Private Hell

Original and similar lyrics

Closer than close - you see yourself -
A mirrored image - of what you wanted to be.
As each day goes by - a little more -
You can't remember - what it was you wanted anyway.
The fingers feel the lines - they prod the space -
Your ageing face - the face that once was so beautiful,
is still there but unrecognizable -
Private Hell.
The man who you once loved - is bald and fat -
And seldom in - working late as usual.
Your interest has waned - you feel the strain -
The bed springs snap - on the occasions he lies upon you -
close your eyes and think of nothing but -
Private Hell.
Think of Emma - wonder what she's doing -
Her husband Terry - and your grandchildren.
Think of Edward - who's still at college -
You send him letters - which he doesn't acknowledge.
'Cause he don't care,
They don't care.
'Cause they're all going through their own - Private Hell.
The morning slips away - in a valium haze,
And catalogues - and numerous cups of coffee.
In the afternoon - the weekly food,
Is put in bags - as you float off down the high street
The shop windows reflect - play a nameless host,
To a closet ghost - a picture of your fantasy -
A victim of your misery - and Private Hell
Alone at 6 o'clock - you drop a cup -
You see it smash - inside you crack -
You can't go on - but you sweep it up -
Safe at last inside your Private Hell.
Sanity at last inside your Private Hell.

[Chorus: Swel Boogie]
I could tell you wanna grab the mic because you're thirsty
Hoping you gonna get some shine but you're not worthy
Let me hear you make some noise if you heard me
We deal with wordplay, so your games could never hurt me
[Swel Boogie]
Let, let it be known in this game we're the illest MCs
F being cool, when I pass by you feelin' the breeze
I'm hotter than hell, my mission is to burn and attack you
You want it with Swel? Oh well, I was sworn to out last you
I be hurtin' ya wack crew, like work on a tattoo
Keep ya MC hidin' like a worm in an apple
Go and built your club house 'cause I'm earnin' a castle
and I ain't goin' nowhere, I'm a permanent rascal
My turn to run pass through flash dash and backdraft
Then again in your face teasin' you with the last laugh
You wack ass didn't learn the lesson I taught
Hip-hop is my game and I'm finessin' the sport
I'm takin' my time and still I'm ahead of your crew
Proves every reason in this world that I'm just better than you
I went to Q's and recorded in his house to Gallco
We 'bout to make you Bob from intro to outro
[Jise One]
Outro to intro, blazin' on instrumentals
Experimental the sentinel, Worf's walkin' infernos
External verbal a journal, beat hurdle breakin' incredible
Burst you to reversible explosion, y'all niggas' gerbils
rat packing shacking with rhythm shaking shahadies
I'm picky iffy labodomy rhyme Swinga astrology
Pardom me but part of me love to rip it explicit inside of me
A torn wound surf we love to dish it
Fish it type esquisite, we pyro burning the shilznit
Kills it, you don't feel it than go and handle your business
Fitness is unlimited, pellin' it, mics, I'm spillin' it
Majors wantin' to no frill it, but hell, we wanna deal it
(Chorus 2x)
[Q-Unique]
Superb words I shift enable the gift to lift masses
Grip the microphone tight enough till it smashes
You left back in classes, shiftin' through wack trashes
My hand goes across ya face till it slap passes
The rap crashes, does ya mic have the insurance?
a 100 beats per minute, can you spit it for the endurance?
Drop bait in dark, thought you hook on some small fish
but ya line caught the mind of a great white shark
Lets celebrate the new millennium, the year Q-thousand
Walk in, case the joint, play it off like I'm just browsin'
Catch you for your valuables, starvin'? Now you're full
but never should you doubt the pull of one who chargin' at the bull
Wave the red cape, spittin' off the head great
You feel from the Empire State and ended up a dead ape
It's a matter of principle like Joe Clark put the microphone
to the gasoline and watch 'em..
[Swel] all let the flow spark
[Q] So it won't go dark
[Jise] Shark walkin' able to bark
Mark words never absurb, place doubles of this on Noah's Ark
[Q] Flooded the earth with pen ink and watchin' evil men sink
connect a line and then link, the snare'll make your eye blink
[Swel] The loose your eyesight, lights bright, even the night's white
if it's out of my hands and in yours then the mics bite
[Jise] With the might of 51 police state troopers
I just might loosen up my screws to make moves
Sometimes is too tight
[Swel] Then start a food fight
Don't get me started like Skott said
Get retarded, I'm warnin' you that I cannot stop it
[Q] Like an octagon shape posted at the corner of the block
Watchin' ya sales go down like jock sneaker stock
[Jise] I told Chewbacca, rock a laser glock, spocks' around the block
Sock in the mouth it's better than feet, we got our shit locked
[Q] Like chainin' up the toilet
[Swel] Either that or get flushed
[Q] Bunji off the project buildin' just to get a rush
(Chorus 2x)

