I decided to write a blog post while ms Bella was playing video games. Some of you have been asking me where have I been? why haven’t I been interacting or accepting friend request on my personal Facebook page and why I have not posted as much lately.

I did the 21 day Daniel fast that’s 3 weeks if you are needing a visual.

The list of foods above and the listed website is what I reference to while I did the fast. I already am limited on wheat’s and some of the items that are aloud so I also fasted wheat and stuck with dairy only in coffee

I also didn’t give up coffee but limited myself to 1 cup a day and during the fast I ran out of k cup and ended up using what I had in coffee can’s and broke out the old peculator remember those? It felt so odd brewing a cup of coffee in the single peculator. At the time of the fast I had prayed about our family financial situation cause let’s be honest we were at the point were we made enough to get cut off any assistance from even ssi and next month medicaid is even suppose to stop.

I have to admit I panic when the financial hits kept coming.

Before the fast we had the car that needed repairs then at Christmas two weeks after we had to repair the locks on the front door and the car our home had been broken into someone took off with my husbands keys coat and two laptops we are thinking it was a homeless guy living in our apartment complex laundromat we had called the cops and filed a report and all has been okay since. We went out with my husbands work to an amazing all expense paid for party and due to my husbands position being new at the company it didn’t fit into this years budget and he was let go.

So when you do a fast and pray expect things to unravel and come undone but only for things to make room to aloud doors that were once closed to be open.

. The events all taking place then Adam loosing his position under no fault of his own just that his and a few other positions did not fit the budget for the company he was working for which sucked Adam was finally happen enjoyed his coworkers and came home a lot less stress. The nice thing is that they paid him for two weeks and and they even put him up as laid off and paid him for two weeks while he finds work.

During the two weeks we still fasted we didn’t go out and buy extra we didn’t have the extra funds and we made due with the things we had in the house I got creative with meals and we used up the can goods the baked good and all the things I stocked up on.

This was all during the fast while we were praying for increase in our fiances. The goal was and still is 35,000 for any position my husband get’s which would put him at around 17 dollars a hour in his field full time.

I am looking forward to saying Adam found a job that pays the amount above or more with benefits and full time. I think it will happen within the next few weeks.

I had been praying for supernatural doors to be open I have been claiming in Jesus name for Adam to get a position that paid more but the moment he was let go I kind of already knew and we were prepared in a way. Adam has had 4 successful interviews now and we are sticking with the worlds tightest budget.

I was fearful of admitting Adam had been let go from another company to my friends and family it’s a matter of pride I think but because he was part of the big layoff with another popular company my husband works in the technology field and does administration work for It that’s what he went to school for that year he was let go on my birthday and what sucks is this year it happen just after Christmas.

I’m sure God’s hand is in all of this but I want to put my own hands on all of it.

I want control and take over. Adam had a great interview today and that makes interview number four. I am just thankful we have been sticking to a budget the evil word in my mind the word budget and a no spending freeze had happen this month really allowed me to see how far we have come as a couple and as a family. This kind of thing would have other wise left me paralyzed in fear but instead we keep moving forward in faith and are at peace that this is the kick in the pants needed to let go and increase our financial income.

I have only mentioned this to a few handful of our friends it’s still in the new shock stage but we are keeping our spirits up and moving forward. Adam had like I mention 4 interviews and we are awaiting to hear a call back from one or all of these places.

I think any company would be lucky to hire him he works hard and is a great provider for our family but we keep hitting these road blocks we need a income that is stable where contracts are not a option neither are temp agencies.

He’s applied to well over 50 places and he’s getting in three or 4 request a week for phone interviews.

the fast has really open my eyes to what is important sure the nice extra are great to have but when you have a roof over your head, clothes on your back and food in your belly no matter what the income that’s a blessing all of it’s own.

I have read about so many others who are working in government jobs and are having to go to the food banks we have had to go to a food bank or two in the past and understand what that feels like.

We have the support of the other kids rallying around us and helping as needed and our rent is even paid two months in advance we even are doing the Dave Ramsay budget where every dollar has a name. It’s not easy to think this all happen because I prayed for something and was let down with broken promises and un answered prayers but I think this is a way that doors are opening and we are going to be able to bless others with our income.

I’m looking forward to any of the places Adam interviewed with and call back.

We have even come up with ways to sell some of the items in our home that has been cluttering up or apartment de cluttering cleaning I call it anger cleaning.

The landlord is coming in and is going to redo our bathroom for us there was some mold I found while I was cleaning out things and doing a deep clean the baseboard and the ceilings need to be replaces and in Feb that will all be taken care of. Feb is also my birthday month I turn 36 that’s a post for another day. Valentines day is coming up I already have valentines day cards for Bella class from what I got on clearance last year

I also have been entering contest giveaways and filling out survey’s online earning some fun new products to test out. A friend of mine has me filling out all kinds of things for freebies that could help in the long run and I am getting back into product reviewing again.

