Thursday, December 11, 2008

My thoughts are giants that slowly grow archaic,Emerged in the translucence of this emotional mosaic.A pattern of colors glowing in the midst of night,They border the realities of both dark and light.A design that details the map of destiny,The topography and roadways living in me.Hate, love, bravery, and fear,Joy pain faith is all here.A spectrum of where my heart has been and where it will go,A smorgasbord of thoughts that I will never know.This touch that kiss these words of charm and love,Rain and scorch me from the heavens so high above.A rainbow of dreams that fade with the evaporation of moisture,Feeding the seeds of a forgotten yet invaluable future.Sadness gladness and a hopeful wish,Confusion and wisdom here they all exist.Infinite notes in this composed symphony,The melody moves my soul and expands me.A rhythm of clouds and leaves of eaves and wind,They surround me with angels of grace and demons of sin.Their song is sweet my mind cannot help but dance,The sweet sound puts my soul in a deep trance.Hate, love, bravery, and fear,Joy pain faith is all here.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Though I have neither the heartOf an evil man nor a priestDon’t glorify my gifts from the startNor count me among the last or leastI am what I amAnd that is all I amThough I have neither the handsOf a master or a poet laureateDon’t think or seek to understand For I have not told my story yetI am what I amAnd that is all I am

There is a rhythm that my soul moves toIt resonates in the clouds and tickles my feet The notes shatter my glass, sticks to my mind like glueFlows through my veins and alters my heartbeatBut the words in the air keep my life on trackFrom the jungles to the city are these echoes of blackThere are hues that decorate the canvas of my skyIt rains a spectrum of colors that saturate my dreamsThe colors transform the shade of my ideas like dyeSpringing up in the warmth of a soothing sun beamBut the rhymes fill me and keep my life intactFrom the deserts to the city are these echoes of blackThere are seasonings that make my buds danceIt excites my nostrils to smell them in the airThe tastes give my appetite wings puts my mind in a tranceSaturates my flesh with fulfillment beyond compareBut the scent in the atmosphere keep my life from being at lackFrom the oasis to the city are these echoes of black

There are many beautiful shores of both oceans and seasA pleasant breath in the forest of various treesSo many silhouettes of mountain ranges and hillsSights that evoke passion joy or thrillsThere are sunsets and sunrises that can set a heart aflameAnd far too many wonderful monuments to find and nameSo much wonder found in the sky’s various shades of blueYet although the world has been traveled there is only one youThere are so many clear cool peaceful streamsA delightful field of flowers to reflect and dreamCountless gardens that celebrate the births from the soulSounds that echo so wonderfully in the air regal and royalThere are many of the same glorious smells east and westAnd so many places just to sit contemplate and restSo much splendor from so many points of viewYet although the world has been traveled there is still only one you

I’ve seen brilliance in many lands and in many facesTouched the borders of both loud and silent placesBeen inspired by shapes and different types of huesAll these memories are special but there is only one youThere are songs and voices that touch my heartTaste sweetness that saturated me from the startSunsets and sunrises that make everything seem so newAll these are wonderful but there is only one youMy mind cluttered with memories in the pastBut they merely visit for their presence never lastsYet thoughts of you are tattooed on my heart and brainVisions of your loveliness flow through my every veinI’ve seen oceans and beaches with such delightful viewsAll such splendid sights but there is only one you

The sheets now a piled hill on the weary bedA swelled river now given to peaceably restWhere once tulips and daffodils reclining headsYour heart now lies on the comfort of my chestHands still caressing the dew on our satisfied skinEyes dreamy still echoing the visions seenWorlds smile and fireworks celebrate the places we have beenThe dying forest and fields turn from brown to greenPillows the mattress becomes the clouds we roamSprings in our hearts flow forming a crystal seaThe bliss is our galaxy our love is our homeWe lay as one relishing our new found ecstasy

These emotions have been a seed for many yearsFed by sun clothed by the earth watered by seasons of tearsAlone in the darkness visited only by worms or occasional bugBut void of light unfamiliar to the joy of loveThere were no tunes of laughter or rhythmic soothing melodiesEverything still smothered unable to see of breatheA cage or a coffin constructed of dirt to contain this kernelSentenced to be silenced dead and dying here eternalYet one day a leaf will be shed for the forlornOf seeds that hopelessly lay and perhaps grow but are still bornThese dreams have been stored away locked in vasesCovered by activities and thoughts that had hid their facesForgotten memories on paper or somewhere in a weighted mindA buried treasure if anyone ever was to mysteriously findThere was no celebration or elation when the dreams once filled the skyFor now they lie dormant and are invisible to both heart and eyeAn urn filled with the remains of what once wasOnly an echo of the past colors of life and loveYet one day breath will come back to avenge the mournOf dreams a seed planted in the ashes and are still bornThese thoughts that my soul tastes are stored in vaultsTheir original sweetness replaced by sourness and saltsRidiculed writings scribbled on the borders of my spiritSuch delightful melodies in the air if one would but hear itThere were no awards or medals to wear on my deflated chestNo couch or bed on which my weary heart could restJust steel cages that shielded them from rain from aboveBut also isolated them from ears of light and loveYet one day they will be released free from their scornOf thoughts seeds planted in the darkness are still born

