Crystallized round two

Fresh off the back of my post last week about how else I was styling the skirt half of my beloved Yumi co-ord I thought I’d share one of the ways I’ve been wearing the sweater part independent of it’s partner. It’s the kind of statement piece that lends itself beautifully to a casual look, perfect for a dressed down denim and sneakers kind of day- the kind of day I seem to be falling in to the habit of having lately.

This outfit isn’t exactly groundbreaking and yet there is something about it I just love. I kind of miss the days where I made a bit more effort with my out of work style and felt like I had something a little more…on point to post, but at the same time I’m not shopping like I used to, instead finding new ways to re-wear old favourites and one of these days I WILL make an effort and surprise everyone.

I feel a bit like a fraud that my blog might be associated with fashion at all these days to be honest. When I first started blogging there wasn’t such a pressure (put on myself) to be super polished with professional standard photos all of the time, but these days that seems the norm. I’m quite comfortable with my style and still enjoy following the trends but feel I just don’t have the time, money or confidence to take things further which saddens me a bit because I truly love blogging but feel like I’m too old and falling behind to really make the best of it. Truth is I’m not overly sociable, I massively lack in confidence and half of the time would rather stay in and drink tea whilst playing bingo online with harrysbingo than put myself out there for all to see (which does seem somewhat odd for a blogger who puts her life online I admit).

I’m not giving up though. 2016 is going to be a big year for me in terms of getting my life on track. A challenge, yes as I once again tackle putting on weight and getting healthy. Learning to drive, progressing at work and settling in to a new and independent home with Ben…but you know what? I finally feel I’m ready. I’ve said it so many times before but this time it just feels different. I’ve had an eating disorder for almost half of my life. I turn 29 this year and refuse to take it in to my thirties with me.

What that has to do with blogging I don’t know, but I’ve been looking for a way to slip it in for a while. Saying it makes me commit further, and takes away some of the disordered feelings of guilt and shame over future photos of myself with a fuller (healthier) figure. Maybe once I get there I’ll get myself on a bit of a shopping spree too, and set aside some time and patience for some “pro blogger” standard posts too.

Congratulations if you read that. Further congratulations if you still intend to follow this blog in the future.

Back on to the fashion side of things now- how brilliant is this jumpsuit from Yumi? They are SO on it this season and I want in on it!

5 comments for “Crystallized round two”

The main reason i LOVE reading your blog is because you are a normal person who does normal things! I love that you shop in primark and New look like the rest of us, that you are open and honest about your recovery from an eating disorder, that you stil love the childish things in life, the cute cats and all the ups and downs that life brings. Yeah some blogs are polished to within an inch of their life and they are enjoyable reading, when fantasing about ‘what if I lived in LA and had designer clothes and shiny hair’, but the reality and the honesty you bring to your blog is what keeps me reading!

So i look forward to many more posts from you in future, especially about settling in to the new house and how you are being incredibly strong to continue on your road to recovery!

You know I love your blog Laura (and Damn, I need to reply to your message and email you!!!) And I will stick with you whatever (unless you keep posting mushroom pictures!!! Ha ha). I hope you can put the demons behind you.xxx

Love this outfit!!! And wow I just related to this post so much. I’ll be 29 this year too and feel like I am in the exact same mind frame as you when it comes to blogging and life. I have let my anxiety get in the way of my life way too much and have decided that this is the year I really work on getting my life back and enjoy my thirties in a way I haven’t been able to in my twenties! Good luck to you, I love your blog and let this be the year we are both able to tackle our demons xx

Hi lovely lady. I’ve been following you since Xanga days, and I love popping in to see how you are fairing. The reason I appreciate you as a fashion blogger is that you are so real; no professionally taken, photoshopped pics in exotic destinations. Your blog has such a cosy, intimate feel, that I feel like we are dear friends.

It’s so great to hear that you’re determined to kick anorexia’s ass this year! You can do it! I love your blog because I find it refreshing and, I don’t know, genuine. I understand that it must feel intimidating to see hyper-professional blogs floating around, but yours is one of the few that I’ve read for years and keep coming back to!