So many weeks have gone past and I’ve missed them. I don’t want to miss any more. I want to live them, each and every one of them.

So this week, right now, is MY week, to live. And I’m not speaking of existence that merely makes it through each draining, spirit-sapping day full of pessimism and self doubt and questions about why I’m even here. NO! I speak of true life; of resting in the knowledge that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I am more than just the unbalanced sum of my broken personality, lacking in so very many ways. Oh Father God, my downfalls are so painfully obvious that they obscure my vison of myself and my potential in you, of the truth, of your perfect and life changing grace.

So this is my week. From this day which God has provided so graciously to me, I choose to see myself as I truly am. I will, for the first time in many weeks, months, possibly even years, stand in front of the mirror and do a personal health check. Body. Mind. Soul. The good things I will recognise and praise God for; the things that need changing I will, through the strength and grace of God, allow to be renewed. And those things I have no control over, I will pray daily for the ability to accept and embrace.

Oh yes, this is my week!

No longer will my mouth speak words of negativity over my being, or bring depression into our home. In the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ, I will declare Him as Lord and Master over all things! Though I have faith smaller than a mustard seed that I can change, yet will I believe that “all things are possible in Christ Jesus” – not of my own strength, for I have none. Not in my wisdom, for my knowledge and reason is but a speck in the ocean compared to the wisdom and knowledge of Christ.

No longer will my physical self be allowed to run rampant with little or no self discipline. As Josiah cut down the idols of old, so do I give permission for Jesus to cut down the idols in my life: food,idleness, negative thoughts, and self abasement. I relinquish all rights to him and his control. I will trust in him, turn to him for comfort and to fill the void that so often opens in my spirit.

And most importantly, no longer will I avoid delving into his word and his presence. Oh, how I used to revel in his closeness, scouring every page of my Bible, waiting and praying for a “rhema word” to be revealed to my spirit by the Spirit of Christ. I loved the Kingdom of God more than any thing, sacrificing at God’s bidding whatever he required for the sake of the Kingdom and the salvation of lost souls. How I have longed for that passion to return, but my innermost being has been reluctant to believe it possible. My spirit has constructed a protective barrier around my heart, preventing me from recalling past hurts, and impenetrable to new ones.

But this is a new week! Now, in MY week, I am going to allow Christ to start chipping away at this barrier. I am so scared, and yet so aware of the depth of his love for me. I know all will be well. I know that from this point on, I will have more ‘me’ weeks than I have had in many years. And as I allow Christ to heal me and reveal my true character to myself, I will step into each new week a little lighter than the one before – spiritually, mentally and, hopefully, physically! And as I am changed, my prayer will be that those around me, my dear family and friends, will be abundantly blessed by the person I am in Christ: a strong, steadfast Christian with a renewed love and passion for Christ, for life, and for people.

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I really enjoyed this devotion. It gives everyone something personal to think about. By making it personal, you avoided coming across as preachy. You could have left the last line off but you have a wonderful well-written message.