It is sad when on choses to leave it hurts so greatly the ones left behind I am sorry you lost a friend a connection here I know how devastating that can be. Do not blame you okay it is the dam illness that takes people away You were kind while pandemonium was here You cared that is all one can do;His illness won out that all i hope you truly understand that you could not have done anymore that what you had done. take care of you now okay I am sorry for you and the loss of your friend.

thank you all so much for your thoughts.. I always loved coming here and getting support and helping others.. talking with my freinds..
Ever since Alex left its been really hard to come back here.. I always re read our messages and its just hard..it was 5 years this March..Thank you again for all your thoughts.. love you guys..