Wednesday, March 5, 2014

always spring

1 down, 8 to go

i can do this!! really grateful to God & to the people who have been encouraging me & praying for me & sending me their best wishes and asking me how the paper went, sometimes i feel the pple around me are more worried than i am HAHA.

its always difficult to mug for a paper the evening of another paper SIGH. well tonight if i study anything, i must at least make sure i read the diabetes cpg, heart failure cpg, and mug from paeds... electrolytes & epilepsy. and this is not spotting qns ok. this is called "things i always intended to study but just never got round to"

~:) thank you for all the encouragement & for sth to look forward to when all this is over. it really is so nice, not to be just be giving myself self-motivating I AM E AND THEREFORE I CAN DO THIS which kinda gets old & anyway more than half of it is there i go but for the grace of God so technically this i am so determined i can climb any mountain thing is... slightly inaccurate. i dont doubt my determination but sometimes it gets exhausting heh. and not very believable... anyway...i dont know how i can possibly shower back the same level of happiness & win but if ever this comes to pass & God willing, i promise i shall try the best i know how.

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sanctus real ride it out

And ride it out through the sea of doubtThe wind will take you where you're meant to beThe waves will break when your Creator speaksAnd when it's over you will clearly seeThat the storm was only there to show you what it takes to believe

I know you and I, we can make it through make it through

When crashing waves pull you down in the undertow

Reach out your hand and I swear I won't let you go

Shine down Your light so I can see

credits to thought catalog

Thank you for the pain. Thank you for the days I was afraid of my future, for the heartbreak, for the tough lessons, for the exhaustion and brokenness. Because I learned I am whole in you.

Thank you for the unanswered prayers.

Because this life is not about receiving what I ask for, not about basing my relationship with you on what I get, not about wishes being granted and having things my way. For your plan is greater than mine will ever be. And every unanswered prayer was a blessing in disguise.

Thank you for being all that I needed. For listening when I poured my heart out, for guiding me when I lost my footing, for being a source of inspiration and trust, for staying when the world turned its back.

Thank you for forgiveness. For forgiving me, for helping me learn to forgive, for the way forgiveness heals and saves and lets us begin again with new hope. Thank you for building my heart back to its full strength. Thank you for showing me how beautiful life can be when we let go. Thank you for opportunities, for new beginnings.