There are sex shops decorating the high-street, free porn all over the internet and lets not even get started on the new BDSM phenomenon. So when things get a little ‘stale’ in the bedroom, what would you do?

Carly made a suggestion; a suggestion I wanted nothing to do with at first, but she was my wife and I’d have done anything to make her happy. I went along with her plan, even though I really didn’t want to. It actually worked, for a while. Until something changed.

Then I wasn’t doing it for her anymore.

Instead, it was all about secret liaisons, stolen moments and the thrill of getting caught. My life changed overnight and there was nothing I could do to prevent it. Lust is an unstoppable emotion when it takes hold.

Rules are broken.

Mistakes are made.

Lives are destroyed. Be careful what you wish for, because sometimes, that wish can come true. Blake Thomas was her wish…

The world keeps turning, the engines keep running, but I am stuck in a downward spiral with no one left to pull me out.

I’m an idiot, a liar, a disgrace and whatever else you want to call me. Go ahead. It’s nothing I haven’t told myself a thousand times over. You’re completely right.

It doesn’t change the outcome though and I have to live with that for the rest of my life. There is no light at the end of the tunnel for me, no chance at redemption. I don’t deserve it, but I still want to carve out my little slice of happiness from the mess I created.