I will laugh at the world. No living creature can laugh except man. Trees may bleed when they are wounded, and beasts in the field will cry in pain and hunger, yet only I have the gift of laughter and it is mine to use whenever I choose. Henceforth I will cultivate the habit of laughter.

—Og Mandino The Greatest Salesman in the World

This particular scroll is amazing. It honestly couldn’t have come at a better time for me. My outlook and attitude have improved dramatically in this second week of reading this scroll.

I am learning to laugh at what would normally bother me. Laugh and shrug off things that would under normal circumstances bring me to tears. “This too shall Pass” is a simple yet poignant statement. Seems trivial when someone else says it to you. But when you read it, over and over again in the context of this scroll it begins to sink in and give you perspective on things, on happenings, on events in your life as they occur. I’ve begun to realize, and maybe I knew this before, well, honestly, I did know this before, but it’s become apparent again to me as I read and reread it daily that it’s true.

What do some of the things that happen on a daily basis, to and around you, really have to bear on the outcome of your life? If it’s trivial let it go. If it hurts, let it go. If it really stings and brings you to your knees, pray or meditate while your down there and get up and Let it go! Laugh it off and realize…when you look back on today…if you can even remember it a month from now…you will realize that you might have learned something or that whatever it was is insignificant now.

Laughter…nature’s cure. God’s medicine that needs no prescription. No such thing as too much of it. It’s free for goodness sake. Amazing! and… Works for everyone! I recommend it for sure.

Oh and while your at it, laughing that is…GET OUTSIDE and enjoy the wonderful weather that we are having…ok? Maybe not so where you are? Sure it is! It’s better than cold dreary winter. Find the good. Celebrate the good. Laugh at what you cannot change and remember it will pass, because I promise you…it does pass!

So we have come to the point in this Journey where we have been set free like a little bird to fly from the nest. We have been given the tools, the tips and the knowledge to take it from here.

The question is: Will we take it from here? I know I will. It will be difficult holding my feet to the fire and making sure that I complete my daily tasks knowing that nobody is “watching.” It can get easy to slack off when you are on the “honor” system. But I won’t let that happen.

We’ve all done it before though. We say: “Of course I did my work. Of course I studied. Of course I’m still doing my sits.” Well, I must tell you the biggest thing you can do is to look into that mirror every night and talk to the Guy or the Gal in the Glass and really tell them the truth. Because they know already. They can read you. They can feel you. You cannot fool them. And when you are able to tell the Guy or the Gal in the Glass the truth you’ll feel so much better.

I love that we are beginning a new scroll. They each seem to come at the appropriate time in my Journey. The first few days the scroll is confusing and awkward but as the month progresses it gets more familiar and then easy and then insightful. I really enjoy reading them. They help to put things into perspective and give an understanding of what is truly important in life.

I’m still working on my service cards and doing my Affirmations and being grateful and thankful. My Blueprint and DMP are still in place and I recite them daily as directed. It’s like good medicine. You can’t quit before the benefits kick in. This type of “medicine” takes a long time to get the full benefits and I plan to keep on keeping on.

I will miss the weekly webinars and the guidance. I will miss the accountability and I will miss the comradery that we shared in the members area. We will still be able to engage but I know the number of participants that will continue on this on their own will decline. It’s ok, though. They have to do what works for them and continue on their own Journey. Each of our Journeys are separate and different but no less important than any other’s. I’m so glad that I found this course and have been able to keep up with it. It was difficult at times with all that was going on in my life. It will be difficult still. But I have a deeper commitment to myself and know that I deserve to get to the other side. I deserve to meet the girl that’s been in there buried for so long. I get glimpses of her now and then but she’s is still soooooo very timid. I’ll continue to try to coax her out and get her to see that this is where she belongs. She belongs out in the open. She deserves to live. Deep down she doesn’t want to hide anymore. I know that. She knows that. Soon enough she will have all the courage she needs to just BE!

Being able to BE is one of the most difficult things for people to do. Well, at least in my experience. In everything that has shaped me I’ve been told to bury me and not to BE. But this course has shown me that that is exactly the opposite of what I should be doing. So for 25 weeks I’ve been chipping away at the cement that encompasses me and have been learning to BE. It’s a daily process and the cement is so THICK but each day it gets just a little thinner.

Each day I get a little closer to the Me I long to BE. The Me that can just BE.

Twenty Four weeks…! Holy Cow! That’s some bit of time! I’ve been working the Master Keys for 24 weeks now. It’s been long. It’s been hard! It’s been rewarding and confusing, exciting and frustrating! Such a bevy of emotions. Yet each one of them worth it. I’m by no means finished with this Journey. I know the actual guided lessons are ending but the real work begins now. What can I continue on my own? What more can I accomplish? What more of me is there yet to discover?

The answer?! A LOT! A WHOLE LOT! I’ve only just begun! I know that! I accept that even! Actually, I’m glad I’ve only just begun because I know I’ve come far but I also recognize that there is still so much farther for me to go. I’m not overwhelmed with that idea. I relish the Journey in a good way. It’s not like I think that I’ll never get there. Because I know that I will. I get glimpses of the final me and she is in there. She’s a bit frightened and timid to come out. But she’s getting closer everyday. I’m proud and excited by what I’ve been able to accomplish so far but I’m even more excited for the work ahead.

A ton of stuff has happened around me over these 24 weeks. I’m glad I’ve had this course to keep me busy and keep me focused on figuring out what I really want because it’s easy to get SUCKED into the drama that goes on around you and easy to lose sight of what you want. I’ve been “forced” to think about what I want on a daily basis and I’m glad to have had that at this time in my life. So many people get caught up in the little stuff that goes on in life and it makes them lose sight of what they truly wanted in life, of what they were truly capable of getting out of or putting into life. I know. I can speak from experience. Before you know it ten years have gone by and you look back and realize that you’ve been going through the motions for a DECADE.

Are you kidding me? Are you one of those people? Don’t despair. You can change. The first step is awareness. And if you’ve just become aware then GOOD for you! Go back to my first blog from week one and begin reading. Go find out what this Master Key system is all about. You’ll love it.

Today, I was driving in the car, (if you’ve been following me you’ll realize I get a lot of thought done in the car), and I heard an old song by the BEE GEES and it made me think:

How Deep is your Love

‘Cause we’re living in a world of foolsBreaking us down when they all should let us be

This is a love song…but I thought about how it can be a love song about yourself…you and the real you…the you that you long to be. Why is it that people see other people doing well or working on being a better person and they want to bring you down? Why is that? It’s like society wants everyone to be miserable. I don’t want to be miserable! I have been miserable. And I have bouts with misery daily right now, but I don’t plan on wallowing in the misery like a pig in mud. I want and strive for the dry dirt on the other side. I see it. I can almost feel it. I know I can get to it…and I Will.

Right now I am on this Journey to become the Hero in my own life. This is a Journey that most of us are faced with in life. Many are unaware that it has been placed before them. Many choose not to begin the journey and just stare at it like a ship leaving shore without them. I’m not standing on the shore staring at a ship that’s left without me. I’m on the ship, I’m making the journey. At times I get caught in storms and get tossed about, up and down and swirling around. It gets tough at times and sometimes the wind drops out of my sails and I wallow and float in a standstill of time…searching for understanding and deeper meaning, looking for the answers to questions that I hold deep in my soul. And then as understanding comes….the breeze picks up and the wind fills my sails and I’m off again to the next leg of the journey, seeking to learn more during the next leg of the Journey.

I’m not sure how long this Journey will last or if it will ever end. I can’t even begin to explain to you what this course has done for me. Putting an experience like this into words can never do it justice. I do know that I learn so much more everyday. I understand so much more everyday and I long to share it with you all. I’m getting to know the real me…she comes and goes in bits and pieces right now and sometimes she doesn’t stay long. But soon she’ll trust me enough to come out of hiding and into the light…and maybe then she’ll even realize that she was the light all along and that so many have been waiting to see the beauty of her soul and let the shine in their lives.

If you see her, be kind, be gentle. Let her know it’s ok…she longs to hear from you and to shut the door on darkness forever.

Here we are at week 23 and I used to feel like I came so far since the beginnig. But this week and the last few weeks I feel like it’s a struggle. I feel like I’m backsliding. So much is going on right now. My head is very busy. I know that I’m letting the Old Blueprint have too much say, too much influence. It’s been a struggle to concentrate on the new when the Old is screaming so loudly. I try to quiet it but it keeps rearing its ugly head. Things continue going on around me that I have to control over, yet the old me still wants to try to grab control. I know I can’t get control, yet that doesn’t seem to stop me from trying.

I can see myself at the fork in the road…

Option one: take the journey to the new

or

Option two: continue on the same path. The same path, worn, yet familiar. I know what to expect. I’ve done it before. I can do it some more.

