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Fic:[Won't Someone Come] Rescue MeAuthor:non_tiembo_malaFandom: Supernatural RPFPairing: J2Summary: Big things are coming soon to The Wayward Heart Band; then lead singer and guitarist Jensen discovers a box of abandoned kittens, and his personal future starts to look just as bright as his professional one.

My ramblings: First, thanks to the mods for running the best challenge ever. <333 Second and third and last, soooo much love to non_tiembo _mala for the all the rockin' J2-ness and KITTY CATSSS and being so fun to talk to and, most of all, for her patience. I'm probably more disappointed in myself for this than all the other times I didn't do enough/better, because I was so. freaking. excited. about the kitteny rock-n-roll visuals, and n_t_m was insanely cool to work with and totally chill about my madness—it shoulda coulda woulda been the most beautiful thing. *shakes fist at life and the passage of time and stuff*

Just. Please go read the adorable and sexy fic non_tiembo_mala wrote because she is perfect at her job. SHOO!

Ack, I am the worst at fandoming. I seem to recall a time when I could balance work and play so effortlessly and get so much shit done in a single day? How did I do it, it's a mystery.

Once again, family and health issues have sucked up all my time and energy. I don't want to get into details because I think the world is plenty depressing enough as it is right now, but, man, it feels like every time something comes up, other things think they have permission to start sucking too. >:C Ugh, LIFE. I don't like this game, I call do-over! *shoves game board off the table* *throws controller against the wall* *tries turning it off and then on again*

Anyway, I'm so so terribly behind in replying to comments (BUT PLEASE KNOW THAT I CHERISH THEM ALL, THEY ARE MY SUNSHINE WHEN SKIES ARE GRAY) and commenting on fic, art, and all that beautiful stuff. So I need to get on that.

Speaking of: DID EVERYONE SEE THE SAM/DEAN/DANNEEL MAGNIFICENCE THAT SALTANDBYRNE GAVE ME FOR XMAS??? It is hot and glorious and everything! Go looooook!

Hello, hello, still kicking, I have updates and 'splaining to do, but for noooow. Saw this going around a little bit ago and I'm super late but I wanna do it anyway! Because FUN: we all need some.

Let's start 2017 off in a positive way with a Pay It Forward meme. The first 6 people to comment will receive a surprise from me at some point in 2017 — anything from a book, something home-grown or made, a postcard, absolutely any surprise! It will happen when the mood comes over me and I find something that I believe would suit you and make you happy.

If you can, post this in your own journal and pay it forward. Let's do more kind and loving things for each other in 2017, without any reason other than to make each other smile and show that we think of each other.

If you're up for anything, please comment below and then PM me your contact info. Comments are NOT screened. If you'd rather receive something "virtual", then let me know in a comment.

Title: All the Way Home I'll Be Warm Fandom: SupernaturalPairing: Sam/DeanSummary: After a hunt, and after warming up the old fashioned way, Dean is totally keeping watch right now, not falling asleep. Being stranded in a snowstorm in the middle of nowhere might be a bigger issue if Sam didn't run so hot.

My ramblings: Ahhhh, keep_waking_up, you deserve so much better than me. /o\ I can't apologize enough for how late this is! I mainly went with your prompt, "The backseat of a car," but I squeezed bits & pieces of other prompts in there as best I could. I hope you like it, and that your holidays are as wonderful as can be.

A million thank youuuus to the mods for the extension and patience. Also to amberdreams and lady_simoriah for the brainstorming help. The end result strayed pretty far from what we talked about but it was you two wonderful ladies who kickstarted my brain into storming all over the map when I was unsure of myself. THANK YOU THANK YOU. <33333

Fic:An Eye for the FutureAuthor:dugindeepFandom: Supernatural RPFPairing: J2Summary: Jensen has spent the last decade living with visions of the future. He's saved the neighbor's kid falling off a balcony, an old purple-haired lady walking into a car accident, and a landscaper from losing a limb from a chainsaw. He's so accustomed to it that it's just a nuisance at this point.

