Wednesday, February 8, 2017

"Sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been and remember the person you were meant to be. The person you want to be. The person you are." H.G. Wells

Today I was reminded exactly why it's important to live for me. The picture on the left popped up in my friend's Time Hop on Facebook and I was blown away by my transformation. I remember the picture on the left. I remember picking out that shirt, before going to play bingo with my friends. I remember being so mad that the shirt "fit" me. I was so fat, bigger than I had ever been. My relationship was not fulfilling and I was convinced I was stuck. I was convinced if I made a move, I was a jerk. A jerk who didn't deserve happiness. I was wrong, and although it has not been a pain free process, I over the last few months have figured out who I am, what I deserve, and I am just going to move forward. I want to be the best "me".......

I'm going my way.

You are welcome to join me and come along for the ride. Hell, I will even carry your bags for you!

But, gone are the days when I disembark the train, stand there on the platform, holding someone else's luggage while looking around and saying to myself: "But, I don't want to be here."

Gone are the days where I hold onto someone else's shit just because that's what a "nice" person does. I will continue to be "nice", but they can hold their own luggage while I alight the platform or move on down the track.

I'm going to just keep being me.
Doing me.
Living for me.

I want to be surrounded by people who want to be the best version of themselves.
Who want to grow and evolve if needed.

I want to give the best version of me as well as receive the best version of the folks whom are in my life.

I know I may have to wait for the train to pull into the station the second time in order to pick up a few people who missed the train the first time, and I'm okay with that. We all evolve at different rates.

Just know when the train comes back around and we give/receive the best versions of ourselves, it will have all been worth the wait......