This is a classic "shit or get off the pot" moment. By that I don't mean you need to do anything, really. Only that you need to weigh your options:

- Discordia: some yahoos who believe doing what is right equals doing what they want, with high doses of horror and mirth.- Other: other yahoos who believe doing what is right equals doing what you're told, with high doses of horror disguised as mirth.- Nothing: just you, squeaking out an existence between all other forces. dodging bullets 007-style. evading capture. on second thought this is also Discordia, so nevermind.

Just weigh those options for a moment. I don't know what place Discordia occupies in your mind, nor should I. All I know is it's there, and if you don't need it or want it, you should get rid of it. Fuck, that's what it's all about. By doing so you'd only be proving yourself a Discordian, in that you have the guts to throw away a framework of ideas that just don't do it for you anymore.

The problem is you've been infected. You can go whichever way you want, but Discordia is in your genome now, and it's actively rearranging your DNA. It isn't just some philosophy you can pick up and put down again. What you know, you can't un-know. What you've seen can't be unseen. The fact that you are able to question whether you belong is evidence that you do.

Oh, no, no, no, I like this. I like this new train of thought. I've just figured out that our entire philosophy is bullshit, and not only is it bullshit, but it was helpfully pointing out the fact that it was bullshit the entire time. But I couldn't see it. I was so fixated, so desperate to have something to anchor myself to, even if it was the deliberate rejection of the usual anchors, that I swallowed it all even as it told me what it was.And how magnificent is that? The audacity! The genius of it! How beautifully recursive, how self-contradictory it all is. In suckering me into buying into it, it has made me the ultimate example of everything it was trying to say about humans from the beginning. And so, even in demonstrating itself to be bullshit, it demonstrates itself to be true.

Oh, no, no, no, I like this. I like this new train of thought. I've just figured out that our entire philosophy is bullshit, and not only is it bullshit, but it was helpfully pointing out the fact that it was bullshit the entire time. But I couldn't see it. I was so fixated, so desperate to have something to anchor myself to, even if it was the deliberate rejection of the usual anchors, that I swallowed it all even as it told me what it was.And how magnificent is that? The audacity! The genius of it! How beautifully recursive, how self-contradictory it all is. In suckering me into buying into it, it has made me the ultimate example of everything it was trying to say about humans from the beginning. And so, even in demonstrating itself to be bullshit, it demonstrates itself to be true.

Oh, no, no, no, I like this. I like this new train of thought. I've just figured out that our entire philosophy is bullshit, and not only is it bullshit, but it was helpfully pointing out the fact that it was bullshit the entire time. But I couldn't see it. I was so fixated, so desperate to have something to anchor myself to, even if it was the deliberate rejection of the usual anchors, that I swallowed it all even as it told me what it was.And how magnificent is that? The audacity! The genius of it! How beautifully recursive, how self-contradictory it all is. In suckering me into buying into it, it has made me the ultimate example of everything it was trying to say about humans from the beginning. And so, even in demonstrating itself to be bullshit, it demonstrates itself to be true.

Just because it's bullshit doesn't mean it isn't valid. There's no need to wander off into nihilism.

Oh, no, no, no, I like this. I like this new train of thought. I've just figured out that our entire philosophy is bullshit, and not only is it bullshit, but it was helpfully pointing out the fact that it was bullshit the entire time. But I couldn't see it. I was so fixated, so desperate to have something to anchor myself to, even if it was the deliberate rejection of the usual anchors, that I swallowed it all even as it told me what it was.And how magnificent is that? The audacity! The genius of it! How beautifully recursive, how self-contradictory it all is. In suckering me into buying into it, it has made me the ultimate example of everything it was trying to say about humans from the beginning. And so, even in demonstrating itself to be bullshit, it demonstrates itself to be true.

Just because it's bullshit doesn't mean it isn't valid. There's no need to wander off into nihilism.

Oh, no, it's valid. But I find it hilarious, because it ties in perfectly with something I found a bit of a mindfuck from the beginning. A single sentence: All dichotomies are false. Which doesn't make any sense if you try to follow it logically, because if all dichotomies are false, that includes the true/false dichotomy, rendering the statement totally meaningless. But then the meaningless/meaningful dichotomy is also false, which is itself a meaningless statement, and things get all infinitely recursive from there and I get a headache. And I figured that was chaos, in a nutshell. And it's coming back again.

Oh, no, no, no, I like this. I like this new train of thought. I've just figured out that our entire philosophy is bullshit, and not only is it bullshit, but it was helpfully pointing out the fact that it was bullshit the entire time. But I couldn't see it. I was so fixated, so desperate to have something to anchor myself to, even if it was the deliberate rejection of the usual anchors, that I swallowed it all even as it told me what it was.And how magnificent is that? The audacity! The genius of it! How beautifully recursive, how self-contradictory it all is. In suckering me into buying into it, it has made me the ultimate example of everything it was trying to say about humans from the beginning. And so, even in demonstrating itself to be bullshit, it demonstrates itself to be true.

Just because it's bullshit doesn't mean it isn't valid. There's no need to wander off into nihilism.

Oh, no, it's valid. But I find it hilarious, because it ties in perfectly with something I found a bit of a mindfuck from the beginning. A single sentence: All dichotomies are false. Which doesn't make any sense if you try to follow it logically, because if all dichotomies are false, that includes the true/false dichotomy, rendering the statement totally meaningless. But then the meaningless/meaningful dichotomy is also false, which is itself a meaningless statement, and things get all infinitely recursive from there and I get a headache. And I figured that was chaos, in a nutshell. And it's coming back again.

I think that is probably one of the things I like about Discordia, everything is both bullshit and not bullshit, and there is and isn't a difference between the two anyways.Because the universe is weirder than you can imagine and is under no compulsion to make any fucking sense.

I'm pretty certain at this point that I'm going to despise being a Metro-Boston resident until May.

Twid,Got home awhile ago, still wearing jacket.

It was 97F here today.

Just saying.

It rained today. A fair amount. I finally got issued wet weather gear by my reserve unit, at the end of the day, when it stopped raining. Told a bunch of kids to stop crying about how cold it was this morning.

Then the tentacles came out and it was time to centermasstriggersqueezeSCRRAAAAAAAPEPOP