And my destination makes it worth the while…Pushing through the darkness still another mile.

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I don’t know if any of my readers are still out there. It has been so long since I have updated or posted anything. The last four years have been the most challenging of my life. While I was going through it, I thought it was pure hell, but I’m beginning to see the wisdom of the experience and why I needed to go through it.

I guess the biggest change, is that my partner of 16 years, Michael, passed away in 2010. It was all very unexpected and fast. Sometimes I still think I am still reeling from it. Life has dramatically changed since then and of course so have I. I have had to learn to be on my own, and what that looks like. I still miss him every day and will always hold a very special place in my heart for him. I know that someday our paths will cross again, if they haven’t already.

I went through three years of major upheaval and change. Some of which I will talk about here and some of which I may hold off on for awhile. There may be some things that will forever remain part of my experience that I will hold close to my heart. Learning to live on my own has been a challenge that on some levels I think I still struggle with every day. But thankfully, I have amazing friends in my life along with a new partner who I thank the universe for daily. They keep me grounded and when I feel like I’m losing my grip on things, I know I can rely on them to bring me back.

I am still in the same house that Mike and I shared. I now work for myself, both my own company which I am getting off the ground and helping a couple other friends with their careers.

I met Lee back in December and immediately thought he was something special. VERY cute 🙂 and he turned out to be one of the sweetest men I have ever known. We finally met in person in February and I knew almost right away that I could fall in love with him. Turns out I was right, and I did.

He currently lives in Florida, but we are working on getting him up here and starting our lives together. I can’t wait to have him here with me.

Rocky, my boxer, is currently living with a good friend of mine. There were some circumstances going on that made it impossible for him to stay with me. I get to see him as regularly as I would like to. He is doing so well, and is very happy and healthy. I miss him too, but at least I can go see him.

I have two rescue cats now. My friends joke that I am one or two away from being the crazy cat lady, but I don’t see that happening. Two is enough. Jake is 16 months old and Knuckles is 4 months old. They are a blast and I love having them around.

Underneath it all, foundationally, I still continue to follow the path of the Buddha. Without that, I truly don’t know if I could have survived the last few years. It has become the standard to which I strive, and my spiritual rock.

Well, that’s the last few years in a nutshell. I am going to to do my best to continue to update things. I miss all of the friends I made through this blog and I hope to reconnect with all of you. I hope you are all going well, wherever you are!

I changed the name of my blog to reflect the new me. I have had the unusual opportunity to start a new life with a new outlook. The last 3 years have been life-changing to say the least. Those of you out there that may know me, know a lot of the details. I am an open book these days so is anyone has any questions, let me know and we can chat about it.

The new me is a stronger person and I am doing my best to show that to the world. Stick with me and we’ll see how it all plays out.

My Buddhist studies have been going well. I am learning so much about myself through the path. My times in meditation have become deeper and it still all feels familiar.

I have gotten away from writing lately, but it had a lot to do with my therapy. I ama in the middle of some deep crap so some things kind of fell to the wayside. I’m back into it now…the writing I mean.

Wow…this was kind of a lame entry, but I think that’s all I have for now.