Friday, May 28, 2010

1) Get a hair cut2) Attend a ceremony for an award which I feel indifference to3)Catch up with people4) Hang out with buddies5) Do more volunteer work6) More social visits7) Clean my room=.=8) Watch my movies9) Play more games10) Read more books11)Give more12) Smile more13) Make a difference =)

Friday, May 21, 2010

This is the post I wrote but never posted some few days ago. I gave up waiting for my connection to get better. The weird empty spaces and captions are for photos I will post later. Blogger photo uploader takes forever!

I actually survived more than a week of being without Internet. But it is really bad for my productivity, as it seems that without the Internet,I go into a state of slack, then up to bed and I fall asleep, discarding work for the last minute >

First , was the epitome of my QG journey- BSS. Well, you could say that it was not as what I would have expected. In a good way or bad way, that I don't know. One sad bit was that it was held in familiar land, which is just right here in KL, so there was no extraordinary spectacle to awe at, nor any place that required us S'gor and KL-ites to act like foreign tourists. (Though there was a lot of camwhoring X D).

After so long a time of cold sweat, sleepless nights and nervous jittering, it has come down to this. And truth be told, it was pretty numbing, in the end. Had I expected too much? Hmm...But I should be grateful that it wasn’t too hard on me, no?

My Pink Group in Central Market. One of our (pretty random) assignments was to take a picture with an artist and get their autograph. (Why am I at the back? >=(!)

I wonder if it’s because it’s in their territory, or whether they’re always like that, or because of their number but the KL candidates were very hyper. Hui Xia, Carolyn and Chaw Hui provided the group with much entertainment. Which makes me wonder whether any of the candidates have blogs..and whether they will stumble upon mine hahaha..

The Selangor batch trying to act..”cute”.I’m sure there are other more silly photos of us, in the other cameras =D Most of the candidates were so inclined to their own states sometimes, at every chance they could they would flock together==. So we didn’t have much of a chance but to do the same.

Oh yeah, one thing was that this was the “singing” BSS and there was Don’t Stop Believing o.0. Pn Tek watches Glee? LIke whoa haha.

Then, after that week of BSS-Prep, it was Sports Day prep, meaning staying back after school till 6 almost every day and staying overnight on Friday itself. As people may know, Kuning’s theme was Transformers:Bumblebee, which though cool is actually quite hard to portay, as you can see from the random array of objects we had at our khemah.

I actually felt pretty fed up upon Sports Day approaching. The toil of preparation had spread out too long a period of time and in other words, it was getting sien. Plus, stuff I did was not used =.=. Zadou, at least I still have my gloves~~

The mascot gear. You would probably have not seen those in the last two pictures because they weren’t used in the end. Too movement restricting==.

In the end, Kuning got 2nd for Marching and last for khemah.

M2D5. And O3?

Staying up the whole night, then marching then walking/sitting/standing under the hot sun, this Sports Day really never gave us time for a breather(as of the time during prep at night). And to think I was imagining a scene where people could just sit on the field in the middle of the night and talk==. But it was work all the way for Kuning, even up till the very last minute. In the end, we were so tired that we never went out and I could have just fallen asleep by placing my head on the table==

Two things strike at me about these two events. First, it all brings back memories of BRATS. And with the approach of the 2nd BRATS workshop 2010, some reminiscence is in tow. Like what Pei said, how is it that it seems that we could make more friends in those 4 days compared to that year in a class. OK, I shall be honest. I came to BSS thinking that everyone would be eager to show themselves out, to prove themselves and to willing mix around. But, it was not ..exactly like that. Everyone, except the Kl guides,mostly kept to themselves and conversation was mostly among their own states.

Working with Kuning didn’t actually turn us into comrades in arms as well. Sometimes it felt more like a constant contest to outdo each other. Not to say that I’ve never made a few friends along the way. =) UNGU does have a point about their semangat, you can say that.But never mind, hopefully the next batch does better. And Mr Chan is getting scarier and scarier=. = Already preparing for next year???

I guess in BRATS, everyone gave all out to socialise, since our main goal was to have fun. No need for competition. We just all worked hard together to produce our articles/photos/videos.

I miss these people.=( When’s our next gathering? =) And I won't FFK already la =( I never did also...

Next,I don’t think I did very well at all. I couldn’t perform with my best. =( I screwed up so much during BSS, getting further away from my target. It was so disappointing for me and for whoever who thought better of me. Staying up till 4 to complete folios, doing my report 2 days before, the cause of procrastination and utter laziness.

Sports Day prep was worse. After BSS, you could say that all the passion and motivation just snuffed out of me. I just wasn’t that driven anymore. It became more like a task for me to finish then a crusade for Kuning’s victory. I never planned anything properly, I did everything half-heartedly and I just walked out. I feel really bad, because, I know I could give more than that. But, I didn’t.

The sense of lethargy is still all over me. Which, sucks because I’m failing at trying to do what I can for what I care about.Not to mention emotions seem to be going haywire here and there.