Thursday, November 15, 2012

Under a starry night of the winter
solstice, there is a distinct music playing in the air. Upon this penetrating
cold, freezing every touched object, robbing them of warmth. Under the blanket
of snow, i lie still staring at the sky as my eyesight fades away.

Upon my wake, I lie on my bed, and looked
at the beige ceiling, blasted with orange sunlight of the dusk, there was that
opened notebook, a page half filled with writing, sitting upon my desk, waiting
to be written on. I reached my glasses just beside my notebook, and wore them
then things became clearer.

After preparing like i just woke up in the
morning, i slipped in to my clothes and i went out of my dorm room with my
things and went upstairs.

After my class, I found my way rushing to
the rooftop again, for some reason i find myself all night, staring afar to the
horizon, and high above the sky, deeply enchanted by the stars as if i was
frozen.

I never have any friends, all these people
calling me "ace", they were just looking for someone to parasite
with, but then who would be the best victim, then of course it's the smartest
one, the top student, of course it was, and is me. If my parents gave me a
choice, i would have not stayed here.

Upon my thoughts, it was broken by the same
sound, the same music i hear all these years. Maybe it was IT, thus I find
myself staying here all night.

I mustered all my courage and looked
around, and after a while, i found where the sound was coming from. I went
nearer, and i knew that the music was coming from the vent below, and tracing
it to the room, I found out that it was coming from the old music room.

As i try to open the door, i struggled and
later got angry on the process, i kicked the door and the music stopped.
Suddenly the headmaster of my school found me, she was on her sleeping dress,
she owned this school for a long time, over fifty years she lived and taught
children here.

"Oh Mrs. McCaelum" I said, she
caught me by surprise, "Adam, i know that you don't sleep much at night,
but please be quiet" she said as she lessened the brightness of her
flashlight. "um, what is behind this... Old music room?" i asked,
"Old, and worn instruments... It was usable then but..." she said,
but then something bothered her, and she left quietly.

When i was about to walk away, the door
strangely unlocked itself, and i went inside, and then the door just closed and
locked me inside, so did the windows, one by one they were shut.

I stood against the door terrified; i
looked around and saw dusty and webbed old instruments. Strangely at the middle
of the big room was an old piano, and i figured that it was making the sound.
Apart from all these instruments, there was no dust, nor web around it, and to
my surprise, it does not work.

I pressed the middle key again, and
suddenly a finger made of faint light beside mine pressed the same key too, and
the piano made a sound. At my reflex, i looked beside and saw a blurry ghost,
so i fell backwards, i scared.

The piano moved by itself and regenerated,
even it does not look new but it can play beutifully. The image bent down, so i
pushed myself back, my glasses fell away, and to my surprise, i saw a beautiful
girl in a dress, she was smiling at me, lending her hand to me. I took my
glasses and stood up, but when i wore it, the girl was blurred too. She held my
hand as to my hand held my glasses, she pulled my glasses away and i saw her
clearly again.

"hi" i said, i was thinking of
something else more elegant to say but I failed. I tried again, but i
stuttered, unbelievably I just said my name: "a-a-a, Adam, my name is
Adam". She giggled and answered with a very cute and mesmerizing voice,
she swayed and her knee-length hair followed, "Anne Marie" she
answered.

"so you play the piano?" i asked,
to steer the question. She then sat and i sat with her beside the piano.
"yes, every night." she said. "c-c-can you teach me?" I
asked, she then held my hands and i played the piano with her.

After a while, i saw her smiling, and when
she looked at me, she vanished in the air, as the room was lit by the dawn. I
was crushed, and when i pressed the key of the piano, the sound was gone. I
wore my glasses again and left the room.

I sat on my bed, unable to think about
anything but her, i couldn't even fall asleep. As i lay on my bed, i closed my
eyes but I could not fall asleep, all i see in my mind is her. I still remember
her, she wears a divine white dress, it has a short frilly skirt but a long
sleeve, a pair of small white high heeled gladiator shoes, she wears a white headband,
on her very long and wavy hair, i believe it exceeds her waist. She has a
beautiful violet eyes; dazzling, i can't stop staring at her.

