Meditation on bookmarks

I was browsing my bookmarks accumulated over a couple of years, both on the browser and in sites devoted to saving and organizing them. Like many people, I added bookmarks as pointers to pages which are interesting to read but reading which I postponed or for pages I’d already read which I wished to keep for some still not clear future use.

At the time when I added the bookmarks, the pages seemed revealing or interesting and the themes involved worth pursuing more deeply. Then just a few of them had the same appeal after some time. Looks like the mind’s creativity, in order to develop something, has to fecundate many ideas, as in pro-creativity where just one sperm cell among millions will fuse with the ovule.

It was revealing to see how mental interests have a transitory nature, how we can get driven by them, how we go to a certain extent following their path and then drop them. Meditation practices are about being aware of the mind’s addiction with thoughts and then coming back to concentrating on something, for instance on the breath. In meditation we can be taken away by any kind of thought and it can take some time before we become aware that we have been hijacked and taken far from our concentration. The very awareness of being sidetracked is somehow the essence of meditation.

Satprem quotes Mère on the mind’s nature saying, “They are [a] world of suggestions. There come[s] the wave of a suggestion and then everything is frightening, then the wave of another suggestion and everything is romantic, then another one and everything is beautiful.”

When we are on the Internet the structure of links is a metaphor of the mind’s functioning which jumps from one branch to another. But when we are following mental stimulations on the Net we are not in a meditation practice and we have more difficulties in focusing internally and in letting go of the mind’s suggestions. Internet technology has a peculiar way of feeding the attachment to mental material.

At the same time there are mechanisms to simulate the detachments of the same, for instance through sharing our “own” bookmarks with others in social networks or letting our writings wander around on the Web. But what’s different with a real letting go is that we get detached from one mental stimulation to go to another, and never come back to the observing awareness which can drive us back to our center.

Since the mind’s contents are transitory in themselves, we can easily understand why Web sites and Web applications have a transitory nature as well. What was hip and “wired” a few months earlier quickly becomes “tired.” We know that once the novelty is gone, neurophysiologically, we don’t get the same “high” as before. Becoming interested in anything new is an ancient mechanism of our nervous system which rewards our attention to novelties that could be potentially threatening.

The process of digitalization of reality includes more and more human activities, among them connections with people through social networks and dating sites. I wonder if this attitude of being interested in something and then being pulled in other directions, always for something “new” is leading to considering human beings as another mental whim, given the number of “friends” people have in social sites and the ease with which they can add or delete them.

Object relations psychology tells us that we project our emotional relationships on other people and even on objects, and it seems that the online world is well suited to feeding mental projections on others, since we have less reality checks and our imagination can go unobstructed.