by Stephanie

It’s interesting to me that I could feel such an aversion to permanence, such a strong draw to transience, but still feel so emotional about this move to London. After an hour-long phone call with a good friend, I came to realize that while I have no desire or emotional need to “settle down,” I do have the need to surround myself with people I know and love. As long as these people are easy to reach, I am comfortable and happy. But the idea of London, of not knowing anyone and of being 5000 miles and an ocean away from the people I love, is imposing.

I realize, of course, that I will make friends. I understand that new adventures produce new acquaintances. I know the permanence of my current relationships does not depend on proximity. Unfortunately emotion is decidedly impervious to knowledge and logic, which means that even though I am excited I am also a bit down. But that’s all part of it, I guess. What is an adventure if it doesn’t at some point produce a bit of all emotions?

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While I sometimes admire your “transient” lifestyle, I do worry for you a little bit. When you were in college, I thought WOW. Then you went to Costa Rica and I thought, what a life. Now you’re going to London and I love that too. But…there is this thing and it’s called retirement/old age. However you want to spin it. Now I know all the dreamers out there will say I’m trying to shatter the illusion but….old age really does happen and if you have any shot of retiring prior to death, you have to start early. Oh, and don’t forget about that rainy day my sweet. They do come!! Being afraid of change (me) is not good. Yes, routine is boring. Somewhere in the middle is perfect. Once London is all over, try to find that balance.

I hope and pray that all my nieces and nephews can find something they love so that it doesn’t feel like work. Unfortunately, that’s usually the exception not the rule. Peace, Love and Bobby Sherman. Love you.