Piece(s) worked on - Lindsay; Colin. In the Lindsay painting, the eyes still weren't quite right. Another hour is all she needed, now I'm perfectly happy with this piece! I'm almost done with Colin. I'm happy with the face & clothing. Now I just have to tackle that beautiful beard with a small brush. Right on track!

Friday, September 28, 2012

Thursday & Friday - I SWEAR these weeks are moving slower at work and faster in the evenings. I can't seem to get enough sleep and haven't found myself in the mood to paint. Which, yesterday, resulted in only 1 hour of frustrating work. Today...things happened. Good things. Maybe it's an every other day thing? Perhaps this blog will be a scientific experiment of the gods' humor on my success/failure pattern. Shut up and show the progress? Ok...

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Tuesday - In week 4. Seeing progress is really encouraging. I feel like I'm coming down with a cold...so now that I've worked, studioed, and ironed all my blasted suits for work, I'm watching an episode of Breaking Bad and drinking wine. That'll help, right?

Piece(s) worked on - Colin. I got to a point about an hour into my time painting in which I thought his nose was PERFECT. And I made a mental note not to touch it again. And then I did. And spent almost an hour ruining it more. So that part needs to be fixed..... That being said, I think the eyes and mouth may be close to done. And this beard is going to be fun to paint. Who knew all the males in my life had such fantastic (fun-to-paint) facial hair?

Monday, September 24, 2012

Sunday & Monday - This weekend turned into less of a paint-a-thon than planned. Sunday evening, after a lovely walk in Uptown and seeing The Master (highly recommended), I reluctantly trekked to my studio to be productive. And sometimes...things just don't come naturally or work easily. Regardless, it's a skill, not a talent (I am utterly convinced of this), that I am willing to work on forever. So, somewhat frustrating productivity wise, but here we are, none-the-less.

Piece(s) worked on - Victor & Laura; Colin. Keeping on schedule with one painting a week, I finished Victor & Laura last night (Sunday). I'm still struggling with calling it done (as I do with many pieces) because I still feel there's something that needs to be done with the background. But, for all intensive purposes, it is a finished piece!

Victor & Laura - Done!

I started the sketch of Colin's portrait months ago. It will eventually live next to a portrait of the same size of his lovely wife, Ellen. Tonight, when I attacked this piece whole-heartedly for the first time, things DID just come together. I feel like I have a good handle on his face and expression already, which is pretty quick and rare. Maybe I'm getting better at this painting thing? :)

Sunday, September 23, 2012

This weekend turned out to be incredibly more social than planned. Not so great for painting production, but it was wonderful for everything else. I was able to support my lovely friends Emilie Hitch & Nikolas James Perez in their photography show, take part in a wonderful performance by Alt-J at the Triple Rock, AND make new friends. Additionally, I had the honor of photographing and talking with a good friend in her garden. Her portrait will be coming together next month hopefully! Quite the Friday/Saturday.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Wednesday & Thursday - uhoh. Long work days and car troubles = no studio time for 2 days. It's very weird to break routine like this, and I must say I'm feeling more anxious than I have in a while as a direct result. However, I'm back on track and ready to work extra hard starting tomorrow.

Soundtrack - nothing but the beautiful fall wind.

Personal note : I love sleeping with the windows open when it starts getting cold; nothing more soothing.

Piece(s) worked on - I finally did see the finished project of a collaboration between myself, my mentor, Alonso Sierralta, and fellow artist and ex-studio-mate, Ahmad Hassan. It's for the current exhibition at Concordia University highlighting the faculty and one or two of their alumni. The piece is titled Ipso Facto.

Front; sculpture by Alonso Sierralta; frame from late local painter Roy Ronyak

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Monday & Tuesday - busy days at work & in the studio. I'm in love with this weather and the cool breeze through the studio sure beats the sweat drips. Tonight brought a lovely unexpected visit from Lindsay, who gave her stamp of approval on her portrait.

Soundtrack - Amy Winehouse (Back to Black), Sharon Van Etten (Epic), The Lumineers (The Lumineers), The National (High Violet), Neko Case (Blacklisted). I first fell in love with High Violet in the fall of 2010; when I was living in an artist loft, didn't have a car and spent a lot of time painting in my apartment. There's an odd feeling that comes over me when I hear it; a memory of how things were and a false recollection of how I think things were at that time. It makes me want to put on a sweater and never listen to anything else again.

Piece(s) worked on - Laura & Victor. I've been working on this piece on and off for months. This couple and this specific sneak attack photo is what spurred the thoughts that created the series. Laura & Victor ... well, I could go on and on about their story and how wonderful they are. Simply, their lives are, and have to be, flexible. Their space truly is transient, and therefore, their "place" is found in each other. In an attempt to illustrate this (without illustrating) I've highlighted the important things in the composition. The uncomfortable, painful-looking positioning they are in is softened by the couch that is irrelevant. The importance is in the closeness; while they remain two separate figures.

The progress:

First Sketch

1st time I considered it finished

2nd time I thought it was finished

tried to fix things and ruined them/made more changes to background

FINALLY happy with the face.
Not done, but it's literally the 10th time I've painted his face and I think it's right this time!

Piece(s) worked on - Lindsay. DONE. On schedule. I've gone back and forth so much with the composition of this piece, but I think it's finally where I want it. That being said, I'll probably change it all in 6 months.... Also, I started putting together the frames I cut yesterday. It's a process to make new canvases, but I love the process. Of it all.

Friday - I woke up REALLY early this morning to meet a friend on her running route, which is her space. It was wonderful to see her mid-run at sunrise on Lake of the Isles and take some great action shots. After that lovely start to my day, I worked, went to Menards to stock up on 1"x2"s & 1/4 rounds, and headed to the studio. I was sleeping by 10.

Lindsay & I have seen My Brightest Diamond twice and lead singer Shara Worden once together. It's become our annual(ish) date, and while painting her beautiful self, this was the perfect soundtrack. Plus, have you listened to how amazing Shara's voice is? Cause you should.

Piece(s) worked on - Lindsay. I am very very close to done. Just fixing some issues I have with the background and clothes. Feeling gooood!

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Thursday - Seriously, is it Friday yet? Oh well, busy at work, busy in the studio. I spent a few minutes this morning outlining the pieces I'll be working on when and realizing I may have more than 20 when I'm done doing all the pieces I want. This is wonderful. It's great to know that there are more than 20 people willing to let me copy/use/manipulate their image.

Soundtrack - Michael Kiwanuka (Home Again), Passion Pit (Gossamer)

Piece(s) worked on - Lindsay. I love getting to the point in which I have to make a decision about the painting. I love even more when I make the right decision. I was liking the background, but it just wasn't right. I kept working, re-working, adding, subtracting, and it still wasn't right.

Before

And then I went for it. Yellow. The color of Lindsay's kitchen (where this photo was taken). And voila; much better. And she also has hair now, which absolutely helps :)

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Wednesday - It seriously isn't Friday yet? It was quite the busy day at work and I'm doing my best not to get overwhelmed between obligations. I'm still on track, and still going to the studio every day, which is the important thing. It's almost as if I'm in a serious relationship with art. If I don't spend the time, it won't put out. Or something like that...

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Piece(s) worked on - Lindsay. This was my first day working on Lindsay that wasn't a sketch or underlayer day. And I'm feeling really good about it. Only a slight struggle with getting proportions right and I feel like I have the expression pretty spot on at this early stage. Feeling good. And tired. But mostly just good.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Saturday - After a morning of errands & tasks (which did include the Minneapolis Farmers Market & Utrecht -- solid errands), I studioed. Now, time to shower and off to work for a random Saturday evening of serving cocktails.

Piece(s) worked on - Nik. I'm SO close to finishing. Just a little bit of a touch-up on the facial highlights, some more beadwork and finish rendering the left sleeve. I got as far as I could, as the paint was too wet in those areas to layer. I'm very pleased with how it's turned out in such little time! (The photo is a little odd as the wet paint is very reflective.)

Aaaand, as much as I love painting beards, I don't love painting arm hair just as much.

Friday, September 7, 2012

Friday - Work. This first work week of my 2+ hours/day in studio has been...exhausting. But oh oh oh so rewarding. Yesterday I took my one alloted evening off and went to see the MIA's Rembrandt show. It was ridiculously crowded and filled in with non-Rembrandt works, but it was also awesome. It's amazing how much we can learn from simply looking and examining. I'm sure much more could be learned through instruction by the master himself, but as he's dead...well, I'll take what I can get.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Wednesday - Work -> Studio -> Meditation -> Studio - My studio is thankfully across the street from a wonderful meditation center. And on a day like today (in a week like this week), it's quite amazing that I could paint for an hour, meditate and learn for 2, and then come back in a more aware state to tackle the task at hand.

Soundtrack - Father John Misty (Fear Fun) and Feist (Let It Die)

Piece(s) worked on - Just Nik today. I'm still struggling with getting the expression just right. However, there were moments of triumph today along side the usual throwingpaintbrushonground moments of frustration. This one is getting quite the thick buildup of paint, which can hopefully been seen by the texture :

At this rate, I'm hoping to finish this weekend (crazytalk, but let's go with it and have some positive thoughts) and boombang onto the next one. For now, I'm exhausted... Oh and Nik, you have a very lovely nose. I'm sorry for never telling you this before.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Tuesday - came to the studio straight after work. This is going to be the routine for a while: Work 8-6, work in studio from 6:30-9, lather, rinse, repeat.

Soundtrack - TuNe-YaRdS and Sharon Van Etten

Piece(s) worked on - I added a layer for Lindsay's background and sketched out the composition for Eric's piece. Mostly I worked on Nik; getting his expression just right. It's currently a bit too lamenting and not enough smoldering. I am quite happy with the simplistic accuracy of his right ear. And after another layer or two, those forehead wrinkles will be just right.

Nik

***Personal note - I'm glad I didn't fail on my first day of scheduled rigorous painting. More to come tomorrow....

Monday, September 3, 2012

Soundtrack - Radiohead (Amnesiac, The Bends, Hail to the Theif, In Rainbows, Kid A -- yes, alphabetical) - I was feeling a need for consistency today.

Piece(s) worked on - Nik & Lindsay; both wonderful, beautiful souls who let me photograph them months ago. I'm feeling great about both of them. With Lindsay's, I'm taking some abstract pattern chances with the background, which have so far been successful. With Nik's, I've struggled with proportions quite a bit (sometimes they just come on the first try, sometimes not) and since I don't believe in stencils, grids or projecting the image to save time, I really spent a lot of time. Now, the eyes are in the right spot (whew!) and I just have all the details to put in. I'm playing with depth of field with Nik's, as I did have use of his fancy camera for the reference photo and his face is actually out of focus.

Every good body of work requires cohesion - a common thread, theme, visual element, etc that ties the pieces together which makes them read as a collective creation. My thoughts have over the past year lain heavily with the concept of space. No, not outer-space, as that frankly just scares the bejesus out of me. As a being on this planet, I occupy space. All the time. This, thank you Science, is something we can't escape from. Now, this space we occupy, it can feel comfortable, inhabitable, scary, unwelcoming, tight, daunting and about a million other adjectives. Space affects us, and in turn, we affect it. In taking a "placemaking" workshop for public art opportunities in St. Paul, the idea of spacial ownership was discussed at length. No direct answer that would hold in the court of law was discovered, but the idea never left my mind. Who owns space? And if you do (legally), why? And how to stake claim to a spot that you haven't purchased?

Simultaneously, I've been desiring to incorporate my community into my artwork. My last major project (Basic Needs/Creature Comforts) featured myself as model, out of no desire to look at myself that much (because, believe me, it isn't easy or awesome), but out of necessity for the project. The series before that, I used and abused one dear friend for multiple portraits combining her face with others' bodies and personalities. Since I have so many talented, interesting and deep friends, I want to paint them - as themselves.

And herein lies the new body of work. I ask any willing soul with whom I have a close relationship to figure out what place is theirs. This can be the place they own or lease, a public space, or something more ambiguous. Additionally, to the willing couples, I have asked that they find the place in which they collectively feel ownership of (it's harder than it sounds, believe me). The idea of capturing the creature in their own natural habitat is very key, as I believe that people are the most genuine when comfortable. And where else would someone be more comfortable and at ease than in a place they feel they own? The hope for the result is 20 unique environmental portraits that communicate the spirit of the person or people depicted (and hopefully get me into graduate school!).

Well, that's the goal anyway. And the hope. And the focus of this blog for the next 4 months. "Woah, 4 months - that's a bit excessive" you say? No doubt I should have been focusing on it many months ago; maybe I would be feeling a bit more prepared and confident about my applications. Shoulda, woulda, coulda, etc etc, story of my life. So here we are, September 3rd. 3 paintings done, 17 to go. Applications in by December 31st. Yes, I'm aware this means 17 paintings in less than 4 months. With collecting my CV, perfecting my artist statement, and figuring our where I'm even applying...well, it's all a bit overwhelming.

I've done what any anxiety-ridden person would do and broke it down: 4 paintings a month; 1 painting a week. Seems ridiculous with the full time job, friends, family and using oil paints. But, no matter, I will try. This blog will keep me accountable and you all (whoever you are -- Mom? Just you?) can watch me unravel and hopefully succeed.

Check back frequently for updates, there will be updates, and I'll see you in person in 2013!