A very curious turn-on

I'm generally of the opinion that any aspect of sexuality is more-or-less normal, if deviated, but I've come upon a strange turn-on.

Execution.

I read about torture and execution on Wikipedia from time to time, a basic morbid curiousity I think we all share, but... the strange part is that I become aroused. Erection. I'm just a step shy of masturbating to an Iron Maiden...

Do other things of the sort turn you on? Like sadistic porn or anything like that? Because I would imagine when sadistic porn isn't enough anymore, watching someone die would be the next step.
You're not a bad person for this turning you on, but it is something that requires attention, so that you don't end up acting on something someday, unless you are certain it is something that is only a fantasy. Either way, it does show that you need healing and someone to help you figure out why this turns you on.
Some people on this forum would argue people can't help what turns them on but I 110% disagree. I am glad you shared this with us because it shows you are not denying that it turns you on, but it would be helpful for you to have someone figure out why it does.
much love :heart:

Every sick fetish has been done. There are whole genres out there committed to rape, torture, murder, mutilation, amputation, etc. I'm sorry this has happened to you, I know you must be frightened and confused. Is this just something that caught your interest for the moment, or are you really getting into it in a big way?

You seem to me to be a caring person and I think you are a good guy. I really hope people won't be ignorant and think you are a bad person, which is so typical when people open up. Sadly even on a site like this some people won't understand you.