So tonight, I was in a LOT of bad moods(like usual) and my mom was drinking(which is usually a trigger), but I didn't have ANY urges!!!!! I'm SO proud of myself, but I'm wondering if this is only for a little bit. Or is it going to last? Today is 4 weeks without cutting, and for the past week I was having TERRIBLE urges, but last night, I held ice cubes against my skin(where I had urges) until they melted and it hurt SO bad, and then later, I snapped a rubber band REALLY hard(which also hurt so bad) so that's why I ended up not cutting yesterday, but could that be the reason I didn't have urges, or could they really be gone already?!

Why don't you wait a little bit longer and see if the urges really have gone? If you think you are able to cope with them you could try using distraction techniques which are even more constructive than the ice cubes or the rubber band. Although they are so much better than cutting they're still forms of distraction where you are causing harm to yourself.

you could try drawing a butterfly on the place that you want to harm and giving it the name of someone you care about. Then this butterfly becomes that person, imagine that by harming the butterfly you're harming this person. Or you could try writing letters to people, I always find that if you put all your energy into writing things down the urges will become less intense. Also look at this link, hopefully if neither of those work you can find something that will work for you in there

It's great that you didn't have any urges when you were around your triggers. I am very glad that you are proud of yourself Megan, because you have done so well to not give in to your triggers.

Four weeks is a very long time to go without self harming andthat is absolutely amazing, Megan. It is good that you've managed to use different, safer coping mechanisms rather than hurting yourself. What has helped you during this time, Megan? If you can identify that then you should try and remember the things that got you through the more difficult times and keep using those safe coping strategies (like the rubber band) when/if you need them.

I wouldn't like to tell you that your urges have gone forever as I don't think anyone can safely say that they're not going to get triggered again, but I just want to say that I'm proud of you for making it four weeks and I do hope that your urges have gone. Keep a note of your alternatives, just in case and perhaps now would be a good idea to get rid of the things you used to self harm with, as Kendi has said.