Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Try something new

So I went to my first massage recently.It was a Reiki massage.I thought that it would help with the back
pain I’d been suffering from. I had back surgery in 2015 and have had constant
pain ever since blowing out my disc prior to the surgery.

I wanted to believe in the power of healing energy, and I
had no idea what to expect.I think I
went into the appointment with the wrong attitude.I was skeptical plus I couldn’t shake the
feeling that I was being selfish.I was
paying a lot of money to try this out.I
felt guilty.Hugely guilty.The money I was spending on this could have
gone to paying a bill.I had no right to
spend this solely on myself.

So I went in feeling guilty about spending the time and the
money on myself.And I felt
nervous.I didn’t want someone touching
me.I’d have to meet a stranger.I was nervous about what she would think of
me.I don’t know why, but that’s
me.I’m always terrified meeting new
people.

They first greeted me upon arriving and gave me a glass of
water.They didn’t explain why the
water, so I thought that was a bit weird. Turns out, which she explained to me
at the end of my massage, was that they believe water helps conduct energy,
thereby promoting the positive energy to come to you.

I don’t know…I wanted to believe. I really did. Granted the
table was soft and heated like a large heating pad, and she had dipped her
hands in lavender oil which smelled wonderful and was relaxing. But as far as
the power of healing from a non-hands on approach.I…I just don’t know.

But I tried it.Would
I go back? Doubtful.But at least I
opened my mind up to give it a go.And
that’s what life is all about, experiencing new things, right?