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Sunday, April 21, 2013

Hey Stranger!

What have I been up to lately? Nah... Nothing interesting except for Suzie's engagement and Fatin's birthday. I've been back from KK for almost 2 weeks now. If it wasn't for Fatin's birthday, which was on April 13, I would've stayed longer. I didn't cry at the airport like I always did because I know I will be back again soon. Sooner than I thought. Because... Suzie is suddenly getting married on May 31!!! If I knew I wouldn't have gone to her engagement ceremony because I will have to go back again for raya. Kalau harga tiket flight macam harga tiket bas ndapa jugak... Huh... Tengok la camana nanti. I hope the flight ticket price won't be so expensive. And it looks like I have to hold off my plan to go back to KK for good AGAIN. Fatin won't let me. And it looks like I am letting my plan(s) be "interfered" by other people AGAIN. Huh... When will I stop doing that to myself? When will I start doing something that I really want and ONLY for myself? First Nasik. Then Ezura. Then Faezah. Now Fatin??? I really need to learn to be less selfless.The reason I'm blogging tonight is because I missed it. I really missed the feeling of pouring my heart out to one silly post just to remind myself how sucky my life is. I am a 28-year-old who has no prospects whatsoever, no car, no house (I mean my own real house), barely there savings, no love interest let alone a boyfriend. Pretty much the same as one year ago. In 12 months, I didn't make any improvement in my life. To be exact, I failed to make any improvement in my life. Not even ONE. I still don't have a driving licence, but I'm planning to take it up this May. It should be March according to my plans, but Suzie's engagement and all. Urgh. How could I let this happened? I'm tired of being goal-less y'know. Since my teenage years, I have never been a goal-oriented person. I mean, I do have some goals, but I've never made any real effort to achieve them. That's why I am still the same underachiever people knew a few years ago. Stagnant. Non-changing. I'm sick of living like this, ambitionless, lifeless. The only obvious difference in my life so far this year is the number of books that I've read, which is much much more than the previous year, which is good! And if this counts, I woke up in my hometown on my birthday this year. There was no birthday wish from Nasik, but the first person who did that this year was ALLY, compared to none last year. Yup, yup, that counts! Haha! Nurul, it's time for you to set goals in your life. It's time for a change. And you ARE going to start it with living a healthier life (READ: go jogging every morning, eat less rice, more vegetables and fruits with the hope to lose some kilograms!)Good night!