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Sunday, 12 March 2017

Living With PMDD - Kerry's Story

Today, I am sharing another guest post, written by the wonderful Kerry. It is important to share these experiences with you as it could just help you or someone else you know. Here is Kerry's story.

Several years ago I noticed a pattern with my severe depression and anxiety to roughly a week and a half before my period. In this time I would feel so depressed that I no longer wanted to live, I wouldn't speak to anyone, I wouldn't even want to interact with anyone or leave my safe haven (my room) I would have full blown panic attacks and feel like dying would be better off for me.

The hopelessness and suicidal thoughts I would feel the week before my period consumed me so much that I eventually had no choice but to see my doctor before I ended up in hospital on suicide watch. I was diagnosed with PMDD and the doctors didn't know a lot about the disorder due to it being rarely spoke about or researched but it was something which existed and I realised not long after that more and more women came forward with the same symptoms.

PMDD isn't your usual PMS, we've all had the usual PMS and recovered however PMDD is a disorder in which the symptoms of PMS are maximised beyond belief and your life doesn't feel good to living in. You feel suicidal and you also feel like a danger to yourself.

I am currently managing my PMDD month on month with Propanalol however there is no cure, and doctors aren't clued up as much as other disorders as PMDD is rarely spoken about. I would love if more awareness could be done in regards to helping other women who are going through the same.

Many women do end up with the hysterectomy as it is the only way to get your life back which is quite sad but surely it must make the health professionals wonder why it takes something so drastic for a cure x

I only found out about it once I started with the symptoms and Googled (eek) it. I went to numerous GP's to be told its "just anxiety" but after a year of fighting I was told it was PMDD. I hope the propranolol helps you x