This Sunday am. I needed to hear these words and be reminded of faith. I am
in my fifth year recovering from an extreme spiritual emergency that was indeed
my wake up call. Having recently lost everything in my life, at 47, I don't
fully comprehend what has happened, though at times I find it frightening to see
things from a 360 degree angle of possibility; and that how I am in this world
influences the moments of my life and may affect those around me to an extent I
never realized or perhaps seemingly so.

To watch things at times unfold so sychronistically as if according to plan
or a staged event - to accept such conditions is so very painful. I woke up to a
very different world; there is such interconnection on one level, as to events,
and words said. However, on an emotional and spiritual level, I have never felt
more isolated and alone. People feel so far away. The physical pain in my heart
and throat wrench me away from the present moment; but I continue to meditate
and paint, and try, if just for a short while, to be in balance and peace. To
not suffer over suffering; now that is a challenge. May God help to guide in the
process.