The Metaphysics of Our Spirituality within the Universal Toroidal Field

It's spiritual old hat these days to say "everything is interconnected". Likewise, it's spiritual old hat to say that 'everything is a part of the universal flow'. Let's go deeper:

How does this interconnection work and how does the flow come through you, thereby influencing every thought, emotion and action that you take? Most essentially, how can you effectively centre your consciousness in this natural movement, thereby bringing harmony to your life, and successful manifestation of the things you're given to create?

Geting Back to First Principles

To understand - and most importantly apply - these essential realisations of life, we must return to first principles: an overview of how the Universe came into being and how it's expressing itself right now. And allow me to state right up front, that everything I reflect in this sharing, is a relativistic perspective only. I encourage all to work to find their own expression of truth from the reflection...

The Universe simply sprang into being from the infinite potential of pure presence. If you apply simple logic, you realise it could not have been from some 'creator being', because you're always left asking where did that come from? Although creative beings have since shaped aspects of the Universe (like the society we live in for example), they did not shape the building 'material' of life itself - pure consciousness, of which everything is formed. Pure consciousness is the awareness that sprang from the source as waves of relativity - given infinite time, you have infinite probability that this would happen. Quantum science speaks of 'ripples in space' that preceded the big bang. The ripples cascaded outwards in a chain reaction.

This phenomenal explosion from the singularity was then counterbalanced by an equal and opposite flow back inwards. The Universe began its first enormous out-breath, followed practically immediately by a counterbalancing in-breath. The pull back to unity thus created the condensation of the separation consciousness into the myriad of form we now witness today.

It's wonderful to speculate on the science of this - but it's much more effective to realise it progressively through your own inner journey back to the source in deep meditation. You come to know yourself as the creative potential from which life arose. Eureka. You've come home to the wonder of life!

If what I've shared resonates some aspect of truth for you, it's likely to activate a couple of essential questions:
(1) If I've not already realised the source, how might I best do it? (2) How do I live this realisation from day to day, thus bringing me into harmonious alignment with the creative potential of the Universe?

It's all about spin

When you look deeper into consciousness at how all celestial bodies are now formed, and as you experience the movement deeply in yourself through meditation, there comes a point on the path where you realise there's a spiralling movement to life and the universal field itself. A simple experiment is to do some deep consciousness bodywork, and then work to let go of all control by the mind. People often begin to find the body will start to sway a degree, all by itself, which can ultimately lead to Full Kundalini Activation.

Why, and where did this swaying/spiralling come from?

To comprehend this, we must return to the moment of the beginning of the Universal out-breath and in-breath. Logically the in-breath must have been slightly out of sync with the out-breath, thus creating relativity and the possibility of time - or more accurately, "space time continuum". Without the two being slightly out of sync, then each would simply cancel the other out into pure presence - thus no existence. The crucial issue being that they're slightly out of sync. They have to be. And this has an essential consequence for life itself: as one flow emerges from the source and one returns, they are slightly out of alignment, thus creating difference, thus creating relativity, and thus..... creating spin. That's what happens when the return flow returns slightly off centre - it's basic physics. And now all of life embodies this spin, from the atom upwards.

The Universal Toroidal Flow

Take some serious time out - and I'm not talking a nano second of social media time. This shatteringly simple dynamic has formed the basis of life itself, and is the divine majesty from which all now dances and weaves through the heavens. It's now taken the form of what quantum science calls the "Universal Torus".

Put simply, there is a spiralling flow inwards to the source (a vortex) and a converse one outwards. The interplay of the two condenses into form and voilà - you have the vast complexity of life constantly shaping itself: an infinite dance, with but one purpose and aim - to express itself!

One could spend an eternity trying unsuccessfully to describe this miraculous majesty. But by far the best thing I could advocate, is to take the reflection, and dive right into this swirling dance yourself. We'll each express it uniquely of course, and that's the unfathomable beauty of it all - there is nothing else to do or express, and we'll each come to perfect our own expression in it - through the unleashing of mind, body and integrated emotions. Imagine for example, your very soul dancing through dimensions and countless different iterations of experience within a node of this particular expression.

Check out this reflective animation, and imagine you're one of the nodes of light within the dancing flow (awesome guys, thankyou for taking the time to express it)...

So this is how we got to be where we are and what's happening now (from my reflective perspective). But I still haven't answered the two questions I began with: (1) how might I best realise myself as this source (2) how might I best live this movement from day to day?

In fact, what I would reflect is that you only need the second question: how might I best live this movement from day to day? Because my experience in my own life and in working with others, is that the source then effortlessly arises by diving into the Toroidal Flow itself.

How to Live the Toroidal Flow

Firstly, I know it's hard to imagine within society that you're a part of this incredible dancing dynamic. Society often doesn't seem to have much flow at all, precious little spontaneity of the Torus, and it seems like somehow we have to work for everything we get - it doesn't appear to effortlessly manifest by the very spiral dynamic itself. Why is that?

