Everyone has a different perspective- a different outlook on life. How we all choose to interpret the world we share depends on what lens we use. Our attitudes, choices, and actions are all affected by the angle and way we look out of our own lenses. My lifelooklens varies. One lens stays true to capture all the things in my world. I take pictures of EVERYTHING. I'm glad I do and don't mind if some think my pictures and ramblings are boring. This blog is a glimpse at life through my lens...

Sunday, July 26, 2015

6 Months Later...

It's been over six months since I last blogged. Having a baby is a good excuse for taking a break, right? Tomorrow, Everly turns 6 months old. CRAZY!!!! My life has changed so much since she was born. I don't even know where to start!In times like these, I'm glad I take tons of pictures...

<---------When I last blogged, I was 9 months pregnant. WOW. I'd forgotten how much of a whale I felt like then!This picture was taken right before we went to the hospital for Everly's delivery. (January 25, 2015.) I was SO READY to meet my little girl- and to not be pregnant anymore!Little did I know that it would still be a while before Everly would make her grand entrance into the world...

Here we are at Centennial Women's Hospital in Nashville, TN. (Not pictured: me...you'll never see the in-labor pics, I'm afraid...) It's still January 25th and I'm in labor. I took this picture of my loyal birth support person...Of course, I envied him. I was in early stages of labor. My husband was snoring. This was just the beginning... good thing the couch was comfortable because we were going to be there a while...

35 hours later. THIRTY-FIVE HOURS LATER. 35. hours...Labor was HELL. I still debate on having anymore children when I think back on my labor and delivery. I'd already been in labor when we got to the hospital. Hours later, pitocin was given to speed up contractions. To make a long story short: Shoulder distotia. Near emergency C-section. Lots of pushing and panicking involved. So hungry. So tired. So...scared.Then, finally... I remember the nurse saying,"If we don't get her out on the next push, we need to call for a C-section."

Talk about pressure! (literally, lol)

Sandra Everly Hodge arrived at 9:11AM on January 27th, 2015.

The feeling here is indescribable.

Some pictures say more than 1,000 words.

For the first couple months postpartum, I was pretty much a hermit. I had my baby in the middle of winter and flu season. We stayed inside and I kept myself entertained taking tons of pictures. Trying to adjust to motherhood takes time. It's an emotional period, to say the least! It takes a while before you start feeling normal again. I tried breastfeeding. Another long story short, bottles became our besties. I was exhausted. I had no clue what I was doing. All of the sudden, I had this baby. This perfect, awesome baby that needed me. It's an incredible and completely overwhelming feeling that I'm fairly certain only other moms can understand. You want so much for this tiny person. You also realize that all that tiny person wants to do for a while is sleep. That gets boring. You don't care. You're a mom now and you soon realize it won't be like this for long...

Before I knew it, the first doctor's appointments came and went. I tried to remember to take pictures of all the major milestone moments. My husband did give me a "push present". He insisted it not be called as such, though. Everly's birthstone is garnet so I snapped this picture at one of her first doctor appointments. I like to think I totally earned this ring!

I decided it was time to get back in shape...or, at least to make some sort of an effort. Being pregnant put me in an eat-whatever-I-want-and-worry-about-it-later frame of mind. People are always so (obnoxiously) curious about weight- especially before, during, and after pregnancy. "How much have you gained?" is a question I got sick of answering/lying about. To come completely clean here, I'll honestly answer.

I weighed 107 pounds when I found out I was pregnant.

I'm 5'4".

107 pounds is super, super, WAY too skinny for me....probably anyone, for that matter.

125-135 is a much healthier weight range. I've been known to go overboard on the dieting, on occasion.

Anyway, at the very END of my pregnancy...

I weighed 167 pounds.

I still remember the nurse saying, "Gettin' on up there, aren'tcha honey?", after I stepped on the scale at one of my appointments. A non-pregnant me would've probably snapped back at her. Pregnant me cried later.

Moving right along...

It was time to lose the baby weight. Breastfeeding helped (while it lasted).

Running became my release. My outlet. I became Forrest Gump, I swear. I ran every day. I decided to run a 5K.

While I was obsessed with running all of the sudden, Josh was busy studying for finals.Everly helped both of us. I ran that 5K.Josh aced all of his tests. I lost the baby weight.Down to 130 now, on a good day.135 when I decide to eat whatever I want. (Nosy people now satisfied?) I'll never be 107 again. I don't want my daughter to think that's normal.It's not.I'd like to be healthier, not skinnier.I'm getting there...

Anyway, the running sadly didn't last.Got a stress fracture. (Bones aren't the same after having a baby, turns out!)Still working on healing but I plan to run again soon!For now, I'm one of those walking moms and malls are, like, my new gym. It's weird...

Josh graduated from pharmacy school.

We all dressed in red outfits. I planned that because that's the sort of stuff I'm into these days.lol.

Six years lead us to this moment. I couldn't be a prouder wife!

Everly slept through most of her daddy's graduation. She looked super cute doing it, though. I couldn't help but think- She won't remember this. I soaked it all in so I can one day tell her...Daddy wasn't always a pharmacist. He was a BBQ server when Mommy met him. We fell in love...You went to Daddy's graduation...It's funny, the future conversations I imagine having with my tiny daughter!

I took this picture on a random date night- We picked up some KFC and had a picnic at a local park. When you have a baby, the time you have together as a couple becomes more precious. We sat and talked about what we want, what we've accomplished, and where we want to go from here. We moved to Ashland City when we found out I was pregnant. We needed (and still need) to save money, so it made sense. Everything that's happened within the past 6 months has been an adjustment. We're working towards something BIG. I remind myself of that and this picture helps me remember what's important. Sometimes, it's easy to look at what you don't have instead of everything you DO have. Right now, we don't own our own house. That's about to change because...

We are starting to look at houses.

It's kind of an overwhelming process, but I'm happy we're starting to look! I kind of get creeped out by how well things are going according to our plan. (Makes me sound like a mad scientist, I realize...) But, really...It's crazy that years ago we had this conversation..."What do you wanna do?""I don't know. I'm thinkin' pharmacy.""Well, I could work since I don't know what I want right now.""Cool.""Then we can have a baby after you graduate.""Yeah, and buy a house."(This conversation has been simplified, of course)

Little Miss Everly got here a little earlier than 'planned', but I wouldn't have it any other wayNow, the house hunt begins!I'm also going back to school this fall. I worked while my husband was in pharmacy school. I'm ready to go back to school now. Plan is to finish my Associates in Psychology at Nashville State. After that, I'd love to do something in graphic design. Right now, I'm a stay-at-home mom. Harder job than any other I've had thus far...also, more rewarding!

In other news, my sister-in-law and I became friends. Close friends. I'll go out on a limb to say we're besties now. :) We also started a mom group...a successful one. Make fun of me if you want, but it's legit. Like 350 members legit...just sayin'.

My nephew and my daughter hang out just about every day, which is awesome! We had no clue what we were doing when we started the group- We wanted our kids to have some little playmates. It became something a lot bigger than that. We do events all the time. I stay SUPER busy and I love it!

1 comment:

Absolutely wonderful! Your observations about pregnancy, having children, and looking ahead for your lives are really REALLY perceptive. By the way, your father-in-law is incredibly proud of you and your hubby and that beautiful little girl! Much love, today and always!