I hav e lways had psychotic sympotms, but they strating ti intrude into my life. I cannot hol conversations for to long. I recall things that never happeded, like my hashand and I going to the libarby. It if weren't for mt trust in him, I'd bet a million dollars we did. I "know" me did-but me didn't. I and I have a consant, it seem, running background of radio but its from a distance so I make out thewords or songs.That's just constanct. It isn't the hell, but I am still having a lot of problem. I cann't drive. Or pick out my house right every time. Based on labortary work and -mania - they put one encephopathological neuroloigal disorder disgnosis- w/ ptsd on me. I don't feel human anymore. The meds arn't keeping the pain & fear away.

I'm sorry for your suffering. I'm imagine the psychosis is scary and frustrating. I'm sorry you're living with it. But you definitely have lucid periods so just hang on, know that it will pass, and hopefully you'll feel better soon. ((hugs))