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There are many reasons to write a blog, one being so you can be seen and adored by fans for your wit and so-called wisdom. This is not that kind of blog, as a matter of fact, this will be the kind of blog that you will either desire to read or you will burn this connection, heretic witch…oh well I say.

This is a coming to Jesus minute.

Something I have found hard for the last 11 years of my life is the absence of wisdom, and a complete lack of desire for reality. I mean for myself. The fantasy of our world is a much easier lie to tell ourselves, helping us to sleep at night, keeping us asleep during the day. You may even think that you want change or for things to be different. You still think you have control over outcomes. You think you live in reality, the real world, where shit is real and you can be killed, eaten, taken advantage of. That you have real choice.

Oh did you think you were actually awake, and in reality. Who’s reality…

No baby this is a dream…

There is no advancement in life without this knowledge. Sorry, you who think you know truth.

You are asleep at the wheel of your life. You feel alive, I did too. It seems like we are living in a reality. I mean really don’t tell me that last 5 day migraine was a figment of my imagination, I wanted to die, slit my throat, bleed out, it was as real as the letters you are reading right now.

Are these letters real or does your mind tell you these dashes mean something? Who interprets your words for you, who or what gives them meaning? These are the big questions.

You remember the song, row row row your boat gently down the stream, merrily merrily merrily merrily, life is but a dream.

We are living in a dream. Your mind as an advanced computer has given your eyes something to perceive and a world to find your way in and through. Apparently we have been tossed down here and now have to figure it out, in an eat or be eaten world.

Humanity will never move past the horror we are trapped in until someone, somewhere, comes out of the dream, kicking and screaming, trying to wake everyone up.

Guess what? I’ll be doing that. I have no idea of the name of the one who just through me out of my dream. The pain of that 5, 6 ,7 day headache drove me to an edge, no returning from that. Once you see differently you can never readjust your eyes to lies.

We are living in a lie, convinced of a material world that has no real backing, it’s an illusion, and believe me as I threw up my guts until my stomach threatened to follow I no more believed this is an illusion than you do right now. So convinced that your pain is real, your suffering is real, so was I.

Nope and wrong. Pain just happens to be one of the ways spirit talks to me, a human with a difficult past, seeminglyunloving uncaring parents and no real support in the real world. All of my power came from a belief that I had for myself. I had to get hard before they went at me again, I learned all tricks to side step, pain, any pain, emotional, physical, spiritual.

So when I fell in LA this last trip I already knew my head would respond. I get headaches like some people get indigestion or get pissed, a headache is always just a thought away, my head gives me buckets of pain.

Because I have believed I am the creator of myself. No one can help, no one cares frankly, and I’m living in a material world and I am a material girl. So many lies.

I am no more material than any of you are, your dream of reality is as powerful as mine was.

So I will lead a new charge. I am done swimming in a world of my own making. It sucks here. My body thinks it’s the boss of me and due to DNA weakness my body is a fu*king nightmare a lot of the time. So time to turn the channel and tune into a different version of reality.

In other words, I, during an experience of unimaginable pain, that I was not only forced to live through, but no amount of drugs would remove me from it. That suffering world be mine baby, all mine, and mine to fix, which I fu*king did, victory arms.

It is said that creator will give us know more than we can handle, or maybe its more important to say that the greater your intelligence, and willingness to change or see clearly, creator will assist in clearing the cob webs from your mind, the film in front of your eyes, and release you from the cage your heart is trapped in. Using any and all means available.

Stay with me, and I’ll explain it all, as it was and is revealed to me,

I’m not sure what the point is anymore. I’ve been writing and writing and just like teaching if no one is getting it, why continue?

I see pain, I have gone through pain, the entire country is going through pain and yet everyone seems stuck in their own limited mind-set. It doesn’t matter what you say, nobody is listening. They can only hear their own voice because they are soooo right. So many people believe they are right. God only knows what is going on.

If everyone is right why are we in the shape we are in?

