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By Sarah - 6 Jan 2013

Thanks for this post, but I've been having this problem for more than 40
years. I've never ever had that assurance of Jesus' presence. Lots of people
have tried to help me, but without success. Sometimes I try not to think
about it. Other times I pray about it, but nothing makes any difference. I
figured out maybe it's just my personality, but it terrifies me because of
the uncertainty. Of course I'm willing to accept God's free gift, and I've
told him that countless times. But I don't know how to act on that belief.
It all seems too intangible.

"If you're not sure that He is in your heart right now, do you believe
that He will come in if you ask Him?"

Not really, because it doesn't seem to have worked for me when I have
asked Him so many times before.

"And, most importantly, do you have the faith to actually ask Him?"

I don't even know, but I keep asking anyway.

"How do you ask Him?

"By simply repenting of your sins, and asking Him to forgive you. There
isn't one of us here who hasn't sinned and, for that matter, there isn't
anyone in the entire world who hasn't sinned.

"By asking Him to come into your life and truly be Lord of your life. But
you must mean it, and be willing to have Him change you into a peacemaking
child of God, and much more according to God’s heavenly will."

I have tried screwing up my courage, terrified of what He will expect of
me, but also terrified of not belonging to Him. Now I'm so confused that I
don't know if I mean it or not. So I keep going through this process of
trying to repent and asking for forgiveness, asking Him into my life and to
be Lord of my life, but feel it is futile because I never seem to get
anywhere. I'm still the same old person, sometimes doing bad things and
having the same old doubts. So it hasn't really worked for me, however much
I want it to.