Help me I am drowning

Hey Y'all- I usually post on the fibro site. I am a Katrina "survivor" now diagnosed w/ PTSD Panic and GAD-we lost everything except each other our 2 dogs and a 15 yr old truck.

I am drowning in sorrow, no hope, no joy I cannot imagine waking up every dayfeeling like this-am on welbutrin xl paxil cr ambien cr sinemet HBP meds and diazepam for out of control attacks-I feel lost, scared worthless (something my husband likes to remind me of) alone, empty, have had 2 days of "normal"functioning in last 2 months.

Anybody out there have any coping methods? MY psych's deep breathing and muscle relaxation are doing nothing and cannot be popping xanax like M & Ms with a 9 yr old.

I guess I just need to know someone is out there who's been where I am

Boy, that is alot on your plate to deal with. I know that in times of crisis, I have trouble feeling overwhelmed but have never had to deal with all you are going through. I do know that looking at it in an organized fashion, takign one taks at a time helps me see that all is ot lost and a I am able to accomplish things one day and one task at a time. Good luck and hope life retunrs to more normal soon.We can respond to irritation with a smile instead of scowl, or by giving warm praise instead of icy indifference. By our being understanding instead of abrupt, others, in turn, may decide to hold on a little longer rather than to give way. Love, patience, and meekness can be just as contagious as rudeness and crudeness.

Randy

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I can not imagine what you are going through, losing your home, and having to start over. What made me sure I needed to reply to your message is that need to find some coping mechanisms. I know how that feels. Xanax is a hard road to go down I was on it, had seizures and had to go off of it which is VERY difficult. So please use them sparingly. It may be helpful to have a email buddy list- people you can count on to interract with you everyday.Even if you do not feel like writing, do it anyway. It took me being on my meds at a high dose for 3 months to finally feel ok. No panic about seizures, no depression (I have blues that are reasonable now).

If you have regular email access, get a small support group going. You can add me to your list, my email addresss is available on my profile.

I am usually on the crohn's disease forum but I also have depression and happen to look over here today. I have had a hard time with feeling worthless, mostly when I was unemployed for 14 months and almost lost everything including my life. It sounds as you and your husband are dealing with so much that it has stressed your relationship. I think that is to be expected to some degree. Maybe you could get low cost counseling. At least for yourself if he won't go too. I know having someone put you down constantly can be hard to deal with. I divorced partly because of it.

As for coping methods you might try yoga. I have started it and after a few weeks I found that it really did help with my stress. I recommend stuff by Suzanne Deason, she is a good instructor. I have a couple of her videos. I wish you the best in the days ahead.

Hi Mags,I'm sorry you're having a hard time. I'm lower than a snake's belly myself right now and then I look at what you have to cope with and I feel like I should get myself moving and handle things a bit better.

Don't know if this will help but you can try it. Cry... a lot... then cry some more. There was a study done that found that when we are sad we have a certain enzyme that builds up in our brains. This leads to 'more sadness and depression' (well, Duh!) Anyway, it takes the body a while to metabolize this enzyme and get rid of it and if the source of sadness is still there it just builds back up again. The scientists found that one way to eliminate the enzyme very quickly was by crying. They found measurable amounts of the enzyme excreted in human tears and said that this would explain the belief that people feel better after a 'good cry'. This also helps explain why we often can go from complete sadness to crying and then finish up with laughter as we wipe away our tears.

I have used this aid for myself when things are really going badly. It helped me to know this when we had a death in the family. I didn't try to stop crying, just let it flow. I believe that I handled this crisis much better than past ones when I tried to 'maintain'. Hope this helps you a bit. You're still in my prayers, too.~ Jeannie

"People are like stained glass windows: they sparkle and shine when the sun's out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is light within."