The 31-year-old actress/singer opened up with the glossy about a plastic surgery procedure gone wrong, soulmates and more. Check it:

On relationships: “I’ve gone through a lot to get where I am; I’ve had boy ups and downs like no one can imagine. There were times when I would hysterically cry to my sister and say, ‘If God has someone for me, where is he? Why am I not being understood? Why can’t he just love me—am I not enough?’ One day, my sister turned to me and said, ‘I’m your soulmate.’ I just boo hoo cried. I know it sounds crazy, but I’m not in search of a soulmate because I believe she’s it—and that’s good enough for me.”

On moving from New York to Los Angeles for The Real: “When I got the job everyone was asking, what are you going to do? I thought that was an absurd question. There is no way I’m not going to follow my dream for a man. In my 30s, that feeling clicked: Yes, I love you, yes, I want to be with you, yes, I want a family with you, but I come first. Once I was able to articulate that, Lenny found me even more attractive. I think that’s why I’m engaged today.”

On getting implants in her teens and then having them removed: “I had my breasts done when I was 19. I’ve always found curvy, voluptuousness so beautiful, and when you’re that age you think, I want to be sexy and womanly. I went to a doctor in Miami and asked for a B cup and ended up with double Ds. I had to go back to work with The Cheetah Girls, where I was supposed to look much younger, and here I was with these porn star boobs. I went from one insecurity to the next—feeling like I was too small to feeling like when I walked into the room everyone knew my boobs were fake.”