i think im losing it. ive had problems with depression for years on and off. the last year or so has been the worst. blah blah blah.

tonight i was at my girlfriends house and it is our 1 year anniversary and she was ignoring me so i just layed down and faced the wall. a few minutes later i curled up into a ball and started shacking and crying. im still shaking and feel like cry. strange thing is i havent cried for months.

so my girlfriend noticed i was shaking and kind of asked me what is wrong and i didnt really say much but let out a little noice and she turned me over so i was facing her and i curled up into a ball and sqeezed her leg really tight and she went back to reading her magazine. i was shaking really bad and stuff and she never asked me if i was ok or anything. then she said that i need to go home. so i drove around for awhile and things go no better and here i am now.

my girlfriend has had problems with depression and she went to a mental inst. because her mom thought she was going o to kil herself, and she used to be really understanding of my problems and now she doesnt even care.

I'm sorry, that's hard. I think you should try to open up to your girlfriend. She may be annoyed because she doesn't know how you are feeling and you won't tell her.Are you on any treatment for the depression, pearldrummer?

me and girlfriend work together, and she told me she hates working with me and that is the main reason she is being a bitch to me. so told me that about five mintues ago. ahhhh if something doesnt change very soon im going to end up giving into my depression again. i finally found a place where everyone likes me and i do a good job and now i have to leave. it is like my home.

my suggestion is breaking up with her. I know that will be hard, but from what I'm hearing you two will end up breaking up eventually. She doesn't respect or care about you to try and see what's wrong or treat you the way you deserve and need to be treated. Don't give into the depression. It's going to be hard fighting it and you might end up really depressed but you'll live through it. You already have.

thanks raven. im going to talk to her tonight and tell her if things dont change it is over. it wouldnt be so hard to break up with her if her family so nice to me. they treat me like im part of their family.