You got rewards for good grades? Lucky. I got punished (sometimes mental abuse, sometimes physical – but never anything that would leave too many marks because they didn’t want the government to get involved) if I didn’t get great grades. If I got so good grades I got one or two questions wrong on a test (the kind of test that would have 20+ points), that meant I got punished too, just not physically. After all, if I got so close to getting all the points, that meant I just needed to have …

Suicide is cowardly most of the time. Doesn’t mean it can’t make sense though. If someone’s in a lot of (emotional or physical) pain and see no end to it, sometimes it’s better (for the individual) to end it. Most of the time it is the worse option they could have taken when considering their friends and family as well in the equation.