Why 2018 is my best and worst year so far

2018 started rough. My birthday is just three days into the new year and right after my birthday I was sick for almost a week. I got the flu and stayed in bed until I got better. I feel like that was a foreshadow for the rest of the year. I don’t mean to sound dramatic but this year so far has it’s up and def it’s downs.

Since January I’ve been trying to find a full time job. I’ve gone on about 12 interviews since then. 12. I’ve never had to deal with so much job rejection in my life (LOL). Every time it doesn’t work out I think “What did I do wrong?” “Why didn’t I get that job?” “That job was so perfect for me why did I mess it up?” You can only imagine what going through so many interviews to be turned down does to a person. You start to doubt and judge yourself and think that you’re not good enough. I’m actually still learning to not be so hard on myself but it’s hard. I’ve had so many interviews where I told myself “Oh I did awesome. I’m sure I got it.” and nope. Nada. I’ve learned to not have so much high expectations at this point so it doesn’t hurt as bad.

But- the hunt continues and I know that God has a plan for me. I know something will come up and it will have Rema written all over it. I promised myself in January that I wouldn’t settle and I’m not going too. I’m stubborn 🙂 I have so many aspirations..my 10 year goal is to work as an editor at a magazine or maybe be a tour publicist or maybe run a social media company. Can you tell I’m all over the place? I’m an open book with many dreams.. we’ll see where my path takes me.

On a lighter note…

2018 has been the best year so far in that I’ve had so many cool opportunities because of THIS BLOG. I honestly don’t know if I would still be sane if I wasn’t working on this blog. It’s been amazing. The people I meet, the pictures I can take, the things that I share, the things I receive to review, the events I share with good friends.. the list goes on and on. I’m learning more about myself everyday and the opportunity to share my thoughts and creative process here is nothing I expected. Other than my site, live music, good company and traveling have been so so good. I’ve learned to take the good with the bad and that whats meant to be will come together.

A quote that’s been speaking to me during this time of my life:

Everything happens for a reason, if I had a job maybe I wouldn’t have started this blog and wouldn’t have met the people I’ve met or done the things I’ve done. Taking one day at a time and trying to stay positive.

Outfit deets: Matching set is from Discovery! It is not online though but instore 🙂

I got my hat from Target which they dont sell anymore but here are a few of my favorites: