Thanks for the suggestion. Only 22 hours sick time left to get me through the year. Trying to use those to juggle going to see t and psychiatrist. Manager agreed to let me to flex time which means I am working 10-11 hours a say trying to be able to do all of this.

Work. It takes all my effort to concentrate on work. After that I do not have hobbies. I do not read cuz I can't remember what I am reading. I goof with my hubby but that is short lived because I just don't feel like it.

Those are momentary flashes of laughter. Much like a shot in the arm is a momentary stick then a brief hurt, it goes away. The momentary laughter and smile is a slight distraction but the thoughts and feeling remain. Once the laughter dies down, the repetitive thoughts return.