Sunday, February 9, 2014

GUTTED . . . Pt.2

After getting over the festive season eating & drinking
spree, I was hitting the gym with full force and felt on top of the world. But
I’m either a hypochondriac, or old, or just worn down because that full sense
of feeling “gutted” (This post, remember!) has returned with a vengeance. Weather it’s my recent back
mishap (literally not being able to roll out of bed, yep, that kind of mishap)
or blocked ear or lack of sleep; blah blah blah; I’m disappointed at my lack of commitment & non-ability to be at the gym or having that purpose for being
healthly. Wondering where that constant burst of energy, drive and enthusiasm
went in 5 days. How a back and ear can switch everything 360’.

But then I realize I’m the only person to change this. The
only person who can whip myself back on track and see that I cannot loose the
focus and the “eye on the prize.” That I have not come this far for nothing and
there is no way I will loose it all. Perhaps just a little step back, but so
many steps forward.

Whilst I gravitate toward silly, lighthearted, shopaholic-esq
(this does has relevance to the above I promise), Adam – with all his wisdom – plunges
his thoughts into self improvement and knowledge saturated reference books; and
his most current ironically is of self positive talk. How we should and can compact our thoughts on positive ego driven routes.
Maybe a little egotistical but it makes sense. We think greatness (and we are
all great and beautiful in our own way) to achieve greatness. As we are the
only ones to prove how boundless we are in our own right. I’m not saying I’m
going to get on my soap box and tell the
world that I’m better than them. However, I’m going self improve myself
internally and make it a reality. Almost to out prove the little negative talk
inside.

So, take you inner positivity and let in shine. Shine in the
best way you know how.