HMMMM, DIDNT THINK IT WOULD BE ALLL THIS "WAHALA."
I'M JUST READY TO GO!
BUT FIRST... I NEED TO FIND A PROM DATE.
LIKE 2 WEEKS AGO THIS WAS NOT EVEN A BIG DEAL.
BUT NOW TINA HAS A DATE!
I WASNT GONNA TAKE ANYONE IN RESPECTS TO JANELLE, BUT SINCE TINA HAS SOMEONE ITS OHKAY.
NOWWWWW I GOTTA FIND SOMEONE.
I DONT HAVE MANY MALE FRIENDS ANYWAY.
ALL I WANT IS A PIC && TO MATCH WITH SOMEONE!!!
GOSH... UGHHHH.
MANY EONS AGO, ME && CODY MADE A PACT THAT IF WE DIDN'T HAVE PROM DATES WE'D TAKE EACH OTHER.
AHAHAHHA.
I MIGHT JUST HAVE TO CALL HIM UP!

Monday, March 29, 2010

Saturday, March 27, 2010

SO THEY [MY GUARDIANS] MADE UP THEIR MINDS.
I'M GOING TO UofH NEXT YEAR.
AS USUAL, I DONT WANT TO GO...
BUT THEY SEEM TO THINK THEY HAVE TO MAKE DECISIONS FOR ME, SO OF COURSE THEY WOULDNT LET ME GO FAR.
THEY ARE JUST DETERMINED TO MAKE MY LIFE HELL, WHILE SCREWING ME UP IN THE PROCESS.
BUT THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO.
I'M ON THE WAITINGLIST AT A&&M, BUT I WOULDNT HOLD MY BREATH ON THAT ONE. . .
MANNN, I HOPE I GET REALLL SCREWED UP, LIKE HONESTLY.
SO I CAN GO ON OPRAH, OR EVEN WORSE, STAND IN FRONT OF THE CONGREGATION && EXPLAIN THE CRUEL COLD HEARTED BEASTS THAT RAISED ME.&& THATS ON SOME REAL SHIT.
TODAY I THOUGHT ABOUT GOING INTO THE ARMY.
I HONESTLY THINK JOINING ANY ARMED FORCE IS GIVING YOUR LIFE AWAY, JUST STUPID.
BUT ITS A FREE EDUCATION && I'M PRETTY SURE I'LL BE FAR ENOUGH.
IF THATS THE ONLY WAY I CAN GET OUTTA THIS HOUSE && NOT BE A BUM, I'LL DO IT.
WE'LL SEE. . .

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

MAN, I AINT EVEN GONNA LIE...
I'M WEAK.
I SEE THEM && I PUT ON A NONCHALANT FRONT.
SMH, ME && MY DAMN FEELINGS.THEYYY ARE THE FUCKED UP, MESSED UP NIGGAS.
FOR SOME REASON THEY WERE ATTACHED TO ME, WELL IT STARTED OFF THAT WAY...
IN THE END I COULDNT HELP BUT REALIZE I FELT THE SAME.
NOW I FEEL LIKE A CRACK ADDICT GOING THROUGH WITHDRAWL...
AHAHAHA, OHKAY MAYBE NOT THAT MUCH, BUT SOMETHING SIMILAR.
I HATE TO ADMIT IT BUT FOR LIKE A WHILE THEY WERE KIND OF MY LIFE.
THE BOTH OF THEM...
MAN, HOW'D I LET THAT HAPPEN?!!
WHEN YOU TALK TO SOMEONE 24/7, LIKE LITERALLY ALL DAY EVERYDAY, && ONE DAY IT JUSTS STOPS...
LAST MONTH I USED OVER 8,OOO TEXTS.
&& I DIDNT EVEN GET MY PHONE BACK THE FIRST FEW DAYS.
ITS THE 6TH DAY OF MY NEW BILL && I ONLY USED 684.
SO SAD.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

