something about my family brings out my 12-year-old self. that isn’t fair. i believe in taking responsibility and me acting like a child is not my family’s fault…it is a decision (conscious or otherwise) i make when we interact.

it is most pronounced with my sister. i noticed it a few years back and have been working on it – regardless of how successful that has been or whether anyone has noticed…that isn’t the point. the point is that i am trying to figure out what it is that makes me so insecure with the people who love me most. i find myself taking things personally in way that i don’t with folks outside that circle. i find myself defensive at the slightest provocation – intended or not.