So last Monday I found out at 13 weeks that my baby no longer had a heartbeat at a routine ultrasound. I saw the OB the next day and it was decided I would need a D&C for Friday. By Thursday I was feeling sick to my stomach all day and by Thursday night I started to have really painful cramps so painful I was on the verge of throwing up each time so I went into the Emergency and they assesed me and said my body was beginning to try and pass the baby though there was no blood yet. They gave me a shot of Morphine, some Zofran for my nausea and sent me home with some Percosets for the morning. That day, Yesterday I finally went in for the D&C. They decided given some of my medial history that doing a spinal block (numb from mid back down/can't walk) so I was awake during the procedure but very drugged up with relaxants. I was in until midnight because I had to be able to walk and pee without a cathader in before they let me leave. Today I am feeling very numb about it all.. I cried for 3 days straight when we found out and then just numbness. Not sure how to feel or if this is normal. I feel myself trying to distance myself. Anyone else feel like that?

The D&C thing was so hard. I remember feeling like someone was taking the baby away from me. I am so sorry. Besides your own genuine, deep heartache, some insane hormonal things are happening to you right now. Luckily that part doesn't last forever.

Thanks for replying, this subject is so lonely without others to talk to about it. One if my close friends is pregnant a few week ahead of me and we were excited to be pregnant together. When she heard, she brought us over dinner which was so amazing of her but it was hard to see her with the cute little belly and know we wouldn't share that excitement together anymore.

It is a normal reaction. You will have good days and bad days. I cried on the way to work the other day it have been 3wks since mine. Everyone is different at grieving so don't feel bad. I don't tell people about the miscarriage because it is harder on them then me. I am upset and sad but I am also logical about the biology of it all. I am sure some people think I am cold and others think I am very strong in the reaction.

You are right on there, that's exactly how it feels. Like a dream, just so surreal. I'm a little scared of how I will feel once everything returns to normal in our routine and I am alone with my thoughts again.

It's normal-people react in so many ways that any reaction is valid. Don't feel guilty if your reaction isn't the same as someone elses-some people cry, others go quiet, some want to talk, others want silence. It will take as long as it needs to for you to deal with this-you might need help from your doctor, you might not. I'm sorry for your loss and hope you can find a way through.