So sick of being borderline

OMG!!! Some days are so damn difficult to get through without that proverbial rollercoaster ride. As a result, it wears me out. I am so sick of my stupid retarded feelings and the rush of adrenalin that says to me "PUSH IT UNTIL IT'S RUINED."

Why must I push limits until things explode and then can't understand why I am so miserable???

I t ell myself over and over and over and over to shut up and stop that negative trouble making talk in my head. Some days I can barely do that and other days I have a one track self-destructive mind. Does it ever get better??

My therapist says it will and that I have made steps in the right direction, but I don't believe that. Will I be aging at age 80? My mom was borderline up until the day she passed at 81 years of age. Will my daughter get it?

With the right help &amp; medication things can &amp; will get better. Are you on meds at the moment? If you are it sounds like they need adjusting or you need to go onto different meds. However discuss these things with your p.doc. as I&#039;m no specialist in meds area.
Think of it this way your mums era never got the help they needed as bpd wasn&#039;t classified then, plus her era would most likely not get help. You&#039;ve made steps in getting help &amp; admitting you have bpd is the first step, which can only be commended. From now on the journey begins with you. If you want to get better you will but it takes time, patience &amp; commitment. As for your daughter getting it, maybe she will or maybe she won&#039;t who can say, but if she does at least you have the tools to help her &amp; will understand her.

Fuck i know how you feel. I have recently started a DBT therapy group for people with BPD. The others are all in their 40&#039;s and 50&#039;s, i&#039;m nearly 27 and it made me sad to think i&#039;ll still be like this till i die. I am so sick of living with this curse. I don&#039;t have any answers for you but just know there are so many of us out there that are all going through this on a daily basis with you.

holy shit.i feel like there is no real hope for me....are we at risk for heart attacks and strokes and such?...cuz i feel like i just cant keep going like this....it&#039;s like the movie &quot;ground-hog day&quot; but much worse.over and over and over again.

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