Hello my name is Sarah I am 27 years old and according to all the medical books I am grossly obese. Great way for them to put hum, I mean have you ever looked up the word grossly and read the definitions and synonyms that describe the word. I will give an example of a few of them they include “extreme”, “indecent”, “obscene”, and my favorite “lacking refinement”. Well if the term doesn’t destroy what little self esteem I had the definitions sure as hell do. Any way enough of that I ...

Hello my name is Sarah I am 27 years old and according to all the medical books I am grossly obese. Great way for them to put hum, I mean have you ever looked up the word grossly and read the definitions and synonyms that describe the word. I will give an example of a few of them they include “extreme”, “indecent”, “obscene”, and my favorite “lacking refinement”. Well if the term doesn’t destroy what little self esteem I had the definitions sure as hell do. Any way enough of that I suppose I need to do a real introduction and how I ended up here. I joined several years ago when I got on one of many of my failed attempts at loosing the weight and keeping it off. I would go for these 3 month spurts where I was determined to get my act together and lose the weight. I was always athletic in high school and when I took that activity away and replaced it with one of my favorite pass times in college, drinking, well its not healthy I guess. I entered college weighing what I would call a respectable muscle bound 180 lbs and well almost 10 years later I was pushing 300. My worst being 289, the thing that always amazed me about my weight and how I saw myself is that I knew I was heavy but I would look in the mirror and still some how managed to either lie to myself or it was just straight denial, “that hey I don’t really look as bad as what the scale says, Nah it just all muscle.” It is amazing how long you can lie to yourself. My end to denial came a few months ago. I am this amazing group of girls I grew up with, we went from Kindergarten all the way through high school and some of us went college together even. Every year we have a get together were we all sit down and gossip about the past years events, since some of us have of course moved. Well with my traveling for work the last couple of years November 2012 was the first time I had gotten to meet up in a few years. I had a great evening talking and chatting and never thought about my appearance versus theirs, I mean remember I am still in my denial point at this point. Well we all parted of ways but before we did of course we had to take a damn group picture. The day that photo arrived at my house in the mail was a defining moment in my life and by far the most humiliating and humbling experience I have had. There we are as a group everyone looks beautiful (we were at a wedding by the way), and then there is me I look like a blown up puffed up version of myself. They all look the same as when we were in high school, and then me I look like a puffed up toad. I just stared at that photo for a good long while went and looked in the mirror again and sure enough the toad matched the mirror. Some how I had been ignoring it, and when I finally saw what everyone else was seeing I was crushed I had let myself get that bad. So now I am here writing about my reason for being here. I am trying hard to get my act together. I have quit drinking pop and established a goal of 10 lbs a month to lose. I reached my goal for this month yesterday. So hopefully I can keep it going.

My Program:
Just going to watch what I eat and log everything to hold myself accountable. To do this I will add a new task each month to help me complete my goal.

Task by month Jan- No soft drinks/caffine Feb- Trying to go walking at least 3 days a week. March- Use spark to log all food and exercise. Apr- Go to the gym at least 3 days a week. May- Get back in the swing of things need to establish schedule.