How American Are You?You Are 78% American
You're as American as red meat and shooting ranges.
Tough and independent, you think big.
You love everything about the US, wrong or right.
And anyone who criticizes your home better not do it in front of you!
How American Are You?

Unknown, Unfound, UnboundDeep into my skull I traveled
Yet to not find what I found
Unbound and beyond
From the darkest recesses of my mind
Shall I step out from the poorly driven hell
Unrespected, undivided
None shall understand or intertwine
Blackness
Darkness
What light I thought was there
A balance unknown
What am I truely?
Unknown
Unfound
Unbound
The diabolic elite
The dark lady of vampires
The mother of sin
The child of love
The pit of my soul
The blood that spills
I shall drink, feast and pour all over me
Deep within my skull
I am yet to find
What I truely am
What is ... Evolved
Another fucking poem by: ME
~C~ 2006

Could It ! Just Random Shit!sometimes i sit here and wonder couls it happen can it be real i mean love comes in certain shapes sizes and do oppisites really attract.........could you find love online and can it work or could it work is there really a thing of love at first site or fate even ......can u fall in love with your est friend and it work des someone who looks like they walked out of a magazine be with a common woman as myself(just a example)men want conifdent and sure of themselves women ......how come women are always labled as hot sexy cute.....how come there not beautiful or stunning haha good one to think on!!!!! gotta run xoxo/....mesha
P.s yeah im depressed haha

For The Losers Who Stop By My Page And Don't Leave Comments!!!!!!Cool,
Good for you. I mean,I wouldn't mind if you'd left a comment, but to me,it just seems so rude to like stare or something. Whatever you wanna call it.Just saying.
Anyway,just got home from work. I think I'm going to go and practice playing the cello a little bit. Working on a great piece by Bach.
Lots of love.
Lady T

Is Your Love Style Passionate Or CompassionateYou Are 80% Passionate, 20% Compassionate
You are very passionate, especially when it comes to love.
In fact, it's sometimes difficult for you to tell between love and lust.
You jump in head first, and figure things out later... usually when it's all over!Is Your Love Style Passionate or Compassionate?

So TrueYeah....
its not wierd at all..at my age ppl would put down the bigger women...i tell them....thats too bad...u just dnt know wat ur missing....
cuz for me....all that ass feels so good....i love it...
so for all the bigg women out there...i am a young male lookin for a BBW wit pride..soo get at me
im 18 so dnt worry about me not being legal....im fully legal andi know how to use my package....so get at me

What Mythological Creature Are You?You Are a Chimera
You are very outgoing and well connected to many people.
Incredibly devoted to your family and friends, you find purpose in nurturing others.
You are rarely alone, and you do best in the company of others.
You are incredibly expressive, and people are sometimes overwhelmed by your strong emotions.
What Mythological Creature Are You?

Born Into Sin Pt. 2Afterwards we didn't see much of my mother and my father refusing to let her around us didn't help much neither. I wasn't sure why he was being so mean to her but as I now know it was because he didn't want us to see her in her strung out state. We didn't live in that big three story house anymore because we had lost it to a spontaneous fire. We were in the house when the fire had started and I had called out the window to my father who was sitting outside on the steps with some of his friends. He actually came in and got us himself he grabbed my little brother and sister told me to climb on his back and he got us out of their running through and jumping over fire. After all that happened we moved with an uncle who we lived with for about 6 months. Almost 2 years had gone by since my mother made the choice of drugs over her kids and she finally was back in the picture. She some how got herself together and was coming to our uncles house to visit us. It was perfect timing to cau

What Is Your Seduction Style?Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover
You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.
What Is Your Seduction Style?

TodayI was talking to my bf about some of the stuff i posted in my last blog and i told him that neither him nor the girls had any respect for themselves nor for me as friend and i also told him how i would never do anything like that to him. I'd never go around and try to hook up with or fuck any of his friends and he's like not like they'd fuck you anyways!! i just didn't know what to say cuz i mean if you could hear the tone in his voice it was just rude and really hurt my feelings.
Is it just me that feels that what he said was rude and uncalled for? It's not like any of his friends would admit to him anyways if they'd really fuck me or not either!

HeyHey My name is Brandy, Im from North Carolina.. Im into rock, and metal.. I like movies that have gore in them normal is it is a movie that something gets blewed up, or someone dies.. THATS MY KINDA MOVIE..
I dont really have alot of people I call me friends but if you get that honor you must be special. I like to think I am a distured, and twisted girl.. Plus Im a smartass.. But if you cant be honest about your self to people then whats the point??? I guess I am easy to sum up by this.
TRUST AND HATE LOVE AND FATE I DONT UNDERSTAND
SOCIAL GRACE THE HUMAN RACE CONFUSE ME
THESE WORDS I SPEAK BRING FORWARD A WORLD OF EMOTIONS
EMOTIONS OF DREAMS LOST DREAMS FOUND AND DREAMS I SHALL NEVER SEE..

Okay!So ive been asked a zillion times
to make sign pics for people.
And ive finally started doing it.
So if you want one. Tell me and ill make you one.
But you gotta send me one in return its only fair :)
SO just message me < 3

Your Love Life SecretsYour Love Life Secrets Are
Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.
You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt.
You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.
In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so.
Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

How Well Do You Know Me?Let's see who REALLY knows me...
Lets see the funny shit u people come up with! YOU fill in the blanks about ME even if u dont have any idea what they are and send it back to ME. But first post a blank one out to all your friends so they can return the favor to you.
My name:
Who is the love of my life:
Where did we meet:
Take a stab at my middle name:
How long have you known me:
When is the last time that we saw each other:
Do I smoke:
Do I drink:
When is my birthday:
What was your first impression of upon meeting me:
Do I have any siblings:
What's one of my favorite things to do:
Am I funny:
What's my favorite type of music:
What is the best feature about me:
Am I shy or outgoing:
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
Do I have any special talents: (lol)
Would you consider me a friend/good friend:
Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):
What is a memory

Weirdnessok well this guy i kinda like is talkin to me and i dont know if i should be upfront about it cuz i donno if that works i have never tired it :( o well i will jsut see how it goes let ya know about it later

DoggyYour Ideal Pet is a Big Dog
You're both energetic, affectionate, and a bit goofy.
And neither of you seem to mind very slobbery kisses!What's Your Ideal Pet?

What's Your Ideal Pet?Your Ideal Pet is a Big Dog
You're both energetic, affectionate, and a bit goofy.
And neither of you seem to mind very slobbery kisses!

How Good A Kisser Are YouYour Kissing Technique Is: Perfect
Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it.
You have the confidence to make the first move.
And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best.
Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing!Are You a Good Kisser?

I'm LeavingFor those that I haven't told yet, I am leaving Tomorrow for Texas. I will be gone until November 1st. So After Tomorrow I might not be online for quite a while. I won't lie, I'm not going to miss you... except for probably Trix, hehe, but I will fantasize about you while I am gone.

SmoochYou're a Playful Kisser
Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and play
You're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a party
Or you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dare
And you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right!What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Real FriendsI have decided not to let certain people piss me off anymore i am a decient person and loveable too. My kids love me and I love them yes i have had rough passages with my oldest and we have fixed our problems so if anyone has a problem with me then i am sorry you don't need to be on my list is all i have to say yes i do have mental problems cuz of childhood and i can't help it i am dealing with them the best way i know how i am getting the right meds so my outburst aren't around anymore thye finally got me diagnosed right and i am happy that i am finally getting the help i need. and people that need to be mean and rude then sorry don't need to talk to you so you all can just deal with it i am not letting no one piss me off no more cuz i will eventually find the friends that like me for me and not to mess with me.

YayYou Are 79% Grown Up, 21% Kid
Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.
Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.How Emotionally Mature Are You?

Oh DearYou Are 60% Weird
You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?
But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!How Weird Are You?

Just Sending Love Back To All Of Youshey just sending me and peters love right back at you,thanks for everything we will never forget how all of yous sent all of lovely comments to us ,still no word on tissues tests
well just kept sending those comments peter saids hi that when gets better maybe he can meet you all that show a 10yr old boy love so still kept praying and may god bless for what you have show us love in our hearts for all of yous than you for careing and loveing us

How Hot Are YouYou Are Super Spicy
You're a little bit crazy, a little bit naughty, and a whole lot of sexy.
You go beyond hot - you set people's senses on fire!Are You Hot?

Sssssssss LolYou Were a Snake
You have a primal energy that drives you to explore the mysteries of life.
A nearly immortal soul, you'll live a very long life.What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

74%Your Luck Quotient: 74%
You have a high luck quotient.
More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life.
You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that.
Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.
How Lucky Are You?

What Animal Were You In A Past Life?You Were an Eagle
You are able to rise above the details of life and see the big picture.
A spiritual being, you tend to go beyond material concerns.
What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

Are You More Cat Or Dog?You Are: 60% Dog, 40% Cat
You are a nice blend of cat and dog.
You're playful but not too needy. And you're friendly but careful.
And while you have your moody moments, you're too happy to stay upset for long.
Are You More Cat or Dog?

Stuff......i started its in cit recently..... im extremely surprised that they actually have soap in the bathrooms and the people have manners!!!!!!!! and stuff doesnt get stolen frequently!! oh joy.

How Lucky Are You?Your Luck Quotient: 67%
You have a high luck quotient.
More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life.
You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that.
Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.
How Lucky Are You?

What Will Be In Your Christmas Stocking?Your Christmas Stocking Will Be Filled With Little Wrapped Presents
You've made Santa a very happy fellow this year.
Don't worry - what happens at the North Pole stays at the North Pole!
What Will Be In Your Christmas Stocking?

How Open Minded Are YouYou Are 68% Open Minded
You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.How Open Minded Are You?

Did It Work?What Your Soul Really Looks Like
You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.
You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities.
You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you.
Your near future is in a very different place (both physically and mentally) from where you are right now.
For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.Inside the Room of Your Soul

What To Do With A BlogNever been too much of a blogger. Dont know what to Blog about and don't have any garuntee that anyone will read these blogs. So less wasteing time and more something else. If you really want to know what I got to say, come say Hi sometime.

Inside The Room Of Your SoulWhat Your Soul Really Looks Like
You are very passionate and quite temperamental. While you can be moody, you always crave comfort.
You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds.
You believe that people see you for how you are, not how you look. But deep down, you know that's not exactly true.
Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing.
For you, falling in love has never been easy. You can only fall for someone who is very patient and persistent.
Inside the Room of Your Soul

FearsFEAR'S
Fears of being alone ....no one around to
show love fears never being able to love again
fears never being happy or finding peace
Fears no one will ever understand..
I set and fear each and every day that no one will
come around looking out the window to see if someone is out there ....just to find the emptyness
within myself because my heart fears the pain that another could cause me..
I had a husband but he was always concerned about the other women he could bring into his life and thats all he has ever been concernd about
all my pain that dewell deep with in he gets his pleasure off my pain the more pain he can cause the happier he is....hurting the one that thought he loved ....love isn't suppose to hurt or destroy a person but his love is bitter and nothing sweet....
sherry

Chapter 12- EmergencyJoseph clasped the woman hard to him he saw the blood on her chin.With a sinking feeling he knew the glass had penetrated deeper than he had thought.
"Hold still dammit! You wanna die or something?" he growled at her out of concern. "Vincent! Want is the ETA for a medivac!" he yelled out to the empty bar room.
"Fifteen minutes minimum Joseph. Does she have time?" Vincent replied through bars sound system. He had already looked up the emergency postings of the local hospitals when he saw the woman hit the floor earlier.
No dammit! Get the bike out I am gonna have to take her in." Kit had slumped over on him once again her breath came in ragged gasps - blood still bubbled on her lips. Joseph got the T shirt on her like a child dressing a doll and made for the doors which Vincent opened ahead of him. The bars delivery elevator rattled and from the depth below the bar rose Joseph's Victory 2300. Joseph put Kit on laying her in front of him on top of the bikes big fuel cell and cli

Chapter 11- Hold On!as she lay fallen and slowly being drenched in her own blood the small child began to squirm and cry louder and louder in the big man's arms..clinging to him helplessly..the entered Violet as Joseph echoed Kit..
"What is going on? What is that?" she did not register the girl as human offspring at first.
"Shhh. It's ok darlin.." he tried to soothe the child as he pryed her loose from him and handed the once again squallng child to his bewildered android "little sister".
Standing there was Android, Drednaught Violet Culver, 5'8", soft brown eyes stared almost blankly at the child..shoulder lenght brown hair swayed with her movements as she lifted her hands to take the child Joseph was throwing at her..
"For God sake Violet its a baby girl.. here take her or her uh sister there is gonna bleed her life out."
her eyes switched to look at kit laying there on the floor. she held the screaming child at arms lenght as she shifted her gaze again to the little girl..
thigh hig

Love ProfileYour Five Variable Love Profile
Propensity for Monogamy:
Your propensity for monogamy is low.
You see love as a gift that you should give to many.
It's hard for you to imagine being with one person at at time...
Let alone one person for the rest of your life!
Experience Level:
Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!
Dominance:
Your dominance is low.
This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.
You know a relationship is not about getting your way.
And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.
Cynicism:
Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.
Independence:
Your independence is medi

Chapter 10 - Nasty CopsThey continued to rock and as soon as the knock came upon the large doors her breath caught in her throat..she had to cover the small girls mouth and absently rub her stomach to get her to calm down so that they wouldn't be heard.
the big man started to act confused about the whole situation but the knock upon the door came again and he moved to open them..
the commotion outside made Kit shiver and she hugged the girl that much closer to her as she heard the large mans voice get louder..everything seemed to be in a blur..her vision was tainted and her body was hurt in places she hadn't begun to feel yet..all that mattered was that the local police left her to herself..
in her arms the little girl turned and burried her face in Kits chest, her arms wrapping and grasping around her waist and shirt..her little eyes were closed as tightly as they could be for one so young and she took in a deep breath and then let it out heavily against her..Kit could barely smell the smoke that

Best Pic Personally Takenhere is another contest that im in but this time it is actually for me. It si the most priceless pic of my baby girl and her daddy that I have.
link above!

Chapter 9- My Herolaying there in a screen of smoke she coughed lightly and listened to the small girl as she whined lightly..kit tried to take a hand to her, to make sure she was alright..but she went unconscious and her head slumped against the door of the car..thankfully the small girl had been thrown into the floorboard and was unharmed except for a small bump on the head, but she was scared and she whined alittle louder as Kit passed out..
she climbed the best she could out of the floorboard and pressed her face to the windshield, there was a fire starting under the motor and it caused the heat within the vechile to rise..tears streamed her face as the cool glass soothed her reddened cheeks..
suddenly a really big man had shown up out of no where and yelled..." Cover yer face!!" and showed her what to do..quickly she covered her face with her arms and fell over top of Kit on instinct as the big mans hands went crashing through the windshield..
glass shattered around the two of them and bef

Chapter 8- Survival Of The Fittestthe two of them were silent as they rolled along the roads of old new york..tension had set in at least on Kits behalf as wide blue eyes, once staring out the window, errily turned to stare at her..she had a blank expression on her face and her fingers absently rubbed over the smooth leather of the seats..she sat snug in the corner of the door and her seat with her feet tangle up underneath her weight..
Her long brown hair sat kinked and knotted around her petit frame and as Kit drove, her eyes watched the girl every once in awhile, but tried to keep from making eye contact..her fingers absently drummed on the steering wheel as the girl just stared..
uneasily as they neared the Diner where Kit had performed her little musical dance... they got closer to the morgue still creeping along and suddenly she was struck by the site of the doors flipping outward and splintering..she raised a brow and then her eyes grew wide with fright..that..that..thing.."HOLY SHIT!" she squealed as the

Chapter 7- Litlle Girl...whats Your Name?the car came to a sudden stop..she threw it in park..and then tossed her hands in the air..they came in contact with the ceiling of the car and she quickly brought her hands down and back up in a forceful fit.." FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!" her breathing had started coming on fast and blood rushed to her face to let it glow a soft cherry as her temper flared..~ what the fuck happened back there?~ she closed her eyes tightly and then slumped down into the seat and against the steering wheel..
she was parked there in the middle of the street and as she threw her fit a couple of people huddled together on the streets had lifted their heads to watch..a few even dared a laugh..She threw her hazel eyes at them and let them have the look of a thousand deaths as she opened the car door and hoped out..
slamming the door she slowly made her way around the car..her eyes looking everywhich way as she moved to the curb and shoving a hand into her front right pocket she pulled out a crinkled pack of

The World's Shortest Personality TestYour Personality Profile
You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.
For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.
The World's Shortest Personality Test

LostI dont even know where to start at first off i got a dad that living on one kindey heart problems found out my momma cancer got worse where she gotta take 5 days of week of kemo and she keeps telling me it in god hands i got so much drama kicking that the person finally got there wish to stop...didnt asked for someone to come back they came back on there own cant help that they looked me up threw 411 as in my number to get in touch with me everything is falling down in pieces at one time on my end just wish god would give me these answers everything gotta happen to me and it really bites what does god hate me or something?

How Romantic Are YouYou Are A Romantic
You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.
Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.
Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.
Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!Are You Romantic or Realistic?

How Pure R U????You Are 20% Pure
You've either done it, thought about it, or at least heard about it.
Luckily, there's a few things left for you to try!
How Pure Are You?

To All My FriendsMay The Sun Forever Light Your Path
May The Wind Be Always At You Back
May You Be Blessed With A life Of Happiness
And May You Know Love Eternally.
Best Wishes For A Lifetime And Friendships Forever.

The Simpsons Personality TestYou Are Barney
You could have been an intellectual leader...
Instead, your whole life is an homage to beer
You will be remembered for: your beautiful singing voice and your burps
Your life philosophy: "There's nothing like beer to give you that inflated sense of self-esteem."
The Simpsons Personality Test

Chapter 6- Music Video ManiaCursing the bot as he left she bent down onto the table and poped her head on the surface a couple of times, each thud made a slight echoing sound and in turn it made her laugh lightly..
Sitting up quickly she threw her arms up as she forced all of the air otu of her lungs with a quick.."Daaammmnnn" and then let them fall dramatically to her sides, her hands flopping on the tight red leather seat..she was instantly struck with boredom and she let it show by slamming her palms down on the table top and drumming her fingers again, but bobbing her head to a def beat...then she wrinkled her nose and stood up into the seat and her eyes shifted all around her to those seated within the diner..
a devilish smile crossed her lips as she began to sing at the top of her lungs..."Got my first real six string..BOUGHT it at the five and dime...played it til my fingers bled...was the summer of 69!! Me and some guys from school had a band and we tried real hard..jimmy quit and jody got married..

How Pure Are You?You Are 64% Pure
Well, you're not exactly an angel - but you're pretty darn close.
But chances are, you have a couple juicy secrets deep in your closet.
How Pure Are You?

Chapter 5- Old Time Dinershe brought a hand to quickly cover her tummy..she hadn't exactly eaten in the past few days and the rumbling in her belly made it perfectly clear that if she didn't eat soon she would wither away and die.."Dumb luck" she let a push of air pass her lips as she revved the motor and headed down the street she needed a place to eat..
tuning into the cars AI she pressed a button or two on the radio pad..
"I'm hungry where can I get some grub.." she spoke loud and clear and then raised a brow as the radio began to emitt and low humming sound..the AI spoke loudly.."You do not have authorization to drive this vehicle.." a nice small pause.." You do not have authorization to drive this vehicle.." over and over again it repeated until she pressed the off button and threw both of her hands on the wheel..the thin wire stretching from the gears to the wheel as it reeled from the tip of her finger..
she muttered and pouted her lips.." stupid car..I didn't want your opinion anyway.." she huff

Are You Right Or Left Brained?You Are 35% Left Brained, 65% Right Brained
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.
Are You Right or Left Brained?

Chapter 4- New York City" I got my first real 6 string..over at the five and dime! played it till my fingers bled..it was the summer of 69!" The sound got louder and louder as her voice echoed through the valley..
" oh baby Bryan..sing it to me.." she squealed and wrinkled her nose..a faint glow had risen in her skin..she knew she couldn't stay in the sun for long due to certain bionical parts she had gotten long ago..but the thought was nice and the sun felt great..brown eyes opened and looked around as she sat up..
" damnit!" she cursed as she slid off of the car and pulled her overlay back onto her arms.." come here to get away and relax and its to freggin quiet!" she sighed and tossed her sunglasses back into her shirt pocket and she opened the car door..a blast of cold air hit her in the face and she chuckled..
" go figure..I say i'm tired and you give me the cold shoulder.." laughing she slid inside the car and started the engine.. she looked around and raised a brow.." where the hell am I?" th

Would You RatherVERY SIMPLE JUST SAY WHICH YOU WOULD RATHER DO AND SAY WHY IF YOU CARE TO
SO WOULD YOU RATHER...
Be hit on while in a public restroom, in front of 10 other women or not brush your teeth for a week?
Have a secret haunt for your whole life or never have had sex?
Shower with a a group of male convicts or have an addiction that almost ruined your life?
Be rich and famous but so alone or be happy but never be trusted by anyone?
Have a rude nickname follow you up to age 40 or lose a limb in a terrible accident at age 5?

