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Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Is my opinion, better than yours?

America is so diverse and the issues that affect us all; are
pretty hurtful (such as-racism, immigration, terror and plain ole,
discrimination). Every day we all walk around on pins and needles because we
are afraid to say something. It is my belief that all of those issues mentioned
above are a part of a greater problem that is intertwined in the hearts, souls
and the soil of America. The only way to fix those problems; we need to attack
the system at its heart and work from there. I personally believe this is the
only place where the “Trickle Down Theory” will have some effect. In the next 15
years our children will inherit this mess and as their parents it is our job to
make sure our children are able to experience the world at large; just as the
original fore fathers created the “idea” of republic, for the people and by the
people.

My book, is called Black Racism/White Supremacy; the idea of
this book stem from five years of observation, road trips, personal
accomplishments and barriers to success, research (for all sections of the “issue”),
personal evaluations and years of personal opinions. As a journalist the idea
to create a story that can last for generations to come; is always a goal and
that is ultimately the goal of this book and my journalism interest. I
currently produce a personal blog, conduct freelance writing work and countless
hours of reading and investigation however; no matter how much I research or
how much I assume; I could never provide the perspective of a white person, Hispanic
person or a male.

I would like to work with you; on an on-going basis to
facilitate “America’s Idea” from several points of view. If you know me
personally there is no reason, you are not aware of my feelings and thoughts
when it comes down to life in America. I am a writer; college educated, married;
lesbian and Mother of one. A black proud woman, who comes from a less fortunate
family and that within itself, is job to get through. As a little girl my
Mother gave me a journal, to express my feelings without hesitation. I was 9
years old and that one journal turned into 17 journals, throughout my life.
After graduating college and pressuring a career in social services; I went out
into the world to gain everything I could, to facilitate “World Peace”. While
on this path, I ran across; lust portrayed as Love; molestation as a child and
the consent pressure to be better than my Mother. At age 27, I was the youngest
person in my position, at the local government Human Service Department; the
highest paid person in my entire family and the key too many people’s success.
After 2011 when my Grannie passed away; my eyes opened to a different world.

I begin reading more and stopped watching TV- did not come
by so easy but, I did it and as things begin to align with my goals, I lost my
Great Grandmother and my cousin, in 2012. The idea to write my autobiography
came when one day- a memory of my Mother offering me to her boyfriend for sex;
showed up in my sleep. It took everything out of me to hold this information in
but, something told me- my mother wouldn’t be able to handle this. This idea became
clear, in the spring of 2013 when my oldest Brother passed of HIV complications
and no one knew he had it. My wife and I depleted our savings paying for his funeral
and had to move in with my wife’s Mother. After we begin to rebuild our
savings- my Mother passed away from a heart attack and everything else became
irrelevant. I woke up one day and had no idea what to do with neither my life
nor myself. My entire life was devoted to making sure I out did my Mother by, choice
and by force. Everything I went after or attempt to complete- where all her
desires, for me and once that was gone, all those things required became redundant.
I noticed that my job within the government was to be a glorified baby sitter. I
walked away from that income. I opened a non-profit organization, The Woodland
Foundation; to help low-income individuals increase their education and
professional advancement opportunity.

I can no longer sit back and allow people, to pass issues
that will remain in our world-until we fix the problem and not the symptoms.

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