31 May, 2008

Reading Sharon Stone's comments on China and karma made me decide that I don't believe in karma. Bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people. I think if you are a good person if something bad happens to you, you are better equipped to deal with it. For instance you have friends and family that will help you out (just like you helped them out when they needed it) which you probably won't have if you are a selfish son of a b.I'll give an example:Mum and Dad are members of a local club. Dad was in the Gents and a man was in there having a bad nose bleed. There were other people there leaving him to it. Dad helped the bloke - I think he reassured he would be ok, got him more tissues - no big deal. Months later we were planning to go on holiday. We saw a nice villa on the internet and Mum e mailed the owner. The owner turned out to be the Nose Bleed Man- and he gave us a nose bleed discount. Now is that karma or just if you're nice to other people they tend to be nice in return?

I stole this from a SidewaysLookHow long did you date?We met in November 96 and married in February 99.How old is he?He is 38.Who eats more?Steve does, but I drink more more than he does.Who said “I love you” first?Me.Who is taller?Steve. he's 6 foot 3 and a half.Who sings better?Oh Steve does. But then anyone sings better than me. Even Posh Spice.Who is smarter?We're about the same. he can add up where I can't.Whose temper is worse?I think it may be me.Who does the laundry?MeWho does the dishes?SteveWho sleeps on the right side of the bed?i do . i think. I'm not good with left and right. Ah Steve has just confirmed it. I do sleep on the right. I think he is smarter than me.Who pays the bills?We both do.Who cooks dinner? me or the Chinese takeaway..Who drives when you are together?I don’t drive, so that’d be him.Who is more stubborn?I don't think either of us is stubborn.Who asked who out first?We met on a blind date.Who kissed who first?He did. I think. I was a bit sozzled actually.Who is the first to admit when they are wrong? Me. Even when I'm right!Whose parents do you see the most?It evens out, but we're seeing mine more at the moment because they have Sky sports.Who proposed?Neither of us did. which is strange when you think about it..Who is more sensitive?It depends. I think my sense of humour is more evil.Who has more friends?Steve does.Who has more siblings?Steve has 2 brothers and I have one sister.Who wears the pants in the family?The dog.

21 May, 2008

I never had an opinion on those suitcase trolly things until I started working in London. They are a menace. You have to be careful not to trip over them. Why don't people carry suitcases anymore? And some of them are really small so they can't be that heavy.Lazy lot.

20 May, 2008

1. Where is your mobile phone?Downstairs on the coffee table.2. Your significant other?Sitting on the settee, sorting out the change box and talking got his brother on the phone.3. Your hair?short and high lighted..4. Your skin?Keeps my insides in.5. Your mother?Glamorous and feisty.6. Your favourite thing?My eternity ring.7. Your dream last night?I can't remember.8. Your favourite drink?I've already told you !9. Your dream / goal?To be happy.10. The room you're in?Computer room.11. Your ex?No idea.12. Your fear?Heights13. Where do you want to be in 6 years?No idea. i can never answer that question in job interviews.14. Where were you last nightHere.15. What you're not?Depressed.16. Muffins?Sausage and Egg McMuffinOr Chocolate Chip - Choc chip.17. One of your wish list items? A diamond as big as a smartie.18. Where did you grow up? I think I actually "grew up" when I went travelling. I go taller living in London and moved to Ilford when I was 11.19. The last thing you did?Talked ot David.20. What are you wearing?clothes.21. Your TV?Off! I'll be watching How to Look Good Naked later on.22. Your pet(s)?Tropical fish and a greyhound.23. Your computer?says yes.24. Your life?I'm a lucky girl.25. Your mood?Tired26. Missing someone?No.27. Your car?Is in the garage.28. Something you're not?A man.29. Favourite store?TK Maxx! TK Maxx!30. Your summer?Only 4 weeks to my annual leave!31. Like someone?Yes.32. Your favourite colour?Green33. Last time you laughed?Today at work.34. Last time you cried?Last April when Penny died.

19 May, 2008

I haven't been on Face book for ages and I clicked on to it and clicked on a friend (a real life friend as well) and she had horrible-ness on her "wall" or whatever you call the thing where you can read every one's messages. Put it this way, I definitely haven't got penis envy.I think I'm too old for Face book.I really wish I hadn't seen that. Oh yuk er roo.

18 May, 2008

I entitled this Mind reader Dan cos in answer to question 28 - he put...well click on his link and find out for yourself.

