Monday, January 1, 2018

Move on.

I'm ready. I'm ready to
let you go. I'm ready to bid a goodbye to my favorite parts of you, the
special memories, the moments I wish I could rewind. I'm ready to let
them go, I'm ready to loosen my grip and welcome new ones. I'm ready to
let the moments I loved slip through my fingers and go make new ones. I learned.

I learned the
lessons you were trying to teach me. I learned from the pain, from the
heartbreak, from the betrayal, from the tears, from the mistakes and
from my own shortcomings. I learned the hard ones; you were hard on me
sometimes but I’m thankful for the lessons because I hope I’m a little
bit wiser, a little bit stronger and a lot more resilient because of
them.

I forgive you.

I forgive you
for putting me through hard times, I forgive you for not making the good
times last longer, for not turning
things exactly the way I want them to and I mostly forgive you for all
the lonely nights. In a way, they made me fearless, in a way, they
taught me how to enjoy my own company and in a way, they made me
unafraid of loneliness.

I love you.

I love you for
all the blessings you gave me, for the times I spent smiling, for the
all the times I laughed with my friends and the times I stayed up
talking to someone I love. I love you for the moments when you made me
feel invincible and for the moments you made me feel alive and for the
ones that will live me with me forever. I love you for being so
memorable, so unforgettable and so breathtaking.

I’ll miss you.

It’s strange,
because you weren’t perfect but you still had a special place in my
heart. Something about you was pivotal, something about you was
comforting, something about you felt safe, like coming home after a long
time, like I’m finally on the right track, in the right direction.
Unlike all other years, you left an impact, you felt right.

2018 — I’m ready.

I don’t know
what to expect, I don’t know what you hold for me, I don’t know if
you’ll be better or worse, but I know I’m ready for you. I know that I
can handle the bad moments and embrace the great moments. I know that
I’m open to learning and appreciating why things won’t turn out the way I
wish they could. I’m ready because I’m letting go of the past and
willing to start over with you.