The lady I talked to was fine. I don't entirely know how to feel about it yet, mostly because I have to actually meet the therapist they pair me up with.

What was interesting was how protective Graham was the entire time. He was basically freaking the fuck out the entire time. He scared the secretary, because when the screening went longer than expected, he wanted to check up on me. I was beginning to worry that he would come off like he was too pushy/possibly abusive and I panicked and called him a helicopter parent in front of everyone. It just got frustrating when he was checking up one me so much and the lady was asking me if I would describe the relationship as healthy and just... gahhhh. He is lovely and wonderful, I'm sorry the secretary is trying to tell him to take deep, calming breaths D:

So we'll have to see how that goes. I think the real test is going to be if I can find a therapist I feel comfortable with. I'm really bad at talking about my issues without analyzing them and feeling that they are invalid in some way. So I guess I'm going to have to work on that. Because I know I need help, but as soon as I speak to someone about it, I feel like it's not worthy of attention. And that's... not really good.

Although, Graham was a total doll the entire day. He got me ice cream afterwards and cuddled me and watched sad anime with me and made me lunch and all that good stuff. I was just so tired afterwards. Once again, we'll see how this goes.

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I don't know if anyone even checks this anymore. But I guess I'll update this, because it is pretty momentous.I'm going to try and go to therapy again. Graham helped me set everything up. So we'll see how it goes.Also, this whole format is really weird and I don't know what to make of it. I just wanted to see if anyone else was there.

And if you are there, we should keep in touch, because I most likely miss you. Tumblr works. I'm gandalfexmachina on there. I also have an AO3 now and I'm actively writing fic, which is cool! My username is donnienope. I write Avengers and Tiger & Bunny fic. That's an anime I really like.

I'm also getting into cosplay. So I'm working on my Kyouko one from Puella Magi Madoka Magica. I'm going to AnimeNEXT this June, whcih is exciting.

I'm still with Graham, which I guess was implied by the first part of this post. I don't really know how I've pulled it off, but I did it.

Also, I don't go by Donna anymore. I go by Donnie. I'm pretty out as genderqueer. So if you contact me, please call me that? It'd be great. I use they pronouns, too.

I hope you are doing well, anyone that reads this. I hope that I will be able to talk to you soon.

Let's have some fun (this beat is sick...) and have an anon post! Got anything to say to me? Got anything to vent about somebody else? Want to announce that you are one of the many people on my f-list that decided to be creepy creepers who creep and Googled my teacher? Want to just write porn? Here is the place :) Go crazy!

For some reason, even though I was too little to comprehend what happened, I remember the Oklahoma City Bombing. I was still really little-maybe three or four?-and I remember playing in the room while my mom left CNN on. I remember the shots of the building in complete shambles and the closeup of a part of a coloring book from the daycare part of the building that was destroyed. I couldn't really comprehend what happened. I think I asked my mom what happened and all she said was that the building fell over. It made me a little nervous of big buildings, but it wasn't until I was much older did I understand how it fell apart and how many people were affected by it.

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Basically, it was a perfect night. I wish I could live in that moment forever. For now, I'll just smile and know that I witnessed something that will probably never happen again. And I'll always be grateful for the friends and musicians that were a part of it.

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I had a really intense crush on a girl when I was in, like. Tenth grade. I was a mess, but the crush was sincere. She lived in England and we would coordinate times to talk to each other. She helped me a lot when I was navigating through my first relationship and I thought that she was really pretty, even code naming her as "LJ Crush" when referring to her to my few friends that know of my internet life. I even confessed my feelings and we just admitted that it wasn't going to happen. She lived way too far away for it to be possible. That and she was about twenty at the time, and I was sixteen/seventeen. So our friendship continued and eventually my crush faded.

The only regret that I really have about the whole thing is that we've lost touch. I want to talk to her again. I miss her. I think I'll contact her sometime.

I currently live with an unfortunate roommate. We're incompatible, because, well. She's this super Christian girl that still likes to have a lot of premarital sex, and I'm a lowly lesbian. I've been sexiled a bit, she's sent me nasty letters, and has used my room as a crashpad for her friend that commutes.

I'm resolving my conflicts by organizing a dance party in my room the next time she tries to kick me out :)