2.09.2016

I just texted my boyfriend to ask if he will be with me for Val Day (he has plans the night before which are away at the casino, yes i know it seems weird i had to ask, but when he gets on those tables...) He said he will & i immediately answered with "ok, great! I'll make dinner!" then i asked him what he'd like to eat.. then i thought for a moment...

maybe it would be much more romantic if he did all the planning for Val Day. Let him figure it out. i promised him a certain "favour" & i've already purchased him a sweet gift, but i think that is the point of Val Day, isn't it? being out of the ordinary, romance wise.

i think i'd like a day where maybe i'm swept off my feet a bit. i do wish he wasn't going away the night before & i'll be spending the day before very busy as well (why are you a Sunday, Val Day?!!) but that's just what it is.

Let's look at that a bit. My immediate thought was that i should do something to please him. This is in no way a reflection of him. he has never made me feel that i should "serve" him.

However, there is one thing that i don't think M even really totally realizes:

i never really have had a real valentine'd day

why?

My Mother's bday is Feb 14 - Val Day - so, when i was growing up & had boyfriends in high school & even middle school, even into college i was with my mom for her bday on feb 14. when i was with X, i'm sure we did stuff, but i can't even remember, so it couldn't have been great.

TBH there are two Val Days that stick out in my mind...

1. Valentine's Day: Age: uhhh... 6th grade, so... i think it was 1997 & i was... 11? i didn't get to go out ON Val Day, but i was taken out for my first ever Val Day date. K (name hidden) & i were driven to the movies by his dad. when we parked at the movie theatre, he handed me a topazy type stone (red) in the shape of a heart & a Hershey's chocolate bar. his father (such a sweet guy) dropped us off & said he'd be back to get us. We went in & he bought my ticket to see The Wedding Singer (wait whilst i fact check... HA ok, it was 1998 - thank you Google) & i remember we laughed because the story takes place in Ridgefield, NJ & we lived in Ridgefield, CT - however, the guy sitting in front of me was tall & i'm hella short, so his head perfectly blocked the "NJ" part & so, obviously, being 11, i ignored the blatant cues to new jersey & i just assumed the movie was set in my home town... there was no kiss, there was no anything, i doubt we even held hands. (dude, i was 11. c'mon) but it was sweet & special & i'll remember it forever

2. last year. i moved into my house on the 11th (i think, google can't help me fact check that one) & i believe i was sick a few days after & M had come over & brought be a single rose to cheer me up bc i was sick. i'd struggled to find a vase at this new home & ended up putting it in a Guinness glass. Then, the night before Val Day, he went to the casino (woah, pattern?) & i went out to over the days prior to pick up a few sweet things for my new boyf (we'd been together a month & a half at this point) - the biggest thing, in my eyes, that i got him was a toothbrush. (ya, seems lame, but if you're a girl, it's kind of like giving a ring, it's commitment, it's one step below a key or the password to your phone, or your pin number. BTW, he has/knows all of those...) - So, i made this ridiculous trail of love notes from my door (which i left unlocked so he would come to my house after i went to sleep & climb into bed) & there were elaborate notes, decorations & even a gift hanging from the other end of my door to hang in his face if he opened the door so he couldn't miss it... well, turned out he didn't come over whilst i slept... so obviously me, being the anxious freak i am, i kept waking up thru the night checking the clock & my phone, but nothing. M wasn't there...

then, the next day, real Val Day, he showed up with apologies for not being there the night before & with a build a bear Hello Kitty & a rose. HK was also totally naked other than a heart shaped "I <3 U" pillow she was holding & HK slippers on her feet.

I've always loved that he thought to go buy accessories for her, but the idea of clothing her didn't even pass thru his mind. how cute. how genuine. how real. he just saw what he wants to get or how he wanted to show me love & didn't even think "oh, well i need to spend $20 on a dress or an outfit of some kind because i can't give her a naked build a bear" - no, he tossed that to the wind - here's you HK i made you, she's naked & free!!! not only that, he remembered that i had mentioned to him how i wanted a kitten named Edgar. he couldn't totally remember the name Edgar (can't blame him, the name has been used ONCE in like 300 years that anyone knows about) so he typed in "Egnot" on the birth certificate for my HK build a bear. i also remember saying to him "she's naked!" & he basically shrugged in a "who cares? I LOVE YOU" type of way. Then, this is the important part, i asked him if the build a bear ppl made him jump up & down & spin around & do all the silly stuff - most importantly, kiss the heart. - to this he replied "She's got two, one for me, one for you, i kissed them both".......... ::swoon::

Valentine's Day is a lot of different things to everyone. some are cynical saying it s a Hallmark holiday. to me it's so many things. it's a day of love, for sure. but it's also my Moms birthday, my dogs birthday, one of my BFFs moms birthday (same year as my mom, how weird!) & it's the day that a boy had his dad drive us to the moves to see an Adam Sandler film & it's the day another boy didn't care about conventions & gave me a hello kitty doll, even though i was 28 years old, because he knew it was something that i'd love & he put two hearts. one for me, one for him.

