Now that Swami stopped talking to them, now that Swami stopped
looking at them (not with any ill feeling because these feelings
have no place in the Divinity), they begin to look within. God does
not have any anger. Anger and Divinity do not go together. God is
Love. Love and anger cannot go together. He’s not angry. It’s only
our guilty conscience that makes us feel like that.

Some people come and tell me, "Ah! Swami’s not looking at me. He’s
angry with me!" If I feel that God is angry with me, I think it is
only a feeling of ego. Why do you think that you are that important
as to be the cause of anger to God Himself? He’s not a small man! If
you are really the source of anger to God, you are really very
great! I don’t think He will disapprove or be angry about simple,
petty, little things, the trivia. After all, we are negligible,
decimal, atomic, and fractional.

So, to say that ‘God is angry with me’ is only our ego. "I have
committed some mistake, so Swami’s not looking at me!" It is only
our guilty conscience. The sense of guilt makes you say that. Let’s
not feel guilty. Guilty conscience is worse than guilt itself. Guilt
is smaller, is small, while guilty conscience is big. The actual
guilt will never make you punishable, but guilty conscience will
make you go on worrying, go on feeling sad. That affects your
performance, your life and it will tell on your face also because
you will wear a long face, as you feel guilty.

So, my friends let us not consider ourselves very important like
that, thinking that ‘God is angry with me. He’s avoiding me’ as if
this Incarnation is just for our purpose. We’re not brothers of
Ravana, Keechaka and all that; certainly not. Nor near cousin of
Satin the Great! Why should we feel like that? So God has no anger.
God has no prejudice. Nothing whatsoever!

So He stops talking to you. He avoids you. He doesn’t draw you so
near which all He did some time back, only to promote you forcefully
into the higher step - because we don’t go to the next step.

When He does not talk to you, what do you do? You close your eyes!
Sightless! When once we close our eyes, we feel Him within. We talk
to Him from within. We feel Him. We try to realize Him. Externally,
we search for Him; internally, we realize Him. Externally we talk to
Him; internally we feel Him. Externally we enjoy Him; internally we
are blissful. Externally we see His separateness; internally we
observe and experience the oneness with Him. Internally we will
enjoy and experience oneness with Him. Externally you get
separateness; you get joy, which is only temporary.

So the second stage, it is a stage of progress, a stage of turning
inward. Think of Him, feel Him, be one with Him. That is the job of
a true Master. If he craves for publicity, if he craves for
recognition, appreciation, claps, cheers, acknowledgement,
advertisement, publicity and all that, he is not a true Master.
Swami can go on saying, "Hello, hello, hello! How are you? How are
you?" He doesn’t do that. Why? He’s not for the mediocre thing.

Please remember my friends what Bhagavan has said: "I don’t praise
anybody on the face. I don’t want anybody to praise Me. I don’t
praise you and I don’t want you to praise Me. Why? You and I are
one. Where is the need to praise anybody? When I am you, why should
I praise myself? When you are Me, why do I need to praise you?"

Just understand the basic philosophy. If we don’t have that
understanding, we feel disgruntled, disappointed and frustrated.
That happens between the first stage and the second stage. This is
also unavoidable. First stage nearness; second stage frustration and
third stage inward path! That naturally happens. In the transition
it happens.

One gentleman came and met me a few days ago. Let me not mention his
name because I haven’t asked his permission. He was so close with
Swami in those days. Swami stayed at their residence. He said, "But
for three or four hours in a day, twenty-four hours I spent with
Him, Sir. Not once, but spread over a decade and a half!"

He has been with Swami throughout. I was so happy. He was telling of
the miracles of those days. He lost his mother. His is a royal
family. He lost his mother and this gentleman, who is grown-up of
course (He is just seventy-one years young!), in those days long
back; he was talking with his father. Mother was no more. When both
of them were talking in a public hall, please believe me, in the
public hall there, mother who is no longer alive, who died long
back, came out of that wall it seems. She came from the wall, sat
there and spoke to both of them. She spoke to both of them, the
father and the son, "How are you? What is with you?" and then
vanished into the wall. He came and told me all this.

"Oh so great! Ah, Sir, now what is the problem?" I asked.

"He stopped talking to me, Sir."

"He stopped talking to you?"

"Yes. He doesn’t look at me." He has shown me the small letter from
his daughter-in-law who wants some guidance from Swami, whether to
go into surgery or medicine, MB or MS. She wants some guidance from
Swami. "Sir, my daughter-in-law wanted me to hand over this letter.
I am waiting for the last six days."

The person who was with Swami for twenty hours a day for over a
decade and a half, today is in a position of not being able to hand
a small chit to Swami!

I said, "Sir, really I share your feelings. I am so sorry."

Then he said, "No, Sir, I don’t feel sorry."

"Why? Why don’t you feel sorry, having enjoyed nearness so much, why
don’t you feel sorry? Why?" Had he said, "I worry," I would have
just consoled him for some more time. When he said, "I don’t worry,"
well, I am at a loss now because I am prepared to console him, with
all my points ready, being a teacher!

Well, he said, "I don’t worry."

I said, "Why?"

"Sir, this is the time to think of the past. This is the time to
think of those golden days. This is the time to think of the
togetherness with Swami. This is the time to meditate on those
beautiful days and moments of being with Swami. It is a time to
recall, bringing back to memory all the sweet, nectarine Vedic words
that Bhagavan said in those days. I think this is sadhana,
the spiritual practice I am supposed to do now."

I said, “Perhaps Swami sent you to let me know this message now
because anything that comes to me will never go to waste!"

ABC: Anil Kumar Broadcasting Corporation! It will go, yes! You
cannot keep it, anything like a secret! Because I derive greatest
joy in sharing with everybody! Yes! The moment Swami speaks to me
there, I wait for a chance; then I run out there and tell somebody
and come back. It is something like the cup, which is full of
coffee. It starts spilling out. When it is full, it spills out.
Well, my cup, the heart, is so small that it spills out very soon!
Or it has got some holes, and it just oozes out! I can’t help it.

So my friends, a true master talks from within. He wants us to turn
inward. He communicates from inside. Further Swami goes to another
extent, takes us to another step. What does He say? "The one with
body feeling (that ‘I am the body, this size, my height, my weight,
my chest, my complexion, my personality, the perfume that I use, the
dress I put on that body identification) - the one with body
identification will consider his guru as the one having a
body. You’ll also take Him to be a person. You’ll also consider him
to be an individual. You’ll also consider Him embodied, in the form
of a body. Because you have got the body feeling, you think that
your guru also is the one with a body."

Now Swami says, "Guru has a body to take you out of body
consciousness. No body consciousness. To make us lose this body
consciousness, guru has a body. To drive us out of this body
feeling, to take us away from the body attachment, guru has a
body." See that. Who will tell that explanation?

And further He said, "The one who thinks of guru, limiting
him to this body, has no understanding of a guru at all." Let
us not think that Swami is only this much, no - Smallest of the
small, biggest of the big. It’s just to please us, to make us happy
that He has got that form. But He is actually formless.

The formless God has got a form to take us to that state of
formlessness. And He smiles and talks with all affection, with all
love and compassion, with attributes, in order to take us to that
stage of attributelessness: from saguna, ‘attributes’ to
nirguna, ‘attributeless’ state; from sakaara, ‘form’ to
nirakaara, ‘formless’ state. That is the transition that is
the journey that we have to pass through for which guru has
come down on earth in a human form. That’s what Bhagavan has said in
His discourse.

Another point: Bhagavan’s teachings appeal to our heart, not the
mind. Bhagavan’s teachings touch our heart, not the mind. How do you
say? This is a statement of Swami’s. "The teachings of a guru
touch your heart and not the mind." Why? Mind is emotional. Mind is
passionate. Mind is rather ephemeral, ever-changing. Mind is
momentary and gets transformed from moment-to-moment. Mind in
shushupti, in deep sleep, is non-existent. In thoughtless stage,
mind vanishes. In a state of desirelessness, mind disappears. Mind
exists because of thoughts. Mind took a form because of desires.
When there is no thought, when there is no desire, there is no mind
at all. But the heart is eternal, hridayam.

What is the heart? I am not speaking of the heart of the department
of cardiology in a general hospital or in a Super-Specialty
Hospital. Please kindly go through the back issues of Sanathana
Sarathi where Bhagavan mentions clearly, "Spiritual heart is on
the right side. The physical heart is on the left side." Baba said
this. (Please believe me. I am accountable for every word I say. I
know that. I can give you all the page numbers and sentences if you
so want.)

"The spiritual heart is on the right side."

"Oh, I see. What does it do?"

"The spiritual heart communicates with the sahasrara. There
are chakras in our body. Sahasrara, located in the
brain here, is the thousand-petalled one. The spiritual heart
establishes its connection with this sahasrara through an
important connection, the live wire, if you want to call it, called
sushumna. Sushumna is the live wire that connects the
spiritual heart to the sahasrara, the thousand-petalled one,
in the brain or the mind. Then this mind establishes contact with
the rest of the body."

"So what Swami. What is it? What do you want to convey?"

"Heart is the center of energy. Heart is the generator. Heart is the
transformer. Heart is thermal power station. From this Heart, the
energy flows through Sushumna and enters into Sahasrara. From there
it is supplied to the body."

So the body is energetic not on its own. Even after death, the body
is there but it is not active. The body does not receive energy. So
body receives energy from sahasrara, the thousand-petalled
mind, head or the brain, and this sahasrara gets energy from
the heart. So the heart, the spiritual heart, is the center of
energy. That spiritual heart is consciousness. That spiritual heart
is the spirit. That spiritual heart is Atma. That spiritual
heart is our real being. It is our true nature. It is ever existent.
It is eternal.