Wednesday, December 30, 2015

w(HERE) r U? U r HERE!

Y'aLL(s)--

I have been doing a lot of thinking and reading lately about being present, and today I had kind of an AHA-moment (also known as an EPIHANY in the world of English literature . . . just ask my students about it . . . they are so sick of me bringing this up! . . . but they're really smart!)

Today I was feeling really happy! Yay! And I felt so so so so so so good. And, because I was so happy, I was friendly, and smiling, and chatty (and I assumed I am smart and capable, and everybody likes me, and oh!-- I am cute! JK! not).

And my AHA moment was when I realized TIME-BENDING.

I was so present, that my past and future dropped off. SO AWESOME!

For those of us who have spent much of our time in REGRET (pain around our past) and WORRY (pain around the future), TIME SEEMS FOREVER DAUNTING.

we relive past pain

we lose sleep

we are up in our heads

we feel fuzzy

we are out of touch

we make up stories in our heads and believe them

we are not paying attention

we are scared and nervous

we are sad

we keep re-wounding ourselves

we continually beat on ourselves

I noticed today that when I give the players around me my full attention, LIFE comes ALIVE; I am not breathing, butlife breathes me. And I am able to be in the moment, present with that which simply IS, holy in front of Me.

I AM (fully) HERE.

In my life, I have spent a lot of time and energy wishing:

I was with someone else

I was smarter, cuter BLAH BLAH BLAH

my body was different

I had more _____

my past was different

ANYTHING was different

EVERY FREAKIN' thing was different

When my vibration is negative, I call in experiences, people, and events that mirror this vibration.

It's a HELL of a lot of "NO!"

When I celebrate and feel gratitude for all that is before me (even the total CRAP-aliscious CRAP), I bring in goodness and light. I celebrate the NOW.

It's a HEAVENLY"YES! ( & thank you ) . . ."

This, my superfriend, is an amazing shift.

Note to self: the woman who changed my oil today told me she missed me already as I was driving away; I yelled, "I Love You!" as I drove out.

WHO KNEW! ?

AWESOME-SAUCE!

Where is your vibration? How can you command a HEAVENLY "YES"--even to the hard stuff?

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I am a writer, storyteller, teacher, blogger, philosopher, spiritual collagist, mama, LoVer of LiFe!, amazing friend, and one cOoL pUsSy cAt!!
I has been teaching middle school English for over 25 years and hold a Ph.D. in curriculum and instruction with a focus in literacy. My interests in reflection and spirituality stem from my research in adolescent identity formation (translation: how we grow up and become more fully ourselves!), from work on my own transformation, and from my experiences of evolving as a PERFECTly imPERFECkT hu(wo)man BEing!