After opening my eyes, I found myself
waking at five o'clock. Luckily i have a free period, so i find myself rushing
to the old music room. After i entered, i locked the door and i decided to wait
for her. As I wait, I played the same pieces she taught me, even when the piano
wouldn't create any sound, I just imagined it would.

Here it is, the final piece we played
together, pity it was interrupted, maybe I’ll be lucky I’ll see her again. As I
struck the final key, the piano miraculously created a sound. And I finally saw
her again, on the same position she left.

"Welcome back" I said.
"we've been here all these time, just playing the piano" she said as
she gave a matching smile, until she took a good look at me. She noticed that I
wasn’t wearing the same clothes, and the smile she wore all night yesterday was
replaced with doubt and worry, as we continued with the lessons, the feeling is
not the same as before.

After few pieces, she stopped playing and
turned to me. "i never sought the sun come up, i would always play my
piano all night long" she said to me as she held my hand. But then when
she tightened her grip, she passed through me and she stood up in shock, and
finally things came together.

"am I still alive?" she asked as
she looked at her hands, she then took a step backwards and sat on the table.
"why aren't you aware of this?" I asked, as I walked closer to her.
"i don't know, all i remember is music, practically how to play the
instruments and compositions" she said, she looked at me, with sadness
that cripples and maims the strongest of men.

"what instruments you play?" I
asked, to steer away the sad topic. "Oh, Oboe, Flute, Lute, Guitar, Bass
Guitar, Piano, Violin and other f instruments, I even caught up to play the
modern drum set and synthesizers" she answered with a smile.

"What is your birthday?" I asked,
"august 21 1994" she answered, I was surprised because she was
younger by four years from me. I just stood there watching her play.

Few months, it has been, I still find
myself playing the piano, a night is empty when i don't hang out with her.
Unfortunately, she does remember our specific chat, about her being a ghost. It
comforts me that she accepts it, and actually smiles despite that.

"hey, isn't that ghost have ability to
move things from afar? That means i can play the death waltz" she
exclaimed, and as she said; she played the death waltz. "anyways... Is it
alright for you that i won't be here for just a night?! Tomorrow actually"
i asked, she then frowned and answered like the spunky girl she is;
"why?"

"Promenade!" i said, i was worried and embarrassed, and to think i
have no one to go out with. "even if no one could go with me, I’m required
to attend." i said. "Promenade..." she said, followed by a
laugh. "Do you know how to dance?" she asked, she wore those heart
melting smile after. I meekly said "no", she then stood up and invited
me to dance.

"Look, even if you haven't invited a
girl with you... At least you should know how to dance because other girls may
ask you to, at least do the waltz" she said. And then i followed her as
she teaches me.

As i step with her, I can't believe i was
slow dancing with her. "so, by any chance you're related to a living
person?" I asked, she then hugged me instead, and whispered at my ear;
"My grandma, "Minerva McCaelum" she said, and i was surprised.
"She's still the principal, here..." i said, she then returned to our
original position and proceeded with the dance, I was then dumbfounded when she
smiled again. "Can you tell her this; 'starshine firesweep of the night
sky, blind the beam with the dusk sillhouette light. Dreamweave the starry
night and bring the time to stop, call the dawn with the firewoks flash, look
the comets dash for I’m falling up!".

Again, I was dumbfounded, surprised and
definitely amazed. I memorized the phrase, Like a the genius I’m. Sadly, there
are only a few minutes before the sun rises, I bade goodbye. She gave me that
mesmerizing smile, as she reminded me her request, and then the moment the sun
shot out a beam, it went through her and she faded away. I then took my glasses
to wear them, and i went back to my room.

The next night, I was early at the old
music room, and as something to give, i went there with an oscillator and a
synthesizer, something to bring her forward towards the future. I plugged in
the synthesizer and the oscillator to an outlet, and i found her behind me,
staring and smiling. "Hey Anne..." I greeted her as i removed my
glasses, and she was clear again.

"oh, you brought a synthesizer and an oscillator,
good. I'm actually a fan of Electronica, synthpop, and European trance, mostly European
trance." she said as she approaches the synthesizer, the door then closed
and all instruments were repaired as they usually do.

