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Death can strike anywhere….

A friend of the family recently passed away. She wasn’t that old, in fact she was even younger than my mother. On top of that, as far as we knew, she was healthy! At least she seemed to be. Sure, she would get sick, but who doesn’t?

This has got me worried, for a few reasons. The first being that it has got me thinking about death, and as I have said multiple times, Death scares the shit out of me! Not the pain of dying, but just the end. Mainly, because I don’t believe in god or heaven. So, when I die, I know that everything ends. I cease to exist. Everything that was me, becomes wiped from the world. In time, people will even forget I existed. That scares me.

However, even scarier than the thought of me dying, is the thought of my mother dying. My mother and I are close. Sure we don’t always get along, and yeah, we have our fights. However, at the end of the day, she’s my mother and I love her with every ounce of my being. She’s always been there for me, and sacrificed to ensure that I had everything I needed or even wanted.

If she dies, I don’t know what I will do, or how I will react. Now that I am older, I want the chance to repay her for all she has done and sacrificed. I want the chance, to show her I love her. Sure, I tell her that I love her, but words can be spoken by anyone. I want to show her, and I don’t think I’ll ever have enough time to show her how much I love her, and how much she means to me.

So, that’s got me down, and on top of that. There’s no way to predict death. It could come knocking on anyones door, at any time. If you think, that because you eat healthy and exercise on daily basis, that you are safe, and guaranteed a long fulfilling life, then you are wrong! I have known people MUCH healthier, and younger than me who passed away. People who I thought would outlive me by YEARS.

Fact of the matter is, Death can strike anywhere at anytime. The unhealthy, The Healthy, The Young, The Old, The smart, The Dumb, The rich and The Poor. Death just doesn’t give a shit, and honestly that’s some scary shit, and I am not ashamed to admit that it frightens me to my core.