Thursday, 15 August 2013

I rest my case
you couldn't love me anyway
I rest my case
what was I thinking
you couldn't love me anyway

I rest my case
you're forever cold and I'm always to blame
I rest my case
I'll never mean anything to you
and that's a shame

I trace the night light
my position learned through lessons carried on my fingertips
and I carry myself like a gentle melody
but as soon as you're by my side I'm who I never want to be
it's harder, bitter, colder
it's the strangest, you're moving
but your heart remains stationary

Chorus: you'll stay the same
I'd always change for you
bettering myself
to make this last to make this last another day
you'll stay the same
why do you always play this game?
I'm always changing for you
fixing faults I never committed

I want this to end
the hanging of words
left out to dry whilst I weep
and I'm lost, I'm lost and lonely
better off alone, at least then I'm slightly happy
laughing and joking
but we're breaking
and you'll still stay the same
careless and none the wiser

chorus

ending: you'll never change for me
that proves anything and everything that I ever need to know
why do you always play this game?
why do you always stay the same

Wednesday, 14 August 2013

I wish I was stronger than this
you're promising nothing more than lies
I wish I was stronger than us
you're acting out of character, again

I won't believe your empty words, ever again
I won't think that you mean them, anymore
I can't help but think that this is all just false love
I wouldn't like to think it's real

you're not a man
because men would not do what you did
you're not man
because men would take care of me, always
you're still a child
you only think about yourself, my dear
but, why? but, why?
do I love you so

Chorus: Each time I catch my breath
and become certain of what I want
just one look at you
I'm back to falling
each time I catch my strength
just one look at you
I'm back to being on my knees
wanting to stay with you

I can't help myself
I can't help myself to you
you're disappointingly pleasing
I can't help myself
I can't stop the way I feel
you're bitterly annoying
but, why?
do I love you so

chorus

ending: each time you make mistakes
each time I'm not wanted
could there be a duller day?
this love has left me haunted
remorseful of saying no
remorseful of second chances
but I give to you what I can
not what you deserve

I want to be your all, your first priority
I can't believe how much you've changed
your promises of who I thought you would be
who you never were and what a shame

you say that things will get easier, but I don't faith
and it's just a pathetic game, you're playing me
you say that you love me dearly, darling
but we both know that you don't really love at all

how could I care
how could I stay here
how could I care
how could I stay here with you

Chorus: It's just another love
soon to pass
a phase I'm going through
I hope it doesn't last
I'm tired of never being good enough
I'm tired of feeling cold within your touch
it's just another love
soon to pass, I hope at last
this phase I'm in
keeps me drowning within all the lies you kept
all the hidden messages
secrecy is shameful, surely you have learnt from this?

why do I want to stay?
why do I not hate you one bit?
why do I remain the same?
when you change at any given moment

I don't want to be around you
but I hate being not by your side
I don't want to kiss you anymore
it just tears apart my walls I've built inside

chorus

ending: why does it hurt this way?
could you stop changing my string of thoughts
why does it hurt this much?
could it be you're not enough
even though I can't walk away
from what we started

I despite the way I want you back
each time we break away
I hate the way you talk to girls
and how I always get in the way

I can't understand how much I love and care for you
if were any more it'd kill, most certainly
suppressed by this, us
it's more than anything I thought we were
full of anger, full of anger
I don't want to lose you darling
but when you keep testing me and pushing me away
what more can I give to you? to make you stay

Chorus: If you don't like how much I care
if you don't want to hear a word from my everlasting love, everlasting love
is it too much to ask, for just three words from your touch
is it too much to ask for simplicity?
if you don't like how much I care for you
if you don't want me to be here
just say it
if you don't like how much I care for you
if you hate it, if you hate me too
just say it, just say it

I give so much to you and get nothing back
I have high expectations and standards that you always lack to meet
all I ask of you is to be there for me
like I am, like how I always drop everything to be with you

I can't stand the way I don't hate you, not even a tiny amount
I can't stand that I know I'm better off alone but I don't want to leave one bit
ooh, all I'm asking for
is everything that you just can't think about
you just want what you want

chorus

ending: I can't help how much I care for you
slowly I'll fade away
this is the last chance, my final call
beckoner, I beg you to love me
beckoner, I beg you to want me
beckoner, I need you to need me
give me nothing or give me all

Sunday, 21 July 2013

There's so much to say to you
where do I begin?
you promised me so many delicate words, before we picked up our pace
and it seems so far away, the empty promises you threw away
and there are words within words
that keep my mind rotating, so many thoughts that begin fires in my mind
and my insecurities keep on sinking deeper
I swallow my tongue and choke on what I want to tell you

I could never be happy
but I hope you are
you seem to be doing so well
you seem to be managing
and I'm still fading away
slowly edging out of this cold companionship

Chorus: when will it be enough?
when will I be enough?
I can't wait around for you to accept me
I can't watch you talk to her like that
you don't think, you just do
you never think, you just do

if it's not all serious
secrecy, hidden lust
why do you always take it further
why are you always pulling the trigger

chorus

ending: and if it's meant for us
we'll be together another time
and if I really mean that much
we'll be together for the better times

why did you have to fuel the fire?
you were so wrapped up in your guilt free desires
and everything you said to her
you'd never think of me

why do you have to fuel the fire?
you're ever so caught up in desires
I've had enough, it's too much to keep this up
and so I've left it all to you
the last chance, never enough

Chorus: when will you fall in love with me?
when will I get the chance to understand you?
your lack of thinking
your lack of common sense
you do what you want to please you
and I'll always try hard to keep you
but whenever I'm close you steer away
why do you have to fuel the fire?
you're so wrapped up in your secrecy and hidden desires

I'm well inclined to let this go
I watch you grow
I become weak
and baby, you know I could give you up
but not so easily

second thoughts from the past
I've never been there before
I'm never empty from doubts
you'll never try, it's too much effort

chorus

ending: and you know, I could give you up
so why do you have to fuel the fire?
why are you so wrapped up in secrecy and toxic desires?

Sunday, 23 June 2013

Near to you, I crave to be
away from you I'm suffering
and can you feel it?
can you feel this?

away from you, I can't cope
near to you I long to hope
this will last forever
this could last forever

if we made it through another night
could you hold me closer, hold me tight?
could I be the one? could I be the one?

Chorus: I've never felt so strong
and weak at the same time
my feelings and doubts contrast in the front of my mind
your happiness is all I think about
and it's the promise of tomorrow that I long for
I've never felt so weak but strong

I'm insecure, I won't learn to trust
and sweetheart, promise me, you can live with that?
it's one of my many flaws

to me you are the face of beauty
each time I stare I take all of you in, I take all of you in to me
I pick up on your habits
I pick up on your flaws
but darling, I wanna see more

chorus

ending: I don't want this to ever end
we've started off so strongly
I won't break away
I won't fade away from you

There's no light left in the dark
now I know where I'm laying at night
I can't deal with lonely times
but you seem to manage fine

I don't understand
why don't you wanna hold my hand?
as tightly as you used to
as tightly as we used to be

what have I done?
why are you acting this way?
all I, all I ever wanted was you
and I can't keep this inside
it's wearing me down and out
and soon we'll be through
the evidence is true

Chorus: Pull me closer now
for this will be the last time
you'll ever feel something so strong and real
we used to so real, together
you and I would fight, fight for what we had
with fists of purity and I can't hold back anymore

you don't seem to care
when I cry at night
you turn your body over
out of my sight

I'd drop anything for you
I'd stop in my tracks just to see you over
just to calm you down

chorus

and with me,
I'm not the first priority
you're always letting me down
and I hope I'm not the only one
I hope I'm not the lonely one, right now

chorus

ending: and I can't live without you
I need you warmth and love in my life
need that touch to get me through this so I can feel alright

This guilt, guilt, guilt
is eating me up, up, up
ever so slowly
catching me in my weakness
basking in glory
this guilt, guilt, guilt
is eating me up, up, up
ever so willingly
catching me and basking in glory

I can't keep up with all this doubt
inside my head right now
self inflicted love, gone
the less we talk, the less I crave
but I can't make you take the blame
when all I can do is love love you so deeply

Chorus: And it takes me
far away, and soaks my bones in what we have
and it takes me, ever so gently
with warmer hands and the coldest of hearts
and I never want to part from you, no
I don't want to know how I'd do, without you
without you by my side

I find it hard how you seem to cope without me
and get by just fine, with a lonely night
your scent lingers on my pillows and it's the best sleeping aid
I've had so far, you're the best so far

and it eats me whole
grinds me down
can you feel it?
can you hear me now?
x2

chorus

ending: and I can't not kiss your skin
I can't tell you it's going to be alright
you're the demon of my nights
and I want to keep you forever
but how do I know whether you'll leave my sight?
do you want to, darling?

