In this journey the patterns that constitute what we have accepted as Our Reality will be deconstructed through self-forgiveness and re-constructed through a commitment of correction to that which is best for all life

July 15, 2012

7 years journey to life: Day 66: Stop my addictions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have fallen back and smoked pot, as I swore to myself that I would not smoke pot any longer as it does not stand for what is best for all, as it only serves to further the enslavement of the mind through generating frictions which feeds the polarities of the mind, only enabling oneself to experience the delusions of the mind within experiences of high energy/positivity, whereas I become possessed by the “energy entity” from within which I allow myself to get lost within movements of energy which only entrap me further down the mind – instead of actually stopping smoking pot through the realisation that pot does nothing else than enslave one further into the mind, and thus use the tools of breathing in order to interrupt the thought/desire of smoking pot and remember that I do not need it as it does not support myself in any way whatsoever, and thus effectively apply the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and self-corrective application in order to stop myself from being directed by an addiction such as smoking pot, rather than releasing myself from all addictions through committing myself to who I am as life as the physical rather than to continue within the delusions that I am the mind as energy.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to participate within the mind’s addictions, through the realisation that as long as I accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the addictions of the mind, that I automatically accept and allow myself to participate within energy as the mind which abuses/misuses substance as myself through the consumption of the physical as life for the own sustenance/survival of myself as finite Energy – to which I am ultimately not, as who I am is one and equal with the physical as life eternal, wherein there is NO ENERGY which controls who I am as the physical.

I commit myself to, through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and self-honesty, write daily in my blog so as to become a living example to others as what it is to be a responsible human being which acts for the interest of what is best for all, as what is best for all is best for everyone, Equal and One with all living beings.

If and when I see myself moving or about to move into the mind through the reaction of “suddenly desiring smoking pot” pattern, I stop, breathe, remind myself that it is a pattern of me as the mind I no longer want to engage in for it is not what is best for me and what is best for all, One and Equal.

When and as I see myself moving into the automatic personality of “desiring to delve into an addiction”, I stop, breathe, see if i have missed an opportunity to self-correct into Oneness and Equality from which the personality arose, if so, I forgive myself, stand up from the personality game and self-correct, if not i stop, self-forgive my participation in personality as an automated response to a pattern of self-abuse and bring myself back Here in and as Breath.

I commit myself to stop myself from entertaining ideas and beliefs about myself as the feeling/experience of “desiring to fulfill an addiction”, through the use of thoughts and emotions, learned ideas and beliefs about the human condition, comparisons and games of winners and losers to establish myself as an example of how Life could be for everyone outside of the limited living of the Mind of illusions and back into Life as the Physical, One and Equal for every living Being.

I commit myself to assist and support myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective application and breathing – to stop the desires and stop the frictions/judgments/blame/spite within and as me and so allow me to express myself unconditionally for the first time.