Monday, February 27, 2012

Being a Christian is not about a song sung or a prayer prayed, it is a lifestyle lived.
How are you living your life?
Who are you when you are alone?
Who you are when no one is looking IS who you are.

Convicted?
Joyfully repent. For it is his kindness that leads us to repentance.

Repenting isn't to confess your sin and sulk because you're a sinner. Repenting is to tell God "this is what I have done/been doing...I am sorry. THANK YOU for having grace and mercy for me" leaving your sin there and actively turning from it and replacing it with the fullness of Jesus. He waiting to release to you.

The enemy is going to come immediately after that. He is going to tell you that that wasn't good enough, that God didn't hear you, that he is mad at you, that you can't really let go of those sins. Those are LIES he is a liar. He is also a stupid uncreative butt head (tell him that) rebuke those lie. Take full awareness that THEY ARE LIES. Ask God to fill your mind with truth.Stand up.
Stand tall.
Out loud say:"enemy you have no hold over my life, you have no place in my mind, you are a liar, and so with the authority I have been given through Jesus Christ I rebuke you and I send you back to hell"

Psalm 6:8-9 depart from me all you workers of evil, for the Lord has heard the sound of my weeping the Lord had heard my plea; the Lord accepts my prayer.

Immediately begin praising the Lord. With thanksgiving lift your hands to the Lord and thank him for his faithfulness, for his loving devotion to you and for forgiving you.

Remember the enemy is gone now. It's just you and Jesus. He died so that you can meet him in this quiet alone place with him. He is so excited to meet you where there are no distractions. He loves you and longs for that relationship more than you do.
Ask the Holy Spirit to come and speak to you, and rest.

This week I had so much break through and passivity really broken off in my life, and I was so excited! But with break through comes attacks. Attacks saying I was only doing things for attention, for affirmation, to make myself look good. As these attacks increased I felt like the Lord was challenging me even more to step out and do things that make me uncomfortable; to serve people I didn't know, to pray out in intersession times with people that intimidated me, to encourage people in high leadership, that I didn't know. As I did these things, the attacks got worse and worse. I felt like I was 'that girl' that did good things, but only for attention.

Yesterday morning I was sharing with my roommates about all these attacks and as I was explaining to them I felt the Lord tell me to read Psalm. I said okay..which one? He said all of them, today, in one setting. Uhm okay God, if you say so. So I sat down and read all 150 Psalms. (it took a little under 7 hours)

As I read I realized that David's whole life was a constant battle. But in his constant attack he was in continuous repentance and worship. David didn't let himself be attacked, he cried out to God, who knew of the works of the enemy in David's life, and He showed Himself faithful.

Psalm 11:5 says that God allows the righteous to be test. God allows us to be tested to see if we can be trusted, to see if we can thicken our skin but soften our hearts.