Its a beautiful life :o)

My life, just a part of it....but very imp....just an effort to preserve memories which would otherwise be lost in the maze of life.....an effort to remember people who matter the most to me...people who make n impact on me.....an account of what is most imp for me....my life n what n who makes it beautiful (n sad :o) )

Monday, August 11, 2008

I am scared...

of gays...I guess the genesis of this fear lies in the experience in 11 or 12th standard, thanks to a bloody f****n homo armyman...wont get into the details but i fled from there and saved myself....

my engineering college was again in a place which was "famous" for men who wore mundus very high...many of them for a reason...they were happy...n GAY...had a coupla encounters with "them", but thankfully was in a group or in safe premises...

and it happened again this saturday...was in the gymn...there were 2 more people...so there were the 3 of us...then one of them finished his workout n left...i was working out at one corner of the gymn...n the other "guy" was working out in the other corner...

suddenly he comes to me n says....u dont look like a native...n starts conversation...i dont suspect anything...i too talk to himhe is saying he works in singapore...has been to india...got guys from there for an IT firm (now i doubt if he got guys for himself)...then he suddenly says...u have a very beautiful face...u can be a model....

i found something wrong....the way he said it...the look on his face...the fact that he was trying to come close to me while speaking...

i thought...fine...now he has gone to the other end of the gymn....let me get back to working out...

he comes back...with a phone...n asks me for my contact no., in KL or in India...anywhere...he says he is goin to be back in KL in a week or so...so we could catch up for drinks...

now come on man...u dont even know me...have hardly met me...n u want to drink with me...at night...n get me drunk n do wat...this was a big guy...pretty well built...i said..i dont have a KL no., nor an india no.

guess he saw that i saw...so he went back to his corner...n then left in sometime...said...i am goin to the sawna...i didnt even venture near the sauna....being half naked next to this "guy" wasnt a particularly enticing proposition...as soon as he left...i too left...fearing he would come back...