Uncovering Your Self-loathing Wound

Summary of Brenda’s March 22, 2019, channeled “Creation Energies” show at BlogTalkRadio.com/brenda-hoffman: Perhaps you’re concerned about agendas you believe will impact future generations. You’ve passed that torch, that responsibility to those who follow. Your role is to observe, but not participate emotionally or physically in 3D activities. Learning to fully love yourself is your current inner directive.

“Your Lighthouse Phase is Complete” is the title of last week’s “Brenda’s Blog” – her weekly channeled blog for LifeTapestryCreations.com.

Of course, you respond that you already do. That you love those different from you despite rhetoric to the opposite. We beg to differ. For deep within you is the sense that you remain better or worse than others. That your race, sexual identity, financial status, or belief patterns are right or wrong within your view of society.

Even though you cannot shift such feelings with wishes, you can do so by opening your heart to the differences. Rather than determining that those not like you are either better or worse, we implore you to interact with someone not like you to determine if they fit your vision of right or wrong.

Perhaps that last thought does not feel possible for you believe that those unlike you in gender, age, race, sexual orientation, political, financial, or religious beliefs, etc. may not wish to interact with you. Such is to be expected given the fear and hate promoted throughout earth societies. But you now have the opportunity, maybe even the need, to experience the differences.

You have experienced earth lives within every race, age, sexual orientation, religion, etc. that exists upon the earth. For prior to claiming your god/goddess role, you needed to experience all major aspects of earth life.

Those aspects of earth humanity that now bother you are more about you than others. For those aspects are those you have yet to claim or acknowledge.

So it is for those dramatic dislikes or fears of yours that have recently surfaced.

For you are viewing aspects of yourself in one or more earth lives that you have not accepted or denied. A bit like playing peek-a-boo with yourself. Once you accept that part of your earth history, such will no longer impact your beliefs or your life.

The inability to accept someone – even if they are seemingly different from you – is the fear of exposing yourself instead of fearing them.

How do you begin to love that which you now fear? We do not have an answer for you other than suggesting you explore information about that fear or group. Perhaps you will wish to read about that group or understand their reasoning through interaction or observation. There are numerous resources available for you throughout the Internet, libraries, societies, and social interactions.

It is not that you must bring everyone into your home, but instead that it is time for you to heal those wounds that encourage you to fear certain actions or beliefs.

What part of your preparation for your current earth life have you ignored or pretended did not exist?

Such is not a failure, but instead a teaching moment for yourself and all earth entities. What part of you fears a particular group and why? And then, how do you neutralize that fear? This is the phase you are currently experiencing.

So it is many pieces that are not necessarily comfortable for you will begin to display themselves. Like someone knocking on your front door – louder and louder until you answer.

Many of you question how you achieved 5D or beyond status with this deeply hidden truth. This piece is that hidden mystery you avoided for eons throughout all dimensions and frequencies because you were filled with such deep shame about this piece you were unable to clear it until now.

But whether you address this piece does not shift your trajectory nor need to love yourself.

Perhaps you will sense what this piece is by exploring why you dislike a particular group. Or, you will receive messages in your dream or wake state.

Loving all does not mean loving all who believe, look, or function as do you. Even though you have always known such, you felt that somehow you were above that particular piece. That such would disappear without you addressing it.

Even though this self-loathing clearing will be much easier than any of your other clearings, step one is to acknowledge your way is not the only or the right way. Step two is to learn more about the opposing view. And step three is to know deep within you that such is no longer a “hot” button for you.

Some of you will proclaim that you have left society, so it does not matter. Even if you have decided to exit society, holding that small kernel of hate or dislike will slow your discovery process in 5D or beyond.

The next few days will likely create scenarios to help you discover your deepest social fear or need. It is your choice if you wish to address it and how. You will not revert to 3D if you do not do so, you will merely reduce your self-love for this is a self-loathing piece you have hidden from yourself.

Perhaps you would like us to provide you with a magic wand to remove that piece. Instead, we offer encouragement that exploring this self-loathing piece will not destroy you, but will free you of the fears that promote love limitations instead of the acceptance of all. Something you desperately wish to experience now that you have walked across the 5D Rubicon.

For you know deep within, you cannot experience true self-love until you accept that you fear certain segments of humanity because of your actions, not the actions of others. So be it. Amen.

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It took some thought to uncover that I have a slight bias against those who I consider in the stereotype of ghetto or hick, namely those who grew up extremely poor. I was taught by T.V. that these groups of people are dangerous, chaotic and unpredictable. I do not believe this, but I notice a slight uneasiness in myself when I identify someone who fits these stereotypes.

Another bias is past life related. It is not so much a ‘thinking I am better’ but that I get afraid others will see I am not color blind. Usually I am mainly color blind and comfortable with all races, yet one race triggers a discomfort in me not due to lack of understanding, but some past life issue I do not understand. Interestingly enough 75% of the people who randomly flirt with me are from this race.

Usually when someone flirts with me I send them healing to heal whatever issue they want to address through a relationship. Never in my life have I had a boyfriend. So I reject 100% of the people who flirt with me regardless of race.

Dear PeaceNowFlower,
And so it is that we’re reviewing, addressing those issues that are blocking or reducing self-love. Kudos for daring to explore.
Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Creation Sparkles,
Brenda

This is so interesting as I am immersed in reading “White Fragility” (excellent book written by a white woman) and some other books, one of which is Ta-Nehisi Coate’s book, “We Were Eight Years in Power.” I am also in several Facebook groups focusing on race, white privilege, sexism, etc.

I spent most of my HR career as a Cultural Competency specialist. AND interestingly my last job they hired me because of that and told me that they are a good ol’ boy, white male dominated organization and were excited for my expertise. They quickly changed their tune and then fired me less than a year later for “talking about feminism and diversity too much”. AND I had not yet said one word about white privilege.

This is one of my passions and one of my soap boxes…..I recognize that I have some racist parts of me, we all do. AND I am learning more and more all the time.

Hi Sweetie,
So you’ve discovered your deeply hidden self-love fear as have I, Stefan, PeaceNowFlower and guessing many others. Interesting, but so expected that each of us is discovering a different self-loathing piece. As I relayed to Stefan, mine is control – especially being controlled.
Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Creation Sparkles,
Brenda

I have been really pondering this channel this week. I think that my shame and self loathing has to do with taking on all the woes of the world. Somehow I feel responsible for the racism. I must fix it. I feel possible when I read about the inequities and inequalities experienced by people of color.

I do not have prejudices, hatred or fear of any person because of their race, religion, sex, sexual orientation … etc

What I can not stand is the uncivil, rude people who do not respect other people, animals, plants or nature in general.

If you are rude, do not respect the pedestrian steps, put hellish music at full volume in your building, poison the street cats, set fire to the forest, put traps on the wolves, get drunk and insult the elderly on the bus , you bullied the children, you beat the homosexuals, you burn vagabonds while they sleep, you harass the women … you will have a problem with me.

And I do not care if you’re tall, rich, handsome, white, black, gay, straight, poor, Catholic, Islamist, European or African … I get exactly the same. You are a scoundrel, you do not deserve my respect or approval.

I can only wish that this famous “Event” that so many people talk about, is not a fantasy and the earth separates. On one side the bullies and disrespectful … and on the other, the rest.

And now what the post wants to tell us is that we have to relate to these ????
Ufffff, I’m sorry Brenda, but that would be hell for me. When someone like me, 100% empatic has next to one of these, it’s like a thousand nails striking a blackboard and at the time I had to walk barefoot on burning glass. I CAN NOT STAND IT!!!

Hi Cristina,
I have similar difficulties with the humanity you describe. For me, that filters down to control – harming others or the environment because you are more powerful or want to be more powerful than others. As I understand this channel, this means that we had one or more lives being the very people we don’t like now. And we don’t like being around those people because we’re ashamed of a similar role or roles we functioned in on the earth.

Remembering bits and pieces of channels of the past, it seems that once we accept our shame, those people won’t bother us as much or we won’t have many interactions with them because we will be in different frequencies.

Even though I don’t want to go into detail, I had some family issues that were affecting my life to the point that I could barely function. I dropped out of the workforce to study, read, write, etc. to determine why this happened to me. After much research and soul searching, I was able to interact with family members without the anger and fear I once felt. And not interact with those family members who continuously chose not to honor or accept me as me. Of course, all of that was part of the control piece I just discovered a few days ago. Which means to me that I selected that family to explore control on a personal level and that now I want/need to explore it on a global scale. I don’t expect that I will wake up one day accepting those we both are uncomfortable with, but that gradually their behavior will anger me less and less. I hope that answers your concerns.
Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Creation Sparkles,
Brenda
PS For me, naming anger is step one in shifting thoughts and actions. It appears as if you’ve completed step one. Now you might want to determine why you are so angered by those people. And so it goes.

Oh yeah, your point of view has helped me a lot. Thank you, dear Brenda, for taking the time to respond to my concern.
I feel very honored and grateful for that. Also for the great team that we form this small, but loyal group of your blog.
For me, all the experiences and comments are enriching.
Thank you for being the host of this etheric meeting place. 😉
Love
Cristina

Pwew what a timely lesson. I can recognise a psigopath on a mile distance, but they seem to find their way straight to me through any pathway possible. It’s easy to ignore them but they make it very difficult. At least I don’t get upset anymore, and i am getting very good at picking up the pieces 🙂

Have you ever asked yourself why those people are attracted to you? Doing so might shift your need to attract those who force you to “pick up the pieces” after they’ve left. Just a thought.
Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Creation Sparkles,
Brenda

Thank you for this, Brenda!
And I also appreciate the exchange between you and Cristina…
I don’t run into a lot that drives me nuts but can appreciate the examples Cristina gives…
I realized I can be impatient with others’ impatience, etc. and the most recent one was was I being self-righteous about another I perceived as being self-righteous…ha! 😉

Hi Janis,
Our growth sprints are silly at times, aren’t they? I find it amazing how my moods most often shift once I’ve labeled my fear or concerns. Kudos for observing your reactions and then determining why. And so we grow!
Blessings, Lots of Love and Ongoing Creation Sparkles,
Brenda
PS Just read someone’s channel – I can’t remember where – that as we evolve, we jettison more and more that no longer serves us. Again, like losing interest in toys and games that were wonderful when we were in elementary school but not at all interesting as an adult.