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Sunday, 12 August 2012

I'm slowly but surely finding myself again, both in the mind and in the body. It's been a tough and bumpy road these past two months and it has definitely took me a while to get back into my stride. It feels like for the past two months I have been at the crossroads, not knowing what path to choose. I'm trying to not let this post become too deep, but at the same time I want to just be honest, be me. So I've figured out who I want to be and who I want to be perceived as. It's just becoming that person I'm struggling with.

Anyways on a lighter note these are some of the things I've been eating lately...

Lately Breakfast has consisted of toast (as many crusts I can get my hands on), eggs with ketchup and a cup of tea (lately hot coffee makes me nauscious).

These were my snacks this week. Yes they could be better, but I'm working on it, it's progression after all. A lot of dark chocolate I know- it's a favourite! Oh and of course crunchy PB.

I'm not normally a sandwich for lunch kinda girl, but this week I was craving a good old salad and turkey slices sandwich. Oh and crisps have become a snack of choice which is not ideal but I figured a small pack of reduced fat crisps won't kill me.

Thursday, 2 August 2012

Some people love them and some people hate them, but for me goals help. From the big goals to the tidgy tiny small goals. I make them all. I'm starting small again setting goals to write again and read again. Weight goals aren't high up there at the moment. I weighed myself the other day and it didn't go the way I'd hoped, so I'm going to give the scales a break for a couple of weeks.

No exercise the last couple of days. My headaches are killing me, to the point where I'm actually feeling nauseous. I'd like to be able to exercise without feeling like rubbish. I just hope they go away soon. Like I said before I think it's my blood sugar levels, I need to get them under control and I think the most part of that is finding the balance with food. I don't no whether to just keep exercising and just go easy, or stop and focus on the food side of things first? Decisions decisions. I'm making plans and aspirations for the future again but nothing too far in the future, it's like I'm scared to commit in case I fail. But I guess I won't know until I try right? I just want to see progress. But before progress must come commitment and consistency, which is something I'm lacking. I'm definitely apprehensive about the road I'm going down. I'm hoping it's a different road and not one I've already been down. If it was a previous road I would know immediately the danger and I'd guess that would be both insightful and advantageous.

I just need to be in it for the long haul this time. There are no quick fixes just consistency and hard work. The Olympics have been inspiring at the moment (as they always do). I wish I had the focus of an athlete...maybe one day I will? Anyways until next time.