Today was full of ups and downs. Not just between the two of us, but also between me and the world. HUHU.

I walked to school. Dropped something off JRS. And I would really like to thank the two kuya’s who were nice and started a conversation that was really fun fun.

Theeen, yun nga. I walked to school (na talaga). And after Pedro Gil, the street I mean, I saw this kuya who was selling Minion balloons. I asked him how much one was, and he told me P20. BINILI KO KAGAD.

And I walked with a big smile on my face. Minion balloon in my hand + Westlife’s When You’re Looking That in my ears + the not so hot weather = thank you :)<

Saw Adi! Played with Adi! She enjoyed my balloon. And a lot of people threatened they'd pop my balloon, and I kinda swore I'd kill them if they did. *wait for it*

Then went back to CAS. Lib. Dapat tutulog si Ken, but Papat came in and said classes were already suspended. Which kind of pissed me off, but yes, better safe nga naman and all.

And I told him the reason why I felt down all of a sudden. It's because of next week. Ahuh. More more tiis.

Called Ma'am + planned + ate.

It was raining. but I had to see Sof and Chich. And it was a nice time to bond with Saab Makkie KV and Anna + Clarvin (for a short time). Yay for us!

ITO NA. When we were still in CAS (kami ni Ken), I was holding my minion balloon and his one hand almost came off, tas narealize ko normal. Okay lang, so I did the same thing to the other had. Ayun pumutok. And I feel bad for myself… hanggang ngayon.

I'm so sorry, minion. 😥

Still, though, I'd like to thank one of the best people I've ever met. :D:D<

Thinking that back-reading would make you feel better because it reminds you of how everything was before, you’re wrong. Definitely.

Because it will only make you crave for more love than what there is now – if there still is love.

It will make you see the difference of then and now, and clearly show you the transition of how everything was great and lovely and just wonderful in the first three months and how you fcked everything up so bad that you couldn’t take what “now” is anymore.

But with your foolish actions of back reading, I hope that you gear up your hopes as well to rekindle the love you were always willing to offer him, even without the demands of it being returned to you – the way it was before, remember.

It will always be hard to see how things have changed.

And it will always be a mistake to read old messages during late night. It’s like self-torture. Not like, it IS self-torture. So, try not to do it – especially when all your frustrations and confusions are orbiting your whole thoughts.

Because at the end of every hard, painful, extremely sad day, you know for yourself that despite the hundreds-thousands-millions reasons to leave, you will look for that one single small reason to fight for what you have, and stay. Stay because you want to be with him, and because he has given you happiness beyond what you thought love can give.