Tag: energy

My husband took the week off from work, before letting me know. I had a Telesummit scheduled for Tuesday, and my radio show Wednesday, plus my regular calls and meetings, so my calendar was super busy.

I work from home and it was challenging to maintain my focus with him being in ‘staycation mode’. I made it through the Telesummit but when my radio show co-host suggested that we air a rerun rather than a live show, I heartily agreed.

In Port Townsend, the house behind us is haunted!

After completing my regular calls Thursday, hubby and I took a “daycation” up to historic Port Townsend, and yet on the way I had this nagging feeling I was playing hooky – that I should be working.

Now here’s the thing, I work for myself, I work from home, my schedule is entirely my own. No one’s gonna fire me for taking a day off.

I decided to record our show live on Wednesdays (although we do have to fit into an available spot in our radio station’s lineup), I decide I write my blog and send out my Ezine on Fridays. I choose to host Meetups on Saturdays or Sundays, I usually film my YouTube videos on Tuesdays (although the last two weeks I didn’t, due to the upcoming Telesummit).

True Confessions: NONE of these activities actually PAY ME. They’re all designed to support, help and enlighten others. And if someone decides to hire me for coaching, great.

Ironically, a lot of people I work with have money issues. When we shine a light on them, it often reveals they have trouble with their focus on time, and how they spend their energy.

Sometimes they have six figure incomes, but are miserable. They either hate their jobs, or hate their commutes. Or they’re spinning their wheels trying to make an income, feeling like they’re going nowhere. They struggle with compulsive spending, credit cards, or underearning and deprivation.
They have confusion about the money or debt they do have, and vagueness about where their time is going.

As they gain clarity about their numbers and their actions, their circumstances rapidly improve. They feel feel more prosperous and abundant with less effort and stress. Because it actually isn’t about the money, it’s about the quality of their lives and relationships.

I spend my time and energy in ways that prioritize my relationships with my husband and now adult kids. I make choices based on my expanded perspective as Consciousness. I have a prosperous life and feel wealthy with my relationships.

My coach describes his schedule as “fiercely lifestyle friendly”, which basically means that if it’s going to compromise his values, he isn’t going to do it.

I suspect he uses the word ‘fiercely’ because of the enormous morphic “work ethic” field that says you have to put in long hours, with a lot of effort and sacrifice in order to create a good life.

That nagging feeling I had yesterday? I was reacting to the same message, same morphic field.

As with anything in this world, the opposite is true.

The harder you try to attain something, the farther away it will be. Effort kills creativity. We give up so much power to these ‘work ethic’ ideals and completely miss the point that we’re Infinite Beings and this world is our playground.

Realize that *you* are Consciousness and all the power is within you, not out there.

If you work a job-job, try being there as Consciousness, and see how it alters the experience for you. You may find it being more playful and fun.

If you’re looking work, try approaching the interviews as Consciousness, and see how the dynamic changes.

Try prioritizing what’s important to you, rather than what you think the world thinks is important, and watch how rapidly your life reorganizes in your favor.

When you use your time and energy as the infinitely creative and powerful Consciousness that you are, your world transforms.

Four weeks ago I moved both my home and my office, and it feels like I’ve been sorting through boxes forever. Today I excavated a bunch of notes from various training programs I’ve taken, and, my goodness, what a lot of information is in all those pages.

Just looking at them (not even reading them) feels overwhelming. And something I remember from one of the programs group calls was someone complaining how many hours she spent each morning implementing the techniques. She was meticulously doing *every*single*action* to make something happen in 30 days or less.

That’s a good way to make nothing happen in 30 *years* or more!!

But we’re so programmed to believe that if you work hard and do everything perfectly, good stuff will happen.

Consciousness works effortlessly. Actions taken as Consciousness are playful. Systems and processes only work if they’re done with curiosity, and improvisationally.

Intentions need to be open-ended. Techniques need to be used with a beginners’ mind. In fact, you often have to trick your mind, because it’s the part of you that wants to be in control, it wants to KNOW exactly how to do it, and be very specific about what is going to be created.

On the Transformation Game board, there’s a Miracle Square, and when you land on it, you’re instantly relieved of all your pain and can gracefully go forward to any step on your path that you choose.

