#3 We don’t understand where this grief is coming from or even how to stop it.

Therapy sometimes goes too far in perpetuating our grief, (getting

us to feel sorry for ourselves, which can lead to depression)

God tells us to “be of good cheer” but sometimes, we can’t. We

are sad. We need to cry. It’s called grieving.

King David danced, but he also wept about sin and disappointment.

Jeremiah wept over the sins of God’s people.

Jonah got depressed because God did not destroy Ninevah after he

delivered a word that it would be destroyed. Job got depressed too.

I believe part of soul-healing is talking about it. Whether you talk to God about it, or someone else. Ministers like TD Jakes talk about their

soul being torn, ripped apart, dreams going out the window, and feeling

like God didn’t care (for awhile) about their pain. This is why people love

to read their stories. They can relate.

We need teachers and we need prophets, but we need pastors too.

Pastors tend to be nurturing people. They love and tend to the sheep.

If they are not this way, perhaps they should not have been pastors.

But in the world of men, There are not any paying postions for a lot

of the other ministries (which is sad). They are forced to ask for money

continually, because nobody offers them a home, or a paycheck.

Those people have dreams too (you see) And it’s a heart to reach the

lost, the hurting, the broken, and the dying. They can’t get there without

someone’s help. I just put one of my dreams on the Altar, because unless

God sends a way to provide for it, I just can’t do it anymore.

It’s called “Authoring books” to reach the hurting. I can’t afford what it costs anymore, so I have to stop. My paychecks are like .01 (last quarter) for this endeavor. I’ve been doing it for 7 years now, and it pays nothing. And it’s okay but it still hurts to have dreams come to an end. I have to stop now. Until God provides for it. If he doesn’t, oh well! I will still love him just the same.

And no I don’t want sympathy- but I have some grief right now. God will

surely bring me out of it too. He always does! He is faithful! I have faced many disappointments in my life. And I will live through this one, too.

As a minister and a child of God I find that “letting go” is one of the most

painful things I have ever experienced. Letting go of what you know is bad

is hard, but letting go of something you thought was good is even harder.

I am reminded of the following scripture in regardes to self-preservation.

When you are done grieving, consider putting it all in God’s hands.

We really are better off to put our lives in the Lord’s hands and say “Thy will

be done, thy kingdom come, on earth, as it is in heaven.” Amen.

Today is November 1. Happy Author’s day. I just layed my 7 year Journey

of writing books at the Lord’s feet.

Matthew 16:25 For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake, will find it. Peace out (for now) Laura Grace

Maybe Some people just “trot” down to divorce court, like they are exchanging a defective item, or returning shoes that were too small. I kind of doubt it but, perhaps there are persons like this.

I’ve had people say “oh leave the past in the past” (forget about it now!). It’s been 15 years since I got divorced. Yes I am over it. I have regrets about the book I wrote “Grace to the Rescue” (available on Amazon). First I don’t like the publisher I used, Second, I was so focused on staying positive, giving due thanks and praises to God for getting me through it, I failed to really get across the nightmarish, agonizing pain of it all.

If you Love someone, and they betray you, lie to you constantly, fail to keep their vows, thwart you at every turn when you are trying to train your kids to behave (as they are focused on being dysfunctional donkeys!) and when they love you one minute, and call you terrible names the next, lie about you, make you move 22 times because they won’t keep a job, cheat (and the list goes on), it rips you apart. If you are able to love yourself enough to get out of there, people rip you apart.

Your heart is torn apart from what truly is like, an amputation. Remember the passage? “If your arm causes you to sin cut it off?” I am NOT here to get you to feel sorry for me.

I just know there are people out there some I know, some I love dearly…….

And every time I hear of them getting the disapproving looks, and the judgmental glances, because they say they got divorced, I cringe. My heart hurts for them.

Why? Because I know, I have lived it. I know the pain of having to admit defeat, when you have tried everything you knew to do and still……..you can’t make it work. I know the rending and tearing that happens, when two souls get ripped apart, all because one wants God’s ways, and the other wants the ways of the evil one.

This is part of my mission: “stick up” for those who are oppressed, cast down, and don’t know what to do anymore. Those who would rather die, then face the ordeal of leaving, only to learn those who loved them now disapprove, and will give those disapproving glances. Pain is Pain. I will never understand praying for someone in the hospital, getting their leg cut off, and refusing to pray for a person who is forced to go through divorce, in order to live. Why is it so different oh religious ones?