I love avocados, sometimes (read: daily) stand on my head to get my creative juices flowing, and I could listen to The Beatles sing, “I’ve Just Seen A Face” everyday, for the rest of forever.

Wondering what goes on here? Yup, so are the rest of us.

1. I am a lifestyle photographer. I have the most remarkable clients in the world, and I share their images here to inspire us all to live life with greater love, meaning and joy.

2. I am a writer. This blog is full of many of the curious thinks I have thunk.

3. I am a speaker and life/business consultant. I post upcoming speaking engagements and consulting information here as well.

4. I am most fulfilled by my work as a wife and mother to my 4 sons, one of whom now lives in Heaven. I share bits and pieces of our journey here on this blog. Including our ongoing struggle with grief, our experiences with ADHD and SPD, and our solid faith in a God much bigger than the challenges we face.

But ultimately, I hope that this blog is about something much bigger than all of that.My dream is for this blog to be a place where real life comes to be celebrated and enthusiastically embraced. Not just the pretty stuff, with tailored hems, clean lines,and the new colors for spring . . . but everything else, too. The frazzled mornings, broken hearts, crazy dreams, messy kitchens. . . even the fear, failure, hopelessness and devastation. I want this blog to be a place for every bit of what makes us all living, breathing, feeling human beings, experiencing together this remarkable thing called life.

May this be a place of passion, purpose, laughter, tears, friendship, encouragement and inspiration for us all.

In 2010, our perfect *”Baby Gavin” returned to Heaven after losing a courageous battle with **Pertussis (whooping cough). We are eternally and profoundly grateful to the thousands upon thousands (upon thousands) of friends and strangers from all over the world, of all faiths and creeds, who united with our family in prayer during Baby Gavin’s horrific illness and who grieved with us and continued to petition God in our behalf during the dark days following his tragic death. You may read Gavin’s story as it unfolded by visiting my old blog here. I am committed to sharing my ongoing struggles with grief and our journey toward joy here on the new blog. I am always humbled and amazed by the continued outpouring of love and support. Thank you for sharing in our journey and inspiring us with your unceasing love! God is good!

*My brother Gavin passed away unexpectedly in 2007. With all these Angel Gavins, it can get a little confusing at times, so just know that when I refer to “Gavin” I’m referring to my wonderful brother. When I refer to “Baby Gavin,” it is in reference to my perfect son, both of whom I cannot wait to see in Heaven!

**You will periodically see me blog about The Sounds of Pertussis campaign. I am an unpaid spokesperson and am only compensated travel expenses where applicable for my involvement with this important cause. Join our fight against this deadly communicable disease at www.soundsofpertussis.com or like us on facebook at www.facebook.com/soundsofpertussis.

When you are on the right path, doors open everywhere to make way for you. The trouble is, so few people put in the work necessary to ensure they are on the right path to begin with…

Throughout the ins and outs of my somewhat chaotic and unconventional life, I am constantly aware of two very real fears for me.

One: I’m afraid to look up, because there are so many things that need to get done, so many variables running around under my feet, that if I lift my head and look around for even 37 seconds, I’m sure to trip over a Lego tower land flat on my face.

Two: (and this second fear haunts me a million times more than the first) I’m afraid that if I don’t take the time to look up, I’m going to miss out on all the wonderful opportunities God really has in store for me. The last thing I ever want to do is to get so caught up in the structure and predictability of my life, that I miss that quiet voice within that would lead me down the less traveled, and more extraordinary, path.

As mothers (and in today’s day and age, father’s too), we are constantly on auto pilot. Get out milk, pour into plastic cup, hand cup to child, place milk back in the refrigerator, wipe counter, take cup from toddler, wash cup, put cup away. Repeat 947 times. . . per hour. We get so stuck in the monotony of the tasks at hand, that Heaven forbid anything should interrupt our pattern! One unexpected phone call during a milk pouring session, could result in an Iphone in the refrigerator and a cup of milk in your purse. And the best part is, you’re all nodding your heads in complete understanding and agreement.

Bottom line? I feel so vastly grateful that Richie and I stopped. I feel so grateful that we took the time to look up and ask if there might be a different, better way for our family. We love Hawaii and we always will, but there is no doubt in my mind that we are headed to exactly where God wants our family at this time in our lives, and certainty, well, it’s an extraordinary feeling my friends.

We have seen miracle after miracle after miracle over the last few weeks. It hasn’t been easy, not by any stretch of the imagination, but ike I said above, when you are on the right path, doors open everywhere to make way for you. I am living, breathing proof of this gospel truth.

jenny haas:
Natalie! It has been a while since I have visited apparently because I had no idea you were moving! I wish you and your family all of the best in your journey to Phoenix, I know the Lord will continue to bless you, you will inspire and encourage people no matter where you end up! safe travels :) May 31, 2011 11:41 am

Shelly:
Wonderful, wonderful post! The photo to go along with it is simply magnificent. May 31, 2011 12:45 pm

shari:
yes, you are so right. about the legos...and phone in the fridge (or toilet)...and for recognizing miracles when you're on the right path...even if it isn't what YOU think is "ideal"...i too have had moments of certainty in the last 2 years and completely understand what you're saying. :) May 31, 2011 3:43 pm

April:
You all are so brave and strong and I admire what you are doing for your family. Good luck with with the move and everything xoxoxo May 31, 2011 4:03 pm

Gaye:
Blog stalker here - this was a post meant for me. You will never know the sermon you preached or how I needed this witness. Thank you.
PS. FYI - It's still cool here in Phoenix (under 100 is considered a cool breeze!) May 31, 2011 5:33 pm

