Saturday, January 26, 2013

Conversation with the Twins

The babies laid on the play mat. I wanted so to hold both of them. At six months the job is impossible when alone. A wave of sadness washed over me. They may be six months old, but I am going to be sixty-six this year. When they are going on with their lives, I will be a very old grammy. It is evident now that the energy I had with my older granddaughters is less. I feel my age more and more. I can fight the clock, but it will win in the end.

So as the babies laid there playing beneath their dangling toys, I told them how much I love them. I told them about Neff Road and their cousins. I told them about my dreams for them. I told them that I will try my best to keep up with them and their lives. I told them that my love for them would last for eternity, that I would always watch over them.

Tiny hands with palms as soft as silk. Little toes lined up like a string of pearls. I try to absorb each moment knowing that each will pass too quickly. I hope that somewhere in there little brains they imprint the woman I am now. I know that I have time ahead to make our relationships grow. Still these moments will be gone.

Life goes on. Those of us who are grandparents realize just how quickly it goes. Our families can't possibly know how much they mean to us. They can't possibly know that each smile, each touch, each sharing of our days is embedded in that place called heart. Truly I believe that when I am with my grandchildren, I am also with God. For my heart swells with a love that can only be given to me by a higher power.

Love everyone you meet. Heal a world in pain.

Women's Walk

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Care List

So what is a care list? I had called it a prayer list, but then we all have different interpretations of prayer. For me, my contact with a higher power comes from conversation that takes place all day long. It comes from planting thoughts of people in need in my mind and on my (list).

We all come from different backgrounds, different countries, different beliefs, yet we are all the same family. My heart aches when there is pain in any part of the world. We are all brothers and sisters.

I do not carry a weapon to protect me. I will not give hate or fear a voice by doing so. My heart says that we can only make a difference in this world by loving one another.

So my care list is for you. For though I may not know your language, I may not know your faith, you are part of my life journey and I am part of yours. Together may we go forward, caring for one another and embracing peace and love.