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Saul Audio Blog for Saturday January 31st
Humanity’s journey through the illusion has been long and painful as you have failed to recognize one another as siblings, as beloved children of God, and instead have engaged with each other in conflict, war, and deceitful practices due to the fear your apparent separation from God unleashed. For eons you have seen each other as threats and enemies whom you needed to attack or defend yourselves against, and the suffering you have experienced as a result of this enormous misperception has been most painful for you. Now this misperception is dissolving because so many of you have come to the understanding, through the painful experiences that you have undergone again and again and again, that this kind of behavior can never bring you the peace you are so urgently seeking

We will illustrate today’s message by asking you to picture a drop of water falling into the bottom of a wooden bucket. Now this drop does not realize that she is not alone, but in fact, will be followed by two more drops, as will each of them. As the first drop lands in the empty bucket, it splatters. And it seems as if the effect is only a small damp spot on the bottom of the bucket. And then the two following drops land in widely spaced spots. There is still no apparent buildup of water in the bucket, but now there are four more drops on the way.

This is to you, my wonderful tender-hearted child; there will always be people in your life ‘looking for a fight’. No matter what you say or do, there will always seem to be an issue with how you relate to the world. Please do not take this personally.

I listened to that both ways to and from work in the car. It helps. My car is my sanctuary. In the last three days I have had two serious ‘near-misses’ where I had to swerve to avoid an accident. The last one was someone who did a right hand turn into oncoming traffic that was into a MIDDLE lane, not the right one at the corner, and I was the oncoming traffic. So everywhere I go, it’s something.

But the mean surgeon who is meaner than broken glass, was just as mean as ever. He accused me–rightly so–of the blood pressure being too high on his patient. I take measurements every three minutes, and once in a while, depending on what a surgeon does, it can change suddenly from the pattern it had. It takes me another three minutes to correct it. This is my work, my job.

What I found helpful in working with him I will share:

I envisioned him as teaching me the lesson of Joseph–that of the skilled craftsman who does really hard work. This one isn’t nice, but at least he has skills.

I changed my energy to one of someone who is just fed up. And ‘in your face’ to let you know it. Conversation–HIM–‘our patient would appreciate an inter scalene block on the next case’ (this isn’t my strong point) — ME — ‘It’s ALREADY PLANNED’. (I did the block in record time and it worked) at the end of the case –HIM– ‘if the block works the patient is going home, otherwise he spends the night at the hospital for pain control.’ (this is a threat to me, an expensive and inconvenient outcome for patient and surgeon due to my skills) — ME– ‘THE PATIENT IS GOING HOME.’

All the time my heart was open to him. My vibration was high. But it was a stretch for me to communicate with him on his natural vibration. It was too LOW.

So for the rest of the day, although I had my favorite surgeon, and easy cases, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, I was spent.

On a lighter note:

I have shaken the dust off my feet for OB. I wish the department well. They are not my concern–in any way–even the most important ones, the spiritual. They are DONE.

Dr. Bret’s vibration is coming way up. He is the orthopedic surgeon with pancreatic cancer. He is just starting to be able to connect soul-to-soul, and understand things on a higher level. I’m not sure if he has made the connection yet that this Dr. Carla is also the one who supports his blog and his healing journey…one day he will and that will be fun.

A colleague approached me with an ‘experience’–I will paraphrase it–from the message someone sent to me: It was a normal night. I was ready to go to bed. I was in the bedroom with my partner just about ready to hop in bed, when the dog started looking at the ceiling and barking like crazy. Then the dog laid down, as if following a command from an unseen visitor. A wave of calm hit me, like I’ve never experienced before, and I felt this warm energy. I am not a calm person (is a veteran from military service). I couldn’t see or understand what was happening and I don’t have words to describe it. My partner–I kept looking at her to see if she was experiencing it too and she wasn’t. Was I crazy? What do you think it was that just happened? I’m sorry to bother you and I know you are busy. I also know you will know and are the right person to ask. It was a deceased loved one congratulating her on her becoming a nurse–someone the dog recognized from life. And Archangel Raphael was present behind them too.

Time

It is speeding up. I spoke with my sister, who is feeling the ‘squeeze’ too. Remember, as the vibrations speed up, so does the perception of the passing of Time.