Erin:
I love that you wrote this post and it feels like it is just for me, we too are in a transition in our lives and I believe, like you, when you put your trust in the right thing doors do open everywhere. I have seen it too! May 31, 2011 5:34 pm

Jennifer Garbett:
Super excited to welcome you to Phoenix!! I'm sure you'll love and hate different parts of it, but most definitely you'll grow and flourish wherever you are...because you are clearly that way in all aspects of your life! And it's amazing! And hey, it will just take a couple of times of your kids walking barefoot on our summer sidewalks to learn that shoes in the summer are NOT optional =) I hope we can do lunch sometime once you get your family settled here. May 31, 2011 7:04 pm

Emily Ley:
I am nodding my head at that middle paragraph. I love you Natalie! You are headed for AMAZING THINGS IN PHOENIX! G, L and I might just have to plan a trip there soon :) xo This is beautiful. June 1, 2011 8:58 am

Lauren:
Natalie, I love you and your insights. I SO miss you! June 1, 2011 9:01 am

Melissa Oholendt:
So proud of you for doing that. It takes commitment and complete humility and trust in God to pick up and move from a place you love but God is so faithful. And you are listening. LOVE YOU. June 1, 2011 9:09 am

Gina:
i love your heart and your constant living which is such a testament to God's ultimate plan and it makes me want to get down to the simple and look up everyday. Natalie you and the Nortons total make me a better person. I am so stinkin' blessed to have you in my life. I love you. June 1, 2011 12:15 pm

mickisha:
Natalie thanks for all the inspiration you provide for my life. You have the ability through your writing to make people feel understood and validated. More importantly though you make me want to be better and work harder at what's important. Thank you! You are incredible! June 1, 2011 4:10 pm

Kara:
Hi Natalie, so I'm not sure if I've ever commented, and if I have, it's been quite a while. Anyway, I just wanted to wish you the BEST of luck in your move. Moving can be SO hard, but it can also be SO wonderful. I know you'll do great where ever you are (although summer time isn't the best time to move to phoenix, give it a couple months before you start to judge it! haha). And I must selfishly admit that I'm really excited you're moving to Phoenix, I live in southern AZ and while the chances are probably slim to none that I'll get to meet you, it would be really be awesome to cross paths sometime. You're strength and faith are such an inspiration, so thank you for sharing what a strong and incredible woman you are with all of us who blog stalk you. ;) June 1, 2011 6:53 pm

Lizzie:
Thank you Natalie for the reminder - I've had a few of those (unfortunately sad) events in the past couple of weeks that make you stop and think about priorities, yes, but also the values where those come from. AZ is a big change - but with big blessings!!! June 2, 2011 12:47 am

Above image from K and D’s engagement session. Can’t wait for their wedding on the 18th!!

Happy Memorial Day.

The yard sale went well. We sold all our big stuff within the first 15 minutes. Plus, we get to keep most of it to use until we move, so that’s pretty fancy. They boys are outside “enjoying” their last shebang on the playground before the new owner comes to pick it up in about an hour. I say “enjoying,” because from the sound of things, I’m pretty certain it’s all out war.

I’m hiding in my bedroom. Don’t tell anyone.

Now it’s just time to dig through boxes and drawers and deal with all the BILLIONS of papers we’ve accumulated over the last 10 years. 63% of me wants to just close my eyes and feed the paper shredder . . . unfortunately my voice of reason lives in the remaining 37% and she says, “there might be ONE thing in there that’s vitally important!”

Since my brother died, every now and then I find little notes or drawings when I’m going through old paperwork. They are absolute treasures. Once, about a year ago, I found a notebook he’d used during the week he took his “vow of silence.” Yes, for no apparent reason, Gavin decided not to speak for an entire week. He likely just wanted to prove that he could. Flipping through that notebook, I remembered how during that week of silence, he got pulled over by a police officer, and handled the entire situation without ever once opening his mouth. From what I remember, he was let off simply because the cop didn’t quite know how to respond to the madness. He sold his truck that week as well. . . again, without ever opening his mouth.

Everything that went from his pen to paper is absolutely brilliant, and discovering things like this helps me remember that he really did LIVE, that he’s not just a figment of my imagination from a former, less complicated life. . . so. . . I’m going to spend a good portion of this day carefully going through paper after paper after paper hoping for brilliance.

Come to think of it, I guess this really is a wonderful way to spend Memorial Day. . . searching for memorials. . . ??

In Reality? This is all just a feeble attempt to mentally glamorize what will likely be me, sitting on the floor, in my pajamas, thumbing through a bunch of old bank statements and tithing receipts.

Damaris @Kitchen Corners:
We're moving in the end of the month and I'm going through all my clothes today. I found out that I don't need to buy any more clothes because in reality I have a bunch of cute ones. I would of never found out because they're stuffed away and I always just wear what's on top. Really I just wear about the same 5 outfits. I want to be a minimalist I just don't know how.
In going through my paper stuffs I found a binder with all the MSN instant message conversations my husband and I had while we were dating and every single email we sent to each other during the year and a half we were dating. Also priceless. May 30, 2011 11:47 am

natalie:
Damaris: Oh goodness. I hear you. It's like every 100th thing you find something you're SO HAPPY TO HAVE. I've been totally resonating with all your moving tweets lately. Where are you guys headed? May 30, 2011 2:59 pm

Ashley Daley:
I remember when your brother had that week of silence... :) May 31, 2011 10:18 am

Cece:
Natalie, a friend told me about your site (I love your work) -- I also poured over your story and wanted to wish you safe and exciting travels. I think AZ clients will be very lucky to have you! May 31, 2011 11:26 am

alisa greig:
can't believe it's really happening :( seriously, let me know if i can be of help tomorrow--i'd be happy to! and yay for phoenix!! May 27, 2011 2:18 pm

Ashley:
I know I shouldn't laugh... but when I read that the second thing on the list was the playground I couldn't help but get a big grin on my face as I remembered that homeless man putting that beast together. Glad the boys + the neighborhood got to enjoy it for a few months! Good luck with the move! Wish we could be there to help/ buy that amazing playground for our future kiddies. May 27, 2011 2:24 pm

Ashley Moffat:
nat- how much do you want for the storage cubes? we just may want em! May 27, 2011 4:13 pm

Jesse:
oh nat! I am just dying to get my hands on those "shabby chic" armoires. May 27, 2011 4:41 pm

josh solar:
We would be all over that swingset if we could get it here :)
Good luck on the sale and more importantly on the move! May 27, 2011 4:57 pm

Kirsten:
Man, I wish I could come to your yard sale. You weren't exaggerating when you said you have good stuff. Hope it works out great! May 27, 2011 5:23 pm

becky demartini:
hey natalie, we are interested in all of your beds! just how much might you be asking for them? thanks :) May 27, 2011 5:56 pm

Kristy Carlson:
Best thing I did at our Burundi-or-bust sale last week was enlist three volunteers to take money, another volunteer to oversee them and answer their questions, and a grandparent for the kiddos. Could not have survived without them all! It completely took the pressure off and there was STILL lots to do even with all that help! Hope it goes well today, thinkin' of you! May 27, 2011 6:53 pm

natalie:
Jesse, when did you get so sassy? You're as bad as Tyler McBride. May 28, 2011 12:59 am

Well, the cat is officially out of the bag. . . though admittedly, the cat liked life in said bag. It’s dark and peaceful there, and her personal space isn’t congested by yard sale signs or packing peanuts.

Phoenix it is. Phoenix. Phoenix. Phoenix. That is the way the wind blows (for one unexplained reason or another), so that is the direction we will fly. I’m learning a lifetime’s worth on love, inspiration, faith and obedience to the will of God. . . even when I can’t seem to see the end from the beginning.

It’s hard. Traumatic, honestly. (I know. I’m such a drama queen.)

Please note that the trauma has very little to do with WHERE we’re going. I’m certain I’ll learn to love Phoenix, completely. (I am, after all, a “bloom where you’re planted” kind of gal.) I’m simply traumatized that we’re going anywhere at all. I love my life here in Hawaii. I don’t want to go anywhere else. Ever.

This is my home. . . I’ve felt more of a sense of belonging here than I have ever felt in my entire life, and I’m so thankful to the people here who welcomed me with open arms and taught me how to . . . be.

I’m light years away from the clueless, and somewhat broken, little 19 year old who came here a decade ago. I’m a better version of myself, plain and simple. I’ve learned to love, to let go, to give. . . oh the lessons I’ve learned on giving! I’ve learned to walk forward in faith and with a grateful heart, always and in all things. I’ve learned to LAUGH. To really, really laugh. The way only a Polynesian can teach. . .

And I’ve learned to listen. I’ve learned to listen in a way that I could never hope to adequately explain.

And. . . and, and, and. . .

Above and beyond anything else, I’ve learned, simply, to trust. I’ve learned to know that God’s hand really is in the details of my life, and that if I am quiet, if I humbly seek with pure intent, he will guide me in all things. And his plan will always be better than my own. Every.single.time. Even if his plan leads me to Phoenix. ;)

Hawaii, and the people here, the people who I have come to LOVE as my own flesh and blood, are sewn forever into the tapestry of my very soul.

Phoenix, be ready for me. I’m digging deep and trying with all.my.heart to be ready for you.

Rachel Whetten:
WOW! Well, its sunny! no doubt about that. You already know you will be blessed as you follow this plan God has for you guys. Its takes EXTRA faith to head there when its probably the hottest of all throughout the year though, but you've GOT that extra faith, and with that will come EXTRA blessings (air conditioning, etc ;) ) j/k In all honesty, I have no doubt you will make Phoenix LOVE you just like you have made Everywhere else you've been love you! We were there 3 years ago during the spring for 2 months (after we left Hawaii) for Brady's final internship. Knowing it wasn't permanent made it easier to handle the time we were there, but ours was a short time so I'm not pretending to know what you guys are going through, I promise. On another note, I have a roommate (from BYUH) who grew up there (Peoria to be exact) who LOVES LOVES LOVES it and would never want to live anywhere else, so that's promising. Hugs for you! Rachel May 23, 2011 6:39 pm

Katie:
A phoenix is a mythical bird that is a fire spirit with a colorful plumage and a tail of gold and scarlet (or purple, blue, and green according to some legends). It has a 500 to 1000 year life-cycle, near the end of which it builds itself a nest of twigs that then ignites; both nest and bird burn fiercely and are reduced to ashes, from which a new, young phoenix or phoenix egg arises, reborn anew to live again. The new phoenix is destined to live as long as its old self. In some stories, the new phoenix embalms the ashes of its old self in an egg made of myrrh and deposits it in the Egyptian city of Heliopolis (literally "sun-city" in Greek). It is said that the bird's cry is that of a beautiful song. The Phoenix's ability to be reborn from its own ashes implies that it is immortal, though in some stories the new Phoenix is merely the offspring of the older one. In very few stories they are able to change into people.
OK, so clearly I just copied that from wikipedia...BUT! When I read you were moving to Phoenix, well, it just made sense. PHOENIX. I don't think I need to say more?
You are incredible. Your boys are so lucky to have you.
x May 23, 2011 6:50 pm

