I've been practicing for a few years. thought i was getting OK at meditation, then I had to get some spinal injections. there's not much on this planet that can scare me, but doctors scare the hell out of me. I was trying to meditate while lying on the table, but it didn't work. My PB got so high they almost called it off.

i'm there. 50, in pain all the fucking time. So far my brain is lead free. never ever thought i'd get to fifty. now i kinda look around and see all my friends who are dead or locked up, and I feel pretty lucky. it's an adjustment for sure.