There are books and sites out there that deal with recognizing and coping with grief, and maybe someone here has read something worth recommending; but is there any chance that you could also talk to someone? (If you haven't already, of course.) I mean someone like your doctor, who might be able to suggest a counselor or something; someone to help you cope with this.

If that seems a bit too daunting at the moment, maybe there's a relative or friend that you'd feel comfortable talking to? There are also helplines you could phone for support and advice, and yes, if posting on this lovely forum is any help, that's great too. Post away.

Have you thought about attending a grief support group? It might help to be with others that are suffering through a loss and they can share some insight on how to be able to move on. Whatever you do, please hold on to the love and good memories. They will help to keep you going. I'm so sorry for your loss. I believe those we lose are someplace that allows them to watch over us. And I'm sure your brother is doing that right now. Hoping that somehow you get past the grief and know that he loves you.

You need grief councilling professional one. You also need to know everyone will grieve differently at their time in their own way. I have a identical twin and each time she tried suicide i felt a loss as well. My brother killed himself too
Please try to get some professional help psychologist that deals with grief as it does help you release pain and move on. Please i have and it does work.