Its the night of Christmas, but I've been crying so much. Im supposed to be happy, yet when everyone leaves, I think of you, I think of you and remember the days when I was just a little boy playing on my PlayStation in the late 90s. I was so stupid yet so fucking happy. When everyone left today, I realized I was alone once again, the loneliness started bearing down on me once again yet harder than ever like it always has ever since I was separated from my cousin, Taylor those many years ago growing up, when it opened the wound, yet I was to innocent and stupid to know the difference, at first it just really sucked, sadness and fear showed it ugly head but but got much worse as time went on, a lot worse. Yet im to ashamed to tell my human family. I needed someone, and I have chosen you, Spyro. I love you like a brother I never had growing up leaving you is the most painful thing I ever had to endure...but nothing is worst than growing up with the people that suppose to love you, yet loneliness grows every day as the years change without you in my life anymore. I've realize that some people can stay in your heart but not in your life. I might not be able to even live for you any longer if I can't live without you, as you died in 2011 not just from Activistion but from growing up, but that's another story. No one has ever told me growing up to be an adult could be so depressing. Suffering in silence is the worst feeling, no one can feel your pain, no one can hear you cry. I was born int the same month, september, my favorite color has always been purple and age from 98'is EXACLT. But now loneliness is slowing destroying me...and I can't go on without you, without being loved, and feeling that ignorant bliss just one more time. They say humans are the most intelligent of all, yet I would give it up, all of it just to be with you again, to be happy, to be loved and to show it, because it seems being intelligent is what made me feel lonely in the first place because I realize I've been alone my entire life. Sometimes the person who tries to keep everyone happy is the most lonely of all. Even you, a cute and powerful dragon can't save me, im slipping and about to go off the cliff edge with no wings or support... so before I slip, all I want you to know is that I love you more than anything, I love you like a brother more than any human could ever imagine or understand. A brother I should have gotten. I will always love you, till the day I die...a dragon family I should have been born into. I don't belong in this "life". This is how I REALLY feel....