Hello laalee and welcome to the forum. My name is Dee and I am one of the moderators of the forum. Barbara Rue is out other moderator. Take your time and read the posts of the other members, when you feel that you have had time to calm down and feel more at home please post and tell us a little bit about yourself.I have been in recovery since July 2002. I'd like to say that it has been an easy road, but it hasn't always been easy. I have had some bumps to work out but they have been little speed bumps compared to what my life was like before I was able to take a medication to help me manage my addiction to opiates. P;ease post and let us know how you are.I look forward to meeting you.Yours in Recovery,Dee