broke.... and i want a damn blooody badminton racket which costs 19.90... i need a holiday job.... but come to think of it... my heavy racket can train my arm power too :P

so.... haha....

now for the not so bimbotic entry... simin starts thinkingit's not like me....to gush about my idols on msn nicksto wish to be aloneto wish to find some desolated areas of the school to contemplateto constantly stare straight down when i'm standing on the 5th floor wondering if this hurtsto wish to buy my friends lots & lots of presents and wish that i could just exhaust all my wealth on themto wish to do things that i know would end up hurting myselfto wonder if the dark hole will come back....u know i will miss uu know i hate saying goodbyesu know somethings i just can't let go...

in case u didn't know, i'm peeved by ur insensitivity, ur callousness, ur brainlessness, ur worthlessnessi shld just link u to all negative connotations tt is availale in this world. in this case, i can just tell u in the face, fuck u... i just wished i had the courage to write out ur nameu said it as if it was some event that happened in another school, another time...u told me to let her go, like she's more like a thing to u than a friendu said that these things can't be helped, like u even bothered to feel sad or regretful at allwhat are we to u? ur tools? ur rubbish cleaner? is this how u treat us?she is my friend! HARLOW!!! doesn't this even get into ur thick skull? and u even gave absurd & ridiculous ideas to me and expect me to think it's nice?! u are a big piece of bullshit.ur tone sucks, ur personality sucks too... u dun deserve any respect from me. in fact, hatred suits u more...

i will not give way under pressure... i have walked this far, i refuse to be beaten down...yet whenever im with u, i just feel... confused.... regret? happiness?hatred?it's just everything combined into one.... so complicated, yet so easy to understand... just like u...why are we crying?~I would have you smile, not grief for those whose time has come

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“It is said an eastern monarch once charged his wise men to invent a sentence, to be ever in view, and which should be true and appropriate in all times and situations. They presented him with the words, 'And this, too, shall pass away.' How much it expresses! How chastening in the hour of pride! How consoling in the depths of affliction!” ~Abraham Lincoln