Nov 13, 2013

Simply just....

It’s
been a long time since I blogged. A lot of things happened this year. I have
been assigned to many tasks including incharge of leave schedule/OT Claim, committee
member of company Annual Dinner as well as being one of the Risk Co-ordinator
in my department.

Leave
schedule/OT Claim- Previously it was an easy task. But now, it wasn’t anymore. Previously,
I closed one eyes when doing this OT Claim. But now, new boss; new style. So,
with a new boss, OT Claim have to be controlled so that the staffs are unable
to claim more OT.

Committee
member of company Annual Dinner- Thank God it was a great success on last
Saturday! The event went out successfully and every staffs were enjoyed on that
night. ‘Party Like A Pop Star’ was the theme of the night. And I, as a
Publicity team member, became the paparazzi on that night, keep on searching/snapping
picture for those who wear the most alike to the artist or the most creative
dress out. It was fun, though!

Risk
Co-ordinator- The hardest part of my job. I will have to ensure that all those
application/deletion of the access are comply and no mistake made during the application/deletion
of the access. Unfortunately, there were mistakes made by me. I must admit that
I was careless on it. The auditors are coming soon. I’m very scare that they
find any audit point on it. Praying hard that they couldn’t find any audit issue on it.

And this
afternoon, suddenly my supervisor asked me to go meeting with her. It was all
of sudden and I got shock because my supervisor told me that we are going to
have meeting with my SG big big boss.

I was
like: Huh? Why should I go along? It was a high level ranking meeting, I shouldn’t
be there, right? Is it because of the access thing that I made mistakes?

I was
shaking on the way to the meeting and still thinking why I am called to attend
this meeting. While in the meeting room, I was still shaking for the whole
meeting session. Why should I had this feeling? Well, this SG big big boss was
a ‘YES MAN’. We can’t go against him. Everyone of us have to follow his direction
and none of us can say ‘NO’. Every twice
a week meeting already made my boss, my supervisor and my Team Lead can’t eat
well, and can’t sleep well. In two weeks time, you must show him the result
that he wanted.

I felt
relieved when the meeting was over and I thought I will never meet him again. Just
now, my Team Lead text me and said to me that I am going to join the meeting
with them SOON! Again, I was like: OMG!!What??!!Why??Why ME?!! I don’t want!!!

With
just two years job experience, I cannot imagine that I will be sitting in the
management level meeting with HOD, VP, AVP &MGR. And I was just an AM with the
least experience in work among all.

Urgh, I feel so stress about it. Can’t you
just let me sit at my own place and do things quietly?