Thursday, 13 June 2013

Why can't I keep you?
safe in my arms
I could never leave you
I hope that I'm somewhere in your heart
and I realise, dear
I'm in this way too much, much
and I realise, my biggest fear
it hurts when we touch

I can't carry on like this
when I know that you'll be the end of me
darling, are you going to leave me?
I feel that I'm wasting each day, counting down the moments when you're gone
do you find it hard to stay the night?
I've walked miles to untie the doubts in my mind

Chorus: I want to take some time
to make things right
and it doesn't matter how you feel
I know you think the same, you are the same as I
and I was warned that I would never be put first
I was warned I'd be second best
but I want to take some time
so darling, are you gonna leave me?
please don't do so, so soon

my heart is burning by the bed for you
and I'm pushed into the side lines again, like you do
and imagination haunts me in mirrors, like you do
and my skin painted dark and blue
representing my thoughts of you

ending: and from the start
I told you I'd be here through thick and thin
and I promised I'd love you, with every inch of my skin
you promised the same, and I know you didn't mean it
because here we are, fighting to keep this

I promise to carry you
when you're weak and home sick
and I promise that I'll stick right by you
when you're sad and lonely

I'm still holding onto your whisper
I'll never turn away from you
I hope that you can understand me now
it's the best thing to do

when I'm laying down at night
when you're not next me
I feel the warmth of your body
trapped within the sheets

Chorus: It's the beginning of the doubts
now that the trust is empty
it's the way you hold me now
ever so tight but gently
and I've never seen your eyes
filled with so much pain and destruction
and I know you've changed, darling
I can sense it's only just starting

the way you stand
the way you hold your body hunched
the way you talk
the words that don't leave your mouth

chorus

and at the start
I was always put first
I was always made sure I understood how much love hurts
and now we're comfortable
it's like we're not trying anymore
and I wish that we could take this back
to where we started
I'd change a million things

chorus

ending: If you left, I don't know if I'd miss you
I've been fighting you for too long
if you stayed, I don't know if I could see this through
you'd need to make yourself better

Welcome to the end of what is on my mind
and it's a fantasy, delivered in a lack of time
and I don't know what I think you saw
you didn't know at all
the side of who I hold, no longer in my touch
and I can't make a connection
I've forced myself into a doubtful dimension
I'm sick at the sight of myself

Chorus: Maybe I should find something real
push past these second guesses that I drown your skin in
how could it be what I want is here?
with you, with you
how could it be what I want is here?
you're a fantasy, you could never live up
you could never lip up

empty morals hypnotise me
and I'm no longer alone
there's too much pressure for today
how many hours will I let slip away
before I realise that you're not the same?

each gap between your voice and mine
makes me think of words I should have said
and you'll never put me first, and that's okay darling
I guess I could get used to it
I couldn't ever leave you
what I want is here
here is what I want

chorus

ending: and it's the unkept promises
your reassurance that you'll love me more each day
I feel that I'm in this way more than you are
and this is reality, it always lives up
it always lives up

I'm just waiting for you
to prove to me, that I'm worth it all
that I'm worth each sigh you waste
and I always want to make it through
because you're by far the bestest
that I have ever had
and this is the strongest
I have ever felt

I wish you were here
you can do no wrong
I feel so safe and calm
I keep on yearning, and I carry on

Chorus: It works for me, the light words
and I'll always be the weak one, I'll never say no
you give me a reason, I surrender to your sweet talk
you pull me closer with words of serenity
I can't help but crave more kisses
there's never enough when I'm in need
and you always make me feel like I'm slipping in way deeper
than you'll ever be

and I'm dreaming of us
and if I keep slipping, keeping up with the tidal talking
if I'm with you, I don't ever want to go
and it's that sweet talk
the moments we waited
the words we wasted
subsidised by steamy actions

chorus

ending: but you give me that sweet talk
and all your faults slowly melt away
and it always happens for me
you know how to work me, now
you know how to make my rights feel wrong
but you give me that reason
so I'll never go

I've changed the situation, but not the scenery
and I'd give anything to get away, get away from here
I'm thankful for the sights, but not the sight of you
I see you everywhere I go

Every face that passes me by, I think of your name
and it haunts my skin, I get a tingle in my bones
I try my hardest to look away, but we had so much
it was such a waste of effort

could it be you feel the same?
could it be you don't have the words to say?
to make things better, better
could it be you don't know how
but you always cry when it rains
is it because you know no-one could love you better?
than I do, than I did

I did want to stay
but you know it was broken
I could have fixed this, all along
by not being so fucking open

A slip of my tongue
and we're fighting again
I need to watch myself
before it happens with another man
I bite my cheek at words you spit
I can't help this, I can't help but push you away

chorus

ending: I will always take the blame
I will never forget your face
it fills me with such shame
knowing that I could have, I could have stayed

You're so helpless, helpless to yourself
I'm trying, trying, trying
to make things better, to fix you up, darling
all I see is such destruction
and I hope one day that you recover

I see the shadows by your eyes
I know it's no surprise, to be feeling so alone
but I'll try, to stay, with you

Chorus: it must be tough to be in doubt, all day long
to be trapped under negative thoughts that keep you down
I hope I say the right words, I hope I do the right things
cause sweetheart, you mean everything, everything
I hope I say the right words, I hope I do the right things
cause sweetheart, you mean everything

I'd take it all away, quicker than you could say that you're sorry
there's no need to be this way, there's no need to feel such shame
I'll be there for you, I promise this

could it be it's just a phase, oh I hope so by the way
you still look ever so beautiful
I wish that I could save the day, by taking away the pain
but I can't do such things, not with my unhelpful hands

chorus

ending: and I promised from the start, my darling
I'd be there for you, when times are tough and it doesn't get going
and I promised, with my heart
I'd stick by your side, through the thick and thin
until you're better, sweetheart, sweetheart
until you're better, I'll be here

If I could, I'd prove it to you every day
I'd take all your forms, through love and understanding
and between yourself and I, I see all your faults and attractions
it's this delicate view, a hopeful you in the way

it's never forgotten,
I can always remember
and if I ever have to leave
I'll hold you closer
because one day apart
is no harder than unconditional love

Chorus: there's an everlasting cavity
an ever-growing space, the constant need for you
and I don't mind tricky situations that we can't mend
but as long as it's never forgotten
this unconditional love
this downpour of warmth, marinating in you

I feel ever so lost without you
and with you I'm always reminded
how we started, and how our hands began to wander
it's never forgotten
I can always remember

all I see is faith
faith that you'll wait another day
I'll be back in your arms, soon my sweetheart
I know what I'd say, I know what I'd do

chorus

ending: I need you to know, I need you tonight
and if I could, I'd prove it to you every day
I'd take all your forms, through love and understanding

Wednesday, 15 May 2013

This love is raw, this love is ever so tender
and I speak deep, I whisper oceans for you
you take my breath, and you take my shirt
lose yourself to me, lose yourself to me
I promise to carry you, when you're weak

will you be my everlasting lover, my everlasting light
the promise of tomorrow is never doubtful, within a gaze into your eyes
and I know your life is speeding by, and you need time to sharpen
but you take my breath, and you take my soul
and you lose yourself, you lose yourself to me

Chorus: I give all that I have to love you with
I show all the strength and courage that is needed in dark love
we could have missed all of this, ever so easily
and I hate to think about it darling, but I do sometimes
and I still worry that you'll disappear
without the flicker of a single word from your truthful tongue

I'll always remember,
sweetheart I could never forget
the instant intertwining of feelings, on that day we first met
and I'll always remember
this sweet love, this warmth you bring me
and I give you all

Sunday, 12 May 2013

A gentle flicker from your eyes
it tells me all that I could ever want to know
and I feel it too, the struggle
the denial of big and deeper love
it scares me how easily we started
and I know I'd hate it if you departed

I'm up all night, facing brick walls
facing you
I can't keep from wandering eyes
and I can't help but think of what I'd do
if I had never of had this feeling
if I had fucked it all up
like I always do

Chorus: my barriers down,
my armor no longer present
I have no limits
and you take all that I have
and you say it's enough
and you crave my cold touch
and my barriers down
I let you in, I let you swim deep

I couldn't ask for anything more
I couldn't want anyone better
to me, you are everything
a dream in silk sheets
the lace in my tongue, undone

chorus

ending: I can't stand the strength and power of this love
it pours over me, washes my skin out
and I ache for your body
I ache for you, tonight

please don't make this any harder, than it ought to be
if I could make you stay, my darling, forever you and me
maybe I'd forget, and maybe I won't
I'm stuck in this moment, distracted by being alone
and you'll never know this, wherever you are
and maybe I don't give up easily
not when it comes to saving you

Chorus:if I can't make you stay, another way
I'll wait a thousand rainy day for you
so darling, stick around
I'm getting so used to you
and I wish that I had known
what we are, at the beginning
and if time slowed down
I'd make you stay, another day
I'll wait another day for you
and maybe I don't give up easily,
not when it comes to saving you, darling

I know time won't heal wounds
and each words you say makes my blood weep wild
and to make you stay, just a little while
you must feel the same, you must feel a little pain, too?
and it's what I do, I do for you

chorus

so if I,
can't make you stay
can't make you better in a single day
then I have failed myself, I have failed you
and if I can't make you stay
I don't give up easily

chorus

ending: if I can't make you stay
if I can't make your scars a little lighter
maybe I don't give up, easily
no not when it comes to you, my darling

Monday, 29 April 2013

It's been such a slow and painful day
all I've been thinking, negative thoughts present
the tip of my tongue delayed
and the way you move me, darling
it's like you see right through me
you make this easier, a little easy

I wish I could be wiser, stronger, content
I fear you're letting me go, ever so slowly
your subtle pleasure through harsh actions

Chorus: you know that you could do a lot better
even though you choose to stay, every time I mention it
you say it's not my fault, but I'm made of faults, I'm full of error
it's getting dark in my eyes and you've taken away hope
all I've wanted, all I ever wanted is trust, that you'd take me home
you'd take me there, my bones soaked in regret now
soaked in your scent

worse things have happened, I can reassure you now
but it's all about perspective, bring me a view that feeds my ever growing heart
isn't there a brighter way, to feel something more
something more filling than this?

chorus

you give lighter ways, to feel something more
something more fulfilling than this

chorus

ending: and I'm waiting for the clouds to glide away
and my bones float, float, float towards you
I sail a thousand waves just to be closer
closer to whatever we could have ever been
if I wasn't always in doubt

The guilt eats me up
knowing I could be so much better, better for you
I can notice you're trying, but it's not hard enough
and I can tell you've been crying, but your tears aren't of sadness
there made up of inner shame

I know that you need someone
so let it be me, let it be me
because you are the best thing
and it feels like I can't walk on
let it be me, let it be me

Chorus: it feels like I'm not even second best,
and I keep letting vulnerable moments pass
and I have no faith in this, I have no faith in myself
I reach over for hope and it slaps my hand
I can't remember feeling like I belong
I'd give anything, everything I have
just for this peace of mind, to finally be my own

I just need someone that can take this away
the faith is gone, and I've been waiting up all evening
just to hear your voice once more
and you're delayed, you always put me last
and so let it be me, let me carry on

chorus

ending: so let it be me,
because you are the best thing,
let it be me, I know that you need someone

Tuesday, 23 April 2013

I'm folding stars just to be where you are
but you feel so close to me
and I beg to differ, sweetheart
you take my hand but I feel like we're drifting once again
and I can't bare to see this
it's such a dying shame

I wilter for you as we grow to different boundaries
and I push past every limit of us
I speak through kisses
you act through wishes I can't stand it
you could lie through the tip of your fingers
and I couldn't taste it

Chorus: I watch you crumble
as I want to walk away
but you know I could never leave you
not on a day like this
I watch you stumble into darker nights
and I'm lonely, so lonely for you
without your body by my side

I'm dragging my heels across water
just to feel your skin
the softness of your bones my darling, they seep within
and I can't help but taste it
all these words that I've yet to say
and I can't quite taste it
all this bitter love that's wasting away

chorus

ending: I'm folding stars just be, a little closer to you
I'm breaking my back every day just to talk, talk to you
and the power of words is seen, in this dire situation
and the power of love is outspoken by the body you hold

Sunday, 21 April 2013

You prove to me that love exists
in an empty world
you show me that you don't need to be an idea of perfection
it's in your mind that I'm something
that I mean anything at all

and the beauty of this
is that you're mine
mine for now

Chorus: I'll keep a close eye on your warmth
for previously others has run thin
and the coldness of your touch is non-existent
the meaning sinks within my skin
with every breath I take, with every gasp you make
I'm always aware of what it is that we have
I only hold your hand to get this feeling right
and it all just slows down
and there's no need to notice anymore

it's a different way
to feel how I felt with others
I can't compare them to you
previous faces
and I assure you your space in my bed
is of safety, and is reserved for your body only

I want to tell you
I want to show you everything
all the thoughts that drapes around my head
I want to breathe you in
I want to show you it all
all the actions that linger on the tips of my fingers
that want to feel your skin

chorus

ending: I want to feel it all again
the rush of knowing where I am
I always belong here, in those arms of yours
a safe haven
a place for me to show you again

The mood spills in
your scent lingers on every wound
I'd rather be restless, the second you stop
my troubles catch up, yet you still leave me breathless
I disappear in silk sheets
I disappear into your body

My blood runs for you
the pace of my heart walks steady
it's the only way to assure you
that every thing, every little thing
I do for you, tonight

Chorus: I can no longer dream peacefully
knowing that you have the ability to leave, at any time
it floods my body in fear
but I know you'd never leave darling
you've seen too much, you've been tested
I do it all for you, tonight

I hear your voice louder,
I feel the depth of your warm breath
and I feel you getting closer
I can't explain to you darling
how often I think of this
how often I want you
the need for your touch

chorus

ending: I lay awake, unbusy
and without you I'm lost
it breaks my heart knowing that you could have done so in the beginning
we'll never grow apart
it's something I know that you can do
but I'd like to think you love me more than that
the idea of seperation

For you, I grow like daffodils in spring
and I'd forever improve, just to have this one win
this mess we've made, so beautifully chaotic
but it's now, that I miss you the most
when I think about us ending

our day will come, if we wait a while
I'll see those piercing eyes of yours
and it will all be alright
so let me lay my head
right next to yours
and this is everything
we share this

Chorus: if we had waited a while
would we ever be here
and we could have missed this, so easily
I'll never fake this love
I'll always wear your smile
I'll stay in love this way
and this is everything
all that we are
you and I
together
unison

I don't have room left in this heavy heart of mine
with every touch you prove my belief in our love
I couldn't ask for another
I couldn't ask for a better you
you do me well, you do me right

chorus

ending: and it's being awoken
catching the last glimpse of your tired mind
and it's in this state that I love you the most
when I think about us, neverending

