Welcome back to my blog, I’ve been in a rut lately and have had no desire to blog. However, I created this blog as I thought it could be therapeutic for me. I find my mood constantly changes, I know for a fact I want to blog regularly. In January 2016 I would post 2 times a week. I want to get back into that habit. I really want to get back into blogging because I absolutely love it and I cherish my blog. I have had my blog for over 3 years and I have not given it my all. Anyways enough of me rambling, I am going to talk to you about my favourite quotes. And FYI I only have two.

-Just hold on God will give you strength-

I found this quote when I was watching a YouTube video and in the description there was a quote ( this one) and it was quite long but the part where it said “just hold on god will give you strength” really stuck with me like glue. I even have it on my mirror so that when I wake up in the morning I can always remind myself especially when I’m having a bad day. Whether you believe in god or not I think we should all have faith in something. I think that sometimes life gets tough or we feel like we’re at our worst and we can’t do anything, we can try our hardest to hang on as god helps us.

I know I said two quotes but I completely forgot about two other ones that I completely forgot about.

“God helps those who help themselves”

I got this quote for Khloe Kardashian and I stumbled on it, I believe on her Instagram and this quote made me realize that in order to want things or to do things or anything we have help ourselves in order for god to help us. God can give us strength but we have to work for it.

“No one can make you inferior without your consent”

I found this quote while watching the princess diaries, when someone does make me feel inferior I like to think about this quote. No one can make me feel bad, I think that sometimes people put us down but at the end of the day we know ourselves best no one else knows you like you do.

“If you can dream it, you can do it”

This quote was created but Walt Disney, what a genius man. I think we all can say we’ve watched some Disney. I love this quote became it reminded me that if we can dream it we can do it. Although if we dream we have to work for it as nothing can come easy in life. The first step in life is to dream and a little fun fact if you can remember your dreams your considered to be a light sleeper. I had a dream that my mom saw a raccoon and thought it was dead so she stopped to see if it was. It wasn’t and my mom was using her hand telling the raccoon to move however, it didn’t. So she opened the window and the raccoon came inside the car.

I hoped you guys liked this post about my favourite quotes and I also hoped you got a little smile after reading about my dream as I know it was a wild one.

Hello hello! It has been a hot minute since I’ve been here on my blog. 2017 I told myself I would do more of what makes me happy and that is blogging. I’ve been gone for a little bit due to school however, I have so much more free time due to the courses I have this semester. I like most of my teachers so far although I still don’t know them that well. Today I’m back with another post, this past weekend I had actually driven to downtown Toronto and snapped a couple of pics. The last time I had been was in December so it’s definitely been a needed trip to take.

Toronto is such a lovely place and I most definitely find it such a calming yet busy atmosphere. This weekend was such amazing weather it really felt like spring, and I won’t lie to you, today I am bringing out the spring decor. I mean the snow is gone, and that only calls for one thing as I’m sure you all know. I actually was having a horrible day when I went to town and yet I managed to keep my head up. This day was absolutely the worst day of 2017 so far however, I pushed through it. Anyways, I hoped you enjoyed this post and looking through the photos I got to capture. The pictures do not do it justice, Toronto is an incredible city with so many welcoming people.

Welcome back to my website, today I am gonna write to you on a personal level. I wanted to take to you about what its like being depressed and getting through it. My life has been crappy ever since 2010 and it got really bad in 2013 on new years eve to be specific and it only got worse. I’ve spent my life depressed ever since that, writing to you now I’m still in a “depressed” state of mind. 2016 has been one of the worst years for me, I had self harmed again and the last time I self-harmed was in 2014. Rather than moving forward with my life I’ve only managed to go down. There’s been several times in my life where I’ve considered to suicide, I’ve prayed to god to not let me wake up the next day so basically telling to let me die. I think that I wake up and get up and do the things I need to do and sleep. I think that with my depression I haven’t done anything to treat it. I talk to know one, I sleep a lot, I become lazy and I’m aware but choose to act like there’s nothing wrong. 2017 I want too be happier, I don’t want to be the same person I was before. Reflecting on myself a year ago its needless to say that I was a much happier person a year ago than I am now. And I have to ask myself why is that? Why am I a less happier? Shouldn’t I be happier, I’ve hit a lot of milestones in 2016 and I thinking back on those milestones I don’t consider them good anymore. In fact I blame those “milestones” and wish I had my “normal life” where life was so much easier. I mean I wasn’t happy then but it was bearable. I’ve now learned that, that’s not the way to live and no one and including myself should not live this way. As you may notice I’m posting more on my blog and that’s because I find writing such a therapeutic thing for me. My life isn’t perfect and it will never be but I have the power to make changes in my life to make the environment I live in a much safer and positive place.

