Saturday, 24 March 2012

For starters, no I am not campaigning for Ugly Betty. But for the record, I really loved that show! And before I go any further I wanna thank you all from the bottom of My heart. I always go and check My Stats and I see the Blog viewing is increasing all around the globe every week! Thank you for reading My Blogs. It inspires Me more and every week I want to write something new. So this week's Shout-Out Feature belongs to all of you! My Readers!

And now … we begin …

Ugly. That is not a word used often by people. And especially not by men because 90% of the time we tell all the women in the world that they are so beautiful. And especially in My line of work, where looks really really matter, the word ugly is considered fatal. So why will I say Ugly is the new Beautiful? Here is why … As you all know that I am on this Journey. A journey to find My True Origins, where I belong, where I am going and finding the essence of My Soul. So in this process I ask Myself questions almost every moment and from time to time, I get answers to those questions too. Growing up, I was the Fat Kid in School, who wore huge glasses. I was the guy everyone made fun of. Of course, I used to hate that feeling of feeling unappreciated and made fun off. But as time faded, I evolved and today I can differentiate between Ugly and Beautiful. WWE has started this Anti-Bully Campaign and they say don't be a bully, be a star! And to be honest, since I have become a part of Save The Children India Foundation something in Me has changed. Watching those kids and young girls having new lives. Children who can't hear. Girls, who at a tender get trafficked still have the will to fight and believe and hope and smile and be happy because they have been given a second chance in life. I will be the 1st person to tell you that i am not a nice guy but looking at those kids, I believe that there is good in all of us and that good can see beyond looks, caste, creed or religion …

So you see, that fat kid in school, he was never a bully because all he wanted was to be loved. That girl you thought who was ugly because of her braces, she wore that special dress so that you notice her. You see that man with only one arm, he risked his life for his country. You see that kid who can't hear, he only wants to play with you and smile. You see that old lady who is blind, she only wants to feel a touch of love. You see, we all have the capability to look beyond looks. We have the ability to love and to care and maybe for just that one moment, become selfless. We all can change. We all can be better. No matter how many wars we fight, no matter how many bad things we do, we have the ability to become better. To accept the ugly and realize that Ugly is truly beautiful. We humans are a complicated species. We all know that. But trust Me, beyond all that hate, beyond all the ugliness vengeance gives you, there is love in all of us. Sometimes, more than forgiving others, we must forgive ourselves for the things we do. We must look past our ugliness and see that we are beautiful too. :-)

So you see, in the end, it is not the dresses we wear. Or the make-up we apply. Or the riches we have. In the end, it is all about how good we are and how we treat others and love them and accept them for their flaws. No one is perfect but sometimes, people just want to be appreciated. For that one moment, they want to feel special. All they want is a little bit of your love. God created us in his own image not because we could kill each other over land, race or religion. He gave us the strongest ability in the universe. The ability to love and accept and appreciate. So you see, no matter how much hatred we have in us, we also have the ability to love. Yes My friends, we all have the ability to accept our own ugliness and look beyond it. Even Lucifer once was loved by many and he was banished because he loved god too much. Even he was once an angel and you know what, he still us. The only difference is that he has no one to tell him that. No one to remind him that he has love too. But you all do. You all have that love in you. I know what I have to do in my life and not all My choices will be beautiful. Some may be ugly too. But I will really try to one day forgive Myself for My Ugliness and accept Myself for the person I am and see that Ugly was always beautiful. The question is, will you?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and these are My Stories. These are My Struggles. These are My moments with You.

Sunday, 18 March 2012

Imagine you are in a fight. A Boxing match. Facing none other than the Great Mohammad Ali. The odds are against you. Everyone is betting against you. Ali in his prime versus a chump who just got his name picked up due to a lucky draw. The entire world is waiting for the bell to ring and to see how fast does the Great Ali bring this guy down. The bell rings and before you know it, you get the Right Hook, followed by an Uppercut and then in Seconds ... It's Lights Out! The crowd cheers and the commentators say that this is the fastest knockout in the history of boxing! The referee is doing the 10 count. 1! 2! 3! ... The world knows you won't get up because you can't because they know you don't have what it takes. After all you are just a chump. But then, something happens. Something incredible. The crowd goes quiet. The commentators are speechless and Ali himself can't believe what he is seeing. He doesn't see his opponent on the ground but standing tall on his two feet waving to him that I am still standing! Let's do this one more time. Ladies and Gentlemen, that Man did fall but He rose again! And that Man is in All of US!!! ...

