In addition to walking, which I am reinstating, I am adding BREATHE. Holding one's breath when stressed, does not help the stress.

And June will look a lot like her sister May. I have gotten the process started for ALL of these things, and I have more work to do, and will continue on for June.

I found myself May-mid-month looking around, and asking myself: what am I rushing towards? Yes, I need to do some things to keep income coming IN, that's important to our household, and to do that, all the balls need to keep rolling.

But seriously what is the rush? What am I leaping around trying to achieve?

Is it about looking at the things that others are doing, and feeling like I need to "catch up"?

Is it about some need to prove myself, not only to myself, but to my peers?

Is it about moving around and jumping up and down to make myself feel like there is lots of energy around everything I am doing?

What is at the bottom of all this doing and being and showing and OY . . . I'm tired.

I mean seriously, does anyone else feel like they started work at the circus only to realise that the circus never sent you to Juggling Camp, and so you're in the side ring (phew! at least it's not the center ring) trying to get the hang of juggling more than 2 balls with the tent full and an auduence watching?

Someone asked me this week, whilst having a discussion about just this topic: what if everything is ok right now, just the way it is? What if there is nothing to rush towards, and nothing to do but be in the moment?

That will be my #7 for June.

Ask that question of yourself - outloud - and see how just asking it, changes how you feel inside that body of yours. For me, all the pressure came off and the search for a clear view of what's ahead became a magnificent view of what's here now.

OK June, we're getting the hang of this... and everything is OK just the way it is.

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I am really ready to slow down, June is a nice month for me to breathe - May was hectic. It is always self inflicted. Sometimes I am just not that motivated so when creativity and energy strike I tend to ride the wave until I am under water soaking wet and wondering what happened?! I wish for you a fruitful month working without rushing Liz :)

OMG - YES that is totally how I feel! I keep adding to the things that I'm doing, and keep on doing what I used to do, it's crazy! Part of all this is because this cycle of submit to be published in the magazines - there's so long between the beginning and the end, and I know I want to keep going, but phew, it's exhausting!