Let it all uncoil.
One word at a time.
To begin again.
To begin.
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Here is my view right now.
The first moment of stillness in months.
Bright new morning.
I’m sorry I’ve been away.
I feel like I’ve been a sailor on the seas, and this is my first day on dry land. Legs are steady. I’ve had a good night’s sleep. Hello Continue Reading

Ten years ago a bride woke up on her wedding day with a bruise the size of a grapefruit on her fore-arm. It was green and unsightly, but the long Juliet-sleeves of her wedding dress covered it up nicely. She thought the bruise was odd, but she soon forgot about it because she was about to step into the happiest day of her life. And it was. It was Continue Reading

I’m popping in to give a quick update. Not my usual kind of post, but I am time poor and adventure rich. Let me attempt to recap how we ended up right here, right now.
A month or so back I wrote about my longing for home. It was intense, melancholic, urgent. I had reached a mysterious indefinable limit. I didn’t realise it then, but I was so Continue Reading

The long walk took me into wildness. I meandered through the dark woods, lost my footing on slippery rocks, and tripped over sharp branches. I dragged my bruises and broken bones as far as I could. At the point when I thought I had no strength left, the sun found its way to me, sifting through the trees. Just enough light to lead me back Continue Reading

When the music started I sank into my seat in the dark. It only took a second for my heart to unhinge from its axis. From there I was free.
There’s something very liberating about going to a concert alone. I saw Luka Bloom play two weeks ago. It’s the treat I give myself every two years when he tours. Twenty years later and I keep going back for Continue Reading

February bulged at the seams. It bulged so much that the writing part of my brain didn’t have room to move. There was the usual busy stuff – like dashing around with my kids, paying bills, and trying to remember the birthdays of 8 important people in my life. (Because clearly they must be born all in the same month for no compelling reason).
And Continue Reading

Do you know this picture? It’s taken by wildlife photographer Amos Nachoum. A leopard seal and a penguin in the Antarctic Sea.
I find myself having so many reactions to it. In awe of the power of the leopard seal. In grief for the fate of the penguin.
I showed it to my daughter. She’s only four. I explained the photo might be a bit scary. Continue Reading

And Christmas was the sweet breath of sleeping children, and the hush of the Eve as presents were softly placed under the tree.
Christmas was the knot of excitement upon waking, the sheer bliss on their faces, the squeals, and their joy being as complete as mine.
Christmas was the chopping of potatoes, the stuffing of a bird, and the Continue Reading

She carries a pearl
In perfect condition
What once was hurt
What once was friction
What left a mark
No longer stings
Because grace makes beauty
Out of ugly things
- Grace, U2
I sway between hope and despair hourly. I wish I was a consistent person. I wish I was positive ALL THE TIME. But I feel Continue Reading

So here’s what I do.
I explore the undercurrents. I’m a sonar in the depths. Picking up on the signals that no-one wants to hear or talk about. The despair, the pain, the misery, the gloom. Because that sort of talk is socially unacceptable. Because there’s a social pressure to avoid the undertow. Just look on the bright side! And whatever you Continue Reading