This blog is my public diary of experiences that I've had as I become increasingly involved in the area of Kensington, Pa. I am including experiences that I am having as I sit down, one on one, with homeless people who are dealing with Substance Use Disorder.
All Names have been changed and, occasionally, I share a story using the opposite pronoun (he/she him/her), as an additional way to assure privacy.

Please Know...

As I come to know these fine people, they share with me more of their personal and sensitive stories. Their collective story is what I am trying to share with you as my way of breaking the stereotypical beliefs that exist. "Blog names" have occasionally been given to me by the person whose story I am telling. Names are never their actual names and wherever I can do so, I might use the opposite pronoun (his/her, etc.) just to help increase their privacy.

Monday, May 27, 2019

I was standing on this portion of the sidewalk on Kensington Avenue today as I was chatting with a
man, a long time resident of Kensington.I'd never met him prior to this moment.As we stood there talking about how this area has become an open-air
absolutely public no-need-to-hide-it grassroots overdose prevention site, men
and women were sticking needles in their necks, tourniqueted arms and legs all
in the name of 'taking their much-needed medicine.'These
men and women bear (real or blog names) such as Amy, Ashley, Gina, George,
Jose, Jesus, Joseph, David, Manuel, Rashime and so many more.

Used and uncapped syringes originally meant for insulin injections, piled up on the
lighter colored portion of the sidewalk to the right of the step in the picture
I've linked you to above.As this man
and I casually chatted in the presence of heroin, fentanyl and all sorts of
mystery ingredients entering the veins of men and women I've come to love so
very much, I reached in my pocket to be sure that my dose of Narcan was
available.It was and yet, I knew it
would not be needed.Thanks to
Prevention Point, there is probably as much Narcan on this street as there is
heroin!

And that's the point of this
blog…

These
collections of human beingsgathered together, whether they be
under bridges designed to hold rail lines or on sidewalks of local 'mom and
pop' businesses such as are on Kensington Avenue, serve a vital and life-saving
purpose.These men and women who would
prefer not to have SubstanceUse Disorder as an officially recognized diagnosis in their lives take
their potentially instantly deadly medicine because their bodies DEMAND that
they do so, not because they want to nor choose to do so.It is no longer their choice to take or not
take their medicine.In a very real way, these collections of human beings gathered on the sidewalks are a grassroots level hospital ward where the patients are also the medical service providers. Some patients inject themselves. Others can't and so the medication nurse - another patient - provides the injection. If someone starts to seriously overdose to the point of needing Narcan, the rapid response team - other patients - steps in to provide the life-saving drug and all standard life-saving procedures.

For those of us who
have never walked down this path of Substance Use Disorder, decide now to intellectually
accept this demand of their bodies even if you can't understand it with a firsthand
understanding.

Once you accept
this fact, even if you can't totally understand it, we can begin to work
together to make progress on doing something positive about solving this
issue.

Nearly 100%
of the men and women on these streets are reliant on Medicaid for financial
coverage of their health care needs.

The
inadequate levels of reimbursement to medical facilities are so insufficient
that many places simply cannot afford to take these wonderful human beings in
as patients.Those that do focus on
Medicaid patients can't afford to provide decency, dignity, nor respect in
their settings.The end result is a
higher death rate among Substance Use Disorder patients on Medicaid compared to
those with private insurance.

This MUST be
corrected!

I don't pretend
to have the answers…

I do know
this…

It's Time to
Plow Down Medicaid Mountain!

I invite you to this new web address to better understand this situation:

Friday, May 24, 2019

Last summer, as I visited Melanie in jail, she promised me that she would never go back to using heroin. She has maintained that promise and has told me so each time I've seen her since then. She has continued to live on the streets for her own reasons that go beyond the point of this blog.

Melaine has done fairly well until about 10 days ago when, again, for reasons of her own, heroin reentered her pattern of life and her bloodstream. She has overdosed twice in these ten days and been saved by Narcan twice, once by a resident of the streets and once by a Philadelphia police officer who knows and cares very much for her.

On Wednesday, I found Melanie shortly after this second near death moment. She asked if she could rest in my car. She slept for the next couple of hours while I made my rounds visiting people with bananas, water, and song sheets. I informed each outreach worker who I saw on the streets of Melanie's situation and each one had a different solution based on their experiences and the group they represented.

In the end, Melanie, with the help of the good people of Prevention Point, got out of my car and was considering going in there for help.

As we hugged each other, I held her extra tight as I was keenly aware that I might never see Melanie alive again. Her walking path of life is far too thin these days AND it is on the side of a cliff on what I'm calling "Medicaid Mountain."

Monday, May 13, 2019

My maternal grandfather was listed as Missing In Action (MIA) for
several months during World War I (WWI).Once home, he refused to ever talk about those months.To this day, we have no idea what he
experienced.We will never know.

Life as a homeless person dealing with Substance Use Disorder has some parallels
to my grandfather's story.They endure
far more than what we hear about from them.More often than not, these men and women enter their Substance Use
Disorder and homelessness through the doors of some form of emotional trauma.

