Author Note:
Thank you all that reviewed my first Heroes story, "Convulsion", this
story is a companion to "Convulsion" in Peter's point of view. Just
another snipnet, so I know it is short. A little spoilery to
"Convulsion" so you may want to read that one first.Title: State of Mind

Written By: Stef With an F

Fan dom: Heroes

Disclaimers: Tim Kring, and NBC own the rights to this show not me, I’m just a fan

Rating: K+: Mild language, Reference to violence

Couples: None

Characters: Peter and Nathan

Spoilers: Chapters 1 through 11, Companion piece to “Convulsion”

Point of View: Peter

Summary: Another insight to the end of fallout, a continuation of “Convulsion” but this time in Peter’s view.

Peter
gasped for air as he came back from his vision of an empty New York
street. Mohinder was there. He had a smile on his face at first but
then it turned to a look of fear.

The scenery of the empty
cars and the abandoned streets, Officer Parkman keeping everyone away
from him without giving him any answers. The silence scared him. But
not as much as the answer-less “I’m sorry” from Claire. Or the solemn
faces of Hiro and Ando.

Or Mostly, the grievance on Nathan’s face as he walked closer and closer to him.

Peter lay there silent as the paramedics hook him up onto the stretcher, and carried him into the ambulance.

“And I can’t believe you can be that selfish,” Nathan mumbled, dismayed.

What? I am just trying to save the world. To be someone important, to be somebody.

“I know you want to be somebody. And I want be somebody too. To make a difference,” Nathan continued.

The paramedic glared at Nathan, but Nathan continued.

“What do you want me to tell our mother, when she asks me what happened to you?”

The truth.

“I can’t tell her the truth. That you tried to kill yourself and then finally got your wish.”

But I...I didn’t do that Nathan!

Nathan covered his eyes and sighed, before taking Peter’s hand.

“Why am I always here when you need me, huh Peter? Even when you have this great knack to just to drive me nuts?”

Because
you are my brother. I will never lose faith in you. Why do you think I
am here now? Allowing you to keep me in this world. What if this is my
purpose Nathan? You can’t let me blow up the city.

And then Peter
realized what he was doing. He was allowing himself to suffer for what
he thought he was going to do. Hiro wouldn’t have asked him to save the
world if he was the one that destroyed, would he? It didn’t make sense
to him. But the pain he felt was so real and the visions were so real.
He didn’t want to believe what he believed yet he did and he could tell
that even though Nathan wanted to hide under his candidate suit and his
congressman envisions he believed almost as much as he did.