Who am I kidding? It’s a path I really can’t bear to continue on. I just can’t. Yet there is a bit of me that is paralyzed…not exactly with fear but with…I don’t know. I just don’t know! I feel the hesitation, though. I don’t want to hesitate. Yet my subby is telling me to wait here for a bit. I’m not sure if I have more things to work through that I will need to make the Hero’s Journey or if I’m putting it off. I know that I’m going to do it. I want to go through it. And I will. I know it’s going to be hard. But I also know that it is going to be soooooo worth it. I know I deserve what’s on the other side. I deserve to be the real me. The me that I’ve always intended to be. To do that I am going to have to get comfortable with being uncomfortable for a time. What I’m doing now isn’t exactly comfortable. It’s just a bit more familiar than the unknown. And frankly, it feels AWFUL! I don’t want to feel AWFUL! I don’t want to be weighed down with negative feelings.

On a conscious level, I know so much. Intellectually, I know what I deserve. I know who I am but subby hasn’t seemed to get the message yet. Or if it does it has ADHD or something. It’s letting old programming take charge. And at the most inoppertune times. Like REALLY! What are you thinking SUBBY? You need a dope slap! You need an attitude adjustment. You need to cut this OUT, NOW! Do you hear me? Excuse me?! I said Do you hear me? You will listen to me. You will focus, you will concentrate and you will build the life that you want. It will be your most important task! , (aside from breathing and autonomic bodily functions necessary to sustain me of course…please don’t forget those)! But we owe this to me! To WE! We owe it to the world, me playing small is not serving anyone.

We have some serious work still yet to accomplish. We have a lot to do! But we can, should and will do this. What was it we were reading this month in our scroll? Oh, right…

“I will be master of my emotions” -Og Mandino The Greatest Salesman in the World

I have been reading this and reading this and rereading this and I’ve known that I need to internalize it, yet again, I have been toying with paralysis on this one. I kind of liked being a slave to my emotions. It’s like they say: watching a trainwreck. You just can’t seem to stop watching. I’ve been a mini trainwreck, well maybe a medium trainwreck for a little while. And I’ve just been watching myself do it. But I tell you now. I share with you…I will be master of my emotions. It won’t happen overnight. But I promise you I will spend more of my day mastering my emotions from this moment on. No longer will I be a slave to circumstance. You hear me subby? You listen to me for a while! And when you finally understand and commit this to our new way of life then I ‘ll let you work on your own again in this regard. But only after you learn the new way of life.

We, you and I subby, have a Journey to continue on so let’s pay attention, concentrate and get to it!

Change is inevitable it is said. True. I guess. But Change can happen all around you or happen to you. There is a big difference. Some people cling to the person they’ve always been. Sure we all have great qualities that we would never want to lose but to always be, do, act and think the same means that we never GROW. This course has been all about growth. Recognizing that we have the power to effect Growth in ourselves is an amazing concept to consider. Most people think things happen to you and you either learn from them and grow or they cripple you and you shrink. In the Master Key we are taught that we can affect what happens around us. We are taught that all that is happening in your outer world is a result of your inner thinking. The world within eventually manifests into the world without and we are responsible for what that looks like.

I have to take responsibility for what my outer world looks like. I caused it. I’m living with that now. And I have been for a while. I am trying to change it.

Change happens when you affect change. It’s thought and perspective combined with action. Currently, I am on the Hero’s Journey portion of the Master Key and I feel a little bit stuck in my travels. I feel as though I am still in the same place of the Journey that I was on weeks ago and that I should be moving along. However, I realize it is the thoughts that I have within me that are causing me to stay “stuck” in this portion of my travels. I know that I am dwelling on what is going on around me. I know that I am focusing on the things that are wrong in my life. I know that I am letting other people’s actions affect my happiness. Intellectually I know that I can’t change another’s habits. I cannot change another’s thoughts. I cannot change another’s actions. That isn’t stopping me from dwelling on how it is affecting my life. I know that I want to get past this. I know that I want to move on. I know that I have to take responsibility for my own happiness yet something is holding me in this place. Must be that I have a lesson to learn here and I’m not letting the lesson come through. That’s the only thing I can think of. I can feel good for a little while and change my thoughts to happiness and then BAM! it hits again.

I don’t want to continue to feel this way but I am also trying to respect the process.

SILENCE…we were supposed to try to take some time for SILENCE this week. The most I could manage was about two hours. I yearn to take more time for myself. To take more time to just be.

I feel like I am on the edge of an abyss with a tightrope in front of me. There’s only one way across and falling is not an option. I’ll have to take it one step at a time. I’ll have to plan out my steps and let the subby take over. I’ll have to focus on the task at hand and see myself reaching the other side. I can’t look down. I can’t look back. The only way is forward. The end of the rope is where stable ground lies. It’s where the world opens up again and spreads out before me.