Once out on the streets, they endure more trauma by way of harsh
treatment from Non-Substance Use Disorder persons, the medical community, and the
legal system.For men standing on street
corners, harsh words and items thrown at them by passersby are common.For women doing 'dates', degradation and violence
are far more common than we ever hear.

That's what makes "Diane" such an awesome witness to her Christian
Faith.She endured far more as a person
imprisoned on the streets by a situation she did not want and from which she sought
healing than we will ever know.

Diane never told me any of the incidents that she would have most likely experienced.Just like my grandfather's
stories, we will never know.

But I do know this:

Before the living water of Diane's life evaporated from the fine
crystal and porcelain vessel that we recognized and hugged, she declared her Faith
in her LORD and Savior one more time and in a way for all of us to know. She wrote this in a letter to me that I received three days after she died:

Those of us who had the privilege of knowing Diane are grieving our
loss from our unique perspectives of parent, sibling, children and extended
family or friend. For some of us, this
Christian Faith thing is not understood.
We grieve our loss of Diane in the absence of her Savior.

Diane endured so much in her life and yet her Faith burned bright.Maybe, just maybe, those of us who are
struggling with our loss in the absence of Diane's Savior could consider taking
a closer look at the One she claimed as her own.

In our loss of Diane, we are enduring so much pain.If you are enduring this pain in the absence
of the One Diane called Savior and LORD, I'd like to invite you to take a closer look at the Faith of Diane.

Perhaps this could be your conversation with God:

God, I'm hurting… I don't get it…How could Diane experience so much pain in her years of suffering and
yet maintain and declare Faith in You?She knew of Your Love as an absolute Fact of Life.I don't.In honor of Diane, I'm willing to learn more about you.I don't know that I'll ever really believe as
did she but I'm willing to take a peek at who You are.I'll read some of Your Bible.I'll visit a church.I'll ask others who share Diane's Faith.My heart hurts so badly right now. I don't get it God but out of my love for
Diane, I'm willing to learn more.Guide
me, God.

Sunday, May 12, 2019

and the auctioneer
Thought it scarcely worth his while
To waste much time on the old violin,
But held it up with a smile.
'What am I bidden,

good folks,' he cried,
'Who'll start the bidding for me?'
'A dollar, a dollar. Then two! Only two?
Two dollars, and who'll make it three?'

'Three dollars, once; three dollars, twice; Going for three…'

But no,

From the room, far back,

a grey-haired man
Came forward and picked up the bow;
Then wiping the dust

from the old violin,
And tightening the loosened strings,
He played a melody pure and sweet,
As a caroling angel sings.

The music ceased, and the auctioneer,
With a voice that was quiet and low,
Said: 'What am I bid for the old violin?'
And he held it up with the bow.
'A thousand dollars,

and who'll make it two?
Two thousand!

And who'll make it three?
Three thousand, once;

three thousand, twice,
And going and gone,' said he.

The people cheered,

but some of them cried,
'We do not quite understand.
What changed its worth?'

Swift came the reply:

'The touch of the Master's hand.'

And many a person

with life out of tune,
And battered and scarred with sin,
Is auctioned cheap

to the thoughtless crowd
Much like the old violin.

A 'mess of pottage,' a glass of wine,
A game — and he travels on.
He is 'going' once, and 'going' twice,
He's 'going' and almost 'gone.'

But the Master comes,

and the foolish crowd
Never can quite understand
The worth of a soul

and the change that is wrought
By the touch of the Master's hand.

I wish you could have seen TODAY's Touch of the Master's Hand!:

On this rainy Sunday, I walked up to "Cricket"[1]
with an oddly shaped conglomeration of cloth."Hi Cricket. Come with me." I said as we entered Martin's
Deli."I'm not allowed in
there." She said."For this,
you will be." I told her.We walked
in and I opened the cloth (my raincoat on this bad weather day) and she saw
the case containing a 3/4 size violin.She started shaking as she covered her mouth.I opened the case as it sat on the top of the
popsicle cooler.[2]

As I handed Cricket this 3/4 size violin, she took it in
hand and, with hardly skipping a beat, lit up that deli with the fastest
fingering and string usage I could have ever expected!People pulled out their cameras.Cricket danced with joy to her self made
music and had an instant audience!

Cricket stopped.

In the doorway of Martin's Deli, Cricket cried.

Cricket spoke: "It's been over a year since I've played a
violin."

I hugged her and she bawled the cry of one who unexpectedly reawakened her passion.

As I held her, I simply
said:"Please know how much Jesus
loves you."

She cried some more.

She played some more.

As we were packing up this violin to keep it safe from the weather,
the manager came within range and told Cricket to get out.

I wish you could have seen TODAY's Touch of the Master's Hand!PS: Please know you are a magnificent
human being made in the image of GOD and you are Worthy of the Highest Dignity,
Honor, Respect and Love.

Please Allow Yourself to
be touched by the Master's Hand!

[1] A woman
who is a classically trained violinist and who, until Substance Use Disorder rerouted
her life, was a teacher of violin in the Suzuki Method in the area of West
Chester Pa.

[2] in
this deli near the intersection of Somerset Street and Kensington Avenue.