Trying to stay positive

I am firmly planted in my “trying to stay positive to get a positive” mode this month.

For those that left such sweet comments yesterday, yes I made up with Mr. B. I took the first step and sent him a text that I was sorry and thanked him for the help he had been Monday morning with the kids. He isn’t a bad guy all the time, I really do see when he is trying. I never even mentioned or gave him credit for cleaning the living room and kitchen on Thursday night while I was out with a friend for her birthday with the kids. Those are two chores I really hate doing. He also picked up the laundry in our room and put it into the laundry sorter. I will admit in my laundry craze before the races I had dumped out everything to get to the clothes I needed to wash.

Last night I briefly mentioned that I really do need him to still say “I Love You” when I am in a bad mood. I still need him to hug and kiss me, or at least try. That when he stops doing those things I get trapped in my bad mood. Hopefully telling him with help the next time.

I forgot to mention that I managed to throw out my back on Sunday morning at church. It is an old injury that can’t really be fixed without surgery. I try to avoid doing things that will throw it out. I just wasn’t thinking when one of the kids in the 2 year old room got hurt. I picked her up and carried her without a second thought. It did give me a reason to go see my Chiropractor at least. I had managed to avoid going to see him for about a year, so when he asked how I was I decided to tell him about our TTC. He is a little bit of a naturalist so he urged me to research the metformin. He also gave me the “just relax and it will happen” speech. I just smiled and nodded my head. He did add in a new adjustment for my lower back. I will go twice a week for the rest of this cycle. Maybe it will help, maybe it won’t. At this point I am fine with trying “alternative” methods as well.

I also got some news from yet another friend that she POAS and got the results that I long for. I promised her that I am happy for her (I really I!). At least she told me the truth when I asked instead of just posting an U/S picture on facebook. I swear I didn’t cry, not even one tear. See, I am staying positive! I think it makes me want this even more. She was my last TTC buddy. Everyone else is pregnant or not going to try. Can this be a sign? Please?

I am trying to decide if I want to get another month’s supply of OPK’s. I never got a positive last month. I didn’t take the femara this month, just the metformin. Would it be a waste of money? Should I just wait till next month with the femara? I need opinions PLEASE!

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Glad to hear you and DH worked it out and that you are keeping a positive outlook!

As for the Femara – When I was doing Clomid, I didn’t get a postiive OPK, but then got pregnant the following cycle, so I am a firm believer that repetition is important. It helps your body adjust in my opinion, so I say go for the Femara.

POAS is a pain in the rump, especially when you have no clue when you might ovulate. If you’ve had any kind of consistency on other drugs, not sure if you have, maybe you can just test for that set of days, like for me it would probably be CD 16-CD 21. Either that or do what my RE told me, cover your bases and BD every day from CD 12 on.

Wow, this must be positive-thinking-month for ICLW! I am so thrilled to read all of the positive, uplifting blog posts — it encourages me to do the same! I in the middle of a cycle and doing my darndest to have a positive, non-defeatist attitude this time around 🙂 Best of luck to you!