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During this reboot I had like 7 accidental encounters with porn in one form or other and when I chose not to PMO I felt even stronger will and more positive about everything every time. It keeps getting better

Today I had to find my artwork which I remembered I saved in my old folder with porn gifs that I forgot to delete. God fucking damn it!

I had to scroll through those gifs in order to find my artwork pictures. I scrolled as fast as I could but I caught a glimpse of few of them gifs. I suddenly had a rush to masturbate. I found artwork I searched for,took them out and immediately deleted that gif folder and all those porn gifs in it and went outside to take a fresh breath and not relapse. They are like spirits from the past which haunt you. But I feel I am stronger for winning another battle against encounter which tempted me to PMO.

Ex heavy masturbator here. Last 2.5 years I used to masturbate to all kinds of crazy porn over 4 times a day.

I had dozens and dozens of reboots before this one. After much attempts I was finally able to have easy start on this one. Basically practice of patience and strong will makes perfectionist. You may relapse few more times,but you will always remember you tried to last longer than last time. Progressively you will strenghten your will. One day you will gather enough strength to take a full devotion and go for those 90 days hard mode. Just keep up the fight and body will get used to fighting and will overcome addiction.

I was scrolling through forum about stories from hiking and camping and while I was reading through ordinary posts one of the posters on thread made sexual post where he narrated how he had sex with girlfriend in forest during hike and as I finished reading that post I realized I was a bit turned on and I got 60% hard erection which lasted for aprox 15 seconds. What is this supposed to mean? Is it ok that I was slightly turned on by idea of myself having sex with girl in nature? Is this good since I didn't need any kind of memories from porn or porn scenarios to get turned on and this was my strongest erection since the start of this reboot?

I don't demonize porn. Porn didn't force itself on me. I forced myself unto it instead of trying to revamp,because I wasn't able to be rational. 6 years ago I used to watch porn 3-4 times a month and I could have sex without problem. Problems came when I was emotionally wrecked,separated from real life like 2.5 years ago and I started doing drugs,watching porn over 5 times a day and indulging in fetishes and scenes which are quite rare for ordinary man to achieve.

I don't demonize porn. Porn didn't force itself on me. I forced myself unto it instead of trying to revamp,because I wasn't able to be rational. 6 years ago I used to watch porn 3-4 times a month and I could have sex without problem. Problems came when I was emotionally wrecked,separated from real life like 2.5 years ago and I started doing drugs,watching porn over 5 times a day and indulging in fetishes and scenes which are quite rare for ordinary man to achieve.

Havent changed the counter for long time but now Im 19 days in. Honestly I feel pretty good for the most part. No much need for porn,working through it somehow. I get pretty hard morning woods I dont complain about it either.

But god damn it,I realized now how much my dick got desensitized by all that dry masturbation 4-5 times a day almost every day ti porn for the past 2 years since GF broke up with me. Like even after 19 days of leaving the skin to heal I dont feel anything on its skin. It feels like its skin is made of dead tissue. I am extremely worried. I never realized how much I messed my little guy up.

When I compare it to when I was 13 and just started masturbating it felt like a bliss touching it,and Im not even going to mention stimulation of it by vagina. Now it feels like I would need a fucking sandpaper to get it stimulated.

Do things get better? Because there is no use of doing reboot and being able to get and stay 100% hard and enjoy real sex again if I am not able to regain my skin sensitivity.

Same here mate,heartbreak made me go way deeper into porn. Before relationship,I used to watch porn 2-3 times a week and it was mostly vanilla stuff. Then I met her,completely stopped porn and got very emotionally attached to her and had amazing sex and no issue performing. Then we broke up and I got asocial,went into doing drugs and watching porn and jerking off 3-4 times a day of each week to get over the fact I was completely destroyed. To sooth my soul progressively porn genres started spreading and I watched more rough,degrading,feitshist and brutal and diverse stuff constantly. After 3 years,I did get over her enough to move on with life,but need to stay with porn remained after so much PMO. I completely lost penis sensitivity,like I couldnt feel any stimulation on its skin and couldnt ejaculate or get turned on by anything anymore and it still lasts. I just need to do another reboot and finally get over this. So far I did 2 real ones which lasted 33 days but I relapsed,BUT I can confirm you that those brain circuits connected to porn start weakening,you can feel penile sensitivity slowly returning,morning woods start again with depandable strength and you feel more emotionally balanced and energetic. Its a slow process but it does offer great prize in the end.

