As Hugh Hefner‘s former longtime girlfriend No. 1, everyone wants to know how Holly Madison feels now that her ex has proposed to his current favorite bunny, Crystal Harris. Holly explained exclusively to OK! that she does have some mixed feelings on the couple’s happy news.

“It was crazy when I heard about it and it was definitely really unexpected,” Holly, 31, told OK! at an E! cocktail party this week. “I really didn’t know how to react, and everyone is putting their congratulations statements out there.”

Before commenting on the proposal, Holly made sure to meet with Hef, 84, on camera and talk to Crystal as well, first, to let them know how she feels and that she would be “totally blunt honest” about the situation.

And while Holly isn’t being too specific on her emotions right now, regarding Crystal, 23, who she isn’t exactly best buds with, fans will get to see her reaction on her show on E!, Holly’s World.