Thursday, October 30, 2008

So I've put on a kilo.How could I have done that??I'm doing cardio at the gym, not weights. So its not muscle.I'm not hormonal, and there is no fluid that I can tell.I am watching my carb intake, making sure Im eating veggies and protein. My portion sizes are normal. I might decrease them a little.Any help guys? Because I am frustrated.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I woke up feeling starving. As if I hadn't eaten in days. My tummy grumbled. I hate that. First thing I did was call the surgeons rooms. They were engaged for 40 mins. Annoying.... I called later on in the day and tried to get an appoinment earlier than the fill I have booked in a month. They couldnt do it.I'm pretty pissed off that I call telling them that I am in need, and they can't seem to fit me in. I wasn't expecting for them to drop everything for me. But this happens every time I try to get an appointment. The receptionist told me Dr Fill would call to organise a fill. Didn't happen. So tomorrow I'm using my new found inner tiger and calling them up to tell them I am unhappy with the service. Lol.No exercise today. I was exhausted. Tuesdays are hard for me because I have all the cleaning to do in the afternoons at work. So I did get a workout, just not a set 30 mins on a treadmill or bike.Tomorrow is gym day. I am planning to do an hour on the equipment. I haven't started classes yet because I am a loser and hate going alone. One of the mums at preschool goes to my gym so we are planning to go together. Might talk to her tomorrow and see when she wants to start.I'm bidding on this lovely dress on ebay for my work xmas party. Its electric blue!! I want to wear something I wouldnt normally wear. Its going to show off some boobies thats for sure!!

Monday, October 27, 2008

What a hot day!Because of the heat I had a really yucky headache. I still went to the gym in the heat and with the headache. I didn't take anything for it because I was scared my band was going to bitch it up and reject tablets. So I went and hit the treadmill and the exercise bike. I could only do 30 mins and staggered out of the gym. I'm not sure how I managed to get home. It was one of those "ouch my eyes hurt" kinda ones. I got home and couldnt take it so took some panadol mini caps. Band was happy because Id attempted exercise and they went down a dream.My band is a little looser. I don't mind that at all. I am making sure the foods I am eating are lovely and nutritious.Heres tomorrows food diary:B- waterM/tea- cashews/peanuts and banana bits (small handful) with a low fat strawberry yoghurtLunch- salad with salmon and balsamic vinegar (if still hungry either fruit puree or rest of nut mix)Afternoon tea- if hungry either fruit puree or nut mix (whatever I didnt eat)Dinner- Shepherds Pie

Water intake- at least 1.5 L of waterExercise- 45 min walk on treadmill at 5.5

Loving all the changes to food and exercise. Not missing crap at all!My goal is to be AT LEAST 89.9 for Xmas. So that means in 8 weeks I have to lose 4.5 kilos. With all the changes I've made, and especially the exercise I KNOW I can do it! It would be a dream come true to be close to the 86 mark... thats 35 kilos lost since banding.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

