Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Basically, im in no mood for doing anything neither not doing anything at all. I just woke up, with a heavy migraine. I bumped my head onto the bolster with heavy thoughts, wondering whether hijaz already woke up or not and things that make me feel guilty like recent dormancy, deprecate people and still not vamoose from KMS!. Personally, the disappointment make me feel miserable as the whole point of living life is so pointless at this point.

4.30p.m, Tuesday evening,It was a gloomy evening, as everybody was busy heading home whilst wishinga safe journey back and happy raya, me and hijaz were looking at people with idle faces. We were planning( I was planning) to watch UP together. Sounds gay. :)). Actually, i just want to distract my feelings esp the homesick feeling. I think I should stay for a day to impassive myself from the society, plus hijaz ticket's tomorrow, and it would be a great thing to do.

6 pm, i was sleeping under the fastest-ever fan on farabi(bilik halim) and hijaz was playing PES by himself since 2pm. My sleep-marathon disturbed by the sudden yell that comes from Hijaz, he asked me " dude, pukul brapa nak gerak ni?. For my eyes were too heavy to open, i turn to the opposite side. I want to continue my sleep but my desire to watch UP wakes me up. "Jom ah!".

Again the malas-ness strikes again. I am not used to this malas. Something inside me that changed. I am in need of extra booster/motivation i think. LOL. Motivational talks always makes me sleepy......

Breaking fast outside is new to me. I never had the chance to eat outside during fasting month because mum will always cooks delicious-variety foods. Plus, i am again a malas person to eat outside. The term is actually leceh. We were at Mcds, they got berbuka puasa offer there. So, Aqil said he prefer mcd rather than kfc. There is something suspicious in his words. Yeah, i figured it already when he "bantai" 3 large fries, a big mac, applepie, air pepsi. Action speaks louder than words. Aqil falsifies the fact that small people eat little portion of food rather than large people.

After that, we watched UP. I dont want to share anything, but it was a 5/5 movie lah.!

Wed/today,

Hijaz had lost his ticket, bus ticket. Poor guy. I was helping him all day to find his ticket. After we found that makcik cleaner already sapu his ticket. I was touched when he said "Astagfirullah, ad hikmah ni." I was like woo. His heart is really pure. Then, i decided to accompany him until he got back. Now, hes at KL staying with his cousin.

After i arrived home, i feel good. Yeah, home sweet home. There is no place like home. ;))

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Thursday, exactly before the isya prayer; where people went to tadarus with their usrahs, F112 DESK 1.

I found something was not right with me. It has always been like that.Since, my parents sent me to live with my grandparents during my childhood. The sour feeling of being left behind is not alien to me anymore. Where my childhood is different from others, living with parents under one roof, getting to know their own parents, going on holidays with parents where parents can buy alotsa toys to their children made me envied to every person.

Health condition : terrible

Having had several bad coughs and dynamically awkward fever lately. The diarrhea and gastric attacks had annoyed me every hour. Runny nose becomes the main problem of my breathing difficulty. I was quite shocked when asked by Arab, a fellow classmate,

Unluckily, me too can only exhale using only one of two holes of the nose(wonder ppl got 3 holes). Ahs, i had been admitted at the Seremban Hospital because of chest pain lately. Thanks to Iqmal for accompanying me.

Peer pressure

Living in with people whom i never mingle with before makes my life miserable. I admit, i am a person that can makes a lot of friends but cannot be a good ones. Plus, i only hangs out with people with my own clique. Different ideas, different styles, different way of lives from other people always bounds me to mix with others. Sometimes, it is better this way because I can live my own life and they can live theirs as long as they are not disturbing mine.

But, unfortunately, i cannot live that kind of way. I had been given a heavy responsibility where a lot of commitments needed towards the people i barely know. I am the type who enjoys to do what i like and love. Yes, it is called sincerity. But, i am not always sincere. I do not know whether i am sincere enough to satisfy the needs of others because i am a total mess myself.

