Maybe some of you know me. In all likelihood you don't.
Except razor or edison007 and a few others. Maybe they remember me because I already posted a few messages here a few months ago. I posted some photos of baboons. Some of you were probably thinking they were selfies.

I'm a repack specialist, even if I don't do it anymore (most are smaller than fitgirl's).

But tonight I'm not here for that. I just want to talk.
I'm a moderator on another forum, but it seems that most users fled a long time ago (not with the nickname alfredd31, which is a variant of Fredd38).
I'm 35, my father is currently dying from a lung cancer, and I'm alone.
I've lived for 10 years in Paris and I left. Now I'm in Saint Etienne. At the beginning it has been a shock. It's probably the poorest town in France.
But I have a huge flat, and finally life turns out to be pretty pleasant here.
I wanted to go to the South of France to see my father a bit more. I was probably aware things would not last.
My life consisted in working from 9am to 7pm, eating and sleeping. And it's still the case. Most of the time, in Paris I was alone. And here I'm alone too.
In an individualist society, most people go to work, eat and sleep. Even if you go to a bar you are not there to talk. You're a customer. On Saturday evening, I was depressed and I found a bar where I was alone with the waiter. I could talk to him. He told me that 400 tear gas bombs were used in Saint Etienne, during a week a protest with the Yellow vests. 2nd rank after Paris.
My computer used to be my best companion. At work, I'm also in front of a computer. Fortunately, the people I work with are more friendly here.

If you want, you can tell me what you think. Maybe I'll remove this topic.

Is this serious?! If so, some serious suggestions:
- You may be (also) suffering from winter depression. Visit to a psychiatrist, SSRI's help.
- Get a cat. Unlike dogs, they don't require constant petting - actually, they hate it - but they show their love and affection. (Also, they will destroy your furniture but furniture = dead object, cat = living being.)
- Invest into your closest social surroundings (friends, co-worker, neighbors). When it comes to the worst scenario, they'll be the only ones that can and will be willing to help you.
- If you earn too much money, give some it away to foundations that help the poor.
- Consider moving to Asia. People are still people there.
(I've done these above, except for the last one. I'm 43, from Hungary.)

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