Thats nice, I've been away for a few days without the intertubes. Sorry to hear about your probs with the blog. If you made it invite only for a short while (don't forget to invite me! :) invite all the people that love it, that would let you relax and enjoy it so you feel happy about it again. Then you might feel you can risk another period of being open.

That's just a feeling, that's just in your mind. And also is only one side of the coin. So there are times when we feel good and times when we feel lousy. But taht's OK, we wouldn't know how it feels to feel good if we never fel bad.