"this is what it looks like", a work-in-progress, is about the desperation I feel while going through re-occurring mental health crisis' in my family. I make these images for myself, as a way to cope with the immeasurable amount of stress, anxiety, and heartache that I experience while trying to help, understand, and remain empathetic. In my history of dealing with mental health conditions, the debilitating toll bestowed upon loved ones is an unspoken subject, leaving people like myself to experience a loneliness and isolation that no artist statement can describe.