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feelings during/afterwards *may trigger*

i tried to write down feelings during an "episode", to make sense of it. here they are, and i was wondering if anyone feels the same?

im in a good school and doing well, have lots of good friends, am generally very happy. but then i get home, and not cos of home life, thats good too, i just get so sad. and angry and lots of bad stuff. i dont know how or why, just i go to my room and all the bad stuff comes out n its awful. when/if it gets too much, i guess cutting/choking myself/pinching myself releases some of the anger?

because afterwards i feel much calmer. the worse the infliction, the calmer. and i find this really crazy, but i find the choke marks and blood when it starts beading/running in a line kind of satisfying and.. like.. pretty?

i just i love seeing it, but only on me by me. i love the blood the most, it just seems reli beutiful.

but back to feelings, afterwards, dunno how long cos i just sit there, i feel awful, dreadful, regret about why did i do it again and all that.

I love the blood as well, sometimes i burn because the marks last longer.

but I never feel bad afterwards, scared of being caught but not ashamed or sad about it. I don't regret it. It helps me and I like it at the time and I like to look at and feel the marks and scabs afterwards.

Yessss.
Thats really amazing to me, reading what you wrote during an &quot;episode&quot;.
Thats exactly how my life is. Its great to anyone on the outside looking in but it's just that sometimes i get so sad and angry and i have no reason to feel that way but i do.

And also like you, i love seeing my blood. It is beautiful. I find it makes me feel connected to the world. Idk why that is. Also the worse the injury the happier i am afterwards.
So yesss, i do feel that same way you do.

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