Feeling intense! Feeling consumed!

Uncovering something. Deep situations.

MOON PHASE: START TO GET THE BALL ROLLING

Take a step forward.

Get things moving.

Broadcast it. Time for ACTION.

NUMEROLOGY VIBRATION

1:Energy is moving towards and igniting the themes of the other numbers.

2: Needing to come together and bridge two perspectives. Work to create an understanding or peace from what is going on around you.

3: Something is being shared or communicated today. Expect lots of movement, potentially positive or negative.

Well hello SATURDAY!

Okay so I wondered if the galaxy archway would still be here and it is! I thought it was just for yesterday but it is here and we are facing it again. But this time what I am feeling is that I don’t need to KNOW what that is all about. There is something telling us that we have this addiction to wanting to know what everything means, when that WANT actually keeps us from allowing a natural unfoldment of discovery that can happen within our capable bodies.

This is like how when I ask a question, the answer comes. But I don’t ask a lot of questions because I just don’t want to know it all. I believe I will know what I need to know when I need to know it. And this keeps me from being a cocaine junkie for information. But I remember being a junkie for it when I was younger. I know both sides of this, but I know that NOT NEEDING TO KNOW IT ALL really frees you up to enjoy the moment. And I believe that my fine-tuned senses are because I allow whatever information to find me, trusting that what I need will be made known if I need it.

A few months ago I was told me that I would be able to communicate and connect with dead people in the future. And I instantly drew boundaries by saying: ONLY if it doesn’t scare me and only if it’s 100% for the good. Otherwise, I pass. (Although now I’m like, would that be so bad?? Did I respond too quickly?! Haha!) And I’ve not heard another peep about it! But seriously. We have to stop wanting it all and thinking that if we gobble up enough information out there we will be settled and content and IN THE KNOW.

We need to just BE. And I’ve been talking about this recently because with Moon Bear I was free to be and just mediate on our daily hikes. She was off doing tons of things and I could just walk and receive and process. But with Me Mo it’s nothing but high maintenance — my heeler, Cancer/Leo baby boy. There is NO meditation on our hikes. It is just me wearing him out!

So that way, that was so accessible every day, is now something I have to create time and space for. I have to make the time to be silent and to just receive. It was easy before so I was hooked up with new things all the time, but now I have to force myself to turn that off, leave that space, sit and do nothing, focus on the breath. I have to work at what I naturally did, that is no longer a regular pattern of mine. But that is not bad news, it is just something on the to do list to be corrected.

WE DO FEEL BETTER when we go into silence and just wait. Things do come. Support comes. Love comes. Insight comes. New direction comes. Faith in self rises again. But it deals in not knowing and instead just sitting and allowing with NO IDEA what can come to make this better or solve the situation.

On August 12, 2001 my Dad got hit by a car while out on the street one night and he had been in a coma for a few weeks with massive head injuries, a broken neck and shattered spine, and I was sitting in my bedroom, dazing off into space, almost not there, and then all of the sudden I heard words from a man’s voice as if he was in the same room as me say, “Go in. Take a deep breath. As you exhale, lay your hands on him.” And then silence – never to hear anything in the room like that again.

And ya know what, that next day with my Randye Mama, I walked in. I took a deep breath as I entered his ICU room. I layed my hands on him as I exhaled. And he woke from that coma. His eyes flew open the moment my hands laid on him as if I had just woken him from a nap. And they don’t give you pain killers yet when you are in a coma, and Randye, who is a nurse too, yelled for his nurse and she raced in going towards my dad’s eyes with the flashlight as he moved them and she said, “Smokey Vanzo you just earned yourself some morphine!!!” Then he got the shot and was out again. And it was squealing celebration because my dad was very known and well loved and a lot of people were in turmoil over this. The ICU was alive that day.

But at this point I knew nothing about Reiki, or even ENERGY — I did not know that word. I learned about that in 2002 when I lived in Arizona from my friend Christopher.

So don’t work so hard at trying to know, trying to figure out, using your mind to rule your life. Just don’t know and be okay with that. It clears the clutter.