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is slowing moving in. Looking forward to cooler days. My yard still is not totally finished. I have been cleaning the back forty but the damn mower belt came off again. I felt it and it has a nice chunk out of it so ordered a new one. Now I have to figure out how to put it on. I think CJ did it last time. I can fix it. Hopefully it will let me mow a little before I replace it cause it may be a bit.

I started this blog as a place to vent and so that I could keep track of the changes
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that I am posting pics for myself lol. Like I will forget....wait....I probably will knowing this memory of mine.

Has been a glorious few days. Geesh I don't say that like ever. I am alone for a week for the first time in about 25 years. Yes I have had weekends off here and there but I can walk through the house naked! Naked! I've done not much besides eat. I went to the store and bought stuff to make myself for dinner, stocked up on fruit and lunch fixins'. I bought a few snack items
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incredibly light today. Brandon is gone. We had a fight that became a little physical over cereal and $10. I am fed up with walking on eggshells everyday because he's pissed off at the world all the time. He is paranoid, angry, ungrateful, self centered, suffering from delusions of entitlement. When he is okay we get along famously. Laugh, talk blah, blah, blah. but most of the time I have to talk and walk around his mood. During moments of insightful confessions he knows and acknowledges this.
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in what happens when you run out of psych meds. I am coming out the other side of my withdrawal which is usually a couple of days of suicidal depression then I start to feel better and begin to doubt the necessity of taking them. I haven't done a psych clean out in decades. The withdrawal was mentally and emotionally agonizing but I was already in a bad place riding the med roller coaster. Dear God, med after med trying to see what would work. I even asked if that can screw up a persons mental chemical
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days where the weather man has covered his ass by predicting thunderstorms, rain and possible sun, warm and muggy. Basically meaning this is Michigan and ya get what ya get. We have a lot of days like that here. It is humorous to read the weather predictions because the little icon is a little bit of sun with a cloud over it with rain and a little lightning bolt coming out of the bottom. To me that means they're not sure but one of those things is going to happen.

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