In the face of impending loss, I refuse to be afraid. I embrace all my losses. I take all of my losses and make them the Material Basis from which I will create Something Greater. I choose to become rather than simply be.

It is better to risk mistakes than to live with the certainty of error.

If one's ideas are so chaotic as to change every time one passes wind, one will naturally conclude that those who do not fart are lazy.

I don't need a saviour. I just need to get out of my own way.

I no longer define myself as a survivor of Christianity. Thankfully I have got past that negative, toxic, Pauline invention, and shaken off it's influinces. As a post-survivor I feel like I have finally emerged from the darkness of fundamentalism and into the Light of אין סוף אור . I have new healthy ways to see and define myself, other people, the world, and the future.

I am awake! If I seem to be bothering you, it's because I'm trying to wake you too. Beware of fundamentalists in all their guises. Regardless of their origens, they are ALL equally blinkered, unthinking & dangerous.

It is acceptable to use any symbolism from any source or tradition. However I am drawn towards "western" symbols. I think the "eastern" mind set is not so suited to people in the West. Traditionally the eastern method or practice has been to empty the mind of all thoughts (無心 Mushin), whereas the western method has been to layer up and fill the mind. Jewish & Egyptian systems have traditionally been seen as Western. Regarding nature, I see it as a manifestation of the Divine, just as we are manifestations of the Divine. More accurately, these are prisms or ways of seeing or understanding the Divine.

I believe that everything existing is a manifestation of the Divine, but that everything exists within the Divine while the Divine extends eternally beyond. It's as though the Divine created a "space" within itself in which to begin the act of creation.

The following best explain my belief regarding Deity:

I am a..........

A) Monist :- Deity has no number. There is only Being. All forms of reality are modes, forms, views, or understandings of it.

B) Henotheist :- All the different gods are various human understandings of Divinity.

C) Deist :- Deity is the source of the universe. This can be determined using reason & observing the natural world, but NOT by revelation by a god, or by religion. All so-called holy books are purely human works. Some (or parts thereof) are very wise, and move people to great things. Others (or parts thereof) are biased, hatefull, divisive, regressive and move people to injustice, and crimes against humanity.

D) Panentheist :- Deity interpenetrates every part of nature, while timelessly extending beyond as well. The universe exists within Deity.

E) Gnostic :- Deity unfolds in eminations to become the reality we experience. Pure "Sparks" of the Divine reside within humanity. The task is to reunite these Sparks with the Divine. We begin this by consciously separating the various parts of ourselves, purifying them, and putting the purified parts back together so that we evolve to actualize all of our Divine potential. Nobody can intercede between Divinity & the individual. I work to experience aspects of the Divine myself.

F) Sabian :- Respect for Deity, immanent in nature & particularly in the order, and movement of the heavenly bodies.

If any religion, philosophy, political system, or person demeans you, they are not worthy of you. Those who speak ill of you are not worthy of you. Those who are worthy of you will not speak ill of you.

There are people out there whose sense of wellbeing depends on controlling & manipulateing you. They believe they can treat you any way they want & still retain your loyalty. Becoming an authentic individual means leaving them behind. You don't owe them anything, but you owe it to yourself to protect yourself from their abuse & manipulations. Learn to descriminate between truth & lies. Distance yourself from their dysfunction. They often create their own rules, see themselves as right and you as wrong. That is why it is vital that you put a wall of silence between yourself & the abuser. The abuser is often disconnected from reality & may be dangerous. You may have to keep the abuser at a distance. Endorse yourself for taking back your power. Practice self-leadership & remind yourself of your inherent & inalienable self-worth.

People talk about 'Respect' and say it must be earned. I prefer to talk about 'Dignity' which all people have by virtue of their humanity, and the Respect which I owe that Dignity. Admiration is earned. Dignity is a basic human right. Respect is a basic human duty.

I believe that as a society, we all leap forward every time a man or woman of vision, or accomplishment steps forward. However I also believe that we are held back, not by our weakest members, but by those who would leave them behind.

Rapists and child abusers should go to prison and stay there. Those who endanger the lives of others with false allegations should go to jail and stay there too.

There are none so powerless as those who believe they cannot fight.

