Tag: Intermittent fasting

Yeesss!!! A successful day seventeen. I am doing so well. Last night & the night before, I managed to stop eating before 20pm. So I have more or less done 2 lots 17 hour fasts. I am also keeping up the walking each day, going shopping, carrying shopping home, so doing strength training…

I woke up feeling sore across my tummy, above my belly button. My husband reckons it is sore muscles from the walking & carrying shopping. Well my core muscles would be engaged when I am balancing myself to carry heavy shopping bags, so it makes sense…

I am glad that I am learning new habits when it comes to the evening. I don’t need to eat that late at night. I also went to bed around midnight, instead of my usual 2-3-4am…

Yesterday I ordered a pedometer/heart monitor watch wossy. It does what fitbit does, but is a fraction of the price. I am going to start doing 10k steps each day & tracking my calories, so I have more out, then in, but I am not going on a low calorie diet. I would rather exercise more, then eat a semi starvation diet, which is not good for my body…

Dieting on 1500-calories each day, done my body no good. I regained all the 3st weight loss, plus an extra 2 stone. I lost the excess 2 stone through giving up dieting, but now I want to speed things up to reach my first target weight off 11st, then go on to 9st & my recommended weight 8st, if I don’t look too haggard…

My fitness tracker, which should be here soon. Then I can get started on my walking. Eventually I want to go hiking. Walking burns around 6-7 calories per minute. So it is worth the effort. Obviously as I lose weight, I will burn less calories per minute…

27 minutes until I break my 17 hour fast. So I thought I would blog. I have been doing toning exercises randomly all morning. Squat’s here, waist twist there. Waiting for my expresso coffee machine to fill the cup ‘calanetic’s’…

If 5 lbs of muscle burns 250-calories & 5 lbs of fat burns 20-calories. I am going to build muscle. I don’t mean body builder muscle. I’m hoping that if get myself to the fitness, pain free level I was before the pain set in, I will drop the inches to where I was…

I was walking 2.5 – 3 hours each day. I no longer have a school run & I live closer to my friend, so it takes me 5 minutes to walk to her, instead of 30 minutes. Walking around here is boring. I used to live 2 minutes from the front. The river Thames estuary front, that is. I was also close to the cliff gardens & on the way to Old Leigh & the steep church hill…

Almost eating time. I am going to start walking more. I used to enjoy my long walks with my dog, Melody. It doesn’t help that my husband has gone into over protective mode & wants to walk with me, so it is more of a chore walk, then a pleasurable walk. I enjoy the peaceful me & my dog time…

I am getting fitter, so it won’t be long before I’m back into walking, but this time I want to hike. Hiking really burns the calories, especially walking over rough terrain & climbing up & down hills. I want to take advantage of all the walks we have got around us. I enjoy walking. It is a chore to my husband, so I feel the vibes…

I need a walking buddy…Someone who enjoys walking as much as I do & is not into walking just to socialise. Chatting is nice. Wanting to make lots of ‘lovely’ friends…No thanks…I want to walk, look at the scenery, get fitter & fitter, drop the excess fat, preferably inches rather then lb’s, though I need to drop both at the moment. Too much strain on my joints…

I would walk with my skinny friend…but she is soooo! Fecking patronising…I don’t need a personal trainer, luv. I probably know as much about fitness, if not more then you, because I was not born FAT! I was a active person, I had a active job & active hobbies…Sheesh!

“Yaaay!” A successful day sixteen. Which more then made up for the minor mishap on day fifteen. I stopped eating & drinking calories, carb’s, fat, etc…after 20pm. Mind you I did not enjoy my dinner. I had onion, bacon, cheese omelette & home made chips, oven cooked with fry light. It just didn’t fill me with edible joy…

We borrowed our grand daughter to take shopping with us & walked a bit extra over the park. I wanted to get some pond weed to put in my mini patio pond, but it was too far from the edge, I got down on a rock, but had visions of me face planting in the pond, so decided to get back up. Hubby was like ‘There too many people around’…

It was lovely taking our grand daughter out. I was the doting Nana; kept watching her sleep, all relaxed, pink sun hat on…she is so adorable, I love her with all my heart, just like I loved my children. I get the adoring, doting on your grand children, but not the… ‘They’re better then your children’…the ‘Your children are the rainbow, but your grand children are the pot of gold’…”Eh?”…

Yes its great I can give her cuddles, play with her, then hand her back, all of the pleasure, none of the stress. I love seeing my daughter with her, I never realised I could feel anymore love then when I see my daughter with her daughter, I’m brimming with pride. Seeing my other kids with their niece, gives me a wonderful feeling as well…

Anyway…Doting Nana is going to stop swooning over her precious little grand daughter, until the next time…

When she starts walking, I will be there to take her for walks in the woods, run around with a ball, play on the beach. I am going to be a active part of her life. Not Nana on the settee, with the lap top which plays her favourite Dave & Ava nursery rhythm’s. I don’t have to be super flexi Nana, I can play with her when sitting, but I want to take her for walks…

I am trying my hardest to drop old habits & gain new habits. So I am getting myself into a routine. Which is intermittent fasting 13pm {Earliest} to 23pm {Latest} 14:10, but I’m flexible. Like last night I stopped eating by 20pm, so 17 hours fasting, giving my digestive system a rest, allowing my body to focus its energy on repair, rather then digesting food…

Intermittent fasting releases the growth hormone…

What is human growth hormone?

The body naturally produces growth hormone (HGH or simply GH) in the pituitary gland, and, as its name implies, it is responsible for cell growth and regeneration. Increasing muscle mass and bone density are impossible without GH, but it also plays a major role in maintaining the health of all human tissue, including that of the brain and other vital organs. When secreted, GH remains active in the bloodstream for only a few minutes, but this is enough time for the liver to convert it into growth factors, the most crucial of which is insulin-like growth factor-1, or IGF-1, which boasts a host of anabolic properties.

When I was continuously picking, my body was not able to release the growth hormone quite so easily, if ever & my digestive system never got a rest. I doubt cavemen & women ate continuously, unless they grazed on berries, nuts, roots, plants, etc…They were hunter gatherers…

If I ever get cancer, I am not going to have any chemotherapy…I will start eating paleo. The paleo diet is the best diet to starve the cancer cells. No sugar. No grains. No dairy. After last night when my stomach started hurting & bloated. I wonder ‘Have I got cancer?’…Is it worth going to the doctor’s? Or should I make the effort to start following the paleo diet?…

I like meat, poultry, fish, vegetables, herb’s & spices…but no dairy, no grains, no potatoes, though some say you can eat potatoes…

My Mum had bowl cancer & liver cancer & cancer in her lymph glands…Should I wait? Or should I start eating a paleo diet???

Yeesss! Another successful diet day. Another successful diet week ‘Woooo!!!’…I was going to say that my week two weigh day has been a disappointing weigh day, because I lost ‘Only!’ 0.5 lb…but…I lost over all 4 inches, which is 1″ more then week one. My measurements are more important & I know how stubborn my body can be. There is also other factors, like water…

0.5 lb is a loss. It is going in the right direction. The most important thing to me is inch loss & so far in 2 weeks I have dropped 7 inches over all. I measure my bust-ribs {under bust} waist-hips-bottom-thighs-knees-upper arm…

This week I am going to start gardening like a crazy woman…I want to put all my plants in pots & cement over the ground where I struggle to keep on top of the weeds. My garden is too small for shrubs & too big for pots. When I move, I want either a huge garden, or a court yard garden. I inherited a garden which had been neglected for years. 5 years on, I’m still battling with the same weeds…

So! Inch loss! I am concentrating on inch loss, not weight loss. Which means carry on the way I’m eating. Yesterday I did not have any food all evening & went to bed earlier. So today, when I start eating at 13pm, I would have fasted for 18 hours, because I stopped eating around 19pm last night…

I am going to start gardening 10 minutes at a time. I want to move all my pots closer together. I have got lots of empty pots to fill…Lots of seedlings to plant & hanging baskets to hang. I am really slow this year…