Michelle H:
I'm so very excited for you and your family... WELCOME to AZ! What an adventure for you guys. If you need anything at all please do not hesitate to ask...I'm sure you will have great ward members no matter where you end up! May 23, 2011 6:53 pm

Emily Ruth:
The desert welcomes you! I was hoping to meet you at your Scottsdale Breathe but ended up here in Utah working for a few weeks. Anyway, I'm a native to Mesa and my little family just keep returning after each adventure. Good solid people here. Promise. May 23, 2011 7:05 pm

Brittany Sorensen:
Well...I'll be there...we can be friends! I'll clean your house for you :] May 23, 2011 7:10 pm

stephanie joy:
I am so so excited for you! I wanted to tell you on the phone today that I hope we have a few more runs, or karaokes party adventures before you go, but I didn't want to keep you on the phone too long while at the dentist! :) I am grateful I got to know you. So excited for your new adventures that lie ahead! Phoenix is a great, hot place. Thomas served his mission there and he loved it. May 23, 2011 7:26 pm

Joanna Polling:
Natalie, I am a photographer in Peoria, AZ and follow your blog and love your work. If you ever need anything please don't hesitate to ask. Phoenix can be pretty brutal in the summer but the rest of the year it's nice (not hawaii nice I'm sure, but still decent :)). May 23, 2011 7:28 pm

Ajja:
Your steps will be surely blessed wherever you are my friend. Hawaii will miss the way you took it ALL in! May 23, 2011 9:46 pm

shari:
wow...thinking about being 19 brings me back to when I lived in Phoenix...well, actually Tempe. I spent my freshman year of college at ASU. I absolutely LOVED it. I know you and your family will have holes in your hearts for Hawai'i, and I'm not saying that AZ will compare in any way...but it too has beautiful and wonderful things to offer. I am happy that your family knows that's where you should be...good luck with packing and moving and settling into your new place... guess my dream about house hunting with you (in AZ) was a tad bit psychic! hahaha.... xoxoxoxoxo May 24, 2011 2:47 am

Tami Nelson:
So exciting Nat!!!! That part about Heavenly Father being involved in every detail of your life......I'm realizing he is and trying to hear him.....I can feel him slowly, quietly guide me.....just trying to figure out my health still. I know it's not anything very common because it's been way too long trying to figure this stuff out.....I think I'm so close because I'm really trying to be led by Him.....every.single.day....so close!!! You and your family are in my prayers!! xoxo May 24, 2011 3:08 am

Aileen:
This will be perfect for your family b/c you're moving for the right reasons. Congrats to you and your family. And just b/c you leave Hawaii now doesn't mean you can never go back. ;) May 24, 2011 3:53 am

Jennie Allred:
Natalie --
My sister used to live in Queen Creek, on the south end of the Phoenix area. There is one place you simply MUST know about in Gilbert -- Joe's Real Barbecue. 'Nuff said.
Good luck with the move! And thanks again for just being so open and being such an example of faith and enthusiasm for me!
-Jennie May 24, 2011 4:44 am

mandy kongaika:
Hey Nat. I know the feeling and all I can say is I love you and you are right. The lords plan is better ever single time...even if there is no sun or beach or friends for a while. Oh it sucks...but its worth it:D I felt like the Savior (I know its totally dramatic and not the same at all just slightly similar) who said let this cup pass from me..not my will but Thine be done. You got this Nat. You can do it!!! I still cry every time i see a palm tree on tv lol and thats okay. May 24, 2011 5:14 am

Sheryl:
Welcome. Phoenix will be glad to have you. The transition from Hawaii will be something, but living in the desert is unlike living anywhere else. Feel free to e-mail me if you need help with anything. May 24, 2011 5:40 am

Millie:
I am so so so happy! My reasons are entirely selfish, but hey, I can't help myself. :) May 24, 2011 6:21 am

Jaclyn:
Natalie - I pray that your transition to Phoenix will be easier than you anticipate! And, once you are here, I'll totally be booking a family session with you! :) So, selfishly speaking, I'm kind of excited you'll be somewhere in the valley! Good luck with all the stress and craziness of a move - across the ocean! We'll be waiting with some sunshine & DRY heat! ;) May 24, 2011 6:51 am

Lara Cheney:
Natalie, Hawaii will definitely miss you, Richie and the boys too. You guys are definitely following God's plan and doing the best you can for the souls you have been blessed to care for. Cardon will appreciate it for sure as well as your other boys. They will get the very best from their mom and dad because their mom and dad are doing the very best for them that they can. I am truly blessed for having had the privilege of getting to know you and love your kind-hearted soul. God be with you till we might again. Aloha! May 24, 2011 8:11 am

Lara Cheney:
Haha, silly me that will teach me to post before I read and edit. I meant God be with you till we meet again. Hopefully, Phoenix will open their arms to you as much as you have expressed open arms to Hawaii. May 24, 2011 8:13 am

