One of the theme’s during Lent is that we are called to forgive others. I saw an ex brother-in-law at my nephew’s wedding a few weeks ago and it was a very cordial gathering. It is weird how a moment in time many years ago a person can think that “he did quite a few awful things to my sister which in my opinion are unforgivable”. While married to him and for a long time afterwards he treated my sister horribly. Extremely awful things happened while they didn’t have a set custody arrangement. There were certainly things that at the time I didn’t think that I would ever forgive my ex BIL for doing to my sister.

Over the past 15-20 years both my brother-in-law and I have changed. Thankfully he has changed for the better over the last 5 or so years. At my nephew’s wedding my BIL gave an outstanding, heartfelt speech to his son where he acknowledged that he had made mistakes with how he treated my sister. His speech was so passionate that I doubt there was a dry eye at the reception. I think that I had forgiven him before the wedding but his speech gave me the nudge to talk to my BIL and tell him that we all make mistakes, that I have made mistakes and that I will always consider him my brother-in-law regardless of he and my sister not being together anymore.

Jesus paid the ultimate price and sacrificed his own life to save us, forgive us for our sins. We are called to forgive, forgive even sins which we think are unforgivable.

I know that it has been a very, very long time since anything has been posted on this blog. To be honest I’m not sure where to start or how to begin what I’m about to say.

Kevin and I have been separated for over 2 years. I have given him chances and more chances. I gave him an ultimatum with a list like counseling, getting a job and saving up money so we can be together. I extended the deadline. I needed signs that Kevin loved me and wanted to repair our marriage. Instead he pulled away, not talking to me for about 2 months while he read books related to his thesis. He called me a distraction. Grrrr.

Kevin made so many bad choices in our marriage. He made quite a few bad choices since we have been separated. Plus there were so many broken promises… To be honest Kevin put me in an extremely tough spot. I prayed. I thought. I talked to my counselor. I talked to my priest. I listened, talked and prayed some more til I came to a very sad conclusion.

Our marriage cannot be saved. I have filed for divorce and will start the annulment process after our divorce is final.

I hope all your celebrations over Christmas were filled with much joy and blessings.

Jesus The Son of God was born on Christmas morn. Love touched upon our world that very special day. God is Love. Jesus is love.

A new year has begun. 2016. What is this year going to bring us? Are we going to better our lives? When opportunities come your way are you going to say yes? I wonder what the political landscape in our country is going to look like. Are we going to work on our interior lives?

May God guide each of your personal journeys in 2016.

Happy New Year!!

I am befuddled, perplexed, and lost for words and ways to help my husband, so we will be together again. How can a person be helped if they repeat mistakes and are unwilling to look at and learn from the past? It breaks my heart but I it is inexplicable to me how he thinks and acts, plus his inability to listen to advice and to try that advice to change for the better.

Right now I know the main thing I can do is to pray for my husband. I pray that our marriage, a holy covenant, doesn’t fall apart but…

My heart aches…

God is in control. I know this. Even though things with my husband seem so discombobulated.

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Okay, I need to get to my husband Kevin Rice. He broke his fibula and will be having surgery on it. Because of eviction, financial stuff and other crap we have been separated. I need to take care of him. Looking for job around Boca Raton, Delray Beach area. Praying…

Kevin is probably out of surgery by now.

This is so…. I don’t know. Crazy.

I had already bought plane ticket to see him for our anniversary. God is calling on me to move to Florida and take care of my husband. So unexpected. But everything happens for a reason. Relying on Jesus for guidance.