Category Archives: Excerpts from Meditation

For a long time, I found it hard to truly forgive the people who had hurt me over the years. I felt that if I did forgive them, it would seem like what they did was ‘alright’, But how could their bitchiness, mockery and behaviour be ever alright? When I did think of them or bump into them, I would feel a burn in my heart. At the spot where the pain had somehow collected down the years. I’d heal the spot and carry on, but the repressed pain continued.

I’d heard of the concept of forgiveness and I honestly believed I’d let go of a lot of painful memories but last week I learnt that I hadnt. For a couple of nights I kept having nightmares of these people, as if they were ghosts from the past, appearing in my dreams, hurting me exactly the way they used to. And I made a conscious decision to do some intensive energy healing work on forgiveness.

At first it was hard, replaying the memories, remembering their faces, and feeling their icky energies all over again. But I learnt I had to, for one final time, replay it all and then let them go. Perhaps I had done something to do them consciously or unconsciously, perhaps it was unfinished karma, perhaps they were clueless that their behaviour was hurtful. Whatever it was, it had to be released.

Forgiveness was not a one sided act. It also included me. And the more I meditated, the more I saw myself in my younger years and realised how my own behaviour and words may have led to their reactions. Not only did I had to forgive them, I had to forgive myself.

The learning was almost instantaneous. During the meditations I understood, we cannot undo the past but we can make our present and our futures better. What some of them said or did was not acceptable but I had to let it go for my own healing. Forgiveness doesnt mean things would be hunky dory with them, or they would be welcomed into my heart or home, it just meant releasing an imprisoning memory. And it wouldnt have happened if I wasnt ready for it. For forgiveness to take place, we have to be ready for it, to release the memories and feel the freedom of releasing the negative energy that binds us to those people.

“Silence can change the personality of an individual. Through silence a person controls anger and speech. One grows stronger through greater determination and self-confidence. One is more at peace and free of tension. There is conservation of energy and a person experiences greater inner strength.” Chanakya Niti

Somethings happened to the phone lines – my line appears to be “unreachable”, only messaging and whatsapp appears to be working. I’ve had to reschedule telephonic readings, message friends and family who’ve called and to experience the bliss of a completely silent morning and afternoon.

It’s been nearly 7 hours since I last spoke and I’m loving it:) It’s allowed me to connect with my innermost self and draw deeply from a limitless source of pure energy. I guess the past few days had been hectic and my body needed to have a day of absolute ssssshhhh to recharge:)

My son is calling out for me from somewhere. Should I reply or appear with a scribbled note saying “yes?”

I’ve been keeping my senses open to Mother Nature now consciously more than ever. My teachers have taught me to listen with my eyes, feel with my ears, touch with my heart and tune into what I hear. Here goes:)

Souls dont care what you look like, what you wear, where you live, how much or how little you have in the bank.

When there’s a connection, there’s a connection at a deep level.

A chord is touched. A glimmer of light passes from one pair of eyes to another and a moment of recognition occurs. A vaguely familiar feeling. Deja vu of sorts. A knowing that you’ve met before. And there is a reason for meeting again.

“When I look into your eyes my heart swells up to the point where I can no longer bear what I see. The teardrops stab and pierce my eyes and I bow down and weep for all your pain. For every tear you shed, for every angry word you heard, for the tearing blow that must have wracked your body for ever damned wound thats ever been inflicted upon you. I only wish I had the power to somehow magically dissolve every memory you have but I am only human and deep down I know you are a child of the Universe and are divinely protected like all of us. So I can do absolutely nothing except close my eyes and pray for your health, your happiness and for the absolute relief of your pain.”

Empaths are highly sensitive people who have the ability to feel another’s feelings. When channelled effectively, empaths can become counsellors, healers and therapists.

Not knowing is a wonderful state to be in.
There’s a delicious warmth in trusting that the Universe knows what’s going to happen. There IS a Divine plan in place and sometimes when I reach the point of mental exhaustion trying to figure out the mysteries I have no option but to surrender.
Just give up to a place of absolute emptiness, the void of ignorance perhaps. And allow whatever’s meant to be to happen, or not happen. It’s no longer in my power.
Initially, it’s scary because your mind wants to control but it cant. My mind is too unevolved when compared to Universal Intelligence. Just too dumb to get it. When I discover that I cannot know anymore, I cannot plan, I cannot preconcieve, I sink into a cushiony cloud of Trust that whatever happens, happens for the Highest Good of All.

Aah Well, do allow me to wallow in my cool pool of mud of ignorance. 🙂

Letting go doesnt mean I do not love you. Letting go doesnt mean I dont care. Or wont be there when you need me. It just means i have to focus on me for a while you focus on you. And I know when we meet again I’ll be a better me and You’ll be a better you. – Excerpts from Meditation

When you are one with your breath and your prayer, you become the prayer itself and it matters not whether you are heard or not heard, all that matters is that moment of magic.
Hope you enjoy this mantra too:)

Being an Indian woman has been both a blessing and a curse. There have been times in all our lives when we’ve wondered why we were ever born. Few celebrated our birth and many told our parents why they stopped at 2 GIRLS, why didnt they “try for a boy”. We’ve seen the look in the eyes of many men. We’ve been ignored. We’ve been silenced and “put in our place” And yet we know we’re the rocks. Thrown about, stepped on and callously strewn about, but there’s still something unbreakable within our souls, a strength or Shakti that’s there in every woman on this planet. A force so divine and so indescribably powerful that I can only humbly say I’ve only tapped into a teeny weeny piece of it and I’ve only recently begun to understand why it’s great to be a woman.

Over the following posts I will be exploring Womanhood with meditation and my trusted deck of cards and sharing my learnings. Your feedback as always, is welcome:)