Saturday, November 12, 2011

SPM is so close now....
In my style, today is 12/11. Tomorrow is 13/11. Then, 14/11 - the first day of SPM.

BM is the first day.
Then, follow by English.
Then, History on the third day. A hard battle.
Then, soft down, it is Maths on the 4th day. Relax but still concentrate to it.

The first thing to do in SPM is writing essay, it is BM essay. (paper 1)
There are times I think BM essay is easier than English essay because BM essay is more based on formats and style writing. English Essay? It is different, it is more like freestyle writing without much ideas about its style.
But in term of explanation and languages, English is easier than BM.
So, in conclusion, I think they are almost the same to me.

For your information,
I don't think I will be online tomorrow (13/11), I planned this early already.
Only 20% chance I will online tomorrow.
14/11 - 45% chance I will online. (because of English words.)
15/11 - 5% chance. (because of Sejarah, History)
16/11 - 45% chance. (because of Maths.)
I will be back on 17/11 (Thursday) after Maths Exam in school. (100% chance)

I know most of you already know that I will post this right?
Well, I will post this as I promise before.

Just now,
I went to the BM Last Minute Revision Course.
Fuck. It was not about BM in the revision course, it is about my life.

I totally didn't do anything wrong just now, and I was blamed and people think that I'm wrong.

On the way to the tuition, I found my handphone was out of battery, totally out of battery (not say totally la, maybe about 95%, because it still can be switched on temporary, then it will switched off itself!).
And you know what?
My father said it was my fault that I didn't charge it before that.
Fuck. I was so pissed.
It is NOT my fault! Who else?
The hackers did it. The hackers probably keep activating the sound tracker/recorder in my handphone, haha I think they are so pissed because I blocked my sub-camera with a brown paper already.
That's made my handphone's battery used up quickly without even using it at all.

Okay, back to my life situation, so it was not my fault right?
Please don't simply blame me.
Additionally, my parents have mentioned that I only can charge my handphone when the battery is 100% used up. But my handphone's battery wasn't used up completely yet, it switched off itself when its battery reached about 95% to save some battery to make it lasts longer.
So, even through the hackers doesn't exist in my handphone, it is STILL NOT my fault!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can also say I didn't charge my handphone because of this.
Oh, stop saying that my handphone's quality is bad and blah, blah, blah.... Stop acting la...

Not more than that, when I asked my mum to borrow her handphone to me so I can use it to contact them, she refused to borrow me. (hey, this is NOT the first time I asked her to borrow her handphone to me, she borrowed me her handphone before that)
SO? IN CONCLUSION?
The parent stalking tool exists. (+) some previous reasons.
I bet my parents have the hackers' numbers in their phone.
HMM... Actually I also wonder how often they contact with each other. LOL.
The hackers' numbers seem to be hidden, it is either:

My parents memorized their numbers.

My parents recorded their numbers in their handphone BUT in a different names. Who knows? A boy's name can be recorded as a girl's name, or it can recorded as another person that they know.

They hide the contacts somewhere in the phone, can be in the calendar, notes, reminders and other possible place that can record something.

Or they wrote their numbers somewhere in a piece of paper? or somewhere else that can be easily seen by them, but not me.

And more...

Am I right?
I have realized this since last month already and now only I posted it here.
Everything bad that I did in my family, people from my school knew it.
It is so common already la now....

Actually it wasn't completely a bad sign.
I can settle C4, C5, C6, C10 and C11 at the 'make it' situation.
But of course it is not that easy.
Either C6 or C5 will be done first, then follow by C11, then C4, then only C10?
It is just a guess only la....
Doesn't mean it works.
But if I didn't put any effort, all these will leave unsettled FOREVER.
=(
Me sad =(

Okay, back to life situation,
So it is not my fault right?
Stop acting la....
STOP ACTING.
Stop saying that I'm blur, I'm wrong because of this.
Your way of judging me is totally wrong, I can tell you. Especially my parents always judge me in the wrong way, and THEN they tell all the wrong stuffs to the stalkers. After that, the stalkers spread it, THEN everyone knows. WTF?
See? I hate my life.
This happens a lot of time already since few weeks/months ago. Now only I post it here?....

"Let me tell you, if you judge someone, DON'T judge the person physically, judge the person mentally/judge on what they think in their brain. NOT the physical movement shown by them."

okay, I didn't say I'm always correct, BUT this time I don't think I'm wrong.
SO?

