Thursday, July 7, 2011

Why is it different this time?

My good friend who is staying here asked me why my weight loss has been different this time and how I am staying constant. It's a good question since I've known this friend for 20 years and have never been able to lose this much weight before.

I told her what I think:1) I stopped drinking Diet Coke and have very few cravings for sugar2) I am consistent with exercise3) I am setting more, smaller goals (something I never did before)4) I feel freer since my mother died and a lot less sad

I feel like there should be more to this...like there is more to it, but I don't know what it is. I don't know how one morning in March I woke up and decided it was time. There wasn't a "moment". It just started to happen...little by little, pound by pound. I'm feeling more confident though each day. And there isn't a person that doesn't notice I've lost weight. (which was a trip up the last time when noone said anything after I'd lost almost 40 lbs). It's a great feeling.

You should know I haven't always been perfect. A few days ago I had 2 little debbie oatmeal pies and a Twinkie. I was feeling stressed. I eat pie occasionally. I had chocolate and marshmallows when we were camping. But I'm balanced..it's infrequent. I feel badly when so many people on their blogs berate themselves for having a few treats. It happens. But dwelling in it and looking down on yourself for doing it just keeps you in a spiraling circle of food depression. I guess I hate myself less now when I have some slip ups. Maybe that's part of the key. Learning that weight loss is an endurance sport, not a fast race. Sometimes we limp along, but we just need to keep going!!

3 comments:

I recognise this 'different'. sometimes I read a new blog ( to me) and there is something in the way people speak that makes you know that this time, its different and if you follow them along the way you are going to have an inspiring read. I don't know how we come to the day that we decide things are going to be 'different' but I can certainly see it in you....that's why I'm enjoying following so muchDawn

About Me

I am a stay at home wife and mother to three beautiful girls. I was overweight all my life and lost over 100lbs in 2011. After I gave birth to my youngest daughter, I lost my father to cancer and managed to gain back all of that weight. I'm on a mission to lose it again. I have a degree in History with a focus on Early Modern Europe. In my spare time I like to watch movies, visit museums, and travel