tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-92124696819789538422018-04-21T02:44:24.482-07:00Easy GoodnessAngélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.comBlogger51125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-57044070899570841852017-08-24T04:05:00.001-07:002017-08-24T04:05:46.570-07:00Thankful Thursdays ~ Post Six<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-2a_QpPpoifI/WZ6SDcsOpDI/AAAAAAAABvc/fw8VDGPrcpwc_wwOYBqX20D-LUVdFd78QCLcBGAs/s1600/IMG_0001.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="1600" height="640" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-2a_QpPpoifI/WZ6SDcsOpDI/AAAAAAAABvc/fw8VDGPrcpwc_wwOYBqX20D-LUVdFd78QCLcBGAs/s640/IMG_0001.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">*Photo Credit Unknown; Edited by&nbsp;Angélique Dawn*</span><br /><div style="text-align: start;"><br /></div></div><b><br /></b><b>THREE THINGS I AM THANKFUL FOR</b><br /><br />1) <i>My cats:</i><br /><i>~&nbsp;</i>I have two cats that are ten and eight years old. The best thing about my cats is they don't disturb my plants (knock on wood) and they are pretty easy going kitties... I am mostly thankful for my cats because they literally give me a daily dose of antidepressant. When I can't sleep, I get up and find a cat to snuggle -if they're not already in bed with me. Then I just reach out and touch them to calm my mind or soothe my soul. I honestly can't imagine life without my furry, purry girls. They make the best roommates!<br /><br />2)&nbsp;<i>Having enough food:</i><br />~ Truth be told, I sometimes take food for granted. I occasionally waste food because I forget about it in the fridge and it goes bad. I've been trying to be more careful with how I spend my money lately. So, instead of buying take-out or over purchasing fresh produce, I've been focusing on the foods in my pantry and freezer. Now, I am so very grateful for canned and frozen goodies. I make sure every year to donate food &amp; toiletries when my work puts a few boxes together for the UPS canned good drive. I also pray that the whole world has enough food to eat.<br /><br />3)&nbsp;<i>Forgiveness:</i><br />~ I struggle every day to say the right thing. I get anxious and mix my sentences together and leave room for people to read between the lines. I react too quickly and I have hurt friends more often than I can count just because I was imperfect with my words. Then I get mad at myself and upset about the whole situation. Unfortunately, sometimes I don't see the big picture or consider how many people my words reach. But all I can really do is say, I'm sorry. I am grateful for the people who have accepted and forgiven me during those times. I am also thankful for the people I am able to forgive even when their words or actions hurt me. It's healthy to let it go.<br /><br />Regardless of anyone's intentions hurt still happens. So forgive swiftly. Forgive unconditionally. And forgive often.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">~ Namaste ~</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-26758367083693484902017-07-12T01:40:00.001-07:002017-07-14T22:31:47.615-07:00Why I Switched To Kotex Brand Liners & Pads<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-523lMu4-PVQ/WUtVR6-sYVI/AAAAAAAABus/gjqwnvVNc0EYNasRWaBshbi9dugTn3qGQCLcBGAs/s1600/KotexCoverPic.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="551" data-original-width="750" height="470" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-523lMu4-PVQ/WUtVR6-sYVI/AAAAAAAABus/gjqwnvVNc0EYNasRWaBshbi9dugTn3qGQCLcBGAs/s640/KotexCoverPic.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">*This is not a sponsored post. The claims written herein are my own thoughts due to interest and research. Please see my <a href="http://www.easygoodness.com/p/disclosure.html">Disclosure</a> page for more information*</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Let's talk about that time of the month. Shall we? ... Yep, you guessed it. This post is about my period! lol... Here's the deal. Choosing the right brand of pads and liners can be a difficult, personal decision. Am I right?</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I was loyal to a certain brand for always. But about five years ago I started noticing boil-like pimples along my bikini line. I researched reasons why these pimples were occurring. I wondered, <i>was it my&nbsp;body wash? was I using too much detergent in my laundry? was it just my hormones?</i>&nbsp;The main issue was that those pimples kept breaking out in the middle of my flow. They also only lasted a few days, so seemed to be more of a rash than a blemish. They were quite painful as every movement I made aggravated them.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">After a few weeks of research, and some shocking facts, I learned that some materials in most pads and liners are generally known to be skin irritants. Oy! My natural journey has lead me to many disappointing <i>aha</i> moments. This was definitely one of them!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Since I refuse to wear tampons anymore, due to my concerns about <b>toxic shock syndrome</b>, I've tried a menstrual cup instead. I'll share my experience using that in another blog post. I only mention this now because I had previously considered giving up conventional feminine hygiene products altogether. Before I learned how bad these items were for our health, I was concerned about how bad they are for the environment. I thought a menstrual cup -something used for ages before industry, by the way- would help reduce my carbon footprint.&nbsp;</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Initially, searching out alternatives to plastic/chemical filled feminine napkins, I came upon a few reusable brands. They have a variety of styles and cute patterns so I was totally convinced I should buy a handful and go back to my roots regarding feminine hygiene by using washable protective measures. But reusable brands are crazy expensive when you consider how many items you'll actually need during those 3-5 days.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I figured I should&nbsp;try to make my own liners and pads. I bought a simple, inexpensive sewing machine. And I stocked up on the accessories I'd need for the project. I invested in organic bamboo and cotton diaper making supplies. I read a bunch of blogs, and watched Youtube tutorials to learn how to make my own pads... But reusable pads require special cleaning. It's also yucky and hard to get my mind around reusing the same old rags...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">In my google searches, I used the keywords&nbsp;<i>cotton</i> and <i>natural, </i>hoping to find a natural suitable brand of feminine products. But<i>&nbsp;</i>mostly&nbsp;links to diaper making supply companies came up. I guess DIY diapers are popular with parents these days... Interestingly, however, Kotex also popped up every time, with links to the brand's newest products. So I researched the ingredients in their liners and pads and I made an honest decision to switch to Kotex for a trial period. Below are images of the products I found to be most useful for me personally. You may prefer other sizes/absorbencies so check out the official site <a href="https://www.ubykotex.com/en-ca/" target="_blank">UbyKotex</a>&nbsp;to find the right fit for you!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I stock up on these items at&nbsp;<a href="https://www.walmart.ca/search/kotex%20pads/N-104" target="_blank">Walmart.ca</a>. I keep them in my "auto-save" list so I receive a discount for having it delivered! Walmart already has the lowest price for these items and I can't find the jumbo packs anywhere else.</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-vTmfVN8W7B8/WUtVSJj10lI/AAAAAAAABuw/ScZ7z4hxXq4d0d33uIB5VDwKDv718nKWQCLcBGAs/s1600/KotexLiners%2526Pads.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="516" data-original-width="750" height="275" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-vTmfVN8W7B8/WUtVSJj10lI/AAAAAAAABuw/ScZ7z4hxXq4d0d33uIB5VDwKDv718nKWQCLcBGAs/s400/KotexLiners%2526Pads.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-rkuxSpCfzC4/WUtVSF4m3XI/AAAAAAAABu0/bsnko5L3mCMtLvyDhAhFndSrKklLjuykwCLcBGAs/s1600/KotexLiners.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="738" data-original-width="741" height="397" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-rkuxSpCfzC4/WUtVSF4m3XI/AAAAAAAABu0/bsnko5L3mCMtLvyDhAhFndSrKklLjuykwCLcBGAs/s400/KotexLiners.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I'm happy to say that Kotex has met my expectations and keeps me comfortably protected during my menstrual cycle. The pimples have stopped occurring which solves the main issue that brought about this change! As a bonus, I also feel dryer than I did with other brands. And most importantly, the products do not stick to my skin because the top layer is made with a touch of cotton. Kotex has me covered so stains are virtually a thing of the past! If you're questioning your current brand of feminine hygiene care. I highly recommend you try Kotex brand's unique line.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">A few pros are:&nbsp;<b>less leakage and spotting</b>. I rarely have accidents anymore! At night, because I'm a restless sleeper, my old brand couldn't keep up. I need a pad that will stay in place. Otherwise it's not doing it's job. When I sleep on my back, I need a pad that's long &amp; absorbent enough to catch the leaks that gravity makes on the bedsheets.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">A few cons are: not a hundred percent natural. They <b>do have some plastic</b> in them. Which means they are still adding to the landfills.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I challenge Kotex, or any brand responsible for the production of feminine hygiene products, to create a<b> truly one hundred percent natural feminine pad, that is absorbent and durable, yet comfortable and biodegradable</b>. In the meantime, I still have the supplies and patterns to DIY the issue at home if I choose to.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Would you try Kotex brand or do you already use their line? Have you tried any reusable brands yourself and would you recommend them? How about making your own... are you that much of a hippie? :)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Share your thoughts in the comments below. And pass this on to a friend!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">OXO</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Angélique</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><span style="font-size: x-small;">*Photos used in this blog post were borrowed from the internet and altered to connect back to this page. The actual owner of these photos is unknown.*</span>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-29260501245413959472017-06-12T00:00:00.000-07:002017-06-12T00:00:29.297-07:00Mantra Mondays Post Three<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-8lcAdi4ZaZQ/WI8KlZkgAFI/AAAAAAAABsU/-qNv5oJ22FYk5XWNBNZvU7DumRiF6jY4wCLcB/s1600/IMG_0734.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-8lcAdi4ZaZQ/WI8KlZkgAFI/AAAAAAAABsU/-qNv5oJ22FYk5XWNBNZvU7DumRiF6jY4wCLcB/s640/IMG_0734.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Welcome back to Mantra Mondays! This one's a quickie! I say it to myself often when I'm insecure. Sometimes I get anxious and overwhelmed feeling less than adequate. At those times, this short mantra is a life saver. It's a solid reminder that no matter how I feel. <b>I am good enough</b>.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">The picture of the small aloe against the big aloe inspires me. They are both magnificent. Equal in stout and intention. They only differ in size. The image sets the stage for a deep and serious stream of thought. Focus on the two aloes as you breathe in and slowly exhale. Repeat the mantra three times. Breathe deeply. And continue the mantra repetitions for at least thirty seconds. However, three to five minutes will give you invigorating results!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><i><br /></i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><i><b>I am strong. I am plenty. I am whole.</b></i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><i><br /></i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Yes. You are! :)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">~ Namaste ~</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-74211201823686405592017-06-08T04:19:00.003-07:002017-06-08T04:21:10.123-07:00Thankful Thursdays ~ Post Five<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-Ud34PVXd3k4/WTkdupDli1I/AAAAAAAABuc/mFWEcZJjKeIphxhMhMKhLiVKI8O3lXf9wCLcB/s1600/fullsizeoutput_1ab.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="1600" height="640" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-Ud34PVXd3k4/WTkdupDli1I/AAAAAAAABuc/mFWEcZJjKeIphxhMhMKhLiVKI8O3lXf9wCLcB/s640/fullsizeoutput_1ab.jpeg" width="640" /></a></div><br /><b><br /></b><b>THREE THINGS I AM THANKFUL FOR</b><br /><br />1)&nbsp;<i>My Girlfriends:</i><br /><i>~&nbsp;</i>I have a a small handful of close girlfriends. And two of them include my sisters! I also have two soul sisters. One whom I've been friends with since I was thirteen and another whom I'm been friends with since I was twenty. Now that I am older, I consider my mom a good friend, too. And my step mother is another girlfriend I've been blessed with. I am very, very thankful for these close women in my life.<br /><br />2)&nbsp;<i>The Kids In My Life:</i><br />~ I have a niece and nephews! But I'm also an aunty figure to my friends kids, and the cousins kids! I always admire the children in the group and I tend to gravitate toward them in social settings. I sort of act like a governess by keeping them all involved/entertained while casually monitoring their safety amongst each other. I do have a favourite (only) niece lol... I'm her godmother so we have a special bond. But she's kinda my best friend too! She's ten already. I am very thankful to be a part of her life. And I'm grateful for my nephews, and the kids connected through my extended family. They keep me grounded.<br /><br />3)&nbsp;<i>The Opportunity To Work Overtime:</i><br />~ I have a great job and one of the best things is the fact that there's often overtime available. Receiving extra money is a blessing. I spend about four hours a few nights a week processing stacks of paperwork and I get paid by the file. So when I have lots to do and I get into a good rhythm I can make a decent amount of extra cash. It helps pay for my hobbies. And it helps keep this blog running. So when you wonder what's going on if I don't post anything new for a while. Just know I'm working hard at my regular job taking care of business.<br /><br /><br />So here we are again. Just you and me and this positive moment. Let's keep it going. What are you thankful for? Comment with your reasons and share this post with your friends on social media! Thank You! :)<br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">~ Namaste ~&nbsp;</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-89810135691571740272017-05-31T00:48:00.002-07:002017-05-31T00:57:43.811-07:00When Life Gives You Lemons<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-CQF867GH62U/WSuVNjYxFwI/AAAAAAAABt0/9jC0vE2SVgsIX4ndFSQs16FuFtxulOMoACLcB/s1600/whenlifegivesyoulemons.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1067" data-original-width="1600" height="426" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-CQF867GH62U/WSuVNjYxFwI/AAAAAAAABt0/9jC0vE2SVgsIX4ndFSQs16FuFtxulOMoACLcB/s640/whenlifegivesyoulemons.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br /><br />This whole positive thinking concept isn't working for me anymore. Or at least, not lately. It's just leading me to a bigger pit of disappointment and self-loathing. I have nothing to live for at this point. I show up where I need to be but I'm not putting any emotion into it. I'm there simply because I have to be. I can't find happiness in anything I do or am involved in anymore. I honestly believe I'm a fraud. I am angry and bitter. And I swear that the world has left me behind...<br /><br />The other day I made the mistake of checking out one of my "ex-whatevers" on Facebook. He was in the list of people I might know. And instead of ignoring it like usual, I let curiosity happen. But that turned out to be a huge slap in the face. He, along with many others who claimed they did not want kids, has a child. So, officially, every man in my history who told me they didn't want a family, therefore causing me to end that relationship, now has the family I wanted. The truth is, these men <i>didn't not</i> want kids. They just didn't want them with me. And sadly, I understand why. I am a useless example of a woman. I can't commit to anything. I have such slow motivation. I stay up at night playing with my <a href="http://www.easygoodness.com/p/hobbies-ventures.html">hobbies and ventures</a>, and all I really do is sleep and work. It's interesting that in the end, I likely won't be having children. Now, isn't that ironic?<br /><br />I feel like I've wasted a lifetime anticipating a future I am not being offered. The universe is laughing at me. I am a silly girl, always getting ahead of herself. It's true. I never finish what I start before moving on to the next thing. I take on new projects or ideas the moment things get difficult. I procrastinate and I change my mind because I'm too afraid to really step up to the plate and take accountability for my actions. So, I don't act. I talk and theorize and I plan and research, but I take forever to start and even longer to finish. I come back to things. And I finish some things. But I tend to change everything before finally making up my mind.<br /><br />I go through life in phases like the seasons. I push myself up into happiness and get pulled down by depression. I take deep breaths and try to be courageous but anxiety keeps me from exhaling. I constantly try to fill the gap with things and busy hands. But I always slip back into depression and get comfortable there and tell myself the world is better off leaving me in that corner.<br /><br />I've been struggling with pain and fatigue since I can remember. I've had to push myself a thousand times harder than the average person just to get out of bed. I've been teased for sleeping too much. I've been mocked for being tired and sore all the time. And I know how much it irritates others when I'm late. These are things I cannot change. But now, my body is afflicted by pre-cancerous cells which will ultimately prevent me from having kids. This is something I could have changed.<br /><br />After fighting with myself every day for thirty eights years, trying to grow up. It's too late. I never grew up and now life's absolutes are in progress. I can't turn back time. So, I wonder. Do I even have a purpose here? Clearly, I'm not meant to raise a family, or even find a compatible partner. Ya see, men start things slow with me, but abandon ship quickly. I am not a keeper. I'm not the woman to make a home with. I have merely been an adventure for the time being when they needed some affection. Often during a rebound. How did I set myself up to be that girl? I sabotaged every chance I had for something special. I was too afraid to ask for what I wanted. I've always doubted my worth.<br /><br />I'm sick of being asked what's wrong. Nothing's wrong. But what do you think is right here? I'm a thirty eight year old broken woman whose best years are long behind her. And, I've been euchred by every douchebag I've dated. I'm sweet and cute and attractive on the outside. But I'm a disaster on the inside and no one wants to deal with that! No one wants to accept that I am the very best I can be as is. They expect there's more to me that I'm just not harnessing. But, they're wrong. <b>I am exactly what I am. And I give my all. But my all doesn't endure as long as yours does.</b> Deep down I don't expect a man to want a future with me. I wouldn't be surprised if I grow old alone. I should finally accept that, instead of living in my head imagining what could be. I'm giving up trying to find a partner. I'm tapping out of&nbsp;<a href="http://www.easygoodness.com/2016/01/the-dating-game-finding-needle-in.html">the dating game</a>. I'm not interested in relating anymore.<br /><br />A year or so is not enough time for me to rightfully choose a partner, fall in love and try to get pregnant. It's just. Not. Enough. Time. I'm still trying to establish my career and get a day job. I'm still preparing to take the customs course, which I failed twice before. There's no way I can make room for a child in that time even if my perfect imaginary man showed up tomorrow. It's just not happening and I'm so over it. But really I'm not... I'm just very angry. Because I know the problem is me. I know the problem is my lifestyle. I know the rest of the world thinks I'm lazy and that I sleep too much. And, I know that they're mostly right.<br /><br />I say that life gave me lemons. But I know the truth is that I sowed and nurtured those lemon seeds all on my own. And now that nature says it's time to harvest I realize how greatly I've let myself down. I planted the wrong seeds damn it! The girl I used to be didn't have much self worth. She was awkward and nervous and insecure. She talked too much, went too fast and made the easier choice every single time. I don't want to be her anymore. I have to refine this life she created. I have to take ownership for this experience. No one else is going to take responsibility for me...<br /><br />I don't want to talk just because I'm worried what others are thinking. I don't want to avoid my real feelings just to end up unhappy because I didn't speak for myself in the first place. I don't want to be the girl who lets other's opinions matter so much. I want to distance the girl I have always been from the woman I choose to be. I'm departing on a new life with purpose now. I am leaving behind all the bad seeds in my mind. I'm taking a vow of listening. And, learning to find peace in silence. Great things happen when the mind is quiet.<br /><br />On a personal note, for those of you who know me. Nothing's wrong. Actually, everything's wrong. But I'm trying to make it right. So please, bare with me.<br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">Growing,</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-45375724594116152392017-05-21T21:36:00.001-07:002017-05-21T21:36:47.968-07:00Trying To Keep It Together When Reality Bites...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-nPUPAokX8Lw/WQrZSJDBr7I/AAAAAAAABtk/x38RxRSrihU0m4TIBC50AaV0CVhVFAlsgCLcB/s1600/kaboompics_Water%2Bdrops%2Bof%2Brain%2Bon%2Bglass.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="426" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-nPUPAokX8Lw/WQrZSJDBr7I/AAAAAAAABtk/x38RxRSrihU0m4TIBC50AaV0CVhVFAlsgCLcB/s640/kaboompics_Water%2Bdrops%2Bof%2Brain%2Bon%2Bglass.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br /><div style="text-align: center;">My life wasn't supposed to unfold like this...</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">I wasn't supposed to be turning thirty eight -still working nights, single, and having no kids. This was not in the original plan; the deal I made with the universe before coming to this world. I was supposed to grow up, start a writing career, build amazing relationships, meet a charming man, get married and have kids. And then, become a stay-at-home mom! That was the plan! I've always wanted to raise a family of my own. But, that plan is still yet to be seen. And, now the pressure is on!</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">I got the results from my procedure in February. It turns out, every cell they collected and examined from my cervix shows a high grade risk for becoming cancer. These are not the results I'd hoped for. When the doctor showed his concern about my age, things got really serious. He suggested that if I want kids, I should try to get pregnant in the next year or so. Because these abnormal cells are likely a prelude to cancerous cells. And since my fertility rate drops by half after forty, I should take precautionary measures in order to survive this pending cancer. I will have to consider a hysterectomy in a few years. Suddenly, my life is no longer the same.<br /><br />I feel shame over this ordeal. Anger, sadness and shame... I feel responsible for convincing myself I could have children late in life. I'm still not ready and the window is starting to close. I'm adrift in shock and denial. There are no words to express how I truly feel. Empty. Lost. Confused... The thing is, what's going on with these cells isn't even actually cancer. Yet. It's still one step away. But to be on the safe side I will have to give up my uterus because cancer is taunting me. That was never in the plan! I was supposed to have a longer timeline. And, because I'm single, I am the sole person responsible for making this decision. Sometimes growing up is really hard to do.<br /><br />If at least, I had a partner I would have a sounding board to work through this situation with. I'd be considering our future. Not just my survival. I could make an achievable plan if I had a partner. I'd ask, "Are we going to try to conceive? Would we like to adopt? Are we content to just raise a bunch of fur babies instead of kids?"<br /><br />All these questions. I don't have the answers. I am not a We. I was so caught up in myself and being independent I didn't realize I'd end up here. Now. Nearly thirty eight. Wondering how time got away from me. I can't even bring myself to fathom the options right now. However, I know for certain that I don't want to be a single mom. It is quite frustrating to be advised that it's now or never. That's a concept hard for me to grasp. I don't do well with urgency. I've always known that I had a timeline. That my biological clock would eventually stop ticking. But, I never expected I'd have to fight cancer, or that it would impede my ability to have kids when the time was right for me...<br /><br />Should I update my dating profile stating that I'm looking for a great guy to have kids with before cancer takes over my reproductive parts? Hah! The wouldn't be awkward...<br /><br />There are plenty of options out there. So many ways to create a family nowadays. I know this and I have always considered alternative ways to making that perfect family without conceiving. I'd love to open my heart and home to a child in need. So for me personally, adoption is definitely on the table. And I know my family wouldn't see an adopted child any differently than a biological one. We are a very blended family as it is. But for the last ten years I feel myself led by the desire to search out and find a mate to procreate with. It's a natural human condition. To leave behind our legacy of genes and nurturing. Except, that instinct complicates my interactions with men whom I'm just trying to get to know. How do I keep this on the down low in the dating realm when technically I have so little time..?<br /><br />I literally shake my head when reality sinks back in. I think about how many pap smears and procedures I've been through. How this went from watching a few abnormal cells in my late twenties, to contemplating a hysterectomy eight years later? Why did the doctors tell me to just keep an eye on it? Why did the doctors tell me not to worry? Why didn't the doctors tell me a few years ago to get on the baby making train asap? I should have known better. It doesn't matter how much I try to grow up. Nothing could've prepared me for this. I'm stunned.<br /><br />The last few years I've been mesmerized by the idea of pregnancy. Especially since I struggle with chronic pain, I've been telling myself I can do that! I have a high pain tolerance and the human body is designed to bare the pain of childbirth. It's something I was looking forward to. A challenge that would prove how strong I really am. It would be something that brought me closer to understanding my own mother. It's a woman's most basic purpose in life. At least for those of us who want it. I had mapped out how it would all go in an idealistic world. But the universe has other plans for me. Something deep down inside of my being has died. This news has drastically changed me in only a few days. My heart aches for guidance while my mind is off in space. Silence becomes me...<br /><br />On the very much needed bright side, I am extremely grateful and humbled by the fact that this has been a gradual situation in my life. I know a few women who fought cervical cancer that came up out of nowhere. I can't imagine how scary it would be to have it come on that sudden. I've been blessed to have the opportunity to know something wasn't exactly right before it got scary. And although there's not much you can do but keep checking on those cells and hope for the best. I know I should be grateful for the doctors and appointments. Here's a fact. If you have any sort of potential cancer, the health department sends you a letter detailing the risks, and advises you the next steps to take with your doctor. I've been receiving those letters twice a year for the last eight years. Cancer does suck! But cervical cancer has the highest survival rates. That is something I am thankful for.<br /><br />I am lucky to have known the facts before any of this became life threatening. My parents have eagerly expressed that they don't need any grandchildren from me. What they need is to have ME around for a long time. I have to put myself in their shoes and take their wishes into consideration. After all, I know that I have their support no matter what. I am loved beyond measure. So beating this is of upmost importance regardless of how strong or weak I feel, or what it might take away from me. I have to fight it and make the best decisions for my loved ones. I have to accept that it is what it is for a wonderful reason. I may not have the hand I wanted in life. But I'm doing my best with the hand I've been dealt. And that's the kind of attitude that exudes happiness.<br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">Yours Truly,</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div></div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-46565027597964703092017-01-12T02:46:00.000-08:002017-01-12T19:36:52.405-08:00Thankful Thursdays ~ Post 4<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-cy6MhvPjLSw/WHdDlg5EA7I/AAAAAAAABr4/AfMxut5Pm3820bg0FEsJAeWZiZRdjGQ_ACLcB/s1600/IMG_0218.JPG" imageanchor="1"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-cy6MhvPjLSw/WHdDlg5EA7I/AAAAAAAABr4/AfMxut5Pm3820bg0FEsJAeWZiZRdjGQ_ACLcB/s640/IMG_0218.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">*Photo Credit: Natalie Kelly, edited by Angélique Dawn*</span></div><b><br /></b><b><br /></b><b>THREE THINGS I AM THANKFUL FOR</b><br /><br />1)&nbsp;<i>My Parents:</i><br /><i>~&nbsp;</i>I am so very thankful for my parents. All of them! Both my parents remarried so I technically have four parents. Plus, an ex step-father! I keep in contact with him. But he lives overseas now so we haven't visited much in the last fifteen years.<br /><br />My mum recently told me that if I ever need her to come down to Windsor, she gladly will. I've always known I can count on her. But it's a cozy feeling to be reminded that my mummy loves me so much, she'd drop everything just to come hold my hand. I am very thankful for the relationship that's grown between us. She is a super woman in my eyes. Though she says she's just human. I consider her girlfriend to be one of my step mothers. They've been together for twenty years. So she's been a staple in my life and I've learned a lot from her. She always has an answer for my random questions.<br /><br />My dad lives here so we're close! And he's the greatest guy! He's my main comfort, the person I want when I'm sick. I lived with him during my teen years, so he comforted me throughout many heartbreaks... He has listened to me ramble on and on since I started talking. And he's never discouraged my "stream of consciousness." My step mom, aka <i>ma </i>has been a great blessing since she first came into my life. I was in my early teens when she and my dad started dating. And, she immediately became my friend and confidant. I still go to her when I need to talk about things I'm not ready to tell my parents. She's just cool like that.<br /><br /><br />2)&nbsp;<i>My Boss:</i><br />~ I am super thankful for my boss! Seven years ago she was a patron in the bar I was working at and I mentioned to her I was looking for a regular job. She offered to give me a reference and send out my resume to other companies on my behalf. A short while later, when a spot opened up on the afternoon shift at her office, she called me in. I have always been grateful for her generosity and kindness. And the fact that I can speak to her openly. I want to make her proud. So I keep setting new goals and I work hard to be successful in both my career and personal life.<br /><br /><br />3)&nbsp;<i>CBT &amp; <a href="http://www.von.ca/" target="_blank">VON Canada</a>:</i><br />~ I am thankful for the Cognitive Behavioural Therapy that is available to me. About a year ago I asked my doctor to send me to a pain specialist because the fibromyalgia pain was really getting me down. I'm exhausted and achy all the time. Mixed with depression that can be problematic. Rather than seeing a new doctor/specialist, I was set up with the Windsor location of&nbsp;<a href="http://www.von.ca/" target="_blank">VON Canada</a>.&nbsp;The staff assessed my situation and gave both me and my doctor feedback regarding medicine, treatment, etc. They also gave me some old and new advice that I do appreciate.<br /><br />But that wasn't the end of my relationship with the awesome staff at the VON center. They offer group activities and programs to assist people with chronic pain. They come to you if you're immobile. They also offer one on one sessions with a social worker who specializes in CBT. I've been seeing him for about three months now. He gives me articles to read and homework to complete for our next session. Aside from having to do homework lol, I find that the appointments have been very helpful and I'm learning to manage pain and stress much better than I used to. Perception is everything!<br /><br /><br />So, what are you thankful for? Was the weather especially nice for the season? Did a stranger smile at you on the subway? Maybe you saw a falling star!? I hope you made a wish. Leave a comment below and share with your friends! :)<br /><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">~ Namaste ~&nbsp;</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-74823616924008073482017-01-04T04:05:00.001-08:002017-01-05T00:32:59.241-08:00When You Lose Your Place In The Book Of Life<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-lWeBoOdGFDA/WGzBNjx09CI/AAAAAAAABrM/KB6ZkyqVWNkaG5nSeqyOP6P8T5TwoX1YgCLcB/s1600/kaboompics.com_Opened%2Bbook.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="426" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-lWeBoOdGFDA/WGzBNjx09CI/AAAAAAAABrM/KB6ZkyqVWNkaG5nSeqyOP6P8T5TwoX1YgCLcB/s640/kaboompics.com_Opened%2Bbook.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Well, the end of 2016 brought with it a lot of heartache and confusion in my little corner of the world. &nbsp;My oldest cat passed away, I learnt&nbsp;that I have a high chance of cervical cancer and I feel like I'm stuck in a rut at work because I've been on the night shift for seven years whilst new people have been hired on for the day shift. I know life is filled with challenges, but on top of all that, it's the new year and I'm nursing a cold. I don't wanna adult anymore... :(</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">My oldest cat, Gemini would have been seventeen in December. She passed away at the beginning of October, and though it broke my heart to let her go, it was a relief because she had been struggling for the last six months with diarrhea... She also suffered from hyperthyroid so I am very thankful that she lived as long as she did after that diagnoses a few years back. You can read more about her and my other kitties in <a href="http://www.easygoodness.com/2014/05/kitty-cats.html">THIS</a> post. I know to many people a cat is just a cat. But Gemini was my best friend for almost two decades. She was my staple. So long as she was around with her loving purrs I was home. It's been a strange transition without her. But she had a wonderful, long and happy life with me. And, she lives on in so many ways around my house I am reminded of her every day. It's still never easy to say goodbye to those you love. Animal or human. Because they're family.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I haven't discussed this on the blog in the passed, mainly because I didn't want to make it an issue, but for a while now, my doctors have been monitoring abnormal cells on my cervix. I've had repeat paps every six to eight months for at least seven years. For the longest time, the results came back showing abnormal or normal cells. Back and forth. Abnormal. Normal. Repeat.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">A few years ago, I had two paps result in normal (back to back) so I didn't have to have a pap for another year, which was when those damn abnormal cells showed up again! And, in December my latest pap showed that the cells have progressed to a high grade risk for cancer. As my family doctor explained to me what was going on, I recall staring blankly at her, feeling my heart sink into oblivion, desperately trying not to cry. She tried to console me with what could be the second worst phrase I've ever been told. "Don't worry, it's not cancer yet..."</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">It's so very frustrating because I've got my depression under control. I've got my chronic pain under control. I'm getting a third opinion regarding my sleep struggles. Why this? Why now?!! I was on top of the world for the majority of 2016. I didn't let things get me down so quickly. I was handling the loss of my cat like a champ. I was even convincing myself to ask my boss to consider me the next time a day position opens up, hopefully. Now, I may have to battle cancer too?! WTF, this is so not fair. For a girl whose been focused on the natural side of things for a dozen years, why do I have to deal with that dreaded disease? I've got enough health issues on my plate, thank you!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Overall, it's not the end of the world. Odds are, I will survive it. And, I will likely be able to have kids too. The positive side is that my doctors have been doing their job and keeping an eye on those cells. And, I am grateful for their effort. So, we're gonna stop it before it becomes problematic. I also have tons of love and support from friends and family members who reassure me that cervical cancer is actually quite common and curable. I'm personally just tired of being poked and prodded down there and living in this <i>trying not to think about it</i> head space. I suspect they will take another biopsy, as well as potential other procedures to determine the risk and remove the cells. I meet with the gynecologist this week, so my plan of attack is under way.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">To any women out there who are going through something similar, or who have been fighting cancer yourselves, please understand that I am just venting in this post and the information I'm sharing is simply my own experience, or advice I've been given. When I meditate/pray on this issue I also send out healing vibes to others who need it. So, please know that we've got this! Leave a comment to let me know your strategies... To any women out there who haven't had a pap in a reasonable time, I urge you to call and set an appointment today! Prevention is the best medicine. So, stay on top of your health and advocate for yourselves.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I want you to know that even though I don't know you, I love you, all of you, and I want you to be your best, healthiest self for a long time to come. When life gets you down and you feel like you can't push any harder, and giving up seems like the easy choice, just remember the people who love and need you in their lives. That is what I do to keep my chin up and fight the daily battle of living well.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">As for my work schedule, that's a catch-twenty-two. I was looking for a day job many years ago. I used to waitress at bars so I was on a very late schedule for some time. Since moving to an office environment, my life has changed drastically for the better. My health issues are sorting themselves out because I have health benefits and prescription coverage. I accepted my current role&nbsp;five years ago so I work for the other branches across Canada. The branch I work out of is the only 24/7 office. I didn't want to seem ungrateful and ask for a day position after being offered an independent role that made me feel important and purposeful. So, I've stuck it out and embraced my position with a feeling of achievement.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">However, five years later, and now that I'm in my late thirties my biggest dream is to go to bed with the moon and wake up with the sun. People always give me grief over my sleep schedule saying I should just wake up earlier and try to have a life before work. I used to struggle and hate myself every day because I'd try to create the habit of getting up earlier and going to bed earlier. But I'd fail. Almost every time. And, so I'd be upset with myself for not accomplishing simple tasks or giving myself creative time. My brain wants to play and create after work. After I've done what I have to do, that's when inspiration kicks in and I can do what I want to do! Besides, it's impossible to make a consistent lifestyle of waking up for yourself when you live with depression and anxiety. I put work first and sleep around my work schedule because that's how I work best. I can't explain it. It just is what it is.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I want to work during the day so I can have more time to spend with my loved ones. I want to work during the day so I can sell my brand and essential oils in the evening when others are available. I only have time for others during the weekends and it's exhausting to try to fit everyone in over those two days. I love my job. I am grateful for my job. But, my health needs me to stop working during the evening and create normal sleep patterns. I'm tired of being isolated and alone, then feeling foreign when I'm around people because I'm not used to being social anymore.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Sometimes, I'd love to watch someone who works 9-5 try and go to bed shortly after they get home and then wake up at 3am to start their day. So many people tell me I'm crazy. They say that to sleep so late means the day has gotten away from them. Well, that's the difference between you and me. Or, me and them. I don't look at the day based on sunlight. I look at the day based on when I wake up and when I should go to sleep. And, I try to be productive in that time. I base the day on my natural circadian rhythm, which is just backwards because I've worked the late shift for about fifteen years. I am ready to reset it. And, I'm wishing and praying every single day that the opportunity opens up for me to switch to the morning shift and become a day walker again. That would be like winning the lottery for me. Whoop!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Thanks for listening,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">OXO</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-61879543478868239412016-11-19T01:38:00.000-08:002016-11-19T01:38:44.443-08:00From A DIY Lifestyle To A Homemade Brand...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-ryPAbfjyGY8/WCLXrrCknZI/AAAAAAAABng/z1JrBca5vzgpG7hVXHd9yEoJwYcKMkXrQCLcB/s1600/IMG_0102.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-ryPAbfjyGY8/WCLXrrCknZI/AAAAAAAABng/z1JrBca5vzgpG7hVXHd9yEoJwYcKMkXrQCLcB/s640/IMG_0102.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><br />Taking a DIY concept and marketing it to the public is not as easy as you might think. Sharing the "how to" is one thing. But turning it into a consumer product is a serious venture. It takes time to make a homemade craft into a tangible product others will want to use. Especially if that homemade craft is new to your understanding in the first place...<br /><br />I thought I could create a natural brand over night. I thought I'd be able to whip up lip balms, deodorants and other skin care items on the regular and share them with everyone immediately. I started off thinking that my creations would be in high demand and that I wouldn't be able to keep up. So, fear inclined me to invest my time and money to try every natural idea I'd learned about. I spent countless nights awake staring at my computer for hours just reading and re-reading. Information that became a second language to me. I write and edit recipes over and over. I try making them and they don't turn out as expected so I go back to my notes. I go back to the tutorials and I work out how to make it consistent and pliable.<br /><br />Those simple lip balm recipes you can find on the net are what I started with. I didn't like them a lot. The recipes were okay but I found overall they were a bit too soft and smooshy. The articles I read just repeated the other recipes on the web. After a short while I created my own recipes. I made a few tweaks here and there. Okay a lot of tweaks, lol. But now I've blended five different lip treatments! I keep coming up with new ideas almost every day!<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Or3Sbr4FMl0/WC2GAAtDAPI/AAAAAAAABn0/nPJHu1yloOo0UMoexMac7vBPcMqRBIL3ACLcB/s1600/IMG_0222.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="388" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Or3Sbr4FMl0/WC2GAAtDAPI/AAAAAAAABn0/nPJHu1yloOo0UMoexMac7vBPcMqRBIL3ACLcB/s400/IMG_0222.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">It was pretty easy to ditch the chemical antiperspirants and choose to make my own deodorant. Even if you use the store bought kind, please, for your health don't use <i>antiperspirant</i>. Our bodies are meant to sweat! When you use antiperspirant, you're clogging your sweat glands. Which, in turn causes your body to emit a stronger body odour. <b>When you eat right and use natural skin care products, your body odour neutralizes and smells sweeter</b>. Believe me. I know this from experience.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">The deodorant recipes I found on-line presented similar issues as the lip balm. I knew they would not be loved by the public for two reasons. Many recipes call for keeping the product in a jar. This means you have to scoop it out with your finger to apply to your armpits. Okay, I may be wrong, but no one really wants to stick their fingers in their armpits! And, most of us prefer a proper solid rather than something that changes texture depending on the temperature and the environment.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I've been using homemade deodorant since 2012. However it wasn't intended for the public at first. When I thought about making it for sale, that's when I realized it needed some changes in order to be presentable. It had to work for others too! I merely tolerated the imperfectness of greenish, chunky, goopy and soft deodorants which were the average recipe found on other sites. I decided to try using diatomaceous earth in place of the clays I was working with, and I'm quite pleased with the results. Probiotics add extra goodness to my deodorant. I'll be sharing the recipe soon!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Xb2AuQMfbdg/WC2INDTh7fI/AAAAAAAABoA/YSe2v_UYVE0XYGnjddLKFrG6T5KVN_FXgCLcB/s1600/IMG_0451.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Xb2AuQMfbdg/WC2INDTh7fI/AAAAAAAABoA/YSe2v_UYVE0XYGnjddLKFrG6T5KVN_FXgCLcB/s400/IMG_0451.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">This brand I'm perfecting is a life defining purpose. It's a challenge worthy of my strength, patience and will power. I am so very thankful for all the inspiration and encouragement I receive daily. From the universe, my friends and colleagues. The people who listen to me talk about it all the time... lol.