I am 5'7" or taller I wear glassesI have at least one tattoo I have at least one piercing I have blonde hairI have brown eyesI have short hair My abs are at least somewhat definedI have or have had braces (4 years of them when I was a kiddo….fun times ! lol)

PERSONALITY:I love meeting new peoplePeople tell me that I’m funnyHelping others with their problems is a big priority for meI enjoy physical challenges I enjoy mental challengesI’m playfully rude with people I know wellI started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying itThere is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY: I can sing wellI can play an instrumentI can do over 30 pushups without stoppingI’m a fast runnerI can draw wellI have a good memory ( mostly a visual one)I’m good at doing math in my headI can hold my breath underwater for over a minuteI have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling (sisters, cousins, family members ^^)I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES:I enjoy playing sports I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere elseI’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere elseI have learned a new song in the past week I work out at least once a week I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer monthsI have drawn something in the past month (doing it as we speak ! =p)I enjoy writing Fandoms are my #1 passionI do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES:I have had my first kissI have had alcohol I have scored the winning goal in a sports gameI have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sittingI have been at an overnight eventI have been in a taxiI have been in the hospital or ER in the past yearI have beaten a video game in one dayI have visited another countryI have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIPS:I’m in a relationship I have a crush on a celebrityI have a crush on someone I knowI have been in at least 3 relationshipsI have never been in a relationshipI have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to themI get crushes easilyI have had a crush on someone for over a year I have been in a relationship for at least a yearI have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE:I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” (More than one ;))I live close to my school My parents are still togetherI have at least one sibling ( a lot of them =p)I live in the United States There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend in the past monthI have a smartphoneI have at least 15 CDsI share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT:I have breakdancedI know a person named Jamie I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounceI have dyed my hairI’m listening to one song on repeat right now I have punched someone in the past weekI know someone who has gone to jail I have broken a boneI have eaten a waffle todayI know what I want to do with my life I speak at least 2 languagesI have made a new friend in the past year

I’ve noticed a lot of people seem to make the mistake as taking only the first dominant sign or planet, but your dominance works more as a rank than it does as one true thing.

Everyone has every sign/planet/element/modality within them. Each sign will have some amount of prevalence in your chart. For this reason, it’s key to look at it as encompassing yourself, rather than defining it as one.

For example, my dominant sign is Aquarius, but this would not be enough to understand or study me. I would also take my next 4: Virgo, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Taurus. Then, I could start to study these signs and their archetypes, and see how they can relate to me as a whole.

That’s the key to dominants: it is you as a whole. They work as a flash point, a conclusion, to your chart. Each sign or planet has a certain set of values and characteristics, which when you combine with the other most prominent dominants you have, can act as almost a small biography of who you are.

When thinking of your dominants, it’s key to not take too much or too little. If you have 5 signs all with high percentages, you can use all 5 if you wish, but if you only have 2, then you can just use 2!

To conclude, here’s a list of characteristics which can be used to describe each dominant. If you’re unsure on how many to take away from this, the default amount is usually considered 3 (3 signs, and 3 planets).

Signs:

Aries - Passionate, Impulsive, Chaotic

Taurus - Stubborn, Routinely, Loving

Gemini - Social, Dynamic, Laid Back

Cancer - Family oriented, Empathetic, Emotionally tied

Leo - Artistic, Extroverted, Dramatic

Virgo - Analytical, Precise, Helpful

Libra - Loving, Indecisive, Peaceful

Scorpio - Investigative, Deep, Intense

Sagittarius - Intellectual, Travel-oriented, Unsettled

Capricorn - Ambitious, Hard-working, Objective

Aquarius - Eccentric, Individual, Humanitarian

Pisces - Intuitive, Sympathetic, Romantic

Planets:

Sun - Confident, Extroverted, Sure

Moon - Emotional, Empathetic, Understanding

Mercury - Linguistically wise, Communicative, Social

Venus - Aesthetically Inclined, Loving, Musical

Mars - Rambunctious, Head strong, Prominent

Jupiter - Expansive, Experience-oriented, Unregulated

Saturn - Orderly, Specific, System-inclined

Uranus - Outspoken, Political, Blunt

Neptune - Delusional, Dreamy, Wise

Pluto - Ever-changing, Destructive, Revival

Example: Scorpio, Leo, Sagittarius & Mars, Sun, Pluto

“I am investigative and intellectual, I am intense and unsettled. Parts of me are artistic and dramatic. I can be travel-oriented, as well as deep. Amongst these things, I am rambunctious and ever-changing, maybe even head strong and destructive. It is likely you shall see me as confident or sure, even prominent or extroverted. But, I have another side of me which aims for revival.”

To everyone supporting the pairing Dianakko, Diakko, Akkordian or just simply Akko x Diana, I have a message to you all.

I can’t see their bond being something other than love.

I can recall Dianakko fans both during the show airing and now after the finale say that the pairing is canon but in a ‘joking’ tone, as if they don’t truly think that. That Akko x Diana is just a headcanon.

That’s not how I feel. I’ve said it before:

So I must say, as a lesbian, the level of affection displayed by Diana and Akko is to me beyond than ‘just being friends’.

If anyone would carelessly throw themselves into danger to save me like Diana and Akko do for eachother;

if anyone would scream with a desperate worry for me like Diana and Akko do for eachother;

if anyone would keep looking at me with a look full of care and concern like how Akko and Diana look at eachother;

if
anyone would tell me to keep trying and chase my dreams, while grabbing
my hands and being moved to tears, like how Akko did to Diana;

if
anyone would tell me “You continue to astonish me in unexpected ways”
while them thinking about every time I’ve amazed and impressed them like
Diana did to Akko;

if anyone invited me on a broom like this

or if anyone looked at me like this before replying to my invititation;

if anyone would do such things like these, I would consider them loving me.

Of course, that’s was even before moments like these:

There’s a distinction I want to make. To me, a headcanon is a belief that you extrapolate from something within fiction. That you add something more and not taking it at face value. Like Croix only eating cup ramen is a headcanon. This is a belief extrapolated from the depiction of Croix eating cup noodles.

Headcanon pairings are then a belief that there is love between two characters extrapolated from their interactions. My personal examples would be Mabifica from Gravity Falls or Amedot when I watched Steven Universe. I wanted to see something more in between the lines of these characters’ interactions.

That’s not how I see Akko and Diana. When I see all their interactions in the show taken at face value, I still consider it love. Like all those interactions in my quote above, I define those actions as someone loving another.
I’m not extrapolating and adding something to make it true in my head.
The displays of affection shown between Diana and Akko
are within my definition of love.

And I want to make it abundantly clear that Dianakko is not a depiction of romantic love. They are not crushing on eachother. They don’t desire to kiss the other or otherwise be closely, physically intimate.
Their intimacy stretches to handholding to lovingly reassure or support the other.
If they have a crush on eachother, then it is just starting to develope (now that is a headcanon).

