Captivated by the rising tide, alone she stood
On a solemn piece of rock. The darkness
Lingered over; correcting her daylight.
Death in its inevitability took the form of ocean.
Amidst the fleeting light, an absence and
Neglect writhed behind her eyes,
Draining her malevolence, turning it to fear.
A tapestry of thought weaved onto her shoulder,
Lethargy strained through her. Never fighting the
Overpowering desire to sleep. One foot first,
Never look back, for the
End, is here.

Belligerent and irritated by almost any little thing
Insaneness all around me; craziness is what I bring
Psychosis is not the problem; the problem lies within
Overzealous personality; much absorption sinking in
Liar, cheat and manipulator; trust you should not give
Ambition at its lowest; no longer wanting to live
Racing thoughts; trying to unwind an ultimate goal for an unstable mind
Stacy Lynn Stiles

Broken hearts don't always heal
Regrets may break the seal
Opened then crushed
Killed by Loves demands
Erasing all hope
No longer in command
Hearts that are damaged
Eventually will slow
After life's hardships
Repairs start to show
Tossed onto a pile
Such a sad place to go
Attempting a different style. Hope you enjoy.

Mountains crumble no more to be
Oceans of woe since you left me
Thunder rolls and my heart it breaks
Humbly life ends, my soul it quakes
Everlasting grief with no mend
Reminds me daily, it will not bend
Inconceivable, this pain I bear
My love's not gone, together we'll share
In lasting glory at Jesus' feet
Serenity and grace, oh how sweet
Salvation unites on heaven's shore
Yesterday's gone, tomorrow brings more
Only a moment in time we wait
Until we meet at heaven's gate

These are the five letters you left me with:
So you are leaving, walking away,
Old wounds grate against silence.
Realizing a moment too late, what’re you doing,
Reading through all those beautiful lies,
You never meant what you said.
And, I read them, over and over again
but five small letters never seemed so big.

I will wait for you as long as it takes,
I will not let you go by making many mistakes,
I will be strong while i hold on tight,
Even if you don't care to say goodnight,
I will always want a part of you in my heart,
Even though i am already being torn apart,
I will smile and not act like nothing wrong,
I will always want you,
It's already been this long,
So if i am alone for the rest of my life,
I was waiting for you to come and let me be your wife,
I know that you will never feel the same way
I am just letting you know even how much you hate me,
I will always Stay.

How dare you take advantage of me like that ,
Leaving me stranded with no way to go forward or back.
Using the friendship that we had led me to believe,
That there was trust and honor between you and me .
How you layed me aside and left me for dead ,
You have caused these hateful thoughts inside my head.
Never could I have done this to any man ,
I can see you have no concious so I know you can.
There just one thing I really want to say about this ,
It's been a long time since I have made a clinched fist .
You have no idea how much hurt you have caused,
It won't be me you'll have to face That's up to God
But you will regret mistaking this kindness for weakness girl,
Bad Karma will surely consume you this is my word.
Yes you were able to catch me completely off gaurd ,
Never again because now I know who you are .
TAC

Could I not see such ugly drawn out choices.
Hollow I feel such nothing for people it is fear that feeds me.
Alone in this forsaken world with nothing to accept.
Order is such pain that it is nothing but chains.
Souls that bare nothing but lost cause to confusion is such utter mistakes.

P aranoia permeates, etching itself into your fractured face,
A cacophony of constant pressure; life remains a stressful race,
N othing to hope for, no positives like promotion in the workplace,
I nability to love, relationships lift anchor and set sail without chase,
C hildren crushing dreams under mortgages; age grows with disgrace
!!

(Dedicated to Folake)
Your eyes, woman
are like twilight rainbow
amorously bearing aloft passions of mine
toward androcytic ecstacy.
They tell of endless lights.
Night skies clarion the warmth of you
keep me balled-up till
i am tilted to your adorned essence.
May I call up words to adore you,
agglomerate them into a panoply of worshippers
unsandalled before you
like Moses at the burning bush.
And now you seem to fall asleep
but you tell me it's the heavy night
bidding toward a sunny dawn
wherein our love is lighted.
Slowly I let you fall asleep
impatient with the long night
waiting to gaze once more
into the eyes of my lovely love.
Then a lip is placed on yours
and you rouse up wide-eyed
smiling at my romantic move.
We enjoyed the night, cruising on.

Little babies are born
Into a world that has a
Vicious, 'Dog eat dog!'
Environment.
Long days pass
Amid the chaos of war.
Ugly scars mar beauty, while
Gaiety is almost non-existent.
How can life be so cruel?
Listen to the call for peace, to
Overcome ruthlessness.
Visualize a better life, where
Everyone lives, laughs, and loves.
~~~~~

The end of us breaks open both old and new cracks in my heart.
How come I couldn't see where my blind love would lead us,
Ending it again, you have, before our love could fully grow.
In the many, many years since I first fell in love with you,
Never did I think we'd find our love and then lose it.
Vanishing appears the only option left to me now,
Incredible loneliness once again my friend.
Surely God didn't intend our splitting?
Inside my heart you are big as ever.
But, I am a silly old romantic,
Long ago laden with love,
Ever waiting only for you.
Madness to love you?
About to find out.
Now I fade away.
Invisible...
Am I,
Me.
Going
Off
Now,
End.
