When I joined the team of Peniel in October of 2013, I had no idea how radically my life would be changed. I felt at the time, and still believe, that God placed me here. At last, I would be able to give back something to those affected by the devastation of addiction!

But, oh… God had so much more in mind… After being in the work force for almost 40 years, God in his infinite wisdom, had chosen to place me here, at Peniel, a place where I would be given the opportunity to observe, learn and grow…

I would learn so much each day and God was smiling!

I have learned that you can come into work slightly under the weather, and pray and God will give you strength to get through the day. Call off sick? I don’t think so.

I see that God will use those women who have no children to love and provide for his precious little babies. This education on foster care has been invaluable to me.

I’ve learned that it’s totally, “not OK” for my husband to walk ahead of me and yes, you will open the car door for me now.

I have learned that the celebration of Communion is so much more than holding up a loaf of bread. It is a time of repentance, coming before the Lord, in all your mess and saying, “forgive me. I am so sorry Lord…”

I now share with as many people as I can the adage, “do the right thing because it’s the right thing to do” and even have my husband sharing it as well!

I see the strength of mothers with little ones at daycare, who inspire me in such a tremendous, marvelous way! YOU CAN DO BOTH and do it successfully and unto the LORD!

I know what it is to share a prayer concern and have someone say at that very moment, “let’s pray about it right now.” Oh, what a blessing.

For the first time in my life, I’ve learned the importance of being “teachable”. This was challenging at first but I know that God doesn’t want us to remain stagnant in ANY area of our life. HE has strategically placed people in our lives to help take us to the next higher level for His glory.

I have come to see the importance of addressing someone properly. “Yes sir,” and “Yes Ma’am” go a long way in the public sector. Sometimes it is received with an odd look, but you know, “it’s the right thing to do.”

I have learned that you hold your head high IN ALL CIRCUMSTANCES. Walk as a mighty, strong Woman of God. There is no shame or condemnation. Carry yourself with all the authority that the Lord God has given you and never look back!

Daily I have the privilege of seeing God’s miraculous, healing touch as he restores the hurting, the lost, the wounded. I get to see the transformation as they develop into all that God has called them to be.

While most people anxiously await retirement, I see folks in that season of their lives embarking on parenthood, again “because it’s the right thing to do.” I see tremendous leaders on the front lines every day continuing to do what God has called them to do. It’s just that simple.

“When God stops using me, then I worry.” Just another wonderful nugget that I literally just received from one of my Peniel family…

A job? No, this is an assignment. Here I am Lord… thanks for sending me.

Crystal, whatever happened to us? We used to be the couple that everyone wanted to be around, but now look at us. You can keep the black roses. From the very first time I met you I was in love. Everything else I knew faded when was in your presence. What are you doing to me? At first our relationship was so contagious. Everyone flocked to be around us day and night. Day after day, they envied us and wanted what we had but I was selfish; you were mine and only mine.

What’s happening to me?

They say the loving kind hearted person I used to be is gone, and the sick part is I don’t even miss him. How can I miss something I don’t even know is gone? By now people are noticing that our love is not quite what it seems. In fact we are toxic for each other; something like fire and gasoline. Why am I not seeing it? My friends beg me, “please leave her, she’s killing you.”

“No she’s not,” I reply, “I’m happy.”

Who are you? Why would they say these things about us? The more time I spend with you the more I love you. You possess a love so deep my knees buckle. When we touch you take my breath away. All I want to do is be with you. You can sleep tomorrow just give me tonight.. You’re being selfish you don’t need to eat you have me I’m all you need remember? You were never this demanding before what changed? I thought you loved me so why are playing with my emotions like this? I’m going crazy here don’t you see it? Stop your crying and get over here.

I finally see it; we are toxic.

The clothes you once paid for all falling off and all of our friends are gone it’s just us now. We aren’t the couple we once were. Let’s go for a ride for old times’ sake. Buckle up I see blue lights. Just like that you were gone. You sold me out without saying a word.

From my bruised arms and sunken face they knew we had been together, but it was too late you had moved on to the next person and I was in jail. It’s funny because for the first time in a long time I feel free. You can keep the black roses. Just book me tomorrow I need to sleep.

You took something from me and I want it back. My days are long, dark and lonely when you are present. My smile is no longer on my face and I act out of character.

What happened to those days when I would talk on the phone with family and friends for hours? Those days when I went to the playground with my children and we would swing for what seemed like days. I remember those strong teachings from my mother and my father, and also the good childhood memories . . . but now they are replaced with rebellion and reckless thoughts.

My goals and dreams are no longer at the forefront of my mind. They have been replaced with the thought of, “I just need one drink so I can escape.” What happened to life? I thought I had it all figured out.