I am not a motivational speaker and neither I am a preacher. In fact, I am the most selfish person you will ever meet! And I know that every week when I write these Blogs, I write something that has already been written or something that I haven't. To be honest, My Blogs reflect who I am. So in a way, all of you get to see the Real Me from time to time. I am not a social animal, so I get to meet only a few new faces from time to time. But whenever I do, eventually after all the hi's and hello's and the flirting and sex talks, I ask the main questions. Questions which I ask Myself everyday. And 99% of these 'new faces' don't wanna answer Me because they think these questions are too heavy-duty. They say, why think so much when you can enjoy the normalities of life. I still remember 3 years ago I met this friend and I asked her these same questions and she told Me that I am a very unhappy person and I am not enjoying life and one day, if I live like this, life will just slither by Me and I will die alone. Even today, people somewhat give Me the same answers. Some say, 'chill', while others say, 'love people because love conquers all'. I hear all those 'opinions' and 'statements' everyday but I can't apply them because no matter how hard I try, that voice inside of Me tells Me otherwise.

I believe there are 2 kinds of people in this world. One who ask the questions and one who don't wanna find the answers. One who make a living and one who choose to live. One who wait for love and one who choose to fight. I guess I am the fighter. Since day one, it has always been about fighting for Me. I love to fight. Maybe that is why I love MMA so much! I face hurdles everyday! And even right now, I am fighting My thoughts. I guess 'War' is like a drug for Me and I need it more than love. Call Me crazy but this is who I am. I know I am not perfect, I know I am not goody-two-shoes but I know that I have the urge to fight and win! I know what pain feels like. I know what Anger and Hate do to a person. I know what humiliation and rejection means. I know how it feels to be alone in the Darkness. I know it all. But I also know that I have the Will. The will to fight and no matter how many times I am knocked down, I know that deep within Me is the fire to get up again because life isn't only about getting up every time you fall. it is about kicking-asses once you do stand up again!

I know that My life is different than yours. But it is somewhat similar too. So what if your best friend will eventually leave you? In the end, we all end up alone, don't we? So what if that one person doesn't forgive you for your actions? We all live with our choices, don't we? So what if you are neglected by your peers because they find someone else who is more popular and more profitable and suitable for their needs? You will find your own way. So what life chooses us to carry it's burden? We make our Shoulders stronger! So what if we fall from time to time? I say we rise again! Imagine life as Mohammad Ali and the Audience as the people who will come and go in your life. Life will hit you, beat you to a pulp and still won't stop, even when you are in the ground. But no matter how hard it gets, if you have the will to stand up and face life head-on all over again, it will be amazed by your Spirit. By Your Courage. And by Your Will! I am not saying that the audiences will love you but I know they will respect you! I know that Ali may even the fight due to the judges decision but Ali will know that this was the only guy who went 15 rounds, pound to pound with Me and in the end, he will come to you and shake hands with you. So you see My readers, life is just not about Accepting that you Fell. It is about having the Will to Rise every time you fall. And Kick-Ass! I know I do it every single day. The question is ... Do you?

