Monday, March 01, 2010

UP_date: Rambling all around.

Rambling about the situation

The situation in Mosul is fantastic!! Indescribable in every single way.

The Christian students stopped attending their college a week ago. I don’t know which mechanism vanish them all that rapid!! Oh, yes I remember; it’s called killing and shedding blood mechanism!.Sometimes, in order to survive, you have to leave and so they left! As hard as it sound and as simple as this.

I sent my friend (Christian friend) a message to ask about how she is doing, she only asked me to pray for them. She didn’t told me where she is now, she didn’t tell anybody either but I guess she is somewhere in the north of Iraq (where situation is calmer there).

In my college, we have many students from other Iraqi cities, those probably live in student dominate and those as well stopped attending the college yesterday because the mangers of this house asked them to leave before the election that will be in the 8th of this month.

Me and other collegue didn’t go to college as well (kind of support) beside; the situation is not supporting us to do this either! :D

I am above 18 old *Old news!* and so I will have to particibate in this election *confusing news*

Simply: in this right moment, I am totally ignorant of what is the name ofIraqi president! And what hia assistants' names! I am totally ignorant in everything about politics and every thing that is going far from my eyes. I simply don’t have interest to know, no ability to bear another shock and to hear another news. I closed my ears and my eyes from knowing any news a long time ago. I only know that my country’s name is Iraq and we are ALL iraqi. But هذه البلاد لم تعد كبلادي !!

Rambling about my hoppy of drawing:

Drawing is a major solution for me to relax after a hard day. I draw using oil colour or using the ordinary pencil. my psychotic condition really get better after a period of doing this.
This year I will participate in a kind of competition. I am not looking to win as much as I love to be apart of this. I know I won't win ; I am not that good in drawing, beside, my drawing is naive !! I didn't have any drawing lessons ever. My drawing result from willing and not from skills.
But, I am really looking for the day when I will win in such competition. maybe next year inshallah.

Rambiling about my result in Exams

I always find my way to trouble no one but myself, working and giving my best and then when things don’t work out; I blame myself, hate myself and punish myself.

I gave my 100% in studying, and yes I passed *expected* but not like a hero! The thing that puzzles me is that I really think that I am an intelligent, I don’t know if it is the exam circumstances that freak me out or there is a problem on my mental thinking !!

I feel sorry for myself about that, But I can't help it. and No body else can !

Dear Hadia,I'm so sorry that things are still so bad in Mosul. I don't know what it will take to make things right again. I hope they are at least improving a little, or at least that they will improve after the uncertainty of the election is over. It's a shame that people are targeted because of their religion, when they are citizens as much as anyone else. But then of course, no group has it easy in Iraq now, whether majority or minority. As for your exams, I'm sure you did fine. You would have liked to do better because you and Najma are so motivated to be excellent. But maybe you get so anxious and nervous that it becomes harder for you to concentrate and to do your best. Anyway, exams are not the only measurement, and not the best measurement, of your abilities. You are already an internationally recognized author and future drug designer. So I hope that you will not beat yourself too much.Very best regards,John

If you go to this web page, you will find a list of pdf files to download, which are an almost complete course in drawing comics. That doesn't mean only funny comics, there is good advice for straight drawing too.

Dear Hadia,I always just read what you post on your blog without commenting, but this time i want to comment little bit..Its true we are living terrible life here in our city Mosul, but we must continue and do what we can and more than we can and never ever stop or even think in stopping because this what our enemies want from us..About your exams in our pharmacy college, be sure marks are not the measure of being genius and smart all the time, I myself didn’t get the highest marks when I was student but I was happy all the time because I was learning what I was reading and was sure will be so capable in my specialty and at last I graduated and was number 1 in my grade in our pharmacy college in Mosul and in the whole pharmacy colleges in Iraq..SO just do your max in study and never ever things in marks as you are still in 3rd grade..GOD with you in your study..If you need any help in your study am ready..this is my email: dr.pachachi@gmail.comAlso if u want search for my face book using the same above email..Othman Pachachi

This is the first time i read your blog.. i know about this blog after reading your book "Iraqi Girl" A diary of Teeanage girl in Iraq.. i found the book very interesting.. though the life is hard.. insyaAllah i will follow your blog after this.. all the best in your study. I pray one day Allah will give peace to Iraq. (Sue)

the situation for christians will be better in the north. And they can easily gio to Syria.It's funny but a colleague of mine has a son who engaged a christian Syrian girl. It's all so close to you where the peace is. Ans you suffer for as long as a know you. Stay cool and keep on studying. You will survive the nightmare and m ight help to build up Iraq.Do you know mr Melkert of the UN? He was a Dutch politician. But left politics after losing the elections. So he knows how it feels to lose elctions of someone who shouldn't win. Ad Melkert does it all with the best intentions.

Hi Hadiya:I'm a friend of John Ross and he gave me your book a while ago, but I just finished reading it yesterday. Wow! People in the US are so ignorant of the kind of grief, heartbreak and tragedy they've foisted on the Iraqi people. My wife has been reading about the French resistance during World War II and she showed me this quote from the book "Resistgance" by Agnes Humbert: "For most Americans, war is an abstract, theoreticalactivity. They are waging this war an ddoing so extremely well--they are winning it, after all--but in their hearts and souls they haven't suffered its pain. They haven't seen their young girls carried off by the tens of thousands, their hostages shot, tgheir wives imprisoned,their houses destroyed, their possessionslooted. They've heard about it all, but its happened to other people, not them."Good luck in your studies. I hope my country leaves your county soon before they create any more havoc.Peace, Mark

Hello. I am reading your book right now. it is very interesting to see people that actually lives there point of view. I feel very sorry. I believe that you SHOULD have the freedom that we are bringing you. I read some of the comments from other people in the past. They aren't very nice. I am happy that you are beginging to be happy. Even if you aren't anymore. That is where I am in the book. I hope it stays that way!

Excuse me...when you are not no. one or at least among the best ones..so you are in the last..and no meaning to your life...sorry for these crude words but my dear this is the truth but you can do better...if you think that ,, you are a live..so you have a dream...and to success you must catch your dream..but remember that when you catch your dream in your hand, you must think to get another dream ,, after that the live will have a meaning to us...but again at least we have to be the number one in what we try to do.

Off course iam not have the right to judge you but from your writing i feel something...you need something like encourage or like this.....but you must rememberSuccess is not a point or goal to seek,Success is, believing you have never reached the peakSuccess is not the power or the pride,Success is the knowing how to hideand hold on to your dream that shows only one aspired direction - success, success and more success

Hi Hadia,My name is Rani :) i lived in Iraq till i was 16 and right now i live in Canada. I was in Baghdad during and after the war for 6 months before I had to leave due to you know...the postwar situation that you describe in you blog. Also, I just found out that you actually have a published book that describes the situation in Iraq. Although I have not read the book yet, I have been reading reviews and whatnot and from the looks of it, the book looks not only interesting, but also realistic which I find very brave of you to come out like that and show the world what is REALLY happening in there. I have read a few books that have similar ideas like books about the war in Afghanistan and such, and I'm looking forward to reading your book because it's something I can relate to. I just wanted to thank you for being courage and I'm very proud of you.

I have followed your comments for over a year now...I'm a Canadian Chrisitan white married woman who converted to Islam 3 years ago. I don't understand some of your comments about Christians moving north and why...but I suppose they are being persecuted. I wish the world wasn't so messed up but I see something in your posts (and now your beautiful drawings) that gives me hope. You are strong and open minded - please remember to stay that way as you age :)