Homesick

It is actually very hard for me to admit this. Yes,I am a homesick person. Before this, i had never lived more than 100km radius from home.Even though, i studied at a boarding school before, but it is just 15 minutes away from home. Gee, it is hard for me actually. Left alone stranded here, with no close friends that always let me stayed at their houses, no Kak Ema that always lend me a pair of helping hands when i am in troubles, no hanging outs with junkies.

Eventhough i am homesick but i tried my best not to leave from here.

* I do not know what i am turning into. Somebody out there, help me. Maybe i am in need of moral support. Or i am just not being grateful of what i have at this moment.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Well, after awhile, im back. Phew, i missed this blog so much. Even though provided with this Celcom Broadband; Vodafone 90+- a month, which after all the blood and tears to get it frm parents who never understand their child necessity. :p

Now, i already settled down at KMS. It is quite a good place, where good friends varies from different places and different dialects meet, but with one mindset, to study. They all are sweet and steady. For now, they are no backstabbers identified. But, i still believe one day i might see one and perhaps he/she will be from my close friends.

My roommates; Tony Eusoff MD51

and addhaMD53(pic not avail) do not worry because he is handsome too. Qlate hensem sokmo! LOL!

Both of them were from MRSM. Until now, i always thought that MRSM ppl( no offense), they are nerds with low EQ. For those whom does not know about EQ click here. So, i already prepared before coming here with all the talisman and the that will keep me away from them. But the hocus pocus stuffs did not work. Shits!

The first 12 hours in the room were full of prententious acts. Haha :p. After a few incidents of akward moments, were get along just fine. But, yet i will still not change my perception towards MRSM ppl. They will always be Nerds with low EQ except Tony because he likes to sleep all the time and drinks nescafe after 1 a.m.

What i noticed here is that, between ppl who taking IB and A lvl, the cooler guys majors at a lvl. IDK why. Haish.

All in all, living here is fun, plus EPL already started. Kudos to man city and arsenal after the win. Tonight match is quite importante to me as a die hard spurs fan. Gdluck spurs!. hope we'll beat liver and take out their lungs out!.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Yesterday, i slept early around 8 or 9. Im so exhausted but yet having fun with friends. Then, someone message me in the middle of snoring. 11p.m to be exact. Everything was sorted out. Just a small problem about my past. Then, i shut my eyes closed but i couldnt sleep. Shit.

It was 2a.m. My training to sleep early and wake up early ruined. Again Shit. So, i went downstairs, and looking at the dark surrounding. Shit. It was so dark and i am too lazy to switch on the lights. I watched television and searched whichever movie that was played at that time. Then, went to the kitchen to get some foods. When i came back, channel max ch412, on the screen there was a title

I was so amazed man. GENERATION KILL. So, i spent my 2 hours watching this movie-series. All i can say the movie was 4.8/5 eventho i only watched two episodes. Yet im looking forward to watch the continuation of this movie.

Monday, June 8, 2009

I think i will start to take care of myself and will not let others use me as something benificial for them.

But, yet i want to thank you to all of you, backstabbers,bitch,sweet talker, two face, hooker, desperate, pretenders, etc, who taught me something, to believe in myself and not to let my self down again. Yes, i will turn into a heck of a guy, more rude, greed and no more mr nice guy. That is because all i want to do is start to give me a second chance for myself.

Monday, May 25, 2009

He was one of my best childhood friend. I was all alone in standard one of Sekolah Kebangsaan Air Baruk, Jasin Melaka. At that time, I lived with my grandparents, both were sweet and nice. I cant speak malay fluently and I cannot get many friends. In the middle of recess period, he walked to me and said

Hi, nama saya Nor Hezrizat. and he smile and offered a handshake. I was frowned. ngeeeee

Since that day, we played together and we also were punished standing on chairs because playing at the back of the class. I left the school at standard 2 and I cry, a real tears, because i am leaving my best friend. sobs.

There was a phone conversation between me and owlet. She said about AimanmdJelas(meyem) is there at Penang, and all of sudden, I laughed, the memories with me and him all came back of nowhere. Meyem and Duran during ED comp form 3.

