Nice. It's got an intimate, quiet, yet passionate tone. In revision, I would suggest cutting words that aren't necessary like pronouns and articles. And in time, try to use concision. I'm sure you'll find this to be much more effective when it's been shortened a bit. Try to narrow in on the most important images and diction.
Good work!

Mesmerizing on so many levels. During the letter after you compare yourself to him you put him on a pedestal. In fact your capacity to love and respect love puts you well above him. Your ability to articulate the depth of feeling on so many levels also indicates a soul worthy of more. His heart will remain only capable of breaking others, yours will heal and grow stronger.....

Beautifully moving. Indeed it is every Beta male fantasy to be loved as you describe, but they never expect it to last forever. Hope your love life as moved on. For your tender heart's sake and as love is great tool of inspiration.

I think emotions are hard to keep in format... Wonderfully honest if not perfectly executed piece! Thank you for the wonderful narrative...always write from your heart, it's honest and who gives a shit whether others get it or not?...

I liked this. A lot. I've read it 4 times over. The way you make me feel when the writing makes a turn gets me every time. I love the purple blanket line. I love the way you described the hoping, waiting that he would just be realize that you were there. I like that you said she wasn't even cute. I hate that I don't have you after reading this. Really, I do.

Most comments I've seen on a poem. Maybe it's because op is probably a girl and single. Anyways, it was very start and stop. It kinda ruined the mood you tried to achieve, in my perspective at least. I suggest throwing in stanzas and reorganizing a couple of lines and merging some to really smooth it out.