So I guess I'll just start off this first blog with telling where I'm at right now, and how I got here.
Im 20 years old, and I met my first love when I was 15. Long story short we were crazy inlove and were together every day all the time until he joined the army and went away for basic training. Something changed in him and after waiting for him he came home and broke it off with me.
We have been on and off for two years now, and we are officially over I guess.
So now Im faced with the rest of the world.Faced with moving on and finding someone else to love, but I just cannot FIND ANYONE who I seem to be intereted, and who are interested in me. I'm not the prettiest girl, and I live in philly which doesn't have the greatest choice of guys to choose from.
I know I'm only 20, but I know what I want. My whole life I have wanted a family, and to be a mother. Right away? Not now, because I have to start completly all over in another relationship.
This starting all over thing is pretty difficult, because I faught for two years to make a relationship with someone I love work, and the other person just didn't care.
So I'm kinda scared in having this done all over again. But Im a strong person, and very loving. And I don't think I could have ever made it through, if I didn't believe inside my heart that I could love again if not more then I already have.
So Im just struggling trying to find someone who could even be good enough to spend some time with. Like I said Im not the prettiest or skinniest so dating is a lot tougher for me. :(

So I guess I'll just start off this first blog with telling where I'm at right now, and how I got here. Im 20 years old, and I met my first love when I was 15. Long story short we were crazy inlove and were together every day all the time until he joined the army and went away for basic training. Something changed in him and after waiting for him he came home and broke it off with me. We have been on and off for two years now, and we are officially over I guess. So now Im faced with the rest of the world.Faced with moving on and finding someone else to love, but I just cannot FIND ANYONE who I seem to be intereted, and who are interested in me. I'm not the prettiest girl, and I live in philly which doesn't have the greatest choice of guys to choose from. I know I'm only 20, but I know what I want. My whole life I have wanted a family, and to be a mother. Right away? Not now, because I have to start completly all over in another relationship. This starting all over thing is pretty difficult, because I faught for two years to make a relationship with someone I love work, and the other person just didn't care. So I'm kinda scared in having this done all over again. But Im a strong person, and very loving. And I don't think I could have ever made it through, if I didn't believe inside my heart that I could love again if not more then I already have. So Im just struggling trying to find someone who could even be good enough to spend some time with. Like I said Im not the prettiest or skinniest so dating is a lot tougher for me. :(

Laura - you both gained from this experience of love- it comes at any age and what we consider to be our tue love comes when we are young and carefree. However as you get older wisdom and the ability to differentiate betwen love and infactuation is more clear to us. Enjoy your youth it only comes once, but please dont undermine yourself or underestimate who you are - if you do others will notice and whether its at work or play they will see your archilles heel and play on it. Learn to love yourself and the rest will follow - you are a beautiful girl. I hope you will remember these words - "Happiness is like a butterfly which when pursued is always out of your reach but if you sit quietly it will slowly descend on you. Take care

Laura - you both gained from this experience of love- it comes at any age and what we consider to be our tue love comes when we are young and carefree. However as you get older wisdom and the ability to differentiate betwen love and infactuation is more clear to us. Enjoy your youth it only comes once, but please dont undermine yourself or underestimate who you are - if you do others will notice and whether its at work or play they will see your archilles heel and play on it. Learn to love yourself and the rest will follow - you are a beautiful girl. I hope you will remember these words - "Happiness is like a butterfly which when pursued is always out of your reach but if you sit quietly it will slowly descend on you. Take care

Hey, hang in there kid. I know what your going through. I see other people together and I say to myself, God if they could find eachother, why can't I find someone???
I know it's hard to start over, but thats life. We do it our whole life. We leave Grade School, for High School, then one job for another and even one relationship for another. Its hard when you've been with someone for a long time or you give so much of your heart to. But people do change and its good you found out now.
Glad you don't have children. Hope it happens for you when you have a strong relationship. It will be so much better for the both of you and the kids.
One more thing before I go. Hope you understand what I'm trying to say. It really kind of bothered me when you said that your not then prettiest or skinniest. I'm sure there is SO much more to you then your looks or your size. Not that there is ANYTHING wrong at all with either. Don't put yourself down... It really is about what is inside. Hope when you are looking for Mr. Right you don't go just by looks.
Anyways, take the advice of Kewannap and bluegirl2006. Keep your chin up and it will happen for you soon I'm sure.
Whats wrong with the men in Philly??? Are they Crazy & Blind and have no clue???
Good Luck.
MM

