I hate a lot of things in life.
I hate that two doctors, together, killed my son.
I hate that they didn’t see him for who he was, and I hate that they didn’t see his worth.
I hate that they didn’t listen to me when I tried to protect my son.
I hate that even Google is talking about the things that Rowan’s own pediatrician refuses to.
I hate silence, and the crimes that result.
I hate apathy, and the destruction that happens because of it.
I hate that I had to teach my daughter about death.
I hate that I have to teach her everyday about silence, and apathy, and why bad guys sometimes get away, and why some people don’t have to say they’re sorry.

And I’m UN-apologetically angry.
I’m angry when someone is silent, and I will not tolerate it.
I’m angry when someone is apathetic, and I will not tolerate it.
I’m angry when someone won’t say they are sorry, and I will not tolerate it.
I’m outraged when someone hides his crimes, and I will not tolerate it.
I’m outraged every morning when I wake up envisioning my son’s death, that I witnessed, all over again.
I’m angry every night when I cry myself to sleep.

But I look into my daughter’s eyes, and I can’t teach her to hate.
I won’t hate all doctors, because I can’t teach her to discriminate.
I won’t hate people who are silent, because I can’t teach her to give up her own voice.
I won’t hate people who are apathetic, because I can’t teach her that she can’t make a change.
I won’t hate those who don’t take responsibility, because I can’t teach her to run away from her own.

I am angry. And will teach my daughter that there are some things that are wrong.
I am outraged. And will teach my daughter that there are some things worth being furious about.
But I will not meet hate with hate. Because if she learns that lesson, then I have lost her, too.

Rowan was killed at a renowned children’s hospital as a direct result of the careless and unnecessary use of general anesthesia for a “routine” outpatient diagnostic procedure .. against his mother’s wishes.

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