I will not turn this blog into a bitch session about Kirby or our relationship (although I am sure there will be plenty of complaints). I am not here to badmouth him or complain about how he "failed" our relationship (honestly, it takes two).

All in all, Kirby is a good father to Z and A. But he is just that: A Father. Dads just don't work the same way Moms do (right? I know you all agree - tell me all about it). He loves them, he cares for them but he isn't ME! A "me" has a little bit of an issue giving up control...

So, me, is going to spend a weekend away. Me is going to drink myself into oblivion if needed. Me is going to enjoy my time with my friends. Me is going to do my very bestest not to worry about the children...and if they had their baths...or went to sleep on time...or got vegetables with their dinner...or ate breakfast...I swear - I am not going to worry!

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I'm sure that letting go in that way has got to be one of the most difficult things in a separation. My best friend is going through a similar thing right now, and not having control over the kids safety, etc is killing her...dads love the kids, and I'm sure it's even good for all involved for the father to have to have sole responsibility sometimes, but yeah, tough on the moms b/c that is OUR LIFE.

Do me a favor so I don't have to worry about you drinking yourself into oblivion... Take a trip to the bookstore, find a good book, a fun magazine, something you can delve into and enjoy. Run a nice bath or just find a way to pamper yourself. Imagine this time as mini-vacation for yourself and know that your husband will be caring and loving with the kids. Take care and know there are friends out there. Let us know how it goes.

Hope you had a great weekend. I have to admit in the days that my ex got the kids, it was nice to play a game of scrabble with my husband and not be interrupted. lol boring I know.

I can't blame you for being worried though. When younger, both my girls would wander off. Once police dogs were even involved when my middle daughter walked off school grounds and was gone for a few hours. Thank goodness they never got hurt.

Thank you all for your support! It never ceases to amaze me how supportive people who know me only through my blog can be.

I will post some other time about my "weekend of me". As you can see (embee) I did not drink myself into oblivion, I am alive. I did, however, enjoy myself immensely with good friends and, yes, good drinks :) This will not be a regular event...but it was much appreciated this weekend!

About Me

I am a stay at home mom and massage therapist. I am the mother to two wonderful little men, have helped raise two stepchildren and now raise my granddaughter as well. My life is crazy, though it is not unique - many mothers live a life similar to mine. I work to keep my sanity, I stay home to keep my boy's sane