My mood has been going up on the happy scale ever since the start of 2011.

LoliLovely

02-23-2011, 09:29 PM

I was up. Then I went down :(

Yukikittie

02-23-2011, 09:34 PM

Yeah. :(
I'm hoping my new medication will help.

It could be because it's winter? My Mom gets the same way around this time. If your depression starts to get serious though then please talk to someone about it.

acostory

02-23-2011, 09:36 PM

It's scientifically proven that people's moods go down during the winter due to lack of sunlight.

But yeah, definitely feeling you :c

Shifty Llama

02-23-2011, 09:41 PM

This time of year gets a lot of people down! If you are feeling really bumbed maybe you have SADs
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seasonal_affective_disorder

Personaly im doing well these days but i was recently diagnosed with depression so the meds are making me feel a ton better but i definatley know how you feel and i hope you feel better and maybe get a chance to talk to somone!

DarkAgito

02-23-2011, 09:48 PM

I am quite depressed yes :(

Axelai

02-23-2011, 11:23 PM

I was depressed for a few days.

Then i realized i was PMSing. Doh.

pltshp

02-23-2011, 11:28 PM

Most of my recent depressed moments come from alcohol, haha. Doesn't do wonders for me. Otherwise, despite a lot of personal stuff going on that has been bringing me down, I've been okay. Happiest I've been in a couple of years, I guess.

kittymutt

02-23-2011, 11:33 PM

I'm somewhat depressed and feeling a little unproductive. I think it's just the weather, though as some above me said. I was so happy last Friday because it was sunny and I could see green grass. Then the next day it became cloudy and then it snowed a lot. The sun hasn't came out since then, just cloudy. :(

FE Freak

02-24-2011, 01:19 AM

I feel a little down. Ever since I came down with a cold/flu/something of 5 days, it's thrown me out of whack with school. I'm trying to get back into it, though. I just have less energy and just not care as much as I first started this semester.=/

Eau de Decus

02-24-2011, 01:24 AM

Confused, though not depressed.

cupofjasmine

02-24-2011, 01:25 AM

I'm not depressed, just somewhat paranoid. It'll probably tide over later on today, but I know I'm going to have trouble sleeping because of it. :(

uruha-fan-girl

02-24-2011, 04:19 AM

Hmn these days I'm up and down...Hope I can get over it...soon.
Oh and I'm always tired...Which really sucks...

Adorima

02-24-2011, 04:22 AM

Yeah sometimes, but if you focus on it too much you'll just end up making it worse.

tn_scotsman

02-24-2011, 10:28 AM

Yeah, but I am diagnosed with depression and SAD. So hopefully a few minutes in my "Sun Light" will help pull me around.

inu.matto

02-24-2011, 11:09 AM

I am always depressed on winter times. Can't help it, there's no way for me to be cheerful every day if there's no warm bright sun. My bad for being summer child D:

Psycho_Kitty

02-24-2011, 12:25 PM

Yeah I've been depressed since December, but thankfully the meds i have are helping it out a bit. I'm diagnosed with two mental illnesses so depression is hard to cope with, but at least i have my therapist to talk to and she's trying to get me into a weekly meeting instead of the chance of hospitalization again.

IAmShorty

02-24-2011, 01:56 PM

Yeah....Although I have depression most of the time anyway. Depression, anxiety, ocd etc. all run in the family. I happened to get them all. Lucky me....

rubyspitfire

02-24-2011, 02:45 PM

i have moments

my five-year-old son is on his way to minnesota with my parents to visit other family. it's the first time we've been quite that far apart and the first time he's been out of the state without me. i know my parents will take good care of him but i'm still getting sad and panicky.. and then i woke up to another snow/ice blizzard that goes all the way to central iowa. right now i'm just having the WTF???!! feeling and fighting the urge either to take off after them because my truck will just leave me stranded or to pick up the phone and tell them to come home because i really can't handle this ;_;

alpha_helix

02-24-2011, 03:54 PM

Horribly miserable and anxious because I'm working on a thesis that I hate, and I'm too far into it to back out now. I'm getting to the point where I'm too worked up over the damn thing to bring myself to do anything that would actually help get-r-done. I'm seeing someone about it in a little over a week because the xanax that I'm currently on is hardly doing anything, and within the past week I've crashed and gone from needed to sedate myself every once in a while to needing to sedate myself as often as the instructions say I'm allowed to. I'm also smoking a LOT more now than I used to since it keeps me from losing my mind between the xanax breaks.

I'm not in a good place right now.

Lithium Flower

02-24-2011, 04:10 PM

I kinda get the blues in the winter. It makes me more...blah feeling. I love the days where it's bright and sunny. The dark grey days like today are just..pleh. I've been feeling kinda lonesome at home the past few days. When you've been waking up to someone snuggling you in the morning for like a week and then you go back to waking up in bed alone it's kind of jarring how drastic of a change it is.

My cat wont let me snuggle him though T__T stupid cat.

-pillow hug-
I did get a nice new hair cut tho

kiratsukai

02-24-2011, 05:57 PM

I'm so ready for spring.

That aside, I'm just peachy.

Lithium Flower

02-24-2011, 07:20 PM

I'm so ready for spring.

That aside, I'm just peachy.

SEE SEE WINTER IS LAME!

ashelia89

02-24-2011, 07:32 PM

SEE SEE WINTER IS LAME!

This times a thousand to the power of Scott Pilgrim vs The World.

I've been depressed many a time but I'm going to therapy to help me deal with that though,got self help books and most of all the want and need to lead a better spirit than "just being down"

CodeShogun

02-24-2011, 08:18 PM

I'm so ready for spring.

That aside, I'm just peachy.

I seconded this.

The winter is making me feeling bit.... bluish these days. X.X

Cadmium Polyphony

02-24-2011, 11:01 PM

I havent been depressed, but have been extremely irritable lately.

As for the season, I love winter. The sky above the fields near my work were blotched with various shades of grey; it looked like a watercolor expressionist painting.

Surreal, and beautiful.

nannyogg

02-24-2011, 11:11 PM

As for the season, I love winter. The sky above the fields near my work were blotched with various shades of grey; it looked like a watercolor expressionist painting.

Surreal, and beautiful.

That is the one thing that I do love about winter; the contrasts of the seasons and the beauty it casts on the landscape. Lately, the snow geese pass through here, and it's so lovely to see them speckled in a field, where patches of brown grass poke through, and the white of the geese blends with the white of what little snow is left, with the occasional speckle of a Canada goose. It's lovely.

ShortCutie

02-24-2011, 11:44 PM

Ya,depressed-ish. It always goes up and down, usually hiting hard in the winter. My mom keeps telling me I should talk to someone.

FinalEVA

02-25-2011, 01:57 AM

I think I have reverse SAD. I'm always feeling better in the winter than I do in the summer (which is why I liked living in Montana more than Texas like I do now).

For me, it's the summer heat that really gets me down alot. Usually between the summer term and the fall term in school is my worst moment.

IAmShorty

02-25-2011, 02:06 AM

I havent been depressed, but have been extremely irritable lately.

As for the season, I love winter. The sky above the fields near my work were blotched with various shades of grey; it looked like a watercolor expressionist painting.

Surreal, and beautiful.

I miss having a view like that. I moved to Arizona and discovered a sunny winter is veeery depressing.

Ritsu H Saotome

02-25-2011, 02:53 AM

I become very depressed on a dangerous level.

Axelai

02-25-2011, 05:06 AM

Just had one of those moments where your world crashes down on you, and you realize life sucks.

*sighs*

Aearon

02-25-2011, 06:15 AM

Don't teenagers have those every other week?

Lithium Flower

02-25-2011, 08:58 AM

I havent been depressed, but have been extremely irritable lately.

As for the season, I love winter. The sky above the fields near my work were blotched with various shades of grey; it looked like a watercolor expressionist painting.

Surreal, and beautiful.

That sounds beautiful.
The sky today is just...flat grey. Again.

