Tales from a former American Expat living in London. Dealing with the loss of a child is never easy, but it's even more difficult when you live so far from home. Life will never be "normal" again and so now the challenge is to find my new normal.
I am now back in the USA and the proud parent of two daughters, born using two different egg donors. "Frostina" and "Olea" are the loves of my life and I feel so grateful for the amazing women who donated their eggs and made my family possible.

Monday, 2 April 2012

Photo Challenge

Well I've made it through another month and I'm still pregnant. I'm also just about to enter my third trimester. While most pregnant women see this as a sign of progress, I see it as the time when it all went wrong for my beloved son. So I've got to come up with some things to distract me.

Chantelle over at Fat Mum Slim runs a monthly photo challenge and I've decided to join in for the month of April. She has an "inspiration list" for each day of the month. You're supposed to keep your camera with you and take photos each day when you find the item on the list. I actually wanted to start doing this a few months ago but was an epic failure at it.

Things will be different this month though. I really need something to focus my energies on. Plus it will force me to get out and take photos, something I love but usually only do when we go on vacation. If you like the idea, I welcome you to join in. I'd love to see your photos too!

I can't promise I will post a photo each day here, but I will take them each day and post when I have time. So expect a few posts per week with multiple photos on them. Not perfect follow through, but probably the best I can do. My goal is creativity and distraction, not perfection.

So here are my first two photos.

1. My Reflection

My 27 week baby bump. Grow Frostina grow.

2. Color

There's nothing nicer than the colors of spring. These lovelies popped up in my back garden about a month ago.

Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

About Me

I'm an American who lived in London for almost 9 years with my amazing husband. We have had a great life with lots of adventures, love, and fun. On August 13, 2010 our lives were shattered when we lost our son at 36 weeks pregnant. After struggling with infertility for many years, we thought we were finally going to have our miracle baby. Sadly, this is not what happened and I struggle every day to make sense of it all. But I am determined to get my life back. Not my old life of course, but a new life,,, a new normal. I have no idea how I am going to find it yet but I just know I will.
We decided to try again using an egg donor. In October of 2011 we got the wonderful news that I was pregnant again.
I quickly realized that pregnancy after loss is no walk in the park. But somehow we got through it and were overjoyed when our rainbow baby was born in June 2012. Her blog name is "Frostina" and she is the joy in our hearts.
Using another egg donor, I gave birth in July 2014 to a baby girl who we are calling "Olea" here on the blog.
Life with two living children is quite an adjustment. I hope to find the time to document my newest normal here in this space.