DISCLAIMER: All characters belong to the fabulous
Ilene Chaiken & showtime.
SPOILERS: Spoilers include all of season 1,
leaning heavily on the season finale.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Written in Tina & Bette's pov,
enjoy!
ARCHIVING: Only with the permission of the author.

I'm standing somewhere, leaning against Bette,
who's guiding me along some kind of wooden path. I
can't see a thing because this damn blind fold has
made everything dark. I can hear Alice sniggering in
the background, and then hear them all gasp as Bette
stops me in my tracks.

It's a warm night. A dampness hangs in the air,
and I can feel it clinging to the parts of my body
that isn't covered by my white cotton skirt and silk
halter top.

I have no idea what I'm doing here, and until
Bette blindfolded me in the rental car, I had thought
we were just going to explore.

I can hear the water swaying gently. "Bette?"

"Almost there baby" She promises me. "Careful we
have to go up some stairs"

"Here I'll help" Shane offers holding onto one of
my arms. They lead me up some steps, but everything
seems to move unsteadily with every step I take.

"Ok hold on...let me just..." Bette babbles
moving around before returning to my side. "...right
ok. I hope you like this T" She unties the blind fold
and I have to blink for a moment. Suddenly everything
surrounding me is lighted by tiny fairy lights. I'm
stood on a small boat with two decks, everything I
look at is ivory or cream. There's plush red seats at
the sides of the boat, bouquets of pink and white
roses resting in every chair. I look around in awe,
everything looks so beautiful.

"Oh Bette" I whisper taking everything in for the
second time. She smiles kissing me briefly before
sliding a rose into my hair. She holds my hand pulling
me towards the stairs to the second deck. I climb up
after her. The top deck is just as breathtaking as the
first. A table and it's seven chairs take up most of
the room. Everything's perfect. The delicate dishes,
the champagne on ice. I hug Bette tightly. Everybody
stands around smiling at me, not even Alice has a
smart comment to make.

A man, I assume is the captain, talks to Marina
in a language I can't make out. Their facial
expressions tell me that they're joking, Jenny's facial
expressions tell me that she's as amazed by Marina
right now as I am with Bette everyday.

"Ok he's setting off" Marina informs us.

"Everythings so beautiful" Jenny speaks so softly
that it's almost like she isn't here.

"Isn't it" I agree.

"And Bette organised all of this" Alice tells us.
"She wouldn't let me near it. I mean I would have
picked safari but then that's just me"

"Because safari is so romantic" Dana laughs.
Alice pokes her in the side.

"Have you seen the food?" Bette asks. I shake my
head. "Everything can be eaten with your fingers" She
whispers from behind me. "Strawberries, pears,
mangos" She uncovers bowls of fruit. "Melted
chocolate, vanilla cream" She continues, seductively.
"I didn't want to chance a three course meal on a
boat" I turn around in her arms so that we're face to
face.

"I'm glad you didn't" I stroak her face with my
hands and kiss her my thank you. "I think you may just
have qualified for best wife ever" She looks away
sadly, but I tell myself to ignore it. Maybe Bette
thinks that I'm letting her off too easily, but she's
wrong.

"Should we eat now?" Bette asks.

"I'm ready, you guys?"

"Definitely. I'm always ready to sample a finger
buffet" Alice jokes.

"Does every thought in that mind of yours
generate into something disgusting?" Shane asks as she
sits down. Alice sits down next to her, and Dana sits
down next to Alice. With Bette and I clearly sitting
together, Jenny has no choice but to be next to
Marina. Bette pulls my chair out for me, I sit down,
and she pushes it back in.

"Thank you baby"

"You're welcome"

Marina puts her hands on the back of Jenny's
chair, and Jenny practically jumps into it before
Marina has a chance to push her chair in. I see hurt
flash for a second before she composes herself and
sits down.

"Well they had all kinds of appetisers but I
figured it would be more intimate if we had to feed
each other" Bette explains her voice soft, but in some
barely detectable way forceful. Shane shrugs dipping a
piece of mango into the bowl of cream and waving it
infront of Alice's face. Alice frowns at the dripping
piece of fruit but eats it anyway.

