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You could call this a personal creative fiction journal about a world traveler and his evolving life.
He saw the warmth of Americans vanish with the once large friendly middle class. Was there a Camelot, when we thought of ourselves as a good nation?
The powers that be have been holding our country hostage since Reagan took away the power of the unions and Neoconservatives took over the Republican Party!
Will we ever stop our declining ways?
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the evils of procrastination~!it wasnt one of those 8 evil sins where Oz takes number 1 ranking!(in one of my earlier posts)but it ranks the highest in my own book as the most evil or my own arch nemesis...I wonder if it will be one of those essays where I have alot of stuff to say and it all evaporates into cyberspace...sorry I havent written to you in a while...I have a litte time over a 4x and stuff to say about how much more I love this beach...the mistress of the sea beckons me more each day, evening...in fact so Im actually trying to connect my diurnal (?) clock so that I dont miss out on the hours of daylight...we both can't make it much past 9pm on Tuesday two for one pizza at dominos and $2 movies at Blockbusterbefore we have to decide about how long and hopefully how little we can spend in NZ!...maybe less than 1000 (not likely) ,,,but u know that Im such a tight wad....

Now the escape has come back to realitywith an email scolding from my attorney back in the Okie zoneab…

Today, an initiative that would legalize personal marijuana possession and allow regulated sales of marijuana to adults will qualify for California's November general election ballot. A win at the ballot would be a first of its kind in U.S. history. This is a remarkable moment in the struggle to change our decades-old marijuana policies.

Marijuana was prohibited in 1937 before most Americans had ever heard of it. Today the U.S. leads the world in marijuana consumption. Nearly 26 million Americans used marijuana last year and more than 100 million have tried it in their lifetimes. A huge commodity of the underground economy, marijuana is the nation's top cash crop, valued at $14 billion in California alone. Our state Board of Equalization has estimated we would generate $1.4 billion a year by taxing marijuana like alcohol.

Like it or not, marijuana has become a mainstream recreational drug. It is second only to alcohol and cigarettes in popularity and is objectively far less harm…

A Texas company recently took out a political ad in several local newspapers, making it one of the first corporations to do so in the wake of a landmark Supreme Court ruling that lifted restrictions on corporate political spending.

The Texas Tribune reports that the company, KDR Development, paid for an ad against state Rep. Chuck Hopson, formerly a Democratic member of the state legislature who switched parties and ran in the Republican primary for re-election.

The ad headline reads: "Vote for a REAL Republican," and it challenges Hopson's Republican credentials. The sponsorship line at the bottom of the ad reads: "Political advertisement paid for by KDR Development, Inc." The ads ran in the Jacksonville Daily Progress, the Tyler Morning Telegram and the Panola Watchman, small newspaper in East Texas.

According to the Texas Tribune's Ross Ramsey:

The newspaper ads ran in Jacksonville and Tyler on the Sunday before the election and a week earlier in Panola, and…

wow... I can write again... this blog is asking me to migrate...but it's all about ftp and it has be done by May 1st... financially, spiritually and for our family's well being it would best for me to migrate to Oz...(but that's the really important part of migration in regards to my new life!) Im gonna have to ask LA for help! Thanks for telling me the great news about Buffy and how she is enjoying being with your family! I have to buy a camera so that I can send you a pic of my honey and her tranformation into a mermaid loving the Pacific! Speaking of mermaid, the statue of one is finally now in front of our club!...i heard it cost as much as the cost of the house in the Okie Zone!

" (from Huffington Post)Obama watched the vote in the White House's Roosevelt Room with Vice President Joe Biden and dozens of aides. When the long sought 216th vote came in — the magic number needed for passage — the room burst into applause and an exultant president exchanged a high-five with his chief of staff, Rahm Emanuel.

"We proved that we are still a people capable of doing big things," the president said a short while later in televised remarks. "We proved that this government — a government of the people and by the people — still works for the people."

