Sunday, June 29, 2008

We finally got to see our friend Mindy's baby boy, Grady, last night. He was 3 weeks early & is so very tiny. We're still waiting to see little Phoebe, who was born about 2 weeks after Grady, but hopefully we'll be able to soon. There were three little ones born in our troth this past spring, starting with Cerridwyn on the first day of Spring.

We have another baby due in our group of friends in 7 weeks, and her baby shower is on the same day that Dawn, Melissa & I are heading for Las Vegas (the baby is Dawn's cousin Jeremy's), so we can't go. I need to get some stuff together for a gift basket to send with Dawn's daughter, Cherokee, when she goes to it.

Then the final baby is due in November or December, I think. It'll be our friends Gary & Summer's first boy & we're all pretty excited about it. They have two little girls already, and were really wanting a boy this time.

I love seeing all of the new babies, they are each so precious and special to us all, it's an exciting time in our troth & these little ones just add to it.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

So, when your husband (or wife) drags you out to the big box home improvement stores, what do you do to pass the time while they're looking at the boring stuff? I really love looking at all of the new appliances that I can't afford, myself. I stand in there & lust over those pretty fridges & wish I had one half as nice.

I also like to visit the home lighting section. I have a long list of fixtures I want when I'm not renting anymore & I seem to add to them each time I go & look at more. From wall sconces to ceiling fans with lights, I love them all.

I have spent a lot of time in the outdoor living areas, too, simply because I like to look at all of the neat things they make to put in yards, like gazebos, benches and bird feeders. I do intend to have some of these things, eventually. I just can never seem to bring myself to spend money on them, you know?

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Why does all of the inter-group chaos have to start right before renne faire every year? First, I have my step-niece stealing art on DeviantArt, claiming it's her own & selling it on MySpace. If I confront her, it'll start a big family war again & I don't think any of us really want that.

Next we have a member of our faire guild who thinks that the suns rises & sets because of her & that it's all my fault that the world doesn't recognize that. She sits around and trash talks me to two of my best friends & expects that it isn't going to get back to me, and at the same time is telling each of them a different story, thinking they won't compare notes when she leaves. She will argue about the color of the sky, as long as it's me who says it's blue. I honestly believe that if I or Troy told her she needed laptop memory, she'd run out and buy desktop memory. I'm pretty much finished with her. I'm so tired of the immature crap that she keeps tossing out at us, I just don't have time to deal with it anymore.

I'm honestly just hoping that nothing else starts brewing in the next two weeks.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Our niece, Kelsey just graduated, too & I noticed a picture of her on my sister-in-law's MySpace, where she's lying on the couch with a passport next to her. I've been wondering ever since if she's spending the summer abroad, going on a senior trip out of the country or what. We're not incredibly close, so I feel like asking her would be a little invasive, so I guess I'll just wonder a while longer.

I wish we could have afforded to send Rhi somewhere fun after graduation, but she seems to be having a pretty good summer, in spite of having a full-time job and the responsibilities of a home of her own. She did apply to the local university & make an appointment to take her ACT, which is a step in the right direction for her & I'm very proud of her for it. Hopefully, other things will start to come together for her as well.

Wow, the longest day of the year already. Time has really been flying since graduation, but we've all managed to get quite a bit done in that amount of time, too. We've completely redone the thrones for our renaissance faire, I've made quite a few signs to sell, I helped Dawn make a pattern for Jason's vest, we screen-printed 200 t-shirts and celebrated Father's Day.

We got a bunch of the signs that get put up at faire redone, so they can actually be read now and aren't just taking up space. They look really nice now. Today, I need to go & buy some blue paint so we can finish up the bench Dawn sits on and then I think we'll be finished with all of that. Oh, yeah, we redid the top of the table we use for the watermelon & pie-eating contests, too. It looks so much better than it did! I'm excited to show the rest of the board of directors what everything looks like now.

This coming weekend, I need to run a check on Jason's computer memory to make sure that's not the problem on his computer, we have our summer solstice celebration with our troth and more work, I'm sure. I still need to get the walls cut for our encampment & I'm hoping to do that later today. I'll also cut out my bloomers & get them ready for sewing while I'm at it. A lot of this we have to get finished before the 1st, since Dawn has surgery then & I need her help for a lot of it.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

My computer sits on a little built-in, corner vanity type thing, here in my trailer. On both of the walls that make up my little corner are windows, so it gets really cold in here in the winter (and sometimes it's hot in the summer). The worst thing is that I only have curtains on one of the windows, and it's apparently the wrong one. I was sitting in here yesterday evening, trying to play a game & kept getting blinded by the light creeping through the mini-blinds on the other window. No matter where I moved, I could see anything on the left of my screen, and if I could, the light was in my eyes, giving me a headache.

I finally got fed up & grabbed a fleece throw & hung it up over the blinds & that solved the problem, but Troy sure looked at it funny when he came in after work! I'm really enjoying the fact that I can actually see everything on my screen now, and really don't care what it looks like. No one ever comes in here but Troy & I anyway.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Things are still pretty busy & hectic around here. I took Dawn to her doctor's appointment on Monday, he didn't do the biopsy then, but did schedule one for Thursday. He is trying to convince her that a hysterectomy isn't the way to go & she's getting pretty frustrated about it, because she's more than ready to be finished with all of that.

That morning, we also got some very bad news, I'm just not really ready to talk about it. Just know that we're all alright & that it isn't about any of my kids or anything.

Last night, Troy said "screw waiting on the IRS" and ordered me a laptop from Dell. I'm really excited about it, I'll be able to work & play in the living room now & won't feel so lonely back here by myself when he's at home. It's really nice, I got it in flamingo pink, with a matching wireless mouse, a cool case & about twice as much system memory as my desktop has. We decided that we'd use our stimulus check for a new TV instead of my laptop.

I also ordered a beautiful sari skirt that was shipped yesterday. I can't wait to get it! Yeah, I'm still angry with Rhi & the way she treated me yesterday, and I haven't seen her or spoken to her since then, so we'll see what her excuse was when I do see her. I'm hoping the interview she had yesterday pans out & she getst he job, something permanent would be nice for her.

Sunday, June 08, 2008

I thought life was supposed to mellow out in the Summer & get less busy. I guess I was wrong. Rhi got moved out on May 23 & really loves being on her own & the freedom she has because of it. I'm proud of her & so happy that she got out on her own & is making her own way in the world. She's working for a temp/employment agency at the local Styrofoam factory & she really loves it. The company keeps requesting her, so I know she's doing a good job.

Erin is.. somewhere? He called me a couple of days ago to tell me he was still in town, but that's the last I heard. It seems sometimes that he doesn't even have the ambition to do the things he wants to do, you know? Garrett is back home, working on his movie & apparently too busy to talk to us very much.

I have to take Dawn for a biopsy tomorrow. I know she's worried & scared, but I also know she isn't showing it. I think I need to take her on a walk by ourselves this evening & let her talk about it, away from her kids. Her oldest just split with her husband, so sh has that stress & worry on top of everything else, so it just seems to never end.

About Me

Within ourselves lies a drive, a force that only makes sense to us. It is that force that can make a person crazy. Crazy is only what you make of it. In the past, most people have been trained to think that crazy is a negative thing... but I repeat, crazy is only what you make of it. Crazy is a state of mind comprised of desire, anger, knowledge, courage, fear and devotion. Crazy makes people fall in love. Crazy makes a musician and an artist talented. Crazy makes a dying man take his own life. Make what you will of this, but I cannot believe I would be any better off sane. Therefore, I am, and will remain, crazy.