I think that is writing love notes for my first love until now. He was a high school classmate. We have our own families now but since he was my great love, whenever I miss him, I sometimes write love notes for him and post some of them on my yahoo 360 blogs.

The most absurd thing I ever did in the name of love was to get drunk and stay that way for over 20 years. The second was to write this song for a woman who is not worth the lint I just pulled from my mouse wheels with tweezers.
If there's one thing I've learned,
in this cold lonely world,
it's that love don't come easy.
It has to be earned.
Sorry for all the things,
I did not say or do,
but mostly I'm sorry,
cause I don't have you.
This old heart here is hurt,
cause I know I did wrong.
Even though it's too late.
I'd like to send you this song.
I'm sorry, so sorry,
for the things that I've done.
I drove you away,
sent your love on the run.
Now I'm here all alone,
and I can't find myself,
living life here without you,
is a living hell.
If I could take back the pain,
dissolve all the tears,
and fix all the hurt,
I've caused through the years.
If I could just stop my mind,
from wandering away,
to the family I've lost,
and the folks left behind.
If there's one thing I've learned,
in this cold lonely world,
its that love don't come easy.
It has to be earned.
I'm sorry, so sorry,
for the things that I've done.
I drove you away.
Sent your love on the run.
Now I'm here all alone,
and I can't find myself.
Living life here without you,
is a living hell.
It's a living hell.