*hugs tightly* i wish there was something i could say to you honey that would make it all a bad dream but there isnt . Im sending you giant cuddles ! and my pm box is always open. Dont bottle it up ..let it out we are here with you..x

keep writing. don't keep it bottled up. let it go... all the pain, suffering, anger. all of it. if you don't want to start another thread here or in let it out, feel free to PM me. don't forget you've already survived this once. this is only the fall out. sure it is messy and painful and feels like you can't survive but you can and you did. hugs,