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“OH MY GOD! HOW DID I GET THIS BLOOD ON ME?” I screamed. Trey held me.

“Baby are you okay?”

“I don’t know. What’s going on Trey? Am I bleeding? Have I been shot?”

“No baby you’re gonna be fine. Now listen to me I want you to go to the house.” I see him laying there.

“Is he dead Trey? Is he…” Trey tried to calm me.

“Baby just listen and do what I said and go to the house.”

“No Trey! I’m not leaving you alone to deal with this.”

“Shanell I’m not asking you baby now go.”

“Oh my God! He’s dead isn’t he?” I was hysterical, an emotional wreck. Trey was telling me to go, but I couldn’t move. I was at a standstill frozen as I stared at El’s bloody body. Seconds later Buggzi and Marcus appeared. They shockingly saw El’s body laying there. They looked at me and Trey and noticed the blood on our clothes. Then moments later my dad came out of nowhere or maybe he was there with them. I didn’t really know. Everything just seemed like it was moving so fast. Then his brother Frank came rushing in. They noticed Trey who was now kneeling down beside El’s body and the gun on the side of him. Buggzi turns to Trey.

“Trey man you need to get out of here.” My dad and Trey looked at each other. My dad agreed.

“He’s right. Take Shanell out of here too. We’ll handle this. You two go!” Marcus tried to escort Trey out.

“Wait a minute. I just wanna make sure this mofucker dead.” Trey checked to see if he could feel a pulse. There was nothing. “May you rest in as much peace as you gave mofucker.” Marcus helped Trey up.

“Come on man we gotta hurry up and get ya’ll two out of here.” My uncle Frank tells me and Trey to come with him to the house first, so we can clean ourselves up. We leave with him while my dad and the others stay behind. Then Elliot came in. He saw the dead body lying on the floor in the stables. He looked petrified. He quickly walked over to it. He recognizes the face.

Funny how time flies when you’re having fun. Me and Trey have been so happy and even more fulfilled since the births of Treyonna and Tremaine Jr. ...Trejay we call him. They are seven months now, growing stronger by the day and trying to get into everything. Not only did we have our hands full with them, but also the building of our new home. What a process to have to go through along with adjusting to being new parents. I’m glad that part of it is finally over and we will be moving in. I can’t wait. The home is so beautiful. It’s even bigger than this one but I love it. I was a bit apprehensive about the size because I barely was handling being in this one. Then the more we would go over and check on it’s progression and how everything started coming together the more excited I got about it. The lot size itself is huge. It’s 38,402 sq. ft. Trey had them build a playground for the twins, basketball courts, we have an outdoor whirlpool built into our in ground pool, bar and a barbeque pavilion. The house itself is 22,000 sq. ft.

Instead of having the guest house like before Trey had them build an attached guest/staff wing with separate entrances so the nanny and bodyguards could now have there own personal space. The house also was guard gated so no one could come on the premises without being let in. There were security cameras every where. Trey knew El was still on the loose and didn’t want to take any chances. We had a lot of land so he wanted to be prepared. The house is very spacious. Including the rooms for the bodyguards we had a total of eleven bedrooms and twelve baths. The house came with a home theater, game room, studio and a gym. A few new features added to it that we didn’t have in the old house were an elevator, wine cellar and a complete spa room. I mean Trey went all out when he had this house built. I couldn‘t believe it. What fun it’s going to be keeping up with the twins now.

*******

Trey and I have been in our new home for two weeks now. I remember on our first night here after I had put the twins down for bed. Trey had a candle lit night cap waiting for me in the bedroom over in our sitting area. The first thing I noticed were the candles. They
illuminated the room and set such a romantic tone. Sitting on the small coffee table were two strawberry tarts with whipped cream accompanied with some sparkling cider. I wasn’t drinking any alcohol yet since I was nursing so that was my drink of choice while Trey had a stash of champagne on the side of his seat. I loved how romantic he could be at times and this I didn’t even see coming.

He told me he wanted to do this to show how much he appreciates me and everything that I do while he’s on the road. During most of this process he was away promoting his latest album “Passion Pain and Pleasure” so a lot of the decision making was on me. Sometimes conference calls were necessary because there were some things that he needed to handle but other than that I called the shots. He said he knows the wedding has been taking a back seat to a lot of unfortunate things and now that we’re in our home he wants us to take this time right now to pick a date. I didn’t even notice the small calendar that was sitting there. I was so blown away by everything else that I didn’t even pay any attention to it. But that wasn’t all he had in store. Then he took out a small jewelry box and handed it to me.
“Open it.” Trey sat down in the chair and watched me as I opened the pretty blue box. My mouth was on the floor. It was a beautiful sterling heart shaped locket and chain. I was speechless. It had the words I love you engraved on the outside of it. Then when I opened it, it had a picture of Treyonna and Trejay on each side. I instantly had tears in my eyes. I couldn’t believe he found the time to do this. He knew he was going to be rewarded for this act tonight. I walked around the table and sat on his lap. I leaned into him and kissed his soft lips gently, slowly savoring them.

“You are so good to me you know that?”

“Cause I love you.”

“I love you too…baby thank you.”

“You’re welcome. Here lemme put it on for you.” I turned a little so Trey could slip it on my neck. I couldn’t stop touching it. I really loved it.

“Trey if you’re doing this because you think I may be feeling a certain way because we haven’t gotten married yet baby I don’t.”

“No. I’m not doing it because of that at all. Listen to me, when I asked you to be my wife it’s because it’s what I want. I’m just ready to make us a complete family.”

“I already feel like I’m your wife Mr. Neverson. In every aspect of the word and I can’t wait to make it official.” We kiss each other once more and then I pick up one of the tarts and feed it amongst the two of us as I sit on his lap. We made a toast to each other, ate a little more and then started looking over the calendar and discussing what all Trey had coming up. We currently were in the month of June so we decided on August 2nd of the following year which would give us plenty of time to plan. Plus that’s when Trey would have a window of time freed up to be around for rehearsals and travel for our honey moon.

“Oh babe you know we have my mom and dads anniversary celebration to go to next weekend.”

“Yeah I know. We staying from Friday to Monday right?”

“Yeah…is that still ok with you?”

“Oh nah it’s cool baby I was just making sure. So who gone be with Treyonna and Trejay while we‘re at the dinner?”

“Trey you know my parents are going to want them there.”

“I don’t know about that Shanell. I mean people are gonna be drinkin n’ shit. We can’t have them around that.”

“I thought about that too along with the fact that we’re going to be out late.”

“They’ll understand if we don’t bring ‘em.”

“Wait Trey are you talking about not taking them at all?”

“No, just not at the party baby.”

“I guess I’ll have to ask Mrs. Vanessa to go with us then. I just hate to ask her to come when we really only need her for that one night plus I told her she could have off since we‘d be gone.”

“Ok.” While Trey went to go check on him I went ahead and cleaned up the glasses and left over dessert that was sitting on the table. I blew out all the candles and took everything down to the kitchen. When I walked in there Mrs. Vanessa was there. She’s the twins nanny. I really needed some additional help with them so me and Trey looked into having someone assist with that. Mrs. Vanessa has been with us since the twins were six weeks old. She’s been great too. I remember when Trey and I first saw her. We were so thrown by her uncanny likeness to Monique from “The Monique Show” and “The Parkers.” She’s not as big as her but man her looks resemble her so much. Her personality is not as big either but she’s the sweetest lady with the biggest heart. She’s forty years of age, a widow and has never had any children but she’s been a nanny for years and considers all the families she’s assisted with like her own. She was unloading the dishwasher.

“Hey Mrs. Vanessa.”

“Hey there baby!” She notices the dishes in my hand. “Oh let me take that for you.”

“I got it Mrs. Vanessa thank you. You go ahead and finish what you were doing.”

“Is that a new piece of jewelry I see around your neck?” I touch it and smile.

“It is.” I walk a little closer to Mrs. Vanessa and show it to her.

“Aw look at my babies. That’s an exquisite piece of jewelry you got there Shanell. That man got a good eye for the finer things that’s for sure.”

“I know. That’s why he spotted me.” That made Mrs. Vanessa laugh.

“Speak it miss lady. I heard that! My babies still sleeping?”

“Well Trejay was just fussing so Trey’s with him right now. Hopefully he didn’t wake Treyonna.”

“She seems to sleep pretty good when he’s up even if he is making a lot of noise.”

“Yeah but she can have her moments though.”

“I know it.”

“Mrs. Vanessa would you mind accompanying me and Trey next weekend to Atlanta. We decided not to bring the babies to my parents anniversary party. It would really mean a lot to us if you could come. I know you were given time off which you still will get…”

“Oh chile you know I don’t have a problem taking care of those two.”

“I know. I just feel bad since I gave you the weekend off and I hate to inconvenience you by needing you now.”

“It’s not an inconvenience and it‘s no problem at all.”

“Ok great. Thank you Mrs. Vanessa.”

“You’re welcome. Did you need anything done before I head on back to my room?”

“Nope! You go ahead and enjoy the rest of your night.”

“I will. I gotta date with my soaps. Tell Trey I said goodnight and I’ll see you two in the morning.”

