Dr. Phil says that if you find a girl with 80% of what you're looking
for, you should grab her and grow the other 20%. You'll do that a lot
quicker than waiting for someone who's 100% of what you're looking for.

So I grab on to Amber
Rayne (she turned 21 last September) and spend much of the night talking
to her.

In porn six months, she's done about 40 scenes, mainly gonzo for such
companies as Red Light District.

"I was doing mainstream," she says, "but I can't deal
with mainstream anymore. I was so interested in [porn]. I enjoy it."

Since age 15, Amber has loved porn. "I've always been a sexual person."

With Bad Ass Models,
Amber has a couple of small tattoos. She plans to get "Bad Ass Models"
tattooed on her ankle.

Luke: "Why do you like tattoos?"

Amber: "I like the needle going into my skin. The pain. The burning."

Luke: "Do you like to cut yourself?"

Amber: "Do I like to cut myself? Oh no."

Luke: "Are you into pain?"

Amber: "You mean bondage and hot wax and that? Yes."

Luke: "I've had a couple of porn friends who cut themselves and
I'm trying to work it through. So I'm asking everyone today if they cut
themselves."

Amber: "That's a little scary."

Luke: "It scares me. That's why I'm talking about it.

"How has it affected your life to be a porn star?"

Amber: "I've learned to accept myself for who I am."

Another person comes up and says hi to me.

"Hey," I say.

"You have friends everywhere," says Amber. "That's awesome."

She's such a positive person, I feel my gloom diminish.

"I realized this is who I want to be," purrs Amber. "This
is who I am as a person. Before, I was quiet and composed. I didn't want
to let myself go. Now I feel like a free person.

"I worked hard at school. I entered college as a junior [because
she did so many AP prep classes]. I have my BA in Theater Arts and a minor
in Art History [from Cal State LA]."

Luke: "How does your family think [about Amber doing porn]?"

Amber: "My mom and and dad were concerned at first. My mom mostly.
Now they've broken into manager mode. My mom's like, 'You have a shoot
tomorrow. Make sure you go to AIM. Have your test with you.' She's very
supportive. I've set up a 401K plan for retiring. She's my financial advisor.
I'm investing in real estate."

Amber: "Not at all. I was a regular girl. I played sports. I played
the guitar. I went to school. I worked."

Luke: "How's porn affected your love life?"

Amber: "I've had a boyfriend for a long time. He's awesome with
it. He knows that I come home to him every night. We'll watch my scenes
together. He's a musician. I love musicians. I love '80s metal bands.
This is Motley Crue's Shout at the Devil. I'm the biggest Motley Crue
girl you'll ever meet."

Luke: "I'm the biggest Air Supply boy you'll ever meet."

Amber: "Really? I love metal."

Lynn LeMay is back. She's
going to parties, she's drinking, and she's hanging out with directors
again (lately it's been Nic Andrews).

Amber Rayne says she spent her Saturday at the AVN
Show in Las Vegas watching football and drinking beer with the Red
Light District directors. "That's the kind of girl I am," she
says. "I like football and beer."

"There aren't many girls like that," I say.

"I'm one of a kind," she replies. "I'd rather go to a
bar or a football game on a date."

"When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?"

"I wanted to be a performer on camera."

"What mainstream stuff did you do?"

"I did Kids in America with Nicole
Richie. I was a cheerleader. I did... Cafeteria 3. I did a lot of
theatre."

Amber grew up in Detroit and lived in Northern California before moving
to Los Angeles almost two years ago.

She says she had a 4.25 GPA in highschool.

"Do you find your minor in Art History helps you in porn?"

"It does. The photographers tell me to do various poses and I know
what they're talking about. I can get into intellectual conversations
with them."

I think the one thing i just kinda wanted to say, especially since
this is really the first time i've seen it come up, in regards to my
cancer situation, is I'm absolutely fine.
I underwent chemo for a while, and that was physically and mentally
doing me in so to say, so I just opted for absolute removal. (no wee
replications of me running around). I do have to go in for periodic
check-ups but its been about a couple months under a year from when
they pulled it (bad visual there huh?) and i've been doing great. My
hair is even beginning to get thincker again!!! woohoo. (it didn't all
come out but it certainly thinned quite a bit..bummer).
Anyhow, no need to be concerned. I'm certainly not and really looked
at it as an annoyance more then anythin.

But now that thats outta the way..

HELLO ALL!!! I really hate that the only time i get to see some of
you is during the conventions only. next AVN I will go to the Adultdvdtalk
party..promise!
Cumwhipper how are you?? and how is the east coast right now lol? I
head out there to baltimore in a few days for a week and then from there
to prague..
Heya Coach!!! I was watching slap shot today and thought of you. :)
i'm slowly nearing that state of hockey withdrawl..
Hellooooo Mister Blue!! :D how YOU doin?
Hey knocko Nice to kinda sort of virtually meet you. oh and geek isnt
the word..I'm a flat out dork. next to LOTR and my huge love for comic
books, I'm a major gamer. after this i'm off to play world of warcraft...I'm
going to go hide in embarressment now LOL
HelloRandom... I enjoy your avatar!!
and Leyden thank you for the buzz...yes i am unsuccessfully trying to
be witty LOL