Napoleon Beazley
Executed May 28 2002
Age 25
Age at time of offence 17
Crime "Carjacking murder" of 63-year-old John Luttig

Last statement "The act I committed to put me here was not just heinous, it was senseless. But the person that committed that act is no longer here - I am.
"I'm not going to struggle physically against any restraints. I'm not going to shout, use profanity or make idle threats. Understand, though, that I'm not only upset, but I'm saddened by what is happening here tonight. I'm not only saddened, but disappointed that a system that is supposed to protect and uphold what is just and right can be so much like me when I made the same shameful mistake.

"If someone tried to dispose of everyone here for participating in this killing, I'd scream a resounding, "No." I'd tell them to give them all the gift that they would not give me [ ... ] and that's to give them all a second chance.
"I'm sorry that I am here. I'm sorry that you're all here. I'm sorry that John Luttig died. And I'm sorry that it was something in me that caused all of this to happen to begin with.
http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2006/sep/20/usa.aidaedemariam
"Tonight we tell the world that there are no second chances in the eyes of justice [ ... ] Tonight, we tell our children that in some instances, in some cases, killing is right [ ... ] No one wins tonight. No one gets closure. No one walks away victorious."http://www.tdcj.state.tx.us/stat/drowfacts.htm

A Discussion on Death:
"We have never asked what is the meaning of death. We have put death in opposition to life.
... death implies the ending of attachment. It is only in the ending that there is a beginning."
(Pupul Jayakar, A Biography: Chapter 38, page 393)

'The following extract (Krishnamurti and Bohm, 1985, pp. 149-53) on the holomovement and death seems particularly appropriate, in view of Bohm's recent passing (as well as Krishnamurti's in 1986).'

K: "What is movement, apart from movement from here to there, apart from time - is there any other movement?
B: Yes.
K: There is ... is there a movement which in itself has no division? ... Would you say it has no end, no beginning?
B: Yes ... Can one say that movement has no form?
K: No form - all that. I want to go a little further. What I am asking is, we said that when you have stated there is no division, this means
no division in movement.
B: It flows without division, you see.
K: Yes, it is a movement in which there is no division. Do I capture the significance of that? Do I understand the depth of that statement?
... I am trying to see if that movement is surrounding man?
B: Yes, enveloping.
K: I want to get at this. I am concerned with mankind, humanity, which is me ... I have captured a statement which seems so absolutely
true - that there is no division. Which means that there is no action which is divisive.
B: Yes.
K: I see that. And I also ask, is that movement without time, et cetera. It seems that it is the world, you follow?
B: The universe.
K: The universe, the cosmos, the whole.
B: The totality.
K: Totality. Isn't there a statement in the Jewish world, "Only God can say I am."
B: Well, that's the way the language is built. It is not necessary to state it.
K: No, I understand. You follow what I am trying to get at?
B: Yes, that only this movement is.
K: Can the mind be of this movement? Because that is timeless, therefore deathless.
B: Yes, the movement is without death; in so far as the mind takes part in that, it is the same.
K: You understand what 1 am saying?
B: Yes. But what dies when the individual dies?
K: That has no meaning, because once I have understood there is no division.
B: ... then it is not important.
K: Death has no meaning.
B: It still has a meaning in some other context.
K: Oh, the ending of the body; that's totally trivial. But you understand? I want to capture the significance of the statement that there is
no division, it has broken the spell of my darkness, and I see that there is a movement, and that's all. Which means death has very
little meaning.
B: Yes.
K: You have abolished totally the fear of death.
B: Yes, I understand that when the mind is partaking in that movement, then the mind is that movement.
K: Yes, I would say that everything is ... One can never say then, "I am immortal." It is so childish.
B: Yes, that's the division.
K: Or, "I am seeking immortality." Or "I am becoming." We have wiped away the whole sense of moving in darkness ...
B: Just going back to what we were saying a few days ago: we said we have the emptiness, the universal mind, and then the ground is
beyond that.
K: Would you say beyond that is this movement?
B: Yes. The mind emerges from the movement as a ground, and falls back to the ground; that is what we are saying.
K: Yes, that's right. Mind emerges from the movement.
B: And it dies back into the movement.
K: That's right. It has its being in the movement.
B: Yes, and matter also.
K: Quite. So what I want to get at is, I am a human being faced with this ending and beginning. [This] abolishes that.
B: Yes, it is not fundamental.
K: It is not fundamental. One of the greatest fears of life, which is death, has been removed.
B: Yes."
Extract courtesy of: Lifework of David Bohm: River of Truth by Will Keepin, posted online by Alex Paterson.

Commentary: The central statement here is that there is in fact no division anywhere in life, in the universe. Everything is interconnected; there is no separation between anything; the only difference is in the expression of life, which is the physical form. This is called here a movement; people have for eons called it eternity. This is saying that the mind of man (not "my" mind) is an inherent part of this movement, as is all matter. Matter arises from this movement and then falls back into it. Thus, actual physical death has no inherent meaning. This then is a new expression of the old saying: From ashes to ashes. The only thing that ultimately dies when the physical form dies is all the psychological attachment - that is, the self. This is the true origin of the statement: Death is now. The self must die now, not at some time in the future; then you are at one with the movement behind all life itself - pure energy:
See Life after Death: A Most Extraordinary Discussion - on the Stream, Pure Energy, Death & Reincarnation
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On Reincarnation:
"... those who believe in reincarnation, believe they will be reborn with all that they have now - modified perhaps - and so carry on, life after life. Belief is never alive. But suppose that belief is tremendously alive, then what you are now matters much more than what you will be in a future life. In the Asiatic world there is the word `karma’ which means action in life now, in this period, with all its misery, confusion, anger, jealousy, hatred, violence, which may be modified, but will go on to the next life.

So there is evidence of remembrance of things past, of a past life. That remembrance is the accumulated `me’, the ego, the personality. That bundle, modified, chastened, polished a little bit, goes on to the next life. So it is not a question of whether there is reincarnation (I am very definite on this matter, please) but that there is incarnation now; what is far more important than reincarnation, is the ending of this mess, this conflict, now. Then something totally different goes on. ...

I have said that the present life is all-important; if you have understood and gone into it, with all the turmoil of it, the complexity of it - end it, do not carry on with it. Then you enter into a totally different world. I think that is clear, is it not?"
(Questions and Answers, Ojai, California, May 13, 1980, 'Reincarnation'; paragraphs and ellipses added)

Commentary: What is clearly stated here - and carefully repeated so that you understand it - is that the revolution, or incarnation, is now. Once that happens (that is, the end of the ego) then one enters a different state, which one cannot know about in advance. It is called a new dimension. Hence the statement, "death is now". So there is reincarnation, but this reincarnation is of the stream of humanity, the self. One must step out of the stream of humanity when one is still alive:
See Life after Death: A Most Extraordinary Discussion - on the Stream, Pure Energy, Death & Reincarnation
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On Evolution:
Questioner: “Do you believe in evolution? You have often said that understanding is immediate, the act of learning is on the moment; where does evolution play a part in this? Are you denying evolution?

K: It would be foolish - would it not? - to deny evolution. There is the bullock cart and the jet plane, that is evolution. There is an evolution of the primate to the so-called man. There is evolution from not-knowing to knowing, Evolution implies time; but psychologically, inwardly, is there evolution? Are you following the question? Outwardly one can see how architecture has advanced from the primitive hut to the modern building, mechanics from the two-wheel cart to the motor, the jet plane, going to the moon and all the rest of it - it is there, obviously there is no question whether these things have evolved or not. But is there evolution inwardly, at all?

You believe so, you think so, do you? But is there? Do not say `there is' or `there is not'. Merely to assert is the most foolish thing, but to find out is the beginning of wisdom. Now, psychologically, is there evolution? That is, I say `I shall become something" or `I shall not be something; the becoming or the not being, involves time - does it not? `I shall be less angry the day after tomorrow', `I shall be more kind and less aggressive, more helpful, not be so self-centred, selfish', all that implies time - `I am this' and `I shall be that'. I say I shall evolve psychologically - but is there such evolution?

Shall I be different in a year's time? Being violent today, my whole nature is violent, my whole upbringing, education, the social influences and the cultural pressures have bred in me violence; also I have inherited violence from the animal, the territorial rights and sexual rights and so on - will this violence evolve into non-violence? Will you please tell me? Can violence ever become non-violence? Can violence ever become love?”
(Talks with American Students: Chapter 12, New School for Social Research, New York)

"The inner awareness was always there” (1934)

Rom Landau: "How did you come to that state of unity with everything?"

Krishnamurti: "People have asked me about that before, and I always feel that they expect to hear the dramatic account of some sudden miracle through which I suddenly became one with the universe. Of course nothing of the sort happened. My inner awareness was always there; though it took me time to feel it more and more clearly; and equally it took time to find words that would at all describe it.

It was not a sudden flash, but a slow yet constant clarification of something that was always there. It did not grow, as people often think. Nothing can grow in us that is of spiritual importance. It has to be there in all its fullness, and then the only thing that happens is that we become more and more aware of it. It is our intellectual reaction and nothing else that needs time to become more articulate, more definite."

Extract from an interview by Rom Landau in his book God is my Adventure: A Book on Modern Mystics, Masters, and Teachers.
Reprinted, 2008; reproduced from Google Books, page 286; this interview was conducted in Carmel, California, in 1934; emphases added.
(Note: This is the only quote on this site that dates prior to 1947/48, which are the years when he said he came to full awakening; all quotes before this time apart from the one above have therefore been discarded as not being fully formed, and therefore irrelevant to self-understanding.)

The Final Deathbed Statement (1986):
(Last days: Star in the East: Krishnamurti, The invention of a Messiah, by Roland Vernon - Book extract: All the world was his classroom)

On February 17, 1986, Krishnamurti died of inoperable cancer of the pancreas, which had spread to the liver; in the last weeks of life he was occasionally given morphine for the pain. Nine days before his death he made this final statement at Ojai, in response to an earlier question put to him in writing from Mary Cadogan, who was not present when this statement was made. This statement was tape-recorded by Scott Forbes (who was the only other person present in the room at the time) at Krishnamurti's request (with pauses - not ellipses - as indicated):

"I was telling them this morning -- for seventy years that super energy -- no -- that immense energy, immense intelligence has been using this body. I don't think people realize what tremendous energy and intelligence went through this body -- there's twelve-cylinder engine [sic]. And for seventy years -- was a pretty long time -- and now the body can't stand any more.

Nobody, unless the body has been prepared, very carefully, protected and so on - nobody can understand what went through this body. Nobody. Don't anybody pretend. Nobody. I repeat this: nobody amongst us or the public know what went on. I know they don't. And now after seventy years it has come to an end. Not that that intelligence and energy -- it's somewhat here, every day, and especially at night. And after seventy years the body can't stand it -- can't stand any more. It can't. The Indians have a lot of damned superstitions about this -- that you will and the body goes [sic] -- and all that kind of nonsense.

You won't find another body like this or that supreme intelligence operating in a body for many hundred years. You won't see it again. When he goes, it goes. There is no consciousness left behind of that consciousness, of that state. They'll all pretend or try to imagine they can get in touch with that. Perhaps they will somewhat if they live the teachings. But nobody has done it. Nobody. And so that's that."
(Mary Lutyens, The Open Door: 1988, pp. 148-49; emphases in the original)

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Commentary: This deathbed statement has been the subject of some controversy, due principally to the phrase "many hundred years." Many people have seen this as an acknowledgment that this "supreme intelligence" (ie, the otherness, or 'that thing' - see the quote below) is only for a select few and thus is essentially pre-ordained in human history. It will only operate in a carefully prepared and protected body which is selected out from humanity by this intelligence. This dovetails neatly with the unique awakening of 1922 and the resultant "process" that he underwent for decades after. It leaves an opening, of course - "perhaps they will somewhat", implying that there is a partial awakening that we can attain. But this is distinct from an immense intelligence that "uses" the body, as an apparent, direct, human manifestation.

There is another way of looking at this statement however, one which has not hitherto been canvassed. It could be incorrect. The man at the time was for the most part in the grip of strong pain, to the point where morphine was used, even though it is a known fact he had experienced adverse reactions to even such things as mild drugs in the past. Late-stage, metastatic, terminal cancer is not conducive to clear thinking. The biographer states that there were times in the final weeks when he refused to talk as his mind was not clear. Was this statement uttered at a time when his normal judgment was clouded?

The fact is that no-one, not even this man, could (and can) accurately predict the future. In fact the talks themselves imply this, as a given. Life is action, life is constantly changing, every moment is a unique event. The "end of time" means the end of predicting the future for the future is not what is, and cannot be known with any certainty (unless there is another meaning of past, present and future that is beyond our current understanding). So this statement predicting the future clashes (ostensibly) with the essence of the talks themselves. Hence, it could well be wrong.

Another point regarding this statement is that the phrase "But nobody has done it" did not only apply, as some have stated, to the people in the room, as Scott Forbes was the only other person present (this is aside from the fact that he explicitly used the phrase: "amongst us or the public"). What is being implied here is that if someone during his lifetime had reached liberation from the self, then that person would have contacted Krishnamurti as a natural action. (He would then have had the perceptivity, or mental acuity, to determine the state of mind of this other person.) Hence, because no-one had done so during his lifetime, then he could clearly state that "nobody has done it." And it's true, nobody has done it, otherwise the world would know about it.
Krishnamurti: "We said the other day Sidney Field came to see me. His brother John died recently. You knew him. He was very concerned whether his brother was living in a different level of consciousness; whether there was John as an entity born [in the] next life. And did I believe in reincarnation and what did it mean. And so he had a lot of questions. He was having a difficult time with himself because of his brother, whom he loved and whom we have known for years. So out of that conversation two things came up. First, is there a permanent ego? If there is such a thing as a permanent something, then what is its relationship from the present to the future? The future being the next life or ten years later. But if you admit or accept or believe or assert that there is a permanent ego, then reincarnation...
*Alain Naudé: ... is inevitable.
K: Not inevitable. I wouldn't say inevitable. It is plausible, because the permanent ego, to me, if it is permanent, can be changed in ten
years time. It can incarnate differently in ten years time.
A: We read this all the time in the Indian scriptures. We read about children who remember the past life, about a girl who said, "What am I
doing here? My home is in some other village. I'm married to so and so. I have three children." And in many cases I believe that this
has been verified.
K: I don't know. So there is that. If there is no permanent entity, then what is reincarnation? Both involve time, both involve a movement in
space. Space being environment, relationship, pressure, all that existing within that space, time.
A: Within time and temporal circumstances ...
K: ... That is, culture etc ...
A: ... Within some sort of social set-up.
K: So is there a permanent me? Obviously not. But Sidney said, "Then what is it that I feel, that John is with me? When I enter the room,
I know he is there. I'm not fooling myself, I'm not imagining; I feel him there as I feel my sister who was in that room yesterday. It's as
clear, as definite as that."
A: And also sir, when you say "obviously not," would you explain that?
K: But wait. So he says, "My brother is there." I said of course he is there, because first of all you have your association and memories of
John and that is projected, and that projection is your remembrance.
A: So that the John who was contained within you is that.
K: And when John lived he was associated with you. His presence is with you. When he was living, you might not have seen him all day,
but his presence was in that room.
A: His presence was there, and perhaps this is what people mean when they speak of an aura.
K: No, aura is different. Let's not push that in yet.
........
*Mary Zimbalist: May I interrupt - when you say he was in that room, whether alive or dead, was there something external to his brother and sister that was there, or was it in their consciousness?
K: It is both in their consciousness and outside consciousness. I can project my brother and say he was with me last night, feeling he was
with me, that may emanate from me; or John, who died ten days ago - his atmosphere, his thoughts, his way of behaving still remaining
there, even though physically he might have gone.
A: The psychic momentum.
K: The physical heat.
Z: Are you saying there is a sort of energy, for want of a better word, which human beings give off?
K: There was a photograph of a parking lot taken where there had been many cars, and the photo showed, although there were no cars
there, the form of the cars that had been there.
A: Yes. I saw that.
K: That is, the heat that the car had left came on the negative.
A: And also one day when we were living in Gstaad, the first time I was your guest at Gstaad, we were living as Les Capris - you left
for America before any of us left, and I went into that flat - you were still alive and on your way to America and your presence was
there, extremely strong.
K: That's it.
A: Your presence was so strong, one felt one could touch you. This was not simply because I was thinking about you before I entered
the flat.
K: So there are three possibilities. I project out of my remembrance and consciousness, or pick up the residual energy of John.
A: Like a smell that would linger.
K: John's thought or John's existence is still there.
A: That's the third possibility.
Z: What do you mean by that, John's existence?
A: That John is really there as before he died? The third possibility.
K: I live in a room for a number of years. The presence of that room contained my energy, my thoughts, my feelings.
A: It contains its own energy, and when we go into a new house it sometimes takes time before you are rid of the person who was there
before you, even though you may not have known him.
K: So those are the three possibilities. And the other is John's thought, because John clings to life. John's desires are there in the air, not
in the room.
A: Immaterially.
K: Yes, they are there just like a thought.
A: And does that mean that John is conscious and there is a being who is self-conscious calling himself John, thinking those thoughts?
K: I doubt it.
A: I think that is what the people who believe in reincarnation would postulate.
K: See what happens, Sir. This makes four possibilities and the idea that John whose physical body is gone, exists in thought.
A: In his own thought or someone else's?
K: In his own thought.
A: Exists as a thinking entity.
K: As a thinking entity exists.
A: As a conscious being.
K: That is - listen to this, it's rather interesting - John continues because he is the world of vulgarity, of greed, of envy, of drinking, and
of competition. That is the common pattern of man. It continues and John may be identified with that, or is that.
A: John is the desires, the thoughts, the beliefs, the associations.
K: Of the world.
A: Which are incarnate and which are material.
K: Which is the world - which is everybody.
........
A: This is a big thing you are saying. It would be nice if you could explain it a bit better. When you say John persists, John continues
because there is a continuation of the vulgar in him - the vulgar being worldly, material association.
K: That is right: fear, wanting power, position.
A: Desire to be as an entity.
K: So that, because that is a common thing of the world and the world does incarnate.
A: You say the world does incarnate.
K: Take the mass of the people. They are caught in this stream and that stream goes on. I may have a son who is part of that stream
and in that stream there is John also, as a human being who is caught in it. And my son may remember some of John's attitudes.
A: Ah, but you are saying something different.
K: Yes.
A: You are saying that John is contained in all the memories that different people have of him. In that respect we can see that he does
exist. Because I remember a friend of mine died not long ago, and it was very clear to me when I thought about it that in fact he was
very much alive in the memories of all the people who had loved him.
K: That's just it.
A: Therefore, he was not absent from the world, he was still in the stream of events which we call the world, which is the lives of
different people who had associated with him. In that sense we see that he can perhaps live forever.
K: Unless he breaks away from it - breaks away from the stream. A man who is not vulgar - let's use that word, vulgar, representing all
this ... greed, envy, power, position, hatred, desires, all that - let's call that vulgar. Unless I am free from the vulgar, I will continue
representing the whole of vulgarity, the whole vulgarity of man.
A: Yes, I will be that vulgarity by pursuing it, and in fact incarnating in it, giving it life.
K: Therefore I incarnate in that vulgarity. That is, first I can project John, my brother.
A: In my thought and imagination or remember him. The second point, I can pick up his kinetic energy, which is still around.
K: His smell, his taste, his saying the words....
........
K: Third, the thought remains in the room....
A: One might say, the psychic equivalent of his kinetic energy.
K: Yes....
K: Thought, will, if he has a very strong will; active desires and thought, they also remain.
A: But that's not different from the third point. The third point is that thought remains, which is will, which is desire.
K: The fourth point is the stream of vulgarity.
A: That's not very clear.
K: Look, sir, I live an ordinary life, like millions and millions of people.
A: Yes, pursuing goals, hopes and fears.
K: I live the usual life. A little more refined, a little bit higher or lower, along the same current, I follow that current. I am that current. Me,
who is that current, is bound to continue in that stream, which is the stream of me. I'm not different from millions of other people.
A: Therefore are you saying, sir, even, dead I continue because the things which were me are continuing.
K: In the human being.
A: Therefore, I survive. I was not different from the things which filled and preoccupied my life.
K: That's right.
A: Since these things which filled and occupied my life survive, in a manner of speaking I survive since they do.
K: That's right. That's four points.
........
A: The question is about the fifth. Is there a conscious thinking entity who knows that he is conscious when everybody has said, "There
goes poor old John," even put him in the ground. Is there a conscious entity who immaterially says, 'Good gracious, they've put that body
in the ground but I have consciousness of being alive.'
K: Yes.
A: That is the question which I think is difficult to answer.
K: Sidney was asking that question.
A: Because we see that everybody does exist in these other ways after death.
K: Now, you are asking the question. Does John, whose body is burned - cremated - does that entity continue to live?
A: Does that entity continue to have its consciousness of its own existence?
K: I question whether there is a separate John.
A: You said at the beginning, is there such a thing as a permanent ego? You said obviously not.
K: When you say that John, my brother, is dead and ask whether he is living, living in a separate consciousness, I question whether he was
ever separate from the stream.
A: Yes.
K: You follow what I am saying, sir?
A: Was there a John alive?
K: When John was alive, was he different from the stream?
A: The stream filled his consciousness of himself. His consciousness of himself was the stream knowing himself.
........
K: No, sir, just go slowly. It's rather complicated.The stream of humanity is anger, hate, jealousy, seeking power, position, cheating, corrupt,
