I can't stop it.

What the hell is my problem? I am sitting here and I can't stop crying. I don't know what is wrong with me. I hate everything. I hate that I've sunk so low. I don't know how to get out. I feel like this depression this time is pushing me so much further under. I haven't cried this much in so long. I hate feeling this way. God damnit, I wish I could just turn it off. Turn off the negativity in my brain, turn of the sinking feeling, turn of the waterworks. I'm such a baby. I wish just once that I could walk out the door and actually be happy. :sad::sad:

i feel like that often, if only there was a switch... turn off my thoughts, turn off my feelings, turn off my anger, turn off my insecurities, etc etc
sometimes i find crying help a lil, cry myself till im too tired anymore then fall asleep, usually sleep better like that. sometimes it builds up so bad i wanna scream to get it all out of my chest. i hate feeling sad and then i start to feel angry coz i dont like being hurt, i feel like im at war w/ myself.

:hug: kellz maybe take a long and relaxing bath or something to make you feel better. But also hun there nothing wrong crying alot i know you dont like it but sometimes it makes us feel better afterwards.

I feel your pain. I hate constant depression to the point where all that comes out are tears. It hurts, it really does. I agree with Puddytat though. Crying does help at night before bed. It puts you to sleep and hopefully in the morning you'll feel better.