Well evidently I've developed a crush on a friend of mine. Fucking wonderful. I might as well just hit myself in the nuts with a hammer

__________________"Her one drink had Cecelia giggling and talking and she was explaining that animals had souls too. Nobody challenged her opinion. It was possible, we knew. What we weren't sure of was if we had any. - Charles Bukowski

Some feelings came back with an old fling of mine back in December. Asked her on a date and she said yes, date went well. Planned a second date, but had to raincheck because she had work/went back to school. We were talking pretty much every day after for a couple months but she started getting distant a couple weeks ago. Now I am pretty sure she is dating someone else, after I got her flowers for vday and did something pretty awesome for her bday. The raincheck date was supposed to be next week, and i'm sure i'll still see her. I hate long distance but she is one of my few exceptions.

All Moved in. It went reasonably well. I don't think any move can be without some sort of tension but nothing out of hand. The next time we move I think the best approach is to tackle separate rooms and organize it however you want instead of doing each room together. Too many opportunities to argue over things.

We have everything set up outside of the kitchen and dining room (Our apartment has a dining room and living room/loft. It's pretty fantastic). Over the next few months i'm going to try and purchase enough gear for a recording studio and I'll set it up in the corner of the loft. I'm quite excited about it. It's really nice and comforting to have my own space again. Picturing and Kitchen get organized tonight and then tomorrow is the dining room.

I've got to look into buying a bar of some sort. My original thought was to buy a bunch of really old looking crates and fasten them to the wall, organize them in a cool way and then set up my bar in that. It would look really cool.

I went through that. It's tough, especially if you have doubts she's interested back. Is she interested?

I do not think she is though we are pretty flirtatious when hanging out and I've had others confirm to me that they think she's interested. However, I know that she's also sort of seeing another one my friends right now (a drunk confession from her, I and just one other person are the only people who know). So I'm not going to pursue anything or do anything about it and just get over it basically. That's my plan.

Just kind of sucks.

__________________"Her one drink had Cecelia giggling and talking and she was explaining that animals had souls too. Nobody challenged her opinion. It was possible, we knew. What we weren't sure of was if we had any. - Charles Bukowski