our nikah session was to be at 11am. so that day, after subuh prayers, i got myself ready.
mom dah ready kan breakfast for the whole family sebab we know masa nikah and after pun mesti susah nak makan.

my cousin, Nina Faressa, yang makeup kan. she did my engagement makeup too! she has really good soft hand skill (not many have this. banyak kali i rasa cam kena seksa bila di-makeup kan) and she knows the kind of makeup i like; not heavy and not too bright.

anyway, after makeup, i went straight to my mom's room to wear my dress, which was made by my cousin, Nina Natessa. Faressa and Tessa are sisters btw =)
i don't know much about designing so at the designing stage a few months ago, i just told my mom the kind of dress i want, and mom conveyed it to Tessa. coz to me, i just want simple and nice dress/baju kurung. shape, colour, length, blablabla, sume tu i leave it to mom and Tessa. i was working and studying kan, so i hadn't had time to think about the baju.
alhamdulillah, the dress was exquisite, made with such intricate beadings yet simple and lovely!

so after getting ready, we all sat and wait. well, not really. while waiting, i had to do a lot of poses for the cameramen. haha!! it's good anyway, i was already nervous. posing awkwardly to the camera distracted me from my jitters =)

and then... rombongan pengantin lelaki sudah tiba.

mom and i went down, and the moment when i reached the downstairs, i saw Asfirdaus, in white baju melayu and black songkok. we looked at each other for a while and then we looked away. that moment, all i could think of was "this is it".

i whispered "bismillahirahmanirrahim" all the time while walking towards the pelamin.

unfortunately, when i sat at the pelamin, i cried. couldn't contain it any longer!

but takde la teresak esakkkk! tak cute la kan. hahah!

i cried when i saw my dad.

i'm the only girl among his children, and he's letting me go to Asfirdaus.

i had so many mixed emotions then, but what really made me tearful was the thought of how i wished i could do more as a daughter. i wished then that i could give back to my Abah, who have struggled so hard and so much when my brothers and i were younger..

the night before the nikah, my dad came to my room. he hugged me and said "i'm going to miss you". as i was looking at him then, on the pelamin, i really really felt that i will miss him. a lot.

i just felt so much love for my parents at that time. i just want to pause everything and tell them how much i love them. just for five minutes at least. but i don't have such power. all i could do was smile (tearfully) and pray in my heart.

my parents have done so many for me, for my brothers, for their families. my mom planned everything herself, from nikah sampaiiiii reception.

i did only 1% of the whole thing, which was to be there.

=')

i think all this emotional rollercoaster was just about 2-3 minutes but it felt like ages.

ultimately, i was grateful to Allah SWT, for allowing all this to happen.

syukur alhamdulillah, i can't even give words to describe how grateful i am!

Allahu Akbar =')

akad nikah selesai in one brief moment, and when Asfirdaus, my husband, went to perform his sunat prayers, i just sat there, trying to digest what just happened. i tried to put back my thoughts together, coz it seems to be buzzing all around, and i just want to remember everything. =)

my hubby came back, we signed the documents, and alhamdulillah, selesai sudah!

by the way, Project2Pi is with CST Breed. CST Breed is my official videographer, fyi =) so Project2Pi is this new service by CST Breed where they will upload the pictures ON THE SPOT via instagram, twitter, and facebook! so those yang cannot attend my wedding got updated with the whole event even without being there! i think it's such an awesome new service, and it's a good thing i took it =D

Congratulations. You look beautiful! I love the fact that you still went with covering up your chest area with the shawl instead of going the usual wedding ensemble where the hijab is pulled tight over the chest. Cantik sangat and really proper. :)