I worked at CERN from 1966 to 1979, but suffered this terrible accident because a physicist friend had fallen asleep on the wheel in 1973. As the only woman I was invited to celebrate 50 years of computing at CERN. The boss of my former boss told us how hard it was to convince physicists of the value of computing. I wish people would appreciate computer languages for learning logic and human languages to understand communication.

I stop hiding. Enough is enough: suffering from abuse because I exposed the worst possible child sexual abuse, when my mum saved me from the bombing of Dresden for a much higher purpose.

I have not been accepted for competitions and challenges because I was not part of the academic establishment. Oodles of funding applications have been rejected. Everybody wants to know how I’m doing what I’m doing. Nobody puts their money down to pay programmers to turn my designs into code. Too many applications are possible. But Ken Adachi who publishes Educate Yourself immediately ‘got it’. Some people do. Many don’t. He proposed I use images from his site to illustrate the damage of vaccines more accurately! Smart application, obviously! But he also thought of many others, including my latest disappointment with a betting king. Hence I’m working on the Ethical Investment Network now.

It may sound terribly presumptuous, especially for the English culture, when I write: Mathematical Woman, here I come. But I am old enough to wear a Purple Hat with pride and am just reading God, Physics and the Gender War.

The author Margaret Wertheim writes beautifully about science and the problems that it hasn’t solved yet – also in this TED discussion. And she writes about the Ascent of Mathematical Woman, besides all the reasons why women haven’t had equal chances yet. At the last event on Intelligent Imaging we were 64 participants and 4 women.

Her chapter on Rene Descartes who is famous for “I think, therefore I am“, reminded me of what I always claim: by practising ‘software-aided thinking’, I re-visited mathematics through the eyes of a mature programmer and came up not only with incredible insights, but also prototype software that produces unique screenshots by demonstrating three innovative software methods.

If men can be humble enough to express their admiration, I get a bit of positive body language. The professor who said “This is the most important work since relativity theory, because it’s about understanding number” claimed later I was mis-quoting him.

So I keep trying to find potential clients, collaborators and partners with whom to build smart knowledge portals without explaining the mathematics behind them.

Let the software drive the minds of its users
as an engine moves the car of its drivers:
without knowing how it works.

But humans want to know how things work around them:
the light that wakes them
the dark that puts them to sleep
the strong that holds them together
and the weak that lets things fall apart…

May Mathematical and Data Women repair
what has fallen apart in the past!

Rotating around our still point and pole,
circulating in an orbit of gravity,
and integrating the push away and the pull towards,
this is stillness in motion,
meditation in action,
energy transforming into matter
to find form through fields
and back.

The eternal process
of creation of visible matter
from invisible energy,
and order of relative motion
from objects in absolute positions –
both inside our mind and outside
is unending a dance –
of life outside and exploration inside.

When e = mc2,c2 is the attempt
to describe the powers
that create form.

Form for matter.

The speed of light
is measured
as linear distance
travelled
and squared.

What if we measured the length of a sin wave travelled?

The circumference of a sphere
unravelled as wave
along which light particles rotate
on their seeming journey to earth?

God creates numbers and units
and One as measure.

Who am I to establish a measure
for the speed of light?

Just a new way of looking:
from lines to waves,
from a straight distance
to a curved sin wave.

A vortex of resonance is created
by moving up and down double spirals
that are made from rotating
along sin and cosup and down.

This is the heart of a sun,
the image of energy
the motor of motion,
a picture of CyberArts.

The circularity of sin and cos waves up and down,
combined with mass that moves away centri-fugally
and is held in suspension by the attraction of another sphere
(which determines its orbit of circulation)
is at the heart of the wisdom
of a Universe
created by Light
as the Source for energy, force, charge and gravity.

A Cosmos of Order,
is a Universe in Motion,
round Zero at rest and to Balance.

Trans-Form-ation
The geometry of motion in True 3D
describes the motor of trans-form-ation:
from lightto matterand form for one life cycleand back for another one.

Energy, matter and form
emanate from light as the source,
numerically and mathematically zero:
geometrically and arithmetically,
as a point in space
a moment in time
and nil in calculable value
but all for cosmic balance…

From Zero to One
in quality and quantity,
as particle along a wave,
in unit and measure,
in direction and orientation,
rotation and circulation,
making cycles and leaps,
that is the power of trans-form-ation
and change of the highest order.