Month: December 2013

Never be afraid to try something new or take risks, it may end up being the best thing you’ve ever experienced. Fear usually comes from the unknown. Not knowing if you will succeed or if you will live up to expectations, either those of yourself or of others! NEWSFLASH …you won’t ever know UNTIL you give it a go! I am currently doing a few things that are new, things I have had practice for..yet new nevertheless! I have been in training to manage an entire office before, and now I’m getting that chance. That chance to prove that I have what it takes to take charge, to keep order, increase business, to be successful and to help others maintain their success. I have been writing my entire life, its always been my passion, something I do with ease, something that helps me release tensions and stress from everyday life. I have not however, until recently decided to go public with my writing. Now I have a blog, plan on doing a few shows, and really throwing myself into the world, hoping to in more ways than one inspire, uplift and motivate others. I was in relationships before, but I’ve never been in one where the person LITERALLY does nothing but makes me smile or laugh, wants to rearrange their world to bring me in it, wants to make a better way of life for themselves, so they can include me and make a better one for us both. This is definitely a new season and definitely is my golden year! I turned 22 on the 22nd this year, supposedly, that makes this my golden year. I have definitely been enjoying it… My center and overall main focus is on me evolving into something far better than I have ever been! Everyday is another head start on tackling a new task. Things I am not used to, I will make myself accustomed to! With the way things are going nowadays, tomorrow isn’t promised, hell..tonight isn’t even promised. So, with that being said…NEVER ALLOW THE FACT THAT SOMETHING ISN’T WHAT YOU’RE USED TO BE THE REASON FOR YOU NOT PROCEEDING! GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE TO SUCCEED BEFORE YOU ASSUME YOU WILL FAIL! : )

I can already tell more than half of the people know where I’m about to go with this piece, however I already know there are also people who are beyond clueless and have not the slightest idea at all. That is why I am here, to inform you all of exactly what is going on! Crazy thing is I honestly don’t even know where to begin.. Okay, Here’s a start…. WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ALL OF THE EXTREME MURDERS?! This is literally getting BEYOND outta control! Every time I turn around, more people are being killed. This baffles me. Why? Reason being…although these things have been going on for years, it never becomes less sickening! I don’t know what makes me more nauseous though, the fact that people are killing each other, the fact that innocent people get killed in the process, the fact that its our own people, killing our own people, or the fact that people feel comfortable enough with themselves to play judge. I’m going to go ahead, add all of those things together and say…those things as a whole…make me sick! I am utterly disgusted with these people and the way they behave….I don’t even feel they have any room or space to be called people. The way they behave and things they do…They are more like ANIMALS!!!! There was once a time years ago, where the “white man” was responsible for the killings of black people. They would beat us to death, hang us, set us on fire and burn us alive, etc. Anything in attempt to rid the world of black people once and for all. Of course they failed, there was no way they could get rid of us all….but now, NOW…we are responsible for killing ourselves. Explain to me how you can honestly have the nerve to complain about the “white man” and how he puts us down, how he doesn’t give us job opportunities, how he doesn’t show us respect, how he continues to strip us of our dignity, of ourselves… when you are now becoming the one responsible for the things taking place?!!!!?

Let’s continue with that for a moment! I really want all of my viewers, readers, fellow bloggers, and over all supporters to really grasp what it is I am saying to you. How can you get upset at the “white man” for doing these things to us for years among years, just to turn around and do his “job” of killing us off, for him? I am really, really wondering! How can you expect them to show you respect when you’re not showing any respect for yourself? How can you claim he is stripping you of your dignity, when you’re not displaying any for yourself OR your people? Respect? NO they are laughing at us… we are a stand up comedy show to them! Do you really think they care that this is going on? No, no they do not. Would you care if someone did all of your work for you? Makes a job a hell of a lot easier doesn’t it?! hmm yeah…let that marinate!

So many of you fail to realize that while you are out here killing, you are also setting an example. Not only for those around you, but for those after you! The children are sadly, but surely becoming products of their environments. This is supposed to be the time of their lives. When I was a little girl, I could go outside and play jump rope, tag, all types of hand games…I could go to the park, stay out til the street lights came on with my friends, neighbors and so much more. NOW, these kids don’t know anything outside of their electronic game systems. Why, Because it is entirely too dangerous to send children outside to play anymore. You send little Johnny outside to have fun and enjoy his life, and he will end up losing it instead. It is really, REALLY sad! Some of the people out here doing the killing actually have children, siblings, etc..yet STILL find it within themselves to live the lives they do! Don’t you remember being younger and having that one person or those few people that you looked up to? They inspired you. You wanted to do what they did, dress how they dressed, grow up to be just like them? Well what do you think these kids today are doing? The same thing..they are still kids. They see the way you sag your clothes, and the signs you throw up. They see you and your boys doing countless drugs, mistreating women, killing your brother over a pair of sneakers or a girl you really don’t care about anyway. They see it, and they want to do it too. Or do you not care, I mean its obvious you don’t… I Just sometimes wonder why not?

Why Don’t You Care?

It’s so sad that innocent people can also become victims. Bullets have no direct destination, they have no name on it, no gender, no age, no race. They leave the gun and go wherever.

When Will You Care?

Will it actually take for a bullet you meant for someone specifically to hit a loved one of yours?!!! Wake up…End the BULLSHIT!

I usually write/post about things that apply to me, I have dealt with first hand, or things I do that help me… That could potentially help others! Today I’m going to post about something that was brought to my senses. YES, SENSES! * So I’m one of those people who really isn’t into giving certain details of my life out to the public. Very reserved when it comes to some things, ESPECIALLY things that are meant to be private. If you’re still not getting my Tokyo (drift), I believe you will in the near future. Lol. Scenario ; I’m at work minding my business, sitting at my desk doing my usual routine – working, and this lady walks up to me spilling all her life and the story that goes along. The story went from her travel to the spa, to her former personal issues…(not going to put too much out there), to her man telling her that her pocket book stinks. Now- for all of you who don’t know what I mean by pocket book, I mean treasure chest, secret castle, HER PRIVATE! Lol. If only you guys could’ve been there to see the look on my face! Now my thing is this if someone is continuously putting any part of their body near your private, I’m going to need it NOT to stink! I don’t know who to be more upset with… The one who stinks, or the one who continues to enter the stench! My questions to whomever has read this are : 1)* WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF SOMEONE TOLD YOU, YOUR PRIVATE AREA WASN’T SMELLING TOO RIGHT? & 2)* IF YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER, HAD AN ODOR DOWN UNDER, HOW WOULD YOU TELL THEM? Yes people this is going to be good. I really wanna hear what people have to say on this. I mean we are all grown ; or at least everyone commenting back on this or reading this to begin with should be! Yes though—- What would you do? How would you tell them…?

Regardless to what, I’m going to keep doing me and being who I am. People get too comfortable and start changing up on you. I for one, do not have time for that. What you see, is what you get… Unless I decide to give you more, never less… It’s already not that much given as is. If one can’t handle such a stif amount, I dang sure wouldn’t want to cause an overload. I tend to be way too much for people to handle. Very few have actually been able to succeed at doing so! I am not stubborn, I am stern… If I feel a way, it’s for a reason… What you do about it tells me everything. I hear your words, but I go off actions alone! If you can sit there as if nothing bothers you there’s more of a problem than I thought, cause when you love someone the thought of them being upset with you, you don’t want, so you do what you have to in order to prevent that in any circumstance. Not one for keeping my mouth shut, playing overly submissive, not speaking my mind and just letting one get what’s in my pants!

Frustrated to say the least that for some reason, some people take things that weigh as things for jokes and laugh. I didn’t expect this, I didn’t want this.. To be head over heals with an ass! Nobody loves me the way I love me… It’s a respect thing… Sometimes I wish I could fly alone and go to that place where there is just me no company, but no wings. So I’m here faced with reality, it’s harsh!

