Lizzie983's Journal, 13 December 2012

This afternoon I had a coffee with a friend. Her baby is so cute and he's smiling at me all time! What a nice feeling! I have been talking to her about emotionally heavy issues for me, and as a consequence, as soon as she left, I felt like "raptus" eating. So, I entered a shop, looked at all the chocolate and junk food I usually eat during emotional eating episodes. I was not able to choose. Felt like chocolate, but not really. Have seen chips but same feeling of not being sure. Then I asked myself: "Is it the only way to ease my pain? Is it really what I want? Is it the only way out from bad memories and sad feelings?". And I decided to leave the shop without buying any (junk) food. Then went to buy a "cookie Xmas house kit" for my nieces and did not buy any chocolate or junk food for myself. I am very proud of myself. This time I did not prevent the set of negative emotions that make me feel like emotional eating from flowing. I let them flow and I have been able to manage those emotions; I have chosen not to have an emotional eating raptus and I succeeded. I postponed dinner, to be sure to have food at the right moment, when finally away from bad emotions and memories.

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I have been offered a job interview from one of the companies I applied for jobs. Don't know yet when it is, but cross your fingers with me! :)

Lizzie congrats on the blue!! Also a superb job on acknowledging the feelings and recognizing them before indulging them. That is wonderful and then on top of it all you got a job interview. Great day for you!!!!

Congratulations! I'm still orange but my weight tracker signature bar has been broken for 25lbs now ~ sure hope they fix it by the time I hit yellow or green! And GOOD FOR YOU on being stronger than the desire to swallow your emotions. Of course, I had to google Raptus... wow.