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Friday, December 31, 2010

SO HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! all across the world ppl will be celebrating this calendar created! NEW YEAR!!!! I will be working but i'm somehow totally fine with it.. its gona keep me out of trouble. So WYNWOOD KITCHEN AND BAR and then maybe Magnum? the piano bar! wonder what thy have going on there tonight?

Didnt end up going for the red dress as planned... i heard from a close Brazilian friend of mine that if you wear white it brings good luck for the New Year so I decided on that!

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

I wasn't kidding... pls watch the video in the previous post LOLI am literally giving away all my shit too!! I must be David Lynch's muse... or she just happens to be MY twin. ;)P.S. I had a GREAT day today!!

My, how this has suddenly somehow become me... the trying trying little girl... dressing up in costumes to entertain herself, painting her face, dancing and even simply cracking eggs into a bowl fighting for what feels good and what feels right when things around her inevitably murder her thoughts, she fights for happiness like a bratty temper tantrum at times... always tying to have ANOTHER "GOOD DAY TODAY"...

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Been feeling a little sick, with a lil soar throat, glad it hasnt gotten too bad. Since Christmas Ive been feeling like this and now its Tuesday and ive been in hybernation mode since the weekend. I dont know whats gotten into me but Im healthy its just "the holidays" what can I say. Tom starts work and back on track stuff so its fine. New Years is around the corner and I dont know what Im going to do for that but I want to wear either a one shoulder red dress or something strong n rock n roll like that. In the past Ive always worn vintage dresses Ive bought at C. Madelaines but this year I'm gona look for a stronger sexier look. I need to fix my hair color bad so tom Im gona wear a hat to work lol. Feel like making soup... thinking to make a vegetarian one... with carrots and broccoli! I had one my sister made for her baby that inspired me ;) Last night I made Quinoa for the first time at Pauls... its a really fun grain like couscous... we put sundried tomatoes, broccoli, spicy tofu, an "ugly" tomatoe (which is the name for a type of tomato that is actually delish lol) some chopped up chives, shitake mushrooms, and even black truffled butter on toast! Maybe Im forgetting something else. oh! a green pepper that made my tongue burn a bit lol

I love cooking especially when its chilly out like this with a movie and a bottle of wine.

Monday, December 27, 2010

I would love to share it with you and hear about yours.Click the link about to see what my friend Paul and I made...(well he really did it, I was falling asleep) It was a fun Christmas... the usual Chinese Christmas. We play a game for gifts almost like a Secret Santa but a little different... that way we dont forget to buy any gifts for anybody :)

I ahvent been blogging too much bc I decided to take a break to apply to these schools let the TR seminar digest, catch up with some friends and then I have a new job hostessing at Wynwood Kitchen and Bar and THEN came the holidays!! haha

Havent written in a long time, I've been in WONDERLAND! Blogging here was where I needed to go to figure myself out and when everything is going wonderfully its probably not as interesting for anyone to read about. I'm not sure, u decide.

I wish I could draw something in this box right now instead of write so maybe I will draw something when I get in bed to rest later after skimming through a Carlos Saura book I threw on my bed as a chore to myself. I motivating chore. I like whats good for me... art is my medicine.

Since Ive gotten back from my trip out west I have been filling out my applications and writing my papers to apply for school. Now its the holidays and I hope I made it not past the deadline. Whatever happens Im excited.

Today was really relaxing, I rode bike with a Panda Bear lol he was really sweet and I led the way through the jungle to catch a view of a sunset by the water then we ate some tacos and googled where to find a fire place in Miami Beach which led us to a moonlit fire pit with other wild animals. Except these wild animals were tamed, the fire made them warm and they huddled around together telling stories of far out species and things they had to eat in order to survive. Later we found a warm water pond with a waterfall and we stripped off our fur and danced slowly in the bubbly glowing water. I never knew Panda Bears could be so sweet, they'll be your best friend if u taste like truffles.

