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Can pivotal moments change lives? In an instant can you turn from despair to hope?

For me the answer is YES definitely! Like so many people 2016 was a very tough year! Hanging on by the fingertips emotionally, I felt challenged on so many levels. To the point where I had no energy to continue writing my second book. Each day seemed a challenge. While I believed I had healed pretty well from a traumatic past, I discovered I had to dig even deeper to make peace with past memories that had been triggered by certain events early in 2016. The natural world enabled me to touch the inner silence and acknowledge that any resistance on my part to unresolved pain would only hold me back.

When the opportunity presented itself to share in the journey of 365 Life Shifts I said YES! While still feeling emotionally depleted I realised I had been offered a lifeboat in turbulent seas. Passionate about sharing the beauty and wonder of this world I knew my story offered hope to others. Hope to me is the sunshine of the soul. Supported lovingly by Facebook friends, writers Jodi Chapman and Dan Teck, I was excited and blessed to share my story of a pivotal moment that changed my thought-form enabling me to heal and thrive.

A little of my story : Finding myself a widow at 47 years old, I felt empty and broken. Mirrors taunted me with that emptiness until I found the courage to take responsibility for my own pain. In that painful and precious momentof truly facing myself, hope swelled in my heart, hope of living fully and reconnecting with my true nature.Yes it did take time to heal, however once I made the decision to take responsibility for my own pain many teachers and guides crossed my path. My totem Crow, whom I write about in my book Triumph of Joy, reminded me to see the past as a teacher; the present as the place of creativity; and the future as a place of inspiration.

Rather than feeling overwhelmed and disappointed that I had achieved very little in 2016, I had February 21 st 2017 to look forward too! Today I share this sacred place with other wonderful contributors as we cross continents and share stories heart to heart to bring hope and inspiration to a world in need of hope and tenderness.

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You know change is on the horizon yet you haven’t connected with the energy of new beginnings. Is knowing enough to help you transition emotionally?

“It’s Time” … flashed a neon sign in my mind! Yes I knew it was time, had known for years; yet in the knowing lay an emptiness. Knowing was not enough. Even when the knowing sang in every cell of my being, pulsating through my essence like a shooting star in the cosmos – knowing was not enough to facilitate change for me.

While my mind remained neutral to the tantalising promise of change, of new beginnings, my spirit hovered between two worlds. Was I ready to leave my comfortable, much loved city home? A home that overflowed with more abundance than I could have imagined.

In so many respects I was prepared to embrace the new- the knowing understood the truth of my readiness. Had I not experienced much change in my life already, moved homes and cities more often than most ? Importantly did I not now honour and appreciate myself for who I was, leaving myself free to enjoy life’s bounty ? Yes was the answer to both questions.

Still I was torn. The adventurer in me longed to fill my life with endless experiences and embrace the unknown. Yet I knew in my heart I had not felt the tingle of change. Do you know that feeling? A tingeling, a shift in conciousness, an anticipation that runs through the body. That is what I was waiting to experience. Until then I cannot embrace fully the idea of new beginnings that would trigger a life away from the City I love to live in a Regional Ocean City. The ocean has been calling me and I had been on the verge of moving to a place I love when my life situation changed. It became clear to me I was now called in the opposite direction.

If Life had taught me anything it was to trust my instincts above all else.Patiently I wait until the knowing and the feeling embrace each in the dance of change. Then I will know its time !My cells will rejoice in the dance of change.

Until that time I focus on gratitude for each day and live fully in the present moment.

Are you aware of the power your tears hold to heal and cleanse your Heart and Soul?

Do you honour your tears ? When I wrote my autobiography I spoke of razor blade tears, tears cried in pain and sadness. Now mostly my tears are those of joy at the beauty and wonder of life. Have you thought about the importance of tears ? Do you find tears come easily or do your hold onto your tears? Last week I came across this lovely Bird of Paradise Flower with what appeared to be a tear running down a stained face. Never had I seen such a wonder. As I have always associated the bird of paradise flower with the seahorse I stopped to contemplate this tender sight and wondered about its significance to me. I have always associated the bird of paradise with the seahorse because it was so upright and proud like the tiny seahorse. In mythology the seahorse is associated with Patience, Protection, High-Perception and Contentment.

