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Feeling down and having trouble concentrating the last few days. Still being sick doesn't help, of course. Allergist visit May 20!

I had a good time Sunday going to Civil War and Martsa with Beth and Sandry, and I made things at pottery class on Saturday.

Felt discouraged this morning and then pointed out to myself that my past few years have gone:

- Developed severe undiagnosed abdominal pain.- Finished a Ph.D.- Worked on a demoralizing project for a year.- Moved across the country.- Got dumped in a weird retconning way that gave me trust issues.- Developed progressively worse abdominal pain.- Had trouble doing the project I actually wanted to do because of illness.- Finally got a diagnosis and had a difficult surgery.- Lost my dad.- Broke up with someone I liked because the relationship just didn't make sense any more.- Lost my cat.- Developed nonstop sinus problems.- Got dumped in a particularly scalding way by the person I really wanted to be with.

(And, as usual for the litany of woe, I have probably forgotten some shit.)

It is a goddamn triumph that I get out of bed in the morning. So there.