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Stories of resistance to reporting adverse vaccine reactions

For
weeks, Sophie lay in this semi-alert stage. She didnt have the
strength to feed properly, she wouldnt smile. She couldnt focus her eyes,
and did little more than squint her eyes in pain and lay in that state for hours
on end. This was not the child I knew. At 2 months, before the shot, my daughter
would smile and laugh, she could bring her legs straight and try to stand on my
lap when I held her.

After the shot, her legs had
2 hard baseball sized black and blue lumps. She could barely move them. She
would have these fits of choking for weeks.

I
called up the doctor many times to report what was going on, they REFUSED to see
her saying that this was just her personality and I was over reacting to
simple coughs.

After 3 months of this
horrible lifeless state, my daughter would slowly regain more and more movement
and consciousness. When she finally smiled again, I promised myself and her that
she would NEVER endure that horrible pain again.

The
doctors office was refusing to report her reaction to VAERS, or even to write it
down in her chart!!!!! I was furious, so I reported it myself.

Richie's
Story in A Shot in the Dark by Harris L. Coulter and Barbara Loe Fisher

Janet
asked the coroner why he could not state point-blank that Richie's death was due
to a DPT shot reaction, when it was obvious. She produced the Physician's
Desk Reference (PDR) and read him the portion pertaining to pertussis vaccine
reactions. The PDR was one of the many medical references and
scientific articles Janet had read since Richie's death.

"He
(the coroner) said he couldn't write down on the death certificate that Richie
had died from a DPT reaction because 'the state's standing on immunizations
would be in an uproar'. Besides, he said, it would be unscientific
because the autopsy report was not specific enough about the cause of
death. At that point, we discussed the specific, scientific definition of
SIDS. Finally, he admitted that my son had died from 'irreversible shock'
due to a 'probably reaction to DPT.'"

"We kept waiting for the state to
send us an official death certificate and when we didn't get one, we
called the town clerk's office and discovered that the official cause of death
had never been filed by the coroner with the registrar. After we
gave the registrar the signed 'query of death' given to us by the coroner more
than two months before, listing the cause of Richie's death, we received an
official death certificate the next day."

Janet recently spoke to her county
health commissioner and asked if the county was aware of the coroner's report
and the official cause of Richie's death. "The
commissioner told me that she was not aware of the official cause of death,
although she had heard that my son died soon after a DPT shot. She
admitted that there is no follow-up on the reports of adverse vaccine reactions
or deaths immediately following immunization by state or county health officials,"
Janet said.

In
October 2000 a very good friend of mine lost her one-year-old grandson within a
week of receiving his MMR vaccination.His
doctor told his mother that he was in perfect health the day he gave him this
injection.The details of this case
are very unsettling and of course vaccination is not listed as the cause of
death for this child either.

These
are two cases that I personally know of that you will not find in any of the
statistics that claim vaccinations are almost always completely safe.You will not even find them listed as a possible reaction.These two deaths of perfectly healthy children have been completely
dismissed of any possibility of being caused by vaccination.I have to wonder how many other possibilities have been eliminated from
the statistics that I have read.

The
next day I received a call from the Pediatric Neurologist the one referred by
Chases pediatrician. When I mentioned
my fear of vaccine damage he stated, The seizures are definitely not vaccine
related but I can see no other reason for them (such as a brain tumor).When I reminded him of the fact sheet he became very defensive and
I was told, If children are going to have seizures, they just happen to start
around the time of vaccinations and this is just a coincidence. When I
pointed out I thought coincidences such as this should be addressed in a
study, he became very aggressive and suggested I come to his office immediately
so he could educate me on how wrong my vaccine damage theory was. Needless
to say, I did not keep his immediate appointment. I requested a second
opinion. The next doctor said, Your sons seizures are idiopathic (without
reason) in nature and this should comfort you. It is best we cant find a
reason. His official diagnosis code was 345.41. For those of you not
familiar with coding, this number stands for partial epilepsy with impairment of
consciousness. The 1 at the end of the code stands for intractable or not
easily managed seizures.

Even
after this first severe reaction, the doctors felt that we should go ahead and
continue with his vaccines. We did and Cael continued to have
seizures after the shots. Around this time, we began seeing stories on the news
about kids reacting to bad lots of vaccines, kids that were having seizures and
other neurological problems. We inquired through the National Vaccine
Information Center and requested a packet of specific lot numbers from vaccines
that had reports of reactions and deaths associated with it. We
also requested a copy of Caels shot record from his doctor with the lot
number from that DPT vaccine given on July 13, 1993.

When I received the packet of 900 lot
numbers, I began scanning the columns. Sure enough, there his was: a total
of 152 reactions and four deaths reported within this lot for DPT shots given
between October 1992 and December 1993. Of the 900 lots, this was the fourth
largest group of reactions reported. What I found unbelievable was that three of
the deaths occurred following shots given before July of 1993, when Cael
received his! How could this lot of vaccines not be pulled from doctors
offices immediately after one death, much less three deaths?

I was appalled that my child was given a
shot from a batch that was known to have caused reactions and even death!
Why are we allowing these vaccines from hot lots" to continue to be
given when there are clearly documented reactions to it? Is not one childs
severe reaction enough to justify pulling the rest from the offices of
pediatricians?

This discovery was a turning point for us, as this was the moment that we
realized our child had suffered a vaccine-related injury. Once we realized that
there could have been some connection between the seizures and the DPT shot, we
found information that allowed us to file a petition for compensation. The
government acknowledged it immediately as a vaccine related injury and we were
able to move forward with the compensation process. A lawyer and life care
planner guided us through this process, which would take nearly four years to
complete. We now know that there are thousands of families out there whose
child will never be recognized as having had a reaction to a vaccine due to
information that is not available to parents.

I
received my first shot (hepatitis B vaccine), I believe on March 5th, 1996, I
can prove that if I need to, and had problems immediately following it. I
had a fever, not high enough to be an emergency, but I had one, I had extreme
muscle pain and shock like pains in my joints. I also had fatigue like I have
never had in my life. I slept like the dead. All day, all night too. I can remember
sitting in a chair to do the dishes, and resting my head on the counter, crying,
from pain and exhaustion. THIS IS NOT AN EXAGGERATION. The
doctor said I had the flu, but I had no nausea, and no vomiting, and no
diarrhea. I just was tired and hurt so bad.

On
March 30th, I returned to my doctors for my second shot in the series, still
sick. I had a fever, and was visibly ill. I told the nurse that I had been sick
since I had received the first shot, and told her I did not want the second one.
She said that she didn't think it was a good idea either, but that she would
speak to the doctor about the problems I had been having to make sure.

She
came back a few minutes later and told me the doctor said that the hepatitis b
vaccine had NO SIDE AFFECTS and was virtually THE SAFEST VACCINE ON THE MARKET
and that there was NO WAY I WAS SICK FROM IT and that I HAD THE FLU.

I
believed the doctor. I had my second shot. I needed to have the series for my
job as an EMT, and seeing as how they told me it was SAFE, I let them give it to
me.

My
symptoms only got worse. I remember that I called the State of Maine Health
Department and asked about side affects, they said there were NONE. I called the
CDC, they said there were NO KNOWN SIDE AFFECTS.

I
KNOW the hepatitis b vaccine is dangerous. My family knows it, and my friends
know it. Matter of fact, although the doctors deny it's possible, one of the
nurses at the local health center, stood there in front of me and told the
doctor she believed me. She had seen it, watched my body change, my health
decline.