What's he's not used to are his newest visions starring international tech guru Jared Padalecki. And he's certainly not used to being shot at, cooped up in a cabin alone with the guy, or returning to a forgotten past that may bring him love in the future. All three happen over the course of one week that drudges up the truth behind his visions and offers a second chance to save Jared.

My ramblings: WHAT CAN I SAY ABOUT THE PINCH-HITTING SUPERHERO THAT IS DUGINDEEP? ♥♥♥ *flails around dangerously* I can't thank her enough for not only working so hard and writing so much under a tighter deadline, but for spoiling me absolutely rotten with this fic. FAMOUS GENIUS JARED + GRUMPY PSYCHIC JENSEN! \o/ <33333! JEN!SEN! WITH! A! CANE! *dies* If fandom keeps spoiling me like this, I'mma be impossible. More impossible than I already am, I mean. I wish I wish I wish I'd been able to manage more in addition to the original prompt than slapping together a bunch of shapes and gradients in Inkscape. *kicks self lots and lots*

Thanks to the mod for acting so quickly on saving me from the partner-less abyss, and for running this thing. All the reversebangs \o/!

Fic:Universe UnboundAuthor:firesign10Fandom: Supernatural RPFPairing: J2Summary: Jensen's life is limited by his dreams and hallucinations, Nothing seems real—except for Jared. Because of that, some might think that Jared is taking a risk by seeing Jensen. But when Jensen sees the Dolphin Fountain, that's when the real risk kick in.

My ramblings: Thanks to my fabulous author for coming up with such a cool story idea, and being so great at getting her side of things done so quickly so I could get a headstart--LOLOL, yeah, that last thing didn't happen. SHE DESERVES SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS. *weeps* *rips out heart and throws it at her* Go check out the fic and tell her how awesome she is!

Thanks also to the mods for giving us all another fun challenge to play in! <3

Fic:Sweet TouchAuthor:cleflinkFandom: Supernatural RPFPairing: J2Summary: Jared loves being a dessert chef even if catering wedding showers doesn't do much for his love life. Of course, this is the first time he's met a maid of honour who isn't a girl.

My ramblings: What was I even doing signing up for Quicky Bang??? I am not quick. But I saw this story up for grabs and couldn't resist. COULD NOT DO IT. Not only because of who it was by, and you just know that's gonna be good, but because it was adorable and sticky sweet and I knew working on it would make me happy when skies were gray. And it did! It also made me hungry, oh man. So many sweets were consumed in the making of this art set & I regret nothing.

A million thank yous to cleflink for her patience and for offering up such a fantastic story. And for the sugar high. YUM. Thanks also to beelikej for her encouragement and patience with my little turtle-scoot to the finish line. <3

If you haven't already read this (or even if you have), go. Read. Smile. Eat some pie or a cupcake or both. :D

Fic:I Don't Care If I Never Get BackAuthor:deirdre_cFandom: Supernatural RPFPairing: J2Summary: When a stranger barges into Jensen’s apartment and insists he must take Jensen to a major league baseball game, Jensen’s first, second, and third impulses are to kick the guy out on his ass. But if he can just get past that third, Jensen may find he can make it home.

A magical baseball love story, based on the 1989 movie A Field of Dreams.

My ramblings: I LOVED WORKING ON THIS SO MUCH. Maybe too much, since I went through 3 different versions of cover concepts before finally being like OKAY. And then I ran out of time to do anything else. /o\ Though I'm not big on sports of any kind, Field of Dreams was one of my dad's favorite movies and I have such nostalgia over it--I'm sure plenty of ppl are right there with me. Add working with Dei to the mix, with her delightfully delicious writing, and I think I kinda tripped all over myself in my excitement. She knocked this fic so far out of the park, y'all! GO SEE.

Fic:Conversations with the DeadAuthor:lennelleFandom: SupernaturalPairing: None/genSummary: Sometimes, a parent might tuck in their child at night and find an empty bed in the morning.

In 1996, Sam Winchester vanished in an empty room. He reappeared two months later with missing hair, bruises and vacant eyes.

By 2000, Dean Winchester is a hunter in his own right. He travels to Minnesota where his brother now lives with Pastor Jim, a long-time friend of their father's. The thing is, John Winchester recently went into the house that ruined his youngest son and he never came back out. Thing is, Sam is the only person who knows what's in the house. Thing is, Sam Winchester hasn't spoken in four years.

My ramblings: So many thanks to my author, who has been super lovely to work with. She probably deserves a parade after getting stuck with flaky old me for her first ever challenge. *throws a marching band at her* As usual, there was supposed to be more art to go with the creepy deliciousness that is this fic. BUT ALAS. Time and I do not get along. The story will make up for my shortcomings, tho, so definitely go check that out.

Fic:on LJ | on AO3Author:zubeneschamaliFandom: Supernatural RPFPairing: J2Summary: Thrust into leadership when his commanding officer is killed in battle, Jensen must offer the Akkadians' surrender to Corona, the rival planet his family used to rule. To make matters worse, his new Commander in Chief orders him to work with her son, someone he knew in a much simpler time. But the mission is critical: protecting the people of Akkad and Corona alike from an imminent sunstorm that threatens to finish what the war started.

Jared was raised to resent the Akkadians, having experienced their unfair rule for all of his life. It's been a long, hard struggle, but at last the Coronans are victorious. But as Jared learns more about what actually happened during the war, seeing with his own eyes what was done, he starts to question their victory. As he and Commander Ackles prepare for the deadly solar flares, Jared learns that the conflict he was proud to win was more complicated than he thought—and that for some people, the war isn't over yet.

My ramblings: Look, just go read this fic. Do you see where it's set? Do you see who it's by? Yeah, you don't need me to tell you to read this but I am anyway, because there's nothing even a little bit close to enough art here. *hangs head in shame* *shakes computer screen* SO MUCH WONDERFUL IMAGERY AND ... this is all I have to offer.

FOR NOW.

Thanks a million zillion, Z, for your patience and for indulging me. /o\ And, of course, there can never be enough thanks given to wendy for running this challenge year after year.

Fic:Music to Fuck ToAuthor:thep0rnfairyFandom: Supernatural RPFPairing: J2Summary: Nothing in life is permanent, especially love. Jensen Ackles knows this all too well, and makes it a point to never get too attached. When he finds himself back in Chicago after a long deployment, things heat up between him and and an old flame- and nothing scares him as much as his feelings for Jared Padalecki.

Twice before he’d fucked up, walked away from the only man he’d ever wanted without an explanation. So when fate gives him an unexpected third chance, Jensen vows to do it right this time around.

When the lines between what they were and what Jensen hoped they could be become dangerously blurred, everything falls apart and Jensen is left exactly where he always feared he’d end up: Broken, left behind to pick up the pieces and figure out a future without Jared.

Spanning 10 years, two continents, three cities and several musical genres, Music To Fuck To is a cento of song lyrics, memories and hope.

My ramblings: *runs around in circles* YAAAAAY, IT'S HERE! The fic is here! It's spectacularrr! There was so much in it that I reeeally wanted to art, but unfortunately life threw probably every obstacle ever at me this BB season (THE NERVE) and I didn't get nearly enough done. My author was so understanding and fabulous about all of it, though, that I have trouble believing she's a real person that exists and not some magnificent thing I imagined. Thank you, J, for being so patient and enthusiastic and all-around fun. I hope we have a chance to work together again, and that next time I won't be the worst flake in the world. <333! Also, so many thanks to wendy for running this crazy wonderful challenge, giving us the extensions we needed, and not firing me like I probably deserved. XP

We did a little road trip to Texas this year instead of flying, and it was a lot of fun. Got to see the family, my roommate came this time (it only took him 10 years, haha), my son got to show off how much taller he is than everyone (he's 6'1" at the ripe old age of 13, SOMEBODY STOP THIS KID), and it was all very exciting. Just a quick stop for the night in southern Illinois b/c the rain is being super inconvenient, and then a short trip to get home tomorrow. Then I'll get to see my wonderful bed again! And my kitties! \o/\o/\o/ I love seeing my family when I can get down there, but there's nothing that'll make a person appreciate home more than leaving it for a week, even if it's for fun stuff.

Anyway, I got a little overwhelmed before I started this trip and thought I could catch up on fandom-y things on the road, but we made better time than I thought with barely any stops, and my mom lives in the middle of nowhere, where my technological bridges to civilization were all but useless most of the time. Soooo, I'm pretty far behind in replying to e-mails, PMs, and comments, but I will do my best to start catching up on all that when I land on home turf sometime tomorrow. Right now, I'm pretty wiped, but I promise I'm not ignoring anyone. You guys are awesome.

My ramblings: My first time participating in this challenge + my first sexy art + J2’s first time for pretend = YAY FIRST TIMES! I tried to include a bunch of my giftee’s prompts & likes, so I really hope it works for you, lady_simoriah. May your holidays rock as hard as Jensen and be as delectable as Jared!

(Sorry this is sooo last minute. Holiday traveling and spotty internet connections got the better of me. /o\)

Since that post, I'm still having zero luck getting these last 4 little ones adopted out to people I know IRL, which would've made me feel so much better about giving them up, but. Such is life. After some investigating, I really, really do not want to have to take them to any of the nearby shelters. I'm way too attached to who they are as individuals to dump them in a little kitten jail that they may never leave again unless I absolutely have no other choice. I've tried advertising them for a fee, because free kittens attract all kinds of crazies I didn't even know about, but it hasn't gone as well as I'd hoped. I'm also trying a bunch of other things, and maybe advertising here is a little weird, idk, but I figure it doesn't hurt to put the word out anywhere and everywhere I can.

SO. Flist. My beautiful flist. If you're in the Chicago area and want a new cuddly buddy, read on! If you're not in Chicago, or can't take on a new pet right now, a signal boost would be more than awesome—even if you're across the world, you might have someone on your flist in the area. Any help finding these kittens new homes for the holidays will be forever appreciated.

On to more adorable business!

This is Fluffmonster General, or Fluffy for short. Fluffy pretty much thinks he's the boss of everyone, as long as they're smaller than him. He tends to find the highest or stealthiest spot in the house to keep an eye out, and if any of his siblings get out of line he's happy to launch a surprise attack to teach them a lesson. Faced with an adult cat, however, he's not quite as bold. He can be pretty possessive of his toys, but not aggressively so—he mostly just runs off with his mice to his own solitary corner, then hides them from the other kittens when he's done playing just in case they get any ideas. His stash is pretty impressive. When you're up and about, he'll usually follow you around like a little guard kitty, and be the first one through any newly opened door to make sure the room passes muster. He's also the most food-motivated out of the 4. You want that kitty to be somewhere or do something, just add treats. It doesn't always work with the others, who're getting wise to my tricks, but Fluffy is there for it 100% of the time, he doesn't even care. He keeps up with his siblings on the playtime front and loves to join the kitten pile when it's sleepy time, so he's not exactly a loner, but hanging out and playing watchdog seems to make him pretty happy most of the time. He's easily the most chillingest cool cat there is, and if you happen to want to pet and cuddle him while he's on the lookout, he can live with that.