10/06/12
Gone: breathless, cold, deceased, dead, departed, done, fallen, lifeless, lost, obsolete, vanished.
Invisible: concealed, discreet, hidden, inconspicuous, unnoticeable, unseen.

Memories are all I have,
Intense and suffocating.
Churned out emotions needing salves
Healed, yet unrelenting
Abject surrender to your wiles
Embittered by time
Looming reminiscence of your smiles
Sealed in my mind
Anguishing on a future lost
Grieving over what once was,
Agonizing at what it has cost
Remembering mem'ries of a distant past

Silly me to even think, for you to see me visibly as I view you to be my galaxy. Gallantly I stand before thee, wishing! Silently!
Knowingly the probability of what my imaginations has placed in front of me. You became more to me than what defines amazingly, its exactly what amazes me, left in a maze of glee though somewhat confuses me, making it so hard to express it so expressively. How could this be? When all that we were suppose to be, is nothing more than just a friend to me. Don't you agree? or maybe...
Silly me to even think, for you to see me visibly as I view you to be my galaxy. Gallantly I stand before thee, wishing! Silently!

From the perspective of the main character...
Regrettable decision that I made
Early in my life.
People calling me murderer.
Regretting that terrible day.
Everyday I look at my peers,
Having to lie to them. Secretly knowing...
Everyone knows I am hurting. I'm
Not really okay!
Still hating myself!
I can't look at myself!
Behavior slowly changing...
Incredible pain!
Living through that terrible
Event everyday.

Time that memories have not erased, sad and stuck in the cerebral
Everlasting stains like the blood one sheds on a cross from a crucifixation
Agitated at the family, friends and lovers that leave
Renegade on emotions water for the rage to calm the flame
Serenade the ground with a lonely girls tune

Pernicious weapons shall not devastate
An unvanquishable nation, an indestructible state
Lust for blood rips thousands’ bodies apart
Each slaughtered by a master of slaying art
Salvaged from inhumanity of humankind
They rise to Heaven for eternal peace of mind
Into the air, their invincible spirits float
“Never give up”, with their blood they wrote
Eternity will witness the victory we await

Rest in peace my charming friend; lo your body is now asleep but you spirit remains with us always. With our constant lively action, everything seems much more still without you here, but we shall remember and cherish you as you were-fun loving and full of life. You lit up the world around you just a little bit more with your perky attitude and bright smile.
Evening twinkles a little bit brighter with a newly gained star. A special one-of-a-kind treasure with your light of burning passion smiling down upon us as you await our arrival
Softly we hum to your memory; as we blissfully play back in our minds all the times we had with you.
Time was cruel, taking you at early twenty-one years, but we took what we could-what we were given and made the best of everything we had. Cherishing every moment and enjoying you and your hilarious antics
Invaluable you were to everyone who met you and knew you. You were an amazing person and wonderful friend who always stood by everyone’s side and helped those who needed it. Knowing how full of life you always were, it’s hard to believe that you are now parted from this life. I still see you with that glorious smile upon your face filling your eyes with a deviously mischievous twinkle…
Never did I imagine I’d be having to say my final farewell so soon; the way you were burns in my mind as I whisper my love and goodbyes to you one last time...
P
E
A
C
E
Rest in sweet peace my dear friend; never will you ever be forgotten- Forever engrained in our minds your legacy will continue one for years to come…
Early morning reality strikes its cold, hard chord as sudden sadness as despair finally sinks in… you have been removed from this broken world where we mourn your loss; the pain hitting each person deeper than the one previous
Goodbye my adventurous dream, the spark of memories hold together the shattering pieces of my cracked heart that sorrow threatens to crush in the grips of its mighty claws tightly surrounding my aching, bleeding heart…
Angels rejoice as they gather you in hugs and welcome your coming, leading you to your place beside our lord, residing with him as you patiently await the rest of us to join you
Nostalgically I smile and watch as you fade into my dreams; I will never forget you my friend, remember me as we wait to see each other once more…
----
R.I.P
Regan Steel; friend, brother, and more...
October 28, 1991- July 15, 2013

Your belly has grown so big, the glow on your face is priceless, your hair so vibrant, I love the smile on your face when you feel your little one kicking, I love it when you crave weird foods, everything is going well, you are 8 months now, you look like you are going to pop, your feet swell, your in the bathroom more than the toilet bowel is, you can not wait for this to be over, your almost 9 months now you feel a wetness on your chair, it is time, you rush, you prepare, but you never seem to have everything, your at the hospital, your about 3 centimeters dilated, there is still some time to go, your patient, you waited this long, your 7 centimeters, 8, and 9, you hope it is almost time, you feel like you want to push, you push, and push, you hear the baby cry, you believe that things are okay, because that is what you were told, so it is time to say goodbye, you are tired and need some sleep, you hold your baby for some time, you pass him to the nurse, she sings him a lullaby, you fall asleep, your sleep was dreamless, but you are now awaken in a nightmare that will never end, your baby is in a forever sleep, but how could this end, it just all began, you do not know what happen, you heard his cry, you touched him, he opened his eyes, so why is he gone, from this day you will forever be changed, you held your true love tight before the nurse took him away, you blamed yourself, you question your actions, but it was not your fault, this just sometimes happens, you try to move on with your life, but that becomes difficult, you smile but you are frowning inside, you try to make things right, you try to hide your pain, but everyday you live in sorrow, I know that you are not perfect, but you need to look forward to tomorrow, you can not change what happened, you carried a little angel for 9 months long, then God took him so fast, maybe he has special plans for him, in heaven he is having a blast, even though you do not have him with you, I know that he loves you so, because I saw the way he looked at you, this is something that I know, you are the best mom in the world, I am so glad that he atleast got to meet you, it is not easy to carry on like you do, with the positive attitude that you show, I know one thing for sure, your the strongest mom I know.

T HERE
E VERYWHERE
R APING FREEDOM
R UINING THE LIVES OF
O F
R EALLY
I NNOCENT PEOPLE
S AVAGELY
T EACHING
S UICIDE
Eric (and sometimes not)
*In case this does not display correctly, you have to read the word TERRORISTS vertically
and then read the rest horizontally to see what the word means*

..."Animal abuse should be a felony."
Animal abuse should be a felony.
No creature should be beaten, tortured, and abused.
I have never known how anyone could be
Malicious and demented, so cruel and unforgiving.
And for what, what is the reward for you,
Laughter for a moment, looking big, showing off for your crew.
Animals, I have seen,
Bloodied, beaten within an inch of their lives, dying.
Unloved, unwanted, neglected, abandoned
Starving for food and love, in my head I can hear them crying.
Every little piece of love is needed, every little soul needs fed.
Written by Gina Young
for Write It Deep and Dramatic, Please
on 9/4/11

Chivalrist of pure intent
Honoured by the ears that lent
A tale recounted to content
Resplendant wonders brought to ear
Laments that draw an unseen tear
Evasion of the heart's deep fear
Soft young mind and placid eyes
Lucid to the tale's disguise
Unseeing the truth behind the lies
There upon the golden water
Wimsically listening to the lauder
Inclines the middle Liddell daughter
Days have come and years have passed
Golden evenings couldn't last
Erosionary time has swept too fast
Dreary dawns and bitter nights
Overcame the muse's might
Dead and gone, that fragile light
Greiving when his heart was tore
Secreted to land of lore
On through Wonderland he'll soar
Now to dream forevermore

My first love was happy for a while.
I mistook love for what I’m not sure.
So we split up, though lust did beguile.
Trading our life styles with no cure,
Again we tried to make marriage work.
Knowing all that we had broken clear,
Eventually we knew it was just a quirk.
Never to rest our love for a child of fear,
Life always changes people, in different ways.
Our anger, spread out by gossip and displays.
Victimless, we chose the end, in lonely plays.
Edging into new endeavors, lost in a maze.
written for
Sponsor Dana'lynn Smith
Contest Name The Secondhand Emotion
written by
Cecil Hickman

KING OF POP? ACROSTIC
Midst all the praise, forgotten all uncouth,
in this our time, we shan't remember this,
conveyed to all the world, his morbid truth,
he wanted more than anything, his greatest wish,
above all else, he wanted to be white.
enough to show the world it turned out right,
long after all is said and done, he turned out white.
Just as, in hot pursuit, no one could see
another 5, without his his dancing frame,
come latelys came too short to even be
known as contendors of his cherished name
so white is white, they never want him black,
or even guess he's not one of their fame,
nor see into the junky in his name.

At the point of no return,
Beyond all hope,
Can't turn back if i tried,
Don't love this anymore,
Everyone stares,
Forever with dread,
Got to leave here,
Happiness is out of the picture,
Innocence left behind to die,
Judging eyes,
Keep moving on,
Lost without a soul,
Mother is gone,
Nowhere to be found,
Open doors close,
People stop and stare
Quiet screams follow,
Resisting a constant battle,
Seduction is trying to pull me in,
Trying to resist,
Unable without your help,
Verge of tears,
Wanting hope,
X-ed out of life,
You have the same battle,
Zooming past your head.

I think of the years between us and
Little snippets of our journey floods my mind.
Life and all it's roads at times difficult
Allowing us the chance to change, to be remade for the
Last of all our tales shall be of our triumphs-
Ways we conquered our self doubt, our impulses
Always giving way to that better me, better you
Yet you walk these roads with a heavy heart
Soul weary and feet blistered and I say to you
Be not afraid of what s to come
Everyone is given only what he or she can bear
Yes I say to it all - the pain, our tears, the laughter
Our fears, - the joy and all these years between us
Underneath it all there lies our blessing and
Redemption in the form of this friendship
For the mistakes, the errs are not erased but" Our Father In Heaven"
Remember is the sweetest prayer
In it we find the mercy he tempers our punishment
Even as we are wrong, we are in his light
No man can take your soul, so walk
Don't run to the end of your life, when it is done, he is there.

Offering of sanity in a crystal vial.
Cleansed with the essence of a childhood lost.
Down the drain. Left a stain.
Opposing forces overtake the senses.
Clarity and peace – a figment of twisted imagination.
Down the drain. Nothing to gain.
Overload of obsession.
Counting, counting, counting numbers and names.
Down the drain. Very last grain.
Opening the facial cavity in a cry for help.
Crying gets you nowhere.
Down the pain. Nicotine train.
Over-used lungs.
Cigarette butts.
Down the pain. Down the pain.
Obsessive
Compulsive
Disorder

Many fine years spent filtering the dark,
until my clock ceased to measure the day.
Crammed into an old tower I did stay,
having no freedom, all was quite stark.
