I sit here unable to think
Obstructed by life’s past transgressions
Unknown to those about me
But the Father plainly knows
Forgiveness is present
But at times I long for the innocence
Of the time that has long since gone
No one would ever want to live that life again
But then, could that really be true?
All would chance to do it again
If they could just hold to their knowledge of the present
None would pass on such opportunity
The mistakes that could be forsaken
Those things we wish we had done
Suddenly “what if's” fill the mind
A longing to set things right
Begins to ache in the soul
Yearning for childhood
I myself would be man enough to admit
For many things would I do differently
But as well, I would confess some things,
Though try may I
Would inevitably remain the same
For youth was fun
Yet filled with sin
I dare not change too much
For pains of the past create who we are today
Lessons learned that would be lost
What a paradox I now behold
I cannot fix the past without changing today
And though I know who I was
I have no idea who I would be
Without the bad times to temper the good
So once more
I sit here unable to think
Obstructed by life’s past transgressions