I came back to work after 17 months on disability due to cancer treatment. My employer thinks I'm "better", they don't know that I'm terminal, with Stage 4 cancer. The only reason I came back was because they cancelled my life insurance while I was on long term disability.

I talked my oncologist into releasing me to come back to work, took a $20k a year pay cut to come back in a lesser position, just so I could get my life insurance back. I'm going to die, and I have a family to worry about.

I feel like a fraud every time one of my coworkers mentions my "recovery". I even wore a "survivor" t-shirt at this year's Relay for Life that our company sponsors.

I really appreciate all the comments and especially the empathy. My family knows what I do every day and are grateful, so that's enough for me.

To answer some questions, yes, my husband is retired and my daughter is still in high school, so I'm the primary breadwinner.

I'm good with the insurance policy. It's not a new policy, they simply reinstated my suspended policy. I didn't have to provide evidence of insurability, etc., so no fraud can be claimed.

The only measurable disease I have at the moment is in my lungs. When the drug I'm on now stops being effective, it could go south very quickly. It is true that I could actually survive, but my odds are so, so slim. The drug I'm on right now is Avastin, which has extended average overall survival in my cancer from 13 months to a whopping 17 months. I was diagnosed 2 years ago, and have been on avastin for 19 months. I have an 11% 5-year survival rate. I'm living in the bonus round and I acknowledge that and am grateful every day.