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I recently accepted a position from Teach and Learn with Georgia, a Georgian Ministry of Education program designed to bring native speakers of English into classrooms around the country. I will be moving to Georgia in August of 2014 to begin my assignment.

Before this latest adventure, I studied at Bogazici University in Istanbul Turkey and at Azerbaijan University of Languages. I speak English German Spanish, Turkish Azerbaijani and Uzbek and am currently trying my hand at Georgian.

Thursday, July 23, 2015

I’ve been working on this post off and on for a long time.
It’s been a hard one to write. I’ll probably come back to this blog and tell
some more anecdotes later, but I feel like some of this has to be said. Last
spring I applied for a whole bunch of stuff: jobs, internships, scholarships,
fellowships. I didn’t get a lot of call backs. Let’s get real, I got three, one in Florida for two years, one to teach at a couple hours outside of Istanbul, and one to come to Georgia. Lots of things made
me decide to take Georgia. Not money obviously, since I’m poor as a church
mouse after earning less and less every month (thanks international currency
market, nothing like a falling lari). Not prestige. Nobody has heard of
Georgia, much less of the program that I joined. I wanted an adventure, as far
away from the world I was living in, with its competition and often mixed up
priorities and materialism and lack of ability to compromise and work together
on the smallest little thing. I had no idea what I was getting myself in for. I
didn’t even know where I was going to be sent in the country. I got a whole lot
more adventure than I had bargained for.

I walked to Mulakhi one day. The sunburn was 100% worth it

I read a book recently about my generation—the oft despised
Millenials. It said that we can’t focus on anything, that we flit from thing to
thing, never settling down, never actually getting stuff down, waiting for
signs from ‘the universe’ about what we should do with our lives. Let’s just
say that the author didn’t have a terribly high opinion of us. You could almost
hear this middle aged man spitting out the words at a meeting of the
old-and-crotchety-before-their-time club, where everyone bitches about the kid
they still have living in their basement.

Now, don’t get me wrong. There are plenty of kids in my
generation who are lost and who are just frittering away their lives doing
essentially nothing. I don’t think mine is the first generation who has done
this though. We grow up deeply disillusioned with the world we live in, the
order which we must uphold. We grew up through 9/11 and the idea that the ‘bad
guy’ could be anyone on the street, with the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan, with
ISIS. We grew to maturity in a world filled with natural disasters, school
shooting and terror attacks becoming so common that they are commonplace,
normal, nothing to get upset about. Or if you do you share a hastag until the
next tragedy comes along. And nothing changes. Violence and poverty and disease and abject
horror and desperation flit past our eyes every day and we flip through the
television channels and many simply sink into the unreality of reality
television. The rest of us are at a loss of how to make something, anything
about this world better with our time and lives and energy. We seek that way
but it isn’t always obvious, and so we are accused of being unable to settle
ourselves. The frustration grows. We don’t aim to be lazy adult-children who
live with no purpose, indeed it is the exact opposite, purpose in this often
purposeless world that we wish for like a staving man looks at food. We have
been told for so long that we need to go out and change the world that we
berate and secretly hate ourselves when we can’t.

Nika toasting me with wine on my birthday while the adult men laugh hysterically. Nika is an excellent tamada

I took a year off between undergrad and grad because I needed
to get away from academe, and the world that I know for a bit, and to reaffirm
what it is that I really want to do with my life.

So, why was moving to Georgia the best thing that I could
have done? Because living abroad strips you of most everything. Your family,
friends, community, comfort, safety net, safety blanket, pounds, illusions,
pretensions, self-respect, baggage. You are cold and alone and frightened, a
beast let loose in an unknown place. Sink or swim no longer seems like a glib
motto, but a rallying cry, a piece of driftwood in a sea of sharks. It is in
this vulnerable state that you can come to know yourself better. You find what
remains is your truest self, because that doesn’t come off, slip away. You see
the good the bad and the ugly. How little you actually you care for life as you
stop batting an eyelid as animals are slaughtered in front of your eyes. How
selfish you can be as you seek solace, alone time and get annoyed when host
siblings break into your stash of nice makeup and girl scout cookies. You see
who really matters in your life, when you get 3 hours of skype time a month and
you see who makes the cut (ie Mom and Dad). Who you are willing to splurge time
and energy on finding the postman and buying stamps so that you can write to
them. What parts of life seem the most important to you—your social life?
Family? Friends? Duty? Job? Relationships? Your own pleasure?

My birthday cake was delicious. Ask Ani

I’ve discovered some very ugly things about myself. I don’t
flinch anymore when the teachers here pull students ears or hair. I myself have
never done it, but I will be honest, there have been tempting moments. I have
yelled at students, I have gotten in their faces and raised my voice, in
English, Georgian, Svan and whatever language will get them to quiet down. I
have dreaded going to certain classes. I haven’t loved all my students equally.
I have been selfish with my time and resources. I’ve been jealous of the skills
and lives of others. I’ve wanted things I don’t need, or shouldn’t have.
Essentially, look at the 10 commandments and I’ve found it within myself. This is disturbing, but it’s also good to
realize that so much of what keeps us in check is the pressure of society,
community, ‘fitting in’, and knowing what people we know would say. I’m
perfectly aware of that now, and I’ve realized that I need to find more of the
self-control within myself and not from without.

I’ve found some good stuff in there too, thank God. I’ve
discovered that I love teaching and sharing information with others. Not every
day, every hour, but that moment when your kid finally gets it, that’s amazing,
one of the best feelings in the world. When your students start to love you,
that amazing. When they ask you to go on a field trip with them, or want you to
come home, or to their birthday, or ask you to never leave. It’s amazing to
know that you’re having an impact on young minds and hearts. I've discovered
that I want family. That family is incredibly important to me and that I want
my own someday. Now, I don’t want to promise myself anything that it turns out
I can’t have, but I want to make family and relationships a bigger priority in
my life. I’m not going to give up on my professional aspirations and ambitions,
but it won’t hurt to make space for other things in my life. There are other
things worth pursuing, and I don’t want to find myself in a place where it is
too late for something that I really truly want. I’m willing to admit that I
want children. Not just one, several. Our culture has reached a place where for
a young intelligent woman to say she wants children is faux pas, an admission
likely to bring silent judgement for being ‘old-fashioned’. Bite me, is my
response. Being here, now that I’ve found out my need to please others (in
order to be a ‘kargi gogo’), is teaching me to let judgement roll off my back.
I’m also getting much better at letting my emotions hang out. When I’m pissed,
people are beginning to be able to tell.

I walked to the Cross with the kids one day. Obligatory selfie

Moving to Georgia when I was 22 was the best possible thing
I could have done with my life because without it I wouldn’t be sure moving
forward. I learned what kind of work I enjoy, the things that make me tick and
get me excited to get up in the morning, it reaffirmed how much I care about
public health, about women’s issues, about a region that nobody has heard of,
much less visited, much less lived in learned the language the culture the
people and grown to adore. Georgia taught me to enjoy the little things, to
stop and think and listen for a moment (or an hour and a half if your
marshrutka is running late), to toast with panache, to hike up a mountain without
killing yourself, to be a big sister, to lead by example, to slaughter a calf,
to hitchhike, to prioritize friends and family—the human connection. To write
letters, to dance like nobody’s watching, to wish upon the stars, to conjugate
in the optative tense, to light candles in a church without lighting yourself
on fire, and how to chase with beer. I
learned to be comfortable with silence and uncertainty and to go with the flow.
And I learned that I’m going back to Georgia at some point some how. Georgia
infiltrates you, like strong liquor does, it’s not always pleasant, but you do
have some awesome adventures, make some great friends and walk away a little
wiser from each encounter. And so my friends, may we raise a glass,საქართველოს
გაუმარჯოს! Victory to
Georgia!

Monday, July 6, 2015

Whoo boy has a lot happened since the last post. I’m so
excited to get home and see you all and tell you all the crazy stories about my
life and the insanity that is it, but I should probably update this
occasionally too, just to reassure you that I’m alive still. That is, again,
till I’m home, when you will all know I am because I will spend hours
afflicting my pictures and anecdotes on you. Until you regret asking me how
Georgia was. I’m currently about 2 months behind on this blog and I’m not super
sure that I’m going to catch up in my final 2 weeks in country. Let me give you
a couple of highlights.

