Once upon a time there was a boyOnce upon a itme there was a girlAnd he promised her the moon, the stars and all the world,Took her in his arms with an embraceSealed their vows forever with a kiss,And he promised her forever, love would always be like thisAnd there is love...love...love

Once upon a time there was a girlOnce upon a time there was a boyAnd she promised him each moment, filled with everlasting joy,Looked at him with eyes that smiled with tearsSpoke to him the passions of her heart,And she promised from this moment, love would never be apart.And there is love...love...love

Once upon a time here in this place,Once upon a moment here we see,That this boy and girl forever, promised love eternally.And there is love....love...love.

Hey guys,Its been a harsh and difficult life for me, however I am thankful for the good times in life, such as having had the experience of knowing you, in the past.I'd like it, very much, that we all got together in the near future, at least just for a visit, possibly for a week or two. It would be nice for a visit, either way.Love you guys, miss you all. I hope you are having a Merry Christmas and have a happy New Year.God Bless​Rudy Acosta

** It's difficult to live with someone who is JUST like you!! Trust me, I know, I do! ☺

~It is so fun and easy to be married to your opposite. They compliment you, they strengthen your weaknesses, and they help you grow in areas you need the most. I believe MOST people ARE in this type of relationship.Like I said, it is 'nice' and 'comfortable' being in a relationship of any kind with someone who is your opposite! Trust me, I know, I did for 17 years.

SO, what about being in a relationship, marriage, or living with or being in the same home with, a person who is JUST like you? Someone who is NOT your opposite...they are, well, like I said almost exactly JUST LIKE you?? It can be irritating, frustrating, and humbling to watch yourself and your weaknesses, and your bad habits, etc. right in front of you.

Its Valentines month....great time to reflect on this subject. ♥ That's where this quote above comes into perfect play. When you LOVE YOURSELF (in a non-selfish and caring way) you learn or use the Golden Rule....you know the one, that says "Do Unto Others As You Would Have Done Unto You". Well, IF you ARE staring into the eyes of someone who is JUST like you, this is when you realize that this person IS you...then you can begin to treat them the way YOU want to be treated. This can be a little intimating... This has been a GREAT thing in my life!! (Although a trial, yes, it has helped me tremendously) HOW? Well, when I was married to Bernd Holler we were opposites and we complimented each other and it was rather EASY to live with someone like him. Over many years I started to become very much LIKE him since this is what happens when you live with someone for SO long. At first I was very grateful, I didn't mind, it was just what I needed to grow....until I started to lose my REAL self !!! (The REAL Lisa was (and IS) someone who was, all her young life; patient, kind, shy, naive, caring, loving, Godly, Spiritual, moral, soft spoken, clean language, clean living of no alcohol, drugs or harmful things to my body, Holy (separate from the World), tolerant, slow to anger, easy to get along with, selfless, honest, God-fearing, loving etc. etc.) (You get the picture) My young boyfriend and eventually husband, Bernd Holler, was ALL the opposites!!! My extreme OPPOSITE. Sure, being together so long, it looked like he started to act, pick up and mimic on some of my decent and honorable qualities (only God knows if this is true)...however, for sure the opposite was happening to ME....I started to pick up, internalize and become, on much of his indecent, obnoxious, and dishonorable qualities! Is it any wonder that over many years my Soul begged and ached for me to move on and move away from such filth against my strongly held religious beliefs that you don't give up on people?( THATS where I didn't love myself and was too blind to see the damage I was doing to myself, the REAL me, until it was ALMOST TOO LATE) Didn't I matter? Didn't anyone LOVE me?? Was it MY job to LOVE myself, in a selfless way????????

Why do I start this blog out with these details ??Because I want you to know that I DO KNOW the difference....living with your opposite ...and then the opposite.... living with someone who is JUST LIKE YOU...they ARE YOU!!! (more than, let's say, half) When you meet someone who is JUST LIKE YOU...most times it is very difficult to tolerate them...to be around them....etc. WHY? They remind you of who you ARE and that means, even the UGLY sides of you that you did not know existed or didn't care to examine. My dear companion and soul-mate, Silvio Rodolfo Acosta is SO much like me...it's amazing! This is what is SO attractive (like a magnet) about him to me. He is a boy version of ME! (in many ways) So, you can imagine how difficult it was in 2003 to begin a life with this wonderful man at the time that we began to date, marry and eventually be sealed on Earth by the Priesthood of God.I had taken on very much of my ex, and was trying to desperately go back to my real self.....so my soul-mate Rudy was a stark reminded of the old Lisa, the one who I had left behind. So I was so grateful to have him back into my life after 13 years.... My Spirit and Heart were and was in 'Heaven', so relieved, and so desperate for this Godly reminder of how to be a good person and live a good life, while my mind was in torture at seeing who I had to work at being again.

