Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…

Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a
day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you
‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little babies, it’s hard to
understand it ‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…

I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know…

Friday, December 23, 2011

Just wanted to post an update letting you all know that Layla went to be with her Savior sometime within the last 24-48 hrs. We are currently at the hospital where I am being induced. Please pray for us all as we go through this, we feel very overwhelmed as we thought we had more time. God is still good though, and we know that she is being loved on by Jesus. Please pray for peace and strength. Thank you

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

"I know now, Lord, why you utter no answer. You are yourself the answer. Before your face questions die away. What other answer would suffice?"-C.S. Lewis

"Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself."— C.S. Lewis (Mere Christianity)

These quotes have helped me a lot through this process. I really, really, REALLY like to understand and know things. If something has an explanation, I want to know it. So going through the many doctors appointments with no answer as to why Layla has this condition has been very hard. I have told God many times "if I just knew WHY You are allowing this, it would help." But would it? I still wouldn't like it, I still wouldn't want it. Pregnancy, whether it is with a healthy baby or with complications, is such a lesson in trusting God. You truly have no control over the situation. Trying to remember that as long as He is here, all will be well. All will be made right. Thank you Jesus for that.