When you go to a violin concert and you get there and the place is packed and you go in and sit (not on the isle) and you DONT go into full blown panic and you dont go running out of the room tho you want to.--MichelleModerator Anxiety/Panic Forum

You wake up in the morning, sun shines on you and your heart ISN'T doing 200bpm, your body isn't shaking, you are not crying. You yawn and stretch and smile, becuaes today panic is not on the menu. Today you are in control!!! At long last.

I know what you mean. As an ardent bachelor, my place has always alternated between borderline filthy (fast food wrappers all over the place, dishes unwashed for days) to "picked up but not clean".

The last couple of weeks, I've dusted, cleaned my bathroom to a spotless condition, vacuumed the floors a hundred times, kept the dishes washed, added plants to the window sills, cleaned up after myself immediately after making any messes...everything.

It's a lot nicer living this way. The home seems much more like a home. Now if I could just persuade myself to catch up on laundry and get rid of a hundred million old books. Then maybe frame some of my photography and hang it. THEN it would be a home.

Glad to have your fantastic and inspirational input mystruggle..........

Sis in Sobriety from 1979......Maybe when you are ready you can post your story on the sobriety thread ....Read the first thread and then second .....it is inspirational and a testament to those wanting and finally getting the "monster off our backs".......But for the grace of God go I as well

You know you are beating panic disorder when you ENJOY a long, hard day at work. Then you beat it up some more by staying in and turning on the television to watch a baseball game and you don't feel agoraphobic for doing so!

Baseball is awesome. My team got no-hit last night but it's still fun to see something special like that take place. It's such a slow and methodical game, but it's punctuated by action. Traditional, yet modern. Very cerebral yet children can play it just as well. Very therapeutic! You can follow the game intensely, pitch by pitch, or watch it while reading a book.

Took Cait and was ok kinda we both BROKE like fast pouring faucets for sure when having to leave her there......Talked to her on puter and she had her web cam on she was still all red and still crying she is going thru culture shock too........and other things I will talk to you about on msn and lil one too but not today am battling crohns with a vengeance and the darn sores so sick of them...

ALL thru this I took 1 thats ONE valium........I am so happy but of course my usual lottage of pain meds .....

Staying strong even if it means staying in bed all day ya know ( yesterday) Fighting the FIGHT as always Luvs ya Sis ........Contribute today to support Healing Well Forums...Donate @

I am trying to LIL ONE need to do alot of resting ............I have never been quite this bd with the crohns but I will be seeing doc tomorrow spent from almost just after getting off puter with Cait Sat till around 11 today in bed not doing anything had no energy and was in so much pain balling like a baby actually thought I was giving birth .........Am still a bit down missing her like you know I would ..I am setting alarm for 545 I will try to get up if I am better and I do feel a tad bit so and I will give ya a call k Loves ya Mom outContribute today to support Healing Well Forums...Donate @