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My insights on the world. Not very smart insights, but they're here just the same. Things about me and some things that'll make you think, "Too much info!". Just my days, what I think, possibly stories/poems and random thoughts.

It just sucks, you know what I mean?
No one really understands all the crap I put myself through in my head. Every pain is a severe illness, every activity I do could seriously harm me, I could become allergic to any food I eat.
It's really tiring.
What's worse is that I forgot what this was like! I used to be like this pretty consistently, but then I got busy and life became very full and I didn't have time to worry about this stupid stuff.
But when mono put me on all that resting, body problems became all I could think about and I became stuck in that mentality. I'm trying so hard to get myself out of it, but then I do stupid things like check my pulse constantly and worry about getting DVT when I eventually take my first flight to D.C. or dying on the plane. I'm so sick of this!
So then this happens. I get mad at myself and say it's nothing. And I'm good for a little while. Then I feel a twinge in my jaw and it starts all over again!
Vicious cycle, vicious cycle.