Things you never imagined

I've just put my son down for a nap and we have spent the last few minutes playing peekaboo through his cot, it got me all emotional and a wave of undivided love just hit me! Anyone that 'knows' me will know I've struggled with PND for a while so this feels huge to me.
It got me thinking what did others not realise would happen in either pregnancy or once there child was here? Good or bad?
I never realised that peekaboo would make me so emotional!

W learnt how to make the noise of an Elephant the other day. He also puts his hand up to his nose to make a trunk too which i found so cute! That and when i asked him where his shoes were one day, he went and got them. It's really just little things that he's learning that make me burst with pride every time he does them...I never expected that him learning what i meant would hit me the way that it does!

That I'd be one of those people who bore people with 'omg guess what my child said' pre children I used to just smile and say 'aw' when people would come into work

And say that x was walking/rolling etc I didn't realise it was a huge deal. Isaacs new thing is when you say 'are you alright?' He will say 'no! I'm not alright, I'm ok. OK!!' Then wag his finger, well I found this hilarious and told people at work, I think one woman genuinely found it funny, but no everyone else just kind of smiled politely and I kind if thought o god I'm boring them

O and another thing, I'm struggling with pgp in this pregnancy, I sit at a desk all day at work, previous 2 pregnancies, very manual job and I feel worse this time, never imagined sitting at a desk would be worse that 14 hours on my feet!!

It's amazing to see how much they learn (and I never thought i would notice on a day to day basis), TRF I'm turning into that person that I ignored or smiled and nodded at too! Margot I check him all the time, and if my H comes to bed after me I pretend I haven't checked to make him go and look again too lol

For me at the moment its definitely all the new things L is learning. He's picking up new words daily and every time he says a new one he claps and looks so proud of himself, its adorable! This morning he picked up H's t shirt which for some reason had been left on the floor in the lounge, said 'Daddy - euurggh' and went and put it in the laundry basket! I was so impressed! And when I get home from work and he shouts 'nunny' (mummy) and gives me a big hug my heart just melts!

For me, I'm amazed by how happy S makes other people, not just me and my H. We've had some illnesses in our family recently and S is just such a little tonic. It makes me so proud that he can have such an amazing effect in people. And it's not just people he knows either, he will stare and smile at anyone wherever we go until they smile back at him, it's like a challenge to him to get them to interact with him. I love how outgoing he is but it takes bloody ages to get anywhere!

As a first time mum and someone who doesn't have many babies close by in our immediate family it's all the firsts and just the amazement of how they go from not being able to do something one day to just being able to do it the next!

Like the first time he rolled I thought I might explode I was so so pleased! Or he went from only being able to sit up for a few seconds to just one day being able to sit on his own. I know this sounds stupid but I just find it so incredible!xx

Oh and he clapped his hands y'day (he loves anyone clapping!) although one hand was open and the other was a fist so not really a proper clap but I've never seen him look so pleased with himself and I actually nearly cried! (I was also borderline emotionless before O arrived, he's turned me into such a softie!)

I thought I'd love the tiny baby days, before they move around themselves and point to things/say things etc, and I thought I'd hate the toddler stage. Actually for me it's been the complete opposite, I think overall (sadly) I didn't really enjoy most of my year-long maternity leave as A was so high-needs and I felt trapped with this baby who seemed to hate me. Since he's become a toddler, learned to get himself places (crawling then walking) and can make himself understood (pointing at stuff he wants, saying words) it's been a million times better. I feel like we get on well now.