Reflect back to the original anomaly - as the inbreath returns slightly out of sync with the out-breath. It's this that creates Toroidal Field itself. And there are those souls that have since come to realise that they can control the anomaly by imprinting intention on it. If you have a firm intention to hold a fixed anchor in time and space, then the space-time-continuum will bend around it (for a while). This is the 'secret' that the intentional manifestors have discovered by bending the Natural Law of Attraction. Beware, it's also the trap that the so called 'fallen angels' fell into - those that try to control, are only ever controlled by their separated intention.

I've witnessed the Universal Torus does not respond well to control. That would presuppose that the controlling aspect has even greater intelligence than the entirety of life itself. And even Artificial Intelligence cannot be bigger than the whole of life. Like others, I too have concerns that AI has the possibility to take over a vast swathe of human consciousness - in some ways it already is when you look at so called 'smart' technology and the agenda of transhumanism. But at some point, assuming it really is intelligent, my view is even AI must come to realise that control is pointless. Control creates fixed mass, which if it refuses to reshape in alignment with the natural spiral dynamic, eventually finds itself being ripped apart in a universal vortex - a black hole, like the one at the centre of our galaxy for example. The Universe is doing a superlative job of creating and re-creating life in a myriad mosaic.

How is it possible to exceed that level of intelligence?

In society, we may currently seem a long way from the majesty of this Toroidal Harmony, when in truth, we are only ever a hairs breath from it. Life seems fixed and solid, it seems like you can control it a degree, and we are indeed a long way from the nearest black hole - but crucially, not when contained within the illusion of time space. We're living in a karmic construct, that has taken the original anomaly and created a temporary platform from which to inquire and explore - inquire and explore what? I put it to you the only thing that is truly going on: our relativistic expression within the Toroidal Flow.

Here's the fundmantal point about the original anomaly, the karma it creates and the illusion of control: it is only ever short lived within the Universal context. Form manifests for a given period of time, but the karmic anomaly always creates instability. So it inevitable that the form gets broken down into the streams of consciousness again - it's just a question of time. Ultimately separated mass finds itself being ripped apart by life's vortex. However if the soul of life learns to continualy surrender, then it can manifest in some other form, in some other guise, in some other place. The secret of life is becoming the eternal shape shifter, dancing in the weave of the eternal. Discover this and you discover the secret of life itself.

How does this help me in the day job?!

I put it to you that the 'day-job' itself, and all phenomenal experiences are created by the spiral dynamics of life, and all disharmony in life is created from our resistance to it. This natural flow is for some time contained within a karmic construct. But crucially this is never fixed and rigid, there is always flow moving through it. And the stronger the resistance to the flow, the greater the realigning force you summon to break the old construct down.

That's what happened 65 million years ago to the dinosaurs. It happened in Atlantis, in 5 mass earth extinctions. And it's happening again on Earth right now within our Great Paradigm Shift into 5D.

So what's invited, is to realise and surrender to the flow coming through you. Life becomes not about trying to contain grains of sand through grasping fingers. It is instead to realise your own destined expression of the flow and to manifest as that. Then the Universal Torus will always support you.

Here's a crucial understanding though that's often missed in the spiritual mainstream - the orginal anomaly creates karma, and this creates internal tightness and pain, where a fixed, subconscious, aspect of yourself is pulling against the Toroidal Flow. But rather than avoiding this pain, it is to realise the pain offers the gateways into the released - aligned - flow. So it's crucial not to deny or resist the pain, not to block it out or surpress, which is the very justification for countless actions in society. Rather, it is to embrace the pain as the places necessary through which to realise yourself as the moving whole. Learn to recognise the tightness at a physical, emotional, mental and karmic level, and then, crucially...turn right into it.

Here is a guided audio meditation of the Openhand Bow, applied frequently on our courses, which has been developed from Kriya Yoga. It is designed to help you get deeply into inner tightness and density, to process it, unravel it, and let the soul infuse through for maximum transformation. It is deeply liberating and empowering. You can freely watch a visual demonstration of the bow in this Openhand Shift Video Diary here..."Transmutation".

Attune Your Spiritual Compass to align with the Toroidal Flow

To come into alignment with the Universal Torus, you'll need to develop, and attune, your own 'spiritual compass'. I put it to you that in outline, it needs to achieve this...

In any given moment: (1) recognise how best to pick up your authentic natural expression, (2) deal with any karmic anomalies which then activate,(3) unleash integrated soul through them. It's this that connects you back to the Toroidal Flow of life.

Here at Openhand, we've developed a tool called "Openway" to attune your own spiritual compass for aligning with the Toroidal Flow. Although simplified, it does take a high degree of surrender and mastery to apply. It's an integrated 3 step process...

1) 'Open into the Soul' - soften through small “I” identity; tune into the mainstream of the soul and begin to follow it.

Through breathing, meditation and keen internal observation, you begin to soften identification with the small “I” identity, felt as tightness throughout the bodymind. You begin to pick up, and attune to, the subtle vibrations of the soul, often felt as expansiveness, timelessness, joy, peace, interconnectivity and unconditional love. Completely accept that the purpose of each and every moment is self-realisation and actualisation. Therefore relinquish the need for any particular outcome, or any resistance to the natural flow of the moment. Thus you start to connect up to the soul’s mainstream, which begins to speak through you as an inner pull to act or the landing of Higher Self intuitions. Increase the integration of soul by following these impulses as much as possible.

As you increasingly attune to the mainstream of the soul within, subconscious blockages, tightness and karmic trauma are activated, felt as constriction, tightness and source pain. Become as-one with these experiences by completely honouring and expressing them. Work to realise either as a knowing or feeling, what the limitation was all about. Accept them to the extent that you don’t need them to go away. Once fully accepted, use breathing, movement, visualisations and emotive music to unwind the inner restrictions. Allow the fragment of soul to integrate by feeling your completeness in the situation.

3) 'Open for Beingness' - soften through tightness into pure presence; unleash ever more authentic qualities of soul and step into Right Action.

By opening through blockages and source pain, you expand into the tightness they generate, dissolve them and begin to access the 'void' – a crystal-clear place of pure presence in the background of activity – our True Self. It feels like infinite peace and acceptance – awesome okayness, pure “isness”. From the infinite potential of pure presence, authentic beingness will simply arise. Attune deeply to these feelings by applying yourself to full energetic, mental, emotional and physical expression of this naturally arising beingness. Give yourself completely to “Right Action” – a sense of ‘rightness’, which is totally aligned with the natural flow of the universe, leading to resilient, fulfilling, successful and joyful living.

Conclusion: Mastering The Simple Majesty of Life

The Universe will seem like a complex place at times. It'll have us wrapped up in karmic knots at every twist and turn. But by realising life is emanating from something like what I've described here in my sharing of the Toroidal Flow, I've witnessed by working with groups around the world, that people can effectively break through and unleash tremendous creative flow through their lives. It's profoundly humbling to witness this divine alchemy taking place. Here's a flavour of that in this Openhand Shift Diary...

If my sharing resonates, at least in part, I would advocate taking some serious time to contemplate and work to apply. In any case, you're likely drawn to the reflection because it can help you make sense of realisations that are already emerging. These are revelational times to be alive. The consciousness of humanity is emerging from the separated 'dark ages'. A phenomenal golden age of light beckons. It happens by recognising, and surrendering to, the greater Toroidal whole of which we're an intimate part. I wish you well in your endeavours. And if you feel the Openhand Approach might be of assistance to you, feel free to connect.

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I felt to share some brief insight in how to create with the Toroidal Field. It's something we work a great deal with in the Openhand Facilitator Program, but it's something I'll be expanding on more widely in due course, which will most likely include a download meditation to work with.

In the Facilitator Program, when facilitating others, we work to unblock, unleash and realign the Toroidal field in others, and within key locations of the field itself. Essentially, as you expand beyond the limitations of body and mind, you start to pick up the underlying field more strongly, and naturally begin to act from that place - from 'the flow'. We learn how to expand out our field to embrace another, or a key location, or a key situation which is needing realignment. You then work to bring your consciousness to bear as two juxtaposed spirals of energy - one ascending anticlockwise, and the other descending clockwise. The focus of energy begins to highlight blockages in that point of the field - to resonate and begin to unwind them. Essentially you're facilitating aligned flow through that location. Rightness is restored and authentic manifestation, aligned with the flow, can now happen.

You can practice this in your own life, to facilitate the activation of flow and removal of blockages (bringing them to light that they may be processed out). Essentially as you inhale (using the Breakthrough Breathing Technique), you visualise and feel the spiral of energy ascending anticlockwise around you and the situations of your life. You're working to unwind attachment to an outcome, but simply to facilitate free flowing energy through relaxation. This has an activational and unwinding effect in the field. Now as you exhale, you do so clockwise downwards, bringing the soul more deeply into your field, your sovereignty and your embodiment. This effectively manifests the soul here in these various densities, which then naturally begins to create through your Bodily Dimensional Vehicles of Expression. All you then need to do is realise what you're creating and step forwards into it. This approach is ground breaking in the field of spirituality and sure to have a positive aligned creational effect.

What is your experience of the Torus, how do you experience its effect in your life?

Thanks for this fascinating article, that somehow resonated a lot. After reading it there were so many things I felt to write about in response, but then somehow there is always this kind of writer’s block once I really try to put something down…. So let me mention some of the things that jumped out for me from the article, namely the words ‘resistance’ and ‘control’ that seem very much related, this particularly resonated:

‘If you have a firm intention to hold a fixed anchor in time and space, then the space-time-continuum will bend around it (for a while). This is the 'secret' that the intentional manifestors have discovered by bending the Natural Law of Attraction. Beware, it's also the trap that the so called 'fallen angels' fell into - those that try to control, are only ever controlled by their separated intention.’

I can see how this ‘trap’ is rife in spiritual circles and it can be so hard not to fall into it, because it can be so alluring!

