Ugh, I give up, the other day I hit a wall with a good friend of mine. We decided to throw a 4th of July party and invite our crushes to a picnic. Everything was going fine until she suggested we go swimming at the lake… I could have killed her! She knows I am self-conscious, and of course she’s perfect in every way… but I talked with my mom and she said I can’t blame her, so I’ve decided to go for it and tackle my over-weight issues head on, its no one else’s problem but mine alone! I have to do it. I have started watching the new Rocco Dispirito show on Bravo recently and have heard that he is going to start walking us through a new healthy diet that will help out.With his Watch and Win contest, its given me some incentive but, tonight he’s bringing on some fitness experts… has anyone heard of them? Joe Dowdell and Betty Wong? Let me know!