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UNDERGROUNDER

The Inner Circle

Living the high. Invincible.
No fear to die. Living the now.
Thrill delight. To rule and own the night.

Kick out the jams. The leather creaks.
Cobblestones meet Cuban heels.
Hunt the ground. Make a scene. Intervene. Feel it.

To be living on the edge. Long nights. Jamming on.

SINGING ALONG. EACH AND EVERY SONG.
BAND OF BROTHERS. A PLACE TO BELONG.
FAR AND GONE BUT STILL WITHIN.
THE INNER CIRCLE OF SIN.

Frozen city calls. RSVP.
Come and see. It’s wild and free.
Make a deal. Rendezvous with ruin.

Black luxury. Strutting the streets.
Doors all open, take a seat.
Kill appeal. The will to stay alive.

To be living on the edge. Long nights. Jamming on.

SINGING ALONG. EACH AND EVERY SONG.
BAND OF BROTHERS. A PLACE TO BELONG.
FAR AND GONE BUT STILL WITHIN.
THE INNER CIRCLE OF SIN.

See. Time cannot heal. It can replace memories.
Turn poison into cure. Spread it out. Live it out. And live it loud.
Be the first to pass. Raise your bloody glass.

Sitting on the night train. The philosopher is born.
Love lost at such a cost. What means what anymore?
This is my station. Cheers my friends. That was the end.
Ride that tore us apart. Good morning, pain.

Singing along each song.

Living on the edge.
Living on the edge.
Living on the edge.

Living on the edge.
Living on the edge.
Living on the edge.

Steam City

Is this what you want? And no response.
A job to do. A nightly hunt.
Blackness in the air. A silent prayer.
Riot’s coming up. Beware.

Close your eyes. And count to three.
What are you afraid to see?

WHEEL MOVING FAST. ROPES START TO BURN.
ABOVE SET ON WHAT’S TO EARN.
WHAT STRINGS TO PULL. WHERE TO FIND FUEL.
FASTER AND FASTER. MAKE THEM SPIN AND TURN.
STEAM CITY WILL GROW. FED BY THE POISON.

Now there’s two. Join our move.

So easy to destroy. Hard to restore.
Jump the gun. And speak your mind.
Easier to forget. Than to regret.
Or shut up and be the blind.

Close your eyes. And count to three.
What are you afraid to see?

WHEEL MOVING FAST. ROPES START TO BURN.
ABOVE SET ON WHAT’S TO EARN.
WHAT STRINGS TO PULL. WHERE TO FIND FUEL.
FASTER AND FASTER. MAKE THEM SPIN AND TURN.
STEAM CITY WILL GROW. FED BY THE POISON.

Now there’s two. Join our move.

Join us. The riot is before us. Join us.
Yeah it’s heavy. But we’ll prove our point is as heavy.

Down. Down. Going down. Down. Going down.

It is that one step down. To the underground league.
True extreme supremacy.
It is that one step down. To the underground league.
Away from the mainstream.

Dirt, toxin and poison. Creeps in me.
Heavy air. And hard to breathe.
Will not end up where no one ever leaves.
Strongest go first. It seems.

Close your eyes. And count to three.
What are you afraid to see?

WHEEL MOVING FAST. ROPES START TO BURN.
ABOVE SET ON WHAT’S TO EARN.
WHAT STRINGS TO PULL. WHERE TO FIND FUEL.
FASTER AND FASTER. MAKE THEM SPIN AND TURN.
STEAM CITY WILL GROW. FED BY THE POISON.

Underground

Like a hidden fox. Living in a herd of mindless sheep.
For a while there was denial. Now it’s become a precious treat.
Played the little game. The special one called life they say.
If that is what it is that’s the cue to go. To defeat the world.

Escaping reality. To find imperfection.
And do what time does. Move on.

TO A PLACE. TO A PLACE THAT FEELS LIKE HOME.
FEELS LIKE HOME. BUT IT NEVER WAS. NOTHING IS.
AS THE BEAT GOES ON. LEADS TOWARDS THE SOUND.
STRONGER IT BECOMES. WHEN IT FEELS THE UNDERGROUND.
THE UNDERGROUND.

Dodged all bullets. Contradicted the doubters and prepared to rise.
From the dust of another version. That has qualified.
To explore and wander free. Impulsively far away from routine.
A success or a mess. Only as long as it’s against the stream.

Escaping reality. To find imperfection.
And do what time does. Move on.

TO A PLACE. TO A PLACE THAT FEELS LIKE HOME.
FEELS LIKE HOME. BUT IT NEVER WAS. NOTHING IS.
AS THE BEAT GOES ON. LEADS TOWARDS THE SOUND.
STRONGER IT BECOMES. WHEN IT FEELS THE UNDERGROUND.
THE UNDERGROUND.

Fire is where some will lose. When others are renewed.
Burns not by its caress. But when the ease returns.
Stay and confront the world. There are no substitutes.
Fight and be the fucking king. A solo flight on strongest wings.

Deep roots. Insanity. Buried deeply down in the underground.

Escaping reality. To find imperfection.
And do what time does. Move on.

TO A PLACE. TO A PLACE THAT FEELS LIKE HOME.
FEELS LIKE HOME. BUT IT NEVER WAS. NOTHING IS.
AS THE BEAT GOES ON. LEADS TOWARDS THE SOUND.
STRONGER IT BECOMES. WHEN IT FEELS THE UNDERGROUND.
THE UNDERGROUND.

In Sickness and Health

Human turned into machine. Forgot the touch of decency.
Denying to have ever seen. Or noticed implicit realities.

Ignorance. Self-interest. Implying what’s theoretically best.
Having dealt with one more death. On a packed conveyor belt.

DO AS I SAY. STEP UP YOUR GAME.
DO AS I SAY. STEP UP YOUR GAME.

IN SICKNESS AND HEALTH. PUSH RESULTS, AS YOU’RE TOLD.
IN SICKNESS AND HEALTH. YOU ARE UNDER OUR CONTROL.

Blind kingdom will abide. To money driven global lies.
Decide on the unspecified. Don’t be surprised if they have died.

Ignorance. Self-interest. Implying what’s theoretically best.
Having dealt with one more death. On a packed conveyor belt.

DO AS I SAY. STEP UP YOUR GAME.
DO AS I SAY. STEP UP YOUR GAME.

IN SICKNESS AND HEALTH. PUSH RESULTS, AS YOU’RE TOLD.
IN SICKNESS AND HEALTH. YOU ARE UNDER OUR CONTROL.

Following the blind herd’s master. Command says jump and they obey.
Instead of trusting the own guts. Deciding the game they want to play.
Feed the riches of your life. Not the corporate trays.

Ignorance. Self-interest. Implying what’s theoretically best.
Having dealt with one more death. On a packed conveyor belt.

DO AS I SAY. STEP UP YOUR GAME.
DO AS I SAY. STEP UP YOUR GAME.

IN SICKNESS AND HEALTH. PUSH RESULTS, AS YOU’RE TOLD.
IN SICKNESS AND HEALTH. YOU ARE UNDER OUR CONTROL.

Powerhouse

Look at this place. Here at last.
Now let the hours pass. This is now what’s home.
Subjects in wheels. In search for their souls.
Close the lid of the coffin. Rest in the hands of doom.
Because there is a hole there. Letting the load sip through.

Oh this pain is too real.
Hey, hey! Stand up and fight or kneel.
Know what you’ve got to do.
Hey, hey! Knew what you got into.

