Sparks

When I was growing up, I remember I had so many friends, boys and girls alike that had a very firm passion, dream, or goal. They wanted to be astronauts or teachers or doctors. I looked at them and had no effing idea what I wanted to do with my life. There were things I was good at, there were things I loved, but none of them screamed career to me. Throughout High School, as that decision became more and more important, I shrugged and thought: I’ll be a teacher. I like kids, I like helping people, I like learning and teaching. Bam. Teacher.

Two years into my degree, I realized something: I did not want to teach elementary school. I didn’t want to be in the public school system. I didn’t want to do any of that. And instead of figuring out WHAT I wanted to do, I got married, got pregnant and dropped out at the ripe old age of 20.

This little one changed everything!

I recently started a book by Jen Sincero called You are a Badass. It’s a modern twist on your usual self-help, be awesome at your life type book… and it is speaking to me on a deep level.

The book asks what I want to get out of it, what is my dream, what do I want to be a Badass at? And I came up with… NADA. I’m 30 years old and have never quite put my finger on what I want to do with my life. So I took some of these tools from the book, and began meditating, and putting it out “into the universe.”

Well yesterday, while driving back to work after a lunch-time Target break… I felt the sparks. Not a lightning bolt, but sparks. I want to help people. I want to connect with people, especially women. I want to help women love themselves, the way they deserve to. I want to fight diet culture, and empower women. I want to connect with other amazing, fierce, fat babes in my community, and I want to be an expert for them to turn to.

I want to be a peer to Jes Baker, and Virgie Tovar. I want to research and study and grow. I want to be a body love Guru, and write a book. I want to be on the Today Show.

This is what I’m going to do. So you, early Fat Mom reader… you are in store for a great ride!