Wednesday, March 21, 2012

mother's pride

I am linking up with Charity over at: Our Giggles & Grimaces for the Mother’s Pride blog carnival. Thinking about what I am proud of is honestly not something that I think all that much about. I enjoyed thinking about this though & it makes me realize the positive in my life.

I am proud of myself for fighting through ppa/ppocd. I have learned how to be strong. I had to push myself to limits I didn’t even know existed inside of me.

I am proud that I never gave up. There were so many times throughout my experience where I wanted to give up & stop searching for answers. The times I felt like it would never get better, the panic attacks, the intrusive thoughts, the running around in circles for years…it was all so exhausting. I wanted to give up & just “deal” with it. Instead, I fought & have found some answers & found amazing support along the way.

I am proud of everything that I have learned throughout this.

I am proud that I want to finish my degree so that I can help others who struggle with postpartum mood disorders. It breaks my heart to know others are struggling.

I am proud of the mom & wife I am becoming.

I am proud of the “new me” that I am becoming. At the beginning of the ppa/ppocd I used to want my old self back. Instead of getting my old self back, I am now becoming a better person because of what I went through.

I am proud that I have finally opened up about what I was really going through. I used to hide the intrusive thinking because I thought it was something to be ashamed of. I didn’t tell a single person for years. I know being honest will only help me & will help others who are struggling.

I am proud that I have started a blog. To put it all out there was a pretty huge step for me. I am so glad I stepped out of my comfort zone & did it. I really enjoy writing & all the support I am finding through blogs.