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I tried to make dropping music on my birthday a... thing.
This is my 24th, so here we go.

lyrics

[Verse 1]
Snowflakes drippin’ out my nappy scalp
Cocoa butter cover up my wounds, ain’t no backing down
Life grabbed me by my lapel, I’m young Lidell, been tapping out
Who cashing out as I max out my taxing doubt?
Swear to God the whole damn world got me fucked up
Hard head, soft ass; yeah, that sounds like us
Tryna clutch ahold of something just to knuck when I buck
I’m like a glutton wit' a gut for the punch, what the deal is?
What a feeling to feel shit
I spy turbulence ahead
Memorize life, strategize all kinds of ways not to end up dead
For the umpteenth time, I’ve fled
Tiptoe on the ledge, no grip in my kicks
More Freud in my slips, young boy in the midst of becoming him and dealing with it
I saved you some tickets to my new play about my doomsday
One view, bet you’d say “Touché,” but save the bouquet
Let me the fuck off the stage
Take off the mask, I can't entertain
I cannot lead you when I am astray
But we still got today, that ain’t up for debate, my nigga

[Chorus: CRASHprez + April George]
All I wanna know is your motive
All I wanna know is your motive
Can you feel me?
Know the real me?
I can love you if you don’t kill me
(x2)

[Verse 2]
My limbs been tied to stimuli
The trauma breeds, intensified
Relentless signs ain’t dying down
I sense the time to write is now
Can't hide from a higher ground
Our heroes are fuckin’ weirdos, no kind of messiahs found
Never call me legendary
I be on bullshit like everything ain't temporary
Yeah, I be actin' scary, but they say God gives what you handle
Hey, is this an example?
Show who you finna be
I need anything but an enemy
When tranquility slithers within my vicinity, I hope you mimic me into infinity
If your truth turn the family finicky, it’s finna be what it’s finna be
We live and we sin, so you kin to me
Just listen and flinch when they’re clipping wings
Do not be remiss to what living brings
Do not be convinced it’s the swing of things
I've fumbled my words and it hurt a bit
Now I stumble and curse to unearth a bit
The world’s burning, I heard, I feel nervousness
But I’m certain we ain’t seen the worst of it
A’m so unconcerned with some permanence
Ain’t no return when you learn what your purpose is
OG told me no one owe me, I know I'ma murder it
I deserve this shit!

[Chorus: CRASHprez + April George]
All I wanna know is your motive
All I wanna know is your motive
Can you feel me?
Know the real me?
I can love you if you don’t kill me
(x2)

credits

released January 29, 2018
Produced by mattVISTA
Additional Vocals by April George
Recorded, Mixed + Mastered by knowsthetime*
*additional vocals recorded by mattVISTA
Art Direction by Thomas Yonash