But neither is it a depiction of platonic love. I would rather say it is budding love. An example of that is Korrasami in The Legend of Korra. Korra and Asami slowly grew closer to each other during the series. They came to care deeply for the other person, while not really knowing ‘why’ other than that they ‘liked’ the other person. They eventually became the most important person to the other. Akko and Diana also had this kind of growth between them (though their depiction was more intense because Trigger takes things to 11).

I think some have a hard time to see these interactions Akko and Diana as love, just because this budding love is far more uncommon (especially between two girls) than romantic love. Two people having intense crushes with romance early on and then with time mellowing out a bit and then come to deeply care and have full trust for the other, is possibly the most common depiction of love. This budding love I’ve been speaking about has a different curve to it. It slowly builds up the care and trust first, and then eventually may bloom into more romantic feelings.

This leads to the main difference between Korrasami and Dianakko in the depiction of budding love. The Legend of Korra ended with Korra and Asami aware of their feelings for the other and deciding to see if it would bloom into something further. However, in LWA, Trigger decided to leave it more up in the air if Diana and Akko would eventually do the same.

Speaking of Trigger:

“the lwa creators don’t approve of diakko” moodboard

and the latest addition.

What does Trigger actually think of Akko x Diana? I have no clue.

They have constantly teased it outside of the series, and they have surely amped up Akko and Diana’s interactions in it. It is impossible to not tell how important Diana have become to Akko, and vice versa, during the story. Trigger could have toned down Diana’s role after her arc was over, but they decided not to. Diana didn’t need to hold the Shiny rod with Akko in episode 24. She didn’t have to be the only one together with Akko in space. She didn’t need to shoot Shiny Arc together with Akko. Diana didn’t need to be written in this way for Akko to complete her story arc. Yet Trigger did include Diana in the climax of the series. They have kept showing how important it is for Akko and Diana being together and acting as one.

However, if Akko and Diana’s interactions were only intended to be Dianakko fan baiting for “fanservice”, then I’ll just say, whoops you went too far. It got too genuine.

To finish off:

I’m fine with Trigger not showing any romance between Akko and Diana. Little Witch Academia isn’t about romance at its core. Their first kiss, having kids together, potential marriage etc. Those are things that can be headcanons. Even Akko and Diana becoming romantic can be headcanon. What I’m trying to argue is that they have a budding love for each other, that might become romantic, and that love is what could be considered canon.

I’m not fine with my view of Dianakko as two budding, potential lovers being called headcanon and thus invalidate what I consider to be love, when there’s nothing contradicting this view in the show itself. I’m not wrong to hold that stance. If my view is only based on what is depicted in the show, I won’t call it a headcanon.

So will I adamantly claim that Dianakko is definitive canon? No. Unless it would be confirmed.

However, I’ll refuse to call it a headcanon until Trigger does something that solidly confirms that it is.

To me, Akko x Diana is more than headcanon. And I don’t think it is wrong if any of you think so as well.

Google me, I’m not hiding. If you feel like you really want to define yourself, and you have the ability to articulate those parameters and that in itself defines you, then do it. But I am an actress, man. I live in the f*cking ambiguity of this life and I love it. I don’t feel like it would be true for me to be like, ‘I’m coming out!’ No, I do a job. Until I decide that I’m starting a foundation or that I have some perspective or opinion that other people should be receiving…I don’t. I’m just a kid making movies.

“Another Story” is not a romantic drama.

It is a story about self discovery, and the long road to recovering one’s own identity after years of abuse and self neglect. V’s story is one we can all learn from.

I’ve heard that there’s been a lot of V hatred, and uh… That’s not okay.

Listen, I’ll be the first to admit that at the beginning of MysMe, I really disliked V. Not hate him, per se, but… Disliked him. And after the secret stories? I only pitied him. He was characterized originally as the “brooding artist” (and thanks, but I’ve had enough of that mess) who romanticized mental illness, mental pain, until it came back to bite him in the ass.

We can’t, no, we shouldn’t deny that in some way V is to blame for Rika’s breakdown, though I don’t doubt she would have lost it eventually, due to her own delusions and machinations. Where V faltered, is in his lack of understanding. He didn’t understand himself, he didn’t understand other people, but most importantly? He didn’t understand that true love is something one must feel for one’s own self before feeling it for another person. He appeased the shit out of Rika, and he obsessed- YES RIKA, OBSESSED- over her until she snapped, and in turn, she obsessed and wounded him until he couldn’t see himself as anything other than “Rika’s Sun.” Until he lost himself. Until he defined himself by the actions and suffering she inflicted upon him, by only his past pain and failed attempt at renewal.

In a metaphorical sense? The neglect and carelessness he inflicted upon Rika was really in the end the abuse he inflicted upon himself. That’s not to say “he deserved it.” Far from that. He never deserved it, no one deserves that. No one deserves to be dammed with the incapability of loving themselves. Least of all those who were not taught selflove from the beginning.

V learns that you cannot define yourself by the love you give others, nor by the love you wish to receive from others. You must define yourself by the love you feel for your own, personal self.

After struggling through “Another Story,” fighting for this wonderful man’s freedom, from his abuser, from his own self hatred from his own self-abuse…?

I’m now an incoming freshman heading off to college this fall. I’m very happy to say that I survived the college application and acceptance process. Here are some tips/advice I have for high school seniors applying to college in the U.S. Best of luck to anyone applying this fall! Feel free to drop an ask if you need advice.

Some schools use Common App, others don’t. Visit the college’s official website. If you search them on the Common App and they’re not there, chances are you’ll have to go to another website to apply.

Avoid asking friends to look over your essay. You might feel tempted to ask them for advice. You’re better off asking a teacher for critiques. They’re professionals, and they can help you get your essay in the right direction. I suggest asking English teachers because they’re great when it comes to grammatical errors and the like.

For the Common App essay, keep brainstorming. Keep writing. Keep editing. I cannot stress this enough. If you feel that your essay isn’t working, toss it out. Don’t waste your time writing something that doesn’t reflect who you are.

Avoid reading other people’s essays. There’s a reason why their prose and topic works for them. Your essay is meant to reflect who you are as an individual. Reading their essays will not help you in writing yours. There’s no formula. Contrary to popular belief, you don’t have to write about an accomplishment or the time you won something. Don’t write it for them, write it for you.

START EARLY ON ESSAYS. This is not an essay you can write the night before. A majority of colleges view your essay as one of the main factors in your acceptance. This is not something to blow off or take lightly. You need to spend at least a few weeks or more to craft your essay.

Schools will require ADDITIONAL ESSAYS. Check the Common App or an alternative website for these additional essays. They’re often called “supplemental essays.” Make sure you get these extra essays looked over as well!

Recommendations. Some colleges require none. Others ask for as many as 3. Most applications ask for a rec from a counselor and teacher. The Common App gives you the option of getting a rec from a non-academic teacher like a coach.

Some teachers get swamped with several requests for a recommendation. Start asking within the first few weeks of school.

The teachers you’re getting recs from should know you very well, they should be familiar with your success as a student and as an overall person.

If you’re planning on asking, the best way to go is by seeing the teacher in person. It’s more genuine and direct. Send an email as last resort.

