Once a trainer told me 'speak up..people will listen to you..it may take times..but they will someday..' so i believe...once they listen,then that someday would be my day..the brightest day of all.. =D

Tuesday, 21 December 2010

just now, when i was ironing my bj kurung for tmrw..my head cant stop thinking bout how to improve the process that i was involved in..n it goes on and on..n i cant wait for tmrw to do the calculations (owh..i love math!)..i think i hv my own theory but i need something to support it..hurm..n i planned to cont doing it during my 1-week vacation (if i cudnt figure out the solution be4 the end of the week) which starts next week..but then to think bout it once again..ive already made a promise to myself to stop thinking bout work for the whole week n enjoy the week cuz thats actually my year end vacation (yes..i didnt take much leaves to save for the end of the year..hehe)..so hopefully i can solve it by this friday or at least to get a back up plan..or alternatives...cuz i think i shud focus on my grandpa who is not well for the whole next week..right??

Thursday, 9 December 2010

Hurm..yeap..because of other ppl..I dont hate you..cuz my heart refuses to..knowing that if I hate you..other ppl will get hurt too..but sometimes you are just too much..feel like slamming your face to the door..and punch you on the stomach everytime you come near me..thats how much I hate you..I dont want to see you as someone who close to me..but you are n I have no where to run..but deep in my heart..I ve really wanted to hate you so much..and throw you out of my life..

Thursday, 2 December 2010

the decision will be made today..im worried cuz i know im alone..since i was alone when the incident happened few months back...im bad at expressing my feeling through talking..thats y i prefer writing but unfortunately they just dont understand the simple math..omg..y do i hv to deal with these ppl..?this has stressed me out for few days already..i know i hv to finish it tonight..i'll tell bout this in next entry..

Tuesday, 30 November 2010

np trust vs change? i dun really actually know how to relate this two..but what i learned today is ppl change once you break their trust...because i believe this is somewhat an action of protecting ownself..bkn ke?

Friday, 19 November 2010

hurm..i dont want to talk about it in general but want to narrow down to pharmaceutical industry..since this is the industry i was involved in..so guess ive seen so many things happened in it..ok..i cudnt manage to find time to get the real facts..but this is basically my own idea..my views on this particular things..huahuahua..ape yg aku merepek ni..

nk ckp psl ethics eh..for me..it is quite a lottttt~~ but we can actually understand it logically la..just like my mom always remind me..'COMMON SENSE!!' hell yeah..ive been reminding with that for years k..at that time, i dont quite understand whats the exactly common sense means to her..cuz for everything i did,she kept on talking bout common sense..blurghhh..boooooringgg~!

ok..msk blk psl ethics..sbg engineer, for me..we hv to be honest in wutever we do..in our reports..our records..our processes..all those sort of things..n if we did a mistake..we hv to report it..cuz when we gv a real thought on it..like myself..im in the pharma industry..thats definitely will deal with humans life..so a small mistake i made..may cause disaster to other ppl's life..dats simple right?

i was on fb just now..n read my frens' comments..diorg claimed i was so good to be able to be an engineer..to be able to apply things that we studied during the university days before..cuz not all of us were able to secure a job related to our studies..some of em said 'hebatla nana..' but..

thinking bout it again..bersyukur sgt dpt secure job yg related ngn minat n field seniri..tp diorg terlpe..the balancing principle..u get something..u lose something..huhu~ so far..lps dh keje setaun..i missed quite a lot of things..i didnt hv time to keep in touch with my frens..i even forgot their birthdays..working in somewhat fast-pace-required place..i wasnt able to keep track on dates..i kept on working only to realize that 2 weeks were already passed..however, it's not like i was bz all the time..but the free times i had were not enough to get updates on my family n frens..yg sedihnye..aku dh krg spend ms ngn adek2 aku..sedar2,one of em dh settle ngn spm trial xms..xsempat nk ajar die btol2..even pnah skali i promised her i'd go home to support her since shes having add math paper the next day..tp aku blk umah..dh mlm..n tersgt pnat..sempat tgk2 die kejap..dh kne prepare utk g keje esk..rs ralat sket..tp seb baek die ok..

Tuesday, 5 October 2010

Yeap..never trust people..cuz at anytime they will break it..pufff..juz like that..damn it!

Ari ni i moody n mrh gile! this is because of my stupid housemates! arghhh!! geram sgt2! cte nye cemni..currently we all ade 4 org..termsk myself..so ade A, ade B, and ade C..nk jd cerite..C nk move out by the end of the month..n A (who is my fren too..double damn!) told me..so i told her i want to move in the room when C is out..then die ok..mlm tu i blk umah parents i..then mlm tu gk A gtau B bout C's moving out..at this point of time i xtau that A was telling B the room is empty then..OMG!! cuz the next day when i re confirm (cuz i had a bad feeling bout that on that day la)..die reply 'kn nana dh ckp semlm..' n tbe2 die pass note kat i saying that i need to be faster cuz B nk blek tu jugak..then i told her..kn i dh bgtau u..so xde mslh la..then she said ok..tp i stil had the bad feeling then i msg B regarding that..then B ckp..die xtau i nk msk blek tu..sbb die pn nk blek tu..sbb die nk share ngn org utk krgkn sewe..tp i ckp kat die i dh gtau A dlu..so cane?then she changed the topic n i tot it was ok..

talking bout this..teringt..klo 1 crite..ade part 1 n part 2..part 2 slalu xdpt sambutan..u know y..cuz the second part is a mistake..it shudnt be made to public..yeah..juz like mine..our 2nd part is a mistake..yes..he used to hv a feeling for me..but it was gone long time ago..when he already met d other person..when i ignored him few yrs back..

Wednesday, 15 September 2010

I was known as nana..previously n currently..purpose of blogging to let my heart speaks..been planning to do so ages ago..but cudnt manage to do it due to tight schedule..but now wish to push myself to blog so that things kept inside wudnt become a poison to myself..hahaha~