Monday evening I went to a massage parlor. I have a little OCD when it comes to such experience so I am no normally very aware and very careful. I made sure everything I laid down on was clean. During the massage (which was nude), I felt her breasts, bottom and the outside of her vaginal lips. She was defensive about me entering her and I respected her wishes. However, I do think I touched a small amount (very small) of moistness with one uncut (I checked) finger. A few minutes later, like an idiot, I used that hand to stroke my penis. I never touched the tip of my penis and the entire event occured with a lot of massage oil, which I beleive would probably kill the virus.

Everything I know about HIV tells me that this isn't a risk. But I feel so stupid for going to the massage parlor in the first place. I also feel so stupid for worrying about this. I guess I just need a little help letting it go.

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