I knew this cycle would be emotional, in actual fact they all have! Using donor eggs and sperm you think your chances are that much higher, however it all comes down to the grading of them and how they take which is completely out of your hands.

Today I had my transfer and 2 little embies are on board now, I guess they use 2 because they aren't quite top notch quality and one of the highest graded embryos (10) was showing signs of some fragmentation and the other isn't quite as high graded.

It's all in the lap of the gods now and if the other remaining embryos (3) don't reach a high enough grade then they won't be allowed to be frozen so I feel it puts a lot of pressure on the ones I've got to take.

Nothing can take away that feeling of wanting to be a mum but how you come to terms with not being able to be one, I don't know.

It's an incredibly emotional journey and you have to be such a strong person to get through. You are doing so well and now it's time to try and relax and think positive. Hoping your 2ww goes well and I'll be keeping my fingers crossed you get your positive xxx

Thank you - I've been on the 2ww before (3x with my previous tries) so I know how hard it is and each time it's been the same! The trouble is your trying to look for signs of feeling different as you think you should be feeling them but probably it's too early just yet! Knowing what to do with my time is also hard I think! x

I'm on my 2nd week which is taking forever to get through! Dreading test date though. My tummy has been rather bloated and I've had a few tummy twinges, my period hasn't come (yet) though so that may be a good sign, however the medication can have an affect on that.