Why do I want things to be easy…?

Why can’t I just open my charts and make earth shatteringly awesome trades all the time? Why can’t I be the best in my field and get to sleep all night and have Saturday and Sunday to myself to do what I wish? How special and talented do I have to think I am to not have to put in the work that much greater men than I have had to put in? Why doesn’t my wife always think I am awesome just because I am, well, me?

Sometimes what I think and see in my mind, doesn’t match up with how it all plays out.

How my actions portray what I think about trading- distracted by shinny objects and can’t focus, would rather eat a cheeseburger and want to nap than this vegetable juice for lunch, I should be Backtesting no stupid, that’s work, and to cap it off, somehow fantasy hockey takes precedence over precious few hours of backtesting time.

SO WHY DON’T MY ACTIONS LINE UP WITH MY THOUGHTS?

Why are there times that I perform differently than I think? I can see the great trade, the win, the great performance, whatever it is, but there are times when I just can’t put in the effort that I know it takes to get to that end. I know without any question that there is a great road to be traveled but my mind and my actions have to agree on it.

If I can’t get them to, it will be very difficult to get to my destination.