What I thought being trans would be, and what it is actually

What I thought being trans would be, and what it is actually

What I thought being transsexual would be like, and what I actually got.

Here's what I thought it would be:

Here's what I got.

And you wonder why I'm a psychopath.

Now let's talk about something else.Manniquin's transexxualism is different from mine.Manniquin is an unbecoming.I am a becoming.

Mine is the transformation into power and glamour, becoming.Manniquins is the transformation to vacuum and wispiness, an unbecoming.

Though neither 100%. I have some of Manniquins tendency and Manniquin has some of mine.

Though we are opposites we both have similar beginnings. There is a certain inertia. One must drop the chains of masculinity. But when you have the inertia of masculinity, one often feels compelled to keep holding onto the chains, like a soldier sucked into a gravity.I talk with cis gender men. They always offer tautology, they are men because they are men. Like a soldier programmed to program itself.And with Manniquins mind, there is a very real fear of becoming nothing. Manniquins transsexualism is in many ways an inversion of mine.This is because, manniquins transsexualism is focused on pleasing men, while my transsexualism is lesbian oriented.