Saturday, October 31, 2009

What splendour and joy love can bring. Ah, the simple pleasures of falling in love, being close to your loved one and much more. It is, in my opinion, the most selfish and selfless feeling a person can have. Love binds us all.

If you think that was sappy, well, I will sap away, anyway. Love has its mountain tops and pitfalls, but it is undeniable that it is a feeling people crave for. But love is a funny thing, I think. Love makes us do foolish things and we sometimes remember those things fondly or even regret some of the actions we made. Nevertheless, love shapes us as human beings, in the way we live our life and interact with others.

Love has changed me. I know I’m a lot different than what I used to be. When I used to be patient and understanding, I’m more intolerant and opinionated towards her. And that’s because of my complacency. I’m complacent now because I’ve fit myself into a routine. A routine that is very fixed, predictable and certain. And that’s what kills the romance sometimes, you know? Predictability means non-excitement and boredom breeds contempt eventually. People get bored of each other when it becomes too mundane and the frustration sets into soon after.

What I’m trying to say is that I have become boring. I got used to the ‘timetable’ of life and it has affected my relationship. I own up to it; it is my complacency that sometimes strains our relationship. We’ve talked about it a lot but this is my first time I’m saying it out LOUD. She knows all this. I wonder what she’ll say.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Starbucks or Coffee Bean?
I've always love starbucks coz their Hazelnut Hot Chocolate is just to DIE FOR!!...hehe...but today, we decided on The Coffee Bean BECAUSE after 7 years, I found out that HE likes "THE ULTIMATE"!

7 YEARS, 10 MONTHS and 3 DAYS!!!

Only NOW that I find out that he likes "The Ultimate"!!!!....

7 FREAKING YEARS!! :p

1. He's been super schweet sacrificing "The Ultimate" for my "Hazelnut Hot Chocolate"...hehe...*awww*2. ??? Really??? How can he not tell me?? ;p

....life is like a box of chocolates you never know what your going to get....
Everyday, life brings something new for us to learn. If I hadn't ask, I wouldn't have known. Interesting isnt it? After 7 yrs, I thought I would have known his likes and dislikes but hey, SURPRISE! :)

We tend to be complacent, after being in a relationship for a long time. And when unpleasant things occurs, we hear others say, "People change". But really, Why did they change? What caused it? Did we not see/hear it coming? Or did we hear but we did not listen? Hmm....

I am guilty of overlooking the small details and taking things for granted. But I am BLESSED to be loved by a caring, gentle and patience soul. He has taught me alot. Good, bad and the ugly.

We both change. For the good and better, Insya'Allah. He no longer buys every single meds available at Guardian when I "sniff"(tsk!) but he's still the same darling who sees me after work, spend his weekends with me, patiently wait for hrs for me to get ready and still smile at this star "karat"...hehe....

You win some, you lose some. At least, the love remains the same, if not stronger :)

I love every single minute spent with him. But at times, we tend to forget details.
How we met?(nah not really....)
What time was it then?(this one's for him :p)
The smile that makes the butterfly in the stomach flutters, the way he looks into my eyes and the details of our journey that we embarked together that I would like to cherish not just in pictures but emotions when I re-read my entries, thus this....

This is our first step....
I am excited.
I hope he is too...
Anyways, it's 2155 and it's time to go home..... :(
Will continue this again, FOR SURE! Till then.....

Ps. Oh, btw he ordered English Breakfast Tea with milk! *tsk!
So much for liking "The Ultimate"!.....hehe...

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

When you've been with someone for a long time, you tend to let slide a lot of simple things, little details. You tend to forget to stop and smell the roses, look at your love, REALLY look and wonder, how lucky you are.

Memories are selective. It's our brain's way of shielding us, protecting us from self-inflicting pain. Memories can fade too, getting lost in the miasma of life. That's why we write, take pictures, record history in the making. I was a little lazy doing all that, truth be told. Guilty and worry made me think. Hope and love made me decide.

To decide to keep a journal. I want to look back one day and help myself remember the journey I embarked on, to spend my life with someone. Spend life with her. Because memories fade with time but history lasts forever.

Love is a funny thing. And because it is funny, I want to share this experience with you an see if you find it a funny thing as well. My story, my words but I'll know SHE'll balance the feelings with her story, her words.

Haven't done this for a long time.....
Deep breath. Pen on paper. And here I go.....