It looks like someone took the color scheme out of the DMV and painted the sky with it -_-

kuroki-neko

02-25-2011, 05:43 PM

i have been feeling a tad good for the last few days but it gets worse now i feel really down and alone :(

Lennester

02-25-2011, 08:56 PM

I was depressed for about 2 years but ever since 2011 i've been doing much better. so much went on in my life though 2010. was the worst year for me ever...

lollydove

02-26-2011, 03:38 AM

I felt down today... beautiful summer day here in Oz, but I just felt kind of annoyed.
Didn't get to go to the Chinatown markets, Spotlight (fabric store) and I can't go to this ice skating event with my friends from my old school tonight since my mum's going out to dinner... Not to mention they're all talking it up on Facebook, and I'm kinda jelly :C (though one of them I don't really count as a friend, since when I slept over when I was 11 she told me she goes on porn sites and tried to show me a video... god, my eyes...) It kinda pisses me off that my friend's friends with this girl since she's really perverted, annoying online (meh, yeh, whatevah etc. gets really anoying) and doesn't give a crap about anything. e_o;;

Yukikittie

02-26-2011, 01:51 PM

Don't teenagers have those every other week?
REALLY uncalled for. .___.
If someone's depressed and can't seem to snap out of it, regardless of age, it's pretty serious and they should ask for help from someone. Really, the only reason I've been mildly happy lately is because of my new medication.
I hate it when people stereotype depression in teens to be typical and an everyday thing. Because it's not. .___.

Cadmium Polyphony

02-26-2011, 04:49 PM

That sounds beautiful.
The sky today is just...flat grey. Again.

It looks like someone took the color scheme out of the DMV and painted the sky with it -_-

I like that analogy.

Today, the grey has all but left the sky, and been replaced with deep blue and marshmallows.

The beauty is such a stereotype.

SimplySabra

02-28-2011, 10:41 PM

Bleh, cosplay is my outlet for when I'm sad because it helps me not think about stuff. I'm just saddened, not depressed though. My best works come from these periods of slight sadness that last two weeks or more sometimes. I'd say ever since the end of Valentine's Day I've been really sad. I got swept off my feet only to slam back to reality with other issues and burdens and other people trying to make me feel like crap. XD It'll all pay off for the next convention I go to though with my cosplay!

Neko Minaue

03-01-2011, 12:57 AM

This mixed with homesickness since the second week of July last year. I really miss my friends back home, and the relatives and cousins here aren't treating well, ditching me or ignoring me and being superficial towards me and only kissing my family's ass for money they need but just spend it on designer items. The relatives don't feel like a family. My friends back home were more of a family. Even my parents agree. My depression got worse during December due to being stuck at my relatives' houses (who never cleans and it's full of mold, weevils, cobwebs, dust, and their dogs weewee pads everywhere) during the holidays and it being Winter. Winter used to be a happy season for me, but later on in my life I've just gotten depressed from it and that there's some big fight going on during that time for a reason. And through most of the time spent here since I didn't get a lot of college classes I've mostly clean because my dad couldn't clean properly and had to help out mom. I'm doing a bit better, but I realized ever since coming here I've just been cleaning. I rarely spent money for myself. I had to buy myself new clothes for the weather here, and my dad would just use his money to buy frivolous and useless items in trying to one-up the relatives and made me end up not buying my regular manga and video game flow. So now I've been a bit irritable having the need for my regular manga flow and video games.

Alyxiane

03-01-2011, 01:01 AM

I just have no motivation to do ANYTHING. ... Idk. I'm also not feeling the cosplay "vibe" as I used to remember having. :/

daylight

03-01-2011, 01:26 AM

hmmm I woke up this morning and felt really awful

I had a dream that was perfectly happy, and fine, enjoyable even. but for some reason it really upset me

Megarush

03-01-2011, 05:46 PM

I've been down for a while now

The biggest chunk being career choice. Not only do I rarely have time to think about it, I don't see myself doing anything and my lack of decision is a real killer. Not knowing where I'm going in August bothers me and the due date to a good portion of the programs was today.

On top of that, I got so many school work and fixing problems that doing anything for fun(video games,cosplay,etc) is rare

many people say that speaking up would help me...just I wonder who would really listen to it

Emiko87

03-01-2011, 07:29 PM

I was told by the financial aid people at my college that I only had to have 6 credits to stay in the dorms, which was all I could afford since I didn't get a lot of financial aid this year. Then about 2 weeks into semester I got an email saying I had to be taking 9 credits to stay in the dorms, so I had to quickly get into another class, which I JUST barely managed to talk the prof into letting me in, and had a ton of wirk to catch up. So now I owe my college $3300, which I have to pay by the middle of May or I can't apply for summer classes = I can't live in the dorms = I will be living in my car over the summer. I had $1000 saved up for it, but then yesterday my car died on me and the mechanic told me that they will have to take the engine apart to see what is wrong, and if it's what he thinks it is it will cost AT LEAST every penny I have to fix. So I am back to square 1 with the debt, and my job is now cutting back my hours since business is slow. I was already looking for second jobs, because even at full hours I wouldn't have been able to earn the full amount in such a short time, even though I am spending only about $30/week, mostly on gas for the 30 minute round trip to and from work; I MUST get a second job within the next 2 weeks or I will have no chance whatsoever of not being homeless over the summer (and considering I live just outside Detroit, I realllly don't want this to happen.) In addition, I'm running behind in even the three classes I am taking because my job that I already have is from 4-9 in the morning, so I have to go to bed super early and thus miss out on a lot of homework time. I can't move home for the summer, because I will still have my one job here, and I have literally no one and nothing to fall back on in any way, shape or form. I'm putting up a cheerful face to my roommates so they won't worry about me, but it is getting really hard not to be like :bigcry:

Cadmium Polyphony

03-01-2011, 10:28 PM

Despite some anxieties earlier today, I was doing pretty well.

And then I read this:

I'm getting a sting-ray and a mimic octopus. The sting-ray is going to be named Pancake, and the mimic octopus will be Squiggles. We're going to take the stinger off the sting-ray though, we'll take it to my vet in town. x'DD

SecretSoliloquy

03-01-2011, 10:32 PM

^ *sigh* And my faith in humanity goes down yet another notch.

Lithium Flower

03-01-2011, 10:33 PM

Despite some anxieties earlier today, I was doing pretty well.

And then I read this:

That was kind of the best thing I've heard in a loooooong time.

Pancake and Squiggles <3

After many weeks of fretting and anger and horrible crippling bouts of depression I've been able to devise a way to move out of a horrible situation. It wont happen tomorrow. But the plans are in motion and I am trying my hardest.

Cadmium Polyphony

03-01-2011, 10:35 PM

That was kind of the best thing I've heard in a loooooong time.

Pancake and Squiggles <3

The names aren't what depressed me.

SecretSoliloquy

03-01-2011, 10:36 PM

That was kind of the best thing I've heard in a loooooong time.

Pancake and Squiggles <3

*blink blink* Wow.

EriBear18

03-02-2011, 01:02 AM

major emotional rolercoaster today... i'm glad i could get my mind off it fore the few hours i was at work

Orannis

03-02-2011, 10:08 AM

I've been dealing with depression for 7 years. Fluoxetine and Welbutrin help. Most of the time.

kuroki-neko

03-05-2011, 02:34 PM

i have beeen battling depression for years but like any big anime villian it does not die (or get destroyed as the disney nauro shippuden say) till a few seasons later :/

funny thing tho that just happened i got really mad at my mom for doing her usal "im better than u laugh" that she uses whenever i have a good idea or somthing big to say its really annoying but anyway i went over to work were ima alone and tryed to burn off some steam i never knew how mad i was but i was yelling and i sounded exactly like the english dub of vageta from dragon ball z

its funny how my mom thinks shes saying somthing good thats ok to say somtthing that wont get people mad but seeing how arrogant and stuck up she is it usaly does. and she acts surpirsed when i get mad at her -.- she thinks she so perfect. shes like chi chi from dragon ball z doesnt know a thing about her husband and son are dong but she feels she can stick her athority and take over anything she wants to even tho she does not know a thing about it. and oh yes she yell way more than chi chi does and she wonders why i get mad at her shes also like the mom from malcom in the middle just a control freak...

its hard enough the stress of planning a cosplay and making sure its done before the next con and such, but when she thinks she can step her athority into my terrioty she has another thing coming.

Lilyela

03-06-2011, 03:43 PM

I'm not depressed, I just have mood swings...often. That's just the way I am, I guess. But then I try to think positively all the time, because negative thinking is literally more dangerous than you could ever imagine.

Kildread

03-07-2011, 12:55 AM

Been feeling out of it most of the weekend, hit a pretty good low tonight.

Especially after taking a look at my work mail, yay, another week of solving issues caused by junior developer and doing technical specs for projects I hold no love for.

Oh well, cash.

(Gotta look at the bright side, a stream of puppies and flowers from the computer screen).

xSelanx

03-07-2011, 02:02 PM

Baaah. I know I've been battling depression for a few years now... I hit an all-time low back last June when I went in for what was supposed to be a simple surgery that got botched and I got stuck in the hospital for a month. I felt so helpless and alone... They gave me Paxil while I was there.
But my depression comes and goes... with the way this winter has been, I know it's affecting me up here in Maine, big time. Plus, my husband's been bugging me about making friends (even though I prefer to be alone), but we're moving in a few months, so it'd be kind of pointless. It's been hard ever since he's joined the navy.
I've been pretty down since the beginning of the year... Not many things to look forward to, but a lot of things I'm going to regret.

Lennester

03-07-2011, 06:43 PM

Baaah. I know I've been battling depression for a few years now... I hit an all-time low back last June when I went in for what was supposed to be a simple surgery that got botched and I got stuck in the hospital for a month. I felt so helpless and alone... They gave me Paxil while I was there.
But my depression comes and goes... with the way this winter has been, I know it's affecting me up here in Maine, big time. Plus, my husband's been bugging me about making friends (even though I prefer to be alone), but we're moving in a few months, so it'd be kind of pointless. It's been hard ever since he's joined the navy.
I've been pretty down since the beginning of the year... Not many things to look forward to, but a lot of things I'm going to regret.

I've been battling depression too espically when my mom pasted away from cancer this september if you do need a friend to talk to and trust me it really helps im here :) and i dont mind

Well then, I apologize if I reacted ill towards you from my misunderstanding of your joke, there.

Cheers.

Faith in humanity: restored

rubyspitfire

03-07-2011, 09:01 PM

facing a pretty serious case of defamation of character and libel, as well as public embarrassment at the hands of an ex-friend. i have mixed feelings of depression, disbelief, and a lot of anger

DireKitty

03-07-2011, 09:18 PM

facing a pretty serious case of defamation of character and libel, as well as public embarrassment at the hands of an ex-friend. i have mixed feelings of depression, disbelief, and a lot of anger

Well, here is a cute picture of my dog to cheer you up.
http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5054/5508146316_5d0161de41.jpg

Pillow whippet loves you.

SecretSoliloquy

03-07-2011, 09:20 PM

Your dog is so cute!

DireKitty

03-07-2011, 09:34 PM

Your dog is so cute!

Too cute sometimes. Like she she steals dryer sheet, and I take it away, and she looks like I just slapped her. I almost want to give the dryer sheet back.

But she isn't all looks, she is also a fierce battle whippet!
http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5298/5507556423_1c22c3152a.jpg
She fights for justice!

rubyspitfire

03-07-2011, 11:51 PM

Well, here is a cute picture of my dog to cheer you up.
http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5054/5508146316_5d0161de41.jpg

Pillow whippet loves you.

thanks. she's adorable :love:

nannyogg

03-08-2011, 12:05 AM

facing a pretty serious case of defamation of character and libel, as well as public embarrassment at the hands of an ex-friend. i have mixed feelings of depression, disbelief, and a lot of anger

Ouch, I am so sorry you are going through that. :( I experienced something along those lines about 9 years ago, when I was part of an organization in another hobby... I still apparently have active hate clubs out there. Back then it really tore me up, but now I'm just amused by the waste of their energy. What I learned was to keep my head up and keep my dignity- when confronted with a reasonable person and a raving lunatic, most people can figure out which is which (and if they can't, they aren't people you want in your life anyway).

ShinobiXikyu

03-08-2011, 12:15 AM

Sick of winter, and losing my job at the end of the month due to the store closing. So yeah, not in a great mood.

Big appleton

03-08-2011, 12:50 AM

just got back from a Physics midterm that i dodn't do that well, followed by a phone call from my parents who reminded me of their high expectations T.T
And to prepare for this test, I had to miss a release event for Pokemon Black abd White so I could study Q.Q

sam vimes

03-08-2011, 12:59 AM

http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5298/5507556423_1c22c3152a.jpg
She fights for justice!

Does she whippet good?

Whippet real good?

DireKitty

03-08-2011, 10:10 AM

Sick of winter, and losing my job at the end of the month due to the store closing. So yeah, not in a great mood.
Oh noes!

That really sucks. I'm seeing so many places closing down recently. I'm jobless now, and not many places are hiring. Plus i'm in school, so my availability is limited, some places only want full time. Been without a job since January. =(

Does she whippet good?

Whippet real good?

Yes, yes she does. She is also the great destroyer of all dog toys.

xSelanx

03-08-2011, 10:31 AM

I've been battling depression too espically when my mom pasted away from cancer this september if you do need a friend to talk to and trust me it really helps im here :) and i dont mind

Well then, I apologize if I reacted ill towards you from my misunderstanding of your joke, there.

Cheers.

Faith in humanity: restored

All is well because your avatar involves Colbert. <3

PixieRisa

03-08-2011, 11:28 PM

Every 15 Minutes started today at my school. If you don't know what it is it's basically a simulation that every 15 minutes someone dies from a drunk-driving accident... Two upperclassmen that I'm close to were taken away. And tomorrow's the funeral ;__;

Alyxiane

03-08-2011, 11:33 PM

Every 15 Minutes started today at my school. If you don't know what it is it's basically a simulation that every 15 minutes someone dies from a drunk-driving accident... Two upperclassmen that I'm close to were taken away. And tomorrow's the funeral ;__;

Aiyahh. They did that at my old school last year. I barely knew many of the people "dead" but I still got in tears by the funeral. ;______;

lemonskeletons

03-08-2011, 11:50 PM

I feel like I'm going to break any second. Ugh.

Miyabi-

03-09-2011, 12:20 AM

Ugh..midterms. 'Nuff said. :hafha:

A.F.S. 1984

03-09-2011, 12:25 AM

Every 15 Minutes started today at my school. If you don't know what it is it's basically a simulation that every 15 minutes someone dies from a drunk-driving accident... Two upperclassmen that I'm close to were taken away. And tomorrow's the funeral ;__;

I wonder if there is actual studies that have been done that show programs like these prevent drunk driving. I remember the one we had, and though I didnt drink, if I did I probably would not have stopped. The whole thing was just a bit too over engineered to bring on sadness for my liking.

I bet if anyone ever did any real research on the matter, it would die just like the DARE program did when researchers found that the system's "just say no" campaign actually increased the chances of a kid doing drugs.

In regards to the Every 15 Minutes program (ours was called shattered dreams) I would predict any publicity and focus that a negative (that could be argued) idea receives serves as the planting of a seed in peoples minds, especially young adolescents. That seed of thought may lead to things that would not have occurred had there not been the initial exposure.

What I am trying to say is:
If there is a button that says do not push, would you push it?

Axelai

03-09-2011, 05:00 AM

Tonight. I'm up late, so naturally I'm feeling kind of bleh. Especially since the reason I'm up late is that I was woken up from a text message of a friend pissed at me.

Fixed that problem.

Then... well. I couldn't fall asleep. And slowly, things went into a downwards spiral.

[BUHLEETED cuz the two people im complaining about go on this site]

x-Steffi-x

03-09-2011, 05:12 AM

Depressed that I don't have a job and all my friends are easily getting them. Ugh, I do everything right in an interview and still don't get a job, I mean what do these people expect from me? I've got good grades, got the experience!

One previous interview I managed to get a second interview, didn't get the job (unsurprisingly) and they gave it to a girl who was so stupid. I got served by her one day and she was like "The till isn't working!!!!!!" and a staff member said that she hadn't pressed the total button.
Omg... How hard is it to work a till, I got experience with handling money and actually WORKING a till and I didn't get the job? Really?

Fml.

KamiNeko371

03-10-2011, 02:39 AM

I've definitely been depressed lately... it must be in the air.

Truthfully, spring is always hard for me due to loved ones I've lost during this season in years past. But I am depressed whether or not I am reflecting on those losses. Doodie :(

I hope you feel better soon...

Ineedaname9

03-10-2011, 03:43 AM

My mom is going into a tough spot right now. She's disabled, mentally and physically...

Anyway, she blames me for...pretty much anything. Never taking any responsiblity for herself... Like she spilt juice on the laptop I bought her while I'm at school, it's my fault for buying it from Sam's Club.

