Friday, July 3, 2009

This is when I regained consciousness of my surroundings. This lady was trying to get in between me and this other lady near the door to well, get wet. It was raining very faintly and I was wondering back to what I was thinking about. I'd lost track from Andheri to Kandivli. I think its very unwise to do that in a train. Really. You just never know. Today I saw two movies, White and Red. It just made me realize what emotions and relationships mean to some people. How easy it is to hurt, to love, to cheat, to feel guilty. And how hard it is to get over it.

I wish I had such transparent eyes. That says everything, but nothing. They are just actors and it still puts that effect on me.I made Maggi for me when I came back, had some tea. But the stupid headache wouldn't go. It's weird when it gets all needy and clingy. The need to hug. The need for someone to say that they love you no matter what. The loneliness just gets you I guess sometimes. Even though there is no question for you to feel that way.It's so hypocritical, that I wanted to be left alone but still wanted some reassurance, something that I could hold onto. Plus, I didn't want doobies help. It's not good for such feeling of sadness really.So I'm just here. Home. Feeling really pathetic. And I have no idea why.That's that.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

There was this song I loved when I was small. The video would keep coming on Channel V and I would always imagine my first kiss to be something like this song. Really. The song is from Sixpence none the richer- kiss me. yeah. I don't know, but I still love this song. :)

Kiss me out of the bearded barley Nightly, beside the green, green grass Swing, swing, swing the spinning step You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.