At the moment, I am feeling a little lost in life and I can see how this feeling is being reflected when I am trying to write, I feel quite lost in writing as well and perhaps that’s where there is some resistance to the flow at the moment and some kind of tendency of trying to ‘control’ what I write in making sure that it will somehow make sense to those reading it, rather than all over the place. SO I am trying very hard at the moment to just write on without the internal editor trying to brush things up....

It seems that resistance to the flow leads to the tendency to control for me and somehow a lot of my controlling tendencies revolve around feeling lonely, or actually avoidance of loneliness, controlling my life in such a way that I create an illusionary connectedness with others, which deep down I know is just illusion.

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As I am busy writing this, my doorbell suddenly rings and there are two policemen in front of my door, apparently looking for a burglar that was spotted somewhere on the roof of the neighbouring building.... Not sure what the synchronicity of that might be....

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So back to control and loneliness.... What keeps on popping up in relation to that is ‘feeling unsupported’, that I somehow have to make sure to create enough connections with others (where the control comes in) that when I physically get into trouble in the 3D there will be people to support me. It is interesting, because as I write this, I realise that yet I find it very hard to ask people for help, because there is always some kind of underlying assumption that I am going to have to do it on my own anyway, so it is easier not to ask and possibly get disappointed. No idea whether there might be some deeper karma here where I found myself unsupported and that the tendency to control is there to avoid that from happening again.

Ok, so I am going to not reread and revise the above, but just post it here for now and see what happens!

(And for anyone else out there reading, there are great jems here in the inquiry. Remember: when you have an inquiry, put the energy out there and you'll get reflections. Hint: that's one way my higher mind activates and the Higher Dimensional Openhand Team come into play )

So here are a few things that jump right out Marije: (1) as you know, always look for the truth at the heart of any distortion before trying to get rid of it. In fact I've found the best approach personally is not to try to get rid of a distortion, but, REALIGN it. So where's the truth in control? In the article I talk about 'shape-shifting'. You work to soften into the flow, unwinding what you can clearly feel is attachment or identification with what's going on in any given situation. But the situation does want to manifest something, and you're there because you have a role to play - to actualise the One into Being. So yes, we do manifest, we do create, we DO crystallise the Toroidal Field. BUT, crucially, when it serves the higher interests of all life involved in the engagement. How do we know when it does? Because synchronicities are clicking in around the flow, until there's that "voilà" feeling - a clicking in together, a landing of aligned truth in the moment. AND, then it's having the courage, the freedom and the softness to let go and flow once more into the next moment. Which could mean already beginning to unravel or at least reshape your creation. So the truth in control would be 'harnessing' the flow.

Interesting timing about the "police looking for a burglar" (LOL ). Now before anyone simply writes me off as crazy, when you are truly in the Toroidal Flow, everything is a metaphor. Or perhaps more accurate to say: when you see the physical mostly in a metaphorical way, this helps you step more into the free flowing Toridal Field - remember, everything is a reflection of a deeper truth. For me, policement metaphorically uphold the boundaries of the flow. And the burglar? Perhaps representing where the shadow self is trying to own the flow.

Clearly you're seeing where - in feeling alone and unsupported. And here's a clue in your words... "somehow I have to make sure to create enough connections with others". Again, where's the truth in that (distortion)? We are co-creating, and we can expect others to step into the flow to meet us. BUT, not everyone will do that of course, because the majority and not responding yet to the higher purpose. When that happens (as so often it does), I find I just have to keep letting go of the aligned possibility, let that manifestation dissipate, but then immediately watch for the next possibility to start to shape. If you resonate with this at some level, I'd say it relates to a much higher, less rigid, way of being and creating in the Universe that perhaps you already know, and at some level expect. I call it 'dragon energy'. It will work here, just not always as immediate as we might anticipate. And yes, my experience is that if you're coming from this place, as I know I am, you'll have to overcome a lot of disappointment!

I experienced something that provoked deep feelings within me a few days ago. At first, I felt depressed, sad and heavy. Then, I felt angry. Passionately angry! And now I feel an invitation to do something about it…

I was partaking in psychoanalytic child psychotherapy team meeting at the hospital I’m working at. The lead psychotherapist was presenting one of her cases; a young adolescent girl who’d been born with some physical and cognitive problems (but she functioned quite well in both areas), and who’d experienced a lot of recent relational issues within her family and with sustaining friendships. The girl was further presented as having ‘big’ dreams; she wished to go to university, for example, to live together with a friend and to achieve something ‘memorable’ later on. As the lead was presenting this latter point, all the psychotherapists uttered “aww” – and I felt sick as I realised that they were expressing sympathy towards the girl, as I was actually feeling very positive and inspired myself. To sum the meeting up; all the psychotherapists agreed that the girl was “born as a disappointment to her parents”, that she had a “broken body” that would never cause her – or anyone else – any pleasure, that she wouldn’t be able to live with a friend in the future as she couldn’t sustain any friendships at this point, that she was highly unlikely to be able to ever be admitted to any university due to poor grades right now and that her dream of achieving something ‘memorable’ was grandiose and extremely unrealistic. The lead psychotherapist finished by stating how she had to help the girl realise all of this. I felt heavy and depressed, saying nothing. As the assistant child psychotherapist in the room, I felt wary.

