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Friday, 29 December 2017

Ok first of all, let’s just ignore the fact that it’s been over a year since I’ve posted anything pls. Ok cool. I had to refer to an old blog post of mine today and realised I miss writing stuff in here. I don’t miss adding photos and aligning text and whatever so I decided I’d try and have another crack at this but do it the really old school way and just type and only add photos when I felt like it.
So. A lot has happened since my last post in August 2016...Where do I begin?..
I had a baby! That’s what happened! Anyone that’s read my blog would know that though because that’s kind of where I left you (and let’s be real the only people following my blog follow me on Instagram so you guys would already know haha). My baby also turned one! She’s the greatest thing in my life. I could gush about her all day long. She has been my entire world since she came out and I haven’t really had time to myself (two days to myself in 15 months to be exact you guys. Two. Days.) so it’s been hard to keep up with much tbh. I can barely keep up with people on social media. I’ve kind of decided that I’m going’s to try my best to use social media for posting my own content and only looking at other peoples stuff when I get the chance rather than prioritising scrolling through feeds when I have a sec on the toilet. And let me tell you, my toilet time is my only real alone time and it doesn’t last long so I have to start using it wisely.
I don’t know why blogger hasn’t got a designated app. Do people even use blogs on here anymore? Is it even a thing? Or is Instagram blogging the main thing nowadays? How do you even follow blogs? I have so many questions. I feel like I’m so out of the game when it comes to the internet. I used to be a HTML boss back on MySpace. Changing my background and layout every day. I could keep up with it. Now I don’t even bloody know what IT is.
Idk man. All I know is that I just want to write the thoughts I have sometimes and Instagram doesn’t have this much of a word limit, so it’s alllll going to have to go here. It may sound like verbal diorreah but that’s how I talk so deal with it. ALSO, another thing to note is, I’m sure I’m not going to write like normal people do. I might start a story and it goes absolutely ducking nowhere. I’m not going to have a beginning, middle and an end. It’s just going to be thought. And thoughts don’t end, girl.

Wednesday, 3 August 2016

In this pregnancy, I have become really selfish.
All I have wanted to do is cross stitch, chill out at home, go out for lunch with Sam and hang out with my family. Apparently that is selfish. I have been 'neglecting' social media. I still scroll through my instagram feed and check snapchats and stuff but only quickly and mostly while on the toilet (not gunna lie. As if you don't do it too). I just don't like picking up my phone anymore. I realised that I had become so attached to my phone and didn't want to carry a bad habit into motherhood. I found that I was opening instagram, scrolling through everything, closing the app and then reopening it right away without thinking. I had to stop!

Since my work contract finished up a couple of months ago (a bit earlier than I had expected), I knew I needed to use this time for me exclusively. I don't know how motherhood will change me and the way that my routines work and the things that I'll do in the day so I figured I had to use the time before baby is here to be as gluttonous for relaxation as possible. So far it has been absolutely fucking amazing. I went through a period in my life where I was unemployed for a while and I got so bored and restless that I became severely depressed. I feared that would happen again this time and not having a job or any real responsibilities would make me go crazy, but it has been the complete opposite. I take my sweet time with anything I do right now and it's just super refreshing not feeling rushed or pressured. I know this may all change once baby is here so I'll try not to get too used to it but for now I'm enjoying the selfishness.

As I said, I haven't been too present on social media, and I don't know how present I will be in the future, so we'll just have to see how we go.

Wednesday, 6 July 2016

I thought in this pregnancy I would be so keen to dress really cute and show off my bump but in reality all I've wanted to do is sit in my pjs. I will wear pj's whenever I possibly can. My look is not as glam as I was expecting it to be haha
A couple of weeks ago Sam and I went out for lunch because I was having some mad cravings for a chicken burger. But it had to be from this one cafe on the other side of town. No other chicken burger was acceptable. Being the sweetheart he is, he obliged. After lunch we went to sit and relax by the Yarra River, so of course I made him take a few bump photos in front of the beautiful backdrop.

The belly is growing and has grown a bit more since then but it's still pretty tiny! It feels like I could still hide the bump if I wanted to which makes me laugh. Whenever I pictured myself as pregnant I would see myself with a massive belly wearing beautiful flowy dresses but it's been the opposite. Teeny belly and bodycon dresses. Maybe I'll look like what I was picturing at the end of my pregnancy...

I have been slack with all forms of social media but thats not to say I haven't been thinking about blogging. I have a few things I've been wanting to post about but every time I go to write anything it feels like my mind turns to mush so it's felt exceptionally hard especially because I haven't been getting 'dressed up' to take accompanying outfit photos. I'll see how I go but I'm not going to put pressure on myself to post content. Going to take all this stuff as it comes.

Monday, 13 June 2016

I know this is a little (lol VERY) late, but oh well. I'm pregnant, forgetful and slow. Whaddyagunnado..

This year, since becoming pregnant I thought I would make a effort to start becoming a proper domakinka (Macedonian for housewife but it means so much more than just 'wifely duties'. I'll have to do a separate post about it). I figured my first domakinka duty would be Easter egg dying and seeing as though I had never done it myself before I bent the rules slightly.

