My new avatar is also a Caravaggio painting Ė David with the Head of Goliath, 1608. Recently Iíve been feeling like Iíve made some progress and donít want to identify as much with the victim status of my old avatar, Isaac being sacrifice.

I think i'm making some progress. I think i might even be starting to like myself a little bit more. more hopeful and getting some self-confidence and sense of autonomy.

Thanks for the acknowlegement. I usually appreciate your posts a lot.

Lee

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"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"

I've used my avatar on various sites for quite a while now.It's Alita from Battle Angel Alita a Japanese Magna character.There's some parts of the story that I really identify with.

Beeshive, is also a screen name that I've used in other places.I legally changed my name to Bobbie Bees a few years ago in an attempt to put what happened on CFB Namao to rest. Well, it didn't work for that purpose. But it did let me move on in other aspects of my life.

Edited by BeesHive (02/04/1207:33 PM)

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Bobbie Bees

Abused and betrayed in 1980.The former by a babysitter, the latter by the Candian Armed Forces.Heavily damaged BUT not destroyed.......

Hi Bobbie,I adore Japanese manga and I like your avatar. I've gave very short look on Alita's story and I've find it interesting. When I'll have more time I would like to read it !Discovering our own past and look for answers is everlasting quest for many of us.Be well!

My username is my initials followed by a set of numbers that have special meaning to me. My av is of me at 10, just after the abuse started. I picked that one so I remind myself of who I must be true to first before all others.

Daniel is because that's the alter who made the move in the internet to find some help. forgotten is a combination of things.. like.. since we have DID parts like Daniel might be forgotten and negated. -"he" doesnt exists it's just that i am crazy- kind of thought happens often.. also, the feeling so many people i met in my life just tries to forget about me to move on because im a pain too hard to handle.

my avatar is something sad and funny at the same time. "stupid ugly monkey" is how i was called as a child sometimes by my dad. it was an affectionate name. dad both loved me and abused me. i both love him and hate him.

when you type "stupid ugly monkey" this image pops up, with an additional word: "stupid-ugly-ANGRY-monkey"

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"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"

It Should be Who-me but it ended up whome, and that is for the times I was asked by my Dad are you being abused, and I would reply Who Me????Only told him three weeks ago about the abuse and he said "I knew it, why didn't you tell me" How do you answer that?

The avatar is a geological matrix, and the group I have started is called Matrix men, meaning a hard outer shell with Gems inside. Pretty much like all survivors, we have developed a hard outer shell, but we are all Gems inside.

Thanks for the Great Post.

Martin

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This is a great thread.Thank You to all of you who have shared your names and avatars.When I was a little boy, I wanted to be named "Evan" instead of my real name.I thought I would be perfectly happy if I were named Evan."EvanCan" is a name to signify that Evan "can" heal, grow, recover, mature, and be happy.My avatar is a beautiful creation of God who swims majestically and powerfully and inspires wonder and joy in others. That's who Evan and I want to be.Shalom.

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