Diary of a woman on the verge of becoming a healthy weight, and all the good stuff on the way there

8.10.2010

HYC Check In

Today I am 217.6. Up a pound. The simple truth is that I can't get it together. I remember when I first started and it was a challenge and exciting to not eat sugar and less fat. Isn't this fun? I'm losing weight! No sir, no bagels for breakfast for me, I'm eating fruit! And yogurt! Oh, and I just weighed my 1 ounce of cheese. It's so cute.

But now I'm a woman who has lost all commitment. Motivation? I've got it. (fertility, health, beauty) Tools to use? I know them all. Cooking skills? I can steam a veggie like nobody's business. And come up with wacky things that only taste good to me. Budget? Yes - I can afford both my gym membership, and weekly purchasing of organic produce. So what's the problem? I don't know. The only thing I can point to is the commitment. Committing to NOT doing stuff. Not putting the following in my body:

Sugar

Alcohol

Really, those are the only 2 I struggle with. And every time I put those up there, I think everyone who reads that doesn't know me in real life is going to think I walk around with a wine bottle in my purse. I think focusing on the NOT is also a negative way to approach it. I should focus on committing to only eating the meals I plan. No extras. I'm reading Geneen Roth's Women, Food, and God to find out some other whys and hows. Current reaction: uncomfortable. She touches on some nerves, boy howdy. Operation lose a pound a week, I mean, committing to eating only what is healthful, is on. I think. If I can get it together.

Years ago I decided to give up coffee. (I drink it now but for many years was coffee free).

This posed a serious dilemma as I dislike, really hate tea but I still wanted hot drinks. At the time there were one of the alternative teas/infusions now available, so I chose to drink unadulterated hot water and I was happy.

The point. I continue to use this principle. Sometimes it's harder than other times.

I have that book on reserve at the library: the more I hear about it, the more I want to read it, but the more intimidated I am by the hard truths I may realize. :-s

It's so hard to wrap your head around a day/week/month/year/decade without A, B, or C. I really like MargieAnne's idea (although I know that finding an alternative to sugar or alcohol may not be the easiest task).

Yes! I agree we should focus on the yeses! Yes I will do this and yes I will do that. Think about it. What a celebration that will be looking back and seeing all those yeses sparkling like stars. Yay!!!