Saturday, 6 May 2017

Pussycat pussy cat where have you been?

I've been off the blog for nearly a month because life has been a bit busy.

So here's a brief(ish) recap of what I have been up to:

Roller Derby

I had to miss a couple of weeks due to the fact I cracked my ribs at the first ever session and then fell over again and ripped a muscle in my leg at the next. I have had some pretty spectacular bruises - apart from the stunningly vomit coloured boob I also ended up with flowering of bruises across my ribs which have just faded, and some truly awe inspiring colourful bruises over my thigh - one running along the inside of my thigh and extending out and across my knee and then when that started to heal another mottled black and yellow bruise running the outside length of my thigh.

I have also struggled with fitting in - it's unfortunate that I am literally the only newbie everyone else has been going for pretty much a year or more so they all know each other and already have the foundations in skating needed to progress on to the harder things they are doing. I spend a lot of time at the sessions practicing basic skating moves by myself as I am not at a level where I can take part in the higher level stuff they are doing. I have thought about quitting - I have mentioned it before but it really does suck knowing your completely shit at something compared to every other person in the room.

It's also difficult because they have known each other for so long a few sessions I have pretty much spent the entire session by myself which makes me feel lousy and then they have been talking about stuff they have all done together outside of skating and I feel pretty much excluded. I even saw few of them at a game and they didnt say hi or anything so I've really not been feeling the inclusive team spirit shit that everyone keeps talking about with derby!

I keep going back in the hope there will be other newbies soon or that I will start to make some sort of progress with it all as I actually do enjoy the skating and watching the roller derby matches too. I looked at other teams in the are to see if they were doing any beginners sessions soon that I could go to instead as they seem to be much more structured than the one I attend (structured as in they have set it up specifically for beginners whereas in the one I attend its for anyone so a lot of the skaters go to the learn to skate sessions as well as training with the main team) but none of them are running at the moment as they all did new intakes in January. I do wonder what will happen when all the people in the learn to skate sessions are good enough to train with the main team - will it just be me and whoever takes the session there? that would be really odd - they are apparently looking at ways of recruiting more people to attend their beginner sessions but I dont think they are approachable enough to encourage people to come along - everyone else seems to know someone else in the main team or who used to skate etc so its like recruitment from social network rather than people like me who just decide to turn up and give it a go without knowing anyone type of thing.

Teeth!

Had my final bit of dental work done for 6 months woohoo - root canal! And it was fine I literally psyched myself up before it to the point where I was hyperventilating, shaking and acting like a pussy and okay sure it was a little bit uncomfortable sitting with my mouth wedged open for an hour and having the dentist poking random shit in my jaw but it wasnt anywhere near as bad as in my head - I have to go back in 6 months for a review and for them to see if the root canal has worked but apart from that my teeth are hopefully good for a while and even better no payments to make yay

Work

Work is good but busy - there has been some changes which are taking time for me to get used to them - I've got 2 new people to work for who were off when I first started but have now come back. I have also covered a few other roles and things due to other staff being off or leaving - it has meant learning new stuff but its also been good and kept me busy - hate being bored in work! There has been mention of me getting my degree through the OU with some funding from work towards the cost so I have been looking into this as if I do an open degree with the U I should get the maximum credit transfer from my previous Uni study - this means it will be cheaper as will have to do less modules and be quicker to do as well. I need to send off my transcript and stuff to the OU to see how many credits they will transfer and I also have to apply for study funding from work which all takes time but is also very exciting - dropping out of Uni was never a mistake for me - the course wasnt right and I was unhappy there - staying for another year and getting into more debt and more depressed would have been stupid so I am glad I dropped out but I do regret not getting my degree so I really hope this all works out for me - better late than never right?

Comping / Freebies / Reviews

I've not been doing as many of these just because I really havent had a huge amount of time. I need to write up a few reviews for items I have been sent which I hope to do in the next couple of days and catch up on everything. I've had a few freebies and a few comping wins that I need to post too but nothing major - small bits to put by for xmas and birthdays but it all helps! I really could use a nice big win haha

Online Dating

At the start of the year I set up a profile - I havent really been on it as I just dont seem to have the time - I keep meaning to but it's such an effort and part of me thinks I should just deactivate the profile until I am actually interested in dating an have the energy for it lol

Health

Auto-immune shit is still happening and with roller derby/skating my joints are super sore and not really working great but apart from that there is nothing new which is good

Other stuff

In other news I've joined a gym and started various classes there - this links in with the health and the roller derby - I think more exercise is good as it builds muscles which will hopefully make me a better skater but also help with the joint problems as I should either lose weight or build up muscle strength so less strain on the joints. I'm also attending a stretch / basic yoga class which is hilarious - high tone and rigid joints plus general fattiness does not make for any good yoga positions but it's supposed to be good for joint health and to help loosen muscles and stiffness.

Sadly my aunty died a couple of weeks ago - she had been battling stage 4 lung cancer for the last 18 months and so whilst its super sad for everyone else at least she is no longer suffering. My cousins organised a beautiful funeral for her which we attended it was really sad and I really felt for them - they have lost their dad and their mum in less than 18 months - both to cancer - their dad had cancer of the esophagus which unfortunately spread he went from all clear to passing in like 6 weeks around 14 months ago.

My UV ink has healed beautifully and I still love my tattoos:) I am getting my next one done on the 6th June and I cant wait for it.