Like you Frananne I wouldn’t like to lose any of my senses especially my sight. Guess I’m still selfish and self centred to a degree. I can accept Gods will for other people but if the same thing happened to me God and I would have a serious falling out!

But its good to share that stuff and get it out in the open. Guess the whole point of having a faith is so we can keep and even keel when unpleasant things happen in our lives. These are usually things we think will happen to other people but it begs the question if God loves all his children why should they happen to anyone?

Best of luck with your recovery, PS, was Looper any good? Its on every bill board over here.

Got a days work to do at home on the computer, this being my favourite distraction is holding me back, byeee!

Enjoying Life

John

PPS, think the G word you refer to Dallas could either be Greed or Gluttony, either one would fit the bill in my case. Sometimes I think the only predictable and stable part of my drinking character was my unpredictable instability.

Quite a few people in my home group do know my name. In the Correctional Facities committee work we use whole names so we can more easily contact each other.

I guess one thing I think about is that my home group meetings are all open. There are a lot of people who come and go. If everyone who comes and goes does not buy into the whole AA ball of wax regarding the traditions, how is my sharing really protected? I have decided that I must share to maintain Sobreity . If some loose cannon decides to break my anonymity outside the rooms in my community, what will be will be. I would like my privacy protected but not at the expense of what I gain in AA.

I don't usually refer to a person by name when repeating something I heard in a meeting that I found profound. I am too unlikely to not get it exactly right to "quote" someone else .

Ramble,ramble . Had a good day today. Picked up my nine month chip. Very, very glad about that.

Congratulations Frananne on your 9 months, that sure is a long time for an alcoholic.

Thanks for the update Keith on the way things is done over your way, guess that’s why each group is allowed to be autonomous. No point splitting hairs over something like that.

Its only certain guys over here do that, maybe it’s a case of ‘familiarity breeds contempt’. Heard them a lot lately and I suppose they’ll feel the same about me. Like they say everyone in AA is ‘OK but…?’

Think I’ll just drop out that particular circle for a while and grow in a different direction.

Happy sober Saturday! Beautiful day in Sugar Land today! Feel pretty good today, optomistic about my treatment, enjoyed my women's meeting this am, felt well enough to swim after the meeting. I am grateful that I am able to swim a bit while treating as I feel the most like myself while in the pool.

Enjoyed talking to my daughter this afternoon. (on the phone) she is a cheerful person. Wish she lived 17 miles away instead of 1700. She made yogurt today. Ambitious! Hanging out with my main speed now watching Foley's War on Netflix. Interesting show!

I trust the weekend was good for all, it was good here in New York. As I vary my meetings I realize the benefit of the experience, strength, and hope others have to offer. Walking into a new meeting we get the "look" don't we? In some ways it is reminiscent of the early days when I came into the rooms. Not knowing anyone, wondering what folks think about me, etc. <-perhaps my EGO. is showing here. .

I often times need to be reminded of the things I've learned about myself and I get that when I hear others share...Yesterday I re-learned that I'm finally "okay" with who I am. God made me exactly the way he wants me to be. I am tall enough, my eyes are the correct color, and it is okay to be happy.

Thank you God and Alcoholics Anonymous.

Have a great day in sobriety everyone....

ps...Although I do not post here each day I do check in and carry your thoughts and strength with me as I go about my day...

Nice to see some posts! I was just reading the Grapevine online and decided to see if anyone had checked in. It's funny how sometimes the stories in the magazine make me think about the program and other times not. Found them thought provoking today. One was about the chip system.

I found myself grasping that 30 day, that 60 day, that 90 day, and even the 6 month chip like a lifeline in a rough ocean. For my 9 month it just made me happy. I am really,really glad to be sober.

The article was interesting as it discussed the relapse issue. How would I feel about a new 30 day chip if I had to restart? Would it be the same powerful symbol? I only keep two chips: the 24 hour chip and the current reminder of how far I have traveled. My brother has a big pile of annual chips and I know the pile is meaningful to him.

Yes, yes, and yes. I was thinking the other day of spending a couple of months back there this winter solely for the purpose of attending meetings where I got sober. I will forever have a fondness for the folks and those special rooms that introduced me to Alcoholics Anonymous, a God who loves me, and, a new way of life.