This twice a week twelve year process has been akin to running a
marathon - no, it's been waaay more than that: it's been
akin to running an ultra-marathon. I've been running
continuously night and day for twelve years down valleys and up hills,
through deserts and forests and towns, across country and over
train
tracks. Everything I've done during these twelve years ie the way I
managed my life, the way I sustained my
health,
the way I planned my fitness regimen and my diet and my
finances,
indeed the way I conducted my social life and allocated my
time
with
my children,
has been in
service
to
writing
these
essays.

I've never lost touch with my purpose. Not once. Ever. My purpose in
writing
these
essays
is to make
Werner
available worldwide, in partnership with The
Friends
of
Werner Erhard,
and to afford
Werner
a certain
internet
presence
if you will, where you can experience
who he is
for yourself, and
discover
the profound value
his work
makes
present
for people. And now that my three promises have (almost) all been met,
the end of this ultra-marathon is in sight. For the first
time
in twelve years I see the finish line ahead in the distance coming up
to meet me.

When you get to the end of a marathon, you stop running. You may run
another marathon later, or not. But at the end of the marathon you're
running, you stop when you get to the finish line. Soon, in this two
new
Conversations For
Transformation essays
a week twelve year marathon I've been running, I'll get to the finish
line. Then I'll stop running.

Over the last five years, from a low of approximately one
thousand people to a high of approximately two thousand people
worldwide receiving my
e-mail
announcements twice a week, this list has now stabilized at
approximately one thousand five hundred people. I expect this to
be the final total when all three
intentions
are
fulfilled.

What's next?
The
truth
is I don't know. It's a pure, clean "I don't know". One
thing's for sure, though (and this you can bet on ie you can put
it in the bank): I'll find out soon enough. And as soon as
I do, I'll let you know. Until then, here's what I do
know:

What I'll continue doing is alerting you immediately via
e-mail
as soon as new
videos of Werner
become available. I'll also alert you immediately as soon as new
papers authored by
Werner
become available. In addition, if we get any really great
photographs of Werner
as well as
quotes of his
which simply rock
my world
(and they all do), I'll continue sharing them with you as I've been
doing until now. These are ongoing promises to continue making
Werner
personally available.

The twelve years of
writing
two new
Conversations
For Transformation
a week, not to mention setting my entire life up to support me
writing
two new
Conversations
For Transformation
a week, week after week after month after month after year after
year after year, have stretched me and purified me and focused me.
This experience has been intense. It's been a cleansing, an
ordeal by fire if you will. What I mean by "ordeal by
fire" is during this process, almost all of me which wasn't
authentic,
was burned off like a snowflake in a furnace. I say
"almost all" because there's always more
inauthenticity,
yes?

It's an almost 1,000% certainty that this experience of having
undergone the ordeal by fire, will shape
whatever's next.

Each marathon has its finish line. Each
painting
has its finish point. When a thing is finished, it's
finished. The
integrity
of the finished two
essays
a week form of the
Conversations
For Transformation project,
will be evidenced by the fact that when it finishes, it will be be
finished based on what I
originally
said would measure its
completion.
That's when it will end. And its ending will allow something new ie
something not now known, to
happen.

I for one am really
jazzed
and excited to learn exactly what the "something new" ie the
"something not now known" will be.

Perhaps for the first
time
in my life, I've gotten to see and fully appreciate and be clear
about the difference between an ending "because of" some
circumstance or "because of" some condition or "because of" some
reason or "because of" some excuse or "because of" some mistake or
"because of" some scarcity or shortage ... and
fulfillment
/
completion.
It'll soon be
time
to wrap up the current form of the
Conversations
For Transformation project
- but not because of anything. No, it'll soon be time
to wrap it up when it's
complete.

Listen:
when a person, entity, or thing is
complete,
it makes an even bigger
context
available. The ending of this current form makes a new
opening
available, a new
beginning
available, a new never before possiblebeginning
available.

This
completing
something, this generating a bigger
context,
this making possible something which was never possible before, this
new
beginning,
is entirely consistent with who
Werner
is. It's a
context
which is forever.

Acknowledgements

As an expression of our
friendship
and as an expression of our partnership, I want to acknowledge each
and every one of you who
listens
these
essays
and responds to them as they're posted - sometimes immediately,
sometimes days later, sometimes months later, by telephone, by text
message, by
e-mail,
and in person, sharing your thoughts and impressions and
suggestions.

It's worth noting that after
one thousand
one hundred
essays
have been posted twice every week for twelve years, there've been
literally thousands of responses ... and only
one hostile response. Just one token
hostile response. To
one thousand
one hundred
essays.
Over twelve years. Among thousands of responses. That's remarkable.
People get
Werner.

I also want you to know that I know most of you
listen
these
essays
without responding at all. I know this because the
website's view
counter
increments waaay more than the total number of
responses I receive (each announcement of each new
essay
typically elicits anywhere from seven hundred to one thousand two
hundred new
website
views).
To you I'm especially grateful. I call you the silent
group. You
listen
... and you
listen
... and you don't say anything.

Even though this means there isn't an opportunity for you and I to
interact personally and directly beyond our
connection
as
reader /
listener
and
writer
/
speaker,
I always know you're there, I always know you're
listening,
and I always get your support, and I appreciate you so much.

What I Want To Leave You With

There've never been any encoded covert agendas behind these
Conversations
For Transformation.
So there are no shocking
secrets
to tell or
Earth-shattering
surprises to reveal or admissions to make or withholds to 'fess up
to or titillating titbits to dish, as I close in on this marathon's
finish line.
Conversations
For Transformation
have always been WYSIWYG ie What You
See Is What You Get. There are no
hidden meanings.

Rather, I designed this body of work to provide a hospitable
online
space for you which you can visit any
time
you like
24 / 7 / 365,
a space in which you can stay as long as you like and leave any time
you like, a space from which you can take anything you
like (no, you won't be stealing: I'm giving it all
away), and there are no expectations on you as to whether you'll
visit at all or how long you'll stay if you do.