Terrifying dream about maternal grandfather

September 3, 2013

If I believe that yesterday’s dream/vision of finding my hat and jacket was real, that it produced real results, then what happened this morning is very scary.

In short, I dreamed that my maternal grandfather molested a child. Specifically, he molested me, although the word “me” is unclear, as I was asked at a point later in the dream if I was pregnant. Throughout the dream I thought me was me (a male), but at this point it occurred to me that I was a female in the dream.

There are some weird things with this part of my family. The main example is that my adopted cousin looks exactly like my maternal grandfather. If you see a photo of the two of them side by side, not only would you think they were related, you would think they were the same person.

So this morning’s dream was very disturbing. I woke up with my heart pounding, my sheets soaked in a cold sweat, and generally terrified.

You could put this off as a nightmare, but because I know the quality of the dream/vision was essentially the same as the previous night, where I “saw” my hat and jacket in my car, I find this terrifying; terrifying to think about, and terrifying to have experienced.