Monday, December 24, 2007

Merry Christmas

This is the second holiday season spent without my daughter. But more depressing is there will most likely be yet another after this one. It's difficult for others to understand how it's possible to miss a child so much... who only exists in your heart. The holidays are rough for those of us still waiting. Especially those whose homes are quiet on Christmas morning. To distract myself a little, I'll be spending the night at my sister's house. It'll be nice to wake up with the kids and watch them open their presents.

But I'll still think about my Mia. As I do every day. And I'll dream about the Christmas morning when my house won't be quiet anymore.

This song was written by a member of the band Third Day while he was waiting to bring his own daughter home from China. This video of his family and their trip to China is shown at concerts during the song. I'm borrowing it as my message to my daughter.

I can't wait until the day that I can finally hold you in my arms. Until then... I'll keep carrying you in my heart. I love you, Mia. Merry Christmas from Mommy.

I know I don't say it enough, but my heart aches for you, Kris. I'm sorry that this wait has stretched into what feels like oblivion. I hope that you are able to enjoy your holiday, even if just a little, with our family.

Wow, thanks Krista. A good cry from the beginning. I can NOT WAIT until I can celebrate Miss Mia's homecoming. I cried for you today, and I will celebrate with you one day in the future. I hope that it will be okay for me to be lurking at the Airport...I look forward to it.

Oh, what a bittersweet post. I do so hope that you have your little Mia next year. I do believe it is harder for people who don't have children at home. And I do understand completely how you can love a child who isn't home yet.

Nobody understands the wait unless they have been there done that. I remember so much longing and following every ounce of info on the net while waiting. This year we finally made it, its hard to believe but its the best feeling in the world. I'm not even going to say you'll forget all the waiting because that's not what you need to hear right now. Your heart is aching for a good reason. You deserve to feel your pain, and I wish Olivia was there to give you a big squishy hug.