PLAYER JOURNAL: GEORGE PARROS

Each Monday during the month of February, Kings forward George Parros will post his journal of thoughts on the weeks upcoming and past events. Be sure to check out each entry.

George Parros Journal Entry oneFeb. 6, 2006

I felt really good about my game coming into training camp. I was coming off a good year in Manchester where I made some big strides. But that was quickly shot down because, all of a sudden, Ken Belanger was in the mix.

It was like, oh man, they're looking for somebody else for this role? I thought it would be just me and Flinner and that they were happy with both of us, but then, all of a sudden, they're bringing this other guy in. It was like, are they questioning us? Were we not doing the job that they wanted?

That was pretty nerve-wracking. It knocked me back on my heels. But, I tried not to worry about it and I played my game. I felt like I was effective when I played in the exhibition games and that there was a lot of emotion and a lot of energy in my game. I felt like I kept it simple and stuck to my role.

I was feeling pretty good about myself, and as they started whittling guys down and sending them to Manchester, they kept not calling my name. I told somebody else this earlier this season. They never actually ever told me that I made the team. They just never called me into an office to tell me I was going down. There never really was that celebratory moment of making the team, but that really didn't matter.

I still feel like I'm on the bubble, and I am. I can't get comfortable around here because the minute I do, I lose my job. I'm the kind of guy that needs to work day in and day out and play on edge.

Of course, I feel like I'm part of the team. But, I've never been fully comfortable out here. I've never been totally settled in. I always feel like I'm on the bubble with a two-way contract. There isn't a lot of security there. It's a tough thing to deal with, but at the same time, I think I'm handling it pretty well right now. I'm just trying to play simple and stay within my game.

Aside from scoring my first goal, which was more than I ever could've imagined, I'd say the most gratifying moment of my season so far was being a part of Lucky's record-breaking game. I've also really enjoyed getting the chance to skate on the same ice with several players that I idolized growing up.