In another 3 weeks times I will be 21. So much to look forward to? So much fun? But why do I not feel the excitement? Suddenly all becomes meaningless.

I wish so much to spend it with my loved ones - my family, darling & friends..but somehow or rather a very important group of people will not be around that period. Abit disappointed but what can I do except to hope for the best. I know there is nothing great or special about one's 21st birthday but for me I look upon every birthday as an important day in my life (after all its once every year only...) well..as for now I will just hope for the best outcome thou I am not in any mood to plan or think about how I am going to pass by this 'special' day in my life..