I am new to this message bioard and desperately looking for some IVF buddies for this cycle to share my experienced with.

This is my fourth cycle after three IVF and one FET transfer. All of them BFN - did not even make it to the PT. I have issues with my tubes from a misdiagnosed EP and cannot conceive naturally. DH aoppears to be fine.

After my third IVF, I did all of the test, uteran scan, etc. - nothing. After my failed FET, I also did all the expensive immunology test - nothing but a little risk for blood clodding and a need to add Heparin to the meds.

I am about to undergo my last IVF cycle. Lucky Number 5. First day was August 14, 2009. Our doctor suggested to leave FET and go back to the full IVF for best results. Ou embryos have always been A or B quality, never any issues. Inplantation just never occurred.

As you can see from my signature i am on my 6th attempt!! 1st 3 fresh attempts failed with a failed fet inbetween, then had all the genetic tests done - clear, decided to do one more fresh cycle before moving onto donor so on our 5th try we finally got our bfp! Unfortunately we lost heart beat at 8wks then d&c at 9 wks but we have finally been given some hope that this can work! I am in middle of a FET fingers crossed transfer end of wk. Just wanted you that some of us take more attempts than others i plan to keep going for as long as it takes, yes it can be tough but i try to let those bfns wash over me and move foward. I really hope you get your little baby this time, my only advice is have no regrets about finishing your ivf dont think what if i done one more or should i have done donor, explore every option and be happy with your decision - i know financially it is tough but where there is a will theres a way. Fingers crossed for you this time xxxx

Thanks for sharing. I am always amazed at there being other women with similar experiences. I hope you have some good news this cycle, too.

The BFNs do not bother me as much as that I have had one of my "normal" friends get pregnant around my failed cycle every time. So hearing it did not work for me and then finding out someone else, who often did not even want to be pregnant, just accidentally got pregnant, has been a nightmare. This has happened to me within 2 weeks of my BFN for 3 out of the 4 cycles. I jokingly say to myself, let's see who else I can get to have a baby with my next IVF treatment ...

But I am looking on the bright side this time around. All I can do is keep on trying as hard as possible.

I hear you on the friends getting pregnant when we get our bfns and it so hard not to be jealous but we are allowed as we have been thro. so much. Somebody asked me recently how can i go thro. 6 attempts as its a lot well i dont see it that way, ivf is our only chance of getting pregnant so to me 6 realistic chances doesnt seem much, i live a very relaxed life, have a wonderful partner and family, 2 lovely doggies and thankfully otherwise a healthy and happy life so a few wks of tiredness and meds every few months doesnt really bother me. I had my scan today and lining looks perfect so start progesterone suppos. tomorrow and fingers crossed transfer is on thurs - i am sooo excited but also sooo scared!!!! How are you getting on??? Keep up the pma and focus on the end result we will get there its just a matter of when, today i met with the nurse with who told me that i was going to lose the baby last cycle and she was more upset for me today that i have to go thro it again but i told her that i was delighted i got pregnant and wouldnt change it for the world, she said she was amazed at my attitude but the way i see it is i could curl up in a corner and bawl me eyes out or give meself a kick up the a$$ and get on with it life is tough its just how we deal with it thats important. Fingers crossed we will get our little miracles shortly and it will be worth every tear shed xxxxx

Wow, you really seem to have a very positive outlook. Much more than I do, I have to admit.

I hope for a BFP every time, as we should. I am a firm believer that positive attitude goes a long way. But the BFNs shatter me every time. It takes me about a week to recoup and then get my hopes up again for sometime in the future.

I hope all of your embryos grow well and you have a lot to choose from for the transfer on Thursday. Fingers and legs crossed.

I think being relaxed will go a long way. I have a two week vacation scheduled right around my anticipated transfer date, something I have never done in the past. I do have a very stressful job but then to me that appears as normal by now and I love doing what I do.

We also have two dogs, Siberian Huskies. They are the bright light for me as they come over, wag their tails and love me unconditionally. The boy is so sweet. He also knows when I am upset and is a natural clown. He makes me laugh and licks away my tears (not very hygenic I know but sometimes he is quicker than me).

Thanks for asking for my 2 little embies well good news both survived the thaw and i am PUPO!!!! I am soo excited i was such a nervous wreak this morning travelling up to the hosp. wondering if they were ok but all my prayers were answered and we made it past one hurdle now on to the next! It will be a long 2ww but thank god i made it.
My little doggies west hyland terrior and a calvier king charles(not the sharpest tool in the box ) are our little babies and have licked away many tears in the past!!! They give you their undivided attention and loyalty - today after ET i went to bed for a few hours with my little westie - besides bed time he has to be in the same room as me.

