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As humans, we arrive in our experience believing we are separate from our Source and from each other. Some remember in an instant and are fully immersed in a sustained Truth that is unshakeable. For the remainder of us on the path of awakening, remembering our True State comes to us in stages.

The first stage is an undoing of the illusory constructs of our personal identity. This is where an internal shift begins and will not be stopped until our egos are completely undone. Once you step beyond the small self, you can never fully return to it.

Then, in the second stage, you are caught in the uncertainty of not knowing what is real and what is not. This can last for weeks, years, decades or sometimes a lifetime. Give yourself compassion if this is where you are. This is the most painful part of Remembering. I have lived it. It almost broke me apart into a million pieces. Looking back I understand breaking down to near extinction was the point. My identity had to be stripped away to nothing so I could experience Truth.

I am now entering the third phase of Remembering. I am still a small self but I am no longer afraid of Truth. Each day I am more and more willing to turn inward to the astounding Beauty within me. I have less fear. I have more peace. The small self is healing in ways big and small.

When I am immersed in this Peace, I know Love like the back of my hand. It holds me, it heals me, it sets me free.

I have only begun the real work of Awakening. My purpose is to keep Remembering as much as I am able and share this Knowing with anyone who is ready to listen.

As a self in this unpredictable world the suffering experienced by this mind was intense. The combination of enduring great loss, experiencing constant uncertainty and never quite belonging, broke this mind through the illusory nature of life.

For many months and years, this mind has been in a vice-grip of contradiction. Stuck in-between, believing in the world and at other times peacefully transcending it.

This mind lives two separate experiences.

I am gradually starting to prefer my Freedom-state. You might imagine this is the easy choice. For some it is. It is sudden, whole and permanent. This mind’s process is slower, but seems to be picking up momentum.

If you have started on the path and it hurts, I understand. We may never reach full realization, but even the tiniest glow of Truth is worth it.

You may still suffer, as I do, but it begins to matter less because Beauty grows louder with each breath. Until it becomes so loud it is all our souls can hear.

In the middle of the night, the quiet that settles over us is meant to inspire us. It is meant to Love us back to Truth.

The body awakens and the mind races unsure why sleep escapes us. Logic seems to work in our favor. It appears to be the route we must travel for peace. It tries to work through our problems and understand the source of our wakefulness.

But it does not help.

Logic cannot comfort in the dark. It can only dance us away from what is Whole and True within us.

Before you believe everything you think, breathe into where your words meet your mind.

At this crux, if only a sliver of light escapes its way Home, follow it with everything you are.

There, beyond, is the garden full of sparkling blooms waiting for you to gather them up in your empty arms.