~guido's Zen On Romance~Just as I see it.....
~Men always want to be a woman's first love. Women have a more subtle instinct: What they like is to be a man's last romance.
~As a Rose absorbs the nutrients it feeds on and as it thrives to see the sun as it must to survive...... the Rose becomes more beautiful and in turn will provide sunshine to those who can behold it's beauty. Fortunate is the Man who can see the Rose within a Woman. Blessed is the man who this Woman holds to be her nutrient, her sunshine.
~Give her two red roses, each with a note. The first note says For the woman I love and the second, For my best friend.
~Jealousy is the only vice that gives no pleasure.
~As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you.
~Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly.
~You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her
~Sometimes the heart

Quote Of The Day."There are no stupid questions, just stupid people." "Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway." "There was a part of me That I lost when I was seventeen I can't get back The innocence I gave to scenes In between Jersey plays Was just an act"
-Life Is Not A Waiting Room by Senses Fail

Beware Fu_scammer!!A man name Whitewolf user ID http://fubar.com/user/452323 Is going around asking for people''s yahoo ID's and passwords to all their sites.. please DO NOT!! Trust his man!!>... DO NOT add him to your pages!.. zinwin270 is his yahoo ID

Ancient BreedAncient Breed
Seems like many who were raised the way i was have gone or passed. To many times i am told Gentlemen do not exsist, Well i am here to say that we do . I will speak for many we do not honor those who set such bad examples of behavior.
1. beating women
2. Abuse
Everyday i see many ladies talking about how they wont trust men or that they have built a high wall due to the past.
But ladies is it that fair to judge all do to others ? Is it not the pot calling the kettle black to assume it is just Men who are in that nature .... For us men to have been through trying times in relationships .... Cheating ,lying, abuse People are just beasts in all shapes and forms no person can say they are truly that one person who doesnt do anything wrong it is in our BLOOD the temptation and the need for the rush the flow of power and ANIMOSITY some times overpowers even the most strongwilled person .
Men you are no exception to this for we to make many judgement calls

Searching For MePONDERING....
As I sit and wonder what will tomorrow bring ...
are any of us really sure ... or do we just guess ....
do we wake in the morning and decide today the day
i am going to have a shitty day ...
or i think will I find true love
does anyone ever really know ...
what tomorrow brings ...
could I WAKE up to see my kids one last time and walk out the door
just to never see them ever again ...
I often wonder where are u now
who would u be...
and would i still be in ur heart ...
do u ever wonder where I am
who I became ...or remember me as I was
every night I close my eyes ...in search that maybe
when I wake u might still be there
but then when I do ..i knew that wouldnt be
ever wonder why ur afraid of things
why are people afraid of love
I had friend that was afraid to live ...never had the courage...
to fight for herself ....
every man that claimed to love her ... left with no intension of returning....beat up her heart ...and before she reali

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Stupid Peoplejust when i thought people could not be more stupid there is someone alwasys to prove me wrong someone yesterday called me a female
ok where the hell do you get female as my gender iam sure my pics could tell you that ur wrong also the state i live in as well
if you come to my profile just to look at my pics with out reading it you well be block iam tire of telling what already in my profile at first it did not borther me but after you get 10 people asking the same shit with out reading its enuff to piss someone off

Back Home!Just wanted to let everyone know I'm back around. I had left for about a month and went to Indiana to spend time w/my kids and other family. Was stuck up there w/no internet or anything, pretty much completely out of reality. Yeah, I know, blah, blah, blah. Anyway, if you wanna know anything else, or even give a shit, hit me up and we can chat.

Chartless {by: Emily Dickinson}
CHARTLESS
BY: EMILY DICKINSON
I NEVER SAW A MOOR,
I NEVER SAW THE SEA;
YET KNOW I HOW THE HEATHER LOOKS,
AND WHAT A WAVE MUST BE.
I NEVER SPOKE WITH GOD,
NOR VISITED IN HEAVEN;
YET CERTAIN AM I OF THE SPOT,
AS IF THE CHART WERE GIVEN.

The Reason I Love YouI love you because you make me happy I love you because you make me feel safe and secure I love your smile I love the way you say my name I love the look in your eyes when you tell me you love me And how you laugh at me when I do something stupid, when others would put me down. I love the fact that when I'm around you I can be myself and not worry about what you may think of me, because I know you love me for who I am. No matter what my faults may be. I love being able to wake up with you by my side... It makes my days better At night I love watching you sleep, hearing you take each breath, and feeling your heart beat with the palm of my hand... reality hits that you are not a dream YOU ARE MINE. I love the way you wrap your arms around me and hold me really tight, like there is no tomorrow And I love the way I feel when your lips barely touch mine for a kiss, the love and emotions that go through me at that moment are unexplainable. I love your laugh I love hearing your voice I love

HollywoodI don't know if anyone else has noticed this, but Hollywood really seems to be grasping for movie ideas. It seems that everything that comes out it now is a remake, based on a t.v. show, or a book, or a comic. Seriously, what happened to writing an actual script? I'm not saying I don't like some of these movies, but really, was there a need to remake Texas Chainsaw Massacer? And of course then there is the fact that they want to remake Evil Dead. You can't do that...that's just sick!
Anyways, I know that it can be neat to see a book or a comic done up on the big screen...but come, give us some new ideas. Rambo was based on a book, Die Hard was based on a book, and so many movies have been based on Stephen King books that it's redic. Of course, when a movie is made out of a book, they usually stray greatly. I was suprised at how close "No Country for Old Men" was.
On that note, stop making so many damn movies out of books. Let people read. I mean come on, I'm not a Harry Po

"submission" ......... Part IAugust in Florida is always torrid, especially in the southern part of the state, and he could not help but sweat. Not from the weather, since he was still inside the conditioned air of the house, but from the beat of his heart. It had been racing for weeks, but today it was damned near fibrillating. Today he was going to finally meet her after months of online chats. Deep inside, he had felt like he met his soul mate the first time they talked, but now was the real test. For some reason he felt like a high school kid going on his first date again. His thoughts strayed over the past few months as he showered and bathed himself with trembling hands.
It had all started so innocently. They had met in one of those popular game/chat room combinations that everyone seems to frequent. Often he would meet a woman, or a man posing as a woman (one thing about cybersex, one never has to know, and one can pass all bounds of reality) and go directly to cybersex hell, feeling unfulfilled after, an

MiracleYou're my life's one Miracle,Everything I've done that's goodAnd you break my heart with tenderness,And I confess it's trueI never knew a love like this till you....You're the reason I was bornNow I finally know for sureAnd I'm overwhelmed with happinessSo blessed to hold you closeThe one that I love mostWith all the future has so much for you in storeWho could ever love you more?The nearest thing to heaven,You're my angel from aboveOnly God creates such perfect loooooveWhen you smile at me, I cryAnd to save your life I'll dieWith a romance that is pure heart,You are my dearest partWhatever it requires,I live for your desiresForget my own, needs will come beforeWho could ever love you more?Well there is nothing you could ever do,To make me stop, loving youAnd every breath I take,Is always for your sakeYou sleep inside my dreams and know for sureWho could ever love you more?

BoredIs anyong going out this weekend? wanna party it up with me? let me know :)

Carrieis anyone fed up about these people putting down carrie prejean cos of the photo she did when she was 17 i mean that was 3 yrs ago let it go she should keep her title and she is free to speak her mind this a free country buy the way...

~love...random Guido Open Words~~Take My Hand....
and Walk with Me...
~From Where We Are....
to Where We'll Be....
~Love is a Mystery...
~We'll Learn what Life is....
as We Go...
~No Map...No Answers...
~All I know is this:
I Love You So.....
Peace.

Success Is Waiting To HappenWhen we see someone successful, we say that he just got lucky.'He must have been at the right place at the right time.'People only see one side of the picture.People don't see the failures.If you study history, you will find that -All stories of success are also stories of great failures.So if you are failing; Remember, success is waiting to happen

Free Massages At Work?I have the greatest supervisor in the world. Curt, aka boss-man is so f-ing awesome.
He trained me right before he became supervisor. He's so smart, and he's a smart ass. lol
He's approved all 3 of my vaca days as soon as i handed him the vaca slips.
I've trained him as well. I ask him "Curt, what do I always tell you?" and he says "don't be a dick, be a dude."
LMAO.
Boss-man's the shit!! So after 2 nights in a row of getting post-ops back and having them tank within 30 minutes of anesthesia leaving, the stress level was a wee bit high.
But the big-wigs decided to pay respect to all us ICU/CCU nurses and we all got free massages at work this morning. lol
Gotta love nurse appretiation week!!! So I can't even go to Meijer with out thinking about my buddy Matt from work.
We went to Meijer on night so he could pick up a wii, and as we were walking out we passed the flower display. There were some orchids out and I stopped and looked at them. So Matt says "awww, you are a girl!" To

Squirting OrgasmI lay back and let him do as he pleased. My legs spread wide apart and my hands tied behind my head to the bed.
He began by gently stroking my pussy. One finger just touching me running along my pussy. Slowly he pushed it inside me and began to slide it in and out very delicately.
The thumb touched my clit as he inserted two fingers into me. I had closed my eyes and begun to really enjoy the pleasures. He let his fingers move around inside me, his thumb gently rubbing against me. The pleasure I felt grew.
On the third finger he began to push a little harder and a little deeper. The slippy wet fingers reaching deeper inside and pushing against me more. I felt the rise of pleasure again and the anticipation. I felt teased. I wanted more. I knew it would come but he was going so damn slowly. I knew I couldn't ask for more or he'd stop. Those were the rules.
My brain begged but my mouth stayed shut. I could moan and enjoy all that he did but no pleas for something extra. He wanted to t

Adriftlost in the grand scheme of things forever in perpetual motion seeing but not seeing feeling but not feeling a constant battle of what is real or illusion adrift in a vast world of saints and sinners charlatans and the righteous always at my door wanting more giving nothing tearing me apart bit by bitter bit for their own selfish lustful needs never giving always taking filling my heart with sadness and angst leaving me to my inner chaos broken and alone

Fav Poem
I am troubled
Immeasurably
By your eyes
I am struck
By the feather
Of your soft
Reply
The sound of glass
Speaks quick
Disdain

Made A MistakeSo I asked this guy I'm deeply in love with for a break right... I just keep getting bad feelings everytime I'm not around him. I mean he hurt me once and now he hurt me again. But it's more my fault. All because I asked for a break. I needed time to think. Right now I lost my voice because I'm sick and been crying for the past week in a half. I know he loves me because I mean he even put me his number 1 when he never does for any female... But during our break he looked at females cams and looked at naked pictures while on here... which makes me mad... But then I know lots of people are saying I shouldn't since we on a break... But last night... last night made the break up official... I just can't take it no more... And if people think I'm a bitch then oh well... I was looking out for my heart... And like I said dozens of times if its meant to be we will find our way back to each other like we kept on for the past 5 years...

Brain?So I have to brag on my son's intellectual skills for a second. At bath time last night (grant you, MY SON IS FIVE) he begins to examine his private area...hehee...As he's discovering his "balls" for the millionth time (it's true you men NEVER stop playing with yourselves) he asks me, "Mommy, what are these things?" Stumped beyond belief on the most politically correct answer to give- I just kinda stood there in shock. He goes back to examining, and blurts out- "I know Mommy, it's my peepee's BRAIN!"
God bless my son and his HILARIOUS tactics that constantly keeps me rolling in the floor laughing. :D

My Own Lil Contest!LOL I am In my OWN contest and I need my friends help, I need you to rate and comment on my contest folder, If your not yet a friend please Rate Fan Add me (Only My Friends Can Few The Pic) after that I will send 1k to everyone that F/A/R's And Comments (No dirty or NSFW Comments your that person WILL be deleted from my friends list AND Blocked! Thanks for your help! Thanks Again ~*MysticLadyWolf~*

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New Moon Movie NewsOfficial New Moon Poster: Here it Is!
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Alice Cullen’s Yellow Porsche for New Moon Discovered!
May 20, 2009 · View comments198 Comments
in Italy Set
The yellow Porsche that Alice will drive in New Moon has been discovered in Montepulciano, Italy! Ale at TwilightersItalia sends in this report–
The big man you can see in some pictures is one of the stuntmen. He had an Alice wig, a bandana, a couple of elbow high red gloves, and seemingly from far he actually looked like our loved little vampire/pixie.
Mauro secretly told us that there are two yellow porsche in Montepulciano, placed in different places of the town. As they were not exactly identical, one had yellow brake pad cover and another had them red, Production was willing to spend to the incredible amount of €5800 PER PIECE to have them all red!!!

Erotic PoemsTaking your hand Fingers to my lips I want to love every inch of you Taste every part of your body As if I can drink your loves blood Through your very pores I want to get lost in your eyes Consumed by your kiss Set my body on fire Quench the fire in my blood With sweet caresses Touch my soul with your passion Lay down beside me Feel my body crying for you Let's get lost in each other Touching, exploring, tasting We will exceed passion, go beyond bliss For this is our night Want me, like no other Need you, like the air that I breathe Together, one mind, one soul Fused in the heat of passionate love Existing in this moment Forever I don't have much to give you in the way of material things. But then, I have never been a material person . . . so it wouldn't matter much anyway. I do have something to give you, though . . . and I hope you accept this gift with joy. I have chosen not to wrap it . . . I want it to be presented to you as pristine as can be. And anyway, decorations or wrapp

What The Twilight Saga Is AboutBreaking Dawn
Alice: "I'll play you for it. Rock, paper, scissors."Edward: "Why don't you just tell me who wins?"Alice: "I do. Excellent."
Bella: "Oh, Mike! How will I go on?"
Tanya: "Ah, Edward. I've missed you."
Emmett: "Oooo, scary."
Bella: "Jasper? What do vampires do for bachelor parties? You're not taking him to a strip club, are you?"
Charlie: "Bells, we're up to bat."
Edward: "You're awfully small to be so hugely irritating."
Bella: "Why am I covered in feathers?"
Alice: "No one will dare to call you plain when I'm through with you."Bella: "Only because they're afraid you'll suck their blood."
Edward: "Oops."
Renee: "Alice wouldn't let us do anything else. Every time we tried, she all but ripped our throats out."
Edward: "Do you want me to sing to you? I'll sing all night if it will keep the bad dreams away."
Rosalie: "Over my pile of ashes."
Edward: "You look so guilty—like you've committed a crime."

Sunrise And Sunset In The HorizonSo I will start from the scratch and slowly making waves and hit the summit of success! I’m wounded, bleeding, groping in pain and yet sorrow and grief accompany my injury. I’m like an innocent yearling about to be sheared, to be slaughtered. I’m like a soul floating in the chilly winds of unchartered horizons, like the dust troubling itself in the long winding road. Yet my spirit is being lifted by a pure heavenly soul. I feel like I’ traversing from the blood and tears of the fiery hell to the realms of uncertainty of purgatory to the gates of boundless of mercy, affection and happiness of heaven. Paradise and ultimate joy is in sight but still far to come yet I keep on moving, I keep on walking until I reach it and finally come to my final destination where I can see my life, live and spend my life and until my life on earth is over.
Life for me is a constant struggle, struggling towards an ultimate goal,despite the hardships and difficulties and most

TimeTHERE COMES A TIME IN YOUR LIFE
WHEN CHOICES ARE HARD AND IT CAN MESS WITH YOUR MIND
AND WHEN THAT TIME COMES, YOU HOPE THAT YOU HAVE
THE ONE'S THAT HAVE BEEN THERE THROUGH THE GOOD AND THE BAD
THEY ARE THE ONES THAT YOU CAN TELL JUST ABOUT ANYTHING
AND THEY ARE THE ONES THAT DON'T JUDGE CAUSE YOUR WEARING A RING
THEY WOULD BE THERE IF YOU CALLED AND NOT EVEN THINK WHY THEY DID
FOR THEY ARE THE ONES THAT I HOPE I COULD CALL MY FRIENDS
SO WHEN THAT TIME COMES AND I KNOW IT IS
I AM GONNA HATE TO HAVE TO LEAVE ALL MY FRIENDS
I WILL NOT GET TO TALK AS MUCH BUT YOU CAN BET YOUR ASS I WILL STAY IN TOUCH
FOR THOSE WHO HAVE TOUCHED ME IN DIFFERENT WAYS
IT IS GOING TO PAIN ME TO GO ARE SEPERATE WAYS
SO TO MY FRIENDS I SAY THIS YOU ALL WILL BE DEEPLY MISSED......jro

PoemYou will never know the pain you have caused me
You were my best friend
And you just stabbed me and left me to bleed
Your words were like daggers
I dont understand why you had to act like that
To push me away and not care
To throw away all the years we had together
To crush my heart
You never knew what you meant to me
And now you never will
You have injected hatred into my veins
And into my heart
My eyes will not cry for you anymore
My heart will not skip a beat for your friendship
For you have crushed everything of that existance
Never again will I allow you in
Dont think you can come around
That door has long ago shut
Not now and not ever
Im no longer there for you
You sit there alone on the bed
With thoughts running through your head
I walk up and kiss you softly
Running my fingers over your bare body
I lay you down and slide on top of you
So I can show you what I want to do
You wrap your lips around my nipple
Which are soft and supple
Th

Lmao~LOL~I, the penis, request a pay raise due to the following reasons:1) I do physical labor2) I work at great depths3) I plunge head first into everything I do4) I work weekends & holidays5) I work in damp environments6) I work in dark areas with poor ventilation7) I work in high temperatures8) .. and my work exposes me to diseaseDear penis, your request has been denied for the following reasons:1) You don't work eight hours straight2) You work in short spurts and fall asleep after each brief work period3) You don't stay in your designated work area, and are frequently found in other locations4) You don't take initiative and must be stimulated to start working5) You leave your work place messy at the end of your shift6) You are unable to work overtime or double shifts7) You sometimes leave your designated work are before completing the assigned task8) You have constantly been seen entering and exiting the work place with two suspicious bagsSincerely, Miss Snatch

Harleygirls LifeI am so excited. I got tickets to see Metallica in concert! Even tho I have seen Metallica before..I have managed to get center stage tickets this time!!
Now I just have to wait till the concert. Its not til December..lol.
Stop by my profile and say hello. You can never have too many friends : )

~help Yourself~I've always liked Tom Jones' music and Sensuality....this is one of my Faves.....'Help Yourself'.....words that resonate Passions I feel. Hope you enjoy it and smile. It's first on my playlist right now.......Peace
Love is like candy on a shelf You want to taste and help yourselfThe sweetest things are there for youHelp yourself, take a fewThats what I want you to do.Were always told repeatedlyThe very best in life is freeAnd if you want to prove its trueBaby Im telling youThis is what you should doJust help yourself to my lipsTo my arms just say the word, and they are yoursJust help yourself to the love,In my heart your smile has opened up the doorThe greatest wealth that exists in the world,Could never buy what I can giveJust help yourself to my lipsTo my arms, and then lets really start to liveAllllllllll right. yeahMy heart has love enough for twoMore than enough for me and youIm rich with love, a millionaireIve so much, its unfairWhy dont you take a share

