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Thursday, December 18, 2008

My Body is Not My Own

I am pregnant.

7 weeks, to be exact. It is all so surreal. Right now I feel like I don't even own my body. It's doing things that I have no control over. I feel somewhat nauseous and crampy and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I can't take anything for it, so I have been learning to live with it. So far, it's really not that bad. It's more the emotional side of things that have gotten to me. I feel like my mind is always fixated on it. Everything I do, everything I say and think, it's there. There's another part of me now that didn't exist before. I'm still grasping this concept. I mean, right now it already has an appendix and a pancreas! In the medical world they're still not 100% sure what an appendix does, but the baby has already developed it this early on...insane!

I know it may sound all cliche and everything, but I really do feel like it's a miracle. It's amazing that God has chosen me (and my husband) to welcome a child into the world. We weren't planning on it, but He felt like it was the right time for us. So, there's nothing we can do but have a baby!