Saturday, July 29, 2017

Week 10
Never in a million years did I ever think I would be doing something like this. I usually record my DIY's and fashion. I have found myself in a place where I have had to do a DIY on myself.
Please if you are struggling with life, stress or anxiety so was I!
This is what I had to do to straighten myself out.

Have you ever challenged yourself to do something.? Do you think
exercise and eating well can help with Anxiety and Panic Attacks? I am
testing out that theory on myself. I am on day 78 of walking 1 hour and 10 minutes
everyday for 90 day's, plus 20 minutes of spot training 5 days a week. On top of that I am eating clean and recording my food and macros.
I have a daily feed on my Snapchat and instagram.
For the last month of this challenge I have been video recording my progress.
Join me.

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Wow this is so hard to write, I am crying writing through this whole post.

This is my Grandmother Polly, she was 101 years old and we were very close. She Passed away this past April and I was with her when she left this Earth. To say I was devastated is an understatement. It hit me really hard. She is the first person I have experienced anything like this with. After her death I started to suffer from severe panic attacks. I would have trouble breathing and my ribs and chest felt like a vice was squeezing me to the point that I might die. I would wake up in the middle of the night not being able to breath and I started to experience a gradual depression. Everyone deals with death differently. I was not handling what was happening around me well at all. The final straw was when I woke up in the middle of the night and my chest hurt so bad that all could do was rock back and forth to try and get it to stop. I finally fell back to sleep after praying for God to help me. The next morning I started to research what was happening to me and after about two hours of reading I knew what I had to do. My body needed to move, it needed to be working so it could help my mind heal. When your body is physical and moving your body produces Endorphins.
The main purpose of endorphins is this writes researcher McGovern:

"These endorphins tend to minimize the discomfort of exercise,
block the
feeling of pain and
are even associated with a feeling of euphoria."

I had no other choice but to go outside and walk, I live really close to a Lake with a path and when I was younger my Mom and I would walk a lake near my childhood home almost every night. I can always remember feeling so great after.
Once I started walking there was no stopping me. At first I did it once a day when I could. Then I discovered 5:30 AM; quiet time, sunrise time, meditation time. the golden hour which is what I refer to it as. To make a long story short, I gave myself a challenge. I would walk 90 days straight no excuses. I would treat this like a job, like it was life or death. To be honest it was life or death. I had to make a decision and I chose to heal and live. I needed to feel the sadness and work though it instead of pushing it down deep inside me.Walking at 5:30 allowed me to cry and be angry and no one saw me. It gave me freedom to express myself and it was OK .

Right now I am on my 70th day with only twenty days left. I am video logging my last 30 days and posting a weekly Vlog. This is the first week of my last 30 days. I really just wanted to be of some help to anyone struggling. The transformation it has done to me is just short of a miracle. Not only am I healing my mind, but I am making my body Strong and my Spirit at peace. I have been trying to balance those three things for about a year now. I still have sad moments and episodes of anxiety, but now I have the tools to work through it. My Grandmother is very proud of me.

Friday, July 14, 2017

I am also working on a vlog for the last 4 weeks of my 90 Day Challenge.

I am going to try and post a video every Monday of the week before. It will basically be me navigating through the last part of my journey. It will have the food I eat and the progress I make Physically, Mentally and Spiritually

The first video will be posted Monday, July 17.

I hope if you are struggling in any way it will help you move in a forward, positive direction and