WHY cant you just stop kidding yourselves!!!!

im venting on what my gf is going through and how im feeling about it.

Submitted:Mar 24, 2013
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i know
her. SHe wants everyone to be happy.I had
the same things happen with me and i chose, because i felt guilty
about leaving, and wanted my dad to be happy. and honestly, i
made the wrong choice.Im not
trying to be the bad guy that everyones setting me out to be. Im
trying to help her. not brainwash her.She
wants to stay for school and her friends and everything here.
Just wants to see them everyday. She could still over skype and
everything would be okay. Shes affraid that if she stays that
shell make her dad feel like his not a good guy. because he
is.

My mom
didnt want me to leave. She tried her damnest to have me. and i
refused, because i was guilted into being with my dad. and if a
fther loved his child, like my father loves me, hed feel guilt
too. Hed try his damnest in every way possible to get his
daughter what she wants. We put the offer open, and he just shut
it down, not thinking that maybe it would make her happier than
just leaving.ALL SHE
WANTS IS TO SEE YOU GUYS EVERYDAY BUT GO TO SCHOOL HERE!im in
so much anger. because i know what its like, i know how life is.
Once you go, you regret leaving everything and you cant go
back.

i hate
how your scaring her into leaving because shes affraid shell lose
you if you dont get what you want.

i hate
how shes losing sleep, and crying. because i never want her to
cry.

Im
trying to calm her down not wreck her, as you may think.im trying
to make you understand that it isnt right to chose your daughters
fate for her, if she wants something else!!!! I cry, because i
dont want her to go through what happened with me and having to
live feeling sad, because she didnt want this
exactly!

why not
give her everything she wants for once?!?! she never gets
anything! She wants you to support her, and telling her the thing
she wants most, isnt an option, is not support. Its control. Just
open your minds for fucks sake!!!!!!!!!!

she
tells me shes even scared on talking about it with you, because
youll decide for her. and someone so loving and that cares so
much about you, shouldnt be put in that position. a father should
never do that.... and mine did.

she
doesnt know anymore. because all your thinking is whats best for
her later. but what is best now??? what does
she want??? just please.... give her the one
thing she wants..

id be
begging on my knees to get her the exact living situation she
wants.... shed see you every night, and see me every day and see
you every break she could.

id give up my life to get
her what compromise she wants... and i really hope you would
too.