Feel Free To Ask Me

21Oct

You Can, Ask Me.

By: Carl The Muse

I like my family to ask me for help. I am great at fixing things, a healer a muse, even as I write this my wife just interrupted me but I kept my cool, she asked me a question and though I was deep in thought about what to say here as I am writing this I just had to do what I am about to write about to you.

I want her to come and ask me if she has a question, I want to provide them answers I want to be able to show them the way and I want to be able to provide for their needs but I can not do that unless they feel like they can speak to me.

My son often hesitated to ask me for help and I wondered why, every time he asks for help I help him and show him the way, that was not the problem though it was the way that I would sometimes respond that made him hesitate to ask it of me, it was something I was blind to in life but through him I have been able to see.

I got to see an example of this one day when my mother wanted to ask me to go and get her some food. I had already been out running errands for her and I was worn out and she knew it and she was afraid to ask me. I had to talk her into telling me what she wanted from me, eventually she told me and I went and on the drive I realized that my mother, the woman who birthed me and loved me so dearly was afraid to ask something of me.

It clicked inside of me and immediately I could see what had gotten away from me in my son, in my mother and in my wife. I made them afraid to ask me. I went back to my mothers house with her food and told her I am sorry for any moment she was ever afraid to ask me, I told her I would do for her anything she needs, because I know from her actions she would do the same for me.

I told her, I told my son and I told my wife before and after I won her back that never again would they have be afraid to ask anything of me. I promised that if I could do it I would. These are the people that love me and they would do anything for me, they are the reason I bleed rather than tell my son how to do this I show him in the way I lead. Another promise I made to my son, a battle I had lost but now that battle is won.