Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Happy 49th Mom and Dad!

Today is my parents' 49th wedding anniversary. The last one they celebrated together was their 40th. It was shortly before my dad was diagnosed with cancer and six months later he was gone. I remember their 40th wedding anniversary. I was hosting a party for a friend. I can't remember what she was selling, but I remember my dad bringing my mom to the party. I remember watching him in the back room of our house lying down sleeping. I remember that his hip hurt a lot. I remember that I never ever suspected he had cancer or would be gone in just six short months. The day my mom passed, I knew the time was coming. She had gotten worse the few days before. I thought I had a few weeks or maybe even months left with her. When my dad's final days were upon us, I knew it. With my mom, I just wasn't sure. She was so strong....even in her fragile state. My cousin asked me if she should bring her mom (mom's sister) to see mine, and I remember telling her "I don't know". "Do you think we have until tomorrow?" she asked. "I don't know." I replied. But now today, 8 1/2 years later; my parents are celebrating together again. I can't help but smile when I think of them together, but it is a very odd and lonely feeling knowing I don't have my mom and dad on earth any longer. I'm an orphan....at 47 years old....and I feel like one sometimes. I miss them both terribly, and I wish we were having a big celebration here for them; but I know they are having one in heaven.

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Why I Think Out Loud...

I started journaling several years ago when I realized that I couldn't possibly remember every milestone, cute phrase, wonderful expression, heart tugging word or life changing action that occurs within my own family. I had to face the fact that my brain has become fuller and fuller with each baby born and each day that passes; and now it's overloaded. I find myself having to write down everything from a daily "To Do" list to much more important things like the first time my son kissed me on the lips. I don't want to take anything for granted and chance that I might not remember. I journal in a notebook, in my own handwriting, with the intent and hope that someday my sweet buttercups will cherish having these journals in their mama's own handwriting. I started this blog, because there are some things that are meant to be shared and some things that I hope someone will read and enjoy. Maybe I can learn something from a reader or two as well.

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I am happy to say....

Jesus is my first love!

My children are beautiful, inside and out!

I'm as happy as I've ever been!

NPayne thinks I'm beautiful!

I LOVE vintage!

I live in America!

I let my children get dirty!

I thoroughly enjoy Bible Study!

I'm addicted to linens!

I enjoy watching football on TV!

I live in a house full of imagination!

I pray for world peace!

I support our troops and pray for them daily!

I am VERY sentimental!

My parents were married for 40 years!

I love thrift stores and flea markets!

My favorite room in my house is the nursery!

There are 4 princesses and one prince in my house which makes me a Queen!