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Shao'Kehn isn't a "soulbond", but the sentiment is very appropriate nonetheless...

I am a 30-something transwoman who is into age play (Ageplay definition) as a little. As such, I am very close to my inner child. I am a writer and photographer as well, and have myriad interests. My spiritual path is eclectic pagan, with quite a bit of my own stuff added. Beyond that, I am also weirdness incarnate. :-)

I am Chaos Incarnate. A Multiple, a neo-mythos neo-pagan, Discordian, Chaote, an Aspie, pansexual, demisexual where men are concerned but not where women are concerned, polyamorous, age play little with a maddy (genderless term, combo between mommy and daddy) {so don't kinkshame age play please!}, a writer, an artist, gender-fluid leaning towards trans feminine, and a bunch of other labels. I am so far out of the box that the box is floating away on the ocean towards the horizon.

NOTE: this LJ is the system blog on LJ for the Djao'Mor'Terra Collective, but only Tempest Alexandria and Fayanora Ahnabahn ever really post in it. Call us Fayanora or Fay unless otherwise indicated. Point of possible confusion: Because we are a multiple system and "Fayanora" is both the name of an individual in that system and the old system name, please use they/them/their when referring to the Djao'Mor'Terra Collective as a whole. Otherwise, assume you're talking to Fayanora Ahnabahn unless informed differently, and use she/her pronouns. Though if you use they/them/their all the time we're cool with that, too.

NOTE TWO: If we're ever rude to you without you having been rude to us first, we apologize. We are a collective, and one of our members (Alex) is a bit of an asshole. Sometimes we're genuinely unaware of the way we sound, and other times it's Alex. Being a collective that share memories and whose members tend to bleed into one another sometimes, sometimes Alex bleeds into us when we're on this account. He has his own account where he's SUPPOSED to keep his assholishness away from our account, but it doesn't always work out that way, especially if we've just switched from his account to this one without some sort of buffer between them, like Pi's account. (Pi is basically Alex's opposite in temperament.) Having been made aware of the problem, we will work on fixing it.

Age: 35 as of July 2017

Gender: Femme genderqueer

Pronouns: Would love djai ( ʒeɪ ) and djair ( ʒeəʳ ), the genderless pronouns of the Ah'Koi Bahnis, but she/her will work fine.

Spirituality (of Tempest/Fay): Neo-mythos technopagan. My spirituality is a unique path I came up with that I call Yahgahn, which is a neo-mythos neopagan path. I came up with this path for a scifi story and fell in love with it, adopting it. Given infinite alternate universes theory, I believe the planet it comes from, Traipah, really exists in some other universe. As such, I believe I lived there in a past life. So I suppose that makes me Otherkin, but I don't have much to do with that community.

I sometimes find other people judging me by their own limitations and worldviews. This is a mistake, because in all my life I struggled to understand concepts that other people take for granted as part of their worldviews. And what I found was that even when I understand these concepts, I generally find them so utterly alien to my own way of thinking that I might as well be an alien living amongst humans. So I'm going to take a moment and point out some things that you should be aware of if you want to understand me:

1. I do not understand the concept that the shape, size, texture, color, or any other attribute of any part of one's body can be used to define the entirety of who they are as a person. I reject utterly the notion that you are your body. Humans are not their bodies: humans are their minds and souls. The body is just a tool of those. And, like any tool, if it doesn't match what you want to do with it, this becomes a problem. Just as you presumably would not use a chainsaw to hammer in a nail, a person may find their mental and spiritual state of being to differ from that of their body. I happen to have a rather severe case of this, largely due to the fact that I see only one body when there should be at least nine bodies, due to my mind having multiplied itself by a factor of nine. No matter how I look at it, my body does not in any wise fit my mind and soul.

2. I do not understand the concept that anyone is in any way, shape, or form better or worse than anyone else. People just are what they are. I reject utterly the notion that anyone is better or worse than anyone else.

3. I fail to understand how anyone can think one form of life is better than another. I find humanity to be such an arrogant species in regards to thinking themselves better than other animals and other forms of life just because they think they're cleverer. I think anyone who doesn't already realize that animals and plants feel pain is being either delusional or dense or both. I always thank the spirits of my food for their sacrifice, and always regret that life must feed on life to continue.

4. I fail to understand why everyone must behave the same way, think the same way, and all be the same. I reject utterly the whole concept of “normal” as utterly irrelevant, boring, and even possibly blasphemous (if anything can be said to be blasphemous), as it claims God values sameness, when a quick glance at the world's myriad lifeforms immediately disproves this fallacy.

5. I reject utterly the notion of “separate.” All life is connected to all other life. When we hurt the least of us, we hurt ourselves; especially if we did it intentionally. Fail to help another, and you fail to help yourself.

6. I don't understand this need people seem to have to always be right. Who cares if you're right or wrong? Why do you care? Does being right do any good? Why must you force others to believe as you do? I reject utterly the need to be right.

7. I don't understand why people are willfully mean to one another over differences of opinion. But I make a distinction, also, in that any opinion which says someone should die for something they can't help about themselves, or for any harmless thing they're doing, is bad. That is, if your opinion devalues anyone's humanity for their religion, race, gender identity, sexual preference, neurostatus, or the level of their ability, especially if that opinion of them includes wishing death on them, then I will not hesitate to block you and/or lay the verbal smackdown on you for your violent hate speech. I will not tolerate intolerance, and I will not tolerate anyone who thinks that I should. And it harm none, do as ye will, but hateful words ARE harmful, so no, I do not respect any opinion that is hateful, harmful, and violent.

I think that about covers it. More later if I think of more

(Click the picture to get at least an idea of the meanings. Though only "ingenuus memes" are defined there yet. That and the opposites of the others.)

"But I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked."Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.""How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice."You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."---from "Alice In Wonderland" by Lewis Carroll (Aptly describes both this LJ and the planet Earth.)

Quotes I like:

"In the same way that a shoddy workman blames his tools, a shoddy society blames its language."

and

"Life is pain, but that's a good thing, and death is a waste of everyone's time and money."---both by gkathellar

Quotes about me:

"Well, I for one think you are much more brave than you are weird."---our_menagerie

"I'll give an opinion of the person I ganked this from: Fayanora. Chaos incarnate. Which is freakin' awesome."---squallygirl