The text
of a talk given at Parklands by Eugene Halliday, 24th June
1984. Ishval Audio 93.

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Right,
subject matter “Freedom.” Shortly we have to say freedom is not
total lack of constraint so that energy can operate anywhere
regardless of circumstance. Freedom is not total lack of respect. Now
we will be doing a drawing to illustrate this, ignoring the dark
smoke there. Imagine a field of light, Infinite light, nothing but
Infinite light. That Infinite light is the light of the Absolute and
is consciousness itself without an object. Now you all know what it
is like to gaze into a very powerful light, how it causes halations
in the retina so that you cannot see anything through the excess of
light; so that creation of forms which are going to be visible,
presupposes a shut down of the amount of light. So that creation is a
reduction of Infinite Consciousness into a state of finitude. Let the
light on the screen represent Infinite Light, no object there to look
at, it is a pure consciousness objectless, limitless in every way.
Now that pure consciousness is the God-head, the source of the God.
Most people think that God, as Creator, is the highest, no but, God
as Creator is a step down from the Infinite Godhead, the Infinite
light of consciousness. Now, in order to produce an object, this
light must focus. Now I want to represent the focus. Focus means
fo-cus- force-striking.

Now
imagine the Infinite Light, extended spherically in all directions,
imagine that it has a power, because it is sentient, to look inwards
to itself. I am going to put a little dot there to represent the
focal point, that is the initial condensation, I nearly said
condemnation, which would have been correct any way. It is a
condemning. Now this in the Hebrew would be represented as the letter
yudיwhich
is written like that. It is the famous English word jot or dot. It is
the contraction, the contra-action of the Infinite Field of
consciousness. It gives itself thereby, a reference centre, and
without this reference centre there would be no individuated
consciousness of the kind that we call individual human awareness.
When we put that dot in the middle of the screen there we are to
think it represents an in – tention, an inner tension,
psychologically, an intention to have a centre. And there is no
centre unless there is an intention to have a centre. The wandering
mind, without a centre, has no proper intention, it is vague,
chaotic, meandering and only if there is inserted into it, or
introjected, thrown into it, a particular finite centre can there be
an individuated being.

Now when that being is thrown down there, that is a jot, of which
Rabbi Jesus says, “Not one jot,” not one single yud or
tittle, a little critical mark, not one of those shall pass away
until all the logic of existence shall be fulfilled. All form
presupposes a positing of a point of reference. Now, when the point
of reference is posited, there is a collapsing onto that point of
Infinite Consciousness, so that point is the equivalent to what the
astronomers call a Black Hole. You have got a red hole in this case
because the black pen would not work, and as red
symbolises energy, it is quite correct to use it. It is a focal point
of energy, en erg y means ‘in work affirming. It has gone
into centre to work on itself. Now, when it contracts in that way, it
makes this focal point which is the very initial beginning of
individuation. All individuation is form and all form is punctilious,
all form is individual. It depends on contraction of power to make
that form. There is our first form.

Now if it
stopped at that level, there would simply be a tension in the middle
of the Infinite Light and that tension would be simply one point.
Whereupon, when we write the name of God we would write a yud to
symbolise that point and immediately we write that point, we would
see that the space around it is not identical, formally, with the
point. Can we see that? The moment we posit the point, relatively the
space around it has now become empty. We have filled it with the
point of intention. Our life is nothing but intention we internally
posit in our field of awareness. So around this point, there is a
field. I won’t put it t

י

ה

here I will put it here. This is a Hebrew letter Hė, הwhich means

‘field
of life’, the life itself. When you say “Lachaim,” to life, a
toast, you are saying let there be a field of inter-est, a field of
interest around this point. And, instead of using that square letter
I am simply going
to draw a circle round that point. I want you see that circle could
have been drawn further up, further up, further up, to infinity. The
Field is Infinite but the intention zone is finite.

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Now the
intention zone is an idea. Idea is Greek for form, id - it, ea
- life action. Let us write that word, I, that is the point in
which we draw the line and put the dot on top to locate it, id
is the same as the word ‘it’, three-fold life, think, feel, will
activated. The word ‘idea’ presupposes a formal intent to create
diversity in the life-field-activity.

