I am always sad and want nothing to do with my school friends or friends that I have made through cheer. I used to be the person who was always doing something and never wanted to be home. I was constantly surrounded by people and friends. Ever since I started high school, that has all changed. I lost all of my close friends and no I find myself playing with my pets and doing nothing but going to practice. Its sad because I want to be back to my super social life and have all my friends back but everyone seems to hate me. I have thought about killing myself due to the amount of mean comments and things being said about my by people I thought were my friends. I am most certainly depressed but I don't want to talk to my parents about it because they are very abusive.

I’ve been regularly self harming since I was 10 (when I found out that you could cut) and have wanted to die since before I can remember. I don’t want to be here but I’m too scared to kill myself. I always wuss out at the last minute.

I used to tell my friend whenever I wanted to try again and she would help me but eventually I annoyed her with issues to the point where she ignored me so I stopped.

I tried talking to other people but I don’t like talking and they won’t take me seriously. I don’t know what to do as I’m not sure if this is normal or not but I’m thinking of trying again.