"At times when I was writing it, I had to go lie down," Hillary Clinton told The New Yorker's David Remnick in a new interview, referring to her just-released campaign memoir, What Happened. "I just couldn't bear to relive it." The book, which came out Tuesday, is Clinton's attempt to reckon with her stunning loss in the 2016 election, including the decisions she did and didn't make.

The full interview appears in the magazine's latest issue — behind the cover that would have run had Clinton captured the election last November. The President Hillary Clinton cover that would have been depicts her gazing at the moon while standing behind the Resolute Desk: