CIA mind control morphed into psychiatry?

Here is a new introduction to a piece I wrote several years ago. Then I’ll reprint the piece.

The famous CIA mind-control program, MKULTRA, always used psychiatrists; often these professionals headed up projects; they carried out the bulk of the research. But what I’m talking about here is the “evolution” of MKULTRA into mainstream psychiatry that affects the lives of millions of people every day.

I’ve demonstrated, on a number of occasions, that not one of the 300 so-called official mental disorders has a lab test to back up the diagnosis. No defining lab test. No blood test, no saliva test, no brain scan, no genetic assay. All 300 “disorders” are described and defined by committees of psychiatrists—and their non-scientific decisions are published in the DSM, the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, published by the American Psychiatric Association.

Unfortunately, the treatments for every one of these arbitrary diagnoses are toxic drugs; drugs that addle the brain; drugs that reduce people to a state of abject dependence; drugs that make people think they’re insane; drugs that cause violent behavior; drugs that create life-threatening problems when patients try to withdraw from them quickly; drugs whose effects mimic the very descriptions of mental illness.

In other words, modern psychiatry, backed by drug makers, has an ideal formula for disabling populations.

So it’s more than interesting that the CIA has pursued a mind control program (MKULTRA) to achieve, in certain respects, the same objectives.

—end of introduction—now here is my piece on a forgotten CIA document:

A CIA document was included in the transcript of the 1977 US Senate Hearings on MKULTRA, the CIA’s mind-control program.

The document is found in Appendix C, starting on page 166. It’s simply labeled “Draft,” dated 5 May 1955(note: scroll down to #123-125 in the document).

It states: “A portion of the Research and Development Program of [CIA’s] TSS/Chemical Division is devoted to the discovery of the following materials and methods:”

What followed was a list of hoped-for drugs and their uses.

First, a bit of background: MKULTRA did not end in 1962, as advertised. It was shifted over to the Agency’s Office of Research and Development.

John Marks is the author of the groundbreaking 1979 book, Search for the Manchurian Candidate, which helped expose MKULTRA. Marks told me a CIA representative informed him that the continuation of MKULTRA, after 1962, was carried out with a greater degree of secrecy, and he, Marks, would never see a scrap of paper about it.

I’m printing below, the list of the 1955 intentions of the CIA regarding their own drug research. The range of those intentions is stunning.

Some of my comments gleaned from studying the list:

The CIA wanted to find substances which would “promote illogical thinking and impulsiveness.” Serious consideration should be given to the idea that psychiatric medications would eventually satisfy that requirement.

The CIA wanted to find chemicals that “would produce the signs and symptoms of recognized diseases in a reversible way.” This suggests many possibilities—among them the use of drugs to fabricate diseases and thereby give the false impression of germ-caused epidemics.

The CIA wanted to find drugs that would “produce amnesia.” Ideal for discrediting whistleblowers, dissidents, certain political candidates, and other investigators. (Scopolamine is such a drug.)

The CIA wanted to discover drugs which would produce “paralysis of the legs, acute anemia, etc.” A way to make people decline in health as if from diseases.

The CIA wanted to develop drugs that would “alter personality structure” and thus induce a person’s dependence on another person. How about dependence in general? For instance, dependence on institutions, governments?

The CIA wanted to discover chemicals that would “lower the ambition and general working efficiency of men.” Sounds like a general description of the devolution of society.

As you read the list yourself, you’ll see more implications/possibilities.

Here, from 1955, are the types of drugs the MKULTRA men at the CIA were looking for. The following statements are direct CIA quotes:

A portion of the Research and Development Program of TSS/Chemical Division is devoted to the discovery of the following materials and methods:

1. Substances which will promote illogical thinking and impulsiveness to the point where the recipient would be discredited in public.

2. Substances which increase the efficiency of mentation and perception.

3. Materials which will prevent or counteract the intoxicating effect of alcohol.

4. Materials which will promote the intoxicating effect of alcohol.

5. Materials which will produce the signs and symptoms of recognized diseases in a reversible way so that they may be used for malingering, etc.

