Thursday, April 30, 2009

Today in Mythology class, my teacher commented on the influence of religion in our country. Most of our beliefs, standards, and morals are set on religious ideals rather than our own self-introspection and soul searching. He reminded us that even though we would often like to place our emphasis or loyalty with a certain religion, denomination, or belief system, in the end what really matters is what WE did. That the spirit of god is within us, whether it is a higher being or our own creation. And that no matter what we believe, or who we believe in, that no four walls of any place of worship is big enough to contain it-Life in itself is a church, and we are the vessels of worship and awe. That reminded me of a song I used to love, Life Is a Church by David Phelps. I hadn't listened to the song in a while because the words reminded me of my days of 'slavery' to religion. However, now I find them quite fitting within this new point of view-it is amazing how much people have in common deep within, if we could only move past the superficial surfaces of religion. More on that later, though-I could write a whole book on my musings on this subject! Listen to the song, though-it's pretty great and awe-inspiring!

Watching the surf cover up my toesBreathing the salt air from the coastTen years old with my eyes pressed closedLife is a church

Remembering first love’s tender kissMourning the loss of my innocenceThe bittersweet taste of it on my lips

Life is a churchThese are the sacramentsThis is the altarLove is the spiritMaking the blue planet turnLife is a church

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Like a stream that meets a boulder halfway through the woodWho can say if I've been changed for the better?Because I knew youBecause I knew youBecause I knew you, I have been changedFor good.

Aaron finishes out my For Good series! I've been tryingto think of the perfect thing to say. But I guess therearen't really words for what we've got. So I justwant to say I LOVE YOU to Aaron. :) andthanks for everything you've done forand with me on this journey.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

And just to clear the air I ask forgivenessFor the things I've done you blame me forBut then, I guess we know there's blame to shareAnd none of it seems to matter anymore

Yes. So let me introduce Amity! I met her way, way back. Wewere around 8 or 9 when our paths first crossed. Absolutelyclueless to how close we would one day become, we spent ourlives barely an hour from one another, occasionally meetingup and having a friendly chat.

It wasn't until 3 years ago that we met again, in Nashvillethis time. We suddenly realized the nearly identical parallelsin our lives, and an inseperable bond was formed. We share allthe same passions, many similar past experiences, and now Iam happy to say we are best friends for life... love you Amity!

Friday, April 24, 2009

Like a ship blown from its mooring by a wind off the seaLike a seed dropped by a skybird in a distant woodWho can say if I've been changed for the better?But because I knew you:I have been changed for good

Let me introduce you to one of my older brothers! Dean...I'mpretty much closer to him than any of the rest of my family. Justbecause in the past few years, he's BEEN more family to me thananyone else I'm related to. Just... he was there through a lot of soulsearching. He deserves a spot in this song!

Did I mention we have a similar love for music? :) Yeah, it'srare to have a friend who will last forever, but that is definitelya perk of having a best friend in your family! (whether biologicalor other, by the way.) Because they really will be there always.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

It well may be that we will never meet againIn this lifetimeSo let me say before we part: so much of meIs made of what I learned from youYou'll be with meLike a handprint on my heartAnd now whatever way our stories endI know you have re-written mine by being my friend!

How do I start this one? Well, I have met many people. And as faras I can tell, there is only one Ms. Anne. By that I mean, one soulon this Earth who is selfless, passionate, loving, and a light aflamein a darkest night. Never have I loved, or shall I love, another humanbeing as I love Ms. Anne.

I certainly meant this verse for her. It holds true that I may not see heragain in this lifetime. However, I gained so many gems, each as preciousas a child, from my time with Ms. Anne. And even though I haven't seenor heard from her in a very long time, she remains a huge impact on mylife and in my thoughts-like a handprint on my heart. :)

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes a sunLike a stream that meets a boulderHalfway through the woodWho can say if I've been changed for the better?But because I knew you

I have been changed for good

I met Caitlin about 12 years ago. Well, actually I haven't evermet her. The explanation? We became penpals at the age of 11and never lost contact. Even when we grew older and stoppedwriting as frequently, we started texting and emailing instead.

