Thursday, December 1, 2011

and we just bought a car that seats 7. SEVEN. guess who plans to fill every available seat with a baby? ME. that's who.

that sound crazier than it is....4 of the seats are spoken for.....which really only leaves 3 seats. and the middle seat in the 3rd row doesn't really count....so....yeah....BABIES!

BRING IT.

wonder how many months it will take to get knocked up....again.....back to where i started.....wasn't it just August?

PS sort of annoying that i will either be getting my period or testing on Christmas. it is my favorite holiday.....and i just don't want anything to spoil it....it would be the ultimate gift to get a positive test that day....but i'm not holding my breath.....but just in case:

Dear Santa,

Please bring me a positive pregnancy test for christmas. Well, i guess i will be taking the test in my bathroom vanity i have been saving....so just fill my bladder with good urine. and put a baby in my uterus. but not your baby...my husband's. i know for this to happen we will need to get busy about 2 weeks before christmas....but i don't claim to understand how your magic works, Santa. i just want you to bring me this one gift, somehow. some way. positive pregnancy test. k? Bonus points if it actually sticks and turns out to be a baby.

i am girl who likes cake. i also like dresses and vases full of flowers. i have had a hole in my heart. this is was about filling that hole.

now my heart is full....and getting fuller.

journey so far...

aug 08 - start "not stopping" it from happening. also known as "sorta trying"oct 08 - first month of using opk's, FF chartingnov 08 - bfp at 11dpodec 08 - u/s at 6 weeks shows no heartbeatdec 23 - D&Cjan-march 09 - back to "sorta trying" but not really.may 09 - first month back using opk'sjuly 14- OMFG digital test says "pregnant"!!july 19, 2009-byebye to another hopeful pregnancy. another miscarriage....going to try again right away....Sept 11- bfp at 11dpo. hoping it sticks.Oct 6- we saw the heartbeat!Dec 22- IT'S A BOY!!!!!!!May 12, 2010- Milo is born on a beautiful sunny day in Seattle after a short yet mind blowingly painful all natural, drug free delivery.

August 2011- first PPAF (still BFing)

Oct 13- positive pregnancy test

Oct 24- Miscarriage #3

Nov 2011- on the bench

Feb 13 2012- bfp

Feb 15- bleeding, another MC, right?

Feb twentysomething- WRONG, blood test positive!

March 7- we have a heartbeat!!!!

May 24- GIRL!

blogs i read about women who are trying, have tried, are pregnant or have babies