"Believe it or not, I've been waiting for you to come through." (first line of an old James Taylor tune).
Chorus has a really nice refresher... "While my friends were callin' Today Today Today".
The last dream of this morning before wakin... Read more

i had a full fledged lapse yesterday.
wow. i forgot.
i really did - it's been a long time since i did that, since i "fed the beast"
you know- THE BEAST - that bottomless well, falling falling
every bite that goes in to feed the beast... Read more

I'm stuck in places.
I AM embarking in some places.
Yet I am STUCK is some and the same-old same-old of my wheel-spinning to get something going sounds bad to me today. I don't want to spit mud and fall deeper in the same place I'm at.... Read more

just a little ditty about touch stones talismans and, well, habits:
so...
All this past year i've had a blue water bottle that started my morning.
i liked this blue water bottle especially for it's diameter, for its particular height ... Read more

Reflections of these past two days:
1) Drinking alcohol and going out to hear music (first time in eons) is fun.
2) Day-After drinking alcohol translates into leaden/heavy body (lower stamina and reduced lung capacity) as well as big 'hun... Read more

1) I've been treading water financially. Bravo on the one hand. O f*** on the other.
2) Living below my means in order to stave off anxiety has, over decades, caught up with me... and now there's less room to wiggle - and I can not forget abou... Read more

besides me. i mean. is it all me?
I'm embarrassed (ashamed of, apologetic for...) by my apartment. It goes underground most of the time. But at a few times a week or month (for years) especially when out of towners come to see me for the ... Read more

I just moved two stones into the goblet. 184.2. There are 9 stones in the little holding cup, which means I'm nine lbs from Goal #1. Wow. Goal #1 175. (Future goal 145 -- another 30 stones waiting in the big jar #2)
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I'm writing this down. Marking it. In today's paper, the Sunday section, a quotation inset for a little profile on someone or other... made me tear up, tear way up. The quote:
"(Mydad) always said, 'Jump into the river. It will just move a... Read more

SPARKING INTO 2012
Onward & Downward
Anniversary Celebration and Year Two Goals
in the works
Wow! This year feels great. And felt great, every day.
That's the miracle I see today. I'm enjoying this.
I am not confined by... Read more

Wow. Almost a year. Just a week shy of a year of Sparking.
I had a slacky sort of last few weeks.
I've been a little loose with tracking. Accurate, but the choices I've made can stand improving. I can and think I will re-consider the who... Read more

It's AAD - Ass Awareness Day (haa hhaaa ) I enjoyed inventing this acronym while dancing around with Joe at the Launderette this early a.m.
So...is it smaller? It's shrinking every day, he says to me. He's such a good sport, and such a... Read more