My World of knitted words.

I don’t know why did I start writing here. It has been a long time since I have had posted anything here, but still today I couldn’t stop myself.

I am here to write about ‘Depression’. Yes, you heard it right.

Many times in life, there comes a moment when you feel like giving up on everything. You have been suffering for a long time, above all, you cannot seem to share any of your grief with anyone, not even your close ones.

You feel this empty hole in your heart which no matter how hard you try, you don’t seem to fill it up. It starts with a tiny empty hole, which further starts on increasing its size by effectively feeding on your negativity, your sorrows or whatever source it could find its negative energy from.

Today, I read about this terrible incident that took place in K-pop industry. I have been a part of K-pop for a while now; reading and watching the advancements there have always given me some sort of excitement or encouragement to live my life. Why? Because the struggle, the idols of this world go through is no joke.

To become this successful and known, many of them go through severe conditions, but the criticism never stops. This goes for anyone out there who is trying to survive in this world, either hiding or being known to the public. As people climb the ladder of success, they seem to get a lot of criticism; this criticism can either be positive which can actually help them to survive or like most of the times it becomes a deadly push to bring them down to a new world–a horrid world known as depression.

There are two types of depressed people:

Those who can be discovered through their way of accepting the depression and negativity and hence can be given help.

Those who after entering into depression, cannot be discovered because they live in a disguise to fool those who live around them.

First type of people, who are not capable of bearing all the pain or negativity, they have been getting from their close ones (yes, even their parents, not everyone is blessed.), or from their surroundings, begin walking on the path of destruction; they start building walls around themselves in order to get that safe feeling–they have been desiring from the start. They keep their thoughts to themselves but eventually, as depression starts to grow on them, it becomes visible on their face. How? When you see someone not being their usual cheery self when you are very much aware that how amiable they once used to be; when you see someone picking on their food, instead of eating it while completely zoning out; when you see someone who used to get engaged in any discussion or argument you have had before, only to find them being in their own created world, then just know, just know that this is the point where you need to step up and help them come out of this misery. Because you never know what would happen next. You cannot be sure of anything but just know if you or anyone won’t help, then the next thing that would come to you as a news, will not be pleasing at all.

Next type is the most dangerous one, as the people coming under this category are very hard to be found with their real self. Why? Because they seem to live their life like nothing has happened to them. They seem indifferent to the tough circumstances they have been going through; they think themselves as fighters–fighting through the tough situations all alone without needing any support or shoulder but what they don’t know is that they actually have not been fighting, but suffering from the pain, all the way from the start. But what makes them hard to get discovered by the people is the fact that they know how to hide their emotion; they wear a mask to hide their true self so that no one would be able to know about what they actually are going through. Why do they feel the need of doing this, when they could have told about this to anyone close to them? Let me tell you the reason. When depression starts to grow up on such people, they start to feel insecure about themselves.

‘What if these people start to judge me?’; ‘what if I start to get more hatred?’; ‘what if after knowing about my situations they start to laugh on my life?’–a number of what if(s) slowly begin surfacing in their mind that they eventually make themselves a mask of fake happiness and wear it to avoid all sorts of questions, that have already started contributing to the tiny hole of depression, and hence, the hole of depression grows.

Today, Jonghyun, a member of a very popular South Korean K-pop band ‘SHINee’ was found dead in his apartment. This disturbed me more than anything. He was young, hell, he was just 27. He was successful, he was popular and as it seemed to many of us, he had everything which we couldn’t have but in the end, he couldn’t survive. Why? Because he was suffering alone and when he found it hard for him to survive anymore, he decided to free himself from his grief.

To say that I am upset would be an understatement. This is not the first time, I have heard of someone committing suicide. From one of my close friend to Jonghyun, there are so many people who couldn’t share their grief with anyone and while trying to live their life that way, eventually gave up.

These people are not here anymore but it is not like depression has ended too. No, it is still here–bringing people’s mental health to the point where they are most likely to be snapped.

