every word........

..., every word you say to me leaves me with anxiety. im left wondering when it'll stop, but deep down i know ill have to live with this forever. i blaimed myself for the things you said, but i never did a thing to you. does putting me down make you feel good inside or make you feel like a women? i hope it does because your just making yourself a messed up mom. when i have kids of my own i wont hurt them they way you hurt me, i wont make them feel the way you make me feel everyday. i thought you were sober when you told me "sorry, i love you...", i could tell it in your voice, but apperantly you tricked me. i know i have to be careful now....

Hugs You take care of you okay don't let those words stay let them go right threw you I hope you can get out of that toxic environment soon and find a place of your own safe hugs If it gets bad call crisis line okay and talk someone the will give your resouces you can call to help you