Here we have Jumper. He's very playful and just an all around happy camper. Whether he's bouncing around, falling off something, cuddling, or sprawled out all lazily somewhere, he rarely fails to project this whole "life is glorious" attitude. When it comes to food time versus playtime, playtime wins 9 times/10. He's figured out that no matter how hard they try, his 3 greedy siblings can't fit every last morsel of food into their bellies at once, and there'll always be some left when he feels like getting around to it. He also has this thing about climbing onto the back of my chair and perching on my shoulder while I'm on the computer, just watching the things on the screen move around, totally chilled out. When he wants some serious attention, he'll lay on your head, stick his nose in your ear in case you can't hear all that purring he's doing, or burrow under your clothing to let you know he means business. Jumper's nickname is kinda two-fold, in that he's usually the first to successfully jump any hurdles the kittens find, like the kitchen counter, and he also does this weird little sideways bunny-hop when he's really excited. IT'S THE MOST ADORABLE THING ANYONE HAS EVER SEEN. I started adding Bumper to his name when it became apparent that he's a little bit of a klutz, but he doesn't let it get him down at all. He just pops right back up, ready to go again.

Next up is Tiger. He's a silly, silly critter, just so curious and playful. I don't know if I want to say he's the smartest of the lot, or just the most eager to please. He'll come when you call him about 85% of the time, as opposed to the other kittens' 20%, and clearly recognizes the word NO, or at least acknowledges it more, because he'll roll over on his back and make RIDICULOUSLY cute faces at you until you forget what he did wrong. He's very attentive and head-tilty, always on the alert for new, interesting stuff and eager to know what's going on at all times. He loves his toy mice so much he can hardly stand it, enjoys antagonizing his own reflection in the mirror, and if you hear purring from a mile away, more often than not, it's Tiger. If you reach down to pet him and he sort of hugs your forearm, he's letting you know that you need to pick him up for better snuggling, stat. In the event that the arm hugging doesn't work, he does have this kinda bad habit of launching himself at people's chests, fully expecting to be caught, so you should probably just give in. He's definitely the cuddliest cuddler in all the land, and is almost always willing to be petted and flop all over you and lick your face and hands whenever you're up for it. If the other kittens are doing super interesting stuff, though, he's gonna have to go check that out, but he'll be right back with you in a minute.

Last but not least is Scrappy. She's the smallest and the only girl, so her life might seem hard, but rest assured, she takes no crap. She has no problem holding her own when her brothers get rambunctious, and, out of all 7 of the kittens I originally found, she's definitely the most adventurous. She was the first to come out of hiding and investigate those little wiggly creatures sticking out of my flip-flops, and then she sat on my foot to try and keep my toes still for killing. No interest whatsoever in the towering beast the foot was attached to, she had a mission. She's remained the pioneer of all her kitten kin ever since. Relatedly, I know all cats love boxes, but Scrappy seems pretty determined to be the first to plant her flag butt in any new cardboard environment. Make no mistake, she will fight for her right to sit there first. She's a little bit of a jack-in-the-box, too, totally the worst about hiding in them and pouncing on your legs when you walk by, though she always does it with soft paws (no claws extended), and she's a big fan of the RAWR stance, where she stands up on her hind legs and waves her front paws around. SO CUTE. She's very much an independent kitten who knows what she wants. When it's time to play, she's not sitting still for cuddles, she has very important kitty business to attend to. When it's time for petting, she'll come sit on you and paw and headbutt your hands until you take the hint. All that may make her sound fussy, but she's really just as entertaining as they come, and a total sweetheart.

All 4 of them are easily amused by most toys, as kittens tend to be, but go absolutely crazy for these little rattling catnip mice we found at Target. Ever since we brought those home, all other toys are inferior (I have plenty to give away to new owners, fyi). They'll also sit down and watch TV with you sometimes, depending on how interestingly colorful or fast-moving the screen is, and don't seem to know what to do with themselves if there's a nature show on: chase the things or hide from them.

They're all litter box trained, and they're all very curious to get to know/play with other cats (though our cats don't have much patience for them so we have to keep them separated when they're unsupervised). I don't know how they'd react to other animals, such as dogs, but the 3 that I adopted out to a friend had absolutely zero problems immediately using her super friendly Golden Retriever as a bed. The kittens are still young enough to be optimistically curious and accept new things, I think; it mostly depends on the personalities of other pets.