Own a planner or notebook to keep track of deadlines and tasks. I suggest getting a mini notebook just for college applications. In the notebook, I would write down: deadlines, essays that need to be edited/looked over, colleges you’re applying to, transcripts that need to be sent, etc. Check off tasks when you get them done. Use the calendar for deadlines.

Work on applications during the weekday. It sounds hectic, believe me, but you’ll save yourself the stress. Work on application related tasks every night, whether it’s editing a paragraph of your essay or sending in those AP scores. That way, you can be efficient during the weekday and weekend.

DEADLINES ARE DIFFERENT FOR EARLY ACTION, EARLY DECISION, and REGULAR DECISION APPLICANTS. KEEP TRACK OF THESE DEADLINES.

Early decision: If you apply early and you get in, you’re automatically binded to that school. You must attend and decline all your other applications to other schools.

Early action: If you apply early and you get in, you don’t have to worry about applying later on. You are not binded to that school.

Regular decision: You apply at the normal deadline. They notify you later than the early applicants. You are not binded to any schools.

Do your research about your colleges, their test score policies, which AP test scores they accept, etc. Your best bet is visiting the college’s official website and/or checking the requirements on Common App. Write these down because colleges ask for different requirements.

Don’t be afraid to ask for help from a teacher, counselor, Google, a college representative, family, and your friends. They are your greatest assets. I pretty much got the best help from asking my friends because they had older siblings who went through the college app process.

Avoid College Confidential. Enough said.

Don’t hold back, and don’t give up. I never would have imagined getting into my dream school but I did. You’d be surprised at what you’re capable of as long as you stay true to yourself and work hard.

Senior year will take a lot of your time away from friends and family. Make sure to keep in touch with them frequently! Take breaks. Please do not prioritize school before your mental health. Your health is more important.

Your test scores are just a number. It does not define your actual intelligence nor does it define your value as a human being. Your scores may not be within the range of the school but it doesn’t mean you won’t get in because of it. That being said, you should still try and study for them. You have the option of taking the ACT/SAT again in senior year.

Your activities and extracurriculars are really important. Colleges want to see what you’re passionate about when you’re not a student in the classroom. They will ask you to list what clubs or activities you’ve been involved in since entering high school. Leadership positions and volunteer hours are wonderful additions.

It can get stressful and frustrating, so make sure you space out all the tasks you have to get done. Remember to take breaks, have fun, and relax once in a while. A clear, relaxed mind works better than a mind under severe stress and lack of sleep.

Senioritis is real. You sometimes have to step back and punch senioritis in the face. Even the best students fall prey to this contagious disease. Colleges DO look at your second semester grades, don’t let them slip. Start strong, finish strong.

Senior year is said to be one of the best years of your life. Sure it’s gonna get tough in the beginning but once you’re done, you’re ready to go off to college before you know it.

Who is Balaga? I mean, I know he’s the F A M O U S T R O I K A D R I V E R but who is he? He clearly knows Anatole and Dolokhov from past experiences, but what’s his history with them? Has Anatole eloped with more than one rich girl? Where are the “places not on any maps” and why the hell would Anatole and Dolokhov want to go to them? What were they up to - and more importantly, how much of it does Balaga know? He says he “knows things that would get you sent straight to Siberia if anyone found out”, but Anatole cheating on the wife barely anyone knows about doesn’t seem serious enough to qualify that, so what has he and/or Dolokhov done that Balaga knows about? Is that why he never has to “ask for roubles”? Because he has dirt on them so they pay him off? When he refers to his “fine gentlemen”, does he mean various customers or, as is seeming increasingly likely, does he mean just Anatole and Dolokhov? Could that mean that when he says guys have “beaten me and slapped me with their gloves”, that could have something to do with the fucked up arrangement he has with them? Did he witness something he wasn’t meant to? Alternatively, could the two owe him something, like something suspicious? Dolokhov is a “crazy good shot” according to the prologue, but he misses when he shoots at Pierre in the Duel, even though he managed to assassinate the Shah’s brother… could it be possible that Balaga had something to do with that?? He claims some say his troika “rides into the air”, which doesn’t seem realistically possible - is Balaga some kind of demon, who made a dark deal with Dolokhov and Anatole and therefore doesn’t “do this for roubles” and “does it because I like it” because he’s a true chaotic evil? He’s definitely contributing to chaos by helping them abduct Natasha. Additionally, Anatole’s defining feature - that he’s H O T - is a little nondescript… is it an enchantment that Balaga gave him? So that all women around him would fall in love with him? Did they send witches to Siberia in 1812?? AM I READING FAR TOO FAR INTO THIS? I KNOW I AM BUT GET THIS: I DON’T THINK BALAGA’S A HUMAN AND I HAVE FURTHER EVIDENCE TO SUPPORT TH

1) I know you’ve had a hard time as a child and a teenager. I know that the memories weigh you down and the kids at school beat you with their words. But listen to me, that does not define who you no matter how much you think it does. It says more about them than it does about you. The memories will still haunt you but remember, you are none of the things that they labeled you, nor does what you saw as a child define you.

2) I know you feel everything. There are days when you’re so weighed down with sadness and grief that it suffocates you. That no one really understands and try to explain it away but you’re not crazy or dramatic. Just know that there is light at the end of that tunnel and that it will get better once you take that first step into helping yourself.

3) You will lose friends that you thought you would have forever and it will hurt. You will question yourself asking what you did wrong and the answer is nothing. They showed their true colors that you will see more and more as time passes on. Their selfishness that you tried to explain away. I know it hurts but you are better off without the negativity.

4) I know now that you constantly see all of your “flaws” that you feel you have to put on makeup everyday to cover those acne scars and make yourself feel and look pretty so people won’t judge you. That you won’t wear shorts because you’re afraid that a hint of cellulite will be visible. All of those things are trivial because everyone has “flaws” and it doesn’t make you any less beautiful. One day you won’t even care that you have no makeup on or that your “flaws” are visible. You will be content with who you are. And there will be a special guy who comes along and shows you that you are beautiful no matter what.

5) You can’t make someone love you no matter how hard you try. I know the pain will be unbearable and you will try everything to get him back. You’ll spend hours on your phone looking up ways to make him come back because you can’t stand being apart. But the truth is you can’t force someone to stay with you, you can’t control them no matter how crippling the pain is. You must give him a chance to breath and you must let him leave, no matter how much you don’t want to.

6) Love is not a fairytale. I know it takes you by surprise when things turn out differently than you thought. It’s okay to have arguments and disagreements, that’s life. Nothing is perfect. So try not to be too hard on him because you built a fantasy in your mind.

7) Don’t compare yourself to others. I know you feel behind when you see everyone getting married and having kids and their life figured out. The truth is there is no rush, take your time and enjoy where you’re at. Everything will come when it supposed to. When you finally see that you’ll realize that where you’re at isn’t so bad.

8) I know you’ve felt different. You’re quiet and a deep thinker. You’ve always felt so much older than everyone. Things affect you, especially from your past and that’s okay. It’s not bad to feel everything so deeply, it’s not a curse as you once thought. It’s better to be kind than to not care at all. You are rare and that’s not a bad thing. You are a kind caring person and don’t let anyone or anything make you feel any different. You’ve had a bumpy road but don’t let that derail you because you are a fighter, you are strong.

Germany: Italy, I know this may be a weird question to ask on our third date… but… I remember you told me about the first person you fell in love with.

Italy: hm~? What about it~?

Germany: well… I’m sort of self conscious about it. I’m not quite sure if I can be like that person. Brave and gentlemen enough to pick flowers for you and kiss you. I don’t know if it will be the same feel-

Italy: Germany, who are you?

Germany: e-eh? What do you mean?

Italy: if I were to define Germany, it would be the person that I love~ Strong and cute~ Lovable and caring~ It doesn’t matter what my past love life is, all it matters that you, Germany, made me feel love again~ And my love for you is as true as we wish it to be~

How many hours per day/whatever amount of days do you spend animating? Does it feel like a job, or a habit? And, lastly, do you feel like it's a "You have to do this or everyone will hate on your channel" or a "I'm doing this because I love my idea". Also, I can tell that the quick fun "Underverse" 10 second animation inspired you to start the entire series! That's cool!

This started just as a hobby. Drawing comics and making animations was always a hobby since I was in school until my last office job. When I decided to transform my hobby into my current job, I was so scared and unsure about my future because I always saw old artists latino friends giving up… just small groups were supporting them. Sometimes no one didn’t care they effort.
I was worried because this is a huuuuuuuge fandom with many different points of view. And the big problem would be the AU and Sanses’ haters. I was never into another fandom before, but I think a big part of this place is VERY supportive and appreciate a lot the effort of an artist. I remember when I saw my first 20 dollars on Patreon… I was so glad and excited like woooah I’m rich!!!! As well as when I saw people rebblogging and commenting the videos on my channel and young kiddos wanting to be like me. The views and subscribers are not important for me, but seeing all these people watching my stuff, it’s a signal that I can stay here working in animations and comics for a long time. Thanks to that I’m getting confidence with my original projects. I can call this a job, because it requires effort and perseverance, requires being mature and serious in the right moment. Requires to keep going if you want to reach a goal. This is not a hobby anymore.

I never say in my videos “subscribe and share” NEVER. My work is the only one that make people decide to watch my content or no. Even if I’m currently working in a fan-animated series for fans like me, my channel and other social media are still mine and I can post anything what I consider enough good and worthly to show my followers. Someday Underverse will be over, and I know many people will leave. They’re free to do that, and I’m free to make a screamer video about crash bandicoot or streaming while I’m animating a pokemon commission for example.
Since Underverse is my first big project and I have learned a lot thanks to it, I just I can’t cancel it forever and start working in another stuff. I know that would hurt a lot my true followers and even myself. Because that means I failed, and I hate to leave a project halfway, incomplete. If I did once, It would happen with my future projects. My effort and my followers are worth it, but I’m the only one to define my content and what I’m able to do here to entertain people. Not a little brat that thinks is my boss and threatens me to unsusbscribe from my channel and dislike my videos.

6. “I despise you too, so don’t think that I’m fine with you texting me.”

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Posted: 13th of May 2017

A/N: This is my first Monty imagine and I kind of liked how this turned out. The only thing that took me s long to post this was that I can’t find the appropriated Monty gif for this. We haven’t got enough Monty gifs and I hope that someone do some of it for him. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this and send some feedbacks in my ask box, if you want. Thank you so much.

“Fuck that shit, (Y/N) is your text buddy?” You heard Bryce exclaiming as he looked at one of his considered friends, Montgomery. You were waiting for your best friend, Alex, to arrive from his Science class, while you were standing in front of his locker, and you didn’t mean to secretly listen to their conversation.

“Damn it! These boys are gossip whisperers too.” You silently thought as you pulled up your judging face. You carefully followed their movements with your eyes and you just kept on listening to them.

“I texted her for some shitty school stuffs.” Montgomery answered nonchalantly, as if it was just a normal thing for him, a thing that he never really cared of. You rolled your eyes as you were annoyed of how Montgomery acted dissimilarly in front of his friends.

“What the fuck, Bryce?!” You annoyingly complained as you felt that Bryce wrapped his arm around your shoulders. You didn’t notice that they stopped in front of you as you were so concentrated on Montgomery’s actions. “Fuck off, Walker.” You’ve never been friends with Bryce, he was one of those people who got above himself and you’ve hated him since always.

“What?” Bryce innocently smiled at you as he squeezed one of your shoulder with his large and nasty hand. You flinched at the tightness of his grip and he gave you a meaningful smirk, which seriously made you feel anxious and tensed.

“Bryce, you’re hurting her!” Montgomery forcefully pushed his friend away, so Bryce would loosen his grip and would let you go. You were shocked that Monty defended you, also because you’ve never thought that he would never do such things.

“What the fuck, Montgomery?!” Bryce corrugated his forehead as he complained of his friend’s actions. Bryce couldn’t believe that his friend stopped him from being an asshole for the first time, while you unleashed a sigh of relief for what has Montgomery did for you. You were afraid, though, that Bryce would start a fight between them, although they are close friends, almost best friends.

“You were hurting her, Bryce!” Montgomery exclaimed once again as he pulled you behind him, distancing you from Bryce. He was taller than you and you peeked to see Bryce’s face, leaning your face on Montgomery’s back.

“Fucking asshole, don’t tell me that you like her!” Bryce couldn’t believe on what he was seeing and he just needed to fuck with everyone up. You felt a tight knot in your stomach as you thought that Bryce was just making fun of you.

“Of course not,” Montgomery guiltily answered as he defended himself, barricading the feelings that he felt for you, so he would keep them hidden just for himself. “I-I a-actually ha-hate her!” He stuttered as he lied through his teeth.

Montgomery might appear as an asshole and a tough guy but when you started to exchange messages with him, you learn that he was a great guy with a big, clean and pure heart.

“You hate her but she is your text buddy?” Bryce raised an eyebrow as he voluntarily mocked Montgomery. Bryce knew his friend very well and he’s always noticed that Montgomery would do anything for the girl if he ever liked her.

“Only because I am bored or something.” Montgomery rolled his eyes as he gave a playful, but hard punch on Bryce’s arm.

You were hurt for what he has said, thinking that he was saying something that he really thought of. You’ve always admired Montgomery and, in fact, you jumped for joy when he sent you a message for the first time. You never thought that talking to him would be interesting and it was one of the things that you looked up to every day, nevertheless Alex’s sermons day after day.

“Thanks! It absolutely makes me feel better, de la Cruz!” You fussed over it as if it was a big deal. Well, it was a big deal as you slowly heard your heart shattering into little pieces. His word hurt and he sucked.

“Well, I really despise you.” Montgomery fiercely said as he walked beside Bryce and looked at you. It seemed like the barrier that protected you from Bryce was taken away from you.

“The feeling is mutual, Montgomery!” You bravely pointed it out, masking the feelings that you felt for him, just like what he was doing. You decided to take your sass out as you saw Montgomery smirking, knowing that you were just pretending. “I despiseyou too, so don’t think that I am fine with you texting me. ” You smirked back and his face darkened.

