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Saturday, February 25, 2012

somehow between the writing of our letters to each other
Girlie grew distant from me...its hard to keep a long distance relationship
i cant stand her absence, I was lonely everytime that I dont even get to see her
and then the last letter from girlie arrived

Dear Ricky,

I hope your fine right now! i know that this distance is just tearing us apart
i have found already my new happiness to someone who could give me more
time and love..i cant wait for you..i know that your job right now is far more
important than anything else, i knew you did this for your parents and siblings
please take care of yourself...this will be my last letter to you
Im getting married on tuesday..june 11, 1987
I hope you'll forget me soon

Girlie

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I was devastated of what I have received, she didn't knew that this wasn't
just because i wanted the whole world that i can have a job
and my education has contributed me something...it wasn't just that...
I was hoping that she understand that i also did this because i can see our
future together..

I kept myself busy...i drowned myself working just to keep myself
and my mind free from thinking about her...until it takes some time when
there's this moment that i could say "wow! i wasn't thinking about her!"
Girlie became a memory to me....it was like she was just a dream that never happened
I was at the seashore

I suddenly felt this emotion of loneliness...

i shouted as loud as i can...i called for the love ones i left in my home

i miss them so much...I have once thought of going back...but it was just

3 months...i received the challenge...and i took it seriously

I built my own routine living in this strange country

after several months more...I become one of them...

I gained more friends...rode bicycle all over the city...it became my second home

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

"My heart may die but my love will live forever"
I have made this vow to my wife unto our wedding day
and until now Im still in love with her..
but I wasn't with her around...because I died...
I am Rick Im a bastard and always drunk,
I fell in love with the most beautiful woman in the world
her name was Laila...I met her in Qatar....

I am 23 at that time and I am hopeless
I graduated and passed my licensure exam but i was nothing
but a stay at home guy...I never looked for a job
I have a girlfriend at that time, her name was Girlie
she worked at a bar as a strip dancer...i would always get here
after she work...she always pays the bill whenever we eat on restaurants
she's also a single mom, she got pregnant with a customer who stalks her

My mother was very cruel to me...its as if I was never really her son
I thought i was an adopted, but i never opened any conversation to them about it
I am different among my sibblings...I never looked like them
One day, my older sister pushed me to get out to my room
and have my own life that Im starting to age and at this time
I should have a job...and so I applied to be a driver in Qatar

I went to the agency office with Girlie...
I was interviewed..

interviewer: "Good morning! Im Laila, what's the job you're applying?"
Ricky: Driver
Laila: I see...but your a Registered Mechanical Engineer
Ricky: I just wanted to have a job...any kind of job
Laila: Well, we have a vacancy for Mechanical agency..I'll refer you to them
Just take this exam, if you passed..we'll give you the sets of requirements that
you have to give to us.

I left with Girlie..but from that day, I cant stop thinking about Laila.

I passed the requirements, and I searched for Laila
but I just learned from their co-worker that she already resigned.

I flew to Qatar, I left Girlie...she promised me and I also promised
to her that we will write each other through letters..

Monday, February 13, 2012

Ive been broken lately!
is that a good inspiration??
not really for me
I could write and make stories..if I feel happy

and since its valentines day!!!!!!!!
im searching for a particular incident that would
tickle my imagination through and through
to make my butt sit down and write that moment
that will swept off my feet...

Whenever I write I put my speaker off
and headphones ON...and feel only the music and me
and listen to my brain what is telling while it dictates my heart
how would I feel

happy valentines day everybody!!!!
make me inspired by following and commenting on my stories..!^_^

Im very happy that my wife is doing fine but year after year
I felt that she's already slipping away with me
one day she wrote me a letter that we have to have divorce
I wrote back to her...I told her I am not going to do that
she wont even answer my call
her mother is also unresponsive...

its been 3 years...I told her im going to see her
I reserved a plane to her country
but I didn't received any reply
I thought she would be excited to see me in the airport or
like came to see me there...

I went to their house and I met her mom
she welcomed me...
she asked me to stay on Mina's room
I asked her where she is!
her mother told me she'll be here anytime soon
so I waited and looked around her room
it was dusty..and its like the things were not used at all
then I saw this box, I opened it! and saw tons of letters
I read them one by one

everything was a lie

until I read the last letter...

"Ivo, I could be gone by this moment! forgive me i didn't tell you the truth

I wasn't strong without you...I should've be with you...the pictures I told you

that I have been to several places were edited...I did all the letters in one day

because I really missed you a lot..and I cant help myself but talk to you through

this letter..Im sorry..I wasted your time waiting for me..im sorry for all the lies

but the part where i really LOVE YOU is the truth and the best part of my life

you are the most special thing that has ever happened to me, I always dreamed of

being married, and you made it come true, you were my dream and forever it will be

I dont want to stop writing this letter because this will end...and i dont want this to be

the last thing you'll ever heard of me...Life has snatched me away from you

and I needed to disappear for you to move on...4 words you were my destiny"

I arranged the letters, and went out of her room

her mother wasn't there so i went home immediately
my life was empty...I felt like I have broken one of my arm
and I can not function..I grew old...I adopted a beautiful girl
and named her Mina...as I missed her so bad..that I needed someone
to be with and I needed to call her name everyday as I live
I would tell my little mina how her mother sings beautifully
I also read her the letters she gave to me...I hav lived and now
I am exactly near to the end...I cant wait to see her again
Im not afraid to die...because I know I have someone to be with in there
and this time it will be forever
I am Ivo and this is our story...she was my music and I was her destiny.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

I was raved with anguish...
I am so mad that I came home with that frowned face
Ivo went over to sit beside me and had the nerve to ask
"what's wrong with you?"
I looked at him..and i cant utter the words
I dont even know where to start
I keep shooking my head implying "I cant do this anymore"but he suddenly stroke my hair and touched my cheeks
I feel his tenderness as he told me
"this is part of your dream to be a singer, you have to believe in yourself
not to what others believe they thought it was, look! im here..."

I gulped
as a tear cant wait to run down into my cheek
he wiped it off with his thumb
I felt saved
and for no reason, i felt like its time to give him a hug
I cant say thank you for being there
its just all I have to do is hug him
and it tells it all...

the night was over and i had my first gig in a club where
Ivo's band is performing...Im their opening act

the host introduced me
and as I was called to be on stage
I can already hear the "BOO's" of the audience

The spotlight turned on...and I cant see nothing but darkness
but Im still hearing the boos and words i dont understand
I turned back and saw Ivo
he nodded to me and said "you can do it!"

I handed over the microphone
and started to sing

♫ I am made to sing a song

Ive been

watching all along

one more step

I am going on

but I cant live all alone ♫

♪ I have made my dream come true

but I am nothing

without you

Ive gone so fast

to be in this

is it hard to trust

to me

I am made to sing a song

but with you

I am so strong

one more step

i am at ease

one more step

to earn your heart

near to me ♪

and suddenly i heard the people screaming my name

and that was my last performance on the stage

I passed out

and I couldn't lift my arm

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Ivo rushed to get Mina and get her a medical assistance as soon as possible

Ivo was terrified....He cant be with mina in the hospital, his show must go on