Monday, March 30, 2009

Forever 14!!!

Happy Birthday to you, Megan! Today, Megs would have been 16 years old. Today, Megan would have gone to the DMV and passed the test with flying colors and she would have had her drivers license. It is hard to celebrate something that never happened. All we can do is celebrate the life that she did have, remember her, and imagine what would have been.

A couple of years ago when Matt got his drivers permit, Matt and Meg had a discussion about how they would both have to share the car when Megan followed Matt and turned 16. They got into specifics about who would take it on what days, and once when the discussion got heated, I told them to cool it because it was a long way off and things change, you never know what might happen. Of course, at the time, I was thinking more in terms of maybe getting a second car, not the fact that Meg's wouldn't be here. Matt reminded me of that conversation after Megan died, and it is just so true that we never know what will happen next. We hope that we do, we hope that we have some control, and that the hopes and dreams that we have for our life, and our kids lives, will become a reality. And luckily most of the time they do. But for those times when life takes a sharp left turn, you really can't help but ask "what happened", knowing that one of the hardest parts is that there is no answer.

Here is a link to some "new" photos provided by Denene Carmen. She found these on her camera!! What a great gift to have them. Enjoy!

Happy Birthday Megan!You are in all of our hearts today, like everyday, but especially today as we continue to celebrate your life! I went to visit you today at your grove and felt so close to you! I know you will always be with us! Happy Birthday to the truly amazing girl who has touched and inspired millions!

About Megan

Megan was a beautiful, vibrant, healthy, 14 year old girl who passed away unexpectedly from Sudden Cardiac Arrest, caused my Myocarditis on 9/26/2007. Megan was a lifelong soccer player and began running Cross Country during her Freshman year at Dana Hills. She was a wonderful daughter, sister, and friend, whose sweet personality and sunny disposition is missed by all.

The Megster, Meggie, Megs, Meggers, Megan, Meggie Mae

" I noticed how beautiful the sky was the other day, and realized it's because you're up there."

Sisters

A poem from Meg's Memorial Service

Understanding

“I’ll lend you for a little timea child of mine,” He said.“For you to love the while she livesand mourn for when she’s dead.It may be six or seven years,or even twenty-two or three,But will you, till I call her back,take care of her for me?She’ll bring her charms to gladden you,and shall her stay be brief,you’ll have her lovely memoriesas solace for your grief.”“I cannot promise she will stay,since all from earth return,but there are lessons taught down thereI want this child to learn.I’ve looked the wide world overin my search for teachers true,And from the throngs that crowd life’s lovesI have selected you.Now will you give her all your love,not think the labor vain;Not hate me when I come to callto take her back again?”I fancied that I heard them say,“Dear Lord, Thy will be done,”For all the joy Thy child shall bring,the risk of grief we’ll run.We’ll shelter her with tenderness,we’ll love her while we may,and for the happiness we’ve knownforever grateful stay.But shall the angels call hermuch sooner than we’ve planned,we’ll brave the bitter grief that comesand try to understand

Remember Megan

Always smiling!!

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take your breath away

Memorial Poem

Do not stand at my grave and weep I am not there, I do not sleepI am a thousand winds that blowI am a diamond's gilt on snowI am the sunlight on ripened grainI am the gentle autumn's rainWhen you awaken in the morning's hushI am the swift uplifting rushOf quiet birds in circled flightI am the soft stars that shine at nightDo not stand at my grave and cryI am not there, I did not die.(Thank you Jenny for sending this to me)

A Thought for the Day

"We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand" Randy Pausch from The Last Lecture