Sarah Garner:
Arizona is SO excited to have you! :) May 24, 2011 8:43 am

Erin McFarland:
Hi Natalie! I've been following your blog for a few months now and am just now popping in to say hello. But this post did catch my attention as we will be "neighbors" of sorts :) Extending a big welcome to your family to the Phoenix area! May 24, 2011 1:44 pm

shauna:
Hi Natalie. I have been blog following (stalking sounds so very scary) you for a while now. I adore your photography, I cry when I read about your heartbreaks, and I am sorry to say I am cheering that you are moving to Phoenix. I have been here (via UT and BYUH) for about 14 yrs. I must have just missed you in Hawaii. Anyways, just because I know that you KNOW that you are supposed to be here I also know that you and your family will thrive here.
Here are a couple of things you might want to know: First you will dry up. Your skin, your lips, your throat and the innards of your nose will flake and blow away in the slightest breeze. Then you will discover the blessing known as a swimming pool that will rehydrate you like nothing else can. Bragging weather starts about October and you will feel rejuvinated. Spring is delightful and the ugly desert reveals its colorful secrets as Palo Verde bloom yellow, cacti bloom beautiful colors of pink, purple and yellow, multi-colored Lantana explode and you will find that the familiar face-sized hibiscus and brilliant Bouganvilla will remind you of the islands. You will love that the food (especially milk) is much cheaper and I totally can hook you up with the asian stores that sell taro leaves, coconut milk and mutton flaps if you are craving island food. You will be happy to know that there is an L&L bbq here--so really, do you need anything else?
A tour guide?
Really?
I'd love to!
Good luck on the move. And yes, you really will make it back to Hawaii some day. There is no escaping the pull of the islands. May 24, 2011 2:03 pm

Chelsea:
Hi there Natalie - you probably don't remember me at all, but I was at BYUH at the same time as you and Richie. I was Chelsea Smith then. Just thought I'd say hi - I discovered your blog today and just spent the last while reading through. Seriously, you are an incredible photographer and writer! So talented. With such a beautiful heart. And a beautiful family! Thanks for sharing your talents with the world. :) Good luck on your move! May 25, 2011 5:27 am

Mindy Clark:
I couldn't have said it as well as you have put it.....we are setting sail also. We leave in 10 days. We are headed to Indiana. Lord knows we want to stay and we leave kicking and screaming in the process. Yet, just like you guys....God is leading us to happiness we can't even imagine right now. So we leave Hawaii a little wiser than we came.....a few more scars than hoped....and with tearful eyes we will watch Hawaii fade from the window on the plane. We must take a part of Laie with us and tell the world. It has truly been my place of refuge.
Aloha,
Mindy Clark May 25, 2011 4:05 pm

bettijo @ PagingSupermom.com:
Just found your website through Heidi Nobmann -- she and I have known each other since junior high! I'm still in Phoenix and you're going to love it here! We should do lunch once you're settled in. Hugs! --bettijo May 27, 2011 8:21 am

Rebekah R:
You and yours are going to love Phoenix. I think you'll adore all the photography subjects you'll see each and every day, and I think your lovely boys will adore all the fun stuff there is to do, from museums to sports to music related events to Tempe Town Lake and their paddleboats. You will (hopefully) adore monsoon season and the view of the storms rolling in you can get as you drive the 202 East, or the smell of creosote in the air before it rains. Just remember to buy sunscreen and a shade for your car windows, and don't touch the metal on the seatbelts. As a PHX native relocated to NorCal, my heart misses it and the beautiful openness that makes you feel like the whole state is yours for the taking.
Best of luck! May 28, 2011 7:21 pm

Donna Flores:
My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. That is a huge move, but God is in control of everything. May 29, 2011 6:36 pm

Lyndsay:
You guys are going to love Phoenix!! I am from Utah but live in Gilbert and could not be happier here. I tell everyone this is my little slice of Heaven. The summer's are hot but there is always a pool nearby. Excited for you and your new adventure. May 30, 2011 6:12 pm

Kim Percival:
Moving is sooooo very hard, especially with little ones. I just love you attitude towards it. I moved from New Jersey to Texas last year 3 moths post-partum with my 2nd & boy was I a mess. But low & behold, I have INCREDIBLE neighbors & am just now finding my way here. Home to me is where my family is. We will be happy as long as we are together! Best of luck to you Norton family. My your transition be the smoothest one ever! May 31, 2011 12:45 pm

Rachel Boatright DeVault:
I am amazed by your faith, but not surprised by it. You will be amazing--as ever--and of COURSE the Lord will bless your efforts to best serve your sweet family. June 1, 2011 10:57 am

Kristine:
Just came on to check in on you Natalie and just read your exciting news!Wishing you all the very very best!!! June 11, 2011 7:00 pm

Lacey:
How exciting! I'm from Gilbert and LOVE it there- sadly we are doing a stint in Texas for my husbands career. Hoping we will be back in Gilbert in the next few years! Moving is tough! Especially with kids! Good luck in the next few weeks! You will love Arizona-despite the heat-it's a great place to live! June 16, 2011 11:34 am

Dina:
My husband likes photography and follows your blog now and again. We vacationed on Oahu in March with our family and attended a ward in your town. The people were very friendly and because a family was moving they had a special goodbye song at the end of sacrament meeting and all met on the patio to say goodbye to them afterward. I thought this was a wonderful tradition and even though I didn't know them, I felt like crying because of all of the love in the room. I'm sure you will miss it there and everyone will miss your family as well. You are a wonderful, inspiring photographer and I hope that you enjoy Phoenix. July 15, 2011 1:49 pm

The following story is tragic but true. . . The time has come. 10 years and 4 kids later, we’re saying Aloha ‘Oe to our beloved Hawai’i. We are heart sick over this decision, but it’s time, and it’s right. Plain and simple.

