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And, going up to him, she took him by the arm and
led him back to his chair.

He sank upon it, his eyes hanging on her. She
stooped over him.

‘Shall I,’ she said, uncertainly—­’shall
I—­go first? Oh, I oughtn’t
to go! Nobody ought to interfere—­between
husband and wife. But if you wish it—­if
I could do any good—­’

Her eyes sought the answer of his.

Her face, framed in the folds of her black veil, shone
in the candle-light; her voice was humble, yet brave.

The silence continued a moment. Then his lips
moved.

‘Be my messenger!’ he said, just breathing
it.

She made a sign of assent. And he, feebly lifting
her hands, brought them to his lips. Close to
them—­unseen by her—­for the moment
unremembered by him—­lay the revolver with
which he had meant to take his life—­and
the letter in which he had bid her a last farewell.

CHAPTER XIII

Great Langdale was once more in spring. After
the long quiet of the winter, during which these remoter
valleys of the Lakes resume their primitive and self-dependent
life, there were now a few early tourists in the two
Dungeon Ghyll hotels, and the road traffic had begun
to revive. Phoebe Fenwick, waiting and listening
for the post in an upper room of Green Nab Cottage,
ran hurriedly to the window several times in vain,
drawn by the sound of wheels. The cart which clattered
past was not that which bore Her Majesty’s mails.

At the third of these false alarms she lingered beside
the open casement window, looking out into the valley.
It was a very weary woman who stood thus—­motionless
and drooping; a woman so tired, so conscious of wasted
life and happiness, that although expectation held
her in a grip of torture, there was in it little or
nothing of hope.

Twelve years since she had last looked on those twin
peaks, those bare fields and winding river! Twelve
years! Time, the inexorable, had dealt with her,
and not softly. All that rounded grace which Fenwick
had once loved to draw had dropped from her, as the
bloom drops from a wild cherry in the night.
Phoebe was now thirty-five—­close on thirty-six;
and twelve years of hard work, joyless struggle, and
pursuing remorse had left upon her indelible marks.
She had grown excessively thin, and lines of restlessness,
of furtive pain and suspicion, had graven themselves,
delicately, irrevocably, about her eyes and mouth,
on her broad brow and childish neck. There were
hollows in the cheeks, the cutting of the face seemed
to be ruder and the skin browner than of old.
Nevertheless, the leanness of the face was that of
energy, not that of emaciation. It pointed to
life in the open air, a strenuous physical life; and,
but for the look of fretting, of ceaseless and troubled
longing with which it was associated, it would rather
have given beauty than taken it away.