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First off, I apologize for the choppy post. It’s past midnight and I took a sleeping pill since I need to wake up early tomorrow.

I got some much needed guidance from Jen today. I actually felt the blocks in my heart clear and get the energy flowing again.

Turns out, my dream about D was important. Jen said that even my TF’s kids were part of my soul group, and by him “paying his respects” — gosh, I need to change that phrase because that makes me sound like I’m dead — okay, “courtesy call” then, it was an acknowledgement that I was welcome in our soul group. And, of course, it had to be D, who is a mama’s boy and is naturally opposed to my presence.

Basically, they’re still together, no emotional connection, but more like brother and sister. However, between this Equinox and this — I forgot the term because really, since we only have two seasons where I live, all the changing seasons thing is actually irrelevant to my existence. It’s just either sunny or raining. Anyway, whatever it was, it’s going to happen on May 1 — which, to me, is simply Labor Day. That period though — March 20 to May 1 — is set to be a big wave of awakening and recognition of the Divine Masculine of their Divine Feminine counterparts.

If I don’t stabilize in 5D, then he’s not going to “recognize” me. Jen said I was wobbly right now, which was okay because we get that way sometimes. I said that much of my frustration was because I was already that way BEFORE the fucking session. In any case, all water under the bridge. In order to stabilize in 5D, I have to be in the present, in the NOW and just continue to be thankful — be in a state of gratitude — no matter what 3D presents to me. She said that I had to take the lead because I am the Divine Feminine. And, really, I should listen to my own readings because that’s exactly what I said also to the collective.

I did tell her about the fire in one of the malls that my TF designed. And she said that that was an important sign as well. Their egos are being dissolved by fire, like a phoenix rising from the ashes. And, again, I said that too in my reading for this week which means I should listen to myself more, lol. She even told me to tell that to the collective and I said that I already did.

As regards the remaining 30% ancestral healing that needs to be done, Jen said that I didn’t need to clear anything anymore; that I had already cleared so much it was unbelievable. And of course, I told her about Linamarie, and she asked if she was a Twin Flame. I said I did see her in other TF boards but since I wasn’t active myself because I was hecka busy, I didn’t really know her. She was just recommended and I did enjoy my first session with her, so I went for a second.

And, once again, I got advised that I need to get readings from people who vibrate higher than I do. This is the part where the eye-roll comes in. The thing is, I don’t know that until after I get the read.

And since I was pesky and needed validation, I asked her if she was sure that I didn’t need to clear anything anymore. And she asked me what resonated with me more, her version or Linamarie’s? I told her that I had already cut karmic cords with my family around three years ago and I was even given a promotion by the karmic board with that crown that they gave me. And anything that I did after that was already my free will. I could choose to leave and let them live out the consequences of not spiritually evolving, but I chose to stay. And I felt that with my presence alone, they are improving and making better choices.

So there. That’s that. At least, a huge thorn has been lifted off my chest as regards that ancestral healing thing.

I told Jen that I kind of slid back into 3D mode and went into retail therapy to comfort myself and just kept buying bags. I think my bag buying spree is over now. I’m ready to go back to my “other Facebook”. With the exception of those bags that I didn’t quite like when it got to me, the rest are going to be part of my other line of business.

That’s yesterday’s Astronomy Picture of the Day (APOD) courtesy of NASA. It’s edited to highlight the figure and some folks at Reddit suspect that the original unedited pic would look like this:

Still and all, it gave me quite a different vibe upon chancing upon it. I felt like it was a code, a sign, a message from our kin way up there in the stars. The fact that this display of Northern Lights encompassed several constellations, including Pleiades and Orion, makes me even more certain of it. I still don’t know what the message is, but I can feel that it’s positive.

Actually, before chancing upon this picture, I had quite a vivid dream the night before. I was in a very high place, somewhere white, and there was an escalator before me that I had to get on. Getting down was steep and long and it reminded me of this:

But I went on it anyway, even though I found it quite boring. It was a single strip of escalator, and I could vividly see the black plates that brought me down. All of a sudden, it gained speed, and I could see the rest of the escalator stretch out before me. I was moving on it faster and faster, and then, in “down the rabbit hole fashion”, the escalator suddenly sloped like a roller coaster and since it was going down fast, I was quite enjoying myself on it, thinking (to myself, in my dream) that once it was over, I’d go on it again, even if the climb was steep. (Well, I didn’t actually know in my dream whether or not it was going to be a climb or there was a lift to take me to the top again. I simply assumed, again, in my dream, that it was easy to get back to the top to repeat the entire experience.)

That’s the first part of my dream.

The second part, although seemingly a continuation, I will discuss separately because it has two meanings.

Anyway, when I got down, I realized that I had just smooshed my Iphone. It wasn’t shattered into pieces, just “smooshed”, like a big fat giant had sat on it. Actually, I was the one that had sat on it since I was riding the escalator like a child sliding down the banister of stairs, but I didn’t see that part happen in my dream. I just knew that that’s how it happened.

I was checking out my phone to see if I could revive it, and after a few minutes of worrying and panicking, the smooshed phone popped back into its original form. Okay, problem solved.

