For this year I don't know what's coming for me. Some of my friends at school have talked about starting a acting group after school. I don't know if that'll happen, but I'm hoping for it. I still have another school to audition for. Which I need to start thinking about.. I just.. Don't have the spark for it right now. >_< Otherwise.. I just don't know what's going to happen to me after school is over in May. We'll see about that.What I do know is that we're gonna tour in Finland for a week in February and that I'm going to Germany to see my friends during spring break to later meet up with my class in Berlin. :D So some good times ahead. :D

I hope 2010 have some good things in stall for me. I want to develop as an actress and as a person and I want to meet interesting people and do interesting stuff.Oh and I want to develop a sense for moneysaving. XDI also have some resolutions. First: Quit smoking. I started again and I do want to quit. So I'm doing a cut-down in January to be completely smokefree in February. 2nd, loose some weight. I've ganed so much since coming back from Japan and eating more than one meal a day and I want to loose some of it because yeah, I look pregnant. 3rd I will only eat ecological meat from now on. That's the only way to guarantee that the meat I'm eating comes from animals that have been treated in an humane way, and also to ensure that I don't eat meat from animals that have been given crazy loads of antibiotics "just in case" and therefor have a lot of multi resistant bacterias and stuff in them. So yeah. I'll eat the vegetarian food at school and I'll only be buying ecological meat. Which is super-expensive, but since I only have to cook two days a week, I can afford it. XD

Ok. Longest post in like, forever. XD

I hope all you lovely people will have a great 2010 and that we'll be able to talk a lot more than I have been able to the last six months or so. ♥

Been struggling with MSN which has decided to completely give up on me it seems. >_<

Have also been stubborn and fought myself through non-tags-LJ's because there is delicious Akutsu/Dan. ♥But really, no tags makes me cry!

I love Mister Guesthouse today because he does not kill me when I say that I can't pay my rent. ^^;;; I hate myself for not being able to thou.

I was supposed to correct my speach that I got back yesterday (with not many mistakes, which surprised me). Still worried about maybe having to actually hold the stupid speach, but at the same time really proud that I actually have written a whole speach in japanese!

New calendars babies! I want! Need to take a look at the other news-clips since there seems to be more to see.

Also Uchi Hirocky? Now now. Johnny's. ♥

Realized yesterday that I'm going back to Sweden on a Friday, not Saturday. Would you look at that. haha. I fail. ^^;;;

My last try on MSN and then I guess I should just go to bed. Sleepy, but not in the mood to sleep. I blame me not buying cigarettes before, I always do that when I have just had a smoke and claims to myself that I don't need to smoke more today, which is a complete lie. And I know that! XD

Maybe I should go downstairs and look for Suzuki-san and borrow his pasmo.I should so quit smoking.

Will be answering last entrys comments. Soon... I do fail at life.

EDIT: Just realized that I wrote Pasmo (which is a train- and buscard) instead of Taspo (which is a card that you need to buy cigarrettes from the vending machines). I wonder how often I do that?

Also, I finally went ahead and de-friended some people that I friended back when I was a complete LJ-newbie and didn't know, I don't know, LJ manners. Feels good to only have mutual friends on my LJ. yeyyey! ^^v

Walk all the way to 7-Eleven (which is really far) at 2.14 in the night to buy cigarettes, or just stay home and obessessing about not having them, but perhaps getting some sleep soon? Decisions decisions. ^^;;;

Feeling so much better now. ^____^ The night and the thoughts just overpowers me sometimes. But I skipped school yesterday, was planning to watch the Oscars, but we didn't have the right channel here, so I spent some time on internet and went to sleep.

Then luin_lotecame home and we watched the last episodes of Tenipuri. It's over. OMG. The finals almost killed me, but I love them all sooo much! And random appearance of Akutsu made me happy! It's funny how I really really hated him up until he was sweet to Dan. ^^;;; Also, I have these tics when I start singing "saru, gorilla, chimpancee~" PoT has made me weirder than I was before.

Subaru is absolutely gorgeous in the new magazines. I just want to squeeze him! ♥

I calculated my attendance rate and even if I go to school every day from now on, I will still not get my certificate. Great. Oh well, I can still get that paper saying that I've been in school. And that's really all I need.

LJ fucked up my last entry so I'm deleting that and reposting the meme here instead, sorry if some of you have already read it. ^^;; Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

Just ten more episodes left of PoT. Oh god! What will we do after that?? We're at the semi-finals at the Nationals. I LOVE the Osaka team! Not as much as Seigaku of course, but I still love them. Even in anime there's something about Osakans'! Little redhead is too cute! ♥

I love PoT so much! ♥ Now really. Love! ♥ Ryoma is getting cuter and cuter all the time. How he really admires all of his senpais is just too cute! ^______^ I loved the Kaidou and Momo look-a-likes when he went to America and how he said that Momo and Kaidou was much cooler then those two. hoho. Sweet!

And Kaidou. I could write several posts just about the awesomeness of that guy. ♥

Today I've spent all day with luin_lotewatching PoT. The Seigaku/Rikkaidai games are about to start. YEY! And the Chibi episodes really is the best thing ever! ♥

Will start writing the report from yesterdays concert today too. Need to get downstairs to look at some blogs if there was any changes in the setlist. But I don't think it was.. I should write that stupid speach for school though, but I really don't want to. Talking about school, we're starting with a new book tomorrow. I want it to be grammatical explenation-books to that one too, but I don't think there is. >_<

Ah. I should get started with that setlist searching.

Oh, btw. There are now shop photos from Countdown. Almost two months after the concert. Why? I hate Johnny's.

