I have a problem when approaching women; vulnerability! I don't want to be vulnerable around them! I do, but Im scared! Im scared of my secrets! The secrets that Ive gone nowhere in life; maybe backwards; or nowhere! My ambition turned backwards on me! Im now waking up; Im from a time period long before computers or cell phones! . Im attempting to learn and stay positive in the learning; thats the key! Its not women that stop me; its my negative thinking an the thoughts; the visuals in my mind of nothingness when I think about dating women! I see a go nowhere life; thats what I see inside myself! I see nothing but negatives! and that has to change! I have to see positive outcomes or outlooks! See myself having success or seeing what I want to happen and keep working to attract the right people! . Ive been reading that I have to become vulnerable with women! and so; this is the next step! Im studying how to do this! I have online coaches helping through their videos! . Ive made it through the ice breaker; this means, calling a women over and talking to her for about 20 minutes! Ive made it that fare! .The next step is vulnerability; This is a way of communicating directly to a women of how I feel about her; it can be indirect vulnerability; the key is to make her feel safe and show some realness of how I feel about her! What I really think about her; or feel about her in a positive vulnerable way! I have to learn it! . Im a nice guy! a real person; but I cant talk directly to people; Ive been to thrown away, to many times by society! ignored and disfigured in this place! .

.I would like to have success with women; I have to do the work to learn how to talk to them again! . Victim martyr vs successful positive person; this is where I going; Im learning that the victim does not gain anything; and Im wanting to gain things! in order to opportunize on things; I have to be positive and sell myself! Im an interesting person; Ive never thought that was enough! .Ive been convinced in this society that Im not enough! So, I have to work with the universe to change this; find myself around better situations and better people! I have to let the universe help me! I have to stop trusting people and start trusting the laws of the universe!