Thursday, 11 April 2013

You sleep so softly, upon the bay
I watch your body as the ocean sways
and to kiss your lips, a necessity, necessity
and to hold your body, baby
next to me, next to me
a washed out feeling
belonging to me, to me

you are the one that makes me feel
secure and happy
emotionally and physically
you provide with me, with all I'll ever need
I do fine by you

Chorus: it shows on my skin
and its buried on my hands
I wear myself out
expressing just how much
you mean to me, darling
how much you mean to me

I sleep in silk sheets
I sleep beside you
and I kiss your body
and you kiss mine too

we're sewn into another
stuck on the remaining pieces
we've outdone ourselves, this time

oh and darling,
I will miss you, so hard
when you leave

chorus

for you to return
to come back to me
a victory in itself
a day I long to see

and I promise to teach you
every day of your life
I will write words of wisdom on your lips
and that's how you'll get by

chorus

ending: and you to me, darling
are everything that I have been missing
and you to me, darling
oh this is such a blessing
I promise and I'll prove
just how much I love you, baby
and I'll take you into the safer shallows
and I'll stick with you

So I'll lay you down
and my words can be found
broken on your body
broken on your body

and I'll love you so tightly
pull your body onto mine
and it's the warmth of your skin
that lets me know that you're mine tonight

heated topics
come through the thickness of my breath
oh I love your bedroom eyes
they're the best

Chorus: I pull you inside me
as you let me go with smooth hands
and this is it for now
we acknowledged then
smooth strokes leave me breathless
I feel everything
and you know, you know
you know, you know how to love me

scared, self conscious, paranoid
all these feelings evaporate
no need to turn out the lights
I know that you won't love me, any less

I sway in the moment
absorbing all the heat I can
and I breathe so deeply on your neck
you know, you know, you know how to make me want you more

chorus

and after the first time
it can only get better
this we both know
this we both know
and your bare body shows me
all that I've been missing
hiding in the dark
waiting for your love

chorus

ending: and this hidden heated moment
is discovered on my skin
I'm laced in beauty
I'm laced in your touch
in this hidden heat

you travel through my veins
at quite a rapid speed
and with my heart rate quicker
it's you I feel

ending: I don't want to seem to clingy to you
but I can't, ever let go
I'm afraid you'll wake up tomorrow
with a different point of view
but for today, for tonight, for this moment
all I can do, is what you want me to do

I've been searching for another
searching for you
and I think I've discovered, all that's left to complete me
to take away this emptiness that lingers in my heart, always
you bury in me, words that I've longed to hear
you seek in me, emotions I've longed to feel

I've got a thing for you
a heavy feeling that sinks into my bones
and your eyes bring me the highest warmth
the sensations rushes over me, it travels lightly in my veins

Chorus: I've got to let you know
I can't let go, of whatever we have
boy, you knock me out
and what you do for me
indescribable, unconditional
and it's what you do to me
the consistent lightness of dark situations
I appreciate all that you forever prove
and it's this love that sinks inside me
keeps me afloat in rough waters

I've needed you
and now that I've got you in my grasp
I'm going to hold you so lightly
in a sheet of silky daydreams

chorus

ending: and you're all that I've been looking for
every emotion that I've always wanted
right here with you

You didn't want me to see
but you left so quietly
you enter with heavy hands
touching every inch of my body
and they never hide from me
and these scars, you've learned to love

I've been having the strangest feeling
I can't leave the sharpness of your breath
those heated whispers in the dark
and I can't ever leave you, now
you've become far too much

Chorus: You've left me open
I hope you'd understand, darling
there's no way that I can ever let you go
you move me from within
even in distance, I love you with a weighted heart
and I promise to show to you
each day that passes by
to love and to care
for your beautiful body

I know that I've tried to forget those nights
but they linger like your scent on my skin
and you've left me here, bare and broken
but you'll always come back to me
to fix all that you can with steady hands

chorus

ending: and, knowing this
for far too long
you cut deep into my heart
but you'll always come back to me

You give me the strangest feeling
like I've been with you forever and more
you give me a sensation, that this is where I'll start to go wrong
and I'll love you all the more for this
and you'll love me all the less
so let's just face this music, baby
let's just make this mess
for what it's worth

for what it's worth
I will always
love you
love you
love you
and

Chorus: I'll need you till the day we break
the day where I will crumble underneath your body
for what it's worth I will always
always need you
to wrap you close to me
underrated

you give me toxicity
through the truth of heavy kisses
and I'll never realise how much you mean to me
until you're gone
and that's when I'll know, there's no more for me here

for what it's worth
I will always
love you
love you
love you
and

chorus

ending: for what it's worth
I will always be
a part of you
for what it's worth
you're the lungs inside my wreckless body

I'm out of danger, but I'm still close to you
I hold your hand like it's the only time I can't ever let go
and it's time like these when I'm on the way
out of the deep waters
yet I'll always be afraid again
I'll always look at your with glossy eyes

a feeling of belonging
the need for home
a sensation of knowing
this is where I need to be
wherever you are, darling

Chorus: I've got many feelings about this
I've got so many doubts about you
but you keep me up on the surface
you haven't let me down, yet
and I'll help myself to the love you give
it's all that makes me feel better
and I'll help myself to you, my love
the constant finding of hidden treasure

I'll never let go
nothing can break us now
and as you enter me so softly
I breathe in every emotion you wear
I spray my words onto your skin
as you rest yourself
and we're so still, we play so still

Sunday, 31 March 2013

I give into this moment
you're the only one who could turn this around
and with just one more breath, I could let go
I hear those voices and they're taunting me now
but nothing's going to wake me now

I'm a slave to your voice
your whisper the sweet sound
the reassuring heat from your lungs
I told myself that I'd love you, like it was the last time

Chorus: what we have become
show me what we could be eventually
and I know that you'll never leave
but there's still the lingering of mystery
and I take from you only what I need
and unlike you, I don't pretend to feel this way

please know that you're the only one
I distract myself from the brutal honesty
and I wrap my body around you
and unlike you, I don't pretend to feel this way

chorus

ending: until the end of time
I'm forever yours, and you'll forever be mine
and I will never go away, the ache of distance and the realisation of space
until the end of us
I'm forever yours
and you're forever mine

Lately you've left me laying in bed with a broken heart
and each time I've been falling, you left me in the dark
and it's without any warning, all these nights that I've cried myself to sleep
and how many nights, how many more times
will it take for me to show you?
will it take for me to prove my love?

in and out of phases
you're consistent
the ever growing love
the ever growing need for you
everlasting

Chorus: A surge of reassurance
and I know you'll never leave me, again
I lost myself so many times in the depth of ourselves
but each time, and each time
I always had you
I always found you

I'm always waiting
waiting for you to show me
what it feels like to have something
to mean anything at all
I crave to know you better

colliding through similar thoughts
negativity lingers in every breath of mine
and your touch is always of pleasure
I crave to know you better

chorus

ending: and if this isn't love
then what is all this I'm feeling?
and if this isn't the need for your body
then what is all this I'm needing?

