Valentine’s Series: Day Eight: Time

I am surprised at you; acting like what you did would not have any consequences. You have made me rethink pretty much every decision I have ever made in life and yet you don’t seem to understand the magnitude of your actions.

I want to say that it was just a stupid fight but I fear that I don’t believe it was only that.

How I wish I could move on in a heart beat instead of spending sleepless nights trying to remember to forget you. Time stood still that day and hasn’t moved since, so believe me when I say that I do not mean to be silent.

I honestly don’t know what to say or do; I want to be selfish and I want to be with you so I can’t have it both ways.

The thing about you is that at the end of the day, it is about you. Even after everything you put me through, I find myself wanting to apologize because I can feel you placing the blame on me.

Even knowing that, I still believe in us.

I need time to think about us; because at times I feel like you are suffocating me and I need to breathe.