Dennismy marriage is really rough i dont know what is going to happen have tried to do everything to make my wife happy but just cant there r days when she acts maddly in love and days she acts like she cant stand me i dont know what to do im confused does any one have any advise if so i would love i dont have any one to talk to all her family is here mine is in california please help lol11111
hi guys im a married man in canton ill im a father of 3 and we have olot going on in life .im hopeing that things will gey better before long i was hurt and have not been able to work for at least the past 2 years i went from sixty thousand year to nothin do to some things i dont wont to get in to .lets just say disability has to payback evrything since august of 07 to the day the judge sees it they have made my suffer for a long time it my turn my kids deserve it my wife and i .im not sure what blog is i thought it was something this if not sorry please tell me what it is

True Love~~you know ur in love when u cant fall asleep because reality is finally better than ur dreams~~
Im writing this because I cant sleep! He has taken over my every thought and I feel like I have just won the lottery! Everyday I ask myself "How did I get so lucky?" I have finally found the perfect man! My Prince Charming! After a failed marriage and 4 yrs. of hell in an abusive relationship My Time has finally come to be Happy!! He tells me I'm beautiful when I know I look like crap, he kisses my forehead and gently holds my face as he kisses me(and OH how he kisses me!), he holds my hand for no reason, he enjoys fascinating 420 moments with me, he joined fubar and hurried up to level 10 just so he could own me, he downloads and listens to music hes never heard of just because I like it, he made me a cd of his fav songs to me, he told me right off that he was falling in love with me and wasn't scared of saying it, he watches stuff I like just to learn more about me, he drives 45 min each

Sensuality~
He breathed her in deeply as he closed his eyes. She smelled of woman and girl, all sexy and innocent like a flower waiting to be opened - if that were possible all at once. He drew close to her slit and ran his knuckle over her mound. She had groomed as he had instructed: clean shaven lips and a small tuft at the top, neatly trimmed. Her cunt lips were thick and full, swollen almost. They covered all her parts, like a perfectly wrapped present for him to open. They looked succulent and he resisted the urge to pull them into his mouth."Now, my little slut. Reach down and hold open my new fuck toy. And make it wide so I can see your insides." She did as she was told and reached down, pulling her plump lips apart for him. She spread herself to reveal a beautiful rose-colored fuck hole, glistening with juices among the folds of her cavity. "Do you know how to milk a cock with your cunt?" he asked of her."Yes, Master, I do," she answered."Show me."She obeyed her Master, tightening and r

Inner Whore~She loved the way the air moved over her skin -- all of her skin -- every time she took a step. She was dressed, but the whole of her outfit was lace. All of her skin was breathing. A good thing as she was almost in a sweat due to her nerves and her arousal.She had dressed as instructed. She had awoken to find her clothes laid out for her in fact. When she'd arrived at his house yesterday after so many months of correspondence and telephone conversations, her nerves had been frayed to almost nothing. Together, they had enjoyed a leisurely dinner. They'd set together in front of his roaring fireplace, which took up the whole of one massive stone wall, sipping sweet wine and talking late into the night. She knew that this polite evening was constructed only for her benefit. After so much time spent getting to know one another, exchanging photographs and revealing secret fantasies and desires, she'd assumed that by the time they met there would be no reason to be nervous. Perhaps no reaso

Scening
They are to meet each other for the first time and she's nervous. She wonders if she will be able to please him as he wishes. She dreams about how to serve him, how to please him.They are face to face for the first time...she stands before him dressed in a short skirt, thigh highs, heels and a skimpy shirt that partially reveals the creamy fullness of her breast. He commands her to remove her clothes slowly as he watches and examines his new sub. She reaches around and unzips her skirt feeling the heat in her body start to rise as she thinks of what this is going to lead up to. Her body starting to tremble as the zipper moves it's way down and she slides it off and steps out of it.She places her hands on the bottom of the shirt and raises it up over her breast, he watches as he sees them starting to come into view...her nipples already getting hard from the combination of the air against her breast and the passions and desires that are welling up inside her. He reaches out and t

Lost~Dedicated to my fiance, Joy
The key to love is to understand, Spoken words and actions. Little things that say so much. The things that cause reactions. The key to love is to forgive. Accepting our mistakes, Not forgetting, but remembering, To cut ourselves some brakes. The key to love is to share, Fortunes good and bad. Facing things together, Will wipe away what's sad. The key to love is to give, Free and with your heart. Without a thought of a return, That's where love will start. The key to love is to respect, Each other's different views Together with a common bond, Inspire each other's muse. The key to love's inside us all, Patience unlocks the door. Learning is a lot of work, With love it's not a chore.
~W.H.~ 2009~

Hmmmm.......Well the other blog was a blast and I just wanted to thank everyone for joining in and playing :D
But it got me thinking... why do you or don't you post NSFW pics?
I go back and forth on posting them. It depends on how well I can control the pics and if I trust the people in the blog. Also I won't post anymore nsfw pics that show my face after having been burned before.
So what about you..... After a private convo with someone today it got me to thinking. I know, me thinking is a novel thing, lol. How well do we really make an effort to get to know people on here? Do we allow others to get to know us? Why does it seem like that people either share their whole life story or they give nothing away? How do we find a happy medium? I have pretty much closed my page down. I am bored and disappointed with fubar so it is time for a break. The point whoring, the ignorant assholes. the drama, and the bitchiness no longer make this fun for me.
I will check in to clear messa

WtfI should know who I am by now, I walk, my record stands somehow
Been thinking of winter. Your name is the splinter inside me, while I wait...
I remember the sounds, of your November downtown, and I remember the truth, a warm December with you, but I dont have to make this mistake, no I dont have to live this way, if only I would wake...
I walk as though Ive been cleared by now, your voice is all I hear somehow, calling out winter, your voice is the splinter inside, me while I wait....
I remember the sound of your November downtown, I remember the truth, a warm December with you, but I dont have to make this mistake, and I dont have to stay this way, If only I would wake....
I could have lost myself in those rough blue waters in your eyes, and I miss you still...
I'll never forget the sound, of the last November downtown, and I remember the truth, a warm December without you.... Where do you go when the day is long?
And where does your heart beat, and who is wrong?
Why do I fee

Happy Mothers DayI'm sick and tired of your excusesCan't deal with living anymoreI'll give you reasons to continueWhile you lie writhing on the floorI'll wash away your liesAnd have you hyptotizedThere'll be no compromise todayI'll share your life of shameI think you know my nameI'll introduce myself todayI'm the demon alcohol (demon alcohol)I'll get youIf you could deal with your reflectionI'm sure you'd see into my eyesThere'll be no need for resurrectionLet's drink to people of the liesAlthough that one's too muchYou know ten's not enoughThere'll be no compromise todayI'll watch you lose controlConsume your very soulI'll introduce myself todayI'm the demon alcohol (demon alcohol)Ha ha, demon alcohol (demon alcohol)Let's partyI'm sick and tired of resolutionsYou've quit me time and time againDon't speak of suicide solutionsYou took my hand, I'm here to stayThis time it's you or meI'll never set you freeThere'll be no compromise todaySo satisfy your lustToo much can't be enoughI'll introduce myself to

Fubar DramaJust wanted everyone to know i am deleting alot of people from my friends list. U can hit me up on yahoo and see if ur one and i will let you know. I am just so tired of all the drama people are starting and i don't have time for it anymore. I feel like i am in high school again and i hated it then so why would i want to do it all over again? if u dont have my yahoo message me on here and i will get back to u asap. ty all

Ive Got Class, On Beating Gods Assi have alot of aggression which lead to depression and lead to cutting to watch myself bleed for i am a evil seed that needed to find the path instead of going for a blood bath then people go telling that i am more of selling my soul to the devil..im taking it to the next level.
satan and god can kiss my ass cuz they are nowhere in my class, because of the emotion that god gave me and that satan tryed to take motion of causing sin of my cutting into my skin causing alot of pain that make you think"oh my god he is in the wrong lane" oh come on lad, it is actully good to be bad in this life that i should have takken away with a knife...but then there would be so much to miss,
like giving my girl a kiss and making her fill joy without a diss towards me wanting to be a monster
you look at someone and think good or bad..there are actully some who are grey

The Slut In MeMy yahoo ad is swtlildvlgrl, I'm doing xxx cam shows on yahoo! Wanna know more? PM me!
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Photos/picsok - heres the deal - first lady to do whatever it takes to get me 2500 pics will always be 100% drunk when im online, as well as have all their photos rated - individually.
i stand by that, and will uphold it.

Facebookjust wanted to let all my friends on here know that i havent been on here that much anymore cause it seems like if you dont have bling credits or auto 11's or cherry bombs your not worth that much to visit. what happen to the old way of going to someones page and rating there pictures. now people do the cherry bomb and there fore they dont take the time to actually look at your pictures that you post.well when im on here i cant bling people or cherry bomb but i do make the time to rate my friends and there pictures and i cant even get a rate so im taking some time off fubar to be with my family and friends outside of fubar and then when i come back im gonna start deleting alot of people that dont even know that im on there friends list. but those of you that actually read this and understand where im coming from i have opened a facebook account only because that site is nothing like fubar its not a contest to see who can level the fastest.and if your on facebook and want to add me feel

May 8th Live Auction And Cam In Room
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Just A Little About Me!For those of you who are dying to know, I am in a very committed relationship, but am always looking for a littel female to join my family. Friends are great, male or female and I am always looking forward to meeting new people! Drop me a line... I'll try to get back to you as I can.
I am fairly busy these days due to being a college student, and taking 17 credits! But I try to make time to join in on some good old fashioned fun!
Keep it real and love those who are closest to you!

Love Has No MeaningWhy after 16yrs of marreige m some thing like thisy wife decides she wants to sleep around. Kicked me out took all I had kids car home money. I never cheated she has I never drank or got drunk Never hit her or the kids I worked payed rent bills food on the table while she stayed home than all of the sudden she has an affair and gets std's thats not right I loved her with all my heart now I can't trust anyone again. It hurts to go thru something like this. She turned so cold fast it seems love has no meaning anymore.

Lyrics[Game]Since BIG aint here, I’mma do it for T’yannaAnd put roses on the grave for Kanye’s mamaThis for all the lost girls locked up in the penAll the girls that hold it down, gettin’ beat on by their manRespect women, I don’t care if they a 2 or a 10We don’t beat on Kat Stacks we just bring it to an endAnd we don’t wanna see Nicki fighting Lil KimThere’s missin’ women out there, let’s just focus on themThis song is dedicated to Natalee HollowayI feel for her Daddy, so I wrote this on Fathers DayI know she gone, but she aint far awayI just had a daughter, pass me that cigar ‘YeI’m about to tell a story, everybody parlaySit back, listen while I kick it, the Compton Boulevard wayMy daddy used to beat up on my mama all daySo I took my chronic out and slept in the hallwayI learned this the hard wayWhen police came our way, my daddy had his act onLike it never happened: (Broadway)Plus I was kinda scared to keep it real wi

New LifeAt one time it was kind of funny to see ourselves as the Addams Family a group of "misfits" ... but not any more
We are a Family of GOOD HONEST People who value friendships and HONOR our WORD.
I want US to hold TRUE to this
It would be real nice to hold to what my chats were originally meant to be ...
A place where people didnt have to take bullying from others and where EVERYONES ideas and feelings were respected and appreciated...
NOT someones ideas of how THEY see things to be nor will there be anymore bullying of friendships i.e. "if you dont see it my way I will just leave and no longer be a friend"
And there will be NO MORE manipulating friendships or insulting others and belittleing them until others decide they aren't liked and leave .
I personally will no longer allow ANYONE to manipulate me in order to keep their friendship...
NOONE is BETTER than the next...
NO MATTER WHAT STATION IN LIFE THEY ARE.
I don't care if you have more money than someone else or if you

The Animalyo this is the animal aka george. Bout me I'm cool untill people get on my nerves. Thats why you could say I'm a little unstable. But if the girl that can tame the beast come try. Talk to me and I'll talk back, but this pic I posted I was in a good mood. So anything you wanna know ask.

I Miss HimHere's a poem I wrote. I don't know what to name it yet. Please don't steal it but if you like it please let me know.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Honestly? I miss him.
I refuse to lie.
I miss the dreams we use to share.
I miss looking into his eyes.
I miss the smell upon his skin.
The way he use to taste.
The passion when we made love.
The gentleness in his embrace.
And though I may never see him again
Never hear his voice.
I still love him just as much.
This was not my choice.
And I hear he is a liar,
That I can believe.
I hear his ways are dyer.
And that I know I've seen.
Still, I wish he'd never left me,
Left the shelter of my wings.
But he wanted to be set free.
But used a trail of lies of all things.
I feel the man I loved has died,
His murderer taking his place,
And that he never lied.
When he said he loved me to my face.
So I'll miss him in the morning,
Every time I raise from bed.
I'll miss him every evening,
Every night I lay my head.
And

ClaustrophobiaI remember when Britney Spears was losing her mind and everyone took the oppertunity to take shots, I admit I took a couple myself but deep down I totaly understood. It's a lonely place to be fucked in the head and have no where to go. I hesitate to say I had post partum with both of my kids, I don't want to say had because I'm never really sure I'm over it. Their is a general misconception about us that we don't want our kids, I don't think their could be anything further from the truth. I love my kids dearly ... they just make me unbareably sad sometimes. I can't say it's just them, I'm still bipolar ... I still have ptsd, I'm still horribly depressed. I'm just an all around fucked up person. Some days I just don't see the point of putting myself through all this....not that I'm suicidal, I'm just not very hopeful of the future. I'm really resisting the urge to go down the "whoa is me" road with this but you'll have to excuse me if I'm a bit self-loathing. This is about the only out

Plz Comment And Vote My MummsI need more comments and opinions on one of my Mumms. Plz comment and give me some votes plz and I shall return the favor

It Seems I Can't Please AnyoneI found Fubar in November, 08. I have met some wonderful people, many of been my friends since day one. Unfortunately, I have made some very bad choices about who I wanted to be friends with. I realize this is a site for "fun" a place to "relax" and "unwind". I will be the first to admit I am very soft hearted and normally go out of my way to do things for people who do not deserve it. I have so many stories to tell, but my most recent experience has really got me stumped. I lost a "friend" because I wouldnt put him as #1 on my family. The people that are on my family and numbered have been with me since I started my account here. They have proved they are good friends and we talk several times a week. They worked their way up to where they are. I do not think it is fair for someone to just come along and you be friends for a couple of weeks then threaten to delete you if you dont put them as #1 on your family.
I work 40+ hours a week, some days I am lucky enough to be able

Can You Hang?Oral sex on a guy can go on for a long long timeThere are so many things to attend toThe scent, taking one ball and then the other in my mouthMassaging your ass with gentle firm strokesHold your hands behind your headJust breathe, as I breathe on youI massage along the groin with little circles of my thumbsAs my tongue swirls around the tip.Breathe and relax, let it happen... Keep your hands there, and see how long you canI take you in my mouth and continue the massage around to the back of your hips and ass again. Pulling you deeper into my mouth.Then lifting back and flicking my tongue along the underside,I look up at you, and at the look in your eyes when you realize that This ends no time soon. I smile with my lips wrapped around youI chuckle and you feel it vibrate through you as I pull you into my mouthDeep and swift for several strokes till I feel you thrust.I slow, and lift my mouth, look into your eyes And remind you to breathe deep in your belly.While I massage your thighs an

NiteOur occational encounters are full of heat and passion and I hate when they end.As your hands move slowly over my body I trembal with wanting and excitement.Excitement caused by your soft gental touch and the wanting for it to never end.Your lips softly kiss mine and then move to my neck and then on to other parts of my body.As your hands move slowly over my naked body I shiver with delight.Your hand slowly finds it's way to the inside of my thigh.Your lips seem to slowly go in the same direction.They make their way over my breasts, my stomach, until they reach the inside of my thigh.My heart pounds so loudly in my chest and it feels like it is going to explode.As you slide inside me the fire with in me grows and burns.As our two bodies become one I moan in pleasure.The weight of your body on mine nearly takes my breath away.I gasp and as I do, you push deeper inside of me.You pull me on top of you and manage to stay inside me.As I rock back and forth on top of you I start to feel the

Value Of LifeWell sometimes you never realize the value of your life until something major happens or almost happens. I got to get a reminder today to enjoy every day as a blessing when I got to see a car heading my way going the wrong way on the highway. I guess I probably should elaborate. . . . I was on my way to work just like anyother day, but my friend had me driving today. Well as I was traveling on one of the major 4 lane highways in this area I see a car heading straight for me on the wrong side of the road. I am lucky my defensive driving payed off I was able to slam on the brakes and move safely to the left shoulder. . . And as I was regaining my composure I noticed all the cars around me stopping and pulling off. . . .I am not sure what happened to the driver or if she ever realized she was going the wrong way or the highway patrol got her. . . .I am just thankful that myself or anyone in the vehicle with me was uninjured.

Never Say DieIt's been brought to my attention that this is the only networking site so far where I haven't tried to pimp out my book so here we go! If you actually read it please let me know I'd really appreciate it. There's other stuff I've written on my writing profile so let me know if you read that stuff too, you can leave comments on the site even if you're not a member :)
My book is called "Never Say Die" and if you like it, there's a sequel on it's way!
http://www.booksie.com/crensci
Thanks!!

