Poetic Journey in Personal Discovery

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Live mirror…
Activated by the tears of momentary regret and hopelessness.
Spaces between are the clarity of needed renewal,
and the brilliant light of optimistic potential.
My crashing life held in tact by both the real and illusory branches of the shedding trees.
There is motion.
I am part of this moving ecosystem.
The rhythmic echoes sustain me.
The live mirror is life.
I am alive.
And I will move forward.

The Obvious and The Hidden is one of my favorite blogs to follow. The titles that are applied to his amazing photography are perfection! I was searching through the history, since it’s been a good while that I’ve been on wordpress, and I went to May 10th- my sobriety date (2014). Note: this photo may be found in 2015. I was moved to remember that day and combine it with the success of today when writing this piece- a little over 17 months clean/sober and feeling great! I kind of dropped off wordpress at that time. Which is crazy!!! My, how time flies!! I was soooo active before. Miss all you guys. Trying to jump back in. Peace to you all.

I happened to run into a person I knew on an acquaintance level in AA- at a hospital AA meeting. This is not a meeting I go too. She is inpatient for detox and drug/alcohol rehab. There is more to the back story, but in general our reconnecting seemed quite supernaturally guided. Hope you are all well.

Witness to a familiar despair.
Eyes filled with tears, yet void of hope.
Questions swirling in unorganized fury.
Where to from here? You do not know.

These recent “relapse poems” were written while I was in active drinking/using. I’m feeling much better today. I did not lose all I learned in the one year, three months, and five days I was clean/sober. I have to start the counter again… But I’ve learned so much. Thanks for reading guys. Much love.

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A journey can be described as the interim experience between two places. I consider the journey I’ve been on thus far in my life, and I find myself with a surprising level of peace with what has been, and hope for what is yet to be. I’m perplexed to see these words spilling onto this page, and to know they actually come from a place of genuineness inside of me. My journey, as most involved in the human experience, has been riddled with hardships. Unfortunately, those hardships have always upstaged the many simultaneous blessings I’ve known. I was always running so fast that I never really took time to appreciate the good things in my life… I mean, deeply appreciate them. Recognition and passing nods don’t count much for appreciation! As a person in long term recovery from alcoholism and drug addiction I am finding that ceasing my fast pace escape methods and embracing a slower speed is changing everything for the better. That's ALL God if ya know me!
A huge part of my journey includes spiritual growth and discovery. God and I are much more than acquaintances now, and what an amazing difference. I've always tried to do everything on my own (and what a royal mess). I'm listening to counsel now and learning surrender.
I hope people who visit here, by sharing in my experiences, past and present. Part of life is figuring things out as I go. We all have to go through hard times and grow and change accordingly. The fact that we are able to go “through” and reach the other side is a gift. There is much to grasp in this life. The concept of an open forum where people all over the planet can share their thoughts, ideas, and beliefs excites me. The collective-experiences of individuals navigating their own unique quests, combined with the added benefit of finding common threads within- how amazing! Hope you enjoy peeking inside my journey from time to time!
Blessings and Beauty,
Elizabeth