Category: Contemporary

I’ve spent years living safely to secure a longer life and look where that’s gotten me. I’m at the finish line, but I never ran the race.

Title: The Both Die at the EndAuthor: Adam SilveraGood things about this book: It’s a Silvera book!Bad things about this book: Well, the end that was spoiled in the title.Do I recommend it? Yes, and if you haven’t, I also recommend his other two books!Rate: 5/5

The Silvera Experience is always one of a kind but my heart is still not used to it: it’s an experience of love, tears, and so many thoughts your brain may explode. I finished reading the book yesterday night and every time my mind is not busy it goes back to the book. It’s a terrifying concept the one introduced here with the calls telling you about your imminent death. It’s terrifying because once you know that it’s impossible to not think about it. Then you ask yourself: what am I going to do today before I die? Did I live my life right? Do I have regrets?

I’m shaken by how Adam Silvera can get to me with simple words. Simple words in a slightly different kind of world, not the one we live in right now but it’s so close to it that it scared the hell out of me. I couldn’t put it down once I started it and now I have my heart in my hands, tears in my eyes, and not a single idea of how to put it into words.

No matter how we choose to live, we both die at the end.

Mateo and Rufus receive a call, THE call, telling them this is the day they’re going to die. They don’t know when and how but they know it’s going to happen before midnight. They are very different people with very different lives but destiny is a funny lady and this dreadful news brings them together on the day their lives are going to end. The Last Friend app brings together people on their End Day that don’t have anyone to spend their day with or that don’t want the people they care about seeing them dying.

I loved how their weird friendship starts and slowly they share their feelings, their pasts, their fears, and they get to have a last glimpse of love. It’s not instant, it’s not forced; it is how it is. Two boys that are going to die, getting close enough to have one more regret about the life they’re leaving behind too soon: a great love story that could have been, a happy life they could have shared. Just thinking about it fills me with sadness and it makes me realize how it’s never too late and even when it’s too late, it is still worth it.

“Why can’t we have a chance?” I ask Rufus.
“A chance at what?” He’s looking around, taking pictures of the arena and the lines.
“A chance at another chance.” I say.

At first I thought that knowing about your death in some ways triggered a chain reaction that would get you to the death that was predicted. It all seemed plausible and I found myself thinking that maybe without knowing they would’ve done things differently and destiny could’ve been rewritten giving them a second chance, maybe also a third. Like your path is not set in stone and it could change.

As I read on, though, I realized that no matter what things you may decide to do on your End Day, death would still find you. You can’t escape death and you’re certainly not meeting death because of the choices you’re making that day: you’re just changing the journey, taking a different road, but the destination it’s still the same. You’re given a chance to say goodbye, to have closure, to tied loose ends, to try things you weren’t brave enough to try before, and I think that’s really scary yet somehow liberating. I don’t know what I would do if knew today was my last day alive: I would freak out, that’s for sure.

I wondered if it was possible to ask them not to tell you when you were going to die, that maybe it could be an option you decided not to have. Then again, without the phone call Rufus and Mateo would still be dead but they wouldn’t have met, and they wouldn’t have been the last rays of sunshine they’ve seen in this world that had them for such a short time.

I wasted time and missed fun because I cared about the wrong things.

Adam Silvera has confirmed himself once again one of my favourite authors and I think he’s going to be one for a very long time. I can’t recommend his books enough and this is not an exception. Go get yourself a Silvera book, you won’t regret it.

“They only know tales and legends, so they can do nothing but shoot in the dark. As if you held a guitar in one hand and strings in another, knowing the two could be put together to make music. But without knowledge, you’d be more likely to break the strings, warp the neck of the guitar, than you would be to play the simplest of songs.”

Title: Cutie and the Beast (Fae Out of Water #1)Author: E.J. RussellGood things about this book: Supernatural being living among us!Bad things about this book: Nothing really worth mentioning, a couple typos maybe.Do I recommend it? Yes, it’s a fun and light read!Rate: 4/5

When it comes to books, the ones I choose easily please me. I’m not very picky. My ratings are always high. It’s not a lie; I simply enjoy almost every book I read. Since the beginning of my Goodreads adventure I have given 2 stars or less to very few books. Those books deceived me because they looked and sounded good, just what I needed and then huge disappointment. I’m usually lucky, though.