polluted. That is the stream. Of that stream is my brother John. When he existed physically, he has a physical body, but psychologically
he was of this. Therefore was he ever different from this? From the stream? Or only physically different and therefore thinking he
was different. You follow my point?
A: There was an entity who was self-conscious ...
K: ... As John.
A: He was self-conscious, and the stream was in relationship to himself.
K: Yes.
A: My wife, my child, my love.
K: But was John inwardly different from the stream? That's my point. Therefore what is dead is the body. And the continuation of John
is part of that stream. I, as his brother, would like to think of him as separate because he lived with me as a separate being physically.
Inwardly he was of the stream. Therefore, was there a John who was different from the stream? And, if he was different, then
what happens? I don't know if you follow....
........
K: My point is, this is what is happening with one hundred million people. Millions of people. As long as I swim in that stream, am I
different? Is the real John from the stream?
A: Was there ever a John?
K: That's all my point.
A: There was conscious determination which felt itself to be John.
K: Yes, but I can imagine. I can invent because I am different.
A: There was imagination, thought, calling itself John.
K: Yes, sir.
A: Now, does that thought still call itself John?
K: But I belong to that stream.
A: You always belong to the stream.
K: There is no separate entity as John who was my brother, who is now dead.
A: Are you saying that there is no individual?
K: No, this is what we call permanent. The permanent ego is this.
A: What we think is individual.
K: Individual, the collective, the self.
A: Yes, the creation of thought which calls itself self.
K: It is of this stream.
A: That's right.
K: Therefore, was there ever a John? There is only a John when he is out of the stream.
A: That's right.
........
K: So first we are trying to find out if there is a permanent ego which incarnates.
A: The nature of the ego is impermanent.
K: Reincarnation is in the whole of Asia, and the modern people who believe in it say there is a permanent ego. You take many lives so
that it can become dissolved and be absorbed in Brahma and all that. Now, is there from the beginning a permanent entity, an entity
that lasts centuries and centuries? There is no such entity, obviously. I like to think I'm permanent. My permanence is identified with
my furniture, my wife, my husband, circumstances. These are words and images of thought. I don't actually possess that chair. I call it
mine.
A: Exactly. You think it's a chair and you own it.
K: I like to think I own it.
A: But it's just an idea.
K: So, watch it. So there is no permanent self. If there was a permanent self, it would be this stream. Now, realizing that I am like the
rest of the world, that there is no separate K, or John, as my brother, then I can incarnate if I step out of it. Incarnate in the sense
that the change can take place away from the stream. In the stream there is no change.
A: If there is permanence, it is outside the stream.
K: No, sir, permanency, semi-permanency, is the stream.
A: And therefore it is not permanent. If it is permanent, it is not the stream. Therefore, if there is an entity, then it must be out of the
stream. Therefore, that which is true, that which is permanent, is not a something.
K: It is not in the stream.
A: That's right.
.....
K: When Naudé dies, as long as he belongs to the stream, that stream and its flow is semi-permanent.
A: Yes, It goes on. It's a historical thing.
K: But if Naudé says, I will incarnate, not in the next life, now, tomorrow, which means I will step out of the stream, he is no longer
belonging to the stream; therefore there is nothing permanent.
A: There is nothing to reincarnate. Therefore, that which reincarnates, if reincarnation is possible, is not permanent anyway.
K: No, it's the stream....
A: A separate entity is not real.
K: No, as long as I belong to the stream ...
A: I don't really exist ...
K: There is no separate entity. I am the world.
A: That's right.
K: When I step out of the world, is there a me to continue?
A: Exactly, It's beautiful.
K: So, what we are trying to do is justify the existence of the stream.
A: Is that what we are trying to do?
K: Of course, when I say I must have many lives and therefore I must go through the stream.
A: What we are trying to do, then, is we are trying to establish that we are different from the stream.
K: We are not.
A: We are not different from the stream.
........
K: So, sir, then what happens? If there is no permanent John or K or Naudé or Zimbalist, what happens? You remember, sir, I think I
read it in the Tibetan tradition or some other tradition, that when a person dies, is dying, the priest or the monk comes in and sends all
the family away, locks the door and says to the dying man, 'Look you're dying - let go - let all of your antagonisms, all your worldliness,
all your ambition, let go, because you are going to meet a light in which you will be absorbed, if you let go. If not, you'll come back.'
Which is, come back to the stream. You will be the stream again.
A: Yes.
K: So what happens to you if you step out of the stream?
A: You step out of the stream, you cease to be, but the you which was, was only created by thought, anyway.
K: Which is the stream.
A: Vulgarity.
K: Vulgarity. What happens if you step out of the stream? The stepping out is the incarnation. Yes, sir, but that is a new thing you are
coming into. There is a new dimension coming into being.
A: Yes.
........
K: Now, what happens? You follow? Naudé has stepped out of the stream. What happens? You are not an artist. Not a businessman.
You are not a politician, not a musician, all that identification is part of the stream.
A: All the qualities.
K: All the qualities. When you discard that, what happens?
A: You have no identity.
K: Identity is here. Say, for instance, Napoleon, or any of these so-called world leaders: they killed, they butchered, they did every horror
imaginable, they lived and died in the stream, they were of the stream. That is very simple and clear. There is a man who steps out of
the stream.
A: Before physical death?
K: Of course; otherwise there is no point.
A: Therefore, another dimension is born.
K: What happens?
A: The ending of the dimension which is familiar to us is another dimension, but it cannot be postulated at all because all postulation is in
terms of the dimension we are in.
K: Yes, but suppose you, living now ...
A: Step out of it.
K: Step out of the stream. What happens?
A: This is death, sir.
K: No, sir.
A: This is death, but not physical death.
K: You see, you step out of it. What happens?
A: Nothing can be said about what happens.
K: Wait, sir. You see, none of us step out of the river, and we are always from the river, trying to reach the other shore.
A: It's like people talking about deep sleep from awakeness.
K: That's it, sir. We belong to this stream, all of us. Man does belong to the stream and from the stream he wants to reach that shore,
never leaving the river. Now the man says, all right, I see the fallacy of this, the absurdity of my position.
A: You can't state another dimension from the old dimension.
K: So I leave that. So the mind says, "Out!" He steps out and what takes place? Don't verbalize it....
........
K: You know what it means to step out of the stream: no character.
A: No memory.
K: No, sir, see: no character, because the moment you have character it's of the stream. The moment you say you are virtuous, you
are of the stream - or not virtuous. To step out of the stream is to step out of this whole structure. So, creation as we know it is in the
stream. Mozart, Beethoven, you follow, the painters, they are all here.
A: I think perhaps, sir, sometimes that which is in the stream is vivified, as it were from something which is beyond.
K: No, no, can't be. Don't say these things because I can create in the stream. I can paint marvelous pictures. why not? I can compose
the most extraordinary symphonies, all the techniques ...
A: Why are they extraordinary?
K: Because the world needs it. There is the need, the demand, and the supply. I'm saying to myself what happens to the man who
really steps out. Here in the river, in the stream, energy is conflict, in contradiction, in strife, in vulgarity. But that's going on all the
time...
A: Me and You.
K: Yes, that's going on all the time. When he steps out of it, there is no conflict, there is no division as my country, your country.
A: No division.
K: No division. So what is the quality of that man, that mind that has no sense of division? It is pure energy, isn't it? So our concern is
this stream and stepping out of it.
A: That is meditation, that is real meditation, because the stream is not life. The stream is totally mechanical.
........
K: I must die to the stream.
A: All the time.
K: All the time. And therefore I must deny - not deny, I must not get entangled with - John who is in the stream.
A: One must repudiate the things of the stream.
K: That means I must repudiate my brother.
A: I must repudiate having a brother. You see what that means?
K: I see my brother belonging to this, and as I move away from the stream my mind is open. I think that is compassion.
A: When the stream is seen from that which is not of the stream.
K: When the man of the stream steps out and looks, then he has compassion.
A: And love.
K: So, you see, sir, reincarnation, that is, incarnating over and over again, is the stream. This is not a very comforting thing.
I come to you and tell you my brother died yesterday, and you tell me this. I call you a terribly cruel man. But you are weeping for
yourself, you are weeping for me, for the stream. That's why people don't want to know. I want to know where my brother is, not
whether he is."
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Reference: A conversation in 1972 with Alain Naudé & Mary Zimbalist following the death of Sidney Field's brother, John Field, pp. 135-157,
from the book The Reluctant Messiah, Paragon: New York, 1989; edited by Peter Hay; Copyright, 1989, Sidney Field.
The above quote is courtesy of a page on the Katinka Hesselink website.
(Ellipses added, in bold; all other ellipses, as pauses or interruptions, are in the original; paragraphs, as in ........, are added)
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Commentary: There is reincarnation. The stream of humanity is what reincarnates - the stream being consciousness as we know it, the movement of the 'separate,' fictional self. The images of thought, and the image-maker, which is the ego. This is the vulgar (corrupt) society in which everyone lives. We represent and are identified with this vulgarity, through envy, fear, desire and ambition. We simply do not challenge it - in a completely docile manner we accept all of it because we have been trained from childhood to do so. This self will die over time (it survives death temporarily in the form of the stream of desire) but the human stream itself continues, in humanity as a whole. And we all contribute to and strengthen it by not stepping out of it.