I haven’t talked openly about this, but we have a special little guy with something called Sensory Processing Disorder, and the bottom line is that over the last year, it has become evident to us that here in Hawaii we can’t give Cardon the kind of support he needs to really thrive. Please don’t misunderstand, there are great educators, doctors and OT’s here in Hawaii, however the type of program that we are looking for for our son, simply doesn’t exist here.

The best description I’ve ever heard for SPD is that it’s “Autistic-like.” All children with Autism also have sensory integration issues, however not all children with Sensory Processing Disorder also have Autism. Watch the preview for the wonderful documentary, “Autistic Like”, to get a better idea of what this diagnosis means for our family. Be sure to also take a look at the about page. It’s very inspiring.

We’re not sure exactly where we’re headed; it all depends on which program we end up settling on for Cardon. We DO know 2 things: 1. We’re out of here July 7th. 2. We’ll be back someday soon! (We’re crossing our fingers 2-3 years, tops.)

So off we go to new adventure! Maybe we’ll even throw a master’s degree into the mix!

Dot McQueen:
Hard decision to make but now that you have made it I wish you every success in finding the place that is right for your son and your family. xx May 9, 2011 10:10 pm

Deanna:
The decision to move and actually moving is so hard (we just left Hawaii in February) but you have to do what you have to do for your son. And if Cardon is thriving, everyone in your home will benefit! Best wishes to you all. May 9, 2011 10:12 pm

Jenn:
You are a great woman, and an even better mom. Great thing will come of this. You're in my prayers. May 9, 2011 10:12 pm

Jase:
You will be sorely missed! For many many reasons! I am so excited for your next adventure! GAME ON!
Love you guys,
Jase May 9, 2011 10:12 pm

Evonne & Darren:
Family comes first and you have to do what's best for everyone. You will be missed but Hawaii will always be here! We will you and your family all the best! May 9, 2011 10:22 pm

Marsha B:
I wish you well on your new venture and continue to hold your lovely family in my prayers. x May 9, 2011 11:37 pm

Malia:
Wow Natalie! Laie will miss the Norton's for sure... but i know you'll be back! Best of luck to you and your family! I know you guys will find what's right for your family and best for Cardon! Love and Prayers for you from Fiji. May 10, 2011 12:30 am

Daughter of Calabio:
What an adventure you will have! I'm sure it will be everything you need, the Lord has great things instore for you all, especially Cardon. I am unbelievably sad to have you leave...but of all who go I'm sure you guys will come back. I love you dearly, you will never know all that you have done for me. I hope you return quickly. May 10, 2011 12:39 am

Marti:
What an awesome decision to make. I am excited to follow your adventure and I know you will do it with nothing but grace and love. (Can I put a shameless plug in for Atlanta??). xoxo May 10, 2011 1:17 am

Amy Paulson:
Natalie...the love you have for your kids never ceases to inspire me. I just got tears as I read the lengths you're willing to go to for your precious little man. And that he will see and experience God's love for us in such a tangible way.... Praying for you guys as you process, say alohas, make decisions and grow as a family. Thank you for continually inspiring me to give every last thing I have as a mom. You embody that daily. May 10, 2011 1:39 am

Denise Armbruster:
It doesn't matter where you live, although Hawaii is pretty awesome, you're a family and wherever you are is where you belong. You and Richie are doing the right thing, plain and simple. Get the help Cardon needs and return to your paradise and then paradise will be even better. Good luck on your adventure. I'll be praying that God puts you where you need to be. He always does. God Bless. May 10, 2011 2:08 am

Deb P:
Sweet Natalie, I wish you and your family all the best. How incredible of you to put his needs before your own. He is truly blessed to have you and Richie for his parents. And thumb's up to the Master's degree! Whoo-hoo! May 10, 2011 2:18 am

Kelli Nicole:
Crazy! Good luck figuring out where to go! I'm a little sad as I was planning on coming out to Hawaii sometime in the next year and was hoping to hang out :). Maybe in a few years :). May 10, 2011 3:09 am

Ashley Daniell:
Wow, I'm sure that decision was not easy! But I know you and you'll find a way back to Hawaii! But in the meantime, I think you should move to Florida!!! Preferably Tallahassee (yah, of course there are programs for Cardon here.....maybe). :-) May 10, 2011 3:15 am

shari:
wowzers! ditto to what everyone has said... best wishes for a smooth trip and transition into your new life, wherever that might be. xoxoxoxo from HB May 10, 2011 3:54 am

Tami Nelson:
oooo, an adventure!!!!! Wish you all the luck and I know Cardon will thrive!!!! So excited to hear your destination. May 10, 2011 4:14 am

Steph Lawrence:
I know how much you love Hawaii but I am certain that your family will find new adventures and beauty wherever you end up. I can't wait to see where it is. All my love to you and your boys, always! xx, Steph May 10, 2011 5:00 am

Rachel Boatright DeVault:
I SO admire your decision to move from your comfort zone to provide better resources for your sweet son! You will be blessed! May 10, 2011 5:38 am

Kristy DeGraaf:
So sad for you (and Hawaii!), but a great thing for where ever you end up moving! Can't wait to hear more on your plans! May 10, 2011 5:39 am

Damaris @Kitchen Corners:
so sad! i know how much you guys love hawaii and how much hawaii loves you guys back. i hope you find the right place to go some place where everyone in your family can thrive. any possible way i could convince you guys to move to brazil with us for a year? probably not right?! i remember the first time i met richie i felt like he would certainly go back to brazil one day. i think you guys could do amazing work there. maybe one day when your kids are grown up and you have less on your plate. good luck with the move. May 10, 2011 6:25 am

