Friday, June 29, 2012

A brief Pop in

*waves* Anyone still read this? If not its ok. I think i will continue to blog regardless. A huge thank you to my love, magnet, and bff Erin for trying to keep this alive in my absence.

Needless to say, 2012 has not exactly been my year.

I have been sick the majority of the year. But with a few breaks in between allowing me to get out a few times with good people. But the majority of the time if i left the house it was to Barns and Noble to read. IE: Takes no energy, good people watching, free reading, and no one really cares if you are in your pajamas and look like hell. Or to church.

I was in a great, but short term relationship with an old friend. Who i thought loved me, but was then proven wrong. Heartbreak hurts, but as a wise friend once said “Leave it at the cross”. I trust in the Lord, and his plans for me. Thats pretty much been my mantra for the entire year. No matter what i want, hope, and wish. Its all in God’s hands. And my job is to TRUST and have FAITH.

My beautiful baby Buttons is sick once again. She had a really bad seizure a few weeks ago and has been having mini ones since. She is barely mobile but we are spoon feeding her, giving her medicine, watching over her like crazy, and praying she improves. Which she has. Baby steps.

Old memories seem to be haunting me lately as well. Just more demons i am trying to tackle. During a brief moment of some-what-not-being-sick, we went to Vegas for my grandma to have surgery. The first time going since my aunt passes away a few months ago. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I miss her every day. But i didnt realize just how hard it would be going to Vegas and realizing she is not there anymore. Again, calling on God for strength.

Im not sure where this blog is going. I definitely plan on continuing to write. I hope ya’ll stick around. But if not i understand that too. Thank you to everyone who has been praying for me, messaging me, emailing me, and tweeting me. Even if i havent responded yet. Please know i have read them all and am SO very grateful for the love and support everyone has sent.

16 comments:

Wow. Sarah, this seems to be a year of constant test and trials and I am so SO SO happy you are in relationship with HIM who I also have faith will work all things together for some sort of good somehow.

:) Hello. I'm a newbie to your blog, but you seem like such an amazing person! And i give you all my support in your recovery! And i hope that things get better for you, remember theres another 6 months left... im sure you can trun things around, and make 2012 better?! Keep up all the good work, never give up!

It's so good to hear from you Sarah. That guy clearly made a huge mistake. Unless of course you left him.. ha then that just sucks for him. :) But I love you girl and I'm praying for you and your cute pup.

I am so glad to hear from you, but so sad that things have been hard :( I know how it feels to have a sick dog, my dog had seizures a couple of months back and it is just so heartbreaking :( Praying for you <3 and sending my love!

Hey girl, so sorry about all your struggles. Have you ever heard of Mercy Ministries? It sounds like it might really help you with all these "heart issues," as my pastor calls them. I've had a few friends who went and man, were things different. God bless you, sister.