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Wednesday, April 29, 2015

This may just be the post-call weariness speaking. But it strikes me that being a paediatrician in a place with high mortality looks more like mopping up in a war than it looks like enhancing the health of the thriving. Some days the sadness just starts to crumble the edges of resolve. Generally one wants a doctor who is decisive, firm, unshaken, tough. So it is hard to sometimes find the space for genuine human emotion in the face of sorrow.

And in a place like Kijabe, the sheer volume and complexity of the ways evil takes its toll on the weak keeps us in motion, from battle to battle.

The last 24 hours included some joy for sure. I never lose the wonder of a baby being born, the matted bloody hair followed by slippery shoulders and the gasp of reality as a living being separates from his mother and wails. The mom's shivering exhaustion, tears of relief. Holding her infant up to her tired lips for a kiss. I think my intern last night had never seen a birth, so it was fun to walk him through the miracle, and fun to join Scott who was doing the OB side of call. But there are a thousand ways for things to go wrong. Around midnight I was in the delivery room with a mom in labor. Only she had a baby only half-way through gestation, nowhere near ready to breathe. I noticed her only living child was born in 1997, so basically my kids' age. Since then she had known only sad endings, and she was braced for another. I explained to her that we would not be able to save her baby, and held her hand. I offered to pray, and then checked the file to catch her name. Julia. Ouch.

Then there was the five-month-old whose mother watched her dwindle as she struggled to make enough milk. Or the mom whose child with cerebral palsy came in with seizures and difficulty breathing. Or the neurosurgery patient with the sunken eyes of dehydration from his gastroenteritis. Or the articulate 11 year old boarding student with panic attacks, responding to family tensions. Seven admissions before daylight. Early morning consultation with colleagues about a mysterious parasitic leg swelling, about the lesser of many evils in keeping a baby with an intestinal malformation alive, about what intrauterine infection was most likely to explain another infant patient's small head, cataracts, pneumonia, liver inflammation. And on to the day, soldiering through, evaluating, teaching, helping. Being tough.

But two cases today stood out to me, in that crumbling-edge glimpse of sorrow and beauty.

The first was a 2 year old, AA. Well, he turns two on his birthday tomorrow. His parents traveled three days on trucks in the flooded sop that is rainy season to make it here from an insecure area in the north. His parents' dress was traditional and set them apart from the average local people. AA was born with a spinal cord defect called meningomyelocele, and the accumulation of fluid in the brain ventricles called hydrocephalus plus the crooked spine and compressed chest that usually accompanies this. He weighed 5.8 kilos (about 12 pounds) at age 2, watching a bit anxiously from his mom's lap. He had been seen earlier by the neurosurgery resident for a huge open wound on his back, then sent over to paediatrics. At first I pondered how we could possibly help this boy's nutrition, what infections might be pulling him down, what we could get done in a day, how they would manage in their remote home. Then the dad made a speech." I have four children", he told me, "and I love them all. But I love this boy the most. He is God's creation too. I love to carry him around with me, and show him to my friends. Can you please give us a medicine to make him want to eat? We try so hard to feed him. He doesn't have an appetite." Well, I was blown away. These were not neglectful parents, going through the motions of seeking care. They were sacrificing a lot to get this boy help. I decided to admit him and try to get him on a path of nutrition, growth, healing wounds. He's one of hundreds, thousands of disabled children that pass through our doors every year. Taking on the desperate love of all those parents trying so hard. . . crumbling.

Then an hour later, a call from casualty. I rushed up to find a 15 year old boy who was only inches on the life-side of that fine line between life and death. J was dying from AIDS. His wasted body was stick-thin, his skin covered with the dark spots and nodules of an HIV-related cancer, his lips bloody with another infection, his head barely more than skin stretched over a skull, his blood pressure too low to record. But somehow he was awake, and tried to talk to me. His oxygen mask was uncomfortable, and he was thirsty. My mind could barely grasp the level of suffering this teen must have endured. He was a little younger than Jack, and about an eighth of his weight. Where do you even start, 15 years too late? How did his parents let him get to this point? Where did the whole system break down, losing track of him for the last year and a half since his last visit to Kijabe? Is it too late for hope? What kind of world is this, that events way beyond J's control would have sentenced him to a slow and terrible extinguishing of life? What could we do that wouldn't make him worse, tip him over the line towards death? How can I as a paediatrician, a mom, a person, look at this? How can I look away? Another crumble of resolve, of equanimity, of professional distance.

