Any cost? Whatever it takes? Sounds desperate and that is something you shouldn't be when it comes to this. Anyone can rip you off.

I wouldn't listen to becky since her spelling is off and it seems like it was taken from this site. It seems to be copy and pasted and if so she should have put the rightful owner for the credits. Also, it does even say on her profile how long she has been studying or what she studies. These are important things to look for when asking someone for help or advice.

I could be wrong, but you shouldn't even be trying to cast a spell if you have no idea what you are doing.

Yes exactly what Dukali said. I can't express enough how terribly important it is to study the craft and practice the basics before attempting to do spells. And as for taking advice of someone that can't spell properly and copies spells (bad ones at that) well that is just bad practice.

I agree with both Dukali and Greenwitch what you should gain a firm grasp of the basics before attempting spellwork. Lest you risk overcomplicating matters.

May I advise a dalliance with hypnotism? It would help to enter your mind, view that which you've deemed most important to you, and allow you to determine why the specific memmory/aspect is so very critical to you.

By understanding the greater desire or bond to a concept, or memory, you can better recreate, even re-experience such things as you move forward in life.