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i get migraines. bad ones. they stopped when i was pregnant and the break was so amazing i considered a second and third and fourth child ! maybe even becoming a surrogate ! but i think pregnancy might have been equally bad as the migraines for me!

the relief didn’t last. they came back when C was about 6 months old. ive had them as long as i can remember but they were worst in my late twenties. they are still terrible but not as frequent.

im telling you the backstory because today I picked up C from nursery and this was her art of the day. they were talking about doctors.

i was horrified and immediately filled with guilt. today was one of the days i found myself laying on the floor with my head covered in a blanket as my C watched her morning cartoons. i felt guilty for my pain and the momma/partner/friend/person i am when i have one.

I may be reading more into her art than I should be, but the counsellor in me can’t help but notice the bandaid and where it’s placed. maybe they were told to put it there. maybe the kid beside her placed his there so she did too.

i hope C doesn’t get these migraines – though they are hereditary for the women of my family. i hope mine don’t last forever. i hope C doesn’t have to see momma with a “heahache” too often. I hope they just go away.

There are days like today where im snappy and irritable that I just want a pain free existence.

do you ever have things that interfere with your ability to be the parent you want to be ?