Thursday, October 21, 2010

The part time job has run its course. I have been there five years and counting and the money is no longer worth it. Sure I loved traveling the world staying in luxury hotels but now my taste has really changed and my need for privacy and relaxation when traveling has caused me to start renting apartments and villas.

Also, I am tired of working 7 days a week, when I do have the weekend off I feel normal. I'm up during the day visiting friends and family, grocery shopping and doing fun things with the hubby. When I do have to work at the part time job I get depressed, angry, and really have to pipe myself to go in there.

I have faith that God has other plans for me. Recently, I started going back to church on Sunday Mornings.... right after work and my faith is being built back up. The extra money is nice... but its not worth my sanity or my health for that matter.

I was thinking that I was going to last until the end of the year but I don't know if I can do it. I'm teaching honors classes at school as well as staying after school until 5pm pretty much every day to grade papers do tutoring plus teaching Saturday School from 9-12 every Saturday. Something has to give and right now... its the second job.

I model sporadically. That's it! I have thought about getting a part time job but I just know I can't handle not having any time on my own and I'd be exhausted. It's exhausting enough. I already know no amount of money is worth it if it's going to negatively impact your quality of life. Now if I HAD to that would be different.

I have been considering getting a second job. I know I won't be happy but at this point in time I think it is necessary. I have been dragging my feet in going out and applying but I probably will have a second job before the year is over.