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Monday, December 13, 2010

Most of the time- I cannot stand my best friend. She's the most selfish, hard headed person I've ever met. She treats me like garbage sometimes. She has no respect for anyone, herself included. She's incapable of putting herself in other peoples shoes, and doesn't understand the value of a friendship... I'm not to sure how much more of her selfishness I can take.

I feel like I'm constantly searching for something that is not there; happiness. I know I'll find happiness once I get rid of the negative influences in my life. I know its my best friend but its hard to let go of a friendship I've worked at for a long time. Once I learn to let go, I know I'll remember what happiness feels like once again.

I want to go to school, but I feel like I have no motivation. I wish I felt passionately about something. The more I think about it, the less I feel passionate about anything and everything.

I feel broken. I try and have faith in god, but I'm losing faith fast. I don't see any hope in any ones eyes anymore.

1 comment:

i understand how you feel. i feel the same way about my best friend. idk what to say but maybe you shouldn't let go. give your best friend time hopefully they will come around and see what they will be missing. maybe you should try talking to them about it. thats what im thinking about doing but im scared to because i dont want to lose her