Date: Sat, 31 Mar 2001 13:46:59 -0500
From: fsw99
Subject: Chapter 13 of Dear Diary
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DEAR DIARY
By Stan
Chapter Thirteen
I was almost shaking with excitement. I coated myself as quickly as my
hands could go, and moved closer to Matt. I leaned down quickly and kissed
him hard. "Are you sure you are ready?"
Matt was really looking worried now, but said, "Yeah. Go ahead. Just go
slow."
I placed myself at the opening and pushed. Nothing happened. I pushed a
little harder. Still nothing.
"He's just scared. Everyone is the first time. Bruce, hold one cheek and I
will hold the other. Let's try and get him as wide open as we can. Matt,
just relax, OK? It won't hurt any more than three fingers did. Jamie, just
do like with your fingers. Don't try and push too hard. Just constant
pressure and let Matt let you in when he wants to, all right?" Brian asked.
I just nodded my head yes. I was too nervous to talk. I tried once more,
and kept pressure, but nothing happened. SHIT!!!!
Brian could see that both of us were frustrated. Who wouldn't be? "Look,
this happened to Nate and I our first time. It's nothing to be alarmed
about. Matt, get up and get on all fours. Put your head on this," he said,
handing Matt another sleeping bag. Matt did as he was told and got into
position. "Now Matt, just relax. You are ready. It isn't going to hurt, so
just totally relax, but push out. It will help open you up."
I lined up again, and Bruce and Brian helped hold Matt's cheeks apart. Oh
God!!! The head and half the shaft slipped in without much problem. I heard
Matt gasp, and stopped. "Are you OK, Matt?"
"Oh yeah. It didn't hurt at all. Well, maybe a little bit, but it feels
sooo gooood!!!"
I just smiled. I was extremely happy. For both of us.
"OK, you are in. Go really slowly until you hit bottom. Let him get used to
you in between each step. Once you are in all the way, rest for a little
bit, and then you both can set your own pace. Bruce and I are through. You
don't need us any more. Come on Bruce, let's let them have a little
privacy," Bruce said.
"NO!!! I don't want to leave. I am way to horny to leave now. Matt got to
watch Dave and I's first time. Why can't I watch his and Jamie's?" Bruce
yelled.
"Matt? Jamie? Do you care if we stay?" Brian asked.
I pushed in a little bit more and stopped to let Matt get used to it, like
Brian had said.
"I don't care. Like Bruce said, I got to see his first time. It is up to
Jamie, though", Matt answered. Or moaned, really!!!
I looked at both of them. "I guess if all of us are going to be doing it at
the same time tomorrow night, I had better get used to it, shouldn't I?"
"Yeah. You are learning fast," Brian giggled. "OK, if we are staying, bring
over the KY and the towel. I can't watch this without jerking off. I am too
hot, too. I was going to have us both go down and swim to get my boner to
go back down, but if we are going to stay and watch, I guess I'll just have
to take care of it myself," Brian added.
Bruce got both quickly and sat down next to his big brother. "I can take
care of it for you, if you will do me."
Brian just smiled at his youngest brother. "That would be nice. But, let's
go really slow and try and come when they do, all right?"
"Yeah, that sounds good to me," Bruce said, as he smiled at Brian and
raised up enough to kiss him lightly on the lips. No heavy kiss. No open
mouth, no tongue. Nothing sexual about it. Just a loving kiss between two
people that love each other.
(It's a shame that boys are brought up to believe that any sign of
affection is bad, and is something to be made fun of. Boys don't hug each
other, except when their team wins a game, and then it's all right. It's
expected. That couldn't be gay, because they are athletes, right? If two
totally heterosexual boys hugged each other in a hallway at school, and
everyone saw them do it, they would be ragged for days, weeks,
more. Harassed, maybe beaten up. Girls can do it, can even kiss each other,
and no one thinks anything about it. Girls are lots more sexually adjusted
than boys, don't you think? I was brought up the same way, back in the dark
ages. Nothing has really changed. It's a shame. OK, this is a commercial!!!
By the way, go to Hi-Fi Buys for electronics, Delta for air travel, Nissan
Maxima is a super buy!!! hehehehe Wonder how I can get endorsements like
Tiger Woods!!!)
Matt turned his head to the other side so he could watch his two brothers
love each other, as they were preparing to do. They were sitting, propped
up against the corner tent pole, very near his head. They all smiled at
each other, as I started to gently pump in and out.
Matt alternated from keeping his head in the air, and resting it on the
rolled up sleeping bag. He did voice his pleasure, though. Matt wasn't one
to keep his feeling inside himself. He was very vocal in his
enthusiasm. Matt liked it. Matt liked it a lot!!!
