. . . When I called, You answered me and You strengthened me with strength (mighty and inflexibility to temptation) in my inner self. Psalm 138:3 AMPC

Lord, what do You want to talk about?

You, I want you.

Sir? What about me?

One day at a time, one moment at a time, focus on My Presence for I am with you leading and guiding you each step of the way.

As I look back on my life Lord, I’ve made so many wrong choices and so many mistakes. I’ve messed up so much, and lost so many opportunities with my negative thinking. You’ve opened doors for me. Then I shut them with my stinking thinking.

But Child, come to Me now. Humble yourself before Me. Seek My will. Ask and you’ll receive My direction for all that concerns you. I’ll lead you if you’ll listen. Child, I’m here for you. Just come to Me in humble adoration for I am your source. I am your all. If you listen, I will lead.

To begin with Lord, open my ears so I can hear Your voice as You speak to my heart. Then help me to listen. At times I’ve been so messed up. So Lord, I need You.

Child, I’m here for you and I love you. All you see now are your failures. but I’m an expert at turning failures inside out. Then I create success and victory out of those failures. So rejoice if you consider your life a failure, for now I have something to work with- you!

When I cried out for help, You answered me . Thank you Lord.

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I will cry to God Most High, who accomplishes all things on my behalf [for He completes My purpose in His plan.] Psalm 57: 2 AMP

Being confident of this very thing, that He who has began a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6 NKJV

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go. I will guide you with My eye. Psalm 32:8 NKJV

Temptation, everywhere I look. Lord help me. Forgive my stupid sins. Help me to please You in all I do, don’t do, say, don’t say, eat, don’t eat, and even what I think, or don’t think. Fill me with a greater desire for You versus anything else, even my food. Let me feed on You Presence. Thanks for loving me even though I don’t deserve it.

Lord, I admit I’m confused. Up, down, up, down, and up, down again. How can I break this cycle?

Child, you’re not. I AM.

But Lord, how? Please forgive me for I have an ugly, doubtful heart.

I repeat, “Watch and see what I will do.”

Lord, I’m so messed up. It seems the world has gone crazy. First of all everything on the news is depressing with the constant confusion, conflict, accusations, and tragedy. So many people are suffering. Continue reading Watch and See What I Do

Lord, would You break these self-imposed chains? You delivered me before. But now I’m entangled again in food addiction. I want my victory back. So would You deliver me again, Lord?

I’m trying to eat correctly as before when I lost 90 pounds. But now I’m older (66) and my body refuses to let go of excess weight. It’s up a few pounds, down a few pounds, up and down, and so on.

So I get discouraged. Then I eat whatever. Immediately my body swells up with added weight gain. Lord, would You grant me another chance and break these self-imposed chains of food addiction?

You delivered me of 90 pounds before (at age 61). It seemed so easy then. I ate three meals a day, half-portions, and no snacks. Back then my weight dropped off. Lord, is it possible You could give me another chance and break these self-imposed chains again? What can I do?

Child, first of all, I love you as you are. But since you’re not happy with yourself, I’m going to help you again. Although there will be differences this time because. . . as you said, your body is older (approaching 67).

To begin with, you need more water. I’ve talked with you about this before. And you need to start moving more. Do some bodily movements, exercise, each day. Try 30 minutes daily. It doesn’t matter what activity you choose as long as it’s movement. The older you get the more your body needs movement just to keep those joints free.

So Lord, are You telling me to eat the same way when I lost those 90 pounds?

Yes. Just add more water and some exercise this time.

Child, to you exercise is a bad word. So from now on, call it body movement. Think of it as a graceful dance.

Lord, do You want me to start dancing to praise music?

The choice of body movement is up to you. But it’s important at your age to keep it moving to keep your joints free. It doesn’t matter what you choose, but it’s important to “move it, move it, move it.”

Those are your goals. Eat according to My past instructions, add more water, and increase your body movement.

Water is important because it lubricates your joints and keeps them fluid. It’s also good for your skin. It might even puff out of those wrinkles you stress over. (I sense He’s smiling at me.)

Hydration is good for your body. The older you get the more the water in your body dries up. So add more to keep all things moving along. You know what I’m talking about? (He’s smiling again.)

Know this Child- I love you. Now go forth in your victory. You know . . . the one I have already planned for you. (More smiling.) I’m going to do it again.

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Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not become entangled again with a yoke of bondage. Galatians 5:1 NKJV

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11 NLT

Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6 NKJV

Child, I am not part of your “to do” list. So you can check off: 1.Talk to the Lord-done. 2. Read the Bible- done. 3. Pray for others-done. Child, it’s not My desire to be checked off your “to do” list.

