#loveandlight

Your soul is set on a course that you could never have imagined you would explore in your lifetime. You are reaching higher dimensions, higher energies and now as you look down from that higher place you can see with the eagle’s eye what is actually taking place below. Like the bird of prey, you observe. You watch all the scurrying and the chaos you just float along waiting. Your ego is saying what is all this about, everything is out of control. But is it really? Remember Dear Ones, there are no accidents or coincidences. Everything really is as it is supposed to be. When you can accept that, even in the midst of the chaos, you will then see beyond what meets the physical eye and will look at it through your eagle eye perception. And so it is.

Beloveds, like a spider weaving a web, the intricate design of your life is woven with each moment of your Earth day. You sometimes work with the same pattern, going in circles, ending up at the same place and then beginning again. You know to what we are referring, correct? When will you open your eyes and look at what you have woven? When will you break free from the monotony of your design and look outside of the routine? You blindly accept what is as the way it must be until something happens to make you question it. Why not look at it before the tragedy, before the crisis, before someone else points it out? When you open your mind to all possibilities, to miracles, to increasing your level of love and light in your life Dear Ones, you have taken the necessary first step in seeing who you truly are and what you are capable of. So we say to you break the mold. Lose the limitations. The world you live in now is changing with each of your linear moments. It is time to free yourself of your shackles. Take the lead and steer your own ship. Which direction will you go – That is where you will end up. So be it.

What happens when we are unable to meet someone else’s expectations of us? The idea of unconditional love is wonderful but perhaps as humans we are not capable of this. Do we always hold expectations about those in our lives? Do we then judge others if those expectations are not met? It makes me stop and ponder if I do this as well. If someone chooses to include me in their life, I feel honored. I really do not ask anything from them other than friendship and sharing time together. However, when I look at those people that I have distanced myself from I wonder if it was something I judged in them as not meeting my expectations. There are times when I feel like just shutting off from the world, just going into a cave with no human interaction. This feels safer actually than allowing the vulnerability and potential hurt that can come from being judged by others. Hurt, pain, sadness is a part of this human experience. At those low moments we take a deeper look at ourselves and sometimes ask where we failed. However, it isn’t always us that failed. Perhaps we did not meet an expectation that we didn’t even know was there. Sometimes the one holding the expectation does not even realize that the resources are not available to be able to meet those expectations. Things like pride can get in the way of letting others know that perhaps we are financially unable or otherwise incapable to do certain things. This can lead to the feeling of being “less than” and not enough. Confidence can be shaken and self-doubt take over. In a perfect world we are all the same, all equal. However, this is far from a perfect world. Competition and comparison run rampant. It is often said (and even by myself) that we are mirrors of each other. I’m not sure I believe that anymore. I’m still digging for the answer although the hurt makes the glass a little cloudy, but I am holding onto faith and believe that with time (and some window cleaner) it will become clearer.

There is an energy moving through you, around you, traveling ever outward and upward as if being drawn by a magnet. Indeed, you feel the pull. You sometimes want it to slow down as the feeling it brings is so intense. What is this, you ask. I am not ready, you say. Your heart is pounding, your ears are ringing, and still the energy swirls around you and will not be denied. You are on a path that is familiar and unfamiliar all at once. A part of you is remembering who you are, why you came here in this lifetime, and where you are returning to. While this can be disconcerting if you let it, it is also what you chose, what you agreed to before you even came here. Your path is no ordinary path. There are twists and turns that reveal truth, that signal universal change. You feel this change in you and you empathize with those who are experiencing it with you. You are a Guardian. Your way has not been an easy one this lifetime out of necessity; it helps you understand and strengthens you for what lies ahead. You have overcome your dependence on your physical senses and now are able to use your elevated state to observe, to hear, to feel, to know the truth. It is time to learn what love really is, Beloveds, and to understand it within both your heart space and your mind. Love is the very essence of life that gives birth to consciousness. The vibrational frequency of love will actually form an aura extending from the body, bathing you in a soft white light. As we begin to understand the message of love we will find ourselves attracting to us other individuals that form a collective whole, all vibrating on the same frequency. The collective consciousness of humanity can only be changed by love, the ultimate cause which gives rise to all other vibrations. Raising the level of consciousness of humanity is the ultimate plan for peace and must be done through a new understanding of love. You are a Guardian. Let this message of love sit in your heart space and travel upward to the chakras above the heart. Absorb it and as you do, you will find that layers of old thought patterns will be peeled away as this new revelation opens your remembrance of who you are and you will find your why.

