After seeing a photo this morning of our former president looking serious and dignified, I realized just how much I miss having a grown-up in the White House.

How very much I miss the sense of stability he offered just by his very presence. I miss trusting that he would do the right thing, at the right time, with the right people. I miss sleeping well at night because I and my fellow citizens were in safe, competent hands and no matter what might happen, day or night, this man and his administration would handle it with integrity, grace and aplomb.

I miss feeling proud to be an American because of his actions towards friends and allies, and because of his progressive agenda that moved us forward, not backward, in ways that were innovative and brilliant, not archaic and dead-ended. I miss a world where I didn't have to wake up every morning feeling sick over what trouble our current president's tweets in the wee hours of the morning might be getting us into today. I miss knowing that if my president was up in the wee hours of the morning, it was because he was working to solve some problem that might affect his people and using every resource at his fingertips to keep us safe in ways that were intelligent, adept and constitutionally legal.

I am so sick of the drama, uncertainty and corruptness coming from our government every single day. I'm disgusted by the Republicans’ attempt to normalize the hypocrisy they live by, all without conscience. The world they are trying to mold us into is one I don't even recognize. It is an ugly, heartless and meaningless world they desire, one where rules are to be broken, ethics need not be applied, and civil liberties can be taken away without a moment's hesitation. They have the majority, and they are using that power in ways that are devastating — all while turning a blind eye and a deaf ear on the shenanigans and tomfoolery occurring right in front of them by our 45th president. It is beyond appalling and a constant embarrassment.

Yes, this is the world I now live in, where a man-child runs the country with no understanding of his job, with no sense of obligation to his people or the Constitution that binds him, and with a political party who have gone mad with power. They are the swamp.

I know it won't alter the current state of affairs one iota — I'll still have restless nights and that constant sick feeling in my stomach. Worst of all is the deeply, mortifying sense of shame of how America is being seen these days - foolish, childish and untrustworthy.

I will continue to miss the sensible, grown-up world I once knew when we had a dignified, competent adult in the White House.