self support

I recently started reading a book written about Jack Ma and the creation of Alibaba which is one of the worlds largest online marketplaces. In reading about Jack and his enterprise I came across a couple examples of Ma’s definition of Success that I found to be very grounded, practical, and livable by anyone where he really took that point of success and boiled it down into something tangible, and accessible to everyone.

What I find interesting is that I have been deliberately working with the process of Re-defining and Living Words, and here this man actually did exactly this by coming up with his personal definition of Success that he could live and apply in his world in a way that supported him.

In the book, Ma defined it as follows,

“Success lies not in how much you have accomplished, but in the fact that you have done something, experienced the process, and begun to learn something”

What I like about this definition is it emphasizes not an outcome of good or bad, success or failure, but of THE ACT, the point of taking action and actually doing something – That is the success, the fact that you got off your but and applied yourself.

For me, I have been slowly starting to develop a new body of artwork and so I really relate to this definition of success because for me the most difficult part often is just getting up and DOING SOMETHING, or motivating myself to sit down in front of my canvas and start painting. Where that very action IS the success, not the outcome, but the ACT.

So here I see for myself that to be more successful requires me to take more action. On paper it looks easy, though I do understand that applying and living this definition of success may bring up other dimensions for me to consider and work out.

Okay that’s the point I wanted to Share!

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So today is one of the more difficult days in my week because it’s ‘the weekend’. In recent blogs I have been writing about the point of motivation and some of the principles I have utilized over the years to support myself within my application with my Job and the process of developing an art business. Now one aspect of this whole process has been realizing that my ‘success’ within my work should not be at the expense of my success in other things.

So for example I have found often that I can become quite effective at my application at work, but then when I am at home, its like “I don’t know what to do with myself” and actually one of my struggles is getting through my days off without completely sinking into laziness, depression, idleness, where at times I end up in this experience of putting ALL my effort into my work week and then when I get to the weekend, I collapse. And am pretty much useless.

So a process I am still working on for myself is to develop more of a consistency within my LIFE EXPRESSION where there isn’t a polarity or division between who I am at work and who I am at home or who I am during the work week versus on the weekends.

I find I have the tendency to be single minded and because of this I do not expand myself into other expressions and so there is no balance to my life in terms of where I am allocating my efforts. Rather it’s like Work and Art is KING and then there is everything else. And often I want to rush through doing other things like cooking for myself or doing some other activity or spending time socializing because I have compartmentalized my life into “me at work” and “me resting” and then maybe a few other points but then this becomes a kind of polarity where on the weekends I only rest and do nothing else, and then during the week I work and I do nothing else and then they become likes extremes. Or at least this is an assessment of my situation in looking at what could be contributing to my Weekend Crashes or even my lack of enthusiasm towards doing anything other than what I have defined my life to be as Work and Rest.

So this is a point I am still finding a balance with and still in the process of creating for myself where I am more consistent within my experience of myself instead of jumping back and forth between the “work experience” and “rest experience”

I can see here that I could actually benefit from Redefining the word REST or RELAX because my current definition of this is simply me laying around doing nothing. So here I see I can include activities and expressions that are more supportive both physically and mentally because actually ‘laying around’ is not supportive when its all your doing and then you end up, as I do, sinking into boredom or depression or idleness, So yes, Here seeing a New approach to ‘Resting’ and ‘Relaxing’ where this just doesn’t have to be meaning that I must do as little as possible. Okay cool, so pulled through some Direction with this point. I will continue with this either here in blogs to come or in my own personal writings which I utilize also in opening up and understanding points.

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So recently I have been looking at and investigating into the word ‘STIMULATION’. I noticed that how I was Living out this word Stimulation was not supporting me and not aligned within myself and my living in a way that was reflecting my utmost potential. What I noticed is that I in fact had accepted and allowed this word ‘Stimulation’ to be aligned more with Consumer Culture instead of a Culture that Cultivates ones Utmost Potential because obviously Consumer Culture does not in fact do this but is oriented towards quick fixes and Surface images where you more end up fixated on some external point to generate a sense of happiness, enjoyment or stimulation within you.

