Xanax and breastfeeding

My LO is 2 and a half months old and I've been having severe anxiety and panic attacks. I used to have bad anxiety but I haven't had a problem with it in almost 5 years.

Anyway my husband left last night for a month for training and I felt a horrible attack coming on so I cut one of his Xanax in half and took it. I breastfed my daughter and now she's asleep and of course now I'm freaking out thinking the half a Xanax I took knocked her out, though this is her usual bed time.

About a month ago I took a whole Xanax and breastfed her and didnt worry about it but for some reason it's worrying me now and I don't want it I send me into another panic attack.

I've read occasional use is fine while breastfeeding. Anyone else take it while breastfeeding?

<blockquote><b>Quoting 10 til Gwen:</b>" A single dose is probably okay. But.it can cause lethargy and weightloss in babies. And you shouldn't take medicine that wasn't prescribed to you while you're breastfeeding (or ever, really)"</blockquote>

I know but I was seriously losing control and the attack was getting so bad and I'm all by myself. I'm calling to make an appt with a therapist tomorrow so I can figure out coping techniques or something else to help.

<blockquote><b>Quoting HippieBabie BFTs:</b>" That really doesn't sound safe while breast feeding. Honestly a beer would be better. Anything that is so strong will pass through the breast milk to the baby. Are you maybe suffering from PPD?"</blockquote>

I don't think so, I'm not depressed I just worry a lot and get overwhelmed and think I'm dying. I had this back in 2007 and took medication but stopped so I could try and cope on my own and I was fine until a couple months ago after I had my daughter

Okay I just feel bad she's sleeping hard :/ I got her up and changed her diaper, she would open her eyes for a bit and fall right back to sleep. She would stretch and move her arms around but then settle down back to sleep. I'm guessing this is the lethargy due to the Xanax. Ugh I feel terrible. I probably won't sleep now because I feel like I need to watch her all night to make sure she is okay.

Never taking xanax again. I just want to learn how to cope with it without medications

Personally, I am not for psychiatric drugs. I used to take them and it you want to take them then that's your business. But emotions are normal, being depressed, anxious, angry are normal and some times in your life might be more intense than others. You need to find the root of your anxiety. Are you alone all day? Did somebody just die? Breakup? Maybe stress? Or even hormone imbalance? You should try talking to somebody and taking care of yourself more. This is just my opinion coming from a mother on psychiatric drugs and myself on them for a couple years.

<blockquote><b>Quoting HippieBabie BFTs:</b>" Personally, I am not for psychiatric drugs. I used to take them and it you want to take them then that's ... [snip!] ... care of yourself more. This is just my opinion coming from a mother on psychiatric drugs and myself on them for a couple years."</blockquote>

I have an appointment to get a referral to see a therapist. I will not take any medications right now to help me because I am breastfeeding and will not stop. Plus I'd rather try natural ways like breathing techniques and exercise.

I was in a very serious accident in 2003 and that's when the anxiety and panic attacks started, a brush with death. Then my best friend passed away in 2007 only 7 months after being diagnosed with a brain tumor and my anxiety picked up gain after that. Now my husband is away for military training for a month and last night was my first night alone without him. Not to mention I work full time, go to school full time and have a 4 year old and 2 and a half month old, so stress probably plays a part in it as well

I've had bad anxiety, and took benzodiazepam for it (which I really hate cause it'S totally addicting). But during my worse spells thats the only thing that could help me.
I didn't take any during pregnancy cause it transfers, I won't be doing it cause I am breastfeeding. I do however take this when I feel a panic attaack coming on: http://www.nelsonsnaturalworld.com/en-us/us/our-brands/rescue-remedy/our-products/the-original-rescue-remedy/
It's homeopathic.

<blockquote><b>Quoting HippieBabie BFTs:</b>" That sounds like a lot to deal with! No wonder you have anxiety, a pill will only mask that. I hope you find balance and peace. We all go through low times <3"</blockquote>

Thank you! I've been trying breathing techniques I googled and its been helping a bit.