This has been happening since I turned 18, I was ill prepared to take on my mothers problems as soon as I turned 18. She was perfectly fine when I was 17. Two weeks before my b-day she lost her job, which explains things a lot. But how does a mother tell their daughter 'I hate you' when she has never said or expressed that before?

It has been a year now since that incident and it still gets to me. She said 'sorry' and that she really didn't mean it. But what if that is how she feels about me and she won't admit to it? My Stepfather threatened to kick her out of the house if she said that again. But he said that then went to cry in the bathroom.

It's very depressing to see the second family you've ever had break apart because of you.
(First with my real Dad and Mom, second Real mom and Stepdad)

DireKitty

03-10-2011, 08:11 AM

My mom is going into a tough spot right now. She's disabled, mentally and physically...

Anyway, she blames me for...pretty much anything. Never taking any responsiblity for herself... Like she spilt juice on the laptop I bought her while I'm at school, it's my fault for buying it from Sam's Club.

This has been happening since I turned 18, I was ill prepared to take on my mothers problems as soon as I turned 18. She was perfectly fine when I was 17. Two weeks before my b-day she lost her job, which explains things a lot. But how does a mother tell their daughter 'I hate you' when she has never said or expressed that before?

It has been a year now since that incident and it still gets to me. She said 'sorry' and that she really didn't mean it. But what if that is how she feels about me and she won't admit to it? My Stepfather threatened to kick her out of the house if she said that again. But he said that then went to cry in the bathroom.

It's very depressing to see the second family you've ever had break apart because of you.
(First with my real Dad and Mom, second Real mom and Stepdad)

Well they aren't breaking apart because of you, it's their own issues that they are dealing with. Is she seeing a psychologist at all?

nannyogg

03-10-2011, 08:17 AM

Well they aren't breaking apart because of you, it's their own issues that they are dealing with. Is she seeing a psychologist at all?

I second that. She is the parent, you are the child. Adults are the ones who are supposed to take the responsibility in the relationship with their children. That she can't reflects her own issues, NOT You. Just because she blames you doesn't make it your fault. If you weren't there, she'd be blaming someone else.

zoeoviedo

03-10-2011, 01:10 PM

its the weather man, it always happens to me too. as much as I love the cold weather, I am miserable in my mind. the summer I'm just in such high spirits. lol things are going good right now too but I always find things to be sadd about ugh.

Kotatsuni

03-10-2011, 03:46 PM

its the weather man, it always happens to me too. as much as I love the cold weather, I am miserable in my mind. the summer I'm just in such high spirits. lol things are going good right now too but I always find things to be sadd about ugh.

I second this 100%.
can't wait for summmerrr.

rubyspitfire

03-11-2011, 03:57 AM

I second that. She is the parent, you are the child. Adults are the ones who are supposed to take the responsibility in the relationship with their children. That she can't reflects her own issues, NOT You. Just because she blames you doesn't make it your fault. If you weren't there, she'd be blaming someone else.

THIS

also just because she blames you, doesn't mean you have to blame yourself, whether you are there or not

alpha_helix

03-11-2011, 08:58 AM

I second that. She is the parent, you are the child. Adults are the ones who are supposed to take the responsibility in the relationship with their children. That she can't reflects her own issues, NOT You. Just because she blames you doesn't make it your fault. If you weren't there, she'd be blaming someone else.

QFT, this bears repeating

In other news, I got a prescription for Celexa yesterday. Hopefully this will help me get through my thesis without wanting to die. Also, hopefully my body won't have such a hard time adjusting to it like I did with the other SSRI I was on several years ago. I did wake up with an upset stomach, but that could be unrelated.

xSelanx

03-12-2011, 01:08 PM

The sun is shining beautifully outside, and I noticed actual green grass outside, now that most of our snow has finally melted. It's brightened my spirits a little bit, knowing that warmer weather is right around the corner... I could definitely use it.

x-Steffi-x

03-12-2011, 01:09 PM

I'm depressed. Part of my gingerbread man fell on the floor T_T

I am so sad. In all connotations.

Well, at least I'm not depressed about jobs anymore, I'm looking vastly again and having hopes.

kuroki-neko

03-12-2011, 03:50 PM

its funny whenever i or anyones feeling good my mom hsa go go and make eeryonme feel horible

EriBear18

03-12-2011, 05:02 PM

how do you deal with being unsure of your feelings for someone you've been dating for 4 years?

nannyogg

03-12-2011, 07:54 PM

its funny whenever i or anyones feeling good my mom hsa go go and make eeryonme feel horible

This (http://www.amazon.com/Cutting-Loose-Adults-Coming-Parents/dp/0671696041/ref=pd_sim_b_4) needs to go on your reading list.

fullbleed

03-12-2011, 08:00 PM

More and more of my friends are bipolar, it's a bit odd. I'm actually much happier this year than I was last year, possibly because I'm now the normal one in my group.

ShinobiXikyu

03-12-2011, 11:43 PM

I have another month at work (AGAIN. Like, are we ACTUALLY going to close, or not?)...but it fucked all my plans for April up. ANd I got all evening shifts for next week, whichis nice in that I can sleep in, but not nice in that it's hard to do anything before work and I can't do anything after work...

sicdedman

03-12-2011, 11:51 PM

I'm a little Depressed, I am moving at the end of this Month and I am not sure where to...
(sigh) work has been a pain to find this last year, have been in Construction for 12 years but the last 2 years there has been no work. have filled out 40-50 Apps and people say they are hiring but they never contact me back with interviews ect.. (Sigh)

Auburn_Kitty

03-13-2011, 03:48 PM

I'm not sue what to do with my life. I've been out of high school for about 5 years now and I've been working part time in a small town. I have no car right now cause I don't make enough money. I have a savings account to put money away and it's slowly getting there. I'm engaged to someone wonderful but, he doesn't have a job right now and I feel like things are hopeless sometimes. I don't know what I should do about my life and it's a hard choice. I just don't know what things I can do for myself anymore. He supports any choice I will make and keeps telling me he'll love me no matter what. I feel the same to but, I still have no idea what to do with myself or my life ahead.

nannyogg

03-13-2011, 04:02 PM

I'm not sue what to do with my life. I've been out of high school for about 5 years now and I've been working part time in a small town. I have no car right now cause I don't make enough money. I have a savings account to put money away and it's slowly getting there. I'm engaged to someone wonderful but, he doesn't have a job right now and I feel like things are hopeless sometimes. I don't know what I should do about my life and it's a hard choice. I just don't know what things I can do for myself anymore. He supports any choice I will make and keeps telling me he'll love me no matter what. I feel the same to but, I still have no idea what to do with myself or my life ahead.

What did you ever used to dream of doing? If you could remove barriers, what things would interest you?

Yukikittie

03-13-2011, 07:15 PM

I can say, for the most part, that I am not very depressed anymore. My medication has now completely settled in and works wonderfully. It's side effects of insomnia, dizzyness, and loss of appetite are starting to fade too. Even my family has noticed the change in me.
Hooray for my psychiatrist's correct diagnosis. <3

Auburn_Kitty

03-15-2011, 01:12 AM

What did you ever used to dream of doing? If you could remove barriers, what things would interest you?

Art. Drawing. Anime. Manga. Things like that. I've been thinking about going to college at Sheridan in Ontario for art. It's a long sorry why I have shut art out of my life for so long (since high school). I haven't picked up a pencil since pretty much. u_u I'm going to be going out tomorrow and picking some stuff up and start trying to draw again. If I enjoy it as much as I remember I might go to school. :3 I'm more into dance and things like that now but, it's my life path to do art. n_n

noctiluca

03-15-2011, 02:21 AM

I don't think I'm depressed, but lately I've been feeling... I dunno, down? I've been internalizing a lot of my worries and end up being overly testy and sensitive... and it's kind of ruining my relationship with my family. The 'tsundere' personality does NOT go over well IRL, believe me. o_o

I'm trying to get over it but it's really tough for me to communicate anything that isn't superficial through speaking. The words just don't come out right and it leads to a misunderstanding. Even though I've been going to therapy and have been "getting over it" on the outside, I'm still really deeply hurt by the loss of my friend.

I still do have one other friend who I've known forever (and I'm grateful for that) but I can't open up to her, at least not about this. I don't want her to feel isolated because I probably had a much stronger bond with this girl I'd only known for a few years and it seems like every little thing in my life reminds me of her because we were so close. She made me feel like I was needed, and now I feel like there's a part of me missing because no one depends on me anymore. I know it's kinda weird, especially because she was like the big sister figure who made me open up, not the other way around. But even though I felt like I had nothing to offer it was such a special feeling that just "being there" was good enough.

