Fore play

Comments Off on Fore play02 August 2018

I used to love playing golf, but in the months following my mental breakdown at the hands of the British Red Cross, I lost all my confidence in playing the game. In fact, I lost pretty well all my confidence doing anything at all. It’s taken me a very long time to get to the position where I have felt confident enough to play golf again. Today was a bit of step forward.

I have played a few times since last year and each time it took pretty well all I had to get out there and play. I love the game and I love my friends and I hated what the Black Dog was doing to me. Before playing, I was full of dread as to what might happen and after playing I was relieved it was all over. I had resigned myself to functioning at a very low level and not being able to do much. 18 holes at Tall Pines today was a real lift.

I had not hit a ball in anger for two months and it looked like it when my opening drive sailed into the trees on the right hand side of the fairway. But gradually I recovered and after 16 holes I was on 90, with the possibility of a sub-100 round at Tall Pines a reality until a disastrous 11 on the 17th. My back nine was still better than my front nine so I was happy with that.

I’m still not confident about golf or about anything but I know I’ve made a start and I can’t let it go. I’m going to do my best to ensure I don’t.