Monday, June 29, 2009

The summer days are going pretty well so far. The only bad part is work, I feel like I am going to school everyday and today I was thinking in my head omg is it only monday? because i get soo tired but i know if i wasn't working i would get really bored during the day. Anyways, i just love random summer nights hanging out with people. Last thursday i would say was the best night of summer so far just because it was so random and fun and i got to see a lot of people i haven't seen in a while! Sherry Sadler also made an appearance, only a select few will know what that means :). on friday i saw the movie my sister's keeper. I literally cried throughout the entire thing, and for many different reasons. One was that it reminds me a lot of my own life and how when one person in a family is sick, the whole family is affected. But the friendship between the two sisters was inspiring, and it made me sad that i am not closer with my own sister. So that is something to work on I guess! one good thing was that we saw my world lit teacher mrs colianni there! Soo awkward. But anyways, last night was amazing because i went to a concert with molly and meri and we saw my favorite band Jack's Mannequin!! This was my second time seeing them, but it still astounded me how amazing they were. Andrew Mcmahon's voice was absolutely perfect and you can just tell that he loves every second of what he is doing. I think that with all he has been through, his music is even better. He knows that life isnt easy and i think all of his songs have really good messages. the best part was when they played watch the sky because that is my favorite something corporate songs and its always really cool when they play a something corporate one!! Alright i could go on about this for hours but i will spare you..the fray was good too though. Today is sadly my only day off from work, and i actually still worked in the morning! But i'm looking forward to fourth of july this weekend, more later!!!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Happy father's day!! I decided to work this morning so I had to wake up at 7 o clock ughh which sucked, but lifeguarding is pretty easy in the morning since its just the swim team, so you don't really have to worry about anyone drowning! We just got home from brunch with the family which was okay. My mom's friend is visiting so she came too. Yesterday was a good day because I went to the pool for a little bit, then went to Chinatown for lunch! It was really good then we drove home and mer, lauren, and I walked around the polo fields for a little bit because there was a Scottish festival! Then I went to see a play at night with shannon and my sister. It was surprisingly good, it was a musical, so the singing definitley made it more interesting. It is unbelievably hot right now though, it is so humid even though it rains all of the time. So it is either burning hot with the sun blazing, or stormy. Okay, sometimes I don't like summer because you dont see people as much but I have realized that it is actually better because it is more exciting when you do see people. Even my close friends, we usually talk or text but I don't see them in person every day, but now when I do see them I am more excited to hang out with them so it is actually a good thing. I am not sure what I'm doing this week, but im probably working a lot, since im trying to save money for college and the future. Actually, my money is mainly for the future, because i doubt i will let myself use it a lot during school, but after I will need to worry about living on my own, feeding myself, and everything! I got my course catalogue in the mail last week and i think i'm going to take french, psych, econ, and core (it is a required freshman class, and its kind of like an english/philosophy class). I also want to take an intro to business class maybe, but we'll see, i need a couple of options in case the classes I want fill up. I wish i had a sense of direction in my life, or knew what kind of thing i should be. I would like to do something that helped other people, but i dont know what i could do. The only thing that comes to mind is doctor but I hate science..so thats kind of a problem. Well, anyways I guess we'll see what happens next year, and hopefully i'll get more of an idea! anyways this is extremely boring so i guess ill write more later byee!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Sometimes it is so hard not to think about the past. I try not to, but it can just consume you sometimes, thinking about the good old days or how things used to be. I get so upset thinking about how much my life has changed and how my life would be today if some things had not have happened. Sometimes I think about the alternate universe version of myself, what would have happened if my sister didn't get sick. I wish I could still have a nice normal life. Sometimes bad things happen and they are hard to get over. I understand that, but what do you do if there is one bad thing that will never get better and never go away? How can you learn to deal with that? There is no way to move on because it is there, staring you in the face every single day and there is nothing you can do to change it. You can try to deal with it, and still make the best of your situation, but sometimes these things are easier said than done. Even when I take my mind off of things, I am just reminded of it again and it is a slap in the face. I guess the only thing you can do is force yourself not to think of what could have been, but merely except what is happening right now and make the best of your situation, because no matter how bad something is, there is always hope. There is always something. But I can tell myself this over and over, but still, it is difficult to actually truly believe it and live by it. I know that there are much worse things in the world and my life could be much worse, but sometimes it is hard to compare yourself to those things. I guess we just have to keep making the best of every day, and cherishing what we have now, because you never know when something will happen, and it is true that things can always get worse, so appreciate every day for what it is, because you never know when something can be taken away from you.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Sooo the reason I made this is because of my friend Jenn. She made one because she is going away to Taiwan for three weeks and this will keep her up to date with civilization!! I'm going to miss you jenn if you are reading this :(. Anyways, today was a bit boring, but I guess it was just a normal day of summer. It was my first day of teaching swim lessons, which is fun because I love little kids. although it is really tiring since the lessons are forty minutes long and you run out of things to do after about twenty minutes. But afterwards I came home and then went on a walk with my friend Molly which was fun!! Then I just came home and was bored out of my mind. I always feel like I am wasting summer away because i spend so much time sitting around being bored. But my mom always gets mad at me whenever I leave the house so that is really difficult, we fight about it a lot which I hate. I wish she understood how important my friends are to me because I don't know what I would do without them. So after I had family dinner I went out with some people except I knew my mom was mad so I was just thinking about that the whole time. I hate going out when I'm in a bad mood because I know that it isn't fun for anyone else. But anyways, we took a long car drive and listened to music, which is one of my FAVORITE things to do. I hate driving, but I love going for drives, which I know is unfair so I try to drive sometimes. But it is just so relaxing sitting in the car, talking and listening to music. Actually, I will probably walk to work tomorrow because I hate driving, the only good part is listening to music but atleast walking gives me something to do. I have to wake up at 8:05 tomorrow which sucks because it is summer and I can't even sleep in. So I should probably get to bed, sorry this was the world's most boring post ever!!!Love Anne