I just read that a first grader took a gun to school and it fired into the ground thank God. Yet gun control, no way, you can take my gun from my cold dead hand, which in the hand of a 6-year-old is entirely possible. They don’t know what that gun can do. You kill someone on a video game they get back up, they turn into zombies, they don’t die.. but you will if it’s aimed at you when it goes off.

There are negative racist remarks on the bathrooms of our schools, you know where we keep our precious children safe. There are grown ass adults spouting racist, prejudiced rhetoric everywhere, and we wonder why their children do?

TV is hard to watch, the news? what news… if these are the end times then I say speed it up.

I’m tired of war mongers, haters, people only interested in taking…

In my country the welfare of the people is dependent on the number of rich influential beings who may either profit or be harmed by what’s going on. For example the pipeline, let’s poison these people’s water , but not these people over here…

The entire teaching of we are one is so lost on the rich. The teaching we are our brother and sisters keeper, so lost on the rich. The teaching this land is your land this land is my land, so lost on the rich who would own everything and charge us for it…

But no one cares and woe be to you who do…

Sorry people I’m tired of it. What’s the point…

I’ll tell you what the point is, my family, my children, my grandchildren, my adopted people of all races, genders and faiths…

It’s in the searching for answers that we become so desperate that we accept what is almost right or we overlook what we know to be wrong in a “it’s going to be ok”, kind of way. We will turn off our internal truth marker just to “make things work”. Such a waste of our time. If that feeling of wrongness is set into your craw and you are ignoring it for whatever reason, sickness is around the corner be it physical, mental, or spiritual. Take my word for it. Especially, if someone is telling you it will all be fine!

I just watched a movie called Holy Hell, it’s a documentary about a cult in California. I’ve become very interested in cults because of my own near miss with several. The questioning mind seeks answers and under duress will see what is presented rather than what our internal truth monitor tells us. Worse are the straight up lies a “spiritual”leader will tell. In this documentary this leader was found to be having sex with the men rather than the women. All the while proclaiming celibacy as a path to enlightenment. Right!!!

This person is a hypnotherapist and exceedingly good at mind control. All of the students were to take sessions with him at a cost “of course” and during these sessions he would begin the grooming process of his next victim. He had a different boy for different days and times and “of course” these relationships were sacred and special. This is the exact same thing I have heard over and over again whether it’s women or men the “teacher” grooms his victims to their special-ness. I mean really who when searching for truth from a “teacher” doesn’t want to be seen as “special”.

Google spiritual teachers/leaders and watch the people sitting around the “teacher”. It’s not normal to have that level of awe for another human, because THEY ARE HUMAN! We are to bow down to no one but the master in our hearts.

This world breaks my heart. Because in the world of spirituality it’s not just a grooming for sex that draws this same outcome of loss of self. Some people are told to leave their families and break all ties with them. In some, it’s give all your money to the cause, work for the cause, all in the name of God or the teacher or whatever is set before them. Young girls given in marriage to the leader, middle aged people worked like slaves until their usefulness is done and so is their money. The horror!

What the HELL is going on…

We are wrong! It’s never right to serve any master but ourselves. Spirituality is to teach we are our own master because the Divine is within us. When a grown person gives up their power to serve a master outside of themselves that’s one thing but when someone else makes that decision for someone else, the karma… special level of hell and so on…

There is no other answer than maintaining self responsibility and here also is where we have tripped up. When we truly believe another human’s truth over our own common sense, even when we have glitter in our eyes by the beauty of the teacher, someone should slap us out of our revelry. In old days it would have been seen as black magic, isn’t it? Oh that’s right we don’t believe in magic, or Satan, or the devil, much less God.

We are wrong if we believe a human has answers for us, because the true teacher/leader takes you to where your answers exist. Some of us need leading and hand holding that’s fine but a teacher or integrity will never say I’m always right, how can they be…THEY ARE HUMAN.

We are here on planet Earth to learn and the only real truth is the one you discover for yourself. We are wrong if we believe anyone knows our truth, only the Divine knows because we were created by the creative force and this same force is not going to force you to believe it, you may and we do learn for ourselves.

