Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Day 72- Falling in the Face of Confrontation, What/Why/How?

Within this blog post, I will continue from Day
71- Falling in the Face of Confrontation, by looking at what happense, why it happnse and how I accept and allow it to take place within me. I will do this by using the tool of self-forgiveness, which I learned how to use within and through the Desteni material.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project
my thoughts/ideas/imaginations/fantasies as ‘worst case scenarios’ of how
people will react into the future, and then fear them, thus accepting and
allowing myself to change my behaviour, in essence restraining/restricting/controlling
myself in ways in which I think/believe/perceive will avoid such
worst-case-scenarios which only ever existed in my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
think/believe that if conflict were to occur, that my power could be taken
away, based on past memories/acceptances/allowances wherein I had actually
created this as a reality through taking my own power away by abdicating my
responsibility to myself through blaming others for how I felt inside and how I
chose to behave/react/handle the situation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to base
Who I Am on past memories/experiences instead of taking the self-responsibility
to create Who I Am in every moment of breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear
walking into situations where I will be in contact with people because I am
walking within and as the mind of
ideas/thoughts/beliefs/fears/projections/fantasies/imaginations that I create
and terrorize myself with, instead of walking within and as self-trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
restrict/restrain/control myself within and as the constant apprehension I
exists within and as due to the self-created fear of potential conflict in
social situations, instead of letting go and existing in the moment, within the
understanding that I will deal with conflict if/when it arises within common
sense and using practical solutions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel apprehensive
about what friends/family think of me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear
friends/family not accepting me or rejecting me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give
friends/family the power to accept/reject me by accepting and allowing others
to determine if I accept/reject myself, because if I accept myself
unconditionally then it doesn’t matter if others accept or reject me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define
myself and my self-acceptance within and through interpreting how I am
reflected back to myself by/through others outside of me, instead of deciding
Who I Am and Creating myself moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear a negative
reaction from others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear
others will become angry and/or defensive about something I’ve posted online.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear
that someone/others are secretly following me online and developing a hatred
towards me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
think/believe that someone/others are following me online without letting me
know, and secretly developing a hatred towards me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear
others hating me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define
myself based on whether or not others hate/like me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
want/need/desire others to like/accept/approve of me and what I do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
think/believe that I need approval and/or validation to do/be/express myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘look
for’ signs to confirm my worst social fears, which are that people will
hate/reject/disapprove/invalidate me, by being/becoming ‘extra sensitive’ to
how people are behaving around me, wherein I look for and fear any little sign
of hate, rejection, disapproval, or invalidation because I as my mind am
looking to feed/fulfill the fear energy within/as me.

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Hi, my name is Kimberly Kline (nee Doubt). I stand for an Equal Money System- I stand for a dignified life for all beings and I will no longer accept or allow this system of human greed and self-interest that is causing suffering, starvation and abuse for the masses. Every 'solution' we have tried so far has failed- from the United Nations to the United Church. Individual self-change and leadership by example is where it's at. I humbly commit myself to this process and invite anyone who has respect for Life to join me and walk with me, beside me, as self-willed equals, until all are free from the global compromise humanity has created for itself.
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