I personally believe loving yourself and learning to be content being by yourself, are important before you seek company and happiness being around other people in your life. Or else you're going to be self-reliant on other people for the rest of your life.

It's not bad to want acceptance, and for other people to share in your passions and interests. That's perfectly normal. But I don't think only being able to enjoy something you like be depending on having other people participate in it is necessarily a healthy thing.

i use to be able to have convo with my frends about games all the time slowly they all lost interest im losing interest to and only 2 of my m8s watch anime but cnt really make convos with them 4 to long they just end it even tho they are more into it then me i can only watch anime so i can talk about it with other

I personally believe loving yourself and learning to be content being by yourself, are important before you seek company and happiness being around other people in your life. Or else you're going to be self-reliant on other people for the rest of your life.

It's not bad to want acceptance, and for other people to share in your passions and interests. That's perfectly normal. But I don't think only being able to enjoy something you like be depending on having other people participate in it is necessarily a healthy thing.

I'm just curious, but why isn't it a healthy thing?

I guess I just feel people who are chronically lonely and can only find happiness in the presence of others, and crave for the acceptance and approval of others, are not really addressing the root of their problem.

Sometimes people who struggle being in the company of only themselves have some self-esteem problems, or abandonment issues. And if they don't learn how to be happy by themselves and love themselves, they'll have to rely on people for the rest of their life for assurance.

Hmmm I can't imagine why you would be feeling down. Your life has you feeling constrained. There's a fair bit of "duty" there and not enough satisfying socializing. Especially losing your girlfriend. And your future isn't a clear-cut blueprint. So, your life is pretty amorphous right now. Loneliness makes sense.

I'm going to say it honestly. You're checking-out with your anime and gaming. From what you say you didn't used to be this involved with it. However, you've shown you're concerned about it so, you won't let it go too far.

Stop paying for your friends. Be friends with them doing what they can afford.

If you like talking about anime more than any of your friends, then get tons more friends so you can spread it around.

My friends and I accept each other as we are. I have found that many people have uncommon interests which only they can "understand". I had a friend who loved to draw maps. Excuse me, cartography. He would read novels and non-fiction and spent hours coming up with maps related to them. He's the only person I have ever met with that hobby.

We're all different and our hobbies are not always where we find our common ground. Maybe it's the fact that we passionately pursue unusual interests that gives us the affinity.

Hmmm I can't imagine why you would be feeling down. Your life has you feeling constrained. There's a fair bit of "duty" there and not enough satisfying socializing. Especially losing your girlfriend. And your future isn't a clear-cut blueprint. So, your life is pretty amorphous right now. Loneliness makes sense.

I'm going to say it honestly. You're checking-out with your anime and gaming. From what you say you didn't used to be this involved with it. However, you've shown you're concerned about it so, you won't let it go too far.

Stop paying for your friends. Be friends with them doing what they can afford.

If you like talking about anime more than any of your friends, then get tons more friends so you can spread it around.

My friends and I accept each other as we are. I have found that many people have uncommon interests which only they can "understand". I had a friend who loved to draw maps. Excuse me, cartography. He would read novels and non-fiction and spent hours coming up with maps related to them. He's the only person I have ever met with that hobby.

We're all different and our hobbies are not always where we find our common ground. Maybe it's the fact that we passionately pursue unusual interests that gives us the affinity.

You are right on anime involvement. I started getting into anime late senior year I believe. I would always hear my friends talk about anime and I would always ask, wtf is that? and they would tell me but never payed attention to it. Until finally one day, I decided to youtube some anime series, and came across Death Note, Bleach and Elfen lied. Which were the first to get me into anime. I remember watching 100 episodes of Bleach in 2 weeks, I got really hooked on it. By then it was a bit late, to share my anime experiences with my friends because high school ended and everyone split. Some moved away because of college and others I lost contact with.
Ever since I've tried getting some of my current friends into anime, Haven't really been successful. They will watch it with me when ever they come over to my house but won't watch it on their own time.

And not paying for my friends is really hard to do. What I can do is end up doing things that are not expensive, that way I only spend a little and not a couple hundred in one day.
Me and my friends have always accepted each other, regardless of our flaws and different interests we have. So ,acceptance has never been an issue. Maybe I do feel like I don't fit in, because I have always seen myself as different, compare to everyone else.
I'm computer savvy, love gadgets/technology, metal, anime, etc. And of if you see me, you would never guess that, I don't represent any of that. lol Sometimes you can tell someones interests on how they dress or look. But not me.

Hmmm I can't imagine why you would be feeling down. Your life has you feeling constrained. There's a fair bit of "duty" there and not enough satisfying socializing. Especially losing your girlfriend. And your future isn't a clear-cut blueprint. So, your life is pretty amorphous right now. Loneliness makes sense.

I'm going to say it honestly. You're checking-out with your anime and gaming. From what you say you didn't used to be this involved with it. However, you've shown you're concerned about it so, you won't let it go too far.

