Ben is finally lost in his life and is now going on a journey to find himself again, but to do this he will need the help of the three people who know him best. Join Ben as he meets with the only people who can help him find out who he truly is.

Ben's recovery was long and hard, his injuries were all serious specifically the back injury he sustained when the car flipped. However Leo was happy when his toxicology report came back clean, meaning Ben's accident was just an accident and he was not on drugs or alcohol. Even though Ben was not in trouble with the law, he was in trouble with Leo for nearly getting himself killed over Dylan's betrayal. Ben was not the only one who had to face the consequences of their actions however.

Dylan's father was so angry at not just Dylan, but her friends as well and forbid them to see one another unless they all entered a drug rehab program for one year. Their parent's also separated them in schools. Wendy was allowed to be in the same school with Raven, while Dylan went to school with Cindy. Each, were also monitored when they spent time together outside of school when their year was up. The worst part neither was allowed to date for one year, the boy had to be approved by their parents, and neither was allowed to attend any unsupervised parties.

Dylan's parent's were not only ashamed of her actions when it came to her relationship with Ben, but their own as well. Ben was a nice, decent, young man that had already been through a lot and instead of helping him deal with his troubles while they dated she added to them. They were very disappointed in themselves and her for Dylan's use in marijuana, but also for how she was the one who introduced such a dangerous activity to Ben. Worst of all they were furious that Dylan allowed Ben to take the fall for all of her stupid actions with the marijuana and the school fire. They were so upset and guilty over Dylan's behavior and their own the Boykewich family received a lifetime half off discount from her mom's bakery, and her father gave Leo a very good deal on a security plan he had installed in a few of his butcher shops.

The situation between Adrian and Omar however was even more complicated. Because of his actions his father was placed on suspension and had internal affairs investigation conducted. Although his father's charges were dropped, his reputation could not recover. His mother also suffered from his actions because not many members of her congregation approved of how Omar deceived them all. His parent's were so embarrassed by what their son had done they retired and moved to a new state.

Omar however was fired from his job, and his teaching license was suspended for seven years. Because he plead guilty to all charges and marijuana is a legal drug in California, Omar was only brought up on felony misdemeanor charges for illegal distribution. He was forced to spend 750 hours in community service. This served him well since he decided that he was still going to do what he set out to do and help kids. He entered into a program to become a juvenile monitor which tutored at risk kids who were being held by the state until they became legal adults, or served their time.

Omar tried constantly to regain his relationship with Adrian, begging for a second chance. Adrian didn't want to hear it, because she remembered that is how she once did him after the party. But, he lied to her and was judgmental of her actions from a kiss when he sold marijuana to minor's. Not only that Adrian had to admit to herself she was glad to be rid of her relationship with Omar, although she liked him at first and cared about him she never really saw a life with him, or really could love him. In a way she believed she was only with Omar because she was still vulnerable from the loss of her daughter, and the break up of her marriage to Ben. She decided the best thing for her to do was get help through grief counseling to help her deal with all that happened.

Strangely enough Ben's accident actually caused the pimp who assaulted Jack to get caught. He was hiding out and using a friends' car to travel when he ran into a road block that was set up because of the accident. When the police stopped him, he was unable to produce identification. Feeling as though he was cornered, he tried to run. But not knowing about the accident ran over broken pieces of Ben's car, and he too was involved in an accident. He survived with minor cuts and bruises. After his capture, and thanks to the testimony of Chloe, and Jack he received 20 consecutive years for the coercion of a minor, the solicitation of a minor. He tried to plea bargain, but he had nothing to trade and was sentenced to fifty years in prison, for assault with a deadly weapon for his attack on Jack.

Jack was happy when he felt himself have to pee after drinking a big gulp. After that incident and extensive spinal surgery, as well as painful physical therapy he was able to recover the use of his legs. He was also able to keep his scholarship by becoming a trainer until he could fully recover. While returning to school he decided to choose the major of athletics, and studied to become a physical therapist or an athletic trainer.

