chres·tom·a·thy (kr-stm-th)
n. pl. chres·tom·a·thies
1. A selection of literary passages, usually by one
author.
2. An anthology used in studying a language.
3. Another damn stupid liberal blog

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

Even Though I Try

I sat at a blank computer screen for an hour this morning, trying to come up with something compelling to write about. Instead, this song entered my head, summarizing my current situation.

So, why not record it?

I try not to personalize these songs, but I think I've been aware recently of the challenges of communication. There's a certain tragedy present for those of us who have a desire for connection with each other, but our confidence deserts us. At a party over the weekend, I was aware of the games we play with those we find desirable. One can be a student of them, but still not incorporate applied knowledge into actual experience. I feel comfortable among people with my same basic worries, anxieties, and neuroses, but we have a way of being alone together.

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Please forget the words that I just blurted out,it wasn't me, it was my strange and creeping doubt,it keeps rattling my cage.And there's nothing in this world will keep it down,

and even though I might, even though I try, I can't.Even though I might, even though I try, I can't.

Soon your things that keep, that keep me underground,so many words that I, that I can never find.If you give up on me now,I'll be gutted like I've never been before.

And even though I might, even though I try, I can'tEven though I might, even though I try, I can't

If you give up on me now,I'll be gutted like I've never been before.

And even though I might, even though I try, I can'tEven though I might, even though I try, I can't,even though I might, even though I try, I can't.Even though I might, even though I try, I can't.