The reason is i want to leave the USA and move to japan one day with my wife and son. to live a pure life were i can live a worry free life. of course its going to be a lot of hard work to get me there.

Well you have to keep in mind the constant tsunamis, earthquakes, typhoons and the amount of people.

The reason is i want to leave the USA and move to japan one day with my wife and son. to live a pure life were i can live a worry free life. of course its going to be a lot of hard work to get me there.

Well you have to keep in mind the constant tsunamis, earthquakes, typhoons and the amount of people.

that's one of the last things im worrying about. mother nature does what she does best and that's surprising the crap out of you. its just one of a long list of things that i cant control but im willing to live with when it does happen.

In every sense of that word i mean it, i started of with a shitty life, a story i have written out if anyone here has interest in a good read but i wont bother typing any of it here. School was over i had nothing, i was fat, unfit. So the first thing i did was, try and get back into education, i did that and got slightly back on track with a future, then i exercised, dieted and am now a skinning (and to my suprise) good looking guy, now i am weight training to make myself even better whilst i finish my course on "Health, Social and Child Care".

So by strength i basically mean... Strength to make myself better, stronger, smarter. I heavily believe that if we dont try to make ourselves a better person, then whats the point? We all have bad negative things about us, i'm far from, far far far from it but i aim to make myself as perfect as i can!

Many things drive me though, this is just one, the thing drove me to pursue strength? That would be probably "love" I want to find love and get a family, my family was horrific, i was looking after my autistic brothers from the age 12 which is why i missed the entirety of school, so i want a wife, who i can love and treat like she's perfect, with kids who i can grow into awesome people (I've already raised three). I love helping people, making them smile and making them happy... I am pretty much sure i was built solely to help people and be a father but the main thing stopping me from doing that right now is that in real life, i have a huge wall not letting be myself around people until i get to know them. So i am working on getting rid of that!

I'm not stupid enough to think that i am perfect the way i am, i'm not... People judge you on looks (it's sad) but very true! So i work hard to make myself look good and it payed of yesterday (first day of college) When i was in a class of 23 girls and the only guy there. It was hard for me to socialize but none of the girls were telling me to go away, so i take that as a good sign!

Oh god i typed a lot... (ramble King) I can't really answer your question because many things drive me honestly but if i had to pick a single one it would be "Love".

I like this, I have some of the same situations in my life that you do, and I am working on some of the same issues... I am sure school and socializing will work for you because you seem to want it enough.

Family. I am the eldest of 5 kids (plus an aunt that professionals have stated has the mental state of a 12 year old), my dad has a full-time job and my mom is a midwife with her own practice (meaning she has to leave in the middle of the night on a regular basis). I do most house-work and cooking for the family.

I am of the mindset that family is your base. When you come into the world, you start on family and become your own person off of it. If at any point you took out family, however, the whole thing falls apart.

The reason is i want to leave the USA and move to japan one day with my wife and son. to live a pure life were i can live a worry free life. of course its going to be a lot of hard work to get me there.

Relationship.
That's with everything...but first and foremost with God. then, relationship with family and relationship with friends. It keeps me going. It recharges me. It allows me to continue and look forward to a new day