Sick of this damn lab notebook

fear actually fills my eyes with salt water
no no no
i wasted another mistake!
fuck!!!!!!!
I’m so lost and scared and done
I’m so done
I’m so tired
fuck this!!!!!!
ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh
no no no no no
please please please
death by books
trapped with a chain hanging on my ankle
I step up reluctantly
slowly
drudgingly
How will I finish?
Can I please fail?
Can it please be over?
Let me go
Let me move on
Let me be free
I hate this.
please please please