Toni Crotty

Certified Angel Intuitive® Certified Angel Card Reader®

From The Darkness Into The Light

Maybe you’ve had one of those years like I had in 2015. Life hit me so hard, I felt like the wind was knocked out of my sails. Fortunately, I am coming into the light now, feeling held in the web of life, supported by Angels and Guides, who encouraged me to tell my story. I hope it gives you insight into how my work might inspire, uplift, and support you on yourjourney into the Light.

My Journey Begins

The dominos began to fall in November of 2014 when after 19 years of living with Alzheimer's, my Mom was put on Hospice. I had adjusted to Mom being ill. I was still working on the concept of Mom being gone. I struggled through the holidays while my best friend, Susie, dangled in uncertainty as she endured a battery of diagnostics for a persistent cough and unexplained weight loss.

2015 The Descent Into Grief

January 2015 hit hard when Susie was diagnosed with lung cancer. A healthy, vibrant woman my age, who lived with an inspirational love of life, was fading fast. While I supported her, I struggled to believe the unbelievable. My best friend was dying.

Before that sunk in, my dear friend, Inez, who had just gotten a clean bill of health at her annual physical, had a massive stroke early one March morning, and never woke up. My grief multiplied as I realized that yet another loved one was gone without warning. Inez was the friend I spent holidays with, so you can already see that the stress of loss was enormous, and it lasted all year long.

Still grieving my loss of Inez, I was working hard doing Professional Organizing, downsizing and moving a client in a distant community. I spent my free time supporting Susie, who was slipping away fast. Susie died peacefully in May.

Keep Calm and Carry On

Fortunately I am good in a crisis and I have wise, supportive colleagues, an amazing dance partner/best friend, and a Naturopath/RN/Chinese Medical Doctor who is a healer extraordinaire. It was my 18th year of professionally practicing Energy Healing and Holistic Healing Arts, and living them in my daily life. I gratefully received understanding and support, and proactively added more Self-Care strategies to my daily routine.

I am gifted with the ability to help others when I am not at my best, and to feel grateful for the opportunity to be of service. I am blessed with compassionate clients who are very kind and have big enough projects to divert my attention from my grief. I carried on and did what needed to be done. Still the grief and sense of uncertainty were there as I subconsciously braced myself for the next unexpected blow.

The Biggest Blow

I can’t remember how I made it through that Summer. What I do remember is that in September, Mom took a turn for the worst. Within a week, on Summer Solstice, I travelled to Southern CA to help her die.

The rest of 2015 is a blur of days of making it from moment to moment, feeling like a balloon without air. Still I worked, and spent time each day napping and sitting in my cozy chair, resting and feeling my grief. I learned long ago that the only way out of intense emotion is through it. So I let the sadness move through me.

The emotion of grief is related to the respiratory system in Chinese Medicine, so it was no surprise when I got terrible upper respiratory congestion and an infection triggered by the toxic outgassing of one of my client’s new carpet. Did I mention that in the Winter I also started extensive removal and replacement of leaking dental fillings and crowns? I survived it all. Somehow I made it through the holidays I didn’t celebrate, and the New Year began.

2017 A Year of Grace and the Next Assignment

I welcomed the New Year determined to have a fresh start and a year of less loss. I had a plan for creating the Be The Light Curriculum, and was ready to go. Then when my computer died over the New Year’s Holiday, it was abundantly clear that this would be a year of taking what comes with as much grace as possible.

A good dance friend named Grace, weakened and died. I was inspired when she wrote in her obituary, “I don't want anyone to say Rest In Peace, as I am looking forward to my next assignment.” So I learned that life goes on. We embrace what comes our way and do the best we can with it.

My “next assignment” came when I learned about training to become an Angel Intuitive and Angel Card Reader. I became certified and embraced more deeply feeling the gift of a close connection with the Angels. I chose to be of service by being a bridge to the Angels and a beacon of love and light in the world. Now I ride the waves of life, calling on the Angels for support and comfort. How I responded to my life experiences greatly increased my Self-Care strategies and my capacity to offer my clients support and comfort in their Angel Card Readings.