When you feel that you have reached the end and that you cannot go one step further, when life seems to be drained of all purpose, what a wonderful opportunity to start all over again, to turn over a new page.Well i guess thats what i'm doing. I'm starting to blog again. I'm actually starting to Study again. Even i dont go to school alot, but heyy i do study at home. Ask my mom xp As you all knew, i was with someone last 3/ 4 months i guess. Someone whom i wish not to mention. I thought he was the one, he cared for me and did everything just to be with me. The phrase "Love is blind" Suits the situation well. I'm blinded for months, i couldnt focus in whatever i did. And i was totally lost, i was ruined, i was suffering, i made the biggest mistake in my life. I abandoned my family, my brother and others. I was absent everyday. I got bad marks for my exams. But i didnt care. I was to busy taking care of my stupid fairytales which i knew had no direction. Suddenly something happened and it woke me up from that stupid dream of mine. I was awake and lliterally crying every night, I was so dumb that i never realized that everything was a lie. Too many people hated me. I couldnt face anyone. That time i had my mom. My mom motivated me and gave me support, My boyfriend and my friend did too. They advised me, scolded me, and now hopefully i'm wide awake. I guess! I had nobody to share it too. My sister? She's too young. My friends ? They'r far away. The near ones? Too busy with their own life. My mom, she was there. My boyfriend ? well Sometimes. Dear haters, i'm sorry for what i've done to make you guys hate me. I dont care with the bad names you called me. I dont care what you said to others about me. I dont care what you did to my facebook and my twitter, I dont care what did you posted on my blog about my before posts, i dont care what you did to any of the part of my life. I dont care. Before, i was to caring about you haters, till i forgot whats important. Because of you i tried to improve i tried to be like others, i tried to look better. But no i cant. Coz this is who i am. And i wasnt born to please you guys. I am extremely sorry if what i've been doing had made you hate me. I'm sorry. I know i was a jerk before. I was too childish. Everybody grew up. I'm tired of crying because of you guys ruining my life, mocking me, doing bad things me. One day you'll feel what i feel. And believe me it hurts alot. It brought so much pain into my life. I almost gave up hope on living. I'm sorry.Thank you to those who supported me all this time. Thank you for reading. Much loves, Snow.