One can not doubt evil when conversing with a skeletal teenage AIDS patient, when touching the wounds of a baby who will never walk. And so we reach for faith as the evidence of all that is not seen, of redemptive endings and no more tears. And some days, faith feels like a distant stretch. But the very clear not-rightness of these cases raises the stakes. Evil can not have the final say. Holding on to love.

Friday, April 24, 2015

This was the awesome title of a certain MK's science project. Growing up in Bundibugyo, our kids were fascinated with chocolate. When we moved there in 1993, the primary cash crop was coffee. Sweet honey-suckle fragrance from the white blossoms would welcome us back from trips as we wound down into the jungly valley. But by the end of the decade a coffee-blight had wilted trees, and rebels had interrupted commercial patterns. People switched in masse from coffee to cocoa, and soon Bundibugyo became a huge exporter of cocoa beans. We even had cocoa trees in our yard. So one year Luke decided to try and figure out how to turn those lumpy yellow fruits into something resembling a sweet treat. With his expert friends, he harvested, fermented (by burying in the soil), and dried the beans. We roasted, ground (in an improvised coffee grinder), and mixed with sugar. And there was a chocolate-smelling, coarse granular product that at least reminded one of chocolate. Many times we dreamed of a chocolate factory, decrying the value loss as local small-scale farmers sold their beans to distant buyers. John Clark took Luke's attempts a step further and produced a smoother paste with a better taste. But we never quite had the technical or business expertise to pull off a commercial product. Meanwhile hunger increased in Bundibugyo as people stopped growing adequate family food to convert all their land to the potentially lucrative cocoa; the major cocoa buyers flew into our airstrip to inspect and negotiate; cocoa was stolen at night, traded by day, kids missed school whenever the trees came into harvest season, etc. And life went on and as a mission, other than trying to use the Christ School farms to earn money with cocoa, we never progressed in our Willie Wonka dreams.

So imagine our surprise last night when Bethany whipped out the following chocolate bars from her trip to South Africa:

Yes, this is the same title as the science project of old. Yes, this is Ugandan-origin chocolate. But better by far is the fact when you turn it over and read the fine print, this chocolate actually COMES FROM BUNDIBUGYO. And it tastes GOOD. Really really good, smooth and rich and vibrant and amazing. It is produced by a small-scale origin-specific family-owned business in the Cape called De Villiers Chocolate. If you lived in South Africa, you could actually buy them on line here or here.

Who would have guessed that in all the heat and humidity and malarious fog of Bundibugyo, the mudslides and gunfire, the superstitions and isolation, something could incubate that tastes like this?

Pure grace, the extraction of sweet from the bitterness of life, the purification that produces joy.

Two teams of Bundibugyo kids are at the national football tournament this week. Others are in medical school, or getting married, or teaching primary school kids. The New Testament in Lubwisi will be published within the year. We have far to go in pushing back injustice and death, but this chocolate bar reminds me of the emerging beauty in a place that has known too much pain.

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

And of all the happy people about this in the world, Julia may be the happiest. These two have been almost like twins their whole life. With all the dispersion in our family, having two children in the SAME UNIVERSITY feels like a real gift.

The process this year was far from sure or pain-free. Jack had some great options; he also had some unexpected rejections. When he was interviewed for a full-everything Gates Foundation funding in Duke's University Scholars Program, we tried not to get our hopes up about those elusive eight spots. So when he got the news that he was chosen for the scholarship and academic program, it was a very sweet confirmation that God had opened a nearly-impossible door, and this was the path he was supposed to walk.

A few days later, I was reading Psalm 16:I have said to the Lord, 'You are my Lord, all my good depends on you.' . . .The Lord himself is my portion and my cup;in your hands alone is my fortune.My share has fallen in a fair land;indeed, I have a goodly heritage.I will bless the Lord who has given me counsel . . .
The great thing about the Psalms is their spectrum of emotion, because you can almost always find one to fit exactly what is happening in your life. In this case, dependence upon God for good and for counsel, and affirmation of a share falling in the fair land of Durham.

But even this celebration is not without shadow. First, our celebration is tempered by the sober realization of the dozens, hundreds, thousands of kids who are equally deserving and yet did not win scholarships. We are hesitant, trying to tread the line of sincere thanks to God, acknowledgment that our fortune is in His hands, while respecting that kids with a different story are equally loved. We want to testify that God has sent us a provision we didn't even know existed until a few weeks ago, a pretty incredible turn of events for missionaries earning the kind of minimal salaries that could NEVER pay for such an education. But we also acknowledge that many of our friends and relatives also struggle financially to provide for their kids.

