Saturday, June 26, 2010

I miss all of these oready ;(

This is my final year. Im actually 17 now, okay unofficialy 17 but will be in days time. Counting down the days ; 20 more days to go until Im one inch more matured! Horeay! :D During my final year, I had so much fun, countless fun I must say. Preoccupied with the band thinggy for 14 days straight and burnt myself down. * You might not interested in looking at me right now, FUGLY MUCH NO KIDDING. All those hours of training for 14 days, dont really paid off cause we came in fourth and we had no idea that that fourth place was reserved for us for the comp. Its was freakingly frustrating. Yet, I couldnt cry. I can only look down, with an expression full of frustration. And the same thing happened to the others. Most dominant that time was Yanie, cause she was standing next to me.

We didnt expect this at all. Like Yunie and Wi had this conversation, we're close to victory cause we can smell it already. But then that smell fade, and victory arent ours. I thought Kiri would be tremendously dissapointed with us but my mistake, he didnt. He said he's not dissapointed at all, but on the other hand, he was very proud of us. He was very satisfied with our performance and our achievement. Without him, SSMB will never come to life, SSMB will never be this full of spirit as this, SSMB will never experienced the outrageous fun. Thanks Cikgu Khairil Izam Che Rahim :)

Night before competition,Mandi kt surau for the first time wuhuu it was out of this world and was so unexpected! Opportunity like that only comes rolling in life once. And that night can be titled as ' The Night Of Tears ' . Even for the less expected person to cry pun tewas jugok mlm tu! And me? I cried when everybody stops. Its not that im not feeling all those ergh things you guys are crying about, its just that crying is not the way of me showing how touched I was. Crying isnt my game. But then, tewas juga ;'(

All those tears doesnt last long. Were replaced by tons of fun, brought about by the game called ' Dont Fall Down '. Credits to Tengku Sofiya Syafiqah on this ;) Thanks Freya! We played until late night kot, dok ingat doh. But that night we laid our heads and shut our eyes early. Dohla mlam tu panas gile kot, every hour bangun and sighed, ' PANASNYEEEE ' . Last skali decided to climb up the upper bed, above where Dilah, Freya and Cammy were sleeping, and just stick my hands and legs, and luckily not my entire torso, to the wall. Argh satisfaction indeed. Sejuk lah kot skejap. But then I heard this girls were talking smua smua. That time almost smua dah bgun kot. I heard their conversation while these two eyes were shut tight. Then Yanie woke me up, pergi mandi smuaa and Im ready to battle!

And yet, fourth place wasnt the one we expected. Go home with full of frustration. Amer even asked me ' Are you okay? ' I smiled and shaked my head. I was very quiet on the way home and the last thing I knew it, I was asleep. And so was Amer. Tired much perhaps. Madie Natiq Rehah came up and asked, I explained everything. They comforted me. Thanks pretty girls ;)

Gathered in front of bilik music, ckgu gave a quick brief about our losing. We accepted it as fated. SSMB, winning isnt what we running for aite? Its the bond that we have rite now, that means the world to us :D