An important concept related to
how we create our experiences is that our past experiences, as do
all of our experiences, have imprinted feelings into our being.
These feelings act as doorways or access points to our subconscious
and our creative power. Whenever we have an experience that causes
certain feelings that resemble out past experiences, a doorway to
the past opens. We do not have to be consciously aware of what we
feel. The doorway opens independent of what we are consciously
thinking.

In the positive sense, all the wisdom of that past is now readily
available to us. Or, if the memories of that or those past
experiences are not so good, the doorway provides an opening and
opportunity to process the
pain to free the creative energy bound in
those experiences. The release of that pain frees the creative life
energy for a new creation and can be experience as euphoric if not
as the
Kundalini rising. This is the whole basis of
metatheater in
the creative process to access and free the energy bound in the
past.

In a negative sense, when the doorway opens to past painful
experiences fear can arise. The fear arise around the painful
memories and the similarly of what is being felt. Mind believes that
what is currently being experienced will give an experience much
like the pain experienced in the past since the feelings are
similar. That fear then paralyze our movements. It can even terrify
us. The fear can literally steal our creative life energy such that
we either run away or we revert to the need to further protect and
defend our creative spirit. So, rather than pursuing the creative
endeavor we started, these feelings cause us to create a way to
leave the situation or create an new defensive pattern. This in
turn, will create a stronger cage which keeps our creative spirit
bound. In essence we dig ourselves into a deeper and deeper hole
that is much more difficult to get on out in the future. Unless a
safe and secure space is found for our creative spirit to come out,
process and release the energy bound in the past, we will be able to
access our full creative potential.

Relative to negative experiences and the imprinted feelings of these
experiences, many of us naturally see pain as something to be
avoided if not fear pain. Hence, whenever we feel a painful
situation we open ourselves up to revealing all the pain we have
faced. That, in turn, further binds us. At some point we will need
to face our pain and deal with it at its root. That does not me we
endure the pain and that we do not do something to mitigate what we
feel. Rather, we allow ourselves to explore the
origins of our pain
and look to the
gift of pain and what it has to offer
in our unique
situation.