>Have to get up at 6am and switch from bus to train and then to tram at three different points of the journey, so i basically go there when it's still dark and come back when it's dark still thanks to winter

>On the way of course you gotta deal with all kinds of shitskins, zoomers/loudass children, annoying boomers et al

>The whole thing's set up in some coorporate outpost in the middle of a giantass bussiness park area on the outermost outskirts of town

>On my first day i notice how there's just two other participants beside me that are just wrapping up their own course, one semi-breedable arab thot (one of those "liberal muslim" ones without headscarf) that keeps whining about her domestic shit with her own nMom (and whomst also flirted for a bit w/me today after we went to the cafeteria for lunch i think heh) and this one guy that dresses like a sperg and speaks only in barely audible mumbling utterances

>Whole thing's run by 1 or 2 actual staffers and 2 more interns whomst are both turkish aswell

>There's no lunch being served on my first day there for some reason either so they give each of us 4 bucks and send us on our way, the guy then spots out some shitty tinyass lunch shop where they served hot meals at least, i decide to share mine with him and we talk for a bit

>Later that day we go shopping in a supermarket because apparently cooking meals ourselves in the staff kitchen at least once a week is a highly relevant skill in regards to the job market aswell

>Also crafting random shit with lard stones and ceramics too for some weirdass reason on other days, with some elementary tier-grade lessons we have to solve each week sprinkled on top too

>Roughly six more weeks of this shit, oh boi.jpg

The *only* upside so far is that i've got some appointments next week where i'll be taking days off and can also use these track closures as an excuse to turn up later/pop some kratom earlier to be able to get thru the day heh - Apparently i am also elligible for the dole whilst i'm attending this shit so that's good too. The white kratom literally saved my ass though, it helps tremendously with focussing on whatevs you need to focus on right now whether it be talking to one of the staffers or doing any particular given task at that moment, like jesus this shit is awesome and i'll be sure to keep it in moderation so as to not build up tolerance or anything

But with everything else that's piled on top of this shit i really gotta say if it turns out that they won't include the trade skool recommendation in their final report after all (the staffer assigned to me was pretty weird about this the other day) i'll abort this shit prematurely because then it doesn't matter anyways and i sure as hell won't waste any more fucking time there and shit heh

LOL mfw just as i was boutta take the pizza out of the oven nGmom and eFMgdad stood there inna kitchen doorframe all of a sudden and almost gave me a heart attack w/their shittyass hoovering lel (apparently nmom's absent until tuesday so they're scouting the place unannounced and shit). They kept asking me questions about where i was and shit so i let it slip that i'm attending the job training programme since i didn't tell any of the NFOO narcs naturally lest they could sabotage it or stuff like that

Heh mfw today there was this nu morrocan lad with glasses that entered the group and generally brought some great bants with him once he had warmed up. The other lad also had his final day today which was sad but he gave me his steam also (or at least tried to remember it) oh and then there was this cunt that was supposed to also show up to the programme today but didn't so who knows what might await me once i return in 3 days since i'm taking two days off for now heh

Guy is like 4 years younger than me but apparently he robbed a convenience store with airsoft guns or something with some of his fellow shitskins so he has a trial coming up but might actually dodge jailtime since he's a first offender and shit

What's also REALLY funny to me (but which i did not directly tell him ofc) is the fact that he's literally heckin obsessed with watching anime and has a severe case of yellow fever. I'm not even kidding or making this shit up, guy even showed me some of his korean women pictures on his smartphone and shit. I tried to hold my shit together when he told me how he puked himself once in a gook restaurant with his crush due to being shitfaced and stuff

He was also constantly talking shit w/the both of us and kept whining about not having a gf right now/how he was dumped due to being unemployed and not getting any puccy at all since den

I also told the fella all about kratom and shit and how he should try it out and he found it absolutely hysterical for some reason that it acts on the same receptors that actual opiods do heh. Of course drugs are very haram in his religion but he seems to take it with great humour, basically none of these muslims in the west actually adhere to the stringent standards of mohammedanism anyways

Very funny guy overall though, at least now the whole thing doesn't seem to be that drab anymore which is always a plus of course

Heh mfw today we cooked again, normally this shit's only being done on thursday but apparently no other participant showed up besides that one morrocan lad so they went shopping yesterday and waited for me to return to do the cooking thing. Poor fella was all by himself the last 3 days over like i said so naturally he seemed a lot more reserved than on his first day/Monday. He already put to good use the info i slipped to him about the other intern thot being turkish ethnically speaking (god she smells so good and even though her arms are somewhat hairy whenever she wears one of these things where you can basically see her tits it makes me want to breed her right den and dere, she's one year younger than and also smaller than me heh)

Also at the train station at 7AM when it was still dark on the bench next to me there was this sandnigger-esque boomer guy whomst loudly played an Italo disco track i immediately recognized from my lurking sessions and just as the train was rolling in another eurodance track i knew aswell started playing on the guys's phone. Almost made me go up and go shake his hand or something for his superb musical tastes heh

Me and the morrocan yellow fever anime lad also talked fo a bit about assorted anime stuff again aswell, among other things i recommended him dat nu Goblin Hunter manga series aswell as the upcoming live action Alita Battle Angel remake which the chinks will hopefully rip again in time

During the lunch break i tried to funpost on my mobile roaming connection again but unfortunately some 2016era-ban of some pedo kike kicked in suddenly instead so now i'll have to reinstall the browser again i guess, luckily i still have the APK saved from earlier

When he kept whining about being tired i also half-jokingly offered him sum kratom pills of which he initially took all three but then later on he was liek nah i only need one and i was like lol ur call brah but you won't feel shit with only a single 500mg capsule. I myself threw in two more like an hour or so after my initial standard dose of 1.6mg, it was a very nice albeit somewhat numbing effect and i hadn't been this darng focussed since a long time for sure, the things really do work when kept in moderation. I reckon if i had taken that same dose again the whole thing would've switched into an opiod-like trance state quite easily so it was good that i kept it below 2.5g overall heh. Seven capsules on a single day (including the one i gave to the lad in my programme) isn't exactly frugal though so i'll keep a lid on my stash even tighter now i think

On the way back in the tram some VERY hawt zoomer bish scandily clad in only see-thru thighs (during freezing temps outside mind ya) seated herself right next to me aswell, we even touched shoulders at one point and i got the hardest stiffy for de rest of de ride thru dis heh

Also that fucking rain/snow storm thing went on completely uninterrupted since this morning at 6AM, shit's fucking cray smdh and then the other bus didn't arrive either in muh hometown so i quickly switched to the other line when that one drove up instead

Mfw my ersatz GPU also finally arrived which i will be putting into muh build later on so as to be able to play the nu GW2 Living World story release heh

I only rarely post on 8ch let alone this here bort these days, if i would be lurking in a dedicated fashion and be putting effort into crafting sum quality posts you'd know it heh but it wouldn't hurt if you would point out what posts/which contents were offending to you

Also mfw when i get up and to pull myself thru specially in the mornings i find myself constantly thinkgen bout the apex magyaroid breeding specimen, literally all i can think of during the commutes is her name and face and holy fuck i need to breed this woman or some chick akin to her jeez

foky is still my favorite poster and i'd like to move to holland with him and abuse psycedelics whilst engaging in promiscuous sexual activity for the purpose of rampantly spreading our genetic material to as many THOTs as possible and expanding the noospheric potential of the white race

Afaik many kratom users successfully used it to come off actual ZOG-supplied enslavement opiods such as fentanyl and oxywhateveritsnameis

See pic heh

Now if you pop 15g or more once a day or moar den yeah ofc ur going to get urself hooked/physically addicted to the stuff but with responsible use you won't develop an addiction and only experience the non-opiod-like positive effects of said astrally connected plant

Heh mfw today when i arrived there was this note written by the hotass breedable turkish intern thot qt adressing me by name and informing me about the fact that the session was taking place 500 away in the other building so i immediately went there instead and sure enough there were like 7 other participants from some other department and the morrocan lad enthusiastically greeted me and like immediately afterwards began telling me his experience with the Goblin Slayer anime which i had recommended to him earlier/last week heh, apparently he binge-watched almost thru the entire season all day yesterday and was just dying to tell me all about it

During the morning break at 10:30AM we also went into a nearby supermarket via tram where i got myself some new packacking for my kratom stash in the form of a mint chewing gum bottle and he got himself some sweets.