SO I DIDNT GET TO GO TO YINKA'S PARTY YESTERDAY CAUSE A.J CAME TO GET ME TOO LATE...
I WAS DETERMINED TO DO SOMETHINGTHIS SPRING BREAK, CAUSE ITS HARD FOR ME TO GET OUTTA THIS DAMN HOUSE.
SO AJ SAYS HE'S GOING SHOPPING && TO CHILI'S TODAYYY...
&& YOU KNOW I COULDNT MISS A SHOPPING TRIP, SO I CALLED UP DAMI (MY PARTNER IN CRIME) && WE DEVISED A PLAN SO I COULD GO.
AS YOU CAN SEE THE PLAN WORKED.
I HAD TO LIE && SNEAK BUT I'M ALLL GOOD NOW.
I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE AT SCHOOL "VOLUNTEERING AT A DEBATE TOURNAMENT!!!!"
AHAHAHAH.
WHO THINKS OF STUFF LIKE THAT?!!
BUT ME, FAITH, HONEY && AJ WENT ACCESSORY SHOPPING, THEN I JUST CHILLED AT AJ'S HOUSE TILL IT WAS TIME TO GO TO CHILI'S.
CHILI'S, CHILI'S, CHILI'S.... SMH.
A WHOLE LOT OF DRAMA WENT ON THERE.
DIDNT EVEN GET TO EAT ME, AJ, JEFF, && DERRICK (I HOPE THATS THAT BOYS NAME) ENDED UP GOING TO MCDONALDS.

THEN BACK TO AJ'S HOUSE, && CHILLED UNTIL MY MOM STARTED CALLING.
LOL... I IGNORED IT CAUSE I WAS PLANNING TO LEAVE IN 30 MINUTES ANYWAY.
BUT THEN SHE TEXTED ME!!!
LIKE THIS LADY CAN BARELY TYPE IN PHONE NUMBERS!!!
AHAHAHA,
ALL IN ALL, IT WAS A GOOD DAY.
BUT LEFT A BADDD TASTE IN AJ'S MOUTH. ; ) ; ) ; )
WOW THAT GUY IS GONNA KILL ME!!!! AAHAHHAHA.

HEHEHEHHE.
I HAVE THIS ONGOING JOKE ABOUT HOW HE'S GONNA BE MY PROM DATE.
BAHAHAHA.
ITS WAS THIS SITUATION THAT HAPPENED LAST YEAR, WHICH I WONT LET DIE.
I WILL BRING IT UP EVERY SINGLE TIME I SEE HIM, JUST CAUSE.
BUT N.E. WAY OUR COLORS ARE PURPLE && GOLD...
OR MAYBE PURPLE && GREY... IDK, HE HASNT GOTTEN BACK TO ME YET.

Friday, March 19, 2010

MANNN, LAST NIGHT/YESTERDAY WAS REALLL TRYING.
HMMMM... I'M JUST GOING THROUGH ALOT && THEN MORE STUFF HAPPENS, && THEN EVEN MORE STUFF HAPPENS.
I TEND TO TAKE OUT MY SADNESS AS ANGER.
YESTERDAY I REALLLLL SAD, (IF YOU COULDNT TELL.)
I JUST EXPECT MORE FROM PEOPLE...
MORE FROM MYSELF.
I'VE BEEN LET DOWN SOOOO MANY TIMES, YOU'D THINK I WAS IMMUNE TO IT.
I LET MY GUARD DOWN && I TRUSTED, ONLY FOR YA'LL TO REMIND ME WHY I HAD IT UP IN THE FIRST PLACE.
SMH..
&& PAPA, MY OWN FLESH && BLOOD, YOUR FUCKING DESPICABLE.

BUT I'D LIKE TO THANK THE ONES WHO ROSE TO THE OCCASION, ITS RARE TO EVER SEE ME LIKE REALLY HURTING SO I'D LIKE TO THANK DAMI, WALE, JESSEVAUGHN, && ESPECIALLY PRINCE.
HE STAYED UP INTO THE WEE HOURS OF THE MORNING WITH ME && WE JUST TALKED IT OUT. . . WHO KNEW PRINCE HAD A HEART?!
AHAHAHHA, JK THATS MY NIGGA.