Swallowed a spine. To make me rise.
Black striped eyes stare back and ask:

WHO ARE YOU NOW? DO YOU SEE?
LINES FADED OUT. YOU ARE FREE.
CHILL WITH PILL. OR TURN LEFT.
OUT IT GOES NOW. MAKE IT SWEAT.
WHAT HAS BEEN DONE? FOUGHT FOR MONTHS.
WHAT’D IT BECOME? A POWERHOUSE.
WHAT WERE THE MEANS? HEAVIER LOADS.
TO UNLEASH THE POTENTIAL IT HOLDS.

It has become a habitat. I like it a lot like that.
Energy in and out. Wondering what the fuzz was about.
The spine in place to stretch out. Adrenalin vessels all pumped.
Living it up. The moment arrived.
Today is mine. I feel divine.

Oh this pain is too real.
Hey, hey! Stand up and fight or kneel.
Know what you’ve got to do.
Hey, hey! Knew what you got into.

Swallowed a spine. To make me rise.
Black striped eyes stare back and ask:

WHO ARE YOU NOW? DO YOU SEE?
LINES FADED OUT. YOU ARE FREE.
CHILL WITH PILL. OR TURN LEFT.
OUT IT GOES NOW. MAKE IT SWEAT.
WHAT HAS BEEN DONE? FOUGHT FOR MONTHS.
WHAT’D IT BECOME? A POWERHOUSE.
WHAT WERE THE MEANS? HEAVIER LOADS.
TO UNLEASH THE POTENTIAL IT HOLDS.

They whisper in my mind.
They are calling me home.

Stepped out of the door. Out of the house.
Cleaned up the mess. On the doorstep.
Told the punks to go to hell. A flash of a past to be erased.
Buried the pills deep in the heaps. Placed in the garden of graves.
One for each of the memories. Finally free to be me.

Oh this pain is too real.
Hey, hey! Stand up and fight or kneel.
Know what you’ve got to do.
Hey, hey! Knew what you got into.

Swallowed a spine. To make me rise.
Black striped eyes stare back and ask:

WHO ARE YOU NOW? DO YOU SEE?
LINES FADED OUT. YOU ARE FREE.
CHILL WITH PILL. OR TURN LEFT.
OUT IT GOES NOW. MAKE IT SWEAT.
WHAT HAS BEEN DONE? FOUGHT FOR MONTHS.
WHAT’D IT BECOME? A POWERHOUSE.
WHAT WERE THE MEANS? HEAVIER LOADS.
TO UNLEASH THE POTENTIAL IT HOLDS.

Power of choice. Power.
Power of choice. Power.

One More Fight

The best fighter is never angry. Not ever showing any pain.
So it’s time to pick your fate. Be the hammer or the nail.
The inner fire is what defines you. All you need to keep and possess.
Hold your breath. Avoid the risk. That’s the safe route to death.

IT’S A WAY FOR ME TO FACE MY DEMONS.
AS I NEVER SEE THE FIGHT IN A COMPETITOR’S EYES. I SEE IT IN MYSELF.
THE ROAD TO WIN’S SUPREME. MANY THINGS I’VE SEEN.
BUT THERE’S ONE MORE FIGHT TO DO.

Some lost in flames. Some built from remains.
Some are knocked out cold.

Tell me I can’t and I’ll prove you wrong. Even if it means agony.
Conquer yourself. The greatest of wins. Dominating one hundred fights.
You don’t know strength. Until the choice you have is to use every ounce of it.
You’ll never know your power. Until you are hurt bad.

IT’S A WAY FOR ME TO FACE MY DEMONS.
AS I NEVER SEE THE FIGHT IN A COMPETITOR’S EYES. I SEE IT IN MYSELF.
THE ROAD TO WIN’S SUPREME. MANY THINGS I’VE SEEN.
BUT THERE’S ONE MORE FIGHT TO DO.

Steadiness. Determination. Focus. Decadence.

So it’s time to meet eye to eye. Mystified, psyched, antagonized.
Lit the fire that should feed the fight. For what’s right.
Feeds my will to stay alive.

I’ll shoot for the moon and the reason why. Is all stars are born in the sky.
The enemy is fighting me because I’m tough. And not because I’m weak.
Not going to stop when I’m tired and burnt. Only going to stop when I’m done.
So all that is on my mind. Is how I’ll put ‘em down.

IT’S A WAY FOR ME TO FACE MY DEMONS.
AS I NEVER SEE THE FIGHT IN A COMPETITOR’S EYES. I SEE IT IN MYSELF.
THE ROAD TO WIN’S SUPREME. MANY THINGS I’VE SEEN.
BUT THERE’S ONE MORE FIGHT TO DO.

Manifesto

There’s no hell like your own hell. Cut all roots and move on to level 6.
Resist those who seek to violate. The right to live as a suited for one.
Strike back to survive in any way. In a pursuit to recruit new truths.
Lead by means of a complex link. Intelligence without leadership.

WE ARE EVERYONE. WE ARE NO ONE.
UNITED AS ONE. DIVIDED BY NONE.
THE ONE WHO IS MANY. BRINGER OF ORDER TO CHAOS.

Manifesto.

Rip through the structure of time. The power of a unified hive.
Seek to rise and dominate. Growing through a knowledge base.
Riot in the underground. The movement has begun to scrutinize.
Target the need not the rival technique. The paradigm is what we seek.

WE ARE EVERYONE. WE ARE NO ONE.
UNITED AS ONE. DIVIDED BY NONE.
THE ONE WHO IS MANY. BRINGER OF ORDER TO CHAOS.

We are the legion.
We are the legion.
We are the legion.
We are the legion.

There’s an evil feeling that remains. Something that is driving us insane.
We are one as we are all the same. But the difference is who dares to scratch corrosion.

Revolution. No one has ever seen before.
An expression. Without any written words.
Determination. Not to leave a stone unturned.

WE ARE EVERYONE. WE ARE NO ONE.
UNITED AS ONE. DIVIDED BY NONE.
THE ONE WHO IS MANY. BRINGER OF ORDER TO CHAOS.

Always The More Extreme

It’s my turn to be questioned. Hit me with all you’ve got.
Not what I had expected. For doing things that you would never do.
I have done my part. Always the more extreme.
I know who I am and I know you can see. I’m covered in dirt to keep you clean.

WHEN DARKNESS SEES YOU. SHINE.
LOOK AT THE SKY. LIGHT FAR BEYOND ILLUSION.
WHAT DO YOU SEE?

Denying a programmed setting. Life without bounds has no shape.
Always pushing to move past the illusion. To touch and feel the reality of dreams.
Reaching far beyond. Determined drive to evolve.
A scavenger hunt through the scattered debris. Learning from every war.

If you touch darkness. It touches you back. Burns like fire.
The pain will remain and will power the mind. To climb even higher.
Fulfillment and closure will never occur. In my rising dawn.
So lure conformity straight into death. Stand alone. Put it down.

Hell has given me something. Created a balanced pain.
Any strike is predicted. Reminded by scars that were made.
All that counts is gone. Forces that counter remain.
Dignity in hanging on. And in the strength to give it all.

Challenge

The noose of depression tightens its hold
Wants me to see no other way
Frustration returns to tell me what it’s always told
Control it, repress it and hate it away

This is where I draw the line
Staring fear straight in the eye

LOST IN HEAVY MIST
(CHALLENGE)
OVERPOWERED POINT TO RESIST THIS CHANCE
I WILL CHOOSE THIS WAY
(CHALLENGE)
AND I’M DEAD SURE
THIS MOMENT I KNOW I WILL NOT REGRET

Tempted to drive faster than I can see
Blurring everything but my goal
The long empty road is calling for me
Hell, I no longer care and I won’t hold back anymore

This is where I draw the line
Staring fear straight in the eye

LOST IN HEAVY MIST
(CHALLENGE)
OVERPOWERED POINT TO RESIST THIS CHANCE
I WILL CHOOSE THIS WAY
(CHALLENGE)
AND I’M DEAD SURE
THIS MOMENT I KNOW I WILL NOT REGRET

The hour has struck and I am prepared
Going where I’ve never been
I see this as I am the one who’s been dared
I’ll take it, I’ll do it, I’ll kill it, I’ll win

This is where I draw the line
Staring fear straight in the eye

LOST IN HEAVY MIST
(CHALLENGE)
OVERPOWERED POINT TO RESIST THIS CHANCE
I WILL CHOOSE THIS WAY
(CHALLENGE)
AND I’M DEAD SURE
THIS MOMENT I KNOW I WILL NOT REGRET, REGRET, FORGET, UPSET, RESET
WHAT YOU GIVE IS ALWAYS WHAT YOU GET

Be Home When I’m Gone

Walking by, all to me is known
Greeting with a smile, everything is common
A sound breaks the stillness, toward it we go
The whistle blow is what everyone is headed for

IN A FLASH, RUNNING LIKE THE WIND
EVERYONE WISHING THEY WERE PART OF IT
ALL I EVER WANTED
TO KNOW WHERE THE TRAIN DEPARTS
AND IF IT WAS DESTINED TO LEAD ME OUT

Knowing everyone, every stone but feeling alone
Those who jumped on never came home
The thought pulls me in even though I know I shouldn’t go
But still I wonder if they found what they were looking for

IN A FLASH, RUNNING LIKE THE WIND
EVERYONE WISHING THEY WERE PART OF IT
ALL I EVER WANTED
TO KNOW WHERE THE TRAIN DEPARTS
AND IF IT WAS DESTINED TO LEAD ME OUT

This peaceful place, so secure, so safe
But all of it consumes me while I’m dreaming away
Let’s walk out again to see the running train
It is where I should be, where I should go and where I want to stay

IN A FLASH, RUNNING LIKE THE WIND
EVERYONE WISHING THEY WERE PART OF IT
ALL I EVER WANTED
FOR YOU TO BE HOME WHEN I’M GONE
AND TO KNOW YOU WILL BE HERE WHEN I COME BACK

3RD STAGE OF DECAY

Corrosion

Chained to a rusty illusion
Lost senses, no reality
I am to take the motors off track
The spirit back from the machinery

Corrosion, slowly degrading
Corruption, sees how I’m fading
Destruction, what should I do?
Been scored right through

IT’S BEEN LONG SINCE THAT TIME
RUSTY TASTE, DRIED OUT MIND
NEVER ARE THINGS GOING TO BE THE SAME
LONELINESS BECOMES MY FRIEND
Corrosion

The texture of life turned to rust
Mind sapped of struggling lust
Try it out, have a free ride
You will see how it is to have died

Corrosion, slowly degrading
Corruption, sees how I’m fading
Destruction, what should I do?
Been scored right through

IT’S BEEN LONG SINCE THAT TIME
RUSTY TASTE, DRIED OUT MIND
NEVER ARE THINGS GOING TO BE THE SAME
LONELINESS BECOMES MY FRIEND

To begin heading towards the end
Corrosion is covering me
All I see, as I’m observing the dead
Rust – the outcome of humanity

The philosophy of life is flawed
Vanity of time; past, present, future
Seem to mean nothing
But a cyclic pattern to die

Mechanical, over and done
A rusted man-machine
Haunted by passion to live on
Be in constant motion
Until the final termination

Corrosion, slowly degrading
Corruption, sees how I’m fading
Destruction, what should I do?
Been scored right through

IT’S BEEN LONG SINCE THAT TIME
RUSTY TASTE, DRIED OUT MIND
NEVER ARE THINGS GOING TO BE THE SAME
LONELINESS BECOMES MY FRIEND

Claustrophobia

I see a long blood stained corridor in front of my eyes
Walls all ripped and torn of lost souls trying to get out

I want to run – escape this
Leave all behind – this suffering
Run out of here – alone to be
I don’t care they’re all gone to me

ALL I FEEL NOW IS MENTAL DISARRAY
FEELING CLAUSTROPHOBIA WHILE RUNNING IN DISMAY
I’M NOT HERE TO STAY; RUNNING AWAY
HELL AWAITS BUT NOT TODAY

Smashing against the wall while running through this nightmarish hall
In this hell, tearing nails out while clawing the way up again

I want to run – escape this
Leave all behind – this suffering
Run out of here – alone to be
I don’t care they’re all gone to me

ALL I FEEL NOW IS MENTAL DISARRAY
FEELING CLAUSTROPHOBIA WHILE RUNNING IN DISMAY
I’M NOT HERE TO STAY; RUNNING AWAY
HELL AWAITS BUT NOT TODAY

No matter what’s ahead
Always smashed into another dead end
The air smells rusty and stale
My body feels cold and pale
Run

I want to run – escape this
Leave all behind – this suffering
Run out of here – alone to be
I don’t care they’re all gone to me

ALL I FEEL NOW IS MENTAL DISARRAY
FEELING CLAUSTROPHOBIA WHILE RUNNING IN DISMAY
I’M NOT HERE TO STAY; RUNNING AWAY
HELL AWAITS BUT NOT TODAY

Feeling the pain once more and illness growth flowing in the air
Screaming in horror, mind in fear, take me away from the hell that’s here

3rd Stage of Decay

With my eyes you look at me
You will see what I see, day by day
You hide as I look away
I see you, you watch me, our eyes meet

Observing your every move
Alone here you and I, days go by
No persona to despise
No one here hears us cry anymore

THOUGHT, CHAOTIC BY NATURE
ORDERED WHEN IT’S CRUMBLING AWAY
THE CURTAIN IS NOW OPENED TO SHOW
THE 3RD STAGE OF DECAY

THE POWER IT HOLDS INSIDE
FILLED WITH PASSION THAT HAS DIED
WHO ARE YOU TO TELL ME
WHAT MY EYES SHOULD SEE?

I look at your eyes again
In the shade, I see the dead ringer
Laughing at my suffering, follow me
You who cry at my pain

The one who is taking control
Living through your breath, having it all
Feeling what you feel within
The creation which I’ve lead to ruin

THOUGHT, CHAOTIC BY NATURE
ORDERED WHEN IT’S CRUMBLING AWAY
THE CURTAIN IS NOW OPENED TO SHOW
THE 3RD STAGE OF DECAY

THE POWER IT HOLDS INSIDE
FILLED WITH PASSION THAT HAS DIED
WHO ARE YOU TO TELL ME
WHAT MY EYES SHOULD SEE?

Breathing out a decadent sigh
You and I are confined in this room
Not losing sight of ourselves
Together forever our own slaves

I want to see your smashed face
Shattered like the pieces building up life
Gathering pieces as one, cutting you
Bleeding me through your skin

THOUGHT, CHAOTIC BY NATURE
ORDERED WHEN IT’S CRUMBLING AWAY
THE CURTAIN IS NOW OPENED TO SHOW
THE 3RD STAGE OF DECAY

THE POWER IT HOLDS INSIDE
FILLED WITH PASSION THAT HAS DIED
WHO ARE YOU TO TELL ME
WHAT MY EYES SHOULD SEE?