There are times when I stand before you with my fences downAnd I feel more naked then than if I had my clothes offYour eyes stare through layers until the real me is foundYet the viewing is not harsh or accusatory but gently and softMy guards leave their posts and the vicious dogs restAnd I feel confident and unashamed to bare my allYour soul searches my heart and is a welcomed guestTo visit to relax to waltz through my rooms and my vaultsThere are times when the bridges over my moats are lowered for youAnd I feel joy and peace knowing your presence is thereYour hands feel my thoughts and songs so trueAs your voice and your tattoos are left everywhereMy infrared cameras are shut off the electric fences now safeAnd I feel love and comfort both near and wideYour thoughts travel into dark hidden cavesYet my spirit rejoices that you are on the inside

There is a new rhythm in the midnight airFound in the bliss of your smile the touch of your hairMusic and fireworks fill the once vacant nightIn your arms is warmth peace and lightThe melody decorates the halls of my brainMy soul sways to the vibrant pulse in my veinsYour words caress the paths of my gentle shoresYour beauty fills my world now and forever moreFor so long my dreams have felt the touch of your skinNow my reality is for their realization to beginMy defenses are swiftly torn down by your eyesThe fences bow to your smell and tastes of paradiseMy spirit is at home in the comfort of your armsThe scars the secrets the fragile spots are safe from harmThere is a celebration in the stars far aboveThey sing and dance to honor our love

In blazing passion you bit my chestThe scar lasted for over a month but my soul acquiescedYet the impression will stay for an eternityFor the sweet tattoo was left on the whole of meWe lay there in the moist hot darkness and I realizeThat I have never been touched by woman, truth, or liesAnd know that you had done the same to me and my heartThe paths of passion tear my world apartWith a warm embrace my pulse again quickensThe fireworks explode in my spiritEcstasy increases as our night’s plot thickenWhile love echoes off the walls so clear you can hear itMy muscles grow tired my voice is so weakAll that I have has been given to youThere are no more drops of sweat or words I can speakThat would communicate my love, my lust, my bliss and my joy so true

My lips miss the sweet taste of your kissMy eyes long to view your beautiful blissMy hands miss touching your soft skinMy ears are empty without your voice dancing in themMy nose misses the sweet flavor of your scentMy heart wonders how the time so swiftly wentThe sky is void of all shades of blueFor all of me misses all of youMy legs miss walking beside yoursMy spirit wishes again to waltz on your shoresMy arms miss being locked in a tight embraceMy vision longs to see the expression on your faceMy muscle misses the relaxation of your massageMy mind misses the elegant assuageThe world is less bright and the beauty less trueFor all of me misses all of you

Monday, July 14, 2008

My eyes turned toward the earth in deep dark conceitAvoiding the glances from the crooked on Straight StreetThere shadows make my soul stop and shiverTheir echoes make my rhythm silently quiverMy mouth is covered by this steel reinforced maskI am lost in the world but for directions I will never askMy glasses obscure the true outline of my wondering eyesSo I do look around their world without being recognizedMy wealth is hidden so perhaps they won’t decide to mugI walk tall and confident but not like the path of a thugMy mind swims in an ocean of dull but wavering concreteDancing in between rain drops on Straight StreetThere clouds are opaque and sing with boisterous thunderTheir voices tear walls and weakened fences asunderThe sun is hid behind the long outstretched arms of vaulted treesMy thoughts like kites swimming in the hurricane breezeI am uneasy in their world though you would never tellMy heart believes it is in heaven but my soul knows that this is hellThe long coat I wear covers the Achilles heal that I ownI only hope that my shoes can take me to my homeMy dreams fade and die in the night incompleteDodging the piercing stares from the crooked on Straight StreetThere buildings are masks to hide fear and sinTheir breath weights the air with bourbon and ginFlowers never blossom and the grass is never greenLaughter is never heard and kindness is rarely seenTheir world is an innocuous germ my ears avoidI have lost my peace my equilibrium annoyedHope to cross soon into my own neighborhoodGo from dark to light from evil to good

VaneThe breath of your soul blows rainbows across my blistered skiesTwisting dancing flying altering the movement of the treesWithout wings your touch gifts solid object strength to flyBending rivers and enraging the excitement of the seasI can sense your touch though I cannot see your connectionFor I feel your sensation but cannot tell from what directionA soft caress that delights the borders of my brainMy dear my love my heart you are so vaneVainYour words are blankets that shield my soul from the heat of the sunBut they are bland and hold empty promises that fadeWith only echoes and shadows left after the day is doneYou turn your heart on every contract that you madeI can sense your insincerity in the corner of your lying eyesFor I feel your emotions though know you cleverly disguiseA cold touch that freezes the melody of my brainMy dear my love my heart you are so vainVeinThe dreams that vaccinates the shores of my riversAlter the current that travels to the oceanThey flow to the core of my heart cause my skin to shiverAnd turn my will into confused emotionsI can discern the pulse that inspires such a subtle beatFor I feel the sensation in my skin and in my feetA gentle touch that confuses the thoughts of my brainMy dear my love my heart you are so vein