My
daughter Lyla Rose Belkin died on September 16, 1998 at the age of five weeks,
about 15 hours after receiving her second Hepatitis B vaccine booster shot. Lyla
was a lively, alert five-week-old baby when I last held her in my arms. Little
did I imagine as she gazed intently into my eyes with all the innocence and
wonder of a newborn child that she would die that night. She was never ill
before receiving the Hepatitis B shot that afternoon. At her final
feeding that night, she was extremely agitated, noisy and feisty -- and then she
fell asleep suddenly and stopped breathing. The autopsy ruled out choking, The
NY Medical Examiner ruled her death Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS).
But
the NY Medical Examiner (Dr. Persechino) neglected to mention Lyta's swollen
brain or the hepatitis B vaccine in the autopsy report. The coroner spoke to my
wife and I and our pediatrician (Dr. Zullo) the day of the autopsy and clearly
stated that her brain was swollen. The pediatrician Dr. Zullo's notes of that
conversation are "brain swollen ... not sure cause yet ... could not see
how recombinant vaccine could cause problem."SIDS
is a diagnosis of exclusion .. "it wasn't this, it wasn't that, everything
has been ruled out and we don't know what it was." A swollen brain is not
SIDS. Through conversations with other experienced pathologists, I subsequently
discovered that brain inflammation is a classic adverse reaction to vaccination
(with any vaccine) in the medical literature.

Margaret
had the first Hepatitis B injection when she became a part-time dental nurse in
Fareham. She was bedridden for a week after the vaccine and her husband called
the doctor in, who declared "in no way was it related to the vaccine",
and yet he visited her three times in a week to keep an eye on her. She was
absent from work for three weeks or so. She then had knee problems and was
diagnosed with arthritis - this has now spread to her hip and is very painful.
Her employer said that the BDA said she must have the booster Hep B vaccination,
she refused fearing being crippled even more with arthritis and so has lost her
job. She is now employed as a part-time dental receptionist and earns less money
and really misses her dental nursing job. She takes pain killers for her
arthritis.

Gloria
was vaccinated in January 1995---Engerix B --- she had a anaphylactic reaction
to the vaccine and now suffers joint pains and ME/CFS - in October 1996 she
started having problems with the right side of her body --- balance and
co-ordination problems. She had neurological problems, and also has bladder
problems. She had a year off sick. In October 1997 her contract was terminated.
To walk any distance she needs a wheelchair. The NHS does not recognise her as a
case for a medical pension.

Ben
was born full term and normal in every way. His birth was vaginal and without
interventions or drugs. His Apgar scores were 9 and 10. All his reflexes were
recorded as normal. He was very peaceful. Before discharge, Ben was immunized
with Recombivax HB against hepatitis B virus. Neither I nor my husband recall
receiving informed consent for this vaccine, nor do we recall seeing Ben get the
shot, but it is recorded in his immunization record. No signed informed consent
specific to the hepatitis B vaccine was present in the copy of Ben's medical
record which we recently requested. Ben's fourth night in this world was his
first at home, and we arrived there at about 5 PM. Five hours later, he had his
first seizure. Frantic calls to the maternity staff and pediatrician on call
fell on deaf ears. The extent of the medical advice we received was to put him
on our clothes dryer and turn it on. No one mentioned the vaccine. No one
expressed concern that Ben was turning blue, that he couldn't stop screaming, or
that he appeared to be having tremors and full body spasms.

Ben had three more seizures, losing
consciousness, in the next 8 days, as well as several episodes of arching
screaming without losing consciousness. He was vomiting forcefully every day,
had a recurring mild fever and eczema, was unable to remain asleep, soaked
several diapers a day with glossy mucous and diarrhea, and cried constantly. No
one thought any of this was out of the ordinary. I was told these things were
normal for a breast fed infant. He was only 12 days old. The third time he
passed out, he did not resume consciousness. His breathing was slow and shallow
and he was cyanotic. At the emergency room, Ben was tested for several diagnoses
and all were negative or inconclusive. He was observed overnight. After
nearly losing him, we were sent home the next day with a shrug. No one knew what
was wrong, no one mentioned the vaccine, no one expressed interest or concern
for the events of the previous week, and no one advised us in any way about what
appeared to be seizures and a struggle for Ben's life. Ben's medical record even
states, in a gross understatement, that his first days of life prior to this
admission via the emergency room were "uneventful". The same doctor
who wrote this note privately admonished me for agreeing with the attending
pediatricians to spare Ben the trauma of another spinal tap. Convinced Ben had
meningitis, he said, "it's people like you who cause lifelong mental
retardation." Ben's discharge note states only that he had
"apnea", despite having tested negative for it. We entered the
hospital hoping for answers, but we left with absolutely none.

