Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Times have been so nuts it is insane how much has happened. So many friends and relatives announcing impending births. It is alittle bit of an ouch.

I know it isn't the right time and we really should wait but at the same time it is a neverending want. We talked and said maybe in a year we will try. That all depends on everything going as planned. Everything lining up just right.

How often do things line up just right? It is not a common thing. Sort of like a blue moon.

Friday, September 14, 2007

It is only the 14th of September and so many people in my different rabbit groups have lost some of their rabbits. It is so sad. Some of them are rabbits I have come to love. Here is a list of thier names.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

My world has been so crazy that I feel like I let myself get lost in anger, frustration, and exhaustion. My creative flow became lost and I am just getting it back. I am still not out of this dark phase but I am ok and surviving.

Things still are not looking up but we are still together. Still strong. Who knows what is going to happen. We can just wait and see.

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Ringo Starr today is your day. You have graced our lives for two years.

We have cried and laughed with you in that time. Some of the moments we were not sure if we would have you the next day. I held you in my arms never letting go. For two weeks I slept an hour here and there making sure you stayed with us, I would do it again with out a second thought. Some how you have always pulled through, showing us your strength.

We watched as the others have rejected you yet you still continue to seek them out. You have never let anything change your spirit. Never a mean action from you just love.

Each time you see us you go insane. Bunny 500 hundred could not describe your joy when someone visits you. Demanding does not cover how much you want to be petted.

I know you were not my first choice but you were ment to be part of our lives. You will always be are first child. The one that needs us the most. We will always move heaven and earth to make sure you are cared for.

I know you miss Samantha and how she would lay near you when no one else would. I am sure she is watching out for you and waiting for the day you guys can trully be with each other. Just make sure it is a long way off.

Ringo Starr are little miracle pig, our first, and no way are last we love you more than anything.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

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Monday, June 11, 2007

So many things seem to be wrong but one thing is still going strong. My love. I love Rob like it was that first time holding hands, that first kiss, that first touch...I think you get the idea. I don't see that ever changing.

How can it when I have an amazing guy. No not perfect but pretty damn close. He supports me in every crazy thing I do and say. He cares for me when I am sick and barely able to stand. He laughs at my quirks, and makes me smile when I am down.

His love has not waivered, he stays true to himself but is willing to listen to what I say. Most of all he never let's me forget.

I love you baby. Always will. I am proud to be your wife. I believe in you.

Almost two years ago I dedicated this song to you and it still stands true.

Stickwitu lyrics Sung by PussyCat DollsI don't wanna go another day,So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind. Seems like everybody's breaking up Throwing their love away,But I know I got a good thing right here That's why I say (Hey)

[Chorus:]Nobody gonna love me betterI must stick with you forever. Nobody gonna take me higherI must stick with you. You know how to appreciate meI must stick with you, my baby. Nobody ever made me feel this way I must stick with you.

I don't wanna go another day So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind. See the way we ride in our private lives,Ain't nobody getting in between. I want you to know that you're the only one for me (one for me)And I say

[Chorus]And now Ain't nothing else I can need (nothing else I can need)And now I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me. I got you,We'll be making love endlessly. I'm with you (baby, I'm with you)Baby, you're with me (Baby, you're with me)

So don't you worry about People hanging around,They ain't bringing us down. I know you and you know me And that's all that counts. So don't you worry about People hanging around,They ain't bringing us down. I know you and you know me And that's why I say

Friday, June 1, 2007

I thought I was done posting for the day but I guess not. I just wanted you to know that I liked hearing the thunder again today.

Also Kashi keeps looking for you. She spent all day going all over looking around. She would go to where your pen should be and come out look at me as if to ask where are you. How do I tell her your gone?

I also noticed Teresa keeps sitting looking across to where your pen would be. Also wondering where her arch nemisis is. I don't know what to do we miss you. Daddy posted on his 360 blog but still can not come here.

We watched your videos when he got home. It was nice we laughed at the memories as tears of sorrow rained down our faces. We still can't believe your gone.

I still don't know how to tell Daniel you are gone. She gave you to us knowing we would love you. As I have said not the housewarming gift I expected but one of the best ever.

I am going to qoute something Daddy wrote on his blog here.

Good bye Samantha Jane. I don't know why you felt it was time to leave us, we were ready to take care of you for a long time yet. I hope you were truly happy in your time with us. I hope you have found peace. You will be greatly missed.

For everyone else this afternoon I went to feed the bunnies there afternoon treat and I turned to give Sam some and she wasn't there. I fell to the floor crying. I just wanted my baby. At that moment it started to thunder.I like to think that was her stomping telling me she was ok and to get up.

This morning.

It's funny they say grief you blame others. I don't blame others and I don't blame myself. It was her time to go and thats all. No way to change that. I will miss her and rather her be here but it is was just her time.

