it feels good,'cause ya know-for a long time i think i got used to my heart feeling really heavy.full of emotion and stress and worry and doubt and overall yuckiness.*feelings that i just assumed were my fate in adulthood.

but as it turns out.i've learned that's not my fate at all.{not even close actually!}there's a happier way of living.being of good cheer is decidedly the better option.i strive for it.

lightheartedness doesn't come so easily to me though.i am a very sensitive, soft shelled girl.there are {still} times my feelings are so tender, i break down inside with every insinuated offense.my re-occuring worry is being misunderstood by others. my intentions. my heart.

the point of this post, is to express gratitude & thanksgivingfor a savior who makes all things good and right and fair and peaceful again for me.*at the close of everyday.

i don't know how i could journey through this life without the knowledge that i have a brother who has felt every loneliness, hurt, or worry i have or will experience.

i feel like i mention this a lot on my blog- broken record style- but it's a fundamental truth that honestly makes my world go round.

i hope for every child of god on this earth to know of the atonement of christ & the healing effects it has on the human spirit.tonight, i am grateful to know that" i can do all things through christ which strengtheneth me."*philippians 4: 13

11.11.2010

"i thank god for my lifeand for the stars and stripesmay freedom forever fly, let it ring.salute the ones who diedand the ones that gave their lives so we don`t have to sacrificeall the things we love..."

11.08.2010

all kinds.from motab to the cure.from ingrid michaelson to kurt cobain.from radiohead to the zac brown band.from collective soul to pink.from mindy gledhill to death cab.from sufjan stevens to kelly clarkson.

11.07.2010

my children might not have money to go to college because i splurge on the above two items,

but that's a small price to pay for lemony-fresh sinks & surfaces, dontchya think?{*bumble&bumble, you had me @ hello.}

i am thankful for clothing to wear. there is a portion of my heart that is dedicated to & literally beats for the folks at jcpenny-for manufacturing me a pair of jeans that actually fit my body of odd proportions.

i am grateful that though my wardrobe is much less fabulous than my imagination & wish-list....i have something to wear. i know there are many people in this world that aren't as lucky. so, me & my $21 dollar jeans from pennys are super-duper thankful.

i am thankful for ceiling fans and air conditioning.

i am a very warm blooded, insulated individual. these modern conveniences mean so much to me & the very dominant sweat genes i posses.

i am grateful to be a stay at home mom. there is honestly nothing i'd rather be doing. this is {one} of my blessings that i don't take for granted. i know how blessed i am. and i thank the lord everyday i have with my sweet babies.

i am thankful for food. as much as it completely stresses me out, let's get real-i am abundantly blessed to have it. and so many options! i'm particularly thankful for crystal light ...the substance that weans me off of pepsi approximately every six months when i decide to quit soda again.

i am grateful for chocolate & two functioning vehicles.{in that order}

i am grateful for bills....because they mean i have a roof over my head, water to shower, power to use, health insurance, a car to use, and 2 special homeowners associations that teach me temperance & patience.

i'm grateful for my pink chair and all memories made whilst rocking upon it.

i am grateful for the beauty of the outdoors. i find that my heavenly father speaks to my soul most when i'm outside playing or walking or running. or sitting.

i'm also grateful for winter grass. and sprinklers. and the lawnmower we just acquired off craigslist for ridiculously cheap.

i am thankful for messes. fingerprints. laundry. and all other evidences of the little children in my life.

*confession: maybe i don't always {act} like i am.

but i know i'll miss it someday.

i am so thankful for the scriptures. and their guiding force in my life. i know that the book of mormon is an inspired, true book. i love it & want to share it always.

i am also thankful for wise, amazing people who write stuff and teach me crap. i love all things self-help. i love searching for nuggets of truth, inspiring quotes & coping mechanisms to enrich my existence.