“This isn’t radical reform, but it is major reform,” Obama continued. “This is what change looks like.”

and I regret to say it's owned by an Aussie who owns FOXTEL here in Oz! So Aussies can see for themselves how biased towards Republicans this so called news channel is! Another one of the many reasons for my son to grow up in Oz and have a choice away what's happening to America in case these evil Neocons steal the election the way Fox helped influence the decision of the electoral college won out over the popular vote...Gore and others should have put up a stand in Florida and be the rightful president of the US...instead this idiot Bush put us into a rapid decline(don't get me started!)Obama On Fox News: Accuses Bret Baier Of Interrupting, Two 'Going At Each Other'In a rare interview with Fox News on Wednesday, President Obama predicted to host Bret Baier that Congress will soon pass the health care reform proposal that his administration has been working on for months.

OBAMA: I'm confident it will pass. And the reason I'm confident that it's going to …

Thank you, LA, for the congratulations on getting my Bronze! I've been wanting this for a long time. It's almost anticlimatic now after doing it all!I bet Buffy could manage to surf on the board like another dog does down the beach! I miss her. How is she doing?

perhaps relating??I like this excerpt from the daily OM about finding happiness! "Expressing your creativity can be a powerful means of entertaining yourself or the people you care for. Often, we look for fun in situations created by others. Each of us has the potential to entertain ourselves by simply putting a novel, creative spin on life or thinking about our everyday duties in a new way. In doing so, you can take an everyday activity and make it more enjoyable by going about it in a fresh way. It also becomes easier to find the humor in the little foibles you experience as you move through your days. When you possess the ability to entertain yourself, your happiness is in your hands. By using your creativity to…

of course all of my epiphanies were erased into cyberspace again as I saw how lucky we were to have this little bit of paradise on the beach....after playing a couple games of chess with ocean st. mate I went out to look at the surf and saw the most beautiful rainbows sprouting out of the sea with the light shining between the clouds on the surfers.. as if there were pots of gold at each end!it was almost heavenly...I couldn't capture it on my broken camerabut fortunately I had my new found video camera to capture it... ( I found the charger back here in our flat)I need to search for a pic that will be appropriate for this little bit of heaven...a cyclone just did its damage to Fijiand is on it's 100 km/hr course to our little paradise...so it was almost as if God was giving us a beautiful show before the storm!

AUSTIN, Texas - A far-right faction of the Texas State Board of Education succeeded Friday in injecting conservative ideals into social studies, history and economics lessons that will be taught to millions of students for the next decade.

Teachers in Texas will be required to cover the Judeo-Christian influences of the nation's Founding Fathers, but not highlight the philosophical rationale for the...for the separation of church and state. Curriculum standards also will describe the U.S. government as a "constitutional republic," rather than "democratic," and students will be required to study the decline in value of the U.S. dollar, including the abandonment of the gold standard.

"We have been about conservatism versus liberalism," said Democrat Mavis Knight of Dallas, explaining her vote against the standards. "We have manipulated strands to insert what we want it to be in the document, regardless as to whether or not it's appropriate."

Today was the best day in a long while..it was so long since I felt so very welcome in a place..I earned my bronze medallion finally today at the Miami Surf Club!They invited me for to stay over at the club for lunchafter we waited for us to be given the chance to swim the surf with the hard break...I was the first to reach the shore among the 20 swimmers...Never have I felt stronger and more vindicated to know my abilities as a surf lifeguard!Now I can walk tall as I patrol the beach as volunteer to help save folks in trouble!

there are so many things that I have to do...I can also feel so overwhelmed yetI dont want to depend on a medication such as adderall to focus betterit could cause unknown side effects...but the bronze exam for becoming a volunteer lifeguard on sunday is coming upI am nervous about that and feel with the adderallI could focus better so I think that it will be good to be able to do it without meds but I will feel more confident with a little... especially knowing the instructor will be there who stated that I was not ready for the assesment a month ago... I want to not let things like that bother me...but I will actually pray and feel my confidence in myself will still keep improving with age... as I become wiser..(hopefully) all of this and then not even wanting to think about the house in the Okie Zone can be overwhelming along with helping my wife to cope with her daily depression... life can be tough but then I look at our wonderful beautiful son and believe it is all worth while to bring hi…

ok.... it's probably the problem with these laptop computers.. like the other one I have.... I guess I need to break down and get some lessons on the way I type and I'm pushing the buttons...so that I push the area where I can move the cursor(?) and all of the writing disappears into cyberspace... I was talking about my scrooge mcduck genes where I save money for the rainy day... or better yet the end of the world (as we know it) financially collapses the way the neorepublicons desire America to become a banana republic the way many countries in south america have become... most americans will be so in debt to creditors that they work long hours to just survive and not become a homeless person...trying desperately to pay off the credit cards at outrageous rates and taxes that only profit corporate welfare and the military industrial complex!! whew!! ...ppp, passs again it was erased... I guess I need to write on word perfect before it's all erased..today was a beautiful day and after v…

wow... somebody from sacramento has been visiting my site for december 2004...what was so intriguing about that time period or what I wrotefor them to visit my site several times per day...maybe some readers could give me insight on what they might or dislike about my writing??its 4 am and Ive been watching some good movies before I wanted to have the chance to write to you...Surrogates and a chinese movie called Red Cliff...the latter movie showed how to win a war against overwhelming odds with the step by step strategies of chess!My realization/epiphany again is reiterated about treating life as a chess game..I had that thought almost 20 years ago after Mom passed away and before Alene passed..my life is short and I know that I can still have victory...(things can always turn around in a tough game with the knight!)...I know that if I can do the steps one a time , we can have a succesful happy family...

I was motivated to do a search for this pic and anonymous poem after seeing the pic with my son...I am a hopeful agnostic tuning often into my own spirituality, knowing that my brother and I buried the ashes first of Mom and then our Dad many years later in front of our Aussie home....

I had put these pics on earlier in the day, but the writing and photos disappeared into cyberspace...

Now I thought again about our beautiful child and the footprints beside him!

If you can make one heap of all your winningsAnd risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,And lose, and start again at your beginningsAnd never breath a word about your loss;If you can force your heart and nerve and sinewTo serve your turn long after they are gone,And so hold on when there is nothing in youExcept the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"as I try to discover that self actualized person that can do the best with the attributes (strengths and weaknesses) that he hasI look out at the ocean and wonder about my future...can I let my dreams become reality without them becoming my master??.. can I help this jet take off with it's engine totally tuned to tip top shape to make it's flight into it's new adventurewhere will this flight take us?? I feel others have their dream mixed in with their post avatar depression (after watching the film)they might wish for a younger healthier bodywith the ability to fly to places where they have never been..looking for e…

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master,If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;If you can meet with Triumph and DisasterAnd treat those two impostors just the same;If you can bear to hear the truth you've spokenTwisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out toolsI love this poem of Kipling...about being a hero at least in my own mind...I keep getting back up after disastersand don't give up..it's my William Wallace brave heart mentality...ready to do battle no matter what the steaks...failing again the preassesment out of my own nerves...putting the mask on wrong while the instructor berated me over where my fingers were to create a seal... I knew that I would never meet this insecure man's standards as if no matter what , he had to prove to impartial observers that I was in some little aspect incompetent...if i did something well, he would find something el…

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its good to be working again, even if its only subbing to get my mind off that my son was taken away by x and selfish xinlaws who want to enjoy his youth in their own dreary life

I get down but then Im invigorated with an autistic student that wins a Rhodes Scholarship and is going to Oxford!

