The past month, I've spent a lot of time thinking. Where were we a year ago? Still dealing with the disappointment of two failed IVFs. Starting down the path to adoption. Coming to terms with the fact that we wouldn't have a biological child, and slowly becoming ok with that.

I saw this post today and thought some of you ladies would appreciate it:http://www.fertileth...ribute-you.html 'Twas the night before the holidays--Family starts to arrive...They'll ask personal questions. I don't intend to survive.Aunt Helen starts right in "Still no kids?" as she pats my pouch.She looks around the room like I'd...

As I'm over the halfway mark now, I'm finding it amazing just how quickly by belly is expanding. I can feel it stretching and getting tight at different times, and my poor belly button is starting to flatten out, which is kind of freaking me out. But it's amazing to me to see my body change. But I've been having some experiences the pas...

Last night DH and I went to our first prenatal class - becoming a parent.As the public health nurse started talking and asking us questions, I realized how much I just don't know yet. I mean I know the basics - I know I want to try to have a natural birth without drugs, and I know I want to breastfeed, and I know I need to reach out to a doula quickly...

I know how fortunate DH and I are right now. To have gone through IVF cycles and have no success, only to experience an "oops" seven months later (discovered eight months later). We are really ****ing lucky. This is our lottery win.But it's been hard to get excited. It's scary to get excited and start looking ahead. The thoughts that run t...

I've had about enough of this place for a while... It's frustrating me that one woman's upset rant in a status update and brief blog post has stirred up so much in so many, and that she's not even around to be a part of the chaos she created.I'm tired of feeling like the bad guy here, being one of the pregnant ones, having to justify m...

This afternoon a good friend of mine started chatting with me. She told me that she was 11 weeks pregnant, but today her doctor confirmed that the pregnancy isn't viable. http://ivf.ca/forums...default/sad.png "I 'knew' for a bit. But HcG levels were way too low, U/S could confirm viable, and HcG levels just halved....

Yesterday DH and I went to Babies R Us to pick up a Snoogle pillow (oh wow so comfy!) - I wasn't comfortable sleeping on my side with my regular pillows. My knees get sore stacked one on the other.I don't know that I was ready for my first visit to that store.The variety of stuff there... bottles... soothers... mobiles... strollers... baby car...

I really hope the nerves around ultrasounds and scans and tests eases as the pregnancy comes along. :)We had our ultrasound this afternoon, and I had myself all worried for nothing. Which I have a tendency to do.The heartbeat sounded amazing, and brought tears to my eyes. And the doctor who did the scan was very happy with everything. She said if she w...

Went in for an ultrasound today. I was getting myself a little worked up - are things on track? Is Bean ok? Why am I not feeling or going through the same things other women are? So thankfully the clinic was able to fit us in before lunchtime.Bean is measuring right on track. http://ivf.ca/forums...fault/yahoo.gif A big relief. ht...