Nine of Wands (R) - Your defenses have failed - your
problems grow too great for your strength to hold them back. The barriers
you have created to protect yourself are becoming your cage. You are
giving away your self-responsibility. Seek a different approach -
recognize now that your old habits make you inflexible. You have risked so
much to get this far - be fearless now and move forward in relative
safety. It is time for you to take your next step - take the fences down.
Listen to your guides and trust your intuition. "Act" on your
inspirations. Carry your experiences with you and release your fear of
moving on. Do not bend under adversity or display weakness in your
attitude - fight for what you believe to be right and true. Trust that you
have the deep internal resources necessary to resolve any issues that
might arise now. Implement your strength in those areas which will allow
you to work more effectively in both the personal and professional arenas
of your life.

You are weighted down by the structure of your belief and support
systems. You are too idealistic. The extensions of self at this point may
have made you too heavy. This may show the impact of a top heavy, overly
bureaucratic, spiritual organization. The image of an overweight monk
comes to mind. This could show spiritual smugness, complacency - spiritual
conceit. In a sense, this is quitting before you get to the end of the
path, because it feels so good in this place that you do not want to
leave. Also spiritual fatigue.

Questions to Answer: What previous knowledge and abilities are you
drawing on? What is strengthening you to face opposition? What disciplines
are carrying you through? Who or what is demanding a lot from you? What
task do you have to handle on your own?