I’m asking You God, to give me what You have left. Give me those things which others never ask of You. I don’t ask You for rest, or tranquility. Not that of the spirit, the body, or the mind. I don’t ask You for wealth, or success, or even health. All those things are asked of You so much Lord, that you can’t have any left to give. Give me instead Lord what You have left. Give me what others don’t want. I want uncertainty and doubt. I want torment and battle. And I ask that You give them to me now and forever Lord, so I can be sure to always have them, because I won’t always have the strength to ask again. But give me also the courage, the energy, and the spirit to face them. I ask You these things Lord, because I can’t ask them of myself

Vietnam era Army JAG, Asia, 17-yr Cold Warrior in Soviet-China Bloc green zone, Been shot at and hit, but in crime, not war; twice-broken nose for lying (same fellow) hence good law school candidate; Could have been Somebody in Corporate world and politics, but at every crossroad chose to be a man with a tawdry past instead. Gave up law and am now a redeemed American.