The coming out story of a 20-something year old masculine gay guy in London. This blog is no longer active but I hope you enjoy/learn something from the posts

Sunday, 14 November 2010

My First Gay Experience

In my opening post I said I was still a virgin. This is true. Well at least in my eyes it is. I have had one gay experience though but I don't believe it to have been sufficient enough to award it the title of the time I lost my virginity. I know that some people think of any gay experience, such as oral or mutual wanking, to be gay sex. This is probably true, but for me, it's anal (whether given or taken) that is the ultimate decider of whether you have lost your actual gay virginity.

Back to my first gay experience though.

Earlier this year I was in Bangkok as part of a larger post-university trip through Asia. I had always heard how Thailand is a mecca for gay travellers and so I was intent on taking advantage of my being on my own in a faraway foreign land to make progress in my gay life. Once there though I was very disappointed. Everywhere I went I was confronted with the sleazy image of old western men enjoying the company of young Thai boys. I don't know why this surprised me, as Thailand is renowned for this, but I guess I was hoping for a lot more young everyday backpackers like me. Maybe they were there but unfortunately I just didn't meet them.

Disheartened but not dismayed I decided to carry on with my plans of visiting a gay sauna. In the weeks leading up to my arrival in Bangkok I had been reading on the Internet about a famous sauna in the city called Babylon. It's apparently the most famous sauna in not just Thailand but the whole of Asia and from what I had read it sounded like the place to go if you were a foreign gay visitor looking for some fun.

The hotel I had booked was coincidentally within walking distance of Babylon and so after a few days of getting to grips with the city and crossing off all the tourist must-dos I set out to to cross off the gay must-do. I was naturally quite nervous but the fact that I was in a completely foreign city where I knew absolutely nobody combined with nearly 24 years of zero sexual activity meant that I was resolute in my decision and there was nothing that was going to stop me from going!

It was a characteristically humid evening as I walked along the busy road to Babylon. My heart was beating fast and I couldn't help but wonder if all the people in the cars that passed me by knew where I was going and were busy labeling me as just another dodgy sex tourist. Soon though I disappeared off the main road and into the quiet lanes that led to the sauna. The hardest part was definitely getting there, as once inside you do feel like you're in a safe haven of sorts surrounded my like-minded people.

Before I knew it I was in the locker room, stripping down, wrapping a towel around my waist and heading into the unknown. Babylon was different to how I had imagined it would be. For starters it is a lot smaller than they make it out to be. I think that as it was a weekday evening one area was closed but still, I thought it would be bigger. On the ground floor there was a small dry sauna with a tiny screen showing the same porn movie over and over again without sound. Next to it was a dark steam room, part of which was a small maze so dark you couldn't see anything, the other part just light enough to make out the people sitting next to and opposite you. Upstairs there was another maze of sorts with some private rooms and lots of men just standing around waiting for something to happen.

The thing that most disappointed me about Babylon was the lack of open action going on. I had been led to believe that it was easy to just walk around and watch other guys get it on with each other but I hardly saw anything. Perhaps this was a cultural thing? You would hear the odd murmur from a dark corner of the maze or a private room but that was about it. Another thing that disappointed me was the lack of foreign guys. That may have just been down to the time and day that I was there but as I'm not really attracted to Thai or Asian men I felt like my options were slightly limited. Foreign men are clearly the prize for many Thai guys though and so wherever I went I was generally the center of attention getting a lot of enquiring looks and the odd forward advance. This was great for the ego I guess but as I wasn't really interested in reciprocating the attention it got slightly annoying after a while and I did start to feel a bit like a piece of meat and not in a good way! The white guys that were there were generally of the older dodgy looking variety, which further added to my displeasure.

I wasn't ready to give up yet though and so I spent what was probably an hour or so moving between each of the rooms trying to see what was going on and learn how exactly things work at these sorts of places. When the heat of the sauna and steam rooms got too much I would take a seat outside watching people come and go or in the cafe where I eventually grabbed some dinner. It was here that I saw another white guy around my age although at first glance he was not really my type and so I didn't take much notice of him.

