Sienna On Cheating Scandal: I Sabotaged Things

by Raphael Chestang
5:36 PM PST, January 28, 2014

Photo: Esquire

Sienna Miller had at least two widely publicized cheating scandals before she took a break from Hollywood. She and her Alfie co-star Jude Law broke up after he reportedly cheated (they later got back together), and she gained tabloid notoriety for her affair with Brothers and Sisters star Balthazar Getty. Years later, the 32-year-old actress is opening up to Esquire magazine about turning a new leaf in both her personal and professional life.

"I sabotaged things," Miller admits of her 20s, when she was romantically connected to Getty while he was still married. "I burnt a lot of bridges."

Being quite candid about the drama in her romantic life, the Factory Girl star adds, "What was going on in my private life was not an easy thing to read about. People don't want to see films with people they don't approve of in them."

That being said, in 2009 Miller took to the stage, further honing her craft in a Broadway production of After Miss Julie. "I felt like I had no control over any aspect of my life, professionally or personally," she explains. "So I deliberately disappeared. I was sick of myself, to be honest, or sick of that perception of me."

Miller's ex-fiance Jude Law, 41, was also working on Broadway at the time, giving them a chance to reconcile after a breakup that she describes as "awful." "When something ends in a way like that, it's important if you can, in a way, go back and revisit it and either shut that door or create a new room," she says. "So it was a very healthy, cathartic experience."

Today, Miller has an 18-month-old daughter, Marlowe, with her fiance, 28-year-old actor Tom Sturridge. "I feel really settled," Miller confesses. "I have a wonderful life. I'm up every morning with a little baby. That gives you incredible perspective."