you know when you know
you're going to kill yourself day so there's no point getting into a relationship and traumatizing someone? that's how i've been living my life the past 5 years. i wonder when i'll finally do it. what will be the tipping point? how much longer can i deal with this shit life before i finally end it? i think about this every day. i don't talk to anyone about it. i can't. it's pretty much illegal to talk about committing suicide. when i talk about it i have to be very clear that i'm not in the middle of committing suicide RIGHT NOW or they'll send cops to get me. what a fucked up situation. i can't talk about the thing that is hurting me the most because i'm afraid of being caged by cops and doctors who don't give a fuck about me. i wonder how many other people out there are suffering like this, in this same way, who also can't talk about it because they're afraid of backlash? it's beyond fucked up.

if you're interested in him,
why is it him using you for sex? Assert yourself and get your own needs met instead of just whining that you're unloved and rejected guys because you think someday they might cheat on you.

every man who has ever expressed an interest in
me has been very clear that all they want is sex. no man has ever loved me. my family doesn't love me. and i'm too fucked up to be civilized enough to people anymore, so "friends" don't love me either. and i'm tired of being blamed for my behavior when i am not thewho made me the way i am. people need to gather round and take care of me for once. but they refuse to. because they just don't give a fuck. i mean, it's all MY fault i'm so fucked up, so it's all MY responsibility to figure it out and unfuck-up myself, all by myself. RIGHT?!!!! or. or. i can PAY a shrink to pretend to care for me for an hour every week. best feeling in the world, PAYING SOMEONE TO CARE. trust me.

i'll probably pull a Chris McCandless
and go for a "hike" in remote wilderness and "forget" to bring appropriate survival gear with me. i can die with the animals who love me, as far away from the animals who don't.

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