Theater of The Absurd

Beginnings and endings are intertwined
Existence is cyclical, delays of time
I want to return and reverse what went wrong
I haven’t seen it for so long

Roaming through a monotonous road
I see the light pass before my eyes
So many doubts and memories to hold
I’m so desperate to cut these ties

PAY NO MIND TO MY DEMISE
SAY IT’S RIGHT THIS TIME
DO YOU FEAR THIS DISTRESS?
DOESN’T AT ALL FEEL RIGHT LIKE THIS

I HUNGER FOR CONTROL
TAKING BACK MY SOUL
I LIVE MY LIFE THROUGH YOU
THEATER OF THE ABSURD

Individual moments that make up a life
Like a losing player’s final moves to demise
The analogy should hold’a self-conscious cage
Whatever it takes to get through one more stage

Roaming through a monotonous road
I see the light pass before my eyes
Who can you trust but your shadow?
The one always in sight by your side

PAY NO MIND TO MY DEMISE
SAY IT’S RIGHT THIS TIME
DO YOU FEAR THIS DISTRESS?
DOESN’T AT ALL FEEL RIGHT LIKE THIS

I HUNGER FOR CONTROL
TAKING BACK MY SOUL
I LIVE MY LIFE THROUGH YOU
THEATER OF THE ABSURD

Burying my claws in the frozen floor
Not even pain can I feel anymore
A naked stage, symbolically portrayed
I’d rather burn out than to fade away

Roaming through a monotonous road
I see the light pass before my eyes
I wake up alone, in this place I call home
It’s rusty and gray, I’m drowning in me

PAY NO MIND TO MY DEMISE
SAY IT’S RIGHT THIS TIME
DO YOU FEAR THIS DISTRESS?
DOESN’T AT ALL FEEL RIGHT LIKE THIS

I HUNGER FOR CONTROL
TAKING BACK MY SOUL
I LIVE MY LIFE THROUGH YOU
THEATER OF THE ABSURD

Settle The Score

Where is god in suffering?
The die is cast, may vengeance yield me
Only a man who’s felt despair
Feels what life’s really bringing

Life is a war, leaves you all torn
Drew me out of nothingness
It made me be what I am now
Incapable of feeling bliss

NOW IT’S TIME TO SETTLE THE SCORE
THE STRING CHOKES ME MORE
THE FARTHER I FALL THE MORE I SEE
THE FARTHER I SINK THE SAFER I FEEL

I’M HERE TO PROVE I’M WORTHY TO
BE THE ONE TO CHALLENGE YOU
I CAN NOW STOP TRYING
I CAN SEE YOU DYING

The hope destroyed, the spirit crushed
Think it could end with a killing
Abandon life, a smile in me
You will lose and I’ll win

So be it; I will stay
I must distract my thoughts
What makes you be is what you see
When you know, you will show me

NOW IT’S TIME TO SETTLE THE SCORE
THE STRING CHOKES ME MORE
THE FARTHER I FALL THE MORE I SEE
THE FARTHER I SINK THE SAFER I FEEL

I’M HERE TO PROVE I’M WORTHY TO
BE THE ONE TO CHALLENGE YOU
I CAN NOW STOP TRYING
I CAN SEE YOU DYING

The pain, it remains
Forever scarring my strung out face
Bitter taste, strong appetite
I must bring myself back to life

And now, farewell to suffering
Substituted myself
The past is gone; the present’s come
A phoenix risen from the dead

No need to hear what they all say
Release is what awaits me
I cannot feel; won’t leave it be
Never, never again

NOW IT’S TIME TO SETTLE THE SCORE
THE STRING CHOKES ME MORE
THE FARTHER I FALL THE MORE I SEE
THE FARTHER I SINK THE SAFER I FEEL

I’M HERE TO PROVE I’M WORTHY TO
BE THE ONE TO CHALLENGE YOU
I CAN NOW STOP TRYING
I CAN SEE YOU DYING

Sculpture

Here I am again on the brink of destruction
Lost all senses of comprehension
What I have seen is cold reality
The stage has frozenb but still approaching

Death takes its toll on me
Mind decay
Disminded energy
Haunted by yesterday

Don’t want my soul to bleed
Senses astray
Lost sanity
Time to pay

HIDDEN IN THIS WORLD THAT WAS MADE FOR ME
STANDING ALONE, I AM FREEZING
THE DOOR IS LOCKED NOW, I’M TRAPPED IN ME
ONE-WAY PATH AND A MISSING KEY

Chaos in my mind, I am lost in thought
Never an end, why won’t it stop?
A sculpture ideal to be perfect in all ways
But what I see is a statue with no face

Death takes its toll on me
Mind decay
Disminded energy
Haunted by yesterday

Don’t want my soul to bleed
Senses astray
Lost sanity
Time to pay

HIDDEN IN THIS WORLD THAT WAS MADE FOR ME
STANDING ALONE, I AM FREEZING
THE DOOR IS LOCKED NOW, I’M TRAPPED IN ME
ONE-WAY PATH AND A MISSING KEY

Looking down at the past forgotten
Undying memory of what was and that should have been
You’re not the fear, it’s me

Is there something here that is pulling me back?
Did I lose myself in this attack?
Arranging my mind’s complex thoughts
To be released from this predestined loss

Death takes its toll on me
Mind decay
Disminded energy
Haunted by yesterday

Don’t want my soul to bleed
Senses astray
Lost sanity
Time to pay

HIDDEN IN THIS WORLD THAT WAS MADE FOR ME
STANDING ALONE, I AM FREEZING
THE DOOR IS LOCKED NOW, I’M TRAPPED IN ME
ONE-WAY PATH THAT NO ONE CAN SEE

Invert

This twisted fate, I found my hate
Is this the deep revelation?
I was meant to set myself free
But my hate was cheating me

FEARLESS, LOW KIND
INVERTED, YOU AND I
DESIRE, IN SIGHT
WANTING YOUR LIFE

PAIN, THIRST TO SATISFY
FEEDING ON THE TASTE OF LIFE
WANTING YOU TO EMBARK
WELCOMING YOU TO THE DARK

The day is young, though I am not
Thoughts of decay and encrusted rot
I always give, you always take
I bet you love to see me pay

FEARLESS, LOW KIND
INVERTED, YOU AND I
DESIRE, IN SIGHT
WANTING YOUR LIFE

PAIN, THIRST TO SATISFY
FEEDING ON THE TASTE OF LIFE
WANTING YOU TO EMBARK
WELCOMING YOU TO THE DARK

Come to me

The endless hours, the timeless days
The things I’ve done are now a haze
Just analyze, observe and see
Use my dead eyes; be me

FEARLESS, LOW KIND
INVERTED, YOU AND I
DESIRE, IN SIGHT
WANTING YOUR LIFE

PAIN, THIRST TO SATISFY
FEEDING ON THE TASTE OF LIFE
WANTING YOU TO EMBARK
WELCOMING YOU TO THE DARK

Endgame

I look at the wall.
And what do you see there?
I see my light slowly dying.
Silence!
It’s finished and gone.
Nothing you can do, just wait for it to come.

FINISHED, NEARLY FINISHED, IT MUST SOON BE DONE
I SAY TO MYSELF; THE LIGHT IS EXTINGUISHED
DESPITE THE FACT I NEVER SAW IT LIT… IT’S GONE

ALL AROUND IS A STATIC VOID; SHOWN AS AN EMPTY HOLE
FOREVER GRAY, STRANDED BETWEEN NIGHT AND DAY
NO DOUBT, FOR THE END IS HERE
YES, IT’S TIME IT ENDED

What time is it?
The same as usual.
Have you looked?
Yes it’s Zero.
Go!
Why do you keep me?
There’s no one else.
Life long the same answers.

FINISHED, NEARLY FINISHED, IT MUST SOON BE DONE
I SAY TO MYSELF; THE LIGHT IS EXTINGUISHED
DESPITE THE FACT I NEVER SAW IT LIT… IT’S GONE

ALL AROUND IS A STATIC VOID; SHOWN AS AN EMPTY HOLE
FOREVER GRAY, STRANDED BETWEEN NIGHT AND DAY
NO DOUBT, FOR THE END IS HERE
YES, IT’S TIME IT ENDED: STOP

Portraying a world close its end
But returning and always repeating itself
A chronic pattern, emptiness of time
Progressing to oblivion

It isn’t dark.
I’m asking you is it light?
Absent, always. Let’s stop playing!
Never!
Cover me with the sheet.
Your last soliloquy?
My final poetry.

FINISHED, NEARLY FINISHED, IT MUST SOON BE DONE
I SAY TO MYSELF; THE LIGHT IS EXTINGUISHED
DESPITE THE FACT I NEVER SAW IT LIT… IT’S GONE

ALL AROUND IS A STATIC VOID; SHOWN AS AN EMPTY HOLE
FOREVER GRAY, STRANDED BETWEEN NIGHT AND DAY
NO DOUBT, FOR THE END IS HERE
YES, IT’S TIME IT ENDED

Curtain

THE CREATURE

Red

My whole body hurts so bad
This is a fate I shouldn’t have had
Growing to be dry bones and ashes
Bleeding red inside from rips and gashes

Red, too dim to see
Blood forever bleeds
Fire is burning me
Pain, make it leave

RED IS THE END BLURRING MY SIGHT
RED IS THE END AFTER DEFEAT IN THIS FIGHT
RED IS THE END AT THE WARNING ALERT
RED IS THE END COLORING MY EARTH

Sickening to see dreams die
All it takes is to realize
Stranded in a waterless sea
Just see the red image of mercy

Red, too dim to see
Blood forever bleeds
Fire is burning me
Pain, make it leave

RED IS THE END BLURRING MY SIGHT
RED IS THE END AFTER DEFEAT IN THIS FIGHT
RED IS THE END AT THE WARNING ALERT
RED IS THE END COLORING MY EARTH

I am now in this world to stay
To chase my demons away

Red, too dim to see
Blood forever bleeds
Fire is burning me
Pain, make it leave

RED IS THE END BLURRING MY SIGHT
RED IS THE END AFTER DEFEAT IN THIS FIGHT
RED IS THE END AT THE WARNING ALERT
RED IS THE END COLORING MY EARTH

Demonic creatures hide in my mind
A morbid truth one cannot hide
I’m not ready to go
Never take me away from home

Labyrinth

Looking around but I cannot find
What I’m looking for I am not sure
I want to get the fuck out of this place
Blocked by walls in front of my face

Where am I? Am I far from where I was?
I am already far and lost
Search for humanity, totally detached
Callously left to persist and last

WALKING AROUND, I CAN ONLY SEE WALLS
TRAPPED INSIDE LONG DARK VICIOUS HALLS
HELP ME! WHY CAN’T ANYONE HEAR ME?
AM I THE ONLY ONE HEARING THESE CALLS?

I WAS HERE ALREADY BEFORE
I’LL GO BACK BUT I WON’T FIND THE DOOR
ALL FROM HERE IS GONE BUT ME
NO RELEASE FROM THIS NEVER-ENDING LABYRINTH

I walk in my own footprints
I feel the cold winds, they blow in my face
Ensuring me, I walk towards the dead
But I’m lost, where am I to head?

Lead me to the exit door
I hear my steps on the cold empty floor
I am dying, I want to get out
It’s so silent, scares me to the core

WALKING AROUND, I CAN ONLY SEE WALLS
TRAPPED INSIDE LONG DARK VICIOUS HALLS
HELP ME! WHY CAN’T ANYONE HEAR ME?
AM I THE ONLY ONE HEARING THESE CALLS?

I WAS HERE ALREADY BEFORE
I’LL GO BACK BUT I WON’T FIND THE DOOR
ALL FROM HERE IS GONE BUT ME
NO RELEASE FROM THIS NEVER-ENDING LABYRINTH

No one from outside will come
I know, because you’re all gone
If you would be here you would have shown
That earth is not as cold as stone

I know you think I’m lost forever
You’re wrong, I’m stronger than ever
Spit before me and laugh with pride
I’m am stone cold and will forever stride

WALKING AROUND, I CAN ONLY SEE WALLS
TRAPPED INSIDE LONG DARK VICIOUS HALLS
HELP ME! WHY CAN’T ANYONE HEAR ME
AM I THE ONLY ONE HEARING THESE CALLS?

I WAS HERE ALREADY BEFORE
I’LL GO BACK BUT I WON’T FIND THE DOOR
ALL FROM HERE IS GONE BUT ME
WHO WILL NOW SET ME FREE?

The Creature

Whispers fade in the dreams, even fantasy
Can’t deny the pure reality
Disliked the day and was always mad
Filled with anger, laughed at the sad

Slept long to await the night
The time when it didn’t have to fight
Filled with hatred on its greatest height
Always knew when the time was right

I ASK MYSELF: IS THAT ME?
IS THIS WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO BE?
THERE’S A SIGN ON MY NECK, A NUMBER BLACKENED
I’M A CREATURE IN THIS LAND OF FRIGHT
WHO IN THIS TIME GAVE ME THIS ROLE TO ACT?
SO CORRUPT, AND THOUGHT IT WAS RIGHT?

Left alone to await the pain
Apprehensive, fell down in dismay
Never cried, stood there and smiled
For it was pure and never insecure

Locked in a cage and poked with a stick
It was enraged until it got sick
Started to move away from the pain
Like a beaten animal locked with a chain

I ASK MYSELF: IS THAT ME?
IS THIS WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO BE?
THERE’S A SIGN ON MY NECK, A NUMBER BLACKENED
I’M A CREATURE IN THIS LAND OF FRIGHT
WHO IN THIS TIME GAVE ME THIS ROLE TO ACT?
SO CORRUPT, AND THOUGHT IT WAS RIGHT?

Wondering; is someone still out there
Someone having blood in his heart left?
Asked; will you give some blood to mine?
It’s so cold; it’s empty to the core

If pity was out there and someone still was smart
Only gave a little to this drained heart
Give the creature back a dead organ
See it’s me, and see what I’ve become

I ASK MYSELF: IS THAT ME?
IS THIS WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO BE?
THERE’S A SIGN ON MY NECK, A NUMBER BLACKENED
I’M A CREATURE IN THIS LAND OF FRIGHT
WHO IN THIS TIME GAVE ME THIS ROLE TO ACT?
SO CORRUPT, AND THOUGHT IT WAS RIGHT?

