Bismillah,
2 days ago, I went back to my original home. Huhu,Perak is full with memories. The smell of home is missed tremendously.hu. The entire of siblings gathering in a house since we are kid, it reminded me to the past. Huhu..

Eventhough its just 2 days, I still exhausted with time to be gathered with them. Ummi and others are so special, so that makes the home smell with beautiful memories.

The home is so great. I fell, cry, sick, and bless with love in that house.Huhu.

All of you will be in my du'a. amiin. Thanks every body. May Allah bless you.

My friend had asked me when I share a tazkirah with him about the Rahmah and Hidayah. I've told him, "dont ever let the Hidayah turn away from you once you got it."

He kindly asked me, "How do you know that you've got the Hidayah?"

That time, I just bowed and felt ashame with myself. I replied to him. The past came appear in mind suddenly. Huhu"When I was school in SMKA, the life was different with other teenagers outside. The sweet of Iman is unforgettable. Living in the tarbiyyah life. You would feel something's going to be wrong if once you didnt pray in jemaah, didnt reciting the Quran, and the tarbiyyah teachs you to have to look after with your attitudes; respecting people and always thinking the hereafter. Plus, the sunnah of Rasulullah is committed into the lifestyle. You would never forget that moment"

People, as for illustration, we are referring to a pendrive. A pendrive 2G with price RM18.00. When the pendrive is good and clean without virus, the owner will take care of it. However, when ever the pendrive derived viruses and give effect to the input files, hence, the owner would throw it to the bin.

This analogy is explaining how human being will assessed by The Almighty: Allah SWT. The value of pendrive is inexpensive, means that we as human comes from the ground and dirty. But, Allah itself raises our level among other creatures. But, we are forgettable, the promises with Him previously to worship on the world always undone. The viruses are referring to our sins, which mean, if we are full with sin, we are no longer useful. Because the intention of our created is to worship to Him. So, when the day of real judgement in the hereafter, man who has full of sins lists, Allah will throw him to the hell.. Nauzubillah.. I'm so sorry if my words are impolitely.

Friday, May 6, 2011

This is a simple tazkirah I just got it during walking to the mosque before Asar prayer. I've met akhi Fikri, my senior of Nasyeed Club. We just talking about our update activities.

Now, Akhi Fikri is working for part time teaching people reciting Quran. Subhanallah, May Allah bless you. I'm admire with him. He teachs people who are older than him. They themselve have much mannerism, those sometimes make Akhi Fikri got complicated. Huhu. He had sacrifice much money and energy. Taking public transport to go to the place of his need to teach. Every 3 days a week.

Then, I ask him, the payment he get by his job. He said, the payment is around RM300 per month. "Wah, banyak juga tu." That's what had I answered him.

Wor, it's painful. Huhu, but, that was my mistake, talking without thinking literally and I must be adviced by him. Astaghfirullah. He had tazkirah me as a sharing knowledge. Syukran jazillan ya akhi for a short tazkirah.

~~@ The lesson : Everything we do, need to be sincered for Allah. Thus, we'll gain the barakah and rahmah by Him, inshaAllah. Then, I went to the mosque by put a "niyyat Lillah Ta'ala." Hence, please get correct your intention of worshipping.

I'm not done with this feeling : happy. I always grateful to Allah. He heard my du'a'.

All my friends and me get passed the EPT. Alhamdulillah! Allahuakbar! Every day, I pray to Him, asking Him, please make we pass the EPT. Alhamdulillah. It was accepted by The Almighty! Allahuakbar!

Now, I'm acceptable to study in kulliyah subject! Alhamdulillah..

InshaAllah, I will take short semester this year to make the year of study becomes short. I must be focus on study. Eventhough, I realised, there will be many attractions that would down my intention of study. That's why, I will busy myself with finding the Rahmah of Allah if I have a leisure. Of course, with my new job, I'd make the mosque as my second home. And I love it. Love to live like this. Just, I wish this is not for temperary, but continuosly. InshaAllah, Amiin..

Its kind of weird, when your eyes and nose, both are getting red. Then, the tears flowing down slowly wetting the face. People realised your lies. But, you act like nothing happen ; acting normal, walking around of thousand people watching you...

The tears come out without the intention. When you think of 'it', the tears will come automatically. If you know the switch, you'd put it off.. Because its so embarrassing.

When the night comes, your eyes would reddish. It always happen lately. Thinking of people assuming yourself as a good guy. They were wrong. When the time comes: The hereafter, all of them will see your past. All of them might be shock with you!!

But, how can you remove the book of your sins. The past can't be rewind, and every day the books get double. Nauzubillah, astaghfirullah.. But, people keep thinking you are a good guy. Its good when everybody saying your goodness, it's part of ad-do'a.

But, yourself keep haunted by the past ; Unstoppable regret.

You know yourself. You know how much your worships, but you will never how much your reward and the way of Allah assessing you. Hence, the heaven is not assured for you, while the hell always getting hot seeing your mistakes. Astaghfirullah..

~Maybe You are not the best for her. I dont know, how's The Almighty arranging the partner of marriage. We pray for the best~

Annur : 26, please believe on this fantastic word. It's one of gift by Allah for humanbeing realising their status.