I always feel that if this is for everybody, why would people want to listen to me whine? I think a blog to be read should be entertaining and positive. I feel guilty when I write about bad stuff. I also feel bored. I just don't want to think ... Read more

Look back on the changes you are making today as an old person. Hey, I'm already old, but I have to make big changes now to make my remaining years happy. My SO who is 80 and wealthy will leave me with nothing when he dies. I need someone who... Read more

I have been doing Spark everyday for three months and have not lost an ounce. However, I am not quitting. I just keep trying new things until something works. I have been able to stop my mood swings pretty much by eating everything on the men... Read more

Haven't lost an ounce. However, I was bingeing every few days. I would not eat part of the menu, like skip the fat or the fruit. I realized that I was getting desperately depressed because my blood sugar lever was too low. And then I would e... Read more

I have seriously eaten everything on the diet. It is balanced to prevent insulin spikes. Soo I have not gotten extremely tired and depressed for three days. I have been forcing myself to work out at the gym everyday at 2. I feel the endorphins ... Read more

Today I am aware that insulin resistance causes low blood sugar in cells which makes you feel emotionally awful, You crave sugar or food. You obsess about it because you don't feel right. The balance in the diet of protein, fat and carb is reall... Read more

I am trying meditation by being aware of the immensity of the universe. Hubble telescope has found that the universe is vastly bigger than we ever imagined. Just in our galaxy, the Milky Way, there are tens of billions of solar systems. Our s... Read more

I think Spark is retraining my brain. Even when it seems nothing has changed. I still do it anyway. I have stopped craving so much. Cut back on bingeing and actually think I look much better. Remnants of my old self. I eat mostly only beanst... Read more

I believe that Spark is actually working. It has directed me to learn more about the way I function. I now have three streaks going.
1. Go to the club and circuit train everyday
2. Eat the menu, but only half, I can't lose weight with too... Read more

Make a list of all the horrible things that will happen to you if you don't lose weight. And a list of all the things that you will miss and won't happen.
I put mine on my notes on my iphone.
The second your mind moves to craving, read you... Read more

New stuff. Mantra.
Say "I am rich, happy, and I am giving all my property away," hundreds of times per day.
One big goal, enter one beauty contest.
Next big goal, get thin by July 20. My 50th reunion.
Forgot to save changes. I have b... Read more

I put stuff in here that I would never say to anyone I know personally. I don't complain to friends, family, or anyone, actually. Now I am only going to be positive. I am getting ready for the Iris festival garden tours. We have the oldest, m... Read more

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I wrote this: Probably shouldnt. I don't like to drag people into my pit.
Let's see. I have had kind, loving men who live off me and destroy me financially. nI CA there is no common law marriage. He owes me nothing. He is ge... Read more