The unending chronicle and personal ramblings of a LA actor facing the challenges of living as an ex-smoker, eating a plant-based diet, and exploring life as a Nichiren Buddhist while STILL daring to dream that success in Hollywood is still possible after the age of 29.

Friday, December 7, 2012

I have lived in the same apartment for quite a while. It never ceases to amaze me how excited our manager's wife gets during the holidays! She decorates as if her life depended upon it. Halloween is filled with creepy goblins, skeletons and motion sensor triggered witches cackling as we enter or exit the apartment complex.

I must say the first time Rusty and I went out for his walk and got surprised by the sudden witch's scream, we both nearly jumped out of our skin. I later found it humorous. Rusty was not amused. Unfortunately she always puts up her decorations so early, by the time Halloween actually rolled around the battery was so low the witches cackle sounded more like a warped record on its final death spiral.

Tonight, she is working on her Christmas display. We have a light show of Santa and his reindeer dangling front the roof over the courtyard. This year, they went all out with some sort of life size air blown plastic holiday characters singing Christmas carols and playing instruments. It definitely puts you in the holiday spirit.

I generally gave up on decorating my apartment about two years into living here. I bought a live Christmas tree and decorations, the whole nine yards. When I was finally done I thought why did I do all of this? It is just me and now there are pine needles everywhere, my fingers are in shreds and I need to water this monstrosity before it turns into a fire hazard. Oiy! Now I leave it up to our resident decorator to do her thing and I appreciate the holidays from afar. I think I am the only resident who doesn't light up there living room window with the holiday schtick. Today a large plastic candy cane was shoved into my potted lemon tree I have been growing outside my front door. I guess that means I am participating.:)

I know I know I sound like a grinch but I am really not. I just hate decorating my apartment for the holidays. I do however enjoy the enthusiasm our Manager's wife takes in making our complex have a feel of "Home".

Thursday, December 6, 2012

While I was surfing the net I discovered that my scene from "2 Broke Girls" has been used as a clip on the CBS website. That was cool to see!

As I am playing the audition/waiting game I might as well celebrate whatever brings me joy as often as I can. The alternative is slipping into the usual actor's depression that comes with the territory but must be resisted as much as possible.

I realized this week that if I am not vigilant at focusing on the positive, it is way too easy to fall into the negative. When this happens, it is amazing how much negative reinforcement you hear from those around you. We speak in the negative so regularly, that it feels like the norm instead of simply negative thinking. I really can't afford to stay in that negative frame of mind for long or it will affect EVERYTHING!

So enjoy this clip with my brief appearance and hold a good thought for me! Thought has power!:)

Well, I am happy to say that getting my diet in better shape has gotten me feeling much better. I decided to get back to basics and eat more of the food I grew up with, so I am rediscovering all things curry! I have had more variations of curry and roti in the last few days than I have in a while and surprisingly, I am feeling much better. I think the influx of turmeric in my system has burned out whatever germs were keeping me sick. I am even dropping off the pounds!

Exercising is a bit hit or miss but getting slowly more consistent.

Once I take a break and see my family for the Xmas holidays, I have a feeling I will be completely back on track. Auditions have slowed a bit as we approach the holidays so I am a little stir crazy.