He is a close friend. We were in the Archery team since Form 1. We were the best because the passion towards the sport itself. Since form 1 we already trained by using compound bow not a wooden bow. He was the captain of four. We won a lot of competitions, district, state and also National circuit. Since now, i am not sure whether we were talented or we just very highly motivated because the training was at Sekolah Seri Puteri.ngee~.

Aiman was a future prodigy for SAS. He is very smart and shows the leadership during early years at SAS. He was our batch-leader and future head boy. Maybe, if you can remember of his face on the E-Siswa cover page. Yes, he is very handsome, good-looking. lengchai meh. (im not a gay)

Something happened to him. All i can said that at that time, he was distracted. Maybe, lust. You see, if somebody got all the power and popularity, they will turn into a totally different person. During form 4, he was in the top-notch class, 4 Bestari, where brilliant people like Wafi, Kn, Ucop, afiqanua,lot,haikal,aripzahlan,ash,izi were there. But, mostly during the school period he was not at class. You knw aite, honeymoon yr. But, his attendance was critical. In one month, you can only see him twice or thrice, and also during exams he will showed up and scored very well. Yeah, when every people were looking for him, he was not there. When i saw him at dorms, we will smile at each other and have a pep talk.

So, he was expelled from the school because of one stupid case. Yes a very silly ones. Everybody was very sad. Its like seeing a brother of yours is going away forever. Me, i did not know what I am feeling. We were very close during at the beginning but we were very distant during form 4.I am not crying like everybody at that time and also the time when I was leaving hezrizat. Yet, i felt pain inside of my heart. It feels like something was not going right. i want to cry like others but i cannot. I want to share my pain but there were nobody.

Now i realized, as we grow older, we learned to control feelings and emotions, we learned to hide our pain. Actually, we learned to suffer. By suffering, we try to be optimistic so that maybe in future there will be a better living. That is life. Which i can derive it as Life=Suffer.

Kimiey during ED in form3. So sexy mamah.Once and forever close and best dudes. Kucai, Wafi, Kamal and Lotfi.Adios amigos ^_^

Saturday, May 23, 2009

High Vit A,C and E. Yeah. I like it very much. Plus with orange sacs. MMM........Yummy. I just enjoyed one while im blogging. 2 words. Ho LIaO. Yet, I have this [=---------,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,m³;2433(my cat step on the keyboard)

problem when im entering anything that is sour-based taste in my mouth. It makes me feel like

UARGHHHH "NGENGOGOENG, massssaaaaaaaaammmmm!!!".

Last night, I was from a farewell meeting for a friend at Shah Alam Bandar Anggerik, One Utama, Kota Kemuning and Sunway, Subang. It was fun meeting with Betik(MRAZih), Keme and Lot. We watched movies and hangout. It was hilarious too watching angels and demons while making jokes about the movie itself and we were covering our faces when the show was over because people were staring at us with unlikeable expression. A big smile for me a big humilliation for my pride.

As we were on the way back to the parking lot, saw Naim Azuz(warriors) with his girlfriend. Then keme was enquiry us something

Haha. now look at us keme. Not handsome as him. NO lengchainess, no aweks 8 macamtu. I suddenly thinking that people changed. Yes, i do remember that he was one of the most alim in school. Seeing him fasting mostly everyday. Reading quran is one of his habit. A bookworm should i say. Walking with a big hunchback. Seeing him now with his girlfriend, holding hands, like a romantic couple, dating at one utama, making me feel unease. Uneasiness is because i am afraid that people that are close to me will change and i might be changing myself. What to do, what to do.

Later at night, lot, keme and me were at Sunway. I watch the time when we arrived there. Darn, its 11.15 p.m. and we did not buy our tickets for the movie yet. So, we were running at empty aisle like a group of stupid and carefree dudes heading to the cinema. There was a lot of styles, usain bolt, david beckham castrol running, ketam running, walking and running, a winning run and my favourite, running then stop and panting all alone helplessly(like keme). Then we bumped into another two warriors, bighead and castelo. Castello did an earpiercing at his left ear while Bighead dye his hair into yellowish gold. We, handshake, chat a little and chow. Must buy the tickets fast. In my mind, while running to the counter, i have this thought that, yes people do change.

