2016 - A Lot of Dead Monkeys, Because I Quit The Circus

2015 was better than 2014 by a long shot, as I characterized 365 days ago. It helps I let go of a lot of things and just learned to accept myself as I am. I figured I would go over what I actually managed to accomplish last year, based on those “goal”, (if you can call them that,) I set and work on some new ones.

I will no longer go out of my way to feed one way relationships. If all you’re doing is stressing me out, we’re done. From now on…we won’t even start.

It’s amazing how few new friends I haven’t made this year. The few I did are awesome and I intend to keep them.

“There are certain people in your life that no matter how long you go without talking whenever you do, you pick up where you left off. Or no matter how many miles apart, the distance will never change a thing.” ~Someone smarter than me.

I will no longer sacrifice what I want, for what I think will make another happy. I will do what I want when I can, and I don’t want to hear about how I’m making bad choices. My life is a giant list of bad choices, and so was everyone else’s. I’m done punishing myself to make others happy.

I will no longer choose things over travel. I’ve got enough crap. I’m going to travel, so when I get my ass on a plane to Germany in a few months for no reason at all, don’t be shocked, and per #1 on this list….I don’t want to hear anyone’s crap about it either. I will either get to live alone again in this life or I won’t. I will either live with my boyfriend or I won’t. Since the universe decided it didn’t want me to have those things…I am not longer worried about them.

I will no longer cater to the weak by mincing words that need to be spoken. The harsh truth is sometimes the only solution. Tact is always paramount, but in the words of Winston Churchill, “Tact is the ability to tell someone to go to hell in such a way that they look forward to the trip.”

I….will probably never learn The Art of Tact and 2016 is shaping up to be an election year full of idiocy..

I will no longer feign extroversion….it’s bloody exhausting and excruciating. Not to mention I spend days trying to recover from it.

My house? It’s really nice? Traveling alone? Is fucking awesome.

I am deleting my Facebook, it is the single largest source of all the stress and heartache I feel towards others. Not to mention I hate hearing about politics.

Best 8 months of my life!!! Highly recommend it.

I am going to put my phone on “do not disturb” a lot more. Mostly because I hate talking on my phone. Leave me a message and I will get back to you at my leisure. Only call 2 times or more in a row in the event of an actual emergency.

Also worked out REALLY well.

I will schedule required “work time” every day of the regular week, to get caught up on Etsy, because I have an awful lot of stuff sitting around that needs to get listed. I need the money.

I has a real job now…but I still need to get caught up on Etsy & Ebay…

I will a lot required “photo sorting” time into each day, a bit extra on the weekends. Because I have 18,600 pictures in Lightroom…. 90% of them are not tagged or sorted properly. This mess of mine weighs on me a lot and I need to get it straight.

This did not happen nearly as much as I needed it to. Currently my “photos” folder houses 21659 photos. >.<

I’m going to eat how I feel I should, which is going to mean at times…I’m not going to eat because I can’t afford it. This is the fact of my life at this time and it is not a play for sympathy. I don’t want the sympathy.

I swear…I’m trying, but I miss easy food.

I will not beat myself up over not going to school. This will probably be the hardest, because I feel like I should be done by now. But until I find a way to calm my life down it’s not practical. I will revisit this decision in the summer after I have hopefully landed steady full-time work and have paid off some of the things that bother me….and board a plane to a far away place.

Hopefully I can start again in Summer 2016. But if not…so be it.

My song for the year is Hozier’s “Take Me To Church“, it’s probably going to sum up my feelings about the 2016 political year as well.

2016: Nothing changes on New Year’s Day

So my goals for this year pretty much consist of:

Visit London, if only for tea.

Own less shit.

Save money through buying less shit.

Eat better and actually work out the way I should be.

Deal with the family photos, the coin collection and the stamp collection.