Why can't things just work out right? Why can't I just relax and not worry for 1 day???Why must it always be like this? Why must it that I get all these good things in my life but the next second it all comes CRASHiNG DOWN??? WHY?!

I'm just a 20 year old teenager, gimme a BREAK! I thought I can live my life the right way, I thought its the right TiME...I thought you're the right one (U ARE THE RiGHT ONE!) I thought things would work out right this TiME around... But why it turns out to be WRONG TiMiNG?! Is there a God up there? If there is, he must be playing with my life! Thats why I don't believe there's a God up there! If there is...where is HE when you need HiM the MOST?!It is too much what I asked for? I don't ask much, just what I want. Its not even material stuff! Damn fuck!

I'm not a bad person, I try to be nice but nice people always finish last or get fucked by GOD or TiME!

Ya! Prescribe me a day in a life of someone else! Thats what I need! I hate my life to the max! WHY???

I thought my life would be better with college and all. Was overjoyed when got the PTPTN Loan. Everything was going smoothly, I enjoy my college life, I love my friends and lecturers. Loved the assignments and the environment. I thought I don't have to worry bout $$$ when I get the loan. Turns out I was WRONG!

The April - July semester costs RM2590, its alright cuz I have the loan in my bank. But the August - Jan semester costs another RM2590 but the next transfer from the PTPTN will only be in November! What the hell? And I ask for delay, all the admin could tell me was "settle it on your own".Another thing is a laptop! Laptop is crucial for my assignments this coming semester and I don't have one! Can't get one either cuz can't afford, I can't even touch my loan money! DAMN iT! I HATE EVERYTHiNG!

Monday, March 29, 2010

I feel so damn useless...At the age of 21, a young adult...Don't know how to drive, don't own a driving licencePeople kept on saying go get but talk is easy and talk is cheapIt costs a GOD-DAMN RM600 for a fucking car licence...After getting the car licence, no car...Where's the motivation in that?Can't even afford a laptop and yet wanna get a car?Can I just die?

Sunday, March 28, 2010

From TikTok till BlahBlahBlah, I love everything about Kesha Rose Serbert or better known as Ke$ha. If you pay attention to her songs' lyrics, you'll know that the songs are all very cheeky and fun. Was addicted to TikTok, then was addicted to Your Love Is My Drug, after that was BlahBlahBlah...now...Styrofoam. Its yet to be released but its really really nice. She even dissed about Britney. It goes like...

I love every inch of Queensbay Mall! Why? I enjoy my work in UnderShop, I get to see my friends there and get to see "someone"...

I wanna work everyday if can but I'm only a "replacement staff". I'm only needed when 1 of the staff goes on leave or can't make it to work. I'm like Mr. Standby, haha...but I still love Queensbay Mall!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Not Australia, just The UNDER Shop in Queensbay Mall. First day working there today. I'm not a part time nor a full time staff there. I'm what u call a Replacement Staff, haha. I only work there when one of their part timer or full timer goes on a day off. What a joke...

Anyways, I had fun there today. I got to play my songs there so it wasn't that boring. Got along with my colleageue, Connie as well. Gain few new friends. And now I'm starting to be obsessed with underwears...especially sexy ones. LOL!

Here's a funny experience. A Korean man walked in this afternoon. He was looking for SkinXWear underwear. He could have just tell me the size and the type that he wants. Instead, he pull up his shirt and show me his underwear. Not only did I not see any underwear, I SAW HIS PUBiC HAiR! Disgusting!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Throughout this time's semester break, I did something productive at least! Hiking, have fun at the beach...haha! Went hiking with Kher Shieu and Soo Lyn to Monkey Beach. That was last Thursday. Then the following week, Tuesday we went to the Hard Rock Beach but there were jelly fish everywhere so we switched to Tanjung Bungah Beach. Swam there with Soo Lyn and Daryl. Daryl got stung by a jelly fish. The next day which is today, we went hiking AGAiN! The initial plan was to hike up Pantai Kerachut but Anne can't take it so we hiked to Monkey Beach instead. This time, there were Soo Lyn, Anne, Kimberley, Anne's friend and ME! And this time around, I got stung by jelly fish. Haha

Thursday, March 18, 2010

After dinner and chill out, we head to UPR (Upper Penang Road). Its ladies night but we went to Boom Boom Chambre. Not MOiS. Haha! Gay bar but sadly, not much gays there. There was even a straight couple who came to watch the Drag Queen show for their anniversary. The environment was alright, the music sucks but the Drag Queen show ROCKS! Haha, its like the Malaysia's version of Kumar Drag Queen. They have Freda Drag Queen performing standup comedy and also lip-syncing and dancing with very very "out-of the box" moves. The drag queen danced to Superwoman and I Will Survive but totally ruined the meaning of the song, haha! It was superbly entertaining. Pity no gay guys there. Should go on Fridays or Saturdays, there's more. Hehe...

