I Can’t Believe It

It’s been less than 2 years since I started all this. I can pin the beginning of my real involvement with Saraswati down to within a couple of days or so – it was likely no earlier than the 19th of February 2012, but definitely no later than the 22nd. I recorded the first inkling of my realization that I’d been claimed in a journal, but the entry just isn’t clear as to the exact date.

I feel strange looking back and seeing where I was then versus where I am now. There have been side-trips and distractions, but I always seem to come back to where I started: yearning to love and to know a deity, and to not have my devotion brushed aside or met with hollow silence. It’s odd to look back, because in so many ways, nothing has changed.