The Slacker

Yeah, yeah, I’m pretty sure I vowed to make a new bloggie post several weeks ago, and obviously those weeks have gone by with nary a word.

I can honestly say that I have meant to sit down and write a few lines, and it’s no secret that I’ve been online often enough to have done so, but the truth of the matter is, every time I’ve thought about posting, I’ve come up with something else to do, such as finding people on Facebook (it’s fun!) or surfing relentlessly or playing yet another mind-numbing (and usually unsuccessful) game of Minesweeper. (See! That’s EXACTLY why I refuse to invest in a videogame system, no matter how much I want to be able to hop online and challenge Patti and/or her her kiddos to a game of whatever Mario Bros. contest happens to be in the machine at the moment — I quite literally would never get anything else done!)

So I’m borrowing Jane’s nickname as my title for today’s post because that’s exactly what I am: a slacker. The “if not the original, certainly a reasonable facsimile” slacker.

Put it this way: I can slack with the best of them … and I have, what, a more than one-month lag between posts to prove it!

Today I feel energetic yet annoyed. And upbeat, in general, because President Barack Obama is now in the White House, and despite the relatively miserable state of our nation, I have confidence that he is going to try to get some stuff accomplished. As I’ve gone on record before, I’m not naive enough to think he will actually be able to DO all the things he wants to do, nor am I a person who has ever had all that much faith in the president (first presidential memory: Richard Nixon resigning; enough said). However, I do think our nation’s leader is responsible for setting the tone for our country’s overall mood by stepping up and being just that: a leader.

And I think President Obama is quite capable of doing that.

My annoyance comes not from the president’s detractors but from the overall negativity that certain individuals always seem to want to inflict on others. Over the years, I have found myself basically banishing certain people from my life (even if I still saw them on a regular basis) because I realized they were doing absolutely nothing (say it again!) to make my life better.

And, lest we forget: It IS all about me … except when it isn’t.

I mean, I would completely ignore the negativists (cool word, even if it does refer to people who annoy me!) for as long as necessary — and wouldn’t you know: IT WORKED!

Quite frankly, I strongly suspect none of them ever realized (or cared) that they were being ignored, and I don’t recall any of them ever actually changing into shiny, happy people. Which, now that I think about it, probably wasn’t my intent, anyway.

I can’t really change people; I can only change how I react to them.

Meanwhile, I have balanced the realization that you cannot reason with nor understand the rationale of an unreasonable, irrational person with the excitement over reconnecting with a few people who meant quite much to me when I was a much younger person. (In other words: I have been aggravated beyond belief by someone I know who, quite possibly, is crazy — or, if not, exhibits power freak issues and demonstrates a complete lack of understanding and empathy. On the other hand, I have been thrilled to have renewed some very important relationships over the past several days/weeks.)

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i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you. a lot, in case you couldn’t tell. i too need to sit down and spill my guts about what’s been going on the past few months. it’s amazing how slack things get when there isn’t anything to get up for. like work, i mean. there’s always stuff to do, but most of it isn’t fun (ray is out of undies, so i will be doing loads of laundry all day today. joy) and i’d rather sit around the house watching My Shows, instead of working on building my buisness. which is actually going quite well, considering i’ve been TOTALLY slack on that department. i just shot a sweet 15 (a quincineta) on saturday, and then spent the past few days pouring over the 661 photos i took. i printed up about 140 of them and dropped them off at the house last night – i’ve made some money off the gig, but not enough to pay our mortgage. or electric bill. or any other bills we have. it’s getting insanely tight here, but if i pretend it’s all good, maybe that’s what the end outcome will be. right? right?? right.

i miss you. i thought about calling just because i miss you so much and right now it’s easier to pick up the phone than it is to sit in the (amazingly warm) office, pecking away. i should be searching the ‘net for jobs. and for things i need to learn about, like how to use my camera to the best of its abilities, or how to pose people, or how to make a silly photography company thrive during a time when NOTHING is thriving. sometimes i think we can only go up from here.

maybe barak can give me a hand up that ladder once he settles in. (i am thrilled, by the way, about him becoming president)

i am glad you haven’t been ignoring me – i like knowing i’m loved, especially when i haven’t been giving much of it out (i fear roger and kelly hate me). i promise to try and get off my ass and get something in writing one of these days. because really, what else do i have to do?