This is all to say that you have your heart that beats, and the sound it makes is steady and true, and then you have this maniac in your head who wants you to believe the sky is about to fall. What I want to tell you is, I am listening to you in a new way, you silly maniac, and you are finally starting to bore me.

If your body is all jacked up because of caffeine, because of sugar, because of food allergies or sensitivities it’s really hard to focus. You’re like a camera with a blurry lens. It’s hard to even know what you really feel or think when your guts are telling you something is wrong.

If I get my original birth certificate, I would finally be real. This is too much to take in at the moment. What would I do as a real person on the planet? What if my name were part of my biological family’s lineage? Of the real history of real life?

I drove over the Golden Gate Bridge yesterday by mistake. It cost me $5 and about thirty minutes extra road time, but it was worth it. I had been on the phone and missed an exit and the next thing I knew I was between two places, suspended over water by a gorgeous stretch of planning and hard labor.

The movements are generally tiny. Imagine yourself lying on the floor, moving your head one inch to the right and to the left. Do you think you can do that? Then welcome to Feldenkrais, where movements help rewire your brain, your nervous system, your body, your sense of self in the world.