I so cant wait till next year. WHO WANTS TO GO TO MARTIN WITH ME?! lalala im so tired of being at this skool. its just too hard. i hate reading and lately the homework has been “reading reading reading” i have partial dyslexia come on reading isnt my thing. anyhow…yeah i wanna go to martin. cos the sooner i go there…the sooner i can graduate…and the sooner i graduate the sooner i move in with………..LAURIE! yeah thats right…its gunna be awesome…going to uta and have sleepovers…every night. man we’re so gunna stay up till 6 every night…as usual. blah…but yeah uh im in journalism and im tired of typing here so adios

( )has a boat( )has a jet ski( )has a beach house or cabin( )only child(x)stereo system in bedroom()dvd player in room( )100+dvd’s( )gets $50+ for allowance each month( )goes shopping every month( )shops at abercrombie or hollisterTotal= 1

( )been to new york( )hopped in seattle( )eaten at the space needle in seattle( )been to mall of america( )spent $500 or more in mall of america( )been on the eiffel tower in paris( )been on the statue of liberty in new york(x)been on honor roll for 2+ years( )went on a trip for a sweet 16 birthday( )owns on private property( )license( )moved 3+ timesTotal = 1

( )sports car( )hot tub(x)pet( )ranch( )verizon/sprint/cricket/nextel(x)cingular/t-mobile( )virgin mobile(x)been to 5+ states in the us( )have a job(x)100+ buddies on messenger(x)go to private school (public skool next year : D)Total = 5

Today :: survey& What’s the weather like? cold and windy& What did you do? went to the doctors and talked on the fone all day& Have you eaten breakfast yet? i didnt eat breakfast no& What did you eat? …nothing…i only had mcdonalds for lunch& What do you see when you like out the window or door or peephole? my neighbors house& Have you exercised? cant move& What do you plan to do for the rest of the day or tomorrow? richards comn over tomorow& When did you wake up? 4, then 6 55, then 8, then 10, then 11 lol& Have you eaten lunch yet? mcdonalds& What did you eat? ^& Have you gone out to eat and where? …mcdonalds& Did you buy anything? yessss!& Has something changed drastically today? um yeah sorta i guess…i found out i hafta take physical therapy for the first time in my life& Are you happy? no& Did you sing aloud today? yeah lol i just did actually “smile for me daddy, i wanna see ur grill, u wanna see my what, ur ur grill, ur ur ur grill…”& Did you talk to a friend on the phone? my boyfriend& On AIM? yup& In person? garret& Did you get mail? hah no& What was it (junk, bills, personal letters)? nothing& How many times have you gone to the bathroom so far? like twice hahaha& Have you taken a nap? well idk if they counted as naps…but i guess yeah?& How long have you been on the computer? hahaha like allllllll day& What are you listening to at the moment? this gay song called “stupid girl”& What is one thing that happened today that you will never forget? finding out i had to take physical therapy& Is anyone in the room with you? no& How many people are on your buddy list, if you’re on it? 23& Are you feeling lazy? omg yes& Are you feeling bored? mmhm& What have you accomplished today? eaten once, gone to the doctor, listened to music, and talked on the fone…OH and i watched one tree hill and beauty & the geek& Was there any questions that were repeated? lol ummmm yeah richard repeated alot of questions lol but it was fun

dang thats all? eh oh well…

pray for me plzz…i tore a ligament in my ankle…and it could pretty much get worse in my life…cos ive sprained my ankle (the same one every time) 6 times in the past 7 years. the doctor said to be verrrrry careful cos it could affect me ever playing volleyball again. i was gunna play this spring…but now i cant. and i hafta take 4 weeks of physical therapy…going 3 days a week. its not gunna be fun but o well…it needs to get better…like now. but yeah just plllz pray for me. thnx!!!

