lost in a blurintimidation I think notdefiance when you rasie your hand to meis all I can offerI won't let you get to me

I'm sorry I've made you have a lack in trustthis is my fault I know its trueit can't be earned backif you won't listen or believe so what else is there to do

I love and respect youeven though you don't believe..theres that lack of trust again,making our relationship bleedI'm sorry for all i've put you throughbut know thisI am what I am love me for meif not i'll only be lost...never set free________________________________<a href="#t">Back To The Table Of Contents </a>________________________________

She feelsis this a gift or a curse?to feel is to what..love?grieve?breathe?

The pain surpasses the beautyat least with these eyes blindfolded it seemsshe tears her way apart wanderingleaving tears as breadcrumbsthey'll lead her back to the startdon't go too deepthose tears were still to comeYet she dwells..

Relishes in her pain, confusionTorturewhere did this derive?her heart,her aching soul?it drowns in this love set apart

She chooses himfor today,the best day shes ever lived until tomorrow,when she lets the other hold her as he diddeep into the night staring past his closed eyesinto his deeper sight

Does she need the safe, unconditionalor does she need the love of an unpredictable newshe has to know soonsoon meaning nowemotions falling apartnothing left to wonderbut the chance that there was a glitch in our creationif it causes this much pain..where we meant to feel?________________________________<a href="#t">Back To The Table Of Contents </a>________________________________

<a name="#pg3">Silent Company</a>

Always abandonedso alonefilling up on empty soulsmy only company the deadI sit here in the cold, fingers numbI spit out verses from somewhere unknown

Where is everything I used to know?what was once so dependableintoxicated and lateI'm here on my own like beforebefore when she came out of the closetcold, dark eyed, and alone

I know you feel the chill nowdon't fight itembrace itbecause it to shall passfamiliar voices are being heard once againI know im not alone...

The spirits go in hiding now another rest to match eternitythey'll be back when all are gonefor company or fear,they'll make sure I'm not alonealone...like I was before...________________________________<a href="#t">Back To The Table Of Contents </a>________________________________

one thousand I love you's couldn't capture my hearts need for youone thousand I love you's couldn't make you come back I know because i've tried I left you messages have you heard them ?I told you why i needed you back Ipleaded for you to ache for me again

Ache like I do for you was it my giving that made you turn away?made you take my heart and fade into the gray abiss of letting go, of moving on

how can you stop?stop the love you once claimed undyingI'd like to know so I could do the same

I can't keep loving you no good can comeyou know you have me heresomething to come home to if all else fails

Until then i'll keep trying, keep pushing, searching for a wayto say i love you not today..________________________________<a href="#t">Back To The Table Of Contents </a>________________________________

So run downfeeling lowin this place of abandonment I have no where else to reside..take me with you,pull me in your armslet me feel the heart so strong it could break my own

I live off your every breathI'm alive when your nearnow that your gone...so am II've already lost youso theres nothing left to fear

I want you alwaysI look at you, yet hear his voiceI love him really I dobut without you all real emotion is lost

I should be angry, I should hate you with every inch of me for making me believe I could have you..when really it was never the same as it was before

I had you for awhile therebut you slipped out of my graspenticed by another as usual.It's not fair but I crave it all the samelet me love you ,feel you..... you can use me again...________________________________<a href="#t">Back To The Table Of Contents </a>________________________________

Whats your poison?he asks as I walk through the doorcraving, wanting anything but moremaking my way across the dark stained roomthe only light your over-burned cigarette dimming"You'll be mine morning after next,"he whispers while pouring my drink as steady as my tears tracing the steps with his fingertips over my chest

How dare you speak my nameheighten my fearshow dare you play this game it's really all I wanted..but with moredidn't you know beforewhen I walked through that dooryou knew this was the last thing I needed and the first

You glance at me the way you dononchalantly, touching every part of my body with that deadly stareit's that right theremy triggermy aphrodisiac

Feel metouch memove me love methe way you do when we become me and you

As I dress nothing left to impressI stare at your sleeping faceI relapse into youI'm in that dream along your sideand I know that your love was not meant for us two

Still I'll always come to youwhen times are hard and when they're notI'm here waiting with my heartbruise it,use it,..do as you maybut promise me thisgive me this hope..tomorrow might be differenttell me you'll stay....________________________________<a href="#t">Back To The Table Of Contents </a>________________________________

Suspicious eyescurious lieswandering thoughtsshallow dreamseverything is morethan it seems.To you her and I are a secret poisonbidding on your time,it isn't about younever was.It's above youand that's the way it will stay.Keep one eye open you never know,one wrong moveand I might let go,you hurt herthen you hurt me,we're 'We'and that's something you could never hope to be.________________________________<a href="#t">Back To The Table Of Contents </a>________________________________

As he stands beside the gunlooking down at what he's donethe film roles backthe blood starts overtaking him againliving his one and only obsession.....

Ok I have a little background to this one..I was in the bathroom..(no, not using it) but looking in the mirror when these lines came to my head.."standing beside the gun looking down at what hes done"...immediatly after this happened I ran in the kitchen, sat down and started to write..I didn't even know what i was writing but I knew it was dark, it just poured out..well I start to write the lines .."done with bloodstained pages ready for bloodstained palms"...when my nose starts to bleed. I look done and in fact the pages were now blood stained from the dripping and I opened my palm and blood had managed to stain that as well. as you can probably picture me writing feverishly and then my nose starts bleeding kinda weird....but yea...so I just thought you should know after reading that this was defintly inspired and quite twisted

*************************************************************Admin note:Nominated for Poem of the Week on 2/15/2004________________________________<a href="#t">Back To The Table Of Contents </a>________________________________

because.......I love you Oh so well...Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow I love you oh so well....hehehe

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~Let em all know just how raw I am so they don't expect pink roses in the morning ~D.W.~
It has been said that something as small as the flutter of a butterfly's wing can ultimatly cause a typhoon half way across the world ~Chaos Theory~
...My wings are the cause...

Jim- Sorry im so late on expressing my appreciation for all your hard work, saying i havent been on the pages in forever is an enormous understatement..I'm pretty bummed that a few of my favorites have been deleted, and for some reason most of the ones that were saved were from when i was 13-14 years old lol but i'm glad to have them all the same thanks again, Jess*

-Live simply, so others can simply live-Keller Williams

--Breathe, breathe in the air,
Don't be afraid to care.-- Pink Floyd

Dont wana be anything where i dont know when to stop-Trey Anastasio

<3Oh my lover for the first time in my life
my mind can feel...everything is clear in my heart
everything is clear in our world
i feel life, oh i feel love-John Lennon