6. Materials which will render the induction of hypnosis easier or otherwise enhance its usefulness.

7. Substances which will enhance the ability of individuals to withstand privation, torture and coercion during interrogation and so-called “brain-washing”.

8. Materials and physical methods which will produce amnesia for events preceding and during their use.

9. Physical methods of producing shock and confusion over extended periods of time and capable of surreptitious use.

10. Substances which produce physical disablement such as paralysis of the legs, acute anemia, etc.

11. Substances which will produce “pure” euphoria with no subsequent let-down.

12. Substances which alter personality structure in such a way that the tendency of the recipient to become dependent upon another person is enhanced.

13. A material which will cause mental confusion of such a type that the individual under its influence will find it difficult to maintain a fabrication under questioning.

14. Substances which will lower the ambition and general working efficiency of men when administered in undetectable amounts.

15. Substances which promote weakness or distortion of the eyesight or hearing faculties, preferably without permanent effects.

16. A knockout pill which can surreptitiously be administered in drinks, food, cigarettes, as an aerosol, etc., which will be safe to use, provide a maximum of amnesia, and be suitable for use by agent types on an ad hoc basis.

17. A material which can be surreptitiously administered by the above routes and which in very small amounts will make it impossible for a man to perform any physical activity whatsoever.

At the end of this 1955 CIA document, the author [unnamed] makes these remarks: “In practice, it has been possible to use outside cleared contractors for the preliminary phases of this [research] work. However, that part which involves human testing at effective dose levels presents security problems which cannot be handled by the ordinary contactors.”

“The proposed [human testing] facility [deletion] offers a unique opportunity for the secure handling of such clinical testing in addition to the many advantages outlined in the project proposal. The security problems mentioned above are eliminated by the fact that the responsibility for the testing will rest completely upon the physician and the hospital. [one line deleted] will allow [CIA] TSS/CD personnel to supervise the work very closely to make sure that all tests are conducted according to the recognized practices and embody adequate safeguards.”

In other words, this was to be ultra-secret. No outside contractors at universities for the core of the experiments, which by the way could be carried forward for decades.

A secret in-house facility.

Over the years, more facilities could be created.

If you examine the full range of psychiatric drugs developed since 1955, you’ll see that a number of them fit the CIA’s agenda. Speed-type chemicals to addle the brain over the long term, to treat so-called ADHD. Anti-psychotic drugs [Haldol, Risperdal, etc.], AKA “major tranquilizers,” to render patients more and more dependent on others (and government) as they sink into profound disability and incur motor brain damage. And of course, the SSRI antidepressants, like Prozac and Paxil and Zoloft, which produce extreme and debilitating highs and lows—and also push people over the edge into committing violence.

These drugs drag the whole society down into lower and lower levels of consciousness and action.

If that’s the goal of a very powerful and clandestine government agency…it’s succeeding. In mainstream psychiatry.

Jon Rappoport

The author of three explosive collections, THE MATRIX REVEALED, EXIT FROM THE MATRIX, and POWER OUTSIDE THE MATRIX, Jon was a candidate for a US Congressional seat in the 29th District of California. He maintains a consulting practice for private clients, the purpose of which is the expansion of personal creative power. Nominated for a Pulitzer Prize, he has worked as an investigative reporter for 30 years, writing articles on politics, medicine, and health for CBS Healthwatch, LA Weekly, Spin Magazine, Stern, and other newspapers and magazines in the US and Europe. Jon has delivered lectures and seminars on global politics, health, logic, and creative power to audiences around the world. You can sign up for his free emails at NoMoreFakeNews.com or OutsideTheRealityMachine.

Hi Jon, Love so much what you talk about. Maybe not just drugs. So much of what you say about the medical establishment and big Pharma is true. Maybe Lyme disease is the perfect vector. I.ve had it for 10 years. Perfect stealth. Health, cognition, strength, everything damaged.
check out truthcures.org . Thanks

But it’s also possible that the parallels between the MKUltra and psychiatry are due to their shared belief systems. First, that consciousness is the product of molecules, and is determined/controlled by them. That assumption, because it is wrong, cannot lead to real benefits, but only harmful effects.

When you turn that assumption in reverse, and say that consciousness creates and determines reality, including biology, then all sorts of possibilities open up. We’ve already stumbled onto many of them – biofeedback, the placebo effect, quantum physics. Properly used consciousness (not just wishful thinking) produces a healthy body, mind, and spirit.

Hi Greg! I would pose that nobody tells reality what to do. It always has the last say. I may not like gravity if I were to jump off a tall building, but but whether I like it or not, or accept it or not, when I hit the bottom, gravity will be the victor and I would be dead.

As for the idea of a separate spirit apart from a body, That was a foreign concept by very early Christianity, say 33 AD to maybe 150 or 200 AD. Origen of Alexandria, in particular, started the nonsense of a separate distinct entity part from the body and derived form Plato and Socrates. Aristotle, on the other hand, I believe, argued for a purely physical existence.

But let me illustrate it this way. I watched a cat and a dog break down mentally, and then my mother and father. Just a total collapse in each case to where you could not recognize them as human except in from, but not brain function. These would indicate that a physical breakdown also causes a breakdown in the mind and its function.

In my own case, my speech and thought are not as flowing and smooth as they were in my 20s. For what its worth.

We’re not talking about Harry Potter magic here. Something a bit more subtle. And something not as accessible as just wanting to fly, for instance. There is much more depth to who we are, than simply “I want …” or “I can’t”.

Of course, a serious physical breakdown affects one’s ability to function mentally. Just as mind-altering molecules really do alter that ability. But we are not talking about destruction and interference here. Just because I can stop a car with a brick wall doesn’t show that the brick wall makes the car function.

Your little history lesson is simply not true. The ancient Egyptians prepared their tombs for an afterlife, as did most ancient cultures.

“I would pose that nobody tells reality what to do.” That statement says it all. It encapsulates the assumption that there exists this thing called “reality” that is separate from you and me. But, surprise surprise, mainstream science has found that this is not the case. They have discovered, for instance, that they must design their experiments to avoid any expectation of the outcome, because …. the outcome (not just the interpretation of it) is statistically affected by the scientist’s expectations. In other words, more often than not, their hoped for result prevails, regardless of the lack of causal links between the experimenter and the experiment. The experimenter is strictly the observer – yet just through his observation, outcomes are affected. Someone is telling reality what to do.

And at the subatomic level, they have conclusively shown that nothing happens – there is no reality – without an observer. What we call reality is simply a collection of probability waves, which collapse into real stuff when consciousness gets involved.

These conclusions are baffling to common sense. You cannot arrive at them just through reason and argument, which, by the way, was how the ancients did science. Until the Renaissance and the scientific revolution, which made observation a key part of doing science. It doesn’t matter whether it makes sense or not. What matters is what we observe. There is still a lot of push-back against this idea – people resist it. They want their reasoning to dictate how reality works.

The field of artificial medicine is sorcery. Satan uses that sorcery in an attempt to deaden the senses to God’s Spirit hoping people are unable to perceive it and or reject it having an unstable mind. Lucifer is counting the dead one by one eagerly looking to see which ones he can put into his prison for judgment day. That being does not want to die in God’s light alone.

I have tried to explain to my parents the whole A.D.D. thing is a sham. I was diagnosed in second grade. I was an extremely energetic PITA, that was never meant to be placed into that type of “learning” system. For whatever reason, I never appreciated external restraint. Imagine 12 years of Catholic guilted schooling.

