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Wednesday, 14 June 2017

My first year of uni has been filled with both highs and lows which has led to me losing myself. It has led me to be off track and not respect myself as much as I should. Being in a new city surrounded by new people isn't always as easy as it seems. But that is okay - as time goes on it becomes easier and you learn a new lease of independence. Although the tough times aren't always that easy, they become stepping stones to appreciating the positives.

One thing I have learnt throughout my life so far is that the negatives don't always have to be complete negatives, they always tend to have a hidden meaning somewhere and teach you something that you may not of known before. Therefore in the long run this makes you wiser and more stronger as a person.

You may not know this about me but I am the type of person who always enjoys to be on the move. Recently I think this may have made a turn for the worse. In order to deal with my not so healthy mental health and negative emotions, I decided to power through life by keeping myself busy in whatever way that could be (even if it meant I wasn't going to feel like myself after.) I didn't appreciate how much taking a break to do the things that you enjoy can benefit you in the long run.

Last weekend I went back home to visit my Dad and best friend which is normally something I look forward to all week but because of my not so good mental health this didn't seem as appealing as it normally is. But after getting home and talking to my Dad, he decided that I should go to get my nails done as this was always something I enjoyed in the past but haven't done in a while.

I walked in and had my nails done by the most lovely lady where we had a chat that inspired me, she said "in life you have to be selfish". Which she continued to explain that it is important to put those you care about first sometimes but if you do that too much you're going to affect you're own happiness and life because life overall is only short in the end. I must say I've never walked out of a salon feeling as good as I did then.

The past three days I have been in bed with the flu, not being able to get up. Although I have been in pain, it has been a positive in some respect. Relaxing and being mainly on my own for 3 days has shown me just how important it is to look after yourself and put yourself first sometimes. Being with my own thoughts has also meant that I have had my positive mindset back, it has given me time to breathe and take a somewhat well deserved break.

This may seem a bit more personal than my usual posts but it has taught me a few things so I wanted to share it in the hope it may make you consider yourself and your own self love and care. It's okay to put yourself first!