Tanya Young Williams: MJ Death Trial: This Is It for Conrad Murray

A very close friend toured Michael Jackson's rented mansion with the intention to make a offer
on the $38 million dollar home. I asked him to take pictures for me so I could get a better sense
of the home in which Michael Jackson would breathe his last breath. I was surprised to see that
vestiges of Michael Jackson and his children remain in the house, untouched. Upon seeing
Michael Jackson's handwritten affirmations on his bedroom mirror and reading his children's
message to him on a chalkboard in the kitchen, I was moved beyond words. I could no longer
just write these articles as one who is not emotionally affected by this trial. I am angry. I am
disgusted with Conrad Murray and his unmitigated gall to waste tax payers money and cause
additional pain and anguish to Michael Jackson's children and family, when he knows that his
grossly negligent actions killed The King of Pop: Prince, Paris and Blanket's daddy.

This is it for the Michael Jackson trial. The evidence is no longer being seen by the public on
national television or watched live on countless websites, it is locked in the jury room, with the
jurors who will decide the fate of Dr. Conrad Murray. It's been a six week trial, wherein the
prosecution laid out their case over a five week period. The defense used only one week to
present evidence in an attempt to prove the innocence of Dr. Conrad Murray. In total, 49
witnesses took the stand.

The defense, led by attorneys Ed Chernoff and J. Michael Flanagan called 16 witnesses.
The attorneys were obviously divided as they tried to rebut the prosecution's overwhelming
evidence that Dr. Conrad Murray is guilty of involuntary manslaughter due to gross negligence
and the substandard medical care given to Michael Jackson.

It was during the defenses' presentation that Michael's true motivations for embarking on the This Is It tour was revealed. Randy Phillips, the company president and chief executive officer
of AEG, who first proposed the concert to Jackson, was called by the defense in an effort to
bolster their claim that Michael was ridden with anxiety, and would go to the deadly extreme of
giving himself a lethal dose of propofol, in a desperate attempt to sleep before final rehearsals.
However, Randy's answers were often in direct contradiction to the defenses' portrayal of
Michael. Phillips testified that Michael was excited about restarting his career with the This Is It
tour in London and was committed to its unparalleled success.

The tour had the potential to erase Michael's estimated $400 million debt and make him very
rich again. At the time of his death, AEG was paying for everything in his life including his rented
Los Angeles mansion, his personal chef, his entire staff, as well as, the huge production
expenses of This Is It. Phillips testified that Michael would have to reimburse AEG $30 millions
dollars for personal living expenses, but this was not a real concern for the contracted parties
due to the sold-out status of the tour. In fact, Mr. Phillips had a very intimate conversation
with Michael wherein Michael cried. Phillips said, "The primary reason was that he wanted to
finally settle down and get a really, really good home for the kids and his family so they weren't
in his words living like vagabonds."

To my surprise, the defense's strongest evidence presented was in the form of character
witnesses. The former patients of Dr. Murray, all senior citizens, whom he had not cared for in
over a decade, attested to his skill as a doctor and his willingness to care for patients who
were elderly and/or indigent. The witnesses testified that Dr. Murray was the most attentive
and caring doctor they ever had. They told of how Dr. Murray's skill, as a cardiologist, altered
the course of their lives in a positive way and in some cases, saved their lives. It was during
the character witnesses' testaments to Dr. Murray's humane characteristics and great skill that
Murray began to cry. He was touched - it appeared. However, I found it ironic that he was
never moved to tears when the naked, dead body of Michael Jackson was displayed on the
autopsy gurney. He remained stoic when testimony of Michael's daughter screaming and crying
by the side of their dead father's body was given. He was unfazed when Michael's intoxicated,
slurring voice was heard detailing his loneliness, his pain as a child and his life-long struggle to
fit in. Dr. Murray's tears were sincere but they only seem to fall when the focal point of the
story was Conrad Murray.

Throughout the 22 days of the testimony, Dr. Murray appeared somber, vulnerable and
despondent as he sat between his two high power attorneys. However, after watching the trial
everyday, listening closely to the testimony, reading transcripts, attending court proceedings,
speaking to Murray's supporters and most importantly, looking into his eyes from a very close
distance, I believe with great certainty that Dr. Murray is an arrogant, self-absorbed,
narcissistic man.

The greatest support for my unwavering perception of Conrad Murray's selfish character, were
his actions when he entered Michael Jackson's bedroom while speaking on the phone with one
of his girlfriends. When Conrad Murray realized that Michael Jackson was dead, he went into
"Me First" mode. I have lived through the same type of narcissistic "cover-up" behavior first
hand in another high profile case in which I was intimately involved. I am repulsed by Conrad
Murray's actions. Similar to the case in which I was involved, Dr. Murray also "pretended" to
give CPR to Michael Jackson when the head of security, Alberto Alverez walked into the room.
He also put on a charade in the presence of Michael Jackson's assistant when he gave Michael
Jackson mouth-to-mouth resuscitation. We now know, from trial testimony, that Michael had
already been dead for up to 20 minutes when Alverez and Williams entered the bedroom. We
also know, according to Murray's police statement, that he immediately attempted to give
Michael CPR when he entered into the room and found him non-responsive. Therefore, his act in
front of Alverez and Williams was a disgusting, thought-out sham in an attempt to cover-up his
killing of Michael Jackson. What type of man gives CPR and mouth-to-mouth to a knowingly
dead victim, just for show: A narcissistic, selfish, sick individual like Conrad Murray.

A long-time friend and supporter of Conrad Murray, who spoke with me outside of the
courthouse on more that one occasion, shared a glimpse of the real Conrad Murray with me.
He stated, "Conrad is arrogant and nobody can tell him anything. He is my friend but blaming
Michael for killing himself is crazy." In light of all that I've seen and heard, I completely believeThis Is It Director, Kenny Ortega's testimony detailing his conversation with Murray following a
rehearsal in which everyone saw that Micheal was "out of it". Ortega testified, "He (Murray) said
I should stop trying to be an amateur doctor and psychologist and be the director and leave
Michael's health to him."

As the indisputable evidence showed, Conrad Murray is also a liar. He lied to the pharmacist,
he lied to each of his girlfriends, he lied to AEG, he lied to the insurance company, he lied
to the paramedics, he lied to the UCLA doctors, he lied to Ms. Katherine Jackson at the
hospital, he lied to the police during his two hour recorded statement. But he didn't lie on the
witness stand because he exercised his Fifth Amendment constitutional right not to take the
stand; how convenient? It would have been suicidal for Conrad Murray to take the stand in his
own defense. As brilliant as he thinks he is, he would not be able to withstand the barrage of
questions regarding his outright lies. Having listened to every word of testimony and offered
commentary for KTLA in Los Angeles and Headline News, I have a very clear understanding as
to what really happened on June 25, 2009. Yet, the only question that I have yet to get an
answer is "why did Conrad Murray record Michael Jackson in a drug induced state?". What was
Conrad Murray's self-serving ulterior motive?

Conrad Murray has lived a reckless life for many years: at least 7 children with 5 women; a trial
and eventual acquittal for domestic violence, two child support sentences that almost landed
him in jail, dating numerous young girlfriends simultaneously, medical disciplinary measures levied
against him; and hundreds of thousands of dollars worth of debt. When the trial began, I had an
open mind regarding Dr. Conrad Murray and his guilt or innocence. Now, six weeks later and
after listening to 49 witnesses, I know that Conrad Murray is guilty of Involuntary Manslaughter
and probably other lesser and more serious charges. Conrad Murray's greed, arrogance and
reckless character is the direct cause as to why Michael Jackson is not with us today, but more importantly,
why Michael Jackson's children, Prince, Paris and Blanket, no longer have their daddy.

Conrad Murray chose to spend the day before closing arguments at a very public beach with his
girlfriend and his 7th child. It's a luxury Michael Jackson nor his children will ever have again.
I believe Conrad Murray was trying to garner sympathy from the jury before deliberations.
Unfortunately, I've been where the defense is and I know all the tricks. Conrad won't fool
anyone. This is it for him and his career as a doctor. It's curtains for Conrad Murray.