Friday, December 25, 2009

ok, first of all.,its Christmas! for those who celebrate, felis nevidad to you.. I'm really sorry to my friends, veronica, cant be there at your home rite now, for celebrate it.. busy bees comes around me, my mom took a christmas catering, so from morning until now, cooks all the times..hehe

today, i will fly back to shah alam, again.. using AirAsia.., (proud to have it)..hehe...

my flight will be at 8.25pm., having a slidely changes.., suppose to be at 7.45pm...i dont know why...

nevermind, as long as I arrived savely, its ok...

okay...thats it for the post.. maybe not having "A Networking" for the coming next week.. Ive got no broadband at all, and no wireless around my living area.sigh*.... taraaaa!~

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Friday, November 27, 2009

felt annoyed by some others human that live nearest to my 'convenience', just make me piss of... i don't know whose I'm going to express this feeling, only dropping a words here....it makes me feel better..

"why people judge on the physical attraction? darling, it a mother nature...."

whatever...

some of people out there try to kill on what i felt before to some other called as 'subject', made my trust and honored to them goes to zero...

what comes from my mouth, become a manipulation for them to get what they really want. every time i spell out, lead them to do something out of so called 'friendship relationship'...

that's why i never trust nobody.

only, a few people i love, trust, being honored to be my friends, family, and a good citizen...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Friday, November 13, 2009

a long time to 'hibernated' here in my own home at sandakan...just get back from shah alam yesterday... im sorry, a 'busy bee' always do its job, to make my situation un-systemated, dont have times to put a words in here..now, got time, got story, got everything ....

after the extremely hardest part of my courses, for this semester, really bad to call it as a manipulator for higher CGPA,arggh.. doesnt make any proud things to called as a best graders... my though...but i always try my best, (typical word....sigh*)

but the thing that i hate bout my attribute for this life, especially my 6 months trial for this semester, i didnt attend for the CTU paper....adduuss...., never mind, anything has the reason...Only God knows why....

while im here, at my hometown, the first thought came out when i was landed, just to find my mom and hug her, definitely im missing her so much.....second my dad,..and the rest would be my family...duhh...

but the most highest level on my thinking was a person who really make my heart and brain wrote h** name on my imagination, i dont know,....just h** running the engine of my feeling, never written on any other names....just h**,....thats the reason why i came back..but not to meet h**, just to feel near, thats it..

people especially friends, thought that i was crazy by waiting on the reply of h** love....i always put myself to step on the reality, never put myself into fantasy, i know that...but feelings cannot remain normal as people out there, trying to change and just it,...

sad song always flew its melody, lingering to my ears, playing the love song, never against on it, cos i know it will heal my heart,.when i cry, it make me feel better...yaa, and i know, cry will not put h** to be stand in front of me feel the same way to,it will not happen..

but ill pray for h**, with all my heart, hope everything h* do, every path of h** life will be better without me by h** side....

Intan told us to came early before he achange plan, so surprised him after we arrived together... nice breakfast so called 'party',hehehe.,,so those are the picture, the turqoise color is the birthday boy, and the organizer; intan wore matched color with his boyfriend...

Sunday, August 30, 2009

even im late to wish u all, but still we in a mood of Ramadhan. now we in a 9th of Ramadhan, si 9 days already we have been fasting.

syukur, we still live in a country far from war compare to the middle east country that fighting for their needs.

as we know, tomorrow also a big day to celebrate by us, a Merdeka Day, so in a month of Ramadhan , let us pray to Allah s.w.t, to have the prosperous and bless for living in a such wonderful and peaceful country.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

recently, me, as a student of uitm, im not sure if this called a happy feeling or bad on having a holiday shocked announcement last week. For other students, well, they went back home to their own hometown,but for those who live far away from shah alam, like me, is hard to express my feeling, either like it or not....

so I finish my holiday alone here in my new rented house... hhehhheehh

living alone doesn't make me feel afraid,especially when i have an experience living alone while having a practical; during my diploma studies,i live in a village, surrounded by coconut tree and bushes, and when night comes,its so dark, there were no light at all on the road, but what makes me feel brave to live there, House of Allah(mosque) just next to my house,...hehehe...

when 'azan' on air, many of the dogs will do the singing, hoooohhooooohoooo...!! hahah, just like in a coir, so harmony...hehe..

