Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Not feeling the Holidays

Well I haven't posted in almost a week. We have been sick over here. When Rock took the girls to the doctor on Friday they thought that they might have pneumonia, after an x-ray we were told thankfully it's just a virus but it knocked all of us out for the weekend and then some. We are all still trying to get over it.

Well due to all this I didn't get any photos this week of my outfits except for a bad one of yesterday's outfit.

The holidays are fast approaching and I am not feeling it. Christmas is my favorite time of year but this being the first Christmas without my MIL is sucking. Her and I would sing carols together while we put up the tree, every year we picked a new colour theme and would try and get away with buying new decorations. We were only able to get away with that every few years. I pulled out the decorations and put part of them up so the kids could have that Holiday feeling.

We also did some baking. MIL loved to baked and she always baked so much for everyone. Over Christmas everyone got their favorite cookies baked to enjoy and also a big batch to take home. The girls loved to bake with her. This year my mom baked sugar cookies with the girls. Tutu helped too with the sprinkles.

Can you tell Muffin was eating some of the decorated cookies?

Normally I am on the ball and get my Christmas cards done and out end of November, I only got them out this weekend and I haven't even taken a picture of them yet to share with you. And this weekend was also when we got our Christmas lights up.

You would think with me being crafty I would be all over this but I'm not. My Holiday Pinterest board has so may cute ideas I would love to try out but I just don't have the motivation to do it. I have made a few presents for friends and such but no where near what I normally make.

I guess I also feel bad because the kids aren't getting as much under the tree. I *know* they don't need more stuff but it's nice to see them excited and watch their faces light up with joy. I know they will this year, the gifts they are getting have all had a lot of thought put in them.

Also last week Monkey turned 7. I made her a yummy chocolate raspberry cake with whip cream and a vanilla one too. They aren't very pretty but it was yummy.

Last week I shared my favorite photos of Monkey from the last seven years here. And here I remember my birthing day and how I became a mother. And then on Friday I shared my thoughts on nursing here.

I feel a bit like Scrooge, I guess with the anniversary of MIL's death approaching just after the Holidays and it's our first Christmas without her that I'm feeling this way. I know it's normal but I don't like it; I wish I could snap out of it. Maybe next will be better.

5 comments:

OH I am so sorry to hear this is a hard holiday for you. I can kinda understand. My cousin died last June and he was only 28. He was a newly wed and everything, it was so hard. I know it is different for everyone, but hang in there, I have heard it gets easier!