Then we can have the joy?

The other day I was watching an episode of the new NBC show, The New Normal, which chronicles the life of a gay couple, Bryan and David, and their surrogate mother of their future baby. David, being a doctor, tries to control everything about the pregnancy. His fear about everything that could go wrong keeps him for embracing the joy of the miracle of having a baby.

I completely identify with David; it is hard for me to embrace joy. Recently I met someone who makes me very happy, but I find myself struggling to give into the joy. It’s like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop. Why can’t I just open myself up and “have the joy”?