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Sourcing ingredients and packaging from various vendors I found on line wasn't hard at all. I learned where to find resources from fellow bloggers and by searching the items I was looking for on google... I've spent money on useless items and learned many lessons. Some, expensive, but lessons nonetheless. I wasted time and money learning a lot of what didn't work. I tried everything I read about. It also turns out that I worked with a bunch of ingredients that I decided to omit about a year ago; once I made the conscious decision to sell allergen &amp; nut free products, with a few vegan choices. I ceased falling for the newest must-have and I finally stopped including everything I learned. I decided to believe in my instincts. Then, I was able to focus on what worked for me as a created and end-user.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I searched for known allergies regarding the ingredients I had settled on maintaining in my repertoire. I considered which ingredients I absolutely loved most. I focussed on ingredients that had unique properties. And, about a year later, I have just about perfected the majority of my products... Ya, a year later. Because most recipes called for shea or argan or some other nut based ingredient that had to be replaced... Oy!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">To be honest I wasn't thinking about selling items in the beginning. I just enjoyed creating skin care for myself and giving gifts of homemade lip balm to others. I seriously handed out lip balm to friends and co-workers on a regular basis just because it made me feel good to do so. I always made about a handful in each batch. I asked their opinions and heard their suggestions. Many people encouraged me to sell the lip balm because they liked it so much. So before I was even certain of what I was doing, I was telling myself I could make a great side business with it. I had no idea it would turn into such an obsession!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Hundreds of ideas and tons of advice started flooding in. It got to be a little overwhelming. I'm still trying to filter out the white noise and make it happen amidst life's events. I've had so many aha moments it's crazy! Every item on my list has gone through a rigorous editing process... As I go about crafting by hand, I also keep learning more about crafting from books and articles. Then, I have another aha moment and I update my notes again. I suppose I will always be a student of the craft.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I am lucky that this opportunity graced my life. This all came out because I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and struggling to find my "joie de vive"! This blog and this brand started as self therapy. I can't wait to sell my products at the festivals around here in Essex County and fulfill orders through my <a href="https://www.etsy.com/ca/shop/BodyBarNaturals" target="_blank">Etsy Shop</a>. I believe people out there can relate to my story and my brand. So, I'm gonna keep sharing. I know it will require a lot of work to produce items on a larger scale. I know I can do it because I haven't given up after all these years. After the investments I've made. The precious time and money spent. All the nights crying over failed theories, while contemplated the ratios of endless recipes...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I have been working diligently to change my own lifestyle and promote better health and happiness. I try to live by example. I'm working on over a dozen product hopefuls. Plus, I have a few dozen ideas on the back burner. I also have a bunch of DIY's that I can't produce for sale, so I plan to share those on the blog and I encourage you to try them out for yourself! It's a magnificent feeling when you're creative &amp; nifty.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Sometimes it's difficult being an avid DIYer, trying to establish a side business, working a full time job, and trying to maintain a social life too. Did I mention that I also work afternoons? I have a wonky sleep schedule because of that. So, I have just enough energy to make items I need for myself and I share the odd extra. Committing to producing and selling these items regularly has proven uneasy. And, sometimes I wonder why I even bother. I could just buy deodorant ya know. But it's not just about me anymore.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">It's always gonna be a work in progress, isn't it? Balance is the goal here. I just have to stay positive and keep working like a mad scientist in the kitchen, until it pays off. One day, before I know it. I'll be looking back on this post smiling because it all worked out in the end. :)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Thanks for following along,</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">OXO</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-65951851366393662792016-08-11T01:45:00.002-07:002016-09-05T17:09:46.317-07:00Thankful Thursdays ~ Post Three<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-7qhUczPkQ5E/V6wnVR9my8I/AAAAAAAABlk/A79uEjbQ1OwYGcVYoczrwXNVtpkAJC31wCLcB/s1600/IMG_0127.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-7qhUczPkQ5E/V6wnVR9my8I/AAAAAAAABlk/A79uEjbQ1OwYGcVYoczrwXNVtpkAJC31wCLcB/s640/IMG_0127.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">Photo Credit: Michelle Séjourné, edited by Angélique Dawn</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></div><br /><b>THREE THINGS I AM THANKFUL FOR</b><br /><br />1) <i>Health Care:</i><br /><i>~ </i>I am ecstatically grateful for having health care. My company covers the basics, but also includes dental, paramedical practitioners such as massage, chiropractor, etc. and 90% of prescription costs! I don't like to take a lot of medication. I prefer to supplement with natural alternatives. But I am lucky to have the help to pay for the few scripts I do take on a regular basis that provide me with a better quality of life. It's a great benefit to have health insurance in today's world. Many people don't get treatment for the things they struggle with simply because they do not have the money required to pay obscene prices! Having health insurance that covers most of what would cost me out of my own pocket is a godsend.<br /><br />2) <i>Air Conditioning:</i><br />~ Oh My Goodness is it ever hot out there! And, brace yourselves, because the next few days call for a massive heat wave here in Southern Ontario. My air conditioner is about five years old, and designed for a small room. But I also have a bunch of fans to move the air around. I am very, very thankful to have even a little air conditioner giving me moderate relief from overheating. Since I'm a day sleeper (because I work afternoons &amp; have disordered sleep patterns) the air conditioner and fans save me from having to sleep with my windows open for the breeze. It can get noisy outside during the day. And, the humidity here makes Windsor feel almost tropical... Whoever came up with the idea of heating/cooling, bless their souls!<br /><br />3) <i>Social Networks:</i><br />~ I truly wonder how people coped with the distance and time between contact with other loved ones and others whom they did business with hundreds of years ago. How lucky are we to have all this communication technology in our modern world?! I know it's problematic sometimes, because today's youth (and adults) certainly need limits over how much time they spend scrolling on their devices. But when you look at the big picture here, we are a tremendously rich society to be able to connect to our neighbours so far away. I for one know I don't reach out to my close friends and family members as often as I should. However, with social forums we are able to stay connected and aware of others lives even when we don't get the chance to do it in person.<br /><br />So, this is week three of Thankful Thursdays. Did you sign up yet to follow along? Have I started you thinking more about what has graced your life instead of focussing on what you've missed out on? The deal is to try and find at least a few&nbsp;<b>somethings</b>&nbsp;every week to be grateful for. Thank the universe. Thank the stars! Thank what or whomever you believe in. Just give thanks for receiving what is good in your life. And more good will certainly come to you.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">~ Namaste ~&nbsp;</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-40664558332132533552016-08-08T04:01:00.001-07:002016-08-10T03:58:01.981-07:00Facelift ~ Blog Updates & Do-Overs...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-gj7JjyOn-xg/V6hgY9GDDrI/AAAAAAAABk0/sMkDfo93EUYD6It-mpPNKP7Q7InrylnxQCLcB/s1600/kaboompics.com_Female%2Bhands%2Bon%2BMacbook%2BPro.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="426" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-gj7JjyOn-xg/V6hgY9GDDrI/AAAAAAAABk0/sMkDfo93EUYD6It-mpPNKP7Q7InrylnxQCLcB/s640/kaboompics.com_Female%2Bhands%2Bon%2BMacbook%2BPro.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br /><br />I decided to remove my old template and start anew. I just really wanted a simpler, plain look. It's time I started letting my work speak for itself. There's no need for pretty borders and colourful quilts in the background. I have enough to say and show, that's what the blog should focus on. It's still hard for me to get used to though. Plus, I have to go back behind the scenes and go back over tutorials to set things up the way I like it. A few little details have created challenges for me. Like my "Link Within" gadget at the bottom. It's supposed to be below the footer, but the code from the tutorial I went back to just doesn't seem to match up. So, until I can get some advice, or simply focus on it without a million other things on my mind, it's gonna have to wait.<br /><br />It's interesting to note that some of the code I'd learned and input on my own blog crossed over with the template change. However, other specific code didn't. I don't quite understand code, though. I'm just winging it with the tutorials I found by <a href="http://icanbuildablog.com/" target="_blank">Dana Fox</a>. :)<br /><br />I thought I could simply update the background and be done with it. I should've known the new template would override some details. But it's okay because the more I play around with my blog the more I understand how it works. Which, will make upgrading to WordPress that much easier one day. There's a big part of me that wants to switch platforms. But the financial commitment is just not right for me at this time. And, like I've said in many posts before. Blogger is very easy to learn, and a user-friendly platform. Also, it's free!<br /><br />So, I just wanted to pop in and let everyone know that you may notice some changes on the blog from one day to the next. Now that I'm working with a blank background, getting the colours right for everything else is difficult. So, I'll continue to write and publish posts while I'm working on getting the set up of my blog just right. Again. Please, feel free to comment if there's anything in particular you like about the blog. Help me make this experience right for you too.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">See you soon!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-51808449260967285642016-08-04T04:22:00.000-07:002016-08-08T02:58:20.028-07:00Thankful Thursdays ~ Post Two<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-VzadRaA1_aA/V6AsWJH2tKI/AAAAAAAABkY/h48CgXAjxcgmQi9vDcofnbAEqqQwGeE-wCLcB/s1600/IMG_0034.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-VzadRaA1_aA/V6AsWJH2tKI/AAAAAAAABkY/h48CgXAjxcgmQi9vDcofnbAEqqQwGeE-wCLcB/s640/IMG_0034.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /><br /><b>THREE THINGS I AM THANKFUL FOR</b><br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">1)&nbsp;<i>My Job</i>:</div><div style="text-align: left;">~ I am forever thankful to my boss for giving me the opportunity to be a part of the company I work for. It's my first office job and I've been working there for almost seven years now. It's busy and hard, but also fun and rewarding. I work with some awesome people and we have potlucks almost every month! lol It's a nice place to work.<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">2)&nbsp;<i>My Apartment</i>:</div><div style="text-align: left;">~ I am lucky to live in such a charming and quiet apartment that is well maintained and worth every penny! Read&nbsp;<a href="http://www.easygoodness.com/2015/06/after-season-of-settling-in-i-am-home.html" target="_blank">This Post</a>&nbsp;for a longer story of how cozy my home is! I really enjoy my independence and living in this wonderful neighbourhood lets me be free and relaxed too. Home is a feeling. And my place feels like home!<br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">3)&nbsp;<i>My Friends</i>:</div><div style="text-align: left;">~ I've heard that if you can count the amount of friends you have on one hand then you're a rich person. I must be blessed with great fortune, because I have old friends, close friends and new friends and I'm very thankful for all of them. No matter how lonely I may sometimes feel I always have a few good friends I can count on.<br /><br /><br />What are you thankful for? Do you take the time to write down your blessings? I know I should write more, which is why I decided to add a theme of gratitude to the blog.<br /><br />Let's focus on appreciating what we have <u>here and now</u> rather than wasting energy complaining about what we don't have. So, take your time. And write it down for yourself as often as you can think of something new. It might surprise you how big your list turns out to be.<br /><br />I'm going to try to publish a Thankful Thursdays post every week. I want to share my reasons for being grateful no matter how big or small they might be. I hope you follow along and leave comments about the things you're thankful for too!<br /><br /><br /><div style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, FreeSerif, serif; font-size: 18px; text-align: center;">~ Namaste ~<br /><br />OXO</div><div style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, FreeSerif, serif; font-size: 18px; text-align: center;">Angélique</div></div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-47362932968907778212016-08-01T01:43:00.001-07:002016-08-08T02:58:39.334-07:00Mantra Mondays ~ Post Two<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-oEdd-b7eaWg/V578lI83tuI/AAAAAAAABkE/Hdb0pidG8e871BlPfWaP_r6rlKh5j-DbwCLcB/s1600/IMG_0312.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-oEdd-b7eaWg/V578lI83tuI/AAAAAAAABkE/Hdb0pidG8e871BlPfWaP_r6rlKh5j-DbwCLcB/s640/IMG_0312.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><b><br /></b></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><b><br /></b></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><b>Welcome To Mantra Mondays!</b></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">These are the words I use to comfort myself when I'm feeling disconnected. Check out more about why mantras are infinitely useful, in my&nbsp;<a href="http://www.easygoodness.com/2016/01/mantra-mondays-post-one.html" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">first post</a>, where I discuss the purpose of mantras and how they work. Make sure to sign up and follow along for a new mantra every month!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Mantras are basically a form of thoughtful meditation. Most of the time with meditation, you're told to empty your mind. Clear your thoughts and be aware of only your breath. This, can be quite difficult for some people. Consider a gal like me, whose mind is scattered... Finding a place of nothingness in my noggin is virtually impossible. Every corner of my imagination is constantly lit up!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">In my twenties I became familiar with mantras. There were a few that I said to myself daily. Though I usually simply repeat them in my head. Encompassing and directing thoughts steers me away from my anxious,&nbsp;frantic&nbsp;heart.