Dear Winner,
We wish to congratulate you over your e-mail success in our computer balloting held in Belgium. This is a Millennium Scientific Computer Game in which e-mail addresses were selected. It is a promotional program aimed at encouraging Internet users; therefore you do not need to buy ticket to enter for it. You have been approved for payment of
$1,000,000.00 USD (One Million Dollars Only) .
To claim your winning prize you are to contact Belgium Lottery as soon as possible for the immediate release of your winnings. Please contact Belgium Lottery,

Best Regards,
Luciana Bellavia (Secretary.).

this is amazing! but first, i want to know a few things, so i am going to write them a letter in return.

Dear Belgium Lottery,

Thank you for selecting little ol’ me to win your lottery. I will now be able to afford to begin cloning my cats. before i claim this wonderful prize, i do have a few questions for you. first of all, if you are located in Belgium, why am i getting 1 million in US dollars? shouldn’t it be in Euros, or Belgian money? and if so, my guess the exchange rate is not in my favor, and therefore will be getting less than a million dollars. and why am i just hearing about this millennium scientific computer game now? didn’t we pass the millennium marker a few years ago? i thought for sure i would have heard about it by now. and i understand this is a game targeted at Internet users, but what are you encouraging them to do? don’t people spend enough time on the Internet already?

Also, i think before you start handing out money like candy on Halloween you should begin a search for a new secretary. her punctuation is terrible. and why is she signing her name to the letter? shouldn’t it be from a CEO or an account manager or something?

thank you for letting me know about my win. i look forward to your prompt answers to these questions. when i get your reply letter, is there any way you can also send me any of those tasty waffles you are so well known for?

My grandma had my cousins for the last couple of days. J is 4, I is 3. they are hilarious. I spent the day with them yesterday. somehow, J and i got into this game where we were going to call each other things, it went something like this.

me: I am gonna call you why

J: i am gonna call you a cat

me: i am going to call you a camel

J: i am gonna call you a car

me: i am gonna call you a wheel

(ok, so you get the point…this went on for a looong time a few of my favorites though, from his side)

I am gonna call you post office!

I am gonna call you stoplight!

I am gonna call you some groceries!

and my favorite:

I am gonna call you Periwinkle!!!

could not stop laughing…what 4 year old boy knows and uses the word Periwinkle? my cousin does apparently, and it cracked me up!!!

I need to start seeing that yes, things are getting better. at least they have to be. maybe they aren’t. anyway, my last entry was really depressing, so I am trying to be more upbeat this time. So, an update.

Antidepressants: I got some! the dr. wants to see me again in 2 weeks, just to see how they are working for me. on top of the depression, I have been having some anxiety issues (example: Sunday night, I couldn’t fall asleep until 4 am) so he gave me something to take as needed for that.

Job stuff: Ok, not gotten too far on that. but, a new opportunity has arisen at a bank in town, where I know lots of people and so I am getting my resume in there.

Isolation: I am doing better! I talked to my sister today, emailed my friend D a few days ago, and talked to E today, and I will probably see her tomorrow night since she is in town. all good things.

God and Me: hmm. well, I did go to church. and the NT reading was from Romans talking about how tough times build character and hope. I felt like a 4 year old, becuase I really just wanted to stick my fingers in my ears and not listen to it. Not quite ready for that yet. but i was there.

The Ross to my Rachel: You can read about that here if you don’t know what I am talking about. Well, I still haven’t heard from him. and I said when it all went down that I wouldn’t contact him, he had to contact me. but guess what. a girl needs closure. so, i emailed him tonight, heart wrenching, i bawled my eyes out. He of course, doesn’t need to know that. I just put things so much better in writing than I ever could on the phone. I am assuming that he is over it all, but i just needed to know for sure…we shall see what happens.

Oh, and just a funny story. My mom and grandma were rummage saleing today. My grandma says, “Wow, look at these really pretty plates, aren’t they nice? Who do we know that has plates like these?” My mom looks at her, deadpan, “you do.” I missed it, but it still makes me giggle!

So, overall, just another boring week in my life!!! oh, and a quick PT update: I am now standing on one foot, on foam, and throwing a 4 pound ball at a trampoline and catching it. They apparently didn’t get the memo that I am ATHLETICALLY CHALLENGED. and yes, i am also spelling challenged. and now, at nearly 1 am it is time to drag my very tired and aching body back to bed. Good Night!

Really, I could have told you the answer to this. The other day we were shopping in Wal-mart, and said at the exact same time, “we should buy a wrench.” WHO SAYS THAT NORMALLY?!?!? We had talked about borrowing one from my brother a couple of days ago…So strange. And me living in the same house with her, just compounds the same-ness. But i love her! I have to, I am just like her!

So last night i went to walk around in the yard, becuase it was so nice out. go to down to the pond, etc. so i am looking at the flowers that were coming up, and walking/limping towards the pond. and on the stump in front of me, a dead snake. I knew it was dead, i could tell. yet, I was scared out of my mind and i booked it into the house.