Also, when you live with 'yourself', like I said earlier, you are sharply reminded of who you are and what your weaknesses are. It is extremely difficult to live with a version of 'yourself'....trust me.

*On top of this, my sweet soul-mate comes from a completely different background, culture, and heritage than myself and we OFTEN misunderstand each other's desires, comments and wishes so it can be very irratating!! Mainly because our understanding or definitions of words and phrases are sometimes different and we can completely miscommunicate our feelings and thoughts.

♥Thankfully, after we are mistakenly deeply offended, or the deep offense takes place.....we can miraculously work out our differences BECAUSE regardless of our petty misunderstandings ....we come back to the deep awareness of of our deep soul-mate connection.... and our eternal LOVE that is timeless. This can be extremely painful...yet extremely rewarding!! (it may not make sense to people who have not experienced this)

So, what has this soulmate relationship with Silvio Rudy taught me in this life?? That as I see he is the male version of ME.....and IF I truly love myself as this quote above encourages us to do... I MUST see him as ME and I MUST (to have great Peace) do unto him as I would like/love to have done to me! That difficult...yet that simple!!! So for others like me...this soul-mate (living with the person just like you) type of relationship has (over many years of great struggling) brought me finally back to being who I was in my youth. It has been a trying and awesome blessing...which has fulfilled my desire to become (again after years of being taught to be selfish in a non-loving way) the woman who desires to and does TREAT OTHERS the way (kindly, lovingly and in service) she wants to be treated. Selfless

After so many years of living with my soulmate, I have come to be at peace in my heart and do enjoy living with him....as long as I can continue to treat him as myself. This is vitally important. It has been a great blessing.

So, when I want to "Love Myself" and treat my eternal companion in a Godly way .....I simply see (in my mind's eye) myself (in a male version of course, Rudy) standing near me, or lying next to me in bed, or sitting next to me while watching a movie, or speaking to me directly in conversation etc....and I automatically become a very loving, caring, selfless person again to my other 1/2! *(Now I fully understand WHY people say that someone like their spouse, is their other half) ☺

IS it difficult... after 17 years of being taught to be SELFISH ???

You bet! (Of course)

*But is it worth it? To become my Better self? To spread and share this LOVE to my soul-mate? To even HAVE my soulmate in this lifetime? ....The male version of MYSELF?

​ I've come to this conclusion .... YES it IS !

So, Go LOVE YOURSELF... in a Godly way, please, and "Do Unto Others as YOU would like things Done Unto You"... of course to those who deserve this love.....and trust me, you won't go wrong ♥

Lastly, may you find YOUR soulmate and/or your God, in this lifetime, who can show you this eternal perspective and love, is my prayer for you, and your loved ones.... in the name of Jesus Christ.....

(O.K. excuse me, please, while I go into my kitchen and juice some yummy fresh fruits/veggies into a lovely and healthy drink for those who live in my home and I deeply love ~ like my loved ones ~​....question is? Are you ? )

Happy Fathers Day, to my Dad, Howard!I may not agree with you all the time, but you are my Dad and so I love you and forgive you of all my imagined offenses. Yes, I call them 'imagined', for how could I ever know WHY you do the things you do, unless I was you and completely was you? You also do a lot of very kind and unselfish things throughout the year, for us, and others.....thank you.So, have a wonderful day today and always.I made you a special apple pie to celebrate! Hope you like it.Love, your 2nd daughter, Lisa (kisses and hugs)Happy Father's Day to my awesome husband Rudy too!! (You are one tough cookie!!) You are strict, yet loving, and we both (Alex and I) love you very much!We hope you have a terrific day today and we will try our best to make it wonderful for you ☺ Also, look below, at what Alex bought for you, with all his hard earned money!!!So amazing! Thanks son! You're so generous ♥ (yes, with his own money he's been making this summer cutting lawns) Such a good boy! "Let go for a swim everyone!" ​ (Oh ya, we have to assemble it first. hehehe)

The Coke Santa wanted a picture with us...so we obliged. (lol)Although, it looks like Santa and Rudy should have traded clothes for this picture. (HoHoHo) ~ Silvio would make a great "Santa" don't ya think?? (he actually grew this beard for me, this year... I think he looks so adorable with it)MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

The JibJab online company makes everyday fun by allowing its customers to upload personal images which are put to fun songs and funny videos. Here are some of my husband and I singing for Valentines 2014

William Craig Zwick (born June 10, 1947) has been a member of the First Quorum of the Seventy of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (LDS Church) since 1995. Prior to his call as a general authority, he was the owner of Zwick Construction Inc., a major company in Salt Lake City, Utah that frequently performed construction jobs for the LDS Church. Zwick received a degree in business management and finance from the University of Utah. Zwick started working for his father's construction company, Zwick Construction Inc. and eventually became the owner and operator. They built many hospitals and schools. They also were the construction company for the Family History Library, the South Visitors Center on Temple Square, the Museum of Church History and Art,[1] and the Portland Oregon Temple.[3] He also worked for three years as executive director of the Utah Department of Transportation.

