Date: Tue, 4 Mar 2014 21:14:01 -0800
From: Connor PIper
Subject: A New start 1
First of (Hopefully many)
Usual warnings apply for Nifty.org (Gay sex, harsh language, ect.)
Sorry about the margins. :P
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I was 19, I had just entered a College hoping to get a degree and live a
life with money, not with a partner. I knew I was gay, I had convinced
myself that I was not for years. But there is no pushing down emotions such
as that. I had only entered college because I knew that I would suppress
that feeling and move on with my life. I would get some money (With a desk
job), buy a nice house that fit my demanding tastes and then get a Volvo
S60 R-Design. That was it, I had a plan. I knew that, living in
California, that I was much safer as a homosexual. I still contained
myself. I would know I would have friends. I had them in highschool, but I
went to a separate college. I just needed to get the right ones, and make
up a ton of crap.
So, I drove. I took the long route, it was fall. Rain had just fallen, and
the trees were pushing their warm colors to mix with the dark, deep sky. I
was driving my car, my baby, I had always been into cars and computers. But
in a different way, but, I always had a different way. When everyone
bought Macs and Dells, I bought a Sony. When everyone had Civics and
Trucks, I had my beloved 2000 Volvo S80 (with the dual-turbo, of course).
So I sat in silence, winding around the road. I usually was a music
person. I had my phone and my headphones (Yea, everyone had Beats, I had
Sonys). My Volvo also had quite the sound system for its time. I realized
that I was trailing off, noticing the water on the windshield, the hum of
the transmission. So I got my phone and started some Electronic music. I
was back to my old self, alone, in my car. Singing to the lyrics in the
music and bouncing around. I laughed, I was content.
I know you want to know about me, well. I am regular height (I was short as
a kid) and have brown/blonde hair. My eyes are very striking, they are a
Ice Blue color. I love them, I have always loved my eyes. I was somewhat
skinny, no six-pack. But there was abs, they were just, whatever. I cared a
bit, but I never worked out. I have always been on the skinny side. I
again, just went with it. So I turned on the seat heater, popped on Pandora
and just went with what was on. I was getting close to a civilized area,
my stomach churning, I was nervous. Would my room-mate be a Douchey piece
of shit? Or a slob? I was not organized, but I was not dirty. I always
called it `A clean mess' because things were just thrown everywhere, but
they were clean. Not clothes, not food, just wires, chargers, pens,
computer things. So I pulled into the parking lot. I parked in the middle
of two empty spaces, I loved my car. I was the only thing that I still
showed affection to. I had left my parents, I did not hate them. Just
afraid, of myself. I had just lived on my own with a job at BestBuy a year
before college. I was not lonely, but I was not the most outgoing person. I
went to the dorms offices, all I brang was my laptop. I had money, not
tons. But I had it, I was good at spending it. I had a pretty laptop, with
a screen that flipped around. I walked to the door, took a breath, and
walked in. I went, to the desk.There was a woman there, she was in
business type clothes.
"Hello, I'm here to check in. Or whatever you guys do here" I said
"Oh, yes. I just need you to sign some forms, Mr..." She said
"Just call me nick, Nick" as I placed my computer on the lower desk next to
me
"Well, Nick, here is the dorm compliance agreement, you are not to
contribute in explicit activities listed in the forms. That means no
drinking" Yea right "No smoking and no disturbances after 9pm" She said in
a `I'm doing my job, prick' sort of way
"Sure" I said
"Okay Sign here, and here and I will give you your keycard and your room
number"
"Okay" I pulled out my pen, rejecting the one she gave me, and signed every
little box
"You are good to go! Here is your card, use it to open the building doors
and your room door." She looked at a paper, clicked on her keyboard then
replied with "You will be room 256, on the third floor"
"Okay, thanks" I grabbed the card, my laptop and walked to my car.
I drove till I got to a spot closer to the dorms. I parked my S80 and got
my laptop and my basic suitcase. I would get my hell of a desktop and two
monitors later. I got to the room, placed the card in the spot, breathed,
and walked in. There was no-one inside. It was a one roomer, with two
desks, two beds, and a bathroom. I liked the fact that I did not shower in
public, I hoped not to get a boner in there.
I shivered at the thought. I put down my laptop on the desk opened it, and
moved my suitcase to the bed in which I chose. Then, I got on my laptop,
hoping my roommate would help me with my Desktop and bring it up with me.
I sat in the chair, and typed away on Skype, telling my staff on a
Minecraft server that I had made it. I was a Admin, I ran the whole show.
I did everything, the owner, was an old friend. But I have not seen him on
in a while. I ran a top-notch server. People paid for things, and we
provided. It was a business, that I was not willing to lose, just
yet. Then I hear the beep of the keycard in the door, and my roommate
walked in. He was fairly tall, had black hair and tanned skin. He was not
my type, but quite pretty nevertheless. I said I would not do this to my
roommate, so I stopped.
Then I realized that we had been staring at each other for about 7 secs. I
cleared my throat and got up.
"Hi, my names Nick" And shook his hand, trying to be "regular"
"Hey, I'm Tom" Then name took me back, he did not look like a Tom,
whatever. Long pause...
