Hi Rookie (that's my nickname at work since I'm the newest employee on the team). Anyway, I understand your frustrations and concerns. Please try and get past the regret and be optimistic. Medications today work extremely well, and if you adhere to your meds and take care of yourself, you are likely to do very well. I suggest finding a good support group if one is available in your area and finding a good therapist for counseling. Even though HIV is not the death sentence it once was, it is hard going through learning you have a serious illness. I also suggest finding a case manager to help you with everything you're going to have to do to navigate the system and get the healthcare you need. Please find a way to find peace with God. My spirituality has gotten me through some tough times. I found a church that was very supportive and had some good helpful discussions with my priest. Find your faith, take care of yourself. I wish you well my friend.

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