So much in my 74 years on this planet leave me without explanation or reason. Sorry, but from experiences, anything mortal leaves me in doubt.

So many around me died in Vietnam, How, why did I come home? I sat among many dead, and there were no ghosts or spirits. Religion became a play on falsehoods. Nothing was my decision; others controlled my destiny somehow. For what end? What purpose?

Am I rationalizing or making false conclusions?

I could write a life story depicting outcomes. Is life only an illusion, but the pain is real. Satisfaction or Karma does not bring joy or happiness, only an unexpected outcome, and thinking back regrets were useless but the only directions. We cannot explain existence, dimension; I wish I had words to differ from those others have used.

Your words are very sad for sure. Religion helps some, but they relate to the spiritual experiences of various prophets such as Moses and Jesus, and Isaiah. They do not make much sense to a lot of people.

Man exists in a universe without a creator God. All we have is the spiritual dimension which enables us to pass from one existence to another. What is the value of life to an individual? Very little. You saw some horrible things in Vietnam. You did not see any ghosts or spirits, but they exist in the spiritual dimension. The dead have gone on to new life. Hopefully a little happier than the life they left.

As you walk the land, you may encounter a child or man who you knew long ago. The spirit within them may recognize you for your spirit is visible to their spirit. Some may have gone on to a better Earth. Some were destroyed in a cleansing process.

So I ponder the universe and my interactions with the spirit within me. And I write books to explain to myself and others how the cosmic reincarnation process works.

I’ve always considered myself an Atheist, but In my own 79 years on the planet, I’ve gained some real insight into the most plausible reason for, and obligation of, humanity’s plight on Earth.

I’ve come to believe (realize) that each of us is a physical, intact individual organism manifesting as a single component of the omniscient “collective intelligence” that is, and that created and propagates, all of material reality.

In other words, the tiny piece of the cosmic whole that you and I represent is complete within itself, as is the cosmic “force” that created, and which maintains the whole of reality. I.e., ‘ and which compels reality to continue unfolding…’eventually to dissipate in another few billion years into the same vacuous space from which it and everything else originally came from some 14.5 billion years ago, when a new sector of the “Omniverse” exploded into being.

The tragedy in this puzzle we call “Life” is not that we are all going to die after experiencing it and looking back over the failures and disappointments having altered what it “could have been. I.e., what it could have been, had we but taken other paths along the way when the opportunities presented themselves.

The real tragedy of being a gracile homo sapiens-sapiens born within the past 45,000 years or so, is that due to our unique and undying spiritual anima we’ve inherited (‘i.e.. our non-local aspect), we’re not permitted to die. Surprize! Instead, we will, upon our physical demise unknowingly awaken within a timeless instant, with a clean slate and a whole new life to mature within and be endured, and to (hopefully) better manage this time.

My strong belief is that in the distant history, other-worldly progenitors inadvertently engineered our most ancient ancestors to imbue them with a higher degree of intelligence to enable them to tend to societal tasks such as governance of cities, building construction, mining operations, and scientific endeavors. There grave mistake after a few generations of the new humans was to (against the original directive) allow them to procreate among themselves…thus allowing their progeny to possess a non-physical (spiritual) essence that persists indefinitely following our bodies’ physical demise. And, the only resolution of their grave mistake, once realized, was to effect a re-engineering of our chromosomal structure so that our spiritual aspect could persist following physical death…in successive reincarnations.

I.e., upon realizing our bodies would deteriorate in time, but that our newly inherited extra-local, non-physical aspect would not (could not?) die, the problem had to be solved. This state of affairs, if left unchecked, would obviously cast the “new human” (us) into an unthinkable, virtually eternal hellish horror: ‘i.e., sentient awareness without tactile involvement or stimulation (‘like being buried awake and aware). The solution, ‘once our fate after death was proven to our progenitors to be factual (i.e., a human birth, death and resurrection of one of them), was to allow for successive reincarnations until our species would have either eliminated itself (via warfare or nuclear disaster)…or have advanced toward worthiness of assimilation into the realm of our benefactors.

In my long-studied opinion, it is our moral duty to live on through each of our successive life-trials, despite the bullshit that we have to contend with along the way. Our ultimate reward (‘so say the Hindi) is ultimately to be allowed a state of non-existence…i.e., ‘true death…a complete and eternal absence of awareness, stress, duty, obligation, work, pain, strife, anguish and sorrow: ‘i.e., a perfect state of well-earned bliss (“Nirvana”). You and I Clifford will likely not reach that point for a very long time.

So, ‘just let it all hang out and marvel at how realistic the grand hologram seems to be.

Einstein said: “The universe seems to be more a grand thought than a thing.”

It takes experience and pain to come to the question essential of who am I and what is my purpose?

Even your pain is an illusion, and you can separate yourself from this too because there is in fact, a ghost, and the ghost is your memory and your pain.

I repeat a story I read about a young man he lived in a cave with other “people” his clan, there was a fire in the cave, and the fire through the shadows of all the occupants onto the cave wall. There was a passage, but nobody would risk taking to the passage because of fear. The young man wanted to know what was beyond the passage, so he decided to explore, he was determined, and so he need be because the passage was rocky and dark but eventually he saw a light at the far end of the passage which encouraged him to continue. He finally arrived at the end and found himself in a beautiful country full of light and peace. It was so wonderful that he wanted to share it with his clan, so he made his way back to tell them about it, but they only laughed at him, so he went back to his wonderful new country alone.

That is what life is; shadows on the wall; and those who want to believe in it are condemned to stay there.I add con means with, and you know the meaning of damned.

I wish you love and happiness, do not doubt! You have lived what you have lived because of your own beliefs; the light is in your conscience go there.