Well, Day one without my puppy is over. We found her a good home with a little boy who wanted a black lab named Shadow. Now she has 400 acres to run around in and a little boy to play with. I hope she is doing good. It's kinda sad without her, even though she was a pain in the butt. it's weird coming home and not having her jump on me to greet me. She always made me feel loved! oh well, now i dont have to feel guilty when I am away from the house for long periods of time, it's kinda nice. Today I went hiking with my friend Jenny, tomorrow I am going back to the same place to take some pictures and hike on my own speed and time. When i develop the pictures I'll post some on here- if i can figure it out. I'm still jobless... it's getting kinda rough. Oh well, my pastor always said "You can't have money problems if you dont have money!" so that's what i'm holding on to!

God doesn't care what you look like. It doesn't matter if you've dyed your hair 20 different colors or if you've never even cut your hair. God doesn't care if you wear black baggy clothes with chains or long skirts and ties. When we get to Heaven it's not going to matter if you have piercings and tattoos, or if you've never even pierced your ears. Because even if you've never worn makeup or cut your hair, even if your skirts always touch your ankles and you've never missed a church service- That is not what matters to God. He's going to take one look at you and say "you have Jesus" or "you don't have Jesus". It wont matter at all to God if your hair is black and you wear dark eye makeup, He wont care if you have body piercings and tattoos, and He wont care if all your clothes are black. As he shocks some by letting the dark haired pierced and tattooed person into Heaven, He is going to shock some by turning to the girl with long blonde hair, no makeup or piercings and saying "Depart from my you doer of iniquities, I knew you not." It's not about our appearance, it's about our heart. So to the gothic and punks- do you know Jesus? and to those of you who go to church every Sunday wearing shirt and tie with your hair not touching your collar- Do you know Jesus? I don't mean know of Him, I mean KNOW Him. Where is your heart? Are you wearing all black to impress someone? STOP!!! Are you growing out your hair so your preacher will accept you or to prove you're a good Christian? STOP!!! First put your heart in order and live a life of worship, they your true attire will be right before the Lord.

Every day at lunch I like to sit in my car and read my Bible, it helps me get through the day. The other day I was reading Ephesians 4 and 5, and I discovered just how many important things that Scripture teaches us. I started to write down all the things we could learn if we read them and I was especially struck hard with verses 4:19 and 5:3-4. So I want to share that with you. Some of you may think I am being extreme. I know even my own siblings would not totally agree with me on this, but if you read the verses- even in context, you can't deny what I am about to write. Ephesians 4:17-19 says "So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. They are darkened in the understanding and separated from the life of God because of ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, with a continual lust for more. "Verse 19 is in bold. Everyone can read that and understand it means don't live like the world lives, because they are bad people. I want you to listen to what God showed me:Some of us have lost all sensitivity to the sins of the world. We watch and hear what they hear. We willingly allow ourselves to be subject to sins. When we do this we ourselves are sinning, we become desensitized to cursing, sex, violence, and fear. I speak for myself, not condemning anyone. I have been convicted personally in the movies that I watch. How many of us watch movies or TV shows with sex, violence, language, sexual content, and coarse joking? We all do. How many of us after watching a movie actually remember the sex scenes, or the swear words? How many of us can count the number of times they used Lords name in vain? Not too many of us. This my friends, is being desensitized. We do not notice the sins, we ignore the very things God tells us not to ignore. As a matter of fact, God tells us to FLEA from these things. Instead, we go to a theater, watch it all, then when it comes out on video we buy it and bring it into our homes!!! What did God say the Gentiles did after they became desensitized? Oh yah, indulge in impurity with lust for more.... God does not want us to be comfortable watching or hearing this junk!!! Now on to Chapter 5 verses 3-4:"But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God's holy people. Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving."These two verses are parallel to the verses from chapter 4, it kind of breaks down what it is that we are tolerating. The things described in Ephesians 5:3-4 are exactly what the world today finds entertaining. Try finding a TV show or movie that doesn't have atleast ONE of those characteristics in it.... Can you think of one? Maybe Veggie Tales? or possibly some other Children's show. God very obviously tells us to stay away from that stuff, before we lose all sensitivity, and indulge in the sin.

I should have added this to the last blog, but I just ran outside to get something out of my car, and decided to come tell you all about the smell outside. It's quite interesting, you see, about two or three miles away is M&M Mars factory. When the wind is blowing just right you can smell when they are making the Twix bars. So you walk outside, and it just smells like one big twix. mmmmmm, chocolate. Those are the good days. On the bad days (I've discovered them to be Sunday afternoons) you can smell the paper plant that's about 20 minutes away. That does not smell so good. Kind of like rotten sewage. it's nasty. needless to say, I like Twix a lot better.

Someone yelled at me because I havent posted on my blog in a long time. So I thought that since my husband is gone and I am home alone bored out of my mind, I would change that. I quit my job yesterday, yup, today was my last day at Eaton hydraulics. I did it totally out of faith that God would provide me with another job, since I am the one who pays the bills. That is not a comment to be rude to my husband, he is doing God's work, and unfortuantly employers dont like to work with schedules. However, much to our surprise, today an architec called him and told him he was hired!!! God just answers prayers in mysterious ways! My hair isnt black anymore. nope, I decided I didnt like dying it all the time, so I tried to strip the black hair dye out. well, one hair stripper didnt work, so I bought a second one. I still have black spots, but now my hair is all these random shades of orange and red- mixed with strawberry blonde- with the occasional black spots. I need to have my hair a normal color by september. you see, one of my best friends is getting married in september, and another best friend is getting married in October- and I'm in both weddings. busy fall!
I think I broke my finger last Friday. my puppy and I were wrestling and she stepped on it. it bent funny at the knuckle and went "POP" then swelled up and turned funny colors. and it hurts. It is starting to feel better, it only hurts sometimes. Anyway, I guess that's enough boring blabbling. Oh, the lead singer of my husband's band quit, so if you know any good Christians that want to be a lead singer in a heavy Christian rock band- go to www.believeministry.com and email the band. thanks!

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I am striving to love and honor God, He loves me so much he gave His son's life so that I might live, the least I can do is try to please him with my life. I'm married to the best best man in the world! I also have two daughters who I think are the cutest girls ever, and a little boy who is amazing.
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