Everything is so messed up in my head. Everyone thinks I'm fine and I look fine. But inside my head is a complete disaster. I'm scared of myself. I just have a meltdown sometimes and do stupid things. I'm tired of feeling this way, I really am.

First off, I am asking a question here. It's too long for the "Ask Question" part of the site and there is absolutely no way I can shrink it down to 120 character.
About a year ish ago, I don't completely remember when it was, but its been bugging me so much lately, I was at...