HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
I turn 18 today yay (she says, unenthusiastically!)
Yeah I’m not looking forward to it, because I’ll be legally old enough to drink and go into pubs and clubs and stuff, whoopee, that’s brilliant news for the teetotal, who is scared stiff of large nosy crowds! And because I’m one of the eldest of my friends I will be dragged into one of those horrid noisy crowded places just so I can look after whilst they get drunk and I think that’s what I’m looking forward for the least. Also there seems to be this culture of that everyone expects you to drink and no one seems to understand the phrase, “no I don’t drink” and 8/10 times they’ll just look at you as if your head has just separated from your body and that it’s floating in front of them, but I look about 15 so I have a few years of getting turned away at the door :D
I’m not doing anything special, going to try and sleep all the way until about noon or later and maybe do one or two nice things. The whole not doing something for my birthday seemed to have annoyed/surprised one of my friends to the point that she was demanding me to have one (just so she can drink ¬_¬’) I didn’t want anything special because I feel awkward being the center of attention and well I don’t know, I just didn’t know what to do ^^;
So do you think anyone will mind if I stay 17 for another year?

I am looking forward to spending my third birthday on here at theO as you guys are always so nice to me and I look forward to spend another year here with all of you :D

I’m only drawing a few presents this year as I’ve been busy at home with studding, getting my application for university ready and my art animation project. I would of loved to have drawn more gifts, but I’ll get around to it eventually ^^; so they might end up being a random gift in the middle of April (jk)

I want to wish everyone a very merry Christmas and I hope you all have a wonderful day.
To those who don’t celebrate Christmas happy random holiday/pretty light time/people generally nicer time/random day in December!

I just think I should explain a little now here,
I don’t like being a burden on people and I don’t like saying when there is something wrong with me or has made me upset, because I have such a distrust and fear in people that I don’t want to tell people what’s wrong and that I don’t want to be burden on any one or constantly moan and complain and generally annoy people, with updates filling up their messages. And so I keep it all deep inside of me, until sometimes it just has to come out.
I’ve suffered from depression since I was 12/13 years old and I have an anxiety disorder, thus meaning that sometimes things can get too much for me, but no one around me seems to notice. I try to stay as cheerfull as I can, but I can’t always keep it up. I try not to constantly moan, because I have to deal with someone like that at collage, who moans just for the sake of moaning and whose life is much better considering the lives people around them and with no consideration for other people, and I don’t want to be like that, and I hope I’m not.
So thank you everyone very much for being so concerned about me, it was really nice and touching. I hope I can get back to happier place soon and that I haven’t fallen to back into ‘it’
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A lonely little wallflower forever stargazing
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Markers
‘And now for something completely different’ XD
And now for a happy update :) I have gotten myself some copic markers, only skin colour though, but my friend Ari said she’d by me some coloured ones for my Christmas/birthday present :D
If anyone has any tips on how to use them it would be greatly appreciated :D
The colours I have are, Skin white, pinkish white, pale grape, blush, and Dull ivory
I hope to be able to practice them over the Christmas holidays :)

I hope you guys are having a good time at your end, and I’ll speak again soon :D

Secret SantaSecret Santa hosted by alphonse13 and MangaKid
Dear Secret Santa
I hope I don’t make things to difficult for you. If it wouldn’t be too difficult for you, could I have whichever one you chose.
1. Me and my oc Ozzy together.
2. My oc’s doing something wintery {LINK} Take your pic
3. A planetary moe pic {LINK}
4. Sirius B from planetary moe
5. Dewey and Jessie being a cute couple
6. Freckle and Ivy from Lackadaisy
7. Chubby or Nerdy America (Hetalia)
8. (I’d ask for a pairing from hetalia but I have to many XD) Fem!England X America is one

I don't want to go there again
I don't think I can come back from it again
I've lost grip, I'm sinking below the horizon
I'm slowly drowning and the pain inside me wont go
Slowly drowning into the abyss
Dear god please someone save me before it's too late. . .