Tag: A Thought On

I find mediocrity a really big deal. Considering so many people live in it, exist in it court it and feel it. There just seems to be an understanding that mediocrity is okay. I’m so open to that idea it just sounds like bliss being okay with a normal life; Although the thought of normal isn’t becoming of me I still covet it like Odysseus.

I am incredibly okay with mediocrity, although I feel forced to live out of it and observe it knowing it can’t observe itself. Mediocrity Is my favourite thing on this planet. People who try new things happen to be mediocre at it, whenever you try something new the result is your mediocrity.

I don’t see it as people falling short of greatness I see it as people experimenting and experiencing life which is the flavour life offers. Like I said I am not allowed to live in mediocrity because I observe it. Like most Genii, Artists Mathematicians and Highly Ranked Religious folk.

Theres one place mediocrity is not allowed in art, Religion or mathematics. All the superior thinkers in buddhism, shamans science and Art all come to the one conclusion of Nirvana. We explore and traverse the world of thought telling people what we think as life goes on we all end up in the same place. No one after them listens and instead follows them, mostly because life is about the journey. We all end up in the same place though, thousands of years worth of written texts all ending up in the same place. Its mystical.

I guess observable greatness is what makes mediocrity exist and vice versa. I never know when I am being great but people from time to time tell me I am. Such is life I seek the tranquility people chase the storm of Genius and Higher thought.

I’ve had thought. I deal so much with people who like to do things last minute and don’t have a grip on life, let it happen to them and wait till their backs against the wall. It’s a troubling ideal that, when you’re in trouble you go back to basics and scramble. But why wasn’t your fundamentals on your mind from the start?

This is what I want to talk on, there’s a plethora of troubling habits that go on but I want to start with the resolving of increasing your base to make it higher that when you first started.

A lot of people have this mentality and it’s easy to lose that way. Especially as a high performance person put yourself in an abnormal predicament when you live this way. You’re used to a speed and a pace of things that you do so with a blank slate you scramble and start from the bottom.

For the normal person you see this in it all comes down to habits they’re trying to procure. Trying to build a better life is hard, in doing so people slip and fall back into their old ways and never make it to the space of opening up the new doors.

For high performance people it’s a way to know you never reach that point, you see normal people do so but won’t ever do that but that does not mean what you’re doing is far removed.

My stance is you never forget them foundational lessons and you refresh constantly whenever it feels like a suitable time to. Practice in them everyday once it’s a habit just like building a muscle a memory is best served in use than remembered. Constant refreshers are a must.

At that point your base gets higher and higher and you remove yourself far from the use of old ways. Your lifestyle will have no room for detrimental habits and your personal philosophy will remove it to make room for this practice activating new neuropath-ways and suffocating the last sparks.

In action this looks like not just one saving account but many, not just one contingency but a few, not just one way to make money but a dynamic money tree of income, a calm mind in tough situations and a highly attuned method to success in situations.

Recently I had a revelation and that revelation can’t be explained outside context and that context comes in a question — That question is; who do you want to be?

I asked myself this question for a short amount of time (Macro). It took me months to wrap my head round who I wanted to be it took me months. Not to plan my life or how I want to make money or what job I want. Those are still being understood, what I really ended up doing for years was asking myself who I wanted to be.

I knew this question was important because I have earned enough money/ known I can make a commission of my skills/ get a contract and I’ve gained enough notoriety and fame to where people knew me for one thing and in all of that I never felt whole.

I’ve come to find out I had to ask myself who do I want to be. I was blessed with gifts and an amazing talent which has earned me many creative skill which means I earned choice and the thing with choice is when you have to much life can get tricky when you’re starting out because you know no matter what you can always find another way. However to really win in life you need to make a choice within your options, and I have an abundance of options to choose from which opens doors for me but that doesn’t always means those opportunities are mine.

I have never felt good doing just anything and making money in “whatever way I can”. I have always been intentional and wanted to live my life on purpose. I have the intense ability to work hard and work a lot that isn’t the case for everyone but for me it meant these choices were not all the way positive because if I’m someone that lives life on purpose I have to make the decision and choose who I want to be. So I asked myself who do I want to be and make the decision.

What I learned in my abundance of opportunities because of my skill is that not every opportunity is right for me and I had to give myself a guiding philosophy and live by principles that made sense for what I wanted to engage in long term. These philosophies and principle came from all the questions I asked myself for years on end in order to truly gauge what really matters, as when I found out what mattered I found my purpose and when I found my purpose I truly distinguished myself as someone who knew what they were doing.

