*** Monday TTC ***

I hope no one minds me starting this today. I'm back on the TTC wagon much sooner than expected as H and I were originally going to wait until next September.

A little about me - I already have two children, O who will be 3 next week, and L who is 10 months. My H and I have always wanted 3 children so we've decided to start straightaway rather than wait. I'm also a part-time ICT teacher so I won't be posting as much on Wed - Fri when I'm at work.

Oh DS - how very exciting. Hope you have a fun week ;) were you back on any contraception after lo2?

Cooper - sorry to hear you can feel her coming. well done you for getting to the gym on this horrible morning.

AFM - cd14 and confused by temping. Either I ov'd cd9 and moving house + broken (need to be bleed) radiators in new house are messing with temperatures or I had an attempt at ov'ing then but haven't actually yet. Having period like cramps last night/this morning which presumably would be too soon for implantation even if I did ovulate cd9 so maybe is a fresh attempt at ovulation. Time will tell I guess!

Veecee - i think you can gear up and then the egg not get released, but not sure how that works in relation to cycle etc.

AFM - im hungover, fogot to take my temp this morning (CD12) and donor didnt come round last night for AI. All in all a bit pants, but hey i POAS this morning and im still at flashy smiley level so im hoping its still good for this month.

VC - That's a confusing cycle , I hope it becomes clearer as time goes on. I wasn't on any contraception after either of the kids, we just used condoms. After this one, H will take one for the team and have the snip!

V79 - That's annoying about the donor, will he be round tonight?

Rod - I hate the 2ww stage, I hope you're otherwise well.

Thanks for the welcome, I hope that I'm not here too long either but from past experience, I have to be patient x

I'm feeling very down today. Went to my nieces' christening yesterday and seemed to be surrounded by babies, young children, and pregnant women. Not fun. I did consider not going but it's not the twins' fault, and I wanted to be there to support them. We left early when it all got a bit much, and whereas I was OK last night, I feel very upset today. Not helped by dreams of someone telling I was never going to carry a baby to term, and then getting laughed out of an adoption office.

On a vaguely more practical note, I am still desperate for my body to give some indication of being back in any sort of cycle. I had ewcm a week and a half ago, and although I forgot to do an OPK, I did one a couple of days later and it was a line, just slightly lighter than the control but almost the same shade. I wonder if it was fading after having indicated ovulation? A couple of days after that, it was back to no line. Now, FF says re charting after a m/c, to take the day of the m/c as CD1. If that's correct, then the ov symptoms (line on opk and ewcm) were about CD12-14 which would put me in line with my normal cycle, and AF due on Saturday. Does that sound about right? We were dtd like bunnies around ov time, so you never know.

Oh, and re the surgery I have been offered, I will probably go ahead, but probably not this month. I want to be sure of cycles, and know where I am when I agree to have it first. If we hadn't started trying again immediately after the m/c I'd have it now, but we had. Of course if AF arrives on schedule next weekend, I can go ahead anyway without worrying about a possible pregnancy.

OK, sorry for all that...

DS, nice to see you here, in a good way!

Vkster, that's really frustrating. Is your donor a friend? Seems he needs a kick up the backside!

Cooper, I also hope you're wrong x

Lulu, fun weekend coming up ;-)

Veecee, that's all rather confusing and frustrating, but you never know...

Barefoot - I do understand about being surrounded by babies after a loss, you go into self-preservation mode (leaving events early, hiding people on FB, etc) coupled with awful dreams, it's perfectly normal being like this. As for cycles, mine fell back normal almost straightaway as mine were very early on. CD1 would be the first day you started bleeding with a mc, so what you've written sounds normal to me. Big hugs as it's such a shitty time post-mc xx

Barefoot I missed my neice's first birthday party because it was 3 days after i found out I'd miscarried - everyone knew what had happened so I dont think anyone was too upset and if they were, well, frankly I dont care! I hope you start feeling better soon.