June 3, 2010

Worrying

...A long time ago a girlfriend told me WORRYING is a SIN! I used to be THE biggest worry wart - (I worried about the kids getting hurt, driving in someone else's car, staying the night at someone's house... their friends...) Looking back on those worries and probably soooo many more - I see that I was worshiping a very SMALL God who can only control so many things and I can do the rest! Eeeeks! Thankfully, I know a God now that CONTROLS the entire UNIVERSE! :) YEAH! I know that whatever happens in my life and my children's lives is how He has planned it. I am SO happy to give it to GOD! I know that I still worry and think at times that I have some sort of control over things - probably just part of being human...

...Well, I am now trying a lot more these days to remind myself NOT to worry and to put it ALL in GOD's hands... put Him first. I am now a Mommy to a TEENAGE Driver! :) Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh! :) I have to say I honestly believe 15 years old and a proud carrier of a driving permit just seems too young. I feel like the age limit should be more like 18!! :) Really, don't you think when the driving age was created it was centered around farmers, less traffic, less roads, no cell phones...etc. :) DRIVING is complicated and scary sometimes- even for an ol lady like me! :)

Madison is a smart girl and very responsible. I just need to remember to be a GOOD example and help her behind the wheel. WOW! I never knew how hard this was going to be. (How in the world did my PARENTS do this! ha ha! - I have to give my DAD huge credit for the amount of patience he had with ME!) :) ...I need to work on being more patient, trusting, and choosing my words and tone carefully (A little tricky when you think you're about ready to drive off the road- where is that BREAK pedal on the passenger side!? I neeeeeeed one! :)) I know that with Madison driving it will be really helpful in the long run - especially when we come home from Ethiopia with her siblings.

Dear Jesus! Help me to be MORE like you... Help me to put you first the second I wake up till the moment I close my eyes to go to sleep. Help me to ALWAYS remember that you are in CONTROL.