i love because i can!

A blog about another side of me. The softer side of me, the part i let show to the people i trust. I have a surface covering of hardness, it is just a front so people do not take me for granted or take advantage of me!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

To love an enemy goes against the grain of our soul. It's unnatural. Only when we ask Jesus and His Holy Spirit for help with his supernatural Love can we even start to consider it. One person said, "I got rid of my enemies by making them my friends."
How can we even think about forgiving them except for this verse ‎"Father, forgive them, they know not what they do." (Luke 23:34) These people are being influenced or blinded by satan. They don't know what they are doing. God doesn't condone sin, but He forgives people. Separate that person from their sin. Put their sin on the cross for Jesus to deal with, now you are free to forgive that person... When you do that, it lifts that heaviness off of you.
When I come across situations that seem to be more trying than others, I ask God for his help with his spiritual armor for His spiritual shield to repel the darts and attacks of the enemy, for his spiritual breastplate to protect my heart, for his spiritual helmet to protect my mind, and to walk in his shoes of love and peace - (it really helps) . Try it.

Dear Lord, we ask for your supernatural help to be able to love our enemies. To pray for them instead of cursing them. To love them even if they hate us and make us physically sick. Let them know that it's the light of your love that brings about change, not force, embarrassment or manipulation. Please help us more Lord to walk in your Love & Peace, in Jesus name, amen.
(Matthew 5:43-48 , Luke 6:27-36 )

Love for Enemies (Matthew 5:43-48)
43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor[a] and hate your enemy.’ 44 But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 that you may be children of your Father in heaven.

Luke 6:27-36
[27] "But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, [28] bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. [29] If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someo...ne takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic. [30] Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. [31] Do to others as you would have them do to you.

32] "If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' love those who love them. [33] And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' do that. [34] An...d if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' lend to 'sinners,' expecting to be repaid in full. [35] But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. [36] Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.

Greek agapao -- love your enemies
Greek poimeo kalos -- do good to those who hate you.
Greek eulogoeo -- to speak well of
Greek proseuchomai -- to pray for, to intercede for.

Do good.
When you find a way you can do something good for one of your worst enemies, do it. Not to shame him, but because you are trying to find it in your own evil heart to love him for Jesus' sake.

Bless.
When you think of the person who is slandering you, and saying untrue and nasty things about you, find ways to work blessing into your thoughts. Speak a blessing out loud. When you are with friends, instead of complaining about your unjust treatment, go out of your way (actively) to speak well of your enemies. Why? To shame them? No -- though it will. But to find it in your own heart to love them.

Pray. Intercede.
When you're praying, you probably pray for your family and your pastor, and your friends and family. Why don't you begin to pray and intercede for your enemies. Actively. Start to ask God to help them. Ask God to heal the hurts in their lives that are some of the motivators of their evil actions. Ask God to bless them and show mercy to them. Why? To shame them? No, in order to find it in your heart to love them.

And if you'll do good when you find opportunities, and bless when you think of them, and pray and intercede earnestly before the Lord, you'll find that God will begin to put love in your heart toward your enemies. Actual love. Sometimes loving emotions, too.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

"The only way you can ever properly represent Jesus to the world is to let His character show through your attitudes and actions"

Sometimes this can be so difficult when Christians have set out to hurt you intentionally with premeditated plans.

But,

“Behold, as the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are you in My hand” (Jeremiah 18:6). In your relationship with God, you are the clay and He is the potter, and you must never forget that.

This is my confidence that i love God enough to conform to him to mirror Him as i read the word.

The desire to revenge is so intense but God knows best. Because no one is a fool. There is nothing as annoying as when one preaches the word only because they have gotten what they planned through crooked means.

It's like accepting to obey God because you have already gotten your way and that is foul play but i choose to submit to the spirit of God.

I am glad i will never be happy hurting people intentionally, it stinks!
Jesus would not do that. Tis my motto

Friday, October 29, 2010

I believe that this can be even with all the imperfections. I believe that God is building His church. Peace i gotta go!

THE SEVEN-FOLD VISION

Principles and emphasis:

Leadership And Corporate

We corporately seek the leadership of God earnestly for our church. We are careful to hear what He says to us. And we are meticulous in implementing them.

We don't believe in the one-man leadership, but rather the one-God leadership. We corporately seek the divine will for our church. We listen to one another to hear and ascertain what God is saying to us.

