Monday, May 6, 2013

The warm breeze soothes my soul; lifting every scent from
the wild flowers, moss, ferns, bark, and trees, up to delight and pleasure my
senses. The butterflies join the
menagerie, fluttering sweetly in the breeze, lifting, floating; feeding gently
on the food the warmth of the day brings to the skies. They drift mesmerizingly up to the light
filtering through the tree tops and branches, creating a melody of color in the
sky…

The river adds it’s rhythm and dances across the rocks,
rushing and flying on white wings twirling and ever entwining, with speed and
accuracy to where it desires to rest and swirl before it takes rise once again
and rushes through to the beyond. The
voice in the melody sings clear and pure; it sings of a past, a present, and the unknown, as it giggles and
rushes off to join eternity….

Each step my foot takes on the path forwards is another door
closing, another window opening. I move
to remember, I move to forget, I move to find truth and passion from deep
within. If I quiet the struggle within;
I can see beauty, I can feel peace, I can remember what it is to dream again...

But how do I quiet
the fight within me, I seem to have a worthy opponent, a foe that is very much
matched to me in every wit, strength, skill and weakness. I fight, I struggle, I toil, I fester and rot
in anger, I can’t get ahead and can’t break away… Then the light comes in and I see I am
fighting with myself alone, no one else…
The reason I can’t win is because I know me all too well, and I won’t
allow that, I am stronger than that…

The truth that I seek is this: Nobody and I mean nobody but
me decides who I am or how I feel, unless I allow them to. I am me, the only one there will ever be,
whether I like it or not, it is time to move on and stop toiling in mindless
tail chasing from fears, and lies spoken into me… The pain from the past. I decide who I am today and I decide how I
feel each and every moment of the day, this is a glorious and noble gift truly
wondrous to behold…

So do YOU behold each day, or are YOU held in the lies and
fears of others thoughts regarding you…
Break away… Dare to flutter up
high into the tree tops where the light filters in so peacefully. Soar with the light, merge with the light,
you alone can decide how you want to feel, so decide, make up your mind, and
then take flight….