It was literally a year and a half of testing if I recall correctly. All of which was monitoring, checklist behavior stuff, I Q testing games, etc. No scans. No blood testing. They put me on Ritalin and then everything else over the years. Here’s an interesting tidbit, anecdotal, but whatever.
Before meds, I was 2nd tallest and heaviest in my class. Fast forward to 11th grade, one of the smallest and thinnest. I finally stopped taking that garbage and sold it to my friends…
No BS, I grew 9″ between Junior and senior year once off the meds. It took another 2 years and eventually weight training to get the weight on. I’m still thin but that’s more genetics.

I can’t say for certain whether what is supposedly valid about that “condition” has merit, but I say with confidence all of those drugs are dangerous. Those effects absolutely occur and I was suicidal until I was off them for years, at least 5 maybe more? I’ve taken just about every type too and stacked Wellbutrin with Concerta… Not good. I remember vividly telling my parents “I feel like a zombie, I’m not hungry, I don’t like these meds”.
They didn’t know why I enjoyed pot so much. Gee, I wonder.

It appears to me the industry seeks confirmation bias without actually determining whether their foundation of their belief is correct. I think it’s mainly that brains operate different depending on the individual, and yes, there may be anomalies, or groupings of similar activity patterns, but it’s always reeked to me of a desire to control the “wild”or “bad” or “hyper”kids. I mean now, yes, I pretty much want quiet most of the time so I understand that but should 2nd graders really be sitting down in the same chairs for 8 hours a day?
Wouldn’t an education more tailored to each individual provide a more healthy and effective education?

I could go on more about this but the lesson I’ve learned is that healing comes from within and each person has a personality. Cherishing it, reflecting, saying no, taking responsibility, respecting others… All of that requires experience and mistakes. A pill doesn’t provide wisdom or clarity

Humans are the only mammal that doesn’t teach its young by playing. Playing is so important to children learning. Some of us like playing a lot. Some of us like playing all the time. And take it very seriously.
And when they are teaching you to be a citizen. Then, they want your undivided attention. They want you drooling or close to it at your desk. And we don’t need that. If you have a child, never send them to school, ever…

“…but it’s always reeked to me of a desire to control the “wild”or “bad” or “hyper”kids.”

They are not wild, bad, and hyper kids. They are alive, and spirited, and creative, imaginative litle whipper snappers. Who still have gas in the tank.
The pre-school diet and regiment of television has not done it’s prescribed damage on those you consider unruly.
First, get it out of your head that ADD, ADHD exists. It doesn’t exist. No matter what anybody says…anyone who tells you it exists is a lying liar.

Diet is extremely important here, Honest. Living food is vital. Take a look at sprouts and micro-greens. To curb the damage done. And help purge the heavy metals.
Sugars and high carbs, compared to slow carbs like beans, lentils; synthetics preservatives, overly processed foods; things like MSG, and tripolyphosphate and sulphites are not good. They are dangerous. Children breakfast cereals are a chemical nightmare. The only nutrition you’ll find is in the cereal box; is the box itself, it is high in fibre.

Do you grow a garden? That’s is important to grow food. It is easy to grow food. Do you hunt? Because hunting gets you clean unadulterated meat. And gets you next to that consciousness of feeding yourself. Well worth it. But proteins can be gained from vegetables, a much more potent potein and easily assessed protein.

Store bought meat is the most toxic food you can put in your body.
Stimulants like Red Bull are not good…weed is good, lol, if its organic and not grown with artificial fertilizers. And used in moderation.

One of your best comments and you have had quite a few. PLay accomplishes so much in children. Its vital for growth and development. It also is like superglue to emotional bonding. To a child, nothing says love like play. When I was young, say 3 to 5, life was so boring and lonely. my brother was 3 years young so it was just me. No kids around till 5. the boredom was unbearable. My mother never played with me. Finally having some kids around was wonderful at age 5 in 64. They had to approach me but when they did, it was heaven. but than I started school in the all of that year. my sentence in hall for 12 years. 12.5 actually. I have seen play make such a difference in my much young cousins and kids galore later. Play was like drug to them. They delirious. I also read a book a year or so back. The Spark, by Kristine Barnett. She found a way to reach autistic kids and actually vastly improve their social ability and learning skills thru, you guess it, play.