“Oh, shit!” Bryce exclaimed with a loud laugh and some noisy cheering hollers for you. “Is that the stench of being shut down, Monty?”

“Who cares? She’s weird and miffing anyways.” Montgomery rolled his eyes and you just raised your shoulders to shrug everything off. The battle between you has just begun, but you didn’t mind it as you both knew that you were just faking it.

“Monty, bro, she’s hot and sexy!” Bryce wrapped his arm around Montgomery’s shoulders and he started on spitting some trashes from his mouth once again. He started to praise your body and it made you feel uncomfortable. “Are you letting that chance to slip off your hands? If I were you, I wouldn’t.” He winked at you and you looked at him in a disgusted way.

“Just fuck off, Bryce!” Montgomery shook his head as he took Bryce’s arm off his shoulders. His face softened and he stopped being the fake asshole that he was. “She’s beautiful and fantastically great, but she deserves someone better than you! Remember that.”

“Dude, are you defending her?” Bryce looked at him with his judging look and Montgomery just playfully elbowed his friend.

“Why not? She’s a frenemy!” Montgomery kept on defending you and gave you a warm smile. You understood his rules now: he could tease you or he could make fun of you, but he would never let others to do the same. Never in a million years.

“What the fuck?” Bryce exclaimed with his corrugated forehead and a confused expression on his face.

“Bryce, just proceed to the gym. Go on!” Montgomery shooed his friend as he was sick of the conversation that you were having.

“Alright, Mr. lover boy!” Bryce teased once again as he gave a brotherly hug to his friend. “Bye, Hottie!” He winked and you rolled your eyes once again.

“Fuck you, Walker!” You and Montgomery swore in unison and Bryce just laughed at you, shaking his head. He smirked at you and made his way to the school’s gym.

You honestly hated Bryce’s presence and, unluckily, he was one of those guys that you would always see every day at school. He was famous for being the best varsity player of your school and he was just so confident of himself for that. He really sucked.

“I better get going too,” Montgomery started as he broke your thoughts. “you know how that Physics teacher hates me!”

“I know,” You let out some soft giggles. “you don’t want to be late.” You winked and he flashed you his sweet and true smile.

“Talk to you later!” He exclaimed as if it was an important thing to do. Texting you could be defined as one of his favourite things to do and you actually felt great with that.

“Sure.” You smiled back and you waved at him as he started to walk in backwards. He waved back at you before turning around to walk normally.

You were left in the hallway with a wide smile as you held your phone tightly in one hand. You admired him as he walked away and you started to think of the things that he has said before.

You remembered that he called you beautiful and fantastically great and you quickly felt the heat on your cheeks. Montgomery was really one of a kind and you felt happy that he defended you from his friend.

“Monty!” You suddenly shouted as his silhouette vanished in the crowd.

“Yeah?” He shouted in response. You couldn’t see him anymore, but you luckily heard his voice.

“Thank you!” You shouted back, but you felt disappointed as you didn’t hear him answer.

You just shrugged it off and you started to fidget with your phone. You observed different facets of the people passing by, still with Montgomery in your mind.

“It was nothing, I will always protect you.” You silently read the message as your phone beeped that one personalized ringtone. “And remember that I still hate you, okay?!”

“I hate you too, asshole!” You giggled as you slid your fingers on your device’s screen, typing that little reminder to Montgomery. You sheepishly and foolishly smiled at your phone and patiently waited for your slow-as-a-tortoise best friend.

VALENTINE’S DAY
1: Do you have a crush at the moment?
2: Have you ever been deeply in love?
3: Longest relationship you’ve ever been in?
4: Have you ever changed for someone?
5: How is your relationship with your ex?
6: Have you ever been cheated on?
7: Have you ever cheated?
8: Would you date someone who’s well known for cheating?
9: What’s the most important part of a relationship?
10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”?
12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?
13: What’s one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?
14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?
15: Do you believe in the phrase “age is just a number”?
16: Do you believe in “love at first sight”?
17: Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet?
18: What do you consider a deal breaker?
19: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship?
20: Are you currently in a relationship?
21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
22: Do you think people should date their friends?
23: How many relationships have you had?
24: Do you think love can last forever?
25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?
26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of?
27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?
28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?
29: What do you notice first about another person?
30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?
31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?
32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?
33: Do you want to get married one day?
34: What do you think about getting your partner’s name tattooed?
35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?
36: Are you still a virgin?
37: What’s more important: Looks or personality?
38: Do you enjoy love films?
39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?
40: Have you ever had a valentine?
41: What’s your imagination of a “perfect date”?
42: Have you ever read “Romeo & Juliet”?
43: What’s more important: Your partner or your friends?
44: Would you consider yourself “romantic”?
45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?
46: Have you ever been “friendzoned”?
47: Which “famous couple” is your favorite?
48: What’s your favorite love song?
49: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
50: If you’re single, why do you think you are?
51: Would you rather date someone who’s rich but a douchebag or someone who’s poor but a nice guy?
52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?
53: Are you jealous of couples when you’re single?
54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on facebook)?
55: Would you consider yourself “clingy”, “overly attached” or “jealous”?
56: Have you ever “destroyed” a relationship?
57: Do you think it’s silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?
58: Are you the “dominant” or the “submissive” part in a relationship?
59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner’s birthday or your anniversary?
60: What’s your opinion on open relationships?
61: Who’s more important: Your partner or your family?
62: How do you define “cheating”?
63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?
64: Do you think Valentine’s Day is overrated?
65: Would you consider yourself a “cuddler”?

So I have two theories as to how Jasper actually died. They both seem plasable (at least to me), but wouldn’t be able to co-exist. and because i want to keep all my information in one place, imma post it here.

Mr. Campbell murders Jasper

This one i find quite interesting, but the basic premise is the headline, Mr. Campbell murdered Jasper at some point off screen.

- He seemed fully content in going to kill Davy

As soon at it was thought that Jasper was dead, Mr. Campbell IMMEDATELY takes out his knife to end Davy to hide the fact they ‘witnessed’ anything. So he certainly is not against the idea of killing children, since he only backpedaled when it came to light that Jasper was alive.

+ Willing to kill children

- He is rarely at the camp unlike in previous days

It’s shown in the flashback (and in confirmation from David’s photos) that Mr. Campbell was very present in the other iterations of Camp Campbell. He is no longer present from being extremely wanted by the government, but what if possibly he stays away for other reasons also? Perhaps he distances himself from the camp to disassociate himself with the death of Jasper - which was his fault.

It’s possible that Jasper found out whatever illegal activities Mr. Campbell was up to, and because he ‘knew too much’, Mr. Campbell went to kill him. With the sudden death of a child, he could be held accountable, so began to try and distance himself from the project.

+ Killed to hide the truth about his illegal activities OR to take revenge for Jasper telling somebody about his illegal activities

+ Fled from Camp Campbell to distance himself from the issue.

- Torture chamber in Journey to Spooky Island

This was definately Mr. Campbell’s summer home (as seen by the letterbox earlier in the episode), and just further adds to the fact he has most likely killed before in the past.

