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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Again on the timing...

Over the last few weeks (19 days) I have had a lot of time to just think.

About what? Well, pretty much everything and anything. When you sit in a hospital ward, and there is not much that you can do, you tend to just think...

So, what exactly have I been thinking about? Timing...why we go through situations like these in life. What is the reason, and a whole lot of WHY ME? in the beginning.

I have been able to get over that question and what has taken over is just how great the timing has been in my life.

We have made various decisions in the past 6-8 months and we haven't quite known why we were making them, but now we do...

Like, putting the kids in school. Both mine and Pete's hearts were totally settled about that change. We were ok with them going to the schools that we chose, we really felt like it was going to be the right decision. Now, having Faith and wanting to be at the hospital as much as possible, we are so thankful that we listened to that little nudging...this would be a lot harder to go through if we had to worry about where the kids were and what they were doing, and besides, who would really want to watch someone elses kids all day...when theirs were most likely in school? So we are thankful for that choice and the timing of it...

Then there was heading up the Sunday school. This was something that I had done for over 9 years, I enjoyed doing it and figuring it all out, even though sometimes I wondered why I bothered going through all the trouble that resulted sometimes. It was a great growing experience for me, and this year, just out of the blue...around the same time we decided that the kids were going to go to school, I felt in my heart that I just wasn't to be in that position anymore. I was ok with this idea, where in the past I would have just ignored that nudging and would have just continued on. I was able to comfortable leave that position and not have that on my plate at this time. I didn't know exactly why at the moment, but I listened...Now, if I had still been doing Sunday school 'stuff', I know that I am the type of person who would be sitting at Faith's bedside knowing that I had to do a schedule, or the curriculum, or whatever else. I would have been at the internet in the library emailing people to make sure they remembered it was their week...So, we are thankful for the choice and timing of this decision...

Then we sold our house. We were not originally planning on selling, but I found this house that I just fell in love with. It took a long time to sell our old place, but as I wrote in the Timing post, things just worked out right. This was meant to be. If we had not sold our house and were moving a this very time, we would have to worry more about Pete not working. With the money that we had left over from the house, we are comfortable and can handle the bills and life as well. We also are debt free now, except the mortgage of course, but we were able to pay off every single bill we had. That is one huge worry that is not on our plate anymore. So, even though we weren't here for our move, we are able to not worry about life in general. I am glad that we listened again, to that little nudging...

The other thing about moving and selling our house was we were able to see jsut how blessed our family really is...there were between 20 and 30 people each day to help with our move...they came from church, from Pete's work, even community people helped out. Everyone came together and helped out...People even came to help pack and clean what was left in the house, and it wasn't just family, a friend even made a meal for the people who were helping with the move. We were able to be there for Faith without worrying about a thing. We had some friends and family who came back after the move to help get things settled and working in the new place. We were able to come home to a house and not just a 'storage unit' with boxes that had to be unpacked...I am so thankful for the blessings that we received with the move, like I said, we are truly blessed and going through this situation has just shown us even more...

I could go on and on about the timing...there is more, but this is getting long and we need to start heading out to visit Faith today. I just wanted to encourage anyone who may be going through a hard or difficult time...there are reasons for everything. We may not know what the reason is right now, but there really is one. We may question things, and that is ok, just remember not to dwell on them...I am seeing that there are already so many positive things that have come out of our time right now, and as hard as that was to see in the beginning, I am seeing it more and more now...

Isn't it amazing how things work out? And wow! What a fantastic show of support from the people who love you. I think you're a pretty wonderful person to be able to say, though all that is happening, "I've got it pretty good." And you do. You are blessed. I have to belief that God will continue to bless you and your family, including Faith. I hope she can come home soon.

Hey, ruth thanks for blogging on newly updates with your angel, Faith. Being in Ottawa, is hard to keep in contact with church members as I only speak with my mother and she only knows so much. So, you blogging and posting the link through facebook gives me the opportunity to keep in contact with what's going on in your life, without being there in person. Thank you and my family and I continue to pray for you.