A beautiful little angel showed up to Heaven's gates confused and unknowing the plan that for them awaits. Then another little angel walked up and took their hand and said "Please don't be sad you left, you're in the Promised Land." "I'm glad to be here but I do not think I was to go, Perhaps there was a mistake, for my mummy wanted me so. The little greeting angel gave a sweet smile and said "My mummy wanted me too, but to Heaven I was led. You see, we do not get to choose when on earth it's time to go. He gaus life, love and joy and a mother's womb to grow. The lord still needs new angels to guide down on earth . To watch over , comfort them, and help them see their worth." "Is there still a way that I can sleep in my mummy's bed?" The greeting angel grinned and said, "that luxury you'll keep. I visit my mummy nightly and softly sing her to sleep." The little angel replied, " then I think I'll like it here. I'll visit my mummy nightly and weaken her pain and fears. I love her and will keep her safe at night and in between, and let her know with a sweet memory that she is still with me." The greeting angel gave her new friend a big hug and said, "Untill our mummy's meet us here, let's be best angel friends." "Okay." said the new angel, "that sounds good to me." Then the angels sat and played keeping their mummy's in sight, humming the tunes to the song they would sing to their mummy's tonight.

The Wall / Chris Phillips-Maund (Dad) Sent to me by Tony a SANDS colleague

You are walking along fine with everyone else and the sun is shining and all is going ok and then you walk SLAM into a brick wall.And it hurts – really hurts.

It hurts your head and your chest where your heart is and your stomach. And it shocks you as only slamming into a brick wall can. Stops you dead in your tracks. And you stand there thinking “How did I not see that coming ? What the hell happened ? How could someone just do that to me ?”

And you look around and everyone else seems to be walking round the wall. They are carrying on like nothing happened and the sun is still shining for them. They don’t even see the wall. They don’t even know its there. And you realise you didn’t know it was there until you hit it – you didn’t even know there was a brick wall you could hit – not now, not at this stage.

And slowly you pull yourself together. The pain in your stomach goes away but your heart still hurts and your mind is racing with questions about this brick wall – how, what, where, why ?? Mostly why ? Why on earth would someone make you walk into this wall – why did they have to put it in front of you and no-one else ?

And you can walk again now the pain in your stomach and maybe your legs has subsided. So you slowly make your way round the wall and to the other side. But it doesn’t look the same on the other side. It’s greyer and emptier. And you know you’ve left something behind – something very precious and you want it back.

So you turn round and there is the brick wall behind you and it seems to hit you with the same force again when you realise you can’t go back. Its blocking your path and it will always be there. You pummel your fists on it and cry and shout at it but it’s unbreakable and absolute. It won’t let you get your precious bundle back – that has to stay on the other side and you must carry on without it.

You can’t go back to the path you were on before you hit the brick wall – it’s impossible. So all you can do is go forward and walk on from it. But its hard-going and your legs don’t seem to want to walk away from it. You know when you look over your shoulder it will always be there. It may fade a bit from view but if you look closely you will always be able to see it – even in the distance.

And you look around you again and see all the people who never hit the brick wall carrying on too. You tell some of them about the brick wall and they sympathise – it must have hurt they say. You are looking well despite hitting this brick wall – you have no cuts or bruises on the outside because those heal. So you must be doing ok then now they say ? But my wounds are on the inside you feel like screaming.

How can you not know about this brick wall – why couldn’t you walk into it instead of me ? And then you feel bad – you know you wouldn’t really want anyone else to walk into that wall. Some people are ok – maybe they have seen the wall themselves in the past or come close to it - maybe they are really good friends and family who close their eyes and do try to imagine walking into the wall. They are the ones who help you keep walking away from it.

People tell you that you’ll never hit this brick wall again – it only appears once in your life. And you want to believe them even though you can’t be sure. Up ahead it looks like maybe your path does cross back into the sunshine again – the same sunshine that everyone else is basking in. And you can just maybe make out another bundle waiting for you to pick up and carry with you for the rest of your life. And maybe if you are strong and keep moving forward then you’ll reach it one day.

But it’s not the same bundle as before – it can’t be. That one is behind the wall. The wall that’s always there if you look over your shoulder. And written on it in forever more is the message in letters a mile high, that only you can see – “My darling baby. Rest In Peace” .