After Boom Boom Chambre, we head to Zenzi Bar which was next door only. Dwayne joined us. We sat there, chat, drink and sing a little bit. Got to do Evanescence's Bring Me To Life! Woohoo! Oh ya, I didn't get drunk =P

3 weeks semester break! I love it or hate it? I HATE iT! Its so dead boring cuz there's nothing to do. Ughh! Anyways, went out to hang with Kher Shieu and Soo Lyn. Followed the girls to do their manicure and pedicure. While they do their nails, I was there playing PSP. Thank God there's PSP! After that Soo Lyn was supposed to go the Mandal to get her tattoo. She wanted to tattoo a heart with roses around. The appointment was at 6pm. Went there after their nail session. Soo Lyn decided to take it easy and think for about a week or so before doing it. So, where to? We went to Gurney to have dinner. PastaMania! We DEVOURED 3 bottle of CHEESE POWDER! Wahaha! Prior to PastaMania, we were at the arcade. Hehe...Fate Stay Night-Unlimited Codes! Great versus game! Then Soo Lyn and I both challenged Kher Shieu to King of Fighter Maximum Impact. Sadly, we both lose...

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

It starts with Lady Gaga being sent to an all women prison. And because she's Lady Gaga, even her prison suit is different than others. She's clad in a high shoulder dress with horizontal black and white stripes. Being escort with two heavily buffed women prison guard, she was stripped off her clothes and shoved into the cell. The censored part was censored with duck tape. Next we see Lady Gaga is the open area with other prison inmates. This has got to be Gaga's weirdest and out of this world accessory, a pair of sunglasses decorated with cigarettes. And the cigarettes were lit! After a very sensual scene, Lady Gaga receives a call from Beyonce. Here's where the first part of the song starts. You'll see Lady Gaga dancing in her undergarments at the prison hallway. Next we see Beyonce bailing Lady Gaga out of the prison and here comes the very disturbing scene. Beyonce telling Lady Gaga that she's been a bad girl, a very very bad bad girl! Then Gaga takes a bite from Beyonce's bun and they drove off. Conversation starts about killing boyfriend with Beyonce saying, "you know Gaga, trust is like a mirror. You can fix it if it's broken". Gaga replies back, "but you can still see the crack in that mother ******'s reflection". Then Beyonce sings her part. They reach a Diner and Beyonce pours poison into her boyfriend's drink while Gaga prepares food that's tainted with POiSON. There's even a short session called Let's Make a Sandwich?with main ingredient, POiSON. Man, do these women hate men or what? Food is served and everyone dies from the poisoned food. Then you see Lady Gaga and Beyonce clad in two piece clothing with the American flag motive.

13th & 14th of March was my college's Open Day. I as one of the Vice President of the Mass Comm Society helped at the event. In fact, most of the committee members helped out. This year's Open Day was a little bit more quiet compare to last year's. I helped out in between here and there but mainly was in-charge of the Campus Radio with my DJ-Mates, Anne & Eena. I think we did a great job for first timers. Well, even our advisor Mr. Lee Chun-Yih said that we did a good job and the 'misunderstood' Mr. Kelsen Loh said I was not bad for first time. Great! Kinda ignite the flame in me to take up Broadcasting. I've always wanted to be a Radio DJ but still torn in between Broadcasting or Journalism. The local broadcast scene isn't that easy.

Anyways, the funny thing was...friends could tell that I was in-charge of the Campus Radio based on the songs played. Haha. Typical Lady Gaga, Adam Lambert and Ke$ha. The 3 of us were in the English side where else my other coursemate was in the Mandarin side. It was a great experience and exposure. The day worked out fine for me.

Oh ya, as usual when there's me...there's a camera around and we took ALOT of pictures during Open Day. Well, mostly of us cam-whoring. LOL! I even got the 'chance of a life time' to take a photo with Mr. Kelsen Loh. Suet Ling and Siew Hui were saying he'd be too much of a snob to take picture with me. Turns out, he was happy to. Haha...

Friday, March 12, 2010

Lady Gaga has released her Telephone music video. Telephone is a collaboration between Lady Gaga and Beyonce, creating Fierce fame! The music video has been one of the most anticipated ones. The collaboration started with Beyonce inviting Lady Gaga to sing on Beyonce's Video Phone and Lady Gaga recipirated by inviting Beyonce to sing on Telephone.

