“When composing a verse let there not be a hairs breath separating your mind from what you write; composition of a poem must be done in an instant, like a woodcutter felling a huge tree or a swordsman leaping at a dangerous enemy.” ― Bashō Matsuo

i have this feeling like the world is waking up but that is not a feeling its a thought i think do my feelings think? or do i think my feelings? shit. does that mean i don’t really feel? feel… feelings… wait, am i actually supposed to be feeling a sensation? whoa. i have totally intellectualized my emotions

and can you feel the love tonight…. la la la la la

SIMBA! i wonder if it is possible to learn how to feel again. note to self google search how to feel when you think your feelings

i heard a while ago if the heart can’t delete it the mind will repeat it and i think thats why i keep playing those early paranormal experiences over and over in my head

Pretty intense huh? I can turn mine off and tune to other stations and that has filled many of my journal pages over the years. Being so open and honest is quite shocking to people who are conditioned to lie about how they feel and be nice just for the sake of being nice. I died a little more every day when I was still about that life. It’s so good to slowly release that need for approval. My “give a fuck” is going, going, gone. I’m aware of at least 3 people who are angry with me right now for whatever reason they came up with to feel justified for feeling their feelings. It couldn’t possibly come from them.. something external like another person or event is always blamed for upset feelings… That’s such a cop out. Blame game there are no winners.

Well, I don’t really have anything else to say. I know, shocked me too. Oh! I will say this: peace out. A town and also, here is a fascinating video that further explains the Stream of Consciousness style of writing.