I went clothes shopping yesterday because my clothes just looked plain stupid on me. I am super happy with my bargains! I bought 4 tops (priced at $12 each!), 3 pairs of shoes (gladiator flats- black and white and work shoes), new makeup and a maxi dress all for $210! Gotta love kmart and their constant sales! The tops are such pretty colours! I will take a pic and post them on my photo blog soon.I am offically a 16 now! Very very very cool! Its all super exciting for me from here guys! Last time I was under 90 and under a size 16 I would have been about 15-16. It was so so so great to be able to go into a store and be able to choose. I actually had to stop myself. I could pick up anything and it would fit. It was so so so very freeing. I'm sure you guys understand.Since Wednesday I have been working out everday. I've been to the gym three times and days I haven't been able to make it I've used to treadmill at home. I did an hr workout today and added weights into the mix also. My eating has also improved. My food before wasn't bad, but I've refined it further. Making sure I'm getting mainly protien and veggies. I went out last night for dinner. It would have been super easy for me to have something totally shitty but I didn't. I had this yummo "lifestyle wrap"that consisted of ham, feta, baby spinich, tomato, egg and tangy bbq sauce in a toasted wrap. It was heaven. I didn't wanna put shittyness into my body. Think I'm getting somewhere....Tomorrow is the 2nd day of my spirituality course. We will be doing inner healing. I am a little- wait very- nervous. In the last 7 months I've made such a huge change, I feel that I've dealt with my weight issues. I am worried something is going to pop out at me and fuck everything up. Let's hope it doesnt! Lol.Course is all day tomorrow so can't get to the gym. Might do a light 30 minute treadmill session after I get back. I'm sticking to this people. I want to be under 90 for Xmas. I WILL be under 90 for Xmas!Eating isn't worrying me anymore. I think I just had a really unrestricted day the other day. I'm happy with my food at the moment. I will monitor it still like I said to make sure that the scales are going down. They bloody better with my exercise!Enjoy the rest of your weekend!-skinny "loving the new clothes!" biddy :0)

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Had a good day at work. Wait, scratch that- I had an excellent day. I worked in the older room mainly by myself which I didn't mind. I told my boss about my recent assignment mark (92%) and she was very pleased. She asked if I wanted to go onto the Diploma and that if the girl I am working for atm on maternity leave doesnt come back, she would love me to stay on. I was over the moon!! She also told me she would be happy for me to do diploma as a trainee type situation which is bloody excellent! So now it's just a waiting game to see if I get it or not. I'll honestly be devastated if I don't. I have real high hopes.Hit the treadmill this afternoon after work. It would have been REALLY easy for me to not do it- I was physically exhausting. I do find it hard to do after work, but I am going to push past that. Tomorrow is a day off, planning to go to the gym in the morning, then go buy some clothes (mine are too big now!), get a massage and go out to dinner and a movie with a friend.

Food DiaryB- cup of teaMorning Tea- yoghurt an handful of cashews, peanuts and dried bananaLunch- 2 cruskits, chicken and sweet corn soup (didnt get to finish it because I was busy at work so I was hungry when I got home)Afternoon Tea- 2 cruskits with cheese and vegemiteDinner- Fettucine BosciolaAfter dinner- icecream (yeah im weird. I only eat icecream when its cold.)

I'm wondering if I am eating too much? My restriction does seem to have worn off compared to what it was last week. I am booked for a fill on the 24th of November. But I don't know if its wise to go that long. I am going to keep monitoring it and check the scales a little more often to see if my increase eating is affecting my band in a negative way. I know that with increased activity (exercise) I will burn more off therefore want to eat more. But yeah, we'll see how to goes. What do you guys think?

Ok I'm out. Looking forward to the 3 days I have off before I start 5 days a week. Man, now that will be interesting!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

So I think I became complacent. I was over the honeymoon period and finding it hard to motivate myself. As much as I was preaching that the band is a tool, I wasn't listening to my own advice. Yes, I changed my food choices, but there wasn't as much exercise as there could have been. I've been thinking in the last few days that I don't want to look back on my first year and regret it. Not having worked as hard as I could to get as much weight off as I can. I want to look back and be able to say "I tried my best".So with that said I headed off to the gym today for a 45 minute work out. The plan is at least 3 times a week at the gym and every other day the treadmill at home. Yes, 7 days a week.Also tightening up the eating further. Normally I have major issues with salads (weird, huh). I took a chance and took salad and pink salmon for lunch today. I put balsamic vinegar on it which weirdly helped it go down. I didn't have any issues at all with it! So making sure I take salads as much as I can.

