Saturday, July 23, 2011

Wow guys, seriously. This is amazing. When I started blogging, I never thought that my blog would touch so many people in the way that it has. I sincerely want to thank each and every one of you for being the most amazing followers in the entire world. Much love guys.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

I despise when people give me, "that look". The look when I tell them i'm not going back to college. They think i'm stupid, not mature enough, or just plain dumb. It's my own choice and i'm owning up to it like no other.

Yeah, college was fun and all but it's just not for me. I'm very mature for my own age so i'm not crazy partier that needs to constantly be downing beer.

I've decided i'm going to Aveda Cosmetology school. I want to make people feel beautiful as they should always feel. That would truly make me happy beyond belief that I could make someone feel great about themselves. I strive to open a hair salon and call it Kat's Kuts. :D Yeah, i'm cheesy but a girl can dream, right?

Saturday, July 9, 2011

People constantly tell me that i'm really strong and that I handle things really well but I can't even begin to think that's the truth. Recently, i've found myself more prone to panic attacks and mental breakdowns. They've gotten to the point where i've stopped breathing and i've asked for help and people ignore me.

It's truly difficult to understand why I constantly have to feel like this or why can't I be a, "normal person"? I look at my peers, my friends, and people who surround me everyday and they are living their lives wonderfully. Some peoples biggest problems are that they miss college and want to go back. I wish that was my biggest problem and that I didn't have to be engulfed in this mess.

I'm not going back to university next year because I don't think it's very safe for me. I'm not stable and I don't know how i'll react in certain situations. I haven't told my family yet and I know they won't understand or even accept the reasoning i'm giving but i'm almost 19 years old and I know whats best for me. I'm going to a smaller community college close to my house and then transferring to a real college from there.

People think i'm just too unintelligent for a real college or that I can't "handle" things very well but in truth, no one really understands the struggles I have to overcome everyday.

It's been 19 years and i'm still waiting for things to get better. I really need them too.

About Me

My name's Kat. I'm the kind of girl who can live such a nightmare and still find the strength to smile. I'm the girl who acts happy when i'm really dying inside.I'm the girl who thinks lfie is nothing without the power of love. My life's a ngihtmare and a dream at the same time and i'd love to share my thoughts with the world.