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Sunday, 24 May 2009

I am tired.

Dictionary: leth·ar·gy (lĕth'ər-jē)

1.A state of sluggishness, inactivity, and apathy.2.A state of unconsciousness resembling deep sleep.

Even as i type this i dont want to, i just want to sit and do nothing,worry about nothing,want nothing...

now the first definition totally sums up the way ive been feeling for a while now.I dont want to do ANYTHING.

how can i not want to write? for God sakes how can i not want to do the thing that gives me so much joy? that makes me forget all my problems? how can i not want to do that...how can i not want to update my blog? want to quit blogging? i told myself id still be blogging 20 years from now..thats how much i love writing,expressing myself,its been 6 years since i started..but updating my blog lately seems like such a chore...its used to be fun, it used to be the only thing i looked forward to..now i update once every two weeks...i remember when people used to tell me i updated my blog too much..now i feel like i can't even be bothered and i hate feeling like this.

I write for a popular magazine and i am supposed to send in two articles..but nothing comes to mind..nothing!

I have alot of projects in the works but i have lost the will to set things in motion, i dont know if its cause i am afraid i will fail woefully...that i dont even want to try...that i keep putting it off...

i just dont want to do anything anymore...i dont know whats happening to me.

i pick silly fights with my sweetrat! I think i am trying to sabotage myself..i am trying to spoil a good thing slowly...

i just find that i am moody...like i feel like i cant go on anymore..i guess life isnt finally taking its toll on me..wearing me down...i am tired.

39 comments:

Just finished reading your post. What's wrong?! Think you need to get away from your environment, go on a vacation or something thank God there is a strike action so you have time. But whatever you do love, don't stop writing!

Just finished reading your post. What's wrong?! Think you need to get away from your environment, go on a vacation or something thank God there is a strike action so you have time. But whatever you do love, don't stop writing!

Just finished reading your post. What's wrong?! Think you need to get away from your environment, go on a vacation or something thank God there is a strike action so you have time. But whatever you do love, don't stop writing!

babes...u knw wat, methinks u need to cut urself from slack, first of all, u need to reduce ur activity on fb, u may wonder wtf is this bish talkin abt? but jus try it for a week for staarters and ul begin to c the difference, there's too much going on around u, grapplin fro ur attention,plus u nedd to spend more 'us' time with ur boo, he lovs u to pieces, jus take out time to be alone and rest a lil, b4 u knw, ul b refreshed and av a nnu lease on life, i rebuke any spirit of sabotage oh!!!

awww I agree, I think you need a break. This sounds like a bad case of writer's block. pele. I agree that you should talk to your boo, nothing like his support to get you going and make you feel better.

Laide babe I know how u feel jo...sometimes I just feel like standing in one place and letting everything else pass, we all get this way so it's noot just you, what you need is a seriously break from ur normal life, u don't want to write then don't, miss it for a while and you'll see that it'll get better, don't even read a novel, simply take a break. change ur surrounding, ur clothes ur name if you have to and u'll see that u'll appreciate ur former self better

eyasorry, dont worry too much about it, its a normal thing o feel like taht at times, we are women, u are just having mood swings, what u need is a day off, a day doing what u love best and eating some comfort food.dont forget the comfort food, may i suggest a trip to debonairs on adeola odeku, they have the best pizza in lagos and dont forget a large jar of blue bunny icecream sure to get u back to ur normal self.....good luck sweetie.

take a deep breath hun....... u need to refresh..... leave everything for now, dont worry about updating or anything.... focus on enjoying urself and not worry about anybody or anything.......it will pass hun

Lethargy...I can relate with what you're going through... Haven't been able to do updates myself for more than a month now. I'm hoping things will work out right for all of us in the end.Take care and it will be alright.

Maybe you need to just relax, take a break, rest. I'm sure you can get over this feeling of tiredness. Life's a struggle you know...forget that people take getting out of bed in the morning for granted. That takes willpower when you're blue.

Girl thanks for stopping by my blog. I guess you are feeling this way mostly because of the stress from school; final year can reallly zap life out of one. Try a new appraoch to your writing, probaly read a new book.whatever you do please, abeg do not let your love for writing to vanish.

oh sorry dear. If you dont want to do anything then dear I suggest you DONT do anything! It works. take a personal day where you do NOTHING and see how it goes. But then again you wrote this a while ago so you probably arent feeling that way anylonger. XOXO andpls update . hehehe I couldnt help it.

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