Vent: When will it stop?!

We had our first child January 4. I ended up with an emergency c-section after a failed induction due to severe pre-eclampsia. I was in a lot of pain.

At 6 weeks pp, I ended up with two open spots in my incision along with a staph infection.

Now, at 9 weeks pp, I am having a pain along my incision that I fear is an abscess or another infection complication.

I'm so tired of being tied up due to complications. :( I want to wear something other than sweats/maternity clothes. I want to feel like a dang human. I miss being able to stand up straight, lay on my side, get down on the floor, use my lap....

I'm just ready to be healed. I feel like it is never ending. Am doing this mostly alone as my hubby works out of state (2 weeks on, 1 week off). I'm so incredibly irritated when people ask if I'm doing too much. I'm doing what I have to. My house has gone to looking like an episode of Hoarders. My dogs hardly get to play anymore. I'm virtually stuck to a chair.

I'm just tired of this recovery. I had planned for a hard month, a rough 6 weeks, and then trying to get back to real life. I know it'll take close to a year to fully heal. But I didn't think my incision would be open for NINE WEEKS. :(

Comments (5)

I'm sorry. you don't have friends or family that could maybe help out? I had some problems with an infection but my incision finally healed (well 98%). it does gettin irritating when people ask if you're doing too much instead of asking if maybe they can lend a hand. but don't worry. your lo & you health is what is important. maybe ask someone to come let your dogs out for fresh air?

Sorry ur going thru this...at about 3 1/2 weeks pp my incision came open on the left side and I went to the Dr and she had to reopen it more on that side ( very painful) so I've been having to pack it twice a day and have a home health nurse visit twice a week ...I've pretty much been laying flat in my bed as they said pressure on the incision delays healing, I understand completely how u feel cause I've been missing school and its frustrating having things to do that u can't take care of especially caring for lo and I'm home by myself majority of the time.

Hugs mama! I don't know what you're going through with the c-section, but I can empathize about the difficult recovery.

I had a vaginal delivery that didn't go well & ended up with a 3rd (but almost 4th) degree tear, broken tailbone, and prolapsed bladder.

I'm 9 weeks pp, and the tear still looks like raw hamburger (sorry tmi), I'm in constant pain, the pressure feeling I get from the prolapse is almost unberaable, and sitting with a broken tailbone....fml!

Our stories are so similar!
On jan 2 I had an emergency c section from a failed induction due to PIH. At 3 weeks PP my incision opened on both sides and I went back to hospital for 2 days for an infection. It felt like it was healing then at 6.5 weeks PP it opened and got infected again. I'm now 9.5 weeks PP and my infection has almost cleared up after 9 courses of antibiotics. Yesterday my dr pulled out some stitches from my incision that didn't dissolve, and I feel SO much better.
I know exactly how you feel, I feel so hopeless and helpless. I want so badly to be healed so I can fully enjoy my LO and being a new mummy, not constantly in pain. When my incision opened up again I cried and cried because it felt like it would just never get better.
I know how you feel, and I really hope you feel better soon.

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