Okay,
now,
I feel much more comfortable after revealed this on my blog.

If you read everything in this post, then thank you for spending some time to read it.

If you feel unhappy or your mood changes badly after reading this, then I can conclude that you never understand my situation at all.

Then, I ended up staying in a very boring situation until about 7:40am.
Walk around to make my concentration enough.
When I talked to Jo Win at the "pondok", then only everyone walks to the hall. LOL.

When I reached the hall, everyone in my class was sitting on the chair already.
I didn't know we need to sit according to the class number (angka giliran) at the first place.
How I know? Just Guess! LOL! I realize everyone was sitting according to the angka gilliran.
There are 2 rows between me and you.

Then, boring stuffs occurred. To make my concentration enough, I read the Sejarah Notes + taking some pictures using my camera. (LOL, it wasn't enough)
Then, I kept thinking how to start C6.
Distance between me and you = Square root (5) units.

..
Oh, the graduation hat is cool, I like it. LOL.
This is my first time wearing this kind of hat!
Seriously, I didn't wear this hat during Kindergarten and primary school.
The graduation shirt? okay la, looks a bit cool.
Cool?

When I'm lining up to go up to the stage to take the certificate, I was so relax, I don't know why...
Tham Jian Wei..... Vashan Pillai..... then, I walked towards the stairs,
suddenly, my name was called out, Vincent Chong (spelled wrongly) V.... , I have to go up the stage.
I was too nervous! I forgotten to hug teacher.... And Jo Win told me I walked too fast? I think so...
Reasons that I didn't hug teacher:

too nervous

I don't have any trick for hugging. (and why tf I need any trick, LOL)

low sociability

Teacher wasn't moving out her hands.

Oh, gave my camera to Amanda Lee temporary to take pictures of me when I was on the stage.
And, I didn't expect I will get a large transparent file!
I thought only one certificate?
That's why when I see the large transparent file, I don't believe it is mine, until the headmaster passed it to me.
Oh, the situation was a bit crazy that time, a bit loud but I don't know who shouted la.... no time to look behind and look everywhere.

When I came down the hall, without adapting to another situation, Pn Tan Pek Ngoh quickly asked me to take out the shirt. Wasn't reaaaaaaaaady! LOL.
After this, boring stuffs again.
Then, the whole Form 5 group taking pictures on the stage.
I was next to Ajira, close to that cool thing where the speaker says something using the microphone. (I don't what I called) (aiya, actually I really really wanted to move the microphone so that it faced near my mouth)
My lover was below me, on my south-east position, wearing the graduation shirt.
Took a lot of pictures during that time.

After this, boring situation again.
Then, "the shaking hands zone".
I cut line! hehe...
LOL, I don't really know how to reply the teacher....
I just say: "Thank You" or "Okay" randomly depends on the teacher. (facebook style?)

During that moment, my lover disappeared.
Not sure where was her.
Hypothesis (guess): she was next the hall, on the place between the hall and the field. (not sure whether correct or not... LOL)
She wasn't in the canteen and some other places.
I knew she didn't go back home early, reason: I saw her bag on the chair there....

I took many pictures during that time.
I wore the graduation hat and the graduation shirt, reason: looks more cool, and unique. LOL
When I missed her so much, I walked to the canteen and other places with my special hat and shirt, but failed to find her.
When I went back to the hall, I found her! Yay!!! Actually wanted to shout: "YES!!!!!!!!", but my face wasn't that thick la...
She suddenly appeared, so I can conclude that she was nearly at the place between the hall and the field.
=) I feel happy that time....
(.......)

During that cool-free situation, I took many photos.
Mostly was the situation around, not me and someone.
...
...
...

Then, Abigail called me to go to the new block.
New block? Expectation: INSIDE the new block, in my last year's class.
At the end, reality: it wasn't in the new block la... LOL.....
Starting I don't why everyone grouped there.....
Expectation: take some pictures.
When I saw the candle lighter and remembered I wrote my card for teacher's birthday (I wrote: "Happy Birthday!!! =D" SAME as facebook style! LOLOLOL!), I realized they want to make teacher a surprise!
I was too blur la..... I always depends on my brain.

