Friday, August 29, 2014

Where
do I go and how do I enter the animated but secretive life of tacit
assumptions? What is the peel-back and how do I catch an edge? I started with
staunch and vehement positions to see what I would say to myself and what I
would do mind-wise to defend it. It is a curious kind of self-incrimination. To
witness a dialogue done, not for judgment stated but for assumption discoveries.
Why do I believe what I do and how did that get to be so? And who of me keeps
it updated as such? Not easy, memory as such is a kluts as a provider. Either I
am on the receiving end of a dumb-down or logic is a fabricating storyteller! Whenever
I originally formed these views, had to impress me with something. It now all
seems like a house of cards. So I decided that motive, at that time, was the
maker and I went with that program. If that is so, now is a different fashion
statement for me if I am still that superficial to myself. I don’t think I am
asking for the cold truth. But I am certainly looking to understand how that
process functions to serve me. It is most interesting to go deeper within and
find the behind of the behind about it. Nuances, vanities, peccadillos,
outright lies, embellishments, inflationary pretends, all given an internal
existence, as well as secret superstitions with effect, unrevealed vibe
alliances, and of course, all of the reality collusions we could succumb to
without questioning any of it in this deeper way. So much goes down, yet
without saying. I want that sight back. I want to be in depth and more current.
I don’t want to carry this invisible load. I want a presence with the
possibility of light. And therefore assumptions that serve my spirit and
not just allow me a passible existence. I want tacit assumption to be clearly
connected directly to my spirit with
somewhat conscious access. Yes, tacit assumptions as the carrot before the
consciousness of this horse.