Their is a new movement going on today and I can feel it, I hope u can too... something smart, something peaceful, something free and inevitably romantic. Nothing to be afraid of, its just a feeling that you have to sensitize yourself in order to feel bc maybe its always been there but I am just beginning to discover how beautiful this path can take u. I would love for u to feel it too in case for whatever reason ur not. So, try to meditate for a little while and love more... love instead of look for love. Find the love inside of u and be happy with that that u feel from within yourself. Find peace inside and let it shine through your heart and your eyes out to everyone u meet. Stay on that level and reach out to others... u will find your own Panda who will save u and i will be happy for u.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

I have just arrived back to Miami from visiting schools in San Fran and LA. It was my first time in San Fran and that place had been calling my name for years! Finally after my seminar I went there since when I got my goals in order I realized it was a place important for me to check out since something was telling me to go there after all that motivation stirred my soul. It was chilly, it was foggy, it was a really great city with a sense of peace and intellectuality different from LA and Miami. to m LA is another Miami, a bigger one, with superficiality, celebrities, who do u know vibe that would just lead me to party since I am such a wonderful party girl! That's the old me though! I love to have fun and it follows me everywhere I go but I have decided to have fun when its time to celebrate, not just for the fuck of it... its been nothing but dragging me down and wasting my time and the young beauty is diminishing! I am more woman now than I have ever been and I need to get in with the right people that we can do well together! collaborate! inspire! work is my new pleasure. I've always blamed the going out on "socializing for marketing resons, to meet people, to sell art, to make contacts..." anything but the truth has come out of it, lol. IM NOT SAYING IM NOT GOING OUT ANYMORE, I JUST NEED TO GET MY PRIORITIES STRAIGHT, and im not getting paid to go out like half the people I know... ;).

Anyway, I have completed MASTERY UNIVERSITY from Tony Robbins... that means I have done a few seminars and this last one was the "Date with Destiny" which was my favorite. Basically about about yourself in order to figure out how best to find a suitable partner and loads of meditation. I have done "Life" where I went to Fiji and learned about how to be the healthiest for my body, I went on a week long fast and had colonix and massages and facials everyday!, "Wealth" was about how to manage your money and I learned how to read stock graphs etc, and "Unleash the Power Within" where I walked over burning coals and learned a bunch of wonderful new ways to look at life!!

I recommend buying some of his tapes or maybe looking him up on youtube and seeing if its for you... I think hes a genius and can really change your state and motivate you to find what you want out of life. Now that Im all done with that I want to try his "Leadership" program. He has a bootcamp for the Academy or you can do a masters in Leadership where you literally learn how to read people and do the right thing for your business per se.

So, after that WONDERFUL experience I went to look at some ART schools and found to like

San Francisco Art Institute&California College of the ArtsthenOtis (in LA)

I have to get my applications in by FRIDAY, with my portfolio sent on slideroom; 10-12 images, a letter of recommendation, and a 3 paragraph Artist statement.

SO ITS CRUNCH TIME!

bc if I were to do this I would start school over there around Jan 20th! that means find an apt too!I think its too crunched so Im not gona stress too much about it... If anything I will start in the Fall.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

MISSION STATEMENT:The purpose of my life is to inspire, enjoy the beauty and spread love for myself and others.

POWER VIRTUES:GROWTHLOVESIGNIFICANCE CONTRIBUTIONMY NEW PRIMARY QUESTION:How can I make use out of Gods gifts in my life today to get even closer to what I want for the future?TOP 4 ONE YEAR GOALS:Move to San FranciscoFinish SchoolCreate ArtContinue my journey of fulfillment

RELATIONSHIP VISION:loving, creative, considerate, motivational, healthy, respectful, fun...TOWARDS VALUES:Anytime I have good HEALTH I have vibrant energy! I can feel great in my own body by doing exercise or stretching or eating healthy or even by simply breathing.

Anytime I am LOVING/AFFECTIONATE I can find that I can feel the love that is already inside me or by connecting with friends/lovers or even by simply being warm towards others.

