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Tuesday, August 23, 2011

I hate roller coasters

We go to Berenson and he says there are encouraging signs. Awesome! Then we see Phan and he paints a less rosy picture. Not so awesome. Kidney functions are worse than ever, but they are still working. Ummm...ok. A month ago, kidney doctor was all panicky over state of kidneys. Now she is all casual about it. Head scratcher. Going to see another kidney doctor tomorrow for another opinion. Need to get those tricky little bastards under control.

Still been getting low grade fevers but today was chemo and it's likely the steroids in the chemo are preventing a fever today. Plus my voice is gone, which seems to happen after chemo.

So tomorrow I'll work half day then go to new kidney dr.

So as you can see, this myeloma ride is a real roller coaster. And I don't like it. Then you throw in all of life's stresses which get magnified by illness, and my head is ready to explode. I think for both me and Leslie, we feel like we're 4 months in and no further along. What the hell?

My 50th is less than 2 months away and I can honestly say that I didn't envision dealing with cancer as how I would be celebrating. I was super excited to turn 50. Not so much now.

Voice is gone.... good break for Leslie there. Gretta and I have found it's best not to talk.... we just text while following each other around the house. The other night I was rubbing her feet and sent her the text: "Ok, i'm done. Move your leg now" Very effective. Just kidding. It's not that effective.

(Ok..... this paragraph you have to read in the voice of Chris Rock on stage during a concert. I'm taking timeout from the positive to do an impression): "Speaking of not effective.... how about these Fucking Kidneys...... The Fucking Kidneys. Sounds like a punk band or some shit....... I googled kidneys and you know what popped up? Kidney Stones, Kidney Infection, Kidney Failure, Kidney Disease, Kidney Pain, Kidney Failure. Aint that some fucked up shit??? Not one goddamn positive on the whole google? How about throwing in "Candy" or "Boobies" just for the fuck of it?"

Ok, here's a fun game...... 6 people as stressed as you:

6) Tiger Woods. Life was so much easier when his lackies were setting up different women for him every night in between popping pills, juicing, winning tournaments and becoming sports' 1st billionaire. Now he's just a cheater with no friends who sucks at golf.

5) Head writer in charge of new storylines on "Jersey Shore"

4) Member of an NBA Dance Squad with the strike looking like a sure thing -- if you do a freaky pole dance in the middle of a basketball court during halftime of a game that didn't really happen..... did you really do the freaky dance?

3) Justin Bieber -- after recent breakup, how and where is he going to find another girl?

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My Multiple Myeloma Story

On May 2, 2011 I was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma. I had never heard of it before but know all about it now. It's a bone marrow and blood cancer. I began chemotherapy on May 3. I created this blog to keep folks up to date with my health, my treatment, and my adventure.