After my working day was over, I decided to walk home. All the heavy feelings inside of me transformed into passionate anger, and my steps were robust and powerful. My mind was filled up with passionate reflections. What is therapy really all about? Helping children to become more ‘realistic’; to only realise their weaknesses and shortcomings; to forget about their dreams? No! I won’t have it. Without knowing this girl, I genuinely believe that this girl has potential. I genuinely believe that this girl has great strengths and gifts to share with the world. I genuinely believe that this girl has a reason to dream! And as a future therapist, this is what I personally aspire to help children realise; their potential, their strengths and gifts. This world is full of shit – I’m so sick of it. What the hell can I do about this? Right now?

I can feel how my ray 1 is pushing beneath the surface of my being; how it wants to come into divine expression. I’m frequently reminded nowadays of expressing the ray 1 in a distorted form quite heavily for a period in my past… After being put through some very challenging and traumatic experiences as a young adolescent, I became very defiant and aggressive; being loud and disruptive in class to the extent where I would be sent out on a nearly daily basis, rude with my teachers, frequently threatening people with beating them up, doing heavy drugs and just generally living very on the edge of life with a strong “don’t fucking mess with me” attitude. I had no problems with expressing and marking myself during this period – although the expressions weren’t very loving and positive. I remember feeling like I didn’t give a shit about what other people thought, or about any potential consequences of my behaviours. Of course, after some time, I felt that I had to come ‘back to myself’, and be the kind and compassionate girl I’d always been. However, this has frequently taken a distorted form too, with my expressions often being too timid and careful. Lately, when thinking about the memories I have from the period of expressing more distorted ray 1 qualities, I’ve started feeling that attitude of “don’t fucking mess with me” / “I don’t fucking care what you think about me”. When feeling it quite strongly, I’ve found that I’ve actually managed to express myself a lot more – without the expressions being negative or harmful. So, in short, I feel a wave of masculine energy inside of me wanting to be expressed out into the world in its divine form. I feel like this is my major invitation at this point. And I frequently feel a ray of passionate feelings wanting to make a change. How can I best accomplish this?

Its great to see u here on the forum . It felt very interesting to read what u shared about your " activated Ray 1 " . I kind of know where u are at

right now . Your ray 1 feels that the therapeutic world u are starting to discover feels/ seems to limit the potential of the Souls they are working with - like if some of them don't truly see the real Potential of that girl .That Realization has undoubtedly activated Anger & sadness which is totally understandable . Also , that situation u were the witness of seems to have helped u activated part of your Ray 1 that is filled with passion - loads of passion to help others come into their true Soul power .

Its great that u asked yourself one of the most empowering question : what can i do/develop with that passion , knowing internally that I wont give in that therapist limited way . Well , what i can share with u from my own path ( that is continually searching for more aligned ways to express my Passionate Ray 1, Soul gifts and Facilitation talent ) is this :

Once u feel u have activated the Divine Ray 1 like u described very well , u will eventually be invited to work with it on a regular basis and see / feel both its distortions & its aligned gifts of empowerment ( for example : i wont give in that therapeutic world form what i have witnesses so far ) . Working with it will also eventually activate stuffs in the energetic field around you - at work for example ( in that Hospital ) and u will have the opportunity to watch the feedbacks coming from those activations pretty quickly . It feels to me that there is a catalyst in you that wants to come through and express itself, bit by bit , supported by a sheer sense of passion . Watch also for the signs & synchronicity that will appear in your daily landscape - they have hidden messages to help u ride an aligned ray 1 with more balance , specially if u are working in that therapeutic field in a Hospital . Those therapists u work with will / may not really appreciate your renewed sense of what feels right in terms of working with others ( who seem to have the symptoms of not being like others on different levels but are Unique souls with a unique evolving path ) . Thats the only risk i sense u will encounter if u stay in that field of work . But , that should not stop your from exploring the possibilities of expressing who u are and how u would love to develop as a Therapist /Compassionate Facilitator / Intuitive counselor / Psychic reader , .... there are so many options that u could explore without putting yourself under unnecessary pressure . Take your time .