This wonderful world wide loved and respected man of God (our personal friend) sent us a wonderful emailed Declaration of his thoughts of The Acosta Family, (me, Rudy and Alex), to be used in Court or where ever we feel we need to help others see the truth about us.

We are blessed to call him 'friend', and he has become a close friend.

Below, is an emailed copy of his Declaration of us sent to us and the Family Courts shortly before he went to go get it notarized, so that others know his feelings of us.

We are deeply touched at his love and kindness to us and our Holler children Jacob and Andrew.

You are welcome to call his office yourself, and ask IF indeed he wrote this nice Testimony (bleow) of us. LDS Headquarters Office 801-240-3884 or his personal cell of 801-656-5807.

"Thank you dear friend and brother for your faith in us and our goodness, we will not let you, the LDS Church and its teachings or the Lord down! We love you too" ♥

W. Craig Zwick 2311 Country Club Drive Salt Lake City, UT 84109 801 240-6960 FIFTH JUDICIAL DISTRICT COURT OF WASHINGTON COUNTY, STATE OF UTAH IN THE MATTER OF ) OF C. JACOB AND ) ANDREW S. HOLLER ) AFFIDAVIT OF : W. Craig Zwick ) ) ) Case No. 014500617 STATE OF UTAH COUNTY OF SALT LAKE )ss: W. CRAIG ZWICK, being first duly sworn, deposes and states: 1. I am a personal acquaintance of Brother and Sister Acosta, and am an ecclesiastical leader in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I have been in the First Quorum of the Seventy, serving full time as a General Authority in the Church since April 1, 1995, with many leadership assignments. 2. I officiated and performed the sacred marriage of Brother and Sister Acosta in the Newport Beach Temple at their request and was accompanied by other ecclesiastical leaders who also know them. 3. I personally know Brother and Sister Acosta to be outstanding and well qualified parents of Alex and have watched how they interact so positively with him. I strongly suggest that Jacob and Andrew be allowed to live with these responsible parents, Brother and Sister Acosta. 4. Brother Acosta and Sister Acosta treat each other with deep respect and expressions of love.5. I pray that the Judge will allow Jacob and Andrew to live with Brother and Sister Acosta now. They are exemplary parents and Alex will be a fine example for Jacob and Andre

Testimonies of those who believe in the Lisa Hatch and Silvio Acosta Family! ( Declarations below have been given to us, the Acosta Family and presented to Utah / California Courts, especially this past year to the Colorado Courts this 2013 year. We were asking the good people of Colorado for their support, help and protection in our desires to give our Holler boys a voice, the freedom to choose, gifts, kindness, love, attention and righteous family support during their young lives so that they have rights to grow up in a nurturing and righteous home.)

Frank and Louise Mehner - Frank graduated from West Point, and reached the finals of the NCAA coming second in the singles, and doubles in tennis. He is a retired lieutenant colonel in the Corps. of Engineers. He worked on the huge Mississippi River engineering project. Worked on first minute man silo's for nuclear weapons. "Duty, Honor, Country"

My long time family friend and world -leader / one of the 12 Apostles for the LDS Church; Dallin H. Oaks

Elise Hird - Ducklips Photography Owner (Self), photographer. ~ Elise, was Alexanders LDS Church Primary teacher for a few years. She sent into the CA. Courts her own Affidavit which explained how WELL Alex was doing in California at his mom and step-dad's home. She said that Alex was happy, well adjusted and how Alex had expressed to her how much he loved living with his mom and step-dad. She explained to the Judge how important it was for Alexander to stay living with us. * It was an awesome Affidavit. 2011

Family friend, Peter Wright, of 24 years.

Lisa, Did you ever think that you would have to say something like that? I do not know why he (Bernd Holler) has become so bitter from the person I remember. Holding a grudge is such a waste of time. Time for him to wake up and go forward;-)

I consider you one of my treasured friends and somebody who knows things about me that maybe even my wife does not know. You have had a front row seat to years of understanding and education that we have received. My wife never wanted to participate to the extent that you did. When we started to learn and become wiser I knew we were stepping into dangerous waters. It is still hard for me to find my way with all the misinformation out there. I sometimes feel like I a man without a country and many times without a church and certainly without all the answers.

For Bernd I am sad. I think the biggest problem as I saw it was that when you release the harness of mandated righteousness by a chosen religion it becomes easy to justify any behavior because you have taken away the consequences. Without some inter compass all you can do is wander in desolation. Bernd had for me a spirit that I related to quickly. His negative side being in control of things may have been overwhelming for you. I did also see his dark side. It is a shame that he has to make your children the casualty. I am happy for you trying to bring stability to a difficult situation. God has not given you anything that you can not endure or that you have not been prepared for. I do wish he could turn himself around because I think God could use his German spirit.

