After reading and rereading Jane's post I wanted to write this one.There are many negative parts to our day and many positive fun moments as well.When I write on this caregiver board I want to be honest and helpful.This disease is not always pretty or positive.There are moments of sheer desperation and sadness. I can not be the most loving, perfect wife, caregiver or person 24/7. There are times in life not only PD life that there is negativity. I try to stay upbeat, positive and kind. For me it's not possible every minute of the day.This board is great for sharing the happy moments and the desperate sad negative ones as well. I do not want to be judged by my every word.If I have to be upbeat all the time this board is not for me.......

My feelings exactly. Lately it is getting harder to be positive. My husband is experiencing confusion and hallucinations as you probably know if you have been reading the forum and next week will have a CT scan on his head to see if there is anything that could be causing it other than PD. Last night he didn't even know my name, however after some prompting he knew me and this morning he was getting dressed so he could go home.He was already home....... His mind plays trick on him he says. This website should be to discuss our problems and we can't always be up beat if you are have serious problems. We need support as being a caregiver is very tiring. I don' t have help yet, but I probably will in the future......The future...........what will that bring, eh? Hate to think about it. If I am being negative please forgive me. I just hope and pray they can give him something to help this the fog he is in. Time will tell.........but in the meantime we just go day by day and hug each other in this journey we are on.

I agree that it is sometimes almost impossible to stay positive. My husband fractured his hip and had replacement surgery he is now in acute rehab. However that isn't going very well as he is not able to do the amount of therapy that is required there. He is depressed and even mentioning suicide. I go there at least 2 or 3 times a day but I feel like he mad at me each time I am there. We will be moved to a skilled nursing/rehab on Jan 8th and I am trying to be encouraging and say that he will get better, walk again and be able to come home. The reality is that I don't know if that will be the outcome and I too am depressed. I try not to be negative when I post on this forum but it can be pretty hard when your entire life revolves around caregiving, doctors appointments, worry, etc. Maybe we get negative because we KNOW that the situation isn't going to get better -only worse. I love my husband but does this situation make me frustrated, angry and depressed-YES!. Our PWPs have certainly lost so very much but we have too. I can't be all sunshine and flowers in this situation. Sometimes making the best of it just isn't enough to take away the sadness. I think I'm rambling so I'll sign off. Need to go back to the rehab.

Jane, you know I value your opinion, and I know you value mine. I asked for comments, and I am glad you did. I, too, get excruciatingly tired and sad over all of this...in our case, tomorrow is a perfect example...

We leave here to drive to San Francisco for a Monday morning Neuro appointment because it is a two and a half hour drive one way. So, we drive up the day before, get a hotel that is over priced because it IS in SF...go to the neuro after a restless night's sleep, then drive the 21/2 hours home...up the next day for my shots in my eyes!

So, maybe I asked that question after a similar time..We have no choice but to go to SF because there is no neuro who specializes in PD within 175 miles of where we live!

As I said, if my post was perceived as condescending, I apologize...I just am wanting to say sometimes life is harsh, but we need to keep trying to hold on...maybe it istoo simplistic to say I believe that love IS there and always will be, even when life makes it so difficult to find.

No one should EVER take a post personally, that is the point of the board...take what you can, get the help you need, and ask and answer others as best you can...

Much love down the road...vent, scream, but know no comment from me is EVER directed towards anyone personally...ever...Jane

Well, I put in my 2 cents on the other post.I do feel I cannot say things here that I can say on the other group. Heaven forbid that a person who is struggling does not get the support they need.You never know what your unsupportive words can do to a person who is already down. I wish everyone well.

I find it so helpful to read all the comments on here. Even when someone has to complain about an issue that is going on in their life, it can help someone else who may be going through a similar situation. I am grateful for all the information and advice. Ellen