Kelly Fleming remembers the low point of raising her son, Jory.
He was eight years old when he spent an entire morning, afternoon and evening wailing uncontrollably. She still doesn’t know what set off the boy, who has autism and a metabolic disorder.
But the tough times seem more bearable now, at the high point. Last month, Jory, who is 22 with a feeding tube inserted in his stomach and braces on his legs, was awarded a Rhodes Scholarship.
In between came Ms. Fleming’s decision to give up on her own dream of practicing medicine, home schooling Jory, learning to read, a bird named Federer and finally college and a dog named Daisy.
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. September 8th happy that my family is together just trying to live one day at a time one moment at a time life is short I love my son so much I'm at a Crossroads in my life to decide to become a teacher I write my book it's a matter of putting several pages together and then figuring out which stories all the best and I need to get Help from My Friends even perhaps my neighbors but the judgmentalism of the human nature intimidates me more than anything I had another beautiful day with my son we went to some family therapy with a good counselor who has played a couple of family games the Dynamics would help us appreciate my ex coming back today for the sake of our beautiful son! I have to pinch myself and I'm blessed to be his father and I shouldn't be last I'm doing everything that I can with him I have to overcome that often disability of laziness....tomorrow... domani!n

the story of my life,,, sad i cant even borrow some fold up chairs for the evening :( s…

i went downstairs to admire the almost full waning moon...
realizing my own mortality...
i think of a friend who had his wake up call at a much younger age
and then i get a glimmer of what my own mortality could be
when i walk across Hedges ave.
and suddenly see double with much better acuity...
it was bizarre
i closed either eye and didnt see double
but then I could walk just shutting one eye
to a chair
to see my beloved ocean one more time
and eat a halloween mini candy bar
the uneasy feeling wondering when the double image
fades away with each bite

hypoglycemia or
a mini stroke....

and I hug my son that evening
and play frisbee with my son more than i ever have
having discovered my son's new toy hidden among
the seaweed about a 100 meters out from shore...

the feelings run across my mind that night,
with frustration at my own body's fragile shell
and the necessary need to establish the bucket list....

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its good to be working again, even if its only subbing to get my mind off that my son was taken away by x and selfish xinlaws who want to enjoy his youth in their own dreary life

I get down but then Im invigorated with an autistic student that wins a Rhodes Scholarship and is going to Oxford!

Kelly Fleming remembers the low point of raising her son, Jory.
He was eight years old when he spent an entire morning, afternoon and evening wailing uncontrollably. She still doesn’t know what set off the boy, who has autism and a metabolic disorder.
But the tough times seem more bearable now, at the high point. Last month, Jory, who is 22 with a feeding tube inserted in his stomach and braces on his legs, was awarded a Rhodes Scholarship.
In between came Ms. Fleming’s decision to give up on her own dream of practicing medicine, home schooling Jory, learning to read, a bird named Federer and finally college and a dog named Daisy.
“All children have amazing minds,” Ms. Fleming says. “Their brains…

. September 8th happy that my family is together just trying to live one day at a time one moment at a time life is short I love my son so much I'm at a Crossroads in my life to decide to become a teacher I write my book it's a matter of putting several pages together and then figuring out which stories all the best and I need to get Help from My Friends even perhaps my neighbors but the judgmentalism of the human nature intimidates me more than anything I had another beautiful day with my son we went to some family therapy with a good counselor who has played a couple of family games the Dynamics would help us appreciate my ex coming back today for the sake of our beautiful son! I have to pinch myself and I'm blessed to be his father and I shouldn't be last I'm doing everything that I can with him I have to overcome that often disability of laziness....tomorrow... domani!n

the story of my life,,, sad i cant even borrow some fold up chairs for the evening :( s…

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﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿ ﻿ ﻿ ﻿ ﻿﻿﻿﻿This lady who calls herself a journalist took offense to an article written by a journalist named Sullivan who used to like Bush. He stated that critics of Obama lack intelligence. She and fox love to criticize our president because she gets paid to cut down Obama and show her pretty face , but actually looks likes she's had a messed up nose job since this photo was taken in her prime years. ﻿﻿﻿﻿ ﻿﻿ I don't watch TV let alone Faux News (even though fox is the only cable news show here in Oz) since our TV went into a coma, but I have seen how rude this lady and other fox anchors have become to their guests. I believe they are trained to be this way so they can bully their guests enough so the audience will have believe the host of the right wing biased shows. "40-year old Megyn Kelly is a mommy again! The FOX News star gave birth to a baby girl on Thursday, the network announced on the air. The girl, Yardley Evans, was born at 10 AM on Thursday a…

do other folks all over the world have an obsession with their fantasy of the ultimate "hippie stoner girl"and my site comes up...?? always intrigued with the hilarious searches that come up with my site....
and how do I segue into the next topic...
well, sometimes we have the best thoughts especially over a good game of chess,
our best moments from our current crop of leaders could have been after a good doobie! ie clinton, Obama, maybe even Bush actually thought he could be president... and the plan evolved when he was doing a Jamaican joint perhaps with the great Karl Rove, the wizard of the dark side

....I'm watching Obama talk about killing the 2nd in command for terrrorists...so if we were to be looking at a football game... the heart of republican thinking with a high testosterone for patriotism and dominating the world... Obama just scored a touchdown!! even though we've been behind from the start with a very hostile crowd booing and cheering at most often inap…

Lord, or the universal energies that give you periodic signs , sometimes more and more frequently, ie. I said Baby,,, the tv says baby girl...
there's a word I just say and the tv says it almost synchronistical...
I have so many things to do... and I wake up and I don't say wanna see all these bills , esp. gold coast rates! 1200 per month.. my tenant, Jesus, does not pay enough in rent to cover half of the bills, yet I am so poor...
aaa..... but I finally get to be with my son today, since my x bought her car and has a sales job coming up... she has been taking everywhere along with long walkabouts in the huge expanse of Okc and its white flight suburbs...
to be continued.. I really need to get a cheap wifi.. so that I know Im at least writing to you and my muse/benefactor, Leigh Anne...

hoping we will get some of this published , if whatever funds that she has helped me find like a "TREASURE HUNT"but the old man is too lazy to get off his ass and start filling o…

When will Americans finally say "Fuck you" to the Saurons and Republicons who are systematically destroying the world as we currently know it..
they have their Saruman(wizard of the dark side) in the shape of the porker Karl Rove, sounding now like a veritable voice of reason for the party...
which is being led Right over the cliffs with the leaders of the tea flake party! He is seeing the party go down the toilet, because he knows most sane americans won't vote for the lunatics on the fringe!

I was chatting with my very good friend, Charles, over the possible future/fate of our country and how scary it could possibly become within the next few years!... what if Bush and the Neocon party were really behind the "implosions" of the twin towers, when the explosions went off inside the buildings as they fell as perfectly straight down as thelarge hotels that were imploded on purpose in Vegas!
They have been succesful in their strategy since Reagan and Bush senior …

I was reading last night at Border's about ADD and romance. It helps me understand myself and what I could have done differently in past relationships. There is a deep desire to be hyperfocused on somethings such as romance. The person with ADD constantly is seeking stimulation. When the stimulation is gone , the love sours often. At first in the impulsivity of the action you are putting all your efforts into the relationship so much so that often lovers of the ADDers are the happy receptacles of the best lovemaking and more attention than they have ever received.

It really helps when I read these books to get over my own disability and lack of focus in my life. There are many famous folks that have blossomed with their disability such as Edison, Churchill, Lincoln and Einstein. Both Churchill and Lincoln were documented to suffer from deep black depressions. I wonder how they would have been if they had tried the medication. Would they be able to tolerate or even not have these m…

i went downstairs to admire the almost full waning moon...
realizing my own mortality...
i think of a friend who had his wake up call at a much younger age
and then i get a glimmer of what my own mortality could be
when i walk across Hedges ave.
and suddenly see double with much better acuity...
it was bizarre
i closed either eye and didnt see double
but then I could walk just shutting one eye
to a chair
to see my beloved ocean one more time
and eat a halloween mini candy bar
the uneasy feeling wondering when the double image
fades away with each bite

hypoglycemia or
a mini stroke....

and I hug my son that evening
and play frisbee with my son more than i ever have
having discovered my son's new toy hidden among
the seaweed about a 100 meters out from shore...

the feelings run across my mind that night,
with frustration at my own body's fragile shell
and the necessary need to establish the bucket list....

