It’s not every day I actually get to visit Jin while he’s working, so now that I actually have an opportunity, there was no way I was going to turn it down. I always love Bangtan’s music videos, and it would be really cool to see what they look like before the green screens and impressive editing. He texted me the location this morning and asked me to come by, so coffee in hand, wearing one of the jackets he had “accidentally” left at my house one time, I decided to take him up on his offer and pay my wonderful boyfriend a visit.

“Ah, jagi, I’m so glad you came!” He said when he saw me, pressing his lips to my forehead and admiring how I looked in his denim.

“How could I not? I don’t get to see you every day, so I should pay you visits whenever possible.” He smiled and kissed me again, this time on my nose.

“Ah, my jagi is so sweet.” He held onto my hand and lead the way through the set, explaining the concept for the video in great detail. Their album was playing over speakers loud enough so that you could hear it from anywhere in the room, and I could see that across the space the rapper line were recording in front of a green screen. There were people scattered everywhere, from stylists who would occasionally stop Jin to check his makeup, to the countless producers, all talking into microphones in code.

“It’s so much busier than I had expected.”

“Yeah, there’s a lot more people here than there usually are.” We spotted the maknae line sprawled out on a couch, V and Jungkook laughing at some video on V’s phone, and Jimin trying to make conversation with a girl who didn’t exactly look like staff. When they noticed us, they gestured for us to join them, which we did.

“Hey Y/N, it’s been too long!” Jimin said, pausing his discussion with the girl in the school uniform to give me a quick hug. “I’m glad you came today, it’s always great to see you.”

“It’s nice to see all of you guys too.” I said sweetly, Jin squeezing my hand slightly and pulling me away from Jimin and closer to him.

“It hasn’t been that long since you’ve all seen each other. Besides,” he said softly, smiling down at me and kissing the top of my head. “Y/N came here for me and not you guys.”

“You shouldn’t be so jealous Jin Oppa.” The girl said, bowing her head slightly. “Although it is wonderful to meet you, Y/N. Oppa was talking about you a lot this morning, only nice things of course.”

“Was he now?” I said, not even trying to hide the shy smile that appeared.

“Yes, and from what he was saying you sound like a wonderful girl. He’s lucky to have you.” She said bowing her head again. “I’m Sunny, by the way.”

“Pleasure to meet you.” I said, nodding once before turning back to Jin. I was now unable to cover up the annoyance at how impossibly beautiful the girl was, so I hid my face in his chest, my free hand clutching onto his shirt.

“Well, you kind of came at a bad time, jagi. I have to start filming for my verse as soon as Yoongi is finished.” He gestured towards the green screen, where Suga was acting in front of a camera, mouthing along with the lyrics. When he was done, the maknae line all went to go and annoy him, leaving me, Jin, and the girl prettier than me alone.

“It’s fine, I can just wait here and watch you from afar.” He pulled my head upwards so he could give me a quick, soft kiss on the lips, one of the producers walking up and requesting that he and Sunny go over to the green screen to start filming. I pouted, biting the inside of my lip and trying not to pay too much attention as Jin began serenading a girl that wasn’t me. It bothered me how his hands so gently touched her face, how her blush was so genuine, how he stared directly into her eyes as he sang along to the song blaring overhead.

I don’t get it. How can he have such pure expressions? I curled and uncurled my fingers making the joints crack each time I clenched my fist. At the end of his verse, she stands up on her tiptoes to get a kiss and I can’t even look. I know he wouldn’t actually kiss her. I KNOW that. But it still doesn’t feel good to have such a pretty girl so close to my boyfriend. Slumped over, I closed my eyes and hid my face in my hands, trying to pretend he wasn’t over there fake-flirting with another girl.

I only sat up straight again when the director yelled ‘cut!’ sending a wave of relief over me that it was over, even if just for now. Looking up, I saw Jin walking back towards me with a water bottle in hand, smiling sweetly.

“I’m all done for the day, unfortunately I still can’t leave which means we’ll just have to stick around here for a while.”

“That’s fine.” I said, pulling his hand so he was on the couch beside me, immediately snuggling against his body, my fingers still intertwined with his. I normally wouldn’t be so affectionate when we’re surrounded by people, but I couldn’t help myself. Jin seemed surprised by my decision to cuddle in public, but even so, he still wrapped an arm around my shoulders and pulled me even closer.

“You look really cute today, by the way jagi. You’re practically drowning in the jacket, but it looks so perfect on you. Better than it does on me by a long shot.”

“I love you.” I blurted out, making him even more surprised than the sudden cuddling did. I’m not someone who says that a lot, especially not without him saying it first, but right now I just couldn’t hold it back.

“Jagi, is there something wrong? You’re acting weird.”

“There’s nothing wrong, I just missed moments like this.” I squeezed his body tighter, resting my head on his shoulder, eyes closed.

“Are you sure that’s it?”

“Yes, Jin.” So we stayed like that, not talking but still completely comfortable to just sit quietly in each other’s arms. Occasionally he would rub his hand up and down my arm gently, or place random kisses on my face, but for the most part we were still and quiet. At least until I heard a vaguely familiar voice and opened my eyes. There she was, the pretty girl who made me feel this jealousy in the pit of my stomach. I sighed as she walked over, all smiles and waves and that cute little dimple on her right cheek.

“Oppa! I know the directors said you were done, but they want to do a group shot really quick before we take a break for lunch.”

“Oh, okay. I’ll be right over.” She flashed him a million dollar smile before turning away, that skirt and those stockings doing too many favors for her. I pouted and clung onto Jin as he tried to get up and follow her. “Aigo, Y/N, you know I want to stay, but I can’t.”

“Just wait a minute. Please. I’m not ready to let go yet.” His eyebrows furrowed as his arms hung lazily around my waist, waiting for me to explain further. When I didn’t, he sighed and decided to ask me directly.

“I already told you, I just miss spending lots of time with you. You know how affectionate I can get after you go on tours and stuff.”

“But that’s different. This is you not letting me do my job because you want to cuddle.”

“Are you mad at me?” He pulled away and shook his head.

“Of course not. Well, not about the cuddling thing.”

“Then what are you mad about?”

“The fact that you won’t tell me what’s wrong.” I took a deep breath.

“How could you be so natural when you were filming with her? I don’t get it. I know I could never look so longingly at another guy when I’m so hopelessly attracted to you.” He bit his lower lip lightly, obviously trying to figure out how to explain. “I get that she’s prettier than me and-”

“That’s not it, Y/N. Not even close.” He put a hand on my cheek and kissed me softly, almost as though he was afraid to be anything less than gentle. “I can only look at her like that, because when I’m up there I pretend she’s you.”

“Wait, really?” His cheeks were slightly pink as he nodded, his confirmation making me blush as well. I kissed him, this kiss being much deeper than his previous one.

“So then,” He said with a smirk on his face as we pulled away. “I’ll be sure to serenade you later, when we get home and continue this blissful cuddle session.”

“Promise?” He stood up, kissing the back of my hand just before it fell out of his.

“I promise. Whatever you want, princess.” I smiled and watched as he walked away, the ache of jealousy in my stomach replaced with butterflies.