Yud hé vav
hé

י
ה ו ה

Now,
we don’t normally spread our consciousness out to infinity because
if we do so, we lose formal consciousness, so we tend to zone, to
make a Z O N E. That means ‘zealous unity.’ Where the point of
focus, we centre and we are aware that round the focus there is a
zone of less focus, the dot as field, that is the second letter of
this name. We can transliterate this and read it that way, yah,
that is the contacted form of Jehovah. Hé,הmeans spirit, Hija, that is the same as the ‘hai’
in lachaim. Life, yah is an affirmation zone in which
an idea is emotively charged, deliberately to create focal
individuated consciousness. So, it is said the Absolute posits the
yud, or figurately it has sent down the yud from
infinity into finity and then, coming from infinity, He hits the yud
and it goes out to a certain distance and then it comes back again
like that. Now it goes to a certain distance because if it does not
go to as-certain, that means ‘hard held distance’ it would go to
infinity in which case, the energy would disperse itself absolutely
and again, there would be no object of consciousness, no Universe, no
Cosmos, no World, no individual beings. So the intention to make a
thing would produce static form. And then the Absolute energy presses
through the static form, goes out a certain, that is a hard held,
distance; back again and pressing into the yud shoots out of
the yud, like that, so the yud shot out, becomesaוlike
that, and the moving power coming out of the first yud there,
by the movement of the egression, rotates. So I am going to put a
little spin round there. That is a vortical spin produced by a moving
form. If you blow air, like this, into air, the air into which you
blow it, spins. Round the column of air that you blow, a field has
occurs and because a field occurred we must write again, another hé.
You now have the Yud a Hé a Vav a Hé,
and that is the word, translated in English, Jehovah.

T

יִוּ

his
spinning out force now dynamises the whole process, so that we have a
being with an idea, yud one, and now draw it vertically, yud
one, a field round the idea, pushing through the yud, the
yud becomes a vav a driving power which develops a field
round itself, like that and pushes down until it meets an ultimate
resistance called matter. When we write this word, ‘dreadfully’,
it is simply the drawing of primal Cosmic Man, that is Adam Kadman,
primal man. Original Man, is a being with an idea, a feeling of that
idea, a drive from centre, from heart, and a field around the drive.
Can you see that it is quite different in feeling experience to have
an idea and feel the idea is an interesting idea, and just have it in
your mind as an idea? And then there is, “I think I will put this
idea into practice.” So you hold the idea in your mind, and then
you push the idea so that little dot is elongated, yud becomes
vav. The idea has now become a driving force and the driving
force has made a vortex around it while it is going along and this is
the origin of time. Time is nothing but driving forces pushing
through Infinite space.

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Fresh
start. We are now going to consider freedom. Now the ‘free’ part
means…, and the F was originally a drawing of the phallus but that
does not mean the male physical organ, it means the power of
consciousness directed towards an object in a playful manner. Pha
lus means intelligent play, it is not penile. The word ‘penis’
and penalty’ and punishment are all related together, but ‘phallus’
is intelligent. Penis is not. When we see that we see a force which
is to become operative. Turn the letter round like this and it is a
squared off drawing of an Egyptian letter like that, but it does not
refer to the physical organ of a male human being or animal, it
refers to intelligence, pha, related to phenomena, means
‘light’ phar means pi-law, intelligent ratio, plus
‘lus’ which means ‘free play.’ Phallus means ‘free,
intelligent, relational interplay, but intelligent, not stupid.

Let us
look at that very carefully. When the dot is posited, it is a
contraction of the Infinite. There are no finites that are not
absolute intentions to be. The value of the human individual as
individual is precisely this, that infinity is supporting, is
introjecting, its own representative in the individual centre of
consciousness. That is the developed human intelligence is a god,
that is a precipitate of Infinite Intelligent Power.

Now, if
that were to remain only there and nothing else, there would be no
relation, so, as we have seen, the Infinite comes, presses through
that and goes to a certain limit, that is representative of the
serpent with tail in mouth, the periphery, as far as you will to
focus. Later on, that will evolve in the animal world and the human
world and that dot will be the pupil power, pi-law, the learner of
experience and the rest of it will be the ball of the eye. So that is
the first drawing of an eye, and the waves of infinity are going like
this, making the lid, the constraining forces, a wave passes from
Infinity that way and this way producing a stabilisation by
opposition of Intelligent Sentient Power.

Now, the
space between the dot and the periphery, that space, is a zone of
action possibility. The dot itself, when contracted down, does not
move. It is a centre of reference. The periphery is the limiting
factor that stops you expanding to infinity and so avoids you losing
your individuality.

Eugene
how do you focus, how does that Alpha, the outer circle, that zone,
how is that arrived at from the idea, how does it get its distance
from its focus?

