Letter from Elizabeth Seccombe to Robert and Sophie Valentine, 17 September 1907

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I have just returned
from
England where I have been
for the last two months to try & get
rested & strong again I should
have written before I went but I
was too sick & sad to do so
& have kept putting off the evil

day
when I have to tell you two
dear people that I have left Amy
we have not seen or written to
each other for three months & there
seems no chance for our ever
meeting again she does not wish
it so that ends it.

Now I want your advice
about getting something to do
the doctor will not let me nurse
or do settlement work for at least
a year.

But if I do not do something I shall fret myself
into a grave or lunatic asylum.

Boston is out of the question and I feel up
a tree about light work for I must do something
for I cannot afford to live at home.

Of course I might teach in a private school
if it had not been so late in the year. You see
I am quite in the dark as what to do that
is easy – So I wonder if that clever Robert
can help me I can put my hand to any kind
of a plough. We think if I could get something
to do in
Washington or any town south of
N. Y.
I should get through the winter all right, of
course I would give anything to be near you
& Robert for
I am very lonly – I feel that the
bottom had dropped out of the universe &
there is
no use in wanting to live any more.

Its a great pity suicide is out of fashion
There I am getting gloomy & that is owing
to the fact that I have been sea sick ever since