Of art and music

7 May, 2010 - 12:33pm — Riku

So yesterday I went to the Art Honors Society Induction because my Art Honors Society is awesome. It was funny because when we went out to eat afterwards I got a fortune from a fortune cookie that said "You have a deep appropriation of the arts and music". :)

I need to talk to a certain friend of mine about our youth-trans-group-meetings because they always go and then talk about unrelated things and such. And it really bothers me, and a lot of the people there. :/ I've neglected to say anything to them however, but I will. Today. I promised blackbelt I would so I have to.

And also, said friend said I have "some chub" yesterday, and when I said I didn't they repeated and now I feel like I'm fat again. Though I know I'm not because, there's hardly enough for me to grab but I'm -really- susceptible to body issues right now and I know it's something I'll have to work on. But uhh. One thing at a time right now. But yeah, I'm always wearing baggy clothes and they haven't actually seen what I actually look like in a while, they used to poke or grab my stomach (and they sometimes do) and I hate that because I HATE when people just randomly touch me. It actually doesn't really bug me if it's like, the arms or shoulders or my hands or upper back. So they don't actually -know- what I look like. But yeah. I'm always talking about how I think girls need to chill about their bodies because they're all so great looking but I guess that makes me a huge hypocrite doesn't it? Because I am anything but chill about my body, like, not just the trans stuff.

Oh, and I came out to my PE instructor and she's completely failed to contact me since, which is unlike her. Especially since we -need- to talk because I'm like, failing that class AND SHE'S SUPPOSED TO BE CALLING ME ABOUT THAT ANYWAY. It's been a whole week. I'm starting to think she hates me or something. I guess that's what I get for trusting people. *shrugs*

Comments

Damn, about the chub thing, that keeps happining to me. I drum on my stomach randomly for fun, and then somebody straight-up tells me I'm fat .__.
One of them told me to "Go home and eat a hamburger" when I said "Well I'm only chubby because I don't eat RICE EVERYDAY, S"
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You're twisted and perverted. I like that in a person.