I've been battling something for a week or so and boy did I take a turn for the worse last night.. A temperature, yet I was shivering. Head thumping. Throat sore. Joints aching. Feeling weepy. Feeling sick.

Thank you all so much. Yes my husband ( ex) died this week. Even though I did my grieving ten years ago when my marriage hit the rocks I think I'm still affected by what might have been. He died with our lovely family split down the middle and estranged from his lovely daughter. A very, very sad end.

I've been to my doctor today and look at this little haul. She found something related to the meningitis virus, pneumococcus, and staph pyogenes. All nasty. She found a lot of them in most of my organs. Shes 89, I hope she's going to live forever. There aren't many doing her kind of work.

If I'd used my NHS doctor I'd have been stuffed up with antibiotics, which no doubt would have cured me but would have left me open to goodness knows what else.

So much better now. My daughter ( trained homeopath ) called by on Saturday and recommended I take a high potency Ignatia remedy. Ignatia is good for grief,anger and apparently for clearing stuff out of your system. She felt with her dad dying and there being so many unresolved issues between us ( he didnt want to be friendly) and the fact that i took ill the day after he died and so those issues were left hanging in mid air so to speak ) was a big clue to what was needed.

So I made the 1 M tablet and took three spread out over the day and by bedtime the pains in my joints had gone, especially the ones in my wrists which had kept me awake at night. Blinding headache had gone. Everywhere felt so much better

Clever girl. I took it easy yesterday( I'm still coughing mainly at night) so after five days in bed I'm up and have managed almost a full day.

I've gone into quite a lot of detail because it might help someone else. This is where homeopathy scores over allopathic medecine as it treats the whole person and that might include the emotions. I never saw it myself because I think I was suppressing my feelings particularly my anger that he hurt my daughter so and that is making me cry.

Thank you for all your boosts, kind loving thoughts etc. I'm not quite out of the woods. Still need to get rid of this nagging coughso I can give OH some TLC as for five days he has been brilliant and put his own ill health aside to help me.

Good health is the greatest gift of all. I do believe in miracles. For other people though never for me.

I can only say on Saturday I got my miracle.

Sunday I took it easy. Nice bath and back to bed.

Yesterday I put in a full day from getting up around 9 am to going to bed around 12-30 am!

This has just not happened before . Usually it's a long slow haul back not leaping around like a spring chicken the minute I'm out of bed? I did house fixing, shopping, present wrapping, clothes laundering, washing up. It was crazy!