I was controlled by addiction for 23 years, which entrapped me inside a never ending, torturous maze of drug use. I felt there wasn’t a map available to lead me to an escape. Before coming to Peniel I had spent 90% of my adult existence caged within a prison cell. Loneliness and anger were my best friends. I suffered self-inflicted torment and longed for inner peace. I had zero respect for authority and often isolated while entertaining myself with negative self-talk and intense drug use. For most of my life, I considered myself a failure, born only to suffer, yet possessing great potential, but I was forever lacking self-confidence and the courage needed to step out of my comfort zone to achieve greatness. I was paralyzed with fear and spent decades drowning in self doubt. I believed that I was worthless and would never amount to anything. At least that’s what the enemy wanted me to believe.

Since coming to Peniel, I have chosen to believe the word of God, which states,

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity”
(Jeremiah 29:11-14 NIV).

After dedicating my life to the Lord, amid questioning and much concern, I enrolled into Lee University, one of the online college programs available at Peniel. For the first time ever, I was about to step out of my comfort zone, therefore, I prayed daily for wisdom and understanding.

Shortly after completing an English Writing assignment, my professor who is a true blessing, pushed me to have the essay published in the Church of God Evangel, a national monthly magazine. Although I believed this would be a complicated undertaking, I invested into making the publication a reality. Everything quickly fell into place and my essay will be published in this year’s November issue. I still do not understand why this is happening. To me it’s just a simple writing assignment but God has His plans for it. Seeing that I have the ability to achieve the impossible or unattainable has established God confidence within me. Having the Evangel publish my work is a tremendous accomplishment for me, and with the help of my Abba, I believe it is one of many more to come.

It wasn’t the Evangel itself that shattered all doubts but God! He has proven himself many times over, displaying His unconditional and incomprehensible love for me. This has fixed my heart on Him and my life will never be the same. When all I could see was the worst in me, He saw the best. When everyone in my life gave up on me, He never did.

I will always remember December 7, 2014, the day I saw God face to face. I was changed forever by this intimate experience. I am no longer a slave to my anger or my addiction. Relationships have been restored as well as my own life. I now believe in myself and I boldly stand sold out for Jesus Christ.

Through Peniel I was afforded the opportunity to enroll at Lee University and begin my journey of living out my dream as a medical professional. I am now pursuing a degree in radiology and without Peniel none of this would have been possible. Peniel is the best tool belt for someone who is exhausted and broken due to addiction. Peniel has established a profound change within me. A change that has truly saved my life. Today, I stand proud of who I am and I look forward to my future when before I couldn’t see past myself. God has begun a work in me I cannot yet put into words; all I can say is that I am an unfinished comeback story!

Peniel has been invited to participate in this years “Chillin’ For Charity” event held on February 14, 2015. We are excited about this unique opportunity to raise funds for treatment at Peniel and to raise awareness about the drug problem we are facing.

We are extremely proud to be a part of the effort to turn the tide on the addiction problem in our area. Peniel has been fortunate to work with the judicial system, law makers and local law enforcement in a concerted effort to make a difference in our community. All of our efforts are made possible only by the financial support of people who are dedicated to helping those in need. Please help support Peniel Residential Drug-Alcohol Treatment Center by making a donation through our fundraising page.Keep in mind, you don’t have to take the plunge to give –you can simply go to our page and make a donation.

If everyone reading this post donated just $20, the impact made would affect hundreds of lives who need our help and the ripple effects throughout those families and our community would be immeasurable. Every dollar makes a difference!Every dollar makes a difference!

You can give securely online through our “Chillin’ for Charity” page. Your generosity is greatly appreciated!

The Quemahoning Chillin’ for Charity Winter Festival & Arctic Splash will be held on Saturday, February 14, 2015 at the Quemahoning Family Recreation Area.

The event is not just about challenging someone to take that icy leap, it’s also about raising awareness and financial support for non-profit organizations doing great things in our community. And all the funds are kept locally, and will directly impact the Cambria/Somerset Community.

Peniel is participating as one of the beneficiaries of the event. Our dormitories were newly constructed when we moved in, but after so many years, the wear and tear of normal use has taken its toll. The monies raised through “Chillin’ For Charity” will go toward refurnishing our dormitories with new bedding, dressers and curios. Completion of this project will supply comfortable housing for our residents and assist us in maintaining our high standard of excellence in care.

Please help support Peniel Residential Drug-Alcohol Treatment Center by making a donation by clicking the “Donate Now” button at the top of the page. Keep in mind that you don’t have to take the plunge if you give . . . . but you can! Even a small donation will help us achieve our goal! The process is fast, easy, and secure.Click here to go to our donation page now

Our efforts to combat drug and alcohol dependence in this are are funded by supporters just like you. Any help you can provide is invested directly in rescuing another life from the grips of addiction and restoring them to their rightful place in their family. The mission of Peniel is to provide long-term, faith-based drug/alcohol treatment to help men and women overcome the oppression of addiction. With over a 70% success rate, our aim is to not only restore individuals affected by drug and alcohol dependence but to also produce leaders and difference makers who are prepared to make a significant impact in the communities where they live.

