Day 682 – Sabbatai Zevi and Schizophrenia

When I was 7 or 8 years old. I would play with fire and I would practice burning things and setting fire to different elements. During these ceremonies, as I would like to call them, of fire and burning, I had further mind dimension to it or a secret mind if you like, that I can spot today. I look back at this innocent play of mine back then, and I notice this thought or concept that I was teaching myself. I thought myself back then with my schizophrenic mind and ideas, that doing opposite of life was “cool” or accepted and right. I thought myself back then that evil and doing bad and against life was the right thing to do. That was a path I would follow. It made sense to me.

Now here is important to understand that this had already had been manifested into religion and occult practice and totally integrated into the world system and life of us all on earth to this very day.

In the 1600’s there lived an man called Sabbatai Zevi. He was, if you like the starter or occult Jewish religion and practice of doing opposite of life and what is good. Doing opposite of Jesus. He stated that we had to empty the universe for it negative energies or energies in total, by living sin. He stated that we had to do bad and against life – to have the system collapse. Perhaps he founded “secret mind”… who knows…

His practice was that we had to live in sin and do evil to have a new start. This belief had millions of followers since he promised other Jews to follow him as he promised to bring them back to the promised lands of Palestine. Sabbatai Zevi was the very early start of freemasonry and also the Rothschild bankers family. So this practice of doing against life, have been very, very well established in this world today. I think it is safe to say…. especial since all of money and banking is directly connected and in relation to this be – lie – ve.

So back in the 1600’s century this was then created and started as a new religion. You can say that thing led to this within the global and common practice and mannerism in the 1600 century.

Back when I was 7-8 year old. This manifestation and mannerism of convincing myself that it is cool and accepted to do bad and to do harm was then created within myself. This would further lead me into a path of sabotaging and aggression, and then later into drugs and psychiatry.

I see that direct link between my life and my discovery if you like and the fact that this practice and occult living/evil had already a death grip on world economy. Like it does today. The money in your pocket is symbols of this.

So just a note and a point of how easy it is to do bad, evil … the system is rigged to do that. Yes things are changing, changes stars with self. I chose self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for the very moment in time when I was 7 or 8 when I would burn things with matches, or play with fire, and do what was to me a ritual practice and behavior, where I see how easy it was to me to follow that path and slipping into those ideas and concept, already walked by others, of doing harm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Saddati Zevi or any other person for the life they had when they were simply products of their time and living that programming and consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of myself as evil or cruel in any way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for my ideas and thoughts as this idea and practice would follow me later in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that Jewish religion is this or that and something else in relation to religions in general and thinking that Jews are anything else that human kind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate Jews from humans thinking they are different in any way.

Today I see straight through this. This is not a difficult problem with me and my mind. It is however a problem with the world and money, and how we are thought to think that;