Thursday, August 8, 2013

If you have followed me for a while or have even checked out my "About page" Abortion is something I am extremely and deeply passionate about! And I believe my passion to end abortion is even stronger now ever due to me experiencing pregnancy.

Have you seen this video... It's called "How Do You Kill 11 Million People"? Based on Andy Andrews' book, How Do You Kill 11 Million People? If you haven't I seriously recommend that you watch it before you finish reading.

The video is about Hitler and the Holocaust and standing up against what is evil.
As I listened my heart began to sink into my chest as I was watching it and hearing a few people talking and telling the story about how they could hear the trains full of innocent Jews screaming for their lives as they were brought to the concentration camp. And as they passed through their village they could here their screams. And eventually they knew what was going on.. And they knew when they heard the train coming and the whistle blowing. They knew they were carrying men, women and children on their way to death. And as the screams got louder, so did their singing voices.

"Week
after week that train whistle would blow. We would dread to hear the
sound of those old wheels because we knew that the Jews would begin to
cry out to us as they passed our church. It was so terribly disturbing!
We could do nothing to help these poor miserable people, yet their
screams tormented us. We knew exactly at what time that whistle would
blow, and we decided the only way to keep from being so disturbed by the
cries was to start singing our hymns.By the
time that train came rumbling past the church yard, we were singing at
the top of our voices. If some of the screams reached our ears, we'd
just sing a little louder until we could hear them no more. Years have
passed and no one talks about it much anymore, but I still hear that
train whistle in my sleep. I can still hear them crying out for help.
God forgive all of us who called ourselves Christians, yet did nothing
to intervene." -A man's description from the video.

Brothers and sisters, Do you sing to drowned out what we call "today's Holocaust"? It makes me sad that this is happening once again but this time it's happening in our own country.. And even worse their children.. Children being slaughtered a horrible death by their own mother and the abortionist who deceived to them..

Church.. I believe this video is for us more than anyone else! We are called to make a difference and to open the eyes of the ignorance.. Why are we just sitting here and singing our hymns until the screams fade? I know Jesus would rather us live His worship instead of just singing them and ignoring the whispered scream of a child out of complete fear.

We believe abortion is murder yet, we don't do anything about it.. Most of us even forget to pray (Which is the most important thing to do btw!)

We know innocent children are being ripped to pieces everyday yet, we keep silent so our ego won't be ripped to pieces. We know fearful and deceived pregnant women are thinking about aborting their child and yet, we don't go to clinics to comfort them.It makes me so mad when people try to "Sugarcoat" abortion.. Sadly even Christians do it! The one's who should be protecting the innocent is turning their backs on them..We get so caught up on what is and isn't a "passion" I hear people say all the time

"Well, I know abortion is wrong and all. But it's not really my passion". But it should be everyone's passion to end it! Because it's not about you and your passion. It's about God and His Passion.. Rescue those being led away to death; hold back those staggering toward slaughter. Proverbs 24:11God has called us to be His warriors. To protect His innocent and children are the most innocent of all.. Isn't it about time we do something? It's pretty horrific that a baby is facing death before he/she even gets a chance to live.This has caused quite a stir every time I say this but it's truth. Friends, we are living in a holocaust. We are in the midst of one. But there is ignorance in the air. Ignorance that denies it. The same demonic ignorance that flew through the air when it took place with the Jews. And just like Christians in this generation they were silenced with fear and their ego.Do we really not want to intervene while children are dying for the cause of selfishness?

"It is a poverty to decide that a child must die so that you may live as
you wish." - Mother Teresa

Do we really want to have to ask God for forgiveness for standing by and covering our ears as we hear the children scream of pain?Do we really want the blood of millions on our hands?I should hope not! Sisters and brothers.. Lets stand, lets fight! Lets take back what the enemy has stolen and say "You will no longer take what is ours! You will no longer take our children, our innocence, our life. Not in our nation! We declare life and abundant life!

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

It's so hard to believe that I have been married for almost two years now coming December 23rd.... Such a wonderful and memorable day. Because it was the day my best friend and I became one flesh.

This year in a half has been incredible! A season I wouldn't change for the world.

Yes, we had our up days and down days.

We had days where we were great financially and then there were days when money was just weird and I hated it!

We had days when we I was terrified to be a parent and then again all of our days we can't even comprehend the blessings our child brings us every day. Being a parent was always a calling on our lives, always a dream. We just didn't expect it to come true so soon and boy are we glad it did!
So during this year in a half of Leon and I being married, living together, making decisions together, committing together, raising a life together, and loving each other. Here are a few things we live by that keeps our marriage a happy one.
1. God is fully the center of our Marriage.. We continue to work on not making any decisions without Him, We trust that He will provide and not money or jobs. And most important we have learned to seek God's love and affection more than each other. Because we both agree 100% that Jesus is much better at loving us and fulfilling our every desire more than we are capable and how can we even love one another if love itself (Jesus) isn't dwelling in our hearts?
2. Many people encourage the famous martial advice to give your 50% and let the other give their 50% but Leon and I fully believe that we need to give each other much more than 50% but 100%. We need to give our all to each other without the doubts and negativity of "I'm doing way more for my husband than he's doing for me" Ladies, those thoughts are dangerous and can only lead to a stronghold on your marriage... Whenever those thoughts pop in the noggin throw them out and give your husband another 100% . If your spouse isn't giving you his 100% don't lash out on him or refuse to give him your loving.. Let God speak with your husband and correct him with wisdom.. You just keep doing your thing and you will be blessed. :)

3. Those who compare themselves among themselves are not wise.. So don't compare your marriage to another. That's mainly the only problem I have with romantic movies. It gives us women such an unrealistic romantic reality and influences us to compare our husbands to this Mr. Darcy. And it's not even just movies.. It can even be easy to compare our marriage to our the marriage of a friend, a "love story" page on a blog, or even your expectations. Ladies lets just turn these negative thoughts away now in Jesus' Name.. Our weddings were amazing, our husbands our even better, and though our Marriages are not perfect we are right where we're meant to be and we are blessed beyond measure and God has a bright future for our Marriages! Doesn't that excite you wifey??
4. I'm so glad Leon and I took premarital counseling and I seriously recommend it to everyone.. One thing it has taught me is to "Communicate" Communicating my feelings in the past was always a struggle to me.. I was a go with the flow kinda girl a little to much and never spoke my opinion on anything.. But that quickly changed after I was encouraged that speaking your opinion (Especially to your husband) is a great thing and very important. I honestly think that's why sadly so many marriages break up these days..

"I think what we have here people, is a failure to communicate".

So my husband would say. It's so important..I know if you have a husband who works all the time like mine.. (A police officer, in case you you didn't know) It's kinda hard to get a word in because their either sleeping or working. Night shifts are the worst! So God has given me the idea to write Leon a journal and put it by his nightstand.. Leon looks at it when he gets home or when he's off and then we talk about anything that's on our mind when he's off. Communication is key.

5. Circumstances happen. How will you handle them? One thing Jesus has really taught Leon and I is that we have control and power over our circumstances. Yea, things happen. Things that are not fair. But we have the power of the Holy Spirit to change them with our attitudes and words. So instead of having a pity party about how life isn't fair. We praise Jesus because we know that He knows the plans He has for us. Plans that will prosper us and give us hope. To God be the glory.

Monday, August 5, 2013

You know, when I had made the decision on breastfeeding my child I honestly didn't know what to expect. I've heard it was the most beautiful experience and I've heard from others that it was so painful and frustrating. I guess it depends on the child maybe? Whether or not they latch on okay or maybe sensitivity? I just know in my experiences of breastfeeding it was so horrible the first two weeks.. Kinda like the storm before the calmness, the pain before the pleasure.

I was still in so much pain from giving birth and the frustration of the lack of sleep made it worse. I was one tired mama and lets just say I wasn't a pro at first when it came to breastfeeding my child. It made me question my Motherhood ability. Whether or not I was even a good mom. "How could a mom not know how to feed her daughter?" I wondered often.. And maybe I freaked out over the matter because of the emotions caused from a lack of sleep and my husband not being able to stay home to help. However, I was a mess.

After seeing three experts and reading and seeing all of the positions to help my daughter latch on it still didn't help. She would always latch on perfectly but I just wasn't comfortable. The positions weren't comfortable to me, I often felt like I was doing it wrong, I constantly wondered if I was feeding her enough, the pain from breastfeeding was horrible..So, horrible I even cried many times. And because of the lack of confidence as a new mother I had doubts.

Really, I'm going to be honest here.. Breastfeeding at first wasn't a bonding moment for me.. It was something I dreaded doing because the pain was hard to bare. It was something I didn't enjoy at all. In fact the only thing that kept me from giving up on breastfeeding was the health benefits and the fact it was free. And the support of my Prince Charming Leon was amazing!! Leon honestly could care less whether or not I breastfed or did formula.. Whatever I wanted to do he was completely supportive.

After doing some research on breastfeeding and what helps other women. I received the best information I could have ever received in helping me overcome this.

I was told "Instead of thinking about the pain and problems of breastfeeding while feeding your baby, pray for her instead.. Put away the phone, pause the remote and just pray over her. It makes you think of breastfeeding a totally different way and shines a new light on the matter".

And it was so true! After a couple days of choosing to pray for her during feedings I didn't even feel the pain anymore. It just went away and the breastfeeding experience became a wonderful bonding moment for me and my daughter and I believe this little habit will continue to grow into a big one. Leaving my daughter and I with a great and powerful prayer relationship. I'm so glad I never gave up breastfeeding and to be honest I'm going to be kinda sad to end it in the next four months.

Sweet mama's if you're having trouble with breastfeeding I just deeply want to encourage you to take this advice and pray over your child while breastfeeding them and singing worship with them. I just know it will take your relationship with them to a deeper level and you'll be starting a really amazing habit as you're teaching your child the power of prayer.. And if breastfeeding doesn't work out for you there is seriously
nothing wrong with bottle feeding and it doesn't make you any less of a loving mother..All I can say is whatever works for you and your baby is the best thing to do. Don't let anyone tell you differently, beautiful.

On a British note.. Can I just say I love this couple family? So cute!