Saturday, November 29, 2008

Sorry I've been slacking lately my muse has all but disappeared recently.Inspired by Taylor Swift's The Way I loved You and MR. Kris Letang

He is Sensible and so incredible

“Come on, let’s go out the back way.” This statement came from my boyfriend Alex. We had been dating for a month and a half. “I don’t want to have to share you with anyone.” He is incredible; every part of him makes me forget that he’s a Pittsburgh Penguin. Yes my boyfriend was none other than Penguin’s defensemen Alex Goligoski.

And all my single friends are jealous

“You are so lucky!” My best friends from high school were fawning over my birthday present from Alex. He had gotten me a stunning diamond necklace in the shape of the penguin’s logo. He had taken me to dinner at the most expensive restaurant in town and as I told my story I could see my friends melt.

He says everything I need to hear and it’s likeI couldn’t ask for anything better

He pulled me closer as I silently sobbed on his shoulder. My grandma who had been my best friend my entire life had passed away this morning. “Shh…” He whispered softly into my hair. He gently rocked me back and forth until I settled into a light sleep. When I awoke I was greeted by a note that read…This is what it is to be loved and to know that the promise was when everything fell we’d be held. Sitting next to his note was the doll that my grandma gave me when I was an infant. I could’ve sworn I had lost it.

He opens up my door and I get into his car

After a 5-2 win against the Buffalo Sabers I headed down to the locker room to meet Alex. More than a hour later he was finally showered and ready so we left to go clubbing with some of the team. As we got to the lot he gently guided me into his side and pulled open my door before helping me into his brand new SUV.

And he says you look beautiful tonightAnd I feel perfectly fine

The Christmas Ball was tonight and Alex was picking me up in about an hour. I was rushing around trying to finish my hair and makeup. I still had to put on my dress and heels and I was running out of time. I heard him place his key into the lock and open the door just as I slipped into my teal, v-neck, sparkly dress. I turned around to see him staring mouth gaping wide. “You look…so…so…beautiful.” His words just made me feel like I could fly.

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rainAnd it’s 2am and I’m cursing your nameYou’re so in love that you act insaneAnd that’s the way I loved youBreakin’ down and coming undoneIt’s a roller coaster kinda rushAnd I never knew I could feel that muchAnd that’s the way I loved you

“You’re lying to me, don’t even try to tell me you aren’t.” He sighed and looked down at me with those brown eyes. Those eyes are what cause all this trouble. No matter what he does, those eyes always draw me back to him. I was beyond whatever effect they may have had on me now. Storming out I slammed the door behind me. Running out into the pouring rain the tears began to fall. When I couldn’t run anymore I collapsed to the ground and held my knees close to my chest.“Madison,” he yelled. I heard his splashes as he caught glance of me and ran my way. He pulled me to my feet and held me close.“Kris I just can’t do this anymore.” Those were the words that ended the best thing I ever had.

He respects my space

“Alex…please… I just want to be alone.” I was confused. I was sad. Thinking of my time with Kris only made me miss him more. This drove me insane because I know that what we had is over.“Ok, I’ll be back in a bit, I’m going to go grab some of your favorite ice cream .” He kissed my forehead, grabbed his coat, and left me to my thoughts.

And never makes me waitAnd he calls exactly when he says he will

I was getting out of the shower when I heard the phone ring. Throwing on my robe I walked to my bedroom.“Hello…”“Hey Mads it’s me.” I wasn’t sure at first who “me” was but I quickly realized that it was Alex. “Hey I’m sorry to call this soon but I promised you I’d call after the game.” I had completely forgotten that the game was at 1pm. “We’ll be home in a cople hours be ready to go out to dinner?”“Sure, I love you Alex.”“Love you too.”

He’s close to my motherTalks business with my father

“He’s such a nice boy,” my mother commented as he and dad did the dishes from dinner. “He’s so much better than that Kris boy.” Of course my mother had to bring up Kris. She could not stand that I dated him. She saw him as a “bad boy” and didn’t like the fact that he played hockey. Why Alex was different I had yet to find out.

He’s charming and endearingAnd I’m comfortable

As we sat on a blanket on the floor beside the fire I was completely happy. Alex’s body is warm and makes a perfect pillow. The only lights in the room were candles in various places and the fire. He looked down at me and gave me that sweet smirk of his. He kissed my forehead and I felt safe.

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rainAnd it’s 2am and I’m cursing your nameYou’re so in love that you act insaneAnd that’s the way I loved youBreakin’ down and coming undoneIt’s a roller coaster kinda rushAnd I never knew I could feel that muchAnd that’s the way I loved you

Watching the highlights from tonight’s game had me completely in tears. Kris had just called me. From the noise and the fact that they had won I knew they were out celebrating. I can’t believe that Kris would call me when he was drunk. The worst part is that I could hear some dumb puck bunny talking in his ear. I immediately hung up and curled into a ball on the couch. How could he do this to me? He said he loved me. Normally our relationship is good but lately it’s only gotten worse and worse. I knew that I had to confront him about it.

He can’t see the smile I’m fakingAnd my heart’s not breakingCause I’m not feeling anything at allAnd you were wild and crazyJust so frustrating intoxicatingComplicated, got away by some mistake and now.

“Go…” Alex hugged me and gently led me to the door. He handed me my bag. “I know you’re not happy and that’s all I really want for you.” Crying I leaned up and kissed him on the cheek. “If Kris is the one that makes you happy then that’s all that really matters.” I didn’t know how to express what I was really feeling.“I’m sorry …” seemed like the best option.“I know princess, I know. Go…get out of here.” He cracked a smile and I felt myself laugh for the first time in weeks. I was going to be with Kris but only if he takes me back.

I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rainIt’s 2am and I’m cursing your nameI’m so in love that I acted insaneAnd that’s the way I loved youBreaking down and coming undoneIt’s a roller coaster kinda rushAnd I never knew I could feel that muchAnd that’s the way I loved you oh, oh

Now completely drenched from the rain I stood at Kris’s door waiting for the courage to knock. After a few minutes as I reached up to rap on the door it opened revealing a half-dressed Kris Letang. He looked down at me sleepily and confused. I wrapped my arms around him and pulled his lips to meet mine. As he stood there shocked I pressed a post-it note to his chest and walked into the apartment. It felt so good to be home.

And that’s the way I loved you oh, ohNever knew I could feel that muchAnd that’s the way I loved you.