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I purchased these new crystals so I was excited to work with them. One of them was a Tibetan Quartz crystal which helps in accessing and remembering past lives.

So I gear up to meditate, I use the Divine Codes for accessing past lives and healing them, and the second I close my eyes, BAM! I feel this big energy vortex.

I wasn’t feeling too hot to begin with because I called in sick at work — major downloads give me the flu — and I couldn’t stay sitting up. I had to lay down. And what came to me were images, sort of like a montage. I was slipping in and out of consciousness though until I finally fell asleep, but the images I remember (while conscious) were strange.

I think I was Mary Magdalene in my past life. Either that, or I was her BFF and saw the events happening around her. In any case, it felt like “her”. It started with a vision of me kneeling by the river. I was wearing a white shroud. Next, I could feel the pain of being stoned. Next shot, I was in Christ’s tomb — as in entering and discovering his body wasn’t there.

At that point, slipping in and out of consciousness again, then this time, visions of aliens peering at me, as if I was in a sick bed and doctor’s (aliens though) examining me. One of them spoke and it came across as English and they were explaining that that was why I was made to forget, to have very little memories.

Anyway, this is so bizarre I’m ready to file it under “delusion”. But I shall seek for answers again. Maybe I’m just associating her with my harlot past and now having been “cleansed”.

In the meantime, there are the aliens and the very few memories that they’ve left me with.

I didn’t bother to go to work today and heeded the guidance that emanated from my own reading.

I felt I had to be in nature so since I live near an Ecopark, the dogs and I headed there for a brief date with nature. It’s a good thing that the weather these days is pretty cool and not altogether all that humid. Perfect!

There’s a sort of natural outdoor ampitheatre there. Kind of like a mini Banawe Rice Terraces and I picked one empty rung to lay out my yoga mat on. Here’s the thing though — I didn’t know that I layed it out on some ant-filled place. There were lots of red ants about a centimeter long that were scurrying about. What surprised me was that while I was meditating, even though they were crawling all over the mat, not a single one bit me! They wouldn’t even go near me. It’s like I had a four-inch protective barrier or something surrounding me.

At the time that I was doing it, I didn’t know I had created a Crystal Grid. I just felt that I had to place my rose quartz crystals in a pattern around me and hold the Rose Quartz infused in Holy Fire in my hand and my Clear Quartz in the other.

During my meditation, my Twin joined me, and I could see the other Twin Flames (energies) at different points in the globe, all giving off this brilliant white light and I could see Gaia emanating a deep pink glow. We were all connected and yet, each one was holding and anchoring the energies at their given geographical points.

Then I saw white crystalline energy which various colors of purple, green and blues flowing in a column from above me and my twin and running through us. I couldn’t quite place the energy, but a prompting inside made me think — Unicorn! and when that thought entered my head, my heart was filled with love and joy at the recognition. My twin and I were being blessed with Unicorn Energy! I’ll tell you later what that energy is about as I had to find out myself.

Once the energy was flowing through our etheric bodies, I grounded it. My twin and I grounded the energy into the Earth. Our roots extended to the very core and from tree-like roots, I could see it transform into roots infused with Unicorn energy. And the planet slowly lit up.

It was close to high noon when I ended my meditation as I wanted to be in a state of meditation when 11:11 struck. After that, I was parched and we left soon after.

So… what is this Unicorn Energy?

(Synchronicity News: I was watching a movie while typing this — but not really paying attention to it. I do that because I have ADHD and it helps me focus to have something in the background playing — and I was surprised when the main character who was telling an anecdote mentions UNICORN three times! hahah)

Unicorns are seventh dimensional beings, ascended horses. They are of the angelic realms and part of the web of light, which serves our planet. In Golden Atlantis they were constantly present and visible to the people. Since the fall, however, they have been considered mythical creatures, a figment of the imagination.

Unicorns are etheric creatures, magnificent white horses, whose third eyes radiate light, in the same way as an angel’s wings are the visible light from their hearts.

They represent purity, aspiration and idealism and are here to teach you qualities of honour, self worth and dignity. Most of all they trigger your innocence, your original divine essence to help you attain the blueprint of who you truly are. Karma melts away in their presence.

Unicorns are bringing back hope and reawakening our psychic gifts. They can heal by reconnecting people to their spirit.

When a unicorn directs the light from its horn into your third eye it starts to open you to enlightenment. Each time you think about or talk about a unicorn, it wakens an energy within you that aligns you to higher frequencies.

After doing a lot of work on my website, my facebook page and getting all my marketing materials ready, I am faced with the reality that my 8 year old laptop cannot handle video rendering which is a major bump in the road in getting my mission launched.

I have a workaround which I will know about this coming Monday. I’ve done several looksies at what’s available, but I don’t really want to spend money that I’ve allotted for something else.

It’s disappointing in a way, but I’m going to ask the Universe to provide. So many things I want to do — get married to my twin, travel, be successful in my mission, and lots of many other things. I just wish roads would open to be able to do them all. My ultimate dream? To be married to my twin and live more than comfortably, not having to work but doing it for the joy it brings (vis a vis doing it for the money), working on my mission with my twin beside me, having things work smoothly – you know, the type wherein if you need a new computer, a new phone, etc., etc., it’s right there for the taking because you have the means to acquire it.

And those are only the practical issues that I have.

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The next day…

The original title of this post was just “Hmmm” and I hesitated publishing it because it seemed sort of depressing, just bumps and humps and me whining about it. But after today… my Twin saved the day for me and that humdrum title turned into a “Hmmm and Hah!” Oh, happy, happy, joy, joy!

You know what he did? He found me a Gaming Laptop with great specs for video rendering at a price that was very reasonable!

And how do I know that it was from him? Well, I was looking for certain specs when looking for laptops, and this seller that had the best value for money that I was interested in included several software with it — and they were all architectural design software! (My twin is a multi-awarded globally well renowned architect) Not only that, when I finally got my head out of the specs and looked at the design of the unit itself, I noticed the brand’s logo — the brand was Fujitsu — and the seller had posted the picture at an angle where how I saw the logo was the Infinity Symbol!

After that I had no qualms that this was definitely another “gift” from my twin… which I had to pay for, lol. But no matter, I was very grateful! I’m pretty sure that it’s only a matter of time when he’ll be showering me with gifts for real soon.

He had another gift too. I was looking for a mobile wifi device for the office since our firewall was practically impenetrable even by the Tor Network, but I didn’t want to spend too much on it (especially since I’d be buying a laptop). Anyway, I found something second hand, only one month used at a third of the price I’d pay for retail! Whoopdeedoo! I am loving my twin so much at the moment.

Actually, while I was meditating earlier, I asked if we (my twin and I) could already access the 5th to the 9th Dimensions. I did get into a deep state, the visuals were hazy though. But at some point in time, I heard a distinct male voice say something to me. I got startled though so I couldn’t make out what he said which kind of bums me out because I’m pretty sure it was a message.

I saw a brilliant flash of blue light today out of nowhere. Kind of like this but with the brighter more cobalt blue and a bigger radius.

I was in the office, my computer monitor wasn’t turned on yet and there was just ambient overhead lighting. So it wasn’t, you know, residual vision from looking at something else. Apparently, it might have been an “angel light” (Check out this link).

That’s the way Spirit usually works with me. It shows me something either in my mind’s eye or even in real life. I usually don’t know what it means and try to figure it out and then the answer appears. Kind of like a scavenger hunt which I like since I’m into researching and all that. So I just want to say that Spirit usually sends messages in a form/way that you would most likely receive and understand them.

A few moments later, I realize what this was. I sent a message to my “no-contact” twin yesterday telling him that I loved him after all this time. The whole time since then, I have been asking my guides for signs or confirmation that I did the right thing. And now this! But I’ve been asking myself, why Archangel Michael? And then I remembered that I do the AA Michael Attunement regularly where he puts his seal on the throat chakra — the center of communication. I actually got my answer!

Earlier in the day, I watched a movie alone and got to wondering if I’m going to be watching movies alone, sans my twin, for the rest of my life. Questions like “is this going to be just in 5D?” were running through my head, not in a depressing way but more like, okay, if 5Ds all it’s going to be, then half-glass full thinking still, 5D is great anyway. And I resolved to “talk” with my twin in 5D as soon as I got home.

