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I am now 35and what have Ito show for it?clothes that no longer fithigh-heeled shoes gatheringdustand still only onestamp on mypassport

I am now 35and what have I learnedfrom getting pastmy quarter-life?that bad habits in childhoodwill take its tollon bodiesand gravity will pulldownmy breastsand hipsno matter how perkythey wereand that I will stillgrow up and bea lot like myparents(oh, the shame!)

I am now 35and my allergies are worsemy PMS is worsemy acne is worseand my social life has beenlimited to conversations with childrenand this rectangleof a laptop

Who knew, that despite all theseI'd consider myselfblessedprivilegedand generally happy?

Because... despite all that's saggingand lumpyand the limited means(for I am also unemployed)I have two precious sonsto call my ownwho I have raisedmyselfwith only a little helpand whose memoriesare MY storiesand whose everydaysare MY days

and my marriage remains strong and trueand empoweringand liberating

and my parentsheaven bless themare still aliveand generally still alright
and I am closer to them now
than I was ever beforewhat's morethey enjoy thegrandchildren I gave them

and I have developed other passionsmostly emanating from

motherhoodbut at 35I feel aliveand freelovedhopefuland just whereI am meant to be

That may not be enough for someBut that's good enough for meMy life is grand enough for me