Day 668 – reaction

For a long time I have wanted to write out about reactions. Here goes:

Current allocation:

I would think of muscle reactions, like to pull my arm to myself from fear within petting a animal. Like to reach out one hand and the pulling it back out of fear. Or a psychological reaction within my mind. A thought, or a backchat within my head/mind. It could be a chemical reaction, or a movement.

How do you spot mental reactions ? It is friction, movement, fear, sparkles going off within you. Like warning signs.

reaction (dictionary definition)

a reverse movement or tendency; an action in a reverse direction or manner.

movement in the direction of political conservatism or extreme rightism.

action in response to some influence, event, etc.:

the nation’s reaction to the president’s speech.

Physiology. action in response to a stimulus, as of the system or of a nerve, muscle, etc.

Medicine/Medical.

the action caused by the resistance to another action.

a return to the opposite physical condition, as after shock, exhaustion, or chill.

Bacteriology, Immunology. the specific cellular response to foreign matter, as in testing for allergies.

Chemistry. the reciprocal action of chemical agents upon each other; chemical change.

What are reactions ? What does reactions do to us ? How can we prevent reactions ? The reactions I mention here, is mostly psychological and related to the human psyche.

A reaction is like to experience of friction, and noise within when someone says something that triggers you. You are inn “reaction”. Reaction leads to further friction, noise, pain of the physical.

Reactions can be fear or anger or spite, blame, guilt, backchats of mind and so on. Reactions is like the start of a train of thoughts, or metaphysical reactions in the head/mind. Reactions is the first sign of a road to psychosis/possession.

Let’s say I am sitting at cafe with friends, and we are talking about things that interest us, and we are enjoying our self. All of a sudden one person tells me ” You are a idiot”. Just like that. I would most likely go into reaction and frictions within. Within my mind and my physical/metaphysical. I would probably go into anger and stress, feeling all insulted, and I would be angry or annoyed at this person. I would feel intimidated. That is a typical reaction. Someone stepping on your toes. Where you are taking things personal. It is not a cool thing to go into reaction, it is confusing and filed with thoughts/noise and it is in general a painful experience. Reacting is not a cool experience.

Looking at the word it is are occurring action. Something that one does on repeat, or over again or in reverse. Something is being done over again or on repeat, it is being done in spite of plan/best for all.

I live with schizophrenia, and I experience reactions quite often. I can feel like someone is stepping on my toes even though they do not mean to. I can experience feeling insulted and hurt, from taking things personal, from the design of my schizophrenia, where I see that I am more sensitive than others.

Carrying my schizophrenia makes me more sensitive to reactions, and my path from reaction to psychosis/possession can be waaaay shorter and quicker in escalating than other peoples psychology and mental experiences. Reactions within mind is simply sickness. Early signs of separation from path/plan.

Reaction is like a start of metaphysical pain and noise. Psychology, emotions anger and literally: sickness and possessions. What we all want is to have a balanced, nice, good, gentle life and living. Without too many “surprises”. We want to be able to predict, plan, be flexible, to empower from peace, balance within, and to have comfort. We want safety, peace and harmony within our self and our lives.

How do we avoid reactions ? Well that question have a lot of different answers. It is all about finding something that suits you. To avoid reaction I would say one have to investigate oneness past and to embrace/forgive ones old memories so one does not step in the same old patterns or reactions again and again. Embracing self is key, self forgiveness is key. Finding balance in physical is key. Yoga and meditation, eating right, can get you quite far. Still I would say you need to be free from “the hook of the past”. Those hooks can drag you down misery train when you least expect it. And this is definitely the era of consequences where such “hooks” can grab you, if you do not have standing in all your past and present. To avoid reactions is to have a go at the patterns that lead to reactions.

Sounding of the word:

read cash in

pay one more time

redeem and putt in

redeem and place in

no action

new axe inn

ax – en (the axe)

dagsrevyen (Norwegian news hour on TV)

the taxing

read taxi

read tax sin

tuxedo

tuxedo in

tuck me inn

ride the dachs

Polarity of word

negative: this is a word with overall negative polarity to me. I don’t like reactions and I want to avoid reactions.

Positive: I first end up in reactions I would like to empower from that reaction, into a more solid and grounded being. I would like to learn from my reaction and better myself and correct myself.

Self forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am excused to have more reactions from how my mind is designed, and for thinking I can allow myself further reactions simply because of how I have schizophrenia.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am excused to have reactions because of my diagnosis, of schizophrenia.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to confront myself in reactions out of fear what I might find.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to face reactions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take responsibility for my life out of fear of what I might find that I don’t like and there for go into reactions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to face people that might cause a reaction within me.

New definition:

Reaction is that sparkle of energies, friction/firecrackers going of trying to create series of events within separation, like progressive happening/change. Reaction is the start of separation. Reaction is opposing plan/path/virtue.