How does
a point get its distance and focus? The whole process is in Infinite
consciousness and the Infinite looking into itself, in the act of
in-looking, posits the point of reference for itself. Simply
inter-est in self creates that point of reference, Now look at the
space in between, and when we think, if I move my arm like this
through space, we tend to think the space is empty or void, but it is
not. The space is power attenuated, held to avoid it condensing the
whole of infinity upon that point. If the whole of infinity goes onto
that point, that would be an intense gravitational centre far worse
than any Black Hole imagined by the astronomers. All reality would
condense onto that point and be totally immobilised. So the
attention, the tension that generated it is relaxed and returned but
as we said, returned not to infinity but to a finite limit and is
then turned back again on the centre in a re-flexive act, reflexive
bending back.

Now our
awareness that we exist as individual human beings is there only when
we reflect and we bend back consciousness. If we become aware of the
external object and forget our own being, we get lost in the object.
But if we return the consciousness to the consciousness then we don’t
get lost, we retain individuation because we posit that individuation
by in-tent to know the Self.

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Now,
we can repeat this diagram all the way round, so we can go like this
and it would go continuously, changing its axis like the precession
of the equinoxes and there would be a continuous generation of a
point at centre and a continuous maintenance of a periphery and a
continuous traversing from centre to periphery of the intent to be
and to be aware and to be actual. So the zone between the point and
the periphery we call the action zone. If you would like me to
complicate it further I will do this. We can go all the way round
doing this. If we do this in this manner, this is called the
Mercurial wheel of being and is actually a real, not an allegorical
yantra, a real diagram of the mental process that we use all the
time, usually without awareness. We look out with interest, we take
the interest back into centre, see how it relates to my intention and
go out and have another look. And we continuously go to centre and go
out and back to centre and in this process we generate immortality,
that is, non-dyingness because we continuously reposit; we die when
we lose the interest absolutely, we let go of the object, we let go
of the jot and we let ourselves relax, back to the Infinite which
posited us in the first place and this relaxation from the point of
view of the existent dot is death. But that death is an entry into
the eternal infinite life. All this is the action band, and we want
to show a slight change and increase in complexity.

There is
our prime point, and through it, from Infinity to a certain distance,
we are making a snake with curly mouth, goes the power of the intent
to be. Now the second letter of the alphabet is B and the letter B
originally was a circle and then later on they changed it in various
ways. In English we write like this, but you might not notice that
that is really this diagram, taken with half, like that. Being has
two aspects, the gross physical aspect and the subtle, mental aspect.
So to be from the point of view of a bi- ological being, bi meaning
two, one must have a gross body, represented by the periphery, and
one must have a centre of initiation represented by the dot in the
middle, you are beings of creative initiative, bound in a world. Now
the creative initiative is free, so I am going to write F for the
phallic, not penile F for the phallic, enlightened power which loves
to come out and play. When it does so, it writes an R onto the F
which means to differentiate, to discriminate, to pluralise, to make
varieties, so that that base frr as in Friday signifies this
power, from the centre positing differences from centre. It is
throwing out possibilities.

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Now as
the…, we will write the word down here, the phallus intelligent,
playing power, differentiates itself and makes of itself a
three-fold life and perpetuates it in a primitive language if you
wish to express continuity you just repeat the word. Like you would
say to somebody, go, go, go, go, go, go, until they were out of
sight. In this case you see FRE, life and repeat E, E, E, E, E, E, E,
E, E, life, life eternal. From the centre of being, wells up a
fountain of eternal life. And it goes out from there and it goes to a
distance ‘certain’ that is ‘hard held to avoid dissipation in
infinity. And then it comes back. Now you can see, the zone
immediately near the free here, is the field of free power, but
because of the ‘certain’ that means ‘hard held,’ actually the
CER in certain should be pronounced like K, ‘kertain, and the
curtains you hang up have the same basic root, that is the curbing or
curving which turns you around your centre of interest and this is
called the ‘dome.’ That is like the vault of the heaven around
the Sun. Now the Sun is shining and going out and is being turned
back by other cosmic forces to re-feed the Solar System. In the same
way that the attention of an individual goes out and then goes back
to re-feed the person in so far as they have interest, no further.
Now just as near the centre there, where the initiative is, the
effect is immediate so that the innermost part of your being actually
knows what it is doing, so, on the periphery, where another of these
can be formed from outside and produced there contingency.

Where
the two beings, this is another being over here with the same
problem, here they interfere with each other by rubbing, by friction,
and we call that the external stimulus. Now, just as near the centre
there is very clear and obvious fact, the initiative has not yet had
to fight much of the power around that zone, but the nearer it gets
to its periphery where it encounters another being, the more inertia
it encounters. So we are going to draw another circle here, like
this, and this one represents your integument, your skin if you like.
So we have in this part, a spinning inertia, like this, and this
maintains, by inertia, the being of the body. And this is the dome
that holds in the life. There is the life of the initial idea, “I
will be an individual,” or as it says in Islam, God, Allah says, “I
was a hidden mystery in the Infinite. I desired to manifest,”
therefore the creation of this idea and the pushing through the idea
to make the world of diverse beings.

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So we now
have a zone, the external part of our being, very inert and very
subject to interference by other beings. You all know what it is like
to be interfered with by other beings don’t you? Especially when
you are trying to do something you consider important which somebody
else, usually your spouse thinks is not important. At the battle of
the importances, ‘import’ means ‘carrying in,’ import means
carrying in two different centres in-porting, important, have a
different opinion of reality so when they come to the zone of
contingency, they interfere with each other, and all quarrels and
international wars, and the battles of life forms, the viruses, the
bacteria, the animals eating each other, they are all peripheral
fights; but between the centre of initiative there and the zone where
the initiative is still effective, and the zone of inertia, here,
there is a zone between, and that zone can look two ways. So we will
have a way looking in towards the initiative, and out towards the
inertia. Now it is in this zone here, where indecision, unsolved
problems in the human being exist. They don’t exist there, that is
the zone of reactivity of the gross material order. They don’t
exist there because that is pure initiative, but they exist in the
place where there is looking in and looking out without a decision to
give superlative to one or the other.

Now the
free spirit is domed by being in a physical vehicle, the body. If it
had not got the body, it could not be an individual; if it has got
the body it has got a limitation And we look towards the body
externally and towards the initiating spirit internally, and between
we have this wonderful zone of ambiguity, shall I be a spiritual
being or shall I be a gross material being?

At five
to eight tonight I had a phone call from a man that said he had a lot
of friends who enjoyed themselves without conscience and he said, “I
wish I had not got a conscience. Every time I do something stupid, I
feel awful. All my friends when they do something stupid say ‘So
what?’ I wish I had not got a conscience.” Well it is a bit late
when you have developed one to wish you had not got one. The only
thing to do if you have got one, is get rid of it. When you get rid
of it you are called in realm of yogi, “Whose works are neither
black nor white.” But you cannot get rid of it until you have
understood that con-science means ‘with knowledge,’ the totality
of your knowledge. The impossibility of two centres agreeing about
what to do on the periphery.

“Stroke
me.”

OK, I
stroke you. But do I stroke you in the way you want to be stroked?
Have you ever had an itchy back and asked a friend to scratch it?
Does he find the right place? And, if he does, doesn’t it move?
Don’t you say, “Eh, a bit higher, a bit lower, a bit…” as
soon as you become interested, you energise, when you energise the
energy radiates its mood. There is a lovely negro song about that
which I will not sing to you.

Now here
we are with the real meaning of freedom. Freedom means a
contradiction between pure, absolute initiative and total subjection
to interference from without by other beings, and to balance those
two powers is real freedom. To be able to use our initiative and at
the same time be aware that other people have got some too and even
allow them a bit now and then, intelligently. That is real freedom.
It is not merely free, merely free is utterly careless. It is not
merely dome, total doming is death; it is the supreme balance made by
intelligence between my will and your will. I make allowances for
your initiative; you make allowances for my initiative; the perfect
balance for mutual allowances is perfect freedom. If there are not
allowances, there is no freedom and if you move then, extrovert the
attention to the body all you will get is physical irritation and
probably a local war. The number of divorces in this country is about
one in two now; in America it is about one in one. It is caused
through coming to the periphery of being and one being trying to
persuade another being to abandon its unique individuality and do
that which the other being requires it to do, without argument. So,
the winner in this battle is the one who understands that the free
initiative has to make allowances for an infinity of free initiatives
elsewhere, without complaining. Now if you are terribly quick in
making the allowance and you know why you are making the allowance
you can avoid the petty wars that are called domestic squabbles by
simply seeing the end result of a process before it arrives. When if
it is not worth it you don’t release the initial field stimulus.
How many times have you felt a rude word coming on the tongue in
response to a rude word and instead of inhibiting it you let it out,
and that begets another, and that begets another; and then you have
turbulence and a quarrel, only because you did not inhibit the
tendency to be one up on your opponent. So if you allow the other
opponent an infinite right to be unique, and you allow that freely,
intelligently, then there is no quarrel, there cannot be.