And I've gotten to realize that yesterdays' show was the last one I'll se with Subaru for a long long while. It hurts. I'm very grateful for everything I've had to chance to see, but once you've gone to one, you don't want to miss out on any, and I will miss out on everything there is until maybe next summer. Oh god.

I get more and more excited about Kagotsurube. When I read this I squealed to myself for quite a while. And Yasu seems to be working very hard with finding his character and I'm very much looking forward to watching it as a play rather than a Johnny's performance. And he can act that boy! I was really impressed by his skills in 818, because he was playing all these characters and they were all very distinctively different, as the same time as they was all a part of him. And I'm looking forward to seeing act in a more serious role.

And I realized how much I miss acting. There is so much I want to do. I'd love to once in my life be a part of a production of Tjechov's The Seagull, and I want to do Shakespeare, and I want to try different ways of acting, since what I've been working with is all the Stanislavskij method, which I do believe is a great, but I'd like to know more of the differences between different schools. ( Lj-cut for long thoughts on acting. )

Well. There was something else I wanted to write about. . .

Ah! I might or might not have a ticket for the con at the 13th too. A guy at the guesthouse who are bidding at the yahoo auctions for me, has not mailed or called to tell me what happened to the auction that ended tonight. >_< I really hope I won it! Pleeeeeaaaaase!

Been watching PoT again today. Didn't have time for any yesterday due to having to stay in my room in case the computer doctor would come. I did get down to cleaning my room, which was well needed, but I realize how addicted I am to PoT now, when I can barely stand one day without it! And rumour has it that Heroes will start again Monday. Am thrilled! Still need to watch ep 2-4 of Voice. Me and luin_lote are planning to watch it together, but there are some Tennis princes interrupting that plan all the time. Read lovely lovely Christmas-fic that alissa recommended yesterday! ♥ ♥ ♥ The cuteness of Akutsu/Dan! ♥

Finally I downloaded the latest Can!Jani ep and will watch after I finished writing this. ♥ Finally! Been craving that damn ep so much, since half of my flist has called it the best ep so far!

How did the clock end up being 4PM? Need to take a shower before I go to sleep too, cause I'll never get up in time for that tomorrow. -sighs- Ok. Shower then Can!Jani or Can!Jani then shower? Oh why do the showers have to be on the bottom floor? Such a hassle to walk all those stairs! >_< I am not being ridiculously whiny!

Anyways, now it's one week, or one week and a day, til I get to see Subaru again! ♥ Need to end with happy thought! ^___^v

EDIT: On a wim I started looking up acting schools and I found one that I find very very interesting, and if I understand everything right, there is still time to apply to the school. Oh my. Should I? Starting with acting again in August? If I'll get in of course. Not an audition either, just an interview. . . What to do? What the hell. I might as well apply and see if I get called to the interview. EDIT2: I looked at my old schools homepage and realized there are pictures from our play! Ah! Nostalgic feeling! And yes, I will apply for the school. It sounds so interesting! ♥

I finally have a proper red colour in my hair again! Dear luin_lote cut and dyed my hair today! I am so pleased! I didn't think it would get as red as it did!And my computer will be working tomorrow or the day after tomorrow!!!!! I'm hoping for tomorrow! The guy who downloaded ahetvere it is that I needed had gotten it all down yesterday night but didn't have the time to take a look at it today.I AM grateful for his help. But did he have to tell me that? It's like waving food infront of a starving man! Tomorrow. Pleeeease! I can't take this anymore! These computers rarely lets me take a look at my flist. It's just too annoying!

I'm off to watch PoT now.Maria, when we are both back home, we are so gonna watch that!

My own computer is not working yet. And these common area computers are all stupid. Tried to answer comments yesyerday but it took me about 1 hour to answer 4, with the computer choosing to close down the internet\windoes after every comment. So I have now given up. As soon as my own computer works again, I'll be back for real. And there are new Can!Jani episode and Shigotonin PV up and I can't download! Annoying! I really need to start watching Kanjani\things on TV though. Oh well.

The only thing I can properly do without computer being mean is sometimes posting entrys and read fanfiction. I guess computer approves of the porn. I'm just worried that someone will take a look at what I'm reading and see words like "cock" and "cum" and well, yeah, you get the picture. So I'm all paranoid while I'm reading. >_<

Yesterday I ended up drinking some whiskey with some people here at the guesthouse and at 4 o'clock I decided that everyone needs to have watched something with Kanjani in their life, so I made them all watch the DVDs from Musekinin Hero. I choose to believe that they loved it, they were just too embarassed to tell me. I also started to try to explain in japanese that I ship Subassan and that I believe that they are a couple for real. I also had a discussion about Prince of Tennis with a guy who liked it very much. And actually he agreed that golden pair are so married. He also said that I had a sick mind when I sad that I can so picture what interesting things Akutsu and Dan are doing when no one's around. I should not start talking about those kind of things with people outside of the fandom. But it really fascinates me that something so full of fanservice as PoT attracts people who are not interested in slash. I guess you can watch it from another point of view. Somehow.

Today I got up at 15.00. It's so great how I am not able to keep my sleeping hours at all. >__<

Tomorrow I hope that the computer nerd has completed the download of whatever it is that I need to get my computer to start again. I'm afraid that it can take about a week though. Lets hope not!

Well. Some tea and some porn feels like a good combination, just me by the computers now, so it's safe!

I have the most amazing friends on earth. Really. I must have done something great in my former life, cause I don't know anything that I've done in this life to deserve the sweethearts that are my friends! ♥

I think there is something very wrong with me. I go from superdepressed to superhappy in a millisecond. Yesterday night I spent I-don't-wanna-know-how-long curled up in bed crying, and today I feel great! I think it has a whole lot to do with the above mentioned great friends of mine. ♥