Chapter 3- Hit The Road Jack!After a few moments of twisting this, checking that, turning that knob bumping on that..she pulled herself from under the car and rolled her eyes back.." oh baby..you make me so hot..!" she cried out and then looked over towards the guards and gave them an insane smile..
"wassup boies" she raised a brow and then pulled herself from the ground to stand and slowly move towards them..shoving her hands back into her back pockets she tilted her head tonguing her own mouth and stopping in the crease again..she raised a brow in their direction..."nothin?" she bent over laughing and then flung herself backwards to laugh out loudly, her voice ringing in the breeze.. then she looked back at them and with a wide set grin she choked.." HA!" she turned to walk back towards the car.." didn't think so.."
the two men exchanged glances and then shook their heads, returning to duty.
Again she grasped the door handle..lucky bastards didn't know what hit them as she slid into the drivers seat an

What's Your Eq (emotional Intelligence Quotient)?Your EQ is 133
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.
What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Chapter 2- I Love Cars!moving down the hall she sighed lightly and stopped at the end, just infront of her stood another window looking down upon the guards at the front door and the three men that had gotten out of the car.. but to her right was a set of stairs and she debated..~ do I go or do I stay?~ a soft chuckle escaped her lips and she tilted her head in thought..~I think I'll take my chances..~ she laughed out loud and pressed herself quickly to the wall, just milimeters from the open hallway leading down the stairs..
she brought her hands up infront of her and gave a devilish smile as her fingers entwined to make one of those childhood guns..if memory served her correct...~ thumb here..these two here..AH!~ she laughed again and held her stance..her knees bent and she used the wall to hold her particular small frame up.
again she pushed her tongue into the joint of her lips and probbed it absently..not long after standing there slouched like that..she heard footsteps coming up the hall..she gri

36%pureYou Are 36% Pure
You've either done it, thought about it, or at least heard about it.
Luckily, there's a few things left for you to try!
How Pure Are You?

Chapter 1- Kit, Introduction To The Womanwith a wry smile she brought a half gloved hand to wipe over the buzzed portion of her head..fingernails tickling with the prickle of the small hair.. her bright red lips pulled into a coy smirk as she tilted her head and wrinkled her nose while she looked at him..
what was she thinking...this man meant nothing to her.
a narrowly shaved brow lifted, the eye beneath tinted with a dark evergreen. her tongue slipped past and and slid over to a corner probbing the spot where her lips met and she lowered her eyes to the floor as she leaned back on a counter, the palms of her hands gripping its wooden edge, elbows slightly bent to support her weight.
Ah yes..her weight..she was a small bean of a girl..thin arms, small thighs..little feet and a just smaller than normal chest which was Adorne with a white wife beater underneath a tattered green over lay, the top half of the shirts buttons had been popped off long ago..the shirt itself lasted her for a good ten years or so..but that w

Her Shrill VoiceShe made me bleed
With her words.
Her shrill voice
was like a knife.
It stuck me
Violently.
It sliced the sinews
Of my heart
And it
Tore into my soul.
Such suffering
was to be expected,
Daily, weekly, monthy,
yearly, maybe eternally.
Or until the decision is made
To get the fuck out!!!!!!!

Kit-some Authors NotesThis is a story that started out as an RPG between myself and some friends. When the roleplay died, so did the muse for the character and her life. as this was written exactly how the rp went..
when you critisize me, remember i'm horrible with grammer !
Oh and I think I should tell everyone, that I wasn't the only one to write this story. Since it was based off of an RPG that I was apart of, some of the story is their writing, incorporated into my story :)

How Pure Are YouYou Are 52% Pure
You're usually the typical girl or guy next door...
But you also have a secret naughty side!How Pure Are You?

Thinking About Last WeekIm just sitting here and I went look for halloween stuff and think about last week.I went sent time with my friend and her lil girl.I meet her gf she is a sweet girl and her other family members of kristy.I sent most of mine time with hailie she only 16 months but I love her like she mine lil one.Her and her family had a tradey earlier this month the home they lived in went up in flames.So I was asked to babysitt and help her mom moved suff.Will we got most of stuff moved in her new place but she still needs clothes for hailie wear.So Im a mission to found her lil one close to wear.

What Makes A Man A Man?Sitting here
the little man stirring.
Feeling like a pubescent
boy trapped in a man's body.
What makes a man a man,
not a boy?
Is it how his body looks
and feels?
Is it how he sees the world?
Is it that he takes responsibility
for his actions?
Is it how he treats others?
Is it how he treats his mother?
Or is it how he acts rather than reacts?

Dont Get It!!!Well i really dont know how to blog on here.. but for the first time in 5 years i met someone i clicked with and without going into too much detail due to some said words that were bettter left unsaid to those not that close to me that got shot to shit and i guess they mean it when they say keep your friends close and your enimes closer because you never know who will turn on you first i guess learning the hard way is what i do best.. and just to clear up names... its no one who has lost cherry...lol.. im just saying that it hurts and it sucks that finally someone and its out of my control now.. and the worst part is its not like hes gonna be outta my life that in itself is another story better left if names and shit are unsaid.. !

My Encounter With The Lake Stevens Policei went on a walk.
and on my way back
i was looking down at my ipod changing the song
and i look up and theres a cop parked in front of me
i stop walking and he gets out
and he says
"you look like a reported run away. Whats your name"
and i say my name
and the question i was asking for was asked
"Why aren't you in school"
so i explain.
and then he asks for my address
i tell him
and he sends me on my way
my heart was beating pretty hard.
but i knew i did nothing wrong

Purity TestYou Are 12% Pure
You've been a very bad girl or boy...
And you probably enjoyed every minute of it.
How Pure Are You?

Why Make Me Say It Again?So, I am struggling with the strong desire to have an "ASS" Hall of Fame in my blog complete with pictures and commentary. Kinda like one of those maps that points out Dennys and Holiday Day Inns, it would point out the various ass stops here at LC. But, my inner bitch struggles with the anti-drama queen who would rather NOT field all the questions, bitching, whining and complaining that would quickly ensue.
Needless to say, we are back on my favorite topic on here. The Ass of the Day is the guy who actually comments on the private pictures disclaimer spewing all kinds of "respect" for my privacy. No sooner do I read that comment then a private message appears requesting access to the private folder. Now, as if that isn't silly enough; here is the part I love... When you actually get annoyed with me and say, "why do you post them online if you don't want anyone to see them". Why must me not wanting to share them with you, Mr. Stranger, be reason for a philsophical debate. S

Tart Card Are YouYou Are The Star
You represent the ultimate in truth and purity.
Insightful and illuminating, you provide guidance for others.
You also demonstrate unselfish, unconditional love.
You posses many spiritual gifts, including the ability to heal.
Your fortune:
Your future is looking brighter by the day.
The near future will be a time of both hope and healing.
Luck is about to come your way, perhaps the best luck you have ever seen.
Life is about to get a lot easier and much better!What Tarot Card Are You?

I WantThis is what I want for you..
I want you to find your drive in life
I want you to decide what you want to do with you life
I want you to set a goal for yourself
I want you to make a plan to get to that goal
I want you to figure out who you are
I want you to come to terms with your pain
I want you to reconnect with reality
This is what I want for me
I want someone with ambition
I want someone with a goal
I want someone that works hard
I want someone to stand beside me
I want someone that will do whatever it takes
I want someone to make me a better person
I want someone that won't lie to me
This is what I want from you
I want you to make me feel safe
I want you to love me with all you are
I want you to want to be with me
I want you to know what we could be
I want you to make me feel like you won't hurt me
I want you to make me number 1
I want you to love me like you do her
And maybe when you are there we can be

How Pure Are You?You Are 24% Pure
You've either done it, thought about it, or at least heard about it.
Luckily, there's a few things left for you to try!
How Pure Are You?

Wow!!! This One Hit HomeYou Are The Empress
You represent the ideal female figure: beauty and nurturing.
You bring security and harmony to many.
At times, you are also a very sensual person.
You are characterized by love, pleasure, and desire.
Your fortune:
You need to take some time to think about the role of commitment in your life.
It's possible you need to commit more to others, or deal with how others have treated you.
It is very important for you to support your friends and family right now, difficult as it may be.
You may need to look at your relationship with your mother, or your relationships as a mother.
What Tarot Card Are You?

Pics!!Hey guys! I finally got some freee time and posted a lot of pics today!! Check them out when you get a chance.
For those of you who are in my family (and you know who you are!) there are a lot of pics for you!! And please, don't ask to be in my family if I don't even know you!!! family is for those special people that I'm close to.
Ladies, I'd really love to hear back from you!!!!
Kisses

Well Im An AssholeApperantly i can never be forgiven for what i do. everything i do in life can and will be thrown back in my face as if im not important. everyone i must say that if you have something to say then just say it. According to everyone elses actions i have no feelings. I dont get mad, i dont cry, im never happy, and i dont love. So say what you want and i will take it in a bury as if it never exsisted. Thats the way everyone wants me to be then so be it.

Lol...i Think We All Already Knew The Answer To This OneYou Are a Total Tease
You're all about flirting and fun, but you often give guys the wrong idea
Most men think they have a chance with you... but come on!
You've got high standards, and most men you flirt with aren't going to make the grade
And while your tease act will work for a while, every guy you know will eventually be the wiser
Are You a Tease?

Sacrificethere are times in your life when you have to sacrifice all the things that you have!!! the laughter, tear and even the love that you have to that special person even if it hurts you so much. you think that why did it have to happened to you when you didn't do anything to hurt other person's feelings. you end up thinking that maybe God have some reasons why he gave you that trials, that you have to be strong and to face the fact that hurts you so much, but then again all that thing will not count if you think of the things you've shared together, all the happiness that you felt when you were with her or with him.that love isn't count how many wrong or error that he or she gave you, what matters is that once in your life you've feel his or her love to you. but then again fight the feelings of hurt that you feel inside. maybe that is sacrifice for me.

U.s. And British Soldiers In Anbar Region Need Care PackagesMy good friend Jason is deployed in Iraq..
He helped me get started on myspace and even helped come up with my contest game...
He and his troops are currently patrolling the Iraq border of Kuwaitt.
They are working side by side with the Brittish Army.
They are in need of care packages and letters...
Please find it in your heart to send something to our troops...
I know they are in need of shampoo....Beef Jerkey
magazines and t-shirts...preferably funny ones....
Also any letters of encouragement and love...
You can send your packages to
Jason Keefe
513th tc det (mct)
APO AE 09317
Thank you for supporting our troops and sending some love they're way..
Love Rob

If Only We Learn How To Forgive...Sometimes in life there are things that come our way that we thought we can't forgive or forget. But if we keep thinking of the sin or the thing someone did to us, i can say it is really hard to forgive, but then again if love is there in our heart and we think of the times when we share the love, the happy moments and all the things we enjoy together we can say yes I FORGIVE AND WE MUST START TO FORGET. We can only be free if we let go of the past, people fall and if nobody will give them a second chance, then they can never make up for their mistakes and prove themselves worthy. When there is love there is forgiveness. And when there is forgiveness there is always a promise of hope and the anticipation of better things to come.

Oh Boo Hoo.Apparently I pissed some people off with my last comment about pictures.
Cry me a river, Scarlett. I don't know nothin bout birthin no babies.
I know many of you carefuly select the images you post in profile and such, and I respect that. The image I was talking about I've seen at least 5,395,213 times. That's a bunch.
On second thought, to hell with you all. You never bring me donuts anymore.

Sadness...SADNESS...what does it really mean? do we have to be sad justs to know the meaning of this words, do we have to hurt other peoples feeling to feel the loneliness deep within. how can we escape the bitterness of this word. how can we cope up from the sadness your love one brings. do we have to cry and let the tears wash away the bitterness that we feel. or do we have to look back and smile for somewhere in the past there are happy memories in our heart. sadness...the very thought of it is what makes us sad.

I Love You Daddy!!!As a nine year old girl went to bed
She slid a pillow underneath her to rest her delicate head
Her eyes slowly closed, she was drifting to sleep
Dreaming of the ocean and its blues so deep
She awoke in the night around one o'clock
She dreaded being awake instead of on that dock
She sat up in bed and put her feet on the floor
When there was a loud noise, it came from behind the door
She closed her eyes tightly, straining to hear the sound
When she heard it again, it was a sudden pound
She ran over and swung wide open the door
There was nothing but another sound on the upstairs floor
She went up the stairs and looked around
I was horrible and painful of what she found
a hand brought to her mouth and a gun to the throat
Her eyes swarmed for fear as she put a hand on a man's coat
The light was turned on as she saw her bloody dad
As a hand pushed her onto the coach, she knew her father had been bad
A man with a mask walked to her side; she knew he was completely hi

This Is Funny!!!!Good dick is like a good pillow. It puts you to sleep and doesn't mind if you slobber all over it!!!!!

Scarred People Are Beautiful...Man Speak:
I've seen a number of movies lately, Lord like Romeo and Juliet.
The love of young people, at least in those movies,
is beautiful...
so simple... so total... so uncomplicated.
They seem so natural,
so free in their emotions, so clear in their feelings.
I wish i could be like that, Lord, but it can't be.
Why is it so?
I've been hurt lord.
I have trusted and been betrayed at times.
I have loved and received nothing in return.
I have tried hard to care and failed often.
I have shared my secrets and, heard them
whispered to others.
I have been warm and received a cold shoulder.
I have been through it, Lord.
I've fallen on my face.
I've banged my shins.
I've been bruised.
Look, Lord, I'm all covered with scars!
The Lord Speaks:
Maybe you haven't understood enough
Maybe you haven't learned tat human life is like that:
All Saints are scarred.
Young love isn't the highest form of human love.
The greatest love comes from scarr

What Every Woman Should KnowTHANK YOU BETTY...THIS INSPIRED ME!!!!!
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
A set of screwdrivers,
a cordless drill, and
a black lace bra..
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
One friend who
Always makes her Laugh...
And one
Who lets her cry...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
A good piece of furniture
not previously owned by
Anyone else in her family...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
Eight matching p lates,
Wine glasses with stems,
And a recipe for a meal that will
Make her guests feel honored.
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
A feeling of control over
Her destiny...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to fall in love
Without losing herself...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
HOW TO QUIT A JOB
BREAK UP WITH A LOVER
A

The Greatest Fall (of All Time) - Matchbook RomanceThe hand on my clock strikes two
In times when I got the best of you
We made promises we couldn't keep
And every night we couldn't sleep.
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
because it was the first time in my life,
yeah the first time in my life
Where I, did something right.
I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time
You pick me apart
While I search for witty things to say (In my defense)
"You'll never amount to anything anyway"
(Don't press your luck, don't press your luck)
And think that I'm impressed with your one night stands
and your contagious kiss
I'm trying to get this right
Yeah, cause I'm ridiculous like that
I'll keep this as
A constant reminder
Of the nights I spent holding onto her
And rest assured I'm moving on
I miss you less, with each day your gone (your gone)

"down With The Sickness"Can you feel that?
Ah, shit
Drowning deep in my sea of loathing
Broken your servant I kneel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems what's left of my human side
Is slowly changing in me
(Will you give in to me?)
Looking at my own reflection
When suddenly it changes
Violently it changes (oh no)
There is no turning back now
You've woken up the demon in me
[Chorus:]
Get up, come on get down with the sickness [x3]
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me
I can see inside you, the sickness is rising
Don't try to deny what you feel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems that all that was good has died
And is decaying in me
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems you're having some trouble
In dealing with these changes
Living with these changes (oh no)
The world is a scary

Our Song...iris - Goo Goo DollsVerse 1
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Verse 2
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Chorus
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Verse 3
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
Chorus
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Chorus
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I jus

"tear You ApartGot a big plan, his mind's set, maybe it's right
At the right place and right time, maybe tonight
In a whisper or handshake sending a sign
Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait never mind
Late night, in passing, mention it flip to her
Best friend, it's no thing, maybe it slipped
but the slip turns to terror and a crush to like
when she walked in he froze up, leave it to fright
It's cute in a way, till you cannot speak
And you leave to have a cigarette, knees get weak
escape was just a nod and a casual wave
Obsess about it, heavy for the next two days
It's only just a crush, it'll go away
It's just like all the others it'll go away
Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know
You pray it all away but it continues to grow
I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right
I want to hold you close
Soft breath, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to fucking tear you apart
Then

My LifeHI MY NAME IS TONI. IM 21 YEARS OLD AND I HAVE A GREAT MAN AND 2 GREAT KIDS. MY KIDS ARE 6 AND 2. I HAVENT HAD THE EASIEST LIFE BUT WHO HAS. I LIVE IN COLUMBUS OHIO. I WANT TO MOVE AND PLAN TO WITHIN THE NEXT FEW YEARS. I WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL TO BE A NURSE PLAN TO START COLLEGE AT THE BEGINING OF THE NEW YEAR. IM MY OWN PERSON.

I Hate ThisThe End // Fuck This
Current mood: aggravated
I sit here for hours staring at this screen not even realizing that I'm doing it. It seems the colder it gets the more it reminds me that hes gone. Its been almost a year. Almost a whole fucking year, I can't believe it. It seems like it was just yesturday. I keep burrying my thoughts deeper and deeper. Trying to forget the pain that has consumed my entire body for the past 10 months or so. Trying to remember what I felt like before he died. Remember how happy we were but that only seems to make the pain worse. Nothing has seesed to make it better. He's gone and it's my fault. Everyone says the understand but I honestly think they dont. How could they understand. They aren't going through what I am going through. I just want it to be over. I want it all to be gone. I dont want to forget Kyle just the pain that he has caused. I dont think its possiblebut I pray everyday it is. I loved him with everything I have to love, and I ruined i

The Clover TattooSo, most people ask me about my tattoo, and why the clover is pink. Here it goes...
I use to kinda live in an apartment with a girl named Daphne. Taylor also kinda lived there and Alan hung out there a bit and a few others.
We had a awesome party and after a night of drinking and such, Taylor, Daphne, Alan, and I were sitting on the floor and I realized I had a extra 100 bucks...
So I wanted to get my first tattoo..
Now, Taylor had been talking about how he wanted to get a clover, which led to me wanted to get a tattoo, but I didn't know what to get...
see where this is going...
Daphne wanted a tattoo, Tay wanted to clover and it was his idea, and Alan wanted to get inked too (even though he really wasn't supposed to before going into the coast gaurd)...
But a 100 bucks don't buy 4 tattoos...
So, we went door to door collecting cans, and after a lot of doors, cans and collecting we had another 120ish dollors, 20 for gas and 100 for the other two,
We ended

Finding Comfort In The Darkness By DemonrobberFinding Comfort In The Darkness
Goth girl
Just trying to get by
Searching for someone to love
Longing to break free of the chains that bind her
Cannot see the point in conformity
All those around her have let her down
Parents and teachers
Nothing they say has any meaning for her
She is looking for her own way
She sees glamour and pride in the gothic community
These people are proud to be different
Living life on the edge
A darker sense of adventure and enlightenment
The secrets are there to be found
Darkened awareness is there if you search for it
A new perspective on life
In which negatives can be turned into positives
Enter the world of darkness
And find comfort within
These people are hurting inside
Crying out to be loved
And this unusual company of misfits
Is like a pack of wolves
Looking out for each other
Even in your darkness you can find inspiration
Let your imagination light your path
And find you

Last NightI had a blast night at the club. So many guys so little time :)
I was a little sad because my best friend Carleena couldn't come. But she had a bad fever, I hope she feels better. I was hoping to go shopping for halloween stuff with her.
We haven't really hung out for awhile because of schdules. Although my friend Cherrie went but she spent most of her time talking to Joe. Which is fine because Joe is really awsome. I liked him at one point but he's not really my type. Too husky for my liking.
I find it funny none of the girls at the club like me or Carleena because their fucking jealous of both us. They don't like Carleena because she is so fucking pretty and thin. They don't like me because even though I am fat I still get loads of people that come up to me and talk to me.

