"And if you don't like it, you can leave it. 'Cause it's my own and I'll keep owning it. If you don't like what I'm wearing, well, you're only bothered 'cause you're staring. And you'll never talk me into caring. 'Cause it's my own and I'll keep owning it. " S. L. U. T. by @beamiller >>if you have a bad day read the text below<<
So this post is a big, big step for me. I'm trying to be more confident. I listened to the song I quoted the last two days and gathered the confidence to post this now. Biggie for me.
Wearing these clothes also is a lot for me, most of this is thanks to @spookymishka the best support-confidence-starbucks-dork-motivation friend you could imagine. She basically forced me into all the things I bought, without her I would've bought my usual big baggy black clothes. So thank you, I love you a lot.💜.
But she also teached me that just bc smth doesn't fit you, it doesn't have to mean that you're too skinny or too fat. There are so many body types out there, the pants, shirt or socks maybe just don't do anything for you. WHICH IS OKAY. No one looks good in everything. Every type should be appreciated as long as the person is healthy! We have to stop with all the negative thoughts and have to try and be more positive to ourselves. Being nice to others is always easier than being kind to yourself. You don't have to live yourself right away. But you can start with an "I'm okay the way I am" or even with "I don't have to hate myself.", baby-steps are the solution. Ofc society tells us that we have to be skinny, but not too skinny! But srsly I don't give a damn about anything else society tells me. So why do I care what they tell me about my weight? Good question, but I don't have an answer. I think ppl should start with stopping the negative thoughts. So if you look in the mirror and you think "I'm so ugly I can't even look at myself today." you force that thought away, because we don't talk to ourselves like that anymore and you say "I'm beautiful the way I am." you don't have to believe it right away. But you will realise a change
. [ #blackhair#me#selfie#blacknyellow#recovery#selfloveaintselfish#beamiller#confidence#loveyourself#PMA ]

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Do you ever feel like sometimes your life is operating on auto-pilot, and then one day you look up and don’t recognize yourself in the mirror anymore? Well, that’s what happened to me. I got lazy, made excuses, and just stopped taking care of myself properly. All of that led to a 20-lb weight gain, poor self-esteem, and sent my anxiety & depression to a level it hasn’t been at in over 2 years. Although it’s a not so ideal situation to be in, I’m giving myself some grace because nobody is perfect. I have all the tools to get myself back to where I need to be both physically and mentally, and I’m recommitting to myself and my health. I don’t want to do it alone though, because I need the accountability just as much as anyone else does. I will be diving into our new nutrition program and giving it all I have. I’m looking for 5 ladies who want to go on this journey with me to take your health and nutrition back into your own hands alongside me. We will check in with each other daily, share meal plans and recipes, and you can add in workouts too if you want! I’m ready to commit 100%, and I want you to join me! Let’s change our lives together ❤️We start April 1st if you’re ready 😘

As promised, The new blogs are up bright n early for you. On my personal blog I talk about minimalism & give you a few tips on down sizing your wardrobe. On the @pourboycoffee blog, I talk about my guilty pleasure: Coffee giveaways.
Alright , I hope you enjoy reading those two and give them a share!

If you had ever told me I'd be wearing a crop top... ever... I would have laughed in your face. I dont know where all of this confidence and drive has come from! I do know that it all started with a visit to @crossfitfbo .... and then decisions to make healthier choices about what I was eating. It also helps to have friends that wont let failure be a f*cking option...💜 *******************************************************If you want things in life... they're not going to come easy... they're not going to be handed to you... and sometimes when things are the hardest... when you're forced to end a chaper you werent prepared to end... you have to stand up every f*cking day and not fail... because the moment you let failure become an option- it will oblige. THINK POSITIVE. WORK FOR IT. GET WHAT YOU WANT.
@ironempireclothing throwback croptop size small / @feedmefightme Love & War pants
#croptop#ironempireclothing#feedmefightme#positivityiskey#pma#failureisnotanoption#crossfitsavedmylife#crossfit

💁‍♀️ 3 BIG MEN & A LITTLE (hench) LADY | HUGE team session today @foundryfit who says the girls can’t play with the boys @mrjamescrossley@alimck1 & @faisalpmafitness don’t you worry, I showed them how it’s done 😉 (in reality, I didn’t... I just watched them throw crazy weight around!!)

@culiraw will be back at it again this Sunday 3/24 at VGNMKT @market.hotel. We sampled their new Kale Chips at last month’s event & were blown away- they’re the best we’ve ever had! They’ll be available again this Sunday along with Matcha & Chocolate Cake, Strawberry “Cheesecake” & Peanut Butter Cups. All raw, vegan healthy & delicious! The fun goes from 12-5 at 1140 Myrtle Ave in Brooklyn. Admission is free and all ages are welcome. 21+ to drink at the bar. It’s a vegan party & you’re invited! #upstairsfrommrkiwi 🌱🕺🏽🌱

Happy spring y’all. @al__lobo and I are gearing up for our spring break trip! This is a free trip I earn every year from coaching. [ ]
Last year was Mexico, this year a cruise to Haiti and the Bahamas, next year Punta Cana! It’s touristy AF and may seem cliche for some of y’all, but I’m going to have a kickass time with my fellow coaches and my man. [ ]
As someone that has lacked the two things most needed to travel: time and money, I’m STOKED to be jumping on that plane Saturday! Feeing grateful, but also knowing that this is only possible because of a lot of hard work, some real disappointing moments and some moments that had me dancing around my living room! [ ]
Thank you to all my clients on #teamstarttoday because without you and the trust you have for me as your coach this would not be possible. Free trips are awesome, but community is even better!