Hello antonimm1979!Welcome to Male Survivor!I'm sorry that you have to be here, but you are at right place to share your story and to ask and get support and compassion. You are very brave when you decided to start sharing your story, just keep like that further I've been part of this community for more than one year and I benefited immensely since than. Be well!

Welcome to MS. You have taken a huge step by beginning to speak out about your childhood abuse. Confronting your mother took tremendous courage. In time the sadness will pass. Just keep doing the hard work of recovery and you will make it.

Jude

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I will remember youWill you remember me?Don't let your life pass you byWeep not for the memoriesSarah McLachlan

I just read your story. You are a very strong and resilient person. You commented that you feel like you don't have any family. "Family" can be those whom we choose to bring into our lives, not necessarily those to whom we are related. Often, those whom we invite into our lives treat us better than those to whom we are related.

This is not to say you are not lonely or grieving for the family closeness you do not have.

You asked what your next steps should be. Essentially the same thing you would tell any of your clients - to work on their issues and to get healthier. Once you are in a better place within yourself you will again reach out to bring others into your personal life.

Take your time and look around. You do not want to trigger yourself by reading too many posts at one time.

At your own pace, read the boards and wander into chat. The lounge (chat) is open 24 hours a day though it isn't always populated.

We also have moderated chats called Healing Circles. They meet on Sunday and Wednesday evenings at 9pm eastern time and one on Tuesday at 19:00 UTC (European and African time zone) which translates to 2 PM Eastern US time zone. The Healing Circle on Tuesdays is scheduled to resume in January.

Again, welcome to MS.

Anomalous

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