"Listen, can you make a list or record
your voice saying what you said yesterday", i asked she then frowned, then
smiled as sle looked down, she then looked at me and laughed. I then took a
paper and a pencil from by bag, and then she wrote the phrases on the paper,
with a beautiful penmanship too.

"Let’s get started" she said, and
she began creating sample of sounds on the synthesizer, and then finally she
played. I was amazed; she then mentioned that it was the song "Hold
On" By Zircon sung by his wife Jillian Aversa.

As we continue practicing, playing the
instruments, dancing, something crossed my mind, "isn't that spirits are
usually tied to something earthly that they choose to stay?" i asked, she
then looked and stared at the piano, "that piano i guess, i really loved
that piano. It was a gift from my grandma, since my Stradivarius violin finally
broke of age. The violin's sound was heavenly... I guess that is why it was
sent there." she said, and she pulled a joke at the end.

I then looked at the piano, worried. "How
do you died?" i asked, i then suddenly exclaimed; "oh sorry, that was
tactless... “Said, as I stopped dancing, she then hugged me and pulled me back
to dance. "It’s okay... Even I’m curious about you... I'll give you a
deal, after i tell you how i died, you'll tell me about your life", she
said, I then agreed.

"i died, simply by being crushed by my
piano, that is why it's wrecked, i fact i even think it's because of that, i
was tied to this piano." she said, i was then speechless. "okay, now
your turn!" she said, as she called my attention. "no wait, I’m
sorry, here it is; one day i was going to be sent away to another country, for
what they claim a better school because my parents wanted me to be a business
woman for it has the most salary, but i wanted to be a musician. I was so angry
and so they were, and the anger was at grandma for not standing up for me, and
the worst part is they are getting rid of the piano as a punishment, even
sending it here, away from me. I blocked the men as they carried the piano but
one slipped then the other so the piano was dropped over me so i died instantly...
End of story now your turn!" she continued with an admirable and adorable
spunky attitude I then began narrating.

"To be quick since we don't have all
night. I was born, attended to elementary, and it sucked. At High school, I’m a
salutatorian, despite the fact I’m lazy. "

"dude, that's it?" she asked, and
then she laughed.

"okay, okay. At least my love story.
Once on my freshman high-school life at Illuminata catholic university, I met
this beautiful girl, I wasn't able to get her name, but i saw her every day.
She couldn't notice me, so I decided to walk up to her and at least ask her
name. But as I walk towards her, I slipped and fell. Everybody laughed, but
instead she helped me up, hugged me. I couldn't react, I was speechless, and
the worst part was I never saw her again."

"Oh that was me, you were the cute boy
who walked up to me but fell instead. I waiting for you to speak up but you
never did so I left." she said, and then she smiled. I was surprised, and
now i knew her face, reminiscent image of the very same girl I had a crush.

"anyways, the prom is actually
tomorrow, i hope it's okay with you..." i said, i placed my hand on her
cheek. "I’ll sure miss you but okay..." she said, she then smiled
after, comforting her.

This morning, i couldn't sleep, so i didn’t'
bother trying. Instead, i remembered that i have a message to give to the
principal from Anna, so i rushed at the principals office.

Surprised of my visit, she was quite
puzzled. "Mrs. McCaelum" i greeted her, with the paaper with Anna's
message, at my hand, i sat at the chair and looked at Mrs. McCaelum. Even then
i saw Anna's childhood photos on the desk.

"is there something i can help you,
Adam?" she asked after closing the book. "who is she?" iiasked
to steer away the conversation, pointing at the photoes at the desk. "She
is my deceased granddaughter; Anne Marie. She loved to play that piano at the
old music room." she said.

I then gave her the parchment, and she was
shocked to death, recognizing Anne's penmanship, and her style of literary
writing.

"i don't know how you knew these
but..." she said but i interruped.

"i met her, and she told me to give her
this to you"

i then continued, "her spirit resides
at that piano above, every night, all instruments at the music room will be
fixed to perfect condition, and every night, i would play music together, she
even taught me how to play the piano" i said.

"Impossible..." she said, as she
faced down Anne's photo. She then snapped and laughed. "oh... I know what
you're doing!... Yes, you are catching up on the april fools joke!...",
she then laughed after. "Okay you got me..." she continued.

"Um... I don't joke... She talks to
me... And i can prove it... But maybe the next night!" I asserted myself, her
false smile was now gone and she sent me out. I then went to my room and wrote
a note for Anna; "she didn't believed me... ", and I left it on the
piano.

Prom night, I’m really bored. To top it all
off, it was violent rave party, blasting speakers everywhere, beats so powerful
that even my chest bumps ,epilepsy inducing light and lasers, I’d rather be at
the music room, but sadly I was required to go here. I didn't even get to use
all I learned dance from Anna. "Might as well go, this night sucks anyway,
I’ll just go visit Anna", I said to myself as I left the prom, I then
removed my necktie and untucked my polo on the way up.

On the stairs, I overheard a woman, it was
Mrs. McCaelum, and she was calling Anna, my note was on her hand. Instead of
greeting her, I hid and observed. She was getting tired of calling and
standing, so she sat on the piano seat. She rested her arm and upon the piano,
and on her surprise, it sounded, she fell on the floor as if she just survived
a heart attack.

I rushed in and assisted her up and my
glasses fell, she looked at me as if she saw a ghost, she was speechless and
terrified. Behind her, I saw Anna, but even without my glasses to see her
right, Mrs. McCaelum could not see her. She then left quietly, but in a hurry.

I heard her crying, like she regrets
something, so I went and ran to go and bring Mrs. McCaelum back, but without my
glasses, I tripped down the flight of stairs, and on the ground, as my eyesight
fade, I can see Anna's face in front of me, crying, she held my hand.

A day after, I woke up in an empty room,
not even my family came. I mustered my strength and sat down, and I decided to
look through the window.

Suddenly I noticed a pickup truck, hauling
every instruments, i then rushed down to stop it. As i reach the gate, the
truck left, so I ran with every strength left in me. After a while, i reached
the back end, but suddenly I opened it, and then the instruments fell from
behind, even the piano.

Upon my wake, i saw the piano over lifted
me, though i can't feel any pain, even when my bones pierced though my skin, out
and exposed, my wound from yesterday opened. As i look up the beautiful
blizzard of the blue sky, the gentle falling of the snow, to my face.

For the last time, I saw Anna over me, she
was crying, then there is the driver and passenger including Mrs. McCaelum
looking over me. After i returned my attention to Anna, she leaned towards me
and kissed me, then finally everything went dark, as if i was falling to sleep,
gently.

At Anna's home, a beautiful mansion, the
piano was resting at her very own room, and there we are, ghosts that fell in
love, and together we play the piano and we will spent an eternity, it never
was about the music, it was about her, being with her for all eternity, and
finally, I found my heaven, it's her. Her smile is so... liberating.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

"Follow me as I continue to search that dim star above the overwhelming lights of the busy city that denies its existence."

Starring:

Jasmine (Not her real name, but an alias for her protection)

Me

"I guess summer is going to burn after all", that is what I said as I woke up from my dream; quite unusual and a trivial one.

In my dream, I found myself in front of a classroom door, all i remember about it is painted brown, and I did not saw a doorknob; i might've overlooked, or rather i entered the room too quickly to notice.

As I enter, I saw a couple of chairs with desks, quite similar to the format of common Japanese classroom table on my left side.

In front of me was a two-staged bookshelf that was standing adjacent to the wall with its broad side, the books are colored but weren't labeled.

On my right side was an elevated platform made of wood and a teacher's desk sitting on the center, oddly though it does not have a blackboard attached on the wall, nor i remember windows within.

I remember seeing a couple of girls around, but what is actually important and got burned on my mind was her; " Jasmine". I wouldn't normally approach her, mainly because of the anxiety; the fear, and the fact that I was friend zoned, but risked then lost her as my friend, though i talk to her when I needed something, only when it's purely business or something important to me. She talks to me in casual like I was still a friend but i know that she is just putting up with me and just acting nice for the sake of looking nice, but that is it.

About her, she was a great girl and most importantly a friend few years ago, when i was a second year at year 2009, a writer just like me, we have something in common, so we became friends. But then when she changed, from a writer to a feisty "fashonista" as she claims; she gave up writing, and everything follows down the toilet.