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Something magical happens when you repeat a mantra several times. Your breath begins to fill deeper and more easily. This allows you to stretch your lungs and relax your upper body. Once your breathing feels less forced, a shaky exhale finally steadies. Which&nbsp;rhythmically detoxifies your mind. In between breaths, you'll notice a gentle pause before you naturally inhale again. That is okay. Your breath is patiently shifting to the cadence of the words. Along with the rhythm of your breath you may notice that the mantra you are repeating starts to ebb and flow as well. This is because your&nbsp;body, your breath and your consciousness are all in order. Just let everything go!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Start with one long deep breath, close your eyes and visualize each word. As you read over the letters, feel their meaning. Breath. Repeat. And breath some more.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><i><b>"Life is Easy. Life is Good. Life is Fair.&nbsp;</b></i><i><b>I am filled with Abundance.&nbsp;</b></i><i><b>Many Good things come to me every day. Thank</b></i><i><b>&nbsp;You. Thank You. Thank You!"</b></i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><i><b><br /></b></i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><i><b><br /></b></i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I believe the start of this mantra was inspired by some lines I read in the book&nbsp;<i>The Secret</i>. The part about life being easy and good.&nbsp;<i>The Secret</i>&nbsp;is one of the few books I've read almost straight through without putting it down. It is a book I definitely recommend. And, if I hadn't loaned it out and misplaced it in a sea of old friends, it would still be on my nightstand.&nbsp;<i>The Secret</i>&nbsp;defines the concept of The Law of Attraction. Rhonda Byrne captures your attention and keeps it for the duration of her story. Her story being that of a wide group of believers she discovered who used the powers of The Law of Attraction throughout history.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">This mantra in particular is partly what inspired the name Easy Goodness and this blog! The idea of a good &amp; easy life is all I strive for. I absolutely believe that life is meant to be simple and painless. Because it is all a state of mind.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Any negative situation is merely that of an upset in the balance of one's body/mind/spirit connection. I use this mantra to remind myself that my existence is not only about me. Life is about peace, love and kindness. And receiving what you deserve. It's not about getting what you want or think you want. Life is about giving and gratitude. And, this mantra is about trusting that everything I could possibly need is and will be provided for me. Thankfully!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">When struggles occur and life seems out of control, the universe is reminding you to check your thoughts. It really is that simple friends... If your thoughts are&nbsp;intentional, positive and hopeful, then you are more likely to manifest a fulfilling life.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, FreeSerif, serif; font-size: 18px; text-align: center;">Cheers!</div><div style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, FreeSerif, serif; font-size: 18px; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, FreeSerif, serif; font-size: 18px; text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="color: #444444; font-family: 'Times New Roman', Times, FreeSerif, serif; font-size: 18px; text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-86030110479119241822016-07-16T16:04:00.003-07:002016-08-08T02:58:54.384-07:00A Mid Summer's Eve ~ I'm So Happy To Be Back In The Game!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-Vr6re87AlXU/V4iq3C-t-pI/AAAAAAAABi0/2FgN5eJlcxMgoPINMYNo_nFrDhH2-YtTACLcB/s1600/IMG_0231.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-Vr6re87AlXU/V4iq3C-t-pI/AAAAAAAABi0/2FgN5eJlcxMgoPINMYNo_nFrDhH2-YtTACLcB/s640/IMG_0231.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><br />Well, hello there... Thanks for your patients. Luckily, I don't have many followers yet, so I am pretty sure that the only person who experienced any withdraws from this blog was me... lol... It's been a long few seasons. But good things come to those who wait. And, sometimes, intentions outweigh preparation.<br /><br />Spring went by like a flash and now we're just about halfway through summer. We're having a few days of low humidity and cooler temps here in lower Ontario. Which is a blessing! So, the windows are open and the smells of bonfire &amp; bbq are lofting in throughout the apartment. The sun is setting beautifully. It's going to be a lovely evening.<br /><br />The universe brought me a great miracle!<br /><br />Apple offered a promotion financing a new MacBook Pro at 0% for three months. I am so very thankful for this deal! I have some money already saved, so I know I can pay the rest before any interest kicks in. But I kept dipping into my savings for other important things like my car and I kept putting off ordering a new computer.<br /><br />I just couldn't wait any longer! I couldn't pass up the opportunity. I missed this place. I missed sharing my thoughts. I missed regurgitating the things I learn every day! I missed believing that someone out there is reading my posts and feeling changed for the better. I'm so glad I stayed positive and hopeful that I would find a way to upgrade my technology and get back on board this train to self fulfillment!<br /><br />I was able to make small updates after work and on my iPhone. But it just isn't the same to write a post on another computer, and my thumbs got sore trying to write on my phone. Plus, I couldn't access the photos I needed. I am so thankful I finally have a new laptop. Now I have to get wifi! lol<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-K_vE65l-sPI/V4irSb9SKTI/AAAAAAAABi4/qUtp9fFF9gYexchuNKa9FsJifKT9WVX4gCLcB/s1600/IMG_0232.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-K_vE65l-sPI/V4irSb9SKTI/AAAAAAAABi4/qUtp9fFF9gYexchuNKa9FsJifKT9WVX4gCLcB/s400/IMG_0232.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><br />This happy package was delivered to me a day early! I had to get ready for work soon after, so like Christmas eve, I waited till I got home from work to open her up, get all excited and have a big girly screech because I just could not contain myself! <i>haha</i><br /><i><br /></i>Set up didn't take long. I still have to fully migrate my old computer. So, I'm going to clean that one up and only move the necessities over. I love apple products! They make MY life so much easier!<br /><br /><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-pxzUs3DWqmY/V4ir6iCc6gI/AAAAAAAABjE/AcJRUN-oIAQY0P5o1sIUIs9nF4JEdiwGACLcB/s1600/IMG_0240.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="300" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-pxzUs3DWqmY/V4ir6iCc6gI/AAAAAAAABjE/AcJRUN-oIAQY0P5o1sIUIs9nF4JEdiwGACLcB/s400/IMG_0240.JPG" width="400" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Introducing PRIMA McApple (<i>lol</i>)</td></tr></tbody></table><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Don't ask why I named my computer... ;) just go with it. I name my plants too.&nbsp;</div><br />This was just a stop in to let y'all know I'm back in the game and ready to play. My technology is up to date and I've got lots of notes from the last seven months to put into action. I also have lots of good news to share! But it's too much for one post so I'll break it up over the next few weeks. I feel so lucky! My life is filled with abundance!<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">Holding my breath,</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-25653483505588716122016-01-15T00:03:00.000-08:002016-08-08T02:59:19.107-07:00Thankful Thursdays ~ Post One<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-5evnn6SMrts/VpX9mxsJ3JI/AAAAAAAABdY/u9tH2ZirowI/s1600/IMG_4386.JPG" imageanchor="1"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-5evnn6SMrts/VpX9mxsJ3JI/AAAAAAAABdY/u9tH2ZirowI/s640/IMG_4386.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small; text-align: right;">*Photo Credit: Chad Pelletier, edited by Angélique Dawn*</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="text-align: left;"><br />THREE THINGS I AM THANKFUL FOR</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">1) <i>My Blog</i>:</div><div style="text-align: left;">~ I am thankful for the opportunity to start fresh with real attainable goals for the new year! I feel very lucky and blessed to have such a forum to be creative and share my hopes and dreams.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">2) <i>My Persistence</i>:</div><div style="text-align: left;">~ I am thankful that I was able to figure out the proper URL for my bloglovin feed which I've connected to the social icons in my sidebar. This techy stuff is a lot of work for me because I am learning as I go. But the more I persist, the better I understand the things that have challenged me.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">3) <i>My Car/New Tires</i>:</div><div style="text-align: left;">~ I am thankful that I have a car because it allows me to travel when and how I please. I recently replaced the tires which were quite old. It is winter here in lower Ontario so, I am especially thankful that I have a safe and reliable vehicle to get me where I need to go.<br /><br /><br />I am thankful for plenty more! But with each Thankful Thursdays post I will share just three things I am thankful for with a brief explanation of why. These posts are intended to be short and sweet. However, occasionally I may write longer explanations if there is some seriously wonderful happenings in my life.<br /><br />I hope these Thankful Thursdays posts help you pause and think about the things in life&nbsp;you're thankful for too. If things are getting you down taking a moment to be thankful can often be the simplest way to cheer yourself up. It's a good reminder that the universe is on your side. There is always some thing to be thankful for...<br /><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />~ Namaste ~</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div><div style="text-align: left;"><div style="text-align: center;"></div></div></div></div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-26965835798067925192016-01-08T04:36:00.002-08:002016-08-08T02:59:39.236-07:00The Dating Game - Finding a Needle in a Haystack<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-xCGFlCLvZTg/VAro_1V6i_I/AAAAAAAAA0I/DfOChfHjAto/s1600/Dating%2BGame%2BPost%2BHearts.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-xCGFlCLvZTg/VAro_1V6i_I/AAAAAAAAA0I/DfOChfHjAto/s1600/Dating%2BGame%2BPost%2BHearts.png" width="640" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Ready for the real thing?!</td></tr></tbody></table><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #444444; font-size: large;">It seems that I've been looking for love in all the wrong places. Actually, love has never found me in the places I happened to be. And, whenever I think about the real thing, it freaks me out! There's just so much anxiety in my gut that I can't handle it. The kind of relationship I want is, well, frankly old school. But I was raised to be self sufficient... Besides, where do women find men who want a housewife these days? And, whatever happened to the times when you could meet the love of your life at a friends house while playing cards?</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #444444; font-size: large;"><br /></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #444444; font-size: large;">I really wonder if I'm living in a dreamland. I want a nice guy who will love me enough to encourage me to work from home. I want his support and strength to guide and protect me. I'd like to believe that I'm a loving and attentive partner worth knowing. It's just... I'm very picky over who I spend my time with. So, whoever he is, he will certainly be a lucky guy. I mean, where do men find such affectionate and caring women like me?! :)</span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/--MdqlhGQ7UI/Vo92dAPVSSI/AAAAAAAABdI/nsWWZrT0cQ0/s1600/IMG_4377.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/--MdqlhGQ7UI/Vo92dAPVSSI/AAAAAAAABdI/nsWWZrT0cQ0/s400/IMG_4377.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div>It's a complex situation. The battle between my heart and my ego. I'm terrified of commitment. But I'm always talking about settling down. It doesn't make sense, because I'm loyal to a fault, but when it comes to relationships, I've had few and far between.<br /><br />When I was young, I was more the girl to have relations than relationships. And I didn't even know I was setting myself up for disaster by dating guys who had no future with me... So, there I was getting involved with crushes I met at bars and work or frat parties. I was too afraid to ask for anything serious, because I didn't want to seem desperate or clingy, so I was probably taken as a flake. After months of avoiding a real thing, when the truth came to light that I was merely "their" booty call, I'd end it! As if I didn't know. (<i>I so hope my dad doesn't read this... lol)</i><br /><i><br /></i><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">I look in the mirror and remind myself that I'm a grown up now. I am lovable. I deserve to be happy and have&nbsp;</span></i><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">all the things I want. I belong with my soul mate. My purpose is to create a thriving homestead. So, I'm planning my future while trying to envision a genuine, handsome man by my side. I don't think I want to get married, but I absolutely know I want kid(s) and a partner to grow old with. I'm closer to forty than thirty and I don't wanna miss my window</span></i><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">...&nbsp;</span></i><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">So, the pressure's starting to build lately. And, I can't figure out why the idea of sharing my life with someone else scares the daylight out of me... What is it that holds me back? Now, that's the million dollar question. ;)</span></i><br /><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><br /></span></i><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">I've put it out to the universe numerous times. But the universe knows I'm scared, so it's responding to my true intentions. I push away any chances. I don't clue in when my girlfriends try to play the wingman. Ya know, being single is actually kinda overwhelming sometimes. It's like I'm perpetually lining up to dive into the deep end. But I can't even climb up the ladder.</span></i></span></i><br /><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><br /></span></i></span></i><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">A few years ago I joined a dating site. I signed up for three of them actually. I'd read an article that suggested filling out multiple questionnaires for various sites because it was beneficial in helping you get to know yourself and to learn what you're looking for. When I finally broke down and paid for the services (at a discounted rate) I didn't find it any different than the people I'd met at bars &amp; social circles. In fact, people are less inhibited on line, so my impression was that most people were just looking for a hook up.</span></i></span></i><br /><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><br /></span></i></span></i><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">I chatted with a handful of men through email. I even went off line with one guy and texted him for a month before we planned to meet, then I found out he was lying about who he was. He pulled a "Catfish" on me. I went on a few dates to meet other men, but it never felt right. I feel so foreign when I'm out with a potential mate. I don't know what is wrong with me. I may be irreversibly damaged... sometimes, I wonder.</span></i></span></i><br /><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><br /></span></i><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">The truth is I enjoy my independence! Okay, if I'm really honest with myself and my readers, the truth is, I'm still working through some difficult feelings in regards to relationships. I enjoy my independence because it's stable. I thrive at being independent because I've done it for so long. I crave independence because I have lots of hobbies that keep me busy, so I forget to feel lonely.