Uneasy

In this moment and being reflected by the puddles on the street
the neon light of the gas station almost feels somewhat sacred,1
it's drizzling a little bit as usual, I'm feeling overly overstrained,
most likely I'm pretty pale,
the rain is putting a thin, soft coating onto my skin,
my right shoe is smacking out of a hole through which it has soaked up water,
the Reeboks are good for nothing, I sincerely hope the brat
who glued the pair was punished hard for that,
have I said that aloud? Silently, spontaneously and staccato
I'm talking to myself, luckily there's no one on the street now, the coldness and the fresh air are pushing me up, like when you are drinking in a warm place and aren't drunk before you go outside
I'm clenching the 5 euro note tightly, it feels warm
soft and sticky from the sweat of the palm of my right hand,
I buy2 three bottles of Pils3 with it, (I) sure am shaking, but not that much,
I hope the guy on the night desk doesn't notice it

I feel like I'm being watched,
I hope the guy on the night desk won't find me out
and I'm feeling rather uneasy
I hope the guy on the night desk won't find me out
There are quite a few things you rather keep to yourself
I just hope nobody will find me out
And it's really not easy but I pull myself together
I just hope nobody will find me out

I just hope that none of the neighbours has heard it,
but they surely did, it has been pretty loud for a short time,
I hardly remember what the quarrel was about,
Probably like always about everything and nothing altogether,
I hate it when she screams louder and louder, we already have
enough tenants here which can be heard on the hallway day in, day out,
we aren't like that scum, I'm telling you, I let the
first bottle of beer cool my throat, remain sitting
in the kitchen,
staring at the wall I take a deep breath,
drink up very slowly, it's so pleasantly calm at the moment,
I'm thinking, I can't go on like this,
"I should have let her be4, I let myself be provoked,
I sit down next to her on the couch, the TV is on, muted,
It would feel stupid to talk with her now,
she would stay cold, is staring at me unforgivingly,
I stand firm, I feel sorry, I hope she doesn't notice

I feel like I'm being watched,
I stand firm, I feel sorry, I hope she won't find me out
and I'm feeling rather uneasy
I stand firm, I feel sorry, I hope she won't find me out
There are quite a few things you rather keep to yourself
I just hope she won't find me out
And it's really not easy but I pull myself together
I just hope she won't find me out

I know, this evening can't be taken back
and I know that I know it but I don't know if I'm aware of it,
If she could she would have a thousand good reasons to hate me,
I just wish she would talk to me, nothing doing,
her eyes are red and I can see the hematomas,
my infinite sorrow won't find any comprehension,
her face is blank and devoid of colour,
for a minute I take a rest from dragging, then I start digging
the ground is already hard although the sun is shining,
the first nights below zero will come soon, racing heart,
side stich, but I'm not feeling that before I'm done
and she's safe in the earth and mud, I cover
her with leaves, say good-bye, go to the car, dash off,
I rat run, as if on autopilot,
take a shower and then go to sleep, pull myself together,
tomorrow I'll report her missing, I hope they won't find me out

The author of translation requested proofreading.It means that he/she will be happy to receive corrections, suggestions etc about the translation.If you are proficient in both languages of the language pair, you are welcome to leave your comments.

My English is better than my Deutsch, but I can make a few suggestions:

"Sakrales" in this instance means "sacred."
In the next line, you normally wouldn't contract "it's" the second time: "It's drizzling a little bit, like it is most of the time."
"Film" = "coating" rather than "coat"
"taugen nichts" = "are good for nothing" or "aren't good for anything"
"ich hab' mich reizen lassen" = "I let myself be provoked"
"ist nicht rückgängig zu machen" = "can't be taken back"
Add the article "a" in "would have thousand" ("would have a thousand")
Add "I'm" in a few places after like: "like I'm under observation" (2x) and "like I'm on automatic pilot"
"und dann schlafen" = "and then go to sleep"

That's not what it means. The german line means paraphrased "you drink beer or something in a bar but don't feel any effects. Then you go outside and feel drunken."

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ich zahl drei Flaschen Pils damit -> I don't think you can translate directly. More like "Should get three beer bottles for that."

Uh, my mistake. I could have sworn that it said "zähl" instead of "zahl".
But I think the line shall mean "ich bezahl...", that I would make to "I'm buying...". Or "I buy..." instead of "buying"?