WOWWWWWW, NEVER THOUGHT I'D BE YOU!!
SO MANY EMOTIONS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD RIGHT NOW, DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN.
SO I DID SOMETHING TRIFLING.
I'M NOT EVEN GONNA LIE...
I WAS IN THE WRONG OF A REALLLY MESSED OF SITUATION.
BUT TEAR AKA TERRANCE BURGESS IS THE REAL FUCKED UP PERSON.
THIS PERSON WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE MY BACK, I TRUSTED THIS NIGGA && I TRUST NO ONE!!!
...REALLY?!
AFTER ALLLL THE SHIT THAT HAPPENED??
WOULD YOU REALLY???
OH, HOW I WISH I COULD SHOW ALL TEXT MESSAGES.
MAN FUCK THAT NIGGA && EVERYTHING HE STANDS FOR.

FOR ALL THOSE WHO THOUGHT ONLY FEMALES COULD BE CONIVING, FAKE, && TOO FACED, I'D LIKE TO INTRODUCE YOU TO TERRANCE BURGESS.

SO LATELY I'VE BEEN BEING BOLD,
LIKE REALLY BOLD.
NOT INTENTIONALLY IT JUST HAPPENS.
HERE'S ME && AJ'S TEXT CONVO:

ME : YOU WANNA DO ME A FAVOR?!
(10 MINUTES LATER HE REPLYS && I ACTUALLY THINK ABOUT WHAT I'M GONNA ASK HIM.)AJ: WHAT IS IT?ME: NEVERMIND, I GOT REALLL BOLD FOR A SECOND.AJ: WHAT WAS IT?ME: LOL. I WAS GONNA ASK YOU TO TAKE MY FRIEND, (TO THE DPS WITH YOU) YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HIM. SMH.AJ: LOL YEAH YU OFFME: AHHAHA. I WAS TRYNA BE CAPTAIN SAVE A HOE! ; )))AJ: LMAOO YU FUNNY THAT SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING THAT WOULD BE ON YOUR BLOGME: I GUESS I HAVE TO NOW. AHAHAHA.AJ: LMAO

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

LETS START WITH TEAR... I LOVE THAT DUDE.
SOMETHING LIKE A BEST FRIEND, EXCEPT I KINDA HAVE THIS "BESTFRIEND CURSE."
EVERYTIME I CLAIM SOMEONE AS MY BESTFRIEND, WE END UP HATING EACH OTHERS GUTS, LIKE SOMETHING SERIOUS!
BUT... UMMMM. WHERE WAS I GOING WITH THIS??
OOOOOH YEA!!! AHAHAHHA.
SO WE'RE EACH OTHERS #1 FAN. WE TALK ALLDAY EVERYDAY.
HE ALWAYS TEXTS ME "GOOD MORNING."
THAT ALONE MAKES ME JUST LOVE HIM.
LIKE REALLY, WHO WOULDNT WANT TO WAKE UP TO A GOOD MORNING TEXT?!
IF ONLY HE LIKED BLACK GIRLS... SMH.
BUT ANYWAY, I WAS COMPLAINING LIKE I ALWAYS DO ABOUT SOMETHING. && HE JUST PUT ME IN MY PLACE!
LIKE SOMETHING SERIOUS!
IT WAS AMAZING... CAUSE REALLY NO DUDE EVER PUTS ME IN MY PLACE. I'M KEEPING HIM AROUND FOR A LONGGG TIME. ( ;

NEXT IS FAGGBOT, HMMM... SMH. <--- REALLY HARD!
ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS YOU NEED TO MAN UP && STOP ACTING LIKE A LITTLE BITCH.
WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE BETTER THAN THAT.
WHAT THE HECK, MAN... YOU JUST DISAPPOINT ME.
FOR LIKE3DAYS I'VE BEEN DYING, WONDERING IF I'M IN THE WRONG && WHAT THE HECK JUST HAPPENED.

THEN THERE'S CHIN.
SHE WAS MY BESTFRIEND 2 YEARS AGO.
DONT EVEN REMEMBER WHY WE GOT INTO...
OVER SOMETHING STUPID I ASSUME.
WE'RE JUST TOO MUCH ALIKE, BOTH STUBBORN && PRIDEFUL.
WELL TODAY I MESSAGED HER ON FACEBOOK.
CAUSE THAT WAS MY BESTFRIEND, WE WENT THROUGH ALOT TOGETHER, IT WASNT EASY, IT TOOK ALL THE COURAGE IN THE WORLD...
BUT WE TALKED ARE TALKING. WE'LL SEE HOW THIS GOES.

LOL. I JUST REALIZED I GIVE PEOPLE NICKNAMES... HMMM.
MAINLY SO PEOPLE DONT KNOW WHO I TALK TO, BUT I HAVE A BIG MOUTH ANYWAY, YOU'LL FIND OUT IN TIME.

I WANT WHAT I WANT, && MOST OF THE TIME I USUALLY GET IT.
THE FACT THAT I EVEN REALIZE THATS TRUE IS WHAT MAKES ME WANT THINGS I SHOULDNT.
LIKE TO BE WITH YOU...
HMMM... I CANT STAND BEING UNHAPPY, ESPECIALLY WHEN I MAKE MYSELF THAT WAY.
BUT IN THE END SOMEONE WILL BE HURT...
DONT REALLY WANT TO BE "THAT" TYPE OF PERSON.
BUT THIS PERSON WANTS TO BE HAPPY, WITH YOU.
USUALLY I JUST DO WHAT I WANT && THINK OF CONSEQUENCES LATER... BUT THIS IS DIFFERENT.
SIGH, SOOO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW, I THOUGHT MY MIND WON THE WAR, BUT APPARENTLY MY HEART IS READY TO ATTACK AGAIN.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Monday, March 8, 2010

I NEED TO GIVE THIS TESTIMONY CAUSE GOD REALLY HAS BEEN GOOD IN MY LIFE.
LAST SUNDAY THEY GAVE A PRAYER POINT, IT WAS LIKE "JUST THANK GOD FOR SOMETHING YOUR GRATEFUL FOR OR SOMETHING THAT HE'S DONE FOR YOU.
&& I STARTED THANKING GOD FOR MY LIFE.
IF YA'LL ONLY KNEW!!!
I ALWAYS LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT TELLING ANYONE WHERE I'M GOING.
GET IN CRAZY PEOPLE'S CARS, BASICALLY GOING ON DAY TRIPS.
EVEN AFTER MY PARENTS TELL ME NOT TO GO SOMEWHERE I STILL GO. LOL.
I MEAN, I DO GET SCARED BECAUSE IF ANYTHING WOULD HAPPEN WHILE I'M AWAY IT'LL BE MY FAULT && THEY WOULDNT EVEN KNOW.
I JUST DONT THINK I SHOULD BE ON HOUSE ARREST, ITS BEEN TOOOO LONG.
I MEAN I'M PRACTICALLY GROWN.
BUT I'D LIKE TO THANK GOD CAUSE HE'S KEPT ME THIS LONG.
DAMN... WE WERE DRIVING ON THE FREEWAY && I JUST GOT SCARED CAUSE WHAT IF THE CAR JUST TUMBLED OVER && I DIED.
I KNOW ALOT OF PEOPLE WHO DIED IN CAR ACCIDENTS... BUT THAT WONT BE MY PORTION IN JESUS' NAME.
ANYWAY, THATS MY LITTLE TESTIMONY, HOPE IT TOUCHED SOMEONE.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

YESTERDAY WAS TOO LEGIT.
I WILL BE KISSING CHRIS'S SHOES BUT ITS ALL GOOD.
THE GAME WAS SOOOO CRUNK.
I GOT THERE END OF THE 3RD, REMI'S DAD TOOK US, HE EVEN BOUGHT MY TICKET TOO! AHAHHAHA.
MANNNNN, TRAFFIC WAS NO JOKE.
WE WERE ALMOST THERE THOUGH!!!
TRAVIS WAS ALWAYS UP OR TIED.
THEN WE HIT OVERTIME.... SMH.
THEY GAVE IT THIER ALL && MADE IT THIS FAR, SO I'M PROUD OF THEM FOR THAT.
BUT THEY SEEMED FINE ABOUT THEIR LOSS THOUGH.
I WAS SAD THOUGH, CAUSE WHEN WE WENT TO OVERTIME I LITERALLY GOT ON MY KNEES && STARTED PRAYING.
MY LITTLE FAGGBOT DID GOOD THOUGH. HE BLOCKED THIS SHOT && EVERYONE STARTED GOING WILDDD! LOL.

TODAY: SMH, BIG TIME!!!!!
DONT EVER VOLUNTEER AT THE RODEO!!!!
SO I WAS GONNA VOLUNTEER, BUT I HATE BEING ANYWHERE ALONE SO AJ, AMA, AND JEFF CAME WITH.
ME && AJ WERE PARTNERS, FIRST WE GOT STUCK WITH THE HANDICAPPED BOOTH WHICH LITERALLY COULDNT CONTAIN THE BOTH OF US.
THEN WE DIDNT HAVE THE PROMISED, "MULTIPLE 15 MINUTE BREAKS." OUR LUNCH WAS ONLY 30 MINUTES. && WE DIDNT GET TO RIDE RIDES FOR FREE, LIKE THEY PROMISED.
&& ON TOP OF ALL OF THAT THEY GAVE US THIS UGLY OVERSIZED UNIFORM, THAT AJ SWORE HE COULD ROCK.
WE GOT OVER ALL THAT THOUGH... OUR SHIFT WAS FROM 8AM TO 4PM.
TELL ME WHY WE IN THAT MUG TILL LIKE 5:30, 6:00. 6:30.
THEN AJ CAUSES A BIG SCENE && STARTS FAKE CRYING.
ME, AMA, && JEFF WERE ROLLINGGGG!!!! IT WAS SOOOO GOOD.
WE DIDNT FINISH THAT THING UNTIL LIKE 7.
THEN I HAD TO WAIT FOR THE LADY TO BRING ME BACK TO SCHOOL. SHE DIDNT GET OFF TILL LIKE 9:30.
SO I DIDNT GET BACK HOME TILL AFTER 10.
WHAT A WASTE OF A SATURDAY.
AT LEAST ME && AJ GOT $30. AHAHHAHAHAHA.

Friday, March 5, 2010

ITS BEEEN A HECTIC DAYYYY!!!!
I'LL EXPLAIN LATER.
BUT GOOD LUCK TO TRAVIS BASKETBALL TEAM!
I HOPE THEY WIN CAUSE ME && CHRIS ABOOBOO MADE A BET.
IF TRAVIS LOSE, (NO EVIL FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER.) THEN I HAVE TO KISS HIS SHOE.
BUT IF WE WIN, (ASK && THOUGH SHALL RECEIVE.) HE'LL KISS MY SHOE.
WE SHOOK ON IT SOOOO... TRAVIS BETTER WIN!!!

