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Friday, April 03, 2009

Let go, Get over, Move on.

"Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart ; Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart ; Gotta pick myself up, where do I start ; Coz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart." - The Veronicas, When It All Falls Apart.

Soo last night was probably one of the worst nights of my life so far. I know this sounds super dramatic, but in a way, it was kind of life changing.Last night I lost a friend.She's not dead.But she seems to be. I don't know her anymore.I'm probably dead to her too.I didn't understand how she could sit there stony faced when we were "talking". She was doing most of the talking, but's that's never been different. I was blubbing (I do that alot ;p) and I knew I would. I didn't know how she couldn't understand how I felt. It kind of struck me that probably she didn't care anymore. It hurts.But I've accepted that she's moved on from me. That's okay.I still love her, and I'll still always support her. It's gonna be WEIRD from now on, but I think it'll be okay.This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. So far in my life, anyway.I can only hope for the best for her in her own life. In the meantime, I have to get on with my own.

I need you guys. And I need you to do me a favor.Don't ask me if I'm okay about it, because I won't be for a while. Treat me like you would normally, I would appreciate that. If I want to tell you about it, I will. If I don't, then I don't.Thanks guys. (:I still love you.God bless.