Last night while I was trying to sleep;
My sonís voice I did hear.
I opened my eyes and looked around
But he did not appear.
He said, ďMom youíve got to listen,
Youíve got to understand,
God didnít take me from you, Mom,
He only took my hand.
When I called out in pain that night,
The instant that I died,
He reached down and took my hand,
And pulled me to His side.
He pulled me up and saved me
From the misery and pain.
My body was hurt so badly inside,
I could never be the same.
My search is really over now,
Iíve found happiness within.
All the answers to my empty dreams
and all that might have been.
I love you so and miss you so,
And Iíll always be nearby.
My bodyís gone forever,
But my spirit will never die!
And so, you must go on now,
Live one day at a time.
Just understand-
God did not take me from you,
He only took my hand.Ē
~ Author Unknown

These are two beautiful and loving gifts to Angel Christopher from my dear friend, Carol, mom to Angel Michael.

These four wonderful gifts for Angel Christopher are from my friend Marie.You can visit her website for her son Rob here ~ Rob Northrop's Site.

Letter to Mom

Mom, please don't feel guilty
It was just my time to go.
I see you are still feeling sad,
And the tears just seem to flow.

We all come to earth for our lifetime,
And for some it's not many years
I don't want you to keep crying
You are shedding so many tears.

I haven't really left you
Even though it may seem so.
I have just gone to my heavenly home,
And I'm closer to you than you know.

Just believe that when you say my name
I'm standing next to you,
I know you long to see me,
But there's nothing I can do.

But I'll still send you messages
And hope you understand,
That when your time comes to "cross over",
I'll be there to take your hand.

Written by Joy Curnutt,
always Jason's Mom

We are now
Grandparents. Our beautiful granddaughter was due on my son Chris' birthday on
January
13th but came on her own birthday, December 30th. She weighed 7lbs 10ozs and was
201/2
inches. Her name is Olivia Gayle Dilworth. We are thankful for Olivia to be in our lives.....Granny Carol and Grandpa Mike

Since losing Chris going on nineteen years, it seems like there wasn't much to
smile about but I have to tell everyone that now we have Olivia. No, she
certainly won't take Chris' place, but will only add to the joy of our lives
that we are forced to live without him. Dawn, Olivia's Mom also lost her only
sister, killed by a drunk driver so now that leaves
Dawn and my son Marc the only siblings on both sides. Chris and Jennifer are
both looking down and smiling, we are sure. I live with and am thankful for all
of the memories that Chris
left for us. Those are our gifts that will last forever!!! Carol and Mike Schuh
Loving Parents to
Christopher M. Schuh, 1-13-79**5-3-98

This is Christopher's cat FatJack who passed away just recently. We are just devastated.............there are cats in Heaven?????
I certainly hope so!!!!!

You asked about "special" Christmas cards and I will tell you about mine.
My son Chris died on May 3, 1998. Two years ago I came accross a picture of him
when he was in our church Christmas program at 2 1/2. He was wearing a halo
standing in front of the church's Christmas tree. I printed these pictures and included them in our Christmas card. I
just typed his name, birthdate and Angel date.

Last year I remembered just how much Chris loved and enjoyed the story of the
Little Drummer Boy as a small child and in his high school years. I found cards
with the drummer boy on them and included just how this was one of Chris'
favorite Christmas stories and I told the recipient I wished they had people in
their lives that brought them as much happiness as Chris had brought to ours in
his short lifetime.(19)

When Chris was in the 3rd grade they had to write about their favorite recipe.
Chris' was Gingerbread men. After he was finished writing he asked if he could
make some and take them to the kids in his class. I have already found Christmas
cards with Gingerbreadmen on them. I am explaining Chris' love for them and
include the recipe with them. We live in a small town (2400) and being an import
hasn't been easy, but the community couldn't be any closer than when a child died. We have quite a few families that have lost children. In my one small
block (5 houses) including the next street over that are across our backyards (8
total) three of us have lost children.
Thank you very much for giving me the opportunity to tell about them.

Carol Schuh Grieving Mom to Christopher M. Schuh 1-13-79----5-3-98

I Would Have Loved You Anyway

Performed by Trisha Yearwood

If I'd've known the way that this would end
If I'd've read the last page first
If I had the strength to walk away
If I'd've known how this would hurt
I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second I would change
Not a touch that I would trade
Had I known my heart would break
I'd've love you anyway

It's bittersweet to look back now
As memories withered on a vine
Just to hold you close to me
For a moment in time
I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second I would change
Not a touch that I would trade
Had I known my heart would break
I'd've love you anyway

Even if I had seen it comin'
You'd still have seen me runnin'
Straight into your arms
I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second I would change
Not a touch that I would trade
Had I known my heart would break
I would've loved you anyway
I would've loved you anyway

I Believe
Written by Skip Ewing and Donny Kees

Every now and then soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again
And itís like you havenít been gone a moment from my side
Like the tears were never cried
Like the hands of time are holding you and me
And with all my heart Iím sure weíre closer than we ever were
I donít have to hear or see, Iíve got all the proof I need
There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe

That when you die your life goes on
It doesnít end here when youíre gone
Every soul is filled with light
It never ends and if Iím right
Our love can even reach across eternity
I believe, I believe

Forever, youíre a part of me
Forever, in the heart of me
And Iíll hold you even longer if I can
The people who donít see the most
Say that I believe in ghosts
And if that makes me crazy, then I am
ĎCause I believe

That when you die your life goes on
It doesnít end here when youíre gone
Every soul is filled with light
It never ends and if Iím right
Our love can even reach across eternity
I believe, I believe

There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe

Light A Candle

And I will light a candle for you.
To shatter all the darkness and bless the times we knew.
Like a beacon in the night
The flame will burn bright and guide us on our way.
Oh, today I light a candle for you.

The seasons come and go, and I'm weary from the change.
I keep on moving on, you know it's not the same.
And when I'm walking all alone
Do you hear me call your name?
Do you hear me sing the songs we used to sing?

And I will light a candle for you.
To shatter all the darkness and bless the times we knew.
Like a beacon in the night
The flame will burn bright and guide us on our way.
Oh, today I light a candle for you.

You filled my life with wonder, touched me with surprise,
Always saw that something special deep within your eyes.
And through the good times and the bad,
We carried on with pride.
I hold onto the love and life we knew.

And I will light a candle for you.
To shatter all the darkness and bless the times we knew.
Like a beacon in the night
The flame will burn bright and guide us on our way.
Oh, today I light a candle for you.