Insular, you make it sound like your dying. There is no eternal damnation so dont worry senselessly. I know you beleive what you have been taught by man but you are believing a lie. Don't worry and don't be afraid. Do not let people worry you, do not let people scare you. Know that God loves you and that God cannot do anything that doesn't produce a good outcome for you when he calls you home. You have already been given the promise of salvation when christ was crucified and risen so calm down and don't fear.