And second, realizing that having the Lord as your portion can be a painful experience. "The Lord is my cup" juxtaposes with "Let this cup pass" and "Can you drink this cup"? The cup from God's hand is not unmitigated ease, in spite of the wonder of this blessing. One of my most relatable mom-stories is the mother of the disciples who asks for them to succeed in the Kingdom, and Jesus' reminder that the path to glory is one of suffering. That those chosen to lead must be slaves; those chosen for honor must reach it through the cross.

In spite of the mixed emotions, the complexity of God's unpredictable ways, tonight we resonate with the end of the psalm, my heart is glad and my spirit rejoices, phrases that echo in Mary's joy over her son and ours over our son. And we thank our partners who have prayed for Jack and for us. We are grateful.

Monday, April 20, 2015

First a diminutive 1 1/2 year old from Upper Nile, a conflict-torn state in South Sudan. Missionaries had noticed the baby's bulge of brain tissue covered by soft skin between her eyes. Her dad left to join someone's army, her 18-yr-old mom is dependent on her own mother's garden supporting the nine siblings, so she has not received medical care until now. Somehow this malnourished toddler and her teenage mom with tribal facial-scar markings braved being put on planes and landed at Kijabe, where a Sudanese nursing student was able to translate for them. As I was examining her another missionary brought in a chapati, and she was so hungry she wailed until she could eat some of it, tearing off tiny pieces to chew, and then screaming in total terror every time I tried to touch her. We'll be treating her malnutrition and infections, and the ENT surgeons will fix her face, and her teen mom will just roll with the inexplicable system. Later I passed her in the hall, and she smiled at me, as I was suddenly more familiar than the rest of her world.

An hour later, I was in private clinic, seeing a fat smiling 4-month-old. A mom with stylish clothes and makeup and a diaper bag bigger than the suitcase I just traveled with; a hovering dad who asked questions and looked proud and answered his cell phone. Cute coordinated baby clothes, layers of blankets, and pampers. They were convinced their baby had a whole list of problems, but she was perfectly healthy and growing. I listened to their anxiety, examined and reassured. This 4 month old was about the same weight as the Sudanese 1 1/2 year old.

This is Africa. A child of war, hungry, with a life-threatening problem, waiting over a year for help, a teen mom, a disintegrating social system. A child of prosperity, doting parents, products of education and globalization. Both are true, both are Africa 2015. They are as different from each other as either would be from a baby from another continent, yet in many ways they are the same. Loved. Desired. Parents who care, who go to extreme lengths to do their best for their child. Curious, adaptable, taking the vastness of the world in stride.

The first one fits most stereotypes of Africa in the west, and those generalizations have strong elements of truth. But she is only one part of the story of this continent, and the second baby is an equally valid representation of things present and things to come. Both will get the care they need at Kijabe, which makes it a very interesting cross roads.

Sunday, April 19, 2015

The phone rings in the morning, waking me up from a blessed 4 hours of sleep since the last middle-of-the night crisis. The OB is taking a mother to the operating theatre for a c-section, because the baby is in breech. For a few moments I consider, do I really need to go in? It isn't a fetal distress emergency, just a positional problem. But the interns are in their first weeks of training, and I can't rely on their resuscitation skills, just in case something goes wrong. So I get up and trudge in. The early morning halls are quiet with Sunday peace. I review the mom's file, talk to her, prepare my laryngoscope and tubes just-in-case, more to teach my intern thoroughness than because I expect to use them.

But when the OB cuts into the uterus, thick brown fluid seeps out. The baby has passed stool before birth, usually a sign of problems. She is feet-first, with her umbilical cord wrapped twice around her body. As the OB carefully extracts her, she is limp and seemingly lifeless. Oh my. Not a peep as the cord is cut and we rush her over to our work space. She has a heart rate but nothing else: no breathing, no movement, no effort, just a slimy floppy body. I grab the laryngoscope and get a tube into her trachea, attach the suction and the brown goop gurgles out. She had breathed in the stool in utero. Not good. We clear her lungs and then bag oxygen in, drying and stimulating her. And within a few minutes, she is wiggling and crying, protesting and turning pink. One-minute apgar of 2/10, five-minute apgar of 9/10.