Such people need to hear our encouraging words about such mental issues and most importantly, depression.

You guys, depression is not something bad, it can be cured only if you decide to step up and help yourself first. You should know that you are not alone in this world, somewhere, somebody is willing to help you. Mental issues are not a joke and need to be taken seriously. Gone are those days when visiting a psychiatrist was regarded as your unstable mental state; gone are those days when only those people who seemed to have had lost themselves completely were allowed to visit a psychiatrist. This is a modern world and you have to try coming out of that hell-hole, either by yourself or by depending on someone. This someone can be your parents, friends or even a stranger who is willing to help you out in any way. Believe us when we say that we actually are willing to help; there are so many people out there who can help you with sorting out your thoughts, you just need to let your guard down and allow them to be by your side.

At last, I want to express my condolences to Kim Jong-hyun’s family and SHINee fandom for this loss.

You were an amazing person Jong-hyun. It is okay, now you are free. You don’t need to suffer any more of whatever grief you had been suffering from all alone. You will always be loved and missed by all of us. Rest in Peace and may you live a happy next-life without any difficulties.

When you were young, did you ever see writing as a career or
full-time profession?

No, never.

Who are your books mostly dedicated to?

To my parents who, unfortunately, are no more.

Have any new writers grasped your interest recently?

I will take two names. Both of them are established authors with loads
of fan following. The first name is Dr. Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni. I
simply love the books written by her and her writing style. The second
name is Ms. Julie Klassen. She writes Regency novels which
are my favourite. Though both of them write about two very different
topics, I love them both.

Is there anything you are currently working on that may
intrigue the interest of your readers?

Currently I am working on two novels and both of them are love
stories. They are not romantic novels but deal with the complexities
of love and how it can change lives for better and for worse.

Is there anything you find particularly challenging in your
writing?

I like to write stories that strike a chord with people on a personal
level. Sometimes it becomes a bit challenging to tell a relatable
story in an intriguing manner.

People believe that being a published author is glamorous, is
that true?

There are always two sides of a coin. Yes, it is glamorous but at the
same time very few people know how much efforts and hard work goes to
churn out an interesting book.

What is that one thing you think readers generally don’t know
about your specific genre?

Truly speaking, I do not follow any genre. I try to tell my story with
full honesty and in the most interesting way. If you ask me about one
word about my genre then I would say “Life”.

Did the thought to give up writing ever occur to you?

No.

What is your motivation for writing more?

My love for books. And of course, the appreciation by readers and
reviewers act as catalysts.

Any words of encouragement for the upcoming generation?

Writing, like any other work, needs perseverance. During the whole
process of writing a book, you may find some people who will encourage
you and some who will try to put you down. One should not get
disheartened by the criticism. Take them as tips to improve your work.
Believe in yourself and keep writing.

Three words for this book- Amazing, Amazing and AMAZING.
Wait! Did I repeat myself ?
Jokes Apart!

‘LET THE GAME BEGIN’ is the second book of a very talented Indian author- Sandeep Sharma.
The cover of the book where speaks volume about the story; the blurb itself is self-sufficient.
‘LET THE GAME BEGIN’ is a mixture of ‘OHs’ and ‘OOHs’ ; it indeed, is a combination of emotions ranging from friendship, love, betrayal and revenge.

Two kingdoms- Chaturanga and Sarprakt are at war with each other. But for Sarprakt, defeating Chaturanga is not just a piece of cake.

When the king of Chaturanga is blessed with a son, the whole kingdom is drowned in the celebrations; unaware of the unknown stratagem that is cooking in the other kingdom.
From here, starts the game of chess , which further becomes the main reason for the gruesome history, bloodshed and the destruction of a whole kingdom.

Years later, serial killings shock the people. The only evidence, police find every time a murder happens, is a chess piece and a message ( in a strange language ).
The only question that keeps you intrigued with this story is- ‘Why is chess a connecting link between these two different stories ? Is there any link between the unsolved mystery of past and the raising mystery of present..?

