Of course, I didn’t know. Though I have grown up with my dada, he never told me anything about his parents and curious as I am, never asked him.

It’s now that I am realising all this….

I am sunni, and dat’s it. But now that my aunty was telling me that I am from mughal descendants… that really rang a bell in my head… a bell of curiosity…

Actually, I know everything and everyone about my mom’s family background. I know everything about my father’s mother family background. But my father’s father… that is my dada… I didn’t know A N Y T H I N G !

I am sunni as my mom is! My father’s mother is! But.. I am a mughal as well, is it how we call it already?

I don’t know why this is disturbing me to such extent. Of course, knowing that I don’t know some of my family is a reason to BE disturbed… When I asked for more information, I got only: your dada had another brother who died and a half-brother who lived in Pailles. Don’t know if he is still alive, but the rest are in…. india…

Yes I did, and found out that my actual name, I mean, family name isnt that of my mughal grandfather, but that of my second grandfather as my grandma divorced the 1st one. BUT, my dad is son to the first one!!!

And unbelievably… there is so much darkness and secrets that Im afraid to enter this history of mine.. 😦