Todays food diaryB- nice big warm cup of tea on such a cold cold day!Morning Tea- yoghurt and cashews (oh and a cupcake for one of the chns birthdays @ preschool)Lunch- Salmon and saladDinner- fetta and spinich fish with veggiesWater- 1.5 L

I'm pretty proud of my efforts today. Keeping it up because I feel bloody awesome tonight!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Dad went to the doctors today for results of recent blood tests- No more diabetes! I'm so so so incredibly happy for him. For years I was scared shitless that he wasn't going to be around to see my children or walk my down the aisle (even though I still reckon I will end up as the "cat woman") . But this is brilliant. Big big weight off my shoulders (now lets get rid of the other 25 kilos of weight! hehe)Today I met up with the other facilitator of the new support group I'm involved with. She was banded a week before me and has lost 40 kilos. Well I felt like shit. Thats such an incredible loss. But in talking to her further she explained that she works out everyday and sometimes twice a day. Now as much as I wish I could do that- I definately couldn't do it. I just don't have the time, or honestly the energy. I am so used to guilting myself over things. I think I am automatically doing it over the exercise thing.Anywhoo. The goal is to be under 90 for Xmas. I would love love love to be around 85. But thats not going to happen. I'll settle with 89. Or even 89.9!!I know I keep saying "I have to go the the gym", Well I do. So I am. Tomorrow after work. Friday morning, and Saturday morning. 3 times this week. Better than nothing.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Today I saw some relatives that I haven't seen since September last year. They knew that myself and my dad had the band and knew that we'd both lost weight. But I didn't expect my aunty to walk into the room and her eyes to be out of her head! It was the single best reaction I've gotten so far. And I felt so overwhelmed. But see, this is the thing- the whole time, and even right this very second, I am thinking "wait until they see me at my goal weight". Thats not something that I'm happy about. I need to praise myself for my efforts NOW. What I have acheieved up until this point. However, I think that a reason I am thinking ahead, not celebrating my achievements so far is because I'm damn excited! I'm so excited because this next phrase in my journey (being under 90- 5 kilos away) is the unknown for me. Last time I was under 90 was when I was 15-16. I woke up this morning and looked in the mirror. I couldn't believe it! My skin was sooooooooooooo clear! I have tried EVERYTHING to use on my face (except roaccutance, wouldnt go near it) so I was getting super desperate. Since I've been doing the spirtuality course I've opened up a whole new world. I decided to give something alternative a go. I bought amethyst to put next to my bed. Its healing qualities include helping skin problems and correcting hormone imbalances. I don't believe in coincidences- a week after having it and I feel different. Fluid retention ALMOST COMPLETELY GONE, pms- nearly non-exsistent, skin of course clear and just feeling NORMAL. I know some people don't believe in this kinda thing, but I do. So no haters please.Ok, thats all for tonight. Its taken me hours to write this post, halfway through I had to pick drunk mum and her drunk work buddies up and drive them all home. Resulting in my hearing loss and wine smelling car.

Friday, October 17, 2008

My day got off to a shitty start but gradually improved.I think I remembered late last night/early this morning, the reason that I don't drink. I get really sick. Lesson learnt.I wasn't having the best day restriction wise. I went out to lunch for yum cha and I lost all of it in the bathroom. This was the first time I pbéd at a restuarant but it was all fine. $16 for that, I wasn't impressed.On the way home I got a call from Mum, my uncle who has been given 6 months or so has today been put on the transplant list for a new liver. He has an 85% chance of getting one. Apparently Dad burst into tears when he heard that. He's been in a chirper mood since then. I'm really happy for him. He was starting to worry myself and Mum. He has been down, drinking more and eating more. He SOOO needs a fill but seems he has more emotional eating issues than I really thought.I don't think I blogged about hopping onto the scales yesterday and seeing 94.9! I was super stoked. Especially considering Mrs Fluid Fairy is lurking around. Won't weigh in again until Wednesday. But I'm super thrilled. I am 3.9 kilos away from having lost 30 kilos, and exactly 5 kilos away from being 89.9! Mind blowing!Anywhoooo band is tight. Think its stress and hormonal. I am not going back to surgeon because I can feel the difference between too tight (like right after a fill) and stressy tight.Have a brilliant weekend, smile lovelys

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Happy Hump Day! Well its almost over. Thankgod.Ok heres the news in Bridgys world.

