ok - so for the past few weeks T has been very good - which means of course, enlightening, frightening, and exhausting. all of which seems to speed up the negative side-effects of recovery - panic, anxiety, etc. job is getting ready to either move their office or sell out - they still haven't been real clear, so kind of looking for work, but don't really want to need to start over AGAIN.

family life just builds - more and more responsibilities - seems my 16 year old (son) always knows when getting in trouble will cause the most stress, lol. then there's the REAL stress between my wife and I....

all this to say - my back is killing me. every day it's worse. at first I thougth maybe I just twisted and pulled a muscle. but the thought came to me today "how else should your back feel when you're carrying around ALL THAT BAGGAGE".

... so ... is there truth in this "physical manifestation of psychological trauma" stuff?

anybody else experience anything like this?

M

... come to think of it - it's gotten progressively worse since I signed up for the October WoR ...

I certainly can not speak for everyone...but when I started therapy, I also...it seemed like a coincidence at the time, later, not so much, started seeing my family doctor more often. He pulled out my chart, said, "You know, you've been in five times now this year. Whereas, before, I did not see you for years at a time."

So, I told him why. We talked about whether I was seeing a therapist. He asked me if I had any interest in meds. And, he also suggested a chiropractor. Suggesting that guys tend to carry their stress in their lower backs. Man, that was a lifesaver, I'll tell ya.

Yea, very true...my therapist is still amazed that I do it. I know what you are saying.

Well, hmmm?

My wife and I started doing massages, with no real knowledge, just the desire to increase intimacy. We agreed, beforehand, that it would not be sexual, just intimate. It is pretty cool. And, although not quite the same...it sure helped my back.

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