"Hmm what should I feed you?" I ponder out loud.
I pick up a strawberry and dip it into the melted
chocolate until it touches my finger tips, and then
dip it into sugar. I place the strawberry in-between
my front teeth and lean forward until Bette bites into
the coated strawberry her lips brushing teasingly
against mine. She presses her lips to mine, her lips
licking off the remaining chocolate on my lips.

"Do we have to do that?" Jenny barely manages to
ask.

"Only if you want to Jenny" Marina breathes out a
dripping piece of cream soaked pear hanging in-between
two fingers. Jenny looks at her with wide eyes not
wanting to eat from Marina's hands but doing so
anyway.

Alice looks on with interest nudging Dana who is
holding up a piece of passion fruit. The piece of
fruit falls into Alice's lap and she looks at it like
it's an alien. "Thanks Dana" She dead pans.

"More champagne?" Bette asks, I nod and she
refills my glass and her own. She feeds me a
strawberry and then brings my glass of champagne to my
lips.

The fruit and the champagne are devoured
hungrily. Dana even manages to feed Alice something.
The champagne has gone right to my head, and I know
when Bette walks me over to the side of the boat, that
I'm more than a little tipsy. The gentle breeze seems
to make my body dance against Bette's. I hold her as
tightly as I can, taking in the scent of her perfume
and the chocolate still lingering on her lips. "I
think I might have drank too much" She looks down at
me kissing my nose.

"Maybe just a little?"

I shouldn't drink because when I drink I become
vulnerable. Right now I'm clinging to Bette like she's
about to say good-bye. "I love you" I whisper into her
ear.

"I love you too"

I giggle. "I know. I don't think I told you how
incredibly sexy you look tonight" I growl, snaring her
lip in-between my teeth. I grab her ass with my hands
and she laughs.

"Tina Kennard, are you coming on to me?"

"Don't look so surprised Mrs Porter. I'm always
coming on to you" She grins kissing me, but both Bette
and I know we're not getting anything tonight. I rest
my head against her shoulder and I'm begging for our
four poster bed.

"Have you seen Jenny and Marina?" Bette asks. I
look around until my eyes find them entangled on one
of those plush chairs. It's bizarre to look at them,
or at least it's bizarre to look at Marina like this.
Maybe it's the champagne but I have never seen Marina
be so tender with anybody. She cradles Jenny to her,
kissing her mouth, her cheeks, her neck, and the
resilience just washes away from Jenny's face.

"Jenny looks happy"

"Marina has a lot to thank us for. Romantic
cruise, strawberries, champagne" I nod into her chest.
"Come on baby the boat's about to dock"

Chapter Seventeen

I've been awake for a while now, and even at this
precise moment it's still early. I just can't seem to
sleep. Last night was the first time, since we got
back together, that Tina and I went to bed without
making love. The exhaustion normally sends me right off
to sleep, but I'm feeling so wired that I was only
able to snatch an hour or so.

We arrived back home at about five, and now it's
seven. I don't want to wake Tina but lying here is
making me think things that I'd need Tina to be awake
for. I'm trying to ignore them think of things to take
my mind off of the woman sleeping beside me. I turn
onto my side so that I'm facing her. She looks so
sweet and innocent when she sleeps.

Tina really seemed to enjoy last night. I think
it was definitely time that Tina let her hair down.
And it looks like Tina and I are not the only couple
in this villa anymore. I have to admit the whole
Marina and Jenny thing seemed impossible to begin
with. Marina has always been a hunter plain and
simple. It's like every time Fransesca would leave on
one of her business trips Marina would get a taste of
freedom and some girl would have to suffer because of
it, but I don't know Jenny really seems to have
changed her. Getting rid of Fransesca now that seemed
pretty impossible to imagine aswell. I guess nothing
is ever really impossible. The way I see it is there
has to be one person out there who makes all that
impossible stuff seem possible. Somebody who you can
spend the rest of your life with and not want to
strangle them because they've become so boring. It
takes a lot of finding but if you're lucky then it'll
happen. I'm lucky, and I hope that Jenny is too.

