The run

Daisy is fighting with her grief and self confidence, she had some though years. She just needed to get away.She have moved to the other side of the World, there is this boy who make her so mad and so happy at the same time.She can't see how it ever would evolve, she is damage goods, she would just take him with her when she falls.

18. Chapter 18

~~ We have been lying closer tonight than any other night, I have been searching for his comfort. He have tried to give me the comfort I needed. I don’t know if this change our relationship, but it change me. I feel more open to him now when he knows everything, and what I have done. I can’t figure out why I have told him everything so fast when not even my closest friends know this, am I falling for him? I know I have a strong urge to be around him, but is that the same as falling in love? I have never been in love, so I’m not sure how to react to this. I haven’t notices that Nate have been awake before me, it is usually me who first wake up. Nate is looking different at me, his eyes is usually filled with enjoy, happiness and a little flame when he looks at me. This morning he looks with pity. I don’t want that from him, he don’t need to trade me different because of this.

“Stop looking at me that way”

“How am I’m looking at you?”

“Like I’m a hot air balloon which just lost all the heat”

“I love how you compare your feelings with things” “You put it in perspective” He kisses my forehead.

“I mean it. This doesn’t change who I am, or how you should treat me”

“I promise I won’t treat you any different. But this does change our relationship”

“Why does it have to change our relationship? Is it even a relationship, I’m not sure” I should stop now. I can see the hurt in his face when I say it.

“I mean we have never talked about what this is” He relax a little bit.

“I thought we talked about it the day you asked me to stay”

“What is this then?”

“Well of my opinion you are my girlfriend, and not just a friend who is a girl I like to kiss and do more to” I blush because I’m flattered. He, the hottest guy on campus want’s me to be his girlfriend. It’s the first time since yesterday morning that I smile. Somehow he makes me feel safe, flattered and more happy than I could imagine being right now.

“You are not just saying this to get into my pants right?” I joke with him, I know he wouldn’t do that to me.

“You have no idea what I would do to get in your pants” His hand i moving slowly up under my shirt. The joke have stopped now. He kiss me with his tongue, the kiss is more hot and sexy than normal. I can’t get away from it. Nate have almost pulled my entire shirt off, and I’m just about to think that this is the moment I have been waiting for when Simone is coming into the room. We havn’t noticed her before she walks toward her bed. Nate get’s the cover and cover us quickly, but we all know it’s too late. Simone have seen everything, so Nate and I blush. Simone just laughing.

“Relax love birds, I have seen it all before” We just blush even more.

“I just came to get some sleep, but I can find another place if it is?” I don’t know what to say to that, I don’t feel that I can kick her out of her own room, and beside that the mood is killed now. But I also get to think about that I don’t want her to see Nate in his boxers. I can only see one way out of this, and that is to kick her out.

“I don't’ want to kick you out, but can you disappear for 30 minutes?”

“He is doing a good job than if you can get it over with in 30 minutes” She blinks at us, and I blush Nate just laugh a little.

“You have no idea how good I am” It’s good that Nate like this situation while I think this is one of the most embarrassing moments in my life. Simone laughs while she get outside again.

“Do you wanna experience how good I am?” I cover my head in my hands, while Nate laugh at me.

“I just wants to get clothes on right now” I try to get out of the bed but Nate is keeping me back.

“You are not going anywhere” He takes me back to the position we was in before Simone came in and interrupted us.

“We can’t do it now”

“Why not?”

“The mood is gone, and she is coming back soon”

“My mood isn’t gone” I can feel what he means under the covers.

“What can we do to kill your mood? ‘cause we really don’t have time for it” After some persuasion and time did Nate’s mood go off too. It was kind of funny, I have never been in this situation before and I’m really flattered. It seemed like Nate thought the situation was funny too, it was nice to get our mind on something else than all the sadness we had been feeling since yesterday. Simone came in just when we was about to leave, it was perfect timed but she had also been gone more than 30 minutes. She came with a comment about that I didn’t looked relaxed and he surely didn’t either. I blushed because I know I was the reason to his tension. Nate had told me that he hadn’t seen any other girls since our first kiss, that’s a long time ago. I know he have some needs and I do too, I do feel ready but I’m just afraid. I’m afraid that he will be disappointed by me, be disappointed of my body and my abilities.

I have to get my shit together so I can put an effort in this relationship. Even though we only have been together for a little more than a week, do it feels like we have been together for way more, I have been obsessed with him since October and have known of him since my first day. I think I already the first day hoped that this would happen.