31 Days...

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

To Purge

So I decided to look up the definition of PURGE. According to "dictionary.com" the meaning is "to rid of whatever is impure or undesirable; cleanse; purify." OK, then! Boy - if that didn't hit the nail on the head I don't know what would! See the funny - or not - thing is that God pretty much gave me this word, purge, three times in just a matter of days. Now, being one of faith, I take the whole three thing pretty seriously. I am not one who is much into the whole numerology of things - but when it comes to God and giving me lessons...I think 3 is of significance! So how does one purge? I know it's not easy. My first thought always goes to someone who binges and purges...and I always think - yuck! I have no desire to throw up if I don't have to! There is nothing worse than that if you ask me! I had terrible morning sickness with both of my daughters and might have had one more child if being sick and hanging over the toilet was guaranteed not to happen again! Hence the reason I only have two children!So to purge requires ridding oneself of whatever is impure or undesirable. Yikes. I have plenty of undesirable stuff - and not just in all those boxes that are stacked to the ceiling of my garage waiting for me to open them. God is showing me some things about myself that I certainly desire to be rid of. Some things that have been part of who I am for over 30 years. So now the question is how...how do I rid myself of the things that have kept me from becoming who God designed me to be - that keep me from my true authentic self. And do I even want to meet her?