Sorry, I ended up ranting. It always feels easier to tell the world my issues instead of confiding in people I know.

rubyspitfire

03-15-2011, 04:11 AM

more frustration than depression, and going along with the unemployed theme here...

i had a lead on a job where they were going to hire me for the 5 hours a day my kid is in preschool, all i needed to do was go in, fill out an app, and talk to the owner (who my parents and i know personally) which i was going to do tomorrow since he said he would be there. when i went to pick up my son today, there was a note in his folder stating that because of my lack of work, he would be moved to the afternoon half-day class starting tomorrow. this is the first i've heard about it, and now i'm in a position where i may as well not even bother trying to get a job, because the place i was going to work will hire me for 5 hours a day, but not 3. even if i go ahead and get the job, my son will likely not get his spot in the full-day class back

there are 2 months left for this year, and my son is going to kindergarten next year. the teachers know how to handle him and he has friends in that class, so why are they screwing up his routine when all they have done for the last 2 school years is stress the importance of having a stable routine, especially since he doesn't handle change well? the teachers agree with me, but the people in the office feed me the line of "we have procedures we have to follow, too bad for you"

government funded preschool, i hate you. i'm now in a situation where i can't get a job no matter how hard i try, because i have no reliable babysitter and can't afford daycare. if my son didn't have friends in that school, i would pull him out first thing in the morning and tell them "f*ck your funding, that's one less head you're getting paid for"

Sissy

07-22-2011, 08:12 PM

I'm bored today, and being bored makes me depressed. I'll see if I can do anything to make the rest of my day somewhat exciting -___-;;

Ragtime Mouth

07-22-2011, 08:26 PM

Yes, but I'm bipolar.. so it's all over the place. I take medication for my fibromyalgia, and it helps with my mood a lot, too. If I do get really down, it's usually for a legitimate reason.

I use the word "down" because people misuse "depressed" when they're truly just very down. I have to separate those feeling, because it's just confusing to say you're depressed to someone.. when you're just down. Depressed for me is not wanting to move, unable to cry, or care about things I hold very dear to me, sometimes go mute, sometimes on a verge of suicide. I suggest anyone try and separate the two emotions, it makes it easier to think in moderation for yourself. If you're down, you can at least say "Okay, I'm just down, I haven't lost all hope." even if you feel awful. It's just something to help mentally.

kiratsukai

07-22-2011, 08:31 PM

I woke up and cried this morning. Mostly because I had a TERRIBLE headache from being hung over two days in a row... >.< But hey, depression might play a wee role.

I really feel that the best days of my life are coming to a close and now I need to accept second-best days full of aging and making difficult decisions about marriages, careers, sexuality and breeding.

That said -- I am now having coffee, eating toast and getting dressed to go have coffee, lunch at a fancy hotel, and then hop a ferry to a gorgeous island to go swimming with 4 fabulous friends who are all in the same boat and probably cried this morning from goodbye-party-hangovers, too.

Jellyfish stings make everything else seem minor ^^

BRING IT ON, JELLIES! TONIGHT WE DANCE IN HELL!!!!

ShinobiXikyu

07-22-2011, 10:29 PM

I'm just frustrated as fuck. I haven't had a job since the end of April, and 50+ job applications haven't even yielded a SINGLE call back for an interview, even for ones I was damn well qualified for.
And no matter how much I exercise at the gym and how little I eat, I haven't lost a millimetre or a pound that's stayed off and I'm geting damn frustrated. I don't even have a giant goal, I just want to get down from almost 150 to under 140 and lose stomach and thigh fat. Fuck, the gym doesn't work. I need to go back to martial arts, but have zero funds for it. And I'm stuck in an auto-renewed contract at the gym too, where cancelling my membership before the next end of June would be several hundred more than I can afford...

KitoCosplay

07-22-2011, 10:32 PM

That's odd, I forget the last time I felt depressed

Kyuushin

07-22-2011, 11:22 PM

i get sad when i have to deal with misunderstanding and stupid people...or my parents. i don't like my parents. but then manga makes me happy. and they keep wondering why i spend all my time on the internet instead of with them.

A.F.S. 1984

07-23-2011, 12:46 AM

yes. If it were not for my few familial obligations I doubt I would stick around. It is like my life has been boiled down into do something that people will remember you for or GTFO. I dont buy into the "American Dream" of obtaining wealth, or of getting married and "settling down" so where does that leave me? Its like I am waiting for my defining moment that may happen tomorrow, or in another 30 years. I wish it would happen tomorrow so that I can fulfill my purpose because I dont want to wait a lifetime.

Nathus Dorkus

07-23-2011, 11:22 AM

I don't really understand how one can be "depressed lately."

I don't understand how depression can be experienced as a momentary mood?

Ragtime Mouth

07-23-2011, 05:10 PM

I can't speak for anyone else, but "depressed lately" could just be "as of recently", you're not born depressed. But, this is why I often just use the word "down", depressed is far to severe of a word for feeling a bit low one day.

SeakunDesuyo

07-31-2011, 07:48 PM

Oh believe me, it's not just you.

I have autism, and from my autism, I developed PTSD, depression, anxiety, and a bunch of other crap. I'm on Welbutrin, which helps me not to off myself, but that's pretty much it. Not a lot helps with autism.

linkthepig

08-01-2011, 01:22 AM

My parents just broke up so i've been pretty depressed :(

Faii

08-01-2011, 01:33 AM

Yeah. :(
I'm hoping my new medication will help.

It could be because it's winter? My Mom gets the same way around this time. If your depression starts to get serious though then please talk to someone about it.

Responding to an old post.

Did you know that when your body lacks vitamin D you are more likely to get depressed?
And when do you lack vitamin D....In the winter of course! Less sun = less vitamin D. o:

The Seventh Sea

08-01-2011, 02:08 AM

I'm more pissed off than depressed. You know how some people wish they had the ability to just reach through the computer screen and beat the shit out of someone to an inch of their life? Yeah, that's how I feel right now.

eBay Sniper

08-01-2011, 02:30 AM

Responding to an old post.

Did you know that when your body lacks vitamin D you are more likely to get depressed?
And when do you lack vitamin D....In the winter of course! Less sun = less vitamin D. o:

I wish that was the case for me, becuase I get depressed during the summer. Unfortunatly, my past 2 years of my life, I have been in an endless summer for being stationed out here in South California.

Nathus Dorkus

08-01-2011, 03:29 AM

I can't speak for anyone else, but "depressed lately" could just be "as of recently", you're not born depressed. But, this is why I often just use the word "down", depressed is far to severe of a word for feeling a bit low one day.

To clarify, I meant what I said because depression is a serious medical condition, as oppose to a 'mood.'

I think that 'depression' is way too strong of a word that is repeatedly misused by people. 3: Though, at the same time, I highly doubt that anyone intends to misuse it. (So, yeah, your latter statement. <3)

Cadmium Polyphony

08-01-2011, 03:41 AM

People can be depressed without having depression.

Nathus Dorkus

08-01-2011, 03:50 AM

People can be depressed without having depression.

But the vast majority of the time, people are probably using too strong a word.

eBay Sniper

08-01-2011, 03:50 AM

theres two type of depression: Medical Depression, in which there is a physical inbalance of chemicals in your body that can actually be fixed by happy pills. And then there is the depression that can only be cured by fixing the problem that caused the depression, not by happy pills.

I've been seeing some docs now myself and that is what I have gathered, and actually makes sense.

Nathus Dorkus

08-01-2011, 03:56 AM

theres two type of depression: Medical Depression, in which there is a physical inbalance of chemicals in your body that can actually be fixed by happy pills. And then there is the depression that can only be cured by fixing the problem that caused the depression, not by happy pills.

I've been seeing some docs now myself and that is what I have gathered, and actually makes sense.

Uh.

I'm afraid that that isn't correct.

Depression is a mental illness - some people experience simply depression which can be either long-term or short-term, or they can experience Clinical Depression which is long-term. Anti-depressants (usually SSRIs) exist to help keep your head above the water, but they do not fix anything. They are not a cure, they cannot fix a chemical imbalance, but they can help.

There is no specific "cure" for depression, but anti-depressants must be alongside some form of counselling or similar psychological treatment. So another option is to fight the route cause solely without the aid of medication, through counselling and the like.

Depression can come in all shapes and sizes, and what works is down to each individual.

Momoko Peach

08-01-2011, 04:01 AM

Not depressed... more nervous to start high school cuz I'm not book-smart.... which means I'm not gonna get into colleges... which means less job opportunities...

blah

PutPutters

08-01-2011, 08:13 AM

I'm kinda depressed. It really depends on whether or not the weather wants to b*tchslap me. Lol. Despite being born and raised for the majority of my life in CALIFORNIA, THE SUNNY STATE, I get really bad nosebleeds during the summer and can't handle heat/humidity (east coast GRR). When Autumn and Winter come, I'll be good though. :3

leeleeleelee

08-01-2011, 10:10 AM

My girlfriend has been out of the country for the past 3 days and isn't due back for another 3. It doesn't seem like a long time on paper, but this is the longest we've spent apart in 2 years. This weekend was crazy boring without her.

ShinobiXikyu

08-01-2011, 08:32 PM

Not depressed... more nervous to start high school cuz I'm not book-smart.... which means I'm not gonna get into colleges... which means less job opportunities...

blah

That's bull. There's plenty of ways to make a career you love without the standard college/university experience. People are SCREAMING for skilled trades of every kind (carpentry, electricians, plumbing, constuction, drafting, mechanics, everything that involves working with your hands. Even seamstresses are in demand, and hairdressing and esthetics also counts as a skilled trade), and you normally do those through apprenticeship and co-op programs, so you're not sitting around in classrooms all day.
Performing arts? If you're talented enough, it can be done (though for the extra polish/edge, I always recommend classical training, which usually does require some college or such).
Internships can lead to excellent jobs or experience for a future job.
There's obviously the "dead-end" style jobs too that require little education, but there's also an opportunity to go from something like a retail associate to a store manager if you're devoted enough.

And if it's JUST high schoolthat's worrying you, there's also plenty of ways to get equivalent credits, like co-ops.

I'll cite my Mom as an example. Mom isn't a bookish person, and she never went to college. She instead found a love for carpentry, painting and generally fixing things, and a hatred for contractors that do half-assed work. She currently owns and operates a sucessful "all-trades" business and has done fantastic work overthe last decade on all kinds of structures, including town halls and historic buildings. And now she's expanding into home and mould inspections.

Cadmium Polyphony

08-01-2011, 08:40 PM

But the vast majority of the time, people are probably using too strong a word.

Maybe, and maybe not. People feel strongly about a lot of things.

Far be it from anyone outside of whom is actually experiencing the emotion, to determine whether or not the severity of the expression of the emotion is valid.

Ragtime Mouth

08-02-2011, 08:32 AM

Using other words rather then "depression" to express negative feeling doesn't always mean it's less severe.

If someone has a chemically imbalanced long episode of depression, that's one thing, this doesn't mean your horrid feeling lately (with or without reason) is any less acute or serious. It's just an expression, thus sometimes it's easier to communicate (and help recover and better understand yourself) when you can separate your ill feelings into a broader variety of words. :) We're lucky enough to have speech, or else I'd just be hitting my husband with a rock and squawking. See, if I hit him with poo, it means angry.

It helps me, even though I take medication, since half of taking medication is working with it. Not just hoping it makes it all better alone.

Sybren117

08-02-2011, 12:28 PM

this looks like an uplifting thread. a feel-good romp for the whole family.

If your actually suffering from depression, seek professional help. Don't get drawn into a 'who-can-be-more-emo' online forum debate. Because given the nature of internet social interaction, that is all you will get.

SecretSoliloquy

08-02-2011, 12:35 PM

Thank you! Sheesh.

Ragtime Mouth

08-02-2011, 09:33 PM

this looks like an uplifting thread. a feel-good romp for the whole family.

If your actually suffering from depression, seek professional help. Don't get drawn into a 'who-can-be-more-emo' online forum debate. Because given the nature of internet social interaction, that is all you will get.

Yes, seek professional help (that you may or not be able to afford), go through 100's of hoops of side-effects of many drugs till you find one that works. And don't socialize or try and find some sort of common ground to relate to with people within your own hobbies/job to feel less alone with some struggle. Perhaps this isn't that place to go on about it, but not everyone is an attention seeking emo out for winning the most "depwessing" sob story.
Not every debate is even about something negative or just having pity on one another. It can general opinions, advice, or just an uplifting tidbit about who someone else got through the same situation in X way.

Example- ShinobiXikyu earlier reply to someone who was upset about the careers that might not be available to her, and will be stuck in a dead end.

zizi994

08-03-2011, 02:15 PM

I was actually diagnosed with depression when I was 11. I was going to two therapist, one private and one group therapy at school. I dressed in all-black and called myself "emo." (So cool, I know.) I thought my life was so horrible but then I realized through group therapy that people had it waaay worse off than me and they were whining a lot less than I was. Then I was part of a program that involved learning problem-solving. By the time I was done with 6th grade I was over myself.

Since then I've had two or three much less severe spouts of depression. I'll be 17 in a few months.

And just like everyone else is saying, get professional help if you are seriously considering suicide. Contemplating suicide often is a pretty tell-tale sign that you have depression and you should probably get a diagnosis. Honestly I don't trust anti-depressants because my mom's been on them on my whole life and they never helped her, plus I never took them and I was just fine, but I know someone that's been on them since he was a kid and he's just fine. (Though that's another reason I wouldn't take them; you have to take them forever and if you ever actually do get off them you may have a relapse and not to mention the withdrawal symptoms are worse than the depression itself.) If you get the right therapist though it can work wonders. If that's not your thing get some sort of support system--every bit helps.

Also if it helps, if you seem to just be moody all the time for no reason (and you're a chick,) birth control can help. I've been on it for a few months now and everyone I know well has noticed a marked difference in my mood since I started it.

IAmShorty

08-03-2011, 06:46 PM

Ive had little spouts of depression since I was about 10 or 11....or so. I had probably my most severe bout of depression from the end of last year to the beginning of this year. But my mood has been greatly improving since then. :)

~*Vash*~

08-05-2011, 10:53 AM

yes i am depressed i am out of ice cold water and i don't have a dollar

Number15

08-06-2011, 11:21 AM

Frequently. It's not clynical depression or anything, I'm just very anxious and lonely feeling because everyone is always busy and I haven't seen my husband in 3 months with 3 more husbandless moths to go.

I'm a sad and I'm sadding.

FuntomKitten

08-07-2011, 08:07 PM

Also if it helps, if you seem to just be moody all the time for no reason (and you're a chick,) birth control can help. I've been on it for a few months now and everyone I know well has noticed a marked difference in my mood since I started it.

Ahh, thank you for this! *_* I really need to look into it...Cause I've been moody for quite a good number of years now, and it's really starting to get to me. (To the point I've considered suicide...just once.) I just don't know if my mom would brush it off as a stupid superstition, or if I'd be too young to have it prescribed to me and whatnot...Don't really like being young. :/
EDIT: Ugh...it only makes it worse that I'm very insecure, have no friends remotely able to be there for me without going through a very complicated process of parent permission, and that 1 in 10 times do I get to talk to said friends online for more than ten minutes without one of them leaving...

LoliLovely

08-07-2011, 08:10 PM

Well, I suffer from depression and take medication for it. But sadly I still have bursts of it, like this week/ returning. I go out and do things that make me happy and then I'm all good again :)

sazumebachi

09-06-2011, 03:20 AM

I think everyone suffers from some sort of deppresion i know i have a deppresive disorder

RinoaShadow

09-06-2011, 03:35 AM

Generally, everyone's depressed for some reason or another I think... Some have it worse though (in regards to the degree of depression... not the reason, I mean.)
It's probably the reason we don't notice happiness as easily and we notice sadness in ourselves. Sadness burries and cancels out all the happy in our lives (the way I see it at least :S)... In my time of depresion (mostly because of a desire not to move out of my one and only house and have some random new family come live in it while we go live in some place that'll never be the same as home.) I try and dig up the happy somehow and burry the depression.

Firefly77

09-06-2011, 02:06 PM

I have been lately, but I think it's mostly due to personal stuff that I've been going through, topped off by the fact that I don't feel like I'm doing anything with my life. All the things that I would like to be doing require money, which I don't usually have enough of to spare.

