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Sunday, 10 May 2015

Morning Run

I see you when I run, or more accurately I feel youBefore I hit the hill I try to stretch my eyes above and beyond to see you waiting for the morning bus, but to no availSo bobbing left and right the anticipation rises deep inside and I see you before you see me and I tell myself ‘keep a straight face this time’I fail miserablyGlowing in anticipation of your glow and then… you notice meYou smileYou waveFor seconds the entire world feels like it will be okay and all my troubles melt away and it lingers for a while, long after I’ve passed you byThat is the power you wield in just a smile and a waveLike magic, a life, instantly healed, savedI try to leave the gym right on time to see youPlan far enough ahead the day before to know I wont miss youJust the thought of this moment consumes my being and then….I see you and everything is okaySee we have something no one else can claimNine months of walkingBreathingLaughing cryingKindness given and pain receivedYou took me with you through all of your experiences even before I could remember a thingAnd I’m sure in your mind this life inside you would grow into something beyond your wildest dreamsWhat we have, so simple as it may seem is that for nine months you carried meWait that can’t be rightFor nine months you and I were oneSee you didn’t carry me like a cup in your hand

Something you could rest aside and come back to laterI breathed cause you breathedI ate because you ateI moved from here to there because you didn’t stay in one placeI was physically connected, corded, joined to your bodyA life force that could not survive without your survivalMy bloodMy heart beatMy feet and hands, eyes, nose, mouth, the hair on my head, all grew and formed by the nourishment you gave meI once said mother is god in the eyes of a child this is why cause you didn’t carry me but I was formed inside youYour body was a new life form creation machineFor a time I was you and you where me and without you I definitely could not beWe shared a life quite literallyYou gave part of you to me so that I could breatheSo no you did not carry me along, but shared everything, all of you, with me for the months we were oneAnd when you looked me in the eyes you named me and from then on you loved me just as I was, am, and will grow to beSo when I’m running over the hill I don’t see you, I feel youThat part you gave nothing is strong enough to take awayAnd should the day come when I’ll see you no more I’ll look at that bus stop, see you smile and wave cause I will see you in my soul from far beyond the graveYes even in your absence for a moment my life will be okayAll troubles will melt awayPart of you is in me and that I will always seeEven if my sight is somehow taken from meAnd through faith I am here because I know you said that if I was meant to be to not be taken away and if I wasn’t….Well here I am alive and breathing so I guess I truly am destined to be hereSo to make things clearThank you for sharing, not carrying me along with youThere are some things far beyond what love can giveAnd I remember it’s because of them that I do liveWhen I run up the hill next, I will always see you smile and wave long before my eyes reach youThat part you gave is connected to that smile and waveMy heart and my soul will forever see you, feel youFor I was you and you were me for a timeI’m a product of creation and evidence of what a life shared can doAnd you continue to have to power to create changeWith something as simple as a smile and a wave.