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The doorbell rang and I opened it. What beautiful children greeted me here. Two little girls, one in her priceless Brownie outfit holding hands with a girl in her green Girl Scout skirt. Their uniforms had been pressed and their little button badges sewn with loving care on their sashes. They were delicious.

I looked at them. “Well hello.” The grin on my face stretched from ear to ear. How I loved little girls. They are full of such promise.

I leaned forward and brushed a curl away from the Brownie’s face. Behind them, waiting protectively on the curb, a mother waited. I raised my hand and waved. She returned my gesture with one of her own. So friendly. I glanced at her beautiful children.

So I was wandering around the blogosphere when I came across “30 Days of Truth” just being undertaken by a fellow blogger. The idea is to make a blog post each day for 30 days, using the prompts provided:

Day 30 : A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

Aww…shucks,

Dear self,

I love so much about you that it’s hard to put into words. Your perseverance for one thing is what got you where you are today. All that hard work, studying, working, failing, trying again, learning, rinse and repeat. All of it has put you where you are now, and that’s a good place.

I love that you still have new interests to explore. Nothing stagnant in this life! Here’s hoping you make something of a writing career. You can add Wife, Mother, Rocket Scientist, Doctor, and then Author to your life checklist.

I love your husband. He’s such a cutie. Glad that you found him when you did. Glad that he clung to you when he did and forced you to realize he wasn’t going anywhere in life without you. He’s been the one true treasure in your life. I love your children, they are wonderfully obstinate. Just what they should be as young men who are developing their identities away from the shadow of mother and father.

I love your friendships, those old, new, and especially those bridging the distance of time and space. I look forward to you weaving those threads in your life back in and out of the rich tapestry they form.

With hugs and kisses,

Yourself!

Now wasn’t that just SUPER SAPPY! I have to tell you I’m a little sad that this 30-day challenge has come to an end. I’ve sort of enjoyed exploring these daily challenges. Let’s see what I can come up with next!

What about you? Care to join me in the 30-Days of Truth Challenge? Answer the question in the comments…it’ll be fun!

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So I was wandering around the blogosphere when I came across “30 Days of Truth” just being undertaken by a fellow blogger. The idea is to make a blog post each day for 30 days, using the prompts provided:

Day 29 : Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

I think I could enjoy myself more, take myself less seriously. Sometimes I just don’t know how to let loose and relax and I do that with very few people. I miss a lot of opportunities that way to laugh and smile and enjoy.

I wish I could forgive easier and faster. I’m a grudge holder, always have been. I need time and distance to get over things and time and distance can be precious commodities within a relationship. My hubby rarely gets mad and if he does he’s over it within five or ten minutes. It’s more like days for me. I don’t know how he does it, but I wish sometimes I could forgive and forget with far greater ease and grace.

I think that’s enough negativity here. I’m not negative in nature and I don’t want to be here in this space.

What about you? Care to join me in the 30-Days of Truth Challenge? Answer the question in the comments…it’ll be fun!

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So I was wandering around the blogosphere when I came across “30 Days of Truth” just being undertaken by a fellow blogger. The idea is to make a blog post each day for 30 days, using the prompts provided:

Day 28 : What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

I would totally FREAK OUT! First off, because I already have two wonderful boys and I am content with them. Second…I am three to five years away from an empty nest. I am really looking forward to having an empty nest. The hubby and I have plans, and plans within plans, and envision a renaissance of sorts between us. We want to be a little selfish, just the two of us.

A baby! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would freak out in a big way. I’d also be in a whole world of trouble, because if I did get pregnant it wouldn’t have been by my husband. Since I don’t cheat, that would mean something bad happened to me. So I don’t want to go there.

However, if one of my sons found himself in trouble with a girl, and they had a baby…I would FREAK OUT…and then I would settle back to earth and deal with the business at hand and support them as I always have and will always do.

What about you? Care to join me in the 30-Days of Truth Challenge? Answer the question in the comments…it’ll be fun!

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So I was wandering around the blogosphere when I came across “30 Days of Truth” just being undertaken by a fellow blogger. The idea is to make a blog post each day for 30 days, using the prompts provided:

Day 27 : What’s the best thing going for you right now?
My family. Hands down. I have a wonderful family. My friends, I have a wonderfully supportive group of friends. My outlook on life. For the most part I’m pretty optimistic and willing to turn any situation into a positive experience.

I guess I have several things that are going my way. Not that life is perfect right now. There are a lot of things going on in my life that I am most definitely not pleased about. I can’t focus on that though. It does me no good. So I press forward and move onward, making my own green pastures as I go…besides what else am I going to do with all the manure I’ve been handed lately?

What about you? Care to join me in the 30-Days of Truth Challenge? Answer the question in the comments…it’ll be fun!

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So I was wandering around the blogosphere when I came across “30 Days of Truth” just being undertaken by a fellow blogger. The idea is to make a blog post each day for 30 days, using the prompts provided:

Day 26 : Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Oh, certainly, during those teenage angsts years, but it was more for drama than anything else and I lacked the willpower, conviction, strength to do it. I’ve had those around me commit suicide and I think it’s the worst tragedy around. I feel a deep sorrow that they couldn’t find some reason to stick around. Feeling down and blue, angry, apathetic is a normal process, a normal emotion, you just have to figure out a reason to stick around. Either you find hope in something big or small, or find love dragging you back, whether in a person or a pet, or you find anger motivating you to just stick around and prove others wrong, there always has to be a reason to stay here sloshing around with the rest of us.

I had two friends in high school commit suicide, one friend when I was in my early twenties attempt suicide (and then spent a very memorable Thanksgiving getting him checked into a hospital), and just recently a coworker commit suicide. Each of those was a tragedy.

Ultimately, I’m pissed off at all of them. Suicide is no way out. In fact it’s the cowards way out. For one of them children were left behind. There’s never any excuse, none, zip, nada, for leaving children behind. I don’t understand the motivations around the depression that drove him to do what he did, but you don’t write a suicide note to your children telling them how much you love them, and then kill yourself. That’s the most selfish act imaginable. Imagine the guilt they have to grow up with, knowing they weren’t enough of a reason for daddy to stick around, that they couldn’t be loved enough for him to want to stay with them.

So, yes, I’ve ‘thought’ about it, but not really. They were just fleeting glimpses of an anguished youth. I don’t understand what draws people to make that final fateful decision. I think they are cowards in the end.

That’s me.

What about you? Care to join me in the 30-Days of Truth Challenge? Answer the question in the comments…it’ll be fun!

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So I was wandering around the blogosphere when I came across “30 Days of Truth” just being undertaken by a fellow blogger. The idea is to make a blog post each day for 30 days, using the prompts provided:

Day 24 : Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

I am not a musical person and I don’t remember all the names of bands and songs. It would be impossible for me to put together a playlist, so I’m opting out of this day’s challenge.

Day 25 : The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

I don’t think I’m done doing what I’m supposed to do here. There’s been a reason to keep me around all these years. I’ve certainly impacted many lives, both those of my family, my friends, and of perfect strangers. I’m happy for what I’ve accomplished. I believe I’ve already done great works, but I feel there’s more left for me to do. That’s why I believe I still around.

What about you? Care to join me in the 30-Days of Truth Challenge? Answer the question in the comments…it’ll be fun!

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