Ben
worsened with the second hepatitis B immunization at 4 weeks. It was at this
moment that I realized he'd been given the shot at birth and that this may be
causing his problems. At two months I asked Ben's pediatrician to postpone his
immunizations. I asked only for a delay so that Ben could continue recuperating.
I knew that accepted pediatric practice dictates that a sick child should not be
immunized. The doctor refused my request. When I persisted, he told me we could
either immunize Ben on schedule, which we had to do because it was the law, or
we could call DSS. With this threat, Ben was immunized. All of his symptoms
worsened. At four months, Ben was immunized again. At six months, I refused
further shots and switched doctors.

Even though Ben had seizures like this when he
was just a few days old, we were told they were breath holding spells which he
consciously contrived in response to our over protectiveness. The
doctors withdrew and not only became unsupportive, but blaming: They essentially
told us we were causing Ben's seizures, odd behaviors, and developmental delays
by bad parenting. I was told I "overnursed" him by one
neurologist and asked "why I needed something to be wrong with my son"
by a pediatric developmental specialist. I believe this is a grossly ignorant
assessment of what may be grand-mal seizure episodes.

Lindsay
received the Hepatitis B vaccine two days before entering High School. The next
day she seemed flu-like, the day after that so dizzy she couldn't stand-up
without holding the walls. The following day she passed out. So our life goes,
since August 1997. Lindsay has had syncopal & pre-syncopal episodes, her
ability to stand was compromised for almost six months due to unremitting
dizziness. Following our Drs. advice, unknown the vaccine was the culprit,
Lindsay had the series of three. It was on the third shot Lindsay became so
violently ill within two hours, that I knew the vaccine was the catalyst of her
illness.

Up until
the day Kaelan had his shot he hardly ever cried and was always extremely happy.
He received his shot at 3 pm and I was proud of him for not crying at getting it
and oblivious to any potential problems. At about 6pm he started crying hard and
continued to cry harder than I ever imagined that he could. By 8 pm he still was
crying and nothing I did could settle him and although he wasn't running a fever
his leg got quite swollen and about this time amidst his crying he's stop short
his face would contort, he'd stop breathing, and his little body would go rigid
for about 5 seconds. From this first one I knew he was having some sort of
seizure so I immediately took him to the hospital here in town. The Dr there
tried to convince me that he was just gagging because he was crying so hard and
told me to go home and give him some tylenol. I convinced the Dr to watch his
actions longer. Kaelan finally exhausted himself crying and fell asleep and even
in his sleep the seizures would come and wake him and start crying all over
again. The Dr admitted to never having seen "anything quite like it"
before and agreed to send him to the Sick Childrens hospital in the city by
ambulance. He continued to have seizures every 2-10 min for an 8 hr period. Even
while he was in the emergency room at the sick childrens hospital the Dr's were
trying to find out what else I could have given him that he would have reacted
to and were talking about his next immunization. After giving him a
lumbar puncture he was admitted under observation and released 2 days later with
absolutely no conclusion as to what had happened. It wasn't until we saw the
neurologist 4 weeks later (long story there trying to get an appointment in
1996) after he had another episode that it was agreed that he did indeed have
"seizures" but she couldn't tell me what caused them. It will be
months before he can have an EEG and a MRI done which will give her more
information. Her only theory at this point was the 1/2 his brain is more
developed that the other and that caused mixed signals, based on the fact that
he shows a tendancy to reach with his right hand first and curls to the right
when he's held a certain way.

Have you any idea what it is like to be
unable to do anything for 10 hours while your baby screams and arches his back
nonstop? In hospital we were very distressed that we could do nothing to help
settle Hayden. I was in tears at times and asked staff why can't they stop the
screaming! WE were told that this screaming was called "CEREBRAL
SCREAMING" and that the vaccine had GONE TO HIS BRAIN. That was why he
screamed and arched. Have you any idea how angry it makes me when Dr .......
defines Haydens reaction as a "LOCAL REACTION"? He was not there, I
was, and that was no local reaction . His blood work in Hospital showed TOXIC
NEUTROPHIL CHANGES PRESENT. QUESTION.... If a child has an allergic reaction to
the DPT vaccine, red rash, swollen thigh 45 mins afterwards, screams non-stop
and so violently that a hospital can't cope and send him to another hospital,
all the above continues for 10 hours, then intermittently another 12 hours,
doing what we are told by hospital personnel was a "CEREBRAL SCREAM",
does this not indicate an "acute encephalopathic reaction? (A local
Reaction!! My goodness do they take all parents for fools?)

