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Saturday, December 24, 2016

Gratitude on the Day Before Christmas

It's
Christmas Eve. Day #24 of the POP CULTURE ADDICT'S ADVENT CALENDAR is here, and this time
around, I have decided to do something a little bit different.

I'm
going to write a bit of a holiday letter to all of my readers. The ones who have supported me the last five
and a half years.

Because
honestly, if it wasn't for you reading all of my crazy thoughts and how my mind
works, I'd probably have gone nuts a long time ago keeping everything bottled
up inside.

In
all seriousness though, thank you to all of you who have stuck by me over the
last five and a half years. It's truly
been a fantastic ride, and I am honoured to have you in my life.

And
to be completely honest, I want to thank all of you for helping me to renew my
holiday spirit. For whatever reasons
this year, Christmas 2016 was one that I was dreading. I honestly couldn't explain why this was the
case though. Normally around the
holidays, I get very excited that they are coming. This year, we even have snow on the ground, which we haven't had
the last couple of years. But yet it
still wasn't enough to get me excited about the holidays.

I
mean, for one, I'm quite literally the only one in my family that isn't coupled
up with someone else, and while that sometimes might not be a bad thing, it
does make it a little lonely. I know
people will deny it all they want to, but sometimes I can't help but feel like
a fifth wheel of sorts. Most times
whenever we have family get togethers, I just sit in a corner by myself because
I don't know how to initiate conversations or even know how to relate to
everyone.

Then
again, being the only one in my family that was born in the early 1980s might
have a lot to do with that as well.

I
suppose not having a family of my own sort of makes me not appreciate Christmas
as much as people who do have kids.
People equate Christmas to being a kids holiday that I think when we
become adults ourselves, it makes it harder for us to get in the spirit without
having kids around.

Honestly,
I'd love to have a litter of kids myself, but biology dictates that I need
someone to have them with, as I certainly don't have the anatomy to get
pregnant. Besides, I can't afford to
have kids at this time of my life anyway.
But still...part of me wonders if I'm missing out because I don't have
that.

So,
I guess my feelings for the holidays have been about feeling lonely, and not
knowing if what I do even matters.

So
imagine my surprise when I randomly check my stats for this blog, and look at
what I see.

I
don't know what it is about this month that has seen a spike in this blog, but
December 2016 is easily my most viewed month...and there's still seven days
left to go. Honestly, my blog has been
in a lull lately, and I haven't quite figured out what I was going to do...but
seeing so many of you reading my thoughts and sending me nice comments...it
gives me the hope that maybe in this crazy world, I am doing something for
someone else...and making my mark on this planet. I think we all have our doubts in whether what we're doing is
something that is meaningful or just a waste of time.

This tells me that I'm still on the right track, and that I still have a lot
left to give. I just want you guys and
gals to know how much I love all of you for supporting me and being there for
me - even if my mood ranges from surly to splendid at times.

I have one more day in the advent calendar
coming up, and then all week long, we'll take a look back at 2016 - whether we
want to or not!

As for life in 2017? The jury's out for
now.

Merry Christmas Eve, everyone, and thank you for bring back the holiday spirit
for me. I'll never forget it.