Sunday, August 11, 2013

The Law .

I dedicate this poem to any of my dear brothers and sisters
who have ever felt like they have been misunderstood, judged, or simply afraid
of showing the worldyour God given true
self. My heart goes out to you <3

I’ll never forget my darkest night on German soil

The loud screaming thunder echoed the cries of my silenced
heart

I ran out into the haunting cloudy dark depressing pounding
rain

My muddy barefoot steps illuminated by the terrifying
lightening

and as I collapsed to my knees on the drowned soil that was
gasping for air but had no comfort,

so was I,

reality had hit me too hard in the face,

I couldn’t stand it’s painful blows,

I just wanted to strangle the law that was passed in 2010,

The cursed fact that I couldn’t escape,

I was just so sick of the lies,

I promised myself that if being deathly honest was the key
that would end it all,

That would just end the beautiful gaze in his deep blue
glaza,

So be it,

I hate the past,

I’m ashamed of my past,

I’m sick of explaining to people of my past,

I had no choice of my past,

It happened,

And the scars of 20 years later remain,

Seriously, don’t judge,

If you would have walked in my shoes,

You would have understood my pain and scars,

You’re honestly so narrow minded,

Judging me out,

Because I wasn’t born into the country I wish I could have
been,

Travel the world,

Gain some global perspective,

Get out of your” little country is the entire world”
mindset,

Open your heart,

Open your eyes,

I choose to be honest,

It hurts like hell to be honest,

As I look in your blue glaza,

But the time has come,

To show and be my true self,

And whatever happens,

Is simply God’s will,

I honestly hate being honest,

Because of your judgments and misconceptions,

But I’m honestly so done with this mask of lies,

I’m so done with trying to impress you and act like I have
it all together,

About Me

Labas my dearest friend. My name is Aistė. I am and my name is 100% Lithuanian. I Love Jesus, doing music ministry in Eastern Europe & Russia, and have a passion of loving on all the people God has blessed me to cross paths with in this beautiful life. I draw my writing inspirations from music,new people, new places, and the funny & crazy coincidences of life...