At the moment I feel like much of what I express comes out completely different than how I anticipate. It's uncomfortable. It's looks and sounds totally different. It's frustrating.

I think I'm frustrated all the way around. I'm seeing progress but I feel like the shit getting squeezed out of a caulking gun... only so much of me actually gets produced with so much pressure to be free behind all of me. I guess that's what happens when effort is focused but the last thing I feel is focus.

I need a relaxing release. Nothing too vigorous that would bring upon fatigue, just something to remind me that I'm alive and provide a sanity check.