I looked over at Brian and Bruce. They had one arm around each other, as
they were watching us. They were very slowly jerking each other off with
the KY jelly. They didn't even seem to be interested in their own
enjoyment. Sex was secondary to them right now. Sure, they wanted to feel
good. Sure, they would eventually have their own fun. But, that wasn't what
this was all about. They wanted to share with their middle brother his
first time at love making. They loved him, he loved them, and they all
wanted to be there for him.
I started to speed up a little bit. "Oh God, that feels so good, Jamie. Go
faster. Do it harder," Matt panted.
"He's ready, Jamie. You can go faster, and it won't hurt him at all," Brian
said.
No one had to tell me anything else. I increased my pumping speed by almost
double. Matt started moaning lots louder, as I kept this up for several
minutes. Both of us started sweating like we were running a long distance
race. In a way, I guess we were.
I started to feel like I might come any time, so I decreased my strokes,
and finally came to a complete stop. I didn't want to come too soon and
spoil this for Matt or myself.
"Jamie, what's wrong?" Matt panted.
"Nothing. I just want to make this last as long as I can."
"Oh, OK. You do what you think is best," he said.
Brian and Bruce just giggled at that remark. It was kind of funny. I don't
think Matt minded anything I was going to do right now. He was enjoying
himself too much.
After maybe a minute, I started a slow pumping action again. I hadn't gone
down at all. Matt's insides were holding me too firmly for that to happen.
I wasn't going to stop this time. I wanted to make this last as long as
possible, but I also wanted to come, and come hard. I didn't know which one
I wanted the most.
I decided to try and make Matt come at the same time I did, so I reached
over his thigh and started jerking him off at the same speed I was pumping
inside of him. He moaned loudly in appreciation.
Soon, I felt the familiar tingling, and knew my orgasm wasn't very far
off. I wiped the sweat out of my eyes, and started to pump in and out
quicker and quicker.
Matt actually came first. He yelled out loud as he came. Him coming caused
his anal muscles to clamp down hard on my penis, which was all it took for
me to join him in orgasm land. Or where ever you go.
I also heard other moans in the background, but I had no idea where they
came from. I had completely forgotten about Brian and Bruce. Matt and I had
been in our own little world. And it is a great place to visit!!!
I had read somewhere that a pig's orgasm lasts thirty minutes. Mine didn't
last anywhere near that long, but it was intense. By the sound Matt made
when he came, I think his was as good for him as mine was for me. (No,
everyone can't be a pig!!! hehehe I wonder if the government paid for that
research???)
When mine finally ended, I was so drained that I collapsed on top of Matt's
back, which caused his knees to buckle. We fell together onto the sleeping
bag with me still inside him. Neither of us tried to separate ourselves
from the other. Neither of us had any strength right now. We were both
completely out of it.
When I had regained a little bit of my sanity, the first thing I heard was
giggling off to my left. I raised my head and looked over at Brian and
Bruce, who were trying unsuccessfully to stifle their laughter.
Matt's head was already angled towards them. When he opened his eyes, he
was staring straight at them. "What's so funny?" he asked angrily.
"We were just wondering whether to cover you two up and leave you for the
night. You both looked so out of it, we thought you might not move until
morning," Bruce kidded.
"Like either of you are any different. I have watched you and Dave and
Brian and Nate enough to know that," Matt answered.
"Well, I don't care if you think it's funny or not. I am totally exhausted
but happy as Hell," I said, as I raised up off of Matt and tried to sit up.
"Here, you had better clean up some. Or both of you go down and take a dip
in the lake," Brian said, as he handed me a towel.
"I think I have enough time in the lake today, thank you very much," Matt
answered, causing all of us to laugh hysterically.
I cleaned us up as best as I could and handed the towel to Matt, who was
finally starting to get up and move around. "Matt, I am sorry about jumping
out on the rope with you. I had no idea you were so scared to do it. But,
we are going to get you over your fear tomorrow. We can go together, or you
can go by yourself, but you are going to do it again," I stated.
"Ohhhh no. Never again. Once is plenty for me."
"Ohhhh yes. You have to get over it. We can have a great time swinging on
the rope. I want us to do it together. OK?"
Matt just looked up at me lovingly. "You really want me to do it that
badly?"
"Yeah, I do. I want you to do it for both of us. I am really enjoying
camping, and I would like us to come back here over and over."
Brian and Bruce just cracked up at that remark. I had been serious, but
then Brian said, "Oh, so you think you are enjoying the camping trip so
far? Gee, Bruce and I had thought you had hated everything that had
happened so far."
I could see their point. So, I laughed with them, as did Matt. "I wasn't
talking about having sex. I just meant getting away from everyone and just
being with you guys. OK, I won't lie. The sex was terrific. But, I do like
camping with you guys, sex or no sex."
That seemed to make everybody happy. Brian and Bruce moved over and both
hugged me and then did the same for Matt. Bruce even kissed me on the
cheek. "You be good to my brother, you understand, or you will have to
answer to Brian and I."
"Oh, I will. I promise. I sure don't want you beating me up over something
I did to your older brother," I kidded back.
