On October 23rd 2010 the actions of another changed my life forever. Ever since i have been battling to transition from 'victim' to 'survivor'. This blog documents my journey as i try to overcome my own battle and then join other survivors as we try to win the War on Rape.

Tuesday, 23 October 2012

Autumns Haunt (2yr anniversary) :(

Green leaves are losing colour
Another year has come and gone
Brown and shrivelled
Dance their way to the ground
Here they lie
Here they die
Another year come and gone

And I'm right
back
there
Back to autumn
Collapsed on your cloud
And I'm free
Free
Falling
Into that night
Under the blue walls

Can you here me screaming
You're the reason my voice bleeds
My heart has gone from green to lifeless
Here I lie
Here I die
Another years come and gone.

And I'm right
back
there
Back to autumn
Collapsed on your cloud
And I'm free
Free
Falling
Into that night
Under the blue walls

And I'll wait for the darkness end,
For brighter seasons to bring me back to life.
But in the light
Here I still lie
Here I still die
Another year come and gone

12 comments:

Thank you so much for your very moving poem, it is so beautiful and sad, I know it isn`t easy.I walk the hard journey with you. Please don`t ever give up hope. You are so brave and courajeous. I believe in you. :) @amygraver1

This poem is a beautifully written and takes me on your journey with you. I too am surviving with you. I am going on almost 16 yrs since my first rape but everyday it gets better. It's still hard especially on those anniversary days. Keep moving forward it does get better! Thank you for your vulernability, you are an inspiration to many!

This poem is beautiful to read,like most women on here we all are trying to rise above what happend to us,its been 2 years for me and i cant seem to move past it.Does it ever go away?I can have days when i do not think about it then it comes all back,its so hard especaily when it was some1 you trusted,how do you ever deal with that?

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About Me

"Death isn't the only way to loose a life..."
I am a 22 year old female 'survivor' of rape/sexual assault. I use the quotation marks because i still see myself as a victim.
During my struggles i felt the need to put whats in my head down on paper, so I brought a journal. But putting pen to paper...well didn't really work for me. So i opted for an online journal/blog instead.
I am not only a survivor fighting to win my own personal battle, but also striving to win the entire War on Rape.

My Favourite Quotes

"We aren't alone, a group of the same hold strong. We stand together and we fight those who hurt and oppose us. Together we will survive, we will win" - Me

"Just Breathe" - Me

"Where there is no struggle, there is no strength" - Oprah Winfrey

"Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength." - Arnold Schwarzenegger

"When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love have always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall. Think of it...always." - Mahatma Gandhi

"Thats the best revenge of all: happiness. Nothing drives people crazier than seeing someone have a good fucking life" - Chuck Palahniuk

"Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." -A.A. Milne

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long" Anonymous

"Courage is mastery of fear, not absence of fear" - Mark Twain Adaptation

"Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over...it became a butterfly" - Unknown

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters... compared to what lies within us" - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: Could have, Might have and Should have" - Louis E.Boone

"Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls, the most massive characters are seared with scars..." - Kahlil Gibran

"I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul"- William Ernest Henley

"Courage is simply the willingness to be afraid and act anyway" - Dr Robert Anthony

"One day the frogs will vanish and truth and butterflies will prevail" - Jdam (Wise friend of mine)

Frodo: “I wish the ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.”

Gandalf: “So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us" - Gandalf and Frodo Baggins, The LOTR

"The world is a dangerous place... not because of the people who are evil, but because of the people who don't do anything about it" - Einstein

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning but anyone can start today and make a new ending-" - Unknown

“Every man dies, but not every man really lives” - Braveheart

"YOU WEREN'T PUT ON THIS EARTH TO BE ORDINARY" - unknown

“How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back. There are some things that time can not mend. Some hurts that go too deep... that have taken hold.” – Frodo Baggins, LOTR.

"Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'i will try again tomorrow'" - Mary Anne Radmacher

"The trick is not how much pain you feel but how much joy you feel. Any idiot can feel pain, life is full of excuses to feel pain, excuses not to live, excuses, excuses" - Erica Jong

"Never drink to feel better, only drink to feel even better" - Reese Witherspoon ~ how do you know?

"A ship in harbour is safe but that is not what ships are built for" – John A Shed

"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud, was more painful than the risk it took to blossom" – Anais Nin

"Kites fly highest against the wind" – Winston Churchill

"Courage is found in unlikely places" - J.R.R. Tolkien

"Death is not the only way to loose a life" - Me

"I feel like a tiny bird with a big song" - Jerry Von Amerioneen

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