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Friday, June 22, 2012

Dear Friends,
I am so so sorry that I haven't been on here. Honestly, I didn't want to be on here. I'm depressed and tired and sick and I just couldn't handle looking at this page. When I see how much I was doing on here, it shows me even more how bad I'm doing now. I have been feeling really bad. I don't have much energy. I run down real easy, so the time I've spent running for the boys, has run my body way down. When I'm home, I hardly feel like doing more than sitting. I'm eating bad. I haven't exercised in forever. I'm so anxious and depressed. I'm aware of how bad I'm doing and my mom and Grandma are too, but I'm having trouble pulling out right now. I don't know how I've gained weight back so fast, but I've gained 10 lbs in like 2 or 3 weeks. It took so long to get that off and I worked so long to keep it off. I'm really sad. I will try to get on here more. Today I decided I would get on here and blog at least, because one great thing about Spark is the support you get. If you pray, please say a prayer for me. Part of my depression is dealing with financial issues since I've not been getting child support right and everything around me seems to be breaking. If it weren't for my mom's help, I don't know what I would do. Well love to you all. I hope each of you are doing wonderful. Take care and hopefully I will bring you good news soon.

Here's a smile for you AngelBeth! Hope you can see how the Lord is with you ever step of the way! Neither you nor your son are skipping meals or going without clothes!! God provides what we need! Hang on to the thought, HE will never leave us nor forsake us!!Hope to see you posting regularly again! You are missed!!

I've been there--probably most of us have at some point., The hole just seems so deep, the chances to get out so very slim--so hopeless. You are HERE among people who understand and value you. I totally love the fact that our bonds are built on our hope for the future.

I will pray because I know that prayer works. Give yourself a hug and I'm sending one too.

The fact that you recognize what is going on is a start. It is hard to break out of depression. I know for me, getting into God's word helps. I'm sorry you are struggling so much. I will keep you in my prayers.

The blues will come and go. Wait it out, this will move on. The transition to summer is challenging, esp with the kids round the clock. You have done a lot here on SP. And you will again. Give yourself time, patience, kindness. You don't have to tackle it all at once. Babysteps! Fast break! Just as you did today, getting on to blog. What can you do tomorrow? Huddle? Log nutrition for 1 meal? Stretch out or even 10 minutes of gentle walking? Look at your priorities: you love your boys, they love you!

and Prayers! Great to hear from you in any mood! Find creative ways to turn what you manage to do for others into healthy opportunities for you. Make play with the boys active, make loving them removing poor choices. Most of all, smile when they do, smile when things break, and just do what you know was working!

I'm sorry that you're having such troubles. I've been in a similar situation, and it's no fun at all. We are all here for you. I know all about financial issues - had to file bankruptcy. I know all about depression - you may have seen one of my blogs. It just all seems so overwhelming that you just don't know what to do, and everything that you do seems wrong. It's not. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, even in you can't see it. You can get through this.

I know where you are at in this area, I was doing so good and then I just lost my groove. But together with the help and support of others we can make this work. Dont give up please. It is very hard to get started up again. im in my second week again and for some odd reason i gain 2 pounds, it makes me mad cause IM trying so hard. Just remember we all have bad days, months, and even years but SP is always going to be around with encouragement

Don't give up - we all go thru those days but we keep going. I love SP and the support that I have because there are days when I don't want to do it anymore. I will say a prayer for you. God will get you thru this.