Then I drank like a captain with no shore,
in aqua waves of the ocean alone.
Meaning was lost in personal tones,
evading health in an unopened door.
Lavish, I pulled back from the blue sea,
over those dreary dark days I did fly.
Serious now I could bring them back by,
till I traveled in the light to be free.

As we elope with our faith into the avenue of death,
And looking at our fellow comrades for the very last time.
Where our fears becomes our trail to faith.
We erupt an anger that was not meant to be and stealing every thought that can issue in the rage that was in a cage.
At that moment even the brave knows he has a grave.
Our greatest fear becomes the element of surprise .
When we hear the gun-shots out thoughts be-guile our anxiety into a comer of fear.
We now fight not because of the war but to survive in the war.
We feel that we are fair men when we give justice while forming ashes.
But we are crippled in the arrogance of our ignorance feeling that for every blood spilled and tears that tilled the earth makes our quest fulfilled.
We loose focus because there are certain kills that makes us humble.
Because our brains and minds becomes the avenue of roaming thoughts and images of the victory of tears we created.
My eyes twinkles in grumbling of the sites I beheld and paves way for the tears I despise but yet resides in me.
The joy of every soldier is to win wars and come back home alive.
But in the ambient of our joy comes the tears of our loss.
As we celebrate, we depreciate in agony and tears of wishes of our fellow comrades.
At the end we get medals for killing our own soul.
But to the duke of time I rest my unfulfilled soul to be humbled in tears while I grumble in silence.

G oing to the store the other day
O n a bright morning I listened as
D rums pounded a slow cadence by a military escort.
B efore I knew, I was watching the cortege,
L eaving behind a dumbfounded crowd.
E verything I had ever known of war was
S ummed up in this parade for
S omeone unknown to me.
T ears misted in the air as he passed,
H eavy footsteps of the soldier's parade...
E verything precise for this farewell.
U nder a bright sun and blue sky
S olemnly they took him to his final rest.
A merica, the country he lovingly died to protect.

Afghanistan. far away from those I love.
Leaving was tough this time, the kids tears tore at my heart.
Only as I turned to watch them drive away, did I see my wife crying
Never has she cried, always pretending to be strong
Going away for the fourth time must have been too much for her to bear.
Letting myself believe, I will make it through this fourth combat tour.
One year seems like a lifetime, the minutes ticking slowly by.
Never letting tears of sadness get the better of me.
Everyday, I think about my wife and our four kids. Are they ok?
Lost is how I feel. Something is missing, I can barely breathe.
Yet this is what must be done, I took an oath. I made a promise.
Yearning every second, for my wife's kisses, and my childrens hugs.
Every hour of the day I pull out their picture, to see their smiles.
Always in my dreams, my family is there for me. Never losing faith.
Reunited we shall be, after a long lonely year.

September leaves fallen and flew towards the empty sky.
enchanting my world to bring glorious color,
purple, gold, and yellow shades that sing a blue chorale.
That echoes beneath the silence of September fall, to
embrace the sounds that bring, the
melodious symphony that plays deep in my heart.
Bringing back the old familiar string of yesterday, to
engulf every note that sways on dancing clouds
remembering the dance step, I forget somehow.
----Cheryl----
September 8, 2011

A queen of the magazine layout for dreams,
Lady with the looks, they all want to see.
Wherever she goes they stop and stare it seems.
Angelic face, perfect smile, looking at thee,
Yes she seems happy, is it now, in some degree.
See her life, is always on display, for us to see.
One dream, for life, or until another comes along,
Nearer or farther from happiness, is this wrong.
Don’t you see behind the perfect smile that gleams?
Intimate details shown for profit not reality,
Social discloser, we live in fantasy dreams.
Pain, discomfort, so hidden in emerald eyes,
Looker, she is titled, a beautiful glitter anomaly.
Aberration, for all to aspire to become, in lies,
Yes, she’s a looker, always on display, not free.

Alone and unwanted. Left behind. Shunned.
Battered by those who pushed you aside.
All because you wanted their affection, but
None would be had, and they cut you inside.
Drowning now--dying. Choking on floods
Of tears full of loneliness, anger, and pain
Emptying your heart of hatred and venom,
Draining the poison eroding your veins.

Tormented! I have words but no way out
In spite of the encouraging conveys
Towards me, that this darkest hour plays
Unusual, how much emptiness is about,
Should read no more, by ending all this praise.
This quite direct proposal finds myself,
In retrospect, a fool with not a worth
Transcending thought and should I say, what wealth?
Unrest, with all this literature at girth
So I may ascertain my mental health.
Tremendous time and patience do you all
In time, deceive yourselves a crying shame
To think compared with effort you are small
Unsure, as well, for greeting all 'this' fame,
Surrounds us with a promise to enthral.

Seasonal
Affective
Disorder
When
Evening
Night
Eventually
Ends
Disporportionally sooner
Lights
Inside needed
Great outside light diminished
Help needed
To end sad
(SAD is an illness that some people have when they don't get enough light in
the winter and some people have an additional illness to getting too much
light in summer which causes depression.)

On this
Night
Everything that
Loves will loose.
Everything that lives
At last will die.
Forts will crumble.
Fate will step back
And nap.
Lovers will cry and heartache will
Laugh. Tonight in the
Still Wind Cold.

Kinder spirit is now resting
Angels keep you safeguarded
Remain still my dear friend
Eternity is ones destiny
No pain is allowed in Heaven
Fondest memories of you linger on
Everyone has one or two
Inspiration to fight was yours
Sympathy from my heart pours out
To your family and close friends
Tribute To
Karen Feist's
Family And Friends
{RIP}

T he symbol of suffering, shame, disdain
H is emaciated body for hours remained
E ternal love came and paid the ransom
C hrist Jesus, God incarnate, as man He came and chose to die
R ighteous holy, He lived among men, healing and giving abundant life
O verturned an evil plan forever that would keep man enslaved
S et in motion to completion the solitary act ensuring man’s redemption
S alvation, freedom is now assured for all who believe and repent!
A collaboration-Audrey Carey & #0459587 Jimmy M. Anderson

I believed that she was going to be better to me
but what has she shown?nothing but her bad side towards me all the time..
what do i do? thats what i ask myself on a daily basis
shes told me over an over that shes going to change
but she hasnt shown it
i just wish she would change if she doesn't...
i don't know what i will do or what i can do
i just hope she knows i love her....

See me sit here and cry.
How can it get any worse?
Even the worst are happier.
I wish I could change,
Someday, maybe I will.
Not soon though.
Over a period of time, I might.
Today is not the day.
Another thing is; I'm broken.
Not fixed or happy.
Definitely not unscarred.
Nothing inside me is full anymore.
Even my mind feels empty.
Venturing out feels unbearable.
Everyday, alone.
Reacting to the constant issues.
Woman's rights.
Illness.
Loneliness.
Love.
Becoming harder and more challenging
Everyday that I'm alone.
On this day,
Kids are dying.
Adults are suffering.
You can't do anything about it.

As we talked by the fire,
i looked into his eyes of sweet desire,
i put my hands over my face,
trying not to look like a big disgrace,
I told him how i will always want everything in him,
He's all i ever wanted,
my feelings for him grew inside leaving me haunted,
i tried to let go of what was never mine,
i wish I would have met him first and everything would be fine,
He Left without a goodbye that night,
leaving me here bleeding as i cry without him in sight,
As i move on with my head in shame,
it is myself that i have to blame.

Did you know I did like you?
I just didn’t realize what I was doing,
And I was just so stupid to let you go.
Now I just wish that you spend the rest of your life happy,
And that you never again feel the pain I made you feel.

Moral mature beings know the image of self
Internalized and sustained. Their purposes hold
Naturally against the whispering demon elf
Determined that all fire that comes brings gold
Glossy tongues and unstable minds then decry
Anxiety for what they cannot have or keep
Mind games flipping our persona like a leaf dry
Evicted from place to place, words cheap
Swearing to love for but the pleasure of attention.
Enemies of truth are falsehood's friend, your vows
Naked of character, made sinsiter persuasion
Denied itself loyalty, and kept friendship with sows
Sinister pranks for profit only of pickled vanity.

PLEASE SAVE US MANATEES
By The Poets Listed After the Poem
Practically perfect people in speedboats tease us manatees.
Long ago, as “mermaids,” we could swim the seas free as the breeze.
Even though propellers have replaced natives' canoe paddles,
A manatee's underwater world need not leave him rattled.
Swimming slow through shallow waters we're not looking for a fight.
Each one of us is trying to live free from this man-made plight.
So we glide below the surface in our one-piece swimming suit.
As we splash along, with no G-string thong. Wow! That's really cute.
Vibrations we send you, saltwater salutations please heed.
Endangered you call us we're thrilled; safe passage is all we need.
Under shallow sea my little calf died fish hooked in her feed.
Scar so deep by human's deed, my baby gone in red-hot bleed.
Months of cold weather, inland, slowly, we travel warm rivers.
Allure of warm waters, drifting, feeding, no chilly shivers,
Now, the government wants to remove our protective label.
As if toxic foe and loss of mild winter was a fable.
Tell our painful story now, by written word or moving song,
Each passing day our prospects dim-our future may not be so long.
Every person can take part. So, one and all please share your heart.
Save us manatee take action now. Search the web; find out how.
CONTRIBUTING POETS in alphabetical order: Charmaine Chircop, Carolyn Devonshire,
Robin Gass, James Marshall Goff, Barbara Gorelick, Sean Kelly, Ruben Ortellao, Patricia
Prescott, and Dane Ann Smith-Johnsen
I would like to dedicate this poem to Carolyn Devonshire, whose favorite animal is the
manatee.
Link to SAVE THE MANATEE Action Group.http://www.savethemanatee.org/action.htm
http://www.savethemanatee.org/talte.htm
http://www.savethemanatee.org/ta_miami-dade_mpp_8-09.html

BETRAYAL
Behaving one way in front of the eyes of another and behaving
in a complete different manner in front of the eyes of others.
Evil intentions acted out towards a confidant for the good of
one’s self and for the defeat of your confidant.
Twisting of the knife in the back of another,
bringing death to the trust of that relationship.
Returning to a relationship as if nothing significant
happened while you were away, knowing that hell will
come when they finally discover what you did when
their back was turned.
Acting out fantasies that you’ve played in your head over and over,
knowing that those actions will cause you to pay a big price.
You choose to satisfy your own cravings and desires,
without any caution to the feelings and consequences
they will have on others.
Asking one to forgive the unforgiveable and smile when doing it.
