Saying Goodbye

Number of posts : 54964Age : 38Location : Somewhere in New Domino looking for the love of my life ^^Title : Hoping to be Yusei's greatest loveRegistration date : 2008-03-14

Subject: Saying Goodbye Sun Sep 13, 2009 12:17 am

Hi all,

It's been quite a while since I posted any writing. lol So I was in the mood today to write something and it's not really a story or a poem. It's more like a letter (as you will see below). It's a way to express how I feel and in a way, a bit therapeutic.

I welcome any constructive feedback on it. I consider letter writing to be a form of writing (sort of lol).

Warning: It is a little depressing so if you don't want to be depressed, I suggest you not read any further. lol

Saying Goodbye

To a friend Iíve grown apart,

Where do I begin to find the words? Iíll put it to you straight and simple. For a long time, Iíve struggled to say what needed to be said and even though I tried to explain this, you never fully got it and I see that you never will. Iíve clung on to hope for so long because through the pain and emotional hurt Iíve suffered over the years, I remain a little optimistic that things will turn out for the better.

But Iíve grown older and wiser and realize that sometimes hopes cannot be fulfilled, that only we can control our own destinies. Although we can try to guide others to see the light, only they themselves can embrace it.

To my friend-I thought you were my friend and in the beginning, I think we were. But over time, we have grown apart. Weíve had separate lives and I have friends now who understand me, who understand the hurt and the pain Iíve been through. They worry about me but they donít call me crazy or think Iím out of my mind. You, on the other hand, implied that I was and do you know how much that hurt me? How many tears I shed? How much darkness I fell in? If it had not been for true friends who were there for me for support, I would have never gotten out of that dark hole. But you abandoned me-you left me to the brutal assault of bullies and those who had nothing better to do than to gossip behind peopleís backs. You say that you are against that kind of behavior but yet you do nothing about it. You say that you understand how I feel because youíve been through it, too, but I see that was a lie. Because if you did understand, you would have known better than to have allowed a friend to be hurt and suffer alone in the darkness. We donít always have to agree on everything-Iíve never said that. But a friend is supposed to support one another and just be there for them and you werenít.

So I donít know you anymore. I donít know who you are. Perhaps the friend I once knew is still in there somewhere but only you can rescue yourself. Only you can open your eyes and see that there are some people out there who are truly bad, might I say evil. There are those who have nothing better to do than to defend those who take whatís not theirs, who gossip badly about others simply for speaking up for what they believe to be true in their hearts.

I know there is nothing I can do to get you to see the truth so the only choice I have left is to break off our friendship. We are too far apart now to ever be close like we once were. Perhaps someday if you do see the truth and the evil is destroyed, then we can be close friendsagain. But for now, I want us to be nothing more than acquaintances. I donít think youíre a bad person-please donít doubt that. I just think youíre ignorant and I need friends who are willing to accept the truth and not believe the lies or idly stand by and allow others to feel the hurt and pain, for I have known such hurt and pain and never wish it on my friends ever. I canít have friends who think that itís ok to dismiss othersí pain like it means nothing and thatís how I feel that you have treated my pain, like it is nothing, like it doesnít matter.

Goodbye, old friend, and although there is little of it left, I cling to the hope that one day, you will truly understand my words and realize that feelings are important, no matter what you may believe otherwise.