Even though his recovery was hard and painful, Jack was happy to have Ben as company. Ben and he both suffered from spinal injuries and shared the same physical therapist. Their therapist named Josh refused to let either man give up on their treatment, and with the two of them as friends both served as cheer leaders to the other, and inspired their friend to keep going through the pain. Even though Ben was not very athletic he proved himself quite competitive with Jack who would make bets against Ben to see who would complete what task first. Since Ben's injuries were not that serious but he was smaller Jack took it as a challenge to either heal before Ben or at the same time. This helped both young men recover very quickly.

What Josh really believed helped them recover were the two lovely young ladies who would come to their therapy sessions with them. Josh recognized Grace who was often around the hospital talking to the nurses and doctors about the types of student programs they had available for her, but the young and sexy Hispanic beauty was different when Adrian would stop by to check in on Ben and his recovery almost every day. Adrian was so worried about Ben she actually rearranged her classes with other people to make sure she would be by his side during his sessions. This is what he primarily believed helped Ben to recover even faster as a way to prove something to himself, and to Adrian.

In time Ben was able to walk with the use of cane, and Jack although on crutches for the damage done to his knee was right behind him in the recovery. Ricky would stop by the hospital to visit them both, he seemed to have something on his mind as he saw how both his friends were bonding and making strides to overcome their injuries. When Amy asked why he looked so down considering both, Ben and Jack were doing so well he confessed he was jealous that he was not injured so he could bond with them. When Amy told this to both of them, Ben said he would happily hit him with a car, and Jack said if he truly meant it he would beat him with a bat as much as he needed. Ricky smiled and apologized for his rude attitude at their predicaments. Ben and Jack simply looked at one another and said they weren't kidding and chased after him with their crutches, and cane.

One day as prom neared Ricky showed up at Ben's house and asked to speak with him, as he entered the room he noticed Ben sitting in his chair staring at a picture. Ben looked to be lost in his own world, Ricky saw this and knocked to gain his attention, this jolted Ben from his fantasy and he quickly put the picture away. "So what was that? Ricky asked trying to figure what caused Ben to be so transfixed. "Nothing I was just lost in thought," Ben said as he turned in his chair to face him. "So what are you doing here, aren't you and Amy supposed to be getting ready for the wedding?" Ben asked.

"Yeah, I know its why I stopped by, I need to talk to you." Ricky said sitting down on his bed and staring at Ben directly. This caused Ben to wonder what was happening because Ricky looked as though he was losing his composure. "Ben I need to apologize to you," Ricky said as he faced him. Apologize for what exactly" Ben asked curiously? "For ruining your life," Ricky said as he let out a breath of air and looked at Ben with a guilty face. "What do you mean by that Ricky?" Ben asked already knowing the answer. "Ben, don't act like this, its already hard enough to apologize to you without you trying to revel in it" Ricky said becoming stern. "Ricky, did you actually think I wouldn't make this difficult on you? You should know better than that," Ben said with a serious look.

"I know, but I hoped that you would," he said looking ashamed. "Ben I'm sorry for putting all of this stress on you by dealing with Amy, and her pregnancy even though it was my responsibility." "I was the one who got Amy pregnant, and it was suppose to be me who was by her side, not you. I had feelings for Amy then Ben I really did, but I was not used to having feelings like that for anyone, and it scared me." Ricky admitted. "When I saw she was with you and that she was pregnant, you being rich, and a decent guy with a great family, I figured she was better off with you than me." "If that was true Ricky, why did you keep interfering in our relationship," Ben asked. "Anger, jealousy, guilt, envy you name it I felt it," he said. "But mainly it was because I couldn't live with the fact that my kid would be calling another man Daddy, and not me, Ben. If that would have happened, of all the bad things I have done for that to happen, it would make me worse than my own father." Ricky said.

