People who knew me during my school and college days will find it difficult to believe what I have become now. How MUCH I want from my life? From my career. How desperate I am to create a niche for myself and not get lost in the crowd of mediocrity. And how desperately I want to do it on my own terms. I don’t understand complacence. I probably just refuse to. At the cost of losing my peace of my mind ever so often.

This afternoon I suddenly felt all my worries going up in the air. I may have to work harder, fight it out, constanly look for options where none exist because the joy of finding that elusive option is incomparable… And when I go to sleep at night, I can look back and feel like I have done something worthwhile. And when that feeling is missing, I lose sleep and peace and happiness over it.

I may seem like an extremist (and from what I know of myself, I am really not that). But that’s me. I know that it’s because there are still people who live by the book that make the economy stable enough for mavericks like me to create a niche. Today I have created my niche (more on this later).

I am ecstatic. Because yet again, living life on my own terms has yielded benefits that even those who live by the book will understand. Yayyy!!! :D :D :D