It’s the theme for NaBloPoMo – it’s something I’ve tried in the past and will keep on trying every once in a while until I finish it – finally. I haven’t yet, but there is a first time for everything – a first time to make commitments and promises and KEEP them for yourself, if not for anyone else.

There are a lot of things that I have been promising myself lately. I’ve promised myself that I’ll work harder in the hopes of getting that raise that I feel like I’ve been deserving of for months now – something I think I’m OWED at this point, but apparently I still need to show more dedication for. That’s a frustrating thing, my job, and something that takes up a lot of my thoughts once I’ve left it to go home and move on to other, better things. But you know, I don’t want to get Dooced, either.

I’ve also promised myself to get a date – as soon as possible. That is going to be a much longer story, a saga if you will – I can only imagine that there is much adventure to be had in a world I have yet to be a part of. I have already signed up for a free dating site called Ok Cupid and have been chatting with a few guys – I even have two potential but not confirmed dates for Tuesday night! And I think to myself: “Really? It’s this easy, after all this time, all I have to do is go looking for it?”

That’s where laziness and apathy get you: nowhere.

So I am swimming into new directions and towards new people and dreams for the future – something that I should have been doing a long time ago, but it’s like lately a switch has been turned on inside of me and I suddenly NEED the connection that for so long I had just thought wasn’t NECESSARY for my life.

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