Was born in the Hutt Valley and has lived there ever since. She is a graduate of the Whitireia Creative Writing Programme. Recently her work has appeared in 4th Floor, Penduline Press, Renée’s Wednesday Busk and Shenandoah.

what is black, white and red all over? Office talk of the weekend, missing stationery and Coronation Street. Amid layers of conversation, a voice calls my name. When I answer my colleagues look at me. I have a cold I say. Mavis plays her part, offers her Throaties. Their talk returns to Coro.

just now, stolen

thoughts leave her

angry, empty

I am haunted by voices that will not speak, though several times I heard song in the white noise of trains and traffic. Twenty thousand monastic soccer voices sang in unison, words far too gargantuan for a human ear to decipher. Too glorious. More down to earth was the little voice that would rouse itself to speak as if muffled by a hand. Arrogant to expect English, nē? Me kōrero paki koe i te reo Māori.

rain leaves the sky

without a bow

After a while, I get out of the car, go into Pak ‘n’ Save. In the stillness, the supermarket goddess. Her sparkling fizz of plenty bursts me acute with love for all the people, all the baked beans, the milk, the disinfectant, the loaded trollies. I do not hear the voices of pens, even as I write. Their voice comes through in the text – an echo of laughter or sexual innuendo – usually both. Ratbags should hold a workshop on the joys of cursing.

under water

she throws the dice,

– a two

At my own risk I enter the Catholic church. In a moderate to severe earthquake it would not be safe. An excellent incentive for prayer, but I do not hear your reply. I do not hear your terrible rock against rock beneath the earth, Rūaumoko. I do not see your mouth gape open in the floor, nor feel your Parksonian hand. Will you not speak? I am empty, ready to be your receiver.

wait –

the quiet

I wake to four young gargoyles who sing in quavering four-part harmony, do you hear me? And the phone rings, a phone that does not exist. My CD player, turned off at the wall, makes a crackle sound. Cars outside on the road, a truck, more rolling cars. Within this, still nothing.

I am satisfied with this, my gift. I am able. Absence within silence ‒ on occasion, words within sound. Each of these is golden.

in the shaken rubble

a shout – she is

alive and dancing

Sword of Nine Ways

(after a demonstration of an Aikido kata)

1. You are a valued The camera is pointed at Kevin. He’s alone on the mat,

employee. his hands ready with the bokken: bring it on.

Sensei speaks, Kevin bows, begins.

2. The economy is

depressed. I envision the choreography. From the North

a swordsman. Kevin strikes the man’s head, then thrusts

3. Our budget has been into his belly. Repeats his defence in the South, East,

diminished.

West. A man strikes from one side. Kevin sinks a sword

4. The payroll must in his skull and the man falls ‒ others drop in the North-East,

reduce. South-West, South-East. As they rise again, Kevin

5. The organisation blends with their attack. Sweeps his bokken in a circle

will be restructured. of throats until bodies lie bloody on the dojo floor,

the smartest have long since run for the hills.

6. You must reapply for

your position. Later I ask, what do you imagine as you perform?

Are there nine attackers, eight, or four? He smiles,

7. Staff motivation is this is a ki kata. No-one else is on the floor, my focus

not affected.

is on correct technique. Yes, just one man on the mat

8. There has been no but it’s not what I expected him to say. With no intention

disruption to business to harm, no imagined opponent, why does he bother?

as usual.

I make each tsuki the best thrust I have ever done. Every

9. You are a valuedshomen the most excellent cut. Each breath, each stance,