And that post sounds like you had an Atos medical and got shat on from a great height.
My son had two of those with one of the interviewers being the most supercilious bastard it has ever been my misfortune to meet!

First things first, are you receiving any treatment, you are obviously severly depressed.
If not, get your doctor to wake up and smell the desperation!

You sound so much like how my son was a few months back and it's heartbreaking to watch, knowing time is marching on and nothing changes, except things did change :smile:
We have a good doctor, he immediately put my son on a course of anti-depressants; they didn't work, so he changed them for another brand.
6 weeks later, son happier, less moody, but still stuck with the "I am unemployable".
Nagged Seetech to death until they got him a work placement.
Work placement ended after a month, the firm asked him to come work for them.
Now happily working and for the first time in ten years, seeing a future.

Those that don't understand hun have not suffered as we do. they are so ignorant to what depression truly is. I am sorry you don't have the support hun but just know we do understand ok and that you are not alone we are all here to help you hugs

Hache
that is a list i read through... some of it i didnt understand and i am sorry i dont know what "Britian work shy" is

i believe in you and that you can be sane and happy cause i have seen things change and your willingness... we didnt know you would suddenly go to university and no matter how hard you went ahead and finished your schooling... proof you are not unwilling to do what it takes just to finish what you start.. you can work if there is work and you always have worked at something since i met you before university you had other jobs that were not what you were going to do but provided for you when they could

if you will look at the past and place it in the future for you things have changed and that means for the better

i dont think or want you to prove any point to anyone person or idea with harming yourself in any way.... and that i did read

meaning i hope you feel better soon and you continue to write anything to me here or us here in forum

Hope you hun do what it takes to get you stronger to get you to feel better to a place where you can see you are good hun you are special Please hun keep talking to us ok
Keep venting here You are stronger then you think you are hun hugs

I don't really have any right to question others interpretation, those I know or don't, because I haven't reached out, I haven't had help and I am incapable of asking, do not know how or where. It's a trap, you become too depressed to seek the help to end depression.