[Childhood]Where were you born? All Saints HospitalWhat day (ex: April 7, 1987)? December 15, 1988What time? …3 pmIs there anything that was weird about your birth? nopeHow old were you when you started talking? idk i dont rememberWhat was your first word? um idkWho was your first best friend? leigh anneHow did you know each other? preschoolWhat was your favorite thing to do with them? play house?What hospital were you born in? #1 up there ^What was the first house you lived in? this oneDid you have more boy friends or girl friends? girlsDid you play with Barbies? ohhhh yesDid you play with Lincoln Logs? whaty whats?Did you play dress up? yup…every dayDid you play house? ^What was preschool like? funWhat was kindergarten like? even more funDid you suck your thumb? noDid you watch Barney? *sigh* yes…that annoying dudeDid you watch Blues Clues? when i couldDid you watch Power Rangers? i wasnt allowed to…”too violent”What are some random memories? idkWhere did you grow up? hereDid you have an imaginary friend? noDid you like to dance? yes…to jamberry jamDid you take dance classes? yesDo you still live in the same house that you grew up in? mhmDo you still live in the same town? yeeeahWhat were you deathly afraid of? “b-u-g bugs!”Were you ever mean to other kids? no i was the rejectWere other kids ever mean to you? yeah ^Did you have a babysitter? sumtimesDid you go to day care? noDid you ever get really hurt (physically)? uhh no?Were you abused? nopeWhat did you do on a typical day? played with neighborsDo you wish you were still little? kinda but not really

[Future]Do you want to go to college? YESWhere and why? uta…cos its the best engineering skool aroundWhat would you major in? interior designDo you want to get married? mmmhmDo you want to have kids? YES OMGIf so, how many? 3What would you name them? michael, nicole, and brooke…i just talked to laurie about this…how weirdWhere would you want to have your honeymoon? the caribbeanIf you got married, would you keep your last name? nah…i wish i could thoWhat do you want your first pet to be? A DOGGIE!What would you name it? um idk maybe max? or jason?What jobs are you interested in? right now? clothing..Why? cos i like clothes…is that a crime?Where do you want to live and why? texas…to be close to my family (lame i know but o well)What car do you want? a mustang!

[Family]Mom’s Name: JanDad’s Name: MikeSiblings’ Names/Ages: Sarah-15Do you like your siblings? yeahHow many siblings do you wish you had? 1 heheFavorite Family Member: my dog…lol then yeah my sisterAre you the oldest, middle, only, or youngest? oldestWould you change it? Why? eh no…cos i get to experience everything first…and she gets to be jealous dahahaWhat would you have been named if you were the opposite gender? idrWhat jobs has your dad had in the past? electrician…like he is nowWhat are some of his hobbies? sportsWhat does he do for a living now? electricianWhat was he like in high school? idk…alot of girls liked him but he looked like a total dorkWhere did he go to college? uta : )Where is he from? tyler texasWhat jobs has your mom had in the past? like a billionWhat are some of her hobbies? like noneWhat does she do for a living now? nothing right nowWhat was she like in high school? weirdWhere did she go to college? idk she went to like 3 different ones and then quitWhere is she from? idr where she was bornWhich side of the family do you like better? well…i would say my dads…but id rather not answer this question…my family is too screwed up to know anymoreWhich parent do you look most like? my dad i guess..but i look more like my auntWhich parent do you act most like? my dadWhich one is the better chef? my momWhat are your grandparents’ names? Norma, Helen, Jim, and Dwayne ( but he recently died 😥 )What are your parents’ siblings’ names? My dads bro, Steve (JERK) and my moms sis, Mickie Are you an aunt/uncle? nopeWhere does your extended family live? anywhere but hereAre your parents still together? yeahAre you adopted? noPets: sammy : )