I hid at the stairs there, team work la... Saya mengamalkan nilai saling membantu and bekerjasama.
Teacher was really surprised!!! LOL! Yeah, almost cried.
(hmmm, Lee Hee Ai was there too. LOL)
My class teacher received birthday cake with fire-crackle-like-candle, some presents, flowers, crown (cool), birthday hat (BEST!) and cards(?).
My camera was almost out of battery that time, so I just took a few pictures during that time.

Oh, before this, was the special zone: "11.11.11.11.11.11", where I was in the canteen.
Close Enough.

Then, we walked towards the canteen.
Boring situation occurred.
To make my concentration enough, I take a cup of water and kept drinking a bit by a bit, and look around like a poker face.
...
...
I remembered I ate one slice of cake, AND one strawberry (this is cool)!
There are few takings there, just listen.
Oh, received my report card book and the kokurikulum book.
Broke my personal record for the highest average.

Then, boring situation until the bell rang.
Even through I didn't make it today, at least I had the chance to see her. ♥
That's it!

If I'm not mistaken, I took about 200 pictures only.
All photos will be uploaded and posted on my official blog after the SPM. (ya-la, true)
I will link this post to it too.

Main Reason - I thought after Teck Shern is him. Reason: "Te", then "Tia...", then I slowly realized Teck Shern's name is start from L (Lim), not T. I think he's after Jo Anne, just guessing.... Not sure where he sit now....

Thursday, November 10, 2011

School Diary 10/11 -
When I reached the school at 6:52am, no one in my class, no one in 5 Gamma and 5 Delta too.
so I thought she didn't come.
When I heard Amanda Lee/someone called her name, and she suddenly appeared.
I was so shocked and surprised!
I was too panic that time, TOO PANIC, don't know what to do. LOL.
Anyway, happy to see her today. =)

Nothing much happened before recess.
I remembered I received 3 pizza hut vouchers from my class teacher. COOL.
Gonna use it on Christmas this year.
I did Biology before recess, and Chemistry after recess.

Arranged the table after recess.
That situation looks cool. Wanted to take pictures that time but I feel it was not the time yet.
My position in the exam hall is satisfied enough. =)
4 Goals Completed:
1) Sit BEHIND of the exam hall, not in front. I'm sitting in the right-back position of the exam hall, the 5th last row. Satisfied.
2) sit behind my lover, but it is a bit far than what I expected. Anyway, still can see her. Satisfied.
3) sit behind my ex-lover. goal completed.
4) sit behind him. Closest among all the goals. Distance = Square root (17) units. In other way of expression, square root (4x4+1x1) = square root (17) units.
Satisfied enough. =)
But of course sitting the most back is the best. LOL
[edit]
nearby the place where I sit in the exam hall, there's something that I can focus to it, to improve my concentration on exam!

Actually this is not the main purpose I update my blog.
I have something more important to say.
I have realized that C3 has a long way to go, still so far to be achieved masterly.
I realized many things today.

If you know me well, I have a very low socializing skill or I don't have a social life.
My world is still quite 'small', I realized that's a lot more interesting stuffs to find out once I have a social life.
SPM looks a bit fun, mainly because I can meet everyone I hope to meet in the exam hall.
"I want to have a social life, I wish to have a social life, I hope to have a social life", it is much better than staying alone.
I have went through many experiences before I started my social life, unlike most people (99.99999%) started their social life automatically or naturally without been through that much experiences.
C3 is not easy, I need a social life in order to get better in it.

There are so many things yet to be find out in the world, I hate to stay in the 'small' world.
I really hate to stay in the lonely situation. really hate.
Oh, I have understood some of the sayings on twitter and facebook with their social life. (hard to explain + no time)

Okay.... going to school tomorrow for Graudation Day.
And remember, for C6, love, there's always a reason why here why there.... (I have mentioned this before)
And doesn't mean I know the reasons, maybe I take some time to find out.

Next, about the camera stuffs. Yes, I brought my camera to school today.
And I don't find it wrong at all. Amanda Sena seems to be very unpleasant just now, don't know what happened to her la...
I don't find it wrong at all! it is normal because we almost left secondary school already, so just take some pictures to remember it lah... MEMORIES.
Will post all those pictures after the SPM.
I'm bringing camera tomorrow, 100% sure, for Graduation Day. But not take everything in there, when I find a good time or a good situation, then only I use my camera.

About C6, I don't what to say now....
I scare I will hurt her if I say something wrong.
...
Okay, just put a simple sign: ♥

Oh, realization - people in the internet is different compared to people in real life. True Fact.
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