At
no point was any follow up done on Hayden , no evaluation or investigation on
his neurological status. At no point did anyone report Haydens reaction To The
Centre for Adverse Reactions Committee in New Zealnd. We know that Haydens
vaccine reaction fulfills the medical dictionary definition of encephalopathy -
ie 'An acute reaction of the brain to a variety of toxic or infectious agents,
without any actual inflammation such as occurs in encephalities. I know there is
a conspiracy of silence about DPT vaccine reactions. NO ONE wants to take
responsibility for injuring a child with the pertussis vaccine.

My
daughter was sick the whole month of February, 2001.I noticed the change in her the day we came home from getting her 6 month
shots.Before that day, she was
happy, smiling all the time, slept through the night and only cried when she was
wet or hungry.The very day we got
home, I noticed she was awful fussy.I
thought this was the "normal" thing to expect after shots, even though
she never acted this way before.I knew something was wrong because she did not sleep at all that
night.I don't know how she stayed
awake, but she cried on and off all night.I put her in the bed with me, because I was scared to let her sleep in
her crib.From that night on, she
did not smile, laugh or seem at all happy.She acted like she was severely depressed.She did not sleep through the night that whole month.She stopped eating like she had been.She fussed on and off constantly and I cried every day.(I knew in my heart this was a
bad reaction to the vaccines, because I had read about them).She got her shots on a Friday.That
Monday morning, I called the pediatrician and the MOA advised that I bring her
in.By Monday she was badly
congested, wheezing, and running a fever.The
doctor advised that I give her Tylenol for the fever.He said her lungs sounded clear.I
brought up the "reaction" I believed had taken place.He sort of laughed and suggested he did not think it was that.He said she just had something viral and they hated to prescribe
anything for it when they are as young as she is and we should just let this
"run it's course".We
went home, needless to say, nothing changed, except for her fever; it did go
down.We took her back to this
doctor 4 more times in the next two weeks.I begged him to do blood work and a CXR on her.I knew something was in her lungs because I could hear it rattling.He would not.The
last time I took her to him, I was treated terribly.(You know how people talk in a doctors office, they probably thought I
was crazy).The doctor again told
me that what she had was probably viral and we would just have to let it run its
course.He finally prescribed a nasal decon.The last visit was on Saturday.That
next Tuesday, my husband and I had had enough.Carlie had taken 2 ounces of formula since Saturday.We took her to a Pediatrics
Emergency Center (not associated with her previous physician).This doctor spent 1 1/2 hours with her.He did blood work, CXR, checked her ears, lungs, heart, everything.My husband, my mother, and myself were in the room.He said he could tell by her blood work that she did have a reaction to
her vaccination, but that he was very surprised that it was not immediate and
acute.She also had severe double ear infection, and bronchitis.He prescribed Albuterol, an antibiotic and a different decongestant.We took her home, gave her the medication and she slept that night for
the first time in a month.The next
day, she played in the floor, smiled and started eating again.The day after that, she was like my little girl again.I cried and thanked God for her healing.

I
requested her medical records from the emergency clinic we took her to.Guess what?No mention of an
adverse reaction to her shots.So
you tell me.

I
consider my daughter to have been "severely and negatively affected"
by the shots she received at her 6 month check.I believe they caused her condition and everything associated with it.My daughter has been wonderful ever since.She has not, and will not ever get another vaccination.If we have to, we will homeschool her to avoid it.

I went in the room, decided
I would wake him up no matter what, and all I could do was scream. I will never
forget that awful scene. My husband came running, Heather and Patrick ran in, we
were trying to get them out of the room, my husband went running to the phone to
dial 911 but deep down I think we both knew it was too late.

On October 17, 1986, exactly
two months after Sean was baptized, we said our final farewell to our baby.

SIDS,
was what the autopsy said. Ironically, the day Sean died, October 15, 1986,
there was an article in USA Today about vaccines. I questioned the coroner about
this, but got the response of, some babies just quit breathing with no explained
reason, but vaccines cannot cause this.

We
filed for compensation, our case was finally heard in April of 1997, 11 years
after Sean died. We lost the case. I have nothing good to say about the
Compensation Act. We were treated like terrible parents. They could not believe
I did not call the doctor over some of the symptoms. But in all the forms the
doctors give you after vaccines, these were expected reactions.

My
name is Nancy Rodrigues and on 3/4/01 my 6 month old nephew died, just 3 days
after his DPT vaccination.My
sister, Elizabeth Rodrigues, the mother of the baby is losing her mind.

On that day, the
baby, Tyler,was wide awake and let
out a whine, when we looked at him he wasnt breathing. He clenched his mouth
and it looked as if he was having a seizure. We called 911, but 20 minutes went
by and the ambulance never showed.I
grabbed Tyler, with intentions of running with him to the hospital and then saw
two police officers driving down our street. They tried to administer CPR, and
at the same time screaming into his phone that he needed an ambulance because
Tyler had no pulse. Another 20
minutes went by, and no ambulance, so the police officer then grabbed Tyler and
rushed him to the hospital himself.

He
had his DPT vaccination on Thursday evening 3/1/01 and he died on Sunday 3/4/01.Not only did they give him the vaccination, but they gave it to him while
he had a cold.

I e-mailed Dr.
Mercola about two weeks after this happened and he gave me the phone # of a
lawyer who would help my sister with her case.After the lawyer looked over the autopsy report, he called my sister and
told her he would take her case.He
stated he was disgusted by what he saw on the report.

The
cause of death on the autopsy report states that my nephew died of a severe
cold!!Do you believe that?!?!?!Have you ever heard of anyone dying of a severe cold?? And then the
report states that he had cerebral swelling, blood spots in his liver, and he
had an pneumonia - but yet the cause of death was a severe cold!!!!

"After
the vaccinations I laid the children down for their naps. Harley woke first; his
thighs were red. I heard Ashlee wake and then I heard a 'THUMP!' Ashlee fell
flat on the floor. She cried out `Mommy, me no walk!' I checked her over and
stood her up; there was no strength in either leg.

"I
called the hospital and rushed Ashlee to the emergency ward. I left Harley with
a responsible woman to look after him while we were away. At the hospital we
waited more than 20 minutes for the doctor to finish his popcorn before he would
check Ashlee. He never touched her, nor was she undressed. The official report
stated that the child couldn't walk, 'no other problem.

"When
we returned home, Harley was high-pitched screaming. The babysitter said it
started more than one-and-a-half hours before. He was inconsolable. He finally
screamed himself into exhaustion two hours later. I called the emergency ward.
They recommended a warm bath and told me it was 'nothing to worry about.'

"For
ten days Harley's behavior changed. He barely slept, hardly ate, and seemed to
be getting worse. On May 17, 1991, at 9:00 a.m., my husband got up,
checked on Harley, and yelled out, `Bonnie, get up, call the ambulance. Harley
is dead!'

"The state police and county
coroner arrived with the ambulance. The coroner peered into the ambulance, never
examined Harley, and stated, 'SIDS.' Harley was then rushed away. My husband and
I didn't get to see him again for more than three days, until 1:00 p.m. on May
20, 1991 -- in his coffin!

"My adopted parents came to
Harley's funeral. My father (I use that term loosely) screamed out: `Which one
of you killed my grandson?' My husband's family stays away; they think we should
stop mourning for Harley and get on with our life.

"I want to mention the following
points:

* The
attendant giving the vaccines never mentioned the possibility of side
effects when we were rushed through the signing of the releases.

* Ashlee
has been to doctors since her paralysis. They never documented our verbal
concerns regarding a connection to the vaccines.