[This or That]Windows or Apple? uhhhComputer Games or Video Games? computer?Christmas or Halloween? christmas!Breakfast, Lunch, or Dinner? lunchCloth Napkin or Paper Napkin? paperCaramel or Fudge? fudgeWhipped Cream or Cool Whip? whipped creamChocolate or Vanilla? vanillaSummer or Winter? bothFall or Spring? fallDay or Night? nightMcDonalds or Burger King? mcdonalds (even tho my bf works at burger king)Hot or Cold? neither >.<Ice Cream Cone or Bowl? CONE!Europe or Asia? europeSanta or the Tooth Fairy? santa heheSmooth or Chunky PB? bothAIM or MSN? aimBikini or One Piece? bikiniMovie or Microwave Popcorn? movie…deffiniatelyRock or Rap? rockBurger or Hot Dog? burgerNike or Adidas? nikeBritney or Christina? ….both need to die…like…NOWOpera or Play? play…i hate operaMovie or TV? tvSweet or Sour? sweeeetDog or Cat? dogXbox or PS2? uh dunnoRain or Sun? rainSnow or Storm? stormBeach or Mountains? beachLove or Lust? loveBlack or White? what kind of sick question is this hahaha…its like the movie i saw today…like a quote in there yeah idk…its from the family stoneBlue or Red? bluePink or Purple? pinkThunder or Lightning? thunderTurtle or hamster? hamster…theyre softFull or empty? fullMessy or neat? messyBlack pen or blue pen? blackCheetos or Fritos? cheetosBird or Bunny? bunnyPaperclip or safety pin? safety pins are funScotch tape or duct tape? scotchy scotch scotch

[Have you ever]Been in love? yup : )Kissed someone of the same sex? my mommy and my sisterKissed someone of the opposite sex? yesHad sex? noMet the president? nopeWatched porn? hah noPrank-called? yessBeen prank called? yeah on halloween sum1 goes “wheres all the cheerleaders” and hung up i was like “uh….gay”Been to a factory? yesMade a scene in public to get your way? yupCried over a movie? hahaha yesMet a celebrity? yupBungee jumped? noSky dived? noBeen scuba diving? noSnorkeling? yes…hurt myself doing it tooSkipped school? yeeeahDone something sexual with an animal? EWBeen to an amusement park? heck yeahBeen to a fair? mhm…good memoriesBeen to Disneyland? no : (Been to Disneyworld? NO : (Been to New York? not yetBeen to Microsoft? haha random…noBeen to LA? yes…i love itBeen to Hawaii? yes…i love that moreBeen to the Grand Canyon? noBeen to the Coral Reef? noBeen to the Eiffel Tower? want toBeen to Venice? want toBeen to Europe? want toBeen to Africa? too many diseasesBeen to Canada? want to!!!!!!Been to Mexico? yesBeen to the Middle East? no wayBeen to Asia? noBeen to Australia/New Zealand? want to : (Been to Antarctica? hahahaha noTaken dance lessons? yeahCut yourself? noContemplated suicide? yeah hasnt everyone?Attempted suicide? well…i tried to drown myself once…but decided not toKilled someone? noGotten held back? noSaid “I love you” to someone besides a relative? yessGotten engaged? not yetGotten married? no…4 yearsAsked someone out and been rejected? noBeen asked out? yesBeen dumped? noDumped someone? noWorn a uniform? yeeeeahWorn a sports uniform? mhmMade yourself throw up? noHad an eating disorder? for a few days yeah…i was so hungryWon a game of bowling? yeahWritten a love letter or poem? mhm like a tonHad surgery? noBeen to overnight camp? lots of timesBeen to day camp? ^Been in a car accident? sortaWet your pants? when i was like 1Snuck out? yeahMade out? yeahBroken the law? yeah haha good timesDone drugs? nopeSmoked? no way joseDrink? yeahBeen in jail? noPlayed spin the bottle? lol noPlayed seven minutes in heaven? noStarted a fire? um…candles?Walked into a glass door? *sigh* yesBeen to a circus? yeah…with grandpa *sniff*Dated a teacher? eww grossLiked a teacher? noBeen on TV? no but my uncle has hahaBeen on the radio? yeahBeen in the newspaper? no?Seen a living penguin? as opposed to a dead one? …yes ive seen a living penguinBeen robbed? almostPlayed with Barbies? *coff* till i was 14 lolClimbed a tree? yeahFallen from a tree? almostParticipated in a science fair? yeah had toBroken/lost/stolen something important to someone else? *sigh* yessssss…just recently actually…but i bought him another one…sry kevinBeen to the zoo? hehehe yesShoplifted? a flower…and a shopping cartBuilt a tree house? noBeen in a tree house? yesBeen snowboarding? noBeen skiing? noBeen to a baseball game? yesGotten a root canal? noGotten a cavity? yeah when i was littleGotten an F? on a test and stuff yeahBeen home-schooled? noGone to boarding school? noBeen kicked out of a house (yours or someone else’s)? nopeFaked sick? haha yeah only like a thousand timesBroken a bone? noFainted? yesShaved? yesWaxed? yesGone tanning (in a bed)? noDyed your hair? yesBeen to a counselor? noHad a shot? yes

