Wednesday, December 18, 2013

this world is not my home

When I was 21 and Margaret and I were expecting Sean, I got a second job at WaWa that turned into a 10 year career and my dreams of growing an annual holiday beard were dashed as WaWa has a no facial hair policy.

In 1994 WaWa and I parted and since that parting I have grown a holiday/winter beard from Thanksgiving to Christmas, despite my daughter hating a kiss from the bearded daddy.

It is the time to shave the beard early.
Change is needed. There is an urgency to this change. I can't explain it. I need to renew.

In the past few weeks the normal amazing sunrises and sunsets have occurred and an amazing full moon moonrise. Snow has laid. Ice has coated What the world has offered has been a world of beauty and wonder. I have met people in the past week who have changed my world for the better and I hope I have done the same for them as we experience life, but yet, the beard must go. Time to awaken my soul with change.

Why?
A co-worker, Robin, dropped her mom at the mall entrance, parked and proceeded walked to meet her. Robin was hit in the parking lot while walking. She is improving.

A friend's sister; Juli, had a stroke at 27. Speech/walking are all now difficult. She too is improving.

My son-in-law Johnny's friend, Geoff had a friend that was killed by a car while crossing the street. He was 22.

I am only scratching the surface.

When I was 5 years old I started calling to God, in the sky to show himself. I wanted God to prove his existence to me. You see, the Santa bubble had been broken, Santa wasn't real and I wanted God to be real, God, the creator, to be real. God needed to prove his existence to first grader Tate Perazzelli of 139 Northmont Drive, Mt. Ephriam, NJ.

It has taken years of searching and reckoning to know the truth about God and even that knowing comes with doubt.

That's why the beard must go.
I know there is a God.
I know this world is not my home and heaven is.

Sometimes I must make physical changes to remind my inner-self of what I already know in my heart of hearts. - - God is real, He has promised me and anyone who looks for Him eternal life.