I don't know how I'm going to do this

He's still in the hospital and they're running more tests, but all signs are pointing to it's too late.

He complained of feeling off for a while but wouldn't go to the doctor. He wasn't worried.

And now it looks like it was too late.

I feel guilty for not pushing him more. I should have tried to convince him to see one. But he didn't look sick. He's always been fit and healthy and he's still young.

Fuck this.

Our younger kids don't know yet. They just think daddy had an accident and needs to stay in hospital for a little while. But my DSS (dear stepson) does. He's 18 soon and he already lost his mom. Now he's losing his dad, too. He told me he won't be sticking around when he's gone. So the kids and I might lose him, too.

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I am so terribly sorry that you are in such a sad, difficult situation. I won't pretend that I know what it feels like, but I'm sure the pain and anger right now are too much to handle. Please look for a support group where you can meet other people going through the same. Your DH (dear husband) needs you to be strong now, for both of you. I know this puts even more pressure on you, and that's why I suggest the support group. It will probably be hard, but try to cherish those last months together and enjoy the good days. I am so so sorry, hun. Cancer sucks. Many hugs to you!

Oh honey, I am so sorry. Cancer fucking sucks. I have no advice, and I know my words won't really help, just know that I'll be thinking of you and praying for you all. I'm so sorry you're all going through this.

I am so sad for you. Sorry that I can't provide more than just a listening ear; I have not faced this particular situation so I can't fathom what it must be like but I know that women are way stronger than they give themselves credit for.

I am soooo sorry to hear this. My friend just lost her husband last week to cancer. I HATE IT!. I wish there was something we could do to ease your pain. I don't know what kind of cancer it is but is there any other drs you can check into him seeing? Maybe get some more opinions on it? What a horrible thing! I'll be praying for a miracle for you guys!!! I know it's hard right now but stay strong mama. One day at a time. I pray that you get some good news soon!

My heart aches for you dearly! You are carring this baby for a reason. I'm not really sure what to say other than I'm very sorry and if there are times where you need help don't be afraid to ask! I can't imagine what you're going though. Talk to him, you guys need to come up with a plan! I'm not religious but praying seriously has helped me in situations! I'm truly sorry!

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