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My week was very interesting. Monday morning I woke up with a dull pain in my lower back on the left side and that pain caused me to miss work all week except Tuesday and I didn’t even make it through the whole shift. I left after 5 and a half hours. When Friday rolled around and the pain hadn’t subsided I decided it was time to see a doctor. I spent Friday from 1130am to 11pm in the er. The results of my CT scan and ultrasound show a 6cm cyst on my left ovary. With no immediate major treatment needed they sent me home with pain meds and a referral to follow up with my gynecologist. I will be calling first thing Monday morning to get the next available appointment.

I quit drinking soda as of this past Monday. I haven’t had soda in a whole 7 days. I am utterly shocked that it came with such ease. I had the withdrawal headache on Tuesday and Wednesday but once I got over the 3 day hump I was fine. I am part of a Skinny Snowman Challenge right now and I woke up this morning to a 5lb loss! Very surprising considering the IV bag of fluids at the ER and the monthly visitor is in as of Saturday. I am very happy with all that I am doing to change my lifestyle for the better. I also found out I like cantaloupe, which I never thought possible oh and granny smith green apples.

Now onto my scarf update. I am absolutely in love with how this scarf is coming out. I can not wait to see the finished product and know that I created it! I crochet mostly in the evening and it really does help calm me down and relax me. It also gets me off the computer which is good. I am also excited that I kind of inspired one of my best friends to pick up knitting again! I’ve known her for 5 years and I didn’t even know she could knit! She’s pretty good at it too!

My son’s scarf in progress!

My friend and I knitting and crocheting on a Saturday night! We are awesome! 🙂

I have not written since I posted about the miscarriage in October. I’ve been taking time to work through all the emotions and everything. It has been a tough couple months. A bunch of things all coincided at the same time as the miscarriage. My husband and I had just reconciled, by reconciled I mean took divorce off the table as an option forever, and decided to take a Marriage Intimacy class that is offered at our church. I started my first full time job ever the same week of our miscarriage and it’s just been crazy. We have been communicating so much better and I think we are pretty much past the miscarriage. It still hurts and we are still sad when we think about the possibilities and everything however, those spells are few are far between now.

As far as the title of Becoming Crafty, well I’ve learned to crochet. I’m not that good yet however I am working on a scarf for my son…it was originally supposed to be for my husband but 1. I don’t think he’ll wear it and 2. I don’t want to make it that long…so I’ll make a shorter scarf and probably embarass my child by making him wear it lol!

In a previous post I wrote about wanting to lose weight and get healthy..of course that all got pushed aside with the pregnancy/miscarriage happenings and I just haven’t been able to find the motivation or desire to do anything in that area since the beginning of October. Now I find myself annoyed and angry with my self because I am up 15lbs and have eating and drinking crappy food and sodas for weeks when I know I shouldn’t be. I also know that if I had stuck with what I was doing I’d probably be under 200lbs right now instead of up to 250! Any motivation or encouragement would be highly appreciated!

A little over a week ago I emailed Allan to remove myself from the challenge because I found out I was expecting.

Little did I know that two days later that pregnancy would end in miscarriage. My husband and I are both very distraught and working on coming to terms with this very unfortunate and unforeseen event in our lives. We were both very excited to be parents again and now we are just clinging to our faith, each other, and our son.

My husband has been such a rock for me through this struggle, I can’t thank him enough. A few days after the miscarriage happened I came home from work to these beautiful flowers.

My favorite, Star Gazer lilies and a single pink rose.

I was very early in my pregnancy. We did not know the gender of the baby at all. It’s amazing how much love you can have for someone that was only a part of you for about 4 weeks. We have decided to name the baby “Skye”.

My dear Skye, I love you and I know you are loved and safe in heaven with Jesus. Love, Mommy.

I want to be a runner. It is something that I want to become passionate about. I have downloaded a C25K app that allows the user to play their own music in the background. I am very excited to begin using this.

Current weight as of this morning 240lbs. My first weigh in will be this Sunday and every Sunday there after. This week I am being a bit optimistic and hoping for 10 pounds. I feel like I really need a nice high number to jump start myself to get going. I know it may not be 10 pounds since I am starting on Wednesday which will mean only 4 days of eating right and exercising. I’m hoping for the best. The challenge that I am involved in with Allan’s blog actually started in August…let’s just say it’s taken a bit to pull my head out of my ass and get my brain on board. I am looking forward to the challenges and accomplishments to come. Thank you for your support and encouragement in advance!

My entire life I have dealt with weight issues and being the chubby kid or the fat girl. In the past year I have finally accomplished losing and keeping off 50 pounds. I have quite a bit more to lose. I am currently sitting at around 237 pounds. I need to lose 102 pounds to be at my goal of 135 pounds. Other goals are becoming a runner and I want to be a surrogate. I know not everybody understands my want to be a surrogate…it’s just something I feel I have to do. It is such a beautiful gift to help give someone a child. However, I have looked into it and the doctors will not work with someone with a BMI over 30. My BMI is currently around 47…classified as “Morbidly Obese”.

MORBIDLY OBESE…I’m only 25 years old and I have a child who’s future I want to be around for.

It’s crunch time people. I need to save my life from heart problems, high blood pressure, type 2 diabetes and a laundry list full of other things that obesity causes.

You may have guessed from the title and tagline that I am in fact a Texas born Texas proud Texas Girl! I absolutely love Texas and can never imagine being anywhere else! I am very excited to be joining wordpress after using blogspot for a couple years. This new blog here on wordpress is not dedicated to any one thing. This will be a complete open book of ideas, thoughts and what’s happening in my life type of blog. I certainly hope you enjoy the ride with this sarcastic, witty, stubborn and single minded TEXAS GIRL!!!