Im a 26 year old female, who should hold the job title of professional patient these days. Although that is a pretty low paid job.
Really, I am just a regular 20 something person trying to find my way in life, whilst fighting a body that seems intent on trying to kill me.

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Thursday, November 28, 2013

Messy

The last few days have been a roller coaster of emotion that I am only just beginning to come down from. I feel that I have been balanced on a needle point, starring into the abyss.

Pure fear and exhaustion is only just leading me to review my stand on things and is leading me to question everything.

What I'd risk, and how much an I prepared to risk in hopes of small gains.

I have a lot of choices to make over the next few weeks, one that could change everything. But right now, my nerves are raw, my heart heavy and my head Cloudy. As my body recovered from a new round of torture and I examine what is left of my soul. I have to wonder. will it all have been worth it in the end.

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About Me

What can I say. This is me.
I used to be fairly interesting, with days constructed around training to become a nurse.
These days however, are a little less and interesting and yet a little harder to get through.
I still try to live life to the full, I was given the gift of a second chance via a Liver Transplant a few years back.
Now all that stands in my way is a failing airway and a few mental hiccups when my past tries to define my future.