Going forward as Consciousness, you have an infinite amount of Miracle Squares in front of you. And any step, in any direction, can effortlessly land you in a reality bigger than you can possible imagine.

Life for me now, is like a full immersion Transformation Game. Every morning is a new beginning. Every door a portal into a new reality.

We are multidimensional beings, so much more than just bodies and minds. Out energy exists both within and outside of time and space. We intuitively know that coming into this life but the world of density and effort diverts our attention. We quickly forget that we are Consciousness creating in form.

From the moment we’re conceived, we’re creating and absorbing impressions. Our bodies and energy systems are picture galleries. Our experience of the world is colored by all the data we collect.

By the time we’re adults are hard drives are filled with every memory we’ve lived and every concept we’ve taken in. We’re quite solidified in our beliefs about reality.

When we go through changes, we release anything that shaped our prior reality and create new ones. When our body/personalities are in agreement with these changes, or at least know what’s coming up, it’s easier. There may still be an adjustment but the discomfort is less when our body/personalities know what’s coming up.

From the body/personality level, in order to move forward we need to delete our cookies. This can take time if we choose to “process”, use rituals, or talk it out. It can also take forever if you don’t want to lose pictures or memories that you feel are precious. They may be painful, but you feel are significant to your identity.

At the next level up, in the mind, thought, Spirit realm, you can de-energize the cookies (you can symbolically blow them up, make them disappear, or highlight and delete them). But you face the same stumbling blocks.

The level beyond is Consciousness, where transformation is instant and effortless. It’s a shift in dimensional frequency where you can still be “here”, fully embodied and present, but not in the density of the story. Rather than clearing blocks or deleting cookies, you just step into a parallel universe where everything is different.

You don’t need to think it out when you’re operating as Consciousness. You come from a place of playful curiosity. It’s subtle but very profound. It’s pictures beyond pixels, reality beyond atoms and molecules.

It’s helpful to know that nothing you care about is ever energetically lost, even if it’s gone from your experience. Everything still exists as Consciousness, you can imagine storing them in the cloud. As Consciousness we have infinite storage. A simple way to do this is to decide to ‘delete cookies’ when you go to sleep at night, and that anything you don’t want deleted can get moved to your cloud storage.

When I first started dating my husband, I could only hang out at his place for a limited amount of time. He lived in North Seattle and you could hear I-5 from his house.

I lived on Vashon Island, with less than 11,000 people. The city was just too noisy for me.

By the time we moved to Tacoma, I’d been back east caring for my mother and I thought that I’d become desensitized to city sounds.

What I hadn’t counted on was an increased empathic sensitivity. The neighborhood we moved to had a growing population and the energetic noise got to be too much.

It’s not just location, I notice the internet emanates a collective sound as well.

I believe we’re all evolving as Consciousness and thus experiencing heightened abilities. For some people it’s empathy, the ability to feel other people’s feelings. For some it’s telepathy or tuning into people’s thoughts. For some it’s clairvoyance, the ability to see on multiple levels. Precognition is the ability to know what’s about to happen. Clairaudience means heightened hearing. You may be able to perceive through touch, or smell, as well.

When you first start having heightened sensitivities, you think it’s you. I must be thinking these thoughts (until other people start to say them out loud). I must be feeling these feelings (even though there’s no reason, your not triggered or tired). I must just be making this up.

As you become familiar with your awarenesses, you can start to discern whether it *is* you, or outside of you. You realize that you’re always drained after staff meetings at work, because you’re feeling the tension of all the people in the room.

For me the inner noise is quite remarkable. It’s like listening to an arena full of people. You can’t quite make out the conversations but you can hear the collective sound.

When you combine that with heightened empathy, feeling loved ones’ feelings (regardless of what state or country they live in), it’s a cacophony of vibrations. It can be quite frustrating or overwhelming, like living in an apartment building with thin walls; you can’t make the neighbors turn their stereo down.

So, what can you do about it? There are several ways to handle the internal noise.

You can’t make your neighbors turn down their stereo, but you can turn down your own internal ‘hearing aid’. Imagine a dial for your sensitivity and turn it down a notch. For you this may not be a dial but a digital up or down button, press ‘down’ until the vibration subsides.

If it’s an individual’s communication (picking up on how your loved one is feeling) another technique is placing their energy in a window, to where they get the relief, answer, or solution they are seeking. You don’t have to be everyone’s personal healer!

