"Idealists foolish enough to throw caution to the winds have advanced mankind and have enriched the world." -Emma Goldman

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Exhausted and terrified

2 days of 2nd year cumulative shelf exams equating 342 questions over 8 hours of testing, plus receiving my score from last Friday's NBME step 1 predictive exam mean that I am COMPLETELY exhausted and absolutely terrified about the coming weeks. I already feel burnt out and possibly a little manic. Scared I'm not going to pass step 1. Worried the score I want is simply unattanable at this point. Fearing that 19 days is not enough time to learn all that I need to, yet, that postponing my date wont help either. Feeling totally helpless and overwhelmed, somewhat like when I was a small child and feared that a low grade on a spelling or math test would keep me out of college...

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About Me

I am a medical student in the South. I am also an observantly Jewish, type 1 diabetic, celiac, queer, strongly pro-choice activist. I am doing what I can to hold onto my ideals as I brave the chaos of medical education.