So I was thinking the other day, or should I say year about some of the things that I have cried about in the past.

I wouldn’t call myself a cry baby but I was laughing just thinking about the myriad of reasons one would cry, most of which are unexplainable :O

You know how you get that feeling in your tummy and you know you’re about to throw up after eating/tasting, ok having :P something nasty and then other times without any notice you just find yourself throwing up,no warning,nada…..

I think tears have the same effect.You never know when they’ll spring out of you..could be after having a massive laugh, #pitypartyforme times ; aaaaw, how sweet moments, sad/woiye moments, moments when one is overwhelmed by grief or the kindness of others or even happy times.

Strange enough I find that I cry when I least expect to and a couple of times when I actually have had a reason to cry , my tear glands would not budge.

Lucky for me very few people have witnessed me cry: Including umm… my folks and siblings who got used to it, They have to love me whatever the case, we family and Thank God for that cz it looks nasty for reals.loooool

Then there are those Mushy movie scenes #tearjerkers that just leave you feeling like crap or really weirdly happy.Imagine I didn’t cry when I watched the Titanic the year it was released and I was armed with tissue, ready!

Possibly had more walls up then than I do now or less I don’t know \o/ #tobecontinued

I need some tips from all of you,( movie starts too),who have the luxury of looking fabulous while some of us unleash the tear monster frightening our unsuspecting victims.Cheers

#NoRegrets though, for tears cried .Can’t change the past so it would be useless to say I wish this hadn’t happened ,I wish I hadn’t watched that movie/documentary lol or I wish that hadn’t affected me much.

Waste not fresh tears over old griefs ~ Euripides

I pray the tears to be cried in 2012 will ALL or at least for the MOST part ,tears of joy,happiness,laughter.

brick wall/the owls: yes or no shutting down your attempt to hold a convo

the hyena who will laugh at everything you say including sarcastic comments they unleash

the energiser bunny: goes on and on and on and on again

speaking of which recently noticed how easy it is to unknowingly hog a convo talking about yourself cutting off the listening party from contributing to the convo or maybe I’ve been meeting peeps who are just indifferent to my vibes lol well i cn talk to myself without looking like a crazy person thank you! (Kinda like what I’m doing right now loooool)

irked when smne asks me to tell them a story/Sema how is your life? #general much you want the long version or the short one loool I call that a scapegoat cz they probably have nothing to say either and decide to throw in an awkard moment to shine the spotlight on the less wittier of the two.

Hope not to shutdown any convos for fear of embarrassment or boredom but will also have my exit strategy in check just in case.

Must say this has been one of the most ‘full of emotion’ transition into a new year I have had yet.

I was amazed at how a single act of kindness from a stranger left me perplexed.I must say I was a bit disappointed with myself, as I found it hard to believe that they did not want anything in return for their kindness.And it seems i was not alone, as when I tried to spread the kindness ,It was rejected and met with suspicion.

There really are kind people out there, we just need to believe.

Shortly after what started off as a joke with a loved one turned into an argument and almost fight which resulted in a change of plans.Still irks me that I get so self-conscious if my drama causes a scene in public :O

Well, hopefully by God’s grace that will be a thing of the past after today. One day at a time!

Speaking of which I really need to make the first move in reconciliation and apologise , even though it was not entirely my fault :P, its the right thing to do!

anywhoooo, Soooo….. one of my resolutions or should I say action plans for 2012 is to laugh more.Once upon a time, I used to laugh a lot more than I have done recently, at silly things and serious things too :D:D.I had a wonderful time today with a group of friends, met new people , spent time with some old friends and laughed a lot!I must say it made the night more memorable and Fun was really what we made it out to be.

Even though my original plans got derailed,at the end of the day I’m glad I feel I’m where I wanted to be when I got up yestermorning :-D.

I just want to send a special S/O to God without whom I would not have seen this day/year.There are so many mistakes I made in 2011 and I am grateful for the lessons learnt and for the FAVOUR I received on numerous occasions.I pray that this year your heart’s desires may be met according to God’s riches in Glory.