Taking the Leap (Advise)

As a long time lurker I finally decide to join the community. During my many years reading many great posts and ideas I built up a strong trust in the
members of this fine gathering, i strongly believe that this population of people small compared to the world population is is full of many of the
earths finest Philosophers, theorists, and various other "Basement genuineness" as i like to put it to my colleges when discussing topics that i read
on this site daily.

my trust in this community has amassed to the point where i am now able to ask for some advise on the state of my current mental condition.

The Condition: Overview

I am 28 year old Male experiencing a mental issue for the past 5 years that i am trying to self assess, due to the nature of my employment "Military"
i am unable to seek professional help because getting a certain "Flag" and or "Label" will cause many problems for me, certainly cannot afford to lose
my income as i have children to support, and do not want to be placed on any "medication" and become put on some list, that would certainly prevent me
from owning firearms as i am an avid hunter and outdoors-man, i supplement my families diet with wild nutritious meat and homegrown vegetables.

Condition Symptoms:

- Increasing occasions of not being able to remember peoples last names and rank makes for some very awkward situations (military), and happens with
the people that i work with, i think they are starting to notice.

- having some problems processing most relatively easy tasks, the outcome is usually bare minimum or sub-par and according to peoples body language i
have come to the conclusion that they must think that i am "Retarded" "Dumb" and what not. this happens quite frequently.

- when being spoken too and given directions my perception of time slows down by a factor of 0.80 (estimate) not sure really how to explain it
possible (adrenaline disorder) (peanal gland dis-function).
also when in conversations with most people i tend to focus my attention directly on their mouth as if to lip-read them but my hearing is 100%
according to the military.

- Sudden bouts of panic, nervousness, shaking hands, feeling heat. about once every 2 weeks. sometimes i have to find a place to sit and take deep
breaths to calm heart rate. again military says i am 100% healthy.

There have been a few cases of CWS in my area Adirondacks NY State a couple of years ago but nothing recent and the deer that i take, do not appear to
have any of the symptoms, as to the squirrel meat a very vague memory from my youth 5years old my grandfather used to make squirrel and rabbit stew i
remember seeing them hanging and the taste was interesting.

thank you for reminding me of the Squirrel i will do some research on that.

There have been a few cases of CWS in my area Adirondacks NY State a couple of years ago but nothing recent and the deer that i take, do not appear to
have any of the symptoms, as to the squirrel meat a very vague memory from my youth 5years old my grandfather used to make squirrel and rabbit stew i
remember seeing them hanging and the taste was interesting.

thank you for reminding me of the Squirrel i will do some research on that.

I asked because there were studies done on clusters of CJD in Tennessee. It affected women in rural areas. It turned out that the common thing among
these women was the fact that they cooked squirrels with the heads on and ate the brains. Men and children did not tend to partake of the brains.

I have PTSD and have most of those same symptoms but I would never want you to think that you have PTSD based on what several doctors told me.

You really need to find a professional that you can trust and go that route. It is always best to be safe than sorry. There are just so many things
that could produce some of the same symptoms that without running tests it would be impossible to diagnose.

ATS has some great people here and a lot of them have fantastic ideas and some of them are even Phd's but without those tests even they would be hard
pressed to come up with a concrete diagnoses.

Thank you, i was starting to think that i was the only one experiencing this, I will investigate this further. The problem being is finding a doctor
that will follow patient doctor confidentiality when dealing with a military member.

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