This self, this ego, is conflicted energy - thus fear. It is division, which is fragmentation: my self against your self, my ideas against your ideas, my ideology (that is, conservative) against your ideology (liberal), my religion against your religion, my religious sect against your religious sect (Christianity alone, it is said, has now splintered into some twenty thousand sects), my possessions against your possessions, my money against your money, my political party against your party, my country against your country. All this must be repudiated at its core - even if to deny it you must repudiate your brother, your family, your wife or partner, even your job. This is to stand completely alone, psychologically speaking, accepting no authority and letting life carry you as regards physical survival (in the talks elsewhere, there is mention of complete security when one denies all psychological security - and this is not a paradox. There is some greater force, or power, that operates; there is a state of life in which there is absolute security, in insecurity).

Step out of this stream and you end this division that has existed since time immemorial between all human beings. End the self and thought and there is pure energy, which is called compassion, love. This energy, which cannot be destroyed, is the creative emptiness that lies at the heart of all things. It is eternal. (Emptiness is the natural or ground state of the universe, as in vacuum energy, or what is known as the zero-point field. This is the emptiness of vast interstellar space, which although it is a sea of fluctuating quantum energy, is empty of visible matter. Likewise, all matter is really empty, as the atom which comprises everything, including obviously all of us, is 99.99% empty space.)

Actual physical death, therefore, has no intrinsic meaning. Death is simply the end of the form, which in nature signifies renewal. That is, death is an intrinsic part of life itself, death is essential for renewal to take place. Psychological death is rebirth, part of the universal cycle of all things. It is eternity... and it exists in another dimension. Science cannot explore it as it is beyond the reach of the brain's intellect.

So, step out of the stream when you are alive and something else entirely different happens. But this cannot be communicated directly in words, though words can be found to point to it. The key, as always in the entire talks, is the silent, empty mind.
(NB: This is a commentary on only part of the content in the above discussion.)
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A Conversation with Three Entities, including Death, in a Hospital Room:

"It was a short operation [in 1977] and not worth talking about, although there was considerable pain. While the pain continued I saw or discovered that the body was almost floating in the air.... a few minutes later there was the personification - not a person - but the personification of death. Watching this peculiar phenomenon between the body and death, there seemed to be a sort of dialogue between them. Death seemed to be talking to the body with great insistence and the body reluctantly was not yielding to what death wanted....

Death was more and more demanding , insisting and so the other intervened. Then there was a conversation or a dialogue between not only the body, but this other and death. So there were three entities in conversation.

...Though the person [Mary Zimbalist] was sitting there and a nurse came and went, it was not a self-deception or hallucination.... One felt very strongly and clearly that if the other had not interfered death would have won ...

The dialogue began in words with thought operating very clearly....

During this conversation there was no sense of time.... Words ceased to exist but there was an immediate insight into what each one was saying. Of course if one is attached to anything - ideas, beliefs, property or person, death would not come to have a conversation with you. Death in the sense of ending is absolute freedom.

Most Extraordinary Discussion - on the Stream of Humanity, Pure Energy, Death & Reincarnation

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We can step out of the stream of humanity - it is possible, some have done it, which implies that everyone can do it. It's only non-understanding that prevents us from stepping out of the prison of mind self-centeredness that we accept as normal and inevitable in life.
"[Physical] Death has no meaning."
(Krishnamurti and Bohm dialogues: 1985, pp. 149-53)
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"One has to find out for oneself what it means to die [psychologically]; then there is no fear, therefore every day is a new day -
and I really mean this, one can do this - so that your mind and your eyes see life as something totally new. That is eternity."
(The Awakening of Intelligence: Talk & Dialogue, New York City, April 24, 1971)

Just two months shy of his fourth birthday, Colton Burpo, the son of an evangelical pastor in Imperial, Neb., was rushed into emergency surgery with a burst appendix.
He woke up with an astonishing story: He had died and gone to heaven, where he met his great-grandfather; the biblical figure Samson; John the Baptist; and Jesus, who had eyes that “were just sort of a sea-blue and they seemed to sparkle,” Colton, now 11 years old, recalled.
Colton’s father, Todd, has turned the boy’s experience into a 163-page book, “Heaven Is for Real,” which has become a sleeper paperback hit of the winter, dominating best-seller lists and selling hundreds of thousands of copies.
Thomas Nelson, the book’s publisher, said it had broken company sales records. The publisher, based in Nashville, began with an initial print run of 40,000 copies. Since the book came out in November, it has gone back to press 22 times, with more than 1.5 million copies in print. On the New York Times best-seller list for paperback nonfiction last Sunday, “Heaven Is for Real” was No. 1. The book remains in the top spot this coming Sunday.
Much of the book’s success has been fueled by word of mouth, since it did not begin with the usual best-seller channels: there has been no elaborate book tour, big-name publisher or brand-name author. But it has gained traction with a few well-placed appearances on the morning show “Fox & Friends,” “The 700 Club” and CNN.
The book has sold just as strongly in national chain bookstores like Barnes & Noble as it has in Christian specialty shops, said Matt Baugher, the vice president and publisher of Thomas Nelson. Mass merchants like Wal-Mart have pushed the book heavily in their stores, and large orders from churches and ministry groups are growing steadily.
“We all are perhaps desperate to know what is on the other side of the veil after we die,” Mr. Baugher said, adding that his initial skepticism about the Burpo family’s story was short-lived. “This was a very down-to-earth, conservative, quote-unquote normal Midwestern family. We became fully convinced that this story was valid. And also that it was a great story that would just take off.”
The book was an instant hit in Barnes & Noble outlets and was near the top of the best-seller list on its bn.com. The chain’s religion buyer was an early advocate for the book, ordering copies for every store, said Patricia Bostelman, the vice president for marketing at Barnes & Noble.
“When you buy the religion subject, you are presented with many stories about heaven, personal experiences about near-death and the afterlife,” Ms. Bostelman said, noting that several other books with “heaven” in the title have sold well recently. “But what was unusual about this book was that it was the story of a little boy. It deactivated some of the cynicism that can go along with adults capitalizing on their experiences.”
Todd Burpo wrote the book with Lynn Vincent, who collaborated with Sarah Palin on “Going Rogue.” Mr. Burpo, the pastor of Crossroads Wesleyan Church in Imperial, a farming community in southwest Nebraska, said in an interview that he had shouldered some criticism over it.
“People say we just did this to make money, and it’s not the truth,” Mr. Burpo said, referring to anonymous online comments about the book. “We were expecting nothing. We were just hoping the publisher would break even.” (He said he planned to give away much of the royalty income and spend some of it on home improvements.)
At first, he and his wife, Sonja, were not sure if they could believe their son’s story, which came out slowly, months and years after his sudden illness and operation in 2003. The details persuaded them, Mr. Burpo said. Colton told his parents that he had met his younger sister in heaven, describing her as a dark-haired girl who resembled his older sister, Cassie. When the Burpos questioned him, he asked his mother, “You had a baby die in your tummy, didn’t you?” While his wife had suffered a miscarriage years before, Mr. Burpo said, they had not told Colton about it. “There’s just no way he could have known,” Mr. Burpo said.
And the Burpos said that Colton painstakingly described images that he said he saw in heaven — like the bloody wounds on Jesus’ palms — that he had not been shown before.
Eventually the Burpos decided to tell their story beyond their town. Mr. Burpo, in his Sunday sermons, had already introduced some anecdotes to his congregation. Through a pastor friend, they met Joel Kneedler, an agent with Alive Communications, a Christian literary agency in Colorado Springs. Mr. Kneedler sold the book to Thomas Nelson, a publisher known for Christian titles like “40 Days With Jesus” by Sarah Young. The advance was in the low five figures.
The book’s list price is $16.99, but that is discounted to $9.34 on amazon.com.
At the outlets of Barbara’s Bookstore, an independent chain mostly in the Chicago area, the book is No. 1 on the store’s nonfiction best-seller list. Interest in it began to perk up around mid-February, said Greg Sato, a store manager.
“Of the nonfiction books lately that seems to be the one that people are asking about the most,” Mr. Sato said. “I have pegged it in the same vein as ‘The Five People You Meet in Heaven’ or ‘The Shack.’ Like an Oprah book, but a little more religious or spiritual.”
Colton, who appears as a blond, round-faced little boy on the cover of the book, now plays the piano and trumpet, is fascinated by Greek mythology, listens to Christian rock and loves Nebraska football.
Telling his story matter-of-factly, Colton said he was pleased that people were finding the story inspirational.
“People are getting blessed, and they’re going to have healing from their hurts,” he said. “I’m happy for that.”

