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Monday, December 13, 2010

I spent the morning doing InnerSpeak clearings for myself and others. It was very liberating. I feel lighter with a smile on my face. It is incredible to me how easy and painless this process is. It is just a matter of doing it. I have committed to doing InnerSpeak clearings for myself daily to clear away all that isn't needed in my life and to truly move into my authenticity and soul purpose.

My other daily processes are; toning for Ascending Vibration at nine p.m., singing to my ancestors, meditation, journaling and writing, working with clients, working with my creations and listening to my inner self/soul. It is amazing that the more that I do this work the more I am able to hear my inner guidance. Our inner self/soul really does want to communicate with us and would love for us to be able to hear and communicate with them. It is just taking the necessary steps of daily process that allows for that communication.

Journaling questions to ponder.

What patterns in your life have you noticed? Are you working with a tool that allows for clearing of old patterns that no longer serve you? How can you be of service? What can you do to feel more connected and loved?

Thursday, November 18, 2010

I am always amazed that each day the passage for that day in the book "The Language of letting go" by Melody Beattie, Goes along with what I am feeling or what is going at that time. I gain strength form the passages, that I am not alone in the process of rediscovering myself, my feelings and most of all taking responsibility for getting my needs met, in a loving, nurturing way. This was what the daily meditation was for today.

November 18

Allow yourself to be nurtured and loved. be comforted by the presence of someone being there for you. allow yourself to be supported emotionally and cared for. far to long we stand in the background attending to the needs all the while saying we have no needs of our own. we shut off the part of us that long to be nurtured.It is time now to claim our needs, to identify those needs, and to understand that we deserve to have those needs met.The more clear we become about our needs, the greater the possibility that those needs we be met. so, we need to ask our self, what are our needs, what would feel good, and how would we like them to be met.People can only met our needs when they know from us what we need. Example, encouragement, a hug, a supportive ear.

"Today, I will be open to recognizing my needs for nurturing . I will open to the needs of others around me too. I can begin taking a loving, nurturing attitude toward myself and by taking responsibility for my needs in relationships".

I thought being older and wiser I would be better prepared for helping to raise a child. I have raised two daughters already so I should know what I am doing right? I have educated myself, learned more about what children need to thrive and yet still I am feeling overwhelmed and out of my element.

Knowing more doesn't always mean better prepared. I honestly don't remember worrying, as much as I do now about helping to raise my granddaughter, about messing my girls up when they were growing up. I figured I would love them, clothe them, feed them, shelter them, stand by them giving them all the support they need and they would turn out all right. Now I realize how much I screwed up and how things matter that you don't even realize when you are young. Now I find myself scrutinizing everything I do and worrying because I know even the small things effect how they grow, learn and love.

I look around for answers for a better way and I am seeing too many questions. I am seeing too many parents struggling, tired, overwhelmed, and barely having the energy to enjoy their children while virtual strangers are actually raising them and doing even more damage. Babysitters, daycare, schools all are getting ridiculously indifferent to the children and their needs. Parents knowing they are probably not spending enough time with their children as others are raising them and screwing them up even more, that they should start putting money aside for therapy now even though they can't afford it.

What are we doing to our children? Why are we not able to see that parents; our children, sisters, brothers, grandchildren need our help? Sure, you may say that you did better than your parents did but how much better is that really? How long are you going to sit by and watch as our public schools become an even more terrifying place than when you were in school? How long are you going to say, "Its not my problem." How long are you going to stand by while children within your family, neighborhood, community, city, country are left feeling like no one cares if they are bullied, berated, molested, or just starving for someone to notice them.

I know there are systems and organizations out there that are supposedly helping them but they don't help until there is a problem, until the damage is done. All of us need to say enough is enough. You and I need to take responsibility before it is a problem. You and I need to help our families, friends, and neighbors to make sure that the parents are getting the support they need. That the children have lots of people who love them in their lives. That you and I are supporting our children to learn, grow and love. That we are helping the children to explore until they discover their passions in life. That we are supporting them to make wise choices for themselves.

Today make a difference for at least one child in your life and tomorrow and the next day.

