Sep 29, 2008

Going on second gear and to the left ,a not very happy Eid .

Eid, my annual boredom day of the year ,extra special episode.

I never really had this sense of Eid and all the relative visits and super excitement ,no much 1st degree relatives in Jordan and not that much of family friends,and your friends are always busy with their family visits and stuff,so the 1st Eid day is basically wearing a pjs for the whole day, boring TV,a sudden cut off from Ramadan series ,all in all Eid usually sucked .

But turned out it could be worse ,how ? you move some couple of thousands of miles away from home ,for one thing,you don't even have your siblings to share the usual boredom with,and you know that they're missing one too, also you're denied your right of bugging your friends about their family visits too ! so let me read your order again please sir, double cheesy shitty day and diet coke,would you like to super size it Sir ? - Yes please ! Sir you're crazy ! - No ,just listen .

Remember when you 1st took your father's car for a drive behind his back ? and after a while you needed to go on second gear ? your accomplice is nagging and reminding you of how important is it to coordinate the break,clutch and gear stick change all together ? That moment where the gear is actually changing and you could feel it to the 1st time,that tiny period of time where it felt like the car and the whole world stopped for a split of a second right in the middle of it,its like the world had gone into slow motion ,but your senses are on full alert your forehead is probably sweating and your chest is against the steering wheel and you're clinging to it for dear life and before you know it everything goes okay and you internally exhale like never before afterwards ? when you realized that the car isn't breaking down and you're not ruining your dad's car !!? See I've been stuck in that slow motion phase for a while now,so don't call me crazy,bitch !!! - whatever sir you're not crazy alright ! would you like anything else sir ? - Yes I do !

Remember after a while when you had to take the 1st left turn into a small alley and you couldn't really see well ? and your head suddenly turned into an unlimited math calculations trying to tick the turn light stick at the right distance and also turn the steering wheel at the right moment with the right pace and shit ?and then as you're going into it and the freakin world goes into slow motion again ?only you're scared to shit praying no car or child bump in front of you ,or having to go back to 1st gear ,and go through that agony again,and once more to go back on 2nd gear geez i could hear you swearing already chill chill ... yes it suck and yes its unpleasant,mind draining at times,but shut da hell up because you know once you're passed it its gonna be worth it ,no regrets, just get done with it already !... hey you still there ?? hello ? fuck!.

PS : I'm not sure if that made sense at all,and i don't really care this time.this is a smokes blow .PPS : I don't drive,I don't have a license,and I don't know if what i described is anywhere near the truth ,i just thought It might feel that way .

Lost Within ,ba7eb ahdeeke ja2ezet Looler of the year awwal eshe :D i salute you :Dtani eashe ba7es 7ale mafsoom when i address u as Lost Within now knowing ur name so shofelna 7al :ptaletan : if doing the laundry,packing and cleaning is fun to you then its not to meeeeeeeee :'"( lol

I hear you man, I used to celebrate Eid and Ramadan while at work in the US. I tried to create my won space or world and made it a chance to explain to my American coworkers what is Ramadan, Islam and Eid. They realy had a good insight, that was my joyment of Eid!

Ali ehh..wallah ya man I'm not religious at all but even though ,one misses the social life it sucks and its not the same even though u explain n stuff :) Happy Eid yalla thx to the internet one feel a bit closer hehehehe :D

Noura el ammoora, kol saneh w inte salmeh too w ahlek w 7abaybek kaman, I'm not sure i can visit until next May or July i guess..and I'm in this transformation phase having an extra job and nothing is certain so I'm a bet grumpy thats all :D oh btw,I'd kill for a ma3mool :D i haven't had Atayef this year too,wa3 . lol

ahhh, Eid! the second longest day after freaky family fridays! living on my own for 11 years, i have saved myself the headache of family visits and all that social hypocrisy, bas sometimes the feeling of 'damn i miss it' creeps up on me lol