise for me. I looked down at my phone , "One New Message from - 'my bestie for lifeeee<3'.

I started getting nervous just by the name.

From: my bestie for lifeeee<3 - sent @ 2:47 p.m.

Still meeting me? Come into the arena at 3 , can't wait to see you.

Not another anxiety attack , of course this would be happening. I ran to the bathroom feeling as if I could throw up. "Lexi , you'll be fine" , I kept telling my self as I stared in the mirror. I needed to get over it , I felt all I was doing was trying to feel bad for myself. I fixed my hair and walked out the door , trying to find the entrance to the stage area. I found a sign that led me to one entrance and all of the sudden music started playing and Justin walked out on stage. I was confused of what was happening , but I just let it be. Without saying anything , he took my hand and brought me on stage , helping me up to sit on the piano.

Lexi: Wait , what's going on?

I started smiling.

Justin: All you gotta do is listen. I wrote this song for you... You will never understand how much I care about you , and I hope this helps a little.

He sat down and kissed my hand , then started playing along on the piano with the music. He gave me a big smile and I smiled back , still confused of what was going on.

It's a big big world It's easy to get lost in it

You've always been my girl And I'm not ready to call it quits

We can make the sun shine in the moon light

We can make the grey clouds turn to blue skies

I know it's hard Baby believe me

That we can go nowhere but up

From here, my dear

Baby we can go nowhere but up

Tell me what we've got to fear

We'll take it to the sky pass the moon to the galaxy

As long as you're with me baby

Honestly with the strength of our love

We can go nowhere but up

It's a big big world

And I'm gonna show you all of it

I'm gonna lace you with pearls

From every ocean That we're swimmin' in

We make the sun shine in the moon light

We can make the grey clouds turn to blue skies

Yeah, I know it's hard Baby believe me, ooh

That we can't go nowhere but up

From here, my dear

Baby we can go nowhere but up

Tell me what we've got to fear

We'll take it to the sky pass the moon to the galaxy

As long as you're with me baby

Honestly with the strength of our love

We can go nowhere but up

Baby we were underground

We're on the surface now

We're gonna make it girl I promise

If you believe in love

And you believe in us

We can't go nowhere but

We can't go nowhere but up

From here, my dear

Baby we can go nowhere but up

Tell me what we've got to fear

We'll take it to the sky pass the moon to the galaxy

As long as you're with me baby

Honestly with the strength of our love

We can go nowhere but up

Nowhere but up

Nowhere but up

Yeah Nowhere but up

He ended the song and got up and walked over to me.

My hand was covering my mouth and I had tears streaming down my face , I was speechless. I couldn't believe what I was feeling... I hate to say it , but at that moment , I knew I had just fallen in love.

Justin: ... I will never be able to forgive myself. I lost my best friend. I love you more than anything , Lex. And I meant every word in that song. I'm sorry about Brooklyn , I was nev-

I cut him off , smashing his lips against mine.

He picked me up off the piano and we stood there with our lips still connected , and my legs wrapped around his waist. I felt him smile through the kiss , which made me smile even bigger.

This was the first time I've ever kissed a boy , first time I've ever actually let a boy hold me , first time I've ever felt completely safe in someone's arms , and first time I knew I was actually in love. He set me down and our lips separated from one another.

I stood there smiling up at him and him smiling down.

Justin: I love you , Alexandra.

Lexi: I love you more , Justin.

He pulled me into his arms and I rested my head on his chest , crying tears of joy.

It's hard to explain the moment... The moment you actually feel safe. After years of being terrified of anyone coming near you , the feeling of knowing someone truly does care.

We stood there , still hugging , and Justin started whispering in my ear.

Justin: I missed this , more than words can even describe.

I stood there , still crying and Justin leaned down and kissed my hair.

Justin: Lex?

I looked up at him , smiling.

Lexi: Yes Justin?

Justin: Will you be my girlfriend?

I stared into his dark eyes , and concentrated on his perfect face.

Justin: I would do anything for you , I'll be with you until the day I die , I promise , and this time I'm serious.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and he placed his hand on my cheek , he leaned down and we kissed once more. As we pulled away , we kept eye contact.

Lexi: Of course. I love you Justin Drew Bieber.

I shyly smiled down at my feet and he took his hand and pulled up my chin so I was looking straight into his eyes again.

Justin: Not as much as I love you.

We pulled into another hug and I thought to myself , 'everyone deserves a second chance , right?'

We were interrupted by the loud stage crew and Justin grabbed my hand and started to pull me off to the side.

Stage man: Sorry to bother you , Bieber. We gotta get ready for tonight's show.

Justin: Oh.. That's alright , we will just be one second.

Justin gently placed his hands on my waist and led me behind the curtain.

Justin: So what's next?

He tucked my hair behind my ear and gave me a cute grin.

Lexi: I don't know , but I don't think we should tell anyone for awhile , not even our moms , or ryan , because... You know what would happen...

Justin: Sounds good with me. Hey , guess what baby?

Lexi: What? I poked his chest and giggled , just to tease him even more.

Justin: I don't know if I've told you this , but... I love you.

I smiled at him and he leaned down to kiss me again. He ran his fingers through my hair and I placed my hands on his cheeks. As our lips were together , I started mumbling to him.

Lexi: I love you too baby.

He started licking my bottom lip , asking for entrance into my mouth. I pulled back , giving him a smirk.

Lexi: And what exactly do you think you're trying to do? Go get ready for your show , dork.

He looked at me and smiled back.

Justin: If you insist , but you better be here tonight... I'll be looking for you , because after the show I want you all to myself.

He winked and kissed my cheek , then started walking away , still with his eyes glued to me , and nearly almost tripped over his own feet.

I shook my head laughing and walked to try to find my mom and Pattie.

My phone started buzzing in my pocket.

Lexi: Hello?

Mom: Hey Lex , it's mom. Where are you?

Lexi: Oh I'm just backstage trying to look for you and Pattie , where did you guys go?

Mom: We stopped down the street at Tim's. Wanna join us for a coffee before the show starts?

Lexi: Sure , I'll be right over. Bye.

I hung up the phone and walked into the bathroom. I put the toilet seat down , sitting on it , and started thinking to myself. I could of possibly just made the worst decision of my life. What was I even thinking? Why would I say yes? I already told myself I didn't like him and not even an hour ago , I wanted nothing to do with him. I brought my face into my hands and a tear rolled down my cheek. I just wanted to be in his arms again , even though I didn't... I just wanted to feel protected again. I wanted to feel his lips on mine. I guess that's what love does to you.

I looked down with tear stained cheeks to see my phone buzzing again , "1 new message from - 'my bestie for lifeeee<3'.