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I think there are people who get off on taking risks and HIV is one of those. I still think most people think it ain't going to happen to them, but there are some or many out there where HIV becomes like a fetish.

i know for a fact their are guys that are out to get it. i know a guy that is obsessed with what he calls 'getting the bug' eventhough i advised him many time against it, he goes to numerous bareback parties, but oddly enough hasn't become positive yet. go figure..

I think there are people who get off on taking risks and HIV is one of those. I still think most people think it ain't going to happen to them, but there are some or many out there where HIV becomes like a fetish.

wut? I'm not a fetish, novelty or any sex toy, I'm way too old for that shit

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"it's so nice to be insane, cause no-one ask you to explain" Helen Reddy cc 1974

THis might be stupid but how do u void syphilis and other stds...even though I'mPoz I still am uncomfortable topping or bttming bareback and would always use a condom but what can u get orally giving and receiving oral..any advice thnx!

THis might be stupid but how do u void syphilis and other stds...even though I'mPoz I still am uncomfortable topping or bttming bareback and would always use a condom but what can u get orally giving and receiving oral..any advice thnx!

You can still get STD's that way w/ oral

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"it's so nice to be insane, cause no-one ask you to explain" Helen Reddy cc 1974

THis might be stupid but how do u void syphilis and other stds...even though I'mPoz I still am uncomfortable topping or bttming bareback and would always use a condom but what can u get orally giving and receiving oral..any advice thnx!

ppp, you might find these links useful.

The Drama Down Under It's an Australian site (hence the pun in the site's name), but the information is relevant no matter where you live.

inSPOT A sexual risk chart that takes you through the different sexual acts and tells you what you may be putting yourself at risk for.

Please keep in mind - there are no such thing as stupid questions, only stupid answers. Questioning things is how we learn, so don't ever be afraid to ask.

"...health will finally be seen not as a blessing to be wished for, but as a human right to be fought for." Kofi Annan

Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

Thanks Ann...I dont think Im ever fucking or getting a bj again...lol....how do you avoid syphillis and EVERYTHING else...its bad enough one has hiv and thank G-d Im fortunate to be undetectable but I want to date again and have a healthy sex life...But receiving a blow job should i always ask to wear a condom...if you go on a date and it goes well before even kissing should you require you go with yoru partner to get an STD test to avoid CMV, and Syphillis...How does anyone have physical intimacy without the fear of getting anything lol...

Yes...I confess ..I like barebacking..It s real pleasure ..........I did it with my poz BF all the time ......so spiritual ..But he s gone and I have to be a smart ass ......Barebacking makes me so anxious that I hate it now...Imagine getting syph and be resistant to penicillin...I m so lucky...I could be the first .Before I became poz in 2003 ...I never had unprotected sex ....My Bf had left me ..I was still madly in love with him....I was depressed and I met this John ..very attractive .We drank wine ....We had sex..I wanted to die..Eros and thanatos ..eros and death ..I told him to remove the condom...I wanted his cum in my ass .He was hiv poz...and I got the bug....Well I wanted it..the devil fulfill my prayer.....I spent my life avoiding it and vlam......My BF became poz himself one year later.....In 2009 ...we got again together in Nice France...I remember the first day I sucked his slavic dick crazy...We settled in Paris for one year...travelling here and there...The 12 of nov 2010 he went back to his native country...and from then on I was sick with CfS...I had to leave Paris to Canada as I could not stand to be in this apt in Paris all my myself with his ghost.....I m ready now and leaving Canada back for Paris the 26 of april.....Full of hope rebuild my life ....Life without passion is nothing.

Yes...I confess ..I like barebacking..It s real pleasure ..........I did it with my poz BF all the time ......so spiritual ..But he s gone and I have to be a smart ass ......Barebacking makes me so anxious that I hate it now...Imagine getting syph and be resistant to penicillin...I m so lucky...I could be the first .Before I became poz in 2003 ...I never had unprotected sex ....My Bf had left me ..I was still madly in love with him....I was depressed and I met this John ..very attractive .We drank wine ....We had sex..I wanted to die..Eros and thanatos ..eros and death ..I told him to remove the condom...I wanted his cum in my ass .He was hiv poz...and I got the bug....Well I wanted it..the devil fulfill my prayer.....I spent my life avoiding it and vlam......My BF became poz himself one year later.....In 2009 ...we got again together in Nice France...I remember the first day I sucked his slavic dick crazy...We settled in Paris for one year...travelling here and there...The 12 of nov 2010 he went back to his native country...and from then on I was sick with CfS...I had to leave Paris to Canada as I could not stand to be in this apt in Paris all my myself with his ghost.....I m ready now and leaving Canada back for Paris the 26 of april.....Full of hope rebuild my life ....Life without passion is nothing.

'Love is a folly and friendship is mere feigning" Shakespeare

Hadas,

Syphilis is one of the few (if only) bacterial infections which has never become resistant to penicillin. We don't really know why this is, it's a curious beast -- we know very little about it as an organism.

