This a breathing exercise in releasing fear and relinquishing control, to increase capacity to take in what is possible, and to make room for the creative life I have always imagined. This is my transformation from dreamer to doer, from self-doubt to self empowerment, from closet to professional creative artist. This is your space to do the same.

Here I Go!

I am waiting for my train, unable to sit still, as I make my way to my first day of class. You see, I have recently been accepted into an acting conservatory, and today is the very first day of the program.

I had to submit an application, get letters of recommendation, write an essay, and audition. I was so nervous about getting in; they only accept ten people into the program every year, and I was worried my audition wasn’t… enough. It was a fun audition though, I was given notes and a chance to deepen my performance. I also learned a lot about what not to do… like, just because you’re nervous, don’t apologize at the beginning of your audition, that puts the auditioners off, and makes them think you’re an unprepared amateur. Despite that slip up, I got in!

I am now about to embark on a year of intensive professional actor training. I am so grateful, excited, and anxious at the same time. It’s been a long time since I’ve trained formally, and I’ve never trained on a professional level before. This is huge for me. I had to first admit that I have been afraid all these years but that I still really want it. The desire to perform and tell stories has never gone away. No matter how much I tried to follow a “normal” path and get a “real” job.

So here I am, riding the subway train toward my new beginning. Here I go…

By the way, you’re coming with me. #FieldTrip I’ll be sharing my experiences along the way.