Not sure if im developing a problem...

...dont think I am, but lately ive been missing a lot of meals or eating very little. A lot of it is outright laziness, too lazy to prepare something, but ive also noticed that overall my appetite is getting less and less.

Ive been trying to stay away from eating fast food cause of the fatty meat
thats used but the problem is that anything quick seems to involve fatty meat products, or chicken, and im kinda sick of chicken. No Subway or anything like that nearby.

A couple people are getting a little worried. I know my mum would freak if she saw me right now lol...

i think youre eating less because of your girlfriend or ex, dont have a fucking clue what your situation is right now. but in my eyes you kinda get the problems others have, people you were close with. ester harmed herself a lot, you harmed yourself once, i had boulimia, you wanted to throw up, terry got drunk a lot, so did you. I know kirsten is skinny and doesnt eat a lot, so do you. its just something i noticed, and it always worried me, it seemed you only sawt the negative things problems of a person. thats what youre attracted to, negativity, destructing yourself, and that really is a shame. because i know youre much better than this and you can do much better and i think lot of people think the same.

i think youre eating less because of your girlfriend or ex, dont have a fucking clue what your situation is right now. but in my eyes you kinda get the problems others have, people you were close with. ester harmed herself a lot, you harmed yourself once, i had boulimia, you wanted to throw up, terry got drunk a lot, so did you. I know kirsten is skinny and doesnt eat a lot, so do you. its just something i noticed, and it always worried me, it seemed you only sawt the negative things problems of a person. thats what youre attracted to, negativity, destructing yourself, and that really is a shame. because i know youre much better than this and you can do much better and i think lot of people think the same.

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mmm I cant remember wanting to throw up though, accept when my stomach gets upset which still happens occasionally. My drinking can definately get the better of me if I let it. Right now its pretty good. Kristen is skinny and vegan, she doesnt eat a lot and we dont share meals. There have been some changes the last couple of days which means I should be more proactive in getting my own food together...we have a plan lol, i just dont have the appetite I use to.