20 June 2016

kids, it's officially the first day of summer. I do believe this calls for a manifesto. this summer, we will:eat strawberry shortcakemade with strawberries we pick.catch lightning bugs in jars,then set them all free.roll up to the starlight drive-in on a week night,stay for the second feature.add to our crazy pool float collectionwith nary a thought to the practical.celebrate ezra's twelfth birthday with go-kart racesand secret rainbow cakes.visit the local farmers market,refuse to buy even one tomato from the grocery store.build complicated forts in the backyardusing only what we have on hand.make ginormous bubbles from scratch,bubbles that will impress even the teenagers.spend a saturday morning at the yard sales, buy the weird things.pick blackberries and blueberries til our fingers are way stained.float on our backs in the ocean,wish for it to last forever.scour the beach for shells, glue them to bobby pins and wear them in our hair,think we are really cool.explore the old oakland cemetery at dusk,be not afraid.sit under bright-colored umbrellas atlotta frutta,drink exotic fruity drinks.watch old movies at the old fox theatre,sing along with mighty mo.set fireworks off at the beach,lament the state of our country.start at least one giant water balloon fight, end it before it gets ugly. sample every single sonic slushie flavor,you know, for science.say hi to olga and her house of stuff,eat lemon ice cream cones.climb the tiovivo sculptures at the high,snapchat from the insides.look at all the things at the highwhen it's too hot to climb inside the sculptures.find the hidden falls, pat selves on back.

keep scissors in the glove compartment at all timesfor the flowers that grow alongside the highway.make cherry limeade popsicles from scratch,make enough to share.visit the ponce city market rooftop,see what we can see.celebrate ava's sweet sixteen with a pretty cakeand, an alien-shaped cake, per her request.hit the road and drive south,hop on the train and head north.see a few new places,revisit a handful of the old ones.perfect all underwater handstands,make time for night swimming.stand in the middle of a sunflower fieldfor as long as they will let us.stand at the base of toccoa fallswhen it's too hot to stand anywhere else.eat popsicles and read booksin great quantities.

17 June 2016

every time, I think I'll come back with nothing. but every time, she proves me wrong. I'm talking about the camera, not new york. I'm talking about the beautiful tank that is the canon FTb, an old film camera I lucked onto at the thrifts several years ago. every time, I think I'll get nothing. that maybe I'll read the light meter wrong, set the camera wrong, load the film wrong. make no mistake, I have done every single one of these things, several times over. but every time (I mean it, every time), I'm thrilled with what I manage to come away with. an embarrassment of 35mm film riches.

on the other hand, there are no questions with new york. she is remarkably thankfully beautifully predictably unpredictable, somehow akin to the insides of a game show cash machine, the clear plastic ones with all the cash flying around inside. sixty seconds to grab as many of the dollar bills as you can, go! take what you can, while you can, be happy with it, walk away. that's what new york is like. an over-before-you-know-it, extraordinary whirlwind of riches.

06 June 2016

76 seconds in savannah, georgia and maybe I lost day trips to the oregon coast when we moved from portland, maybe I lost astoria and manzanita and all the sweet little towns that dot the 101 but I've got savannah. at least, there's savannah. when I moved back home, I knew it'd be there, just waiting for us.

03 June 2016

that week just after school lets out, when you're finally off that blasted hamster-wheel schedule and your whole family just sort of melts into the new schedule, the non-schedule, the late late morning schedule, the all afternoon book-reading, all night movie-watching, strawberry-picking, lightning bug-catching, up late late at night schedule.

that's the week we're living in right now. and I love it (for all the obvious reasons) but mostly, I love it because things feel... possible. we're making the big summer list, we're excited and friends, we've had some sleep. we're rested. for the love of mary, we finally feel rested.

make no mistake, there's work still to be done (always), dishes still pile up in the sink and laundry still piles up on the floor of every single room of this freaking house but it doesn't feel so hard. because, I can breathe again. we can all breathe again.