Monday, February 25, 2013

Who am I?

I want to be unique so badly sometimes, that I almost end up copying other people ! Ironic indeed.

I think if you start focusing on being different to everyone else, your focus has already shifted from being true to yourself, to what everyone else is doing. Therefore, anything you produce in that place is in direct reaction to someone else's behavior. So in attempting to be genuine and different, your identity is being dictated and moulded by the world you're immersing yourself in.

I dont know, I have this crazy notion that every human being is created for a unique and significant purpose. And with that purpose comes an individualized personality, set of giftings, and relentless passions.

I am well aware that the whole world does not share this belief, yet there is a question on the wind that only seems to be getting louder and louder. Everywhere I turn it grabs me, and resonates with my very being. I cannot ignore it because my heart is also looking for the answer.

Who am I ?

If we aren't meant to find ourselves, but create a person that we think would be appealing, acceptable, and interesting to the world.. all all we have to work with is what has already been created.. how can I avoid being anything but a copy of everyone around me ? Chances are they are an unsuccessful copy of someone else as well. So that would make me a copy of a copy..?

No wonder us humans feel so lost.

If humans were born as blank slates we would all be perfectly happy and fulfilled being like everyone else. We would be quick to agree because we would see the world from the same exact lens. There would be no outstanding individuals. No geniuses, no musical wonders, no entrepreneurs.. no world changers.

I dont know about you, but I want to be a world changer.

I want to be something new. Novel. Never been seen before.

I think I'm going to follow my heart.. and get to know the one who has the answer.