483 messages to read....yeah I'll get right on that. Shit I can't believe its been over a year since I updated...that means my life is sooo exciting and I just haven't had the time to write or I have been incredibly lazy. I do miss opening up my journal several times a day and just writing...when did that turn... Read More

I just wanted to thank all the members and girls who have messaged me on here and encouraged me to update, post pictures, keep in contact...It is always nice to hear, from those of you who have been my friends for years and all the new faces. I can't believe I have been a SuicideGirl for almost 10 years. I was definitely one... Read More

its pretty amusing to read all these fashion blogs and hear people talk about how hip and sexy "grunge" is. when i was 14 and wearing the flannel shirts and ripped jeans and combat boots and nirvana shirt...i was made fun of. i was a freak of my school, a loser, and a bunch of other names that had nothing to do with my... Read More

It's been a long fucking time. Someone bought me this laptop to encourage me to write and possibly be social. Well as social as the internet allows. As social as someone who now reads a new book like every other fucking day and ventures out across the street to get groceries and pet food
I don't know where last year went but I... Read More

Holy shit, woman. That's a lot to handle on your own. I'm adding my wishes to the rest for a recovery for your grandmother and your return to freedom.

I had a funny conversation a couple of weeks ago with a skater from my derby league. We were at the local rink and somehow I mentioned SG. She said she used to be a member "back when there were like 10 Suicide Girls." And she apparently saw the first burlesque tour when it came to Massachusetts. She said, "There was this one girl... Snow?" And I had to laugh. We were both all swoony about it. Lol. Super jealous that she saw that show live. It made me want to check up on you. So glad you're still (somewhat) around. ♥

i like getting older, i like not being the 18 year old, i like it when the 18 year old comes up to me and says "i have been looking at you since i was 13 and you made me want to take off my clothes" (yes thats me, influencing the young portland girls to become strippers, getting girls naked all over the country), i... Read More

Really thankful for all of you who still write me (and those who just started). I really have no real friends...real life???? With the occasional random text from stormy and one or the other...I am day after day alone, recluse by choice in this heated room. There are the rolling stones, a thousand books read and unread, someone still ready to open the... Read More