Mulling over last night, my mind seems to enjoy
reflecting most on feeding Tina, on being fed by Tina.
My mind as of late is a pretty sordid place to be.
Every thought I process that is about Tina involves
nudity. My mind definitely needs to be censored. I'm
thinking of Tina feeding me chocolate coated
strawberries on that boat, but with only T and me on
the boat. Then I'm thinking of the sounds of the ocean
the fairy lights, the completely romantic ambience.
But then my mind starts to think about maybe Tina
undressing me while I'm eating these strawberries. Me
undressing Tina. I can practically feel the breeze.
Then my mind thinks actually Tina undressing me just
isn't enough, Tina feeding me strawberries while we're
both naked would be a whole lot better. But no not
even that's enough for my mind because suddenly the
possibility of eating strawberries off of Tina's naked
body arises. Maybe I resent the gang just a little for
bringing them along. I'm starting to feel pretty
worked up right now, and it's no good. I'm turned on
but I can't do anything about it, although I could do
something about it but with T asleep next to me? No,
no I'll just wait. I'm not an animal I can wait. I
smile to myself. I can wait. I can wait right? I
start to think of kissing T, of the last time we made
love. I can't wait.

Almost guiltily I slip my hand underneath the
sheet, feeling it slide down my body, across my
stomach and down into soft curls of hair until I touch
my core. I sigh with relief. I glance sideways at
Tina, checking that she's still asleep. I close my
eyes, exploring my sex with my fingers. I think of T,
of her body, imagine that it's her touching me,
stroking me. Tina is such a generous lover. The sex is
always so intense. My fingers start to slide more
easily as I grow wetter. My heart begins to beat
quicker and I bite my lips to stop myself from moaning
and waking T. My body starts to move as my arousal
seems to course through me, moving my toes, my hips.
My free hand clutches at the sheets as the speed of my
moving fingers increases. I open my eyes and Tina is
sat infront of me, her cheeks flushed, biting her lip
with pleasure. She pulls the sheet off of me. "Let me
finish this" She rasps, moving my hand away and
replacing it with her own. Now both of my hands are
clutching at the sheet beneath me as I feel Tina enter
me immediately. In seconds I'm groaning her name,
gasping for air as I come.

"I'm sorry" I apologise when my heart has finally
slowed down.

"Oh don't be sorry. I could wake up to that every
morning"

"Is that so? Well I think its about time I
returned the favour" I wink, climbing onto her,
placing her hands above her head.

"Yeah?"

"Yeah" I repeat kissing her briefly, teasing her
with air kisses. "I think it's definitely time I
returned the favour" I move my hands over her body
with great interest. I've memorised this body. I've
touched it, tasted it, imagined it, thousands of
times. My hands move across her breasts. My fingertips
teasing her nipples with gentle caresses. "Good?" I
ask.

"Good" She giggles. Not good enough. I want her
to not be able to speak. I replace my fingers with my
mouth. Covering her erect nipples in damp kisses,
every so often my tongue darting out. "Good?"

"Good" She groans. My lips travel downwards
painting invisible patterns around her navel. I'm
edging closer and closer towards my goal, and I can
smell her arousal, practically taste it already. I
part her folds gently and she's so wet that I'm amazed
at how quickly she's got me turned on all over again.
I slide my tongue across her sex, lapping at the
wetness that I find. "Better" Escapes her lips, but it
sounds strangled. Like it bothers her to get it out,
like she's got other things on her mind, like she
should. My lips cover her clit sucking it gently.
"Fuck" She exclaims. I look up, my mouth still teasing
her clit, and she's grabbing the pillow above her
moving her head from side to side in ecstasy. I lick
her harder, watching her, feeling her, as she writhes
underneath me. It's starting to get to her. I slide my
tongue up and down, pressing down hard. She starts to
groan loudly, uncontrollably. I love it. I lick at her
as hard as I can, my tongue focusing on her clit. The
groans turn to gasps and I can literally feel
everything she's feeling. The relief, the feeling of
content, the quelling of all those desires that feel
like there at breaking point.

"Good?" I ask, one eyebrow raised.

She's still breathing heavily. "Very good"

Chapter Eighteen

I have just two words to describe that
experience, mind blowing. Waking up to the sight of
Bette pleasuring herself is enough to make anybody's
temperature rise. Waking up to Bette pleasuring
herself, and knowing that she's thinking about me, now
that is just indescribable. And I guess that word
pretty much sums Bette up. She is just completely
indescribable, because words just are not good enough.

