Wednesday, 25 February 2015

“I know lots of people,
you know,” Jason said, “like my friends before, or Mark’s friends, they did
nothing. They had money but they gave
nothing back to the world. And I don’t
think that’s how we should live. Think
about how I ended up here. With Brent,
and everything.” He stared out of the
window at the tiny back garden, his expression troubled. “Why do we only learn the hard way, grand?”

She shook her head. “I don’t know. As long as we do learn, I suppose.”

“But Brent paid the price,
not me.”

“Yes. When your grandfather was having an affair
with his secretary …”

“What!”

“ …Yes,” she continued
placidly, “such a pretty girl and your grandad was always partial to pretty
girls and a real polygamist if that’s the right word which is why he married me
because there were others you know whom he found more attractive such a funny word
like magnets and iron filings I did enjoy science at school but in the end he
stayed with me I did love him but there were times when I could have strangled
him and after the affair I could have frozen him out some women do you know but
then she or the affair at least would have won and I couldn’t bear that. So I turned a blind eye and forgave him.”

“I didn’t know.”

“One doesn’t talk in front
of the children. But he did love me and
I him and in that case the mistake could be fixed though not in Brent’s but I
think perhaps even if we don’t mean it we hurt each other and who’s to know
what happens inside a marriage like ours or like yours and Brent’s.”

It
was like a marriage, thought Jason. And I
should have been more forgiving and understanding. And I wasn’t.
And Brent is dead because of it.

Monday, 16 February 2015

Over the year end I was on holiday, and I had a lot of surplus energy. So I posted more episodes of MF. But then I went back to work, and I found that once again I was tired out. I just didn't have the energy after doing all the things I have to do to do the things I want to do. All the same, I have managed to write a few episodes and I'll be posting them over the next few days, and maybe even, writing some more.