Amber Portwood: Leah Needs More

Teen Mom star Amber Portwood opens up about her choice to go to prison over a court-mandated rehab program. “I thought I was gonna die,” Amber tells Dr. Drew Pinsky on the upcoming MTV special Amber Behind Bars.

The new issue of In Touch has the first look at her emotional interview, which airs on October 9 at 10 p.m.

After battling her drug addictions and anger management issues for four seasons of Teen Mom, Amber, 22, opted out of court-ordered rehab and began serving a five-year sentence in June. Why? “I wasn’t getting anything out of treatment,” she shares. “I was still doing drugs.”

The troubled mom to Leah, 4, admits that her daughter “needs more. I just know that I can be better than I was.”

“I was very selfish and all I wanted was to find drugs so I didn’t have to withdrawal and I didn’t care about who was in my way,” Amber confesses. Now that she’s finally getting the help that she needs, Amber hopes for a brighter future. “I’ll actually be there for [Leah] this time and I’ll be that mom that she wants.”

For more information about Amber’s experiences in jail and status with Leah’s father, Gary Shirley, tune into Amber Behind Bars: An MTV Special on October 9 at 10 p.m.