When I talk to her she echoes dreams of the possible not fearShe whispers to my world erasing the shadows of doubtHer encouragement touches my heart through my earsAnd changes the shapes of my illusions and thoughtsWhen my mirror tells me that I can’t succeedShe breaks the reflection and lets me know that I canShe waltzes through my grounds planting seedsInspiring chasing horizons and catching rainbow’s handsWhen my flesh tells me just to give up and let it dieShe holds me tight and stares into my soulShe finds the potion to give me the wings to flyAnd convinces me that any lack will become wholeWhen my will is broken and there are knives in my backShe sutures up the wounds and gently kisses my mindShe makes my emotional bank account go from red to blackAnd allows me love, joy and peace to findWhen pity becomes my morning and evening mealShe cooks a delicacy that fills my souls hungerShe presses and prays until it vanquishes all illAnd my walls are torn demolished asunderWhen I feel lost and unloved and aloneShe kisses my spirit and shines her smile so brightShe holds my hands and tells me I am homeTells me she loves me and my world is made right

There is a new rhythm in the midnight airFound in the bliss of your smile the touch of your hairMusic and fireworks fill the once vacant nightIn your arms is warmth peace and lightThe melody decorates the halls of my brainMy soul sways to the vibrant pulse in my veinsYour words caress the paths of my gentle shoresYour beauty fills my world now and forever moreFor so long my dreams have felt the touch of your skinNow my reality is for their realization to beginMy defenses are swiftly torn down by your eyesThe fences bow to your smell and tastes of paradiseMy spirit is at home in the comfort of your armsThe scars the secrets the fragile spots are safe from harmThere is a celebration in the stars far aboveThey sing and dance to honor our love

There was a day we laid on the cooling sandsListening to the waves and shore gently danceWe would feel the clouds smile the sun agreeThat together we were meant to beOr spirits glowing flying in the sky aboveCelebrating this time together in loveWithout words we spoke volumes to one anotherTransforming anxious friends to satisfied loversSoothed by the whispers that hung in the windHow I wish this evening would never endThe moon played games with our shadowsMoving them to mimic actions we would knowThere is such ecstasy in your touch your kissThat ignites such passion and such blissWe can hear in the ocean and in the treesThat together we were meant to beOur souls so light and so warmed by love’s fireCelebrating this time of peace and desireThe contour of our thoughts our dreams perfectly blendHow I wish this evening would never end

Saturday, March 15, 2008

I cannot offer you roses or chocolate to embody my loveFor my love is like the shadow cast by the sunIt disguises the things you hate both below and aboveDarkens the wrinkles and hides the blemishes others shun

I love you as a river that outgrows its banksBut floods the drought in the valleys and plainsIt shields against the attacks from doubt on your flanksCovering the mist of dire fragrances that disdain

I love you like my spirit needs to breatheIt is like the wind or the blossoms or the paths of seasonsMy soul cannot exist without your sheathe

I love you like my heart cannot help but doIt is like a pulse or the sunrise or the pattern of oceansMy soul cannot survive without loving you

I cannot offer you diamonds or land to symbolize my loveFor my love is like a wave caressing your shoreIt washes the sands and shells that you are weary ofConsumes the footsteps and castles that your enemies adore

I love you as an orchard that yields fresh fruitCovers the ground with many anxious seedsIt grows and is robust with rich deep rootsDividing wisely the harvest between wants and needs

Words lay fossilized on the paths of your yesterday’s dreamsCrystallized by the sepulcher of destiny’s redeeming streamsThey reappear when you open the hidden closets in your vaultsWhispering when you are hoping they have ridden the impure thoughtsThey echo when you are storing your baggage in the cellarsKnowing when you are whoring rages sin dwellersNouns use verbs to dance into your wildest nightmaresThey take herbs to prance on the manifest softwareBut when the sun breaks your eyelids combination they still singThe darkness aches and forbids relaxation until they stingYou look at me the silence cuts the air like a swordYou took the resilience but the stares speak every word

I drank seven gallons of cooled holy waterTurned up the AC cause the room was getting hotter and hotterPrayed and fasted until my heart was too weak and numbRubbed Ben Gay on my soul until my tongue was dumbStill the remedy I can never findCause I just can’t get you off of my mindI got into a good book so deepWatched movies until I was too wired to sleepDanced in the mirror until my muscles went weakSang love songs to your picture until I could not speakGot drunk off of dreams and bottle of red wineStill can’t you get you off of my mindI ate a whole strawberry cheesecakeSat in the sauna until my dreams were bakedJogged in the park until my legs fell offDrew until the walls began to scoffStared at your cards until I went blindCause I can’t get you off of my mindI wrote my thoughts on reams of paperRode taxis and trains and toured skyscrapersSurfed the internet until my fingers bledRepeated your words until the ceiling echoed what was saidStill the cure is never found and never kindCause I just can’t get you off of my mind