Jenn A.:
we also leave the island on the 7th! Maybe we'll see you at HNL. What a lucky boy Cardon is to have parents like you guys. Remember, all you need to be 'home' is the love of your family. Have crazy, awesome fun on your adventure! May 10, 2011 6:55 am

Brittany Williams:
it's so encouraging to see a mom who is willing to put her family above everything else and do what needs to be done! hopefully this means that someday (sooner rather than later like I thought it would be) I can finally meet you! yay!
also, my husband has sensory processing disorder (formerly sensory integration disorder) and has since he was very young....so we understand exactly what you guys are going through! hope that you find the best medical resources available. :) May 10, 2011 7:16 am

marie rose:
Good Luck on this adventure. My cousin has high functioning autism and I know his mom really struggled with what to do. I hope you find him the best help out there! May 10, 2011 7:28 am

Shelly:
It sounds like a wonderful, challenging, yet FANTASTIC plan! Remember "It'll all come out in the wash" May 10, 2011 7:47 am

echo:
WHAT?!?!?! nat! oh man, i will miss you guys. please lets hang out before you go. please please please. oh and i want you to take some maternity pics of my fat belly in a few weeks. would you? could you? please? May 10, 2011 7:52 am

natalie:
Thanks everyone for all the encouragement! It's scary to be sure, but I just keep repeating the line from 'Lead Kindly Light': "Keep Thou my feet; I do not ask to see the distant scene; one step enough for me." One step at a time, One foot in front of the other! May 10, 2011 8:08 am

natalie:
Echo, Of course!!! To all of it! Of course! May 10, 2011 8:09 am

Bitsy:
Say whaaa?? That'll be great for you. When I saw that you were looking for schools I thought, if you guys lived somewhere else it would be much easier to find a school. Guess I was right. I'm so sad that you guys are leaving, but how fun for y'all! Good luck! Please let me know what I can do to help. May 10, 2011 8:57 am

Kerri:
Wow. That's HUGE. Well, if you decide on SLC, there's a phenomenal house for sale on my street backing up to a gully with .8 acres and tons and tons of friendly kids... :) I'd love to have you as neighbors, even if only for 2-3 years.
Kidding aside (well, I'm not really kidding), best wishes for all of you. Way to be brave and do what's best for your family. May 10, 2011 9:33 am

Kristy:
My friend, I am so proud of you. I know what it's like to do a move like this. It takes absolute guts. It takes resolve. It takes courage. I'm with you, doing the same a continent away. You're not alone in this. Praying for your family. May 10, 2011 9:43 am

Amy C:
My son has ADHD and Sensory Processing Disorder. I completely understand what you are going through. I hope you find what you are looking for! May 10, 2011 9:45 am

Laura Reaux:
I hope you guys find something that works best for you guys! I homeschool my 5 kids, and a big reason is because my two oldest kids were diagnosed with Autism at early ages. I feel sure that Ella has progressed to only dealing with SPD (while Camden has Asperger's). I really can not imagine either of them in a school setting that wasn't specialized for their needs. I understand that some of the decisions we make in their best interest aren't always easy (like running a photography business while homeschooling), but our kids will benefit from it so much as adults. Bravo to you guys for this! :) I hope God majorly blesses your adventure! May 10, 2011 9:46 am

Lara Cheney:
It is probably a very, very hard decision to make but it is truly inspiring that you are doing everything possible for Cardon. Good luck to you all and god bless you for all that you do and continue to do to help your children thrive. May 10, 2011 9:55 am

Amy C:
I wanted to add that if you haven't read The Out of Sync Child, it's a great way to get more info. There is a follow up called The Out of Sync Child Has Fun which is fun activities you can do at home to help. We had to stop OT because of the drive and cost. The things that have helped my son are yoga, swimming lessons and martial arts. All have helped with balance and body awareness. I'm not sure the extent of the SPD, but these are things I've noticed offered improvement. I'd be happy to offer any support I can. I applaud your attention to the needs of your child and family. It will be OK! May 10, 2011 9:57 am

Cassie:
Natalie, I know exactly where to are, trying to find the best for your child. I commented on Facebook about the k12 school option that I am doing with my little girl who has asperger's. If you are looking to be close to family, there are two great schooling options in Utah. One is Spectrum Academy, it is a charter school for kids on the ASD spectrum and with PSD, their website is www.spectrumcharter.org there is also the Pingree school. this one is a private school and is around $2000 a month, their website is www.carmenbpingree.com/. After looking into these, I wanted to send my little Kaylee to one of them, but then after lots of praying my husband and I felt that the home school option would be best for her. I wish you all the best in figuring all of this out for Cardon and your wonderful family. May 10, 2011 10:17 am

Courtney:
Just wanted to pass along...there is some great info about SPD on one of my favorite blogs: www.kidzorg.blogspot.com Best of luck to you and your family--enjoy the adventure! May 10, 2011 10:50 am

Janet Williams:
Wherever you end up they'll be lucky to have you. Good luck in your move. We love you. May 10, 2011 10:55 am

stephanie joy:
WOW you guys!! This is huge! You are excellent parents and good luck in finding your new home. Come back to us soon! You will be missed for sure. May 10, 2011 12:20 pm

erin h.:
you all are such wonderful parents and you keep proving it time and time again. good luck- i know you'll find where cardon needs to be. :) hugs from NC. May 10, 2011 12:54 pm

Rebecca Waldron:
No way! That's crazy. Well, it will be an adventure with new places to see and relationships to create. I know you guys will do great. I hope you find the perfect place for Cardon! May 10, 2011 5:46 pm