I was in the mood for a light read with a happy ending and I was lucky Netgalley approved my request for this book that had a lot of elements that are usually a nice mix resulting in a joyful reading session. Supernatural, urban fantasy, Portland in Oregon (the Grimm’s home; I love him), magic, seelie court, bards, vampires, dragons, werewolves, and all kinds of other shifters and interesting characters.

David loved big men, but he didn’t like bullies, and the good doctor’s body language was all me-Tarzan-you-twink.

The cutie is a young handsome boy who answers to the name of David. He lives with his aunt and her friends and is unlucky when it comes to love and work. Wherever he goes he seems to cause riots and angry mobs. But he needs a job and he gets one as a temp as Dr. Kendrick’s assistant. He is attracted to his voice but then he will be attracted to almost everything else. He will get what he wants; he’s just stubborn like that.

The beast is Alun Kendrick, the Lord of the Sidhe, cursed and exiled from the faerie’s realm. His curse has given him a disfigured face and the soul of a martyr. He glares and scowls and is bitchy with our poor David, the only one who looks him in the eye. He can’t have a human so near his patients, oh excuse me, his clients, since they are all supernatural beings. Benji, the little dragon shifter is adorable and I loved his interactions with David.

“Let’s see—pissy elves, demon hounds, and a tidal wave in a knee-high creek, not to mention swords, magic, and sex.” He flung his arms wide. “Best. First date. Ever.”

I thought this was going to be a cute and steamy retelling of the well known fairy tale with the beauty and the beast starting off badly, then getting to know each other, falling in love and breaking the curse. I was wrong, so wrong; this book was completely something else and I loved every part of it. There are twists, battles, revelations, sweet moments, a couple of steamy episodes as well, faerie ceremonies, flirtatious characters, fun dance moves, and so so much more.

“Ignorance does not equal safety. Ignorance equals ignorance, and that can get you just as dead.”

It has a very nice message, too. A message I can’t tell you (maybe you can get a hint of it from the quote above), so you’ll have to find out by yourself. This was so cute and funny and worth every hour I spent reading it, even as sick as I am right now. Summer cold is annoying but this book made my day a little bit better. I can’t wait to read about the two other faerie brothers; luckily I won’t have to wait much. Now excuse me while I go dancing with zero rhythm or coordination like dear David. Y-M-C-A!!!!

I thought about how every person could hold two truths inside of them, how impossible it felt sometimes to have your insides and outsides aligned.

Title: If I Was Your GirlAuthor: Meredith RussoGood things about this book: Amanda is a delightful and strong character!Bad things about this book: Nothing bad just but check for triggers before reading.Do I recommend it? I do!Rate: 4/5

This is a very difficult book to review because I will never understand what it means to be Amanda. I will never be in her position; to have the same fears she has, to not being able to be a 100% true to the people she knows and to herself. At the end of the book there is the note from the author explaining how it must be viewed, either if you are trans like Amanda or if you identify with the gender you were born with.

In the note the author writes about how she simplified the struggles Amanda has to face to made us understand her better without asking ourselves too many questions; can people tell she is trans? No, because she is very feminine. Will people see she is trans by mistake while entering the bathroom unannounced? No, because she could afford a surgery most people wouldn’t be able to pay. Will they see her as a girl even after knowing she wasn’t born with the body of one? Read the book and find out.

“You can have anything,” she said, “once you admit you deserve it.”

I know trans people but knowing them and seeing them transitioning doesn’t mean you understand everything they’re going through and what they are feeling. I can only be myself and see them how they want to be seen, how they are on the inside that they want to be seen also on the outside. So one day he is a guy’s name and the next day she is a girl and she stays a girl, so what? They tell me they have a new name, new pronoun to use and that’s that. From my part, I can’t see why it has to be hard.

People frustrate me. They give hate to the wrong people for no reasonable motive; they spend so much energy hating something so simply to understand with a little effort. Sometimes I think they want to be scared of something so badly to feel better with themselves that they don’t care to see they are “scared” for absolutely no reason. For example I can’t stop being angry for the “bathroom issue” and I smile every time a place doesn’t have different bathrooms for different genders. Little steps. Maybe too little sometimes.

We have three bathrooms at work. One is on the first floor and everyone can go because there is no sign on the door. The other two were mistakenly decorated with the male and female symbol on the door and if the male one is occupied, the male coworkers wait instead of going inside the other one. A simple sticker on the door plays so hard with their minds they are willingly waiting hours to pee instead of putting their masculinity in danger going inside the girl’s bathroom. The reason I’ve been told? “It feels weird, it’s for girls.” How dumb is that? It’s the exact same bathroom as the other two, only with a sticker on the door. A stinking sticker with zero value, zero utility.

This book made me see things differently, not only because it takes place in the USA and I live in Italy so many things don’t happen here or I simply failed to look closer. I don’t go out much so I only have three places to compare experiences: my workplace, my house and the LGBTIQA+ community I’m a member of. I don’t really know the real world and even if I had struggles growing up, being an immigrant latina in a white country, I have to say I’m privileged enough to have lived my life peacefully. That’s how it has to be for everyone else and we will keep fighting, we will keep marching, keep doing whatever we can, even if small, to make the world a better place for every single person living in it.

I realized, I wasn’t sorry I existed anymore. I deserved to live. I deserved to find love. I knew now—I believed, now—that I deserved to be loved.

I’m sorry I didn’t talk about the book, mainly to avoid spoilers also because some books need to be experienced without insights, but rest assured I liked it and I recommend it. It is hard, it is triggering (so, beware), it isn’t for everyone but if you want a book that gives you a point of view you are missing and you want to understand then this is a book you have to read.

“The more time and emotional dollars you invest into a relationship, the more you inspire trust that encourages the other person to spend more of their own emotional dollars. In a positive outcome, this spending will lead to more emotional wealth. Or, translated, love.”

Title: Leo Loves AriesAuthor: Anyta SundayGood things about this book: All the main characters are adorable and relatable!Bad things about this book: Nothing, I loved it.Do I recommend it? I do, very much recommended!Rate: 5/5

All hail Matthew Daddario! He is the reason I read this book, besides being also the reason of so many swooning moments (the Daddario siblings are something else | we’re not worthy). I happened to notice the cover of this book randomly and clicked it because the cover model looked so much like my beloved Matthew and I, of course, couldn’t leave a Daddario picture unclicked, that’s not how I was raised. One innocent click led me to read the blurb and I was sold.

This was exactly the kind of love story that brings me joy and laughter and hope and sunshine and rainbows. Was I wrong to think that? Of course not. It brought me feelings I wanted to have and it left me craving for more and not only literary and virtual feelings, I now want real life feelings too! Oh, this is bad! A side effect I was not expecting.

Theo Wallace lives with his blind sister, Leone, and is looking for a roommate. What a lucky coincidence a certain ex-tutor of Theo, Mr. Jamie Cooper, is looking for a place to live. Theo and Leone are trying hard to move on from the end of both their love relationships (his girlfriend and her boyfriend fell for each other and now they’re getting married. Sucks, right?); Theo thinks Jamie might be perfect for his sister.

Really, Theo. You’re an idiot. That’s an F on the paper of life.

Was he the only one in the whole world who didn’t see how Jamie had his eyes set on him from their very first conversation via email? It was so obvious and Theo’s obliviousness was at the same time adorable and frustrating. It was clear as day Theo had more than friendship feelings towards Jamie but he didn’t really entertained the idea of Jamie being gay so everything the boy did to get his attention passed as a best friend kind of thing. Poor Jamie, he tried so hard, so many sentences with obvious double meanings, all wasted.

Theo followed the hot yumminess—and the pizza.

Theo has always thought he was attracted only to women so he didn’t really think about having feelings for a guy. Sure he can see and admire a guy’s good looks but how do you start realizing this is more than just a friend’s thing starting to become a real crush, and then possibly love? How are we to understand if a person is flirting, being funny or just being really friendly? I liked how, when Theo realized he was curious, he didn’t hide it; he went to Jamie and said how he didn’t see himself falling for a guy (oh, you fool boy) but he was willing to explore the sexual part of said curiosity? *PSA: Steamy moments of lust straight ahead*

“Are you insane? I’m sleeping until seven.”
“Your choice.” Jamie swatted his ass. “But you can’t complain when there’s no time for morning fun.”
“Six hours is good. Know what? So is five and a half.”

He’s in for a rollercoaster of a situation. This is a slow-burn kind of love. Things happen slowly yet not in a boring way: seeing those two develop a relationship that transcends the “original plan of Theo” gives it a reality stamp of approval from yours truly. Not everything is instant in life, things take time and the more they know each other, the more they see how it’s not an impulsive decision to try to be more than what they are now and, being such great friends, nothing but good things can come out of it. So it’s worth a try, right?

Theo: Maybe you’re overthinking it? You’ve been staring at that document all night.
Jamie: Almost as long as you’ve been staring at me, then.

I love Theo and Jamie and their shenanigans. I could read about them grocery shopping for thousands of pages and not get bored. Well, I could read about them doing their assignments separately from opposite sides of the dining room and still not get bored. That’s how much I loved them and this entire book.

“If you want to understand the principle of scarcity, just look in the fridge for vegetables after your brother has gone shopping.”

I can understand Theo’s behavior very well. You see someone you think is cute and you don’t see anything wrong in thinking that. Then some time later you see someone else being really cute and funny and still you think it’s normal, you like this person as a potential friend. Then time goes by and you keep looking at people and getting these feelings and you start having different kind of thoughts and your brain kindly announces you that, dear girl, you’re definitely not straight. Then the world gets a little bit brighter and maybe you can have it all, the possibilities multiplied, right? Right??

Reality checks in and you remember you’re not like Theo: you’re not easy going with a charmingly funny personality, with beautiful green eyes, dimples for days and a handsome face. You also don’t have a Jamie who enters your world like a gray-eyed fairy HOTmother. You get a bit sad, of course, but maybe that’s just me: the entire world to love but not a single soul to love me back. Guess I have to start reading my horoscope and hope this Scorpio woman gets a little bit of action. Stars, don’t disappoint me, I’m not getting any younger here!

My new book crush, Victor Bayne, is having problems with his ability. His powers seem amplified and ghosts appear to be more solid, can move from where they died and they are trying to grab him. Victor is troubled. He is scared. His house, his safe haven, is compromised, too. He sees faces when he turns on the tv and he is scratching Jacob without realizing it. He can’t catch a break. Poor Vic!

I was still too fixated on Jacob to really give a damn if Roger Burke slept with men, women, or inflatable farm animals, for that matter.

Victor has a new partner, Roger, kind of bland, but he buys him expensive coffee from Starbucks every single day so he’s not really complaining. Lisa is still at PsyTrain and she is always unreachable but the few times she leaves Victor or Jacob a message is cryptic and ominous and with all that’s happening with his abilities, the situation is getting out of hand.

One scary episode of ghosts trying to grab Victor ends in him being told his liver is a mess, that he has to start eating healthy and that he has to stop taking his beloved Auracel, the only pills that keep the ghosts at bay. Carolyn takes him to Crash, Jacob’s ex-boyfriend, who is an empathic healer to see if he can help Victor get rid of the dead making his life hell. Let me tell you, Crash is a peculiar character and I still don’t know if I like him or not. He dared doubting Vic’s abilities and I was fuming, I was so angry!!

Did straight guys eat salads? Maurice never had one unless his wife made it. That was about the extent of my knowledge of the eating habits of the heterosexual world.

There are many things happening that lead you to make a few guesses as to what the hell is happening and then it all falls into place; flashbacks appear in my mind and I think “well of course, I should’ve seen it coming” and I got mad and I wanted my Victor to be happy. I wanted Vic to be able to sleep with Jacob without scratches incidents and I wanted him to get home to a place without ghosts bothering him.

I wondered if that was something like being ambidextrous, the ability to speak and write at the same time. I’m lucky I can walk and breathe simultaneously without choking.

I think I won’t be able to stop reading this series now that I have started and I know it’s not finished yet, that after the Crash’s prequel book there’s going to be a final book with I hope a perfect ending for my Victor. I will fight whoever wants to harm him, I swear!

Title: ReleaseAuthor: Patrick NessGood things about this book: The way Ness writes is bewitching!Bad things about this book: Nothing, at least for me. Check the trigger warnings before reading, though.Do I recommend it? Yes, absolutely.Rate: 5+++/5☆: It made my “favourite books” list

I couldn’t put it down and this is the third Ness’s book that has done this to me. I loved it with all my heart; there is something in Ness’s books that resonates with my soul and I feel them embracing me and cuddling me. The magic touch, at first peculiar, settles into the narration almost unnoticed and unforced. All of this makes Release one hell of a book to read and treasure.

This is not the easiest of books, it is a book about life and the obstacles it throws at you; it gives you hope in a better future if you’re willing to fight for it. It is so hard to fight for something you don’t think you deserve because you’ve been “taught” that what you are goes against nature, against the will of a lord you think doesn’t really care how you live your life.

Adam Thorn doesn’t believe he deserves being loved. He grew up in a very religious family being the son that’s different in a way they don’t dare to say out loud. Adam is gay and his family thinks it’s merely a phase, they think what he feels is not real. How much realer can it be if it breaks his heart in a million pieces? Adam Thorn has loved and his broken heart is the result of it. Will he ever let go of the past and fight for a future worth living? Will he ever let go of the boy he gave his all to but apparently was never willing to give anything back?

Where on earth had this day come from? And where was it headed?

We follow Adam throughout one day of his life; one day that will change everything. He will wake up, run errands, exercise, go to work, help his father and say goodbye to the boy who broke his heart. It’s going to be a long day, a day of news that will test his mind and episodes that will test his heart. Today everything changes.

He starts his day going to buy flowers his mother will certainly hate, and then running to clear his mind thinking how everything he does is never and will never be enough. He wants to go away and be himself but at the same time he is struggling to find some kind of peace in a home that has conditions for you to be worth being in it.

He can’t evade and find peace at work either with a boss sexual harassing him who knows pretty well how these accusations will go away easily; after all, who will believe a 17-year-old gay boy saying his boss touches him inappropriately? Here comes the frustration, the realization that a teenage boy is helpless, unable to reach for help because the world has this unbelievably twisted conviction that teenagers can only say lies and you should never believe them.

“They’re your parents. They’re meant to love you because. Never in spite.”

Adam finds his peace with Angela, his best friend. She is a tough girl and she is there for him whenever he needs it. Her family is different, open minded and kind, a safe refuge when he needs to get away from his cruel reality. Angela and Adam are a wonderful duo, ready to take the world head high. Their flashbacks show how incredible their friendship is.

“I’m always gay?”
“In every universe.”
“That makes sense. Are you always short?”
“Except in the universes where I’m Beyoncé.”
“In some universes, we’re all Beyoncé.”

I was so happy about Angela because at this point in the book I was ready to fight everyone who was in the way of my big blonde guy and his happiness. Adam deserves the world and I was more than ready to give it to him. Letting go is hard, painful, but once it’s done you’re free to live and start again. Our brain is one hell of an instrument: it tortures us when it decides on its own accord to fish memories you wanted hidden. Mastering the cohabitation with your bad memories is the way to keep them at bay and not letting them hurt you ever again. They are there, you sense them, but they don’t control you; you don’t allow them to do it.

Will Adam be ready to let go? This day will decide it; it will decide his fate.

While we follow Adam on the day his life is going to change forever, a spirit called by one single, an apparently innocent, action will leave the safety of her home to answer questions she doesn’t even know were asked. The magical realism, very similar to the one in the other Ness’ favourite of mine “The Rest of Us Just Live Here”, can seem out of place but you need to let it flow, no questions asked. It’s a parallel quest, seemingly unrelated, to our Adam’s journey, that will set in motion the end of the world, as we know it.

This book left me shaken. I related to parts of the book and sympathize with everything else. I was frustrated and angry, I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry but I also wanted to have hope and believe that maybe the world doesn’t really hate us the way we sometimes think. That maybe we can build ourselves a safe heaven in the midst of our not so very perfect lives.

I loved Release and it confirmed my love for Patrick Ness and the way he writes. It’s a hit or miss in my opinion and I understand when the story doesn’t reach everyone the way it reached me. Nonetheless, it is a story worth reading.

“Never pass up the chance to be kissing someone. It’s the worst kind of regret.”

He felt ready to put on his armour and fight until every last demon was finally defeated.

Title: Could You Love An Apple?Author: Becky JeramsGood things about this book: BENJAMIN APPLE!Bad things about this book: It’s long and many things can go wrong when a book is long.Do I recommend it? Yes.Rate: 5/5

>> Beware; this is going to be a review full of quotes because I love quotes, quotes are the best

Once upon a time there was a beautiful boy who in the past made really terrible mistakes and, even if people around him has somehow forgiven him, it was very hard to convince himself that he was a person worth being with, a person worth loving.

This book has 500+ pages and has every single quality of a Netflix original series:
1) You will go through all range of the emotion spectrum;
2) You will laugh, cry, shake your head, be mad, scream, want to shake some sense out of characters for being dumb;
3) You will love every second of it;
4) You will want to binge read the hell out of it in a single sitting if time and responsibilities allow;
5) You will finish only to feel happy yet empty inside.

Every time someone smiled at him or treated him kindly, it felt so thoroughly undeserved that it made Taylor’s skin crawl.

How can you not love a book like that? It will test your patience. Believe me, it tested my patience and I am a very patient person. There were times I wanted to put it in stand-by because it was making me feeling anxious and a little, let’s say, murdery. I was angry at everything and everyone because I could see how the world would’ve been with them happy and together and it seemed that the only ones in their way to happiness were themselves.

Taylor Raven has left his family and city behind to start anew. But the past is not easy to forget, forgive or get away from. We know the horrible things he’s done to Scotty in the previous book “Reasons to Love a Nerd Like Me” but we also know that by the end of the book he has redeemed himself and we see at the beginning of this book that Scotty and co has forgiven Taylor and now they are friends. Taylor knows all of this but he doesn’t feel worth having friends or people around him. He thinks he is toxic. He thinks he’s not going to find love because how can he deserve it after everything?

“I made his life a fucking misery.”
“Because you liked him?” Benjamin asked aloud. Taylor clenched his fists together into an angry ball.
“No. Because I loved him.”

Taylor is not an easy person. He has anger episodes and a lot of internal issues caused by his family, especially his father, and by what he’s done alongside his bully friends in college. He thinks nobody will bother him in Westerfield but being a small town where everyone knows one another, is hard escaping people trying to get to know you better.

“I can’t believe this. I’ve stayed out all night in another man’s bed and I don’t have any clean clothes. I don’t even have a toothbrush! My mum is going to be disgusted with me. I’ll be a family disgrace.”

One day, trying to get away from people and his lonely flat, he stumbles upon a little pub called The Apple Inn. The pub looks quite rustic and the customers are scarce, almost non-existent. The Apple family runs the Apple Inn and they are lovely people. George and Sharon are loving parents, Ashleigh is a bubbly teenager and a very slow barman, and Benjamin is the adorable ginger cook/barman/artist who thinks Taylor is the most interesting thing that has happened in his life in a very long time.

“Is that all you’ve got to say?” Taylor grunted in response, still holding onto Benjamin firmly. “Oh bother?”
“It felt like a very ‘oh bother’ kind of moment.”

Benjamin is the most beautiful and adorable boy and he deserves the world. He is funny, some may think he tries too much, but it’s not like that, he likes making people laugh and he is genuinely lovable. He is very tall, ginger like Garfield (his words not mine), is very good at drawing and is trying his best to help his family run the pub, even if it means he had to put his future on hold.

“Stop being so soppy, get off me!”
“NO! YOU WILL ACCEPT MY ADVANCES WILLINGLY!”

I can’t begin to explain how much I love Benjamin. And I also loved Benjamin with Taylor. I knew how good Benji’s personality was making Taylor realize he could have it all. It was scary and he still had a lot to reveal about himself. What would adorable Benjamin think of Taylor after he learns what he’s done, what he was capable of doing?

“People tell me I’m very charming.”
He was joking, but at the same time it was completely true. “Oh, people tell you that do they? What people?”
“My mum.”

This was a rollercoaster of emotions. As soon as something nice was happening I knew it wasn’t going to last because, come on, I was only at 30%, how could things be perfect if the book was only at the beginning? I was scared all the time. Everything that could go wrong was destined to go wrong. They was no way of escaping it and maybe that’s for the best because that way Taylor could really face his demons, defeat them, move on and be happy.

I will recommend it and I will keep on loving it. I already loved Becky Jerams for Scotty’s story and now my love is confirmed with this book. I am putting her on my authors-I-love list; she deserves it.

“I’ve seen you knock things over so artfully, I thought for sure you were training for the next Olympics.”

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