</span></i><br /><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><br /></span></i><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">Yes, sometimes, at night I wish I had someone to hold me. But, then again, I'd have to deal with him in the morning too. lol, just kidding...</span></i><br /><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><br /></span></i><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">I think I'm still healing from my parents divorce (thirty years ago). And, I'm still learning from every stupid decision I made as a younger woman. Goodness gracious, I was a fool. But I have grown immensely. I have no regrets.</span></i><br /><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><br /></span></i><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">I suppose, right now, I just need to take my own advice and be in the moment. Live for today. I can't force anything. I can't ignore everything either. I can't change what I've done or what's happened to me. But, I am beginning to let go of all the crap that distorts my focus, so that my heart and mind are ready when I'm in the right place at the right time. &lt;3</span></i><br /><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><br /></span></i><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">Thanks for listening,</span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"><br /></span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">OXO</span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;">Angélique</span></i></div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-10831909220648787362016-01-04T23:56:00.002-08:002016-08-08T03:00:09.396-07:00Mantra Mondays ~ Post One<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-t9_nIXPFAOw/VaoKTRs2mEI/AAAAAAAABWg/30KipV7RtZo/s1600/IMG_3793.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-t9_nIXPFAOw/VaoKTRs2mEI/AAAAAAAABWg/30KipV7RtZo/s640/IMG_3793.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><b>Welcome to Mantra Mondays!</b></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><b><br /></b></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">These are the phrases I use in order to calm my mind and comfort my soul. They can also heal an aching heart. Mantras are amazing at shortening the length of time it takes for bad feelings to pass.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">The most important thing to know about mantras is that they can bring you into a place of meditation. They should only focus on positivity and progress. After all, we are what we think! Mantras are perfect for beginners who are learning to meditate because when you concentrate on a mantra, the white noise in your head fades away.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I find it very difficult to clear my mind and focus solely on my breath. My chest is always tight and my muscles are often tense. So I rarely give myself enough time or patience to get to that place of meditation where I'm no longer restless...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">My mind never stops! It needs something to focus on or it will create a train of thought on it's own. If I think of a mantra, sometimes a new one on the spot, then repeat it over and over to myself, this process allows my mind to slow down and mimic the rhythm of my breath. Which in turn, allows me to breathe easier and my muscles even let go and relax a little. It's a good feeling!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">For people like myself consciously thinking and repeating mantras is a manner of living in the moment and using that energy to harness your intentions for the bigger picture. When you turn your attention to a solidifying mantra you are igniting the law of attraction. Everything you put out to the universe comes back to you.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">The particular mantra I've used for this post is one that I tell myself almost every day. I say it at night a lot so it's kind of a bed time prayer. It reduces my anxiety and fear. And it catches me when I fall into that place of nothingness during the late hours of the night when I feel estranged from the universe.&nbsp;Especially since it takes me a long time to fall asleep.&nbsp;It's a mantra that's short and sweet and easy to remember. It is a wonderful mantra for vanquishing the sense of despair.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Your posture or position doesn't really matter. But keep in mind that you are transitioning your breath into a tool of itself so you should try to sit up straight or stretch your body out so your diaphragm isn't restricted.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Your chest might feel tight and heavy at first, and that's okay. Try to breathe as deep as you can and hold it for a few seconds. Then exhale and say the phrase with your inner voice. Sense the vibrations of each word. Watch them linger in the air. Sink into the goodness with each syllable.&nbsp;Breathe in again, as deep as you can. Exhale and repeat the phrase another time. Continue repeating this cycle as long as you need to.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">By the third/fourth round of breathing deeply, exhaling and repeating this mantra, I guarantee you will no longer feel worried or anxious... The bills, conflicts, health issues, work drama, laundry and household projects that nag you are no longer a concern. Your peace of mind is all that matters. Your breath will be less strained by this point so take the time to continue deep breathing exercises. In turn, the stress will lull away. Thoughtful intentions will bring you to a place of joy and happiness. Let yourself be a priority right now. So, go ahead, try it out.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><i><b>"I am here. I am now. I am safe and sound. At this moment I am okay. Everything is going my way."</b></i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">These are words that comfort me in my times of panic. When I feel worried about the future or anxious over the past, I breathe deeply and repeat this phrase to myself. It reminds me that at this moment I am okay. There is no good in fast forwarding to what may be or holding on to what is already done. When I think of this mantra I silence my ego and bring myself back to calm.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I am sending good vibes so that it can do the same for you.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">~ Namaste ~</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">OXO</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Angélque</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-90208646900202385142015-12-30T02:09:00.002-08:002016-08-08T03:01:07.162-07:00Living With Depression From A First Perspective<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-XvtC2HrNE_s/VoOoaeFMciI/AAAAAAAABbc/Noh2uRQbsFg/s1600/kaboompics.com_Peonies%2Bin%2Ba%2Bglass%2Bblue%2Bjar.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="426" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-XvtC2HrNE_s/VoOoaeFMciI/AAAAAAAABbc/Noh2uRQbsFg/s640/kaboompics.com_Peonies%2Bin%2Ba%2Bglass%2Bblue%2Bjar.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br />I have to say I'm kinda jealous of today's generation. I wish all this mental health awareness was being shared and talked about when I was a teen. Twenty years ago -before it was normal, I was fighting &nbsp;battles with depression every day. And I almost lost <a href="http://www.easygoodness.com/2015/09/a-call-for-help-suicide-awareness-week_12.html">the war</a>... I'm neither ashamed nor proud of my condition. But talking about it is necessary to bring the truth to light. It is not taboo and everyone is susceptible to mental illness.<br /><br />Depression is not a state of perpetual sadness. It's being happy while at the same time questioning whether or not that happiness is genuine. It's feeling like you're on top of the world and then crashing into a pit of self-loathing. It's feeling love and kindness towards others, but not being able to actively show it.<br /><br />My truth is that I live this every day. Depression is and always will be a part of me. By age seven I knew it. I just couldn't explain it. I was internally panicked at the thought of going to school in the morning. I couldn't make decisions for myself. I worried about others more than any kid should... And that was just the beginning.<br /><br />I've been motivationally challenged and late for everything since I can remember. Waking up has always been the hardest thing for me to do. It takes a few hours of snoozing. Whilst I slip in and out of dreams thinking I'm awake the whole time. This being a result of <a href="http://www.easygoodness.com/p/about-me_14.html">Hyper-somnia</a>. Then, the alarm goes off and my "groundhogs day" starts all over again. Because of this cycle I have chronic anxiety at the start of my day. The shift from dreams to reality is simply exhausting for me...<br /><br />Between anxiety and the ever inadequate sleep I get, I feel week and incompetent most of the time. I wish to be more pro-active. But I can never determine how much sleep I will bank or how well I will feel when it's time to get going.<br /><br />With depression and anxiety, the struggle starts internally and then is aggravated by the external environment. It interrupts my daily abilities. It rules my emotions. It ravages my routine. It leaves my inner clock unbalanced. And, ultimately, it manifests physically. In particular, depression triggers excessive pain and emotional flare up during my time of the month. No fair!<br /><br />I am riddled with excuses as to "why I can't" almost every day. I avoid others. I avoid plans. I avoid commitment. I need to cope with my symptoms privately. Because I do not have a poker face. I wear my heart on my sleeve.<br /><br />Living with depression is like being in a relationship with a wall. Some days you're able to work around it. But most days are like ugh! Just leave me alone. Let me be! It's always there, in your way. Your altered ego making you compromise the things you truly want; lie to others about the amount of time you actually sleep; and, creating a wedge between you and your own Will Power!<br /><br />The long and the short of it is that humans are not designed to thrive in such a fast paced society. We are disconnected from relationships while we waste our lives on social media. We push and push the younger generations to grow up too quickly. We rarely take the time to just sit and do nothing. It seems that our minds are trying to tell us there's a problem. Because more and more people are being diagnosed with mental illness. Our brains are not getting the right attention and nutrition, therefore we lose our emotions due to duress from imbalanced hormones. It's also related to the toxins in our environment and the strain on our physical health due to industry in this "dog-eat-dog" world.<br /><br />I personally believe that the&nbsp;best answer to this epidemic is natural and available to us. We need to slow down and have a cup of tea, so to speak. Stop planning for the inevitable and learn to live in the moment. We need to fuel our bodies right, release stress positively and return to organic lifestyles. I hope that one day I have the opportunity to move out to the county and connect back with nature, my symptoms will seize to bring so much drama into my life and allow me to live a comfortably humble existence.<br /><br />I know it will never go away. Most of us are predisposed to mental illness. But above all the stereotypical troubled minds in the world today, there's got to be a better way to live without perpetuating the cycle. And the answer just might be old wisdom.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">Keep your chin up doll!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-18893200731177075882015-09-12T01:57:00.001-07:002016-08-08T03:01:28.765-07:00A Call For Help ~ Suicide Awareness Week<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-4SYyOo5egyY/VfKHlGN1wsI/AAAAAAAABaU/-vgCuXGvN_o/s1600/kaboompics.com_iPhone%2B6%2Bplus%2Bin%2Bthe%2Bwater.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="426" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-4SYyOo5egyY/VfKHlGN1wsI/AAAAAAAABaU/-vgCuXGvN_o/s640/kaboompics.com_iPhone%2B6%2Bplus%2Bin%2Bthe%2Bwater.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">It was brought to my attention that it's Suicide Awareness Week. I shared the link I saw in my Facebook feed along with telling my personal story on the topic. To my surprise the post was received with much appreciation. It got a bunch of likes and positive comments overnight. A few friends and family members thanked me for sharing and complimented the depth to my words. In turn, that gave me a desire to share my thoughts on the blog and elaborate. If only to inspire one person to choose life.&nbsp;</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">So here it goes...&nbsp;When I was seventeen, I attempted susicide. However, I was blessed and surrounded by guardian angels, so the attempt was unsuccessful. Thank Goodness!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I can still remember the looks on my parents broken hearted faces. My dad was speechless and my mom was confused and tripping over her words. I totally threw them for a loop! I hurt their baby girl. And I'm truly sorry for that.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">During my three week stay at the hospital many friends and family came to visit me. What they all said in common was that I scared them. And they begged me to never do that again. I am sorry for causing them such worry.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Nowadays, when I get overwhelmed I recall those concerns of others. And I remind myself... <a href="http://www.easygoodness.com/2014/09/youre-never-really-alone.html">You're never really alone</a>. Someone cares about you and depends on you to be in their life. Everything is okay.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Recently, it dawned on me that I almost missed out on the last nineteen years of my awesome existence. Its' been wonderful and challenging and messy- because life is. But l get to SHARE it with my amazing network of loved ones. And lean on them when I'm not strong enough to take it all on my own.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">The real deal here on earth is that our lives, no matter how isolated or selfish we may feel, are not only ours. We belong to our community... You have so many fans it's ridiculous that you could even fathom a world without YOU! Seriously. So many people count on you just to be there.&nbsp;So please, if you ever feel the urge to take your own life, consider the domino effect you might create. Think of the people you'd be leaving behind and the pain that would cause them. Picture their sad faces over you.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">If you feel sorry for yourself. If you're disappointed or angry when you look in the mirror. Even if you think no one will forgive you or love you again, because in your heart you don't deserve it. You can change those thoughts. You can move on and find&nbsp;a sense of worth.. You can become your best self one day. You should look forward to meeting that person! Take the first step and get help now! Talk to a friend. Talk to a family member. Seek professional guidance. You can even talk to your cat (it works for me! lol)... My point is, don't keep it to yourself. It is your right to express! It helps to think out loud. Your burdens can be lifted simply by sharing with others.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Always remember that you are&nbsp;naturally&nbsp;beautiful and&nbsp;perfectly&nbsp;normal exactly the way you are. You're just navigating through a difficult time that your'e not equipped to handle alone. You're human. Mental illness is real. Just like the body, our psyches required TLC and time to heal. The mind is a mysterious thing.