I want to be your “all”, and your source. So come to Me first and above all else. Bring Me your hurts, your fears, your worries, and your plans too’ Let us discuss them before you go forth.

Bring me those you love and give them to Me. Trust Me to take care of them. You worry yourself sick. Why don’t you just give them all to Me? Then sit back in My Presence, watch, and see what I will do. Trust Me with it all. You are too burdened trying to solve it all. Just pray your desires for them. Then let it all go into My hands for I have big hands, big enough to handle it all. After all, don’t you remember the song you sang as a child? “He’s Got The Whole World In His Hands.” It’s true. I do have it all in My hands.

So quit trying to take it out of My hands to hold in yours. Your hands aren’t big enough. You have no power to change anything, not even yourself. Let go, My child, and give it all to Me.

I want your heart and your mind at peace. And true peace can only be found in My Presence. So come here. Let Me fill you with My peace. As you spend your time with Me, your peace will increase and you will find that all you have been concerned about is being taken care of in ways you can’t imagine. In fact, you can’t fix any of it, not even yourself. So let it all go.

Know that I am with you. In fact, it’s My desire to fill you with My peace, My joy, and My love. So come to Me and let Me fill you. What I have to offer you is more fulfilling than anything you can imagine.

Now come here, My child. Come sit with Me and talk with Me.

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“Come now, and let us reason together,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall be as wool. If you are willing and obedient, you shall eat the good of the land.” Isaiah 1: 18-19 NKJV

Call upon Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me. Psalm 50: 15 NKJV

For You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive, and abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You. Psalm 86:5 NKJV

Defeat your giant. David defeated his giant, Goliath, and you can too. If he had considered the giant’s size, David would have been defeated before the battle started. But he knew the power of God was on his side. You do too. So go out and defeat your giant. God has already planned your victory! After all, He enjoys making His children victorious.

So what does your giant look like? Does it seem an unachievable goal? Is it to get a better job? Or maybe it’s to get a job. How about, . . . is it to complete an overwhelming project?

I have a blog buddy, met online, Susie. Now this young lady (50) has defeated some giants. To begin with she’s a Christian from India. She studied to become a doctor. Later she and her husband accepted jobs in Qatar. Because of their location, she kept her identity hidden. But God opened doors. Now she is achieving her dream, taking medical courses at Yale. How’s that for defeating giants? You can read her posts at this link: https://susieshy45.blog/2019/07/20/a-series-of-events-part-2/

We all have giants in our lives that seem impossible to us, in one form or another. But with God on our side, just like David and Susie, we all can overcome and defeat each one. God has placed a dream inside each of us. Now go for it and defeat your giant. For some of us obesity is a giant. As we stand in front of the mirror and look at what we see, our excess weight seems like a giant. As we stand on the scales and look at those numbers, the amount to lose looks enormous.

Goliath taunted the Israelites. How many times has those extra pounds taunted you? What about those tight clothes in the closet you used to wear?
Even more taunting are the food giants that so easily defeat us. We see them in our kitchens, at the drive-ups, and in our favorite restaurants.

Even relaxing in our homes watching television, what comes up? Taunting food commercials pop up and make us want to go buy it. But if it’s not convenient to buy now, you can buy it the next time you’re out.

Last November, 2018, my husband and I went to Israel. One of the places we got to visit was the Valley of Elah. This is where the battle between David and Goliath took place. It was inspiring to look at that valley where David killed Goliath.

Rocks were everywhere, big huge ones, and little ones. David picked up five stones from the Valley of Elah. But I picked up many more and brought them back home. The tour guide gave permission.

Since I’m fighting the giant of obesity, I’ll use one stone per week on my kitchen counter to defeat my giant. Working on week one now.

Child, you get to choose your path and how long it takes to achieve your victory.

Lord, how did I get here?

You chose where you are now.

So how do I get back where I was?

Child, you choose.

Change my heart Lord so that I choose You first and above all.

For now, Child, you’re an example of backsliding. But you can change that and choose to be an example of forgiveness, restoration, and deliverance.

Yes, I can deliver you again, but this time it will take more effort on your part. You will have to make a choice everyday. Every hour and every minute, you will be faced with decisions. And you will choose one way or another.

You can continue as a backslider or you can become an overcomer.

