Thanks for changing the pic Dale. I see my many flaws, but lying was never one of them.

If I though smoking made my life easier, it was just the high of the puff which gave me that belief.

The truth for me is that I never wanted to look too deep into my "bad habit", scared I will discover something else, which was the fact I was an addict. Just waiting for the "right moment" to quit. Scared it will be too hard (heard about it, tried in the past, but never had the right tools, or the right state of mind).

In reality, I never loved myself enough to do the right thing: quit. In hindsight, I see it for what it was: my way of stepping away from the reality of my life, my refuge, my refusal to deal with certain emotions.

And yes, once I faced it, the addiction, accepted I was an addict, and used the tools provided here, my mind turned that switch to make me an EX!