rksoup's Journal, 02 October 2012

My dear FS friends. I need a mental break. Not sure if I can explain myself here. Not sure if anyone else ever feels this way. I want to not think about food ALL the time. What I can eat, what I can’t. Making negotiations with myself: “If I eat this for lunch I’ll make sure to eat super good at dinner” etc. I need to focus on living and healing for a while. I have all the same excuses everyone has and maybe others stick to it and strive through. I need a break. I am NOT quitting! I am NOT giving myself a pass to gorge myself. I am giving myself permission to indulge a LITTLE if needed without the pressure of recording weigh ins or food journals. I do enjoy interacting with my buddies so I will pop in every now and then to check in with you and join you with your successes.

Thanks for understanding. I will set the goal of being back on and full time focused for October 15th with weight in on Friday 19th. I am hoping that if I plan a break now, I won’t get super frustrated and quit all together later.