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Monday, January 24, 2011

Well wasn't that an epic failure? So much for a post every week huh? Oh well, I blame it on your overwhelming responses... last time I looked there were zero. You win some you lose some I guess...

Anyways, good news about work. I'm not longer appointment setting. I've been moved out to help build the service department from the ground up. I've gotta tell you, I absolutely love my job! It's so much more rewarding than what I was doing. I didn't get a raise yet, but at least I get 40 hours a week now. So, hopefully I'll get my bills paid down and I'll get to start putting some money away for a car. We shall see..

Oh, I'll also be starting classes at the University of Phoenix part-time coming up here soon, so that's pretty exciting. I changed my major back to Business... let's see where that takes me.

And that's pretty much all that has been going on with me. Lame, I know... but what can ya do? I guess I'll end here, and leave you with one of my current favorite songs... it's Pink - Perfect...

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Well, it's a new year and thanks to a Facebook comment by a certain friend of mine, I've decided to get back to my blog. I'm going to try to do one post per week, every week. Let's see how long I can stick with it.

Well, I'm done with school for now, actually I flunked out last semester after realizing that I needed to find work ASAP (cue the tomatoes). Not exactly the ideal circumstances, but I've gotta do what I've gotta do, right? I've finally found a job... appointment setting :( . But, a job is a job and although I'm not getting anywhere near the hours or the pay that I need to pay all of my bills, buy groceries, and have gas to get to and from work, I'm at least able to pay SOME bills... so I'm trying to stay positive in regards to that.

My resolution this year is to not dig in my change jar the whole year. Sounds kind of ridiculous, but it's actually a pretty big deal to me. It's a huge blow to my self esteem when I'm counting out nickles and dimes for a gallon of milk. The solution... go without the gallon of milk. We will see how this goes.

With all of that said, I would like to hear from you guys. What types of things would you like me to talk about next week? What are some of your New Year's Resolutions?

I'm gonna run for now. I hope you all have a productive and postive week. Stay upbeat!
~Matt

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Hey everyone,
I'm so sorry that I haven't been blogging lately. I've been finding myself in a bit of a funk lately and being as I try to convey positivity and good feelings on here, I thought it would be best that I stay away for awhile. But I had an epiphany in the shower this evening/morning. Nobody really expects me to be happy all the time. People's lives are full of high and lows, it makes us human and keeps us grounded.

So, I have a question for you guys. I wanted to reserve asking questions until I built a bigger following being as I'd hate to look like a looser if I didn't receive any responses, but I'll try to keep my big boy pants on and a box of tissues on hand. So here's the question: Do you think that there is someone out there for everyone? Or are there only others out there for some, while the rest of us are left collecting up friends to feel complete?

Kinda deep and dark I know but it's a very real mental mind fuck that many people torture themselves with daily, myself included. I've make the decision that relationships are difficult, they take a lot of time and a lot of work and usually end in heartbreak. With this in mind, it seemed only healthy not to concentrate on searching out such things and instead concentrating my efforts on school and further myself as a person. So, after putting this mindset into action, I find that my social needs aren't being met. What is wrong with me?

So, I begin scouring gay social networking sites, looking to build new friendships with people like me. Problem is this: The people that I find to be genuinely awesome people that I would like to build a friendship with are looking for love or sex. The people who are looking for friendships share no common interests. Couple this with the fact that my college career seems to be going down the tubes at a rapid rate and the result is Sad Matt. The only way I know how to deal with sadness is to throw anger at it... thus, we have Mad Matt.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Hey everyone,
For this week's vlog, I decided I would talk a little bit about my take on labels and stereotypes. I think Monday night will be the official day for new videos, so mark your calenders and make sure you are following me on Facebook so that you can receive updates. Hope you enjoy...

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Hey everyone,
While I was doing my daily YouTubing, I came across this video of a song done for the Trevor Project. I've watched it like 10 times now and it gives me chills everytime. I figured I would share it with you all. Hope you enjoy it. Oh, and I will be uploading my new video tomorrow using the internet at the school... I guess that's what I get for living out in the sticks.

A Little Background On

I'm currently 21 years old and attending Seminole State College. I just changed my major from Accounting to Digital Media. I'll be finished up there this summer and will be moving on to UCF. I came out to my friends and family in April of 2010. Nobody was that surprised. HA! I was born and raised in Sanford, FL but I've also lived in Lake Mary, Geneva, Osteen, and Umatilla as well as Old Fort, TN, Cleveland, TN, Geneva, AL, and Pinckard, AL. I'm glad to be back home and am looking forward to finishing up school and excelling in the business world.