Decision made: No work today - I'm going to 'lunch' with Jo, then tomorrow get on with painting my kitchen. I'm sure I'll dip in and out, but I'll (re)start writing Monday with a clear head.I love 'doing lunch', and I feel lighter giving myself permission to take a couple of days off!

Have to wait 2 to 4 months to hear from the Beeb, though they may not deign to reply at all if they think it's utter crap! Nothing back from the agencies yet either... I should get on and approach more agencies but there are very few prepared to read anything without a credit - and there are very few ways to get a credit without an agent! It's a trawl to find agencies that match my work and are accessible. Competition results aren't due 'til June-ish.

I'm prosaic - the chances of anything getting picked up are slender... but somehow it's blocking me from writing. Feels like unfinished business! Get a rejection, OK, move on and write something new. Poor Bing & Moo! I can do a lot without any agent or input. If I do it well enough - outside of writing - there's a prospect for VC income.

Still, it could be a good sign! I'm developing an artistic persona! "I can't possibly write, darling. I need the mood to be right."

Need to get my arse in gear on that and stop faffing, that's what I need to do.

After a couple of tedious days, I'm rewarding myself with an adventure in prehistory. Bing & Moo are calling! I have 24 episode or story outlines, and the first draft of story 1. Need to call in the services of Mick for drawing them, but he works for beer and food so that shouldn't be a problem.

Now to pad out story 1 and get a feel for cave living times - the agencies can wait!

Expenses, tax returns and admin. No writing today - but after the last couple of days I guess I need a bit of time off. Finishing 2 projects, it's good to have a bit of a break between to clear the cobwebs and lingering threads, otherwise I might get the characters confused!Yawn... know what I'd rather be doing but think positive and tomorrow I'll start on the agencies again. I like those that accept email queries I've decided.

I am stunned by my audacity - I have actually entered the ENO competition. Having never written poetry in my life, having no understanding of the rhythm and structure of opera, I've still entered.

I've got a slightly sick feeling - very similar to the morning after the night before. Like a dumped girlfriend, sending a begging, drunken text to an ex to take her back... then remembering in the morning.

No booze involved - What have I done!? I guess I felt passionate about the subject and it sort of spewed out.

https://www.facebook.com/RHRHandley - NOTHING there yet, but it's setup. Twitter should be next, but even though I love writing, there are only so many hours in a day to bore people with my 'attack on the world of paid writing'

I must be a proper writer I reckon, my internal clock keeps waking me at 4, regardless of the time I go to bed. That's what it's about, isn't it? Coffee, pizza, fags and all night writing? Like old fashioned Private 'I's or journalists...

So, Red Star's gone to the Beeb and I've realised I made a mistake - already. It's part one of a series and Red Star is the name of the operation my Women's Police Service officer uncovers. OBVIOUSLY, future episodes will need a different title! Doh. Should have called it... Amelia Gower and Operation Red Star - something Sherlock Holmes-esque...

Too late now.

So, what to do next? I've my Pensioner camp-horror film (see Other), the English National Opera piece... Bing & Moo needs loads of work. What should I focus on? I want to do them ALL, right now!

I feel like Bing & Moo should be first, but there's a deadline for the ENO entry, but it's hard going. Reckon it's best to switch between the 2 to keep my brain in gear, and maybe reserve my recurring 4am slot for the OAP horror.

(Are we allowed to say Old Age Pensioner now? Is that an ageist term? Bet it is! Oops)

Prevailing opinion is to have a website and a blog, but it's a tough one to setup.

What to focus on? I think the most recent should be highlighted - once finished, what more is there to say? And the excitement of creating the ideas fades. I mean, I'd love to sell them ALL, but after they're complete... although, they never really are complete. There's always a thought on how to improve. But that's in competition with new ideas - and there is the quandary of how to arrange a website!

And make it look professional! That's not my bag - I have the greatest respect for graphic designers, esp those creating a 'web presence'.

Pictures - for now, these will have to be things that make me happy! Or 'nickable' photos that have a small bearing on my themes.