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Better Than The Day Before

The only thing that matters now is my mission. Nothing will stand in the way anymore.

I spent two hours typing in the other blog yesterday and the day before, it is amazing what comes out of you when you just say what you feel no matter what, the only person that can judge you is yourself and I have come too far to judge myself that harshly. I have made many mistakes over the years, some of them had bigger consequences depending on the incident. What I came away with after I had written as much as I could write, was that although I have made mistakes, I have grown... lately I have grown in leaps and bounds.

No matter how difficult things are going in my life and currently they are not great... I see that I have a determination and commitment that I have never really had before. I love that I am still so focused... I have a goal to get to for my weight and a goal to become the best me... Frankly the old me would have thrown the towel in and just gone to town with the food, not caring, just numbing myself. I don't want to do that anymore, I always want to be cognizant of what I am eating...

When I say things are not great lately, I mean they are just so up in the air... I feel like I am just tying to get my feet under me but another thing comes along to add to the pile. I have some great things happening, I am still losing weight and this week I didn't even put the effort in other than the food part which I followed. I still managed to lose 1.6 pounds with minimal exercise... I can just imagine what I would have lost if I had put in the effort... Next week I am going exercise since I miss it so much, it is such a great way to get rid of tension... it is a good place to work things out.

I think writing the last few nights have helped me to see a couple of my issues in another light, frankly I have been overwhelmed by a few things which affects other areas of my life. After writing last night I knew that when I exercised even when I felt this way, I would always feel better for putting forth the effort. This last week I have had one thing come up after another so I wasn't able to make it out to the gym, those were only excuses though. I didn't put the effort in, I should have bypassed some of those and just did it... I have that fire back inside. I am looking forward into getting in some form of exercise tomorrow.

I planned to walk at lunch today but it poured rain, so I will attempt this all again tomorrow. I am not giving up on myself, I am not sliding backwards. Life may have just thrown me a dozen loops or more but I am not giving into the stress and allowing myself to ever go back. I want better, I want more... I deserve more. My body misses exercise, I miss pushing myself beyond my limits... I remember wondering how people could walk a mile in under 15 minutes... now I do it all the time. Especially when I am pushing myself, it feels good to get out and get rid of some stress along the way.

I was thinking, I need a friendly little contest or competition, since I am highly competitive it would get me out exercising again. I will have to come up with some idea in the next day or so, it would be fun to complete again. I could be at my goal weight for January, the latest February... I am getting excited, I can hardly wait to see how I look when I get there and see how I feel. Already I feel amazing losing 61 and half pounds and all in five months... I can just imagine how much better I will be feeling once the other 20-25 pounds is gone.

Time for me to exhale again... I have been holding my breath waiting for the next awful thing to happen... tonight I am going to look for the next good thing and I am going to make good things happen. I am not going to be defined by my past, I have moved away from that, I have made changes and I have learned a lot of hard lessons. I have lost a great deal, more than I thought I could handle... I am still here though, still wanting to be better than the day before, isn't that all we can do...

Hopefully you can find another marathon like thing you can get ready for and maybe strive to beat your time. Do they come up often? We had rain today also - more than expected so I didn't get out either. Here's to tomorrow! ;-)

Thank you Kenya, I am thinking of preparing myself for a 10K, I have never walked that long before, so it would take some training and commitment which I am good at both... so I think I will do this too :)

Lovely sweet Launna, I wish we were neighbors so we'd take our daily walks together and then I'd give you a very long and warm hug...with kisses on both your cheeks...You are very dear to me and I am sure you'll conquer it all...all your problems and fears and doubts...I believe in you.

I think you are doing great, Launna! I lost the first 30 pounds and have been stalled there ever since. I'd like to lose another 20, but I can't seem to get myself motivated. I should just follow your example and do it--make time for it because it is important. You really are an inspiration to others. :) I hope you have a good weekend!

so glad you have gotten rid of that lame David on your blog! he was never there for you especially a couple of weeks ago when you broke down. even if one is healing he could at least have send a little message.it was really painful to see how you waste all your love and gorgeousness on someone who does not care enough to deserve you! but i know how hard it is, loving someone who does not love you back is like an addiction, it makes no sense is bad for you and you cannot stop and still make yourself believe the addicitive substance has some quality...you are strong and beautiful!! and inspiring!

Hi Catherine, do I know you? I don't think David is lame... I think things happen and change... it doesn't make the person bad... he's actually a very good man... just living his life like the rest of us. Thank you for saying all the lovely things you said about me..

It is so encouraging to read you, Launna. Yes, keep moving forward. I think I'm going to create a new blog for myself and then just let the words flow, just like how you do it in your secret blog. Thank you so much for the inspiration once again! Much love to you and God bless! ♡ :-)

The good news is good habits are as easy to adopt as bad ones. Okay, so not maybe as easy, but when we continue to do good things, as you've been doing, those things become the new habits that replace the old unhealthy ones. You go, girl! With your attitude, you can do anything you set your mind to do.

Whatever you do just don't give up mate. Yes, every now and again you will hit a brick wall or bump into hurdles too high too jump over the first time. But you will get through if you keep trying. Nothing in life is easy, and sometimes you have to fight to get what you want. Giving up after coming so far is not an option. Keep it up, keep going.

I love and appreciate all genuine comments, to save a little time, I won't be commenting on the comments on my blog (unless you don't have a blog), I will just visit your blog and comment there, if you have left a meaningful comment for me... I would much rather spend the time reading and commenting on a few extra blogs ❤

I have taken back my life at 50, I am on a journey to become healthy inside and out. I have lost 75+ pounds in 8 months by making myself a priority. My passions are walking, writing, reading and collecting inspiring quotes...