wtf is wrong w me

im just guna rant. drunk as balls. i did yay tonight again, it doesnt rele upset me; once i relapse a few more times wont kill. not like i wuz ever better. i was guna suk some dik 2night but he got too drunk. at midnight wuz is birthday but his party is tuesday so maybe then. im too easy but w/e, ima losah. watching degrassi. ate a sandwich. sometimes i feel like because i can afford a sandwich, i have a roof over my head, and i was never sexually molested, that i shouldnt feel like shit. that im an asshole for being depressed when im well off and everthing seems to go my way. well, if all's well, then wuts wrong with me. w/e ev im done. i shouldnt post this. makes me feek more assholeish.