Never thought I'd end up here again, at least not in need of help.. But this is my last resort. I have no one left to turn to... I'm very very scared and I don't know what I'm doing anymore.

After crying and debating for about three hours now, I want to do it. I've tried talking to people but no one can help me....

I've collected so many bad habits that it's only a matter of time before they get out of hand and I'm dead anyway.. So what's the point???

I feel so unloved.. So unwanted.. I need that love in my life to make me feel like I have a purpose. Right now I feel useless. And don't get me started on how much I hate myself...

I've been fighting this battle for 8years now... They all say it's going to get better, but I see no light at the end of this dark tunnel... It doesn't even look like a tunnel anymore. It's more of a abyss.. I'm trapped with no way out...

Except one way.

I guess I'm posting here as a last resort... A last cry for help... I feel like this is the only way I'll ever finally be happy: dead.

I'm so sorry you're struggling, ((Rachel)). I am just starting to see a tiny glimmer of hope shining through my own darkness, so I won't pretend to have all the answers. Just know that you are among friends here, and I am one of them. For what it's worth, I care, and I believe that there is hope, even if it's impossible to see right now. Sending hugs and friendship...T :console: