When Doubts Come

Homeschooling my children for the past 4 years has been an incredible journey. There are days when I have been so sure that this is the right thing to do for my children and this is what God has called us to do. But there are days when I am unsure and wondering if we should continue on with this path.

I believe that we were called to homeschool our kids because we are to disciple them and teach them the word of the Lord, first and foremost. I have also wrote a blog previously about the heart of our homeschool.

But there are days when I look at my kids and wonder if I am really doing what is best for them. Questions like Am I not limiting their opportunities to learn more by homeschooling them? Would they be more disciplined if they have to leave the house early everyday? Am I pushing them enough or am I being too lenient? Am I being a good example to them and training them in the way that they should go as the Bible has tasked me to do? These kind of days make me go back and ask God, whether I am still in the path He has called me to be.

I realize that much of my questions actually arise from the fact that I see how limited I am. If I constantly look at myself as the source of all the learning my kids need, I would definitely fail and our homeschooling would not be productive and joyful.

God reminded me today of these truths:

He equips those He calls. He is faithful to provide all that we need for the children to learn what they need to learn.

Homeschooling works, not because of my faithfulness, my knowledge or our homeschool materials, it works because of the grace of God.

Delight yourself in the Lord. I should find happiness and joy in the Lord, not in how my children are performing or how our day went.

God calls us to be faithful. If there is no clear signal from the Lord, stay and fulfill what He has first called you to do. When the going gets tough, persevere and keep going. God didn’t call us to be spectacular but He did call us to be faithful.

Comments

Amen! We need to remind ourselves of these truths every now and then. It also helps when we see the homeschool journey as a whole. Times of discouragement and difficulty will definitely be interspersed with times of achievement and celebration, but from my personal experience (now on the 14th year of homeschooling), for as long as the Lord’s calling is clear and we are faithful, the seeds we sow will bear fruit somehow. Thanks for sharing, Chris!