Saturday, November 29, 2008

Have you had that feeling where you finally know what you're supposed to do. Film is like a hit or miss, you make it or you die trying, and I didn't really understand it when people would ask if my parents supported my decision to make movies but after 2 and a half years of college I know! The past few months I've really been struggling with the fact that I have loans to pay back, I want to get married, have kids, and I need a job that will support that and you always hear "trust in God," that saying makes me laugh, not because it's not true, but because it's easier said than done.

You can say, "I trust you God," and you still lie awake at night wondering how to get by, the bible says "let not your heart be troubled" HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THAT when I am going to be a broke artist with a BA in film and video production this time next year.

Well I don't trust God completely yet, I don't have monstrous faith, but I am beginning to realize that you will have doubts and sleepless nights but regardless God takes care of his sheep, he is the good Shepard, and he sits at the right hand of the father (which means his will is God's will) and regardless he will take care of his homies.

I say all this because as I sit here tonight God is speaking to my situation, first of all he is letting me know it's not that big a deal, it'll be okay, I have family and friends that love and support me but more importantly God has BIG plans for me. My mom used to tell me that and I just took it as a mother thing but as I get older and realize who God put me in this world to be God has showed me that this was no joke. God has given me knowledge and happiness and peace and imagination and skill and hope and light and hunger and yearning and a passion for making movies, and I sit up sometimes and have visions of these films, they play in front of my eyes. I listen to professional writers talking about how difficult it is to write and I can write a solid 120 page script in a night. I listen to established film makers talking about how you need at least $100,000 to make a legitimate movie and I did it with $2,000 and I realize none of it is me.

When God placed me in my mother's womb he blessed me, he gave me a purpose and he gave me his protection and he gave me passion and it's not for cookie cutter messages, it's, in all things that I do, speak, blog, write, make movies, play, work, for the person who needs to know that God is provocative, he is a ruler, a father, a friend, a leader a powerful being who is so much more than a glowing man with a long white beard, he is law, he is justice, he is love, he is peace, he is with us and fighting for us, and he is ALL MIGHTY! All the power the universe can muster is the power of our father in heaven, and this is the message that God has given me in my heart, like words breathed in flame lining my soul, and it may sound crazy and it may be crazy but it is my purpose, to tell the world and if I do that God will bless me beyond my wildest imagination, he will protect me from the evils of the world, and introduce me to the love in people, and show me his works at play in our lives.

We are called to do a CRAZY and OUTRAGEOUS duty, to proclaim Jesus as our Savior, and it sounds embarrassing or stupid or small when you say it but when you see it, when you feel the pain in peoples hearts, the hate in peoples words, the gradual softening of the warriors heart you realize this is a war and we are solders who are failing to fight positively and correctly and we are slowly being over come. But there is a new generation of believer, and I know because I have met them, people who don't believe the way they are taught by man, people who love Christ and go to him directly for their answers, this is the generation that will shed Christ's light and I am proud to have met these people and shared with them and learned from them and I can only hope that God will continue to bring those types of people into my life.

That went on far longer than I thought but it's truth, John talks about the spirit of truth coming, and I believe we are in a time in which we will see more and more of that truth as lies and deceit begin to become more prevalent.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Jesus talks in riddles, he is the riddler. Listened to the book of John on tape yesterday (AMAZING) and that man never just says stuff -- he makes you have to think about his words -- if I lived back then and was talking to this guy who clammed to be the Messiah I would get so frustrated, not only because he talks in riddles but because he's ALWAYS RIGHT! Have you ever read something and as you read it, it stimulates your mind and makes you want to be a better person but you don't quit know what to do about it yet because it's confusing to you (i.e. science) that's how Jesus' words made me feel, he would answer stuff in ways that would give multiple interpretations but it could only be said in one way (I'm tripping out) NOT TO MENTION JESUS -- SINCE JESUS IS REAL OUR LIVES ARE LIKE THE MATRIX -- THERE ARE REAL SUPER HEROES like when your a kid people say there is no such thing as a ghost -- MAYBE NOT but demons and the devil and angels and God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit ALL REAL! Walking on water: TOTALLY POSSIBLE FLIGHT: YOU BETCHA PRECOGNITION (PROPHECY): HECK YES SON! We just haven't tapped into it yet, not to mention the really faithful ones can MOVE MOUNTAINS! OK that's me tripping I'm done.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Is over, did you know that one of the signs of a migraine is a craving for sweet or salty things and depression, that's why I've been getting so fat and sad lately. OH YEAH AND PAIN! WELL it's over now and I'm a happy, healthy, camper!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

1. That my interview tomorrow goes well, and I like the job.2. That I find a new place to live with people that make me a happier person.3. A really good friend that lives here in California that I can communicate with and have fun with and blah blah blah

Monday, November 17, 2008

Absolutely spectacular. Despite the excessive use of music and the somewhat confusing screenplay "James Bond: Quantum of Solace" exceeded all expectations. In this film we see a new side of bond in which the director, Marc Forster, displays his mastery of visual story telling to deliver a non-stop edge of your seat thrill ride, that keeps you wanting more until the very end. Not only is Daniel Craig arguably the best Bond to date, he also displays a very human side of the normally simple, womanizing, british secret service agent. Check it out, you will not be disappointed.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Last night I shot a film (ON FILM amazing I know) about a guy who makes out with a girl in a severe case of mistaken identity. Right now the film is entitled Harold, but that seems to plain, if you have any other suggestions let me know and I will use the good one. Pictures coming soon.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

