For the first time, her 37-year-old husband Ganesh Ramsaran spoke to the media about his wife's disappearance.

"There are days where I have hope," Ramsaran said. "And then there are days exactly the opposite."

Ganesh Ramsaran said he has spent nearly two months on little sleep wondering where his wife could have gone.

"You think about the worst, you think about other possibilities, you just don't know" he said. "The not knowing is the most brutal."

Ganesh Ramsaran and his wife share three children. He said she has always been passionate for her kids and her artwork.

But in the few months before her disappearance, he said she stopped painting, lost weight and her mood changed.

"I was so proud of her because she was 190 pounds that Sunday the (Dec.) ninth. She hadn't been 190 pounds in years," Ramsaran said. "And you know, she changed unfortunately ... I'll leave it at that."

"The people that know us, I so appreciate their support. And everything that they've done, not just for me, but for the kids," he said. "The people that don't know us, that mudslinging and everything else, I have nothing to say. The truth always comes out."

In a prepared note, Ramsaran addressed his wife of 13 years.

"I don't think you ever knew how much we care for you, and how much your love and everything else -- " he read, before breaking down.

The Chenango County Sheriff's Office has no updates on the case since they discovered Ramsaran's car and cell phone last month in two separate places in the town of Plymouth.

Ganesh Ramsaran has offered his DNA, and to take a lie detector test if it would help the investigation.