physical health

Sorry I skipped yesterday. I really was feeling in the dumps. I didn’t even end up eating much. I had the rest of my soup from the day before and I also had 2 fish sticks. I just didn’t feel like eating much.

Breakfast

I had the almost the same breakfast as a couple days ago. A piece of bread, a tsp of margarine, a slice of cheese. I also had one probiotic yogurt. Nothing special.

Total calories is 270.

Lunch

For lunch I had onecup of quinoa/rice mix, onecup of green/yellow beans and I had one fresh egg from a farm. I thought I’d try the eggs out. I fried it in 2tsp of oliveoil.

Total calories is 540.

Dinner

For dinner we got surprised by my boyfriends mom to go to a&w and she would pay. I just got a blt chubby chickenburger cause it had a whole wheat bun and a small amount of veggies at least lol.

Total calories is 630.

Exercise

Nothing to report.

Mental/Spiritual Health

Today I feel not happy but not like I was yesterday at least. I think getting over things takes some time. I just need to be gentle with myself I guess.

I don’t know how I feel today. I’ve been really lazy. I literally just finished 13 Reasons Why and I found it really good. As a person who struggles with depression, I like how it emphasizes the other people orcircumstances that can cause someone tobe depressed. They always focus on the person with depression but we never tryand change the world so that people aren’tassholes or the fact that we shouldbe acknowledging people’s emotions ingeneral. The world tries to suppress theiremotions but it makes people internalize it and makes people think that the worldisagainst them and to say anything is seen as “weak.” Were forced to put on masks all the time and we shouldn’t. People needsupport and they need love. Think about someone you know and ask them if they are okay. Ask them if they need someone tolisten. Ask them if they need support. You never know if this smallact will savealife or if this smallact will make someone feel love in a life where they feel isolated. We need more kindness, support and love in the world.

Breakfast

I had a really unhealthy breakfast today. Sometimes I just feel like eating dairy even though it causes me grief. (Pretty sure I’m lactose intolerant) I had twopiecesoftoast with 2tspofbutter and 2slicesofcheese. I also had a probioticyogurt.

Total calories is 450.

Lunch

My lunch was a little bit healthier. I had 11/2 cups of salad with 1 tsp of olive oil and dulseflakes, 1 1/2 cups of frozenveggies and I also had cabbagerollsoup. Here’s the link to the recipe: Cabbage Roll Soup.

Total calories is 554.

Dinner

I ended up eating 4piecesofpizza. I just gave up like usual.

Total calories? Who knows.

Exercise

None.

Mental/Spiritual Health

That show 13ReasonsWhy really hit home. I finished watching it. Now I kind of just feel depressed cause I can relate to the maincharacter on so many levels. Other than bullying or teenage life, her feelingsare the same as mine. I think I understood her too much. I’ve kinda just spent all of the evening and even today (the next day) depressed. I’ve lost faith in people, losttrust, and I honestly just want to be alone.

Sorry if this blog is a day late. The previous paragraph will explain. I’ve been struggling with intense depression for awhile now. It’s something I’m trying to work through and do my best at. I’m sorry these blogs kind of took a down turn. You never know what life is going to throw at you and sometimes it’s really hard.