The main character in this drama. This is 13/16 seniors, better than I ever got in class

I’m sure my seniors would have to hear me call them my
babies. But I’m so proud of those kids it’s a little ridiculous. I am betting I
grow up to be at least as bad as my own father, who will brag to anyone on the
planet about how exceptional his kids are. For hours. I apologize for everyone
who gets stuck next to him on the plane with nowhere to escape. And now I know
that is exactly what I am going to be, but worse. I’ve taught these kids for a
single year and I almost started crying at their graduation ceremony. This
ceremony is called ‘bolo zari’ or last bell. It started late (what else is new)
and the kids had decorated the day before with balloons and posters. They had
white dress shirts and aprons, each with its own distinctive drawing on it and
the rest of the space was being written on by fellow students and teachers,
farewell notes as it were. Some students insisted I write on their shirts,
other siblings insisted that I write on their older brother or sisters’ shirts.

Each kid got a
dramatic introduction and to walk out in front of all their peers (we started
during 5th period, but classes had essentially ceased after two
periods). There were a couple of short speeches by parents/teachers (several of
my seniors have parents who are teachers) and by the students themselves. Lasha
read a poem, Jemo danced and a couple girls sang. I find the utter lack of
insecurity here really refreshing. Of course you sing and dance and speak in
public. It’s just what you do. The 11th graders had several dance
routines and a ton of short comedy sketches, which were hilarious. I even
understood some of the punch lines, which is surprising. A bunch of community
members came to watch the proceedings, but not as many parents as I had
thought. Just as the show was about to break up, Rashibo, the MC for the event
(and most events in town it seems, he’s one of my 10th graders)
announced that I had a gift for each of the kids (which I did). Being the
conclusion wasn’t exactly what I had expected/wanted but with some translation
help from Roma (newly graduated) I gave each of the kids a journal I had bought
in the US with a personal note and my contact information. They seemed
surprised and some were really pleased. I suspect most of them have lost them
by now, but no matter.

And then we had dancing, pictures, clean up and a massive
supra in the teachers room. I had cake at least once a day that entire week
since parents kept bringing food to the teachers and I never say no to cake. I
was teaching my after school program that week and I heard a knock on the door.
One of the administrators was at the door saying that I was wanted in the
kitchen. My first reaction was “oh shoot” I figured I was in trouble for
something I had done (playing music too loud? Letting the class get a little
crazy? Climbing out the window when we got locked into the building that one
time? Giving the kids chocolate? Eating the edible plants on break with my
girls?). I walked to the kitchen like I was facing a firing squad. When I got
there, about 10 folks were seated around a table. They turned to me as I came
in “Hannah, torti ginda? (do you want cake?)”. It was super delicious cake too.
Full points to the hospitality class that includes my friends Gio, Lasha and
Mischa. Good work boys.

The following Monday we had the final banquet. This is for
parents teachers and our recently graduated 12th form. I had a full
4 hours warning of when it was going to be, but I decided that from what my
kids had been telling me, I needed to put the effort into my appearance for
this shindig. I got new nylons, since I can’t wear them more than twice without
tearing them to shreds (whoever let me graduate the ‘this is how you be an
adult’ class was sadly mistaken). I washed my hair and got out my dress from
the wedding. I actually put on makeup and when I emerged downstairs the entire
family was shocked. That embarrassing moment when people don’t believe you can
look that good. I was told I looked like a doll, but I’m not sure if that’s a
good or a bad thing. I was told that the banquet would begin at 7pm. I made the
mistake of being ready at 7 as a result. At about 7:45 Jener Mas (who also
happens to be my host grandfather) came over, dressed to kill. Nato was ready
by about 8 and we went to the school to pick up the speakers. We made it to the
restaurant where they were holding the banquet at about 8:30. We were the first
ones there. After much cajoling and arguing we were let into the banquet room
at about 9:15. Finally around 10pm the kids came roaring in, having clearly
pre-gamed the event hard in some cases and the party kicked off.

We all sat around a massive table that was set for us with
salad, bread and some cold dishes already. And drinks. There was pop along with
a bottle of vodka for every half dozen folks or so and a huge plastic barrel
containing about 30 liters of wine. At least. Did I mention we were about 50
with some abstainers? Now, I had walked in thinking that it might be a little
awkward to get drunk with a) your coworkers (though this the least so since
I’ve already gotten drunk with them on many occasions, a tradition I wish I could
bring back to some staff rooms in the US. It certainly lightens up teachers
meetings) b) the parents of your students, all of whom are a good 20 years your
senior but still treat you with a great deal of respect since you’re a teacher
and c) young men and women who ceased to be your students a week ago. I can now
confirm, it’s not awkward at all! At least in Georgia it isn’t.

The hot dishes started coming out and Jemal was picked as
the tamada since Lasha and Roma were both too terrified to do it. He was
clearly nervous but he did a good job. I started wedged in with the other
teachers, listening, eating and drinking (my 3 months of sobriety had just
ended so I drank slowly figuring I didn’t need to be the hot mess of the
evening). They put some music on and Jemal was also called upon to dance since
he went professional about a year ago. Did I mention that my kids are insanely
talented? I couldn’t resist hitting the floor when the ‘modern’ music came on
and my kids who hadn’t seen me dance at the wedding were all pleasantly
shocked. Maybe an hour and a half into the party we went outside to watch the
fireworks that we had bought for the event and send up paper lanterns, the ones
with wax that you light so they fill with hot air and then they fly. We managed
not to catch anyone on fire though it was a close call with Mari’s dress. We
went back inside to continue eating drinking hanging out and dancing. The kids
insisted that I come join them at their end so I was placed next to Jemo, which
I considered quite an honor since he was the man of the hour.

I might not be a Svan princess, but gosh darn it I am trying.

Round about 2:30am the teachers and parents got up to leave
and I stood with them. Every student I went to hug said “Hannah Mas, you can’t
go!”. Roma, my best English student, put it quite eloquently “Hannah, you’re
not like the other teachers. Stay with us.” With Nato’s permission I stayed,
since Dato (18) was DDing and promised to bring me home. I was very impressed
with him and Beqa, who was the other DD. These young men just finished school
and are at a giant party with their friends to celebrate. But neither of them
touched a drop of alcohol. A couple of parents stayed out in the main room,
saying they would wait for the kids to finish. It was then that I discovered
there was perhaps an ulterior motive. The students assured the parents they
could go home since “Hannah Mas is here. We have an adult to look after us”.
Clever kids. The parents did eventually go at the urging of Murtaz Mas and the
kids turned the banquet room into a disco. We danced and laughed and I had two
boys ask for dance lessons so they can pick up girls in Tbilisi. Because isn’t
that what a good teacher is for?

Around 4:30am I found Dato and said that I was done, being
an old lady as I am. Roma walked me to the door and Dato drove me home. The
cops immediately pulled us over but since Dato was clearly sober we were let
go. I crawled into bed around 4:45 and woke up blissfully clear-headed and
without school since it was Independence Day. Most of my kids went to the
concert and Jemal was dancing. Average hours of sleep in the group? 1. Most of
my students left within the next week for Tbilisi to study there for university
exams which just started and continue until the 14th of this month.
I saw a couple of them when I was in the capital for my final ceremony as a TLG
Teacher. I plan to say goodbye when I get to Tbilisi before I fly out. I taught
my seniors 4 days a week all year, and while I never had a day when every kid
came to class, I grew to know most of them quite well, and they know me. I
can’t speak as an expert since everyone in town has known them longer than I
have, but I have had the privilege of knowing them in my own special way, since
they seem willing to talk to me about things they won’t with other teachers. I
get to ride the line between peer and authority, friend and teacher. And I love
these kids, and am so exceptionally proud of each and every one of them. I
cannot wait to see what their futures bring for them; because I have no doubt
that they will be bright.

