Wednesday, November 24, 2010

I hadn’t Skyped my kids in a while.The time difference and schedules make it hard to do.And then whenever I do Skype with them, I don’t ever want to end the call.And it makes me want to hurry up and get home.

Usually, Caden is a busy kid with lots of things to do.At 3, he’s got toys to tend to and colors to learn.So chatting with Mommy is fun but only for a short while.Except for today.Today’s Skype session has totally put me in a different place.It actually made me decide that I’m going to really make time to set aside whatever I’m doing and Skype with them much more often.Maybe twice a week, so I don’t interrupt their evenings too much.

Today, Sean laughed a big laugh when I made lots of kissy faces.And he kept saying “Mommy!” with so much enthusiasm that the word sounded more like a celebration.Friggin adorable!

Caden and I talked about … everything.He showed me flash cards and told me what shapes and colors were on the cards.He talked about his airplane.I got to show him the toys I’m sending them.Oh and I also showed him pictures of Charlie. And we danced, too. LOL And then the question came:

“Mommy, can you come and meet me?”

I told him that I’ll come home soon.And the interrogation started:“Mommy, can you get me?”“Can you come home from work?”“Mommy, are you going to get me?”It broke my heart seeing his little eyes looking sad.I told him that I have to work for a little while longer and that I’ll be home after Christmas.

And when it was time to go, he said, “No! I don’t wanna say bye bye.”“Mommy, I don’t wanna get off the phone with you.”His eyes filled up with tears and I saw his face turn red.His frown tugged at my heart.When my brother told him I had to go back to work but I’ll talk to him again, he really started to get worked up.

Ugh.I hate being away from them.And I hate that he has to ask me to come home from work.I hate that he was so sad when it was time to end the call.