A Father's Grief / Chris Phillips-Maund (Dad) Sent to me by Tony a SANDS colleague

It must be very difficult To be a man in grief, Since "men don't cry" and "men are strong" No tears can bring relief.

It must be very difficult To stand up to the test, And field the calls and visitors So she can get some rest.

They always ask if she's all right And what she's going through. But seldom take his hand and ask, "My friend, but how are you?"

He hears her crying in the nightAnd thinks his heart will break. He dries her tears and comforts her, But "stays strong" for her sake.

It must be very difficult To start each day anew. And try to be so very brave- He lost his baby too.

Our angels mean the world to us they will always be precious to their mammy's and daddy's. in the clouds they play together full of happiness and joy on earth mammy's and daddy's ache and full of sadness. how we miss our baby's so much no one can take the pain for us no one can make it better. some of us stronger some of us weaker the one thing in common with all of us is our angels, our angels in the the clouds. some of our angles sleep on the clouds others on the star some even sleep on the moon but best of all they all shine on us

lots of love Sarah and Alanwww.paige-leigh.memory-of.comsending hundreds and hundreds of angels kisses and hugs to all of our baby's each and everyone of them catching at least one as they fly by.

so soory for your loss. / Rimzie (none) I'm very sorry for your loss. May god bless her soul. May god bless all your family members as well. Your daughter was very cute. May god keep her in his arms as a very special child.

Such a beatiful girl! / Kelli (mom to angel Amanda Jo ) I am so sorry for your loss. Your daughter is so beatiful. My prayers go out to you!Kelli mom to angel Amanda Jo

My deepest sympathy / Tally Jackson Mommy To Angel Lucas

"You made all the delicate inner parts of my body and knit them in my mother's womb" Psalm 139:13"The Lord is close to those whose hearts are breaking..." Psalm 34:18

Although we know the Lord is carrying out a plan for our lives and also those we love, we still have questions. A day doesn't pass that I don't question why us? or what if...? We will never have the answers here on Earth, but just keep believing and we will hold our precious babies again one day.

Your little girl is beautiful. The website is such a wonderful tribute to her. We will never forget our little ones that passed before us, and will pass on his memory to all the people we will meet. My son, Lucas Daniel Jackson, was taken from my husband and I exactly one week before his due date. He was born sleeping Feb. 3, 2006. I invite you to visit his page at www.lucas-jackson.memory-of.com

I will continue to pray for you and your family during this time and always.

Beautiful baby girl!!! / Hayley Tindall (Angel Daphne's Mommy )

I am so very sorry. She is just so very beautiful. I wish I could say something to ease the pain but sadly I know nothing I can say will make it hurt any less. We lost our beautiful baby girl Daphne on November 22nd 2005. It was Daphne's due date and I was induced. She did well all day until 6pm when she went into distress by 6:12pm I had delivered her. She never cried, never opened her eyes. She had a sweet little heart beat but never took a breath on her own. They worked on her for nearly 30 minutes to no avail. I had a uterine rupture and our sweet angel was deprived of the oxygen she needed from Mommy. Please now how sorry I am to know you are going through this. Naima is a darling beautiful angel. PERFECT!!!

Our life changed that day we found out you were thereBeginning your life, so small and fragileWhat would you be like Would we know what to do Would we be good parents and be able to guide you

We wanted only good things for you That you’d be successful in all that you doThat you would find happiness, love and respectA life rich and full without any regrets

In your first hours so perfect you seemedA beautiful brown-eyed girlWe were so proud and happyThe beginnings of our family-lifeBut our dreams were not meant to be

Six hours into your life you lost your breathTo this day we know not whyFor two weeks, you fought and struggled to surviveMummy and daddy watched over youBut your struggles became too much

Mummy & Daddy loved youSo much you’ll never knowWe had to make a decision, no parent should have to makeWe released you from your pain

As we cried, you took your last breaths in our armsWe wished you to go and rest in peaceand as you took your final breathMum uttered “You are now healed by God”

Wherever you are, we know you are in a happier placeBut it doesn’t make missing you any easierAn emptiness is left in our lives and our heartsFrom the love we have for you our baby girl Naima

Naima you were with us for only a short timeLoved by all, whose lives you touchedYou are now watching over Mummy & DaddyPlease guide us through this difficult timeOur Beautiful Baby Girl Naima

WHAT MAKES A MOTHER / Joan Phillips-Maund (Mummy)

WHAT MAKES A MOTHER

I thought of you and closed my eyes, and prayed to God today. I asked, "What makes a mother?" and I know I heard him say, "A mother has a baby". This we know is true. But God, can you be a mother when your baby's not with you?"Yes, you can", He replied, with confidence in His voice. "I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice. Some I send down for a lifetime and others for the day and some I send to fill your womb, but there's no need to stay.""I just don't understand this God, I want my baby here."He took a breath and cleared His throat and then I saw a tear."I wish I could show you what your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile, with other children and say....'We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear, my Mommy loved me so much I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me. I learned my lessons very quickly, my mommy set me free.''I miss my mommy oh so much but I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep, on her pillow is where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek, and whisper in her ear, 'Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here.'"So you see my dear sweet one, your children are ok. Your babies are here in my home, and this is where they'll stay. They'll wait for you with Me until your lesson is through. And on the day that you come home, they'll be at the gates for you. So now you know what makes a mother, it's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of, right from the very start. Though some of earth may not realize, until their time is done, remember all the love you have and know that you are a special mom."(Unknown)

If Tears Could Build A Stairway / Vas Holder (Auntie)

If tears could build a stairwayAnd memories were a laneWe would walk right up to HeavenAnd bring you back again.

No farewell words were spoken

No time to say goodbyeYou were gone before we knew itAnd only God knows why

Our hearts still ache in sadnessAnd secret tears still flowWhat it meant to lose youNo one will ever know

But know we know you want usTo mourn for you no moreTo remember all the happy timesLife still has much in store

Since you’ll never be forgottenWe pledge to you todayA hallowed place within our heartsIs where you’ll always stay

(Unknown)

From Marcia & Shaneise - From the first day we saw you / Marcia Best (Auntie & Neice )

From the first day we saw you

You brought joy to our lives

Such a beautiful baby, a blessing from Christ

But God had a plan; as he always does

You were our little angel sent from God above

We Love you Naima!

You are the candle which burns deep within our souls

You made our lives complete, you made us whole!

We saw each breath you took

And how weak you became

But God knows best

His plan was for you to be free

No more a prisoner of this world

But eternally free

I know you feel lost without me Mum & Dad

But I was too special for this world

I stayed as long as I could

‘Till I knew you were strong enough to release me

Thank you Mum & Dad, Thank you for freeing me

Don’t be sad I pray

I’m no longer in pain, I’m free because you loved me

Now put your hand over your heart, and every time it beats, remember me

Naima…….

Thinking of you / Leenicola SANDS I'm so sorry for your loss, and the pain you must be feeling - You are in my prayers x x x

A Beautiful little Star / Vas &. Kim Welch (Friend of the Family ) Words alone cannot say how we feel, but trust in God He will bring you through your sorrow You are always in our prays We are truly sorry for lost of your beautiful little princess

To your mummy and daddy ..... Am so so sorry for your loss ..... the pain you,re feeling I know right now must be absolutely indescribable. My family and I, like others before us sadly know only too well how profound this hurt is. I pray that you both may find the strength to go on in your daughters memory and am sure that given time you will look back on memories of darling naima and have smiles instead of those tears. A good friend once said to me after we lost Hywel ....... 'theres no time limit on grieving' How right. Will continue to pray for you both and please take comfort in the fact that you are never alone and that someone will always be here for you. Your daughter truly is beautiful xxx God Bless xx

Condolences from Lacho / Lacho Stoyanov Dear Chris,

I have learned about your sad news from Amy. I would like to express to you and your wife my sincere and deepest condolences about your loss. Nothing will be the same again but this is when friends can help. I would be more than happy if I can assist you with anything in this difficult moment.

Yours trulyLacho07775797690

Thinking of you / Mark &. James (Friends)

I doubt that anything we can say will remotely ease your pain. We only hope it helps to know that you're in our thoughts and wish you peace and fortitude.