Ronda Rousey Considered Suicide After Holly Holm Loss (Video)

Behind every strong woman is a strong man. For former UFC bantamweight champion Ronda Rousey, that man is UFC heavyweight and boyfriend Travis Browne.

Rousey has been essentially radio silent since November’s devastating knockout loss to Holly Holm. The bout not only cost Rousey her bantamweight title, but her aura of invincibility and spot as “The World’s Most Dominant Athlete.”

Rousey went into seclusion after the defeat, refusing to leave the comforts of her couch and face a public that appeared more than eager to rip her to shreds. For the first time in her professional MMA career, Rousey had been humbled and it sent her into a state of depression.

However, nobody knew how the loss affected her until Rousey revealed on Tuesday’s episode of “The Ellen DeGeneres Show” that she considered ending her life after the loss.

“Honestly, my thought, I was in the medical room and I was down in the corner, and I was like, ‘What am I anymore if I’m not this?’” Rousey said as tears started flowing from her eyes. “I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself, and that exact second I’m like, ‘I’m nothing. What do I do anymore?’ and ‘No one gives a [expletive] about me anymore without this.’”

Thankfully, Browne was by her side and Rousey realized there’s more to life than just fighting in a cage.

“To be honest, I looked up and I saw my man, Travis, was standing there. And I looked up at him and I was like, ‘I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive.’ Really, that was it,” Rousey revealed. “I haven’t told anybody that. I’ve only told him. But that’s what I was thinking. I was meant to have him when I was at my lowest, that’s for sure. I don’t if I would have made it without him.”

Rousey’s father unexpectedly committed suicide when she was eight after suffering from chronic, acute back pain for years.

Please click the media player below to watch Rousey’s segment on Ellen: