Monday, January 05, 2015

New Year

I've not blogged in ages.

Sometimes I'm just out of words - or maybe struggling to formulate them - or not sure what I want to share, or how much. Asia always accuses me of living my life really un-privately, on Facebook and with my blog... but there are plenty of things I hold onto, until the time is right.

So perhaps I'm just in a more private space lately.

Needing more time to process and work through my thoughts in a different way.

But today, the first day of the new year that I have any quiet and space to actually write (yay for husbands back to work and kids back to school!) I want to document. And share.

I've done a lot of crazy things over the years, inspired by the new year.

Some have been wildly successful, and others, not so much.

So I always approach a new year carefully, asking myself what it is I'd like to accomplish. How I'd like to change. What I might want to tackle.

And this year, I read a quote on Pinterest that caught my eye:

It all seemed good and sort of trite until I got to the last line.

Because I'm not a very surprising person.

I find safety and comfort and security and identity in being steady, constant and predictable.

I'm not a risk taker.

But packaged up in the idea of 'surprise', somehow risk taking becomes strangely appealing to me.

I've done some out-of-character types of things, here and there... I ran a half marathon. Applied for a high-level corporate job. I go to Africa (even in the midst of an ebola crisis!)

But my M.O. is safety.

So I'm hoping, this year, to do one thing a month that surprises myself. That takes me a little out of my comfort zone and expands my tight little definition of safe and secure. That, maybe, even terrifies me.

I'll be honest, I need ideas. There are a lot of things I've written off over the years - for so long, really, that they're just not on my radar at all. So if you've got any suggestions, hop in and share them.