Thursday, February 28, 2008

She called to tell me a huge tree fell on our house during a recent storm. It was actually good that she was at home because she was supposed to be out here in Atlanta for my biopsy, but I told her not to come. (Psychic again? No. My friend who's gone through it before said it wasn't "mama I need you" type of pain.)

The tree plowed through our house. So for a second, my house was a tree house. There were branches in my room and bathroom which is on the total opposite of the house where the tree fell. When I first got the news and after the MooMoo said she (and my doggies) were okay, I didn't worry. I just thought, geez, when it rains it pours in my life. But then later that week when temperatures dropped below freezing in Mississippi, I started to worry. My mom was freezing at night. My dogs were freezing too. There's nothing like looking up at the stars from your bedroom.

Eventually the tree was removed and a tarp was placed over the roof. Insurance is helping my mom pay for the roof rebuild, but now I don't know if I'll be able to pay for the rest of my school.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

I changed schools. I left Portfolio Center and now I attend The Creative Circus. It was a really hard decision. It was one I wish I didn't have to make. But I just felt like I would get more for my money over at the Circus so I left. Some students and faculty back at PC were cool about it, some were not. I wish it didn't have to be that way. I wish people didn't take it however they took it that resulted in a change in their attitude. But oh well, crap happens.

I like Creative Circus but I'm new. That's the part I don't like. Yeah, I was new at PC once, but I came in with a bunch of new people. So we had each other. Now, at Circus, I'm a transfer, which is extra awkward (in my opinion). People are nice but I feel as though everything I do is being judged, by the students. I think people are looking at my stuff, like - is this how they're doing stuff over at PC? And I feel stressed about giving PC a bad name. I don't know why, I just feel that way. It could be all made up in my mind, but I doubt it.

Hopefully, next quarter I won't be so new and so out of my mind with life worries that I can push forward with building the best book I can build. In the end, I'm not so worried about making friends, I just want a damn good job. And I have no problem saying that I got my education from both PC and Creative Circus. It is what it is.

But just when I thought I was getting used to Circus life, my mom called and gave me something new to worry about...

Monday, February 25, 2008

I know it's been awhile since I've written something. I just haven't really been myself. The fun-loving, happy-go-lucky, always smiling Tracie hasn't been around lately. I've been going through a lot.

The main thing: Remember back when I wrote about my visit to Planned Parenthood? How it was the greatest pap visit EVER? Yeah, so I should've known something would go wrong. My pap smear results came back abnormal and after more testing it was clear that I had to have a cervical biopsy. I learned that I would need the procedure back in January (around the time school was just starting back) and I couldn't stop thinking about it. It didn't help that my mom told me that my grandmother found out about her cancer through an abnormal pap. It also didn't help that cancer runs through our family like crazy. My mind went all over the place. I thought, what if I'm the first young person in my family who gets it, what if after all these years of being on birth control pills I'll have to have a hysterectomy before I even get the chance to have any kids, what if...

The biopsy sucked. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Well, maybe my worst enemy. I still don't know my results (which probably sucks more than the biopsy itself). I haven't been able to focus 100% on school. My work has suffered and probably at the worst possible time. A time when people are looking at my work and really judging me. I mean really, judging me - all across, up and down.

Friday, February 15, 2008

I got some Valentine's Day gifts y'all.It was a surprise to me. I was expecting yet another non-eventful V-day. But alas, I got some presents! Yay!

I really have to update everyone on my life because some things have changed. I haven't been focused on writing really (or school for that matter) and that's so unlike me. But with good reason. I'll fill you in later, hopefully.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

The Tide-to-go Talking Stain commercial was GREAT (in my opinion). It was clever, quick, and everyone who saw it, got it. Then it really became my favorite when I heard you could become the voice of the talking stain online. FABULOUS idea!! Y'all know I made like 8 million of these.

Friday, February 8, 2008

I don't know how it's my first experience since I voted in 2000 and 2004 for the general elections (I must've somehow missed the primary part). But the election this time around is so exciting. Everybody is talking about it; it's right up there with Britney Spears (and that's a big step for politics). My voting experience went well. I went around 2:30pm and there was no line. I was in and out in under 5 minutes. I even cracked a small smile when I placed my vote. I felt proud because I was doing my part in what's bound to be a history making election.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

I've been getting an email a day about this Bag Borrow or Steal website. You can think of it as sort of a Netflix for handbags. I love a great purse, a great expensive (looking) purse. I only own one semi-expensive bag, a purple hobo Coach bag that the MooMoo gave me as a Christmas gift some years back. So this site did peak my interest. Just think about it: maybe you're going out with the girls and need the perfect accessory - borrow a Fendi bag for $15/week.

I've been doing a lot of real promotional type blogs lately, huh? The Unisom thing and now this. Believe me, I'm not getting paid. Just trying to let y'all know about the things I'm using (or dreaming about using).

Friday, February 1, 2008

Aaaaahhhh, the Superbowl. Big, strong, strappin' guys bending over, a lot. What more could a girl ask for? I love football. I think my fondness for the sport started in high school when we cheerleaders actually had to know a thing or two about it in order to call the right cheer.

Who doesn't enjoy the Superbowl? I mean, it's a party, it's snack food, it's funny commercials, and hopefully a good game. I just want to know, who are YOU rooting for?