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Monday, September 10, 2012

I just joined today, and have been on my mission to drop over 100 pounds for 2 weeks now. Everyday is hard and I am determined NOT TO FAIL! An issue for me is that I have no one to talk to about my struggles; I don't know anyone personally who can understand how I feel about myself or has been in my position. I have a 6 year old daughter that I have to set a good example for, and be here for in 10 years time. There is no other alternative at this point in my life than to get healthy. I am embarassed for people I haven't seen in years to see me now, I feel like I look ridiculous and the way I feel inside doesn't match the outside. I deprive myself of fun things for fear of not being able to fit in a seat, or physically able to participate or even for people to look at me and think "she's pretty, but she'd be even prettier if she wasn't fat". I'm tired of being in my own personal prison! I realize it took me years to get this size and it will take significant time to take the weight off, but in the interm, I need support, and to be able to help support others as well!

FITFORNURSING
Thanks so much for your comment! It really means a lot. I can definitely relate to your story as well. I have lost touch with so many of my old friends because I don't want them to see how much weight I have gained. I dread going to new restaurants because I'm afraid I won't be able to squeeze into the booth. I haven't gone to an amusement park in YEARS because I am so afraid the bar wouldn't be able to close.

We can do this together! Like you said it took us a long time to put on this weight so its not going to come off overnight. But with hard work and determination we can do this!

Please keep in touch! I think we can definitely motivate one another! 1548 days ago

JUJIFRUIT
Aw I just want to give you a hug right now. That's the great thing about sparkpeople is that there is a lot of support here and people who can give you advice on almost anything. And people who understand how you feel! Good luck on your journey and let me know how I can help! 1549 days ago

MARMEER
I am totally here to support you. I would like to lose 70 pounds - it has prevented me from feeling comfortable in my own skin and trying new activities. I think you will really like this site - it has lots of great tips and everyone is very supportive. We all experience similar feelings at some stage in our journey. Good luck! Take it one day at a time and focus on small goals. You can do it!!!1550 days ago

KNIBARG
You are definitely in the right place! Be honest with yourself and set realistic goals and carefully monitor your food and exercise. Most importantly, stay involved on the site. Post often and utilize the support system that is here. I joined a month ago and have already lost 15 pounds! You CAN do it!1550 days ago

SASHA-222
You have come to the right place. Like you said we didn't gain our weight over night - and we (unfortunately) will not lose it over night. I have a hard time keeping on the right track = i am good for two weeks and then slide back into old habits.

I strongly recommend looking over the info on the site, maybe sign up for one of the challenges and make small changes as you go. For example drinking 8 glasses of water a day (and if you drink soda - start cutting back on it).

I enjoy Leslie S. Walk Away the pounds work outs - you can find some of them on youtube to try out before you invest in the dvd's. Of course Coach Nichol has many videos that are short in duration right here on spark people.

I wish you all the best, and if you need to vent - or a pat on the back I am available. 1550 days ago