Wednesday, December 28

drowned in moonlight.

I've written quite a bit on this blog about how much Star Wars means to me. It's a link to my dad in that it's something he loved and shared with me. It's one of my inspirations as a writer and creator. I don't think I can even put into words why it was so important for me at the age of ten to see a princess with a blaster taking charge and not taking any crap, but also being vulnerable and loving her friends fiercely. As an adult, learning that Carrie had bipolar disorder and was very open about it was so important to me in a world where mental illness still carries a stigma. As a woman, I loved how blunt she was about the fact that she had aged like a real human being and didn't give two hoots what anyone thought about how she looked. Finding out that the world lost Carrie Fisher yesterday was crushing. I'm thankful that we have her body of work as an actress and a writer. I wish I could have been wherever the people who loved her were yesterday, hearing the stories that the rest of us were never privy to. I'm thankful that she got to share so much of hers with the world.

My mom and dad definitely made me the geek I am today - our house was brimming with books, and as much as my dad was usually the one trying to force me into watching sci-fi, my mom's favorite film of all time is Close Encounters of the Third Kind, so I really didn't stand a chance. I'm so happy that the Star Wars cinematic universe is expanding to include even more strong female characters, like Rey and Jyn Erso.

I feel so much of the same way. We actually saw Rouge One, the day before it happened, which was some crazy timing. I will say part of me thinks that in a way it's nice that Carrie Fisher is with my mom now, as crazy as that my sound.

You know I wouldn't think that's crazy - one of my first thoughts when I saw the news was how happy my dad is going to be to meet Princess Leia. Mr. Q, my mom, and I saw Rogue One on the 23rd and I'm glad we did because that last scene would have killed me otherwise (I was already broken from the scene with Jyn and Galen Erso on the platform).

hi y'all!

Wife, teacher, daughter, writer, friend. One small woman in a great big universe. Newlywed. One of my favorite parts of wedding planning was collecting amazing inspirational images and ideas; after the wedding, I didn't want to stop!