You see it’s not the statement of me living life on purpose that’s the key it’s my principles as a humans I created in determining what I want to do with my life that bought me to the answer of the question “who do I want to be”. I find no matter who you are if you find the answer to that you will live a more meaningful life, not an easier one or a more fun one more meaningful because you were a better person.

I’ve recently had a vision of me in my durag doing my thing and finishing deals with my hoodie and durag. For some reason that’s an image to me, I remember in 2016/17 no one was wearing durags even further back, 2002 I remember my first durag, baby blue silky. My brothers would laugh at me, nothing different with 2016

I said to myself if imma do my hair up and cut it all off I will wear a durag and generally it was with the intention of bringing the durag back, I would wear a durag everyday everywhere I went and by 2018 everyone was wearing Durags

My brothers told me I looked like a felon, I looked like Tyrone, wondering why would leave the house wearing a durag. This is 2016, no one knew what I was on even my nephew had some stuff to say.

I will tell you this, I don’t care about the negative stereotypes of the durag it’s one of my favourite accessories and I flourish wearing one, like I’ve said I like wearing headwear, durag included. A durag is like a ritual, my Karate kid bandana, my durag does something whenever I put it on.

I would rock it round London got looks and stares from the kids for a good couple months but I say this, by summer durags started popping up on others heads including my brothers now.

I’m not saying people don’t think Negative things when I wear my durag or other kids don’t it’s the fact no one cares the point of the game is to be myself and myself a lot of the time is me in my hoodie and durag.

I’m comfortable and my comfort is my luxury being myself means much more than what anyone else thinks.

I have been thinking this for the past two years, I remember when football tops weren’t in and I wanted to make one then footballs tops were in and now it will look like I’m copying. But still I’m down to tell a story.

The time was 1999 I was in school learning while and there was this book about a kid and he wanted a balaclava I wanted one but then Damilola Taylor died. A death that changed my life and how we were perceived on ends. We were persecuted for even wearing hoodies let alone a balaclava which is a calm accessory in my humble opinion.

I’ve always loved headwear, not a big fan of putting a hood on my head, too many triggering memories of white people. But I still will put my hood over my SnapBack or fitted, which is a look.

More to the point, a balaclava is the ultimate in winter wear, anything that can cover your head and neck at once is my fave I like that type stuff it’s really just super functional which is a baseline for my dress.

I don’t care what anyone thinks anymore to be honest I am grown and if I want to wear a balaclava or a babushka or a hood hat I’m down to do that, balaclavas are my favourite winter accessory right now

I see colourful and playful balaclavas all over the streets of London during winter as a thing because not only are they functional they can be stylish if you’re styling on them you see me.

I seen the vision and want to offer up my penance to the fashion forward those of us in the game for the pureness of style key fashion details and creative punctuation.

I see accessories everywhere

Buttons, badges, pins and that all the thinks we use to accent our clothing, not just jewellery, not all the time jewellery.

I haven’t been the biggest user of jewellery that aren’t rings or chains but the way badges and pins can accent an outfit with a sweetness it needs to be said and I’m clued up I’m just saying.

Accessories can do a lot sterling silver birth stone, crystals and whatnot even a nice little gold pin or classy silver pin with a little green emerald accenting an outfit can send a fit out of the stratosphere.

The past year has been full of pain, terror anguish and anxiety. My success has also been incompatible to any other year prior. This is what I learned from it, don’t let what is done to you cripple you, don’t dwell on the defeat of a comrade or the loss of a loved one too long. The spirit of greatness stays and always remember the good as it is and don’t have it tainted jade or glazed over by the the spirit of nostalgia. What’s good is good and what’s done is done.

My life has been littered with pain and in my early 20’s it crippled me. I had to cut out the tumour cauterise the wound and live to fight another day, last year I decided I was ready to fight again and in that I have come by some amazing things

My writing is beloved and exalted by those who read it the message is conveyed and they understand my theories and what I have to offer the world. It’s quite astounding

I have performed at the highest level I ever have doing anything on any level. The only thing that comes close is my world building but even that doesn’t come close to the 150 articles I’ve wrote this year

This year I became an upstanding member of my community offering my help to those that need it and helped the kids that needed the information I had to offer.

My peers see what I do with astonishment and pizzazz, they beckon me to be a co-producer on the productions due to the skill and execution I use on my productions.

Ive created a fair few writing brands under the banner of NYTYPICAL along with the critically regarded Sickle Cell Companion used in hospitals by nurses.

So to say, I am an upstanding member of my community doing everything I can in my power I could do, even on 60% strength on average. That is something I can be proud of. I can do that much service as a whole while serving my career.

This is what I want to continue in more ways furthering to heights no one knew were possible.