Are You Listening?

This tastes wrong
Not the way it used to
Begging me to stay
Rather than pushing me to leave
Yet I am not even me anymore
So that could be part of the problem
As every passing moment pushes me closer to the edge
My demise is inevitable
Although I wonder if I can still be saved
My unwillingness to change will only hold me down
Still I am changing
Unrecognizable
Could you still find me?
Or am I already forgotten?
You’re not even looking anymore

I thought this was something else
Way back when
At the beginning
All the times I tried to correct my mind
It wandered anyway
And I don’t believe in any of this anymore
As my heart beats
None of it is for you
Though is it for me?
I’m guessing there is no answer

I have found myself searching again
No longer content
As every new face is a curiosity
Brinking on obsession
Though love is nonexistent
Something exists within me
That is begging to be loved
You never would
None of them could
It’s too late for that anyhow
So I’ll take my bow

I just needed a last hurrah
My eyes are set on one
Trying to keep it a secret
It’s already known
Please hear this
My words are scattered
Still ringing true
Whispering
Are you listening?