I have been doing therapy for many years now, 5 or 6. I don’t know how much I spent, at least 30,000$. I tried so many things, SO MANY. There is one concept, one element that keeps coming back in people’s mind towards my situation: Moving On.

I know now, from experience that moving on is nothing but a mental trick. Where do you want to move to? Where is the pain in the first place?

Generally speaking the pain is inside of you. You’ve captured it, wove a thread of thoughts around it and disallowed it to flow through. It occupies space inside of you. Then once in a while, you have a trigger, a situation, something happens and the pain is awoken again. These situations are generally exterior and no matter how much effort you put into controlling the reaction, YOU are not reacting. The disallowed part of you is. And since you disallowed it in the first place, why would it listen to you? It will not. And it will keep reacting. Until the day where you gather enough courage to face it, to ALLOW it into your being. To liberate it, to let it flow.Continue reading The act of “moving on”, a mere mental trick→

Phenomenal amount of snow… of the likes I have rarely seen in my life. The quality of it when it falls was so far very dry; on the first day of skiing there was waist deep powder after a 2 minute walk from the lift. That feeling of bottomless powder, of flying almost was magical, i truly enjoyed it.Continue reading Gudauri, Georgia→

This post is about some understanding and insight that I need to unload off my consciousness into the blogosphere.

First, about RELATIONSHIPS and DISSING.
It is impossible to enjoy dissing others if you don’t spend your energy doing things you don’t feel like; or, to put another way, if you don’t force yourself to be nice to people you don’t actually like. The energy unload (and hence enjoyment) that can be harvested at dissing needs to be accumulated in you first to feel a relief or some sort of powertrip. And to accumulate it you need to either force yourself to be nice to people you dislike; or in general answer to request when those requests didn’t feel necessary.Continue reading Human Mechanics Insight (Guilt, Dissing, Compromises and Being Too Nice)→

Yesterday I went hiking at Whiteface Mountain (Vermont) with my friend Yann. It is about 2hrs drive from Montreal, and we left pretty early. Got surprised that the Champlain bridge was closed, had to do many detours; and it was raining a bit when we got there but thankfully as we got closer rain became snow! Here are some pics.

Google+ does some neat things, one of them is it creates animated gifs, and panoramas automatically for you. So far on this trip it created the following, I like them I have to admit I shoot series of pics hoping it will do just that, and so far it hasn’t disappointed.