Tuesday, September 24, 2013

I guess I feel a little more than 140 characters today. And I haven’t been treating my twitter well recently (I don’t tweet a lot in fact) but I tend to try to write about my inefficacy from time to time. I wrote about how I’ve been feeling sappy for the past few days and I could even abandon my blog that I love all the time. What happened to the girl who went determined and wild in chasing her dreams? Today I read an article that was so beautifully articulated and written. It wrote about the things in life that could be worth more than just dollars and cents, and if happiness was nothing but just a facade.

The walls we’ve build to shield us from all the hurt, the pain and the struggles still lets the hurt, pain and struggle to penetrate through them, then rake us skin deep. Hurt is a sign of emotion and a sign of affection. Because if we didn’t love, we wouldn’t feel pain. Such pain weighs us like an emotional baggage, apart from the daily commute or the daily wander. But not all who wander, are lost. But it feels abso-fuckinglutely gut-wrenching. And definitely felt much better than what I’d have written in a one-liner, as I would have done per se.

Friday, September 13, 2013

Here’s Ju in his monthly trimmed hair after I got back from the states not long ago. I like how I spend my weekends laying in bed all day, tell him what I want and like to eat, and what I’d like to do. And then he does them all with me, no complains. But here’s his super cute and sweet side of him, especially when he hugs me all the time :)

And we just booked our tickets to Bangkok in October. I’ve heard so much about Bangkok from my friends I haven’t actually got to experience it myself (Apart from Krabi and Phuket) I’m actually quite excited and I can’t wait! I spent Friday in school with my project mates and finishing up assignments that are going to be due next week. Still slightly behind but… I’ll work on them when I feel like it after watching Masterchef Season 4’s Top 4 and Finale. Talk about being Queen of Procrastination… I don’t crown it but I fit it exactly right now. I just want to be a sloth.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

I remembered the nights I stayed up, just smiling at you. I like how my nose finds its way between your arms, and then I/d lay there beside your tummy, and count your breath as I watch them bob up and down in momentum. It made me feel like I was out at sea. I love to place my head on the pillow that you put on your leg when you’re playing dota, and then when your hero dies you dive down and give me a kiss. I really wanted your hero to die more so I’d get more kisses, and I’d fall asleep before your game ends most of the time. I love them, I still do.

I like how your bike sounds when you come riding from afar; it means you’re almost near and I get to throw my arms around you. This year had been tough, different and rewarding. Knowing you for 5 years in my life, and being together with you for 2, through the good and bad in our relationship, there would always be moments that you’d make me feel special and worthy of - Times where you put me before everything else and make me your priority. I do too. And right now I just want to whisper all my insecurities about life to you.

I’m scared. Because life itself is so beautiful. I don’t want to destroy what it has for me. And I think that is why I seek love in different avenues; my source of escapism. I feel free. Here it is again, my thoughts have interrupted me.