A Fugged Up First Blog Eh?Pretty Fugged up way tae start my first blog.maybe i can blog about good things in my life later.
I was told by my da last night around 10 pm that me ma was put n the hospitial.we all knew she had cancer and it was a matter of time.as of 8:14pm today she passed.but its till too damn soon.i can't imagine the pain this woman put up with over the past 8 years.i guess she lived long enough while dealing with untold amounts of hurt and pain.im 33 years old i understand death but even this seems tae be unfair.i never wanted this day tae come.no one does.i need a while off to settle family affairs. Its FUCKED when everyone fights about what they are going tae get when a loved one dies. Scrounging around like a pack of wild fuvkin dogs like t's that last meal.it makes me sick on my stomach.and if i have any say so the vultures will get a hand full of SHIT!
Just pray for me if you do that sorta thing.you can imagine right now im not happy with Gods decsision.if your like me and don't reall

About MeI'm a 23 yr old mother of a almost 2 year old. I also have a fiance name David which we are coming up on our 3 yr anniversary, and many more to come. I have changed so much, and my daughter and david have helped me. I live in Portland, and hope one day to move away again closer to family. I plan on finishing up my schooling persuing the life that i have always dreamed about. Owning a home, having a stable paying job, and our lil pug dog. An possibly my last wish is too give alisha a little brother. :). But for right now im content with just one as the terrible 2's come along. So what else? Oh i have moved into a bigger place, have a nice car an 05', and just loving life as tho im misserable where i live but oh well i can change that n a year. My daughter talks but isnt saying much sentances yet but she does when she doesnt relized it. Eatting for her is very annoying i try to feed her anything heathy and it just gets spit out. So i dunno what to do candy is the many reason that she doe

Dear GodDear God, it's me again.
I need to talk to you.
You already know what it's about.
It's really nothing new.
Dear God, I still love him,
With every piece of my heart.
But you knew this would happen,
From the very start.
Dear God, it hurts so bad.
Sometimes I can't breathe.
God, why did you take him?
He meant everything to me!
Dear God, I'm sick of crying.
I'm afraid I'm gonna drown.
These memories won't go away.
I still remember how he sounds.
Dear God, I miss him,
More and more each day.
Lord, I love him so much!
Why did he walk away?
Dear God, I know you can hear me.
I know you can feel the pain I'm in.
Lord, I feel like giving up.
There's no use in trying to win.
Dear God, I can't take much more.
I'm destroyed inside and out.
I wish that I could say something,
But I swallow all my shouts.
Dear God, I'm sorry I sound angry.
I don't blame you,
But, Lord, I don't wanna believe,
That me and him are through.
Dear God, I have one last favor to

How Do I Stop Loving You?How can I turn back time?
How can I just forget?
You ask me to quit loving you.
Am I something you regret?
You tell me you don't want to hurt me,
That its better if I stopped caring.
How can you tell me this,
When you know with you there is no forgetting?
I cant just tell my bruised heart,
Quit loving him that much.
I cant just act like I don't care,
If I ever again feel your touch.
How can I stop loving you?
How do I erase what we had?
How do I tell my heart not to break,
When things start going bad?
How do I stop dreaming,
About you making love to me?
How do I forget your smile?
I just cant, don't you see?
Explain to me what I must do,
To forget this love I feel.
For how can I lie to my heart
By saying my love isn't real?
The way my heart loves you,
It has never loved before.
The way my body craves you,
Right down to my very core.
If I ever asked my heart to quit
Loving your eyes, lips, and hands,
It will break into a million pieces.
Why c

My LifeI have always wondered what happiness truly is and I think I have figured it out. Happiness is what you feel when you find someone you can connect with on some intellectual level that becomes emotional. That emotion leads to either happiness or sadness depending on whether or not you both move in the same direction.

All Jacked Up...Heyahhhhhhhhh Five Thirty PM rolls around, there’s a little old joint outside of town I only got time for a couple of beers and a juke box song ringing in my ears The next you know the bartenders pouring, shots are flowing, got me stoned and All I really know is that I should be going, but I’m soaking up the moment I'm all jacked up, all jacked up Don’t believe I’ve ever had this much. One thing I’ve learned when you get tore up Time sure flies when you’re all jacked up It was getting mighty close to Nine o’clock, what the hell I'll have one more shot. Then I winked at a boy at the end of the bar, guess I mighta musta gone a little too far. Cause a big ole girl walked outta the blue, 10 foot 2 with a bad attitude Stepped right up and knocked out my tooth, guess I had it coming I deserved it too Cause I was all jacked up, all jacked up, Don’t believe I’ve ever had this much. One thing I’ve learned when you get tore up Don&

Tipsi have tones of morphs that i made ,, but the file size is to big to add to fubar.. anyone out here fu-land can help me out ?

Here For The Party...it's About Life!Well I'm an eight ball shootin', double-fisted, drinkin' son-of-a-gun I wear my jeans a little tight just to watch the little boys come undone I'm here for the beer and the ball bustin' band Gonna get a little crazy just because I can You know I'm here for the party And I ain't leavin' 'til they throw me out Gonna have a little fun Gonna get me some You know I'm here, I'm here for the party I may not be a ten, but the boys say I clean up good And if I gave 'em half a chance for some rowdy romance You know they would I've been waitin' all week just to have a good time So bring on them cowboys and their pick-up lines You know I'm here for the party And I ain't leavin' 'til they throw me out Gonna have a little fun Gonna get me some You know I'm here, I'm here for the party Don't want no purple hooter shooter Just some Jack on the rocks Don't mind me if I start that trashy talk You know I'm here for the party And I ain't leavin' 'til they throw me out Gonna have a little fun Gonna ge

My Recent Heartache!Recently, I was with a group of friends, hanging out downtown, and one of them asked another out. The person who did this, was my friend Lisa, that I have known for the last 5 years. We met back in winter quarter of 2004 and since then, I have had feelings for her. But now, seeing that she asked another girl out and she is bisexual, I have managed to miss another opportunity to let someone know of my feelings.This has put so far on edge, that it made me create a partial list of things that get on my nerves and this was one of the top 5. I feel so fucking stupid now, because I let my guard down once again with fear and agony reigning supreme. I just don't know what I am gonna do anymore. With people telling me that things will turn out if you hope for the best, I really dislike my chances of finding someone or anyone for that matter, who I can physically and mentally trust without being in fear of being let down or severely heart-broken all over again.I guess, if by small chance, someon

Soft N Sensual Side Of Me"Whether it b ur letter or picture or the fragrance that u wear, from a distance i can feel u there's no question that u care". "I feel the depths of ur lonliness ur passionate moans n groans, 2night i appeal 2 ur sence of patience it wont be long b4 i come home". "Do u have time 4 an honest man, from whom nothing but good can come, r u scared 2 face ur destined fate unsure of what's 2 come". "I have injected my soul in2 ur body, infecting ur inner parts, suduced ur mind until i find, the secrets of ur heart". "From this day forth until the end, eternally i claim, it's impossible 2 love a woman until you've felt her pain". "I reach down from da depths of my heart 2 show u how i feel inside, every emotion every thought i give 2 u, mind body n soul we match in everyway, i pray 4 da day that we can be 2gether, its all up 2 u baby i can make everything all better".
"Is there something I can say 2 bring a smile 2 your face, Is there somewhere we can go 2 be all alone

I Do Love You So I Will Let You GoTo let Go...Doesn't mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
Is not to cut myself off,
Is the realization that I can't control another.
To Let Go....Is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
Is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To Let Go....Is not to try to change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
Is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let Go....Is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
Is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let Go....Is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcome,
but to allow others to effect their own outcomes.
Is not to be protective,
it is to permit another to face reality.
To Let Go....Is not to deny, but to accept.
Is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own
shortcomings and to correct them.
To Let Go....Is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes,
and to cher

Single Moms!! I Need AdviceSo, I have a 14 year old son that is just out of control. He skips school, smoking cigaretes and basically disrespectful. He is on probation for Theft III and broke his probation by skipping school and spent 4 days in juvenile hall. The day after he got out he skipped again. I have been fined $150 for him skipping. I just don't know what to do anymore. I am doing my best to raise him but he is a very angry unhappy boy. Does anyone have any suggestions? Please Help!
Well it's 05/08/09.... my son was arrested today for minor in possesion of tobacco and skipping school and put in juvenile hall. I really don't know what to do. I have exhausted my options with him.

Don't Judge MeDon't judge me by
my looks
Don't reject me
because of my
face
Get to
know me
Before you
decide
my place
Don't criticize
my actions
until you know
the reason why
Keep your mind
open
Keep the hope of
love alive
Don't despise me
without reason
Just give me
the Chance
To prove the good
I have inside
Take time
to discover
The feelings that
I hide
Never hate with
only one look
Give me the
chance I deserve
Look n see
maybe you will find
The love inside
of me .....
Dedicated to:
the one soul I miss more than
anything in this world!

LondonFinding himself speachless for the fist time in two thousand years he did the only thing he could do. Stand and stare. Those green eyes searched a soul he believed lost. Could he have moved if he wished. Likely not. This was a moment that he wanted to remember for the rest of his long extended life.
She broke the truce. He began to speak when she silenced him ever so gently with a solitary finger to his lips. He could taste her. Warm milk and vanilla with something more. A hint of the wild. She was his. Slowly and ever so gently she moved her finger to glide down his chin and then chest leaving a heat that caught his breath. Dear God he thought I'm breathing. He almost remembered the sensation before the change. Her fingers slid casually down the silk of his dress shirt lazily unbuttoning each until his chest stood naked to the stars. Closing his eyes he prayed that this moment could last forever.
"Run", she shouted.
Startled, he opened his eyes. Where she stood w

FubarOKAY I HAVE BEEN ON THIS SITE FOR A WHILE
AND I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS.
SO JUST TO GET DOWN TO BUSINESS
1.) VIP - OPEN NSFW
2.) GIVEN A CHERRY BOMB - OPEN NSFW AND MAKE A NSFW SALUTE
3.) 65 CREDIT BLING PACK - OPEN NSFW AND MAKE 3 NSFW SALUTES
SB ME IF YOU WANNA DO ANY OF THESE THINGS!

I WonderI wonder if he thinks of me,
when it's quiet and he's alone.
I wonder if he remembers my number,
when he looks at the phone.
I wonder if he remembers the smile<
I gave him so freely.
or our special little talks,
when all the lights were dim.
i wonder if he ever stops
to think of me now n then,
to wonder how I'm doing,
or how I've been.
I wonder if he hurts inside,
when-ever they play our song.
I wonder if he yearns for me,
when a couple stroll along.
I wonder if the memories,
keep him awake at you.
I wonder if he wishes,
that I never LIED that night.
I wonder and question,
until my wonders run out.
But I wonder if he wonders
what I'm wordering about?

Birthday BoimbingIt,s my bithday May 22nd and since I can't be here that day I want to celebrate with fu on Thursday May 21 Looking 4 friends to give me 6 credit bling gifts so I can get enough to bomb 4 or 5 times If I get 30 friends giving me a 6 bling credt I will pick one name out of a hat and give 1 friend an auto 11 If you know me you know I'll be honest with the draw I will show no bias so please don't ask If this turns out well I'll repeat it so please no drama This is a chance to get an auto 11 for a 6 bling credit If I get 50 ; 2 autos will be picked 60; 3 and another draw for every 10 extra after that So if 100 people enter 7 people will recieve an auto 11etc. I will draw the name or names Wed may 20 at 6 pm Pacific time so the draw will end at 5pm and i'll give the autos to whoever wins on wed between 6 & 7 pm pacific timeI will try to bomb everyone that sends a 6 cr bling gift at least twice If there are 100 x 6 cr bling gifts given there will also be an auto given to the person wh

I Need....i need a damn homegirl, someone i can click with. someone who doesnt mind kids manye even has a few. someone who is flirty with girls and can be goofy with me. someone who likes to party but doesnt take it to the extreme. i guess i just really want someone to laugh and chill with.

Strange Dream
To see blood in your dream, represents life, love, and passion as well as disappointments. To dream that others are bleeding, signifies an emotional cry for help. ---To see bones in your dream, suggests the discovery of your personal, family, or cultural secrets. It is also symbolic of your underlying strengths that you have not yet recognized. Consider the symbolism of getting to the "bare bones" or the significance of "having a bone to pick with someone." To dream of broken bones, signifies that you have discovered or realized that there is a weakness in your plans or in your thinking. Your dream may call for your immediate attention to a particular situation or relationship.--- To dream that you escape from danger, signifies that you will rise to a place of high position and honor in your business and social circle.
To see the dead in your dream, forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. You may suffer material loss. Th

Just Stuff I WriteYou say I'm strong I say you're wrong I'm actually quite weak inside You have no idea how often I've cried You say I have lots of determination Can't you see I'm full of frustration? You say I have a beautiful face Please, the way I look is a disgrace You see many wonderful qualities within me I'm sorry, but I have to disagree Everything you see is just a front I only let you see what I want I don't see me the way you do Oh, if you only knew For I fear if I really let you in You wouldn't like what you see within It's taken many years to build these walls You can't wander my mind's inner halls If you're lucky you may get a small peek Of the inner me that you seek Just don't be suprised at the view you get It's not very pretty, this I will admit For inside this beautiful, strong outer shell There is a frightened little girl living in hell How do I tell you, what do I say? If I speak the words, will you walk away? If I tell you everything that's in my heart Will it all end or will it all

Aaaaaah...Hi,
It is SO good to have the a/c working again, and only for $119 for a yearly-plan. It was as I suspected: the lines needed to be "blown out"...I had poured clorox bleach in all 3 of the pvc pipes last eve---but too late; the damage had been done: my a/c was clogged. They needed their pressure -aircompressor to clean out the lines....
I had noticed this week that the carpet was all wet in the hallway near the hall bath and door to furnace/ a/c closet.........I thought one of the dogs had done it...since so soaked......when I went to pull into the garage last eve, I saw a stream of water trailing all the way to outside of garage...I quickly felt the carpet remnant at the front of garage on the raised area...it was SOAKING WET.....so I ran inside and opened the door to A/C unit...opened the air filter area below it and discovered tons of water! I panicked,since living on my own and no one to ask/help. I looked in the yellow pages (after pouring all that clorox down those drainpip

Lifehouse : If This Is GoodbyeAnd day lights, craving
Sunshine on this frozen heart
I am wishing you well
Wondering how you are
If you and I are going under
Maybe we can both recover
And find forgiveness for each other
Even if this is goodbye
And time heals
But these scars keep on tearing us apart
And sometimes ending is the only place to start
If you and I are going under
Maybe we can both recover
And find forgiveness for each other
Even if this is goodbye
If you and I are going under
Maybe we can both recover
And find forgiveness for each other
Even if
If what we had is really over
If fate is out there we discover
Let's find forgiveness for each other
Even if this is goodbye
(Second best song ever...
Just wish he could forgive me)

Untaimed AngerFor the past several day I have been angry. Everyone knows this kind of angry. Its the pent up rage you feel and it makes you more angry when you dont even know what it is that your angry at to begin with. I've been going through a rough time these past 3 or 4 weeks and havent been able to find much comfort. Some of my closest friends seem like they don't care much about my problems and almost care free in their own worlds. The only comfort iv been able to muster is sitting in a small room with nothing but an air mattress, my laptop, and a small TV. A lot of the time I feel angry at everything around me from the floor creeking, or birds chirping. My total silence from the world seems insignificant but at the same time sane.
There is one person I am thinking of right now and she has kept me calm and smiling through the last few days. She is quickly filling in what I felt to be a hole that would never be filled. Most people would consider this person in a way to be "the one". It's stran

Seem To Existsometimes what we are searching for .. isnt what we end up getting .... life is funny like that .... and then one day u find urself searching again ..maybe I AM not making any sense and no one will prolly even read this ..... so just a waste of time ... u ever want something so bad that u wish u could go back and change and do things different .... one of my best friends lost her life last year .... I miss greatly and if I could go back and change te way things happen I would ..... u think u have all the time in the world to tell someone that u love them and u think oh I can wait until tomorrow .... when we chat .... and then tomorrow never came
I often think that if I could have stopped her ... if only she would have called me and talked to me all night she would still be here today ... well the last time I talked to here was only a few days b4 her life ended.... if maybe I just said hey come spend the weekend at my house we will go out and search for new guys ... or maybe just fli

DefinitionA friend of mine asked me the other day "How do you define yourself?". After thinking about the question for a while I have come to the conclusion, I don't define myself. Of course, I am sure I do define myself on some subconscience level based on my past, what I have done, what has been said of me, how people have acted around me... there is a sea of suggestions all around us trying to define who we are. But, I don't think one should define themselves. I am not going to define myself based on my actions and achievements, because by doing so I also have to define myself by my mistakes and failures. If I fail more times than I achieve does that make me a failure? What about thoughts and beliefs? Should someone define themselves by their views on life? I don't believe so because we are all wrong on one level or another. We are all ignorant. If we define ourselves by our beliefs or our "morals" and turn out to be wrong, what does that say about us? Does that mean we have been living a li

2 Years Missing
FIND MADELINE MACANN
Gerry & Kate's Message: It is two long years since Madeleine was taken. It is two years since we were a happy family of five. The pain and anxiety does not lessen, but our determination to find our beautiful daughter remains steadfast. We are no longer looking for a 4 year old little girl – but a 6-year-old one. This is crucial. We are hoping that the new age-progressed image of Madeleine aged 6, produced by the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children in Washington, will help people to see what Madeleine may look like today disappeared, scientists create image of how she'd look now On May 7th at 9pm (UK time), a televised ‘reconstruction’ of potentially significant and suspicious events from around the time that Madeleine was taken will be aired on Channel 4 in Britain. Much of this information has not been disclosed to the general public before and it is apparent that there are several highly important unanswered questions r

Nakita. Terror Of The Dog Park!!For those who know me well, know that I have a slight problem with my dog. For those of you who have dogs might know there's one of me in every dog park around the world.
I got my beautiful pooch from the City pound when she was 6 months, she was so small and malnutritioned I figured I would name her something fierce and strong. So I choose to name her after a female assassin.. Nakita. At first Nakita was a sweet and gentle dog, she was carefree and lovable. Then after she hit her teenage years she has become the biggest bully of the park.
I drive up to the dog park and as soon as I open the door my dog is out stalking her prey... Usually a Great Dane. She runs toward them hackles up and growling.... you might say I am a bad pet owner but Ive watched so many shows and yes ever Caesar....
I am that lady everyone laughs at, I am the lady who runs threw the park chasing after her little bitch.... hoping ot god she will listen just once. Hoping that she wont come close enough just to

Thoughts..."That's a sweet ass ride!"
"Go blow it out your ass"
"That's one ugly ass..."
"Butthead"
"Butt munch"
'Cavity searches'
The term 'butt pirate'
ect.
The world is full of quotes/things that seem to have an 'ass' connection. There are times I can't even believe how many terms relate to it! Don't get me wrong, I don't care but I can't help but observe how popular it tends to be a topic, I mean women think all guys think/care about are boobs, but, nope, the ass is the view point :P
'Anal probes'
You can tell the world is ass focused here. They talk of aliens, advanced life forms and yet, these 'advanced life forms' got a thing for the ass too LOL. I mean I always have found this amusing but seriously, don't think any aliens have come to visit and don't think there's any reason to think they want to go out of their way to shove objects up our ass. This HAS to be in relation to the human race's obsession with ass lol...
The planet 'Uranus'
Am I the only one who DOESN'T think this

A Little About Me...my name is karri and i am from a small town in texas. i am a single mother of 2 beautiful little girls and i would not trade them for the world... i am not shy and i am out-spoken most of the time. i love all my friends and i will do anything for them. my happiness comes from helping others and thats what i do best.. i dont care what the problem is if you need to talk to someone you can trust i am here for you all if you need someone to vent to my ears are open and i will listen to you. i used to be in the navy and was discharged for my knees being so bad.. i only hope that my children will succeed more in life than i did. i dont have much else to say but if you wanna know more just ask and i will answer honestly.. love yall all...
karri

Something Newhey to all im new at this but it seems like it could be fun or aleast it will be when i figure out how to use everything here.

Not Sure What To Doi have a delemma,i use to go out of my way to help"friends" then i realized where are they when i need help.be it a shoulder to lean on or just help leveling,and i decided most of them only know me when they want something.So i decided to stop putting it on the line for every friend that decides they need my help.now some of them want my help again.yet ive been asking for help leveling for 5 monthes and its always the same 3 or 4 that come and rate my things to help.so what should i do keep being mr.wonderful when its convienant for them or stick to my guns till they decide if im a good enough friend to have in there lives.im at the point i dont care anymore after monthes of being left behind cause im not in the hip or kewl crowd guess i just wish more of them treated me like i try to treat them.i dont know maybe just delete my account and move on life has got boring here in fuland anyways it's not the fun it use to be seems if you dont have bling to throw around nobody cares about ya

In The ChaosMy band and I have uploaded two songs on our Myspace music page and if you would like to hear them please vist www.myspace.com/suphor1 enjoy and let me know what you think!

Not For All..Cecilia wasn't sure of her future. Only her past was a present thought. She knew that the end of her marriage wasn't the end of her life, but the cold, dead space inside her begged to differ. Her Ex was a great guy. Good provider, sweet to the point of relationship-diabetes, and a natural father. Problem was, he was vanilla in bed. Not even French vanilla (Oh god Frenchmen know how to use their tongues!)just plain...ol'....vanilla. This was ok in the beginning. Both of them had previous experience and it was a heady time for them both. As time progressed, kids were born, and the sex became stale. Same moves...same times...same everything. She had tried to lure him out from under his sexual "rock" that he was hiding under, but nothing worked it seemed. He resisted all efforts to spice up ANYTHING in the relationship.
Finally, counseling. The counselor saw them both for six weeks, then issued his proclamation. "You two are seperate entities. As such, you've grown in opposite directio

Under Her DeskI started off this morning in a very bad mood. I like to enjoy my coffee and sit alone for an hour.. well my driver being somewhat of a twit locked herself out of the van for the second time in 24 hours... I grumbled a lot while walking out the door.....
To my surprise when I came back, my lovely Witty had offered to hide me under her desk. I graciously accepted only to find I wasn't the only one under her desk.....
Its getting slightly crowded under there and I'm wondering If i should move out or start growling at people who come into my corner space..
My beef on a thursday
Wicked

Night Riders LamentHOWDY FUBAR FRIENDS AND FAMILY HOWL! I AM SENDING OUT A GREAT VIDEO TODAY WITH SUZY BOGGUSS AND JERRY JEFFY WALKER IN IT! WHEN YOU LISTEN TO IT PICTURE YOURSELF ON A BEAUTIFUL HORSE IN THE STATE OF MONTANA. YOU ARE WORKING THE MIDNIGHT SHIFT AS A COWGIRL/COWBOY WATCHING A HERD OF CATTLE UNDER THE MIDNIGHT STARS. LISTENING TO THESE TWO GREAT MUSICIANS DO THIS SONG WILL ACTUALLY "PUT YOU THERE" HOWL! ENJOY AND YOU CAN FIND MANY MORE OF THEIR SONGS ON U-TUBE.

DeathFor all those who may have some concerns....DONT PANIC!!!!
I have been told ts perfectly safe!!
namaste ;) x

PoetryI continue to walk down this lonely road.One that only few people know.All my emotions locked inside.No where to go, and tears in my eyes.One step forward, and ten steps back.I'm running in someone else's race.Once upon a time I followed my dreams.My dreams are gone, and I'm left with these...These empty rooms, with dirty walls.I scream at the top of my lungs.Trying to find a way out is useless. Because every door I find does nothing.They just lead me to another empty room.Where no matter how loud I scream,No one can hear me.

What Im Looking For And Not Looking For*Not My Kinda Guy*I would never date a flamer or mr sister for friends maybe luv interest hell no they need not apply,cant stand them.All i have to say on that is slowly step away from the mirror and drop the lip gloss come on already boys we're gay not girls oh here's a big secret u might not have realized no matter how much maybeline you put on you will still have a dick and this is not for the people who feel like they should have been born the oppositte sex,this is for all you 70 pound Victoria Beckham look alikes wearing half tshirts they stole from there baby sisters who are in grade school sorry sweety hannah montana just doesnt work for yah and stopping wearing glitter please your not a fairy princess.*My Kinda Guy*I prefer straight acting men a smartass the kinda guy you dont know if u wanna deck him or fuk his brains out for beng a smartass.A man who is very active in sports kinda a daredevil but can also have a very calm and collective side who could just be content with re

Na Na Na NaHI BITCHES :D
So as of right now, the only way I can get only is if a neighbor is online and I can steal their internet lmfaoooooooooo.
So I am on right now, and the connection is slow.
But I guess beggers cant be choosers right? :P
So apparently if we dont pass our budget bill by midnight tonight all state funded/government facilities will shut down until the bill is passed.
No license branch -ppl cant renew license or plates or gets either
No state parks or dunes
All courts will remain open though
No INDOT
No Lottery or casinos/gambling
etc.
lmfao indiana is so fucked.
[remind me why I moved to Elkhart? LOL!]
Link to full article:
http://www.etruth.com/Know/News/Story.aspx?id=486854&fcid=Know-MOSTREAD So does anyone on here have facebook that I haven't added?
I need more mafia members
and well I am just hardly even on here and it'd be nice to talk to some people still :P
Or not cuz some of you are definitely douchebags.
P.S.
I love

CaffeineGotta give a shout out to Monster JAVA.....this sh't is just frickin AWESOME....gotta love it. Three hrs. of sleep and three JAVA's an' I'm ready ta party like a f'ckin rock star baby!!! Seriously the people at Monster are diabolical geniuses

Checkout My Roommate Demoniksup boys and girls.yep im hottstuff's roomate,going to school for photography and hottstuff is my practice dummy lol jk well sorta anyone looking for photos to be done check me out and drop me a line peace out.

NsfwI'm wondering what would happen if I marked my baghead default pic as NSFW. Would they remove it and warn me? Should I make a mumm to help me decide? If I disappear this is why...
Hi Scrapper,Okay, here's my little story:I got a picture of a fully clothed woman taken from behind marked NSFW. (see my default album) The only skin that was showing was her arms. I was angry, so I marked a fubar support picture NSFW. One of your bouncers - DollyDagger told me that act alone was against the TOS agreement. This seems like a double standard don't you agree? Then, she told me having NSFW Bouncer is an A$$ in my status is against the TOS agreement. BTW Ass is written in the bible and now allowed on TV and the radio. Look, I like this site. I come here every day. I don't want to cause problems but maybe some of these things should be reviewed an reconsidered. I'm writing this not only to give you constructive criticism but now I fear DollyDagger is going to delete my account over this sillyness!

How Im Feeling Right Now May,7,2009Deep down my heart is breaking
It gets worse every day
I sit here alone shaking
Remembering the good days
I try not to cry
I try to be stong
But it doesnt last long
My life has been nothing but a lie
Deep down my heart is dying
As I sit here crying
Trying to believe in something
But something always turns into nothing
I try to remember what it feels like to be happy
But I get lost in pain
My life is full of shame
Deep down my heart is screaming
Just waiting to be free

HospitalWanna say hey to everyone!! I was in the hospital for a couple days, had a gallbladder attack, so they did surgery and removed it. I was havin alot of pain for awhile, but now that Ive had the surgery I do feel alot better!! I quit smokin!! I had a few on easter at my moms, she came over one day and I took 1 off her, and last weekend I went out for a couple hours and had a couple then, but other then that I havent had any!! So I think Im doin really good with the whole smokin thing!! I cant believe how much this place changes everytime I log on something is new! Anywho I cant stay long, but I wanted to say hey to yall and I do hope yall are doin good!! I still dont think ill get on here much, but if you wanna keep in touch with me let me know and ill give ya my myspace or email address. Still wont be everyday, but it will be more often then it is here. Yall take care and i do hope to catch yall sometime soon!! Lots of licks and spanks to all my friends!! xoxo

W/eIs Dec 8th/2009.
Is Tuesday.
Is post to snow.
IS the day I get to stand up to a monster and punish him for all the days he had me scared,made me think less of myself,made me think I was a horrible mother and a worthless human being altogther,for abusing me both mentally and physically.ALso for stealing my car.
Is a day I have been excited for but yet dreaded for the past year an a half.
Is the begining of (well hopfully) non restless sleeps.
Is the first day of the rest of my life.
I thank all the ones that for the past year(or well over...like Robyn) that has been my sholder,my rock and inspiration to not fold under pressure thru out this whole ordeal.
I feel like I will be breaking my oldest heart..because no matter what has happend between his father and I(he was never much of a anything to my youngest son) he has always looked up to him and I know will miss him greatly.
I just pray he will grow to understand.
I feel like throwing up just writing this out.
whatever.

Boredom At WorkMEN ARE JUST HAPPIER PEOPLE NICKNAMES:• If Laura, Kate and Sarah go out for lunch, they will call each other Laura, Kate and Sarah. • If Mike, Dave and John go out, they will affectionately refer to each other as Fat Boy, Godzilla and Four-eyes.EATING OUT:• When the bill arrives, Mike, Dave and John will each throw in $20, even though it's only for $32.50. None of them will have anything smaller and none will actually admit they want change back. • When the girls get their bill, out come the pocket calculators.MONEY:• A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs. • A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need but it's on sale.BATHROOMS:• A man has six items in his bathroom: toothbrush and toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel . • The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 337. A man would not be able to identify more than 20 of these items.ARGUMENTS:• A woman has the last word in any argument

Here I Amok so here i am just me. i am not what people think i am. i am a quiet individual who is honest and true about what she means. alot of people seem to think that if your out going and your loud and obnoxious that you have all that self confidence. well thats not me. i maybe loud and my personallity may shine like the sun. but in all reality, i am this quiet little mouse that sits in the corner and waits until someone notices her and ask her to join in and then i come out of my shell. until then i just sit back and i am real quiet. those of you who know me best know this. i am honest when someone asks me a question that i want to answer and if i dont want to answer it i just will ignore you till you go away.lol but hey its all in good fun sometimes just being me. I never thought i would get as far as i would get today in this world. and to be honest i never should have made it past 16. but someone or something was watching out for me and made sure i made it to this age that i am now.
My

Your Such An Idiot!My daughter and sister were shopping the other night. Apparently,money,fubar and I came up in a conversation. =/ dies. The amount of money I have spent was a great topic. My sister informed my daughter that I was an idiot,which is her way of being loving. :-) Shelby concured as normal. In the car last night Shelby and I are talking about this and I said "yes,I am an idiot,but it's my money and I can spend it when and how I want" You really have to know my daughter. She said "admiting your such an idiot is the first step in recovery,great job mom! You can see what the problem is and fix it from there" She has got to stop reading books!

A Story Of The CityI try not to remember the past The City the good times the bad the mistakes but it is hard late at night the thoughts the memories creep back in.
I still remember the First day I arrived in San Francisco that Feb morning in 1977 I dont really remember the bus ride to get ther but I do remember the City. Getting off the bus and standing in the new city with just my backpack and the 700 dollars to start my new life. The air was crisp and dry the city seemed so strange to me then. I had come across the country to begin anew to excape the drab cold world I had left behind to meet up with a dear friend who had made the journey months earilier to find her sexual freedom. I was coming to find her as much as to start a new adventure the trouble the two of us casused back east was legend but she had journeyed to seek her freedom and she had beckoned me to come to the Promised Land of San Francisco. Trully I was sure this was the land of oppurtunity where I was sure a man could be anything. I w

Paying Fu-bucks For MorphsI would like a couple of morphs made if you make them and are interested in fubux please PM me with the cost and I will give you the pics I wants made for the morp. Thanks for reading and hope to hear from you soon!

Random Thoughts Of A Curious ManThe only real time is this moment all others do not exist. I believe we should live in the current moment as much as possible it is really the only time we have any control over. I understand trying to escape from the current moment for various reasons but I think it should be a concious effort and not the norm. I understan that the current moment can be so terrible that we must escape it.
The past are just memories and the future are just dreams and both are fanasties. By not living in the current moment we tend to avoid things. Put off decisions and tend not to deal with the realities facing us. To dwell in the past is to be among ghosts and memories that may not be as good or bad as we think they were. To dwell in our dreams of the the future is to deny the present for the hope of the future that may never be. Promises and expectations of what is to come are not real and cannot be kept. No one really knows what tomorrow will bring and cannot promise any action or thought beyond the

Bombings And Auto 11s!!!OMG So I will be running my first auto 11 and cherry bomb this Saturday!!! So what I want you guys to do is let me know if you will be running auto 11s on Saturday so I can bomb you!!!! (must have a folder with atleast 250 pictures plz). Also I would love for all of your support and rate my pictures for my auto 11!!! I am going to see what I can pull together for some rewards for the high raters!!! So get ready for the bombings and the autos Saturday!!!! I should be running my autos around 10 am futime and I am hoping to start bombing around 11 or 12 futime!!! So if you are interested in getting bombed just leave me a comment here :)! Luv ya guys!!!!!!!
P.S. I am also trying to get a blast for Saturday, so if you can help me out either pm me or sb me!!! I am willing to pay fubux!!! Please help me out guys!!!!! :D

My Thoughts!TWO THINGS YOU SHOULD NEVER DISCUSS....POLITICS AND RELIGION, BUT AS AN AMERICAN I HAVE THAT ONE CHOICE, FREEDOM OF SPEACH.
THESE ARE MY VIEWS AND OPINIONS, I KNOW SOME OF YOU WILL COMPLETELY DISAGREE,SOME WILL AGREE WITH SOME ,AND OTHERS WILL AGREE TOTALLY. THAT IS GREAT,CAUSE MOST DONT SAY WHAT THEY WANT AND THATS ONE OF OUR PROBLEMS AS A SOCIETY. IF AT LEAST 10 PEOPLE VOICE THIER OPINION THATS GOOD CAUSE ITS MORE THAN 1 GREATER THAN 5 AND ON A SCALE, PERFECT!
I AM NOT A LIBERAL, DEMOCRAT OR REPUBLICIAN AS A WHOLE,BUT I DO KNOW HOW POLITICS ARE PLAYED. IT ALL COMES DOWN TO POWER AND WHO HAS THE MOST CASH!I HAVE DIFFERENT FELINGS ON EVERYTHING DEPENDS ON THE TOPIC.
ONE PROBLEM I HAVE IS ABOUT PUTTING A LEADER IN AN AMERICAN POWER HOUSE WITH AN ISLOMIC NAME......IM SORRY, DIDNT WE JUST HAVE A WAR WITH IRAQ! I FEELTHAT WAS A STAB IN THE BACK BY OUR OWN GOVERNMENT. THEY SAY OH HES HALF BLACK ....HOW COME HIS NAME ISNT BROWN THEN, AND ITS NAME NOT HIS COLOR THAT MADE ME FEEL BETRADED.

Story TimeI wrote a true erotic story and got published. Jill
Jill's Erotic Story

Medical IssuesI had to go to get an MRI yesterday &
THE BLOOD CLOTS IN MY BRAIN ARE 100% COMPLETELY GONE!

Help Me Pleasei need some help!, anyone have any advice on how to handle your better half when their going through midlife crisis. its killin me slowly and hurting our family.i feel so alone in this.he has pushed his family away, he has cheated,lied,started drinking.seem's like he hates his kids..he make's excuses why he doesnt have time to talk. he make's time for everyone else except for his family. (including the person he having an affair with).he will lie to me and tell me he's gonna do paper work and i find out different,he turns his cell off when he's at her house. god what do i do? im tired of cryn everynight.please help me :(

Friend Or FoeThe time i'v spent with you makes me laugh
the dreams i'v had of you makes me cry without a touch
the setbacks makes me wanna leave
the soul you have has me loving you
time is short dreams are far setbacks suck but your soul is perfect
why oh why does Crying,loving,laughing and leaving hurt so bad......mabe one day the heart will find out but i will find out with out you.

Two Become One ... The lover sleeps and amid his dreams His angel comes on sunlit beams. To waken him with kisses sweet, For her love for him is oh so deep.
She wakes him with her caresses light Upon his skin and smiles so bright. And in her eyes, he sees the love She feels for him neath stars above. He comes to her to gently place, Kisses upon her neck and face. To caress her body and touch her soul. For together two become a whole.

PoemsAlone From childhood's hour I have not beenAs others were; I have not seenAs others saw; I could not bringMy passions from a common spring.From the same source I have not takenMy sorrow; I could not awakenMy heart to joy at the same tone;And all I loved, I loved alone.Then- in my childhood, in the dawnOf a most stormy life- was drawnFrom every depth of good and illThe mystery which binds me still:From the torrent, or the fountain,From the red cliff of the mountain,From the sun that round me rolledIn its autumn tint of gold,From the lightning in the skyAs it passed me flying by,From the thunder and the storm,And the cloud that took the form(When the rest of Heaven was blue)Of a demon in my view.
Edgar Allan Poe

Looking 4 Cam Fun?Looking to have some fun! I'm 25 married I love my wife but she does not have sex with me enough. I am a sexaddict, I'm not trying to hook up just find someone to play with online. I don't know maybe hook up you never know

Stuff I LikeSexy can IYeah, YeahAll we wanna know is....[Chorus:]Sexy can I, just pardon my manners.Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)It's a Kodak moment, let me go and get my cameraAll I wanna know is, sexy can I.Sexy can I, hit it from the front,then I hit it from the back.know you like it like that.then we take it to the bed, then we take it to the floorthen we chill for a second, then we're back at it for moreSexy can I, just pardon my manners.Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)It's a Kodak moment, let me go and get my cameraAll I wanna know is, sexy can I.[Yung Berg:]What's up Lil mama, it's ya boy YounginG5 dippin, Lui Vuitton luggage (ay)Gotta love it, ya boy so flyAll the ladies go (oh) when a nigga go by.Gucci on the feet, Marc Jacob on the thighShe wanna ride or die with ya boy in the chi.That's right, so I let her kiss the princeHer boyfriend, she ain't missed him since.[Ray J:]Sexy can I, just pardon my manners.Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)It's a Kodak

Is This Really True, I Got This Info Off My Fren's Profile On Hi5, I Need An Input From Men And Women.AN INTELLECTUAL OBSERVATION OF THE DIFFERENT TYPES OF COCKS MISERABLE DICK- When the guy is extremely handsome. He says the right things,does the right things. When it comes to sex, he is lacking in this department. He sucks your tits too hard, kisses your mouth too long, stays around your neck forever, fingers you like a GYN Doctor, licks your pussy like he was in a track meet and has a very small dick. You try to give him some head and only find that you are actually sucking a pacifier. This is so miserable. You think, "how can a guy so fine, so polite have weak game?" To top everything off ladies, how about just when in your mind your going to try to get the best out of this even if you have to make yourself cum and he beats you to the punch. DAMN, I cannot believe he came in 3 minutes!!! TOLERABLE DICK- This is funny dick. He eats major pussy. He eats it so good, your knees feel a little weak. It was good enough to make you shed a tear. Then he puts his dick in, for you to realize

Need My Friends HelpI was just sent a link by a family member to a profile that was created yesterday, by someone using my pictures as themself. I went to support but was told there was nothing they can, or will, do.
"there isnt anything that we can do .. block the member or ask them to remove your pics hun .. TOS 7 .. Member Disputes. You are solely responsible for your interactions with other fubar.com Members. fubar.com, Inc. reserves the right, but has no obligation, to monitor disputes between you and other Members."
I don't consider this a dispute, but guess that's just my opinion.
Maybe if my friends let this person know, that they know the "real" person in the pics, I'm hoping she will add her own real ones?! Not asking for any trouble, just a simple comment letting her know, you know that is not her!
Thank you friends! Hugs, Cindy
Darlene@ fubar
If that doesn't work here's the page link
http://fubar.com/user/3022546
UPDATE
She deleted the profile after friends left co

I Burnt It All For YouButterfly KissesBrush Across My CheekWhispering WordsTo Sweep Me Off My FeetSing Song VoiceSaying My NameEverything You Do To MeDrives Me More InsaneLie After LieYou Swear Your Love Is TrueI Feel Like A FoolBecause I Believed In YouCriss Cross MarksDecorate My WristBegging MyselfTo Somehow Change ThisHeart Pounding HarderYour Face Haunts My DreamsSmiling Face, Teary EyesNothing's As It SeemsPhotographs ScatteredLaying On The FloorMatches Lit, In My HandTo Me, You Are No More

Dont Know What To DoI'm scared.. no terrified.I don't know what to do.My heart and mind are at war.They're fighting over you.One says, "Let go,He doesn't really care.You need to move on,Wake up from this nightmare."The other tells me to hold on,You know him and his ways,He's scared of getting hurt.Screw what others say.The others... I forgot.They tell me to say goodbye.This isn't a real relationship.Why do I bother to try?You give me no hope,No ounce of affection.We hardly talk at all.It feels like rejection.Maybe I can't take a hint,Maybe you never loved me.Maybe I'm a stupid girl.Maybe this is how it has to be.I hold on anyways,Though it hurts everyday.I fell in love with you.What else is there to say?You thought I would forget,But now I think you see,I meant everything I said,about you and me.