“Ok.” Mrs. Vanessa leaves out of the kitchen. I finish up the little bit of dishes that we had and then head back up to the bedroom. I noticed Trey was back in the room on the terrace walking around with Trejay putting him back to sleep. It was a beautiful night out. Trejay was so spoiled. He is such a character for seven months. He demands so much attention already. Everyone says he looks just like me with Treys energetic personality and Treyonna looks like Trey. I walked over to Trey and snuck a kiss on Trejay’s cheek as he laid his head on Trey’s shoulder.

“Where mine at?”

“Oh don’t worry daddy. I’ll take care of you once you come to bed.” I left Trey alone with his son and went and got in the shower. Meanwhile Trey went and put Trejay back in his crib. As soon as he left out the twins room his phone rang.

“Yo man why you keep calling my phone?”

“Trey you know I have no issues with you. I’m only doing as my sister asked and she really needs you to make a visit. This time she told me to tell you and these are her words not mine, that if you don’t want your sex life suddenly leaked to the public then you need to come see her.”

“Fuck she mean!”

“I don’t know.”

“She making threats now?”

“Look that’s what she told me to tell you. Believe it or not I’m tired of going back and forth trying to get you to see her my damn self. But it is my sister so I’m sure you can understand my plight.”

“Nah I don’t, cause not too long ago you was blackmailing her ass.”

“That was before I knew how deep seeded her issues were.”

“Lemme get a pen and some paper and take down her information…hold on.” Trey went to find something to write on and with. “Alright where she at?” Summer gave him all the details and then they hung up. I was coming out of the bathroom in my towel and noticed Trey looking at a piece of paper.

"Baby what's that?"

“I just got a call from Summer again. She said Autumn wants me to come see her.”

“Autumns been wanting you to come see her for a while now. What’s so new about that?”

“Now it seems like she tryna make a threat.”

“By saying what?”

"It sound like she tryna start some bullshit with that DVD of the two of us."

“I am so tired of this! Trey when is it gonna end?” Trey tries to calm me.

“Look everything gone be alright ok? I think this time I‘ma go see her doe.” All I could do was shake my head instantly irritated. “Baby I know you don’t like the idea of me going but it’s the only way to possibly squash this.”

“Well I’m going with you then.” Trey cut his eyes at me like I said something offensive.

“No. I don’t want you going no where near her.”

“I think if would be good for me to see her Trey. She tried to kill me! I have yet to express any of my feelings about that to her, Crystal and Nikki.”

“I’m not letting you go see her. You hear me?” I couldn’t believe how adamant he was about it.

“Trey you should understand why I wanna talk to Autumn. Baby she’s behind bars it’s not like she can do anything to me. Why are you so set against me going?”

“After everything you’ve been through do you have to ask? Whatchu think I’m gonna be cool with the idea of you visiting her after all the shit she done did to you? Shanell her, Crystal and Nikki are the last people I want you around.”

“But Trey…”

“I don’t trust them baby. I don’t give a fuck about her being behind nobodies damn bars neither.”

“Trey I’m not gonna run away anymore. This is something that I need to do for me. I get that you only want to protect me but baby I’ve been thinking about this and I really do want to confront them.”

“Nah…you ain’t going.”

“Here we go again with you telling me what I can and cannot do.”

“You right. On this I am, so get what ever plans you had of making a visit out ya head because I‘m telling you no. Don’t think you gone pull some slick shit either…I mean it Shanell.” I stood by Trey with no words as I looked at him infuriated. His unwavering stance really was upsetting. I was so angry with him. I walked away and put my panties and tank top on to sleep in. He knew what time it was immediately.

“Oh so now you being like that?” I took the decorative pillows off the bed and aggressively put them in the chest. Trey stood there watching me as I went back and forth. Then he walks over to me and stands in front of me.

“So you just gone go to bed like dat and stay mad at me?” My eyes let him know that’s exactly what was about to happen. I walked away from him and turned out the light. He nodded his head.

“A‘ight.” Then he walks out the room. I got under the covers and laid there. All these thoughts entered my mind. How dare he feel like it’s ok for him to go see Autumn but I can’t. I don’t care what the circumstances are surrounding the visit. Him out of all people should know how important this is to me. He should want me to go if I feel it’s necessary. Oh he makes me sick sometimes. I don’t know Tremaine. You may just have to be mad with me on this one.

We never did come to an agreement that night. At least I never agreed. Damn this! I know what he said, but I’m going to make it a point to see Autumn, Crystal and Nikki. He’s not calling all the shots anymore. Shanell is back with a vengeance. I love you baby, but I’m doing things my way this time...

*******

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Autumn could now make her phone call for the night so she decided to call Summer to check on the things she asked of her.

“Oh good you are home. Well any luck?”

“I called Trey like you asked and gave him the information on where to come see you and about the recorded encounter of the two of you being shown.”

“Is he going to come?”

“Autumn I don’t know! Gosh! He didn’t say.”

“Ok well at least he knows. You still remember what I told you to do in case he doesn’t show up right?”

“Yes! I know. Why do I have to be put in the middle of your dirty work all the time. I’m tired of it.”

“Well had you not let him come in my room in the first place I wouldn’t be needing your help right now.”

“You’ve been needing my help way before now Autumn. I have covered for you time and time again plus been your scapegoat. Daddy doesn’t trust me now because of you, starting with the accident that you were in with his car and used my name and gave my license number. It was your company that was over the house and stole their lap top and you blamed it on my friends. You are a total bitch when it comes to me. Well now it’s your turn to see how using people for your own benefit feels. I changed my mind, I will not black male Trey for you with this taping. Find somebody else to do your dirty work.”

“Ugh! Summer! You can’t be serious! Don’t flake out on me now.”

“You’re the flake! Trying to kill someone over a man. My sister is a stupid bitch!”

“Bitch! You’re the one who’s been hiding the fact that she’s a lesbian from them afraid to admit it. I swear Summer if you don’t help me I will tell.”

“I don’t care! That’s nothing compared to the damage you have caused this family. You cost daddy his practice. Anything you say to him will be nothing compared to what you have done so tell him. I don’t care!”

Autumn started crying. She couldn’t believe her sister wasn’t going to help her out in this time of need.

*******

“So Nikki are you ever going to get out of here?”

“I don’t know Charmaine. Why can’t Trey understand that everything I did was because I love him. How is love crazy?”

“Nikki love isn’t what’s crazy. It’s your behavior.”

“Charmaine you know I’m not crazy but if it’s going to keep me from going to jail then they can classify me as a nut case all day long.”

“Nikki do you feel any regret for any of the things that you’ve done?”

“Yeah. I regret that it didn’t work and I still don’t have Trey. I have to try harder.”

“Nikki Trey is happy with Shanell. They have a family together now. You think you’re really able to come in between that?”

“Whose side are you on?”

“I’m on yours but…”

“Those are my babies!” she snapped. “She took my family! My life! I want it back!”

Charmaine felt sorry for her friend. She was thinking Nikki was in this state because of the loss of Angel. She had no idea how sick Nikki really was.

“Well girlfriend I hope you get better. I really miss you and I‘ll always be here for you.” Nikki looked insulted.

“Get better? I just told you Charmaine there ain’t nothing wrong with me. My lawyer seems to think I’m suffering from this Post Traumatic Stress thing along with these doctors, but I’m fine.”

“You’re in a damn mental institution still delusional about Trey. That’s not fine! Nikki there is a real reason why you’re here. You really do need help.” Nikki smiles at Charmaine.

“Not in the least. Don’t you see? Trey could’ve shot me in that cabin but he didn’t. Why? Because part of him still loves me. I’m not delusional about that at all. I’ll take my pills and be a good girl until the day comes when we meet up again. It‘s only a matter of time before I get my family back. Believe me Charmaine I will get my family back.”

*******

Paige had a visit to go see Crystal. She couldn’t believe the mess that her and Nikki caused Shanell and Trey. She wasn’t sure how she was going to act when she saw Crystal but she knew it was imperative that she saw her. When she arrived at the women’s correctional facility she checked in and had a seat. Once it was time they were taken back. She saw Crystal sitting at a table that was over by a small window so she went over to her. She gave her a hug and then had a seat.

“I didn’t think you were going to come.”

“I wasn’t sure if I was going to come this time either but I knew I was going to be seeing you. You know Crystal Shanell and Trey are my friends. You were my best friend. How could you do this to them?”

“So is this what this visit is going to be about? You criticizing me for the choices that I made? Believe me Paige if I had to do this over again I would. I never would have listened to El. I can’t even tell you why I did.”

“But you knew he was bad news. You knew that. I never knew you would do such cruel things and for what money? Money that you don’t even have. Do you honestly think that man was going to give you anything for helping him?”

“Like I said if I could do things over I would, but I can’t. I don’t need you holding me accountable when the judge has already saw to it that I will pay for what I've done.”

“Do you know that I feel responsible for this? I feel like if I would have never introduced Shanell to you that her life would be different. I can’t even face her or Trey because of it.”

“What about my life? I’m your best friend not her.”

“You were my best friend but no one who calls themselves my friend would ever torcher another human being who’s pregnant. Put her through hell because of the man that she is involved with and teams up with her ex just for money. I don’t want any friends like that.”

“Then why are you here?”

“To let you know that I don’t feel sorry for you not one bit. You deserve to be here and what ever sentence that was given to you. You need to also be thanking God that she didn’t lose those babies or her life.”

“I don’t need you to be judging me.”