Most adults are too wrapped up in themselves to even notice their kids. the kids are orphans. Kids are just fine. It is the adults who are all f’d up! You’ll have to excuse my French. Its not my native language 😛

I thought I replied to this, and it hasn’t shown yet. I talked about planning a garden for next spring and getting some bees. I wonder why that comment never displayed.

I was interested in the comment regarding slow vs fast uptake carbs. Are they both bad or are the slow, complex carbs better?

Also, just to clarify, I use quotes for things when I’m mentioning what the establishment types call stuff (or what is acceptable to the status quo as reality), and typically I’m not in agreement with them. So thank you for your response, we are definitely in agreement that they are not wild, bad, hyper. I have some resentment for those words since those were the words attributed to me in my youth.

I’m very interested in these living foods. I’m weight lifting and trying to get to 170 pounds, but my dad only weighs 155ish and my mom is like 125. I don’t think my genetics want me to be that big and honestly its so much work, whats the point? I’m strong for my size but I feel these added calories are too difficult to continue eating. However, I’m concerned that if I eat a most vegetarian diet 1. I can’t afford it and 2. I’ll wither away.

hl – i totally promise you will not wither away on a vegetarian diet. check out youtube for vegan and vegetarian body builders. not that you want to go that far but it demonstrates what is possible. i think aiming for health is good enough. and vegetables are not as expensive as organic meat.

let me know if you want to me to send you hundreds of veggie recipes : – O

I had sort of a similar experience with school. My mother related to me, after I asked her about someone running out the cellar door of the apartment we lived in. It was burned deep in my mind. What happened there.

My parents had taken in a teen boy to give him a chance. My father worked at the boys reform “prison.”

I was two, and the teen was so jealous of me having parents who loved me that he grinded my 2 year old face in to the floor of the cellar. My mother said she heard horrific scream and came running down. I have no memory of that, just the strong memory of staring at the door and wondering if someone was coming back or not, but I did not know who.

My father took the boy back the very next morning after keeping the boy up all night, standing in a corner. As soon as he hit 18, it was off to Viet Nam.

My mother said after that, that I was a much different boy after that. First outgoing, happy. Then shy, reserved, cautious, and uneasy about strangers. I did not have contact other kids till we moved to another place and I reach age 5 in 64. There, i was afraid to approach kids or make friends. they had to make the move or it would not happen.

Here is the good part. Starting sub-primary in fall 64, my mother would give a a bag of chips for recess and they had milk in the morning if you paid for it every week, which she did. i would go the monkey bars and climb to the top and eat my chips and stay there the whole 15 minutes recess. Well, I must have stood out like a sore thumb. I saw a psychologist at times. I hated school, anyway. My attention often wandered. It was the worst environment possible.

But no one understood any thing about psychology back then. One could argue that most still don’t. But the problem was not me. I had a deep hidden would in the mind from an unprovoked attack. And the atmosphere of school was worse than a mind control sensory deprivation tank.

No one should have to go thru that. that is why we ended up being conspiracy theorists. Not that is not to say I don’t have a few rocks in the head, but really, I think schools deserve most of the credit. This is a secret tween you and I. Schools are franchises of Satan to, if possible, deny us all learning. By comparison, hell would be relief if it existed. And here is a question to ponder. Which is worse? A McDonalds franchise or Satan’s? That’s a tough one!

The amphetamine type drugs used to ‘treat’ ADD may have a long term project use. Consider that you are conditioning a young mind, while it is growing, and the last part of the mind to grow, to mature, are the frontal lobes that deal with consequence of one’s actions.

The ISIS ‘terrorist’ CIA theatrical uses a particularly nasty formulation of methedrines called CAPTAGON. Conditioning childrens minds to ADD drugs just might potentiate a liking, that is create additional receptors in the brain, for CAPTAGON.. Google CAPTAGON + ISIS for some scary reading. Those that think own us seek to place us at each others throats to prevent our uniting at theirs.

The columnist Jack Anderson wrote about Psyche Warriors being groomed by the Pentagon which we assume was also CIA. This was many years ago now, but this part of the mind control program is rarely spoken about. Just what were these psyche warriors fighting or doing in their “war” against the American people?

What is also not being discussed are the thought projection devices which can project thoughts into people’s minds and make them do things they wouldn’t usually do or say. We can give you many examples, but we know they use them to change the polls nationwide. They also use them to cause people to kill themselves, and the drugs make it ever so much easier to do this.

There is a book online, use to be, titled “The Next Voice You Hear” by Delamer Duverus. The author writes to his experiences and those of others who are sure they were victims of these devices, and perhaps it is these psyche warriors who use them to cause problems where none were.

We have caught a few of these transmissions over the years, an the last one was about cannibalism. In the dream, which we woke up to in the middle of the night, several people were to be used for food and in the dream this was okay because they weren’t really humanity, though they looked like us. We don’t know what set these people apart, but they must have been lacking in some way. The dream was making cannibalism okay, which is isn’t. We also knew after we went over the dream that we had had it before, like watching a rerun. You may not be able to bring up the episode, but once it starts replaying, your memory of it comes back.

Since that time which was about two years ago there have been two shows on Netflix about cannibalism, and a book came out where it seems like in a review we read it was making cannibalism more acceptible. There is also the book by Cormac McCarthy titled, “The Road”, about a postapocalyptic American which had been destroyed, and this man and his son were trying to get to a place a safely where they wouldn’t become victims of cannibalism, because there was no food and roving bands insane with hunger stooped that low.

Presently, we can see this happening with the changes in weather threatening crops, etc. However, more are gardening and really we all should be growing food if we can.

However, we want to know who is shoving this shit in our minds when we sleep so that we cannot filter out the wrongness of it. It seems like our “defenses” are down when we sleep. My late husband who was a vivid dreamer and remembered all his dreams knew they were trying to shove wrong thinking in his mind. He’s wake up so mad. He’s call them maggots, though maggots is too good a term to use since they do have a purpose.

In one of the vaccine series one chiropractor from Vermont said the first time the legislature tried to get rid of philosophical exemption, a lot of people stood up to stop it. She was perplexed because the second time hardly anyone stood to stop it. We wonder if they weren’t using the mind control thought projection weapons to quell the people.

Back when Bush Sr. was president for three mornings in a row we dreamed about Bush and that he was a bad president and really needed to go. We didn’t like Bush, knew he was involved in all kinds of corrupt shit, but why would we dream about him and for three mornings in a row, a Friday, Saturday and Sunday. The following Friday the banner headlines in our local paper read, “Bush down in the polls.” Makes we wonder if they didn’t thought project that to make us think Bush needed to go. They all need to go. 😉

Yes, Quebec, this IS the most powerful video of the four. Thanks for giving me a chance to revisit it, this time with proper audio and larger video format. Such wonderful, passionate speakers! I fervently hope that Robert Kennedy Jr. gets his commission.

What I note, Jon, is that not only has the CIA made many drugs to control and modify us, but they literally control the universities that teach and train psychologists and psychiatrists so that if a mind control victim were to seek treatment, many places and practices exist to sabotage that and prevent treatment or apply false treatment, if not eventually kill them. Certainly, they will try to discredit the suffering patient trying to break free.

So in reality, we will not have any real effective treatment at the hands of psychology and psychiatry. They do not want us to get well or get smart or be happy. The one psychology I find particularly impressive was/is Dr. Arthur Janov in LA county region, I think. But even he has to be careful. Those who sincerely practice to help mind control victims face a bitter challenge and lots of adversity. All our world seeks to keep us all mentally compartmentalized and disconnected.

Its only a few that rise the challenge. That’s better than nothing. Its all we got.

Never looked back after getting thrown out of the psychiatrist’s office in the early 1990s.
This fresh from Marxist U. true believer got mad when I said could you go to a chalkboard and draw up a psychiatry equation.
Back then it was Pamelor which is one of the worst drugs ever.

