Wednesday, June 29, 2016

The Hardest Thing to Learn About Brokenness

“There was
a time in my life when I would fight and work hard at vindicating myself, [but]
through a process of years and the dregs of painful experiences, I have learned
that I’m unqualified to do that, furthermore I do not learn when I’m busy about
defending myself. It also distracts me
from my calling, which is all part of the enemy’s plan. It’s easy to forget all that when there are
spears coming your way.”

— Charles
R. Swindoll, The School of Brokenness

The purpose of life is not learned
at the pinnacle, more so at the precipice.
The purpose of life is learned in the abyss; in clawing our way out
through a hope that vanished long ago, that is clung to anyway. The purpose of life becomes apparent when an
old life is discontinued for a new one that hasn’t arrived yet. Yes, in the now-but-not-yet reality, in the
land-between-land.

The purpose of life can actually
become apparent in crucible of criticism. If we stay the moment in faith.

When we face the crucible of
criticism, and for a time spiral into the abyss, what have we with which to
respond?

Nothing. It’s not our turn to react to the spears that
whistle into our orbit in alignment with the Doppler effect. We let them whistle past us; through us if
necessary. We have no purpose fighting. The purpose of life is not learned through
fighting back; it’s hidden through taking vengeance. The purpose of life is learned through a
humble reliance on God to vindicate our cause (Psalm 37:5-6) in His time and in
His way. Even if that means death in the
meantime. And rarely does it ever mean
death, but it frequently means death to the self.

To react out of the indignation of
pride, we should soon learn, is to wreak a disaster of repute we can all do
without. All of us do things wrong. We will get it wrong from time to time. There will be regrettable embarrassments. But we’re right when we don’t fight back, and
only wrong when we do. We best respond
as if it didn’t happen, but without missing the lesson. Rather that than offer up a list of excuses.

One of the hardest examples of
brokenness is criticism. Yet the best of
brokenness is being broken to the point of learning acceptance.

***

Welcome the state of brokenness,
for it holds open the purpose of life.
Brokenness is the calling of the truly spiritual person. It makes us pliable to learn, to grow, to
develop, to mature.

Only out of adversity, in due
humility, do we turn inward the pain of reprisal, and cause that pain to be
useful for a worthy response.