Who is Jessica?

I was born in southern California, but have never considered it home. I’m a restless wanderer at heart, never knowing where my next destination is going to be. I “ran away from home” at age 29 and move to North Carolina (and later South Carolina) and regret having ever moved back to my birth city after endless calls from my mother for me to come home because she felt I was too far away. I’m trying to save up money to move again, to some destination which is yet unknown. My heart will tell me when it’s time to stop, and that’s where I’ll end up living.

I have a very handsome cat named Tiggy who is the love of my life. As someone who has been dealing with Major Depressive Disorder for most of the past 20 years, he (and his predecessor Moo) have managed to keep me as healthy and sane as is possible for someone who has major panic attacks for no understandable reason.

I am the youngest of three, or perhaps four. I have an older sister, and older stepsister (she would be the perhaps) and an older stepbrother. I’m the mother to a wonderful young man whom I don’t see enough, since he lives with his father in a different state, but I do my best to be a good mom by phone and email. Sometimes I succeed, but more often I feel like I fail. Perhaps that is the feeling of all parents, whether they are full-time parents or part-time parents.

That’s really all there is to know about me. I write because I have to. I am a chronic insomniac, and sometime writing out my thoughts are the only way to banish the demons in my mind enough to allow me to sleep. I hope you enjoy reading my rambling thoughts, and I hope you maybe even learn a little along the way. I do tend to write a lot about my medical conditions, and depression is a big one for me.

Thanks for reading this far, and for reading my blog. If you’d ever like to drop me a line, I’d be happy to write back to you in confidence. Some of my topics are very tough reads emotionally, but I do try to intersperse those with lighter, happier posts as well.