Monday, November 22, 2004

one strange thing after another--and then a couple of scary ones

fell asleep before ten last night
slept off and on from 7am until noon...
okay, so that's it for strange stuff.
BUT.
when i headed out to get my friend's sister at the airport...
i switched cars with my husband and thought it was odd that car felt a little sluggish.
i almost called him to see if he knew why...
but i didn't want to bother him
(he was still at my family's dinner, managing the twinlets)
so...
i kept driving.
got on the freeway.
went 80 for ten miles or so.
finally glanced down at my dash
and noticed a light which had been hidden by my hand's proper position at 2 o'clock on the wheel...
the brake light...
oh god.
the emergency brake.
so i laughed at myself and pulled the release.
then i attempted to test the brakes.
NOTHING.
i felt an electric shock to my heart--
fear.
i tried again,
nothing.
i tried again,
and my car began to slow.
this hit or miss braking went on for the next ten miles,
as i played an alphabet game with my step son.
my heart was still racing,
palms still sweating.
brakes still not quite working.
finally i called my husband, and he set out to rescue me.
after another ten minutes they started working again.
so i pressed onward.
but i was very shaken...
so fucking scary--

so then...
we get to the airport,
and i'm planning to drop the step son off after we pick up my friend.
so he's with me, and i keep reminding him to stay by me.
we don't see her right away, so we run back to the car to get his jacket.
i hand him his jacket and he tells me he has to pee.
i tell him to hold on a minute while i grab a few empty coke bottles off the floor.
(remember it's my husband's car)
when i turn around, he's gone.
i asssumed he had just wandered out of sight, so i just got annoyed that he was slowing me down.
after glancing around in the immmediate area, i started to panic.
i called out to him,
and cursed under my breath,
and looked vigorously in all directions.
nowhere.
i had forgotten that he needed to use the bathroom,
or i would have probably considered that sooner.
i looked for him for a long few minutes, my panic levels growing with each passing minute
then headed inside to start asking for help...
just as i got inside, there he was.
where have you been????shrug--to the bathroom.
he had no idea...
how freaked out i was.
i had started to think he might have been kidnapped.
holy stressful night, batman.

and for those of you who missed it, i posted a fantasy yesterday, a replacement for friday:

they had been walking along the cliff's edge, enjoying a sunset,
when a bank of clouds rolled in and began dumping buckets of water across the shore.
they ran to their car, but did not avoid becoming drenched.
laughing, they tumbled into the backseat together
and smiled at each other in the muffled machine gun fire of rain against the slowly steaming windows.
she giggled and dove for him.
he clawed at her wet clothes, peeling and prying--
feeling victorious at their removal.
she sat back and let his gaze be filled with her white skin,
nearly glowing in the dark car.
he caught his breath and opened his mouth, leaning forward.
she shook her head slightly and scooted back,
now leaning against the door.
her legs spread, her eyes fixed on his.
you...he shook his head and sighed--with a smile.
she slid her hand slowly down from the nipple it was teasing
to her hot, hairless pussy.
her fingers rubbed expertly in a slow rhythm
as she watched him struggle out of his clothes.
they could smell the rain, and feel its rhythm.
she offered him her wet fingers
and he sucked on them as he slid into her smoothly
they fit together like a well crafted puzzle.
she sighed at the same time a shiver went through her,
and it made her giggle--
she was content and on fire, at the same time.
his body moved with hers in the most perfect choreography
and they breathed each other in.
he looked in her eyes and mouthed the words, "I love you"
she arched into him in reply, her eyes telling him what her mouth didn't need to.
she pulled his face to hers and kissed him, hard.
every last inch of his body was hers to worship and she couldn't stop exploring it.
as the rhythm picked up and the exhilaration filled them both,
she sunk her nails into him and her moan turned to a wail.
he shot into her with a force and she contracted around him,
their bodies so in tune...
they rested in a sweaty tangle of limbs and discarded clothing,
listening to the rain beat against the windows and roof of the car.

About Me

This blog has always been a place for me to express the fullness of who I am, from the inside out.
I was always an open book and a wealth of TMI.
The last couple of years have put me through the wringer, but I have now found my True Love and with him, my way home.