Tuesday

i really touched with this, i dont realy have words to say bout this, but i think i really needs to spread the word,

and this post really made for . . . i'm sorry, i don't know your real name, do respond to me okay ?

The Story of How Aftermath Saved My Life

Where to start my story...

I have to start at the beginning...

I have always been that kind of person that stood out. Was different than the rest and an outsider.

My life has been tough and I was bullied for 9 years.

It got so far I tried to commit suicide a couple of times and have from that day on had a bad self-esteem.

Always thought I was no good and not worth anything.

Since I'm the oldest one of my sisters I have had to be strong for my family. To support them and comfort them every time we got the message our mom was going to die.

She had a cronicle lung disease that forced her to use oxygen to be able to breathe.

So almost every year, at my birthday she got so ill I had to call an ambulance and go with her to the hospital where I sat at her side all the time for several months.

This happened for so many years that I felt like I didn't have any life at all except caring for my family and not myself.

But 2 years ago she got a lung transplant and is now healthy again.

Until May 7 last year when she had a seizure and broke both her shoulders, hips and something in her back.

Then it was back at being at the hospital....

But she has recovered from that as well.

I was so tired in the end I didn't know how I was going to be able to continue with my life.

It all changed the day I heard the most beautiful voice on the radio that kept haunting my mind.

It was being played every single day at the radio at work, but I was always so busy I never had the time to check who was singing.

Then one day I was at the laboratory (I'm a medical secretary at a doctor's office), I heard this beautiful voice again singing Whataya Want From Me and I looked at the website to the radiostation and found out his name was Adam Lambert.

I wrote it down and when I got home, I got on the internet and downloaded the song including some other songs I found.

Then I found the CD online, so I ordered it and got it just a few days later.

I was immediately hooked and couldn't stop listening to it.

But one song got stuck in my heart and it's this song that has saved my life several times.

Aftermath.

The week before I was going to Adam's concert in Stockholm, I was so depressed that I felt that my life was worth shit.

That no one cared about me and that I was a freak that didn't belonged anywhere in the world.

I was crying and cutting myself. I wanted to end my life right there and then.

I was listening to Adam and then Aftermath started playing, not just once, but several times after the song had ended.

I don't know why that happened since I had it on random, so I put down what I was cutting myself with and just listened to the song while crying.

The more I listened to Aftermath, the more I realized that I'm not alone.

That no one can tell me what to do.

No one can force me to be someone I'm not.

Then I started thinking that I am special. I do have a purpose in life and if I die tonight I will not meet Adam the week after.

So I kept listening to Aftermath until I had stopped crying and calmed down.

That's when I decided that I was going to get the song title tattooed on my back along with the goddess Kali that helped me fulfill my dream of meeting him.

On November 9, 2010 I got up at 5 am to start my journey from Northern Norway to Stockholm, Sweden to meet Adam and see him live.

When I met him, he found out we had a lot in common and the conversation was happy and light.

When I thanked him for saving my life with Aftermath and his personality, he got very touched and said he was happy I was alive.

We talked for a while before I had to go, but before I left he said I had to enjoy myself a lot at the concert.

And I sure did.

Had the best time of my life. I was front row. Right in front of Adam.

Monte pointed at my camera and Isaac gave me his last drumstick.

I was in heaven and so thankful for being alive that when I got home to Norway, I immediately got an appointment for the tribute tattoo.

The tattoo took 2 days. But the first time it had to heal for 14 days before the colors could be filled in.

This tuesday on December 14, 2010 the tribute tattoo was finally finished and I love it!

It took 7 hours to get it done, but it was worth it considering the meaning of it.

From now on, whenever I'm feeling down, I just have to look at my back and remember the day Adam Lambert came into my life and saved it.

If it weren't for Adam and Aftermath, I would not sit here, writing down my story.

So I want to say to everyone that are different.

Be proud of who you are because that is what makes you special and not like the rest.

You have a meaning in life. You just have to find it.

My talent is writing and I hope to one day become a writer.

I have also developed a passion for making fanvids of Adam and I made one from my Stockholm vids that is on my YouTube channel.