In my Easter post from last year there's more information about the traditions involved with Orthodox Easter (link here). I wanted to follow the 'rules' but I figured this year could be my test run. I say this mostly because I knew something would stuff up and I didn't want to be disappointed in my efforts. It was all to lesson the blow really haha

I went to a wog deli to scout the things I would need and was half successful. I had wanted to do traditional red eggs as well as some pink eggs. Pink isn't a colour that people dye their eggs because, as I found out, pink dye is so fricking hard to find. The usual colours people use aside from red are blue, green and yellow. They come in the same type of foiled packets as shown above and you can sometimes find them in your local Coles or Woolies depending on how woggy your area is. Some people had suggested to me that food colouring would work if I couldn't find pink dye...

On the left is a pot with the regular red dye colouring the eggs and on the right is the pot with food colouring...

Can you tell which ones are pink and which are red? hahaha

Needless to say, using food colouring was a big fail. I don't know why the pink dye made the eggs red and I don't know why the eggs had stripes across them, but I guess its ok because lucky this was a test run, right? When Easter passed and people were posting pictured of their eggs I saw some GORGEOUS colours being used. There was baby pink, mint green, hot pink, bright purple, lavender and baby blue. It was like nothing I had ever seen before! I asked around and apparently they were all made through packet dye just like the red colouring but you had to go to the markets at just the right time before easter to be able to find them. At least I know now for next year!

I didn't take photos of the feast because it was making me feel nauseous looking at the mix of food but I was alllllll about the sweets. I could've eaten these two trays by myself. Damnnnnn!

I can't wait to take the little lessons I learnt from this years trial and hopefully I'll have some better coloured eggs next year!

Sunday, 15 May 2016

The baby belly is appearing! Slowly but surely its growing and growing and I couldn't be more excited! If you follow me on Instagram you may have seen me air my worries and frustrations at not having noticed a change in my belly and not having felt any movements yet, but I'm so happy to tell you that my worries are all gone now! Last week I felt (for sure, 100%, definitely) baby move! It was absolutely bizarre and wonderful and I can only imagine how much more brilliant its going to be when baby is bigger and I can feel more defined movements.

The past few weeks have been really great! I finished up at my temp job and have started to nest..or try to at least. Trying to find things to fill the nursery with on a small budget within the style that I'm wanting is proving to be really annoying. Seems like most nursery furniture easily available is very modern or Danish style and thats not really my thing. I was hoping to find more cool vintage type things in op shops but I'm just not having any luck. If anyone knows of any places in Melbourne I could suss out, please let me know!
It was also Orthodox Easter a couple of weekends ago (when these photos were taken) so we spent the day with family having a traditional Easter feast, but I'll post more about that fun stuff separately. It's been really great getting to spend a lot of time with family recently.

Saturday, 16 April 2016

My girls at Ruby & Lilli are coming back to Melbourne! YAAS! Since I've been a bit MIA on social media I'm a little bit delayed with my intake of news haha
Ruby & Lilli will be at the A+ Markets being held at Queen Victoria Market. Here's the facebook event link for anyone interested in coming along.

This tee is currently on sale along with a whole bunch of their classic tees and I. AM. DYINGGGG. There are like 6 tees that I'm dying to get that are also on sale. My bank account is just there like 'pls don't, you've been so good'..Idk. I might just wait til the A+ Markets...But we'll see haha

What's my blog without a little bit of Kitengi? She's my lil sweetheart that can be a bit camera shy but she was all about the cuddles this time.

Monday, 11 April 2016

Oh the joys of being pregnant. Your immune system turns to crap and even if you so much as look at someone with a cold, BAM! You've caught it. I'm a sniffly, gross mess right now so I figured it would make me feel slightly less crappy posting a summery OOTD from a time where I wasn't a snifflebag.

Sometimes you have to sacrifice something in order to make your outfit feel whole. In this case, I sacrificed a practical handbag so I could wear this one that barely fits my phone and purse. Worth it.

These photos were taken not very long ago when I was a little less pregnant and a little more fat and the sun could set your skin on fire. I don't miss the heat but I do miss it being warm enough to wear dresses with bare legs. Most of the time I forget that there are still a lot of plus size girls that have a fear of showing their bare legs. I guess I got so comfortable in my body that I can be a little ignorant to peoples insecurities and expect them to love their beautiful selves like they deserve to. It's a process that can take time. Sometimes a lot of time. I forget the insecurities I had growing up. I remember hating my legs. They were 'too chunky'. I would always wear jeans because of that. Fast forward 10 years later and look at me wearing dresses showing off my lil plus size pins!

Self love takes time. I've always been a bit of a narcissist so for me the path to body positivity was kind of on fast forward haha
I've always wanted to discuss the road to body positivity but I've never known where to begin and how to structure what I want to say because theres a lot to cover. If you have any suggestions, let me know and maybe I can start a blog series of questions or something? Idk, but lets do something fun!