This past week was Emi´s first track and field competition. Emi is a fast runner.. but her mind is also always running fast, and with that comes a lot of anxiety. I always mention Emi being anxious but never really talk about it here. Emi is my mini me around the house, if you want to know anything about this household, she will probably know the answer... the thing is that she is only ten, and I think that maybe she shouldn´t worry so much about everything. Emi smile is her hallmark, her sweetness defines her in so many levels, but what you don´t see behind her caring self is that she struggles with anxiety... somedays more than others, sometimes not at all, sometimes is clear what she is nervours about, yet sometimes she doesn´t know what is making her feel that way. Not a lot of people notice it, but she is my child, and I know that look in her eyes that makes me equally anxious because I can not help her stop worrying, and I know she is struggling. This... is the most difficult part, not being able to really help her.

On Thursday, well it was clear she was nervous about competing, but she was able to control herself, she breathed, drank sips at a time of Gatorade, prayed, gave me a kiss... looked into my eyes for reassurance and competed.. To me, seeing her run like the wind was a gasp of fresh air when you feel like you cannot breath anymore, and not because I wanted her to win first place, I was beyond happy because I knew that every step she took was proving her how amazing she is, and the power she has within herself to do anything she sets her mind to. And not because she is fast, really I could care less how fast she is, but because she overcame her fears, she was crushing whatever it was that was making her nervous, and that victory right there, well it felt soooo good!

Yeap... Two medals that day one, gold for 100 meters, and her team won gold in relay..... plus that smile, and the feeling of achievement!!! and my smile... which you can´t see, and my hidden teary eyes!

Among many things I pray for patience, faith, and love.... and with that, any sky will look as the sky that day!

So happy for your Emi... and so happy for you. A little nervousness before any big event is good sometimes and coming out shining on the other end despite the nervousness and anxiety makes the victory even sweeter.

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Hi! my name is Carolina Perisse de Rico, I am a stay at home architect with the biggest project ever... my girls! The oldest is 13, then I have an 11 year old, and now I am starting again with our three year old happiest toddler ever. Glad you are here, hope you stay a while!