About Me

A FOSS Enthusiast and a Great fan of Slackware, Sabayon ( KDE ) and Ubuntu. Like to develop apps and love to work with PHP and Databases. Love to solve the Rubik's Cube and can be seen listening to Telugu and Hindi songs when not messing with Linux or Solving the Cube.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Unknowingly Me .. !!!

I dont know why am I writing this post .. but right now, deep down in my heart there is a sadness ... A sadness which I fail to recognize and it is something which I am familiar with. I wish there was a perfect day where everything would go so perfect from getting the phone call which I need the most to eating my favourite dish in the exact quantity.

I just wish there was the one little thing that I missed the most in life. I still don't know what it is .. but I know that I am missing something ... something which makes me go mad .. something which makes me addicted to the system around ... something which makes me feel sad .. something which ........

I am in still in that mood where I wish there was something that I could do to avoid everything and everyone in life ... There is still a tear in my eye from the novel which I just finished reading .. I too had a love story by Ravinder Singh. It truly is something that has not only touched my heart but also the cells that make up the blood that flows through my body. I exactly remember what I did and what I feel about them right now. I remember running here and there just to deliver what I had in my hand. I remember " walking while talking " .. I remember all the things I had done just coz .....

There is really something that I am missing and all of this just reminds me about the way I was and the way I am right now. I just cant really gather myself up and stop writing this post. Still don't know why.

I cant tell you for sure if I am feeling fine, but am sure I will after a while when all my memories go back the place where they belonged .. into the sub-conscience state of my mind. I am sure that you reading this would be a waste of time .. but since this "is" my personal blog ... I AM ALLOWED TO WRITE WHATEVER IS ON MY MIND....

I never wanted my love to be as high as Everest or as beautiful as the Taj Mahal or the Himalayas .. I just wished my love to be felt like the wind .. not visible but ... just being felt !!! Many breezes passed through by me .. but I never got to feel the way I wanted to .......

I never actually forgot what happened between us .. I just wanted her to remind me about everything .. Everytime I see her .. there is this special feeling that blanks me out and blurs everything in front of me just to make sure I remember everything that happened between us .. I just can proudly think that you are the best thing that ever happened to me and I wanted you to believe in the same .. !!! .. I dont know how much I cared for you .. until I couldn't take a step forward without you for breakfast when I hadn't eaten for two days ... just because you were not there to accompany me .. I still remember that .. I was so mad that I waited 4 days ... just to dine with you .. something which never happened.

I love every night because that is when I dream about you ...
I love every morning .. coz that is when you wake up with my text wishing you a very good morning ...
I love every second of the day coz ... that is the only time when I think about you ...
I love every minute of the day coz ... I feel that is the only time you are with me ...
I love every hour of the day because .... I just wait for you ..

I wait ....
every second ..
every minute ..
every hour ... and .....
I wait all day ...
Just to say .. that I love you .. !!!

( Now dont start treating me as a complete loser in life .. I just wrote down what I wanted to .. !!! Nothing else .. njoy :) :) )

More about my achievements and stuff about Shaastra2010 in the posts that follow ... !!!!