Dear Ami

This is my second Sailor Moon story, and is another part of the Crystal
Kingdom Archives. It helps if you've read Demon Hunter's Journal first, but
(hopefully) it's not necessary. It takes place 917 years after Forsaken
Heart.

My Beloved Ami,

Setsuna asked me to write this letter to you, and place it in the archives
with a time lock on it that will keep David from knowing the file exists
until the day it unlocks. That you're reading this now means it's unlocked,
and you should listen to the attached file. It's a journal of the time
between our meeting and the birth of our daughter. Well, it's a journal as
best as I can remember it, given how long it's been. It's not been nearly as
long as I'd like, but we always knew I'd die someday. Tomorrow is that
day.

As I sit here in the lab, dictating this and thinking of you in our
bedroom, I find myself missing you already. You've made me a new man, Angel.
If you'd rejected me that day, I probably wouldn't have lived past the next
battle - even with the debt I owed Haruka. But your love gave me a reason to
live that transcended any danger. I believe in myself, because I believe in
you. Never forget the promise I made when we wed - that no matter what
happened, I would always be waiting for you, and that I would find my way
back to you, whether in this life or the next.

Setsuna tells me that by the time you read this, the Palace will be the
only part of Earth still alive, and Serenity has had to save the rest of the
world by putting it into suspended animation until you find a way to cleanse
the Earth of the effects of the second war with the ones we're fighting now.
She also tells me that Michiru, Haruka, and Hotaru have been gone so
Chibi-Usa could grow up without knowing them, so you, Rei, Minako, and Makoto
have been forced to use all your power to defend Serenity after the attack
from Nemesis.

If I got the time lock right, you should have plenty of time to listen to
the journal before our daughter comes to find you. Trust her, as we always
have. For both our sakes.

Setsuna tells me you're looking for me, so I'll wrap this up now and go to
you for the last time in this life. Tomorrow, we'll be facing another attack
from Diamond's army, and I'll be killed when one of their officers catches me
by surprise while I'm killing one of their droids. You know it's one of the
two ways I'd rather die, and this way is less painful to you.

Always remember, Ami, that I love you with all my heart. I love you more
than life itself, and I'll find my way back to you, no matter what it
takes.

All my love,

Bill

Sailor Mercury sobbed as she read the letter from her long-lost husband.
First she'd lost Zoisite in the Moon Kingdom, then she'd lost Urawa, and
finally she'd lost the man who'd restored her heart and given her something
to fight for, not merely fight against. When she'd come upon his headless
body after the last battle before Serenity had banished their enemies to
Nemesis, she'd wanted nothing more than to join him in death. Only her
daughter, reminding her of their duty to their Queen, and of his promise when
they'd wed, had given her strength to go on - but she'd shut her heart away
from the world again, the same way it had been before he'd loved her. This
letter reached into her heart and tore open every scar that had held her
together since his death.

**It's not right! Not only wasn't I able to be there for your childhood,
but now you have to comfort me over his death - again!**

**I love you, Mother. How can I do any less?**

**I don't want to keep fighting...I just want to be with him. Why couldn't
I save him? Why couldn't you save him? Why?**

**It was his time, Mother. You know I can't alter the flow of time...even
for my own father.**

Setsuna joined Ami in her tears, and the two women shared their sorrow
over the man they both loved more than life. Setsuna had been the only one to
see past Ami's mask of pretended cheer. She'd seen that she was acting as the
Ami they'd known before she'd known Bill, in order to keep them from knowing
how deep the void in her heart was. Setsuna had been with her constantly, for
years after his death, loving her without conditions or demands. She'd simply
been there, the daughter she had lost as an infant; the daughter who had
given her the man she loved - and who had stood by and allowed him to be
killed.

"Do you remember the day we met him, Mother?"

"The day the tentacle demon killed him...remember how shocked we all were
when he knew Haruka's name?" Ami lifted her head and wiped her eyes,
gratefully taking the handkerchief Setsuna carried the way Bill always
had.

"Well, we didn't know you'd deliberately arranged events to bring us
together." Ami smiled weakly and waggled a finger in her daughter's face.
"You were just as sneaky and underhanded then as you are now, you know
that?"

"You forgot manipulative, Mother. Father always said I was manipulative,
too. And he was right." Setsuna returned the smile at the shared joke.

"Shhh...close your eyes, Mother, and let David play the other file for
you. It will help prepare you for what is going to happen." Setsuna looked up
and nodded. From the nearest intercom panel, a man's gentle, loving voice
spoke.

"No shit, there I was, about to go up the Tokyo Tower...."

"So much of that...," Ami whispered, her voice breaking as she leaned
against Setsuna and cried softly.

"Things you suspected, but didn't really know," Setsuna murmured gently,
reaching for a brush and gently applying it to her mother's hair. "No matter
how much we know someone, there are always new things to learn. What is the
most important thing you've learned from what Father said?"

"That I miss him even more...that he loved me more than I ever
imagined...that I love him more than...I...," Ami gasped in horror and sat
upright, deep wracking sobs tearing through her body as she whispered,
"No...no...no...."

"You love him even more than you love our Queen, don't you, Mother?"
Setsuna drew Ami back into her arms as the Princess of Mercury nodded
brokenly. "Then listen to her words. David, play file Serenity A-1."

Queen Serenity's voice came from the intercom, as gentle and loving as it
had ever been in the past 900 years.

"My Lady Mercury, it is my wish that you trust your heart - in all things.
If you did not love your husband more than anything else in your life,
including me, you would not be the woman I love and believe in. It is my will
that you pursue the clues you are about to receive until you have solved the
puzzle our Lady Pluto has presented."

"In other words, Ami," Usagi's voice said with a cheerful laugh, "go get
him! Oh, and don't come back until you're ready. And that's an order!"

"Go get him? What does she mean?" Ami looked up at her daughter and bit
her lip as she tried to concentrate, only to break down into sobs. "The only
one I want to get has been dead for 900 years!"

"Do you know why Sailor Moon, Sailor Saturn, and Fluorite, even working
together, could not bring him back to you, Mother?"

"No...." Ami could still remember her despair as first Hotaru, then
Serenity, and finally Fluorite had all tried to revive her beloved, but all
they could do was restore his body to the condition it had been in when they
had married.

"It was because he was no longer there to be brought back to you. It was
his last, and greatest, discovery - one that he could only put into effect at
the moment of his death."

"And it took him away from me! I hate science!" Ami
sobbed and curled up in Setsuna's arms, blindly wishing she were dead.

"No, Mother, you don't. You're just hurting too much to realize it. Will
you trust me?" Setsuna gently caressed Ami's hair and waited while she sobbed
herself out.

"I always trust you...no matter what," Ami whispered sadly.

"Then get Edgar and come with me." Setsuna stood, helping Ami to her
feet.

**Hermes? Where's Edgar?**

**In Bill's tuxedo pocket, where he's been for the last 917 years.**

**Why didn't he say anything?**

**Because I have been meditating. My meditations are now complete, and I
am ready to go with you.**

Ami stumbled toward the closet, shuffled through the clothes until she
came across the tuxedo her beloved had worn on their wedding day, and dug
through its pockets until she had found her quarry. Edgar, like Hermes, was a
wristwatch, but where Hermes had a blue case and a face made of a slice of
sapphire, Edgar had a black case and a face made of a slice of garnet. Ami
slipped Edgar over her wrist and pushed him up her arm until he was tight
enough to not fall off.

Setsuna was waiting with a damp washcloth, and gently wiped her face
clean.

"I suggest you put on your royal garb, Mother. It will help."

Ami looked down at her fuku, which she hadn't been out of except for
necessities in over 900 years, and caught her breath as she tried to bring
back the memory of how to access her gown. With a sob, she managed it, and
stood in a sapphire blue evening gown, with matching blue choker and her
sigil blazing on her forehead. When she opened her eyes to look for her
daughter, she saw Setsuna had also changed out of her fuku; her gown was a
deep, dark, almost black, shade of red that matched the garnet that made up
the face of Persephone, her watch.

The two princesses, holding hands like best friends, made their way
through the palace, with Lady Pluto leading the way. At the door to Pluto's
chambers, she turned to gaze on her mother and sighed, giving her a hug
before murmuring softly to her.

"You should go in first, Mother. I will be right behind you."

Ami looked into her daughter's eyes for some kind of clue as to her
behavior, but found no more than she ever did. Biting her lip, she hugged
Setsuna and pushed the door open. Once Ami was through, Setsuna closed the
door and pressed her forehead against it, allowing a tear to trickle through
her iron self-control.

"Mother, Father, I love you," she whispered softly.

Ami looked around the room, wondering why Setsuna had closed her in
without following her. Maybe there was a clue here somewhere...the room
showed the same self-discipline Setsuna followed in everything she did. The
bed was made, something Ami realized she hadn't done in so long, she wasn't
sure she remembered how; the dressing table was neatly arranged, with each
item in perfect alignment with the items beside it. There wasn't so much as a
dust bunny on the floor, and the only artwork in the room was a painting of
Ami, Bill, and Setsuna that he had commissioned as a birthday gift for their
daughter. Seeing the image of her heart's light, Ami fell to her knees and
sobbed, wishing with all her heart that she could die and not feel this
emptiness and pain any more.

**I'd be very sad if you did that, Angel.**

Ami whimpered in despair, knowing that she'd lost herself so thoroughly
that she was imagining his voice now.

"You know, I didn't think I was that ugly," Bill's voice
said from inches behind her left ear. "Of course, no beauty on Earth compares
with...OOF!"

Bill looked up at her from the floor, absently rubbing the back of his
head.

"Ouch. Leave a body for 900 years and it gets all stiff on you. Remind me
not to do that again any time soon."

"But...but...you're DEAD!" Ami wailed, unable to
comprehend how he could be on the floor beneath her - and afraid she was
hallucinating the entire encounter.

