Archive for February, 2010

When we get our hearts broken, it takes a while to be whole again. In my case I have no idea if it would ever be whole again. I don’t know. I really don’t know what is the state of my heart right now. I guess it cannot mend by itself. Another question would enter my mind once again. Will I ever love again? Am I still capable? Tectonic plates have moved on but my heart still grieves for what I have lost. My heart still grieves for the love that was rejected big time. My heart is traumatized to be even open up again. I am just completely bothered by the fact that I am still alone and I seem to be avoiding close relationships. In the surface, I seem to be trying to open up but deep inside me close relationships scare the shit out of me. Oh God help me open up.

Many people may surround us, but in our own little word we find ourselves standing alone.

We don’t have to be alone to feel lonely.

Cheers to everyone who is going through a rough time! Cheers to the people with empty hearts. Cheers to the broken-hearted people! Cheers to the people who put on a mask to hide everything underneath! Cheers to the people standing alone after everyone has left!

It’s painful. It’s difficult. It’s killing you right now.

Don’t worry.

It will pass. It will pass. You just have to make it through alive. Stand firm. Everything will be better soon.

Angry words thrown from all directions. Everything has been said and done. Pain resided a long time inside me until it almost ate me alive. Thank God for forgiveness. Grudge no longer lingers in my heart. I no longer desire for the kiss of death.

I’m becoming happy again. No, it’s not lonely to journey alone. I recently discovered the bliss of being single. I found peace in appreciating everything that comes my way.

Am I playing safe? Am I still open for love? Can I still risk for love?

Someone out there is threatening my peaceful single life, causing an unusual stir in my heart.