Where has Summer Gone? (It Didn’t Exist for me, at all–I Faced so many Challenges…)

Now, Tired, Weary, Somewhat Cynnical, Still facing Huge Challenges,

Though still Flumoxed on How I’ll Overcome them, I Know I WILL;

Unsure where I found this Photo below, but am always Moved and Encouraged by the Story it represents❤

It’s based on an Allegory, I’ll Paraphrase here:

Someone, who’d gone through excessive Travails, was shocked to see only one set of footsteps in the sand. Upon questioning Jesus about it, asking Him “Why hast thou abandoned me, at the worst of my times?” Jesus lovingly replied “It was at those times that I was carrying you…”

Footsteps in the Sand ❤

I Wrote the Following this Morning, during Breakfast, and Hope it is of Benefit to Others, as Well as to my Self.

May I have the Presence of Mind: Not to be Tricked, by People, Companies, Anything;

May I have the Astuteness: To always Ensure All Questions are answered, Before making a Decision;

May I Remain Connected to my Higher Self, my Intuition: and Always Listen to MySelf;

May My Heart Remain Calm: When faced with Setbacks;

May my ego move out of the way: When dealing with Outsourced Customer/Tech Services;

May I REMEMBER: EVERYONE, EVERYWHERE are MY BROTHERS & SISTERS IN SPIRIT;

You’re now Reading the Musings of Your newly-Minted “Shihen Gendai (Level IV, Sage/Teacher) Certified Reiki Master;” a culmination of nearly three (3) years Training and ReikiShare Practicing, under the Wonderful Mentorship of Mark Flamand (he’s got lots of Titles, but is not big on them 😉 in this Respect, I’ll follow in his Footsteps, and not even place my (well-earned, mind you) “Reiki Master” Title in my own mini-Business Cards.

While discussing it with someone the title “Sage” was suggested, to which I replied: “Wouldn’t that be a little too ‘Self-Aggrandizing‘?” Their reply: “Not in Your Case, it isn’t!…”

Mulling over it, several days, I finally came to Agree with him. You see, at first, it wasn’t my Intention on obtaining Level IV (Master), unless you plan on Teaching it. At the time I wasn’t planning to.

Two years went by, I progressed through Levels I, II, and III and by Level II, I found myself Frequently explaining Reiki to others–consequently, re-thinking my Choices, I Figured, having already been Teaching many Others the Basics of Reiki, anyway, at that point-and Only at that point, did I make the decision to take the “Master” Level.

One of the biggest reasons I didn’t feel the need for this Title was the fact, I’d been Noticing Masters came in many Levels of Aware-Wakefulness; Of Skills; Of…(I can’t quite Put my Finger…)… on the Ineffable Quality–in conducting their Lives– I believed a Master ought to adhere to…!

I don’t mean to be Judgemental, but in our (Reiki) Community I met way too many “Masters” Who neither Walk their Talk, (or Title), nor have any wish for Engaging in Teaching, yet their Business Card has “Master” in Bold Letters while their Name below is Plain Type. Shouldn’t it be the other way around?

Thus, with such a Gratuitous, enormous Proliferation of this Term, I decided not to use it!! I can choose the Term “Sage,” w/o feeling I’m Self-Agrandizing my ego. After all, this same Person had already been telling me I was a “Sage,” a “Teacher,” and “…when will you accept ‘donning’ that hat?” was his frequent question.

Problem is: Life keeps getting in the way of my moving–the latest, being finding out that only is there Nerve Damage, between my feet and spine; I’ve “mysteriously” developed “Scoliosis,” never before detected, and worst yet, learning that my “Falling” and “Walking as if I’m drunk” is partially ‘cuz “…apparently one of my legs is longer than the other…”

Why did it take 60 years, a 5-yr stint in a wheelchair (actually, 3 chairs), a failed marriage, when my Rock-Singing husband again felt Music’s Irresistible Siren call (look up Warren Jeffrey Motter), and, as a Musician myself, I understood it, and though initially I missed him, of course; eventually, I got over it, and am Happy for him following his Muse.

Why did it take at least two (2) Decades’-worth of searching for the answer, from Doctor, to Doctor, to Doctor, from Houston, from York, to Hershey, to Johns Hopkins, back to York…, (I’ll finish this later, or I’ll be late for Church tomorrow…)

Meanwhile, Shut-off your “Golden Ears” and enjoy the Music, overlooking the fact my Baldwin piano is now untuneable. The Song and ITS Message are What Matters.

Namastè,

(Note, my Posts, by nature, will reflect what is foremost in my mind, be it Health, Mental, Spiritual, Activist, etc. This blog is not meant to be in a Popularity Contest–and I know many of you feel the same way about your Blogs 😉
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(Entry from previous, failed post, introing same song:

Hi Everyone, Since I’m having soo much trouble Uploading this Video directly onto Gaea’s Midwife’s (Sister site to this one)–and since on my very first aattempt at Linking it with this Site…, I can “get” a hint: It appears the Universe wishes for this Musical Interlude be here, in my ma89 site, rather than the gaea’s midwife site.

So, here it is! Short and sweet; my 1995 Original Piece, “Angellis Traballium” (perhaps, sometime, soon, I’ll tell the Story of how it came into Existence, because I KNOW it’s a Story worth telling). Angellis Traballium by Clarisse

A single month of being on foot, relying on Friends, paying for Their gas, brought me to a Very Public Tiny Meltdown–Thankfully, amongst my Reiki Friends–leading me to the inevitable conclusion:

Get Your Act Together!
Time to Car-Shop!

Last Friday, then–braving freezing weather–I called a Cab, went to my Credit Union, (finally opening the Insurance’s 3-week-old Overnight Delivery Settlement Envelope), I deposited it; Paid off my now-postponed move Loan; asked to see a Loan Consultant, and–while awaiting for her to call, I arranged for a Rental Car CO. to come pick me up, to rent a car for the weekend, possibly 1-week.

That arranged, I replied to an email from a Dealership in a nearby town, arranging to see him later, around Dinner time.

Having had a twelve year, 13-Paid-off Loans relationship with my Credit Union, has afforded me an “A+” Credit Score in spite of my Frugal Early-“Retirement” Income–translating into a trouble-free Loan, for the Amount I figured would be needed.

That accomplished, the Rental Company took me to their Office, and assigned me a VW Golf to Drive.

I want to stop here for a moment:Astrologically-speaking my Double-Aries sign had been wreaking havoc in my Life and Balance–I saw myself “Losing It!” (My Nano Meltdown Monday Night last week). Then, on our ride home, I asked my Reiki Mentor How did he always maintain his (almost “Vulcan”-like) Calm? His Reply taught me Oodles!

Boom! There was my Key to Stability, and to weathering Life’s storms: Our bodies of bones, flesh and blood, are but a “piece of clothing,” (a suit), we either see as such or overly-identify with. All this suit needs is to be moved safely, from points “A” to “B” and not much else! Our means of doing so, is a Vehicle.