I'm holding you as you feel scared and small.
You've lost someone you love
and it's her you're thinking of.
It's all that matters to you right now
and it will be like this for long.
I'll be close to you, won't hide
'cause I know you need me by your side.
You wanna see her back again.
You wanna see her back into this world.
The past few months have been the
toughest of your life.
You've lost someone you love
and there's no greater pain above.
I know how close you were you two
and the joy and love you shared.
It was sweet for me to see,
but now it's aching inside me.
If only she could see you now.
Deep inside I think she can somehow.
She'd be the happiest mom, she'd be so proud.
She'd laugh and smile.
-Shut up you're dreaming!
You're screaming at me loud.
And that's the way you really feel.
Back into this world...

Closing your eyes to the truth that surrounds you
Won't make life easy to take
Filling your heart with the hate that inflames you
Just makes it burn out and break.
Want someone to love you? Want someone to care?
Want someone there by your side?
But you're building walls of plaster, building walls of bone
Now there's nowhere left to hide
No better than hell, no, the way that you feel
No better than hell, no, the way that you are
Waiting all time for a soul to embrace you
Just makes you lonely and old
Turning your back on the lover who needs you
Turns the world slowly and cold
Want someone to love you? Want someone to care?
Want someone there by your side?
But you're living off disaster, living on your own
While everyone's taking their sides
No better than hell, no, the way that you feel
No better than hell, no, the way that you are
Want someone to love you? Want someone to care?
Want someone there for a friend
But you're burning all your bridges, burning down your home
Burning the wax at both ends
No better than hell, no, the way that you feel
No better than hell, no, the way that you are
No better than hell, no, the way that you feel
No better than hell, no, the way that you are
No!

If this is hell well that's fine with me
All the wonder presumable happily
Eager to follow the fool that's got into
The head of me we don't have any doubt
We're out there making friends
Unconsciously rolling through
Meanings from pollings
The answers are meaner sometimes
Than the meanings to our ends
So this is hell
What else could it be
Bask of glories of glorified stories
Of a basket case who just
Broken himself from the weave
We are just not making sense
Who really cares just how we feel
Infantile ramblings of pennies gamblings
A fist full of hands swinging clubs
At our new baby zeal
Yeah right
You think this is hell
Would you care to bet
Capture the beauty of domestic duty
The hampers are full and our
Laundry's perpetually wet
Think about traveling south
Find the right something
You must have left
Endless the road
Wish your past to explode
Actions remain base
But intentions in the treble clef
Yeah right
This is not hell
This is purgatory
Caught here in limbo
I.Q. of a dim bulb
How many gods does it take to screw in the likes of me
You'd think one day I might learn
Stare in the light and you cannot see
I've opened my doors of perception
And can't get them shut
Now I feel fucked for free
Everyday yeah I feel fucked for free
Everyday yeah I feel fucked for free
Everyday we're all fucked
I left my brain inside my other head
You can't impress me don't depress me
Don't suppress just undressed
I left my brain inside my other head
The teachers test me my father blessed me
The pigs arrest me I get upset
I left my brain inside my other head
You can't impress me don't depress me
Don't suppress just undressed
The teachers test me my father blessed me
The pigs arrest me I get upset

Take a look around this lonely place
where a mask is worn on every face
and painted lips gently kiss
the end of their cigarettes
This world is dressed in such finess
to cover all the emptiness
We're standing here in between
the pages of a magazine
Chorus:
You'll never know what I feel inside me
I'll never know what you think about
Until we share what we keep in private
Until we find what we're living without
Our shadows move across the wall
No promises no talk at all
Inside the crowd we dance alone
with faces made of stone
Chorus:
You'll never know what I feel inside me
I'll never know what you think about
Until we share what we keep in private
Until we find what we're living without