Monday, January 25, 2010

I walked outside todayThe white snow traveling along it's journey onto the weathered groundI stood.I stared.I peaked over the edge of the building contemplating the importance of lifeThe positives of deathI stood.I stared.My trembling hands lighting the one thing that makes me feel something besides paininhale. exhale.I stare off into the distance believing that love won't come my way againThinking love has given me a chance and I managed a way to fuck it all upI stood.I stared.My slow paced step led me back to my house.The sanctuary for most. A torture chamber for me.White.Why is snow white?Why must you see it so visibly even to the naked eyeIt's bright; it shows hope.Its a lie.It illuminates the problems us humans don't want to figure out.It shares it's color with a few from naturebut red.Red is a color that is rarely known to be visioned with snowThe blood that drips down from my wrist.It leaves marks. Memories. Hope.I can't help but think love is not realThat it's a figment of my imagination in which I created in order to help myself through lifeSnow deomnstrates that for me.It illuminates the pain that has come my way and the hope that I have lost from it allI stood.I stared.I cried.After a whileIt's come to known,everyone must come inside.

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About Me

My name's Kat. I'm the kind of girl who can live such a nightmare and still find the strength to smile. I'm the girl who acts happy when i'm really dying inside.I'm the girl who thinks lfie is nothing without the power of love. My life's a ngihtmare and a dream at the same time and i'd love to share my thoughts with the world.