I doodle in the margins

Sleepless

Last night my brain stayed up well past the time my body wanted to be sleeping.

Worrying about Grandma and whether or not this wedding will end up happening sooner than planned. Thinking about how long it’s been since my grandparents have been active and lively. Grandma used to play basketball with my sister and I late in the day and Grandpa used to fix old lawnmowers for fun. It’s one of the biggest fears I have that they won’t be able to attend my wedding. I fear the day they will be gone at all.
I feel selfish for not wanting them to fade away before we get married.