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Waiting for a Break...a venting kinda post

Okay, I'm back. The last three days have been pretty torturous. I got my period on Monday morning - on a Monday:/ aren't Mondays hard enough? Jeesh - and it was all downhill from there. It's been feeling like I'm hemorrhaging, debilitating cramps, and aches all over my thighs and hips. Not fun. At all. I won't go into more detail about what my body was going through, because I don't want to gross you out, but dang!

I wish I could get a break from awful periods. It's always been this way since I was a teenager. My mom never told me it would be like this. She never really talked about that kind of stuff. When I got my period, I was given a pad and told that I couldn't go into the pool that summer. The birds and bees conversation was told to me over a game of fish. Yeah, I was clueless.

I am forty years old and thought I'd get a break from debilitating periods, but nope. I feel like it's gotten worse. Nothing to joke about. No one can touch me - no hugs for me - because my body recoils. I get hot flashes one moment and then freezing the next. My emotions are a wreck. And I have to go through this ever month? What the heck!

That is why I haven't been blogging this week. I just couldn't handle one more thing to do. If I could I would've just stayed home and suffered by myself, it would've been a blessing. But I can't. I have a job. I have responsibilities. So I plowed through these last few days and just bared with it.

Yup, I'm still sulking. This sucks. I can't wait until this week is over and I can start anew. Just need some peace for my body and prepare for the next month's visit. I feel like I'm the only one who goes through such a hard time. Am I?

So, maybe I should've waited until next week to write. I'm still not in it to win it. I'll try really hard today to focus on the good and think positive thoughts. Only today and Friday to go and the weekend will be here. Thank goodness.

Thank goodness it's just a bad week and not a bad life. Thanks for reading my rant. The regular ole Nay will be back in full swing soon. Promise.

Comments

Although some months are better than others, I still (at 41) get really bad menstrual cycles :( I used to be on prescription Anaprox to help and it did. The physical pain is bad enough and then throw in the emotional toll and I'm spent too. Hang in there. For whatever it's worth, you're not alone!!! xoxo