My battle with Opiates/Opioids... - Part 2

Today was first day of Methadone detox... about two hours for processing, and they started me a at a 20mg dose, which is pretty damn small and is def going to have a hard time holding me... but luckily I get 30mg tomorrow and they stop me at 40mg on Wednesday where they keep me for 3 days before re-evaluating me to cont the 21 detox or go to maintenance.

The thing that bugs me is that everybody from the clinic manager to the doctor himself say the 21 day detox is almost assuredly not going to work and that I will relapse, that it has a 96% failure rate.... which makes me wonder two things...

1. Why do they start with something so liable to fail and
2. Why do they tell people this, mentally setting them up to fail before they even officially fail. At least let them have a shot at it with a clean mental profile so if they are one of the few successful candidates, they wont be as likely to psych themselves out, which is what everyone is doing by saying how unlikely they are to succeed the first time.

Pretty stupid if you ask me.

The doctor was kind of a prick, but whatever. I have a pretty damn high tolerance... I go through roughly 60-70mg of subcut dilaudid daily on avg, so 20mg is going to be a piss in the pot. But I think by the time Wed rolls around with the Methadone slowly building in my system, 40mg should do the trick , at least enough to hold me until I start tapering down...

We will see...

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I am new here and just wanted to say hello. I am coming off oxy with loperamide. I agree. Pretty stupid thing to say to someone wanting to get clean. I guess though the reality is most do relapse. To me it just comes down to how bad you want it. Being around all that accessible stuff though is difficult? Have you thought about how to stay away from their pill?