I am a nurse, mystic, mother and writer

Friday, March 27, 2015

My Planet Earth or The Gift

In 2013 when I was in an extreme state of mental illness, I got it into my crazy head that I would clean the trash from the road sides. I think I picked up about 5 or six large garbage bags full. I had a line that would pop out of my mouth, "I clean it, I claim it." Well, certainly I could not claim city property. I don't know why I said it. Maybe in another realm I could claim it in some magical thinking way.

While grabbing trashy objects I was very fortunate as planet earth presented me with a self portrait. I found a green bowling ball hidden in the grass. I brought it home an painted it with blue and white swirls to make it more life like.

Today I was in my closet and noticed it with fresh eyes, it does have a magical feel to it. I held it in my arms and meditated Om Mani Padme Hum. I had the youtube monks meditating with me. While meditating I imagined myself as the Earth Mother. I thought about what I wanted to disappear.....like the garbage in the oceans. I imagined the oceans teaming with life as they once were. I thought of a planet without smart phones and cars. I could see forests with old growth trees and pristine lakes.