Saturday, April 11, 2009

Easier to find Love or Friends?

"What will you have?""A Sex on the Beach.""There is too much sex on your mind, L.""Hah."

Just about a week back."Come on L, tell me what is happening?""Nothing whatsoever, Aj. You really can not expect me to make up new things every minute in this long a conversation, right?""I am sure you have got something to say. It has been ages since you really told me something interesting.""Aj! Our school days are long gone when I brought all the School gossip to you.""Well, now my little friend has a boyfriend so tell me about him if not those stupid couples in school we gossiped about.""Fuck you! You are comparing my relationship to that of those rat like school couples.""LOL. No. But... Ah! Just tell me something. I really feel like having a nice long conversation. We have not had one in a long time. Specially since my break up. ;)""Hah. You were in that school relationship for so long. What the Fuck were you thinking? I almost thought you'd be role models for kids in school. They would look at the two of you and say, 'See, they were School sweethearts and now they are (un)happily married.' Fuck! You actually tolerated that woman for so many years. And of course, I have to congratulate her on the same too. I am so glad the two of you broke up.""Ah! Forget it."We smile. We talk random. Do the usual "We must have something to talk about. Tell-me-you-tell-me.""Okay listen Aj.""What?""I have to really really tell you something.""Now we are talking.""Who is it about?""I have been wanting to tell you this since a long time, but just did not know how to break it to you.""Oh! I don't believe you! Just tell me.""I am not a virgin.""Cool. That is nice."Silence."WHAT!? You... you do not have anything else to say? You do not want to call me a Slut? A Whore? or react in any other manner than just a 'Nice'?"Come on L, Our ciggie days are long gone."

I still remember this clearly. I took the first drag of a Marlboro Light for the first time in my life in school, at a party. While discussing the party on our usual midnight phone conversation, I had told him about my little adventure like a scared guilty kid. What followed was a series of 'I did not expect you to do this! I thought you were a decent girl. I thought you were not one of those chicks, who find it so cool to smoke. I thought this and that and this and that. (IT WAS JUST A DRAG) I spent a night crying, apologizing. Feeling guilty for what I originally was not until I got to hear ALL that from him. It was our first fight. It was cute and silly, just as it should have been. He spent the rest of the night consoling, acting cute, cracking some really bad jokes and making promises to make me feel good with chocolates (which of course I never got).

From that silly fight to getting drunk together, yes, we have come a really long way together. From a Chauvinist to a Gentleman, I have seen him grow only for good. From fat to fatter, he has only see me grow, wider. ;)

It was the perfect Saturday afternoon with him. Every day spent with him is a perfect one. Be it an argument over governments that may culminate in a life threatening pillow fight or a lazy afternoon lying on each other taking alternate sips of Rum discussing the cons of being in a relationship. It has always been perfect. And like the 'ciggie' day, all my days with him are as fresh in the mind as the Lunch today.

While dropping me back home."By the way, who was on top of whom?""I am not giving you bedroom details, Aj.""If you were on top of him, then I doubt his existence on this planet.""Fuck you! You are the world's biggest asshole.""I am just being honest.""I am damn good in bed. So of course there are high possibilities of him getting breathless.""Is he alive? is what I am asking. You just maybe assuming his near death experience to you being good in bed.""He is very much alive.""Thank god.""You know what? I really hate you. You are the meanest friend.""Because you deserve a Merc and I do not?""Yes. So when you buy one, rich boy! Gift it to me.""Yes, I will."

No matter how old we grow, I think we can never stop fighting like the silly school goers. That is how we have always been. And that is how it will always be.

that was truly beautiful..and it took me back to that one close friend i used to have..sigh...how things change..anyways...the way u write makes it pretty clear how much you love this person but u know at certain places it beocmes hard to decipher what kinda love it is...

But i guess when friendship is that deep, its always a complicated feeling...

hey, I've been following ur blog for quite some time now. Grt work I must say. really.

I guess, finding love is easier.People keep on falling in n outta love all the time But finding a constant in ur life (a frnd)is not always easy...friendship is also love, just tht, its a diff kinda love n thts the beauty of it :)