Am I blue?

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Lil: I miss you, Lyle. Where have you been?
Lyle: I don't want to talk about it. Lil.
Lil: Why not?
Lyle: It hurts too much.
Lil: You'd probably feel better if you talk about it.
Lyle: No, you would just use my pain against me like most people.
Lil: Lyle, were you paranoid before they started following you?