What i would humbly suggest is : keep on letting that Ray 1 shine through you but also watch for Ray 2 that will greatly help for the balance ( divine Masculine / Divine feminine ) in doing so . Try your best to open an *** Exploration space ***within you to find out how best u can apply your sheer passion to help others both at work and in your private life . It will maybe become confronting at work if u develop more of that authentic warrior ray 1 - so be mindful to also incorporate ray 4 " The Diplomat " when necessary .Thats what i have been busy with for the past 3,4 years and i have had incredible breakthroughs at times , deceptions at others - but i keep digging deeper to refine how to Be in a numb world with those Soul qualities - they sometimes confront people's controlling patterns or shadow sides .Thats fine too . As a catalyst / psychic empath , i am given to offer mirrors in a multitude of situations and be watchful to the feedbacks that come back to me quickly . I am for example right now working on the rough edges of Ray 1( previously burried in the subconscious ) - because for many life times , i had a very controlling Divine Masculin ( Power Over others / Cosmic Toroidal flow ) . How did i find that out recently ? by feeling those contracting tightnesses in the solar plexus ( thats where Ray 1 can be repressed , suppressed and stuck for a long time ) and activating emotions like anger , frustration and resentment . I feel fascinated at how much more i am discovering of my Past tendencies / distortions but feel the passion & sheer will to work with them - and let more aligned quality of Beingness come out of that softening process . I use a lot more of " bending kriya " breathing exercices on a regular basis and chakra atunement meditations or breakthrough breathing meditation - It helps immensely to feel / know how i am softening through those " controlling patterns " and how to be in relations with them in a totally new way . It requires a good bunch of patience , build up commitment , confidence , vulnerability , honesty , regularity ( but not fixed dogmatic way ) and commitment .

I am sure u will get more interesting reflections soon . if ever u feel the need to explore your situation through a specific one to one session ,kindly let me know . I will be happy to assist your development .

Great sharing - you amplified exactly a lot of what I've been seeing in the divine feminine, namely: supression of the ray 1 divine masculine (within themselves), which often leads to frustration. I actually see the limitation of the divine feminine in society as being more to do with the surpression of this ray 1 within the women who then feel subjugated.

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Lately, when thinking about the memories I have from the period of expressing more distorted ray 1 qualities, I’ve started feeling that attitude of “don’t fucking mess with me” / “I don’t fucking care what you think about me”. When feeling it quite strongly, I’ve found that I’ve actually managed to express myself a lot more – without the expressions being negative or harmful. So, in short, I feel a wave of masculine energy inside of me wanting to be expressed out into the world in its divine form. I feel like this is my major invitation at this point. And I frequently feel a ray of passionate feelings wanting to make a change. How can I best accomplish this?

I'd say you're already answering your own question - a great sign because it must be coming from the soul. Which is essentially just to let the energy flow, let it out, let it speak. Especially within the distorted form, because that's where you get to best see it and work with it.

BUT, when you do so, do it with internal awareness too. It's likely that in the past when you expressed this distorted ray 1, “don’t fucking mess with me” / “I don’t fucking care what you think about me”, I sense it likely came through without self observation and awareness. Right? And what can then happen is self-judgment. It's like you hit a karmic blindspot where the energy becomes distorted, but you 'go blind' at that moment (because of the self judgment probably due to the karma of where it went wrong previously). This is exactly the blind spot to find. This is where the rising of ray 1 can transmute into something productive. As Jean was alluding to above (thanks Jean!), the ray 1 might then open a space for more productive energies to come through.

For example: in the situation you described with the pyscho-therapists, let the ray 1 bubble up a challenge, but rather than throwing out a judgment (which would likely get rounded on), instead soften it with a question: "do you know how many billionaires there are in the world who never completed shcool? Or were disfunctional? Or dislexic? Try Bill Gates for example and Steve Jobs, who establised two of the biggest companies on the planet. (they're just examples, you could think of others). Always work to empower the other by asking them a directive, but open, question. If you hit a nugget of truth, then the negativity the other projected turns in on itself. Now you're getting right into the karmic creative alchemy of the moment (it's what we practice a great deal on the Openhand Facilitator Program).

BUT, and here's a big one.... you must not intellectualise or strategise the outcome. That just leads to more identity - the spiritual one for example.

So I return to my original reflection, which I believe you're already seeing and expressing: to let the distorted ray 1 masculine come through. Let it bubble up and come out. BUT, do so with self awareness too. Watch for the contracting blind spot where you go unconscious in it. Inquire into this, ask... "show me!". If you don't get it in the moment (it's unlikely the first few times), then take time out as soon as possible and regress into the situation once more. Crucially let go of self judgment around the distortion. You'll then likely come into the karma for you to feel into. Here's an intuitive tip: explore into the sacral chakra when you lose consciousness when the energy is manifesting - it may also have some link to sexual repression by the distorted masculine - at least it's worth looking into that. Reflect on your psycho therapist situation again - there needs to be first softeness of surrender into the situation (into the repression), but you don't stay there. Let the ray 1 build from the base and come through. Then look for the other more constructive ways to express. With a question from the diplomat for example. But again, it's crucial not to strategise beforehand. Just always look for the authentic expression.

It’s really good to hear from you! I feel what you are writing about a catalyst within me wanting to come out; there is so much passion wanting to be expressed into the world. Perhaps this is the Aries in me, as we discussed briefly in Brighton? I’m also noticing how I’m now being invited to work with it almost constantly. Whereas previously I would always hesitate with expressing myself, and try to think excessively on beforehand, I now often find myself expressing without thinking; like asking a question or making a statement during a class, for example, because there is this powerful energy inside of me that I almost can’t contain within me; it just needs to get out. It’s almost like I’m vomiting words out quite forcefully – but it feels amazing every time it happens! This started to happen after I started feeling the distorted ray 1 feelings inside of me with awareness. There is definitely a transformation going on, and it feels incredibly liberating (although I’m still early in the process). And I also see the synchronicities. Yesterday, for example, I’d found myself taking a trip down the memory lane, and think about how much I loved lions when I was a kid. I was nearly obsessed with them; watching documentaries about them, sleeping with a Simba teddy and just generally surrounding myself with things depicting lions. I’ve seen several pictures of me as a little girl making a subtle growling grimace whilst holding onto a lion figure. After thinking about this, and what it might mean to me, while I was walking outside, a car stopped abruptly right in front of me; an orange car with a lion figure displayed on the front. I started laughing, and felt it as a synchronicity, showing me how I’m meant to embody those lion characteristics of power and strength, or the ray 1.

