Saturday, April 18, 2009

Lifestyle

Did anyone else notice that you can now post stuff from your e-mail and from your phone to Blogger? I'm sort of overwhelmed with the online social communities. I'm a member of Myspace, Facebook, Blogger and more recently, Twitter. It's sort of insane actually. I kind of feel like Myspacers went to Facebook and it's slowly turning into Twitter as the new hype. I have noticed a trend though. Myspace is for the younger peeps. Facebook is for the more sophisticated people and Twitter is for stalkers. Blogger is for family people. Yes, those are very generalized statements but I think I might be little right. And they are all trying to be like each other. It's stressful.

I started a new lifestyle. Remember how I'm living sexy? What it really should be called is I'm living without sugar/caffeine/fastfood. It has been a COMPLETE change for me. I told my sister earlier in a text that if they had rehab for food addicts, I'd be there. I didn't realize how food was the biggest part of my life. In many senses of the word. In my body world and in my physical surroundings world. I'm hoping to change that.

I have headaches. I am not sure if that is from the lack of sugar or caffeine. Maybe both? I cried today. I was sitting on my bed with tears rolling down my face. I don't know why. In part because of the pain (from my headaches) and in part because of the change of it all. I'm losing a huge part of my life. This may seem ridiculous to all you skinny folk, but it's a real thing for me.

I look forward to the future though. I just wanna be in the single digits for pant sizes again. I really do. That's pretty much what is keeping me going. I want less chins. I want to take full body pictures and not feel disgusted by them. What I really want is to have the body where you can put your hand on your hip all stylish and it looks good. This seems probably all surface, but I want the health benefits too. Heart problems and other such things run rampant in my family. It's time to be healthy.

It's Day Two and it's hard. But it's good. Don't be sad if I am a little cranky for awhile until I get back to normal. Normal in the sense that I'm okay with living without bad stuff.