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When Your Dad Abandons You - She Seeks - Week of June 9

I sat at my desk, staring at my computer screen, with a knot in my throat.

I knew what I needed to do, but I was afraid to do it. I didn't want to do it.

The Holy Spirit was impressing on my heart that I needed to find and forgive my father.

It was he who abandoned me at the age of five!

It was he who decided to live a destructive life that hurt him and excluded me!

It was he who never saw me play a football game - not in middle school, not in high school, not in college, not even in the NFL!

As I sat at my desk, I said something like this out loud to God, "He hurt me! I will not find him."

Like the loving Father that God is, I sensed Him whisper in my soul, "You hurt Me with your sin, Derwin, but I found you. I'm rich in mercy and I have made you alive with My Son Jesus, so you can forgive your father."

Former NFL player, Derwin Gray, is the Lead Pastor of Transformation Church. He is a highly sought-after national communicator and author of Hero. Pastor Gray inspires us daily on his blog! Click here to read more from him.