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She laced up her shoe
And popped her earbuds in
She pressed play
And walked out the door
She needs to clear her head
And she needs to run
She gets to the end of her street
And trend down the next
Her running picked up
As her thoughts got more in depth
She finally had to slow down
Her breathing was ragged
She leaned over her knees
To catch her breath
And someone knocked her down
Before she could turn around
They kicked her ribs
Knocking more wind out of her
They kicked her at least 10 times
Before stepping on her ankle
She felt it snap under the weight
She tried to move
But the pain pinned her down
A foot slid under her body
And it kicked her over
She saw the man standing over her
He smirked at her
Then spit in her eyes
He pulled his foot back
And kicked her in the head
Spit on her again
Then walked away
Leaving her there
Like she was yesterday’s trash.

There lies the girl
Who smiles and giggles
And just about anything
She never passed up
The chance to sing a song
She goes out of her way
To cheer her friends up
Her heart is 10Xs the size it should be
But there she lies
Her eyes are unmoving
Her body has lost its animation
She lies there in her own blood
Everyone looks down upon her
They shake their head at her
Because she was a coward
She was a nothing
Because of what she did.

She threw herself on her knees
Tears pouring from her eyes
His back was to her
And he was walking away
He was sick of her shit
Sick of her flip flopping
Sick of her talking back
This time she went too far
Please, I love you
She pleads to his back
No one else will love me
Like you do
He turns to her and looks at the mess
She has become
He’s never seen her so disheveled
He can see the sincerity in her eyes
Hear the hurt in her voice
He can’t bare to look at her anymore
He turns his back to her again
His breathing hitches
And he walks out the door.

The darkness is wrapped
Around me like a blanket
My body is weak
It’s betrayed me
My thoughts
Are dark like my surroundings
They are malicious and vicious
These thoughts
Have been banned from my mind
So why are they here now
These are the thoughts
That always required an action
It’s the only way
It’s what will make it better
I don’t need to see
To do what has to be done
The knife is already in my hand
And nothing else will make this better.

I question..
My looks
My weight
My feelings
Never understanding
What inner beauty
Or outer beauty was
But only thinking
That I’m worthless
And that I will never be anything..
But you didn’t help
You told me
I was stupid…
You asked me
Why I was fat….
You told me
That no one likes a girl like me…
It took a few years
But I finally feel some confidence
In myself as a human being
It’s hard to maintain it
Around you… But I need to
I need to keep myself where I am
Because I spent days
Building myself up
Which then turned into years
And it got me to where I am today
No thanks to you
And your painful ways
You try to burn me back down.