You have been blessed with a sweet spirit and the gift to understand truth when you hear it. For this I am sure that you have stored blessing in heaven. With regard to being osterisized by neighbors and ward members..That has been my case for almost 20 years because we have been given a gift and small people do not understand great things. I rarely discuss topics of importance to our salvation like I used too. I do believe that the time will come as the separation of the wheat and tares continues to intensify. All we can do is feel our way through the mist of darkness while those in the prideful towers look on. The teachings of our Savior have never gone along with the crowd nor have they been accepted by the majority.I have had so much fun being in touch with you again. "We are all enlisted till the conflict is over" As they say in poker we are all in.

Judge Lee - Utah Order 2006

Bernd Holler turns over Full and Complete Guardianship of Alexander Holler to Howard Hatch - 2006

Judge Salter - California Court Order Aug 2012

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pg. 2 - Notice in this Order posted above; Bernd Holler (finally after being caught lying), does not deny the Restraining Order allegations against him ( yet he had told his children, i.e. Jordan, that it had been his mother who had lied) - He is then ordered again to have NO contact with Lisa Hatch and Alexander Holler for his further aggression. Although extremely grateful for the protection, we are greatly disappointed that he chooses to not co-parent or obey the law and not be a more humble and co-operative parent/ ex-spouse - unless forced by an Order by a Judge. We continue to pray for Bernd Holler and a softened heart, if that is even possible.

Affidavit of Deborah Morrison - Family friend of the Alexander Holler and Acosta family.

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Practices Employment Law Wrongful termination Sexual Harassment Discrimination Civil Litigation Family Law Divorce Workers Compensation Administrative Law Professional Associations & Experience Member of Federal Bar Member of Utah State Bar Member of Weber County Bar Education B.A. Brigham Young University 1979 J.D. University of Utah College of Law 1986

Utah Lawyer Lorrain Brown Declaration - pg. 1

Alexander Holler 2012

More to come....

We often comment on how much we wish we had been able to spend an entire lifetime together but we are very grateful to have been able to spend the 2nd half of our lives together!Today also, I just found out that my mom had a bad stroke last night and she was rushed to the hospital.She is doing much better today but they say that she is only able to say a few short small sentences.

There was a man; what seemed to be an ordinary man, yet a man who made a difference.

A difference where it counts.

Many years ago my husband and I were new in our RSM area and were going though many hardships in life even though we were on the right path of being Godly people. So having been raised a good Mormon and my husband, having been baptized into the awesome Mormon faith 15 years earlier in 1990 when we were neighbors, we had decided to start going to our local LDS ward for Spiritual and Temporal reasons.

We had stigmas (ugly twisted half truths and out right lies) attached to our names from our past put on us by those who hate us.... and this news (gossip) spread quickly in this local LDS Church group about us, and in turn this caused many of them to have cold, distant, and unfriendly shoulders to give us as our most common welcome.

So we decided to wait for a short time to return to this "unfriendly" place, this place where many would not take the time (or the love) to get to know the "real" us...the us who were NOT the ugly rumors attached to our names that did NOT apply to us at that time, (if ever)

So time pasted and life was a lonely affair.

One day many months later after not going to church while coming out of our local grocery store we ran into a friendly man. This man was smiling from ear to ear at us. He reached out his hand warmly and gave us a Gatorade drink which he had just bought in the store. He introduced himself as Eric and said that he was in our LDS Ward and that he had gone to our same chapel down the street from where we had attended and he had remembered us being there.

He was kind, outgoing, warm and genuine...anyone could feel this coming from him and we smiled as we parted and my husband and I talked about the uncommonly friendly man named Eric "something". He had made us feelloved.

Over the next years we struggled to find community friendships and/or Spiritual upliftment throughout the different sources and locations in our community, since strangly (but to no surprise since our ex's had really blackened our names with most people in our neighborhood) no one from the LDS Church would reach out to us even after knowing of us.

We knew that the Mormon faith had the MOST organized and Godly truths this world had to offer, regardless of it's few arrogant and self-righteous members, and we knew that the incredible and timeless beautiful Gospel messages and truths found at this particular faith or Church could NOT be out matched so we kept praying that doors would open in positive ways.

The local LDS Missionaries would stumble upon our door from time to time and we would invite them in, each time asking them to please come back and of our desires to be included in our local Ward family, only to see that each time they would NOT come back and still no one from this Ward would visit.

After a year or so, we finally had such a deep desire to go to our local LDS ward again and again that we decided that despite the persecution we knew we were in for, and had already received, and would receive again, we decided to head back to our home LDS ward and Chapel to attend their meetings each Sunday, where we knew God wanted us to be, even if others did not.

Again, while attending this local LDS ward we were met with some unkindness, ugly hurtful gossip, and cold shoulders, but others there did make a difference, enough to make it worth coming again and again, so we could to be obedient to our hearts and Lord. It was tough but worth it.

