New here and needy

I've been reading this forum for some time.

I was diagnosed with hypomania about two years ago. Meds have helped, but not always. I had a real breakdown. The first time ever that I had thoughts of self-harm. I wound up spend 3 days in a center that was horrible.

Part of the problem was that I was drinking too much. I have been sober now for one week. I never, ever want to be in that situation again. This past week has been great. After detox, I have found a new energy, but I know at there will be challenging times ahead of me.

I don't do well in group therapy. Way too many shame issues to share in a group environment. But I think that an online support system is a better way for me to go.

I may not post often, but reading your posts give me comfort knowing that I am not alone with my demons.

13. You are most welcome here! *hugs* May I suggest that

one on one counseling might be more helpful? And while sharing here can also help, I know for my own part I haven't been able to really open up detail-wise because it's the wide-open internet. Our people are the best, but it's still visible to anyone out there so it's sort of held me back, at least on those shame issues.