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I, recently had a girl move in with me. We said we were in a relationship - (girlfriend boyfriend, shit). At the beginning she told me she was super loyal. And that even if she wanted to cheat she wouldn’t. Me and this girl use to be in the same religion/cult (Jehovah’s wittinesses). And her mom/step dad are is still in this cult/religion, And shun her hard core to were she was basically homeless. Now this girl is seriously mentally ill to were she as multiple personality disorder, suicidal tendencies (such as cutting), she was molested at 14 her mom was crazy dad in jail. And she had bulimia. About two months in.. I find out she was in love with a meth head down south. But is over him now and can give what I need. Then on her birthday she tells me she doesn’t like me any more and is using me for security. We stop having sex for like a week. Then she starts acting like she likes me again. We fuck. Next day I come home early from work and she’s all fix up about to meet some a co worker for coffee. he bails on her. I find out she’s talking to 12 different guys on tender as given these random strangers my address, and that the guy who bailed wasn’t from work. (Shocker) I get upset! Tell her I think she need to move back south where she came from. I say some mean things etc. etc. I’m upset but I apologize. She ends up going to a co-workers fucks a random guy. tells me, she didn’t plan too. I get upset again, she leave 3 days later on a 20 hour bus ride back to where she came from. But we ended on a good note.

I want to shed light on my personal view of abuse. I was and still am tortured by my childhood. I really wanted to figure out what the core cause of my abuse and struggles were. So I went the route of the scientific method, or “deductive reasoning” (going through a process of logical questioning and answering to get to the core of a problem)To better explain this to you I’m going to give you my personal example here:

My dad was angry all the time, as well as physically and emotionally abusive.

Q: Why was he like that?

A: Because his grandfather was emotionally and physically abusive to him as a kid, therefore those patterns have been instilled in to him.

Q: Why was my grandpa abusive to my father?

A: Because when my grandpa was a kid, his father was an abusive alcoholic who threw him out of the home during the Great Depression, spurring my grandpa to go fight in WW2, where violence and aggression was further reinforced.

Q: Why was my grandpas dad abusive to my grandpa and why did he abandon him?

A: He was born in England to an aggressive abusive father whom he was separated from when he came over to the states.

*** Now my moms side of the family comes from darkness as well but I need not get into that. I hope this example shines light on my mental processes. Long story short, my moms dad was in the military and had an abusive alcoholic father.

This question and problem tortured me so much I had to dissect it and get to the core. Essentially, the current socioeconomic system of capitalism in America is a breeding ground for abuse, social atrocities and trauma. This actually applies to most countries as the big banks have a monopoly on how they are ran. They create conflict and economic opportunity for themselves by creating scarcity. I wanted so bad to put the blame on these individuals in my family but they were just reacting to the environments they were born into as we all are. I am disgusted by the amount of hubris and false confidence from those who lead our world and industries today. I read articles on how the world is better than its ever been before and I do backflips in my brain. By all means we have created industry, advances in science, have socially progressed to a degree so these should all be praised. But we are still shrouded in darkness. We kill each other, imprison those who are born with no other option but crime because of a flaws and corrupt economic system that has failed them, our planets resources and ecosystem are being destroyed. To me it looks like that old cartoon where two men in top hats are sitting in a burning room and smiling pretending everything is fine. That is our current state of the world.

Essentially we are all a bunch of monkeys fighting in a cage while the people at the top laugh and benefit off our misfortunes and conflict. There is a single and true answer for why abuse happens and it is because of our socioeconomic system. We live in a society where we are conditioned from birth to compete and step on the competition in order to have more resources and provide for ourselves. The nastier, more selfish, and covertly savage one is about doing this; often times the higher up the chain they go. All of this detrimental behavior can be self justified by saying “I had no choice, I need to provide for my family, It’s a dog eat dog world out there.” There is no such thing as human nature, there is what society and the family conditions a newborn to be and that’s how they turn out. Muslims in India don’t eat cows and pray to a different god because that’s what they were conditioned for. Amazonian tribes people hunt wild boar with Spears and paint their faces because that’s what their society conditioned them for. Right now the nature we are being taught by society is absolutely destroying the human individual, society, and the planet as a whole.

I find it amusing how the DSM IV (the psychiatric diagnosis manual in America) labels many disorders related to trauma as being disconnected from reality. THAT IS UTTER BULLSHIT! I’ve found through my trauma I am more connected to the actual reality of the world and it’s true processes than most of my friends with better childhoods. I would describe it as being pushed to the edge of society and whatever is being conditioned as “normal” within your society. For me, it has opened up my eyes, and it’s pretty wild to see. I write often and talk with people who are open enough to try and let them know what’s going on and how we can be a mechanism for change and the positive evolution of ourselves and our society. Basically all that’s happening is our government is operating us like puppets. They have fabricated this upper middle class American dream that is further reinforced through popular media of all sorts. This is a false reality, the reason people in the upper middle class have a harder time waking up to the reality of what’s going is because they are fed a “blue pill” if you haven seen the Matrix, the blue pill is a false state of comfort and security. Everyone is being oppressed currently, the middle class won’t buy into it because they are marginally benefitting over others and have been given the illusion of comfort and security. The more oppressed by the system, the more of the red pill you swallow. In my opinion it is better to swallow that whole motherfucking red pill and die trying to do something about it. The state of humans and life on Earth has always been tragic and a state of struggle. I truly believe our purpose is to create more love, compassion and an overall better condition for the planet, all its people and living things.

The government and higher ups have perfected the art of control and manipulation. We are so disorganized, dissociated and confused about what’s really fucking happening here that we don’t even know where to start to change things and feel a purpose in life. It’s horrifying, they have us in one giant dopamine maze. Literally, the studies done on video games and iPhones, show they are like cocaine for our children. Processed foods and sugar loaded snacks break down or bodies and make us addicts to substances that guarantee the depletion of our mental abilities and or physical wellbeing. They have managed to put most of us in a dopamine maze. The bigger dopamine maze is making lots of money, buying Ferrari’s, and achieving a superior status over others. I’m not saying everyone is like this because that’s not true, none of us are down at the core. We’ve been misled by the system to be this way. Deep down we are all beautiful and hold an infinite wisdom and potential that has been deadened by our society. There is that part in all of us that wants the world to be a loving home not only for ourselves but for everyone. We are in an era where we now have the technology to clean up pollution, grow food for every living human being, provide energy for the entire planet for free, and heal many diseases. Yet we are being kept from this because these things do not benefit the central banking system.

For those who want to be a part of the change there is so much you can start doing:

-Support small local businesses
-Get a career in wellness/ physical fitness (this makes you and those you help healthier and more self sufficient)
-Stop buying processes foods, go to your local supermarket.
-Volunteer and help others.

We can completely shift this paradigm and heal society. Social progress WILL NEVER BE MADE BY THE GOVENMENT AND THE CORPORATIONS. The power is and has always been in our hands to make the world better for each other. If we all started doing little things everyday, and stopped supporting this flawed system, there would be no need to protest or riot, there would be no need to write your congressman. We are in way more control of this than most of us think. If we start acting in accord to make the world a more equal, caring, sustainable place and stop supporting malpractice, then the corporations and current socioeconomic system will eventually collapse and have to be replaced by something that can support the new way that is less oppressive and more beneficial to EVERYONE.

P.S. the people responsible for this abuse and oppression of our people are the Rothschilds and Rockefellers. The families in charge of the big banking systems.

We have the power to weaken their power and enhance our own spiritual power.

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