Bette is sleeping right now. Worn out, no doubt,
by our love making. The sex just keeps getting better
and better. It's like my body, and my mind have
finally just realised who I've been sharing a bed with
for the past seven years. All those months without
touching her were such a waste. But I'm not confusing
our sex life with the reason we had, had problems.
Granted it was one of the reasons, but I think
communication was the biggest one. But now, I don't
know, it's like I know how she's feeling and I know
she knows how I'm feeling when we haven't even spoken
a word to each other.

I'm feeling pretty worn out right now. The lack
of sleep, the alcohol consumption from last night, are
all taking there toll. But my mouth feels so dry that
I know I'm not going to sleep unless I get a drink.

I kiss Bette's cheek and she stirs slightly as I
tear myself from her side. The term joined at the hip
comes to mind. I walk down the hallway as silently as
possible. It was a long night last night, and I don't
want to disturb anybody.

I reach Alice and Dana's bedroom, and it's silent
but for the sound of them breathing. But even as I'm
stood at Alice and Dana's bedroom door I can hear
groaning. And it's bizarre how easily I find myself at
Marina, and Jenny's bedroom door. I don't know what it
is about curiosity but it's almost like it's torture
to ignore some gossip.

"God Marina what are you doing to me" I hear
Jenny moan. I think about walking away, but who am I
kidding they would and probably have listened in on
Bette and me. Jenny starts to groan over and over
again, and I have to admit it's getting a little
strange, but I want to know what's happening between
them. You'd be surprised what you can tell by pillow
talk alone. I mean do you just roll over and go to
sleep, do you compliment each other, or do you
proclaim your undying love? Everything goes silent,
but for the sound of their erratic breathing. I hear
the sheets shuffling.

"I know I have hurt you Jenny" Marina says.

"Marina..."

"No let me say it. I have hurt you Jenny, but I
have hurt myself aswell. I don't feel like this for
alot of people, not even Fransesca. I know that I have
made mistakes. But I can look after you. I can love
you" I can practically see Jenny's eyes shooting
around the room, darting in every possible direction,
while her mind contemplates about a thousand things.

"I need to...I'll need to go slow. There's still
things about you that I need to know Marina before I
start a relationship with you"

"Of course"

"But...but I want to be with you"

"Oh Jenny" I can imagine them hugging, kissing. I
walk away with a smile on my face. It's nice to know
I'm not the only woman getting some. All I need to do
now is find someone for Shane, and get Alice and Dana
together.

I walk down the stairs, into the kitchen.
Everything is spotless. I open the fridge, grab myself
a glass, and pour myself some fruit juice.

I walk outside, the heat of the sun greeting me
immediately. This is how I want to grow old. Bette,
and me living in the sunshine drinking fruit juice
beside the pool. I finish off my glass and head back
upstairs.

I pass Jenny, and Marina's door and now it's
Marina groaning. I stifle a giggle and tip toe back
into my room.

Bette is sleeping on her side, her slender arm
stretched out across my side of the bed. I can't tell
you how sweet she is right now. It's like even when
she's asleep she's dreaming that I'm there. I gently
lift her arm and slide underneath it, wrapping it
around my stomach, pulling us together. I kiss her
frowning forehead, and then her lips, snuggling close
to her.

"T, baby I need to sleep or I'm gonna faint" She
croaks, her eyelids fluttering open.

"I know sweetie, I was just kissing you good
morning"

"Good morning" She barely manages, sleep hanging
off of her every word. I move closer to her, using her
chest as my pillow. I love the sound of her heart
beating, it's like my own lullaby. I fall asleep with
the sound of it in my ears.

Chapter Nineteen

I'm catching up on some much needed rest on the
beach. The sun is at its hottest, and I can feel the
sand burning through the blanket that I'm sharing with
T. It's pretty quiet on the beach today. A few
honeymooners, holiday goers, and a man walking his
dog. I love it like this. At home even when it's quiet
it's noisy, it's never really silent enough. But in
Barbados I can hear all the sounds I miss out on in
America.

"Ok..." Tina begins, a mischievous smile on her
face. I sit up because I know what that smile means.

Shane is sat in the sand, dressed barely in the
tightest pair of shorts I have ever seen, and a bikini
top. Sunglasses frame her face as she grins at Tina.
Marina and Jenny are sat next to each other, Marina's
arm placed around the back of Jenny's waist
protectively. Alice and Dana are sat together, as per
usual. Alice has a wary look on her face, and as Dana
glances at Alice she does too. "...so if you had to,
had to, pick one person out of this group that you'd
have to sleep with who would it be"

"You of course" I say. She smiles and kisses me
but shakes her head.

