The title of his autobiography isn't the only detail that is disturbing in retrospect.

There's this quote from Joe Paterno in 2008: "I always felt that Jerry had two loves: One was obviously his ability, his wanting to help younger people in The Second Mile and being a head coach. He could have been a head coach a couple places, but he really he backed away because they were going to ask him to give up some things in The Second Mile."