This book is absolutely enthralling to read, with all the ingredients of Drama, emotions, twists and turns. It, indeed is a delightful read and leaves the readers with strong ‘wanting-wanting’ feeling of more.

The author has successfully portrayed the elements of suspense and mystery. The story is not build within just a single era, instead along with one more.
The Plotting and the flow is so in pace, that every chapter ends in a cliffhanger.

Although, the major drawback in the book is that of editing and proofreading, but keeping that aside, the book, the plot and all the characters are perfectly made.

Like a gush of fresh wind, Debprasad’s debut novel BOLTU is an interesting as well as intriguing tale of friendship, relationships, struggle to survive, all combined in one single book, among all those stories, which are nothing but repetitive versions of each other.

ABOUT THE BOOK :

‘Boltu’ is the name of the main character itself, in the book. Hence, the entire story revolves around this character.
It is a story about a boy named Boltu, who survives through different stages and emotions , while growing up to a young man. Due to family negligence , gets addicted to the darker side of life.

Above everything, the boy still, is a dreamer, yet confused about his goals.
Because of his strong will-power and stick-to-it-till-the-end mentality led him to his new life.

He, finally transforms himself ,from a rogue to a responsible citizen, with the care , support and love, he gets from his beloved.

BOOK TITLE AND COVER :

The title is simple and predictable.
Excellent presentation on the cover, which is simple, yet very much fitting with the book title.

LANGUAGE :

Author’s hold on the language is indeed, worth a praise.

NARRATION :

Narration skills are polished, and are very well shown in the story as well.

DISLIKES :

° Character of Fotu-babu is not very impressive.° End could’ve been molded in a better way.

LIKES :

° Character of Boltu.° A new conceptual tale, other than the spicy or boring love-stories.

What happens when a supposed low- caster, falls in love with a high class brahmin girl ?

‘Well, of course a cliché romance will happen between them and universe, miraculously will act against their love story. They would struggle – Actually, the boy would fight against society for his love while the girl, would give up her love, for her family, in the very end.
And this will come out as an another very same monotonous as well as predictable tale, we read every time, we pick a book like this.’

Woah ! Woah ! Hold your horses of brain, readers. This book is definitely not that ‘same uninteresting’ book.

Akash Verma, a known writer, came up with his new book this time – ‘A Broken Man’ ; loaded with several twists and turns; a beautiful tale of love, which doesn’t end up tragically. *spoiler*

It’s a story of a Dalit boy, Krishna Kumar and the challenges he face, every time he tries pulling himself out of the hell-hole created by the society, for people like him ; for an out caster like him.
The problems increase their frequency, when he falls in love with a Brahmin girl, who is an activist in college, and is the daughter of a local politician.

Above all, readers happen to have a potboiler in their hands.
However, with the usage of beautiful verses in Devnagiri, the book comes out as a surprise.
The introduction of surprise factor is not limited to this only, instead it just keeps rising.

Although, ‘A Broken Man’ appeared to me as the same old plot, renewed and polished by the author expertly, few of its incident did help in maintaining the curiosity of knowing ‘what’s next’ in reader’s mind.
The narration is in third person’s view and is done quite appreciably.
The story is inspirational in its own way.

LIKES :

1. The cover art is amazing.2. Small lessons, you get from the story, time-to-time.3. Krishna’s struggle and his success.4. Chhavi’s devotion to her love and to her family.

‘Beautiful’ is the word, I’d like to use, to describe this book , which I lately received for reviewing purpose. And must I say, I do not feel disappointed at all.

ABOUT THE BOOK :

‘Panorama’ – as the name suggests, gives a whole new perspective of people around us. It is a collection of fifteen short stories; a tinge of reality in them , with various emotions and feelings , which can successfully motivate one.

