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Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Momentary Despair

This blog is supposed to be about riding, but that's not what I do with most of my time these days. Even though I spend around 6 hours per day riding. I'm sitting here at my desk at 3 a.m. in the morning answering my normal 25 or so emails. So much is happening with the placement/rescue work. I find myself feeling completely impotent. Nothing I do is enough. I just can't get enough done, fast enough for these horses. I deal with people who love them and want what's best for their horses and that is real pressure. Then I deal with people who just want to get rid of them, another sinister kind of pressure. This is what despair feels like. No matter how many times you tell yourself you can't help them all, deep down you really do want to help them all. I'm going to allow myself ten minutes of this and then I'll get back to work. I promise I'll get back to writing about riding. I don't want to bum everybody out. I guess it's normal, I forget I'm human sometimes.

About Me

I have loved horses since the first time I laid eyes on them as a child. I did not ride until my twenties, but I grabbed the ball and ran with it. In five years I went from learning to post to competing in dressage. In seven years I was galloping racehorses at Pimlico. I spent twenty-five years galloping. Two years ago I decided to learn to jump and possibly event.
I help horses, particularly Thoroughbreds whenever I can through my work with Thoroughbred Placement and Rescue, Inc. www.GoodHorse.org
I also specialize in the retraining of off Track Thoroughbreds at Leighton Farm. www.LeightonFarm.com
I've never met a horse I didn't like. I just love some more than others.