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Monday, November 5, 2012

baby #9?!?!?!?

I attend a church of about 200 people. It is a very diverse group. The church is located in a middle/upper class area but the people come from all over. We have men in a half way house ministry that attend, a couple of pharmacists, a doctor, several SAHMs, some homeschoolers, a couple of scientists, a truck driver, waitresses, you name it. We have it all. What we also have are some crazy fertile people.

In the past 2-3 months we have had 4 families announce that they are pregnant. This is after 5 births earlier this year. One of the 4 families is having baby #4, two are baby number #5 and one is having their 9th. Yes, their 9th! We have two Duggar-esque families. One had their 8th earlier in the year and now this one having their 9th. And then there is me, struggling to have a second. I can honestly say that I am happy for all of these families as they are good families and support themselves and care for their children. But why not me? I know we all ask this at some time or another and I asked it often during our 11 years waiting for Maddie. But I am there again. As I sit here and wait for my period to start (nope, not yet!) I wonder if I will get to join this group of super fertiles. I wish that God did things like we teach toddler: one for you, one for me. But alas, He does not. So again......I wait.....

I know it's hard. I'm in the same boat (not quite as far down the river... we've only been trying for close to 5 years). I take comfort in knowing that we will get the children who God intends for us to have.

His plans for us are so much greater than anything we could plan for ourselves.

Oh man! That's rough! I know you are happy for them, but it just reminds us of what we can't do easily. I can't believe it still hasn't showed up yet?!?! Can you see if the RE will prescribe anything to bring it on? I'm thinking of you!

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Hi! I am Jess! My hubby and I are infertility veterans. It took us 12 years, 4 IUIs, 2 failed adoptions and one round of FET with donated embryos to finally have our miracle baby! Though we now have a baby we still consider ourselves infertile and this blog chronicles that journey.