Volunteer to babysit so that the parent/s can take a little time for themselves

Be a Big Brother or Big Sister

Volunteer at your neighborhood school

Ask a parent what you can do to help them

Tell a parent what a great job they are doing

Make an effort to be more involved in a young families life on a daily basis

Write to your neighborhood school supporting the staff and teachers to create a more loving and supportive environment for the children to learn in.

Ask yourself, "What can I do that would help a child feel more loved and supported?"

Ask yourself, "What can I do that would help the parents around me feel more loved and supported?"

Lovingly be of service. I am sure if you look around you will see someone close to you that needs help.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Thursday, November 4, 2010

In looking at what needs to be done before my move I become short of breath. Breathe I tell myself. Nice long breaths. I can do this. Everything points to right timing and everything is as it should be so just relax. Yeah... I am doing my best.

I trance danced by myself in my living room this week. It was fabulous. I created a circle in the middle of the living room by rolling blankets up and making a circle with them. So I knew if my foot touched one of the blankets I had to move back into the middle. It worked quite well. When I journaled afterward it was very enlightening. I hadn't thought of Trance dance as being a daily practice as a form of meditation but that is exactly what I received from it. I also felt and saw how smoothly things can flow if I remember to stay in the moment, connected to the universal heart energy and centered in my body.

Universal heart energy is something that downloaded through me a couple of months ago. The message I recently received around it is that we need to use conscious boundaries to keep from being sucked into the chaos of group mind instead connecting to universal heart energy. From that I am more able to stay within compassion, seeing we are all one without feeling the overwhelming anxiety that is permeating society right now. If you feel strong anxiety and think it might not all be yours, breathe, find your center, and see your light beaming from your heart center out to the universal heart. See all the lights flowing from each person to the universal heart energy. See the light flowing into you, filling you, spilling out and surrounding you creating a cushion of loving light protecting you from outside influences yet still being connected through the heart. It helps me I hope it helps you as well.

Much Love to you,Magdalene Althea Morgan - Priestess on the Move - Dancing in the SacredDragonwillow JourneysFacilitates experiential events, workshops and transformative bodyworkhttp://dragonwillowjourneys.health.officelive.comhttp://www.facebook.com/pages/Dragonwillow-Journeys/156761641007730?ref=sgm

Monday, November 1, 2010

A couple of years ago I kept hearing that I needed to explore and integrate my shadow. I had no clue what that really meant. I went in search through books and the internet to discover what I could. I found this great piece "The Long Bag We Drag Behind Us" by Robert Bly (A Little Book on the Shadow p.17-21). This is a small bit from that piece,

"Let’s talk about the personal shadow first. When we were one or two years old we had what we might visualize as a 360-degree personality. Energy radiated out from all parts of our body and all parts of our psyche. A child running is a living globe of energy. We had a ball of energy, all right; but one day we noticed that our parents didn’t like certain parts of that ball. They said things like: “Can’t you be still?” Or “It isn’t nice to try and kill your brother.” Behind us we have an invisible bag, and the part of us our parents don’t like, we, to keep our parents’ love, put in the bag. By the time we go to school our bag is quite large. Then our teachers have their say: “Good children don’t get angry over such little things.” So we take our anger and put it in the bag. By the time my brother and I were twelve in Madison, Minnesota we were known as “the nice Bly boys.” Our bags were already a mile long."

I discovered excavating my shadow didn't just mean looking at the things I don't like about myself, but at things I had "put in the bag" because it made other people uncomfortable such as my creativity. I have pulled my creativity out of the bag. I now lovingly and playfully explore creativity through art, beads, yarn, fabric, collaging, and just about anything I can try. I am so glad I dared to look into the shadow.

May you journey into your shadow with courage and rejoice at your integration.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Samhain is about gratitude for the harvest for all that has come into our lives this past season and year. Having gratitude for the nourishment for out bodies and for the earth. It is also a time to Honor the passing/transition of all those that have gone on to the next phase of their existence in this past year. Recognizing them for their life on this earth, their contributions, their love and all they brought to us, all that they mean to us. We will miss them but we know that they are not gone just transformed to a new way of being.

