My Start Of Pleasuring

I was really young... i don't even remember, but i guess i was about 5 or 6. I remember very well that i was lying in my child bed. And my mom was doing something in the kitchen. I remember very well i was often thinking about my mom's breast, and i was wondering why dont i have one so big, cause i loved nipples!! ì
They were so big and still now, after many years i'm aroused when i think about the nipples of my mother getting hard while i was sucking them for milk.
Anyway i was very curious about my body, the difference between my moms breast and mine, and then my little genitals i was curious about all of it. Seems strange but i remember all of my first time, because i got a great ashame that time:
i started to touch my nipples, and it felt good. Obviously i didnt touch them as i touch them now, when all of my body gets the signal that i'm ready for some stronger feeling. But i touched them first left one and then right one with my fingers and was liking the sensation. When i felt something strange in my panties. I touched only one time down there and i felt that it was much stronger then nipples. So i continued, i couldn't touch well cause i didn't know what am i doing and what am i feeling!! but after 2 or 3 minutes i understood that i just can't stop, and all of my body is burning down there, i guess i was breathing really hard while my fingers were moving on my **** ( i found it almost immediately) i was really afraid cause i felt something veeeery strong and my body new that something is happening, my hand was doing without my help. Now im not sure, but i guess i moaned strong. Cause i heard my mother coming to the room. Then she opened the door. I wanted to die, but i didn't stop.
My mom saw that under the cover, at level of my private zone between my legs my hand was doing very fast movements, and i guess from my face she understood that her little daughter was ************, she tried to stop me, but my reaction was strange - i couldn't stop cause i was near to my first ******, so i, 5 or 6 year girl stopped her with my legs till something happened, i stopped to hear or understand, my eyes went up, i trembled and while i was feeling my first ****** my hand was still giving me the last waves of pleasure. Then i felt down i felt so weak. And i felt terrible cause my mother was so strange. From this moment she controlled me very strictly but i already knew what i can feel just touching my body ;)

When I was about the age of 11 or 12, I would sometimes visit a friend after school. Sometimes, his parents weren't home. We would talk, etc. Once or twice, I can remember that he would unzip his pants and pull his member out. He even gave it a name, which I don't remember. It...