thinspo, my weightloss story

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Hi there, this is my update for today (06/09/14), I was shopping today so burnt calories walking around but I was also hanging so ate way way waaaaay too much and am quite annoyed but oh well, there’s always tomorrow.

Breakfast: (I ATE BROWN TOAST FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS AND BUTTER! I was hungover so needed it, I didn’t manage to eat the whole piece though as I felt so sick). 1 piece of brown bed 110kcal, butter 11kcal, tea with 2 sugars (no milk) 50kcal.

Sorry for the late update, please see a previous post for reasons. I will try and get some scheduled for you lovely lot.

Here is my update for yesterday (05/09/14), it was bad and I didn’t write it in but I drunk a lot of alcohol and got extremely drunk and unfortunately I didn’t record how much I drunk but it meant I definitely went over my allowance- the problem of uni.

Evening beautifuls,
Today I commuting into university via train which took me around an hour and a half. I woke up throughout the night multiple times including at 4.30am when I was starving hungry. If this ever happened to me before this lifestyle change I would’ve gone downstairs and eaten something small but I didn’t. Unfortunately I stupidly didn’t have any water in my room either so that was an error. I did manage to get to sleep again and wake up 2 minutes before my alarm went off.

Then, on the train this morning I had to stand due to lack of seats and ended up feeling a bit light headed. It went off and I headed to my lecture. Lectures were ok and my stomach didn’t actually rumble that much- it did once then stopped luckily so I didn’t have the embarrassment- phew! I was a bit annoyed because my frozen raspberries melted with a lot more water than originally anticipated and so I couldn’t eat them. I was even more annoyed because on the way home on the train, my stomach was rumbling SO much and I was so hungry and so… I had to eat my emergency cake bar- 199kcal of pure fat. Gutted. Get it? It’s now situated on my gut. Great.

I think this means that today is my worst day- partly because I didn’t do my JustDance exercise and my lasagne was probably not 600kcal but I would rather overestimate calories than under. Today has been a bit of a roller-coaster on the food and hunger front today. I felt exceptionally starving at least twice and was absolutely exhausted when I returned home after commuting but I FORCED myself on the treadmill and enjoyed it none the less. I am going to keep going because I am strong and motivated. No amount of shops and smells wafting over me in London can push me off the rails. I am on the line the fitness and beauty.

As the third day of my diet, it hasn’t really been all that bad. There has been at least ten times throughout my day when I could’ve eaten something/bought something- AMT at my town railway station, at King’s Cross where there is around 20 different food/drink outlets, walking through London Bridge where there is a crispy kreme donut van situated perfectally, luring in customers with their delicious smell, the McDonald’s pretty much on my campus, the campus cafe, at lunchtime when my friends suggested walking to Tesco express and I was surrounded by sandwiches and chocolate of all sorts and had to watch them as they bought sandwiches and pasta with 600kcal in (made me feel a bit sick)- seven that is and remember I had to walk past 5 of these twice. Why is it that the confectionery/food industry want us to be fat just for their profit? Well.. they can do one. I am not falling for their pathetic initial charm and delight and then long term fat and disappointment. I HATE YOU FOOD INDUSTRY, YOU SUCK.

Food is supposed to be a friend but the way they coerce you into buying their product and become fat and crave that product again and you spend money and get bigger and bigger and unhealthy and eventually die from hyperglycaemia (high sugar), type 2 diabetes mellitus or a myocardial infarction (heart attack).

Anyway, rant over and tomorrow is a new day. I am going shopping tomorrow and out to lunch so it will be interesting if I can stick to my low calorie diet plan!

Oh and one more thing I am proud to announce. I am officially 10st 13lbs! I cannot believe it. I am absolutely and utterly delighted. The fact I have lost like 4lbs in 3 days is crazy. For all you people who think I am starving myself to get like this and when I go back to eating ‘normally’ all the weight will pile back on- *NEWSFLASH* I am never going back to eating ‘normally’ because clearly, my idea of normal was not good for my body. I remember often at lunchtimes (were the worst) I would eat two pieces of cheese on white toast with chilli sauce beneath and salami, sweetcorn and pepper on top. I would still feel hungry after this and would reach for a yogurt, then two digestive biscuits and would still feel hungry. I would then eat an apple plus dried raisins (A lot!) and then a hot chocolate. Every weekend was the same and so this is where the extra fat on my thighs, arms and stomach has come from and I can’t believe I was stupid enough not to do anything, regardless of the fact I hated my body. It was like I’d given up. So now, I am paying for that but not for long. I will be my goal weight and these three days have already began to prove that I can do it.

So lets go!

Jessica xo

For those people who don’t believe me about my new weight and also to prove to myself that this has actually happened!

Scarlett Johansson is my second celebrity girlcrush because she is gorgeous. She has an amazing body- thin waist but curvy. I particularly like the photo of her in the green pencil skirt and beige jumper with blonde hair. I like her because she has green eyes like I do and I got my tragus pierced partly because she does :).

Not only is JL an amazingly talented actress but she’s also intelligent and down to earth. I like that she isn’t stick thin too, she has curves and of course she is beautiful no matter what she is wearing!

*Motivation* When you have a thin body, you can wear whatever you want and still look gorgeous, as JL demonstrates above.