Monday, April 11, 2005

Déjà vu again

Déjà vu. I saw it happen again. Before. Only this time it was for real.

And I thought back to how I saw a place I never knew existed within the place I existed. This was a strange experience for me. It was not the same kind of a déjà vu. It was a dream becoming real, but not a dream you expected to come to life within the bounds of your everyday reality. Yet there it was, staring you in the face. Existing where you didn’t think it would. And that is when I knew, that you can’t take anything for granted. Things are there and you might not have seen them. When the basest of assumptions turn out to be blatant lies. And those lies get shattered.

Déjà vu. I saw it happen before. Again. Only this time it might have been a dream.

Back in the same city again. After a long time. Back again, in exactly the same situation. As clearly as it was, in the dream. But I didn’t make the connection till I looked up, and saw something that caught my attention. And he was there, exactly the way he was in my dream. Looking back with a friendly stare. Waiting for an answer. And I was thinking about my dream and how I got here. And about all the other dreams that have come true and might come true in the future. This one, of course, was harmless. But what about the darker ones? What if they started to come to life. But they wouldn’t. I knew that. So I picked up my drink and smiled back.

17 comments:

lovely..absolutely lovely post..am running out of adjectives having read such beautiful posts over a short space of time...i fell in love with the latter half of this piece...and teh way you ended it...

posts like these convince me that you are some sort of an authour incognito, lol. but seriously...brilliant.We notice something, when we need it. I always pray that my dreams come true in a positive way, i am sort of superstitious about it. :)

This reminds me of a play where you are watching a scene of your life already acted out before. Was it this life, a past life, or something in the future? When you can see something that you previously left unappreciated, you are slowing down and seeing everything. Amazing, August.

"And that is when I knew, that you can’t take anything for granted. Things are there and you might not have seen them. When the basest of assumptions turn out to be blatant lies. And those lies get shattered."

so simple and yet so profound. and the thing many of us fear the most. that our base assumptions, the things we count as our foundations, turn out to be falsehoods. and what happens then?

masterful piece. so many concepts in here, yet I did not feel like I was choking. a real testament to well-thought out writing.

I experience déja vu quite often which makes me think i must be crazy! lol The first time was more than 9 years when I visited a penpal. Her house seemed so familiar to me, it was so weird! I could say i had ever been there before but it wasnt the case. Btw I believe in reincarnation.

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There is a magic in the air that permeates through the very soul of my existence. There is a stillness in the night that floods my senses beyond my imagination. There is a madness inside of me that overflows in everything that I create. There is a past behind me that is overcrowded with memories that drain me out.