The path we were on was completely unmarked for us. But, it was not unknown to God.

Eighteen days past surgery, September 16th, with all the dips and turns in this valley we were going through, we continued to trust that God was sovereignly in control and was holding my life in His hands and would sustain us through this time of darkness.Jon cried out to God and shared these words as I was put back to sleep and re-intubated:

I need to go for
a long walk here and process lots. I will have more answers around 4:00 or 5:00
this afternoon.

A collaborated doctor decision to move forward proactively and
really take necessary steps to improve Rebekah's condition quicker and break
this endless cycle that will not fully happen by managing with BiPAP machine
for days or weeks has been approved and is underway now.

TPN was something they
were going to try later today to feed with nourishment through IV and wait to
see if she regained enough strength to work harder at breathing and physio
program. Her oxygen levels are fine but weakness due to lack of food because of
BiPAP risks and being too sleepy with rising CO2 gasses has her unable to get
the deep breaths she needs to strengthen and really naturally keep her gas
levels down.Around noon
today Rebekah has been put back to sleep with the breathing tube. They can also
get food to her stomach and not worry about IV intervention with TPN. Watching
her fall asleep was difficult and I have to have to go and just talk this one
out with God.The doctors now
can do the scheduled cat scan of her chest at 2:00 and also do a scope on her
lung to assess it much more accurately. An echo was done this morning of her
heart. An ultrasound of her lung was done too. The ultrasound revealed no fluid
buildup so thescope is necessary to
know what is going on for sure. The cat scan will reveal if there is any
infection and if so they can grow a culture and provide the best antibiotic to
clear that up. If there are parts of the lung that have decreased in function
since the operation they can treat that also much better to help wake them up.

Rebekah may be sleeping for the next couple of days. Not fully sure on that
yet. This will certainly prolong our stay here but the way it was wasn't going
anywhere either.

She is relaxed and I was able to comfort and
reassure her of God's power and His control over all of this even thoughthis time in the valley is long, hard, and
full of uncertainty.I'm okay with
watching my tears fall 23 floors from my balcony at the hotel down onto Gerrard
St. because as I battle to give up my worry and release my anxiousness I know
God will supply my every need and I will cling to and claim His promise to
sustain me.

When Elijah was ready to give up and go no further, God sent the
ravens to nourish him and keep him going. Our God has not changed!