I want to breathe my words on your neckKiss the borders of your soul as it dreamsAnd dance with you on an ocean liner’s deckWhisper thoughts to beat your ear drum beamsI want to climb your mountain to its peakSwim in your ocean until my soul drownsAnd walk in your forest until my heart can’t speakAscend the path of your love and never come downI want to trace the outline of your skinTaste the scents that hide behind your mindSoar to your heavens and glide slide again and againUntil ecstasy, paradise, perfect bliss we both findI want to roam in the jungles of your feelingsDiscover treasures that even you don’t know ofCaress the joy that you have been concealingAnd celebrate the glory, the light, the warmth of our loveI want to kiss your shapes and curvaturesListen to your laughter and your moansRejoice to the paths of our adventuresAttend to every subtle muscle every rigid boneI want to make love to you like the waves do the shoreSplashing thrashing wet and wild or gentle and slowI want to make love to you until we can do no moreThen hold you and breathe on your neck so my love you will know

Wilted by the weight of time,Wrinkles form where once dreams were.Prayers cover him blanket his arctic circles,Broken and restored by love.He sits on the porch or by the window his front seat to the world.Cataracts alter his vision of the day,Distant shadows of friends block his mind from the sun.The silent sky is dreadfully still,Then there is a whisper of wind,To a man.

Leaves leap from the grasp of trees,Leaving the arms barren and naked.Blanketing the ground in yellow and orange,Abandoned and betrayed by time.They rest dying on the earth transforming into dry brownness.Chlorophyll, a dream of yesterdays,Secluded clouds shroud the world from the sun.The ground is terribly still,Then there is a murmur of wind,To amend.

Dried soil forgotten by seasons of green,Creased by the movement of breezes.Entreaties expound beyond the limits of limbs,Embraced and cherished by life.They dance in the earth and on the windows,Copulation of hope and tomorrows,Sheltered secrets open the vaults of warmth from the sun.The hushed sky is awfully still,Then there is a rumor of wind,Amen.Amen.

Skipping stones across dream’s wide lake,Skimming the surface of soul-full disdain,Holding the essence of life in my hands,Then letting it soar, far, to the other shore.Concentric ripples resonant in the still water.Broken whispers echo,Cracking this pottery of poetry,Fragile like liquid’s face yet so deep.Ancient rocks swim to the bottom of darkness.Flattened smoothed by time, wind, the churning of earth,Ideas and hopes take flight through the air.The friction of water kisses them with each touch.Cold seemingly lifeless stones,Holding onto the power that released them.Even the gravity you place on their roundness,Will not prevent them from reaching,Their destiny.

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Stars above my heart wishes to fallWinds from the north no longer waitTo give love wings to forget the past’s callThe horrid memories of this absent stateThere where hope is lost and is so strangeThat this savor may be releasedInto this world and be the catalyst of changeTo turn an image of beauty from this beastRains above baptizing the thirsting birdsSing of joy and the end to caves of silenceA sound so beautiful the world has never heardAnd cover my body with a sweet fragranceMy heart wishes to leap and singAnd bless the emotions that the sun choseTo dance upon the trembling violinOr to lay on a petal of a roseTo touch the path of the windOr ride on the edge of the infinite skyMy heart now has found a soul friendThat gifts the wings of love to eternally flyTo travel to the depths of the great seaMy soul has embraced love's meditationTo view pockets and closets of my own virginityAnd touch the shores of my mind's habitationJumping out of this plane above cloud nineWith no parachute but faith in destinyThat our souls will be as one combinedThat the wings of love will lift you and me

Though alone we stand we are still incompleteFor there are trophies that we would never competeA tear of dew off of the awakening morning plantsMoisture to cool our comforting firm stanceAnd every night a flower lays dead on the fieldTestimony of the day's secrets revealedYour flesh in my hand in the closet your bonesA heart a mind though one I will never ownWhen my wishes are masked by the threat of pleasureBankrupt emotions search for the keys to your treasureDeaf, dumb, and numb my heart lay still nowOnly movement a droplet of sweat lingers on my browDesires real and they are mounting to excessThough your heart and mind I will never possessThousands of feelings marching incessantly byQuelling my heart to mount wings and ride in the skyThe sun fades and the land slowly darkensOur hands part for the call of land and love we can not hearkenWhite flag raised our hearts march in a hurried retreatNow we stand alone separate but still complete.

