Depressed

I'm depressed to the point of being suicidal.I don't actually plan to kill myself, but I am THAT depressed.I can't focus on anything, I don't enjoy anything anymore, the most I can do is roll out of bed in the morning.Past that, I don't even know what happens during the day.There are parts of the day that I literally cannot recall.For example, I will suddenly notice that there are 4 or 5 empty soda cans in my room, and no recollection of how they got there.I do things in such an empty trance that I don't even notice that I'm doing them.My life has become one continuous blur.And the sad part is that nobody else has noticed.Guess that shows how empty my life really is since I apparently have no friends close enough to notice anything.

Sometimes if you don’t say how you feel, no one will know how you feel. I will forever tell people, that no one is a mind reader. Depression is a serious thing. I suggest you open up, and talk to us about what is really going on in you life. Why do you think you feel this way? What is going wrong in you life? What do you want to fix?. Is it your family? Is it your appearance or peers? What inner demons are you fighting yourself with? Did someone you were close to die? .....You have to ask yourself, why am I feeling this way? And sit there and think about it...Now after you discover what it is. Think about how to get rid of that feeling. Cast whatever it is aside that is bothering you. You are the source of your happiness. You can only be as happy as you choose to be.

I guess to say one thing, you may be depressed to the point that you have lost a grip on reality. I'm sure there are people that have noticed, you just cannot see that they have noticed.I guess it's a good think that you have realised you are depressed so maybe you could try seeing a doctor and get some help. If you don't feel like that will work then try talking to us here. I'm sure there is someone who has been through the same and could share some advice with you?