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Monday, 17 October 2016

Some Wounds Never Heal (Food For Thought Series Vol 6)

"I am sorry dad I will not be able to forgive
you in this lifetime. For all your love for me, for making me your princess,
though I will remain indebted. But for that one grave mistake of yours which
stole away mom from me, I will not be able to forgive you. I try hard every
time, even take a step towards you but my inner voice pulls me back. Why did
you do this dad?"

Dear Readers, bringing to you a true tale of a
wonderful person Shweta, who continues penning below, her last letter to
her dad.

"Do you remember those days when me, lucky,
mum and you lived a dream like perfect life with our two pups? How happy were
we..my eyes still get moist with the ecstatic joy of those precious moments
when you went on long walks or gardening with me always tucked with you. My
heart use to swell with pride when you spoke about my achievements among family
and friends though I knew all that was because of the brilliant genes I have
inherited from you. You were my handsome dad, my Hero.

Remember how we both used to hoot at gorgeous mamma
clad in your favorite yellow sari and our shopping sprees together. You always
bought us the world and gave us a wonderful childhood dad. I always thought you
loved mom dearly though you two were poles apart from each other in almost
everything but I thought that's what attracted you to each other.

Remember our home sweet home you and mom so
lovingly christened ASHIANA, how it made up for our perfect abode. You guys
weaved our nest with so much love then dad why did you let it fall apart. Just
a mere attraction to another girl made you ditch the woman who lived only for
you and who always gave up all her desires do that all three of us can fulfill ours. This was not what mum deserved for all her goodness.

No words can describe the agony and mental trauma
she faced for the rest of her life which killed her gradually and forced her to
die an unnatural death at such a young age. While you were busy in your new
love interest she embraced silence so that your respect is not ruined. She was
punished for an offense she didn't commit and she willingly accepted it all so
that her children are not called children of a broken family.

While she gave up her job as a professor because
you wanted her to take care of me, it was a pity in the later life she has to
bear the ignominy of continuing with a unfaithful man so that her young ones
can complete her education.

Why did you do that dad? Why my hero abandoned us
on the path of life? With time I have given myself several excuses in your
favour like you had no control over the events but somehow unfortunately my
heart could not accept any of them. There is no excuse for my mom's death
including my repentance for not pushing her harder to break free.

So please stop making failed attempts to talk to me
or get me back into your life. I shall not be able to forgive you in this
lifetime. Some wounds never heal, dad!

-Its Me Shweta"

The plight of the families broken by extra marital
affairs is often heart wrenching. More often than not the first wife fails to
walk out of her failed marriage due to social stigma or financial dependence on
the spouse. It's high time they break the inertia and walk out and be an example to million other. Wish Shweta
could save her mother....and would have been a face of change.