Category: Decisions

What do you want from life? It’s not a hard question, but most people have a hard time with it. I bet most people would love to say, ” Respect, a long life with the person that turns into a romantic love that is ever lasting, a good job that you love and want to do, a family with great kids, and total dedication to the Lord.” People also want the best for their kids and to be able to retire with a nice little nest egg. This is not an easy road and it has a lot of twists and turns a nd detours that you can’t always plan for. It takes a lot of work with you giving it all your blood, sweat and tears.

Unfortunately, more than a few people are not willing to do the work and get the gold ring in life. It could be because of what they’ve seen from their own family that didn’t work the way they wanted or because of what they saw in the world around them. When you are young everything is black/white. As you grow up that protection bubble starts to fade and colors come into focus and a person starts to question everything. They mean well and want the best and start to work towards it, but then they see that everything that sparkles is not gold and how other people can just snap their fingers and get whatever they want out of life. They see people that are “above the law” because of their money and power. They know the different “classes” that are still in place nowadays. It seems that for some people, life is grand with little problems, But if you come from the “wrong side of the tracks,” nothing is easy and you have to fight for every scrap of food or worms that you get.

I didn’t make life easy for myself. I would not do what anyone would tell me to do unless I was got the answers to just a few questions. You know them as the Five W’s: Who, What, When , Where, and Why. You can also throw How into the mix, just to get the whole picture. I didn’t think is was wrong to question everything from God, Unfortunately, life doesn’t lend itself to you tryinbg out both plans for your life and picking the one that you want to live. I have hopefully grown in knowledge and experience by now that I can to see of the pitfalls in life, but I’m finding out more and more that it is not the case.

Everyone walks their own path. For some it seems easier then others. For those of the second kind it loo hard as can be. I am the second, but some of which I caused myself. I found the real God a little late in life (around I turned 50). Even when I had religion force fed down my throat, I still didn’t find Him. We are to walk and work within the boundaries that are set by God for as long as we are on this Earth. God will make it easier if you are willig to give up your control, and let Him take over your life. God knows the end of the story for you so surrender your life unto the Lord and you will be amazed by what happens to your life.

I followed my own path which didn’t have God in the mix for a very long time. I blamed other people for doing wrong when it was all me. I just put off responsibility for as long as I could. Even then I tried to control other people’s live as if that was even possible with God looking afterme. I didn’t want the blame for the mess that I had created in my life. Now don’t get me wrong. I may have thought in my own mind that I had gone totally to the dark side. But to tell the whole truth, I really was no where near it.

Now that I have God in my life “again”, I am trying to discover me and my gifts as well as my place in God’s world. You see once you turn your life over the God, Satan tries everything that he can to keep you from God’s Love and way of life. He will even throw the book at you. You see, Satan has no power in this world unless your give him the power. He is only here until the return of Jesus and then Judgement Day is here and Satan will going down.

Okay, just in case you didn’t get the subject matter from the title; ” I is one.” I have a little experience on the matter. Preacher’s kids, as a whole, have a bad reputation as soon as we are born. So much is expected of them without their haveing a say so in the matter. Didn’t we throw a tea party in Boston a long time ago to get out from under the thumb of unlawful rules and laws in which we had no say so.?

Preacher’s kids are easily put into two types. Just like everything in life, they are at the extremes of the rainbow. First is the “perfect child”. They do what is expected of them with little rebellion. They grow up in the Lord; just as is hoped for. They are the ones that are always first to jump in and work whenever and wherever they are needed. They are ones you see at all church activeities as always helpful and eager to pass out food at a Church picnc, cleanng up after a church funtions, and setting up for the functions as well . They play their roles and carry out the duties with little complaint. They have no trobule in believing and have faith in Jesus. They are the apple of their parent’s eye. When the world spins right, these are the ones that you rarely take notice jof because they are mostly in the back ground, or their the ones that leads everything

The second types are the “worst” to think of and a lot more seen and pointed out for their actitives which is what they want. They carry out their duties without question when they are young, but rebel more and more a they grow up. They take on the attitude that the church and Jesus are just another kind of conrol which of course was not for them. They are normally very head strong and unwilling to tke anything fro granted. They are the ones that you have to prove it with evidtions not just taking the word of a book or human. They question everything even the small things. They want to cut it up and see how it works. They want to put their hand in the wounds and holes of Jesus’ s body to make sure that it wasn’t a flim fan or just someone trying to sell them some snake oil. They are the ones which want to bite their teeth into it and taste the flavors of the it. They are the searchers who only believe in the here and now. Questioning is not wrong, but God asks them to believe and have faith in something without proof. This is the one thing that they cannot do.

I was labeled a troubled child right from the beginning even before I was able to act or understand what was expected of me.. People, even today, will hear that I am preacher’s kid and immediately take a dislike to me, or they expect me to be the leader. I have to admit that I wasn’t an easy child to raise or work with. I did a lot of things that I am not proud of, but some good came out it; they taught me many things hopefully more good that bad. Everything has to be proven to me. I would not take anyone’s word for anything, and still don’t according to my family. But I hope that I have been able to grow in this area of my life. Now looking back I can see God working in my life. Understanding comes from looking back. That looking back as we all know it is always 20/20.

I’m in the second categoryand I mean that it was totally me. My family kept trying to put me back into the “pool” so to say, but that was something that I would have none of it. I know that my rebellion did not please my family, but I couldn’t just play a role that I didn’t understand much less support. They just could not see why I was not like them. They just believed without anything to be proven to them. Belief was easy for them. I didn’t want to go to church much less any of they activities that had to do with Jesus or church. That was more to get their “goat” than it was because of the subject master. I was forced to take part in everhthing that they could get me into. I do have to admit that I enjoyed some of them. I met people from all walks of life. I learned somethings that I would never have learned without my rebellion. It took me a long time to really accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior, and to start my true walk with Him. I see now how God showed up and showed out in my life. He was always there. i just had to stop running and look allow Him to take over.

Don’t judge a book by it’s cover. Just because I’m a preacher’s kid doesn’t mean that I’m a bad apple. Even the “good” kids rebellion and mess up sometimes. I’m not always a “rock star” for Jesus, but I’m just human. God is working a great work in me , and he is not finished yet!!!!!