If only I know.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND A THING HUH?

oh forgedit. I'm missing Johor already.

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We're teenagers. We're still learning. Shit happens. We cheat, we lie, we criticize, we fight over stupid things. We fall in love and end up getting hurt. We bitch, bitch, BITCH. We bitch about bitches being bitches. We party till dawn, we drink till we pass out. We hate people for no reason, we call each other names. We stay up late having deep conversations, or stay up late just to THINK. We go out and have a kick ass time with our friends and THOSE WILL BE THE MEMORIES. One day that's going to all pass. You can waste your time focusing on all the bad things, but one day you're gonna wish you were still a teenager. So make the most of what you have now, forget all the bullshit and drama and LIVE YOUR FUCKING LIFE WITH A SEXY SMILE ON YOUR FACE.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

My sanity is paper thin

shets. I haven't touch any other books except for Sejarah's.

DARN.

what I did today- woke up at 7.10am- get ready for the career talk- skipped breakfast- went to Donggongon- went to the wrong place instead, blame the map!- arrived in some skim pinjaman whatsoever building- listened to talks till 1pm- they gave us kfc for free (nyum)- 1.30pm went to kolombongstill reading huh?- met up with mom and sibs- roamed around kolombong giant- bought chocolate waffle (nyum)- reloaded my credits- had more roamings- went back with dad seperately from mom & sibs- took a nap- woke up- shower- dinner

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Exactlyyyyyy

Maroon 5

T___________T

It's not right, not okay.

"I never knew perfection till,I heard you speak, and now it kills me,
Just to hear you say the simple things,
Now waking up is hard to do,
And sleeping is impossible too,
Everything is reminding me of you.
What can I do?"

Friday, February 19, 2010

TO YOU.

Purut's CNY open house was good, I enjoyed the fireworks, love her huge residence and all.

but the fun didn't really continue after the first 3 hours hm? Thanks to you, for always screwing up everything. YES, ALWAYS.

Do you know that I got very fed up with you already?

Don't think I forgot bout what happened during my primary 6. I swear to you there's a whole lot more things that you had screwed up but that's the clearest memory so far bout how you being so pro of screwing up EVERYTHING.

What is wrong with you man? Are you sick or something? No, seriously. Are you?

Even mom doesn't know what's wrong with you. Even mom admitted that she's scared of your behaviour. Not only her, everyone okay? You are so weird. VERY WEIRD.

I hate your moodswings. I despise it. We despise it. EVERYBODY IN THIS HOUSE HATES IT, don't you know that?

When you're in good mood, it was like heaven. I love it so much. But when it goes to the other way round, it feels like HELL man. HELL!

I wish I can drive, I wish I have driving license. Sometimes, I just wish to be.. free. I wish for freedom. Sometimes, I wish I've finish my highschool and own my OWN house, money, car and everything so that I can do whatever I want without seeking you guys' permission. Sometimes, I feel like running away from this house. Sometimes.. I just wish to be.. like other girls. You get me? You get me kah?! UGH.

fuck.
oh and sometimes, I just need to swear.

Dear mummy, sorry for the screaming and yelling through the phone just now. You know the situation also kan? We both just so f*cked up hm? Another reason for me to feel bad, sorry again. Love you.

And to friends (you guys know who you are), sorry for all the trouble just now, and thanks for everything. x

love me yes love me no

rap it out yo

We all need somebody that we can lean on,
when you wake up look around and see that your dreams gone,
when the earth quakes we’ll help you make it through the storm,
when the floor breaks a magic carpet to stand on,
we are the world united by love so strong,
when the radio isn’t on you can hear the songs,
a guided light on the dark road your walking on,
a sign post to find the dreams you thought was gone,
someone to help you move the obstacles you stumbled on,
someone to help you rebuild after the rubble’s gone,
we are the world connected by a common bond,
Love the whole planet sing it along.
— We Are The World 25 for Haiti

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

blah blah blah

Everywhere I'm looking now, I'm surrounded by your embrace.

the lines just suddenly popped out in mind, hm weird.

before that, I'd like to express my deep condolences to Mel & her family for their precious lost. Stay strong & take care babe, we love you. <3

Currently waiting for time to pass by, till it strike 10.30! Then imma get ready. To lazy to do anything except for online to kill time evethough there are tons of things I need to do. such as. homeworks? duh, study, heck ujian in 2 weeks time, pandu puteri! Aaahh this one lagi la banyak I have to do :( Shit.

IDEAS, I need ideas. Fellow AJKs, please? Planning all those stuff by myself? omg no way man. I have no experiance on doing camp, treasure hunt, blah blah those activities man, NO. Thank god there are Seri, Jimah, Eileen, Landy for giving me those ideas.

It's been lasted for god knows how long

I can't sleep! AGAIN. It's 0314 now by the way, and I was forcing myself to sleep just now. And obviously, epic failed.

Ugh I hate this. Why is this insomnia syndrome attacking? ftard.

Most probably because of:
- the Mocha I had just now
- mosquitoes keep bitting me up! Where the heck they came from again?
- my mind was not concentrating on sleeping, but on THINKING. Think and think and think and THINK.
- you? Don't make me hate you man.

But I never told you, what I should have said. No I never told you, I just held it in.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Queen of my heart

one of my favourite. I somehow think that there are some lines suitable for graduation & separation moment haha. I wanna make video using this song for class 2010! You'll see.

I'll always look back, as I walk away. This memory will last for eternity, and all of our tears, will be lost in the rain. When I find my way back, to your arms again. But until that day, you know you are, the queen of my heart (: