Monday, April 20, 2015

I belong to time
I guess we all do
depends on what we do with it~
I've never been so aware of time before
I guess I've been rushing faster than I thought
When you slow down to time you totally belong to it
I just have to choose wisely for my peace of mind
on what I do with it~
Is it my enemy or friend?, please be kind
Sometimes both
but I so belong to time~~~~~~~

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Today I belong to the tears
the sadness of the loss of Lars and my fears
it's hard to grab hold of my life
when I'm depending on others
I know how I feel
I belong to the truth that's it's only me
but sometimes it hits hard and it's just hard to be~

About Me

I am the mysterious Gypsy Traveler

This is my healing journey through grief, after loosing the love of my life June 2014....

to read from the beginning start from June, 2015.

I know I'm not alone on this journey, but sometimes it just doesn't feel like that. Sometimes the grief takes over and I ask myself everyday "Where do I belong?"

This is my story, it's for myself, but I have chosen to share this and if it helps or touches anyone then that's a very good thing.

I'm sure most people ask themselves this question sometime in their lives.

I am conflicted with living two lives, I am from Utah, but spent the last 18 years in Idaho, feeling like I belonged some where, now knowing that my life turned upside down and will never be the same.

For now I don't have to decide where I belong?, no one is making me decide? Why am I? I am just trying to belong to wherever I am and have that be my home. Sounds good on paper, but can't quite seem to do it, my heart is torn in half.

I belong to myself, I belong to the wind, I belong to my friends and back again. I belong to the day that engulfs me with sun. I belong to the universe on a path to reinvent myself and have fun.....

Continued on the next pages are my journal entries from April 2015 and up to the now and I will continue my journey forward to see if it's possible to answer my question~~or not?