Anytime I am HAPPY I have a magnetic charisma when I smile or accomplish a new goal or inspire those around me.

Anytime I am RESPONSIBLE/ORGANIZED I have a better outcome when I put things back in their place or choose not to procrastinate.

Anytime I INSPIRE I have more motivation and confidence which happens when I create or simply dance or even share.

Anytime I have FUN I can release my tension by laughing or bike riding or just by listening to music.

AWAY FROM VALUES & RULES:I will never again indulge in the stupid or destructive emotion of sadness because the severe consequences are energy sucking. Ultimately, this will cost me my drive, ambition and health. This is really just weak and this is not who I am. Who I really am is strong! In order to indulge in that I'd have to let go of the negative events in my past. All I really have to do is remember and know to look outside of myself, that focusing on the sad moments will only make me more sad. My life will ultimately be positive, energetic, and happy and that's how I'm going to live MY life!

Ive learned that femininity is power and that I am a caring wonderful person. I am motivated to step it up and find what truly fulfills me.;)

Saturday, December 11, 2010

People from Venus made a really fun music video starring Tambonation! The song is really really good too! check it out, i'm pretty sure you will enjoy it as much as I did. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PpdLWSaiPZc

I am in a Tony Robbins seminar in California right now and today will be the last day! I have been at "A Date with Destiny" for 6days! I have learned so much about myself and having a relationship. I cant wait to share it with you all! Its actually a dream come true to experience!

After this I am going to check out some school here in Cali, I want to move and finish school in San Fran but Ive never been there yet, so Im going to check them out! be here til the 17th.

When I get back to Miami I already ahve a new job waiting for me at Wynwood Kitchen & Bar as a hostess. I think Im going to do really well there and have a lot of fun being amoungst all that incredible ART!

I dont know what I was talking about last night, maybe i drank a little too much after the show... at least i didnt stay out late.

What I did want to say was that lots of "friends" didnt make it to my show and its pretty disappointing! bc though many many wonderful ppl did come it was a bummer that some of the people u really wanted to share this magical installation u created with them! They had 3days!!!!! its just a part of life... a part of growing and some times ppl say they are going to come see your show but they forget or get busy or have other things that they have to do. I understand I guess. I had a lot of fun doing it though, explaining to people what I had created... so for those of u that missed the show,,, this is what it was about....

"This is a 3d blog... welcome to Tambonation... this blog started out as a place where I could post my research, what im attracted to, my trend forecasting, anything i find inspiring etc and over time the blog evolved into a place where i expressed my thoughts, my ups and downs, pouring out my heart into it... the downs were sometimes very down and writting and expressing my feelings helped me get those feelings out and sometimes they were even suicidal... the blog helped me get through those moments by becoming a vessle for certain things to come to light... amongst all the beautiful pictures and things I was sharing were some dark, truthful, raw moments in my life... the blog began after a rehab program and delt with dilemas of relapses, frustration, sadness, guilt, death of loved ones, breakups, confusion etc to poems, to simple thoughts about life... and trying to find myself. The blog evolved into a whole world of feelings and growth and getting through my own issues within myself. The logo being a dandelion which is a dead flower that when its alive its yellow and when its dead u can blow on it to make a wish which is what the blog is about... many wishes... and when u blow on it, u are sending seeds for new life... the installation became a concept of "a death of the past" all the dilemas and troubles i went through are now in the past and we need to move foreward and we all go through our rough times, i expressed them. I made flower collages and put them on the floor to create a deathbed out of the installation... when you die ppl bring u flowers. I didnt want to die because at my LOWEST LOW I actually envisioned my funeral and how ppl would show up there, bring me flowers, and then walk out and i would become simply a story. I decided to get out of the FUNK i was in by focusing on cutting out flowers and making a collage with them which was stemmed from the idea of a deathbed. I incorporated the blog which is full of all that stuff I went through and decided to make it about a death of the past and birth of new, new ideas, new friends, new work, new experiences to come. So from all the darkness I was able to create something very beautiful. Allowing people to make a wish with a dandelion for themselves, spreading the idea of having a blog, that other people are out there with their dilemas in a world where not much is private I embraced it and sent all that stuff for the world to read and see, hopefully to help others overcome their own issues too. Or so that others don't feel alone bc its normal to have moments of doubt. It was difficult to figure out exactly how this could be art but by blurring the lines between art and life, i was, in fact, getting at something REAL. Also the flower collages i created are now huge stickers which I will be sticking all over town to spread BEAUTY. I also had an interactive element which allowed people to make either a virtual comment or a comment in the NOW by drawing or writting on a canvas. People could speak their mind on my blog which allowed them to become an actual blogger! They then shared what they thought of what I had shared with them. All the comments are like small treasures now to me, affecting people and reading into their minds."

