Christmas letter

Christmas always reminds me how much you’ve grown
spend all day together for a few weeks

catch up
have long conversations
I stare at your faces longer than usual
I want to remember all the moments I missed
and every second is passing
we’ll never see each other this young again
I’m still not okay with the idea of dying
you’re so beautiful
you’ll be older one day
I want to remember this moment forever
but I know I can’t
I hate that I have to miss all this when I go to work most of the year

J you and I played our first pokemon the card game game until the clock struck midnight on 2019.