Reason I see the lows of your residual pain, and I feel helpless But I know what I need to do I need to be the strength that pulls you up, and keeps you there I want to be the man to take care of you

I want to be your resilience I want you to move on, with me, to a far better place I want to be beside you when get there I want to be the reason for the next smile on your face

I find myself, wrapped up in your worry, holding you, firmly in my armsAnd I never want to say when I want you to always feel secure, safe within my love To be the certainty, to your never again

I want to be your clarity Want you to look straight ahead, and to never turn away I want to be in focus, the bright future I want to be the reason you look forward to every day

I am realistic, and I am a dreamer I know that life isn’t easy, especially with lingering doubt I want to help you cope, to give you hope I want to play a part in your dreams, and be part of what they are about

I want to be your confidence I want you to feel good about yourself, because so much of you is good I want to be your daily reminder I want to be the reason, every reason, that you should

Most of all, I want to be your optimism Want you to find the best of me, and to discover even more in time I want to be your inspiration I want to be the rhyme, and the reason, just as you are the reason to my rhyme

The unique thing
about regret
is that the less you experience
the more you get – G.G.

Limitation

I’m taking a bit of a risk,but what if I didn’t…

I’d rather live in the moment than live with regretTake a chance on what I wantand grab all I can get No stop signs No hesitation No blurred lines No limitationI intend to make the mostof this one-time lifeBring the best of it allinto plain sightExhausting each day Exhausted each night

My motivation can be seenin unique placesIn hopeful eyesOn mourning facesTimes of celebrationTimes of dreadTimes to rememberTime, to look ahead

I’d rather look to the future than look back with regretEmbrace all of those who inspire
and give back as I getNo retreat
No reservationNo boundariesNo limitation
I intend to stretch my mindto greater lengthsFlights of fancyand fanciful flightsLifting the best of meto loftier heights

My motivation can be foundin unique placesIn beautiful smilesOn candle lit facesPeople we meetPeople we admirePeople we lovePeople who inspire

I’d rather embrace the possibilitiesthan accept the regretPut myself completely out thereGive more than I getNo misunderstandingNo misinterpretationNo incompletesNo limitationI intend to hold nothing back
in my quest to growExpress my selfto all who should knowTake the best of me alongto wherever I go

Live this life for every momentExperience more, every chance I getTaking risks, and taking stridesStaying ahead of my regret

It’s hard to recognize someone that no one knows Difficult, to see, what someone never shows A lost face, beneath a mask A happier place, inside a flask A positive outlook, an impossible task So many questions, you can’t find to ask

When a mind struggles, alone, A brain storm, of their own Swept up in in an instant Where it’s dark and it’s distant A solitary place, they might go Where every sky must bring snow Left with answers that no one will know
It’s hard to comprehend something that no one understands Difficult, to grasp something, when it’s out of your hands A mystery, wrapped up in a mind A history they drag behind An act, selfishly unkind Too many reasons, that are impossible to find
When a life ends, alone, A sad choice, on their own A final decision that’s made When they are despondent or afraid Solitary tears, sliding down the drain Cold and confounding, like a January rain Leaving little more, than questions and pain
It’s hard to be sad for someone who is gone Difficult, now, for those obliged to move on An opened investigation A closed case A stark image, they can’t replace A terrible memory, they can’t erase A huge void, with just a face
As I sit here, today, alone, contemplating life, not just my own I worry, about all that is to be, What I may not understand, or see The solitary angst, my someones can’t bare Changes in the seasons
When there’s something in the air The questions and answers, we just have to share

I give my resolute vow… I will be far more aware. I will be here. I will be there.

You worry about us while I worry about you My wounds have mostly healed Yours, are still unfairly new

Still vulnerable, still susceptible, Still affected by so much Bruised around the edges Still tender to the touchMemories, there on the wall Reminders, flashing on the screen Taking you back to a hurt that never should have been Pictures and question marks Still images, still fresh Years of mixed emotions, rubbing against your flesh The occasions, the situations With family, with friends The sudden jolt to your system When some of your past attends Incessant and intrusive probing Concerned people, hassling you The pangs from a harsh reality, that may or may not be true
Occasional reminders,
that prick you like a pin
Sharp and pointed circumstance
Jabbing at your skin Rumours, and stories that swirl Of others, going through the same Open secrets and indiscretions The deflecting of the blame Sad and similar symptoms, that you reluctantly understand Taking you an unhealthy distance from the life that you had planned

You worry about us and I worry about you This is what I can see This is all I can do