I noticed for myself that I have essentially lost that ability for myself to Stimulate Myself, to MOVE Myself in my reality in a Creative way when I am faced with a moment where “I don’t know what to do” for instance.

So I have been recently practicing re-defining and re-creating myself as this word STIMULATION where I use this word as a place holder, holding and signifying a part of Myself to Change and Transform into an Expression and way of living and being that reflects my utmost potential.

So what I have been doing is “keeping an eye on” those moments I face where I had noticed how previously this word Stimulation had become ultimately ‘an abuse of self’ where for instance when I faced a moment where “I did not know what to do” or there was a Free Moment Here where I could essentially decided for myself what I wanted to do and how I wanted to express myself, and it was here in these moments that I would take the CONSUMER CULTURE Definition of this word STIMULATION where Id just go for the Consumer Culture QUICK FIX where for example Id indulge in just wasting my time, scrolling through facebook, watching TV Series, movies, youtube, and consuming all kinds of media where id end up zombifying myself in front of the computer ‘Stimulating’ myself however, this kind of stimulation is actually a SIMULATION because nothing really happens in Real Life. All the activity is just taking place in my own Head/Mind as I watch and experience surges of thoughts, pictures, energies, emotions and feelings all associated with what I am watching but I myself am just literally sitting there doing absolutely nothing.

Now, I do see that its cool to enjoy watching your favorite series or what have you, but my problem was that I was using it as an escape and as an EASY OUT, and so my LIVING of the Word Stimulation became abusive because it was based on taking the easy way out and just wanting a quick fix stimulation where essentially I am using the hard work, creativity and resources of others who come together to for instance create a TV Series, where here I am, just getting stimulated by it but not ever Expressing my own Self where watching the creativity of others just became easier than being Creative Myself.

So now I see I have to begin again Developing my ability to Stimulation Myself and be Creative myself.

So I realized that this is exactly where I can Re-Create myself and Transform this word STIMULATION so that instead of it meaning where I just sit there and be stimulated by something, where all the stimulation is actually only taking place in my own mind, it means that I stimulate me through by my own Self Directive Movement where I am actually Physically moving myself through my initial resistances and directing myself in my environment and stimulating my environment and myself physically. A cool metaphor for this is like how you can Stimulate a Plant to Grow by watering it , and aerating the soil or feeding it nutrients or weeding around the plants, or where the wind blows and rustles through the leaves, or where insects and animals are interacting with plant and creating this whole entire culture of physical stimulation in and around the plant that supports in the overall growth of the plant and its ecosystem, its all based on physical movements and interactive relationships.

So basically I am now looking at a Correction here where when ever I am faced with those moments where I am wanting to go into the old definition of Stimulation where I just get on my computer and wander through the internet, I in those moments, can support myself to change this to REAL Stimulation, Physical Stimulation where I move and direct me in a way that Supports the Growth and Development of Myself, My Environment, and Others to Live and Express to our Utmost Potentials.

The point here at the moment is ‘irritation’. I have noticed since getting home from work that things seem to be irritating me. I equate this to a few changes in some habits/routines lately where my mind is not getting the usual stimulus or the usual experiences it normally does so this irritation is a kind of symptom of withdraw from what its normally used to. But I also see that I actually tend to have days during the week where I feel irritated and highly strung where its like every little thing gets me irritated.

One dimension that I can see about my irritation experience at the moment is the ‘Time’ Dimension. What I am noticing is that tonight in particular I am feeling pressed for time. As I mentioned in my last blog, I have taken on a new project at work which requires more time to be put in at work as well as there being a tighter deadline for everything.

Today during the day, I did notice how I was giving more attention to the idea that “tonight I have a lot to do” So I was already thinking about this at work earlier, and when I got home tonight, my experience was similar – that I had a limited amount of time with a number of things that I needed to complete.

Today, I was also having the experience that I was behind in a couple things where I was participating in mental projections about this, and playing out in my mind, other peoples reactions to my view that I was late on a few things that I needed to get done.

So I can see how in participating throughout my day in these internal projections and playouts in my mind about how other people were reacting to my apparent lateness actually accumulate stress reactions within myself and so I am seeing my irritation tonight as an accumulation of all these accumulated stress points that I generated through participating within projections within my mind without awareness during the day/week

Okay, so I thought I would just open up a few dimensions to this irritation point for myself here in this blog to see more specifically what is happening and why I was suddenly experiencing this irritation for apparently no reason. Because there is always a reason for how we experience ourselves, and the fact that the ‘irritation’ seemed to come out of nowhere, indicated to me a perfect opportunity to learn something about myself and my experience that I wasn’t aware of before because if I was Self Aware, I wouldn’t suddenly be irritated ‘out of no-where’

I will often do this with point, where I will simply start with what ever experience is here in the moment, and I will start writing about it and opening it up as a basic way to develop self awareness and take Self Responsibility for Myself , My Life, and My Experiences and actually Empower myself instead of accepting and allowing experiences to ‘happen to me’ out of the blue and accept them as if there is nothing I can do.

Today my experience of myself was very akin to how I have been experiencing myself in this past year. When I got out of bed this morning and as I moved myself to get the cats food, I had the thought of how repetitive my life is. In that moment I thought about myself as being so ingrained and entrenched into a pattern/routine and how I don’t change it much. I created this idea within me that I will live this way for the next 50 years, or for the rest of my life or late into my life where I will just live a very stable and set pattern. I felt stuck. And I felt disheartened how things have become so routine and how I have stuck with that routine, almost like its ‘safe’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see myself as stuck in a routine

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see and define myself as set in my routine

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel as though it will be difficult to step out of my routine.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look at my routine and to think about how it will be difficult to get myself out of it, and then in relation to this thought, felt stuck, and also discouraged.

Discouraged

Dis

Scourage

Scrounge

Courage

Age

Raged

Scour

Disc

Ridged

sour

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel discouraged about my life lately.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel disheartened about my life lately.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel disempowered about my life lately, and think to myself that there is no point to try and change or improve myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself about who I am and how my life is going and how my process of change is going, where I feel like I am stuck and not changing and don’t know how to change, and so within this, just go into this point of giving up, feeling discouraged, and hopeless in myself and my life, thinking that I will never amount to anything more.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel really discouraged about my art where I seem to always think about how terrible its going and how horrible its going.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel deeply that I will never be able to bring my art into its full expression and bring myself into my full expression within art and also within my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to write anymore in my life because I feel like I am going around in circles with my writing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live the word Discouraged and that I haven’t redefined for myself the word “Courage” as a point of Self Creation, in part because I feel like when ever I redefine a word, I never stick with it anyways, and so over time I have become discouraged, due to how things have gone so far.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Live the word Discouraged in relation to my correction of the word Discouraged into the word Courage.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become discouraged within my process

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become discouraged about my art

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become discouraged about myself and my ability to Change and to align myself into a Life Form that is Aware, and that is aligned with What is Best For ALL and that is DIRECTIVE and Living to My UTTMOST POTENTIAL.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to embody the word Discouragement where I will for instance think about doing some art and then imagine a few different things that I could do, but then for some reason, don’t move myself to do it, where instead of moving myself to create some art I think “whats the point” “Its not a good idea” and that “now is not the time” and that “I will never stick with it anyways” and so I bombard myself with excuses and justifications about why not do art, telling myself it’s a bad idea, and then I hesitate and then end up in an experience of feeling Discouraged because I haven’t moved myself into this point, even though I think about it all day long.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the word Discouraged in relation to my art application, ultimately thinking “what’s the use” “it will not work out” and so then disempower myself instead of Directing myself to create art and develop the point for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about doing art all day long, but then when the time comes, talk myself out of it, or not move myself to do it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hesitate when it comes to directing myself to do art and to expand my art application.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create Rage inside myself through not Living Courage as the Courage to actually Direct and Live to my Utmost Potential, where when I do not, I experience rage within and at myself for not doing what I see I would actually like to do which is to become more and support myself to Live to my Utmost Potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my art expression with other people’s art expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always think about doing ‘so much art’ but then never get to a single drawing, and then feel discouraged because within myself I see and believe myself to be capable of creating a lot of art.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that “I have to create a lot of art” and that is what will fulfil me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prevent myself to doing art, and then eventually just feel depressed for not moving and directing myself to do more art, but then continue to hold back, where I hesitate and hold back much more than I go for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue to live out the word hesitation, where this word has become a primary barrier in me not standing up and becoming more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up and becoming more, because I fear not following through.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify not standing up and becoming more through telling myself that “ I will never live it through” and make a full change in becoming more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Live the pattern of Discouragement which consists of the various routines and things I do now in my life which I will have to give up to walk and Live the word Courage is the Changing of these patterns of discouragement and the changing of myself to support myself to Live and Be More than I have accepted myself to be and to support me to Live to my Fullest Potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I move myself to stand up and become more that I will not live it through and just end up going back to how things were before.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to when a moment and opportunity comes up for me to stand up and become more, to in such moments, create a projection in my mind of me starting to change and become more, but then just giving up and going back to how things always are and then to in the moment or opportunity of potential change and expansion, use the picture projection of me ‘giving up eventually’ as a reason and excuse to not change and so here have created a system within myself to prevent me from standing up.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to create projections within myself about ‘how I will just give up eventually’ in relation to the point of Self Change or Daring to become more, I stop myself from participating and engaging with this inner projection as I see that this has been a way that I have prevented myself from becoming more, and essentially has become a part of how I have lived the word Discouragement where I Did not Live the Word Courage to face my fear of not pulling my change through and actually move and direct myself to become more in moments and opportunities I see is here for me to do so.

I commit myself to stop existing within and as hesitation, and to rather stop all the back-chat excuses and ideas I have about myself in relation to doing art, and to rather commit myself to physically moving myself and Living the word Courage where I Dare to Become More in moments where the opportunity is here to do so.

I commit myself practice Living the word Courage instead of Discouraged, where in Living the Word Courage in relation to my art, I direct myself to Create Art and to become more where normally the routine and pattern is to do less, and to Live Less where I end up actually using my time for things that do not support me and in the end, end up experiencing discouragement for not applying myself and that has become the pattern, and so here I commit myself to assist and support myself to practice changing this pattern, and to Move from the pattern of Discouragement to the Living Pattern of Courage, where do more and become more through creating more art instead of opting to not do it which is to live less. I commit myself to in such moments, opt to apply myself in creating more art and actually expanding myself and having the Courage to be More and to Stand within that application of ‘Being More’

I Commit myself to realize that to Create myself as the Living Application of Courage, I will have to give up and let go and walk out of the pattern of Discouragement which is the pattern of laying around and not really doing much with my time, and just sitting on the couch browsing the internet or watching movies, where now in Living the word Courage, I will have to forge a new pattern aligned with Living Courage as taking Direction and Action to apply myself to expand me which in the case of art means to actually get out my materials and engage within the process of creating art. This actually implies an entire new set of physical movements that I will have to establish as this new routine of Self Expansion and Living of the Word Courage instead of Discouragement.

