Worst anniversary ever.

It’s so annoying when something really big happens, that would be great “drama” for my blog, but I feel it is too much to write about. If I write all the gory details I would risk offending a lot of people, and pissing off one person in particular. And we don’t want that, do we?

Basically, yes it’s true Terry and I have ‘split up’. I use the quote marks cos we really don’t know what is going to happen, or if it will ever work. I have been calling it a ‘trial seperation’ to people who ask for details: only my true friends know what really happened and for once I will keep it that way. I’ve been so depressed lately, it’s caused me to get so upset, and a few of my amazing friends have helped me get through this – especially Katie, she was an absolute star, and stopped me doing something really stupid. I’ve also fell out with my parents because of this.

The reason for the title: “Worst anniversary ever” is this happened on Monday, exactly 1 week before Terry and mine’s first anniversary. How annoying that we didn’t make it that far, although to be fair it hasn’t been the same for months now.

But anyway, I am OK about it now, it made me realise not to put all my eggs in one basket, or count the chickens before they hatch. It also taught me to expect the unexpected. And it showed me that I have some REALLY great friends who really care about me, and that is better than the false friends who have been part of this. I have now put it to the back of my mind, and am having a happy time being single. As Eddy put it, “the word is out: shaun is single!” and been getting some attention from some people who have been interested all this time! Not that I’m following through with any of it, I’m certainly not going to get into another relationship already (I’m not like that, and also this whole mess still is not sorted. Like, we’re supposed to be living together in a couple of months!)

Anyway that’s all I’m going to say! Think I’ve said a bit too much, lol nevermind. Just please DON’T talk to me about it, unless I have already spoken to you about it!! Also, Jenny/Laura if you are reading this: do not fret, the house will be fine!

Maybe sometime I’ll come back and write exactly what happened on here! depends what happens in the future really!

Shaun x

Would have given up my life for you
Guess it’s true what they say about love
It’s blind
Girl, you lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you ’cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize

You didn’t say you’re sorry
I don’t understand
You don’t care that you hurt me
And now I’m half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn’t love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you’ll never get to love me, again

No, no, no, no, no, no

Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you’re not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it

But you didn’t say you’re sorry
I don’t understand
You don’t care that you hurt me
And now I’m half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn’t love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you’ll never get to love me

It’s like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it’s too late, it’s over now

You didn’t say you’re sorry
I don’t understand
You don’t care that you hurt me
And now I’m half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn’t love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you’ll never get to love me
Again