Caitlin knows me better than almost any friend I know. Becauseshe has gotten to know me through my writings, and that ishow I get to know myself. I can express things in writing that Icould never tell my friends in everyday life. So to my bestestinvisible friend-hopefully we meet in the next year! I know we'vesaid that since we were 14, but now we have more access. Who knows? :)

I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reasonBringing something we must learn and we are ledTo those who help us most to growIf we let them and we help them in returnWell, I don't know if I believe that's true

But I know I'm who I am today

Because I knew you...

James. An undeniable source of fun and drama. For some reason,since the moment he entered my life I have had a more abundantand meaningful existence. Sometimes I wonder why it was James,of all people, who connected with me the way we did.

When I first met him six years ago, he was that guy my mom warnedme about. He had some bad motive, she said. I was convinced that wasnot the case, and kept contact. James shared a passion with me that myfamily couldn't understand-a love for music and film.

We have shared a relationship full of pain, regret, anger, love, laughter-lots of laughter! When I would call heartbroken over my dad's treatmentof me, looking for relief-he was there on the other end promising a wholenew side of life I had never known. He made me feel like less of a freak andmore of a rarity when I was diagnosed with synesthesia. He remains one ofmy closest friends and I hope and trust it will continue for a lifetime.

Monday, April 20, 2009

I'd like to start a little series after my absolute favorite song ever, 'For Good', sung in the musical Wicked. I think I shall do it. Each segment of the song I want to dedicate to a friend in my life. Sounds like a plan. I'll post a link to the song here, click now, so, please listen to it not only because it's very touching, but also because it is MY song. I often think how my feelings were beautifully expressed in this song.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

So... this is the new look I'm gonna be promoting for next year.It's comfy, sexy, and yeah! It works.

'Listen To the Music'

That's my sister Lydia!

'Listen to the Music!'

'Witch Doctor'This song was my favorite!

I brought Andrew up for the song, 'My Guy', performed by the girls. He looked absolutely petrified and made for a lot of laughs! He didn't even wait for the last note to finish at the end of the song-he bolted from the stool and was gone!! haha, my family's weird that way.

'Best Of My Love'

'Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch (I Can't Help Myself)'

'I need you and nobody else-In and out my life, you come and you go...'

'Sway'-another favorite! Although in this picture,I was really sad because I realized this isprobably the last time I'll ever dance with Mike. :( *tears!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Why is it that I never think to plan ahead? Four days off. That's enough time to get the hell out of here, find a perfect vacation spot, and escape this hole of a town where I currently reside. But instead, at the last minute, Aaron and I decided to go to an arbortoreum in a nearby town.

Aaron thought I needed to sit in the tree. Boys do that sort of thing.

There are fascinating things in this big old world. Good thing I still have time to discover them.

Yup. I'm pretty sure that was painful.

Did I mention there was a park?There was a park. :)

The Boy and I in the park. Spring is a lovely time to be together.

The disappointment was the fact that the mouth of the cannon was closed up.

Why would you even need to fire if you could charm the enemy's socks off like that?!?

Aaron really enjoys lakes. I think it might be his sweet spot. He usually leaves a lake looking happier and a little less burdened.

Dog Trainer: "A dog can only have one master. Which one of you have the most authority in the relationship?"John Grogan: "Oh maybe I'll just stand over there for the beginning."Dog Trainer: "I thought so." -Marley and Me-movie of our choice-we ALL cried

"We're the best of friends, 'Marlee and me'..."-Yours Truly

"I'm just a fool-a fool in love....with you..."-Tyler 'Earth Angel'

"My feet hurt SO bad! Thank goodness we're done for this week!"-General quote spoken by all girls on bus

About Me

No, you can't stopThe motion of the oceanOr the rain from aboveThey can try to stop the paradiseWe're dreaming ofBut you cannot stop the rhythmOf two hearts in love to stay'Cause you can't stop the beat!

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About the Artist

I live in a world full of fantastic color. My name is baby blue and feels like cotton candy. I have synesthesia, which is a rare sensory condition. ****
I love music more than anything in the world, probably because it is the music of angels :)****
Gandhi is my hero and my role model, although I don't agree with everything he said or did.****
I never really had a childhood, but I'm happy to announce that the child in me is now alive and strong!
You can read my story at http://pastflashes.blogspot.com/