Well this was written when I was at my lowest. Addiction is funny it can make you feel invincible or it make you give up on life. When my step daughter went bak to her Mother I was faced to deal with the emptiness of my home alone. My addiction confined me to my thoughts and my home. Praying became obsalete. I felt that God gave up on me. I could not trust anyone I felt everyone was ou to get me. I felt so alone. I felt so cursed.