Tonight I feel the passage of time So close And in the centre of that, The timeless. Can I open my heart wide enough, Nay, can I see that it is already wide enough To hold the heartbreaking beauty Of both? The tender curl of your eyelashes, The pout of your lip. The innocence in your eyes, That brin...

I can see you must be feeling super confused! It's ok - I'm sure we've all felt a fair bit of confusion along the way. I know I have. You could try gently steering away from trying to see who you are not (un-identifying) and steer more towards feeling what you are right in this moment. Feel your pre...

runstrails said: HI Alex, Hope you are well :D. Hey trails! I hope you are well too, sorry for my delayed reply. I've been rather busy. Thanks for the links, I will check them out. I think I remember you talking about some kind of yoga a while ago and I liked the sound of it. I must say I've had tro...

So - there is recognising being, recognising that being is what I am. Then there is resting there, effortlessly. Then there is detachment from even that - awareness is free even from pure awareness. There is nothing to hold it, no place to stick to. Life is a dance. Do you know what I mean? Is it ab...

but our absorption can lead to acts of omission.....not paying attention to those we love and those around us as we obsess on certain inner phenomenon. Yes - it does seem to be a part of the journey - self obsession. I don't think it's a bad thing, quite natural probably. Self obsession is synonymo...

Alex said : What do you think? Well I just re-read that post and this is what I think - self obsession much!! Haha. Is just a focus on the story and not really needed - sure it helps to question the beliefs that create your story but being focussed on the story doesn't really get you anywhere. Over ...

Thanks for the link - Am I a narcissist? Hmm - I had a fairly traumatic experience which caused some deep low self worth. It sent me on a trajectory of trying to find validation through what others think of me, trying to find acceptance, being 'normal'. Is that narcissism? I'm fairly aware of how I ...

Ashley: Over the years I became obsessive & over the top whilst seeking, but I eventually reigned in my goals to more normal levels & with that has come contentment for the small things. Sounds like you're walking the walk re. keeping it real. Nice. I don't think one could maintain obsessive seekin...

Thank you onceler for your beautiful reply. Sometimes it can feel like such a slog through the dark parts - reactions to things seem so much more intense - I think maybe it's just that with consciousness comes a more heightened experience of whatever pain is here. There is a rawness. Sit tight folks...

Thank you muchly for your responses. They bring comfort. Do you catch on to your mind games quicker than you did before? Do you see the bigger picture more easily? Do you get sane and recover from them sooner? I like this point. We are where we are and it's about the journey and this moment right no...