Apple of My Eye

secrets kept

" And of mankind are some who take (for worship) others beside Allah as rivals (to Allah). They love them as they love Allah. But those who believe, love Allah more (than anything else). If only, those who do wrong could see, when they will see the torment, that all power belongs to Allah and that Allah is Severe in punishment "

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Thursday, April 26, 2012

A very predictable thing happened today..which would probably made to the Malaysian Guiness Book of Record...imagine that!

I actually cooked...a freaking dish called 'Gulai Pisang'

result : It turns out just as I imagined..

only the 'fire' was not in the lungs...it's in the stomach

I imagine...if the 'gulai' was edible..my mom would be very proud of me...but now..she's just...proud..only~
well..my intention of doing this cause my mom's B day..this mind is blank..
do not know what else to do for her...
and I just thought,,she cooked a lot for me,so..why not I too,cook at least one dish..just make her happy?
it was disastrous..*sigh
but the climax of today stories was...my mother had a sudden fever..
this knocked the breath out of me...how come?she was everything a mother could be...she don't fucking deserve any of this..-end of sad moment-
Year 2012...my mom had simple birthday celebration..just cakes(which mostly ate by me)..and one day MC from the doctor..took a chill pill on friday...
when I went outing with CEVD two days before...I bought a card just in case I couldn't come with something to cheer my mom up...but..just that..she had fever,took care of her..no words to write in that card,for a day my mom was born..day of heaven and miracle for me..~especially me...
my ink pen gone...I only thought of her pain..

Monday, April 23, 2012

Being a good daughter was never my accomplished task I had on my to-do list...it's simple but complicated...But seriously fella...what is so hard of being a loving children..PARENT had done so many we could never imagine...until,..of course when we become one ourself...[then you know lah weyh!how was it]what mother had done today had really touched my heart...but that's the point...she had done so many wonderful things for me - I lost count...-today was one of it... me was fasting today...makruh fasting to be exact [cause I sleep A LOT]...I didn't do any home chores to day..at all..like ;-#opening windows upstairs...[to allow 'rezqi' inside the house as she said]#feed the cats..poor the thing meow meowing#wash the dishes - f.y.i. my mom really hates that when there dirty dishes piled in the sink

so yeah..~I'm a terrible fast-er and daughter..when Maghreb's near...I'd ready with dates in front of me...my mom called ----mom : assalamulaykum..noainme : yes..waalaykumsalam ma...mom : what do you want for break-fast?me : I don't know..just buy anything..not rice..no KFC or McD watsoevermom : I don't what do you want to eat..really...I'm on my way to Jusco right now...just tell me what do you want...( 2 minutes of debating back and forth on what to eat...)me : okay mom!just buy that..urmm....mac and cheese..*sighmom : there..not so hard right?ok then..bye

Not so hard?..I KNOW Secret Recipe is one the most expensive restaurant...I was considering my fast was 'makruh'(cause of the sleep thing)..and that I did not do any house chores..make me feel like...like a umm...oh yeah!...A SCHMUCK~ let me highlight that..so..story ending..I got my mac and cheese..eat it with guilt feeling holing in my chest...and ate my medicine..[cause I'm sick of myself]

Goode ol' me

Ghost with the name Nur Aen Zaharyn,..I like cats and sushi, I hate cliche and bright colors..A Masochistic,freak of Intellectual Stupid, forever a Starstruck Vintage,.and the icing of the cake= A loner in each torturing ways,..
(Islam is serenity,Muslims are legendary..I am one~)