Monday, May 23, 2011

Week 11...missing the mark

Week 11 begins and with 5 days to go until our anniversary, I am going to miss my first goal. I wanted to weigh what I did on our wedding day, and I am not going to. And you know what, that's okay. I am bummed and disappointed, but I am also happy that I have taken this journey, and will continue on this journey. It's been so much more about weight loss for me, it's been about obedience, making wise choices, relying fully on God, and trusting myself to do the right thing. Through this journey I have not always made the wisest, healthiest food choice, I have cheated here or there, okay everywhere, and I have not always relied on God to get me through those late night cravings. But through it all I have learned a lot about myself and what I can accomplish with God's help.

{Weigh In}

Starting Weight: 156 lbs

Current Weight: 143.5 lbs

I lost 1 pound from last week

I know there is no way I can lose 3.5 pounds in 5 days, and I am not going to trick myself into thinking I can either. This week is crazy with my mom and step-dad visiting, I am leaving Thursday with the girls to go back to Ohio for my niece's graduation party and ceremony, and returning home on Monday. So there is not a lot of time to work out, so I will have to make really healthy choices, and also I plan on eating some yummy treats my MIL is making for Mandy's party. So although I sound totally contradictory, I am okay with where I am. I truly think working out and running is playing a little bit into the number on the scale, too. Maybe I am crazy, which I often wonder, but I have been running a lot, so hopefully I am adding muscle and will lose the fat soon.

At times I feel like I have failed and other times I am as happy as a lark. I know I can do it, I know what I have to do to get it done, and it all will happen. I think these last couple pounds are a great reminder that I still need to rely on God for all things and to remain obedient to Him. I feel pretty good about myself and I have noticed some changes in my appearance too. I still feel flabby around the middle, but my wedding ring is big on me, which it has never been big on me. I am smaller in a particular area that most women would like to be larger in, now that statistic includes me, ha. So I am not sure where all the weight has been distributed, but that's okay.

So whatever journey you are on remember: "I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back." Phil. 3:12-14

It's ok that you haven't reached your goal when you wanted b/c I believe you will get there eventually. You are doing it the right way by eating healthy and exercising and not just doing some fad diet. And you are discipline yourself in the process!

Guess what, for snacks today at work I had cheese and carrots! Go me! ;)

You are doing great....and I love your heart and perspective. This is a journey, dear sister....a marathon and not a sprint. I loved Made to Crave...but did struggle a bit with not having some grace.(That wasn't the book's fault...but my own struggle.) Although I agree there is a need and time for strictly adhering(sp?) to a special diet, I have found that to be difficult. I like some grace...and need some grace. Just how I roll, I guess.

I'm with you that not seeing all the progress we hoped is a reminder that we need to rely solely on the Lord, and remain obedient to Him.

I have fallen and keep getting back up, too. I think the getting back up is still the key!! =)

You can do this...and so can I! Keep on keeping on!

And...I love that verse. What translation is that from...it is really awesome!