It’s not that big of a deal why? Because you don’t think so? That’s because things done through me for you are done so with consideration. There’s no need for you to feel disrespected ever, and that’s my point. Being respectful of others, yet not getting the same in return…. I’m really not that bad of a person, just don’t cross me… When will the world ever learn?!

I am ten years old. I am riding a banana seat bike through the alleys. I am allowed to go as far as 31st Street, and then I have to turn back. Words cannot describe how much I love this bike. It is turquoise with sparkly flower decals and I ride back and forth through blocks of alleys singing the entire “Mary Poppins” soundtrack at the top of my lungs. My knees are scratched. My hair needs a comb. I probably haven’t brushed my teeth.

A man in a car pulls up. He opens the window. He asks my name. I have been well-trained. I have learned about good touches and bad touches in school. I know that good people don’t drive up to children on bikes. My teachers have been very clear. I take a good look at his face. I notice his red hair. I take…

Living on your own is one of the best, yet scariest things there is to ever experience. Don’t let anyone fool you!!! My first experience on my own was at the age of 18! There were times prior to that, when I knew that when the time came, I would be ready. I wasn’t wrong, but I wasn’t right either! Everything my mom told me was right (as always), for future references…Please listen to your moms. They aren’t always right, but more times than not..they are! This living experience took place in Chapel Hill, NC! Which, could have added to the scary factor. I’m from a place 8 Hours away from that (NEW JERSEY). so, even if I wanted to run home to mommy, that was completely out of the question. I moved in with my uncle and his room mate, he was never there, nor was my uncle which is how it turned into me living alone. When I went down there, I literally had little to nothing to my name. I mean, of course I had something, but it definitely wasn’t enough for expenses that come with such a huge responsibility. Aside from the limited amount of funds, there were days I went without eating, with nothing to drink besides tap water! Me being the woman I am though, days like that didn’t last long at all. As soon as I touched down, I immediately started looking for jobs. Keep in mind this is not an area I was at all familiar with, everything was new. The town, the people, and especially their way of living. However, I found no excuses. The word “excuse” is not even in my vocabulary! I learned how to use their bus system (which the town I was in had FREE buses), I learned where the places of business were, and from there I applied EVERYWHERE!. Any and every location I could possibly apply to, I applied to.. I had several interviews, until one day…I received a phone call from the local FOOD LION to come in for an interview that day, needless to say I walked in and withing 5 minutes of talking to the gm, I was HIRED! My problems of being unemployed, hungry and overall without were over! From that day forward I have appreciated the value of hard work, I even understand and thoroughly appreciate my self worth and value. I now know what I am made of. I got the job, loved it… I then begin utilizing the things my mom had taught me while growing up. Which are: how to keep up with my bills and payments, how to keep my house up, how to keep myself up, how to remain with groceries in my fridge and cabinets, while all at the same time keeping/saving funds in my accounts! You see, I was the tender age of 18 doing these things… Which let me know JUST HOW AMAZING my mother truly, truly… IS! Without her and the things she instilled, there is no way possible, I would have known what to do. I am grateful for her, I am grateful for that experience, and I am grateful for life itself. Anything could have happened to me with me being so far away from home, but it didn’t and that was the grace of GOD! I am now 22, and living comfortably. Why? How? Because, I know that I got this, and I know that God has me! It has been proven as it shall continue to be. So to everyone experiencing this or something similar…My words of wisdom to you are…NEVER GIVE UP! YOU WILL MAKE IT AS LONG AS YOU CONTINUE TO TRY, AS LONG AS YOU CONTINUE TO STAY FOCUSED ON WHAT IT IS YOU DESERVE, AS LONG AS YOU STRIVE TO BE BETTER THAN YOU WERE LAST YEAR, LAST MONTH, LAST WEEK AND YESTERDAY. YOU NEVER KNOW JUST WHAT YOU ARE CAPABLE OF UNTIL YOU TRY, TRY AND TRY AGAIN!!!!!