Oh wow. So much heartache! how does a hospital even allow no lifesaving measures on a 32 weeker?! I hope your foster experience goes much smoother. And welcome!

I almost went back and deleted those posts I made last night because it makes dfs sound terrible and really it makes me sound even worse. Some things just shouldn't be said kwim? He woke up before dd and she stayed asleep so we had some bonding time. I feel much better today.