It all started at work

Friday, February 08, 2013

I have worked in my facility since 2007. I run a department. Throughout these past 5 years I have battled depression. 2 years ago I had lost 35 pounds and have kept that off. But lately I have noticed the depression coming back, and sometimes I will have an anxiety attack. I hate to loose control like that. I get scared and afraid.

I feel like the administration team has singled me out lately, because I refuse to do something that is unorthodox. So when they gave me my evaluation this week, it was the worst evaluation I have ever received on any job. I have always gotten acceptable evaluations for my work. The one thing that sticks out in my mind with all of this is they claim I have a bad attitude. That is just the tip of the iceberg So ok. I have accepted their opinion of me.

My plan, is to get out there and take care of me. With me doing this and getting some exercising in I believe I can change that "bad attitude". I will pray to God for guidance and strength through this. It can't hurt dieting and feeling good about me, I am actually looking forward to this.

Maybe you need a check up with your doctor. I was 45 and in peri-menopause and had depression so I started on Prozac and it made me feel NORMAL and not like I was down in a hole I couldn't get out from. Also, you may have low thyroid. I have been reading Richard Bernstein MD "THE DIABETES DIET" and he says ALL of us who are obese have Insulin Resistance and he recommends taking Metformin until we get down to a normal BMI. He has had Type 1 Diabetes since age 12 and he is 78 now. He has lectures on YouTube. He says ALL of us will get Type 2 Diabetes if we stay obese. I know I have Insulin Resistance, so I've learned so much from his book.

Also, I read Napoleon Hill's "SUCCESS THROUGH A POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE". It is an old book but the best ever written.

I know prayer works. I too suffered with anxiety for awhile and it even got to the point that I was calling the ambulance I thought I was going to die. I cried out to the Lord and asked him to deliver me from the anxiety and he can do the same with any problem that you have. Just keep asking him to help you through it. I also found that it helped to have a friend to call that knew what I would going through. I had a friend who also suffered with anxiety attacks, since we knew what it was like, we had an agreement that if either one of us was having a tough one we could just call and say I just need to talk...I told her I just needed her to talk about good things, things that were comforting...Sometimes just hearing about her kids or just her day, helped me through it...But keep praying. It has been 3 or 4 years now since I have suffered with anxiety and I give God all the glory. A big hug to ya.