When I was little i was afraid of growing up and getting old enough where I am on my own. Now im 18 and still am afraid. How am I suposed to move out and get a job when I cant picture what I want or how to achieve it in life without getting scared?

I wanted o embrace growing up when I was younger, but now I fear letting go of what matters. I'm moving to university in September, and I'm the only person I know going to this part of the university. If you are ready for employment, but seek the safety and familiarity of education, then an apprenticeship would be ideal for you. If you can find a job in your area, or near a relatives house, if you asked nicely you might be able to stay with them for a few weeks while you find a place to stay. Good luck with your career.