Now,
looking at freedom in this way, is it possible to have freedom
without self control? Not possible. Self is the field of awareness,
the whole field, we write that letter again, that is the letter hé,
which means life, and there is a little hole there for life go in and
out. In the idiographic base of it, it is a window, and a window is
not something you look out of, it is something that lets air in and
out of the building so you can breathe. It is a breathing hole, a
wind-hole. Life is free. It is no good having walls to the house then
shutting all the windows and doors and sitting inside and refusing to
go out for
a breath of fresh air, you will die. So you must have this breathing
hole so the life-air can go in and out.

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Now
the whole of Infinite life is represented in that letter, so we can
actually do another interesting diagram, here is the square form
although originally it was written like a circle representing life
force with a breathing hole for going out and inside it, by
self-condensing, has made a little yud or dot, or point of
individuation. It, the life infinite, has made the individual. Now
egotism thinks the individual has a claim on life. It has not. Life
has posited the individual; it is for the individual to learn the law
of life and obey it. So there we have a big Hé, life itself,
and then the posing in the field of a small hé round that
one; and then the drive of the power of the life field through the
inner life field makes itself an elongated yud or dot, and
that is your life drive, and then we put a circle round this triad
here, again, serpent with tail in mouth. We now have three letters
inside the circle and one outside. Now let us call the circle the
Isle, I will write the word isle, ISLE. Actually the word isle means
“Is God,” read it this way, is-el, ‘El is the name of God, It
means first trine worker, the power that thinks and feels and wills
simultaneously, and therefore, is always in charge of itself. It is
the Isle of the Blessed, the Isle of the Blessed. Now we say in
English, is-land, don’t we? The land of is- ness, land of being a
being, an individual spirit by the encapsulation process, the doming.
Unless we affirm this dome we are at the mercy of an infinity of
possibilities invading our minds. Billions and billions of
inventions, not yet invented historically are going to be invented
because they are in this field of life-power and they are pressing in
to the island of the Blessed, be-less. This island is less than that
Infinite. So, “Bless you,” means to reduce you to the island and
accept you are being less, you are being less than you would have
been near the Infinite by becoming an individual, and in becoming the
individual in this way you have rescued yourself from the infinity of
brilliant inspirations, which, if you got them all at once, would
totally immobilise you. Take the history of inventions since the
invention of the wheel, the lever and fire. Those three little
inventions have produced Concorde, have produced space travel, will
produce space platforms. Millions and millions of inventions are in
the field of intelligent power, waiting now to be discovered and
every time they are discovered somebody says, “Oh , how simple! Why
didn’t we think about that before?” But you can’t think about a
thing before you think about it. You can only think at the moment you
think of it. There are millions, billions of pounds to be made by
inventions that come buzzing like this in the Field. An egotist says,
“Where are they. Let me get my paws on them, let me convert them to
cash.” But the Field is in charge, not the ego, and the Field lets
out an invention in a given century, when it is ready and not
beforehand.

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Now this
is called the island and the anthropologists would call it of tonal,
Island of Tone-al. Tone is voice and Al is God, the island of the
Voice of God. Now, every individual, within his limit, up to his own
skin surface, is a god, he is creating him by his preference for
himself. Archbishop Ramsey said today, “We will have to have a new
evaluation of Christianity now; we will never get those people back
in church unless we say something different and up to date. But we
must not lose the essence of the teaching, for many people are
frightened of bishops who are alert and intelligent and want to bring
it up to date. Many passive believers do not want to come up to date,
so they are frightened of the bishops announcing, “Oh we let us
change the form, let us change the ritual, let us change the
interpretation.”

“We
don’t want that, supposing that is so, we don’t want it.”

But
the intelligence at the top, the better equipped bishops and
Archbishops, they know, life is in charge of evolution. When the life
field condenses onto the yud , that movement is called
Involution, and when it gives an idea to the yud and pushes it
down like that and it goes into the periphery, that is called
evolution, in-turning, or in willing, out-turning. There is no
evolution without prior involution.

Now every
single individual being, from a virus, a microbe, to the human being,
are all determined from centre or periphery at any moment, they are
either initiating or inert. If initiating they are called saved, if
inert they are called lost.