Transformation happens on all levels in all ways. We are always transforming. The more we are able to flow with transformation the less it will wreck havoc on our lives.

Falling into a river and flailing about you are getting water up your nose and in your mouth, you hit rocks and are tumbled about. Now if you stay calm, you are still in the river but you can flow with the current, keeping your arms close in to your body, floating down the river gently maybe getting a few bumps and bruises but over all much gentler. Allowing yourself to flow with guidance, awareness until you find yourself able to pull yourself out.

How can you apply this to your life? What in your life feels out of control? Take time to sit quietly, going within, breathing deeply. What comes to you that you couldn't see while you were flailing about in the chaos? Allow yourself to take time to journal and dive deeply into the places that feel out of control. Where do you need to float? What do you have to be grateful for? What have you harvested in this past season? Whom do you have unfinished business with that you can journal through, discovering what actions if any are needed on your part.

When you feel complete put music on that feels appropriate for you, swaying, moving, dancing out what nolonger serves you and dancing in the energies that are needed.

Remember to be grateful for all that is in your life, the light the dark no difference.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

I emailed my oldest daughter today in hopes that she and I could heal and become closer. I felt compelled to do this for two reasons - I really miss her and how can I move forward and walk my talk unless I do all I can to heal what is between us. She and I have been estranged for a couple of years and it hasn't been good between us since she was 17. She is now 28. I of course made plenty of mistakes as she grew up. I was only 17 when I gave birth to her and I only knew what I had been taught though I really did try to do better than I was raised. Not making excuses just stating what is. Unfortunately it took past her raising to heal my own issues.

I loved her from the time that I knew she was inside my belly and I still do. I would give anything to have a loving relationship with her. All I can do is extend my hand with an open heart and I know what she does with that is up to her.

The mother daughter dynamic is so interesting. What we pass down from generation to generation through our words, deeds, and in our DNA is astonishing. It can be positive and negative. It shapes who we are. What we do with it is something else entirely. We can choose to clear/heal multi-dimensionally forward and backward in time to heal and prevent from passing on the negative traits that have been hurting each generation. There are many avenues for healing multi-dimensionally in this time of such great change on our beautiful planet. Grandmother, Mother, Sister, Daughter Earth. Earth is she. The healing we do for ourselves heals her as well. On all levels in all ways.

Are you estranged with someone in your life? Do you wish that things could be better? Reach out. Hold loving space for healing to happen however that may look. Stay as unattached to the outcome as much as you are able. If angry feelings come up for you, breath and meditate on finding your center, find the love in your heart to move through the anger and let it go. Remember that healing comes multi-dimensionally and even if you don't see immediate results there is always healing when we come from a loving place.

Much Love to you on your healing journey. Blessings to all the women in my life. Blessings to all of the Grandmothers, Mothers, Daughters, and Granddaughters.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Lately I found it quite difficult to spend time on myself and to continue with my spiritual studies. My daughter and grandbaby live with me and I am helping to raise my grandbaby which is quite time consuming, very tiring and yet still extremely rewarding. The last three nights at 7:30 p.m. I have wanted just thirty minutes to spend dancing up my intentions for this month. The first night was beyond challenging. This is what it looked like...

The first night;

4:30 p.m. My car wouldn't start for me to take my daughter to work and had to ask a neighbor for a jump.5:00 p.m. At mechanics telling me I need a new battery and to go up the street where it will be cheaper for me. (It cost $90 at Advance auto I wonder how much he would have charged)5:20 On my way to advance auto I realized I was about to run out of gas and stopped at a gas station. Car refused to start. Had to wait 30 minutes for my partner to get there to jump start the car.6:00 Changed battery at Advance Auto6:38 rushing home7:10 On Rhapsody putting song list together7:30 trying to dance my intention as Olivia my grandbaby wakes up and my partner Christe tries to entertain her which doesn't work very well. Oliva cries off and on While Christie tries to feed her, drum for her, playing her didge seemed to quiet her the best.

The second night;

My partner is late coming back from the gym to watch Olivia, my mom is visiting and I go in my room to dance my intention. I am interupted twice.

