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If there’s anything that I’m struggling to accept over the years, it’s that nobody wins all the time.

I used to believe that if I work hard, I can have anything that I want. Anything is achievable as long as I dedicate enough hard work and effort. Everything is within my reach as long as I am committed enough to work towards it.

Perhaps this was a part of my growing up. I tend to think that things don’t happen for me because I am not praying hard enough, or I have to work hard in order to succeed. I don’t have to be envious of anyone as long as I do the same things that they do, I can achieve the results that they have achieved.

However, that is often not the case. Many times I had to suffer disappointment and heart break because, simply, nobody wins all the time.

Life has a way of fixing itself. The more you try to align something, the more it deviates from you. If something is really meant for you, there is nothing that can stand in your way. Maybe it has something to do with luck, or maybe it’s fate.

I can’t accept that. I always end up being very jaded because when I don’t get something, I feel that the fault lies with me. I must have done something wrong somewhere, otherwise this can’t be happening to me.

We often try to control and manipulate situations so that we get to benefit from it. Nobody is ever contented with losing. There is a part of us that wants to be in control of every situation. We draw lines and make precautionary measures so that we don’t ever have to find ourselves at the losing end.

This is a tough lesson to learn. I have been through this so many times, and I am still learning.
Nobody wins all the time, sometimes we have to let go of things that we know we can’t have.

Yet, we also hold on tightest to the things that we can’t have,
But that’s only because we know we will never get to have, or experience it again.