Dream Interpretation, Therapy, Transformation

What I Learned About Power on My Sunday Morning Run

I like to reserve Sunday mornings for my long runs so today I decided that it was time that I give myself a challenge by upping the distance to 21 k. I haven’t run 21k for awhile, but I have been gradually increasing my activity level in the last few weeks so when that happens, the thought of a longer run just automatically enters. The run was going quite well, but 21k is 21k. (long) I started playing around with some nlp things about encouragement and relationship and finally power so I thought I would share them here in the case that others might be interested.

The really interesting thing about whether I was dealing with encouragement or relationship or power was that when my inner self was negative, then my outer self became tense and, hence the run became more difficult. The more positive the relationship I had with my true self during the run, the more relaxed I was and the better I felt. It seems quite simple and obvious, but here is how it played itself out. The nice thing about running is that it is an activity that you can do by yourself and in order to do it you need to have a good relationship with your own self. So the first issue that came up was that I was trying to get someone else to have a positive relationship with me and then I found my mind trying to play with the pattern of how to get them to have a positive relationship with me. What I realized was that I could have a positive relationship with my own self, so I dropped trying to get others to have a positive relationship with me and then suddenly an image of me running along beside me as my best friend just popped like we were running arm in arm. At that point my body really relaxed and I just felt so great. This was somewhere about 8-9k into the run. I kept that image for awhile and then another issue showed up further down the roade which had much more to do with encouragement. Encouragement is more like a positive voice that keeps you going so when the issue came up, the voice was quite negative and critical and really didn’t want to have a relationship with me. As I let go of the negative voice I found that the encouraging self appeared on as if it were on a bicycle next to me riding in a really relaxed way. The encouraging self just gave me a nice plan and allowed me even more relaxation. This happened around 12-13k.

Somewhere around 15-16k I started feeling really worn out and tired. It was already about 30 C. I was filled with thoughts about trying to get people in authority in all kinds of situations to become powerful in a positive way to make things better. This is a huge recurring theme in my life so I knew that since the relational and encouraging work had gone so well that I would give my powerful self a go. What was interesting was that while the relational and encouraging selves appeared like images beside or near me, the empowered self was inside me. I could feel it working on me feeling my body and my strength while I was running, but at the same time it was telling me where to relax. At 18-19k I was still running at about the same pace that I was at 8-9k even when I had slowed down when the issue first appeared.

As I stayed with the empowered self it began to remind me of past runs that I had made at distance and started to get my body to run like those runs rather than running fatigued and slowed down. So what I gained from the last part of the run was that empowerment arises when you feel your strength inside as if you are very relaxed but also feeling how strong you are. It seems to come when I can change the focus away from other people’s power to my own memories when I felt strong in the past.

In summary, relational energy seems to be right beside me, encouraging energy is near but the focus is more auditory where as relational is visual and kinesthetic, and empowered energy seems to be very kinesthetic feeling of being relaxed and strong at the same time that is generated from a positive memory.

If you try this exercise, first just let the issue appear, spend some time analyzing it, and then let go of the negative energy so that you can acquire some of the positive energies. Besides the three mentioned there is also a fourth energy, the enlightened self, which is more about guidance. It has more to do with the issue of not finding your way, but it was not on my journey today. When you find yourself lost or on the wrong path or on a path that someone else has lead you to, the issue usually has something to do with purity of motive.