FUCKEN TAFE!!! I recieved an email 2 days ago saying "did you know if you work in the childcare field you can apply for recognition of prior learing?"FUCK ME DEAD! Excuse the language. But I am pissed off. 5 months of doing assignments that I didnt need to do. I've been working in childcare for 3 years. I qualify! So I've got 13 more modules left to do- I can apply for RPL with 11 of them. Going into work tomorrow to dicuss with the boss. Apparently she knew all along that I could do that. I'm annoyed at that too

Damn hormones!!! Due for the monthly bitch of a fairy in a few days so band is playing up. Weekend I had no restriction. Monday and Tuesday it was tight, and tonight its on a roll! I pbéd cheese. (Hot tip: its not fun) and had to give up trying to eat cause everything that touched my lips came up. I refuse to weigh myself on the scales. That is plain STUPID. I carry heaps of fluid for a week and a half around this time so I feel like a whale and its represented on the scales when it goes up a few kilos. Its the BEST feeling ever when I wake up one morning and its all gone. Oh to live like that everyday! That would be a dream! I'm also really emotional at the moment. Stupid hormones, did I mention that? I have been shitty at work (well actually thats with good reason. I am SICK of doing the work of 3 people!) and sometimes just want to bawl my eyes out. Ah, such is life.

I got my tax cheque back this week and have decided to save most of it. I want to put it into a savings account for a travel fund. I am going to get hair coloured tomorrow though. Lol. It's very scientific. See, it wont last til Xmas, so its now, then a week before Xmas. Otherwise I'll have to do it a few weeks before and I'll be all over the place. Makes sense to me....shhh... Lol.

Getting my nails done and a pedi on friday. Learnt the art of pampering oneself. Its bliss. Its personally a reflection of how I respect myself. Its expensive. But worth every cent!

Having lunch on friday with some friends. Havent seen most of them in a long time so it will be good to catch up. Most of them are bandsters and I haven't been to a lunch with fellow bandsters in awhile. Always good to go and talk about banded life and normal life too.

Working on a support group with my dietician and another bandster. Its for anyone in the Central Coast area who has had weight loss surgery or is about to. So if I you live in Central Coast, email me and let me know if you are interested.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Had two days of pretty much no restriction- dangerous on a weekend! Also very hormonal so that means I ate waaaay too many carbs! But thats ok, didn't dwell on it.Of course because of said lack of restriction it paid me back today when I took that first bite (or whatever action you take when you have yoghurt) this morning. I knew with that heavy feeling from something as runny as yoghurt that it was gonna be a shitter. Its really hard to have issues when I am at work. Because I eat with the children (yeap, no lunch breaks) its super duper hard when I get something stuck to even talk. And they are talking away, barking requests at me constantly. I just walk away these days (well with someone coming to supervise them of course).On the tattoo front, my amazingly awesome cool best friend Tegan might be coming to see me in Feb (pleeeeease) so I might go then. Its going to happen. Just when I'm not sure.I was going to go to the gym this afternoon after work. But I find it super duper difficult. I had the worst headache and I was really tired. After a day running around after 15 two and three year olds the gym is the last thing on my mind. I'm frustrated with that. I've tried to go after work before, and I've been exhausted. To a point in which I'm screwed for the rest of the week. So yeah. Annoyed. I will make more of an effort on my days off. I haven't been to the gym in a few weeks. Naughty Bridgy, naughty!! BUT..... I am doing more on my days off. Being more active.Tafe course doing well. I've completed 5 modules out of 17. At the end of the year I am without a job.... I could possibly have one next year, its all kinda in the air. but during the 6 weeks preschool is closed I will work as hard as I can to get as much done as possible. I wanna move onto my diploma by this time next year.Start my advanced course this Sunday. Its a course on spirituality. Its changed my life and my way of thinking. Love it to bits!!My mini goal was to get to 91 by October 24 (two weeks away). I don't see that happening. I can only try and hope for the best. My original goal was to be 85 for Xmas. I will be happy being under 90 to be honest with you. I am not as focused on scales as before, but would love to see it go down of course. Its such a mindfuck. Wanting that number, but trying not to let it get to you.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

