Tuesday, March 22, 2011

cell phone pic obsession

i don’t have a fancy iphone. i’m jonesing for one more and more every day, but right now i get along just fine with my trusty little LG flip. i always swore i would NOT be one of “those” mothers constantly with their phones in their baby’s faces, wasting ‘real time’ in lieu of getting the ‘perfect’ shot to text to my entire address book…but i kind of am. the truth is, and it’s been said a million ways and will remain true until the end of time, you just can’t even begin to fathom how much you will love your little person until you are holding them in your arms! i have some manic need to record every moment of his life because he is so precious and perfect and wonderful that no other being will ever come close and dammit! these boogers, this meltdown, this perfect smile must be documented! but i don’t chase him around with my phone(like he’s running laps already or something) just to pic spam all of my friends and family…the truth is, i do it for selfish reasons. i could stare at him 24 hours a day and i need this arsenal of pictures to flip through when he is away from me at daycare...and sometimes there's just no time to grab the canon, adjust the settings, wrestle with the neck strap, focus the lens and hope for the best...i can't chance missing a single thing and moving off the couch isn't an option when you've got this sweet little warm, squishy bundle of love totally snoozed out on your chest.

every single moment in time frozen is a piece of my heart. the most pure and true part of my soul... and looking back through all the moments i have captured with my dumb, cheap phone since the day he was born makes my heart just BURST and never fails to bring tears to my eyes. they aren’t all spiffy and edited, most of them aren’t even in focus, but they are his real life and witnessing his life unfold right in front of my eyes absolutely takes my breath away.

holy crap. i love this little guy so much!

so while i am bitching and moaning and pining for a fancy iphone, i am immeasurably thankful for the shitty LG that i have….because really, just look at this little boy and share a few of the days of his little life so far…have you ever seen such perfection?

it was a rough weekend. ben is going on 2 weeks with his first cold (thanks, daycare. you’re awesome.) which he so generously shared with me. the hubs, having finally shaken his annual sinus infection, came down with a nasty bout of food poisoning friday night and, in between running back and forth to the bathroom (i’ll spare you the details, but suffice it to say there was some EXTREME elimination going on), was up shivering under 3 comforters with a temp of 102 till 6am saturday morning. just a tip: it's not advisable to leave your leftover chinese on the floor of your car on the warmest day of the year so far till it's 10:30am and you remember oh yeah, my leftover chinese is on the floor of the car and it's the warmest day of the year so far but i think i'll eat it anyway.

*blink*blink*

obviously the monkey and i made a quick escape to the guest bedroom and i felt horribly guilty for not being able to take care of my husband while he was sicker than i have ever seen him. so basically, it’s like a GD infirmary in our house, all of us with the same cough, carrying on with our phlegm, the smell of cherry halls drops permeating the air. i think we are all over the hump though, so keep on thinkin’ those healthy thoughts!

oh! and happy spring! it’s about freakin’ time! bring on the asparagus and snap peas, bare feet and butterflies!! and my little boy gets to experience it all for the first time! he doesn't know that trees are supposed to have leaves on them, that grass is actually green and not brown or what the sun feels like on your face when you fall asleep on an adirondack chair on a saturday afternoon....he is in for such a treat! the days are about to get a whole lot sweeter!

Rach, you're lucky to have a new little guy in the age of technology. You can snap a shot and make sure it came out instantly. If you don't like it you can take it again. Since I'm old, ahem, I didn't have that luxury. I had to take a roll of film, take it to the pharmacy, wait for days to get it back only to find they were all out of focus, too dark or off center. Take advantage!! Each of those moments captured are a treasure. I envy all you young and hip moms.

i'm lefthanded andfreakishlyproud of it. i'm a leo. it really bothers me when people don't hold the door open for other people or don'twave 'thank you' when you let them in your lane. i love lobster rolls and golden retrievers. i hate cancer and gifeltefish. if you ask me if i want a glass of wine, there's a pretty good chance i'll say yes! i wear my heart on my sleeve. sometimesi share too much...oops