“I know. You need me to pray for you and I will. You take care of yourself while you’re in here. It wouldn’t hurt too if you did a little praying yourself.” Then Paige winks at her and sat at an empty table till it was time to leave.

*******

Tomorrow we’ll be flying to Atlanta to be there for my parents anniversary party so today we’ve been packing getting ready to make this trip. I’m really excited about going home. My auntie Sharon is going to be there with Ricky and Raven. It’s gonna feel good to see everyone and have everyone see the twins. Myself and Mrs. Vanessa was in the twins room packing their things while Trey was in their toy room keeping them occupied. We heard the buzzer sound off letting us know someone was at the gate. Evan notified me of who it was before he let them enter. It was Lynn. She lives in the neighborhood too and had been telling me that she was going to come by once we were settled. I guess she decided to make it over today. I was surprised she wasn’t at work. I told Mrs. Vanessa I would be back and went downstairs to meet Lynn at the door. She was so excited.

“Hey girlfriend!”

“Hey!”

“Shanell this is beautiful. I can’t wait to see the rest of it.”

“Thank you. How come you’re not at work today?”

“Oh I was there. I took a half day today. You know our vacation starts tomorrow so I had some things I wanted to do before Richard, me and the kids left.”

“Oh yeah that’s right you guys are going on a cruise.”

“Yes girl. This vacation couldn’t get here fast enough.”

“Well let me show you around.”

“Where’s the twins?”

“They’re up in their toy room with Trey. We’ll see them when we go up there.” I showed Lynn the house downstairs and around outside first. Then we went upstairs and lastly I showed her the toy room where Trey was. When we went in there Trey was on the floor playing with the two of them while they were in their Exersaucers (stationary activity walkers). As soon as Trejay saw me he started acting like he wanted to cry and get out. Trey started talking to him.

“Aw boy cut that out…come on man…you was just cool…here play with this.” Trey pulled down a hanging bumble bee that was in front of him on the walker. Trejay got quiet for a minute as he looked at it. Then he looked back at me whining. I went and picked him up. He was happy after that.” Lynn starts laughing at Trey.

“Trey you looked like you were having more fun than they were. Reminiscing are we?”

“Ha ha very funny Lynn.” She starts laughing. “How you doin baby?”

“I’m wonderful. I love the house.”

“Thank you. I appreciate dat. How‘s my man Richard?”

“He’s good. He should be home right now actually.”

“You should tell him to come through. I gotta poker table in the basement waiting for him to get whipped up on. He needa come see me.”

“Nah go head.” Trey gets up off the floor first then Lynn picks up Treyonna. Trey walks over to me and talks to Trejay. “You gone stop all that whining boy. Daddy gotta toughen you up.” Trejay looks at Trey smiling. Trey plays with him in my arms making him laugh. Then he gives him a kiss on the mouth. “I gotta few more things to finalize for the tour so I’m bout to get dressed and I’ll be back a little later.”

“Ok babe.” Trey then gives me a kiss and leaves out the room. Suddenly he comes back.

“Hold up.” He takes Treyonna out of Lynn’s arms and plays with her in the air real quick Then he gives her a kiss and back to Lynn. “Alright I’ll be back…can‘t leave out my baby girl.” Lynn was looking at him steady smiling.

“He’s really good with them isn’t he?”

“The best.” We put the babies down and got on the floor to play with them as we talked. She brings up Nikki.

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“OH MY GOD! HOW DID I GET THIS BLOOD ON ME?” I screamed. Trey held me.

“Baby are you okay?”

“I don’t know. What’s going on Trey? Am I bleeding? Have I been shot?”

“No baby you’re gonna be fine. Now listen to me I want you to go to the house.” I see him laying there.

“Is he dead Trey? Is he…” Trey tried to calm me.

“Baby just listen and do what I said and go to the house.”

“No Trey! I’m not leaving you alone to deal with this.”

“Shanell I’m not asking you baby now go.”

“Oh my God! He’s dead isn’t he?” I was hysterical, an emotional wreck. Trey was telling me to go, but I couldn’t move. I was at a standstill frozen as I stared at El’s bloody body. Seconds later Buggzi and Marcus appeared. They shockingly saw El’s body laying there. They looked at me and Trey and noticed the blood on our clothes. Then moments later my dad came out of nowhere or maybe he was there with them. I didn’t really know. Everything just seemed like it was moving so fast. Then his brother Frank came rushing in. They noticed Trey who was now kneeling down beside El’s body and the gun on the side of him. Buggzi turns to Trey.

“Trey man you need to get out of here.” My dad and Trey looked at each other. My dad agreed.

“He’s right. Take Shanell out of here too. We’ll handle this. You two go!” Marcus tried to escort Trey out.

“Wait a minute. I just wanna make sure this mofucker dead.” Trey checked to see if he could feel a pulse. There was nothing. “May you rest in as much peace as you gave mofucker.” Marcus helped Trey up.

“Come on man we gotta hurry up and get ya’ll two out of here.” My uncle Frank tells me and Trey to come with him to the house first, so we can clean ourselves up. We leave with him while my dad and the others stay behind. Then Elliot came in. He saw the dead body lying on the floor in the stables. He looked petrified. He quickly walked over to it. He recognizes the face.

Funny how time flies when you’re having fun. Me and Trey have been so happy and even more fulfilled since the births of Treyonna and Tremaine Jr. ...Trejay we call him. They are seven months now, growing stronger by the day and trying to get into everything. Not only did we have our hands full with them, but also the building of our new home. What a process to have to go through along with adjusting to being new parents. I’m glad that part of it is finally over and we will be moving in. I can’t wait. The home is so beautiful. It’s even bigger than this one but I love it. I was a bit apprehensive about the size because I barely was handling being in this one. Then the more we would go over and check on it’s progression and how everything started coming together the more excited I got about it. The lot size itself is huge. It’s 38,402 sq. ft. Trey had them build a playground for the twins, basketball courts, we have an outdoor whirlpool built into our in ground pool, bar and a barbeque pavilion. The house itself is 22,000 sq. ft.

Instead of having the guest house like before Trey had them build an attached guest/staff wing with separate entrances so the nanny and bodyguards could now have there own personal space. The house also was guard gated so no one could come on the premises without being let in. There were security cameras every where. Trey knew El was still on the loose and didn’t want to take any chances. We had a lot of land so he wanted to be prepared. The house is very spacious. Including the rooms for the bodyguards we had a total of eleven bedrooms and twelve baths. The house came with a home theater, game room, studio and a gym. A few new features added to it that we didn’t have in the old house were an elevator, wine cellar and a complete spa room. I mean Trey went all out when he had this house built. I couldn‘t believe it. What fun it’s going to be keeping up with the twins now.

*******

Trey and I have been in our new home for two weeks now. I remember on our first night here after I had put the twins down for bed. Trey had a candle lit night cap waiting for me in the bedroom over in our sitting area. The first thing I noticed were the candles. They
illuminated the room and set such a romantic tone. Sitting on the small coffee table were two strawberry tarts with whipped cream accompanied with some sparkling cider. I wasn’t drinking any alcohol yet since I was nursing so that was my drink of choice while Trey had a stash of champagne on the side of his seat. I loved how romantic he could be at times and this I didn’t even see coming.

He told me he wanted to do this to show how much he appreciates me and everything that I do while he’s on the road. During most of this process he was away promoting his latest album “Passion Pain and Pleasure” so a lot of the decision making was on me. Sometimes conference calls were necessary because there were some things that he needed to handle but other than that I called the shots. He said he knows the wedding has been taking a back seat to a lot of unfortunate things and now that we’re in our home he wants us to take this time right now to pick a date. I didn’t even notice the small calendar that was sitting there. I was so blown away by everything else that I didn’t even pay any attention to it. But that wasn’t all he had in store. Then he took out a small jewelry box and handed it to me.
“Open it.” Trey sat down in the chair and watched me as I opened the pretty blue box. My mouth was on the floor. It was a beautiful sterling heart shaped locket and chain. I was speechless. It had the words I love you engraved on the outside of it. Then when I opened it, it had a picture of Treyonna and Trejay on each side. I instantly had tears in my eyes. I couldn’t believe he found the time to do this. He knew he was going to be rewarded for this act tonight. I walked around the table and sat on his lap. I leaned into him and kissed his soft lips gently, slowly savoring them.

“You are so good to me you know that?”

“Cause I love you.”

“I love you too…baby thank you.”

“You’re welcome. Here lemme put it on for you.” I turned a little so Trey could slip it on my neck. I couldn’t stop touching it. I really loved it.

“Trey if you’re doing this because you think I may be feeling a certain way because we haven’t gotten married yet baby I don’t.”

“No. I’m not doing it because of that at all. Listen to me, when I asked you to be my wife it’s because it’s what I want. I’m just ready to make us a complete family.”

“I already feel like I’m your wife Mr. Neverson. In every aspect of the word and I can’t wait to make it official.” We kiss each other once more and then I pick up one of the tarts and feed it amongst the two of us as I sit on his lap. We made a toast to each other, ate a little more and then started looking over the calendar and discussing what all Trey had coming up. We currently were in the month of June so we decided on August 2nd of the following year which would give us plenty of time to plan. Plus that’s when Trey would have a window of time freed up to be around for rehearsals and travel for our honey moon.

“Oh babe you know we have my mom and dads anniversary celebration to go to next weekend.”

