I really don;t know how to start this blog out, I have a lot to say, but no idea where to begin. I think I will start with a story.. As some of you know, my last relationship with a great guy, ended badly. We had been together almost two years when the breakup came. I couldn't believe there was anyone out there in the big world for me. He was the "only one". Months went by, I went on a somewhat blind date and fell in love again. Beau was my best friend, he made me feel like I was special and worth loving. He was there through the ups and downs of my life. We grew in love for each other and in awe of God together. Seeing how He works everything for our good was so visible. We both didnt see this coming that first date. During the nine months of Beau and I dating, I moved out......

My Bible study group at church is such a wonderful group of people. I have gotten really close to most of them and feel very open with them. ON Sunday after our meeting I was talking to one girl in our group saying how the devil has been attacking em with jealousy and how I have been finally seeming to get through it by putting on teh armor of God : But then I get tested again... My cat Scogin has been at the vet since Saturday morning. He seems to have a really bad bladder infection. Sooo being at the vets for four nights and have an Iv and such is going to cost a pretty penny.. I live by myself already and that makes everything financially tight already then to have a huge bill on top of that is scary enough.. My mom calls me after I get off work yesterday and with all my other bills......

(WARNING: BLOG CONTAINS VENTING! LOL) It is 3:30 am, I am sleeping peacefully when all of a sudden I hear banging on the upstairs neighbors door. I live in an old renivated farm house. The woman who owns it rents out the top and the bottom. The way the house is situated, my bed room is right next door to their "mud room" where they come into their place. back to the sotry... the banging on the door continues, then the girl who is banging starts yelling" Krissy! Opend the Door!" (I am omitting the cuss words.) She keeps screaming this... I am a little concerned. I go into the bathroom and look out the window to where we part our cars, I see another girl standing there. The girl banging on the door comes around to her, they start talking. They go over to my screened in......

You ever get one of those moments where God is telling you something, trying tog et your to do something for Him an dyou say "I didn't hear anything!" Yesterday night, my boyfriend, his mom and I went linedancing. AWe go every Wednesday night and have fun learning new songs and just enjoying each others company. We have a few friends who also go and it is justa fun time. Well, Beau (my boyfriend) and I had just finished dancing to one of our favorite songs and his mom was talking to this lady. His mom came back obver and sat down with us and told me that this woman listened to one of my favorite Chirstian stations. I heard God say "Go talk to her." I shrugged it off. I wasn't really preparded to go and witness to someone. But God kept saying, "Go over and......

I have been doing a Bible study by Beth Moore called Believing GOd. I stumbled through my lesson today as it revealed a lot of hard things for me. It wants me to ask God to grow my faith and I am scared of asking. I know that God will do wonderful things in me and make me more into a woman after His own heart, but I'm scared He will take away things that are important to me. I know it sounds soooo shallow though. I have been through situations where God has stripped everything from me and made me stronger. PLus, God is soo much better than all those things. But Faith is just believing right? Believing a God liek the one shown in Isaiah: Isaiah 45:18-25 For thus says the LORD, Who created the heavens, Who is God, Who formed the earth and made it, Who has established it, Who did not......

I got to work yesterday, it was my second branch for me to work at that day and I had something waiting for me from the woman who does all of our insurance. I was a little concerned. I just enrolled in the health insurance and was waiting for my first paycheck to come to see the damage out of it. So far everything seemed to be working well, I had signed everything and sent it in on time. I opened the letter and it said that I didn't sign up and it was going to pay me a sum of money to pay for the year with no insurance so I could possibly see a doctor. I was freaking out. I haven't been able to go to the doctor since May, and when I did see her she wanted me to get my blood tested for rheumetoid artritius because of all the joint problems I have been having. I sent the woman an......

I believe every Christian has struggled with some kind of major sin in their life. I know I face one in particular that drives me crazy. I have started this ten week Bible Study where they said to try to sanctify yourself for the 9 out of the 10 weeks. God brought it upon my heart to stop this one sin.. So, I began. This first week has been really hard. I messed up once, but the Lord is gracious. Then He showed me a powerful quote: Do you know why most Christians don't get any better or why you don't get better? It is because you're doing it wrong, dummy! You are obsessed with sin and your faith has become another "system of laws" whereby you feel guilty and try and try and try to do better. It doesn't work, never has worked, never will work. Only really shallow......

A few years ago, my family did this group every Friday night with a couple of families where we studied God's Word, shared a meal together and just enjoyed each others company. It was great times, there was a group of teenagers and we all hung out, played games. We were a tight group. Had great nights. One of my guy friends there had the same Birthday as me.. we weren't very close, I actually attempted to date his brother, but I digress. Steve (this friend) was a growing Christian, he looked to be in Love with God and His word, always asking questions and trying to grow. Fast Forward a few years, Steve is now in Iraq. Married, baby on the way, shunned from his family, and bitter and broken. He comes to me every few weeks and asks "why did God do this to me?" Most of the......

My Bible Study group has been doing a book on prayer and it has been very good for my walk. Last night we talked about "Painfully Honest Prayers." This really hit home for me. During my break up last NOvember and the follow 3 or 4 months after, I had to learn to pray painfully honest prayers. I would hide my true feelings from God, from my friends, and from myself. But I realized that the more and more I pushed my true feelings away, the harder the pain was to deal with. We read Jeremiah 20: Jeremiah 20:7-18 7 O LORD, You induced me, and I was persuaded; You are stronger than I, and have prevailed. I am in derision daily; Everyone mocks me. 8 For when I spoke, I cried out; I shouted, Violence and plunder!” Because the word of the LORD was made to me A reproach and a......

First off I would like to say I am sorry for my absence on here lately. Just haven't really had time to sign on and blog and read stuff. Work has been insane and now that I have a boyfriend who lives close I am constantly out doing stuff, hanging with my family and just being busy. I enjoy having a life where I am not quiet sure whats gonna happen later that day because it keeps me on my toes. But I have found that even though I am busy, I cannot be too busy for God. He has been so faithful to me and has blessed me so much! I find myself seeing more of his blessings every day and waking up in the morning with a smile on my face has been amazing just because I know that I have a wonderful heavenly Father and He is worthy to be praised! Its been so long since I have been truly joyful......