pls dont ban or delete me, i am sharing my own problems. i always wanted a devine relationship since i was 26, i am 30 smth now. i aged slow and my menses came on 17 so pretty normal for me. but i am a lesbian or bi but i like masculine women so i wanted a gay devine marriage. gays think thats ok. not so with heterosexual ppl who dont aknowledge gay saints for example. what is worse however is that obviously i have 2 male pretenders for me, the silent prophet to call it so and the great PR antime

PRed antimessiah. not possible you may say, yes, yes it is. if you thing the bad one is danger for my soul and may ruin me, as he may ruin everything around me because he has money and power, the good one is denying me and my being in philosophical terms. but this choice is binary and i dont see a lesbian option

yes, devine marriage with a god, or lets be accurate, between 2 godlike creatures as lesbians seek equality. heterosexual marriages of that kind dont offer equality. there is one man god, buddha, brahman and a consort in hinduism, etc. in christianity there is no females at all, 2nd coming is said as son of God marriage with the Chirch, so there is no marriage at all according to all christians

i heal fast zhen le do you meditate, you should know. real gurus dont even get sick but i just get better quickly. even so my post is weeks ago even non practitioner could be ready steady for such time

maybe you just dont know what a guru meam. let me explain to you, i am advanced practitioner student, guru is a master teacher. do you get it, its a big difference. so are you a beginner or you dont learn?

"Even if you practice only for an hour a day with faith and inspiration, good qualities will steadily increase. Regular practice makes it easy to transform your mind. From seeing only relative truth, you will eventually reach a profound certainty in the meaning of absolute truth."
Kyabje Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche.

As you are 30 your relationships are for you to decide unless of course you are living in a repressive part of the world. On Gay/Bi relationships the repressive part of the world is most of Africa, the Middle East, most of Asia, Russia and the former Russian states, much of Eastern Europe still, parts of South America (it sort of depends and definitely depends on whether you live in a major city or not), about 1/2 of the US and some of Canada. Of course Canada and the US (esp. Canada) are increasingly freeer on this issue both legally and in society.

If you live in the Netherlands then it is almost a non-issue (most Dutch would say it's a non-issue but it can still be an issue in families).

So where you live matters for this. But if you wish to find a partner for your life may you be able to do so.

"Even if you practice only for an hour a day with faith and inspiration, good qualities will steadily increase. Regular practice makes it easy to transform your mind. From seeing only relative truth, you will eventually reach a profound certainty in the meaning of absolute truth."
Kyabje Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche.