Yes, I prefer being alone so I really don't mind. I only know my mothers side of the family (family problems, don't get me started) and they are Spanish. I'm this short pale as a ghost teenage with light almost dirty blonde hair so I stick out like a sore thumb. I look freaking adopted and honesty I'm not very close with my family. But it does bother me that when ever we take some stupid family photo, I'm freaking shining like the moon compared to every one else.

I feel like an outsider where ever I go. The only person who somewhat understands me is my eldest brother. I feel almost just as home around strangers as I do around the rest of my family. Do I care? Not really. I'm weird, and I expect to feel as such.

I don't know how I'm gonna make it to August 22..... I'm always miserable. I just explained how my mom didn't do anything to make me feel important for graduating college, & she took it as me attacking her and saying she doesn't do anything. She asked me, "So you're upset because I didn't take you out to dinner?" I told her, "NO, I'm upset because you didn't really do ANYTHING after I graduated my first COLLEGE, and got accepted into ANOTHER ONE."

Everything is always my fault.

I guess I should just stop whining, and suck it up though.....

I've had almost the same exact problems as you except I'm going to school for something else and my mother is a little less bad than yours. Any accomplishment I've had has always been downplayed to the point where I had little to no self confidence. Doing better now that I stopped seeing my family as people to depend and rely on emotionally/mentally but more as people I have to share a living space with. We're more roommates than anything but it's seemed to lessen the burden on us this way.

I've also had the same issues with confusion on definition of my sexuality but recently she has been trying to make an effort to be somewhat supportive about all of it... sort of.

I hope you made it to the end of the month alright and the only thing I can tell you, is to try not to take it to heart too much. It helps to think of your family as less than that and more so as just people. To me that's much easier to deal with and hopefully for some others too. There is still some part of me that wants my family to love me and support me like I see in others' families, to have that encouragement and recognition, but it's unrealistic and I've realized that my family members are just people- imperfect. While they may try harder now, it's a little too late for it to count.

yep the outsider of my entire family both close and near,but ive gotten use to it since im distant from most of them. really when i visit my family in New York they call me "weird girl" i cant really tell which ones actually know my name anymore...or ever did

I do sometimes. It's only me and my brother who like to watch anime out of the many people in my family. Sometimes I isolate myself whenever we have a get together with some family members because I feel left out from whatever they are doing which doesn't really interest me.

its sad but some parents end up driving a wedge between themselves and their children like that. i saw it with both my parents and grand parents. so much so to the point i had no interaction with my grandmother on my fathers side until it was at the time her health was failing and she was near death.
i have a good relationship with my parents even though i was sort of the black sheep of the family. i didn't enjoy any of the same things they did and i had a lot of problems i was going through plus i have this older sister that in all honesty set the bar way to high for me to ever keep up so it was very difficult for me to bond with any of them of have lots of self value. but eventually i think you just learn to let it go.
but in some cases its healthier for a person just to distance themselves from their family. and that might be what you need to do is to get away from her in order to be happy and maybe it will work itself out with distance and time and maybe it wont but you can't go on feeling this sad and angry

wow you guys....I feel sorry for some of you because what you are looking for is acceptance from your parents. I'm lucky to have a mother who is always praising me for every little thing I do(ex: I passed the licensed test? she even wanted to cry of happiness!)...and I get sad because I think it's no big deal and I could do better for her.

My brothers don't appreciate the good things my mom gives them. They graduated high school and she takes them out to dinner, give them money and feel so proud of them but what do they do? they become drug addicts and slackers. sometimes I wish my mom was more harsh and strict...or just don't give a shit because they're ungrateful and good for nothing.

If it is not one thing, it is the other.

No, I don't feel like an outsider, just don't over-think things and everything will be alright.