Monday, August 20, 2012

Dear Mr. Loerke, Saturday night you took on a lac repair patient 10 minutes before your shift ended. I love that you're a team player and always finish work strong. Dear Hair, It's been 33 days since I brushed you. Holy amazeballs. Best. Decision. Ever. Dear AWG, Driving 9 hours to see you for lunch on Friday was an easy decision. We've had lemonade stands together, smoked our first pack of cigarettes (and puked) together, and spent many summers skinny dipping at Beaver Lake. Childhood besties for life 'yo. Dear Husband, Unlearning fear is much harder than I thought. Thanks for being patient with me as I discover that wanting something is better than being afraid of it.

Bestie and Partner in Crime since 3 years old: Erin Brown Smith. Many memories but one of the best has to be when we were 4 years old and climbed down a cliff to get to the neighbor's corral (whom we did not know) to ride their horses. Only time I ever remember getting a spanking : )

Fear can be paralyzing and grow familiar to where we believe it's better than change...trusting God is the only way! I have to remind myself of this often!!!

Quiggly's Clayhouse in Richardson has an "adult wheel night". They also offer individual and group lessons. My kids have been to several parties there and the staff are super nice. Might be worth checking out.

I've been friends with my bestie since we were 6. We've been through everything together even two years apart when we decided to see the world (separately). She's the best and I can't imagine life without her.

My bestie was Christie and we were thick as thieves until she moved away when we were 7. We decided to spray paint our Big Wheels one day and then turned the spray paint on each other. It was a glorious war until our Mom's discovered us then yanked us both inside to be scrubbed clean with an S.O.S. pad. Pretty sure we both lost a few layers of skin that day. Spray paint removal by an angry Mom is not fun. Thankful for a 35 memory that still makes me cry laughing.

(Can I call you that as it feels like I am talking more to a friend than not?)

Your words today impacted me in a big way. You said, "Unlearning fear is much harder than I thought. Thanks for being patient with me as I discover that wanting something is better than being afraid of it."

All my life, many (but not all) of my teachers have doubted me. As a consequence, I have doubted myself and have been capital "T" Terrified to do certain things such as get a job.

One week ago I started my very first real job, as a teacher, teaching the grade levels I wanted, in a district I couldn't have dreamt of. I am so grateful for this opportunity and even though I have to force my fears to submit regularly (especially right now it seems), I look forward to growing stronger over this next year.

Partner in Crime would be Brittany Benzel! My favorite memory with her would have to be something so simple! Walking to back and forth to the pier at Myrtle Beach with her daughter. We laughed, we cried, and at moments there were moments where no one had to say anything but we knew exactly what we thinking. At the end of the walk we simply looked at each other and said, "I love you too."

Tim and I have been married for 9 years. We like to dance in our jammers, sleep late in the biscuit, build forts, write each other letters, fly fish, and travel. We also have a little babe named Brave who smells mostly like breast milk and fabric softener. (more)