Err On the Side of Whiteness

Monday, September 18, 2017

That man staring at meIt could have been youHolding his wife's handAs the light filters throughIt was a little too hot that dayOne with a fire in the EastThe clouds both ominous and beautifulWhispering wishes and dreamsHe turned to look backRight when I tucked my keyInto my braWould have been nice to have it beenYou insteadIt was a day of lustful looksDidn't think I had it comingThought those days had long passedBut with the hot weatherAnd the sleeveless dressesOr maybe it was a scent I gave offMaybe we're not so differentFrom animals after allA mosquito bit meAnd I almost welcomed the painI hadn't been bitten in so longMy thoughts dissolve to you The way you looked at me to checkand see if you were making senseThe way you got a little too closeLike you were tryingto share the air I breatheMy fingers grip the woodI feel all the pieces that together make oneI lean in and take in the smoothness of waterThe flowers, and color of the brush The way the birds don't careBecause I'm just hereI lean a little too hardHips on wood to steady I'm so dizzy with love that I canBarely stand up

Sunday, August 7, 2016

The June bug drunkFliesMaybe because it isAugustLike a glitchOut of time andPlaceHe roams among the BushesThe lavender fields in myMindGracious to the sunShiningBright behind the cloudsIt will emergeEventually

Saturday, July 30, 2016

The minute you got upand shook my handI saw youas a gentlemanA gentle manThere was a greeningin your eyesA picture like a film projectedtelling me of faraway placesAnd things you'd seenand doneThere was somethingold fashionedin everything you didin every move you madein every word you saidI imagine thatyou'd be the oneto tell mehow it should beand I would actuallylistenI cannot even go thereto think aboutwhat sweat and hardwork doto the taste of your lipsIt's too early for thatThere's too muchmystery that still needs to existfor me to love you

The orange cast of the sunput out the fire fromwhen we were oneI sit and stare at my tearich from the time whenyou were with meThe cold table topdidn't feel so coldwhen your handunthinking reached outin the morning light to catch my pinkieand sayYou are mine alwaysI sip and turn thepageunaware of how preciousthis time wasThe pressure of yourtouchThat was mine, too

Saturday, June 4, 2016

That sound
It was my heart
Floating in your hand
Unaware as you are that
You have it
We wander around
Fencing with our glances
That look you give
Swims like an ocean's haze
In front of me
When I'm driving on the freeway
And birds like angels
of the souls departed
fly above
I know that I'm fine driving
In this new place
I know I'm fine taking
In your gaze
For playing a game
Was the last thing I intended
I want to walk to your doorstep
And come on inside
Take off the weight of a lifetime
As I did
Sliding against the wall
Cold paint to hot flesh
I fall to my knees
And crawl to where you sit
To compare your hands with mine
Yours are so much bigger

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

When I lost my innocence it was like riding a wave like pinpoint stops on a traineach image flashes through my mind something there language disappearing hearing that he didn't have Autism hearing that he did seeing a checklist finding out about biomedical sitting in a room with a 1,000 other parents at a DAN conference meeting Jenny McCarthy who was just another parent doing what we thought was best sharing our story one by one looking into someone's eyes and they never said I was crazy or an Anti-Vaxxer that came later with #SB277 never knew about media manipulation until the indignities of being ignored took over meeting more parents many who had learned from our mistakes trusting losing Congressman Posey certainly somethingnothing #Vaxxed it was hard to hope for something different then Robert De Niro spoke the moment I showed up at Paramount for a screening angels were directing traffic and I felt like we were surfing a long powerful wave I had hope as more and more of us stood up my review is see it see if you can explain why our Congress hasn't moved on this why our doctors don't know why see if you can explain everything you've been told if there is anything other than greed and evil on a massive scale that affects us all Vaxxed see where it takes you call in the power of possibility endless magic and waves of the ocean