Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Hello, Cyrus Keith

I said goodbye to Irving last night.

I know some of you don't know Irving, but those of you who
do, know how heavy it was to say goodbye, and yet easy at the same time.

See, Irving Ratzinger was a character in my first novel, Becoming
NADIA, an EPIC award finalist for Best Thriller. The man I based him on
died last Friday. His name was unpronounceable to us lowly Americans only
because German is such a surprisingly complex language. So we'll call him Bill.
Everyone else did, and it worked for him.

Growing up in Indiana, I had this friend from elementary
school, named Erick. His parents were both German immigrants. His father was a
WWII veteran, captured by American soldiers and interred in a Canadian POW
camp. He immigrated to the U.S. after the war and moved to Chicago, where he
met the love of his life in the German community there. I will say at this
point that Bill was regular wermacht,
not SS.

I met Bill the first time I came over to Erick's house after
school. Bill and Maggie were the warmest, most open and friendly people I had
met, and the background hum of the household was German. I suppose that would
inspire some people to learn the language, but I was too busy learning French
to pick up another. So most of the time, I would just nod and smile, and add an
occasional "Yeah, that too" that never failed to bring a smile.

Bill had this smile he wore most of the time, unless Erick
and I got too unbearable. I only saw Bill angry once in all the time I knew
him. Otherwise, he was sneaking in wise cracks at every opportunity that
presented itself, and one side of his mouth would curl up in this impish grin
while he waited for the rest of us to get his joke. Sometimes we did, and other
times, well…

I remember one time in particular when I came home from the
service on leave. Erick, Bill and I sat around that kitchen table and shared schnapps and jokes (I found out then
that schnapps in German means a
generic term for an adult beverage. I think it was whiskey sours, I can't quite
remember). I don't even think the jokes were that great. But it was just a nice
evening spent with "the guys."

Bill was a gentle, kind man in the truest and most complete
sense of the word. Every memory I had of him was a good one. So when we drove
back to Indiana to support the family, there was no melancholy, no hysterics.
For one thing, everyone expected it. Bill had been fighting cancer for some
time, and it finally became too much for him. For another, everyone else's
memory of Bill seemed to be just as happy, just as joyful as my own, which is
some testimonial to the kind of man he was.

Whenever I wrote Irving Ratzinger's dialogue, I heard Bill.
So I simply stole Bill's voice and personality and transferred it into Irving,
drawing from Bill's character and his integrity.

In a way, then, Bill was saved, as Alicia Burgess was saved.
A piece still lives on, something that we can pull on to remind us of the warm
and generous nature of a man who remains on my list of the most respected
people in my life. He wasn't a president, wasn't a leader of any but his own
household. But he inspired a character who, by the feedback I've received, is
one of my most beloved.

So thank you for letting me introduce to Irving. Or Bill.
And I hope he becomes to you at least a shadow of what he's been to me.

Rest easy, old friend.

(From Becoming NADIA:)

Nadia sighed and threw a twig into the water, watching it settle into the current and drift

slowly downstream, carried away to who knew where. She felt like that twig, carried on by

forces outside her will, not knowing where she would eventually end up.

She heard a noise behind her and turned. Irving was making his way down to the dock,

grasping a white plastic, five-gallon bucket and a pair of fishing poles in one hand, and a

tackle box in the other. He greeted her merrily and tottered out to the end of the pier.

“Would you care for a little company, young lady?”

She smiled and beckoned. “I like to come out here in the morning,” he announced with

a grin, sitting down next to her. “It's a great time to fish.”

He opened the tackle box and began to rig a spinning rod with a small Rooster Tail. She

watched his meticulous, steady fingers tie the lure on the line. Then he flipped it out into the water and wound it back against the current, making little jerking motions with the rod tip.

The lure leaped out of the river as it neared the end of its travel, trailing tiny, diamond

droplets of water from its skirt as it swung in the sunlight.

Irving set the bail and flipped it out again, drawing it back along some rocks. She could

barely see it in the murky water, the little silver blade spinning happily as it came back to the pier, like a tiny puppy wagging its tail.

A dragonfly zoomed down and hovered inquisitively over it, and then sped off for parts

unknown. Nadia said nothing. She just watched as Irving made cast after cast.

She didn't want to break the silence of this golden morning, but her curiosity finally got

the best of her. “Don't you ever get bored, doing that same thing over and over again?”

“Nah, I've got nothing better to do. Do you?”

Nadia smiled. “No, I guess not. But what if you don't catch any fish?”

Irving winked and grinned. “Sometimes, fishing has nothing to do with catching fish.”

