Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Nov 6 was my birthday!The goal was to celebrate it the whole weekend long!Friday/Saturday/Sundaynothing happened. I did nothing for my birthday...No club, dinner, club, party, movies, & the bestfriends completely forgot.Had the birthday dinner with the fam and that's it.

Not trying to put anyone on blast BUTmy friends definitely didn't come through this year.

Friday, August 19, 2011

It is the weekend before school starts
and I really just want to
PARTY
just one last time before the start of school
[music x dancing x late nights x ihop x friends x talking shit x having a great time]
but in reality I'll probably do nothing.

The "When I'm Gone" EffectIt's sad to say it comes to everyone as a surprise...but it's no surprise.Classic case of boy meets girl/girl meets boy.

Guys, you find a good chickthat you like more than the fact she likes the dick.Ladies, you find a good manthat likes you more than your looks.She's beautiful, she cares, doesn't want you just for your money and you know good and well she could be the one.He's handsome, treats you right, doesn't want you just for the title and you know good and well he could be the one.There's good chemistry, great personality, nonstop humor, a wit & intelligent and love felt by allhis for her, hers for him.A good love.

The love is going nice and strongBut as time goes onthey ran out of it,something went rancid!

Somehow, at some timethings were said:words and objects.Things were hurt:hearts and feeling, prides and egos.

As they make their final argumentsshe says, "you'll never know how good you had it."He says something that hits home HARD and hurts...She gathers her strength and states,"you'll miss me when I'm gone."

The trial was uglythe verdict is: no longer togetherirreconcilable differences he/she was an [censored]you're now broken up because you both screwed up!

It's a shame it took a break up for himto realize how good of a woman he hadIt's a shame it took a break up for herto realize how good of a women she is.

It's the age old "when she's gone"/"when he's gone" or "when I'm gone" effect.No matter if it was she or he who ultimately messed up in the relationship.We all know not to get into a relationship if we're not readyand better yet,getting into a relationship to make you feel happy is a recipe for disaster because 2 unhappy people starting a relationship only makes one miserable couple.You're only getting back what you put in.

With that being said,Why get into a relationship to test your worth?Or better yet, to find out what your worth is?Again, it's sad to say, people only discover their worth"when I'm gone" after the damage is done, the undervaluing of self by self and others.

It's about time people, both men and womenknow their worth before getting into a relationship.Know your worth so that it can never be undervalued, destroyed or treated any less that what it is.

Know your worthso that next time you won't fall victim to the realization of the "When I'm Gone" effect.

Friday, May 20, 2011

It's funny because...When I look at the bigger picture or the full scheme of thingsI never see myself in it.

I see my friends, my family, even just some people I know...doing things, accomplishing goals, living out their dreams.And the harder I look I see things I'd like to think I can take credit for, things I think I helped or supported others to getbut still no me in the picture.

Traces of me but no photos of me.

I see me in the framework of my friends and family but no me in sight of this photo I hold in sight.This was never caused the concern of "I will never become anything" but I'd like some confirmation, anything!?

I NOW know that's I'm not to see it, I'm to create it.The bigger picture is everchanging... with me in mind!You simply can't take a picture of your work with you in it.I'm still in the process of making my completing masterpieceone day at a time until the day its mine.Until then these are just glimpses of my work underconstruction.As a result, regardless of if the picture currently changes for better or worseit's the framework, the frame of mind that makes or breaks the photo.Change your mindframe and you're never out of frame.I finally realized I'll never be in the frame because I'm still composing my life's work.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Sometimes I wish I would of started this drive a little earlier on this journey.I was always the type to say, "we'll get there when we get there"but now I want to be there and I'm not there.My dream, my goalit was never slept onit just wasn't as aggressively pursued.I spent too much time in cruise control and not in the fastlane.Now my goal is sightseeing and I'm fixated on the sights.I have dreams, supreme.Entangled in the arts, caught up is my heart.My goals in life have multiplied,pursuing them I'll do until the day I die.I wish I could paint you this picturepicturesque & panoramicI'm not too far off because I'm in the vicinitybut I've got to get going because now is where I want to bebut I'm still working on getting there.Now is the place and this is the this the time,so don't count me as late,I just merely haven't arrived.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

I think I just needed to vent so...I'm gonna write because that seems to be the only thing I can get right.

Not really sure where to begin...or where it began.Things seem to fall apartit likes making me a part.I try my best not to fall apartbut it's hard to conceptualizethis shit isn't art!It's nothing new or foreign I just wish I had better control of the reigns.They seem to like to fail meAll at once, all for one, I am the onethat lucky son of a gun.Sometimes they win, sometimes I can't winbut no matter who wins they never get the best of meand that substance comes from within.Many give up and plenty give inbut no matter the odds I'm guaranteedthe Win.

TimeDo you have it?Not hours and minutesbut the infinite occurance of past, present & futureTime is neither mine nor yoursTime we are yoursSo don't tell me we have all the time in the world.Live the day to the fullestNot as if you have tomorrow to make it up.Live for the moment(Like you own it)

Our most valuable resource wasted,Wasted on the past, not living in the present and formulating the future.

If you could just look past the past by putting your past in the pastLive each day to its full potential granted second chances are rare to come by but we're given a fresh start in life everyday makes the uncertain gift of the future a little more clearer day by day.

"if you look back in historyits a common double standared of society.The guy gets all the glory the more he can scorewhile the girl can do the same but yet you call her a whore.I don't understand why its okaythe guy can get away with it, the girl gets named." -Xtina

True.This has been an issue throughout time.The more girls the dude gets the more of the man homie is.

"Here's something I just cant understand,if a guy have 3 girls then he's the man.He can even give her some head or sex her offbut if a girl do the same then shes a whore." -Lil Kim

The lyrics are blunt & abrasive but the truth usually isand I agree with it [and the lyrics] 100%Offended?Well you shouldn't be you see...I have higher standards for women.Having hoes is more of man thing!WOMEN should be ladies and know better that to be treated as such and to even do the same because I feel you should/can/will do better.Don't get me wrong men shouldn't treat women that way from the beginning but with females on the receiving end or enacting the in such behavior it doesn't make me think you any better of you.

My 2 cent is 2 cent well earn and should be taken with much consideration.I say this not in conceit or cockiness because that's I'm definitely NOT but because I care enough to give it to you and not see you fail or lose your way. And regardless if you consider me a friend, if I consider you a friend of mine I will honestly do whatever it take to see you make it and never see you cry, hurt or mad.

I realize I give out wise, sound and understanding advice out to friends & family (as I've been told). I know it's because I truly naturally am a nice guy and hate seeing people doing bad & distraught. I genuinely love to see people doing good and thriving on their own 2 feet, making something of themselves.

I know no matter what you're going through there's someone out there who wishes they could walk in your shoes.

So it kills me to see individuals I honestly care about pain, sad, etc. and if as cliche as it sounds I would do anything to turn the frown upside. I've always been the big brother with friends and fam always looking out for everyone and it truly comes from the heart. So know if my words hurt it's 'cause they're a bit blunt but its 'cause I care. And if I'm there for you when you're down or at your lowest then you can rest assure I'll be there when you're feeling good and at your greatest!

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the names Michael
[call me Mikeman]
born & raised in PHX
College student with more on my mind than just this grind.
Urban gentleman x perfectionist x So Stylistic
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