I fell in love with this man
it must've been the things he didn't have to do that got me
it must've been the smile or maybe it was how safe I felt with him
he didn't even have to say much
it was like the most instant connection
so I fell in love with this man
he made me more selfless
he made me more giving
he made me want more with myself
by him just being there
listening to everything I said whether I blabbed on for hours or not
so I fell in love with this man
showed me off to all of his Friends & family
those hugs he gave me from the back when I wasn't expecting him
the look in his eyes right before he kissed me
it was beautiful
most importantly he made me feel beautiful
the only one to ever compliment in a relationship
so I fell in love with this man
who didn't have the world to give but somehow always managed
to make me happy.
And I didn't want anything more from him
of course the basic things, like a home and maybe a family one day
so I gave him everything I possibly could and I thought he appreciated it.
he did
he loved everything I did for him
but it wasn't enough
it wasn't so much of what I didnt do that bothered him
it's what he didn't do for me
or what he thought he didn't do for me
so this man fell in love with me
but he wasn't happy with himself
he couldn't provide the way he wanted to
even if he tried
it seemed that all the milestones he did were simple to me
felt as if he wasn't doing much for himself
he wasn't happy with himself, but he held on to me. for as long as he could.
so he fell in love with me
the girl who put him before her
the one who made sure he ate
the one who didn't worry about how much she spent on him bc love had no cost
he fell for her
she was different than anyone he's ever been with
the others didn't care or make much of an effort for him
but he let me go
not for any wrong reasons but bc he wanted to do more with his life
he wants to get out of the depression that he's in
I know depression very well I know how hard that is
he's not happy with the road he's been on
but I know he loves me
And I know we love each other deeply
And as hard as it is to let go..it's only for now I hope
I have faith in us
And even though I'm not sure what the future holds
I know I hold his heart and he holds mine
whatever the future holds for us he'll always have my heart