I feel like snit, no idea what've happened i strung out one weekeened now for 7 days ive been hardly been able to walk. Tomorrow maybe emergancy. But if i i don't can't feel any pain i cant feel the need for a cure "qutote of he day" -DC

Gratitude. Is it so hard to show? I have to beg to get a thanks if i do something for my so called friends . If i got something it's cool coming, if not i'm just fuckin' boring? I'm not anybodys maid, fuck that. CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELVES.. God damnit my home feels like a recreational center for stoner or some shit .. All day long in and out , out and in from MY home .. Is it so hard to be grateful and respectful towards my home, that you get the privilage of being here, with me, even if most times im invisible. CHILL THE FUCK OUT .. Is it so hard not to stress? Take it easy, like Bob Marley said.. I do so much for my "friends" , and what do i get back, shouting, crap on my floor, disrespectfulness, just crap! I'm so mad, even tho i'm filled with pills and shit that would otherwise make me happy .. I'm off to the store, gotta buy a lighter since SOMEHOW mine keeps disepearing. Sometimes i just wish everyone were zombies. That's the final word.

EDIT: It happened again , with another .. friend .. Scored hasch for him , despite i rarely smoke. . Didn't even hear a thanks, tried to insinuate a thanks but alas, it did not work .. Humanity has alot of flaws. Anyways, the cat PURS when they people leave. It's me and him, my cat Spartacus, 4 years old :)​Take it easy! - DC

Heya! After weeks of not being left alone i feel like moving out into the woods instead, atleast there i would get some peace. I'm a very kind man, for being so hatefull.. So i can't really say no, you can't come, even if i wanted to so alot of time arguments takes place and even fights. The reason i'm getting evicted is because of another guy coming here being agressive, threatening me and still i get the blame for what he did and that was enough to get me the fuck out of here .. i've been staying here on overtime for over 3 months. They could use that shit as torture on gutanamo bay for fack sake .. Not knowing what kind of roof over my head is to come, not knowing..

​Not knowing is hell for me, especially when i don't know where me and my son will live, but i know i got to get the hell out of here if i want to get some peace and quiet. I stay awake at night just to be alone, holy shit .. I just want my fuckin peace and quiet and my rules to apply to MY home . Respect is the keyword here, why can't everyone just show everyone else respect? Is it so fuckin' hard? Trying to get clean and people come over here with joints and shit, THC stays in the body like.. forever! So it's the worst thing i can do but ive been smokin for over 15 years now and it's like tobacco to me, i don't even think about it anymore... Untill the urine test that is and i get a warning because im on probation, yay fuckin ey .. My life sucks right now, even the cat can tell! Oh shit this is depressing, but life is shit most of the time so remember to care those awesome moments that is as rare as the world most sought after diamond! Piss out! I mean, Peace out!

Goodnight! Yes, it is night but not necessarily good. Anyhow, Youtube i.e. google i.e. adsense has decided youtube channels can only earn ad-money if they have over 10k views .. i got almost 3k on mine, it's a channel about gaming and i do send live sometimes, even if no one watches .. I got 2 monitors so i can see chat but whats the damn point if no one's typing! Anyhow i'm pissed at google ! Here's a gaming clip from my channel:

For some reason this video has most views, some people even took the time to fucking dislike the video .. Anyways it's 1½ hours long, maybe thats why they dislike but no one's forcing anyone to watch it. Anyways, i want the "need" for gaming back, i used to (am) a big ass nerd for gaming and technology and i'm damn good at it too, ain't no game i can't master mfkah!

Stress, depravation, insomnia .. I DON'T WANT TO DREAM NO MORE .. If i wan't a show i'll watch Seinfeld. I've always dreamt ultra realistic, and i think it would scare the hell out of anyone .. My cat feels my pain and misery. LOTS OF SAD SHIT lately i know, but it's real. I love animals , they're real. They don't lie. Sure they can fuck with ya but so can non-existencial shit too like life itself. Dreams can fuck with you .. For real. I used to be able not to dream when i smoked every single day but cant do that no more first off don't work and secondly i do urine tests and shit stays in system like forever. Into some other heavy shit at the moment that no one should fuck around with really but i say what the hey , a mans gotta do what a mans gotta do, to survive and move on.

Most randomly topic blog ever? Yes, it's like Seinfeld (anology again yes) again, it's a show about nothing. Nothing is something, or it isn't at all. Wow ... My brain needs shitloads of more sleep than my body thats for sure . Fell asleep like a few mins ago , dude of mine woke me up cause he missplaced his rolling papers, turns out he dropped em on the way home.

​Drugs don't solve anything but it sure as hell makes alot of shit easier to deal with, for most people, like me. All i would want is to be left alone with an endless supply of drugs, me and my cat, and ofcourse my son. I'd like to feel just fine sober. Ofcourse .. Dot dot . Dot, Variation with Dots.. Lets not be fuckin depressed y'all :) So enjoy this fucked up blog entry , still learning. One love ..​

From Eastbound & Down , Left far , far behind, not from this world. i.e. me.

First Person this, first person that. I used to enjoy playing games.. Untill counter-strike, after that its all FPS, FIRST PERSON SHIT! I want something new, unique, that i can run off to on a bad day. I used to be a big nerd, now i'm a good a guy with an awesome computer who just sists on his ass smokes weed and does nothing. FUCK YOU first person. FUCK YOU!!

It shoulda been the best, for sure. I'm a dad. First and last. Shit, weed and alcohol ain't shit, no one can deny me that. A little light trippin' .. But mix heavy shit with even heavier shit and you got .. shit. And on all this my damn subscription to swearnet ran out! So you thinkin' bout the scary title huh. Well let's just say i've done alot of shit in my life that i ain't proud of, then again some things that i am very, VERY proud of. I've created life, sure i've had my part of destruction but all end of life sadly is inevitable .. Holy crap that was deep. Let's just say i want to be around to stick around, for along time to see my grandchildren be bornt (like Ricky would say) Looking forward to some drinkin' later to stop thinkin' about the dinkin' .. Oh yea and my cat hates my cleaning. Still not homeless. FUCK YEA! xD

Oh wow, i'd never thought i'd be the one to write a blog but shit, here i am! As you might already have noticed this is my adult blog! I don't know if it's been done before and i don't fucking care, i got more serious shit to deal with. I might be homeless by the end of this month and i have a son! Been watching alot of trailer park boys lately , their blod and so forth, i mean podcash, Julian .. blog, podcast, podcash i dont give a flying rats ass! Not only homless , perhaps, but also an addict, just like Ricky on TPB but all the more serious, weed and alcohol, well atleast weed, is nothing. Weed's a light drug, compared to all the other crap you can shove down your piehole .. Sleep aludes me, where the hell are you sleep!? I can't sleep sober, well, almost never. That's a fucking reality check if anything, wow. Hmmm... Time to end this, you get the fucking idea! -DC