Black and Blue: Shape of My Heart
by Aquamarine Angel
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Hello everyone! I?d like to apologize to all those people out there who
have emailed me about this story. I honestly meant to have this sequel
to Black and Blue: Not For Me out long ago! Unfortunately, when I wrote
this the first time, it got deleted and I became exasperated and decided
to put it off for a while... Anyway, here it is: Black and Blue: Shape
of My Heart. Enjoy!
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?What just a minute! Serena is cheating on you?!? Andrew exclaimed,
a look of complete shock and disbelief playing across his face. ?How in
the world did you figure that out? I just can?t believe that it?s even
possible -- she loves you to death!?
Darien shook his head miserably and collapsed into the cozy-chair
across from his best friend. ?All the evidence adds up, Andy. I knew
she?d been keeping something from me...all those times she disappeared
without a word... Then, this morning, I found a note from a guy...? he
said, voice full of anguish.
?What?s his name?? Andrew growled. ?I?ll have to have a talk with
him!?
?Seiya something or another, I think.? Andrew?s eyebrows arched and
surprise and suddenly he was laughing so hard that tears were streaming
down his cheeks. ?What are you laughing about!? This is NOT a laughing
matter.?
?Darien, my friend, I think you?ve completely misjudged the
situation,? Andrew gasped, trying his best to regain his composure.
Darien just stared at him with an expression that seemed to be a cross
between bewilderment and irritation.
?Well? Aren?t you going to explain to me what?s going on??
?Seiya KOU is the most popular DJ in the city and a good friend of
Mina?s. She hired him to help her with your surprise birthday party!?
Andrew explained. Realization dawned on him. <>
?Andrew, I falsely accused Serena of cheating on me before coming
here...?
---> Baby, please try to forgive me
---> Stay here don't put out the glow
---> Hold me now don't bother
---> If every minute it makes me weaker
---> You can save me from the man that I've become
---> Oh yeah
Darien looked down at the bouquet of flowers which consisted of
eleven white roses -- representing her purity and innocence -- and a
single red rose which stood for his strong love and passion for her.
They were beautiful flowers but he knew flowers wouldn?t save their
relationship; at best, they would buy him enough time to apologize for
his mistake...
<> he thought as he
reached out to ring the doorbell. He couldn?t help but feel awkward
ringing the bell of his own house...
The door creaked open, revealing the tear-stained face of the only
woman he could and would ever love.
---> Looking back on the things I've done
---> I was trying to be someone
---> Played my part, kept you in the dark
---> Now let me show you the shape of my heart
?Dar-Darien?? she choked out. The sound of her pain-filled voice was
almost enough to make him lose control of his senses and simply take her
in his arms and kiss her over and over until neither of them could see
straight... But that would only make things more difficult than things
already were. (Not to mention there was no guarantee that she?d even
allow it after what he?d done.)
?Serena, lady of my heart, these are for you,? he said offering her
the flowers. Tentatively, she accepted them and inhaled their pleasant
fragrance.
And then she was sobbing uncontrollably in his arms. ?Shhh, baby.
It?s going to be all right...? he whispered trying to soothe her the
best he could. Guiding her back into the house, he sat her down on the
couch and, staring into her shimmering blue eyes, he said: ?We need to
talk.? She murmured agreement.
---> Sadness is beautiful
---> Loneliness is tragical
---> So help me I can't win this war
---> Oh no
---> Touch me now don't bother
---> If every second it makes me weaker
---> You can save me from the man I've become
?First of all, I just have to say that I?m nothing without you. To
be perfectly honest, I don?t think I deserve you -- you?re so kind, pure
and beautiful and what am I? I?m a cold man who?s done nothing but hurt
you repeatedly during the years we?ve known each other-?
?Darien, no...? Serena interrupted but was immediately silenced by
his pleading expression.
?You know it?s true, Meatball Head. Before I met you, no one had
ever loved me. I was, after all, just a poor orphan boy of no
particular importance. I suppose the reason I never had any friends was
because I was so bitter... Even the other orphans had an advantage over
me: they could at least remember their family.?
?Not the babies.?
?No, not the babies. The babies had one up on all of us, however,
since they were so cute that they were always adopted within a week of
entering the orphanage,? he said. ?Sadly, I had no friends until I
enrolled in college and met Andrew. You can?t say I didn?t try to scare
him off, though!? He gave a reminiscent chuckle. ?The fact that I was
the only person in any of his classes who didn?t WANT to be friends with
him was what drew him to me. Via sheer persistence he managed to break
through to me and we became friends.?
?I?d always wondered how you and Andrew became friends,? Serena
commented. ?You two are as opposite as day and night...?
?Now you know... Anyway, even with Andrew as my friend I felt a
strong sense of loneliness in my soul. There was a dark abyss in my
heart -- a great void that was filled when I met you.?
?Even though we did nothing but argue and insult each other for the
first few months of our relationship?? Serena commented wryly. Darien
smiled sadly.
---> Looking back on the things I've done
---> I was trying to be someone
---> Played my part, kept you in the dark
---> Now let me show you the shape of my heart
?I?m aware of the fact that I?ve been a complete jerk towards you.
When we met, I did treat you harshly -- but you must realize that
trading insults with you was the highlight of my day; I never met any
harm, it was just that you?re beautiful when you?re angry.? She blushed
endearingly. ?Not to mention, I kept my distance from you while we were
dating and even broke up with you a few times...?
?I?ve never held it against you, Darien. I?m a patient person and
for you I would have waited forever.?
?And I?ve always appreciated that. I don?t think you?ve ever
understood why I did all those things though and I?d like to explain.
You see, you really are the perfect woman and I?ve always been a little
insecure about our relationship. I always worried about the possibility
that you might find someone better than myself and leave me heartbroken.
I figured if I kept my distance, I wouldn?t be so attached to you when
it happened and thus spar myself the pain of heartbreak. I suppose my
insecurities were what lead us to this misunderstanding.?
?Speaking of which, I?m assuming you?ve forgiven me for the surprise
party-? Serena began. The very thought of her blaming herself was
enough to make the guilt press mercilessly against his conscience.
<>
---> I'm here with my confession
---> Got nothing to hide no more
---> I don't know where to start
---> But to show you the shape of my heart
---> I'm looking back on things I've done
---> I never wanna play the same old part
---> Keep you in the dark
---> Now let me show you the shape of my heart
?The surprise party wasn?t what I was upset about, love,? he said
slowly. The hard part -- admitting that he was wrong -- was coming up
soon and he was unsure of what her reaction would be. Would she ever
forgive him for even THINKING that she could POSSIBLY be unfaithful?
Could she? Heart pounding, he continued: ?You see, I was beginning to
wonder about all your secrete disappearances and when I found Seiya?s
note, I jumped to a conclusion...?
?You thought I was cheating on you, didn?t you!?? Serena exclaimed,
catching on to his train of thought. Her eyes were wide with horror at
such a thought, as if such a thing had never even occurred to her.
Perhaps it hadn?t; she was, after all, the most pure and innocent
creature Darien had ever had the privilege to know.
?Yes, I did.?
---> Looking back on the things I've done
---> I was trying to be someone
---> (trying to be someone)
---> Played my part, kept you in the dark
---> Now let me show you the shape of my heart
---> (Now let me show you the true shape of my heart)
?How could you think something like that? I?ve never even CONSIDERED
being with anyone but you since we started dating!? she cried. To
Darien?s surprise, she seemed more hurt than angry about his mistake but
knowing he?d hurt her was most certainly worse than sparking her fury.
?I don?t know what came over me, Serena. I really don?t,? he said
quietly, avoiding her eyes. ?All I know is that I?m truly ashamed of
myself and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me.
You?re the only person who?s ever dared to love and understand me and I
would die if I lost you. Please, if there is anything I can do to get
back into your good graces, just name it.?
There was silence for a moment and Darien was deathly afraid that she
might send him away and demand that he never come within sight of her
again. Mouth dry with nervousness, he spoke once more: ?I love you.?
?Oh, Darien!? she cried and threw her arms around him. Then they
were kissing with all the passion that they could muster and left Earth
behind in favor of the stars.
---> Looking back on the things I've done
---> I was trying to be someone
---> Played my part, kept you in the dark
---> Now let me show you the shape of my heart
---> Show you the shape of my heart...
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Story Copyright 2001 Aquamarine Angel
Characters and Song do not belong to her and she makes no claim on them.