One of these kind men was Eric Billings. The man who we had met in the parking lot at Ralphs Grocery store.

He was there on many Sunday's and he would always extend a warm hand shake, an infectious smile, and a genuine kindness towards us. It made the rest of the persecution we were enduring (or would endure) over the years possible to overlook, while often deep in our hearts we felt like giving up.

He made a difference.

We noticed that he was this way with all he met. New members, LDS faith investigators, non-members. All were welcome into Eric's circle of friendship and made to feel welcomed and loved. He was one in a million and on a Mission to bring others to the same happiness he knew he had with Christ and the Gospel of Christ which only the LDS faith and membership would provide.

You could feel the genuine warm love of Christ oozing from him.

So over the years we attended our local Ward more and more, and we began to be accepted more and more by the general LDS local congregation, mainly due to the kind words and loving support we would receive from Eric Billings and the few others like him, who would only talk kindly and positive of us to others.

Over the next few years, I was eventually re-baptized and my husband (who was still officially still a member was welcomed by the men in his High Priest and he began to be much loved by most of the men there. It was a relief from the cruel and tortuous world that others around us had created and the very much needed peace from the ugly rumors that still followed us from many outside haters.

Over the next few years we saw how much love and Christ-like character our dear friend Brother Eric Billings had, for not only us but many others. He brought many to Christ and the Gospel of Christ, just from his genuine, loving, kindness, and friendship. It was unmatched.

He truly was one of Christs disciples on this Earth, no doubt.

It so happened years later that I was assigned (for a short while) to be Sister Billings church Visiting Teacher and I got to know a little of her and her family over a few short months before being transferred to another sister. She was very kind even if she was very shy.

Then last year my husband got his first calling as a "Home Teacher" in our Ward. Neat!

He was to go do this important calling with another ward brother, Doug Campbell, as his companion.Home Teaching is visiting a family in our ward monthly, and giving them an inspirational and Spiritual message. To be their Spiritual Shepard of sorts.

Every worthy man in the LDS church is given this special task/calling/job to oversee one or more of the other ward families in there local ward, so as to make sure that all members are watched over, cared for and protected in this world of trials, hardships and good times. It is an invaluable support system unmatched anywhere in the world!

Sure enough, the family that my husband and Brother Campbell were assigned to visit monthly was the Billings family! Wow, This was a great honor for him.

So over the next few months my husband had the opportunity to learn all about a Home Teaching calling, it's duties, its workings and of the family he taught. Although this was old school for me growing up with Home Teaching in my youth and my ex being one too for many years, it was all rather new for Brother Acosta.

Like expected, the Billings family were hospitable, friendly, very kind, and extended warmness in every way.

Brother Eric Billings even said to others that Brother Acosta, my husband, had been the "best" Home Teacher he had ever had! Now that was an incredible compliment because Eric Billings was in the High Counsel (a small group of men who oversee the entire spiritual welfare of our large Stake, which Stake Headquarters cares for and is responsible for many large Wards in the Southern Orange County area) and he had had many honorable men in his home as his Home Teachers throughout his life, so this was an incredible compliment.

Knowing Eric's character, this was not just a nice thing to say, as much as it was his honest feelings, and we were indeed humbled by the compliment.

Of course, the Billings family made it easy to genuinely love them, from Eric having loved us first.

Another fun fact is that over the past year and half we would see Eric and his wife Darren at our favorite Friday night restaurant "Soup Plantation".

After many occasions of seeing them at the same time eating there also, our son Alexander would then every time excitedly search for them when we would arrive there to eat. Every time we would find them, we would find Alex talking to Brother Billings and they were always being so kind and warm to all of us and getting along famously with Alex. This became a fun tradition for us to see them there.

Over the next year my husband got to know more of the Billings 4 adult children who would be able to come to the these Home Teaching lessons from time to time, and got to know Brother Acosta. They all were very much like their dad Eric; warm, genuine, and all very kind children and they liked Brother Acosta very much.

Brother Acosta would always come home from these meetings so happy!

Just a few weeks ago Eric Billings gave a beautiful talk in Sacrament meeting at Church on Sunday. It was not just your usual good talk. He always gave one of the best talks of the year and we loved each and everyone of them he gave.

So when we saw him at one of the LDS Stake Conference meetings a week ago on Saturday serving pie and ice cream afterwards to everyone, we told him how much we loved his talk and then talked with him about the next Home Teaching meeting Brother Acosta wanted to schedule. He told Brother Acosta that he was waiting until his family came in from Hawaii next week, to have him over, so that more of his family could be there for this next Home Teaching meeting. We then had a nice chat with he and his wife for a few brief minutes that night. We had no idea that this would be the LAST time we would speak to and see our dear friend.

