September 22, 2008

It is 1:36a and I feel a sense of accomplishment and a little scared. I have finally completed my 9 wk business class (which I have repeated about 3 times). I know I passed but I still feel the fear because I have repeated this class before. All in all I have climbed the wall that has been in my way for so long now. I am scheduled today to start my economics class. I know that I will need a lot of discipline and prayer to make it through the next 9 wks. Well I need to get some kind of sleep. I have 4 hrs left before I get up and start my new day. Sent via BlackBerry from T-Mobile

September 17, 2008

Well today I did. I use to say that I was still at my place of employment because there was somethings that I still need to learn, but you know what I have even tried to see if there is something better out there for me. It is not like I have been trying and I just haven’t had a break. I haven’t done anything, so I can’t say that it is God will that I still am in this same position. Right now I have to blame myself because I haven’t stepped out and tried.

Yesterday I posted a quote and I will re post it now.

“You are where you are today because you’ve chosen to be there.” – Harry Browne,

I look at this quote everyday and it finally hits home today. I chose to still be in this same space and position. It is time for me to step out of the boat and walk on water (Matthew 14:29 – “Come,” he said. The Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus”). It is time to have faith in me and all God has created me to be. So today I promise to each and everyday continue to thank God for what I have and ask him to show me all the potential I have inside.

September 16, 2008

It has been a crazy couple of weeks. It is now Sept. 16Th and I am a couple of days away from finishing up my 9 week block for my Business class. And can I tell you it has been rewarding but very stressful. It has been rewarding because I finally feel I am going to move on with this class (leave that for another post) and on to my next one. It has been stressful because of knowing that I needed this time around to pass. Because of me feeling stressed I started eating all kind of junk food that I should not be and drinking up a storm (in my own house of course). That in itself is bad, but when you do these things knowing you suffer with your stomach it is worse. And all the eating junk food and drinking cranberry juice and vodka caught up with me this pass weekend. I thought I was going to die, my stomach was hurting me so bad. I don’t even want to go into detail with it but all I can say is that I am thankful it passed. But it was a true wake up call that I haven’t been taking care of myself. If I am not taking care of me who will. Now I had my doctor appointment setup before this attack but I am truly glad I did have one setup. I plan on having a full physical and getting all the necessary blood work and test done for my age group.

It is so important if you are an active woman with a family or even if it is just you to make sure you get a yearly physical. I came across a site that gives you a break down of what test you need to have done at certain stages in your life. They even provide you with a screening test checklist: