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I ended up in the emergency room today. I really didn’t want to make a big deal of it, even more so, I didn’t want to admit how scared I was. I’ve been fighting a migraine since three am yesterday. While not fun it’s not the worst or longest one I’ve had. When I was pregnant for Mad I experienced one for fifteen straight days and remained hospitalized the entire time while they ran test after test on me trying to figure out the cause. After a MRI they had decided I had an aneurism rupture in my brain. Thankfully they were able to rule that out after a spinal tap. The only relief of the dreadful endless headache was giving birth to my precious premature baby girl. The headache was instantly gone and I didn’t experience another one like it until nineteen days before I gave birth to Bitty. Same thing, no real understanding of why I had it and the only cure was giving birth to our fourth premature miracle. Thankfully with that pregnancy I was allowed to stay home on bed rest. The last week before they induced me I refused all form of medication to prevent her from having to stay in NICU for an extended amount of time. It was a brutal week, but so worth it for my lil one.

Needless to say. This headache business is no fun. I had an unusual amount of salt intake (I don’t cook with salt at all) on Sunday and just chalked it up to that. I cook so healthy at home that eating that Chinese food and then even pizza that evening with friends was more than my body is used to anymore. Yesterday was no fun. Sunlight made me queezy. Sound wasn’t all that pleasant. But life could be worse and it didn’t prevent me from making it to our girls two different events. Besides after rocking the migraines I did while pregnant, shouldn’t this be a walk in the park? Okay, so not quite, but you get the point.

So this morning I wake up and yep it’s still lingering. Only I had a very sharp pain on the right side of my head that rushed across my right side of face and it all instantly went numb for a few minutes and then started tingling. Scared me a good bit knowing our family history and that my Granny had an aneurism rupture in her brain and my Maw-Maw had one rupture in her stomach. But almost a quick as it all came on the pain, numbness, and tingling let up. So I messaged Matt at work and he was instantly worried. I really didn’t want to make a big deal of it, but then it happened again as we were discussing it. Damn it! So I called a doctor and told the receptionist what happened and she casually booked me an appointment for this afternoon. When it happened a third time I was getting uneasy with it and feeling unsure about waiting all day. I didn’t want to make Matt have to rush home, and Lord knows I did not want to go to the hospital. So I called a nurse at my other doctor and she said I absolutely needed to get to the hospital right away and should be worried, even beyond the family history. Ugh! That was not what I wanted to hear. So being me, I asked my neighbor to drop me off at the hospital. I really didn’t want to worry anyone. So my son went with me while my mom stayed home with my little ladies. They rushed me back and as soon as the doctor ordered a cat scan I really got scared. And that’s when I called Matt and admitted that I was there and apologized for trying to protect him from worrying by not telling him. Let’s face it, anyone that knows me knows I would have been livid if the shoe had been on the other foot. I absolutely should not have tried to keep it from him regardless of my desire to protect him. He’s my husband and the first person that should have been in the know. I was beyond relieved that he was on his way. Especially since I had to have a cat scan. I am so claustrophobic and no matter how open that big machine is it still gives me anxiety to have to go through it. Thankfully it was quick and painless, which didn’t prevent the tears. I was relieved to get it over with. And even more so when the results were back and they were good!

The doctor said he believes my concerns were accurate. He thinks the unusual for me amount of salt intake triggered the migraine. And that he feels the numbness and tingling is a type of side affect of the migraine. He sent me home with meds and said if it continues beyond a few days I need to see a neurologist. I came home and slept off the meds they gave me that made me groggy beyond words. Unfortunately when I woke up the headache is still here as is the numbness and tingling in my face that is slowly working it’s working it’s way across my face. So it looks like a waiting game until my body decides to let it go. As I continue to drink a ton of water. It’s no fun, obviously, but I am beyond thankful that it is nothing serious.

As I waited in the hospital scared beyond measure I posted an unspoken prayer request on a social media. I can’t even begin to tell you the comfort it brought to have so many family and friends offering up kind, uplifting, and encouraging words when they didn’t even know what was going on. A perfect example of God’s love and will. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart for giving me the strength I needed as I anxiously waited to find out what was wrong with me. As a wife and mama of four I often put myself and needs on the back burner so to speak. I knew instantly this wasn’t something to ignore. I’m glad that for once I didn’t decide to be stubborn!

On a better note, I want to wish my beautiful sister a very happy birthday! She has only been gone a few days and we already miss her like crazy! I’m just thankful we got to celebrate her birthday with her while she was here for her visit a few days early.

Since the Texas summer heat seems to be ready to hang around already we decided this afternoon was a good day to take our lil monsters swimming for the first time this year. Jen and her two girls joined us. Aub and Mad had zero hesitation to jump back into the water. Of course Mad is still rocking her floaties until she starts her swimming lessons with her Guncle! Bitty however took a little longer and stayed clung to me for a majority of the time. But before we came home she had gained a little confidence and play with some pool toys and roamed between Matt, Budah, and I. I’m sure having a kiddie pool in our neighborhood was helpful since her little tootsies could touch bottom. Won’t be long before our lil monsters are out of school and we are spending many days up at that pool with fam and friends!

Last night maw-maw watched her grand babies so that Matt, Lindsey, and I could go enjoy an evening with Alex and “his Matt” (Gets confusing when your friend has a husband with the same name as your’s, so our solution has been “my Matt” and “your Matt” etc etc). So Alex & “his Matt” suggested we try out a new to us place that they love called “The Monterey”. Interesting is the best word I’ve got for my opinion of the place and well the company is always fantastic. “My Matt” often jokes that if he wants to get me to try something new he will just have my gays suggest it. It’s a good thing “my Matt” knows how much I love him so I let that wise crack slide, ha ha. Anyway, my sister and I took the safest route we could and got the New Orleans style BBQ shrimp. I won’t go in to the rest that went on at that restaurant, because I still may be in shock about those happenings!Afterwards we went over to their house for our usually weekly drag show we love to watch! I just love visiting with these fellas and am glad my sister got to go with us this time!

My sister and I woke up super early to spend as much time with each other before she left today. Neither of us were very happy that she had to go, but no doubt she missed her two lil men that are back from camping with their grandparents. We have so enjoyed having this week together. She has been under so much stress and I only pray we made it a little easier for her. Unfortunately, and well sort of a blessing in disguise, A Fiesta event caused her to miss her almost noon trip and we had to reschedule her to this evening instead. I was beyond grateful to have her for an extra seven hours of course! So we scooped up my friends two kiddos, ran home to grab a birthday present, and we were off to our lovely niece’s 7th “Frozen” birthday! The kiddos had so much fun, it’s always nice to see my sister-in-law, and I got to catch up with my mother-in-law as well about a project her and I are anxious to work on together! Uncle Matt was in charge of the piñata that wasn’t all that cooperative and fell off of the rope twice before even five kiddos got to hit it. But I think it’s safe to say those munchkins weren’t phased by not all getting their swing at it. Bitty however was thrilled to take her first swing at a piñata!Then as if our lil monsters haven’t had enough fun with the 150+ cascarones last weekend on Easter Sunday they got to take another crack at their all too willing Daddy again today. Take note that our sneaky little Mad hid her’s behind her back while she anxiously waited her turn to get her Daddy too!After the party we squeezed in a trip to the library to get some books and then our fave craft store to get the supplies I need to make the invitations to Mad’s 5th birthday party. Then it was sadly time to drop my sister off. I’m so glad I didn’t go alone, because our little ladies and my love were super supportive when I fell apart. I am pretty sure I missed her before she was out of town and Bitty has asked “where’s Lin-Lin?” at least a dozen times since.

It’s time to start planning Mad’s fifth birthday party. Months ago she started telling me she wants a Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory birthday party. She is absolutely a girl that knows what she wants! And since it’s her favorite movie, I’m not at all surprised that this was her choice after she watched me plan Bitty’s Wizard of Oz second birthday party a few months back. So tonight Matt, Lindsey, and I watched the movie to get some party planning ideas. I’m so excited to have my sister here to do some brain storming with me! While I love Johnny Depp, I can’t help but to be excited that she wants the original Willy Wonka instead of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. It’s going to take some creativity, but I can’t wait to see our sweet girl’s face when her soon approaching day arrives. Let the planning begin!

My sister and I decided to go catch a movie after dinner. We saw “Heaven Is For Real”. I couldn’t help but to be happy that there were three Christian movies in the theaters to choose from. But a little taken aback by the fact that there were only nine people including us there to see it. Maybe it was because it was a school night after eight o’clock? I don’t know. But what I do know is it is based on a true story and there is a book that I had already heard of many years ago and now I really want to read it. The movie was fantastic in my opinion! So much so I can’t wait to watch it again with Matt. And thankfully I laughed as much as I cried. Such a good soulful movie that really makes you think and gives you hope.

It was nice to get out for a bit with my sister though. These little monsters are enjoying having her around as much as I am. Less than four hours of her being here and Bitty was walking through the house asking “where’s Lin-Lin?” Over and over when she had stepped outside. I absolutely love how much our lil one has taken to her, because she is normally not a fan of people she isn’t familiar with. I guess she just knows good people when she sees them.