Sorry to bother you all

I guess I made it through the day...I didn't spend time with my family or eat with them. To be honest...I would have ordered a pizza than eat what was there.

While I didn't drink today (mostly because I'm broke) I still feel the same emotional pain that is a constant in my life. I keep asking myself the same question: will this hurt ever end? I don't think it will. I feel so powerless and weak.