Not me

When you look in the mirror Who do you see? I do not recognize the face That is staring back at me I do not see someone Who is strong I do not see someone Who feels like they belong Where is that person Who smiled just because? Where is that person That I once was? All is see is someone who is weak I see someone who is scared Someone whose dreams, whose feelings Will never be shared I see fragments of What I used to be Fragments, But not a whole me Why all the pain, Anger, I hold it all inside Behind thies big wall I just want to hide I let other people Change who I am, Who I¹m supposd to be Now they are gone And I¹m left with this person, This person who is not me I let people hurt me, I let them win Then feel guilty For it is I who has sinned So who is this person Struggling to get out This person who needs to hide Behind the fear, behind the doubt And when I¹m alone And it¹s just her and I Why must I protect her from the truth? Why must I lie? If only change were easy If only life was fair If only I had someone to hold me Someone that would care I need to find the strength To face all my fears It needs to be okay To cry all these tears Someday I hope to be That person I¹m meant to be Someday I hope I get to know That person who is me

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lol I think I remember talking with you before, as well. It's always good to *see a familiar face*(virtual-like, ya know?). Anyway, I suppose it doesn't matter whether or not it's realistic or not, it's really good writing. But what makes it even better is the fact that it is true, and it is reality. For some people, it's easier to transform their thoughts and feelings into words such as this, others... not so much. Unlike you, I find it very difficult to do so. Congratulations on ... (more »)