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Sunday, November 2, 2008

ive been on a rather extended "vacation" the last few weeks. tomorrow it's back to the old grind.

how do i feel about this? mad that im a grown up and have to pay for my rent, phone, car insurance, and food. it would be a lot easier if i was just independently wealthy.

on the bright side, being at work is good for being on plan. it's structured and there isnt a lot of junk food available (usually). i also only get a half hour for lunch. so i HAVE to bring my lunch. it might as well be healthy, right?

i went clothes shopping today. yuck. the last time i went to Lane Bryant, i was a PETITE RED 3. now. oh god. im a PETITE RED 7. yes. freaking S-E-V-E-N. and they were T-I-G-H-T. i was also wearing 14/16 on top last time i was there....i just bought two sweaters size 26/28. this is why i am for gun control. if i owned a gun....well, it would be messy. (any ways...that's a photo one of the sweaters i got)i really havent been doing any thing to better myself. ive been sending out a lot of good thoughts? does that count? my hips say "no".....

it just boggles my mind that i have gained all this weight. i didnt FEEL myself getting fatter....and it all happened in a matter of weeks. like a few months. sad.

that's why when i read all those bloggers out there who have a 1 lb or 2 lb loss and are disappointed in themselves i want to SCREEEEEAAAAAM. even if there is a zero loss!! if you are on plan all week, CELEBRATE!!! you did it!!! one more week that you DID it!!! enjoy it. be happy about it. brag about it!!!!