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This post is for all of my Beautiful Sisters and Brothers who may feel alone during the “Holiday Season” what call Family Time Season :-).

Please know you are NEVER alone!

I am a Lone Wolf by nature but sometimes even I feel alone. I am here to tell you to honor yourself, first , second, third and always…

If you feel like being around people, then go ahead and find some folks to have good time with and when you have had enough, remove yourself. You are not obligated to stay longer than you want to. If you decide you want to spend time with just yourself, do it! Enjoy your company, laugh, cry, rest…do whatever you feel like doing in the moment. Perhaps you are like me and want to do both; be with others for a while and spend time with just yourself for a while…do it!

Loneliness is a feeling occurring when we hold on to something or someone that was but will never be again.

I’ve taught myself to look forward to new experiences, new idea, new people…it helps me relieve the feeling of loneliness I used to carry with me way too often. Try it; teach yourself to look forward to what each New Day has to offer.

So during this time when it seems as though everyone has someone, remember you are YOUR most important someone; act accordingly!

Side Bar: Family is not about who you are linked to by blood; Family is a person or people who love, support, encourage and protect you no matter what circumstances may arise. Be with the person or people who make you feel loved BUT, only if you want to. 😉

To Beautiful Spirits reading this with an abundance of loved ones, please remember to reach out to those you know may not have the same.

To you all I wish many great blessings and peace during this Family Time Season.

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After spending yesterday in bed, searching for a reason to keep trying, I’ve awakened today with reasonS to keep trying.

Here’s the thing, I had to acknowledge that there is something within me that is destructive. It fights all of the good in me, as if it’s trying to prevent its inevitable death once I get the hang of thriving as my authentic self. This destructive (for lack of a better term) part of me is a strong son-of-a-b&tch, fortunately the rest of me is even more powerful.

You see it’s so much easier to blame something outside of yourself when your life doesn’t seem to go as want it to. At this time in my life, there is no one or nothing to blame, yet I still feel as though I am not where I should be.

I’ve even tried to blame it on being an introvert, unfortunately everywhere I look there is a successful introvert thriving because of who they are. I honestly believe as an idealist, dreamer, INFP I often get stuck in the creation phase of things and lose interest shortly thereafter because…monotony of day-to-day business is not appealing to me. Funny thing is, I am definitely at the point in my life where working for someone else, helping to build their dreams is simply NOT AN OPTION! I’ve managed other people’s businesses, it’s past time for me to put my big girl panties on and manage my own business. HUuuuuuuumph! *chuckles*

Bottom line is, I’ve been afraid of following through with my dreams/ideas because lack of support has subliminally taught me I am unworthy of fulfilling my dreams/ideas. Growing up, no one ever saw the splendor in my dreams/ideas and I wasn’t encouraged to pursue them. If the ones who love you don’t seem to believe in you, how can you expect anyone else will?

As the years went by, the twinkle in my eyes along with my fearlessness slowly evaporated and I began waiting for someone to save me (i.e. from the bully in school, the adults who thought it was okay to violate my trust, an abusive spouse…) yet no one ever came to save me.

YOU ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN YOU MAY KNOW AT THIS MOMENT; DON’T EVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF. ITS TIME TO BE YOUR OWN HERO…

Being saved was a deep longing I needed fulfilled but much to my chagrin, it never happened until the Universe told me clearly and with certainty, “You and only you have the power to save yourself. It’s time for you to do so with all that you are; all that I’ve created you to be. You are never alone, I am always here unconditionally loving, protecting and guiding you.”

After such a spiritual awakening, there is no way I could continue waiting for anyone to save me so I made a conscious effort to begin saving myself. I am not perfect nor always happy but my personal power is something that I rely on to keep moving forward instead of allowing myself to give up.

Let me just tell you, my entire being…mind, body, spirit, soul and heart gang up on me if I try to give up; seriously sore throat, chest pains, back pains, headaches, spiritual disconnection etc. The part of me that is not destructive has become so much stronger than the part trying it’s best to shut me down therefore, my only choice is to keep moving forward.