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Wednesday, April 20, 2016

That’s what I thought before dozing off in the operating room. And after a minute (feeling like a minute had just passed but the operation was actually 5 hours long), I was already up because I wanted to eat omelet. Then I saw Dr. Geraldine Jose, my anesthesiologist, smiling at me while I was being reclined on the bed and surrounded by all my doctors. The surgery was already over? I had to give a thumbs up because I felt OKAY; Since I can’t speak yet, I kept raising it.. I’m OKAY. I’m OKAY. I’m OKAY!!!!!!! The surgery was a success! Thank you Lord!!!!!

I can see how happy Dr. Willy Lopez, my neurosurgeon, and the whole medical team were while they all look at me with big smiles.. I too was very happy, although I move in limitation, I felt wide awake. Right away, I was a completely conscious. It was so amazing!!! I was not feeling any pain or discomfort and it seemed like nothing happened, like I just slept for a minute. Very very very AMAZING!

And then I saw the exit sign when I was about to be wheeled out of the operating room and it was very very clear! Then I was brought to the ICU and I saw my mom, dad and tita angie. (I can’t be able to talk yet so I wrote on the whiteboard and kept raising my thumb up. AMAZING!!!!!! I was very much OKAY! Amazing!

January 2016, I already felt like something was about to change in my life, something is not right with me. Changge is about to happen and it’s not a good kind of change. I don’t know. I wasn’t sure. I prayed. I told God about it. Don’t make me feel hopeless. Don’t make me feel like giving up. God assured me that He will take full control of me.

I am letting God take full control of me now. I’m not doing anything, HE is doing everything. God has been doing great things to me. Amazing!

I was feeling like I was getting worse and worse; my vision, mobility, swallowing eic. I was getting weaker. And now I AM FEELING BETTER AND BETTER EVERYDAY! Amazing!!!!!!

When God assured me that He taking over my life, I believe Him completely. I gave Him my 100% trust. I mean I’m relying on Him 101%!

Actually, this has also been a wake-up call for me. I keep on praying the serenity prayer everyday as I start my day..

God grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can’t and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen.

I finally received the wisdom now. To know the difference between the things that I can accept and the things I can change in me. I will get better. I will improve. God told me. I’m very much determined. I will improve. I decided to focus on myself this year and set aside the things I want to do. I will get better so that I can do more. I will get better so that God can use me more!

Please don’t idolized me, I am not the one who is doing all these amazing things, believe me God is really taking over my life now. I am not in control, I am God’s instrument. I am letting Him use me.

Beside my BIG BIG BIG FAITH in God & in myself, I am also putting my faith is you! That you will help and support me as well. I can’t do this alone. You will help me, right?

In 2 months, (or less) when I have fully regained my strength back, I’ll be having another surgery to remove another tumor in my brain that’s causing pressure and we need to raise at least 700 thousand pesos for that.

How can you help:

1.My book KCAT CAN is very much available for 450 pesos plus shipping fee of 60 pesos for Metro Manila & 100 for provincial. Please message my mom, Madge Yarza on Facebook or send a textx message at 09272459400 with these details:
Name:
Mobile Number:
How many book/s?
Shipping address:

3.You can also go to my GO FUND ME page made by Tita Annie Campbell at : https://www.gofundme.com/vyxjfnd8

4.You can send your donation via PayPal at kcatyarza@yahoo.com

5.PRAY WITH ME

6.Please share my ongoing story to everyone you know.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

God is really taking over my life right now. I am not doing anything, God is doing amazing things in my life right now. Amazing! Amazing! Amazing! I am alive and I am strong because I have a very strong God! An amazingly strong God is working miracles on me every second and I can really feel it!

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I am Maria Kathrina Lopez Yarza. I am Kcat. I am Tack. I am Sick. But in spite and despite of everything, life must go on! I can't do a lot of things but that doesn't stop me from doing the things that I CAN! I blog, I raise funds, write, share my story, care for others & continue living because I am KCAT no matter what!

My New Old Stories..

This was actually my duplicate blog. I almost lost my original blog in 2007. Sad. But instead letting myself be negatively affected by it, I decided to make a new blog to move on with. But, false alarm! That blog suddenly came back but I decided to keep both and continue my sharing my story...

I was a contributing writer at the youth section (Students and Campuses) of Manila Bulletin from July 2010 - June 2014 where I have a column bi-weekly column. I wrote about my experiences and endeavors and share my blessings, advocacy and outlook in life. Read my articles here.

K C A T Y A R Z A . C O M
This is where I manage all of my other sites, blogs, articles, interviews, products and everything about me!

O N L I N E S T O R E
Neurofibromatosis is a continuing battle, not knowing when symptoms or an aggressive tumor or will strike. I can't solicit and ask for someone's hard-earned money forever. So I decided to share what God has blessed me with - creativity & Faith.

Every cent counts...

I'm not really asking for money, it' would be better if you'll check out my products and buy from me. That's way better. It's fine though if you insist on donating. Haha. No, really, I'd really really be grateful. There's no big or small in helping, it's the intention that matters.