I just got done reading a posting from a bi-polar depression person. I was diagnosed with major?

... depression in the ealy 1990's. It is awful to feel like I have caused so much trouble with my family from being so sensitive + getting angry. WIth the correct RX and adjustments to the RX I have been on in the past I can now see the end of the tunnel. So how do I repair the problems that I have caused from a lifetime of abuse to others during my depression episodes? I have tried to reach out to family/past friends only to have my face "slapped". I miss the type of family bonds that I see other people experiencing. Should I just leave my past where it is and move ahead. Or try to mend more than just fences? I welcome all suggestions from you

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It is rather unfortunate but I would still recommend that you certainly try before finally giving up, moving ahead in life is certainly the law of nature, but family & friends are ones we all need in time of crisis, hope there are none, but such is life. At least you would have had the satisfaction of giving it a try once more even though you have been "slapped".

Wish you all the best in your endeavors & would you like to keep me posted? Please

Hi, I think the key is not to give up, keep reaching out to the people that are important to you, even though you may get a negative response at first. These people have probably lost faith in you and may doubt your genuine regret for the way things have happened in the past. You need to prove to them that you are sorry and want to move on and show them how much they mean to you. Eventually, if they are good people, they will recognise your determination to improve relationships and respond to you favorably, I hope.Keep trying. Remember birthdays, send cards, little things to show that you really do care. I hope it works out!

i call that stuff the "shrapnel", the old wreckage of my past behaviors, and personally i've got some 40 years worth hanging around my own life. and it's by no means only with other people, but also the hurt that i've inflicted on myself over the years, by not living the life i deserved while severely depressed.

i think the most important thing is to forgive yourself. if you carry yourself with that forgiveness, towards both yourself and others, people who are ready for the same good things in life will naturally respond well to you.

just let the old shrapnel fall away, it doesn't matter anymore. and if a few people can't move forward with you, don't let it slow you down. focus on those who are going to look towards the future with the same inspiration that you are, and those people will always be enough. and if you haven't found them yet, you will soon. they turn up in the funniest places. :)