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Saturday, September 17, 2011

Dust on my machine

I haven't been making much lately. The sewing machine is literally collecting dust. My shelves of supplies have sat almost untouched for a good week or two at least. In one way, it's strange and sad to me. I feel constantly like a part of me is hiding out, waiting to emerge. I'm not being melodramatic when I say that life doesn't feel as fulfilling to me as it does when I'm busily creating.

But, in another way, there is something calm and refreshing to me about taking a break. It wasn't as if I sat down one day and decided, "I'm not going to sew for a couple weeks." It just sort of happened. Life has gotten the better of me. And I mean that. It's gotten the better of me.

In place of sewing I've been doing preschool every morning with Olivia.

We hear the age-old message all the time that "you don't know what you have 'till it's gone." But sometimes you do know. This is one of those transition times that I've been fully aware of. We've had a whole summer at home together. It's been dull at times, but mostly it's been wonderful just to have so many quiet, lazy days to spend together as a family.

Soon, I know that's all going to change. The warm weather will fade out and bring on colder months. In fact, it's already starting to. Soon enough we'll be spending our days cooped up inside and instead of movie nights, our evenings will doubtless be filled with Bryan studying... and I'll be back to sewing in my little corner. It will be fun and fulfilling to get back into my regular groove.

But I'm not in any rush to get there.

I still look through blogs every day and every day I feel that undeniable sense of urgency to "catch up." But then I tell it to just shush. Because I can write blog posts any old time. Preschool and zoo trips and movie nights? Not so much. :)

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P.S. I'm glad to see that so many of you have been enjoying the Living With Less series! Any requests for upcoming posts on that subject?

I love this post! So well said, "life has gotten the better of me." I love that and had never thought of it in that way. It is such a blessing to take time to slow down and just really enjoy quiet times.