There is pain that I recognize Sore spots, we have both got Other aches, I can understand
Worse ones, that I cannot
Nights, together in your home
Putting myself in your place
Hours, rapt deep in our conversation
Moments, spent lost in your face
The nuances of your smile
The emotions, found in your eyes
A shimmering well of melancholy
behind a wavering disguise
The sharp, cruel jabs of pain,
that stab your heart like a knife
The tears, that occupy my mind,
as we sit, surrounded by your life
Yet, there is no place I’d rather be
There with you, trying to comprehend
Distracting you and laughing with you
As your partner, as your friend
Taking you to a fun and happy now,
And sitting beside you there
Giving only me, and who I am,
In every minute that we share
Knowing, I have zero urge to sit
where someone else has sat
That I am one hundred percent yours
That I can promise you that
I have my steadfast morals
I have my own unique charms
I have this love for you,
and I have two strong arms

You worry about us I worry about you I promise you my honesty That is the most I can do

Nexus
Midnight says good byeto 2017
Celebrating with friends
while you are awayThis new year brings me to a new dayI have found youand I couldn’t be happierAt the end of the yearthat brought you my way

Alone at 3:00 AM but far from lonelyAccompanied by fresh memories that fill my headWishing you were hereas I go to bedI have you on my mindand in my heartAt the nexus to the yearthat lies ahead

A year removedfrom my miseryTwelve months further from all I could takeSo much to look forward towhen I awakeI have you in my lifeand I can’t get enough

InsteadJust two, on a care free Saturday night Alone together, while we have the chance Shared moments such nights enhance An exchange of music, a kitchen dance An exchange of smiles, a knowing glance

Sitting sideways on the couch Looking at you looking at meYour warm hand, resting on my knee Seeing exactly who I want you to see Who I really am, not who I might be

Comfortable with why and where we are The conversation eases to and froA flicker of candles, the music low Content to have nowhere else to goContent in knowing what we already know

My lips back slowly away from yours Your head still tilting, slightly to the sideA pause, as thoughts and words collide My heart swells, with nothing to hide My stomach churning, stirred up inside

A real and honest instinct, I choose to resist A heartfelt compliment, uttered insteadWe blow out the candles, and we go to bed With the tug of more inside of my head With those huge little words, left unsaid

Now
In some ways, now I am more nervous than when we first met Wondering, if this something,
that seems so sure,
is not certain yet

Worried, that the same ghosts that haunt my past will scare me once again That the many reasons that this should last will vanish, into back then

I should not be thinking about what could go wrong, or what I would miss
As long as we have now, and we have the moment, and we have all of this

Live in the moment…Don’t waste your time dwelling on failures That’s no way to live

Live for the moment…Don’t think about what you can’t take Only, what you can give

In so many ways, now, I am much more aware of what’s most important to me And I am far less concerned with who I am not, or who I ought to be Excited, about the sensations The exhilaration that I feel
in the anticipation of today
That I can get so caught up,
in something that’s real,
determined, to keep it that way

I have nothing to hide, and so much more to find Motivated, by who and how It’s only about the moment,the fact that we are here, and that our time is now.

Speak from the heart,
without hesitation,
within the moment you choose

The present is nowLive for the moment,without a moment to lose

In many ways, now, I am far more assured with what we have found Caring and carefree,
confident and content,
whenever you’re around

So fulfilled, by what we have, that it makes perfect sense to feel strong and secure Knowing that, at this moment, in the present tense, we are substantial and sure

I am clearly focused on this love for you, and the love that we share With all we have now, everything, in this moment, and what got us there

Living in the moment…Taking what life gives me
Embracing all that I have,and holding on to it tight

Living for the moment…Finding the joy in each dayFinding the now in each moment,and keeping it in sight

WeightThis is about our something Our something significant Discoveries we have discovered Discussions still to discuss It’s the double entendre It’s the double meaning The weight of our wait The us, of just us

This feeling that we feel
This sharing that we share
The now, of being here
The then, of being there

The low of the lows
The alone of the lonely
The two of our together
The one, of our only

The right in the writing
The subtext in the texts
The impatience of our patience
The next of our nexts

The length of our lengths
The height of our highs
The careful to our caring
The why nots to our whys

The power in feeling powerless
The surge in our surges
The urge for our urgency
The urgency of our urges

The so far of how far
The good, of so far so good
The hope, and our hopeful
The could and our should

The me, in me and you
The you, in you and me
Our substantial substance
Our subtle subtlety

We take each of our days
one day at a time
Put our hearts out there
for our hearts to see
Far more than a cliché
Far more than a dream
The weight of our wait
Our will, and will be