Solace in Dislike

Most people would agree (at least to themselves) that they are people pleasers. Its human nature to want to fit-in, to belong, to be part of the 'in' crowd. I, however, realized early on that I could not please people. I just didn't have the energy within to please them, hence I was okay with being disliked. In hindsight, I believe 'coz people never liked me much (as I was pretty blunt and straight forward) it worked in my favor and allowed me to live up to my full potential. I must have (sub consciously) decided early on to beat my own drum and do my own thing asI have never felt the need for anyone's approval and have been undeterred by people's opinions of me. I am pretty clear about what I like and dislike, the kind of people I would want to meet and not meet, etc. And I have no intention of wasting this short presence on earth, living the diplomatic life. There are so many better things I can do with that time, you know?

Can I tell you a secret though? Now when those 'same' people turn around and say that they like me, I'm not so sure how I feel about that. There was a certain solace in being disliked. I had made my peace with it. I don't want things to change between us. Please don't love me! ;)