~ Sort of not depressed, flirting with mindfulness

#12 Realise that Your Dissatisfaction is Not about Your Body

I think I’ve probably covered this already. My dissatisfaction with my body is because I’m not satisfied with me and I punish my body instead.

It started once I first got pregnant. Although I was perfectly happy being pregnant I put on weight and was subsumed into being a mother and I very much just stopped being me. I also hid myself away when trying to repair failing relationships and the message I gave myself was that I didn’t matter. Those people who I was there to look after, partners and children, and my parents and sisters to a lesser extent were the ones who mattered. This was the message my parents had taught me and my partners carried it on in adulthood.

And if I don’t matter, then it doesn’t matter what I look like, right?

My weight then zoomed when I became single and started paying attention to myself. More importantly I started having the time and space to think about myself for the first time in years, if not ever.

I need to regain my own sense of importance and value and learn, as I once knew, that I have the right to look good and feel good and that is actually based on having self-confidence and panache far more than some stereotype size.

Beautiful You by Rosie Molinary

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