"Because he was born on the cusp between Cancer and Leo—which is to say, drawn on one side to the hermit’s cave, on the other to centerstage—he both craved the familiarity of a private, personal domestic space and loathed the idea of being fettered by permanence or possession. At least astrologers would attribute the ambivalence to his natal location. Someone else might point out that it was simply an acute microcosmic reflection of the fundamental nature of the universe."
Tom Robbins

Friday, March 11, 2005

Super Ego

I Live: in fear of regret.I Work: in fierce spurts under intense pressure.I Talk: to my deaf dog.I Wish: I could speak Italian.I Enjoy: very expensive food.I Look: exactly the same as I did in 10th grade.I Must: get back to South Africa.I Forget: to balance my checkbook.I Find: small orange mushrooms and owl feathers and helpless bats and cool rocks.I Smell: like Coco Chanel or rosemary-mint shampoo.I Listen: to my sister's advice.I Hide: the good snacks.I Pray: for guidance and clarity.I Walk: fast.I Write: for work and because I am compelled to.I See: spiders on the ceiling. It's like a superpower.I Sing: in my car, but if anyone starts listening, I immediately become tone deaf.I Laugh: at inappropriate things.I Left: for Africa three years ago almost to the day.I Won: a pair of mountaineering boots from The Gear Guy in Outside Mountain.I Can: jump four feet on horseback.I Watch: bonfires and the ocean.I Yearn: for Architecture Student.I Daydream: incessantly.I Fall: over my shoes, my dog, my dirty laundry.I Want: a new longboard.I Cry: in church, when I am frustrated.I Burn: rice.I Read: For Better of For Worse every day.I Love: reading the NYT in bed.I Rode: a whale in a dream once.I Touch: my dog in the middle of the night to make sure she's still there.I Hurt: myself when I'm sad.I Fear: change and long for it.I Hope: Bush suffers a fatal hemorrhoid.I Use: Colgate toothpaste.I Break: (brake) for no one.I Eat: my fingernails at the movies.I Quit: my job.I Bathe: with candles and romance novels.I Still: want my mom when I'm sick.I Drink: bourbon in winter and gin in summer.I Stop: to help people who look lost.I Save: earthworms when it rains.I Lost: my high school ring.I Take: the dirt road if it's an option.I Trip-Out: about abuse of women's rights.I Hug: my boyfriend and he says, "Ow."I Play: with my baby niece and my parents' dog.I Miss: boarding school.I Hold: rock ledges with my fingertips.I Forgive: other people more than myself.I Drive: my eccentric godmother everywhere, because she's so scary behind a wheel.I Learn: more about love every day.I Have: a birthmark on my arm.I Remember: my grandmother's phone number. She died in 1993.I Don't: like green bell peppers.I Like: warm bread and naps after fox hunting.I Made: a crocheted blanket, but it's too small.I Kiss: on the lips, which sometimes people don't expect.I Wait: for my dog all the time.I Need: to be more motivated.I Owe: a lot of money to the bank right now.I Hate: confrontation.I Can't: do cartwheels or roll my tongue.I Know: how to set a broken bone in the wilderness.I Applaud: my friends' success.I Am: extremely tired.I Figure: I'll go home. It's five o'clock.