A recurring theme in my meditation has been "______ the process." That blank space is often filled in with different words like enjoy, honor, appreciate, respect, pursue, settle into, etc. If I am being honest, last month was extremely difficult for me. So I am not surprised that my way of coping has been to literally navigate my way around the hard times by processing and swallowing the hardest trials and tribulations that I have faced in a very long time. Be okay with the process came up yesterday at about seven in the morning. I mean, of course, it would, right? I am in beautiful Joshua Tree, reflecting, bonding with sister-friends, eating clean, sunbathing, and being present. It makes sense that the Universe would smack me with "Alex, be OK. It'll all be OK if you let it." I am not sure that I am ready to be okay and accepting of this particular season, but I must eventually, if I want change to come. If I want peace to come.

Life isn't straight forward. That is what I am learning the older I get it. Life is complicated, humans are intense, dynamic, and confusing, relationships are complex and ever changing. Existing and being is all about processing and shifting.