Wednesday, 20 March 2013

You must know
you've got to be aware
that through it all, all that I had
you always meant something
something to me

and to be your anything
if only for a moment
something so simple, but it'd take it out of me
I think before I loved you more

Chorus: and it all comes back to you
you're the reminder that consistency exists
and when you were out of reach
you gave something, you meant something to me
and before I gave, you'd forever take
and you'd be out of reach
and it all comes back to you
you gave something, you meant something to me

A favourite way to spend my time
is slowly brushing every inch of your body
every corner, brings a new need to love you
and I bring to you, a new me to love you

I'd take all I have,
and you're a little brave, little brave
you know you mean it all, darling
you mean every word and every action

Sunday, 17 March 2013

I get lost each day
looking into your mind
I navigate my hand over your body
I can't help but chance all that I have
I'd give anything for you to want me

back, back again
the feeling rushes in
back, back again
another moment to sink into

Chorus: my vessel carries nothing but love for you
and my ocean is tears I've cried, knowing I won't have you
I'm swimming through the currents of your veins
I'm trying to find a way out of your heart
and I'm drowning, and I'm drowning
so please don't leave me in the dark

body to body
this is all we'll ever be
mind to mind, a fantasy never to be seen
and I lust after your intelligence, darling
and I lust after your warm touch

to run my fingers through your hair
a small but significant moment
to hold your cold hands inside mine
a small but significant moment

chorus

I wrap myself up in thoughts of you
they're the only things that get me through the day
I shelter from the constant tears, in your haze
and I can't help but smile when I see your laugh
it fills me with delight, and warmth and such

chorus

ending: your laughter is my heroin
your smile is every toxin breathed in
and I will exhaust myself
until you see it's me no longer there

We spoke, of everything that felt right
we both know we were not right
unstable, I hold your worries close to me
I let your veins be able to breathe
and I loved, the way you look at me
and I miss, the stories we could have been

My lips are sewn tightly
with the promise of your skin
I prayed for you my darling
to let the feeling wash within
and I'm hungry for your body
I'm lusting for your touch
but I will wait for you
you know I am able

to satisfy the emptiness
I'm always full of cravings
I'd hold you ever so closely
I'd keep you warm and safe

Chorus: And I've been putting you through hell
don't deny it, darling
I know I have, I admit it
and I've been putting you through hell
don't deny it, darling
I know I have, I admit it

I could promise I will change
but we both know not to talk of words that we can't sustain
I will whisper to you in the light of day
to let you know, you're mine to keep
and I will tell you I care
I will show you love
I will make up for the tears at bedtime

chorus

ending: I've been putting you through this hell
for so long, darling
but I promise I am over it now

We're a thousand miles apart
but your mind lingers so close to me
and I've wished for your hands to hold
and I can barely sleep at night
knowing you're awake somewhere
it slowly tortures me
but I still, I still, I still care for you

and I'd hope that you would think
the same about me
all of these feelings sink beyond my feet
and I'm settled here, but not without you
not without you

Chorus: I can't keep pretending
that everything's alright
when you're not by my side
I'm still lonely
I long to kiss your skin, to stay with you through cold nights
and I'd wrap you tightly around my body
you're my delight

The amount of times I've said
love is not worth it
I've just pushed away you, from me
I can't help it,
you're the one
but you're miles away
across the sea

chorus

If I could bring you to me
if I could take you home
if this is all that we will be
at least I have known
what a great man
what a great smile

chorus

ending: oh please, darling
don't turn out the light
I will be waiting
waiting in the darkness
to save you
from the storm in your mind

Thursday, 14 March 2013

We can be strong
I will be here
I will save you from the constant storm in your mind
I still care for you, forever and a day
whenever I'm not there for you
you're in a thoughtful haze
your kindness runs through my veins
and you cut so deep
and I still care for you

you move too fast for me
I keep on running
running after your non existent warmth
you're cold to the touch, you're colder than Winter air
and I still breathe you, I still breathe you in

Chorus: I'm the consumer of us
and we're not sustainable, we're no longer sustainable
the emptiness of being full
we're not satisfied, and we never will be
I awake in tangled covers
to the dull sight of you
and I could never know
I could never show you
how lost you are without me
and how I need to get away
from everything we'll never have

I keep my gaze upon you
your eyes steer close
and we have that moment
that we thought we'd lost

chorus

ending: I'm going to be alright
if you'll never be mine, mine
at least I'm aware now
I can stop seeking for love I will never find

The darkness of light burns on my skin
the sight of you lingers within
and I'm so sad, so sad to see you again
you're hopelessly searching
for something that was never yours
and I'm so sad, so sad to see you again

and I love the way you make me feel, such beauty, such beauty
your way with words, your inadequate needs
I'd take that moment, to dress your skin again
to cover you in love and for you to be once more, mine
mine, tonight

Chorus: deep blue takes over my body
you're no longer next to me
close to you is where I'll never be
oh but I want you, I want you
to know, to be loved, to be cared for
as long as you're here, I might as well show you
what I'm all about

yet not many people understand
until they're in this predicament
and not many people feel such things
until there's something missing
to know, to be loved, to be cared for

I will always be yours somehow
even when I'm no longer around
and I will always be here to say
those words when they're needed

chorus

ending: you leave me breathless
my day is done now
and I'm facing the death of us
and I'm facing the death of us

Your guard is let down
your emotive barrier is open
and your words have got me waiting
and I'm the company which is over
and I leave you quite the sound
those nights where we never left those sheets
the sheets that gave us the world

if I could have one more moment like this
laced in pure beauty, laced in your scent
I'd marinate myself in your kisses one more time
I'd drown a thousand times just to feel your skin

Chorus: I'd right all the wrongs
I'd be better for you, I'd better myself by you
because I know you deserve so much better
I'd take it all back, and it wouldn't take long
and I'd race all the fevers
just to feel the warmth of your breath
your voice echoes in the back of my mind
and I breathe you, I take you in like water
sip on you softly until there's nothing left

remorseful predicaments
I'd have many more just for you
I'd take you back, I'd take you

I'll beg for you,
I'll sacrifice all I have to give
and it won't take long
till you're mine once more, you never were
you never will be

chorus

ending: fast like lightning
love is frightening
and I'm stuck in the mist
I'm laid in the fog, one step closer to you

full of emptiness,
words you said could never be needed more than now
and I can see it on your face
you carry your heart so well
your eyes pierce straight through me
and I can see, I can see, I can see right through

I'm not good enough, not good enough for you
these are the new beginnings, everything we thought we'd ever be
and I know, I know you'll never be
my lover, my leading light in the darkest of rivers

Chorus: you'll be wishing you never found all that stays deep inside of me
and I don't want to hide beneath
in doubt and fear of what could be
and I'd run the furthest away from here
home was never when you were near me

all the shadows that linger over my body
all the want for you
and the need dries out my skin and my bones are left there for your eyes to see
and I want you to know, you'll never be my lover
never be a friend of mine
but these secrets are too late to find
and it's in your mind I wish to hide

chorus

ending: and I'd run
I'd run to you if I could
if I wanted I would be
I would be your leading light

Wednesday, 13 March 2013

Hopelessly, all yours
effortlessly devoted
and to every word that you've outspoken
all this will ever be is what I can't afford
everything I own I give to you
each day I exhaust myself
hopelessly, all yours
effortlessly devoted

to run to you
I'd do it, as fast as I could
I'd make things right
to run to you
I'd do it, as long as it all kept you awake at night

Chorus: do you, ever?
do you, ever think about me?
you're carried in my veins
my heart's rhythm, to the voice of you
and I would like to keep you at peace
with words of silent beauty
letters I was never taught

I carry myself on weak bones
heavy heart, I trust my feet to get home
and I'd save you forever if I could
take this anger away and replace it with something good
sustainable laughter, for you
indestructible disaster, to you

chorus

ending: I manage to stray so close to you
the further I am the nearer you'll be
I manage to change myself for you
and hopelessly, I'm all yours
effortlessly, I'm devoted

I'm aware it's not my place to say
you and I, you and I
we've had much better days

it's colder in your soul than it is to say those words when I depart
you and I, you and I
we've had much brighter days

I'm ploughing through emotions
just to decide what's best for you
I'm hunting down every last outburst of devotion
just to hide inside of you

Chorus: Your eyes, they do me right
they do me well
I can't speak to you with words of wisdom
I might as well show you instead
and I'd wear you off just like a medal
placed upon my sleeve
just to be, just to be
in a place to say
in a safer haven
close to me

to hold your body next to mine
underrated feeling
to have you look into my mind
underrated reeling
and to kiss your lips to tightly
in a moment that's all mine
underrated
you and I, you and I