Back on the circuit though I was starting to feel a bit desperate and really didn't want to leave without having cum even if I did just have to do it by myself. Eventually I made it back to the steam room where having taken a seat on one of the benches I noticed the same guy sitting opposite me. He was getting some attention from a Thai guy next to him and had removed his towel exposing his hard cock. Having not yet seen much interesting action or attractive men this got me going fairly quickly and so I moved across and took a seat next to him. Even though I hadn't really taken much notice of him in the cafe I was more than a little turned on sitting next to him with the heat of the steam making us sweat and the sounds of groaning men in the background further adding to the atmosphere. His cock was staring up at me and so I reached out with my right hand and took over from the Thai guy. It was the first cock I have ever felt (apart from my own of course) and it was a great first one to hold, as apart from being fairly long it was also nice and fat, easily filling the grasp of my hand.

As I stroked his cock up and down he began to kiss my shoulder and neck. I didn't really enjoy this though, as he was a very wet kisser and had an annoying goatee that rubbed against my skin. He tried to make his way to my mouth but I resisted each time. I also didn't really want to go down on him. Although my heart (and most definitely my cock) wanted me to my head kept saying no. I guess I'm still hesitant about these things, worried about HIV and STI's having been lectured about them for years at school and university. When you're in an environment like a gay sauna you can't help but wonder where else the guys around you have been and what/who they have done. I was happy for the time being just enjoying the feel of another man's cock in my hand and watching and listening to the pleasure he was getting from it. He began to reciprocate and soon I was approaching my long awaited climax. As I neared it he let his hand roam down to my balls and ass and as he did so I automatically lifted my leg over his to give him better access. He instinctively jumped up and moved down in front of me to get a better view of my hole. Probing at its opening with his finger but not quite entering it I soon brought myself to completion and at the same time felt his warm cum spray on my leg. To my slight surprise but also amusement I also felt the cum of other men, their bodies and faces up until now hidden by the darkness of the room.

It was over as quick as it had begun and soon I was out of the steam room and into the showers where I washed the remains of the past few minutes from my skin. I had achieved more or less what I wanted to achieve and so I quickly got changed and made my way back to the main road leading to my hotel.

Back in my hotel room I couldn't quite believe the evening had happend. I had made significant progress although remained slightly disappointed about the whole experience. It wasn't quite as good as I had hoped it would be and even though I hadn't really planned to go much further than what I did I was still disappointed at how I had found the whole experience. I generally have a very active and dirty mind but I had felt out of my depth there and found it sleazier than I thought it would be. Perhaps that was because I was surrounded by Thai men, to whom I'm not attracted to, and mostly old foreign men, who you automatically assume to be dodgier than normal given that you're in Bangkok. However, I was still put off and couldn't imagine myself going to a gay sauna again, wherever it may be.

A few months have passed since then though and now that I'm back in London I'm beginning to wonder if maybe I should give the gay sauna experience one more go. I'm sure the venues in London are superior to those in Thailand and I presume my options here in terms of people will be more plentiful. I still have my reservations though particularly when it comes to going all the way. I feel like losing my virginity in a sauna is too fraught with risks and also too impersonal. I feel like I should wait to meet someone a bit more special, perhaps through something like gaydar, where we can take things a bit slower and do it right. But I also can't help but feel that going to a sauna in London will still be good for me, if only to get more comfortable with the idea of being naked and sexual around other guys.

38 comments:

I'm just reading your blog from the begining and I'm excited to read more, but I just wanted to leave you a quick note. You are very brave and confident by going into a bath house, I'm not sure if I would have been able to even walk in! Haha! Even though it wasn't what you hoped for I would say you've got to start somewhere and you're making progress :)

haha yeah it's not the easiest thing to do but it really is just the getting in there that is difficult! Once you're in it's fine. And while it's a bit sleazy there's nothing wrong with a bit of sleaze in one's life I think :-) It's also just a really interesting experience! I would highly recommend it - I'm still thinking of doing it again actually! Glad you like my blog MC - chat to you later.

Great story! I am reaally turned on- Last night I had my first Black cock and it was incredible, I hooked up with a Black kid who is 22 from CL and I am 37 and only been fucked 5 times by 2 different guys and the biggest cock was 6".Ty cam over and he was 6'3" 220 and we made out undressed each other and his cock is 9" uncut beautiful I sucked him for 20 minutes before he pulled me up and then sucked my 5" lil cock hard and fingered my hole. he then pulled out a condom but I said you can have me bareback so he greased my hole and rubbed the head of his huge and I mean huge black head on my white hole then pushed in and fuck it hurt and felt so good!he went slow and stroked my cock too and ten I reached down after 5 minutes and pulled his hips so his cock was all the way in my new manpussy. from then he fucked me hard stroked me, pinched my nipples and kissed me as I became his bitch next we came together as he filled my hole with his cream real thick and gooey. He leaned down and sucked me dry and then I sucked on his boner and cleaned him all up! We went to the shower and I sucked him hard again and he came in my mouth and I drank it all down! We cum kissed and I told him he can fuck me anytime! Ty is coming back over tomorrow night to fuck me all night! I can't wait for that big black boner to breed my lil white ass again, it is so sore right now but I luv it!

Wanna hear my first gay experience? Ok, I'll tell you anyways.I was 11. The kids in the neighborhood were planning our last sleep over of the summer and probably our last ever. We were at one of the kids house and after his parents were fast asleep he went to where his father hid the porn flicks. We popped in a tape, I think it was "Behind The Green Door". As we're watching, I know we all had hard-ons. One of the kids says, "I wish I could get a blow job like that". Just as he says that I start licking my lips and my other friend notices me. He asks me if I've ever sucked on a cock before. I said no and he instantly says...but you would like to wouldn't you. I froze and didn't say a word which must have meant I'd love to. As if it wasn't written all over my face. He gets up and walks over to me, pulls his pajamas down and starts teasing me with his hard cock. Come on, put it in your mouth. The others were eagerly begging me as well. Not sure what happened but the next thing I know is that his cock is sliding between my sucking lips. I tried to act startled but I was loving it too much. The taste of his skin was driving me wild. Soon he was moaning and holding my head in his hands as he fucked my mouth. Oh shit, Im gonna cum he whispers. He stands up on his tip toes and I felt his hard cock twitch and then the first warm spurt of cum hit the back of my throat. Amazingly I was able to keep sucking as he kept pumping spurt after thick spurt into my mouth. He finally pulled away and I now had a full mouth of velvety smooth cum. Before I could swallow his load another cock was pressing against my lips. I went down to the base of his cock and he starts cumming. One, two, three, at least five spurts of his cum is joined with the other thick load. Cum is dripping from my lips as I swished it around in my mouth like a connoisseur in a wine taste test. I finally swallowed as they all looked on in awe. Now I started looking for the next cock to suck. There were 7 besides me and I gave them all there first blow job. Keep in mind this wasn't like a porn flick where half or most of the guys load misses the mouth. I sucked each one until they exploded in my mouth. Every last drop was sucked from their beautiful virgin cocks. To this day I can remember the taste like it was yeaterday. The cum was so thick in my mouth I could practically chew it. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM sooooooo good.Needless to say from that day forward I was hooked on sucking cock.

Me to I sucked my best friends dick while watching a porn he saw I had a boner and then he bluntly pulls me by the hair and shoves my face in his crotch he then pulled me up by my hair and pulled out his cock and says suck it now I did as he said out of fear so he sees that I'm now choking on his cock he grabs me forcefully bends my over his bed and shoves his dick into my ass I told him to stop cuz it hurt but just kept fucking me finally he came and seizing the moment I tried to escape but he grabbed me and he did it all over and again I never told anybody this story before I was 7 and he was 16

Sunday is when it got crazy. I woke up and he was still asleep. Well I had morning wood as usual. I decided to pop in a porn. We were both straight so I figured he wouldn't care. I pulled my blanket back over myself and grabbed the lube. Well he wakes up 5 minutes into it. He laughs a little and asks if I would be bothered if he jacked off. From an early age I always jacked off at sleepovers with friends. But it was all straight. So naturally I said no.Eventually he says that he hadn't had sex in a while and it was good to be masturbating. I agreed and he sat down on the bed with me. We were both still mqsturbating at this point when he looks at me and says for me to pull the covers off that he would love to see my dick. Hesitant I slowly pulled them off. Leaving my cock exposing and throbbing.

So he positions himself where our cocks are parallel. He then proceeds to squirt more lube in his hand and pushes a little farther. He wanted to jack me off to see what it felt like. . Let me tell you, his hands stroking my dick felt so amazing. He started rubbing my balls and at this point I was in heaven. So without even asking I grabbed the lube and grabbed his dick. I had the urge to lick him from his sac up. But didn't act on it.

But we sat there together, two friends moaning at one another's pleasure. We would lock eyes every now and again. Finally I asked if he would like to see what it was like to give a blowjob after he started fingering my anus. Because at this point of our experimenting I knew it would probably go far. He wasn't up for that and I really didn't care. It was I who wanted to lick and kiss him all over.

