Sunday, January 1, 2012

2011

There isn't one word that I can find in the English language- or any language, I don't think- that I can use to describe this past year. Scary. Eventful. Exciting. Sad. Liberating.

This past year, the following happened: After a year and a half of fighting with denial, I was finally able to admit to myself that I had feelings for someone of the same gender. I came out, for the first time, as bisexual, to the person who would eventually become my best friend. I came out to close friends, something I never imagined I would be able to do. I joined JQY. I went through a period of confusion in which I decided to take myself out of any category- straight, bisexual, pansexual, homosexual, queer, etc.- to figure out what my sexual orientation is. I was finally able to fully accept that I am gay. I came out to my friends, again. I came out to some of my family. After three years of complete lack of religious growth or development, I took my relationship with God into my own hands and began to figure out where I stand with Him. I became more honest with myself- not just about sexuality and religion, but about so much more.

I started off this year in the worst possible way, and ended it more content than I've ever been in my life. And I know that this happened because after listing everything that happened this past year, I know the one thing that has gotten me to this point-