fiddlehead.....every changing, ever growing

fiddlehead....ever changing, ever growing

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Really? 14 months!

Really...it has been 14 months of official waiting. And as I think about it I realize it has now been 2 years since we officially started this process. Wow. I am so glad we had the foresight to start when we did. Jack was such a peanut (9months) when we started, but I remember thinking that it would make for a good age difference between he and our daughter. I do think that is still true, but the wait is wearing on me. Some days I do really well with distracting myself. And for a while I wasn't on edge about it, knowing it wasn't time. Then last week with all this talk about the upcoming court closure, my mind is on things much more. I really feel like we are incredibly close so whenever the phone rings my heart skips a beat. The other day the pediatric office called and said "Is Jennifer there?". I responded with a very excited, "Yes, this is!". She must have thought I sounded like a nut, because then she said "This is Katie from Pediatrics...Drew's culture was negative". Oh. Anyway, that is what it has been like lately.

The agency is hopeful that anyone who receives a referral by the end of this week will pass court in Ethiopia before the court closure. Our specialist has said "You are soooooooo clost. We just need a bunch of referrals. It is going to be a close one." AHHHH!!!! So, now I need to work on accepting, once again, my lack of control in this process. It is very likely we will hit the court closure and have an extra 2 months added to our wait to travel to our daughter. Now I am focusing on just receiving the referral and all that that means: we will know who our daughter is, we will be able to see her photo, we will know her health and social history, we will know she is safe and being cared for at the care center, we will KNOW.... I will hang on and hope that the next blog post is "the post"!!

Here are some recent photos of us enjoying the lake. As you can see, we will need to find a new name for the boat! Next summer for sure!

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This blog began as a journey to bring home our daughter from Ethiopia, but has become much more. It is the place I share our lives as a family....the joys, the chaos and the messy moments. It is a woman loving motherhood, embracing the little moments, continually looking for the beauty in life with gratitude. Here I share life as an artist, a mother, a wife, as a lover of photography, collector of quotes, seeker of hope, messenger of inspiration.

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Why fiddlehead?

As I was becoming a mother, I discovered a fiddlehead in my backyard and was fascinated by it. Its natural uncurling form. How as it grows it reveals itself. The way the fiddleheads gather together like a family and grow outward. How the fiddlehead changes ever so quickly and blossoms into a fern before you know it. Just like time passing, before you realize it those fiddleheads are gone. That moment has passed. As I evolved into a mother I discovered my need to nurture the artist within. My love of art and photography grew and soon became a passion for capturing my life with my ever and quickly changing fiddleheads. Like the fiddlehead, we are special, unique and ever changing.

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Fiddlehead Fine Arts & Fotography

40 Before 40

1. re-establish transcendental mediation practice 2. learn to ride a horse 3. host an open studio show with art friends 4. complete Ethiopia series 5. have a totally unplugged weekend 6. long family weekend at boat house 7. surprise Andy 8. Run 10K race 9. go Latin dancing 10. girls weekend- uninterrupted 11. finish Studio space 12. transfer wedding video to DVD 13. service to the church 14. reach out to those in need with the kids 15. alone time with each child for 24 hours 16. locks of love hair donation 17. host neighborhood party 18. get lean, fit and to goal weight 19. take kids to Disney 20. go on a ski trip 21. N.Y.C. to see a Broadway show 22. visit Washington D.C. with Jud & Drew 23. spa day with the ladies 24. finish baby books 25. complete wooden puzzle and learn to sew a pillow 26. explore a new art medium 27. grow a garden with the kids and eat from it 28. take all the kids on a bike ride 29. make pickles and learn how to can them 30. take a photography class 31. redecorate bedroom 32. have a garage sale 33. take bob the bulldog to training 34. art show in Madison 35. sponsor an ET child 36. make a favorite recipe binder 37. go on a yoga retreat 38. do something outside my comfort zone 39. grow out nails 40. write the children's book with Mom Then celebrate the first 40 years... BIG!