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Sunday, May 9, 2010

My Mami :)

I always tell people "I'm soooooo conceited" and
they look at me with this weird look on their face, like I just told them I can
bench-press 300 pounds. They laugh
and say, “No you are not”! You are
too nice to be conceited. I
laugh and say wait until you get to know me better.

Now, when I say that I am conceited, maybe what I really mean is that I am just
overly confident, sometimes to a fault. Heidi Klum can be at a party but
when I walk in, I think to myself,
“Yeah she’s hot, but I am way hotter!!”

But honestly, these feelings of confidence and sureness in myself all come from
one place... my mother.

For as long as I can remember my mother has told me that I
am the smartest, the prettiest, the nicest, the loveliest, the funniest child,
girl, teen, and woman alive. Throughout the years I have come to believe all of
these superlatives and even own them from time to time. OK maybe ALL the time :)

I have my mother to thank for my obsession with reflective surfaces, because I
cannot walk by a mirror, store window or stainless steel fridge without
checking myself out. This is not a
joke; I honestly do this, A LOT.

Thanks to my mother I have the confidence to know that I can
try my hand at anything and even if the outcome is not how I expected, still be
proud that at least I gave it my best.
I of course have my own set of insecurities, but thanks to my mami, I
know that I can always pick up the phone and call her and in two seconds she
will have made my head so BIG, that I will go out there and try even harder
than before. There is not one
phone conversation with my mom that does not end some way like this:

What my mother does not realize is that to me, she is the
smartest, the prettiest, the nicest, the loveliest, the funniest woman, wife
and mother alive. Everyday I want
to be more like her. I want to be
as caring, as sassy and as stubborn as she is, because when I say, “ohh God, I
am turning into my mother” to me that is actually a good thing. I have huge shoes to fill and hope one
day I will be lucky enough to have my future children feel the same way about
me.