sorry girls but i need to let this out no one has to reply but i need this off my chest as im taking my mood out on the kids and i have had enough of it all, last night i was disgusting to josh and screamed in his face e was the biggest mistake of my life then because alex had opened the baby gate and made it so they could get down stairs and empty all the cereal over the floor i went nuts at him i even started screaming i didnt want this baby. im just so damn fed up with every thing dans getting stupid pains in his chest and insists he is having heart attacks and every thing is a symptom to him but when he gets a pain every thing has to stop and then its constantly all day about how bad he felt / feels its draining me emotionally and physically, i dont like seeing him in pain or worrying e is going to die, but he cant understand that every thing he is feeling is part of anxiety, but once he has one thing then nothing gets done in the house, because he feels to bad so then im making my self bad trying to get it all done, the kids are being sods so im snapping at them and then on top of all that this crap wth the hospital and the pains im getting are just the final nail in the coffin, i keep finding my self looking at the medication cupbard and thinking about taking the meds in there and im sick to death of it, i cant speak to dan about it because it turns into a who feels worse, he just saw me write that and said dont let your midwife see this or they will take the kids fucking brilliant

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Sun Nov 07, 2010 12:27 pm

Tina 831

Joined: Wed Jun 09, 2010 10:36 amPosts: 0Location: worcestershire

i totally understand how you feel hun. Im constantly shouting at my kids sometimes like you just said i can be vile! Im ashamed of myself! I had my lo 2 weeks ago now and the sleep deprivation is kicking in. I felt fantastic up until 2 days ago i had a terrible night getting up every hour or so too feed lo. To top it off yesterday i had some tragic news that my friends baby died he was 2 days old!!!! Its just tipped me over the edge.

Im sorry to hear dan is still unwell.I really dont know what else to say hun only that the medicine cupboard isnt the way forward! Just remind your kids that you love them and explain that you dont mean it.Thats what i do anyway,i hope things turn around for you soon and if you need anyone to talk to im here. xx

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Sun Nov 07, 2010 12:42 pm

janeil

Joined: Sun May 16, 2010 10:50 amPosts: 0

I am so sorry you're having a hard time. No wonder you are snapping , you are under pressure when all you could really do with is a bit of support and some rest ! I have 8 weeks to go and already starting to panic that I won't cope, screaming at the kids for every little thing and then feeling even worse about everything and the cycle continues.
I end up going into the bedroom at the ned of the day and apologising to my 2 and 4 yr old, who, bless them, look at me wide eyed and say its ok, when I know it isn't.
My new strategy is to walk away when I feel I'm about to burst. I go in the kitchena nd eat some choccy to give me a few mins to cool down and put it into perspective.
Dan needs to man up a bit for you and get him to go the drs and stop putting anymore unnecessary pressure on himself and you.
Thinking of you chick,

jan x

Sun Nov 07, 2010 12:52 pm

janeil

Joined: Sun May 16, 2010 10:50 amPosts: 0

I am so sorry you're having a hard time. No wonder you are snapping , you are under pressure when all you could really do with is a bit of support and some rest ! I have 8 weeks to go and already starting to panic that I won't cope, screaming at the kids for every little thing and then feeling even worse about everything and the cycle continues.
I end up going into the bedroom at the ned of the day and apologising to my 2 and 4 yr old, who, bless them, look at me wide eyed and say its ok, when I know it isn't.
My new strategy is to walk away when I feel I'm about to burst. I go in the kitchena nd eat some choccy to give me a few mins to cool down and put it into perspective.
Dan needs to man up a bit for you and get him to go the drs and stop putting anymore unnecessary pressure on himself and you.
Thinking of you chick,

jan x

Sun Nov 07, 2010 12:52 pm

Steph_2010

Joined: Mon Jun 07, 2010 4:16 pmPosts: 0Location: Nottingham

Aw Roxi hunni I just wanna give you a massive cuddle!!!! The meds in the cupboard defiantly arn't the answer although tempting at times! Tell Dan you will give him something to moan about if he doesn't start looking after you and the kids to give you a much needed break!! Just take yourself out of the situation to calm down, just walk away for how ever long you need to calm down. Give dan a clip round the lug hole and get him doing it all. You should be resting....easier said than done I know, sorry If I lived near you hun I would gladly come and help with the house & kids Because I know how it feels to need some quiet time!! If you feel you are getting depressed then please speak to your mw...although I think it may just be all the stress build up to the birth and Oliver coming out would be the bestest thing to "ease" the situation atm....would give the kids someone to focus their attention on(thus calming them down ).....If they spill something i.e cereal as harsh as it sounds make them clean it up, they won't like it so therefore they might not do it again. Dan has to realise even though he may be ill life has to carry on and he has to help you **Points Finger in Dans face and waves it about tutting** If you want to scream hun....get a pillow in the bedroom and scream into that so they don't hear it and will make you feel 100 times better. Love to you Roxi xxxxxxxxx

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Sun Nov 07, 2010 1:14 pm

Mumsyto2

Joined: Tue Oct 05, 2010 6:49 pmPosts: 0Location: St Helens

I really hope u feel now that ur not alone hun

Im the same atm im sooooo fed up of bein pregnant now and I feel terrible after all the probs ive had gettin to this stage I feel I shouldnt even think I cant cope bein a mum !!!
My daughtres such a handful and weve had so many run ins this last few weeks its unreal but mostly its my fault as im just so fed up of bein pregnant and the problems that have come with it in the last few weeks
Maybe speak to MW or hosp an tell them how ur feelin that your at the end of ur tether and are mega stressed they may start you off as the last thing they want is a stressed to the max pregnant woman ..not good for u or bubs
Big hugs hope lo is here very soon ..as for OH give him a kick lol ..they dont have the first idea what pressure us women have when pregnant do they x

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Sun Nov 07, 2010 1:21 pm

pollypineapple28

Joined: Sat May 22, 2010 9:38 pmPosts: 0Location: N.Ireland

I wish I had a magic wand, but I don't. And I have never been through this so I don't feel I can give much advice. If I lived close to you I'd come round and help u out.

Have u any family or friends who would be willing to come round and help with housework or even take the kids out for a few hrs? As for Dan, well all men must be the same, any wee twinge of pain and they think they are dyin. Iam feeling the struggle at 31 weeks, so I cant imagine how you feel, your due anyday, you should be taking it easy. Dan should be the one running round after u and taking care of the kids while u rest. I really wish I could help.

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Mon Nov 08, 2010 10:44 am

rubysmommy

Joined: Fri May 18, 2007 2:01 pmPosts: 0Location: walsall

hi
im not sure what to say to help, but i just want to send you a big (((hug)))
hope that baba comes soon xxxx