Want to self harm

I'm not expecting responses, just want to clear my head. I can't get thoughts of self harm out of my head. Want to cut, od or damage my already broken arm. In a really self destructive mood, and feeling really low. Don't know if it's just attention seeking (but I'm on my own) or a sign I'm going to have a few bad days again after being in a manic high mood for a few days.

GracieLoo, I'm really not qualified to help you. Is there a support line you can find someone is is. I'm happy to listen but I think you need people around you. Try not to worry aboit the new doctor. You might find someone really supportive. You need need to let them know that support would help you x

I can't cope with anything. Moving house and thought I'd be fine staying at same surgery but was told I can't by a horrible receptionist. I don't want to go somewhere where they won't know me and what I'm going through. I'm not good with change, I'm struggling at the moment, it's too hard. Also I'd have to leave my HV who is the best support I've had the last 4 years. She goes out of her way, and I know dd won't need a HV soon but she would still be around for a bit longer. I panic so much at the thought of not seeing people again, and being left on my own to cope.

Going out tonight, scared, anxious, doesn't feel right. I want to drink and I'm not good, once I start I keep going til I'm an emotional wreck. Sounds stupid and I should know better, but in a way I cam just escape from my head for a few hours.

Cpn is ringing today, but don't know what time. Chest feels tight, got headache, been snappy with dd so left her in tears at nursery which I feel awful about. Might just go back to bed as making a mess of everything.

Had a long hard day at work. Quickly spoke to cpn first thing but I couldn't speak for crying, and didn't want to be like that before work. She's phoning tomorrow then off for a week which panics me. I'm all over the place, plus knackered from waking up too early. I know I'm not well but tried everything and I'm scared this is what my life is going to be like.

I've taken diazepam before, might ask for more for desperate times. On a low dose of venlafaxine, but because of od's when I've been so sick I find it physically and mentally hard actually taking tablets now. Feeling so exhausted now, eyes are sore from crying, but I don't want to go to bed as tomorrow will come quicker and I don't want to wake up tomorrow.

I work part time in quite a stressful job, work long days. I see a cpn fortnightly, saw her today and she gives me techniques to use and I keep a mood diary. But doing anything is so hard when I get in a panicky, crying state. I want to just sit still, or lie in bed and not move til I can stop crying, not always possible with children. I can't stop the negative thoughts.

Can you call these people for help...I know that it seems silly, and that we sometimes feel "yeah, but I am just being selfish and attention seeking" but you need to have someone you can call, if not this time, then next. They would rather you called and had a chat than had to pick up the pieces after you OD. You will be regarded as a better mother if you call for help.

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Thanks, I have been told about the ice cube thing, and an elastic band around the wrist. It's just not the same though, should try it I know. Hate Sunday nights as get so anxious about work, and want to cry whilst thinking of excuses I could use to not go to work. But I always go in and just get really stressed about it. Had a nice mothers day lunch today, but feel so empty inside.

No need to feel worse about that...thats what they are there for. Can you sleep? Things may seem less intense in the morning. Lots of people care, they just probably dont know how to help. Keep posting, there are people here for you.

That doesn't sound stupid, I do sometimes watch sad stuff to make myself cry. But I don't need to now, I'm just crying in bed and I can't stop. Feel very stupid, my wrist hurt and swelled up so I just quickly went to the walk in centre, was so quiet so was seen straight away. Was told I might need an xray but it's shut right now so come back tomorrow, she wasn't too worried. I'm not either, think I panicked a bit plus wanted someone there. I wouldn't have wasted their time if it had been busy. But I feel daft now, and worse than I did before, plus my arm is now aching, all my fault.