About Me

Fun-loving, crazy, suicidal (in a fun, not-too-lethal way), adventurous and out-going. Love to read and write stories, read and draw comics, listen to music and singing, watch tv and sleep. An uber fan of yaoi, which icked many, including my bf, but celebrated by many onliners. YAOI RULEZ~!!!

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turning back,i can see the face that left me on that fateful daywaiting now,always waiting for a sign to carry me awaynever knewtime would fade away so quickly without telling meplease believethere is still a chance for us to grow and finally move on

one more dayplease give me the strength to carry on the way you do (way you do)walk awayfollowing the path you laid ahead for me to seenever knewtime would fade away so quickly without telling me (telling me)please believethere is still a chance for us to grow and finally move on

where were you when tears were shed and i was so unhappy thennow i'm fighting for the freedom of what's really true

where were you when skies were blue and we were so happy - now,we are fighting for the freedom of what's really true

flowers bloom and flowers fade, your love falls from my eyesover the silence, never forget that i was always there for youyou always threw me away, torn into the guilty skyi won't let go of what you have done to make me who i am

flowers bloom and flowers fade but my love never diesover the silence, never forget that i am really next to yousmiling like there's nothing there, torn into the guilty skyi won't let go of this final wish that keeps us holding on

tell me howyou could be so careless with the words you spoke to mefeel my handslowly letting go of what we used to believe innever thoughtyou would turn into the person that i fear the mosti believeyou no longer need the chance to grow and finally live on

look aheadnotice all the laughter in the air that sounds so free (sounds so free)feel my handnever letting go of what we used to believe innever thoughteveryone would fade away until we were the onesto believethere is still a chance for us to grow and finally live on

i cannot imagine being with you as i simply smilenow i'm fighting for the right to dream the way i do

i cannot imagine standing here without a simple smilewe are fighting for the right to dream on like we do

flowers bloom and flowers fade, my love falls from my eyesover the silence, never forget that i was always there for youyou always threw me away, torn into the guilty skyi won't let go of what you have done to make me who i am

flowers bloom and flowers fade but my love never diesover the silence, never forget that i am really next to yousmiling like there's nothing there, torn into the guilty skyi won't let go of this final wish that keeps us holding on

when will you gain the strengthto accept what you've donewhen will you ever learn to live with the truth

when will we gain the strengthto be the way we dreamwhen will we ever learn to accept the truth

where are your memoriescovered by your shadowsthese aren't what i want...

these are your shadowsthese are your dreamsthose are what i want...

where were you when tears were shed and i was so unhappy thennow i'm fighting for the freedom of what's really true

where were you when skies were blue and we were so happy - now,we are fighting for the freedom of what's really trueflowers bloom and flowers fade, our love falls from my eyesover the silence, never forget that i was always next to youyou always threw me away, torn into the guilty skyi won't let go of what you have done to make me who i am

flowers bloom and flowers fade but my love never diesover the silence, never forget that i am really next to yousmiling like there's nothing there, torn into the guilty skyi won't let go of this final wish that keeps us holding on

I turn awayAnd even though it's certain that we partedIt's uncertain that I'll stayAnd uncertain you leave me on the lonely way

I follow you through every darknessEven when I'm lonelyI know I'll fight through every cold nightUntill I find youYou're standing tall and waiting for lightYour brightness leads me through the darknessShow me any way out!Never ending distances won't get me downCause I hope you come back to me againPretending that god bless

We were so warmMy icy heart melt down by your loveWhat can I do when everything seems strange to me?You're telling me"We won't meet again" We will, you'll see.But I am afraid of my feelings I'm loving you

Come, let's makeSome memories you'd only known out of dreamsLet us make a new startBut you turn away from my lonely heart

Stop it! I know that you are lyingYour eyes're never dyingAnd they will always tell me the truthThat there is nothingThat ever destroys one of my dreamsI know, our future could be dreadfulI could be a regreted foolBut I won't care if you promise toNever ever leaveThen I'll pretend just one thing:That only god knows

Now you and me are hereBut suddenly my dreamy thoughts, they disappearAnd nothing's left but memoriesI'm following the pastI grap your hand and you let goAnd so I scream: "Come back to me once again!"

And thats whyI follow you through every darknessEven when I'm lonelyI know I'll fight through every cold nightAnd now I find youYou're standing tall and there is the lightYour brightness leads me through the darknessShow me any way out!Never ending distances won't get me downCause I know you come back to me againAnd I know that god bless

I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 6 year-old again.

I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant and then be able to afford a movie.

I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks and bask in the sun.

I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them.

I want to lie under a big oak tree with a drippy ice cream cone and run a lemonade stand withmy friends on a hot summer's day.

I want to return to a time when life was simple. When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset. I want to think the world is fair. That everyone is honest and good.

I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly excited by the little things again.

I want to live simple again. I don't want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness, and loss of loved ones.

I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind, and making angels in the snow.

There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me.

I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me?

I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school one of my classmates said, "EEEE, your mom only has one eye!"

I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear.

So I confronted her that day and said, "If you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die??!!"

My mom did not respond...

I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger.

I was oblivious to her feelings.

I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.

So I studied real hard, got a chance to go to Singapore to study.

Then I got married. I bought a house of my own. I had kids of my own.

I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts.

Then one day, my mother came to visit me.

She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren.

When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited.

I screamed at her, "How dare you come to my house and scare my children!"

"Get out of here! Now!!!"

And to this, my mother quietly answered, "Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared out of sight.

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house in Singapore. So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip. After that reunion, I went to the old shack which was my childhood home just out of curiosity.

My neighbouts said that she has passed away.

I did not shed a single tear.

They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have:

My dearest son,

I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to Singapore and scared your children. I was so glad when I heard you are coming for the reunion.

But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.

I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up.

You see...when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye.

As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with one eye.

So I gave you mine.

I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;Forgive them anyway.If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;Be kind anyway.If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true friends;Succeed anyway.If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;Be honest and frank anyway.What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;Build anyway.If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;Be happy anyway.The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;Do good anyway.Give the world your best anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;It was never between you and them anyway.