Dead Letters

Summary: A letter to my beloved, who left me alone in this mortal world. Drift away from my consciousness, I shall, and meet him in my dreams, like a summertime fantasy.

Chapter 0

Dearest Corentin,

How long has it
been since I’ve seen your lovely face? From the time you’ve left me, you put me
through endless longing.

When I think about
how much I miss you, your touch, how warm your body feels like against mine
when I sink into your welcoming embrace, I feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Is
this purely love, an attraction, lust, hunger, desire, a need, or an addiction?
The fact is that, it’s there for all to see that it’s hard for me to live on
without you. When you were alive, I couldn’t bear the thought of losing you.
When death whisked you away, I fell instantly, into an abyss of despair and
dread.

How many more until
my dying day? I would ask myself. How long would I have to wait to see you once
more?

Am I becoming
possessive, mad? Even to my beloved that has disappeared from the face of this
Earth? I once had a raging will in me that wanted to claim you as mine. Everyone
must know that I will only love one single person ever so passionately in my
entire life- you.

Sometimes my
mind wanders off, and I come to realize that I’m thinking about you, you and
only you. I want to, but no, I can’t. I can’t get over you. Your existence is
infinite; immortal.

Perversion
overcomes me; my constant thinking of how it would feel like if you took me. I
want to push you to the ground, kiss you silly and ravish you slowly,
completely. Perhaps you could touch me here, there, where no one else has ever
ventured, tickle me, kiss me, tug and pull at me. Maybe you could nibble and
bite me, glide your fingers and tongue along the shy me. Every night I lay on
the mattress, thinking of how our nights would have been if we slept together.
I want to feel your bare skin on mine everywhere; perhaps one or two digits
would drive me crazy and push me off the cliff into ecstasy. And when I’m damp
with perspiration, filled with an insatiable want, you’ll come into my sweet
embrace with a strong force, hands on my waist, grinding into me. Then I’ll
wrap my legs around your hips, so tightly that you’ll only come deeper into me,
finding that secret space as I moan and climax.

I wouldn't want you
to stop. You'll whisper my name into my ear and look me deep in the eyes -- “I
love you, Jasper; I love you so much it scares me," and flip me
over.

But now, alas, when
I recall our days together, what we had said, what we had done, and the
attraction that kept us together... When we made those promises that we’d be
together forever, were those just lies? I can just imagine you falling for
another, leaving me here, cold and alone. The dreams that reach me are all so
vivid! Am I going to lose you?

One fine summer day
it came to me, and I realized, it’s not you, nor me, but the fate that ties us
together. Even if we stayed true to our love and words, it's death we will
never escape, and it's death that would eventually draw us apart. For you my
love, I would give my life. Every single time I put a knife to my frail,
shaking throat, your voice comes into my mind-- “Jasper, don’t do this, my dear
beauty, live on, as I would have wanted you to do so.” I’ll listen; I swear to
God I will.

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