1. Last movie you saw in a theater?I think it was The last of the Bourne films. It was v good. I think action films are always better at a cinema.2. What book are you reading?Blood at the Bookies by Simon Brett. I'm re reading it. I re read a lot.3. Favorite board game?I hate board games.4. Favorite magazine?it used to be Good Housekeeping, but I think magazines just try to make you feel bad about yourself and flog you stuff.5. Favorite smells?I like the perfume "fragile" and some grapefruit bath gel we've got.6. Favorite sounds?This is corny but i do like to hear Steve laugh.7. Worst feeling in the world?Being stuck on a train dying for a pee.8. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?During the week i don't think I'm on auto pilot. At the weekend I think "yah its the weekend!"9. Favorite fast food place?Subway10. Future child’s name?Future dog's name might be more like it. Chuckles.11. Finish this statement. “If I had lot of money I’d….?Well how much money? Billions I'd donate big to charities.12. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?Panda if I have trouble sleeping. it really does work.13. Storms - cool or scary?Cool, but the dog doesn't like it.14. Favorite drink?Chauteau neuf du pape.15. Finish this statement, “If I had the time I would….”?Do some serious gardening.16. Do you eat the stems on broccoli?Sometimes.17. If you could dye your hair any color, what would be your choice?The colour it is now.18. Name all the different cities/towns you’ve lived in?London, Ilford, Upminster, Portsmouth, Perth Australia, Westcliff and Shoeburyness.19. Favorite sports to watch?If I'm in the mood -Rugby.20. One nice thing about the person who sent this to you?He is a mind reader.21. What’s under your bed?Carpet22. Would you like to be born as yourself again?Yeah.23. Morning person, or night owl?Neither. I don't like getting up and I can't stay up late.24. Over easy, or sunny side up?Sunny25. Favorite place to relax?...At home, in the living with the patio doors open.26. Favorite pie?Lemon meringue.27. Favorite ice cream flavor?Cookie dough.28. Of all the people you tagged this to, who’s most likely to respond first?Hannah....

I have had a spring clean on my links to other blogs. I got rid of the ones that haven't been updated and added ones in that I read but never got round adding to my list. have a peek you may find them as interesting as I do.

14 May, 2008

I've re-read the last post and its a bit -bleuh. I;ll describe the evening and hopefully it wil lread better.Barry held the workshop in his conservatory, there was 15 of us there. Barry was helped by Barbara- dishing out drinks, making sure everyone was comfortable etc.It was a mixture of ages, mainly women. There were 3 men there, 2 of whom wore pony tails. We were all given a chart. On it was a woman and her chakras were marked along her body. barr ygave a talk of what chakras meant and their associated colours. Then he asked us to colour in the chart with the colours we thought we had. Most of us found this difficult. Barry told us to relax and listen to ourselves. then he went round the group, one by one. It was quite funny the way he told people that they had got in wrong ("Angela you are never bronze! What made you think that ?"), or the colours clashed or was impossible. He also threw in readings....he knew that I had been depressed, that I had changed jobs.After he had wowed us all, we broke for tea and biscuits. Then we were invited to do a flower reading, we had been asked to bring a flower along ...although Angela and I had forgotten, so Barbara gave us a flower when we came in. Now how can you read a flower? How can that tell you anything about some one? Well Barry did! He then "made" us in turn attempt to give a flower reading. We had to pick a flower we were drawn to and listen to our spirit guide. barry believes that we all have guides. Jokingly I said to Barry where was mine, and he answered - right behind you. I didn't do very well at that, but Angela did.Then we had a raffle. It was odd the mixture of mysticism and a very English social evening, but it did make it al lseem less strange.Then we had to split into pairs. We had to introduce ourselves and imagine the other's name above their head. See what colours it suggested to us and what we felt that meant. As ever, I was the odd one out and I was paired with Barbara. We sat opposite holding hands. holding hands! I don't even hold Steve's hand. I went first. Barbara told me to concentrate and try to see with my "third eye" She suggested closing my (real) eyes. Now Barbara was wearing white trousers and a blue top, so I don't know if this influenced me. After much concentration (Economics A level was easier) I saw the number BARBARA in blue letters with a white mist around the letters. In the holes of the a and b I saw a yellowy green. Now what does mean? She told me to ask my spirit guide . This took a leap of faith as I didn't believe that I had a spirit guide. After much gut wrenching concentration ( and it felt like it came from my gut) I thought that she was probably a teacher, interested in nature, a very confident, calm person.Then it was Barbara's turn. She told me that she was a teacher of sorts, a medium. that the white mist was excellent as her spirit guide is Egyptian and that they are represented by mist. Then she gave me a reading. She said that my grandmother was there, a very short , very plump lady. that is my Mum's Mum, Nanny Emma. I was amazed as she never liked me and Angela at all, obviously I didn't say that to Barbara. Barbara said that she wanted to say sorry. That made me feel very happy. Barbara mentioned Joan, who is my Mum's elder sister, She said she was at peace and happy, she had been ready to go. That was good to hear as Joan had been very ill and had suffered a lot. Barbara then went on to say that animals are drawn to me and that my spirit guide is a China man.I know that this may seem strange, I totally believe my dead grandmother has apologised to me but I'm freaked out by having a spirit guide. Not freaked exactly ..more puzzled.As I said in the earlier post all this for £5.50. To me it demonstrates Barry's and Barbara's genuine-ness and generosity.In the previous post I've linked to Barry's site and there are details of his workshops there.

