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Tuesday, 16 August 2016

We hear you're still alive?
I am still very much alive, thanks for asking. The last year was quite strange for me, strange and stressful, so I buried myself under a pile of rubble just to be safe.
Actually, I had a really rough year, and I'm a bit astonished over the fact that I made it out alive. And in one piece. And relatively sane.
Things are better now, and I've come out from under the pile of rubble.

We also hear you're writing again!
I'm still writing, not again.
A writer never ceases to write, he only ceases to publish.
I've been writing all this time, only I've been under an enormous amount of stress and my efforts of writing something worth publishing have gone horridly wrong.
Writing is a delicate thing. I can only write when I feel like I have my life sort of under control.

Have you gone back to the Mousetrap?
Well... a bit, yes.

Why did do that?
Why wouldn't I? I love the concept of the Mousetrap, the way unwilling victims are made stars in a flesh-splitting, blood-spilling realityTV-show. I love the characters, and I love creating new ones for this particular place.
And Jeremy with his impossibly white smile is just so hard to get away from.
Call me crazy, but I like torturing people to death. In the Mousetrap, I get to do just that.
In a safe, controlled environment, namely, my head.

Are you having nightmares again?
This morning, I woke up to a horrifying dream of someone hugging me to death only to find someone arranging blankets for me before going to work. So yes, sort of. I've also developed a delightful trait of having nightmares while I'm almost fully awake. That makes writing much, much easier.
And scarier.
If I don't need to sleep in order to have nightmares, what keeps them from coming to life?

Will you keep on writing, or will you disappear on us again?
I'll try to.
In life, one can't make promises. They will always be broken, no matter how hard you fight to keep them.
But for now I am here, and I am writing.
Safe, relatively sane, very low on things to flip out about.

I'll try to talk you through the writing process of the book I'm currently working on. I've wanted to do this for quite awhile, but- well, when writing doesn't feel good, it doesn't feel good to make noise about what I'm working on.
Now it feels good. A bit slow compared to the old days, but there's life in these old hands yet.
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