"Soooo" I said, very awkwardly
"Oh, sorry, can you help me with some of my stuff?" He said
"Sure, i'll be needing some help myself too" and I smiled
"Okay, great, thanks, I just need to get my monitor up here" And I took a
breath
"So you are a computer guy too!" I said with excitement
"I guess you could call me that, I built my computer" he snickered
"You have got to be the best roommate ever!" I (Almost) shouted
"Okay, Lets get to my car" and he turned around and walked to the door
We got both of our computers in the room and then hooked them up, assorted
cords, booted them. Got things ready. And then looked at the others build.
"Bro, we're 3570K brothers!" and he high-fived me
"Oh my god, I never thought that `Bro' and `3570K' could be used in a
sentence together. Thats like a football player using a calculator" I
laughed
"lol, I know" I thought, He just said lol...
"Well, I'm going to head off, I have to get some stuff and get ready for
class tomorrow" I said
"Yea, me too. Isn't it weird that they have class the very next day?" He
asked
"I don't know, I bet the first week will be easy" I said
Oh, but was I wrong The very next day I was in class. My Engineering
teacher was fast talking, young, and made quite a lot of puns. I was
thinking to myself, with my computer open. I was just thinking, about my
car, about my life, about my roommate. I regained my notice of the world,
and looked around my classroom. And thats when I saw him...
I was staring for I don't know how long, at this boy. Man. Thing. I don't
know. He was striking, very intense, his eyes, so Ice blue, almost grey.
His face, wonderful. His hair, light blonde. He was sitting in the other
side of the room. I was staring at him. Was this love at first sight? I
don't know. I just wanted to know about him, was he gay? Well, I'm keeping
my hopes up. I was not that lucky, and anyways, he was out of my
league. The class had ended, but I was still staring at him.
Everyone started shifting, he put his computer away and got up. Then. He
noticed me, almost with my mouth open. And I broke my stare, feeling
embarrassed and quickly got my stuff and left. I did not look back. What
would he say? What would he do?
I don't know, I just walked and went through 2 more classes. It was late
when my 2nd class was done and I went for a nice drive, stopped at a coffee
shop, worked on some online class stuff. And then drove back to the dorms.
I got back, it was almost dark outside. I left my stuff in my car, I would
go to dinner later then bring it in then. I was going to ask my roommate
to come with me, we could entertain each other with computer talk. If he
had plans/friends. Oh well. I got my keycard ready, opened the building
door with thought. Then, there he was. He was there, standing at a door
trying to get in, I could tell he was frustrated, the key card would not
work on the door to the dorm he was trying to enter. He got mad and turned
my way, probably to get to the dorm office for another card. He saw
me. Staring at him for at least 20 secs. That brought me back to reality,
his powerful stare. He realized who I was. His motions indicated that he
would say something. My face, red. I grabbed my car keys from my pocket and
quickly moved out of there. He yelled "Hey!" just as the door was
shutting. I got in my car and went to a close restaurant ordered some to-go
food. And took the back entrance to the dorms this time. I went to my room,
and ate while studying. I realized that Tom was sleeping on his bed. I soon
got tired and went to bed soon after typing my final line. I woke the next
morning, and got my stuff ready, I went to engineering. I did not stare at
Beautiful (My new nickname for him) and just worked.
I went through my other 2 classes without incident. This time I was going
to the library, I got my computer sat down at a table. The table was quite
big, but the library was silent.
I got my computer and a text book, I was typing some notes from the book
to my computer. Someone entered the library and sat on the bench opposite
to table that I was at. He sat down some stuff and was about 2 feet from
me, just across the table at a slight angle. I did not think of anything, I
was busy. Just typing. About 20 mins later he asked with the voice that I
had thought of all night "Hey, can I borrow a piece of paper off you, I was
stupid and forgot my binder"
I looked up.
It was Beautiful, I tried not to jitter. I said yes and went to get my
binder.
He was not looking at me when I said that, so I doubt he recognised me. I
was thinking, how do I impress him? How do you impress him with how you
open a binder? I just got a couple pages of paper and handed them out.
He looked up and a said with those powerful eyes
"Thanks" he said quickly, without thought
I soon replied, without thinking "No, thank you" then slapped my hands to
my face What have I done! He looked up again, and this time recognised
me. He was about to say something, but I was quick. I got my backpack and
computer and left as fast as possible. I got to my dorm, put my computer
down, and then realized that my binder was not there. I had left it on the
desk when I ran from Beautiful. I said shit quietly and left the room.
I walked to the library, scanning for Beautiful. I got to the building,
entered, and walked to the table. There was no Beautiful, just my textbook
that I had left. My binder, gone.
I put my head down. Where had my binder gone? Where is Beautiful? Was he
telling his jock friends to `Beat up that fag'? I was tired anyways. I went
back to my dorm.
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Okay, first one here. Please E-Mail me for suggestions. I have more of the
story already done. I just have to make sure you don't find this to be
utter crap :P
Thanks! E-Mail: thatvolvoguy80@gmail.com (This is my "Other Use" E-Mail)