The album Devine machines is an in depth look at what religion has become in the world through the eyes of someone who was raised a devout Catholic and is now learning what faith means to him and at the same time he is introducing a newer style of music. The songs tell a story starting with Father Machine and ending with Divine Machine, now this is not the only album it is a three part series and if you look at it like a movie it's like listening to the Matrix. The first movie talks about the machines who represent our religious leaders. Father Machine is the original who produces all other machines, there is a machine called gabrielle who is part human that inseminates the world's woman and is the only way to produce life. There are a bunch of other machines as well but you have to listen to the album and study it. So you may be asking who's telling the story well i the next two albums which have yet to be released we learn that there is a Space Pirate who became immortal after a bomb exploded in Hiroshima and launched himself into space and now looks down on the Earth. This is just a taste of what the whole album is about but if you pay attention and do some research there's a bunch of hidden stuff. Now this is the exciting part sister, this guy is scoring my movie for free! SO TAKE A LISTEN and enjoy or not, whatever.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Are my favorite people to talk to, because they spend their whole lives raising us and teaching us right from wrong and for once the younger generation gets to watch while their parents, grandparent's, other family, and friends for whatever reason(s) take the "plunge" (a word often used by the previous generation to describe the engaging in an exciting event) into the world of online communication.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Has a sick new outlook to life, this is his about me:"My life is about a constant journey discovering what living is all about. Many people go their whole lives not knowing what is out there. I want to explore the depths of the human heart, the corners of the earth and the unconditional love that a mysterious God gives abundantly. In the words of Mike Yaconelli, I want to use the last breaths of this crazy roller coaster of a life to utter 3 finals words, "what a ride"... So hold on, and if you're brave enough hold both your arms high in the air... let the adventure begin..."

Friday, November 7, 2008

"God is great, God is good, let us thank him for this food..." We learn this prayer at a young age and we pray it ritualistically until we are about 6 at which time we decide it is uncool to pray and we get shy in front of the adults when they ask us to bless the food. I found myself praying over my lunch, and this is what I said "Dear God thank you for this day, thank you for everything I've done today, bless this food and help it to be good." I stopped. Help it to be good? What was I saying. I prayed that prayer over my food in my head since I was about 10. This was my chance to thank God for the food I was about to eat and I was praying a prayer I'd been praying since I was 10. While sitting at the kitchen table I realized that a lot of times we pray because we have been praying our entire life, we pray before bed, before meals, and in church. The idea of prayer has been lost in religious rituals and cookie cutter christian ideals. I believe the greatest example of prayer is that of the Psalmist (for example Psalm 123, go read it.) If we prayed with this kind of fervor who's to say God wouldn't lift a mountain out of the ground and place it in a new location, who's to say we couldn't walk on water, or end world hunger, or bring peace to the world. If we prayed like God was listening, and we truly believed that God would be faithful, we would see how our prayer is effecting our lives. I think that when we pray with intent and have faith, God will open our eyes and he shows us his intervention in our lives. Prayer is always answered it's just not always the answer you would like. I've often heard God will answer "yes, no, or maybe" but I believe God is much smarter than three words. My challenge to you is to (for at least a week) pray like you've never prayed before whether it be at the dinner table, in church, or before you go to bed, and trust that God will show himself while you are praying and in his answer. I believe that if you do this the term "answer to prayer" will take on a whole new meaning.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

I'm still stoked! Today I was at a student counsel meeting where we voiced our opinion on how the economy is effecting our school causing budget cuts, staff cuts, facility cuts, and equipment cuts. I was surprised to find that I wasn't the only black student at the function. Tonight I realized that rappers, athletes, and the local dope boy are no longer the role models for todays black children, TODAY we have a black president who will set the standard for a more educated, cause driven, powerful group of African Americans. I don't know how else to explain it other than saying that being educated is no longer being white, or an uncle sam, or an oreo it is now a place of power where being well spoken means that you are striving to do more for your life, not forgetting your roots. GOOD TIMES, GOOD TIMES, President Barack Hussein Obama and his family along with the rest of America are in my prayers.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

I was sleeping on the plane on and off and kept finding myself in these dreams unable to distinguish between reality and imagination. I remember dosing off and hearing vividly 300! I remember seeing Obama give a speech, and I remember watching people in front of their televisions. When I woke up the pilot announced that Obama had won and had 300 electoral votes. When I got off the plane I passed crowds of people standing in front of computer monitors, TV's and radios listening and watching the coverage and when I got home I watched Obama's acceptance speech. I am proud to call myself a American. I don't know about you but as a black man in America I have never felt like anything was possible until today. Today I know that anyone can do anything regardless of your race, creed, religion, or middle name. This is historic and I challenge everyone to really examine themselves and think hard about what they want to accomplish in life and then GO DO IT! Put in the work and get out there and make it happen because ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE, including a black man becoming the 44th President 44 years after the civil rights act was passed!

Monday, November 3, 2008

Sunday, November 2, 2008

John McCain is a patriot that deserves all the respect that can given to a man who served his country the way he did. He is to be commended for his ability to reach over party lines and fix problems, and his attempt to help the economy by suspending his presidential race shows just how much he loves his country and its people.