Practice promoting your own internal truth monitor, teach your children well and if someone’s “master/teacher” has a hold over a loved one, pray your ass off and keep telling them they are wrong until they reach out to you because you love them and you will have been the only one telling them. Eventually truth wins, truth always wins!

Eventually women will realize that we need to stand united and not divided. The days of walking over the heads of other women to get something you deem worthy, are over! The days of bullying other women is OVER! We will only succeed standing together. I am tired of power plays, negative back biting bullying behavior. I am ready for a world of caring humans.

My daughter gave birth on Monday to her second child and the birth was nearly as traumatic as the first. Most of the trauma turned to drama because no one wanted to stand up, take responsibility, or even just make a decision. I am talking hospital staff here, you know the ones getting paid to care. WHAT! And then my spiritual community chimed in with their drama, REALLY! I am trying to do a job here!

We as women have been waiting for the day men return to the head of the table and support us on our journey of returning to our own power. But we have been waiting longer for women to return to power. Learning to speak up for ourselves and our families and giving voice to our children is our charge. It is a difficult and hard world, if we are not together who do you think will suffer? Who is suffering? Why are women going after each other? What is the only possible outcome for that kind of behavior? Look around.

The world suffers when women are not doing their job. We need to be vocal about our needs, really really vocal about the needs of our children. But most importantly we need to quit thinking someone is trying to take from us or hurt us, we are all trying to get to the same place. And on the other hand there are those women who are fighting us on every front, stop already! If you still believe there is some kind of prize for coming in first place, figure it out, there will always be someone coming up behind you and they too, want what you have. We are best served finding where are gifts, and talents can be best used to further the development of humanity. Putting the needs of others in front of your own selfish desires. Power hungry humans need to check themselves.

I am upset today and sorely disappointed in a number of women. Women standing under the umbrella of caring, concern, spirituality, pretending to be something they are not. We can see you! We are looking at you now and soon you will be best served to start doing your job. This world isn’t clearing itself for no reason. Even the Earth mother is getting tired of it and frankly

CAN YOU BLAME HER!!!!!!!!

It is and always will be God’s will that has dominion over the earth, better believe it!

In the world of spirituality the proof, we say is in the pudding. If you walk a spiritual path, declare yourself a spiritual person, yet your life is not in order or on a path of success, then exactly what are you talking about? For me there can be no greater advertisement to the efficacy of a spiritual system than those who are successfully walking it and doing it while living in the real world.

I mean walking it, not walking above it.

Meditate in conscious devotion for 10% of your day. Spend the rest of your waking moments in consciousness and you will experience spiritual awakening, no doubt! You will cultivate greater spiritual growth, health, you name it. Time spent with God offers the benefits of God spending time with you. Boom, system successful. The light in the spiritual teachers eyes tells the truth of that statement. But no one said it was a fix to the problems of life they said it was a path for creating success on the journey of life.

People ask why do spiritual people get sick? But it’s not about why people get sick. Every human physical vessel is vulnerable. The power is knowing when you made the mistake that opened you to sickness and knowing how to correct it. I had an intensely emotional event happen and in rapid secession 2 others things, each designed to start a downward spiral of omg’s and are you kidding me? Enough to weaken me until at the grocery, someone’s sneeze in produce, wrapped itself around me in bakery, making me sick by sundown.

As soon as I realized I had to take the physical descent into sickness I got back on my own healing work. My experience with my health and knowing what to do cut my reaction time to sickness and made it unnecessary for me to see a doctor. I built back up my vibration worked with my body and got well sooner.

The spirituality of health is the spirituality of life. When we spend our day in a state of awareness then we see where we are going and we can sense the danger that may be near. Allowing our emotions to cloud our judgment even one second can be enough to allow a downward spiral to begin that can be very tough to stop, like they say, it only takes one…(little germ) or one badly placed word.

The more you meditate the greater your inner light can shine. Darkness of thoughts, emotions, and ideas can not hurt you and your body will not weaken. The greater you keep your inner light the healthier your life. Keep the light of the sun with you always.

Feel free to message me with questions maybe I can help or lead you in a direction you can go.