&nbsp;</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Living in a fast paced society that bombards us with pressure from dozens of sources to be everything except who we really are, is messing with our creative instinct. We push ourselves beyond human capacity. We forget to love ourselves because the media tells us we are not complete. But we are born whole. We come into this&nbsp;world pure and abundant. So what's missing? Don't be swayed by manipulated propaganda.&nbsp;You fill a space in others hearts and minds that can never be replaced. You come from love. So, love yourself from the inside out.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Be strong. Be you! Love your quirks &amp; imperfections.&nbsp;Don't be ashamed to admit you're in a funk if you've had a bad day that lasts for weeks. Life isn't always happy. If you're depressed, not everyone can understand you. But I guarantee someone will listen.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">You deserve the future that is yet to come. It's yours to design. You are an important part in others lives. It's true! Be thankful for the opportunity to make memories every day. You can learn to live with anxiety, depression, pain or stress and manage it well enough to enjoy life. I promise...&nbsp;I am living proof. I am here and now. I absolutely love the life I've created for myself! And, though I may still struggle most days, I know that I am lucky to be alive. I've had two decades of the greatest "do-over" one could ever imagine. I am thriving. And, I am so very grateful for that.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">xox</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-16584475078490299072015-07-24T05:27:00.001-07:002016-09-05T16:43:00.039-07:00Easy DIY Surface Wipes!!<div style="text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-W3B4PSFUt2A/VbIUVP0w2YI/AAAAAAAABXk/riYCIYZXwHs/s1600/IMG_3909.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-W3B4PSFUt2A/VbIUVP0w2YI/AAAAAAAABXk/riYCIYZXwHs/s640/IMG_3909.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">After popular demand from a few colleagues at work, I figured it's time I share my simple surface wipe recipe on the blog! It's easy to follow. You can make these wipes exactly as I do or play with the recipe as you like. All you need is a few ingredients, paper towels and a&nbsp;(plastic) container.<br /><br />I buy the&nbsp;<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: blue;">Lock &amp; Lock</span>&nbsp;containers at Walmart. I bought a few of them because I made one for a friend and needed one for work and home. These containers come with two littler sized pieces so be prepared to make a lot of snacks to fill those little guys. lol... I haven't been able to find these containers as individuals. You can use any container that you like. It doesn't have to be plastic either. I just find that these&nbsp;containers work the best.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Most homemade disinfecting wipe recipes on the internet call for white vinegar and water. I tried it. I actually clean with vinegar for most chores. But using the vinegar wipes on my desk at work was nauseating! lol... sitting there, for eight hours, smelling the vinegar lofting up from the desk... blah! I quickly changed the ingredients to water, rubbing alcohol and peroxide. Since I already use peroxide as a surface spray, straight on it's own to disinfect my work station before I make crafts. I thought why not use peroxide in my homemade surface wipes!? Ahhhh...&nbsp;Epiphany!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Peroxide is a natural disinfectant. Rubbing alcohol is antiseptic. And, both ingredients are completely non-toxic&nbsp;so it's a win-win-win and sure to beat cooties everywhere! &nbsp;The rubbing alcohol also acts as a de-streaking agent.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Distilled water is best. It just is. I find it at most grocery stores in the bottled water section.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">You don't have to use <span style="color: blue;">Bounty</span> paper towels, however make sure to use a quality brand. Whatever works for you! It's good to note that paper towel will slowly disintegrate when wet. So, the wipes will not last long with a lower grade brand. Most quality brands tend to use thicker designs which are also more durable for cleaning tough surfaces.<br /><br />Take one large paper towel role and cut it in half with a very sharp knife. I actually bought a new knife specifically for this job... It's almost like you have to saw the paper towel. Be patient and put some muscle into it! You might even have to pull each side and twist it apart because it's impossible to cut in a perfect line. There will be bits of material hanging&nbsp;about&nbsp;on the sawed end after the initial cutting. No worries. I just use sharp scissor to trim the bits off. There's no need for it to be perfect.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">If you don't know what castile soap is, you can use dish soap instead. But change the amount to four or five drops instead of half a tablespoon. I originally used dish soap as called for in another recipe and found it to be too bubbly. The bubbles leave residue on the surface which we don't want. Castile is very gentle and light on lather. The purpose of soap&nbsp;in this recipe is to loosen stickiness and grime making it easily wipe away. You can find castile soap at any natural/bulk store. I haven't checked but I think grocery stores might even carry it.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">I'd like to make a note about the essential oils chosen for this recipe. Each essential oil is known for its bacteria fighting and antiseptic properties; therefore, act as natural disinfectants.&nbsp;These three essential oils are also common in most areas and accessible to the public. Lastly, these essential oils used in small amounts are non toxic and safe for children and pets. You can change the ratios as you like. Or use your own favourite essential oils if you prefer. There are dozens of essential oils that can be used for this purpose. Be sure to do your own research.&nbsp;If you choose not to use any essential oils that is fine too.</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;">Now for the recipe!</div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: left;"><br /></div><h2>DIY Surface Wipes</h2><div><br /></div><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">1 Cup Distilled Water<br />1/2 Cup Hydrogen Peroxide</div></div><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">1/4 Cup Isopropyl Alcohol</div></div><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">1/2 Tbs Liquid Castile Soap</div></div><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">9 Drops Eucalyptus Essential Oil</div></div><div style="text-align: center;"><div style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">9 Drops Lavender Essential Oil</div></div>2 Drop Tea Tree Essential Oil<br /><br />A Tall&nbsp;<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: blue;">Lock &amp; Lock</span>&nbsp;Snap Tight Container<br />Half <span style="color: blue;">Bounty</span> Paper Towel Role<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">&nbsp;&nbsp;</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-r2HFCpH7yRw/VbIUDf5FdLI/AAAAAAAABW8/tC1U_cxKFKU/s1600/IMG_3904.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-r2HFCpH7yRw/VbIUDf5FdLI/AAAAAAAABW8/tC1U_cxKFKU/s400/IMG_3904.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-qy7H0rTLFlM/VbIUJdhB2bI/AAAAAAAABXE/AwFETNVb8ss/s1600/IMG_3906.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-qy7H0rTLFlM/VbIUJdhB2bI/AAAAAAAABXE/AwFETNVb8ss/s400/IMG_3906.JPG" width="400" /></a><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-oqo0vaeBLsE/VbIUQkcWXaI/AAAAAAAABXc/6IStV1G24pM/s1600/IMG_3903.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-oqo0vaeBLsE/VbIUQkcWXaI/AAAAAAAABXc/6IStV1G24pM/s400/IMG_3903.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">In a 2 Cup measuring glass, measure out the water, alcohol, peroxide and essentials oils. Stir. Add the castile soap last and stir very gently again, so as not to make many bubbles.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Slowly pour the liquid over the paper towel.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Ku4YWl2B_yk/VbIUCT59BZI/AAAAAAAABW0/gDStm1HIufg/s1600/IMG_3900.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Ku4YWl2B_yk/VbIUCT59BZI/AAAAAAAABW0/gDStm1HIufg/s400/IMG_3900.JPG" style="cursor: move;" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Leave the container with the lid on for about thirty minutes...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-0UJaJw8vIXA/VbIUKyrqVSI/AAAAAAAABXM/C3xOlw4smqE/s1600/IMG_3907.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-0UJaJw8vIXA/VbIUKyrqVSI/AAAAAAAABXM/C3xOlw4smqE/s400/IMG_3907.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><br /><div style="text-align: left;">After letting the liquids soak in to the paper towel the centre cardboard should slip out easily. If not, give it a few wiggles. Grab the edge of the paper towel and pull it up!</div><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-LdwFDg8UECg/VbIUPHkZMwI/AAAAAAAABXU/4SKduhm1zNA/s1600/IMG_3908.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-LdwFDg8UECg/VbIUPHkZMwI/AAAAAAAABXU/4SKduhm1zNA/s400/IMG_3908.JPG" width="400" /></a><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">There you have it! Your very own homemade disinfecting surface wipes! Save money and be good to yourself with a natural alternative!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I hope you try this easy DIY project and love it as much as I do. Thanks for stopping by!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Angélique</div></div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-6134449031501589942015-07-16T04:08:00.001-07:002016-08-08T03:02:13.256-07:00In The Garden And My First Harvest <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-Jsbqb_SIXIY/VaYuCR43GDI/AAAAAAAABVE/bUN7anPMk2I/s1600/IMG_3765.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-Jsbqb_SIXIY/VaYuCR43GDI/AAAAAAAABVE/bUN7anPMk2I/s640/IMG_3765.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><br />I'm in love with growing plants! And, intrigued by the prospect of growing produce. In my garden I am growing vegetables of all sorts! Well, to be honest just a few. But enough to keep me busy in the wee hours of the morning. :)<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-KeFFseT0U1s/VaYuFM1sjtI/AAAAAAAABVM/Jb7q9mSjNQo/s1600/IMG_3767.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-KeFFseT0U1s/VaYuFM1sjtI/AAAAAAAABVM/Jb7q9mSjNQo/s400/IMG_3767.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I've managed to keep my Swiss Chard lettuce alive for a few months now. I had started with spinach, leafy lettuce and the swiss chard but it was just too crowded and no one was happy. So I pulled up and tossed the other guys because they were yucky, then repositioned the swiss chard to give each bushel more space. I especially like Swiss Chard lettuce because it stands tall instead of drooping over and getting mushy in the dirt.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I learned quickly that lettuce needs to be pruned back often! At first, I was just pruning the largest/tall leaves to give the plants balance. But by mid june I was harvesting and eating home grown lettuce in my salads. Boo Ya! :)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-C_oXd66ZAfo/VaYuzAxl8nI/AAAAAAAABVg/iL_73QCw7Ww/s1600/IMG_3812.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-C_oXd66ZAfo/VaYuzAxl8nI/AAAAAAAABVg/iL_73QCw7Ww/s640/IMG_3812.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><br />I have two types of tomatoes. Super sweet tomatoes. And baby cherry tomatoes. So far I've harvested two big red sweet tomatoes! And one little cherry tomato... lol<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-mKzep2yFJUA/VaYuyiCKYDI/AAAAAAAABVc/lyjdwLroDx0/s1600/IMG_3825.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-mKzep2yFJUA/VaYuyiCKYDI/AAAAAAAABVc/lyjdwLroDx0/s400/IMG_3825.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-N_hsgOGX1rI/VaYu2p7lwyI/AAAAAAAABVs/DjjfrpKhLHc/s1600/IMG_3847.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-N_hsgOGX1rI/VaYu2p7lwyI/AAAAAAAABVs/DjjfrpKhLHc/s640/IMG_3847.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><br />My cucumbers and dill are growing tall. I wish I'd given the cucumbers a trellis to grow on in the beginning instead of tomato cages. But, I added a few long poles for those babies to twist and tie themselves around as they climb. The cucumbers have started to produce fruit (tiny cucumbers) after these lovely yellow flowers bloomed. I am growing Straight Eights and Baby Pickling cucumbers. I am super excited to jar some pickles this year. Garden gods willing...<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-m6I5u2OuoDQ/VaYu4xqtcfI/AAAAAAAABWA/ItoEKtTFYHg/s1600/IMG_3862.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-m6I5u2OuoDQ/VaYu4xqtcfI/AAAAAAAABWA/ItoEKtTFYHg/s400/IMG_3862.JPG" style="cursor: move;" width="400" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-6cvZ8KslWyo/VaYu4eMKAfI/AAAAAAAABV8/qC9V1WgFB-k/s1600/IMG_3816.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-6cvZ8KslWyo/VaYu4eMKAfI/AAAAAAAABV8/qC9V1WgFB-k/s640/IMG_3816.JPG" style="cursor: move;" width="476" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-zQxgBXblUJA/VaYu28rLYtI/AAAAAAAABVw/0BlK23Jr8x8/s1600/IMG_3852.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-zQxgBXblUJA/VaYu28rLYtI/AAAAAAAABVw/0BlK23Jr8x8/s400/IMG_3852.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><br />I was shopping for more garden accessories at the Dollarama and I stumbled upon this little guy... He's a thermometer! And, I love frogs! So, he's my little garden frog hanging on the window above the herbs.<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-u52BWa7b7-I/VaYu5bg5ABI/AAAAAAAABWI/8Qry_faCnH0/s1600/IMG_3880.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-u52BWa7b7-I/VaYu5bg5ABI/AAAAAAAABWI/8Qry_faCnH0/s640/IMG_3880.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><br />This is the first place I want to go after work. Actually, I go out on my balcony to look at my plants almost every time I come home from anywhere. The reality of growing a garden is a learning curve every day. I recently drilled holes in my vegetable pots and added the basin tubs so I can water the plants from the bottom. I'd read in a book that tomato plants are never to be watered from the top. And, I learned the idea to use the basin tubs from my aunt when she shared pictures of her tomato plants in containers on the sun deck.<br /><br />One positive thing about my growing efforts this year is the lessons and advice I've gathered. I have a ton of notes. I keep gardening books on my bedside table. And, I scour the internet for the best tips. I look forward to next year's growing season when I will have a better plan and understanding of the cycles that plants transition through during the seasons.<br /><br />For now, I just love being surrounded by the green and colourful life I've created and guided along with my own two hands. I am grateful for the experience.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: left;">What are you growing this year? Have you received much bounty from your garden? I'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments below.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Cheers!</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-31031479724724810882015-06-18T02:11:00.002-07:002016-08-08T03:02:32.826-07:00After a Season of Settling in I am Home...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-gEO4LqcDxnI/VYJu7dBwTuI/AAAAAAAABTk/UVb5zyd8YLA/s1600/IMG_3770.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-gEO4LqcDxnI/VYJu7dBwTuI/AAAAAAAABTk/UVb5zyd8YLA/s640/IMG_3770.JPG" width="478" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">This place. My new home. It's perfect! I am so thankful every single day! Filled with glee! Excited and alive again. I am certain that I have the ability to make anything happen. I would not be where I am right now, at this moment, if I didn't believe in that ability. All I have to do is imagine...