+ more evidence to the fact he’s killed others

- Jasper was first seen on Spooky Island

Spooky Island, isolated and the place where Mr. Campbell keeps his summer home. Possible that Jasper was murdered here, hence why he was there in the first place. However, that being said, it’s possible that this was were the ‘trek’ was (look further down for other theory)

+ Mr. Campbell’s home was here and isolated

- could be from other trek

- Possible foreshadowing?

i’ll be honest, this one could literally mean nothing, but it’s a thought none the less.

TL;DR FOR THIS THEORY

He doesn’t seem phased at all by murder

Definately has done some fucked up things (The fact he’s wanted)

Torture chamber on Spooky Island

Jasper was first seen on Spooky Island

(Will add more to this if i think of anything)

David lied about his story

This one is another theory that i find plausable, since David definately lied about some things in his story. Yet others remain true.

- David probably wouldn’t tell children about the death of somebody

David wouldn’t go telling kids about how a child died at Camp Campbell when he was younger - he wants to protect them and keep them happy! He also would probably guess if he just shrugged it off as nothing, the kids would likely see something as off (Max states that ‘as long as we don’t trigger any of David’s long winded stories–’, implying David does things like this a lot).

David wanting to excite the kids about the ‘adventures’ he had when he was a camper might also have played a role in his decision to lie. Just cutting out all the ‘bad’ parts.

It’s unclear how much of David’s story was true, however it was clear he also wanted to teach a lesson to Max also [expanded on a bit later]

+ David wouldn’t tell the truth about a child’s death on camp

+ If he shrugged it off, the kids would know since he often goes off on tangients

+ He wanted to excite them with an interesting story

+ He wanted to teach the kids a lesson.

- The obvious lies that seep through

The way that the other two camp counsellors talk is VERY much how David would exaggurate things for the kids. “Oh no! Not Davy!”, “He’s such a troublemaker!” Is the type of thing that would be read in a children’s book rather than spoken in real life.

Another line thats spoken is “Davy, you have so much potential. If only you would apply yourself!” which is the type of thing David would likely say to Max.

It’s definately possible they’re lies too since of the obvious one Max calls out “YOU DID NOT FUCKING SAY THAT!”

So by these lines, it’s obvious David is lying about aspects of the story.

It’s also unclear if Davy was ACTUALLY a bad kid, or if David simply changed his personality to attempt to resonate with Max and teach him a lesson. Considering the worst things being said were ‘dang’ and ‘hooey’. Either Davy WAS a bad kid, but David censored the things he actually said, or Davy wasn’t and David went to just teach a lesson to Max. either way, there was some form of lie here too (Either in Davy’s speech or Davy’s character).

Considering all of this, it’s not too far of a stretch to think that David lied about if Jasper died or not.

+ Lots of over exaggurated lines that David would say

+ No real proof that Davy was ‘misbehaved’

+ Max calls out David’s lie

- Jasper clutches his chest where the bear slashes him

(great editing by me i know)

This is another subtle thing that might be linked to foreshadowing that the slashes actually killed him.

+ Subtle Foreshadowing perhaps

TL;DR FOR THIS THEORY

David isn’t the type of person who would tell kids about a tradgedy like that

He knew they’d get suspicious if he said nothing

To get them perhaps excited, he tells them this adventure about how they ‘saved’ Jasper, and to teach them a lesson

David definately lies during the episode as indicated by small speech patterns

Subtle foreshadowing from Jasper clutching his chest

(Will add more to this if i think of anything)

TL;DR FOR BOTH

(Mr. Campbell kills Jasper)

He doesn’t seem phased at all by murder

Definately has done some fucked up things (The fact he’s wanted)

Torture chamber on Spooky Island

Jasper was first seen on Spooky Island

(David lies) [IK THIS IS ABOVE BUT FOR ORGANISATIONS SAKE]

David isn’t the type of person who would tell kids about a tradgedy like that

He knew they’d get suspicious if he said nothing

To get them perhaps excited, he tells them this adventure about how they ‘saved’ Jasper, and to teach them a lesson

David definately lies during the episode as indicated by small speech patterns

Subtle foreshadowing from Jasper clutching his chest

I’d be really interested to hear feedback on shit i might have fucked up on or more evidence towards either theory - oR HECK HOWEVER U THINK JASPER DIED

Mitch pressed his cheek against your hairline and watched your fingers as they brushed through the hair on his chest. You nuzzled your head further into Mitch’s neck, and he turned his head slightly to kiss your forehead. You found his free hand and intertwined your fingers in his, closing your eyes with a contented sigh as you enjoyed the feeling of your skin pressed against his, under the blankets.

“How are you doing?” Mitch asked quietly.

You purred. “I’m happy. How are you doing?”

“No flashbacks or nightmares? Nothing.. triggering from last night?”

You shook your head against his chest. “There’s a real difference between what they tried to do and what we did last night.”

Mitch nodded, then paused and you lifted your head up to look at his face. “I want to talk about last night.”

How do you feel about people claiming that in marrying Bruce, Selina's character will be ruined? I of course see that argument as odd, seeing that she's said numerous times in the past that she wants to be happy, and with that, settling down and having a family. Do you truly think that would waver who Selina is?

You already know that I don’t. I wrote about my thoughts on Selina and family and marriage awhile ago and you can read about it here. Linking it seems like such a cop out but it’s pretty long. On that note I will say this: when people have brought up the idea that getting married would ruin her character I had no idea what they were talking about until I read this. Warning: do not read unless you can afford a spike in blood pressure.

Most notably this critic is says this:

She is a thief. She is a thrill seeker. For her, it’s all about the hunt.

And this little gem right here:

I see so many people on social media saying how romantic this is. It makes me wonder. Is this just a knee jerk reaction to seeing two long time lovers finally getting together? Have people really even taken the time to analyze this relationship? Or, are the ones shipping this the kind of people that value need over want?

Eye roll to the fullest. As a Batcat blogger I take that as a personal challenge. Yes, we have taken the time to analyze this relationship and we have almost 80 years of material to go on and I’ve come with the receipts.

I suppose this is what most people are referring to when they say that Catwoman’s character would be “ruined” if she got married. Those who are saying that are grossly oversimplifying her character and missing an important part of Catwoman’s development as a character. It reduces Catwoman to just a thief and that does her such a huge disservice. It has been true across multiple versions and media that, Catwoman does not always want to be defined as a thief. That thrill of thievery that they’re referring to, and Selina has said this herself multiple times, wears off. Thieving and other criminal activity has gotten her thrown in prison, almost killed, and she’s had to fake her death a couple of times because of it (as recently as Future’s End). The criminal lifestyle has almost ruined her life and eventually it ends up making her feel empty and trapped.

