12/21/10

Come to Mama

Today is the solstice, with a magical eclipse thrown in, in the wee hours this morning. I'm sitting in a lovely comfy hotel room in Syracuse, with a picture of four pretty blastocysts (and one that didn't quite get there, second from right) on the table next to me. Our transfer was this morning. We transferred two. Two will be frozen, which I am very happy about.

Our donor gave us 11 eggs, 9 were mature, and 5 fertilized. My clinic decided right away to do a day 5 transfer. They don't like to disturb the embryos so I had no idea during the week how they were doing. I was haunted with fears that they would not survive, like last time, and all our very profound and consuming efforts, emotional, physical and financial would be for nothing. As the Doc opened the door to the transfer room, he said "It's a beautiful day! You have beautiful embryos!" That was VERY good to hear!!

I am really trying to allow all my joy and hopes and pleasure in having these two embryos inside me to live and flourish. I will not, at least today, succumb to protecting my heart in a way that cuts off my life energy, and my love energy.

I send love and blessings to all of you who are awaiting and loving your children, whatever state your beautiful hearts are in.

15 comments:

How wonderful your little embabies look! After 4 1/2 years of IVF/ISCI, 14 stim cycles, 1 pregnancy that ended at 14 weeks, blah blah blah I'm pregnant again from a cycle with an anonymous ovum donor. I hope it happens for you!! ((HUGS)) for the 2ww!

That's such a beautiful way to put it. Don't cut off your love energy or your life energy! Those are beautiful embies. hope they are settling in for the long haul to receive all the love energy and life energy you have to give.

"I am really trying to allow all my joy and hopes and pleasure in having these two embryos inside me to live and flourish. I will not, at least today, succumb to protecting my heart in a way that cuts off my life energy, and my love energy. "

Here's to ENJOYING the FACT that you have LIFE growing inside of you!!! All the best to you, Rosie! May this 2ww lead to having your baby (babies) in your arms!

stopping by from ICLW (#100). i was so thrilled by the soltice this year and the lunar eclipse! omg, i just read your story on the right and i'm SOOOO hoping this works out for you. i'm glad that you got some frozens out of this cycle too. i agree, don't succumb to protecting your heart. flourish in your joy!

About Me

I just turned 49 years old, TTC with donor eggs. I eloped to Hawaii with the sweetest guy ever, in January, and then had a beautiful and full of love wedding on a mountaintop in October, after being single for-ever and thinking I would be single for the rest of my life. New York City is my hometown, but 5 years ago I fulfilled a dream for myself and bought myself a cottage in the country, 2 hours upstate. Now I live there. It's wonderful, but sometimes I miss the city.