This blog is solely written to convey the many thoughts and feelings I, Alicia Marie, experience throughout my day to day life. Along the way, I hope to bring my readers something they can relate to. My purpose is to make people smile, and to cry (tears of joy, that is), and to make them feel like they're not alone in this world.

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Wednesday, November 14, 2012

It's a God thing

The coolest thing happened today on my way into work.
Every day I play a Hillsong CD in my car, and I listen to it all the way to and
from work (and anywhere I go!). I’m obsessed with this CD to say the
least. Anyway, one of my favorite songs on the CD has always been desert
song. I have often repeated it over and over again just because the
lyrics ring so true to my life.

Today, I came into work a little later than normal because I
stayed almost an hour later yesterday. On my way to work, the desert song
came on and I started thinking about all that Luke and I are going through with
finances, infertility, and marital issues. The part of the song that
says,

“And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames”

was playing and I looked over to my
left and I was passing the Head Start bus as it was going to Springfield to the
discovery center and I was headed to work. Something inside me, deep
down, said it’s all going to be alright. Chills ran down my spine, tears
began to form in my eyes. Just as I passed the Head Start bus and it was out of
my sight, the lyrics that say,

“All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship”

were playing. How fitting.
Sometimes I need a reminder that everything will be okay. God has me exactly
where he wants me. He knew I needed a reminder today. He knew my heart
had been breaking more these last few days than they have been in the past. I
count it a blessing to be where I am. It’s definitely a God thing that I’m in
this position. He knew I needed great, supportive, CHRISTIAN people in my
life (especially Jennifer--the other family advocate—she’s such a blessing to me, and she has no idea!)
that I can talk to about things and that I needed these kiddos to help fill
that deep void in my life.

About Me

I'm a 24 years old foster mom to three kiddos ages 3 and under. Not too long ago I felt that I knew what life was going to be like. I would have a full time job, 2 kids, a house, and two dogs. Like most things in life, we do not always get what we dream of, but I can say that I have been given more than I could ever imagine for myself. I'm here to share my experiences--the good, the bad, and the ugly--and in turn I hope to inspire you and bring hope to your life.