Like Balm To My Soul...

Friday June 30th 2017 I closed on my property! With very little but my need I went out on a limb for I had nothing to lose and everything to gain. I was without a home to call my own, I had No job, No major book sales, No considerable income, No good credit but I did have a small level of faith, a crazy idea that just might work, and a willingness to put forth the action and work needed to achieve my goal.

I have truly had some fun filled last couple of days. Lets get to it! Okay so I tried to get Mini A (my baby boy) to try one of those food packs that the toddlers suck through a straw like a beverage but it's really food (crazy right) weeelllll my son was not having it...lol! He played with my emotions a little like he was going to eat it then he'll smile and reject it at every turn. So I'm like okay I'm a boss I got this cause I refuse to let a 8 month old make me cry! Like a champ I decided to take...

it...lol! He played with my emotions a little like he was going to eat it then he'll smile and reject it at every turn. So I'm like okay I'm a boss I got this cause I refuse to let a 8 month old make me cry! Like a champ I decided to take...

​I'm BACK!!!! I am sure you are wondering who I am and where have I been? Well...I am an independent author of five motivational books titled "Inspired2prosper, Morning Cup of Jo, Fat Girl Pick Your Head Up, Release & Unleash, Letters From A Desperate Heart" and the "That's Some Kid" children book series. I aspire to make every bestselling list to include New York Time, USA Today, and Amazon. Also, I am a single mother to two wonderful children. Where Have I been? For the greater part of 2016 I spent most of my days and nights caring for my son who was first born 4 months early, when born he then spent 3 1/2 months in the NICU, when he was discharged I had to learn how to acclimate myself back to regular life (still learning), Now that he will soon be 9 months old I realized that not only is it time but I am ready...ready to win! 2017 is the year that I will take back everything plus more that was taken from me! In this year I will see the manifestation of every dream dreamed and every vision seen! Because I desire to share this journey I have decided to yet again try my hands at blogging (pray for me). I will focus on my love of purpose, inspiration, cooking, parenthood, health, wealth, life, travel, my enjoyment of outdoors, and the pursuit of purchasing my homestead.​Life starts and stops with me and my decisions therefore I will no longer allow fear or negative thinking to hinder, stop, or slow down my progress! I know what it feels like to be down and I refuse to be down anymore! It is kicking down door season....

In this moment I feel…I feel indescribable. I never truly have the words to express the feeling that comes over me when I am operating in the dream, purpose, and vision that God has released and allowed me to flow in. However there is one emotion that I can clearly identify “excitement” well there is also a second “nervousness” I just want to do my best and be my best…

When you feel like you can’t that is when you must push yourself even harder for if you don’t, defeat will overcome your aspirations leaving in its path remnants of what could have been.

This morning while on my personal face-book page I was struck by how unsupportive most of the individuals are, though some are in the process of growing their own business they show no support towards anyone else’s. Over half ignore the post I put up so I wonder why I even consider them a friend. Do we use the word friend to loosely?

My brother once told me that "they are your audience" but as it relates to my personal life I don’t need an audience. If you want to view me then inspect me from the stands like everyone else but if you want to interact than by all means I welcome you for at this stage of my life I choose to no longer give front row seats to back row moochers…

Despite the borderline harshness I do believe every negative experience has the potential to be turned to a positive so it is imperative that I not inadvertently allow bitterness to set; which in turn will hinder my growth therefore inviting my own downfall.

Don't become disenchanted If you feel that you are not receiving the support that you desire for if you don't give up you eventually will reach what previously seemed to be unattainable...

As I sit where many have referred to as my “place of solace” I feel anything but. Loneliness surely appears at the most inopportune times for as of late it has been popping up more often than not. What can I do? What can I say? How much longer will this last? I make peace with my situation or whether my lack of just for the next day to come upon me and I feel the same way. I have no prospects, no choices, it’s all nonsense.

