I don’t watch the Olympics (won’t get too much into it, but not a fan of how it’s been bought out by big capitalist corporations supporting them). I don’t have a tv. But I have been following representations of Gabby Douglas using internet media over the last week and have been anxiously waiting to see what would happen….and I have to say that I’m impressed that meritocracy ruled in the gymnastic competition today for Gabby. I saw the trials at a restaurant the other week, and saw how amazing Gabby was and wondered if racism would rule the judging….I know all too well, having watching the judges over the last 3 decades ( as a figure skating and gymnasts fan) screw over any girl who didn’t act or look ‘white Euro Anglo enough.’ Congrats Gabby on focusing on your goal and not letting certain folk’s racist foolishness detract and distract you.

I felt that I had to say something about Gabby because as I heard about her performance, I began thinking about many things in relation to black women in ‘white’ dominated sports (dominated not necessariy because white racialized subjects are better, but because of racist judging that permeates gymnastics and figure skating).

I remember my white high school teacher being disgusted by Surya Bonaly, the black French figure skater. Bonaly was ‘too masculine’ for her. I knew the judges thought the same.

And then there were mainstream responses to the Williams sisters when they first came onto the scene. Oh brother. Disgusting.

I remember over 10 years ago when Dominique Dawes had to share a gold with Kim Zmeskal, even though it was clear that Dawes was the better performer.

Arkansas is not atypical. I have spoken to several close black friends over the years who said that similar happened to them, 15+ years ago when they were ‘outperforming’ white students in their high school. Though I graduated #3 in my high school class of all white students (except my twin black brother), I had struggled with hearing comments by peers talk about their jealousy of me out performing them and wondered how many teachers may have also thought that way and wondered if I was being graded fairly or not.

And what I found even more disturbing were the Tweets by black women, attacking Gabby for her hair being ‘unkempt’ while she was doing her thang. You’ve got to love internalized racism/white supremacist perceptions of beauty by black women. Reminds me that throughout my 17 years of having a natural hairstyle, it has only been BLACK WOMEN (with the except of 1 or 2 white men I worked with in corporate atmosphere) that have said something negative about my hair. Seriously, the comments, attacking a child, by grown-ass women is pathetic and disgusting.

So yea, thought I’d share my thoughts on this and look forward to seeing how ‘judging’ progresses in the two sports I have loved most (gymnastics and figure skating) since childhood :-) I’d think that Gabby’s win is too early to believe that meritocracy works for all girls and women who don’t fit the ‘usual look’.