“Yeah I know. We staying from Friday to Monday right?”

“Yeah…is that still ok with you?”

“Oh nah it’s cool baby I was just making sure. So who gone be with Treyonna and Trejay while we‘re at the dinner?”

“Trey you know my parents are going to want them there.”

“I don’t know about that Shanell. I mean people are gonna be drinkin n’ shit. We can’t have them around that.”

“I thought about that too along with the fact that we’re going to be out late.”

“They’ll understand if we don’t bring ‘em.”

“Wait Trey are you talking about not taking them at all?”

“No, just not at the party baby.”

“I guess I’ll have to ask Mrs. Vanessa to go with us then. I just hate to ask her to come when we really only need her for that one night plus I told her she could have off since we‘d be gone.”

“Ok.” While Trey went to go check on him I went ahead and cleaned up the glasses and left over dessert that was sitting on the table. I blew out all the candles and took everything down to the kitchen. When I walked in there Mrs. Vanessa was there. She’s the twins nanny. I really needed some additional help with them so me and Trey looked into having someone assist with that. Mrs. Vanessa has been with us since the twins were six weeks old. She’s been great too. I remember when Trey and I first saw her. We were so thrown by her uncanny likeness to Monique from “The Monique Show” and “The Parkers.” She’s not as big as her but man her looks resemble her so much. Her personality is not as big either but she’s the sweetest lady with the biggest heart. She’s forty years of age, a widow and has never had any children but she’s been a nanny for years and considers all the families she’s assisted with like her own. She was unloading the dishwasher.

“Hey Mrs. Vanessa.”

“Hey there baby!” She notices the dishes in my hand. “Oh let me take that for you.”

“I got it Mrs. Vanessa thank you. You go ahead and finish what you were doing.”

“Is that a new piece of jewelry I see around your neck?” I touch it and smile.

“It is.” I walk a little closer to Mrs. Vanessa and show it to her.

“Aw look at my babies. That’s an exquisite piece of jewelry you got there Shanell. That man got a good eye for the finer things that’s for sure.”

“I know. That’s why he spotted me.” That made Mrs. Vanessa laugh.

“Speak it miss lady. I heard that! My babies still sleeping?”

“Well Trejay was just fussing so Trey’s with him right now. Hopefully he didn’t wake Treyonna.”

“She seems to sleep pretty good when he’s up even if he is making a lot of noise.”

“Yeah but she can have her moments though.”

“I know it.”

“Mrs. Vanessa would you mind accompanying me and Trey next weekend to Atlanta. We decided not to bring the babies to my parents anniversary party. It would really mean a lot to us if you could come. I know you were given time off which you still will get…”

“Oh chile you know I don’t have a problem taking care of those two.”

“I know. I just feel bad since I gave you the weekend off and I hate to inconvenience you by needing you now.”

“It’s not an inconvenience and it‘s no problem at all.”

“Ok great. Thank you Mrs. Vanessa.”

“You’re welcome. Did you need anything done before I head on back to my room?”

“Nope! You go ahead and enjoy the rest of your night.”

“I will. I gotta date with my soaps. Tell Trey I said goodnight and I’ll see you two in the morning.”

“Ok.” Mrs. Vanessa leaves out of the kitchen. I finish up the little bit of dishes that we had and then head back up to the bedroom. I noticed Trey was back in the room on the terrace walking around with Trejay putting him back to sleep. It was a beautiful night out. Trejay was so spoiled. He is such a character for seven months. He demands so much attention already. Everyone says he looks just like me with Treys energetic personality and Treyonna looks like Trey. I walked over to Trey and snuck a kiss on Trejay’s cheek as he laid his head on Trey’s shoulder.

“Where mine at?”

“Oh don’t worry daddy. I’ll take care of you once you come to bed.” I left Trey alone with his son and went and got in the shower. Meanwhile Trey went and put Trejay back in his crib. As soon as he left out the twins room his phone rang.

“Yo man why you keep calling my phone?”

“Trey you know I have no issues with you. I’m only doing as my sister asked and she really needs you to make a visit. This time she told me to tell you and these are her words not mine, that if you don’t want your sex life suddenly leaked to the public then you need to come see her.”

“Fuck she mean!”

“I don’t know.”

“She making threats now?”

“Look that’s what she told me to tell you. Believe it or not I’m tired of going back and forth trying to get you to see her my damn self. But it is my sister so I’m sure you can understand my plight.”

“Nah I don’t, cause not too long ago you was blackmailing her ass.”

“That was before I knew how deep seeded her issues were.”

“Lemme get a pen and some paper and take down her information…hold on.” Trey went to find something to write on and with. “Alright where she at?” Summer gave him all the details and then they hung up. I was coming out of the bathroom in my towel and noticed Trey looking at a piece of paper.

"Baby what's that?"

“I just got a call from Summer again. She said Autumn wants me to come see her.”

“Autumns been wanting you to come see her for a while now. What’s so new about that?”

“Now it seems like she tryna make a threat.”

“By saying what?”

"It sound like she tryna start some bullshit with that DVD of the two of us."

“I am so tired of this! Trey when is it gonna end?” Trey tries to calm me.

“Look everything gone be alright ok? I think this time I‘ma go see her doe.” All I could do was shake my head instantly irritated. “Baby I know you don’t like the idea of me going but it’s the only way to possibly squash this.”

“Well I’m going with you then.” Trey cut his eyes at me like I said something offensive.

“No. I don’t want you going no where near her.”

“I think if would be good for me to see her Trey. She tried to kill me! I have yet to express any of my feelings about that to her, Crystal and Nikki.”

“I’m not letting you go see her. You hear me?” I couldn’t believe how adamant he was about it.

“Trey you should understand why I wanna talk to Autumn. Baby she’s behind bars it’s not like she can do anything to me. Why are you so set against me going?”

“After everything you’ve been through do you have to ask? Whatchu think I’m gonna be cool with the idea of you visiting her after all the shit she done did to you? Shanell her, Crystal and Nikki are the last people I want you around.”

“But Trey…”

“I don’t trust them baby. I don’t give a fuck about her being behind nobodies damn bars neither.”

“Trey I’m not gonna run away anymore. This is something that I need to do for me. I get that you only want to protect me but baby I’ve been thinking about this and I really do want to confront them.”

“Nah…you ain’t going.”

“Here we go again with you telling me what I can and cannot do.”

“You right. On this I am, so get what ever plans you had of making a visit out ya head because I‘m telling you no. Don’t think you gone pull some slick shit either…I mean it Shanell.” I stood by Trey with no words as I looked at him infuriated. His unwavering stance really was upsetting. I was so angry with him. I walked away and put my panties and tank top on to sleep in. He knew what time it was immediately.

“Oh so now you being like that?” I took the decorative pillows off the bed and aggressively put them in the chest. Trey stood there watching me as I went back and forth. Then he walks over to me and stands in front of me.

“So you just gone go to bed like dat and stay mad at me?” My eyes let him know that’s exactly what was about to happen. I walked away from him and turned out the light. He nodded his head.

“A‘ight.” Then he walks out the room. I got under the covers and laid there. All these thoughts entered my mind. How dare he feel like it’s ok for him to go see Autumn but I can’t. I don’t care what the circumstances are surrounding the visit. Him out of all people should know how important this is to me. He should want me to go if I feel it’s necessary. Oh he makes me sick sometimes. I don’t know Tremaine. You may just have to be mad with me on this one.

We never did come to an agreement that night. At least I never agreed. Damn this! I know what he said, but I’m going to make it a point to see Autumn, Crystal and Nikki. He’s not calling all the shots anymore. Shanell is back with a vengeance. I love you baby, but I’m doing things my way this time...

*******

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Autumn could now make her phone call for the night so she decided to call Summer to check on the things she asked of her.

“Oh good you are home. Well any luck?”

“I called Trey like you asked and gave him the information on where to come see you and about the recorded encounter of the two of you being shown.”

“Is he going to come?”

“Autumn I don’t know! Gosh! He didn’t say.”

“Ok well at least he knows. You still remember what I told you to do in case he doesn’t show up right?”

“Yes! I know. Why do I have to be put in the middle of your dirty work all the time. I’m tired of it.”

“Well had you not let him come in my room in the first place I wouldn’t be needing your help right now.”

“You’ve been needing my help way before now Autumn. I have covered for you time and time again plus been your scapegoat. Daddy doesn’t trust me now because of you, starting with the accident that you were in with his car and used my name and gave my license number. It was your company that was over the house and stole their lap top and you blamed it on my friends. You are a total bitch when it comes to me. Well now it’s your turn to see how using people for your own benefit feels. I changed my mind, I will not black male Trey for you with this taping. Find somebody else to do your dirty work.”

“Ugh! Summer! You can’t be serious! Don’t flake out on me now.”

“You’re the flake! Trying to kill someone over a man. My sister is a stupid bitch!”

“Bitch! You’re the one who’s been hiding the fact that she’s a lesbian from them afraid to admit it. I swear Summer if you don’t help me I will tell.”

“I don’t care! That’s nothing compared to the damage you have caused this family. You cost daddy his practice. Anything you say to him will be nothing compared to what you have done so tell him. I don’t care!”

Autumn started crying. She couldn’t believe her sister wasn’t going to help her out in this time of need.

*******

“So Nikki are you ever going to get out of here?”

