It REALLY annoys me how people who are not the ones suffering can just say things like this.

It's like my idiot doctor who says "It's ONLY pain". I feel like telling him to let me smash his fingers with a hammer and then HE can tell
HIMSELF that it's ONLY PAIN.

As far as all your comments go about "being strong" enough to just ignore the problems with my health and the intense suffering I endure daily, I
can guarantee if it were YOU, that had to spend ONE DAY in my body, you would NOT be able to handle it.

It's always SO easy to "say" how you can do this or that, but when it comes down to the real thing, and when you feel REAL pain, it's just not
that way, there are things that we can cope with, and things that we cannot, and only the ignorant who have never experienced intense chronic pain
would say how utterly easy it is to just "ignore" like that, what a joke.

I cannot PM you, the system will not let me, I do not have enough posts.

I guess I'll have to make my life public.

When you have lost ALL of your control, the control of your life, your finances, your relationships, and even your body, at the hands of another
person, then someone tells you that YOU are the one that can just fix it all by deciding to, it's downright insulting!

Would I BE in this embarrassing situation if I had a choice?

I am not weak, and I am not stupid, I am afflicted, oppressed, and controlled in a way I cannot change.

I decided to try coming here because I thought that maybe someone out there shared my issues, and they knew how to find help, and because people here
are thinking outside the box. I really DO hope this is not a mistake, as already, I am starting to regret it, encountering negativity like that. I'm
not sure "why" you have an interest in my situation, but I will tell you "some" of it, if I sense you are not someone who is working for "them",
or someone who is just toying with me, I don't have time for that.

I specifically am vague, as I cannot identify myself, or give too much info to identify myself, and I didn't want to just spout off all my issues to
some board without knowing if anyone even cared or not, or if they could help.

I have most of the symptoms of someone who has been effected by radiation, as well as electromagnetic weapons.

I suffer from severe chronic pain that is too much to bear most days, and I take a shoebox full of pills to try to help me, including narcotics
several times a day, amphetamines just so I can think a bit, and even testosterone injections as my own immune system and male testosterone system has
been damaged by radiation or whatever has effected me.

Alot of my symptoms mimic neurological conditions, like a myelin sheath disorder, where the nerve's electrical connections just short out, in fact,
nerve conduction testing I just had done shows that all over my body.

Doctors are baffled by my case, and I cannot tell them my previous involvement in things, and how it may have effected me, and how I got this way,
I'm sure they would lock me up.

This is just the tip of the iceberg in what I've lost in my life because of this, I've lost everything, not just my health, everything.

That's about all I'm comfortable saying right now, I'm not here to cause anyone trouble, just to try to find some help, so please excuse my short
fuse with the comments made to me, I'm at the end of my rope, and can't stand someone saying it's MY fault for letting it happen, if I could fix
this, I would have.

Its best to just leave wannabe agitators like that on your ignore list. As for your symptoms they seem fairly familiar, this may seem like a strange
question but do you have any "silver" fillings in your teeth? If so you may want to look into it.

It is well known that "silver" or as most refer to them as amalgam fillings are 50% mercury, a very dangerous metal. There are a myriad of chronic
symptoms that result for many people with prolonged exposure to the vapors that off gas from silver fillings. If you are trully troubled and disturbed
by your chronic symptoms your next best bet would be to look into having them removed, this is a process I will be going through in the new year. I'll
link to this previous thread on the subject and you can spring board from there with investigative research. GOOD LUCK!

I have now been suffering severely for 7 YEARS, and have been on disability since then, and I've had my blood tested several times for heavy metals,
but there is none, but oddly, they cannot tell me why my red blood cells are small and immature, as if the adult ones are getting killed off by
something, and my white count is intermittently high.

I considered getting my fillings removed (ALL my molars are silver filled) but not only would NOBODY agree to do it in my city (it's like they were
told NOT to) but after I got my blood test results, I just figured it was a waste of time.

I'ts been said that the mercury tests that are done at the doctors office typically don't detect prolonged mercury exposure but will only detect acute
mercury poisoning, there are other tests that are far more effective in detecting mercury exposure. As for dentists not wanting to work on your
fillings you may also want to look into a holistic or a mercury free dentist, as they specialise in a mercury free practice and have loads of
experience in removing silver fillings. Beyond this I'm not too sure what else to recommend If you are being genuine I can't highly enough suggest
looking into this topic.