"No couples, and nobody that you've slept with
before so you can't pick Bette Alice. So come on who
would it be"

"Well since you brought this up I think it's only
fair if you go first" Alice complains.

"Fine, I'd sleep with Shane" I glance sideways at
her frowning. Shane winks at her, and Tina winks back.

She hugs Jenny to her. "Well if I can't have
Jenny..." Jenny smiles in that adorable naive way and
we all smile with her. "...I think I would go for
Bette"

"Why?" Shane asks.

"Because, she knows how to treat a woman. And
from what I've had no choice but to overhear in the
past few days she definitely knows how to treat a
woman in bed" She winks at Tina, and Tina nods in
agreement.

"It's true, I'm a very lucky woman"

"Jenny?" Tina asks.

Jenny becomes shy, and Marina strokes her back
comfortingly. "I think...I think that I'd probably go
for Tina. Just because she's so sweet and kind, and
gentle"

"Could you get mine after you've had sex? I don't
want it to be warm" Dana asks in all seriousness.

Marina looks like the cat that got the cream she
nods her head elegantly and allows herself to be
dragged away by an eager blushing Jenny.

"Well nobody was expecting that to happen" Alice
says sarcastically.

Chapter Twenty

Tina and I are on the balcony. Tina is sat in my
lap, and we're just looking at the stars. This stuff
always seemed so corny to me, but on holiday whatever
feels good goes. I never really looked at the stars in
America, but as I'm sat here listening to Tina
breathe, feel her heart beating against mine, I'm
beginning to wish I did.

"Alice...I think we need to talk" I hear Dana
say. I look at Tina and she puts her fingertips on my
lips. I nod in understanding.

"Dana wait until we get home" Alice protests,
and I think that this might be the first time that
Alice hasn't wanted to talk.

"No Al, I waited until we came here to talk to
you because there never seemed like there was enough
time back home. I need to talk to you before I lose my
nerve" I feel like I shouldn't be here, like this is
going to be a really private moment. But if I move now
then maybe Dana won't tell Alice what she wants to
say.

"Dana..." Alice interrupts.

"Alice would you let me talk for once!" Tina and
I glance at each other wide eyed.

"Ok" Alice murmurs.

"I need to...I need to sit down" Dana explains. They
move over to the pool and sit crossed legged at the
pool side.

They sit in silence for a long time. Dana
glancing at Alice, and then looking away, Alice
glancing at Dana and then looking away.

"Dana if you're not going to..."

"Would you give me a minute Al, I'm thinking!
Christ! I don't want to fuck this up, ok?" Alice nods,
speechless. I know what you're thinking. Alice
speechless? Not a chance, but apparently alot of
things I didn't think were happening have been
happening. "I think I realised, even before you kissed
me, that Tonya and me would never work out. You know I
was starting to think I'd be alone forever. When she
started clinging to me it was be with her or be alone.
I never would have thought that you had..." She lets
the sentence hang in the air, and disappear into the
silence.

"Feelings for you?" Alice asks, though her
usually perky voice has all the tell tale signs of
emotion. It's so quiet that I can hear Dana gulp.

"Tina and Bette breaking up, and getting back
together, it made me think. I'm always running away
from things the second they get difficult. And I could
be the usual geeky Dana, and ignore this, pretend that
when you kissed me I wanted you to stop, or I could be
honest because what if we have something as special as
Bette and Tina?"

I can feel a knot developing in my throat, and I
hold Tina tighter.

Alice looks down into the turquoise water silent.
"I..." She coughs back the emotion in her voice. "...I
love geeky Dana" She practically whispers.

Dana blushes "I...I mean...you know...oh god here
I go" Dana blushes harder as she babbles. Alice looks
at Dana with something I've never seen before in her
eyes. She brings a hand to Dana's cheek, nervously,
and it's one of the sweetest things I've ever seen.
They kiss timidly, Alice taking the lead. But then
Dana becomes hungry for more. She snakes an arm around
Alice's waist. When they part they're both smiling
shyly. "Maybe, maybe Shane could sleep alone
tonight?" Dana stammers blushing all over again.