Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Today ...don't open...don't throw away... celebrates its three year anniversary. As with most things, anniversaries are a good time to look back at the year, reflect and celebrate what has happened--both good and bad. It is also a good time to think about the future and what wonders it might hold. I also find it fun to include some facts (quantitative, because numbers are my thing in the real world). But before I inundate you with numbers and percents, I'd like to reflect a bit.

Just as year two ended on a rocky note, this year started off on one. The first half of the year existed with many weeks of non-existence; I posted a total of 12 times from January 10th to June 30th. My rules continue(d) to remain inactive and honestly I did little to no writing elsewhere. It took me quite some time to rediscover myself here (over a year if we start from when I went into hiding during year two). Finally, I decided I needed to reengage myself, but I knew activating my old rules would not do the trick. So, on July 1st, I started my themes: Sunday's - Time Capsule, Monday's - Q Series (occasional), Tuesdays/Wednesdays - Last Call, and Fridays - Can I Have This Dance? [song inspired posts]. They definitely gave me purpose and forced my hand (or fingers) to keyboard). I wasn't sure I'd be able to hit 100 posts considering the start of the year, but in the end I made it to 118.

Anyway...let's check out some stats before I reflect on the future...

Posts...

*This number does not equal the number of poems.

Followers...
My followers base as increased from the original 3 to 23 to the current number 28. Over the course of the past three years, several have disappeared, so the increase does not equal the number of new followers. I mention my numbers here, mainly because I have done so in the past. It is important to realize that while some choose to click the follow button, other may choose to follow using the RSS feed (which is how I follow most people). So I'd like to pretend that my followers base is more like 1,000--okay if I'm realistic it is probably more like 50.

Most Commented on Post...
I honestly did not think the most comment on post for this year would also knock out the one from year two, but low and behold just last week Loony for Lunes (22) surpassed silent screams (20).

I have on multiple occasions thought about shutting down. Each time I have done so, I have been in a bad place with my "Socio-neti-phobia." So I continued even with my bad (almost non-existent) spell to post. The past month or so I have begun (while my head is on straight and relatively rational) to think that this blog may have run its course. One of the things that has always lingered at the edge of sanity was that while this is a public blog, I have not shared its existence with any "real-world" people--no family...no friends.... Every time I think to, my ramblings and even some of my poems give me pause (too many crazy irrational thoughts running 'round). And so I've been thinking that I might need to reinvent my online self so that I can feel more comfortable sharing.

So, maybe I'll stick around, maybe I won't, but I intend to take the rest of this month to think hard on shutting down and reinventing.

2 comments:

i am glad you have stuck through it...smiles....i would miss seeing you....and your words...i think the themes have been good for you....i never trust those page views....its weird...and i wonder how many are spammers...congrats on 3 years...

I'm with Brian here--you've a lot to offer with your unique poetic voice. I always leave here entirely pleased. But it sounds like you might just shut down this persona, and start again with a new one. I guess that would be ok, as long as your regular readers are welcome to come along. Honestly, I'm in a similar situation. I don't think I have the phobia as strongly as you do, but very few real-world people know of my blog--and, a revelation, my given name is not Nico (though many people in the real world do know me by that name--long story). So I've been thinking of starting a new blog, full disclosure, real name, and just let the words fall where they may. Besides, my blog has shifted focus since the beginning days, from lark (hence the blog name), to religious-musings-type stuff, to poetry and humor. Why am I rambling? I don't know, except that I consider you a valuable online friend and don't want to be left behind if you make some changes. Take some time and do what you think best!

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I am a walking oxymoron. I am quiet and shy, though anyone who has been around me for a while would scoff at that description. I despise being the center of attention, yet I get up in front of a classroom full of students and perform daily. Logic rules my world, but my creative half occasionally stages an uprise.