Where are the men who not only know what they want but are unafraid to go after it while still having the security in self to appreciate a woman who reciprocates the same for herself? Where is the guy that I am not only attracted to when I first meet him but is able to converse about something more than sex? who actually wants to communicate with good conversation not send sporadic three word texts, who loves the Lord and understands my desire to abstain until marriage, who will take me to greater levels and I him, who realizes, understands, and still excepts the sometime complexity of my inner as well as the imperfection of my outer.

In my field of work I have learned that at times I have to be aggressive, bold, and unafraid which trickles down into the way I approach my personal life. though I am an old school traditionalist at times I find myself having to be the one stepping up and taking the proverbial reins leading the horse if you may…But why? Are men so weak now days that they cannot even bother themselves to exert the energy needed to initiate anything?

I was just contacted by an individual who read my new book “Morning Cup of Jo.” He stated that we met Saturday, he read the book and it truly inspired him to “get off my a** and do something” his words not mine…lol! He proceeded to say that “you should be an inspirational speaker” ;-) (Not knowing that I already am) and if I had any other books or projects I was working on...

I am so thankful to be told that my book inspired another for it means that I successfully accomplished what I set out to do which is to effect positive change in one’s life by way of encouraging them to continue pursuing their God given dream, vision, and/or goal…

I am learning so much about myself good and bad. Saturday I was a part of a wonderful event that I almost missed out on due to anger. Earlier Saturday morning before the event something extremely small happened that caused me to overreact and I proceeded to throw down my purse forgetting that my phone was in there and yes I broke it.

The frustration i felt after realizing that all my anger did was successfully hurt me. Distraught and disappointed I wanted to give up, yet the Lord spoke to my heart "there is no condemnation in Christ." So by faith (it had to be by faith because I felt so guilty) I asked the Lord for forgiveness, proceeded to the event that I almost chose not to attend and went to work. And I am happy to report that in spite of my attitude the Lord still blessed me and showed me favor. I met several wonderful people, made great contacts, and sold several books :-) .

Incidents will arise that will almost make you want to throw up your hands and say “forget it” but don’t allow difficulty to dissuade you from your goal for it is your daily decisions that determines your life path…

Today as I was given the mail I noticed that one of the letters I received was from Barnes&Noble and instantly two very different feelings overcame me, Joy and gloom. Like the college student waiting for their letter of acceptance I just knew this was my letter of rejection.

You see I did what was required to actually have my book in the Barnes & Noble store feeling good I mailed out all the paper work requested and today I would find out yea or nay. As I read the customary garbage they include at the beginning of a letter my heart plummeted for they decided not to add "Inspired2prosper- It's Never Too Late To Turn A Dream or An I Wish Into A Reality" to their shelves. The reason was that my book lacked the title information on the spine of the book which caused them to believe that the title would essentially disappear in the sea of books.

Though rejection is a way of life it still does not cause it to hurt any less. I won’t give up I can’t give up for I have something to reach for, nothing to lose, and everything to gain.

Tuesday was a major day for me. Why was it so major? For starters I finally overcame all the excuses, roadblocks, and obstacles and made contact with four bookstores and successfully left my tittles with three of them. You would never believe how nervous I was just to enter the first store, so many excuses popped in my head on why I should do it later. I was literally sitting in the parking lot telling myself I should leave, you don’t look professional enough, you are not prepared, the book is not up to par, and what if people start staring at you.

Yes I was all up in my head, but I made myself get out the car and started combating those defeatist thoughts with self motivating power thoughts and made through the front door to find out that it was not that serous after all. After the first the remaining three bookstores were a breeze. I thank God that I did not allow that fear to rule me because at this very moment both books are under review to be placed in a brick and mortar store. I am so excited about the possibilities of what can be that I can barely focus…lol

Remember taking the small steps to make your dream a reality is better than taking none at all, for the steps already taken are like seeds that will eventually sprout ushering in your harvest...

The Journey

This is my life unimpeded, unafraid and unashamed, on a journey from impoverishment to prosperity in every area!Please note: I have never claimed to be a Literary Scholar so there will possibly be grammatical errors