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A father of five. A husband to a beautiful and faithful wife of 18 years as of 2017. A survivor of not just Cancer but of the world. A fighter, a builder of things. An artist of hopefully not just words but painting and creating. A ghost of my former years of Electronics and computers. I love to write and it's about time I express that here and elsewhere in my life.
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Night terrors are basically nightmares while you are awake. Hallucinations, with your body in sleep paralysis from trying to sleep. Happens to me in high anxiety moments PTSD crap… It is all very frustrating and annoying as hell.

Reminds me of my lady in a rocking chair. P.S. Today is my birthday: Seventy two and eyes that are blue. I wrote todays blog for you. I hope you enjoy it. I see you entered the dark side with this post.

The trauma symptoms appeared with full force about 10 years ago. I don’t let the panic attacks keep me in doors. I go out and distract myself with twitter when I feel an attack coming on. My therapist says these panic attacks are actually an expression of anger in my case, so rage tweeting works just fine. 🙂

It helps if the shrink believes in the existence of the mind and the human soul. A therapist
who is afraid of human suffering is useless to people with PTSD. I see a psychotherapist who
specializes in trauma. I didn’t know what was in my head.

My last therapist told me, and I quote, “I have never ever had depression or anxiety… This is how…” As she continued to talk. I am sure I looked dumbfounded. Never? How can someone say that? I couldn’t believe her statement.

Was she some kind of a Psychopath/sociopath trying to help me understand
and deal with my inner feelings/memories and anxiety?

“Never?” I asked her. She said something affirming her previous statement.
I asked her again…
“Never?”

I couldn’t get past it. So I left. There wasn’t anyone else available to me at the time. Big city programs, and me being a no money guy dealing with Cancer/PTSD/OCD bull crap…
No one else had time to see me…

I couldn’t get past her “never…”

I think it is amazing you found someone you could trust and help you!!!

What was the context of that kind of that comment? What kind of therapist tells her client that she has no capacity for understanding his feelings of depression and anxiety?

I am extremely fortunate to have this therapist. I wish everyone with a mental illness had access to proper treatment. We can lead productive lives when the medical system isn’t trying to kill us with lethal neglect.

I am so sorry you experience this. Night terrors have only happened to me a handful of times but nightmares more often. This was so chilling and perfectly expressed. It is such an awful feeling. Praying for peace for you tonight…! ❤