Of course I'm being genuine, why else would I spill my guts here like this to the world and look like a fool?

I appreciate your advice, but if you really think about it, telling someone to go get their teeth fixed when they are being attacked by someone is not
exactly getting to the "root" of the problem, no pun intended.

I don't think I'm really being listened to here, and it's obvious that there are no real resources to be explored, so this will be my last post.

They also use this sort of tactic on big artists and celebs, believe it or not, essentially monarch programming to ensure they go along with whatever
agendas they want - for those TI's it's not necessarily a bad thing considering the riches and wealth they have accumulated, although it is also
true many have poor mental health as result. Judging by some of the content of a lot of pop songs, it certainly seems to work!

This is really dictatorial. I remember as a child during the Ceausescu dictatorship in Romania, it was very similar with the stuff US tries to
implement. When the elites did not have enough power to control the sheep, they decide to reward the people open to betray their community in any way.
The sole purpose of this is to introduce massive suspicion and terror in the mind of the citizens and this way to control things easier and keep
people in the line. And of course the earlier (i mean working this tactic with unsuspecting kids) the better for them - the controllers ! This will
end up with a bang, as we did in 1989 with our communist regime in Romania. BY the way , we also shot the dictator .

Actually, it all depends on your disposition... and that's in your power....

Because happiness is completely and utterly a choice.

I'm afraid i'm going to have to ask you to leave this thread.

Victim blaming (or blaming the victim) is holding the victim (s) of a crime, an accident, or any type of abusive maltreatment to be entirely or
partially responsible for the transgressions committed against them. Victim-blaming has traditionally emerged especially in racist and sexist
forms.[1] It is also about holding individuals responsible for their own personal distress or difficulties instead of attributing responsibility to
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When I was in the military my boss deployed to the middle east and brought back some of those hadji cigarettes. They are tobacco (and likely camel
poop) and are in a small round paper packet. Well anyways he gave me a pack of them when he got back...nice guy. A GI I was there with lost his
driving priveleges so I ended up driving him around in his low rider nissan truck for a few months. He wanted me to go wash it at the car wash so here
I am at the car wash washing his truck offbase...smoking one of those short filterless Saudi cigarettes and I must have looked like a drug dealer
smoking a joint to someone....

Next thing you know AF OSI is all over me and I'm doing drug tests every week. I've never smelled marijuanna let alone smoked it. Anyways after that
event they must have put me in the computer system as a bad person.

I started to get targeted. Things happened to me you wouldn't believe. I left there and went to Germany where a female in the shoppette said "We're
watching YOU".....I thought what the heck?? So I went outside and hid behind the building to watch her come out. She was AF OSI, I saw her get into a
OSI vehicle.

How did I know it was an OSI vehicle? I worked on OSI vehicles for my job. More and more kept happening and eventually one day I tried to buy a laptop
at BestBuy. I had $6,000 in my checking account and Best Buy said my debit card was no good. So I tried to write a check. They use the same
verification service for credit cards/debit cards as they do checks. They refused to accept my check because a Company called Certegy was refusing me
access to my money.

So I pulled out my Government issued travel card and tried to buy the laptop with that. Denied. Certegy is interconnected with it all and if they want
to they can pull the plug and not give you access to your own money.

So I "went off the grid" with my money. If they looked for my money they wouldn't find it anywhere's they control.

Even though I was targeted I stayed in Government....learning more of my enemies. My fellow Americans.

I too suffered severe pain which led to degenerative disease breaking down my nervous system..eventual disability. But I think that was from drinking
poisoned water at all those military bases. Or when we were poisoned in the Gulf and the military wouldn't let the Saud's serve us meat anymore
because they wouldn't say where it came from..or the poisoned Anthrax Vaccine that was recalled but BioPort was caught remixing it with current
batches and shipping off to be injected into us...or when we were moving all those chemical weapons from Europe in the mid 90's to be burnt off on a
ship in the Pacific Ocean....I couldn't pin point my bodies degeneration...I've been part of many projects to rid bad things from the Earth for
humanity.

We all have fellow Americans plotting against us. Some are in power to use tactics/weapons against you.

They have full immunity in their acts against you. Remember that.

In reflection I fully regret serving this country and wasting my life. Not when our fellow countrymen plot against their own.

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