Books can’t give it to you. Even My Bible can’t give it to you unless You choose to open your heart and apply its truth. Choose deliverance and I will provide all you need for success. But if you continue in your backsliding ways, I’ll step back and let you have your way. I won’t leave you, but I will let you have your way. So what will it be?

Lord, I want You. Help me!

Child, I am here for you.

So Lord, what do I do now?

Child, you already know the way to freedom. deliverance, and victory. You just have to decide. You know what to do.

Remember sin takes you further than you want to go, costs you more than you want to pay, and keeps you longer than you want to stay. Now choose wisely, My child.

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See I set before you today life and prosperity, death and destruction. For I command you today to love the Lord your God, to walk in obedience to Him, and to keep His commands, decrees and laws; then you will live and increase, and the Lord your God will bless you in the land you are entering to possess. Deuteronomy 30: 16 NIV

Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with My victorious right hand. Isaiah 41:10 NLT

To begin with there’s always hope. Next to get back where you once were, let go of your abundant, unnecessary food.

Would You remove this love of food from my heart? Also, would You grant me an increase of love for You?

After losing 90 pounds, I told others how You helped me lose weight. Now I feel trapped by my “self.” And this love for food has me trapped in defeat. Since I don’t know what to do, I can’t fight it. After all, I’m weak.

Child, I’m your hope.

Lord, You never stopped me from overeating.

To begin with Child, the desire for to stop overeating has to come from you. I won’t go against your free will. Therefore you’re free to choose.

Lord, my free will caused me to gain weight. My free will chose to overeat, and to run to food. But I can’t stop it and You won’t stop it. So what am I to do? Now I’m trapped.

How do I defeat this “self?” How can I gain victory over this self that defeats me and holds me in bondage to excess food? Will I ever have freedom or victory again?

In fact, I’m your victory. Now give your “self” to Me for I am stronger. I can defeat your enemy of “self.” Through My power, you can have victory.

I am the way, the truth, and the light. If you give your self to Me, I will set you free from this entrapment of self and defeat.

Lord I start out each day fresh and strong. But by nightfall I’ve fallen in defeat never to make the finish line. How can I get my victory back? Is it possible to gain my victory back?

Yes child, for I am your victory. Come to Me.

What do You want me to do? How can I stop eating at night? What’s the magic trick to stop me from reaching for food?

Child, there’s no magic. There’s only My power. And I’m all powerful.

In fact Lord, You’ve never stopped me. So how will this be different?

Child, you’re good at surrender in the morning. Then at evening you give in to “self” and it’s desires for fleshly self-gratification.

Never give up. It’s been the pattern of my whole adult life, weight gain, weight loss, weight gain, weight loss, on and on. Finally after 39 years of struggling with obesity weighing 241, I sought God for help and direction.

I went to God everyday for weight loss counseling until I achieved my weight loss goal. This took approximately 9-10 months. Beginning at 241 pounds, I lost 90 pounds with God’s help and maintained this weight loss for over two years following the way God told me to eat.

Then after this success, I thought I had arrived at my dream and could eat just as I did before my weight loss. So I began eating snacks now and again. Over time, this led to much more overeating.

So the number on the scales started creeping up. But I thought “No problem, I can just go back to my weight loss any time I want to.” Wrong.

Today I wish I had never done that. I wish I had stayed in my place of eating in obedience to the way God led me to. Sigh. It’s taken two more years but I’ve gained over +30 lbs. How easily the sins of gluttony have piled up. Lord forgive me. Forgive myself..This is actually a complimentary picture. In the mirror, it looks worse. Sigh.

My grandfather’s legacy is that he said, “Never give up!” His feet got frostbitten during WW1. After getting treatment, he walked all the way back to the front lines and continued fighting for our country. If you can hear me in Heaven, Grandpa, thank you for leaving the legacy of “Never give up.”

I don’t know about you, but now that I’m back on the straight and “narrow” path of eating, it seems harder. My weight goes up a few, goes down a few, back up again, then down again, even though I’m following my correct eating plan. It’s so frustrating. Do you get frustrated too?

Sometimes I feel like just giving up. After all, I’m 67 years old. I took God and His delivering power for granted. Thought I could use it anytime I wanted. Do I give up now at my old age? Have I backslidden too much?

Child, I’m not giving up on you no matter what you eat or do. You are Mine and I have plans for you. Therefore, I will never give up on you.

With God on our side we can’t help but win- uh, lose.

Remember, “Never give up.”

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1 NKJV

But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. Hebrews 11:6 NKJV

“Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.” Mark‬ ‭9:23‬ ‭NKJV‬‬