Your timing is exceptionally good with this one. We appear to be guided by the same spirits. Here’s a paragraph pluggin’ you in the right way from my latest article:

“…The most vicious corruption of truth is found in routine abuses of the label “abuse”. It seems that it is possible to pull off just about any statistical feat empowering the greater good when it is necessary to conjure “sin”. Therefore, abuse rates among magic words of the likes of “hocus-pocus”, “abracadabra” and open “sesame”. These release the door to any Aladdin’s cave. Science, of course, is very much an accessory to the fact. Today professional agencies specialise in up-branding old pseudo-sciences (though almost invariably these are the concepts that should have been shamelessly discarded at the graveyard of lessons learned). As the great journalist Jon Rappoport regularly cynically points out, all (and without exception) three hundred or more symptoms of abnormal behaviour scripted by the American Psychiatric Association (a science body) could equally be classed as symptoms of normal behaviour. It should be no wonder that psychiatry’s track record in its inappropriate (bordering on psychopathic) administration of toxins (promoted as) “drug cures” is atrocious….”

Utez,
It could simply be as simple as the phenomenon ofthe bodies own homeostasis being thrown off kilter by caffeine, taurine, Guarana etc, and then taking timefor your bodies natural levels to return to ‘normal’ justmy five cents worth. Good luck with recovry, and stick to good wholesme Speedwell tea, it hasa beneficial energy boost quality without the downsidesof the aforementioned stimulants, and were even used fromroman times onwards. The official name is Veronica Officianalis.
Best wishes.

I am desperately needing some information about mind control I have torturing voices stalking me in my mind .I’m singled out of society almost .I’m scared for my life .they know everything about me and a sychoparhic group of phycologically santanic group I believe or gov ? It’s the highest gov that git a hold of me and my family I beleive ..m hoping you can scan me or find who is behind it ..I’m not crazy …just very limited now

I have fragmented memorys & looking for a psychiatrist who deals with trauma based mind control. If you can suggest anything I deeply appreciate it.
My 2 son’s, 42, 47 think I have dimentia I swore to God they’d never find out. I’m also an experiencer/contactee & a vortex formed on my property in 2011. I have been on Starships & in underground bases, from New York now living in New River, Az., about 35 minutes north of Phoenix.
Widow to fallen Marine, agent Orange but I realize now he was a victim too.i was in Montreal twice for a couple weeks, stayed at St Jeans Royal Air Force Base, I had missing time I attribute to being programmed…, I was with Civil Air Patrol 3 years. I come from a completely dysfunctional military family and more. All my life I’ve been trying to connect the dots. Even though I was interacting with et’s I knew I was going through something more. No matter what I went through in my very rough life I always felt there wss more to me. I had a near fatle car accident in 7/2016. Major injurys. There was no reason for that accident. I don’t remember anything except waking up in hospital. I always felt I was a target. I apparently veered off the road & hit a solid concrete pillar head on in my Honda civic. That pillar which was reinforced with rebar went airborne, came down & crushed my roof then rolled off. I had a concussion, 2 broken eye sockets,, crushed cheeks, broken nose, stents, stitches, 4 broken ribs & blunt force trauma. I never had a car accident. How fast everything happens so fast which reminds me that we have absolutely no control over our lives at all. Sure we make choices, I’m accountable for what I do but I’ve been so manipulated. Things that make no sense. I know I’m electronically targeted. If you see any of my pictures of the ufo/paranormal activity that go’s on here hopefully you’ll understand with all the energy 24/7 it leaves me weak & I have health issues. I have agoraphobia. So, if you know someone I can talk to when I get up the strength, please suggest someone.
Most sincerely, ….theresa

I suffer from agoraphobia since a young child and family ties to Air Force as well as the father of my son working on a base and have been harassed and labeled so many times. I know now after waking up after the Hurricane Irma in Florida that the real evil is unknown to us until it’s too deep to feel like you can deal with it. I have you in my prayers.