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Dear Exhausted Job Applicant

I see you. I see you over there trying to word “I would love to work for your organization” in three different ways so they really understand that you want this job. I see you rewriting and rewriting cover letter after cover letter, researching another organization and trying to formulate your resume to make it look like you’re qualified, because you know you are but “on paper” it seems like you’re not. I see you getting your hopes up, sending every resume off with a prayer and then hanging your head when there’s silence on the other end. I see you.

You try and remember that your value isn’t in your work, but it’s hard sometimes. It’s hard when you enjoy working and know that is where you find joy and now you don’t have the certainty of that. You try and remember it’s normal that people change jobs and job hunt all the time. You try and remember that “God is in control” and all the truths you know you’re supposed to remember, but it’s hard.

It’s hard when you feel like you’ve been led to let go of where you are in order to grab onto what’s next. It’s hard when what’s next isn’t clear. It’s hard when people stare at you like a crazy person when you say you are leaving one job without knowing what’s next. It’s hard when you felt such peace about your decision, but then nothing seems to be working out. It’s hard when you’re just trying to do the next right thing and then all of a sudden you’re not sure what the next right thing is. It’s hard when you don’t want to doubt and be confused, it’s hard to not be terrified all the time.

It’s easy to stop applying and just hope something works out. It’s easy to have a pity party and complain. It’s easy to beat yourself up and give into the fear. That’s the easy part…but that’s not where beauty shines through.

Beauty shines through when someone looks at you, not like you’re crazy, but says they’re proud of you. Beauty shines through when a peace that surpasses all understanding fills your soul. Beauty shines through when even when it’s easier to have the pity party and believe the lies that you made a mistake you choose to replace the lies with truth. You’ll slowly feel the truth cement in your heart and start to grow roots in your soul. Beauty shines through when even with all the unknown and the time of transition, people come alongside you and hold up your hands and remind you that it’s going to be okay. Beauty shines through when people extend you the grace, compassion and understanding that you’re having a hard time extending to yourself.

So, exhausted job applicant, let me replace some lies with truth for you. You are not your job or your occupation. You have value regardless of what you do because you are not what you do, you are who you are. If you know God led you to a decision or a choice and it doesn’t seem like he’s showing up, remember all the examples in your life before and how he’s been faithful. Why would he stop now? Also, people don’t get hired overnight. Some of us who are impatient and like for things to happen right now have a hard time remembering this (Of course I’m not talking about myself…).

This is getting long and you’re already tired from all those cover letters and resumes so let me tell you these last things. It’s okay that this is hard. It’s okay to grieve what you’re letting go of and still be excited about what’s next. It’s okay to have a pity party, just don’t stay there for long. It’s okay to be dramatic, but just make sure you have a good friend there to let you know when you’re getting ridiculous. And remember, you need people. Even if you’re coping mechanism with all this is to retreat into yourself, don’t retreat all the way. Remember we’re not meant to do life alone. There are people who want to be there for you, give people a chance to show up and let that beauty shine through amidst your circumstances.