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Thursday, August 26, 2010

This day...

This day last year was the last day I spent with Little Mama. We went to the clinic, to the drug store for antibiotics and I got her a new book. It was a pop up of The Princess and the Pea. We snuggled in the recliner all afternoon. We had pizza for dinner and Marie had cottage cheese and peach ice cream... She enjoyed dessert.

I was on edge, worried about Mama and excited to be induced and meet the baby the next day. So fearful about leaving her.

It was our last full day together... This is the very last photo I took of our Princess...

A warm shower, lavender lotion, a snuggle but sleep wouldn't come. She couldn't settle down. I spent the night at the foot of the cross. Early morning found me crying, how could I possibly leave her to go to the hospital? I was praying harder than I had ever prayed. In the past God would grant Marie sleep on hard nights within moments of my prayer. That night we were in the valley. I felt so alone, as though He could not hear me.

Morning came and we had to leave to the hospital, inductions start early. I sobbed, I told her to be good. It hurt to leave her...

Princess Marie, Queen of the Universe. Happy in paradise... we are missing you so much right now.