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I began having symptoms of depression around puberty (unprovoked feelings of utter hopelessness, worthlessness, overwhelming guilt, panic attacks). I think religion is based so much on building a…Continue

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"This is what I want to publish (it's in note form at the moment). I need to ask everyone who's posted here: please say if it's not acceptable. I'll tell you when it goes live, in case you want to delete the…"

"Just as you, my involvement in religion when i was accompanied with a really big depression plus feelings of emptiness, worthlessness, of been tied up with invisible chains; i tried as hard as i could to be become the religious role model, i wanted…"

"I think my experience is kind of like GD Heathen. I felt guilty for masturbating, which is something that i still deal with. So for the longest time I would play this endless game of jerking it and then later praying to god that i would…"

"Aside from the usual feelings religion has made me feel, such as fear and guilt, there was also something very regrettable: being proud. Holier than thou. I've had that thought in my mind that my religion is right, yours is wrong. "Satan…"

"I remember being relatively young (maybe 7-11ish?) and telling my Mom "I feel guilty." She'd ask me "Why?" and I'd just say "I don't know, I just do." So I can definitely see what you're saying about…"

"My mom was so thoroughly screwed up by her Southern Baptist upbringing that my siblings and I are still paying for it. I love it when I tell Christians, when they ask, why I was brought up as an atheist. I don't know if my family…"

"I was never religious and cannot really say it impacted me emotionally in any way. However, I did grow up in a country with a state religion, which included 2-3 hours every week of Christianity in school for 8 years. If I could have been taught…"

"There are a 1000 things that affected me growing up but none, not a single one, was ever as bad as the shame of jerking off. I hated that Jesus would watch me jerk off, and then I'd feel like I was on an escalator to hell.
I think…"

"Lizard & Shay, that sounds like a very hard time you've had there. You don't have to reply to me, but I'm interested in whether you think your family could have done it differently - if you could have been brought up with a…"

"I was never religious, but as far as ethics and morals are concerned, I never seriously questioned their origins or justifications until recently. I felt that "there must be some, absolute standards of behavior" out there. I could see that…"

I began having symptoms of depression around puberty (unprovoked feelings of utter hopelessness, worthlessness, overwhelming guilt, panic attacks). I think religion is based so much on building a sense of guilt, and the selfish desire to not feel that way, that the combination of my chemical imbalance and the pressures of the church finally became too much for me. I stopped participating in religion after 18 years, sought psychiatric help, and only since then have I begun to understand morality…See More