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i used to think i wanted a clean slate. a new place to start over. a place where no one knew me and i could recreate myself and my life and what i wanted to do. well it’s harder than it seems. it’s a romantic longing for a new life. i’ve done it once and it’s taken me almost 10 months to find little bits of what i used to have before i left mpls. now i might be doing it again?

job hunting is scary enough…but job hunting in a place with zero connections and having no idea who anyone or what sort of place it might be is like closing your eyes, pointing a gun at a crowded room and hoping you don’t kill anyone. what a horrible simile. anyway it feels sort of like that. scary that’s for sure. i don’t know what’s going to happen in the next few weeks but i’m pretty sure it will involve small panic attacks on my part.