At the cafeteria there was this tard who recognized and greeted him (barely being able to form a coherent sentence) and the morrocan lad seemed to be really fucking embarassed by it, doing his best to ignore the tard whilst still answering his questions somehow in single-syllable responses. The funny thing is that you can pretty much tell about 90% of the stuff he keeps telling me bout his personal life is most likely either made-up bullcrap or incredibly exaggerated, such as his alleged "south korean popstar gf he met at an autograph session in Seoul and den asked out for dinner there only for her to decline and invite him to dinner instead after the session" (verbatim claim of his lel). We den went outside where he smoked and basically kept smalltalking thruout the day seeing as we were the only two participants (tomorrow for de cooking day there's this Gen Xer that's supposedly returning from his internship phase so that'll be interesting too mayhaps).

Also we were pretty much in agreement that the whole fucking thing was pretty much pointless if those fuckers at the end didn't give one the tradeskool recommendation so badly needed by us struggling adults without any formal completed job education on paper. I also told him some stuff about my uncle (father of my aryan two cousins) going NC with the n!Hive and quitting his job at the NFamily!business after being bullied and relentlessly made into another scapegoat by dem earlier last year and how i wanted to move away at some point and he was like i'm going to move to Seoul at some point too heh.

Also when he was searching in his wallet i saw his disability card aswell heh. What's also funny is the fact that the guy cannot for the life of him surpress his sandcoon racial instincts and kept trying to do deals with me regarding the amount of Kratom pills i'd be willing to give him and in exchange for what and so on. Today he asked me for 3 pills again and at the end of the day when both of us were heading home we settled on him bringing over some Maca root pills in exchange for the Kratom i had supplied him with earlier. In the tram to the main station we also kept talking about recreational legal high usage/effects much to the shock and dismay of the boomers sitting around us - It was super fuckin comfy though and it's amazing how quickly you can grow into these social settings again with proper exposure and support thru Kratom. I think i'm on a good path to regaining the kind of social skills i had back in 2010 and which had gotten me a 9/10 blonde and blue-eyed gf back den and stuff

Also mfw my white Kratom stash is almost drained and i really need to get sum new one strat heh

Oh yeah and i also met the cognitive psychologist in charge of IQ tests and shit within that department aswell today and was very surprised how breedable she looks. That woman's basically almost two heads smaller than me, has ash blonde hair and strikingly blue eyes, a very nordid skull shape and an *extremely* fucking dinarid nose with a huge roman bulge in it. Not a crooked jewish one mind you but really just a purely dinarid one which rapidly cuts off at the bottom unlike most dinarid noses (in a nutshell she was approaching the kind of features i'm looking for in a woman though not quite, and she's also too old obviously lel) - Very interesting phenotypical characteristics and the way she was looking at me when we shook hands she musta been quite wet heh. Anyways i just tried to think of the Apex magyaroid chick and generally kept my shit together so as to not get a stiffy. Also when the qt turkish intern thot was touching my hands and leaning over to me when we were practicing applications on the laptop she smelt very good and she was emanating heat from her semi-hairy turkish thot body aswell and shit

I really feel fucked up right now also due to the assorted continued Nsleepdeprival attempts when i'm trying to get some rest for de next day and the ncunt is slamming and stumbling thru the house at fuckin 3AM but what can you do heh

Heh mfw the morrocan IRL shitposter came to the programme completely stoned out as fuck today again, later in the day when we were about to wrap up the main part of de cooking and were letting the lasagna sit inna oven and chilling out in the other room he became pretty fucking unstable and his mood swings turned into a semi-frenzied state of impulsivity/unpredictability and i was then like bro chill the fuck out and slow down for a sec there and he was like dude i can't help it i smoked too much this morning befo turning up here and i was like heh - Guy also asked me for tons of Kratom again and i reluctantly gave him some yet again, depleting my stash even further in an unplanned-for manner. He then mused about driving back w/me to my hometown or something but i then convinced him to change his mind again bout dat.

The fucking train/track schedule on the wall was faulty aswell of course but 5 minutes before de train left i made it and ate my Müsli bar in there on my favorite seat again which was very comfy overall although i had to take one Ibuprofen so as to prevent the cluster attack from escalating further which worked aswell

Also during the commute (took the bus one hour later since i felt like it and there'd be tons of delays aswell again anyways) when the bus driver wanted to drive into the turning area at the elementary skool bus stop some fucking boomeress soccer mom was parking her shittyass car *right* in the fucking middle of the driveway on the sidewalk creating a giant mess and the bus driver just hit the horn for like 10 seconds straight. Then when he wanted to drive out again i shit you not there was standing yet another car the guy was about to have a small meltdown, opened the door directly and yelled to the driver like GET DA PHUQQ OUTTA MY WAY I GOTTA DRIVE HERE MOTHERFR*GGER in a turkish accent which was quite irritating but understandable to an extent of course. Luckily the demented old cat lady doesn't take that bus so that was nice too not having to hear her constant blabbering and tourette-type insults being flung around the carriage

The cooking itself together with the cognitive psychologist (who actually seems to be running most of the show in that department and is actually a bottle blonde also rather than an acual one as evidenced by her light brunette/brown hair) was pretty smooth aswell though and went by comparatively fast so we were able to go home at 12:40PM already right after lunch and doing de dishes dere heh

The commute back just now was very comfy too though. In the train there were those two gay turdpushers who literally were fumbling around and speaking to each other in gay voices which was disgusting and i was concerned due to my immunosupressive medication the fag that kept coughing wud infect me with his pozz bug or something

Then when the guy doing the ticket controls made his round some guy behind me apparently had an invalid ticket and was forced to pay 60 euros on the spot heh, much to the amusement of two zoomer thots on the other side. In the bus i got a stiffy again aswell due to some extremely breedable zoomer thot and her schoolmate seating themselves right next to/in front of me

Tomorrow i'll do some kind of massive two hour-long cognitive test which apparently will be added to my final report so i'll really have to get this one right and try to not screw anything up, i could even cut the whole thang short apparently under certain circumstances. I will likely ingest extra quantities of gluccose

Heh mfw today it was just the two of us again in the training workshop, the morrocan lad then faked having a doctor's appointment to leave the programme at 11AM already but he told me that in actuality he's going to venture innacity and get his TV fixed or something heh. Fucker also didn't bring neither my money nor the maca pills for me yet so until further notice this will be the last time that i've supplied him with shit from my kratom stash aswell and stuff. Hopefully the morrocan laddo will shut up about his drug usage and shit in the seminary room within earshot of the instructors, i told him to watch it today aswell lest they search our bags or something

The commute this morning at 6AM included the usual zoomer NPC babbling innabus on my way to the train station aswell as yet another tourettes-type spastic walking up to and seating himself right next to me on the opposing bank when i was waiting for my train to roll in, fucker made these weird sounds and noises the entire time over which was really fucking awkward but luckily i had ingested my morning Müsli bar already at that point so it wasn't too bad heh. Oh yeah also those fucking yehova's witnesses are on a recruitment drive again apparently, they keep building their bookstands in the morning right between the doors at the train station exits no matter which city i disembark the carriage in lel. In the train itself (which was running 5+ mins late for some reason) there were yet more (and slightly older zoomers), a flock of NPC thots speaking about vapid af topics in your typical westernized uptalk sociolect to be precise. I really ought to get muhself sum foldable travel headphones or something to cancel shit like this out in the future, goshdarn seriously.

Funnily enough i think the exact same horny cunt with the red jacket from the other day who kept crossing her legs and shit in front of me seated herself opposite to me today aswell, or at least i'm about 95% sure that it was her again due to the characteristic manner of moving about displayed by her. Then when i waited for the tram inna other city i saw some disgusting LGBTWTFBBQ trans propaganda by the regime with to men holding a baby which was really damn disgusting. Also the tram was replaced by a bus this time around for sum reason and that mothershaggin bus driver ignored our stop much to my dismay and that of the other commuters who missed showing up on time at work due to this asshole. At least there was a qt petite muslim thot sitting next to my during the drive to the programme and shit. It was like REALLY fucking cold too, i gotta wear an extra pair of underpants tomorrow methinks.