Because right now, part of the ‘problem’ is that I don’t really have the courage to dare to Stand and Change and become more such as really committing myself to my art, and drawing, even in my spare time. Actually, especially in my spare time where mostly I would have wasted that time, and so now here I have been wanting to use that time more effectively but hadn’t and so now here I am committing myself to actually changing this pattern from a pattern of Living Discouragement where I end up in an experience of Discouragement due to not moving myself to now here move into a pattern of Living Courage, Changing the pattern through instead of not ‘doing more’ as in, doing some art, I now commit myself to rather do it and to utilize these moments, opportunities and time, to create and expand my art and have to Courage to actually go for it and Change this pattern of Discouragement to Courage.

So in relation to what I written, I am now going to redefine the word Courage for myself.

Courage

Car

Rage

Kerr,

Carriage

Carry

Carry Myself

Cure

So I know how I create discouragement. I create it by NOT taking action, by convincing myself Not to move using numerous excuses and justifications. And so I see here that To change this and to LIVE the word Courage is to in those moments where I normally talk myself out of taking action, which eventually just leads to an experience of feeling discourage, I rather in those moments, Live Courage. The Courage to Change the Patten of inaction into a pattern of action.

Its interesting in the word Courage I see the words Car and Carriage which to me symbolizes MOVEMENT and Direction. So to Live the word Courage is to MOVE Myself as I see that when I do not move I create Discouragement. So I become the CURE for my own DisCUREagement and I do this through Daring to Move and Direct myself in those moments where I can be/become more that what I have accepted and allowed myself to be.

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I have been facing this particular point within myself of existing within and as the word ‘Depression’. And what I see I have been accepting and allowing is that I go into this behavior of ‘giving up’ when for instance I am looking for something to do in my environment where I can see for myself that it is clearly a moment where I could either potentially find something to do to that would be supportive or where I could just do something that is more just a ‘time waster’.

So what I have been noticing is that when I am living the word Depression that I will tend to “give up on myself” when I am looking at something to do which includes potential points of support.

What happens specifically is that I will see something supportive that I could do, but then I will only consider it for a second or two before dismissing it within a point of ‘quickly giving up on myself’

So here I am going apply Self Forgiveness on this particular point.

Self Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Live the word Depression through by quickly dismissing support that I could give to myself in moments, where within existing within and as Depression, I will more easily dismiss moments of support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give into the energy experience of ‘not wanting to support myself’ and to not push through that experience of not wanting to support myself and to direct myself to support me which I see is best for me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live the word Depression through participating within and as the statements “its not worth it” “its too hard” “whats the point, I am a failure” “fuck it” “its never going to work anyways” in relation to potential points and moments of support that come up throughout my day, where here I use these back-chat statements to re-inforce my position of depression which is an action where I am not supporting myself in a way that is actually best or good for me but am existing within ‘procrastination’ ‘laziness’ lethargy’ ‘self diminishment’ where I just slouch around and entertain myself and waste time, not really doing things that are in fact supporting me to Live to my Utmost Potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that “there is no point to supporting myself” believing that “it never works anyways” I see, realize, and understand that obviously this is not true, but that it may sometimes get discouraging when I am not supporting myself how I would like, but obviously giving up on self support completely is not a Solution but a point of giving up actually and also here contributing to the Living out and existing within and as Depression.

Therefore I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want a miracle change when I support myself, instead of just keeping it simple and practical where the obvious common sense is that doing something supportive, like writing when facing a moment where I am in a reaction is obviously more supportive than suppressing the reaction and just entertaining myself as a way to distract myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project “the results of self support” as a way to decide or determine if I will support myself or not, and within this create an expectation of what will happen, to which I speak the statement within myself “it will never work” or “I will never change” and so then decide not to support myself.

Rather here I commit myself to keep my process of Self Support Simple when I see that I am existing and participating within and as the word “Depression”, keeping it simple from the perspective that I do not need or require some kind of miracle change to support myself to stand up out of Depression, I just require to make one decision in one moment to support myself instead of neglecting myself. Its as simple as that, and then within accumulating these moments of making the decision to support myself instead of ignoring myself, I can stand up out of the point of Depression. So here I commit myself to keep it simple and to not project ideas of change but just stick to the common sense in the moment, that, “the only way out of the depression is to stand up and Live the word Support, instead if Neglect”.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to influence myself through thinking that “I will never change” and to use that statement as an excuse to not apply myself in Self Support in moments.