Alone as she felt her heart hardenedA stone amongst the pebbles in her Japanese gardenFollowing the blue bird over the edge of the barbed wireThe heat in her veins rising higher and higherHer lovers gone things were going too fastNow she must put on a smile the real her to maskSweat joining with her eyes that are tearyStomach cramps in fear of hari kiriShe found this pearl that is now in the westA imperfect jewel that now lays on her breastIt has saved her from the tip of the knifeHas touched her heart and now inspires her lifeOnce seen as a worthless stone in other's eyesTo her is now priceless and causes her heart to flyCan these blemished remnants of pressurized sandTransform the pain the oceans have brought this womanThe sands of time in this hourglassWill answer if the necklace shall forever lastWill the time and distance that now separatesTouch her heart still though her soul anticipatesWill the mountains and valleys and countless seasFade the thoughts the experiences and memoriesThis jewel has now found a home in her heart's worldForever to be one forever to be her imperfect prefect pearl

It’s Tuesday and her scent is still lingering on my skinIntoxicating my mind with hint of bliss deep withinI turn the corner and think I see her face so I give chaseI look in the sky though and see the same visions of here every placeDays go by and a weekend again is before my eyesAnd her touch still has my skin shivering nighThoughts of her dreams I wake up with my pillow soaked wetThough it has been a week I forget ….not yetShe has me riding on the crest of a tidal waveHer kiss makes my mind misbehaveShe laughs and my heart skips a beat getting out of timeDays go by and yet she is ever present in my mindIt’s Tuesday once again and visions of her surround me like friendsTime comes and disappears but she lingers once againThe fog may one day be dispersed and disappearBut for now every where she inevitably appearsMy heart once freely flying now caught in her netThough it has been weeks I forget…. not yetHer words echo on my ear drums causing my soul to danceOur meeting our union certainly not something per chanceAnd here I am staring into the mirror trying to find myself once moreBut I have traveled too far away from my coreLost in thoughts of her unable to find my way back homeSo here in the land of bliss and beauty I will roamHer kiss the wine that drunkens my spirit with intoxicationHer personality the ingredient that starts the complicationsI seem to be gaining her and losing my selfThere has been some exchange of riches and wealthThere has never been someone like her that I have never before metStill months later I am still intrigued I forget…. not yet

The sun is well hid behind the mask of cloudsEarth covered in this sullen gray shroudBut warmth can be felt that is so dearRays penetrate from so far and yet so nearYou call to me over mountain, land, and seaEchoes ring in my ears of your words to meThe sound waves travel over miles but are clearEach note from a source so far and yet so nearStars adorn the evening sky of blackLike sprinkled sugar on a dark velvet backBut the brilliant lights shine from year to yearReaching us through miles so far and yet so nearYour heart shivers and my soul dancesMy mind blushes red at each of your glancesI long for you and my soul sheds a tearFor we are apart so far and yet so nearWaves are covertly born in some distant landWhere mighty winds and water dance hand and handWe see their last tango as they crash the pierFrom a home that is so far and yet so nearI dream of your caress and your voice so trueWish you would appear like abstruse dewI miss you for with you there’s no fearFor surely we are so far and yet so near

One day when the full moon kisses the turquoise seaWhen the mockingbird sings a soulful melodySomewhere where the rose meets the pyramid’s stareShe said at that point she will meet me there

For we met before when the clouds erupted rainBut the sun was still a chandelier in the sky’s painSo rainbows flew and sparkled even though things were wetThis was the place and atmosphere ne’er to forget

Each time since when we are face to faceNature does something spectacular to this placeSomething particular to signify that we are uniqueAnd that feeling that surrounding is what I seek

So she told me of the conditions that will existWhen once again we will stare into each other’s eyes’ wishThe day of fireworks and celebrationsOf blossoming emotions and conversations

I search through the many seasonsAnd through dreams for signs and reasonsThat foretell of the moon and sea the songs and stareFor when I discover them … she will meet me there

Emotions rise and tears plummetHeart in chains sentenced to climb lesser summitsMind lost its grip on realitySent all to the ground a hard destinyBut without wings or parachuteThe soul can’t escape gravity’s pullLanding on its heart it lay still for a momentLooking to the horizons for lesser summitsMental work outs to build cerebral musclesBooks read out to obtain wisdom’s trestleHeart is faint and short of breathMind is weary of falling to its deathEmotions rise and tears plummetSoul trembling as it climbs lesser summits

Here in this primordial abyss,Somewhere in the gripes of pain and bliss,My mind has begun the beguine,And sentenced me to this cage that I am in.Surrounded by a rose and lily fantasy,But the barbed fence separating us is the reality.Sentenced to smell the sweet succulent scent,And view the bright colorful tint.My senses so alive and inspired,Soothed but also burnt by the fire.So many adjectives , nouns, and verbs,That must remain lost and unheard.So many adventures into distant lands,That must go unseen eternally banned.So many songs and melodies sublime,That will only ring in the corners of my mind.So many textures that will remain unfelt,No anecdote or prescription my heart lay unquelled.So many boundaries and borders to cross,But paths to them are well hid here remain I lost.Thus I realize I am impelled to go,To suffer a lost of a joy that I may never know,And time will riddle my mind as it passes by,Of eternal questions of who, what, when , and why.So I bid adieu for my mind must part,Blanketed with the past and current yearnings of my heart.Fences erected and repaired mines once again laid,In hopes that my visions and dreams and memories will one day fade.So I sit here and wonder what could have possibly been,And try to keep my mind from again beginning the beguine.