She sat watching, quiet, and he went on. “It helps me keep my perspective out here.” He

spoke slowly, dividing his attention between the young lady next to him and his lure in the

water. “I lost my Hilda, God rest her soul, four years ago. She was everything to me. We

came out here all the time on weekends, and then after I retired we moved out here full-time, partly to watch the other cabins for their owners.”

“What was the other 'partly'?”

“Well, if you had a choice of living out here or in Boston, which would you choose?”

Nadia looked out over the river, taking in the glorious morning scenery. The mist was

departing, leaving thready traces here and there on the water, being dragged along by the

current. A water bird swooped low over the river, and its feet drew a silent, silver trace

across its surface. Somewhere in the distance, a bullfrog roared. Birds sang all around them.

The sky was an intense blue, that shade they call cyan, with nary a cloud to mar the

skyscape. The quiet reminded her of the balcony back at Twin Oaks, that time after she

woke up. Here was peace. She remembered living in San Francisco, with its business and

noise, the traffic outside her apartment, the hustle of pedestrians. She'd enjoyed bits and

pieces of both, but if she had to choose…. “I suppose I'd live out here,” she said at last. “It

gives a person time to think.”

“But you have to be careful you don't think too much,” said Irving as the spinner hit the

water one more time. “Your brain has a way of getting you into trouble. That's why God put

the fish out here, to keep your mind busy.” He grinned at her again, and she couldn't help but smile back.

“Gotcha!” he exclaimed, and lifted the pole upward as the line snapped taut. The water's

surface swirled and splashed as the struggling fish broke and twisted. He played it with

confidence borne of experience, bringing it in a little bit at a time and then letting it run.

Each time he let it work itself more tired, more fatigued. Then he would turn it around with

a tug on the line, keeping the rod tip high. With a final splash and flash of scales, Irving

hefted the big fish up to the pier.

He handed the rod to Nadia. “Here. Take it, and don't let go.” She held it tightly as the

fish strained and thrashed in the water below. She watched as Irving rolled up his sleeves

and grabbed his bucket. He dipped it into the river and drew it back up onto the pier with a

grunt. Then he took the rod back from Nadia and lifted it up, unhooking the fish over the

bucket.

Irving placed the fish inside, where it swam around chaotically, banging into the sides

for several seconds. Then it settled down and centered itself in the vessel, and Nadia

watched its gills working, quickly at first, and then slowing as the fish calmed down. Irving

had the rod back in his hand and was already casting back out into the stream when she

looked up again. “When I'm out here, I think about my Hilda, God rest her soul, and how

much she loved it here. But I don't take the time to think about how lonely I get without her

here with me. Sometimes I think about that, but not too much. My Hilda, God rest her soul, she would say, 'Irving you have too much to worry about already. You can only do one thing at a time.'“

“She sounds like a very sensible person,” Nadia said, watching the rhythm of his hands:

flip the bail, cast, retrieve.

Irving paused before he answered. “Yes, I suppose she was.”

They sat together in silence for some time. Irving fished and Nadia watched. “What's

that on your arm?” she asked presently, pointing at where he had rolled up his sleeve,

exposing his forearm.

“A memory,” he said, “from a long time ago.” He let the lure sink to the bottom and it

stayed there as he explained about the Nazis.

“I was a German Jew, twelve years old when they rounded us all up and put us on a

train. On a cattle car, we were loaded. It dropped us off at a place called Buchenwald.”

He had to explain to her about the death camps, the starvation, the rape of the women

and girls. He told her about the serial number that every prisoner wore, tattooed on the

inside of their left forearm, and about the experiments. Then he told her about the ovens. She had to hear everything he could remember, every detail. To her it seemed more than a

nightmare, something beyond comprehension, beyond Hell. His eyes were moist when he

A fitting tribute to a friend. That's what makes your books memorable. The characters. Your ability to make the reader see them the way you do. And care about what happens to them. When I finish a book and feel as though I've been through fire with the characters, it makes it even better.

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About Me

As the second youngest of six children, I always had a vivid imagination and loved to make up stories. I often sat and daydreamed about imaginary characters and lost myself in books and make-believe worlds.
My love of writing began as a teenager, but only recently pursued it seriously. With encouragement from fellow book-club members, NEORWA and my husband, I began writing and submitting my work.
Although Satin Sheets was my first published novel, I have over forty articles and stories published in magazines such as Good Old Days, Nostalgia, and Ohio Writer along with several online publications.
Besides teaching three writing courses for Long Story School of Writing, I taught a writing course at Cuyahoga Community College.
In my spare time, I enjoys spending time with my six children, fourteen grandchildren and great grandchildren. My hobbies include ceramics, knitting, quilting, and jewelry making. But after my family, my first love is writing. I reside with my husband of forty-eight years in Northeast Ohio. You can visit my website at: http://www.roseannedowell.com