The cognitive!Psychologist cunt also ""forgot"" to enroll me in the cafeteria lunch list today so she ended up giving me 4 bucks again and i trudged to the hot dog stand during lunch break and got muhself sum french fries there which i then ingested within the seminary room waiting for the instructor to show up at 1PM.

Oh yeah and also a new program participant showed up today, the cunt appears to be russian and in her mid to late thirties or something and claimed to have been there already in the past among other stuff. We had a bit of smalltalk in the seminary room for 5-10 mins (which gave me an optimistic stiffy) but then the instructor came so i didn't get to ask her about her ancestry and whether she'd like to get bred by my BWC and stuff heh

During the backcommute the other tram didn't come again either so i used the other line which later filled up to the brim with zoomers aswell. At the main station i then basically went into the first train that drove thru to muh hometown rather than waiting another 40 mins for the other one to show up

Tomorrow should be interesting enough aswell, the cogPsych cunt will most likely review our final test results with each of us and it's going to be interesting seeing whether the other two nu participants show up and how if at all this will affect group dynamics in general. Overall though i've come a lot closer of my ultimate goal of being granted entry into the trade skool which i am glad for heh

Heh mfw yesterday i feel asleep in front of the TV at around 8:30PM and slept thru all the way to 5:40AM basically, shit was brutal.

Fucking bus driver came one minute too early this morning too which resulted in muh colbe bottle overspilling into my cargo pant's lower pocket. I thought it wud freeze solid with these ungodly tems but it stayed that way well into noon basically, shit sucked. This time around innatrain the zoomer thots seated themselves behind me, this was the umpteenth time i heard them using unnecessary anglicism too, butchering my mother tongue in front of me and further strengthening my decision to go and buy some travel headphones ASAP so i don't have to listen to said NPC babble anymoar on future commutes.

Of course the other asshole also had to turn up completely stoned out of his addicted retard ass today (turns out he's one of those spoiled arab kids that get everything paid for by their daddy, he also remarked how afraid he is of his father finding out bout his habit and beating the shit outta him), at first we shared some great bantz/laffs and shit and he made for a decent conversational partner, then came his noon dropoff when the weed would stop acting on his system as powerful and afterwards he went completely off the rails again with the ""fun"" personal insults and became extremely unstable aswell as physically invasive and mentally distracting which was also why the other nu programme participant lass requested to be seated in the other room while i just kind of grinned and beared my way thru it (the fat sow even stole two of my Müslim bars and basically all my tissues, tho granted he did ask for permission with the first one heh.

Also when shit went political for a while it turned out that, like pretty much all mohammedans, he was semi-redpilled on the Hitler question and described him in an almost adoring and overly positive tone, i was wise enough to completely hide most of my power level for the most part though since i don't know the dunecoon *that* well yet and it could've very well been a red herring or something and you really cannot afford to fuck up in such a situation as a young straight white male. He also showed me another video of this south korean pop star gal which he claims to be his gf but i still ain't buying that tall tale of his of course

Like, when he's actually sober or in the middle of his high the guy can be quite alright but during those other phases (which he refers to as "going into instabile mode") he's the biggest nervous passive-agressive faggot you've ever seen and could do very well without, especially in such a setting where you're being assessed on a permanent basis. I've seen this kind of behaviour and even those exact same exaggeratedly euphoric reactions to more or less random or negligible shit from addicted stoners before though, especially with the schizophrenic and/or really dumb ones their behaviour can be akin to sum kind of rollercoaster on any given day they smoked as their brain chemistry gets all kinds of fucked up thruout it heh.

Some fucker also completely clogged the toilet up again and when i flushed it came back out in a fountain at the sink again, which was kind of really fucking disgusting).

It also turned out that hornyass cunt (she was wearing some kind of skin-tight leather pants today and when she looked at the recipe book fo thursday she literally said out loud 'Oh god this looks so gud i'm coming right now' kek) wasn't actually russian but from Serbia and Montenegro instead when i asked her bout it during cafeteria lunch smalltalk. She also told me that i look polish heh, which i've been told before of course. She's like really damn fucking inquisitve too and keeps asking people (such as in the cafteria when she came up and asked whether she could seat herself next to us) completely random shit in this fakeass innocent-sounding voice, gal's obviously not completely right in the head but her perfume smells gud and even though she's well above 30 already going from her looks alone i think i defo wouldn't decline if she went and outright offered me a piece of her sweet serbian cougar ass rite dere heh.

That being said we also got the cog!Test results back today and as expected i scored *well* above the average in all things pertaining to associative-lingual shit in general, which i'm very satisfied with. Overall my general IQ was assessed to be higher than in the last test i took, tho i'll be doing one of those Mensa things anyways at some point most likely.

Just now inna bus on the way home there was a ticket control by two public transportation clerks in civilian clothing, the way they started their control in sychronized fashion just as the bus was disembarking so that no one cud run away was operator af too and shit. Oh yeah and the other train didn't come again either so i had to stand there 30 mins in the fucking cold jeez

The rest of the week until the other programme managers return shud be easy enough, next week i will be more than halfway thru the first phase of the program and will then approach the planning for my upcoming internship. Earliest propgnosis for my trade skool recommendation will also be upcoman in early February aswell most likely from what i was told today.

>when he's actually sober or in the middle of his high the guy can be quite alright but during those other phases (which he refers to as "going into instabile mode") he's the biggest nervous passive-agressive faggot you've ever seen and could do very well without

Yeah that's all potheads in my experience. My roommate is very relaxed when he's high and if he stays sober for a long term (when he doesn't have any money) he chills out as well. However when he runs out of weed, the first 48 hours of his sobriety he looks like he goes through absolute hell. Extreme despair, emotional outbursts, hitting his head on the wall, saying all sorts of terrible things.

I know countless people who are all terribly addicted to the devil's lettuce, and not a single one of them will admit it. I actually got high for the very first and only time about four months ago and quite literally my very first thought during the experience was- "I really hope I don't get stuck like this".

<skin and brain feel tingly

<static in my vision, along with a weak shadow of psychedelic patterns

<laughing easier

<mild euphoria

<perception altered, thinking in a new manner, as though I took half of a tab of acid

Including today (i took the day off for some small doc's appointment again and because the cog!psych cunt merely wanted to do a randomass group trip which would have taken up much less time than the actual commute itself) i am now more or less exactly halfway thru the whole thing, or at least the "seminary" part of it where they just generally look how you act in general and whether you manage to show up on time on a daily basis even when there's longer commuting routes involved as is the case with me heh

The Wechsler Adult Intelligence Scale test thing i did the other day was probably a big part of it too, i imagine it'll take up quite some space in their final report on my performance. As stated previously starting next week the internship preparations will begin and on my initiative they're going to confer with that other social worker who specialized in helping young adults with no formal job experience gain a foothold in the job market/gain an education and shit. Ideally i'd like to do a desk job internship in some comfy small company here or in the neighbouring city (which i always prefered over this one) which i can reach via train in less than 25 minutes but i'll just have to wait and see how shit develops.

Gotta keep closing out any and all distracting factors (including my autoimmune-mediated condition) which may be detrimental to that ultimate tradeskool recommendation goal of mine though. I actually didn't expect shit to go by this fast but the faster i get this phase over with so that the real stuff can begin the better i think heh

The funny thing is that the other stone dude i knew that got sent to the bin for his stoner schizophrenia acted almost exactly in the same manner. That shitskin lad of mine's almost certainly addicted though, keeps asking me questions about whether it's really possible 2 becum a skitzo thru weed usage and im always like yeh dude how many times do i have to tell u still. He also thought i was ""an undercover cop assigned to his case"" at one point lol

Luckily kratom isn't exactly that addictive when kept in moderation (i keep a very tight watch on how much and when i consume heh) and not used multiple times every day of the week like some ppl are doin

Heh mfw this morning i literally felt like bursting apart at the seams and thought i was gonna need antibiotics from the GP to get this shittyass infection under control thanks to muh immusuppresive meds, i really haven't felt this fucking awful and sick for quite some time and stuff. I took the bus an hour later and since it was at 7:40AM i thought there would barely be any school-commuting loudass annoying af zoomers in it which was way off though, the fucking thing was crammed like a sardine can once again all the way right up to the driver's seat with people standing and shit. Like fuarkin hell, that was exactly what i had needed of course.