"Hey, I'm small, but I can hold my own. You would have found out how well I
can fight if Matt and I had to take on Mark."
"Well, I'm glad I didn't have to find out. I am sure you are a tiger. I'm
really glad it just ended up peacefully."
"Me too. Steve has always seemed like a pretty nice guy. I haven't had many
classes with him, but we got along really well last year in PE," Brian
said.
"Yeah, Mark seems pretty nice, too. I had History with him last year, and
he is pretty smart," Matt added.
"Yeah, and he is really good looking, too," I added, as I winked at Brian
and Bruce.
Matt saw me wink, so he played along with the joke. "Oh, you think he's
good looking, huh? You take advantage of me, take my virginity, and already
you are looking around for another boyfriend? I think my brothers and I
ought to teach you a lesson about what we do to people who take advantage
of us," Matt said, as he grabbed me and forced my on my back.
Both brothers also jumped in to help him, and I was soon pinned down. Of
course, I didn't exactly fight them, either. This was too much fun.
Matt was sitting on my stomach, holding my hands down. "Now, what did you
say about someone being really good looking?" he asked.
"Uhm, well, oh yeah, I think I was just saying how good looking my
boyfriend was," I answered, with a big grin on my face.
"That's better," Matt said, as he leaned down and kissed me.
"Yeah, much better. I was hoping we didn't have to castrate you on your
first night camping with us," Bruce said, as he grabbed me by the balls.
"Hey, keep your hands off of those. Those are my property. If anyone is
going to castrate him, it will be me," Matt said, laughing.
"I have a real good idea. Why don't you just kiss me once more and let me
keep my balls. I kind have grown fond of them," I answered.
Everyone laughed, and Matt did just that. He leaned down and kissed me for
a long time. Both of us were grinning when he finally leaned back up.
Brian had got up and walked out of the tent. He returned with the four
beers. "I think we ought to have a toast. This isn't exactly what we need,
but it is a close as we are going to get.," he said, as he handed all of us
a beer. We all popped the top, and he said, "To Matt and Jamie. May they
have many more years together."
We all clinked our cans together, and drank a long swallow. I was really
thirsty after making love with Matt, but this stuff sucked!!! I had never
had a beer before, and wasn't sure if I ever wanted another one, but I
sipped it just the same. Matt also made a face, and we all laughed about
that.
"Anybody like this stuff?" I asked.
"Not really," Bruce said.
"I kind of do," Brian answered.
"Well, you can have mine. I am going to get a coke," Bruce said, as he
handed the can to Brian.
"Bring me one, too," Matt said, also handing his can to Brian.
I started to do the same, but decided to finish what I had. After the first
couple of swallows, it wasn't so bad any more. I didn't think I would ever
like the taste, but I wanted to try it once.
Bruce came back with the drinks, and handed one to Matt. Suddenly, my
stomach growled loudly.
"You aren't hungry, are you?" Brian kidded. "Let's go and heat up the
food. I am hungry, too. It won't take long for us to heat everything up,
and we can eat."
We all got up as we were. No one bothered to put on any clothes. After what
we had just shared, clothes didn't seem to be necessary between any of us.
Our meal was only canned beans and the hot dogs I had brought with me. But,
sitting outside, under the stars, with my best friends and having my
boyfriend sitting beside me, it seemed like the best meal I had ever
eaten. There was only one thing that could have been better. Sitting naked
on a cold concrete bench wasn't my idea of a really good time!!! Everything
else was perfect, though.
We ended up going down to the lake and wading in the shallow areas after we
had finished and cleaned up. We splashed around and had a great time. The
water was still warm from the really warm day. This was the life!!!
When we all decided to go back to the tent and get ready for bed, Matt had
a kind of smirk on his face. He leaned in and kissed me. Once. Twice. Many
times. I was hard in no time.
"Oh, God, they are at it again," Bruce kidded.
And we were. Both of us knew what we wanted. I had learned a lot today. I
demonstrated my new knowledge for Brian and Bruce. And for Matt. Especially
for Matt.
I was extremely loving and careful. I took all the time Matt needed. No one
had to help me. I understood now.
Matt was still pretty loose from our first time, and it didn't take us
nearly as long this time. We tried again to make love face to face, and
this time, we were successful. I think both of us enjoyed it lots more this
way, being able to kiss and cuddle together as we made love. And that was
what we did. We didn't fuck. We made love. Lots of difference.
I also went very slowly this time. We mostly rocked back and forth. No
quick in and out. We took our time, enjoying each other, staring each other
in the eyes the whole time. It was special. It was magical. If anything, I
fell more in love with Matt then than I had ever been.
When it was over, this time they did just cover us up. We separated, but
then just went to sleep wrapped with our arms and legs entwined. It was a
great way for the day to end. Fuck it. We would worry about the mess and
sticking together in the morning. We still had lots to learn, but we would
learn it together.
To be continued.
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