just some thoughts during algebra II/ trigonometry about a few “friends” of mine

it’s so easy to lose someone, or even push them away
some days you wake up and realize they’ve gotten in your way
you change every day, so do the people around you
and every different person makes you feel a different way
even if they’ve been in your life for so long, doesn’t mean your relationship will stay the same throughout the years
sometimes it’s just better to let go and find someone new
it’s possible that your closest ones are hurting you
you don’t realize the impact someone can have
until you let them go and you take a step back
sometimes it’s better to just let go and move on than to hold yourself back because of someone else’s wants
they can influence you in terrible ways, sometimes you just need to fly away.
to avoid drowning yourself for the benefit of someone else’s life, keep your distance and your head up, and avoid a relationship that’s a waste of time and full of lies.

All throughout middle school and high school, people would warn us younger students about Junior year. I always thought they were just exaggerating and trying to scare us upcoming Juniors. Well, finally my time has come and I completely understand what all the complaining and stress was about. I have only been a Junior for about 3 months and I’m mentally and physically drained, but I’m not even in accelerated classes. So far, I have been paying attention, participating, doing homework, so I expected I was doing well. I recently found out I am failing Algebra 2/ Trigonometry, which is strange because in class I get all the answers correct, but when tests come around I panic, over-think, and fail miserably. Also, Chemistry is a problem because I understand everything in class, but when I get my grades back I am always disappointed.

My problem is that when it comes to serious tests, conversations, or anything that can affect my future in some way, I get anxiety and cannot think straight. I know anxiety is a part of adolescence, but it is affecting me academically and I cannot afford to get back grades. Lately I have been putting in extra effort by doing additional practice on my own. I already feel like I am improving, but is it enough? All I want is to do well now, so I have more options in the future.