//yes, a bit like this. a bit like this seems all of my december.work with photographs from paris.the little muse who’s growing up in front of my lens.still, small collections on the leather daybed.pinecones on thread, wooden baubles, some gold.the scents are perhaps the very best. eucalyptus and spruce.cardamom in both coffee and lit candles make my edges soft.so many things to wrap and pack.the birthdays of beloved ones crowds with christmas.london is mostly on the wrapping paper. i stay here, by the sea.december outside is a gentle and soft grey.i feel like a balloon filled up with stillness,ever near to floating away.i’ve got a heavy cold and christmas eve, when it is celebrated in sweden,is a slow affair in kimono & knitwear, flushed cheeks & glassy eyes.the sea is raging outside the windows and the rain pour down all day.the internet wants to do mostly nothing and messes with both my intendedchristmas wishes for you, here, - & the time i imagined spendingin front of swedish television's christmas special.this year i miss those at home just lots of extra and wanted totry to be near a little bit somehow. i’m thinking how it strikes meice crystal-clear, what is the only thing that really matters.skip every single gift. i’d rather be surrounded by my loved ones,those now far away.the love that is here, in our far away, grows ever larger too,gives the scale pans balance.m has written a christmas card,a truly very f i r s t - addressed our unborn son.we both bend over it, softened, blinking over thatwith love, your mum and dad written for the very first time.it takes up pretty much all the space in the chest.we fall asleep to the old black and white it's a wonderful lifeand wake up today to yet another gently soft grey day.london will move outside of the wrapping paper as wetake the car to another family, living there.that family where evryone has dark syrup eyesand completely different ways to celebrate christmas.i think, again, that life can be so many things all at the same time.it can hurt how much you miss, but still be completely as it should be.and that completely as it should be, - that’s important. that’s home.i hope You are right where you want to be,that you have an amazingly beautiful christmas, however,wherever, - & whenever You celebrate it.with love,h