Friends.

A million years ago, I was a user of a site called "Open Diary." All of my friends utilized the site and it became a place at which you could divest yourself of the things you couldn't say to a person's face. I mean, we talked a lot of shit. And I was particularly angsty with my shit.

It's not my intention to take my new little baby blog into the world of shit-talking. Especially about my friends. They will always find out. Keep it in the hand-written word, bitches.

That being said, I have some pretty amazing friends. They're all fucking bonkers, in their own special ways, but phenomenal people nonetheless. My husband and I moved to Savannah about eighteen months ago. It'll be two years in August. When we were living in the city from which we came, we lived separately. He was still a student and I was a struggling professional. I worked three jobs to maintain my apartment and my horse. So I didn't have time for friends. I didn't go out with anyone other than him.

Fast-forward to Savannah and I actually have friends again. I have people that want to spend time with me. It's amazing and wonderful and a bit overwhelming. I have a large-ish group of acquaintances, with whom I'll go drinking and facebooking and whatnot. And then I have a weird, small group of people who used to be my best friends. And then I have my current "best friends." It feels juvenile to talk about it in these terms, but I have no others.

My acquaintances are awesome. Most of us have something in common - the girls I play soccer with, the girls I used to work with, the friends of friends. My old best friends are good, in a weird way. It's strange to think that we've all moved on, but history unites us. That I know everything about them and their families and their former lives, but that I don't know them. Not anymore. And pretense drains me.

And the current best friends? The people I actually text with, that I talk with online, that I know the current dramas of. I do my best to stay connected, but damn. It's hard being a grown up, having interests, being mostly introverted, and still wanting to have companionship. I love being part of a group. I love chatting with people and doing things. But I also love my quiet time, my time riding, my reading time. I love being alone.

And, finally, my bestest friend: my husband. I get teased for still being in the newlywed phase, but I want to go home to him. I want to spend time with him, even if it's just sitting on the couch or working out or doing nothing. And in the same breath, I want to walk my dogs and ride my horse and go kayaking, but those aren't necessarily things that I can drag him to. He doesn't like the dogs and the Kid isn't on his radar. He's relented to going kayaking soon. :)