Lying to your trusted loved one to please your
own self serving desires or needs.

My mother-in-law is a blessing
Only to her son
Now that we are married
She has me on the run
The Lady's always changing
Everything I've done
Regrets, I don't have many
She's the only one
For: Debbie Guzzi's Jack Out of the Box contest
Form: Acrostic
By: Mdailey
I have not tried a poem of this style since I was a teacher back in the 70's.

My mother Mary, with her presence she graced
Young at heart, and her beauty unscathed
Maintaining her courage when she became ill
Overcoming her fears with her faith and strong will
Taken first was her sight, then her blood became low
Having life-giving blood, through her veins it did flow
Ever caring for her, we were never apart
Remaining by her side until death she did part
My memories of her grow fonder each day
As she’s now in heaven, at peace she will stay
Regrets? I have none for I did all in my power
Yet I miss her so deeply with each passing hour

I saw you in my room last night
and you always used to grow cold
when you felt the ceiling fan cool your skin
I remembered when we used to talk
and share our memories
You of morocco
and mine of a morocco that never was
I had a wedding dress on and I was standing
somewhere in a hallway in Marrakesh
You had that life and you lost it
I never got that life and lost it as well.
I can smell the smoke of flames gone past
and songs never sung
And I loved you that December
Even though you were never mine
Cruel but innocent man with a face so soft
I never lost you my Moroccan cause I never
possessed you
But that's what made you so pretty
lying but honest heart thief

Loneliness is being
Only one! Feeling alone and
Neglected. Pushed into a corner, knowing there’s nothing left except
Everlasting pain and rejection. A
Loveless creature, with nothing but the
Insecurity of going to bed alone
Night after lonely night. Each day
Ends with the same feelings of
Sadness and the fear of the
Silence that lies ahead. A
Very sad place to be. But then
Suddenly, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and you find
Happiness in your life again. You know that you will
Always have someone to share love and
Peaceful times with. You will want to take a
Picture each time you see that smile on his face.
Insecurity isn’t in your vocabulary any longer. You are
Nurtured on a daily basis, knowing THIS love is
Everlasting. You are sure that there will be no more
Sadness in your heart.
Serenity becomes a way of life.
Copyright: February 14, 2006

Angry with themselves,
Lost all hope,
Can't go without a drop,
Overly aggressive at times,
Happiness is gone from their life,
Only thing they live for is poison,
Liver cancer is more than likely,
Inhibitors do not help the situation,
Can't see that they need help,
Self control, along with self esteem, is lost.

Disbelief is what ran through my mind on this day.
Is this really happening?
Shocking is how I felt, as tears streamed down my face
Battered, were the buildings and the people rushing to help others
Everyone running, crying, screaming and dying.
Life ended, yet started that day. Pulling together for the good of others
Incredible heros were made that day.
Elated is how I felt as people were found alive, one by one.
Forever sad, for those innocent people that lost their lives that day

I met you and you are real,
my heart beats fast because I now how I feel,
I know you are the one I know for sure there is no reason for me to be
insecure,
I think you are perfect in ever way I will always want you to stay because
you always made me have a great day,
I want to be with you because I know what you have been through all these
girls have no clue,
living the truth is hard to do but every time I see you I fall even
more for you,
As you can see im not that great but i promise i would make a good date,
Will you ever love me in my life?
I truely,madly,deeply want to be your wife,

Standing alone in a crowded room
Crying inside from the feeling of doom
Remember the times I had someone to love
Each one I lied to cos their love wasn’t enough
And now I’m alone in a room full of guys
My mind starts to SCREAM from all of my lies

Liars (an acrostic and rhyme)
by Amy Swanson, Nov. 2008
Look into my eyes, tell me the truth for once - a lie
Is all it ever was, I know that now.
Although my love for you runs deep, my soul
Retreats from your caress; you have
Shown me you are just another one of many liars.
Liars always seem to know
exactly what to do;
they'll say whatever it might take
to make you think the lie is true.
In deceit they spin their webs
of never-ending lies,
and get so comfortable with it
they'll look you in your eyes
and make it seem so real, and true,
the words they say could make you weep;
but they are simply con-men,
the masters of deceit.
However, there will come a day,
when they no longer can atone
for loved ones will no longer listen
and they will wake to find they are alone.

A little baby dying,
A mother crying,
A father hoping,
A broken heart,
A pray sent out,
A dog lost,
A grand father searching
A funearel
The sky,
The stars,
The dark,
Bright lite,
A golden gate,
I'm home.

Memories still linger here,
Yet, you no longer do.
Profound words I used to hear.
Remembering the feeling I had for you,
Ignites heartache cause you aren’t near.
Nights filled with a true emotion,
Crazy talks of kids and marriage,
Everything was in harmonic motion,
Something we would never disparage.
Something to which I still pay devotion.

Old Notes
I feel like an old lovers note
that's been cast aside thrown away
and useless,
Not knowing that they even opened it at all,
or if it still just sits there waiting to be read,
And those deep words that flow in my mind,
words softly spoken and written wondering if they twined,
has Dust Gathered on the outside and in?
my heart beats fast inside this skin,
this note the only way to my life,
loving him so much just to know,
So an old lovers note that just waits,
Siting there alone and just hesitate's wanting that answer,
like a poor child in a hospital trying to get better from cancer,
so come to me and tell me if this is true?