so for this holiday, alone, again... many think i do just watched tv, dance like crazy, singing alone, and buy food in tapau only,...

its feel bored, but i have decided on it, to live alone than go back home to setiawangsa...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

eventhough that he is someone who called as a rock gay, but he still have those talented voice to be proud...macam jantan juga la suara dia kan??hehehe

NEW YORK – "American Idol" runner-up Adam Lambert has landed the cover of Rolling Stone magazine, where he talks about sex, drugs and his "Idol" experiences. The 27-year-old singer from San Diego acknowledges in an interview that he's gay, and says it shouldn't come as a surprise to anyone. "I'm proud of my sexuality," he says. "I embrace it. It's just another part of me."

Lambert says he was inspired to audition for the Fox network singing competition after having a "psychedelic experience" at the Burning Man festival in Nevada. There, he says, he experimented with "certain funguses."

"I knew that it was my only shot to be taken seriously in the recording industry, because it's fast and broad," he says of "Idol."

Lambert emerged as an early front-runner and judge favorite, thanks in part to his soaring vocal range.

When he moved into the show's Bel-Air mansion with the other finalists, he roomed with Kris Allen, who won the "Idol" title over Lambert last month.

"I was like, `Oh, (bleep), they put me with the cute guy,'" Lambert says. "Distracting! He's the one guy that I found attractive in the whole group on the show: nice, nonchalant, pretty and totally my type _ except that he has a wife. I mean, he's open-minded and liberal, but he's definitely 100 percent straight."

According to Rolling Stone, Lambert was open about his sexuality backstage at "Idol." In March, photos surfaced online of Lambert kissing his ex-boyfriend.

"Going into `Idol,' I assumed, `OK, people are going to talk,'" he says. "I mean, I've been living in Los Angeles for eight years as a gay man, I've been at clubs making out with somebody in the corner. But photographic evidence? Didn't count on that. Wasn't ready for that."

He says he worried that a public announcement would overshadow his singing, so he decided not to respond and largely kept his personal life under wraps on the show.

"I'm an entertainer, and who I am and what I do in my personal life is a separate thing," he says. "It shouldn't matter. Except it does. It's really confusing."

Lambert says he isn't interested in being the poster child for gay rights. "I'm trying to be a singer, not a civil-rights leader."

He also reveals that he began smoking pot and tried Ecstasy for the first time while performing in a European production of "Hair" in his early twenties.

"I've finally checked in to my self-worth for the first time in my life, and the fact that it has coincided with `Idol' is so sweet," he says. "I mean, I still have moments where I think, `Oh, my skin is terrible, and I'm a little fat, I should really go to the gym more.' But for the most part, when I look in the mirror now, I finally see someone who can do something cool."

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Saturday, May 16, 2009

hehhehehhe.......the lazy person, comes out with a lazy wordsss.....im to lazy to put all the pictures we had during the joyride, how about, just look through my facebook, and its a lot of it in there....

ngeeee~~~

malas nyer nak update....huhuhuhuuh

click on the right side which has wrote a 'facebook' with it....heheheheh

Friday, May 15, 2009

Thank God, im reaching my own place, my precious moment with my family will begin for a new books.,heheeh.....

finally....im using my brothers new desktop, it was so cool....so attractive, so fierce.,with a dragon sticker on it body, and it place at our room,. so coooooooll,and it connected with internet, before this we had to used our family desktop outside in our living room, but now, definitely,easy for us to surve the internet....yehhhooOOOO!!!!

while my second brother was a technician,and working as a technician in one of unknown company, it will ease us to get a new update about new things,new gadgets, new software, and new downloader software,its important for ME....hahahaha.....

im waiting for my friends to pick me up, go to club, or somewhere around the town, watch the movie,.like we always do when we get our semester break...

but not all of them are here, one doing his last foundation semester in KK, and the other one doing his short course in KL.....but i still have Fiffy,jumat,and ridan here....hehehehe...we break the dawn around the time again....!!!Heheheheh

change the topic!!!!!

okay, im sorry for not sending any post for a few days, exam just leave us for about a 2 week ago, so on that period, i hve'nt so much time to post any news, or my routin agenda,....sorry....(T,T)

but, just want to tell every blogger here, last week,my bunch of friends and I were having so much fun on doing a joyride, to Port Dickson and Melaka, and some sort of seremban area.. hehheh......

it was so hot, and sunburn all over my face, my neck, and not my body....hehehehe.....cos, i was wore a long slieve t shirt, so safe for my body.....huhuhu

i would love to send a picture of us there, but all of it in my laptop, so maybe next time i will post it here...

im tired, need to get rest, need to sleep....taraaaAAAAAAaaaaaAa!!!!! mwaaaxx

Saturday, April 4, 2009

ok...this is the time when I had a time more relaxing than do something about learning, arghhhhh!!!!!! the exam just around the corner.... calm down...need to relax..

before i having a period on a busy thing, better i cheer up my thing first...

firstly, I ahd a good time to watched a new movie with my friends. last night, saturday night, we had a fast and furious 4 and it was tremendously great movie ever(for this year) compare to others moive (for this year), but i waiting for the next transformer to come, and also wolverine....

back to fast and furious movie, the introduction of it, was chaos, so thrilled!!! even we had to watched about 10 minutes ahead, but it seems that this movie still has an attractiveness..

want to make a story about our situation last night, it was a first time we had a bad time to watched, because we have to sit in front of the movie hall, beside the quality of the management was so low, why???? the film just stop like that, blank for 14 minutes... everyone just get angry of it, but what we can do??? just waiting for the movie roll on back... after a few minutes, it continue..

this story is about a continuity of the previous fast and furious movie, but Dom girlfriend died on the first scenes..so sad...

Im not going to tell all the story, but do watched it, we spend our money for a good quality movie....okaaaay!!!!!

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

am I falling through the wrong part??am I being manipulate to the surrounding situation??am I being control by the human who doesnt know how to life??better tell me because its hurting me..better be honest by using confession,tell me the truth so I'm not waiting..

I hope a little faith guide me to achive the destiny,the line which bring me to broke the berrier,clear my path, clear my reality,so it wont be a fantasy that being killing my soul..

dear pyscho,

push me away, so I wont be near at you,help me to pull again, my happiness back than.,hoping again my destiny will remain..hope I get what a thing missing and un seeing..

Friday, March 20, 2009

im excited to have an expose this morning...because of i like myself to talk in different language and attempt to do it., (bahasa bangsa sendiri pun nda tau,mau bahasa perancis)...ahaahhah...at least, I try...

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

its a traditional song made from our neighboor country, Brunei Darulsalam, its a part of my races, my Dads side,anyway....love all our cultural, Universal things in Asia are so unic, discover it,while it still exist....

Monday, March 16, 2009

Okay....the day start with a wonderful moaning... Opps...morning...hehe... I took my towel as my friends had his bath first, and then I go into the toilet about 7.40am like that, I took shower and refresh enough, dry everything, wore my pink shirt, look casual enough, and put my deodorant and spray perfume all over my body...haha, and we drove off about 8.20am....

we reach to our "lovely Intekma class", about 8.40am., she was already infront, sitted, "good morning Madame".. (with whisper sound)..she is not reply it, so we took our sit, infront,left or her site..

(this is not what it may seem in Intekma) huuuu!

Today, we had to send or submitted our assignment, about the article review,,.....actually, I've done for the draft as well, b'coz I'm not so get attention on the previous week, so I do that with not asking any classmate...(stupid moey)lol....

but, eventhough it is not for submit today, I brave myself to infront her, ask her about the draft,....

Me: ive finish our draft (partner with my roomy), i just want to make sure that I do it right or not???(even broken, why not try...rite???)hahahaha

madame: let me see....

(lots of conversation, and some people was around there come to see us,what was I discuss with Madame)..

but the thing, that I'm not satisfied with "lecturers atitude", she suddenlly say that.."dont expect me to do a correction for you,..".... sump of my tears..huhuhu

(tag for bengang, this pictures come out first)

and, yaa..credit to Farid who just come and help me with "attempting" word,hahaha....it is just something comes out from my mind, and type it into my draft, so no body perfect...huhu

I just want to ask weather it is right or not, to do a draft like what I've done before, so there is no mistake until the real report will submited to her...

thats why student felt so embarassed to come and seing each other with lecturer personally, speaking in english lagi...opps...hahaha

nevermind, after this, grumble feeling will overwhelming into myself...huhuhu....

so the point is, for all lecturers out there, feel love to your student, dont expect us as a person who do always right, we are not perfect, we still climb the mountain as you do while you are being student like us...Im not stupid, neither clever...maintain...peace!

this time i would like to post another picture edit, which a favor from my fren, fiffy. He told me to do some picture edit which is combine his picture with afgan, the most talented singer from Indonesia, he totally good in singing his faselto, and love it....

Sunday, March 15, 2009

ok.....im not similar with others who use F**k directly, but the thing is, this situation next will I story for u guys, really made my temperature going up!!okay..i'll start with:

I went for a credit top up grocery, which was just ahead next through our house, I went there because thats the one I 'think' quite high hospitality, but its turn nothing.

before this, theres a girl who really good in "top up" skill, which was tip top and people most likeable, but she went for another place, i dont wat she's up to her manager, but for the next girl i want to share, just really make my temper goes up :

me :top up 5 ade (with a good smile which only can gave by hospitality student,ehehe,dont get me wrong...)

the gurl : ada,tulis...(faces like having thunder just a few second)....

it will suck me up till the end of day to not forgive her, (klu dia dtg la minta maaf)...huhu...for all customer will hate this if this situation happen through you rite???so,..noww...my station going to change to another top up grocery....a new one....merajuk....huhuhu

Monday, February 9, 2009

people are really judging themselve when the negative situation happen in their real world of L.O.V.E. ;

"Im not good enough for you?"

"Are you bored with me?"

or "Are you having another one?"

it always happen,thinking on something clueness, never get the answer. But why it still need to put them into the first stage of our heart???

"becoz he/she is the one for me."

"first and last for me""stick already, cannot be replace"

people always answer that question, but sometimes, others are really strong to say, "I can find more better than you!!!"......

but for me, love at first sight, first touch, are always be the last, even we cant get it for real, trust me, a little heart will save them to love you again. Not here in the earth, but "up there".......

Are you lucky enough??People always want something that really related to easier living situation. But it may not like what we had today, but sometimes others will get it easy.I’m not telling that this kind of situation are wrong, but people who not easy to get in into that kind of situation, what are they need to do? Even I’m also, always talking by myself, why I’m not rich like Mr. Trump? Why I’m not clever like Bill Gate? Why I’m not sporty like Dato’ Nicole David?See, it always plays into my mind. Which are plays by your mind to? I think yes. But when I think again, it is not wrong to be what I’m right now; I’m not good looking, but attractive, hahahaha I’m not clever enough, but I’m creative, I’m not sporty, but I can ran more than 2 kilometers, see, that was my capability on trying something that I can do.Before this, I never thought that I can manage to attempt any University, but on my ability to capture a thing to be done, I manage to get in into UiTM, and I love it.Sacrifice may be use to any person who living as a human in this tiny world. Dignity and trust on good thing will get you something more benefit to be price on what we do, what we feel, and what we trust.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

When we are talking about music, theres a lot of it, from the aged we are not born, its exist until now, we surrounded by music. i love music, music rythm click to our heart, feel to dance, sing with the singer, or just the melody, its harmonic of each instrument,played by the profesional, it doesnt matter what type of music youre listen to, but it depends on your priority to reduce your tension, or just having fun with it...

I love jazz,waltz, but might be unliken by others, its still, universal to say that music can make people hates somebody...but it just human nature. but feel free with the music.!!!!!!

do you love rock music??????

I love it to..but just a certain of it, not all the music of rock i like, seems people have another definition on how they describe the rock music for their own opinion. still, feel free to listen the music...such helloween, metalica, yess, definitely, this band already being known all over the world, i love their music, some song can be my favourite...

how bout this punk music???

just a certain of it can be my favourite to, especially from malaysia,A.C.A.B, one of my brothers favourite, but not bad, their song not to directly into the punk daily life, their song more to contain of express on what their think for this life, but sure, not really that bad. try to listen.

SKA???love it...!!!!!!

we kind like a place to put all the type of music together here in Malaysia, we have new born of music such as indie song, even its exist long time ago, but now it become habit for those people who active in this type of song, nowadays, this band speak up and really fast growth and being except by malaysian citizen, like a carnival and fiesta, we appreciate on the creativity and loyalty to support our own music industry..Peace!!

What type of it, what song you listen, just be it, people love it, try to love it, just be it, no body say no, just dont try to put music into your own war,music not an item to start your controversy, just chill with it, enjoy with it....PEACE no WAR!!!