When and as I see myself within a point of depression and facing a moment of potential change where I can move out of Living the word ‘Depression’, ‘Neglect’, and ‘Ignorance’ and into the Word ‘Support’ and ‘Care’ and when, in such moments I see the statement come up “I will never change” in relation to past actions/memories and future projections, as a reason why not to Live the words Support and Care, I take a breath within myself, and realize that I do not have to worry or think about changing from the perspective of if and how its going to work or not, I simply keep it straight forward – that it is more supportive for me to Support Myself than to neglect myself, and so I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to use this reasoning and justification that “I will never change” as a excuse to not support myself because I see here clearly that all that is required is a simple act of Support which is more beneficial than ‘doing nothing’, and so here I commit myself to just focus on one moment at a time, and stop any and all future projections and past memory playouts, and just stick to one moment at a time, looking at where and how I can support myself moment to moment. And so to within this Support myself to move out of the word Depression into and as the Word Expression, as I Express myself in Self Support and Care, where I am active in supporting myself to Live to my utmost potential.

I commit myself to also here assist and support myself to move myself out the ‘energy’ of Depression within and when I am faced with potential moments of support where here I commit myself to Live the Word Support through and as Physically moving myself through the Depression Energy which is a kind of resistance to supporting myself and actually putting in the effort, and so I commit myself to Direct myself to put in that effort to move through that depression energy into the act of Support and Care.

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Part of my Job at the moment is I spend normally 1 day a week working the sales floor at the Art Gallery where I sell my sculptures. This has been great because it gives me an opportunity to talk with clients, potential clients, and just art admirers about the work I do and about their own collections. This has really supported me in gaining more insight into why and how people buy art which is important for me seeing as how I am working as a professional artist.

Now during this time I have tested out various ways to interact with those who walk into the gallery and have looked at how best to do this.

The context within which I am standing is quite specific where I am essentially standing as a Sales Professional in a setting where I am representing myself, other artists, and the galley, where my primary role is to sell the artwork in the gallery.

This now creates a specific dynamic when people walk into the gallery where when I engage with them, I am doing so in a particular way, within the context that I am a salesman.

I have noticed that sometimes when people walk in and it looks like they are potential buyers, I start to get nervous and find it more difficult to communicate and interact with them. Other times, when they seem like ‘just admirers’, I am more comfortable and its easier to speak with them.

So today I noticed a familiar experience of anxiety coming up within me in relation to clients walking into the gallery, and so I applied the technique that was laid out in the Eqafe Interview I listened to last night.

First I looked at my initial experience that I was having which was a reactive experience triggering and ‘happening to me’ when someone would walk into the gallery. This anxiety that would come up, I found influenced me within moving to talk and interact with the customers.

So firstly, I wrote down the words that was coming up as the reactions

Hopeless

Helpless

Distant

Disconnected

Desperate

Anxiety

And then next I wrote down the words that I would rather like to live and express in those moments when people walk into the gallery

Here

Open

Simplicity

Calm

Inner Quiet

Anchored

Grounded

Settled

So as customers walked in and the reactive anxiety experience would come up, I would practice focusing on these other words, the words I wanted to be and express, and so then practiced moving out of the reaction words and into these other words.

Overall it was supportive, and throughout the day, I would pull out the piece of paper I had the words written on and re-visit them.

An observation I made was that having the new words written down, and now a part of my awareness in such moments when I faced this anxiety reaction gave me something else to focus on and direct and move myself and my attention into instead of just having the anxiety experience be the only thing in my awareness.

So I will continue to test out this application and I would recommend for anyone interested in hearing about this particular application to invest in the Source where the best description is given which is the interview on Eqafe.

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