In Memory of Kristin Kay Smith, 10/1/1986 – 12/29/2000

I found myself thinking about you last night kristin. I was in my room by myself and I found myself with tears running down my face as I was supposed to be sleeping for school today. I was thinking about how happy we were with you around and maybe things would be different if you were still around, like maybe all 4 of us would still be a family instead of 4 people in different places. I wish I could say you would be sooooo proud of me. I dont think I can, i let you down in helping mom out and I’ll never forgive myself for it. I’ve hurt mom so bad I dont know what to do about it. I just wish she would listen to me and maybe for once believe me that I’m sorry for everything I have done in my life and to her. I just want our family back and things to be the way they were before you left us. I can’t believe your turnning 23!! I miss you so much and wish you were still here and maybe you could watch me graduate. Tell Abby, Daddy, Nathan, and Rita hi for me. I know you all are having a party in Heaven for your b-day. I’m supposed to be doing school so I better go but I just wanted to log on and say HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTIN!!!! I love you sis, keep smiling down on us and send some of your love down here, we definatly could use some right now!!! Miss you, Love you and I’ll never forget you!!! your lil’ sis, cheybee