I am bulimic and I have been struggling with this since I was 13 years old, no-one knew, I supose there were suspicsions by one or 2 profesionals but they never had any solid evidence and I convinced them otherwise!
this blog will show my struggle to get to my weight.
You will find not tips or tricks through this blog just how I coped and manage!

how many years have you had an eating disorder

Sunday, 9 January 2011

I weighed myself last night and Im slightly disappointed, although I have and still am ill, I weigh 221.2lb down from 228. so its a loss of 6.8lb, almost a lb a day.

Im hoping that tomorrow I can get out and get some exercise because I am in desparate need, I have spent the last 6-7 days in bed littereally. My head is still a little fuzzy almost sureal. Im hoping that I can lose another 6-8lb.

Wednesday, 5 January 2011

Well I went to the doctors to day and have both a viral infection as well as a stomach bug!

I'm hoping that the antiboitics will start to work soon because I feel so terrible. I think I have lost a bit of weight already, However im not counting on more than a couple of pound as the only exercise I have got all wekk is to the doctors, Im heading back to bed now for another night of hell! My stomach is hurting so much from hunger and the bug, but I must say having the bug have made the fast alot easier to handle because I havent been able to think about food without feeling sick like now! :) but alls will be worth it in a few weeks when /i complete teh 40 day fast!

Sunday, 2 January 2011

Im not feeling well at all today Ive been sick and I have the worst headache ever! Im not convinced this is anything to do with fasting. I physically am unable to stay awake and have pain in my left upper side my back. Im hoping that it is just fasting withdrawls although I am not convinced and Im a little worried it might be Swine Flu as I have had a cold for a while now.

Im going to contine fasting but If I am still ill by wednesday I will be going to the doctors to make sure its not anthing to worry aboout!

Saturday, 1 January 2011

Ok well not doing too good really my head is in the clouds and I havent been able to move out of bed I slept most of it away. I doubt I will lose much weight this week but I hope to lose around 4lb. Hopefully next week will be alot easier I hope to lose around 4lb each week!

My goal weight is 224lb by 8/1. finger crossed, have to go now because Im falling asleep again! haha

Not even half way through the day today... but feeling positive, I'm not hung over at all was back home by 11 last night watched the new year come in and went to bed! its half 11am now and Im feeling pretty confident about the whole fasting experince althought being caffience free is proving difficult! Ive been up a few hours and Im still yawning, so I dont think I will make it right throught the day awake! But I intend on sticking to the fast at all cost!

My current weight today is... 228lb. I hope that by the end of the week it will be 218lb. Although Im not convinced I will lose all of that especailly with caffiene withdrawls, I havent any energy, Im hoping this will change though very quickly. Ill let you all know how my day goes later on.