Sunday, 18 November 2012

My Date With The Reaper ...

Let him know that whoever brings back a sinner from his wandering will save his soul from death and will cover a multitude of sins.

You know that feeling … That feeling when you are finally where you wanted to be. You dreamt about it your whole life and then finally you are there. You prepare for it. You wait for it. You imagine it. And then, without a second's notice, it is there. All My life I prayed for that moment to come. That feeling of completeness. And now, I am finally living it. A part of Me is filled with joy because I am finally where I am but there is a side to Me which is petrified! Which is full of fear. For this moment of completeness is also the moment of realisation, that this is it. This is the final touch to the painting. The full stop to the story. This is how it is going to be for the rest of My life. Through all the struggles that I have overcome and all the wars still bestowed upon Me, this is the way I am going to go out. But I never knew that before the curtain call, I would meet with this stranger. A Stranger, the folk lore of the world calls as the Soul Collector. I simply call Him, The Reaper. Ladies and gentlemen, this is My Date With The Reaper …

Have you come to collect? Is it My time? Is this the way how it ends? Is their light at the end of the tunnel? Do I get to see god? These were the questions that were running through my head when I met The Reaper but all I did was look at Me. This beautiful monster who God created. For the balance in this world. People have this assumption that The Reaper is a hideous and devilish monster who is pale and down-right frightening but all I saw was this Serene, Peaceful and Calm being which was filled with Energy just like you and Me. And what puzzled Me most was that he wasn't doing anything to Me. He wasn't tearing My soul out from My body, nor was he showing the torments of hell. He was just standing there. So, finally, after the 5mins of awkward silence between us I asked him, "So?" and he just replied, "Before you say or think any further can we both sit down some place peaceful and have a nice cup of tea?". Of course I was bewildered by his words but nonetheless I proceeded and granted his wish. What followed afterwards was something I never expected. Especially from The Reaper himself …

"You obviously must be thinking why am I having a cup of tea with you when I should be collecting your soul. Well, to make the long story short, I am not here to collect your soul. I am here to understand it." I asked in confusion once again, "Excuse Me?". And for this The Reaper said, "Let Me explain. But to understand the answers, We must first ask the right questions. And so, we begin. Mahaakshay, we all know that you made your deal with God and the Devil at the same time. You asked for it all and you even accepted the consequences that come along with it. We always had our eye on you. Even when you didn't know, we were there with you. Every step of the way. And as time passed, you became an exceptional human being. And we all were so proud of you. But then something happened to you? Didn't it? You became something more than you asked for. You went far down that road, didn't you? We all knew, you would, in the end, become just like us but we didn't expect this. So I ask you this question, why did you become this thing? We never wanted you to become this way. You cared once. You loved once. You were once that Boy. A Boy who is filled with Innocence. What happened to you Mahaakshay? What. Happened. To. You?"

I just looked at him. To be honest, for the first few moments I didn't know what to say. I was completely taken a back. I mean, this is The Grim Reaper after all! The Collector Of Souls! And that entity, just spoke those words to Me! At that moment, I had no comeback. But, as those never-ending moments of shock and realisation went by I blinked, I moved My nostrils to breath the air and then I opened My lips and said, "I know what happened to Me Mr.Reaper. I got consumed. I lost control. And I forgot when to stop. I always knew that Greatness had a price. I always knew that I had to make certain choices that would haunt Me until I died. I also knew what would happen to Me the moment I would say Yes. I knew it all. But I never knew I would become this cold-heartless-selfish human being. I have forgotten how to care. How to look beyond My own self. I have become this Fake personality for the world. A personality that the world thinks is real. But I am more darker than that. All those who once loved Me have now gone, for they only see a very self-centred, selfish human being. They look at Me and wonder that how can a man be so much self-consumed that he looses his ability to care. His ability to love or even be concerned. For them, I mean nothing now. For them I am not even a memory. But Mr.Reaper, I had My reasons. I always had My reasons." …

"I want to succeed. I want to win. No matter how hard it gets. I want to triumph. Feel the exhilaration of victory. I want My hand up. I want to make it through this hellish war. I want My Greatness. And for that, I am willing to do anything. You see Me today as a Monster who doesn't care. But you know from where I began. You know what I went through. For Me, My Success means everything! For My Success will one day define My legacy. And to achieve that I can do anything. I can become anything. I can't stop. I won't stop. Yes, I know what this journey has made Me. It has made Me this shallow-godless-freak who deserves nothing but his loneliness and you know what? Even though that scares the shit out of Me, I am ok with that. You heard Me, Mr.Reaper, I am ok with that. So when you come to collect My soul make sure you put in the last circle of hell, for that is where it will belong. But until then, I will do whatever it takes to live this life of Greatness because that is all I have! One day, My body will crumble, My bones will break and My Mind will be shattered. One day I will be a sad, broken, lonely of a man. But Today Is Not That Day … Today Is Not That Day!" ...

After what I said, Me and The Reaper had another 5mins of awkward silence. But after that, the tea cup was empty. The breeze was still blowing it's cool wave and the silence of words were still playing their tune. Then The Reaper got up and started preparing for his exit but not until He said His Last Farewell Words to Me. "I have met many but none like you. You are far too consumed by your Ambition. I know you will achieve it. And I also know that you won't stop until you do. But you will pay a heavy price for it. A very heavy price. You will never feel love again. The warmth it brings because your Anger and Hate have left you in the coldness. Your Vengeance has no end. Your Wrath has no limits. Your Darkness has no light. And even though I am the Collector Of Souls, Souls, some which deserve their punishment in hell, some that deserve their solitude in heaven, I will pray that You find Your Peace for your Greatness Is Your Curse. You are Meant To Live. You Are Meant To Fulfil Your Purpose, Even If That Purpose Will One Day Be The Only Thing That You Will Have Left. Farewell My Friend. Farewell You Little, Sad, Lonely Creature. Farewell."

The Reaper left after that. Left Me in the nothingness where it all began. The Nothingness where it will all once end …

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty And This Was My Date With The Reaper …

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Hi, I am Mahaakshay Chakraborty. I am an Actor. I am from Mumbai. I love Movies and everything about them. I am also learning Mixed Martial Arts as a Professional Sport and I believe in the Power of Giving. :-)