Erin is standing in the doorway, lounging really, hip cocked against the door frame. Her hair hangs loose around her face and her chin is slightly down so that she is looking at Holtzmann through her eye-lashes. She is stark naked.

So, I went to see Ghostbusters last week. And then again this week. And I seem to have a massive crush on Holtzmann. I suspect this film is going to be like Iron Man for me (which I have watched at least 10 times, if not more) except that I'm experiencing it at the time the film comes out and not on catch up. Which is fun but also frustrating because there's not much fic out there yet (not to say I haven't found some really good ones - are people interested in recs?).

It's kind of weird to be getting back into fandom because I feel like (a) I forgot how to do it and (b) it's being done differently now anyway. Tumblr scares me kind of and I don't really know how it works. I guess we'll see. I've not had that impulse to be creative in shows I'm into for a while, although I can't quite identify why not. I might well do some Jessica Jones stuff at some point but I need to nerve myself up to re watch that - I mean, it was absolutely amazing but I sped watched it over two days, which is a pretty hefty gut punch of emotional impact!

I did love it enough visually to commission a vid though :) I still wish I could make vids but I don't think I'm actually going to get around to figuring it out any time soon! buffyann made me a fantastic one though, and it did what I love, showing me some of what I love about the show and the characters and some things that I hadn't thought about but fitted perfectly when I looked at those clips with that lyric. Check it out - http://buffyann.dreamwidth.org/2101.html!

When Kevin calls up to the second floor lab to tell them that there is a man with a goat on his face asking for Holtzmann, Erin makes what she thinks is actually a very reasonable assumption and dives for her proton pack.

Tony Stark can't, in good concience, welch on a bet. Well, he can, but it at least demands an in person meeting.

So, reading lots of people posting reviews of their fic years and stuff has been making me feel sad and blue because I really didn't publish a lot of fic this year! I actually kind of didn't get around to a lot of writing at all this year, fiction or otherwise, except for academically and this fact makes me really kind of sad. So what better thing to do than make a resolution, eh?

I have therefore decided that I am going to aim to complete and publish at least one piece of fic every 2 months. That seems like kind of a lowball goal, until you realise that it more than doubles my completion rate from this year! I have also decided that this is the year I am going to learn to write prompt fic. Every year, I look on at Yuletide with envy and terror and don't sign up because what if I couldn't think of anything to write for the prompt?! So I'm going to try to make at least two of my fics prompt fics for the New Year's resolution collection. Then who knows, I might even have the confidence to sign up for Yuletide 2013...

So, I once said to myself that I would never never do this, but I have posted up the first 3 parts of the Steve/Tony thing I have been working on over on AO3 - http://archiveofourown.org/works/467058. It will be Steve/Tony/Pepper in the next bit and I know how that will work, I just haven't actually, you know, written it yet, so I'm hoping that this will get me moving! Ummm, I'm probably not ready for con-crit on this yet but if anyone's up for cheerleading, that would be great!

I suddenly realised the other day that I am really curious about the idea of writing about what it would be like to be a vanilla person in a Dom/Sub universe. I'm fascinated by the idea of Dom/Sub universes anyway, but I can't see myself ever writing one because I can't make it feel real in my head (which I guess is kind of not the point but you know what I mean) but this suddenly occured to me the other day. Could there be an underground vanilla subculture? What would that be like? What would their dress code be? Anyone come across any fic like this?

So, I might have continued obsessively watching Iron Man and Avengers and watched all the prequels except the Hulk and I have thought of the following things, among others.

- Among the reasons that I like Tony Stark, I think, are that he has no brain to mouth filter and tends, unless he has a good reason to just tell the truth about stuff. I love the fact that at the end of Iron Man he's all "fuck this secret identity shit". I may possibly identify with this :)

- Another is that he is someone who has heroism thrust upon him, as opposed to Steve, who is naturally heroic and is just given an opportunity to show it.

- I think the reason I'm writing the fic I'm writing at the moment is not because I actually want Steve and Tony together but because I want Steve to see that he was wrong in what he said to Tony on the helicarrier. The problem is that this makes the fic unbalanced because Tony was also wrong, but I haven't focused on that at all. This means that I need to reconsider where the whole thing ends up, which is annoying but explains why trying to write the last bit doesn't work.

So, this is what happens when I try to write a fic where I particularly like the structure. I now have a scene which doesn't belong in section 4 or section 5 really but is kind of a section 4.5 and really needs to be there for the story to work, I think. Also, this fic is now 4500 words, which is kind of surprising. I wasn't expecting it to be a serious business fic.

See, this is why I don't post things in chapters. In the 5 things fic I'm currently writing, I've written part 1 (OK, but too short - needs to be fleshed out), part 2 (substantial and I'm mostly happy with it and part 4 (quite pleased with how that one turned out but not sure if if it finishes in the right place). I have a summary of what should happen in part 3 but no actual text that I'm happy with yet and I just had a new idea about part 5 last night which has completely changed where the whole thing will end up and may mean that bits need to be re-written. But not until I've written my essay, oh no.

Anyone fancy story-doctoring what I've got? It's going to end up being Steve/Tony now and it's Steve's POV (which I am finding very tricky). At this point I am mostly in the "babbling about ideas/story direction" mode rather than "serious nitpicks about grammar" mode. I think I am possibly too enamoured with the structure of it or something.

Title: Doing the right thingFandom: Avengers movieverseSummary: Steve and Tony have a conversation about the conversation they had on the carrier.Notes: So we went to see the film again last night and I came home and wrote this. Mostly still thinking about getting the character voices right and experimenting with Tony POV. This is my excuse for writing movie tags with no plot, anyway :)

Title: Somewhere I belongFandom: Avengers (movieverse)Summary: Tony's part of a team now, but that doesn't mean that he has to like it. Bruce takes the radical step of talking to him about it. Gen.Notes: So I mostly wanted to just get a hang of the character voices, but I also wondered how Tony would cope with the change in what seems like his core mission in the Iron man films and wanted to explore that. Are there any Avengers comms I can post this in that aren't cap_ironman? Not that I don't like the comm, but it doesn't seem very on topic :)