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Anal… you either love it or hate it. i myself, began this journey with the latter.

It has been through an immense amount of patience, love and persistence from Master, that i have finally learnt to submit as His slut- to ALL His desires, not only the ones i wanted.

From… “You want to do WHAT… with THAT!!!???”
To… “Nope, not happenin, have You lost Your freakin mind!”
To… “But Masterrrrrr, it hurrrts, i don’t wanna” (whining drives Master crazy!)
To… “Yes Sir” (gritted teeth endurance)
To… “Not again!!!! You just did it!” (when He enjoys something-He REALLY enjoys it!)
To… “insert random excuse” (in feeble attempt at avoidance)
To… “Enough! girl, do as you’re told, no more fighting Me!” (even the most patient Master has their limits… and good Lord did i push His on this one!)
To… “How the hell are we going to get past this!” (smoke break to calm Him and back to His stubborn girl)
To… “you will obey, whether I am gentle and patient or take you- that is the only choice you have in the matter, understand!”
To… Finally understanding i couldn’t weasel my way out of it… so back to gritted teeth endurance.
To… “Hmmm, that felt kinda good for a second- NO! Don’t think that, this is dirty and you’re submitting because Master says so and for no other reason!” (Denial much!?)
To… Coming to the realization that it did actually feel good… “This isn’t right, fight it harder now! What is wrong with me! I can’t actually LIKE this!”
To… “Ok, there’s no fighting it, I’ll just quietly enjoy it”… what’s that… Master’s telling me He knows, and that He’s happy His pet is finally relaxing and enjoying her Master’s attentions and that she’s His good little slut.
To… Hmm, really… it’s ok to like this? Start enjoying it in short bursts, but will NEVER ask for more… i swear He knows everything that goes on in here! “ask slave, ask Master for what you know you want baby, it’s ok”
To… Stubborn obedience, ask as ordered, but unable to truly submit and allow myself to really beg.
To… nothing more than a minor change in the tone of my voice (instead of the instant attempt to avoid it) when Master applies the lube.
To… Master going gently and then, do my ears deceive me… did I seriously just ASK for Master to use His ass harder!? No…. but ohhhh yessss! I am begging… truly begging to be used… finally… FINALLY… becoming His slave, holding nothing back from Master.

Maybe to some, this isn’t a huge accomplishment- but for me, this has taken 7 years of tears, frustration, even anger- but in that one second, I found peace.