Day 44 — I wonder if I will run of ideas by the end of the term. Now I’m terribly lacking motivation. Yea, date and thinspo are there but the scale is a terrible demotivation, glaring at me with 50. So how can I be motivated and post optimistic entries if I’m not losing weight no matter how hard I try? It still bugs me what should I do not to run out of ideas? Check this out.

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Thinspo pictures to help you stay thinspired and motivated in your weight loss journey.

Thinspo pictures

Day 42 — checkup 3, wow so soon! 80x62x88, 50kg. And it would seem alright but for a big BUT. WTH is going on with my chest? What’s up with my bust size? 2 weeks pass and I lose 2-3cm while hips stay fat — why is it not getting thinner there too?! I’d be so much much much happier if I lost centimeters there as well ;(

Well, anyway, took some pics of myself. PJs rule but the camera is such a liar; like I said, it hides flaws (read: fat) so I look prettier than in real life. Ah if only I slimmed down in hip area as fast as in bust! But still it’s incredible how dramatically quickly I get smaller in my upper part haha.

Told my S/O, ‘You’re gonna kill me, hun, but I lost another few cm up there. It’s all due to swimming I bet.’ He sighed, ‘Ahh, well, it can’t be helped in this case.’ Thank god he didn’t swear :) I try not to get upset by the results but the scale pisses me, it’s ruthless, how else can I call it if it’s still at the same mark, slightly balancing between 49 and 50! I have a reason to despise myself for moving so slowly. And this hip area catastrophy annoys me. Seriously, how am I supposed to come to 45 if I lose 1 kilo a month? Damn damn damn. Sorry.

Hey you know what’s funny? Today, on 11-11-11 I weigh 111lbs LOL

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Thinspo pictures to help you stay thinspired and motivated in your weight loss journey.

Thinspo pictures

Day 41 — ‘I don’t want you to turn into a skeleton’, ‘Your Mom has a reason, you’re getting anorexic’, ‘I have no problem with you losing weight as long as you don’t overdo’, ‘Now turn around, I need to make sure you still have a bum’, ‘Oww your breasts have gotten so small that no bra now fits’ etc — this is what I hear from here and there and everywhere. It’s insulting when dear ones say things like this.

On a lighter — finally! — note, after a morning swim I weigh 49, and it’s so much better to go training early before work because thus I am not hungry till midday, which is excellent! But even with 1 kilo off I don’t look fit at all ;( A morning swim thus doesn’t help, does it? Ice-cream cone, go away!

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Thinspo pictures to help you stay thinspired and motivated in your weight loss journey.

Thinspo pictures

Day 40 — often, I put on my jeans recalling one thinspo, ‘Why lose weight? To walk the earth a little lighter’. I like how it sounds, and I know how true it is. When you’re overweight, you feel your feet on the ground, how you step, how the soles of your shoes come in contact with the surface, whilst when you have no odd weight moving around is easier and effortless and your feet just slightly touch the ground. It’s hard to explain until you compare on your own. Walking becomes fun, you may even feel like jumping on your way.