I feel for you. I am in the same place but I've tried anti depressants and they did not work. My seratonin levels are normal so it make me feel like I was shot out of a cannon and did not sleep. Talk about trying to lose weight when you cannot sleep. Now that will make someone depressed. Hang in there and know that there are many women in the exact same position. Together hopefully this forum will help those of use who are depressed from weight gain and other factors. I applaud you for pushing through. I hope you have a spouse that supports you as well. Mine has no patience for weight issues and related depression so it makes it an uphill battle.