Guess who's been up since 3:30? If you guessed me, you would be right. If you guessed yourself, I extend my empathy. I'm at the stage of being really really tired. And by really really tired, I mean that I'm having trouble figuring things out and forming good, quoherrent thoughts. I just know that I'm frustrated. I'm trying to make everything work, but I think this week has shown me that I may actually be experiencing some stress. Having a headache that ranks a five on the pain scale I use for RSD says a lot. Thankfully, that lasted only 48 hours. But the dizziness and sleep disturbances/inability to stay awake to take bedtime meds (I drifted of around 10:30 I think), are showing me just how glad I will be to have this semester over. But then again, I've enjoyed this experience and wouldn't change it for anything. I hope to write reflective posts about sociology, music and theology. I may right about developmental psychology, but I have a feeling that that topic will intertwine with my theology and sociology stuff.

In all, it's exciting to learn. I've stretched myself in so many ways. Personally, academically and spiritually, all of these areas have been tested and for the most point, I haven't been too disappointed. Some of that is me realizing that it is expected that I can't be perfect and that growth will take place. I am slowly learning to make peace with the areas in which I feel incompetent or inadiquett. (I can't spell...) More reflection on these areas later. Going to CSUN challenged me in so many ways, but it was so rewarding. It was way out of my comfort zone to be at a conference of that caliber, but it was so enjoyable and informative. It's started me thinking about access issues and what I can do about them. I still don't have a complete idea of what I will do for a career, but I know where to look. Okay, reflections in this area must be turned off until I am less tired.

The RSD news story has been really helpful to me already. People are talking about it with me. It's a way to start conversations. It gives people something else to relate to, and I think it will end up being very good in the long run. I wish I'd seen the story and/or video taped it to show others.

Alright... Enough self-reflective writing for a bit. I'd go do homework, but I can't think.