Just two months shy of his fourth birthday, Colton Burpo, the son of an evangelical pastor in Imperial, Neb., was rushed into emergency surgery with a burst appendix.
He woke up with an astonishing story: He had died and gone to heaven, where he met his great-grandfather; the biblical figure Samson; John the Baptist; and Jesus, who had eyes that “were just sort of a sea-blue and they seemed to sparkle,” Colton, now 11 years old, recalled.
Colton’s father, Todd, has turned the boy’s experience into a 163-page book, “Heaven Is for Real,” which has become a sleeper paperback hit of the winter, dominating best-seller lists and selling hundreds of thousands of copies.
Thomas Nelson, the book’s publisher, said it had broken company sales records. The publisher, based in Nashville, began with an initial print run of 40,000 copies. Since the book came out in November, it has gone back to press 22 times, with more than 1.5 million copies in print. On the New York Times best-seller list for paperback nonfiction last Sunday, “Heaven Is for Real” was No. 1. The book remains in the top spot this coming Sunday.
Much of the book’s success has been fueled by word of mouth, since it did not begin with the usual best-seller channels: there has been no elaborate book tour, big-name publisher or brand-name author. But it has gained traction with a few well-placed appearances on the morning show “Fox & Friends,” “The 700 Club” and CNN.
The book has sold just as strongly in national chain bookstores like Barnes & Noble as it has in Christian specialty shops, said Matt Baugher, the vice president and publisher of Thomas Nelson. Mass merchants like Wal-Mart have pushed the book heavily in their stores, and large orders from churches and ministry groups are growing steadily.
“We all are perhaps desperate to know what is on the other side of the veil after we die,” Mr. Baugher said, adding that his initial skepticism about the Burpo family’s story was short-lived. “This was a very down-to-earth, conservative, quote-unquote normal Midwestern family. We became fully convinced that this story was valid. And also that it was a great story that would just take off.”
The book was an instant hit in Barnes & Noble outlets and was near the top of the best-seller list on its bn.com. The chain’s religion buyer was an early advocate for the book, ordering copies for every store, said Patricia Bostelman, the vice president for marketing at Barnes & Noble.
“When you buy the religion subject, you are presented with many stories about heaven, personal experiences about near-death and the afterlife,” Ms. Bostelman said, noting that several other books with “heaven” in the title have sold well recently. “But what was unusual about this book was that it was the story of a little boy. It deactivated some of the cynicism that can go along with adults capitalizing on their experiences.”
Todd Burpo wrote the book with Lynn Vincent, who collaborated with Sarah Palin on “Going Rogue.” Mr. Burpo, the pastor of Crossroads Wesleyan Church in Imperial, a farming community in southwest Nebraska, said in an interview that he had shouldered some criticism over it.
“People say we just did this to make money, and it’s not the truth,” Mr. Burpo said, referring to anonymous online comments about the book. “We were expecting nothing. We were just hoping the publisher would break even.” (He said he planned to give away much of the royalty income and spend some of it on home improvements.)
At first, he and his wife, Sonja, were not sure if they could believe their son’s story, which came out slowly, months and years after his sudden illness and operation in 2003. The details persuaded them, Mr. Burpo said. Colton told his parents that he had met his younger sister in heaven, describing her as a dark-haired girl who resembled his older sister, Cassie. When the Burpos questioned him, he asked his mother, “You had a baby die in your tummy, didn’t you?” While his wife had suffered a miscarriage years before, Mr. Burpo said, they had not told Colton about it. “There’s just no way he could have known,” Mr. Burpo said.
And the Burpos said that Colton painstakingly described images that he said he saw in heaven — like the bloody wounds on Jesus’ palms — that he had not been shown before.
Eventually the Burpos decided to tell their story beyond their town. Mr. Burpo, in his Sunday sermons, had already introduced some anecdotes to his congregation. Through a pastor friend, they met Joel Kneedler, an agent with Alive Communications, a Christian literary agency in Colorado Springs. Mr. Kneedler sold the book to Thomas Nelson, a publisher known for Christian titles like “40 Days With Jesus” by Sarah Young. The advance was in the low five figures.
The book’s list price is $16.99, but that is discounted to $9.34 on amazon.com.
At the outlets of Barbara’s Bookstore, an independent chain mostly in the Chicago area, the book is No. 1 on the store’s nonfiction best-seller list. Interest in it began to perk up around mid-February, said Greg Sato, a store manager.
“Of the nonfiction books lately that seems to be the one that people are asking about the most,” Mr. Sato said. “I have pegged it in the same vein as ‘The Five People You Meet in Heaven’ or ‘The Shack.’ Like an Oprah book, but a little more religious or spiritual.”
Colton, who appears as a blond, round-faced little boy on the cover of the book, now plays the piano and trumpet, is fascinated by Greek mythology, listens to Christian rock and loves Nebraska football.
Telling his story matter-of-factly, Colton said he was pleased that people were finding the story inspirational.
“People are getting blessed, and they’re going to have healing from their hurts,” he said. “I’m happy for that.”

"Knowledge is always limited. So the brain, having found security in the movement of knowledge,
clings to it and translates every incident, according to the past. In the movement of ending of continuity
[knowledge] is complete order. This insight is the revolution in the structure of the brain."
(Pupul Jayakar Biography: Chapter 38, page 413)

Neuroplasticity (and neurogenesis) are the new branches of neurology showing that thinking, learning and acting (ie, the overall environment) can physically change the brain's anatomy. Essentially, they are the study of the brain's capacity to change itself, to generate new neurons. That is, mutation. Based on extensive and unequivocal animal studies and limited studies on humans, it has toppled the decades old scientific idea of genetic determinism. It has shown neuroscientists a glimpse of the power of the mind to actually change the structure of the brain, the power of self-transformation, which is not restricted by the ageing process of the brain. We can change the structure of the brain at any age:

"... although we have deeply ingrained ways of thinking and although the brain comes with some hardwiring, we also have the possibility of changing. The idea that we are constantly changing means there is no intrinsic nature to the self or the mind, which is what Buddhism teaches. Instead, both self and mind are extremely plastic. Our activities inform who we are; as we act, so shall we become. We are products of the past, but because of our inherently empty nature, we always have the opportunity to reshape ourselves."
(Francisca Cho, Buddhist scholar at George Washington University - Begley: Train Your Mind, page 13)