Saturday, December 4, 2010

I am SOOOOOOOOOO HAPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

well, hold on, thats REALLY happy... this ODESSA by CARIBOU song.... hits the spot for ME.... what does that mean really??? ive been SO missing in action! ive been really busy working on tryng to get this installation which was SUUUUUPEEEEERRRRRRRRRRR Last MIn SHIIIIZNIIIT!!!!! dude, these Miami Fuckers SUCKKKK.... welll, Miami is busy, ART BASEL is arT BASEL N im a witness in the fog,,,,,, i know sooooo many artistssss its funny to me.... i have no ideaaaa what what i wana say when i start but all i know is that i appreiatate my grandpa making more than one comment, frnds that r doing their own creative thing, ppl like PAUL next to me... in his own lil world yet... next to me, guiding me,,, helping me, and I WISH TO B SOMETHING LIKE THAT FOR HIM... its a serious thing... its a serious feeling... hes changes me, my life, hes been more than an answer to my prayers,,, hes been something that all of u will never really understand... or maybe ur WASABI and u have a knack for this sort of thing.... IM IN SHOCK>>> i have been in this folded position... like a position that just has me TUCKED AWAY... LOLOLOL ..... maybe im lying for the first time, maybe ive lied before, maybe u should lie if u have to maybe lies arent always bad, maybe lies r ur friends..... i could b friends w them.... I SWEAR ITS WEIRD for ME 22222222222222222

u freak.

fuck offf.....

54321......

543210

just kidding... i dont want u to go... where would u go anyway? where? u want to know... i mean, before i say i would ever go...

i was kidding u asshole.... ur being such an asshole.... lately i have departed the name calling, the negativity, the anxiety, the depression, the frustration...... and its been morrrre than i could and would and anything i ..... anything.... i hope u can FEEL MEEEEE.... im wearing the coolest outfit ever.... can u PLSSSSS TRYYYYY ITTTTT ONNNN

FOR ME.

AND THEN

DONT WORRRY

BOUT A THING....LIKE IDKSOMEHOWSAYHEY!!!TAMBO!!!SHES GOT MY BACK!KNOW THAT I DO1 IF U WANT ME TOBUT MAN IM COOL AND I JUST DID MY FIRST INSTALLATION

BARELY ANYBODY THAT I CARE ABOUT ACTUALLY CAME... I DONT HAVE AS MANY FRNDS AS UUUUUUU THOUGHT... WELL, MAYBE THAT WAS A LESSON FOR UUUUU, NOT FOR ME, I SAW SOOOO MANY PPL JUST TONIGHT AT BASEL CASTLE THAT DIDNT