Thanks William, sometimes I forget that this is not an all or nothing matter.. I probably made a good progress for being 2 weeks and only having 3 moments of fantasizing for a couple minutes in this entire time. I used to fap 1 or 2 times a day so it's a big progress already.

This is really hard but you are right, the benefits are huge and life changing, so it's worth it.

Gratz on the 900+ days, keep it up!

Look if it comforts you,my neighbors have loud passionate sex every 2nd day during 11pm-1am and Im supposed to fight the urge of not listening them and falling into going PMO. Its like reboot on very hard difficulty. Keep the good fight.

How to deal with urge? Tough but as long as you stay away from triggers fight is much easier.

But if it comforts you I can hear my neighbors fucking almost every 2nd night. Its very hard not to MO or go PMO when you hear her screaming with dick inside. I relapsed on 15th day because of it,just got up went to porn site and ejaculated in like 12 seconds being semi hard. I felt pathetic and defeated.

It was first pleasurable to listen to,but now its very annoying and is giving me seizure cause my brain is trying to rebalance its sex pathways. I seriously need to get something to jam in my ears so I cant hear them. Its making me insane and blocking my reboot.

I have new neighbors. They are very sexually active. They are having sex very often. She moans very loud. Also when the guy reaches climax he is also extremely loud. This is triggering me a lot in many ways. It causes emotional unbalance because it reminds me of my EX to whom I still have emotional attachment to and amazing sex I had with her. The girl moaning so passionately gives me, you know PMO, MO thoughts. Also when I hear the guy climax with so much pleasure, I imagine being him and I also get serious need for PMO, MO.

Its literally every 2nd day around 12-2 am. I know one of advices would be "go where its quiet". I tried to use ear caps but too loud still. I tried to sleep in kitchen. Nope can still hear them. The only place where I dont hear them is the fucking bathroom. But I feel like a complete idiot waking up in the middle of night,going to shitty bathroom which is freezing and staying there for half an hour hoping they are finished. "Knock on walls" didnt do much. They stop but get back to it. Im at the end of building and only I can hear them so its not building issue. I dont want to get into a fight because its not issue that I hate. Its but cause of reboot.

Problem is that I enjoy listening to it but its causing triggers to come and Im conscious about it. I am left sleepless. I am still fighting the urge but barely. Since I just started this reboot I need advice to keep PMO and MO out of question on this.

I noticed that i usually relapse 9 out of 10 times on the day following a binge drinking, like lately for the new year. Which obviously lead me to not only considering, but simply quit on alcohol for at least 4 or 5 weeks and enhance my chance of not relapsing, since i usually struggle past 1 week of no PMO.

Question is, am i the only one ? Have you ever experienced such a thing, PMO the day after drinking ? Kinda strange that in such situation i feel so horny while i should "normally" feel the opposite.

Same here. Got very drunk last week and after hangover passed I noticed I was very horny and my hand just went for it automatically. I came in like 8 seconds. My dick didnt even get fully erect. I think I should really reduce drinking cause it breaks my determination to stop PMO.

Anyone else out there having trouble stopping fantasies? I know gabe says that to get results to curing ED, some guys abstain from fantasizing even about real women. Any thoughts?

Fantasies are the hardest one to overcome because you just cant fight it as watching porn. Fantasies are basic part of human brain. Humans fantasize about many things not just sexual ones. Fantasy is basic part of our immagination and trying to fight it is like fighting your own nature.

So personally my approach to things is that:-if some sex or porn fantasy pops up in my mind I accept it!BUT I fight it in a way that I dont do anything about it,I just let it go away. Meaning I dont indulge into it by starting to jerk off,or going to porn or porn substitute to jerk off to.

I see MANY and I mean MANY rebooters becoming interested and turned on by tranny and gay porn from porn addiction.

But I would like to ask,did anyone start feeling very asexual from all the porn consumption? Like does the idea of any sexual acts,naked bodies,intimacy etc. make you sick,very stressed or repulsed and you just dont want to do anything sexual? Like your brain is denying it all

Sex is just like jerking in context that the more you do it,the more you will last. I remember my first sex I lasted 20 seconds. Then after 4 months I could fuck her for 6-8 mins. Your penis gets used to vagina sensitivity. Same like masturbating. When I was 12 I masturbated over double lair pants and I would cum in 30 seconds. Now after 10 years I can go with my dry hand for 10 minutes and not cum since Ive been desensitized.

I already forgot when was last time I jerked off without porn or any other material,but just with fantasies. Mustve been 7 years. It did feel amazing though. But now Im so desensitized the idea feels extremely bland and unsatisfying.