Dcurtis, i am extremely interested to know about your progress. Simply because what you wrote could very well be written by me! Falling from 3 to 2. Physical tension increase. Wow, i am experiecing the very same despite practicing for at least 3-4 hours per day. It’s frustating. I can’t even check in, i forget about it.

Sorry for the late reply, but i haven’t received an email about your reply.

On that stage 4 session, no way for me to stop the emotional stuff from dominating my attention. It was too strong. I actually wonder what to do with the stuff that arises. Are they “warnings” for me, to “fix” those matters or purification will take place automatically?…[Read more]

I created this topic because i was highjacking Adrian’s one. My apologies.

Well Blake, continuing on the matter of zooming in, there must be some irony on this, because just today, my nose was attracting my attention like a magnet, to the point where i didn’t even do the 4 step preparation. So i thought, this is going to be my best session…[Read more]

For me, i definitely had/still having insights from meditation in the early stages. The biggest one being aware of the monkey mind that pushes me away from what i really want to do. Being aware that quite probably, this drunk monkey works the entire day. He’s on the driver’s seat. Making me…[Read more]

Thanks Aniannie and Ted, i have been clarified. While i know that too much craving is bad, i also know that i don’t want to stare a wall and die of starvation to use Ted’s term. My goal is too live more, not in a sense of “party” more, but live without the ego restraints or own foot shooting.

“I would suggest you are zooming in and focusing too closely on the breath which makes it very difficult to stabilize attention. You want to take a mental step back and zoom out slightly so that your attention is centered on the breath, and you are still aware of other things in the background or alternating with the meditation object.”

First of all, i want to say english is not my main language so i might use the wrong words/terms. My apologies if something sounds bad.

Secondly, thanks for the forum hosts for having a forum dedicated to TMI. Even tough the book explains alot and that alone is great, some stuff still remains a bit unclear for me. I’m in a state of…[Read more]