Thursday, 28 February 2013

These are the tears before bedtime
the constant echo for improvement
and I wish I could do better for you
you deserve so much more
the hunger for fulfilment weeps through you
and I'm the only one left to hold you
the only one who truly cares
the unrequited body

I'm searching for the unknown
and I know it won't make me happy
oh, what I'd give to be satisfied

Chorus: Are you here?
I'd do it all again
and I'm so breathless when you call my name
it's hard to believe that my heart is yours
you've got what you came for, darling
so leave me, someone to love
give me the devotion I've fought for
the battles I've won and lost
the scars I carry linger in the pain I grow

although I left you there sleeping
you know I dare not break this silence
I cut through atmospheres with words of cold depths
and it's knowing what I want
what can I say when you're the one who keeps me breathing?

chorus

ending: I was never good with words
my tongue always twisted at the sight of you
and I hope you knew all along
are you here? I'd do it all over again
give me the devotion I've fought so hard for

Once more it's happening
my need for you is unrequited
all my love for you is simmering by your constant ignorance
you are the salt to my wounds
and I know this all too well
when once again it's happening

I've been waiting for you
to belong, to belong to me
some of my friends say I'm silly to wait
but I know you still own my heart

Chorus: If you go away
I can no longer be free
no longer believe in love anymore
and if you ever were to leave
which darling I hope not
you might as well take the sun away
for darkness would seep into my every pore

it's all because you told me so
and it's all because you let me down
when you walk into the room I no longer
I no longer feel alone

and I will stay with you
the depths of my blood which carry you and I
the vessel of hope which soothes my worried mind

chorus

ending: just for you
I'd give up all I have
for this unrequited love
to be noticed

Tuesday, 26 February 2013

I need to know how it feels
I'm no longer afraid
all I fought for, falls away
and I take you deeper, deeper
into the depths of us

we're constantly in battles
body and mind linger as our intentions disappear
and we're constantly in battle
laid upon sheets of despair
and oh won't you ever feel what I feel?

Chorus: oh and will you ever reveal
just how much tolerance is required
to win you, I am a battle, won and lost
many times I've passed your body
but this love is slender
but not one I by any means regret

I swim through the thick of your veins
I feel the rhythm of your doubts, desired
and it's one of those situations in which I cannot sympathise
I lack devotion I lack the lust I lack the passion in your eyes

I substitute what I can't find
replace it with whatever warmth I can find
and I start again, start again, start again

chorus

ending: you speak for yourself
when you don't want anything more than what this is
and you speak for yourself
when you don't want this

It's a matter of time before you're all here
it's a matter of time before I get there
and the moments between us
cause the need for something more
cause the need for the separation of sanity and expectations

what will it take to get inside your mind
and I'm layered in nights of neverending false hope
and none the less
this is the end which has come too soon

Chorus: every last piece of me
is stretching further reaching evermore
I coat my skin in lost love
and I find myself marinated inside you
and I'm layered in nights of never-ending mess
you're by far the sweetest regret that I taste on my tongue
yet every last piece of me is wanting you
needing you, hoping for the core

I wonder how much warmth comes across
is there enough to carry us?
through rocky seas I'm wishing upon
through buried bodies I want more for the both of us

I won't learn, I won't love
it's far too soon
but you're remorseful
and we unfold into another
tied into unspoken emotions

chorus

ending: I'm stray to you
but I can never imagine the days without you
and it suits best, for you to stay

Monday, 25 February 2013

Is this to you, my greatest skill?
the art of conversation but the lack of sitting still?
and oh I'd hold you in my arms for another day if I could
darling you know that already

and I look to you with such affection
I'm anxious as to how many ways I can find you over again
darling, hold me, hold me and never let me go
hands clasped, I love you so
and no one can take this away from me
I sew my sides up with good intentions
and for your lips to kiss mine
there is no better way for me to live by

Chorus: I have your undivided attention
I have been told and untold
I lack the understanding of your mind
but sweetheart, you know I understand your body
I'm all yours if you're all mine
I'd swim a thousand lies just to get to see your love again

I have to know who you are
what you are
you're my everything, everything to me
you lead a life of fulfillment
I lack the life of pure joy

chorus

ending: and to have you in my arms
and to hold you forever
in this moment it is ours
I'll be the sweet sweet surrender

I don't know what I want
I'm not aware whether it's you, is it you? is it you?

we could go far away
run further from our troubles that keep us at bay
I keep you close, I keep you closer now
I try to understand what you're after
through windows of doubt and devotion
to open arms I run

try me, give it all you have
ty me, give it all you have

Chorus: each time I'm there
I connect with your eyes
but you'll never give a shit about me
but I lust after everything you say
and every single day
I feel a lack of worth
and I can't tell how you feel
and I can't tell what you've given me
but I know it's temporary

I run to you
join me for another night
I'll show you why you're staying
I run to you
you have me, you'll have me

you undress my skin
put my bones at ease
and I know you're good for me
I can sense it in every single way

chorus

ending: all my thoughts trail away
an essence of beauty lingers with your scent
and your unintentional plan of chaos
has us basking in all we have

I know our love has gone stale
we've been in Winter for far too long
please don't give up on me yet
I will try my best to please you
and I won't let you through my hell when you're sober
I won't let you down through bitter words
I promise I'll stay with you in the open

I will try I will try to fix you
and when you lay your body down at night
who's the one, who's the one who makes you feel so right?
is it me, is it me, is it me?
and as you bury your worries into the night
you sleep so soft with lips so rough
and as you lay your body down at night
I'm the one who's by your side
why's there a need to be second guessing

Chorus: And who would have thought
that I am the one who makes you who makes you who makes you
and who would have guessed
that the moments we spend together
are the best are the best, are the best
you do me so good
I do you so well
you're never wanting more, you're never wanting more
and oh what a dream to be in your arms tonight

I don't want to miss your voice, anymore
anymore than I already do
cluelessly pacing around the seafront
watching the tides, watching you get pulled away from me
no matter how hard I try to restrain my love
it's too much, it's too much for you

chorus

ending: and who would have guessed?
the moments I lay my head on your chest
are the best, are the best
you are the best thing, for me

Sunday, 24 February 2013

I'll reach a bit further
you were definitely still, still and beautiful
and the end has come too soon
and it's a peculiar stance
I'll reach a bit further

I will do all the things I said I would
I'd apologise in your fault
I'd make better wounds that aren't to heal
I'll grow behind hands that are clever
and I'll remember this, but only if
but only if

Chorus: You can say we tried
you can promise you'll do better
you can reach a bit further
open arms open heart closed mind
and remember the old memories
buried bodies in the sand
and you can say we tried
but promise me, darling
promise you'll do better

I watch you decay
behind hands that are clever
you're still recalling, I am the beckoner
I wonder how much I can take of it
I wonder how much I can reach further

and if by any chance
you ever feel recovered
please spend a little time with me
you are my true love, my darling light
my body afloat in dangerous seas

chorus

ending: I wonder how much
I wonder how much
I could reach, I could reach much further

Will you ever, will you ever
want me as much as I need you
I realise that I'm just a sight for sore eyes
but I could leave it all behind
I could take you with me
pack you tightly with the things I thought I wanted

you're a ship in many dreams
casting off previous lovers who were good enough
I'll make myself better
I'll cure all that is psychological

Chorus: you're my renegade
your movement so delicate yet so fast
a painting of pure beauty
and I blame you, I blame you
for this tide of emotion
the gravitational force crushing my bones
tapping my skin black and blue
and these are the secrets that I should have shared
to remind you

don't feel guilty
it's what you wanted
and I'm chained down
I'm tied down
I'm piercing my soul with the glass
my veins carry you
my veins guide you

chorus

ending: and I tremble
I should have opened up a long time ago
and I'm drowning in my own body
a mass in which I never owned

I will scar myself
I will show myself
I will prove to you
I will cut this thick skin
I will show myself
how cruel I can be
how much pain I can take to be closer