(This is what I want... except I want it in shades of blue and the word "Clarity" written underneath it)

I am ready for my tattoo.

I've wanted to get "Clarity" since I was 17. But I've always been so scared of the pain. For the last month I've been thinking about it everyday.

Clarity has huge meaning for me. Clairty means "imperfections of a diamond" and clearness. Its also a John Mayer song. In the song he sings"By the time I recognise this moment, this moment will be gone. But I will bend the light pretending, that it somehow lingured on."Everytime something important in my life happends, it plays in my head- when I was walking out the gates of school for last time, whilst I was being wheeled into the pre op room before my banding, and most importantly, the last time I saw my Grandad. I was saying goodbye to him. And I was scared. I wanted to say goodbye as quickly as possible and went to flee the room as soon as I could. I got to the door and the song line came into my head. I stopped, turned around and took in the moment. The fact I would never see him again. And because of that song, it gave me that moment- I will never forget it. So "Clarity" and me have a huge connection. And I want it to be with me not only in mind and spirit, but body forever.I want a Koi fish with it, I LOVE LOVE LOVE what Koi fish represent....

"The Koi is also able to fight the current of the water and swim upstream. This can be interpreted in two ways:1) Being a non-conformist – Koi swimming upstream can be interpreted as showing the philosophy of non-conformism because of the fact that the Koi does not “go with the flow”. This can mean a person is very independent minded and does not do things the way they are expected of him or her. Swimming upstream can mean that a person is not easily influenced by others and does what he or she wants.2) Strength in time of adversity – Koi fish also symbolizes persistence and the willingness to go on even though you are being swept away. It also symbolizes surpassing expectations. The Koi fish swimming upriver can show that a person has overcome various obstacles and not only does he or she keep standing, but he or she has come out victorious."

There is also the story of the koi fish swimming up the Rainbow (Dragon) River, turning into a dragon at the end. To me, that seems super symbolic. I've always strived to get to the end, find "clarity" and I now feel I am closer than ever in my life.

Dad wants to get a tattoo also(Manly Sea Eagle) so we are going to go together.

You'll find the photos of my hair and dress at my photo gallery... sorry guys, it didnt publish last night, it saved as a draft. What do you think?

Friday, October 10, 2008

I woke up Thursday feeling better. Wednesday night was hard and I felt emotionally empty and negative energy surrounded me.I went and got my hair cut. I was just gonna get a cut but I decided to cheer myself up I would get a blowdry. So I got it all pretty and styled ready for my day out. I went out to yum cha with Nikki, then we went shopping and I found the bargain of the year. I know Nikki will agree with me on that one. I put a photo on my photo gallery of me in my bargain dress. It was $70... I was freaking out about spending that much (since I'm losing weight and clothes are constantly fitting one week, being thrown out the next). I fell in love with it (and the awesome shoes I got with it- im actually a smaller size shoe now) and bit the bullet and took it to the checkout. IT WAS $28.88!!!! Holy moly!!! Soooo super groovy!Had a good day today also. Went to dinner with a friend which was nice. The food itself wasn't great at all. I ordered a breakfast wrap (oooh at night time!!!) and it tasted purely like salt and pepper. It was meant to be egg,ham,feta,baby spinich, tomato and relish in a tortilla wrap- totally yummyness. But it tasted like salt and pepper. So I did something I've never done. I took it back. I didn't get it re made, band too tight today so I really couldn't be bothered. I think my band is a little tighter at the moment due to stress. I will keep on top of that though and monitor it and make sure it goes away soon. I don't wanna live with a tight band. Not safe, not fun and not the way I want to live.

