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Friday, May 31, 2013

Well, I'm sorry for posting to much today, but I just have to get these feelings out of my brain and I realized that I hadn't told you the story of Seattle and Me yet, which would help to clarify the feelings I'm feeling right now. Which is a lot of feeling, but it's true.So these past days of school have been pretty sad, mostly because on the very last day of school, everyone went around playing cards and acting like it wasn't the last day--even the sun sets in paradise--and that's why I was being me.

And now I'm causing a scene ... need a reason to smile ...But I spent all of yesterday, my first day of summer vacation, finding all the pictures of me and my friends that I could and making a slideshow. And even though I didn't get all the memories, I feel like I captured it pretty well.It was funny because last night at Kahler's, the only people who weren't playing soccer and therefore actually watched the slideshow were Nash, Danica, Liberty and Stephen. Orqua came in halfway because presumably she heard the music, but anyhoo.We stopped the movie halfway and it felt like a secret {haha} because we were the only ones who knew the movie had stopped because everyone was busy playing soccer and chasing down Seattle, who isn't really Seattle if you know what I mean, which you probably don't, but I felt like Seattle was sitting with me when I watched the slideshow for about the millionth time.

It was playing to Daylight by Maroon 5, and Liberty groaned. "Why did you play this song? I hate it.""Yeah, why'd you pick this song?" asked Stephen.

It fit.And even though Sunburn by Owl City might have fit better--I tried not to cry as we said goodbye but I shed a tear as you disappeared 'cause now I'm a stranger on the ground--it doesn't, actually. Daylight played through my head the entire day long but I realized, although I titled the slideshow "The End," it was wrong, because this isn't the end, this isn't the end, this is just the pause between memories and the three words I wrote on the last slide:To Be Continued

If you haven't read Parts Wednesday and Friday in that order, then please go back and do that before you continue or this won't make too much sense. ... So the last two school days pass by and during the first one, Me didn't speak a single word to Seattle because she pretty much didn't see him at all. And on the last day of school Me got plenty of chances to talk to him but every time she cried out there was no reply. But it wasn't like there should've been, because half of the times she was screaming inside, and everyone knows you can't hear that unless you're the one on the inside, which Me was. Which is ironic because Me was on the outside of everything else.So Me ended up walking outside the science classroom intending to leave when she bumped into Seattle. And what did he say? "Hi," to Me. And then he walked inside the science classroom and she was left standing there like "Oh, that's how it is."Which made her want to leave all the more, but Seattle beat her to it, so all there was was an empty space under a tree where they once stood together in their favorite weather. There might also be an empty skating rink, but there will probably be plenty of people there to mess up their lives every day of the year. Maybe they should just close it.The End