well, It seems like today, most guys are just gay for the sex and the attention. But maybe you're one of the few that are gay for the good reasons, like love and comfort. So don't get down on yourself becuase he's just horny, because you're wasting your short life on a guy that just wanted to get into your pants. Let this whole thing motivate you in swimming, take out your anger in the water, make it help you.