Questions fly through my mind as I try to figure out why I feel so blind. Its dark.

Another nightmare?

It almost feels as though I’m still dreaming
but as I try to focus my eyes, I can see the outline of my bedside vines. I tilt my head to find my alarm I’ve double checked a hundred times.

3am.

Another nightmare.

As soon as I feel my shaking, sweating, slippery skin, I know.

Reoccurring dreams of my worst fear. This happens a lot, I should know. Why does it feel so near? Why is the terror so clear?

I’ve never experienced it but its always in my mind. Lurking, like it could jump out at any given time. My conscience won’t let me forget the things I dream when I’m alone, on my own, it’s out of my control.

Today I bought a book by one of the Youtubers who’s videos I have been watching for years. Fleur released a book this month and it makes me really proud actually. There are a lot of chapters on different topics but as I was flicking through, I found a small chapter called ‘Reading Your Dreams’. Now, I am in no way confirming that anything written is something I have researched but I thought it was interesting because after I read it I found some that apply to me. Most of the time I don’t really pay attention to my dreams but I am always confused as to why we get them. Here is what the chapter says about some of the most common dreams people have:

” Death dreams have a variety of different influences and potential meanings. A lot of the time they signify a change in your life. Pay attention to who or what is dying in your dream, as it often signifies the loss of something associated with that person. Death dreams can actually be quite positive, and signify the need to move on from certain issues or influences in your life. Most importantly, don’t take death dreams too literally, or associate them with a bad omen.

Being chased in your dreams can signify anxiety in your life. It’s important to focus on who is chasing you and why. Chasing dreams are often linked to avoidance, fear of something, or self-denial (the latter especially so if you are running away from yourself).

Falling dreams are usually closely linked to a current situation or feeling in your life, rather than something more deeply rooted. It might be an insecurity or a loss of control. Don’t be surprised or worried by falling dreams if you are going through a stressful time in your life, as they can often be directly attributed to feelings of instability and a lack of confidence.

Flying dreams are often amongst the best dreams and are usually positive experiences. Flying above things can signify moving on or getting over obstacles in your life and achieving freedom from things that hold you back I often have dreams about struggling to get off the ground, managing to fly for a few meters but coming quickly back down to the ground. While this is a fairly common occurrence in dreams, it can be frustrating and tends to signify lack of confidence or motivation.

Exam dreams are another of the most common and can often occur when you have no upcoming actual test in your life. They usually signify nervousness, a fear of failure or a lack of confidence for an upcoming challenge, whatever form it may take. The main focus during exam or test dreams should be the process rather than the content of the test itself. Try to focus on the experience of being tested, rather than what’s in the test in order to pinpoint the source of the issue.

Cheating dreams are very common and usually stem from low self-esteem or trust issues in a relationship. Ty to identify why you might feel at risk from your partner cheating. Often it might be due to lack of attention or other issues in your relationship, but a lot of the time it stems from simple insecurity.

Naked dreams often represent insecurity, fear of exposure, vulnerability, falling short of your goals or being unprepared for a task at hand.

Teeth dreams are also fairly common. Dreams in which you are losing your teeth often signify an underlying insecurity about your looks or fears of public embarrassment, but also communication problems or feelings of powerlessness or concern over health issues.”

I just found this extremely interesting because although I don’t know a lot about the topic and although I don’t base my life around my dreams or necessarily pay that much attention to my dreams, there are two recent dreams that I can’t get out of my head so reading this just allowed me to understand them a little bit. The ones that apply to me are the Death dreams ( have a variety of different influences and potential meanings. A lot of the time they signify a change in your life. Pay attention to who or what is dying in your dream, as it often signifies the loss of something associated with that person. Death dreams can actually be quite positive, and signify the need to move on from certain issues or influences in your life. Most importantly, don’t take death dreams too literally, or associate them with a bad omen.) and the Being chased ( in your dreams can signify anxiety in your life. It;s important to focus on who is chasing you and why. Chasing dreams are often linked to avoidance, fear of something, or self-denial (the latter especially so if you are running away from yourself).dreams which are dreams that I would call nightmares and I can’t remember the last time I had a nightmare like that so it startle me a little bit.