Monday, 12 March 2012

Sorry for the delay. I was suppose to submit My blog yesterday but I didn't and although I know this isn't a court-room drama, I will still layout My defense. Yesterday, early morning, I had gone to the DNA Women's Marathon and by the time I was back, I was so tired that I slept throughout the day. When I woke up, I went to My younger brother's, best friend's, cousin sister's wedding reception and by the time we came back, we had to sleep because from today, the Shooting of Enemmy resumed. I am right now, in the vanity van, waiting for My Shot and writing this Blog. I really hope you understand. Speaking of NGOs. I am now a part of Save The Children India. I went to their School the other day and I was completely in love with the place and the noble cause these few individuals are giving their lives too! For more details, you can go to www.savethechildrenindia.org And speaking of Movies, My Film, Tukkaa Fitt has become a Trending Topic on twitter and for more news on Tukkaa Fitt, just go to twitter and search Tukkaa Fitt by typing this #TukkaaFitt. I would really like to talk more about the NGO I am now a part of and also about Tukkaa Fitt, since it is coming out soon but I know that I will have many more opportunities in the near future to do so.

And now, we begin …

Just for the record, the Brownies I am mentioning do not have any getting-high' substances so whoever thought so, I am sorry for the disappointment. {chuckles} We all like sugar. We all love deserts and trust Me, chocolate brownies are one of My favorites. They are one of those few cravings which I wait every week to have. But these brownies are better. These are the brownies I get from the guy upstairs. You know, God. Ya, God himself. Now you will ask Me, how do I get direct access to him? Well,whenever I am in doubt, I call for him and with the powers that he has, he always answers Me. So this is how it all began. This was I think a couple of years ago. I was doing the usual. You know, Training and Dieting and waiting for that Special Moment. But slowly slowly, I was starting to get very impatient because no matter what I did, I wasn't getting what I wanted. So one day, all tired and frustrated, I asked for God to answer to Me and fix My problems. As promised, he showed up and then he told Me, "Mahaakshay, I understand that you are upset. That you think that you are not getting your due while everyone else is. That you feel left out. But My son, you shouldn't feel this way because something great is about to happen with you." I told him that you always say these things to all those you have created. What makes you think I will fall for that? And he said, "Listen My son, I have created everyone equal. Yet some of you excel more than the others. Do you wanna know why? It is because they cash in Their Brownie Points." I asked what are Brownie Points? He said, Humans ask for many things. They have unlimited desires and wants and no matter how much they get, they always want more. So in order to give them what they want, I created the Brownie Points System. And the Brownie System is very simple. All you have to do is ask for what you want and once you have ordered you have to see how much the brownie points are. For example, if you want that New Car, you will have to earn 10,000 Brownie Points. If you want that House you have dreamed of, you will have to earn 20,000 Brownie Points and so and on. And then I asked how do I earn these points? And all he did, was smile … :-)

He smiled and I figured it out. Now, all I had to do was … Give. Trust Me, there is no other way. I mean, I could had made you wait and anticipate what the answer was but no need for all of that because I think all of you also know what the answer is. And that is Giving. Giving is the way. It is the answer, it is the solution and it is the only way to got those Brownie Points. So, I started giving more. Whether it was Blood, sweat or tears. I gave and I kept on giving. And yes, even though it was grueling and it was tough, I never stopped because every night, I would check how many points I earned. The more points I earned, the more I came closer in making my dreams come true. And guess what finally happened when I cashed in on 3 Billion Brownie Points? Well, I got Haunted 3D! And it felt amazing! It felt so good in EARNING what you wanted. And since that day forth, I realized that all that is earned is proven to be righteous! So here I am, still earning My Brownie Points because I still have many Dreams which I want to turn into realities. Whether it is making My Family proud of Me or whether it is working 24/7, I still have many things on My need-to-do-list. So yes, before I go, all I can say is that we all Pray to have everything in the world but what will make those prayers come true? The answer is: Brownie Points. I cash in My Brownie Points from time to time. The question is … do you? :-)

