Cocaine Addiction & Recovery Support Group

Cocaine addiction is the excessive intake of cocaine, and can result in physiological damage, lethargy, depression, or a potentially fatal overdose. Though the immediate craving to do more cocaine is strong and very common, this feeling usually subsides in most users within an hour. This craving can, as it has in many users, develop rather quickly into an intense...

My Boyfriend seems like he might relapse.

My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years. He has been a drug addict for many years.. cocaine. Since we have been together he has relaped several times. I have never seen him use.. Normally he is very loving and close. But when he is struggling he gets "edgy" with mood swings and picks fights, but blames me.
This fourth of July weekend was very hard as he had many triggers. I know he is going through a hard time and wants to use.

After uncovering his last relapse, he has gone to outpatient rehab, attends a mens meeting daily, and therapy twice a week. He is also on medication for his cocaine cravings. He has been sober for 90 days. (i test him)

It was so easy to get sidetracked over our big fight yesterday. I feel so unappreciated after all that I have endured (lies, deception) and remained by his side trying to support in the best way that I can. I can't help when he sniffs, or gets clammy hands, etc to revert and have the trust issues come flooding back. I have a lot of pain also but he doesn't ever validate those feelings for me, as he says he can't reach out to me because he is so consumed with himself right now.

I realize that our fight was really not about what it seemed.. but him jonesing for drugs and taking it out on me. Although he didn't use, I know he is really craving it bad. He said that our fight (although things have been great, we have had 2 fights this week, drug/trust issues related) and he had several other triggers as well, with the holiday weekend. He was around people he has used with (friends growing up) with in the past. We had agreed to stay only for a certain time period, and then after staying two hrs later I urged him to go, and then he picked a fight with me in the car, and drove me home and dropped me off. When I asked where he was going he said "to call my sponsor" and then proceded to go back to the beach party.

He is in a bad way and I don't know what to do. I feel sad and disrespected in so many ways, I don't know it this sould be it.. if I have reached my limit, or if he needs me more then ever right now.

He only acted this way once before.. and It was during a bad patch. I am so torn with standing up for myself and my boundries, and wanting to give him support and stay by his side.

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