Thursday, January 19, 2017

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Details decided and deposit officially due. Hard paying money on a costume choice I'm unhappy about...but still so excited just to dress up! Making the best of it and Squeezifying the hell out of this character!

Monday, January 16, 2017

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Wish.com drives me crazy. You pay cheap prices for even cheaper products. I ordered a cute coat once, when it arrived it was incredible poor quality compared to the pictures. The button holes weren't even cut open! That being said their customer service is amazing. Something doesn't arrive on time or you aren't satisfied with your purchase in any way at all they return it.

That being said, I started ordering cosplay wigs from there. Cheap wigs for the once or twice I'll wear them. We'll see how they are when they get here...in a month. I received this e-mail last week, reminding me tat Halloween is 'just around the corner'. I guess they are compensating for their horrendous shipping times? Made me smile.

Loving my mixed martial arts program. When I woke up this morning only thinking about the things that are going wrong, I got to beat the shit out of those thoughts. Great workout for someone trudging through crap. Hoping things start looking up again! Thankful I'm healthy and can expell the negativities somehow, or at least try to.

Monday, January 9, 2017

I'm a worrier, and often worry myself sick...literally. Often there is nothing I can do about the things that make me worry. I try and remind myself that worrying is like walking around with an umbrella waiting for it to rain. I need to stop inviting negativity into my life. Wasting previous moments of the little time we have worrying...always worrying! Was reading an update on someone who is in a much more difficult situation in life than I currently am, and she posted this quote:

“Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.”– Leo Buscaglia

Started planning my cosplay for the expo. Not really into this one but I'm trying to get the most enjoyment out of it as I can. This is the event I was asked to go as flounder to accompany Ariel. As this isn't a character, movie or theme I like at all, I said I would only agree to do it if my steampunk seamstress could make the costume. I need to make it my own somehow.

Confirmed initial costume details with my seamstress, found a yellow wig to cut and style and started searching for little shorts to go with the costume. As I want frilly yellow shorts, I guess google decided that was considered underwear and this popped up...

I will admit I want them only so I can ask someone if they want to see my pussy. Then on the other hand I find them quite creepy...

New cosplay idea! I'll wear these, and walk around with a guy wearing these...who's in!?

I do not have control over assumptions others make about me, choices they make based on those assumptions and how they feel about me. I cannot always control the emotions I experience in response to the actions of someone else. Sadness, frustration, loss, defeat are all valid emotions. That being said I CAN control how I react to my own emotions. I will feel them, strongly, but I will use this energy to motivate other areas of my life. Use my negative energy toward my workouts. The sadness will be a reminder to better myself. Loss just means there was a positive effect on my life that is now gone and I need to take something from the positive impact instead of focussing on the deficit of it. I will control what I can, and let go of what I cannot.

Monday, January 2, 2017

Finally figured out how to take screens in Borderlands 2! I had no idea F12 was the default for screens in Steam games. Probably shouldn't share that it took me this long to figure that out. I automatically tried F5 as in TF2 and my dual monitors wold always mess up using print screen. Anyway, my Gaige. Really digging my pirate costume.

In TF2 I'd take a lot of epic screens, my first entertaining BL2 one to share. Perfect pose to die in...