hehehe...yeah so you will have to inquire about the subject.....let's see.....lots of fun and excitement for me today......went out with my sister and my mom...we had out eyes checked......and my eyes didn't change that much but i did get new glasses...but my mom said that they can be my new girly date glasses...for all those dates i go on with boys....or boy (cuz like it or not i do talk about you).....but my sister says that i have to keep my black glasses for when i wanna kick ass cuz they are my 'ass kickin glasses'...i love her...she's great......then we came back home...and i was driving down boulevard...and this woman in this van behind me.....she fucking started to pick her nose.....and i don't mean just pick...i mean fucking dig.....going in every which direction to reach gold.....i just started to freak out and laugh....i had my mom crying from laughter...but that woman should have been shot......then later...or earlier...i can't remember....but basically this summer i am going to europe....my brother and kis wife are over there...he's doing grad schol in the netherlands....so we plan on going backpacking around europe....me my sis...my brother and his wife...and maybe one of my sisters friends......we are definitley be going to ireland...that is going to rock...i am beyond excited...now i have to save up money to do so ...atleast get the tix.......but other than that...tonight i went over to emaleigh's and we listened to music and played with barbie's...how old are we?????????...i know i know...but come on...they were star wars figures...ok...i think that just made things worse...but it was a great way to spend a friday night...but now i am home...tomorrow...another full day of plans...me and emaleigh are getting together around 12...and going to chesterfield towne center......to xmas shop.....weeeee......then to polish xmas at her aunt's.....later

ok well since my last dramatic outburst.......i still haven't finished my projects for metal...but that is ok cuz i have been e-mailing cindy and she was going to just going to give me an incomplete...but she said that she didn't do that ...she actually gave me a grade...so i checked and it was a b....fuckin eh...that rocked......i was atleast expecting a c........but i am stll going to finish...i wanna rock my beltbuckle....audrey left for roanoke....*tears*...i will miss her even if we are normally at each others throats most of the time.......it's a love/hate relationship.....this weekend...i am going to emaleigh's aunt's house....they are having a polish christmas.....and i was invited...i have never met em's aunt...but she seems to like what she hears from em about me.....and em is having a christmas party this sunday....so i hope to see everyone there.....tonight i went out with mike to see LOTR....the return of the king....let me just say amazing.....i didn't want this to be it...it's over which is kinda sad....but alas...it is only a movie.....i had alot of fun with mike.....he's always entertaining with his dancing and singing....he makes me smile.... :)....til next time...later

ok....tonight i went to a buffy party ..woohoooo...it was loads of fun and after we watched a few choice episodes...we just sat and talked about everything....from celine dion being the devil to alfred hitchcock being a genius.....lots of food...i ate too much actually.....everyone liked my food so i was pleased.......tomorrow jj is letting me borrow season 3.....i still have to finish my metals shit.....fuck.........and i have to go to work tomorrow.....hopefully all the sleet will be gone so that i don't bust my ass.........ok...now to my rant...i don't care who reads it.........it's my fucking journal....ok........i read today about someone being let down and rejected.......and how no one cares or something along those lines.......but that just pisses me off cuz i am sitting here thinking ok......this person chooses to be around this person (s).....logically ...if they are that fucking hurtful...don't be around them....ok that i can understand because i have been in that kind of situation (even though i don't know the specifics about this one).....and i can find it hard to just say fuck you go away......but at the same time i know this person has people that do care about them ...but they choose not to talk to them.....anyone who thinks that no one cares or whatever can easily pick up a phone and call someone who does...well for example ....me..........this person wrote that everyone always hurts him.....but you know what .....this person can dish it out too......but whatever fuck it ...fuck you....fuck off

what serial killer name would i have?You are The Butcher! You would be famous for chopping up and slaughtering of people in your own unique way. That would be why the cops would not be able to identify your victims. You would probably get ideas from slasher movies or previous killers, but turn them into your own thing. You have a creative side to you, which is scary, and you would use it on your victims. You would not be vicious or anything; you may go all cool and casual with a smile, and then do your work and examine your victims. The public would really want the Butcher away from the streets!what type of girl am i?A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have your electronics you feel you can cope. Time goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your favourite collection of guitar-driven albums. Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour, individuality. Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life, action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.what type of girlfriend am i?-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend.what type of feeling do i represent?You represent... desire. You sure are motivated. You have a definite knack for getting what you want. You always put your own interests before those of others, and you almost always find youself being satisfied. Though you have determination, try some compassion. Putting others first occassionally can get you even more satisfying relationships.what type of smile i have?You're the suggestive grin,mostly used while flirting and accompanied by the come-hither look.You're either an attention hog or way too insecure to not be in the spotlight at all times.No one can quite tell.Calm down and learn to be regular,ya perv.

