Sunday, October 20, 2013

Dear Baby

**Originally written September 4, 2013**

Dear Baby,

Today is my 27th birthday. This morning around 6am, I was given the very best birthday present I could have ever asked for when your Daddy walked into our bedroom holding the pregnancy test I had just taken and simply said, “Yes”.

I knew you were coming. I just knew it. Over the past couple of weeks, my instinct has gone back and forth. One minute thinking there was no way and the next minute thinking it was for sure. The past couple of days, however, I’ve felt the kind of tired that can mean one and only one thing – baby!

I am so beyond thrilled and excited, my sweet baby. The anticipation of wondering who you’ll be, what you’ll look like, what kind of personality you’ll have … it’s all too much. You have captivated my heart in an instant. You are an answer to prayer and a great gift to me. Of course, I am absolutely terrified at the prospect of having three children in less than four years. Terrified. But I know my God, I know He is a great God, and I know full well he will prepare my heart and this family for you, and that you will fit in so perfectly that we will wonder how we ever managed to exist without you.

There are so many exciting things that will come in the next few months; hearing your heartbeat, seeing you on an ultrasound, getting your room ready for you, choosing your name… all of that. But none of it even begins to prepare for the moment I long for most – the moment I will see your sweet face for the first time. I can’t wait to fall in love with your tiny fingers and toes. I can’t wait to watch Daddy snuggle with you. To see your big sisters ooh and aah over you. Let me tell you, you have two amazing big sisters. They will rock your world. And you will rock theirs!

I will pray for you every single day, from here on out. I will do all that I can to protect you, always. I will love you with every fiber of my being and never stop. Nothing can take away my love for you.

Sweet Baby #3, this world will be blessed by you. This world, my world, will be changed by you.