I had initially actually thought there'd be like a 50% chance that i would collapse from sickness thruout the day or some shit like that but luckily muh trustyass Kratom aswell as sum moar ibuprofen and diarrhea medication helped me get thru the day relatively unscathed.

Then soon as i got off inna other city the fucking tram was standing there and drove away from right under my nose so i had to wait another 15 mins fo de next carriage to come round which was more or less fine by me though and stuff. Tomorrow i really gotta bring dose new travel headphones i bought the other day though just to cancel all that other shit out.

Also it turned out that the morrocan stonerlad skipped the bullshit on Friday aswell. Today he was absolutely full of it again and for the first time during the break even smoked right in front of me in the bushes, he was pissed af those other coppers that drove around that morning would come back and search his bags or something apparently heh. Fella then proceeded to talk bullshit thruout the day as usual and due to this some kinda interesting situations with the old serbia co-participant cunt arose also.

Fucker also begged me for Kratom again and kept trying to close nu deals with me regarding the supply and how much of my money he'd give me back and when lel. The other cunt then had apparently forgotten yet fucking again to register us at the cafeteria lunch list and gave each of us like 3,80 bucks once moar which was pretty fucken useless ofc, you can't even buy a full menu at Mc'D w/dat kinda pocket change but whatevs. Also the quietass guy from the beginning made a short appearance on the hallway from his internship for sum reason again, didn't come into the seminary room to greet us and ask how's it hangin or anything tho.

Then in the tram on the way back those exact same annoyingass zoomers were sitting right behind me again. In the train onna way back some boomer also seated himself to me and den again in de bus behind me and in front of me there were loudass annoying zoomers aswell. Really growing to hate those guyst tbqfh but hwut can ya do heh. Apparently tomorrow we have to do the grocery shopping fo Thursday all on our own again too and shit

Kek also forgot to mention how muh sandnigger stonerpal whined about his daddy monitoring all of his mail and how he threw the maca pills he ordered for me the other day into the trash after he saw the label. Fucker also refuses to buy himself sum kratom due to this despite me informing him multiple times of the fact that they send with the recipient being labeled only on their letters. Fucker kept asking me whether i would "order in his name" today and since i just saw there's a parcel shop not far at all from the job assessment programme's building complex i will likely actually go thru with it if he pays me a provision in advance and agrees to cut the contents of the parcel/give me some of those capsules as a backpayment for the ones i gave him thruout the last 2 weeks heh

Jesus i'm glad there wasn't yet another blizzard today like the two days befo, shit really fucks you up and stuff

Fucking diarrheic constipation (which is acting up once moar just as i'm typing this) was also literally killing me on the commute there and i had to take yet another crap there once more first thing when i arrived

Also my fucking headphones literally broke into two halves when i barely even touched them before even getting out of bed properly, luckily i still had another ersatz model of those same ones lying about so i didn't have to go to the electronic's store after all yet again. Also getting that Photoshop iso ready for the serbian couger cunt (whomst today revealed how she's actually in assisted living and shit heh) this morning turned out to be one trickyass clusterfuck aswell due to some dll missing and the fucking antivirus giving false positives/auto-deleting the thing time and again but maybe she will get it running on her own with the help of that little manual i wrote up fo her and stuff.

The fucking tram (which i had to wait 15 mins for as per usual) was later filling up and became crammed as shit again with two entire goddamn zoomer 1st grader classes filling up de entire carriage and generally being obnoxious yelling little shits. I also changed up my kratom dosage game a little and took the first 3 pills innatrain on the way to de other city around 7:40AM which made the commute and the nigger sweat stink contained within the train ciarriage overall somewhat more bearable (quite a lot actually) compared to a vanilla-tier sober commute and stuff

I also had to pay for the February ticket out my own fucking pocket because those fuckers at the programme (or at the least the cunt in charge of that particular branch) won't give out commute money in advance for some reason. I generally dislike that overweightass diabetic deformed cunt with her smug face and weirdass manner of speaking and the stonerlad shares this sentiment of mine fully. Like, the cunt actually had the balls to "scold"/berate me for "not putting all my doctor's appointments on a single day" last week i was like "Bitch i can't fucking plan out my health and the way my body reacts to shit in advance like ur suggestin here", pretty dazzled at the audacity of this woman actually. To be fair she did commend me for some other shit i had done well/according to the gameplan though so i'm sure it evened out in the end. I was den told that i can send out my first internship applications for the next phase starting next Wednesday, shit will be quite interesting i think.

The stonerlad was quite hyperactive aswell once moar today (to the point where the other turkish intern thot was like "Alright Mr. stonderlad that's enough now" lmao) and towards the end of the day kept begging me for kratom once moar. Made him literally swear on Allah though to return that shit to me back tenfold next week and shit. On the way back (we were allowed the rest of the day off as usual on Fridays) we rode de tram to de main station again together and kept IRL shitposting again, the guy was extremely talkative this time around thanks to the white capsules i had given him earlier. He also asked me about my number and whether he shud ride w/me to the city aswell

We had also watched some YTP's i brought w/me on my chink smartphone and he was completely taken by dose and was den like "I take my hat off to u for this epic stuff" at one point even heh.

At the central station i first thought that i had missed all de trains but then actually managed to catch the last one to my city for that hour which was awesome. Some fucking dirtyass fat sandnigger shitskin beggar clad completely in a green blanket also ran around the platform bothering commuters there (including me) for pocket change and the woman sitting next to me he kept asking about a "bottle of water" even after she declined multiple times, he stood there and tried to coerce her/kept asking the same question over and over, at one point i considered intervening and point out that there's shitloads of coppers standing on the platform above but den he pissed off again just in time heh. Innahomecity when i tried going the shortcut route to the bank there was also a massive fucking building project going on, the whole intersection and adjacent streets had literally been ripped open and shit generally looked like Verdun in 1916 over there.

Overall next week shud b interesting enough with the internship application along with the soc!Worker conference meeting later on. On paper i have almost three full weeks to go in the seminary phase but if i'm quite lucky i'll be able to cut it short aswell heh

If your mother didn't drop you on the head back den as a child u'd prolly realize that this is a diary/blogposting thread and that i'm writing this for myself first and foremeost, butthurtspammerincelguy heh

Heh mfw today i got up an hour later again around 6:30AM (the Ncunt had banged against the door nonstop thruout the whole night again starting at fucking 3AM) and den ventured 10 mins to de other bus stop right behind the zoomer skool hub so as to not be forced to experience another one of those sardine rides and shit since most of the zoomers get off before (there were shittons of zoomers on de way there ofc but what can you do, still better than riding with them on the same bus tbqfh). This plan of mine worked pretty damn well actually and i found myself a gud seat pretty darng quick too. It wasn't that cold either which was gud.

The bus itself came 5+ mins too late so i thought i'd miss de train altogether but when i got off and just as i was about to enter the central station's platform crossing over from the bigass bus terminal de train was rolling in and i seamlessly walked into it without even having to wait. Shit was pretty neat but also a really fucking close call, i could've easily missed that train had there been only one further red light or something along those lines. I only had to wait for the tram for like 8 mins too den which was neat aswell - Maybe i will actually keep this schedule so i don't have to wake up around fucking 5AM anymoar and stuff.

We were in de other building today aswell and as i entered the room it turned out that the hornyass smol arab cunt with the nnom from the very beginning had finished her own internship already, i wasn't even innaroom for a full 2 secs when she immediately complimented me for my "cool sun glasses" heh.

Shit was pretty refreshing though for a change. Turns out she's actually not arab but turkish and she also suffers from borderline personality disorder. Also instead of her nmom she now kept complaining about her abusive strongly religious afghan asshole boyfriend the whole time over for some reason. Then when it was time fo de cafeteria lunch de stonerlad was like i'm coming over in a minute but didn't actually/went onnatoilet to smoke there again so it was just me and the turkish cunt together for a second time. I still cannot fucking tell whether it was her BPD talking/making her do it or whether the lass was actually attempting to flirt with me and shit (she keeps complimenting me for random shit out of the blue and i'm like umm mkay wtf).