Do you want me to suffer like this or just Love You?

Lost in a destination filled with no hope,
In this feeling tourchered for my life is going down a slop,
feeding off the past im dying inside,
Through this Emotion i some how Survive,
Afraid to let go of whats not even mine,
Falling into your trap haven't found an open door,
For i hate that your the only one i adored,
trying to find a way out of this dreadfull mess,
I only need to get ride of this painful thought,
Though with you i can't untie this knot,
As im always alone and never wanted,
i am somehow being haunted,
driving me weaker by your hate,
making me feel like a big mistake,
You loving her and never me,
i hope one day you will finally see,
maybe in this life we where meant to be,
The Loss of this perfect guy,
broken down because i am too shy,
This unfinished Life will hopefully succeed,
maybe one day this heart will not bleed.

Running Away, becoming lost
Out in the night time
Nobodys coming home
Screaming aloud threw
a slow sucide
No one hears the screams
Nightmares lives threw my dreams
hollow and alone
I'm never gonna feel real
Trust went into lies
now threw this slow sucide

M ind games
A bandonment by you
R eap what you sow
R age against you
I nsane fighting
A nger like you've never seen
G irlfriends on the side
E rratic behavior
T ormented on a daily basis
R ighteous Indignation
U nfaithful too many times to count
E ndless tears streaming down my face
L ies so eccentric only a fool would buy it
O bstinate are we both
V ile names you call me
E vil is what you are

A love, a feeling that is locked away for so long that you forgot it was there.
A love you thought you shouldn't be felt, a sheet of guilt to feel for someone else.
Sacred to let myself be happy, wondering if i deserve to be.
A love that was locked away and now I am free to find the key to unlock that love
to let it fly.
A love that i know you feel.
A love that happened from the start.
A love that sets us apart.

Your Taking hold of my heart,
Slowly Tearing it apart,
though i have been through this madness once before,
for i hate your the only one i adore
you touch my face i feel the shock,
are hands connect and then are locked
Wake me up from this mess that i can't stand,
tearing me apart by holding your hand,
leaving broken peices in my chest
but your cheating hasn't got me to rest,
Let me, let go of your smiles in my mind,
Your not good enough for me i got to leave it behind.
I follow those words that you softly speak,
then you kiss me softly on the cheek,
toxic from the residue that you left on me,
i wish you would leave me alone and let me be,
though i can't give up on what we had,
break me heart and make me mad.
Wake me up from this mess that i can't stand,
tearing me apart by holding your hand,
leaving broken pieces in my chest
but your cheating hasn't got me to rest,
Let me let go of your smiles in my mind,
Your not good enough for me i got to leave it behind.
So you Chewed me up and Spite me out,
i take this bullet for you,
but i dought you would for me,
I will forget the lies,
so on that Note i'm saying that's a goodbye.

Little did I know you were to take me.
Over and over I did fall. And never relenting.
Verse after verse I wrote to your admiration.
Everything I saw was inspiration towards you.
Last week, I got your letter to me.
Over and over I did read. My tears flowed.
Vaguely I understood your statements.
Engagement was breaking me in two.
Last year, you got married away.
Over and over I have cried. I want to die.
Vindication is not possible. You hurt me.
Evacuating you from my mind is the only hope.
Leaving my whole self behind is hard.
Over and over I have assayed. Too much of me was you.
Vying against my own self is destroying me.
Emancipation is my only hope. Goodbye.

Meetings that seem so few and far between,
Indefinite dates, incomplete plans.
Lost and broken promises, where the truth is never what it seems.
Endless conversations that are merely keyboards and hands.
Soulless hollow smiles in pictures that will never seem complete.

Tick Tock Tick Tock
Racing around like the hands of a clock.
Oscillating about with no rhyme nor reason.
Undoubtedly attempting to control me.
Banking on immediate changes
Laughing as you make me scream
Emphatically forcing yourself upon me
Mystifying my decisions as only you can
Instilling uncertainty and definitely hesitation
Never looking back to lend a hand
Doing as you wish hoping I understand.

i am a girl that is confused
i am a child that has no life
i am a girl wondering why this has to happen to me
i am a student that hates school
i am your daughter who wonders if you care
i am a follower not knowing what to do
i am a cutter trying to relieve my pain
i am somebody wondering if anybody really cares
i am a person that is always living in pain
i am a girl who keeps her feeling trapped inside
i am a person who wants to end her life

The Madness Continues
Rigid as steel he sleeps, stiff and lifeless,
Inert, a shell of a man who liked to laugh.
Gone through the valley of death him who
Once was filled with much capacity to love.
Rest in peace, brother, whoever you are.
More of the same will most certainly ensue
Out in the harsh, unforgiving desert sands.
Rue the day when leaders set forth agenda
To pursue wily enemies with phantom WMD.
In the mortuary a chaplain kneels in prayer,
Soldier takes his last, long journey home.