The difference between tragedy and a perfectly normal baby. 2 to 9.

I am all for low-tech deliveries, and I guarded my own au-naturale approach as best I could when I had babies. Birthing is a normal process that women have been doing for millenia. Except every once-and-a-while, something goes horribly wrong. The lifeline cord is tangled, the baby is jumbled, the birth teeters on the brink of death. Which is why it pays to have an OB, an operating room, a paediatrician, nurses, oxygen, suction, equipment and skills all in the wings. This could have been the worst day of this mom's life. Instead it is a day to celebrate.

It is a privilege to witness that miracle, the nearly-dead baby transitioning to squalling normality. The opposite of futility (see post below), the ending I would write if every story was mine to compose.

And the individual wonder of a life revived keeps us going, but the collective balance of lives saved is equally important. This past week, in between calls, I flew BACK to Mombasa for the annual Kenya Paediatric Society scientific meetings. Two days of lectures, debates, presentations, data, discussion, and networking. One of our goals as a Paeds department at Kijabe was to pursue excellence via the rigorous analysis of our work and outcomes. We maintain two databases where we enter all our admissions, discharges, and deaths. And we try to work on projects throughout the year.

Collectively, we had four posters/presentations accepted for this meeting. I worked on two of them: the collation of three years of newborn survival comparing it to a recent study from 22 Kenyan hospitals where interns train, and another comparing intern adherence to standards for screening all patients for malnutrition and HIV before and after an educational intervention. Both had significant results, and it was fun to put the data together. Dr. Ima presented an unusual case, and Dr. Mary showed that her public health project significantly impacted peoples' knowledge.

I will admit that the conference was a bit of a mixed experience for me. It's been a draining month, well, three months, and another trip and family-separation turned out to be harder than I thought. I'm in that post-survival-of-stress slump. The KPA is still a cross-cultural experience, and there were many times I was reminded of being an outsider. The complexity and competence of the academic scene in Kenya is both exhilarating and intimidating. As a general-paeds missionary, I'm out of my element for sure.

But I believe in this process. The individual resuscitation and the big-picture analysis of good vs. harm. The patient and the population. Hands-on medical care, and crunching numbers.

Friday, April 17, 2015

Tuesday I ended up covering ICU for the day and night.My colleague signed out the sickest babies in
the hospital to me.One, little F, was a
9 month old with Down Syndrome, congenital heart disease, a serious bacterial
infection, and a marginal prognosis.But
when she had seemed to be imminently dying the day before, she inexplicably
revived.Her dedicated family held
prayer vigils in the chapel; her mother sat by her bed and alerted us to any
subtle change in her vital signs.As so
often happens, the more one pours into a patient the more attached one
becomes.As I spent most of the next day
and evening struggling to keep F alive, I began to hope too. But just before midnight, her heart stopped
again, and nothing I did brought her back.That innocent limp body gave up the soul, and I had to wake up her
mother with the tragic news.

And this might not sound very glorious, but I hated the
futility of it all.The hours and hours
of careful titration of drips and oxygen, the begging for surgical help to
secure a central line, the pouring through the file to understand a complicated
patient and the writing of pages of notes.The daring to hope, and then the fact that none of it mattered.She was dead.

Then over the next two days, I had similarly tragic news
from two young women who are friends, both of whom miscarried in the first
trimester of longed-for pregnancies, both of whom had been trying to have a
baby for a year or more, both of whom had known struggle and loss, both of whom
are laying down their lives in generous ways for the Kingdom.Both of whom I had prayed for quite a bit.Both of whom I would long desperately to see
as mothers of live, tangible babies and not as mourners holding hidden
wounds.The sheer futility of their
months and months of dashed dreams was another punch in the gut.

So when I read this today from Miroslav Volf (Free of
Charge), it struck a chord:

But in fact, our
gifts and others’ benefits are not related as causes and effects.They are related as the cross and the
resurrection.Christ gave his life
on the cross—and it seemed as though he died in vain.His disciples quickly deserted him, his cause
was as dead as he was, and even his God seemed to have abandoned him.But then he was resurrected from the dead by
the power of the Spirit.He was seated
at the right hand of God and raised in the community of believers, his social
body alive and growing on earth.Did
Christ’s “gift of death” cause his own resurrection and its benefits for the
world?It didn’t.The spirit did. So it is with every true gift
of our own, however small or large.

Like Christ’s healings or feedings of multitudes, often our
gifts offer immediate help.We give, and
the hungry are fed, the sorrowful comforted, and loved ones delighted.We are like a tree, laden with fruit that
only waits to be picked.At other times,
we give, and the gift seems less like a ripe fruit than like a seed planted in
the ground.For a while, nothing
happens.Dark earth covered with cold
winter holds the seed captive.Then
spring comes, and we see new life sprouting, maybe even growing beyond our
wildest imagination.

Sometimes it seems as if a fate worse than lying in the dark
earth befalls our gifts.It is almost as
if some evil bird takes away the seed we planted before it can sprout and bear
fruit.We labor in vain.We give—and it seems that no one
benefits.Yet we can still hope.The Spirit who makes a tree heavy with fruit
and who gives life to the seed that has died will ultimately claim every good
gift that the evil one has snatched away.Just as the Spirit resurrected the crucified one and made his sacrifice
bear abundant fruit, so the Spirit will reaise us in the spring of everlasting
life to see the harvest of our own giving. Our giving is borne by the wings of the
Spirit’s hope.

Tonight I pray that my friends will cling to this hope. That the Spirit has seen the darkly covered seed, and will not ignore the evil one who snatches away their fruit. That the good will be claimed back for eternity. That their giving will not be futile. That the hours and days and months we seem to sacrifice, the waste and ache, will not return void, but will be redeemed. That all will one day be well, even if tonight it is so very very hard.

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

On Monday our hospital chaplain opened our prayer time asking us how we felt when we heard the news about Garissa the week before (if you somehow escaped the news of this tragedy, four terrorists from Al Shabbab walked into a Kenyan university in the pre-dawn hours of Maundy Thursday and systematically gunned down 142 students and 6 guards, purposefully selecting Christian kids, to protest Kenya's contribution to African Union peacekeeping in Somalia). I thought: stunned, vulnerable, responsible for concentrating over a hundred missionary souls in a potentially dangerous place, anxious, jumpy, surreal, and pretty quickly walling off my heart to panic and imagination as my mind probed the reality that MY kids are this age, one still in a Kenyan school that could be a target, the others University students just like the victims. The hospital staff were mostly silent in response to his question, but one voiced what many must think: I only wished I had a machine gun. He was angry, and he wanted justice.

Evil targeting youth and vulnerability is not new; diabolical plots to demoralize have plagued us for millennia. The chaplain proceeded to 1 Samuel 30, where David returns home and finds his town of Ziklag burned and plundered, all the women and children taken captive. They "wept until they had no more strength to weep" and then "the people spoke of stoning him (David), because all the people were bitter in soul, each for his sons and daughters." Grief and anger; the weary helplessness of loss lashing out to blame. I think we can all relate to that in Kenya right now.

The next phrase, though, is deeply beautiful. "But David strengthened himself in the LORD his God."

In a time of tragedy, let us start with our
souls. Somehow we have a capacity for strengthening. Worship.
Truth. Invitation to God’s presence. Raw clinging to faith. David must have wondered how God allowed his
enemies to triumph. For all he knew, he
and his followers had lost everything.
But he moved towards his God. He
needed that settled internal anchor to make wise decisions in his response, to
keep himself from giving in to despair.

Let us strengthen ourselves in the LORD before
we bomb villages and empty refugee camps, before we allow the evil of four to
quash our love for a nation. Let us turn
to our God with our sorrow, and our fear, and our questions for our children’s’
future. The rule of law must
dispassionately ensure safety and justice in this land; the law of mercy must
temper our hearts as we care for patients of the same ethnic background as the
terrorists. Holding those two things
together requires a serious inner strength, that only the LORD can provide.

Wednesday, April 08, 2015

Those were our goals going into a ten-day period of back-to-back conferences for our field. First a five-day Leadership training for the team leaders from our four countries, then a five-day all-field retreat for everyone. Logistically, managing 112 people for various time periods coming from various continents (3) and countries was a mammoth task, and over the last year I would not have made it without the unflappable, steady, patient task-completing Heidi Lutjens. In fact we started well over a year ago wrangling a date and location, inviting speakers, planning a theme and a flow. Eventually we narrowed it down to Easter as the time period most people could come, and the Kenyan coast as the most affordable and relaxing destination. Terrorism in Kenya, I said? Sure, but the risk is statistically the same as being killed as a student in a school shooting in America. Now that all is said and done, Heidi and I are both taking a few recovery days and breathing a sigh of relief. But not just relief, true gratitude.

