Ok..no one has to respond..really.. just feel like writing my thoughts somewhere LOL

It's the 17th anniversary of my Fathers Death today, the 25th. Its weird.. it use to get easier as the yrs went on..because I felt I came to grips more and more with his passing, but..when I hit a certain age..it now becomes harder. Why? Because... I realize now..that he won't be here when I marry. He won't be here to walk me down the aisle, to see my first child. My brother is a new Father and I a new Aunt, Eva is only 4 weeks old..and the fact my Father wasnt here to see that..breaks my heart. As the yrs go by...it actually gets harder.. it seems so surreal..feels like only yesterday he left...well hopefully I can make it to the cemetery today... grrr.. anyways.. just venting...

Thank you all for your kind words..and my best wishes go out to all of you who have lost loved ones too.

One thing I find.. is with the passinog time you don't forget..rather just accept more. You accept the fact that no..they won't be returning...but you mourn more of the little things they will miss out on.

I sympathise with you. I lost my own father when I was 9, so I know what you mean when you say it hurts that his missed the birth of your nephew, etc.
*hugggggggs* I can't offer you pretty words, just my sympathy.

I can certianly understand how you feel. My father will be gone 5 years October 24. At times it feels like he died only yesterday. Then other days I can't beleive so much time has passed. I just always remind myself that he is here, though those that love him. And I believe, his soul is looking out for me. It brings me peace and comfort.

Hi Sin, sorry for your loss. I lost my mum when I was 13, and can understand what you are saying about how, despite the years, it doesn't get easier. I found the pain and feeling of loss changed over the years, to now it is when I have a high moment in my life there is a wee touch of sadness as my mum isn't with me in person, but she is forever in my heart and that makes it bearable. I hope you find peace.
Dx

I pray God's peace and comfort will be with you today. I too will find myself in this position in the not too distant future and I cannot even begin to understand your pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Big hugs to you Sinfully. My mom passed 2 years ago and I feel the very same as you. Not sure it ever is "ok". Even tho she was here for "important" events in my life, the hardest part for me is never being able to go home again, get a hug, laugh and do everyday things together. The youngest of 8 kids, she always called me "the baby", and I guess I will always be her baby. Take care girl.