my god … it's full of stars

I’m feeling incredibly sad today. I wish that things were different, that each day didn’t somehow feel worse than the next. I’m just exhausted from dealing with all this incredibly overwhelming emotional shit all the time and I need a vacation, a break, a moment alone without even my thoughts.

I want to give up or actually figure out how to start over. I want to stop feeling like everything I say or do or think is faulty. I want to remember what it feels like to be happy with myself and with my partner. I want to not feel so damn fucking alone all the time.