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So, I haven’t posted in forever. I didn’t wanna post or talk about the election. I didn’t want to get into argument’s about the Inauguration. But now that it’s over, I’ve got some words. I didn’t vote for Trump. I didn’t vote for Hilary either. Some would say that a third party, or write in vote are just as bad. If you’d like to say that to my face, be my guest.

Before I really get into this post, I’d like to make it known that I haven’t unfriended anyone from my social media(I have 365 friends, I should actually edit my list cause I don’t talk to a bunch of you). I believe you all have a right to vote for whomever you chose. Just as I do. I’m well aware that this post may not be everyone’s cup of tea, and honestly I feel that way reading a lot of what is being posted by y’all. And I understand that a bunch of people will unfriend me.This post isn’t going to bash on your beliefs, or choices. I’m not being a judgmental butthead. I’m posting about how I’m feeling. And by unfriending me, I feel like that makes it seem as though my opinions don’t matter. I don’t plan on saying anything that will offend someone, but you never know what will. I don’t intend to get into arguments about this post, so unless you leave a comment saying how well spoken this post is, or how you agree with what is written, please don’t bother spewing hate. It’ll go ignored by myself. So, here goes…

In my soul, as a woman, I couldn’t vote for Trump. I see these posts about, “Hilary did (insert all the things she’s done that people don’t like), while Trump just said ‘mean things'”. And yeah, Hilary isn’t the best choice . But a man who is now the President, said that it’s okay to grab a woman by the pussy. THE PUSSY! that’s who will be in office. And yeah, I’m offended! It’s not unheard of to be offended that someone said it’s okay to grab a woman by the pussy, to take away her right to consent. To just pop some Tic Tacs, and start kissing her cause as a celebrity, your rights mean more than mine. I’m offended for myself, for my mother, for my future children, for sisters, aunts, grandmothers, best friends, all women of the world! I’m offended for the men that I know don’t talk like this. I’m offended that it easy brushed off as ‘locker room’ talk. Now we have a man that wants to abolish free health care, that wants to build a wall, that continuously spews racist and homophobic slurs, and doesn’t think climate change is real is who is now in office. (I’m not saying anything judgemental about it, those are just actual things that have been said)And now, there are riots. There are people protesting. There are fights on Facebook where everyone can hide behind the safety of their screens. America is becoming divided when we’re at our most vulnerable. Family members arguing with each other. Friendships ending. But the worst of it, in my opinion, is the animosity in the church. My fellow believers calling a bunch of people protesting childish. Saying that the opinions of others don’t matter as much as your own. It hurts my heart so deeply when I read some of these things and it really sick because as believers, you’re giving into the stigma that nonbelievers have towards us. Live your life to be honoring to the Lord. You see people acting like fools? Pray for them. You get ‘fed up with’ all the posts about how frightened people are that Trump is president? Pray for them! You see a video that has no context buto someone claims it’s of an anti Trump nature, and that makes you mad? What should you do?!?!?! Say it with me now- PRAY FOR THEM! That’s what we are called to do! We’re not called to judge anyone, unless you would like to take that giant log our of your eyes first.

I was told that as a white female , I’m the least affected. Unfortunately, that’s not true. You see, anyone with a vagina, or pussy (as the new president said ), will be affected .

Because yes, I take birth control . Do I take it to have hours of crazy sex and live a baby free life? No, actually . You see, two years ago, in September, I got my period. *if this conversation eeks you out, you don’t need to read* I have always had miserable periods, with cramps that make me want to(and at times actually) throw up and stay curled in bed, emotions that run rampant, and blood that soaks through a tampon and pad within 20 minutes . All of this for 7 days. So I get my period in September. It goes 7 days. It’s miserable. Whatever. Then I’m done. For 3 days. Because then I start to bleed again. It was like the end of a period blood. Not miserable, but I thought I was finished?! This continues for over a month. It wasn’t until I was looking up reasons (and started panicking ), that I decided to go to get checked out. Here’s where I guess I made another HUGE mistake according to some of you. I went to Planned Parenthood. I was a 24 year old, that had just moved to a new state, was making $100 a week, and had no insurance. I made the best choice I could, with what I had. After the Doctor calmed me down and explained that I didn’t have some horrible form of cancer, we discussed that I have an unbalance of hormones and a lessened version of endometriosis. Which means that part of my uterine lining is growing *plot twist* outside of my uterus! She recommended that I get on some form of birth control, or begin taking various hormones to balance everything out. I decided to go for the cheaper (thank God, free) option, and began birth control. Now that it’s been a few years, my periods have become regular, they don’t last a month, they are still very painful because there’s not a whole lot I can do about my jacked up lining. But I don’t have to miss out on life cause I’m stuck in bed and by the toilet. Do I regret taking birth control? Nope. Do I regret going to Planned Parenthood? Heck no. They didn’t force me to begin taking birth control. They helped me when I was broke and struggling to understand why my body was betraying me. I was so blessed by them because I was freaking out and certain something horrible was wrong and I needed my mom and they took care of me as though I was family. I got access to health care through them as well. Because while I was trying to figure out how to pay the $97 for tests and fees, they encouraged me to apply and processed my application for insurance. I do understand where a lot of people are coming from though. I do understand that abortion isn’t a form of birth control and that you’re fighting to save the lives of the unborn. I understand that. But don’t make the people that go into Planned Parenthood feel like horrible people, because they’re not. You don’t know their life. You don’t know why they are there. You don’t have a right to judge. And while we’re on this point…