We had a good talk over there though (you can rly tell how she only surrounds herself with orcish immature mohammedan manchildren and not white germanic men of character such as myself) and later on when we were both inna seminary room again she somehow kept asking me the entire time over whether i "liked her name" or something (i highly suspect this had something tha do w/her BPD aswell) and once i conceded and told her that "yeah, it's a handsome/wholesome name" (i wasn't actually trying 2 flirt there but then again kinda was too since i bet she sucks a mean dick) she finally shut up and became a bit moar reserved.

It was very funny to watch the hyperactive brainzapped MENA stonerlad and the hyper-vigilant/suspective BPD turkish eastern medoid cunt attempt to interact with each other in a bantsy manner. I later on slipped the stonerlad covertly some info about her having BPD and he was like thanks for that info bro. Oh yeah also when i redpilled the smol BPD turk thot about the stonerlad's ludicrous claims of a korean popstar gf and shit she very quickly picked up the bullshit and called him out as a liar (just in front of me though) aswell. In fact she even did so right after he showed her the picture/screen background of his supposed gf. I highly suspect this was what made the stonerlad turn around cold and fuck off right in front of the cafeteria all of a sudden, he supposedly got cold feet since the smol BPD thot was the first person to actually directly call him out and tell him that she doesn't believe his gf story/wants to see a picture of those two together (ofc i asked him bout dat befo though but i never outright accused him of lying to every1 like she just did back den lel). The serbian cougar cunt was apparently sick today tho so i neither have my kratom capsules, my commute money nor the USB stick i gave her.

Now i gotta do some other CV shit for de internship acquisition starting on Wednesday at the latest and stuff. It's quite funny though, at one point it was just me and the two turkish interns, the BPD turkish programme participant and the morrocan stonerlad in that room together meaning i was the only germanic with 4 foreign races that actually don't belong into central europe at all, but what can ya do heh.

The commute back was pretty comfy aswell, no zoomers this time round cuz we were allowed to go earlier. We then rode the tram together again and he got off like 3 stations befo de central station which was fine by me. Then when i entered the platform a train to my home city already stood there so i just walked right into that one too, if only shit was always this smooth w/de commutes heh

Oh yeah and i also totes forgot to mention how the smol BPD turkthot actually told me that she thinks i look polish aswell. The stonerlad and me then both broke out into laffter since this was the umpteenth time i was being told this from a completely different person of another race despite having no actual polish ancestry in the strict sense of the term. I'm just an extremely neudanubian/westbalto-fälid-norid specimen is all heh

The smol BPD thot also told me about how she once went to a tradeskool-type facility in my own home city to finish her apprenticeship in household arts there, apparently she seems to know her way around there well which doesn't surprise me since it seems to attract all sorts of dunecoon types for some reason despite being some shittyass regional mid-sized town only

Funnily enough like pretty much every other programme participant save for de clueless serbian cougar cunt she also hates the guts outta the fatass weird self-righteous diabetic cunt who unfortunately still seems to be my official person of contact within the programme itself.

Thinkgen bout catching a very l8 train tomorrow so as to skip the first half of that fucking wood workshop bullshit again too and stuff

Heh mfw today as part of the programme they gave me a telephone and i could chose whether i'd already call up some of de businesses i had picked out earlier and ask around for internship positions already. Thing is of course that i'm in the 4th week of the seminary phase by this point so basically moving towards the finishing stretch in that regard. After i had to switch rooms cuz their other phone was defunt and two request rejections innaoffice i semi-spontaneously decided to call up some comfy little PC shop in muh hometown (which i had just remembered, had it not been for my trustyass chinkphone i wouldn't even have been able to get de phone number without using the turkish intern thot's PC heh) and basically they invited me to come so as to review some of my CV and shit on Friday right after i come from the consultation meeting with the social worker and programme person of contact innahomecity, should be interesting enough overall.

Luckily i could pretty much rule out that it was the Kratom capsules that had caused my earlier diarrhea (today was my highest dose yet at 4g with no actual side effects), it was most likely some kind of fucked up med-induced infection after all. Also since we gotta cook again tomorrow the three of us had to go to de supermarket 2 get dem ingredients and stuff. The turkish borderline thot (whomst kept asking me bout her apperance/what her phenotypical features were and i basically kept the redpills coming) was just as insufferable on her 3rd day too, i mean the woman is obviously batshit insane. She literally didn't even talk about any other single topic with him than her afghan gorilla shitskin bf that betrays her and which she's deeply obsessed with, along with her narcicisstic obsession with/constant questions about how she's being perceived by others and how she ""compares"" to other young attractive women especially.

I had warned de stonerlad about him being used as her personal friendzone omega orbiter/emotional trashbin and he then very quickly catched on to her manipulative antics thanks to my help, always feels good to help a bro out heh. He got really pissed off and then started insulting her too which was really funny. Also the little fuqqslut actually showed her body/slightly lifted her shirt and let him touch her boobs/pushup bra with a pencil (aswell as generally touching her) without even saying a word, the stuff you read online about those BPD thots being sexually fucked up is true actually. She keps asking us for "massages" aswell lel. Also when i tried to show the stonerlad an efukt video my unthrottled data contingency ran out unfortunately aswell heh

Fucking annoyingass zoomers and boomers innacommute were also getting on my nerves again, i really ought to pick out a good commute tracklist for the remaining time in case i can't do de internship shortcut after all heh. Also on the platform in the main central station in de other city there was some schizophrenic asian (?) shitskin woman in a thick jacket who kept loudly singing with a smartphone in her hand de entire time next to me, shit was creepy af.

When i got off de bus just now i also went into de bakery and bank afterwards aswell, fucking kratom really makes you want to go out and get random shit done like dis

Anyways i think right now there's a solid 50% chance the other IT store mite take me as an intern on Friday at noon, and from there on out i'm basically sailing straight towards the tradeskool recommendation and all that other good shit which i want and need badly. May de Alfather continue to grant me luck and strength

Welp i'm definitely still residing inna holding pattern is all i can say for certain at the moment. I gotta ask during the conference meeting on Friday which conditions have to be met for the tradeskool thing to actually go thru for sure without any hiccups. Afaik the job center who's financing this shit pretty much has to acquiesce legally speaking and offer me the financial assistance i need to pay tradeskool tuition fees and whatnot. And den the internship meeting inna IT store right afterwards not even an hour later kek... A lot of important shit gets decided on Friday, gotta be at my very sharpest den methinks.

>Person of contact basically teases the final report and sez dat regarding my mental and intellectual capacities i am cut out for de tradeskool recommendation fo sure

>Only thing that's still shaky somewhat is whether my autoimmune condition and shit will impair my performance inna workplace which is y de internship phase is so important also for inclusion in de final report and shit

>Basically the job center has to pay tuition and whatnot if they really include the tradeskool recommendation in de final report, which is likely from where things stand rn

>Get murderous headache right inna middle of it, luckily i packed an ibuprofen

>After de metting w/de local soc!worker we drive in her company car to the business so as to conduct de internship interview

>That IT store's basically just some small local outlet, not tiny but not exactly hugely professional either (Guy who owns the store has broken AVG advertisement posters hanging at the checkout and shit like that lel)

>Store owner sez they don't really do internships or something, doesn't fit into their work field and the shit they do with other customers

>Faggot didn't mention this onna phone on Wednesday at all

>As we step outside again de programme Person of contact is like she could have begged more if she wanted and claims she would have gotten him to give me de internship position but didn't feel like it or something, heh as if

>Say goodbye to Mrs. person of contact; Gonna continue the seminary phase and continue to try and get an internship position for now

>Try to make deposit inna bank coin machine on muh way back

>Some other cunt just finished as i'm entering; I put my card in and not even 5 secs later it gets spit out again/de machine screen suddenly turns blue and two protective heavy metal flaps suddenly come down; Some asshole faggot technician starts cleaning the machine from the back apparently

>Wait for like 5 mins; ask bank clerk when this shit will be finished. He says he can't make an accurate statement

So i think i still haven't had a chance to fully appreciate and/or process and reflect on the implications of the shit that took place on Friday.

Basically what this conference meeting amounts to is a de facto-greenlight to go ahead and get registered on the tradeskool rooster for upcoming nu apprentices, the job center guy doesn't have any other choice if it gets mentioned in the report. Yeah he could theoretically be an asshole and try to cockblock it but if my appeal to that would go thru his superiors wud shit on him and like all bureaucrats he'd like to avoid this and being labeled a troublemaker by dem most likely.

I mean yeah, they also only take nu applicants thru the job center exclusively either way afaik since they're the ones paying for all the fees in 99% of cases and they're going to put me through an initial assessment course anyways to discern whether or not i'm cut out for the field i wish to work in, but basically right now i'm already at a point in my life i barely could have dreamt of a mere 2-3 months ago. I did make this conscious choice though to get all this good shit on track before the 2020's hit of course, the opportunity to claim this all-in-one-package is just too obvious and good to pass up like that.

Basically the coming week over dere in the other city w/de seminary phase in that shitty coorporate area will be very likely my final one, i would be surprised if they make me attend it longer. Apparently i'm almost done with the full six weeks since weekends are included too which means i'm overstepping almost. It's possible i'll have to return for a short time like the silentass shy sperg and the other turkic borderline thot after their respective internships but overall i'm moving towards the finishing stretch. It's going to be interesting seeing how this all plays out with the preparations to enter the tradeskool and who pays for my health insurance and how i'm going to procure the shit i'm going to need over there in the condo and whatnot (since the nCunt doesn't give me any money and the dole is stuck in limbo due to her too i'll likely have to sell another one of my laptops and some other random shit again in preparation fo dis).

Overall i'm quite satisfied w/how things have gone so far though and will keep praying to de Alfather to give me strength and luck in de coming (most likely final) week of de seminary phase and shit

Also the creative or media-related field in general mayhaps but that seems a bit oversaturated. "To do something in the media field" has become something of a winged expression here for problem glass-wearing liberal hipster NPC catladies in their mid-20's fucking around in this particular work field snagging up all the available jobs there and generally being unproductive harpies hampering the work of their male colleagues so if i actually go into the media field i'd prefer something like archival or library/lingual-related work perhaps

I would love to turn that knack i had in the past for video editing in general into a profession too but again i'm afraid my condition will impair me/takes over my typing hands fully or something along those lines. Overall though i just gotta wait and see where all those reports see my strengths/work-related skills to be located in

Heh mfw today i arrived at around 9:20AM at de other building but dere was no one there so instead i ventured to de other building again and *just* as i was boutta step outta de elevator the person of contact cunt was standing there right in front of me. She wuz like yeah Mr. FoKy ur the only programme participant who's turned up so far and i'm like ok. Then as i enter de seminary room some other dude's sitting there and i'm like hello and shit. The fat cunt then pulls out those shitty 3rd grader math tasks again and around 10-15 mins later i ask whether i can continue with the internship applications which she affirms.

I keep doing 3 or so nu calls only one of which was truly positive, the cunt generally acts like a pain in the ass/faux-busy during that time and gives me like zero support aswell as usual, they really just want to get the job center money for hosting the participants and nothing else first and foremost. I'm at it for like 20 mins despite massive constant noise inna hallway from de other seminary group and at around 10:20AM the borderline turk thot (whomst was supposed to have finished her own programme already/massively overstepped and didn't begin her 2nd internship today for some reason, or "because they didn't let her in" as she claimed) suddenly breaks into de office just as i've finished another interview call/am preparing for de next one and then the programme cunt sends me to the seminary room again where i'm working w/de laptop or at least pretend to and set up a fresh nu list of businesses to call up fo later. During this time i also discover how the stonerfaggit dunecoon sent me an SMS the other day apparently asking me to cover for his absence today and i'm like nah fuck that after the shit you pulled last Thursday guy.

I also noticed on the commute dis mornan how the daylight hours have moved forward again, shit wasn't really that dark anymore at around 7:20 (as opposed to just over one month ago). I jumped innabank before that aswell and those fucking zoomers were fucking everywhere again even scooting around onna sidewalk an shit. Also when i went by the GP's office there was a literal herd of patients waiting outside, shit was brutal. Despite the bus being slightly l8 again i made the 8AM train in time, seating myself right next to an apparently half-blind guy who somehow cud still use a smartphone and shit.

Anyways the serbcunt has been sick for over a week now too. Then at around 11:33AM suddenly the stonerhaji cums in and the fat cunt pulls him inna office to scold him again or smth. Then when she cums out again she's like Woopsie forgot to put you guys into de cafeteria list for the umpteenth time and i'm liek fuk u bish. So yeah for lunch i went to the mobile fast food stand and had 2 get myself french fries for the 3rd time.

During the 2nd seminary w/de other cunt the stonerhaji was extremely distracting again aswell, then when he interrupted me again and i talked back once the SJW cunt doing de seminary immediately scolds me (!) for it refusing to even acknowledge all prior direct obvious provocations and interruptions by the shitskin. He also kept repeating and copying phrases and gestures i had thought him (also ever since i told him *once* early last week how he shouldn't get on my goshdarn nerves he keeps repeating/re-aiming that sentence at me too and is then like nah i'm just kiddin breh) which was almost adorable in a way, overall though he went completely off the rails once more. Wish i had been as lucky as the other nu guy (whomst has a depression diagnosis, a vegvisir tatooed on his arm and listens to metal) and came at a much more opportune and bantz-y time into the programme like him.

Fucker has it coming though, i doubt they're going to recommend him for a proper apprenticeship and pull him into their own workshop programme instead the way he's been acting. On the way back the turk thot squeezed up real tight to me aswell inna tram using those zoomer kids as a pretext for doing so heh. Then later on inna traim after the other boomers sitting opposite me pissed off i literally feel asleep again for a couple minutes.

Tomorrow i'll be catching the other train again for sure since i really don't feel like getting up at 5AM for de remaining couple days. If i'm really lucky i'll be able to go into the internship as soon as Thursday or Friday right and cut all that other senseless bullshit over there short right after the doc appointment since i'd be technically overstepping in case no one has an internship position for me starting this week or de next one heh

Heh mfw today when i was at the traffic light suddenly the borderline turk thot tipped me onna shoulder greeting me, apparently she took de same tram as me to de programme again (cunt sez she lives in dat one street not that far from the central station and shit). We then talked for a bit and shit/went to de wood workshop inna other building which was nice.

Also during de commute the bus itself was also late as shit again and there were generally too much zoomers and obnoxious loudly breathing/coughing fat people around but what can ya do heh.

The stonerfaggit was high as shit too and basically got BTFO by muh bantz again aswell, it was funny seeing the nu guy listen to all dat shit and even join in on bashing de stonerlad at one point. Also good to see him on the receiving end of this kinda fanneh rusing since usually he's the one getting on absolutely everyone's nerves behaving like a literal manchild and stuff. Overall though it was gud and we also cleared some 'misunderstandings' from de prior week/de other day and shit. Fucking hate that wood workshop bullshit too but based kratom made it bearable of course.

The cafeteria lunch l8er on wasn't exactly thrilling either and went almost to complete shit when a pack of random boomers (and a high-ranking emploder apparently) seated themselves right next to us on de table and shit. Then for some reason the other turkthot which had left earlier fo an appointment came aswell. Next up was the second module of tangentially workplace-related first aid basics where we also had to put each other into lateral positions and shit. Seeing the turkthot lying there onna rescue blanket was quite fapworthy, also for some reason during the lunch break she kept lifting her shirt up all the way beyond her goshdarn bra even asking the three of us whether we thought her to be fat and stuff - Shit was bizarre (and awesome also) but borderline thots gonna thot i guess heh

Later on after de programme ended de stonerladdo went into de bushes again to get high and shit and den we rode the tram back to the central station together and he was like really disoriented and shit heh. Fucker also keeps asking me whether i'd like to hang around w/him on weekends and shit and i'm like eh every time heh. Oh yeah and he also recce'd me dat prison school hentai shit too

Inna train on de way back there were shittons of zoomers too, they were literally yelling and shit and one of those hornyass cunts was standing with the back to/right in front of me. Also the fucking cyclists kept pouring in too, always hate those fuckers blocking the doors and shit.