Favorite Quotes

"Fear is failure, so be without fear" Horus.

"Unbalanced Severity is cruelty and oppression; unbalanced Mercy is but weakness and would permit Evil to exist unchecked, thus making itself, as it were, the accomplice of that evil." Horus.

"I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the Lord do all these things." Isaiah 45:7

"It's only pain" Brian McCarthy My Bushinkan instructor.

"The old fox can learn more from the young fool, than the young fool can learn from the old fox". Zen saying.

"Reserve your right to think, for even to think wrongly, is better than not to think at all." Hypatia of Alexandria. ( Martyred in March 415ce By Cyril the bishop of Alexandria, inventor of the Trinity, and a mob of murderous christians.)

"All formal dogmatic religions are fallacious and must never be accepted by self-respecting persons as final". Hypatia of Alexandria. (Murdered by Christians in Alexandria. March 415ce)

"Fable should be taught as fable, myth as myth, and miracles as poetic fancies. To teach superstitions as truth is horrifying. The mind of a child accepts them and only through great pain, perhaps tragedy, can the child be relieved of them. Men will fight for superstition as quickly as for the living truth -- even more so, since a superstition is intangible, you can't get at it to refute it, but truth is a point of view, and so is changeable." Hypatia of Alexandria. (Murdered by Cyril the bishop of Alexandria, inventor of the Trinity, and a mob of murderous Christians. March 415ce)

"Natura est deus in rebus. Nature is none other than God in things... Animals and plants are living effects of Nature; Whence all of God is in all things... Think thus, of the sun in the crocus, in the narcissus, in the heliotrope, in the rooster, in the lion." Giordano Bruno. (Murdered by the Catholic Inquisition. 17 February 1600 Rome)

“Cognition can never be perfect to the extent that it shall be able to understand the highest object; but only to the extent that our intellect has the power to understand this object. It suffices that in this state of ours and in any other our intellect may perceive divine beauty to the degree that it extends the horizon of its vision.” Bruno, Giordano. (Murdered by the Catholic Inquisition. 17 February 1600 Rome)

“It is proof of a base and low mind for one to wish to think with the masses or majority, merely because the majority is the majority. Truth does not change because it is, or is not believed by a majority of the people" Giordano Bruno (Murdered by the Catholic Inquisition. 17 February 1600 Rome)

"They dispute not in order to find or even to seek Truth, but for victory, and to appear the more learned and strenuous upholders of a contrary opinion. Such persons should be avoided by all who have not a good breastplate of patience.” Giordano Bruno. (Murdered by the Catholic Inquisition. 17 February 1600 Rome.)

"Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able, and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?" Epicurus

"If you are pained by any external thing, it is not this that disturbs you, but your own judgment about it. And it is in your power to wipe out this judgment now." Epictetus

"It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live." Marcus Aurelius

"Dig within; for within you lies the fountain of good, and it can always be gushing forth if only you always dig." Marcus Aurelius Meditations 7:59

"...there is no claim of authority by any beyond the accepted Ritual." W. Westcott. Flying Roll XV: Man and God.

"I believe in the practice and philosophy of what we have agreed to call magic, in what I must call the evocation of spirits, though I do not know what they are, in the power of creating magical illusions, in the visions of truth in the depts of the mind when the eyes are closed; and I believe in three doctrines, which have, as I think, been handed down from early times, and been the foundations of nearly all magical practices. These doctrines are: 1) That the borders of our minds are ever shifting, and that many minds can flow into one another, as it were, and create or reveal a single mind, a single energy. 2) That the borders of our memories are as shifting, and that our memories are a part of one great memory, the memory of Nature herself. 3) That this great mind and great memory can be evoked by symbols." W.B. Yeats

"Only the merging of our human wills with the Universal Will can result in hastening the day of our perfection." Florence Farr.

"To the Ancient Egyptians the most eminent man was he who had by hard training gained supremecy over the Elements, from which his own body and the Manifested World were alike formed; one whose Will had risen Phoenix-like from the ashes of his desires; one whose intuition cleansed from the stains of material illusion, was a clear mirror in which he could perceive the past, present, and the future." Florence Farr