Thursday, February 21, 2008

Being Okay With Who I Am

I know I come off as a pretty secure person. And actually, when I am fighting for someone else's rights, I am confident and sure of myself. I am realistic about what I can acheive, and usually manage to acheive the goals I set.

But for myself, I always feel like I have to change to make people happy, or live up to their expectations (even if they are not the expectations that I hold for myself), or like no one really just likes me for who I am, without me having to change some major stuff.

But I need to work on this. No one else's approval, even my husband's, though I love him dearly and he has nothing to do with this self-reflection (which was actually spawned by a comment someone made on NPR this morning), is really necessary.

And if I can just make peace with that, I can start living up to my own standards. I can stop trying to please everyone else, and do what I think is best for me. I can stop and do things I enjoy. I can put things I value first. I can relax, a little, maybe.

3 comments:

That is hard. i don't usually feel like i need to change to make people happy... i feel more like there are certain aspects of myself than i just can't share with people. Phillip is probably the only person i am ever truely myself with.