"My dad was a monster Ben, he beat me, my mom, and he raped us both, but he owned up to us." he said getting ready to cry which he tried not to do. Ricky didn't want Ben to see him this vulnerable, but he figured the only way for he and Ben to clear the air was to let it all out. "He owned up to being my father, and he didn't try to pass his kid onto anyone, even if he didn't want to be my father, and I really wish to God that he wasn't. "Ricky could you not do this," Ben said looking at him. "You can play the victim game with everyone else, but you can't play it with me not anymore. I know what your dad did to you was wrong, but it didn't give you the right to hurt Amy, Adrian, me, or any of those other girls either." Ben said looking angrily at Ricky.

"Ricky, you may like others to give you pity, and sympathy, but I won't, not anymore." Ben said. "I lost just as much if not more than you, and I don't blame anyone, not anymore." he said. "You have no idea how hard it was to be me do you. I wasn't born to a horrible father, and a drug addict mother, like you, but I had my own problems." "I had to be the rich kid who was a geek, and find friends who liked me for me, and not my dad's money. I had to be nine years old and watch my mom who was the greatest woman in the world to me die a slow and painful death. "I had to be ridiculed and prejudged as the son of the "Sausage King" all my life. "I had to be the man that everyone expected me to be, and I still have no idea who that man was suppose to be." " And then I had to lose the only person who ever understood me when I was only nine years old.", Ben said remembering his mom.

"Do you know why I tried so hard to be in a relationship with Amy, Ricky? Why I was ready to be a father to your son, instead of just walking a way? "I did it because that was what was expected of me, Ricky." "When I first got to school, I thought I was in love with Grace Bowman, then I saw Adrian, and she captivated me in a way that no one else ever has, or probably ever will." But, I knew she was out of my league, I could be the richest man in the world, and I knew it wouldn't matter to her or Grace because they don't care about things like that." "When I saw Amy, I said 'THERE, there is a girl who would probably be attracted to a guy like me, and not care about my family's money." "My mom always told me that behind every strong man there is an even stronger woman, and I should have known then, that Amy was not the one for me. Because in every instance when I needed her, really needed her she wasn't there."

"Ben what are you talking about, Amy was there for you, even when she was with me she tried to be there for you when you daughter died." Ricky fired back defending Amy. "Ricky she was there because she thought that would be the nice thing to do, not because she was strong. Amy felt sorry for me, and I didn't need pity, I needed someone to explain to me, WHY?" Ben said looking saddened. "Why what, Ben?" Ricky asked. "Why my daughter died, after everything I did for her? I needed to know why your son lived when his existence caused so many problems in my life, and my daughter who brought peace to my life died?

"Do you know what it feels like Ricky to love something before its born? To not even know what it is or what it looks like, but to love it without condition?" Ben said starting to cry himself. "I loved John, but no matter what i did I knew he would never be mine. Mercy, was mine." "She was mine and Adrian's to have." "I hated myself for sleeping with Adrian that night, but even after all we have been through, I would still have opened that door for her that night." "I love Amy, I always will she was my first love, but Amy never really loved me." "I knew that from the first time she ever said it. But, I always thought that if I tried hard enough, and stayed by her side she would love me. But she never would, I know that now." "But, the worst part is not knowing if Adrian did." Ben said looking even sadder.

"Ben I'm sorry I know I did you wrong when I refused to let you and Adrian just be a couple, but I was only trying to be a friend, I thought the two of you were making a mistake." Ricky said. "We were making a mistake Ricky, you turned around and asked Amy to marry you in front of both me and Adrian while our marriage fell apart." Ben yelled. "You didn't even have the decency to at least make it private. You did that just to rub it in my face how your life was going so much better." "But worst of all you chose to humiliate Adrian in front of everyone at that party just to make her your little puppet one last time." Ben said. You didn't give a damn about me or Adrian, you just wanted to show how you and Amy were so perfect compared to the two of us." Ben said angrily.

"Everything all of us have been through have always had to revolve around the two of you doesn't it." Ben said. "Ben, I'm sorry I thought by kissing Adrian it would free her of me, and it did." Ricky said. "Ricky if you wanted her to be free of you, you could have just talked to her when OUR DAUGHTER DIED!" Ben screamed. "But, you only cared about you being with Amy, and John. You didn't give a damn about what she and I were going through. I can't believe I ever thought we were friends, and for you to try, and come here expecting to be forgiven, you truly are that conceited, aren't you." Ben said angrily. "Ben I'm sorry if you think what I did was cruel, but I really did like being your friend. I am sorry for what happened to your daughter, but I just didn't know how to be the friend you needed me to be Ben. I don't do well with situations like that, but I tried to be there for you." Ricky said. "Well Ricky you should have tried harder, but I guess I'm the only one who does that." Ben responded.

Ricky then remembered back to all Ben had done to help Amy, John, he, and Adrian. Ben as he remembered was always there to comfort them, talk to them laugh with them, cry with them, and even challenge them if needed. But as he continued to remember not he, Amy, or Adrian had ever really been there for him. Amy was in a relationship with him through the most difficult time in her life, and he didn't believe that Amy could have gone through with the pregnancy if it had not been for Ben. But Ricky never considered how hard it must have been having done all of that for Amy only to have her throw it back in his face, a few weeks after John was born.

He had to admit he kind of enjoyed Amy taking her frustration for raising John out on Ben instead of him. It meant that he could see John without pressure, but it also meant he might have a better chance with Amy. However he also knew Ben didn't deserve Amy's anger, or her wrath and he did. He got her pregnant, and he was the one irritating Ben by having sex all the time while Amy flaunted her new body in front of Ben. Ben did all the work, and he had to admit a little he deserved some reward. But he was glad Amy never gave in, but he also felt guilty for not telling Amy she was being too hard on Ben for asking so much of him and not understanding why he needed to go to Italy. She had asked a lot of Ben, and asking for more was breaking him, so he understood perfectly well why Ben left, but he never told Amy.

Then he remembered how Adrian always thought the happiest part of her life was when she was pregnant, and she believed that she could be happy with him, but only Ben could bring the smile she had to her face with no doubt. Adrian never seemed to realize it wasn't the baby that made her that happy, it was Ben. Thousands of girls got pregnant in high school and none of them were as happy as she was. Ricky was surprised that Cindy had never told Adrian why or who really gave her that happiness. It was the boy that put her well being, her happiness in front of his own that made being 18 in high school, and pregnant tolerable. Throughout everything she had been through as the school slut, to his reject as they were called, Ben never tried to hurt her as he knew, and he never judged her or lied to her. He even had to admit that he would not be the man he was now had it not have had Ben in his life as a rival, a friend, and a brother almost. The worst thing Ricky had to admit Ben never asked anything of any of them but their honesty, their understanding, and their love. Things he gave freely to all of them, but they could never seem to do that for him.

Ricky looked at Ben and said, "So I guess this is it then, you and I are no longer friends. I guess I deserve that Ben. I'm not going to lie or blame what happened between all of us on my past. You're right I had a choice, and I chose to hurt you, Amy, Adrian, and all of those girls because it was easier to make others feel pain than to feel my own." Ricky said taking in the full guilt of his sins by admitting this to Ben. "But, I never meant for your child to die Ben. I never wanted you and Adrian to break up, because you two really did make each other happy. I also want to thank you for what you did for Amy, because without you my child wouldn't be here. I know I did wrong when I kept interfering in your life, but it was because I was jealous of you.

You seemed to have it all, a great father, way better than the father I had. Good friends, who liked you for who you were, and you were actually the guy Amy and Adrian both could love. I have to admit I hated you mostly because you were the friend I needed, and you were this person because its who you are. I thought you were the man I could never be, until you, Adrian, my parents, your dad, Amy and John and everyone else helped me become that person. I just never realized how the consequences of my actions would affect all of us. I never wanted to realize that until you almost died, and I'm sorry you had to be close to death for me to admit what I did to you, and how much I need you as a friend. And one day Ben I do hope you can forgive me, because I do value our friendship." Ricky said that turned and left Ben's room and the Boykewich house. Because he knew nothing else needed to be said from him, or Ben.

