Saturday, March 24, 2012

*We are preparing for our vacation, I didn't realize how much work it was to pack 3 kids for 11 days until NOW. I finally made a list and I have Lex completely packed, just the boys are left.

*My daughter is giving me a run for my money, she is a HANDFUL and a HALF. I really am praying three is better than TWO.

*I really really really want this and plan to purchase when I get back from vacation.

*Bob and I re-did our whole budget, now that we have a car payment and haven't for three years almost.

*I only have two loads of laundry, YES, ONLY TWO before its all done. This hasn't happened in a long time.

*I realized today in 2 months I will have a 8, 6 and 3 year old....I feel old.

*We are visiting one of the tallest bridges in america on our way home, I'm excited.

*School is out in 2 months and I am excited. No more homework for MOMMY....LOL

*My boys are completely opposite in areas in school, Jax can read and spell so good, but struggles with math. Ash is good with math, but is a little behind in reading, not bad, but he would rather do math. Kind of crazy to me.

*Bob and I are planning a trip for our 10 year anniversary next year, we are thinking somewhere tropical just the TWO of us.

*I had to order glasses, I found out I am near sided, should have them anyday now.

*I am loving the warmer weather, just wish it would stay this way.

*My new obsession is Maurices, I need to stay away.

*Having only one girl is hard sometimes, she often gets left out and also doesn't get hand me downs or to pass her clothes on to others. (well we do pass them on, but not to a sibling)

*I haven't used my camera in a week, sad huh? Don't worry I will be using it so much that it might hate me soon.

Thats my randomness for today. I won't be back until after my vacation. Be prepared for LOTS of posts.

Monday, March 19, 2012

Three years ago I NEVER thought Bob and I would own a decent car. We got the hoopty (ford focus) right after Bob got sick, we paid $500.00 for it. Then that got totaled and we bought the beast (Suburban) and spent over $4,000 in fixing it up and it was STILL a POS. Then we got the Mercury Moutaineer and it was nice, actually really nice. We paid cash for it and owned it out right. But it was a gas hog and Bob and I commute to and from Roy to Layton 3 times a day, so we knew it wasn't going to work with gas prices reaching $4.00 a gallon. We have talked about it, thought about it, but never really scoped out a plan. We had all our debt paid off and were DEBT FREE, BUT...

became the proud new owners of this over the weekend. It was spare of the moment. We had put a car payment into our budget and knew it would work out just fine. What was passing through my mind was having a car payment. Truth is, Bob and I are better off then we ever imagined. We have breathing room and a brand new car that gets 40-45 MPG, where in the Mountaineer we only got 15, if that. We will be saving money in gas to have a car payment. Its a 2012 Nissan Versa and I am in love with it. Bob has been eye balling it for quite some time and has done lots of research on it. It still feels like a dream, but I am super excited. No more worrying about what is going to break next, instead I can worry about other things around my house.

FYI: We don't have a nickname for her yet, I'm still thinking, we name all our cars...I know, weird!

And there are less than 9 days until my vacation, to say I am thrilled is an understatement, we've also cut our budget for gas right in half.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Growing up I always wanted a brother, I was the oldest of three girls (My poor Dad!) and knew obviously I wasn't going to have an older brother, but that didn't stop me from adopting some guys to be my brothers.

I think Lexi is pretty lucky, she has two older brothers who at the moment really want NOTHING to do with her. But I've noticed that they are protective over her when it comes to certain things.

My boys are so different from my Daughter. My boys are easy going, not hard to please at all and so full of life. Lexi is very clingy, very much a GIRL and as STUBBORN as they come. She is fiesty, but I believe that she is for a reason, she has two brothers to keep up with.

Today while shopping with Lexi going from one place to the next, she says "I love my BROTHERS Mommy!" At that moment I realized, she truly looks up to them and thinks the world of them, but that may change to be the opposite later on in life.

I feel truly blessed to have three beautiful and cute (for my boys), healthy kids. I love staring at them in amazement that they are mine.

Although I probably would've had one more baby, I try to focus more on what I have instead of what I want. Lately, I've been thinking about my dear friend who has been trying for two years to have a baby. I know she reads my blog and I want to tell her that I still pray everyday that she gets pregnant and I keep waiting for that text or phone call. Love you Andrea!!! It will happen, don't give up!

Friday, March 9, 2012

My sweet little Ashton, oh how I wish I had half the imagination he does. He is 100% a free spirit, so full of life. Its hard to describe him, he is just different from my other two, I love them all equal, but Ashton has this spiritual side to him.

Yesterday was a rough day for him, he has asthma and this time of the year with the weather changing back and forth doesn't agree with him. He had to have 2 breathing treatments and was still not doing good. It was a close call for the ER, but we got him settled enough to be okay.

But he was laying in my bed and out of no where says "Mommy, I'm not ready to go to heaven!" I was pretty shaken and caught off guard, I said "I hope you aren't yet, Mommy needs you here!" He then asked me and his Dad if we were ready, I said "Ashton, Heaven isn't scary and I'm not afraid, but I'm not ready right now." Bob said "I'm ready whenever I need to be." Ashton didn't really understand Bob's theory to why he said what he did, so Ashton said "you want to leave me?" Bob said "No! I don't, but when you come close to dying and you see what the other side is like, you're not afraid!"

