Still Need More Work I Guess

May 19, 2012

There are still many reminders that I am a very flawed person. Sometimes they hit you in the face like a brick. Today is one of those days. I know I shouldn’t feel this way but I do. I feel like I work really hard at most things I do, put extra time in, and try and do everything right and the right way but I feel like my reward is usually getting kicked in the teeth.

I know its wrong but this is a life long battle I have had. It just seems like people go out of their way to include and do whatever they can for most people but when it comes to me I get left out and have to fight and scratch for whatever I get. Please understand I love my life but sometimes things can just get me really down.

After I have pulled myself away from the situation for a little while and look at it I realize just how flawed I am. I should not worry about such little things and definitely should not get so aggravated about it. I have to remember that no matter what I do here, its not rewards here that matter. Instead of wishing I had more good friends be thankful for the couple I have. Also and mainly just be glad I have a ” friend that’s sticketh closer to me than a brother”.