I may overuse the word crazy, but there just isn't any other way to explain it.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Grateful

The most interesting thing happened the other night. I got all grumpy about a few things and started to feel really bad about myself. I felt like everything I have ever done was not good enough. My photography most of all. I have put my heart and soul into it for the last few years, and while I will never admit to being the best, I have come a long way in the last few years. But sometimes things happen and I loose all my confidence. The other night was one of those times.

I was feeling a little emotional I guess too, because I just climbed into bed and just cried. My hubby being sweet, laid next to me and let me cry. Next thing I know he was clicking away on my laptop next to me. I had no idea what he was up to. I didn't care, I was determined to just wallow in my self pitty. (I am really good at that you know.)

To my surprise he had hijacked my blog. This caught me by surprise. This isn't something that he would normally do. His caring and his sweet words made me feel so much better. I love him so much, and to read that he cares about what my interests are meant the world to me. He somehow knew what was going to make me feel better! I am super lucky to have him as my best friend!

Then I started to get emails. WOW! You know I just don't know where to start when I say thank you! All of the comments that I received really meant a lot to me! I was ready to throw in the towel all together with photography. (Unfortunately I have been too close to that for months now) After reading those comments I felt that I could give it another summer. I need to grow in so many more ways to really feel like I have a belonging in the business and I hope this is my year to do it! We will see, but all of you have helped me past this little road block. THANK YOU!

So with that I thought that I will post a list of some reasons why I am grateful and blessed!

#1 I truly have the best husband in the world! He means so much to me! I am grateful that you have been able to witness a part of his personality here.

#2 I took the kids to their first dentist appointment today (I know, I should have done it sooner!) But no one had a cavity! They did great and I am really proud of them! What awesome kids I have!

#3 I am grateful that I have survived an entire year of being a mother of 3! Tomorrow is Little Man's 1st birthday! I can't believe that this time has come already!

#4 Even though I am super excited for Spring, the snow means something really special to me. Anyone that knows me well, knows this. I woke up to a few inches of snow this morning. It actually brought a smile to my face!

#5 I am grateful for wonderful friends that truly care about me. One that has a birthday today and took some time out of his life to talk with me last night when I was still feeling a little grumpy. Another that sent me an email today and really made me smile. One that whenever she needs something trusts me enough to ask me to help her (and I am always so happy to do because she is just so cool!) Not only that but has been there for me through all my highs and lows for so many years. She has taught me so much and I really look up to her. I feel honoured to be her friend. I have another friend that I have been friends with since I was a kid. She is one of the most caring people I know, and non judgemental. I love that when I hear from her I feel like she is my sister. I have so many more friends that have blessed my life, I thank my Heavenly Father for them often. Each one has blessed my life.

#5 I have the silliest kids ever. They think that EVERYTHING is a joke, and EVERYTHING has to be funny. I am starting to realize this isn't a bad thing. They love life, and they love to laugh. There is nothing wrong with that. At least they are looking at the good in things.

#6 My sisters and my brothers are some of the coolest people on the planet. I am lucky to have a close family that is drama free. They are ALWAYS there when I need them, and are always super supportive!

#7 My mom and dad! Where do I begin to write how my mom and dad have blessed my life? I just have to say that without them I would be lost, poor, alone, hungry, confused, and much much more. They do so much for me and my family! They are great examples of true love and how to be charitable!

I think that is a pretty good list! I feel great today! I am blessed! I am loved! I am talented! I am faithful! I am beautiful! I am a daughter of God!

I'm sorry! I haven't visited for a bit, I've not been getting much computer time, so I'm sorry I'm late on telling you this, but I wanted to tell you that your photos are beautiful! I think you can look at a photo you've taken one day and not see anything and then look at it the next and see so much... you must have been in a nothing mood cause I think everyone else sees so much in your work. Hopefully you are feeling better, I think we all go through times like this cause we're always wanting to be better and that's a good thing, but we need to remember what we are isn't so bad either :)