Aprill 22nd

Monday, April 22, 2013

Today Is very cold here. I want summer to come so badly. I don't like the cold weather. Mood wise today wasn't a good day I can't wait until May 1st when I see my psychiatrist. I jus5t hope he is willing to help me if not I don't know what I am going to do. I feel like I am slipping deeper and deeper into a depression as the days go by. I miss my niece and nephew so much. I kind of miss my mom to believe it or not. I wish I could have my family back in my life again. But I know that I can't because they are not good for me emotionally. I just wish they could treat me the way I should be treated. I don't know what to do anymore. I just want all of this to end.

It has been very cold here too - I hear you! I am still waiting for Spring - I am sitting here wearing a long sweater! I hope you finally get your psychiatrist to understand what you are going through - and that the medicine isn't helping. Perhaps, they have to wait a certain time to see if the medicine is working - not all of them work right away. Just remember that no matter how hard it might be - do what you have to do to get what you need. Don't put the psychiatrist's feelings above your own needs (being too afraid to ask). It is the only way you will feel better - if you get something that will help with the depression.

May 1st isn't that too far off - it is coming soon. I hope that things finally go the way you hope - you so deserve to have good news to share!

Tanya, you'll make it through this and come out the other side. I agree with another poster, you should call the doc and let him know how you are feeling. He may be able to do a med adjustment or have some other helpful counsel.We all care about you and want you to be healthy and happy. I know it may seem hard to believe now, but IT IS POSSIBLE. Believe in the possibility, if nothing else.Your friend, Sherrie

Stay Strong and you really , really need to fight for what you need. I am not a doctor , but I do know that some meds just don't work the way they are suppose to for everyone.. and to me your right sounds like your are not working the way they are meant to. Any chance you could call and leave a message with him to maybe help you out sooner ? just an idea. I'm not sure how your health care works. But believe me I do want the very very best for you my Friend. I want you to be strong and believe in you . You are here for a reason.. trust me ..I know it.

Wanting to connect with your niece and nephew.. even your mom are not surprising it is how we are made.We want connection, interaction, love ... and as hard as this is.. when you grew up with negative things.. they became your norm and you're right although you want the connection.. they are bad for you if they cannot support you in a positive way then it is better apart but not always easy.

You're taking steps as hard as they are. You are reaching out to us.. and we do care. We do believe in you and we do want the very best for you Tanya..