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In October of 2010 Erin was diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder. This blog is to record what is going inside Erin's mind. We don't know what all that will entail... But we are hoping that keeping a record of it will help in some manner. We also hope that maybe, just maybe, that we'll heal from whatever issues that we have and come out victorious.

All personalities or identities within Erin are invited to write here; each entry will be marked with who is writing.

If you are a survivor yourself, there are no trigger warnings on the entries... Please be careful as you navigate this blog. If you are a significant other of someone with DID/MPD, our hope is that this blog may be of some use to you, but please remember that every person with DID is very unique and must be considered as their own case.

Thank you for visiting!

Saturday, August 3, 2013

From Internal to External -- Morrigan

This will possibly be the last post on this blog. Don't worry, nothing dreadful is happening. Several of us realized that what this blog was intended for is now obsolete. We understand our internal structure for the most part. There are still a many areas of the Black Room that have yet to be explored, however, we do not have the overwhelming need to explain it here any more.

Instead, we have a different blog We Choose Harmony, whose purpose is to write out what is currently happening in our external world. Our hope is that by blogging through some of our struggles as well as our joys and break throughs, it will cause us to be more intentional about attaining our goal: Learning to work together as we strive for a healthy and awesome life.

I know that Harmony may include some of us to Integrate. At first, those of us who see this as dying were completely opposed. However, after listening to Naomi talk about how she feels like half of a whole without Yomi, we are beginning to understand that maybe integration can be a good thing too. We are coming to accept the idea that, for some of us, healing brings integration... Or maybe it's that integration brings healing. Regardless of how it actually works, it's not something we are terrified of anymore.

Also, I know that many of the struggles we face are common to every person, not just those with mental disorders. Tommi and I currently struggling with how to exert authority in a management type role while still maintaining the values of caring and sensitivity that we come to live by. We cannot possibly be the only ones who have had to wrap their minds around the concept.

Finally, to the fantastic writer on our Guest Book:

I hope this new blog clears some things up about the reality of our life. Looking back, I think we were a bit too absorbed by what was happening internally. We've done a lot of growing up lately and we are healthier than we have been in a long time. Thank you so much for bringing your concerns to us. It might have taken us about a year and a half to understand what you were trying to point out, but I think we see it now.

The World of Erin

Quick FAQ

1. The presence of two or more distinct identities or personality states; each with its own relatively enduring pattern of perceiving, relating to, and thinking about the environment and self.

2. At least two of these identities or personality states recurrentlytake control of the person's behavior.

3. Inability to recall important personal information that is too extensive to be explained by ordinary forgetfulness.

(Criteria According to the Diagnostic Statistics Manual version IV [DSMIV])

Who is Erin?

The name of the body and the Original Personality. Erin's mind contains all of the identities that split from her and other identities created. We many identities are the ones who made this blog.

What posts should I read first?

"Discovering Multiple Personality Disorder" is probably where you would want to begin. The posts with the word "About" in the title are simply informational posts about individual alters or the rooms inside; these can be read in almost any order. The other posts should probably be read in chronological order.

For quick information, click on the "Within Erin" tab or "Terms to Know" tab. This will give you brief information about each Alter, the rooms, and other terminology that is useful for understanding the blog.

Links

Dissociative Blog Showcase -- An index of blogs regarding dissociation. Not all blogs are specifically about DID, but many are. Nor do all the blogs use trigger warnings, so please take care.

ISST-D-- The International Society of the Study of Trauma and Dissociation. The have information about various dissociative disorders and are a great place to look for accurate information.

Fort Refuge -- This is a website that can be helpful. Its forum contains helpful information for abuse survivors, disorder sufferers, and significant others. Here you can network with other people and make a support system for yourself. There is also a chat available to IM live with other people.

T W Crews -- This is another DID website with a lot of helpful information.

The Manual -- Written by Jeff Vineburg, the significant other of a DID family. This is a good resource for everything related to DID/MPD.

Do No Harm -- A non-profit group who's goal is to inspire people to create a better world by intentionally doing no harm to anyone, and, consequently, intentionally doing good.