Marion Spellman writes about her trials and tribulations in her recently released book.

Recently, Dr. Spellman, Founding President & CEO, sat down with Kelly Urban of the Johnstown Tribune-Democrat to share about how the book, “Restoring Broken Lives: The Marion Spellman Story” came to pass.The article was featured on the front page of the paper!

Click here to read the Tribune-Democrat feature article in its entirety.

The book, which is now in its second printing, is $12.99 and can be purchased at Peniel: (814) 536-2111, www.pathwaybookstore.com, www.amazon.com, Faith Deliverance Christian Center (Norfolk, VA): (757) 624-1950, The Christian Book Store & Office Supply in Johnstown: (814) 266-7459 and Somerset: (814) 443-0558, Emmanuel Baptist Church: (814) 266-4117, Westwood Floral and Gifts: (814) 255-2524, and various Church of God State Camp Meetings.

In addition, Peniel is also in the process of developing a curriculum based on the book to be used as a Bible Study Guide.

The long anticipated release of Dr. Marion Spellman’s publishing debut is upon us! “Restoring Broken Lives, The Marion Spellman Story” is the incredible true story of a visionary set on accomplishing her life’s mission. Dr. Spellman recounts the various joys, trials, pains and gains of birthing and growing an effective, life-changing Christian treatment program. It is a fascinating read that will leave you inspired and motivated.

Endorsed by prominent leaders from every segment:

“As as a Board Member, I can personally attest to how Dr. Marion Spellman has faced heartaches and hallelujahs, betrayals and blessings, sorrows and smiles, life-threatening physical trials and miraculous triumphs, and she has come out victorious, giving glory to her God. What a story! Read it and be inspired.”

“As Board of Directors Chairman, I can honestly say that Dr. Marion Spellman is one of those rare individuals who exemplifies the essence of servant leadership. Her heart exudes genuine love and care for those who have been incarcerated by drug/alcohol addiction. Fulfilling her divine calling, she has witnessed the transformation of literally thousands of broken lives. She is a dedicated Christian, a devoted wife and mother, and her life is a story that must be told. You will be inspired, stirred, and motivated by this book – it is a must read. Marion Spellman – inimitable, incomparable, irreplaceable – a choice servant of the Lord!”

“This book is an extremely interesting and motivational narrative about the birth and realization of a vision. Struggling for years with limited resources, Marion’s stalwart faith in God, personal fortitude and the unwavering support of her husband, family and friends has led to the restoration of hundreds of broken lives. Today, Peniel is an exemplary rehabilitation ministry that is second to none. I heartily endorse this book for all those who truly believe that nothing is impossible with God.”

“The devastation of addiction, its cost on families and the soul of this nation is staggering. Every official dealing with the scourge of drug addiction should read this insightful, straight forward answer to an impossible task. This is a story of hope. The record of accomplishments at Peniel is unparalleled. I am proud of Dr. Spellman and Peniel’s allegiance to Johnstown and this country. “Restoring Broken Lives, The Marion Spellman Story” is proof positive that no matter what the obstacles, all things are possible with God!”

— State Representative Bryan Barbin71st District, Pennsylvania

“This insightful collection of Dr. Spellman’s experiences provides us with myriad examples of God at work in the affairs of His people. Readers facing adversity of any kind, minute or mammoth, are inspired to ‘keep it moving’ after indulging in this book. I am honored and humbled to call Dr. Marion Spellman my friend!”

“Peniel specializes in transformation. It is not a place to learn behavior modification, it is a place to learn and experience true freedom. ‘Your life is the sum of the choices you make,’ and you could not make a better choice than Peniel.”

— Rev. Ray StreetsSenior Pastor Emmanuel Baptist ChurchJohnstown, PA

To get your book and a copy for some of your friends visit www.pathwaybookstore.com.Purchasing this book will help us to continue the life changing work of Peniel.

Mark your calendar for May 4th and join us as we welcome Bishop Lance Colkmire, Senior Editor of Pathway Press, which is the Church of God’s Publication House. Bishop Colkmire will be with Peniel the entire weekend culminating as our Sunday Morning Speaker. We are eagerly anticipating and ready to receive his message.

Bishop Colkmire will also be gathering information about Peniel also for a soon to be release “spread” in The Evangel, the official magazine for the Church of God. Bishop Colkmire is a committed and highly respected leader within the church and is a seasoned man of God with a heart to showcase God’s influence to the world through special and unique ministries. We are extremely blessed to have attained the endorsement of Bishop Colkmire for our efforts here at Peniel and particularly for Dr. Spellman’s new book.
We are down-right thrilled that he will make his way to Pennsylvania to gather additional information in order to accurately represent Peniel to the international membership of the Church of God and the worldwide subscribers of the Evangel.

We are respectfully requesting the Peniel family and our friends to reserve this special day to join us in receiving Bishop Lance Colkmire with joy. He is our very special and honored guest. We look forward to hosting him and giving him a Peniel welcome.