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Monday, August 06, 2012

One of my close friends calls me a philosopher, another thinks I am mostly funny and my mother thinks I am "all business." I'm all of these, but not always at the same time. Like many people, I am prone to moods - and tend to be reactive to other people's moods and/or personalities as well. What I am at my core is shy.

I don't think a shy child ever overcomes shyness. One learns to push past it much of the time; to change behavior, but left to my own devices, I tend to withdraw, avoid confrontation, crowds of strangers, and aggressive people. I'm still shy on the inside. I have learned self preservation means saying no - and standing up for myself - and I do feel a bit proud when I do . But I don't like how I feel while it's happening. It's not comfortable to try to be something I am not.

Gracie is shy, too.

If I were a butterfly or moth, I could just spin a cocoon or chrysalis and emerge as a different "being." Instead, I weave a cocoon of protection that is intangible. I am terrible at selling my own work, so I sell through galleries and the internet where face to face sales are rare. And yet I am enthusiastic and even wonderful at selling the works of artist friends... Go figure.

Me in another life... (a black swallowtail to be!!)

It's so hot, and I am too poor right now to afford another air conditioner for my studio room. When I get home from my "day job", the house is well over 90 degrees, and only the bedroom is cooled, so I make a quick supper, dashing in and out of the "air." I use only the microwave if possible to avoid making more heat. I can't bring myself to paint unless I can work in the morning on the days I am off - or down in the shop which I can keep cool until about 2pm, when the heat overcomes the small air conditioner there.

This is the hottest summer I've experienced in my 20 years in the south. I'd move if I could!!! But September is coming, and any day now, I might have enough extra $$ to get cooler...

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Artist: I'm mostly a painter of colorful and expressive pieces, but I don't hold myself to any one medium. I love collage and mixed media and find joy in every genre of art from realism to conceptualism. Though my means are modest, I am enriched by all that is around me.

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As you work, the mood grows on you. There are certain images which suddenly get hold of me and I really want to do them. But it's true to say that the excitement and possibilities are in the working and obviously can only come in the working. - Francis Bacon