MontezCrow’s blog

Do you realize what you've done. You've taken someone away from us. You're a monster, insane. Do you think this is a game.
I fucking hate you!
I hate you! x7
YOU KILLER! I HATE YOU! x7
DO YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU'VE DONE! YOU'VE TAKEN SOMEONE AWAY FROM US! YOU'RE A MONSTER, INSANE. DO YOU THINK THIS IS A GAME. WHAT THE FUCK'S WRONG WITH YOUR BRAIN. NOTHING YOU CAN DO OR SAY TO MAKE...

My mind is wondering around. So many questions to ask. Too many times been let down. But still I want to believe. Now I'm lost, here and there. I've been everywhere looking for answers!
Can you take it away! Please hear me! Will you take away all of the things that I hate! Cuz I don't want to lose you, but I have to choose! Between faith or illusion!
(I don't know why you won't show...

Darkness is, reaching up on me. I can feel, but I can't see. Is this an afterlife. Am I going crazy? What is this, am I crazy? Why, oh me. What did I do. What can I say. To make it go away.
Bending my soul! Pouring my heart (out)! Giving my life (to no one)! What can I do? To save myself!
To many times I've ran away! Never wanting to face to the pain! Everyday is always the same! How...

In this moment. That is gone; when we think do we actually know. In this space. Covered up, all the things that make you look so. Destined to be just like all the others; but they weren't good enough. Why do you have to look like everyone else. Just be yourself and let them walk by. Don't waste good time, don't throw away talent. If it's what you like, then it's yours. They are wrong, they just...

How can things that shall not be, come back from the oblivion of my mind. Dreams, are my escape to be, something that I could not in this dreadful reality. Hope is my last resort, I'll make it on my own. If I shall fall before I arrive just make sure that they know!
I tried (to be the hero, but I wasn't accepted)
I tried (to be sovereign, but they wouldn't let me pass) x2
Now, all I am...

Whats up guys, it's been awhile since I've been on because my laptop crashed which completely sucked. Anyways, I went and rented one from my local library, crappy thing is I can only keep it for 3 days...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANnnnnndddddddddd *grasps for air*.....on top of that I'm in the middle of Hurrican Isaac right now and the weather is getting pretty knarly so it may be...

Now I know what it's like. I opened my eyes and realized that in the end the problem was me. I shut my mouth, and walked the line. No talk the talk, I walked the walk. GET IT STRAIGHT! Impossible, for me, to show any affection. I'm never, the one, to say hello I love you!
GOOD BYE! x3
I'M NEVER COMING BACK!
GOOD BYE! x3
THIS IS THE END!
Now I know who I am. Thought I had to hide...

I can't see! I can't breathe! What is wrong, what's beneath. I am you, you are me! I'm not here to hurt you. I'm just stuck in this shell! What do I do, how did I get here! Blackout, and now I'm somebody else! This is not me!
SCHIZOPHRENIC! (PERSONALITIES) ANTI SOCIAL, BI POLAR!
BORDERLINE! (DISORDER) INTROVERT, PSYCHOSOCIAL!
THIS ISN'T NORMAL! (IN SOCIETY!) I AM YOU, YOU ARE ME!...

I LOOK UP!. To see a black cloud. It's my anger, every hurt feeling I had. I'm not crazy just a little upset. Hold my eyes open so you can see me cry. I will not run, I will not hide this time. Your gonna finally see what you do to me. I'm not happy, I'm not laughing. I'm just waiting for all this to end!
Dying Inside a little at a time. God, is this the way it has to be. You can hate me,...