Wasteland

All covered in a sandy desert haze
The fallout turned it all into a blaze
Left alone in this land of nothingness
Always facing the common weakness

Clad in leather to roam the land
Breathing for survival while crawling in the sand
Only living for my own self
The biggest mistake is to trust someone else

A SILENT WHISPER RECALLING A MEMORY
REMEMBERING SOMETHING THAT ONCE WAS MY FAMILY
THE WORLD BEFORE IS PAST AND GONE
LIFE IN WASTELAND JUST BEGUN

MY NAME THEY CALL, MAD IS THE GIVEN ONE
SHOULDN’T HAVE SURVIVED WAS SUPPOSED TO DIE
ALONE THERE, ALL CLOSE ARE OUT OF SIGHT
ALL I HAVE NOW IS MY DISMAL LIFE

In front of me there’s nothing but dust
Far has past the will for life and lust
All who cared are far away
The last memories of pre war are to fade

Kill all that lives in self defense
All that is left is to scavenge and cleanse
Find another town to watch and explore
Find yet others who cry and mourn

No fear left only hate
Is this my final fate?

A SILENT WHISPER RECALLING A MEMORY
REMEMBERING SOMETHING THAT ONCE WAS MY FAMILY
THE WORLD BEFORE IS PAST AND GONE
LIFE IN WASTELAND JUST BEGUN

MY NAME THEY CALL, MAD IS THE GIVEN ONE
SHOULDN’T HAVE SURVIVED WAS SUPPOSED TO DIE

Die, die, die

Possession

When my soul was filling with warmth again
The spark in my eyes resurrecting from the pain
But you took it all into your possession
I believed you but you betrayed me

I DID BELIEVE YOUR WORDS
DIDN’T CARE FOR THE THINGS I HEARD
NEVER TO BECOME A POSSESSION
KILL ME INSTEAD IN FRENZIED OBSESSION

YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD CONTROL
POSSESSING ALL AS YOUR OWN
A DISAPPOINTMENT TO MY EYES
A FAILURE IN DISGUISE

You crossed the flaming line; you took away what’s mine
You took that part of my heart with you
You wanted to have there me as your own
But left me dead to remain alone

I DID BELIEVE YOUR WORDS
DIDN’T CARE FOR THE THINGS I HEARD
NEVER TO BECOME A POSSESSION
KILL ME INSTEAD IN FRENZIED OBSESSION

YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD CONTROL
POSSESSING ALL AS YOUR OWN
A DISAPPOINTMENT TO MY EYES
A FAILURE IN DISGUISE

My eyes now full of hate, making you desperate
You try to escape from your fucking reality
Until you understand, I won’t leave you be
I will make you know, you will never possess me

I DID BELIEVE YOUR WORDS
DIDN’T CARE FOR THE THINGS I HEARD
NEVER TO BECOME A POSSESSION
KILL ME INSTEAD IN FRENZIED OBSESSION

YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD CONTROL
POSSESSING ALL AS YOUR OWN
A DISAPPOINTMENT TO MY EYES
A FAILURE IN DISGUISE

Killing Perseverance

As I drift through the hallways of darkness
I’m being chased by the suffering fathomless
The path is dark, creatures reeking of decay
Can’t say what hurts but to keep them away

TOWARDS THE DARKNESS
I AM DRAWING NEAR
SOUNDS OF HAUNTED CHANTS
KILLING PERSEVERANCE

SURROUNDED BY THE HAUNTED
DRIFTING IN THE DARKNESS
FEELING CONSTANT TERROR
MIND HEAVY WITH HORROR

I can’t get out, I’m caught here forever
Dying again in a permanent cycle
This is my life to be eternal
This is my own hellish inferno

TOWARDS THE DARKNESS
I AM DRAWING NEAR
SOUNDS OF HAUNTED CHANTS
KILLING PERSEVERANCE

SURROUNDED BY THE HAUNTED
DRIFTING IN THE DARKNESS
FEELING CONSTANT TERROR
MIND HEAVY WITH HORROR

Incessant circle, nowhere to find an end
I died there a little more once again
Nevermore will I remain in peace to rest
I will die more in the next coming test

Desperate Secrecy

Alone in the far corner of a world of dreams
I listen to the plaintive whisper of sweet memories
They’re clipped with time, a sedate, soothing rhyme
Slowly cries the litany of mine

OVER THIS LANDSCAPE OF LOOSE TRANSLATION
MY TREMBLING GATHERS A TACIT REJECTION
IN SECLUSION I DWELL IN DEEP DESOLATION
IN DESPERATE SECRECY, MY PAIN
I LIVE TO STEAL THE NIGHT AGAIN

The day has come too soon
Sobbing, the stranger’s clutch is due
So little time to learn so much
No other night could bring such a passionate touch

OVER THIS LANDSCAPE OF LOOSE TRANSLATION
MY TREMBLING GATHERS A TACIT REJECTION
IN SECLUSION I DWELL IN DEEP DESOLATION
IN DESPERATE SECRECY, MY PAIN
I LIVE TO STEAL THE NIGHT AGAIN

Finally all the destructive words were said
Nothing left only to keep what is sacred
The memories kept again for all remaining time
But now, there’s a future in this fucking crime

OVER THIS LANDSCAPE OF LOOSE TRANSLATION
MY TREMBLING GATHERS A TACIT REJECTION
IN SECLUSION I DWELL IN DEEP DESOLATION
IN DESPERATE SECRECY, MY PAIN
I LIVE TO STEAL THE NIGHT AGAIN

Inside

Waking up, was that a dream?
A living nightmare’s all I see
The strongest one of them all
Laying there, pushed to fall

I collect my final strength
It’s not enough, there’s so much left
I want to give it away
To make the past stay

I SEE IT RIGHT BEFORE ME
THERE, OPEN, STANDING WITH PRIDE
LIKE A RED HEALTHY LOOKING APPLE
BEAUTIFUL BUT ROTTEN INSIDE

LOST IN DAMNED METASTASIS
SHOULD HAVE BEEN ANYTHING BUT THIS
MY TEARS WILL NO MORE HELP
ALL THAT’S LEFT IS TO FIGHT DEATH

I so desperately want to give
Back the strength to make you live
Gone, is no word for me
Stay, is the one I accept to see

Why did it choose this way
Please don’t leave, just stay
If you are taken away
My roots are cut from me

I SEE IT RIGHT BEFORE ME
THERE, OPEN, STANDING WITH PRIDE
LIKE A RED HEALTHY LOOKING APPLE
BEAUTIFUL BUT ROTTEN INSIDE

LOST IN DAMNED METASTASIS
SHOULD HAVE BEEN ANYTHING BUT THIS
MY TEARS WILL NO MORE HELP
ALL THAT’S LEFT IS TO FIGHT DEATH

This vicious silent killer
Wants to block every way of return
Eating inside, slowly by time
You have to be saved now

I see you smile once again
I know, you know it’s not a game
It’s all there in your mind
You have to leave it all behind

I SEE IT RIGHT BEFORE ME
THERE, OPEN, STANDING WITH PRIDE
LIKE A RED HEALTHY LOOKING APPLE
BEAUTIFUL BUT ROTTEN INSIDE

LOST IN DAMNED METASTASIS
SHOULD HAVE BEEN ANYTHING BUT THIS
MY TEARS WILL NO MORE HELP
I DON’T WANT YOU TO GO

DECADENCE

Wrathful and Sullen

Their souls encumbered by dead weights
One serves the other to punish with hate
Their souls have become dimmed in fruitless wrath
There’s no hope left in this bloodbath

Lost souls doomed to battle
Forever face each other
Wrathful opposing sullen
On going vital fighting

They are never to die
Howling frantic endless sighs
No coming triumph in sight
Because they refused the light

WAS THIS WORTH ALL ANGER?
TRAPPED IN HELL FOREVER
CAUGHT IN ENDLESS PAIN
NEVER TO RETURN AGAIN

DOOMED TO BE IMMORTAL
HATE AND BEING BRUTAL
SKINNING, BITING, DESTROY
HUNGERING FOR FINAL DEATH

Countless souls attacking in the foul slime
In life refused to accept the light
In death they are buried in the wastes
Gargling the words of an endless chant

Lost souls doomed to battle
Forever face each other
Wrathful opposing sullen
On going vital fighting

They are never to die
Howling frantic endless sighs
No coming triumph in sight
Because they refused the light

WAS THIS WORTH ALL ANGER?
TRAPPED IN HELL FOREVER
CAUGHT IN ENDLESS PAIN
NEVER TO RETURN AGAIN

DOOMED TO BE IMMORTAL
HATE AND BEING BRUTAL
SKINNING, BITING, DESTROY
HUNGERING FOR FINAL DEATH

Sullying and squandering, wasted all their light
Bringing them to the brawl of wraiths in fright
Easily grasping their depressing plight
They are doomed to Hell in an endless fight

Lost souls doomed to battle
Forever face each other
Wrathful opposing sullen
On going vital fighting

They are never to die
Howling frantic endless sighs
No coming triumph in sight
Because they refused the light

Heavy Dose

The dark turned into grey
During the golden age of sin
Into distance it let me fade
But I’ll never let it win

There is only one guarantee
It’s the cycle of suffering
I look ahead for the end
That I don’t want to see

I GOT A HEAVY DOSE OF IT
LIKE A SHOT PIERCING MY SKIN
I GOT IT TWOFOLD WHAT YOU ALL DID
BUT I FOUGHT WHILE YOU ALL HID
YOU’RE STILL THAT LITTLE KID
WHO NEVER GOT CAUGHT IN THE GRID
WHERE THEY INJECTED THE HEAVY DOSE
THE HEAVY QUANTITY OF PAIN

It all feels like hell
Did the pain get there to stay?
Because I die when this feeling comes alive

The anger is around my neck
It’s there like a noose that wants to break
My sore life all into pieces
To end the dying beating

I GOT A HEAVY DOSE OF IT
LIKE A SHOT PIERCING MY SKIN
I GOT IT TWOFOLD WHAT YOU ALL DID
BUT I FOUGHT WHILE YOU ALL HID
YOU’RE STILL THAT LITTLE KID
WHO NEVER GOT CAUGHT IN THE GRID
WHERE THEY INJECTED THE HEAVY DOSE
THE HEAVY QUANTITY OF PAIN

A heavy dose of nothing is not enough
A heavy dose of everything is just as tough
A heavy dose of something is like a lure to be repelled
A heavy dose of anything is hell

I GOT A HEAVY DOSE OF IT
LIKE A SHOT PIERCING MY SKIN
I GOT IT TWOFOLD WHAT YOU ALL DID
BUT I FOUGHT WHILE YOU ALL HID
YOU’RE STILL THAT LITTLE KID
WHO NEVER GOT CAUGHT IN THE GRID
WHERE THEY INJECTED THE HEAVY DOSE
THE HEAVY QUANTITY OF PAIN

Black Eternity

Never will it stop, future black eternity
Struggling the past, struggling to see
I only want to know where I’m heading to
It’s all the same, whatever I do

I hope it will stop, this deep animosity
Give my feelings back and end this misery
Nothing can I do, except to keep on fighting
Slowly killing my soul like struck by lightning

I AM LEFT TO PRETEND
LIKE I KNEW WHAT HAD HAPPENED
THE PAIN WILL NOT ONCE AGAIN LEAVE
BUT I CAN’T REMEMBER WHO CUT ME

War Within

The leash around my neck
Is pulling me through pain
Don’t want to keep following
Struggling to get free again

Stop or soon I’m gonna burst
I don’t want to make it hurt
Psyche turned to an empty rift
Killed all that was left inside of it

YOU ARE PULLING ME THROUGH PAIN AND HATE
THROUGH SHATTERED GLASS IN AGONY
TORN AND SLIT ON A BLACKENED PATH
MY MISERY IS MY WAR WITHIN
THE WALL OF STRENGTH HAS CRUMBLED
THE WALL OF BATTLE IS BY MY SIDE
I AM STUCK IN THIS PATTERN
THE DEPRESSION EATING ME ALIVE

I TRY TO COMPENSATE MY MIND
TO OVERCOME WHAT I HAVE TO HIDE
MY MASK COVERING MY FACE
TO HIDE THE FADING APPEARANCE
I AM NEVER GOING TO FAIL
I’LL PROVE IT WHEN I PREVAIL
TO SHOW THE SUFFERING BY REPAY
I AM SCREAMING INSIDE
BUT I’LL FIND MY WAY

A war heart is what’s left inside of me
It’s going to lead my way
I’m on my own again
No one can betray

I’ll fight along with misery
Hit me, punish, torment me
War within
Never to get to me

YOU ARE PULLING ME THROUGH PAIN AND HATE
THROUGH SHATTERED GLASS IN AGONY
TORN AND SLIT ON A BLACKENED PATH
MY MISERY IS MY WAR WITHIN
THE WALL OF STRENGTH HAS CRUMBLED
THE WALL OF BATTLE IS BY MY SIDE
I AM STUCK IN THIS PATTERN
THE DEPRESSION EATING ME ALIVE

I TRY TO COMPENSATE MY MIND
TO OVERCOME WHAT I HAVE TO HIDE
MY MASK COVERING MY FACE
TO HIDE THE FADING APPEARANCE
I AM NEVER GOING TO FAIL
I’LL PROVE WHEN I PREVAIL
TO SHOW THE SUFFERING BY REPAY
I AM SCREAMING INSIDE
BUT I’LL FIND MY WAY

War

I’ve asked it to be given to me
Sought until I would find the door
Everyone who asks receives
Who seeks will find and destroy
Life is the eternal test
Life is the temporary trust
Will the door be opened again for me?
It is my hope and phobia

YOU ARE PULLING ME THROUGH PAIN AND HATE
THROUGH SHATTERED GLASS IN AGONY
TORN AND SLIT ON A BLACKENED PATH
MY MISERY IS MY WAR WITHIN
THE WALL OF STRENGTH HAS CRUMBLED
THE WALL OF BATTLE IS BY MY SIDE
I AM STUCK IN THIS PATTERN
THE DEPRESSION EATING ME ALIVE

I TRY TO COMPENSATE MY MIND
TO OVERCOME WHAT I HAVE TO HIDE
MY MASK COVERING MY FACE
TO HIDE THE FADING APPEARANCE
I AM NEVER GOING TO FAIL
I’LL PROVE IT WHEN I PREVAIL
TO SHOW THE SUFFERING BY REPAY
I AM SCREAMING INSIDE
BUT I’LL FIND MY WAY

LAND OF DESPAIR

Despair

You come and you go
I pass you by but you all seem so low
Empty stares, empty minds
I want to run but I’m trapped with these kinds

I’M MY OWN CREATION
MY OWN DEVASTATION
LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT
YOU SAY
I GOT IT ALL WASTED AWAY
FROM THE MOMENT YOU WERE BORN
YOU’VE GOT YOUR WASTED SELF TO MOURN
YOU MAKE YOUR OWN WAY TO THE GRAVE
THAT IS THE ULTIMATE AIM

