2005-11-12

My entire world looks brick red.

My entire world looks brick red. Ive realized I am incredibly bored with life. Ive experienced every emotion i can imagine in one form or another. there is no way i can accomplish all that i had hoped for at this point, so my ambition, my drive is pretty much shot.Im bored.the only reason i move at all is because i am bored sitting still for to long.I have incredible urges to self medicate, so much so that i have officially labeled myself an alchoholic. If im fucked up then maybe i wont realize what really isnt there.

Im tired of being fed life in convenient 30 minute blocks with laugh track included.but somehow it makes me feel better if i laugh when i am supposed to laugh. even if i dont really laugh.