Yes, Impostor Syndrome is Real: Here’s How to Deal With It | Time

Impostor syndrome is associated with feelings of fraud, like you’re inadequate or a failure. But you can overcome it with these expert tips.

*

When I reflect on my life since my cancer diagnosis, I sometimes think that I am a square peg in a round hole. The paperwork that got me into the place I now live listed my cancerous tumor and the anemia it caused. My prior residence was a place where mail is not forwarded from. A whole year in hospice and I didn’t die. What was THAT all about?

Most news articles I read about cancer mention personalities getting cancer or dying from cancer, the need for funding cancer research, and the plight of children getting cancer. After I was diagnosed in Sept 2016, I refused any and all medical treatment for it. The State of Oregon put me on the POLST registry (Do not resuscitate/palliative care only).

So far Big Cancer hasn’t made a dime off of me, and I am still alive. Is that a “red flag” for “gaming the system?” Did the year at hospice really happen? Maybe Big Cancer misdiagnosed me. Everyone I have talked to who had family or friends with cancer DIED from it. Cancer’s a bitch and then you die. For sure? Maybe? Roll the dice?

Military veterans who lie about their combat service are despicable. Welfare cheats need to be reported to law enforcement. But what about me? People died while I was in hospice. And I “graduated”.