Because the Garissa attack sickened us with sorrow, and heightened tensions where we were as well, though hundreds of kilometers from Garissa. Our hotel was just over the border of the coastal zone considered "safe", in the wrong direction. We were fairly remote, and there was another group like ours also meeting. It is not easy to invite people we love into a time of refreshment, and then sense the weight of risk and danger. Our hotel stepped up security and our guardian angels worked overtime, and in spite of some illnesses and anxieties we emerged mostly intact. Our hearts were with the Garissa students, mourning the cruelty and evil so palpable in that slaughter. When you "retreat" in this part of the world, it is only a temporary gathering of strength to return to the battle which continues to rage. And I don't mean the battle between Kenya and its neighbor. I mean the battle for hearts to forgive, to connect, to choose love over violence.
Space to encounter God was our primary goal. We set aside time for worship, for the preaching of the Word, for silent reflection, for small group discussion, and for prayer. In each of these settings different people engaged with God in their own unique ways, and the Spirit was at work. We watched as some who arrived broken with mourning, weighed down with despair, weeping with discouragement, drank from the well of God's presence and life. Our theme was the rhythm of Holy week: surrender, suffering, loss, resurrection, and journey. As I doodled those words in planning months, getting over the wall of our will, descending into suffering and loss, rising into life and going out into the world, they reminded me of an EKG, so Liana Masso designed a word-logo for our time, to show that this rhythm is our heartbeat of life in a broken world:

We want our teams to fully engage in a theology of the cross. True worship begins in the wilderness, as Michael Card writes, where we surrender our will, and lose our lives, and hold onto the God who is present and loving even when we have no evidence. New life starts in that darkness, the subtle seed that grows. We grasp the truth by faith, we empathize with the suffering of all around us, and we reach resurrection with scars to show that it is by wounding that God heals. Then that resurrection power pushes us into the world, where the impossible becomes true, where power is unleashed to make all things new. We work to bring peace to people who have been looking for it in the wrong places. And as we move into the world, we find that the main person God is pursing is me, transforming us as we live by faith. This rhythm of loss and life becomes our heartbeat, seeing resurrection stories over and over.

And all of this happens not as lone pioneers, but as a community of faith and work. We loved our times of sharing stories and receiving prayer, of gathering around and laying on hands, of lifting each other's hearts and cries to the Lord. We shared meals, we talked in groups, we danced on the beach. Our retreat time was bookended by sacrament. To begin, a Messianic Passover Celebration, an ocean-side sunset retelling of the exodus from Egypt in the context of Jesus' fulfillment. We sat in the sand (at least a bit authentic to the wilderness of the Sinai), leaders washed feet, wine and unleavened bread were distributed. And our last night closed in a time of prayer for new fields, then communion together, a circle of goodbye and benediction.

Many thanks to our supporters, who helped us subsidize some of the extra costs for travel for those who could not afford it, an purchase some supplies as we were the primary planners and hosts. Many thanks to our Serving Center leaders who came to participate. Many thanks to Joanna Stewart and her amazing team of childcare volunteers, including a handful of former missionaries who came to bless us on their own dime. Many thanks to our Kenyan hosts, whose hotel became a place of respite. Many thanks to Heidi whose planning meant that our massive bill was spot-on expectations as we settled accounts yesterday morning. Many thanks to Scott who survived working in the ebola-zone, and quarantine, and landed just in time to walk through ten intense days of ministry with me, patiently praying and listening through meetings too numerous to count. Many thanks to all our Sergers, whose presence and vulnerability and laughter made the entire time a delight. Many thanks to God, who protected us and met us.

And today many thanks to two non-Serge families who invited us to four days at a nearby beach house, where we are able to lay down the responsibility that has been pretty intense over the last few months and just rest.

Planning a regional retreat is a little like having a baby--so much work and pain, you think as you go along, I am not able to do this again. But then the reality of engaging with people we love and blessing them with opportunities to be filled, well, it makes all the struggle fade, and the relief of finishing is tinged with sadness that we will have to wait another three years to do this again (we try to have one regional gathering between our 3-year cycle of all-mission gatherings). Thanks to all who prayed and read this far. Signing off to rest!

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paradox:
1. something that combines contradictory features or qualities.
Life in Africa is full of contradictions - the beauty and pain; the abundance and the poverty; the joy and the sorrow.
Our lives, too...dying that we might live; strong in our weakness; sinners yet saints.
2. a "pair of docs"