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Eldercare: The Forgotten Feminist Issue.

(This was written late last year; I pitched it a few places but received little interest. I’m posting it here because, well, it’s an important conversation.)

Mom, back in the day.

As I write this my mother is fast asleep in a nursing home, her third stint in 15 months. It is a heartbreaking thing, watching your parent slowly succumb to her mortality. You try to prepare yourself for the call you’ll get in the middle of the night from a nurse reluctant to give you the news you’ve been dreading for years. But no amount of preparation will ready you for that call. No amount of alcohol will lessen the pain. Even writing about it is hard because it forces you to deal with an absolute, inescapable truth. She is dying, and you are powerless to stop it.

The woman I now visit several times a week is not the woman I knew five years ago, or even three years ago, when she bounded into my maternity suite with her walker, perching herself on the sofa while ordering my husband around. She is an entirely different creature, one who will ask me the same question in a five-minute span, one who is petulant and stubborn and scared. She is not the Joan who raised me, and it is difficult to reconcile this version with the one I knew. The one I miss. I watch my other friends in envy as they travel the world with their healthy, able-bodied parents, as those parents gift them with cars and weddings, top-shelf appliances and Maclaren strollers.

As a junior member of the Sandwich Generation, I’ve been my mother’s primary caregiver for the last several years, a responsibility passed on to me when my brother and his wife retired to Phoenix. A changing of the guard, so to speak, because they’d spent over 20 years juggling full-time jobs, mortgage payments and ailing elders. Statistics will tell you that the average Sandwicher is older, whiter and affluent, which makes my case somewhat unique (I suppose) because I am none of those things. Earlier this year, when my husband was laid off after 14 years of what should be considered indentured servitude, our financial situation went from “meh, it could be worse” to “oh, this is what abject poverty feels like.” If money wasn’t going to toddler care, it was going to one (or both) of our mothers.

But what I’m doing now is no different from what my brother was doing ten years ago, no different from what our mother was doing over 20 years ago when she moved my grandmother into our spartan three-bedroom apartment on Chicago’s south side. In fact, my situation isn’t a unique one at all, because growing up I was surrounded by women who lived as we did; three-to-four generations sharing 800 square-feet. For most poor/working-class single women of color, this is a familiar, albeit depressing, narrative. My mother was raising a 12 year-old and a 67 year-old on barmaid’s wages and public assistance. Her friend Mona was using her barmaid’s wages to provide for her college-bound son and a mother in a nursing home. Another friend, Sally, was raising a gaggle of kids and grandkids on Sunday dinners she’d sell from her window. Though they all made it work, there were doubtless physical and emotional strains that would manifest in the years to come.

As writer Jane Glenn Haas pointed out, eldercare isn’t sexy enough to be a feminist issue. It lacks the naughty allure of reproductive rights, the seductive appeal of body image. It doesn’t even have a sassy Lean In-like catchphrase. But it should be a feminist issue, since the numbers show that women are most likely to shoulder the responsibility of looking after parents in their twilight years, and the most likely to live well into those twilight years. A lot of them have missed out on career and educational opportunities. A lot of them—like my mother and her friends—are doing this by the skin of their teeth, with scant to nonexistent resources. A lot of them will outlive their spouses (if they have them), exhaust their pensions (if they have them), and die alone.

All of this begs a stronger push for policy changes that no longer penalize women for making the choice to care for their elders, a push for making more resources available to help them. Innovative programs like CAPABLE can not only ease the burden of caregivers, but empower the senior citizens who need the care and improve their quality of life. But in order for this country to realize the importance of this issue, we need more voices—big and small—to amplify it.

Reblogged this on Surviving Childhood Sexual Abuse and commented:
Maybe that’s the problem with our collective pained existences. They are just not sexy enough. Well that point is well made and spoken.

Having read your story, I can say I only partially understand your struggle. I am a white married man in a two-income family living in suburbia, but I do have older parents to take care of. My parents don’t drive and need help getting to appointments. They also need help mopping their floors, cleaning bathrooms, etc.

My mother-in-law lived with my family for four months before passing away this year. Her medical issues have been causing a financial strain at the same time we are trying to pay for a child’s college tuition. Obviously we don’t have your financial issues, but it hasn’t been easy, either.

Although looking back, I understand that you are saying that eldercare is an issue that the feminist commentators should be speaking about. You aren’t labeling the issue as “feminist”, you are saying it’s not something you should be ignoring.

My mother took care of her mother with my help and that of my teen-age daughter. While in her teens, my grandmother raised her younger sisters when her mother died.

I left graduate school (very late entry) in CA with a completed but unsubmitted dissertation to take care of my mother, with the help of my daughter who was in law school. If I hadn’t been there, she would have left law school to take care of my mother.

Now in my seventies, with health problems, no pension, just Social Security, I face being taken care of. My daughter, recently separated and with two young children, says, “don’t worry, Mom. We’ll manage, we always have.”

Sometimes I think we just do… We just buckle down and do it, do the work. Actually, many of us don’t even consider it as work. We watched our moms take care of their parents and now we think often about taking care of them and pray to God that our kids will be there for us. We do it and I think we never stop to think about the impact it’s having (have had) on our lives and those around us. The cycle just continues.