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Well it has been a while since I’ve posted something… Today I have 30 days until my Leave starts… I’m kind of freaking out now since I’ve so close… I know a lot of people say I’m crazy for the way I want to have and raise my child, but I feel great in the way I want my child… And I’m tired of people tell me to wait for the baby to get here to know how it feels to be a parent… No duh I’ve been waiting nearly 10 months… I’m trying to get the basic and the important stuff out of the way so I can pursuit my goal I still haven’t figure out what I want to do… I know what I want to do takes some time and effort, but for Tamir and I to start our own businesses we have to breastfeed and use cloth diapers… We can send so much money to help us get our businesses off the ground and make a better future for our child(ren)… And I don’t want any drugs in my system that might harm my child… Even after reading some stuff about what they have been doing for years now I feel safer with a natural birth like women have been doing before they starting using drugs…

I didn’t help my mom out because I was to busy chasing a boy at the moment… I hate that I chose the boy over my mom and that is something I stopped doing… The man I’m with always tells me Family before Friends babe… Now that we are starting our own we understand the power of what family holds over you no matter if you like them or not… They are still your family and blood is thicker than water…

So I’m almost finished with my pregnancy and the baby will arrive sometime around November 12… I’m a little scared, but I’m ready for the baby to get here… I’ve been looking forward to meeting my child and so has it’s dad… I’m hoping for a little girl, which is what everyone thinks it is anyways… We have three boys already and just two girl we need another one to even out the playing field… I know my man wants a boy, but at this point I think he only wants a healthy baby… I excited to start breastfeeding when the baby does come… now the only thing I’m worried about is how long I will do it… Most women stop at least by the time the baby is six moths and others wait til their first year… They recommend to at least two… I really hope I can do i for as long as I can or until we get ready to have our second one… I really want to figure out what I want to do for a living so many things I can do, but I don’t know what I really want to do… I hope it comes to me pretty soon… Tamir has an idea of what he wants to do… I’m still kind of stuck… What can a feel truly happy doing and have the freedom I have with my family while helping provide for them… After I get the other fun out of the way I can completely pay attention to myself and my career… I hope I can figure out something so…

“I’m feeling overwhelm because of the people I work with and it makes me want to kill them all but instead I will take a deep breath and smile.”

I have problems managing my emotions while pregnant… I know I need to calm down on most things and just let life take it’s course, but I feel deep down inside I’m not moving fast enough… I’m starting my blog a couple of months before my baby is here so I can get uses to blogging again… I need some inspiration and now I have it… What a wonderful life I’ll have being a mom… If everything goes right I’ll be able to better myself in the process… I really do miss writing and I had nothing to write about til now… I’m starting Family… YAY

I like this question a lot… So the one experience that completely changed my life would be getting pregnant… I kind of new that one day Tamir would give me a child for the fact that he is the only man that I’ve had a serious off and on relationship with… Some may think it happen to soon, but the way you look at it is you opinion… I think it’s about time only because we have known each other for almost 10 years… Yeah I know that’s crazy right, but it’s true… I met him when I was 15 in high school and now we are having a baby… Our life is a little backwards, but hey I enjoy the challenge… Our next challenge is getting a place and well for me a car so we can get to and from with our new bundle of joy that we will have this winter…I can’t wait to be a mom and I hope one day I’ll be his wife… I think I like this backward life… It keeps you on your toes… I just want to live a life of no worries and exciting experience and I know I have the right person in my life that would enjoy this journey with me… We just need better commutation skills with each other better…He is the inspiration on this blog… I’m feel so much better writing again I just need to figure out how to fit it in after the baby is born… T/T/F/N Tah Tah For Now