so fahamlah awak sekarang kan yang saya sedang ada masalah. i can't just let myself calm in this situation. i need to do something. i love all my family. i love them like damn much till that i feel like it's okey to be the one sacrified if that is the only way to settle all these trouble. ouhh, i need someone to let me cry on their shoulder. i really can't endure this anymore. i really can't.

please be healthy. i still need you by my side. i still need your smiling face to renew my spirit. and also, i want to see you grow up happily. please.