A newly surfaced note purportedly reveals that Rupert Murdoch’s ex-wife Wendi Deng was infatuated with a certain “Tony,” just months after Deng and the media mogul divorced last year amid rumors—which both parties have denied—of her affair with former British prime minister Tony Blair.

“Whatever why I’m so so missing Tony,” says the note allegedly written in broken English by Deng, recently published by Vanity Fair. “Because he is so so charming and his clothes are so good. He has such good body and he has really really good legs Butt… And he is slim tall and good skin. Pierce blue eyes which I love. Love his eyes. Also I love his power on the stage… and what else and what else and what else…”

Murdoch married Deng in 1999 when she was 30, he 68. Reports circulated that their marriage had become increasingly acrimonious before they split last year, and there were unsubstantiated rumors linking Deng with Google executive chairman Eric Schmidt as well as Blair. Unnamed sources told Vanity Fair that Blair and Deng were romantically involved, but there is no evidence showing the two actually did have an affair.

Murdoch and Deng declined to comment on the issue to Vanity Fair, citing “complicated family dynamics.” A spokesman for Blair declined to comment on the record to TIME about the allegations. No one representing Blair has publicly confirmed the reports and those surrounding the former prime minister continue to deny there has been any affair.