CRIMBO LIMBO

First of all, how was your Christmas? It was a bit of a funny one for me. For a mixture of reasons this year was the least Christmassy I have felt since, like, ever – and I normally bloody love Christmas so I spent a lot of time feeling annoyed with myself that I didn’t feel as festive as I would have liked, and it was all very frustrating. This was the first Christmas I didn’t spend at home – Kenny and I went to spend it in Southend with his family – which was a bit of a contrast to the relaxing Christmases I have been used to with my parents which always consist of a nap on the sofa after lunch in front of the fire (I am a person, not a cat I swear). This year was fast-paced, busy but still enjoyable all the same, albeit a lack of naps.I have had this week off between Christmas and New Year, whereas Kenny had to go back to work the day after boxing day, which means I have had plenty of time to do whatever my heart has desired. I have found this to be a blessing and a curse all at the same confusing time. Having time to myself is something I always crave when I am at work, and then when I actually have time off on my own I have no idea what to do with myself and then feel guilty that I am not being efficient with the time I have. I always envision when I have a few days to myself I will get SOOO much done… read a couple of books, stock up on blog posts, stockpile pictures for insta, go on daily walks or even a go for a run… (who am I kidding? Seriously). I generally plan to be a productive, domestic goddess.In reality, I have spent the last few days sleeping in until a stupid hour, I haven’t worn makeup since Christmas day (although I admit I’m kinda enjoying that part), and in all honesty, I haven’t even gotten dressed today. If anything I may treat myself to a bath later to only put on a fresh set of PJs afterwards. I’m not even sure what bloody day it is. I did do 4 loads of laundry and clean the flat so I perhaps deserve a small pat on the back for that, but in all honesty, not much else has been accomplished. Meanwhile Kenny has been coming home from work greeting me with ‘I’m so jealous you’ve been able to do nothing all day!’ And I’m thinking ‘Really?!‘ as I feel like I’m going slowly insane due to a lack of routine and not knowing how to handle the fact that I literally don’t have to do anything if I don’t want to – how is this allowed?!Although I’m sure it’s normal during this odd Christmas to New Year transitional period to not do much adulting, or even human-ing for that matter, I’m still beating myself up for not mustering the energy to tick a few more things off the to-do list. Although maybe it can be excused while we are in this period of limbo? It’s always such an odd time of the year… it’s no longer Christmas, but at the same time normality hasn’t quite resumed. While I still feel it’s acceptable to put some Twiglets and leftover sausage rolls on a plate and call it lunch, I also feel like I should be getting my shit together for the year ahead. I have a fresh 12 months laid out ahead of me, whatever am I going to do with them?

Have you, like me, been stuck in Crimbo Limbo? How have you spent this week between Christmas and the New Year?