Just this past Friday night two days ago, March 15th, 2013, we noticed that the Billings were not at the "Soup" for dinner, but thought nothing of it, since we all did not go there every single Friday, but I did mention to my husband on several occasions how light-headed I felt and how I was almost dizzy enough to be concerned of my health. What was going on??I did not know why this was happening or what it all meant.

My husband expressed the same thing was happening to him also. This was happening between 6:30pm-7:30pm. We figured something strange was happening to the Earth, but couldn't pin point why.

So yesterday (Saturday Morning) when I came home from a store trip to buy balloons, cake, flowers etc. for my Mother In Laws 80th Birthday party for the day, it later made sense why I came home to find my husband red-faced, depressed and teary eyed. I quickly asked him what was the "matter"? He started to cry and tell me.

You see, yesterday morning while I was out, my husband received a phone call from Brother Campbell telling him the tragic news of what had happened the night before between 6:30pm-7pm two days ago from today.

Brother Eric Billings had been out on his daily evening bike ride and had been hit by a car and had been killed in a sudden and terrible accident.

We were shocked and crushed to hear this heartbreaking news.

We both cried and realized that the night before we did know something was wrong at that exact time he was killed, and now knew "why" we had felt this way the night before.

Our hearts sank for Sister Billings and their children and what their lives would be like from now on without their loved husband and father. It made us so sad. I wondered "why" the Lord had called back not just a good man, a great man, a great disciple of Christ? One the world was in much need of.

My husband reminded me of the fact that in the Spirit world there is a terrible and great war raging. The fight against legions and principalities of great darkness for the souls of men, which God is needing Great warriors to battle and that Eric is one of those great souls that God was needing at this time.

This I understood and knew was true. My child Michael is there also.

We broke the news to Alex who was saddened too.

Eric will be sorely missed here on this Earth in the physical world. even if the spiritual world is all around us close by, and just in a different dimension. It just isn't fair.

So yesterday, after this sad, sad news, we immediately went out to the store to by the makings of a large flower arrangements for the Billings family. Something to cheer them up when they would walk into the room. This small gesture, I remembered, had helped me in 1994 when dozens had brought over huge arrangements of flowers to my home for Michael's funeral.

I put it together myself along with the other gifts I had gotten for my dear Mother In Law, Maria Rosa Acosta's birthday dinner last night. I still found myself tearing throughout the day and evening when we would mention Eric to each other and/or to family.

In the evening, we took our flowers, gifts and cards and headed first over to the Billings home which is really only 2-3 blocks from our home here in RSM.

It was perfect timing as one family there after giving their condolences at the Billings home, were leaving when we arrived.We gave Sister Billings a big hug and the flower arrangement along with some chocolates to cheer her up and a sympathy card.

We spoke for a few minutes and then noticed another family coming through the door and so soon left.

On the way out we were able to give a big hug to their youngest child who still lives at home and apparently was having a really hard time with it all.The other 3 Billings children are coming home over the next few days from either Hawaii, New York and China! The Billings are blessed with some amazing adult children and of course an awesome Ward Family that will see them through this huge change in life.

Today we will go to our LDS ward chapel for church at 1pm to morn with our ward members and spiritual family for the Billings.

I am sure that over the next few days we will be attending Erics special funeral meeting at the chapel and then his physical body's burial.

He will be missed until we see him again shortly! This earthly life is but a drop in a bucket, a fleeting moment in the eternities.

Last night we then headed over to Moms house in Placentia (where my son Austin was born) to see her and our Acosta family.

We took everyone out to dinner at The Old Spaghetti Factory near the train station (our favorite place).We had dinner, cake, balloons, ice cream, gifts, and even a little St. Patrick's Day fun with everyone. It cheered us up.It turned out to be a nice evening despite our solemn spirits.

So here I am this Sunday morning. Typing out my feelings thoughts and prayers to the Billings family and all they are going through.

I too went through something similar in my life and so my heart goes out to them and theirs.

It makes one extremely grateful for what one does have in life and to thank god for the blessings we do have.

Click to listen to Rudy's favorite "Happy Birthday" song.

"Oh how lovely was the morning "It truly was a glorious day on Thursday July 12, 2012. It was a bit overcast, but the cloud coverage made for a cool, and delightful day in the hot July month. We were grateful for this unusual shaded weather on this long awaited, long anticipated, beautiful, and sacred day.

One of our dearest brother, friend, and world leader, personally asked us earlier this year, if he could be so honored to be the officiator to perform our sacred Sealing Ordinance for our family during his time off from Church duties in the month of July. We were both delighted and honored knowing that this offer is rarely (rarely) offered by these extremely busy, Godly men!

We arrived early this day at the Newport Beach Temple to find the entire temple staff excited and waiting in great anticipation for ours and Elder Zwicks arrival.

Once there, Alex went to the children's waiting room and was later invited to do baptisms. Once in the waiting room we all gathered and said our "Hello" and greetings. Everyone were in great spirits. They then took us to the records office and did all of our proper paperwork.