How Far Are You Into Bdsm?You scored as bdsm and you. how kinky are you all these are in the form of the non dominate roles. bondage and discipline is a hush hush lifestyle and those who are in it tend to stay closed about it. kinda remind us about the gay and lesbian society doesnt it?bdsm and you. how kinky are you all these are in the form of the non dominate roles100%bdsm and bondage and disciplinecreated with QuizFarm.com

"picture"Livin' my life in a slow hell
Different girl every night at the hotel
I ain't seen the sun shine in 3 damn days
Been fuelin' up on cocaine and whisky
Wish I had a good girl to miss me
Lord I wonder if I'll ever change my ways
I put your picture away
Sat down and cried today
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to her
I put your picture away, sat down and cried today
I can't look at you, while I'm lyin next to her
I called you last night in the hotel
Everyone knows but they wont tell
But their half hearted smiles tell me
Somethin' just ain't right
I been waitin' on you for a long time
Fuelin' up on heartaches and cheap wine
I ain't heard from you in 3 damn nights
I put your picture away
I wonder where you been
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him
I put your picture away
I wonder where you been
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to him
I saw ya yesterday with an old friend
It was the same ole same "how have you

Strong EnoughGod, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
Iíd be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?
Nothingís true and nothingís right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you canít change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?
Lie to me
I promise Iíll believe
Lie to me
But please donít leave
I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
Itís try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?
When Iíve shown you that I just donít care
When Iím throwing punches in the air
When Iím broken down and I canít stand
Will you be strong enough to be my man?
Lie to me
I promise Iíll believe
Lie to me
But please donít leave

What's Your Fetish?You scored as Mutilation Fetish. Mutilation fetish: You love sex and you love getting the crap beat out of you while you do it! More power to ya!!!Bondage Fetish100%Mutilation Fetish100%Foot Fetish100%Scat Fetish25%What's Your Fetish?created with QuizFarm.com

Which Mythological Creature Are You?You scored as Mermaid. Mermaid: Mermaids are also known as Sirens. These creatures were beautiful women who tricked sailors into becoming completely entranced by their haunting voices and found death soon after. Not all stories of Mermaids are about gentle loving sea people. They are mystical, magical, and extremely dangerous. They have a way about them that brings anyone they are around to seem enchanted. They are very mysterious creatures and to meet one... Would mean certain Death. Let the song of the Sea fill your soul, for you are a Mermaid.Mermaid83%Angel83%Faerie83%Dragon59%WereWolf25%Demon0%What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)created with QuizFarm.com

Lisa Is A GirlLisa is a girl I had only seen her a few times with my friends. I found Lisa a distraction at times because she had a sexual aura about her as well as a dynamic personality. She had a very sexy look to her that made me excited every time I saw her. She had this killer body that made it hard for any man to resist. You see, she had long, beautiful hair surrounding her stunning eyes and this really cute face. She would look good in anything but when she would come over in a tank top and shorts she had all of my attention that I could give without me drooling like a puppy dog. Lisa had a natural, flirtatious style about her that had me spellbound, yet I had kept my distance out of respect.
The news came that she was selling her house and moving 200 miles away and I disappointed needless to say. Her realtor had made some suggestions to dress up the house. She called my friend and asked if she could come down and stay at his house while she took care of these house necessities. He agreed

Bummerslast week was a bad bad week for Stina
I failed tests in two classes, so now I have to work my ass off the rest of the semester for the faint hope of even passing those classes, thats unusal for me seeing as i normally do well in classes...fuck fuck fuck
And i was actually thinking that I was enjoying university life as compared to community college...fuck this
So I guess my internet is gonna be drastically cut as I need to work my ass off for a miracle...
So yea...love you guys, catch ya when Im on

Which Bathroom Appliance Are You?You scored as the "john". as the "john", you are unsanitary. don't forget to flush.the "john"81%shower56%bathtub44%sink44%what bathroom appliance are you?created with QuizFarm.com

Which Fetish Are You?You scored as Tb/dl. Congradulations, you have scored Tb/Dl. Tb stands for teen baby and Dl stands for diaper lover, But before you get freaked out do some reserch and find out more about your inner child trying to get out.Tb/dl100%Bdsm96%Gay/Lesbian93%Anime93%foot fetish86%Anal86%Boobies/nipples71%Beastiality0%Which fetish are you?created with QuizFarm.com

New Brands Of CondomsNike Condoms: Just Do It
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General Electric Condoms: We bring good things to life.
AT&T Condoms: Reach out and touch someone.
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What Is Your Hidden Sexual Talent?Using your mind
Your sexual hidden talent is your ability to use your mind. Sex is mostly in your mind and to your partners delight you have mastered the arts of seduction and atmosphere.
Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com
I had accidentally taken this quiz twice lol!!!
Using your hands
Your sexual hidden talent is your ability to use your hands. You are damn good with them, and know how to make your lover feel incredibly sexy with just one caress.
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DarknessDARKNESS SPEADS ITS WINGS OVER THE WORLD AT NITE NOONE CAN SEE UR HEAR IT UR FEEL IT DARKNESS COMES AN GOES LEAVE US IN SO MANY WAYS SAD, HAPPY , NEVER KNOWING WHEN IT WILL HIT US DARKNESS HAS ITS WAYS OF MAKING US FEEL
DARKNESS SPEADS OVER THE WORLD ..

Dear VodkaDEAR VODKA ....
I BEG YOU TO SEE FROM MY POINT OF VIEW
YOU SEE NOTHING BUT BODY
I SEE NOTHING BUT MIND
YOU SEE NOTHING BUT A BOTTLE WITH SUMTHING INSIDE
I CANT STAY HERE FOREVER YOU SAY YOU WANNA BE MY FRIEND ASSUMING IM CRAZY CAUSE IM ME AN SPEAK WHATS ON MY MINE BROKEN PROMISES AN BROKEN GLASS BOTTLES WITH NO COTROL YELLING AN CRYING BLOWING MY NOSE SO I CAN BREATH THEN TAKE A SIP OF VODKA IT SOUNDS CRAZY BUT IM TIRED OF BEING THIS NOBODY LET THE WAVES ROLL OVER ME AN TAKE ME A DRINK JUST TASTE THAT VODKA GOIN DOWN THE WARM FEELING TAKIN OVER NOW YOU KNOW LET ME HAVE ANOTHER SIP ....
PS.
SORRY I WAS DRUNK WHEN I DID THIS ONE ....

Fuct To Hell!!Why does it seem like when everything is going wrong, and your life starts to change for the better, somethin happens to Fuck it up all over again??

Please Send Me WishesHi all...I went to the doctor today for a normal check up. Ha Ha what a joke. My doctor found a lump in my breast. I have to have it looked at and I am scared to death. I was wondering if all my friends and fans could just keep me in there thoughts. I sure would be grateful. Well I am off to take a nap. lol Hope you all have a great day.
Kisses Kadee

DriftingMany of us feel the need to question life. Sometimes we are fortunate to find the answers we seek, and sometimes we find ourselves just drifting endlessly, searching for the answers that seem to constantly elude us.
Drifting
by Kit McCallum
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the

Which Horror Killer Are You?You scored as Hannibal Lecter. You are Hannibal Lecter. You dont need to eat human flesh to live, but do so because it just taste good. You are very intelligent, and enjoy using it to your advantage to keep people guessing. You arent a killing machine, but when you do decide to let loose, watch out! Dinner is served, with some fava beans, and a nice chianti!Pinhead100%Hannibal Lecter100%Buffalo Bill80%Freddy Krueger80%Jigsaw80%Leatherface60%Captain Spaulding40%Jason Voorhees40%Michael Myers40%Candyman40%

FriendsWhy is it that when someone makes a mistake they get crusified for it over and over and over again.It makes no sense to me. Which is why I am starting to hate the human race...I am not perfect far from it and I know I can be a complete ass...I just wish my friend would just forget about the past and move on....To start over..I know I messed up and I believe I am paying for it through my health...Which is getting worse by the second.....Maybe I should just do something about this....

Please Help Me Out....I have over 700 friends and I have only 750 votes in my contest..... Please show me some support!! Please go vote for me... I need ratings AND comments... not sure yet how the voting will be.....Thanks to all my friends!! Much Love!! Harleygal

Reason Men Like Being A GuyREASONS I LOVE BEING A GUY:
Phone Conversations are over in 30 seconds flat.
You know stuff about tanks.
A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase.
You can open all your own jars.
Dry cleaners and hair cutters don't rob you blind.
You can go to the bathroom without a support group.
You can leave the motel bed unmade.
You can kill your own food.
You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness.
Wedding plans take care of themselves.
If someone forgets to invite you to something, he or she can still be your friend.
Your underwear is $10 for a three-pack.
If you are 40 and single, nobody notices.
Everything on your face stays its original color.
You can quietly enjoy a car ride from the passenger's seat.
Three pairs of shoes are more than enough.
You don't have to clean if the meter reader is coming.
Car mechanics tell you the truth.
You can quietly watch a game with your buddy for hours without ever thinking: "He must be mad at me."
Gray hair and wrin

Earned SightNails for eyes, they give me sight, pierced through my brain, jammed in so tight.
The pain of rust filling my head.
I take this hammer, and with this I
say,
"Nails I made a new friend today".

Have You Ever Stopped To Think Whether The Inanimate Things Around Us Also Have Genders?Have you ever stopped to think whether the inanimate things around us also have genders? Believe it or not, they do! Check out these things we use in our daily lives, who would have though!?!
Ziploc bags are male, because they hold everything in, but you can see right through them.
Copiers are female, because once turned off; it takes a while to warm them up again. It's an effective reproductive device if the right buttons Are pushed, but can wreak havoc if the wrong buttons are pushed.
A tire is male, because it goes bald and it's often over-inflated.
A hot air balloon is male, because, to get it to go anywhere, you have to light a fire under it, and of course, there's the hot air part.
Sponges are female, because they're soft, squeezable and retain water.
A subway is male, because it uses the same old lines to pick people up.
An hourglass is female, because over time, the weight shifts to the bottom.
A hammer is male, because it hasn't changed much over the last 5,000 years,

Poem-INTESNITY-
I dream of making love to you, suspended 50 feet above ground level.
So Happy for me, you; us.
Your beautiful eyes looking through to my soul as we drift effortlessly through the sky.
Having one spectacular orgasm after another.
Floating through sunshine with flowers blooming below and birds swooping above; singing the most fantastic bird songs you've ever heard.
We're just dazzling creatures of light eminating such fierce energy from our love making that our last orgasm casues us to burst into a million particles of light.
Exploding together we form a whole new universe; and become the universe.
Then, we live on.. Forever...

Wanting HimShe gazed at him with lust and passion in her eyes. She could hardly touch the food on her plate. The thought of fucking and sucking his cock was more than she could bare. She had been waiting for him oh sooooooo long. He had teased her with his erotic emails for weeks, and now they were finally together. Thoughts soon began to enter her mind. Naughty thoughts of what she wanted to do to him. Her pussy began to soak her soft, silk panties. She slid her fingers down to rub her wetness and moved to her clit. Her clit throbbed in anticipation of what was to come when she got him back to the room. Once there, her animalistic passions took over. She pounced on him once they were in the room. She kissed him, and sucked on his lower lip. She feverishly wiggled her tongue around his as she grabbed his cock through his pants. Her pussy was soaked and her clit throbbed!!! She grabbed him and threw him down on the bed forcefully!!! She grabbed for his zipper like a tigress on the hunt. She wanted

What's Your Kinky Turn On?You scored as Bondage. Your turn on is bondage... all out. You don't have a specific part of kinky sex that turns you on more than any other... everything working together turns you on. And why shouldn't it? Sex isn't sex without all the trimmings.Whips100%Biting100%Chains/Handcuffs100%Blood100%Bondage100%Blind Folds67%What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with QuizFarm.com

What Animal Are You?A Peacock
A peacock represents your sexual appetite. You like to look good to attract potential lovers and you are very preoccupied with sex Ė not that that is a bad thing. You are into fantasizing, and enjoy sex a lot.
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Bottle Of Good Winebottle of good wine, candles and soft music a gentle massage with scented oils starting at my feet working your way up my body relieving all my tension as you caress every inch of my legs, thighs,across my belly and up towards my breasts paying special attention to my hardening nipples,.........kissing my neck, shoulders trailing your mouth and tongue back down my entire body.........gently parting my legs planting soft kisses on my most sensitive inner thighs and up to my now moist parted lips........using only your tongue i trace the outline of you glistening sex befor sliding it between my lips moving from bottom to top pausing only to tease my hardening clit gently taking it into your mouth sucking and nibbling on it....making you give a little shudder as the first of many orgasms take over filling your mouth with my sweet juices.....you take all I give you before kissing your way up my body........ raising yourself up onto my outstreched arms looking deeply into my arms you push f

09-26-06Just some updates
Mikes sons girlfriend had her baby early apparently her cervix was to short and she was going to have to stay in the hospital til her baby was born the baby is now born they took it csection yesterday around 1 or 2 I think...maybe later.
She was only 6 and half months preg and they did an emergency csection....the baby was 11 and 1/2 inches long and 1lb 14ounces...
She has a full head of black hair and baby blue eyes...we are giong to see her tonight..YEAYYY...
so far she is breathing some on her own, she is not in an incubator yet...but my aunt who is nurse said it will happen til she gets a little bit bigger..
ON another note...
My grandmother was rushed to the ER saturday night and we went down to see my grandmother ...we didnt get home til about 340 am tuesday morning...but she was on her death bed when she had went into the er..she has pneumonia and her congestive heart failure has gotten ten times worse but when we left this morning she was doi

Halloween Marble Cake2 boxes cake mix
4 cans frosting
Oil and water (as directed on packaged cake mix)
Flour (for dusting)
Pastry tips and bags (optional)
Pan
Food coloring
Follow directions on boxes of mix. Preheat oven to 350 degrees while mixing batter. Grease and flour cake pan. Pour batter into pan. If you have two different flavors, take a knife and swirl it through the batter. Bake for at least 35 minutes. Let cool 2 hours. Get all frosting, materials and tips; put vanilla frosting in bowls and add food coloring. Stir, then design your cake. After you've finished, put cake in refrigerator until ready to serve.

The DenThe Alpha male stood, and stretched. He looked around the security of the den. The Pack had grown to a powerfull group. The male was pleased with the pack members that now slept within the safe haven. He stepped out to the morning light as it filtered thru the trees. As he exited the den he filled his nostrils with the crisp air. A tremor shock within him. DANGER, echoed in his mind. He has smelt this before. The wolf quickly took cover in the nearby brush.
He waited to see if the enemy was coming twards the den. He could clearly hear the footsteps coming nearer and nearer. They were coming. They canot know the location of the den. He thought.
I must lead them away from our future.
Just then they appearded across the clearing. And in one powerfull swift moment the Alpha Male ran right at them. Not a sound was made as his powerfull legs shot him twards them. As soon as they spotted him, he changed directions and headed twards the deep woods. They must not find the den and the rest of

What Is Your Sexual Style?You scored as Violent. You are violent. To you there is nothing better than a good spank. You like scratching and biting 'cause that's what people are for.Hot100%Violent100%Wet100%Exciting75%Sweet38%Soft38%Awkward0%Shy0%What is your sexual style?created with QuizFarm.com

At Water's EdgeAt Waters Edge
As the darkness of Night
envelops and caresses all
With her blanket of darkness
Spark of light pierces the dark
Flames dancing
to our deep stare
Warm skin tempered with cool night breezes
Soothe and melt us unto calmness
Children of that night
We came to play
festive and joyous
offering our service and devotion
To each other
She rises to my wondrous gaze
Slowly strip teasing me
My nature rising to the soft sensual moves of her person
Trembling, tingling, moaning deeply
Kneeling before hger
professing my devotion to
My Goddess of the Night
My hands tenderly caress her
Taking my hands
Pacing them to her big bouning breasts
Please Goddess Well
dedicated and devoted
Warmly and deeply
massaging her glorious breasts
nipples kneeded gently
Rollig between my fingers
hands travel seductiviely
Tongue flickering with need
Turnign her tush to ym wondrous gaze
Tongue traveling, caressing her legs, thighs tush
Drink form

How Kinky Are You?You are 90% kinky
You are crazy kinky. Do you ever think of anything other than sex?
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On The Counter!! (adult)We were working on our Business Plan for our Business tech the next day, when we decided we needed a break. We had been planning to take a bath later that night but we were tired and wanted one now. I walked into the bedroom, and quietly undressed to get the bath ready as she finished her homework. She walked into the bathroom with only her black lacy panties on and I bent over to turn on the water. I only got the hot water turned on before somebody was touching me, caressing my ass. I turned around and passionately kissed her. She gently pulled down my briefs. As we stood there kissing, I got harder and she wetter thinking about what we wanted. I wanted to be inside her, to make love to her like it was our last. I slid my hands over her breasts and down her tummy. I was getting so hot. Then I slid my fingers inside her, touching and teasing her G-spot. MMMMMM... She moaned it felt sooo!! Good!!!. All I could think about was the bathroom counter, was she tall enough? I didn't have much

Halloween - Black Cat CakeCake mix, devils food extra moist type works best
Plus ingredients called for on box
Dark chocolate frosting
Assorted sm. candies; i.e, M&M'Sģ & gum drops
1 sm. tube decorating frosting (orange or green or ?)
Pipe cleaners, construction paper & lots of imagination
Prepare 2 stainless steel mixing bowls as you would a cake pan (grease and flour); 1 bowl should be smaller then the other (we use 5 3/4 inch diameter and 7 3/4 inch diameter). Prepare cake mix per box directions and pour into prepared mixing bowls in equal depths. Bake per box (baking time will vary; usually takes 45 minutes to an hour; check with wooden pick for doneness.)
Turn baked bowl cakes out on cooling racks. When cool, cut in half, this will be the paws. Set the cat up on a platter. Frost with chocolate frosting. The kids can make a tail and ears out of cardboard; coloring in with crayons. The face is out of decorator frosting. The whiskers are pipe cleaners. Eyes, nose are candies. This cake has become a

MovingWell its been fun being in Pennsylvania, but unfortunately my hunnie and I are moving back to Ohio some time this week, possible as soon as Wednesday. We won't have the internet for a while, so if I don't get back to you, that's why. I will miss being on here, and meeting new people every day.
I don't think I'll be on line after tonight because we are starting to pack out junk up, and pack the truck.
Please leave me a comment for when I get back.

New Day DawnsNew day dawns
rain and gloominess
blankets the countryside
As I lay listening and sighing to the rain's dancign on my window
Journey to kitchen in ym birthday suit
Lover stands wiht me, holding and Kissing me
The familiar mornign smells of coffee and cinnamon fill the air
As our passion is renewed
Go sit on the couch Lover purrs
I walk weak in the knees with anticipation
Sitting down, totaly nude and hard
My body quakes violently as Lover comes into the Livingroom to join me
Lover straddlkes my lap
her arms wrapped warmly around my neck
pressing deeply into me
her gorgeous breasts pressed to ym hungry lips and tongue
Her Sex already dripping with love nectar
Lover pumps against my shaft
my tongue dances on her soft sexy breast skin
worshipping her nipples gloriously
The crack of Thunder accompanies her wild Amazon moans
My hunger voiced in my deep moans as I feast on her dark brown nipples
Work comes early this morning, but we do not care at all
Ou

... And Not Always Something Goodyes, it's not being a nice day
few things happened yesterday night, and now i feel depressed...
i can't do my work (and i need to be concentrated because it's programming)
and my coworkers started to notice i'm not very well and they keep asking what happens
but i can't hide it, and my face tells everything...
i'm listening this song, and trying to follow what it says...
and i just pray so the pain i feel is gone soon...
.....
Thats not the beginning of the end
Thats the return to yourself
The return to innocence.
Love - devotion
Feeling - emotion
.
Love - devotion
Feeling - emotion
.
Dont be afraid to be weak
Dont be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
.
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself dont hide
Just believe in destiny
.
Dont care what people say
Just follow your own way
Dont give up and use the chance
To return to innoce

What's The Best Type Of Sex For You?You prefer Rough sex!
You like it ROUGH. Hard, great, wonderful slamming sex is your type of sex. More the product of lust than love - and utterly horny - rough sex is what satisfies you.
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What Will You Go To Jail For?Hazel will go to jail for ...
Celebrating nude day
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RevealedRecently two but more than likely one monster was unveiled by hard work of an LC mod and a few pack members. This was a painfull discovery but it is for the better of the site. This is what we are about. Sniffing out the evil and calling it like it is. The scum and monters of this site no longer will roam free to do whatever they want. We will speak the truth and call it by name. We will expose the creatures that think they can lie and hurt people. Pack stand firm, Friends of the pack keep up the good work. And kudos to the LC mods that are working diligently to work tward the same goal as us.
Howl with me Pack.

Ahh Hell Its Only TuesdayToday sux a big hairy ass..I have a bad ass headache.. My tooth is fucking killing me.. We're training a damn retard up here at work.. Damn.. I just wanna go home.. and crawl under my bed

How Are You In Bed?You scored as A Slave To BDSM. Admit it, you like being tied up and being told you've been very naughty. You like teasing your partner and making them squirm, and not letting them be able to do anything about it. Some people think what you do is sick and disgusting, but you know it's all in good fun.A Slave To BDSM100%Sex God90%A Romantic45%Virgin10%How are you in bedcreated with QuizFarm.com

Confucious Says:1. Virginty like bubble-one prick, all gone.
2. Man who run in front of car get tired.
3. Man who run behind car get exhausted.
4. Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day.
5. Foolish man give wife grand piano, wise man give wife upright piano.
6. Man who walk through airport turnstile sideways going to Bangkok.
7. Man with one chopstick go hungry.
8. Man who scratches ass should not bite fingernails.
9. Man who eat many prunes get good run for his money.
10. Baseball is wrong: man with four balls cannot walk.
11. Panties not best thing on earth, but next to best thing on earth.
12. War doesn't determine who is right, war determines who is left.
13. Wife who puts husband in doghouseoon find him in cathouse.
14. Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night.
15. It take many nails to fill crib, but one screw to fill it.
16. Man who drive like Hell bound to get there.
17. Man who stand on toilet is high on pot.
18. Man who lives in glass house should c

How Sexual Are You?You scored as A Sicko. You are a SICK FUCK!! You would do almost anything to get off. You know how to be wild, try new stuff and let loose and be crazy. You are at the top of the Horny/Sexual ladder, a very coveted paosition by many. People call you Sick, but those are the ones that think it but don't have the balls to do it. You will be an exploding sex partner, if they can handle it.... Rock On.A Sicko100%Very Kinky100%Average50%A WUSS !!10%How sexual are youcreated with QuizFarm.com

Stalkers Suck And Are Fucked In The HeadWell you think you got me again well go to hell as of now i am done adding people cuz if you are sent by people to bug me then your assholes cuz you follow the crowd and your stupid so if youare in league with assholes in love stinks 7 then get the hell off my list and leave me alone ok so linda manny nikki ray woody debra and Cheri and your sister leave me the fuck alone a grow up bitches don't need ya and don't wnat ya already toll rolling off so go fuck yourselves and get a life stalkers

Sex I.q.You have a sexual IQ of 156
When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends.
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Rebirthits not easy being single again...learning to live life as one....who is going to decide where i eat...what i do and how i do it....and if i did it right...