I am so grateful for this day! I feel “seen” by God. I know the angels are surrounding me. I am loved. I am that — I am! I am the sound of a thousand songbirds. I am the rush of a million waves in the ocean. I am the quiet snow on the mountaintop. I am the breeze brushing against my face. I am the children’s laughter coming from the playground. I am the words written on this page. I am peace. I am LOVE. I am joy. I am that!

July 6, 1975 was my last dialysis treatment of what was a hellish 8 months of undergoing 5-hour per day 3 times a week treatments. My kidneys had failed in November the prior year, landing me in the hospital for the entire month. I remember those days like it was yesterday. I had gone on vacation in October to visit my family in Kentucky before my baby was due as I was only 6 months along. I didn’t get to see them very often because I was so far away, having moved to Florida 2 years earlier. When I got back from vacation, I went from looking like I was 6 months pregnant to what appeared to be a 9-month pregnancy. I felt okay except for what I assumed were normal pregnancy issues – swollen feet, tiredness, etc. I say assumed because it was my first time pregnant. I was scheduled to see my Ob/Gyn when I got back and he was alarmed at the change in size of my belly and told me he wanted to run some tests, so he sent me to the hospital to do so. It would be 30 days before I saw the outside of that hospital due to what was diagnosed as “acute renal failure.” There was no way to know how much time had passed since the kidneys stopped functioning as they labored to filter the blood of me and my unborn baby. Had I not gone for that routine exam, I would not be writing this story now.

On July 7, 1975, I was taken – along with my brother Ken – to the operating room early in the morning. It was going to be a full day of surgery and at that time kidney transplants were still pretty much in their infancy, the first in the US being 1954. My nephrologist, Dr. Metzger, assured me I was in good hands with the surgical team he had gathered. Ken and I were wheeled down the hallway, hand in hand, for what I consider to be the greatest sacrifice one human can make for another – the gift of life.

So today, July 7, 2017, I celebrate 42 years of a successful kidney transplant. Dr. Metzger tells me it is the longest surviving kidney that he has transplanted. For 36 of those years, I have taken no anti-rejection medication. I am currently in a research project at Emory University Transplant Center with Dr. Kenneth Newell and have been for over 10 years, the purpose of which is to determine the factors present in my system and others like myself who are “tolerant” patients that are different from others who need to remain on medication. The more information gathered by this research, the more future transplant patients will benefit from it. It is my way of paying it forward.

For me, having been given an additional 42 years that I would not have had without this gift is a true miracle. It is a bonus that I have not had to endure the side effects of the medication. I honestly give all glory for this miracle to my wonderful Creator who is ever-present in my life. Each day I wake up, I give thanks for another day alive. I ask to be a blessing in the world and to shine my light out through loving and lifting others up. I give gratitude for everyone and everything in my life. I know none of us is guaranteed one more minute than this very NOW that we are living and I will continue to shine my light for as many of those moments as I have left here on earth. If you love someone, tell them. If you are grateful for someone, tell them. Don’t let another minute pass by without letting others know how important they are to you. I love you! Namaste

Are you like a lot of people who are shaking their heads and saying “where did half a year go? Didn’t we just have New Years??” It is very easy to get caught up in that mentality. We can liken it to those who look at a glass of water and see it either as half empty or half full. We can look back and wish for days that are passed or we can march steadfastly and strong into a bright future, one day at a time, one breath at a time owning our power. This moment, this NOW, really is all that exists at any point in time. Therefore, mourning the passing of our linear time is really not serving our best and highest purpose, is it? We would be better served by looking at how we can make a difference in the world today. Each morning I awaken with gratitude for a new day, a new opportunity to experience adventure, love, happiness and joy. I ask out loud, “Now how can this day get better? How can I serve others today?” When we approach life with such an attitude, we have left behind us a trail of positive energy that keeps moving forward in momentum. What legacy do you want to leave behind you? I love you!