Saturday, April 17, 2010

Well, let's see. Lots of things have been going on and I have been doing a terrible about updates. Oh well some things don't change, ha.

I really didn't bounce after my second chemo. I knew it it was bad when my visit from Stacey and Addison didn't pep me up. I will say I have The world's sweetest grandaughter. She kept asking if she could help me, bring me things, even wet wash rags. I remember her looking at me once and asking me why God was making me so sick. With my seeming never ending wealth of words, do you think I could could up with anytthing? Oh, I said something but I have no idea what.

I am having so much difficulty letting people help. I think this is God's way of teaching me this leason. This cancer is opening my eyes to so many things. You just "have' to accept help. I am exctremely happy to say that God is giving me a 10 day reprieve. Joyce you told me this but I didn't really underdstand what you meant. The Radiation - no prob - compared to the chemo. I did 10 treatments primarily to treat the extreme pain in my left shoulder. The treatment has responded wonderfully already. My cancer responds very well to radiation. The reason I am on break for now is that It contontinues to work for a while after. We are going to rescan the whole mess next week to see if we can finish the chemo. I have mixed emotions about that, for sure but I know that it's gotta be done eventually so I'll suck it up. They say the pain was causing the nausea which sas giving me such trouble. We'll seelllllllllll

I want to thank you once more for all the love, friendship and support you continue to give me. You will never possibly understand how much that means. may God continue to bless each and every one of you.