Wednesday, 5 August 2015

Eleanor Moran on How I wrote A Daughter’s Secret…

Today's guest blog is by author Eleanor Moran who when not writing moonlights as a TV Drama Executive In a previous life she also worked as a TV Executive. Her latest novel is A Daughter's Secret and she has been persuaded to tell Shots how the story came about.

I was running so fast down the grimy North London
street that it almost felt like my heart could burst out of my chest, Alien
style. I was no athlete - the only reason I was pelting down Archway’s Junction
Road was because the much older man I’d been seeing - been obsessed with -
liked to jog and lived nearby. He’d disappeared on me, ghosted his way out of
my life, and I was so desperate to find out what had gone wrong that I was left
here, chasing after a stranger who bore little resemblance to him, almost mad
with grief.

I was eighteen years old at the time, and the man I
was searching for was the latest in a string of older flames who should’ve come
with health warnings stamped across their grizzled faces. This one,
fortunately, was the last. The man who pushed me over the edge, and into
therapy, where I learned that it wasn’t about any of them: it was all an
attempt to understand the most painful relationship of all. The one with my
complex, mercurial father.

A Daughter’s
Secret, my latest novel, is about
how this relationship can define so much of a woman’s life, for good or ill. My
heroine, Mia, is a thirty something psychotherapist who looks from the outside
like she’s got it all sussed. She’s got a string of letters after her name, a
silver fox of a boyfriend - but when thirteen-year-old Gemma Vine walks through
the door of her treatment room her stage-managed life starts to fall apart.
Gemma was the last person to see her father before he went on the run, fleeing
from a major criminal trial. Mia’s there to provide support, but soon the
police come knocking, wanting her to secretly elicit information and feed it
back. Mia’s past means she’s either the perfect person to help Gemma or the
absolute opposite. As the memories of her relationship with her own father
start to plague and torment her, she puts herself in terrible danger, prepared
to do whatever it takes to help her troubled and manipulative client.

For me, psychotherapy was a lifesaver. I grew up
adoring my unpredictable father, and forgiving him his long, painful absences
from my life. He was someone who struggled to live a normal life, never
marrying or holding down a job. The school holidays I spent with him were
precious to me, but his behaviour was erratic and dangerous. When I was ten, he
burnt the house down, leaving us to escape from a top floor window, minutes
away from asphyxiation. With no home to visit him in, our relationship became
even more fractured and complicated. The scars were deep, and psychotherapy
gave me the courage to take a time out and give myself the space to heal rather
than keep perpetuating the past like it was a choose your own adventure book,
always hoping that this time I’d discover a happier ending.

Wrapping up these themes in a muscular crime
thriller was a whole new challenge. My earlier novels have had mysteries
contained in them, but ones that have largely been driven by emotion. Now I had
to work out how a police investigation could push the story forward. Luckily my
second job is as an executive producer for TV drama. I was at the BBC for many
years, working on everything from Rome
to New Tricks to Spooks. Much of my work involves coming up with ideas for new
shows, or spotting books to adapt, and I’m experienced in helping screen
writers craft a taut plot.

I’d made a legal thriller with Suranne Jones in
2013, Lawless, and met the most
extraordinary criminal barrister in the process. Caroline Haughey is a leading
expert on people trafficking, leading multi-million pound trials and putting
away criminals who have committed sickening crimes. On the side, she offers her
services as a story consultant (Mark Billingham’s latest book is dedicated to
her). She directed me towards the case of a crime lord who is hiding in plain
sight. Despite numerous trials and repeated Sunday Times investigations, he’s
still walking the streets. I was even more interested in the people who give
such criminals a veneer of respectability, so I made Gemma’s dad a top flight
accountant (as Caroline pointed out, the police ultimately snared Al Capone for
his dodgy financial dealings). I didn’t want Gemma’s dad to be an out and out
villain - I wanted to create a more complicated character that no-one - not the
police, not Mia - could get a handle on. These are the characters I want to
watch or read about, whether it’s Don Draper or Walter White.

Both Gemma and Mia have to lose their illusions
about their fathers to make it to the other side. The same was true for me, and
I did ultimately find a fragile kind of peace with my father (he died when I
was in my mid-twenties). I hope that creating Mia out of my experiences might
demystify therapy for a few of my readers, and help them to befriend the ghosts
which can haunt us from deep in our distant pasts. I’m using her for my next
book, publishing next summer: bringing that kind of psychological intensity to
a crime plot hopefully makes for a compelling mix.

A
Daughter’s Secret by Eleanor Moran
is published 6th August by Simon & Schuster, price £7.99 in paperback.

You can find more information about Eleanor Moran
on her website.You can also follow her on Twitter
@eleanorkmoran or find her on Facebook.