I totally wasted my weekend!
In the sense that I did not study, other than doing 5 questions on very very basic intergration.

I miss my daddy!
He is on a golfing trip at somewhere in China.

Trials is 28 days away!
That gives me one February to study. *gasp* and this is the resaults that I'm supposed to use to apply for uni. *double gasp*

Driving test is coming is 8 days!
I can't wait for it to be over. To bribe or not? I havent even expressed my strong distaste for the whole bribing thing. I would, one day. Maybe something interesting will happen after I blog about this, maybe I can be like one of those awesome opposition people who get detained by ISA. :O

But,I'm still happy,because,

The comic above is so funny.
hahahah. Don't you think so?

I woke up at 5.30am & took the best shower.
I was warm, while it's drizzling outside.

I talked to my brother and sister in the car as if it's 3pm.
I kept saying turd. hahaha. It's a funny way to say shit. For instance, 'sturdy' '5-turdy'

I'm comtemplating to skip law test.
I can't just go in blank and copy all the way! It's not fair to my classmates. See? I still have a clear conscience.

I know there's only 28 more days to my trials...
but then there's only 4 subjects and I've studied them all before. It can't be that difficult, RIGHT?

I had a very good and long chat with my mum last night.
I love my mummy! I miss her already.

The weather's so good.
Drizzling since yesterday's dinnertime! Too bad it's a Monday.

I smell so nice.
Like cherry blossoms. I don't know how cherry blossoms smell like, but the bottle say that I should smell like cherry blossoms. So there!

I guess I'm a loner. I just want to be alone and spend the day being quiet with Jun Wei. Just being with him but not speaking. I don't feel like talking.

It's hard when I'm at college surrounded by so many people. I cannot just keep quiet, can I?

It is like a social responsible to at least respond to people. & today, I just really don't want to.

I'm feeling uninspired.

Yesterday morning, I vowed to be on diet. I don't know if you understand how I feel? But I feel like a weight 80 kg. I know I don't look like it in reality, but feeling like it is worse than looking like it.

Desptite the vow, I ate KFC with Jun Wei. It was really satisfying, I had a happy meal. I then went home after college, and had some snacks, then dinner. For dinner, I had cod fish noodles. Cod is an oily fish and there's a taste to it right?

So after I ate I went home. I felt so uncomfortable, like all the food I ate is just at the brim of my throat.

I went to the toilet, and forced myself to vomit. I vomited 5 times. It felt good. I feel so relieved.

I don't know if I did something wrong? So I called Jun Wei and true enough I got lectured. I don't think that it's bulimic or anything. I just did it because I felt that it will make that yucky feeling go away, and it did.

Jun Wei ask me to promise that I'll never do it again. I'm surprised at myself, when I'm having second thoughts about promising him that. At that moment, I really want to go to the toilet to vomit again. It is not like I'm vomiting to be thin, I'm just doing it to feel normal.

He told me it's either I stop it right now, or he'll never speak to me again. I cried. I didn't want to stop. I like it. I like vomiting my food out.

At that moment, when I realise that I actually enjoy vomiting it. I kind of knew maybe I'm a little bit sick? I was scared but part of me didn't believe that I'm enjoying it.