Thank you all so very much for the crazy love on my set Glass House shot by @venus in Portugal last year!! Reading ALL of the comments and I can't tell you how incredibly humbled I feel to have so many supporters and friends thanks to SuicideGirls. The comments you leave me remind me every day why I love being here so much. I... Read More

I have been having some of the most intense dreams the last few months, but the last 2 nights I had lucid dreams. I was able to repeat time and change things. I have been crazy tired and hungry so maybe thats why my dreams have been so crazy. They scare me most nights to the point that i will wake myself up to end... Read More

I want to run out into the ocean and let the waves swallow me alive. Let them drown out all my pain and brokeness and throw me back ashore where I will be healed. Where I will no longer be destructive. I want to climb to the top of the mountains and breathe in as deeply as possible and let the wind sweep my burdens... Read More

To me..it's more than just taking my clothes off for other people's satisfaction. Every time I strip down into the nude, I look at my body. I examine every inch of it. Every goosebumbs, every freckle, every scar..Every pore. I look into my skin I look at my flaws. I find comfort in them. Knowing I have dedicated my body to... Read More

Does anyone else enjoy watching them? I love them and have decide to use them as tools for parenting when I decide I want children. I watched an amazing one last night about feminism. Here is the video. It's a little longer than the ones I normally watch, but this easily became my favorite. If anyone actually watches it, I'd love to hear... Read More

So as few may know, mainly the SuicideGirls whom I have on my personal Facebook account, I've been going through a lot of stress with my endometriosis and am having surgery tomorrow morning. The surgery will either be a hit or miss. I'm hoping they find what they're looking for and get me feeling better and off these damn pain pills. :(

I hope that your surgery went well, and that everything was successful. Endometriosis is killer. I have ovarian cysts and sometimes I feel like I am gonna die. But to have it to that extent, I couldn't bear it.

To those of us, girls and guys, who sometimes don't feel good enough. Who doubt ourselves. Who numb the pain...this is for you.

TED Talks about vulnerability."The ability to neurologically feel connected is why we are here. When you ask people about love, they'll talk to you about heart break. When you ask people about connection, they'll talk to you... Read More

Aw I love Ted talks and I adore you. I haven't watched this lecture yet but the quote "People who have a strong sense of love... Believe they're worthy" reminds me so much of that quote from The Perks Of Being a Wallflower "We accept the love we think we deserve."

Last night I thought I kissed
the loneliness from out your belly button.
I thought I did, but later you sat up,
all bones and restless hands, and told me
there is a knot in your body that I cannot undo.

I never know what to say to these things.
Its okay. Come back to bed.
Please dont go... Read More