“No, he told me yesterday. He totally loves you. I wanted to know if he knew, but if I asked I may ratted you out.” Like hell he said that.

“You were with him yesterday? And I don’t believe he actually said he loved me.”

“No, but close to it. But yeah, my and his parents went out for dinner so we just hung out.”

“Does Ben know?”

“I wouldn’t cheat on Ben, especially not with Ky. He’s just been a friend, always a friend. Don’t you turn this on me.”

“Whatever. Even he’s Kyle likes me, I don’t want to be in a relationship.” That’s a lie.

“Bull, you’re scared out of your mind of being of alone and you want someone. I know you.” Am I really so predictable? I sigh.

“But you know who loves you more than Kyle.” Don’t say it, don’t say it, don’t say it. “Kevin.” She said it. Damn her again.

“Whatever, if he loves me… where is he?”

“Have you talked to him?”

“Nope, he just disappeared.”

“He went Edward Cullen on you.” Oh my god, she didn’t seriously said that did she?

“I hateTwilight.” I remind her.

“Haha, sorry.” She giggled over the phone. “Don’t worry I haven’t seen him either.”

“Really?”

“Well, I see him sometimes, but then he always leaves.”

“Oh…”

“I don’t talk to him any all.” Silence.

“He’s probably just thinking of a big way to apologized to you.” Or trying to find some way to run away.

“Sure.”

“Don’t worry about him, he’ll come around.”

“It’s been a month.” Silence, I win.

“Hold on, Ben’s calling me.”

“Go, I’ll wait.” Okay. I hear a click.

“Hey Ben, I’m worry about Gwen, you should really talk to Kevin. Tell him to talk to her.”

“Still me.”

“Oh, uh, sorry.” Click. Silence. I sigh. So Ben still talks to Kevin. I figured he’s like his best friend. Whatever I don’t care. He can talk to whoever he wants! I don’t care. It doesn’t matter that he still talks to the bastard who knocked me up and then left me. I don’t care. I mean, he really hurt me, but he can still talk to Ben if he wants. I don’t care. He broke my heart, but he’s entitled to talk to anyone he wants, especially my cousin. I DON’T CARE.

“… yeah, Gwen?” Julie says, and I don’t catch the first part of her sentence because I’m ranting in my head.

“Oh what?”

“Ben’s gonna be here in a few minutes.”

“Oh, right. Okay I’ll talk to you later.” I hang up before she says anything else.

Oh man, he never calls me. He lives on the other side of the state because he goes to a university there. He has been living in an apartment since his sophomore year. I haven’t told him about my current position, and I… Damn.

“Hello?”

“Hey sis.”

“Hey Ken.”

“So… I just got off the phone with mom.”

“Oh yeah, did you?” Shit.

“Yeah, and she told me that she was gonna be a grandmother soon?” Fuck. “Care you explain?”

“You got someone pregnant?” Just hold him back, Gwen.

“Gwen.”

“I’m surprised. Really, didn’t know you had–“

“Stop it. You want to tell me why my sixteen year old sister is pregnant?”

“Ken, how dare you accuse me of that!”

“Shut it. I just want to know who I’m going to kill.” He sounds just like daddy.

“Don’t worry, daddy broke his nose already.”

“I’ll break his leg.” Seriously? I rub my forehead.

“Nope, you owe him.”

“It’s that guy with the car!?”

“Yeah, that’s the one.”

“Are you fricken’ serious?”

“Dead.”

“God, Gwen. You were supposed to be a good girl.”

“Don’t you start Kenny.”

“What the hell were you thinking?”

“I wasn’t, okay?”

“Damn right you were; I can’t believe you did something so fuckin’ stupid.”

“Yeah it was stupid,” I said rather irritated. “But you know what? It’s okay. I got my punishment. I’m having this kid, but I have no guy. I haven’t seen Kevin in over a month. I told him and he ran. Are you happy?”

“Sis…”

“So, go ahead and kill him, but I have no idea where he is! So good luck finding him!” I’m the verge of tears.

“Look, sis, I’m sorry. I was just a little upset.”

“No, really?” Sarcasm. I blink back tears.

“How would you feel if your little sister was pregnant?”

“I can’t imagine.”

“Okay, try imagining Ben pregnant.” Tears are replaced by laughter. I laugh because technically the night I got pregnant was the same night Big Chill, or rather Ben, gave birth.

“I would be slightly disturbed.”

“That’s how I feel. Disturbed, pissed, and scared.”

“Scared?” Why would Ken be scared? He’s never scared, kinda like Kevin.

“Because I’m scared for you. Im terrified; terrified that your heart will get broken. I’m terrified that you will get hurt in the process. Your future will be ruined. That the kid might die, or you might die during the birthing process.” His voice was shaky and it cracked during the end of his statement.