Monday, July 25, 2011

There was plenty to update about last week. Like mine and the Bean's road trip to South Carolina, which was fantastic -- if I don't count the last hour coming home, or the fact that we now have a wide open summer with nothing we HAVE to do and plenty of things we WANT to do. But I couldn't focus on any of that or do Wordless Wednesday with a cute picture of the Bean because I felt like I was drowning. Drowning in an ocean of resentment, anger and pure emotional exhaustion.

I tried to step back from it and not let it take me over but it did and I felt like I just could not get the control back. Anyone that knows me knows that control is something I have to have, especially of my life, in order to maintain my sanity and keep my Bitch under contrl but last week I just couldn't regain it. I'd let it get to far out of my reach and stood outside of myself and watch as I slowly went under. But after what was surely the roughest weekend I've had in a while I think, hope that things are going to turn around. I figure after the slow downward spiral I'd been on, things can only go up.

And so that's all I'm saying on my short, unplanned hiatus. This week it's back to 1st birthday plans, we're 44 days away. Some Wordless Wednesay and a lot of other nonsensical prattle that I'm sure no one cares about but I put out into the interwebs because it's good for my brain and sanity to let it out.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Monday, July 11, 2011

Remember that concert we were suppose to go to on Friday, to see the handsome Darius Rucker? Well it was a no go. It stormed just as we got int to town and though the concert was rain or shine the Bean was not down with rain. He screamed and was crying hysterically even though he was in the stroller and covered, guess the pool is okay but acid rain not so much. Of course if we had just gotten in the car and waited 20 minutes, which was still plenty of time before the concert started, we would have had clear skies and great weather for the actual concert. Oh well, we'll try again when he's a little older. I spent the rest of the evening lounging around watching Season 3 of the Tudors while Hubz was playing softball.

Saturday, I spent the morning doing more yard work and the early afternoon napping with the Bean. Later in the day we went to watch Hubz play softball then joined some friends over at the in-laws for a little swimming, it was H-O-T. I left swimming early because the Bean was tired, as he should be getting up at 330 and then 7 in the morning, so we went home for dinner and bed. Saturday nite was the same as Friday I laid in bed watching more Season 3 of the Tudors, hubz was still swimming.

Sunday I was exhausted and cranky because this time the Bean was up from 1130 - 115 and refused to sleep and finally woke up for the day at 7. He was whiny and cranky most of the morning, so I knew there was most definitely a nap in both of our futures. The nite before Hubz had taken it upon himself to invite everyone over for swimming later in the day, good thing I was consulted (note the sarcasm), so we wound up with an somewhat impromptu bbq. I'm not gonna lie I was a little ticked that my last free weekend day was being taken up hosting people but that was before my nap. Once I was able to get a nap and the Bean took a good 2.5 hour nap I was in a better mood and happy to have everyone over enjoying the nice weather and each others company.

This weekend the Bean and I are headed to South Carolina, just the two of us, to visit with an old college friend. This will be the first time I've seen her since my shower exactly 1 year ago this Sunday and this will be the first time she's meeting the Bean. I'm super excited since I normally see in her in January but didn't make it down this year due to just getting a grip on breastfeeding after Bean had been so sick. I'm sure we'll have a great visit and I can't wait to meet up with another old friend from my days at UT. Thursday afternoon can't get here soon enough.

I'll leave you with this picture from this weekend at Hubz softball game.

Friday, July 8, 2011

Behold the good looking man that is Darius Rucker! Tonite the Bean and I will be joining the Nana, an old school friend of mine and her family for a concert in Fredericksburg. We've had our tickets for months and I'm so EXCITED!!!! This will be the Bean's first concert so there will be many pictures and a follow-up post next week for sure! Now to hope that the weather is somewhat bearable, and absolutely NO RAIN!!!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Today you're 10 months and I kind of have to stop and breathe when I think about how close you are to being 1. I wonder if it'll always be like this? If I'll always feel like I've missed so much just because I blinked.

You're constantly on the move now, crawling so fast that sometimes I can't believe how quick you are. You're pulling up on everything and I can tell you want so bad to be able to walk. Nana says you're a lot like I was at the age, always wanting to be a part of everything and so afraid you're going to miss something. I often look at you and wonder how I got so lucky to be your Momma. My heart swells with pride with each new milestone you reach and there's nothing like seeing that big smile I get from you whenever you walk into a room.

You're second tooth is just about broken through. And you eat everything and anything I put in front of you, and even whatever you find on the ground. At your 9 month dr's appointment you were 18 lbs, 7 oz and 28 inches long. Not yet big enough to come out of your bucket seat but still so big compared to the tiny 6 lbs you were at birth!

My sweet, sweet boy my love for you grows by leaps and bounds and every day and I can't imagine loving you any more than I do right now, but I know I will.

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About Me

I'm married to the love of my life and we're just trying to figure out this thing called life. We have two boys and we recently just added a little lady to the mix. We're always thinking about adding to our family!