Inner Transformation & Reading Sexual Energy – By Denise VanVliet

Recently I’ve been getting a lot of people drawn to me for whatever reason that have sexual orientation issues or transgender issues. Transgender, in general terms, means that a person is one sex on the outside but has the opposite experience on the inside. So on the outside they might be a woman and have all the woman parts, but on the inside they feel that they are male. That’s transgender. It’s not cross dressing; it’s not like a man dressing up as a woman or a woman dressing up as a man.

I recently had a call from a very nice man with transgender issues and as he was telling me his story, I started feeling within me all of these emotions. I do spiritual counseling and intuitive work, I am a Reverend, and I’ve been an ordained minister since 1987. I am not a licensed therapist; I do not practice that kind of therapy. What I do is counseling from the spirit aspect of us. So this person called me wanting spiritual counseling and within me, after speaking to this person for a few moments, I started to feel all of these emotions stir up. I am what some may call an Emotional and Physical Intuitive. I feel things from other people within my body, physically and emotionally. The emotions that I started feeling from this person were guilt and shame. So I started asking this person questions and when I said, “What I’m feeling from you is quite a bit of suppressed guilt and shame.” The person became very silent.

After a few moments the person asked me, “Are you psychic or something?” And I responded, if that’s what you want to call it. But basically I’m picking up your emotional body. I’m able to read the energy that you are giving off within my body. My body has become the receiver of the energy that you are transmitting. My body receives this energy from you and I’m able to, like an electrical device that reads energy, I’m able to interpret that energy. From a perspective of using a tool, just like an electrician will read current flow or amplitude within a wire; I can pick up someone’s energy and put a name to it. The more resistance and, I guess you can say amplitude, within the energy that I’m picking up, the stronger the emotion. So the resistance and amplitude that I was picking up from this person was extremely strong. One of the strongest suppressed emotions that we can possibly have within our body, and that many of us are constantly sending out, is guilt and shame. And that’s what I was feeling from this person. There is a fine line between guilt and shame and from my experience the energy seems to like to reside in the second/sexual Chakra. To give an example of what the difference feels like:

Guilt is, “I did something bad.”

Shame is, “I am bad.”

Feel the difference?

This beautiful soul just wanted to accept and be true to himself for who he was. I explained that in order to do that you have to accept all of who you are, and that includes the guilt and shame that you are carrying around with you at all times. In order for us to let in the light, we have to reveal the dark and embrace the dark within. We must work on the guilt and shame and release the emotional attachment that we have to that guilt and shame. Once you do that, then you are able to be true to who you really are. Connect with that authentic self. Who you really are is not a transgender person. You are a spiritual being. Your experience in this physical realm is transgender. But it’s not who you are. I’ve come across many people, whether they are straight or guy or what have you that identify their experience with who they are. They are here with the experience of being gay or transgender, but that is not their true self. That is their sexual preference. We are spiritual beings here having a physical experience. Take the physical experience of taste. I prefer the taste of apples over oranges. That is the physical experience I choose, but that does not define who I am.

These emotions can reside within any of our energy centers; it can create what I like to call an energy cyst. These cysts usually reside in one of the lower Chakras such as in the solar plexus or especially in the lower sacral area. When you have such an energy cyst in the chakra, no other energy can flow until it is released. Once that energy is released you still have the memory of whatever is was that triggered the feeling of guilt and shame, but you will no longer have the emotional attachment. Sometimes other people will project feelings on to us and we may take those feelings on as our own and these cysts are created.

Once you are free of that suppressed energy, releasing the guilt and shame, you feel free to talk about your experience. If you’ve ever experienced anything that involved some kind of violation such as sexual assault, there may be guilt and shame associated with that. But once you let go of that guilt and shame, you are able to freely talk about it and help others who have had similar experiences. So be with your guilt and shame. Embrace it. Embrace the dark to allow the light.