In Your Head

I'm packin' up my shitAs much shit in the car as I can fitAnd I'm just drivin' as far as I can getAway from these problemsT'il all of my sorrows I forgetWhat's tomorrow like? 'Cause tonightI'm startin' life againGet to the corner and stop, fuck am I goin'?Besides psycho when I fantasizeStartin' my whole life overYeah rightOh and I might go andGet hypnotized so I don't even recognize no oneI try to look alive but there's nothin' likeHoldin' your head up high when you're dead insideAnd I just hide, so in case you're wonderin'Why my insides showin''Cause I done spilled all my gutsAnd those are mine so I'mPickin' them up and stuffin' them backFuck it, I've done enough in this rap shitRecovery brought me nothin' but backTo right where I was and perhapsThis coulda been my victory lapIf I wasn't on the verge of relapse

It seems to be the reoccurring main themeThe shit I would daydream as a kidI was eighteen I went from an irate teenagerTo still raging, isn't it though amazing?Back then I put anything into the rhymeWhether it was sad, mad, happy or angryI spit it, the mainstream, I hit itYay me, I did itDid what?Hailie, baby, I didn't mean to make youEighty percent of what I rapped aboutMaybe I shoulda did a better jobAt separating Shady and entertainingFrom real life but this fame thingIs still the hardest thing to explainIt's the craziest shit I ever seenAnd back then it was like I ain't evenBothered taking into consideration you one dayBeing older and may hear me say thingsI didn't (A) mean and (B) just ain't meOkay, so ladies and gentlemenLet's strip awayEverything and see the main reason that IFeel like a lame piece of shitI sound cranky and bitterComplain, beef and bicker 'bout the same things'Cause when I look at meI don't see what they seeI feel ashamed, greedy and latelyI've been contemplating escaping to get awayAnd go wherever this road takes meIt's making me crazy, what's in my