8/14/2012

YES! I am still a blogger. Been having bleeding issues with my nose due to the Coumadin I have to be on. Also, have been keeping to myself lately, thinking of what to do for my future, and applying for jobs.

My voice has not been right since the heart surgery, I attribute it to being intubated for 3 days after the surgery, but kept fully awake. I was too ill for them to put me out. At one point there were 3 tubes down my throat. It was the most horrible thing I have ever lived through. At first, I had no voice. Certain days it vacillates from a whisper to raspy, and everything in between except for normal. As some of you know, my voice has become my work, meaning since I can no longer do floor nursing, I have to resort to a desk job, using my voice as a triage nurse. I am going to see an ENT doctor to see if my vocal chords are damaged or what the deal is.

There is also some family drama taking place which I will omit the details, however I can say that my heart is broken over it. I have tried everything in my power to fix this ongoing problem, to no avail. I place it in God's hands, as I do all my problems and gratitude.

I have been feasting on the fresh fruits of summer, raspberries, blueberries, cantaloupe, peaches, plums, etc... My taste buds are still off and I am still waiting for them to get back to normal. I can't seem to eat anything with a red sauce, not even pizza, and a bunch of other foods as well. What I really miss though, is having a place to grill out.

Wish I had a balcony, at least. My last home had everything I wanted, a fenced in yard, pool, fire pit... I enjoyed living there for 4 years. All good things eventually come to an end, but at least I had what I consider paradise for awhile.

4 comments:

I'm really sorry that life is giving you such a hard time. Family drama on top of health and financial issues are the last thing you need. I'm glad you're still blogging and thank you for updating. Stay well.

poor lil crotte de choux. i hope everything will work all the wrinkles out. i am praying for you every day, my toone. i love you so much. wish i could do more. things will turn around soon, you will see. my lil dwindling toone. i am enjoying watermelon from bogue sound, it is a local treat here, seedless and sweet, and i think of you, floating in your pool. lol :o)

parental advisory. i say fuck alot.

julian, alias jujube, i love you so much!

molly mo... i love you so!

About Me

I'm a mother of 4, nurse, writer, poet, chef, and just a kid inside waiting to grow up.... I'm still searching for that one thing which will ease my longing for whatever it is. This "hole" in my soul drives me, cripples me, and sometimes lies dormant. I love my kids, my job, and wish I knew "then" what I know "now".

WORDS WILL NEVER HURT YOU, EH?

love birds.

Oldies but Goodies

constipated people don't give a shit.

i like to eat out.... my girlfriend likes it too.

"And can it be that in a world so full and busy, the loss of one weak creature makes a void in any heart, so wide and deep that nothing but the width and depth of eternity can fill it up?"
-Charles Dickens