* The
autopsy lists Harley as a 5-week-old baby; he was 9 weeks old.

* The
pathology department never received tissue samples. Also, Harley's blood arrived
by U.S. mail after an eleven-day wait; it was not shipped on dry ice.

* The
doctor never recorded the lot numbers of the vaccines. The manufacturers cannot
help us without this information.

* An administrator at the Minot Air
Force Base (where the vaccines were administered), told us: `Get on with your
lives, drop this search. It's only a baby.'

* We were rejected for compensation
through the Federal Vaccine Compensation Act.

After
Brandy died, the police and the medical examiner never asked us any questions
about what happened to her. I made several attempts within the month following
her death to speak to the medical examiner and ask him what he found. The
autopsy report said that her brain was mildly swollen, and all her lymph nodes
were swollen. He told me that he had to file her death as 'Undeterminable'. When
I asked why, he said that she could have been strangled, suffocated, or died
from SIDS. I told him I knew that was a lie because if that were true there
would have been bruises somewhere on her body and the police would have done an
investigation, and I knew that at her age a child doesn't die from SIDS.

Well,
six days later, December 15, 1993, Jonathan died in his sleep. He had been a
very healthy child and not a bit of trouble, a good baby. The medical examiner
told me that Jonathan died of SIDS, but I don't believe that and I never will.
I've tried talking to [authorities], but no one seems to care. To them Jonathan
was just a number. To me he is life.

Throughout
this trauma no one ever suggested a connection to the vaccines. So our new
doctor reinjected Shana with the shots. There was so much unrest during this
time that I can't recall how much additional damage was actually done.

At two months of age I brought Ryan to
the doctor for his well-baby checkup. He
was given his first DPT shot. Within 24 hours he started to change. Ryan
became lethargic and fussy, ran a high fever, and had a glassy-eyed stare. The
doctor `reassured' me everything was okay. He recommended baby aspirin.

Several
weeks later, after Ryan's 2nd DPT shot, his reactions were the same. He
also had severe diarrhea, loss of interest in his bottle, choking, continued
staring spells, and prolonged sleeping -- except when he was high-pitched
screaming. Again I contacted the doctor and again
I was `reassured' everything was okay. Soon thereafter Ryan developed a
severe rash on his bottom. The doctor treated it as a diaper rash. I had three
children previously and had never seen a diaper rash like this.

After
Ryan received his 3rd DPT shot at 10 months of age, his father and I became very
concerned that something was seriously wrong. Ryan's health was deteriorating
rapidly. His reaction to this shot was much more severe. He ran a fever
of 106 degrees. He screamed, stared, and had severe diarrhea. His hands and lips
turned blue. The site of the injection leaked a clear fluid, and his thigh, from
hip to knee, was red and hot.

Ryan's development was regressing.
Although he walked at 10 months, at one year he was taking `a few steps.' What
few words he previously uttered were lost. His speech just stopped.

At 17 months, on a particularly bad
day, I called the doctor in the evening
to tell him something was terribly wrong with my baby. He told me `I only handle
emergencies at night.' Four weeks later Ryan was hospitalized with
a high fever and pneumonia. At the
hospital I was told for the first time that Ryan's `choking' and `staring' that
I had previously complained about were seizures. No one ever mentioned the
vaccines as the cause.

Ryan's
4th DPT shot was given at the age of 18 months. He had the same reactions as
before. The next day Ryan ran a fever of 106 degrees, had seizures, and
screamed constantly through the evening.

One
month later Ryan was again hospitalized with seizures. A C.A.T. scan showed an
increase in head size. Still, there was no mention of what caused this.

"The medical and developmental
problems continued. Ryan spent the first three years of his life in and out of
hospitals. The diagnosis was made but the cause was never given.

When
Ryan was two years old a major TV station ran a show called `Vaccine Roulette.'
I saw this show and was astonished that Ryan's condition and health history were
a mirror image of the vaccine damages. I began to read, ask questions,
and started to piece together the truth. I was now convinced that with each shot
that Ryan received he was becoming more and more damaged. I
was angry with myself for not knowing to ask questions, and I was angry with the
medical profession for their silence on the topic.