Going back to the Bronze Age after Selina spends some time in prison for her crimes as Catwoman once she’s paroled she wants to move on and distance herself from her past. (Batman #308)

Later on during a meeting with Bruce she tries to disguise herself because she worries that being seen in public with her will hurt his reputation and cause a scandal. (Batman #313)

Skipping ahead to the Pre-Flashpoint era Catwoman’s second on-going series was all about her reforming and becoming the defender of Gotham’s east end. In the very first issue of her series we get a lot from Selina’s perspective on why she does it. To really understand you’ll have to read her first on-going series because a lot of stuff went down towards the end of it that makes Selina disenchanted by the criminal lifestyle. At the beginning of her second series she can’t even bring herself to put on the costume because it’s brought her so much suffering and she feels defined by what she considers to be past mistakes. (Catwoman [v3] #1)

I don’t think that Selina thinks that marriage is the end all be all, but I definitely don’t think that it’s something that she’d completely rule out either. In fact I think that Selina hasn’t seriously considered it because she just never thought that it was an option for her. It’s funny to me that so many people think that Selina is strictly anti-marriage when 1) she’s never said that before and there’s nothing in canon to indicate that she feels that way and 2) some versions of her have expressed a desire to have a family.

I wrote about this in my previous post but from Catwoman’s second series while Selina steals an ancient dollhouse she talks about her childhood and mourns the loss of her family and the fact that she missed out on that stability growing up. I think that indicates that there is some kind desire to regain that. (Catwoman [v2] #39)

Emphasis mine. I also can’t stress enough that Catwoman’s Earth-2 counterpart point blank said that she wanted a family and a new life badly enough that she came up with some ludicrous lie about having amnesia in order to obtain it, but she thought it was too late. Earth-2 Catwoman ends up marrying Batman and having a child. The Brave and the Bold #197 was all about Bruce and Selina’s desire to start a new life and finding happiness with each other. In the Bronze Age version Bruce and Selina both retire to raise their daughter together and in the latest version they raise her as a crime fighter. That proves that marriage doesn’t “trap” Selina by any means. She did however feel trapped being Catwoman.

Still not convinced? Okay. I know that The Dark Knight Rises isn’t everyone’s favorite version of Catwoman, but something Christopher Nolan got right… Selina Kyle is introduced as a thief but she’s working for Daggett with the promise that she’ll be compensated with a software that will allow her to erase her criminal record which she wants to use to start a new life. She tells Bruce:

I started out doing what I had to. Once you’ve done what you’ve had to they’ll never let you do what you want to…There’s no fresh start in today’s world. Any twelve year old with a cell phone can find out what you did.

In Batman: The Telltale Series Selina has an excellent dialogue with Bruce about her criminal career where she lays it all out. She says:

You’re a good man, Bruce. But good men don’t lie with thieves.I know what I am. No noble intentions, just the thrill of breaking what they say can’t be broken. Knowing there’s no safe I can’t crack, no fortress I can’t infiltrate. Proving I can…
I’ve stolen from corrupt jerks like Hill, but I’ve taken plenty from good people too. And for what? Some shiny new toys and a crappy apartment on the edge of town? The high is nice but it wears off. And you look around and see…nothing. So you get back out there. Try and chase that feeling down, but it never amounts to anything really.

What has remained true about Selina in the comic books and other media is that she begins her life as a thief, but eventually she wants out but she feels defined by it. She feels like she has no other choice but to keep going. People really look down on Catwoman because she’s a criminal. She gets really dismissed as just some thief. This is something that Selina internalizes and is insecure about. Selina doesn’t always think that she’s a good person and that she can’t be anything other than a thief and a criminal. The idea that all Catwoman wants to do is live a dangerous life of chaos and crime is exactly the type of label she very often tries to break away from.

The argument that Selina shouldn’t get married because she’ll feel trapped is ironic considering that there’s a lot canonical evidence that she actually feels trapped by The Life™
and it just reeks of concern trolling. Somehow people think that risking imprisonment and death and being defined as a criminal is a more preferable outcome than marriage.

Catwoman is a character that’s always reinventing herself and always looking for a second chance. I don’t think that that always means marriage and family, but I don’t see why it can’t especially since it’s never been done in the main continuity before.

I’m not going to bother addressing an argument that Bruce and Selina have a one sided relationship, because it’s obvious nonsense and I’ve dedicated many a blog posts already refuting that. I suggest going through my tags if you really want to know, but I will say this because I think it’s crucial: in spite of everything that people say and think about Catwoman and what she often thinks of herself Batman never stops believing in her.

Batman has been a constant presence in her life and more often than not it’s his unwavering belief that deep down she’s a good person that inspires her to see the good in herself and get the second chance she so desperately seeks. Whether it’s inspiring her to become the whip wielding defender for Gotham’s most disenfranchised, running off to France, or starting a family. Batman and Catwoman have found a lot of happiness in each other so I find the idea that marriage would “ruin” Catwoman’s character to be, quite frankly, absurd.

2x07, 2x18, and what the fandom will see as Malec’s “defining moment” from here on out

I’ve seen a lot of remarks about how 2x18 is the producers “making up” for the mistake of 2x07. And part of me believes that, I believe 2x18 probably really was influenced by the fallout from 2x07.

But there’s also a part of me that is wondering, now that the reality that we’re going to see a sexual vision of Malec on-screen is upon us, whether or not the fandom is going to zero in on that to the exclusion of so much else of what Malec’s journey this season has been about.

I’ve meta’ed about this before. I just feel the need to revisit the subject now that we’re at this junction.

Before I get into this, let me state firmly for the record that I would never even dream of saying queer Malec fans were wrong for calling out the disparity in what is shown physically with Malec versus het couples on the show. It’s a very striking disparity and whether the producers intended it that way or not, it ultimately makes a statement about the acceptability of showing heterosexual intimacy versus mlm intimacy.

That said, I can’t help but suspect that there is a not-insignificant part of the Malec fandom whose interest in Malec is primarily fetishistic. Many of those people paint themselves as allies so they don’t have to examine their problematic attitudes, and that segment of the fandom probably co-opted that battlecry (about the disparity in exposure) to give legitimacy to their disappointment over the fact that they didn’t get to see their gay faves in bed together.

I’ve said in my other metas that I believe it possible that not showing the sex scene in 2x07 might have been a deliberate production decision made for reasons that–while the outcome was perceived as homophobic to people who weren’t privy to the decision making process–could have been made with the best of intentions.

I’ve heard rumors that the production team has spoken specifically of not wanting the relationship fetishized. I don’t know what interviews or tweets those rumors are based upon (if anyone does, please hook me up so I can assess them myself) so I don’t know if that’s true or not.

What I do know is that 2x08 was an ENORMOUS episode in terms of non-sexual relationship development–development on levels that were WAY more important than sex–and that it seems very possible, even likely, that if there had been a sex scene in 2x07, it would have overshadowed all that.

People would have been focused on the sex scene as the defining, establishing moment of their relationship, instead of the moment in 2x08 when Alec looked Magnus straight in the eye and said with absolute confidence and certitude, “Why wouldn’t I be [sure that our relationship isn’t going away?]”

God this moment. THIS MOMENT GAHHHH!!!!! I can’t really talk about this moment enough. It’s so important and so many people slept on it.

Alex says, “this–us–it’s not going away.” Okay, that’s good. But then look at Magnus’s reaction (God, I wish I could make gifs, because it’s so much better if you can see it in motion, both Alec’s line and Magnus’s reaction. Go watch the episode.)

