Friday, September 06, 2013

In
1975 I got a paper route and I've had a job ever since. That streak
was broken today as I said goodbye to a job that I've had for over 16
years. I bid my co-workers farewell with tears in my eyes because I was
so lucky to work with really great people and I will miss them dearly.

I quit my job and I'm not going to another company. Why?
Burn out is a real thing. I had a very difficult time working -- I'd
feel almost physically ill some days. Sunday nights were dampened with a
dread that I had to go to work again Monday. Slowly that dread would
creep in earlier and earlier into the weekend until Saturday nights were
now deadened with pain of returning to the office.

Not only
did I feel dread, but I was slowly turning into a creature that my wife
barely recognized. Sour, depressed, angry at everything. I felt that
there was nothing worth doing, no activity would bring me joy, no
happiness was possible. I would drift into dark mental places that scared me.

I had to leave.

I started saving my money and paying off any debts I had outstanding so
that when the time came, I could count on the ability to live on Mrs Yam's
salary. When a surprise windfall showed up, I was able to pay off our
car, the last of the debts except for the mortgage. With that out of
the way, I started the long, dark trek of convincing myself it was
possible to leave.

It's odd what a hold a job or career has on a
person. Our culture is all about work; the question "What do you do?"
is not about hobbies, but your job. We define people by their
occupations, how much someone earns, their title and position. I have
always worked and to convince myself that it isn't necessary to always
work was depressingly difficult.

What would I do if I quit?
Would I be able to live the life to which I'd become accustomed?
Perhaps that lifestyle and its attendent costs chained me to a job I was
no longer willing to do? What if I changed how I lived? Could I live
differently and be happier? I intend to find out. I'll not be working,
but I'll be busy. I have bikes to ride, camping to do, cooking and
baking to perfect, gardens to put to bed and a house to clean. After
all of that, there's a couple of Robin Hood bikes that need renovating,
sewing to learn, and volunteering to do.

I'll eventually get
back to working for money, but there's no guarantee that I'll be back in
IT. I'll put my resume out there, but I'm not going to look real hard.
Maybe I'll get my computer mojo back and maybe I won't. Not sure what
will happen, but I want to wander and see where life leads me. I feel
good about this, and I'm scared and excited to see what the future
holds.

Saturday, February 02, 2013

I've purchased an ASUS RT-N66R wireless router for my house. At nearly $200, it's probably more than your average Net-using citizen requires, but I'm not a typical user. It runs a Linux kernel (handy!), it has three antennae and can easily light up any device in a standard house. E.g., my little phone can get a strong enough signal at the opposite end of the house to run Netflix. Of course watching movies on a tiny screen is straining for these old eyes, but if I need to watch Doctor Who while lying in bed, I have the bandwidth to pull it off.

Yay me.

Anyway, the stock OS load is decent and if you have no need to mess with computers and their parts, you'll be fine. I'm not fine, though. Tinkering is my game and this gadget is a tinkerer's jewel. I'm contemplating changing to an new version of Tomato or DD-WRT, but until then I needed a couple of network tools that weren't available on the stock ROM. To fix that, you'll need to do a couple of things, essentially, enable the download tools, add a drive and install the software packages you need.

To do that on an ASUS RT-N66U, you need to insert a USB thumb drive into the back of the router and then dismount it by using a browser to go to the router's address and logging in. On the left hand side, select the "Network Map" icon, then select the drive icon that shows up center bottom section (the USB icon). From there, click on the "Safely Remove disk: Remove" button. This will di/smount the newly inserted USB stick.

Now you'll need to telnet to the router and format the drive that you've just installed.

dmesgat the command prompt will tell you where the USB ended up (bottom slot is probably /dev/sdb and the top USB slot is /dev/sdc). In my case it was /dev/sdc.

The number of cylinders for this disk is set to 21269.There is nothing wrong with that, but this is larger than 1024,and could in certain setups cause problems with:1) software that runs at boot time (e.g., old versions of LILO)2) booting and partitioning software from other OSs (e.g., DOS FDISK, OS/2 FDISK)

Command (m for help): d 1Selected partition 1

Create a new disklabel:Command (m for help): oBuilding a new DOS disklabel. Changes will remain in memory only,until you decide to write them. After that the previous contentwon't be recoverable.

The number of cylinders for this disk is set to 21269.There is nothing wrong with that, but this is larger than 1024,and could in certain setups cause problems with:1) software that runs at boot time (e.g., old versions of LILO)2) booting and partitioning software from other OSs (e.g., DOS FDISK, OS/2 FDISK)Now create new partition:Command (m for help): nCommand action e extended p primary partition (1-4)pPartition number (1-4): 1First cylinder (1-21269, default 1): Using default value 1Last cylinder or +size or +sizeM or +sizeK (1-21269, default 21269): Using default value 21269
Now check your work:Command (m for help): p

You're done. Now you need to enable the Download Master software by going to the router's web page and clicking on USB applications and selecting the install option. Optware has been installed. You can now use the ipkg application like any other package manager and get useful tools for your router. I installed openssh, openssh-sftp-server, nmap and tcpdump by using the following command:

About Me

The struggles of a fat guy on his way to middle age and the classic battle of the bulge. Against him, the entire agricultural and food production system, American Midwestern attitudes towards food and eating and a lifetime of sloth and drunkenness. His only weapon, his bike.