37 weeks pregnant, single and scared

Kyreamay

Posted 03/11/2017

PLEASE READ xxx

I’ve posted a few times over my pregnancy but I’m getting closer to my due date now and I’m getting really anxious.
I’m 37+1 weeks pregnant. My partner of 4 years left me for someone else at 8 weeks pregnant, I was completely heart broken, still am. And guess what... she’s now pregnant too. I feel sick to my stomach every single day. (She’s about 16 weeks)
Even after everything, I still love him and I hate myself for it. He is here for everything baby related, comes to all my appointments etc and I know he will be involved in the babies life. But I’m petrified that our baby will be less important when her child comes along.

This girl is horrible... she knew he was with me when they got together, and yes I blame him too of course I do, but she is a complete home wrecker, and it just feels like she had to have to he one thing me and my ex still had together, the one thing she didn’t.

He was still sleeping with me behind her back, but that has kind of stopped since I found out she was pregnant too. I didn’t feel guilty because it’s not like she was unaware of me when they got together. And she played a part in destroying my family. (Yes I was careful)

Basically... I’m due in under 3 weeks with my little boy, and it’s been almost 8 months and I cannot get over him... no matter what I do!
I live alone no close family or friends close by, only him, and he gets annoyed with me because I’ve got no one else so I bug him more than I should.

This isn’t the way it should be. It’s my little boy I feel sorry for... he should have a family or st least his mummy to be happy...

He will be here a lot when baby is born, and I know I’ll probably feel close to him again, and then when her child is born I’ll lose him all over again.

I am so scared, honestly to do this alone but also that I’m never gonna get over him. All I want is to be happy and not care about him. I would do anything not to love him anymore 😩 loving him is killing me...

Comments (1)

Hi, I’m in the kind of same boat as you. I’m 35+3 and the father of my child doesn’t bother with anything. We decided to give it one last go between us and he’s decided it’s not what he wants. It is heartbreaking and so terrifying. I just keep thinking of my baby boy who’s going to need me when he’s here and all the stuff he will miss out on when I get to see it all first hand! I really wish I didn’t love him or care about

Him anymore as he seems it perfectly easy to not give a damn. Message me if you want to talk! And good luck for the rest of your pregnancy. You can do it! Xx

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