This journey is difficult at times but I choose to continue on because I desperately want to be on the other side. The me I’m supposed to be is waiting there. She’s missed me terribly and I have missed her. Somehow we got separated a long time ago. And for a time I forgot who she was. It’s like she was erased from my memory. As this course began I began to get glimpses of her. Then I received flashbacks to our old memories. I feel her calling my name now. I hear her. Her voice gets louder daily and I yearn to finish my journey to reunite with her. I can’t rush it though. I’ve got to take the journey and complete it less I get sidetracked and lose my way to her.

We’ve waited a long time to meet again. We certainly can wait a while longer. When we do meet it will be beautiful. It will be sweet. It will be amazing. Lord knows I miss her but I wont’ rush our meeting til the time is right.

Whether I set out to do it or not this week has brought me to an exercise in PATIENCE!

Funny how you get what you need.

We’ve all heard the sayings:

Patience is a virtue.

All in good time.

Horace (65-8 BC)

At the bottom of patience one finds heaven.

Kanuri (West African) (on patience)

Good things come to those who wait.

Haste makes waste.

One step at a time.

There are so many of these little sayings. In short you need to be patient. That doesn’t mean sit around and wait for stuff. It means put in the work, keep the right frame of mind and the right things will happen.

Again, it’s been a fun, and by that I mean interesting, trying, up and down, week . I’ve been presented numerous times with the option to give in to my old blueprint and react in anger. I’ve done it a couple times but I have recovered quickly. I’m not perfect, I’m a work in progess. Some of the cement is a bit harder to remove to reveal my true self but it’s happening. Progress is good and I’m headed in the right direction for me.

So while I’ve been presented with things that try my patience this week I’ve been able to use patience as a tool to curb my anger. It’s actually quite freeing. Knowing that I can choose to be patient instead of angry. I can choose to experience patience instead of wallowing in anger. I’m really glad I have this course to help me work on my self as I go through this Journey. Mark and Davene said this type of experience would happen and I couldn’t understand how. But being a part of this course puts you in the right frame of mind to work stuff out in your head. It’s amazing, emotionally challenging and freeing all at the same time.

I choose to continue the journey. I choose to be the heroine of my own story. I choose.

You choose too. Did you know that?

Good or bad. Happy or sad. You choose.

Want to know how you can change your life for the better, how you can be the you that’s waiting to be? Join this course the next time it comes up. Experience the Master key for yourself. You deserve it. You are worth it.

OMG…it’s been a week of tears as lots of truths become evident. My head is spinning and I’m not sure which way is up.

It’s been an emotional week. I didn’t expect this. I didn’t plan it. It has been a bit overwhelming. I’m coming through but it’s going to be a process. It’s going to be a big part of my journey.

You can’t control what always happens to you at all times but you can control how you REACT! I know this yet I am using the emotions to get to a deeper understanding of myself…of my life.

We talked this week about using tools. My emotions have been my tools this week…I’ve got a huge toolbox full of them and I’ve been pulling out ones I haven’t used in FOREVER. I’ve been happy, sad, angry, overwhelmed, elated, pained, resentful, depressed, shocked, dismayed, mournful, etc.

Just when you think that this whole Master key Experience is a done deal. A piece of cake, in the bag WHAM! More stuff starts going on with you. With your brain. The subby is commanded by the conscious so that the conscious can eventually let subby take over. I feel like there is a bit of a power struggle going on with the two right now. The Old Blueprint is fighting the DMP and I’m trying to keep the progress going forward.

I’m not worried about which will win because in the end I win. As I continue to do the work things will sort themselves out in the right in one with the Universal Mind. It’s about the Journey and its a helluva ride. Whoa! I’m holdin’ on!

However, that being said I feel as if I’m in the Land of Confusion right now, though.

For those of you that are my age you might remember the song by Genesis from the 80s. I’ve got that tune on my head as I try to sort out the mess. I’m not actively trying to sort things I’m using my sit and letting the subby work things out. But it’s going to take time. The Truth will become apparent. I’ll be the me I was supposed to be. It’s a given. It’s coming. Sometimes it’s hard to wait, hard to trust in the process. Yet I trust. I trust in the Truth.

I’ve been questioning my DMP. Does my Definite Major Propose reflect the Truth of what I really want? Am I daydreaming, wishing, or manifesting? Has it been tainted or limited by what I think might be possible or does it reflect my true heart’s desire? Am I in tune with the Universal Mind? These emotions that are hurtling through me are going to help me bring Truth to light. I know it!

Through the Rollercoaster ride this week I’ve held on and continued doing the work. It’s been extremely difficult with the range of emotions this week but I have persevered. And I’ve felt better as I’m doing the work. It’s given me something to take my mind off of what I’m going through and focus on growth and coming through this journey on a side that will help me live my life more in Truth with me!

I continue the journey and look forward to the rest of the experience.