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I am wandering and lonely in the corridors of my mindHeart broken into pieces, you drink my tears like wineI suffer with your lack of patienceI am cursed with your temper tooMy heart is bleeding for releaseMy mind is like a balloonWill it pop under your incessant pressure?Will it bang in its cocoon?Is my destiny to be rescued?Or is it to become a loon?I don’t dare to choose my own pathI don’t dare to release myselfBut how can I live with such evil?How can I defend myself?Only time will hear meWill it act and save the day?Will I be rescued swiftly?Or doomed to fade away?I am worried for my questionsI am scared of the future tooI don’t know what will happen to meBut I hope it happens soonI remain in this tight spotUntil fate has turned the keyTo lock me into madnessOr to release me till I am freeI don’t dare to judge what will happenA clue of my future there is noneI just hope it happens swiftlyRelease me from my mumThis was written on Good Friday 2017, 4yrs after I broke away from my mother. But, these are the thoughts that used to come to me when I lived with her. I always felt this desperate, especially as nobody ever believed me when I asked them to help me with her. Not many people believe what I say about her, but it is all true, no matter what they say.I have no reason to lie and what hurts me the most is the fact that my own mother will sit back and tell me that those memories I share with people, good or bad memories, are false, she tried to convince me that I don’t know my own mind.Such is the manipulation of someone who is abusive; they can manipulate even the minds of those of who believe them to be good people. They can wear any mask for any occasion they want, so if anyone in your life tries to tell you something negative about a person you respect, don’t shun it please, you never know anyone 100%.