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When Plans Don't Push Through

In my family, it has always been a practice not to make any plans. I don't know why but most of our don't push through. It has not been intentional though. Fortunately, there are a lot of good things that has happened without us planning any of it.

I'm the kind of person who still uses the traditional organizer or journal notebook where I list out my plans and tick them out once I complete them. It gives me great pleasure whenever I slash out a completed tasks. I feel that I have done something good that day.

Today, we were all supposed to go out for a family dinner. My mom made me look for a restaurant that we haven't tried before. But then, it was way past the time we were supposed to get ready and everyone seemed to have forgotten about it until it was too late already.

Whenever a plan doesn't push through, I get some kind of discomfort. It was worse when I was younger. I would throw tantrums when what I was expecting to happen don't happen. I think I have bought that attitude until now but the violent reaction now gone.

It's easier to accept that not all that you are supposed to do will happen. There are a lot of disappointments in my life already that I have somehow gotten used to so many disappointment still coming my way. There are still so many things on my list of things-to-do.

Fortunately, a lot of good things has happened to help me cope up with it. As I look at where I am right now, I think I've got myself covered somehow. But then, being contented don't stop me from making sure those plans push through somehow, even though it's not right now.

I've been addicted to this game for years now. And I made my husband addicted to it too. However, there was a time when we had given up on it. I was busy with the training and I'd rather sleep in my free time and he basically found a newer game he'd wanted to try.

At that time, there was no clan wars. We aimed for the town hall level 10 because we wanted to freely upgrade everything. We didn't know that eventually, people will tell us that we had some kind of "T.H. Rush".

And now, two years after I decided to delete the app from the iPad, I downloaded it to the phone to see what the fuss was all about.

I joined a clan again just to be kicked out minutes later after they found out that I was in my late 30's already. Saying that I was old before actually kicking me out.

The next clan I joined ended up the same way with me getting kicked out because according to them, I was just looting to which I beg to differ. I didn't know that I had to att…

Okay so I'm swearing by this: I'm going back to blogging. However, I don't know which ones I have to tell out there to nothingness and which I am going to keep in my subconsciousness. Whatever it is that I want to let out in this web world should just be in the web world.

What I'm going to openly write is things that might be acceptable, relate-able and never anything like that new TV series SENT. Hopefully, I don't make that mistake.

I do speak forcefully and annoyingly righteous at times. I don't know if I can really do it in writing. I'm not organized in physical things let alone, those abstract thoughts jumbled in my mind.

And so, it is with much effort that I would be writing down everything in my mind. What I'm not saying should be in writing. Of course, with temperance which I'm working on to let go. I don't have the option to say anything freely. Hopefully, I have the option to write freely.