Month: April 2016

Long before I gave birth to Gabriel, I already knew I will feel overwhelming love and joy; and it’s not unknown that most days are draining and that I will definitely have to endure a lot of sleepless nights. But I know that I will be able to get through those though. ‘Coz Mums are that tough, right?

But I never know I will be this tired. Burnt-out-kind-of-tired.

I keep telling myself that this is just a phase in a first time mother’s life. That this will pass. That I will get through this. But it doesn’t take away the weariness in me.

One typical morning, I woke up with a painful sensation in my upper right abdomen. I am also having hyperacidity attack which worsens the situation more. I was about to wake up my husband who’s currently comfortably asleep to bring me to the ER when the pain slowly subsided until it’s already tolerable enough. I sat in the corner of our bed, trying to relax. Then a thought just popped out in my head.

Who will take care of me, in times like this? I actually don’t know the answer.

There was an instance when I had a high grade fever because of my pre-mastitis condition (I had this on-and-off relationship with clogged milk ducts for the first 8 months of my breastfeeding journey). Because I was sick, I let Gabriel stay at my in-laws house. Bryan – my husband, wasn’t able to leave the office because of unfinished task. While there I was, alone at home, feeling like I was already battling for my life. You know, that very awful feeling of feeling sick, having plugged ducts and high fever. I was already hallucinating that time, I guess. And yet, I force myself to get up from bed, get my own wet towel to put in my forehead, get my own medicine to drink, get my own glass of water, check my own temperature…

That was some lonely night. Feeling like there’s no one beside me to take care of me.

But then again, I am a mother now. My family depends on me. I cannot be weak. I cannot be sick. My family needs me.

Being a mother feels lonely sometimes. Of course it is the happiest phase of a woman’s life. There’s no need for a justification on that. Just seeing my baby’s smile already inserts pure joy to my heart.

But really, who takes care of us?

Are we ok, Mommas?

Personally, as of this writing, I am feeling very exhausted. I still have hyperacidity that doesn’t go away even I already took 2 tablets of chewable antacid medicine. I don’t have the appetite for food. I want to rest but I still have to cook. The pile of unfolded clothes and cloth diapers are calling for attention, and the floor needs to be mopped. Just thinking about the chores makes me feel tired already. I just feel soooooo restless (and ugly!) for the past few days. So who will take care of me?

I might seem needy, and dependent. Maybe, as a first time Momma, I still have a long way to go and a lot to learn. But right now, I am tired.

I will take a bit of rest. Just enough rest because I can never have the kind of rest that I’ve been longing for so long. But before I go to sleep, I’d like to send virtual hugs to the exhausted Mommas out there. It’s okay that we feel this way. It’s okay if we don’t feel like a superwoMOM that most people expect us to be. It’s okay if we get cranky and irritable sometimes. We’re only humans. Just a reminder to you all and to myself as well: Smile. Eat well. Pray. And take care of yourself. Because if you don’t, no one else might will. Us, mothers, are designed to nurture and nourish our family. And I think we have to start with ourselves first. 🙂

I’ve been sharing some of my recipes for a while. Though I am not that great with cooking and food presentation, I strive into trying new or experimental recipes. Those of which I don’t use instructions I usually find online.

This recipe are one those come what may dishes. Though I know there may be a lot of dishes out there with the same concept as this one, I am still happy that it turned out well.

I love chicken and I love creamy dishes! So I combined it and voila! Another successful cooking I may say. 🙂

I strive into making dishes that are hearty and healthy so that my almost 1 year old son can eat it as well. It saves me time and energy rather than preparing his food separately or opting for cerelac. Hehe. It’s just a personal choice.

For the mommies who are out of ideas on what to cook for dinner, you find my recipe helpful. Here’s what you need:

2 to 4 pieces of Magnolia Boneless Chicken Breast, cut into cubes

1 onion, diced

3 to 4 cloves of garlic, diced

1 can of Campbell’s Cream of Mushroom Soup

1 medium-sized carrot, cubed

1 medium-sized potato, cubed

1 broccoli, blanched

1 tbsp Basil Leaves

Salt and Pepper

In a wok, saute garlic, onion, potatoes and carrots. Then put the chicken breast cubes. When potatoes and chicken are slightly brown, pour 1 – 1 1/2 cups of water and let it simmer for 10-12 minutes.

Pour in next 1 cup of Campbell’s Cream of Mushroom Soup then let it simmer for another 5-8 minutes in low-medium heat. Salt and Pepper to taste. Sprinkle basil leaves for some finishing touch. Enjoy!

This dish yields: 2-3 persons.

Preparation time: 20-30 minutes

Chicken and Veggies in Cream of Mushroom Soup

Happy cooking!

Live. Laugh. Love. Pray.

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Mitchikels

Howdy! I am Michelle and welcome to my blog! I am a wife, and a breastfeeding, cloth nappying, co-sleeping and babywearing Momma since 2015. I am a Software Engineer by profession and a Writer by heart. I am nostalgic and sentimental. I like reading books, and anything owl-y and hearts-y stuff!

This blog is built due to the long lost dream of becoming a writer, and the euphoria of being a mother! :) So join me as I journey through (though clueless for most of the time) and celebrate motherhood, love and life.