Measurements

Bust – 44″ {0.5″}

Ribs – 39.25″ {0.5″}

Waist – 42″ {1″}

Hips – 45″ {1″}

Bottom – 44″ {0.5″}

Thighs – 26.25″

Arms – 13″ {0.5″}

Knees – 16.25″

I feel inspired to start focusing more on exercise & getting fitter, but I am not going to go back to eating lots of sugary junk food & processed food. I am going to carry on intermittent fasting 13pm to 23pm {Fasting more when I can} & eating healthy, no dieting…Inch loss is definitely more important then weight loss…

First I need coffee, then gardening…if I was to do what Paul McKenna says in his book ‘I can make you thin’ I would forget the scales & concentrate on the 4 golden rules & getting active. I am going to carry on weighing myself & measuring myself weekly though. Some weeks I might lose lb’s & no inches…

I am going to exercise to build muscle…5 lbs of muscle burns 250-calories VS 5 lbs of fat burning a mere 20 calories. It is a no brainer. I am not going to start doing exercise I can not realistically keep up, but I am going to be focusing on getting more active & doing more strength training. Starting by moving pots around in my garden…

“Yeesss!” The end of another successful week. Week two weigh day tomorrow. I have got the usual feeling of dread…but…I will not give up, or change anything. Because I am confident I am doing the right thing with my diet. I just need to keep going…

Persistence! That is the key to success…

The intermittent fasting is really helping me a lot. It allows me {My mind} to focus on ‘I can eat now’ & ‘I can’t eat now’ instead of obsessing about food…For 14 hours I can’t eat, so I focus on other things to do with my weight loss journey. I feel in control of what I am eating…

Last night I had a slight twinge of ‘I want to eat’…but I just thought ‘No! I am not giving up on this diet, I am determined to succeed’…I also had one of my night terror’s last night, well this morning. I woke up ‘SCREAMING!!! hysterically. My night terrors started when I was 10 years old. I am 48 years old now…They are a lot fewer & in between, but still there…

Why? Why did I have a night terror. I don’t even remember dreaming, I usually have vivid dreams which I can remember. Other times I would see a black figure looming over me, it felt like I was being attacked. I know that is a common phenomena…

Anyway…Back to my weight loss journey…

Time flies by. Its like one night we’re watching Dr Who…Zooooom!…Ohh! Its Dr Who night again. Where did that time go? Maybe time travel, lol…Seriously though. Time flies. So this time when I look back over the time between now & Christmas…Yes Christmas is coming soon…I am going to see the amazing results from May 10th ‘The start of my weight loss journey’ to December 10th…7 months, which is my guestimate of how long it will take me to drop 14 inches from my waist/tummy. 2 inches have gone already & that is in 2 weeks…

I believe in the power of our own mind…Apparently you should set your mind a time frame, give your mind instructions {Or words to that effect} I am not leaving the time limit to reach my desired 30 inch waist out there in the wind. It could end up taking me years to reach that destined goal…Sounds crazy, I know…

I am going to drop at least 0.5″ off my waist/tummy each week. Though so far I have dropped an inch off my waist/tummy ‘Woooo!’…I am going to keep on eating the way I am eating. Intermittent fasting 14:10. Cutting right down on the sugary junk food. I am eating a healthy, balanced diet of real food, not junk food…

Mind you. Its hubby’s turn to pick dinner tonight…He is still in healthy eating training. I bet he want’s cheese, onion & tomatoe omelette, with home made chips. His favourite healthy eating meal…

As I was saying about the power of our own mind. You do have to believe what you are thinking. I believe that I can drop at least 0.5″ per week. I believe that cutting out the sugar & processed junk is the key to improving my health. I am right. It is…I have less pain & I am less breathless; the inches are dropping off. I am getting fitter & healthier every day…

I am no longer willing to allow myself to hold myself back. YES! dieting does not work…but ‘Healthy eating!’ does. Literally with in day’s. I felt the benefits of cutting out picking on high sugar junk food, with in days. Its not like your body has to wait for months of effort to change…

