The final season of the now Netflix original seriesThe Killing picks up right where we left off in Season Three. Sarah made the grim discovery that her former investigative partner and lover, James Skinner, was the Pied Piper serial killer who made a game of killing young teen girls and throwing them in lakes throughout Seattle. After pulling over the side of the road to puke her guts out, Sarah temporarily lost it and shot Skinner point blank just as Holder was approaching, roping him into the mess, too. Here’s what happened after that wild night in the woods.

What’s Going on with Sarah?: When we first see Sarah Linden this season, she strips out of her bloody clothes and hops in a steaming shower; blood all over her hair and breathing heavily, she tries to wrap her head around the idea of what she just did. After having a typical Sarah Linden freak-out involving lots of grunting and panting, Holder comes over to set the record straight — if they stick to the same story and protect each other, everything will be fine. This is all Sarah’s fault, of course, because 1. She fucking shot her boss in the dome instead of just beating the crap out of him and letting him rot in jail forever, and 2. She never thought to record his confessions during their hour-long car ride into the woods. Some detective she’s supposed to be.

The Latest Case: Without any time to digest what just happened, Linden and Holder are thrown into a fresh case surrounding a family massacre. The victims are the multi-millionaire Stansbury family, including both parents, their two daughters, and their only son Kyle, who survived despite taking a bullet to the head. Being the only survivor, police suspect right away that the gunshot was self-inflicted after Kyle killed his entire family. Holder has a hunch that Kyle is the one who pulled the trigger on his perfect family, as he’s the black sheep of the Stansburys who was shipped off to military school the year before. Linden, of course, gives the kid the benefit of the doubt and digs deeper into Kyle’s life at St. George’s Military Academy, which has plenty of shady characters milling about.

What to Expect in Episode 3: The stress of keeping their tracks covered mixed with the confusion of the latest case are making both Linden and Holder lose it a little bit. By now we’re used to Linden freaking out over spilled milk, but the first two episodes highlight her roller coaster mood swings even more so than usual. After getting into an unnecessary fight with a pharmacist over how to take Plan B, we see her tearing her sheets off her bed and throwing out any physical reminder of Skinner she might have all while crying and screaming. At this point, her attitude is more frustrating than her poor choices. Holder finds out his girlfriend Caroline is pregnant and starts to crack under the pressure of the life-changing bomb just dropped on him in addition to his weighing conscience of helping Sarah cover up Skinner’s death. With the tension mounting, it’s clear that Holder will probably break his two-year sobriety streak and is going to start using again. Detective Carl Reddick, Holder’s former partner, starts to notice something shady is going on between him and Linden, and he starts a private investigation of his own to try and figure out what’s going on.

Take Away: Thanks to Linden being the worst, the final series is taking a little longer to kick-off and get into gear. The first two episodes roll easily into one with the interweaving element being Linden’s terrible handling of Skinner’s murder. You would think a homicide detective would know how to play the game a bit and put on a poker face, but she continuously slips up and Reddick is taking note. Little does she realize her selfish mistakes could potentially bring down Holder’s life as well as her own, and she still has no clue he’s going to be a father. The most frustrating part about Sarah, similar to previous seasons, is that you want to so badly empathize with her but her abrasiveness makes it nearly impossible. By the time the credits roll, you’re shouting at the TV, “Well, fine! You get what you deserve with an attitude like that! Good luck digging yourself out of this hole, you fool!”