I don't know what's going on with me right now. Except that almost everything in my life is changing right now. And I think that is what's causing my malaise. I'm honestly to a point where it's not that I don't have any fucks to give, I have NEGATIVE fucks to give. Things I normally care about, passionately, I just can't bring myself to even...I can't even finish the sentence, that's how little I care.

Unfortunately, I think most of this started because I was on vacation for two weeks. I had an amazing time, and it's always great to be part of a family unit. I didn't have to care about anything while gone, and I didn't. Upon my return, I immediately got sick. Awesome. I'm sure it is plane crud. I went back to work for one day, then Julie had her surgery and became my couch troll! Almost 10 days later, I'm still trying to recover.

In this time, I have switched from 4 tens to 5 eights at work. Don't get me wrong, I see this as a huge positive for my life. I've never really adjusted to the 4 day week, and an eight hour shift is just easier. This also gives me a set schedule and weekends off. And I am excited. Really. Or, I will be. But I just didn't get much done this week and if I don't start feeling better, next week will be bleak as well.

Also, my friend and ex-, Florida Jen, is about to become California Jen. She's transferring to the new bar at Disneyland Hotel, and while I'm really happy for her, it's just one more change. But, I feel like I should be upset that she's leaving or something, but I'm just not.

Mom was supposed to come for the launch today, but she decided not to come. I thought she might come in August, but she said not until October or November. While it's for the best that she's not here now, I wish she was coming soon (especially because I want to go to BJ's and stock my pantry).

Shuttle launch today...LAST SHUTTLE LAUNCH...didn't go. Didn't even step outside to see if I could see it. I was at a vendor meetup, did get lots of swag. (Although, I did have fun with Jay and her boy harem as they passed back through Orlando.)

Harry Potter...don't care.

IDK.

I've been doing really well with putting on a happy front, but I think even that is making me tired.

I'm going to help Jen move a couple of things to Keith's new place tomorrow, then I'm pulling up the drawbridge until work on Monday. I haven't really had the time to stop and catch my breath. Hopefully, the rest and personal time will set me right and I'll be squeeing with everyone next week.