But anyways, I approached her, she was talking with another girl, bent and leaning at the table with her hands, but I only remember the long black hair, in fact I think it was a mannequin. At this dream, Jasmine was in a cute white dress, a blue jeans, but I can’t remember whether a brown or white high-heeled shoes.

She straightened her body, stood correctly and talked to me. And then in the middle of our conversation, she went and leaned at the teacher's table.

I asked her of the item we talked about, but then she could not get it after all for me. I remember that she told me an item she bought from another friend which I thought to be "Katrina", telling me just to buy from a store; i remember the first word of the item she bought being :"Princess" but I forgot the rest, she told me that it only costed her "1550 PHP", but of all prices, why "1550", and notice that it is not something that is commonly used like within the range of "2,3,5,10,50,75,100,125,150..." but rather an uncommon number "1550".

I asked for it again and kind of pleaded for it, but she said "I can't help you" and she seems irritated, she then went down the platform and tried to walk away, but then i grabbed her by the shoulder and pulled her back, and then in a blink of an eye, I hugged her.

Upon my surprise, she didn't fought back, she didn't pushed me or yelled. She just held me by the side of my abdomen with both hands as I hugged her, figures maybe her arms were caught stuck as i hugged her. She asked me: "what now?”

And then suddenly everything darken, and in my eyesight, as if the game from a console was paused and the menu was shown, but all I remember seeing was two choices in white, below was a blurred sentence, whilst above reads "I guess summer is going to burn after all", I figured that its somehow like a game, and I was presented a choice of what to say, yet I didn't had a choice, never did. As I decided chosen words, it turns red, and in the real word I really spoke of the sentence as I wake up; "I guess summer is going to burn after all".

"I guess summer is going to burn after all", I don't get it, but it's trivial so it fascinates me. Although the impossibilities about her kind of struck me the hard way: she must've yelled or pushed me away when i hugged her, or rather she should have fought and resisted when i grabbed her shoulder to get her attention. She somehow accepted the hug i forced to do so on her, why?

I guess Sigmund Freud would be laughing at my dream, but then i don't get what's funny or anything that gives me a clue of what could those impossibilities or the trivial quotation means, but i know that all those impossibilities were the things I want; Closure.

"I guess summer is going to burn after all"; to this very day and probably beyond, i live in solitude, away from physical contact from anyone as much as possible.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Save a penny for a rainy day,
and pray for it to be washed away.
Stare up high up the sky,
and let the stars catch your eye.
The frozen Chirstmas Eve
is warmer than you believe,
if you believe..

Sunny Nights, from Chistmas lights,
oh what a delight.
The intoxicating atmosphere,
Surging everywhere around here.
The lights are so bright,
seen from the satellites.
Turn That frown Upside Down,
ANd Believe, for it's christmas Eve,
It's Christmas eve.

Yesterday is history,
tomorrow is mystery,
but know what today meant,
for it's a present!

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Feel the plane, permates all inside,
see the logic fight and collide.
Chaos theory and fate it seems,
but i can make anything happen,
in my... dreams...

Cause the sights,
are seen by the satellites,
at the coldest nights,
from slowest flights.
At the high leves of the skyscraper,
of the city of stars.
It seems insane, but
i wrote my wishes in this paper, airplane.
bright light light, of the dark night,
shines above the clouds.
The pillows so soft, held aloft,
rustling without a sound.

Dreamscape of the wonderland,
questioned it's architectural design,
things never seems dull or bland,
the sun forever shined,
on the other side.
Now that i have seen my Binary Heaven,
and i prefer to stay,
gaze upon the programs i've written,
and watch the fireworks on display.
In here i can be what want to,
i can make everything true.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Does it have to pass us by?
The time it takes to say goodbye.
Remember the good times we had,
and when ever we're sad.
we'll always have each other to go to,
we could always get help from you.
oh if we can only see,
your next journey,
on your side we'll always be,
because you always helped me,
we are forever family.

- The 6th Messenger

to the Site admin and creator of Warcraft 3 Unlimited, Zerox.
We will always remember you.

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We are artists who paints the world with words.
When i have the urge to write, to do it, i would do it. otherwise i would feel incomplete, that i cant sleep at night.
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