Sunday, 19 January 2014

January 19th. My A to Z. The letter Q.

My A to Z.

The Letter Q.

Questions..... I am always questioning things. Why did I do that? Was it good enough? Am I good enough? Am I too much? Am I wearing too much make-up? Do I look OK?

Does it actually matter what anyone else thinks? Yes it matters if I am doing a good job, that's what I get paid to do....but I am also human and humans make mistakes. What I think of myself Is the only opinion that matters. I do not need the acceptance of others.

Qualifications..... I am not an academic, and I am OK with that. I left School with a handful of 0'Levels, most I achieved after a resit. I was always rubbish at exams but excelled at coursework, which is probably why I managed to sail through my NVQ's at work. What I lack in letters after my name I make up for in life experience, and that is something you can't study and revise for!!

Quad-Bike...... I am not a natural driver and despite numerous lessons have never been put through to my driving test. A few years ago myself and the Hubby went on holiday with a group of friends to Egypt. We had an amazing time and one day took an excursion which included quad-biking in the dessert. Me being the only non-driver, had to test drive around a route lines with bollards, surprisingly enough I managed the challenge and was allowed to take the Quad on my own.

So there I was taking on the terrain of the Egyptian sands......and I was bloody terrible!! I hated every minute of it, kept hitting sand dunes and ended up with one of the guides sitting on the back of my quad and steering m out of the way. Never again. next time I shall stick to the camel!!

Little old me.

For someone who generally can't shut up talking writing about myself is posing quite difficult.
I started this Blog in 2010 when I began my journey through recovery from Anorexia. I have been as honest as I can without being triggering or posing a risk to myself or my readers. In the beginning my blog was a medium of putting down my thoughts during recovery and mapping each step forward or backward I made. Some of it will make you laugh others may cry. Now I see myself as not in recovery but fully recovered. I continue to write as I believe Eating Disorders in whatever form should not be hidden away, they should be given a voice and that voice can say 'I will beat this.'I have a passion inside me to spread the message that you are not on your own and recovery can be within reach.Thank you for reading, it is because of you I carry on. Please feel free to comment on any entries.