I'm excited about the video "Sherman's March" coming in about this man's historical documentary "evolving into an improbable search for love". I need to see if I can show it to Muffy as she would she the similarity between this man and me. It is so amazing that I have been thinking about how this website could evolve into a movie also. There have been so many funny things happening in this story. I like to think of these types of coincidences as signs from above. I feel that the spirits that are wanting to guide me are telling me to do this. Muffy badly wants me to get a laptop so that I can easily download pictures and film from the camcorder that I'm investing in. I have not smoked anything yet today, so I am completely sober in this vision.

I woke up to another beautiful gorgeous day just begging for me to go outside and enjoy it. I can feel love and hope in the atmosphere on a crystal clear warm day in December. I feel that there is hope for huma…

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You could call this a personal creative fiction journal about a world traveler and his evolving life.
He saw the warmth of Americans vanish with the once large friendly middle class. Was there a Camelot, when we thought of ourselves as a good nation?
The powers that be have been holding our country hostage since Reagan took away the power of the unions and Neoconservatives took over the Republican Party!
Will we ever stop our declining ways?
(sorry for typos!)

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its good to be working again, even if its only subbing to get my mind off that my son was taken away by x and selfish xinlaws who want to enjoy his youth in their own dreary life

I get down but then Im invigorated with an autistic student that wins a Rhodes Scholarship and is going to Oxford!

Kelly Fleming remembers the low point of raising her son, Jory.
He was eight years old when he spent an entire morning, afternoon and evening wailing uncontrollably. She still doesn’t know what set off the boy, who has autism and a metabolic disorder.
But the tough times seem more bearable now, at the high point. Last month, Jory, who is 22 with a feeding tube inserted in his stomach and braces on his legs, was awarded a Rhodes Scholarship.
In between came Ms. Fleming’s decision to give up on her own dream of practicing medicine, home schooling Jory, learning to read, a bird named Federer and finally college and a dog named Daisy.
“All children have amazing minds,” Ms. Fleming says. “Their brains…

. September 8th happy that my family is together just trying to live one day at a time one moment at a time life is short I love my son so much I'm at a Crossroads in my life to decide to become a teacher I write my book it's a matter of putting several pages together and then figuring out which stories all the best and I need to get Help from My Friends even perhaps my neighbors but the judgmentalism of the human nature intimidates me more than anything I had another beautiful day with my son we went to some family therapy with a good counselor who has played a couple of family games the Dynamics would help us appreciate my ex coming back today for the sake of our beautiful son! I have to pinch myself and I'm blessed to be his father and I shouldn't be last I'm doing everything that I can with him I have to overcome that often disability of laziness....tomorrow... domani!n

the story of my life,,, sad i cant even borrow some fold up chairs for the evening :( s…

I was reading your blog and I'm sorry that you have had a very rough challenging life... Maybe one day you will read this and I want to say sorry. I hope one day you can forgive me... I would like to write more to you but I know that all my neighbors read this...

life is actually going better... I am so happy to be with my son and thinking one day at a time eventually he will be in Oz.. on our paradise on the beach!he

I go outside and visualize walking out to the sunny beach instead of our backyard with a view of the neighbors, wondering if they will leave curtains open..(oops forget).
just the thought of some people I know reading this and taking it the wrong way...
but I digress, enjoying a lansy weekend with my son.... loving the aspect of enjoying a weekend with no worries.., trying to enjoy the warmest weekend in January, thankful that this hopeful agnostic has prayed for help with his place in Oz... sometimes things seem to fall in place...e
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