Today is a better day.Been reading the IDP documents,…well, starting to.I’m afraid to join a support group.I’m afraid I’ll cry and cry and cry and cry and not be able to stop.I’m afraid of making myself vulnerable and letting down my walls.I’m afraid of letting others comfort me.Silly isn’t it?I’m afraid of letting anyone in, and as a result, I’m a prisoner of my own devices.Keeping others out keeps me trapped within myself.But I should do it one day, to hang and chat with others in a similar life situation, whose normal is my normal.Maybe they can help me explore the wonders of “Holland”.