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That us humans will never know shit. We think we do, but we don't. We don't know anything about space. We can't comprehend how large it is, or a general idea of it. How we don't know anything but what we have made accustom to us. Hell, we don't even know 60% of Marine life. The Deep Sea, other galaxies, other life in space. How greedy we are, that if we'd find another planet with another species, we'd probably kill them all and steal their resources. How we try so hard to escape death, and not to think about one day, we will die. Wanting to live forever. How incredible the human brain is, but we don't know how to use it. We don't even use all of it. The Quantum Realm. Other Realms. How realize when you are laying in bed, that you can't change the world, but you can only disrupt it. We are past our extinction period. How disturbing humans really are. Why do we laugh when someone punches someone in the face? Is causing pain to others enjoyable? I could do a whole essay of just rambling.

That us humans will never know shit. We think we do, but we don't. We don't know anything about space. We can't comprehend how large it is, or a general idea of it. How we don't know anything but what we have made accustom to us. Hell, we don't even know 60% of Marine life. The Deep Sea, other galaxies, other life in space. How greedy we are, that if we'd find another planet with another species, we'd probably kill them all and steal their resources. How we try so hard to escape death, and not to think about one day, we will die. Wanting to live forever. How incredible the human brain is, but we don't know how to use it. We don't even use all of it. The Quantum Realm. Other Realms. How realize when you are laying in bed, that you can't change the world, but you can only disrupt it. We are past our extinction period. How disturbing humans really are. Why do we laugh when someone punches someone in the face? Is causing pain to others enjoyable? I could do a whole essay of just rambling.

This is so true

I dont think about much in bed because I dont go to bed unless Im absolutely sure I'll be able to sleep. Its kind of a sleeping problem because I think Im afraid of laying awake in bed or something. Kind of messed up
The fact that Im posting this for absolute strangers says enough I guess lol

How I'm sometimes still very prone to take things extremely literally, seriously and personal and how it gets me stuck in an "Eye for an eye." mentality. I've always been that way though, but it's certainly still draining as well. No wonder why there's a lot of power in forgetting things and letting them go.

And then there's also that overall feeling of not belonging anywhere. That also still sometimes creeps up on me at night too.

Go join the Mario Kartel and have fun crashing into marketplaces. Not for real though. But in your *mind*. Homicidal ideations actually helps people keep sane...and moral.

That's actually one of the reasons as to why I'm a fan of the Insane Clown Posse as they were able to actually turn that into a career. (Just to give you one example.) Well, that and storytelling, just like Marilyn Manson, only with rap and other concepts. I might not follow them as much as I used to, but their way of doing just that sometimes helps. There really were just so many times when it was extremely difficult, or even flat-out impossible for me to even begin to imagine anger without violence and destruction.

Damn, speaking of which, that also reminds me to get back into Grand Theft Auto again some day.

On an unrelated note, it seems like Marilyn Manson forums are kind of like a mix between what you could see and expect from Insane Clown Posse and Korn fans. (Good, bad and all in between, just to be fair and objective.)

How very perceptive of you though, as I didn't even intend to admit it all to that extent regarding those types of thoughts in that moment either. Granted, I'm sure you've obviously also seen all sorts on the Internet anyway.

And well, since this is Provider Module, I figured that I'd just put it like this.

I feel you.
It's been five years since I first had that thought, and am relieved to find that at this current halfway point, it is not yet the case.
...I still hardly have any hope for the next five though.