(Closed) I'm so impatient . . .

. . . and I would bet he’s fed up with it. I have been waiting since May 2011 for him to propose and he’s all buy promised that he will within the two weeks that he will be up here for my graduation and to help me move. The problem is that back in 2011, I knew and was involved in pretty much everything except the when, the where, and how he would ask. We had decided on and purchased a setting and a stone (a .50 moissanite) and when I went to take them to be set, I found that the setting was poorly constructed and already falling apart even though it was brand new and supposedly made to order. I was fine with a no ring proposal and that we could purchase a setting at some other point. Being long distance (and international) we rarely get to spend time together so after that month ended and no proposal I decided that maybe he really didn’t want to propose.

Now I know that definitely isn’t the case and he said he didn’t propose because I had gotten sick and it had interfered with the plan he had. We’ve talked again about getting engaged and I think we’ve changed the stone we want to use to an Amora Gem since it is available in his country. But the thing is, I don’t know. Everything is being kept a surprise and it is driving me insane. I’ve never been good with surprises because most of the ones I’ve had in my life have been negative in nature and this is worse because I used to be very involved. I want some details!! So I keep fishing, and pushing, and nosing around what I can. It’s so insanely stupid but I want to know if we are using the Amora Gem or not, I want to know if there is a ring or not, I don’t want to know the when or the where or what he’ll say or anything. He also has only told his sister that he’s proposing and that was only because I told him that I wanted him to tell someone. I want an extrinsic motivation that’s either tangible or intangible because there wasn’t one the last time. We had a stone but no setting and no one but us knew we had seriously talked about getting engaged.

I know that I need to cool it and shut up and just go on with things but I’m just stuck on it. Any ideas to increase my patience or at least develop some? Thanks for letting me vent!