initially it was a safe spot a way totighten your world around you so no one could get in.' (you never thought it'd end this way.)somewhere deep inside you was this fear this relentless screaming

yelling that it was better this way it was better if you just left yourselfout of the real world out of harm's wayunderneath your blankets and inside your mind you built a wall when inreality you built a prison.

failure was always an option but never one you particularly liked soas a precaution to save yourself you burned down all the bridgesunderneath yourself and were somehow surprised when no one camelooming down to save you no one came to your side.

years past and now you've grown now you want to overload yourself with all the things you missed when you were brokenunderstand what is to laugh with people and be around that warmth.' (life has a funny way of telling you to go ******** yourself.)reeling back you realise what it is you've done what pain yourescape has cause you.

at night the only thing you do is count the threads of your sheets andlull yourself to sleep with the promise of a better tomorrow anotherleisurely stroll that you insist won't end in being

alone again something that will let you grasp what everyone else hasloving someone and being surrounded by people surrounded byovertly happy people who value you and touch you and smile andnever leaving but in reality all you've done is condemned yourself to aneternity of chasing shadows.