Feeling Down

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

I am not doing so well emotionally and haven't for the past few days. I don't deal well with death and there has been another in the family. It was one of my cousins who I have known since I was 3 years old. She was 15 at the time. My family has always been very closely knit with cousins- to 2nd and 3rd - as close as siblings. We have family reunions every 2 years and it seems that with each one there is one or 2 missing due to death. At the reunion in 2008 we had over 175 adult, over 30, family members present. The reunion in August of this year will be without my cousin and a dearly loved aunt.

My poor hubby has gotten the brunt of my feelings. I lash out with the pain I am feeling and have to immediately, most of the time, apologize. Thankfully he has gone through what I am feeling and has been understanding. He doesn't get upset when I lash out and holds me when I need to cry. I am so thankful that God put him in my life. I know that the pain will pass but it is the getting through it now that is so hard.

Please keep us all in your prayers as we learn to go on without Rosalie.

Sorry about the loss of your family. I know what you are going through. May 2012 my oldest son passed away, it was the hardest thing ever, one minute he's happy,and alive, the next thing he is gone. The grieving is still there. I'm here for you.

Remember what Jesus said, "This too, shall pass" Hard to believe, understand, comprehend, but one of the biggest truth I had ever believed. Go through you mourning process, its the most healthy thing you can do at this time. Let it all hang out, cry, sleep, what ever makes you bear the pain, and remember, "This too, shall pass"