Super tired. Having a relaxing weekend at home doing tafe work. Woohoo!!Have a super weekend guys.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Woke up with a headache. I think that was the sign I needed to know I was gonna have a shocker.Went into work feeling shitty only to feel worse when we get the shock of our lives to find out that one of the fathers at preschool died. He had a fit and died. Simple as that. No issues before that. Clean bill of health. Just died.Then, to make things worse, I had to tell a friend from school about the passing of a girl we were friends with. She passed away a year ago and my friend had no idea..... very hard thing to do.I didn't go on my date. I was too upset. Plus the whole net thing. It's too forced for me. Too much pressure. The guy is nice though. I will meet up with him.Thats all tonight..... I'm competely heartbroken. I don't get this life thing sometimes...

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

I told the universe I didn't want one. Then of course what happens.... I meet someone. Lol.Well technically haven't "met" him. We've been talking online and over the phone for a few days. But we have plans to go "hang out" tomorrow and see a movie. That's a date right.He's nice, really witty (makes me laugh- excellent sense of humor) and hes a chef. How hilarious is that! But yeah, as excited as I am I'm also nervous. I've never been on a date. 21- yeah- lame I know. I've just been so self conscious.On the weight front..... not weighing in every morning like I used to. Thats toxic to my progress. I beat myself up about it too much. I saw my aunty and Nan on Sunday, haven't seen them for a month. They thought I looked brilliant. They are both very honest and don't give out compliments freely. So that was a big thing for me. They thought I had lost more weight since they saw me last. Now I've only lost 2-3 kilos since then but my body shape has changed heaps. What I am trying to say is this: Just because it doesn't register on the scales,doesn't mean that you aren't losing. Don't beat yourself up about it. There are a few of you out there that I know are doing this to themselves. STOP.In saying that tomorrow is my weigh in day so I'll see how I go. Had a rough weekend with the food. Lol. Well no, I lie. The food is better quality now. I'm not eating low fat food. I'm eating better quality food and way smaller portion sizes. It makes my food now enjoyable. And then I can move on.I am cooking a lot more now too. I started last week. As I said in a previous post, I write down my dinner for each night so I am properly prepared and have only limited pasta nights, nights with fish, nights with meat, nights meat free etc.Here's my dinner plan this week:

Monday- Ham,Mushroom and Cheese Risotto with a Ceasar SaladTuesday- Apricot Chicken with veggiesWednesday- Fish and VeggiesThursday- Tortelline Primevera with saladFriday- Night out with friendSaturday- Rice Paper Rolls or Seafood Parcels with veggiesSunday- Tacos

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Saturday, October 4, 2008

The last few nights I have had "night heartburn". I have no issues with pains, cant eat fine (I think I have perfect restriction) but its just the night issue. So I think I might call up on Tuesday (trust this to happen on long weekend- LOL!) and talk to the Doc about it and see if he thinks I need to be worried and have some fill taken out and a barium swallow. Its not bad hertburm, just annoying. But yeah... we'll see what happens.Got a few stares today when I was out doing the grocery shopping. Saw some people I hadnt seen since my surgery and got the good old double takes! Mum kept commenting all day about how amazing I was looking. I could totally feel the difference and see it too. So I took some photos tonight, so there are lots to take a look at at my photo gallery. Also have photos of my weight loss rewards bracelet.Tell me what you think about both issues.

