Thursday, February 23, 2012

Can't sleep. Hyped up.

I get so hyped up about stuff. Not during actual events as much as the ANTICIPATION of them.

I'm like this about everything. Even little things. Example: If I know we're going out somewhere for dinner (and by that I mean Moe's or Jason's or something...actually who am I kidding, even Wendy's or Taco Bell) I am excited ALL day. I think about what I'm going to order and what Jordan's going to order and if I'll possibly have leftovers for the next day and everything else.

Oh and let's talk about lunch. Every day I try to eat lunch later than normal, but every day when I see that clock strike 11:00am I go into full lunch mode. I look forward to it all morning and for some reason when I see that it's 11 that means that the morning is over in my mind. Therefore, food time. I am weird.

So, as you can imagine, when my high school varsity girls basketball team is going to the state tournament (tomorrow), I get pretty crazy antsy. I mean, this is a lot more than lunch - it's what MONTHS of work comes down to. Was I like this when I actually played sports? Not as much. Because back then I would go out on the court and give it my best. Now that I'm coaching, I can't do it for them. I have to be there yelling on the sideline, hoping that they know what they're supposed to do and that they do it right. Coaching is stressful, people. (But I love it. Oh do I love it.)

Oh and I start work on Monday. (HALLELUJAH PRAISE THE LORD) As in a full time job which I have never had before and that I am completely pumped about but also quite scared about. What if I'm terrible at it? What if they don't like me? What if they do like me, but then read this blog somehow, and figure out that I'm weird, and then decide to not like me?

This is what happens. What starts out as excitement and anticipation turns into worry.

And worrying means I'm not giving it to the Lord.

So I'm just going to give it all to the Lord tonight, rest in His peace, and go to sleep. Easier said than done, but I think a little story about a certain Katniss Everdeen can get my mind off of things... :)

6 comments:

congratulations on your job girl! i've been in the game for a little bit and let me tell you that there's no validity in the "what ifs", just pray and praise your way through. you're going to be a natural and you're going to do great!

Just came over from henning love, yall are so cute! We just moved from Winston last summer and I miss NC so much. Congrats on the job and good luck with your bball team, it sounds like you have a great perspective. Look forward to reading more!

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Hey, y'all! I'm Ashley Shelley. A follower of Christ. Smitten wife to Jordan. Mom to Judah (March 2015) and Levi (May 2016). 29 years old. In Raleigh, NC. Redeemed and set free through Jesus! On a daily journey of growing closer to the Lord and learning what it means to follow Him in life, marriage, and motherhood.