I guess I'm just afraid that this means that I am seeing things wrong. In the mirror, I see a thin girl, but maybe I'm not as thin as I think I am... maybe I'm actually huge, maybe I've gained ten pounds and there's no way of me knowing! Ahhh stupid Ed.

Okay, I'm going to do it - I also just remembered that I'll be boarding a plane to NYC on Friday, and for a week and a half I will not be able to really count or measure, so this one-day challenge is going to turn into a week and a half challenge for me! A whole WEEK AND A HALF of not measuring and counting... I'm hoping when I come home, I won't have to count and measure anymore! Eep! COME ON WE CAN DO IT!

2. How long did you have an ED? How long have you been in recovery?I've had my ED for a year and a half, been in recovery for nearly the entire time but only REALLY started recovery two and a half months ago

3. What made you decide to recover?I realized that I did not want to live my life the way I was living my life. Starving, bingeing, constantly hating myself... I didn't want it.

4. How supportive are your friends/family?Extremely. My family is the biggest support system I have.

5. How many calories are you eating now?Anywhere from 1200-1800.

6. The biggest challenge you have faced during recovery?Eating more than I am comfortable with and dealing with the guilt without restricting.

7. At what weight did you (or are hoping to) get your period back?BMI of 18.5

8. How long did it take for bloating to go away or for the weight to redistribute?Few weeks

9. Things you have learned about yourself?I love myself

10. What your goals are for your health for the future? No more ED at all. I want it GONE.

S: 1 cup granola muesli cereal with dried fruit and nuts mixed in with one cup of almond milk, a glass of coke zero and gum

Wow, ate a lot today. I have a weigh-in tomorrow and I'm kind of stressing about it, so I'm eating more just to make sure... still, I hit 2,000 for the first time in months today and it's freaking me out. Ahh.

Just got home from a week-long camp-type thing with my family. We go every year but I missed out on last year because of my ED, so this was a huge challenge for me! Thankfully the kitchen staff were extremely considerate and made me vegan meals and desserts. I had such a great time and even though ED was screaming the first couple of days, I mellowed out and became more okay with it all as the week progressed.

Pre-B: Cream Earl Grey tea with Splenda (bought this tea at a coffee/tea shop that also sells antiques... it's deelish!)

B: a cup of Raisin Bran cereal with granola mixed in, a peanut butter and strawberry jam sandwich and a glass of orange juice