Sunday, June 25, 2017

I lost my
job and have another one already. Why did I lose it? I don’t even know, no
reason but maybe there is but it’s not my fault at all. Geez I really need to
write a second book one day ;) The new job is way much better and that’s all
that matters :) But I don’t even know for how long I am going to have it. But you know what? I’m going to be fine no matter what!

I also
wanted to re pierce my medusa and it didn’t work out at all. I was at the
piercing studio here in my town and it wasn't pierced straight. I broke down a
little and didn’t even wanna go back there I had such a trauma! But my hubby’s
my support and he said I’m gonna re pierce it in Poland, at the right studio. He’s
not a big fan of piercings himself but he’s so supportive… he’s just what I
needed!

And exactly what I feared would happen just happened. My mom's got cancer and I just found out today that it's malignant. But she’s also got me and I won’t ever leave her. That’s why
I’m getting her some unconventional methods of treatment that she asked me for.
And I truly believe she’s going to be fine! But it's all because of the stress my fucking father provided us over the last 9 months. Nevertheless I'm not gonna leave it like that and he's gonna pay for everything!

And this is
the town I live in on the pictures. I’m still at this adjustment process and
it’s hard but I’m going to be ok. I’m glad to gain all of these new
experiences and learn from them. I’m also glad that these tough situations only
bring me and my husband way much closer. So one day when we finally have our place, we’re gonna be proud of ourselves that we managed to get it on our
own, without anybody's help.

Sunday, June 04, 2017

This blog
is going to change a little bit. I’m not gonna post my outfits any longer
because I left most of my clothes in Poland since I wasn’t able to take’em
here. I’m just gonna post the regular pics of myself, from my trips etc, just
my life in the Netherlands.

I came here over 3 weeks ago but it feels like I’ve been here for like 2 months, there’s just so
much going on! A lot of things are different than in Poland: the buildings, stores,
everything. It makes it a little bit hard for me to get used to this whole
situation. New country, new work, new people… it’s a little bit overwhelming
sometimes. The first days were tragic, I just didn’t know where I fit in, I
felt I wasn’t good enough for my job, I couldn’t eat but my husband was there
for me all the time and it helped me survive really. If it wasn’t for him I’ve
no idea what I would do.

The job is
ok, people are nice, helpful and they respect you. Unfortunately I have way
much more different experience from Poland. Not in every single job I
had of course but most of them. Not to mention the contracts and money! If you
have a regular job in the Netherlands
you can easily provide for yourself and lead a normal life, not like in my own
country :( And this is what makes me so damn sad. A lot of my compatriots had
to leave whether they wanted it or not. Many of my friends already have, even
years ago. I didn’t want to leave but I had no choice as well. I’m homeless and
my dream is to have a place to live and I plan to make it happen in a few
years, I know it will be one of the happiest days of my life :) I also have
some other dreams and goals and it’s just easier to accomplish them here. I
live in a small, beautiful town and I work here as well. I just hope everything
goes the way I planned. But I'll leave the further description of the conditions that I live in for my second book since I haven't even finished the first one so ;) Nevertheless I'm happy that I have a constant access to warm water and heating and I didn't have it when living in a house.

And I left to live longing for Wrocław so
bad but that’s just the way it had to be. One day I’ll be back and we’ll be
together again, this time for good and nothing will tear us apart :)