Need benzodiazepines

My doctors (doc and psych) will not prescribe me any benzodiazepines because they say taking them cause me to overdose and act irrationally. I disagree, I od and act irrationally when I don't have them because I need them.My nerves are bad, anxiety is killing me this morning Going to visit doctor in half an hour, I know it's going to end up in a fight..like it always does, just please wish me good luck because I really need something to calm me.

Hey I hope you are doing okay! I once was on those medications & forgot them when traveling alone out of town. Ended up stuck in a hotel unable to move with the worst feeling in the universe for a week. So, I hope your Dr. can come up with an alternative solution for you so that you can avoid that agonizing experience again.