HurtYou said you'd never break my heart.You'd never make me cry.I believed everything you said.I believed every lie.You made me so happy.Just to be with you.It was the best relationship ever.With just me and you.I'm still not glad it's over.I may not ever be.You're still my one and only.Hope that you are happy.Don't think I don't miss you.It still hurts to hear your name.I love you more now than ever.But I won't be yours again.I thought the pain was over.But boy was I wrong.I feel it more each day.The hurt isn't gone.

Just Keep In Your ThoughtsI just found out that my x My little girls mom has cancer I dont know quite how to deal being my x and all i am there for both her and my little girl I have been told it looks to have been spreading my x is scard and already to just give up and i am just plain worried about her and the girls. I was there for them for so many years and noe i am on the sideline just praying for the best She told me that my little girl does not know and i feel so alone on this one I am very strong never give up but she just does not have that fight right now I dont know what i am asking just any thoughts would be good
I do not blog much so please if you have something to add or thoughts would be great I lost a friend to cancer when i was 14 she was 16 I did not deal with it than and this time i would like to find out more and what can be done I am looking on line to feed that need But real thoughts and real people make a diferance

I Guess He'll Never Know...I guess he'll never know...how much I love him so.As days pass my love for him grows,yet his love for me never existed at all.I guess he'll never know...how happy I am when he is around.How his presence warms my heart,and he doesn't even notice I'm around.I guess he'll never know...how much he means to me.How much it hurts when he loves someone else.How my heart tears when I see him look into her eyes when I wish they were mine.I guess he'll never see...the tears I cry in my room.Wishing he could just see me,the way I see him.I guess I'll never have him in my life...to see his smile and glistening eyes.His one of those fantasies that never come to life,He will just be that guy that I can never be with.I guess I'll never know...What it would be like to have the guy of my dreams in my arms.

Let Me DreamLet me dream.. Like I've never dreamed before.Let me dream that I'm in love.That I'm a free and flying dove.Just let me dream.Let me dream that I can be.Happy for the rest of eternity.And that one day you will seeWhat a perfect woman I can be.Let me dream that you secretly stare.And inquire about my when and whereLet me dream that I'm the oneAnd other than me...You want none.Let me dream that you think of me.And whether we one day will be.The lovers who had no chance.To be who they wanted to be.Let me dream that you are waiting there.And that life might at last be fair.Let me dream of your silly smile.And that loving me was worthwhile.Again..These are just dreams.That might never be real.But one day you might know..How hard secret love feels.

Unspoken WordsEveryone has that one person they love the most. The one that can make you smile just by a phone call away. One that makes stupid jokes but you laugh anyway. It's always that one particular person thats written all over your heart but don't even realize it. At times its that one person that you know you wouldn't be able to love. Watching people love, watching people hurt. Now I realized how much love can stab you like a knife because of these stupid rules that others spread around. Specific things that one can not do because others say they can't. Is that really love? Is it hard to accept truth? Questions building up inside me, making me more confused then I already am. Being stuck in the middle is not always easy. One thing I'd like to ask everyone. Isn't "Love" something that's shared by others no matter how much you dislike that someone or something? One that can learn to move on from previous wounds. One that can accept the truth. Sometimes I wonder how much better life would be if

Pot Could Save Poor Economy!budget cure: Marijuana taxes?In this desperate economy, some argue that legalizing and taxing marijuana could plug multibillion-dollar holes in federal and state coffers.Rate this ArticleClick on one of the stars below to rate this article from 1 (lowest) to 5 (highest) LowThank you for rating.HighAverage rating: 4.34 from 10597 usersE-mail us your comments on this article View all top-rated articlesBy John Dyer, MSN MoneyDaniel Stein says the salvation of U.S. taxpayers could be marijuana.
As Washington breaks the bank on Wall Street bailouts, President Barack Obama's stimulus package and other spend-now, pay-later measures, most observers agree that politicians will eventually need to increase revenue or cut spending to cover the federal government's debts.
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Fake Ass BitchesOkay I am SO past the "fake" woman of Fubar trying to get full on access while at the same time trying to get me to cyber! SOOOOOO my new rule is no salute, you cant even look at my profile! Just the way it is... Love it or leave it, i dont care. Is it just me, or are the amount of profiles with people "passing" themselves off as women grown? Why is it every other god damn person that wants to add me is some level 4, fake ass chick with porno pictures their profile? Do i look like a fucking idiot? Seriously now, come on!
Post a god damn salute, or dont fucking act like i am going to sit her and cyber sex your ass while you spank your shit sitting at home while your kids sleep in the next room!
I wont bling you, i dont care if you bling me... You dont get access... You get fucking blocked!

Always And ForeverIf one day u feel like cring...Call me. I don't pomise that i will make you laugh but i can cry with you.If one day u want to run away-dont be afaraid to call me. I don't pomise to ask u to stop...But i can run with you.If one day u don't want to listen to anyone...Call me. I promise to be there for u but also promise to remain quiet. But one day if you call...And there is not answer...Come fast to see me.Maybe i need u.
Remember everone needs a friend don't ever leave the one you love fot the one you like because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

Extreme Weightloss Plan And Goals.Well, I have been noticing some weight gain over the last seven months or so after my extreme weight loss goals that I accomplished last year in the first six months of 2008. I managed to go from 230 pounds last year in February to just under 200 pounds by my 30th birthday last year, and than by mid June, beginning of July I made it to between 175 and 180 pounds.. I felt much better after the weight loss especially since my acid reflux dissappeared after dropping below 200 pounds. In the last couple weeks I noticed some acid reflux again, and realized that I am at 210 pounds. My goal is to get myself to drop at least 10 pounds by my birthday again this year which is just over two weeks away. I have started as of Tuesday night this week with similar to what I did last year with control of intake on how much food I am eating. I had 350 calories approx. in 24 hours, and will probably have similar for the next 24 hours, and so on and so forth. Still eating some of the same foods I have b

Grand Reopening i have rebuilt LOUNGE 343 . it is now called THE 343. plz come on by and check out the improvements. i am hiring all staff. hope to see you there soon...

I've Decided To Be An Asshole
Really, I'm tired of all these countless, meaningless, exhausting conversations. Fubar is all about rates? Fine, I'll rate you. But I'm not here to entertain you when you're bored. I don't care if you're good looking or nice, unless you want to talk about some really deep things, like philosophy, intuition, etc, don't waste your time. It's not the only thing I want to talk about, but it is essential. I've had enough conversations about "nothing".
P.S.: Did I sound like a bitch? Right. Fuck you.

Damn PeoplePeople piss me off here latley. They live with you and aer nice and sweet o your face but the first time you walk out they steal your shit. And they're family. WTF People. Have some respect and don't go throu my shit.

TooohipHussein Obama is a liar and a fraud. He lied about Air Force I flying low over NYC for a photo op coz the a**hole won't show the pics! He lied about being not being born in Keny coz he will not present evidence to back it up, like a birth certificate and school records.

05/06/09 Mothers DayMy hats off to President Obama for refusing to ignore the confederate veterans on Memorial Day. Soldiers on average dont get to choose what we fight for that is what our leaders are elected for. We3 are told to fight and we do. Not for a cause but for the men and women beside us. And reguardless of the flag that they fought under they are still America's Veterans. We honor the veterans of the French Indian War and they fought under the British flag. Hello and Happy Mothers Day to all you ladies out there. This Sunday is your day and you deserve it. May your God Bless you all. You all are the best. Thanks!

LyricsGive me a reason to believe that you're gone I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong Moonlight on the soft brown earth It leads me to where you lay They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home I will stay forever here with you My love The softly spoken words you gave me Even in death our love goes on Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love But no bonds can hold me from your side, Oh my love They don't know you can't leave me They don't hear you singing to me And I can't love you, anymore than I do And I can't love you, anymore than I do People die, but real love is forever. BREATHE NO MORE
I've been looking in the mirror for so long. That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side. All the little pieces falling, shatter. Shards of me, Too sharp to put back together. Too small to matter, But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces. If I try to touch her, And I bleed, I bleed, And I breathe, I breathe no more. Take a breath and I try to draw

New Life...new BfMy Plan...Alright...most know that I am done with school...except for the CLEP test that I am studying hard for. This test should take care of the 3 credits of science that I am missing so that I can get my Bachelor's Degree. My plan is to move to Amarillo TX. Those that know me are probably saying...WHAT?! Yes, I hate Texas, but this time around (yes my second try for Texas) things seem to be falling into place. I am going to be applying for a case worker position. I know this isn't juvenile probation, but I cannot get that type of position without experience. So, we all have to start somewhere. I knew when I chose my career goal and my major that I would not be making a truckload of money, but that is not why I chose this. I am excited to venture forth into my new life and I can't wait to see the changes that God has in store for me.My bf...Part of the reason for moving to Amarillo is for Mr. Chris (he soo loves it when I call him that! JK). :D :D :D that's me grinning from ear to ea

Today Was A Long DayI had to bury my grandmother this morning.......everything went smooth and i was glad to see some family i hadnt seen in 15 years......Doesnt getting old have its disadvantages......Anyway i wanted to still say i missed them and was glad to see everybody....My gramma looked beautiful.....I miss her dearly and will always.......Miss all you guys tooo I hate packing.....Who wants to help me move???.....i get my keys tomorrow....
HELP!!!!

Give Me My Chance To ShineWhy do you judge me,
just by what you see?
Do you even know what's within,
What's underneath this skin?
Is it my hair,
Or the clothes I wear?
Is it my face,
Is that the case?
Can't you see my pain,
How I struggle to stay sane,
When you degrade me,
Just upon what you see?
How could you do this?
I know I wouldn't be missed,
But is my life
Worth being taken by this knife?
I try to be nice,
But I'm just like spice;
Some like it, Some don't;
Giving it a chance, most won't.
Please just listen,
Give my chance to glisten.
Let me show you what's inside,
Let me come out, so I no longer have to hide.

Into The Heart (battle)Blood veins and locked chains
The things you will have to cross
A far away journey to encounter
It is an adventure to reach the boss
Yet are you willing to fight,
Willing to sacrifice your king?
A chess match is what it is
With heart and soul on a string
Moves will equal consequences
Are you ready for the beating?
You should be anxious, petrified
There is no negotiation meeting
Yet if it is the battle that you win
And you tear the walls apart
You will win the glorious prize
And conquer the childlike heart
A heart so soft and loving
Locked up in walls and chains
Into the empty halls you will find
Whatever else the heart remains
A naked body you will find and see
With eyes so innocent and pure
A kiss you are tempted to give
The body, soul, and heart's cure
But you will refrain yourself
For you are the gentle knight
Willing to sacrifice your heart
In order to win the fight

Forget The Past; He's Her FutureTo gaze upon his beauty, for her is pure bliss
Why has she fallen so hard, for such a guy like this?
She's in over her head, unable to think straight
Just wishing and hoping, to have the side of fate
With a smile stained frown, she gets through the day
But once he is seen, her world returns from gray
She can feel that her heart, skips every beat
Because somehow in a way, he makes her feel complete
He fills her heart with smiles, makes her feel like living life
Is really worth it in the end, without the pain and strife
Her heart yearns for his presence, more eager by each day
Something about him's different; she can feel it in her vein
She never thought this day would come; but he fills that empty hole
The one inside her heart; the piece her first love stole
He makes her worries disappear, and her stressful days subside
If only they were meant to be, if she no longer had to hide
Her breath is cut short, and her throat becomes dry
Once he's in si

Closest Thing To Perfect; Farthest Thing From MeAlthough you have your flaws
And imperfections, as do I
To me, you're simply perfect
Perrless through my eyes
You're always such a jerk
But your sweet side sometimes shows
You've told me that you cared
And I'm glad you let me know
My love for you burns with no end
And my heart belongs to you completely
You're the closest thing to perfect
But the farthest thing from me
You don't always know what words to speak
Or how to make my problems go away
But you can always make me smile
And give me hope to live another day
You're are the brightest person in the world
And half the time, you're clueless as can be
But still, my heart belongs to only you
For it aches in pain for you; and bleeds
I accept you with your flaws
You're amazing, don't you see
And you're the closest thing to perfect
But the farthest thing from me. .
(Dont i know how this feels)

~ The Little ThingsI remember when I was little.. vaguely, in bits and very small pieces. Sometimes I find myself sitting and thinking about the few things I do remember, but they seem so large in my mind.
Moms smile, her voice.. her drawings just laying around. I'd spy a naked woman on occasion and wonder who drew it, it wasn't until later I realised it was Mom. Random writings, bits of poems that made no sense to me, but still made me smile because they were her words and that's all that mattered to me. Her. Singing at any given time, just because. Always loving to listen to her. Her tears, one of the strongest emotional pains I've ever felt. My mom cried, felt. We had a fight here or there, growing up, I'd rebel as much as a teenage gal growing up in the sticks possibly could. The one thing that made me love her more than anything in the world was one simple sentence. "Jessica, I've never been a mother to a 14 yr old girl before... I'm new to this too." *smiles* Indeed.. she was perfect in her hone

TruthsWords are just that.
There's no story to be told.
Simply a voice when all that's wanted is to be loved.
Trying is pointless..
When you know you'll never be as good as the rest.
Fear isn't real but instead is change..
When that's the last thing everyone wants.
No one wants to understand.
All that's there are words...
And who needs words when they are just that.
No one needs to be wanted, but they want to be needed.
Different is nothing but a tale.

10 Last Seconds10 last seconds to change my mind
9 failed attempts to press rewind
8 little reasons to let go of it all
7 more seconds to make one last fall
6 drops of blood a crimson shade
5 fingers grip the blade
4 tears drip from my eye
3 reasons to tell one last lie
2 final seconds to say i love you
1 last thought...if only he knew

Hold Me By The HandHold me by the hand
And never let me go
I'm afraid of falling
But I'll never let it show
Instead you'll see my smile
And my web of truthful lies
I'll let you hear my laugh
But it will all be my disguise
I can't show you my weakness
I can't let you see my fears
I can't show you my sadness
I can't shed a single tear
But the pain inside's so real
I want things to be okay
Why can't I make it better
And make things last another day
You were my only saviour
When I was with you things were real
I lived just for those moments
The moments when I could feel
They say that things get better
But how long will it take
I've been waiting here forever
And yet my happiness is still fake
Maybe you'll come back to me
And I'll be happy again
I can't go on without you
Because you're my greatest friend
Who is this person you ask me
This person I miss so much
It's not so much a person
But rather a soul untouched
So I'm standing here, incomplete
Not able to carr

Atrophied Souls AsylumI am an artist, first and foremost, if you can look at the world and think "oh its stupid"... then I probably dont want much to do with you.
that being said, go check out my artwork at http://prophet118.deviantart.com
Maybe im not the best, maybe im the worst, but I do it because it makes me happy to create something

ApsI am offering every single point I make in a 12 hour period to people who get me a 135 credit bling pack. You can pick the 12 hours, to a point.(This is the new ability that Angels get when they reach Virtual Virgin.)
The price of the bling pack includes me running an auto during your time. If you would like a HH to run, then you would have to get me that and tell me when you want it scheduled.
Anything else you would like to do to promote more points is fine - within reason.

Warrning To EveryoneGhost_writter2000 is nothing more then a lier and cheat. He tryed to play me and two of my friends and got cought all three times. He will tell you what you want to hear as long as you are tell ing him what he wants . He will make promisses that he will not keep. HE is nothing more then a preditor .... Head my warnings .. stay away from this one ...
Dont want a nothe woman to get hurt again from HIM

My PoetrySelf pityEver feel that no matter what you do in lifeIt is thrown back in your face?Ever feel that the harder you tryThe worse things seem to be?Wallowing in self pity,Blaming myself for the route my life has takenHow did I end up here?All alone in this endless pit of despair?Several times I have tried to climb out,But all the emotions and problems storedKeep dragging me back down.The blackness of this hellCovers my entire soulIt eats away at my heartNibbling at the tiny pieces of happinessThat I have left in this worldStruggling to find the answersTo help me out of this placeWanting so badly to feelA little piece of normalcy again
Carla K. Undying Love
by Carla K
What they had was magical,
a love so everlasting
Through good times and bad
so many people wish
for a chance at the love they had.
Seperated by devastation
when God chose to bring him Home.
It was hard for us to imagine
how we would make it through
Days, months, years passed by
None of us forgetting
She never

Ahhhdo you ever wonder why we are put in the situations we are put in, i do all the time, why we are who we are where we are and feel the way we do about things, i really dont know. sometimes i feel lost like i dont know who i am, there are times where i am happy when things are going on i start to feel like i know but when im not i still feel lost, i just wish i could keep that happines around, but how do i find that permenant fix

In My HeartMind froze in confusion
Each breath toxic to my soul
Tears flowing from glass eyes
As life drains from the very core
...... Of my heart ......
Let me sleep, the peaceful sleep
Take the very breath I breathe
If love was meant to hurt this way
I shall never love nor hold another
...... In My Heart ......
Please God send me back
Where I can find a new beginning
Erase the words that cut and bruise
Strip me of the pain of betrayal, that aches
...... Within my heart .....
Let me sleep, the peaceful sleep
Take the very breath I breathe
If love was meant to hurt this way
I shall never love nor hold another
...... In My Heart ......
Frozen in this tomb of unhappiness
Unable to break the shackles that bind
My mind twists and turns, never fully resting
Images dance with a smirk, again and again
...... Tearing at my heart .....
Please let me sleep, the peaceful sleep
Please take the very breath I breathe
If love was meant to hurt this way
I shall ne

Mile High Club 4:20just want ed to say what up i just want really cool stories of your adventures

TimelessIslovetimeless?Does it spanpassing of decades?Is it unaffected by space?Everlasting, eternal, ageless, older than time.True love surpassed the ages, more certain than death itself, souls drawn closer with each rebirth.Through the centuries our spirits met, we shared pleasures beyond earthly recognition.Awareness encompassed hearts that knew the joy of lovingin each life, never forgetting. Reliving moments,ecstasyof lovewefound.

