Posts Tagged ‘family’

Happy mother’s day to those morhers of the cyber world!!!! I woke up a bit early on this Sunday morning to make my mother a big breakfast that she couldn’t finish haha. It’s funny because she was up the whole time I was in the kitchen making breakfast only she was in her room talking on the phone with one of her girlfriends. When I finally brought it to her with my little sister she was really shocked even though she had come out earlier and I bad yelled at her to go back in her room. I guess it was because it was so much food. I made scrambled eggs, pancakes, sausages (eventhough I’m a vegetarian I always make meals for my family with meat in it, it’s unavoidable), and toast with a huge glass of orange juice. A huge accomplishment I think. Happy Mother’s Day Mommy!

As much as I want to talk about my Lasallian Youth Retreat there is too much other stuff going on with my family life to properly recreate that joyous occasion. I am completely aware and grateful that I am not the worst off child in my current generation at the same time being completely aware that I am not well off. To make a long story short I don’t want to move with my mother to Florida – in America a polar opposite to my home in New York City – and my reasons are not unreasonable. I’m not behaving like a spoil brat (which is the exact opposite of my personality) I’m just becoming a senior this upcoming September and I think changing schools, to a completely different state at that, is not in my best interests.

And there are so many things I can list to support my argument. I’m just so angry and at a loss of what to do that I don’t even know where to begin. Deep breath. It’s not fun to air out your dirty laundry on the internet I’m just more comfortable with this method then talking about it in person with anyone. Ugh! Ok I’ll begin.

My mom actually decided over a month ago that we would be moving out of New York because she and my aunt kept arguing about how life was going. And I was really worried. I mean I was just about to finish my junior year and and I had this whole plan set up for next year with my classes and volunteer work and just overall senior goodtime. A while after that it seemed that we would be staying put and I was happy. But then a few weeks ago she brought it up again and I’ve been using all my energy to try and convince her otherwise. All the while she’s telling me either I become emancipated or leave with her. I’m just really exhausted. There are so many other details I could bring up but what good will it do me.

If only my John Mayer could burst through my front door and save me. And I’d be his lovely argumentative scientist wife for all of eternity. I’m going to escape into that fantasy now :)

danni *Wish me happiness – I really don’t want to become an emancipated minor >.> I’ve been kind of hiding it well that I’m not in the best of spirits let that continue sad people are not interesting.

I’m outside of my school waiting for my mother to puick me up. How do I even start I’m tumbling over my feelingds right now. I feel light. The heavy burden of my winter coat is now inherited onto my forearm. I’m ignoring the smells of gas and car fumes and all of these future sounds and just enjoy this breeze. My eyes have a mind of their own, shutting and relax whenever they feel for it. I was sensing it all day through school. That today was a much warmer day, I don’t know did the groundhog see his shadow? I won’t lie there is still that touch of cold, if the sun was beaming it’s heat on me right now I’d be in orgasmic bliss. It really takes a good weather change for my thoughts to just go blank like this. I gues other things just don’t succeed at making me happier. I don’t let much make me happy. I’m convinced that that is a bad thing >.>.

Mom’s here…
She’s stifling my mood with her cheesy smelling car and her constant ignoring spells. I’m upset now. Why is it always like this? The moment I come in contact with anyone in my immediate family I feel as if…I’m just not calm. If weather is the one thing that bring out my happiness (and good books) then my family is the one thing that brings out all my anger. I need to work on that. But the only thing I’ve come with so far is not reacting but then all of my ager is stored up and then I blow sooner or later.

Danielle ダニエル 대니열

I am a freshman at the University of Richmond. I love writing and already have a blog on wordpress but wanted to clean it up, hence the new domain. I am a music love and a huge fan of John Mayer. I am also a vegetarian, albeit not a healthy one. I have to admit that my lifestyle is far from perfect. I'm not sure what I've been trying to accomplish through posting to this blog for the past 2 or so years but I enjoy is full heartedly and will continue to do so. Thanks for reading! :D