for a long time the only woman who wanted me
was x years older than I am. Today it's different: the only woman who wants me is x years older than I am. .... Sometimes a guy has just gotta ask himself: "What the fuck?"

You're right.
And I'm going to take that to heart. But that means I gotta examine a different question now: why are all of my friends my age USELESS as friends? Half of them never want to go out anywhere and the other half either sex in groningen that they can't (and then don't) or bail at the last minute. I'm stuck associating with a social circle older than me because they're the only ones who want to socialize.