My wonderful mum

My mum lost her battle to ovarian cancer Thursday 26th March. We knew her diagnoses was terminal but nothing prepares you for your mum to die. Myself and my dad was by her side when she passed but we did try to resuscitate her as per her wishes. Dad started with mouth to mouth and vomit came up and we thought she was still with us because of her vomiting and I was doing chest compressions and we did this till the ambulance crew arrived but resuscitation was unsuccessful. My last thoughts of my mum was all this gurgling and vomiting and paramedics trying to revive her, I can’t sleep or eat I just can’t get the last moments of my mums life out of my head

I'm so very sorry for your loss and hopefully she wouldn't have known anything or felt anything from the vomiting which must have been so distressing for you to see. Take comfort from the fact that you did your best for her and that she was loved and cared for until the end, which she knew.

Virtual hug to you and your dad and try to thin k of the happy times you spent together x

Thank you Shelly, I just need to talk beyond my family and friends. Only my dad and I was with my mum at the end and even tough we have spoken about it I just can’t get the image out of my head. I keep trying to think about good times but as I fall asleep the memory comes flooding back and the smell of the vomit (it was sickly sweet, my mum was living off ensure drinks) and see her lifeless body and never being able to talk to her or cuddle her is tormenting me