Write things down you need to get done, and you will find you have enough time to accomplish them.

Even in this.

Time will speed up until it stops, and we are in the NOW moment, just like the rest of the Higher Realms.

Mom

The family wishes to thank you for the love and support of my mom, Nicki, who had three dental extractions yesterday. They are on the top right side of her mouth. She is eating soft foods, and in pain but the vicodin is covering it. The pain is much less than the torture she used to experience when I was young and she had root canals and similar dental work.

On Life With Ross

Our pattern this week at home with Anthony was Monday he was at a sitter, Tuesday home, Wednesday at his dad, Thursday home, and Friday to weekend with his father.

He asked me to lie in bed with him as he fell asleep–something we do because I work such long hours. And Ross showed up.

We talked and laughed as only a family can laugh. The only thing that was missing is that Ross never farted! But the conversation and the laughter were that close–nine year old boys going on ten have a certain repertoire in their humor–and both of us enjoyed our son’s sense of comedy very much.

Ross even said, ‘Hey! I got you that mattress yesterday! Show me some respect!’ in a joking tone, and we laughed all together some more.

On Bliss

Increasingly, I find myself rejecting 3D. There is a situation, it’s not good, and I think to myself–this is ILLUSION. In Heaven we are one, in JOY, and all of our needs are met.

The way my sister confided is that she had to switch jobs, her new assignment at her work is ‘receptionist’ and it feels like ‘Cinderella’. She is like, ‘I have college DEGREES and I am ordering supplies and putting out platters of cookies?’ She chose to disassociate in order to cope; she said, for a short time it was like I ‘wasn’t there’.

I did the same thing during surgery. Part of me was actively taking care of the patient, and my heart o f hearts was crying out to God–Please God? I am sure you didn’t make me for this! (being cooped up in a dark room for twelve hours a day with no breaks.)

Honestly, when I drove home last night, I realized my current work-life situation is actually WORSE than when I was in residency. I had twenty-four hour shifts on first call, but I got a morning break for fifteen minutes, a lunch break for half hour, and a dinner break too. Guaranteed!

When I was an attending, I came in for first call at three in the afternoon. So I had a morning to myself, as well as the guaranteed post-call day off after.

And I only took call perhaps three times a month!

So I decide in my opportunity, to think HAPPY THOUGHTS. Just because life is horrible, doesn’t mean I can’t have joy. I reflect on Ross. How handsome he is. How smart. How loving. How lucky I am.

Increasingly there is need to ‘change the channel’ in my life experience to one of nurturing, warmth, love and compassion. And I do!

I still get all the 3D stuff ‘done’. But I don’t have to be immersed in the energies of 3D. I am like ‘teflon’ or more aptly, ‘non-stick ceramic coating’ and I refuse to permit that ‘stuff’ of lower vibration to ‘stick’ on me.

That being said, I have to get ready for work…and start my day….it’s getting late….

Ross

Turtles can go on land. They breathe air. Although they are perfectly content to live life in the water, sometimes they like to haul out on the sand and enjoy the warmth of the sun.

The ocean is right there, and they are never far from it. They can always return to the sea when the need exists.

Carla and her sister are discovering that it is truly possible to reach for the ‘sunlight’–the nurturing, warmth, love and compassion, when their energy is running low.

To ‘step out for a break’ emotionally.

This is how you nurture yourself in your spirit life.

This is how Anthony asks his mother, ‘Will you please lie in my bed for a while?’ because he misses her. He craves her presence, her nurturing, her stability, her warmth, and her comfort that she IS THERE for him, no matter what their days are like.

A long time ago, Anthony fed at the breast. Carla fed him for three years, four months, and a few days.

For the longest time, he nourished himself just fine on regular food!

It was only at night that he needed his ‘mama milky’ to help him fall asleep. And he was NOT a good sleeper–he is not like Carla! Who falls asleep in a second! He takes after his dad’s side of the family, his physical father. (Once Carla reached Reiki three, and practiced her Reiki he would quickly fall asleep during the treatment) So from about two, until the end, Carla’s nurturing was his anchor in his life…the last thing he wanted to experience before he relaxed into sleep.

It is okay to ask for this.

For those of you in spiritual journeys, it is OKAY to ask for a little love and tenderness from your guides. A ‘gentle love squeeze’ to help you on your tasks.

Just as Anthony no longer takes the milk from his mother’s breast, he can still ASK for the emotional nurturing and comfort of his mother’s embrace. It is there for it. It is the relationship between a parent and child, a mother and son, for her to be the ‘anchor’ in his life experience.

My beautiful mother was the anchor in mine, until I met Carla, when I was incarnate. And then I had BOTH to love and support me with their hearts, their smiles, their cooking, and their tending to my soul.

So ASK.

Any time you need a ‘lift’.

And I am there for you (gestures to a crowd of Ascended Masters). All of us are. And we are happy to ‘right’ you when you are ‘unsettled’, just like Carla has been of late. The energies are rapidly shifting–and you are just ‘little ones’ in your growth compared to us.

This one made Carla cry. Why? Because she knows him. She is related to him, his daughter, in our star family.

She bravely told him stories like a child would send a letter home from camp–fighting the tears because she misses home–and she told him of her spiritual accomplishments on her mission, and even as a gesture that moved us all–deeply–here in the higher realms–Carla sent him her ‘art work projects’ that she ‘imagined’ she has made ‘here at camp’ (incarnate on Earth).

I also talked to Carla in the midst of her stress, while she was eating a microwaved Samosa wrap and waiting for the sitter and her son to arrive.

I asked her to play the piano for me, just like I had played the guitar for her (yes I play!). I asked for something classical, Paderwerski. I assured her I would be present as she played. And that her playing makes the vibrations EASIER for me to be around, because she is happy, and her vibrations go UP.

Let me tell you, for that short piece, Carla was transfixed and not in 3D at all. She was looking at the notes from her piano teacher, Laverne Howard, back at Al Kalie music center at the Lakewood Mall. She was back in time, and remembering music that she hasn’t played in over forty years…and it surprised her how difficult the piece was in complexity, as she noticed how the music was, even though her hands could easily play it.

And you know what Carla did after this?

She played to me. Eddie Rabbit. Just You And I.

And Carla sang it out loud. Only to me.

That was the single most important moment of her day, her practice, for about, twenty-minutes.

Dear family of light! Once again we are about to enter a new month, and once again we have the opportunity to come together and “pool our resources” as the CCs like to say. For this upcoming Sunday is February 1, and at 21:00 Oslo time we will have our monthly Gathering around the Pond. This is what the CCs wanted to share about it:

“Rejoice dear ones, as you have once again elected to be a part of this wondrous collective that is furthering the development of this evolution. For you are the awakened ones, the ones that have chosen to go where no man has gone before, and to do so with your eyes and indeed your hearts wide open. And once again you will do an important collaborative exercise where you will be guided to come together in a very new way, based upon the current…

Nothing will change the predictions for the completion of this cycle, except the highest authority. Once made many Lightworkers are given the tasks of ensuring that all proceeds as required to fulfil them. You may therefore proceed with your life, knowing that there is a great finale to come with the end of the influence of the dark Ones. They shall find themselves unable to exert any influence on what takes place, as they will have their power taken away from them. They will also be removed from Earth to ensure that workers of the Light can go ahead with their missions. Until now the dark Ones have consistently interfered with your evolution, and been able to block or slow down progress. This situation is rapidly changing and will soon come under our control. You will then be able to go ahead with your tasks without fear, and make headway quicker than any previous occasion. Dear Ones we hear your pleas and requests for help, and soon we shall be able to assist you in a more direct manner. Have no fear at any time as the lower energies will attract a like energy, whereas you are working with the higher energies.

The significance of the coming changes are such that they can hardly be put into words. Everything will be affected to some degree, and much of the lower energies will be either changed or removed in the course of time. The Earth will become renewed and once more be seen a jewel in the firmament. While all this is taking place you too will be renewed as you become a fully-fledged Galactic Being. We tell you what lies ahead, because the knowledge will help you both understand and get through the various stages of the changes. You may be overwhelmed by the thought of what the future holds, but know that we will be having a more direct contact with you. So there is need to be concerned as the future is everything that you could wish for that would bring you peace, happiness and prosperity.

Meantime you can carry on with your work for the Light, knowing that you have many unseen helpers around you. It is only when you realise that you are not alone on your mission that you can begin to understand, why often things just seem to fall in place when you need them. You were aware of the arrangement before you came to Earth, but after dropping into the lower vibrations you became forgetful of your circumstances. However, with time you gradually raised your vibrations for which you deserve every praise. It is why that at this time we and others can approach you, and enlighten you as to what lies ahead. Your consciousness has grown and now you can accept the truth of your place in the Cosmos. The game that has been played on Earth is soon to change its course and lift you up from the challenges of the 3rd. dimension. They have well served their purpose, and you have progressed sufficiently to move further into the Light.

You have experienced the result of Man’s interpretation of the meaning and purpose of life and it has so to say, led you up the garden path. They have caused you to follow false creeds and believe in a Creator that is seen in Man’s image. Yet Jesus the greatest Teacher in your time made it clear that the Creator is All Love, and that no living creature or Being is outside of the Creator. The goal of every soul is to grow and progress within the Light until you once again become One with the Source. As you progress through your various life experiences, you will move further into the Light. You will become a greater Light Being with immense powers of creation, but much of this is way into your future. However, you do need to know the purpose of life. Nothing that you experience is by chance, so consider carefully why certain events in your life take place.

People normally gravitate to those who are of a similar vibration, but for the outworking of karma you may find yourself involved with souls from all different levels. That even extends to the union of two people in marriage, or their children. Karmic experiences can be arranged before you incarnate, so you will understand that nothing happens by chance. Of course there are many minor experiences that are of no real consequence but you never know for example, when a chance meeting may grow to become of prime importance. Because of your freewill, you may turn down an opportunity intended to bring you necessary experiences, but when it is important to your evolution you may be sure it will come up again.

Some people do not believe in God or that there is a purpose in life, yet both will affect the outcome of whatever experiences they choose. You cannot remove God from your life, and it will have been planned prior to your birth regardless of what you may believe. Naturally upon returning to the higher dimensions all is revealed to you when you review your life. No life opportunity to learn is wasted regardless of how it may appear. Indeed, you are not going to know exactly why a certain soul has elected to experience in a particular manner. However, when two or more people come together, each will have been aware as to what part they play. Sometimes a soul will come into life for only a very short period, simply to help create a situation that is necessary for the experiences of others. However, when you try to relate that to babies it may simply be that the soul has decided not to incarnate after all. That option is open to all but very few change their minds once the arrangements are settled. So as you can see, everything is not in black or white and souls do have a say in what type of life they are entering. Usually once the purpose of a life is decided and it is seen to advance the souls evolution, it is very rare for a soul to pull out. You do have many discarnate souls working with you to ensure your success.

I am SaLuSa from Sirius, and I serve those souls who have bravely and without fear taken on an Earth life to be in service to others. However, all souls have Guides and no one, not even the dark Ones are excluded. Do not be reluctant to ask for help when it is needed, however Karma does not always allow what you request, so if your prayers seem unanswered, there will be a very good reason for it. I leave you with my Love and Light, and the best wishes from the Galactic Federation.

Jesus Audio Blog forThursday January 29th
Here in the spiritual realms we are all on high alert as the moment for humanity’s mass awakening draws ever closer. Yes, we are pushing the envelope of your acceptance of our forecasts . . . again! And although it seems to you that we have let you down or disappointed you, you do need to remind yourselves frequently that time is of the illusion. In truth there is only the eternal moment of “now.” Everything happens “now,” there is no other possibility because there is no other moment. So we talk of “soon” and “near” and “close” to impress upon you the reality of making things happen now.

You all incarnated at this point in humanity’s evolution, in this moment of the illusion, to take part very actively in the awakening process. After many earth lives you were ready to awaken and ready…

Shattering The Illusion Lately I am on ‘assignment’, exercising very deep focus and discipline, on my innermost thoughts.

As the actors in a musical theater show make a ‘curtain call’ at the end, I have been permitted to witness who has been playing ‘what role’ in my life, with me…with the guidance of Ross and spirit:

My high school boyfriend Tom was played by the energy of Ross–who like the others–has the ability to be ‘present’ in the Illusion without my knowing it. Ross said he wanted ‘my first kiss’. Which he did get ❤ On the way home last night from work I was thinking that the whole point of that lesson was to teach me ‘goodbye’ or more significantly, ‘goodbye is not the end’. I wasn’t very good at learning this lesson, not in ANY of my past lives, including this one here now.