The Olive TreeA confused sub came before a wise Master who adored her. She felt that to submit to him would mean she would open her heart to unbearable pain should he ever leave her. She hungered for him and needed him, but was ready to walk away in panic.
The gentle Master knelt her before him and started a tale of love and devotion. As she looked up at him his arms began to widen and open like a large tree stretching its branches to the sky. At that moment the Master appeared rooted to the floor and His impressive size towered above her like a giant tree. Then he began to speak.
"I am here for you, now and always, no matter how far time and space takes us. Whether you walk away from me today or stay and serve me I will not turn from you because I am as patient as time itself.
I will take not from you unless you give freely and completely of yourself, but I give onto you regardless because for my love is unconditional. Like the olive tree that can both feed and shade you, I am here eternal

ZodiacVirgo
You are shy at first, and because of that, it is hard for you to find lots of random sex partners. You are very intelligent and very into sex.
You will only have sex with clean people, because you are afraid of getting an STD. You are also very kinky and imaginative in the sack. Your partners always have a hard time keeping up with you.
Sex matches: Taurus, Capricorn, Scorpio
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Ohio Here We Come!Ok so we'll not have internet for a few weeks cause we are MOVING to OhiO! I can't wait! I'll miss being able to talk on the phone all hours of the night...but it'll be that way when I get my own place again. Going to be staying with my parents for a few weeks till our apartment is ready.
On another note...why do people get so obsessed with this site? Who wants to spend the rest of their lives in front of a computer screen instead of getting out and enjoying, LIVING, life? Not Me!
So to all my friends...you'll find I'll not be online as much. I want a real life...not one stuck up in a house...infront of a computer screen...
Good luck to all of you! Much Love!

HauntedHaUnTeD
Current mood: touched
Category: Music
Haunted_____ type o negative
A swollen sun melting at the horizon
Between the sheets I wait for her to come
A living flame, impossible to resist
Burning me deep with every bite, kiss and lick
I'm haunted
I'm haunted
I'm haunted (by her)
Invades my sleep with tumescent intentions
Hades I'm sure must be missing a demon
I hate the morning
I hate the morning
From the panes a green mist swirls
Is it a shadow of reflection
This apparition in moon beams bathed
A voice like wind through trees beckons
Cool rain on hot summer stone
The odor fills my presence
Of freshly dug grave and deatha nd night
These things are her essence
Nocturnal mistress, spirit lover
your mouth of wine and woodsmoke taste
My goddess of the violet twilight
You are lust incarnate
In the sweat of my bed
The eastern sky hints of dawning
Alone and awake but exhausted I lie
Oh how I hate the morning
I hate the morning (light)

Someone Please Tell Mesittin here wondering why i am always the one who gets shit on .maybe i should quit being so soft hearted i dont know. everytime i think i got something goin....BAM i find out other wise. why is it MY feelings......MY heart is the one that always gets stomped and trashed on . i dont wanna be a bitch cuz that is jsut somethin i aint but dam i am sick of being put down cuz of my fat rolls or sick of eing told i am a sweetie and this and that then come to find out that is not the real thought behind half the people i talk to so from now on if ya aint true about it dont be tellin me lies feeding me a line of shit someone please tell em why this always happens to me and what i can do about it cuz i tell ya i am about sick of it i am a good person ya knwo and wanna well shit nvm i am ramblin on about shit that prolly half of the people on here could care less about sorry for being bitchy ay all tis been a rough few weeks

Boyfriend ApplicationBF/GF APPLICATION
Name:
Age:
Location:
Birthday/zodiac sign?
Favorite food?
Least Favorite food?
Can you cook?
Favorite color?
How well do we know each other?
Do you have a good sense of humor?
Favorite music?
Favorite band?
Would you losten to my music sometimes too?
Do you do drugs?
Drink?
Longest relationship?
How many boys/girls have been with? ((im not judmental xD))
Would you rather stay in or go out?
Are you easily jealous?
What do you like best about me?
What don't you like about me?
Have you ever cheated? If so why?
Do you like rock concerts? ((I DO!! =]]))
Have any tattoos? If so what and where?
Peircings/where?
Which is more important: looks or personality?
Are you romantic?
On our first date what would we do? Second??
Do you drive?
Have a Job?
What makes you a good bf?
Would you Cuddle with me?
Hold my hand?
Kiss me just b

Being Sick Sucksi cannot think.. i can hardly type.. i see bullitens i want to reply to and post to and I think if I tried I would likely screw something up... so manybe i will try later
though some, if i replied to them would likely think.. wow.. this is a shocker... he replied. LOL
nyquill is kicking my hiney too... gonna nap
bye

RisksRisks
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas, your dreams before the crowd is to risk thier loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair.
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. The person who risks nothing does nothing, has nothing and is nothing. He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love , LIVE. Chained by his certitudes, he is a slave, he has forfeited freedom.
Only a person who risks is free.

It's, It IsIt's, It Is
It's....
....beautiful if it makes you feel good inside.
....honest if it has nothing to hide.
....worthless if you don't need it anymore.
....better if it's more than you expected before.
....true if it's what you choose to believe.
....important if that's how you feel when you bleed.
....special if only you see it that way.
....sacred if no one else can take it away.
....painful if you cannot get out of bed.
....lifeless if all emotion is dead.
....boring if you are prone to distraction.
....exciting if your heart is alive with affection.
....love if you least expect it to happen.
....real if it's not based on manipulation and reaction.
....over if they try to control who you are.
....freedom if you can heal from the scars.
....sad if you feel too numb to cry.
....pointless if you have to ask why.
....meaningless if it must be explained.
....useless if words are spoken in vain.
....passion if it overwhelms the soul.
....obse

Weeeeeee!!!!!Ok I am about to make a confession...are you sitting down? Good....just had to say something that's been on my mind for a while and I can't hold it in any long? *breaths* here goes...
I'M BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
Well actually I'm in this God annoying class thinking about anything else but this damn place. I am counting down the days...oh baby 30 days left. And I am outta here *does snoopy dance* So now I just have to have all my good loyal friends to contribute to the Cynical Villain Graduation Fund.... Evil Grin!!!
Oh well back to class....

PoemI AM-
I am dark, I am bleak.
I am the one Di-a-bo-lique!
The Aboriginal; existing before all.
Nomatter how hard you try, know I will never fall!
I am your maker, your detroyer.
Your Prince and Your princess.
I AM ANA/MIA!
I am your one; Your all.
I'm the reason you stand tall!
I am Your Will; I am Your Grace.
I'll keep a smile apon your face!
I am the one whom you'll adore...
I keep you coming back for more.
I AM ANA/MIA!

You Found Me -- Written By Me.There once was a time, when I almost gave up
Searching for a real Master seemed impossible ... Then You found me.
There once was a time, after hearing so many lies I felt as if I couldn't go on anymore
Because I was afraid to trust anyone ... Then You found me.
You have given me hope, desire and sparked the flame in my soul to serve again
Because I believe in You ... I trust You ... I want to please You.
You found me and I am so thankful.
To: Sir Emil
Written by: dayna
8/1/2006

HiWelcome to my new web page everyone.
If you want to stay in contact with me, you can join my web page and I will keep in contact with all of you. Also to, if you want, you can join my online address book also. here's the link to my Plaxo.com online address book;
Add me to your address book
Well, I've got to run, Hope you all have a great day.
Your Friend,
Gary

Learning To Trust Again -- Written By MeIíve always believed in the importance of trust,
Even though others made that almost inconceivable to do.
They told me things they knew Iíd desired to hear,
Rather than the truth which caused me torment and pain.
How do I learn to trust again, thatís a good question?
I find even when You have given me no reason to doubt you,
Some of those painful thoughts flood my mind, bringing back in the doubt.
And I donít want that to happen again.
I want to trust you, there has got to be a way.
I donít want to disappoint you again, I only want to please you.
Be patient with me as I know you can,
I will do my best not to let you down again.
Iím not perfect, and may fall down from time to time,
Just tell me youíll be there, to pick me back up,
And point me in the right direction.
Written for: Sir Emil
By: Dayna
August 20, 2006

PoemBliss-
I'm falling into this bliss
(can you catch me)
Grasping at the thick smoh
(can you help me)
Screaming so loud I peirce the ears of the angels above
(can you hear me)
Please, I beg you!
Don't leave me in this rancid stench for all eternity
Please, I beg you!
Save me from this internal Hell I've created
Please, I beg You!
Save me from myself; Don't let me get me!
Please... I beg you!

Black OrchidOn a warm afternoon, there sat a sweet seedling waiting to bloom.
She was gently guided to the garden by a sweet storm, a most welcomed summer rain storm.
The little seedling firmly planted herself, her roots are strong, and she is still vulnerable, but she continues to grow . . .
She has tasted the rain, the sun, the solitude of herself. The space were she resides, she is no longer afraid of, for she knows she is safe there and has blossomed . . .
Her black velvet skin is soft to the touch, she is statuesque with rubinesque qualities and her head is held high, accepting the rain as it falls gently on her.
She has changed from a little seedling, to a blossoming sweet black orchid.
In the garden where she sits, she waits for her very first touch . . .
The sweet nectar dripping from her petals, attracting only the strongest of black butterflies.
She is still delicate, has so much more to learn, and just as much to give . . . trusting only

Bored As Hellhey ppl plz send me a message or send me somethin
if your a hot young lady or w/e yea come talk to me cuz even on here we all can have a good time ;)

S&m Vs. AbuseSM play differs from abuse in many of the same ways that a judo match differs from a mugging. Consider the differences:
1. SM play is always consensual (according to the definition of consent on Page 3*). Abuse is not.
2. SM players plan their activities to minimize the risks to one anotherís physical and emotional well-being. Abusers do not.
3. SM play is negotiated and agreed to ahead of time. Abuse is not.
4. SM play can enhance the relationship between the players. Abuse cannot.
5. SM play can be done in the presence of supportive others -- even at parties given for this purpose. Abuse needs isolation and secrecy.
6. SM play has responsible, agreed-upon rules. Abuse lacks such rules.
7. SM play may be requested, and even eagerly desired, by the submissive. Nobody overtly asks for abuse -- although self-destructive people may sometimes attempt to provoke it.
8. SM is done for the consensual erotic pleasure and/or personal growth of both or all participants. Abu

The Volupt Lounge Annual Halloween Party!The Volupt Lounge
Michigan's Premier Social Group for the Size Community!
Welcome to a TRULY size-friendly place to meet other great people both online and off!
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Saturday, October 21 - Halloween Costume Party/Dance!
Dearborn Elks Lodge
25000 Michigan Ave (1/2 mile w of Telegraph)
8pm-1am
$10 cover, DJ Patrick, Dancing, cash bar, free munchies, door prizes, FUN FUN FUN!
We'll be having a costume contest, so start planning yours now!
If you're new, make sure you let the people at the door know so we can have one of our greeters introduce you to a few people and find you a friendly place to sit!
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Saturday, November 18 - Holiday Party/Dance
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A Craving!!!A Craving
by Bigg-G
A CravingÖ
When I think of cravings
I think of women caving
In to their hormonal taste buds
While they await the birth
of their newborns
However the craving that
I have is not of food.
Although I do hunger for the taste of something good.
Sometimes when you are too hungry
You settle for anything, even when in your
Heart of hearts that itís not the best thing
For you to have.
But your desire is to feed the need.
And to tame the hunger beast from within.
Even though itís not what you
Really want to eat.
So I accept the meal graciously
I savor each bite because
my situation is precarious.
Who knows when my next meal
When come again.
Be blessed with what you have is
What grandma always used to say
Itís been a time when the meals I had before
Werenít the most appetizing.
In fact my lips have met with poison on several
Occasions.
Causing havoc within my bodyÖmy mind, my heart,
And my soul -- food poisoning of the worst kind.
I came acros

How Can It Be?How can it be
how can people be as sick as they are?
How can someone hurt an innocent child for no reason at all cept that they're crying?
How can it be that the world makes so many bad people?
how can it be that parents throw their kids away?
In truth they are throwing a little peice of themselves away.
Must be all the hate they see inside and they try to hide it by acting like they're right.
How can people treat their kids like complete shit and then act like they are the good parent?
How can it be that people judge someone on the cloths they wear and pass you off as a bad person?
How can the world be so cruel that they have to push their opinions on you?
How can a person steal away someones innocence and act like it means nothing at all?
It seems like we can fight every day all day long and these people in the end win.
They win everytime they turn a good person bad.
They win everytime they make a happy person sad.
They win everytime they make a honest person lie.
T

Can You Tell I'm Bored. Lol1. WHAT MADE YOU SMILE YESTERDAY? I was aggy so I didn't.
2. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT 8 THIS MORNING? Wishing I could sleep.
3. WHAT WERE YOU DOING 15 MINUTES AGO? Putting my laundry in the dryer and another load in the wash.
4. SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED TO YOU IN 1995? I had my daughter.
5. LAST THING YOU SAID ALOUD? Okay, bye.
6. HOW MANY DIFFERENT THINGS DID YOU DRINK TODAY? just diet coke and cranapple mixed together.
7. WHERE IS YOUR BEST FRIEND RIGHT NOW? prolly work.
8. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR TOOTHBRUSH? Blue of course
9. WHAT IS OUT YOUR BACK DOOR? my porch
10. LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? chinese food.
11. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? A pilates ball, D&B Bag/ $500
12. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR FRONT DOOR? white
13. WHERE DO YOU KEEP YOUR CHANGE? In a handpainted ceramic bowl on the dresser.
14. WHATS THE WEATHER LIKE TODAY? actualy really nice for a change. Bout 65degrees.
15. BEST ICE CREAM FLAVOR? Rockyroad
16. SOMETHING YOURE EXCITED AB

What Colour Represents MeYou scored as Purple. Purple is powerful, just like you. You are a very devoted person that likes to get things finished and you do this by balancing out fun and seriousness. This way you get the best of both and no matter what always end up winning. You are very competitive, driven and have an aura of mystery about you which sometimes people find astounding.Black100%Purple100%Pink100%White100%Blue83%Green72%Red56%Orange50%Yellow0%Which Colour Represents You???created with QuizFarm.com

If I Knew Thenwhen i was young i dreamed of a girl that i would love. when i got older i found her. but she didnt feel the same.. she broke my heart. so for a few years i fellowed her lead, breaking hearts as i went.when i found another i detacated mysalf to her only to be let down again... pay back for the way i acted?? a heart can be true but infected with hate.. break the chain and try always to be true to your self and others because it always come back to you

If You Have Kids Or Even If You Care About Kids!McDonalds, Chuck E Cheese, Discovery Zone... Some of you might not be parents, but you may have nieces, nephews, grandchildren or friends with children. This will pertain to you too. As I read the following, my heart sank. I urge each and every one of you to pass this on to as many people as you can. I cannot stress how important this is!
This is very disturbing news. In addition to the following true story...
One son lost his watch, and was very upset. We dug and dug in those balls, trying to find the watch.
Instead, we found vomit, food, feces, and other stuff I do not want to discuss. I went to the manager and raised hell. Come to find out, the ball pit is only cleaned out once a month. I have doubts that it is even done that often. My kids will never play in another ball pit. Now read this:
PRETTY SCARY!!
Hi. My name is Lauren Archer, my son Kevin and I lived in Midland,TN. On October 2nd, 1999 I took my only son to McDonald's for his 3rd birthday.
After he fi

A Flirt? Who Knew...You are flirty.
You find it easy to attract people because you are so confident. You also arn't bad to look at which helps.
'What is your seduction style?' at QuizUniverse.com

Tierd Of Being Aloney do guys always have to be assholes and use me for one thing or anouther ???????? y cant i just find a guy that lieks me for me and not fucking just for my body................

Excerpt From My Book...Excerpt from my book: (still haven't titled it)
monolog from SYlvia Jacobs
I guess it's pretty much come down to me realizing that life is a joke. That it is actually indeed very pointless.
A big test that we in general as a race of humans are so tragically failing. Guess the people upstairs are having a good "I told you so" laugh on our behalf.
"Survival of the fittest? A quiter never wins and a winner never quits? What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger?"
Well what happens when you just don't have the strength to go on anymore?
When you just don't have the will to survive?
When your problems get just as bad as the others?
There are so many cliche`s in life.
How often do you sit with "what if's" and "had I done's"
Well as I like to say. 'If ifs and ands were pots and pans my ass'd be a kitchen sink!"
I so deperately spend my days wishing that I could hit some magical 'reset' button to restart my life at the very moment I realize that I

Wtf!Ok..21 years of this shit...and 3 1/2 months of constant pain is makin me..go a little batty ,makin me feel MORE than useless. My doctor calls me a pelvic cripple, my husband has to wait on me hand and foot..i can barly take care of my kid, can't take her to a park to even fuckin play cause it hurts to walk...What kind of fuckin mom am I? she sees me drugged up on painkillers all the time, she sees me in pain CONSTANTLY and half asleep causeof painkillers. NO 4 yr old deserves to have a mom like this.
Then there's this question of sanity..lately..It's so not there..the sanity, the depression has kicked in FULL tilt and I don't know how to sto pit, I want to see blood...*MY* Blood more than i have ever wanted to in my life, and the only things that stop me from carving anymore are the 2 people I am completely fuckin useless for.
The more i get told to fight the more i wanna tell people to shut the fuck up...
This pain, this disease ... i don't know anymore..live..die..carve..b

Clear Blue Sky (a Short Story)It's an amazing sight to see total chaos In the sky above your home. At night you can see the glow of the enormous shells flying in the cloudy twilight.
The incredible sound emanating from the sky is hard to describe, a low dull whirr.... in between the intermittent sound of the guns firing at each other. When they bank hard you can almost hear the plane scream as it changes directions. The sudden burst of flames from an occasional explosion, then as the wreckage falls to the earth the sound of the fire devouring the billion dollar piece of equipment.
When it finally hits the dirt another explosion that sends a tremor towards my home as the bed begins to shake, pictures fall off my wall, and nick knacks rattle off of their appropriate shelves.
My heart is beating so hard, I feel it about to jump out of my chest and I wished it would. To experience this much destruction first hand is something that in my twenty four years of life I never want to see again.
I began to pra

The "candyman"So many he loved
Loved by many
Many can remember
Remember the kisses
Kisses he recieved
Recieved in joy
Joy of friendship
Friendship is all he needed
Needed by many
Many will never forget
Forget the gleaming smile
Or his wonderful style
For it was time
Time to hand out kisses to his new angels
Angels of God
God Is with him forever
Forever with us in spirit
Spirit of the candyman
Candyman to all
All to keep him In our hearts
Hearts are In pain
Pain of loss
Loss of life
Life of success
He was our candyman
Candyman bearing love
Love of everything
Everything to remember
Remember always
Always to know
Know that the candyman is watching
Watching from heaven
Heaven needed a candyman
Candyman for all to enjoy
Enjoy the blessings
blessings of his kisses
As you read this poem for our friend
Friend to many
Many to know
Know that our candyman will shower us with kisses from heaven forever and always

This Is A Story I Wrote A Long Time Ago For School, Tell Me What U Thinkthis story needs edited and more detail, i had a short amount of time to get it all done b/c it was an assighnment when i went to high school, but that aside tell me what u think. it wasnt an assighned topic tho, i just decided to write this to get a history smemster test grade on it along with creative writeing. its historical fiction, not my prefered type to write, fantasy is.
Nikki Hunt
World history/ English/
Creative writing
Short story
9/05
Cassia the Gladiator
ďSheís a feisty one.Ē The guard said as he slammed the door, leaving me with a roomful of scumbags, instead of one.
At least heíll have a knot on his head, for a while, to remember me by.
I surveyed my new surroundings to find me in a chamber full of prisoners and some guards, they eyed me hungrily as I prepared for what I knew was coming.
ďSheís a pretty little thing.Ē Said one guard walking toward me, the stench of booze fresh on his breath.
The guard went for a snatch at my hair,

Im Leavin For Vegas!!!WELL TO ALL MY CHERRY FRIEND IM LEAVING FRIDAY TO VEGAS... MY MOM NEEDS ME FOR A LIL WHILE. I WILL HAVE COMPUTER ACESS BUT DONT KNOW WHEN ILL BE ABLE TO GET ON SO BE PATIENT ILL BEN IN VEGAS UNTIL THE NEW YEAR SO AFTER FRIDAY ILL TRY TO GET ON TO SEE HOW ALL OF U ARE DOIN SEND ME LOVE AND LUCK FOR MY MOM KISSE RED!!!!!!

General* . . About You . . *Eye Color:BrownHair Color:Normally brown with some kind of highligts or streaks.Height:5\'7Favorite Color:BlueScreen Name:~1-Sexy-Trini~Favorite Movie:\"SHOTTAS\" & \"The Usual Suspects\"* . . Have You Ever . . *Sat on your rooftop?Not mine, a friendsKissed someone in the rain?Yeah, so romanticDanced in a public place?Duh! For 7 yearsSmiled for no reason?well there\'s always a reason* . . Who was the last person to . . *Say HI to you?My cousin ChrisTell you, I love you?My ex Jay through a textKiss you?KennyHug you?Kenny* . . What\'s the last . . *Time you laughed?This morn, I was watching Goerge Carlin(Love Him)Time you cried?Bout 2 days agoMovie you watched?Bride & PrejudiceJoke you told?can\'t recall at the moment* . . Can You . . *Write with both hands?Depends on what I\'m writingWhistle?yupBlow a bubble?yupRoll your tounge in a circle?yup and side ways too :D* . . Finish The Line . . *If i were a ...Rich gyulI wish ...I had an oscar mayer weinerSo many people d

My Excuses Pt.2I was born when my mom was 39.Accident Baby.5 yrs prior she lost 1,doctors said she couldn't have kids.She didn't even know she was pregnant with me.She thought she had a Tumor.I was born C section,April 15,1957.I was very sick at 9 missed lots of school Hospitalize,fever 108,ice baths.pulled threw.My dad dies at age 10 3 days before christmas 1967,went in for Gallbadder surgery an had massive Heart attack.I was Devastated so was mom.Many nervous breakdowns.My grand parents mostly raised me.Around age 15 or so.My God Father started dateing mom.I hated him.Wined an dined her at all the exspensives restuarants.Prior to that she didn't drink niether did my Dad.He turn'd her into an Alcoholic,plus booze on top of her Valiaum's.She fell ended up Blood clots on her brain,was never the same after that.My friend Tony was on leave from Germany for my 18 th birthday,he took me out drinking,got wicked shit faced.Was sick as a Dog.My step father beat the shit out of me that night.So I cursed him,w

Im Backhey, everyone im just back from bulgaria today had a blast it was brilliant except for the weather it was terrible, hope everyone had a good week. stop by if you want to chat thanks gary

31 Days And 31 Nights And 2 Cool ShowsWhat up, y'all? Mike Ya Dead Homie here with my first LC Blog. First off, going to 2 badass shows this upcoming month, both in Worcester, MA. Trivium's playing on the 7th and I can't wait to check their shit out. And the best ever: The Wickid Fuckin' Clowns are coming to the Palladium! Fuck yeah!
Now for the REAL interesting thing: I'm gonna try to pull a 40 Days 40 Nights thing this month. I've had sex on the brain WAY too much since my divorce, so I'm gonna try to tough it out the same way and not do ANYTHING. (Pssst...I'm a hardcore sexaholic, so this is gonna be a challenge.) Wish me luck and I'll hit this thing up in a few. PEACE!

The Guy Does Laundry: Or When There Is Nothing Left To WearLaundry day is one of the most dreaded days on the guy's calendar. It
is so hated that many guys will live within a short distance of their
parent's house just to get it done regularly. Laundry, and perhaps the need for
a clean bathroom, has caused the downfall of many single guys. Marriage seemed
to be the only way out. Fortunately, there are ways for us to avoid this evil
fate. Here's how.
Let's start with sorting. Most guys group their clothes into three
categories: clean, not to bad (meaning still smells fresh enough to wear again),
and needs to be dragged out back and shot. These various stages of cleanliness
are usually distinguished from one another by sniffing (another really disgusting guy habit). Luckily, most of us get to them before they take on a life of their own and demand their own room (which they often get, by the way). That's where the major appliances come in.
The washing machine. It's more than a place to tie-dye all those cool shirts you ow

A Second ChanceSo here I am, putting together my new shelves for my room, and not doing homework. I've been so dedicated to school this year (yes, it's only about a month into it), that I'm amazing myself. I think it's because I finally got rid of my biggest distraction - loser boyfriends that just use me and make me worry about the relationship. Yesterday I worked on homework for thirteen hours. Yes, I ate twice, once while doing homework still, and the other time I think I took a twenty minute break. I thought I was going to do really bad on my first linear vibes test, but I passed with a 60/75, which is an 80%, and makes me incredibly happy.
So I originally wanted to wake up at 9 Sunday morning. I was in bed by 11:30 and everything. Then about 1:30, I was having this bizarre dream....my mom was telling me that she had to go to the hospital because my sister was having heart trouble again. I just mumbled...yeah...okay....then I hear my mom say, "Did you hear me?"
Shit...."What, Chris

My Definition Of Love And The Internet!I do believe there are many different levels to love but saying "I Love You" to a complete stranger online that you haven't even known very long is a bit loose. I have my online friends that I do adore and cherish of course. But then there are the ones I have known for quite some time that I can comfortably say I do love. Considering in my opinion there are many levels of love I feel it's safe to say I do indeed love my online friends.
How is there many levels of love? Well that is easy enough to explain. There is the love I have for my children that is unconditional and can never be broken. There is the love I have for my family that is pure and been there my whole life. There is the love I have for the one I date and/or marry who is my true love. Who compliments who I am. Who brought my soul to life and set it on fire. I would be utterly lost without my love. Then there is the love I have for my friends. I love my friends dearly and I would do anything I possibly can to help them

Public PleasurePublic Pleasure
BBW Bashes always my oasis
from the daily seas of work and other laborious duties
So many beautiful ladies as far as the eye can see
But She caught my eye
Her Body plump juicy and divine
Her personality regal and mysterious
Sexually fliurtatious
Ocassionally glancing my way
Familiar tremors in my manhood
her deep eyes of Goddess reflections
piercing my couls
Captivating me totally
The welcome dance had finished
The pool my refuge to rest and relax
Midngiht the pool would be empty
or SO i thought
As I entered the cool massaging water
Slowly floating through the water
A pressence pierced the night
as I turned there she stood
Her eyes and great mystery locked onto mine
As she seductively walked down into the pool
My body trembled, yet stood still
Unable to move
Walking over to me
Not saying a word
Instant Kiss of the deepest passion
Her arms pulling me closer to her divine core
Totally under her regal and magick spell

Military Spouse SurveyThis is strictly for the Military Personel.
If you are not dating or married to anyone in the Military.....this is not for you!!!
DON'T BE SHY....!!!
What is your Name?
Jen
What is your Man's name?
David
Do you believe in war?
not this one!!!
Do you live with your man?
Yes
Where are you stationed?
Ft Campbell, KY
Have you ever cheated on him when he was overseas?
Nope
If your man is deployed, how many letters a month do you get?
Not deployed, but we would message back and forth when he was
Do you have any regrets in terms of being with a Military Man?
none. i love him with all my heart
What does he do in his branch?
Chemical Corps
What Rank is he?
E-4
Do you love him?
with every breathe that i have in me, why else would i marry him?
Would you risk your life for him like he does for you?
Yes
A VERY COMMON QUESTION--does he look good in his ACU's?
HELL FUCK YEAH HE DOES
What do you like most about him?
Everything, but mainly the w

Let My Heart Gomm just woke up. i am constantly confused by myself. so i was thinking of rochelle constantly last night and i found myself staring at her picture making me get teary eyed. then when i fell asleep i dreamt of ravyn. i kept waking up thinking of rochelle everytime id have a dream and then just fall asleep dreaming of ravyn again. its like when id dream of ravyn then danielle c'ept i was awake when i thought of rochelle. things like that seem to happen to me alot and it confuses the hell out of me.
i think i had some dreams of talking to rochelle online so i did dream of her too, it's just odd. and for some reason i guess i wasn't supposed to go to ravyn's house on week days or soemthing, cuz her step dad saw me walking near her house asking what i was doing there early on a week day and i said i was just going for a walk, then i think i dreamt i was doing something with him which is odd. im sort of getting upset with her memory and my connection to her.
if she isn't going to be t

Aliens On EarthAliens on Earth
Late one night, an alien spacecraft landed near a deserted gas station. After a bit, one of the aliens came down the ramp, looked around, and walked over to one of the gas pumps, where he demanded, "Earthling! Take me to your leader!"
The gas pump, of course, did not reply. The alien became agitated and again demanded, "Take me to your leader!" The gas pump remained silent.
Frustrated, the alien went back to the spacecraft where he was confronted by the captain who wanted a report.
"I contacted an earthling - but he would not cooperate."
"Hmmm. I will deal with this earthling myself," said the captain.
"Yes sir. Be careful sir, I have a feeling there could be trouble."
The captain left the ship and approached the gas pump. "Earthling, you will cooperate. Take me to your leader."
The gas pump remained unresponsive.
"Very well." The captain drew his blaster. "If you do not respond by the count of three, I shall be forced to fire on you......One. Two. Three!" ZZ

Top 10 Reasons To Date A Single Mom...I seen this on another page and loved it and wanted to share....for all you single mom's out there.......
10. You already know their strong because they have to handle the responsibilities of single parenthood.
9. There is nothing like a mother. She is a woman who is responsible and focused on life. She knows what she wants out of life and will not sacrifice the happiness of her child for just any man. So, if she decides to date you, feel lucky.
8. Single mom's know what they are looking for and are independent. Any man or woman can appreciate dating someone who has confidence in themselves. Face it. Great mom's are sexy.
7. A single mom isn't just filling time dating - she's had to make a choice to do something for herself while fulfilling the full time responsibility of being a mom. For a man seeking a real and lasting relationship, this is ideal.
6. They appreciate quality, not quantity of time. It isn't always an option to see someone everyd

Today Marks The Rest Of My LifeOkay so I have been thinking alot about this lately. And today marks the rest of my life. I am seriously going to lose weight. Not just to look better and feel better about myself but also for my health and for my son. I want to live a long life and to see my great grand babies. And the only way I will be able to do that is to lose weight and eat healthier and exercise and eventually quit smoking but baby steps first. So my goal is to lose 100 lbs, I am not giving myself a date to lose that much because I don't want to set myself up for disappointment. So i started by a morning walk and a low carb breakfast. I will keep you up with my progress as the time goes, but any support you can give me is greatly appreciated!
Love yas!

Bored, Bored, Bored..Obviously, I'm bored so I decided to make a blog and post a comment.. i enjoy making new friends, so don't hesitate to send me a msg and/or add me to your friends list. :)

Playing Poker With The DevilI'd rather play poker with the devil holding a hand of aces and eights. If it meant I would never wake up in another cotton candy hell. A man beside himself is a man dead within. There's a dagger in my side, and the handle is there for anyone willing to twist it. But you have to look me in the eyes if your willing to reach for it. If you live by the sword then you die by the sword and that is a honorable end. The dagger is the tool of the coward, and dishonor is the cancer that eats away from within. I'd rather play poker with the devil and bet the deed to my soul if it meant I could control my fate. I would bet it all for a chance to escape from the cloud raining ignorance from over head. The price of a free man is the hate of those who cant buy or sell you at will. The solitude of the free.

This One Is Not Minethis one was written by a very young friend of mine a couple years ago right after she had her heart broke for the first time.
don't kiss me if you don't mean it,because it's tearing me apart.
i wish you would realize you're playing with a fragile heart.
you look at me and i don't know what to say,i'm afraid to tell you the truth for fear you'll fade away.
your soft gazes make me shiver,your gentle touch makes me smile.
even though you're not around these feeligs last a very long while.
but right now i need to tell you exactly how i feel.
because you know i need your help for my heart to heal.
so don't kiss me if you don't mean it,because it's tearing me apart.
i wish you could realize, you're playing with a broken heart.

Na/aaRelatively new here at the LC.Great place I injoy it hear.About me have been an alcoholic for 32 yrs.Also have done an been hooked on various Drugs as well.Last night went to my first NA meting in 10 yrs.With my new friend,Jennefer,whom I met threw a friend,I have been doing work on her car.Just friends but friends is better than nothing.I heard so many stories last night an many resemble my own.I started drinking about a month before I turn'd 18,that was the drinking age back then.Mostly Beer ,Wine.Started Smoking Pot at 18.Then I was introduced to Heroin.But in the sm.town Grew up in they didn't call it that.Had gone back to school was doing good when this new addiction took control of my Life.Back then a $5 bag,was alot.I fucked up in school as I was constantly going to the wrong classes.Then I went on to $ 10 bag aday.What a High it gave me,the Buzz fellt like Acid,Pot,an Qauludes all in 1.Then came the gut wrenching Withdrawlals.Took lots of Willpower an sickness but I got myself

Bleedingthis is a story i wrote randomly :)
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It was a beautiful day, and Lilly had planned to go into the market by herself for the first time..She had dreamed of this day for a long time and couldn't wait for the time when she would hear her mothers angelic voice..
"Lilly!" the voice rang out!
"YES!" Replied Lilly..
She hopped up from her sitting position beneath the large willow tree out back of their yard and headed quickly up the back steps, her eyes were down and she didn't notice as she head butted her mother in the tummy..with a slight "oof.." she stopped and looked up giggling.."Sorry Mom.."
shaking her head and humming lightly she went indoors to grab her hooded cloak, she would need it for the walk home.
It was nearing the end of the day as her mother finally handed her the small white slip of paper and strickly forbid her from going into the alleyways. With a quick and simple.."Yes Mother.." Lilly was on her way..

Heyhey its me im tyler this is my frist blog if you really want to know me you have to talk to me im nice and careing and well ea so hit me up if you want.

The First Poem I Ever Wrotehe stood there lean and tall
siad he would teach us all
he tought us how to laugh and sin
he tought us almost every thing
but then one day it came
it hit new york and france and rome
no where was there left a home
there was nothing left
but wait what's this
why it's a fish
he's given us a second chance

What I Would Do For My GurlieGIVE HER ONE OF YOUR T-SHIRTS TO SLEEP IN...and boxers.
X LEAVE HER CUTE TEXT MESSAGES.
X KISS HER IN FR0NT 0F Y0UR FRIENDS.
X TELL HER SHE L00KS BEAUTIFUL.
X L00K HER IN THE EYE WHEN Y0U TALK T0 HER.
X LET HER MESS WITH Y0UR HAIR.
X MESS WITH HER HAIR.
X JUST WALK AR0UND WITH HER.
X INCLUDE HER IN ALL THINGS Y0U D0.
F0RGIVE HER F0R HER MISTAKES. (Depends on what they are)
X L00K AT HER LIKES SHE'S THE 0NLY GIRL Y0U SEE.
X TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS ST0P.
X H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN Y0U ARE AROUND Y0UR FRIENDS.
X WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT Y0U TELL HER Y0U L0VE HER.
X LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN Y0UR ARMS.
X GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER. (I wouldn't get her mad JUST to kiss her)
X TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE Y0U BACK.
X STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHES SICK.
X WATCH HER FAV0RITE M0VIE WITH HER
X KISS HER F0REHEAD.
X GIVE HER THE W0RLD. (AS MUCH AS I CAN AFFORD LOL)
X WRITE HER LETTERS.
X LET HER WEAR Y0UR CL0THES. (IF THEY

Three-times-boundI wrote this story for a monthly competition. the theme was "altered states of mind" and I won :)
Tell me what you think!
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She sat there silently as she bent over the small coffee table in her one room, run down apartment, steadily breaking up the small buds she had recently aquired from a man down on the second floor..
"...shut up..I can do this.." she shook her head as she continued to work on the substance at her fingertips..
" You know you can't..you've tried..your a lost cause..let me.." she twitched and then shook her head as she let her hands fly around..
"NO! SHUT UP!" she growled and bent down over the bud again.." I can do this.." she whispered as she pulled a paper from its booklet and folded it to form a small boat..
" Look..you've already messed up..here let me.." her lips turned into a smile and then she frowned and growled again..
" I wanna do it..Jas.."
" you'll mess up..it'll only take me a seco

A Little More About Me!!Wow, today is starting out ok ,so far. ok,little more about me!! Well I work with older people,at a place for trouble teenage girls and web sites!!
I'm easy to talk to. I'm a leo. My fav. colors are blue,red,black,and some greens.My fav. drinks are vodka,JD,wine,Southern Comfort. That's all for now!!

To Alli'm looking for good halloween skin so i can up my page, can anyone help me

A Bit Of BondageYou hold the thin leather straps up to my face and slide them across my lips. The scent fills my senses as you order me to kiss the restraints you plan to bind me with. You do this because you want me to love my bondage and to cherish my restraints, and you do this because I must understand that my surrender must be willing, that my submission is an act of love Ė and so I must also love the instruments of pain and pleasure, of freedom and imprisonment.
You have taught me the difference between such things and what each word truly means. You have punished me with pain and have rewarded me with pleasure. You have tortured me with prison and liberated me with freedom. These lessons have been hard, but I know that I am better because youíve shown me that I can be better, youíve taken away the confusion, the questions, and youíve replaced doubt with clarity. I now know who and what I am, and I am secure in my place.
I used to think you cruel for the things you do to me, but I know now

My Beloved Car Died....and went to car heaven!! damn i hate that!! it was a big shock when i heard the news. i guess driving 84miles to and from work everyday got the better of her.
going to look for another car today and im depressed. the car i had picked out and already fallen in love with is out of my price range without my car for trade in. shoot... it was probably not going to work out anyways-but i had my hopes up. im scared to death that i wont find one quickly. fortunately i have today, tomorrow and thur taken off already for vacation days. geesh i wish i could find a job back here in town. too many things going bad in my life all at once.

Did You Know????Why men love blow jobs....
12% like the feeling
8% like the domination
And 80% like the SILENCE!!!!
Thought it was funny!!! Guys, tell me what percentage you fall into.....

I Wrote This Like 15 Years Agoyou said you didn't need me
you said you didn't care
i love the way you looked at me
and the color of your hair
you said i just don't want you
you said just let me be
i need you more than want you
i loved you for what could be
i said goodbye to someone i love
and really just don't care
i only want to love you
any less i could not bear

JeopardyDo you all watch Jeopardy?
For those of you who do something has come to my attention; the time just after the first commercial break where Alex takes time to get to know the contestants a little better, or as I like to call it "What's your stupid ass story?" time. The Jeopardy story, 2 minutes of a contestantís life that can either be fantastic or completely shameful. You either get a laugh from Alex and the audience or you get that horribly, wonderful condescending chuckle from Alex and a pity murmur from the audience. Occasionally Iíve even heard a truly great story usually one about a trip overseas and an inability to speak the language. These are the stories that get Alexís true appreciation. You must watch that your story is both interesting and humorous while not being contrite or ďbraggyĒ.
Whatís your Jeopardy story?

Dont Kno What To Call It But Its Somethin:pHey all:)How r ya's im AWSOME!!!!!!:D:D:D So the bigtime coutdown has started:D:D:D3 days till my bday!!!!!!yeah!!!!!!!!!!its on friday:D:D:Dand its goin to be awsome and my cell is goin to be ringing off the hook:Pbut ah well:P and im goin to stay up thursday night all night and then ill be ready for my bday:D:D:D:D:D:D:Dso in other news.......dont kno:P ah hehehe...well i gotta get to work so ill blogs ya's l8er and if i dont see you goodafternoon goodevening and goodnight:D:D:D:D:DBye bye:)

Penis Wants A RaiseTHE PENIS WANTS A RAISE :
I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons: I do physical labor. I work at great depths. I plunge head first into everything I do. I do not get weekends or public holidays off.
I work in a damp environment.
I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation.
I work in high temperatures.
My work exposes me to contagious diseases.
THE RESPONSE :
Dear Penis:
After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised,the administration rejects your request for the following reasons:
You do not work 8 straight hours.
You fall asleep after brief work periods.
You do not always follow orders of the management team.
You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations.
You do not take initiative.
You need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working.
You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift.

I Will Noti will not stand and cry
beacause you are not here
you are the thousand winds that blow
you are the diamond glint in the snow
you are yesterdays dreams untold
you are tomorrows vision of gols
you are the smile of spirited years
you are the drops of heart felt tears
you are the sunlight on the grain
you are the autums gentle rain
you are the stranger of good deeds
you are the friend who fills my needs
you are the amour in the songs of love
you are the mighty spectacle above
you are the colors in a rainbow
you are the strength that nutures my soul
you are the song of the morning thrush
you are my sweet uplifting rush
you are the silent birds in flight
you are the sun rise that ends the night
i will not stand and cry
because you are always here

Just Bssat here thinkin to myself whats a blog....a place to rant?....rave?....scream?....maybe or maybe not.
i dunno to me its a place to drop ur words...thoughts... feelings..inner u. hopin that cuz its so fuckin hard to understand ur life the way u live it that u hope to god when u type the damn thing u can analyse it and understand it a little better....question is can u really pour ur heart out in here?....can u really lay ur life out in this shitty little box....who knows...but hey i may aswell try right???
i read a quote today it said....approach an enemy with a smile on ur face itll piss em off more..kno wut i think?, thats bullshit and i shud stop openin those damn fortune cookies.
todays lesson for me is this.... why is it so easy to obtain sumtin....and so fuckin hard to let it go...they say i love love sumtin let it go...if its urs itll come back....if it dont it never was..thats cool.....but wtf do u do if u cant decide if u really wanna take the chance of findin out that answ

Break UpAs for some that dont know already me and the bf have split up for now and Iam DEVASTATED over this....he was everything to me and more I loved this man more then ya can ever imangine.....I pray that we will be backk together and SOON!!! He means everything to me and more this is a man I would spend the rest of my life with if i had that kinda oppurtunity but as for now we are ONLY friends and that has shattered my heart and more....but as I said I hope that we are back together and REALLY soon

Bwahahahahaha! (again)So I was looking at this picture of this person and I saw the funniest thing. Some wordsmith had taken the time to create one of those obnoxious little images that lazy people leave as comments on every picture they see and it said: Your Gorgeous
hehe. Your gorgeous what?
Ok, so you have to be a stinky cheese rat bastard crunchy grumpy old man to appreciate it.

This Pain....This pain is more than I have ever had to deal with. I can easily say that yesterday was the worst day of my life and even now it continues. I keep waiting for my body to finally let go of this baby so that I can finally start to grieve. How can I grieve a baby that hasnt left me yet? I feel so lost and empty inside. I am pregnant still sort of and yet not. I still feel pregnant and still kind of have my tummy and yet my tummy is slowly shrinking and what is contained inside is no longer alive. It is hard to decide how to feel when I should be grieving this baby when I am still carrying it but its gone.