How are you doing??? Are you on the sniffer or just tablets? I hope all is well and will keep in contact with your tx.

I'm new to this blog. Lucky one your message was the first one I read. I am 40 years old and have been TTC for 3 years. My 1st two attempts were FET and both were BFN . Last Nov I had my first IUI with fresh donor sperm and was sure it would work. But after 2ww got another BFN. I felt so discouraged. I just had my 1st IVF, with my own retrieved eggs and donor sperm. After 2ww on 8/10/09 I got a BFP!!!! I was shocked. At 17dpo my hcg was 90 (pretty good) and at 19dpo jumped to 218 . Yesterday was my 1st sono and I have a very nice yolk sac, looks good and next week we expect a heartbeat. My hcg is now 6,421!!!

I think you should trust your doctor on this one and go with the fresh embryo transfer. Don't lose the faith, its so easy to get discouraged and doubtful. But trust that it will happen for you. The main thing I did differently before this last course was I changed my diet, lost about 25 lbs. and I also had my thyroid checked turns out I had underactive thyroid and was put on meds for it. The medications made it easier for me to lose the excess weight, which I believe may get in the way of an embryo trying to implant.

I can't tell you how happy my lesbian partner and I are to be where we are today. Not quite out of the woods yet, but every day is a blessing and I am thankful.

Please,please dont give up and if you haven't already see an endocrinologist and a fertility specialist. Get someone who is aggressive
find a doctor who wants this for you as much as you do. My doctor and his staff actually cried when I got my positive results. If thats what you need to find then get proactive and go find them today!!!!!

I am glad the "icebears", as we call them lovingly in Germany, have made it and you had two to be implanted. Keep me posted how it goes. The two weeks in between have always been the hardest for me.

I am taking the stimulation meds still. Here we prescribe Gonal F and Cetrutide. Because of an increased blood clodding risk, I also have to take Heparin. Hence, three injections every morning. I am a little groggy when I inject them and the Heparin really makes me dizzy and feel horrible. But I guess I can make it for a few more days.

On Monday, I have my next ultrasound and hope that they are able to let me know when the retrieval will take place. I assume it will be Tuesday or Wednesday as that would be day 12 and 13. I hope this can get done sooner rather than later.

I have also taken vacation starting Friday, just in case, and will try to destress coming the transfer. Although work made the two weeks waiting period a little more bearable last time around. I am a busy beaver usually.

Do you have to go back in before the pregnancy test or does your doctor generally tell you to just wait?

"icebears" thats so cute!!! Glad you are now on vacation and preparing those little eggs to grow big and strong, those dizzy spells will be worth it when you get your bfp. EC will be here before you know it. So here i am on day 3 startting to feel crampy already, logically i know its the progesterone but the doubts are starting to creep in i know i am been silly but i dont want to set myself up for another fall i keep thinking can i really expect to create a miracle twice in a row???? I think i better go look for my PMA it seems to have disappeared!!!!!!

I know what you mean. I always try to get more realistic as time flies by and would never admit to anyone, including my DH, that I am just trying to protect my own feelings.

Had my US yesterday. All is well, seems like I have 12 eggs at least. Today I had to to the trigger injection and retrieval is scheduled for Thursday. I guess this means that the transfer will be on Monday or so. Hope all goes well, not looking forward to the pain.

Do you have a date for your pregnancy test yet? Are you due to go in for another US beforehand?

Hey Luckyone
Good luck with trigger tonight. Our doctor gives us ours not sure why they dont let us give it ourselves. Cant wait to hear how many little eggs you have got growing in there!!!

AFM day 5 still bit crampy and slightly tender bb's, bless poor j he kisses my belly every day and in me head i am really praying that he is kissing something. I am supposed to test on 6th sept - 16dp3dt but think will start on sat 9dp3dt - have a stock of tests itching to be used!!!!

I am a little nervous about the retrieval tomorrow but hoping for the best. I am actually looking forward to having this part done with.

Did you test in your prior attempts and has it ever worked? I usually did, although I tried not to, and always had a negative already several days before my period was due. As we are on vacation with our pups this time during the last week of the waiting game, I am wondering if I can stand NOT testing for once.