My last post had so much about how as a believer we’re not to judge. Yet, somehow, everyone forgets that. Am I thrilled that Trump is the president ? Nope. Am i so psyched that he will take away rhe ACA? Not at all. Am I jazzed that his VP wants to put anyone in the LGBQT community into camps where they will ‘pray the gay away’? Sweet Lord, NO! Will I disrespect those that voted for him? Will I unfriend them on Facebook? Will I drag their names through the mud ? Not one bit.

Today, millions marched for Women. For freedom. For equality. For the ability to defend what was torn down and beaten during this election. For America. If you would like to educate yourself about what the march was about, go check out the Women’s March website and mission statement. Because, well there’s a lot of disrespect going around. I see the posts about how ‘We didn’t protest when Obama was in office’………………really? Who asked for his birth certificate? Who had anti Obama rallies that had ‘Hang in there Obama’ slogans with crude drawings and photoshopped pictures of a noose? It’s all screwed up. There will always be discontent. There will always be rallies. Today, my beautiful cousin, marched in Portland because she has beliefs.

This was her first time voting. She chose to stand for the rights of women around the world, because that’s what she felt called to do. That’s how she felt her voice would be heard. And I’m so proud of her. I’m awake at almost 3 in the morning, because I have a voice. This is my freedom. This is how my voice will be heard. I’m proud of myself. With the posts going around online, I see the hate. I see the ‘grow up’ ‘stop acting like children ‘ posts. And they aren’t as kind as the few quotes I wrote. I agree, protests should be peaceful. Make your voice heard, but don’t damage property. Sing your fight song, but don’t ask that people ‘rape’ the new first lady. I encourage my fellow Americans, be proud to fight for your rights, be respectful about fighting for your rights, but absolutely continue to fight for your rights. Remember to look for the light at the end of this tunnel, because I can promise you that it is there! Be kind to each other, because not only is that what God calls us to do, but it’s freaking nice people! Look out for each other in the coming years, because I have a feeling there will be lots of hard times.

This election has opened the eyes of Americans to how much hate there is in the world. I don’t know how the next four years will go. But I won’t wish ill will upon Trump. I won’t hope he fails in running the country. In fact, I hope he proves us all wrong. I hope he succeeds in growing our world, not dividing it. I pray that he does make a difference. Because I don’t want to bring a child into the world as it is right now. I don’t want them to see this hatred going on. I don’t even want to see this hatred. For the next four years, pray. Before every post that spews hate towards someone you disagree with, pray. When you’re feeling like this is as good as it’s gonna get, pray. Live your best life the way that works for you. Not because someone told you to do it, but because it’s your life. You do you…boo boo 😉

And for the love of all things holy, please choose to post pictures of cute animals and happy things. I miss those days.

So I normally do a post about how my life has been going, and then I do a Q&A with questions sent from random strangers, or friends, or my kids. And, though I do have a lot to update y’all on regarding my life. I got a few questions anonymously emailed to me and I decided to dedicate this post to questions only. Though prayer for me to get this job in July are definitely appreciated!!!

Okay, here goes.

