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so glad to hear things are slowly back on course. I delurked earlier in the week to offer some thoughts on resolving the clogged ducts (mommy to twins comment). I totally know where you are and the constant anxiety about milk production. Just wanted to reassure you that breast milk production can go up and down. Throughout my breastfeeding adventure, I had three episodes of dramatic reduction in my milk supply and all three times I totally freaked out. Just to give you a sense of what I normally produced, on average 60 oz, which was necessary for two little boys, but each time my production went down to very little, I thought that was it. Each time, I just nursed more frequently, stayed hydrated, did hourly pumping for a day (mostly because my boys were not great or frequent nursers and I pumped more than nursed), and took more milk supplements. And each time, my milk came back...your milk will come back! Just try to rest up, drink fluids, nurse often or pump and I'd recommend the supplements. Hope this is helpful! You're doing great.

Have you talked to your caregiver about "Domperidone" (to increase your supply)? I'm not one for medicine (I don't even take Tylenol) but I had NO problems with it. Thought I'd mention it as so many woman haven't heard about it.

Check out http://www.drjacknewman.com/help/Domperidone%20Getting%20Started.asp or email me if you have any questions (swak50@hotmail.com).

Sorry to hear about the (lack of) fireworks. POP! BOOM! BANG! Hope that helped a bit.

Whoo hoo! I didn't write in about the clogged duct because it had not happened to me. But I am happy to write in and say that I, too, barely made enough throughout my time bfing my son, so I know what that anxiety is like. Just remember that barely enough IS enough. Yes, it would be lively to have been able to produce more (how I envied those women who had stashes of milk in the freezer--mine was always in the fridge because I knew I'd need what I pumped right away).

In the end, you are doing a wonderful job of being there for Della and of just being.

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I started this blog during struggles with infertility--struggles that resulted in countless IUIs, medications, procedures, 5 attempted IVF cycles, 2 pregnancies, one heartbreaking loss, and one miracle baby.

Parenthood left me feeling like I was not sure what to do here, with this amazing community. To talk about parenting felt boastful for those still and forever struggling. To not talk about it felt disingenuous. So here I am. I want to talk about my real life. Parenting. Midlife reassessment. Flailing. Finding myself. Mucking about.

So yes, I am a midlife parent of an amazing child.Yes, I battled infertility and will be forever changed by every single moment of that journey.I am imperfect and life is messy, but it is also so beautiful.

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