When Magnus says “Are you sure about this?” HE’S NOT TALKING ABOUT THE PARTY. He’s asking Alec if Alec is certain about making statements about the permanence of their relationship to his mother and really to the world in general.

And Alec gives him that devastatingly direct, very purposeful eye-contact, and says “Why wouldn’t I be?”

Keep in mind, this is less than 24 hours after Magnus confides that he’s afraid of losing Alec if they have sex. And here Alec is saying without a shred of doubt that he’s in it for the long haul and that he wants to make a pointed public statement to that effect.

This is so major and people. fucking. slept. on. it. and it KILLS ME. This is possibly THE most important Malec relationship development moment of the whole season. More important than Alec turning around when he’s on the verge of walking away in 2x06. More important than the declaration of love in 2x10. THIS MOMENT IS HUGE.

But people overlook it. Constantly. It got a little attention for being a sweet moment, but no one really gave it credit for being important.

People slept on it because they were still howling about the lack of a sex scene the week before. They slept on it because “Magnus and Alec barely touched” (that’s a direct quote from a review I read somewhere) in 2x08. They were so busy howling about the lack physical expression in the relationship that they overlooked a lot of major relationship-development moments in 2x08.

How much worse would it have been if there had been a sex scene in 2x07? No one would have even noticed this moment as little as they did. It would have been a footnote. The sex, and not this moment, or even the declarations of love in 2x10, would have been fixed in the Malec fandom consciousness as the defining moment of Malec’s relationship progression in Season 2.

Now, I could be wrong. Maybe that wasn’t the logic the producers were following when they made the decision to fade to black and not pursue a bedroom scene in 2x07. But if it’s true that they wanted to avoid fetishizing the relationship, then introducing moments like this before showing Malec being physically intimate is actually a solid decision in terms of keeping the story arc focused on where they wanted the focus to be, which was Malec as a healthy, developing couple who are going through growing pains as they settle into the relationship in these early days.

With that in mind, I’ve said before that I don’t believe the mistake in 2x07 was in fading to black. The mistake was in having Malec have sex at all at that point. As a supporting argument, I offer the “wine in the rooftop garden” scene earlier in 2x07, specifically their body language. Look at the way they’re positioned, the semi-chaste way they’re kissing. They’re barely touching, and that is the farthest thing from a hot-and-heavy makeout kiss.

That is NOT a couple on the verge of making decisions about sex. That’s a couple on the verge of MAYBE moving on to light, over-the-clothes petting. The fact that Alec went from that to “hey, it’s time to have sex” in a matter of a few hours is just…so abrupt I’m in danger of whiplash It’s a double-take-required, “where did that come from” move. It just seemed weird and the wrong direction to take things.

Or so I thought. In retrospect, now that I see what else has been going on since, I kinda see why it HAD to happen in 2x07. If Malec hadn’t had sex at some point, it would have become A THING. A big, elephant-in-the-room, when-is-it-gonna-happen THING, and that’s not the sort of THING you want hanging over the story when you’re trying to keep your plot moving apace. They could have made the screen-time for it by taking screen time away from some other side-stories, but that’s really not the issue. The issue is when it would have worked in the scheme of the overall story arc Malec has been going through this season.

They needed to progress to that point, but there has literally been no other place in season two where it would have been the right time for Magnus and Alec to make the decision to take that leap in their relationship. There’s been too much else going on.

2x08, probably would have been the best other candidate, but that episode–as shown above–was all about firmly establishing to themselves and others that they are a couple and they intend to stay that way. There might have been a way to work the sex decision in there, but if that had happened, it would have overshadowed all the other non-sexual relationship development happening, which as I’ve already said, I believe was treated as its own matter for good reason.

2x09 and 2x10 are obviously out of the question, and 2x11 was just too packed. And from 2x12 onward, there is no way Magnus and Alec would have felt right about escalating to having a sexual relationship if they hadn’t already had one. There were too many questions of trust at play since then.

Now, maybe they could have switched the order of events in 2x07 and 2x08, but I don’t think the non-sexual moments where Magnus and Alec were cementing the intended permanence of their relationship would have worked as well if the sex question was still outstanding.

2x07 was too early. But it was the only choice. Which means them having sex in 2x07 wasn’t a mistake after all, it was just the best of a lot of sub-optimal options. So I guess maybe the mistake was actually in that scene in the rooftop garden earlier in the episode, in the way it was filmed, in not making it hotter and heavier and conveying that they were in fact on the brink of escalating to that point.

Anyway. Now we’re coming to it. The moment of truth. We’re going to see sexually intimate moments with Malec. And I find myself really wondering how those moments are going to position themselves in the Malec fandom collective consciousness. How are they going to be prioritized by the Malec fandom as a whole?

Are they going to overshadow all this important stuff that has come before, or will they be the joyous accent that they should be, lovely and important but not THE most important or defining scenes for Malec this season?

I guess what I’m saying is that next week will probably reveal just how big a portion of the fandom does fetishize the relationship. And I’m a little worried at what the answer to that question might be.

i often mourn the kind of discussions we could be having about intertwining experiences all lgbt people have, but it’s nearly impossible to talk about them because people can’t stop and think for a minute and will instantly appropriate that discussion to back up their own views

like, it’s a fact that historically, lesbians/wlw have had intersecting spaces with trans men or transmascs. yet that cannot be discussed without some people thinking it means that a trans man can be a lesbian or can be in lesbian spaces, or that cis lesbians who experience body dysphoria can discuss trans stuff the same way trans people can

plus any discussion about historical wlw describing their feelings about themselves and women gets hijacked into some “uhm sounds like a trans man to me!!” just because in the past, gender and sexuality wasn’t seen as that separate and many wlw would compare themselves to men or say they feel like men feel about women etc. many butch lesbians especially have gender dysphoria and 200 years ago they did not have the tools or words to go “hmm maybe I am agender or my lesbianism makes it difficult for me to identify with womanhood”, and it’s lesbophobic as fuck to look at those kind of stories and instantly go uhmm this is transphobia they were clearly a trans man :/// especially when many wlw lived as men to avoid sodomy charges etc

but it also cannot be denied that there were also trans men with similar experiences, and not every afab person who lived as a man was wlw. it’s not even necessarily correct to call them these identities they had no knowledge of, especially when they are so colored by their ties to our time and culture.

it’s so true that it’s impossible to fully separate gender and sexuality when many identities exist in this space between them, and the only thing that separates two people with same experiences is how they define themselves. we cannot fall too deep into identity politics or born this way rhetoric, nor can we act like identities don’t mean anything and we’re all the same and experience the same forms of oppression

i identified as a trans man/transmasc from 12 years old to around 19-20 years old, and it would be really redundant to say that all of that was Fake and didn’t mean i was unaffected by transphobia because my True, Born This Way identity is and always was, lesbian. yet, now that I identify as an agender lesbian, I do not experience the same things anymore (though i’m still dysphoric and want many things i used to as a trans man) and it’s not my place to push myself into discussions about being a trans man

but all of this seems to be very hard to grasp for many, and so we get some truly wild discourse about lesbian trans men and non-transmascs like rcdart defending their transphobic art with “but uwu i’m nb” even when the fetishization of trans men does not affect them directly