I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to embody the idea of a polite person that I have formulated in my Mind after years of television and participation in stereotypes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide and suppress myself with a smile out of the excuse that I have a person in my face to attend to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that pleasing people should be the main goal in a person’s life because everyone requires each other within/as relationship networks to do virtually anything in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abandon myself in a moment to apparently take care of my position in my world and my reality, by/through putting on a generically positive smile to keep people happy and satisfied.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the belief that taking care of others is a separate task from taking care of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I must choose either taking care of myself or another; I cannot do both as one expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing fear to dictate that I must smile when I am in front of people, especially people I have not talked to before.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse a smile to be/become a reaction that I only use when another person reflects an intense enough feeling of fear of loss to justify smiling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a smile to be/become a weapon where I use it to further my own self interest/greed at the direct cost of sharing myself with others within/as a smile as an expression of Life and enjoying Life within/as the Physical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use a smile as an excuse to refuse to directly face my own reflection within/as interacting with another person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delay facing myself with a smile when I use a smile as a survival mechanism to avoid facing myself as a negative/bad experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to only smile when fear of survival is activated within/as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mould my voice to align with the stereotype of a polite person so that I may better please people, to better further my own hidden objectives of self interest/greed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define pleasing people according to fulfilling and furthering my own hidden purpose of self interest as the pursuit of happiness.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see/realise/understand that if I am not comfortable and taking thorough care of myself first, it is impossible for me at this stage to attempt to make other people comfortable when interacting with me.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see/realise/understand that when I abandon myself to try to please others, I am creating more conflict within myself and make the task of being with other people more and more difficult.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the belief that if I please people from a starting point of good intentions, I will be able to please people and be/become happy because I can please people to ultimately please myself for the position I place myself in according to the relationships I establish.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self comfortability to/towards reflections of myself as the comfort of other people when they are interacting with me.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to live self comfortability for/as myself from a point of aloneness wherein I live the self responsibility to make myself comfortable with myself first.

I Forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attempt to apply a shortcut to being a pleasant person with other people by/through skipping the step of facing MYSELF FIRST before even thinking about being a pleasant person for others as myself as reflections of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to follow the want/need/desire for ambitious goals of always ‘more than’ myself, such that instead of remaining within/as the real process within/as the smaller, I constantly and continuously fail in dreaming and trying to succeed in the larger goals, when I clearly have not prepared myself to take on the larger goals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to overestimate my abilities out of the excuse that I am ambitious so I must always deliberately try to do more than what I can do right now for myself, as the smaller steps that are too obvious for thoughts/emotions/feelings to ever be aware of or consider.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see/realise/understand that the real difficulty within/as walking process is the self comfortability and self vulnerability of always remaining within/as the small; immediately and ruthlessly applying the small steps that I can do for myself in one single moment of breath, in spite of any nagging memories that activate throughout this process of 1 + 1 accumulation.

When I am tempted to please other people, I stop – I breathe. I do not accept or allow myself to continue validating the implicit insecurity with who I am when/as I value pleasing and supporting others over supporting myself. I accept and allow myself to support myself first, so that I walk the process necessary before I am able to support others as myself. I accept and allow myself to recognize that my world and my reality is a reflection of the moments that I am most comfortable and unforgiving with myself and therefore I realise and accept that when I deliberately deny myself to try to please others in my Mind, I am actually delaying facing myself as reflected in/as another person.

I accept and allow myself to apply the simplicity of asserting and clarifying who I am in this moment so I may direct myself and my world according to where I stand within/as myself within/as considering what is best for all; directing my world and my reality according to who I decide I am instead of allowing fear to decide how I move myself in my world.

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About Kasper Kwan

Currently supporting myself in the process of establishing my words in the physical principles of Oneness and Equality. Had to start this process because I have allowed and accepted my words to be established in the mental idea of self-interest/greed, and only realised this recently.