Thursday, April 15, 2004

YES--I AM STILL HERE

Hello one and all....I realize again I have abandoned my lil journal...But the good news is that I have many things to talk about. FINALLY...My desktop puter has been fixed. One of my sons (after me begging for days) sat down and fiddled with it and sure enough everything was restored. I could not believe it, but of course I am thrilled. I love my laptop...just toooo cute, but I have absolutely nothing on it for my creative juices to get flowing--so hoppefully I will be back to normal here (whatever normal is). First the stomach flu or virus has been going through our house so that put me out of commission for a couple of days. That is the worse feeling in the world-I would much rather have a head cold then that. Then my van (again) has broken down. I think it is now being held together by bubble gum because we have no idea how long it will last. Then of course teenagers have stretched the limits and that was a bit of a war at this end--hopefully they got the point. We only have one month to go to graduation and then we will see what happens. One son is just about ready to leave for Crown College in Tennessee...he has his heart and soul intending to become a minister. So now we are busy trying to set up things for that....financial aid and sponsorship through his church and such. It has been abit stressful for me. I just want everything to be okay.... and it seems everything has ten obstacles to go through. I do not remember it being this difficult when I went to college. Now the other son is trying to see how much he can age me before he finishes high school. Last saturday he told me that he was going to watch a friend of his race at the speedworld racetrack that is across the field from us. (yes it is VERY noisy here). This is nothing new about watching his friend race---he just has not done it in awhile. Well, by midnight my son and his friends came bursting through the front door and my son comes running up to me with a big trophy in his hands. YES.....my son the sneak has been fiddling at his friend's house and preparing a junk car to race. My son won second place. I would be so proud of him but there is a part of me that does not like being deceived. I will definitely post a picture of him and his lil trophy soon...just have not gotten to load up anymore pics lately. He was so excited and I can understand...he wanted to put his trophy in my puter room because that way everyone can see it when they come in. I asked him why he did not just tell me he was going to race instead of making up a story--he said he just did not want me worrying about him because he knows that stress only adds to the anxiety of my illness. BOY--that kid is good at sucking up. Well in a way he is right- because I would have worried myself beyond words....but then again if something had happened to him I would have never known it. Now the other son (who wants to be a minister) wants to race on weekends--he said he wants to try it out before he leaves for college...some "innocent" fun were his words. It amazes me how my boys may look alike because they are twins....and they fight constantly because they are such opposites. But if one son does something the other has to do it tooooo. Just to see what would happen. This is where I am driven over the edge. I guess from now on I will be heavily sedated, on weekends, until they are home from racing. I think they do this stuff just to see how far they can push me to that edge. My lil nephew has been quite the pill lately trying to push his own limits. I received a letter from his school saying that they are recommending that Anthony repeat kindergarden. Anthony had a ton of adjustment problems at the beginning of the year and has not been able to stay on the same level as the others. Here it is up to the parents if a child should be held back...the state does not automatically do it. I think, unfortunately, that we will let him be held back. I say unfortunately because that will mean his friends move on without him.... but He really has not completed any full levels like the others. Here they have to be reading in kindergarden.... he is still having problems recognizing some letters. They also have to do simple basic math...he also cannot count to 100 without stumbling sometimes. So this summer lil boy will still be working on all this so that he can bloom next year. All of us have been helping him this past year with homework and such but he is not completing school work and such so that has hindered him. Well of course I have much more to write about but I will save that for another time....I think I am actually getting sleepy. Thanks to all of you that keep stopping by and reading my journal--it really touches my heart that people actually want to read something I write about. Again....PLEASE leave me your journal addy so that I can check you out if you have not done this yet. Until Next Time ...... PEACE!!!!

About Me

I am a mixed-media artist-trying to find myself through art...living la vida loca~
I am a daughter, a friend, a sister, a lover, an aunt, a grandma - most importantly a Mom..all these parts
contribute to me discovering the artist
screaming to get out!