Poor Kendra Wilkinson! Says She's Depressed: 'I Just Have Nothing To Live For'

Courtesy of OK!

It sounds like Kendra suffered from postpartum depression after giving birth to her baby boy Hank IV

The normally bubbly Kendra Wilkinson tells Ok! magazine she went through a very tough time after having her first child Hank IV. We all remember Kendra as the outspoken, always smiling playmate from the hit reality show The Girls Next Door, but she openly tells Ok! that after giving birth she became completely depressed. “I never brushed my hair, my teeth or took a shower,” she confesses. “I looked in the mirror one day and was totally depressed … A couple of times, I even said, ‘I just have nothing to live for.'”

Kendra, 24, admits the most difficult part was moving from sunny California to Indianapolis for her husband Hank Baskett — a wide receiver for the Indianapolis Colts. “It was new to me — the snow and the cold,” she says. “I love running and hiking. I had a hard time being trapped inside. I’d look outside and think how much I wished I could go to the beach again. Now we found a brand-new house in Tarzana, Calif., and it’s beautiful. You’ll see it on the show.”

But Kendra tells Ok! staying busy and relying on her family helped her get through these bad times. “Being busy with the show, writing a book and taking time to work out again,” she tells the magazine. “And Hank has been great. I’m thankful he’s in my life. Both Hanks!

Kendra wants everyone to tune into season two of her reality show Kendra Mar. 14 because that’s where you’ll be able to see first hand what she was going through.