I regret alot of decisions of the past, I was highly pressured by the community, the expectations are enourmous, I can't always fulfil it, with my old age I couldn't deal well with it, so it affected both my gameplay, and also my actions outside the gameitself.

I know it sounds somewhat wimpy, but it's a high psychological pressure, when you play competitive games. many players are affected by it in different ways, I obviously couldn't deal with it, especially when I had a rocket start, getting recognized so fast in short time with my age, it was too much.