Sunday, March 18, 2007

Headaches. Sharks in My Yard. Lost Love.

So far today, my head is feeling better. The past 2 weeks have been bad, the headaches aren't the most traumatizing I've ever had, but they are constant and keep me from falling asleep. I have to get soooo tired before I can sink into sleep. But it's ok, I think these headaches have cropped back up because I went through a very stressful period where I was very worried about my mom and her health. And I can be thankful for one thing, the pain isn't near what it used to be...

I'm thankful to be alive. I really am. And I'm so lucky to have loving people in my life. And we have sharks tied up in the backyard, they are pretty cool too, and I think they love me although they don't say it. I think they have a complex, they have a hard time committing and saying the, "I love you Sebastien." They're kind of macho like that. But it's ok, I still tell them I love them. But there are moments where I'm struck with sadness because they can't tell me they love me. It really does hurt.

Speaking of love, it seems like lots of my friends are experiencing difficult situations with their love lives. It makes me sad, I try and talk on the phone with them when I can. You know, give some support, everyone needs someone who understands and can listen. But it's difficult because of my headaches, I can't talk as much or as often as I'd like.

So what are my general thoughts on love? Does love suck, or is it marvelous and awesome? You probably already know what I think... love is the greatest! It can be terrible and agonizing, but it's totally worth it.

Let me leave you with this song clip, La Bise Aux Hippies, it's so funny and great...

Headaches are like a beast in your head. The more you think about the headache, the more you feed it, and sometimes being tired on top of that makes it stronger as well, because you're trying to get to sleep, but it's still there with the rest of the thoughts in your head that won't go away. I hate headaches. I'm glad you're feeling better!

Oh and I'm jealous of your sharks. But if sharks did fess up and started saying that they love you, they'd lose their edge. Do your sharks have laser beams attached to their heads?

I think that love - when things reach that level where they are love, and not infatuation or lust -rocks the world, but lust/infatuation is transient, and often disappointing..ok it sucks...well it's all right as a solo distraction, but that's about it, it can be like a foundation on sand, precarious.