It's a long long journeyTill I know where I'm supposed to beIt's a long long journeyAnd I don't know if I can believeWhen shadows fall and block my eyesI am lost and know that I must hideIt's a long long journeyTill I find my way home to you

Many days I've spentDrifting on through empty shoresWondering what's my purposeWondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cryI know you'll be standing by my sideIt's a long long journeyAnd I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understandsI don't even know whyI do the things I doWhen pride builds me up till I can't see my soulWill you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journeyTill I feel that I am worth the priceYou paid for me on CalvaryBeneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foesIt feel like everything is out to make me lose controlCause it's a long long journeyTill I find my way home to you

-Angela Zhang, JOURNEY.

Saturday, August 01, 2009

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谢谢。

8/01/2009

我们的缘分就这样终止了吗？真的不希望把它结束。

时间仿佛闪电，一瞬间，一年就这样过去。好舍不得，也很遗憾没好好珍惜那些时光。

非常的感谢和感激您所为我付出的一些。这一生中是无法回报的恩赐。嗯，也非常感谢上帝，因为让我有机会认识了您。

Saturday, July 25, 2009

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That's love and life.

7/25/2009

I read this on this blog and felt it was particularly sweet and to some extend romantic. However, realistically, I think it's an utter fallacy and impractical. This is something that will never happen in real life, but either way, it was a good read.------------------------

My husband is a S/W Engineer by profession, I lovehim for his steady nature and I especially love the warm feeling when I leanagainst his broad shoulders.

Two years of courtship and now, five years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to arelationship and my feelings. My husband is my complete opposite; hislack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic momentsinto our marriage has disheartened me about LOVE.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.

"Why? " he asked, shocked.

"I am tired. There are no reasons for everything in the world !" I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seemingly in deep thought. My feeling ofdisappointment only increased. Here was a man who was not able to evenexpress his predicament, so what else could I expect from him?

And finally he asked me: "What can I do to change your mind?"

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered: "Here is the question.

Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and weboth are sure that picking the flower will cause your death. Will youdo it for me?"

He said: " I will give you your answer tomorrow...." My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting that goes....

My dear, "I would not pick that flower for you, but....please allow me to explain the reasons further.....

This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.

"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and youcry in front of the screen. I have to save my fingers so that I canhelp to restore the programs.

You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you.

You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city. I have to save my eyes to show you the way.

You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches everymonth. I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in yourtummy.

You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will beinfected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokesand stories to cure your boredom.

You always stare at thecomputer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes. I have to savemy eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails andhelp to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your handwhile strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and thebeautiful sand...

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there issomeone who loves you more than I do... I could not pick that floweryet, and die ... "

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting...

That's LIFE, and LOVE. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling ofexcitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that liesin between the peace and dullness.

Love shows up in all forms;even in very small and cheeky forms. It has never been a model. Itcould be the dullest and most boring form ...

Flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of therelationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands... ANDTHAT'S LIFE

People often goes for romantic gestures, surprisesand sweet words whispered into their ears. We fall in love and feelloved because of these so called romantic moments.

But the truth is romantic moments cannot show how much a person loves you. They merely create the feeling of being loved.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

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对不起

7/18/2009

脑海里浮现着每天累积的思考和想法，这些日积月累的思想阻塞了思緒。又让我变得更加心烦的是心里有许多无法发泄，无法解开的心结，好无耐。

原本以为非常的了解你的一举一动，可是现在的你，我一点都不明白。我的心很累因为我不明白我到地哪里作错在哪儿，你却有不和我说明， 心里好难受。

要是真的是我哪里犯了这样无法让你原谅，不要不理我，告诉我。我是知错能改，只要你对我说，我会去改。我先在这里道歉，说声对不起！

Friday, July 17, 2009

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Malaysia FC needs Lady luck and the Lapricorns to score one goal.

7/17/2009

Norsharul believes Red Devils can be vulnerable in defence

By ERIC SAMUEL

PETALING JAYA: National striker Norsharul Idlan Talaha believes Manchester United can be vulnerable at the back.

The 23-year-old UPB-MyTeam FC striker with 10 goals to his credit in the Super League said that every team had their strong and weak points.

“There is no doubt that United are a great side but there is always the element of luck for us to seize upon a golden opportunity at goal,” he said.

Norsharul said that although the Red Devils boast of having a star-studded backline, including goalkeeper Edwin van der Sar and towering defenders Nemanja Vidic and Rio Ferdinand, they were not invincible.

“For us to score against United is as good as having won the match,” he said.

Norsharul will lead the Malaysian charge in attack in the match at the National Stadium in Bukit Jalil tomorrow. He assumes the role of chief striker following the omission of Mohd Safee Sali and Mohd Nizaruddin Yusop from the national team.

However, Norsharul will get midfield support from seasoned campaigners Mohd Amri Yahyah and Indra Putra Mahayuddin.

“It is an honour to start in the first 11 against United. Hopefully, we can give them a good fight,” said Norsharul, who wants to pursue a more serious playing career away from home.

“I think it is time for us (Malaysian players) to come out of the shell,” said Norsharul of his plans to secure a contract with a club from a neighbouring country, Singapore, Indonesia or Thailand.

He said that unless the local players took the bold step forward, the standard of the Malaysian game would remain stagnant.

“I hear most of the time players wishing to ply their trade in Europe. But it is sad that none has really made it. I feel it would be better to consider moving to teams in the region first before taking the big leap to Europe,” said Norsharul.

“If Indonesian top guns like Bambang Pamungkas and Elie Aiboy can come to Malaysia and make a name for themselves, we should also be prepared to go abroad and improve our game.”

The Terengganu-born Norsharul, whose future with UPB-MyTeam is hanging in the balance, added that the presence of the foreign players, Keita Mandjou and Traore Abdoulaye, helped him become a better player when he was with Perak three seasons ago.

“I gained a lot playing alongside these foreign players. If we are not going to be exposed to a top field of teams, then, it defeats the purpose playing among ourselves with no real purpose,” he said.

There is nothing I can comment... but my reaction when reading this article on The Star online I laughed out loud, rolled on the bed, until my stomach hurt so badly, I needed to pee...

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAAHAHAHA.....

we shall see the score tomorrow... XD

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

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Apologies.

7/01/2009

Scatterbrained.

It's been 3 weeks. The fourth week is coming up, would my decision stand? More importantly, would I be able to live with it? Does it really matter what others think? It's my life at the end of the day, but even though other opinions do not matter, it's going to be something I have to carry through in my life. It is going to be another 40 years minimum.

FORTY years of agony.

If I'm already looking it as an agonising decision, what/why the hell am I following it through?Am I just settling? Am I doing the correct decision? They always say that the correct decision is always the hardest to make, does this mean I will be making the correct decision?

I'm really sorry. Really, I am sorry.

I'm sorry for my own mistakes.I'm sorry for letting us down.I'm sorry for agonising us.I'm sorry for ruining your life.I'm sorry for never making you proud.I'm sorry for all the trouble I have caused.

I know no matter the amount of "sorry" I use, it's never enough. After all, it is one of the most overly used word that the user don't really mean it. But, I'm really really sorry, and I only hope that I will be able to live with it.

Monday, June 15, 2009

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Of lemons and races.

6/15/2009

我很累. 心累, 也很心煩.

我的思緒困住了, 變得無法思考.

頭快爆炸.

Who says if life throws lemons at you, you must make lemonade, why not lemon meringue?

Sometimes life isn't as plain as it seems. However, wouldn't it be fantastic if every frame in life was a Kodak moment? I suppose, if that were to be the case, life would be extremely boring.

Someone once told me that it not how you start the race but how you end it. Life is a journey and it's not the destination that counts. We learn from our failures, sometimes from those around us; but, nothing beats experiencing it first hand. Then again, it's only human nature nothing wanting to lose out. Or, is this new to our generation? Or, is it the way we were brought up by our parents to fulfill their own selfish desire, to attain something they could not achieve?

A RAT RACE IS STILL A RACE.No matter the distance or hurdles.

In a race, there can only be one winner. Does that mean the others are losers? I'm tired of this race, I want to stop, give up, forfeit. However, the inertia makes it impossible. It's tiring, it's a vicious cycle because the inertia makes you continue, it makes you move further and farther from what YOU really want in life. And at the end of the day, it takes the might of God to halt, and take a detour or the scenic route or even U-turn. So, this makes the destination as important as the journey?

Life and it's decisions and destinations are as confusing as the missing link in Darwin's theory. Maybe the decisions during the journey is the requirement to get to the destination. The hiccups may not be setbacks but just a wake up call. After all, it is during these situations where we discover, experiment and learn about life and ourselves.

SO, if life throws lemons at you, you can either dodge it, make lemonades or meringues out of them or throw it back at whoever threw them at you. I personally would squeeze them into my vodka.

If only life's decisions were that simple.

THE girl

its me

I dreamed a dream in time gone by.
When hope was high and life worth living.
I dreamed that love would never die.
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.
Then I was young and unafraid.
And dreams were made and used and wasted.
There was no ransom to be paid.
No song unsung, no wine untasted.