Anyway, after regaling my angel lights experience to my TF groups, I went on to meditate, as planned. It was different. My twin was telling me to basically shut up and just listen. So I did. He told me he loved me and then asked me if I would allow him to love me. Then I felt like I was drowning. I felt weak and woozy and actually had to lay down from lotus position because I felt I couldn’t breathe. My heart chakra was doing its work and I felt a bit of sharpness there. And that’s when I realized that for the first half of this journey, I was actually the runner and that I still had issues being the recipient of love — control issues. Giving love wasn’t an issue with me. I ultimately had control over whether or not to give it, but I do have an issue with other people giving me love/stuff/money because I get anxious about what they’ll want back for it and if I’ll be able to give it. That’s why my twin was posing this question to me.

And because I rarely shut up even when told to, I still kept asking if this was all going to be just in 5D, yadayadayada.

When I got out of meditation, I check my phone and the first post I see is this:

Paperclip? What the heck, right? What message could there be in a paperclip laying on the ground?

But it was a message for me. And the other twin flame who posted it was the medium/messenger. It was because of a paperclip that I had an epiphany that my twin loved me. I was very playful then and I was ready to dismiss him as just one of those men in my “harem”. That is, until the “paperclip incident”. I think I’ve written about it before, so I won’t repeat that story.

Point is, my twin was sending me a message. He loves me. I’d better get used to it. The issues that resurfaced during meditation though gives me pause. That drowning feeling. I know I love him, but will I let him love me?

I had many questions for Agatha — Psychic Consultants on YouTube — and I’m going to write them down here:

ME: “I watch your YouTube videos and your Vimeos. Some of the more salient points you make are: ‘it doesn’t matter whom you love, as long as you love’ and ‘it doesn’t matter whether you’re together or you’re apart because the point is self-realization’. So are you saying that physical union is close to impossible? (I won’t say impossible because everything is possible). Or that if we choose to unconditionally love our twin and stay faithful to that love, that we should resign ourselves to the fact that it may not manifest and still be happy with that outcome (i.e. that we are without a partner)? But wouldn’t someone who finds themselves without a partner still have to “make do/make happy by themselves” even without going on this twin flame journey anyway? What choice do they have unless they want to wallow in sadness and misery? It’s just that this TF thing is starting to seem like a support group for those unrequited in love.

AGATHA (Reply): “Only if you assume that being happy regardless of being together or apart results in being apart! What if the opposite was true?? Everything I post is about people realising union and harmony in every possible form. I don’t believe the point is self-realisation at all… I believe the point is JOY. And living a life of total freedom and not needing circumstances to be anything in order to feel that joy. When we love regardless, when we let the energy and power of love flow through us, we don’t really care who or what is around, no, or whether we are in ‘union’ or not, alone or not. But that doesn’t mean surrendering to a life of unhappiness and not being in union or being alone! We get happy FIRST. We be in love FIRST. Then we get what we are destined for. Which is always our highest vision for ourselves. It just works that way. Well in my understanding of this work that I do simply because it is happening. I just share it how it moves through me. And I fully believe and experience that these concepts, when applied, have very positive, practical implications.”

ME (Rejoinder): If you review your video, you did say that the point was self-realization, however, I do believe in the points you raised about living a life of joy. But my question was geared towards reconciling both salient points you’ve made which brings me to “it doesn’t matter whom you love, as long as you love”. I think it would be safe to assume that most of your subscribers, even other readers here on YouTube, that are on a TF journey are seeking for union with their twin in 3D and not only in 5D. And that we’re doing the work (inner purging, healing, et al.) because we want union with our twin, not some karmic partner or person from the same soul group. Because, as I’ve mentioned, if the point was “love the one you’re with (regardless whether TF or not)”, why go on the TF journey anyway? And since in the course of connecting with your true authentic self, you figure out who the other half of your soul is which truth you CANNOT UNKNOW or deny if you still want to stay in your authentic self, then wouldn’t it be more honest to frame the TF journey as one wherein one “seeks an energetic union with your twin (in 5D) to generate tremendous amounts of love to give to others who are NOT your twin (in 3D)?” What bothers me is the fact that physical union is being dangled like a carrot on a stick when the bottomline is “once you get to this point of knowing and accepting the terms of your TF soul contract, you will also have learned to access so much love that you must necessarily spread it to others as part of your mission, regardless of the fact that you will be alone”. If the be all and end all is learning to redirect our love for our twin onto something/someone else, then why not come out with that from the beginning instead of getting up hopes for physical union with a twin?

Well, that’s where the conversation ends for now. Still waiting if a reply is forthcoming.

Anyway, do you get my question?

I meditated for some answers. First, I did a chakra clearing with the Soul Star. And, surprisingly, much clearing didn’t have to be done for my third eye, throat, heart, and the yellow chakra. My orange chakra was the one that was blocked. I felt it was the seat of fear and worries and it was gathering there, blocking the flow of energy, and it took some time to clear. I even had to call in the Violet Flame to assist the clearing. My base chakra was fine. Yes, glowing red light full of passion, haha.

After that, I was taken to the Akashic Records, it was like a big hall, a big library but without a roof. The books seemed color coded but there were some books that were gold. (All the books were edged in gold though). Our “host” was an old man but not really a man, not an alien, but he was different. He didn’t speak, but just opened one gold book to some pages. The pages had a slight glow to them. The writing on it was glyphs, but I understood it. There was a mark saying that it was amended to allow union for me and M in 3D, in this lifetime.

My twin was beside me the whole time and I was showing it to him. Next, we were taken to a pool, like in a resort. Something like an infinity pool with the most azure blues. And this is where it gets strange because that same scene was cutting back and forth into its 5D and 3D version. The 5D had a backdrop of stars, glowing violet trees, while the 3D version was well — 3D, your usual resort. I had to immerse myself in the pool. It was just what I had to do. Just me, not my twin.

After that, we returned to the Great Hall (that’s what I’ll call it again) but we didn’t linger there. We found ourselves in the void, and that’s when Quan Yin, the Great Mother of Mercy and Compassion, appeared to us/me. She gave comfort, told me how she knew of my suffering, and assured me of union. Then she blessed me with a gift — it was a gem, like a red ruby that fit in the palm of my hand. I didn’t know what it signified and when I asked, I was told that I’ll know what it is for when the time comes. I was motioning to share it with my twin who was beside me, but Quan Yin told me that he had his own too. And that’s when she showed me his. His wasn’t a ruby. It was the same cut and shape, but his was more of like an ice blue diamond, and he emanated the same light of the gem throughout his light body. We were told that we were to work with both.

So I imagined connecting my and my gem to him and his through the infinity symbol running through our hearts, connecting us. We were glowing with a pink light and on the outer was yellow light. Similar to the yellow/orange ray that accompanied Quan Yin’s departure. I thanked her for the message and decided to do a reading since I didn’t quite understand what the gem was for or her instructions. (I know, I know, this starseed needs quite a lot of clarification)

I won’t delve into the details of the reading, but to my surprise, the cards I picked confirmed my encounter with Quan Yin. My significator was the Page of Cups. After that came Judgment, and after that came Alchemy. Now, the Alchemy card in my deck (I use the Wizard’s Tarot deck) is depicted by a scientist (or maybe he’s a wizard, I’m not sure), mixing two elements into one bottle — and get this — the elements he was mixing were the same color as the gems we had just received! Not only that, but the final card of the spread was the Lovers. And in my deck, it is pictured by two people facing each other, writing on a desk, and overseeing them is this beautiful lady with golden hair and dressed in a flowing white dressed, holding an red apple by her chest.

Whoaaaaaaa. And it was the same position/posture of Quan Yin prior to handing me the gem.

So I looked up what the gems meant. For the ruby gem, this is what I got:

The color of a healthy awakened heart chakra ranges from a soft pink to a deep ruby red. Ruby is the stone of Lady Master Nada, who is a member of the Karmic Board and serves as the representative of the third ray (pink ray) of divine love. She is very much involved with the initiation and sponsorship of twin flames and the Aquarian age family.

As for my twin’s ice blue diamond gem, apparently it comes from Mother Mary (both Mother Mary and Quan Yin are different aspects of the Divine Feminine). This is what Mother Mary said about it in a channeling:

“The initial purpose of this gift of my essence was to begin to heal the wounds and illusions that had grown so dense upon Gaia; to begin to open and heal your hearts and expand your consciousness that you might begin to understand that you were caught in the mental and emotional illusions of humanity. I more deeply seeded humanity in order that the heart consciousness awakening, the Great Awakening, could truly begin. x x x It is what you call instantaneous combustion of healing because you cannot go forward in the fullness of who you are unless that healing has occurred.“

Again, I am awestruck. My twin is awake and is healed or is currently being healed at a fast rate. And my heart chakra has blossomed into a deeper love. Alternatively, ruby also supports life situations and it is a welcome gift because my 3D life is teetering on the brink of collapse. I’m just comforted knowing that the ascended masters know about it and are supporting me.