I will admit that I have struggled with confidence in wearing a bikini through the years. Thing is, I don’t do much of tucking, wearing bra or those freebra, and working out in a gym. I still want to find comfort and consume less time with regards to these things.

Aside from showing off like a perfect beach body, I didn’t really think that my bony cartileage around my neck, small zero boobs, broad shoulders and large veins/muscles would nicely fit in a suit. It was just hard and for us kinds of women. It is indeed a personal, beyond-beauty-kind-of struggle that one has to overcome only with confidence and the art of kebs.

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So I practised. I have been posting some pictures of me wearing maillots or onesies in the bed or the comfort room, and some during photoshoots for the IG (meaning, I just wore it for the picture). See that above and below. My first ever bikini photo I posted was in 2013. But it was really a long time ago.

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But it was just only until maybe last year that I let go of the cover up, took photos of myself enthusiastically AND THEN REALLY wore them throughout the day without any hesitation or anxiety. And I’m very happy that I was able to do that.

Because really, I can wear anything I want for my pleasure. I can wear a basic one piece or a pretty designed one that I liked (see Freeway’s designs below*). I can wear a one piece soon and I am not afraid to share the struggles that come with it as well (definitely saying hello to my stretch marks which you can already see because duh, body foundation and beach really isn’t functional). I think I gained some confidence and that feels good.