On Monday Angela and I went to the Aura evening, hosted by Barry De Rose. Barry is a genuine, warm hearted man and it was a very interesting evening. I got the feeling that he really wants to help people -and he can't help himself in giving them a reading. I didn't feel I was being ripped off, and I didn't feel I was being fed a line. We were "encouraged" to sit in pairs and read each other auras. We had to picture the other person's name and see it in colour. Barry told us ot ask our spirit guide for help...as I write this it seems mad, but it wasn't. In fact I don't think I'm doing the evening justice. I felt that Barry thinks we have all got the ability - we just need to open up and listen. from an economic point of view it was a cheap night out - at 3 hours tea and biscuits thrown in for £5.50! I don't think Barry is in it for the money.

10 May, 2008

I had my haircut this morning (so much better than my last hair cut - hair don't rather than hair do) . Then walked round to Angela's and had lunch and a good old natter. We're going to her neighbour's on Monday. We're going to learn how to read auras. I must admit I feel a bit like Pam from Gavin and Stacey. I'll let you know how we get on.Low light of the week: Wednesday evening, sitting in front of the fridge defrosting the freezer bit with a hair dryer.

03 May, 2008

When we moved into our house the garden fence was very rickety. We live in a block of six houses and the garden fences are about 5 foot high. The gardens back on to an alley way where our garages are.When we decided to get the dogs we knew we would have to sort out the fence. Greyhounds can jump and the Re homing lady said that the fence should be six foot. I must admit it did look a bit unfriendly -all these little fences and our big fortress fence. However our neighbour got her fence done as well. Now I can see the people next to her are doing a big fence. it does look better ...and it isn't as unfriendly as it could be because we chat over the adjacent fences.OMG what am I doing? I've just blogged about fences. And I did so because I thought Alan building his fence was interesting. Gina Robbo? Gina Boring more like!

02 May, 2008

I spend 3 hours a day travelling to work. And that gives me extra thinking time. I stare out of the train window and think about things. Then I have a little snooze. Its a hard life. The past couple of days I've been thinking about past relationships and how I feel about those people now.I think what ever happens with me and Steve, he will always be a significant other. Knowing him has made a difference to the person I am today. He has influenced my life.Now I met Steve when I was 28, so he wasn't my first boyfriend. Aside from him there have been 2 other men that I thought I was in love with. let's call them A and B. Thinking about B it is frightening how he has faded from my memory. I now regard him as a blip along the way. nothing that serious. But reader how devastated I was when he dumped me! I was engaged to the bloke!bloke A - well I still dream about him. They are nightmares. I met him when i was 16 and he was 22. Now what 22 year old is interested in some one that much younger than him? I think the answer is an insecure, bullying one. But then I might be a tad biased . But sadly I think A is a significant other - in that his horrible behaviour did leave his mark on me. Towards the end of our relationship bloke B was a bit of a sod and did some hurtful things - but looking back I think that wasn't on purpose. He was in a situation he wanted to get out of and didn't handle very gracefully. Whereas I know Bloke A went out of his way to try and undermine and make me feel bad because he could and he liked to do so. However he had underestimated me because one day I walked. And I don't think he ever thought I would do that.Funnily enough a year after I left him A wrote me a letter apologising for his behaviour, he said that he had always been jealous of me. Oh and by the way could we get back together? The letter went straight in the bin.