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I wish I were certain. I can’t quite put my finger on it. I’ve only just shaken hands with you, shared pleasantries, but there is more to you. I feel a depth, like looking into a memory but I just can’t place you. There is a sudden feeling of kinship and camaraderie and I am immediately at ease. We fall into a conversation like we have been doing that very thing for years. I wish I were prepared for this.

We spend time together, we laugh like old friends and we share inside jokes. Your smile engages me. I am unable to pull my eyes from yours. I wish I were able to pinpoint the moment you crept into my heart – the moment that I saw you differently and couldn’t take my eyes off of you. I want to realize that moment and hold onto it for all eternity. My mind whirls with thoughts of where we could be now had we had these moments so many years ago.

My days are not consumed with thoughts of you but you insinuate yourself into random moments of my day and I can’t help but smile. There is an easiness about being around you. Your laughter is infectious to me. The twinkle in your eyes warms me. I am myself with you.

I wish I were able to quell this feeling. I wish I were able to push you to the recesses of my thoughts but you invade my reality. You stir my feelings and you haunt my desires.

How easy it would be to fall into your arms and feel safe there. How easy it would be to get lost in your eyes and float on the sound of your laughter. How easy it would be to want to never let you go.

Every action in life creates a ripple effect. Whether that ripple effect is as visible to the naked eye as a drop of water in a pond or is so infinitesimal that it is unseen by the human eye there is always a reaction. We learned it in Grade 11 Physics and the theory is as true today as it was then. By now our interpretation of that same ripple effect may be broadened. It may not just encompass that drop of water but a drop of energy into the pool of existence. The end result may dissipate in strength by the time it reaches its destination but it will still create waves on its way to the shore and alter the state of nature as we observe it.

For everything a human being says or does a ripple is created in the universe and that ripple, unbeknownst to you, may affect many more pools of reality than you originally intended. It brings to mind the old adage – think before you speak. You may never comprehend the consequence of your words and what reaction may be created, first or second-hand, but the words still have the power to change the tidal pool of various ponds.

Many of the problems we face are essentially man-made. There are certainly elements out of our control but what if we put forth the effort to regain some of that control? What could happen if we invested our time and energy in something positive and sent that energy out in waves? A drop of human kindness or empathy can spread like the circles created by that original bead of water into the larger body of aquatic energy and send that same wave in directions you never thought possible.

Make the power of the ripple effect work for you…..send positive energy and watch it expand as the ripple gets larger on the water. Know that the good energy you put out there will be shared by more than just the one person you bestowed that energy upon. Your positive energy may ripple into a pond of people who you didn’t even know existed but they will eventually benefit from that one good vibe that you put forth.

A simple smile or a kind word – send the ripple…..and you could potentially change the way those waves reach other shores of lakes that you never knew existed.

It was a collaboration week for me last week and this time I put some words together with TwinDaddy from Stuphblog. I’m sure you all know him and if you don’t, you are missing out!! Take a few minutes to check out his diversity and genuine talent. Here is what we came up with.

I have been reflecting a lot lately – looking back at the phases of my life where I defined myself in terms of my relationships with other people. I even introduced myself with those titles. I was always a daughter, a sister, a step-mom, a wife (now ex-wife) and it has only been recently that I have begun to describe myself in terms of who I really am – me.

All of those monikers are still a big part of who I am, or was, but they are only pieces of my bigger puzzle. I have found new ways to describe myself that truly incorporate the essence of me and not just how my being relates to other people. After years of missing the most integral part of who I am, I have found the proper words to define myself.

(image credit: loridennis.com)

In the past, I had deconstructed myself and put smaller pieces of me into everyone else’s puzzle. I was happy to be the daughter or the sister. I didn’t feel lost nor did I feel any sense of being an incomplete person. I merely slipped into the shadows of the lives around me. I became an extension of them and the fault of that circumstance was all mine.

After many months of contemplative thought I have become aware of a new sense of self – a confidence to simply extend my hand and introduce myself with only my name. There is no longer a follow-up delineation of how I relate to anyone other than myself. I am, in the simplest of definitions, me.

Those fragments of myself constitute a big part of my life but they are no longer words I use to acquaint myself with anyone new in my life. Eventually those pieces of my puzzle will fall into their rightful place but that place is not the definition of who I am.

I had the pleasure of sharing the creative process with a very talented writer and friend. Sage Doyle and I put our heads together and this is the result. If you had not been to his blog, please clink on the link here to check out his brilliance.

Written for the weekend Trifextra Challenge – It’s now time for some Trifextra fun. Thirty years ago, Roald Dahl published the book Dirty Beasts, a collection of poems for children about weird and wonderful animals. The last poem, however, is called The Tummy Beast about a boy who thinks there’s someone living in his belly. Your Trifextra challenge is to write 33 words on a beast in an unusual place. No swamps or forests or caves, we really want you to take your beast out of its comfort zone