'happiness' were all illusionary. The only at I find peace in myself is to accept that I am not a generally happy person, though on the outside I may seem to be. Such is life.. the pursuit of happiness would be futile without the deepest grief, or any other human emotion..

of this group because that pretty much sums up exactly how I feel.
For whatever reasons, I do not have many *good* memories, I have had A LOT of unfortunate, strange and just plain bad experiences and met some equally strange and mean people.
I am not feeling sorry for...