I'll unpack myself for your ease
and you know how all my emotions
the need for change is so desirable now
and I was wearing my doubts
you're the best thing
the only one who wants me to change

Chorus: I'm wondering, I'm hoping
how long will it take
how cruel can you be
how much blood can I bleed?
just to feel better
I'm wondering, I'm hoping
how long will it take
to feel anything other than constant guilt

Could we ever be infinite?
false hope lies between our tongues
we intertwine fingers, the spaces already dividing us
and don't you think, don't you let me down

holding out for something more than this
and don't you think, don't you let me down
people are the hardest things
untold lust and luring for another
and we can never compromise
for what we have has disintegrated
all that's left is my heart stood upon my ashes

Chorus: from the start of it all
I told you I never wanted anything from you
only your devotion, only your devotion
and could it be that we are everlasting?
the constant beat in my vein is for you and only you
and could it be that we are everlasting?
we make and we break
we forget, we forget

remember as many times as you can
how many times do I regret?
those forced words that leave nothing but submission
surrendering to my voice
a whisper that leaves your soul in many depths

chorus

ending: and we're looping around each other
wrapped tightly in each other's palms
and how many times have you yet to regret?
I submit, I submit
and oh don't you think
that people are the strangest things?
and could it be that we are everlasting?

Our lips meet one another
and this is the strangest thing
the most desirable of desires
and we're yet to recognise
and we're yet to let each other go

I caress your dreams
they crawl across my floor
and I rescue them all
with words of purity and words of hope

Chorus: your voice in my wishes
I want you to see this
I want you to feel this
I stand close in awe, by you
yet to you this love is invisible, invisible
won't you press your lips harder?
won't you move your body close to mine?
won't you press your lips harder?
won't you move your body close to mine?

I cease to exist, in your eyes
although I've left nothing behind
only words I thought I wanted

those heavy hearted nights
where the hours never seemed to pass
and with your lips to my lips
this love seems to exist

chorus

ending: won't you press your lips harder?
won't you move your body next to me
I rescue you with words of purity
words of hope, words of us
a purpose of belonging

Saturday, 23 February 2013

Oh I'd do it all again
self inflicted searches for something I had never lost
and anything to make myself happy

and oh I'd do anything for you to be here
and I'm searching for you, for something I had never lost
and anything to make myself happy

and I did it all again
I broke my own skin
you wear my heart so proudly
and it's hard to believe that I'm all yours
with every worry an open door
you've got everything you came for

Chorus: and give me, someone to love
I'll outrun all of yourself
I'll eventually catch up with your light
travel with me through dark days
and I'd do it all again
just for you, my love, my darling

to break my skin, with only sharp words
a skill I have always appreciated
and so give me yourself
I've been looking for your skin for many miles now
to kiss every inch, I won't let my lips get tired
I won't exhaust myself, not in front of you

chorus

ending: so give me all
or give me nothing
give me you
and that will be something

I long to be the girl you want
I long to be the girl you need
and I crave to better myself
by better, to be with you

I'm constantly craving improvement
slow progress leaks from my core
I've given up too many times now
I've chased after your body for eternity

and I'm on my own
in this neverending world
and I'll wait until I'm new to you
until you ignore everyone else
and when we're alone, you're still yet to lay your eyes upon mine
and show me where I'm going wrong
when will I be enough for your hungry heart?

Chorus: And this is regressive
I'd give my time and my patience
to clear all my worries
and we're alone now
but you're yet to cease oblivion
and we're all alone now
so show me where I fit
lay me down on covers of adequacy

I can't recall a time I saw my own reflection
hideous, I fear what your mind follows
and what have I done to us?
darling, when will I be enough?

chorus

ending: please,
tell me where I went wrong
to better myself
I'd give all I have

I think I know what's going on
what's on your mind
I've realised, I'm not adequate enough for you
I speak little words
your actions become a big divide

I'm waiting in the darkness of your mind
a small reminder

Chorus: even though you're the only one I feel
the only pain that's real to my cold heart
and this is the slowest love I've given
the weight of the world hangs heavy upon my sleeve
next to you, in dirty sheets I lie
take all that I have, take all that is mine
keep all this slow love
keep all that you're draining from me

don't take it back
all those unspoken words
those drunken movements
they meant everything to me
they were what you really wanted

chorus

ending: I'd give you the world
I'd give you all my time
and even though this is the only pain that my cold heart feels
it's enough for the two of us
it's adequate

How long will it take
for my second guessing to disappear
for our encounter, our encounter is yet to be made

I'm no replacement for emptiness
I can't fill the space that's grown between us, between us
I lace my hands in memories
I walk past you as if you were in a dream
and I'm all alone again now

Chorus: to be in that moment once more
close to you, closer to you
two tides pull our bodies apart
but you'll still be in my heart
and my word I gave you that day
those words I laid down, carved into you
to be in that moment once more
close to you, closer to you

I waste my time in sighs
I shrivel I shiver for you
coldness sinks into my bones
and the feeling that I lost is now home
in the darkness, in the covers
I find, I find you

and if it leaves my soul with the brightest burn
I promise you it never hurt
just a reminder, it's just a reminder of my minds victory

chorus

ending: and if I leave the covers
will you return, my lover?
to be closer, to be closer to you

Swimming in your veins
you echo in my mind
and you are the only one
who makes me feel this way

I cherish you so much
and when you call when my call my name
I grow weaker, I grow weaker
just to be strong again, with you

Chorus: This feeling of certainty
knowing that this could be
makes it worth the wait, worth the wait
for you
this knowing that this could be great
knowing that this could be
makes it worth the wait, worth the wait
for you

and I'm perfecting the whispers in my head
tuning them so they crawl with us in bed
and I'm aware that I have yet to make you love me
I have yet to make you want me

but how can I compete?
with all your high standards
will you let me down, will you let them down
just for me tonight?

chorus

ending: and the wise man once said
don't let the voices in your head
decide what you want decide what you need
to feel loved at least

Friday, 22 February 2013

I grab onto you as fast I can
I hold you in personal proximity and as tight as I can
and you'll be the tears before bedtime
the consistent shadow lurking closely
you'll be the sweet taste my demons crave for

I won't let my dreams take you away from me
whatever we have now can't be broken
we're weaker than we'll ever be
prophecy of what could last
and what was it you were talking about?

Chorus:I was falling down, and by your body
you were following my only light
and I'm taken by the night
your swaying silhouette
I wouldn't stop running after you
I wouldn't even stop for the bitter air
I couldn't hold back from you
I couldn't even stop my eyes that linger and stare

fragments of beauty
I couldn't be any happier
in all that is pretense
submission from me to you
I lay my bones down next to you
your warmth marinating all hope that's on my sleeve
your kisses of truth pressed against my heart now

chorus

ending: and you're in my eye of desire
you're always in moderation
hunger from my heart
and I'm trying to keep you at bay
but with everything that has yet to go wrong
I'm yet to work out why
your swaying silhouette
you calm my worries and sleep so softly next to me

Delicacy, tied into the chains of us
our hearts weight the reason for trust
and it's a shame you'll never let me in

I open up to you
budding flowers in the spring, like I always do
I grow for you

Chorus: I clasp onto you with cold hands
my heavy heart beats faster now
and it's a shame you'll never open up
like I do, like I do
like I do, like I do
for you to you
like I do, like I do
I open, I open up for you

fragile frame that you carry
weighted down by constant doubts
and I'll never keep you second guessing
I'll keep you safe in honesty
I promise I won't let you down
not intentionally anyway

I open up to you
budding flowers in the spring like I always do
I grow for you
I grow into you, now

chorus

ending: with every touch
I deliver faith and it's restored in a thousand ways
from your lips to mine I know you'll stay, closer
with every touch I feel your warmth
buried by the taste of you
and it's delicacy, fragile
in the depths of us