Sunday, 4 March 2012

How should I start this blog? I mean, should I do a shout-out feature? Or should I dedicate this Blog to someone? To be honest, this week, only one thing is going around in My mind. That sound the bottle makes when you open it. You know, 'Pop'! What I am trying to say is that when you open the bottle, when you hear that sound, there is no going back for that bottle. I mean, you can close the lid but you can't un-pop the bottle you know. That is the state I am in now. I am right now facing My truth. I am right now face to face with My true self. And no matter how good it feels to know the truth, it is scaring the shit out of Me! I have tried to have this conversation with so many people, you know about why we are here, where we are going and all I get as answers are, "Mahaakshay, chill! Why are you so serious? Relax. Enjoy life! Don't be so philosophical." Basically, I never got any answers from anyone. So I started asking this question to Myself. Everyday, I asked these same questions to Myself. I never got any answer. I tried going to quiet places, Holy places, places where sages have been before. Spent more time with children and the elderly. Still, No answer. I thought maybe this is the answer, that there is no answer. That life consists of only questions and the answers only appear to us in the after life when we will be judged. So as time passed by I started forgetting the questions, I started forgetting that I also ever asked them. I was becoming like the people who told Me all those things. And I also started behaving like them. Life was moving on. Time wasn't stopping. And I thought, man, I think I was at fault. I shouldn't be thinking so much. But then suddenly, it happened …

Ya. Somewhere between My responsibilities, My duties, My Faults, My Mistakes and My Strengths and Weaknesses, I heard that sound. And then suddenly, all the other sounds disappeared. No one else was seen. Words meant no meaning and all I could feel … was peace. Even right now, as I am writing this blog, I can feel that truth all around Me. That Truth which reminds Me who I truly am. And no mater how much Love I get, no matter how much Hate I observe, deep down, inside of Me, I know who I am. And this is who I will always be. A while back I wrote a Blog in which I said that we are who we are and I second that notion once again this time because it is true. We can run away from the truth the world throws at us but we can't run away from the truth that is inside us 24/7. Trust Me, I have tried but I always go back to My origins. I used to first feel very scared of it. I used to tell Myself, that I can be better than who I am. But you know what, accepting your truth, accepting who you truly are is the best version of who you can ever be! I guess that is the reason I heard that sound. That sound which made Me realize that I was complete the whole time. Just that I didn't come to terms with it. But not anymore am I running from it …

I am a part of the Indian Film Industry where whatever we do reflects us as human beings. I have been learning that for a very long time, so, in order to get more Fan following and admirers we start to fake ourselves. We show only the good side of ourselves so that the world sees us as these Perfect beings who can never be flawed. But I am not like that and I will never be like that. I am proud to be who I am and the truth is that I am flawed. But there is another truth, and that is I know My flaws and I am working on them. Making them go away one by one. One of My friends told Me that I am showing too much hate in My blogs and also in My tweets. Well, I don't know what to say to that. I am not a hateful person but yes, My true self embraces the Hate. I am a Fighter. Always have been, always will be and when you are fighting for yourself, love won't get you anymore. In a recent interview with Enlighten Magazine, I told them Love can be manipulated for more reasons than one. But Hate is pure and I see that today. On twitter, I have many people who love Me and I have the equal amount of people who hate Me. And since that 'Pop' sound, I kinda like them both. They say, 'The Truth Sets You Free.' Yes, it has indeed set Me free, for now, I know who I am. There are many names you can call Me. Complicated, Loner, Weird, Boring, Selfish and so on. But I like calling Myself Mahaakshay because I know that I am many things and in the same time I am not what people want Me to be.

I don't know what war you are fighting. I don't know what you are going through. I hope someday I do. But until I do, I will pray that you hear that sound too. That you find your Truth too. Trust Me, we all are here for a purpose and we all are unique in our own ways. It doesn't matter what the world calls you. People will always have opinions. Let them talk. Some will do it because they think they are better than you. Some will do it because they care. But trust Me, once that bottle pops, none of those opinions will matter because you will know the one thing that you always wanted to know … the Truth. Trust Me, accepting the Truth is scary. it takes you to a place where you are too afraid to go but before I go I ask you this, do you want to live a life which is based on a lie that you created because you were too afraid or do you want the Truth which will set you free? … The choice is yours …

About Me

Hi, I am Mahaakshay Chakraborty. I am an Actor. I am from Mumbai. I love Movies and everything about them. I am also learning Mixed Martial Arts as a Professional Sport and I believe in the Power of Giving. :-)