9.23.2014

5 things

guilt is not a good motivator.

i have no idea why i thought the shame associated with eating a whole vegan pizza would be enough fuel for me to begin a juice fast the next day. as a former emotional binger, i have felt plenty of food shame and i still didn't lose weight. my motivation, interestingly enough, is not linked to emotions.

impulsiveness and spontaneity are short-lived novelties.
deciding to jump straight into the fast cold turkey due to said guilt/shame only made me feel good about how "strong" i was for about 1.2 days. after that, the realities of how irresponsible that decision was became VERY apparent.

willpower runs out.
i tend to think and operate in a dualistic mindset. so when i read switch and the authors discussed how no one has enough willpower to institute a variety of big changes all at the same time, i thought it was interesting but somewhat pandering to lazy people (like myself). i, just like everyone else, has an incredible amount of willpower that i exert on a daily basis. this time, due to a variety of academic and social pressures i have been experiencing lately, i didn't have enough to go around for the fast.go big or go home doesn't always apply.
why did i decide on 10 days for my first time? and i was even thinking of doing it the full 60 days like joe, who is clearly a special case. why i didn't see the validity in trying a few days at a time and building up to something bigger is beyond me."resetting" your diet without resetting your mindset is futile.
the main reason for completing the fast should've been to further augment my desire to improve upon my health (which i am doing as a vegan), not as some crazy crash diet to make me feel better about that pizza. food is not evil, and not eating it shouldn't be some sort of entryway into being "good."
i am determined to make a juice fast work because i don't like quitting and i am really interested in the results. (plus, crossing things off of my 30x30 gives me a serious high!)
but i will be much more mindful of transitioning into it as opposed to going cold turkey, and i will ensure i start at a time when i have no large commitments/stressors.

in essence, i really need to do what i normally do best: plan!linking up with chantel

in pursuit of:

treating each perceived failure as a learning opportunity in an effort to combat my irrational fear of failure (a 30x30 honorable mention)

Resetting the mindset is a must. I am not a good dieter but I'm an excellent gym chick. Rather than focusing on diet, I've been hitting the gym. I hate cardio. Rather than focusing on cardio, I'm hitting the weights. I'm doing what feels right. Trying to force things that were not my thing led to total failure.

You're so right.I think I struggle because I do know I need to lose weight and my diet has been the main difference. I can work out forever and still never lose a pound or change my body - i HAVE to do it in conjunction with a diet of some sort in order to see results :-/