my mixed up, differently gendered life

HRT

March 1, 2017 By Cassandra

I could be starting spiro soon.

The doctor was kind of intimidating at first. I think it was because she was trying to make sure I really wanted to do this, to set the proper expectations for HRT, and underscore the seriousness of this decision.

By the end of the appointment, she was very supportive, so I must have had the right mindset she was looking for.

Next step is some lab work, and then we’ll see…

I thought I would be more excited or nervous or something. I do know I am very glad to have taken these steps towards some sort of transition. I think regardless of HRT, I will continue to work on my voice and mannerisms, my clothing choices, experimenting with hair and makeup, and all the other things I’ve been keeping away from all these years.

I think if anything, I feel like there is a weight being lifted off my shoulders.

Thanks, Jack! Now that I’m really transitioning, I’m also starting to reconsider my choice of name. Cassandra has worked so far. Now I feel like I need to figure out my “real” name instead of the name I chose to hide behind.