&nbsp;Even when I couldn't visualize exactly what I was looking forward, I focussed on the feeling I was hoping for. I pretended I was already sitting somewhere new thanking the universe for guiding me there!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Welcome to my apartment! It's so nice to show you around.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-RydqDsDGB4k/VYJu5rhdDAI/AAAAAAAABTc/hWZX2tTk9Qs/s1600/IMG_3771.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-RydqDsDGB4k/VYJu5rhdDAI/AAAAAAAABTc/hWZX2tTk9Qs/s400/IMG_3771.JPG" width="298" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Here's what you see upon opening the front door...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-aYL2x1YvN8w/VYJvJcTWVOI/AAAAAAAABT8/9eJOc_y01UY/s1600/IMG_3772.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-aYL2x1YvN8w/VYJvJcTWVOI/AAAAAAAABT8/9eJOc_y01UY/s400/IMG_3772.JPG" width="298" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">...And, with the door closed.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-P-J9lu70aUY/VYJvOpRkqKI/AAAAAAAABUU/C0Mr1Fb5HOk/s1600/IMG_3777.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="298" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-P-J9lu70aUY/VYJvOpRkqKI/AAAAAAAABUU/C0Mr1Fb5HOk/s400/IMG_3777.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Here's a close up of the dining room window...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-Nmrddi-FVH0/VYJvL7LEMMI/AAAAAAAABUE/at7l7PioIoI/s1600/IMG_3773.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="298" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-Nmrddi-FVH0/VYJvL7LEMMI/AAAAAAAABUE/at7l7PioIoI/s400/IMG_3773.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">And, a shot of the dining room as seen from my most favourite perspective. The couch! lol...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-OrCVsC3xQI4/VYJvD-RchzI/AAAAAAAABT0/pbB5PQ-6es0/s1600/IMG_3774.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="298" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-OrCVsC3xQI4/VYJvD-RchzI/AAAAAAAABT0/pbB5PQ-6es0/s400/IMG_3774.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><br /><div style="text-align: left;">Take about ten strides forward and turn around. You'll see the living room from the dining area. It's a quaint little place I live in. I am overjoyed with the knowledge that I've made it to where I belong. I wanted to be here. I was most attracted to this location and the amenities of this building. I could not have asked for anything more! I received what I truly deserve. A clean, quiet &amp; secure home. And, the people who live in Tecumseh are so friendly!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-of03B3keZkM/VYJvMO-vYmI/AAAAAAAABUI/cQR7NwZb31E/s1600/IMG_3776.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="298" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-of03B3keZkM/VYJvMO-vYmI/AAAAAAAABUI/cQR7NwZb31E/s400/IMG_3776.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">I tried to picture every angle of the apartment... Here's a shot from the balcony. The living area is actually really spacious! And there is a ton of closet/storage space. My apartment is just right for me. I am very lucky to have received such a blessing. I keep finding more things to be thankful for too! How awesome is that!?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-qQdd3CcvJ7E/VYJu8t1GI3I/AAAAAAAABTs/Dwne9MpiOZo/s1600/IMG_3768.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-qQdd3CcvJ7E/VYJu8t1GI3I/AAAAAAAABTs/Dwne9MpiOZo/s640/IMG_3768.JPG" width="478" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Now, out on my balcony I have an oasis in the sky. A bird's eye view of the neighbourhood. The cats like to sit out there with with me. It's nice to have a little outdoor space. And it's especially great that my balcony is kind of private. I worked on a few projects to make use of this airy space.&nbsp;I put up chicken wire so the cats are safe.&nbsp;I'm growing a container garden of herbs and vegetables. As well as strawberries. I put up a beach umbrella for shade in the afternoon. And, I added a few splashes of colour with flower pots!</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">So, life is great on the home front. Work is good, but so busy and often overwhelming these days. I am especially thankful for my balcony oasis on those days. It's like a sunroom. My happy place.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">~ Namaste ~</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-65320853572183547592015-06-11T04:37:00.001-07:002016-08-08T03:02:53.476-07:00What I Really, Really, Really Want To Do...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-t7ogFN1-U5s/VXFJrEuyg6I/AAAAAAAABTI/wA_O_YQvpLs/s1600/IMG_3712.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-t7ogFN1-U5s/VXFJrEuyg6I/AAAAAAAABTI/wA_O_YQvpLs/s640/IMG_3712.JPG" width="476" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">It all started with Lucky and Boo...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I had two bamboo plants that I combined because at the time it made sense. (lol) At my old apartment Lucky-Boo shared a window with another plant I've had for over ten years now. In that window my bamboo flourished. It's leaves were emerald green. And it just kept growing. One day I decided to trim it down a bit. I'd heard that plants actually require some pruning which encourages new growth. I kept the trimmings in a vase with water because they were really pretty. You know those babies sprouted roots! So, I planted the trimmings in dirt topped with stones.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Unfortunately, my first attempt at unwittingly propagating a plant was unsuccessful and the trimmings died. But, Lucky-Boo still continued to grow long thick deep green leaves. And new shoots sprouted out.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">A while later (in fact last winter) I trimmed some cuttings again. But this time I paid better attention to nurturing them. I kept them in a large mayo jar. I left the water level at only a few inches and I changed it every week or so. I also took the time to rinse the individual bamboo cuttings at each water change. I think that step helped prevent moulds from taking over. I also learned by this point that bamboo doesn't really like dirt. It is happiest in gravel sized stones. And the water level should never be higher than the stones...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Another interesting factor I did differently this time is that I kept the cuttings all together in the large mayo jar for over four months. When I finally potted those babies the roots were about three inches in length! I think time made all the difference!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-nR9WNeBwyJA/VUNVoqBI1UI/AAAAAAAABSM/OsFJxPG7ubU/s1600/IMG_3610.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="478" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-nR9WNeBwyJA/VUNVoqBI1UI/AAAAAAAABSM/OsFJxPG7ubU/s1600/IMG_3610.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-3DhX_AOmu4g/VUNVlFxDNLI/AAAAAAAABR8/dvjW-kbyUb8/s1600/IMG_3612.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="478" src="https://3.bp.blogspot.com/-3DhX_AOmu4g/VUNVlFxDNLI/AAAAAAAABR8/dvjW-kbyUb8/s1600/IMG_3612.JPG" width="640" /></a></div><br />I placed two cuttings in each vase and gave two of those away. I'm keeping the third one and I named her Tes... (Yes, I name all my plants, lol)<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-re_-IpVlJQ4/VXFJnP7_bcI/AAAAAAAABTA/fV1SGZoUY9g/s1600/IMG_3718.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-re_-IpVlJQ4/VXFJnP7_bcI/AAAAAAAABTA/fV1SGZoUY9g/s400/IMG_3718.JPG" style="cursor: move;" width="400" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div>The feeling I had after giving away my babies was really humbling. It made me realize my purpose in life, a little more. And in one single epiphany EVERYTHING came together.<br /><br />I want to grow plants for a living. I'd like to bring more awareness to <a href="http://www.easygoodness.com/p/gardening.html">Aquaponics</a> and other self sustaining techniques. Since I'd rather spend my days in the garden than working at an office I think it would be a blessing to grow organic produce to sell locally. And, manage a nursery of seedlings, flowers and bamboo! My goal is to make it a year round production because I plan to grow indoors in large greenhouses. I might even have a worm farm!<br /><br />So this is my new dream! I'm warmed by the memories of when I used to follow my grandma around her massive garden. My sister and I would pick strawberries, peas and cucumbers and eat them right there. I know I inherited my green thumb from my grandma. So, when I visit her in the nursing home I am eager to tell her about my houseplants and the vegetable I'm trying to grow. :)<br /><br />What are your big dreams? Do you believe they really come true? Tell me what you think in the comments below. Sometimes, just knowing what you want is enough to make it happen...<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">Be Free To Choose,</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-43149389014926568102015-04-24T01:23:00.001-07:002016-08-08T03:03:27.676-07:00The Air Upon My Face...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-etgPowE32pw/VTn2m93tuFI/AAAAAAAABRk/MaEG7Nkwv3E/s1600/kaboompics.com_Dried%2Bgrass%2Bnear%2Bthe%2Blake.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="426" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-etgPowE32pw/VTn2m93tuFI/AAAAAAAABRk/MaEG7Nkwv3E/s1600/kaboompics.com_Dried%2Bgrass%2Bnear%2Bthe%2Blake.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br /><div style="text-align: center;">I just want to be outside.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Touching the grass.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Feeling the air upon my face.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I want to break out of this corner!</div><div style="text-align: center;">Find a new purpose</div><div style="text-align: center;">And leave this place.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I just want to go outside.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Hear the breeze in the trees.</div><div style="text-align: center;">See the birds give chase.</div><div style="text-align: center;">If I could go outside...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">I just want to be outside.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Sitting quietly.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Feeling the air upon my face.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I want to get out of this corner!</div><div style="text-align: center;">Stop holding my breath</div><div style="text-align: center;">And leave this place.</div><div style="text-align: center;">I just want to lay outside.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Bathe in the sun's rays.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Drop out of the race.</div><div style="text-align: center;">Lets go outside...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">~ADB~</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">It's spring and I'm wishing for some fresh air. And when it finally gets here I won't have much time to enjoy it because I work nights. I could enjoy the day, if I woke up earlier. But I don't really like the daytime. It's too bright! On the weekends I get up earlier (or stay up altogether) to enjoy the day and get errands done. I basically work afternoons and sleep a midnight schedule. My bedtime is between 6am to 8am. And I usually wake up by 4pm. So I'm cooped up (at work) during my peak hours... The early evening is my favourite time of day. I love a good sunset!</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Ah, if I could be outside more often life would be a little more breezy. Hmm, I think I'm gonna get back in the habit of going for a walk on my break. Yea! That should help me feel less stress. And give me the pick up that I need to get through the busy work day!</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">The poem is just a rant by the way. I feel better, thanks! ;)</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9212469681978953842.post-91271027525282340262015-04-23T03:34:00.001-07:002016-08-08T03:04:28.922-07:00Out With The Old...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-qVTKXYGjvaM/VTi-aI9MbPI/AAAAAAAABQs/ogdkf4o0HA0/s1600/kaboompics.com_Old%2Bwooden%2Bwindow.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-qVTKXYGjvaM/VTi-aI9MbPI/AAAAAAAABQs/ogdkf4o0HA0/s1600/kaboompics.com_Old%2Bwooden%2Bwindow.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br />I did not expect this long journey of change would consume so much of my time that I'd refrain from blogging for such a long period... Nearly two months have gone by since I last posted anything new. I do apologize for that. I can guarantee it won't happen again. At least, not in the near future. :)<br /><br />I may have been quiet on the blog but I have been quite busy in the real world. I moved in the middle of march and since then I've been working overtime just about every day! I love that I have the opportunity to work so much and make the extra money. But it's really taking a toll on me spiritually and creatively. In fact I know I could have written these last weeks but I just didn't have the energy. Or, the inspiration. Even though I am ridiculously happy. I'm just not "On" these days...<br /><br />I didn't have pictures on my computer to show the before and after of this grand adventure. So my plan to write an epic series of blog posts about my move just didn't seem to fall in to place. But, here are a few pics of the old place upon packing it all up.<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-j7nMBY2cYA8/VTi_FRXpncI/AAAAAAAABQ0/oZIrB6W-_uc/s1600/IMG_3534.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="298" src="https://2.bp.blogspot.com/-j7nMBY2cYA8/VTi_FRXpncI/AAAAAAAABQ0/oZIrB6W-_uc/s1600/IMG_3534.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-laeR-McR9FU/VTi_QOWRUNI/AAAAAAAABQ8/WvR-JEbp_JA/s1600/IMG_3557.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-laeR-McR9FU/VTi_QOWRUNI/AAAAAAAABQ8/WvR-JEbp_JA/s1600/IMG_3557.JPG" width="298" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-BYXx4y6vpIw/VTi_YqWWAmI/AAAAAAAABRE/VtKj-s-aXNY/s1600/IMG_3558.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="298" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-BYXx4y6vpIw/VTi_YqWWAmI/AAAAAAAABRE/VtKj-s-aXNY/s1600/IMG_3558.JPG" width="400" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-FJQU4MCKel0/VTi_lIM0P7I/AAAAAAAABRM/z2tz2eq6UYk/s1600/IMG_3554.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://4.bp.blogspot.com/-FJQU4MCKel0/VTi_lIM0P7I/AAAAAAAABRM/z2tz2eq6UYk/s1600/IMG_3554.JPG" width="478" /></a></div><br />This last picture belonged to my parents when I lived in the first house I grew up in. It has a partner with a longer phrase but this one is my favourite. I truly believe that smiles and a joyful spirit are contagious. Everyone genuinely means well. We just get wrapped up in our own bullshit that we forget to smile sometimes.<br /><br />I had this picture and a bunch of other items from my parents up until this last move. They were pieces of my childhood. I donated the things I needed to let go of.&nbsp;I'm not gonna lie.&nbsp;It was hard to say goodbye to many items. But it was time.<br /><br />It's interesting to note how dark the colours were in my last place. I didn't realize how dim it was at the time...<br /><br />I'll write another post about my new apartment shortly. I just needed a jump-start to get back in the groove of writing &amp; posting again. So there we have it. The end of an era! Shake it off!<br /><br />I am excited for this wonderful new beginning. And blessed to be guided by angels.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">Thanks for listening,</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">OXO</div><div style="text-align: center;">Angélique</div>Angélique Dawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09456983623155512456noreply@blogger.com0