I was browsing some Photo and Travel blogs here in WordpPress early this morning. I was stunned by the beauty of the world through their photo blogs. Like them, I also love to travel. I also love to take photos. I have four cameras; an automatic Olympus camera (a vintage one, I use 35mm film for this camera), an Exilim Casio Camera (digital), Diana F+ Lomo Camera (I also have fish eye lens for this. I use 120mm film here) and a Nikon Coolpix Camera (semi-pro). I’m only using my Nikon and Diana F+ for now ’cause those two are my favorites. I’m planning to buy a DSLR camera when I already have a job. Mind you guys, I am not a professional photographer and I don’t know if you’ll like my shots. It’s just a hobby. And it makes me happy.

I was thinking if I should make my own photo/travel blog. Actually, I am already planning for this. When I come back, I want to have my own photo/travel blog. But I still have to think of my blog’s name, description, etc.

2011 is almost over. A year that will always have a place in my heart. It consists of bittersweet memories. A year that may changed life forever. A year that I have to say good bye now. This year has a lot of memories. Happy days. Sad moments. The most challenging year of my life.

One of the best memories I have this year is when I finished my Bachelor’s degree. I am now a graduate of Bachelor of Nursing but I have decided not to take the board exam because it’s not something I have dreamed of. I cannot see myself working in a hospital. I love being a nurse. I love helping people who are sick. I love putting smile on my patient’s face. But it’s not meant for me. I am proud of the nurses around the world because they have one of the hardest jobs on earth. And I am proud of myself because I become a student nurse in my lifetime.

Another memories worth remembering this year is when I have my vacation in Boracay and Nueva Ecija. It’s been my dream to explore the beauty of the Philippines and of course to travel the world. And it’s special ’cause I’m with my friends. I am at the weakest point of my life when I go to those two places. At least, for a short period of time, I forget my problems and just enjoy life with my friends, with nature and with God.

Before the year ends, I have met a lot of amazing people from WordPress. People who give me hope. You know who you are and I will always be thankful for those people.

And most of all, the best thing that happened to me this year is when Keanu, my shih tzu, came into my life. He always brings joy to me. He never leaves me. He knows when I am lonely and sad. He looks at me whenever I am crying as if he’s telling me everything will be alright. That he’s there for me no matter what happens. He’s my baby. He’s my little brother. He’s just a dog but he gives meaning in my life.

But life is not always being happy. We have ups and downs. Life can be so unfair most of the time. This year, my uncle, the only person in this world who always tell me that he’s proud of me, died. He’s one of the best people in my life and yet he left us here. I remember his proud face when I graduated. The times when he talks to me. The times when he tells me I am one of the most intelligent people in our family. He will always stay in my heart and mind.

Aside from my uncle’s death, a lot of problems arise this year. Problems in our family. It is all because of money. The reason of our family war. The reason of my depression. The reason why I’ve decided to end my life. Not once but twice. It’s hard to decide on my life’s fate. The medicines I have taken, the blade, the cigarette, they are all part of my life. This is my darkest year. It’s hard to have a mental illness like mine. It’s hard when you don’t have support from your family. And most of all, it’s so hard when people judge you for what you’ve done. They think you have a disease like tuberculosis, HIV or any disease that can be contagious. They don’t want you to be near them. And they will spread gossips that you are crazy.

My life in 2011 maybe worse or much better than other people. We can’t tell. It is based on other people’s perception. But in this year, God has given me two chances to live. I can’t promise that I will not commit suicide again. Promises are made to broken, right? But what I want now is to forget all of the bad things that happened to me. It’s not easy but I’ll try my best. I want to start a new beginning. I want to forgive those people who hurt me. I want to have work. I want to travel the world. I want my dreams to come to life. I want my life to be normal. I want to be a strong person.

Good morning from the Philippines. I’m posting photos from my travel last week. Boracay with my bestfriend, her boyfriend and her friends. It’s fun and really memorable. I’ll blog the whole story behind these pictures later this evening or tomorrow. Have fun looking at our photos. 🙂

Day 1
> Arrived at Caticlan Airport at 4pm
someone’s waiting for us. 🙂
> Rode a tricycle to Caticalan port
> Road a boat to Boracay
> Checked-in at Roque’s place
> Dinner (forgot the name of the restaurant)
> Strolled the island of Boracay
> Starbucks

Day 2
> Went to the Market
> Cooked lunch at Roque’s place
>Lunch
> Stayed at our room and just goofed around
> SWIMMING AT THE BEACH!!!!

Day 3
> Island Hopping
CROCODILE ISLAND
We met Manong who sell 3 ice creams for only 100 pesos.Just imagine how hard it is for him to have this kind of job. I salute you Manong!!!!
> Snorkeling
I love this picture. It’s so funny! 😀
> Helmet Diving
> Lunch at Mang Inasal
MY NEW FRIEND 🙂
> Dinner at Hap Chan
> PARTY PARTY!!!