Friday, February 12, 2010

I know I'm so late posting this, but I have shockingly less time to blog as a SAHM than I did while working. Perhaps because I used to have long stretches of time without my Little Man..? Yeah, probably.

Anyway my teeny man is four months away from being a year old! He is getting to be so much fun and as much as I miss the tiny little baby we brought home, I am really lovfing this age. He's so engaging! It's amazing to see how much he's changed in just a few short months. He giggles all the time and is so interested in literally everything. He can entertain himself forever with just a few toys. He rolls all over the place; he's still not crawling, but he is very close to being able to pull himself up on things. We'll need to lower his crib mattress pretty soon!

Being so close to crawling, he's starting to get himself into trouble. I am, by no stretch of the imagination, a neat freak, and I've never been interested in keeping a super clean house. Lately however, I have to (especially with 3 dogs running around). I have to make sure that all of his toys get picked up as soon as he's done with them or they'll end up in a puppy's mouth. I have to keep an eye on him so that he doesn't yank on tails or ears. The dogs have been awesome with him so far, and I really want to keep it that way and not give them any reason to dislike him. Sweeping and mopping once a week used to be fine, now I'm having to do it 2-3 times per week just to be sure that Little Man isn't picking up anything covered in dog hair. We need to start baby-proofing; poor baby has banged his head on the edge of our coffee table more times than I can count... but he can't seem to stay away from it. He likes to hang out around the legs.

Sleeping is still a challenge. Except for a couple of random nights, he has yet to STTN. I am so exhausted! He still consistently wakes up two or three times a night and I am really at my wits end. Luckily, I have a hubby that will wake up in the middle of the night to go get him out of his crib and bring him to me so I can feed him in bed. He always ends up snuggling with me for the rest of the night. My mom says he has sleep issues because I haven't set him up on a schedule. She might be right, but I've noticed that he isn't always tired at the same time every day and (to my way of thinking) putting him down when he's not tired because its "nap time" just doesn't make sense. He'd end up fussing and rolling around or playing in his crib. He DOES NOT soothe himself to sleep. He never has. I always have to either walk him around or he'll fall asleep while nursing. I've tried to let him CIO a few times, but I always end up going in to get him after just a few minutes because he's screaming his head off; no matter how exhausted I know he is, he just gets himself too worked up for it to be successful for him.

I can't think of any new developments right now as it's after 1:00AM. This is really the only time I have to myself. But now I'm tired and gonna go to bed.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

How funny that I should get the jitters about leaving work now that I’m less than 12 hours away from my exit interview. For months I’ve been looking forward to this day and now that it’s here, I am suddenly terrified! Well, not terrified, it’s more like a weird combination of fear and elation. Kind of like when I found out I was PG. I think it has something to do with the fact that I'll be technically unemployed for the first time since I graduated high school. This is the first time I'll be without a set schedule for the week. No more waking up at 5:00 am, hurrying to get myself and Little Man ready and in the car by 6:30. No more fighting the early morning rush to work and then the evening rush back home. No more dealing with bosses that don't value you beyond being a mechanism for attaining their goals. I won't ever again have to bite my tongue while said boss takes credit for my hard work. It's very liberating to know that I'll now set my own schedule, that I'm accountable only to myself and that everything I accomplish from here on out will be for the benefit of my family and not to appease the corporate powers that be.

As I was carrying my box of personal items down to my car, the couple of people I passed in the hallway looked really sad and said they were going to miss me. Truthfully, I'll miss some of them too. It’s nice to know that I made some kind of impact. I’m sure I’ll see some of them again in the future; my mom will continue to work in the building until November and I’ll be bringing Little Man by to see her once in a while and go out to lunch or something. Those of us leaving tomorrow even got a farewell pizza party and goodbye cards. Awwww!

I'm a lot more sad about saying goodbye to the daycare than I ever thought I could be. Not so much because I liked the idea of him being there, but because the people are so nice and they've taken such good care of my Little Man since he was 4 months old. I've become really good friends with his "teacher" and call her often just to chat. She even babysits him occasionally. I'll miss the other babies too, I spend a good chunk of my day with those munchkins and not seeing them all the time is pretty sad for me. I'm sure Little Man will miss his friends too, so we need to find a Mommy-and-Me group in the area ASAP!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

And I’ll be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I am so excited! The days cannot pass quickly enough! Have you ever noticed that the more you look forward to a day, the longer it seems to take to get there? I hate that feeling! I keep staring at the few personal items I still have on my desk and fighting the urge to pack them up and run out the door. And it’s beautiful outside, which does not help to keep me in my chair! I’m finding it harder and harder to stay focused on what I’m supposed to be doing. The only things I’ll miss about this job are (some of) the people I work with. They’re all (with a few exceptions) so nice and friendly. I see these guys more than I see my own husband. It’s going to be weird when they’re not a part of my day anymore.

Things are so awesome right now! Little Man is getting better at the night time thing. He only wakes up once or twice a night now, as opposed to three or four times. I’m hoping to get him to sleep all the way through the night very soon! He’s almost over his bronchiolitis and ear infection. My sister is coming home on leave. A very good friend of mine is having twins after struggling. Another found out her precious bundle is a little girl. AND my new little niece/nephew is growing strong... oh yeah. Life is good. And I thank the Lord every day.

More good news: My 2nd PP AF is the same as the 1st one was. I was afraid that the 1st one was a fluke and that the horrendous cramps would be back this time around. I have lived with very painful AF cramps since I was 12 and thought it would be that way forever. I’ve missed so many days of school/work because I was at home writhing in pain and feeling like I was gonna die. It sucks that it took having a baby to change that, but hey, I’ll take it!

I got an invitation for my 10 year High School reunion this July. It’s crazy to think that it’s already been 10 years. I do not feel old enough for this! I’m going. I know there are a lot of people that waffle with this decision because they regress back to a HS mentality where they’re afraid that people won’t like them or that they’ll make fun of the fact that they put on a few pounds or some other dumb thing. I’m going because I want to see the people that I’ve lost touch with over the years. I don’t care if they think I look fat in my dress. Of course, that won’t stop me from exercising my little tushy off in the mean time! But let’s not forget that I pledged to do this a few weeks ago, BEFORE the invite! LOL

Monday, February 1, 2010

I stole this from another blog. I thought it was cute. You're supposed to bold the things you've done.

1. Started your own blog2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightening storm
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted (technically, it was drawn, not painted. I'm counting it anyway.48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Received flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a jobGonna be laid off on the 11th
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been a passenger on a motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year’s Eve
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating (ewwwwww)
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Got a tattoo I'll be able to bold this in a couple weeks
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

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It takes 9 months to grow a baby and only 1 second to fall in love with one. - Me!

"When a husband or wife dies, the survivor is called a widow or widower. When a child loses their parents, they are called an orphan. When a parent loses a child, there is no word for it. That is how tragic it is". -Yiddish saying.

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One is as though nothing is a miracle.
The other is as though everything is a miracle. - Albert Einstein

A smart person learns from his mistakes. A wise person learns from the mistakes of others. - Unknown