I am a sober member of Alcoholics Anonymous. Sober, by the Grace of God, since July 24, 1984.

Friday, August 03, 2007

2 Days

Till my Triathlon. Yikes. I need to get out for a quick 3 mile run this morning and I am still sitting here trying to wake up. I think Scott gave me the answer to why I was up half the night - one stupid Diet Coke at noon with lunch yesterday. I used to drink Diet Pepsi all day long, but I gave it up for lent and decided not to start that bad habit again after Easter... so now I have no tolerance whatsoever for caffeine. I don't drink, don't smoke, or drink diet soda, but I do drink 1 or 2 cups of coffee in the morning. I have turned into some kind of wholesome person!

Yesterday I had an awful meeting and felt picked on for an hour and a half. Afterwards, I went into my boss' office and told him how I felt. I usually will sit on it for 24 hours so I don't say anything I regret or have to make amends for. But yesterday I decided not to wait. And I am glad. He is a psychiatrist, and I started out by saying that I was upset - but I kept it all to "I" messages. I didn't talk about what he did, I talked about how "I" felt. At the end of a half hour, we were both laughing, and he thanked me for coming and talking with him.

So, I get to go out and run. And I will get home, get ready for work, go to work, go to visit my friend Larry at lunch, and go to an AA meeting tonight. I am very blessed, even when I am tired.

"We never apologize for God. Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. At once, we commence to outgrow fear." -- Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 68

6 comments:

"I have turned into some kind of wholesome person!" I know, it's weird, right?

I have one cup of half reg and half decafe in the mornings, and sometimes in the last afternoon. But it must not compare to the caffeine saturated Diet Coke. Or maybe it was the combination of said devil juice and the steroids I am taking. In either case I have a full day ahead of me working with the interior designer AAer and he promised we would have fun. I told him to keep me in line if I started bitching about lack of sleep. It sure as hell beats all those days of dealing with hangovers.