Oh crap this panic attack is the worst. My nerves are so shot I cannot bare being around anyone. My cousin is coming to visit I should meet her because I do like her. But I am too freaked to deal with discomfiture of my female presence as opposed to what used to be male. I just need to make the nerves stop, I do not know how. I tried meditating earlier and playing music. I am going to lie down and try again. I cannot stand it.

"They" ain't as important as "YOU", so remember our mantra, hon:

Fuck'em!

BTW, you get an even better vibrato out of the "'em" than you do out of that old "om." Sweet!

Vanity quotes: "Dampy, I am your willing slave. " - NaokoSmith "Well, you give good type. " - jomar"Pls don't ever, ever, say you want to take off your clothes right after you or someone proclaimed your or their love to them or you" - Dino ♥"You're just a good, down to earth girl who happens to write smut. And hang out on porn boards." - cheerful_deviant"Dampy, the smut runs deep in your soul. Don't worry, it'll crest again." - bluebell7

Vanity quotes: "Dampy, I am your willing slave. " - NaokoSmith "Well, you give good type. " - jomar"Pls don't ever, ever, say you want to take off your clothes right after you or someone proclaimed your or their love to them or you" - Dino ♥"You're just a good, down to earth girl who happens to write smut. And hang out on porn boards." - cheerful_deviant"Dampy, the smut runs deep in your soul. Don't worry, it'll crest again." - bluebell7

Vanity quotes: "Dampy, I am your willing slave. " - NaokoSmith "Well, you give good type. " - jomar"Pls don't ever, ever, say you want to take off your clothes right after you or someone proclaimed your or their love to them or you" - Dino ♥"You're just a good, down to earth girl who happens to write smut. And hang out on porn boards." - cheerful_deviant"Dampy, the smut runs deep in your soul. Don't worry, it'll crest again." - bluebell7

I miss you. When my Dad gets back and is able to monitor "the Terror"...lets plan on me heading that way...

Oh gawd yes, lol you can meet Little boys mother. she is a sweetie even if grumpy sometimes. I have a feeling yall will get along great. Little boy and I are planning to camp in the living room to give you the nicer bed.

Oh gawd yes, lol you can meet Little boys mother. she is a sweetie even if grumpy sometimes. I have a feeling yall will get along great. Little boy and I are planning to camp in the living room to give you the nicer bed.

lmao no no no. she is bright and has a sense of humor too. There is a scary thought lol if you both get grumpy. We will put you up at my mothers house if that happens. You and my mother will get along. But shes not grumpy

this is very interesting, I can feel the anxiety fading ironically my nausea is disappearing too. Thank gawd. I am feeling lots better. That was hell earlier today. *whew* I am feeling normal almost *snerf* like that will ever happen.

lmao no no no. she is bright and has a sense of humor too. There is a scary thought lol if you both get grumpy. We will put you up at my mothers house if that happens. You and my mother will get along. But shes not grumpy

Mmmhmmm....Keep diggin sweetheart...I'll just sit and watch as the hole gets bigger.