SUMMER TURNS ME UPSIDE DOWN

Sunshine is great, but we need Tribe wins for a truly great season

Summers are easily categorized as generically good or bad. When you're, say, eight or nine, the three holy months of freedom might be measured by whether you convinced Susie from around the block to be your girlfriend. Or maybe by whether your Little League team made the playoffs.

If Susie kissed you, it was a good summer. If you made the all-star
game while pitching, leading off and playing shortstop, it was a
great summer, especially if Susie met you behind the concession
stand to give you and your cherry-slurpee-stained lips a smooch. Double
that if it was the first year you got your name on the back of your
jersey.

Of course, if you're stuck at the end of the bench behind the
coach's son who gets showered with praise for hitting a home run every
once in awhile, even though he strikes out every other time, and Susie
decides that your best friend Brian is funnier and cuter than you are,
or your brand-new bike gets stolen, well, it's a bad summer.

You get a little older and eventually you stop playing organized
ball, maybe because you're still three feet tall while everyone else in
the world has gone through puberty. And while that sad fact of
adolescent hormonal inequality is disastrous for the prospect of
convincing your coach you won't break your arms swinging at the inhuman
fastball coming from some beast on the mound who you faintly recognize
as Joe from down the street (but who now has a mustache and looks like
your dad), it's even worse for the prospect of trying to get noticed by
any girl, let alone Susie. She says she likes guys who are more mature
now. Sure.

The point is: Eventually, summers evolve from being defined by
ice-cream trucks and frontyard baseball and first loves. Instead, there
are jobs and college tours and lame high-school parties where Susie
still ignores you. Although, in her defense, you're still three feet
tall, so she probably just doesn't see you behind the keg.

This is all, ahem, hypothetical.

If you grow to live and die with your favorite team, baseball
becomes the barometer of those balmy months. Anything else in the world
can happen and does happen, but when you look back, those summers are
measured generally good or bad by how your team does. It's an
overriding sense that can be accentuated one way or the other by real
life: But the base is the silly commitment, made all the more silly by
the fact that you have absolutely zero control over what happens to
your team.

Anyone who truly loves baseball knows this to be true. The ones who
don't will never understand how you can pin so much on something so
seemingly trivial or how seasons morph into strong collective memories
or why you remember that the Indians went 80-82 and the summer of 2004
sucked, even though that's when you met your wife. Admittedly, it's a
screwed-up hierarchy of Important Things, but name a summer and the
first thing I think about is how the Indians did.

One of my favorite baseball anecdotes comes from Roger Angell's
essay "Takes: Digging Up Willie" (1991) from his collection Game
Time: A Baseball Companion. Angell's in Scottsdale and catches up
with Willie Mays, then 60 and working with the Giants in some capacity
for the spring. He asks Willie what his favorite home run of all time
was. Mays' answer isn't one of his milestone home runs, not a walk-off
game winner. It was one against Claude Raymond. Mays claims Raymond
threw him 13 straight fastballs that he fouled off before hitting a
homer to tie the game. He says he can't remember much more than that.
Angell should talk to Raymond himself.

Angell double-checked with a researcher, and they found that on
September 14, 1965, Mays did indeed hit a game-tying home run off
Raymond, but he had only fouled off four pitches. So Angell tracked
down Raymond and asked him if he remembers that battle. Writes Angell:
"'I threw Mays 13 straight fastballs,' he said, even before I could
ask. 'And he fouled off thirteen.'"

Willie was right after all.

Angell included the anecdote in a New Yorker story about home
runs and later received a letter from a fan who had tracked down the
tape of the game in question. "It was four fouls, not 13," the fan
wrote. "Nothing impeaches the memory of an old ballplayer more than
another old ballplayer who remembers the moment the same way."

I was thinking about that story the other day. Maybe I've forgotten
a ton of golden moments over the summers. Maybe the Indians and
baseball have repressed some truly happy occurrences in my life,
irreparably altering my psyche and memories forever. What if those good
summers were really bad, or vice versa?

Then I come to my senses. The summer of 2004 really did suck, and
the summer of 2007 was truly one of the best of my life. And you know
what? Tribe fans will back me up on that.

Nothing salves the wounds of a bad summer like the
grass-clippings-fresh start of a new one. Here's hoping we look back
and remember a good one.