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SPOILER WARNING: If you haven’t seen Monday’s season finale of The Bachelorette, heads up that the outcome will be revealed in this article.

During the special, both Lindsay and Kraus took time apologize to one another for things that they regretted saying: Lindsay for saying she wanted a ring “out of emotion” and Kraus for saying she would have a mediocre life without him. But Lindsay was quick to remind Kraus that she is doing just fine without him. “I’m living my best life,” she told Kraus as she turned toward host Chris Harrison.

“There’s no denying that I didn’t care for Peter,” admitted Lindsay. “There’s no denying that I didn’t love Peter.”

Still, Lindsay admitted to not having anger, but rather “frustration” about re-watching their breakup — and Kraus didn’t interpret her response positively.

“I’m out here and I feel attacked in the way that you responded to that,” he told her.

FROM PEN: Why Rachel Lindsay Didn’t Choose Peter Kraus: ‘I Just Knew He Wasn’t the One for Me’

Kraus also revealed the heart-wrenching reason he was reminded of Lindsay in the days after their split: he found her fake eyelashes scattered on the floor of his room, which were a “daily reminder” of her absence.

“I still have feelings for Rachel,” he admitted. “And in time those feelings will change.”

Though the pair didn’t find happily ever after with one another, Kraus thanked her for helping him to love again. “I wish you nothing but the best and I just really want happiness for you,” he told her, which Lindsay echoed. “I swear I want the same for you,” she said.

For more on Bachelorette Rachel Lindsay’s engagement to Bryan Abasolo, including their thoughts on their big debut and plan for the future, pick up this week’s issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday