Is the way of reaching a goal more or less important than achieving it? Do we know what our boundaries are? Will we make a decision when called upon? When do we know enough is enough? Many A-type leaders (hands up for me too…) set goals and then run after those goals like crazy rabbits running after a giant carrot. And that is ok. But aren’t there many smaller carrots on the way? Aren’t those also tasty?
“We are together!” That is what my guide or malaika (angel in Swahili) said to me in that morning. “Do you feel dizzy/ nauseous/ shivering? Don’t lie to me!” he repeated. My head was throbbing and I could feel my heart beating heavy and fast in my chest. I had pictured myself conscious at the summit (to say the least), but circumstances had changed and it was time to make a decision. I had overcome myself then, I thought. But had I overcome the mountain? And what was the most important after all? “Everything is ok, we are together”, said the malaika.

This journey has been fantastic: the companionship and lessons learnt, the energy-bursting wilderness, the truth lying in the silence. Yes, it was really hard too. But “only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far they can go”, said Mr. T. S. Eliot. I am proud of pushing my boundaries during this journey, and plan to continue doing so. And as consequence I have become a lot clearer about some of my strengths, preferences and values. I can make tough decisions when the buck stops with me…and will manage the consequences, no worries. I love sharing but I can only give energy if I have energy for myself in first place. And most importantly: the way to the top DOES matter!