What’s at the heart of you today?

Part of me wants to live in a big, beautiful house…
but part of me just wants to live in an old VW bus with funky curtains.

Part of me wants to go shopping and buy something new…
but part of me wants to simplify and get rid of everything I own & just start over.

Part of me wants to live in this crazy city full of life…
but part of me just wants to go somewhere quiet and lay in a field.

Part of me wants to go do some crunches…
but part of me wants to take a nap…for like…3 hours.

Part of me wants to try fasting…
but part of me thinks that eating a cheeseburger sounds like more fun.

Part of me wants to change, grow, and give up control…
but part of me feels warm in the comfort of my very familiar flaws.

Part of me wants to be a better friend and family member…
but part of me is just “too busy” sometimes.

Part of me wants to put others first…
but part of me is too concerned with worrying about me.

Part of me wants to trust God with everything I have…
but part of me feels safer sometimes doing things my way.

Part of me feels driven…
but part of me feels discouraged.

Part of me just feels torn in opposite directions…But the heart of me knows that it’s okay…because God has the ultimate control. He is holding my heart and keeping it safe…so regardless of my confusion and flaws, He loves me anyway.

Often times, life confuses us. You might feel uncertain, or maybe you feel like an incomplete project. We have to make SO many different decisions throughout each day. We wonder if we are making the right choice, or if we are terribly wrong. Sometimes, we are just torn. There are so many different parts of us. But it isn’t all the confusing, flawed parts that make us whole. It is what’s at the heart of us that will make us finally feel complete.
Beneath the parts of you that may be tearing at the seams today, what’s at the heart of you?