>>552119930It depends on how badly I disassociate and how I feel vs. Vincent feels. MY meds aren't too bad, though I have gotten weird bouts of insomnia sometimes that just come out of the fucking blue.

>Thursday evening>Get a phone call from brother>Parents are at it again>Might get a divorce, brother is scared because all his friends are here and he doesn't want to leave>Fuck my dad for ruining my life being a drunken, narcissistic tool>Fuck my mom for staying with my dad and not leaving him after my brother was born like she's drunkenly told me she wanted to>Fuck the world for ruining me and probably ruining my brother>So angry I just black out

>I wake up in my bed. I check my phone>HOLY SHIT>It's fucking Sunday afternoon>I get up, trying to figure out what happened>I see the notepad is full>Notes from Vincent >"Hey. So, you haven't been back for a while. So I took notes in class. And your girlfriend called. Oh, and you forgot to water Carla you bastard. -Vincent">I decide to try to account for things>Check receipts>5 lbs of chicken, rice, lube and a large jug of Tabasco sauce>Can't find the remains of any of those items>Check internet history>INTENSE fucking BDSM porn>Mostly Asian chicks? Why?>Fuck it>A pair of jeans are ripped up and poorly sewn together>Is this what coming down from meth is like?>Most of my alcohol has been drunken(drank? fucking grammar)>Laundry was done>Check the notes>Slightly illegible handwriting, but the motherfucker did my homework mostly right>Just sit down on the couch>"Vincent?">"What do you want?" Inner voice sounds a bit annoyed>"Thanks.">"...just take care of yourself asshole."

>>552120267Was diagnosed with bipolar when i was 13, and have had trouble with staying on my meds since. Its draining when im not on them and my highs and lows are more severe but when im on the meds i dont really feel like im whole and i find myself missing my swings. Also try yourself some yoga man, leveled me out real well

>>552121214have a blackout story if anyone cares>get a call from ex friday night>tells me shes pregnant and its mine, wants me to move back to be with her>oshit>swing kicks in>semi conscience buy a suit, a record player, 2 blue eyes and a sammy davis record>proceed to paint my entire apartment in the suit while listening to the records on repeat>saturday night and sunday - filesnotfound>wake up tuesday afternoon completely destroyed>find a bunch of receipts >mostly unless inexpensive stuff, bottom of te pile, 3.5grand for a baby grand piano>i now play piano

>>552125295It's really awkward to bring up. And occasionally she asks me what Vincent's been saying recently or has to ask if I'm actually me. And whatever conversation we were having usually dies right about then.

This is like filia if.she was a boy and samson was in your head rather than on. He tough, rude, but can be polite and in the end protects you for almost the same reason, self preservation and a bit of kindness

>>552126246I want to work in a library, and he honestly would want to work in the military since my grandfather (R.I.P. you amazing man) served. But I said no fucking way would they let me in, and I don't want to go.

>>552126601Well, I'm bi. So I guess I'm half a faggot. But thanks man.

>>552126612It's as much a voice as when you're reading something in your head or monologuing in your mindVincent - "I really don't know. I mean, if I had a body I'd be taller. Chris is a 5'4 child sized little bitch so it wouldn't be hard to get that."

>Be at work, 14 y/o me>Boss is yelling at me for something that wasn't my fault>Disassociated a bit after stressful morning and accidentally missed a box of papers to file, but at the same time another student worker who was also in charge gets off scott free for no fucking reason>"Call her a bitch">Leave me alone>"She's acting like a cunt!">I said leave!>Goes quiet>Boss finishes and tells me to go get some supplies from the basement>I try to talk to Vincent, but he doesn't respond>I suddenly feel very lonely.>Collapse and start crying>Black out, like, actually pass out >Haven't eaten since yesterday, insomnia terrible>When I come to, it's closing time.>Vincent did all my work, dealt with my boss, and got me a little bit ahead. Also told the boss I wasn't feeling good and might have to stay home tomorrow.>Start crying a little bit on the way home, but for an entirely better reason.

>>552127986Vincent - "Everyone's a little fucked up, take Chris for example, who is a lot fucked up. But everyone deals with it in their own way, so try to cut people a break from time to time. Unless their being assholes about it, then cut their tires.

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