Eventually he said he wondered what anal felt like. He also asked if I would stick it in him. A little afraid and uneducated I said yes but you get on top. Looking back I can't believe I said that but he obliged and spread his beautiful ass. He sat on my dick and it did feel good but he was obviously in pain so after about 30 seconds he said he couldn't do it.

Something inside burst at the sight of my naked friend at this point. I quickly got up and said here try me. So kneeled over the bed. He was so careful. He kept on making sure I was comfortable as he rubbed my back and my thighs. I think he even nibbled on my neck and ass cheeks.

Eventually he grabbed the lube and put a lot in his hand. He even warmed it up for me and cupped my anus with his hand. He slowly caressed me and I didn't complain. Every now and again he would stroke my dick as he rubbed my anus.

As time went he began to put more pressure on my anus until he had one finger in. I must've moaned in ecstasy because started licking my back and neck.

At this point I begged him to stick it in. So he cautioned me to tell him if it was too much.

The next part goes down in history.... He rested his cock on my ass and slowly put the head in. At first it hurt but I figured out what muscles to relax fairly quick. Once I backed up to him he stuck more in. I loved the feeling of his thighs against mine as he slowly thrust into me.

Eventually I was relaxed enough and horny enough I starting backing up harder. He starting thrusting. We kept a pretty even pace. He would reach around and rub my inner thighs with both hands and finally started jacking me off.

I listened to his moans. He was obviously into it pretty good. I remember hearing him start to climax and realized his stroking on my dick was getting harder. I reached back and massaged his anus as he started to gasp. The feeling or his dick jerking inside me was amazing. So I started to get off. He stayed inside me as we both sat there gasping.

Finally he pulled out and we laid their naked holding one another.

We went nude the rest of the day around my house and every now and again I would bend over as if wanting more and he knew what to do.

But keep in mind I thought I was straight at the time. Guilt sat in that night and after he left we eventually stopped talking as much. Until now we hardly ever talk.

My first gay sex was when I had still dry orgasms. I played with my stiffy in a public shower. An elderly man seduced me to look at porn pics and to let him penetrate my butt. It hurt a little only and in the moment he filled my arse with his warm spunk I knew that I am bi and ejaculated on the matress.

My my first gay sex was with an older man I knew who got me very drunk and said he needed to put me to bed before anyone came home. I was so drunk I didn't even think when he took all of my clothes off and then started to stroke my cock which I liked. Then he turned me over face down on the bed and started to rub some sort of lube inside me. When I said what are you doing he just laughed and said it will be ok and then spread my legs but I was shocked when he climbed on top of me between my legs and started to push his cock inside my now greasy arse. I was scared now and cried out but there was no one else in the house and he just pushed my face into the pillow when I cried out and said shhh. Then I felt him pumping his cock inside me and then felt cum fill me up but didn't realise what it was at first. He then laughed and said you better have a shower where he joined me and washed up both

My first time was when I was eleven years old. My friend, his little brother, and I were watching porn. We talked about what getting a blowjob would feel like. My friend came out and said that his little brother would suck our dicks. I hesitated and then proceeded to say yes. We went outside in broad daylight behind a shed, and his little brother slowly slid my shorts down. I was really hard and excited so I grabbed his head and shoved my dick in his mouth. I was too young to even cum at this point. My friend looked at me and asked me to suck him. I quickly took the offer. The feeling of a dick in my mouth was so amazing. He was also too young to cum. Later in the day we were in my bedroom, and my friend suggested we try anal. I watched him as he put his dick in his little brother. His little brother didn't seem to mind. After he was done he wanted me to fuck him. So I did, this was the moment that I knew I wouldn't be the same anymore. Today only 5 years later I still fight the urge to groab any of my friend's dicks when we watch porn. I only get gay when I am extremely horny. I am not attracted to men when I'm not horny. I think I may be by. If anyone wants to contact me my email is verrycommonname@yahoo.com

I was 20 years old when it happened. I had always liked girls and had never thought about guys sexually. Until one day at the gym I caught a glimpse of a guy in the shower and was right away staring at him. Mostly his dick, which was bigger and more attractive than I ever thought, even though it probably wasnt that big. But it planted the seed, I was curious.

See I'm 6'1 smooth white skin, brown hair and eyes 175-180lbs some freckles, a little muscular, from going to the gym since I was 16, I had lost alot of weight and almost had a six pack, except for my bum and thighs, my bum was still really big. Like black girl big, I had to buy pants that were too big in the waist so my bum would fit. Anyways Im pretty good looking and always did well with the ladies.