THIS HAS BEEN A DREAM COME TRUE, SO HAPPY TO HAVE SHARED MY INSTALLATION WITH PEOPLE DURING ART BASEL 2010. THE 3 PROJECTORS, 2 IPADS, 2 IPODS, SOUND SYSTEMS, LAPTOP, WIRELESS KEYBOARD, LED LIGHTS, ROTATING DISCOBALL, HANDMADE DANDELIONS, COLLAGE FLOWERED VINYL STICKERS, MARKERS AND CANVAS FOR "IN THE NOW" COMMENTATION BESIDES THE VIRTUAL ONES POSTED HERE ON THE ACTUAL BLOG. I CANT WAIT TO SHOW ALL THE PICTURES OF THIS EVENT ON HERE AS WELL. I WOULD LOVE TO SEE THE INSTALLATION TRAVEL TO MORE ART FAIRS ACROSS THE WORLD... THE CONCEPT REALLY INSPIRED PEOPLE AND THATS WHAT FEELS THE MOST AMAZING ABOUT HAVING DONE THIS.

THANK YOU TO ALL WHO CAME

BUT MOST OF ALL THANKS TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HELPED MA KE THIS HAPPEN!

AWAREHOUSE GALLERY; HOLDA, RODRIGO DHARMA AND PHAXES, RICK NOVO FROM RAMAX MEDIA WHO TOOK CARE OF ALL THE INSTALLATION AND TECHNOLOGY ASPECT, PAUL FOR RECORDING ALL THE AUDIO, MARTIN FOR THE COLLABORATION ON THE MUSIC, VINNY FOR HELPING ALL THE WAY FROM NYC, MY PARENTS FOR INVESTING AND FINANCIALLY BACKING THIS PROJECT. AND WHOEVER ELSE I AM MISSING!!!!! I WILL COME BACK TO THIS AND MAKE SURE I THANK YOU TOO!

LOVE U ALL, THANKS TAMBONATION FOR BEING A VESSEL FOR SPREADING BEAUTY AND ART TO THE WORLD.

very interesting meeting you tonight. remember that some things happening in the moment are a reflection of what you have attracted to you. lots of very different quality energies floating around out there. be careful what you attract.

The beginning of a whole new concept. Tambonation. A 3D blog. Wow, only you could think about it Tambo! We want to see more, we want to read more, we want to feel more of what you see, think and feel. Hurray to a new era! The Tambonation ERA!

I REALLY ADMIRE YOUR CREATIVE PROCESS. we all have our thoughts and theories about life and your imagination is really the dopeness. IT TAKES ALOT TO IMPRESS ME AND YOUR HAVE WENT OVER AND BEYOND MY EXPECTATION

TAMBONATION, BONATION, BONNE NATION, TAMBO NACION,... IS THE FOUNDATION FOR BETTER RELATIONS THROUGHOUT THE WORLD. THE ANSWER MY FRIEND IS BLOWING IN THE WIND AND TAMBONATION WILL BE TOGETHER WITH THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORL TO SETTLE ALL OUR DIFFERENCES. LET'S AGREE ON A NEW 48 PARALLEL.JAMES MCVEIGH

Expectations are a humans worst enemy, because when they are not met, suffering is the result. So make sure that all you expect from life is what life is willing to give you. Live hard, live smart but make sure you live, this is life, no more no less, interesting, hard, and one day it ends. Make sure to take as much as you can...

you are a very creative person, you are on the search for your identity and i feel you are on the beginning of the road. just follow through with your thoughts and make them real. i don't dream my life i live my dreams, and remember if you are sometimes feeling alone is because you are different and that is the difference, keep going. believe in your self.

THanks so much for teaching people the importance of expression and creativity. Too many people allow others, society and lack of confidence to suppress their true colors but it's important to be free and just scream your feelings out loud. It's beautiful!!

Its been an amazing time... ART BASEL 2010! I did it! This year has been pretty fantastic actually... A lot of things have gotten accomplished, dreams do come true... I wanted to go to Burning Man, I wanted to meet wonderful people, I wanted to share my art, to inspire, to blog, to be happy! And I AM, I DID, Its HERE! The moment has arrived! The wishes I made, the hard work, the quest for LOVE, the TRUTH...

so we breathe right... we breathe.... we all breathe the same air... we share it... we breathe it like a respirator, like someone hooked us up to it, like we breathe it, like we do, like why wouldnt others do the right thing and OBEY,,,, i get it.

