Tuesday, 14 April 2015

I remember the year I got
married. So my wedding date is three days after my birthday (No.. it’s not as
exciting as it sounds: P). So yes, it was the last birthday as a spinster, last
in my house with my family. It was ecstatic. Lots and lots of surprises were
there stored in for me. But the one I was anxiously waiting for was from my
sister. She had been working on my gift for months. Of course, it was a
personalised gift. A card. Or The card I must say. It’s huge. It’s exquisite. It’s
beautiful. I was literally speechless then (: P), and my eyes were doing the
talking! I had never felt that special, that happy before. I owed her. A lot. She’s
been the reason behind my smiles, the strength behind my weaknesses, the hope
behind my pain. She’s stood beside me through every thick and thin in my life. She’s
the one who cares so much about my happiness and makes me feel special and when
it comes to her birthdays, I do stuff but not as special as she do’s for me. So
yeah, I owed her. Big time.

Later that year, I was occupied with other
ceremonies, weddings, dinners, travelling, settling down, etc. So I couldn't really do anything special for her on her birthday. And I was the one who ended
up being sad for not being able to do it.

This time, I decided, not to
leave things in fate’s hand. I make good cards but not better than hers. The
gift had to be a personalised one. Made by me. I've never tried my hands on a website,
so this time I was like why not give it a shot?!

And then the inside joggling of
mind and heart started.

Mind- “Website? You crazy? You've never done that before!”

Heart-“So? There are lot of
things I haven’t done, which doesn't mean I won’t do them ever!”

Mind- “OK. What in a website?”

Heart- “It’ll all be about her.”

Mind- “What about her? You gotta
be clear on this!”

Heart- “I don’t know. May be her
photographs, her childhood, her particulars I guess.. M not sure though.”

Mind- “And when are you gonna be
sure? It’s not even a month for her birthday. Plus you have this family trip
coming up, where she’ll be with you round the clock, keeping you off the
website thing..!”

Heart- “why you shouting at me..
I’ll manage.”

Mind- “Fine. Get lost.”

Heart- “Get lost.”

Phew..! That is what my inside
state is most of the times. And it creates utter confusion. Well, with the help of Facebook and Whatsapp, I came in contact with as many friends as I could reach and have
birthday messages for her. Technology does make things easier. Now as m talking
about technology, let me tell one thing/truth that happens for sure. When you
will slowly be getting along well with it, it’ll ditch you. It might get
crashed, or it might stop working and you’ll have to repeat the entire thing
from the very beginning, which is the time when it totally gets on nerves! Or when
you’re on the verge of finishing your work, something will come up and then what..
start again.. SIMPLE!! At that point, the only war that you have is with yourself.

Mind-“Urrgggghh.. Not again. M
done with it.”

Heart-“ What do you mean, you’re
done with it?”

Mind-“ I can’t do it any more.
Posting hell lot of pictures, entering these countless messages, giving descriptions,
adding the favourites.. AGAIN..I can’t do it any more. Think of some other
thing. We’re not into this.”

Heart- “Just think how happy she’ll
be seeing all of it, imagine the smile on her beautiful face, it will all be
out of the world feeling. And don’t you remember what she did for you?”

Mind- “Why it is that you win
every time?”

Heart- “Now, come on, let’s get
back to it”

I had put it on halt during the
family vacation and resumed to it when I got back. Finally, on her birthday
when she opened it and started discovering what was stored in for her, she was
giving her patent reaction. Tears. Yes, that’s the best form of expressing her
joys and sorrows! And she was all speechless.

“Di, what have you done? When did you do it? It
must have taken months to prepare.. so many photos, I sort of forgot all these
moments, and how did you reach COE (her training program) friends? You have no
idea what you have given and what you mean to me!”

“Shh.. it’s your birthday. Stop crying
and make the most of every moment of this day. You are special. All I want is you to have the
best feeling in the world my darling”

We exchanged a few more words of
joys and laughter. It was euphoria.

Doing good makes you feel good. You
too can have a look at her gift here.

P.S.: Open in your
laptops/desktops only and NOT on mobile phones due to some technical issues.