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

One of my mountain guide friends (I know most of them pretty
well since they have to speak English for their job) had offered at the wedding
to take Mary and I hiking the next day. I suspect the next morning when I
texted him around 11am he regretted his generosity. I went with Mary to school
and she got to meet the other teachers, a bunch of the students and come to
part of my first grade class. We went home to eat and change and headed out
around noon. I had told Mary that we would go for ‘a nice little hike’
forgetting that I have lived in Mestia for too long and hang out with people
who climb Banguriani (probably minimum 10000 ft) for fun. My friend suggested
the hike to Jvari but I know that this hike is almost entirely vertical, having
done it twice before, so I suggested Chaladi Glacier instead. And off we went.
My friend was pretty reticent on the trip, whether because when together Mary
and I can break records for number of words in a conversation, or because he
was a little embarrassed to speak English around her. In any case, we made up
for his quiet. There are some gorgeous views of Ushba on the way to Chaladi so
we took pictures and chatted and got a little sunburnt. We reached the short
bridge and from there the road becomes a trail. After half an hour or so my
sister asked how far to the Glacier. I thought 5 minutes, my friend said 20.
But please feel free to trust my estimates at all times. We did break out of
the forest cover eventually and sat to take a look at eat and drink a little.
Then back. We made it back to the house without incident, though it was
incredibly hot in the sun, I was regretting wearing pants and had stripped to
my cami. We said goodbye, thanks very much see you again soon and broke off the
party. It was 6pm. According to my friend it was a 14km hike. Mary was a trifle
tired. So we broke out the oreos she had brought. That night we had an epic
dress up session with Nini, Ani, Piso (the cat) and Mary’s sari. Indian soaps
are inexplicably popular here so all the girls know what saris are, but have
never gotten to try one on. Mary started explaining that it was a sari for holi
and what kind of holiday that was, and Nini replied that she knew exactly what
it was, she had seen it on TV. So I suppose the soap operas are sort of
educational.

At access with my kids

Our final day in Mestia we went over to the ethnographic
museum to view its treasures, including a fantastic collection of icons and
other church paraphernalia, which was sent up to Svaneti during times of strife
in lowland Georgia and which then got lost in the bureaucratic tangle in the
aftermath. I’m sure their return is in the process now. Svaneti also produced
some beautiful objects itself, and these items were protected from the various
sackings of Georgia (I think Tbilisi had been invaded something like 25 times)
because it’s so remote. Even in the most recent war, Russia didn’t bother
trying to invade up here. The whole ‘1 road in’ does make defense a little
easier. Anyway, we went to the museum roof to take some gorgeous photos and
then I took her to a Svan tower for a panoramic view of the valley. The view
would have been slightly more panoramic if she had actually gone on the roof
but she kept complaining about ‘safety’ and all this other stuff. Whatever,
guard rails are for the weak. Plus the roof hasn’t collapsed under me yet.
Those split board are totally legit. And I probably would hit the stone floor
rather than dropping through the opening to the second to top floor. And it
wasn’t that slippery from the rain. I’m totally trustworthy, please let me
babysit (or you know, teach) anytime. Mary was struck by the beauty of Mestia
but also its intense isolation and cold (she wanted the heater in my room on at
full blast. I was sweating intolerably) She remarked that I am a “rock star” in
my community, but also that if she had been living here for 7 months already
she would have gotten distracted since boredom runs rampant and the man flesh
is something to look at. No worries friends, this blog and grad school apps have
occupied my time quite well enough. And, you know, my job.

On pilgrimage

The next morning we took the marsh to Zugdidi, or we were
working on it for an hour and a half in the center, and I actually got out at
one point and tried some of my ‘Chicago gangster’ posturing. This includes
gesturing with my chin, eyebrows and shoulders. Trying to do it in Georgian did
make it slightly more difficult. When I reentered the marsh, Mary was laughing
so hard she was shaking. We finally got off and I was stuck with the task of
translating for our party of tourists. A couple of Ukrainians on the bus spoke
Russian but the driver still seemed to prefer to talk to me for unknown
reasons. We transferred to a different bus to Batumi on the Black Sea and drove
through lush coastal Samegrelo. The main road West is under construction so we
had to take the back village route. We stopped once and listening to the
conversation in the front seat was hilarious. “Why are we stopping here?” “I
want to see if we can pick anyone up” “No one wants to go to Batumi from here,
keep driving”. “5 minutes” “NO ONE is going to Batumi, keep going!!!!” Then the
marsh hit something on the potholed, dirt road and we had to pull over and flag
down another bus going to Batumi, which was then paid off and we were shoved
onto it. I was the last one on as I had become the ‘tourist herder’ and as I
got on our driver said to the new driver “She’s a good girl, she’s a teacher in
Mestia and speaks Georgian, take care of her”. Mary had to sit in the fold down
aisle seat next to a truly confused Georgian toddler whose mother kept feeding
Mary and I from her collection of travel snacks.

And this is how you wedding. Imagine this but with about 775 more people.

Once we finally made it to Batumi after our 3 marshrutka and
approximately 7 or 8 hour trip we staggered off of the marsh, the Ukrainians
asked for my number, and then we met up with my friend Chris who promptly took
us to a lovely hotel and we explored the Batumi waterfront which is gorgeous
and drank in the warmth of the sun. We sat at a café and ate for a while, then
headed back and ate more food from a local market that came to love us for our
purchases and my Georgian speaking. I convinced Mary to come out to the bulvar
on the waterfront for the sunset and then we sat and enjoyed the energy of the
city in the dark, and laughing as we ran through the singing dancing fountain
because life can be wonderfully unexpected sometimes. Batumi is an incredibly
underrated city, other teachers call it “the City of broken promises” but it is
achingly beautiful in the setting sun and its old town is too photogenic for
words. The next day dawned rainy but we visited a couple churches, Mary’s
second mosque (I tried out Turkish on the caretakers who replied in Georgian
and then I listened to their entire conversation about where the heck I could
possibly be from). We wandered through the misty town, ate and drank at any
number of charming cafes, explored the beach, saw some dolphins swimming just
off shore, and finally returned to the hostel where we were encouraged to have
another cup of tea before we left since it was a cold rain. I caught us an
inner city marsh to the train station (reading Georgian can be super useful
sometimes) and we were again way too early but there was a grocery store across
the street so I bought us some food and we sat and read and people watched
until our evening train to Tbilisi pulled up, perfectly on time. It took a
little over 5 hours but we arrived before midnight, caught a taxi who got very
confused as he insisted on speaking English with me and eventually got to our
hostel, where the guest before us had remained an extra night so the caretaker
took us to a neighbors, who apparently runs the Georgian version of the Bates
Motel. The German living there for the summer had an ‘overnight guest’. The
next morning we met him at what I expected to be an epically awkward breakfast.
He started with the perfectly normal ‘Hello, how are you?’ which he followed up
with ‘You’re the teacher in Mestia, don’t you remember me?’. Low and behold, he
was one of the guys who had given me a ride from Hatsvali to Mestia back in
February. This country can be freakishly small sometimes.

Saturday, May 30, 2015

It has been brought to my attention that I am a horrible
sister. Therefore, for Mary and Mom, here you go. It just takes a while to
write these up, and life has been a little crazy recently.

At the Cathedral in Tbilisi

The saga of my sister’s trip to Georgia begins, as all good
sagas should, with a bit of a rough patch. Namely, my marshrutka (marsh from
now on out, because I am too lazy to type the entire Russian word for minibus/
a special state of being) ride. If you have ever wondered what the 8th
circle of hell looks like I can now tell you. It starts with waking up to
5:15am in the morning, to get picked up at 5:30. The only reasons anyone should
ever be up at this time is a transcontinental flight or a potentially fatal gas
leak, and you had better make darn sure it is potentially fatal. I will readily
admit, I am not an early riser. The marsh was late to pick me up and we didn’t
leave Mestia until 7am. The realization that I could have slept for another
hour, walked to the center, and still made the bus, was to say the least, a
mite dispiriting. We were completely full by the time we were 20km out of town.
I was wedged in between the driver and another guy up front, which helps
prevent motion sickness but also makes sleeping impossible. Bad Russian pop
alternated with bad 80s love ballads, playing on loop. The whole trip. Two
babies in the seat directly behind me cried and screamed at random intervals so
that you could never get used enough to it for it to stop bothering you. They
eventually started playing their own games on a phone, adding another special
element to the noise. It was exceptionally hot, at least for me, but I keep my
sleeves rolled down for as long as possible because I had a henna tattoo on my
inner arm and kargi gogos definitely do NOT have tattoos. Eventually I figured,
forget it, I’m about to pass out from heat stroke these guys can think whatever
they like about me. I really wanted to just get off that hellish marsh, but I
was also sure in the knowledge that I would just have to get on another one in
order to get to Tbilisi. Our driver got pulled over by the cops and it turns
out he doesn’t have a license. Whoops. He then continued driving. I finally
reached the city, got swindled out of 2 lari (80 cents) by a cab driver and was
too tired to argue over it and collapsed into my bed in the hostel at 5pm. The
next day I got things ready for Mary’s arrival, did paperwork and ended up
having to hitchhike to the airport because I couldn’t find the correct bus to
take me there. After the driver found out I was a teacher in Svaneti he offered
to help me with anything he could in Tbilisi. His son fences at Notre Dame,
just to prove that this is a small and complicated world.