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Ich fühl mich wie unter Beobachtung -> I feel like I'm being watched (unless "unter Beobachtung" has a special meaning I don't get)

I think I had a reason why I wrote "under observation" but I guess "being watched" is better. And, "I feel" or "I'm feeling"?

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ich hätt sie nicht anrühren solln -> not quite sure about the German, but I think of something like "I should have ignored her" (lit. "I should not (even) have dealt with her"

It could also mean that but when I translate it that way the double-meaning would get lost. As you propably have noticed the lyrics play with giving hints about what really happens (that he kills her) but don't tell it explicitly until about halfway through the last verse. "anrühren" in its literary sense means "to touch" and it can also mean "to physically harm", "to use violence". But, your translation isn't completely off, it could also mean something like "to not ignore", "to deal with (a person)". It's hard to translate all meanings of it... I guess "touch" has enough meanings to fit here.

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ich käm mir albern vor -> my German is not good enough to estimate the strength of "albern", but "silly" sounds, well, a bit silly in this context Smile. More like "stupid" maybe?

I honestly don't know. But I think "silly" propably is not the wrong expression, so I'll leave it.

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die Haematome -> sounds a bit like forensics. Maybe just "bruises"?

In German it sounds at least as forensic as in English. I had to look up "Hämatom" on Wikipedia before I could translate it into English.

Thanks for all the suggestions! Seems like you are much better than me at writing an English that really sounds like fluent English

EDIT: And another thing: I translated "ich hoff sie merken mir nichts an" etc. to "I hope they don't notice". I think it might be a bit too free because "jemandem etwas anmerken" really refers to the actions of the person that tries to hide something, like, him acting suspiciously. "notice" is much more general. But I couldn't think of any other way to express it.

Just a few details :
- "im Augenblick" (literally the time needed to blink, right?) seems very close to "in a moment" to me. As far as I can tell, the only "longer" expression would be something like "a short while" or "a few seconds", but that's much longer than a blink.

I feel like I'm being watched -> "I feel" conveys the idea that the feeling is more accute. Or so it seems to me, only a native could tell for sure.

ich hätt sie nicht anrühren solln -> I think "I should have let her be" could also convey this allusion about murder. "let be" as "leave alone" but also "allow to live" in a more literal sense.

silly -> what I mean is that "silly" is either very mild ("silly me" to apologize, "silly boy/girl" to scold a child) or a mark of derision, like something naive to the point of stupidity ("silly movie"). "It sounds silly" rather means "it sounds somewhat funny, a bit ridiculous". Like King Atrhur says in the Monty Python movie:
"On second thoughts, let's not go to Camelot: it is a silly place" .
It may have other meanings, but that's how I encountered it most of the time.

ich hoff sie merken mir nichts an -> "I hope they won't find me out" might be the expression you're looking for. Can't tell for sure since the German is a sweet mystery to me, but you might want to check it out.

Just a few details :
- "im Augenblick" (literally the time needed to blink, right?) seems very close to "in a moment" to me. As far as I can tell, the only "longer" expression would be something like "a short while" or "a few seconds", but that's much longer than a blink.

The time you need to blink is called "einen Augenblick lang". "Im Augenblick" means the same as "im Moment", "derzeit", "gerade" - and that just means "now".
"In this moment" also means "now" and is closer to the original.

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ich hoff sie merken mir nichts an -> "I hope they won't find me out" might be the expression you're looking for. Can't tell for sure since the German is a sweet mystery to me, but you might want to check it out.

That at least fits better than "notice". It seems to mean something similiar as "anmerken" even though the still are differences. Perhaps English doesn't have any expression for that.

Well done! I also have some suggestions of my own to make in addition to what jezici and our dear estranged guest have provided:

block 1; line 5: "It's drizzling a little bit like usual"
Looking at the German wie zumeist, I would say it's better to use "as" instead of "like" or you can also substitute "always" for "usual"

In the second part of the second line "I'm feeling overoverstrained"
It's kinda strange to see 'overoverstrained'. Yes, I know that's the literal meaning hehe. May I suggest removing the first set of 'over' and use the adverb 'overly'? --> overly overstrained.