2.08.2016

just for clarification, i've been trying to get back on the blog for soooo long. when i initially set up the blog a million years ago, i did so under some stupidly weird email address. it wasn't until after i had the blog going that i made the email address Spankyluvsit@gmail.com (contact me, btw) which sounds unbelievably weird, i know, but it's true & it's been a constant headache forever.

however! now i have my actualy spankyluvsit@gmail connected to the blog as an admin. i will be posting as "Sara" (my real name! ::gasp!::) because it sucks ass to have to go from a google account i don't use, to one i DO use over & over.

I don't expect anyone to actually still be checking after the five years I haven't blogged, but i'm hoping to revamp a bit.

I've changed so much in the past five years & i'm hoping with a bit of a face lift (& no, i haven't aged THAT much in five years) this blog can grow to fit who I am now.

I'm still on twitter as @Spankyluvsit & have been actively tweeting (even if it's not too often, i have a job, y'know) & i'm on Instagram with the same name, Spankyluvsit.

There are a few things i'mi newly obsessed with, which i will be posting about soon :)

A big goal of mine for this new year, 2016, is to get back into the blog world & with the re-entry, i plan to do it right. post small & often. no more overwhelming 90 page posts that take me so long to write that i end up not even being able to post at all.

a few quick points:

I'd moved to Cali back when i'd kinda tapered off the blog world. i moved back to CT in 2012. I've found my place here a bit more, but god damn it, i still hate the fucking snow.

I am no longer with the guy who i weirdly called "Bazinga". We moved back from Cali together but broke up a few years later.

I've been at the same job since Sept of 2012 (more on that later)

I'm with an amazing new guy. M is amazing & i'll be posting about him plenty, i'm sure. (or maybe not? is that bad karma, perhaps?)

I live in a house with one roommate & my ADORABLE kitten, Edgar. He will definitely be a topic of many posts.

I've been a part of my first ever art show & hope to have my own exclusive show this year. (my etsy shop is still down... long story)

i've become obsessed with true crime. books, podcasts, movies, documentaries (yes, i've seen Making a Murderer three times & i'll be posting all about that... like everyone else in the world), shows, websites, everything. it will def be a huge topic.

I'm starting a new project called Housegirlfriends. I have the website URL, but need to get started on the actual site & will be asking for contributors. more to come on this.

ok. i'm sticking to my pledge. i'm posting this after five years & more attempts than i can even tell you to figure out what the hell my f'n login was for this blog!

if anyone knows how to reassign a blog to another gmail account, please TELL ME!!

12.16.2011

there's not enough time in the world to update everything that's happened...

so.. highlights?

-as most of you knew, i had moved to California to live with my boyfriend, Travis (aka "Bazinga Baby").
-couldn't stand my roommate
-lost my car :(
-got a job as a Leasing Consultant at the Community i lived at, Parkwood, in Irvine, CA. The job only lasted a few months because it was a summer position... but i liked it, leased a lot of apartments, made some good money, met some good people, bought some wicked cute work clothes, made some friends...
-made some HUGE strides with my etsy shop, which i changed the name of, from Twitterpated Pretty to Sara McCobb Hubbell Designs

-developed a beloved character, lil miss, whom i've taken through some pretty rough times, & have been really luving drawing her, painting her & sharing her woes with the world.

-went back to CT in August for Trav's cousins wedding (which was actually in Boston). The wedding was BEAUTIFUL & we had a great time!
-turned 25.... ::indifferent::
-got a Red Bull fridge, & a beautiful patio set from a friend, who, sadly, moved to NorCal soon after we started hanging out more :(

the biggest change of all...

*we got on the road again, yesterday, Thursday, December 15th, with all of our shit (well, most of it... 675lbs worth, to be exact, was on a pallet, shipped) on our way moving BACK to CT*

::indifferent::

So, now i'm in a really crappy motel room in Santa Rosa, NM, about to have a "house salad" from a rando pizza place, the only one that would deliver, which "doesn't have menus"... -umm?-... & watch Anchorman for the millionth time, while Trav eats the most amazing looking pizza that i can't have bc it'll gimme a tummy ache all day tomorrow.

::dammit trav, please stop making those fucking "yummy noises"!::

the biggest, most important thing, at the moment, is that i'm on InstaGram (same name, Spankyluvsit) updating BEAUTIFUL photos & i'm also TWEETING the WHOLE trip (@Spankyluvsit).