Well, I lived with my mother till I was sixteen and my father for a year and three months after that. For the next few years I lived with my aunt. Seems as every where I go, I really do not fit in. As I call it, being the tie-tied zebra-but I'm okay with that (most days.) However, I feel perfectly shaped (like a key&lock sort of way), complete, assembled/wired right, compatible, and happy in my fiance's heart. Recently found that out he has had my soul my whole life ( I am a soulless ginger.)

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I am almost twenty-years old. Living with my amazing fiance. Currently twelve weeks pregnant with our first child. Currently jobless, but okay with that. My fiance and I have agreed for me to be a stay-at home-mom.Over the years I have worked at a few restaurants and bakery's. I moved myself from the dishwasher to pizza chef, pantry chef, dessert chef,the bread baker, and to do-nut maker!" I really have a passion for baking. Yes, I do prefer baking over cooking. However, nothing beats cooking meals with the hubby-to be!I am currently living in Vermont. I do love all the seasons up here. It's quite beautiful. Over the years I have found I do not like winter. I hate the cold and I hate the snow. The cold gets to my mind and when it does I shut down.Been working on that- making myself stronger than my mind."Everyday there will be at battle. The finally issue is how you conquer the battle of each day." -MeI do like to think of myself as a hippie but as the fiance and I have come to conclusion: A soulless ginger cannot be a hippie. So I'm a hippie wanna-be. Ha-Ha that's cool. I am more of a hippie than a "city girl" or a "redneck." I am me!

﻿Back History:﻿ November 2012, I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Doctors to believe I have bipolar or borderline personality disorder (I don't really know who I am, yet!) But I did not the testing that they wanted to be done. Since then I have been up and down. I have been on and off meds. Learning good coping skills and following bad coping skills. Up until was rooted to the ground.

When I started this blog I wrote: "But this morning I have decided to try to change. I know I can not get rid of my depression or my anxiety, but I do know that I can be anything I want to be if I put my mind to it. Just like you! "

I enjoy writing. Well I should really say typing. Every few days I catch myself lost in thought; thinking about what is on my mind. It's pretty funny how fast our minds work and how quickly mine changes. Through my writing I have found that I go way off topic but that's my true thoughts. So I write it down and boom, I have a whole story. A good one, too. Well, at least I think so. The family agrees too. Blogging sure helps me but like any coping skill it needs works. It also seems to help others.I hear from people: "You will be helping someone else. Some one who has depression, like you. Or someone who just need some inspiration."

So I have started this blog. Hope it helps. It sure helps me. And thank you for reading.

An addition to the intro:

My senior year of high school was Aug 2013- June 2014. I was suppose to graduate June of 2013, as a junior. But I had some set backs, because of the depression, meds changes, anxiety, and brake up problems(like a normal teen). I graduated from high school in February of 2014. I was in a special program to finish up. Throughout high school, I had my whole life planned out. I was going to go off to college December (2014) to study pastry arts. I planed to this six month trip to the west side of the United States, in a food truck. Then the plan is invest into a newly designed bakery/café .And Hopefully one day that dream comes true. I am sure the lil' bean would enjoy that just as much as I. She or he will have a adventurous side to them. . Mmmmm that would be amazing. With delicious smooth homemade chocolates. Fresh sandwiches with homemade bread and bagels. And of course amazingly cute little pastries. I would also love to have a section for random treats that I deiced to make for that day. I have a bit of a green-thumb sparking inside me. What a great life right? Well, maybe to some. However, I have changed my plan. I have grown a little since then. I have opened my eyes to the real world. I have found that college won't be as creep or affordable for me. And over all just not for me and my line of work. I do not need a 400,000 dollar piece of paper to proof I am good a baker. Yes, maybe the "collage life" would be the bomb. But I am getting real- it's not the path for me. I am a settle down type of person with great goals in life. To be a mother and to be a wife. To open my own business without all that debit. To stay home with the kid, clean the house, stay health, while starting a small business. It will be manageable. I know it will be because I want it to be. I want the best for my family and myself. I want to provide for someone with care and nutriment. With a healthy but "normal" life. Life isn't all that. It can be, but you gotta work on that. Life will be what you make out of it. So, if you do not change when things are bad- your life won't. But reminder the sun will always shine. And to keep smiling, of course. Like me(: Please comment as much as you want! Hopefully this blog with help out someone. Enjoy Pierces of Me!