I've never really shared this story, but I guess its time I do, so that one day my kids can look back at this. Bob shared this story with me about 9 months after he had surgery. We had been talking a lot about what had happened the day he had surgery. He said "Sierra, I went fishing with my Grandpa that day." At first I didn't believe him, but as he told the story, it all made sense. He died in the OR, went into cardiac arrest, this was when they called me from the OR saying that they had taken Bob back to the OR, because he was not in good shape. I didn't know all the details of what happened until after the doctor was done with Bob for the second time. Bob said "My Grandpa told me I needed to go back and take of my family and that he would see me later." Its hard to believe unless you believe in these things. I believe that there is life after death, I believe that things happen for a reason. I don't go to church, but that doesn't mean that I don't have faith. I do. I do even more now than I did 2 years ago, even more than 6 months ago. Bob somewhat shared the story with Ashton and Ashton said "I don't want you to leave me and I don't want Mommy too either." He went on to talk about how he knows Heaven is good, but he isn't ready.

This got me to thinking, thinking about parents who've had to bury a child, I can't imagine. I don't think I ever want too. I know there is a plan for everyone and its not always in our control. I think that my Ashton is pretty special, don't get me wrong, he is still a stubborn little boy, but he loves to talk about Jesus and Heaven.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Life....its rough and I've had to remind myself on numerous occassions in the last two weeks that someone has it worse than I do.

We've known for the last three years that something was going on with Jax. He was the best baby. Slept through the night at 2 weeks, was loveable and easy going. In 2009, things were crazy, A LOT happened and Jaxon was old enough to know more than we thought. He talks about events that happened here and there, but he most often asks me if his Dad will live. Its heartbreaking and most of the time, I play it off and bring up something else.

Welllll...here is what has been happening lately, this is my life journal right, so why not lay it all out. Jax has been acting out a lot lately, he hasn't slept a full night in over a month and he is eating my entire kitchen and I am talking like all night. The other night I was up until 2:30 trying to get him to go to sleep. Yeah, he is 7, almost 8 and NOT 2. He says he isn't tired. Its exhausting!!

So I schedule an appt after much talk with my sister who is an MA. She swears Jax has a thyroid problem. We get the results back and its shows he does. I schedule an appt with Lex and Ash pediatrician where I expect Jax will be put on medicine. Well thats not what happened. LONG story short, Jax thyroid is showing a problem, but not where he needs to be on medicine yet. So we got other news and I am still shocked. Jaxon will be tested for Asberger syndrome. I cried at first, not because I think its horrible, but because I am scared for him. I worried what people will say about him and how they will treat him. I worry that he will be left out. I worry that I won't be able to do what he needs to lead a normal life. I just WORRY. I am a Mom and a worrier.

The other part, Jaxon also has PTSD. I know you're thinking, he has never been to war....well PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) can happen to anyone who has gone through a horrible thing in life.

My poor Jax, my heart aches for him. He said to me over the weekend...."Mom, what is wrong with me?" He knows too much, his poor soul has been through so much and yet I am not sure what to do. I want to provide the best life for him and I want him to love life and not think its scary. It is a scary world out there, I fear he has seen way too much. So if you could, say a little prayer for Jax, we'll know more after our vacation.

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace. --Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

This is our story

The 3 loves of my life

Leaning on Faith....

In July 2009 my Husband was diagnosed with Tetrology of Fallot, something that should've been taken care of as a child. But a miracle happened and he made it this long. He had open heart surgery on July 17th, 2009 and today, he is the healthiest he has ever been.

In September our little girl was diagnosed with Pulmonary Stenosis with a PDA and PFO. Right now she is being watched by Primary Childrens until things get worse or better. We are praying for the best.

On March 24th, 2010 we found out that our little girls heart healed on its own. We have found that miracles do happen and prayers do work. We feel blessed and happy, but couldn't have done it without all the wonderful people who prayed for us and cared.

One of my favorite pictures of Ashton Lee

Playing in the sand...

My all time favorite picture of my babies...

My Mom and Jaxon...Easter 06'

I never knew I could love someone so much as much as I love these adorable kids...

Ashton August 2009

Jaxon August 2009

Syracuse Pond...Absolutely Beautiful

Grandma Ash and the bunny

Ashton 2008

Our Family 2014

Jaxon - 10 years old

Ashton - 8 years old

Alexia - 5 years old

10 years together

9 years together

8 Years together

Bob & I 6 years together

a Mother holds their childs hand for a little bit, but their hearts forever...

My Husband and me

Jaxon Bailee Clemments

Born: May 30th, 2004

Weight: 9LBS 9OZ

Favorite Color: Orange and Blue

Favorite thing to do: Ride his bike, go camping, play outside, play with cars and watch movies.

Jaxon has taught me so much about life. He is a loveable child with a big heart. He has seen more in his life than most grown people see in their whole life. He is strong, determined and stubborn. Dream BIG Jax and NEVER GIVE UP!!

Jaxon Newborn

Jaxon and Mommy a couple of weeks old

1st Birthday

2 Years Old

3 years old

4 Years Old

5 Years Old

6 Years Old

7 Years Old

8 Years Old

9 Years Old

Ashton Lee Clemments

Born: June 12th, 2006

Weight: 9LBS 2OZ

Favorite Color: Green

Favorite thing to do: Play outside, make a mess, eating and picking on his brother.

Ashton is full of energy and life. He never stops and doesn't give up on anything. He will try anything atleast once. He hates shoes! He loves being outside, camping and swimming.

Ashton and me few hours after he was born

Ashton couple days old

1 Year old

2 Years Old

3 years old

4 Years old

5 Years Old

6 Years Old

7 Years Old

Alexia Marisa Clemments

Born: May 13th, 2009 at 12:14am

Weighed: 6lbs 8oz (she was born at 34 weeks gestation)

Favorite Color: Pink & Purple

Favorite thing to do: Play with her babies, Dora, follow her brothers around and play outside.

Lexi was born premmaturely, but you would never know. She is doing everything her age group does and more. She is truly a miracle and God blessed us with this little girl for a reason. She has brought so much joy and happiness to our lives. She loves both her brothers and follows them everywhere.