Approaching 2 years!

The end of January marks 2 years of myself and my husband trying to conceive our first baby and I can't quite believe how time as flown. Since then so much has happened. It's brilliant news that virtually all of my friends across several friend groups have fallen pregnant and had their babies and between now and June this year I have 6 friends that will give birth to their babies. I've loved seeing my closest friends go through the wonderful experience of becoming parents and meeting their beautiful new babies especially as some of them have too had their troubles getting pregnant. It makes everything seem so worthwhile when their baby finally arrives. But it is also hard to be the only one left, the only one who's no closer to becoming a mummy.

Some of you might remember me posting more regularly when I first started ttc but in the last 6 months or so I've not come on here very much at all. I think after a while everything starts to become very normal and I've begun to accept that we may have a real problem trying to have a baby. A year ago, after a year of trying with no success and me approaching 33 years old, myself and my husband made the joint decision for me to leave work in case stress wasn't helping our cause. I'm a worrier and my job did often cause me a lot of stress so I was hopeful that this would help. A year on and there's been no sign of any pregnancy at all and I'm beginning to look for jobs again as we could do with extra income and I really think I need to work. I never envisaged that I'd be in this situation, I just presumed that by now I would at least be pregnant if not have our little one here.

Those of you that do remember my posts may remember my situation. Horrid, lengthy, embarrassing periods that are irregular and lasting between 2 weeks and 27 days. Investigations into these in 2015 included internal and pelvic scans, blood tests and examinations and showed that I have a 4cm fibroid. I have also been told that this shouldn't cause me any problem with conception. I'm anaemic because of the heavy bleeding but that is being helped with iron supplements now and I have medications for the pain and heavy bleeding which I've found haven't really had much effect. My husband has had his sperm analysis and all is fine with him, we are now waiting for our first fertility appointment which will be at the end of May this year. The one glimmer of hope we had was a chemical pregnancy in April 2015 but there has been absolutely nothing since. I'm 34 in May and I remember when I was younger I expected to have had 2 children by now. It has to be said that I wasn't quite ready to start trying until I was 31 years old but you just never think that you might struggle to concieve until it happens, well I didn't anyway, I was so naive.

I've learnt so much about trying to conceive a baby since this journey began, there was so much that I did not know and this forum had been the source of the most of the recently acquired knowledge I have. I hope that all of the ladies that were trying when I first joined have gone on to conceive their babies and have happy and healthy pregnancies. Although a part of me is sad when I hear that people around me are pregnant, wishing it was me too I mostly feel hope, hearing stories with a happy ending make me focus on staying positive so that I can hopefully achieve the same happy ending. I hope that this year will be our year but if its not we will keep on trying and I will keep popping back on here from time to time to see how everyone is getting on and to also offer support if I can. Good luck to all of you, I hope that your bfps are all just hiding around the corner, waiting to surprise you and change your lives for ever xx

Comments (5)

Aw Lauly. What a lovely post. Despite all the people around you having their own little babies you are so lovely and happy for them. I wish I could say I was always as nice with my thoughts. I do try to be.

I sincerely hope this year is your year and that you get some answers from your fertility appointment. Welcome back xxxxxx

Cherry it is very hard at times. Sometimes I just can't understand why it's not me and I get really sad but having so many friends that have and are having babies means I have lots to visit and have cuddles with. I just have to try to focus on enjoying spending time with my friends and their beautiful new families. I hope that this year is your year too xx

Lauly I'm on CD (cycle day) one today of the 27th calendar month ttc. I'll turn 35 in June. Nearly everything you've said resonates with me! It's comforting that others are having similar thoughts and experiences but also sad :(

I do remember reading about your troubles and I'm sorry treatment isn't helping. We've had tests and no issues at all, so frustrating that there's no reason.

I've just read 'it starts with the egg' and I'm putting it into practice more in case we reach the point of IVF (in vitro fertilization) (it needs about six months to get full benefit so giving myself the time) but figure if it might help things naturally it's worth a shot. It's all scientifically researched. There are some conditions she recommends getting screened for, don't know if any of those would be useful in your situation...

Anyway good luck and hopefully this year will be it for both of us xxx

Hiya hun we started trying just over 2 years ago but had around a 2 month break so this is our 23rd cycle of trying. I do have 1 ds (dear son) my partner doesn't have any. I was diagnosed with endometriosis a couple of months ago and we're about to be referred my gynae and gp have both been telling us to for around 6 months but I haven't felt ready until now. To be honest scared of what they will say!!

Fingers crossed your referral will firstly bring you some answers and secondly your long awaited sticky bfp! Make sure you keep us all updated. Wishing you the best of luck xxx

Thank you for your replies ffantastig and Leah. I will have a look into that book, thank you for the recommendation. To the both of you, I agree, it does help to know that there are people out there going through similar problems to my own, it makes you feel less alone and isolated. But it does also make me sad, sad for myself and sad for every other person that is so desperate to be a mother or a father and they may be struggling or they may have been told its not possible. When you are younger you just presume it will happen, I definitely took it for granted. What helps is the support we can all give one another. I forgot how much better talking and reading on here made me feel, just not keeping it all locked up and hidden away. I hope that we all get our baby wish very soon so that we can share the happiness instead xx

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