It was a fine movie. With no hero, heroin and a no cliche ending. A type of movie where people like me and gang, malays, have to watch. Yes, we were seated in front of all chinese audiences and making problems and irritating others were our duty. 4.0/5.

Can you imagine while watching a movie, then suddenly a guy that seat at the most front of all the people is answering a phone call. The phone call was answered with a loud and monotous voice, with the word projection can be heard one by one. What usually the people at the back will do to make this person stop from irritating others watching movie?, Yes, throw him the pop corns. For sure the guy will stop. But, the guy will not easily giving up. His tactic was simple but victory is guarantee. He finished answered the call and talking to his friend with a clear voice,

The people whom threw the popcorn to him will feel guilty. The person that ansewered the call, satisfaction. Mood in cinema turns into dull and gloomy. lol.

At3, I was at asiba with lotfi, accompanied him to finish filling the empty blanks in the UIA form. There was confusion, dilemma and frustration. I am guiding him in the selection to enroll into any clubs for his side activities. The choices given, recreative club, geology, silat cekak malaysia, silat cekak hanafi, silat gayung, taekwondo, karate do and etc. he said he want to be low profile there. I told him to chill because there were nobody wants to force him to riadah and he can melendir like old times.

KO tau, abg aku dulu kene paksa kot main tenis. Fuck wey.

Then, are there any opt left? He said if there was a nightlife club, he will tick there. Lol.

I went back at 4. Have a good sleep and then woke up at 8 in the morning. A bright new day. ngee~

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

This song really portrays me man. It surely do and I am really burst into tears man because of this so fucking sad song man. The main problem is i kept playing this song over and over again non-stop. I got this song from a film of superbad. This song was sang by Evan in the movie. This movie was so fucking funny man and I will guarantee u will not regret it ah.

So, guys open your youtube and listen to this song.

Just now, i browsed to every blogs and posts in the sesat mane tah webs. So i was attracted to one of the question by this website. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE FILM AND WHY? I suddenly rembered that i once answered this question from sime darby quiz. So now im pasting my essay here just for fun ah. LOL.

My favourite film is Forrest Gump because the movie really touched my feelings and it is one of the best movies in the century. It is an award winning movie. Even though the plot was very sad and sorrow, Tom Hanks who acted as Forrest Gump delivered a very profound and influencing character that made the movie watchable and very successful.The story started with Forrest Gump during his childhood days has had to endure a very difficult life because he is a handicapped person. He has been teased by his friends but he cannot do anything. His mother was poor but very responsible. She would do anything for his well being. Since she knew that she would not be around forever for her son, she could only advised him to run whenever there were troubles.This is exactly what he did on one faithful day when some of his friend tried to bully him. He ran and ran as fast as he could that the clutches that hold his legs broke until he could ran like a normal person. From that day onwards he became independent and free.Yeah, it was the award winning drama line and scene that every person that watched this film will get touched by it. It was the scene where Forrest's girlfriend said " Run, Forrest Run!". I burst into tears when i watched this scene and i realized it now that i was 4 years old when i watched that film.However, as fate would have it, his mother passed away. But before she died, she told him that “life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you are going to get.” This is the message that bound him together. This is the message that became his motto for the rest of his life.Forrest Gump went through various obstacles during his life. He joined the army and lost some of his best friends. Then after he venture in fishing business with a friend catching shrimps. He was so successful in his business that he became an idol to young and old. Also that from this movie you will found the Bubba Gump restaurants that sell seafoods everywhere.Forrest Gump eventually settled down in life marrying his childhood girlfriend. He had children and became old. At the end of the story he sat down on a bench by the roadside looking ahead wondering, what the world would be in the future and what life might offer to him in the future. At that point he remembered what his mother once told him, “life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you are going to get!”

So, tonite i got nothing to tell, but i really do enjoy belaian jiwa by innuendo. Its fucking lovely man. I remembered we were actually at sg buloh hiway from damansara at 2 a.m. We were heading to send keme back home ah. Then, Lot tune to 100.8 f.m. Shit man, we were acappelaing together with that song. Sweet. Then i got a sudden slap by keme. Shit it was so funny man. Cause that time i was so feel man with the song. Sumpah suare sesekor cam kumbang tanak hidup or siput babi. Eh camne suara siput babi tuh. I wonder ah. Hurmsss.....

