OK will have to be enough for now...

Thursday, August 11, 2011

I'm NOT feeling OK right now, but I will have to aim for that for the day. I will feel OK if I can get my back exercises in, my water drunk and some laundry done tonight.

I can't get expect more of myself emotionally right now because I feel out of control of my circumstances. I went to the foot doctor (I'm glad at least I went and found out what was wrong) and found out that I have a heel spur (which is closely related to plantar fasciitis).

The doctor said outright - the best thing to heal it? Stay OFF it for 2 weeks. Yeah, great. He taped it and offered to give me an anti-inflammation shot, but I've been there before and I'm not ready to go there again. I'd rather put up with a bit of pain so that at least I KNOW how far along my body is in it's healing process. I don't want to cover the pain and then accidentally make things worse because I can't read my body's signals.

Long - term treatment/prevention was to work on yoga-like lengthening exercises for my foot/calf. Do-able but boring, and the exact opposite of cardio exercise.

But here's the sucky part - I feel out of control because it seems like WHENEVER (yes I know - using extreme words) I seem to make a decent effort at regular exercise something winds up in pain - my feet, my back, my neck. All my excitement about the Wii, all my anticipation and the fun I had with my Dance Dance Revolution lessons.. even going back to last year when I tried to start a progressive walking program and got hurt - I can't even TOUCH those things for now, and the killer is that I just don't know when I'll have the courage to try again...

I've been here before with my ankle - and learned to deal with it - I've been there with my back - and learned how best to manage it.. but I'm just getting tired of finding more and more "issues" that I just have to learn to manage - they never go away....and to think I'm not even 40 yet. I just feel awful right at this moment... but again...

If I can do the above - water, back exercises and laundry - at least I can feel "OK" for this day. After all I just have to get through THIS DAY, right?

WENDYLEE15
So sorry you are going through all of these things right now.I am like you when it comes not wanting to cover up pain and wanting to feel how I am healing.You are right.....Just do what you can for now and focus on those things.You are accomplishing something even if it is not what you originally had planned.I hope things start to look up for you.You can do this .Never let any thing get in between you and your goals.Just do what you can when you can.Baby steps are a great way to get to where you want to be.Take care and here's to a speedy recovery !!