Gregor, forever 33...

For my only child, Gregory Thomas Hottman, 12/01/79-02/08/2013, he passed away from a Heroin OD just 24 hours after he was released from a Rehab center...

Why…

Ever since you went awayThe days go slowly by,And the hardest thing to cope withIs never knowing why…

That I don’t understandAnd maybe never will,Questions left unansweredNow your voice is still.

To lose you was unbearableAnd time and time again,I’ve tried to look for reasonsThat no one can explain,

Life and death hold mysteriesBut one thing is for sure,I loved you then, I LOVE YOU NOWAnd will forevermore…..

I miss you so much son. The only comfort I have is knowing you are not hurting any more with your addictions and mental illness's. That you accepted God back into your life a month before you passed. I hope some day I will learn to smile again...

Until I am with you again, continue on with your greatest JOURNEY of all.

Comments for Gregor, forever 33...

I understand your loss, my daughter had been in and out of many rehabs and tried so hard to fight her addiction. She would be so proud of herself for every second,day or week that she could remain clean. Ultimately the addiction won it's been 4 short months. I miss her more and more every day and the "only" comfort I get, is in making myself believe in the end this time her addiction did not win and she can rest now and doesn't have to fight it anymore. Gless You,

Jul 02, 2013

Grieving and angryby: Jill

I lost my only child, my son Garnett, to a heroin overdose one week and 2 days ago. I am so sad..I have so many questions....I feel so alone in this world. As a single mom, Garnett was my world. He also had mental illness along with ADD and addiction problems. I had always hoped for the best yet feared the worst. You can never prepare yourself for that phone call...he was found in a motel room...alone...and dead.

So many people, including me, don't understand addiction. But I hate that there is such a stigma with heroin. They look at me funny and really don't want to talk about it. They don't say anything...not even I am sorry for your loss. I want to scream....He was my son...and I loved him. No different than any other mother loves their child. If it was a car accident, they would all have something to say....but not with a heroin overdose. Nothing!

Everyone tells me there will be many emotions. Right now there are just tears and sadness for my son, gratefulness for all those who have expressed sympathy and love, and pure hatred for everyone else. I just want to tell hem to **** off.

I am very sorry for the loss of your wonderful son, Gregor. May he find peace with my Garnett ......and may we find some peace here on earth.