my life

Friday, April 01, 2011

Monday, February 07, 2011

I have 2 grandmothers, both named Ami..and we don't call them both as nenek..just atok..not sure why atok and not nenek..since both nenek are having the same name, we have another name (funny, yet practical i thought) to differentiate them both.Tok Ami (my mother's mother) is a thin lady, so she deserves Tok Ami Kurus name. And the other Tok Ami (my father's mother) of course will have to take Tok Ami Gemuk name..(padahal idak lah gemuk mana, sedang2 aje badannya gitu)..but that's how we called both our grannies...We are not really close to Tok Ami Gemuk, relatively...my father was taken care by his auntie, not his mother..(ok..so actually I have like 3 grannies overall). So does my father, he is not close to his own mother.Not really sure of Tok Ami's age, I guess she must be really old that she doesn't really hear and see perfectly now..and sometimes she couldn't even recognises us. It is sad so see that. Apatah lagi bila membayangkan adakah kita akan seperti dia nanti..The most sad part, she is now hospitalised, in unconscious state. It is painful to see her in that condition, but I believe Allah must have better plans for her.The most touching part is, to see the reaction of my father facing this situation. He doesn't really look sad (luaran lah, dalaman tak tahu)..unlike one of his brother, who cried looking at Tok Ami lying unconsciously on the bed.I did complaint this to my mother in front of him "Mak, abah tak datang dekat atok pun..macam tak ada perasaan je" and this is what replied during his conversation with one of my brother in law:" Along cakap abah tak ada perasaan tengok Atok macam tu. Macam mana abah nak ada perasaan, abah tak pernah tahu pun dia tu mak abah..yang abah tahu Atok Embam (the one who took care of him) tu emak abah. Macam mana abah nak ada perasaan"As anak, I felt guilty to hear the confession (kalau aku x komplen, mesti benda ni x terkeluar dari mulut abah)..but at the same time, I'm grateful, I was born in a family with full of love (so tak ada la isu kekurangan kasih sayang macam abah).As a mother, I take this as a lesson, not to take this for granted towards my child. Give love, and you'll be loved..that's how it should be. Along am sorry Abah. I know it must be conflicting in and out his soul. Dan mulutku ini juga harus kujaga..agar nanti jangan sampai Abah pula yang kata anaknya tak pandai jaga perasaan bapaknya. :(To Tok Ami who is now lying on the bed, I pray day and night, agar diringankan kesakitannya. But Allah knows best. Tawakkal dan Redha, itu yang sebaiknya. Wallahua'lam.

Monday, January 03, 2011

2011 sudah datang ;) and how's about your last year's resolution? I didn't even remember about my last year's resolution or..didn't I have one? *shame on me*So, nothing much I target for this new year..I just hope for a healthy, balanced life. That's the most important to bring out happiness in life.I already have few plans in mind this year, but let it left unspoken, kalau jadi baru boleh cerita ;)May this year bring a lot of happiness and luck to you out there.

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Thank god that I still remember the login password to blog. Sangat lama tidak belog, aite?

To the topic: Today is officially the 4th day since Qaisara enrolled to her playschool nearby her nursery. I'm kinda happy + sebak pun ada juge..anak ku sudah ke sekolah!

She's only 3 this year, to be exact this April. People might ask, why send her too early?

i) kesian dia, kecik lagi

ii) nanti dia jemu, lama sangat dekat tadika

And my answer would be:

i) she has been sent to nursery since she was 3 months old. Independency is not an issue. Lagipun daripada duduk main [read: bergaduh, berebut barang] dekat nursery, it's better to expose her new social skills and also new friends..

ii) Not sure if she'll get bored later on, one thing for sure she won't learn the same thing every year...plus she's only enrolled to playschool, and i choose montessori approach so that it won't stress on academics too much at her age...kalau nak kira jemu, kita kat primary school tu 6 tahun dekat sekolah yang sama jugak...ok je.

She seems enjoying her moment at school, still adapting though..I'm always hope and pray that she'll cope with her new environment fast and of course enjoying the class the whole year. AMIN.