That also goes for semi starvation diets. Your body goes into famine mode. You have to eat calories to burn fat, but healthy calories, not so called empty calories. How many nutrients did I get from the twirl I ate with my coffee? Ohh! Cocoa beans…A minute amount, plus a few teaspoons of sugar. So my blood sugar went up, gave me a short ‘Very short’ buzz, then ‘Plummeting blood sugar’ & a NEED! for another artificial fix. All the while my body has to deal with the excess sugar…My poor digestive system…

All day long. Literally into the early hours, I was eating sugar & fat…Never again! I just don’t want to eat that way anymore. It was slowly killing me. Now I am taking care of my body. The weight loss will catch up, as I maintain my ideal weight/size…

Just by fasting for 14 hours, my digestive system is getting a rest, so the extra energy to digest the constant onslaught of sugar & fat can go to repairing, healing my body. Water fasting would be a more speedy way to do that, but more extreme…

Yeesss! It is day eleven. Day ten was a great diet day. There was no picking. No fizzy drinks, no snacking into the night & early hours. John had cake, I said ‘No I don’t want cake, but I don’t mind you having cake’…He did not want to tempt me {Bless him…His learning, lol} I did have one of my favourites, which was slightly naughty…Iced coffee, I love iced coffee. I also found some strawberry pocky biscuits…

We had a healthy dinner & I had my supper. As I eat lunch-Dinner-Supper- One snack. Intermittent fasting 14:10…13pm to 23pm eating time. The intermittent fasting works very well for me. I feel in control. I am controlling the emotional ‘Change the way I feel’ eating, which is a biggie for me…

I had another walk, around 30 minutes, including strength training, because I carried the shopping basket in Sainsbury’s & carried two heavy-ish bag’s around. I had no pain ‘Woooo!’ & my breathing was not too bad. I was not struggling. Though some woman looking me up & down. What is it with people looking other people up & down. WTF! How rude…

I said to my husband ‘she’s probably wondering why I am carrying 2 bag’s & you’re carrying none, not that it is any of her business’…People like that put me off going out, but ‘NO! I am going to get myself back to my fit active self…People are weird. If you look different, they feel the need to look you up & down. Me personally I go about my business, minding my own…

Anyway…Where was I…Ohh! Yeah!…I also done 30 minutes Wii fit + free cycling. I am going to try & get a longer distance then the time before…It just goes to show how quickly you can feel the results of exercise. It is a great feeling. I know some people don’t like sweating. I’m used to sweating, it is one of the symptoms of my lupus, I get over heated, whilst other people don’t break a sweat, I’m on the verge of passing out, like a wall of heat hit’s me…

Ohh! I have never looked up Lupus & weight loss…BRB!

…So as you might have already heard, lupus is an autoimmune disease or to put it another way, immune system disorder. If the person has lupus, his immune system, which has developed over millions of years as an efficient mechanism that defends human organism, turns against his own body. It damages various tissues and leads to inflammation.

I am eating healthy to help with the inflammation. Eating lots of sugar was doing me no good at all…

I know there are some people with lupus who are a lot worse off then me…but I do need to think about my health, which is why I am so determined to reach my final destination on my ‘healthy eating’ weight loss journey & settle down to maintain my weight loss & take care of my health…

Lupus and weight gain can be linked in a several ways. First of all, as we have already mentioned, this disease affects kidney, the organ which is essential for our metabolism…

The dysfunction of kidneys leads to other physical problems, which can make an impression that the person is chubbier than he used to be, such as swelling in the face, legs and fingers.

There is yet another way to explain the link between lupus and weight gain. People suffering from this autoimmune disease experience such symptoms as achy joints and extreme fatigue. Needless to say, these problems, along with the occasional flares, make it harder for the person to follow a regular exercising routine.