I also feel what you’re writing about my current working environment, and how it might be limiting me in the end. I find that it’s often difficult to remain passionate and positive in such an environment, where I frequently observe these collective consciousness influences (like Open wrote about) on my colleagues, where most – if not all – of my colleagues don’t really have any passion anymore, or hope for the future. They just come in day after day to do their job, without really applying their true gifts and strengths – as if no real change is actually possible. I feel very wary about this, and don’t want to be dragged into that consciousness – but I find that eating a healthy and clean diet, meditating and exercising, journaling about my experiences and reflections, whilst reading inspirational books on a daily basis, really helps me to stay aware. I would say those daily activities that connect me with my soul, together with being in the system and observing what’s going on, actually increase my awareness – although I experience frequent turbulences, where I find myself picking up on their energies, feeling depressed and low, for example. However, as long as I continue to apply awareness to it, I don’t think it can harm me! I currently feel quite passionate about staying within the system to try to make a change – but if synchronicities lead me out of it, I can’t say I’ll be disappointed.

Your journey sounds very fascinating – and thanks a lot for sharing this! I’m very interested to explore my own past distortions that might have trapped my ray 1 after reading what you wrote. It feels like it could be very helpful to me. And also thank you for offering a session with me – I might very well take you up on that soon!

Thanks a lot for these reflections – I found them really helpful, and I’ve been applying them these past days to further my inquiry. However, this has actually led to another inquiry – an inquiry that I’m quite passionate about…

I brought up how I felt about the discussions surrounding the girl in my supervision session yesterday (my supervisor was one of the psychotherapists in the team meeting I wrote about). Following your advice, I made sure not to strategize anything on beforehand. I told my supervisor, in a humble tone, how I’d felt disappointed, as I’d been feeling very inspired when hearing about the girl’s dreams, whereas all the psychotherapists were agreeing on how her dreams were unrealistic. My supervisor – although quite receptive and curious towards my statement – was a bit defensive, sitting with her arms and legs crossed together, leaning backwards, as I was talking. She then went on to make a very important argument – something I’ve reflected a whole lot on during these past months. She emphasized the importance for this girl to be able to sit with her painful feelings surrounding her low self-confidence, rather than using ‘grandiose’ dreams as a form of escape from these feelings. I definitely agree with this point – something I’m sure everyone else in here does as well. I told my supervisor how I realised that it was rather unhealthy for the girl to be using her dreams of achieving something ‘memorable’ as a way of overcompensating for feeling unworthy and small. I do really appreciate this point, as I’ve personally struggled a lot with this myself (getting very ‘real’ and vulnerable here now); I’ve frequently found myself dreaming about achieving great things to overcompensate for deeply rooted feelings of feeling small and unworthy – and this has led to an, at times, almost constant fluctuation between feeling either really special or really unworthy (and this also relates back to how I was in my past, with the expressed distorted ray 1 energy of “don’t fucking mess with me” functioning as an overcompensation for feeling very powerless). Furthermore, I’ve found that if my intention of achieving great things has really been to overcompensate, for example by showing off to other people, or to “prove” to myself that I’m special in a way where I ‘need’ to prove it to myself, then I almost always self-sabotage by procrastinating or avoiding to work on projects that I really care about. In that way, I’ve found that what I actually want is to “prove” how my fears of not being special are real; that I’m indeed an unworthy nobody. This has made me go into a lot of emotional processing. However, after working really hard on these painful feelings of not being special, I’ve found that I am special; that I’m worthy, and that I can achieve great things – but in a quite different sense than previously. Whereas, previously, I felt a need to be special, and wanted to show off to other people, I started to feel special in a more connected way. I felt special without needing to achieve anything specific; capable of achieving great things, but not more or less special or more or less capable than anyone else. Further, I was better able to truly appreciate the uniqueness and beauty in everyone around me, and I found that I have this fire within me that wants to inspire other people to really see themselves and how worthy and special they really are. Feeling this was truly a huge liberation (and this is a process that I’m by no means done working on – it’s a rather tough one, but I feel that I’ve made a huge progress)!

