i didn’t realise that raya will be next week. did not feel any anticipation at all. and i do not intend to do any visiting unless i’m pointed with a dagger.

(i think my dad will be inclined to use his keris though.)

why leh i feel like this one? maybe because i’ve found the preparations for raya to be over-rated. maybe because exams are held soon after the day of raya. maybe because i’ve been too pre-occupied with work or/and online shopping. maybe because i don’t feel like it for any cause of ‘celebrations’.

or maybe because the energy has been dissipated for the anticipation of this.

that was when asia bagus was hip, michael vana was striking goals, peter schmeichel wore a vair colorful jersey to win the euro..

…and mtv made its first foray to singapore waters. there were those times when mtv were shown on free to air channels and me as a vair docile teen-anger, cling on the telly to worship nadya, mike and jamie.

i (think) still rem those videos. first time watching it mah, after so long hearing about it. so definately can roughly guessed kan. rhcp and nirvana was hot, mj starts to act weird, boys II men are still cool…

..and michael bolton still lingers with long hair.

he, the one who sings with a voice that wants to berak. he, the one whose hair redefines what curly hair is meant to be. he, who sings songs like this…

All I wanna dois touch you, baby
Touch you very soul insideof you
Oooh and I need to feel the heart of you
I need to reach the very deepest part of you
Oh, let me be the one to show you
Just what love can do
Come on, baby, come on
– can i touch you…there?

…AND can still avoid authorities and censorship. how this dude does it i don’t know and probably will never at all. though in this age of public security and keeping uptight on issues of the heart and mind, i’m not sure if the authority will back down when he performs here.

what do you see while reading that? kind of normal, right? even knowledgeable to a certain aspect in teaching the english language. however, while looking deeper, i can’t fathom how hypocritical it is on channel 5’s behalf. looking at a certain point of view, it seems like they are promoting the notion of glorifying killing. “but we are just notifying the audience what murder is and should be condoned altogether” they may argue.

but then mr mediacorp, it rarely happens in everyday life that different scenes of someone stabbing another in different methods according to the different word description, with blood spewing out and the trailer voice rambling about all those synonyms word by word for the whole 1 minute and screening it in the fucking prime hour, right? i can just see what the uproar be like if they run a trailer and list down all the synonyms of being homosexual or anything that relates to sex with the voice spewing all its synonyms. lest not forget about the brou ha ha that came about with the renaming of that austin powers movie, to cite an example.

pardon for my english, but i just simply do not understand this singapore media, or maybe any for the rest of the world who deems itself conservative and dare not to go to new terrains, but then displaying itself with images of gore and murder as a norm. is killing much better than being, erm, something else? no they may reply. but thats a norm for these execs. they WILL always have diplomatic answers to say and will repeat doing it again. it is always them against us when it’s fucks sake it is us that they depend on for viewers.