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so i called him today to find out when he could help me pay HIS BILLS. *not like alimony or anything* he blah blah blahed about it, and I asked him to pick up some shit of of my house and he gets all pissed at me, as if someone its MY fault that he lives in a room for rent? He has the same options as anyone. He is so fucking lucky that I am paying our bills for him. THE NERVE of him to get mad at me. He quickly starts on the same line of insults from over a year ago. I sure don’t miss that. I sure don’t miss any of that. blah.

I really need to make a decision about my last name, it makes me cry even to think about it.
I want to order business cards. i need to embrace whatever name im going to choose. the laziest way it to keep my married name. i feel like im settling, but it really is easier.

I am feeling like I want to file for divorce finally. I don’t know what I am waiting for. The money is an issue, but mostly I also know its going to hurt, like pulling off a band-aid …x1000.

I fear the finality of it all. I was in denial all those months when he lived here, and a little piece of me still hopes we could make it work. I also do not like the logistics and the financial decisions involved. I feel like I already got the rotten end of this deal, and I don’t want to pay any more than I have to.