It’s been a slow one with the girls away and I have been feeling a little under the weather, tired and run down. Nothing that a couple of early nights won’t fix.

I also sold my PS3 to fund the purchase of something I have been wanting for a while. Details to follow. Stay tuned.

Oh, and if you are a regular reader you will remember me mentioning changing the type of content of this blog or creating a new one. Well that new one is now up and running and obviously I can’t reveal the details here as that would negate the point of having it.

It basically said that brutally honest bloggers get the readers, but there is a price to pay if you aren’t posting anonymously. Now I know that some people who know me read my blog but those people generally know me pretty well and the kind of things I would blog about if I were to up the ‘honesty’ stakes with what I write. I am very tempted to start laying everything down here for the world to read and no doubt it would make a much more interesting read. But, and it’s a big but, I am not sure if I am ready for the kind of detail that it would entail being so very very public.

My blog has been going in one form or another for nearly two years and I know that it can sometimes be a little bland when my life is so much further from it.

The way I see it I have three choices:

Keep the current blog content the same

Start blogging without fear as if this was a truly person diary as I talked about above.

Start a new blog that is anonymous and us that as my ‘no holds barred’ forum of content.

As you can tell by this post, I haven’t decided yet. But of course I will update here when the choice is made.

In other blog related news:

I have activated a ‘related posts’ feature that displays other posts i have made that have some form of relevancy to the post being read. You can see what I mean by reading a post in depth; that is, clicking it.

The tagging feature has also been updated with all previous posts being tagged and a tag cloud added to the right sidebar of the site.

A few other modifications are still in the works and they will appear as and when.

I have had the idea to work on a book for my sister who took her own life.

It has been a few years since it happened and I have amassed most of her diaries and plenty of photos. Quite a few of both have been scanned in to a computer for me to use on this project.

What pushed the idea to the front of my mind recently was publishing my own poetry and realising that the challenge will be in doing justice to my sister rather than getting the work published.

I have started in the only way I could think how. I have set in motion the requesting of a copy of the inquest in to her death. I think that this may give me a grounding into the events surrounding how and why she died. i was unable to attend the inquest when it happened for a number of reasons.

Once I have that document I will go further in detail into the the last few months of her life as best I can through her friends and our family. Once I am prepared the real work will begin.

I just hope that what I come up with as a final document is a lasting memorial fitting enough for the sister and friend I never truly got to know.