Never in nature had I seen such a tear as the one on this Bird of Paradise Flower. When I thought about the significance of tears in our lives, I was reminded that just before my mother parted this earth a single silver tear rolled down her pale cheek. As I held my mother’s hand I was aware how beautiful she looked and was unaware that she had no pulse until I saw that beautiful tear on her check ~ in that moment I knew. My mothers passing was such a gift. Having only experienced death only as a traumatic and heart-wrenching experience, my mother’s dignified death showed my self and my family the unspoken beauty in dying.

There was a time I was afraid of my tears because I felt my endless tears would empty me of life, yet I came to understand that our tears cleanse our soul. I love sharing this beautiful Native American saying…

“The soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears” ..

How often do we see tears as a weakness? One of the happiest memories I have of my father was in Singapore. My mother worked for the red cross and we were attending a concert put on by special needs children. As I sat next to my father he was so touched by the beauty of the children, tears were streaming down his face. My father was not ashamed of his tears and I loved him even more for that.

For many of us, self judgement blocks us from our true essence. Often we compare ourselves to others and then feel we fall short. Finding the true reason for self judgement enables us to free ourselves from often long established patterns. It was during my healing journey I finally faced up to feeling less than… Growing up with a father who had a brilliant memory left me feeling I wasn’t too bright. At school rote learning was valued highly and a creative mind less so. With a very creative mind and a strong sense of adventure I thrived on an outdoor life.

It was not until I focused on “healing “after years of supporting my mentally ill husband that I found the courage to look in the mirror . As a carer I had lost contact with who I was, my mirror reflected that emptiness. To heal I focused on letting go of self judgement as I leant to honour myself. During this time I read Socrates words “ Wisest is he who know he knows not. ” The impact of those words was immediate as I realised I didn’t need to have an encyclopedic knowledge of the world ! Once the door was open to discover my gifts I never looked back. It was time to honour my creative mind. My lessons I recognised came through personal experience, storytelling and feelings. Once I acknowledged my personal truth I embraced my creative mind that travels like the speed of light at times ! Accepting and honouring my strengths freed me to soar like Eagle above the self limitation I had imposed on myself.

This memoir is written from the depths of anguish as the author struggles to reclaim her passion for life and her sense of self after personal tragedy. The journey is victorious and joy ultimately prevails; we are right there with Pauline Robinson every step of the way. She is a lovely writer, with a keen talent for describing the spiritual gifts that nature brings to those that grieve. Anyone familiar with the wreckage that PTSD inflicts on those who have served and their families, will want to read this and share it. “Triumph of Joy” provides a path through a terrible storm.

Coming soon… the 3rd book in the #No 1 Best Seller 365 Series 365 Life Shifts

May you recognise in your life the presence, power, and light of your soul.
May you realise that you are never alone,
that your soul in its brightness and belonging connects you intimately with the rhythm of the universe.
May you have respect for you own individuality and difference.
May you realize that the shape of your soul is unique, that
you have a special destiny here,
that behind the facade of your life there is something
beautiful, good, and eternal happening.
May you learn to see yourself with the same delight, pride,
and expectation with which God sees you in every moment.~ John O’ Donohue

Healing though words may come about by both writing and reading. Often the words of another can give us insight into our hearts longing, while writing freely can release us from the prison of our mind. Sometimes the words we write ourselves can surprise us and open up a new dialogue within our mind.Seeing our personal truth in words can free us to tread a path we may have otherwise feared to tread.

Writing Triumph of Joy opened my heart and soul to healing in a way I could not have imagined. Writing gave me the courage to face even the most fearful aspects of my past and introduced me to a magical world of infinite possibilities that await an open heart.