Each of the story being unique in one or other way , hitting right chord of one’s heart.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR :

Shilpi Chaklanobis hails from the beautiful city of Kanpur and has spent the majority of her adult life in Delhi.
This is her first endeavor as a writer and her writing not only shows promise, but also has a sense of sensitivity that compels you to think about the lives you touch every day.

BOOK TITLE AND COVER :

The title is apt as well as impressive with respect to the content of the book, while the cover may or may not be able to attract a whole crowd of readers to it.

LANGUAGE :

The language is flow-y as well as catch-y. One can read all the stories in one go with an ease.

NARRATION :

Narration of all the stories is done rather simply yet the readers can easily find themselves engrossed in these beautifully woven tales.

DISLIKES :

1. Despite of the amazing narration of most of the stories , few of the stories are not amazing till the very end.

2. The cover of the book could’ve been created more beautifully.

3. Minor grammatical mistakes.

LIKES :

1. The title is impressive and eye- catching.

2. Despite of minor editing mistakes , all the stories are worth a read.

I feel deflated right now. Why, you ask ? I will be starting a new chapter of my life, from this new city – Haldwani.
Then, how come, am I not excited ? Or maybe thrilled to come across the adventures, I always wanted to go through ?
Why do I feel deflated, when I should be full of enthusiasm. I remember, a week before, I was so full of excitement, I was happy, for I was finally stepping towards a peaceful life.
Was I not having one before ?
Let’s rewind to the part where I bet, you’ll get a hint.
I am from Pilibhit, a small town, a developed ‘village’ to be precise. Where no matter how things have developed or reached to an entire level, one thing, one fact remain unchanged; untouched whatsoever – Mentality of the people. They live, they eat, they enjoy normally, but think differently.
So far, I bet you still don’t have any idea about my not so peaceful life. Believe me, even I don’t! You can laugh, for all I care.
The truth is I was being strong about living here, away from my family. But as soon as the reality started to grasp my mind, I felt my knees loosen, from the fear of getting away from them. Yes, my family.
I never did really live a normal life before. I faced something, more horrendous than my worst nightmare and more disastrous than any natural calamity. Way to go over-dramatic, I know, but the truth cannot be denied.

Now when I look back to those nights, when I couldn’t sleep ( not like I sleep easily now ) because of the terror of that something ; my fear being similar to those , who are either too scared to sleep with the phantoms of their fear chasing their minds, or too haunted by the demons residing within them.
When I couldn’t eat because of this nagging in the dark sides of my mind, when I couldn’t laugh because of an uncertain fear of never getting a good laugh again.- I feel light to be here; away from the dreadful past I lived, till now.
Like every daughter in the world, I have never been my father’s little princess or whatever title, daughters today prefer to use, to describe their relationship with their dads.

My relationship with him was a bond, I think, I could never describe to anyone. Words might fall less for our bittersweet love. He never did consider me a typical loving princess while I always considered him as father.

Tonight, I am living my old life for the last time. I am in that emotional state where my pillow cannot stand the waterfalls, my eyes are currently generating. Tears, I tell you!
Just a few hours ago, while I was pretending to be strong from outside, my father called. I want you to read and understand the cause of my emotional breakdown, through my conversation with him.

Me : ( Very much! I will miss your surprisingly good yet rare side of yours. I will miss mum’s nonstop scoldings, her food, her love. Most importantly, I will miss YOU. ) No Papa, I will not.

Father : Hm.

Me: ( Say something Papa, I know you will miss me. Say for once. You will miss our fights, our arguments, our rare laughs, our bickering. Say, you will miss me the same way I would miss you. ) Here, talk with mum.

And there my friends, I ended our conversation. That was where, I felt my strength draining from my body. That was where, my fake pretending met its end.

But, what was the reason ? I never liked my father. He was the reason, I couldn’t sleep at nights. ( Another long story for another feely night )
You know, deep inside, you have the truest feelings for someone. No matter what they did or do to you, your feelings won’t budge. They remain same and tonight, at this hour of night, I am high with those feelings.
So feely, that my pillow is tear-stained, my mind is sorrow-filled, yet a new beginning has already arrived at the doorstep of my life.
My heart is full of determination this time and mind you! I will not kick this beginning from my life again.
Because, in spite of getting away from my everything, I will be moving towards my something.
And that something, better not kill my expectations again.

Kasak, a girl blessed with powers to predict the future. How does she do it ? How does she end up with such powers ? That’s what will be found in the book and its story. Will these powers help her to solve the biggest problem in her life ? Will she be able to solve the biggest mystery ?
After losing her family, Kasak becomes the part of a wonderful family, of her Uncle , Aunt , and cousin – Ravi, who is naughty yet an integral part of her life.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR :

Jaydeep Khot, is a 21-year-old writer. An alumnus of Narsee Monjee College of Commerce and Economics , he made a start in the literary world from his debut novel : 50 Miles – A Reverse Journey , while Envisage is his second book.

BOOK TITLE AND COVER :

Title of the book is catchy and very impressive, along with the book’s size, which is relatively small, just shy of 80 pages.
A reader is mostly attracted to a new book by the creativity shown as its cover page.
The cover of “Envisage” is amazing as well as a curiosity-raiser.

LANGUAGE :

The language is simple and softly written, which is a plus point for us, readers.
The book doesn’t include any troublesome vocabulary which would’ve made it harder to finish or read.

NARRATION :

If the narration of a story is indeed beautifully done then, we can easily find ourselves engrossed in the story, which can be considered as a brownie point for an author.
This book’s story is inscribed simply yet with a flavour of suspense and mystery, that too concluded in the smallest suspense genre book ever.
Author’s introduction of ‘Taekwondo’ in the story is also worth praising.

DISLIKES :

1. Although the story is short and simple, yet one can find the storyline fast paced with all mysteries solving one after other in a fast pace.

2. Proper proof-reading could’ve made the story more powerful and impressive.

There are some books which tend to surprise a reader to a great extent, with the content, language, and ofcourse , the story line.‘Kaliyug- The Secret Plot’ is one of them.

When I first received the e-book version of this book, I was not very thrilled, reason being the mythological genre of the book. But then again, now If I may say the book and author has amazed me with the story, then this may be considered as an understatement.

The summary was indeed beautifully written. The book includes all the mythological tales, ( I am sure one has been hearing about, since childhood. ) in telltale format.
The book revolves around Kali and Kaliyug’s secretive battle with its twisted secretive plot.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR :

B.S. Sarwagna Kumar is a proud student of Film making at Ramoji Academy of Film and Television.
This is his first attempt in writing and well needless to say what’s making this world something which it shouldn’t be, has what inspired him to dig into kaliyug.

BOOK TITLE AND COVER :

By far, the title and the cover of this book is one of the most catchy yet impressive creation, I have seen.
The title of the book is real predictable and one can easily judge the book by its cover, although that might proved wrong by the inside story of the book.
Cover of the book is really pretty and creative. Hence, will definitely grab more attention.

LANGUAGE :

The language is perfectly inscribed and might I add, this time the book indeed includes several heavy words, which might make you use that long-hidden dictionary of yours.
Although, the language is full of heavy vocabulary but indeed the story is not at all boring, with the usage of such.

NARRATION :

The story goes in a soft flow with curiosity raising in one’s heart.
One can never guess what is to happen next in the book and that is what may considered as an interesting thing with respect to the book.
The book explains about various Yuga(s) and their significance. Each yuga starting with an interesting tale and ending with the start of other.

DISLIKES :

1. Since the book is mythological as well as somewhat spiritual, it might attract only the attention of certain section of readers.

2. Despite of having a strong story line, the book is stretched far too much for some reader’s liking.

LIKES :

1. The book title and cover are very creative.

2. The story line is strong. ( I am not into such books but still it was worth a read . )

3. The language, the editing and the grammar is well-maintained.

Above everything, I liked the book fine and wish Mr. Writer a good luck for the book.