"I go' be'er," he said, smiling teasingly. He reached up and drew her down
against his chest, crooning softly as he stroked her hair. She didn't know if
he was real, but if he wasn't, she never wanted to wake up from this dream.
"Angel...I'm sorry I was gone for so long...but I had to come this far
forward in order to be here for you."

"I wanted to die...I didn't want to live...I just wanted to be with
you...no matter what it took," Ami sobbed and clung to her husband. "Setsuna
wouldn't let me die...she said I had to stay...I had to live...for
Serenity."

"And if you hadn't, who would have protected her when Nemesis came,
beloved? Setsuna told me that Haruka, Michiru, and Hotaru would be gone for
as long as it took Chibi-Usa to grow up...and that when I did this, I should
time my return for after her return from the past."

"Why didn't you tell me? Why did I have to believe you were dead for so
long? Why did my heart have to die? WHY?" Ami wailed,
pounding on his chest in her anguish. How could he leave her like that? How
could he not know he was breaking her heart?

"I wanted to tell you, Angel, but Setsuna showed me what would happen to
you if I did. I couldn't let you die in my place. If you had, you wouldn't
have been able to return the way I could. All I could do was trust her when
she told me that she would always be here for you, and that she would bring
you to me when I returned." Bill sat up and drew Ami into his lap, cradling
her the way she'd cradled Hotaru so many times after Chibi-Usa had returned
to the future, letting her sob out her anguish and loneliness.

**Don't forget to return me to him, Ami.**

**I...oh!**

Ami blinked and sat up, pushing herself away from her husband just long
enough to slip Edgar off her arm and drop him in his hand.

"Is it really you?" she whispered softly. "How do I know I'm not
hallucinating this all?"

"I can think of a couple ways to tell," he said gently, touching her lips
with a fingertip. "You can ask Edgar, you can ask our daughter, or you can
find out just how much I desire you after all this time apart."

"You!" Ami laughed as she swatted his chest. It had to be
him - only he could make her feel this way. "Is that the only thing you can
think of?"

"Well, I could do with a nice big plate of unagi, but I'd settle for a cup
of hojicha. Or the taste of your lips." He smiled and kissed her gently; his
lips tasted just as she remembered, the feel of his arms around her was the
same, as was his heart beating beneath her hand as she snuggled closer.

"My Queen," Bill bowed his head as he kneeled beside Ami. His presence,
his voice, everything about him made her heart flutter, just like it had 900
years ago when they'd discovered their love for each other.

"We've missed you," Serenity said lovingly, "although some have missed you
far more than we have. Today seems to be a day for reunions. You have
returned to us, my daughter has returned from the past, and...."

Ami looked up as Serenity trailed off, then looked around in confusion -
until she saw a flash of purple at the rear of the throne room as Sailor
Saturn fled into the distance.

"Small Lady, step forward," Serenity called. Chibi-Usa blinked in
surprise, stepped forward to stand beside Ami, and curtseyed to her mother.
"Welcome home, daughter. Now, if you would be so kind as to follow David's
directions, I wish you to enter the part of the palace that has, until today,
been denied you."

"Perhaps you should ask her when you find her." Serenity smiled gently,
then dropped her demeanor and let her old self peek through. "So what are you
waiting for, Spore? Go get her!"

Chibi-Usa squealed happily and dashed up to the throne to hug her mother,
then fled the throne room on her mission of discovery. Bill watched her leave
with happy tears in his eyes, and Ami was more certain than ever that this
truly was her husband, not just her imagination.

"If they can bring each other the happiness they had, today will truly be
a day of miracles," Serenity murmured, then stepped down and took Ami's hand,
placed it in Bill's, and looked into their eyes with all the love in her
heart. "It is my will that the two of you retire and take as much time as
necessary to renew your love. Setsuna will be the only one with access to you
until such time as you choose to rejoin us." She looked into Ami's eyes; the
anguish in her gaze broke Ami's self-control, and she sobbed sorrowfully.

"I'm sorry, Usagi. I missed him so much...I just couldn't be the same
person without him."

Serenity dropped to her knees and embraced Ami lovingly. The feel of her
Queen's arms around her brought more tears, and she sobbed out all the guilt
and emptiness and self-loathing she'd built up over the last 900 years.
Serenity simply held her, making no attempt to speak or interrupt, until Ami
finally opened her eyes.

"I'm sorry...I've got your gown all wet."

"You haven't been so kind to your own, you know. I love you, Ami. It
doesn't matter which face you show the world, I know who you are inside, and
I love you. If I could have eased your pain, I would have, but some things
are beyond my power to do." Serenity reached to Bill and drew him into Ami's
arms, murmuring softly, "Go now, and renew your love for each other.
Please?"

The look of hope in Serenity's eyes brought a fresh flow of tears to
Ami's, and when the Queen stepped back, Bill had to help her to her feet. His
gaze was so full of love, she gave herself up to it and willingly let him
lift her.

Disclaimer: Sailor Moon, Sailor Senshi, and all terms, names,
etc.associated with the series are copyrighted by Naoko Takeuchi and
Kodansha. I make no claim to them and this work of fanfiction should not be
seen as making a claim.