The month of October was a gratitude month for me where I wrote a journal for each day and why I was gratitude. Looking at it now I realise I am such a darn, lucky person!

And I had many opportunities last month to play the game but I am exceptionally grateful to take a moment and map out what I really want and what the next steps should be for me… it’s an exciting time now and I am unsure of where things will head but I have a pretty good idea of the path that lies ahead of me. I have a feeling 2016 is gonna be effing epic and I just cannot wait!

Bring on the excitement of the life ahead and the journey ahead… the change this week alone has been terrifying, tough and exciting and I keep feeling this is just the calm before the real storm and I know it’s gonna be tough but I am ready for the challenge… BRING IT ON!

I feel a shift- a shift towards a more peaceful me
I feel a calmness- a calm that is not pre storm but the calm of positivity
I feel an excitement- an excitement of what is coming
I feel content- content knowing I have done my best and the future is exciting as can be

I am impatient, I am like a kid waiting for their birthday presents, I want the changes, I want to feel the wind and I am really really really looking forward to it!

At the end of this month, I will have more change to deal with in one go than most people ever have to and instead of feeling terrified or scared, instead of wondering what next, instead of trying to guess, I am VERY EXCITED!

1. Ireland
As I realise I have spent over a decade here, I have to thank Ireland for the love, the welcome, the journey, the good times, the tough times, the lessons and the life it has given me!

2. Good Times
One can quite easily forget how lucky we are to be able to enjoy the good times we do. I often do. Spending hours talking to old friends, laughing with new friends, converting strangers into friends and waking up with a pain from all the laughing are all signs we have had a bloody good time!!

3. Excitement
When was the last time you did something so exciting you felt them butterflies?! I am going through a VERY exciting period and I am loving it all!!!

June 3: Moment

As I am looking for a place for me to move into, I can’t help but remember the first few times I shared. Having never shared my room before, I was so excited about having a roomie though that died soon after- despite all the fun times.

Sharing a room taught me about the personality clashes, the differences amongst people, how different people prioritise different things and life in general. Thank you lady for being part of such a fun and learning experience!

Do you know that feeling of achievement? That feeling of “YESSSSS”? That feeling of “This is it”?

I have been lucky to have had that feeling a good few times- I have had that when:
– I got selected for a certain sports team
– I got it when I got my first order
– I got it when I realised the power of being ethical
– I got it when I sold my first product
– I got it when I made someone happy
– I get it regularly as I recognise the small triumphs in every day life.. isn’t life wonderful? 🙂

Sometimes, you have to take THAT massive leap of faith- just offing do it. I did it. I finally did it- I am scared, I am nervous, I am unable to talk of it but I am excited, I am passionate and I am excited.

I am so so so so so so excited that all I can keep repeating to myself is THIS IS MY TIME & I AM READY FOR IT.

Thank you everyone of you- for your help, your commitment, your support, your push- this could be THE biggest moment of my life and even if I cannot really mention why or what, I want to preserve this feeling for ever- I want to bottle it up, I want to be able to smell it, I want to be able to hold it and look at it again- I want to do it!

Please keep giving me your support and please channel all your hopes and dreams into me getting what I have set out to do! Thank you, thank you, thank you x

Sleep
This weekend I got some sleep and it makes me feel infinitely better. I slept in today but have had an infinitely more productive day already- go me!

Excitement
That tingle when you are about to do something, that tingle when you are excited about something- reminds you that you are alive. Delighted I can feel it!

Organisation Skills
Having shopped most of my Christmas presents, I feel fantastic that I am not as burdened financially or timewise to sort things- do have a few bits and bobs to buy and have to wrap everything yet, but for the most part… all done!

I am actually gonna get my negativity about two things out first before I go on to the moment of the day!

I met up with a friend of mine after ages this weekend- he wanted to stay at mine for a few nights- all good. Now, when I stay at a friend’s, I either take them out for dinner or buy a small present or somehow show my appreciation- in this case, I ended up buying more beers and dinner or we went dutch at other times… and when he left, he didn’t say bye as it was early and I thought he was coming back to mine. This left me feeling a little used. However, having known him so many years, I am gonna put this down to jetlag.

And then Chammiya is in Ireland for a while too and I caught up with her. We were having fun, chatting away, she was being her usual obnoxious self and so on but what really p!ssed me off and I mean, really did was when she stated an opinion as a fact. She may not like my style of photography or art or whatever but to make it as a gospel statement saying I am a terrible photographer was something that really hurt. I really didn’t like that- had she said she thought I wasn’t a good photographer, I could have dealt with that- many think that, including Red! Each to their own but no one states it as a way of putting me down. I didn’t like that.

Anyway, ranting and b!tching aside- I have had a tough few days and a busy few weeks. I am shattered as can be and absolutely fatigued but today I was hit with a brilliant idea- an idea for one of the companies I am working with. This reminded me of the excitement of the first time I was taken in by the passion and tingles. The funny thing is I don’t recall what the idea was then, I do now but for strategy and NDA reasons cannot mention it, but it’s that feeling of pure exhilaration, the feeling of pure ‘this is it’, that feeling of amazingness that makes me feel so good today- almost as good as I did then! It’s amazing how little our feelings change for the same thing, despite the 15-20 odd years between the two moments (even if there were other such along the way).

The first time I went on a roller coaster- I didn’t know what to expect, I was scared… but then, I went again and again and again… and I loved it. I tried them all- the ones in the dark, the ones that went in every which direction, the ones that made you feel you were falling off a cliff, the ones that flipped you upside down… roller coasters were my thing!

I am getting goosebumps just thinking of those days. I wish they would still excite me as much but alas, other things have had to fill the gap!

For most people, nothing of significance happened 5 years ago- a friend of mine turned 30, sure- but other than that, it was an ordinary day for most. If you ask anyone, they will think it was an ordinary day for me too.

However, I know differently- in many a respect, today marks 5 years to the day when I made a decision that completely changed the path of my life- today, 5 years ago marks the day that made me go into writing & photography professionally, pursue business school, leave the corporate world, enter the risk-taking world and basically, go through the mad roller-coaster that life has been the last 5 years.

I was out for dinner on a date today- second date- and realised, the guy had nothing to say- his highlight was being able to leave work early ‘cos he didn’t have to treat any patients and being able to iron his shirts in that extra time. Had this spiral of madness not started off 5 years ago, I probably would be like that- a girl caught in a corporate job, with nothing to talk of- work, telly, pub over the weekends could have been my life.

The decision I made didn’t work out but the impact it had has caused me A LOT of pain, A LOT of turmoil, A LOT of mental anguish, A LOT of anxiety but it has been worth every second of it- knowing how much I have done and have yet to achieve and having been lucky to have been made aware of so many different possibilities… yup, it has been crazy, insane, tiring and adventurous & fun. Here’s to life.

Today, I feel happy, excited, slightly delirious, nervous and a mix of emotions never before.

And so I urge, everyone to follow this advice, ‘cos it ROCKS!

Go, up and go- somewhere you have never been- what I am feeling right now is a sense of optimism and excitement like never before- the turn in my life is just AWESOME. Told you, 2012 was gonna be awesomely special!

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Joy of Traveling: This blog is about a simple Indian girl, living an extra ordinary life in Ireland- traveling, eating, working, clicking photographs and basically enjoying the beauty of life. A lot of the posts are exaggerations of events she sees around her and some may even be biographical but this is mostly a work of fiction, so take it with a pinch of salt, please ;)