I hadn’t seen this photo since the day it was taken. It was sent to me last night mid-way through an argument along with others of Alexis I also hadn’t seen. It knocked me. I screamed & cried whilst my toddler looked bewildered & my daughter tried to console me. Truth is, I am going through a really messy ugly break up. I have ended a toxic relationship. I (we) also faced the decision to terminate another pregnancy earlier this year. Having terminated & delivered two dead babies in 6 months has absolutely broken me. Have I been the perfect partner? Of course not. I have made plenty of mistakes. I have made stupid ones out of anger and retaliation. Have I tried? Yes, a lot. However there comes a time when you realise that no matter how each of you try to make an effort in your own way, sometimes your best efforts will just never be enough and you will never see eye to eye. Being in a relationship whereby both individuals are set in their own ways, highly strung and stubborn has been bloody hard. Right now I am all levels of angry and sad but I have had to make this decision to follow my heart & find my happiness. I always vowed to myself as a kid, based on my experience of my parents awful marriage, that I would never force myself to stay in a relationship where I was miserable ‘for the sake of the kids’. I know first hand how that does more damage to the kids than parents going their separate ways & trying to be amicable. Right now I am struggling. I cannot be there for anyone else in need, I cannot be my usual rainbow-pooping unicorn self. Right now I need to be selfish. Right now I need to put myself first. And you know what, that is totally and utterly ok. The last 5 years have been fucking hard (divorce, new relationship, new baby, loss of 2 babies) but they have also been filled with a lot of lessons. I know these negative emotions will pass but the lessons will last a lifetime. I am learning to set & enforce strict boundaries with everyone because at the end of the day, only I can save myself and make myself happy. #grievingmother#stillbirth#1in4#lifeafterloss#babyloss#relationships#breakups#reallife#raw#lifelessons#butstillirise

In your life, you will come across many people; some will stay close, and others will fade out. Some of those people will return your kindness, and others will turn out to be cruel and heartless. Do not be upset with yourself for opening up to the latter. Do not hate yourself for doing the right thing. You won’t have to live with regret; they will. Be the bigger person in every situation, and stand your ground. #regram#quotes#lifelessons

For a little while now, both me and my partner have been on a weight loss journey. It's been far from easy, but any walls we've hit have always been mentally. To change your lifestyle, it requires a break in habits... and an awful lot of them!
We work all day, most days we both don't stop from 7am until 9pm. So once we're finished, the easy thing to do is crash on the sofa with snacks.
One day, we made the decision to swap sitting on the sofa for going down the gym a few times a week and changing how we eat; with one treat day a week. Since we got going, we've both lost over a stone and are much healthier for it.
If you set your mind to it, you can do anything 💪🏻

Chronic remorse, as all the moralists are agreed, is a most undesirable sentiment. If you have behaved badly, repent, make what amends you can and address yourself to the task of behaving better next time. On no account brood over your wrongdoing. Rolling in the muck is not the best way of getting clean.” ― Aldous Huxley
#remorse#lifelessons#life#quotes

It's a wonderful feeling when your father becomes not a god but a man to you -- when he comes down from the mountain and you see he's this man with weaknesses. And you love him as this whole being, not as a figurehead. - Robin Williams ...
My dad and I have had our fair share of run ins. Last fall after about three months of not speaking to each other we finally began to actually get to know each other and be friends again. As much as I wish some things would have happened differently, I am thankful for our hardships as they have taught me some very valuable life lessons:
1. NO ONE is perfect.
2. Life in your 20's is fucking hard, and honestly it might not get easier, so you might as well start loving it for what it is and stop waiting around for things to magically get better.
3. No matter how bad you are feeling, you need to treat everyone around you with respect. Especially those who are trying to help you.
4. When you think you've hit rock bottom, don't quit. Things can only go up from there.
For those of you who have read this far, thanks ur the real mvp. That's all for now friends 🖤
#family#relationships#struggles#itisoktostruggle#robinwilliams#robinwilliamsquotes#lifelessons#twentysomething#nobodysperfect#dontquit