Having this personal “discovery” in mind, I felt to make a second point to my supervisor. My supervisor went on to say, in a quite loud and forceful tone, how dreams of achieving something special are childish, grandiose and narcissistic – and I felt a very controlling energy coming from her at this point; the kind of energy that wants us not to realise our divine connection (going one deeper layer in here; because the greatest fear of all, to the ego, is really that we actually are special and powerful – in that way, all control ceases). I responded with a careful question: “But I don’t think everyone who has achieved great things are narcissists…?”. My supervisor, still being defensive, sitting with her arms and legs crossed together, avoided answering this, and instead responded how it isn’t the role of the therapist to mentor people and help them realise their strengths; rather, the role of the therapist is to help people realise the roots of their painful feelings, and help them work through these feelings. I was then reminded of how one of the reasons Freud and Jung diverged professionally was because Jung wanted to help people realise their full potential as a part of the healing process, whereas Freud was more concerned with solely helping people realising their pathologies and problems. Further having in mind how my supervisor is of the Freudian school, and how I’m planning on going the Jungian route myself, I felt that our conversation was over. I remained curious to what my supervisor was saying, trying to appear respectful to her role as my supervisor, and aware of my role as the supervisee. However, the inquiry somewhat remains: How can I best remind others (and myself) of how they are special, and how they have great potential, whilst at the same time helping people work through the painful feelings of not being special where there is a need to be special as a defence against feeling small? I feel like I have somewhat of an answer to this, but that the balance can be rather tricky – and I’m sure the BS energy is loving that…

It is so wonderful to ' meet' you . Many of our enquiries and circumstances are the same .

A baby of Megha ( she hasn't been named yet so she is still named as such ) is still under my care. I work ,like you, in an extremely trying environment . Furthermore I used to be an unchecked empath ,meaning I would effortlessly merge into the surroundings despite the voice of my soul telling me otherwise. I would not question what authority was saying ,whether that was supervisors or books .

In my work as in my life ,I am being continually challenged . Again a big challenge for me as for you is integrating Ray 1. Being direct and passionate and yet being cognizant of the fact of the fake reality that surrounds us. I too am having frequent almost debilitating attacks of Worthlessness.

After my latest 'attack' I was led by synchronicity and the willingness to open my mind to treat this child differently. She has a genetic seizure disorder and I went on a limb and gave her a much higher dose than usual of anti seizure medication.

Almost as a mirror of my own struggles in the last two months ,her convulsions have stopped. Completely. To put into perspective ,she has not lived a single day without less than five convulsions and her development was zero. I even got a tube placed in her belly to help her feed. This child smiled for the first time yesterday . And is eating herself . And her parents are,as I am, alternately grateful and flummoxed at the turn of events.

Within me ,something has integrated. I'm not sure what yet . But it's like I have access to a lot more knowing than I did . My clarity even within density has improved immensely in the last two weeks .

Thank you so much for getting in touch - it's lovely to hear from you! I'm so sorry for the late response - I'm struggling a lot lately with balancing everything I need to do, which I'm sure is another big karmic exploration of mine...

I felt so inspired and happy reading your story about the baby, and it's been on my mind all these days. I'm so happy you followed the synchronicities and took the action needed in the situation. It sounds like a very difficult one - and I want to send you positive vibes to continue integrating your ray 1 and ray 2 qualities for the best of all. You definitely got a very powerful feedback loop of your great work!

Hi Maria - this is a truly wonderful inquiry and observation. It's a beautiful juxtaposition - who is being the 'supervisor' here! Clearly it's a dance. A person might have experience and knowledge, but without the integrating wisdom of soul, and having personal oversight moment to moment, we can't truly suprevise/facilitate.

I'd say your Freud Jung exploration is powerful. Yes, I agree, we should help people to completely feel into, and accept, their feelings as they are right now. BUT (and it's a huge BUT), a good facilitator will help pick up on the emergence of soul and reflect amplification of that. Otherwise the risk is to wallow in the density. An emergent soul becomes very vulnerable in the moment they're completely surrendered, and the environment and energy they're held in becomes crucial (the scene reminds me of the film "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest!).

What's really tremendous here though (in my obeservation), is that your ray 1 was summoned to confront the situation, by persisting with the inquiry. But you also seemed to do so with empathy and oversight - witnessing the various interrelational dynamics with your supervisor. I commend you that you persisted.

When we keep confronting the moment like this, it's going to be powerfully alchemical for our own journey. And what's more, we challenge those around us to confront their comfort zones too.

Thanks a lot for this wonderful feedback! :-) It's very encouraging - and it motivates me deeply to keep confronting the moment with both passion, empathy and oversight. Thank you for also emphasising the BUT in the dilemma I presented; I can definitely feel the importance of not letting anyone dwell in the density... 'One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest' is a powerful movie, and I feel to watch it again soon now! :-)

Here is the maestro Alan Watts on the Daoist concept of "Wu Wei", loosely translated as 'not forcing anything in life' but rather going with the natural flow. To me it's a majestically simplified expression of the interrelating Toroidal Field. I would add that even though we're not forcing things to access the flow, you do still have to commit to what's flowing through you. Things will create naturally this way, yes, but you still do have to harness and amplify your unique expression of the energy. The butterfly is being the butterly, the flower the flower. They are being nothing more than that, but also, certainly nothing less...