Friday, August 03, 2012

1219 - Estranged

If you ask about me and my typeI shall sayI never saw any of the greatness of Iran!

It was all the great characteristicsand high personality of our parentswho was like they wereraised in a society other than Iranand raised us the same way, even better.

The world we knew out therewas always in total contradiction,way too dark and ofcoursetoo sad than our warm private family atmosphere!

In a situation this despicableHow can you expect meto respect the kind of peoplewho doesn't respect for whichthat are the very basic values of life?

Either they have forgotten about it little by littleor maybe they even did not learn about it at all,like so many of my generation,who live like they a a bunch of spermsthat were supposed to go down and wastebut accidentally were happened to burst right into this world,this corner of the world,with no warden around!Now they have even become an actual problemBeasts Full of holes in their soulsand their Morality,psycheand behavior!

They have made a world in whichThere is no erotismThere is no satisfactionThere is no soulOr psyche.And about behaviour...there is no maturity in behaviours,and not a bit sense of responsibility!

In a word,there is no awareness or recognition of one's human self!

This is where you look full of sick obsessionsand unsolved knots,and Isimply look like a rude, vile, traitor, motherfucking son of a bitch...

who if we look at ourselves fairly,in some senseless manner, even stupidhave a right to be what we are, truely!Ha ha ha ha

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What I learned or was exposed to in my childhoodI barely forget after all these years.As a child I saw somethinglike a light in the darklike a sweet memorable taste in our constant bitterness of our fatesor any other contradictory description you could think of!and I always tried to keep that little flame alive and lightenedwhile so many people around mewent and built their liveson the basis of the absolute darkness of the sick life on this corner of earth,or adapted themselves with,just for means of getting to know the rules of how world really works out!

Although we both gained nothing;Neither did I found that valuable thingthat I always yearned for something alike,nor did them who blindly went to find a waythat this only dark weird world they ever knew would work for thembut faded away in darkness and gone with the way the wind blew.

But there is one thing herewhich makes all the differences between usand that is:Not only I didn't lose mySELF,I did not lose that little lighting flame either!