① Thank you to everyone who left positive comments last night ♥ It may not seem like it but even just a few words of positivity really brightens my day.

② snow is my hero right now for always being there for me no matter what ♥

③ This is a bit late, but I won some things unexpectedly in the J&A Fandom Awards 2014: Daybreaker Edition. I know that these things unfortunately leave out a lot of people who deserved to be commended for what they do for fandom, and that's really unfortunate, but completely honestly, I was really happy to be recognized.

I also got second place for Juniors fanfic! And then… the embarrassing one.

This photo is so old, too |D;

④ Throwing myself back into Hey! Say! JUMP headfirst while I wait out the Sexy Zone storm has been going wonderfully ♥ I'd forgotten how much I love those kids. I've been out of JUMP since before Yamada had his personal turnaround, and now I'm really loving seeing him for the sweet guy he always was underneath all the angst and self-doubt. More than anything, though, I'm falling more and more in love with Inoo every day. He was always my favourite BEST member (Chinen has always been my #1 ♥), but recently I've just been so taken that it's almost reaching worrying levels. XD; He's so beautiful and so cute and so nice and so funny, and now that he's out of college and nowhere near as crazy stressed and busy, he has a chance to show it… and I want to watch it forever.

⑤ Speaking of JUMP, the s3art tour goods were so nice! I'm always annoyed that some groups have way better con goods than others (KisuMai, Ebi, Eito, Arashi… y u get the good stuff) but JUMP's this time were wonderful! There was even a tumbler mug with the JUMP characters designed by Hikaru on it! And the s3art design and logo were really cute, making for really cute T-shirts, bags, and penlights. Keep it up, JUMP!

⑥ And JUMP is so easy to watch due to their almost complete lack of discrimination these days. Of course, Yamada, Chinen, Yuto, and Daiki will always be in the front, but it's nowhere near the levels of Ijima's recent groups (with the except of Ebi). I'd been whining about how nice it seems to be a Johnny's West fan due to their distinct member colours, changing choreography showing all members nicely, and general sense of equality and balance, but now that I take a step back, JUMP is that way, now, too. Especially since they've overcome so much together, they just have a wonderful bond, and watching them perform together is a delight.

⑦ I want to make it clear that I'm not changing my mind about anyone or pushing anyone away or setting anyone aside. Things are as they are, but I believe that everything will come around one way or another. Just because I'm remembering how much I love JUMP now doesn't mean I love anyone else any less.

⑧ This image is so beautiful.Reia ;____; And Shintaro looks so good with him, too. Thank you, Wink Up.

⑨ Generally trying to block out everything bad right now and replace it with good. No one can make me happier but me, right?

⑩ Once more, thank you to everyone who's been kind to me or been there for me in the past few months, weeks, and days. It really means a lot to me to have people reach out, or even say "thank you" when I post news or "I agree with you" when I'm feeling alone. Whether we're close friends or have never spoken before, thank you so much for being great people. ♥

Yay HSJ! I can watch them for hours. Those guys just have so much chemistry together. They're all super funny. And the concert goods were amazing. They designed the logo on their own as well and Yamada named the S3ART album. I feel so proud.

AND THAT PIC OF SHINTARO AND REIA!!!!! IT FEELS LIKE IT'S BEEN AGES SINCE THEY WERE TOGETHER!!!! GOSH SHIN LOOKS SO MUCH OLDER THAN REIA. XD

I know ;____; They went through a lot to get here, but their group dynamic is so strong and they're all so talented. ;____; I'm so proud of them, too.

I know! I was so thrilled to see them together again! Japanese fans on twitter were saying this image looked like a wedding invitation or announcement lol and I'm inclined to agree. If it weren't for extenuating circumstances I'd say they'd make a good couple. XDD

alhdskdhsfghsdfd!!!!!!!!!!!! They need to be together more often. I know they're really close friends and it's super sad that we don't get the chance to see them together a lot. I almost want to go back and watch all the chibi Snow Prince stuff, because they were sooooo adorbs.

There were cameras, and Yamada referenced cutting something from the DVD, so I think there's hope!

I know!! It really is sad that they're not at all in any of the same groups anymore. I want to watch it too! They were so cute and small back then. I'm really glad that they've stayed friends this whole time ♥

Congrats on your awards! I find the "#1 Fan" awards both hilarious & embarrassing. Every time I look at mine I want to burst out laughing. Oops. At least they put a recent pic on it, lmao. Well... despite the fact that it's an old pic, it's cute? |D

I've been out of JUMP since before Yamada had his personal turnaround, and now I'm really loving seeing him for the sweet guy he always was underneath all the angst and self-doubt.I'm so happy ;_____; *waves tiny Yamada flag*

I really need to pay more attention to HSJ. I've seen very interesting videos from the con & I just can't wait for the DVD, omg.

You do, though ;___; Just being there for me and talking to me every day helps so much. ♥

Hahaha yeah, I feel pretty much the same way |D;;; I'm jealous of your recent pic, though |D;;; But yes, it is cute. Reia has always been cute ♥

It feels so odd and foreign for me to like Yamada lolol. I hated him so violently for so long. But he really has become such a good guy that I can't help but admit how much I like him now.

I've found that you need to follow your heart when it comes to idols, so don't feel pressured, but… if you want to talk about them I'll be happy ♥ The concert was amazing and I can't wait for the DVD! I have post-con depression lol I want to go back and watch it again.

Jump was so awesome~~~ And the goods were super cute XD I hope we get more of the characters in the future! Like on the back of clearfiles or something, each member with their own... I'm so glad they're all in a better place now <3

Omg Reia and Shintarou XD so adorable. So couple-y man if it wasn't for my already shipping them with other people.... |DDD

Congratulations! :DIt makes me so happy to hear Inoo's receiving more love. He's so random, it's the best thing ever.And that Reia and Shintaro photo, it's so cute! I have been so out it, I never noticed that Shintaro got his ear pierced?! When did this happen?!