5. Keep This A Secret

I enetered school feeling diffrent Feeling as if i was a terrible person I am a terrible person, I cheated on my boyfriend I feel horrible every time he touches me, because i dont diserve his love I usually shrug him off, and when i get home spend time with joey we havnt kissed since that night, and my moms usually home when hes around I looked around to not find Destery where he usually is "Hey boobear, Des said he cant come to school" I frowned and she sighed "I guess were alone at lunch" "I guess so" i said with a hint of sadness "Well ima get to Mr. Burts class early, you know how he is" I nodded and she gave e a hug befor walking off "Hey, wheres lover boy?" Joey asked and i rolled my eyes "Out sick" I said and he smiled and leaned on the locker next to me "What are you doing!?" I whispered/yelled He gave me a questioning look I dragged him outside and he still looked confused "You cant be seen with me remember!" I yelled and he nodded "We cant tell anyone about...what ever 'this' is" I said gesturing between us "Ok fine, but what are we gonna do?" He said and pulled me closer to him I sighed and put my head on his chest "I have no idea" He kissed my head and i moved away "Ill be at your window by 9, you better be awake" He said looking in my eyes I nodded and he walked away I walked the opposite way and walked to class

"Mrs. Heart, i suspect you have something to excuse your lateness?" I sighed and sat down without answering "Mrs. Heart, im speaking to you" He said a little bit more sturn "Im on my fucking period , there! Theres an answer!" I answered and everyone store at me Joey turned around and smirked at me I laughed a tiny bit and Mr. Burt narrowed his eyebrows "Do you want detention mrs. Heart?" He asked and i furrowed my eyebrows I felt carries eyes burning into my skull. "Ok back to the lesson" He said and i felt a hand on my knee. I smiled and joey took it away to start the lesson

I looked out at the sky while me and Carrie talked under the tree Lunchtime is my relaxation time "I think i want to be a tattoo artist" Carie said and i smiled "Youd be one hot tattoo artist" She smiled and i sat up taking a bite out of my apple "Why are you not eating Marzia" Carie whispered and i shrugged "Its been like this for a while, im never hungry" ,i said quietly I felt my phone go off and i looked at the text From destery: I Miss You BabeThe another message popped up From Joey: You look beautiful in the sunset