Cocaine Addiction & Recovery Support Group

Cocaine addiction is the excessive intake of cocaine, and can result in physiological damage, lethargy, depression, or a potentially fatal overdose. Though the immediate craving to do more cocaine is strong and very common, this feeling usually subsides in most users within an hour. This craving can, as it has in many users, develop rather quickly into an intense...

5 months clean and lost it

My fiance was 5 months clean and lost it this weekend. How do you beat this demon? He doesn't even like getting high but says he can't stop it. Although I am an addict Cocaine is not my demon and I don't understand it so I come here to get your help as many of you have beat it and others are still fighting. Fighting this battle I know is something PO has to do on his own, noone makes him disappear for days without warning and use and I know it's only the grace of God that he finds his way back home after waking up from the trance this drug puts him in. I asked him his thoughts when he returned this morning and he said he just wanted to die, get so high his heart burst so that he didn't have to face me and the kids knowing we would be hurt and disappointed in him. What could I do but wrap my hands around him and tell him I will continue to pray. Is this all I can do? I see this shit happening in cycles...he can go for a few months but his baby mama is his trigger and as soon as she calls him it's a beer, then a few drinks, and then he's out for the night. Should I confront him when I see this cycle starting or does he know it?

I am so sorry for your pain. I heard once from our son's dr., it is a series of little stones that trips them up on their journey of recovery. If it was a big boulder coming - he would certainly see it and do something about it. I've also learned they don't always know how they get back to using... they just find themselves there and just like PO said... they are ashamed and afraid and &quot;get stuck.&quot;
I've heard it said, relapse is part of recovery... it doesn't matter how many days you are clean, it is always one day at a time.
God Bless... I will keep you in my prayers.

He may or may not realize it. Bring it to his attention just incase. I too had 9 months clean, i lost my job which i didnt really like anyway but my addiction used that as an excuse. Cocaine addiction will lie there waiting for the first minute thing and then take over all actions and thoughts until its somewhat satisfied. By the time all rational thinkin comes back.. we've already relapsed. its quite the demon

I speak form experience here, as the wife of an addict, and an addict myself. Going at him with how you feel and how you think, will not help. Shame is a monster almost as big as the addiction. Addicts will avoid at all costs being told how bad they are to and by the people they love. We already know we're idiots. We know our triggers and cycles and we are the only ones that can do anything about it. I used to do that to my husband, constantly with how I feel, all his wrongs, and never his rights(before I picked back up). When he went to jail and I was out using without him, he did the same to me and (BAM)it all made sense. PO's ex may be a trigger but being confronted is also a trigger for lots of addicts. We are runners, that part of why most of us use, to get away from our problems. When you talk to him, and this is just my suggestion, remind him that you are here to talk to when he feels he need to use and that you will not condemn him for feeling the need. Part of what has gotten me through the last 72 days has been being able to talk to someone who doesn't tell me that they don't understand why or that it is stupid to want to use. It helps so much to hear the good things, it reminds me that I am and can continue to be a good person, not just a drug addict that messes with other's emotions and lives. I hope this helps. I know when he tried to tell me this same stuff, I told you, I was like whatever, you will listen to how I feel. I drove him to use more. I see that now.

We are our own worse enemies. We use every excuse, every situation, every emotion, every person, to get high. I will speak on a personal level. I spent many, many years, snorting coke. After years of snorting, after a few lines, my nose would become clogged and I couldnt do anymore and it pissed me off. So, one day, someone handed me a crack pipe, and as soon as it was done, I felt the arms of this demon wrap itself around me and I have never had anything take ahold of me and use me up to the point that I didnt even recognise me. I needed it, it was no longer just a psychological need, it was physical need. I would get so anxious on the way to get it, like I was meeting my lover or something. It was insanity. Pure, unadultered love for this evil thing.

I totally agree that no amount of talking is going to help only hurt. You may think your words are helpful, he may see it as once again &quot;I am worthless&quot; and our shame and guilt keep us sick and out there.

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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??

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