I am determined to exercise. I want to be a active person again…I allowed the weight to come on ‘A lot!’…I wish I had got this determined earlier, but maybe I needed to reach this stage to realise that I NEED! to do something about it…

Giving up is not an option. No more ‘Failure!’…Not so great days, fine. That is life, but no giving up & binging. No more picking on sugary junk, no more sitting around. Staying in doors day in, day out is no life. I want to go out with my little grand daughter, as soon as she can walk {Almost there} I will be taking her for walks in the woods, walks on the beach, walks over the park to feed the ducks, kicking a ball with her…I want to be a active part of her life, not just watch tele with her, or play with her on the floor…

“Precipice” That sounds like a good word…What does it mean? I’ll go & google it, see if I can fit it into my weight loss journey…

Hmmm! Only virtual steep mountains on my virtual weight loss journey, but a hazardous situation? Yes…Sweets, cakes, biscuits, chocolate, can’s of ginger beer in the fridge, the high sugar variety, my favourite drink of all time…Hazardous to my health {sighs}

Another hazard to my health, a ‘precipice’…Forgetting the reason’s why I so desperately want to stick to my healthy eating, weight loss journey. Strange I know. How can you forget. It is easy to stop focusing & move my focus onto something else…

Its like when I tell myself ‘I want to eat something sweet’…I don’t really, I just think I do. It is that emotional eating ‘Change the way I feel’ sudden, urgent PULL! to eat. Then I don’t feel satisfied, so I eat some more, by then I am thinking ‘I might as well eat what I want, that diet failed, as per usual’…They are hazardous thoughts & feeling’s…

First brain. No food is forbidden, restricted, off limits. I can eat what ever I want to eat…’When I feel hungry’…Psychically hungry, hunger that is gradual, not sudden, hunger which is……

What is physical hunger?

Physical hunger, also known as stomach hunger, is a complex interaction between the digestive system, endocrine system, and the brain. Physical hunger signs begin when the body needs refuelling and manifests as stomach rumbling or growling. When we eat, we feel better because our need for hunger is being met.

Sometimes it does not hurt for our body to feel hunger, so we learn what hunger feels like & learn to trust that we can cope with hunger, it is not going to last for ages, because we can feed our body…A lot of the time we are actually thirsty, not hungry, our body needs hydrating not fuelling with food…

Physical hunger doesn’t make you crave for specific comfort foods. Emotional hunger unlike physical hunger makes you ache for your favourite junk foods like pizza, cheesecake, cookies etc. In a state where you are hungry physically you can consume any sort of food especially healthy foods!

So we just need to find ways to control our emotional hunger & trust our psychical hunger to allow our body to make healthy food choices. Mind you, when I eat 13pm to 23pm I am sort of forcing my meal times. Its like I’m hungry coming up to 13pm, but I make myself wait…I think about food when I get up & look at the clock, but I tell myself ‘No!’…I don’t feel hungry, I feel thirsty. I find it easy to wait until 13pm, I even wait longer, until I feel hungry…

Emotional hunger generally leads to binging. When struck by emotional hunger, individuals tend go overboard with their consumption of food and can down any junk food present in sight. When it comes to emotional hunger your brain doesn’t really register whether or not you are full and hence individuals keep eating beyond the point satiety without even knowing it. On the other hand when eating because of physical hunger, individuals are usually aware about how much they need to eat and feel satiated when their stomach is full.

One of my dieting downfalls…I really do need to concentrate on following the Paul McKenna ‘I can make you thin’ 4 golden rules…

When I have my twinges to eat, when I should not be eating. Like late at night, when I can’t sleep. It is ’emotional hunger’…Hence getting through it by telling myself ‘no’ & reminding myself why I am not going to eat. The hunger subsides after a drink, so obviously I was not hungry, I was thirsty & I got in the habit of just eating for the sake of it…

Emotional hunger surfaces from the brain. Instead of your belling growling and aching for food, emotional hunger comes from the head where you are only focused on certain kind of taste and textures and it usually points towards some kind of junk food.

So forget following a specific food plan; focus on dealing with the emotional eating. My diet is fantastic when I am eating to satiate my hunger…I did get to where I did not want to force myself out of my comfort zone of saying no to myself…

“Yeesss!”…I just done my week one measurements…Over all I lost 3 inches “Wooo!”…1” off my waist/tummy, which is ‘fantastically, amazingly, fabulous!’. It gives me the incentive to keep on exercising & eating healthy…

One thing which Paul McKenna say’s, which was a real eye opener. Slim people watching. Not as in ogling slim people, no! Watching how they eat. They eat slower {Mostly} They eat when they are hungry. They eat what they want to eat, then stop eating when they are satisfied…Also…They don’t have food on their mind all the time…

My husband is skinny, he is always on the go, rushing around like a blue arsed fly. He eats when he is hungry. Though I am trying to feed him a healthy diet {Rolls my eyes} He also stops eating when he is stressed, where as I eat more. If I could stop eating through stress, I would stress the hell out of myself, but then there is cortisol, which is released when you are stressed. I will stick to being my laid back self, but use visualisation to hold back the urge to so called comfort eat. Emotional eating as Paul McKenna calls it…

As I have said before. I used to be an hour glass shape, which is {Bust & Hips more or less the same measurement, waist 10 inches smaller then your hips} now my stomach is near the same as my bust. I look more like a rectangle now. I know that the healthy eating will eventually improve the inflammation. The cutting out ton’s of sugar will improve the insulin insensitivity, the cutting out processed food will reduce the sodium, so my water retention will balance itself…

I don’t want to carry on eating crap, feeling like crap, then ending up on medication, which causes crappy side effects, so I’m given more medication for the crappy side effects…When all I have to do is change my life style; eat a healthy balanced diet. I could go to the doctor’s about the water retention & get water tablets, but I won’t…not unless it gets really serious. What would be the point of taking water retention tablets & carry on eating processed junk…That is me personally, I am in no way critising people on medication. I am aware that a lot of unhealthy eating has got deeper issues. It takes a lot to change your lifestyle…

I am a big believer in the power of our own mind & that weight issues are mainly our mind & hormones…There are so many factors. It is not just eat less, move more. As I keep on saying…

Apparently we should use our imagination, instead of will power. Though of course you need the will power ‘self control’ to make the effort to use your imagination, but it is a lot easier then will power alone…When I am exercising I imagine myself as a slim me. I can’t see myself, so I can imagine I am already slim & fit…I also count 1-2-3-4 over & over & feel the pain, but ride the pain {I have got a high pain tolerance, I am a pain slut as a sub too, lol, strange I know} I imagine slim me…

Ummm! I just thought. When I was sub me, playing every other week, going to parties every other month, I felt sexy, I felt confident in my sub self, then jealous bitches happened & a old bloke, with a pot belly & bushy eyebrows, who was into ‘Young slim girls’ happened. My confidence was knocked. I started to feel too old, past it, too fat, too much attitude……

Then I stopped making the effort to keep in touch with my Dom of 7+ years…we literally ground to a halt, which was another jolt to my confidence. Though all those bitch’s…………I won’t say it…

The last time I played. I did not enjoy it one bit. I felt fat, ugly, unattractive, unfeminine, passed it, like I was a joke…So one of my goals is to get back to where I was, before I allowed the jealous bints to get to me. One in particular…

I have decided that I will go back to being a sub. I will go back to parties, but…I am going to lose all my excess fat first. I am visualising what I will be wearing, how I will look, how I will feel. My EX Dom’s reaction…Though make some fecking effort, mate…Jeeze!…Yeah! I know where you are. You know where I am. It works both ways. How I see it. If you really, deep down wanted to play with me, I would not be left to do all the running. 7 + years of my sub life wasted…Okay maybe I should not look at it that way…

Actually my main weight gain was after I stopped playing & going to parties…

Oops! I went off on a ramble then & I don’t mean the fat burning kind…

Nuff said for now…I am 30 minutes past my 13pm eating time. Which is quite positive, it means I can wait for food; eat when I am hungry…

Almost the end of week one…What an amazing first week on my weight loss journey it has been. I decided to stop following a diet & start eating how I have been eating all week. No syn’s. Though I am not going to start eating lots of synful foods…

I started a new private blog, because I do want to blog a lot to keep myself motivated. I want to increase my exercise, doing 30 minutes + Wii fit & going shopping daily instead of weekly, but walking not driving…

