honestly, my biggest fear is that i am the devil, or at least somehow somewhat responsible for the fact that the world does not all live in a heavenly place together, in peace and harmony for eternity. that i might run through worlds and make a mess of everything, and somehow separate everyone from eachother in some way. it's hard to explain, and mostly i know it's crazy. sometimes i see it from the other extreme, that my existence will bring peace to the world and somehow bring us all together... sometimes i go from one extreme to another. sometimes i think it could be a combination of both. it is a very overwhelming fear, when i feel it, but it doesn't usually last much longer than an hour at the most and it doesn't come very often. but when it does, i suppose you can imagine how scary it is, to think you are responsible for the war of the worlds or whatever. it's probably hard to imagine at all. my mind is capable of some intense thoughts and emotions.