There is no way to measure a mother’s worthThe depths of her love and her gentle careThe bond she has with her children from birthNo gift or treasure can ever compareHer words that become engraved in her children’s mindStart as only seeds planted in the fertile soilBut they take root so the right path they may findAs these trees mature and face both joy and turmoilThere is no way to measure a mother’s worthNo scale or ruler or number can calculateThere is no equal of her love here on earthNo riches or value can be given to compensateHer touches that heal the wounds on the knee or elbowCan also comfort the wounds on the spirit or the heartThey inspire and lift up those that are lowAnd encourage her children from the very startThere is no way to measure a mother’s worthThe attention that she shows the ones she raisesThe abundant supply of affection and mirthIs worthy of infinite gratitude and praisesHer wisdom is beyond what words can sayThe limitless strength that she uses to protectThe love that she shares from day to dayDeserves much honor and respectThere is no way to measure a mother’s worthThe intensity of her love is both precious and rareThe bond she has with her children from birthThere is no equal of her indefinite worth anywhere

She had been on crack sold her soul for cashShe killed her babies and done no good to speak ofShe dropped out of high school and drowned her dreamsAlone and broken yet sill there is something left to loveShe had stolen from her mother’s seedsShe had laid with dogs and dirt enoughShe shot poison in her veins and drowned in boozeWeak and starved yet still there is something left to loveShe put tattoos on her spirit sinned against her fleshShe had only rugged valleys her life was so roughShe looked much older than her true ageDamaged and abused but still there is something left to loveShe tried thousands of remedies to numb the painShe cursed God up aboveShe was pregnant with hurt and unbearable griefUsed and hopeless but still there is something left to love

Memories echo things that were done even words saidFor yesteryear we were lovers but tomorrow she wedsEmotions are confused my mind in futile disarrayDiscontent where I am yet my heart reaches back to yesterdayYesterdays where a word was priceless precious was her touchA smile brought sunshine her laugh meant so muchAll that I can do is to be happy for her and wish her wellLet life go on for her and keep her away from my private hellTime may one day bury the feelings that swim through my headFor yesteryear we were lovers but tomorrow she wedsThe poems the stories will be put on my heart’s shelfRetreat into the safe corridors deep within my selfMaybe one day she will smile and forgive meThough the logic the reasons she may never seeThere are still spaces in my life that only she can fillPast seems so far away yet the memories can charm me stillPictures remind me of what once was and the longing is fedYesteryear we were lovers but tomorrow she weds

It was 3am and I found myself decomposing at the barNext to the mouth of this shadow with its pleasingly supple teethThe gin had taken its affect as I swaggered to her carWalking seemingly straight with her weak arms underneathThe seat swallowed me as she sped off into the nightMy head bobbing to stay awake though my heart all ready was faintRain attacking the windshield was my last sightBefore coffee was before me along with this sinner/saintThe air was heavy with anticipation and compromiseAlthough my mind was altered my guard was waveringI could still see the deception the calculated demiseHer lips were inviting but it was flesh they were savoringGin had traveled from my gut to my brainCausing my muscles to ease transforming my visionWhat was passed off as nonsense is suddenly appearing saneMy integrity my goals now tilting toward derisionWhat once was a smile now appears to be a grindThe shadow stares through the mask of my heartSalivating in anticipation that a meal it will findHer intention and plan from the very startMy heart races out of fear not out of desireAn escape must be found to free meFrom going from the kettle into the fireOr from the sinking boat into a raging seaHer touch sends flesh and soul into a civil warBoth strong adversaries from years of treasonBoth strong equally equipped with shields and swordsThe soul wins the battle with true reason6 am and my flesh and soul are still in tactThough teeth marks are seen but no skin is brokenThey all survived the temptress vile attackThe sunshine killed the will the shadow had spoken

I lament for Susan for her heart has gone astrayShe invested in fool’s gold and is now bankrupt todayHer eyes and soul were touched by what seemed to be the real thingBut now broken and battered can no longer use her God given wingsSo much potential so much grave and love to giveNow crippled for life she sometimes looses the desire to liveVision now blurry from the rivers of cold tearsHeart shivering from the oppression of her fearsMind confused to perceive what is truth and what is a lieHer emotions grow to stone her will begins to dieA bottle a joint ice cream or more her only releaseThough none can fill the void or yield any peaceA friend’s voice can temporarily invoke a smileBut only for a brief moment then returns that pain so vileThere is no sun in her world just ice and coldWhere once was spring time has turned brittle and oldEvery breath tortures her bleeding heart to beatEvery memento only a painful reminder of her deceitNightmares whether fast asleep or wide-awakeEach pulse of life causes her heart to breakI lament for Susan for her pain is the demon’s museI will pray for her and give her a magnifying glass to use

