This evening while checking out Facebook, I came across this tattoo. One of Samuel's friends got this tattoo on her shoulder. Her name is Sara. I know she was at the funeral, but I don't remember much from that day, but I did see her at the cememtary when we went back for the trial. She was placing fresh flowers on Samuel's grave.

I love to hear stories from Samuel's friends, the memories they had with him. I thanked Sara for keeping Samuel's memory alive. For not forgetting him. He was loved and touched lives. Her tattoo isn't finished yet, and I can't wait to see the finished product. I love it already.

Below is some of Sara's memories of Samuel in her own words....

Isn't it crazy how some of the most amazing people on earth can be taken so fast? I don't understand. One day your with them and the next day there gone. That fast. In the past year...not even a year...I've lost 3 friends. Crazy stuff. As I sit back each and everyday thinking about all the good times we had I hurt to think I'll never see them again...untill we all meet again. Sam--Mr.325- I remember the 1st day we met. I was working at red lobster and you came in asking me for an applacation. I handed you one and said you have to fill it out here. You laughed and said you mean I can't take this with me?? I said no they want everyone to fill them out here. So you asked me for a pin, I handed you one and you got at it. Hoping they would call you in for an interview, I saw you acouple days later! So you told me you got the job and I looked at Amanda and smiled:) I said hello mr. buss boy lol and you said hey, it's a job! You brought smiles to everyones face even if they were having a bad day. We had many working days together filled with laughter and conversation. Me cutting my thumb with a butter knife because you were making me laugh as I rolled Mrs Karens silverware is a scar that remains on my thumb to this day!"give me a lemon drop Sam!!" and you replied"You are a lemon drop Sara" is a conversation that sticks in my head! Chilling with you, Ian, Stich, my brother Eric and Desiree at las brisas became a daily thing! Me being pregnant at the time you always gave me money to walk across the street for some taco bueno!! "You have a lil soccer player in there?!" as you patted my belly made me laugh every time! Oh was music your thing!! "Music is my me time kid" you'd always tell me! I want everyone to kno that Penny took a VERY special person out of my life, not only mine but the rest of his friends and family. Hate is such a strong word, but I hate everyone that let this happen to you. Everyone that watched it happen, scattered like nothing after it was done. I wonder why they had to take it to the extreem of death. How many people suffer because you are no longer here Sam. If no one has told you yet which I'm sure they have, you have an amazingly beautiful niece, Carmen:) must I say she looks so much like Manuel! I kno you'd be proud of her! Although you are gone...I want you to kno that I love and miss you Sam never will I forget you. All our memories remain in my head and on my thumb!! I can't wait till we see eachother again.i will visit you every Sunday till I'm up there with you:) Never did I think hearing you say goodbye and giving me that huge hug would be the last time I heard your voice and be in your arms for that split second. Like you always told me "Ive got yo back little Sara" so I hope your up there looking out for me:) I love and miss you Sam and may you RiP♥

I worry. ALOT! I'm really trying not to, but it's not working. As I mentioned before, we are in transition right now. I thought I would be able to share Friday, but unfortunately not yet.

Being a Christian, I know I shouldn't worry. I need to place all my worries in God's hands and leave it alone. So I've been praying ALOT lately. And I think that's what God is teaching me. All my worries, my fears, everything I need to bring to Him. It's rough, but I'm working on it. I'm praying right now as I type this.

I'm hoping Wednesday I will be able to share our news. Pray with me. Pray that everything goes according to plan - not our plan, but God's plan....whatever it may be. And also pray FOR me, to accecpt whatever is in God's plan.

Monday, June 14, 2010

School is out for the summer and Ezekiel will be starting middle school this fall. Middle school! Time is flying by too fast! I know we Mom's say this all the time, but it seems like just yesterday he was a baby. Soon he will be a teenager. I'm not sure I'm ready for all of that again.

We as a family are in transition. I really can't say too much right now, but it's a good transition. I've been kind of quiet lately, because I've been consumed with this transition. Hopefully this Friday I will be able to share what's been going on for the past couple of months. It's exciting, at times stressful, but will be so worth it in the end. I can't wait to share and Friday is never going to get here! Fonzy says I shouldn't rush life, and I agree, but I'm so ready for this! I want to rush this week, then have time slow down afterwards. Anxiously waiting for Friday.......

Blog by Isaida Veale

Wife, Mother to four boys, Knitter, Picturetaker, and Memory Keeper. I lost my oldest son, Samuel, to murder. Life can be unfair at times, but even so, it holds beauty and love. I blog to document our life. This beautiful, messy life.