That way I can plan my meals easier. I want to use the recipes in my slimming world recipe books. I want to following the principles of the slimming world diet, but the syn’s just become like following another diet. I roughly know the values of syn’s 20-calories per 1 syn…

Intermittent fasting is the main weight loss tool I am using ‘Forever!’…Eating from 13pm to 23pm I eat less. Also there are the health benefits. Cutting out the snacking during the day has reduced the high calorie, high fat, high sugar, therefore high carbs, in my diet. Stopping at 23pm I no longer pick all night when I can’t sleep…

Tomorrow is a whole new week. I am slightly dreading week one weigh in, but I am not about to give up. I am changing my diet to improve my health, weight loss will be an added bonus to improve my health & reduce any obesity health issues…

Good bye Week one of my weight loss journey. I have been enjoying the virtual scenery…but I want to start enjoying the real scenery. I just need to get fit & start walking again…

Whew! an amazingly fantastically successful day four…There was a time when it could have been a unsuccessful day on my weight loss journey, but I got myself through it. I am so proud of myself {Gives myself a pat on the back}

My last mistake was to not PUSH! myself hard enough to get over the obstacles…Which are always going to be there…After regaining all the weight I had lost on my last successful weight loss diet, I stopped trying, because I believed it was pointless even trying, after all, I gained extra weight, extra inches & changed shape, so was worse off then before…Now I am pushing myself forward, facing those fears, crashing through those obstacles…Doing something different…Making the changes which can improve my life, surely that is far better then a cupboard full of snacks…

I remembered all the reasons I started this journey, I remembered my commitment to improving my health. I read other blogs, which was quite helpful, that ‘synchronicity’ thing…

Mind you it doesn’t help that I went to bed at 7am & got up at 10.30am…Not good!…I am going to carry on fasting to 13pm & do my 30 minutes Wii fit + exercise on an empty stomach…

“Huh! Mum’s having 3 dinners tonight”…Feck off!…NOT HELPING! I get that maybe there is a touch of insecurity on his part, after all I might turn into this gorgeous cougar, out every night man hunting…FFS!

I am losing weight to improve my health, so I have a better quality of life. Dieting to lose weight does not involve starvation. I had free food & my healthy B choice, with the rest of my healthy A choice, skimmed milk allowance…Get over it. Or better still keep the comments to yourself, I don’t need the sabotaging digs, joke or no joke, it is not funny to me…Or maybe he would rather I stayed unhealthy…

That narrow minded view that fat people must be lazy, because all you have to do is eat less & move more…If only! There are pesky hormones, our body fighting us…’There is no famine!’ FFS! Then there is cortisol…OMFG! give me a break. So ‘digs!’ at my eating 3 dinners…REALLY! NOT HELPING!!!…Not forgetting the unhelpful, thoughtless comments…

Why let it bother me? Because I heard the tone, the context it was said in & it made me feel ‘Ugh!’…I am trying to improve my health, to improve my quality of life. If that makes him feel insecure that I will somehow start going out meeting other men & replace him. What does that say about our 25 year marriage…It is a little glitch in time, but still hurt…

Nuff said about that…

So day four was a virtual rainy ‘splash in the puddles’ gloomy dark cloud day,on my weight loss journey…but…I distracted myself. I actually quite like rainy day’s. I love the sound of rain, especially when I am all warm & dry inside. There are going to be plenty of rainy days on my weight loss journey. I am just going to put up my pink brolly, put on my bright flowery wellies & go for a splash in the puddles, eventually the sun will come out from behind the clouds & give me a beautiful rainbow…

I know. What the feck am I on about…

Seriously though. I am going to embrace the challenges on my weight loss journey, I will see them as an opportunity to learn new tactic’s for the future. I wanted to give in & eat, but if I done that, what would be the point of me starting this journey…I might as well just start planning my own funeral…Because if I don’t do something about my weight & health, I am at risk of cancer, heart disease, diabetes, etc…etc…etc…

On that morbid ‘reality check’ note…

I thought I would research cortisol…I will start a new blog post on what I find…