Saturday, March 12, 2011

As you all know, I'm currently waiting for my SPM results to come out which happens to be on the 23rd of March 2011.

What us SPM candidates batch of 2010 do during our long, long break;

Be fat, happy and lazy

Sleep in all day and wake up late

Work (No more money for school 'cause we're not in school anymore. Sigh.)

Go out everyday. Party every night. (Not really...)

Insult the kids who are still in school and laugh your mind out 'cause you don't have to wear school uniforms anymore

Complain to fellow friends that you actually miss school.

And of course, think and plan about the near future.

The indecisive feeling of not knowing what the future holds is eating me alive @_@

What am I going to do?

What am I going to be?

Will I make it?

Would I fail?

Is this the right decision?

I question myself everyday. These harsh questions are like my current crush. I think about them before I go to bed. And wake up with them; the first thing on my mind. (This makes me sound so lifeless and paranoid. Sad.)

I won't be telling you where I might end up. But I've got an eye on the States! Wuhoooo :D

There is a big possibility that I'm going to go into ADP, which stands for American Degree Programme (for those who don't know). Yes, yes! The first thing I can imagine when I think about the States is New York. Sigh, wouldn't that be awesome if my imagination meets reality. Haha then it would be Inception. Lol.

Now my dear readers, the question that I've been asking not only myself, but all of my friends. WHICH MAJOR?

Journalism... OR Broadcasting?

I'm still contemplating between the two of them. It is by far the most toughest decision I had to make for the future of my education.

If it all doesn't work out, I shall pursue my secret dream/want of becoming a fire fighter.

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

with regards to your quite interesting topic, heres what i think=)
Malaysians speak the English Language for various reasons;(what i mean by this is those who regularly speak this language-as their second language)
1. betterment of life
2. passion
3. boasting
and at times, it's hard to differ which category a person with broken english falls into.-whether they boast, wanna learn or know it's for the greater good.
at initial stage, the language itself was supposedly a tool for communication, where tons of scientific research from other languages are translated into english for the world to also keep up and get updated with the newfound discoveries made by the french, latinos, greek etc which is the main reason why it was introduced in our country and also for us to keep up with the global modernization.
now that we've partially reached our goal, english has more likely become a tool for measuring one's social caste, standard or status. if you can converse well, you intimidate and are one class above. but if you don't you're just...normal. better yet, one class below.
thus we now use it not to keep up with the modernization nor excitedly get our minds fed with latest research but to upgrade ourselves, to reach 'that' so called high standard and basically, to not feel intimidated by someone of the same race who could speak better english than we do. we have strayed from the initial purpose of using/learning english.
and that has somewhat made us judgmental towards each other. with every grammatical error we utter defines our social standard/status and we just can't help ourselves for criticizing them/not being concerned for their terrible english because we ourselves aren't certain of whether they boast, wanna learn or know it's for the greater good.
long-winded i know. but that's what i think=))hope it's acknowledged.

Thank you for the thoughtful comment Zura and I do agree with you. You are definitely fairly acknowledged :)