A truth teller, scribe and manic rambler living with Depression, BPD and PTSD while picking up the pieces of my beautiful Bipolar life. My scars don't define me. It's the grace (sometimes), and gratitude (always) in which I handle my chaos that does. Welcome to my messy, amazing life!

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

How many of us have felt this way? I often think back to that moment when I wanted to die. Grace from the universe saved me that day and when I woke up from the fog, I did see the light. But, damn, I crawled, stumbled, FOUGHT, for a long, long time. To everyone out there struggling between this life and what you think is on the other side, please know that the light you can find on this earth is more amazing than anything you can even imagine. Reach out, stay strong and know that you are not alone! Love and light.

Amazing by Aerosmith

I kept the right ones outAnd let the wrong ones inHad an angel of mercy to see me through all my sinsThere were times in my lifeWhen I was goin' insaneTryin' to walk throughThe pain

When I lost my gripAnd I hit the floorYeah, I thought I could leave, but couldn't get out the doorI was so sick and tiredOf livin' a lieI was wishin' that IWould die

It's amazingWith the blink of an eye, you finally see the lightIt's amazingWhen the moment arrives that you know you'll be alrightIt's amazingAnd I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight

That one last shot's permanent vacationAnd how high can you fly with broken wings?Life's a journey, not a destinationAnd I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings

You have to learn to crawlBefore you learn to walkBut I just couldn't listen to all that righteous talk, oh yeahI was out on the street,Just a tryin' to surviveScratchin' to stay alive

It's amazingWith the blink of an eye, you finally see the lightIt's amazingWhen the moment arrives that you know you'll be alrightOh, it's amazingAnd I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight.Desperate hearts, desperate hearts