Scared

I need to stop drinking. It's killing me & everyone i love.My father is a drunk. He wasn't always ~ He was a pastor of our church & a software engineer.Shit happened. My big brother died. His wife had affairs.But damn, doesn't she have a right to be fucked up? Her father, my grandpa, raped her & her sister & my uncle. But, he was shellshocked from the war.So, who gets to be fucked? None of us, or, all of us?Either way, we're all drunk.. And either way, we're all shellshocked.I don't want to be this.