Is this PND?

I felt absolutely great (mostly) up until about a month - 6 wks ago. I have had quite a hard time of late (repeated illness, DD being ill too, financial concerns) but I am unsure if this is PND or just depression. It is affecting my relationship in a big way as although my partner is supportive i really resent his 'freedom' to have a life/social life and for some reason I feel really hard done by all the time. But realistically he let's me do stuff so don't know where this is coming from. I have become oddly un-trusting (because i am insecure?) and have lost my confidence. I just feel generally crap but instead of changing it seem to be in a rut of feeling sorry for myself and only seeing the bad things. I seem to be blaming him for it all but I think it's in actual fact me that has the problem. I feel like I am becoming a crap mum after being so attentive but suddenly I feel bored and like it's a chore. My DD is wonderful and very good so I hate myself for feeling like this. I think I am just really lonely. My partner is going out tonight to the pub for a birthday and I am not going because we are broke and a babysitter is expensive but I am feeling crazily upset/fed up about this when In reality i could just go but I almost can't face it as am worried we will end up arguing If i have a drink or two.

Anyone felt anything like this before? I just feel a bit trapped in an unhappy place!

It could be PND. Sounds like youve had a lot on your plate. I think I would feel upset if my partner went to the pub, if you still have financial problems. As you said you probably are lonely too. Its quite a change to have to adjust to a new baby, esp your 1st. It can be an anxious time. Do you have a supportive mum nearby? Im sure youre not a crap mum, I can understand that you feel guilty for feeling like this. But please dont! I would enlist some help/support from partner and mum and friends. I would definately go to gp, you may need anti depressants. Please be assured this is normal! If you want to pm me please do. take care

I could have written this post so you are certainly not alone! I love my son with all my heart but I have spent a lot of time battling with feeling annoyed/resenting oh for having all this time away for our son even if its work. Just a break away from constant running around after him, I find it exhausting and overwhelming. Sometimes I feel like I have no life of my own.

I have tried to get out the house to exercise to get some time away from daily life.

Not sure if it is PND, sorry I am no help. I have kept my feelings very private as I don't worry about people judging. Might be best to speak to your GP?

Just wanted you to know that you are not along and these feelings certainly don't make you less of a mother.

Thanks for the advice. It is good to know others have the same feelings. In the end I went out last night and although it cheered me up and we had a fun time today is still feel v low and sad. I am actually Xmas shopping this morning by myself which should be a joy to have some alone time but I feel like I want to burst into tears! I will go to the GP on Monday. Yes I do have a supportive mum but she is quite far away unfortunately. I have some friends I could speak to too but in all honesty I don't want to. I'm embarrassed. I just want to feel how I did a few months back. I'm going to get out to the gym this afternoon as I've just realised I've not exercised for 3 months which is most unlike me so that may help. I know I am not OK because I've lost 3/4 stone in that time which must be due to stress and anxiety as I eat plenty.

THere is absolutely nothing to feel embarrassed about. Going to the gym sounds like a good idea. Hope it helped. Glad youre going to see your gp. It really does sound like depression. Im struggling a bit myself at the moment. Christmas puts extra stress on us all. take care. im here for you