Stop paying for your friends. Be friends with them doing what they can afford.

If you like talking about anime more than any of your friends, then get tons more friends so you can spread it around.

My friends and I accept each other as we are. I have found that many people have uncommon interests which only they can "understand". I had a friend who loved to draw maps. Excuse me, cartography. He would read novels and non-fiction and spent hours coming up with maps related to them. He's the only person I have ever met with that hobby.

We're all different and our hobbies are not always where we find our common ground. Maybe it's the fact that we passionately pursue unusual interests that gives us the affinity.

You are right on anime involvement. I started getting into anime late senior year I believe. I would always hear my friends talk about anime and I would always ask, wtf is that? and they would tell me but never payed attention to it. Until finally one day, I decided to youtube some anime series, and came across Death Note, Bleach and Elfen lied. Which were the first to get me into anime. I remember watching 100 episodes of Bleach in 2 weeks, I got really hooked on it. By then it was a bit late, to share my anime experiences with my friends because high school ended and everyone split. Some moved away because of college and others I lost contact with.
Ever since I've tried getting some of my current friends into anime, Haven't really been successful. They will watch it with me when ever they come over to my house but won't watch it on their own time.

And not paying for my friends is really hard to do. What I can do is end up doing things that are not expensive, that way I only spend a little and not a couple hundred in one day.
Me and my friends have always accepted each other, regardless of our flaws and different interests we have. So ,acceptance has never been an issue. Maybe I do feel like I don't fit in, because I have always seen myself as different, compare to everyone else.
I'm computer savvy, love gadgets/technology, metal, anime, etc. And of if you see me, you would never guess that, I don't represent any of that. lol Sometimes you can tell someones interests on how they dress or look. But not me.

When I burn though a series 20 hours in a week would be tops. I'm the only true fan in the house. My family enjoys it, but not usually enough to stick with a whole series. Plus our tastes can be different. Often I can only watch shows after everyone has gone to bed. Then the big TV is mine, all mine!

Bleach is a great series. I discovered it through Hulu. The show got me to notice manga. I'd never paid much attention to it before. Now I'm a pretty avid manga reader.

Death Note is also great. I haven't seen Elfen lied. I like stories such as Darker Than Black and Phantom: requiem for the phantom. But I enjoy shoujo too.

Anomalous or facetious or anomalously facetious. I guess I like things that are a little left-of-center.

I guess the reason why I feel like this is also because I have no time to do anything. Ever since August, I started working 6 days a week. Monday - Friday my hours are from 2:30pm to 11pm. Usually I stay anywhere from 15-60 miins after. I end up getting home around 12-12:40am.
Before these hours I was working night shift for a couple months and that was from 11pm - 7:30am. I was loving those hours because after work I would go play basketball with a few friends at the park. If not, I would go out and have breakfast right after work. If I didn't do either of those, I would come home, sleep for a few hours, wake up around 10 or 11 and go on xbox and talk to my friends while playing some games or watching something on netfix. After a couple hours of doing that I would go back to sleep and wake up around 8, and go back on my xbox and start talking to them again until I ha to start getting ready for work. I was only working 4 or 5 days a week and it would allow me to go out and I would every weekend.

After that I was switched to the afternoon shift I haven't really done anything, Doesn't give me anytime for anything. I have a habit of sleeping really late, and by the time I'm home from work, its too late to do anything or everyone is already sleeping. So I'm up till 3 or 4am browsing the internet having no one to talk to.
When it comes to the weekend, most of the time I don't feel like doing anything. Just feel tired from work, especially on my day off. All I end up doing is watching anime foreign movies or just play xbox.
There have been time where I have gone to a few concerts, but I try not to do that often because I end up spending a couple hundred every time. My friends don't have jobs and the only way they will be able to go to any events by paying for them.

The last show I went to was on Tuesday to go watch The Black Daliah Murder, All That Remains and Dethklok, not sure if anyone is familiar with any of those bands, but I ended up spending $230 for the tickets, I bought 5 of them and around $200 on just booze.

I guess its not loneliness I feel, I'm just upset or depressed. I have no idea whats wrong. But talking about anime or any of my interests (mostly anime though) helps a lot to deal with this crap. Maybe I just need someone to talk to ?
It also doesn't help that I ended up breaking up with my GF in October -__-

That and I been stressing out on what the heck I am going to do. I haven't started college and its been 3 years since high school. I really been wanting to go but I can't quit my job. If I was working just for me, I would quit and go to school but I am also working to help my grandma out. She raised me, so she is practically my mother and ll that she has done for me, I need to pay her back which ever way I can. She does need money, because she doesn't work. She lives of disability and you all know, thats not enough for anything. Barely for rent.
Most of you would say to go to school in the morning but the other problem is transportation. After taxes in February I am going to try hard to do both things, that way I can stay busy and get to meet new people. Hopefully it helps.

I can honestly say I that I understand what you're feeling. I'm experiencing something similar.