Somebody please reassure me!

Alright, so when I was younger my cousin and I were extremely close and naturally became curious with each others bodies. I was 5 and he was 8, and I never saw this as anything strange because I was curious as well. As I started to grow up I became more and more curious about "sex" and started touching myself at around age 7. I remember loving it and doing it frequent, even telling my sister about it. My mom caught me doing it one day and told me it was a private thing, so I listened to her.

I have generalized anxiety, and recently these memories have filled my mind. I've been feeling really scared that maybe I was sexually abused by somebody other than my curiosity with my cousin. I have no evidence other than my behaviour, but I tend to over-think things and I am the biggest hypochondriac ever. I just want to stop obsessing over "what ifs" and made up senerios in my head.

I'm scared that maybe I repressed something traumatizing. I told my parents about the cousin thing, which they told me was normal.

I just don't want to be repressing something.
Please help me.

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Phoenix (03-26-2013)