Black & White, Yes or No? Always wanting answers. Death
& taxes are possibly the only ‘for sure” things in life. I’ve always wanted
guarantees and absolutes. That things turn out the way you want them to. The
scenarios you create in your mind whether it be a well thought-out painting,
your career, your relationships, dreams etc, many, if not mostdon’t turn out like you wanted them to, hoped
they would, imagined they could be. Letting go & trusting that things turn
out exactly the way they should. Crazy concept & hard to grasp. The letting
go of control.

The ideas in your mind reach through your hand that holds
the paint brush you use to create. It most often doesn’t turn out the way you
thought. It can be so frustrating! I’ve walked away from many an art piece, hidden
the canvas, so frustrated I can’t make what I wanted happen! I usually drag it
back out, seeing it for what it is and just being in the moment with it.
Picking back up the brush & starting to work with what is. Letting the
brush and colours do their thing. I’m rarely disappointed. I rarely remember
this.

When I get in the state of “wanting”, of putting up
barricades and barriers to try to change & control the ‘river” of life, I
put on the blindfold. I put my brushes and hands in the paints and go for it! I’m
in the moment creating. When the blindfold comes off there are no straight
lines or perfect circles. There is beauty and awe. No disappointments.

Remember this; as much as we want to have control over life,
people, places, dreams, circumstance & painting, no one really wants a “paint
by numbers” canvas as a life.