The third and final night;

Everything is right on schedule, feeling really good about the song seletions, I am dancing in the elements, my sisters, my intention the energies are building, I am soooo into it that I decide on the second to last song I am to go sky clad and dance my clothes right off. I am feeling great, incredible, free, and my partner opens the door...I scream, she looks embarrased and closes the door. I forced myself to keep going but I wasn't able to regain the energy buildup that I had but I did the best that I could having only one song left.

It is all about balance, boundaries and maintaining the sacred in every day life. I found it was very important to me to have that time and it showed me that no matter what happened I still showed up, did the work, brought the sacred back into my daily life and remembered how important it is to take the time to connect. Connecting to my body, spirit, the earth, my sisters, the world and sending healing out to all that may benefit including the earth and our precious ocean. My body is a little sore from dancing from 25 to 30 minutes but it also feels more fluid and balanced. Balance is what I discovered I needed the most. That is my intention for the month to bring more balance into my life.

My wish for all of you...

No matter how busy your lives are that you allow yourselves time for bringing in the sacred. Allowing yourself to balance the busy-ness with time for yourself.

Giving over your power to an outside authority is disconnecting from the truth that the Divine resides within us. Accepting our own Divinity and the part we play in the grand scheme of things is most empowering.

The greater role is the role we play as a whole unit (humanity) in healing ourselves and being a light for others, helps to heal us (humanity) as a whole to heal the earth.

It is about us (light bearers) working with the Archetypes of the Divine, working with not for, allowing ourselves to be a vessel that Divine Source works through.

Questions that came through me for us to ponder;

What if God didn't make us in his/her image but made us as an extension of him/her?

What if we are a vessel for him/her to move through at any given moment for him/her to be able to have a physical experience?

What if separately we are nothing but together we are Divine?

What if our soul is actually a piece of God and that when we die our soul rises out and back to be absorbed into him/her?

Monday, March 29, 2010

As I go through the 30 Shamanic Questions For Humanity (created by Linda Star Wolf) with my co-journeyer, I am also working with the Gaia Matrix Oracle, pulling one card for every question. It is quite interesting how that is playing out. The first card I pulled 6 Antagonists - Soul Conflict which its key phrases are; transforming addictions, uncovering anger, changing self-conflict into dynamic peace and developing compassionate discipline. That pretty much told me I was in for quite a ride. It is definitely intense, interesting and enlightening for me. I highly encourage anyone who is wanting to know themselves better, have a better connection to The Divine, and help to raise the vibration of this planet, to find a co-journeyer and work through the 30 Shamanic Questions for Humanity. You can find it in Linda Star Wolf’s book, ‘Shamanic Breathwork – Journeying Beyond The Limits of the Self’ which is a wonderful book.

Though I won't be sharing the questions here, (it is recommended that each question be revealed as you come to it as you co-journey together) I am going to share my observations of my journey and the cards that I pull as I go along. I decided to do that after the fifth question and how much it is triggering for me and the insights that are coming to me.

The Second question I pulled 17 Synarchy – Social Harmony which its key phrases are; Recognizing self as others, creating holistic systems, and organizing practical and spiritual aspects of each individual. Okay... stretching, feeling this move through me.

The Third, I pulled 4 Priest-Seer – Attunement which its key phrases are; Being a spiritual guide and mediator, creating sacred relationships, creating rituals of sacrifice and transmission and strengthening your faith. Hmmmmm... sounds like things are on track.

Here is where it started to get a little uncomfortable for me. The Fourth question I pulled 1 Creator – Prime Mover which its key phrases are; Trusting love, developing true heart and humble faith, dedication to recreating your life, and living from the sources. I don’t much care for the word humble. It goes way back to my church days and feeling like I couldn’t be myself, that I as an individual wasn’t important, and that I was not to reach or be…more. I love God/Divine Source. I don’t believe that Divine Source ever wants us to be less than we are meant to be. I believe She/He wants us to always move forward, feeling our Divine connection and living to our highest potential.

The Fifth question I pulled 11 Death-Dance – Matter, Natural evolution which key phrases are; Descending into Matter, releasing the limits of personality, finding freedom within boundaries, and transmuting matter in the body’s crucible. Wow… for me that meant I was going to die to all of the old ways of believing and move into birthing the new. Incorporating the light and the dark. Bringing the shadow into the light. That I will be/am seeing things in a whole new way. Now that looks positive but wow, did I feel that in my body. My body said “What do you mean I have to look at things differently? What do you mean I can’t fall back on all of my old ways of doing things?” I am breathing… I am breathing... I am bringing life’s breath into my belly, remembering my center, and moving through the discomfort of change. Of course it has taken me four days to do that through, meditation, eating (old habit that I am working on), clearing with InnerSpeak, a little diving into TV and books (another thing I am working on) and finally pulling out my paints (for the first time) and creating a mandala. (Thank you Judy for encouraging our little ones inside of ourselves to come out and play through painting). Alright, so this process is a difficult one but well worth the results of being… of Be-ing… whole.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Christie and I will be journeying with women this evening through drumming, dancing, chanting, and meditating. We will be enjoying the energy of women remembering who they are, that they have strength beyond measure, that the possibilities are endless, and that we are all sisters. The energy in a circle of women is truly remarkable.

The first time I drummed in a circle of women, over 20 years ago, I was timid, afraid to make noise, afraid to sing loudly. The facilitors were two lovely women who encouraged, enticed, and lovingly led us into the dance of energies that allowed us to bloom. I will always be grateful to those women who created sacred space for me to find more of my voice, to drum as loud as I wanted, and to dance with joy. I carry them into the circle each time my partner and I create sacred space for women to gather.

Monday, March 22, 2010

While I agree that security is an illusion, I also believe that particular illusion is created when we are not in the center of our power or the center of our boundaries. For one reason or another we place ourselves outside of our boundary and put everyone and every thing we hold dear in the center. This includes beliefs, ideals, and opinions we have of the world around us. When we are outside the circle fighting for our life, our place in the world and things and circumstances change, our world falls apart. We lose all since of safety and do not feel secure in our ability to make choices or even navigate life. When we put ourselves in the center and everyone else, including our beliefs, outside we can move more freely with the ebb and flow of life, because change is inevitable. It is when we are in our center that we are able to adapt to the changes with a secure sense of self. Taking back our sovranty is staying centered in that place, becoming one unto ourselves, because in that place we can refine our picture of the world, change our beliefs, co-create community and all with authenticity and self awareness.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

I have discovered, through self exploration and looking deeply at what is happening around me, that one of the things that is very important to me is Co-Creating Community. I have noticed that myself and many others are in the habit of excluding themselves from the outside world except for what is absolutely necessary. We have been so 'Self' centered that there is no accountability for connection. It is past time that we change that. I am on a quest to bring awareness to connection back to the fore front. I will be posting my Co-Creating Community adventures as they play out. I challenge you to look around, see how you are interacting within your community. What can you do to bring people together? What can you do to increase love in your environment? I look forward to your comments."Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of humankind as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure or it is nothing at all." -Helen KellerI love this quote by Helen Keller. I believe that security, like control, is an illusion. That illusion of security prevents us from living in our joy. Are we safer because we stay in our homes and mostly communicate through the Internet? Are we safer when we don't know our neighbors except in passing as we go to and from work? Yes, they can choose not to respond or reciprocate if we extend invitations to a backyard barbecue or an outdoor block party, but how many might say yes if we would only ask? How many of our neighbors are feeling disconnected and don't know how to reach out to make those loving connections that we all need? What about connecting with those that we know or know through our circles and groups? Are we safer not getting together regularly with them? What friendly adventures are we missing out on? What fun and loving interactions? You can't receive a physical hug through the Internet. Happy Spring/Ostara! May you have many Joyous Adventures!

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Grab a cup of tea or coffee (oh what the heck, get a danish too!) and sit a spell. You might want to grab your notebook and pen because you never know when you will be inspired to write down a quote, or jot down a poem of your own. Words are like that, they take you on a journey and the next thing you know you are breathing life into your own magical world of words.