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My Faith Will Be Bigger Than My Fears

I have been wanting to write for the last week, each time I would think tonight would be the night... I would have had a very stressful day at work, I also ended up having vertigo 3 days in the last week and I have been spending a lot of time organizing my social media. First and foremost the physio therapist has given me the green light to start walking again... now if the weather would cooperate, unfortunately there has been a great deal of rain, the long range forecast looks pretty good for now, which I am looking forward to... Second, I have been sabotaging myself when it comes to food. I am not even sure why, I know I have to figure out why so that I can continue on my healthy path.

I have had small dips here and there over the past couple of years but this has been a big long dip, I am not sure what it will take... I know that once I get walking again, I will have something more to focus on other than sitting in front of a TV... Here's the funny thing, I don't even like the TV, I find it boring and monotonous, I actually don't watch full shows, I just have it on while I do my social media on my phone. However; that is not a good excuse for me to just throw everything I have learned away.

There are going to be tough times in my life, food isn't the answer to those issues. I am not berating myself or thinking I am a failure in any way... I just need to figure out a better way to handle disappoints and trials. Walking these past few years has really had me focused, I never even knew how much it kept me on the path until I couldn't do it. I have to learn other methods because as much as I love walking, it isn't always going to be feasible. I don't know what the answer is yet but that is what I am working on at the moment.

I have had a lot on my mind and I feel like I am at a crossroads, which I think we all come to often in our lives...some bigger than others. In the past I usually let circumstances take over and make the decision of which path I will follow as I never find it easy to make decisions. I know, not always the best way to deal with choices... I can think of a couple of choices in my life that were made for me because I refused to make them for myself... the aftermath of those choices being made for me were life changing and not always in a good way... what did I learn from them?

That is why I am thinking about the place I am in my life and looking down those paths and choices I have. I always thought I was the girl that needed stability... even if it was boring. When my father would up and move to another province or country in a heartbeat or change jobs on a whim... I would think, how does he sleep at night, isn't he worried about what might happen with the choices he made? However; in the last few years, I have come to understand him a great deal more... although he didn't face his past head on... he did live his life the way he wanted to...

I know I have spent my life not making choices because I was too concerned what people might think or say... but as I grow older and understand more and more that the life we have been given was meant to live, to explore and grow. We all have different paths in our lives and no one should tell us which one to take because they feel they know what is best for us... I know the path I want to take, I just need to figure out how to get there... and the truth is that I believe if it is meant to be, a way will be made... My faith just has to be bigger than me fears...

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Decisions are sometimes not the easiest on the best of us. I pray for God's guidance and whatever the outcome I believe was His will. I used to enjoy walking just to clear my head too. Wow, I love your dad's approach. He was truly living his life. Even though we always say we don't care what people think, there's a lil part of us that still cares. Thanks goodness we care less and less as we get older, lol.http://fashionablyidu.blogspot.com/

So true, we only have one life and we need to enjoy it to the fullest. Which means stepping out of our comfort zone, maybe doing things or making decisions we'll regret later, and growing and learning along the way.

your quotes Launna are right on and your words and determination inspire. I'm sorry you had vertigo. I had a viral infection once and one of the symptoms was vertigo. Awful. Couldn't even stand up without falling. Stay strong. And healthy.

Very beautiful Launna!I know it isn't easy but a power within you, will help you if that's what you really want... and keep the following in mind when you're struggling: The pain that you've been feeling, can't compare to the joy that's coming...

I hope the weather cooperates so that you can return to your walking and also that you can find some alternative that you can do when the weather is not favorable. Walking is not the best alternative for me where we now live as compared to where we used to live. I really miss being able to get out and walk. I use an exercise bike inside now and have other routines I can do inside, but they are not the same as walking.

I also don't like tv...i don't have one. I have amazon and netflix, and I choose the shows I want to see. But rarely do I watch them as much as have something to listen to while I work, or paint. I can go through entire movies not knowing what anyone looks like.

Get well soon Launna! I wish you a speedy recovery. I love how you like to utilise your time to find meaningful things to do in life and I love that positivity about you!Love,Nilu Yuleena ThapaBIG hair LOUD mouth

First of all, HI!!! I've been wanting to start blogging for the longest time, but i just kept procrastinating. Now I am back for good, and I promise this is really for good! :)

Secondly, how are you feeling now? You're definitely an inspiration!! I really really look upto you, and your courage and patience is just beyond this world. I wish you a speedy recovery Launna, and please know that you're always in my prayers!! <3

I think you overthink too much sometimes dear Launna. I mean, you did great improvements since now, and it's normal you have some dip from time to time, especially in stressfull moments! It's all right that you want to change your bad habits, but you still nedd some moments of relax, maybe to find an hobby shold be the good solution, but take it easy! You're doing great, explore your interests and you'll see that one day, in a moment of stress you'll prefer doing something different than eat ot watching tv! :DxxxShttp://s-fashion-avenue.blogspot.it

I'm glad you are feeling better! :D Oh gosh, I find TV boring too - probably because I don't like staying still. hehe. ;) Maybe when you feel even better you can try a mini hike... but bring someone along with you (I sure needed to. )

You are so right. When things are meant to happen they will. But believing that can be so hard when you're brain keeps telling you reasons to be afraid --to hold back and let others decide your fate. I'm so glad to hear you have decided to take your own path :-)

Hi dear, hopefully you can walking again soon. About the work and stress please relax all be better dear. Yeach some time i thought what people or other said or though about my chooices, but such as you said dear by the time i grow and understand that life have the own meaning and all choices have responsibility.

I am so sorry you have suffered from vertigo recently. I know a few people who get it and it sounds very disconcerting. I am glad you got the green light to start walking again. I bet once you start walking you will have an easier time with the food issue. I know for me when I am inside a lot and doing stuff on social media, the computer, watching tv, or reading- it can be easy to eat mindlessly. When I am walking and getting exercise I don't have as much time to eat and I pay more attention to my eating. Good luck! :) ~Jess

I hope the walking again will help you get out of your head space soon Launna. I know how bad vertigo is because I get it too, it's absolutely awful to feel so sick and have everything spinning and moving around you. When I get it, I just want nothing more than for it to be gone. I feel for you there. Things will pick up though and I'm sure you will find comfort in things other than food that will help. We all go through ups and downs like you said, just some stick around for a little longer than others.

Its just a depressing phase fr u as ur unable to walk i hope u start the routine again and explore new ways of exercising.. m nt fond of TV bt i do watch shows I like as it keeps my mind of stupid thoughts.. rest m always on the computer being a full time blogger.. eating healthy is the best option bt its ok to treat urself on weekends.. Hope u feel better soon Launna.. tk cr ♥♥

I am glad you're going to be back walking! I've missed you. As for other people and their judgements, ignore them all! As my best friend has always said "It is your journey and only you can drive." Hang in there!

It’s such great news you can go back to walking, I know how much you enjoy that and the impacts of not being able to for some time. I hope that many benefits will come from taking it up again. It can be so tough to find ways to deal with hard times in life. So many of us use food or spending etc. so don’t feel bad but keep working on your progress.

I'm happy you are back to walking. I cant wait for it to warm up a little bit more so I can talk baby for a walk. Sorry to hear about your vertigo. hope you are felling better now.www.effortlesslady.com

Hi Launna, I'm back and I need to get my momentum and updates right. I spent the past hour or so reading through what I've missed but I couldn't find the part on your injury and not being able to walk. Or was it the vertigo that rendered you unable to walk. I seldom suffer from vertigo but lots and lots of headache. I don't know which is worse but anything that affects the head and mind sure isn't good. Did the doc say what causes the vertigo?

You know, you are doing so well in walking! My steps are perhaps only 10% of yours. Throughout the whole week leading to the Lunar New Year, my steps are pathetic few hundreds and few thousands. I gotta hit 10k every day. Give yourself a pat on the back for all your successful steps and miles till date.

I agree with some of the comments here about yoga. Ever since I started yoga and pilates, I feel really good! Yes, these classes take up lots of after work hours inclusive of travelling time but I feel so good after each class.

Lastly, I appreciate all your heartfelt comments on my blog, FB and IG the past few months. I didn't have the time to sit down and reply long ones on my blog but I really treasure all these words. I'm so glad to have a friend in you.

Such a great quote - I'm working on my faith being bigger than my fears too. My fears have really overtaken my life in the last few years. But as the things I've been so afraid of are getting closer, they don't seem as big anymore. I'm so glad you'll be able to start walking again. Exercise always helps me so much.

I have found myself at a crossroads more times than I can think, and really I have followed my gut for the most part. When I've done so, good things have come of it. There are so many things to do in this world, maybe focusing on the one thing you do well and effortlessly will take you where you want to go. How about writing a book, you express yourself well. Have you ever thought of that? Maybe writing in character? I love writing and that's why I love your blog. Hope you put all your energy into what you love doing most.

Hi Launna! I'm happy to catch up with your blog after my getaway. :) First fo all, I'm sooo glad to hear that your physio therapist allowed you to start walking again!! I really hope weather in your city cooperates, too. I know you will find the right path as you've been doing lately. Your faith and determination are probably stroger than you think :)

It's SO wonderful that you have writing to turn to for release... I can tell you are in a lot of pain and I just want to let you know that your positive thinking is the best way to push on and soon enough, you'll find all sorts of good things happening!!

Like being able to start back into your walking routine. That's great your doctor gave you the okay!! Also, interesting that you have Vertigo. My mom has that...

I hope you are having a wonderful week!!! And have a happy weekend, do something for yourself... you can love yourself on Valentine's Day! :o)

I can relate so much to what you wrote. I've crossed some great opportunities in my life, but haven't take any of them due to stability and ''to do what's right''. At the end I've realized how much I have dissapointed myself and that it would be better not achiving something due to failing and because I'm not good enaugh instead of because I haven't even tried. I'm looking for to many approvals and always need one from my family, before taking any big steps. Yet I'm caring for those less and less. I just don't want to hurt anyone I love, I owe them so much.

Anyway, it's great to hear you can go walking again. Hope the weather is nice, and even if not, that's still great news.

So true, only think about what is important for yourself, your own opinion and faith. What other people think is not important and surrounding ourselves around good people and people who matter in our lives.

I'm sorry to hear about the vertigo and hope you feel better. I too, have been eating more lately than I should--not sure why that is. It just means I have to double up on my exercise. I love the idea of your faith being bigger than your fears!

Hi Launna, First, so sorry to hear you suffer from Vertigo. I've heard it's horrible and definitely not fun to go through. I can definitely relate to eating more too (especially traveling and living in Texas where portions are huge.) So good to hear you're walking again and just taking it one day at a time. Also, I think we all make decisions at some point, especially when we're younger, worried about what others will think. Don't worry about that though and have a great weekend...

Don't judge the path I choose to take, if you hadn't been on the journey I had to make, these lines define my life and I think everyone can connect to what you said here. This post touched my heart and somehow brought tears to my eyes!! Well..I am speechless today....

I am so glad you got a chance to write this post.. I have a feeling writing is therapuetic for you, like it is for me! Good luck on your weight loss journey, btw!! Keep me posted on how it is going for you! <3 - http://www.domesticgeekgirl.com

Launna, it's been a long time since I stopped by, hope you are well. :)

Good to hear that your physiotherapist has given permission for you to start walking again, hopefully the weather will be much better for walking soon. I truly admire your determination to press on despite the challenges you face. You're always finding a solution to overcome trials. Should walking no longer be feasible, perhaps you may do another physical activity that involves the hands instead? Maybe baking is useful, it keeps the hands agile too. :)

I couldn't agree with you more about how no one should tell us which path to take - we usually know what's best for ourselves. Your optimism and your drive is admirable, and I truly believe you are able to conquer your fears and continue to have faith in yourself. Best wishes. :)

Really an uplifting post, Dear.Decisions can be hard to make; but once we do and stick to it may whatever come...we will soon learn to go with the flow. It's not easy but sometimes necessary for us.xoxoEpsitawww.thepositivewindow.com

Another insightful and beautifully written blog post Launna. I agree, it's so difficult to make choices sometimes. But I've come to realise that putting off a decision, and staying in a situation just because it's familiar, can be just as harmful.

Well done for being decisive and recognising the need to be pro-active in your decision-making. That definitely opens up new possibilities.

I love and appreciate all genuine comments, to save a little time, I won't be commenting on the comments on my blog (unless you don't have a blog), I will just visit your blog and comment there, if you have left a meaningful comment for me... I would much rather spend the time reading and commenting on a few extra blogs ❤

I have taken back my life at 50, I am on a journey to become healthy inside and out. I have lost 75+ pounds in 8 months by making myself a priority. My passions are walking, writing, reading and collecting inspiring quotes...