QUESTION #1: IS IT OKAY TO HAVE SEX WHEN YOU’RE 14???
The person that emailed this question didn’t state whether they we’re male or female. They also asked me to ‘not use the Bible’ as a reference in my response. But that’s kind of difficult for me. So I’ll give you the response from both a biblical, and a worldly point of view. The answer is no. Biblically, you should wait until marriage to have sex. I’ve had arguments with people about this situation, because if you ask me, I’ll tell you to wait, then you’ll ask if I’m waiting, and I didn’t. My situation was complicated, though. Overall, my response when counseling anyone about having sex before marriage is to ask a simple question. ‘Are you ready to be a parent?’ that’s what it comes down to. Are you ready, at 14, to be a parent? Because that’s the risk you run. Yes, there’s contraception. But what if that fails? Are you ready to spend the rest of your life taking care of another being? Providing food, shelter, clothing, healthcare? Because honestly, even at 24, I’m not ready for that! At 14, are you with a person that you’re willing to share a life with? Every time you have sex, you run the risk of pregnancy, STD’s, and though it sounds silly, but getting your heartbroken. Every time you have sex, that’s a piece of yourself that you’ve shared with someone else. Are you ready for the risk of losing that piece of yourself if your partner decided they wanted to look elsewhere?
So, is it okay to have sex at 14? Following the ways of the world, no. You’re perfectly capable of going through with that. But the age of consent in California is 18. You might be capable of having sex. Basically everyone is. But legally and Biblically, it’s a no-go. If you want to be following God’s plan for your life? I’d recommend that you wait. You’re so special, and God has the perfect person for you! Whether it be the person you’re with now, or someone you don’t meet for several years. That person is out there. And if you’re feeling pressured because of the person you’re with threatening to leave you, or pushing past your boundaries, you need to get out of that relationship. Seriously! If you’re with a person that is pressuring you to agree to have sex, that’s not okay. Get help from an adult that you trust, or even go to the authorities. That’s dangerous, and you’re better than that. I understand thinking that you’re in love with this person, and wanting to be closer to them than any other person. But you’ve got you’re entire life ahead of you. Honestly, if I was with the guy I had feelings for when I was 14, we’d be living in a trailer in the middle of nowhere…Bleh. I know it’s tough to save yourself. I know you think everyone else is having sex, why shouldn’t you? But I can assure you, you’re not the only person remaining abstinent. If, when you’re 18 and legally able to consent, you decide you’re ready to have sex, remember to stop and think about if you’re ready to be a mommy or daddy.
I’m not gonna say to remain abstinent until marriage. I’m not gonna say to have sex when you can legally consent. But I will say to always use protection. And always remember that if you’re with the person God has prepared for you, you won’t be pressured to wait, it will be the most natural wait ever. Because that person wants to respect and love you like the awesome person you are!!❤❤❤

QUESTION #2: IS IT OK TO LISTEN TO REGULAR MUSIC AS A CHRISTIAN?
I listen to so many different varieties of music. My favorite is punk rock. I love listening to bands that actually know how to play their instruments. A lot of the music I’m listening to ends up with me primarily listening to the beat. Yes, I’m aware that the lyrics aren’t always the best. Sometimes there’s curse words. Sometimes the band is disrespecting authority. I don’t plan to stop listening to these songs. But I also don’t let this music impact my everyday life. I’m not out screaming obscenities about the government. Nor am I sleeping with every person I meet. I’m not doing drugs, and clubbing every weekend. I don’t take the music I listen to literally. I also love listening to worship songs. They tend to make my day significantly better. In response to this question, I would say, if the music you’re listening to is causing your heart to stray, maybe check out some other music. I totally understand not wanting to listen to Christian music, because a lot of it is super cheesy. But there are some really good Christian artists out there. I’d recommend going online and googling Christian artists that are similar to bands you like listening to now. And if you have similar tastes to myself, I’d recommend Thousand Foot Krutch, Family force 5, Disciple, and Skillet. They’re awesome bands that I’ve been blessed to see live, several times !!

QUESTION #3: DO YOU STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR AN EX?
I don’t. Honestly, when I think about my exes, there are really no great enough memories, that would cut out the bad stuff I went through with them. There was a reason they didn’t work out, and I’m not going to hold on to something that wasn’t meant to be.

QUESTION #4: I CHEATED ON MY BOYFRIEND. SHOULD I TELL HIM?
Yes. I was cheated on, and my ex admitted it to me. I used to wonder, if he hadn’t told me, would we still be together? I most likely, would have found out. And we would have broken up in the end. Cheating sucks, and it’s selfish. I don’t really understand why anyone would do it, but I think it’ll hurt more if your partner found out himself, instead of you admitting you did it. It’s a sucky situation to be in. But in the end, you won’t feel as much guilt, and maybe y’all can work through it!

