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Monday, August 29, 2011

You Scream, We All Scream, I Want to Scream

The other night I helped a friend pack her house. Along with some dinner for her family I bought 2 pints of Ben and Jerry's. One for her and one for me. For a munchies I brought over some Little Caesar’s Crazy bread, 2 bags. So I ate most of the bag on the way. When I arrived I offered her some. She ate one piece and put he rest away. That should have clued me in right there.

Later on after a packing frenzy we sat to chat and enjoy our ice cream. She had Cherry Garcia and I had Chubby Hubby.

Her – small bites. Slowly eating, enjoying each bite, very slowly eating. She then decided she was done. I swear it looked like she ate a 1/4 of the fricking pint.

Me – digging in, non stop, big bits, quick, ate nearly the entire pint in the same time she ate her 1/4.

I have only known her for a few years so this is only an assumption on my part. My friend is maybe 10 to 15 of slight over weight, nice figure, mommy tummy a bit (3 kids). My guess is she has never been obese, never had food issues, never binged, never looked at the scale and thought holy sh*t I still have nearly 50 pounds to lose (post baby does not count). Again total assumptions.

I yearn to eat like that with red light items. She claimed to be in love with the ice cream and claimed to have a sweet tooth. The tooth must be microscopic.

Do you have any observations of how fitter, possibly never been obese people eat?

2 comments:

I have finally reached the conclusion that you can't judge anyone by how they eat in public. And I KNOW that people who see me would have no idea about my crazy eating if they didn't read my blog. But I do think there are some people who just eat "normally." I hate to use that word but it is what always comes to mind for me.

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What does FIT mean to me. It encompasses my life. Its about balance. Its about exercise being a regular part of my day, like getting dressed. It's a state of mind where food has no control. Urges, binges and out of control eating never happen. A place where life is at an even pace even during chaos.

This is my sounding board for my journey to find the fit girl within. I know she's in there somewhere. I am 40, married with 2 beautiful, crazy, insane, fun boys - a 9 year old and a 4 year old. I stay at home to run my house and raise my boys and volunteer all over time. My highest weight (not pregnant) is 232 (in 2007). It might have been higher at some point but that's is the highest recorded I know of.

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