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Monday, July 4, 2011

Im Bleeding

Unfortunately we are currently having a bit of a scare! I am writing this as am hoping for some feedback that may be of help to me and make me feel better.

So at about 7.30pm I felt something in my knickers, like a drip that just didn't feel right, so I checked and it was blood! I ripped my knickers off and showed gardener guy and burst into tears, uncontrollable tears, how can this be happening to me? This is my worse nightmare. Anyhow I was panicking, but gardener guy was great as usual, he told me to calm down and this can mean nothing. We decided to ring the clinic emergency number so we would get put through to our fertility doctor, I couldn't talk so gardener guy rang him and we have a scan scheduled for tomorrow at 11am. Our doctor told us to try not to panic and this can be completely normal and it happens alot, so now we just wait till tomorrow and pray that our baby is still alive and the heartbeat is nice and strong.

I went to the toilet a wee while after the scare and there was blood in the toilet and some blood when I wiped. I put in a pad and there has been a little bit of spotting. I just went to the toilet now and there is now no blood in the toilet but still brown blood when I wipe, but definitely less. I have no cramps either. I really hope this is ok, I know so many woman who have had this and are all fine so lets hope that's me too. My HCG levels have all been rising really well so that's a good sign too.

I tell you what, I have never felt quite so scared as I did when I saw that blood, in an instance I felt like our dreams were all slipping away. I now feel ok, I have to stay positive, I cant possibly take any more disappointment, I think I have been through enough. I feel like me and gardener guy have gotten so carried away in the last few weeks and then bam, just like this it all comes crumbling down.

Nothing more to say, will let you all know what happens tomorrow. Prayers please for a lovely strong heartbeat.

12 comments:

Hang in there C! It seems like every blog I read after someone falls preggers....right around this time there is some bleeding and everything turns out fine! I know it is easier said then done....but try to stay positive and don't worry! Bed rest....feet up and lots of water!!!!

I am one of those who Krista is referring to - I had bleeding every week from week 5-10. It is terrifying and I was so upset every time. I am praying that your experience turns out as mine did and everything is fine. Get some rest, put your feet up and drink lots of water - let Gardner Guy pamper you! I am praying for you!!! Please let us know how the scan goes.

Praying for you!!! I had a similar feeling last night when I saw a bit of spotting too! I felt like it was all over. I had some stomach cramps too but I think it turned out to be more of a tummy ache and the spotting was separate. I can only hope we both are free from anymore of that nonsene!!!! I'll be thinking of you tomorrow:)

Oh, yikes!!!! That is so scary. :( I had two episodes of spotting...one at 5 weeks and one at 14 weeks. Neither were red, though...brown/orange in color. But, I also had those same fears, especially with the 5-week episode. But, bleeding is soooo normal in early pregnant, and the fact that it stopped and didn't last long is a good sign. Sometimes there's just some blood that needs to be expelled. Hoping for the best for you, as always!

I bled for an entire week this pregnancy around 7-8 weeks and everything turned out great. It was very scary! Apparently cramps and lots of blood, soaking a pad in a few hours, are signs of a miscarriage. It could just be the placenta starting to form and bury in the lining. Hope all goes well tomorrow!

Bleeding is very scary, but unfortunately very common in early pregnancy, particularly in IVF pregnancies. We have super-thick linings from all the meds, and sometimes it can slough off with no harm to the baby. Hang in there! Sending you good thoughts!!!

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After a long hard struggle to conceive, after under going many fertility treatments, after hitting rock bottom, we have now come out the other side.
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