Autism, Cerebral Palsy, and being an "Adult Baby"...#99

I guess I have been terrible lately...
Been feeling a lot of "inhibitions"...
Not allowing myself to be with other Gay men
this past weekend...
I am "locked-away in the closet"...
The Closet is "safe"...
The Closet is filled with invisible "protective padding"...
The Closet is silence and solitude...
Locked-away in the Closet, my mind is in an
"inescapable" Straitjacket...
Forever "hidden away"...
Forever "alone"...
No speech...
Deaf and Blind...
Only silence...
Self-Punishment...
Internal Torment...
I "am in Hell"...
Bound tightly in a Straitjacket...
Locked in the thickly padded Closet...
Sick and diseased simply for being Gay...
Silence...