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Not only did I lose myself after being abused for many years while I was a freaking child.
I've lost my girlfriend too because she was hurt that was.

Rather I would be dead then living this way but there still are a few people that might get hurt if I'm gone even though you can count them with one hand.

I am not sure if I can talk about the abuse that happend to me, the only one I wanted to talk with about this in person left me.
She was my hope to really get over it by knowing she listens and holds me in her arms. :cry: