You thought

Be advised, to some of my more timid viewers there's some pretty harsh stuff coming, you may want to skip this one.

[dropcap]A[/dropcap] very foolish venture on your part. You thought that I'd just roll over and take all this didn't you? You thought that I'd let you walk all over me once again, why would this time be any different than any other? Didn't expect this did you? Didn't expect me to turn into this monster. Didn't expect me to give birth to the new me so quickly did you? Now you're the one running. You're the one hiding. It is your time to pay, your time to step up to the plate and take your medicine. It will be over soon, very soon, it will all be over. I'm going to look into your eyes once more, you'll feel the barrel of my gun pressed against your forehead, and just before I pull the trigger you'll learn that you fucked with the wrong man. You have only yourself to blame for all of this. It is beyond time for you to learn to live with your actions, to take responsibility for what you do to others. This is irony bitch, this is life, what is left of it for you anyway. Before you ask yourself why, before you ask how can I be so cruel, before you start to feel sorry for yourself, remember that you made me. So . . . how do you like your new creation? I'm sorry say again, I didn't hear you . . . the gun went off.

Yea . . . there's really not much to say about this one. In 2000 I discovered a betrayal by someone; what made it bad was that I actually felt responsible for some of it. That lasted for about 2 days . . . then there was 1 day of uncontrolled rage and anger . . . then I let it go. I figured out that being mad meant that the person still had control. She's moved on with her life and I have with mine. I've spoken with her within the past year or so and things were amicable. The point of this article is to show that anyone, even quiet, nice, peaceable individuals can be pressed to insanity if pushed so far.

And just in case this shows up or puts me on some sort of government watch list or local law enforcement . . . this was written over a decade ago by a man that just found out that his wife had cheated on him after all the self induced crap he put up with . . . it was never real, just venting on paper. It's almost sad that we live in a world where I have to hesitate about what I publish for fear that the "government" is going to get me.