This blog started as something to heal from my miscarriage but now my miscarriage is only a part of my life of healing. Yes I'm still healing from the loss of Tristan. But I have many other parts of my life that needed healing as well. Learning to enjoy and find the blessings of this journey God is leading me on.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Home and Recovery

Had my surgery on Monday, April 5 to remove a pelvic mass. After several days in the hospital I am now home and recovering. Here is what we know. No Cancer - Thank God! The official diagnosis is endometriosis that is what the mass was made up of the scar tissue. It was acting like a glue to all of the organs in the pelvic area. I also lost one fallopian tube. Good news I got to keep both ovaries. I now have a very large incision that goes from belly button to pelvic area and is stapled closed - can you say OUCH!

The doctor says we should be able to get pregnant quickly after I am fully recovered and then once we give birth we would begin treatments for the endometriosis in order to prevent the mass from returning again. I can say I never want to go through this again.

The fallopian tube that she removed was filled with scar tissue. She said had I gotten pregnant on that side we would have ended up with a tubal pregnancy so I'm thankful we caught that. On a good note. The one remaining fallopian tube will be able to pull in the released eggs from both ovaries so we still have a good chance each month of getting pregnant however there is some scar tissue in the one fallopian tube I have left so still a small chance things may not go as planned.

So my husband and I will continue to try to have a biological child until January 2011 if not pregnant by then we will begin to look at the adoption process.

I can say that I am very thankful to God that we caught this in time to do something, that it's not cancer and that the adoption option is available.

the following is something I received the in the last few days that really stuck with me:"Dear God, I have never thanked you for my thorns. I have thanked you a thousand times for my roses, but never once for my thorns. Teach me the glory of the cross I bear; teach me the value of my thorns. Show me that I have climbed closer to you along the path of pain. Show methat, through my tears, the colors of your rainbow look much more brilliant."

Lord I thank you for the thorns in my life - they help me appreciate and grow closer to you.