"I'm up at 3 am walking up and down my hallways and I said, 'you know what, easy way, go in the other room, you got a gun, let's just end it right here. That's like, the easy way out. No more pain, I don't have to deal with the tabloids any longer. I don't have to deal with any of this. And that was probably the lowest I've ever gotten"

"It disgusted me. I was big and thick and masculine. The rest of the world thought it was this Greek god kind of body. I hated it. But it's what I was given, so I just tried to do the best I could with it," Ms Caitlyn said