Thursday, 29 November 2012

Happy and Free!! Finally!!

It’s over! It’s over! It’s over! 2012 is over for me. My
self imposed, year long house arrest is over. My time being grumpy is over. The
anxiety period is over. The uncertainty is over. In other words, the bloody
post graduate entrance examinations are over! I’m not
going to be a zombie anymore, I have liberated my heart. Yes, you heard it
right, my heart, you can speak now for it’s time for the logical mind to take rest and watch you have fun.

What shall I do now? I’ll begin with laughing and crying out loud for everything that happened in the last one year. It was difficult not
reacting to anything but I did it. Whenever the heart wanted to talk about pain
or wished to do a ‘Mr Bean’ dance, the mind would ask it to shut up and not
distract it from focussing on the vision. At times the heart would get upset
with the mind and the mind, after a lot of pleading would let it write
something or listen to some music. Was that difficult? Yes!

What next? I’ll have a talk with the knight and convey his
message to his lady love (that’s going to be my next poem). I WILL get the
guitar repaired, learn it and sing to my heart’s content. Then I have a huge
list of books to read. Oh yes, I’ll go out often. To Full Cirle, Café Turtle
and the Daryaganj Sunday Book Mart. Heavenly places they are. I’ll be meeting
my soul sister, friend, guide and philosopher, Mayurakshi Ba ( you call ‘Ba’ to
an elder sister in Assamese) and resume those never ending conversations over the phone with all my good friends.

Soon my brother would be home and we are going to have so
much fun. Bake a lot, eat a lot, sing a lot, record a lot and of course talk a
lot. After a really long time, the whole family would be together this Christmas
and New Year eve. After ages, I’ll have no sword hanging over my head
during the festivities. Ah! I’m euphoric!! Time to pack my bags for I’m flying
off tomorrow to meet my extended family.

Hold on, hold on! The best part of this day was, as I stepped out of the
examination hall, the winter rain, the lovely fragrance of the flowers carried by the chilly wind embraced my soul and thus
approved of my freedom and happiness! I am glad my year ended this way. I don't know about the results and the next course of action. For a change, they don't matter. The next month would be definitely better. Cheers to life and the joie de vivre!