"Everyone talks to themselves a lot, but if you’re an anxious and depressed person poisoned with thick, rich self-hatred that interior conversation is a day-long slog overanalyzing every social interaction for clues as to just how much everyone hates you."

I didn’t even know “sincerely hating myself” was what I was actually up against until getting hardcore alcoholism under control, staying sober for a year and THEN getting incredibly serious about a lifelong weight crisis. And it took months after that still.