“I don’t know Charmaine. Why can’t Trey understand that everything I did was because I love him. How is love crazy?”

“Nikki love isn’t what’s crazy. It’s your behavior.”

“Charmaine you know I’m not crazy but if it’s going to keep me from going to jail then they can classify me as a nut case all day long.”

“Nikki do you feel any regret for any of the things that you’ve done?”

“Yeah. I regret that it didn’t work and I still don’t have Trey. I have to try harder.”

“Nikki Trey is happy with Shanell. They have a family together now. You think you’re really able to come in between that?”

“Whose side are you on?”

“I’m on yours but…”

“Those are my babies!” she snapped. “She took my family! My life! I want it back!”

Charmaine felt sorry for her friend. She was thinking Nikki was in this state because of the loss of Angel. She had no idea how sick Nikki really was.

“Well girlfriend I hope you get better. I really miss you and I‘ll always be here for you.” Nikki looked insulted.

“Get better? I just told you Charmaine there ain’t nothing wrong with me. My lawyer seems to think I’m suffering from this Post Traumatic Stress thing along with these doctors, but I’m fine.”

“You’re in a damn mental institution still delusional about Trey. That’s not fine! Nikki there is a real reason why you’re here. You really do need help.” Nikki smiles at Charmaine.

“Not in the least. Don’t you see? Trey could’ve shot me in that cabin but he didn’t. Why? Because part of him still loves me. I’m not delusional about that at all. I’ll take my pills and be a good girl until the day comes when we meet up again. It‘s only a matter of time before I get my family back. Believe me Charmaine I will get my family back.”

*******

Paige had a visit to go see Crystal. She couldn’t believe the mess that her and Nikki caused Shanell and Trey. She wasn’t sure how she was going to act when she saw Crystal but she knew it was imperative that she saw her. When she arrived at the women’s correctional facility she checked in and had a seat. Once it was time they were taken back. She saw Crystal sitting at a table that was over by a small window so she went over to her. She gave her a hug and then had a seat.

“I didn’t think you were going to come.”

“I wasn’t sure if I was going to come this time either but I knew I was going to be seeing you. You know Crystal Shanell and Trey are my friends. You were my best friend. How could you do this to them?”

“So is this what this visit is going to be about? You criticizing me for the choices that I made? Believe me Paige if I had to do this over again I would. I never would have listened to El. I can’t even tell you why I did.”

“But you knew he was bad news. You knew that. I never knew you would do such cruel things and for what money? Money that you don’t even have. Do you honestly think that man was going to give you anything for helping him?”

“Like I said if I could do things over I would, but I can’t. I don’t need you holding me accountable when the judge has already saw to it that I will pay for what I've done.”

“Do you know that I feel responsible for this? I feel like if I would have never introduced Shanell to you that her life would be different. I can’t even face her or Trey because of it.”

“What about my life? I’m your best friend not her.”

“You were my best friend but no one who calls themselves my friend would ever torcher another human being who’s pregnant. Put her through hell because of the man that she is involved with and teams up with her ex just for money. I don’t want any friends like that.”

“Then why are you here?”

“To let you know that I don’t feel sorry for you not one bit. You deserve to be here and what ever sentence that was given to you. You need to also be thanking God that she didn’t lose those babies or her life.”

“I don’t need you to be judging me.”

“I know. You need me to pray for you and I will. You take care of yourself while you’re in here. It wouldn’t hurt too if you did a little praying yourself.” Then Paige winks at her and sat at an empty table till it was time to leave.

*******

Tomorrow we’ll be flying to Atlanta to be there for my parents anniversary party so today we’ve been packing getting ready to make this trip. I’m really excited about going home. My auntie Sharon is going to be there with Ricky and Raven. It’s gonna feel good to see everyone and have everyone see the twins. Myself and Mrs. Vanessa was in the twins room packing their things while Trey was in their toy room keeping them occupied. We heard the buzzer sound off letting us know someone was at the gate. Evan notified me of who it was before he let them enter. It was Lynn. She lives in the neighborhood too and had been telling me that she was going to come by once we were settled. I guess she decided to make it over today. I was surprised she wasn’t at work. I told Mrs. Vanessa I would be back and went downstairs to meet Lynn at the door. She was so excited.

“Hey girlfriend!”

“Hey!”

“Shanell this is beautiful. I can’t wait to see the rest of it.”

“Thank you. How come you’re not at work today?”

“Oh I was there. I took a half day today. You know our vacation starts tomorrow so I had some things I wanted to do before Richard, me and the kids left.”

“Oh yeah that’s right you guys are going on a cruise.”

“Yes girl. This vacation couldn’t get here fast enough.”

“Well let me show you around.”

“Where’s the twins?”

“They’re up in their toy room with Trey. We’ll see them when we go up there.” I showed Lynn the house downstairs and around outside first. Then we went upstairs and lastly I showed her the toy room where Trey was. When we went in there Trey was on the floor playing with the two of them while they were in their Exersaucers (stationary activity walkers). As soon as Trejay saw me he started acting like he wanted to cry and get out. Trey started talking to him.

“Aw boy cut that out…come on man…you was just cool…here play with this.” Trey pulled down a hanging bumble bee that was in front of him on the walker. Trejay got quiet for a minute as he looked at it. Then he looked back at me whining. I went and picked him up. He was happy after that.” Lynn starts laughing at Trey.

“Trey you looked like you were having more fun than they were. Reminiscing are we?”

“Ha ha very funny Lynn.” She starts laughing. “How you doin baby?”

“I’m wonderful. I love the house.”

“Thank you. I appreciate dat. How‘s my man Richard?”

“He’s good. He should be home right now actually.”

“You should tell him to come through. I gotta poker table in the basement waiting for him to get whipped up on. He needa come see me.”

“Nah go head.” Trey gets up off the floor first then Lynn picks up Treyonna. Trey walks over to me and talks to Trejay. “You gone stop all that whining boy. Daddy gotta toughen you up.” Trejay looks at Trey smiling. Trey plays with him in my arms making him laugh. Then he gives him a kiss on the mouth. “I gotta few more things to finalize for the tour so I’m bout to get dressed and I’ll be back a little later.”

“Ok babe.” Trey then gives me a kiss and leaves out the room. Suddenly he comes back.

“Hold up.” He takes Treyonna out of Lynn’s arms and plays with her in the air real quick Then he gives her a kiss and back to Lynn. “Alright I’ll be back…can‘t leave out my baby girl.” Lynn was looking at him steady smiling.

“He’s really good with them isn’t he?”

“The best.” We put the babies down and got on the floor to play with them as we talked. She brings up Nikki.

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Trey is finally coming around. Shanell needs to worry a lil. Next time she will know better. What I am worried about now is that loose canon, El's momma. She could lead the investigation in a new direction. I don't want Trey or Bruce to go to jail. If Bruce didn't do it, Trey would have done it anyway. Maybe Trey needs to clear things up with Bruce so he knows the real truth. I hope Bruce is a man of his word and he protects Trey if they go after him.

“We’ve been through a lot of shit man and still going through it, but just because I need some time right now doesn’t mean that I don’t still love you.” With his hands gripping my shoulders he pulls back and looks at me. “You hear me?” I shake my head yes. He continues talking. “Baby I love you, that’s why this has been so hard. I gotta lot that I need to figure out and what I need the most right now from you is for you to stay strong for me…for us. That’s all I need.” As I look at him the expression on his face is contrite, but his eyes are so full of passion. “Can you do that for me?”
sniffs first “Yes,” I say at a whisper. Then he kisses me. I cherished every second of our lips touching, before he let me go.
“I probably was better off not touching you.” He says. My baby was so hard. I wanted him so badly at that moment. I had to take a chance. I bite down on the corner of my lip and nervously ask the question.
“You don’t have time for a quickie?” He gazes into my eyes contemplating his response. I speak before he answers. “Don’t worry I won’t get any ideas or not take seriously what you just said. I just want to do this for you.” He gave it a little more thought and looked at his watch.
“I better not. I’m already cutting it close as it is.” He grabs his luggage again. “I guess I better be headin’ out. I’ll call you.” Another quick peck on the lips and he was on his way. Me and Trey’s mom saw him off. I was heartbroken. This was the first time that Trey has went to work upset with me along with not getting the proper send off. I had to believe what he said is true about loving me and he wouldn’t do anything to hurt me, while he was away from me. I felt like the wedding once again was in limbo. With the investigation going and the way things were with us, I didn’t know what to do as far as planning. Then I started thinking maybe there’s a reason why this wedding has yet to take place. Maybe it’s not meant to happen. I felt I was fighting a losing battle. Mom April put her arm around me and broke the trance that I was in.
“He really does love you, you know. I believe he’ll come around. It just has to be in his own time, okay?” I smiled. She was reading my mind. The rest of that day I was like a zombie. My body was here, but my mind was consumed with worry. I didn’t know how I was going to make it with Trey being gone. Not only would he be gone for the photo shoot that he’s doing in New York first, but he also had some shows to do in different cities, so I wasn’t going to see him for over a few weeks. It had only been a few hours and I was losing it already. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this insecure. I was actually starting to do better. Right now I wish we could go back to the time when the twins were first born and everything seemed somewhat normal. Even with El being on the loose I still felt safe; my world protected, because Trey made everything right. Now my world is crumbling and I don’t know how to fix the broken pieces. He did call me finally to let me know he made it safely and would soon be getting ready for the shoot. He apologized for not calling sooner. He said they had a lot going on when he arrived and time had gotten away from him. He asked about his babies and I told him they were out with his mom shopping. I made small talk to keep him on the phone, but that only lasted for so long. He said he had to go. I wished him a good night, told him that I loved him and then we hung up.

