Sunday, 1 September 2013

Second instalment

I looked over at Billy as the roller coaster reached its
highest point. It seemed to settle there for an age and then we were hurtling
down towards a yawning chasm. Faster and faster, hurtling towards the Earth’s
molten core. We dove into the bowels of the earth and whilst still underground
the car levelled out and then began its ascent back to the surface. I kept my
eyes closed until the car bumped to a stop and the shoulder harness raised up
an inch as the electronic lock was released. I turned to Billy. He wasn’t
there. Where could he be? There had not been time for him to get off. Where had
he gone? I open my mouth to call him but all that came out was a scream. Yet
another scream, like the thousands around the theme park; but not through joy,
through fear.

#

‘Granma. Granma. Are you okay?’ William shakes me awake as
the scream dies in my throat.

‘What? Oh sorry William, Granma just had a scary dream.
Everything’s alright now. My brave Sir William has saved me from the monster.’

We have made it to the small coastal town where I grew up.
My daughter and her husband are in the adjoining room and William and I share
this one. The trip has been planned for sometime but once I found out I was ill
again it was rushed forward. William doesn’t know, he thinks the trip is a
special treat because he got such good grades this year. He’s only seven, so
there’s no need to spoil his holiday. One day I will tell him what happened and
the true story of the great uncle he is named after. I have written it all in
my diary. Documented all the times since Billy disappeared that I thought I saw
him, always in a theme park or fairground.

It is early in the morning when William has woken me from my
nightmare and we start to get ready. My daughter and her husband have asked me
to take William out this morning, no need to wake them, they deserve a holiday
too. We rush down to breakfast but William is too excited to eat and I am too
distracted, so we grab some bread and cheese and smuggle it out of the dining
room. As we arrive in the lobby William notices that the bus to the pier is
standing outside. I let him rush off to stop it and as I arrive he is regaling
the bus driver with tales of all the fantastic things he is going to do today.

‘You should go on the big dipper,’ says the bus driver.

‘The big dipper?’ William searches his vocabulary but can’t
picture what this could be.

‘It’s a little train that goes high in the sky and then
sinks underground. I bet it’s as old as your Granma here.’

William looks between me and the bus driver convinced that
there can’t be anything in the world as old as I am. The big dipper is nearly
as old as I am.

The first day it opened was the day Billy and I had been
allowed to go to the pier alone for the first time. I had been ill for nearly a
year but had been in remission for a few months. The regular check up trip to the
doctors the day before had not gone well and mum had been distracted when she
said we could go to the pier alone. I knew something was wrong but I felt okay
so didn’t worry too much. Billy had gone on and on about the big dipper and how
I had to go on with him, as he couldn’t leave me on my own. Eventually I had
agreed, but I didn’t want to. It looked too scary for my liking. I didn’t
remember anything about the ride and Billy’s disappearance. Everyone said the
ride had broken down in the tunnel but it couldn’t have, we were only in the
tunnel a few seconds. The following week when I put on the coat I had been
wearing that day, inside the pocket was a letter. No not a letter, more a
contract. I never showed it to anyone.

#

We spent the day wandering around the pier enjoying the
smaller rides but William couldn’t take his eyes off the big dipper.

‘Please Granma, please. Just once. It can be our secret.’ I
knew his mother wouldn’t be happy, but it wasn’t as big as some of the rides
you see these days, it didn’t even loop-the-loop.

As we got on the ride, my hands started to sweat. William
grabbed hold and smiled. ‘Don’t worry Granma, I’ll look after you. Nothing bad
will happen.’

The car started up and we climbed to the top of the first
hump slowly, as it petered on the top it lurched forwards and started careering
around the track as gravity pulled it on. I am almost starting to enjoy it as
we reach the top of the final peak. I look down and see the hole below, smoke
billowing out, and the earth ready to swallow us whole. I grab William’s hand
and hold tight, closing my eyes. As we reach the bottom the car shudders to a
halt. Surely it should rise again. I slowly open my eyes and suddenly I am ten
again. I remember it all, exactly the same as it had been then. Just the two of
us and then from the shadows he materialises. ‘At last! Had you forgotten? Ah
your final payment.’ He smiles and pulls William from the car. William
struggles against the man’s vice like grip. I turn to try and grab William but
the car starts to move away. I look in William’s eyes and all I see is Billy
and the noise of the fairground above drowns out our screams.