Ah, the smell of turkeys... The sound of Thanksgiving! *uhh Leya, you don't celebrate Thanksgiving in your country! /laughs/*

Still and all, it's just the right season to be grateful for EVERYTHING, fandom-wise. I have prepped to make a pimp post/list of all of NEWS' activities this 2016, but I was apparently distant for some time, and I couldn't do it without possibly missing a detail or two (but I still want to do it; why not? ^_^)

Although I'm a week late with the LJ greeting, my birthday posts were actually posted early--minutes to November 11. Ironically, even when now I don't get enthusiastic over NEWS/Tegoshi like I used to, his 29th birthday was his birthday I anticipated the most. Blame the 29-peso Coke Float from McDonalds I got addicted to; every time I bought the flashing ₱29 made me think of Tegoshi (even Brendon) and his then-incoming 29th year of fucking existence.

A week after the post, I’d like to rant. I usually say what I think on FB but I feel like this is a small, shallow complaint, otherwise it affects me negatively. I’m very, very, very disappointed that my birthday post got a low count of 20 notes.

Yes it matters to me, especially when my past tributes never reached below the 50-note mark. There’s a reason I don’t go too personal on Tumblr: it is where I want recognition for my aesthetics rather than to be gushy or soppy (not to say I ain’t ever! For one, my birthday post is a gushy type of post.)

To be fair I still had another birthday tribute posted, and it got an equal number of notes yet it was a sleazy bit that I wasn’t too concerned about. (crossposted on Tumblr and All Things Tegoshit)

It was the antithesis to the seriousness of the other post, and an indicator that despite everything, I was very much having fun that day.

Speaking of having fun! On Nov. 11 I had a spontaneous meet-up with Dhes, where the idea of this entry’s title comes from. “Spontenacious” for the half-carefree, half-solid celebration, and “Cereb-ration”, because we had a whole afternoon/evening of fandom talk—portions of which were intellectual, almost deep discussions about Tegoshi, Tegomass, NEWS… you know, fandom thingamajigs.

And in every fan gathering there’s a huge deal of wacky and tacky:

You know what it meant, right? xD

GOTTA CATCH IT WHOLE... TEGOMON!!

Oraaaaaaayt. Happy Pocky Day as well!

While Tegoshi’s birthday was a “spontenacious cereb-ration”, Tegomass’ anniversary was a very quiet day for me, having a severe cold and cough I can’t even see the computer screen clearly and all I did was borrow (and credit ofc!) a TM fanart from Deviantart and post it on FB.

But the international fandom has been more than ready. In all its awesomeness, here’s the Intl Paana (including the Japanese fans) tribute to テゴマスの10th!

Tegomass is such a powerful duo shown in the prettiest of images, don't you agree? ♥Again, happy birthday Tegoshi and happy anniversary Tegomass. There are a lot of things to be grateful for, and for us, you are on the top of the list.

The title of the post is alarming, at least for me... Because it has many connotations, one of which is a literal goodbye--good bye from this haunting fandom life.

Ah no, I'm not saying I'm leaving the fandom. No one, even myself, can really tell when. I'm just preparing for that time. I'm just leaving a memory just in case I wake up one day completely forgetting all the joys of being a fangirl. Think of it this way: even healthy people prepare for their death. :) That's what I'm doing. Even a devoted fan is preparing for the day she leaves fandom, if that ever happens. (but I hope not! For in all honesty I want to stay with NEWS forever.)

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AN EARLY GOODBYE

To my fandoms, thank you. While it's true that I depend my life on you, you gave me strength to stand on my own in more ways than you could imagine.

To my fandom friends, meeting you is a miracle. I'm sorry if it seems I'm taking that miracle for granted, but swear I don't. I may left fandom but the memories with you remain here (in my heart).

To the blogs, accounts, and things that made my fangirling high, how could I ever repay you? You taught me so many things. How to edit a photo, how to write a fanfic, how to spill my thoughts. This post isn't even possible without your help.

To fate, I am eternally grateful. You gave me an irreplaceable happy life. I'm stupid for replacing it. But shit happens, right?

To you... Hello. I'm glad I loved you. ^_^

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Wow, senti mo teh?! Just blurting out my feelings, gomen.Disregard this post. I'm a fangirl, still a fangirl, and has no plans of quitting. Because I'm glad I have loved you. *points at you!* LOL~P.S. the Tegomass pics have nothing to do with the post but I thought they were senti so I included 'em. XD Hearts for Tegomass and dogs!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

Good day.I would like to add a random picture of NEWS because I think it's adorable.If you are wondering why it is flipped vertically and you still have to tilt your head to the left, well...I think it's a trend these days.

orz~ I mean, people who do graphics post these kinds of edits on Tumblr and so do I. :)And why do I think it's awesome?

In life, before you get to see the proper view of things you sometimes have to... Tilt your head. (IF YOU THINK I'M TALKING LITERALLY THEN TILT YOUR HEAD DALI, PARA MAGKA-STIFF NECK KA. :p)

A certain song by NEWS has more than just plain lyrics--a part of the lyrics has a secret code which is easy to decode (and that is actually funny if you come to think of it.) But more than just funny, it is amazing that NEWS thought of this gimmick.

