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Thursday, March 4, 2010

I feel like I could cry!

I am sure you are wondering what this is. This my fellow blogging friends, is my newest most treasured item. Today my little Sophia had her first day of preschool. This is what she made me with blue paint and cotton balls.

I promised myself this was good for her, she was ready, and that I could handle it. Of course after leaving her there, I felt guilty, sad, worried, and I missed her like crazy. I expected to get some much needed sewing done but that didn't happen either. Instead I spent every hour on the phone making sure she was ok.

She didn't cry, she didn't fuss, in fact she was so into what was surrounding her I didn't even get a hug. As I started to turn around she looked up at me and blew me a kiss saying "bye momma".

As hard as it may be for both me and dad, this is good for her, she is ready to learn and experience friendly relationships, interact with other children, and let her little brain soak up all the learning she can. She got her new toddler bed last week and is doing perfect. She also started potty training, and now drinks from a cup without a lid on it. ACK!

She went from my little baby girl, to my BIG girl in a matter of days. Her overall persona has changed just since introducing the "BIG GIRL" Type stuff.

As I look at this picture that she made for me at school today I have emotions that even I cannot comprehend. I am happy, proud, and feeling like I could cry all at the same time. Does it ever get easy to let your kids grow up.

19 comments:

My oldest is 28 it does not get easier but you are filled with a pride that I cannot explain, and a feeling that you have let them become all they can be and with your help she will grow up to be a wonderful young lady. and yes, I cried my eyes out too!! I cry now as I realize what a wonderful mother she is, and I pat my husband and I on the back, for we let her grow.....PS Never let that picture go!

Awe Terri, what a special day it has been :) They grow and get bigger and your pride grows with them - enjoy every moment, they grow so fast. :) My own little girl appraches teenage years and I still haven't worked out how that happened! LOL

Remembering the lump at the back of my throat feeling I've experienced several times. My nephew has autism and will never leave home, and I think when I realized this, it helped me over the extreme side of the emotions of kids growing older. That's what we want to happen. We don't want them always dependent on us, handicapped or unable to function. So now, for the most part, I approach such milestones with joy! They're doing what they're supposed to be doing, what they need to do...

From someone whose oldest is headed off to college next year and is so excited he's living at home at least the first year (so I can still have him that much longer!) lol

Ah...I understand and now I have already passed the "first day of school" with the grandkids! I love the picture she made for you. I have kept some from my kids and they pretend to be annoyed when I bring them out, but I suspect they are secretly pleased that it meant enough to me to keep them!

Awwwww! You are too sweet! That is so cute! I have taught young children for a long time and I know that the first day of school is usually the toughest on the parents. You made it through! Be proud! You have to frame that...it is priceless!

oh..i feel for you! when i took my Avery to her first day of school she ran in and started playing and never looked back. i was so sad...not hug nothing. when i left i called my husband and cried because i felt like she did not need me anymore...but she loved it so much and had such fun, like you i knew it was what was best

At a parent orientation at my daughter's small Christian college, one of the professors talked about his 5 children going off to college. He said the hardest were the first and the last. But with two children I only have a first and a last I wailed inside my head!

Whenever my daughter leaves to go back to school, I still remember that first day dropping her off at preschool (which she called Pretty School). One of the teacher's met her at the car and she walked into the building hand-in-hand with her teacher without looking back. Such confidence from her, while I was a puddle in the car!

All the above comments are so true. My girls are 27 and 21 and I cry every time they leave to go home with husband or back to college. But the worst was when I took them to college and had to get in the car when we moved them into their college dorms...I cried for days and days. Enjoy every moment and remember there is lots of sewing to be done when they are grown...right now time with them comes first.(that sounded a little preachy...sorry)

Oh how cute!I had that moment today when I dropped my 11 year old son today at a school problem solving olympics. I took him upstairs and followed him to drop off his coat and his lunch and expected he would turn to me and give me a hug and say goodbye. But nope I had to grab him and give him a big squeeze in front of his friend. He acted annoyed for his friend but I felt him hug me back just a little. :)

You will treasure that the rest of your life. Aren't you so proud that your little girl feels so safe that seperating was not difficult for her? You have done your job and that is just a little paycheck :)