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SOPHIE VAN DER STAP
THE GIRL AND
THE SHARK
THE SEA

Beneath the surface she swims around in silence. There are no words,
no chatter or banter, but you’d be wrong to think that the ocean doesn’t
speak. It does speak, in a language of bangs and echoes. Beneath
the surface she’s free: she has no weight, no age, no name. Her body
is reduced to a mass of functions. It breathes, it sees, it touches, it
floats. When she achieves perfect buoyancy, there’s no gravity and no
judgment, and somehow the two seem related.
The caves do not speak. The caves swallow. They swallow everything
around her, they swallow and swallow and swallow, until there’s nothing
left but her and an immense silence, daunting in its immensity, sated
in its hunger. Enveloped in stillness, her past sinks into oblivion as she
floats in a timeless embrace. She does not know if she’s the one who
forgets or if it’s the caves who do.
The first time, the silence choked her. But when she resurfaced, she
felt replenished. Ever since, she has gravitated to the caves time and
again. As a trained diver she’s used to diving alone. Above the surface,
together is better than alone, but beneath the surface alone is better
than together: on her own she can dissolve in the world around her, and
be nothing, or everything.
In the cave she sits down on the seafloor. A shark appears. She does
not move. He circles her several times, then swims towards her and lies
down next to her in the sand. She rests her hand on his head, pets him.
Far away, above the surface, her life floats on the mirror of the sea’s
surface, waiting for her to return. Up there, they say that she’s strong,
that she has shark skin. But they don’t know that words are so much
sharper than teeth.
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A red wooden box sits on a bookshelf somewhere above the surface,
its lid open. It’s overflowing with hooks, some big, some small, all rusty.
Every hook is a life saved, a life she knows. The box is so chock-full that
she can hardly wedge any new ones in there. She adds her latest find
to the collection and gets in the shower. The shower primarily serves as
a transition between ocean and land. It’s not about washing off the sea
so much as immersing herself in water for one last time before falling
asleep.
The hook was jammed deep inside the shark’s mouth. It was the third
time she had to remove a hook from the shark she named Foggy Eye.
The first time Foggy Eye had come to her was two days after she had
removed a hook from the mouth of Grandma, one of the first sharks
she got to know. Foggy Eye had appeared together with Grandma, as if
Grandma was leading Foggy Eye to her. When she swam past the new
shark, she looked right into its foggy eye. The shark’s mouth and leftside
gills were covered in a nasty infection. That hook must have been
stuck in there for a long time.
The girl went to work immediately. She fed the other sharks and studied
the new shark’s behavior. She wasn’t eating and she lay in the sand,
only a few feet away. The girl sat next to her in the sand, petted her,
stayed with her. Then, in a quick movement she reached her arm into
the shark’s mouth and felt the hook. It was large and had a fishing lure,
a little yellow fish, attached to it. She pulled once. The shark with the
foggy eye pulled back and swam away.
She checked her air and waited, some of her sharks still circling her,
drawing wider and wider circles, until finally they vanished out of sight.
The new shark stayed with her and put her head in her lap. She reached
into her mouth a second time but again was unable to remove the hook.
The shark with the foggy eye disappeared into the dark.
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