12/13/11

Lessons Learned

2011 is a year that will stand out in my mind as a year of major change and growth. Some of it is really so unbelievable that I keep finding myself looking back in awe of how life unfolds. Through the highs and the lows, I've learned so much about myself and life in general that I know I can never go back.

I've always been a hard worker (credit to my parents) who grew up thinking that if I worked really, really hard, I can make things happen. And to a huge degree, I believe this works. It's worked for me in terms of my business/career. But I've also come to believe there are no coincidences and that sometimes, no matter how hard you work, if it's not in the cards, it's just not in the cards. And that in itself happens for a reason. We've endured four layoffs/pay cuts since 2003. Obviously, that's a lot of stress on a marriage and on a family. It's so hard to put into words the kind of fear you feel when you're faced with worrying about paying for food/heat/housing. Unless you've lived through it, it's very difficult to grasp. You're thrown into a panic state-of-mind which doesn't allow you to really trust that it's all playing out the way it's supposed to and that there's a bigger plan in place. It took a lot of work for me to balance my "go-getter, make-it-happen, work hard, OMG we're gonna have to live in my parents basement if things don't change!"mode that I'm used to operating in with my more faith-based, intuitive side that was screaming at me to trust without proof. This year has been all about that balance and releasing the fear. Turns out, I'm equal parts analytical and intuitive. Only now, I let the intuitive side call the shots more.

In 2011, we endured losses on all fronts. Jobs. Friends. Loved Ones. It was so difficult, and still is to some degree, to understand why giving all that you have at a particular moment isn't enough. On a cognitive level, I may never really be able to wrap my brain around it. But in my heart and spirit, I know that what is meant to be will be. Even if it doesn't make sense and is terribly painful at the time. I'm learning to release old wounds, pains, and fears but at the same time, be thankful I endured them. We've been lucky to have found wonderful friends over the years, even those with whom we no longer communicate. Those friendships shaped us and made us who we are today.

In 2011, we also received so many gifts in the form of amazing family support, friendships we cherish, "gifts" that virtually came out of nowhere, a deeper understanding of what it means to have faith, and more time with our precious, amazing kids. I don't want to leave out the other brave children that have taught me so much about life and courage. One in particular, by the name of Amber, will always have a place in my heart. While I know she believes I helped her immensely, I want her to know it is really the other way around.

While I know 2012 will bring more challenges on a global level; more than we've seen in years. I know I'm in a better place to handle whatever our little pocket of the world endures. Turns out for me, balance is truly the key. But not the kind of balance most moms talk about when juggling work and kids. The kind of balance that forces you to listen more carefully to your intuition and know that whatever happens, it will all be OK.

**I'm going to take a bit of time off starting this Friday to spend the holidays with my family. Unless there's a "wood emergency," I promise to get back to an email or phone call after the New Year. Of course, orders will still be taken and customer service questions/issues answered right away. :)**

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I'm a mom of two who started a furniture company from my garage in 2007. Now, in 2013, Mod Mom Furniture is internationally recognized and is currently sold throughout the world. Also, I am the founder of a The Little Light Project, a non-profit org that helps connects parents with children that have passed on as well as help highly intuitive children learn to live comfortably in the world.