i caught him again!

Maybe I am just a f**king b***h. He would be better off without me. If I could satisfy him in bed he wouldn't have.to masterbate. But I always fall asleep before he makes it to bed. He takes a f**king 10 minute shower and I can't stay awake. I'm a fatass too. That's not attractive. What the hell is wrong with me. All I have.to do is take care of the kids clean the house look good and stay awake. Why the f**k can't I just do that?!? I have no idea. All I know is I'm buying a bottle of vodka tonight and drinking till I pass out. Maybe it will kill me and I wont have to buy a damn rope. I'm so over feeling like this! I'm over not being good enough! I'm over being a horrible person.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Juliette:</b>" Maybe I am just a f**king b***h. He would be better off without me. If I could satisfy him in bed he ... [snip!] ... wont have to buy a damn rope. I'm so over feeling like this! I'm over not being good enough! I'm over being a horrible person."</blockquote>

Men masturbating has nothing to do with you. I mean it may have a minimal amount to you falling asleep too soon but I am sure he just doesn't want to burden you he wants you to get the rest you need! Obviously talk to him but try watching it with him, the one that got me to like p**n is "pirates" it is similar to pirates of the Caribbean with sex scenes. Maybe try that with him and it can be like a middle ground? I'm not saying your a b***h or anything but give it a try? I was like you for awhile but one day I looked at pirates on my own to see what it was like. Then I watched it with DH and now we watch it when we both want to.

Quoting Juliette:" Maybe I am just a f**king b***h. He would be better off without me. If I could satisfy him in bed he ... [snip!] ... wont have to buy a damn rope. I'm so over feeling like this! I'm over not being good enough! I'm over being a horrible person."

Hun, I really want you to talk to someone right now about getting some help. I can tell you're overly emotional, and that's ok, but you need someone to talk to. No one here's calling you a b***h. We just know how easy it is for someone to stay on one train of thought and not even realize there are other options/ways of thinking. If you're ok with killing yourself right now, you need help. Do they have a suicide prevention hotline in your area that you can call or can you talk to your husband right now?

<blockquote><b>Quoting Head of Pots:</b>" Are you in a relationship now? I'm sorry to hear you went through that. I'm so glad you got help though. It really takes a strong person to admit they need help. "</blockquote>

He wants me back. He's been trying. But I just don't know if I can ever let go he got someone else pregnant. He cheated one time got her pregnant ugh. She had an abortion. But still. :(

<blockquote><b>Quoting Colt's mommy:</b>" Hun, I really want you to talk to someone right now about getting some help. I can tell you're overly ... [snip!] ... need help. Do they have a suicide prevention hotline in your area that you can call or can you talk to your husband right now?"</blockquote>

I don't want to talk to anybody. He's at work now. And his phone is off. I'm just going to make sure he knows I love him. I'm not going to tell him I found out so he won't feel guilty.

<blockquote><b>Quoting RollingStone:</b>" Stop this self-pity bullshit. This hasn't helped a single person in human history. If you want to ... [snip!] ... help either. But this (and similar sites, just might) http://running.about.com/od/getstartedwithrunning/ht/getstarted.htm"</blockquote>

I know how to lose weight! I'm not a dumbass o lost 50lbs and in a month lost all the weight from this last pregnancy. I'm still losing weight but I'm 201 pounds and nasty.

Quoting Juliette:" <blockquote><b>Quoting RollingStone:</b>" Stop this self-pity bullshit. This hasn't ... [snip!] ... o lost 50lbs and in a month lost all the weight from this last pregnancy. I'm still losing weight but I'm 201 pounds and nasty."

What makes you think that you are nasty?
Don't you shower? Don't you take care of yourself?

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Quoting Juliette:" Maybe I am just a f**king b***h. He would be better off without me. If I could satisfy him in bed he ... [snip!] ... wont have to buy a damn rope. I'm so over feeling like this! I'm over not being good enough! I'm over being a horrible person."

<blockquote><b>Quoting Juliette:</b>" Maybe I am just a f**king b***h. He would be better off without me. If I could satisfy him in bed he ... [snip!] ... wont have to buy a damn rope. I'm so over feeling like this! I'm over not being good enough! I'm over being a horrible person."</blockquote>

I'm sorry you are in pain. I have known similar pain and sometimes it can be overwhelming to cope with. You need to give yourself some credit sweet heart. You are doing a great job. It is natural for men to masturbate. I think very man I've ever dated has. Please don't harm yourself many people would miss you. Your children love you!

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4th Apr '13

Quoting Juliette:" <blockquote><b>Quoting RollingStone:</b>" Stop this self-pity bullshit. This hasn't ... [snip!] ... o lost 50lbs and in a month lost all the weight from this last pregnancy. I'm still losing weight but I'm 201 pounds and nasty."

How long ago did you have your baby?

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4th Apr '13

and it's too late to delete your fb cover I still have their fb's open Juliette.