The music video started off like a lesbian porn in an all-women jail with Gaga naked but her tits were covered with black duck tape. Then you see her in a shade that'sdecorated with cigarettes thats is still burning. After awhile, she gets bailed out by Beyonce and starts to go on a boyfriend killing spree. Beyonce pours poison into her boyfriend's drink while Gaga prepares a lovely poisonous lunch to kill everyone in the Diner. Talk about revenge on love. The best part of the music video would be the post-boyfriend killing part where Gaga and Beyonce dance to the song. Thats my favourite part...

Thursday, March 11, 2010

I have no problem whatsoever with followers! But the one thing I HATE about this particular follower is that he'll do whatever I'm doing. Whatever shit I'm involved in college, he wants to get involved too. PLEASE LOOK AT YOURSELF iN THE MiRROR! DAH LAH DAMN UGLY, WANNA DO THiNGS I DO SOME MORE! THiNK OF YOUR OWN CREDiBiLiTY FiRST! Hate this kind of FUCKED UP, WALKiNG CHii BAii followers!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Its THE time! The time to choose our major. I was torn in between the 3 majors. Broadcasting, Journalism or Public Relations & Advertising. I'll do fine in all 3 majors but I would prefer one that would get me jobs easier. I like Broadcasting cuz there's all the work with the media such as camera, TV and stuffs. I'm alright with PR & Advertising just that there's much more theory and paperwork compare to the others. Then there's Journalism, a field which I have never seen myself dabble into. I did not pay any attention at all to this major till a senior grab my attention with it. Started to think, Hey I can work in magazines etc.

Unfortunately, I'm the only one in my batch who will be taking Journalism in English. The other 3 are doing Journalism in Mandarin. Not much people are interested in Journalism because it involves writing. ALOT of writing to them. Haha...I'm ok with it...for those who read my blog you will know that I can crap just about anything.

Here's something that's bugging me. There's a loser who's like SO GREEDY! Loser want all majors. Loser is such show-off that he go round asking if they do Broadcasting, will he be able to do PR & Advertising papers as electives. OMG! Such losers...pick a major and settle with it! The latest now is that this loser wants to do Journalism in English but there are people that he can't click with so he won't do it. Laughing stock! In every major, there's people that don't like him. Don't he know that already??? And he seriously think he can do well in Journalism? CONFiRM FAiL! You don't have your mind fixed on 1 particualr major and you think you can do well in it? Journalism isn't for everyone. And when you don't have social skills and nobody likes you, thats BYE-BYE to your social life and in Mass Communication, you need social life.

There's 2 type on people in this world. WiTH or WiTHOUT personality. People with personality will always be the target of envy among people without personality. There's different type of personality. You can be loud, bitchy, mean, emo, chirpy or even suicidal. At least you have a personality. What happens to those who have NO personality whatsoever? They will leech on people with personality! The get close to people with personality and absorb the personality of the person and they try to be that person. If that person is bitchy, they try to bitchy. Usually people who leech on the bitchy personality ends up being rude instead of bitchy. There's a thin line between bitchiness and rudeness. If someone with original bitchiness argues with some who's equal, they know what to do and when to stop. But when a fake bitch goes against the person with the original bitchiness, the FAKE bitch won't know what to do. So all the one with fake personality does is...move on to next target and absorb another form of personality. Be it emo or anti-social.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Redbox was packed with Han Chiang students today. Haha, everywhere I turn, its my coursemate. My batch and the seniors' batch. LOL! I went with Suet Ling, Li Wen, Eleen and Yue Ling. We bumped into Shine, Pui Rong, Bao Yu. Then bumped into Siew Hui, Leslie, Cynthia and Henry. After that, Celine, Ah Moo and another classmate. LOL!

We join Leslie's room after we finished ours. There, we as in Suet Ling, Cynthia, Siew Hui, Leslie and Myself, we danced to Lady Gaga's Bad Romance. My gawd! Siew Hui is exactly like Gaga especially when she do her pose. Han Chiang has got a Gaga (Siew Hui) and Adam Lambert (Me)!!!

I am grateful today. I should feel grateful all the time. So here I am being grateful...What am I grateful for? Well...

1. I am grateful for my parents who are so good to me. They don't scold me, they give me total freedom, no curfews and such, they support EVERY decision I make, they don't pressure me with stuffs and they love me for who I am...especially my MOM!

3. I am grateful for being able to pursue my studies in college level. I am grateful that people trust me with works around college.

2. I am grateful for my friends who by my side through thick and thin, up and down and all around. They accept me for who I am and they mean the world to me...

4. I am grateful for my skin. Yeah, my skin. Grateful that I have skin that can be consider as good la~ I don't have acne and other skin woes. Thank you for that...