I am an empty shell, nothing is left in me, nothing can replace the the pain I'm in from the broken heart he has given me. The memory of the hurt too hard to erase , and too much to repair. With all the turmoil around me I am fixated on the fact I do not have him anymore. All the things he had said, all the emotions he had claimed run dry and meaningless. There is nothing worth living for and now I am made as inconsequential as they say. My frail body wracked with a undefined sickness as sobs escape my dry lips into the darkness. No use for tears as I am barren and there is no hope in them. Tears won't change the fact that he is no longer in love with me. The never-ending smell of death that's always following me permiates the air in the confined place I am forced to live in. This death seems more welcoming as I gaze hopelessly into the wasteland tyranic future. My mothers whispered prayers over me the only sound in the night.***********Forced to be a Nazi to find her...Forced to act an animal with the Gestapo to seek her...Forced to act in a play where I must be the eligable 'Nazi' bachelor to have an Aryian wife.... OH! What turmooil I am in to know my true love sees and does not know the truth....

And so the journey begins again...it's been awhile since i've written Shoah, but now my fingers ache to make the verbage scrapes on paper...my mind a flurry of grand ideas. It's time...to launch into the second book...First book...ended with a young German man, Leonard, joining the Nazi's to go and find his love, a jewish girl, Abigail who was taken into the unknown fate of the Nazi's.This book will be a very dark place .... a dark mind bending and fear inducing nightmare of the truth of Holocaust and the reign of terror Hitler had done.I can only hope i am up to the darkness i will encounter as i write about this...absorbing myself into the characters so that at the end...people will be searching to see if it's based on a true story.And to those who are reading this...thank you...for your support. Shoah series is my passion in life...and i am constructing it into reality.For those I love...you will be part of this writing journey with me...so thank you in advance...for all you have and will do for me.