We did everything to make sure she was healthy, taking her to the vet. Making sure she had the best food, the healthiest treats. Nothing more we could just her time.I just miss her.

This afternoon.

Well I just got off the phone with the vets office we have made the choice to have you cremated. It wasn't an easy choice. In the end we wanted you to always have your place in our family. No one will ever replace you.

Next week the two guinea pigs join our family in body. In heart they already are part of this family they were before you left. In you honor we are going to call them Logan Jake (Jane) and Samuel (Samantha) Elijah or Eliot. I like Elijah but waiting for what Daddy thinks. Daddy still can not come here to say good bye.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Hey my big DIVA it's 5am and I have been up an hour. I can't believe your gone. I always said I wouldn't have chosen you myself but that God sent you to me for a reason. Trying to find a way to help you made me see what amazing creatures rabbits our.

It brought to light what delicate creatures you were. Thanks to you I help others. I learned patience ok so not much but I did learn some. I learned to fight for those who have no voice. Not just to sit back and talk while others fight. I learned that every life is worth fighting for.

Daddy is so sad. He loved you so much. I don't know how he will take this but maybe he can draw comfort that you are now with his bunny Thumper who he lost years ago. Do me a favor ask Thumper how he felt about that name. Tell Thumper that Daddy still misses him and we wait for the day we all meet again.

Also say hi to Chaka and tell her grandma and JayR miss her.

I am also worried about Kashi I know she was a dog and but you two were the best of friends. You trusted her long before you trusted any of us. She would sleep by your pen and eat veggies with you. She is going to miss you.

So much more to say but how do I say it? How do I accept you are gone? I love you my big DIVA. We will meet again at the Rainbow Bridge and you will nip me and ask for crasins. When hear thunder I will think of your stomping.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Lately it seems that I life is overwhelming but listening to a new cd it has two songs back to back that make me see that I need to stop looking at the bad in my life and get past it. The songs by the way are "If Everyone Cared" by Nickleback and "It's Not Over" by Daughtry.

Sometimes it feels like the world is coming down around you. What could go wrong does. What shouldn't go wrong does. You feel lost, afraid and alone.

You have to look for the good. You have to be open. You have to be willing to try something new. No one is alone unless they want to be. Get out there and meet people. Go into a game and mess with a newbies head. Pick up the phone and call someone you haven't spoken to in a long time. Or just go for a walk. Drop me a line...I love people!

Lately for me it feels like my world is crashing down around me. Everything unraveling to the point that I can barely hold on.

I lost my cousin. My grandma has been sick and she is also having problems with her adopted children. My great-uncle is in and out of the hospital. I have no job and soon my husband will be in the same boat. My brother seems to be lost. My teenage cousin is pregnant again and I am jealous. Top it off this time it's a girl. Oh man does it hurt.

Yet when those songs came on I said to myself..."You have a husband who loves you, animals who depend on you and volunteer work that makes you feel alive." I guess I just have to get through these times and hope for the best.

I was blown away.What could I say?It all seemed to make sense.You've taken away everything, And I can't deal with that.I try to see the good in life, But good things in life are hard to find.We'll blow it away, blow it away. Can we make this something good?Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.I'll try to do it right this time around.It's not over.'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.This love is killing me,But you're the only one.It's not over.

Taken all I could take,And I cannot wait.We're wasting too much time Being strong, holding on.Can't let it bring us down.My life with you means everything,So I won't give up that easily.I'll blow it away, blow it away.Can we make this something good?'Cause it's all misunderstood.Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.I'll try to do it right this time around.It's not over.'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.This love is killing me,But you're the only one.It's not over.

We can't let this get away.Let it out, let it out.Don't get caught up in yourself.Let it out.

Let's start over.I'll try to do it right this time around.It's not over.'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.This love is killing me,But you're the only one.It's not over.

Let's start over.It's not over, yeah...This love is killing me,But you're the only one.It's not over.

If Everyone Cared lyrics Nickelback

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky Confusing stars for satellitesI never dreamed that you'd be mineBut here we are, we're here tonight

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

[Chorus:]If everyone cared and nobody cried If everyone loved and nobody lied If everyone shared and swallowed their pride Then we'd see the day when nobody died

And I'm singing

Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air the firefliesOur only light in paradise We'll show the world they were wrongAnd teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive Singing Amen, I, I'm alive(I'm alive)

[Chorus x2]

And as we lie beneath the stars We realize how small we areIf they could love like you and meImagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried If everyone loved and nobody lied If everyone shared and swallowed their pride Then we'd see the day when nobody died When nobody died...

[Chorus]

We'd see the day, we'd see the day When nobody diedWe'd see the day, we'd see the day When nobody died We'd see the day when nobody died

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