Monthly Archives: January 2012

Yesterday, one of a friend told me about his personality. He gave me a link to Wikipedia something about him being a Healer. Kind of weird. I was thinking of some fantasy character that have this power to regenerate or even revive someone from death. Anyway, after the talk he asked me to get the test as well.

After the result I got… INTJ.

I was like… wait a minute, he got a healer, and I got this nonsense code? After a while I realized that there are more than 1 description about the result. So INTJ is also called the Mastermind.

Woot woot! Mastermind! It sounds cool :p

All Rationals are good at planning operations, but Masterminds are head and shoulders above all the rest in contingency planning. Complex operations involve many steps or stages, one following another in a necessary progression, and Masterminds are naturally able to grasp how each one leads to the next, and to prepare alternatives for difficulties that are likely to arise any step of the way. Trying to anticipate every contingency, Masterminds never set off on their current project without a Plan A firmly in mind, but they are always prepared to switch to Plan B or C or D if need be.

Masterminds are rare, comprising no more than one to two percent of the population, and they are rarely encountered outside their office, factory, school, or laboratory. Although they are highly capable leaders, Masterminds are not at all eager to take command, preferring to stay in the background until others demonstrate their inability to lead. Once they take charge, however, they are thoroughgoing pragmatists. Masterminds are certain that efficiency is indispensable in a well-run organization, and if they encounter inefficiency — any waste of human and material resources — they are quick to realign operations and reassign personnel. Masterminds do not feel bound by established rules and procedures, and traditional authority does not impress them, nor do slogans or catchwords. Only ideas that make sense to them are adopted; those that don’t, aren’t, no matter who thought of them. Remember, their aim is always maximum efficiency.

In their careers, Masterminds usually rise to positions of responsibility, for they work long and hard and are dedicated in their pursuit of goals, sparing neither their own time and effort nor that of their colleagues and employees. Problem-solving is highly stimulating to Masterminds, who love responding to tangled systems that require careful sorting out. Ordinarily, they verbalize the positive and avoid comments of a negative nature; they are more interested in moving an organization forward than dwelling on mistakes of the past.

Masterminds tend to be much more definite and self-confident than other Rationals, having usually developed a very strong will. Decisions come easily to them; in fact, they can hardly rest until they have things settled and decided. But before they decide anything, they must do the research. Masterminds are highly theoretical, but they insist on looking at all available data before they embrace an idea, and they are suspicious of any statement that is based on shoddy research, or that is not checked against reality.

To outsiders, INTJs may appear to project an aura of “definiteness”, of self-confidence. This self-confidence, sometimes mistaken for simple arrogance by the less decisive, is actually of a very specific rather than a general nature; its source lies in the specialized knowledge systems that most INTJs start building at an early age. When it comes to their own areas of expertise — and INTJs can have several — they will be able to tell you almost immediately whether or not they can help you, and if so, how. INTJs know what they know, and perhaps still more importantly, they know what they don’t know.

INTJs are perfectionists, with a seemingly endless capacity for improving upon anything that takes their interest. What prevents them from becoming chronically bogged down in this pursuit of perfection is the pragmatism so characteristic of the type: INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion “Does it work?” to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms. This in turn produces an unusual independence of mind, freeing the INTJ from the constraints of authority, convention, or sentiment for its own sake.

INTJs are known as the “Systems Builders” of the types, perhaps in part because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability. Whatever system an INTJ happens to be working on is for them the equivalent of a moral cause to an INFJ; both perfectionism and disregard for authority may come into play, as INTJs can be unsparing of both themselves and the others on the project. Anyone considered to be “slacking,” including superiors, will lose their respect — and will generally be made aware of this; INTJs have also been known to take it upon themselves to implement critical decisions without consulting their supervisors or co-workers. On the other hand, they do tend to be scrupulous and even-handed about recognizing the individual contributions that have gone into a project, and have a gift for seizing opportunities which others might not even notice.

In the broadest terms, what INTJs “do” tends to be what they “know”. Typical INTJ career choices are in the sciences and engineering, but they can be found wherever a combination of intellect and incisiveness are required (e.g., law, some areas of academia). INTJs can rise to management positions when they are willing to invest time in marketing their abilities as well as enhancing them, and (whether for the sake of ambition or the desire for privacy) many also find it useful to learn to simulate some degree of surface conformism in order to mask their inherent unconventionality.

Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ’s Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.

This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. 🙂 This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete’, paralleling that of many Fs — only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness.

Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to “work at” a relationship. Although as Ts they do not always have the kind of natural empathy that many Fs do, the Intuitive function can often act as a good substitute by synthesizing the probable meanings behind such things as tone of voice, turn of phrase, and facial expression. This ability can then be honed and directed by consistent, repeated efforts to understand and support those they care about, and those relationships which ultimately do become established with an INTJ tend to be characterized by their robustness, stability, and good communications.

One of the topics that was missed to be published because of the earlier incident with hackers, is about the theme of the year. I changed my last year’s “Yes It’s Byq” to “Let’s Judge a Byq By Its Cover” (and at the same time removed the byq-o-graphy, and changed it into 100 byq). Why?

Well… Considering this blog is a part of myself, while I am growing up, it follows my growing up process as well. Last year there are lots of soul searching, finding myself and opening myself to many opportunities. “This is Byq” can be vaguely seen as “this is me” or “this is big”. Yes, the soul searching process is a big thing to do… and after all, last year, many big things happened to me. This year, I hope it would be different.

After dealing with the inner self, I wanted to show other people the real me. I mean, to be honest about myself is not something easy. Sometimes in order to feel better, people make covers to show who they’re not inside. I remember one a bitter quotation someone put on her status in facebook (I am pretty sure she quoted it somewhere else, but not everybody know how to use the Harvard referencing system, do they?), “Thank you for loving me for who I’m not”.

Yes and her friends would all goo, “aaaaw” and comment her status with some sympathy and the pity party start, clogging my feed box with rubbish. Nobody asked her, “how did he know you for who you’re not?”

What kind of assessment you had? How do he thinks you are who you are not? What kind of impression you made for him?

Believing that a relationship (not only a romantic relationship) is a two way activity, it’s almost impossible for people to make his or her own judgment without you giving the other party the first wrong impression. You’re gonna tell people not to judge a book by its cover, but let’s be honest, you would be very hesitate buy a book with a lousy cover and shitty back-cover synopsis.

Giving the wrong impression can mislead the relationship. Especially when no one tried to correct the wrong impression. I should admit that misleading people can be very entertaining once in a while, but not in a serious context of course.

This year, I want to be honest to myself and to other people. Maybe they will be interested to who I am, and if they do, it would make my life soooo much easier. Yes, my self searching process is still going on, but the main focus is how to show my progress to the world. Not such an easy task, but doable 😀

I really didn’t know how to answer that, to be honest. When I asked him about my situation, I never thought that it would just came back to me. Should I start from the beginning? Yes of course.

One of my New Year Resolution is to be less bitchy. Less sarcasm. Less snappy answers. Less mean comments. To be short, less bitchy. However the bitchiness is something that you can measure. How do you know you have been less bitchy than before? The only way is how to control this urging feeling of snapping or shooting opinions when talking to others, and that’s not easy. And I asked one of my new friends, who is a counselor. How to control myself from doing this stuff?

Why? He asked me.

The simple question expanded to a self investigation. Why do I bitch? Why do I want to stop bitching? What snaps me? Whom I bitch to? Why do you choose these people?

I don’t know.

I thought I am a kind of person who understand what I want and what I don’t want, and would do things only when I know the reason why I do that. But about this bitchiness… I really doesn’t have a clue. So I started to dig deeper to myself.

I always do that to my friends, to people who close to me, that’s what I know for sure. I always think that I don’t need to state any comment to people I don’t know, but I always have the concern to tell the truth to friends. Yes, exactly. The way I said it was the one that considered as bitchy.

And my counselor friend asked me. Why do you do that to people who cares about you? You want to push them away?

I never thought I want to push people away from me. I never thought that I have this kind of habit. But when I looked back to where I was, I definitely pushed so many people away. I never tried to reach out after some times, and usually hold back when they’re getting close. The question from this friend made me realise that there is a pattern.

