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Back to You

Thursday, September 25, 2014

“How
many times have passed as I wandered in the darkness? With my heart that had
already closed, time just passed away. I thought that I would forgot all the
things that I wanted to forget. But every time I turn my head, I always clearly
remember your tearful face.” –Byun Jin Sub, Back to You [translated lyrics]

Since the first time I
heard this song, somehow
I already had this feeling that its lyrics have a sad meaning. Well, it always can be heard from the melody, sometimes. And my feeling
turns out to be true. “Back to You”
is a song about regret. It is a song
that tells about someone who finds himself in regret of letting go the person
who loved him unconditionally. “How many times have passed as I wandered in
the darkness? With my heart that had already closed, time just passed away. I
thought that I would forgot all the things that I wanted to forget. But every
time I turn my head, I always clearly remember your tearful face.” Regret always comes late, doesn’t it? It took many nights of wandering, it took many times that had passed away, before he finally could realize that he could never forget about her,
and those pain he left for her that
streaming down along in her tears. “Even when I leave without a word, or
with my harsh words that could only hurting you, you used to look upon my deep
wandering with your never changing warm eyes. Why was it so hard for me to come
back to you again? Just now I’ve realized that I couldn’t leave you until the
day I die.” The thing that hurts the most
is the fact that she was the one who truly loved him, despite all of his lacks and cruel acts, inspite of all those scars he gave her; and he would never find someone like her again in his lifetime. And now he has been left alone with one
question; why was it so hard for him
to come back to her again back then? Now
after he realizes that he could never leave her, he finds himself crawling back to her, all over again.

“Even
when I leave without a word, or with my harsh words that could only hurting
you, you used to look upon my deep wandering with your never changing warm
eyes. Why was it so hard for me to come back to you again? Just now I’ve
realized that I couldn’t leave you until the day I die.” –Byun Jin Sub,
Back to You [translated lyrics]

“Geu eolmana oraen
siganeul jiteun eodumeseo seoseonggeoryeotna

(How
many times have passed as I wandered in the darkness?)

Naemaeumeul
datadunchaero hemaeida heulleogan sigan

(With
my heart that had already closed, time just passed away)

Idgosipdeon
modeunildeuleun ttaeron idjeundeuti saenggakdwaetjiman

(I
thought that I would forgot all the things that I wanted to forget)