I think i have reached my limit. I am burnt out from work, daily life, people. I talked to my personal doctor, and she say the same thing too.

"Kayyam, idk how many times i told you, but this is not healty. Overworked, under heavy preassure n stress. Idk how in the world you could manage to sleep 4 hours a day, wake up early in the morning, carry the whole mountain behind your back. Belajar kesiankan diri sendiri"

And another 30 minutes of consultation related to my mental health whats not. I didnt keep any secret from my doc. She knew things about me which i keep away from people. And i think she should know a thing or two about me so i can get proper medications/consultations.

And she told me that i do get upset when things didnt meet my expectation. This is bad bcos tak semua org can deliver like i do. And bcos i put so many effort and energy into people and things yg wont have the same return as the effort given, i get frustrated. I am being too hard on myself. Her advice, take some time off the world.

I feel like taking a week off. Pastu balik kg. Rehat ke rejuvenate my energy semula. Need to break this work-home routine, fill up dgn benda2 baru. Being too efficient tak boleh juga. I feel like going on a vacation too. Wanted to visit my parents but theres so many things needed to be done bcos of the conditions...