Well, the anxiety and sadness/depression has gotten the best of me... I started Zoloft last night. Low dose, 50mg. No side effects from it "yet". I'm hoping this will really help. Treat the anxiety, and my pain should hopefully go down too. Vicious cycle we live in isn't it....

My hysterectomy surgery is in exactly 2 weeks. So much going on. Just finding life to be overwhelming and sad these days. I have so much to be thankful for, but I'm finding it hard to have the joy. My rheumy saw me yesterday and she said she's never seen me in this kind of mental state before. Even after my stroke in 2002, I was so much healthier in every way. She also was surprised at how bad the Fibro is right now. It's never been like this, ever.

I just needed to share with you guys. You know how it is, no one else knows. I don't know anyone else in my family or circle of friends who have any chronic illnesses. Isn't that amazing? No wonder I feel so incredibly alone.

If there is anyone here who believes in God and our saviour Jesus, could I ask for some prayers? Thank you everyone,

GinnyI can do anything through Jesus Christ who strengthens me. I have learned in whatever state I am in,to be content. Phillipians 4:11-13