Friday, September 9, 2011

Follwing the path to fall

Ok. Enough wallowing. Who am i kidding, of course there'll be more wallowing. I'll forever wallow. It's my blog, and i'll wallow if i want to. But. Amidst all this wallowing, what do i see? A good and proper sign of fall. A perfectly placed, "hey, you there, look here" sign, literally showing me the path that will bring me out of wallowsville.

Look at this perfect little leaf and its rain drenched outline.

"That's right", i thought to myself. This is most wonderful time of the year. I want to want to decorate my home with leaves and pumpkins. I want to link up to fall blog parties, and enjoy what others are creating. I want to be able to enjoy this delicious autumn.

Thank you, friends, for your kind words during this time of great despair.

13 comments:

When we got back home after spending the summer away & burying baby Grant... I looked at my spring mantel and I WANTED to do something... I wanted to decorate it for summer before summer was gone. So I did. It felt so good to step outside the grief and create. I hope the upcoming fall projects help you do that as well. Don't be suprised if you don't do as much as you like, just enjoy doing what you do get done. Peace to you!

I do believe in signs and this one is perfect for you. I know how much you love Fall. Decorate a little and I bet it will feel good. It is OK to feel some happiness and then wallow some more. This has been a big blow in your life. Sending you a big hug sweet girl! Linda

It's always been comforting to me to see the rest of life go on, even when I refuse to go with it... or can't go on with it, rather. I hope you're doing well, wallowing or not. Wallowing is okay. Swears.

I'm glad you have something to look forward to. That'll help as you mourn the loss of your father. I went to a funeral today of a coworker who passed away from a super short fight with cancer and I couldn't help but think of all those who we have lost this year due to cancer alone. It was in the same church as my cousin's beautiful wedding (which happened 2 days before my bro died) and so I cried more out of memory than for this older lady who led a great life, although that was sad too. Cancer is such a horrible thing and hurts the family almost worse than the patient. I hope you have some great memories of you and your dad and some pictures too. I hung up a few newer pics of my bro around my house so I could remember the good. I had a student last year who did a caricature of him and I love it. It's so goofy and silly but it captured part of his personality. THAT is how we recover and slowly begin the moving on process.

And on a more fun topic, fall is a gorgeous time of year and the options for decorating are endless! I LOVE the glittery pumpkins floating around blogland and Pinterest lately! I wanted to do one years ago but maybe I'll actually do it this year!

That was a very symbolic find. Almost maybe a message from above that you will be able to get through this, though difficult as the journey might be. I wanted to comment on your last post, but I was without words. I know how much your father meant to you, and please know it's okay to wallow. Grief comes in different forms, at different times, and sometimes you just need to let it out.

SOOOO excited to see end of the week temps in the 60s for highs! I'm not a heat person and am ready for sweatshirt weather. Yippee for falling leaves! They are starting to turn around here along with the corn and beans. Harvest will start in the next 1-2 weeks.

Sorry I've been MIA. I came over here to check on you and see if you had posted about your Dad. I'm sorry to see that he's passed. That has to be so incredibly hard for you, and I can tell from all of your posts what a strong person you are about it. He'd be proud. I hope you're able to rejoice and find happiness in his memories.

Your latest post makes me laugh :-). I have a 4 month old and I have zero decorations out. I'd better get on it for Christmas at least - I might be the worst Mom ever if I don't!!