Oct 2, 2014

Finally, after 7 weeks being captive and dumped at this small place; a college, I'll be free for a while.

May be it's just a while but I'll make it worth.

It has been 5 months since I enrolled myself as a student at this matriculation college. The first 3 months were really suck. The thoughts of home were always killing me. Tears streaming out everyday every night. I cried most of the time.

K bye

Feb 27, 2014

Today I went to a movie with my two best friends at a mall near our residences. We watched Pompeii. An epic story of a slave who had been through hard life and bla bla bla. Well the hero's quite bewitching actually!

And today I officially bought my first Starbucks coffee, without whipped cream (I weary with whipped cream because when I was in Europe I tend to order hot chocolate with whipped cream so I don't feel like having it in Malaysia for now). I don't know whether I'd go to the cafe because as long as I remember I never went to Starbucks. If I'm not mistaken..

Well for my opinion, everything at the cafe's really expensive (which is the main reason why teenagers like to post the drinks they bought from the cafe because whenever they did it, it shows to people that they came from rich families like WTH WHO CARES ? ).

because of those things I have no self-esteem. that's why I hate crowd, school and yes my life. I sometimes hate my life either. People always look down at me like I am a contaminated person without even knowing the true situation. and of course I don't have any boyfriend. whose the stupid person yang nak orang macam aku ni. sobs. pathetic. anyways I'm so thankful because my best friends and some people can accept me the way I am.

aku nak pergi PLKN. but because of this problem I'm not gonna participating the plkn. I just can't bear people looking at me like !@#&^P* and to answer the same questions over and over again.

Jan 11, 2014

I'M GOING TO EUROPE IN FEBRUARYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. probably on Feb, 1st. I've received the flight tickets through e-mail and I should have been printed them out. But sigh, my printer's out of inks. (I'm going to cyber cafe later)

to be honest I never thought of going to Europe at this very early age. well 18 is still young I guess. ( I hate that the fact I'm 18 because basically I just celebrated my 17th birthday like 2 months ago and because it's 2014 already and automatically my age become 18. That's not ok. )

I still remember I used to write my school essays about something that related to travel and even in Spm I still write about travelling. Travelling is fun though. You can explore and discover a lot of new things beside learn about other people's culture and etc. My opinion, there's no point of writing essays about heart broken or being left by love or kind of sad story or being cheated. Like seriously you've much more interesting story to write, haven't you? Flooding your essays book with emotions of your sad love story is just so a pathetic shit. I hate this sort of people. THEY ABSOLUTELY SHOULD STOP LOOKING FOR LOVE IN PEOPLE'S SYMPATHIES. oh crap ! I shouldn't have been wasting my time writing about this shit.

If I'm not mistaken I've had told you guys that I want to travel the world when I'm 25 years old. Because at the age of 25, I probably have enough pocket money. I never thought of marrying rich people because they got money to support me to fulfil my dream when I still can work my ass to earn pennies by myself. I just don't like to rely on people because at the end of the day we wont sure whether we got them (the rich guy). If you want something just pray to your God and start working yourself to achieve your dreams.

got to go now. I should have taking shower because today's a bestie' day out.

xoxo, J

Jan 4, 2014

so today I would like to write about my dreams or things that I want in this life. Before that, this is yesterday's summary, everything went well like any other Friday ( I could tell you every Friday, mom and I will go to TESCO to buy groceries or just to have lunch at food court) but my cat, Ucen, he was stuck at a high place.

I'm going to tell you my dreams by listing them okay

THINGS I WANT // DREAM

1. Land. 1 acre at least. I want to build my own dream home.
2. Perfect house. every people have their own dream houses right? to me a house that perfect is when everything that you want is inside. well I may be don't afford to build a bungalow but it's not a big deal as long I have everything perfect in my house and a yard, it's enough. My small house must contains a big living room so I could locate few shelves and a big arm chair, no dining room, two rooms : a room for me and a room for my parents if they come visit, no master bedroom because I don't need it as it's my house so I could sleep at every place, a kitchen full of cooking stuff because I love them( cooking stuff), a bathroom and a room for my cats.

to be continue...

sorry. my head's spinning.

p/s : I NEED A HAIR CLIP. MY FRONT HAIR KEEP DISTURBING ME !!!!!! How can i forgot to buy it yesterday.................... sigh

Me

hi everyone. This is Jijie Azli. 20 y/o. Malaysia.

I form this blog as an escape place for me to write out my thoughts and opinions. Sometimes , I ditch people here too. aha, well basically this is my personal blog, not any kind of business or work blog.