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Thursday, April 17, 2014

MIssing you...

Chase,

We are spending time together as a family as much as we can this week. It doesn't make it hurt less that you're not here, but it does make it more bearable. Leaning on each other is what we do and what we do best at times like this. I spent the day at your daddy's side and we talked about you and shared you with each other. We miss you with every breath we take and that will never change. THank you, though, for the gift you have given us and continue to give us. We struggle to see them at times, but we are searching for you always. We love you little buddy.

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'I am leaving you with a gift: peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give isn't fragile like the peace the world gives. So don't be troubled or afraid. Remember what I told you: I am going away, but I will come back to you again. If you really love me, you will be very happy for me, for now I can go to the Father, who is greater than I am. I have told you these things before they happen so that when they do, you will believe in me.'

John 14:27-29

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This is my blog where I will be writing about my life as it happens. I am married to my best friend, my confident, my soulmate. We have 2 girls, then a boy, all healthy pregnancies, healthy babies. Then on April 14, 2009, our fourth baby was damaged during labor and delivery. I do not understand why this happened to us, we did everything we thought we were supposed to do. We love each other, we love ourselves, and we love our children more than anything. Chase would have only enhanced what we already had. But instead of being in our arms, he is in our hearts, in our minds and in our souls, deeply embedded, walking this road of life with us in another form. We are all different people, trying to learn how to be a family this way. But I am the luckiest girl in the world to have what I have. I just happen to be one of the unluckiest, too, for having been dealt this tragedy.