The
tonal is the unity, the C1 in music, the tone, and outside it is the
wandering power, which again has another name and this name means
‘snake-condensed appetite-god.’ It means a power that by simply
condensing, refers to itself, I am the god. I don’t need to take
orders from anybody in the island, I am going to move in space and I
am going to strike occasionally and tempt, present that island being
with a temptation, a time stimulus. I am going to continuously try
from all points to upset this being. None shall attain to true
individuality except under the conditions of temptation. You cannot
be saved by being protected from temptation; you can only be saved by
going into temptation and coming out of it with an intelligent
response.

This
word means ‘a snake-appetite-god.’ The appetite, no consideration
of individuality, swallows this and that and the other,
indiscriminately, destroys things, while the being on the island is
trying to build; the sea is lapping round the island and wearing it
away. The island is continuously under attack from the forces outside
the island.

Now, it
is only this island which is the domain of the freedom-knower. There
is no dome outside, so the concept freedom has not got an
application, outside. ‘Free’ has, yes, but not ‘dome’ only
within the island have you got this “Free-dome.” And the dome
means one must control one’s appetite and educate it to become
intelligent otherwise it will destroy the very principle of
individuation. Mental hospitals are full of people who, through lack
of education, have failed to integrate their mental contents.

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Here
is the same Cosmic Man drawn as a figure standing, himself, in the
infinite space of life. He has an idea and a feeling and a drive and
a going about. And the three here are in the island, and the legs
going about on the earth are separate, and as we say this is the
isle, this one is ex-isle. So the life exiled, outside the island,
has no power within the island. The individual has power only within
the circumscription of his own definition of his own being. Own means
‘owed to the Infinite Field of Life Power.

How do we
feel about this? We think, we feel, we drive, but the moment the
drive drops down, like this, there it is, the moment the drive leaves
the heart, which is there and falls down there, we get an unbalanced
figure, don’t we? The drive has carried you into the external world
and you have become subject to contingency and stimuli by other
beings and you have lost your centre of reference. To keep your
centre of reference up there, in the heart, is to have feeling,
compassion, for the other beings in the universe. If every act you
did was determined by compassion for the person to whom you were
doing it you would not fall. But if it becomes nothing but my way
regardless of your interest, that is called the fall, where the heart
is left and the physical genitality operates. Now it says, “Only by
taking on his shoulders the sin, can the Messiah save the human
race.” And the letter sin, shin in Hebrew is like that. And
if you put a point there it is pronounced shin and if you put
it there it is called sin and if you put it on that one it is
this one that is being pointed, and if you put it on the intelligence
that one is being pointed because this letter is nothing but, two
close together there and one far off there, that is the form of the
letter shin. You then write that letter here on the shoulders
and that means take upon yourself this true idea. All things
whatever, in total reality, are play of energy and this letter
signifies fire, and the name for a man, Ish in the Hebrew
means fire. Man is fire, and it says “I issue hierarchically.”
That is, in an order of development of fire. By taking on yourself
this idea, you save yourself. The idea the Universe is energy,
symbolises fire. Heraclitus says the Universe is only fire, energy on
the move, no man bathes twice in the same river, or has the same
thought, consecutively with another thought, all is change.
Everything is flowing.

Now, if
we accept this thought, everything, without exception, in the
Universe, is power, symbolized by fire. “I am a devouring, a
consuming power,” says God in the Bible. Energy, all is energy. Now
if you accept that you are saved, because you don’t fall into
thinking that another being is merely a body of matter. If you
remember that it is not a body of matter it is a body of power, a
body of fire, a body of interest, a body of feelings, a body of will.
How many times do people fall into the error of thinking that the
other person is a body to be manipulated? More often per day than any
other error, they treat the other person as an inanimate thing that
can be manipulated by smiles or jeers or kind words or rude words or
even by physical blows. To treat another person as a thing that can
be pushed around is this fundamental error of the failure to
recognise this marvellous letter shin, fire. Every person you
know is fire, every person is condensed, “Ja ich weiss woher ist
stamme,” says Nieztsche, “I know from where I descend, from fire.
Everything that I touch sets on fire.” We cannot relate to other
people as if they were things with no fire in their centre, don’t
they become enraged if we try to push them about? They may bottle it
but they do something with their energy’s reactivity later. This
might be a road accident or a piece of burned toast but it will be
something. So if we accept totally, “All is energy,” symbolised
by fire, we cannot find a single being, not the tiniest little insect
that does not fight back if we spray it with DDT. There is no such
thing as a non-reactive being because all is energy, power, fire.

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Pyr
is a little word, that is the same power in pyrex, cooking dishes, it
means fire, but it also means reason, pi ratio. It means ‘a mouth
affirming differences.’ Supposing we put the letter there, קthat means mouth, we put a yud there, יּ which
means ‘form’ we put a resh there, רthat means differences. (That with a long tail) We have now
written for ourselves this word, only we have written it this way,
hebraica, and say ‘a mouth forming a difference.’ The mouth is
‘substantial zone of crucified power.’ Out of the mouth of the
issues of life. You open your mouth, a word comes out, the word is a
stimulus, a differentiator, aha, it differentiates the organism of
the other person. A million reactions occur inside. Remember that
person bottles them, it does not want you to know, “I am really
furious,” and if that is a person to the unconscious, there will be
an accident caused by your careless speech.

With
pi, there is pi in the Greek, Π, that is the pi ofpi- ratio, let us say H for hierarchical power and height
and put a letter T upside down like that, like a TV aerial the height
from which we drop a pebble that hits the surface of the water, the
height determines the way the waves will bounce from that point. and
will gradually diminish, and this is called point of impact. And if
the amount of power in the situation is exactly balanced with the
amount of intelligence, or pi ratio, pi ratio is the
ratio of the circumference and the diameter of the circle or the
radius, pure rationality is pi, and pure hierarchical power is
H, and when we put the two together, in perfect balance, we have the
marvellous word Ha-pi which means it is ‘happy.’ Now those of you
who know anything about say wood-working tools, know that if you get
a saw and you start to saw, you let the weight of the saw cut the
wood. If you press on the saw too hard it will jab into the wood. It
won’t saw, it will gather but it won’t saw. There is a correct
amount of pressure, and when the power-pressure balances exactly the
form that you want, you are ha-pi. If you don’t balance your power
with your intelligence, intelligence is the P because that P, because
that P is the mouth or voice or verbal expression’ if you don’t
balance it, you cannot be happy. If you do balance it you cannot help
being happy. Happiness is that very state of balance from the height
of your supremacy over the P pole, noblesse oblige. If you think you
are very clever up there, be kind to the beings down there. It is
stupid to get a hammer and hit the waves or scourge them with a whip
like Xerxes, it does not calm them it agitates them.

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So the
perfect balance of H and P, of hierarchical power consciousness, and
the verbal expression of it is a true relation between hieros,
the priest, and the people. These are the people down here, and
observe in this word, love. Hierarchical power, individual awareness,
love. If you love the persons with whom you are inter-relating in an
hierarchical manner, that is with due regard to their actual powers
of assimilation, you are a true hieros, you are a true high
priest. If you don’t love them, you are just deficient in the way
of relation. The application of hierarchical powers requires
‘noblesse oblige,’ it requires you to the degree that you are
strong, so you are to be merciful. Strength does not mean unkindness,
force, it means understanding, entering in and allowing. No person of
the people can assimilate more than at a given moment of their time
organisation their being allows them to assimilate. So if a person
down there, we go below the water down there, very deep down there,
at the bottom of the ocean there are fish this shape. You have
probably seen them in the documentaries, very slow moving, very dim
appetites. The deeper you go down into matter, the dimmer the
consciousness and the less capacity for assimilating the meaning of
hierarachy, so the one that understands, or believes he understands
hierarchy is under the law, noblesse oblige. As I am
intelligent, so I am required to make allowances for the stupid, not
to abuse them, not to misuse them, not to dupe them, not to take
advantage of them but to help to enlighten them, gradually lift them
up.

Near the
surface of the water there, there is some atmosphere, some humidity,
make you drown and the water content there is less than it is down
there and here even less and less and less inertia. Let us correct
this up here we will make a little Masonic one out of this now. This
is from the ancient time, thousands
of years ago. That is H T. We will turn it into a more modern form, T
H. That is the templum the Temple, hierosolem, of the
priest of peace, the Master of Peace, that is his sign, it is
essentially made of three letter Ts, like that. And then you simply
straighten them out and for convenience and you have the Temple of
Jerusalem, the temple, the time play of the sight or vision of peace
city.

When
the three hammer into that centre there, to complete our diagram, let
us join these up like this, and we now have, for the three, thinking,
and feeling and willing, the positing of the idea, and we are back to
our original diagram.