[For a billion dollars would you]Jump off the Empire State Building onto a giant pillow? noEat a whole human brain? EWWKill your parents? noKill your best friends? noKill the president? noShoot your foot? noStab your eye out with a paperclip? noDrink a glass of coagulating blood? ewwwwwww noGet AIDS? noPerform at a strip club? lol noEat a bug? yeah *ew*Gain 50 pounds? nooooooGo to school naked? no wayGive up your hearing? nu-uhGive up your eyesight? ….noShave your head? noGet hit by a bus? noAgree to die in five years? no

[I…]am: tiredwant: to sleepwish:i was asleephave: to go to sleephate: skoolmiss: richardfear: being too tired tomorowhope: i can finish my journalism homework by thursday : listen to: the wind *shivvers*hear: ..the windsearch: nuthnwonder: when this survey will endregret: that i started this thingam wearing: a fall out boy shirt and pj pantslove: richardache: to see him againeat: nuthndrink: nuthnam not: insanedance: when i feel like itsing: when i want tocry: when i need towrite: when i have towin: when i can hahawork: blahlose: most of the timeconfuse: everyoneneed: richardshould: be asleepwatch: the screenplay: you

[Love and All That Jazz]Have you ever been in love? yesWho was your first crush? DavidFirst love? RichardFirst kiss? ^Have you ever had sex? noHow many times? never…or will you wait until marriage? yesDo you think you’re slutty? Hahahaha im so not answering thisDo you think you’re prude? Hmm?Are you taken or single? Taken ohhhhh yeahWho was the last person you liked? RichardWho do you like right now? ^Who was the last person you went out with (not out of pity, force, etc)? ^What was your longest relationship? ^…4 monthsHave you ever been liked/asked out by someone you were totally not into? yesHave you ever cheated? nopeHave you ever been cheated on? nopeHow far have you gone? Uh idk the bases lolIs flirting cheating? Its cheating in ur heart yeah

do you ever wish you could just take a glance into the future…just to see where you would be about 10 years from now. To see if you really married the guy you thought you would, or have the job you really wanted, or if you have kids…and what they look like. To see if you got accepted into the college you really wanted to go to? I sure do. I used to feel so sure about the future. How come all of the sudden I dont? Why do I feel this weird empty spot inside. I hope I find out soon…cos i hate this feeling…and i will do nething i can to stop it.

oh yes…i get yet another ear infection. ive had about like 50 in my lifetime now…no joke. oh theyre so much fun.

but anyyhoo, funny thought. me and laurie were talkn on friday. and we thought itd be funny if ppl had thought bubbles over their heads all the time…that showed what they were thinkn about. so like…if ur out w/ ur bf and u start thinkn about another guy, u just start wavn ur hands above ur head tryn to clear ur thought bubble. and then ur bf is like “why are you gettn rid of ur thought bubble?” and yeah…itd just be weird. or u could be thinkn bad thoughts during skool and get sent to the office. its like the teacher goes “he was thinkn about his dog humpn his cat” and itd be perfectly normal to say…i guess. but ud know everythn every1 was thinkn…all the time. itd just be wayy weird. im glad ppl dont know what ur thinkn. if they did…dang…we’d all have no friends.

but yeah im tired and im gunna listen to music. hopefully ill feel good enuff to go to richs house tomorow.

