Roll On : I'm scared.

But not until lately that i realize it started to affect me damn much and there is really not much for me to do. At this stage I need to be medicated here in KL if i were to adhere to it.

I am scared how it may affect me forever. The scars also. And i cant treat the scars if the acnes were still there. My skin get too sensitive and too thin. I am scared.

My dad thought that I care less bour it. But I really do care just that i get clueless whenever to stick to a plan. To make thing worse, the many ways to cure acne need a loooooooooooong time of dedication.

Today, I went to see my co-supervisor of my research. But it is not for my research. Still felt at lost since i was free the entire morning which could be use to do my survey but i ended up reading Who Moved My Cheese since i can't be registered as patient of PPUKM due to system break down. I think i waited for a good 1 whole hour.

My co-sv turns out to manage dermato cases (but not the specialist one, she refers me to one). She offered to help me seeing my acne worsen after the exams. Well. It usually does worsen but not this bad really.

The offer was about 1 month ago. I can only went to see her today. Just to register and get an appointment. I was told it would be free. It is but i have to pay uo first the claimed it later. It require those guarantee letter (GL) stuff which I DON'T KNOW. The best thing is i didn't get my scholarship which means i can't afford
to pay.

Mind you i can only realize this when i come up to the counter to pay. Oh ya, did i tell you I FREAKING LEFT MY PURSE BACK AT MY HOUSE.

i went back and forth (ppukm and ukmkl) to settled this. I can only get the GL next week. I still didn't check if the claim need to be done here in UKMKL of UKM Bangi.

One to another.

But still I get a really good vibe out of this plan. It seem to go to the right direcrion. I know the medication she was planning for me in which i'm sure it will helps.

Whoever reading, pray lah for me. T---T

These only cause more fear for me. But as the book say, i need to adapt. To work it out.