it's Christmas morning - 3:48 a.m. to be exact. my mom died one week ago today and these past 7 days, i have gone through the motions and felt every emotion known to man.

i'll be having a decent line of thinking, and suddenly, it all floods in: "i'll have a dollar cheeseburger, small onion ring, (did mom really die?) and a diet coke."

i am going to assume it is part of the normal when it comes to the grieving process.

[long lay the world, in sin and error pining]

people either want to be present to me or are all confessional because they haven't reached out for me as they don't know what to say. honestly, most times, i am letting the phone ring until voice mail picks and i return calls if you are a verizon customer by hitting "reply" - at&t user? outta luck. sorry. i'm doing the best that i can.

mom's services are tuesday. i am bringing home pictures from my brother's today to go through in preparation. i also need to pen something so i can share at the prayer service. or maybe i'll just speak from my heart?

[fall on your knees. o hear, the angels' voices!!]

i haven't written, it's all welled up in my heart. i do want to share, however, that i spent the night at the hospital friday night, her last night on earth, so when i awoke in the middle of the night (like i did this morning), i could sit at her bedside, talk to her and pray. it was a very special time for me, sacred time. i am blessed and i thank God i had the opportunity to be with her.

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St. Paul, to the Thessalonians

But you, brothers and sisters, are not in darkness, for that day to overtake you like a thief.For all of you are children of the light and children of the day.We are not of the night or of darkness.Therefore, let us not sleep as the rest do,but let us stay alert and sober.

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Knitting is very conducive to thought. It is nice to knit a while, put down the needles, write a while, then take up the sock again.

Dorothy Day

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It was not in me.It moved in and out.When I dared to stop it, the wine won out.(What it was, I no longer remember.)The wine then offeredthis and offered that,till I became dependent on him.

I, fool!

~~Rainer Maria Rilke

thought for today

"We are all in the gutter. Some of us are looking at the stars."

Oscar Wilde

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"Don't call me a saint. I don't want to be dismissed so easily."

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batman philosophy

Robin: "Boy! That was our closest call ever! I have to admit that I was pretty scared!"Batman: "I wasn't scared in the least."Robin: "Not at all?"Batman: "Haven't you noticed how we always escape the vicious ensnarements of our enemies?"Robin: "Yeah, because we're smarter than they are!"Batman: "I like to think it's because our hearts are pure."