–Pepsi or Coke: coke–McDonald’s or Burger King: mcdonalds–Single or Group Dates: group–Adidas or Nike: nike–Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla–Cappucino or coffee: coffee (even though i dont like it)–Boxers or Briefs: boxers!!!

// Ver.5

–Do you smoke?: no–Cuss?: sumtimes yeah–Sing Well?: idk–Do you think you’ve been in love?: yes!–Want to go to college: of course–Liked High School?: hate it–Want to get married?: mhm to rich–Type with fingers on the right keys: lol yeah thats why i type so fast–Get motion sickness: no way–Think you’re attractive: not really–Think you’re a health freak: hah not a chance–Get along with parents: sumtimes–Like Thunderstorms: YES!

// Ver.6 – in the past month, did/have you:

–Consumed Alchohol: no–Have Sex: noooo–Made Out: yup lol try the past week–Gone On Date: a group date yeah–Go To the Mall: yes–Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nope–Eaten Sushi: ewww no–Gone Skating: no but i want to–Made Homemade cookies: no–Been in Love: yesss–Gone Skinny Dipping: no but thatd be fun–Dyed your hair: i did in october but not in the past month no–Stolen Anything: no

// Ver.7

–Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: nuh-uh–Been trashed or completely intoxicated: no–Been caught “doing something”?: …no?–Been Called a “Tease”: rich said that i tease him…but in a good way–Shoplifted?: no

// Ver.8

–Age you hope to be married?: 21-24–Numbers and Names of Children?: oh gah too many names…i want 2 girls–Describe your dream wedding: on the beach in the caribbean–How do you want to die?: in my sleep–Where do you want to go to college: UTA–What do you want to be when you grow up?: an interior designer/decorater–most like to visit?: Caribbean

Survey #13:

x\ spell your name backwards: Hakeber (since i have like dyslexia its easy for me)x\ have you ever had a song written about you: dont think sox\ what song makes you cry: idrx\ what song makes you happy: alot i guess drops of jupiterx\ what’s your all time fav. song?: noooooo ideax\ what do you listen to before you go to sleep: blink 182 x\ height: 5’7”x\ hair color: blonde/brownx\ piercings: earsx\ tattoos: none

Right Now . . . x\ what color pants are you wearing: plaid guy’s pj pantsx\ what song are you listening to: i was listening to blink but nuthn nowx\ what taste is in your mouth?: fruitx\ whats the weather like?: clowdy and coldx\ how are you?: um fine and how are you? hahax\ get motion sickness?: nox\ have a bad habit?: yesx\ get along with your parents?: kindax\ boyfriend/girlfriend: mmmhmx\ have a current crush: my bfx\ have a big regret: not nemore

Have You Ever . . .x\ broken the law: kindax\ ran away from home: lol kinda x\ snuck out of the house: …kindax\ ever gone skinny dipping: nox\ made a prank phone call: hah yeahx\ tipped over a portapotty: nox\ use your parents credit card: yeahx\ skipped school before: yeahx\ fell asleep in the shower/bath: lots of timesx\ been in a school play: sadly yesx\ had a boyfriend/girlfriend: RICH!x\ had children: no but i want themx\ been in love: i am right nowx\ have a hard time getting over someone: yeeeeeahx\ been hurt?: yupx\ gone out with someone you only knew for 3 days: no

Random . . . x\ have a job: no i need one thox\ your cd player has what in it right now: 4 cds by blink 182x\ if you were a crayon, what color would you be?: pink maybex\ what makes you happy?: friends and my bfx\ the next CD you’re going to buy: cant say

When/What Was the Last . . . x\ you got a real letter: like never hahax\ got an email: a few days agox\ thing you purchased: sarahs bday presentx\ Tvprogram you watched: Relatedx\ movie you saw in the theaters: Zathurax\ kiss: Rich on Sundayx\ hugged: josh yesterdayx\ song heard: idk the name but its by blinkx\ place you were [ besides home ]: CVSx\ phonecall: like 30 minutes ago…richx\ you were depressed: uh a few weeks ago…but like clinically? summer before lastx\ you were in the hospital: to visit my gpa like a month ago