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

SO TODAY WAS TAKS && SENIORS DIDNT HAVE TO COME TO SCHOOL TILL 12.ANDREW= BEST FRIEND.DAMI= PARTNER IN CRIMESEYI, B, TUNDE= DAMI'S BOYFRIEND, FRIEND, FRIEND.
SO ANDREW, CAME && GOT ME, && WE WENT TO IHOP.
WHICH WAS INFESTED WITH BUSHRATS! (PEOPLE THAT GO TO BUSH.)
SO ME && ANDREW IN THAT THANG, FIRST I DIDNT WAIT IN LINE, SO 2 PEOPLE GOT IN FRONT OF US, THEN HE WENT TO GO DAP UP THIS ONE BOY FROM BUSH I CANT STAND.
UGHH... I ACTUALLY YELLED ACROSS THE PLACE, "ANDREW, COME ON!!!" CAUSE WHILE WE WERE WAITING IN LINE I ALREADY TOLD HIM I DIDNT LIKE THAT BOY.
SO WE GET SEATED && ITS SO FUNNY CAUSE HE'S LIKE 6'8 OR SOMETHING && HIS LEGS COULDNT FIT IN THE BOOTH!!!! AHAHAHHA.
WE GOT SEATED RIGHT BY 5, (YES 5!) OLDER AFRICAN FOLKS, THEY WERE LITERALLY HAVING LIKE A PRAYER MEETING, INSIDE OF IHOP!!!
ME && ANDREW WERE ROLLLLING!!!!
&& YOU KNOW AFRICANS LOUD SO THE WHOLE LEFT SIDE OF THE RESTUARANT HEARD THEM.
SO WE'RE JUST TALKING, && IN WALKS DAMI, SEYI, B, && TUNDE.
I DIDNT EVEN KNOW SHE WAS COMING...
THATS MY NIGGA BUT SHE TOTALLY CRASHED OUR LIL BREAKFAST.
THEN ROACHED PANCAKES && MADE FUN OF ANDREW THE WHOLE TIME!!!!
IT WAS FUNNN THOUGH, SEYI && THEM LEFT HER SO SHE HAD TO COME BACK WITH US... AHAHHAHA.
ANDREW WAS NOT HAVING IT. BUT WE STILL TOOK HER.
GOT BACK TO THE SCHOOL, LISTENED TO THIS BORING NONSENSE MAN TALK ABOUT ONLY GOD KNOWS WHAT.
I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO TO 7TH PERIOD, BUT I WASNT IN THE MOOD SO I JUST HUNG OUT WITH ANDREW... && DAMI.
WE WENT TO SONIC WITH PRINCE, THOSE HOES MADE ME PAY. && && THEN I HAD POWDERPUFF PRACTICE AFTER SCHOOL.
THAT WAS MY DAY!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

SO SINCE LAST WEEK PEOPLE HAVE JUST STARTED COMING TO ME WITH THEIR RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS.
LOL... LIKE SERIOUSLY HARDCORE, I DONT THINK MY LIFE WILL GO ON TYPE OF STUFF.
4 DIFFERENT PEOPLE.... 4!
I THINK THATS SO FUNNY, CAUSE I'M NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP MYSELF... BUT I GUESS PEOPLE JUST THINK THEY COULD TRUST ME.
&& THATS A GOOD FEELING CAUSE IN MIDDLE SCHOOL EVERYONE THOUGHT I WAS MESSY.
LOL!!! I WAS NEVER MESSY, JUST LOUD.
BUT MAN, I WAS GIVING THESE PEOPLE MY BEST STUFF, "...YOU DESERVE BETTER..."
"ITS NOT LIKE YOUR GONNA MARRY THAT PERSON SO LET IT GO..."
"MAYBE GOD TOOK YOU OUTTA THAT RELATIONSHIP TO PUT YOU IN A BETTER ONE..."
"YOU CAN REALLY REGRET IT, JUST USE THIS EXPERIENCE TO MAKE YOUR NEXT RELATIONSHIP EVEN BETTER..."
MAN, SOMETIMES I EVEN SURPRISE MYSELF.

Monday, March 1, 2010

I...
JUST...
IDK.
YOU KNOW HOW YOU GET A NEW FRIEND OR SOMEONE YOU LIKE && YOU WANT TO SPEAK WITH THAT PERSON 24/7 BUT YOU DONT WANT TO SEEM LIKE A BUG A BOO OR SHOW TOO MUCH FEELING CAUSE YOU DONT KNOW HOW THE OTHER PERSON FEELS??
YEA, I'M GOING THROUGH THAT RIGHT NOW...
DONT WANT TO GO INTO DETAIL CAUSE TOO MANY PEOPLE KNOW MY BUSINESS ALREADY.
I KINDA SAID SOMETHING TO THE "SAID" PERSON...
THAT COULD MESS UP OUR "BUDDYSHIP."
SIGH*
I WANT TO TEXT HIM BUT I GOT TO MUCH PRIDE...
I HATE DOING ALL THE WORK THOUGH.
EVEN THOUGH I'M IN THE WRONG I JUST WANT HIM TO TRY.