Never Be Me AgainALREADY I AM SADDENED
AS YOU HAVE TOUCH MY LIFE
SO DO YOU MAKE ME SAD
LEAVING ISN'T THE ANSWER
FAMILY STICKS TOGETHER ALWAYS
SLAP ME DOWN FOREVER FALLING
STAY WITH US CAUSE WE CARE
I CAN NEVER BE ME AGAIN
MY HEART IS DESTORYED AGAIN
I KNOW IT WAS CRAZY AT TIMES
I FELT THE FEELINGS INSIDE
ALWAYS GROWING IN MY MINDS EYE
EVIL NEVER DIES IT JUST EVOLVES
THATS WHAT WE ALWAYS SAID
BUT TTHE LOSE FOR ME IS GREAT
I FEEL WE LET YOU DOWN
I KNOW YOUR REASONS
I KNOW MY EMPTYNESS IS GREAT
OTHERS FEEL IT TO
BUT I CAN NEVER BE ME AGAIN
BLACK HEART FOREVER SADDENED BY IT ALL . for those who have friends and family that go away but are never seen again , keep them close in your heart and always look down the road for the hope they return soon .

For CravenI have an offer that you might like. I am offering NSFW salutes for people or person who sends my #1 Craven Moorehead a Jugga Face bling.. You are my treasure, my world, my fame;I share your heart, your joys, soon your nameI give you love, and peace of mind;You give me laughter and thoughts so kindI give you care, you take it from me;You give me warmth, so willing, so freeI give you a promise to have and to hold;You give me your love more precious than goldI give you my trust, and also my heart;You give me a promise that we'll never part
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Things To Think AboutOK lets see if the Third time is the charm here. Memorial Day is a day to remember those who made the ultimate scarf ice for this country. Yeah all gave some and some gave all is so correct in portions. Less than 90+% of us are in the military at some degree and less than that even went to defend this country. So yeah we don't look for your respect or even ask for it but when I see a status that a hero is someone who knows right from wrong that makes me sick cause anyone then is a hero where some have a made a scarf ice that no one else would make for you. No disrespect to the fireman , police officers, or even the medics that stay here they place there lives on the line just as well. But those of us who have been to war and a veteran are a rare breed we have been places and done things that we should never had to do because we were trying to protect either ourself or one of our brothers in arms. Regardless what you think a true soldier each time comes back differently and wonders how

Things To Think AboutWhy some soldiers go into battle without even wondering why just do as they are asked even when others ask them why they have no answer other than my country needs me?
A country boy will survive anywhere he is placed but continues to look for the country however a city boy can't survive outside the city?
A soldier will lay down his life for what he believes in and protect those around him with no questions asked but come home at times to ridicule and say that is why I fight?
Why is it easier to go with the flow of things and complain rather than make a suggestion to do the change that you see needs to be done?
Why do we tend to push those away we love at times to protect them instead of drawing them closer into us?
Did you know that it takes less muscles to smile than it does to do anyother facial expression.
Never figured this out why do we need peace and quiet to think cause we should be able to think at any point and time shouldn't we cause we have to make decisions in life co

The SituationsWhat the hell is the world coming to. Just last year there was a guy in Wisconsin who tied and taped his kid up because he didn't want to wear his packer jersey. Seriously, people are crazy now days. I mean what if the kid thought the jersey was too big, or it might have smelled like ass. What if the jersey had a ketchup stain on it and he just wanted to wash it first. lol Noooooo the father decides to tape him to a chair.
Now we have this asshole who uses a dog collar to shock his kid. What happen to a good ole fashion ass whippin. That's what I got when I got out of line. I guess that explains why I love my women to spank me with a spiked belt....lol it all makes sense now. So I get to work yesterday morning and I found out that a coworker of mine who actually is a childhood friend I got a job for, his nephew hung himself. He was 15 years old and was living in an abusive home. It shattered my world. I couldn't work or eat. I just sat and thought about life. I feel so bad for the mot

Straight TalkThe Center for Disease Control has issued a warning about a newvirulent strain of this old disease. The disease is called GonorrheaLectim. It's pronounced "Gonna re-elect 'em," and it is a terribleObamanation.The disease is contracted through dangerous and high risk behaviorinvolving putting your cranium up your rectum. Many victims contractedit in 2008...but now most people, after having been infected for thepast1-2 years, are starting to realize how destructive this sickness is.It's sad because Gonorrhea Lectim is easily cured with a new drug justcoming on the market called Votemout. You take the first dose in 2010and the second dose in 2012 and simply don't engage in such behavioragain; otherwise, it could become permanent and eventually wipe out alllife as we know it.Several states are already on top of this, like Virginia and New Jerseyandapparently now Massachusetts , with many more seeing the writing on thewall.Please pass this important message on to all those bright folk youre

Black Wolf StoryThe black wolf awakes with the feeling that his white wolf was beside him. When he relized she was not. He let out a howl of pain and let the tears fall from his eyes. As the black wolf starts out for his day out he see's his white wolf every where he looks. With the tears still falling off his face. The black wolf prays to the gods that he can make up for the pain he casued in the heart of his white wolf. He finds himself looking at his own reflextion in the stream as he gets a drink from it. All he see's is emptyness in his eyes. Where there use to be happiness and joy when he was together with his white wolf. The black wolf wishes she knew how much he misses her and needs her in his life. Without her in his life his life is empty and meaningless. Wondering wolfThe wolf wonders the land looking for that special one.now that the wolf has found her she is gone just as fast.She was taken way from him even though she says she keft on her own.Now the wolf wonders around lost in this big

MusicI'm missing you so much, I'll see you die tonight Just so I can get to you before the sun will rise I know the signs are on and I feel this too None of that ever seems to matter when I'm holding you And I'm wasting away, away from you What have I gotten into this time around I know that I had sworn I'd never trust anyone again but I didn't have to You had me at hello. I've never seen a smile that can light the room like yours It's simply radiant, I feel more with everyday that goes by I watch the clock so I can make my timing just right Would it be okay? Would it be okay if I took your breath away? And I'm wasting away, away from you. What have I gotten into this time around I know that I had sworn I'd never trust anyone again but I didn't have to You had me at hello You gave me butterflies at the mailbox, you had me at hello. Lead to the river Midsummer, I waved A "V" of black swans On with hope to the grave And though Red September With skies fire-paved I begged you ap

Just A Few Poems I Wrotewe said we would make it this time
when things got rough
i lost my mind for a bit and hurt you
more then i relized
now i have lost the love you said you had for me
so now im so empty inside
i just miss the love we shared with each other
everyone keep telling me
that we wouldnt make it but you said
yes we would
i belived it and i always thought you would be there
as my love but your not
so i walk around as a zombie heartles and souless
i lost my reason for living and that was your love i love you so much when im around you
my world is right and i feel
alive
i love you so much that when we are
apart even for a few hours
me world is so
dark
if i was to ever loose you
i would be so lost
i wouldnt know what to do
my mind body soul and heart
is yours and always will be
when your hurting im hurting
when your upset i am upset
i feel like im not ever good enough
for such a woman like you
cuase when im around you and holding you
i am in a world where it is all
suns

Just A Poem I Wrotelove for one person
when you love someone so much that it makes you hurt so much. you dont care what you got to do to help that person out. but what hurts is when that person just keeps their hearted closed to you.expectaly when the person use to talk to you about anything. it casues more emotional pain then anyone can relize. it even gets you so far down that it causes physical pain.
wondering around
as i walk the streets trying to find what im looking gfor i hear your voice in my head that is lovely voice teling me that ill find what im looking for and that you still have your love for me. then something brings me back around and i relize that it is just a voice in my head and wishful thinking. then my phone rings and it is you on the other end wiht that soothing lovely voice of you. i just long for the the day to hear those three speical words " I LOVE YOU" to come over the phone from your end again. i just hope one day to hear those words from you again. but when we ge

Finally SummerSo anyway, I tried to play the who is my admirer game, and lost horribly. damn my luck!!!! OK so today was the end of a year of pretty intense schooling. We took our national board exams and luckily I can say I passed with flying colors. No more school, no more paperwork, no more people looking over my shoulder at everything. Tonight I tip the glass to all the other guys in class that passes as well. Good job guys, Cheeers, and here's one for the team! SO today the sun came out for the first time in a few weeks. Too bad I slept in alittle (well alot). I have a million things to do out in the yard but it will have to wait. Tom. Ill graduate for the second time. Im so glad to finished with school. Now I can relax be the bum that I want to be. Gottta go stock the mini fridge with more beer.......Thanks to those that have added me, Im begining to enjoy this FUBAR...hopefully more (better) pics will be posted soon.

Random Status MessagesBored to death in the recesses of my perverted mind, lol. The shadows that hide behind these eyes tell a story of beauty and loyalty that has yet to be shown truth without drama and secrecy. Will you be the one to break your silence and tell those words that your heart knows must be told? They say I can make it without you, I can do this alone, I am stronger by myself, I can get through this, I don't need a mate to make me complete, and I am not meant to be happy. I say I do need my partners support in all decision concerning our family. I do not wanna do this alone, I want your support. We are stronger as a team. Only with our combined strength and God's help can we conquer everything. If I was not meant to be happy, whole and complete with your healing love then God would not of sent you to me like I prayed. You are the best thing that has happened to me and the answer to all my prayers. You are the one that has always been for me, you are and will always be my other half. I love you

ThoughtsCrazy day trying to keep up with everything that can be done in fubar...
I will learn!!!
It is interesting that this actually helps me feel less lonely...

Watchmen Is WatchingI am here to observe and meet some HOT & SEXY women.I am open to many different types of women and enjoy the company of a sexy,intelligent and fun woman or women as the case may be. I really enjoy playing Fumafia and have fun in the turf I am in.We stick together,help each other,and have a lot of laughs together.
We are the superheroes of Fuland.

Khalifa.qaweeUnless you like credit cards and scams stick with the Laws(boys in BLue)
But if you want to contact someone on this site stop making it seem that your so special that you have to have friends and that you your self is special..Let people know who you really are and stop blocking yiur file..If you look sexy people are going to wish they can screw you but the people you blogg and send liking's of dont make it so hard for them to cum if you really like them or are interested in them...open your leg's allready nobody actually know s where you are unless they are serial stockers and have an I.Q. of 210...Get real ladies your not going to sleep with any one who doesn't look good or you feel that they are actually n the city and you seen them before..If your not a pot head or drunk, Meth monster of shooter ...nothing is ever possible to talk to people who fuck and have orgies... what is this site really for ..I have good times not drinking even if i was drunk right now ..what makes me feel o

When You Start To Wonder About LifeA few hours ago, i got a phone call, telling me that my uncle, had taken his own life.
This was a man , who all my life, was the only level headed one, of a huge family.
Always the strong one, always there to help the others, always smiling, happy.
But recently his business went bad, and he felt he had nothing left, but to take his own life.
Leaving behind, a wife.. 2 kids, 2 grand kids.. and i can't seem to get my head around it all.
How can the one we all knew as the strongest man, be so weak???
Does life really feel that bad for some people???
I know all this sounds cold, and uncaring, but suicide REALLY gets to me, so many people take that way out now, and i know that some just can't see a way out... but do they realize the destruction they leave behind?
It's like I'm hurting, yet disapointed at the same time, that one of my own , would take this way out.
Please don't get me wrong, i love him dearly, thats why this is hurting so much... I just wish he had of talked to us.

Anarchy In Dfwgranted it's been a while since I've posted in my blog but there are reasons-- I've been just sorting out some thing happening with myself but I'm gaining control and its all coming out roses, so to speak.. I've found someone that means the world to me and I couldnt ask for a better love...who is she? now now now, such things arent meant to be aired in public *winks* this song by the band Demon Hunter not only deals with depression and the hope for help but also with those struggling with finding a cure for what ails them....I'm also dedicating this blog to my mom who is fighting Hep C
I still wonder when the medicine will take it's effect.And The injection they made, it's all just left me the same.It's hard to concentrate with echoes of your voice in my head.From all you said, I'm still paralized.But I'm almost out of breathe from saying things that I'll regret.My time is over, I can't do this alone.I'm infected with you, pull the plug already.Tell me before I go, that your infect

The Easy Way Out?Everyone hears the word "Suicide" and has their own views on the topic. I am always hearing people say suicide is the easy way out. Someone told me tonight (in regards to an issue with someone close that i love), "I have never thought about doing something like that, how could someone want to just take the easy way out? Are they really that incapable of handling their own issues?" It boggles my mind how one minded people can be. Is it really so hard to think that people come from different backgrounds, have different experiences, and deal with different situations every day? Everyone is different and we all know that. Why is it so hard to think that some people can't deal with certain issues the same way you can. We are expected to handle the problems of our world through relaxing, talking, thinking, venting, writing ect... No matter what happens to us in life we are told that it can be worked out. That's the way things should be done.
When is enough, enough? I'm not saying that I su

New Life StartedMy husband passed away back in June of 2008, this month I have gone ahead and begun a new life with a new man and am living with him. We've known eachother for 6 months now-so, it's not rushing into anything. I waited until long after the passing of my husband to begin going into the dating world again. It's scary living with someone again-but, it's a natural flow to the relationship that I'm having. Everyone have a blessed day-and hope to talk to each and everyone of you soon.

Why....Why can't I control my heart? Why do I always screw up every relationship I've ever been in? Why do I love so hard yet walk away. Why? Why can't I just find a girl who loves me for who I am? Why can't I find some kind of happiness in my life? Why am I crying when I write this? Why? Why should I not delete my profile here at Fubar? Everyone says it is just a game. Why play games? Life is too short and love too hard to find to play games. Why was I such a fool to think I could find love here? Why? Why do I think I will actually find love? Why don't I just realize that I was made to walk this earth alone? Why???

Still Stings...joeA hundred days have made me older Since the last time that I saw your pretty face A thousand lies have made me colder And I don't think I can look at this the same But all the miles that separate Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight it's only you and me, yeah The miles just keep rollin' As the people leave their way to say hello I've heard this life is overrated But I hope that it gets better as we go, oh yeah yeah I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight girl it's only you and me Everything I know and anywhere I go It gets hard but it won't take away my love And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done It gets hard b

For My Little Itty Bitty Baby Boy!Well Momma was exhausted after she had me, took two nurses to hold me, and one nurse to slap me. Doctor turned to momma and he shook his head, wiped the sweat off his brow, and then he said , "This boys way off the charts, as far as I can tell, ooo brrrr momma he's a double X L!" By the second grade I was 5' 2"! Fifth grade I was wearing a size 12 shoe! Eighth grade I was shopping at the, Big and Tall, and the coaches had me playing High School football. Uncle Roy said "Boy you'll make the NFL! ooo brrrrr son, you're a double XL!" Double XL, Double XL! Dont call me on the phone just ring my dinner bell. Double XL Double XL! Im a lean, mean, love machine that likes to be held, ooo brrrrr baby Im a double XL! Here we go! Country cuties in Texas, string bikinis in Florida, Barbie Dolls driving Lexus, out in California. A skinny little pretty boy aint what they wanna hold, they want a real man with meat on his bones! I'll yank their Yankees, ring their Southern Bells, t

Bruce Campbell SayingsMemorable quotes for Army of Darkness
I love this movie and I thought it would be fitting to have one of my favorite things in this world in my first blog. (I lifted this from IMDB - so call me a cheat if you want)
Ash: Yeah! [after shooting King Arthur's sword in half]
Ash: Alright you Primitive Screwheads, listen up! You see this? This... is my boomstick! The twelve-gauge double-barreled Remington. S-Mart's top of the line. You can find this in the sporting goods department. That's right, this sweet baby was made in Grand Rapids, Michigan. Retails for about a hundred and nine, ninety five. It's got a walnut stock, cobalt blue steel, and a hair trigger. That's right. Shop smart. Shop S-Mart. You got that?
[first lines] [opening monologue] Ash: My name is Ash and I am a slave. As far as I can figure, the year is thirteen hundred A.D and I'm being dragged to my death. It wasn't always like this, I had a real life, once. A job Ash: [now Ash is in a flashback] Umm... Hardware

Help Me Pleaseeeeee......ok my fone got cut off and i dont get paid till tuesday next week and my daughters really really sick ill do anything if someone will pay it online for me just click this link below and enter 813-384-0957 as number my bill is 57.00 please someone help me https://payments.billmatrix.com/MetroPCS/Welcome.asp

Rantings Part 1I don't understand this website. Noone ever write me, nor buys me a drink. Do I have to post some "half dressed pix or what".. I am a fun filled girl that can def keep a converstation going.... Well im off to bring the puppy to the vet.... Untill my next ranting take care

Knee Surgeyok so last monday i went in and had my right knee scoped basically i had all my torn cartlidge taken out . I went to the the doc for my follow up visit and found out that i have partial bone on bone and no dcartlidge left in my right knee so wich means within the next 10 yrs i will be going in for a knee replacement which should be fun NOT.

My Smut =d Tracy and Ron had only been dating for a little while and this was the last night of their very first trip “away from it all” as Tracy called it. They sat watching as the flames danced around the fire pit. Wrapping around each other like 2 lovers entwined, crackling and popping as the wood burned beneath. The stars above seemed to twinkle in rhythm with the flames and a sliver of the moon smiled at their harmony. No other evening of this trip had shown itself with such perfection and no other evening charged their souls as well.
After laying a blanket out on the ground, Ron looks at Tracy and asks if she’ll come join him. Reluctant to leave the comforts of her seat, she walks over and lies down in front of him. Locked in a spoon, they continue to be mesmerized by the passion of the dancing flames. Ron puts his arm around Tracy and pulls her body tighter to his own. She responds with a smile, just barely visible by th

LoveDo you know that SEX can tell what your age is?
Just do a simple Math..
How many times would you like to have sex in a week? (choose 1-9)
Multiply your number by 2:
plus 5:
multiply it by 50
add 1758
then subtract your birthyear.. now you'll have a 3-digit number
The first is the number of times you would like to have sex and the last 2 digits is your age..
:) Sometimes, we realize to change for the better just when the situation got worse.. we realize to finally correct our mistakes just when those mistakes have cause irreversible damage.. we finally decided to prove ourselves worthy just when the person whom you want to prove your worth has already decided that your not worth it at all..
Most of the lessons are learned when the test is over, that's how IRONIC LIFE is.. I cant force somebody to like me and love me..
I cant convince somebody to believe me and appreciate me..
I cant please somebody to make friends with me..
I cant be perfect as what they want me to be..
I

Seriously.. Wtf!*sigh* Life always has to lead you on doesn't it? You think you finally got your sh*t in order and then "Wham! Bam! Thank you Ma'am, but I don't think so..." Then instead of suport from the people you think are supposed to be there, you get nothing...
All you hear for days is "Why are you being such a b*tch?" What kind of answer are you really expectin to hear? You don't tend to like "Because I can?"
Do you think I'm going to deal with this by myself? Seriously? If you really knew anything about me, you'd realize that is the last thing that will happen. *sigh* Why is it that when you meet a person you really like, things are great for a while and then things get complicated and stressful? I'm open and honest, so if you ask I'll tell you my honest opinion. Yes I speak without thinking a little more often than I should. Would you rather me lie to you? I know what I want, but how to get it is the problem. I've done the whole friends with benefits route and the casual dating thing. I'm h

Things You Want To KnowMy NSFW hardcore pics are now family-only. These are really naughty and hardcore pics of me having sex or masturbating.
If you're not in my family, you don't get to see them and I won't send them to your email either.
So the next question is, how to get onto my family list?
People I know personally and whom I enjoy frequent contact with will be added naturally. I'll only add people voluntarily if we've established a good relationship. And yes, this takes time, given my busy schedule.
On the other hand, if you really can't wait, you can buy family status with favours. This includes gifting FuBling, VIP status and blasts, or a generous amount of Fubucks.
Also, anyone who Fu-Owns me or is in a Fu-Marriage with me will qualify for my family list in that amount of time that you Fu-own me or are Fu-married to me. Just a note though, Fu-ownership doesn't last very long and sometimes, I get bought by someone else before i even log in to acknowledge your ownership. So buy at your own discr

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Online Generic Pharmacy E-shopMany people looking for an impotence cure try Viagra because it is one of the more common impotence cures available and were the first of its kind. Cialis and other drugs have followed suit with medicinal solutions that are as effective, but Viagra is available everywhere you look. Usually Viagra comes in dosages of 25, 50 and 100 mg tablets. If you buy them from an online pharmacy then you would be well advised to purchase the 100mg tablets. They are more cost effective, especially when bought in bulk and using a pill splitter or even a kitchen knife, and by starting with fractions of a pill you can easily up the size of dosage you take if this is required. Generic Viagra is an anti-impotence drug manufactured by Pfizer with an active ingredient sildenafile citrate for treatment of male impotence. Sildenafil citrate relaxes the muscles and increases the blood flow to particular areas of the body. The intake of Viagra increases the ability to achieve and sustain erection on being sexua

Generic Viagra Helps In Treating Erectile DysfunctionGeneric Viagra Soft Tabs are used to treat Erectile Dysfunction in men The Soft Tabs versions of the bestselling Generic Viagra absorb into your bloodstream quickly without losing their potency. They can be taken as little as 15 minutes before intercourse and remain active for up to 4 hours. Nearly half of all patients receiving prescriptions today are choosing to purchase generic drugs; they are safe to use and equal in quality to any brand – the only difference is that you don't have to pay brand name prices. Generic drug is a medicine which is chemically equivalent to a brand-name product, but available under its generic chemical name (e.g. Sildenafil Citrate is a generic name of a medicine known as Viagra). Generic drug is identical, or bio-equivalent to its branded drug equivalent in dosage form, safety, strength, route of administration, quality, performance characteristics and intended use. It is manufactured by the certified producer but not by the original drug's produce

Toxic: Dr.pepperThis Monday, April 13, 2009 photo shows a recipe titled "D Peppers Pepsin Bitters" in a ledger book from the Waco, Texas, drugstore where Dr Pepper was invented. Poking through antiques stores, Bill Waters stumbled across the tattered old ledger book filled with formulas. The maker of the soft drink says it's not the secret formula, but that hasn't stopped the book from generating interest at an upcoming auction. (AP Photo/Donna McWilliam) (Donna McWilliam, AP / April 13, 2009)
DALLAS (AP) — Poking through antiques stores while traveling through the Texas Panhandle, Bill Waters stumbled across a tattered old ledger book filled with formulas. He bought it for $200, suspecting he he could resell it for five times that. Turns out, his inkling about the book's value was more spot on than he knew. The Tulsa, Okla., man eventually discovered the book came from the Waco, Texas, drugstore where Dr Pepper was invented and includes a recipe titled "D Peppers Pepsin Bitters." "I beg

Online Generic PharmacyGeneric Viagra drugs have been used for long for different purposes. Generally, there is a notion that these drugs are harmful to health. However, as per a recently conducted research, it is now clear that these can also be good and effective for us. Scientists are continuously working to explore more about other uses of these drugs. Many herbal drugs have been introduced which are having charismatic effect. Generic Viagra is a very popular generic drug which is being used as the alternative of the famous medicine Viagra. It is used for many purposes. The generic name of this drug is "Sildenafil Citrate". The successful treatment of erectile dysfunction in men is done with the help of this drug. It works on the similar theory of active ingredient and gives the effective solution. Original Viagra is very costly and not easily available, whereas the generic form of Viagra is relatively cheaper and can be found easily at any medical store. Both the original and generic versions of Viagra

Fubar And It's Log InWell I will probably have my account deleted for this but I am to the point.........does it matter anymore? I have tried for days on end to log into my account and our homepage account. By going through http://www.fubar.com and to my surprise it will not let me log in and go to my logged in page. Also it seems, I am logged in on the fubar side, but not on my side because it keeps redirecting me to yet ANOTHER log in page. I tried EVERYTHING to get online, and guess what! Finally I logged in but, in order for me to log in I had to hit this link fubar. It goes to the "MEET US" page. I can either create another account or I can log in there. What is really going on with FUBAR? Is it finally "Fugged Up Beyond All Recognition"?
The bombing families cannot bomb anymore due to it supposedly flooding the servers. You can't rate pics anymore, due to flooding the servers. What is the point in buying VIP's etc, if you can't even level without buying different things that FUBAR gain

RamblingsThis is something we should all read at least once a week!
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio
"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.
It is the most-requested column I've ever written."
My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once
more:
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

The Best Part Of My Day:)The best part of my day after a long hard day at work or the stress we all face and problems we all seem to share weather it be money,family ,or just the everyday bullshit we face i can honestly say my wife is the best part of my day with a careing word or a simple i love you i know we will be ok. I cnt believe all the shit this woman has delt with before me and now with me shes a trooper my energy my breath when i cant breath and my heartbeat when i want to give up shes a little fiesty at times lol those eyes that are so beautiful can show just how pissed she is by a glance ,they also show the loving tifanie who is loyal considerate and goes without and doesnt complain just says baby it will get better she is my world and 6-13-08 was the best day of my life baby you are more than amazing i love you:) she loves pink so baby heres somthing beautiful for you:)

My First Attempts At Writing Songs
As I drag your body to it's final resting place I think about your slowly ripping open your heartAnd getting me a tasteof that Virgin blood that I all so adore licking and sucking I keep wanting more But I cant do that I need to stop Because before the end of night you'll be buried 6 ft below I look down upon your faceDirty and bloody, what a fuking worthless disgraceI grab you up by your hair pulled you closer and whispered in your fukin ear....( Chorus ) Im gonna take your life bitchYou gonna die bitch Choke and suffocate till you cant take another breath BitchIm gonna take your life bitch You gonna die bitch Choke and suffocate till you cant take another breath Bitch

26i found that while i'm on m way 2 gettin drunk off my ass things are simpler, rathor than being sober. i see tings in a different light; and i'm no longer depressed.i'll sit outside for hours and just enjoy the quite surroundings. i don't know what it is about it but i fee more at peace. is there anybody out there that can explain y that is? if so drop me a line. well i'm another year older and i i can count on 1 hand who wished me a happy b-day. i guess i should feel spiecial, cuz the 1 i love w/ all that i have said happy b-day; but i don't. i miss her so very much but she loves another right now. can anybody help me figure out what i should do? please im me @wildcard666_69@yahoo.com

Max MathSO, JUST HOW DO YOU SAY SO LONG TO SOMEONE YOU NEVER REALLY MET?SOMEONE YOU NEVER TOUCHED OR FELT, BUT YET,THERE ARE FEELINGS, STRONG FEELINGS THAT YOU GETFROM THE TYPING, THE WORDS AND A PICTURE OF A SMILEA SMILE SHARED WITH THE WORLD BUT YOU TO NOT REGRET.I LEARNED FROM YOU AS FROM SO MANY OTHERS AND I KNOWTHERE WAS, OH, SO MUCH MORE TO DISCOVER.HOW CAN YOU GIVE BACK A HEART THAT YOU HAD NEVER SEEN TO BEGIN WITHAND YET YOU OFFERED IT LIKE IT WAS REALLY YOURSWHILE THE WORLD LOOKED ON BUT THEY NEVER HEARDTHE TYPING OF OUR FINGERS THAT WERE OUR ONLY WORDSSO HERE I AM THINKING THAT I'LL MISS YOUR PICTURE THE WORDS ON THE SCREEN AND YOUR LITTLE TYPED WINKIE ;-)BUT NEVER A TOUCH, NOT EVEN A PINKIEMUCH LESS LIPS AND ARMS AND LEGS AND SWEAT OR A LITTLE KINKYJUST LITTLE EMOTICONS ALL RUN TOGETHERIT FELT LIKE I NEVER REALLY KNEW YOU AT ALLBECAUSE EVERY SITE I CRUISED TO YOU WERE ANOTHER SO THEN HOW COULD I KNOW WHICH ONE WAS REALLY YOUWHEN TYPING AND PICTURES WAS ALL THERE WAS TO MAKE ONE THIN

How To Make Contact Mehit me up in my yahoo messenger account my addy is dizzyKiersten6969...see you there, thanks!P.S => ive got a lot of photos out there, we can trade if you want

Just Shut Up And Listen.Hmm.. I almost have nothing to say anymore. Life seems very insightful so far, but what can I say I haven't lived long enough to say anything great. I have had a lot of shit happen in my life, but that is what makes me, me, of course. I could have gone without some crap happening in my life. Though I am some what content. I came home today after a week away to shit. Who else my mother. My house is not a home or a place of ease I go day by day grinding my teeth pulling back my urge to pull out a knife and slit her throat or at least shut her up. You ever seen in movies when a person stalks or a child stalks around the house with a knife in attempt to kill a person I've done it more than three times. Define the word bitch and you'll see a picture of my mother. The horrid woman who gave birth to me, I would rather have died when I was being pulled out, I tried killing her. Example I was the only C section out of three and they had to move organs and stuff I was moving further up towards h

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Lhp5o2WCXI To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait" To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her. To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down. To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. .... To every guy that she cried in front of... To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes..... To every guy that would give his seat up... To every guy that just

It's MeI have no idea of what I'm actually supposed to do on here....anyone willing to help?

Dentistok so at 9 am I have a dentist appt.. my first in 5 days. its a new dentist so that also makes me anxious. I dont like going to the dentist just makes me nervous I guess. last time they tried to pull a tooth out and it never came out b/c it hurt too much. in fact thats anothing worry.. they will still have to pull that same tooth out. but I guess if I just go and get it over with I will have no more anxiety or worries right?
any advice?

Where It Ati have to say that this place rocks u meet cool people have a great time and the lounges offer great tunes im not trying to hye up this place if u are a member u know what i mean so i have to say this place is where it at rock out with youre c***k out very one who read this thank for taking the time im new at it so u have a great night

So Happyi am so happy, i've got a wonderful future hubbie and things have been goin so good for me. it's not perfect but nothing is. me and my high school sweetheart have been on again off again for a while, and we're back together again and this time it's set. we have our three babies and are so happy together. i can't wait for the soon upcoming day where i'll be his wife :D i've never loved anyone the way i love this man. he's the only man that knows me and what i need. he's the first real man to come in my life that i respect and care about. we've had our problems, but worked through them all. he's wonderful and i love him lots :) it's a wonderful feeling loving someone this much. i'm so lucky to have such a wonderful sweet guy. i never thought i would be in love like this, it's incredible.

Summer Is HereKids are doing the softball thing so time for me on here will be limited and very spuratic. Stop by and say hey, send some drinks, etc....I'll always return the favor.
Smitty

Pimp OutsDo you want one? Just tell me if you do here and I will give them out in order of the comments. What's the catch? Nothing,I do it because I can. Just leave a comment and I will start again tomorrow. Remember,I only have 3 a day so have some patience :-) By the way,this new blog crap sucks!!!

Happy If U No Mehell ya happy no finally over that girl that i loved so much she broke my heart and im threw wit her but ne ways im back in the action if u want to hang out come down to odessa tx and we will for sure if not jus text or call me my number is 4323496833 ya ya

Loving....Well... Its now less than a week and I'll be in the place i have longed to be in for a while...... In my wifes arms.... A day that I never though would come.... And now that its here.... It feels like a dream.... a dream I know I never want to get woken up from....
I finally get to start a new life of happiness..... and get away from the pain and memories of my past..... I never though I could possible love someone as much as I do my wife..... And most of all... I never thought I would have someone whos my equal.... Someone that doesnt look down on my past or things that have happened before her..... She doesnt see me for my past.... She sees me for my NOW.... She accepts me for everything.... Before anythign else, she has shown me what it truely feels liek to not only have an amazing woman as my wife, but a woman who is also my best friend..... I couldnt possibly ask for anything greater than that......
I Love You Nicole, Heart, Mind, Body, And Soul!!!!
Thank You for coming into my

My Shit So ive had some shit been goin....fuckin no job. been single for awhile. usually i sit at home but i was kidnapped recently lol...not in a bad way of course. Ive recently just rejoined fubar and i missed it a lot. Im happy to have the friends i have on here. i hope for more of course...but this is just my first blog entry that id figure i would write. so hope everyone is doin well

If It Should Beif it shouls be that i grow weak
and pain should keep me from my sleep;
then you must do what must be done,
for this last battle cant be won.
you will be sad, i understand;
but don't let greif then stay your hand.
for this day more than all rest,
you love for me must stand the test.
we've had so many happy years;
what is to come can hold no fears.
you dont want me to suffer so
the time has come, please let me go.
take me where my need they'll tend,
but please stay woth me'til the end
to hold me close and speak to me
until my eyes no longer see.
i know in time you will agree,
it was a kindness done for me.
although my tail its last has waved,
from pain and suffereing i'm saved.
please do not grieve that it was you
who had this painful thing to do
we've been so close, we two, through the
years;
don't let your heart hold any tears.
AUTHOR UNKNOWN
I COPIED THIS FROM A WEBSITE THAT HELPS ME GET OVER MY LOSS OF PETS!!!

The Aisle SeatThe Aisle Seat
Two Radical Arab Terrorist types boarded a flight out of London . One took a window seat and the other sat next to him in the middle seat. Just before takeoff, a U.S. Marine sat down in the aisle seat. After takeoff, the Marine kicked his shoes off, wiggled his toes and was settling in when the Arab in the window seat said, “I need to get up and get a coke.” “Don't get up,” said the Marine, “I'm in theaisle seat, I'll get it for you.” As soon as he left, one of the Arabs picked up the Marines shoe and spat in it. When the Marine returned with the coke, the other Arab said, “That looks good, I'd really like one, too.” Again, the Marine obligingly went to fetch it. While he was gone the other Arab picked up the Marines other shoe and spat in it. When the Marine returned, they all sat back and enjoyed the flight. As the plane was landing, the Marine slipped his feet into his shoes and knew immediately what had happened.

My ThoughtsIf you ever think you are alone remember you are one of over a billion people on this planet.Pace yourself; you have a whole life to fill.God has given you everything you need to suceed.Keep your head up and a smile on your face; unless you can't.Wish upon a star, you never know what might come true.Always think of way to have fun, then go and do it.Try, Try, Try and you'll Suceed, Suceed, Suceed.Always rely on your friends and family for things you can't do yourself.Never think you can't do something, because that is the only way that you can't.If you keep looking back, you'll never move forward.At a certain point, you need to stop thinking of others and start thinking of yourself.Try as you might you can't change someone that doesn't want to change.If you know what you want-go and get it.If you love someone don't give up on them.Never change for someone who won't change for you.

My First Blog~I thought I would take advantge of this blog thing by saying Thank~You to all who took the time to send so much love and kyndness for my birthday. Out here in the real world I have a small circle of family and phrends that love me. In the fu-world I got a country full of family and phrends! So Right On to you all! ~Peace~

Lyrics....a woman. Or rather the ideas and sound to them. Sometimes your ideas are good and you are on the ball making every smooth move and transitioning like a pro as the lyrics shape themselves and the ideas come to you without any hassle, other times you wipe out and things just don't seem to go your way cuz the ideas are against you just being a bitch. Lol, ah well, guess you have to roll with the punches. Too bad I have work early tommorow morning. At least I could find a way to sort things out in when it comes to writing lyrics.

Questionaire...BASICS:
Name:
Age:
Location:
Height:
Hair (color and style):
Eyes:
Piercings/tattoos:
OTHER:
1. Where would we go on dates?
2. Who is your favorite artist?
3. Do you drink/smoke?
4. Do you like the rain?i
5. If so...would you play in it with me?
6. Do you like movies?
7. If so would you stay up and watch them with me all night?
8. Could we cuddle and just fall asleep together?
9. Would you kiss my neck?
10. Do you play any sports?

An Ultra GuyIf any of yous didn't know http://fubar.com/user/377378 is my account, but it's abandoned.
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With that being said, the question(s) that baffle alot of ppl's minds is why I've never dated or had anyone. The answer is a couple of things. One, is that I have to be sure I can handle it. Another is that Im admiting I'm too busy trying to find mS. Right, because I don't want to waste my time. Now there's a start for ya...
I have seen alot and have experienced alot in my years leading to my late twenties. I am very visual and Im a watcher, and I have learned from mistakes that I have made and others. It's made me a stronger person. I came on Fubar as a 'safe' means of flirting and mingling with girlfriends. I keep my list short so I can better attend to those special to me.
I have safe habits I eat healthy, my addiction is moretheless Vault soda I LOVE IT* not cigarettes, weed ganja or all everyone's crap so I say it. I'm not nor was ever out to win a '

To Hot For Da Gs!da chill now tryn to c what up with my girl andi right now to all my friend i post dis to show how happy iam to have u all as friend thanx for be my nice friend one love to all of yall

Thoughts About People On Fubaris it me or does everyone on here sound greedy as hell. i mean i see some profiles with messages saying "bling me now". really???? and if i dont then what. im sorry but i work my ass off to earm my money so y should i spend it on somethign that is meaninless here let me pay money to buy u a stupid icon.... sorry but not happening. and fo rthe peopel who fall for that bullcrap im sure are the same peopel who are always scrounging people for money cause they spend it on here. and aother thing about the blings is that i must give u a bling to see nudes of people...... guess what still not interested. sorry but in my opinion if im buying u bling to see ur nudes doesnt that basically make u a prostitute????? and further more it makes u look slutty if u have more than 10 nudes. yeah sure ur gonna say im just showing what i have and comfy with my body. well i dont mid anyone saying they are comfy with their body but showing it to guys on here who are nly here to get nudes and do crap with the

I´m Back!!I am just heading back from a 3 month party in Costa Rica! Did ya miss me?

