Welcome to my Oasis

Let's just get right to the point. I'm not doing enough things with my time. I'm not playing any sports, I'm not participating in my school musical, I don't have a job, etc etc. And I think its having a big impact on my my mood and my drive. I do feel that people should relax every once in a while to take a break from things, but I also believe that keeping yourself occupied can keep your mind off of things.

Its true about what is said about your junior year of high school:

IT SUCKS

Junior year is that little spot in the road that you see while driving and then don't realize its a giant buck until you've already hit it. :)

There will be nights where you where you stay up until 2 because you procrastinated a paper, there will be many, and I mean MANY, breakdowns, you'll never get used to that lack of sleep, and the weekends will go by waaaaaaaay to quickly.

At the beginning of the year you think you can handle it but my the time November rolls around you're regretting taking three AP classes, and sadly it gets worse. Now don't get me wrong I have very much enjoyed my third year of high school but it is the actual school part that has seemed to drain the life out of me every Monday through Friday from 7-2. I think after putting in all your effort for 10 years, your body and mind start to go crazy; especially when Junior year is considered the hardest year of high school.

The increased amount of work plus the stress that comes from thinking about college, really takes its toll on a person. You have to think about what college, which major, which AP exam, when to take the SAT or ACT, what scholarships to apply for and so on. Not only do I have no clue what I wanna study in college/do with my life, I also have no clue what classes I want to take next year (the easy or the hard route), and I have to decided by the end of March :) Oh the joy.

But the stress and loss of motivation needs to stop.

I have noticed that everyday I come home from school and procrastinate my homework until around 7 o'clock to 11 o'clock at night. This is something very abnormal for me considering the fact that I used to refuse to do homework anytime after 9pm. I have no motivation and I think that this is seriously effecting my attitude about things.

To help solve this problem I have put together a list of activities that I might take up to help address this problem.

1. Paint everyday for at least 30 minutes

2. Actually work out for once in your life (excersise in known to improve one's mood)

3. Redecorate my room

4. Start cooking dinner

5. READ a book (you always used to read, get back to it!!!!)

6. Apply for a job (you've procrastinated this for too long)

7. Start thinking more about the future (no matter how much it scares you)

8. Try out yoga or meditation (you might actually enjoy it)

9. Volunteer (sometimes the best way to find yourself is by distracting yourself with others)

10. Take more naps (after you do your homework or it will never get done)

Sorry this is really short list but my goal at the end of this is to improve my overall mood (this sounds like a science project lol) and get the motivation back that I have lost throughout the course of junior year. Maybe this will be inspiration to some of you guys to start getting on the right track too. :))

Wish Me Luck,Heavkinz

P.S I think my blog posts are a lot more fun when they feature a picture so here is a picture of my sister that I think accurately describes Junior Year. (thanks sis)

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