You werent stupid baby, its common to stay with them, you dont think about it, you go into denial.

I lived with my abuser for 3 months, being abused every day, more than once, one day it was 13 times in 24 hours.. but i thought 'were engaged' 'this is the sacrafice i have to make, in a marriage you make sacrafices, were going to get married' 'im a freak i dont like sex why should he suffer because im a freak'

And I didnt even ever stop to think, uh yeah but when i say no he does it anyway and im having a nervous break down, im 15 and hes 12 years older than me.