Saturday, July 16, 2011

12 more days .....

It feels so weird to say and know that in 12 short days I will have a precious lil boy! I have waited for that day for so long, since before I was even married. I always imagined what it would be like to be pregnant and then become a mom, never did I imagine it like this. Even with everything my husband and I have been through I am not angry with what is going on with Parker anymore. I know he is a fighter and I pray that he still has that fight left in him to show the world that he isnt going anywhere. It seems like everyday as the delivery gets closer I get so many thoughts going through my head. The "What if's" or the "Hopefully this" consume my thoughts. So many people tell me " Julia, it will all work out and things are going to be fine" and as much as I want to believe them and I really do try to tell myself that but I know the truth... No one knows what is gonna happen on that day and the weeks following his birth. My hope is that he comes out stronger than what they anticipate. They know he has a left lung but they cant be sure how much is there b/c of his other organs blocking it. I just pray that he surpasses everyone's expectations, but like I said no one knows what will happen.
I want so bad to have my baby shower and get the room ready and be excited about everything, but then reality sits in and I know I shouldn't do it just yet.
I have my last dr appointment with the Fetal Care this week then Delivery will be next. It is weird to know that after almost 4 months going their just about every week I wont be anymore. I will update with more news of what they have to say later this week... Sorry this blog is all over the place I just have so many thoughts going through my mind and this seemed to be the best place to put them....
FOR THE NEXT 12 DAYS PLEASE PRAY THAT PARKER
* Stays right where is he until it is his time to come out
* The Dr's have good news on Thursday
* NO ECMO the day of and anytime there after he is born
Thanks again to all of you out there that are praying <3

4 comments:

Julia, I am the mother of a CDH Survivor. You will likely hear about him if your son will be going to the STL Childrens NICU. His name is Benjamin Hubble, (he is the CDH baby featured in the fetal care center packets). If you need someone to talk to for support, please do not hesitate to ask, I am still close friends with many of the NICU staff there and they can put you in touch with me. Our son is now 22 months old, but I vividly remember the point you and your family are at now....I will pray God gives you, your husband and your precious baby boy the strength and support you will need. May God Bless you all and hold you in the hollow of His mighty hands and keep you safe....much love, Kelly Hubble

Even though I do not know you, you and your family in my prayers! Just remember that God does not give us anything that he does not think we can handle! He sounds like a very strong and determined little guy and I hope that strength and determination will continue once he enters this world (which I am sure it will). Hang in there because you will need to be strong for him, too!

About Me

My husband and I are expecting our 1st baby on August 19th, 2011. Having a baby is something I had though about since the day we got married almost 3 years ago, little did we know how much of a miracle baby we truly would have. On April 12th our lil guy got diagnosed with Congenital diaphragmatic hernia (CDH).