as i sit here in the deps of
the green grass
trying so hard not to laugh
i find my happy days there
some sad ,theres nothing but a tear
this green grass has so
many secrets that i ve told so many time before
i cant just tell my feeling ,so i let them all go
i think to myself maybe somewhere out there theres hope
green grass
green grass
here my prayer
sometimes i sit there
and all i can hear is a whisper
from the grate down deps of green
grass mystical
green grass as i sit here in the deps of
the green grass
trying so hard not to laugh
i find my happy days there
some sad ,theres nothing but a tear
green grass
has become my friend
and all that we have
i give my thanks to green grass
for listing to my tears,my cheers
my dreams,my fears
my hopes
i know the story was long and slow
but thanks green grass you gave me hope

I'm referred to as a normal & “complete” being, but somewhere hidden beneath
the unseen tears is an empty hole threatening the very makings that define
myself as a whole.
Nothing to society, but, “...taking up space”. A unique copy who in turn is just
another uninterested
Visitor...a visitor who majors in bad acting & the script studied only repeats the
yielded guidelines our culture has come to agree upon. This rehearsed show is
better known as our life
Illusions. These distortions of reality consist of precise measurements of care
exhibited, true perfection that's always sought, never seen & untainted but also
satisfying happiness, which is the basic element of us. The initial outcome being
yourself, alone & divided from everyone and everything just as in the beginning.
Shut me out as the rest have, it’s expected before the even thought of existence
occurred. Truthfully, you watch as deep
Inside I continue to painfully search the depths of my soul for an answer that
cannot be found so in all actuality, does not exist. Instead I
Breakdown to the undeniable fate of becoming incapable of the single emotion
that makes us human....the ability of love. It’s as if I am being fed by an endless
Line of decay patiently waiting for the moment in which, the roles are reversed
and in turn, I am engulfed by this disease that devours our free will...our ability of
thought. Part of me is contaminated with a line of pain, deceit & sorrow prepared
to be passed along at any given moment. I’m infected with nothing, yet
Everything contains it...our invisible means.

Abandoned soul lost in a tempestuous storm
Cascading raindrops stream down the window pane
Oblivious is she to her own mournful wailing
Leeches line up to lay claim on their investment
Darkness falls soundly, hollowing out the pit of her being
Dirty deeds done cheap cost her more than her life's worth
Abundant is her despair as she lay spread eagle in a trance
Retching pain sears a trail of unbearable anguish through her
Knight in shining armor rusted stiff in her backyard
Noble efforts faltered, too frozen is her spirit
Invincible is she to Love's embracing flame
Gone is her heart, forbidden fruit consumed by savages
Howl wind, Howl, sing a song of Misery
Tonight she is a ghost cast away amongst the shadows
A cold dark night
Chills run through me as I witness her plight
A cold dark night
Despair and heartache have made her cease to fight
A cold dark night
Her secrets exposed by the pale moonlight
A cold dark night
Sins more frightening than the blackest of nights
A cold dark night
This star's burning out; once shining so bright
A cold dark night

Searching for some answers while constantly trying to ease the pain
Inquiring straight to God above, I ask him who was to blame
Despite of our imperfections, he reassured that it was his call
She was needed back up in Heaven to assist him when we fall
Sympathetic to our suffering, he tries to wipe the tears away
Understand this was his plan for she was never meant to stay
Remembering her is bittersweet, as we are reminded of our great loss
Virtually nothing helps other than knowing Christ died for us upon the cross
Instead of drowning in sorrow and pain I will try to look for the light
Visions of happy reunions ahead help to make the future seem bright
Occasionally I still have bad days; although, they get further in between
Recovery is a slow, steady process that's possible only with God on my team

I reached up to the sky,
M y hands stretched so high
I nto your hands I tried to reach
S tretching as far as I can,
S lippery fingers touched your soft hand
Y et, I couldn't hang on to you, and
O ut into the wide open sea I fell; remembering the
"U s" moments we spent together....

These candles wont stay lit for long pretty soon the world wont be so strong, do
you hear my hate for you can you see my evil intentions shine through is this the
torment that i expect from you to lay a shotgun in front of me as testament to your
disdain for me. You want to see me die in vain clip my wings so i cant discover
how to fly you think that hurts me enough to cry it only makes revenge more
sweeter. Break me if you want my demon beside me will never walk cover me in
what use to be the death of man i promise on the thirty first day i will arise new
with a gift for you. Deceive me for years your will was thrown to me now you have
created the monster that stands before you suffering i adore you i lay down at
your feet as god you give me strength. I am not alone chaos in your name
insanity is our game hold me in your evil arms kiss me with your filthy lips horned
angel they tried to kill us but they will pay, they will all fear my rage the age of pain
is near raise up and wash off this caring veneer.
Cole Hodson (c)

Stagnantly idle, all can see
Horrifying comments, said upon to me
Utterance of ignorance, because I disagree
Thunderous demands; broken debris
Unkempt existence; useless plea
Piercing is the voice; an obnoxious potpourri

She struts on the stage in her plunging gown, chic and suave,
A salve to these tired eyes intently watching on this old Sony;
Roaming the ramp among the ranks of high society wearing
The latest Stella McCartney collection straight from London,
Or is it a Valentino she is donning, maybe a Ralph Lauren?
Run, baby, run ahead of the nasty mannequin competition,
I know you can make it, yes, yes, yes, that’s my little girl!
And if one day you tire of your world of pomp and glitter,
Look not far for I’m waiting back here in our hometown.

To place upon you one last glance. To cast an end to the
Romance. To say good-bye to the one man
I've come to love so deep. Is
Nothing like I'd ever dreamed. The pain,
It drains. The pain, it stings. More
Than the worst of my imagining. And yet
You're Gone …