I say "I have hope and faith in eternal promises that are so beautiful that I want them to be true, but I still struggle with doubts." I will not go into specifics. I have only ever gone into detail about how we equate church service as "binding" God to deliver blessings - and then those blessings might not materialize in quite the way that we have come to expect. Essentially, that we collectively tend to overpromise on the happiness and blessings category.

"It is not so much the pain and suffering of life which crushes the individual as it is its meaninglessness and hopelessness." C. A. Elwood

“It is not the function of religion to answer all the questions about God’s moral government of the universe, but to give one courage, through faith, to go on in the face of questions he never finds the answer to in his present status.” TPC: Harold B. Lee 223

"I struggle now with establishing my faith that God may always be there, but may not always need to intervene" Heber13

flameburns623 wrote:There's a new bishop in charge of my ward, as of last week. We will be getting together in the next couple of weeks to discuss my situation. I'm going to spend the next several days preparing to sit down with him.

Who asked for the meeting? Is it you or your bishop that wants to make your beliefs a subject that gets discussed during the meeting?

When discussing beliefs with an ecclesiastical leader I've never made it past:

Leader: How is your testimony?
Me: Fine.

I think that's all either of us have ever had the time for.

Good luck. If you want, let us know how it goes.

The night stared me in the face, amorphous, blind, infinite, without frontiers. Not a single star relieved the darkness behind the glass.
― Stanisław Lem