QUESTION #5: HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT MARRIAGE EQUALITY?
If you didn’t know, This law passed yesterday. I doubt anyone missed it. But I’m not posting this blog post until Monday, because I don’t want to have disagreements on my last day in California. How do I feel about it? I feel as I do every single day. That’s not actually true. I’m mad. But not how you think I’d be. I’m mad about how my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ are reacting! As a believer, I have been taught to love others as I would want to be loved. And I’ve done that. Do I believe in marriage equality? In a way, yes. I believe if you love someone, you should be allowed to be with them. I saw so many hateful posts yesterday and today. And I’ve heard so many people use horrifyingly derogatory words about something you have no idea about! Using the f** word, is in the same context as using the n***** word. It doesn’t matter if you’re joking, you should NEVER use those words. They’re disrespectful! And it hurts me! I love my boyfriend. But if I happened to have feelings for a female, that’s okay. My faith in God is more important to me, so I’d most likely remain celibate. I spoke with my mom about this yesterday, but we’ve had this conversation before. She loves me, I am her child! If I had feelings for another female, she wouldn’t disown me. She wouldn’t send me to Bible camp and ‘pray the gay’ out of me. That’s ridiculous! She loves me as I am! Gay. Straight. Black. White. Purple. Yellow. Orange. Whatever! Based on what I’ve seen online, people are acting as though homosexuality means that you’re not a person. That you’re somehow less. And I think that’s total crap! I have family members and good friends that are gay. Does that mean I’m supposed to love them less?? Heck no!! As a Christian, I know what the Bible says. I also know it says to ‘judge not, lest ye be judged’ ( Matthew 7:1)
Overall, this is what I have to say, I don’t support, nor am I against same-sex marriage. I don’t personally care who you love. It grosses me out when anyone makes out in front of me, but I’ve never liked PDA from anyone. I refuse to judge any form of marriage. I saw a friend comment on Facebook that ‘ the government shouldn’t even be involved in marriage’ and I think that’s an awesome point. None of this should have been such a big deal. My question to everyone that is so against this is, why is this such a big deal for you? How does this, in any way, affect you? I’m pretty sure the answer is, it doesn’t. So leave it alone. ‘ Why do you see the speck in your brother’s eye, but fail to see the beam of wood in your own?’ ( Matthew 7:3)
Pray for everyone, because that’s what you’re called to do. Love everyone, because you’re also called to do that. And if you have hate in your heart. The Bible has the same outcome for you as that which you’re fighting so hard against.
I love you all, and I’m sure I’ll be getting angry calls and texts. I encourage readers to send me their opinions to discuss this further. It’s only through conversation and the exchange of ideas that our personal understanding of the world, and how to bring the Lord’s message to it, can grow. But let’s try to keep it Christian and leave the personal attacks at home. And please, out of respect, don’t go “telling on me to my mommy”. She will not tolerate rudeness.

😌😌😌😌😌❤❤💞💞☺☺☺

Alright, so that’s it for my serious Q&A, I still have to do a post about my time in California!! And I’ll do that this coming week!! Love y’all, miss y’all!!!

I’ve been having some of the best days of my life!!! Honestly, my life is pretty rockin. Yes, I miss my California humans more than I can explain! But I’ve finally discovered my niche up here, and that makes moving forward so much easier!!

There have been so many things happening from the last post about my life. Which was back in February, after Valentine’s Day.

My boyfriend, Sean 💕 and I, drove down to Oregon, to Pacific University…okay, so he drove, I most likely annoyed with my musical selections. Anyway, we went to see my family, they were visiting my cousins future school. We went to the Tillamook factory, had ice cream, took a stroll around a beach, and took pictures. Then had a delicious dinner at this little Thai place close to the school!! It was awesome to see my family, and have them meet my guy!!