Fyi, the pics in the previous post were taken closer to when I first brought them in (I estimated them to be about 4 weeks when I found them), but I just hadn't gotten around to posting them right away because of life. So, they're about 15 weeks (almost 4 months) old now, and all of these photos were taken last week. Sorry for the quality. I was trying to capture them at their cutest, but kittens in play mode are not about cooperating with picture day. XD

LOCATION: I'm in the NW suburbs of Chicago (about a 45-minute train ride from the city—for general reference or visits only; afaik you can't take pets on public transit), and am happy to set you up with a no-obligation visit before making a final decision.

FEE: There will be a re-homing fee of $50/kitten, or $75/pair if you want to make it a double, but will accept proof of a $50 or $75 donation to your local shelter or SPCA instead of direct payment.

MEDICAL: The kittens will be vaccinated and spayed/neutered on Monday, December 7th. They'll be ready to go home with new owners a couple of days or so after that.

EXTRAS: I'll also include some food to get you started, a carrier for each kitten, and a handful of their favorite toys.

CONTACT: If you're interested or have questions, feel free to PM me or e-mail dollarformyname@gmail.com. If you want to refer a family member/someone outside fandom, PM me for a non-fandom e-mail address.

Please, serious inquiries only. If you're not willing to be asked some questions about your living/pet situation, or to provide references, we're not going to get very far. I'm not trying to make this difficult—it's really a lot easier than it sounds—I really, really just want to make sure these guys are going someplace loving and awesome.

Happy holidays to you all! And thank you for taking the time to check this out.

Speaking of failing at fandom, I'm kinda bummed I didn't finish a 2nd spn_reversebang prompt. BUT. I decided to give myself a little bit of a break and look at the bright side, on which I've gotten a head start on my spn_j2_xmas assignment. \o/ Not waiting until the last minute where I'm missing sleep and meals b/c I'm in a rush feels pretty awesome, actually. I think I might try it out more often.

Fic:Multitudinous EchoesAuthor:walking_tornadoFandom: Supernatural RPFPairing: eventual implied Jared/Jensen (mentions of Jared/Adrianne, Jared/other, Jensen/other, Kim Rhodes/Jim Beaver)Summary: Space AU. Cargo ship captain Jensen Ackles' two week crap job transporting colonists off-planet should have opened the doors for lucrative government contracts. Farmer Jared Padalecki should have married and started a family. Jared and Jensen's destinies intersect when Jensen rips apart Jared's life, separating him from his fiancée and removing Jared's people from their land. To win Jared over, Jensen recklessly promises to find Jared's lost fiancée. Jensen, Kim, and Felicia struggle to keep the colonists alive, and Jensen tries to ignore his growing interest in Jared as they search for Adrianne.

My ramblings: Ahhh, I think I took my BB neurosis to new heights this year. RL ate up my time, and I didn't get to do all the art I had planned for WT's amazing story (like, you know, actual scenes) which is TRAGIC. Because not only is the story awesome, WT herself is so awesome that I want to give her presents all year round. SHE WROTE J2 SHOWERING IN ZERO G FOR ME AND I FAAAILED SO HARD. THERE IS NO PUNISHMENT PUNISHING ENOUGH.

Long story a little less long: She put so much work into this thing and I'm over here being all unworthy and terrible. Don't let my terrible-ness fool you, tho, the fic is FANTASTIC and deserving of SO MUCH MORE. Read it, read it, read it, go now!

My ramblings: DEI HAS WRITTEN STRIPTEASING JENSEN. :DDD I don't think I need to say more, but I will anyway.

Thank you, thank you, thank you a million times to SWEET WONDERFUL FABULOUS DEI for a.) writing this hot hot hot fic and letting me tag along for the ride, b.) having the patience of a saint and putting up with me and my craziness, and c.) did I mention putting up with my craziness? <33333333333333333333333 ALSO FIC. The fic cannot be mentioned enough. If you haven't read it already, you're probably pretty certifiable yourself. DO IT.