I am feeling so detached lately. I don’t know what my problem is. I’m sure part of it is that I haven’t been doing anything or going anywhere lately. It’s pitch black pretty much by the time I get home which limits outdoor activities obviously. I’ve also been thinking about how I used to be.

I used to have a video camera that I dragged with me everywhere. I (along with a friend) would go just anywhere, grocery stores, starbucks, and I would ask a question and video tape their responses. I wish I had that tape. Anyway, I had no issue just going up to people I didn’t know and asking to record them. Zero problem. Yet now I practically faint being around people I don’t already know for a lengthy period of time. Much less going up and asking for a portrait. I would love to just set up a little station on a busy road, slap up a sign, something like “Candy for Portrait” or something just as catchy and try to get as many portraits as possible. I really want to take photos of adults but… alas… I don’t have anyone willing around me. It sends me into a creativity depression. I’m practically an emo tortured artist at this point. Does anyone feel this way when it comes to their photography (or art of choice)? Maybe I should check out a billion more photography books and read the ones I own to get re-inspired. As for the close up filters, I’m still debating my feelings on them. I was surprised to see what a shallow DOF I have to work with so I am anticipating the rain that’s supposed to come on Friday, see how they do with water drops.

If I lived anywhere near you, I’d offer to model. So, if you’re ever anywhere near Maine… But you know, you should try asking random people, you might get some good responses, and what’s the worst that would happen, if they’re strangers you’ll probably never see again? Although, yeah, I get all nervous even when saying “hi” to people, so I know how nerve-wracking something like that would be. But, speaking as a fellow anti-social, whenever I do get the courage do talk to people/ask random stuff, I feel so amazing and confident afterwards. So, good luck with being inspired, your photography is always so amazing!

I’m sorry that you feel like you are becoming disconnected from people somehow. The good thing is, though, that you’ve recognized this and I’m assuming that you’re trying to rememdy it. I wish you the best of luck.