The more I learned, the more I questioned, to the extent that the answers I came up with were not favorable to being a believer.

One weird thing though - when I'm troubled, or when something really great happens, I sometimes pray. Not a wildly elabourate prayer, I don't even know any of those, just a "oh shit, help," or "thanks!"

I haven't figured out what that means in the grand scheme of things, whether it's just a carry-over from when I was younger, or if it's something more meaningful.

The more I learned, the more I questioned, to the extent that the answers I came up with were not favorable to being a believer.

One weird thing though - when I'm troubled, or when something really great happens, I sometimes pray. Not a wildly elabourate prayer, I don't even know any of those, just a "oh shit, help," or "thanks!"

I haven't figured out what that means in the grand scheme of things, whether it's just a carry-over from when I was younger, or if it's something more meaningful.