Let's Face Reality

Monday, May 30, 2005

China china oh china

Hid my emotions, Thought for long, China might be a good time to take a break and break free. It might be become better or worse. Listening to the blog song just makes u so depressed, seeing some other things = saddness. Somtimes i wonder. Choosing, were there two choice at that time? was i one of them?. Dont have the mood to write. Going to china cyA! Damn u guys, ask me bring panda back WTF! wan me to die?X.X

Sunday, May 29, 2005

24 hrs to my trip to china. Looking forward to it?maybe. I just feel empty now and cant seem to function properly. Looking at the neoprint for quite some time, just rips my heart more. Though i'm grateful at least i have a neoprint to look at.. Going to china might be a good thing to relax from the life here.. or it might be worst to be further from someone..

KK! Seriously i'm glad that there's a school break finally. Secondary school life seriously suck man. Back stabbers, back stabbers and more back stabbers. I admit that i have quite little friends in sec sch. What for make friends with people u backstab with? I rather not be that guy friend then be some fucking hypocrite like most 322365235 people in the level dO! I'm not surprised at all when i hear remarks made from someone sitting beside me in class abt another person in class whom he always talk to. If u hate him so much, why still talk to him? Doesnt that make u an idiot. Irony isnt it. Come to think of it, i'm actually doing hte same thing BUT ONLY to 1 guy and that is the guy sitting beside me. I HATE SITTING BESIDE PEOPLE WHO ALWAYS HAO LIAN. Yes the person beside me. Apparently, he's a rich ass( and i dun like rich asses!). He brings a zen micro to sch everyday and asked me a few times : " wad do u think if i buy ipod ? then i 1 day bring zen micro 1 day bring ipod. Then people sure will ask :"eh sucraM(NAME CHANGED TO DISCLOSED IDENTITY), hw come u got ipod also? so rich?" Seriously that fucking pisses me off everytime he says it. And i have to fucking bear with it and give stupid replies(apparently that's wad i'm pro at). Primary school is so much friendly. Everyone were jjust like brother and sisters. I still remembered during pri 6, we always went to some lan shop everyday after school, apparently its illegial running but who careS! Now u know why my psle T score is fucked =p

Hm.. new song! Koped from people blog again T_T. If the owner minds, tell me i'll remove it immediately thx =) The song sounds nice although i dunno wads the lyrics yet. Cant figure ouT! My chinese suck T_T

Thursday, May 26, 2005

WTF I HATE THIS GAY SYSTEM

GOT BACK MY RESULTS TODAY AND I'M SO FUCKING PISSED WTF! I FAILED ENGLISH BY 0.1 MARKS AND MY POSITION DROP TO 17/36. APPARENTLY THE OH SO SMART SCHOOL SYSTEM 'KICKS' THE PEOPLE WHO FAIL ENGLISH TO THE BACK SO EVEN THOSE WHO PASS ENGLISH AND GET SUCKY MARKS WILL APPARENTLY BE INFRONT WTF! PLS CHANGE THIS SYSTEM IT SO IMBALA. THATS WAD I'M SO FUCKING UNHAPPY OF. I COULD HAVE GOT 5/36 WITH MY PRO MARKS AND AVG . SOME GUY GOT AVERAGE 57 AND 7/36 WTF T_T. I WAN MY 0.1 MARK I WAN MY 0.1 MARK ZZZZZZZZ YA NICE SYSTEM SCH GG U MAKE STUDENTS BECOME INNOCENT VICTIM TO THEIR PARENTS

SEE HW GAY IS IT? Nvm the results are good enough since i just studied one day before exam for all the subject except bio(which i study 3 days before exam lol). ANYWAY I STILL WIN SOME GUY L** W** W**. he's like my study rival T_T i know its a bit bad mannered! but he's tat 57 guy and he passed englisH WTF!

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

JEALOUS U MUST NOT BE

Dont know why i'm torturing myself everyday by seeing testi and blog everydaY. Almost die when i saw the testi.. Chalet Overnight Beer vodka GG Game Over. Sees the word, jealousy and fear overwhelm me . Hmm maybe it wont maybe it will maybe it wont maybe it will. Nvm i cant do anything anyway. Its him and her and i must realise i have no fucking position at the heart. Fucking realise i must. Maybe it WONT happen maybe it WILL. Consequence are there. I shallnt think too much agaiN!

Talked to some fellow pri sch mate today. Break off too T_T the world is so saD!

Jealousy is hard to control

How many people could actually keep jealousy within them and not let it explode? Civil people?I dont think anyone can even the most respected man in the world. It just hurts to see the blog, and anything related to the person. Maybe i should just not see it forever but its just means escaping from reality LETS FACE THE CRUEL FKING REALITY. But The worst the worst is chatting. Dont know why i'm doing though. maybe i just learnt how to face the reality more. Thing that is worst is the display picture T_T. Hand of pain and death to me!GG

Ok lets stop talking abt that.Marist youth day for my class is some halo 2 xbox competition. Didnt wanted to voice my frank opinion(yes i'm in the class committee if u're wondering ) but i think the whole shit wont work. I mean 4 class room 4 xbox and 1 v 1 v 1 v 1 format. So 64(4 x 4 x 4 ) players are playing at the same time. Where do u find 64 players my fren? Even if u found, hw fast would the tournament end? Actually 2 room would be best. 1 room for tournament another room just let them pay to play for some time! Anyway i secretly hope there's a warcraft 3 tourney HAHA. Then i could just like own them and play with them. Lets hope my cca really has this lan shop thingy hmmmmm!

Pay 5 bucks to play Muthu and if u win him u get 5 bucks back! Woo i just love that game =)

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

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Decided to make a new blog since the other one was somewhat screwed up. I'm going to speak in perfect english now since my english is totally fucked up T_T. Changed my style of chatting to accomodate someone too much . Lets hope by blogging i can improve my englisH!

Maybe i thought too much and trusted on my instinct too much, thats why it all turned out opposite of what i actually thought. Those actions and questions to me all seems like a clue to the answer. A simple request of scanning made me mis interpret about something. Maybe i really thought too much or were u hiding from me again?. I learned to take and accept the things that i cannot possessed. Guess its time to give up the things i desire to just see u happy. There's a spirit inside me that refuse to give up though but i'm just going to shut that spirit away. It always seem so close to me but in the end its just the same. I thought too much afterall.