So much I wish I could say, so much I wish I could do. The thoughts I really had were so powerful to reality in every way. Remembering the things that were said are some times the things that harm the most to a lot of us. I knew at that point that my silence was because of that very situation that has silenced me and I finally became numb to where I walk away. I walk away to a deeper thought of knowing that what was said and maybe not remembered from the other end, but it was powerful enough to silence me and be pushed away. No efforts came towards me to let me know otherwise, and that is ok. There was never expectations for any efforts to be made, but it was simply just hope to see and feel an effort like that because when A person is numb at that point, sometimes it's ok to hope for that. I am here today and I will be who I am no matter what. Just as everyone will be who they are no matter what. This is the part of my soul to move forward with the passion and energy that truly drives what I am, and who i am. Yes, the reality is known that the heart is real, I forgive, and I will express.