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Now this
is our task as human beings. The animals do not have this problem;
the human beings, mid-way between the grossest material darkness and
the highest divine spirit. It is the human being and not another
being, that has to get hold of this opposition and unite above and
below together in his own being, and he does it by hammering thought,
feeling and will onto the idea of the truth. The truth, the idea and
fire. That is our word ‘ish’ again, read this way. Man is
an idea being of fire.

How do
you feel if you think, I am sitting here, apparently quiet, I am
absolutely an inferno of unfulfilled purposes. I have the idea, I
could do marvellous things that I have not yet done, and I have not
done them. How do I feel if I know I have an infinite potential and I
am not realising it? How do I feel? Answer, dissatisfied, suffering
from anxiety neurosis. Until we can fulfil the idea with our energy
we are not truly ish, we are not Man yet.

Any
Yiddishe momma would say to an errant son, “Be a mensche,” that
means can count, evaluate, remember you are a human being. You are
ish, you are fire, you have an idea, you have energy, if the
idea is a good one, energise it, push it, fabricate, push it into
being, otherwise you will fret because you had an idea and did not
realise it, and the unborn idea does not forgive you.

How do
you like that for a terrifying thought? Every time a human being has
had a good idea and felt, mmmm I could do that if I were to pull
myself together, posit myself; and then has not done it. Mmmm I will
do it tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow, and then they suddenly
see a full page ad with the idea, on the market. “My God, there is
my idea,” how do you feel? It made, er ten billion , that idea, it
made a nobody into a somebody. And it was your idea and you did not
do it. How do you feel? How many of you have had an idea and not put
it into being? Have you had one? How do you feel about it when you
think about it?

Dreadful.

Yes. Now
the totality of those dreadfulnesses is the meaning of the Biblical
Hell, yes? There is not a place called Hell. There is a condition of
self-realisation of impotence through the non-operation, the
non-actualisation of one’s own inner potential. Would you like a
worse Hell?

No,
there is not one

There is
not one.

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That is
the Hell to be afraid of the recognition of unfulfilledness potential
which could have been actual if only it could have been gathered
together. “His worship is perfect freedom.” The free spirit gives
you the idea but you must dome it. It is no good having an idea in
bed in the middle of the night and then not bothering to draw it on
paper and then in the morning you say, “I had a marvellous idea
last night, can’t remember it.” Have you had that experience?
Have you had an experience in which you have dreamed a dream, and the
dream was very interesting, in the middle of the night, “Oh I must
remember to tell Mabel about my dream.” And the next day you get
up, “Mabel I had a marvellous dream last night, it has just
eluded me.”

How do
you feel? There are many inspirations that would produce new worlds,
that come in the middle of the night like that, and you do not wake
up and write them down. Do you know if I get an idea in the middle of
the night, if I see something in the middle of the night, I switch on
the light and do a drawing of it. I would not dream of not doing
that. I don’t care how much paper I cover and I have covered a few
miles in my time. Papers covered with drawings and notes about ideas,
they can’t escape then, not unless somebody finds them and burns
them.

And this
is what we have to do. Recognise freedom is not simple lack of
restraint, it is not following impulses indiscriminately; it is a
gathering together and appointing of a periphery to one’s being,
and a definition within that peripheralised zone of one’s
fundamental unique idea of one’s own being contribution to Cosmos,
and then following that with all the power of your trine nature,
thinking feeling, willing, posit. Three becomes four, think, feel,
will, established in the body is the fourth one.

Is it
possible to be unsatisfied if you can do that?

You all
know the little book of Helligal, Zen in Archery. He learned that
there is a technique whereby you can shoot an arrow in the dark and
hit the target. His Germanic mind did not believe it, but the
focussed mind can do it. The focussed mind of the intelligent being
can do anything with Absolute success, but not if he forgets the
idea, not if he does not emote about the idea, not if he does not
drive the idea, not if he does not make the idea tangible in a
physical body. That is the meaning of the Incarnation of God, never
mind the historical incarnations that have been. The incarnation is
meaningful to a human individual only for the individual who
incarnates what we have just said, “Ish,” an individual must
recognise creative fire to be his being. How do we feel about that?
Do we like it? Some say it is a bit of a responsibility. I have had
that said to me many times. “Oh it is too simple and too
responsible.” I make my life, I design my mind, I design my
feeling, I design my will, I design my body, I design everything
about me and it is my responsibility. Do I like it? Hard work, who
likes hard work?