Can’t Shake It

I’m sure I’ve talked about before, I get anxiety about things pretty easily. Things have happened in my life (that I won’t be talking about here) that may have triggered it, but it also could just be my personality. When I get caught up in things, I just can’t seem to shake them. People can tell me everything they think I want to hear, but I’ll come to my own conclusions – most of the time for the worst – and just go with that. Well I’ve currently been experiencing more anxiety about things. It’s frustrating and annoying and I try and talk myself out of it but it’s just looming over me like a dark cloud. Exercise helps a lot. It helps clear my mind and nine times out of ten I will feel better after a good run.

I think I really just need to learn to live in the now. I’ve never been good at it. I think about the future a lot and think about everything that I want to happen in the future and wanting to fast forward to that time. But I don’t enjoy the now. I occasionally mope about how I wish things were different or life would just skip a year. This year I’ve been trying to embrace the present, live in the now and just go with the flow. That’s not my personality but I think I’ve done a pretty decent job of it. I guess I’m just in a rut right now that I need to find my way out of.

So here’s to positive thoughts and trust that what’s meant to happen will happen in time.