Thursday, January 28, 2016

Let It Shine, Let It Shine, Let It Shiine....

When
the pain shows up – everything changes. Life shifts as we respond each
in our own way
to deal with what life is giving us at the moment. I’m reminded of this
childhood song I sang, I’ve also sung it to my children. It really has
a strong message to return to.

As I look at the depth of my soul, and
feel
the brokenness and times the hopelessness to change a dark path into
light, I
strive to hold onto my positive outlook on life – my optimism – because,
I
truly am a hopeful optimist. That said, I stumble and fall like anyone. I hurt for the hurting and want healing to do
miracles – because I believe, I have hope, I know they exist and desire one or
more in the lives of my children!

I’ve heard the social workers tell me “kids like these
usually don’t make it” – I know my odds are stacked the wrong way, I know love
doesn’t fix everything and genetics and poor starts in life rule against me
over and over that is makes me mad. I
want to be the statistic that isn’t the norm – I want to break the odds. Time will tell.

So, I found this ring……(I love jewelry).

My hubby got it for me for Christmas.

It is described as “a little bit of joy peeking through the
clouds, like a ray of sunshine.” Like
it’s creator – who has a different journey of pain, I too will slip this ring
on my finger daily – this sunburst to remind me, better days are ahead, the sun
will shine through the clouds – joy will come through and peek out – allowing
the strength of those rays to fill me with joy to survive the cloudy and stormy
days.

Finding Joy in this journey is my challenge. This
little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine. Today Joy may or may not come…..I can choose
it – but it also eludes me like water in a sink with a stopper that doesn’t
hold the water in….there will be days like that.

We got the movie “Inside Out” – I really liked it – so
profoundly simply in it’s message that Joy can’t survive alone without the
other feelings as well. We can’t be just
one thing – a healthy balance is needed, even for the depressing sadness, she
was needed. A teamwork of emotions is
needed.

Meanwhile, I’ll look at my ring and sing….This Little Light of Mine….I’m Gonna Let It
Shine…..and remember to let the clouds be over the sun, but find a way to
shine as often as possible.

2 comments:

I am sorry I've been absent for so long! I read this post and your last and am so sorry for your pain, their pain and all of it. Our family has had a few people committ suicide and there is so little peace for us. It's painful for the person suffering and such a helpless feeling for all left behind or wishing they could make it better. I'm praying for you all.

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I'm an old soul in a middle aged body. I love sentimental things. A Canadian at heart living in small town USA.
This is our family life of soap, water, dirt and rocks in the washer! God leads us to the washline after cleansing our souls through the trials of stains, giving us that fresh air smell we can only receive by hanging it out there on the wash line of life!
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