This honestly has been a week from hell. Between being fired on my birthday,by a lying conniving snake and finding out that my love has diabetes it's been enough to make me want to lay in bed and not move for a bit. Idk what my future holds and how we are gonna make this all work, but I'm gonna damn well try my hardest..... #roughweek#diabetichusband#worrying#caniwakeupnow#baddream

Last week was rough. Probably one of the roughest I have had in a few years. I don't know if it was postpartum depression hitting me, sleep deprivation, stress, or all of the above. But I definitely was not myself. To the point where I was getting a little concerned. I've been in that place once before and it was scary. It's hard to describe your lowest of lows. It's dark. It's lonely. It's frustrating. It's terrifying at times.
This weekend we went away for a family reunion and thankfully, I was able to have a great conversation with my sister in-law who taught me so much. Our conversation was exactly what I needed.
Another sister in-law took this picture of me and I am grateful for it. It was when I was finally feeling better. I had a weight lifted off of me and I could sit by the pool, snuggling my baby, and watching my other kids having the time of their lives without worrying about things that I had zero control over.
I am thankful for a loving and forgiving Heavenly Father, who knows what we need, when we need it. I learned things this weekend that I would not have been ready to learn even a month ago. Humility, forgiveness, repentance, growth, change, grace, mercy- they are all so real and so necessary to make a daily part of our lives.
I am ready to work on being a better version of me. A better mother, wife, friend, sister, daughter, neighbor, human being. Here's to tomorrow being a new day full of new opportunities to learn, grow, change, and be patient with myself.
#homemadehappiness#thoughts#personalgrowth#lds#grace#testimony#roughweek#betterweekend

Basically how my week went. Worked 4 weeks without a day off I was tired exhausted and just didn’t give a fuck. Regularly at this point I would keep saying tomorrow for like 6 months but ima get back on it today. It was interesting that the week I fucked up the most random people I see daily came up to me and told me they notice a difference and to keep going. Take your motivation where you get it. To me people who sent my friends saying things is more encouraging because my friends want me to succeed they want me to get better as they should why be friends if that’s not what you want. But when someone who doesn’t really care or not if you accomplish your goals takes notices and sends the love it’s always special. #weightloss#cheatmeal#cheatweek#ifuckedup#weightlossmotivation#weightlossjourney#roughweek

It's a broke day, but everything is okay
I'm up all night, but everything is alright
It's a rough week, and I don't get enough sleep
It's a long year, pretendin' I belong here
#itsokay#brokeday#roughweek#longyear

After an amazing party its been a very tough week on the #farm. As if to remind me of all the great stuff that happens in between the tough moments no one gets to see, the #bees were all over the sunflowers carrying huge balls of pollen! Keep it up lil bees! #farmlife#roughweek#damnbirds

It has been a week, a week I hope we never repeat. I have not slept much worrying about things, many things I really have no control over .
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I saw a similar cloud formation in sunrise this morning and said a big prayer for peace on my heart. I was the first to admit I was GROUCHY. By the time I picked up the boys I had a calmed heart, Brady spent a fun day at Mimi and Papa’s house, my mom let us crash their dinner which was a huge blessing because I had no clue what to even make. Then tonight these same cloud formations in the beautiful sunset. .
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Tonight I am giving all my worries to God when I go to sleep and praying for a good nights sleep for us all. #adultingishard#indianasunset#roughweek

These beauties are helping me survive!!!!
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This week has been a DOOZY!!! 💥Nighttime Recovery for those 155 back squats at 55 # for Alexander #wod#reddevilcrossfit#redfriday 💥Oasis+Rehydrate+ClearMood=relaxing mommy night-night cocktail 💕STRESS FIGHTERS+electrolytes💕 Because being laid off from your dream job WILL bring STRESS. 💥Dessert compliments of ReadyToDrink Protein! Frozen Chocolate Slush of protein with strawberries and cream. YUM without the BUM💕
#roughweek#advocare#savestheday#muscles#goals#prayers

An amazing friend of mine, got me started reading Bukowski.
The words are simple.
The words are real.
Usually I speak about life.
But today, I’m going to speak about me.
I overthink.
I over-love.
I over-feel.
It sets me up
for the worst kind of heart ache.
And it’s not pretty.
There is nothing beautiful
about the wreckage
of a human being.
There is nothing pretty
about damage,
about pain,
about heartache.
You may not see it in the moment,
but what comes after is beautiful.
Character cannot be built
in serenity.
Strength cannot be built
in ease.
For steel to be hardened,
It must be first put through
the hottest fire.
We will all go through it.
We all will experience it. “What matters most
Is how well you walk through the fire”
Only through experiencing
trials and suffering
can the
soul be strengthened,
creativity bred,
vision cleared,
ambition inspired,
and success achieved.
With each heartbreak,
no matter what kind you experience,
we find out who we are.
The fire of adversity
Strips us down.
And leaves
The parts of us
That can’t be broken.
We all have choices at that point.. We can sink down
And wear our mutilated heart
On our sleeve.
Self medicate.
Alcohol.
Sleep.
Food.
Sex.
All to “numb” the pain.
Or we can shake off the dust.
Rise above.
There is a time and place
for everything.
A time for birth.
A time for death.
A time for growth.
A time for love.
If it doesn’t work out,
Then it’s not meant to be.
Or it’s just not the right time.
Til then,
We keep going.
It’s ok to want to quit on life,
As long as we don’t.
It’s ok to ache,
To fall down
To mourn.
To weep.
Just don’t stay down.
The flower that rises
Front the ashes.
Is beautiful and rare.
Rise above my friends.
Love you all. ✌🏼 #roughweek#heartbreak#oversharing#emotionallydrained#beardedteacher#travelinman#day75ofmany#teacher#beardedgentlemen#overthink#teachersofinstagram#thankyou#riseabove#grateful#steveteacher#lovemylife#loveu#greatthingsahead #다이어트 #보디빌딩 #운동 #피트니스 #운동하는남자 #데일리 #utah#toomanyhashtags