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Ever since I can remember, each morning my grandfather would sit on the side of his bed, legs dangling down towards the floor where his slippers waited patiently for him to adorn them, eyes closed, and silently he would begin to list off everything he was thankful for. For years I would watch him do this (growing up my dad and I lived with or next door to my grandparents practically my whole life), never knowing of fully understanding the reasoning behind it. When I was about 9 or 10, I asked him.
"Grandpa, why do you do that?"
"Why do I do what?"
"Sit there in the morning like that. Like your still sleeping. Why do you do that?"
"Ooh Sarah, one day you will understand. See, this is the only time I get a moment to remind myself all the things I have to be thankful for. A very small moment before I need to start my day. Sometimes, when the days are unbearably difficult and long, it's very hard to remember everything …

January 8, 2019
Earlier last week I talked a little bit about my goals for the upcoming year - what I wanted to add into my life for 2019. Typically you hear everyone talking about all the things they want to take away - and honestly, that’s great - if that works for you. You do you. But I find that when I start removing things from my life, I end up with a load of resentment, anger, frustration and am all around less happy. However, I find when I incorporate something that that positively impacts my life, not only do I feel like my life is full - for lack of a better word- but those things that I would have normally given up, naturally just fall away.... I’m sure I’m not making much sense - writing was never my strong suit.
So, last night was the first night of the Ballet class I signed up for - and yes I still went. I was counting down the hours until I got off work so I could go - I was like a little kid waiting for Christmas, or their best friend to come over for a play da…

January 3, 2019
Holy Jesus.
I honestly can’t believe that I’m about to do this. Actually, this is exactly the kind of thing 20 year old Sarah would have done. Why did I ever stop being her?
This year I decided that I’m digging deep down and finding her again. The girl who used to dance, go hiking and camping, sung songs by a campfire, went out with friends, didn’t drink nearly as much....
I decided to write out a bucket list for the next 12 months. 12 things I want to incorporate into my life - and were gonna take baby steps. So here we go - Start a dance class. Any dance class.. and go once a week.Take a hike. Get outside and just go. Pack a lunch, turn off the phone, grab the new Cannon and head up to the mountain for the day. Go camping - for just a weekend - pack as little as possible and just go enjoyTake a road trip - and don’t have a plan Go to a concert Take the kids fishing Stop drinking that nightly glass of wine. I don’t need it. Drink more tea, SarahStart a …