Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

like it never existed

I have friends in real life, I can count them on one hand and have enough left to pick my nose and flip some guy off for making a comment about me doing it, TRUE friends ya know? the kind that will help you move and really not mind. try to loan you money even though you didn't ask for it and they know you wont take it. people outside my wife and kids that i actually CARE about, I have true friends on DS i would need both hands and a few toes to count them, not that they would help me move or try to loan me money, but i have said things to them about me that i have NEVER said to my friends IRL and they still show me compassion and understanding and I LOVE THEM for that! My wife and children are wonderful and supportive and fun and beautiful, I live in my own house (well the banks house but it will be mine eventually) its not fancy or big, but its nice and a home, I have a couple jobs where I am needed, my old dog follows me around the house just so she can sleep in whatever room i am in, and yet I have been crying non stop since i woke up an hour ago and i feel like suckin on a 12 guage (I won't don't worry, I know enough to know this will pass) yes this will pass but What in the flyin fuck? why the fuck is it even here? I had such an awesome last 36 hours and now all i want to do is figure out a way to make it look like an accident. its so cruel, and i HATE it i wish it were something tangible that i could get my hands on and destroy, oh what pleasure that would be, what bliss, make IT suffer and i surely would derive unhealthy and perverse pleasure at watching this thing scream in agony, smiling at It as It pleads for mercy in its death spasms, where was your mercy you wretched and evil thing, you have made me like you, but only for this moment, once you are gone and you remains are discarded, probably buried in salt to make sure whats left of you could never pretend to nourish but then contaminate life in any form. then I will truly be free, and i would never again think one thought of you, it would be like you never existed,

Sickofit, it sucks the most when you don't know why you feel like crap all of a sudden, but I think it's great you see all these other, wonderful things in your life. It may not be enough to say, &quot;This will pass&quot;, but just know that you can talk, vent, rant, anything you want, and we're here for you. Love ya! HUGS times a million!

I send big comforting hugguns your way squire.
Crying for what seems like no reason sucks alot but its all better out than in.
You have been on form on the boards, humour an A++ rated affair, have you thought that this could just be a mood crash? They often tag themselves on to the end of a good phase of moods because they are sneaky ruiners of fun!

magic words, if they ever existed, have surely all been used by now. since they've all been used, we're now left with cliches - &quot;this will pass&quot; &quot;time will heal&quot; &quot;tomorrow will be better&quot; &quot;god has a plan&quot; - whether these cliches are true or not, at times like these, i know they sound hollow and meaningless.

but know that you're pain is shared - by me and many others here. know that when you are hurting, others are here not only to listen and support you but to share the pain with you - to take even the tiniest bit of it off you because sharing your pain is better than having you suffer alone.

know that you are loved - you've found a place in many hearts that only you can fill and in doing so, we've committed to both the difficult and good times with you. we give you our words of encouragement with the same intensity that we take your words of support - and we follow you through the good places and the bad.

ditto - all that they said, AND, work.
What do I mean? Something (only an opinion) might be driving these feelings. It takes some work, but one can find out, Learn, what is Behind them. Where are they coming from? I know right now they seem to just pop out of nowhere. I wonder is there wasn't some very quite trigger(s)?
I use the word &quot;work&quot; because I got it from years of therapy. It was a lot of work, good work, hard work. May I ask if you ever tried therapy, or are in it now? Meds help a lot, but sometimes I feel like they work (not always, of course) like cold medicine - masking the sympotoms so we can get on with life. Still in the background this rage and other stuff is waiting it's turn.
Baz makes a good point of it coming on the heels of such a nice good run.
Well, I'm rambling, sorry. I'm with all the Clichs, like SA mentioned, don't get me wrong, I just want this to get over with for you too. AND, I want to encourage you to dig and work - redirect the energy IT gives you toward Learning where IT is coming from.
I agree with all these people, you are an awesome person and a valuable member here. We're behind you 1000%!

When you find how to do that my wonderful friend.. We will drive it to the Great Salt Lake here in Utah and bury it deep in the mighty salt for ever and we will be free of its hold on us.. freakin nastiest demon ever..

It seems strange to me that some of us that use our humor to get through our days are some of the most depressed here.. I ruv you man..

ok its been ten hours since I posted that, I slept for 6 of those and am much better now, thank you all for being there for me :&gt; I am roadripping to beautiful downtown forest lakes az today so I wiil checkin in via phone.

A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...

Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...

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