this lunch i manage to get him..to sit with me,,,eating nasi ayam togetherour silence is more noisy than the crowd..it was too early to talk about our new situation,when i stare at him..i see someting yg amat syahdu..deep in his eyes..

seriously i feel like want to knee over.and begging not to leave me anymore..please..don't leave me

it is hurt when i am with him, but i can't talk like the way we used to..

yeah..i think someone has getting bored, tired and enough of me or the surrounding..yesterday was full of happiness, excitable moment, and many memories to smile whenever we flash back.. but somehow, someone doesn't feel this anymore, today.. i don't know what or who's to blame. maybe myself, me, or i, maybe them, you, her, or him.. but i think, it most probably the long duration of study.. we've spent 3 years here, got another 1 year to carry on..while the other people already left this place, and don't struggle to live in this sh** anymore.. hahaha..now we are blaming the course duration~haih~ the best is yet to come, perhaps.. "da hilang keseronokan, kegembiraan, keceriaan yg dlu2 dirasai pd sem ni, smpikan terasa malas jer belajar sem ni, ape kna ntah,..pergi umt, tp jiwa xde nak blaja x mcm dlu2.." (him, 2012)