Noxxion

09-06-2011, 02:22 PM

It's all about connection. Make good, genuine, trustworthy friends and you will find it very difficult to ever feel sad. You also need to learn to love yourself no matter what. Those two things lead to a truely happy lifestyle. The only part that sucks is the first thing because a friend like that is hard to come by these days...

But hey, if anyone needs someone to talk to feel free to PM me. I'm a good listener. ^_^

Diayu

09-06-2011, 02:30 PM

Everyone gets down so don't fret about it :) Cheer up and smile :)

BlondieSundae

09-06-2011, 02:41 PM

yea....i hate boys they suck >.<

Mycroftwave

09-06-2011, 03:23 PM

Borderline Personality Disorder. Says it all.

SpiffyPoptarts

09-06-2011, 06:03 PM

Mehh I'm always a little depressed... It's worse right now though because there a lot of changes going on in my personal life. :/

Kendama Master

09-06-2011, 09:04 PM

I guess I can say I am mostly because I'm trying to deal with somethings and I know it will take sometime, but I know its just one step at a time. I have motivation to get there so I will.

LoliLovely

09-06-2011, 09:05 PM

Woah. I just realized I was the OP of this thread O_O

But I'm sorry you all feel so depressed :( I hope you feel better, lemme know if I can help <3

sazumebachi

09-07-2011, 12:53 AM

how do you guys get out of your deppression? or i calll it 'Funk' I put on music and dancing like an idiot! <3 and sometimes if you stare in the mirorr long enough you start to laugh at your self >_>(hope i don't sound to immature.) or taking a walk or bike riding helps!

SpiffyPoptarts

09-07-2011, 01:18 AM

MUSIC. Definitely music. Or I read a book or watch a stupid movie like Jackass or something :P

ShinobiXikyu

09-07-2011, 01:20 AM

I play something from my huge collection of Monty Python or listen to some ridiculously upbeat music, on my end. Providing it's just a minor "Ick, I feel lousy" mood, not a BIG issue/real concrete reason to feel awful and needs to be resolved or it'll stay that way.

f0xySn1p3r

09-07-2011, 07:31 PM

I'v been deppressed for the last year and a half >_< I don't really remember what it feels like to truly 'laugh' anymore.....Maby it's because my parents can't get along and are ALWAYS hating on each other (the don't even live in the same state 0_0),maby it's because of this horrible economy and the stress it's bringing....I don't know the cause but I DO know that I'm tired of life but I'm to stubborn to end it XD

kuroki-neko

09-07-2011, 07:58 PM

people have been bringing up my past on there and back then i was pretty bad but now im better like zuko from avatar the last airbender. its really sad when they have to hurt people to make themsleves fell anything. but when my dad died on the 20 of aug i did not feel a thing.

LoliLovely

09-08-2011, 08:42 PM

I feel lonely.

Lonefox

09-09-2011, 04:27 AM

I feel lonely.

...but everyone here thinks you're awesome ^^

LoliLovely

09-09-2011, 06:40 AM

...but everyone here thinks you're awesome ^^

Aww thank you.

fersuregrawr

09-13-2011, 05:10 PM

My moms friend and kid are living with us for a long while and it has been about 2 weeks since they have been here. I have less than a closet of stuff that is actually mine while i have my personal space invaded 24/7 due to the fact that i do online school. Its just getting my really stressed and down. I dont like it at all. :C Im not good with people and i dislike kids so this sucks bad.

TheRedRaven

09-14-2011, 09:03 PM

I hate all my real friends. I just can't stand them anymore. No one else in school wants me near them...
I'm sad...

Durroa

09-18-2011, 12:58 AM

I've been quite off, friend was off herself and found someone. Problem is it seems like she
forgot who I was as a person, and wrote me off as another guy on the street who can't do
a thing. I lost a good friend who I liked to talk to, nothing more nothing less.

aiyua

09-18-2011, 06:45 AM

I can't tell if I'm bi, straight, or a lesbian.

...OK, definitely not straight. But lately... girls have been grossing me out. Or rather, the idea of having sex with them. And I'm also in love with a guy (though I don't necessarily want to pursue a relationship). I'm so torn... and at the same time, I don't even -want- a girlfriend. I'm worried I'm addicted to the computer.

Also, schoolwork's been piling up since I've been too distracted to finish it. Now I've got two weeks of homework and missing classwork to make up in one day (which also happens to be the day of my party).

... *sigh*

kuroki-neko

09-18-2011, 03:45 PM

i wonder what ill be like when im older, all my life girls my age at least or even close never payed any attention to me. and now that im 20 i feel like i missed out on something, sure im still a virgin but im not going to waste it or anything. its just for once id like to feel wanted to feel like i fit in to feel attractive for once for real because its just sad when i put all this effort into looking good and come with nothing. id love for once to have some real life friends that won't rub thier love lives in my face or just brag about their "lower chocobo".

i just feel out of place to the point where im not accepted by ehtir the overly sexual youth or the mature adultness. i just don't fit in, maybe im ment to be different.

Cadmium Polyphony

09-18-2011, 03:56 PM

how do you guys get out of your deppression? or i calll it 'Funk' I put on music and dancing like an idiot! <3 and sometimes if you stare in the mirorr long enough you start to laugh at your self >_>(hope i don't sound to immature.) or taking a walk or bike riding helps!

Late to this, but yeah I find exercise to be the best cure for emotional setbacks.

I'm finding myself falling into a funk on the count of it's my girlfriend's birthday and I cant spend it with her.

BlondieSundae

09-18-2011, 04:00 PM

Doing something I like/is fun tends to help me get out of it.

Music is included, but I also think reading helps me, and making cosplay stuff and working on certain hobbies.

Cadmium Polyphony

09-18-2011, 04:04 PM

...its just sad when i put all this effort into looking good and come with nothing.

Put more effort into being interesting, charismatic, engaging, and less seemingly self-absorbed, and you'd be surprised how well social interactions will turn around.

Curious; where do you work?

LoliLovely

09-18-2011, 04:08 PM

My mother has truely gotten on my last nerve.

BlondieSundae

09-18-2011, 04:09 PM

My mother has truely gotten on my last nerve.

Is it why i think? Or something completely different? =(

LoliLovely

09-18-2011, 04:11 PM

Is it why i think? Or something completely different? =(

It's exactly what I told you.

BlondieSundae

09-18-2011, 04:14 PM

It's exactly what I told you.

Ok, you can talk to me about anything remember that.

LoliLovely

09-18-2011, 04:15 PM

Ok, you can talk to me about anything remember that.

Yes I know :)

kuroki-neko

09-18-2011, 04:16 PM

Put more effort into being interesting, charismatic, engaging, and less seemingly self-absorbed, and you'd be surprised how well social interactions will turn around.

Curious; where do you work?

well i am all that haha i was not depressed when i posted that

and i work at a concrete statuary company

and i this is my 1000th post i think

Cadmium Polyphony

09-18-2011, 04:24 PM

well i am all that

I question that.

You hide it on here, anyway.

MsCaboose

09-19-2011, 06:56 AM

Classes + work + no free time really depresses me. :( Ugh.

kuroki-neko

09-21-2011, 06:33 PM

I question that.

You hide it on here, anyway.

well i have to. if i show some self esteem or any way of feeling good about myself i get doged on if i say im feeling sad but now that i tone it down a bit i just don't know, but i heard its best to not really show any emotion on here. the only way your able to show that you feel anything is if your popluar on here or are girl.

but people seem to see only my past me not the me that i am now.

Lonefox

09-21-2011, 07:13 PM

My mother has truely gotten on my last nerve.

Loli! Haven't seen you on much around here the past couple days. I hope everything is ok...

Kaiya_Namii~

09-21-2011, 07:53 PM

yess.. like life has just been depressing me. I feel like I'm having a mid-life crisis st 16yrs. >w<

FantasyFannatic

09-21-2011, 08:03 PM

Classes + work + no free time really depresses me. Ugh.

I second that ^

Besides i've been depress since the first year i move here >_<

NaitoNii

09-21-2011, 08:07 PM

school's been riding my back all month now. Forcing me into an ultimatum to top it off too!

A lot of people that don't know even 1% of what happened in my life say that everything that went wrong was my own fault..

If it wasn't for my training on Wednesdays and Fridays, let's just keep on it that it's bloody.

P.S: don't punch a concrete wall. it won't budge and laugh at your effort :3 I love my wall for making me realize that I was being an idiot by punching it XD*Wall hug*

aiyua

09-21-2011, 08:19 PM

I think I'm getting depressed again. Coupled with my horrible Internet addiction and my lack of substantial social life.

The other day, I was feeling particularly terrible. It was so bad, I drew a picture of an adorable Squirtle, then right under it, a Squirtle hanging itself. Also, a small, dramatic paragraph about "ending it all"...

In that same class, however, something remarkable happened. Last year, in Chinese, there was a girl who sat next to me for the last quarter of the year. I liked to talk to her, and she was really nice. Thankfully, she was in my Chinese class this year, as well.

I guess I must've looked down in the dumps or something, because as I was drawing said suicidal Squirtle, she suddenly turned around, and on the bottom of my paper, she wrote: ": ) be happy"

I was so touched, I started crying in the middle of class. of course, it was the quiet kind...

kuroki-neko

09-22-2011, 01:14 PM

you know what sucks? when your good at something and you think its unique amoung the people your around but then you discover that there is someone else who also into the same thing. its like i could post pics of what i do with this skill but i feel people would say "oh those are good but not as good as -------'s" for once id like a chance to be the only one or at least the better one at a skill thats not totally wierd .

Flora88

09-22-2011, 03:08 PM

^ Sad to say, but that's the way the world works.
There will always be someone who is better than you at the thing you love the most.
"But somebody's got to be The Best at something!"

Well, yes, but usually it doesn't take long for someone to usurp their positions of "Best," to be usurped by someone else later.

That sort of thing.

sam vimes

09-22-2011, 03:10 PM

No one is better than me at manipulating my fingers.

No one.

Flora88

09-22-2011, 03:13 PM

No one is better than me at manipulating my fingers.

No one.

...For now.

kuroki-neko

09-22-2011, 03:29 PM

^ Sad to say, but that's the way the world works.
There will always be someone who is better than you at the thing you love the most.
"But somebody's got to be The Best at something!"

Well, yes, but usually it doesn't take long for someone to usurp their positions of "Best," to be usurped by someone else later.

I was all happy and dandy until yesterday, then my mood took a sudden drop for the worst. Right now I'm still feeling somewhat depressed and I have no idea why. It sucks hardcore man. BI

zssfanxxx

02-18-2012, 05:33 PM

Been depressed about alot of stuff lately.. That I want to see a boy I met on this forums..and now my mom knows that I wanna see him in person.

Zexion6

02-19-2012, 03:13 AM

I hate it when you're happy, and then suddenly you are so depressed and almost lethargic. Especially when it just happens in a three minute span.

StringOfLove

02-20-2012, 02:39 AM

I just got out of a relationship & he dumped me for reasons I just don't understand ;o
But I am trying to pull myself back up on my feet! I'm trying to get my first cosplay costume, which will be Matryoshka Miku & will either be attending Senshi-Con this year or next ;DD
& listening to vocaloid songs always cheers me up, especially Kaito's voice, keke.

StarsCASSiOPEiA

02-20-2012, 10:27 AM

On post-con depression with a pile of schoolwork to do.

Worst part is, there's this long-term project I need to get cracking on when I'm done with that. Can't even go sew things. :(

Shiki Kuroyama

02-20-2012, 09:21 PM

I have a toothache and I get to see the dentist in a week.
I'm gonna go paranoid.

Kildread

02-20-2012, 09:26 PM

I notice I always hit a down after a series of days where I spend a lot of effort on other things. It can be a convention, or it can be a weekend full of work --- when I get back home, there's that melancholy of being back to the same routine.

After a week it sinks in and I find it hard to muster the energy to do much, until I re-adapt to it.

This time it was a whole weekend working at a customer site for a project, just gonna look forward to April and PAX East.

kAZbear

02-22-2012, 07:47 AM

I'm super depressed right now, and I know the EXACT reason for it. I had to deliver medicine to the old folks home 'cause the nurse is a retarded bubblehead and left it on the counter. There were elderly people all just sitting around staring into air and one in a wheelchair just slowly spinning it in a circle. I'd die before I let my kids (if I have any) put me in a home after seeing that.

sooyong

02-22-2012, 07:54 AM

I'm really stressed right now. I miss home and kind of anxious to visit, but I won't get to until the summer.

Amanita

02-23-2012, 02:20 AM

The hours at my jobsite just changed, now I only get 32 hours a week, down from 48. Talk about a pay cut. I'm just so sick of my job, but don't think I can get a better one that will actually be a step up. I've been depressed a lot lately, but don't know what to do. I don't want anything to do with pills- people have said that when on anti-depressants, they feel emotionally zombified- feeling nothing at all. Or that sure, the depression goes away, but so does their creative drive, and I kinda need mine.
I have heard that the meds are hard to go off of, and I don't want to be dependent on them.
I'm also afraid to seek out councilling- one, when would I have the time, with my work schedule, and I would be afraid to be truly honest. If I say I've ever contemplated suicide, are they going to try and force me into inpatient treatment? No way in hell would I tolerate living like that, inpatient treatment would be almost as bad as jail to me.

kAZbear

02-23-2012, 07:37 AM

@ Amanita

My therapist that I go to every couple of weeks is a really nice lady, she also does hypno therapy which really helps a lot, and most therapists can arrange after hours meetings. Coming from personal experience, stay away from the meds. Mine (about 3 different lots) made me go kinda....... borderline psychotic aggresive or as you were worried about, an emotionless zombie. I said no more after that lot. I talked to my lady about a few years back when I was borderline suicidal and we just talked about it, she didn't say anything about inpatient treatment or judged me. I don't think they can force you into that kinda thing 'cause it'd make the whole situation a lot worse for the very vast majority of people.

SpiffyPoptarts

02-23-2012, 08:48 PM

@Amanita: Yeah, seconding what kAZbear said about the pills. When I was on them I lost all interest in everything. I guess I wasn't depressed anymore, but I wasn't happy either. :/

Gemmy_Juneko

02-25-2012, 06:49 AM

i dont and do like talking about my depression. for short i feel like a attention whore looking for something though i dont like looking for it because i feel like i have to be a attention whore to do it but at the same time i really want to find it- i really would like to find it and get out this rut. im 20 and im still stuck at my mother houses, in a two year college for my fourth year (how the fuck does that logic work), feel like a shitty example of a older sister, a mom who sometimes think she 14 , and a minimum wage work study job that treats me like shit,sleep like im dead.

i cant say any of this because one its whining and two complaining and someone always have it worst than me but that doesn't lighten the fact i feel sick and tired almost every day and probably am depress. i know there are probably alot of things i could do i just dont know where to start. according to my mother i should just stfu and deal with it but ..this cant be what it means to have a life or be a adult. i really hope im not just over exaggerating i do not like being a attentionwhoring outsider in my own body or any where else for that matter

RoMayDrako

02-25-2012, 07:14 AM

Why yes, I do feel depressed but I get frowned apon by saying so. Apprently living alone in CA with no family to depend on and money always being short I have no thing to be depressed about. I would say more but that would be evidence left behind. At the end of it all I will take a deep breathe and pretend like everythings good and I am happy to all those around me. Really I am used to the role by now.T
I miss being able to afford anti-depressents (sp?) and see a doctor. they actually sorta worked for me without turning me into a zombie. Though I had to take lesser dosages because of my kidneys.>> <<

zssfanxxx

02-25-2012, 02:52 PM

I'm just stressed alittle right now.. and it runs in my family too. T.T

Lithium Flower

02-25-2012, 03:33 PM

Yeah. :(
I'm hoping my new medication will help.

It could be because it's winter? My Mom gets the same way around this time. If your depression starts to get serious though then please talk to someone about it.

For a few years after I moved out of state I was able to get these things under control but over the last 6 months or more it's gotten incredibly bad and can be debilitating. I've had social anxiety issues as far back as I can remember, and issues with depression following soon after. These began when I was quite young, elementary school age and likely earlier when I began to really feel all of what I now understand as an adult where these issues.

It's kinda stupid sounding but actually being by a window and in the sunlight can help a lot with it.

CosplayJelly

02-26-2012, 11:36 PM

is it some MACD?
Major
After
Con
Depression?
u gotta go to ur cvs i think they have a cure now. hurry its running out. oh yeah the yu gi oh cards ran out about an hour ago. u better hurry.