Saturday, February 17, 2007

As usual theres more

As per usual step 8 meeting last nightloads of top sharing on the stepme yeh finished my list

it came to me half way through the meetingI havent listed my sexual harms DOH!!!!!

so theres more, no big dealIt takes as long as it takes

Thoroughly? honestly? yes yesAny length ? yes

Alsophysical, mental, spiritualThe heavyness in my heart is lifting"Cough & Head cold liftingAdmitted & accepted am human beingaround this tim last year i was nursing my sick mumits her birthday on mondaythis time last year she was dying

Head cold.... yeh all linkedthis aint no bug, virusthis is all linked to the grieving processthe more I let go and just stop fighting the processthe easier the physical symptoms seem to be

the healing process will happenI cant make it as painful and prolonged as I likeThank God my step10's show me EXACTLYwhere I am playing GodExactly where I am trying to controlmyself, my feelings, my tears, my thoughts and whyFear and Pride, Fear and pride, Fear and PrideImpatience & lots of self will

Will read step3 again tonightI ask myself, who is in charge ?

In Step 8 I have felt a sense that I amI am putting aside the wrongs others have done meand writing a list of all people I have harmedSo it seems the Spiritual principle of Step 8 is.....Forgiveness of others REGARDLESS

3 comments:

Nice blog johno, and nice to meet you!Being too earnest makes it IMPOSSIBLE to be 'happy joyous and free'. The trick is to try and 'wear life like a loose garment' and not take yourself too seriously. I just do my 'lousy best', and that seems to work!good luck with the rest of your step 8!

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