Friday, October 3, 2008

So the goal was to be 96 today. Did I make it??YES!95.3!!! Woohoo!!I know I said I wasn't going to concentrate on scales but I can't help but feel super about this. 95..... I haven't been 95 since I was 19 and I was on Duromine- the WORST thing I ever did (I wanted to kill myself, had panic attacks, didn't eat, didn't sleep, ended up with a bulging disk because I worked too hard at the gym). I am so so so proud. And I honestly can't accept it. It doesn't feel real. I cannot absorb the weight loss from scales. Fuck, its a lot man.This morning I went and got my nails done. In the last two weeks I've spent more time on me. It's given me a confidence boost making sure I look good all the time. Lol. Sounds so conceited but before I didn't think I deserved it. So nails look hot (and were dirt cheap!) and the fake tan looks awesome. I booked in to get a deluxe pedicure and parrafin wax (only $40- holy moley!) in two weeks also.I was asked by a few people how my weight has dropped in the last few weeks. Remember a little while ago I was fed up with the plateau? Ok, heres my 'secrets":

Weekly dinner meal plan. I have my dinners for the week written out and put on the fridge so I can make sure I am prepared and can't use any excuses for an easy not so healthy meal.

Daily food diary. I write it in my 2008 diary. I write it the night before, making sure that I get as much protein/ calcuim/fruit and veg.

Cutting out carbs. Of course lots of good foods have carbs but I'm talking about pasta mainly. I am making sure I am only having it once or twice a week.

Cutting down snacks, keeping to the 3 meals a day. I know this comes with the level of restriction you have. I have an excellent restriction at the moment.

"Do I really need that?" I ask myself before I eat EACH time. If I can't honestly answer "yes" then I have a think about it, ask myself WHY I want it. Cuts out the "bored" eating and emotional eating. I am lucky and don't have an emotional eating issue.

Increasing incidental exercise. I am working harder now at work, making sure I am moving around more.

I think thats about it. Something just clicked with me, especially this week. I had enough off the plateau and I wanted to stop.I have three more days off. I am planning to completely relax, mellow out and focus on being positive. Oh and studying. Lol.

Thanks for your comments on my last post- or any posts for that matter. I adore coming to my page and seeing I have new comments.Di- I have always wanted to write a book..... thanks for making me think...

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Lol... sorry about the title...So the goal was to be 96 tomorrow. I jumped on scales a day earlier to see 101!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Psyche! I'm actually 95.8! Pretty bloody happy about that seeing that I couldnt get past 96.1! So I am 300 grams away from having lost half my excess weight (thats if I wanna be a skinny 65 kilos- unsure if I want to be that small) and I'm offically past my 25 kilos lost to date which means I need to get another charm for my bracelet! Music note is the next one, and then after the 300 grams (rewarding myself is expensive! Lol. But fun!) I have a guardian angel that I already have ready for that milestone!I have been making a good effort to pre plan meals to include protein and veg. Trying to cut carbs as I seem to base my meals on them.Today I've had:2 eggs and 4 cruskitshandful cashewsgarlic prawns

Yes, no veggies I know. Will get that in tomorrow or if hungry later have some fruit.I am offically a size 16. Pretty happy about that. I have a non scale goal of getting into something small than a size 16. Thinking lately about what size I would like to be. 12 would be great. I think I might make that my aim. But 10..... 10 would be marvelous!Will post tomorrow with the weight. Really focused so I can lose that 5 kilos in the next 3 weeks!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Howdy!I made a goal a little while back to weigh in on Friday at 96. This morning I weighed in at 96.4. So I am pretty close to that. I kinda wanna slap myself in the head sometimes. I am all over the shop cyber buddies! One minute I'm happy with my progress, then the next I'm an impatient little bitch! But I will be happy if I'm 96 or lower on Friday.My next goal I made was 85 for Christmas. I broke that goal down further... so here's the plan:

91 Kilos by October 24 (thats 5 kilos in 3 weeks....)85 Kilos by Dec 25 (thats a further 6 kilos in 9 weeks....)

Thoughts and opinions??? Tips and help appreciated!

I'm about to have a 5 day break. Looking forward to it heaps! Hope everyone has awesome plans for their long weekend!