I have not wrote a blog post like this one in ages because we have been doing this fast and just one thing after the next has come after us. I have decided to do protection prayers around my home and even have been lighting candles and doing all I can to clean the air to help bless our family.

Today I took some time to interact and become social I asked for emails for Bella's donations and she got a overwhelming successful amount of 20 emails. You guys are amazing always there to support us. Bella has hoops for heart that she is trying to raise funds for and has a list a mile long of the things she wants and desires.

I have been avoiding going into stores unless needed because I know we would end up spending money. I have this fear of being like my mother dependent on someone else and that’s some demons I need to work on and allow that this whole thing will work out for the greater good of our family. It can’t get any worst. Universe I am not testing you here.

I am just simply expecting a financial windfall while he looks for work or a break where we can catch up and breath and relax. I our savings is now our income and we wait with baited breath if he has been hired from one of these places he has interviewed with.

I took a social media fast as well for 3 weeks on top of financial spending fast.

I just wanted to say hello with all of you let you know what there was a ton less stress when I got online and used social media as a way to decompress and not go out of my way to fix everyone or to solve others issues. I had to figure a way to stay connected with my friends with out giving to much info to others who want to use what I share against me.

I no longer care what others think. I’m going to post and if people do not like what I share they do not have to read.

I discovered who my friends where some pestered me and said hey you were are ya? others texted or even gasp called me and had a real conversion with me. I love and thank you all who do for that.

As high amount of traffic I have on my website I am taking my power and control of it back

I’m sharing to reach at least one other person who might need to hear what I have to say. I also sometimes just need to vent with a post that allows for more then 150 characters

I took advantage of the snow day and just zoned out for a hour or two possibly 3 and I cleaned up my Twitter in fact it’s deleted now, I am cleaning up my Instagram and I cleaned up the likes on my Facebook page. I also am trying to just see where spirit will lead me today.

I Hope everyone is staying warm. We had a snow day. I took some time to interact and become social I asked for emails for Bella's donations and she got a overwhelming successful amount of 20 emails.

Most of you even asked me how things are going and we had great catching up kinds of conversions.

You guys are amazing always there to support us. So I'll never shut down the website. I might pop away from time to time to reflex on life and pray or meditate.

I took a social media and even a food kind of fast meaning I only interacted with the people I had to stay in touch aka my mother inlaw and grandma or the would pull me though the computer screen with their canes lol when it came to food and drinks I stuck with fruits and veggies and fish.

Adam and I did the fast together we didn’t make the kids do it but they ate our dinners with us. After the fast was over we celebrated by having McDonald and the cheeseburger I had just was not as satisfying as I had hoped. Bella had her first big mac and realized she was to tall to play in the play area. Bella is 11 and is in the stage of being to big for somethings and not old enough for others. Her new favorite things to enjoy is blow drying her hair and chopsticks we had a ton of Asian inspired soups while we did the fast and Bella love that we can have a healthier kind of “romen noodles” and if I know me you have probably heard of the romen noodle budget story when I was in college.

I just wanted to say hello with all of you let you know what there was a ton less stress when I got back online and used social media as a way to decompress and not go out of my way to answer everyone's email fix everyone or to solve others issues.

There is a huge need for advocates and mentors for this disorder and I don't take that lightly. I will always be a email away it must just take longer to respond back. I am always so shocked when others say you inspired me to help others and share my story.

I am honored and really have no idea where to go from here.

Things have been good health wise so I have not had many blog posts that are medical related. We see a therapist once a week and all is well.

The job hunt is going well Adam will have something from one of these places I am sure within a month our bills are paid God has provided a way to provide.

I might just keep fasting not to the extreme that I was but it that eating this way life is so much simpler I used what I had on hand and used up the products I have in my home. I now have to stock up again on supplies such as goodies, snacks fruits and veggies.

during the fast I have gone though my emails finally and discovered that Mommiesquietplace is not quiet there is a large amount of you who are seeking to hear my voice and that means the world to me. Thank you all so much. More blog post in the future. If you have any topics or request you would like me to write about shoot me a email or send in the comments below.

Having a child with special needs is a lot of financial stress the best advice I suggest is stick with a budget and perhaps if you are doing the Daniel fast pray for something smaller then financial increase pray for guidance or wisdom and discernment.

Always be careful what you pray for or you will be tested. The last time I did this I prayed for patience.

I am still learning my spiritual gifts and I am learning how to just be at ease with things and go with the flow. I am learning to be content in the mess. I know one day my mess will be my message.

Thank you for reading.

A rambling un edited blog post just some writing so I could share with friends what all have been going on.