i am totally enamoured of the city. it's amazing. everywhere i go i want
to smile. i want to smile at people. i realize of course that they'll
think that i'm completely off my rocker. but that's okay, because this
city is growing on me. though talking to
maura at the company happy hour (free
drinks and food on the company -- woohoo!) i'm thinking that this might
last a couple of years at the most.

i mean i'm expecting to become bitter way before that.

on the other hand, i've found more pretty things in the city. so many
pretty things. and people. and clothes. but looking out the window of
the subway, standing as the only seats that were available were the ones
next to the people who felt that they had the need to take up a seat and a
half, not so much because they needed to, but more because they didn't
want anyone sitting next to them and this way they didn't look like
they were trying to take up room, but really were.

so standing on the subway looking out the window, seeing sparks, little
bolts of lighting, shooting up from the tracks, illuminating the walls,
the graffiti. there are things that i would like to record. things that
i wish i could replay over and over, to show people, to say "hey, i saw
this really cool thing that you really just had to be there to experience
and let me share with you this recorded experience." i want to do this
because the world can be such an interesting place sometimes.

but if experiences were infintely diplicatable, then individual
experiences would probably become worthless. either that, or they'd
become commodities, and then we wouldn't just be able to share them. we'd
have to sell experiences and some experiences would be worth more than
others, and you'd be worth more the more your experiences.

you are the sum of your experiences, right? that probably means that the
experiences should be internalized, no put out there for everyone to
touch.

after all, isn't that what the human experience of storytelling is for?