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Tuesday, August 25, 2015

sarah blake

Sarah Blake is the author of Mr. West, an unauthorized lyric biography of Kanye West, out with Wesleyan University Press. Named After Death is the title of her chapbook, forthcoming from Banango Editions. Her poems have appeared, or will soon, in The Kenyon Review, The Los Angeles Review of Books, The Threepenny Review, and many others. She was awarded an NEA Literature Fellowship for poetry in 2013. She is Editor at Saturnalia Books and co-founder of Submittrs. She lives outside of Philadelphia with her husband and son.

What's a
project (yours or another's) that has been exciting you lately?

Exciting is the wrong word for this particular
project, but I’ve been stuck thinking about violence lately. How it works at a
societal level, how it works in protest, how it works in shootings, how
television works to grapple with it, how poems work to grapple with it. My head
has been spinning around and around violence lately.

Tell
us a little of your motherhood journey.

I became a
mother when I was 26. It was very planned, and I got pregnant quickly. Nine
months was a long time to wait. And we did wait. My son was late and got stuck
and I had a c-section. My birth experience wasn’t a great one, but we were all
healthy so I don’t like to talk about it too much. I love my son. We’re very
happy as a family of three.

What are
some crucial elements of your process? How has that changed since having
children?

I’ve discovered that nothing is crucial. No
matter what, I will write. I thought I needed quiet, maybe only the-middle-of-the-night
quiet. I thought I needed sleep. I thought I needed my computer. Then, a year
after having my son, I wrote poems solely on my iPhone for more than six
months. I’m not sure I could’ve written my first book during these first years
as a parent, but I also know that I couldn’t have written my new longer poems
before being a parent. And I have a different sort of belief in myself as a
writer because I’m still writing these few years later with no discernible
process.

What are
some of the ways your family and your art interact?

All the ways! I write about my son constantly.
I write when my son is at school, or when he is asleep, or when I have asked my
husband to give me some time to myself. My family and my writing are constantly
doing this very physical dance around each other, negotiating space and time,
and that’s also pretty clear in the figurative space of the poems.

Do you find
your attitude towards your art might be different because of your parenting /
has it changed since you became a parent?

I guess I’ve become a little more relaxed. I no
longer look at whether a week was productive; I look at the past six months.
But I might ask a little more of that six month period. So more relaxed and
higher standards all at once.

Are your
children ever subjects in your art?

Yes. I’ve written poems directly about my son,
poems where he only appears for a moment, poems that I think of as “for him”
(like one that tells a weird story about an animal), and poems that are
indirectly inspired by him (like a speaker that I know is driven by having lost
a child, since that was my main fear the first year of being a mother). I don’t
name him, and I usually don’t describe him, but he’s there, “my son,” “my boy.”

Aside from
the obvious need of more time, what has been one of the most difficult
obstacles you’ve had in regards to parenting and your art?

I treat my desire to write about my son like an
obstacle. How do I write past him? Beyond him? Still include him, but, also,
beyond. How do I make the poem exist outside the home as well? That’s very
important to me, to not get trapped in my interior, ours, or the general
interiority of poetry. I’m not sure I’ve succeeded yet, or at least I haven’t
succeeded often.

In turn,
what are some of the saving graces?

Well, I do enjoy trying! It’s like figuring out
what’s at the heart of the world. How do all things speak to each other as they
are pulled down to the heart of the world and then how do I write them back out
into the lines of the poem.

And the presence of my son leads to pretty constant
inspiration. Just the other day, we were walking to a little fair that sets up
down the street for two weeks every summer. The sun had set and the rides were
all lit up, and he said, “It’s like they’re calling the sun to come back.” Yup.

How do you
escape?

Just another room is good enough for me.
Sometimes I don’t even need that. I’m pretty good at focusing on the laptop.
But there was a year or so, where I needed to go to a local café for an evening
once a week. That was really helpful.

What advice
do you have for expectant mothers in your field?

It’s ok if you don’t write much for a year.
It’s ok if your process changes completely. It’s ok if a poem comes to you very
suddenly while driving and you have to pull over to write it. It’s ok if you
write bad poems. It’s ok if you write some essays.

If you feel like you are drifting away, if it
bothers you, start a project that keeps you tied to the work or to the community.
I started my tumblr (npmdaily.tumblr.com) when I wasn’t writing much but I
wanted to feel connected to everyone who was
writing. It felt like throwing out a line that might conduct the energy back to
me and through anyone who was reading.