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Hey, Amber!"ramblings" showed up in my blog feed with no post.Are you going to start writing again?It would be good to hear from you again.I hope that you have been well and that all is well with you and your family.<><

So good to hear from you again! I always enjoyed your posts from so long ago.My own blog has change much over the years and I now just write for me as much as anything. My readership has dropped quite a lot over the years and it turns out that I don't really mind too much.

Yes, I concur, it is good to read you again... and hoping all is well at your end of this cyber path.

How well I relate (to both of you here)... Too well I relate?... My relatively ceaseless babblings appear just for me as they continue in spite of a relative absence of responses (except occasionally in email) and yet the longing for feedback rarely diminishes from a level between ambivalent nonsense, random pleading, and desperate hoping (praise and appreciation would be so nice, but acknowledgement that I and the babblings exist would be a change from the silence, ya know? lol :)

Maybe it is that I want to curl up with someone, at least in words, and just have them tell me I am as wonderful as I want to be... or at least worth the time it takes to know me. It's not as if I don't have a busy social life offline, there is just this huge void where really deep and meaningful sharing is meant to be.

I have come to expect, for better or worse, that I write way too much about way too many personal and random things for anyone to really want to follow along for long, but hey, I'm a dreamer and someone out there might relate to my ever spinning mind and if I don't put it out there, then I am not doing my part in helping that rather different (insane?) person find me... yeah, that's the ticket.

It would help if I made time to read and respond to others I suppose. :)

So what are we hiding from, I wonder...What keeps us longing for more?How do we lose our way, I wonder...What is all this writing for?

Sometimes I make life so busy offlinethere's little time left to call mineAm I escaping from a lonelinessthat is deeper than anyone will confess?What is the secret to happiness?I thought I had it, more or less...

So what are we running to, I wonder...Here in the writing world?What are we waiting for, I wonder...Some flag to be unfurled?

I cringe at the same old rhymes, and then laughat myself as I stareat the screen as if it is the answer tobecoming whole or aware

Sometimes I distract myself with nonsenseI mean no harm is my best defenseIs it a crime to always want more?Is it so wrong to open this door?What is the secret being secure?I thought I had it, some time before...

So what are we doing here, I wonder...How will we know what is true?What are we trying to share, I wonder...I'll leave the last line for you to answer...(so now what will you do?)

...and with a wistful smile and a hopeful smirk I wander back into the night to continue the endless babblings I write and...

So nice to hear from you Candoor I miss our blogging days it's Facebook and instagran have taken the space of communication like we knew back in the days. I so get what you are saying it's amazing. I wish we could start the blog revolution again

A strange realization chides my mind as I return to read your comment after reading it last week... I wanted a "Like" button. Or a smiley-face button. I have succumbed to the emoji generation. My head hangs with disappointment as I giggle.

Sadly (and with appropriate self-mockery) I left without leaving any sort of reply at all.

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After seeing a lot of blogs I pondered over what made them fun. I came to the conclusion that all the ones I liked were the ones in which the authors were sharing their everyday life. As I am given to philosophical ramblings on a daily basis that will be part of my blog. But since we can't be answering life's penultimate questions 24/7 the rest I'll devote to my interests. It will be a smörgåsbord that will truly reflect the disturbed mess my brain is. You'll go from one extreme in which you'll find me wrestling with the enormity of life's various puzzles, to the other where you will learn how to set up a room to attract success through Feng Shui.Anyway reader.... welcome to my randomness and my blog