He broke my heartOver and over againThroughout it all You were always my friend. You said you cared about me And that would last till the end. I cried on your shoulder, You loved me while I had always loved him, I pretended that I wanted life this way, I wanted to be hit, Stood up and cry. I wanted to sit around While the one I loved Purposefully chose actions that hurt me. I wanted to pretend I could be with him till the end, But now I find myself thinking About how much I like my friend.

July 10, 2008

some days you won't see me or hear me on the phone don't you frown my little one, you'll never be alone daddy's in your heart and your heart's so deep i will be there everyday, even when you sleep daddy's love is special, this you'll find is true there's nothing in this world i love more than i love you daddy's love is stronger, stronger than the wind daddy's love is in your heart, let the smiles begin i don't need to tell you you're the sparkle in my eye when you see me smiling, you're the reason why you have brought me joy, and laughter into my world you're an angel from the heavens, you're daddy's little girl daddy's love is special, this you'll find is true there's nothing in this world i love more than i love you daddy's love is stronger, stronger than the wind daddy's love is in your heart, let the smiles begin

i try so hard for you to notice me.i try so hard for a simple hello or an easy goodbye.i try so hard for a simple phone call or a hand wave.i try so hard to be your easiest hello and your hardest goodbye.i try so hard to get the words out of my mouth.i try so hard to say.....i'm in love with you

one night at a party where their eyes first met.she told all her friends he was the best one yet.they talked every night and finally started dating.2 3 4 months and she kept on waitingfor those three words every girl yearns to hear.one day while sitting under the stars those three words were finally said: "i love you, dear"5 6 7 months it was time for the next step.but secrets were hidden and being kept.the night it happened it was like a miracleover and over and over again but one day she felt sick and her body tried to fight it but it couldn't win.1 trip to the hospital was not a happy one.AIDS he said - now this relationship was no more fun.she yelled and screamed saying how could you do this to me.he said it shouldn't matter we love each each other. love has no fee.she couldnt stand what he did to her. it was over in a flash, there was no more him and her.but doing that didn't change the fact what he did to her.she was internally dying and nobody could save her.then one day her body couldn't take it; she was under the dirt.up in heaven with God where it no longer hurt.

you were my love, my life, my everything.your kisses so soft made my body tingle.that one day she said she still loved youyou gave in without a fuss.now i'm here all alone with no one to talk to you were my best friend.we'd talk day and night and you would never know what i'm thinking.'are you over it?' you'd sayi'd agree but in the back of my mind, not even close, baby.in my mind i'm thinking you're the one.but how am i in love with the one who's hurting me so bad?baby, i know you don't know this but i want you to know.that i still love you and in my heart i'll never let you go.

we've been together forever and that's how it's going to be until the day i die i will never forget all the good times we've had and the good times to come all the things we plan i hope they come true and to stay with you through my life through the ups and downs,you''ll cry with me i'll cry with you,together forever we'll always be, i just want you to know you're the best friend anyone could ask for,and im glad to know that you're mine

Once upon a time in a far away land,was a rocking rock band,that would rock the night away.The band's not the story though,it's the far away land.This land is called Hollywood. You know, with the celebrities that are all tanned.They may sing, they may act...but there's one thing they all seem to lack.Sure, they maybe famous, but they're missing something.It's practically a fact.What they're missing is a real life, real friends, a real home.All they've got is a far away land and a rocking rock band.

I want you I know I have to wait But god it's killing me I keep thinking thoughWhat is it that you care about? I know you say you care Nevertheless, I just do not know what to think I want to believe you, But you have to understand I’ve been hurt before and cannot bare it again Even if you do not feel as I do It will not change the plans I just need to know What I am getting into

I waited for you.At the bus stop, remember? You told me to meet you thereand we would catch a movie.No, no, that’s fine, people forget...of course. Some other time.Look, don’t change your plans.I have homework anyway...I know it’s Friday, butI might as well get it done whileI have the time...yeah, it can wait until Sunday, I guess.Where are you?At your cousin’s?Doing what?Really? You’re watching TVWith her? Is she sick?Really sick? Then how comeI can see you sitting in the lobby,Holding hands with that other girl?

I called her Mercury, that summer day in Junewhen I noticed her for the first time. She slidpast my house on her scratched up taped uproller-blades like a silvery jet of fluid and wavedhi to me as she cut clean through the butter-thickair. I swam in her chrysanthemum yellow pepperedwith sapphire dust floating on a rippling pond eyeswhen they met my own boring brown ones, framed by thick black raven hair that danced in the air likeso many threads of spider’s silk. I never talked to thatgirl, not even when the moving trucks swallowed her boxes and furniture and eventually even herself whole,‘cause I was just a shy little thing who hid behindthe asteroid belt of my mom’s plaid curtainsand sometimes peeped out to warm up a littlein her far-off brilliance. ‘Cause she was the lightof my universe and I was a black orb ostracized by the earth’s learned men as a superfluous addition to theElite Eight. They think they know everything, but they don’t know this; the sun isn’t the center of oursolar system¾she is. And even when Mercury movedaway I still hid behind that asteroid belt, even though theorbital sometimes pushed me in front to bask in her distant glow. She wrapped me up tight in her quicksilver smilewhenever she caught a glimpse of me, and pulled me, Pluto, back into the Milky Way.

Thinking back, I wish I would have known the end. I just ignored, The time wasted, The pathetic waiting. Clueless, I was to it. Chuckle at myself I did. And why could I not see? A Web of lies spinning before me, Playing along. Positive it was a lie, When you said, you cared. Wanting out too soon after. How stupid was I to fall on ground I knew would be hardHowever, I do not blame you Nor regret anything I said or did No anger and no sorrow, not anymore. I unlike you never lied.I still stand by what I have said Just wish I would have been prepared for the fall. Judging the distance I had, there was no time to prepare.Honest I wish I could be, but even now, Holding back as I always do. Not wanting anyone to know Not wanting the concerned looks Though thinking back, the fall was worth it.

Lost in my mind of turmoil,Someone spilled the oil that started the flameInternal sorrow, internal misery,Nothing comes close to the way I want things to beRaged filled veins contain an uncontainable amount of strainAnd send me down this drain of sadnessAs I drown my heart in the cries that I cryContinous withful thinking that time will speed up for the sake of me.

Lost in this world of selfishness and self gainIn a world where everyone takes from me whatever they can obtain, and do cause they can.Cause they so willingly know that my hurt soul can't do a thing about it.

Lost in words that were never spoken to a man's heart, so that he might understand.I didnt want him to leave cause I didn't know how to survive without him near me.I didnt want him to leave because I didnt want to fight back the tears that fought back.I didn't want him to go cause for so long I hated that I didn't know how to love

Lost is myself - I, me, as I stand in my desolated rapture aloneLost is how I'll stay until he comes and wipes these hollow tears from my face

you weren't there to see me on stage,to give me flowers you just couldn't go for a couple of hours you're not here when i need you the most graduation right around the bend,will you be there then?you're killing yourself and you know it, but still you don't stop, when i see you like that it makes me wonder how much more time we have together, if not much, i'll treasure forever all the little moments we had when i was little, now you're stuck in the middle with a choice of life without alcohol or one that will come to a certain deathplease make the right choice for the ones who love you the most.

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Poetry4Teens was started by Kellie in 1998 and moved to blogspot.com in 2007. This site accepts nearly all poetry submissions and does not discriminate based on writing experience or subject matter. If you're a teen, your poetry *will* be read! :) Just a note: Your poems will not post automatically after you submit them. Please give me a day or two to get them on the site. Thank you!