New OS - Maine Mere Jaana...Kyun Nahi Jaana?..

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.Brok3nSoul.Goldie

Note : Its me againnn.....back with another one, sorry could not help it!This one can be called as a sequel to the previous one (if only you have read the previous one ). This one is basically, Rosh's reply, her answer, her part of the story!

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Maine mere Jaana , Kyun nahi Jaana?

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I don't
know what my last wish would be, but after meeting you it was as if all my
obscure wishes came true. I never gave it a thought how and when will I die.
Death is certainly inevitable. I have never thought what would be my last wish,
what would be the last thing I wish lay my eyes on. The only thing I ever wish
to see is you....and thankfully, my wish came true.

The
strange and coherent voices brought me back to consciousness, it is only then I
felt a sharp pain at the back of my head. My vision was hazy, all the colors
seemed to be blurred, I pushed my droopy eyelids open gathering strength from
all the cells of my body. I could feel the pulse pounding madly at the right
side of my neck. A small cry escaped from my mouth as I tried to get up, the pain
hit me again, and my shrill voice was enough to gather their attention. My
breaths were getting irregular; I missed few heart beats too. It didn't hurt,
it didn't hurt at all, when the bullet pierced through my heart, and it was
nothing than the painful sight before me. I saw you breaking down, your eyes
they were blood shot red, and your struggle to free yourself and save me. A
thousand pins priced my heart watching you helpless for the first time in my
life, it shattered me into a million pieces. I wish I never existed!!

I found
myself desperate for breath; the warmth of my blood forced me to close my eyes.
I resisted, but the eyelids became heavier. I could feel life draining out of
my body, it felt weak than ever before. I didn't realize when I stopped
breathing or when the vision turned white and then black and then the light
faded. A lone tear escaped from my eye..

I didn't
want to go, I wanted to stay with you, there, forever. I tried, but I
failed...Breaking the ties with you, was not easy for me..My last parting look....your
face....it stayed in my eyes forever....

Yes, Arjun. I still live by the fact that when
anything happens, happens for a reason.
I had my purpose for living. Knowingly or unknowing I have served
Him(god), fulfilled my part, played my role. I could not be so ignorant, not to
thank Him. I just could not thank Him enough, for all that he had given me a
loving husband, a beautiful life, all the happiness. The only thing He missed
out was time....I wish I had more of it!

But my faith in him would not stop me to put forth
my complains.

If I were at the blame, who were you to suffer?

Why was it, that everything you loved was
mercilessly snatched away from your grasp?

I have been awfully selfish and inconsiderate. I
left you alone, broken all the promises, broken our dreams, turned my gaze
away, shrugged off all my responsibilities, wounded your heart beyond words
could explain. I am no less than a betrayer....I led you towards a beautiful
dream and then left you alone, indecisive and further more shoved down into
solitude. I die a little every time when I see your eyes, which once had the
patience and contentment, and now they just keep wandering impatiently
searching for me. I know no words, no answers; no justifications could ever soothe
the pain which I gave. Whenever I look down at you, you emptiness makes me
hollow, My heart wrenches when I see you live a reclusive life and I know
anyhow I am responsible for all of it. I don't know even if I am worth the
forgiveness. But the only thing I can do is to apologize. I feel the repentance
in my heart...and from the bottom on my heart I want to ask for forgiveness....Please
forgive me, Arjun!

...Maine
mere jaaana , Ab hai jaana......Ishq teraaa , Dard teraaa...

Do you remember, Arjun?

Those silent promises that we made....to be together for
each other. I wish I could tell you that time....that there were no each and other
for me.

..pink..Goldie

Ish Dishu! U have done it again!! Cant stop my tears...Even after leaving this world, she is connected to him, looking at him, feeling his sorrow, his pain...whose sole reason is she only...She is feeling guilty... though her death was not in her hand..*OUCH* It really hurts but touches the heart..

U portrayed all the emotions so well. Hats off

Plz dont mind me asking...but I hope that everything is fine in ur lyf and their is no sorrow in ur lyf..i mean a bigger one...lyk Arjun..i mean not exactly like him..but pain..I mean u depict all the sad emotions so well na it makes me worried abt u...

.Brok3nSoul.Goldie

Ish Dishu! U have done it again!! Cant stop my tears...Even after leaving this world, she is connected to him, looking at him, feeling his sorrow, his pain...whose sole reason is she only...She is feeling guilty... though her death was not in her hand..*OUCH* It really hurts but touches the heart..

U portrayed all the emotions so well. Hats off

Plz dont mind me asking...but I hope that everything is fine in ur lyf and their is no sorrow in ur lyf..i mean a bigger one...lyk Arjun..i mean not exactly like him..but pain..I mean u depict all the sad emotions so well na it makes me worried abt u...

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