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Archive for the month “April, 2013”

Haha this post title is a bit misleading but I did realize that somewhere in my head, I always had this idea that if Jillian and I occupied the same space, some cosmic explosion would occur. Turns out I was wrong. (Maybe its because we didnt actually meet and shake hands or hug…..) 😉 kidding!!

On a serious note though, I attended Jillian’s “Maximize your life” tour last night and her talk was fantastic. Direct, concise, sometimes harsh but definitely inspiring, as you would expect, if you know anything about her. I did feel that a recap of information at the end would have been useful for many in the audience.

Because of my weightloss success this week, I am already super motivated and now I have a few more tools to move forward with.

I am currently tracking yesterday’s foods, and I had a bit of an epiphany. I was allowing myself a less strict day and I found I was still making MOSTLY good choices while allowing myself some leeway. ****Is this what balance feels like???**** Maybe, but I still overate by an entire days’ worth of calories. So, I didn’t do great, but hey — its not like I ate back the full five and a half pounds i lost last week. Just half a pound.

Today, I am back to my [now] regularly scheduled program. I am doing food prep this afternoon and planning my week ahead in food and workouts.WHO AM I?!?!? LOLOLOL I seriously ask myself this question almost daily now. This time just Really. Feels. Different.

As mentioned above, I lost 5.5lbs (2.5kgs) after just four (4) days of eating right last week. I was up 2lbs this morning, after yesterday’s relaxed eating day but I am not remotely discouraged. In fact I am quite pleased with my mental state around all of this. I CAN do this and, even more so than that, I AM.

Today is Day 2 of following my macros (proteins, carbs and fats) as set out for me by Kori from The Diet Doc when I started working with her last April.

Yes, it’s been a full year and I’m still just trying to figure out how this stuff works, and you know what? That’s okay.

It’s okay…..

……that I have fluctuated in the same 10-pound range for the past two years, because, hey – I didn’t go up further than that, for one thing, and, for another, I guess I know how to maintain, amiright?

……that it’s taken me this long to figure out that if I can have 2 or 3 days of really great eating, staying within my macro ranges and still liking the food that I eat, then I can just keep repeating those days (on paper that is. It’s not like I think I can travel back in time….I don’t watch THAT much Doctor Who) and continue having good results!

……because what I have discovered is that I seem to need time to absorb all the information and then figure out how to make it work within my life.

This week….I don’t know. Something changed inside me. It’s as though a toggle switch was turned to “ON” and I think I may have actually heard the “DING!” (might have been my phone. don’t judge me.) I got home from Easter weekend with my parents and was feeling craptastic, overloaded on sugar and craving more of it, making poor decisions like “Oh, for sure I should have Taco Time for lunch! With cheese sauce for my deep-fried mexifries*? Of course!”

*mexifries are like tater tots

Instead of dwelling on all the things I was doing wrong, I decided to focus on what I was doing right and what I was going to do, this week(!) right now(!), to minimize/rectify the damage I may have caused.

So I made an actual list:

On Tuesday, when I was back at work and had access** to my nutrition log again , I found a couple of “perfect” days*, printed them off and decided to start planning my eating around those meals. The result? I am down THREE POUNDS in two days.

* A “perfect” day is one where I ate perfectly all day but still felt full, had energy and wasn’t dying from a lack-of-carbs headache.

**update: since writing this, I finally uploaded this to my Google drive so I have access from anywhere. Thanks Google!

Yeah, yeah, I know, I know, it’s probably just water weight. But I really don’t care. I have finally figured out how to do this and not feel like I’m depriving myself, or like I’m not sure what to eat, etc.

I have figured out that if I don’t have it written down/haven’t already planned for it, that I probably can’t eat it, because when I guesstimate, I am SO VERY WRONG. (example: Tuesday wasn’t planned out and I ended up overeating by around 580 calories (which consisted of 23g of Protein, 80g Carbs, 28g Fat). However, I had a great workout Tuesday night, burning around 700 calories, so I think things probably “came out in the wash”, as it were).

I am learning and that’s the biggest thing for me.

As long as I’m progressing, learning every day, I can’t fault myself.

I will take every 1/2 pound lost as a victory and just keep working towards my goals.

If I’m down 3lbs after just two days of being strict, just imagine where I will be 9 weeks from now when I leave for Puerto Plata, Dominican!