Sister Pitchforth was my escort this day and she made sure that I knew where to go throughout the temple, every minute of this sacred day. She was super kind and full with excitement. She looked very much like my Fathers Mother, my grandmother Edith F. Hatch, so I felt a great comfort in having her by my side the entire day. I felt many of my family who are in the Spirit world there with us this day. It was a joyous day for them too!

She took me to the bridal changing room where I was able to dress all in all white and then directed me to the Celestial room where Rudy was all dressed in his white suit waiting for me.This room is absolutely magnificent! Down to the very minute detail. Even one sister told me that they had even just changed out all of the huge Silk flower arrangements throughout the temple last week of the ones that had been there since the temple opened! They wanted the temple to be spotless!! The new ones were gorgeous! (They knew a very important man of God was coming that day to this temple and they prepared it appropriately, for him, us and Heavenly Father) (Both Rudy and I were very impressed)

We then headed over to the largest Sealing room in the Temple where all of our guests were waiting for us at 1pm as planned. This sealing room is stunning!

Elder W. Craig Zwick, member of the Quorum of the First Seventy (also related to the respected 1st counselor Eyring of the Presidency of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints) as our dear (and close) friend, officiated the Sealing Ordinance of my beloved soul-mate Rudy and myself. He flew in from Utah especially for us this morning and flew back in the late afternoon.

Although our blessed and long awaited event lasted 3 hours, the Ordinance itself lasted about 45 minutes (normally only 10-20 mins) and it was the most amazing, humbling Ceremony I had ever witnessed. Elder Zwick followed his heart and the Holy Spirit, in being Heavenly Fathers mouthpiece and spoke to us this entire time of love, happiness, companionship, blessings and promises to be ours, when keeping Gods commandments, being faithful and the such.

He even told me that his own daughter, married to Elder Eyrings son, had just had a baby girl a few days ago and that baby Abigail gave him a smile for Lisa (me)...that sure made my day!! I felt Heavenly Fathers great love for me and Rudy this entire day and we were on cloud 9 the entire day!!! I felt the Spirit of God so strong the whole day and many days after.

The many friends who attended this day as our witnesses, and support, were our most trusted and loving support over the many years and the select group of friends who attended, could not have been more perfectly arranged, if we had ordered it ourselves!!

In fact I will write down a list of their names and keep it with our Sealing Certificate and photos.

Then when our special event was over, we thanked all of our guest naming each one, and went to go get dressed back into our Sunday best clothes, and we all headed out to the Temple gardens for photos and video.

Most of our guests had to get back to family and work, so the ones that did stick around are in our photos below.

Elder Zwick enjoyed having photos taken with us, and asked us to send him copies and also invited us to be with him again in SLC soon. We made plans to join him and his family soon. He then went to speak to another large crowd that afternoon, before he got back on a plane and flew back to his family in Utah.

You see, these busy general authorties have the entire month of July off, just to spend with family and close friends and he choose to spend this amazing day with Brother Acosta, myself and Alexander! He said that he felt the spirit of God in Rudy so strongly and was impressed at what an amazing good and righteous man he finds Rudy to be. You would think they had been friends forever. He and Rudy got along like long lost brothers!

Our Stake President even told us privately that he was impressed at the amazing compliments that Elder Zwick always says about Rudy (and the Acosta Family) when he speaks to Elder Zwick over the phone. He says he has never heard in his calling as a Stake President over many years such positive praiseworthy compliments from a General authority about one of his Stake members! President Brennan told Rudy that he is sincerely touched by Elders Zwicks remarks when Zwick told him that it had been many years since he had seen the Spirit of God so strongly in a man, as he sees in Rudy! We were humbly filled with joy when we were told this! Yes, through all the trials, false accusations, and suffering we have endured over many many years, this was a breath of fresh air and music to our ears and warmed our hearts to see another Godly man recognize God's presence in my dear husband Rudy. (of course I have always seen this)

So, Heavenly father made the most amazing, eventful, sacred, love felt day happen this beautiful July 12, 2012. I could have never imagined all this would happen for me, my beloved companion and soul-mate and our family. But, I must admit, with Rudy, miracles follow ....so I am starting to see that not only does God love Rudy very much, but that he is one of Heavenly Fathers choicest sons here on Earth, and those who fight against him, only fight against God.

It was an incredible day...one I will never forget and forever be grateful for the love shown to me on this day by God and many people, and throughout this year, for that matter!3-4 people came up to us privately (and separately) after this special day and told us that our Sealing Ceremony was the "Best" they had ever seen! (that made us feel so good)

From what I saw, heard and felt that day, this is just the tip of the iceberg of many more exciting and blessed days ahead for the Acosta family and for any of the children of ours, who will humbly and respectfully come home to enjoy these blessings with us.

