One Man's Journey to Life

As I sit to write, I commit myself to leave no stone unturned as I investigate all the nooks and crannies of myself, so that I may clear any and all dissonance, and align my structural resonance into a living application of my best self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the nature of delay/procrastination/postponement, where I believe I've giving myself more time today, I'm robbing myself of progression and life itself!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sabotage my process by manipulating myself to opt for the quick fix of energy, instead of the long term, big picture, integrated alignment of my best self.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a parallel reality of complacent acceptance within postponement, where I delude myself into a perspective that is less than comprehensive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to maintain a discombobulated perspective through acceptance and rapidly reacting to my world through my personal desires and fears.

I commit myself to take structural action to align my living day proportionally so all my highest responsibilities are being done, and fully enjoying my fun :)

One of the most stubborn beings in existence shares about how we can measure our progress, in our life-awareness process. Before I get into my brief breakdown, I must say: there's a lot of information loaded into these two interviews! If you can afford to invest in them, and listen to them multiples times, you'll end up changing your life.

For the longest time, the term "quantifying your process" has been used by beings through the portal to describe the benefit of speeding up our process by applying various tools (writing, self-forgiveness, redefining living words, etc.).

When I first thought about this, I stubbornly adhered more to my scientific definition of quantification (to count or measure). But this definition just didn't hold up in many of the contexts that it was being used in, so I merged the definitions together as best I could. I thought it to mean something like 'being aware of how much I've changed, and to within this see that my change process is working, boosting my confidence, and ultimately motivating me to move faster."

And for years, I was missing the point.

Maybe I was close or onto something with "quantifying process" as "a measure of self-change," but I can say that I'm very thankful, now that I'm getting clearer on it after listening to these 2 interviews, twice!

Currently, I'm best understanding it as: Quantity of Realizations per Moment.

How much self-realization can I fit into a single moment?

How often am I able to stop an emotional reaction and correct myself in real-time?

A direct quote from the 2nd interview:

"Essentially the overall definition of 'quantifying your process' is speeding up, fitting as many quantity of applications, or movements, or realizations of yourself into a moment that you can, to bring about actual, real self-change." - Veno

The interview goes on to to explain this further, giving examples and bringing it full circle to why it even matters to begin with. There are some other key points that stood out that helped me fine tune my understanding of this definition, namely:

Moving faster, by moving slower.

This is one of those statements I love, because at first, it makes no sense and contradicts itself. But then, I play with it. I start asking myself, "how could this be true?" And the phase opens up into a most powerful gift. It's a real shame how much common sense is missed because of a snap judgement.
And that's just it.

By slowing down, I can gather more information, that's logically obtained and organized. When I'm making a quick judgment about something, I don't engage the same faculties. It's often a rushed, overconfident opinion that I half-consciously churn out. When I take that big breath, and slow myself down, I am at greater capacity to intake and organize information, and so I have a greater capacity to make a sound decision.

When we take our time with something, we produce better quality work (like this post). The consequences of better quality work, is higher efficiency. A contrary example could be writing a bunch of notes so fast that they're illegible, and moving on from that so fast, that you don't even realize you can't read them until the day before the test. Taking longer, may seem to take longer from ONE perspective, but when you begin to do the math and see the quality adding up. 1 + 1 + 1 is more than 0.1 + 0.1 + 0.1 + 0.1 + 0.1 + 0.1 + 0.1

So now, you're already at a slower pace, having held your attention this far through my writing, but I invite you to slow down even more. Don't jump onto the next thing immediately. Take a moment, and ask yourself, "what's the best thing I can do next? Sit with it. "What do I truly want to do for me?" Maybe it brings up reaction because you're reminded of something important you've been postponing. Maybe it frees you up from a fast-paced day with little to no 'self check-ins.' Ask yourself about how you understand and relate to the phase "to move faster, move slower." Maybe you even have time to scribble legible notes about how you want to live into your next moments, and beyond.

In my last post, I spoken into a belief that "posting once a day would be too much, or too difficult for me." While I have my reasons and justifications for this, I also see the reality that I could be posting nearly everyday. So, with both perspectives in mind, I decided to make the leap and commit to writing every day last month. What I found by challenging myself, and failing = worth the effort!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear trying something because I fear failure. When and as I see myself shying away from something within a mindset of fearing to fail, I stop, I breathe. I realize that nothing gets done when I stagnate with fear of failure, manifesting a failed opportunity of a life I could have lived. I commit myself to facing my fear of failure, embracing the lessons of failure, and carrying on with Self creation in the absence of fear (creation).

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Note: if I really had to or wanted to, I could stop my post here, and call it a day. Just one example-reason that I really have no valid excuse to not post on the daily.

Every reason for why I don't write every day, is linked to escapism. Writing and posting these 7-year-journey-to-life blogs is an effort of facing myself. Facing all the resistances and fears that come up along the way. Sometimes, I really don't want to look at myself, and so I layer the excuses to be "ok" with it. Observing myself in this pattern this for so long now, I've really gotten ample chance to see how silly it is.

Why is it so silly?

If I try to separate myself from the awareness of what is, then I enter a timeloop of specific unawareness, only to come back to awareness eventually. This retards one's growth in self-awareness, and who wants that?

I, as the mind consciousness system, do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to orient to the mind and believe that my dealings in energy are more significant or important that my physical reality. When and as I see myself racing for an energy fix, I stop, I breathe. I realize that there is only one me, and that if I have conflicting priorities, I need to slow down, reconcile who I am and which reality I want to validate and honor. I commit myself to remember to check-in with my starting point awareness, and carefully examine the evolution of my perspective through time; so that I may reverse engineer it, understand who I am within it, and continue building an increasingly consistent and stable character.

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I commit myself to honor and respect the physical laws of the universe.

I commit myself to embrace failure as a vital means of self-growth.

I commit myself to slow down to the pace of my breath, my body and my fingers (for typing), so that I may accomplish more substantial self-creation in the physical world.

I commit myself to ultimately be the director of my mind, instead of following energetic impulses that are inconsiderate of the physical world.

I commit myself to press on and recreate myself everyday! Cheers to a life worth living!

Ok, I'm in the final 18 minutes of the month, so it's time for a quick recap and resetting my sights for October 2018. This is going to be my 13th post of 30 days, without any doubling up, even though that was my intention while excusing myself from missing a day.

I've learned that a lot of the issues I'm creating for myself come from framing my reality in narrow ways. For example, approaching my writing like I would homework, procrastinating it until the final few minutes, turning it into this big monster, just like I would with a term paper.

In hindsight, to make the most of not reaching my goal - I've got to learn all I can about myself and how I operate, so I can make a more realistic goal for myself. One thing: I underestimate how much energy these posts can take, so doing one a day is a lot. I cannot let this perceptual mishap continue to burn me as it has. More grounded, realistic planning will go along way. I'll continue to unpack more dimensions here as I find them.

For October, I commit myself to write 15 days or more. Time to test a commitment to myself for every other day. My thinking is this will open up more room for writing longer posts with more specifics and depth in them, while then giving me a day to rest in between (if needed). Test all things, keep what's best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being a failure, and so focus on failing instead of what I can do.

I commit myself to continue re-framing 'failure' in my living expression to catapult my success!

Right at the beginning of this video (20 seconds in), the creator shows a clip of Elon saying:

"...we're so hard off, we had just one computer; so the website was up during the day, and I was coding at night. Work hard, like, every waking hour. That's the thing I would say, particularly if you're starting a company."

The rest of the video is worthwhile, breaking down how Elon's inclusive vision for humanity is a major component to his appeal, making up for his poor presentation skills.

I may not have the intellect of Musk, but I share a similar vision for humanity = United. I foresee a world where individuals are looking out for the best interests self and all. Self is All, so golden rule all around!

But what's been getting in the way of such basic human compassion?Fear.

The fear keeps us cycling in the mind, so we never get to truly know ourselves. And without knowing ourselves, we don't get to know others. Instead we fear them, because we've got to look out for #1 (+family/clan), only to end up giving cause for fear. Just as hurt people, hurt people; scared people scare people! We've got to start getting a handle on the Self = All equation, and start STOPPING these deep-seated & multi-generational designs that we've lived into our lives.

It's easy to fall into fear paradigm because we've collectively been doing it, a very long time.

Here comes the work!

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to work hard, every waking hour, in a balanced manner, such that all my needs and responsibilities are being taken care of, so that I may additionally focus on Self and Business development projects.

I commit myself to writing myself to orient when and as I see myself not working hard.

There's lots to do. Big world solutions are needed. This blog is just the beginning! Sack up Daniel.