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Wednesday, May 17, 2017

Its so long not post a new entry here.
And today something happen that makes me want to write.
Please bear with me writing this emotional, dark, depressing entry.

My dream is always beautiful than reality

For who really really close* to me, they would know why I said this thing. My life have been a roller coaster ride. Since my mom gone, I have no one to hold on other than my family. There was time we're happy, and there's also time we are depress and become too emotional. However it is, we are still grateful because we have each other.

This evening, I dream of something. By something, I mean someone. This someone who should not be name is the one that make my life miserable. The one that makes my dream is more beautiful than reality. And today, this someone appears in my dream. And suddenly my dreams become a nightmare. When you wake up from your sleep, and you realizes there's tears in your eyes. You know that this someone have make so much impact to your life.

You know the feeling that your dream feels real. Like really real, that you feel the same hurt,sad thing just like in your dream. Yup, Im feeling it right now.

My dream is beautiful than my reality
How could a dream be this sad and cruel
How could this someone appear in my dream
How much more this someone want to destroy me
Even in a dream.

I miss you, umi. I just want to run,hug and cry in your arms right now, umi.

Friday, March 24, 2017

Support you, helps you, always be there for you. Somehow, we always forget to be grateful to have them by our side. People take for granted the people who always be with them until they gone. The appreciation, the regret always come later.

We tend to make other people as our priority, but actually family should be the top priority. Family comes first than everything. We always thought that our family never understand us but actually they just want to protect us.

"Family is not an important thing. It's everything." - Michael J. Fox

I'd drop everything just for them

My sister once said that other people can talk anything they want, they care but do they worried for you later if you pick wrong decision? Trust me, no. Family care for you and they would also worried if you choose wrong decision. So, if sometimes we think our family is too strict with us. Think again. They do that because they love you.

Family are the one who can accept us for who we are. Always there with us, ups and downs. Our struggles, our tears, our stupid jokes, our laugh, our happiness they should be the first want to know. Because family are our number one supporters. Be grateful for having a family. Because there is someone out there wish to have one.

My Sisters. My Bestfriends. My Everything

“No family is perfect… we argue, we fight. We even stop talking to each
other at times. But in the end, family is family… The love will always
be there.”

Thursday, February 9, 2017

Life is like a swing. Remember the times when you was let down. When you had to face challenges alone. It felt like no hope would knock at your door. But you have to swing constantly to keep yourself at the top

At the top where everything is happy. At the top where everything is fine. At the top where dreams become a reality. At the top where there's nothing to worry about. The problem is no matter how hard you swing, you will always pass by the low ground.

But if there were no ground. There would be no place to fall onto. The low ground where problems lurk is a part of everyone's life and always will be. And without problems to solve, there would be no reason to keep on going.