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Sunday, November 6, 2011

So many girls I know are having babies and posting their pictures and videos, and birthing stories and I cry and cry and cry every time. No matter how beautiful or not so beautiful the baby is... as soon as i see pictures of that mom holding her baby for the first time the waterworks start. Then I look over and realize that my husband is balling right next to me! haha. There is no way to describe the feeling of holding your baby for the first time. That suspension of time and space when your heart opens a thousand times wider and all at once you feel more emotion than you ever dreamed that your human body ever could. For a few days the world stands still and you can't imagine that other people's lives just went on like normal. Im addicted. I know God knows the perfect timing for baby number 2, but every day that Marley grows older my anticipation and urgency grows. So this month I'm challenging myself to trust that God knows what's best for my family and at the end of the day... I am just so unbelievably grateful that he gave me one gorgeous perfect daughter.