Friday, August 19, 2016

It isn't easy, but he's worth it.

This morning was really stressful for me. It was the first time I had to get my son ready for kindergarten myself. I couldn't sleep last night because my mind kept telling me that I'm going to mess up big time. I only slept for a couple of hours, then I finally gave up and made myself some coffee. I sat in the darkness of my living room watching television. I tell you, there isn't much to watch at 3am in the morning. The coffee was a bad idea because it only made my nerves worse. When my son woke up, I made him something to eat, and we talked about school. He's a little hyper and doesn't sit still at the end of the day, so the teacher constantly reminds me that he needs to work on it. I tell my son that if he's good, I'll play with him and his action figures when he gets home. Time went fast this morning and I struggled to get ready, as well as getting my son ready for school. I can't tell you how stressful it is for me. By the time we arrived at the school, I was sweating. My pills make me sweat more than usual, and it can be really embarrassing. My son noticed I was perspiring, so he asked if I was okay? I gave him a hug, and he walked into his classroom while we both gave each other a thumbs up. I want to be a good father, but sometimes it's so hard.

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Hello, my name is Eric and I suffer from Paranoid Schizophrenia but that shouldn't be any cause for alarm. I'm more than just an illness. I started this blog to share my story and raise awareness to people who aren't familiar with my particular mental illness. I shouldn't be feared because more than anything, I'm just a sweet and caring individual who is doing his best. I"m always looking for friends, so add me if you'd like on Instagram... God Bless!!!