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Hello there! Please excuse me, I am new to this website. Hello to anyone (if anyone is) that may be reading this. I have always been a really anxious, jumpy panicky person. The worst part for me is that I feel like I have no real reason for feeling like this! Within the last, let's say about 6-9 months, I've been feeling this pressure push down on me more than ever, and I gave in. My mom made me go to the doctors due to my constant tearing, stress, anger and anxiousness. The doctor gave me some forms to fill in, to while I answer both with pretty high scores. However she diagnosed me with GAD- Generalised Anxiety Disorder. On the outside, I'm fine. I eat enough, have a nice home with loving parents and family... but on the inside I feel completely different. I feel like an empty shell, worthless, and pathetic for feeling so nearby all the time. Confident people just take the mick out of me constantly, they don't understand how I feel or why I'm like the way I am. In general I'm a pretty shy and reclusive person until you've earned my trust.
My best friend, "N" was also diagnosed with GAD and Clinical depression a few months prior to me. I love talking to her, she understands how I feel. She has a mood chart which I use too- "great, good, okay, okayish, bad." It's a good way to sum up simply how I feel. So that's enough for one night! I'll try my best to keep updating if people read this.... Stay strong everyone! Kim xxxxxxxxx

hi Anne I am just wondering if have you heard of a Therapy called Mindfulness? because I think the Mindfulness Therapy is good for depression and controlling anxiety. I think you should read about the Mindfulness Therapy on the internet because the Therapy could help you to control your anxiety.. me personally use the Mindfulness Therapy to help control my thoughts and feelings of my depression.

Hi, I'm another newbie here, but just want to say hello to everyone out there who, like me, suffers from anxiety ! I'm now in my 50's, and don't remember a time when I wasn't worrying about something...anything...things that hadn't happened...things that might never happen...you name it, I'll worry about it. Have been on anti-depressants and diazepam since I was 19 and although I've had a few good spells in my life when I was reasonably happy, the anxiety just NEVER goes away. The medics tell me that I've now been on every 'class' of antidepressant drug there is, and I feel they've given up and don't care any more, which leaves me with one big horrible question - IS THIS THE BEST MY LIFE CAN BE? I have a lovely partner, an adult son who, sadly, also suffers from the same condition, but I don't feel that I'm living - simply existing from day to day. I honestly believe that if you haven't experienced feelings of depression and anxiety, you can never truly understand, and I include medics in that statement. It's only when you talk to someone, and they say something that you immediately recognise, that you know they are a fellow sufferer. This is a horrible, crippling illness, which is sadly still often misunderstood, but we live in hope that together we can change peoples' perceptions of illnesses like depression, so that people don't have to feel fear or shame to say they are a sufferer. Anyway, some of you guys seem to be doing really well - a lot better than me, so maybe this will help. If anybody has anything positive to say about CBT, please let me know, as I've had it in the past, and feel it's a waste of time, but may be wrong??
Have the best weekend you can, and take care
Anne x

hi Kim I am also new to this website so Welcome, I really know how you feel because I feel tense when I go out. I keep thinking something bad is going to happen, like accidents or death. but I have just discovered I must try to face my fear of going out, because if I don't do this then I wouldn't never be able to go out to see people. believe me this is really really difficult for me to do!!! because I am really depressed as well due to having a Disability, which it means I can't walk or talk but I use a communication aid to talk with. I feel like an empty shell too, meaning you aren't alone!

Hi - well done for blogging - it's really brave and the more you talk about your anxiety the easier it will get to manage! Never feel pathetic for having anxiety. You don't need to judge your circumstances and possible reasons for anxiety with other people's lives, mental health isn't as logical as that unfortunately! The reason I find my anxiety so scary sometimes is because there doesn't appear to be any earthly reason for it - but that's why it's an illness! It sounds to me like you're doing a great job in tackling your feelings - good on you!