so this morning i was supposed to go see my metals teacher and get her help on some things......and yet again she's a fucking no show....bitch......so i will have to try myself...and prolly fuck things up...whatever....then i went into work...ehhhh work is work........i had to stay later than i wanted to or was scheduled.....came home and wayched buffy...finally finished season 2......kinda sad.....sniff........i really needed a hug......i've pretty much just been going to work and coming home....lame.......this weekend buffy party......lots of fun....everyone should come if you can....becky is also having a cookie party which i will have to stop by and say hello (and eat some cookies...mmmmmmm) she said that there should be fondue...woohoooooo...well that's it for me...later

yeah so just got done watching some buffy...as usual as some would say......the buffy party has been moved to this saturday night...i will be making raspberry meringues and potato pancakes...for those who like my cooking or those that haven't tasted it's yumminess....should totally come......it'll be fun i hope.....so now i am bored and have no one to talk to...no more exams....i failed the one this morning i know i did...oh well i will take it again this summer.....if i didn't fail that would shock the shit out of me..........tomorrow morning i will be getting together with my metals teacher to finish my projects....hopefully soon i can rock the belt buckle.....it'll be hot......tonight at work was hilarious...me jj and terri were all on one end of the store....oohhhh i smell trouble...i think that we scared many customers......jj always seems to bring out the crazy in me.....i swear i think that both terri and jj both think that i am some naive white girl.......hehehehe i have them fooled....i think that i have alot of people fooled...many don't know all of my past .....i used to be alot different than i am now...i'm really not naive...i just play along though......they will learn one day.....i can't give out too many secrets.....i must keep my readers (all maybe 3) interested...cuz well my everyday life isn't very exciting.......later

yay...so yellowcard was awesome...i had a lot of fun at that.....me and emaleigh got to take out some of our exam stress....on total strangers....so that rocked....em almost got in a fight...which was hilarious....the other girl was being a bitch and deserved what she got......don't stand up front and act like you are better than everyone ...go to the fucking back and act dumb...shit.....anywho.....mike was there with his friend christy...she's really cool...i like her......and i suppose mike is cool too........hehehehe...he's awesome.......although he didn't fully keep his word......why do i have to be so fucking shy.....i mean those who really know me know that i can be outgoing even border line annoying sometimes....but when it comes to certain things.....like guys........i freeze....i'm so lame...i know that.......but that's me ......*sigh*......tomorrow morning i have an exam that i have hardly studied for...basically i am ready to take it again in the summer...... i know that i am going to fail.......fuck it...i know that i could've studied tonight but i am glad that i went to the show instead.....that was the most fun i have had in a while...weeeeeee...i heart hugs and cuddling...later

ok...well i just got back from the metals studio...i wanted to be done with my projects so that i didn't have to stress about them tomorrow.....and well now i will stress....i will have to go in tomorrow before class to try to finish some things......my brooch is finsished...that i am very excited about...i really like it....i have a belt buckle...i think once i finish ...it'll be hot as hell...it's a silver vhs tape...with etching in ...the title of the movie is dead alive.weeeeeeeee...i DO want to finish it......i just need cindy (my teacher) help......then i have a copper spoon....but the fucker broke in the fire...son of a bitch...i let it get too hot and it fell apart....grrrrrrrrr....so i tried soldering it back together....but it didn't go well....in short...it didn't solder....i'm just afraid that my teacher is going to grade really hard.......i have worked hard.....it's just things keep fucking up......hmmppphhh...this sucks...oh well i guess......i will try my best tomorrow...other than that life has been okay.........nothing too thrilling........ok...off to find me some god damn food.........later

as i am typing ...i am also watching buffy...(my newest obsession)...so i apologize if i type something totally random.....uhhhhhh....so yeah i had my final crit for wood on thursday...my final peice was pure crap ...but i don't really care anymore...just give me a damn grade.....lalalalala....not alot has been happening.....been watching alot of buffy...JJ is going to be having a buffy party on the 19th....so i am trying to get through as much as possible...friday mike came into work and scared the living b'jebus out of me.....he's so cute....today had to work....which kinda sucked...had to work 9-5....i cleaned....and made messes...that i then to clean....i'm such an idiot...after work linz picked me up and we went to stoney point mall...let me tell you this was a great idea.....go went it's colder than a witch's titty in a brass bra doing push ups in the snow....but it was still fun we hid from the cold in all the stores.....i found alot of stuff that i wanted but i didn't get anything....yeah for me...i just really don't have the money right now......maybe one day...but at the mall my and linz got to talk alot about stuff...it was nice...with finals and all....haven't really been able to hang out......but tomorrow...i will HAVE to go to the metals studio...since i have neglected it for a couple of days and since it is due on monday...i can get it done....i hope i can get my ass into gear and go tomorrow morning so hopefully i don't have to be there at night...tooo cold ...i don't wanna have to walk home....but we shall see... (thanks mike for making me laugh tonight)...later