Friday, March 25, 2011

Dance of Fury

I am happy. But I am also human and sometimes people, life, loss, grief, sadness, stress, insomnia, full powerful moons and just general life circumstances get to me. Sad happens but after sad comes the emotion many people judge the harshest but that I view as a necessary step to healing.

I get angry! And sometimes, I need the anger, it is a stage that I must go through so I wait for it to come because I know that if I get really super pissed off I will work through to peace quickly after.

I try not to direct my anger at a particular person and I do try to express it and deal with it in a healthy way.

But I enjoy an occasional fit of the red furious passion. And at these times I get royally pissed off at people who are fools, pissed off at my own foolishness, pissed off at being pissed off. I have a temper too. I like to throw things. Of course this isn't appropriate behaviour, I don't actually throw things(much) so I meditate through it and I write through it. It's often fleeting, minutes to a few hours and often laughter is my best remedy.

I wrote this poem in the midst of one such adult style tantrum that no one would know about if I didn't 'fess it all up here on this blog. But you can't appreciate the happy if you haven't felt the despair. So this anger is the snowfall, and then after that comes the sun to melt it. Yes always the sun comes again. Always it comes. So make the dance of anger a fast one, get through it and move on to the sunny slow dance of silence and peace.

And apologise and attempt to do better if you hurt someone along the way. Don't just buy them a gift though. That's not an apology, that's a get myself off the hook easily action and it's a lame thing to do. I hate that. Gifts should be only given in love, not to make up for bad behaviour. I really really despise that. It is a sucky thing to do. Instead, make serious amends, change your ways, find healthy outlets for anger. There is nothing that makes me more angry than when people use a material gift to make up for bad behaviour..it pisses me off and sends me into a tailspin and then I just want to beat the crap...oh..wait..sorry...I got angry again..oops. Sorry...let me buy you an ice cream?

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