Life swiftly peeling away
Getting to explode one day
Years of hurt welling up inside
Always growing the rising tide
Guaranteed a life with happiness
But all I can see is darkness
Everyway I turn, I turn into a wall
I’m an ailing flower in the garden meant to fall

I’M MY OWN CREATION
MY OWN DEVASTATION
LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT
YOU SAY
I GOT IT ALL WASTED AWAY
FROM THE MOMENT YOU WERE BORN
YOU’VE GOT YOUR WASTED SELF TO MOURN
YOU MAKE YOUR OWN WAY TO THE GRAVE
THAT IS THE ULTIMATE AIM

These images flash before my eyes, I see
When days were long, joyful and free
I didn’t care if the future was gray
I just lived for the fucking day
Now a reign of darkness, hurt and despair
Doomed together, no one gives a care
I can see the future, burning in fire
We will all soon expire

What is this feeling?
What shadows fall over me?
What is this scream I keep so silent?
Alone, my cries echo aloud
Yet I can’t hear a single sound

Welcome to the land of despair
Welcome to the agonies lair

We all burn in fire
We’re all welcomed to hell

Heavy Dose (original version)

The dark turned into grey
During the golden age of sin
Into distance it let me fade
But I’ll never let it win
There is only one guarantee
It’s the cycle of suffering
I look ahead for the end
That I don’t wanna see

I GOT A HEAVY DOSE OF IT
LIKE A SHOT PIERCING MY SKIN
I GOT IT TWOFOLD WHAT YOU ALL DID
BUT I FOUGHT WHILE YOU ALL HID
YOU’RE STILL THAT LITTLE KID
YOU NEVER GOT CAUGHT IN THE GRID
WHERE THEY INJECTED THE HEAVY DOSE
THE HEAVY QUANTITY OF…
PAIN

It all feels like hell
Did the pain get there to stay?
‘Cause I die when this feeling comes
Alive
The anger is around my neck
It’s there like a noose that wanna wreck
All that I value and cherish
All that I hate and my malice

I GOT A HEAVY DOSE OF IT
LIKE A SHOT PIERCING MY SKIN
I GOT IT TWOFOLD WHAT YOU ALL DID
BUT I FOUGHT WHILE YOU ALL HID
YOU’RE STILL THAT LITTLE KID
YOU NEVER GOT CAUGHT IN THE GRID
WHERE THEY INJECTED THE HEAVY DOSE
THE HEAVY QUANTITY OF…
PAIN

A heavy dose of nothing
Is not enough
A heavy dose of everything
Is just as tough
A heavy dose of something
Is unhealthy and insecure
A heavy dose of anything
Is hell

I GOT A HEAVY DOSE OF IT
LIKE A SHOT PIERCING MY SKIN
I GOT IT TWOFOLD WHAT YOU ALL DID
BUT I FOUGHT WHILE YOU ALL HID
YOU’RE STILL THAT LITTLE KID
YOU NEVER GOT CAUGHT IN THE GRID
WHERE THEY INJECTED THE HEAVY DOSE
THE HEAVY QUANTITY OF…
PAIN

Among The Fallen (original version)

No one sees the raven inside my soul
It wants to get out and rips me ’til torn
Everything I do always turns out wrong
The fallen – I was placed among
My frayed soul is soon but gone
Nothing will be left because I’m the one
I’m the one standing in the flames
While you are laughing at my pain

MISERY!
I’M HERE AMONG THE FALLEN
MELANCHOLY!
SCREAMING, DESPAIR, PAIN, HELP CALLS AND
TRAGEDY!
PLEASE STOP THE TRAGIC MEMORIES
TREACHERY!
I HAVE NO ONE BUT MYSELF

Want to scream but my voice is gone
Eternal night’s over the dying sun
In my dreams, light still appears
But when I wake up I’m covered with tears
The time that has passed is nothing but a blur
That what I saw of life, no one wants to learn
The shadow of doom stands above my path
I can never go back to the past

MISERY!
I’M HERE AMONG THE FALLEN
MELANCHOLY!
SCREAMING, DESPAIR, PAIN, HELP CALLS AND
TRAGEDY!
PLEASE STOP THE TRAGIC MEMORIES
AGONY!
I AM DOOMED TO A LIFE IN ETERNAL FLAMES
PLEASE SAVE ME

MISERY!
I’M HERE AMONG THE FALLEN
MELANCHOLY!
SCREAMING, DESPAIR, PAIN, HELP CALLS AND
TRAGEDY!
PLEASE STOP THE TRAGIC MEMORIES
TREACHERY!
I AM IN ETERNAL HELL BUT SOMETHING WILD DID SURVIVE

The Bell Tolls For Thee

In the shadow at the end we do not see
The sadness in their eyes before they betray thee
I walk in the dark, along the heavy wall
I see them always stronger, better arms, never to fall
Here I am alone
Shall I walk on to the dead-end?
To die or to pretend
Then it’s thyself who forgives thee
Out of you will have passed all capacity
To be hunted, nothing more
Pain in the pounding sore

In the steep emptiness of the gorge
In the way quieter than a whisper forge
Annihilation’s not that difficult
Just open the wound and fill it with salt

SUN GONE DOWN, THE LAST LIGHT FAILING
AFTERGLOW FROM THE LAST SUNLIGHT FADED
THEY SURVIVE TO ENSLAVE THEE AGAIN
WE DO NOT HAVE A GOD BUT A HELL
A DARK PASSAGE LEADING TO NOWHERE AND ON
DARK NEVER-ENDING, SUDDENLY ALL GONE
NOW THERE’S NOTHING MORE TO SEE
THE BELL TOLLS FOR THEE

The fear was made of what I had been through
The apprehension was for the evil I would do
In the sack is the essence of all
Dead earth and the dead stalks of fall
They’re from the flowers and their rotten blooms
The smell that is death in the sinful gloom
Thou wilt wrap this sack around thy head
Inhalest deeply, and smell the odor of death

Faint, muted, dry and far away
We are all in the same cauldron left to stay
There’s a scream that will never die
It will go forever It will always cry

SUN GONE DOWN, THE LAST LIGHT FAILING
AFTERGLOW FROM THE LAST SUNLIGHT FADED
THEY SURVIVE TO ENSLAVE THEE AGAIN
WE DO NOT HAVE A GOD BUT A HELL
A DARK PASSAGE LEADING TO NOWHERE AND ON
DARK NEVER-ENDING, SUDDENLY ALL GONE
NOW THERE’S NOTHING MORE TO SEE
THE BELL TOLLS FOR THEE

In the steep emptiness of the gorge
In the way quieter than a whisper forge
Annihilation’s not that difficult
Just open the wound and fill it with salt

Hated injustice, hated cruelty
Lay in my rage that blind my mind
That was given to me because
I never asked for it
I was not the aim but I got hit
Time is shortening, there’s one direction to go
No, no, please no, no!
Just save me from this eternal hell
Free me from the tolling bell

Faint, muted, dry and far away
We are all in the same cauldron left to stay
There’s a scream that will never die
It will go forever
It will always cry

SUN GONE DOWN, THE LAST LIGHT FAILING
AFTERGLOW FROM THE LAST SUNLIGHT FADED
THEY SURVIVE TO ENSLAVE THEE AGAIN
WE DO NOT HAVE A GOD BUT A HELL
A DARK PASSAGE LEADING TO NOWHERE AND ON
DARK NEVER-ENDING, SUDDENLY ALL GONE
NOW THERE’S NOTHING MORE TO SEE
THE BELL TOLLS FOR THEE