With that, Trey left. He came back home. I was in the nursery playing with the twins. Trey came in there and was smiling at his babies as he saw me playing with them. He picked up Trejay and told me to hand him Treyonna. He had both of them in his arms.
“Daddy bouta go bye-bye for a bit. Lil man you gone look after ya mumma and ya sister?” Trejay smiles. “That’s my boy.” Then he looks at Treyonna. She was putting her hands on his face. “Baby girl you make sure you don’t be giving ya mumma and brother a hard time while daddy gone. I know how you get when I’m not around.” Treyonna continues to explore Trey’s face messing with his nose. “I’m gonna miss you two. My lil two piece.” He says. He kisses each of them on the cheek. Then he looks at me. “I guess I better finish getting ready for this lil stint I’m bout to do. With apprehension about him going I cross my arms and rub my elbows. I wanted to be holding him.
“Yeah, I know.” I unhappily say. He leans in for me to take Trejay. I grab him out of his arms. “I finished up you’re packing for you, at least what you had out to take with you.”
“Thanks!” He puts Treyonna in her stationary walker. Suddenly Mrs. Vanessa enters the room.
“Would you two like for me to take over?” I looked at Trey and he looked at me. I answered.
“Yes Mrs. Vanessa that would be great.” Trey headed to the bedroom and I walked behind him. He gathers up his bags while looking around the room making sure he didn’t forget anything. I was standing beside him and the bed. He looks at me. The tone in his voice is melancholy.
“I know a lot of things have yet to be said, but I can’t deal with that right now. I gotta try to focus on work.” This was all too familiar. I hated the fact that at times our personal problems would have to take a back seat because Trey’s mindset needed to be in a certain space. I knew it didn’t mean that he didn’t care, it just was how he could cope and be Trey Songz to his fans. I knew it, so I had to be patient.
“I understand.” I said. Even though I wanted to be selfish. I felt myself ready to cry again. My voice trembled as I managed to get out a few more words before the tears fell. “You will call me once you get there right?”
“Yeah, I’ll call.” The anguish I was beginning to feel was overpowering. He noticed it. “Don’t look so sad. I’ma be touching base.” I couldn’t hold it in any longer. I cried trying to still talk, sounding like a robot.
“I just feel like…even though you’ve been here…I’ve still been away from you…and now you really won’t be here and…” He lets his bags go and clinches me in his arms. I haven’t been touched by Trey in weeks. Not even for sex, which really has me worried, but he’s been angry with me. When he hugged me like that I just bawled even more. It felt so good to have him back in my arms again. He tries to calm me speaking comforting words as he holds me.

“What’s wrong?”
“He didn’t know anything. I told him. I tried to explain to him that nothing happened. That you didn’t get to kiss or even touch me and…”
“You told him exactly what happened?”
“I had no choice. He threatened me! Before that I wasn’t going to give him any information. I acted like I didn’t know what he was talking about. Then he warned me that if I didn’t tell him what you did, I would lose my license to practice. I simply explained what took place thinking he would see that it was nothing.”
“Damn!”
“Trey I’m sorry. I didn’t know. He kept pushing my buttons saying I was lying and he knew the truth. Then he mentioned board names of people that could cost me my job and everything that I’ve worked so hard for if I didn’t tell him. I didn’t know what to think, so that’s why I eventually said something.”
“That man ain’t know shit! He was just tryna see what he could get out of you.” Kelli went from frustrated to mad.
“Well, I had no way of knowing that Trey. He was very convincing. You tell me how I was supposed to know he was bluffing?”
“Look, you’re right. You did the right thing under those circumstances. I’m sorry you had to be dragged into this, but don’t worry. You’re not gonna lose your license or anything like that. I’ll make sure of it.”
“Trey maybe you should tell Shanell about this now. I really don’t feel comfortable that her father knows and is trying to hang something that was harmless over us. I mean, you still didn’t have your memory back yet and you had been drinking that night. I know you were confused and just had a moment, but you realized it and apologized. Nothing happened. She has to understand that right? Besides, I don’t know why he’s trying to make this into something anyway. What’s going on?” Trey gets up and walks over to Kelli. He reassuringly puts his hand on her shoulder.
“Nothing I can’t handle, but don’t you worry. You won’t be put in the middle again. His fight is with me, not you.” Kelli folds her arms and shakes her head.
“I knew we should’ve told her when it happened…just because. I’ve always felt guilty for keeping this from her. Shanell is my friend. I never would do anything to jeopardize that.”
“Again Kelli, I apologize. I know I put you in an awkward position back then, when you were only there to do your job. I just was going through some things, you know. Your nurturing nature had felt familiar to me. I know we’ve never discussed this aside from me saying it was no reason to tell Shanell, since you set me straight and nothing happened. But it just felt nice not to have somebody wanting anything from me. Shanell had expectations of me. Nikki was coming at me, but there you were, only giving. Even though you were there to help take care of Shanell, you also looked out for me too. I really appreciated that and I’m sorry for taking your generosity and turning it into something offensive.”
“Apology accepted, but you knew that already. I knew that was a hard time for you Trey. More importantly, I knew how much you and Shanell meant to each other even if you didn’t.”
“...Anyway I gotta go, but thanks for talking to me. Like I said, don’t even worry about none of this. I’ma take care of it.” She walks Trey to the door. She had one last question for him before he left.
“Trey, I still would like to know if you’re going to tell Shanell. She is my friend and I really don’t want any hard feelings between us. I just need to know what to be prepared for.” Regretfully he answers.
“It’s nothing to tell.”

“Look, I’m just gone get right to the reason why I’m here. I know Shanell’s dad came to see you some time ago or had some words with you, right?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Trey heavily sighs; face showing his disbelief with his sharp gaze and wrinkled forehead.
“Kelli, I know Bruce has been in contact with you. He told me he spoke to you, so tell me. What did he say to you?” Kelli was frazzled. She wasn’t sure if she should say anything for fear Bruce would find out.
“Trey, I haven’t seen Bruce.” Trey notices Kelli’s mannerisms change, plus she avoided eye contact. He goes and sits on the couch beside her.
“Aye! What’s up witchu? Why you scared to talk to me?” Kelli still remained quiet. “Whatever he said to you, you can tell me. I promise you nothing bad is going to happen.” She looks at Trey realizing she can trust him and decided to tell him the truth.
“He did pay me a visit…one I wasn’t too happy with.”
“What’d he say to you?”
“Trey I don’t know if you’re here because you’re upset with me for talking to him, but if that’s the case than you shouldn’t be. That man threatened my job. I felt like I didn’t have a choice. He told me that he wanted to talk to me because Shanell was upset about what happened between the two of us. I naturally assumed he knew something and tried to quickly explain that nothing happened.”
“But he didn’t know anything.”
“What do you mean, he didn’t know anything? He said…” Trey interrupts.
“Kelli, he played you. He was just fishing to see what he could find; if something was there and you fell for it.”
“Well, how was I supposed to know? He made it seem like you came clean to Shanell and she confided in him, so now he wanted to talk to me.”
“Yeah, that’s what he wanted you to think, but nah, he didn’t know anything.” Kelli was shocked. She shook her head in disbelief. She gets up and moves away from Trey. “Kelli, talk to me.”
“This doesn’t make any sense. He said Shanell told him…” She stops and covers her mouth. She remembers that she interrupted Bruce trying to explain right away that nothing happened. She told him Trey didn’t get a chance to kiss her because she turned him down. She realized she was deceived. Trey looks at her curiously wondering what she’s thinking.

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Overwhelmed and baffled all at the same time. I never imagined this for us. My whole family is falling apart right in front of my eyes and I’m to blame. My mom and my auntie still aren’t speaking. My dad and my mom are having problems because of my secret. It really hurt her that he didn’t think twice about telling her, so she could be there for me too. She felt that was a family matter, not one he should have taken on without her having knowledge of. She never expected him to keep something so serious, so big, away from her, which now has her questioning what else my father is capable of. She’s left out of the house for a while, so my dad’s been getting the cold shoulder just like me. I don’t know when Trey is going to come around. I’ve really made a mess of things. He still hadn’t been sleeping in our bedroom yet. My hope is that soon he’ll realize my reasons were valid for what I did and forgive me. His mom has been here and now she knows about what happened. The news really took her by surprise too, but she didn’t judge me. She was very sympathetic to the situation. She told me the same thing everyone else has been saying which is that I’m going to have to give Trey some time. Ultimately, she believes he’ll come to terms with it and recognize that it’s not worth risking what we’ve built and the plans we have of spending our lives together. I hope she’s right.

*******

Trey has been running all over the place since we’ve gotten back. I feel like he leaves just so he doesn’t have to be around me that long. I don’t know what to make out of it, truthfully. He’s on his way out again. He said he had something to take care of. I’ve been hearing that a lot it seems. It’s bad enough he’s leaving again. Trey Songz is always working. I've really missed Tremaine lately, but it’s the life I live and with us at odds right now it definitely doesn’t help. What I didn’t know was before he left, he was going to see Kelli. He finally had the time to go talk to her about what my dad had said to her. Kelli already knew what he wanted to see her about, but she had it in her mind she was going to let him talk first before she said anything. She invited Trey in once he arrived at her house. She offered him something to drink, but he told her he didn’t want anything. Next she told him to have a seat so he sits down in a living room chair. She sits on the couch.

Hello everyone, just wanted to let you know in case you've been checking that I haven't forgotten about you. Been on vacation (from writing) for the 4th. Hope you guys had a great holiday. I'll have more up this week! Love you guys! :)

Well it looks like Shanell's maternal instincts for her first child are starting to kick in. Crazy Mama better cool her heels cause Bruce is loose. I hope Marcus didn't put her on pause permanently already. Trey is still feeling like a chump but he will get over it. More pressing things are at issue. Can't wait to see what happens.

well damn! bruce is a straight g. I like! lol. and el's mother is a nut. smh. idk y shanell even went over 2 c her crazy self. of course she was gunna say sumthin about the baby. I hope her father tells her the truth about the lil girl bc i'm sure trey wants 2 tell her

“I see where her son got his madness from. That lady done lost a few marbles.”
“Yeah,” I muttered. I didn’t say much because I knew Marcus had heard her mention a grandchild. I guess I was waiting to see when he was going to bring that up.
“You okay,” he asks.
“Not really.”
“You wanna talk about it?”
“Not really.”
“You do understand why I had to make you leave right?”
“I know. It was stupid for me to go over there anyway. I don’t even know what I was trying to accomplish. She doesn't deserve to know anything.”
“Is it true?” I realized I was saying too much. I got quiet again. Marcus continues to talk. “I pretty much have an idea now of what’s been going on with you and Trey…why you guys are on the outs right now.”
“Marcus I really don’t want to talk about this, okay.”
“You don’t have to, but I am here if you ever want to.” The rest of the drive back to the hotel was in silence. We walked back to the room and I got my things together. My focus right now was getting to the airport to be back with Trey. I really wanted to know where he had to go, but I’m sure he’s not going to tell me if I was to ask. Once I was done we walked down to get the rooms all checked out and then we left. When I got to the gate where we were to board I saw Trey, hooded up with shades on. I was so relieved that he was actually here. He seemed distraught. I figured that had a lot to do with me. I walk over to him and speak.
“Hey.” Buggzi moved so I could sit beside him.
“Aye.”
“Everything is all squared away from our stay at the hotel.” Trey slouches down and leans his head back on the seat crossing his hands over his chest.
“Mm hmm…thank you baby.” I’ve seen that look on Trey before. His mind was deeply bothered by something. I knew that something was my secret. I kept saying to myself that I wasn’t going to push it, so I didn’t continue to bother him. We boarded our plane and sat
quietly on our flight. I just looked out the window while Trey rested. I was so happy once we got home to see my babies. I held them like I’ve never held them before. It was late and they were sleeping, but I didn’t care. I picked them up one after the other holding them as they still laid asleep in my arms. Trey came in the room too when I was holding Treyonna. He kissed her cheek then walked over to check on his little man who was back in his crib sleeping. He smiled at him and tucked him in a little more than walked out of the room. I finally put Treyonna back in her crib and went into our bedroom. Trey had a towel over his shoulder, his toiletries and a clean pair of boxers in his hand that he’d just took from the drawer.
“I’m gonna sleep in one of the guest bedrooms. I just need some time to digest everything.” He stops beside me before he leaves out of the room. He kisses me. “Goodnight,” he says.
“Goodnight.” I solemnly say back. I appreciated the kiss, but I wanted him to be there lying beside me more. He’s really taking this hard and as tough as this was going to be for me, I knew I had to give him some time and space. I got undress, took a shower and later cried myself to sleep, which I tend to do at times when Trey’s not around. About 4:00 am I was awakened from a nightmare. El wasn’t dead. He was back, holding on to our daughter, but I couldn’t see her face. I just heard her crying saying mommy where are you over and over and over again. I couldn’t get to her because my hands were tied to some sort of bars. I was yelling for him to let her go, but he wouldn’t listen. He just taunted me, laughing. It was so horrible. I woke up sobbing because it seemed so real. I’ve never had a dream about her…ever. This was the very first and I actually felt emotions for her. With my hands covering my face I just cried. I couldn’t make any sense of this. Eventually sleep found me and I was able to rest, but not at all comfortably without Trey.

“Come on chile, walk with me in the den,” says Ms. Francine. She crossly looks at Marcus. “This is my house, you wait right here.” She told him.
“I can respect that this is your house, but if you lay as much as a finger on her again you will answer to me. I won’t care whose house we in.”
“What? Excuse me?” She says eyeing him. “How do you think you’re gonna come up in my home and make threats to me? I’ll have your goon ass locked up so fast your head will be spinning. Matter of fact, I don’t even want you in my house no more.” She swats her hand. “Get out!”
“If I leave, she leaves,” he says. I jump in.
“Ms. Francine, maybe I should do this some other time. Maybe this wasn’t such a good idea.”
“No child! I want to know what you did with my…” I panicked and cut her off.
“Ms. Francine! We’ll talk, but please, this matter needs to be handled privately.”
“Fine! He stays.” She says, rolling her eyes at him.
“Shanell that’s it! We out of here! I can’t let you be here with her. You wanna come back, do it with Trey. Come on, or I’m calling him.” Ms. Francine didn’t like that one bit.
“Un ahn! I don’t know when I’m gonna see this girl again and anyway who do you think you are telling her what she has to do? She’s gonna tell me where my grandbaby is and what happened to my son today!” She snaps, while pulling on my arm so I wouldn’t leave. Marcus reacted and grabbed Ms. Francine by her neck. Immediately she lets me go because she couldn’t breathe. Her hands try to remove his hold, but he was too strong. Marcus yells.
“Shanell go get in the car!” I left out of there real quick. Shortly after, Marcus came out rushing to get in the car. He started it up and hurriedly pulled off. I was looking at Ms. Francine’s door to see if she was going to come out of it yelling and screaming at us, but she didn’t.
“What did you do to her,” I asked dramatically.
“She’ll be alright. She’s just been put on pause for a minute.” I ran my fingers through my hair with frustration. I couldn’t stop shaking my head at myself. I sat there thinking why did I even go over there. Marcus interrupts my thoughts.

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Once I was dressed I had Marcus take me to go see El’s mother. I know I was supposed to be letting Dre handle this, but I needed to see her myself too. It had been so long since I’d been to their house I almost forgot how to get there. I wasn’t even sure if she still lived in the same spot, but this was the last address that I knew so this is where I stopped. Marcus had no idea this is where I had him bring me. I told him it was an old friend’s house.
“You sure ya friend lives here?” he asked.
“Well I’m about to find out.” I hopped out of the car and told Marcus to wait while I went up to the door and knocked. Ms. Francine answered. Bingo! I thought.
“What the hell are you doing here?” She unkindly asks.
“Ms. Francine, I think we need to talk.”
“You damn right we do. As much as I despise your ass right now, get in here!” She says briskly. She pushes me inside of her house. Marcus saw this because he was leaning on the car while I went up to the door. He came rushing up to the porch. Ms. Francine looks at him. “Who are you?” I’m standing near her front door now on the inside.
“He’s with me Ms. Francine. Marcus I’ll be fine. Can you wait for me in the car?”
“Hell no! You’re not going in her house alone, not after what I just saw. Who is she anyway?”
“I’m Arvell’s mother.” Marcus looks at me cross.
“No, not this time. Let’s go Shanell.”
“No! I need to talk to her. It’ll only take minute.”
“Trey’s not gonna like this Shanell,” he warned. Ms. Francine was irritated.
“Look, you two are not gonna stand here and have my door open. Look you!” She loudly shouts to Marcus. “I have some things that I need to know from her. You’re welcome to come in with her, but dammit if you two don’t shut my door.” For some reason I wasn’t ready for Marcus to know anything yet.
“Marcus please! This is a private matter. Can you just wait for me in the car?” Marcus opens Ms. Francine’s screen door even wider and comes in her house.
“I’m not leaving you alone.” I wished now I would’ve come alone somehow. “Go ahead and talk,” he says.

I hate to say this, but I'm loving Bruce right now. I knew he did it. I knew he had that security around the house too. Poor Trey tho. Poor Baby. It will all work out doe. This is too funny in a way. Trey done found out Grandpa is straight GAngsta. I wonder what Trey is gonna do with Shannell now? He better be careful.

