It’s easy to forget in this mountain of hurt, anger and emotion felt by and for those victims affected by the Penn State football sex scandal that Nittany Lions football alum are hurting too.

Especially former Penn State defensive tackle Matt Millen.

The Huffington Post caught Matt Millen, now an ESPN analyst, becoming quite emotional when discussing Joe Paterno and the allegations about a university-wide cover-up to harbor a sexual predator, Jerry Sandusky, on campus for nine years. Former graduate assistant turned coach Mike McQueary told a grand jury that he witnessed Sandusky in the act of raping a child around the age of 10-years-old in the school’s shower. McQueary told Paterno the following day and after the information traveled up the line of authority no actions were taken to investigate the claims. Sandusky was allowed to remain on campus.

Earlier in the clip, Millen urged people to take the emotion out of this situation. But as Millen soon discovered in the process of talking about this gut-wrenching topic, it’s impossible to remove emotion when discussing this ordeal.

(4: 08) “I do know this, that there is a due process you’re entitled to,” Millen said referring to Joe Paterno. “And I want to see this process come forth and it’s not the court of public opinion.”

He continued, “I have some really strong opinions, I shared it with you this morning. And to be honest with you, and you can probably hear it, and I apologize to you (breaking down) I get mad. And it’s uh….(wringing his hands and trailing off).”

Millen then stops to compose himself and says in a wavering voice, “it’s pretty disturbing.”

You know what’s sad outside of the victims of this alleged heinous string of crimes? It’s sad that the good people who have or are attending Penn State get emotionally whipped by the decisions of their cowardly, soulless leaders.

Imagine how you’d feel is this were your alma mater, or even worse, if you competed for the school and knew the defendant. How do you emotionally process how you feel about your school? How can you ever say with pride again that you attended Penn State.