Having a hard time Dealing...

There are so many words that could describe the way im feeling at the moment.. Yet only one cures it.. "Dead"...

I was listening to a song erlier, I just got an invite on MySpace. Quite happy - Because I don't generally get them.. -sighs- The person had a song on their space, and it got to me so badly. Everything about it did. The words..

[Warning - If you get triggerd easily, please don't read below]

I miss you, I miss the sound of your voice in my ears, I miss the way you shake in my arms when you laugh, I miss the way your smile just brightens up my day, My world. I miss the way you make me feel, No-one could ever make me feel the way you did...

I feel complete, I feel so happy yet scared, I feel excited and overwhelmed I feel so many things that its hard to describe. Sometimes it makes me fall inlove with my words, I miss who you are, I miss everything you say, everything that you do that makes me smile and laugh..

I miss the way you look at me, I can imagine myself in your eyes, Your so beautifle I miss US. I miss holding your arms, Whether I like it or not? Whether you like it or not.. I miss holding your hands, I miss the one on ones..

I'm Just watching tv alone, I miss the feel of your lips on mine, I miss slow dancing with you, I miss walking you home, I miss holding your hand untill we fall asleep, I miss being with you, I miss... YOU~

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They may not be in order, because it was copied from what I put on SF-Chat.
Nearly every person on SF-Chat knows why im here. 3 dead girlfriends, stress of family, alot of others..

I just don't think its worth me carrying on anymore.. Not after everthing thats happend.. It's just getting worse..

dear josh
so many things bring up our pasts...
even tho i cant make it go away i can and will be here for u
i can listen and try to make u laugh and want to ease ur pain
i can get lewis to send rude pictures lol
here for u josh as u have been for me many times
lean on me
thinking of u
hug