One of my favorite movies is a recent version of Cinderella, Ever After with Drew Barrymore.I have lots of favorite movies and dislike that question, “What’s your favorite movie?”There are too many for too many reasons.

Why Ever After? Because it’s just a kick ass version of Cinderella.I do remember my first with Lesley Ann Warren.In black and white of course.Cinderella or Danielle in Ever After, no matter what happens, no matter how bad it gets, no matter who tries to beat her down, she remembers who she is and how great she is.And at a point when she could have had her stepmother and sister thrown out of the country, or worse, she takes a lighter approach. If you want to call it lighter?Cinderella ask’s that they show her stepmother the same courtesy that she had bestowed on her.Off to the work camp! 🙂

But that’s not what I’m writing about.After the Prince has fallen in love with the “Comtesse Nicole de Lancret”, Cinderella.He says to her in the ruins, “I used to think that if I cared about anything I’d have to care about everything and I’d go stark raving mad.”

I remember sitting in my little apartment in Raytown, MO.It had to be 1981 or 82?Watching Philip Glass, “Koyaanisqatsi” and weeping when the image of an older man appears on the screen. He appeared to be homeless.I couldn’t stop crying.It was as if the value of every living being was all of a sudden on my shoulders.

I was trying to wrap my head around all this emotion and level of mean today. Maybe I was looking for a distraction? I was thinking about the number 9.A friend was into numerology a few years back and did my numbers.I only remembered 9.It may have been because that’s all she did at the time.

I recently created my 4th Twitter account.One is for some work that I’m doing so it’s not really my account.One is @4212Olive.The address of the house that my Dad grew up in and the house that holds or held many of the stories of his youth that I heard in my youth.There also where my Uncle, Aunt and of course Grandparents.Stories that I still hear 50 plus years later.Then I realized, 4+2+1+2=9.I know!!

O.k., Google search for numerology.Get your free reading, from a guy in Beaverton, OR?Near where I used to live.Sure!Then I got about 5 follow up email asking if I wanted more.Which was fine.That’s how he makes money.I kind of wish that was something I could just throw money at for fun right now.But I don’t think it fits into the budget of my unemployed status.

My life path is 9, of course.expression is 5, soul urge is 8.Here are few random sentences from the reading.

9 – You probably feel responsible for keeping up the morality or spirit of mankind in some way, or even responsible for their very souls. You are very aware of feeling as insignificant as a grain of sand in the Universe and believe that materialism, prejudice and lust just don’t matter in the long run.Often the number 9 faces a unique challenge at some point in his or her life that seems to be a test of faith. Usually this incident takes the form of a devastating personal loss, disease or some sort of tragedy. This triggers a period of time that lasts a few years that is often called the “dark night of the soul.” It is usually during this period of your life that you find the extreme courage and strength to become what is called a wounded healer. Your life may seem too tough to handle at times which makes you vulnerable to finding substitutes for the family unit.

5 – As your independence is so important to you, you thrive best in creative occupations that allow you a great deal of travel. You have an eye for design and appreciate the good things in life. In fact, you may spend a lot of your time trying to figure out how to get these things without having to work too hard. You very much believe that a person is defined by what he does and not what he wants to do so any business or project that you start will be very much branded with your personal flair.You are terrified of being stuck in one place or having your free spirit suffocated by labels and possessiveness. For this reason many of you feel quite suffocated in relationships or are unable to hold down a day job for any length of time. The last thing that could ever be said of you is that you are closed-minded.However, sometimes your permissiveness leads to relationships with odd or unstable individuals.

8 – Often your devotion to keeping the free exchange of money flowing costs you dearly personally either through overwork or thanklessness from others.The highest expression of your soul urge number is when you are at the top of the food chain and dispensing goodies down to those who work for you or love you. You are blessed with the tools that come in hand with being a great leader – foresight, analytical abilities and a great understanding of human nature. Your ability to sell ice to an Eskimo comes from a truly grounded and practical understanding of the wants and needs of humans. You are very astute when it comes to choosing partners and employees. You always assign people to roles that best suit their talents and resources and so that all benefit from your grand plans.

What does this all mean? I have no idea.But it does feel familiar.

I don’t know what I think about these types of things.They often seem to have some element of truth to them.Myer’s Briggs, Now, Discover Your Strength all of these random tests have truth to them, because they do describe parts of me.

But then I also believe a bit in that concept of predestination.That for the most part your life path is carved out for you.You may do things along the way that temporarily take you down another path.But ultimately you end up where you end up.You think you know what you want or where you want to be, but some one or some other force steps in front of you.

So I’m a bit stuck, but not really…#9, #5, #8.What’s next?

Ever After also says what I have believed forEver, you just never know. So maybe a little more care in what you say to and about others.