The Time Has Come: Bbfn (bye Bye For Now)Well, my flight takes off at noon today whisk me away to a new life in Oklahoma. When I land I'll be in Oklahoma City where I'll meet up with other Job Corp Enrollees where we'll be transported to the GJCC (Guthrie Job Corps Campus) where I could spend any ware from 2month to 2years in preparation for the rest of my life...since I've already completed high school, it should take allot shorter time the most. I will only have to complete my trade in Business Tech and acquire my driver's license of which I'll assume that will only take me abt 6mnts time at the least.... We to all my friends and loved ones keep in touch because I'll be returning to TX periodically for seasonal vacations and holidays...I'll miss you all till then
Keep it real and Have a good one!
W/Much Love
=Zenas S. Ansari=

Damn! I Feel So Lucky I Shoulda Bought A Lottery TicketItís time to party everyone!!! Earlier this evening I signed on with a contractor to do my roof- depending on the extent of squirrel damage (cost to repair) I may even be able to do the garage roof also. For those of you who donít know my home- when I bought it- the dining room did not have any sheet rock on the walls or ceiling- (And the garage roof is deteriorating- you can stand inside and look up to see the whole big dipper on a starry night) Of course my boyfriend at the time (Mr. Take ten years to fix it) said ďBuy it Ďas isí- youíll get a better price and Iíll have the sheet rock up within a couple days.Ē He did get a good start on insulating- but, thatís as far as he got- You see, the roof leaks and you canít really put sheet rock up when itís going to be ruined by the rain or melting snow trickling in (in some cases pouring in). So, needless to say, for almost the last three years now I have had no walls in my dining room. As you may imagine- this causes my heati

Another....."my Dark Angel And I"As I am beside my Queen of the Night
We stand, rule, we love and we fight
The weak, we treat with terrible disdain
They suffer their self inflicted pain
March proudly down the left hand path
Those in our way shall feel our wrath
No power on Earth can tear us apart
As we take life, and grasp at its heart
Standing tall, on march the strong
Knowing the truth of right and wrong
Those who love us, we shall love back
Those who smite us, we shall attack
As I gaze to her cold warming eyes
My soul goes back, to the old reprise
We control life, Earth and the sky
That's the way, my Dark Angel and I

And Another.....I stand upon the edge of the night,
The edge that separates darkness from light,
The light behind me welcomes me back,
The darkness ahead of me, daunting and black
I look on ahead to try and see,
What is in front, my eyes fail me,
This is it my time has come,
To choose what I want, to be and become,
Do I go forward to a life a new,
I listen hard, to hear for a clue,
Or do I go back to me as before,
A lost wandering nobody, nothing more,
Do I go and give myself up completely,
Do I turn around, walk away discreetly,
I listen to my questions and try to answer,
The reasons I set forth to follow my master,
Look for the future, become something better,
Learn to control life letter by letter,
I step forward for my own personal gain,
I step forward to live again,
I step forward to fly high above,
More than this I step forward for love,

They Call Me A Bad Mother....not Me!!I am writing today about my son and all other children. How special they are. Also how they can change your life in a big way.
When I got pregnant with my son I was with a man whom I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. But things didn't turn out that way. After trying for 3 years to get me pregnant, when he finds out that I am he left. After my son was born he wanted me to give him to my mom and dad, and leave with him. NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!!!
Well that didn't happen. I am not sure what happened but as soon as I felt my son move inside me something about me changed. When my son was born, I was a mother. He was my life. Something hit me at that moment and I stopped all my old ways. I knew I had to be his mommy no matter what the Devil brought our way. I prayed everyday that God keep my son and I safe and for him never to be taken from me. So many things came our way that sometimes I felt like giving up. Like he would be better off with someone else. Bu

What Kind Of Eyes Do U Have!!You scored as Diamond Eyes. You are full of confidence, just don't let it go to your head. Its great to know your worth it! Isn't it:D Just remember those of us down here. You are probably quite popular.Diamond Eyes83%Passion67%Mysterious50%Eyes full of Pain17%What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)created with QuizFarm.com

Another Writing.....As I walk through the night a feel the protective Shadow over me,
The twilight of My Person has now since passed,
Plunging me into the Darkness of my dwelling,
I contemplate the Daylight now left so far behind.
I was never happy wandering under The Burning Sun,
That filled my space with Light,
Never certain what made me so, but knowing it wasn't right in the Sun that sapped my energy,
The Light that made me weak.
When I think of that person that walked in the Sunlight,
I am filled with hate and shame,
How dare he look like I do?
How dare he dilute what I hold dearest?
How dare he imprison me for all these years?
Though now I smile at how slow his death was,
Never again shall he rise to oppose me.

BruisedBroken and confused
wondering what to do
all my life i've tried to find the perfect guy
i've been bruised by lies, torn by love and disgusted by lust
but still i managed to find comfort in your words.
I imagined myself in your arms when i was blue
I cried to you, but you made me smile
I thought about you every second, everyday
now again i've been bruised,
but this time, by you.
weeks with nothing, not even a hello
I'm been through a downward spiral, since our last encounter,
and i've cried at my loss
I miss our late night conversations
I miss the way your eyes lite up, when you smile back at me, though we
couldn't see.
I miss the five minute 'I love you's'
and the long await meeting, and even though I haven't been able to, I still
miss you
but no matter what,
what I miss the most is, your laugh.
bruised and broken
hurt and confused
torn between being strong
and missing you...

Silent DanceStanding alone
dancing in the moonlight
my mind whirling through the dark abyss
that shadows my securities when we don't talk
I can hear the music, thought it is faint
scared to death that one day soon,
I'll have heard your voice no more
I dare not move on
as I spin beneath the stars
in this moment, silent moment,
all i can see is you
as I close my eyes and twirl in the breeze
i pretend you are near
wrapping your arms around me
and telling me I should no more fear
you have come to rescue my inner voice
and my voice cries out to you
I want you, I miss you, all I can do is dream about you.
scared to move on, for fear of what i might miss
I stop my silent dance.
breathless i reach and the further you get
an aching, sinking feeling compe and into the darkness you fade
then, again i hear your voice,
and into the darkness i run desperate for your touch
but unfortunately your voice
is the only comfort i get.

HealingYour tall and I like that
your sweet and thats rare
constantly complaining that I hide behind my hair
well now i'm here to tell you
you've really rubbed off
more confidence is what I show,
just because we've talked
I can just imagine
looking in your eyes
all the tension that built up
blown away by delightful surprise
just your hands upon me
would be enough to know
that all this time that passed
the feeling should overflow
the time the moment comes
you'll know right then
the look and the sigh will tell you
i'm the one and i've finally found my home
my home within your arms
my love within your walls
unfortunately it'll be awhile
before i come to call
I just want you to know
one day you will see
with all my southern style
that all the waiting
will prove to be worthwhile
so take a breath
and take a seat
because this brief moment
will be all you'll ever need.

All You'll Ever NeedYour tall and I like that
your sweet and thats rare
constantly complaining that I hide behind my hair
well now i'm here to tell you
you've really rubbed off
more confidence is what I show,
just because we've talked
I can just imagine
looking in your eyes
all the tension that built up
blown away by delightful surprise
just your hands upon me
would be enough to know
that all this time that passed
the feeling should overflow
the time the moment comes
you'll know right then
the look and the sigh will tell you
i'm the one and i've finally found my home
my home within your arms
my love within your walls
unfortunately it'll be awhile
before i come to call
I just want you to know
one day you will see
with all my southern style
that all the waiting
will prove to be worthwhile
so take a breath
and take a seat
because this brief moment
will be all you'll ever need.

Missing PeaceAlone again tonight
friends and family all gone
in some far away place
with an unknown face
my heart a sunken ship
as i lay down my head
my tears a constent stream
as i begin to dream
of a land that i recall
with love and family
crawling from the walls
my mothers loving embrace
my sisters smiling face
all welcoming me
into their sacred space
mother i am sorry
sisters please forgive
I did not mean to go
I did not mean to offend
in your home a problem child
and rest you could not get
so for me to leave
the house would mean perfect peace
now i'm having trouble
alone i can not make it
so into the peace, may i come?
I promise i won't break it.

When A Baby CriesDance among the stars
swim along the rays of sun
together a perfect pair, tempt to merge as one
The pain they must share to be apart
more enduring then the faint of heart
a lovers spat to be alone
lothing the distance, wanting it none
Tears of a goddess, lady of the night
passion of a god, ruler of light
when two hearts beat as one
distance will be out done
when heaven splits and a baby cries
the mother and father will reign again

The WallOnce I was happy and warm
now I look over a Wall
at a world that I fear.
Behind this Wall
with me are feelings,
feelings
of being afraid of people
of being exposed to people.
Scared of being laughed at.
Feelings that I want to set free,
but the Wall!
Oh that damned Wall!
That same Wall that I curse,
but at the same time thank
for protecting me from people
that want to get close.
Afraid to let people get to know me
for fear the real me is no good.
So
I play my roles
that let people think differently of me.
I play my bitter role
where I become cold and vicious,
when I pretend I could not care.
Scared to let people know what I
do care about for they would take it
away from me.
I play my joker or fool role,
when I act like a clown.
This makes people think I am a happy child
and what could possibly be
wrong with her?
She is always laughing.
True,
on the outside I am laughing
but inside I cry.
I cry a painful and silent cry
of something that hurts so bad

Tallest TowerI used to want to stand on the Tallest tower.
Where I could over look the world.
But before I could, it came crashing down,
His sister by his side.
On that fate-filled day, so many lost their lives
And for once the whole world cried.
Now our troops bleed and die,
in a land with a blood red sky.
no one knows the truth behind the mask,
still everyone wanted to ask.
All I wanted was to stand on the tallest tower.
Now I can't..until the war is over.

Missing HimFuck I miss my dad it has been 9 days since he passed away and i miss him already sooo much...we had his memorial yesterday it was really nice and about 200 or so ppl showed....he will be sadly missed by alot of ppl but most of all his Family now i have to think about how im gonna get through the holidays without my dad being there...fuck this sucks sooooo bad...

Fallingblinding light
howling pain
coursing heartache
to soothe again
deepest sorrow
unknown regret
falling now
into the deepest pit
reaching upward
help me now
dissappearing slowly
in and out

Vampire Anthompiercing eyes,
searching through the dark.
unknown pleasure,
seaking the truth.
tender milk white skin,
and nails to die for.
neon moon,
a blinding light,
a million starts,
the perfect sight.
rigid points,
of pearly white,
stained with blood,
death in the night.
yeilding wanton,
desire so hot.
a puddle of blood,
a face,
drowns in the mud.
come closer child,
the taste is wild!

Good NightThere you go again
telling me you hate me
for all the stupid little things
that i always do
your eyes get bloodshot
and your cheeks flare red
if i didn't know for sure
i'd swear you'd want me dead
i know i never pay attention
i know i'm always somewhere else
i know that i'm not perfect
and i know thats what you don't like
but who can blame me for only staring
who can say its not right?
if you'd stop yelling maybe
i could sleep at night
for all the stupid little things that i've ever done
i want deep down for this to be the one
the one to stop the breaking of my heart
the one to set things right
so here it is finally
I'm telling you goodnight!

No Man's LandHold true to thine self
And sink within
The mysterious beyond
Will beckon thee
Spread your wings
Soar amongst the whipping winds of your mind
Dance in step to the beat of blue and gold
All colors to behold
The existence of your mind
So beautiful and scarce..
I leave you now, in no mans land!

Rock On, Baby!My head hurts so bad that the three hairs I have left on it hurt as well.
On a lighter note, they are doing some sort of drilling in the parking lot today.
It just drills and drills and drills into my skull and makes me feel like kicking people in the jimmies.

A GraveA Grave
So lonely and still
Sitting so grave upon the hill
Whirling winds pound and stir
As the rain pours down against the world
A young girl cries
The silence shrouding her innocence
As tears roll, dip and spew
The stars dance and twirl.
Endless void of beauty and death
All becoming to a little girl.
Anger begs and is soon accepted
And a vow never heard.
Screams of deception
And a whispered promise
signal the end of an innocent world...
Next

SchoolLesson 3 Elements: 100% whooo hooo! No misspelled words! Very excited to see how I do on the next one!

Read This And Hit Me Upsup eryone if you wanna chat wit me then hit me up on yahoo messenger ill be on my id is joshwebster13bravo@yahoo.com send me yours ill add you if you wanna know ne thing ask i dont care what it is im open an honest

SamplesThere was this guy who was sick so he went to the doctor. The doc ran some tests and sent him home with some medicine.
The next day the doctor called and the wife answered.
"I'm going to have to run a few more tests", the doctor said "I'm going to need a semen, urine and a fecal sample."
After she hung up the husband asked, "What did the doctor say?"
"Oh the doctor is going to need a pair of your underwear".

:( Won' T Be Here Much In The Next Week...well its the season of the flu here already and of course everyone is sick around here includeing me ughhhhh so if I am on much i am sorry my whole house is down with the flu, includeing me but I have to w ork cause I can't aford to take time off ughhhhhhh . ....miss you all hope things will straighten up a bit and get back to normal real soon.....
Huggs to all
Katt

I Appreciate Women As They AreThis is to all of the guys in the world who can't accept girls for who they are:
I'm sorry...
That I'm not enough of a slut to sleep with you on a first date.
I'm sorry...
That my ass isn't big enough to "satisfy" your needs.
I'm sorry...
That I am not afraid to say I like football, and I could kick your ass anyday.
I'm sorry...
That I'm not anorexic and skinny enough for you to see my ribs.
I'm sorry...
That I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl".
I'm sorry...
That I'm not a Playboy model so I can't act like a porn star for you.
I'm sorry...
I don't have a dream body that turns you on.
But most of all,
I'm sorry...
That you can't accept me for who I am because your a selfish worthless piece of shit and you dont think of anybody but yourself!!
If you're a girl and you agree with this letter, repost as "I'm sorry".
If you're a guy, and you would never make your girl feel this way, repost as "I appreciate you".

Why Has Lost Cherry Dye Downwow when i first came on this site everyone was cool now it seems like we got alot of people rating crazy and giving people low numbers ...come on not everyone has to look perfect...or a super model we are all here for fun.....i think i know i am but hey just be cool and give others good ratin and stop being mean and cruel......

NoticeNotice: Before yall read the blogs under "stories" please note, if you have read em, read this anyways.
1. I'm not crazy.
2. I did not go through ANY of what is mentioned.
3. Its just stories that I made up, its called entertainment!!!
4. Yes I know they might seem deep, but its what I came up w/.
5. Dont see me any different then yall did before yall read em, I'm still the same person.

FavortisimShe sits there alone in the dark.
How come they didnt take ME to the park?
She gets everythin, and I dont.
Every week they buy her somethin nice.
A new skirt, shoes..o0o0 how bout them earrings too?
What do I get yall may wonder?
"Oh could you start the blender!!!"
No "Hi sweety, how are you?"
No its..."GO GET ME MY SHOES!!!"
She sits there and laughs at me.
Too cute for her own being.
How can she live like that.
Shes just a spoiled lil BRAT
Somtimes I wish I was like her
But the world would be full of horror
They say its favortism, and I think they are right
They dont even say, "Goodnight."
She gets candy and cakes, and money too
All's I get is, "GO CLEAN YOUR ROOM!!!"
I wish I was never born
My sister says the same
My parents are just like her...they are all the same
I go to school, she has LOTS of friends
What do I have...just me and a pen
The other girls laugh at me..because she talks behind my back
I dont c

MirrorShe stands there looking at herself in the mirror.
People say shes fat, she needs to loose it all.
But she knows whats deep w/in.
"They dont see the real me."
"All they see is a lil bit of fat, and that I have ugly skin."
The mirror looks back at her body.
They say, "You need a new hobby."
"A new hobby?"
"I'm a runner, what more do you want from me?"
"Come on now, I dont want to be 103."
"That is not me."
"Why cant they see the real me?"
All these other girls running around w/out no fat.
They seem all happy because they have NO fat.
Well I'm happy, but no one cares.
"Hey Caren, why dont you take the stairs?"
The mirror likes my body, it never told me to get a new hobby.
"I dont care if no one cares."
"Other girls can run around w/out fat."
"Who gives a SHIT!!!"...and that is that.

Lil DarlingTake my hand, we are in a crowded place, and wipe that look off your face.
No more stories, no more games, I'm your father, and I'll take the reins.
You cant be trusted, you tell lies, you like it when daddy cries.
I love you lil darling, cant you see that?
But somehow you went behind my back.
The doctors will see you now, come on you have to get it out.
I dont wanna live in an empty house.
When you were lil, I tucked you in, and prayed that you will be safe w/in.
You are all grown up, just look at you now.
But I'm getting older, you are wearing me out.
They said you will be fine, sometime to heal.
Should we name her Abby or Lil?
She looks so beautiful, just like you did.
Hold my hand darling, I have a secret.
Your not my daughter, your mother lied.
She dropped you off while she cryed.
She said, "Take care of her I'll be back."
That was 16 years ago, and nothin back.
I took care of you, I helped you grow.
Now look at you, you t

HurtShe walks home from school that day, just thinking about her life. She said, "Kevin, no limo today, I dont need a ride!!!"
She looks down at her wrists and wonders what she has done. She hurts inside. Why do i feel crappy, when everyone thinks I'm so happy? She has it all, popularity, good grades, cheerleader, & gym. But why cant no one see it w/in? She hurts inside, and yet she wonders why. She sees her boyfriend just in time. She walks up to him and he hits her. "You are so stupid, how could you?" "Im sorry Jason, I had to!!" She said she found a new man, someone better then him. One that doesnt hit her, when her life is bad w/in. "He loves me Jason, he even told me!!, I wanted to end my life, and do you know what he told me?"
"Dont end your life sweety, nothin is worth it, put that knife down where you took it. Come w/me and all will be better now. Dont cry cause im here for you, and you know it. That Jason is only a fool, hes just a boy to drool. Stay w/me, I'm better than

AwayShe lays there in her room, rain pours from outside. She thinks how cool her life used to be, before her man left her aside. She crys at nights wishing he would come back for her. Wondering how he is doing. She has a grin on her face remembering the dates they shared, at clubs, parks, lakes. They shared it all, till one day she stole his heart away. Away went her other life, now he must pay. He must pay the damage he's caused, the hurt he made her feel, the nights shes slept w/out him beside her. All it went away, away in one day. To hear him laugh w/out her, makes her feel mad. They used to share it all. Now shes so sad. To which he musy pay, for all the hurt hes caused. She wraps up in a blanket, for which she is cold. The feeling w/out him beside her, no warmth from him to share. She used to have it all, now she feels so bare.

Iraq And My Stay Herewell yea so now im in iraq and now that i have no way of meeting ppl everyone that i know online wants to meet with me wow lol anyway so heres what my day looks like.
i start out by being on post as Corporal of the Guard for 5 hours, then after my 5 hours of walking around making sure everyones awake, i get to be on react for 10 hours. after this time i get to serve another 5 hours of post, followed by 10 hours of rest, which is normally turned into working parties for around the base. So in essence i only get sleep when im on react. lol
lol well gtg l8rs

New Tattoosi cant wait 4 more days till i get my new tattoos ! im getting tigerlillys with vine work in a cresant the vines are gonna start at the lower part of my cleavage and go around each breast and the tiger lillys will be on top of my breast . i cant wait ill have pics up as soon as i get em done

Poetrydamn wat am i 2 do
y am i feelin this way, is it me or is it u
im broken i wont get out of bed
i cant stop thinkin, i just want u out of my head
i dont care anymore i am pushed away
i dont wanna talk about it i got nothin 2 say
did i try 2 hard i prolly did
but w.e it cant matter now im at the bottom of the pit
wat is love it kills u in the end
all the wasted lies the wasted love i had 2 spend
i cant love nomore it was my mistake
u lost my trust u lost me i hope u feel fuckin great
u had a chance now im glad u pushed me away
u pushed me 2 far in the ground that i fuckin lay
wheres the bud at its time 2 relapse
im gunna smokeout till i fuckin collaspe
and this time i wont get up
im done with u i just dont give a fuck
and wen u come crawlin back
i wont be there nomore that was yur last fuckin chance

Good Morning To All!!just a quick good morning to all my friends out here in LC land hehe!!! time for me to hear out and work BOOO!! but to think its helping me get the money so i can go to my baby... love you lots Teeny!! well i shall be back when i get home from work....anywho all ya all have a wonderful day

Just To Let Everyone Know...wow, so it turns out that the reason why I was sick was exhaustion from working a 45 hour work week, plus going to school full time. damn. you know what sucks about it? I'm doing it again this week (well not 45 hours I hope, but they've called me in to work tonight so Im up to 25 hours this week, plus school)
in short, Im not gonna be around much this week either (I'll take the time to blog each night and chat for a little while to whoever is on but that'll be about it for me)
so this time I'm gonna ask nicely pretty please, while Im not here, will someone please please please pimp me out? cause I would totally appreciate it. totally totally. lol.
rock on with your socks on!!

SensualityRomantic, sensual, caring
You prefer to make love. You like the intimacy that comes with sex and you are a very loyal person.
Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Physical Therapy And MovingWell yesterday I went to my first PT session....to strengthen my kness. you see I am double jointed aparently and that in combo with being overweight is really really bad for my joints. I am feeling lots of pain in my knees some of it osteo arhritis...
So my Physical therepist is really cool and nice.
She made me break a sweat though....oh gee...how cruel....LOL
Oh and We put in a bid for a double wide...We as in my parents and I...yeah i'm going to move in with my parents again but they need me and I need them...you see I have to dish out probably as much as I am now...but anything is better than living where I am now.....Seriously you only know the half of it.
We found a huge lot where we could put a swing set, fence, pool and have a dog ...its huge!! i'm not gonna tell you exactly where but its in the Ladson,SC area.
NICE.......
:D

Sex And Caloriessex and calories
Giving .........head....... massages the jaw....while burning 32 calories.
Swallowing foreign body juices is actually like taking vitamins and it whitens your teeth
The American Dental Association says that semen cuts plaque better than mouth wash, so suck a dick and save a smile.
Having nice sex burns 358 calories.
Having rough sex [make it hurt] burns 543 calories.
Take off her clothes
with her consent.........................12 cal
without......................187 cal
Take off her Bra
With two hands..........................8 cal
With one hand.........................12 cal
With mouth.............................85 cal
Put on Protection
hard ........................... 6 cal
soft..........................315 cal
Foreplay
Looking for target...................8 cal
Finding G spot ......................92 cal
I don't F***ing care.....................0 cal
Entry
Holding her..................12 cal
On the floor.................8

Quandry"sWell life as always takes twists and turns you never see comming. My life as usual is once again unsteady. sometimes I ask myself if I'll ever have a nice safe, calm , uneventfull life. There are days that I really want that. But Ive noticed thru the years that safe ,uneventfull and calm are fucking boring. Im nothing if not bored easily. So there are times... that I tend to get into things most people do not. Doesnt help that Im a flirt and very open minded and love people that are the same. The more "off" you are the more interesting I find you. Im sure if I was born into the Goth age of peircings and black ,Id been first in line.. My motto has always been"Life aint worth a rats ass if you arent skating on thin ice" Seems as I age, Im sticking to that motto. The one thing I can say is,ThatIve had a hell of a good time in this life, I have been deeply loved by 4 men,and loved in return, Ive had the lust of many, and had some awesome sexual experiences. I have 6 healthy beautifull kids

MorningsI am definitaly not a morning person, and having kids in school I have to get up way to early. So here I sit thinking about getting in the shower and getting ready to take the kids to school and then go to work(the work I don't particulary like). I so hate mornings. I suppose it would help if I went to bed a little earlier than I do but then I wouldn't get any free time to myself. Hmm. Well I guess I need to get off and into the shower....if I can get there without the kids attached to a hip. and they are being a handful today....well they are everyday.

