Yunalee, I feel for you. I've had some really bad binge days lately. I think they've passed for now (once I remembered how terrible they make me feel both physically and emotionally), but I'm still on very shaky ground.

I'm proud of you for still checking in here even when things are tough. I usually stop tracking when I go off the rails.

Have you tried approaching the diet goals from a different direction, like setting daily nutritional goals instead of a calorie restriction goal? You'll naturally end up replacing unhealthy foods with healthy ones. And instead of being in a mindset where your goals are only attainable if you deny yourself food, eating (the right foods, of course) will help you meet your goals. It's a subtle distinction, but for me it makes a big difference mentally.