When I Googled doxycycline I learned that it is also used to treat anthrax. Lovely

Doxycyclin is also Tetracycline I believe it's the same shit Dennis is on (and I've been on before). That and Azithromycin are as of the current date my 2 least favorite medicines ever. All sorts of GI fuck upped-ness.

Doxycyclin is also Tetracycline I believe it's the same shit Dennis is on (and I've been on before). That and Azithromycin are as of the current date my 2 least favorite medicines ever. All sorts of GI fuck upped-ness.

Yeah that Xifaxan was for all the bacteria in my small intestines GI-tract cost $182.50 for a 14 day supply it's very expensive, but did the job, for now, I hope I'm keeping my fingers crossed, been off of it for about a week now, all is good

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l.....Full of hope rebuild my life ....Life without passion is nothing.

'Love is a folly and friendship is mere feigning" Shakespeare

I picked this up in your first posts and even responded. Finally now you post how invested you are in melodramatic, romantic ideas of love and passion. If this is really your unchangeable character, I guess there is no point offering advice. But just one final time I'll offer this advice - you have got to get invested in a project that has nothing to do with beautiful lovers and "crazy" passion, crazy sex, crazy lack of self-preservation.

This is 2011 - you aren't Baron Wilhelm von Gloeden. And we know story after story of how this need for romantic love ends in wasted lives and despair, and increasingly so as a guy ages.

As the years roll by, the rich ones continuing in this path - are going to attract guys who will drain every last drop of life force. The poor will be ever more frustrated at the absence of the masculine/beauty/exotic fix that once sustained. One is supposed to regal in these themes in poetry, novels and films, not emulate them in life. They are morality tales.

So to you I say, OK, you had a picturesque death wish and fulfilled it, but in a half-assed manner - after all HIV isn't necessarily a death sentence (and your devil must be very frustrated by the power of HAART!).

Do you really want to kill yourself over some man, or do you want to "play at" that for dramatic effect? I would guess you do have self-preservation instincts!

So how about investing in something that is more likely to return energy balance in your life. Work, helping others, social life, some project where you give and get energy from others. "Fated love" I dunno. Moth to the flame - based on your track record you are going to get burned to death eventually.

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ďFrom each, according to his ability; to each, according to his needĒ 1875 K Marx

My Bf had left me ..I was still madly in love with him....I was depressed and I met this John ..very attractive .We drank wine ....We had sex..I wanted to die..Eros and thanatos ..eros and death ..I told him to remove the condom...I wanted his cum in my ass .He was hiv poz...and I got the bug....Well I wanted it..the devil fulfill my prayer.....

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ďFrom each, according to his ability; to each, according to his needĒ 1875 K Marx

Thank you for your advise....I will try to learn how to control my emotions...Falling in love ...It 's like a tsunami..You are rolled in through the wave and there is nothing you can do...I will rebuild my life ..just counting on myself..Falling in love never brought me luck anyway....By the way as a past CFs sufferer, did you experience weakness in the legs ...Will it ever go away..

That list of what you can get does not mean that you will get anything @ all they are only KNOWN RISKS, I don't engage in such unsafe sexual practices, although I have been known to maybe once in a blue moon, are during one of my retrograde periods, or during times of lent

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"it's so nice to be insane, cause no-one ask you to explain" Helen Reddy cc 1974

I don't get what all the controversy is. I mean look around. We all got fucked bare at some point (no I don't believe that you were infected through oral sex). Why try and look deep into his "reasons" for it. We all had our reasons. Some people are high and aren't thinking, some people are already positive, and some people are willing to take the risk, and some don't care. Maybe he just didn't care. So what.

sorry---I meant to reply to that statement....let's not be quick to make statements that may be true for the poster but not for everyone here....we should try not to use the word "all"...

I think it's probably safe to say that every single person who posts in these forums has, at one time or another, had intercourse without a condom. I find it hard to believe that anyone here - or any sexually active human being for that matter - would have used a condom EVERY SINGLE TIME they had sex.

"...health will finally be seen not as a blessing to be wished for, but as a human right to be fought for." Kofi Annan

Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

I think it's probably safe to say that every single person who posts in these forums has, at one time or another, had intercourse without a condom. I find it hard to believe that anyone here - or any sexually active human being for that matter - would have used a condom EVERY SINGLE TIME they had sex.

Ann- If this is what you think then you clearly have not read many of the posts on these forums. If you had you would know for a fact that there are indeed many cases of Immaculate Infection. I mean we have one person who got it through his eye, another one who got it from a corpse. Not to mention one who barebacked for years, but was infected the one time he actually practiced safe sex! Good God woman! Would you please keep your Doubting Thomas skepticism to yourself?

"...health will finally be seen not as a blessing to be wished for, but as a human right to be fought for." Kofi Annan

Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

I think it's probably safe to say that every single person who posts in these forums has, at one time or another, had intercourse without a condom. I find it hard to believe that anyone here - or any sexually active human being for that matter - would have used a condom EVERY SINGLE TIME they had sex.

"...health will finally be seen not as a blessing to be wished for, but as a human right to be fought for." Kofi Annan

Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts