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Color TheoryHuntington Beach, California

80's synthpop is in my blood, but I mostly listen to EDM these days. My songs draw from both, fleshed out with piano
accompaniment. Anyone who took music lessons as a kid calls themselves "classically trained," but I stuck with it, earning a Bachelor of Music degree in Piano Performance. After graduation, I left Beethoven and Brahms behind to pursue my first musical inspiration, Depeche Mode....more

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You mumble something cryptic
And then giggle in your sleep
A smile so wide I know you can’t be dreaming about me
The lack of circulation to my arm under your head
Makes pins and needles dance as I lie helpless in your bed

Want to hear the awful truth?
I really do believe
That we dance on pins and needles
We dance on pins and needles

And try to keep our balance though we stumble every day
We never stop to wonder what got lost along the way
You grip my hand too tightly as you feel me letting go
My fingers unresponsive like a mitten full of snow
Want to hear the awful truth?

I really do believe
That love means one thing to you
Another thing to me
Just the tingle of severed nerves
Where feeling used to be
We dance on pins and needles
We dance on pins and needles

You sit down on my lap without a warning or a word
And kiss me like a teenage girlfriend waiting at the curb
I taste the desperation in you and it makes me blush
To find my thighs desensitized to any youthful rush.

Track Name: Sagittarius (Lyder Janøy Remix)

I scan the nighttime sky
Paralyzed by vertigo
As my life spins out of control
I spot the archer with his bow
Whose constellation guards
The celestial zodiac
Human and horse
Cause and effect
Like an arrow to my back

Sagittarius
How did I get into this hopeless mess?
Sagittarius
Was it fate, or my own choice?
It’s all there in the stars
Venus and Mars
Bruises and scars

Do I reach for the stars
Or do they reach out for me
Drawing me in
Luring me on
With the pull of gravity
I realize the stakes
And it cuts me like a knife
Without a will
Without a voice
What’s the meaning of my life?

I confess to the crime
Empty bottles of wine
Purple eyeliner streaks
Lipstick stains on the sheets
And the smell of perfume
Lingers still in the room
On my tongue still the taste of regret

You’ll be betrayed again
By the destiny of man
To be played out
Again and again
In a cruel eternal plan.

Track Name: Indestructible (Solarno BFFs 4Ever Remix)

Why do we have to fight like this?
A brotherhood of eager fists
You’ve always had a taste for blood
If you’re not man enough to shrug it off
Well I guess that’s your loss

You know me like nobody else
It’s like a marriage made in hell
We’re always at each other’s throats
But when the dust clears and the choking ends
We’ll still be best friends

I don’t know who will get killed first
We’ll be together at the worst
A pointless war in foreign lands
Or murder at the other’s hands no doubt
I can’t rule that out.

Track Name: Monochrome (David Luis Ortega Remix)

Soon she’ll fade away
An empty promise
Cast in shades of grey
An image from a dream
Or 50’s TV screen
Going colorblind
I tell myself to
Quit while I’m behind
It’s more than I can bear
To see her standing there
And vanish in thin air

In monochrome
In black and white
She disappears right in front of me
Like color dies in the dark
In camouflage
Against the night
My eyestrain pales in comparison
To the straining of my heart

If only I could shine
A flashlight on her
Pulling her inside
To catch her like a ghost
Entrapped forever close
Right here in my hand
A genie in a bottle to command
Within her radiant shrine
Defying space and time
Her light forever mine.

Track Name: Our Shadow (Solarno In the Dark Remix)

I spent a lifetime chasing shadows
Haunting the space where two lives crossed
Just when the sun was in alignment
The clouds came in and all was lost

I thought I would leave you too
And say, “This is it – we’re through”
But then I saw the dark

The alchemy of you and me
Our shadow
A witches’ brew of me and you
Our shadow

Can’t tell one of us from the other
Our forms and features overlap
No light can pass between our union
Our bodies blend without a gap

Admiring the shade we cast
I let go of futures past
And watched our worlds combine

A safety net in silhouette
Our shadow
This earthly bond will last beyond
A shadow of a doubt

We’ll never fade.

Track Name: We're Not Getting Any Younger (Vatke Remix)

I say I should take you home but you want to stay here
On the beach all alone with our blankets and beer
In the dark how we ache to fulfill this hunger
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger

Ashes in fire pits and fires in our hearts as we move
Crashing waves in an urgent and quickening groove
Consummating the end of a perfect summer
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger

If I never felt this way again
That would be okay
I could die right now a happy man
Because we had today

I peel the tag off a bottle hands dripping with sweat
Write a note on the back that says “never forget”
The best moments race by in a head-twisting blur
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger
Just before sunrise we’re caught in a warm summer shower
So we climb to the top of a dry lifeguard tower
And we’re rocked to the core by the gentle thunder
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger

We’re truly alive today
I’d trade all my tomorrows
For one more taste of this naiveté
For this naiveté
I’d trade all my tomorrows
Truly alive today
In love with the whole world today.

Track Name: Release the Hounds (Solarno Thieving Scallywag Remix)

Bought myself a one-way ticket
To a place you’ll never visit
Setting off for freedom and adventure today
Letting go of all my burdens
Don’t go calling missing persons
Cause you’ve got no right to claim me
Pretty sure they wouldn’t blame me

If I thought that it was worthwhile
To erase my online profiles
Wiping out all traces of my identity
No address to forward mail to
What good would a paper trail do?
Even changed my cell phone number
Why would I do that you wonder?