[Bruno Mars]This one's for you and me, living out our dreamsWe're all right where we should beLift my arms out wide I open my eyesAnd now all I wanna seeIs a sky full of lightersA sky full of lighters

[Eminem]By the time you hear this I will have already spiralled upI would never do nothing to let you cowards fuck my world upIf I was you, I would duck, or get struck like lightening,Fighters keep fighting, put your lighters up, point 'em skyward uhHad a dream I was king, I woke up, still king...This rap game's nipple is mine for the milking,Till nobody else even fucking feels me, till' it kills meI swear to god I'll be the fucking illest in this musicThere is or there ever will be, disagree?Feel free, but from now on I'm refusing to ever give upThe only thing I ever gave up is using. No more excuses.Excuse me if my head is too big for this buildingAnd pardon me if I'm a cocky prick but you cocks are slickPoppin' shit on how you flipped ya life around, crock-of-shitWho you dicks try to kid, flipped dick, you did the oppositeYou stayed the same, cause cock backwards is still cock you pricksI love it when I tell 'em shove it

Cause it wasn't that long ago when Marshall sat, luster lacked, flusteredCuz he couldn't cut mustard, muster up nothingBrain fuzzy, cause he's buzzin', woke up from that buzzNow you wonder why he does it, how he does itWasn't cause he had buzzards circle around his headWaiting for him to drop dead, was it?Or was it, cause them bitches wrote him offLittle hussy ass fusses, 'cause fuck it, guess it doesn't matter now, does itWhat difference it make?What it take to get it through your thick skullsAs if this ain't some bullshitPeople don't usually come back this wayFrom a place that was dark as I was inJust to get to this placeNow let these words be like a switch blade to a haters rib cageAnd let it be known from this day forwardI wanna just say thanks cause your hate is what gave me the strengthSo let 'em bic's raise 'cause I came with 5'9′ but I feel like I'm 6'8″[ Lyrics from: . ][Bruno Mars]This one's for you and me, living out our dreamsWe're all right where we should beLift my arms out wide I open my eyesAnd now all I wanna seeIs a sky full of lightersA sky full of lighters

[Royce Da 5'9"]By the time you hear this I'll probably already be outtieI advance like going from toting iron to going and buying 4 or 5 of the homies the iron man AudiMy daddy told me slow down, boy, you goin' to blow itAnd I ain't gotta stop the beat a minuteTo tell Shady I love him the same way that he did Dr Dre on the ChronicTell him how real he is or how high I amOr how I would kill for him for him to know itI cried plenty tears, my daddy got a bad backSo it's only right that I right till he can march right into that post office and tell 'em to hang it upNow his career's Lebron's jersey in 20 yearsI'll stop when I'm at the very topYou shitted on me on your way upIt's 'bout to be a scary dropCause what goes up must come downYou going down on something you don't wanna see like a hairy boxEvery hour, happy hour nowLife is wacky nowUsed to have to eat the cat to get the pussyNow I'm just the cats meoww, owClassic now, always down for the catch weight like PacquiaoYa'll are doomedI remember when T-Pain ain't wanna work with meMy car starts itself, parks itself and autotunesCause now I'm in the AstonI went from having my city locked upTo getting treated like Kwame KilpatrickAnd now I'm fantasticCompared to a weed highAnd y'all niggas just gossipin' like bitches on a radio and TVSee me, we flyY'all buggin' out like Wendy Williams staring at a bee-hiveAnd how real is thatI remember signing my first deal and now I'm the second best I can deal with thatNow Bruno can show his ass, without the MTV awards gag

[Bruno Mars]You and I know what it's like to be kicked downForced to fightBut tonight we're alrightSo hold up your lightLet it shine'Cause this one's for you and me, living out our dreamsWe're all right where we should beLift my arms out wide I open my eyesAnd now all I wanna seeIs a sky full of lightersA sky full of lighters

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