I worked at a bar, and that's were I met him Christian was his name, 18 years old white a little chubby 5'11 charismatic. He was a busser and we soon became friends. One day I happen to glance while were in the bathroom together and almost did a double take. He was huge, even soft.

The next time we went out on a staff outting I shared a cab with him and he invited me in for drinks as his parents were gone. It was my best chance to make a move on him if things backfired I could just say I didn't remember. We had a couple drinks which got him really drunk and he was almost passing out when I grabbed his dick. He went along with it and I jacked him hard. My god he was big, over 8 inches at least and thick. Almost a beer bottle at the base. I jacked him and sucked him till he came and then I left. He messaged me in the morning saying how he knew what I did, and we agreed to not tell anyone but still hook up

I was 13, and my Mom had to go out of town to see my Grandma. She asked the 17 year old neighbor to watch me for the day. He was taking me to the pool that morning, so I went over in my swim trunks and tee shirt. I was in his room, and he started to change in front of me. I had never really seen a guy naked before, and when he dropped his boxers, my jaw dropped. He took his time getting changed, definitely putting on a show, but I was so naïve didn't understand it. We swam and came back for lunch. Haha, I was lunch. Went back into his room and we changed back into to street clothes. I'd never been naked around anyone but my doctor, but didn't want to be a prude, so I changed in front of him. He looked over at me, and commented on my peach fuzz pubes. Then he told me I was pretty good size for my age, then he asked me if I had started jerking yet. (Discovered that joy at 11). when I told him yeah, he said he could stand to rub one out after looking at all the hot girls at the pool, and flopped down on his bed and started tugging himself to erection. I popped a bone, and he scooted over and said to join him. we started jerking, then he reached over took my hand and put it on him. Worked him awhile, and he said he wasn't feeling it. He rolled on top of me and started grinding against my stomach. Felt great. He lightly kissed my neck, then worked down to my nipples, which I never knew were such a pleasure center. He kissed down and took all of me in his mouth. I saw stars. I felt his finger pressing against my hole and I told him no, but he ignored me. He licked his finger and plunged it in. He found my prostate and started to massage it as he sucked. I told him I was going to cum, but he kept on sucking me, and fingering me. I exploded in his mouth in the best orgasm ever. He got up, came back with a jar of Vaseline and said he needed to fuck me. He got me stretched, but I couldn't take him. Finally he had me suck him until he held my head, and shot in my mouth telling me to swallow it, before he would release me. We got dressed and went to play video games like nothing happened. I felt so guilty and ashamed, but he acted like nothing happened. a couple days later, saw him cutting his grass shirtless, and got hard. I realized I wanted to do it again, and we went to his room and did it again. This time he got inside me and after a few minutes of pumping emptied into my bowels. Been getting it ever since.

I was 12 and was seduced in a basement hotel bathroom. One older guy invited me to slide my cock under the partition. I did and he sucked me as I panted and moaned. "Oh, yes, that feels so good." the guy in the other stall slid under the partition and started to eat my ass. I came like a racehorse and for the next several years, frequented that bathroom to learn from older men how to suck cock and give up my ass for bareback fucking. By the time I got to high school, I was the hottest 16 year old cocksucker in town!

I'm 60 years old, but 6' 2" and slender. I've never been with a man, but a few months ago I was jacking off in a public restroom stall. I had dropped my pants to the floor around my ankles. A tall black man peed in the urinal in front of my stall. When he was done, he looked in the crack between the door of the stall and the wall and asked me if I knew what time it was. I quit playing with my cock (I wasn't sure he was wanting to look at me) and read the time from my phone. Then he went to the sink and washed his hands, but didn't leave. I started stroking my cock again, using the pre-cum as lube and making some noise with it. He walked back over and commented on the cooler weather we were having. I made some remark as I saw him peeking in through the crack again. I kept stroking my cock as he watched, and then I shot my cum. He watched as it oozed down my cock. As I started cleaning up with toilet paper, it was getting stuck on my cock. Next thing I know, I hear a voice over my head asking me if I wanted a wet paper towel. He was standing on the toilet next to me watching me wipe off my cock. I declined (I was afraid someone would walk in and catch him up there.) He watched me finish wiping my cum off. As I washed my hands at the sink, he kept staring at my cock, then told me to have a nice day as I left. Looking back, I wished I would have opened the door to the stall and let him see me fully exposed or let him jack me off. Sometimes I fantasize about him sucking my cock, or rubbing our cocks together.