Somewhere along the path to becoming a respiratory therapist, I decided I wanted to pursue my lifelong dream of becoming a doctor. So now, I am a wife, mother, RT, and full-time pre-med senior. My life gets crazy. Blogging about it helps me to keep my sanity. Oh, and these are my words unless otherwise noted. Don't sue me.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Hoping for a Miracle....

Our lives have fallen apart. Plain and simple. We try and try to keep a positive outlook, but each step forward is followed by two steps back. I would love to know the secret to keeping one's chin up when there is this much weight on one's shoulders. It is something I am having trouble figuring out at the moment.

There are others out there who have the desir eto help but not the means. They have done what they can and I will forever be grateful to them, even if it something as simple as a good intention. But this is a very lonely place I am in. I feel like I am driving my friends away. I cannot seem to keep myself from venting or discussing what is going on in my life. But then on the other hand, when I do, I feel like I am bothering them with my troubles. Or that they just don't want to hear it. On that same note, I have a hard time being my outgoing, wise-cracking self these days. I am more bitter and depressed. No one likes a bitter woman. I fear I have become one of these toxic women that you read about in Cosmo or something, and don't know what to do about it. But how are you supposed to act when all hope is gone? When there is no light at the end of the tunnel, but only darkness for as far as you can see?

Words to Live By...

"If A is success in life, then A equals x plus y plus z. Work is x; play is y; and z is keeping your mouth shut."--Albert Einstein"Nothing exists but atoms and empty space; everything else is opinion."-------Demokritos" To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived...This is to have succeeded."--Ralph Waldo Emerson "History, despite it's wrenching pain, cannot be unlived, but if faced with courage, need not be lived again."----Maya Angelou"Two roads diverged in a wood and I--I took the one less travelled by, and that has made all of the difference."--Robert Frost"A man without ambition is dead. A man with ambition but no love is dead. A man with ambition and love for his blessings here on earth is ever so alive. Having been alive, it won't be so hard in the end to lie down and rest."--Pearl Bailey

The Hippocratic Oath

I do solemnly swear, by whatever I hold most sacred, that I will be loyal to the Profession of Medicine and just and generous to its members.

That I will exercise the art of medicine solely for the cure of my patients, and will give no drug, perform no operation for a criminal purpose, even if solicited, far less suggest it; in like manner I will not give to a woman any kind of strange material to produce abortion, and I will maintain respect for human life from the moment of its conception.

That whatsoever I shall see or hear of the lives of men or women which is not fitting to be spoken, I will inviolably secret.

I will not carry out moral judgment of any patient, but will deal with its diseases to the maximum of my capacity without concerning the circumstances.

Knowing my own limitations and those of medicine in general, I will make an effort to cure when possible and always comfort.

I will only request studies if I believe that they have reasonable probability to produce better results for my patients, and I will not carry out studies neither procedures nor surgery only for monetary gain. I will freely refer my patients to other doctors if I am convinced that they are more enabled than I to treat a certain problem.

I will care for my patients and their families as I would have them care for me and my family. Into whatever houses I enter, I will go into them for the benefit of the sick, and will abstain from every voluntary act of mischief and /or corruption; and, further from the seduction of females or males.

I will not experiment with patients unless they grant its consent after informing them truthfully, and I will continue being a student all my professional life.

I will try to work like an expert for all my patients to be able to take care of them more indeed and to be able to apply the lessons that they provide to me in the care of other patients.

I will offer care to all the patients who ask for it. No matter the sex, race, color, creed or economic status. I will voluntarily offer part of my time for the care of the poor and the underserved ones.

While I continue to keep this oath inviolated, may it be granted to me to enjoy the practice of the art of medicine, respected by all men, at all times! But should I trespass or violate this oath, that God and society demand these violations against me.