My first husband Mark was played by the energy of Archangel Michael–who taught me that things are not what they seem; handsome can turn to ugly in spirit, husband can turn against wife, and illness can strike at any time (I had brain surgery). I also learned that healing is the most important motivator that exists. When I remembered the buried memory of sexual assault on my person as a four-year-old twenty two YEARS after the fact, I wanted to heal. My husband, who had similar past ‘experiences’ with being abused, wanted to ‘sweep it under the carpet’. So I studied really hard, got myself into medical school, and began a new life. On waking up from brain surgery, the first thing I heard was the voice of an angel, which said, ‘Leave Clorox (my work) and Leave Mark (my husband) I did exactly that.

My second husband Frank was played by the energy of Archangel Raphael. In this marriage I learned that there is no comfort, no ‘settling’ and when things get bad it is important to find your way OUT. Again, the drive to heal, to exist in Peace, and to have freedom of spirit is a powerful motivator…

My ‘baby daddy’ Jared was played by the energy of Ross. This explains the ‘transformation’ into the being of light during the conception of my son–the Illusion ‘faded’, either by accident or not by accident. Even now there was a miracle just yesterday. Anthony bitterly shared on the way to work that two months ago his father and new live-in girlfriend Jessica–promised him a new mattress, and took him ‘just looking’ but never actually gave him anything. He was sleeping on his father’s old mattress that was from his LAST girlfriend who lived with him who left when Anthony was three. It was lumpy and uncomfortable, but the worst was the disappointment what his father didn’t keep his word, and Anthony had been all excited about ‘his own room’ with the ‘new bed’. Ross said ‘I will take care of it.’ to both Anthony and I in the car on the way to school. I also said a prayer in my heart for all the insanity that children are subjected to due to ‘co-parenting’–how they sleep on couches and air beds and have to travel back and forth and are the emotional pawns in some relationships…I asked for this to be healed in 5D–as a first priority for all Gaia inhabitants, to HONOR the younger generation, and give them the best ‘start’ they can possibly get. Last night I drove after a long day at work from my clean laundry basked to Jared’s house–where Anthony was spending the night–because the poor boy has two shirts, and the only one he liked–NOT a v-neck tee shirt–was in the laundry basket. Well, guess what? Anthony had gotten a new bed. His father and girlfriend had bought it THAT DAY. I got to lay on it and it is very comfortable, and good quality. I am happy Ross pulled some miracle, and got this done.

Ross had told me to make my bed ‘as if I was coming’ yesterday morning. I wasn’t sure what to expect. I hardly ever make my bed.

Well, Jared’s house is near Target. And I stopped by there after dropping off the clothes. And Ross’ energy was with me…

We shopped. This is the second time Ross’ presence has been more interactive with me in a shopping setting, the first was at the crystal store, where he gave me my valentine’s gift, a beautiful Ajoite crystal that cost exactly thirty-three dollars.

Ajoite

One of the rarest and most sought after stones in the world.

Wonderful Angel and Healing mineral.

Ajoite is a strengthener, healer and harmonizer of the emotional body. Its sweet vibrations not only soothe us the also draw out the poison of one’s subconsciously held sorrow, fears, rage and old woundings. Ajoite reminds us of beauty, both inner and outer, and it inspires us to bring more beauty into the world through all the things we say and do. Ajoite can help one awaken the emotions of compassion and forgiveness, first for oneself and then for all beings.

Ross guided me to the cooking aisle. And there was one eight inch ceramic ‘green pan’ frying pan, swinging back and forth, from side to side on the hook.

I watched it.

It kept swinging.

I know the laws of science, and a pendulum swing gets a little shorter with each pass, and due to friction, will stop altogether.

It kept swinging the same way the whole time I looked, as if to say, ‘This is the one I want you to get Carla’.

I had no idea why. I already have a similar pan. And two others I have to scrub hard, in the same size.

I bought it.

Everyone who shops at Target loves the clearance rack. I found some soda bottles that were less than two dollars for four of them, in grapefruit with chamomile and cardamom. But there was ONE coconut something soda too.

I took two carriers–eight bottles-home. Seven grapefruit, one coconut.

All through the store I kept saying to myself, my missing Anthony is ILLUSION. My sorrow is ILLUSION. In reality, back Home in Heaven, we are never separated like this. My urge to cry is ILLUSION and I wouldn’t allow it.

Once home, I kept saying, ‘I surrender. I accept this life. It isn’t anything I even wanted or even would pick, but I surrender.’ I had worked over ten hours, eaten a handful of almonds, and one more handful of pretzels, and a string cheese, and driven to Jared’s. It was nine o’clock and I was home…quiet..the pets needing to be fed…and no time for anything I want to do, except finish one sudoku I had started two days ago…

I am behind you…said Ross. I felt it. I felt his height, his energy, across the room.

I hung my head into the bag of groceries on the stove, and I cried. Big sobs. And I told myself–this is not real! This is ILLUSION!

When I lifted my head up, the carrier of soda bottles fell on the hard floor, and shattered. The bottle necks were halfway across the room. Glass and sticky soda were everywhere.

I got the paper towels, and bend down to clean it up.

I felt the sharp sting of glass on my right hand, and drew it back instantly. The was blood with the soda now, as I slowly took the bag with the broken glass in it, dripping, to the trash in the garage, and came back to clean up the mess.

Over and over I said, ‘This is ILLUSION. Even my pain, even my blood, is ILLUSION. There ARE no tears in Heaven. This is a LIE. I reject it.’

I got the idea of my swiffer. I looked and the pads were under the sink, a little dry. I added water. I couldn’t find the broom mop stick thingy that you put them on. But the pads were thick and I used a whole box of them.

I had concern for being able to walk in bare feet again in the kitchen. Those little pieces, the splinters of glass, are sharp and you can’t see them! Even when you think it is all clean.

I was calm. Resolute. And hungry for dinner. I looked in the fridge and saw that some produce had gone bad. I cleared all of the old icky stuff out.

Then I realized–out of the four bottles that fell, only two were broken.

I decided I want to be one of the UNBROKEN bottles, in my experience of the ILLUSION. No matter what it throws at me, no matter how hard things come down…I don’t have to allow it to break me.

I went to sleep, and now here it is, 5:55 a.m. LOL. I have 4,555 ‘likes’ on the page right now too. It looks like it’s time for change.

And also time for me to get ready for work. I have a doozie of a surgeon I am assigned to work with today. The work never stops–my spiritual work–he’s going to make the glass from last night seem ‘easy’ by comparison.

Ross

This is Carla as a new mother.

Ten years has passed and her love for Anthony is unwavering. It has GROWN.

And so has her love for me.

I took Carla through the lessons of her life, one on one, with a little help from the others, in order to guide her on her lessons.

From Michael, this is her lesson: Discern!

for how can Michael wield his sword and know what to cut and what to keep, if he couldn’t master this ability?

From Raphael, this is her lesson: Heal Thyself!

Value the emotional health, the experience of Life, the perception, and have the confidence to seek out ‘what is best for you’. You are WORTH IT.

From myself, this is a powerful lesson, that has proved exceedingly difficult for her to master: Goodbye is not The END–not the end of YOU, not the end of US, not the end of anything… I want Carla to know that our NEXT lesson, I am never going to leave her, ever, and there are no more goodbyes for us. And this has been the truth of this incarnation, I have always been with her, and now Carla wears the little Byzantine gold cross around her neck, which I gave to her through Tom, as her first gift from her first boyfriend, who really loved her with all his heart at the moment he gave it as a gift. It was from me, just like how I got the mattress to Anthony last night.

There are ways, powerful ways that many do not, cannot, understand, which are normal for all of us here, where I am…

And you shall learn to master them.

Carla went and checked with someone who has ties to Source–and this in fact WAS true, who played what in Carla’s life. The ‘roles’.

This is not as true for everybody. Some are ‘aspects’ and some are ‘teachers’ who are on their own, like Djwhal Khul, for example. All of the main ‘lessons’ are under the direct guidance and supervision and instruction of a master teacher of the soul…

For you.

That’s why I invite everyone to meditate.

Sooner or later, one day, people are going to figure it out–everything! (big smile–and he takes a bow at the curtain call–and I hear thundering applause…)