“Does ya sisters soon to be ex-husband think Shanell knows that they were raising her child?”
“He does think that she knows and doesn’t want any part in her life.”
“So you been knew that this secret was about to come out, but never said anything?”
“I was trying to prevent it from happening. That boy has cost my nelly belly so much, more than what one should have to go through in a lifetime. So when I went to help my brother set up for the party earlier that day, I made sure I had protection around just in case it was needed. Then when I noticed you and her weren’t inside of the tent, it made me wonder if there was problem, so I left. Took a walk around and that’s when I noticed the lights on in the barn and heard a gunshot. I came up from the back side and when I saw Shanell down, blood, and you holding her I thought he’d shot her.”
“That’s when you grabbed the gun you had stashed and shot him after I shot him thinking he was down.”
“It’s a good thing I had that gun in there. He almost tried to kill you son.”
“You know…I never said anything to her and went along with ya plan because one, you saved my life and two, because I didn’t know what that would do to her, since she thinks the world of you, but now I don’t even know what to think of you.”
“I will do anything to protect her from the likes of El or anyone else who tries to cause harm to my family. It’s that simple.”
“I get that, but how could you let ya own sister adopt her child? She’s right up underneath her nose. How do you think Shanell’s gonna feel if she ever found out that’s her daughter?” Bruce lights a cigar and takes a pull of it as he sits with his legs crossed looking at Trey.
“Do you plan on telling her son?”
“I don’t know what I plan on doing at the moment. I can’t even be around Shanell right now to be honest witchu.”
“I wouldn’t act too imperial if I were you son.” Trey gets defensive.
“You tryna say something to me man?”
“No…no…I just know my daughter, and she would be devastated if she knew about some of your extra-curricular activities that you seem to have hidden, plus aside from that, I did save your life.” That did it for Trey. No more fatherly love. He now declared war against my father.
“Bruce man, I never expected things to come to this with us, but you testing the wrong one.”
“My daughter is very precious to me. Don’t get me wrong, I love you like my own son. The son I’ve never had, but I wouldn’t mess up what you have with Shanell if I were you. I’ve done some digging of my own. I’m not proud of the way I had to go about getting this information, but for my daughter I’ll do anything.” He puts the cigar in the ashtray and sits up. “What I’m saying son is you haven’t been all that forthcoming with your dirt either, so don’t be so hard on my daughter about this. I really don’t want to see her hurt anymore, but one phone call from me, I could have your whole world destroyed and you’ll be going down for the murder of Arvell Harris. I will make you look so bad you won’t even recognize your own self and Shanell will feel betrayed by you. Now my daughter loves you and I know you love her. I think you two can work this out without things having to come to that.” He says confidently. “Don’t you think son?” He smugly asks.
“This family is something else. She really has no clue the type of father she has, does she POPS?” he stressed.
“I’m the type of father that wants what’s best for my daughter. I want to see her happy. You make her happy. I just want you to think about whatever it is you’re about to do.” Trey stands up.
“Well, I live by my own rules. You ain’t got shit on me nor will you hold shit over me. Plus Shanell would never believe you.”
“I wouldn’t be so sure of that son. I’ve spoken to Shanell’s old nurse Kelli and that crazy ex of yours Nikki.” Bruce stands. Trey’s expression completely changes. “Now I’m not at all interested in your little sexcapades, my point is, you are just as imperfect as my child. I wouldn’t judge her about her secret when we both know you’re holding a few of your own. I’m sure if she heard what I found out she’ll believe it, but that will be the least of your problems. We both know that murder wrap will sever your relationship alone. Now, I’m not against you son. We don’t have to have any hard feelings here. I’m talking to you from one father to another.”
“Bullshit man! You’re talking to me like you tryna threaten me ‘n shit, but do what you feel is necessary. I’ma big boy. Whatever you tryna dish out believe me I can handle mines.”
“Sorry you feel this way. That’s really not my intent.”
“I can clearly see what ya intent is. I’m outta here.” Trey walks out of the living room and goes outside to call Buggzi. He was fuming. He waited for him on the step till he returned. As he waited he couldn’t believe everything that he just found out. Even though he was so upset with me the thought of how I had no clue that my father was such a snake angered Trey. He knew if I ever found out that my father had my child being raised by my aunt, that news would shatter me. Then to goad him into not telling me or he’d try to send him to prison really hurt Trey. He thought my father always had his best interest at heart too, but now he knows differently. He views him in a totally different light, one not very appealing. My father having my daughter raised right underneath our noses, he felt was right immoral. Then to have Trey possibly take the fall for El’s murder and wave saving his life over his head if he told me, was downright heartless. Not to mention bringing Nikki and Kelli into this, to point out his past indiscretions. It’s a lot that he’s not proud of that he did when he lost his memory, but to use that time against him, my dad couldn’t get any lower in his eyes. He lost all respect for him and really was bothered by his tactics toward him. Now he didn’t know what he was going to do regarding telling me or not.
"Another fuck’n secret." he says under his breath. "Fuck'n bullshit!"

OK daddy making sure trey know wats up, go on daddy.. But y I gotta b all in da mix.. trey juss need to take it easy dats daddy's girl he messing with.. I just hope he understand she was protecting her child

“But Shanell just told me El’s mother recently found out, which is after he was killed, so why wouldn’t she had already known before now if El knew?”
“We don’t know if El really knew, or if he contacted his mother for her to know. It’s just speculation. My sister believes once he was killed her ex sent that paperwork to his family, so his mother probably didn’t know anything about this before then. She probably would’ve been wanting answers before now if that was the case along with her son.”
“Makes sense, but you don’t believe he was there because of that.” Trey says.
“No, I don’t believe it. He’s been on the run. My only other guess is he was there because somehow he knew you and Shanell were gonna be there. Honestly, we could come up with tons of theories, but the truth is something we may never know. I don’t know what he knew, but I was gonna be prepared if he showed up.”
“Where does this leave Hailey?
“There were some things about the adoption that didn’t make it fully legal. Her husband knew that. My brother-in-law right now, will do anything to destroy my sister. Having Hailey taken away from her would do that.”
“But she’s his daughter now too. How could he just turn his back on her like that?”
“Who said he turned out to be a good father? I think a part of him still resents my sister because they couldn’t have their own child. After some time had went by I started regretting my decision. Not because of my sister, she’s a damn good mother, but because the only father that Hailey knows turned out to be an asshole. I never saw that coming.”
“Is he Caucasian too?”
“No, he’s African American. Hailey has no idea that she’s adopted if that’s what you’re wondering. She’s a happy, healthy, beautiful seven year old who doesn’t see race when she looks at her parents. All she’s ever known is Linda as her mother and that jackass as her father.”
“So there’s still a chance now that she could lose her?”
“Not now with El being dead. He can’t contest it.”
“What about his mom?”
“She has no proof of anything except for the child was adopted. She can’t prove that El knew nothing about it and didn’t consent to it. It would be her word against Shanell’s if she tries to pursue anything.”
“What about ya sisters husband? If he knows it wasn’t legal couldn’t he cause a problem?”
“He doesn’t know all the details of the adoption. He just knew it wasn’t full proof. What made it illegal was only between me, and Shanell. He wouldn’t know the first thing to dispute to make a case to a judge. Everything on those papers look authentic.”
“Except the fact that El’s signature and everywhere he was supposed to sign wasn’t authentic, right?”
“Well, right.”
“Who forged his signature, Shanell or you?”
“Shanell did it.” Trey took his hand and started smoothing his eyebrows. He was so disturbed right now. “Son, it really was the right thing for her to do. El was poisonous in her life, caused nothing but trouble to her. If he knew she was pregnant, no telling the kind of hell he would’ve tried to put her through.”

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“Son, you’re a father now and I’m sure you would do anything for your children to protect them.”
“I would pops, you right. I would do anything to protect my family. At first my main reason to come here was to give you the latest with the case, but now in light of some new information, I just wanna know how’d you know he was going to be there?” My dad thinks for a minute. He has this perplex look on his face. Then he responds.
“I didn’t know for certain, but I won’t let you take the fall for any of this. I promise you that.”
“I think you owe me the truth. You knew she had a baby already by him, so if that wasn’t enough to make you wanna kill him before, what made you shoot to kill this time?”
“Look son, there’s so much more at stake now. I had to do it. I did it for you too.”
“Nah, you didn’t do this for me. Why’d you really do it?”
“…I received a call and found out that it was a chance that Shanell’s secret about the adoption was about to come out.”
“Received a call from who?”
“My sister, Linda.”
“Where is she, and what she got to do with this?”
“She lives in Phoenix, Arizona. Apparently her and her husband are going through a bitter divorce. He knows Hailey means the world to my sister and…”
“Who’s Hailey?” My dad got quiet for a minute.
“Hailey is Shanell’s daughter. My sister adopted her.” Trey had to sit down for a minute. All this news was just too much for one day.
“Hold up, Shanell’s daughter is living in Phoenix right now being raised by her aunt?”
“Son when Shanell got pregnant all those years ago, as bad as she didn’t want a child in her life, I knew I couldn’t have a grandchild of mine being raised by some strangers; even if I didn’t like the father. She didn’t care who the child went to, she just wanted daddy to take care of it, so that’s what I did. I knew my sister had been struggling to have a family, so we still went through the proper channels and she officially adopted her. She didn’t want to just take care of her for me, because she was afraid that something might happen one day and the baby would be taken away from her. Then she wouldn’t have a legal leg to stand on.”
“So since ya sister has her, you mean to tell me she’s never seen her with her daughter before or wondered about her suddenly having a child?”
“No, my sister hardly ever comes here or is around the family much. Shanell knows nothing about her struggle to have her own child. She just knows Linda has a child, but no clue it’s her own that she’s raising.”
“That still doesn’t explain how El found out.”
“His mother seems to believe that he knew and that’s why he was there that night, but we don’t know if El knew or not. It’s many reasons why he could’ve been there.”
“He was there after Shanell. He said he was gonna kill her. Maybe he did know.”
“All I know is my sister believes her husband whose she’s divorcing got a hold of the paperwork for the adoption and sent it somehow to El’s family. The timeframe is what’s sketchy.”

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