Try to catch me, I don’t care
It’s over, I swear
Racing to nowhere
In leaps and bounds
So release the hounds

I was lost when I was with you
Wondering what I’d gotten into
In a pointless fight you told me to go away
Now a distant sun is rising
As I face a bright horizon
So I showed you quite directly
I can do some things correctly

Try to catch me, I don’t care
It’s over, I swear
Racing to nowhere
Minutes turn into seconds
Liberty beckons
Eyes to the heavens
Nose to the ground
So release the hounds.

Track Name: It Must Be Halloween (Carved Souls Whisper Mix)

You emerge
Your face drawn in black and white
Your corset laced up just right
A vampire in fishnets
“So,” I laugh
“What are you supposed to be?”
You smile but won’t answer me
Is this a trick or treat?

Master of the cheap disguise
Sometimes I can’t believe my eyes, I tell you
(You/I/We) sure know how to make a scene
It must be Halloween

Half asleep
We race home to beat the dawn
I cut through a corner lawn
And slice my head on a branch
“Hang on – I just need to catch my breath”
You say that I look like death
And toss back your head to laugh in revenge.

Track Name: If Not Now When (Elevated Mix)

In a little while
The lines will deepen on our faces
As the longest mile
Begins to circle home
Can’t help thinking that
We regulate our deepest feelings
Like a thermostat
To match our comfort zone
As we stand here toe to toe
If you kiss me now I’ll know
That our happiness is just a matter of permission

If not now when
It's now or never
We've just one life to live together
So little time to stop and mourn
What might have been
If not now when
It's now or never
All things must end
There's no forever
So little time to stop and mourn
What might have been
If not now when

In a little while
Our world will crack in hairline traces
Like a crooked smile
A Mona Lisa grin
At the very end
I’ll liberate these inhibitions
But I can’t pretend
It’s easy to begin
Cause the devil that disturbs
Daring acts and candid words
Is the part of me that worries it’s too late to love you

Maybe on another day
Always something in the way
Now I realize that life is one long string of somethings.

Track Name: Monochrome (Solarno Monotone Remix)

Soon she’ll fade away
An empty promise
Cast in shades of grey
An image from a dream
Or 50’s TV screen
Going colorblind
I tell myself to
Quit while I’m behind
It’s more than I can bear
To see her standing there
And vanish in thin air

In monochrome
In black and white
She disappears right in front of me
Like color dies in the dark
In camouflage
Against the night
My eyestrain pales in comparison
To the straining of my heart

If only I could shine
A flashlight on her
Pulling her inside
To catch her like a ghost
Entrapped forever close
Right here in my hand
A genie in a bottle to command
Within her radiant shrine
Defying space and time
Her light forever mine.

Track Name: We're Not Getting Any Younger (Sappy Remix)

I say I should take you home but you want to stay here
On the beach all alone with our blankets and beer
In the dark how we ache to fulfill this hunger
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger

Ashes in fire pits and fires in our hearts as we move
Crashing waves in an urgent and quickening groove
Consummating the end of a perfect summer
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger

If I never felt this way again
That would be okay
I could die right now a happy man
Because we had today

I peel the tag off a bottle hands dripping with sweat
Write a note on the back that says “never forget”
The best moments race by in a head-twisting blur
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger
Just before sunrise we’re caught in a warm summer shower
So we climb to the top of a dry lifeguard tower
And we’re rocked to the core by the gentle thunder
Cherish it now cause we’re not getting any younger

We’re truly alive today
I’d trade all my tomorrows
For one more taste of this naiveté
For this naiveté
I’d trade all my tomorrows
Truly alive today
In love with the whole world today.

Track Name: And You Thought I Was Joking (Beyond Remix)

Penny for my thoughts
Make a wish and toss it down
Into the well
But the well’s run dry
Every thought evaporates on my tongue

Promised I’d try
To show you what I feel inside
I keep to myself
Because there’s nothing left
Nothing really there to hide
Or confide

This is something I have to do
Maybe not thought-provoking
But it’s just what I promised you
And you thought I was joking

This is my life
Like someone else’s diary
Edited out
Factual and dry
Sterilized for public view
Nothing new

Still I hold hope inside
That someday my words will run free
To play out my part
In something bigger than me.

Track Name: Hypothetically (Colab Remix)

Imagination is powerful stuff
It can get ugly
It can get rough
Sometimes I dream horrible things
Just to try on how they might feel
To see what reactions I can reveal

I want to know
What if I lost you
I want to know
What would it mean to me
If your life were threatened
Hypothetically

Maybe a car crash
Maybe a plane
Maybe your heart stops
Maybe your brain
Would CPR in the ER trigger an SOS in my head
Bring my emotions back from the dead

It goes without saying
I mean you no harm
Don’t let these musings
Cause you alarm
Still if I find my idle mind
Conjuring visions of distress
It’s an experiment
Only a test

Yes it’s morbid but
I want to know
Do I still love you
I want to know
What would my future be
In a world without you
Hypothetically