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Tuesday, 21 October 2014

52 Lists - Week 3

As you probably know, I’ve
decided to give the 52 Lists Project by Morrea Seal a go, and yes, I am incredibly late to this
particular party! If you haven’t heard of it, the basic premise is that a list
subject has been created for every week of the year, so each week you print off
your list template, complete it and pop it in a folder. At the end of a year
you will then have 52 different lists, which should tell you a lot about
yourself. Yes, you are probably meant to start this project at the beginning of
the year, but hey, when was I ever one to conform?!

This week I had a go at
list number 3, which was asking you to list the things you should be proud of. I
found this week’s list incredibly difficult to complete because I find it very
difficult to allow myself to think good things about myself. I think it was a
good exercise to complete though because it really pushed me to be kinder to
myself.

This was definitely a good
list for me to try out, as it made me reflect on my whole life. I’m often very
down on myself because I feel like I haven’t achieved all the things I would
like to because of being unwell. I often convince myself that I am a failure
and it’s easy to believe these negative labels I assign myself. So, doing this
list really pushed me to challenge my negative thoughts and think of things I
can be proud of. I actually managed to come up with quite a few things in the
end, although getting myself to believe what I’ve written is another thing! I
noticed in my notes that there are different categories of things I can be
proud of.

There are physical
achievements such as getting my GCSE’s or writing my blog, where I have
something very concrete to show for my achievements. And I am really proud of
myself for achieving these things. When I did my GCSE’s I was terribly unwell,
yet I was still determined and driven and managed to sit 7 exams, which I think
is pretty darn amazing. But there are also more figurative, personal
achievements that I feel immensely proud of. The first thing I wrote on my list
that I was proud of was ‘I am still alive’ and I really do feel that this is my
biggest achievement. There have been so many times I have come close to death,
even before I was born, yet I am still here, fighting every single day. And
when it comes down to it, above everything else, that is all anyone can ask of
you. To wake up each and every day and fight as hard as you can to make it
through to the end of the day. Then wake up tomorrow and do the same thing
again.

Aww this is such a lovely idea! Getting your GCSE's despite what you were going through is amazing. I think the thing that would be at the top of my list was the moment I walked for the first time after loosing the use of my legs for a solid 6 months. I'm proud of myself for teaching myself how to do a pretty good smokey eye too! Haha. Have a good week Jenny!

It's really nice isn't it Hayley-Eszti. Thank you sweetie. Ah yeah that is definitely a proud moment and something I hadn't even thought of adding as I've had to learn to walk quite a few times too! A smokey eye is definitely a good one too! xx

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