The Real Story: My rise & fall through it all: my struggles with finding happiness and love while fumbling through depression. Finding success, wealth, and notoriety while encountering equal, if not greater, failures and errors in judgement. Then finding myself somehow discovering and recapturing love and other things I had lost along the way. And in all of this, I have now realized what I sacrificed and those I hurt by paying the ultimate price; the Dao of Chris.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Moments

Escape is always offered as a kind of fantasy, divorced from this
world... whether it's Disneyland, religion, or one's own idea of
happiness. I have had my own moment of truth: I also want to be free and
happy. But I am unable to detach myself, so I run... fueled by my two
competing desires: to escape this world I have been carrying on my
shoulders and to be worthy of this world.

It is here that
we obtain a deeper understanding. The world is not simply some romantic
postcard notion of life. It is difficult and sad. Infused by death. It
requires something from us. It is the context of death that provides
value to these fleeting moments. But the world is also full of everyday
moments that mean something. Moments that connect us to one another.
Moments that we will remember forever. Moments that might very well mean
the world.