Anyway… Since it’s now become a habit, I don’t really know how to keep people around me. And that sucks lol. Especially if I do really want them to be around. Geez.

If you came last night you might find something weird again about my blog. And it was definitely what you think it was. My blog got defaced again. Two times in a month, now I believe this web hosting sucks beyond repair. I really really really want to move this blog, however I still have no idea where. I think it is going to be a little bit a waste if I bought the unlimited service from some web hosting here, if I only use no more than few MB in a month. Even McXoem has questioned my decision using 5GB before :p

The fact that my blog defaced twice a month gave me impression that either the security of this hosting service is very lousy, or my blog is very popular. I will go for the first one though, although I am so tempted to believe the second one, out of narcissism.

Yes, and Two Heroes as well 😀 This time, the heroes are McXoem (again, because he’s the only one I know that I can trust to access my cpanel and has proven himself as a very experienced blogger which can do anything about blog), and his friend @aurel_666 (I don’t know what he wants himself to be referred to, but since I knew him on twitter, I’d rather mention him with his twitter name :)). When I woke up this morning, McXoem just left a message on my BB messenger and also a mention on twitter, which also mentioned his dear friend.

Both of them saved my ass blog. McXoem said he hasn’t checked my cpanel, something I don’t really understand what for, but yes he still has my password so…

I believe in humanity now.

Well… I always believe in humanity.

The back to back hacking on my blog made me doubt it a little bit though :p, even I just knew from McXoem himself that the one that saved my blog was a repented hacker *confused*.

Anyway, I wondered what I should have done to make my blog safe? Is it hard to transfer blog somewhere safer? And which hosting would be safer? I have told myself over and over again that I wouldn’t continue using this service, and have a couple of months or weeks to decide where to go…

Angel, an ordinary girl with an ordinary dream suddenly found that her life might not be that ordinary. Especially, after she found out that an Angel of Death (the real one) was going to take her life. However, she couldn’t die yet. Not until she got her last wish fulfilled.

But, when she could actually get what she wished for, things become more and more complicated. It’s either not getting what she wants for the rest of her life, or die. Not a really good choice. But time is running out, and Angel needs to make up her mind before death finding its new target.

Review:

Alright. This novel is a teenlit. I am so sorry that the way I write the synopsis makes it sounds like it is very serious.

But indeed, it is a serious work.

I am not a fan of teenlit, to be honest. I took this one because it has my name on the “thank you” page, and I didn’t have to buy it because the author herself brought this book to England for me. LOL. Just kidding, AK! I was waiting for this book for years and when it’s finally published I am so lucky that I can be one of the first who got this book. With the autograph of the author (one day it would worth billion times more than its actual price :p).

Anyway, back to the review.

There are two kind of books that I can’t stop reading. First one is the book with lots of twists, which makes me wonder how it would end. The second one is the book, that I already predict the ending but I am very very curious how it would get there. This book is the second one. I knew it, AK! I knew it! But I am not gonna spoil it here.

Like I said, it’s so interesting to know how it get there. I should admit that I finish this book in only one day. Non stop. Fortunately I read it when I was having the winter break, so I didn’t screw my schedule because of reading this book.

Yes, the characterization of the main characters reminded me a little bit to Japanese Manga characters. At first, I thought it was because of the book cover, but I guess it’s not. It is a little bit manga-ish. I mean, the cool guy, the nice guy and the clumsy ordinary girl as the central character is a little bit typical.

I love the humor. God knows how I love smart humor and word plays. Should I say that the humor here is just too smart for a teenlit? I mean, making a joke about death is not easy, and my dear friend I am down on my knee and salute you for doing that. Good job.

Yes because the author is my friend and I have promised her to promote her book, so I recommended this book for everybody…

FOOL!

Of course not! My reputation as a reviewer is actually at stake when I write this review. I tried to be as objective as I can and yet I am still going to recommend this book. It is a teenlit, a bit or romantic, a bit of comedy…

Thinking about this person is insane enough, and writing about it in my blog… is like double insanity. What were you thinking, Byq? Should I revive this old topic of Byq What Were You Thinking? I thought it would only happen when I was young and stupid… not when I am old… and still stupid apparently.

So let’s blame this game Tribalwars.

I blame it for taking over my time. Taking over my academic life. Taking over my social life. Introducing me to many great people. Making some friends for me. And… Bringing this particular person into my life.

Which is absurd.

Now, sit down and listen to me, Byq! Listen to me very carefully, because I only tell you these once, and once only. If you did something stupid because you don’t listen to me, you’d be dead, Byq. I am going to tell you why this is absurd.

1. This is absurd because you don’t want a long distance relationship

2. This is absurd because HE IS FUCKIN SEVEN YEARS YOUNGER THAN YOU

3. This is absurd because YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW IF HE’S INTO A RELATIONSHIP

4. WHAT THE FUK with this non relationship priority in your life?

You’re screwing with your life, Byq. Now use your head and listen to me. This is not gonna work. You can go there and have fun, but this is not gonna work and it would end really bad. Now I am telling you this, and let’s see what you’re gonna post in 3 months from now.

Well, just because I don’t have anything to tell you about my life, doesn’t mean I don’t have anything at all, right? (I am so sorry for the double negation, I will try not use too many of it :D) So, I might just tell you my friend’s story.

Anyway, since she didn’t say that I need to keep this as a secret I will feel free to spread this story. LOL. Don’t worry, I will keep the names anonymous to avoid lawsuit.

Let’s say this guy likes my friend. Well, it was pretty obvious from the first time I met him. I don’t understand how his background shaped his personality, but he always tried to convince everybody that he never interested to my friend, and always said that they’re only friends. Well… Looks like he wanted to friendzone my friend. Of course my friend liked it!

Come on… a guy offered himself to be in the friendzone? What kind of sorcery was that?

It doesn’t last long though… The friendship became awkward, and the conversation led to serious talks. However just like the movie, my friend missed the first sign of bad news, so it became bad. Or, I should say… really bad.

The guy decided not to talk to her. Totally ignore her. Be very cold to her. Which for me is very funny and at the same time, childish. Why? Sulking because the girl that you like doesn’t want to go to the next step? Sulking because you don’t get what you want? Feeling angry, dejected, and decided to take the drastic decision to cut off the relationship is not a good way to get away from your friendzone, dude…

Just because Barney Stinson made a theory about friendzone, and there are some testimonies from some guys that it worked, it doesn’t mean that it works all the time. You know? Maybe there are more who tried and fail and never mentioned it because it sounds too desperate taking advice from a character from a sitcom.

From what I saw, many guys who cut off relationship after being friendzoned, gave the assurance the girls needed, that they’d better be friends forever.

One of my friend told me, “I am not afraid being friendzoned. In fact, look at me, if I never got into the friend zone there’s no chance a girl would know my true self, my true personality. She might not see it in the beginning, but for me friend zone is the way I get into her zone to begin with.”

I believe that many won’t agree with this. Most guys won’t, I think. I am not encouraging people to remain silent being in a friendzone of a love one. DO something! Take risk! We girls like those with confidence and pride, not those who sulk and run from the battle before it even begun. You guys always said that girls with confident are sexy, let me tell you: we also think the same about you.

I got my blog back but I just don’t know what to write here. It might be the fifth time since I updated my blog, I found myself staring at the blank page wondering what I should write. What I should tell you.

Yes. So many things happened, during the days when I wasn’t able to access my blog, and yes some of them might be fun to be posted here. But I just don’t know where to start. Those days are just gone!

Maybe that’s why I need my blog. I need something that can record my life in a timeline. A detailed one. Sometimes I just need to look back on my blog to remember what happened at that moment and that’s enough. That’s why I was so broken hearted when google deleted my blog. And so panic when the hacker took over this blog earlier. I just want to preserve some memories I thought might be worth preserving.

And lately, when I found out it is hard to write. It doesn’t mean I started to feel that my life become less and less interesting. It doesn’t mean that I think less as well. But I think because of the hacking it started to changed my feeling a little,

I started to think something like, how if the blog is gone? When you tried to preserve your life and someone just steal it from you? Or ruin whatever you think is priceless.

I should have posted it couple of weeks ago, but I hope it is still fine to post this now.

So, yes I went to London again.

However, it was a daytrip I planned to met AK who came to UK for her Christmas and New Year Holiday. I think it was not like what we had in mind, but it was nevertheless awesome. The problem was just because we didn’t have enough time and museum closed at 6 pm. So, yeah…

I went very early from Norwich (as usual) taking the earliest bus. Of course I slept on the way there and woke up with sore neck. I think I need to buy this neck pillow so at least I would be fine if I had to have a long journey. I can’t imagine going to Aberdeen for 13 hours on the train without proper sleep.

It is not so hard to find the hotel where AK stayed in London, because you can always ask the police officer. Seriously. No matter how scary they look, police officer won’t show you the wrong direction, unless they really don’t understand where you’re going. Or unless they arrest you.

So I met AK and her mother. And the first comment she made after we were alone was, “your hair….”

Seriously? AK? Seriously?

We planned to watch Wicked the musical in Victoria. Argh… the timing wasn’t really good, you know. Probably we’re really bad at planning. It’s good that none of us are working for the Tour and Travel agency because I think we suck at it. However, it reminds me that I still need to pay 10 pounds to her for the ticket! Please someone remind me to buy that goddamn amazon voucher so I don’t have to live with debt. I think all these unfortunate events are the result of unpaid debt -__-” (yeah… sure…)

How was Wicked?

LOL IT WAS WICKED!

I think AK also had the same in her mind that it was… well… I can’t find a better word than wonderful (I think she might have better vocabulary, she’s like a walking dictionary). I was thinking of making this going out watching musical as a regular activity, but when I think about it… the ticket price was so expensive, and I haven’t mention the bus ticket from Norwich to London. I think being able to watch it occasionally would make me very happy.

We also went to the Natural History Museum (or something like that) and yes it was crazy. It’s huge and there are so many stones. LOL. I love stones. I have this kind of kinky interest towards stones since I was very young, so it was like heaven for me to be there. I don’t think AK enjoyed it as much as I do though :p Sorry AK, but you chose this museum :p

Anyway, I think I managed to convince AK to study here. I mean, I know she hates studying and it was like an ultimate freedom for her to leave our beloved university. But I think it was my persuasion skill that made her think that she can stand one more thesis before she leave the academic world forever. Yes, by the beauty of the UK.

I am not sure though if I would still be here when she came lol, but yay, I like it when I can make someone do what I want them to do 😀

Although I put the “Keep Calm” poster, no I wasn’t calm at all. I was so freaked out when I knew SuperByq was hacked. Questions arose in my mind. Did I offend anyone from entries that I posted before? Did I install some nasty widgets or plugins in my blog which was a way for these hacker to get in? Or, was it because I just simply popular? (narcissism dies hard)

I tried to contact people close to me to help. Of course in that panic situation, links of FAQ and how-to tutorial that Momo sent me wasn’t quite helpful because I was too panic to read anything. The others who said they care didn’t try to offer any help (so now I know who really cares). The one who wanted to help know nothing about blog (but I seriously appreciate their good intention). And I remembered someone that might know about this stuff, I asked McXoem if he could help (because he has self hosted blog, just like me, I assume he’s aware of this kind of stuff).

This blogger ngalam was AWESOME. Of course I gave him my password because that’s the way he fixed my entire blog, he’s a blogger not a hacker remember? It only took one day, or a little bit more, for him to turn my defaced un-backed-up blog to normal. Well, not normal at first but renovation was one of my 2012 resolution anyway, so I hope you like this new Superbyq look. I tried a cleaner look this time, however narcissism struck when I did it.

I want to thank you for the readers that mailed, BBM-ed, tweeted and left comments about the whole situation. Especially, Soe, Divardha, Thi, AK, Momo, and Fajar. It meant so much for me.

I know that it took me so long to come back and it was a torture for me. At least from this incident I know how important this blog for me. It’s nice to be back 🙂