All Of My PicsWELL I CAN ONLY HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE LOOKING AT MY PRIVATE PICS. SO LET ME KNOW IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO VIEW AND I'LL MOVE PEOPLE AROUND. SO COME ON YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO SEE ALL OF ME.

Poems Have Moved To Http://www.myspace.com/kagespoemsThis site be used for poetry smaples and before release and to tell about poetry slams and readings, as well as the happenings at Bungee Crop from my end of our projects.
My poems have moved to the url below:
http://www.myspace.com/kagespoems
I will also be put up records of some of my poems too.
Please be patient.
Illustrated Mind is still on schedule for a December 2006 release, if I can finish the sketches it will be moved to Janurary or Feburary 2007 release.
You goto for information about the book "Illustrated Mind"
follow this link:
http://members.aol.com/clucas6416/illustratedmind/

Your OpinionI want your opinion on bean bag shot guns...
For a suicidal person...
From one of the reports of my ex...
County Coroner said Friday that XXXXXX had been shot in the back of the right shoulder, in the mid-chest and slightly behind the right side of the head.
The shot to the head penetrated skull, fracturing it,(Cause of death) she said. The other two shots caused some bruising, she said.
The first 2 shots were to stun him...it didn't faze him...the third was meant to cause injury or death.....
Ex had a knife in both hands...
Also approx 8 months ago he attempt suicide an officer was injured.......

HowdyGoood Morning Ya'll On this tuesday ..hope this blog thing finds ya all well and dandy...Im doing good so far... coffee is finally kicking n... no plans today .. gonnna fold clothes ( exciting ) haha ( not ) lol other then that chill.. so if ya get bored give me a holla... until then .. hugs and smiles coming ya'lls way
Bec

MemoriesI feel tired all those memories in my hands and again I can not stop crying and all this out of the stupid wish someone would notice. I guess I need to get rid of some things I promised it myself didnít I? And itís getting empty anyway and for the first time since years I am not looking forward to the both events.
I should give it back and get my mind together there are no excuses anymore it is all in my hands. Is that the reason why I wake up so late just to turn around and flee again?

Whats A GiSubject Whats a G.I.
Body: >Your alarm goes off, you hit the snooze and sleep for another 10
>minutes.
>He stays up for days on end.
>_________________________
>
>You take a warm shower to help you wake up.
>He goes days or weeks without running water.
>__________________________
>
>You complain of a "headache", and call in sick.
>He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.
>__________________________
>
>You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet
>up with your friends.
>He still fights for your right to wear that shirt.
>__________________________
>
>You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket.
>He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags.
>__________________________
>
>You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you.
>He knows he may not see some of his buddies again.
>__________________________
>
>You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.
>He walks the streets, se

ExperienceAdventure is something you seek for pleasure, or even for profit, like a gold rush or invading a country;...but experience is what really happens to you in the long run; the truth that finally overtakes you.
Katherine Anne Porter

My Love ForrestOk Fellow LC Friends
I dont ask very often for help because I realize that everyone is busy, but I have asked twice, promised the help and no one came thru.....(does not include you Tazzy or Sassy, Saucy and Sexy, you two have been wonderful)
Forrest is just starting to get into the LC thing and he wanted to do something nice for the ladies on here......He is putting together an Fair Maiden album.....we have a total of almost 30 fair maidens.....The problem now is that I have a celtic skin that he wants to use as the background to place the ladies pics on, but neither one of us have photoshop or know how to do it........If someone will explain to me how to do it, I will attempt to do it....Or if someone wants to put it together, that would be awesome.......Forrest's birthday is Oct 17th and he wants to open it then........The man works 10 hrs. a day, six days a week, doesn't really have time, so I would like to do this for him as a BD present......PLEASE! help me do this for him

Freak In BedGET A PIECE OF PAPER AND NUMBER IT FROM (1-13)
AND NO CHEATING!
SEE THE RESULTS AT THE END OF THE TEST!
WHEN YOU SEND IT ON PUT YOUR SCORE IN THE SUBJECT BAR...
1.WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
A. LIGHT COLOR
B. CHANGE COLORS
C. DARK
2.IF YOU WERE TO MEET UP WITH THE CRUSH OF YOUR LIFE YOU WOULD...
A. SEDUCE THEM
B. JUST CHILL
C. CHILL AND THEN SEDUCE
3.WHATS YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF WEATHER?
A. RAIN
B. THUNDERSTORM
C. SUNNY
D. CLOUDY
4.WHATS THE BEST TYPE OF FRUIT?
A. STRAWBERRIES
B. CHERRIES
C. GRAPES
D. PEACHES
E. KIWI
5.THE BEST PART OF THE 24 HOURS IS....
A. NIGHT
B. DAY
C. AFTERNOON
6.WHATS THE BEST SEASON OF THE YEAR?
A. FALL
B. SUMMMER
C. SPRING
D. WINTER
7.HEADBOARD OR NO HEADBOARD?
a-HEADBOARD
b-NO HEADBOARD
8.WHATS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?
A-LEO
B-VIRGO
C-SCORPIO
D-LIBRA
E-GEMINI
F-ARIES
G-CAPRICORN
H-CANCER
I-PISCES
J-AQUARIUS
K-TAURUS
L-SAGITARIUS
9.PICK A PLACE YOU WOULD HAVE SEX AT OUT OF TH

ScopeGemini - I'm a whore?
Cancer - Im the wifey/hubby type
Leo - I fuck like no other!
Virgo- I LOVE Sex
Libra -I'm great in bed!
Scorpio - I'm sexy as hell
Sagittarius - I'm the best at sex!
Taurus - I fuck better than you
Capricorn -I can have sex all night LONG! .
Aquarius - I can make u love me
Pisces - i have great lips to kiss!
Aries - I'm a pimp

Re: Learning To Drive An 18-wheelerLearning to drive an 18-wheeler can be hell and it is very nerve-racking. I spent a month learning how to do it but it can be done. Through sheer determination and the support of my wonderfully patient hubby I have truimphed!!!

Video Gamesso i've been looking at amazon.com looking at video games and consoles. i really am thinking about getting a Sega again and getting Zombies Ate My Neighbors and Desert Strike. maybe even Jungle Strike. mmhumm.
i've been checking out the WII and it looks cool. i'll have to wait and see what game comes out on it.
Xbox 360 is has a couple of games i want to play but i don't know yet. my friend Jordan who's in Isreal till next year left his here so i could probably borrow it from my friend who currently has it. hmm. I DON"T KNOWWWW but i do know i'm going to spend my money on tattoos first. mmhumm.

Desert Motorcyclepart 1 And 2'Oh dear', you think as you get out of your car.
You have paid a visit to a girlfriend who lives on the edge of the Bad Lands.
Heading for home you took a wrong turn somewhere and now were in the middle of the desert.
When you turned around on a dirt road to retrace your route you heard a loud bang and now you car is shaking badly.
Getting out and walking around to the passenger side you see your right front tire is flat.
'Damn, damn, damn'!
Opening your trunk you get out your jack and use it raise the right side.
When you try to get the tire off, the lug nuts are so tight you cannot budge them.
Frustrated you lean against the car and try to think what to do next.
You notice a very fast moving dust cloud approaching across the desert.
As it gets nearer you can tell it is a large green dirt bike.
The rider has a blood red helmet and red MOTO-X suit on.
The helmet makes him look like an alien from outer space.
When he slams to a halt you can see tha

PoemI SCARED MY FACE TO SPITE THE WORLD
SICK OF THIS BEAUTY CAUSING SO MUCH PAIN
AS A WARNING FOR ALL TO SEE
I AM A LEPER, AN OUTCAST,UNCLEAN.
TURN YOUR FACE AWAY AS I PASS
YOU THIS SPELL DOES NOT BEWITCH
OR CLOSE YOUR EYES SO YOU DO NOT SEE
FOR YOUR SAKE I HOPE YOU'VE MISSED
THIS BEAUTY I SO DISPISE,
FOR YOUR SAKE NEXT I CUT OUT MY EYES.

Very Depressedppl at my job keep picking on me and lying on me and getting me written up for things i dont even do. :( i wish i could find a new one soon i really have to get out of there i dont care what i would have to do. im trying not to let it get me down but some of the ppl that would get me in trouble i thought were friends and they just stabbed me in the back like it was nothing. and i feel so betrayed and alone now. like i wonder whats wrong with me that ppl would want to hurt me like that. what did i do to deserve it. i really dont want to go back there i cant sleep or eat it just makes me sick and upset thinking about how i have to go back. i just dont want to face it. i cant. if i didnt have so many bills i would of just walked off the job by now but i gotta wait till i find a new job. :( ive been filling out applications all day and night. its only been one day though but i keep hoping ill get a call soon to get away from there. i hate this so much like why cant ppl just leave me alone.

Have You Got Your Voicemail Yetive lost everything i hold dear
lost on a highway with a car i cant steer
heavens lost in the fog
and the devils after me like a dog
these haunting memories come crashing back
who was i what was i did i do that
every thought a knife slashing down
killing me without a sound
i used to be just another selfless cow
waiting for another king to bow
not knowing the devil has a crown
but his tables never gonna be round
heaven floats by an impossible insecurity
waiting till i fail in my own calamity
gods a kid with a magnifying glass
just waiting til i fry his ass
with all thats been said and done
the gods leave us just one
a question so inane and inconsequential
have you got your voicemail yet?

Wussup People.This is ya boy DJ AM reppin the 19102, just sayin wussup to all my peeps out there and hope ya'll will keep supportin me in my musical career. Just in case you don't know me, I am the male friend of Nicole Ritchie and the dopest DJ out there. So Holla at ya boy. ONE.

Relationshipshow would the green grass grow
with out the light of the sun?
it would be dry and brittle.
roses...daisies..there would be none.
and how bout that gold fish?
with out water he'd be dead.
there would be no fish bowl.
his whole existance left nothin to be said.
what about your goldy locks?
becoming like a nest.
with out using it's counterpart,
bugs would surely fest.
even toilets with stains,
would forever stained be.
without the porcelain buddy,
toilet brushes are the key.
even q-tips need a friend,
you know the wax inside your ear?
q-tips help with removal of
build up causin you not to hear.
have you ever had a cold,
and couldn't stop the snot?
without the lotiony kleenex,
your nose would surely rot.
nuperin, advil, asperin, or bayer,
they all help with your pains.
what would happen if they were gone?
your eliments would remain.
when you fell and skinned your knee,
the faithful bandaid was there.
to stop the blood and look cool too,
snoopy and garfield al

PoemThere will come a day
when your tears of sorrow
will softly flow into tears of remembrance...
and your heart will begin to heal itself...
and grieving will be interrupted by episodes of joy...
and you will hear the whisper of hope.
There will come a day
when you will welcome the tears of remembrance...
as a sunshower of the soul...
a turning of the tide...
a promise of peace.
There will come a day when you will...
risk loving...
go on believing...
and treasure the tears of remembering.

My First BloggWell here it is "My First Blogg".
Dont quite know what to add here but ill start with a few ramelings.
My name is Jayson - Yes spelt funny I know.
I'm 26 Years Old and live in Derbyshire (UK)
Why am I using Lost Cherry.. well i have tried a few of the other profile sites arround on the net and alough i found a lil place i like this seems to cater for my more sexual tendancies. Other sites now seem to be over protected and full of teenagers.. so this sites suits me down to the ground..
So far i have made a couple of friends on here - well i know them from other sites so i guess thats cheating a little. However i would love to get into a more personal contact with some of the sexy guys and gals on here... oh PS im Bi/BiC.
I will try to keep adding some pics of myself for you pervy bastids (like me) out there and just hope I get a good responce..
Well ill leave it there for now.

Help!!!hey im new lostcherry obviously.. I do like what i see and was wondering if someone would help to understand this site and how to chat with and get to know some of you kewl people. Ne help would be appreciated and hopefully get to know some of you. Ne thing you wanna know or see can be updated as well!! thank you in advance for your time and help!

My Battleat the current moment i hate life... this year can quite possibly go down as my worse year of life yet.. that says a lot concerting the fact that in the past 6 years i have been diagnosed with a brain disease, have had my best friend pass away, 2 close friends pass away, lost my grandfather, been engaged and dumped twice, been cheated on multiple times, and have been left while pregnant because the father wasn't (nor will he ever be) able to take care of his responsibilities....
i know wishing for a new life never works... i've tried, it still hasnít happened... i know trying to change my life can help... but with my current situation the only was to change my life is to write someone completely out of it... this my friends may be impossible... this person is causing me unimaginable pain... i cant go a single minute without pain... have you ever loved someone completely yet hated them completely at the same time???
this person is legally a part of my family, this person can take

Donna2006-09-25 12:15:24
OMG KATJA...YOU ARE SO SWEET..I will keep that angel close to my heart..I can not believe that you see what you do in me..others just scruff it off like I am nothing..But YOU..YOU SEE!!!...I will never ever forget you!!..Thank you so much for brightening my day...ANd I know you are real..thats what make you priceless..The card is absolutely Beautiful..I have put it on top of my tv in the living for everyone to see, and for me to remember how special you are...And the kind words that you have written to me, touched my heart once again..Thank you for caring and being my friend KATJA....I love you Dearly!!
Dearest Donna!
It is easy to see you for who you are. We are alike in so many ways! You are true and genuine, and to me you are truely an angel who lights many hearts with the love you have to give! Any person that has the opportunity to know you the way I do, is lucky and has a golden treasure in you. How could I do anything ~ but love you, your personality

Great Many Thanks...I owe man thanks to those that have supported my rise and well just my rise so far.
Toxic and Addictive - Major kudos to you for my introduction to this mother of all sites... it works like clockwork (eeeek!! I hope I haven't put the mockers on it!!!)
Cin C - you're a doll but in the best possible way!!
BlackRoseVi(x)x(x)en - I hope you win!
To all those that haven't been mentioned, fear not! for you are with me all the time!!
Laters peops!

My "wonderfull" WeekWHAT A FUCKIN WEEK.. LET ME TELL YOU!!!
So let me start from the begging, and btw.. its 3 fuckin am.. nuthin is gunna be spelled right.
MONDAY-- My uncle passed and this was the day of his memorial service...And if the day wasnt sad as hell, we get a phn call...My other uncle is dyin.. An thr not sure if hell make it to christmas.
Tuesday-- Come down with a cold... Cant breath... N what the fuck is the point of eating... Food has no taste..
WEDNESDAY-- look at what i said about tuesday...Still feelin like shit
Thursday--My best friend... or so called best friend gets pissed at me for no reason... but because she has a bf she dont care.. she can live with out me for the moment... well this upsets me..But hey... what can i do?? Not a damn fuckin thing
FRIDAY--This was the worst day of all...The guy that i was fallin in love with had to break things with me b4 they even started...It was the worst day ever...Yea i cried for hrs on end..Cuz iv never in my life have ever m

Booty CallBooty calls
So you're in the mood to get some but you don't want to deal with all the games that go into it? Well, make your booty call follow this agreement and keep headaches at a minimum!
The Pre-Booty Call Agreement
This pre-booty call Agreement (hereinafter referred to as "The Agreement") is entered into on this ___day of ______________, 20 __, by ____________________, (hereinafter referred to as the "Participant") between ____________________, (hereinafter referred to as the "Holder of 'The Agreement'") and ____________________ (Participant).
This Agreement shall cover the following rules and principles for the Participant:
1. No sleeping over!! Unless it is very good and we need to repeat it in the morning.
2. No meeting in public except for dinner or drinks before the events of the evening.
3. No calls before 9 pm. We don't have anything to talk about.
4. None of that "lovemaking" stuff, only mind-blowing sex allowed.
5. No emotional discussions!! i.e. whe

Just A LaughOne bright morning...
in the middle of the night,
two dead boys came out to fight.
they stood back to back
and faced each other
drew their swords
and shot eachother.
the deaf policeman heard the noise
and came to kill
those two dead boys.
If u dont believe my story
its true ask the blind man he saw it too!

For All You People From The MoFor all you people from the MO
You love toasted ravioli with Budweiser beer.
"Vacation" is a choice between Silver Dollar City and Lake of the Ozarks.
You can find Pestalozzi Street by aroma alone.
You can get anywhere in 20 minutes, except on highway 40.
You can debate for 30 minutes whether Missouri Baking or Marge Amighetti makes the best Italian bread.
You know what "Party Cove" is, and where the "lake" is.
You still can't believe the Arena is gone.
Your first question to a new person is, "Where did you go to High School?"
Your non-St. Louisan friends always ask if you're aware there is no "r" in "wash."
You know at least one person who's gotten hurt at Johnson Shut-ins.
You know in your heart that Mizzou can beat Nebraska in football.
You think the four major food groups are Beef, Pork, Budweiser and Imo's.
You know there are really only three salad dressings: Imo's, Zia's and Rich and Charlie's.
You'll pay for your kid to go to college u

UntitledThis was written by a good friend of mine. It's short but really sweet.
I was thinking about a lot of things
About the way you talk
The way you feel
The way I should react when you are next to me
Right now it seems like a blur
Me holding you, you holding me
I wanna touch you, smell you
Fulfill your deepest fantasies
Canít wait to see you
And if we do meet how it would be
I know my feelings inside is haunting me
Can this be love, no itís too soon
To soon to tell till Iím with you

Billy Squire: In The DarkLife isn't easy from the singular side
Down in the hole some emotions are hard to hide
It's your decision it's a chance that you take
It's on your head it's a habit that's hard to break
Do you need a friend would you tell no lies
Would you take me in are you lonely in the dark...
You never listen to the voices inside
They fill your ears as you run to a place to hide
You're never sure if the illusion is real
You pinch yourself but the mem'ries are all you feel
Can you break away from your alibis
Can you make a play will you meet me in the dark...
Don'tcha need me...hey, hey
Don'tcha need me...oh yea
Don'tcha leave me...hey, hey
Don'tcha need me...oh yea
You take no int'rest no opinion's too dear
You make the rounds and you try to be so sincere
You guard your hopes and you pocket your dreams
You'd trade it all to avoid an unpleasant scene
Can you face the fire when you see me there
Can you feel the fire will you love me in the dark...

A Letter From My DogRemember all thatís important to me.
Remember that Iím only on this earth for a very short time. This is something you understand better than I do. You tell me one of my ďyearsĒ is equal to seven of your years. So be it. That means every time the sun goes away, Iíve lived another week of my life. Just think about all we can do in a ďweek.Ē
Remember that I like to play and have fun. I have no concept of obligations, appointments, or any kind of timetable. Please be patient with me when it seems as though I'm unaware of time. I can never understand why time is important to you. If, like me, you're living life to the fullest, what difference does it make? The way I figure it; I can always make time for you.
Remember that my ďworldĒ exists about two feet above ground. Please be aware when Iím around, because I can easily get hurt by some careless or impulsive movement that you make. I always know where you are, so please make a concentrated effort to be aware of where I am.
Rem

Ramble About HerI sit here and watch her sleeping
wondering if she knows how deep my love runs
I can only hope she knows that she is my soul
my every reason to breath.
i'd die for her, better yet,
i'd kill for her!
every beat of my heart is to her every breath!
everything i do is to make her happy.
i dont care how mushy this sounds!
i'll scream it through out eternity!
i love her!!!!!!!!!!!
i love her!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love her!!!!!!!!!!!!
there's no one better in this damned world!
no one can make me stray
i'm stuck on her like crazy glue!
i wasn't searching but found in her true love
i'd die, i mean really die, if she was gone!
i feel my chest is about to explode
i feel my soul is no longer mine!
I LOVE YOU LISA MORE THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW!!!!!!

B-day And PussyFriday is my 23rd b-day and also the day I get my first paycheck at the new job. For those of you that dont know I am currently working in a day care until I enlist in January. Yes, I work with children, I know its a scary thought but I am actually great with them.Friday night will be yet another night I end up drunk dancing on a pole and I cant wait. I will be going out with my "partner in crime" Ember(see family list). We will raise some hell and corrupt some young minds as always. I am hoping to be able to walk long enough to get in a car when the bar closes and fall onto my bed where there will hopefully be a b-day surprise waiting naked.
Well, that was the b-day, now onto the pussy....I have done something completely out of character and entered the hottest pussy on LC contest so please show some love, give me some 10's, and leave some comments. The contest is being run by a guy on my friends list that calls himself the pussy pleaser.Check it out and show me some love!!!

