I think I'm COMPLETELY at peace!

So, I've gone back and forth between grieving DD will be an only and being happy with our family for a couple years. I had my "ah-ha" moment a few minutes ago. It's been cold and crappy out and we've been out of town off and on so we haven't talked to our neighbors for a month or two. I just got done talking to her...they are having #4 in June...it was an accident.

The whole time we talked, I was having an internal dialog with myself...NONE of it was jealousy/saddness...IT WAS ALL "OMG, I AM SO GLAD ITS YOU AND NOT ME!!! WHAT ARE YOU, INSANE?!?!?"

YAY! The last few times she was PG, I dreaded seeing her b/c I wished it was me...but dude, 4 is insane! I will take my only had be stupidly happy!!!

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Good for you! I'm so glad you had your moment of feeling satisfied and at peace with your only. Having an only really can be a wonderful thing. I had always pictured myself having two kids. But if I had to choose between having 1 and having 4, that would be a VERY easy decision. One is enough for me! We have the joy of being parents but not the stress and chaos.

That's awesome! Having peace with your family and LO is a great feeling. With all the stress and input others give us its so hard to find that peace sometimes. In very happy your there though. I'm at peace too yay!! For us :)

Feels GREAT doesn't it?! Our next door neighbors have 4 boys and they just couldn't believe we are only going to have one. But when we visit with them or play out front me and my husband get to actually sit and socialize and enjoy the time while we watch both of them get hounded by the screams/ needs/ wants of 4!!! NO THANK YOU!!! :-)