Radar Online is reporting that Taylor, who has alleged she was abused by now deceased husband Russell Armstrong, recently watched the viral video of a Texas judge beating his cerebal palsy- stricken daughter for illegally downloading music on the Internet, all while filming her reaction.

The reason? According to sources, Taylor was simply viewing the video to confront her fears about abuse. Taylor has claimed she grew up in an abusive household. Her psychiatrist, Dr. Charles Sophy, was reportedly with her while she viewed the video.

A source goes on to explain why Taylor decided to tape her reaction. “Taylor wanted to confront her fears about domestic violence, and she had heard so much about the judge beating his daughter. She filmed it for it to be released on her website to educate women about domestic violence,” reveals a source.

“Taylor was absolutely gutted watching the video. She cried, and she got very, very angry. She saw herself in the judge’s daughter, vulnerable and unable to fight back. Taylor thought it took tremendous courage for Hillary to film the brutal beating, and to finally release it. Taylor kept saying that could have been my daughter Kennedy. Even though Russell never laid a hand on their daughter, there was no guarantee that if he had lived, he wouldn’t have done that,” adds the source.

Taylor reportedly plans on posting her reaction to the video on her website around the same time her book will be released. Taylor’s tell-all memoir Hiding From Reality, My Story of Love, Loss, and Finding The Courage Within, is slated to be released in February, 2012.

Allrighty, moving on to a recent interview given by Taylor in which she opens up about her struggles during the past year.

Talking to the Hollyscoop blog this week while she was doing some charity work, Taylor admits she has had a rough year. “We’re just continuing with our holiday tradition,” said Taylor. “Obviously things are different for us but at the same time you know really blessed to have a lot of support.”

Taylor was also asked about her behavior on the current season of the RHOBH which involves constantly lashing out at her costars. “This has been a really tough year for me,” Taylor says of her behavior. “And I think people are figuring out why, but at the same time that was my reality at the time and I’m certainly not proud of all of it but all I can do is move on.”

Despite everything, Taylor reveals she is trying to keep things positive for 5-year-old daughter Kennedy by “just letting her be a kid.” “We just went out and got our tree and we have the whole house decorated and just letting her be a kid,” she told Hollyscoop. “We’re going to have our family over and… being here it really helps me to remember to be thankful for all the support that we have.”

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