Please Visit My Free Adult Chat ForumThere are SO many absolutely stunning women on LC, and I would be so thrilled if you came by my ADULT FORUM SITE and checked it out. There are lots of men who would love to talk to you. Granted, it's no way near as cool as LC, but it's still a place to meet people and be nice and naughty :D
click the pic :)
So please, feel free to drop by and check it out, and if you feel compelled to do so, please, take a moment to sign up. You can set up your own gallery and blog and start off posting in the forums right away. Post whatever you'd like, either pics of yourself, of others, random porn, whatever! or simply post a discussion subject. Whatever you do, I'm sure it will be of some fun. So please, stop on by :) **kisses and hugs**
**Oh, and of course, hehe you men can feel free to stop by as well, after all, the more, the merrier I always say

I Nees A Little Insight...So, I have two jobs now. CiCi's Pizza and Denny's. I like both jobs all right, though I find my job at CiCi's tedious and remedial. I'm not sure if they mean the same thing or not, but you get the picture.
Its the worst thing- having these two jobs. It looks as if I m going to have to make a decision that I dont want to make. Which is more important to me? Are either important enought to take precedence over the other? Will I ever know? Perhaps I will know but it will be too late. The biggest question of them all is can I survive the final decision......
I do know that I want to go back to school in the spring, but I dont know how Im going to do that. I'd have to quit one or both of my jobs, but I need the money from both. I got a call from the Burger King on post to go work there for like $6/hour, but I cant do fast food. Talk about tedious. I would miss the interactions with the customers that I have a t Denny's. I guess it really is a whole other world. I feel so mu

Did You Grow Up In The 80's?You Know You Grew Up In The 80's If...
1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE".
2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Belair " ...and can do the "Carlton".
4. Girls wore biker shorts under their skirts and felt stylishly sexy.
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own.
6. You owned those lil' Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
7. You know that "WOAH " comes from Joey on Blossom.
8. Two words: Hammer Pants.
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock ".
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars... and "spokey-dokes" or playing cards on your spokes for that incredible sound effect.
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales". (Woo ooh!)
12. When it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles "

Please Visit My Free Adult Chat ForumThere are SO many absolutely stunning women on LC, and I would be so thrilled if you came by my ADULT FORUM SITE and checked it out. There are lots of men who would love to talk to you. Granted, it's no way near as cool as LC, but it's still a place to meet people and be nice and naughty :D
So please, feel free to drop by and check it out, and if you feel compelled to do so, please, take a moment to sign up. You can set up your own gallery and blog and start off posting in the forums right away. Post whatever you'd like, either pics of yourself, of others, random porn, whatever! or simply post a discussion subject. Whatever you do, I'm sure it will be of some fun. So please, stop on by :) **kisses and hugs**
**Oh, and of course, you men can feel free to stop by as well, after all, the more, the merrier I always say

Visit This Free Adult Forum SiteThere are SO many absolutely stunning women (and men) on CT, and I would be so thrilled if you came by this FREE ADULT FORUM SITE and checked it out. There are lots of people who would love to talk to you. Granted, it's no way near as cool as CT, but it's still a place to meet people and be nice and naughty :D
So please, feel free to drop by and check it out, and if you feel compelled to do so, please, take a moment to sign up. You can set up your own gallery and blog and start off posting in the forums right away. Post whatever you'd like, either pics of yourself, of others, random porn, whatever! or simply post a discussion subject. Whatever you do, I'm sure it will be of some fun. So please, stop on by :) **kisses and hugs**
**Oh, and of course, you men can feel free to stop by as well, after all, the more, the merrier I always say

Rainbow BridgeJust this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when

The Slutty PictureWhat does a girl have to do to get some more picture ratings? Maybe the spread picture will help...

Instructions... #3I finish crawling to You as You wrap the extra length of chain around Your hand slowly. I stop and kneel at Your feet again in the position described by You in Your instructions. Your hand reaches out to smooth dark red hair away from my face as You smile lovingly down at me and whisper to me about how beautiful You think I am, and how sexy I was crawling to You, staring into Your eyes and following You, my full trust of You showing through the love in my own eyes. You pull on the leash a bit, moving me closer to You, my mouth directly in front of Your need as You sit on the edge of the bed, Your legs held wide to let me between them. Looking into Your eyes, I lean forward and touch the tip of my tongue to the delicate skin at the tip of Your obvious need for me. Sliding my tongue around, I brace myself with the hands that are still on my thighs where I was instructed to keep them until told otherwise. I slide my tongue down the pulsing length of You, brushing it over the vein to the t

I'm Sorry But I Can Only Be MeI'm sorry I'm not perfect.
I'm sorry I'm not great.
I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted.
I'm sorry I'm not your fate.
I'm sorry for being busy.
I'm sorry for having problems.
I'm sorry for not giving you everything.
I'm sorry for having people to worry about.
I'm sorry I'm not the best there is.
I'm sorry I'm human and have my own problems.
I'm sorry I'm not the one who does everything you want.
I'm sorry for having feelings and not thinking about you 24/7.
I can only be me and there's nothing you can do.
I can only be me and if you don't like it then f*ck you.
I can only be me and if you have a problem with it then I don't need you.
I can only be one person and that person is me.
You deal with it or not it's up to you but if you decide to not deal with it then I give you a big f*ck you.

Billy Squire: Rock Me TonightI'm rockin' tonite - I'm walkin' on air
Gonna find me some trouble - gonna grab my share
I want ya tonite - I want ya with me
Make me guilty of love in the first degree
You want it all right... we're goin' in style
Say you walk right - you talk right - and your hair's so wild
Snow-white - hey that's not what I mean
We go down in the shadows and crawl between
Moonlight in the city brings the magic to your eyes
Freezin' a moment - leave me paralyzed
Breathe an emotion - set it dancin' in my ear
Bring on the rhythm when I hold you near
Take me in your arms - roll me through the night
Take me to your heart - rock me tonite
You do it all right - you're passion to see
You been schooled in the art of romancin' me
Hold tight - you're in for a ride
Can you feel the blood poundin' way down inside
No one's stoppin' us now -
We go down, down where the music's loud
If it's all night - hey that's all right by me
Go and play on my love - play it all for me
Life's nev

Someone Is Scared!!!!!!!!!!As well you should be..I know what you are saying about someone..Like I said before I am Pagan... I know what goes on..Why do you keep looking at my blogs and profile? Curious about what I write..well Atleast I am not scared to say it out loud instead of hiding it..NO I do NOT like you...What you are doing is WRONG..You need to have a life of your own now..So why not just Stick with your friends on your list? I am sure they talk to you...I don't really care if you keep on looking at my profile but like I said It will not get you anywhere...I only write this because you have veiwed my blogs, yes I looked at your page..Only to figure out why you keep looking at mine..I will NOT (unless by accident) veiw your page again..I really don't care enough too..So it's time to Bid Farewell...
Music Video Codes - MySpace Layouts

Tragedies And Why I Should Be Deadfirst off I would just like to say when I finally do die don't grieve, I want yall mother fuckers to party like I was there cuz I don't want my death to be mourned but more of my life celebrated,
ok here we go, at the age of 3 I was eating pizza and standing up on the chair and fell backwards and cracked my head open on the dishwasher, and I ran into a fuckin doorframe on my big wheel and got a big ass bump on my forehead, at the age of 5 I tried to outrace the sun, I flew head over heals and luckily all I did was scrape the fuck out of my knee, I still got the scar to show it, at the age of 7 is when I started get my bare ass beat with a leather belt, at the age of 9, 20 days b4 my 10th bday I was hit by a car, my head smashed off the passenger side mirror and I flew up and over the car, bit my tongue and stopped breathing, the friend who was with me didn't know what to do so she dragged me off to the side of the road, the ambulance had already been called, by the time I got to th

Friends Turned FamilyOK everyone, I have WAY too many people on my friends list, so for all of those that I stay in constant contact with, I'm switching you to family, because I luv y'all.
So I guess my thought for today (technically Tuesday) is:
A friend will come bail you out of jail, but "FAMILY" will be sitting next to you laughing, saying "That was fucking awesome!!!"
Luv, peace & axle grease, *~*Jenna*~*

Come Ride With Mecome on and take a ride with me and i will show u one hell of a good time

Yes I Like Country. Bite Me.Emerson drive-only god
< 3
This songs been on repeat for like ever now haha
We saw the moon in Colorado
Made music in Tennessee
We found the gold of El Dorado
It's so good, making love, you and me
These arms, they will never hold another
This heart, it will always feel like this
Chorus:
'Cause only God could stop me loving you
Only God could tell me not to
He sent you from Heaven
Just to make my dreams come true
When he opened the door
That you came walking through
Only God could stop me loving you
We struck oil in Oklahoma
We won the Oscar in Hollywood
We climbed the canyons of Arizona
And baby, making love never felt so good
These lips, no other girl will ever kiss
This heart, it will always feel like this
Chorus:
'Cause only God could stop me loving you
Only God could tell me not to
He sent you from Heaven
Just to make my dreams come true
When he opened the door
That you came walking through
Only God could stop me loving you
The

Love #69You called me with a sirens song
Though I tried I couldn't resist you long.
I worshipped you kept you from pain.
Why did you leave me out in the rain.
Theres thunder in the distant mount
And another heart lies slain for your count.
Ripped from my body you take it from me.
And left me naked for the world to see.
Bleeding, helpless I pray for death.
May he's just inches away.
Beware all who risk their heart
Of the demon lust, who rips it apart.
BY: Sheila Christian

Just A Bit Morewell, its like 2am here and i am so bored. do not do the bars much any more. well, not realy looking for much any more, been hurt to many times. maybe one day the one that is ment for me will find me. till then im just going to hang out and have fun

NascarFor all you JR. fans out there think of this jr. is not his daddy he has not earned a dam thing that his daddy didn't give him. GOD BLESS DALE SR. and until JR. earns it on his own piss on him. AND yes JEFF GORDON is number one because he has EARNED his position and this year he will get 5 CAMPIONSHIPS and whats that oh jr. will still be JUST A BUSH campion ROFLMFAO

What Body Part?You scored as Butt. You are attracted to: the ass! your an ass man/woman.Butt100%Abs/Stomach67%Boobs67%Face50%Penis0%What Body Part Are You Attracted To?(pics)created with QuizFarm.com

Chapter 1 Excerpt. Please Leave CommentsEnjoy, purchases available at:
The Wormwood Conspiracy Homepage
CHAPTER ONE
The Deception
OCTOBER, 31 A.D.
The sky is as black as the darkest night imagined, filled with gloomy clouds colliding as they billow. A powerful wind is advancing from every direction, as if ready to unleash a hurricane.
Thunderous roars can be heard as bright, crisp, eye-piercing lightning stretches out like mighty fists, destroying anything in its path. The earth
shakes violently and rocks shatter into dust. Graves are unearthed and tombs are opened. Screaming, shouting and crying are heard for miles.
The beasts of the field are seeking refuge from what appears to be a terrible disaster, as if the world is going to shatter into a million pieces.
A womanís voice is heard, painfully crying and sobbing, as she holds her head in her blood stained hands. ďHeeeís dead! Uhhhhh! Heeeeís
dead! My son is dead! Please take him down, take him down!Ē
The Roman soldiers guarding the man ar

Another RambleHow was my day today...better than it has been...i told the family its a fend for urself night..i am not cooking...Didn't have to watch kids today yippee...still needing a vacation...thinking of texas or north carolina..have friends in both places...or maybe which this is a big maybe minnesota..
HUGS EVERYONE
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EyesYou scored as Passion. You are very passionate whether that passion is good or evil has yet to be determined. You have great power over others and they seem to flock to your service. You are very competative almost to a fault. Perhaps you should let someone else win for a change?Passion100%Mysterious75%Diamond Eyes67%Eyes full of Pain42%What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)created with QuizFarm.com

Ur Passion Is...Your Passion is Yellow
You're a total sexual shape shifter.
You possess a complex sex drive and are very adaptable.
Of all the colors, you are the most likely to be bisexual.
While you the most passionate, you are very open minded.
What Color Is Your Passion?

Blah.I hate being sick.
I bitch to much lmao.
And ash is making me stay up all night
ahahah
stalker cough stalker
lalala
JODIE I LOVERS YOUUUUUUUU
weeeeeeee
ima puke.
kthnx. < 3

The Hunger Part 2There she is standing there,watching everyone.out of the corner of her eye,she sees him.he is the most handsome man,she can't take her eyes off him.as he moves,her eyes follow.then their eyes meet,they look at eachother.they smile,hearts start to race,she wals over to him.she wants to feel his skin,she has a hunger to touch him.he starts to feel the same way about her,his hunger for her is growing.he has found her,his need to for her.has found her,they walk to eachother.they can feel eachother's hunger,one look into their eyes and they know that they need to feed the hunger.their hunger and new found love will take them to new heights..

Songs For/about Me...Please reply and tell me what song you would dedicate to me, or what song u think describes me.. i am tryin to get a list for my site.. :) thank you
just put the name of song - and artist..
muahz
p.s. you can name more than one..

9-26-06so this is my life...
I have 3 kids, Jake who is 8, Ashley who is 6 and Jasen who is 2. Thy are my reason for breathing and with my depression, if it wasn't for them...i would have killed myself long ago. I had Jake right outta high school and been working and takin care of my kids since the day I got pregnant. it's what i do..i take care of them....i missed out on alot of them so far just due to workin so much. i'm tired of missin out....
i was married to their dad for 7 years...together for almost 9. it was a long road. not all bad. but we make better friends than parents together and a married couple. then i decided one day life was better off with us divorced. so my divorce will be final October 23rd.
It's still been a long road and very hard. sometimes...well alot of the time it seems like his kids are a matter of convenience. 3000 bhid in child support...barly see's his kids. his mom helps out more with them than he does. he has another daughter form a pre

Leaving Wednesday!!!!!!Hello to all my Family, Friends, and Fans!!!
As many of you know I am going to Japan, and I leave on Wednesday. So if I don't get a chance to talk to you tomorrow or while I'm gone (13 Hour Time Diff), I hope you all have a GREAT time for the next 5 weeks.
I will be blogging all about my trip, and per the responses I got back, I will be creating a seperate blog, and calling it "Life of a Traveling Man" (I kinda made it up out of all the suggested names!!! They were all good). I hope you read it, and leave me comments...I always like CONSTRUCTIVE OPINIONS!
I will also be posting the photos into an album called "Life of a Traveling Man" then a sub-album for the place I am in such as "Japan", then next will be "Texas", then not exactly sure where next (after Texas) will be....
Lotsa Luv to ALL,
Fred "Chief Three Fists" Jr. (a.k.a Phreddie)

To YouI love you!
You and I are ment to be,
We are the perfect couple can't you see?
You are my true one and only love.
Seing you smile lights up my day,
When I am in bed trying to sleep,
It is you that I hope is in my dreams.
When I wake up I cannot wait to talk to you.
I wish I was her or you were him.
Neither of them make us happy.
We need each other baby.
Just you and me.

Thank You AllI don't know if anyone will read this but I thought I would give it a shot.First I want to say a BIGGGGGGGGG thanks to all of you who have been so wonderful to me. I know Iam not the prettyest or the skinnyest out here in LC but you guys make me feel like Iam. =). I wish all of you the best an agin ~*~Thank You~*~
-BB

My Toughts On The Day!So Its 1:28 am And i just got done Writing another Poem I am talking To Allie Shes Keeping me in line lol I really dont understand Guys now days I really dont My Birthday is 6 days from Now & My Parents are Throwing Me a Party I will be Hanging out with My Homies And Having a Good time I really need that right now I cant wait to be 20 people say being 20 is just feeling another yr old but i think Changing Ages is cool You Cant stay The same age forever but i wish i could be 21 and stay that age lol But thats just wishful thinking I Have to Pick up My brother at wally world at 7:30 am Which is a few hours from now I just Got over my Cold I think Staceys Magic worked on me lmao But i feel Much Better
I have Been Busy all day Because i am writing a Book About My life.and I want it to be good Plus im working on my music because im starting a Band
I Know i should be thinking about College and what i wanna do in life But Music is my life and thats what i wanna do i have been writing P

This Is My Confession"It seems to me some fine things have been laid upon my table....But I only want the ones that I cant get"...That is my favorite line in the song "Desperado" (first person P.O.V.) And it explains a lot about me..I knwo that I am knew to Lost Cherry...Basically...My life..whatever I want i do not get..I always get the opposite..and why is that...It seems to me that people around me always get what they want..I only want one thing in my life right now and whenever I try to get that it turns black and rots away like a rose in the cold winter air..I usually walk around with a cloud of rain over my head..cause nothing ever goes right..and well to me...That sucks..and it is good...For example..I stay single all the time..well..i have been told that i am a great person with a great personality (cloud of rain) but on the other hand..i sometimes like being single to the extent of freedom in my life.. so i think that i woudl rather have the cloud over my head..because it only stays for a small f

Dying InsideCurrently Listing To Torn By Natalie
Where are You Now whiles im dying inside?
Where are You now since you up & left?
I gave You my World my Heart & Soul
For what? To be Torn up inside
You left me empty with a Broken Heart
You Fed Me lies and Bruised My Inner Light
You said i was Your everything
But where are You Now Why aint You Holding me?
You Said you Loved me But Honey That was Just the pills Talking instead
Where are You Now whiles im dying inside?
Where are You now since you up & Left?
I Know oh I know Your with Her
The Truth Came Out 4 weeks ago Oh Yes Yes it did
You Chose That Girl Over me
Why Did You Tore Me up inside?
Where are You Now ? whiles im Hurting inside
oooh I Know You dont care
But You Stuck A Kinfe in My heart
Now everyday I picture You with her
I think to Myself was i not enough?
What did i do To get such A Mess?
Its Raining outside My Tears are falling Down
I Gave You My World my Heart & Soul

Blah Part 2?ugh i swear this week is going by sooooo sloooow i want to go back home so i can get crunked with my wifey Maym!! lmmfao wha was it Maym "Crunk-a-thon 2006"? ha so yea im ready to go home and get my drink on with my peeps and go to our bar and leave there with PJ and Patrick carryin us out!but until then i sit home here in ATL sober as hell and hating it!!!!! I thought i was getting fat again jus come to find out it was bloating from my period! like yallz wanted to hear dat! ha! but tell mii why mii and my sister were sittin in the room and i was puttin pantyhose on my head like jack black did in "Saving Silverman" talkin bout where? and the legs were flyin around....then i put these socks on that fit like gloves over ur tooties and my sister was crackin up i said im wearin one of my pajama pants pants with the frogs on em and those socks with my flip flops and walkin her up to the door tomorrow mornin when i drop them off @ school LoL I will take the pix of the socks so yallz kno wha

Thoughts Of YearningThough I should have been in bed hours ago I a still sitting here with sweet thoughts of my honeybaby on my mind. He brings such joy to my life in these days of chaos and turmoil. I don't know what I would ever do without him and his love to look to for guidance.
I know that we may have to wait for a while to be together, but I would wait forever for him if that's what it takes. There could never be another after him. No one could ever fill the void that losing him would leave.
I am convinced more and more each day that we were brought together by some divine outer existance and that it happened for a reason. The faith that eluded me for so long is starting to return to me once again with each passing day that I have him in my life.
I wonder sometimes if he realizes just how much he means to me? Does he really know how strong my feelings are? The thoughts of his first touch and his first kiss I yearn for so strongly that they burn into me like a blazing fire that has gone ou

Ahem.... *shines Halo*You scored as The Devil. This card is all about viloent or sexual nature. believe it or not but the two things are related. You're traped in distructive ways. It represents the darker side of human natureThe Devil95%Death85%The Magician85%The High Priestess80%The Moon75%The Hanged Man70%The Empress and The Emperor65%The Lovers65%The Fool60%Justice50%Judgement50%

Not Sure....Well it's safe to say that I'm in the midst of depression. I wish I could pin point one specific reason. Maybe it's because my daughter tells me she hates me because of recent events, maybe it's because one of my best friends is mad at me or maybe it's because I feel I have no chance to make up my mistakes with someone.
I wish that my daughter didn't feel that way. Like it's all my fault and that she is losing her daddy because of me. That's not the case at all. I know AJ and I know that he cares about her and he wouldn't just leave her because things went wrong between us.
One of my best friends recently turned her back on me when I needed her the most. She fought with AJ and my friends saying some horrible things and making up several lies. I don't know what I had done to her to deserve this.
I feel like I can't make up for the mistakes that I had made with AJ. I wish I could. I would do anything or say anything to be able to turn back time to that one night where e

I Am Back!Yea... I'm back from vacation. Well, "yeah" might not quite be the correct term. Oh well. I already miss my friends and the places we went. Phoenix sucks. It's like living in hell. I can't wait until I have enough money saved to move.
On a different note. You ever notice how being on vacation makes you question your life? Or am I the only one who does that? I don't know. There really isn't much to complain about here... but grass always seems greener I guess.

Romance And Relationships 2(THIRTEEN)
WHEN YOUR ON THE PHONE WITH THEM LATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP, , BUT YOU MISS THEM ALREADY WHEN ITS JUST TWO MINUTES AGO.
( TWELVE)
YOU READ THEIR TEXTS OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
(ELEVEN)
YOU WALK REALLY SLOW WHEN YOU'RE WITH THEM
(TEN)
YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER YOU'RE WITH THEM.
(NINE)
WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM, YOUR HEART BEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAME TIME
(EIGHT)
YOU SMIlE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE.
(SEVEN)
WHEN YOU LOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN'T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOU SEE IS HIM//HER.
(SIX)
YOU START LISTENING TO SLOW SONGS, WHILE THINKING OF THEM
(FIVE)
THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.
(FOUR)
YOU GET HIGH JUST FROM THEIR SCENT
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(THREE)
YOU RELIZE THAT YOU'RE ALWAYS SMILING TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM.
(TWO)
YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR ANYTHING TO SEE THEM.
(ONE)
WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE PERSON ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLE TIME OR WOULD TO HAVE OR HAVE
MAKE A WISH, I'M MAKING MINES!

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