Saturday, November 01, 2008

Desperate Dreams

As a student who has finished herhigh school from nearly three months or more, I was thinking what college I'm going to join?- I had made up my mind since childhood but that thinking was just for averment - . here in Mosul there is one governmental university that called : University of Mosul, and other non-governmental universities.

Here as opposite of nearlythe whole world, the governmental schools are better than non- governmental school. It has text books that used in the US, in England and even in Canada.

In fact, that was not the only thing . there are too many colleges are ignored here and are not taking the proper care like: the Engineering, Biology, Chemistry, and even Medicine and Pharmacy; When the Engineering is the most requested career in other countries like Malaysia which is one of the countries that Iraqis go to for getting jobs or escaping from the actual situation. Doctors were threatened here , the best doctors of the world ever have left Iraq to find peace and to work for other countries while Iraq is the most deserved country that they must serve.

I heard oftoo many doctors and Iraqi scientists whohad to leave Iraq for NO REASON atall and have to suffer the pain of being away from their homes. They are treasure… people!!! In other countries that they leftto ,United ArabEmirates(UAE) forexample,they are at the head of their career and no one can deny their competence.

Why dothey have to leave Iraq ??!!!

I had a problem of sleeping last night , I couldn't sleep well.. and I have this problem since I finished my High school.. IMAGINE!! And I have a feed problem , my weight now is 46.9 Kg that means lighter than a bag of wheat hahaha. I measured my blood pressure today and it is 12.8/ 6.5, it's so better than yesterday… it was 9.8/ 6.5.

Hopefully I'll get over these problems when I start my college.

Actually I was thinking of my future and I was feeling so depressed .. please tellme something that will give myhope back… I usually get to be in this situation.. the psychologists – in fact – Irefer it to the routine… oh till whenshould I afford this tragedy??

I know this post is the contrary of the last post of mine .. please forgive me my friends .. people get to be depressed sometimes.. and this time I just can't hide it anymore!!

I'll go tomorrow to join college . and I hope this is a brand new step of my life that will be the doorway to a brighterfuture..

I wait for the next opportunity that makes me here again.. till that timeall I can say: please pray for me and wish me a good luck.