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Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Why my mom doesn't understand me.

My mom thinks I'm weird because I don't want to ride a skate bored, but I want to go hang gliding. Is this considered weird? The reason for this is that, with a hang glider I am holding on to something, thus it is safe, with a skate board, I am not holding on to something, thus it is unsafe. (My logic is flawed, I know, deal with it) I don't know, thats just how I think. That is why riding a bike or a scooter is safe, but not a skate board or a unicycle. I am actually afraid of my skate board on a flat surface, while I am not afraid of jumping of a cliff with a hang glider. I don't know why. I just am. I guess it's that I feel in control if I am holding it more so than if I'm controlling it with my feet. Does that make sense? I guess it only make sense to me.

Another problem I have is, I am terrified to talk to people about doing things. Especially men. I hate doing things I don't feel I'm good at in front of people. And I hate asking them questions. I guess it makes me feel, well, kind of stupid. I know I shouldn't feel like that, and I always tell people to ask for help, but I don't like doing that. I guess I'm a hypocrite. I just feel really nervous asking people things. I hate it. I don't even like asking the people at stores were books and stuff are located, I would much rather search for it myself and go to other people as a last resort. Some times I'll try to lead a conversation to an explanation so I don't have to ask. I don't mind asking my dad questions, or my mom, or other people I know really well. It's really just people i feel knew too. Or people I feel uncomfortable around. I don't know, well i'm done ranting about my weird issues. Bye Bri π