Uh oh- I've just (as of 5 min ago) started visiting these sites. I thought I was so stable, like I'm not starting another ed or anything but I like reading about mental illnesses and the psych ward and things like that. Does that mean I'm not as stable as I think I am?

Do you eally like reading about mental illness and psychiatric hospitals? Bc there are books out there like Girl, Interrupted and The Bell Jar which I think are considered classics and give a vivid picture of the psy. hosp.

wishicouldbenormal-I'm trying to get a hold of a good nutritionist but idk if i rly want to go because they're just going to make me fat. Idk anything anymore....I want to die die die die and thats it!

Ha ha ha I'm not laughing at you at all I'm just laughing at the irony of me giving advice and support when only last night at 1;30 am I paged my psychiatrist to tell her that I want to kill myself...So I DEFINITELY know how you feel. It's not worth the pain, I don't deserve to live, I can't let go of this control, whatever it is, I am trying to remind myself that THIS WILL PASS! and maybe I will struggle for a really long time but not every moment and every day will I feel as hopeless, dispairing and lost as I do now.Just remember PLEASE that there are people out there who care about you - including us- who would be devastated if you would decide to take an irreversible step.Pls keep in touch, depressed.

Depressed - I don't know what to tell you in response to your original post about visiting pro-ana websites. I know from personal experience that it's a really horrible addiction and that it can just keep things going in a really bad way. I just wanted to tell you that I admire you for KNOWING that it's not a good thing and for reaching out for support. That is definitely a good first step.

Do you have a therapist? If so, can you talk to him/her about it?

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I want to love my life. My desire is what counts.

Got myself into a rut. Didn't realize how even though I am stable now I can still come so close to being not stable. I'm not sure I'm making sense but basically what I'm trying to say is that I'm being stupid now by visiting these sites. They should be off limits to me since I'm still so new to this stability thing. Why am I pushing myself towards the edge? I like being happy and doing well, why put myself in a situation that make me not be amazing anymore?

I know I'm bugging everyone but for some reason I feel like I need some typa support right now. The only person that I can text/email isn't answering me. I don't have a therapist anymore and want to leave it that way. I'm hoping I can just sleep this off.

NO!!!! i'm not telling u bout these site cuz they'll KILL you! THEY ARE CRAZY!!!! Yet...I can't stop. I was ready to kill myself sooo many times just didnt want to wake up my therapist so said i'll wait till morning and then slept it off. Now Idk anything...I'm finished...hopeless case. I'm just counting down for school to be over so that I can't sleep and sleep and never leave my bed

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