Sunday, May 10, 20092:20 AM

answer me! Jason, ARE YOU WEAK?

[Lil Wayne]I got the rightTo put up a fightBut not quiteCuz you cut off my lightBut my sightIs better tonightAnd I might see you in my nightmareOoooh how'd you'd get thereCuz we were once a fairy taleBut this is farewell

[Kanye West]I got my lifeAnd it's my only oneI got the nightI'm running from the sunSo good nightI made it out the door, door, door, door,doorAfter tonightThere will be no returnAfter tonightI'm taking off on the roadI'm taking off on the roadAnd letting you knowLETTING YOU KNOW

[Chorus: Kanye West]Tell everybody that you knowThat I don't love you no moreAnd that's one thing THAT YOU KNOWTHAT YOU KNOW

[Kanye West]Okay I'm back up on my grindYou do you and I'm just gon' do mineYou do you cuz I'm just gon' be fineOkay I got you out my mindAnd the night is youngThe drinks is coldThe stars is outI'm ready to goYou always thought I was always wrongWell now you know

[Chorus Kanye West]Tell everybody, EVERYBODY that you knowTell everybody that you knowThat I don't love you no moreAnd that's one thing THAT YOU KNOWTHAT YOU KNOW

[Lil Wayne]I got the rightTo put up a fightBut not quiteCuz you cut off my lightBut my sightIs better tonightAnd I might see you in my nightmareOoooh how'd you'd get thereCuz we were once a fairy taleBut this is farewell

Babygirl I'm finishedI thought we were committedI thought we were cementedI really thought we meant itBut now we just repentinAnd now we just resentinThe clouds is in my visionLook how high that I be gettingAnd it's all because of youGirl we throughYou think your *ish don't stankbut you are Mrs. P-UAnd I don't see youWith me no moreNow tell everybody THAT YOU KNOWTHAT YOU KNOW

[Chorus: Kanye West]THAT YOU KNOWTell everybody that you knowThat I don't love you no moreAnd that's one thing THAT YOU KNOWDAT YOU KNOW

L-L-L-L-LETTING YOU KNOWTell everybody that you knowThat I don't love you no moreAnd that's one thing THAT YOU KNOWTHAT YOU KNOW

my sergant has this penchant for asking us this questionwhen we're stuck on the top of the chinup bar, our arms beginning to weaken, the muscles beginning to go numb, our friends supporting our legs to push us up because we can't find that inner strength to bring ourselves up on our own ability.

sometimes we're asked to shout out name of your girlfriend, girl you like blah blah to help you make that final pull, although I have to say I've been lucky to escape that fate. (aiya jason you taf club won't have girl one)

anyway that wasn't my point.

the thing is.

after entering army I'm beginning to question myself alot, and if I'm really... well.. weak.

a wart, a crazy rash, flat feet, screwed up mentality have all led me to wonder about what a life I've had. I won't even start mentioning about how i managed to screw myself last year and how i'm worried about not getting into any Universities.

I'm not gonna get started on how my life has been falling apart and stuff and how weak I am for just watching it all fall apart.

All I can do is try, pull myself together. Maybe I should make 1 of those trips to the beach again to like plan my future. Then again we all know how well the last plan worked. HMM...

now, staring at a possible OOT, probably being unable to go through my field camp once again, I find myself asking myself..