To feel the way I Feel

May 16, 2008

By Madison M., Douglasville, GA

"If tomorrow you were gone, I would jump up and down with great joy. I would be free of you hogging the swings at recess and not passing me the ball in gym. I would be free of you pulling at my braids and making fun of the way I walk.

If tomorrow you were gone, I so would seem confused. No wonder you wanted to be my partner, if you were gonna be gone, so I would have to do all the work for you. No wonder I would be able to understand.

If tomorrow you were gone, I would be very sad. Cry, is what I would do, because you were not here and for you were a one that I held dear. I would be sorry for my past, and what I had done to upset you. I would worry for my sake and worry for the sake of your being.

If tomorrow you were gone, I would be alone. No one to be at my side when I walk the streets at night, nobody to hide behind. Not a person would be there to ‘God bless you’ when I sneeze, no one to calm my nerves or to play with in the snow.

If tomorrow you could be gone, I’m so sure that you would go. Not a reason for you to stay and not a reason to even say good bye. I would watch you leave without a hug, just simply a little shrug, for all that you thought of me was just the girl next door. You’d never know how I felt, for it would be too late, for courage is what I lack to tell you what by I mean. It is too late. Too late to say: I miss you."

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