Thursday, February 2, 2012

Minutes slowly go by as the precious thoughts of us being together once again remain in my mind. The comforting images of you takes hold of my soul and through my eyes I visualize the time I had with you before you had to go; taking a part of me with you.I realize I need you so much because I love you. There's no other person I'd rather be with, no other person I'd rather be loved by, no other person I'd rather love or miss than you! Youssouf Diallo....Baby I miss you!!!

I will always miss those beautiful brown eyes, your soft, sweet voice, and the way you called me baby, you mean so much to me you will never know.

I miss the times when you came to my house to watch movies and knowing that never again will I watch a movie with you holding me close brakes me heart and never again will I feel your touch, never again will I get to hear those words I love you out of your mouth at least not directed to me.

Never again will I see that smile that made me whole day better, anytime I was on the phone with you I was smiling, just knowing that I would see you or talk to you made everything better.

I know you weren't like the rest of the girls I knew, I knew you were sweet, funny and that you would love me no matter what, I knew your love was true, and I miss that love that you had for me i am sorry I had to fu*k it all up! I'm gonna miss the way you smell and I know that never again will I have you to hold and never again will you be mine...

The first time i saw you..i never thought that i would be loving you so dearly I was broken and ironically hating love for the reason that i had been loving many times and end up crying. I was afraid to open my doors again thinking i would end up bleeding like before but then surprisingly you showed me the other way around You showed me the brighter side of loving and you helped me to start loving again and what happiness it will bring me.

And now, I am afraid of losing you.. you who gave me the strength to love again you, who i look forward to every time i close and open my eyes. You who i will give my all You, who are my life, my love and my knight and shining armor.

Our love is unconditional and undying. I'll die w/ the love we both share and I will die loving you forever

All the things you did, All the things you even said. Made me cry and almost wanna die...But i am not gonna let you do that to me. I tried to hold on tight but you put up those dirty walls. I had to try to fight to try and keep you in my life. I love you but I hate you..All these emotions inside my head. Some days I am fine thinking every things just great...Yet some days I break down and try to win a fight. I am always thinking of you, the memories we had. But the one I wanna forget is when you said goodbye. I want you back in my life..But yet again I want you to just be a friend. I love you but I hate you... All these emotions that you lead. Every night I cant go to sleep... Its hard for me to realize you'll never hold me again. And I always catch my self picking up my phone then putting it back down...Wanting to call you one last time! But I love you but I hate you....

I never knew love was until i met you. I never expected changes in my life. You were different from those guys i used to mingle with. You know how people got to have first love....

It is in you where i felt true love. I felt so much for you. And if ever that i could put back time. I would do so, the time wherein we were still together sharing great moments but unfortunately i cant.

I kept thinking of you.. everyday and every moment.

I've been in a battle between my mind and my heart..my mind about to give up but here comes my heart saying cheer up. I cant stop loving you. I've been spending time thinking of happy moments we had. And keep pretending the truth that we're far from each other.

totally far from each other...

somehow this heart of mine would learn to accept reality and be contented......contented to be just missing you!

i dont know if i do really need to say goodbye.. but as for now i am still confuse and i am drowning of thoughts on how things work and used to be. I dont have any guts to get along with somebody else and pretend to be happy though im not. I thought i already knew you since before. I just waited for the time to say that i still have lots of things to know 'bout you.. and here is the time!!!..maybe its too late...

Girl: Slow down. I am scared.
Guy: No this is fun
Girl: No its not.
Please, its to scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
(Girl hugs him)
Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me.

In the paper the next day: A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived.

The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke,
but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him,
felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even
though it meant he would die.

Perhaps we fell into ruins, letting our thoughts get the best of us. I thought of Her yesterday, and many yesterdays. What happened to us? I questioned that a lot. Where did our love go? Our unity? I feel this guilt expressing myself towards you. I know what I feel, but my explanation covers the truth. Some say Am I mad, but i say them i am Luckyless, for holding on something that can be easily broken? My senses of emotions are damaged. I don’t know how to make sense of all of this. I’m lost with no direction, map, or light.