Sunday, December 27, 2009

So about an hour ago i swear everyone was fcking yelling at me that i dont care about the people in this house anymore, or I just dont appreciate what I have. Now usually when im in this kind of situation i just shut up and suck it up, but tonight i just exploded. If your a follower and have read my stuff before you know i complain like a pro, all i do is nag and nag. honestly..lately thats all ive been getting from my mom and my family or ive been doing it back. I just dont give a shit anymore for what happens to three certain people in my family, anyone want to guess who they are?... hey you got that right. I dont give a shit to what happens to my mom or my two younger sisters at this moment, they are out of my mind. Why try to get a parents respect when they dont give it to you, why try to act like a good teacher when your students arent even looking or plan on looking. Why try you know? Im just gonna focus on the people who i know need me and at least give me respect that i have gained or earned.

My grandmas not gettting better everyone. I dont know what to do. I never have and probably never will. When I look at her, my heart breaks to see the person i love more in the world so sick. My grandma has to take her medication every four hours, im not really sure what happens if she misses a time and i dont want to find out. So if you see me in person, i look like shit. Im there everytime my grandma has to take her medicine, im there when she needs me. Im just praying that with me being there its making it easier on her.

Next month my relatives are moving in. There is room in the house for them, and the reason their coming here is to help my grandma. How can I complain about that? But here I am writing. Its hard enough with seven people in the house but now its going to be ten. Oh the joy of having to clean the house more as punishment my mother gives me, Oh the joy of them having to endure more of my moms shit about how much she hates me and her life. Just Oh the joy.

So after my explosion on my family, i grabbed my laptop, cell phone and my wallet and am now sitting under a tree at the park up the street from my house. knowing my family they just think im next door and will be home later on. Dont worry about me I always go home, not because I have no where else to go. I go home to take care of my grandma, I go home so that I can be strong for my grandma, I go home because...well.. home is just home.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

So many of you may have heard by now that Avatar is an Awesome movie!!! If you've seen it you know what I mean, if you have seen it and don't know what i mean...then there must be something wrong with you. xP. jkjk. I love this movie because it has everything i love with a movie and a book. Action and Romance. If those two things are in a book/movie, then I am instantly hooked for life. The graphics were amazing, all the technology in the movie is something that any person would want. The characters were unforgettable, the colors, the ideas, just everything was unforgettable!! I could rant on an on about how much i love this movie or maybe I already am. but yea go and watch the movie and make sure you bring a jacket...it was a 2 hour and 40 min movie and I went into the theaters with nothing but T-shirts and Jeans. I love this movie and hopefully you will to =].

Friday, December 4, 2009

I'm so behind on everything and everything. my grades for school are Ok but they could be a lot better if i actually did the classwork and homework. Ive been grounded for a month so I've been going out with my friends, running, talking on the computer like 24/7 and just not staying at home. As of right now I haven't read a book in two weeks I just noticed that and it surprised the shit out of me. lol. I have soo much to be read books everywhere in my room. I have Demon King unread, Covet unread, Deadly little Lies unread, Demons kiss half way through with that and another series that my best friend bought for me since i was sad that I still have not yet read. So this weekend or when the school semester ends I plan to at least read a chapter or entire book.

About Me

Random Quotes

" Life is not measured by the number of breathes we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away."
-anonymous

"Nothing great in the world has ever been accomplished without passion"
-Hebbel

"Yesterday is a mystery, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift" -Elenor Roosovelt

"When scientist finally find the center of the world, some people will be suprised to learn that they're not it"
-Bernard Bailey

"Sex is like air, its not important til your not getting any"
-random guy at school

Favorite Book Quotes

"People who go out with anyone just to be with someone .Its like they rather be unhappy than alone."

-When it Happens, Toby

"Or even just staying with someone when they know theres someone else out there whos better for them"

-When it Happens, Sara

"I was a fallen Gaurdian Angel, the Gargoyle upon a church of sin and despair,a cathode ray of desolation"
"Love is the cure all along"

-Venomous, Locke

"Love is presuasive. Temporary as it is so often is love, love none the less compels otherwise rational creatures to behave in the most extraordinary ways."

-Stargazer

"Being Brave is being scared, and doing it anyways"

-Dark Warrior Unleashed, Cooper

"Finding someone that gets me ? Thats the real work. That's

where the miracles are"

-Audrey Wait, Audrey

"Sometimes being normal is the very best antidote to weirdness"

-Lover Eternal

"What is good" Zara
"Acting with Honor. Trying to keep others from being hurt. Trying to protect your family and friends and other people from harm" Astley
-Captivate

Favorite Song Quotes

"Your parents say everything is your fault.
But they dont know you like I know you they dont know you at all Im so sick of when they say Its just a phase, you'll be ok youre fine But I know its a lie"

-The Last Night by Skillet

"I'm stretching when you're just out of reach you should know I'm ready when you're ready for me and I'm waiting for the right time For the day I catch your eye to let you know that I'm yours to hold"
-Yours to Hold by Skillet

"You're my addiction, my perscription, my antidote You kill the poison ease the suffering Calm the rage when I'm afraid To feel again How can I tell you just all that you are What you do me"
-Better than Drugs by Skillet

"If I had my own world I'd build it you an empire from here to the far lands To spread Love like Violence"
-Secret Crowds by Angels and Airwaves

"Then I'll see your face I know I'm finally yours I find everything I thought I lost before You call my name I come to you in pieces So you can make me whole"
-Pieces by Red

"I wish that I could turn back time just to have one more chance to be the man I need to be, I pray youll understand if i could hear your voice I know that I would be okay. I know that I've been wrong but I'm begging you to stay,
wont you stay?"
-Stay by 12 stones

"I try to get my usher on but I cant let it burn"
-Just a dream by Nelly

"Ive grown to love your dissapearing acts, do one more pretty please"
-Calling all skeletons by Alkaline Trio