Thursday, 18 August 2016

In life, you learn many lessons. You are faced with many bumps in the roads, I have had pretty big bumps in mine. Being isolated, alone, lied to, being told I am not good enough in many ways, yet being told that I have so much to offer by others. I have, and still believe that I am a somebody, and that I have something special to give in many ways, however, I never been given an opportunity, or a chance, or had certain people believe in me. I have given all that I have to people who could not see how much I was really giving them, or had people tell me that I am obsessed, when I am just being myself, a guy that cares a lot, maybe too much but that is just how I am, and I am happy to do so, yet others don't seem to understand. I learned that in the end, you may have yourself to be with and yourself to trust, because in the end, it is your life, you know who you are, and if no one sees, if no one understands you, then who cares about them. I know who I am, and accept who I am, but what if who you are, isn't accepted by the people around you, or seen?

Some people believe that you have to be in a relationship, that you have to get married and start a family, cause that is what life is about. Some people believe it so much, that even if things go so bad, they choose to " settle " and be in a relationship that they realize later on they hate, and feel uncomfortable, or even hate being in and choose to get a divorce. For some this happens over and over and over, choosing to settle over and over, having kids, and getting divorces, causing harm not only to themselves, but to their children. Sure, your goal in life could be to have a family, and a home, and all those things, but you do need to think about what you yourself need in the relationship, and take time to see how you feel about the person, and if you are just attracted to them, and not really in love with them. Some tend to marry for.... " other reasons" ( ;) ), because they desire attention so much, or physical attraction a little too much, that they later ruin their lives, and their relationships and so on. You need to remember that you are never EVER forced to be in a relationship of any kind, you are never forced to love someone, and if you feel like you are being forced, reach out to others before its too late, tell others whats going on before its too late. In the end, its your life, and you can choose to live your life alone and focus on being comfortable and happy with yourself, if others find that strange, that is their problem.

People may tell you that you are not good enough to do something, that you can't because you are not that type of person, or maybe because you don't have " it ", or maybe because you just don't have what it takes. Some people will always judge, or even prejudge you, meaning judging you way before even knowing you. I believe that every single person has it in them to make life the way they want to make it. We are all born with not knowing anything about life, and we learn by experiences and many other ways, build up a certain mindset about things. With that said, how can anyone tell you that you are not good enough, when everyone has it in them to do anything? You may just need to focus a bit more, put more effort into it, and you can make it happen, there for, you do, and always will have what it takes to make it happen. Never let others effect you. You know who you are, and what matters to you.

People may walk away, laugh at you, push you away, leave you, you may be left alone, not knowing at all what you have done, feeling confused and maybe in time not liking who you are because you feel like who you are is the reason people treat you the way you are, and you try so hard to be one of them to fit in. You should never try to fit in, if you are different, embrace it. Many people have made amazing successful lives by being different, by not fitting in, by creating things that some may have thought was stupid, yet making tons of money doing it, or being cheered for something they have done. My point is that you are special, everyone is special in their own way, if some people leave, that is their problem, not yours, they chose to do so they chose to be the way they are, you know who you are, don't let their actions effect who you know you are.

Never give in, never give up, and never settle, live life the way you want and the way you feel, and if you feel like you are being forced or pushed into being someone else, stop and think, and find ways to change that, because what matters the most, is what matters to you, and who you are deep down, not what they think is right, but what you know is right for you. ( might work more on this article later )

Monday, 15 February 2016

I was skimming through my past blogs, see how I used to be, and how I am now.Its interesting to see how you yourself go through, seeing what you have had on your mind, how you reacted, and how you were, and how you are now. It makes you see what you been feeling, what mattered to you, what you were passionate about, and what has happened since then.

I see the past me ( after getting over depression and fighting to create change ) as a man who was passionate about making a change, who would push myself, even with what was going on with me at the time, not able to really speak much since a part of me was still depressed, but still able and willing and had the desire to step out and make an impact in some way. Sure, during that time I got pretty upset, I got emotional, but that is what comes with trying to make a big positive change in schools and stuff, a big positive change in general really. I came pretty close to making a change in schools where I am, except I was blocked by schools for doing so ( even though the trustees of the school board liked it, but wanted a demonstration ). I was hurt when I felt like I was pretty much blocked off from making a difference, but I realized later that I did. I made people at town hall meetings and with my blog realize what was going on, and started to speak against it, in a way, made people see what was really happening.

Later on, I started to lose focus on what I was doing, and started to aim more to just being with someone, and reaching out for a job, most times not even related to what I desire. I became a bit more stuck in the thought that it's time to move on, when my heart was telling me to keep going. I watched a video that really got me thinking ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M4Ko32D5ALw ), that I need to continue down that path that I was on, to build myself up, push myself even more. There are many paths towards the same goal that I am trying to aim for, my next step in life is to go to university in social work. That way I can be working in schools, or somewhere where I can continue to make a difference. It maybe a longer path, but it is what my heart wants the most, what I want the most.

I am keeping the past posts up because it shows how a guy who been through so much, and has fought for something, what that kind of person goes through. It also shows signs of how schools and community places and stuff seem to really see the community when someone really wants to make a difference in the world. It is more of a sign that things do need to change. I believe that if you feel strongly for something, that you share it, show it, express it as much as you can, any way that you can, especially if its something like creating a positive change in people's lives. There will always be some stuff you may feel should not be said, but never block yourself from expressing that though in some way. The more we hide our true feelings, the more we lose who we really are, and what really matters to us.

Monday, 8 February 2016

First off, I do agree this world has some sexist things, even in gaming. I know some girls that would like to become gamers if there were just more playable, and main characters that are female. I believe some games go far beyond the line when it comes to showing sexist stuff ( like the horrible, and offensive game called Ride to Hell ). I believe that there should be games targeted to what feminists want. However, there are some feminists out there ( like Anita Sarkeesian ) that clearly just go on youtube, and reach out, and clearly spread misinformed, and some of the most dumbest responses to games I have ever seen.

One of her points, one of her recent videos explained about buts, like bottoms. Now sure, some games do get pretty crazy when it comes to showing off body parts and being pretty perverted, however, when it comes to targeting all games, especially games that are rated M for mature, games that are expected to be offensive, and meant for adult gamers, that shows that she is desperate to target anything that can be seen as feminist. If you see what is out there in movies, in tv shows, and just in reality, compared to games, you will find out that there are far more offensive than buts in video games. What was the point in her aiming at buts, in reality, both boys and girls are attracted to buts, we all have buts, and on mature games, you have to expect mature, adult content like that. Also, its 2016, games have evolved, far better graphics, becoming more realistic, that is not a scary thing, its impressive, and has become mainstream, just like movies, just like adult content, just like a lot of things. There for, saying that games are the problem for violence, or sexist acts is wrong, when you have far worse things in movies, or on TV, and especially on the internet that is not protective compared to video games.

My belief is that things do need to improve, but not in the way Anita wants. There needs to be something for everyone, there needs to be things for both males and female both to really enjoy, and to be happy to play, just like movies, just like tv shows, just like any form of entertainment. There just needs to be something for everyone. Also, it is good to point out things, but we do need to understand that NOT EVERYTHING IS SEXIST! AND VIDEO GAMES ARE NOT THE ISSUE TO THINGS IN THE WORLD!

All entertainment are meant to make you feel a certain way, excited, sad, angry, and more, the main thing about video games is to have fun, and everyone has their own way of thinking when it comes to what is fun, or ok, or amazing, or exciting, or entertaining, and we have to accept that, not target games, and try to take it away or something like that, because then we just become monsters, taking away all that is fun, that is entertaining, we start to become bad. Some people who create games may take risks, may do things that they believe is entertaining and fun. If we keep attacking them, we are really taking away the creativity of others. All we need to do is to share our thoughts and ideas on what we like, and what we find entertaining, and hope people hear us, but never force, and attack those who want to share their creativity, weather we do not accept it or not, there are millions of games out there, million of movies, we are free to choose what we find acceptable, and entertaining. Don't attack those just cause you do not accept their creative view on life, or on what is entertaining, just choose someone else's view on entertaining, just like you do when it comes to having friends, or having a relationship, or buying food, choose what is acceptable and entertaining to YOU!

( will probably continue working on this article later, but felt like I needed to say something for now.