Friday, December 26, 2014

Tonight I walked again, this time to a new family dollar that has opened near my flat. I fondly recall the days I would hit all of them up for cccs and generic dph, but thankfully those days are behind me now. I encountered a friend of mine who is currently living as a nomad on the way back to my place, he asked me to buy him a beer and I refused, as he already had a fifth of liquor in his hand. I have told him before that I would help him get onto disability, but he says that he doesn't want to because he's "not crazy", which makes sense, but humbling in some ways and a bit humiliating when you have to jump through the inane pedantic hoops that come with the territory. Today I went to my neighbors house to see how she was doing and a child answered the door. I asked my neighbor how she was doing and she started yelling at the kid, calling her stupid and such for not seeing who answered the door, but she had just done that, so it made me sad. People in impoverished areas are very often shouldering more burdens than they take, but the negativity is like water, it always flows downward and the smaller things get covered in it quickest. I love children so much, but I'm terrified to look them in the eyes because I know what innocence looks like, and few children have that anymore. Also babies have too much innocence and they see through my imposing exterior and make me want to cry or hold them, but that would just get me put in jail these days XD

I'm behind on all of my writing projects but that's nobody's fault but mine, I should work harder on scheduling work for the mornings when my gaf meter isn't all the way down to the id level.

Here's some art by my sister, she's incredibly talented, but wonderfully hardheaded, just like me when I was that age. I'm almost certain that the Lord sent her to me to see how hard it will be if I am ever given the privelege of raising a daughter.

Today's adventure was FULL of profit! I kept wanting to try hunting a dove or pigeon with my new slingshot, but I kept hearing my sister ziggy's voice in my head saying "Starrrrbrooooo, you aren't even that hunnnngryyyyyyy!". In the end it's for the best I suppose, live and let live. I found some not very sweet oranges on a tree in my neighborhood, just growin away with nobody caring about them. 100 years ago having a tree that made fruit might have meant the difference between eating or going to bed hungry, and these days it just sits there, what a topsy turvy world this is!

I've got a lot of projects to get cracking on today and I don't have nearly enough sexy assistants, I'd settle for some frumpy assistants at this point lol, but my mental clarity is up despite my girl being far away from me, so I must ride this wave as far as I can and do what I am able to help others and myself.

Soon I'll hopefully have my etsy shop up so look for that.
Shout out to T-dub, Weasl, Scott Stamp, Rooba, Cancan, Tdl420
Kerflap,Cursive,Fronk,Nemo and of course Ziggy, and even YOU!

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Tonight I went out for a night run, while doing so I came across a random fellow who had just gotten kicked out of his mates flat, so I ended up going BACK to MY flat to get some change to get him on the bus to wherever he was headed. He gave me a sound byte for my game, so it was an okay trade I guess. I got hassled by some strange fellow that was trying WAY too hard on the way home, he excitedly said "WHASSUP WITCHOO NIGGA?!" to me as I was running and as I was in performance mode, I could only cock an eyebrow and mutter a terse "whassup", but the eyebrow cock was lost as it was night lol. I think my body is becoming addicted to the endorphin spike from running for short distances, which is good because I have coined a new term (at least to my knowledge): Persistent Dissociation Syndrome, something I've had for a while now, but it's okay because through training I can make the negative effects go away. Light sources look really awesome at night XD

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Today I had a GREAT adventure in the morning, I cant even lie, I needed that.I walked to the corner store to buy envelopes to mail a care package to my starsista, but they didn't have any! They USED to sell them, but for some reason they don't, so I had to go to family dollar.

At family dollar, I got the envelopes and some adult fun time treats but OH NO, paypal just decided to change things on their end for no dang reason. So in the end I couldn't buy the fun time treats and I left them there. I went though all of that bullmess, then I get home and my loveley neighbor gave me some ham AND some chicken, I WIN!