Thedons Blogyo has anyone had a chance to stop and think about how the media tries to constantly scare us with this shit first it was ebola the anthrax now it swine flu they want u to believe it nothing more than the work of terrorists but we have the biggest terrorist organization in america and it caled the media wake up people

What Happened To My Leg My youngest son broke a china plate (he pulled it off the kitchen table), my wonderful hubby cleaned it all up for me, but when I came back into the living room, I stepped over the garbage bag that had the broekn pieces in it, but I didnt step far enough over and the plate was standing up against the edge of the bag (broken side up) and it cut the hell outta my leg as I put my foot down.. ended up with 15 stitches.. those pics were taken at the hospital rigtht after they stitched it up.... it looks (and hurts) alot more now Ugh lol Just wanted to let everyone know where I have been. I am very sorry for not returning drinks and such, I will be working on it all day. I just spent the last 28 hours in the hospital with a bleeding ulcer. :( Yuck! But it has been cuterized, and I'm all better and home now. Thank you all for the warm wishes! Your the best! :) Lots of Love! Ok, so I am in this contest... I need everyone to rate and leave lots of comments as I get points for EACH rat

Tips On Pumping GasTIPS ON PUMPING GASI don't know what you guys are paying for gasoline.... but here in California we are also paying higher, up to $3.50 per gallon. But my line of work is in petroleumfor about 31 years now, so here are some tricks to get more of your money's worth for every gallon..Here at the Kinder Morgan Pipeline where I work in San Jose , CA we deliver about 4 million gallons in a 24-hour period thru the pipeline. One day is diesel the next day is jet fuel, and gasoline, regular and premium grades. We have 34-storage tanks here with a total capacity of 16,800,000 gallons.Only buy or fill up your car or truck in the early morning when the ground temperature is still cold. Remember that all service stations have their storage tanks buried below ground. The colder the ground the more dense the gasoline, when it gets warmer gasoline expands, so buying in the afternoon or in the evening....your gallon is not exactly a gallon. In the petroleum business, the specific gravity and the tempe

Bloooogersso I have been gone, and for very good reasons I choose not to discuss as for they make me sad. So much has happend to me that i feel like im a diffrent person now. Shit is and will always be the same but i will break out and keep going. but shit really the only thing on my mind is my friends.. I miss them all i think about going back. back to see it all again. see your smile listen to you laugh. it would always make me smile.
I cant stop thinking that iv lost it all
I cant control this emotion.

Mosquito RemedyTHINK SPRING!!! MOSQUITO REMEDY THAT WORKS!! Never hurts to know or try a new method.I just thought I'd share this since we have a mosquito problem here...And Listerine has no DEET in it, which is nicer for spraying on your children and grandchildren! The best way of getting rid of mosquitoes is Listerine, the original medicinal type. The Dollar Store-type works, too. I was at a deck party awhile back, and the bugs were having a ball biting everyone. A man at the party sprayed the lawn and deck floor with Listerine, and the little demons disappeared.The next year I filled a 4-ounce spray bottle and used it around my seat whenever I saw mosquitoes.And voila! That worked as well. It worked at a picnic where we sprayed the area around the food table, the children's swing area, and the standing water nearby. During the summer, I don't leave home without it.....Pass it on.

All NewAND THE STORY BEGINS...
THE PIMPIN PINK NINJA AND THE PIMPIN BLUE SMURF.. WERE WALKIN THRU THE WOODS, WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEN THE BLUE SAMURAI JUMPS OUT ON TO THEIR PATH.., THE PIMPIN BLUE SMURF AND PIMPIN PINK NINJA LAUGH... BUT OH THE BLUE SAMURAI WAS NOT HAPPY THERE FOR HE SAYS " YOUR NINJA SKILLS ARE NO MATCH FOR MY SAMURAI. THE BLUE SMURFDOES THE CROUCHING TIGER WHERE THE BLUE SAMURAI RUNS AND SAMURAI CHOPS THE NINJAS HEAD OF (MUST INVEST IN STUNT DOUBLE FOR NEXT SCENCE).... STORY CONTINUES AFTER BRIEF PAUSE
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TrueI have made mistakes in my life,
I have let people take advantage of me and i have expected way less than what i deserve,
But i have learned from my bad choices, and even though there are some things i can never get back,
And people who will never be sorry,
I know better next time and want settle for anything less than what i deserve.. A True man does not need to romance a different girl every night, A true man romances the same girl the rest of his life..

Today" Truly To Love...and To Be Loved...
Is a CHOICE...We MAKE Daily"
This year:
It's been a tough,rough year...We were so fortunate NOBODY in my immediate family had cancer....Well surprise!!!
One after another,My Mother,Father,two Aunts,a cousin,then I lost my Aunt this year...Another Aunt still coping with difficulty in recently being blind....Still another emergency surgery....Dad had two this year and about to undergo a third in Dec....
My favorite Aunt....She was a fabulous person....I shall miss her terribly...Then my Grandmother...not one cancer but two!!!...God always hears from me....But more now than ever.To make matters worse my "baby" ended up with the diagnoses...Thank God they were wrong....He only had to have tonsils and adnoids removed....
OhMyGosh....when will it end?....My sister jsut called.NOW she is in the hospital with a tumour and they are operating in the morning....
I miss those days when worry was over silly things...Like where is the money coming fro

Little Bit Bout MeIf you want to hear fiery horns, banging drums and all-around good stuff. Check this out!! This the Madison Scouts Drum and Bugle Corps playing "Malaguena" from there Gold Medal year in 1988. Enjoy!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f67sHIfu9Hs

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A Few Things I HateI hate waking up in physical and mental pain everyday.
I hate being able to easily say "I love you" but in reality not being able to actually "love" anyone.
I hate the constant whispering and voices in my head.
I often hate the fact I wake up in the mornings.
I hate feeling like a burden on my family and friends.
I hate the feeling people think I'm over exaggerating my pain.
I hate breathing.

Betrayedmy father is leaving my mother for a girl whom is only two years older than me....i feel betrayed because this girl use to be my friend. what do i do? do i just sit back and not say a word or do i get angry and let my feelings be heard? i am fixing to have a baby and i don't know if i should allow my father the right to see his grandson or do i ckick him out of my life for being so cruel to my mother as to carry on with this girl all these years and just now telling my mother he hasn't been in love with her for 16 years? What do i do?

DeamonI just got a call from G.S.I telling me that they are cutting me luse

Real TalkSo.... I've been in Philly since the 10th, havent even made it back to NY yet and the way things are looking, I won't be back anytime soon.Mom's cancer spread to her spine and femur so she can no longer walk... The tumor on her c2 vertebrae has basically eroded the bone which the body perceives as a broken neck. The Neurosurgeon was amazed that she is even able to still move her head.We are on an agressive radiation schedule and will probably introduce chemo sometime within the next few following weeks. It's been rough but hopefully the road will be worth traveling and mom will be in one piece again.Thank you so much to those of you who have been following the story and asking, wishing, and praying for my mother's recovery. Though it won't be a speedy one, I truly appreciate everyone's support.Mom's still awake so I have to go back to her hospital room now. x0x0(h) Lilo Mom had her first round of chemo yesterday. Let's just say she isn't the ideal patient. She acted like a coke addict

Fupahttp://fupahunter.blogspot.com/2006/04/guide-to-hunt.html?tid=122
Just Check it out. You wont be dissapointed.

And My Heart Swells With LoveIMMORTAL BELOVEDThe First Letter July 6, in the morningMy angel, my all, my very self - Only a few words today and at that with pencil (with yours) - Not till tomorrow will my lodgings be definitely determined upon - what a useless waste of time - Why this deep sorrow when necessity speaks - can our love endure except through sacrifices, through not demanding everything from one another; can you change the fact that you are not wholly mine, I not wholly thine - Oh God, look out into the beauties of nature and comfort your heart with that which must be - Love demands everything and that very justly - thus it is to me with you, and to your with me. But you forget so easily that I must live for me and for you; if we were wholly united you would feel the pain of it as little as I - My journey was a fearful one; I did not reach here until 4 o'clock yesterday morning. Lacking horses the post-coach chose another route, but what an awful one; at the stage before the last I was warned not to

For The Fans> THE CULLEN PAC WOULD LIKE TO INVITE YOU TO JOIN US ON OUR GRAND OPENING....BEWARE WE DON'T BITE MUCH JUST NIBBLE ALITTLE. > >
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RandomI guess its all the same.I guess ill always be single.I guess this sadness that grows inside me will never change.I guess that is my destiny.I guess this life is over.I guess that it will change when im dead.For now i guess this Mumm is over, just like the words i once spoke before, and from this year to a new year that is just beginning, i guess ill always be single, for i guess its all the same. Im a good man, i work hard, and i take care of my responsibilities. Where on my profile did you read otherwise?? Games, you want to play games, go back to my bio and read my opinion on that. Im just so sick and tired of the repeatitive issue, this is why i stay single, why do you think i want to be with a person who doesnt know how to be my inspiration? In my experience, ive met a few people online, some who are still my closest and dearest freinds, others that i wish ive never met. But, hey, what can i do? New york is filled with horror stories, lol. Im not here to be your puppet. Im not her

Keep Hating Jelousy Is A Sickness! Get Well Bitches"None Of Your Business"What's the matter with your life?Why you gotta mess with mine?Don't keep sweatin' what I doCause I'm gonna be just fine - check it out[CHORUS]If I wanna take a guy home with me tonightIt's none of your businessAnd she wanna be a freak and sell it on the weekendIt's none of your businessNow you shouldn't even get into who I'm givin' skins toIt's none of your businessSo don't try to change my mind, I'll tell you one more timeIt's none of your businessNow who do you think you arePuttin' your cheap two cents in?Don't you got nothin' to doThan worry 'bout my friends? Check it...I can't do nothin', girl, without somebody buggin'I used to think that it was me, but now I see it wasn'tThey told me to change, they called me names, and so I popped oneOpinion's are like assholes and everybody's got oneI never put my nose where I'm not supposed toBelieve me, if he's something that I want, I'm steppin' closerI'm not one for playing high-poleLike the high soditty 90210 type of

The ClimbThe Climb lyricsSongwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;
I can almost see itThat dream I am dreamingBut there's a voice inside my head saying"You'll never reach it"Every step I'm takingEvery move I make feelsLost with no directionMy faith is shakingBut I gotta keep tryingGotta keep my head held highThere's always gonna be another mountainI'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be a uphill battleSometimes I'm gonna have to loseAin't about how fast I get thereAin't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's the climbThe struggles I'm facingThe chances I'm takingSometimes might knock me downBut no, I'm not breakingI may not know itBut these are the moments thatI'm gonna remember most, yeahJust gotta keep goingAnd I, I got to be strongJust keep pushing on'Cause there's always gonna be another mountainI'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be a uphill battleSometimes I'm gonna have to loseAin't about how fast I get thereAin't about what's waiting on the other sid

The "diet"Good morning world. Well today is the second day of "the diet" and I slept like a baby and woke up feeling like a million bucks. I definatly had enough sleep, unlike sunday night, so if I am sleepy today I'll know its the fast and not just me. I'm just a little hungry this morning, nothing a lemonaid and a glass of water won't take care of though. I know however there will be coffee when I arrive and OH I LOVE COFFEE. I know there will be cookies freshly baked and any other scumptious delight I can come up with, so today will truley be a test of faith or willpower or whatever it is I'm running on lol. I know I can do it though, I have to! I refuse to give up on this and I want the weight gone soooooooooo bad. So day two starting off fabuliously ... talk to you tonight!
Ok so I gave in and ate. One of the kids I watch is turning 2 her b day party is saturday and I know I'm going to eat cake! I'll try again next week. It's not that hard the fasting, but the cravings rock my world. Oh we

I Don't Care How Many Friends I Lose Over This!!!!!!!Month OneMommyI am only 4 inches longbut I have all my organs.I love the sound of your voice.The sound of your heart beatis my favorite lullaby.Month TwoMommytoday I learned how to suck my thumb.If you could see meyou could definitely tell that I am a baby.I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though.It is so nice and warm in here.Month ThreeYou know what MommyI'm a boy!!I hope that makes you happy.I always want you to be happy.I don't like it when you cry.You sound so sad.It makes me sad tooand I cry with you even thoughyou can't hear me.Month FourMommymy hair is starting to grow.It is very short and finebut I will have a lot of it.I spend a lot of my time exercising.I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toesand stretch my arms and legs.I am becoming quite good at it too.Month FiveYou went to the doctor today.Mommy, he lied to you.He said that I'm not a baby.I am a baby Mommy, your baby.I think and feel.Mommy, what's abortion?Month SixI can hear that doctor again.I don't

One Of These DaysOne of these days I'm gonna have to get on here and check this site out for all that it is worth. Just don't have the time right now.

Club ParadiseThank you for your interest in applying for a position here at Club Paradise. Below you will find a simple application that you can email to us where we will consider all applications. Here are examples of the Job Descriptions so that you can better understand the duties of each position. DJ: Using the SAMS Broadcast software, play music through the lounge to entertain the listeners. Actively monitor the request line page and communicate with the Head DJ, in regards to any schedule conflicts. Above all else have fun. The more fun the DJ has the more fun there is in the room. Greeter: While in the lounge, actively engage people as they enter, and continue to make everyone feel welcome and a part of the family while also trying to get visitor’s to hit the subscribe button. Make everyone feel welcome and have fun. Promoter: Promotion is an all encompassing task, from going to people's pages and leaving comments, to talking about the lounge as you interact with others on fubar.

.............This blog is to let you all know that I'm not going to blog anytime soon..
wait I'm blogging right now...
Shit!
Nvm. Carry on. So heres the thing.. My Birthday is in a month and I wanna get spotlight on that day cos Im an attention hoar and stuff.
Anyways I would much appreciate any help with fubucks. I mean you dont have to give me anything,wait..yeah you do:P
Ok you really dont but I would be so happy if you helped a girl out:D please please please! I have like 100 mil right now and Im gonna need a ton more.
This is gonna suck. I hate constantly asking for fubucks.
That is all..Thank you Random stuff about me :D Who really cares huh? I'm bored tho so whatever :P1. I'm addicted to make up. I buy wayy more than I will ever need or use.2. I say random numbers while I sleep.3. I broke the same toe three times.4. My fingers are double jointed.5. I used to have my hand pierced(it was ugly).6. I got kicked in the head and a broken toe in a mosh pit at a Mars Volta/SoaD con

**poem**"The clock of life is wound but once, and no man has the power to tell just when the hands will stop, at late or early hour. Now is the only time you own. Live, love, toil with a will. Place no faith in time. For the clock may soon be still."

På NorskWhat is 17th of May?Norwegian Constitution Day or "grunnlovsdag," commonly known as "Syttende Mai" or the 17th of May is a celebration of the day in 1814 when Norway’s constitution was signed in the town of Eidsvoll, Norway.In the Greater Seattle area, the day has been celebrated since 1889 with proclamations, speeches and a parade. The 17th of May Festival is sponsored by the Norwegian 17th of May Committee, an independent, nonprofit organization founded to commemorate Norwegian Constitution Day.A cooperative effort with Viking Community Bank, the Ballard Chamber of Commerce, the Ballard Merchants Association, the Nordic Heritage Museum, Norwegian groups throughout the Greater Seattle area, Norwegian and many community groups. The planning begins the day after the parade and goes on all year long.Looking back: The first Seventeenth of May celebrations in Norway consisted of festivities and political demonstrations against Swedish control of Norway. They began in 1815 in private

The Dead Undeada drug addict alcoholic, deemed a psychopath, perhaps growing into a lunatic. cravings beyond that which many know, those that may and could, lain a grave.
"Caffeine, nicotine, marijuana, ecstacy, vicodin & alcohol." sounds like a Feel Good Hit of the Summer - Queens of the Stone Age (plug)
I'm not okay. Trent Reznor once wrote; "My lips may promise but my heart is a whore." For me...it's like a fucking Mantra! So my questions - that have no anwsers, not a plea for help, just a suggestion...experience, strength and hope..........................................................................................
I have done bad things, made mistakes, more than this, bad dicisions, choices made which cannot be taken back. So mote it be.
Consider this: Walking along in the woods, it is something you enjoy doing....suddenly you come to a pit of quicksand along the middle of the trail. You know what it is, what it does...so, do you walk around it? Maybe you'd like to play with it, poke it

Lets Start A Debate!On May 5th, I sent this to Glenn Beck. I honestly don't think that he'll put it even see it but...
So, here it is. Tell me what you think.
I'm not an economist, but have asked myself, "If for some outragous reason, I were elected President, how would I fix this fiasco we're in?" My answer...
First and for most, I would suspend the US Income Tax for the first year, across the board. Let me restate that. For the first year I were President, no U.S. Citizen would pay one penny in income tax.
Second, as applies to the tax challenge, I would order a re=write of the entire tax code as it stands today. That would entail taking said code and burning it. Then, at the end of the first year institute a new tax code that would read as follows.
All U.S. Citizens would be taxed 10% or their income. This would be broken down thusly...
=====2% for a Social Security type account
=====2% for a National Health Care system that provided money to pay for Emergency Health Ca

Good Stuff!So I'm sitting up doing nothing at midnight and for some reason I'm having fun doing it. Everyone I know is sleeping but I'm not tired. I work night shift so I don't usually get tired untill like 3 am. It sucks but oh well. I'll write more tomorrow.

Numb...I've taken all I can take, by no means am I giving up but with all the shit you're pullin it feel's as if everythings a mistake. I can't wait around anymore. sitting here watching my life pass me by while you go out and do your own thing tears me up inside. Being the person I am I grin and let my emotions hide. "Drawn together like moth's to the flame you left me and you were to blame, no longer the same, the old me long's for a change. Dead and gone is what I am, No longer here to give a damn. Tired of the bullshit and game's, I'm on the fucking verge of losing it..."All thing's aside in the end none of this will matter, I'll be the one to pick up the pieces and mend your brokenheart. A heartbreaker all along soon it'll be your turn to feel the pain that you once so unwillingly dished out.