4/30/16- wake up from nightmares .. Body is in pain and sore. Gotta get ready to meet with bankruptcy paralegal who works on Saturdays. Realtor has not returned my calls who told me she can get a quick 235k for my home.

Life is beautiful. I have an entire free summer without a care in the world. Woke up late and getting ready to head to the pool. The sun is beaming down and water is crystal blue. No place to report to, no bitches to deal with at work, and no crazy boss. My company I worked for over 15 years was bought out. I go to my mailbox and I am holding a 500k check and have another 1 million in company stock in a brokerage account. The weird thing is why am I anxious holding this check. It feel like it's going to slip out of my fingers.

I know I like to gamble but I am not going to blow it this time around. Not in a million years.

5/01/2016
One of my triggers goes off. Driving around in this beautiful weather and killing time for next meeting in 5 hours. Have 22 miles left in my gas tank. Can't wait to see my compadres and conversate.

I don't know if just changing my account numbers is a good idea like paralegal suggested. I got some loans from some serious folks. These are not your run of the mill credit card companies or signature loans.

Don't you want to write the whole story in details? It sounds pretty shady/loan sharky. And I mean both: your paralegal and your "serious folks". And writing it down helps sometimes to find a right decision. And sometimes you get good advice on the internet ( you will clearly get a lot of trolling too :P. But you know that you deserve it. ). And may be post it not in the blogs but somewhere in OOT. OOT is read more and in blogs people hold back with unsolicited advise .

Life is beautiful. I have an entire free summer without a care in the world. Woke up late and getting ready to head to the pool. The sun is beaming down and water is crystal blue. No place to report to, no bitches to deal with at work, and no crazy boss. My company I worked for over 15 years was bought out. I go to my mailbox and I am holding a 500k check and have another 1 million in company stock in a brokerage account. The weird thing is why am I anxious holding this check. It feel like it's going to slip out of my fingers.

I know I like to gamble but I am not going to blow it this time around. Not in a million years.

Fast Forwad
May 2, 2016 8:11 am
I'm late getting ready for work for the new job I have had for 6 months. I have a new group of bitches, a new crazy boss, and a miserable job with half the pay and no job security. I have no tenure and get no respect. I am back to zero.

no, the OP clearly wants to make this as hard to read and understand as he can. please respect his artistic choice

OOOOOOOO. Me dumby. Now I understand! It is like a detective story. OP wants to keep up the tension.

How did he loose 1,5 mio? 500k on red and remainder playing 10/5$ NL or sports betting on the track of the beast? Is he going to be beat-up by the loan sharks or going to jail for some shady tricks with his paralegal? Is his next bet his life against all his debt? Or did he already loose this bet? What for he wants to be respected in his job? What exactly was that story with changing bank accounts? Can we all change our account number to something with a lot of $ in it? Is he going to be in the next meeting and how is the pizza?

12:00 Pm Director comes into our office for important meeting
"The situation with these clients is dire. "If we lose, them it would be catastrophic. They are 40 percent of our business."

5:30 Pm login to illegal sports site from my phone while I'm driving around looking for something to eat. Withdraw my last $120 off the site. Two weeks ago I had 9k on there. They used to wire 15k at a time to me in 3 days. I was such a high roller I would get automatic 10pecent on all deposits. No more. That's the last time I log in.

6:00 Pm Wishing I still had that free burrito coupon from that chain that had the ecoli outbreak. I think I threw it away. Log into my brokerage account. I have 12 bucks on there. Cool I'll use that for dinner. I'm standing in line ordering my rice bowl and this nasty dirty water drips off the corn as the server flops on my bowel. ****. I have to order a large beer with this **** now to sterilize and kill bacteria in my GI tract. Bill comes up to $12.50. Whip out credit card.