IF ONLY

class is in session my name is called for attendance all of a sudden i start to slightly cry i realize every one's watching me die inside talking aloud my dearest friend says why what is the matter? i say my mom is no longer here i need to be gone can't finish my life without parents by my side what should i do? end it with a knife? start over and tell a lie? i blame myself everyday fifteen years of struggle now as a sixteen year old past-life is a monster i hide i leave it behind as i write i can't let it push me by if i let it push me along my life wouldn't last too long maybe just maybe i can travel back in time change all mistakes in a flash return to a life i wish i had without parents is depressing knowing I'm loved in some sort of way takes my life away if only i can travel back in time all i ask is one chance to make it all right just to want that happy life if only

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