Nini got to play dress up

After causing a minor scene in the airport when my sister
arrived and probably confusing every Georgian in the place by the fact that the
twins were being reunited I brought her into Tbilisi and fed her before she
collapsed in the way that is inevitable with an 8 hour time difference. We spent
Monday Tuesday and Wednesday wandering around Tbilisi and enjoying the city. We
discovered an inordinate number of lovely cafes and holes in the wall, eating
far too much ice cream and bread products, window shopping for icons and Soviet
kitsch and visiting the Georgian National Museum with one hall devoted to “The
Museum of Soviet Occupation”. Actually we went to the museum two days since
halfway into our first visit the electricity went out for the block and that
museum is creepy as all get out in the dark. When we explained the next day why
we wanted our tickets to still be valid we were waved right in, but of course,
please enjoy our museum. It was so wonderful to have my sister visit for so
many reasons (Reeses Peanut Butter cups anyone?). It was good to be reminded
about my ‘other’ life. I sometimes forget about the life that I have in the US.
As silly as it sounds, because life in Mestia is so different it’s easier to
just compartmentalize and turn it into different lives, Georgia life and America
life, than to try reconcile the two. It was wonderful to speak with someone who
knows me as well or better than anyone on the planet. It was great to laugh and
be silly and generally be a 22 year old woman with all the freedom in the
world, and a bank account so she can enjoy it. It was great to show someone
around what I think of as ‘my’ country (as least within my friend and family
group) and to share its charms with someone I love. Living in a place like
Georgia, you feel a little like you have to prove why you like it. People go to
Europe because they do, but other parts of the world you have to have a reason,
finding yourself or writing your novel or whatever. You can’t just like it
there, something specific has to make you happy. I got to show my sister some
of these things, like the incredible kindness of strangers, the food, the
festivity, the scenery, the piety and history, the friends that I’ve made here.
It was also good to see Georgia from a fresh perspective again. At this point
much of what seemed incredible to me seems normal, so a new arrival can
articulate Georgia far better than I can.

I love how epic Ani and I look in this picture

Mary aptly described Tbilisi as a strange mix of Central
Europe and Calcutta—almost Europe but the occasional scent of exotic spices,
the Persian lift of arches and the general air of “it’ll happen when it’ll
happen” belies something a little further east. I also introduced her to
Borjomi mineral water, and found a convert. Georgia, you’d better start imports
to Baltimore. We were given lilacs one night by the lilac and cucumber vendor
outside our window for being a) pretty b) female and c) Georgian speaking. They
were lovely and smelled great. I took Mary inside her first mosque ever and the
caretaker was super nice about it. I then proceeded to blow her mind by
explaining its used by both Sunnis and Shias ever since the Shia mosque was
blown up by the Bolsheviks. This is the equivalent to Catholics and Anglicans
getting together in say, Northern Ireland, and worshipping in the same
building. Georgia’s different like that. We also visited a synagogue and any
number of beautiful churches, finishing at Sameba, the beautiful new Cathedral
of the Trinity up on a hill, completed only in 1998.

It had occasionally been noted that my sister and I share a slight resemblance

After three days in Tbilisi we took the night train to
Zugdidi and then the morning marsh to Mestia. We discovered the $11 for first
class is more than worth it. I became a complete convert to Georgian Railways
and I plan on taking it rather than the marsh whenever possible. I got very
annoyed with the tourists on the marsh and got maybe a little too judgy,
surprising even my sister with my cynicism, which takes quite a bit. One
interesting and unexpected thing I have learned here in Georgia is exactly how
to get my bitch on. Don’t get me wrong, the nice Midwestern girl is still
there, but I’ve got a bit more edge now, and I no longer feel bad letting you
know exactly what I think. I frankly get annoyed with tourists though,
especially because once they start showing up, they assume that I am part of
their crew. Georgians easily make the distinction though. Also, I find it funny
when I speak Georgian with other locals on the marsh and the tourists then
English-speaking tourists try to ask in broken Russian how to do things.
Typically this ends with the driver turning to me and going “Translate
please”. Once in Mestia I settled Mary
in for a nap and did some work around the house. That afternoon we went to
Access and she got to meet some of my students and then we went to the wedding.
Poor Mary was freezing cold up here in Mestia, and I will readily admit it’s a
tough transition from Tbilisi to Mestia. I had been boiling in Tbilisi so I was
pretty comfortable in Mestia but I had to layer Mary up pretty well before she
could go to the wedding. Everyone was very shocked to see my double at the
wedding with me, but since I had told people my sister was coming they were
also delighted to get to meet her. We made the rounds of the wedding tent and
were personally ensconced at the bachelor table by two of my students. They are
apparently going to be working more actively on finding me a husband. I got my
Georgian on and urged my sister to “eat eat” and “drink drink”. The geography
teacher from my school was the tamada and when I asked one of my friends at the
bachelor table whether he was related to the bride or groom he replied “both”.
Of course. My friend Dato gave Mary a ride home when she got tired and I went
back to the wedding for a little more festivity before coming home for some
well-earned rest.

Sunday, May 17, 2015

Welcome back to a day in my Svaneti life. Since random
things happen all the time there is no such thing as an ‘average day’. Let me
give you a couple examples. Two Mondays ago I went on a long glorious solo
walk. I had wanted to catch some sun which then disappeared behind the clouds
and left me freezing cold, but it was good to be alone for a bit and enjoy the
silence. I came back after only 2 hours or so since I was about to turn into an
icicle. What I ended up coming home to was a pair of oxen hooked up in the
yard, with Nika at the helm. I will remind you that Nika is 7 year old and 3
feet tall only on a good day. He was affectionately slapping the oxen’s’ heads
and invited me to do the same. He then turned to the darker of the pair and
said “this one is angry”. Good, good Nika, maybe let’s not play with the angry
massive animal with horns. But whatever. I thought maybe we needed to fetch
more wood or hay, since oxen sledges are the favorite way to do both of these
activities (dead serious, there was a minor traffic jam once in the center
because the oxen team had dragged a pair of logs across the road and then
gotten stuck). Instead Gari Bidza brought the iron plow over from the neighbors
and he Gocha and Nika proceeded to plow the front and back gardens. With oxen. How
this works I discovered is that one guy leads the oxen, the other puts most of
his weight onto the plow and almost falls over the furrows every turn and the
small child smacks the oxen when they stop moving. And the token American
watches and considers how she could turn this into a convincing grad school
essay about how she was raised Amish. There’s a life skill I never expected to
learn. But I now believe that given a little hands on practice I could plow
your yard for you.

It gets harder and harder to write these posts, not because
nothing happens but because things that I do seem normal, rather than
extraordinary. While in Tbilisi, the capital, recently I went to Carrefour, a
Western-style supermarket that expats go to for curry powder, brown sugar and
avocados. Frankly, this place seemed far more extraordinary than slaughtering a
pig in the backyard the day after Easter. The idea of purchasing meat in little
plastic and Styrofoam packages blows my mind. Being able to get out of season
fruits (ie anything in the winter). I remember reading the Laura Ingalls Wilder
books as a kid and she got an orange for Christmas. At the time I thought ‘big
whoop, it’s an orange’. After having now experienced a winter sans-citrus
(cabbage was a special treat) I’m thinking “Schmoly you got an orange?!?!”.
That particular passage makes sense to me now. The idea having everything you
could possibly want available at your fingertips, the incredible variety of
foods, and of brands of the same food, nope nope nope. Essentially if you know
what’s good for you, don’t take me to a Sam’s Club upon my return to the US for
at least 3 months. The same goes for
entertainment (Netflix is going to be insane), infrastructure (I’m so used to
the power going out it doesn’t faze me. I’ve also turned off the heater in my
room and gotten rid of my third blanket. It’s not even 60 most days but it’s
too hot to sleep), health and hygiene (I can buy floss somewhere less than 3
hours away and can speak to the doctor) and a million other little things.
Going from the end of the world to a University that’s at least 10x the size of
Mestia is going to be…a transition. I apologize in advance for everyone who has
to deal with my crazy upon my return. It’s not my fault, reverse culture shock
is just worse than culture shock. I think it’s because you feel like “Ok, this
should be easy, this is home, this is what I grew up with” but then it still
feels so foreign and you start thinking that it’s YOU who’s broken and not just
a little lost.

Piggy was delicious by the way, and I was very impressed
with how quickly my host father dispatched it. I was expecting the process to
be kind of awful, since pigs make a lot more noise than calves and they also
squeal. But the animal was silence within 15 seconds, the blood was collected by
Saba (11) and then the animal was bathed, shaved and then the rest of the hair
burned off by my host father and his friends in the yard. We then ate the
organs—the heart was a little overcooked but the rest were quite good. We have
a ram in the yard now that has a date with the chopping block though for the
time being it’s just hanging out with one of the new calves. I kind of hope we
don’t eat this calf since he’s super cute, brown and white spotted.

My sister came and
visited for 10 days here in Georgia and I brought her up to Svaneti to meet my
family and see where I am living. She walked into our main room and her first
observation was “it’s like Little House
on the Prairie but with a flat screen TV”. This is a true statement, but I
hadn’t really thought of my life like that for a long time. It’s just, you
know, my life. We went to a wedding supra and my sister was astounded by the
number of people (later I was told about 800), the amount of food, the sounds
of Georgian and Svan swirling around us, the kids who pointedly placed us at
the bachelor table (I think they were maybe bribed), the music and dancing, the
fact that you just dig in and the massive amounts of alcohol on offer. To me,
it was a wedding, a fun event to get dressed up for. And I did—a new dress and
a new lipstick color. If you have ever wondered how to make a situation awkward
for all involved I can tell you having a clump of your 10th and 11th
grade boys call you over “Hannah Mas!” and then give you a thumbs up and a
“very nice” as their rating for your choice of outfit fits the bill. Everyone
was apparently quite surprised that I cleaned up that well. I also wanted to
dance at the wedding but couldn’t get any of the bachelors at the table to
dance with me (perhaps explaining why they are still at the bachelor table). So
I tried to find some of my seniors to dance with me. I finally convinced Jema,
an incredibly talented young Georgian dancer, to at least walk with me to the
front where dancing was kicking off. He got embarrassed after about 15 seconds
and bowed out so a neighbor danced with me instead, and then I danced with some
of my 11th grade girls. I noticed after a bit that he and the rest
of my boys hadn’t gone to sit down though. Nope, they were all standing there,
watching. When the song finished the reaction was “that was very good” and
“Hannah Mas, that was fantastic”. I reminded them that I might be a little
cooler than they thought. I think my seniors were mostly thinking of how much
longer it would be until I wasn’t their teacher anymore.

We also visited Tbilisi, Batumi and Davit Gareja, though I
will most likely speak about those visits in another post. What I will say is
that it was both awesome to see my sister and being her tour guide was
exhausting but a pretty amazing ego boost. Everyone here in town knows exactly
how well I speak Georgian and are utterly unsurprised when I speak it. I don’t
get any compliments and at home typically what I get is surprise (read:
consternation) that my Georgian isn’t coming along better. In the cities and on
the marshrutkas where nobody knows me though: shock and delight. I have never
been told so many times how well I speak a particular language. Everyone wanted
to know how the heck this little pale girl spoke their native tongue with such
confidence if not particularly grammatically.
I was offered many relatives for marriage and told innumerable times
what a good girl I am. To which the responses were “that’s very kind” and
“thank you very much”. Upon my return to Mestia on Sunday I found myself caught
up in a birzha that then moved to a village on the outskirts of town and I
didn’t get home till nearly 1am. I knew some of the members of the party,
others I hadn’t met before but they knew who I was, and others were visitors
who were flabbergasted to say the least to find a young American from near
Chicago speaking Svan and obviously at ease at what can sometimes feel like the
end of the world, and certainly the end of the road. But this is home for a
couple more weeks at least and I couldn’t be happier to be here, some days
might be rough, but this is where I am and I cannot think of what I’d rather be
doing at this moment.

Coming back from training we were crossing a bridge in our
car and had to slow down because a cow was manically running across, but
weaving from one far side to the other. After reminding myself again to be
careful of the cow brain in this country, I took a closer look at the
marshrutka in front of us which had also been forced to slow down. There were
white things on top wrapped in blue and I couldn’t tell what they were until we
got closer. And then, of course, it was half a dozen live lambs wrapped up in
tarps and strapped to the top of a moving vehicle. How I didn’t guess that
right away is difficult to determine. The lambs seemed perfectly ok with the
arrangement. I wondered who was having kebab for dinner and half wanted to ask
the driver to follow. Georgia has a pretty endless ability to surprise you if
you’re willing to keep your eyes and mind open.

Easter was beautiful if freezing cold here in Mestia. I went
to church for the vigil, which started an hour late due to the priest having
guests. We kicked off almost exactly at midnight. About an hour in bells rang
and everyone streamed out of the church, to circle it three times with their
lit candles. The snow was falling heavily and the ground was slick. An altar
boy (Datka, from my 6th grade) rang out a cadence on the pair of
bells in the churchyard. We gathered in front of the entrance to the church as
a group to praise the Risen Lord, listening to the collection of delicate
women’s voices calling out. We repeated the same phrase I have always done,
just in a different language, Kristes Aghsdga! (Christ is Risen) Cheshmaritad
Aghsdga! (He is Risen indeed!). The call and response that has been used for
millennia, confirming the miracle of life’s triumph over death, forgiveness
over sin, light over darkness, love over hate. Because God is love. I wish you
Peace and Contentment my friends, as we all celebrate in one way or another the
rebirth of life as spring approaches.

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

I’m going to get McDonalds! Now, I will tell you, when I
live in the States, I abhor this particular symbol of American culture and
avoid it like the plague. But something happens to you when you live in
isolation from your home country for long periods of time. You start to miss
the strangest things. I never watch sports on TV. I went to a Big 10 school and
watched perhaps 5 sports games in their entirety in 4 years and that was for
the company. Here, when basketball or American football pops up on the TV
screen I am riveted to it like it’s the end of the world is arriving. The
announcers even speak English. Country music becomes far less grating on the
ear. I can still only take a few minutes at a time, but this is an infinite
increase of listening for me. And MSG and chemicals in my food sound delicious.
I can list for you the preserved food items available in Mestia: chocolate,
chips, pickles, canned peas and olives, Russian ramen (just don’t), biscuits,
pop, mayonnaise, kielbasa, and a few frozen items like khinkali which a new
government study shows often contain salmonella and/or listeria. Yummy. Add to
this a diet pretty lacking in variety (potatoes, bread and beans are the
staples—I thought I was in heaven when we had cabbage one time) and you start
having food cravings that would put a pregnant woman to shame. Now the nearest
schwarma stand is 3 hours from me. The nearest fast food restaurant is 6, and
requires an overnight stop because of the scarcity of transport. Mestia’s idea
of fast food is hot bread. Which is delicious but when you already eat
approximately a loaf of bread a day, it’s less appetizing. You start to
understand why McDonalds is an event. Up here you can either embrace the
isolation, enjoy your ability to live like a hermit, and immerse yourself fully
in the community, or go completely bat-crazy. I’ve taken the former route but
it’s time to descend to the lowlands after 10 weeks on my mountain. My body
wants a milkshake.

PS. The McDonalds was ridiculously overpriced and utterly
delicious. No regrets. It was also hilarious to watch the city dwelling
Georgians watch the obvious foreigner who also acted like a total
deer-in-the-headlights villager.

Tskaltubo Sanatorium

And I totally was deer in the headlights. I wandered through
the bazaar in Zugdidi like I’d arrived on mars and probably drove the entire
place insane with my slow pace and getting lost down dead ends every three
seconds. It was a short shop while I waited for my next marshrutka to take me
to Kutaisi. On the way from Mestia I was one of two passengers on the marsh and
the driver bought us khachapuri when we stopped and we had a chat about who the
hell I was. He and the other woman were duly impressed that I live in Mestia
and speak some Georgian and Svan. Down in Zugs with my backpack everyone
assumed I was a tourist and kept saying “Mestia, Mestia” ie—I have a taxi and
will drive you to Mestia for a ridiculous sum of money. So I did the only thing
you can—I answered them. მესტიაში ვცხოვრობ--I live inMestia. Then they were
interested. “Kartulad laparakobt? (You speak Georgian) Ra tkma unda (Of course)
Martla Mestiashi vtsxovrob (do you really live in Mestia) ki, inglisuri
mastsavlebeli var (Yes, I’m an English teacher). Didi xania ik vtsxovrob? (Have
you lived there long?) Erti tseli (one year) [looks and sounds of surprise, as
I’ve mentioned before Svaneti is to Georgia a mix of the Wild West in terms of
law and order plus the physical hardships of living, in say, rural Alaska]
Kargi gogo xar (you’re a good girl).” This conversation and variations thereof
was repeated probably half a dozen times in the course of 10 minutes.
Essentially every time I got outside of the circle of participants and people
who listened in on the last one.

The former concert hall and Gocha, our lovely guide.

I had, as ever, the most insane driver ever from Zugdidi to
Kutaisi. I inevitably end up with the utter maniac behind the wheel. This
particular driver was a young man in sunglasses who pushed the minibus well
beyond its limits so that everything in the things was shaking. But we made it
to Kutaisi in an hour and a half rather than the usual two hours. Once it
Kutaisi I was overwhelmed by the size, the traffic and the heat. It was
probably 60 or 65 but I was dying, and had to change from my pants into shorts,
and strip down to a single long sleeved tee, which I was ready to strip off as
well and walk around in just a cami, but felt way too shy what with already
airing my hairy legs. I met up with some other teachers in a tea house in
central Kutaisi after successfully negotiating the buses. I sat in sumptuous pleasure
and talked. And talked. And talked. It was so good to speak English with
another native speaker and not only that, but to speak with someone who is
experiencing things so similar to what you are. We had a small birzha in the
road while waiting for other teachers to arrive and confirmed our villager
status but squatting in the middle of the alley and having to move when people
in cars younger than we are turned the corner to find the strangest collection
of foreigners they’ve ever come across. They probably will to talking about us
for years to come. I spent both nights sober due to my rabies shots and felt a
bit like the grandma of the group, looking after everyone, but I still had some
great chats with folks, getting deep, as people who are thrown together as we
have been often do.

Yes, that is an ox-pulled sledge carrying wood for the stove down my dirt road. For anyone who ever questions my developing world credentials

We spent all of Saturday sight-seeing in Kutaisi, but my
favorite was a stop in Tskaltubo, which saw its heyday as a resort with 20 or
so sanatoria in the Soviety era. Now the town has 20 or so abandoned sanatoria
along with an impressive collection of other abandoned buildings. Don’t get me
wrong, it’s still way more of a town than Mestia is (it even had a schwarma
stand, worked by a Svan from Mulakhi, who shook my hand in surprise and respect
when I greeted him in Svan) but there’s a lot of abandoned stuff there. The
highlight was breaking off from the massive group with 4 other teachers, all of
whom I get along with exceptionally well and approaching one such abandoned
building. It had a trio of guards outside so we were a little worried they’d be
pissed we just wandered up. Matt and Liz started up a a conversation while I
worked on my schwarma and eventually the rest of us approached. We chatted away
and the head guard, a round man slightly shorter than I, of middle age told us
“well, nobody is supposed to go in, but I’ll give you a private tour if you
like”. We did. Once he had heard me speak Georgian he apparently decided I was
the group’s translator and so every room we entered he would tell me a bit and
then turn and say “Utxari (say to them)”. While I couldn’t translate
everything, I did pretty well if I may say so myself. We wandered the empty,
decaying building, which must have been beautiful in its day with awe. We
looked at the visitor’s book, with entries in Russian, Georgian, Italian,
English, German, Arabic and Chinese (at a guess) all from the 70s. We saw a
Happy October Revolution card and leafed through the books in the doctors
offices. We wandered through the restaurant, and the concert hall, saw Stalin’s
Pavilion out the blown out windows, as well as the outdoor dance terrace, and
the long balcony running along the front. He kept urging us to stay longer, but
our rented marsh was leaving. We thanked him many times and he urged us to
visit again, to come see him, to have a meal with him, wished us the very best
in our teaching, happy Georgian spouses, many Georgian babies and introduced us
to all of his pals. This country might have had some very rough patches in the
not so distant past and there might be some coming in the future, but its spirit
seems to be utterly unbreakable.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

Spring is coming! At least I really hope it is. I’m writing
this while home alone (I just had to take a break, when I looked over at the
wood stove and noticed it was conspicuously dark. While I am getting better
with it my natural tendency towards absent minded professor makes it
occasionally difficult). Nato and Gocha are out visiting Gocha’s aunt who is
ill and Nini is…somewhere. Unfortunately illness and death seem to be in vogue
here in Mestia.

My host sister Nini
is on the mend after terrible stomach pains requiring a visit to Tbilisi to see
doctors there. I myself made 8 visits to the clinic here in Mestia in less than
2 weeks after I was bit by a neighbor’s dog on the leg and developed an
unrelated bad infection on my face. It was a minor bite, but getting the rabies
vaccine and the scrapes from the canines cleaned seemed like a good idea. After
3 weeks the bruises are almost gone but it feels like I will have a lump under
my skin for a while still. For those of you who enjoy irony, I was bitten by Lassie.
The rabies vaccine consisted of 3 shots given over the course of a week. But
now I’ve got that vaccine at least. The infection on my face was more nasty
than anything else. A pore on my face got infected to the point where my entire
jawline was swollen. The surgeon at the clinic gave me a local anesthetic and
then drained the infection. I had to go back every day the clinic was open for
a week to get the dressing changed. I took a bunch of antibiotics and at this
point it’s almost completely healed. I had an infected tear duct on my eye at
the same time, but the antibiotics killed that pretty quick as well. A bigger
worry was my insurance card not being here. Luckily my Svan tutor Lasha’s
mother works at the clinic so at her urging the clinic staff forged the
paperwork to prevent me from having to pay for my procedure and aftercare. If
you want to know if your community values you, I would suggest seeing if they
will lie for you without you yourself suggesting it.

Then last week, two teachers at my school lost one of their
parents. One of them was related to Nato as well so she is currently observing
the 40 day fast (vegan food only) following the death. The first funeral was on
Thursday and I went with the rest of the teachers. It was held in St George’s
Church and presided over by Bap Giorgi, my priest. Funerals are short services
here and most of the mourners don’t go inside the church, but instead mill
around outside for the half an hour or so. Then everyone goes to an empty
building on the main square for a supra of fast approved food. I realized that
I’ve adjusted to Georgia when I looked around the room and figured it was a
medium sized supra, and then did a quick estimation and discovered it was 300
to 350 people. Friday I was invited to an ormotsi, the supra 40 days after a
death, but I was teaching at the time so I was unable to attend. Saturday Nato
and Gocha went to another funeral.

Sunday was the funeral for Nato’s relative. I went to church
that morning and then went to the deceased’s home. Nato had been going every
day to sit with the body, which is apparently a requirement for close
relatives. As I approached the home I saw the yard was swollen with people, and
some of the men had started singing a polyphonic, making it sound mournful and heavy.
The sun was shining brightly and the swell of male voices echoed off the other
side of the valley. As I approached I noticed that at funerals traditions of
gender segregation seem to be more closely observed. There were no women in the
yard. I asked where they were and was directed inside. An inner and outer room
were both lined around with benches, full of women dressed in black, relatives,
neighbors, mourners. I wasn’t sure about going to the inner room, since I had
never met the woman when she was alive and I didn’t want to intrude on people’s
genuine grief. Lasha’s mom saw me and motioned for her to sit with me. I was
probably the youngest woman there by 10 years or so and I knew at least half of
the women in the room They then of course moved on to the topic of who I’m
going to marry in Svaneti. Because, you know, life goes on, and you gotta get
your matchmaking in while you can.

Perhaps half an hour
after I got there an ancient woman moving with a cane came out of the inner
room and we stood up as one. We started moving out, the swarm of men outside
the door parting like the Red Sea for the stream of women to pass. Nato caught
site of me in the crowd and asked why I hadn’t gone inside and found her. We
started down the muddy street towards the church and stopped when we reached
the bank and turned around. First came a few men carrying a wooden lid, then
two teens, one carrying a portrait of the woman, the other with a bundle of
flowers in her hands. Four men passed eventually with the open bare board
coffin on their shoulders. Following the pallbearers was a cluster of perhaps a
dozen men with their arms linked. Their voices were raised in a dirge, the
multiple melodies blending perfectly. We followed the coffin to the church,
walking more slowly than I ever have, an untidy column of 300 or 400 people,
dressed primarily in black, voices muted. The pallbearers changed periodically
and when we reached the church carried the coffin into the church. This time I
waited outside and listened to further discussion of my marriage prospects.
Asmat (Lasha’s mom) assured everyone that I am a very xocha dina (good girl).

After a very short while the close family emerged from the
miniscule church and the women headed over for the supra. It seems that for the
burial itself only men are allowed in the cemetery, so the women are allowed to
tuck in. The same empty building was set up. The feast was strictly segregated,
two tables for women, five for men. A delicious variety of dishes had been
prepared, beans, bread, eggplant, mushrooms, salad, stew, halva, rice, spinach,
pickled vegetables. The wine and chacha flowed freely because the lack of
sunlight in the room with its bare concrete floors and walls froze its sitting
victims. The men came in after a bit and the tamada started his toasts, but as
women we were allowed to largely ignore him and so as we pleased. I chatted and
laughed with the women around me, I’m finally feeling confident enough in my
Georgian and Svan to move about without an English speaker. I looked over and
spotted a cluster of my younger male friends and nodded my greetings. We didn’t
stay long and Asmat and I walked home arm in arm, full to bursting, aware of
the tasks awaiting us at home, comfortable in quiet companionship. These were
my first two funerals here in Georgia, but I’m glad that I went. I am glad that
I was able to show the respect of my presence to my fellow teachers in their
time of mourning, and I’m glad that I have been accepted to the extent in my
community that I was admired rather than derided for attending, that I was seen
as making the effort of coming rather than encroaching on the neighborhood’s
shared grief. I appreciated the pace and the sense of finality that I found at
the funerals, the final walk to church with everyone who knew you surrounding
you.

It hasn’t been all death the past couple week though. My
kids provide me with endless sources of amusement. One day I left school at the
same time as my fifth grade class and they broke into the omnipresent Georgian
cheer ‘Hannah’s Gau-mar-jos [cheers to Hannah!]’. That this was the same day as
I broke out the scratch and sniff stickers is entirely beside the point. It was
endearing, cute and just the lift I needed before another 2 hours of teaching
that afternoon. Then one day my 1st and 3rd grade classes
were combined (what was a special kind of hell, what with their having
completely different levels of English) and Gio asked me “Hannah, are you a
teacher?”. In Georgian of course, if I get any full sentences out of my 1st
graders this year I will weep with joy. His older brother Kakha proceeded to
chastise him, “Of course she’s a teacher, she teaches us” “But she only plays
games with us” “That’s because she’s fun”. I hated to break in, but it was time
to keep the lesson moving. We had a song to sing. Lastly, Georgia celebrated
Mother’s Day on March 3 and then International Women’s Day (Happy Intl Women’s
Day to all the women in my life!) on March 8. We had Mother’s Day off and the
next day in class Luka, a 5th grader, wished my co-teacher a Happy
Mother’s Day. He then turned to me, “Hannah Mas, do you have a child?” My co
helpfully explained that I am unmarried and that he could wish me a Happy
Women’s Day later that week, while I doubled over in laughter. Because kids are
adorable and pretty much the same everywhere, and I find that a very comforting
fact in this very confusing and ever-changing world.

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

So the celebration that happened the day when I had just
gotten back to Georgia has a name. I cannot currently recall it but I will
write it down in the very near future and put it here. We had another similar
but more elaborate festival on Saturday evening, on a day Americans and the
West reserve for the frivolity of Valentine’s Day. Nato spent the day cooking
furiously, I tutored the kids and got Nika to read English without the threat
of violence. In fact he did so willingly. The children’s treasury I brought is
coming in handy already. We set up the supra for the dead at home, but I
personally decided to take part in the other side of the ritual.

St George's Cemetery

Round about 7 Gocha, Manana Bidzola (an aunt) Ani Nika Saba
Nini myself and Tiko (host sister studying in Tbilisi but home on holiday)
piled into the car and drove to the cemetery next to St George’s church—my
favorite one. Gocha’s parents, brother and a couple other clan members are
buried in the churchyard. Lasha had brought wood over earlier. We carried qubdari,
khachapuri, ghomi (the consistency of grits but made of rice, with cheese
added) cake, wine and beer. Another clan member brought mandarins, one chacha,
and one a whole pig’s head in a pot. The fire had already been lit in the
Kakhberidze plot and the snow tamped down so we could walk. Our clan had at
least 20 people there, between men women and children. In the whole cemetery
there were at least 250 people and a dozen fires. All of the clan members knew
me at least by sight, and most by name and to talk to as well. I teach all the
school age kids in the clan do they’ve at least heard of Hannah Mas. I was
certainly readily accepted as someone who should be there with them, not just
some tourist brought along for cultural gawking. We toasted ate and talked. I
pulled out my limited Svan and any final skepticism of my presence among the
older men converted into wide smiles. Men and women stayed to their own sides
of the platforms carved of snow for the feasts. People moved about, some
greeting friends and neighbors, but always returning to their clan plot, their
kin. I chatted with Tiko who speaks fluent English. Selfies were taken. We had
a mid-winter picnic in the cemetery.

And it has to have been one of the most beautiful spectacles
I’ve ever witnessed. In the depths of winter, in the dark of night, the city of
the dead was transformed into the center of the community. Kids played in the
snow and threw more wood on the fires. Adults were solemn, but laughed and
joked with one another, particularly as the evening wore on and the various
bottles emptied. Everyone was included. The fires in the snow and our veins
kept up warm. My fifth grader Monica informed me that she likes beer as she
chugged a glass like a champ. I kept thinking how if you were to carry out this
commemoration in the US someone would call the cops. But there’s nothing
sacrilegious about it, quite the contrary. But why not remember those we’ve
lost, those we love, not by sitting around moping and being sad but getting out
of the house, getting together with family and friends and having some fun?
When I’m dead I’d rather people remember me that way. Lamproba is a tradition
only followed in Svaneti and only certain parts of it at that. On a sketch
comedy show here in Georgia, I saw it ridiculed. Other Georgians sometimes view
Svans as idiots, but also as old-fashioned, even backwards. I hope this
tradition stays alive; to lose it is to lose something beautiful both
physically and spiritually. We’ll see if it can survive.

The other big news from up here in Svaneti is that Skylar
managed to have a bit of a health crisis while visiting us. He felt unwell one
morning, which we assumed was just a hangover. He felt pretty bad the whole
day, and then around 9pm we heard a thump from upstairs. I went up and found
him semiconscious on the floor. Gocha and Nato proceeded to yell at me,
assuming I had lied to them about his state of health, while also getting him
back to bed, giving him medicine, hot water bottles and calling the ambulance.
This arrived promptly and the various neighbors/relatives who had bene milling
about carried him in and then drove with Gocha in the car so they could move
him into the clinic here in Mestia. I spent the remainder of Sunday, all of
Monday and Tuesday morning at the clinic with him, feeding, moving, helping,
cajoling, entertaining and translating for him.

I discovered that
health care in Georgia is dirt cheap (total cost of ambulance ride, 2 nights in
clinic, treatments there, 4 types of pills to take home, an x-ray and a blood
test? Less than 100 USD) but also feels quite haphazard by US standards. For
example there is no patient chart. Each new nurse or doctor who arrives just
asks the patient what’s going on. Treatments are essentially bought at the
pharmacy and then transported down the hall to be administered. The nursing
staff can be difficult to find, so at one point I had to turn off an IV to
prevent air from going into Skylar’s bloodstream. They didn’t have a sharps
container, which frankly scared me half to death. They allowed me to stay in
the room while he had his x-ray which I’m fairly certain in a big no no in the
US. We had to bring our own food (and bedding), which blessedly Nato was
willing to do. The khachapuri tasted delicious. Check-out consisted of packing
up our stuff, Gocha turning up and us peacing out. No paperwork. No final
check, just off you go. We never got an official diagnosis, or one that we
understood since frankly my hospital vocab consists of the body parts, pain,
better, worse, and pill. It doesn’t help that our new insurance cards haven’t
arrived yet (apparently they’re coming from Tbilisi, on the back of a tortoise
considering how long it’s taken thus far) so I had to run to the ATM Monday
morning to get cash to pay for everything.

Two Aunts and Ani

Asmat, my Svan tutor’s Mom works at the hospital thank
goodness so she shepherded me around to various offices to pay for stuff, get
drugs, and to explain in slow and easy Georgian, when and how many of
everything Skylar should take and watched as I wrote everything down for him on
the packages. After we brought him home for the afternoon and night I took care
of laundry, some food and getting his room cleaned up. I will say, at least the
clinic here didn’t have that disinfectant smell that hospitals in the US always
have and that sets my flesh crawling. I was still very glad to get back to
school on Wednesday, even if I was physically dragging myself through the day.
All my teachers asked how my friend was, as did two of my senior boys. I’ve
realized that probably a big part of why people here stay home from school work
etc with small illnesses is that it is imperative to keep them from becoming
crises. In the US, exceptionally high quality medical care is never that far
away (I’m not saying that everyone has access to it, I’m saying in purely
geographic terms it exists). Here, the nearest actual hospital is 3+ hours by
car on terrible roads. The Mestia clinic has the absolute basics, but not much
more. It’s not worth risking an emergency, because it might just cost you your
life.

I also tried my hand at skiing for the first time and
miraculously managed to not kill myself. I actually had quite a fun time,
despite running into an inordinate number of my students while wiped out and
trying to determine how to get up from my heap on the snow. Another reminder
that while I have many skills in the US few of them transfer here. My plan for
getting home from Hatsvali, the ski resort, consisted of finding a ride with
someone else going to Mestia, since that’s the only place to go. While this
might sound a little haphazard it worked perfectly. Three young Svan men from
Tbilisi were going back into town which they were visiting and offered me a
lift (I was with my friend Skylar so don’t worry for my safety). We spoke in a strange
combination of Georgian and English and they were surprised to learn that I was
an English teacher and not a tourist. This broke the ice and they asked where I
taught. When I said Mestia their eyes grew wide in the way that Georgian’s
usually do when you say you willingly live in Svaneti, and even more
surprising, that you love it there. They absolutely floored me with their next
statement: “You are heroes”.

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

But what else has happened since my return to Georgia, you
might ask. Oh, many things. My return to school was good; my students seemed
genuinely pleased to have me back as did the other teachers. As it turns out I
only missed 6 days of school so I still now pretty well where my kids were. I
was really excited to get back to my Access kids, who are between 13 and 17
years old and hail from both Mestia and the nearby village of Lenjeri. I have a
ton of freedom teaching them (3-7 M,W,F but the hours are a little different
right now because of the cold and dark). I can try different activities, do group
work, make jokes that the students will understand have listening activities
etc. The longer classes mean we get a lot more done and there seems to be a
bigger focus on oral and aural comprehension which is how I’ve been taught
languages so I’m better at replicating those techniques. I think the kids were
pleased to see me back too. I have 2 session, the first can be anywhere from 8
to 15 students and the second is 7-9, most of them from Lenjeri.

I’ve
also decided to worry less this semester. If my 2nd graders act up,
well then, they do. They’re 7 years old. It’s not a personal insult to my
teaching abilities. Its kids being kids. If the 6th graders get
under my skin, welcome to the club. They made the Russian teacher cry the other
day , so it’s hardly just me. And if someone makes a comment about my Georgian,
or so and so other foreigner who spoke perfect Georgian, bite me. I never said
I was a linguist. I have the tendency to hide my emotions but then I remember
that this is Georgia. Let it all hang out, everybody else does. If I’m angry I
can be angry, tired, frustrated ditto. If I’m sad it’s not a character failing
to cry. Life is often an emotional rollercoaster here; I may as well put my
hands up and scream.

We also, the Thursday I got back, celebrated
my host brother Lasha’s 22nd birthday. We spent a large chunk of
Wednesday evening preparing (though when I say we I wasn’t really terribly
useful) and then when I got back from school on Thursday I found Nato, Teona
(an aunt) Manana (another aunt) the neighbor and a 5th woman I’d
never met before in our kitchen getting ready for the evening. Upstairs a
couple guys were there already and the table was laid for 15 or so. My
usefulness consisted of doing some dishes and carrying stuff upstairs. On one
trip Nini, who was playing backgammon with them called me over “Hannah, this
boy is interested in what your name is”. And so the evening began. On one of my
frequent trips upstairs the kids (Nini, Ani, Saba, Nika and a girl called Mari)
followed me around giggling the whole time. They aahed to explain that they
were my bodyguard for the evening, here to protect my honor from all the
various young men who would be here that might want to steal it. Or something
to that effect. They then followed me into my room (I sleep on the 2nd
floor and the birthday supra was to ne in the room/hallway outside my door) and
pantomimed ‘if a boy drags you in here and onto the bed we’ll beat him up’. It’s
good to know that they kids of the house have your back. Not that I would ever have been worried about
anything of the kids, all of the other guys at the party would have already
taken it out of the offender pretty well by then. They were also all good kind
sweet young men and being a young professional as I am here (please don’t
laugh) I seem to hold a certain place of respect in their eyes.

I started the evening downstairs eating with the women. The
kids were given gubdari and scampered back upstairs to watch the guys. It was
discussed when I should join the young people upstairs and decided that when
the other females arrived I would be sent up. I protested, it wasn’t necessary,
but you don’t mess with Svan women. We did a few of our own toasts downstairs.
Women seem to have different traditions than men. A toast would be introduced
and each person would elaborate on the theme, in this case the first toast was
to Lasha. Each woman, including myself added our good wishes to his future
health and happiness and then drank our glass. The girls arrived (3 of Lasha’s
old classmates, plus myself) and I was dragged upstairs by Manana to hang out
with the young people. Misha had been chosen as the tamada, or toastmaster and
he did a good job of it. He was stationed at the head of the table with Lasha
on his right. I was at the other end next to a quiet Georgian girl called Mari.
The kanchi, or hollowed out horns from a sheep or goat that are used as
drinking vessels at supras, were being passed around the table. They have their
own special rules and regulations. At formal supras they are only offered to
men. They are filled typically with wine, occasionally with liquor, and the man
who has either requested or been given the kanchi stands and gives a toast to
the gathering. He then drinks the full horn, turning it as he goes so he
doesn’t dump anything down his shirtfront and holds it upside down at the end
to show that it’s empty. Since this supra was less formal, everyone was
expected to toast with the kanchi at least once and so Mari and I toasted and
ended up following another Georgian tradition whereby you link arms at the
elbow and then drink together, still holding your own container. I apparently
acquitted myself well enough to earn some praise from around the table. The
terrifying experience of having to give a toast over, the evening continued.
There was dancing, mainly to American and Russian pop and some singing (in
Georgian, all male, polyphonic and impressively good considering how far into
the evening we were at this point). And then some more dancing, some more
drinking, and more eating. I escaped less than half an hour before the party
broke up at about 4:30am after help from my host brother. The excuse of “I have
to go to school tomorrow” didn’t convince anyone much. And I did go to school
the next day, slightly tired but clear headed and free from any aftereffects of
the night.

And
most recently, on the 3rd of February, I got to take place in
another intersecting tradition, one that apparently exists only for two
families in Mestia. I attended with my host family the litbli, or clan supra
for the Kakhberidze’s and Xergiani’s. One of my first graders, Kakha, belongs
to the same clan as my family and made sure to invite me to the supra 3 times
during class. It made my co-teacher laugh since he rather pointedly only
invited me to join. Nini and Ani went with me quite early in the afternoon,
round about 2 to the home where the litbli was being hosted. I did my best to
help in the preparations but I quickly discovered that my most useful attribute
was keeping the kids occupied, so I did for at least an hour and a half. There
was quite the brood there, Nini, Ani, Saba, Nika, Keso, Monika, Bidzina and
Kakha and two more boys who aren’t my students. Little Kakha was thrilled that
I had taken up his offer to come and the kids wanted to sing the songs I’ve
taught them in class, play duck duck goose and then we went to the park in
Lanchvali, the neighborhood up the road from me. I escaped and got a couple
minutes to sit and rest before the supra began at around 4:30. This was a much
more formal affair. Two long tables were set up—men at one and women at the
other. The men were putting it away in a determined manner, with the toasts,
largely in Svan, coming fast and furious. The tamada held up jars of raki, a
liquor similar to schnapps, and used them to toast. For most of these, every
man got to his feet and removed his headgear. The women were not required to
drink for the toasts, and largely didn’t pay much attention to them. Instead
every so often a chunk of the table would offer a toast and drink as a unit. A
couple of times we got shushed by the men since they were wishing the best for
the future of the families and we were having a good chat. The food was
delicious and I ate far too much and enjoyed listening to the conversations
around me and understand a great deal of it. A couple of the people at the
surpa didn’t know me, but soon ascertained who I was and I was welcomed and
accepted as an honorary member of the clan, who should of course, celebrate its
future. I had a lovely evening and was glad to have been made a part of this
very specific tradition.

I graduated from Michigan State University in 2014 with degrees in chemistry, anthropology and Turkic languages. When not out globetrotting, I can be found perched in front of my laptop, sharing my adventures with you.