Monday, June 6, 2011

It's days like this makes me miss someone, someone I hold dear to my heart, once lost from my thoughts but now reappears back into my mind. It's frustrating, knowing that someone you totally into, just aren't feeling the same towards you. I mean, look at her, she's rich, smart, beautiful while I'm just a fucked up guy that no one cared about. We are too different. I don't know how and why I liked her, but I just am. I can never forget about her. She was on my mind all the time, in the morning, before I sleep, every time. I first saw her standing around at school, that's it man. I've fallen in love with her the moment I saw her. Talk about first look first love dude. Until now, I've never spoken to her in person, I did talk to her in Yahoo Messenger, and Facebook one time. You know what, she's rarely online but when she is, I chatted with her. But now, it's a different thing. She knows that I like her. It's like she's avoiding me. I always look for chances to talk to her, every single chance that I get, I blew it. I really blew it. I never talk to her. Even when I'm going to confess to her, I choked up. I hate myself, really. Everyone told me that I should confess to her, but I didn't. I'm just a coward who talks big but never did what I talked. Every time I listened to Taylor Swift's songs, it reminded me of her, because she loves Taylor Swift. If I was given a wish, a wish by God, I will turn the wheels of time around and tried to change the outcome of this. Because why? She's my heartbeat, and it won't change the fact that I'm in love with her. When I miss her, I always listen to Taylor Swift's songs or looking at her picture. Maybe I'm like a stalker, but I'm not.

If I was given the chance, the chance to change myself, I would change to how she would like me to be. Because she's everything to me. For those who know who I'm talking about, well, just keep it to yourself. If you would like to show this to her, well, go ahead, but I don't know what good will it bring. But this post is dedicated to her, because she's the beat to my heart and I love you.No one can change the fact that I'm into you. I miss your face, I miss your eyes, I miss your voice. I miss you, I really do, Miss Pretty Eyes. :'(