Then, I woke up.

I took heed of the dream. Felt that my Intuition was telling me “Don’t forget your phone”, “pay attention to your phone” and that I had to watch out for my phone. After a bit of googling and checking out messages in the morning, I made sure to charge it a bit so that it would be tip top shape as far as the battery was concerned.

Long story short, in the morning rush trying to get out the door to do the day’s business — I FORGOT MY PHONE. Sheesh. This is certainly one of those times when I have to thank my Intuition for reminding me and, yet, kick myself for being so human and forgetting the reminder. Kind of makes me wish that Intuition had an opt-in “second alert” like Google Calendar, you know.

As for the first part of my dream, I couldn’t decipher it at first. Those dream dictionaries were telling me conflicting things. Some say that dreaming of an escalator was auspicious and that things would be on the up and up, especially when it came to my romantic life. Then again, there’d be a proviso saying quite the opposite in those cases where one was riding an escalator that was going down.

I couldn’t quite reconcile that with the ecstatic feeling I had in my dream despite the fact that it was travelling down. Then, it kind of dawned on me that I needed to look at the bigger picture of this dream. So here’s the analysis I eventually settled into:

The escalator signifies my starseed journey into being human. For a very long time — and I’m talking lifetimes here — I went through the experience. Rather humdrum but something I had to live through. And now that I’m nearing the end of my human journey, remembering what I have to, nearing reunion with my Twin Soul, it’s going to be quite enjoyable from here on out. So much so that despite the sluggish beginnings through several floors of the escalator, the part when it becomes a thrilling roller coaster ride would be something I’d want to go through again. That’s why I was going “down”. It didn’t mean a descent to something decrepit (although the human condition can be so at times), but just that there was nowhere to go but down, especially if you’re coming from “up there”.

The phone part of my dream has an alternate meaning too. Phone = contact. Broken phone means that I lost contact with those who put me on the escalator in the first place. But, as in real life when I’ve just rekindled my connection with my galactic ancestors, I got my “transmitter” working again. Yeahhhh, baby. E.T. is finally phoning home!

Wait, that’s not all. After I finished my earthly duties (a.k.a. deadlines at work), I still got flooded with signs confirming all of the above.

I was driving home in a semi-dazed, empty state. Not particularly agitated, belligerent, or anxious, but, you know, the kind where you’re empty but aware. Then there was this vehicle in front of me with these big letters espousing the company motto that said, “We’re changing lives.” And the make of the car? HILUX. High Lux. Bright Lights. Big influx of light.

My antenna went up. Maybe this was just a fluke? Next car I see, again, another Hi-Lux. As if they were that common. Next one that catches my eye has the words “New Era” on it. And the next one is an Innova. And the next one says, “Novaliches” which means New City.

Message received. Loud and clear. The new influx of energies will be crucial in building a new paradigm for humanity. And this is what I have to anchor next or what I am currently anchoring. No wonder I’ve been restless the past couple of days, on edge, nervous but not anxious. Maybe my circuitry was being upgraded to anchor in the new energies or the energy was just high frequency and that was the effect of imbibing it.

I watched the video and as soon as the light language channeling from the Lyran, Syrian and Arcturian Council came through, I could see in my mind’s eye the illuminated codes actually going into my heart space and planting themselves there. I found it kind of disconcerting because it was all so clear. Like watching it on HDR, and the codes contained symbols I couldn’t understand. I’m not worried though. The human in me may not be able to translate it, but I have no doubt that the Starseed in me got what I was supposed to get.

Wait. There’s more. I just realized that the OST I had been listening to all day long (also something I had just come across today when looking for focus music while working), is from “Ori and the Blind Forest”. Orion. One of the constellations over which the Phoenix (above) formed. Which also brought me to that song by Prince — Arms of Orion. Take a look at the lyrics:

Orion’s arms are wide enoughTo hold us both togetherAlthough we’re worlds apartI’d cross the stars for you

“In the heart of a sleepless moon”“I’ll be with you forever”“This is my destiny”“‘Till my life is through”

[Chorus]The arms of Orion that’s where I want to beSince you’ve been goneI’ve been searching for a loverIn the Sea of TranquilityI’m drowning without you here, my dear

When I am lost and feeling aloneI just look to heavenI find my comfort thereGod only knows where you are to night

“God only knows where you are to night”“Maybe time will tell me”“‘Till then I’ll close my eyes and say a prayer for you”(I’ll say a prayer for you too)

[Chorus]

Orion’s heart is bright enoughTo shine on both of usThe constellations never failTo light the way for love

‘Orion’s arms are wide enough’To hold us both together“Although we’re worlds apart”(‘I’d cross the stars for you’)“I’d cross the stars for you”

Okay. I think I’d better stop now. This is getting creepy and I’m getting overwhelmed with messages. I’m kind of scared to sleep now because I might get something in my dreams. I know I shouldn’t be scared, but the synchronicity of it all is weirding me out. I won’t even begin to tell you how many words I misspelled today. Yes, me, the consummate grammar and spelling nazi.