Internship-wise i'll keep looking too ofc, the guy from the other day had a hard time rejecting me aswell since his store is so small but recce'd me to try w/one of his colleauges which i'll be sure to do. Tomorrow tho i gotta keep dat doc's appointment which also gives me a day off at de programme so that's nice too of course heh

VERY good nus fuckers, my internship will be starting next week most likely by the look of things right now. I am absolutely going to give it my all of course over there, i think in the overall scheme of things this is prolly going tha b a lot moar important den the seminary phase of the programme and stuff. When i checked de connection just now i saw how the commute to the business where i'm poised to get the internship position is actually a bit longer den de commute to the building where the programme is being hosted in. If i'm really goshdarn lucky i will be able to snag up a position here innahomecity aswell which would make the whole thing a whole lot less bothersome but i'm happy to take what i can get tbh, the sooner i get away from that seminary bullcrap de better tbh.

The bus this morning was very l8 again too but i made it again just in time w/de train and shit. Same thing w/de tram which also came just as i exited the station building, it's actually quite incredible how narrow yet smooth the last couple commutes went since i know the lines and their stopping times pretty much by heart at this point. Fucking unwashed spastics were stinking up de carriages again though which sucked.

Also today we cooked yet fucking again with leftover ingredients from yesterday despite it being Friday (apparently the whole cafeteria was closed today in a comfuckingletely unforeseen manner), the other cog!Psych cunt pulled me aside right at de beginning tho and was like i should be looking after my internship instead and confer w/de lardass person of contact rather than there being too many cooks inna staff kitchen and shit. The lardass took her time though and with a delay of about 30 mins after de lunch break she called me to de office and was like nah u don't have to look for internships after all since this other fella here is looking for interns right now. They prolly would've let us go even sooner if they had sticked to the original recipe which the depressive nu metalhead guy recommended (and which wud've taken only like 25 mins tops) but then went for some smorgasbort bullcrap with salad on the side instead which took way longer of course.

Oh yeah we also did another one of these concentration tests which the cog!Psych cunt moar or less completely spontaneously put us through dis mornan, i tried rly hard since the end result will be added to de final report acc to her too.

Overall though shit went by pretty smooth thanks to Kratom and shit. The mentally defective spoiled Lowlife manchild stonerfaggot (who pulled his usual transparent bait/switch game - at first acting innocent/complimenting on random shit and den throwing random insults around afterwards) also kept asking me the same exact fucking questions whether i'd be willing to hang around w/him on weekends and shit aswell again and generally behaved like an absolute lunatic retard once more, tirelessly hugging/touching and outright jumping on other participants, at one point the hyperactive retard loser virgin even spilled water all over himself which was funny and absolutely indicative of his general overall mental condition. He was scolded by the programme person of contact fo his manchild behaviour aswell

On the way back the other steps to the track were still blocked and some crazed lunatic boomer cat lady kept loudly yelling as the train rolled in, when i turned around due to her noise the other boomer waiting behind me was like "Jesus some people..." and i was like heh

Next Monday the other cunt's away so we're supposed to do de seminary w/de turk thot intern (who's been sick the past week) instead in de other building (the distracting lowlife loser junkie won't be there so that's gud too) which is pretty awesome. Had the other biz taken me on Monday it would've spared me dis week but i'm pretty content w/how shit has turned out either way.

Heh mfw today was most likely the penultimate day of de seminary phase if i'm really lucky and shit. Also when i entered the bus dis mornan it was filled to de brim with subhumans again, i wasn't even seated when i noticed some bosnian turk or something babbling with the other cunt in their shitskin dunecoonspeak, they were prolly sharing recipes or something from de sound of it. Managed to catch de other l8 train just in time again and just as i went up de stairs some zoomer thot came running behind me and then kept holding the door open until her thot companion showed up, the stinky af train itself was pretty goshdarn full and there was a whole rooster of approx 6-8 vain NPC zoomer thots sitting opposite me also, of course some more shitskins entered l8er on aswell, subjecting me to even moar dunecoonspeak in the mornan. One of them also ripped a massive fart which was disgusting and shit.

For sum weirdass reason the whole tram platform was out of order today aswell so i ventured to the platform specified on the LED display only to discover that i took the wrong tram so i got out after 1 station and walked back again heh. Oh yeah also the whole central station main building had been decorated festively by de city for carnival in just over 2 weeks aswell already heh.

In de tram itself some fat boomer cunt also seated herself next to me for 2-3 stations but ah well.

Just as i exited near the programme building the borderline turk thot suddenly slapped me onna shoulder again greeting me joyfully and i was like yo sup heh. We talked for a wee bit and she then was like i gotta pee and started running towards de building after me encouraging her to do so heh.

The turk intern thot took my late appearance in a very relaxed manner and shit too, the serbian cougar cunt was also there again and gave me the fucking USB stick back again finally too heh before setting off again fo an appointment of hers. We then for some reason took a little stroll and walked around the fields in front of the business park area, after the turk intern thot asked us participants whether we're up for it. Had some great bantz with the stonerhaji and metalhead lads whilst the borderline and intern thots kept to themselves in a woman-y fashion (de BPD thot l8er told us dat de turkintern told her how she's still a virgin and shit heh). After de break we had that shittyass "social skills seminary" again w/de other cunt which was almost bearable this time around though, stonerlad had a semi-breakdown again though and ran onna toilet to smoke again too.

On the way back the train was already standin on de tracks when i entered the platform and was filled to the fucking brim, nevertheless i managed to snag up one of dose foldable seats inna hallway and shit. Really gotta w8 fo de comfy regional express next tiem methinks. The bus on de commute back innacity was l8 again too and there was a bigass zoomer flock standin there at 4PM for sum reason, also a really thic fat-assed brown mystery meat kept waiting rite before me which almost gave me a semi-stiffy and shit. Fucking niggers were yelling around too once moar and the gen Z cunts inna bus also didn't shut up for even a minute which was kinda 2b expected tho, gotta use dem headphones next time around.

All in all it was a surprisingly pleasant/bearable day today. No idea what the internship appointment tomorrow will bring or how it will actually turn out but just gotta have to w8 and see i guess. All i know is dat i really look forward to de tradeSkool and stuff already heh

Heh mfw today i missed de other train due to the bus being late as fuck and overfilled again. There was also this one boomer cunt who caused me to lose one kratom capsule, fuckeress kept making noise right beside me just as i was boutta pop dat shit and then kept walking all of a sudden like nothing happened. Despite it being like 8AM there were fucktons of smoking zoomers at the bus stop again too and the bus was a fucking sardine can filled all the way to the driver once more aswell, shit sucked hard. Fucking boomers on there also kept invading your personal aural space with meaningless NPC convo drivel aswell once moar. Just as i entered de bus terminal/got off the bus i saw the train roll away too and had to wait another 30 mins fo de next one to roll in which was pretty empty in de beginning at least though. Oh yeah some drunken beggar also kept pestering commuters such as myself for pocket change in front of the stairs 2de platform and stuff. As de train ventured further north we entered a rain front area and everything became gray as fuck which was comfy.

Then there was some fucking kindergardener class in de tram (the whole other fucking platform was out of order still since the train track was defunct/blocked and had to get repaired for a second time within less than 2 months so i had to switch platforms for the 2nd day in a row) entering it at the square making a whole shitton of noise considering its small size but that's nu-Zoomers for ya. Thanks to all those pub!Transportation delays starting inna homecity and fucking defunct tracks all abound i came l8 like over an hour to the programme/wood workshop but ah well.

Tried to get a hold of this health insurance disaster confering w/muh social law advisor onna phone in the lunch break too but nothing really came of it yet, gotta put a lid on this shit real soon since these fuckers really are escalating things now w/de unfounded monetary demands. Anyways like half an hour l8er den originally scheduled i finally set off w/de person of contact to the internship biz which was located in yet another business park area in a neighbouring townlet a bit further south. The transport connection/reachability leaves much to be desired but i'll find a way to make it work somehow methinks.

In other nus the metalhead fagget had snitched on stonerlad apparently and told the wood workshop guy bout him smoking pot outside which almost got him his ass kicked heh. De Stonerlad also kept asking me once moar whether i'd want to hang around w/him on de weekends for the umpteenth time and i was like eh again.

Anyways i am REALLY fucking tired now since the train on the way back was running extremely l8 too and i missed the bus home aswell/saw it drive away just like de train this mornan which sucked ass, combined with the unfriendly clerkBish at the fast food parlor i decided to kill some time at spontaneously till the other bus wud turn up. Tomorrow i will take de earliest connektshun possible again for the last 3 days at the seminary phase so that the other cunt won't complain about me being l8 again and shit either. Also there's like a 50% chance i lost my wool cap at some point today heh

>Almost took de day off due to the massiveass kratom hangover from yesterday and nausea which kept lingering all the way thru just now still 24 hours l8er even

>Just as i step outta the house this mornan there's boomers and shit leaving their houses everywhere/blocking the sidewalk

>One of those faggots is completely blocking the traffic light sidewalk aswell again (at least the other fat landwhale cunt monstrosity who always loiters there with the 50k brats she shat out and who pestered me the other day about being a "bad role model" for walking the crosswalk 1 sec before de ight turned green heh) and there's 3 zoomers standing onna bus stop too with a pair of boomers loudly conversing aswell

>Some of the remaining zoomers innabus keep babbling aswell for the entire remainder of de trip

>Missed the other train due to said bus being 15+ min late as usual on that route and there being a massive traffic jam on de way innacity centre

>Fucking train's also stinky af again when it rolls in and i seat muhself, whole pavement is sticky so i switch de seats

>Innatram there's another one of those crazed mid-aged catladies fidgeting around nonstop w/her stupidass Crochet sticks and shit

>Also some smelly student cunt or something with dreadlocks who smelled like unwashed fish and which made me hard a bit heh

>Fucking imbecile boomer cunt next to me keeps humming the entire route over aswell until i get off

>Forgot to turn off muh other chinkphone so i charge it soon as i enter de semninary room proper and stuff

>Still feelan nauseous as fuck

>Try to go onna toilet, fucking asshole janitor there locked the stalls again and the only unlocked one is occupied at that time of course

>2+ hours ino cookan and chill i pop another ibuprofen + Triptan capsule which helps immensely in regards to pain relief and stuff

>At around 11AM the other two cunts including de serbian cougar cunt suddenly arrive too

>Turkish intern thot sez we can do a 30min break but right when we're inna middle of the conversation she suddenly bursts in and calls us into de kitchen 15 min too early again

>Took less den 3g kratom today aswell as a precaution, dosed very weakly and wide apart

>Stonerlad's comparatively relaxed altho still hyperactive af; Turns out he goes to de internship tomorrow so this was his last day there. Also me and the turkish borderline thot (whomst already overstretched her 12 weeks several times kek) will be leaving de seminary phase aswell come Monday

>Onna way back in de tram it's very spaceous at first but two stops further there's some zoomers entering (i took de 1PM one so they all had skool out); one further stop a whole fucking herd appears outta nowhere banging against the windows and shit; One of the fuckers drops his bag on my shoes w/out noticing

>Inna train itself liek 5 mins before it's supposed to depart a whole flock of 2nd graders or something enters; keeping the ear-shattering volume of their inane NuZoomer babble up until they finally get off like 10 stops later in some shitty townlet

>As the train rolls into de hometown station and i wait before de door yet another crazed tourette spastic boomer in a green jacket keeps loudly talking random shit to himself

>As i seat myself onna bank in the bus terminal two zoomer cunts cum up and the one next to me lights up a cigarette of course so i get up after 1min or so

>Get subjected to yet more of this nonstop inane zoomer babble from 3-4 of those gen z NPC's onna way home aswell

Fucking christ this shit is gettin tiresome, really need to get muhself some noise-canceling travel earbuds once i have some mo' cash flowing in again methinks. Also tomorrow is basically my last day in de seminary phase and i'm going to keep it nice and safe once more most likely which shouldn't be hard considering how well i fared during de first two weeks dere on my own

Also yesterday i learned that i get like 130 bucks food allowance in cash after de approx. ~20 day internship's over so that's gud too heh

Heh mfw today was de last day at de seminary phase and shit. I got up as usual at around 6:30AM which i'm really going to miss starting next week when i will most likely have to catch some night train at 5AM or something so as to be able to reach de internship townlet and navigate my way to the business area in time before de internship biz opens and shit heh. At around 8AM i asked de guy in the travel center inna central station bout the ticket prices and realized i was like 7 bucks short on my account and couldn't purchase it yet which also means that i need to sell some more shit stat and stuff. At least i get like 150 bucks in food allowance cash after de internship too heh

Also there were shittons of boomers and zoomers up and about dis mornan again, at least i won't have to deal as much with that kinda shit when it cums to de upcoming internship!commutes and shit. Also if i'm *really* lucky de biz will have closed down during de holidays/carnival which would shorten my internship to around 2 weeks at most i think, which would also be more than ideal. The bus itself was too late again and some faggot (i think the driver himself actually) kept listening to loudass greek radio stations in de front and then below the tracks the exact same beggar from yesterday kept loitering and begging people for pocket change again too. Some faggot boomer kept talking between the train doors keeping them open for some time too but de conductor was having none of it and manually closed dem at one point heh. In de tram itself there were shittons of zoomeroid NPC's aswell gettin on mah nerves again.

When i entered de seminary room like 40 mins too late thanks to said delays there were the stonerlad, metalhead guy, serbian cougar cunt and the borderline turk thot all there - Turns out stonerlad wasn't going to de internship after all yet but on Monday instead just like me. We also talked about all sorts of fanny shit like the effects of salvia divinorum and did some great bantz again w/each other, it was a heckin fun time overall especially with those YTP's i brought w/me onna SD card which the stonerlad really loves and shit.

Apparently whilst i was absent/l8 yesterday the cougar cunt and the borderline thot had some serious beef w/each other too and today the ugly head of the BPD thot's illness reared its head giving "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned" a completely nu meaning (among other stuff she called her a "barren childless old hag unable of loving others or getting a man" all because de cougar cunt apparently called the BPD thot's bf moar good-looking den her to which she apparently completely lost her shit and started throwing around random mugs and kept yelling in an extremely angry fashion) and shit, she really does see every other woman as a potential competitor/threat to her own self-image apparently. Luckily the cog!psych cunt and person of contact den came from de office and quickly intervened in that shit, which was really vicarously embarrasing to watch. Fucking women really need to be put on leashes lel.

The lunch inna fullass cafeteria was pretty grim again but edible to a certain extent as always too. After de lunch break (during which de stonerald huffed sum kush again inna bushes) we had to wait like 30-40 mins until de person of contact cunt finally discharged us but not before complaining about random meaningless shit again.

De stonerlad, me and the metalhead guy den went inna bushes/in front of dat small lake again where de stonerlad set the wool sweater on fire which he had forgot overnite in de seminary room and then threw it inna lake. I filmed the whole thang which was bantzy/funny af so now i even have some moving image memorabilia of that whole ordeal on my PC heh. Afterwards me and stonerlad went inna Mc'Donalds and shit and ate together outside. Den i catched the train home and had a pretty smooth ride home all things considered overall heh

... With this post, i am concluding my blog regarding the seminary phase of the job training programme. I do not think i'll blog about the internship phase because it's a) probably much shorter/more straightforward in nature and b) extremely time-demanding compared to the first phase of de programme since the biz opens at around 8AM and closes at 5PM inna evening so until i get home again i will be most likely tired af and will have barely time to lurk if at all if i want to make the train inna morning. Shit is going to be hard, but what can ya do. I am convinced that with an iron regimen and the same kind of discipline to go along with it i will make it in the end. I've made it this fucking far already so quitting and/or not appearing on time will not be an option for me. May the Alfather keep providing me with both the strength and luck required to suceed and tear the demiurge a nu asspuccy in the process

Thanks for reading fellers. The nu!Chon is the only place i could even remotely imagine blogging/diaryposting like this, it's the most comfy and pro-white imgbort of dem all out dere heh.