Saturday, April 4, 2009

i dont fucking understand this word actually. Can someone define me the meaning?

What i do understand is the wether the meaning should be kow sat or how are you (nigga style)? or how gee or how is that?

Fack, suddenly i remembered, what had happened kelmarin where i got jalan2 around hospital pusrawi alone around 8.30 p.m.

It was again a dull night after all, to say it gloomy, i have to consider it twice. Yeah sure can it is hospitals rite, where all people got sick places. So, mum told me that time to take a stroll. I think mum got a point there. I always lie down on the bed without moving and my blood got lazy to circulate around. Lazyass. So, i went to a bench near lift. 'the place i usually hangout. (Zack tahulah). I got a blur strike. It is just sudden. At that moment I was staring at this auntie. She looks like Mona Fandey. Maybe i watch too much of keliwon. LOL. Yeah and i kept staring at her. Until she got off the lift. Without a single feeling, i entered the lift too. Pukimuch scary liao. Then i arrived at ground floor and got nothing to do. I got many duit but kedai was tutup for solat. Gile bagus kedai. Then i remembered duit gaji dah masuk. Hoorah. I am damn happy and i dont know why. I went to ATM la. Check my savings. Gosh i was sad looking at the amount. Even though i worked there just for fun but i am shocked too see the amounts.

But then, i actually feel that i dont really mind.Cause still can buy what.Rite?. So yeah, then i went to kedai. The kedai reopen. I bought air yogurt sumpah ngidam cam bapuks. Bought rotis and chocies cadbury yg maman slalu beli then balik.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Im indeed in hurts. By my sickness and my heart. I think what i am going through at the moment really gonna change my life forever. I type here like a sissy. A total bum. Oyeah, when it comes to cowardness, international sissyness and lame-o, Kamal Lazi is a master.

Right now, im typing using my only right hand. It is freaking hurts. The left one. But i still want to continue my typing here because i realised that my blog hasnt been updated fer quite a time. So, without feeling ashame of myself i continue typing here again and ahgain. Oh, you want to know why my left hand is hurt? I guess you are not interested to know. Anyway, i am still going to tell you.

Okay, first of all, i was been attacked by dengue fever and was admitted at Pusrawi Jalan Tun Razak. For those people who did not know where i went for the past 2 weeks. I think this explanation will make you understand. I dont need any of your symphatyness because at the moment i am okay and recovering. Yeah, im at home already. Ive been admitted for a week and going out today. Oyeah. So, I really missed a lot of activities that happened. But, never mind though i got my own time for rest.

So, ive been thinking during my sick period at hospital, meditating, what i think ive been doing at that time. I was asking myself,

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

Its all started with that word. Why the dengue? why is the problem? why is that? why is.....?

Haishh, so many questions that i am lazy to type it here. After a few days of thinking, eating ubats, gallons of I'V water flow from my hand tomy body, not to forget the many times ive been injected and taken blood, i know whats going wrong with me.

God is great.

Thats answered all my Q's. The thing that i knew is that ive been tested by god with his challenges and tests to make me realize what ive been doing all wrong. He is indeed The most merciful. As you can see, i had been given an oppurtunity to claim all my wrongdoings and I will make the best of it.

Insyallah. Now i would like to say millions of thankyous to 2 person who had visiting me Lot and Zack during my time at the wad. Eventhough it is just a visit but i am very grateful because at the that time i am really in need of companions and friends. A gazillion of thank yous maybe would not be enough.

Lotfi, you are like a brother to me. Whenever i am in hardships you are always there. Eventhough, I know and you know that we are both sengal tahap cipan that would make us perfect each other. I hope to be there whenever you are in need dude. And no worries, ill always pray for your success in life and future careers.

