Well, Im at 18 weeks now and finally feeling actual kicking. I was worried sick. I have a dr. appt. on monday, and I was so sure they were gonna check the heartbeat and it would no longer have one or something. I guess the only reason I was so paranoid was that I think I felt kicking earlier with my first pregnancy. This pregnancy was a bit of a surprise, and although I am happy, and I did want more kids, its just not all that real to me yet. I worried that my lack of acceptance of the pregnancy was some sign that it was doomed. Because with my daughter, I was very into that pregnancy. I think Im just busier now, and Im going through that whole "been there, done that" mentality.