Janna Beecher:
We spent the first 2 1/2 years not knowing why our daughter cried all the time and she was so upset and scared all the time. Doctors would always say it was just her age, but one day a friend suggested that she might have sensory issues and we got her into occupational therapy soon after that. It changed her life and ours. Good luck you guys with this next adventure and prays for Cardon and you and your husband. Keep us posted! Admirations from MT. :) May 10, 2011 6:03 pm

heidi:
kuddos to you both for making this decision. hard is an understatement. May 11, 2011 6:12 am

Noel:
A new door is opening and a amazing new chapter in an incredible family's life is starting! Best wishes on the journey and let me know if you ever need help with anything on the mainland:) Love you! May 11, 2011 6:44 am

Rachel Whetten:
Wow Nat! I never thought you guys would leave, but it makes PERFECT sense why you are and just want you to know our prayers are with you guys in this HUGE decision and the many other decisions that go along with it, where, etc. No doubt the Lord will guide you. Wish I knew more about facilities etc, so I could find a great one in Oregon if there is one. Hawaii will always be your home and you'll be back there again one day. Any chance you could use some help packing, etc that first week in July? We arrive on the 1st. Would love to come by and help in any way I can maybe that Saturday the 2nd. I'm sure it'll be pretty low key for us, not much happening that day. I can CLEAN if nothing else, toilets and all. Or even during that following week the 4th, 5th, 6th, etc if you still live where I think you do, we will be camping almost across the street that week so I can swing over any of those days if that were better, to clean or whatever. Or if everything is taken care of when we get there and the weather is great, maybe we can at least make a day at the beach for a hour or two one last time that Saturday while we both happen to still be there. We'll be in touch when it gets closer my friend. In the meantime, we'll pray! :) Lots of love, Rachel May 12, 2011 11:24 am

laura:
We will miss you! But wishing you the best- you both have been so inspiring to me, and I see your imprint in our community- almost everywhere I look. Much love and ALOHA from the Blum fam! May 12, 2011 4:42 pm

Lori:
My son also has SPD. I have found this site to be very helpful: http://www.spdbloggernetwork.com/ May 16, 2011 5:11 am

Valerie:
I found your blog from Texas Is for Lovers blog so we don't know each other, but I wish you the best on your move and finding the right program for your little guy. I have an autistic nephew and his new school has made quite a difference for him. He still doesn't talk and do other things, but little improvements are a big deal. Hope your move goes smoothly! May 16, 2011 12:17 pm

Dolly:
I knew this day would come. You are a WARRIOR MOM. I remember years ago, when you told me you would go anywhere and do anything for your child. I LOVE that kid! He's worth it a trigillionbajilliion times over. This kind of gut wrenching move also comes with an equal amount of excitement. TRUST me! May 18, 2011 5:32 am

erika plummer:
Welcome back to the Mainland for now. Cardon is so blessed to have you and Richie as parents.
XO - E May 18, 2011 7:58 pm

jamie:
A friend of mine owns a Brain Balance center in Southlake, TX. If you'd like any specific information about it or the program, I'd be happy to pass along his contact information! It's definitely worth checking out if you haven't already! website: http://www.brainbalancecenters.com/ May 19, 2011 4:40 am

Vanessa:
I just said a prayer for you guys. I KNOW God is with your family, and working through you and your family. Thank you for your inspiring courage and faith. May 19, 2011 1:24 pm

Johanna B:
Hi there! Just found your review of Mike Colon on your old blog. Instantly wanted to see your new blog :) Great work. With that- I wish you the best with this new endeavor. My good friends' son has two boys with severe sensory disorders. They made a huge amount of progress in Seattle with certain programs there. She is very open and sharing about what they have tried & what works. If you'd like her email I'd be happy to send it to you. Hugs & Prayers! May 21, 2011 5:07 am

Marie:
You are in my prayers, and I support you in this long fight. Courage May 23, 2011 1:56 am

Teri:
Hey Natalie, I just wanted to add that when you are looking for a program that will work, you might want to consider adding therapeutic horseback riding to the mix. I have seen some really nice progress with children with sensory issues. If you want more info. just email me.
Maybe you will move close enough that we can go for that run together;) Hugs! May 23, 2011 1:19 pm

Amanda:
sad... but exciting! is it bad that i hope you ARE back in hawaii in 2-3 years? i really want you to take my family photos next time we're in hawaii!! :) selfish, i know.
welcome back to the mainland! May 24, 2011 4:20 am

jeff ambrose:
hey natalie, my fiancee is an slp here in phoenix. she works at a private practice and does some treatment with sensory kiddos. shoot me an email if you guys need any facility recs out here we'd be happy to help out. May 29, 2011 7:24 pm

Ste:
oh wow. i understand what a huge step this is. i know we had a fb conversation about this once, the SPD. i accepted the autism diagnosis just to get help for the spd. at the time, it was the hardest thing to do. we had a couple years of therapy and now we are on the other side.i think so many more kids have spd than anyone realizes. treatment changed my little man that is for sure. you and richie are some wonderful parents and i know cardon will be on the other side of spd soon too! June 2, 2011 2:43 pm

Haley:
Hi! I know of your family from living in Hawaii and seeing you and your husband when I worked at the bank (asb). My nephew has SPD. My sisters husband happens to be a therapist and he just started using neurofeedback with him and have seen improvements in a short amount of time. You probably have already heard of this, but just thought I'd throw it out there as an idea! July 7, 2011 6:57 pm

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