Lofty dreams falter and tumble to the groundSkies scream dark and cold when you’re not aroundWinds blow my mind and the sea fries my soulRain is like sharp needles and muscles lose their controlFlowers emit stench and food taste like dirtAll is in disarray when you’re not next to my earthEyes are blind my brain is so soreFlesh is weak and my heart is toreSoul is aching my pulse grows weakHands grow numb when your touch it seeksThought you knew that the effect you have on meThat like eagles wings you allow my heart to fly freeThought you knew how the atmosphere obeys your commandPerfect peace and contentment when next to you I standLightning strikes my mind volcanoes erupt in my heartTsunamis attack the shores of my soul tearing it apartDeep within my flesh my muscles forever acheThe foundation of me quivers with the onset of earthquakesTree branches seek to hang me wild animals come in pursuitAll is in dismay when I am not next to youMy oceans and rivers turn to blood and begin to rotAmbitions and goals launched but swiftly come to naughtSpinning my wheels in the mire of shame I get nowhereNo caring hands no tender voice alone for you are not thereThought you knew what you bring to my realityThought you knew that you are a key ingredient of my sanityThought you knew that next to me is where you are supposed to beThought you knew that together we fulfill destiny

The song rings out once again inspiring my soul to singNot a song of pain and glory, but a sweet symphonyThe hard downpour will nurture and reap bright flowersStrands of web the wind will break before life soursThe past dirt flowing into the resurrected riverDire thoughts lowing from my heart sifted through my liverCloud like curtains rolled back into the breadth of the skyWings remounted on my soul once again permitted to flyEmotions pure and the will to create inspired and rebornEyes opened complete soul anxious for the dawning of mornSo many questions come to mind but trying not to mettleSo many thoughts that ring but my heart can’t be settledCan her voice ignite the fuse in my soul?Would her touch make my will loose control?Where is the epicenter that has shaped my life?What is the yearning to change her from woman to wife?Who does her songs go to on a cold winter’s eveWhen will the red lights be lit for those never to leave?Could her eyes heal all the aching in my mind?Should my heart become drunk from the life’s sweet wine?How has her essence touched the very shores of me?And her smile the only source of light that I can see

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Who will cry for the young girls slain?Innocent and free from the prisons of painDreams and visions that will never be seenCut short before their prime before they became teensA trip to school like any other normal dayAn evil fool changed it forever with violent displayTears will flow like the freezing fall rainsSaturate the earth with gauntlets of disbelief and painStrangers from far away will squirm with shamePsychologists search for an occurrence to blameA silent schoolhouse warm like the sunNow echoes of grief from the sins doneLeaves will fall to cover the autumn groundBlanketing the sleeping soil shielding it from the vile soundsSquirrels gather their food birds will fly southThe world the neighbors will scream from their mouthWe all will cry for the young girls slainOut of our heart our shame and our own pain

My heart beating in time with the falling rainTides of passion expanding at the appearance of this lunar sphereAll attempts to quell my emotions are efforts in vainThe wind whispers to the world the joy of you and I hereTrees shake off their moist blanket from the brief showerGhosts and skeletons from the past finally subduedAs atmosphere free for love to spring to vault to flowerAs our thoughts exposed our souls vulnerable and nudeNight is pregnant with faint hearts and blossoming eyesOur arms full of the shapes and colors of loveThe stars smile far away in dark poetic skiesAnd clouds act as curtains from aboveCrickets and frogs compose a symphony for our danceThe scent of a fresh rain a baptized world fills the airThe soils of our flesh are fertile for romanceOur time together an answer to yesterday’s prayersParadise found in the warmth of your arms holdPeace discovered in the taste of your kissShy thoughts desires now arise confident and boldMy heart has found the source of blissThe soft words gentle touches are kindling on the fireSparks of dreams swim in the moon beamsEvery cell aches with boundless desireAs the night expands the shores of love streamsEach breath only fuels the raging fireThese paths of beauty we try to traceThe baths of charms like vats of goldWhat pleasures we find in the curves of our faceWhat treasure our senses now behold

City lights cast a faint shadow on my clocksBut their illumination is emitted in vainFor my flowers reside deep inside this boxAnd are covered in a shroud of painThe streets offer some console to my headFor they present a predestined path to roamFloating on the things she did words she saidTelling my soul it has finally found its homeThe dark clouds are lifted from my eyesMy wings are united my thoughts can flowHer touch puts rainbows in my skiesAnd given my heart a peace it has come to know

Dreams of her make my mind stand still and stareFor many beauties I have seen but none are as fairThe delicious delightful emotions once again appearsBurying the moisture of long forgotten fearsThoughts of her smile send joy through my veinsFor the sun is bright yet only she can warm my brainThe dancing laughter the tender sweet kissCasts all fear away and fills my heart with such blissEchoes of her voice touch the shores of my soulCausing them to expand and loose controlLost in the deepness of her charming eyesIs the path to peace the promise of paradise

There are no threads of justice no gifts of gleeFor love loves but loves not meA cycle of words a circle of hurtA layer of dead seeds planted in my earthA drop of rain in the parched desertA spark in the raging hearthThere are no presents of peace no gentle melodyFor love loves but loves not meA dying leaf in the great forestA ray of sun as it fades in the westA silent beach inviting the waves as a guestA flying cloud incited to mourn for a restThere are no cuffs of cotton no feelings to freeFor love loves but loves not meA chord in the symphony the world’s songA lessoned etched in the hearts of right and wrongA blade of grass on the fields of a valley’s throngThere are no shards of truth no hugs from realityFor love loves but loves not me

Never wanted to be like my sisterAll alone no one around with herSo I held onto friends so very tightWould call so often daily try to writeNow all of them have gone their own wayI am now all alone I’m afraidMolding myself to fit into their universeNow it’s me that is avoided like a curseAltering my mind to be just like themIn order to be a puzzle pieces to keep them as friendsWearing their fashions attending the same sanctuaryStudying the same classes an actuaryNever wanted to be like my sisterBut seems I have turned out just like her

What dark caves live in the hearts of men?Their hidden fears of painful chapters of sinThe violent rivers whisper in deep currentsEtching the shores of crimes that tormentThese echoes that scrape at the edge of each nerveHaunts their dreams locks them in a prison they don’t deserveWhat dark clouds fly in the souls of men?Their secrets or dark alleys that have become kinThe evil drops that reign from their skiesSaturating their minds with legends of liesThe thunder fills their world deafens their earsCries out through their or even our tearsWhat dark wells flow in the minds of men?Their raped past or disguised densThe demons that govern their feet and handsPuppets of shadows that no one else understandsThe strings attached to their heart and soulSacrifices their will and yields all controlWhat dark forests grow in the hearts of men?Their limbs home to satan and his friendsThe roots grow deep and are fed by vile nutrientsSpreading seeds of pain and harboring hateful inhabitantsThe leaves leave abstract shadows on the forest floorCovering smothering fertile soil with evil to the core

The clouds reign for the heart of a kingLeaving a layer of sweated tears on everythingThe subjects bow at the desires of his whimEach flower a blossom of hope on each limbOceans ache for the clubs of a kingOf wars fought and lives taken each wave singsThe shores change their shape with each ebb and tideBut the winds whisper to the tears criedThe fire burns for the diamonds of a kingRiches in the mind give the soul wingsEach sparkle a brilliant light to each facetYet the ghosts that haunt are sealed in a dark casketThe earth cries out for the spades of a kingTo dig and bury the pride and dreams he bringsEach ounce of dirt or handful of moist sandA welcomed bed of hope tilled by calloused hands

The world lay behind her eyesWhere joy peace and love resideHer flesh her shape a hidden mysteryYet her eyes became the world to meWide and brown smiling yet crying at the same timeTheir beauty their ambiguity still echoes in my mindTheir delightful song did not force me to redefineNor did it order my soul to make her eyes my shrineThere were no words no touch to communicateYet we spoke for hours tempting fateMy heart was captured my emotions her nervous guestMy mind the weary invader from the far westHer pulse her blink that matched the timing of my breathWas unsure if she desired me or hoped for my deathCould no see the hidden expressions that were on her faceMy thoughts naked my blushes open to her gazeCovered hands could not determine if she was rich or poorYet just her eyes made my fantasies soarDid not know if she was married or freeOr if she could speak my language easilyMy eyes tried to say all that I felt insideShe just stared, winked and took my soul for a ride

She says that she loves the art of danceSo daily she waltzes through my heart with romanceThe trees do their tango with the autumn windBlowing thoughts of her through my soul my mindSo many rhythms and dances separate our handsYet daily through the air we tango in our native landsStill I can hear the melody you breathed into my earsA sweet song the diminishes all worldly cares and fearsStill the taste of your kiss lingers on my lipsSucculent pleasure with every stolen sipStill the sensation of your fingers on my browTouches virgin spots in my soul even until nowMy emotions are a soaked rag that I twistAn addict to her the moment we first kissedAnd an anxious starving tongue to dineOn the fascinating heart and mindThis feast that both flesh and spirit delightFills my world with joy both day and nightStill I can see her shadow on my bedSuch fantasies still swim in my headStill her scent lingers on my sheetsInvigorating my body from my head to my feetStill the impression she left is engraved on my brainAnd the love we shared rushes through my veins.

Dark clouds invade my peaceful skyFrom mountains on the horizonConfusing the signature of timeYou stand before me realizingThe air is thick as thievesAnd pregnant clouds and wells of tearsThe rain starts from your eyes I believeCan’t determine which are the clouds or yoursThey join and form a river at your feetI am at a lost the rhyme or reasonBut my soul refuses to retreatThough it may be the rainy seasonSteam fills the closed locked roomFrom the heat birthed from the showerAnd you stand before me like a gentle flowerThe air so think I can hardly breatheAnd the moisture sticks to my poresSweat forms on your cheek I believeBut I can’t determine if it is from the air or is yoursThe drops join and are washed down the drainI am at a lost to the rhyme or reasonBut my heart tries to comfort your painThrough these stormy seasons