Chapters:

August,25,2012Dear
Diary,Today had to be the
best day of my life. The day where I made the smartest decision
that took me months and months tomake. The day I broke
up with Oscar.Now If you don't know
Oscar WAS my boyfriend. We had been dating for eight months and
we were probablythe most adored couple
you could ever meet, causing our break up to delay for months
LITERALLY.We simply hated each
other because of our differences and lack of things in common we
had. We were tooopposite of each
other.Like the saying
opposites do attract ,but once you get to know each other for a
while, this turns into a big problem. And thatmajor
problem was for us because we we're alwaysfighting over things.
And the thing we most foughtabout was Gabby.Gabby was a girl that
Oscar used todate. She also was one of my closet friends. Ireally
liked Oscar in the beginning and I liked himmore then Gabby ever
did. When they broke up Iwas happy to hear about it and happy to
knowthat Gabby didn't mind if I still liked Oscar.Oscar and I
were friends, we werereal close to each other and soon we went on
adate and after came home in a relationship. Thingswere nice in
the beginning until the day Oscar asked me if I felt comfortable
if he was a friend with Gabby still. Trying to be anice I told
him I was comfortable with it though I was suspicious. Why out of
the blue would he want to be friends with his exagain? That's
when I discovered his feelings for her were still infinite and
problems formed out of the jealousy and hatred I grew.The summer
heat was slick and the afternoon was quiet. I could hear the
buzzing of all the fan's in Oscar'shouse as I looked up at his
tall figure. I starred for a while looking at all the detail on
his face. The way his face was nicelyshaped, his black spiky hair
was shiny, his eyes were a nice dark color of brown, and his skin
was dark and smooth. It was ashame that I was planning on leaving
someone as beautiful as him but I cared for personality more then
I cared for looks. Istarred at the floor waiting for the right
moment to say what I wanted. I knew what I wanted. I wanted to
break up with him. ButI just couldn't find the time. Every chance
I had, I wasted out of fear.What was I doing
spending my last week of summer with this guy? He was an asshole
for sure and today was our firsteight month anniversary and he
didn't even remember. That's why I was so determined to leave him
today. It angered me knowingthat he hadn't even thought that
today was special. I loved him but I couldn't stand him.
Especially when he did things likethis.I looked at him more as
he locked eyes to the T.V. screen fidgeting with the game
controller. I got real bored waiting forthe right moment and just
decided to give up on this decision for the hundredth time. I
leaned my head onto his shoulder to restit but he moved his
shoulder up, making it uncomfortable for me to rest my head
on."Stop it, you're going
to make me mess up," he snapped at me.I turned away towards
him and curled up in a ball wanting to cry. I hated this guy so
much. Why couldn't I break up withhim? What was holding
me back?If I weren't going to
break up with him today I at least expected him to do something
romantic, NOT play video games."What are you doing
now?", he growled at me ,"Are you angry at me…AGAIN?"He then
paused his game and put the controller on the table as I watched.
He crawled towards me and then started to kiss myneck. Now this
is more like it I thought. It felt nice when he did this, it
always turned me on. The feeling was smoothing andexciting at the
same time I was enjoying it till he stopped to grope his hands
onto my chest. Of course. Now he's going to dosomething
sexual..I slid out of his arms
and quickly ran to the bathroom door as I heard him call out my
name asking where I was going."Sorry! I got to pee!"
I shouted back.Sorry? Sorry?! Again I
was being too nice to him. This pervert literally groped me and I
end up saying sorry? This is why Ispent most nights hating myself
wanting to die cause of his sexual acts.I spent most of my time
in the bathroom whenever I hung out with Oscar. Crying. Bathrooms
were nice since you got tohave your own private room without
anybody disturbing you. I looked at myself in the mirror and
tears ran down. I was so sick ofthis relationship that I could
just throw up. I probably stayed in there for about five minutes
then I heard a familiar voice. Islightly opened the door to peek
out at Oscar. He was on the phone with Gabby and this seemed like
it was the last straw forme.I quickly got out and
tip-toed towards my eyes, grabbed my bag and climbed through the
back window to escape. I walkedto the front yard to grab my bike
and started towards the road."This is such a nice
escape" I thought smiling as more tears ran down my face. I was
happy to leave that monster.Riding my bike was
something I enjoyed doing because I lived in the suburbs where
everything was just trees and whiteneighbors. So everywhere was
full of nature and friendly folks. I biked through the Green Tree
trail and made a turn towardstown center where I stopped as my
phone rang.It was Oscar. He
finally realized after 30 minutes later that I was gone."WHERE ARE
YOU?!" the phone yelled ," WHY DID YOU LEAVE?!""I…" I
became afraid to reply back. I was often bad at responding to
anger. I was quite angry myself too though."WHAT? WHY DID YOU
LEAVE?! ARE YOU JUST GOING TO PLAY THIS STUPID GAME WITH
MEAGAIN? YOU'RE SO
STUPID", he yelled even louder. Loud enough to make Mr.Wigens, an
old man who hung out at towncenter often, to hear.I turned
towards Mr.Wigens as Oscar went on and on raging. Mr.Wigens knew
I was upset. We talked often. Heknew I had a
problematic boyfriend. He walked towards me and put his hand on
my shoulder gave me a wink and said "Don't bewith those who make
you unhappy" as he then walked off.And this was true.
Mr.Wigens was right. I wasn't happy with Oscar. I never was.
That's why I ran away today right?I decide and this was going to
be the moment. I was going to tell him.I interrupted his
arguing."It's over Oscar," I
said."What?"" I said
its Over"There was a moment of
silence then Oscar took in a deep breath. I thought he was going
to say something along the lines of:But he just ended up
raging again about how I'm sooooooo mean and a wuss for trying to
break up on the phone."Bitch please you're
just going to come back to me tomorrow and end up begging for my
forgiveness," he said with a mockingvoice."You're an
asshole. Fuck you" I calmly said as I hung up on him.And now I
am free.