Eagles wide receiver Riley Cooper returned to training camp on Tuesday after four days away from the team, aware that the racial slur he used at a Kenny Chesney concert is something he’ll live with “every day for the rest of [his] life.”

Cooper spoke with the media on Tuesday, showing a mix of embarrassment and regret, having already spoken with coach Chip Kelly and his teammates about the incident, which has stained him with a racist reputation that he may never shake.

“We just talked about this situation and how big this is,” Cooper said. “I realize that. I realize how many people I hurt, how many families I hurt and how many kids I hurt. That’s what we walked about — the severity.

“It’s going to be tough. No doubt it’s going to be tough. I’m going to live with this every day for the rest of my life.”

Cooper, who is vying for a starting wideout spot after the Eagles lost Jeremy Maclin to an ACL injury, received counseling in his time away from the team, but he would not go into details about the sessions. He said how important it was for him to behave responsibly on and off the field, stressing the need to get back into action with the team.

“I just went out and seeked help. I talked with my family and seeked help — I’m going to keep that with me and the others that are helping out, but it went well,” Cooper said. “It took a few days. It’s been a tough ride. I talked to Chip last night and this morning and he asked me ‘How do you feel? Are you ready to come back?’ and I said ‘Absolutely, I love being out there on the field, I love being out there with my guys.'”

Though running back LeSean McCoy and cornerback Cary Williams were among those teammates unsure if they could forgive Cooper, the receiver received a warm welcome from several other teammates, such as Jason Avant, who chest-bumped him after a touchdown in practice.

Kelly was glad Cooper was back, mostly so that the 25-year-old could talk to his teammates and attempt to repair any relationships which may have been fragmented. Kelly said that Cooper spoke with each teammate individually and the receiver said that the majority of his teammates welcomed him back.

“My concern wasn’t how he practiced,” Kelly said. “It was him with the team himself and a chance to make sure he gets to talk to every guy so they understand how he felt, what he did and understand that he’s truly sorry for what he did. We’ll look at the film and correct all those other things but that wasn’t really my concern.”

Locker room leader DeMeco Ryans was one of Cooper’s teammates that showed his support for the wideout.

“I just said ‘What’s up man? Good to have you back out here,'” Ryans said. “I know Riley out of this situation surely felt like an outcast — and we have to bring him back in as our teammate and as our brother and resolve this issue and move forward. We can’t have any ill feelings lingering throughout this season.”