Theresa's Diary February 2000

Dear Diary

It was like fate was telling Ethan that he was supposed to be with me. He asked me to go shopping for an engagement ring for Gwen. I passed out but he brought me orange juice and made sure I was okay. I just had no idea that once he put the ring on my finger that it would end up getting stuck. The man at the jewelry store told Ethan he should let me keep the ring and marry me. The ring went on with no problem but it refused to come off.

I was able to wear it home because nothing was getting the ring off my finger. Fate wants me to be with Ethan. I'm supposed to be with him not Gwen. She had her chance and blew it. I would have never turned him down like she did. She was just so determined to prove that I didn't have a boyfriend. Now she must feel like an idiot after seeing Chuck who really saved me by showing up when he did.

He could have bought the ring without putting it on my finger. I think deep down he knows that I'm meant to be Mrs Ethan Crane not Gwen. It was so wonderful when he put that beautiful ring on my finger. I have never seen such a beautiful ring. Gwen doesn't deserve to have such a beautiful ring. Ethan just has to realize what a bitch Gwen is. I just wish she'd gone off on the waiter like she did in my dream.

Dear Diary

I had the best dream and I woke up with the ring still on my finger. I just know that Fate put that ring on my finger. It is such a beautiful ring but Luis caught me wearing it. I went back to sleep and he woke me up and noticed it. I convinced him that it was fake. He still has no idea that I'm working for Ivy Crane or that I'm seeing Ethan. I just know that he would get so mad which is what he did. He has such a temper but I know that one day Ethan and Luis will be good friends. Fate will make it happen.

I did think about letting Gwen see it accidentally but decided that would be too mean. But it turns out that Gwen did see it when I helped pull Miguel out of the pond. Not even Gwen deserves that. It was just so scary when Miguel fell through the ice after Charity was rescued. It was so romantic when Miguel went out on the ice to rescue her. It was like something out of a movie.

I was so scared when Miguel was in the water. I made a promise to god that I would leave Ethan alone unless I felt he wanted to be with me. Miguel is just fine which I'm so glad about. The ring came off my finger just before Ethan called me about it. I didn't tell him about the ring coming off my finger. I just put it back on. I don't know what I'm going to do about that. I might have to give it back even though that ring should be mine. I'm meant to be with Ethan not Gwen.

Dear Diary

I gave the ring back to Ethan. I have to give up on Ethan. It breaks my heart but I have no choice. There's no hope for us. I was tempted to keep the ring on but I just couldn't. I saw Ethan propose to Gwen again and she said yes.

I just don't know how I'm going to live my life without Ethan. I was so sure I'd be with him. I just knew that fate was on my side. It really did seem like it but now I have to give up that dream. Maybe I could become a nun.

I didn't even want to see Ethan when he showed up to check on me. It was so horrible. Gwen wanted me to help her plan the wedding. I spent so much time imagining my wedding to Ethan and now Gwen gets to live my dream.