Music not only drowns out external noise but can uplift your internal vibration as well. If you’re vibrating higher than the collective, their energy can pass through without you being affected by it.

Play with these this week, notice what works for you, and see what happens!

I’m writing this from a hotel room next to the Yakima River. It’s a scorching day in August, yet the river it running full and strong. I’m not used to rivers, I live in the Puget Sound, which has tides that flow and ebb along the shore.

The river reminds me of our experience of time in this physical reality. Time flows, from past to future. When I meditated on this, while looking at the river, I saw myself standing still, wanting to walk upstream, wanting to let the river take whatever I wanted to release.

It illustrates my resistance to going with the flow. It shows that I’m facing the past (upstream). The current of time is continually moving us forward, down the river. As Consciousness focused into form, we cannot cling to the river bank.

It also illustrates how, in this new reality, everything is the opposite of what is was before. My old focus would have been to stay anchored in one spot, and to release energy that way. When I see myself as Consciousness flowing down the river, I see that past energy is released in every moment. It’s not even an issue. It is gone, and the continuous flow is the present moment.

My body feels unnerved with the prospect of releasing its grip on the bank. It doesn’t feel exhilarated by the flowing water (as it may have when I was younger). It anticipates drowning, which is not fun.

But when I gently cradle it in my loving energy as Consciousness, it allows the flow to happen. I feel the shift in energy. I relax into the continuous change that is always available.

Nothing is truly lost, nothing is really left behind, it is put into it’s proper placement in the storyline, it is stored in the Cosmic Cloud. No one is really gone, nor abandoned, we are all still connected as Consciousness.

Consciousness exists outside of time and space. The flow of time is just one of the elements that construct this reality. It keeps the story moving along, it’s the background music that helps propel our personal game of life.

We are bigger than our story, we are bigger than the river, we are Consciousness that encompasses it all. When you identify as Consciousness within form, this all becomes an enjoyable activity, even if we’ve hit a patch of white water and are rolling over rocks.

When you hold a bigger space in your life, as you effortlessly do as Consciousness, it is easy to cast off the bowlines and go into the current, towards everything you’ve dreamed and desired.

One of the things I’ve discovered, as everything is breaking down and reorganizing, is that often what is required is the complete opposite of whatever has worked before.

Tried and true techniques and systems are no longer effective. Things that were absolutely the wrong thing to do in my old practice is the absolute right thing to do in my new practice.

So, for instance, something has been going on today – I’ve been feeling a very high, vibrational frequency in/on the top of my head. In the old days I would have judged this as bad. I would have thought someone was invading my space. I would have wrestled with this energy all day long.

Now, what it feels like isn’t bad. Nor is it invasive. I’m not really sure what it is. Is it a female energy in my head? Or is it a download of something new? Heck, maybe it’s just that I’ve been drinking jasmine green tea today instead of earl grey.

In the old days I would have absolutely had to know where it’s coming from and what to do about it.

Instead, I’ve just gone about my day, noticing what is different. And pretty much everything about today has been different, starting with this energy. I’m curious to see what unfolds from this.

What this reminds me of, is someone who went to one of my Meetups and did the walking through doors to parallel universes. The next day I talked with her, she’d taken medicine for vertigo. “Is it unpleasant?” I asked. Turned out it wasn’t vertigo, but that wavy feeling of expansion that happens when you play on this level of Consciousness.

A couple went to my cohost Janet’s meetup in Portland, and then they went dancing afterwards. Her husband had a difficult time because he felt too ‘lightheaded’. Hmm. Not really surprising after major transformational energy work.

Rather than resisting or turning away from new sensations, I turn towards them. I move more deeply into something rather than trying to get it out of my space.

Moving through the world in this new way of being requires being improvisational. Requires not knowing. Requires curiosity.

If something isn’t working for you, then it’s time to do something else. But don’t mistake discomfort as an indicator that something is wrong.

Birthing a new self doesn’t have to be hard. Just breathe through it. Sometimes action is required, but sometimes that may look like taking a walk. Or a nap. Maybe it’s just to stop doing whatever it is that isn’t working, and wait to see what emerges instead.

When you stop trying to make things fit within your comfort zone, then what manifests can be bigger than you can imagine.