GOING...

GOING...

GONE.

Nobody thinks u should leave.... ever... I personally think ur amazing actually. i think that ppl try to do crazy shit, who knows why but im so over those ppl... and if they think that they can just continue on... once they simply SEE what u offered... HOLY MOTHER... i rather show my TITS... I rather shove them in your face, bc honestly ur that easy to satisfy, ur that east to SHOVE out of my life! ur worthless in my eyes... UR NOT THE ONE.

SOOGOT ON WITH IT.

And if u r.... stop pretending ur so cool, stop acting like IM THE KOOK.

Art is the untangeble. It forms through the things we see, the things we hear, or taste ..... I think our life's goal is to explore our sense that makes us grow stronger. Most people love Visual sense appealing to them. For me is the hearing. Music and sounds form my life. Art is beautiful and not a FASHION

Unfortunately, the oversource of our government or leaders or our CEO's, If you see, where do you see paintings around you?? It's all a tradition or a fashion. People have forgotten what art is. People think Marriage, or Children pushes us to move into a workforce "lifestyle", and settle down.

WE ARE NOT MEANT TO DO THAT

If you believe GOD or any higher being. Then think about the Universe they created us to enjoy. NOT work

hey my name is tyler paulo is paulo and i think there is other people here to , not just us beut its ;kinda cool were here joey tatanka reid sam, ash rod marco jenny jarome lots of people for sure but whats for sure is that the love pumps fucking bleeding f;rDo all of us to be here and anywhere we are fucing radddddd cuz i invented the word beto hi wifey me m, me and alllllllll the lovers across the worl lets get this bull and tackel it by the horns where is the period button. WHERES THE BOOTCH?AND SAANTHA HAS TO OPEN UPHER LEGS.I LOVE YOU BOTHBUT COOOL I HAVE THE BEST TIME ON THE PLANET WITH ALL OF YOU EVERY TIME BIGG UPPS DIC VAG I THINK MY CC IS ON HOLD AT THE Bar fuck order while u have the chance, just not that much.

blessed is the man who walketh not in the path of the wicked or sitteth in the seat of the scronful...blessed is the man who walketh in the path of the rightoues....jah...bless him everytime....mo fiyah

Tambo! This represents you all so well as you are the one person that I can say goes above and beyond to bring people together. I am immensely proud of you and offer you a world of support in ur efforts! Mucho carino!

hello tambo!!!!!!!!! sewper cooper droppin in to bring you beautiful vibes and good times!!!! im glad to know you. thanks for all the laughs and i am so happy to see you doing YO THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my best cuzin everr i love how ur soo creative,beatiful,unique,colorful to many to name anyways i love u soo much and ur art is beatiful and so r u sooo follow ur heart dreams and hopes love always and forever ,ur cuzin (littlest cuzin)julie matlack

TAMBONATION has created a work that addresses a constellation of ideas, speaking to how we live today in an age of twits and facebook, blogs and youtube, where nothing is private, sharing is real and strangers interact virtually to find each other. At TAMBONATION –this girl’s blog life envelopes us as she reveals her deepest secrets which highlight the universal quest for love and happiness. TAMBONATION is on a desperate search for beauty and fulfillment. Her work, words and voice speak to a generation of 20’somethings, looking for meaning in a virtual world, fighting back a rigid, hypocritical, compartmentalized reality. Interact here, find your own voice and contemplate TAMBONATION, her interests, her aesthetic, her dilemmas. Make a wish with a dandelion, see your flowered death bed and exchange impulses as you release your thoughts in a virtual reality, in a 3D world of possibilities that is positively charged with sounds and sights at TAMBONATION.OPENING: AWAREHOUSE @ 550 NW 29th Street, Miami, FloridaRUNNING: Thurs. DEC 2nd to Sat. Dec 4th and 24/7 in cyberspace@ tambonation.blogspot.comTIME: Day and Night