Thursday, 21 February 2013

I lack the patience, to keep on waiting for you
I hear the echo of the words you'll never say
they swim around in my mind
and my love for you rocks boats in my veins
and I lack the patience to ever stay
to hear those words that are owed from for ever
forever ago

I'd give a thousand lives just to be next to you
the closer to you I run the further your lips lingers
and I'm wading through water to find your body
light handed, heavy hearted
I can't keep waiting

Chorus: and don't be your worst enemy
I'm only trying to help you
I'd never hurt you
I can't keep waiting, holding onto thin thread
so come with me, darling
I've got to stick by this, I've got to stick by you
and don't you worry
it'll just be me and you

and with your presence I keep my eyes down
my body sways and swings all for you
the depths of this situations are far gone now
and I can't keep on waiting for you
I hear the echo of the words you'll never say

chorus

ending: I won't wait forever
but the constant need for your lips
the craving for your skin
and I can't wait forever
but I need to stick by this
stick by you

Monday, 18 February 2013

My body's looking for soul,
looking for soul
hungry for somewhere to call
somewhere I feel home

and with you I let my armor fall to the ground
with my heart upon my sleeve
I'm wearing your scent proud

and you turned into the man
that I wanted to love
my body's looking for soul
looking for home

Chorus: I need to let this go
all this love I have to give
have to give to you
you hold your hands palms up, ready
ready to hold me with all that you have
I need to let this go
all this love I have to give
to find somewhere that's home
my body is looking for soul
looking for home
and I've finally found you

my skin crawls at the realisation that I'm no longer alone
and next to you, I'm forever yours
in your presence I'm soaked in such affection
I marinate myself in you
your veins become my hearts beckon

chorus

ending: my body was looking for soul
two hands I could hold
all this love I have to give
is yours to own

Tuesday, 12 February 2013

Your lips are the best way to fill this void
evergrowing, everlasting
the need for you

your voice caresses my skin
as if petals fall in preparation for spring
and it's ever growing, everlasting
the need for you

Chorus: And when I'm by your side
I'm no longer, no longer lonely
and it won't be long until you realise
everything is in its right place
undeniable love crosses the palette of my mind
and I speak of art
I speak of you, pure beauty

after all that we've been through
your lips are the perfect heat for my icy words
and every night I melt, melt, melt into your body

and be careful what you say next
don't let your mind defeat this scene of tranquility
and what you've needed to say for months
I note it down
paper as my skin, you the writer
creation in the form of disaster
illusions of purity, stretching further

chorus

ending: after everything
your lips are the best thing
you are the best thing
to fill this evergrowing, everlasting, void

The day after us
I've been counting down all of your moments at best
I lost patience when I found myself lost inside of you
and like a constant crash
I freefall down to you
and it's a different vision
you give and give to me
nothing more than needed love

Each time our skin collides, I ask myself
I question my doubts
and am I good enough?
for your hands to hold?
for you to be mine and mine only

Chorus: To be yours and yours truly
will I ever love you enough?
am I loving you enough?
brushed into the corners of your eyes
you lack the decency to compromise
and it's dignified, all this combustion of emotion
all this twisted elegance sewn into your kisses
the ever so consistent need and craving to be on your mind
to feel anything and everything, at all
for you, now
falling, now

the day after us
the lingering scent of hope for second best
trapped inside the heated creases on your bed
I watch you lay awake
rewinding scripts that you'll never forget

Monday, 11 February 2013

All my silver dreams
bring me to you
you hold me delicately and whisper sweet sounds that let me thrive
and I'll always walk to you at 3 am
it's the only time I'm not second guessing

I'm constantly thinking what I'd give
to have one more day of sunshine
to have one more day with you

Chorus: I rub my sight and you're no longer gone
I'm hidden in the corners of you
in the creases of this heated sheet
I awake in silky skin
your body over mine
and I'm constantly thinking what I'd give
to have one more day of sunshine
to have one more day of you

and every night I ask myself
am I giving you enough?
am I giving you everything that you need from me?
am I someone you need?

you'll never know how much it takes
you've yet to feel all of my love
and I'll pray, knees down
I'll do, I'll do, for you anything
I'll speak piercing lies and breathe through toxic lives
just to be enough
just to be enough for you

chorus

ending: And I'm in constant doubt
always second guessing
and oh what I'd give
to have one more day of sunshine
to have one more day with you

Sunday, 10 February 2013

I scratch my eyes
and you're still laying next to me
and we were so close and warm in this moment
flowers surround our bodies
and I could never forget

I can't talk, the water is rising
I'm drowning in your words now
there's not enough time in the darkness
to show you who I really desire to be

Chorus: all I have to show
is nothing I'll ever be able to prove
and I'm drowning in your words
in my mind I'll always be with you
but when you're here I never care
and in my mind I'll always be near you
but when you're close I don't care
I just need your body next to mine

it's been a while since you turned me on
imagination streams through past encounters that are long gone
and I'm fondling any last chance we have
and I'm falling so much faster
so much faster than you and I could ever climb

I scratch my eyes
and you're still laying close to me
we're so close but so distant
infinity is as near as it is miles far
I'm drowning in your words now
and I could never forget

chorus

ending: it's been a while since you turned me on
imagination is collaborated with thoughts burning strong
and it's your body I truly desire
it's your mind that keeps me afloat

Every night I ask myself
am I giving you enough?
am I giving myself up?
I often lie awake this way
marinated in lies and constant shame
and it's all
for you

you don't even know it yet
you don't even want me yet
and I doubt you ever will long after my body
as much as I long after yours

Chorus: I work so hard, ever so hard
just to be in your vision
and it's hard when I'm just an illusion
I crash so hard in front of you
and I trigger a deep fall for your eyes
and you gave and gave until you gave me up

every time I feel this way
I never know how much
I never felt this common love
and I've prayed so hard for now

chorus

you do what you want to
and your worries sail slowly behind your shadow
I linger under your wing
and every night I ask myself

chorus

ending: am I giving you up?
am I loving you enough?
am I giving, giving all I can give to you?

Wednesday, 6 February 2013

Hold ever so still
in your state of pure beauty
a delicate silky sight for my eyes
and here we go again
we'll carry on as friends

define us to me
and I'll take control
I'll take your trust
without compromise
to be next to you it's a must
there's not anything left
to drag down in the river with my body

Chorus: I'm inflicted by pangs of desirable doubts
and as if you should ever be worried
just one look at you and I know where I need to be
this is the forefront of our ever growing situation
your pace is subtle
your steps remain heavy
despair with the ground
you walk all over my body

and this makes it easier
knowing it won't ever be the same
I've seen that look in your eyes
you've already forgotten my name
I crawl into you
I confide in your touch
and this makes it easier
in some form
to be nothing
to be nothing to you

chorus

ending: and it's in our plans
I'm ever so sorry for the delay
ever so sorry not sorry to have treated you this way
now you feel the stable stabbing of this lust
you remain effortlessly fragile
steadily moving forwards
looking for disaster

What do you mean, you're never coming back?
I let you go a thousand times in my mind but never spoke such words of undesirable beauty
my mind's left intoxicated by drinking a glass of you
I echo your name late at night and you're forever held up in your minds own traffic
and you're never around for it
this constant battle
of my heart for yours

whatever it is and however bad you want it
your body stops the movement
prevents you from grasping onto the light that's being offered on this occasion
and I don't understand
I'm completely unaware
I try so hard for you
I lie so hard for you
and it's this constant battle
my heart for yours

Chorus: It never goes right
but it goes on and on
craving some consistency
with your warm body by my side
is this all that we could ever be?
and you wouldn't ever know or care
I've been in the dark so long
and you're the fading light
standing bare in front of me

I know I should have let you go
but I could never ever let you know
take it back all those false words
the lack of opportunity lingers on my skin
and the scent of tomorrow tastes like you

chorus

ending: and this is the southern point
where you and I no longer unite
the departure is due
and we're still stood side by side
tearing flesh to be close to another
for just one moment more