Author: denisurya

I feel really down after failed to married at 2015, and lose motivation to write anything. And since that i tried several date, but still not successful to get a girlfriend. The first date is failed because when in date i still thinking about my ex and not focused on the date. And after several failed date, i realized that every woman have that different perspective even when the act sometimes like my ex. And then i found someone who look like good candidate, and have going several date with her. But it still not successful because she just used me to buy thing for her.
And then goes again several failed date so i decided to just going around with my friends. After that i skipped date for several month, and then my friend introduce me to a girl. And i going date few times with her and i feel like it is a match. And i invite her to join with my friend to trip, and it is a fun day. But few week after that trip, her respond is bad and the shocking news that my friend is became her new boyfriend. So i feel betrayed and not want to go anywhere. So, i skipped date again several month, and just going with a few friend. Continue reading “Desperate Odor”

It is been long time before i posted something, so hello all readers. Today is my birthday, and it is been exciting journey until today. If i looked back 1 year before, definitely there is many happy days, and the most exciting day is happen in last year Halloween. This day is when i have relationship with girl of my dream, and it make my days ahead full of happy days. Yes Love is just not enough, and relationship is hard but i try my best and in the process become more mature. Another exciting day is happen on seventh of June where i had my first dream car after waiting for 4 month. Yes Car is not investment, and make me in debt, but it also make me try my best to get extra money and in the process i realize my deepest dream. And another exciting day is happen on June too where i tried to make my deepest dream come true, making my own game. Yes making game is not one man show, and make me frustrated, but it also make me find the easy game console developing program and in the process to make my own game. And another exciting day is happen on my birthday this year is president election day and everyone is looked like celebrating my birthday because it became public holiday, what a great day, but remember guys choose your best because Indonesia fate for 5 year ahead is decided in this day. There is so many exciting and happy day before my birthday, but just this day that i will shared with all you reader. So, great year has been achieved, and i hope for success, happy, and great year for next year. Happy Birthday Myself.

I had read on the my friend fb post about Don Miguel’s agreements, and think it is good to be spread. Don Miguel’s 4 agreements :

1. Be Impeccable With Your Word:

Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.

2. Don’t Take Anything Personally:

Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

3. Don’t Make Assumptions:

Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

4. Always Do Your Best:

Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.

On 25-27 November 2013 there is world culture forum. This event is festival film from around the world, to promote culture from other country and had been postpone for 30 years. On the second day, i watch movie called Vizontele, although i actually want to watch Fukushima Hulla Girl because i don’t know the schedule has been changed.

This film is started in the turkey area, with Emin, the enginer take a bath on outside his house and being bullied by people. And the scene continue with son of the mayor in the village going to participate in war as soldier. Then the Mayor get news that governor sent vizontele to the village, which they are waiting for so long. But the mayor itself actually don’t know what is vizontele and called it radio with picture in it. And it goes on with people on the village look at cinema, with they already look the same film several times and already remember the dialogue outside their head.

The governor agent going on the car bring the vizontele to the village. But they are already late to deliver the vizontele and need to going back quickly. Meanwhile in the village, the village people make ceremony to accept the vizontele, and the mayor give speech about vizontele advantage which is people will not need going to cinema and can hear news at the same time with other place in the earth. And the governor agent is came to the village and deliver the vizontele but just give quick explanation how to use it and then leaving the village. The mayor is not understand how to turn on the vizontele and have mixed feeling happy and confused on the same time.

The cinema owner feel insecure about viziontele effect so spreading rumor about viziontele is evil arround the village. Meanwhile, the mayor remember there is crazy radio fixer called Emin that can fix any radio and asked him to help to turn on the vizontele. Emin willing to help with condition that it need to be dismantle first to understand how it is work. Because the mayor is desperate then he is agree, but Emin look confuse how to get back like before and after sometime it can be build back.

And then came the first launch of viziontele, and the mayor give speech that it will change the village. And when it is turn on no signal and just ant on the screen. Emil say they need going higher and then they tried on more higher place several time but it is failed too. Then Emin had idea to setup on the highest mountain, so they hiking the mountain and then come to the top. So they setup the viziontele and their fatigue is paid with the viziontele is get signal and can deliver news. But unlucky it is iran news and all of them upset. So they going back to village, then some of staff tried to push all the button and then the channel change to turkish news and they look very happy.

So story continue with first show on the mayor house and shown news about turkey wars and there is 3 causalities. But the bad news is one of the causalities is mayor son. And the wife of mayor is feel sad and buried the viziontele as iconic replacement of burial of the beloved son with help of Emil. And the story is ended with the girlfriend of the dead son married with cinema owner son with dowry is new viziontele.

In The Noticer by Andy Andrews, it tell about 4 different kind of dialect of love that represent by animal:

1. Canary

People with this kind of love need quality time with their mate, need to be listen detail of their day, dream and concern. In short, a canary type people says, “Just be with me”.

2. Cat

People with this kind of love need physical contact with their spouse, as simple as pat on the back, hug or kiss. In short, a cat type people says, “Touch me”.

3. Puppy Dog

People with this kind of love need spoken word of approval, as simple as praise, agree with decision, and please avoid using disapproval. In short puppy dog people says, “Agree with me”.

4. Goldfish

People with this kind of love need favor and deeds, they feel loved when you doing something for them. In short goldfish people says, “Service me”.

Most of time people learn dialect type of love from their parent.People tend to express love in the same way they want to get the love, and it will let to disaster if different type people going together. People will have combination of several type of dialect but usually they have one major dialect type, and one minor dialect type, like puppy and cat, goldfish and puppy, etc. So what your dialect of love?

Easter is the day to celebrated when Jesus is rise from dead, which is make the believer to be more faithful with Jesus and non believer to have a faith with Jesus. But in other meaning, the believer itself is not a believer about something that taught by Jesus. Let not talk about religion, but let see that in other perspective.

Who is more brave between people who do not have any fear or the people that is in fear that try to help people on their fear?

Who is more enjoy something between people that just do what their best at or the people that trying to do what their worst at to make it better?

Who is mature person between people that complain about some problem or people who just do something to fix the problem

If you think that is an easy choice, think again are you really what you choice. People like to think they can live freely but without their awareness they constrain themselves with social culture, other people think, their fear, or even their likeness. That is because, there is always some line people draw between their action and their belief to avoid shame, uneasiness, weird, or worst to take advantage.

Happy Easter to People Who Celebrate and for all just free yourselves from your limit.

I had watching my favorites TV Show, Mario Teguh Golden Ways with topic in the title several week before. And when watching it some thing is tingling in my head like spider sense. The thing that extraordinary is like below:

– Good leader is warm when speaking and logically correct.

– Good Speaker is just speak when added value to conversation, and keep silent when not.

– Way to be success is be earnestness, composed and has accuracy target mind.

– Everyone know way to be success, but always not prepared to be fit in Success

Today i had watch how i met your mother season 8 serial 1 and this is the best scene of the movie. I will just write it down hope you can feel the great moment although it is just a conversation text. And it is started on the station when the Klaus being asked by ted about why he left victoria, and the dialog continue to:

There is a word in German: Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz.
And the closest translation would be…

’Lifelong Treasure of Destiny.’

And Victoria is wunderbar, but she is not my Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz.
She is my Beinaheleidenschaftsgegenstand, you know?

It means…’the thing that is almost the thing that you want…
but it’s not quite.’

“Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz is not something that develops over time.
It is something that happens instantaneously.
It courses through you like the water of a river after a storm, filling you and emptying you all at once.
You feel it throughout your body…
in your hands…
in your heart…
in your stomach…
…in your skin…
Of course you feel it in your Schlauchmachendejungen, pardon my French.” Klaus (How I Met Your Mother)

Have you ever felt this way about someone?

Yeah, I think so.

If you have to think about it, you have not felt it.

And you’re absolutely sure you’ll find that someday?

Of course. Everyone does eventually.

You just never know when or where.

And, the story continue to ted met the girl with the yellow umbrella and then the film is ended. This is make me wonder when or where i can find the Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz? and i sometime wonder do i have met my Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz but not realize it. But i don’t missed it because if i think about it then it is not my Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz, maybe it is my Beinaheleidenschaftsgegenstand or my wunderbar i missed. But eventually i will met my Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz, and for meantime i will upgrade myself to be my best self. So when i met her i will become her Lebenslangerschicksalsschatz too.

Just today i read one of my favorite motivator, “Mario Teguh” motivational post in fb with title my life, my rule. And because my blog in english so i will translate it into english and hope it will make same effect in english language because the story written in indonesian language. so the post is:

I am ruler of my own life.

I have no right to complain, if what i accomplish is less than the result of others who enjoy beat me.
and if what i accomplish is greater than the result of other, i also do not need to apologize.

This is my life.

my victory or my defeat is appropriate therefore all is well for the victory.