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December 10, 2012

Anorexia Nervosa

Like
the phantom in The Phantom of the Opera, anorexia nervosa has two domains:
what’s outside for everyone to see and what’s inside, hidden not only from
others but often even from the sufferer herself.

The
visible behaviors and outcomes of anorexia are often shocking, except to people
with the disorder. You can easily get lost in the focus on what’s visible on
the outside. But as you discover in this chapter, these behaviors are driven by
an invisible engine of internal distress — and an astonishing level of
determination to overcome that distress through thinness.

If
you have anorexia, you may feel that you’re solving what’s distressing in your
life with your thinness and ability to control what you eat. Consider that, in
fact, the genius of your anorexia is that it takes all that internal distress
and turns it into one simple external issue: the daily challenge of avoiding
fat and staying thin. Anorexia gives you a feeling of control when you
otherwise feel helpless in life, and it makes you feel worthwhile when you so
often doubt your worth.