We believe in the leadership of the Holy Spirit, and giving-in to Him to move freely in His sovereignty.

We are church, more than a legalized organization.

Love And Care

People are real people in the real sense. They are not instruments for agendas. They are not vehicles to carry-out purposes. People are to be loved and cared for. We see people. We don't see set-ups.

We are people church, more than a set-up.

Spirit And Presence

We are a people who value the presence of the Holy Spirit. To us, without the presence of the Holy Spirit, it is just being empty. We don't want to play church.

We want to be sensitive to the move of the Lord, and to what He wants to bring to the church.

We are divine church, more than a club.

People And Gifting

The church is shaped by the people that God sent to us.

We are not shaped by pre-conceived structures. We are not program-driven, but people-driven.

We also cultivate the gifting in people's lives, and try to facilitate their ministries and provide room for them. We are not threatened by people who are more gifted than us. We seek to nurture the gifting in people, and support the expression of their gifting. We pray for synergy and teamwork.

We want to be opened to other outside ministries to provide a complete and balance ministry for everyone. We are open to networking to receive ministry, preaching, teaching, training, financing and manpower, from the larger body of Christ, subject to the will of God and in accordance to the biblical pattern.

We would also like to play a part in the larger context of the body of Christ. We are open to the idea of having gifted people who does not fit-in among us. We encourage and help them to fit-in within the larger body of Christ. We would also actively contribute in whatever way we can into the body of Christ as the Spirit leads us.

We are living church, more than a dead structure.

Anointing And Revelation

We value the anointing of God and His revelations. We seek to grow in the anointing of power and the revelation of the truth - more than the acquisition of human skills or the accumulation of academic knowledge.

We are spiritual church, more than a human institution.

Bible And Accuracy

We are depended on the Bible for the basis of all practices in our church.

We seek in our utmost ability to study, compare and check if our beliefs are accurately adhering to the truths of the Bible. We would comply in detail to what the Bible says about each matter, and not brush-off anything for the sake of expediency.

We are scripture church, more than a culture.

Revival And Evangelism

We believe in the evangelism that is spearheaded, supported and pushed - by a continuous move and atmosphere of spiritual revival.

However, without having the force of spiritual revival, we would still evangelize because we are obeying the Lord's command.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

I love you Holy Ghost
Even when i can't see
You know tommorrow
You guide my steps
You lead me
You whisper in my hears
You are my courage and confidence

You are my rock
My strong tower
My preserver
My hero

You are the one who speaks for me at the gates
You are my kinsman redeemer
My first husband
I am the apple of your eye
It may not sound special to you
Till you consider God and an apple
Nothing in common

Thank God for your love
I still thank God you found me that day
Human words could not be enough

I thank God i have you as my comforter
but most especially counselor
I can't move if you are not there
If you have not said anything
I trust You
I trust Your Love
Your son was the price
I find myself in you
In Christ

Friday, June 4, 2010

i was wondering why you would know the truth and not want to say it (I speak of God's word) ?

I did not become born again as an escape. i got born again because i was spiritually aware enough to know that God loved me and the enemy always fight the cause of God.
As soon as i decided to get saved, everything that could g wrong went wrong and i had not confessed with my lips yet, i was just willing to give it a try, everything adverse that could make me become an atheist happened.
Everything about me hit rock bottom; the heavier the boulders the enemy threw at me, the tighter i held on to God, i had not learnt about his word yet!

i am no different now, any time adverse circumstances come, i run to the word of God, now i am older, i recognize that even as the enemy threw me rocks, God always had his children littered along the way, i was always surrounded by true believers.
Because many people were faithful to God in showing me the path to righteousness, i refuse to be unfaithful to God and his plan for my life.

My self worth crashed and yet i held on, my academics crashed, i cried but i wouldn't let go, my family lost cash but i held on even tighter (i can be crazy when i believe something, i'll shut everyone else out and opinions, in my mind, its to hell with it) . I saw Christians fall away for lesser things (they annoyed me, gossiped and called me names, trivial things like that) but in my deepest moments of despair, it was to God i cried and called and after crying and calling, it would seem like he didn't answer but the answer was never one or two steps away.
my walk has taught me that God is faithful to His word, that he loves and cares about me.

when folks try to break me down, i laugh, because the enemy has thrown huge boulders at me and if those boulders could not make me fail, i doubt there is anything that can separate me from the love of God in Christ Jesus.
Christianity is not for wimps but i daresay its also not for bullies for i can proudly say that all my victories proceeded not from me but from recognizing that in my weakest moments, God was still living inside me, he never left, never bailed out.
He will never get angry enough to say 'i will break my word and leave you now', he always stayed and i thank God for that.

I bless the day i met the Holy Ghost, i thank God cos he never let me be content with playing church, or be at ease in Zion, the Holy Ghost knows how to shake me out of laxity. He knows how to push me into position, he never lets me stay in a place of ignorance, he does not let me pretend. He refuses to let me be in a place of hating, unforgiveness, anger, envy etc. He fills me with love time and again. He's always willing to teach me and i bless God for my first spiritual dad who taught me to always be willing to grow.

Every obstacle i face makes me a stronger and a better person. every obstacle makes me know that i am in exactly the right position to receive God's mercy and goodness.
My environment has been wired to bring out the God in me, all the circumstances strengthen and build me more into the christian/woman you made me to be.
Thank you father for everyday you build me by your word and your spirit

John 8:32
"..and you shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free"

Monday, May 24, 2010

Some stupid idiot is prob spreading gist that he asked me out (i suspect 'd' is behind it all) they are all stupid and crazy to assume that i would settle for anything.

If i can't get who i want then i can wait for who God is sending...

(On sat after a dept meet, i saw some guy with another gal in his car heading in my direction and so i got in and he dropped me at my BFF's house, i told her about him and all the questions he was asking and she told me that that was how he was that she lived in her house in cali with her brothers and her and that he was shady and 'ish' my mind wasn't even there, now tongues are wagging again. I can't even let the guy stay in my cell, i'll talk to l and tell him to take him off my hands, i don't need stress and i need my bff's support cos she won't come to the cell if he's there. she told me 'd' must know the kind of guy he was and that now she knew 'd' wasn't born again for endangering the rest of us. I told her to take it easy and she said she knew what she was talking about. another busy day in my life defending myself again, i am fed up of this ish... they are all pushing guys at me like i said i couldn't live without a man and i am 'burning' and ish, all of them are getting on ma nerves)

My BFF hates him and i have heard his gist (totally) the one i have not heard only makes me sure that they are totally stupid, my sis would say c'est stupid.

In case they don't know me, below describes me just fine. I don't agree with all church traditions. even if m bff did like him, they must have for gotten i got raped, i would rather stay alone than hook up with any stupid fool, i am pissed.

The One that Waits... (i am very patient and then again...)

I am dominant in relationships. I always want the last word. Caring. Smart. I could be loud sometimes. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Easy to please. A pushover. I think i know everything and usually do. I am respectful to others but you will quickly lose my respect if you do something untrustworthy towards me and never regain that respect. I forgive easily though it costs me.

(If you see me, you won't believe that the above describes me, i know who i am and what i want and i can't be manipulated by anyone. My college pastor trained me just fine and i am so glad i met him when i did, he is a shepherd, if you remember i said i was pastors' pet in ma other blog)

I am careful, cautious and organized. I can be critical and stubborn about what i believe. You could mistake me for being quiet but i am able to speak well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. I am diligent at work. Very confident. Sensitive. Excellent memory.

(It shows up in my work and when my colleagues lie which is often, i have been telling a lot of white lies recently...)

I am clever and knowledgeable. I Love to look for information in books or on the internet. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. conservative, loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions but i can be emotional about the things that matter. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy (extremely) especially in relationships. really logical in thinking, always thinks things through.

(I am blessed to have met p. mo, he taught us all in our fellowship how to recognize false prophets that if a guy came to you and said he heard from God that God said you were his wife, we were to respectfully tell him we were waiting to hear from God as he had nt yet spoken to us, that God must tell both parties or else it was manipulation)

My colleagues of last week who were so mean like they were beating a puppy to death are now telling lies that i am seeing a guy with no job, no money, he does not respect spiritual things, maybe they are talking about someone else who wasn't trained by pastor mo but they are not talking about me because i know who i am

I don't even do younger guys, maybe they don't understand principles. what has he got that would make me change my principles?
my colleagues are a big joke and i hope they know i think so poorly of them...
greedy binches and silly greedy niggas