Hyland revealed that when she was 26, when her body began to
reject her first kidney transplant, she seriously considered
suicide.

"I was very, very, very close," Hyland told DeGeneres. "I
would write letters in my head to loved ones - of why I did it,
my reasoning behind it, how it's nobody's fault. And I didn't
want to write it down on paper because I didn't want anyone to
find it."

"I would write letters in my head to loved ones - of why I
did it, my reasoning behind it, how it's nobody's fault," Hyland
told DeGeneres. "And I didn't want to write it down on paper
because I didn't want anyone to find it, 'cause that's how
serious I was."

"I was very, very, very, very close [to suicide]," she
said. "I didn't want anybody to know I was that
close because if they knew, they would try and persuade me," she
said.

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During this time, Hyland told DeGeneres, her body began rejecting
her first kidney transplant and she was forced to go on dialysis.

The 28-year-old actress was born with a disease called kidney
dysplasia, which means that one or both of her kidneys
"do not develop normally while in the womb," according to the
National Institute of Diabetes and Digestive and Kidney
Diseases.

"I have an amazing job, an amazing support system. But
after - at the time, I was 26 - after 26, 27 years of just always
being sick and being in chronic pain every single day, and you
don't know when you're going to have the next good day, it's
really, really hard," she explained.

Hyland said what finally helped her deal with her
depression was telling a friend.

"Every person with their anxiety or depression or if you
have suicidal thoughts, every individual is different. So I
wouldn't just rely on everything that I say - I'm just sharing my
story," she said. "But I think talking to someone and saying it
out loud really, really makes it sound almost ridiculous and it
puts everything into perspective."