Ours is a turbulent world and God knows we need safety in all we do. Especially when children we love are involved. We pray continuously that someday our beloved children Jordan, Austin, Andrew, Jacob and others, will join our eternal happiness and finally see how much we long for their happiness. They need to finally hear the truth...spoken with love. They deserve it. Sometimes I am frustrated with them and their bitter ways, but that does not stop us from loving them.

There are always two sides to every story...but the question is, whose eyes are you seeing it through? Your own? Or Gods?

That is why often a person will hear the famous words of ..."Who is on the Lords side...Who?"You have the freedom to choose.....THIS means more to me today than ever before!

Today is the day many people honor their Father's. It's FATHERS DAYHonoring the man that either gave you half your DNA and raised you... or maybe just one of these.

My Father, who did both for me, is Howard F. Hatch.

An Awesome man by any standards! (and I have lived long enough to know what and who to compare him to).Sure he has his petty faults (who doesn't) but by all standards he is a very kind, Christ-like, giving, compassionate, handsome, healthy, strong, loving man, Step-father and good ole father to me and his many children!These are my current and past memories of him in my life. My father was a very righteous man. One who lived by high standards...very high standards! He loved his wive's and children very much and it showed in all he did and said in life! He always had an open door policy. His door and home were always open to all his children in their times of need during life, at all times, as long as we were respectful of his rules of course.He was a Christ-loving man and it showed in all he did and does today. He has compassion on those who are less fortunate and this showed the most in the many homeless people he befriended throughout his life, and also then when remarried at one time he lovingly help raise his new wife's children by support, example and kindness. (They have said how much they have always loved and appreciated him for that.) He always tried to have the power of God (a deep sense of peace) or Priesthood and Spirit of the Holy Ghost in his home as best as he could and I honor him for doing that during his long life of many trials and circumstances. I've always admired him for those great qualities because I always tried to judged him as only "a Father" to me and others, NOT by his personal choices that I may or may not have agreed with, and also NOT by his personal relationships with his wives or others which was NONE of my business, even if (in my opinion) he treated them very well. Sure he had his bad days with others. Who doesn't? But I always judged him on his over-all fatherly qualities and who the real Man IS, inside.

I must say that there are VERY FEW men in this world who could compare to my Father. I don't complain and ask "What MORE should he have done for me", but rather "What DID he do for me and his children as a Father, that he was capable of doing?". That is alot my friend, A LOT.

So on this day and always...I choose to HONOR my father and THANK HIM for all he did and does. I am grateful that he is still alive in this world as of today. He is going to be 79 years old this coming October. I hope he lives many more years since his presence in this world holds a lot of weight and the world could use a lot more men like him.

He not only came from a very honorable, pioneer-stock, righteous family but he lived that standard too...no matter what others may critized him with from their own mis-understandings of the man. I know the TRUTH. Happy Father's Day Dad! May you live long and prosper....With Much Love♥, Your daughter Lisa

**** I will now ask my son Alex if he would like to write a few kind words here to his Step-Father and Dad Rudy Acosta, on this Fathers Day! (His biological dad, Bernd Holler, had many many chances in the past to be a part of Alex's life for many years and he flat out refused our many, many respectful requests and suggestions, and he (out of his bitterness) has now earned himself a serious Restraining Order, from his illegal and immoral actions, in order to keep him from harming Alex, Alex's growth, and his happiness. We continually teach Alex to forgive others like his bio dad, but to not be unwise to their dishonesty and selfishness. We all know, including Mr. Holler, that God wanted Alex to be raised by Rudy and his mother, in this life, due to all the circumstances leading up to this day in his life, but that doesn't mean that Alex can not have respect and forgiveness for others. We encourage Alex to continue to pray for his bio dad's repentance and we remind Alex to not harbor ill feelings towards him. We teach him to respect all. Even if his bio dad has made less than desirable choices regarding Alex and his brothers ~ we still teach Alex (and them) forgiveness and will always give every decent person a chance to change, and do the Godly things a good parent should do, and be, for Alex and his 4 older brothers.

To Rudy, My Step-dad, from Alex Holler; "You've been a good dad to me. Taking care of me when I've needed your love and happiness. You've filled my life with lots of love and joy when you've taken me to Disneyland, Knott's Berry Farm etc. and I am so grateful for you to be in my life. I enjoy the way you make us all laugh and make the hard times become happy. You make every situation when there is bad and stressful into a reliving time. You've been a good Step-dad and even seem more like a real dad to me. You give me everything. I hope you can be that to my brother's soon if Bernd Holler will learn to Forgive and be friends. I will always love you and always be here for you when you are older, and Happy Father's Day hope we have a fun day today. Your loving son, Alexander (Acosta) ...... p.s. If I were to have a bio dad that was 'forgiving' and would let me see my brothers by letting them visit with me and my mom, it would make me have different thoughts of my dad Bernd. Right now I am disappointed in him"(these above comments came directly from Alexander G. Holler. As he spoke them on this Father's Day, he had his mom type them on this page, for him)

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