Today I wanted to do a different post that I’ve never done before. I was recently reading Polina Bereogova’s blog and fell in love. I watch her vlogs all the time and on every day I decided to check out her blog and was so inspired to do a post where I take about what happened each day in my life for one week and talk about the life lessons I’ve learned. Anyways let’s get started…

This Week #1 – first week of January Week before school starts again!

Monday: ONE LAST DAY…

Okay I woke up early because in a weeks time I’ll be at school. Thinking about school is stressing me out because I procrastinate a lot. And I’ve had a stressful school year and this was my first time off and so I took a well rested back. And in all honestly I’ve spent the last week waking up at 10:30 ish which has been ruining my “days off” routine. So right now it’s the morning, I woke up at 9:45… It’s the evening now and I have not been productive at all. It’s currently 7:52 in the evening and I might try to get some work done. I have a lot of positive thoughts for tomorrow as I think I’ll be quite productive. Also I watched the amazing spider man and the Lizzie McGuire movie today. Anyways sending myself encouragement for tomorrow. Good night ✨

Tuesday: I CAN’T DO IT…

It’s currently 2:45 in the afternoon and I have been slowly getting my work done, I’ve been trying to be productive but its quite hard because I haven’t been in a routine and I’ve been lazy for a whole week which is now catching up to me. I wanted to come here and write to you guys hopefully finding some motivation to work. I have at least 10 assignments to get done and I’m barely working on one now. Wish me luck.

Wednesday: GETTING THINGS DONE…

Wednesday was such a blur its currently Thursday and I can’t remember how I spent my day. From what I recall I got my English homework done so that’s good and a essay all done.

Thursday: EXAM STRESS

Okay, so its currently 9:54 in the night and I’m currently stressing about exams that are 2 weeks from today, I have 4 exams that are near the end of January and I haven’t started studying. From snap-chat I’ve seen my friends starting to study and I’m still finishing my homework, so I got all my science homework done. Except one thing because I didn’t have access to a computer.

Friday: LAST TIME FOR A LITTLE WHILE..

Today I spent the entire day relaxing, I spent about an hour singing and just getting lost in the world. I later just had a chill day watching Netflix because i know i won’t get this chance again anytime soon. My life will be crazy again next week and I was home alone today so I had “me time”.

Saturday: I DONT KNOW

I had plans to go to the mall but endless to say it didn’t work out however, I just relaxed once again and took it easy.

Sunday: LAST MINUTE THINGS

Okay okay, tomorrow is school. I REPEAT TOMORROW IS SCHOOL. I’m not that stressed, its currently 8:55 in the evening I’ve had my dinner and done all my homework. Right now, I’m not as stressed as I was 3 or 4 hours ago. I’ve managed to get all the small bits done that needed to be done and I just left till the last minute. All I have to do now is organize everything into my binders and make sure I have everything I need for class tomorrow. Pray for me 🙂

LESSONS I LEARNT THIS WEEK:

The first lesson I learned this week is say in routine or at least some type of one. Last week I was in no routine at all, waking up late, being lazy and forgetting about my schoolwork. In all honesty when I was doing my homework I had no idea what to do because I forget everything I learned which is not good. So I learned stay in some sort of routine when I’m off, it can be any kind of routine that doesn’t require me on a bed 24/7.

Don’t leave things to the last minute, I think everyone does this at some point where they leave something important till the last minute. At least I’m giving myself 4 days to get the job done. However, knowing myself I should’ve been smart and started from first week I was off.

Have fun when its appropriate, even though I was working on my assignments I was procrastinating in between and during while I was working. I would put on Switched at Birth which I’m currently obsessed with on and watch it. Which isn’t ideal for someone trying to get things done.

Don’t take time for granted. I was blessed with getting 2 weeks off and needless to say I wasted it. I mean there wasn’t much I could’ve done I just took it easy but wasn’t;t doing anything proactive and now looking back at my two weeks off i wish I spent it differently. Not only taking my time for granted was the issue it was also not planning ahead.

So these were my lessons I learned this week, its currently Sunday and I have school tomorrow which I’m not looking forward to but I know I’ll be okay. Thanks for reading.

I hope your having a lovely day whenever your reading this and want to send positive thoughts my way to all of you. Today I wanted to write about my typical morning, to be quite honest I love the mornings something about the morning time gives me a kinda rush where I feel unstoppable

So the first thing I do after my alarm wakes me up is have a lye in for a bout 3-5 minutes, I generally wake up between 5-7 A.M..

I tend to take a shower and then eat but I am slowly trying to have breakfast and then eat. So I will head downstairs and make something to eat, because school is so intense I no longer eat in the morning which is not a good thing. Since its the new year, my goal is to eat breakfast. I usually make oatmeal, English muffin, omelette, waffles and sometimes pancakes. I enjoy eating my breakfast with something calm to watch so I generally put on a show called “Good Witch” I highly recommend watching it.

After finishing my breakfast I will head upstairs and take a shower. I usually shave my legs, wash my face and brush my teeth and of course wash my body.

Now that my shower is finish, I head to my room and get dressed. And you’ve probably guessed that I take forever to figure out what I want to wear because I don’t pick my outfits the night before. It generally takes me 20 minutes to pick something to wear and sometimes 5 minutes before I have to leave the house I’ll change.

After I’ll head back down and just relax and do last minute things like pack my bag, and print out homework. I have been awful at packing lunch and since September I’ve been buying lunch like crazy. So I also make lunch, and then I place it in the lobby/ main hall.

After finishing my last minute tasks I’ll head up to my room and start my makeup. I keep it quite simple, I do light foundation, sometimes concealer, blush, sometimes bronzer and mascara and of course setting powder.

When my makeup is done its generally time to head out to school so I put on my coat and shoes and head out the door.

So this is my typical morning routine, some days I won’t get out of bed until 7:00 but on days that I wake up before 7 this is what my morning looks like. I love the mornings, because I live with my family it can be challenging to have time for yourself. I find the mornings a great way to start the day. Thanks for reading this post, see you soon!

It is absolutely crazy that another year has passed, I say this every year but 2016 went by so fast. It’s like I blinked once and bam it’s the new year. I think in 2016 I’ve learned a lot, with quite of few “downs” in my life I think I’m looking forward to 2017 as a fresh start. I think there will be quite of few changes that I will make regarding the way I choose to live. And be sure to check out my new years resolution from 2016, I was reading it earlier from today and was laughing because I failed all my goals. I mean, who doesn’t suck at keeping their new years resolution. I guess this year I will try harder, I thought you guys would enjoy seeing what goals and resolutions I’ve made for myself this year. It’s crazy to think about where I was a year ago, I no longer have free time, I’m constantly stressed out and there’s always something happening in my life. Needles to say I was much happier a year ago than I am now. I’ve made so many new friends and all in all my life has dramatically changed. In all honestly 2016 was an awful year for me and it still is however, I’m rising above my issues and trying to have a new start because that’s all I can really do. Enough of my ramble, here are my 2017 resolutions….

Wake up early. Ever since school started I’ve been so lazy in the morning, I refuse to wake up early because I’m so exhausted. I’m so tired that I know longer wake up in the middle of the night which is crazy because I always do but not anymore.

Sleep early. If I want to wake up early I have to sleep early, I want to sleep at least by 10:00 but realistically speaking 10:30.

Workout. Last year I started to work out in the mornings at 5 A.M. I want to restart that right from where it all started. I think working out gives me that extra energy boost plus it gives me a positive mind, body and soul.

Time Management. As I’m in school a lot of assignments compile and I get H.W. daily and what ends up happening is I have to complete 7 things all in one day. Needless to say I get stressed out and all panicky. To avoid that I want to start planning my time and making use of every second. I have a tendency to procrastinate.

Work Harder. I really want to work hard in school, I’m already giving my everything in school. I’m quite pleased with my marks at the moment but I still want to continue to work hard and even more harder. Reach for that extra mile and do anything I can to make the work that I produce better.

Drink Water. Last year I had this goal and in all honestly I thought I was doing a good job at drinking a 1 L of water but as the year went on. I was horrible and drinking water some times all I had was a sip of water so this year I want to drink as much water as I possibly can.

Keep my room clean. As the week goes on my room just gets messier and messier so I really want to control the messiness in my room.

Pick outfits for the week on Sunday. One major reason my room is messy is because my clothes are everywhere. Being a girl, I have a closet full of clothes but have nothing to wear to school. And I try on a lot of outfits and so a huge pile of clothes suddenly appear all over my room. So I want to start picking my outfits for the week or even the night before.

So here are some of my goals/resolutions, I am sure that I will have more goals as the new year progresses but as of right now these are my goals. Thanks so much for reading this, I will see you soon.

I wanted to quickly let you guys know that I will be posting at least two times a month for 2017. I already have two blog posts scheduled and ready to be posted for January so get excited! My posting schedule will generally be Sunday, Monday or Wednesday. And my first post will be on January 1st so be on the look out for that post.