Zack, hey thanks for the doas, i think your doas had alreaady been heard by Allah and already been answered. So thanks anyway for the doas during your umrah. Not to forget, ketayap, sejadah. kurma and air zam2 liao. Tankyous very muach.

OKay, now im feeling better and i dont know why. My left hand still hurts and full of bruises. Macam cacat tahu. SHITMAN.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Today I suddenly remembered that this month is March. Yeah. I thought im still in February. Haish. So, well. Many memories that i remembered during March. Ouh Yeah. The Painful ones. I dont like it thou but when i recall it back, I just smile. It sweet dude.

Let me show you one.

Haha. Yeah the F1 in schools World Championship.I like this picture so much because I stand behind this one hot chic from Wales I think.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Yeah, rite now i am typing again to waste my stupid time here like other bloggers. Yeah lame bloggers whom write their feelings, opinions, ideas and etc. My job here is not the same like others. I am writing here to make you laugh. Ouh Yeah, make you my brothers and sisters, laughing your ass off. Pardon me if what i type here did not make you all laugh. Maybe you have a dry sense of humor. Yeah, probably.

I'm here to share with you my experience of fishing. Yeah, for your information, fishing is a sport. Again, i rephrase, its a sport. Please believe me, it is a motherfathing sport. LMAO. I dont know who the jerk that put fishing into this category. Maybe that jerk has a 9.7/10 stupidity and he even beats lotfi's record of 9.58 for hitting other car side mirror by his CLK(cute little kancil) and darwin 9.569 for creating the evolution theory. Mine is i dont know. You tell me later. So, okay fishing is a sport, same goes with golf. Ouh yeah golf. LMAO. Again man, who the dude that categorized this thingy. WTF

Last week, i think so, i went fishing. Me, my little brother and my greatsupercool-daddy with his buddy. His name was Ujang. I think hes a JAWA. I suddenly recall what Lotfi had told me earlier this evening about Jawa people. They were actually not Mat Indon or what we called PATI(pendatangasingtanpaizin). These people had lived in Malaysia for a long time and the causation why they still have the slang, It is because they lived in one clic. Which usually, the areas that you are very familliar like Batu Pahat, Muar, Klang, and etc. LOL, I just went to petpets house at Klang. I can see alotsa dragonfruit farm there. Then i went weird lah. The second foolest dude on earth just told me that mat jawa really fond to dragonfruit and i believe in him and you dont ask me why.LOL.

Okay, i am way too crappy. So yeah, i went fishing. It was really fun. You know. Okay2, let me share with you something. It is not easy to catch a fish. You need to prepare a good bait, a nice hooks, and a fengshui rods. Oyeah, for your information, fishes got their own taste too. Eg; patin likes gardenia bread, ikan keli likes cengkerik, haruan likes katak puru. I just list some examples there. So, if any dudes out there want to try fishing. Go to hell. You don't even want to. It is so damn difficult. Theres a chinese saying goes, To win a war, u must know your enemy fers.(This one is the fake ones. Try find out yourself, i forgot la the actual words and phrase.) LOL.

While my father and his dude Ujang were discussing about the baits, I am in a state of mundane mood. Doing nothing. So i set my own rods lah. I went fishing first using my own rods. While my brother, i dunno where he went.

This picture is sofucking cute. lol.

So, generally fishing is tiring and wasting time. Why im telling you this, it is because im sitting there for 4 hours and did not get a single fish. What i got was a pain in the neck, backache, and hungriness. For your information, you actually did not notice that it was 4 hours passed you. It is like the same feeling waiting for KTM. LOL.

Results:

My brother : One Tilapia

My bro catch.

Pity small tilapia.

Me: NONE

FUCKfuckFUCK.

FATHERandUJANG:

They were fighting getting the most fishes. I forgot the total. It is just uncountable.LOL. For them was a fishing fiesta.

See, they even got their fishes lined up. And u can see there the biggest ikan keli there is bigger than the 100 plus 1500 ml bottle. Huge doods.iN CONCLUSION: dO TRY FISHING, BUT MAKE SURE U HAVE THE TALENTS. SEE EVERY SPORTS NEED TALENTS. IF YOU DONT HAVE ONE GET LOST.