When
I confronted Ryan's doctor (a neurologist) he gave me the standard `benefits
outweigh the risks' speech. At this time we were also told not to give Ryan his
last DPT shot. This is like closing the barn door after the horse gets
out.

On
November 29 I questioned Taylor's doctor about her death. She didn't feel there
was any connection between Taylor's death and the shots. She said that SIDS was
very rare and they just don't know what causes it. She said this was only the
third case she had seen during her medical career, and that they have given
shots to many babies.

I knew Spencer was dead when I heard my
husband wailing like an animal. I grabbed Spencer's stiff and lifeless body and
screamed, `God, No, Not My Baby! He Can't Be Dead!' I administered CPR for
15 minutes, pounded on his chest, and yelled, `Come Back Spencer, Come Back,
Come Back!'

Then I heard my father say over the
phone to 911, `We've got a dead baby here.' Realization hit. I opened Spencer's
eyes, and he was dead. I then hugged his stiff body and emitted sounds I didn't
know any human being was capable of making.

I cannot adequately express my horror,
anger, and ultimate suffering. My life turned upside down in one day, and each
day that goes by I look at as one day closer to death, one day closer to
Spencer.

Why?
Because they told me the benefits outweigh the risks. What does that really
mean, and why are these people allowed to play God? After educating myself
further [on vaccines], I realize I was lucky to have had Spencer for as
long as I did.

I
have met numerous times with [the pathologist] in an effort to have [tests
done to detect vaccine toxins]. He said he didn't take the blood in assayable
[testable] conditions. I asked him to do an immuno-fluorescence test, and had
him speak with Dr. William Torch [the medical researcher who found correlations
between vaccines and Sudden Infant Death Syndrome], but [the pathologist] said
it wouldn't yield anything. I asked him to do [another test], but he said they
don't do that test there. It's maddening and frustrating BUT I WILL NOT GIVE UP.
Spencer was so special and loving that his mama will not stop fighting until the
day I die.

Spencer
was my first and only child. My husband and I are completely devastated. Now I
will channel all of my anger and my ultimate, unconditional love for my precious
baby, into this cause. No one should have to feel and know this living
nightmare.

On
the third day I called my doctor and said I was going to the hospital -- he
could be there if he liked. Billy was admitted with pneumonia and treated for
eight days. Despite my doctor's assurances that he would be fine, he has had
difficulties from then on. Although a wonderfully happy child, he has had
numerous allergies, difficulty digesting food, and is mentally retarded.

Since
that time, I have learned the story of how this could happen, and how it
continues to happen. During the same month that my son had this severe reaction,
15 babies in Illinois died from the DPT shot. The reason a moratorium on this
vaccine hasn't been called immediately is a story of greed, corruption, and a
fatal belief in our own technology. But the damage to children continues.

Six
weeks ago some friends of ours lost their 15 month old daughter. She died in her
sleep during the night. She had been given her MMR vaccine the day before. The
parents didn't notice any change in her behavior [prior to receiving the shot]
and said she had a great time playing with their three other kids the previous
evening. An autopsy was done, and 12 hours after the death the coroner came to
their house and told them she died from a rare type of cancer that is hard to
detect. Three days after the funeral the family doctor called to say the report
was not true, and it was not the coroner's place to give them preliminary
reports. The doctor said they now thought it was viral pneumonia. The family
asked if the shot was responsible, but the doctor said reactions to vaccines
don't usually happen within 14 to 16 hours; they usually occur 7 to 10 days
after being administered. What do you think?

"I know of no safe depository of the ultimate powers of the society but the people themselves, and if we think them not enlightened enough to exercise control with a wholesome discretion, the remedy is not to take it from them, but to inform their discretion by education."

-- Thomas Jefferson, letter to William C. Jarvis, September 28, 1820

“A sacred cow will not protect the herd.”

-- Sandy Gottstein

"What's the point of vaccination if it doesn't protect you from the unvaccinated?"

-- Sandy Gottstein

"Who gets to decide what the greater good is and how many will be sacrificed to it?"