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The evolution of symbols, omens and oracles can be seen in the Tarot. Ancient people interpreted natural occurrences, building symbols upon them and creating layers of meaning. It began with watching the habits of animals, and their patterns, changes in weather, images found in clouds, or formed on reflective surface of water. These symbols evolved into inscribed bones, and stones, and lots… portable oracles. Which have become printed pieces of card stock.

Tonight I sit here with the cool breeze blowing through the lace of my windows and I feel something wild and explosive. I hear the people chattering below me on the streets and it slowly fades into the drowning hum of my own thoughts that race at a million miles a minute. I stop for one second remembering that I am almost 4,000 miles away from home and at some points I feel worlds away and at others I feel so isolated that its like I am back at home.

Baby Ali climbing places that I tell him not to!

I am reminded of my best friend saying to me, “You don’t have to be somewhere to be someone.” And now my retort is, “You don’t have to be somewhere to be no one. Either.” I honestly feel at times that I am so isolated even in the crowded streets of London. The same slow ride to work and the same hastily walk home…. And I ask myself where is the color?

I have felt so stifled because my creativity as begging to be let loose. I have been working for days doing my internship, which has been amazing because of the magnitude at which I am learning. But it takes its toll on your hear and spirit. I want to write and sing. I want to take my seat at a shiny grand piano and touch the ivory keys… the surge of creativity running through my veins; and I want to sing…songs about life and love and loss and all the other feelings that crawl through every fiber of your being asking to be acknowledged.

I keep hearing the words, “Fearless” in my mind. Like a ghostly whisper that calls to me from somewhere far away… just be fearless. I affirm to myself, “I am fearless… I am fearlessly being me.” But I shrink back from the mirror at the look in my eyes… because I know that there are parts of me that are terrified to step off that ledge to just being.

I believe our fears are the killers of our creativity. So many times something bright and colorful and ephemeral has come to me like a fairy vision…and I have let it fly on by because I feared the consequence of answering to the call. I now realize that in order to live a life filled with the biggest dreams… we must be brave and wild and uninhibited. We must look our fears straight in the eyes and say, “I will not let you take me… I will fight you… Because I will NOT be taken prisoner…”

Its when we find all the might in our little gypsy souls to just stand out and be brave, that we finally make magic. I know its scary… its scary to answer to the call of our creativity and our inspiration because that may mean being alone… it may mean standing out. You may be looked at because you are “different” or “strange” or whatever labels that FEAR causes us to put on things… but when you do it you become a force that cannot be tamed… you become like the wind taking down everything in its path.

There is a silent community that grows out of the fearless ones. One finds another until you have a circle stronger than any one fear could ever be. I ask you now to be fearless and be inspired. Let your muse guide you. Tie those nastily little feelings of rejection and insecurity up with the heaviest robe and sink it to the bottom of the sea!

For days now I have felt this strange presence around me. I will walk into a room and its as if someone has just left. Or I will be climbing the stairs and the muffled sound of footsteps seems to follow close behind. Or a mysterious music will play off in the distance and now as I write this I wonder if that presence that so silently floats in and out of my awareness is my muse… she is saying, “Hey please pay attention to me.”

I challenge myself to do something crazy…. Something wild… wild in the sense that I am stepping out of my comfort zone. I don’t know about you but I have a whole list of things that I “Want to do but cant because…” and now I am going to look at it and mark off each thing one by one.

In the past when I have rushed head first into the dangerous territory of the unknown I have later stopped back and said, “wow… that wasn’t scary at all!” And I know now that is the magic of just taking a risk. Lets fearlessly be who we are… Lets be a tribe of brave little gypsies expressing everything that lives in our wild hearts!

Here is a wonderful question that a client sent to me that I believe many of you can relate to:

I would like to understand or grasp the following concept: If I have free will and I am the creator of my destiny, what happens to the contracts I agreed upon before being incarnated? Does this mean that I will experience what I agreed upon, but during my incarnation I will have free-will on how to get there? Does this also mean that I can accelerate or slow down the learning of those lessons? I hope I make sense. Blessings!

Dear friend,

This is a wonderful question, one that I have been asked before and one that I have contemplated myself. This can be a very confusing concept, but it can be explained by understanding the map or contract we created for our journey.

Before incarnating we create a contract that is laid out like a map. This map highlights the key concepts that we wish to learn in our incarnation that will lead us to “enlightenment”. We detail different experiences that we want and need to learn for our spiritual growth.

In my personal experience I have found that we detail first our soul groups. These are the people that we will be working with in our lifetime; starting with key figure, such as our family (parents, spouses and children). Often times we choose these people because their souls evolution links up with our own. For example: Your husband or wife may wish to learn to be more conscious of others needs, while you may be seeking more patience.

After deciding on whom you will be learning with, you set out the actual obstacles or courses. This covers many things from what career path you will be working in, to possible health issues, to the major life shaking events. What you must remember is that like a real map, you set out a “destination”, which has may routes.

Think of this visually. If you are setting out on a road trip and your goal is to get to a specific park, park X, in a specific town, in a specific state, you can map this out. You may choose to take the scenic route, you may choose the highway, or you may choose a very obscure bumpy path. Each path will be very different, but they will all lead you to your destination, park X.

So in this life you will have mapped out many things. Some of the lessons you have mapped out will be physical obstacles, dealing with health, security and safety. Others will be mental/emotional dealing with relationships, addictions, beliefs and fears. And also, spiritual obstacles dealing with faith, religion, beliefs and issues of your own divinity.

On your map you will have strategically placed the right people, the right places and the right events to help you to achieve your goals of spiritual growth. And just like a real geographic map, you will have created alternate routes in order to achieve this.

Now, Understanding the concept of free will is very simple, we are divine beings. We are facets of the all, of Spirit. We are nothing more than extensions of the divine experiencing our own divinity. As they say you can read a how to book about something, but unless you actually do it, the knowledge is useless. That’s why we are here… to do! You choose how fast or slow you get to your mapped out goals, like I said before you decided which road to travel down.

The pace that you learn at is completely up to you. It may not seem that way when you are in the process of living your map, but on a spiritual level your soul is constantly being guided by this.

Often times people will ask me questions in a reading that I do not know the answer to, simply because the future is only a possibility. Depending on the next path you choose that outcome may change too. Sometimes I will even tell people that I can feel something in the works, but I am unsure of how its going to play out, simply because they haven’t decided.

Being more conscious of this concept can help you learn, evolve and grow much faster. But really the quickest way to get to point X is to trust in your intuition. Your intuition is your spiritual navigation system. It is constantly trying to link you up to the quickest, smoothest and easiest path to your pre-determined destination.