Okay, so that was it for February. Then March came along. Not a lot happened that I can think of…oh! That’s right! I went to Emerald City Comic Con 😎😎 it was interesting…as all comic conventions are. There were tons of people in Cosplay, and it was really cool seeing how committed some of the outfits were (some had awesome details…some did not). Plus, I got to sleep in a super comfy bed at the Westin (I could honestly write odes to this bed. Perhaps a haiku…no, that’s crazy. But you need to understand that this bed was heaven!!), and have a delicious dinner at Il Fornaio, where they have dessert that is also sent from heaven!!! Plus, the next day I got to see a woman that is like my other mother, and have some catch up time!! Also in March, Sean and I did a double date with his friends, and he officially referred to me as his girlfriend!! For you to understand how excited I was, you’d have to be female. Haha. I played it cool in the moment, but inside I was doing the happy, victory dance…y’all know that dance! 💃💃💃 I think that was it for March. Oh, I also had a minor meltdown. It was the night before my mom’s birthday, and that week had been tough. I just missed California, and was really homesick. It all cultivated to one night and after getting dinner, Sean and I went to his apartment, and I felt it happening, I felt the meltdown arriving, and I took the meds that help maintain everything. The only problem was the meds don’t work instantly, you need some time. And if I hid in the bathroom for over ten minutes, that’d be a little creepy. So, I walked out, Sean stopped me in the hall, and I broke. We’re talking full on sobs. That’s right, y’all. I had the ugly cry going. Tears and makeup streaming down my face, snot making bubbles from your nose, sniffles that are not remotely ladylike, and the sad crying sounds. All in front of Sean. What did he do? He hugged me, and held me through all of it. He calmed me. He let me get tears and snot on his shirt:? and he told me it was okay. I’m pretty sure that’s when I absolutely knew how I felt about him. 😌

And that was March!! Now, for April!!!

I’ve had a chance to make some new friends!! Which I super love! But the most important was that Sean wanted me to meet his parents!!!! …those of you that know me, or that I talked with about this know that I was hardcore freaking out! I’ve never met the parents of a guy I dated. I usually already knew the parents before we dated, or it wasn’t an option. Either way, this was the first time for me meeting the parents, and for his parents to meet a girl he was dating! That’s big. No matter how you slice it, it was a big step!! I was invited to Easter dinner, where I would meet his mom, dad, and aunt. Hyperventilating was a big occurrence. The day finally arrived, I looked adorable (seriously, super cute sun dress, cardigan, grey booties). I ended up having a lot of fun. His parents were amazing. His aunt was hilarious. The food was delicious!! When we were leaving, they all gave me rockin hugs. And it felt wonderful. On the drive home, Sean told me they had each told him they liked me at various times during the night!! It was awesome!! All that freaking out was pointless, it always is. I most likely won’t stop. But hey, it makes me the person I am.
The most important part of that night though, was when we went to Sean’s. Because when that happened, we were cuddled on the couch eating candy, and Sean gave me a card. Inside the card was a key to his apartment. It’s my new favorite escape! And with that key he told me the three words every girl longs to hear!!!! He told me he loves me!!!!!!!!!!! There aren’t really enough exclamation points for describing that moment. I became that over excited girl that you see and wonder what she’s on. I was giggly and bouncy and happy. My heart was slippery, and my tummy was mush. There have been moments over the past few months when I’ve wanted to say those words to him. But I didn’t. Finally, being able to say it and have it said back, is an incredible feeling!! This guy makes me happy. Does he annoy me? Yes. Are there times when I wanna smack him? Heck yes! But the days when he watches a movie he doesn’t want to (Hercules…the Disney version😝), or takes me to get donuts from our favorite place, when he holds my hand and will give me kisses all over my face when I’m sad, or when he texts me good morning and good night. Those are the times that matter. Those are the times when my heart is full. I love those times. I love Sean😘

QUESTION #1: WHO’S YOUR FAVORITE BAND?
The answer is Green Day. It will always be Green Day. They’re seriously the best! They know how to play their instruments. They write lyrics that actually mean something! They are awesome!!

QUESTION #2: WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
This is a weird question. My favorite number is 13. I like the superstitions attached to it. I think it’s hilarious. Plus, it was the Jersey number of a guy I used to have a huge crush on…lol teenagers.

QUESTION #3: WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE FEATURE IN A GUY?
So, I wasn’t sure if this was based on physical, or personality. And I decided to just answer both. My favorite physical feature is…eyes. You can learn a lot from a person based on their eyes. And my favorite personality feature is a guy that can entertain children. Being able to see how a guy treats kids is helpful in seeing how he would treat his own children. 😝

QUESTION #4: WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF A YEAR FROM NOW?
Shout out to Sam for this lovely question. I miss you, dear!!
Okay, a year from now? I’m not sure. I honestly never know where I’ll be, or what I’ll be doing. I’ll most likely still be in Washington. I’m hoping to have a job that’s incredibly awesome, and pays well. And I’m most definitely gonna be happy. Cause it’s mine to design, y’all!!!

QUESTION #5: WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO HAVE IN A RELATIONSHIP?
I’m assuming this is a romantic relationship you’re asking about? I think the most important thing is trust. There are lots of things you’ll want, like someone to make you laugh, someone to encourage your weirdness, someone who loves you. But if you don’t trust the person you’re dating, then you have the potential to be hurt beyond repair. And that’s not cool -__-