… I find it difficult not to take a camera with me on a trip. It is like an addiction, a dependency. Just the thought of discovering an amazing image subject without having a camera on me makes me nervous. But I find waiting for a subject to captivate me, without actively looking for one, very hard. The searching gaze remains as long as the camera is at hand. Perhaps I should attempt an experiment and leave the camera at home. However, I would also have to ask my travelling companions to do the same…

Photographer blues – Entries in travel diary of a photographer in 3 parts

… I find it difficult not to take a camera with me on a trip. It is like an addiction, a dependency. Just the thought of discovering an amazing image subject without having a camera on me makes me nervous. But I find waiting for a subject to captivate me, without actively looking for one, very hard. The searching gaze remains as long as the camera is at hand. Perhaps I should attempt an experiment and leave the camera at home. However, I would also have to ask my travelling companions to do the same…

… I think travelling without a camera would be very interesting. I would only experience new things and that would make me talk about them instead of capturing them …

… my pulse is rising, I feel as if I am capturing better images. More aggressive. Photography is becoming meditation …

… I am sure that every travel photographer or photo journalist has wished they had a camouflage, a disguise, independent of their moral compass, in order to be able to capture the image of a lifetime unnoticed.

… Piano music, children are crying. It is night and the blossoms fall onto the bare concrete ground of the roof terrace. Just a hint of wind. A waxing moon. The crescent is horizontal is the shape of a bowl. The child in the cradle is growing …

… this emotional rollercoaster is another argument to pay attention to the photos and an extensive break from photography …

… the camera has barely been stored away and it is time again to write …

… the limits of my photographic possibilities. To this day, I can only photograph what I see …

… sometimes images need to be remembered in spirit. One the hand, because not every image can be captured and on the other hand, because it is the best place for saving images. Some of these images will indeed be caught on camera, but this is beside the point. Your spirit and mind works on the images saved within, perfecting them like an artist that reworks a creation over and over again …