Daily Archives: Grudzień 21, 2017

Today I have my third rebirthday.

on 21st Dec 3 years ago I had a brain stroke. That means that I’m at the same time 28-year-old, 63-year-old and 3 years old.

Each year I feel very weird on this day. I really feel that this date is important to me, even more than my birthday. celebrating the day you were born, its something natural, but I didn’t choose the way of my growth, right? My mom says that I didn’t say ‚no’ to food, but it’s not like I was choosing it. After my brain stroke, I conducted my life consciously to the point that I could. From the diaper to the place I’m in.

Last year was a bit peculiar to me. It cant be related in few words, so I’ll leave it until the new years eve;)

Today I’m gonna be traditional. I’m gonna tell you the ways my life changed in a good way. Areas that are better now.

As you know, the life of a strokie isn’t that great. Frequently it seems to be hopeless and horrible. But there can be found things that changed for better. I truly believe that each and every one of us can find at least one such thing, even if his or her life is miserable.

Well, I have to admit, that few things changed for worse last year. surprisingly I feel weaker than last before. Strange. This year I haven’t had a stroke, the year before I did. how to explain that?:o

so many things are going for worse, I’m not gonna focus on them because there are plenty which changed my life for better. Since last year I’ve noticed a big growth. I’m letting the list expand, even if it grows that big, that it’s too long to read.

so.

what has changed in my life for better after stroke?

I take better care of myself,

I’ve met few new, nice people,

I’ve let go few people, who were bringing me pain. emotionally it’s a great thing for me,

I’m less stressed with small things,

I don’t have a stressful and horrible job anymore,

I’ve learned knitting,

I quit smoking,

sometimes I’m rested,

the card ‚you know, I’ve had a stroke’ still works for me,

I know why I’m oversensitive to sun,

I have a PFO fixed,

I’ve I’ve found a new, great psychologist and i feel that she’s the one,

I’ve learned Spanish. I can communicate in this language. And I learned it by myself,

I’ve lost 15 kilos,

I don’t have to give my granny rides to shops. Not being able to drive sucks, but on the other hand, I love this excuse,

I see that I’m helping people,

My hair fall out less,

i’m thinking about myself more,

I started dating,

I have a small collection of figures of goats,

I understand people better,

I’m not that worried about money. I know its very horrible, as my parents are providing for me, but on the other hand, before I was counting each zloty with a fear, and now I’m still counting, but without fear,

I get long depressive states less frequently,

I get rid of stuff rather than I collect them,

I’m learning to have an order around myself,

If its even possible, I’m closer to my brother than anytime before,

again I appreciate being outside,

I have the hammock!

I can do things in WordPress better and better,

I have ‚my own’ business. It goes badly, but it’ll be better. one day.

I have a feeling that I’m more active.

Comparing to the Polish version this list is shorter for two points;)

But still it’s impressive, isn’t it?

I like the points about being proud of myself, as for the first time I really feel pride and satisfaction. It’s a new, great feeling to think about yourself well. For a change;)

Maybe you should try to think about such list yourself? Even in despair, we can find something. For me, the first thing was realising in a hospital that I have nicer skin.