てずてってとって 会いたいよ

tezutettetotte aitai yo てずてってとって 愛してるtezutettetotte aishiteru

( ^ Take out all the "te" in tezutettetotte and you'll see ずっと.)

Life is hard to understand and we sometimes have to deal with codes. Unanswered questions, vague answers, rigid puzzles and formidable walls.But why not try to break the code, you might find what you're desperately looking for.Or if you are not looking for something, you may enjoy the act of decoding and feel that your life is getting... Much better.

I think it works.

In the song, you take out the "te" and you'll find "forever."In my life, I tried--even just a little--stepping on my inhibitions, and what have I found?Fulfillment.

As much as NEWS fulfill my heart with happiness, a simple courageous act that I did (in which I tried to avoid for a long time) fulfilled my life with peace of mind.

I have been in this fandom for 3 years, and I also admit that I became active in this fandom just around last year. In comparison to the other fans I know almost nothing. But if there's anything I'd be bragging about, that is, I served as much as I could.

All my life I believe in my own convictions. I believe I'm an optimist therefore I tell the world that I am. Lately I think I'm turning into a pessimist therefore I also tell the world that I am. Spontaneity is what I am, and because this is what I say so then this is what I say now.

Loving NEWS... Is a spontaneity in itself. Never expected to arrive, not hoping to last. Until one day I just prayed my love for NEWS to last, as of some unknown reasons that even my spontaneity cannot judge.

And because it's more than what I could comprehend, it came to me that supporting NEWS is not a just a "cheezy thing only fans can understand." It became more like of a "spiritual thing only fated people can do."

Yes, I consider fangirling as never a mere habit--it is a spiritual act. I consider this fandom as my religion. Spontaneity could be the cause of all of these but the journey and all that's in it is a destiny.That's why I said "I served as much as I could."I gave as much as I can.I loved as much as I can.I tolerated as much as I can.I waited as much as I can.

Now, in return, NEWS gave me:Happiness I can't explainMemories I can't countUnderstanding I can't depreciateMeaning I can't overlookHope I can't loseLove I can't simply throw away.

This spiritual journey is giving me a cue, "stay until the end."This 10ve anniversary is only the beginning and there are more soulful moments yet to experience.

Aside from 'tezutettetotte' and '10ve anniversary' there are some more cute symbolism in the same song I'm talking about.Refer to the lyrics here

This post isn't another tribute, I'm just writing for the sake of acknowledging NEWS. This isn't an anniversary post; I'm just acknowledging NEWS for being here every day of my life. This isn't a well-prepared post; I'm just acknowledging NEWS for singing Ai no Kotoba--

--because Ai no Kotoba is now my favorite ballad. Very well, this post is about Ai no Kotoba and how this song suddenly made me:

START TO FACE MY PROBLEMS. Inch by inch, step by step, even if it will take great effort I must do it.And I would do it. For I am certain that this song is created by fate and the inspiration it gives me is a work of fate too.

This morning, I woke up with ultra-good vibes. I'm wondering why~Maybe because of stored happiness I haven't let out since we went out of town last weekend.And of course, the lovely fanfics by Chankapaana-tachi (CTC pips)!

I'll make a separate post for the fics-appreciation. Maybe tomorrow? I can't flail hard today, I'm not in the mood. I'm listening to an inspirational song (to be mentioned at the latter part of this entry )

Not in the mood to answer 30-DNC today.But I'm always in the mood to listen to music, of course!And I helpe 9mornings ith her LJ layout. Though she haven't installed the layout yet ^^I also changed my layout. I somehow dislike my journal's new look; a header is not allowed so I just changed the background.

LastIy, I edited some pictures (again~!)

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KARA collage. Images taken from KARASIA 2013 folder files.

NEWS. TV Fan 2.13, via Tumblr

Are my edits good? Hihi~ LOLs xD

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One time, a fangirl asked me why I don't watch Jdramas. (Hey, it's not that I don't, the term should be 'hardly'!)I hardly watch doramas. Like, I haven't even watched half of Tegoshi's, then how much more if we're talking about other Japanese dramas in general? T_______T

That made me think about it... How could I be a JPop fangirl if I don't watch JDramas? (yes, they are interrelated in many ways.)I'm such a waste! *goes to a corner and sob*

But thinking about it again, I have my own valid reason: I don't always have the time. Instead of watching, I'd rather listen to music. Or write. Or text. Or make graphics. Or blog. Watching doramas is at the least of my fandom-related priorities. Weird for a fan, isn't it? X(

But it's how my mind works. LOL.But I am really a waste *goes to another corner then sob again*

I have many faves! Sweeeear. And since I can't choose, I'll just put my very recent edit (edited this 5 minutes ago :p) and consider this as my fave. (But then again, I have tons and tons of faves! Damn!)

Quote credits to Keiichan, on his J-web entry here. As for the picture I don't know which magazine this is from, just got them on Tumblr with inala on the credit. xD