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Drew, you really CAN do this. i know it. Your life should not stop permanently til you are realllly old. Like 100. You are you going to live for a very long time. I need you to. Please stay here with me.

Stay strong. <3

From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die

Drew- WE are your friends! You are NOT a terrible person, and what happened was not your fault at all. Drew, Russel and his family would want you to live a long, happy life- live for them as well as yourself. We know you can do this, we're guiding you through this. We're always here

“After nourishment, shelter and companionship, stories are the thing we need most in the world.”

look drew we all love you here espessically me please dont do anything to hurt ytourself or worse i am still around we are all fighting WITH you! please take all this into concideration please drew my life will empty without you! please xx <3 I LOVE YOU

Drew, Please stay with me sweetheart! I would miss you so much, and so would other people on TH. I love you. Please stay.

Stay strong. <3

From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die

I know we've been talking via PM but I thought I'd reply on here too. I want to ask you to do something for me. It might be really difficult, but I want you to try your best. I want you to close your eyes, and sit down on either your bed or a comfy chair. This next part is that part that will seem impossible, but please try it anyway. I want you to imagine this never happened. I want you to imagine what your life would have been like, what would you have been doing? Would you have been happy? Drew, Russel and his family would want you to be living your life like this never happened. They'd want you to happy, and you aren't at the minute. Think back, think back before this happened. What was one thing you really enjoyed doing? Now go do it. It doesn't matter if you don't feel like it, it doesn't matter if you feel childish or if you think it's a rubbish idea. Just try it.

You don't deserve to have to carry this around on your shoulders. You've done so for so long, and I'm not surprised you want to give up after all this time, you must be exhausted. But Drew, you can't give up. You've seen what Russel and his Family's deaths have done to you. If you die, do you want your death to have such a negative impact on someone else? I know it might seem like I'm being hard and not as gentle with my words today, but that's not because I want to upset you. It's because I'm worried about you, and I'd do anything to pull you out of this dark hole that you've fallen into.

You have so many people that care about you, that want you to be okay. People care so much. I care so much. I don't know what I'd do if anything happened to you. We can be your safety net Drew. We'll catch you. We won't let you fall. You aren't alone in this, we've taken hold of your hands and are guiding you through this.

Stay safe

“After nourishment, shelter and companionship, stories are the thing we need most in the world.”

DREW! listen to me right now. you are not going to kill yourself. you are not going to do anything bad to yourself. you mean way to much to me and i need you to be okay. i need you t be here for me please please please

Don't do it!! Just take a moment and look at your life. You can't end it now. People would be lost without you. You would make SOO many people sad. Just remember, that at every dark tunnel there is a light at the end. Some people's tunnels are long, and others are shorter. But no matter what, there will always be a light. We all love you.

YOU are capable of ANYTHING , You CAN do it . Don't let anyone tell you otherwise . I know deep down your a strong confident person who has a whole life ahead of them and can bring so many good things into this world . Don't Give up <3

You are strong enough. You've made it this far- that takes so much strength Drew, and you've done brilliantly. And you can keep doing this, with our help. I'm not letting you give up, now way. I have tight a hold of your hand, and I'm not letting you go anywhere, no way. We need you too much! You're a brilliant person, and you've told me what happened, and I'm telling you now, in front of everyone, that NO WAY was it your fault. You shouldn't blame yourself, at all. What happened happened, and although it's horrible and it hurts you have to keep pushing on. Nothing will ever undo the past, but you can brighten the future. You don't deserve to feel like this, and I'm not giving up until you're happy, I mean that. I'm never going to forget about you or stop talking to you: I'm always going to be here. And I'm by no means the only one- so many, many people care SO much about you. Every time I talk to you, I tell you the same thing, but you don't believe me for whatever reason. We will help you through this, any way we can.

You can do this. I believe in you.

(I would send more s but I might get told off for spam )

As always, stay strong, stand tall, and let everyone see this won't beat you, no way.

“After nourishment, shelter and companionship, stories are the thing we need most in the world.”

Drew,
You can do this. You are so strong, you have made it through so much, and you can make it through more. You're an amazing person. You mean a lot to me and a bunch of other people. I care so much about you. Im not gonna let you go. You are stay here. We need you here. You CAN and WILL make it through this. You will never be alone in this, you have all of TH. We will help you through this.
I love you.

Stay strong. <3

From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die

Drew, You can do this sweetie. I know you can. its gonna be hard but you will get through this. Stay please. Im begging. You are worth so much. Please try to get through tomorrow for me? I love you. Stay strong. <3

Stay strong. <3

From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die

Drew, I don't know you but I love you just like everyone on here does!! Please don't kill yourself. are you okay?? Don't do it. You'll be okay. I don't know what you're going through but I'm so sorry you're going through such a dark time. stay with us <3 I'm gonna cry right now thinking about you leaving this earth... please don't do it ;(

its just that after Russell and his family died...my life just stopped at that point..i didnt want to feel anymore...

and then i started hurting myself...blaming myself for what happened..

i feel like i was a horrible freind to him....like i abandoned him when he needed me the most......

i just feel that the emptiness will never go away...

i feel like he is dead because of me

drew, no matter what happens you know i am here to protect you, to help you and to care for you... what russell did was terrible. i am so sorry that it happened. i hate it. i want to hold you in my arms for hours on end and remind you that you are here for a reason. that everyone has a purpose and that no matter what i am always going to be here to help you through that. i know that life is hard for you. and i know it has never been easy. but i promise you, in 2 years time i will come to visit you and i will stay. i will help you through it. remember: you gotta make it to at least 80 so please babe, please stay strong. I love you very much

You can. And you will. This will not beat you Drew, no way. We won't let you fall. You've made us proud, and I admire how strong you've been and will continue to be. We'll get you through this, we will.

“After nourishment, shelter and companionship, stories are the thing we need most in the world.”

Sweetie, none of us would want you to disapear. Nor be better with out you. We would miss you so much. Here are the reasons I am proud of you:
•You have gone through so much
•You are so sweet and nice
•You are so strong and can make it through this
•You posted this thread that means you want to get better
•and so many other things
I love you. Please stay strong.

Stay strong. <3

From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die

I am gonna worry about you though. I want you to be safe and happy, and alive. Please stay!

Stay strong. <3

From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die

Drew, you can do this. Look at how far you've already come. You made this thread, which shows me that there's still some part of you, no matter how small, that still wants to hold on. We're not going to let you go through this alone, Drew. We're going to be here to support you every step of the way. Just keep reaching out to us and please understand that your life is worth so much more than you think. You can PM me anytime if you need someone to talk to.

Drew, you can do this. Look at how far you've already come. You made this thread, which shows me that there's still some part of you, no matter how small, that still wants to hold on. We're not going to let you go through this alone, Drew. We're going to be here to support you every step of the way. Just keep reaching out to us and please understand that your life is worth so much more than you think. You can PM me anytime if you need someone to talk to.

thank you sami for that reply....

but i just think things wont get better for me....like if i died..people would celabrate the fact that i was gone....

after all i have lost..after all i have been through..mabye this is truly what i deserve