depression

..It’s like a flow of shit you know. one thing after another a flood of disappointment black everywhere ..i just sit and draw it out ..i love drawing when im depressed..it randomly picks it’s time to come out. and i sink down into the abyss of nothingness i would randomly cry because the quietness screams at me loudly ..memories i dont want to remember come flying back like a movie stuck on replay. it hurts like a stabbing in my chest i wince and squirm. i have nightmares of all the things i fear. i shut myself from the real world and just lay there listening to music..my music…its like a hand trying to pull me from drowning in my problems..i love music ..sets me free from the chains my thoughts have hooked me to..i need friends..but i can not find many ..:(