Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Robin Lynch worked in my gallery as
part of her undergraduate internship. It was really a pleasure.
Robin shared her incredible dance about love, passion, pain, naked
soul, venerability, obsession, lose... She started the dance all in
white. Clean. Innocent, Pure. She place a few liters of red tempera
paint in a bowl. Robin proceeded to obsessively, tenderly explore
her emotions in Red.

After that night I would ask Robin,
“What color was she feeling today?”

As a painter her dance in Red helped me
develop my relationship to color. In emails we would ask each other
what color we were feeling on a particular day.

I am a pretty intense individual. These
brief conversations rotated in my mind like a song on repeat. Day
dreams. Visions. My dreams became more vivid. I would have waves of
blue, wind of white, rays of yellow, falling shades of green in the
night.

Sleeping, dreaming, inside my head, in
my bed. The large window in my bedroom has no curtains. My bedroom is
on the third floor and East facing. In the morning my window is open.
I hear the morning start. I hear the birds welcome the break of day.
The blue, black dark night dissolves. A spectrum of colors filter
into my room. My eyes open the door to my soul. I inhale the palette
of light.

My mind paints each color. I focus on
where each color settles inside my body. Where is each ray of light
marinates in my muscles of my mind and body. I would try to feel
white in my mind. Bleach my mind. Mother's milk calming my cortex.
Red in my heart. A fire. Warm source of inner heat and passion. The
read has a contagious energy. A flame. It would dominate my inner
being. It is not uncommon that I would feel like a tree on fire....
burning red. My house would go up in flames of red. It was been
difficult to not be over powered and have red completely take over my
mind, my heart, my palette, my paintings would be flooded in blood
flood waves of red.

My relationship with red is most
primary. Each color has a particular significance. And over the
past many years I have spent much time thinking about each color and
how and why I paint with each pigment.