Hey, hang in there kid. I know what your going through. I see other people together and I say to myself, God if they could find eachother, why can't I find someone??? I know it's hard to start over, but thats life. We do it our whole life. We leave Grade School, for High School, then one job for another and even one relationship for another. Its hard when you've been with someone for a long time or you give so much of your heart to. But people do change and its good you found out now. Glad you don't have children. Hope it happens for you when you have a strong relationship. It will be so much better for the both of you and the kids. One more thing before I go. Hope you understand what I'm trying to say. It really kind of bothered me when you said that your not then prettiest or skinniest. I'm sure there is SO much more to you then your looks or your size. Not that there is ANYTHING wrong at all with either. Don't put yourself down... It really is about what is inside. Hope when you are looking for Mr. Right you don't go just by looks. Anyways, take the advice of Kewannap and bluegirl2006. Keep your chin up and it will happen for you soon I'm sure. Whats wrong with the men in Philly??? Are they Crazy & Blind and have no clue??? Good Luck. MM

Hey Laura,
First of all you are very pretty so don't even go there. As stated by other members take time to enjoy life a little try being single and free for a while date around have some fun. When you are married and have kids to run to school, soccer and dance lessons you will look back on this happy carefree period in your life and smile because you had it.

Hey Laura, First of all you are very pretty so don't even go there. As stated by other members take time to enjoy life a little try being single and free for a while date around have some fun. When you are married and have kids to run to school, soccer and dance lessons you will look back on this happy carefree period in your life and smile because you had it.

Laura, you are very attractive and after your experience, it's normal to be a bit scared. No one should fall in love at 15, or even 20. Men (boys) your age are idiots. You need a guy that is about 6 to 10 years older and has some direction in his life. You think you are ugly and overweight. Trust me, some day you will look at pictures of you now and think... "Wow, I looked great". Go get them tiger, don't fall in love, don't sell yourself short, look for a friend.
Love comes from friendship.
-Wise old Sage, Dave

Laura, you are very attractive and after your experience, it's normal to be a bit scared. No one should fall in love at 15, or even 20. Men (boys) your age are idiots. You need a guy that is about 6 to 10 years older and has some direction in his life. You think you are ugly and overweight. Trust me, some day you will look at pictures of you now and think... "Wow, I looked great". Go get them tiger, don't fall in love, don't sell yourself short, look for a friend. Love comes from friendship. -Wise old Sage, Dave

hi laura,
how are you? My name is Ang?lique, I'm 27, and am french...nobody's perfect!!!
i am looking for new friends over the world, a true and lasting friendship would be better of course...
Hope we can start getting to know each other soon.
Take care

hi laura, how are you? My name is Ang?lique, I'm 27, and am french...nobody's perfect!!! i am looking for new friends over the world, a true and lasting friendship would be better of course... Hope we can start getting to know each other soon. Take care

Laura... don't beat yourself up... it is his loss. You are still very young and you have your entire life ahead of you. I know this sounds cliche, but it is true (take it from an old foagie!)... just enjoy life and stop looking... that's when he will find you. Kind of like a watched pot never boils. Just enjoy your youth. When it is time to happy, it will. And when you find the right guy, you will know it and it will be worth it. You are a very lovely young woman. Hold your chin up and be happy sweetie!

Laura... don't beat yourself up... it is his loss. You are still very young and you have your entire life ahead of you. I know this sounds cliche, but it is true (take it from an old foagie!)... just enjoy life and stop looking... that's when he will find you. Kind of like a watched pot never boils. Just enjoy your youth. When it is time to happy, it will. And when you find the right guy, you will know it and it will be worth it. You are a very lovely young woman. Hold your chin up and be happy sweetie!