My Tests Will Be My Testimony

In his sermon today, Joel Osteen kept saying “Your test will be your testimony”. My tests and struggles have been tremendous and they are/will indeed be my testimony – soon ,real soon. Truth of the matter is I’m not quite out of the storm yet, but I am no longer fighting the storm.

Early in September last year, around my birthday, I had a serious awakening of why everything had been the way it was in my life for the last seven years; the pains of my failures in business and the pains of my relationship with Aaron. After my realizations, I started making changes and strengthening my faith in God.

Some things got better and I had an awesome time with my family at Christmas. I definitely felt the best I had in a long time. I also became re-energized and re-focused on building my business (The Loop of Confidence). Months into working on the business there have only been small victories. I am grateful and embracing my victories however small they might be…but they haven’t help me financially (yet). Also adding to the financial stress is money I expected to come in – not coming in.

This isn’t the first time I’ve been this incredibly financially stress. Well…actually this is the worst it’s ever been but this is the first time I haven’t been anxious, stressed, hateful, angry, depressed and crying about the situation. It’s also the first time I haven’t taken control of the situation and gone desperately about to come up with ways to make the money I need to get by. Yes, those feelings have snuck-up on me and so has the desire to take control of the situation…but instead of taking control – I’ve been turning to prayers. I have been praying more than ever before in my life.

Somewhere along the way…my faith and praying lead me to finally submit my will to God. I can’t fix this. I have been trying to control, fix and make things happen for the last seven years. I can’t do it alone. I have put my full trust and faith in God. In exchange, I have found peace and happiness in the toughest financial situation of my life.

I don’t know what/how God will take care of the situation. I just know I can’t. I know that there are multiple streams of income open where prosperity could be unlocked and I keep on working on what I believe I am anointed to do…and following God’s will for my life.

Obviously my testimony will be stronger and more fun to tell once I am blessed with the abundance that is planned for my life. But what is my testimony right now is that instead of being in pain, suffering from pain, depression and anger – I am at peace and happy. I am ready to welcome whatever is to happen tomorrow and the next day.

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Don’t let Joyce Meyer, Joel Osteen and Jesse Duplantis tell you about the Bible, or tell you about God’s Plan. Read the Bible yourself, you don’t need anybody here telling you what it says. God’s message is simple, “Love God and follow his commandments”

1 John 5 : 2By this we know that we love the children of God, when we love God, and keep his commandments. 3For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments: and his commandments are not grievous. 4For whatsoever is born of God overcometh the world: and this is the victory that overcometh the world, even our faith. 5Who is he that overcometh the world, but he that believeth that Jesus is the Son of God?

1 John 5:14 And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us:

Thank you David for the comment and thoughtful scriptures. I am reading The Word of God on my own as well. Joyce actually preaches that you need to read the Bible yourself and not just rely on others to preach it to you. The study of the Word of God like all studies is more effective when provided in different formats. The more I learn, the more I understand.