Life update: Career change, mental health and more

Hello there,

It’s been a while since I’ve done an actual life update and a lot has changed, so I think it’s time we talk about it.

The last life update talked about my new job and how lots of positive things were happening. A few months ago I had a job change and went to writing for United By Pop, who are a fantastic lifestyle and pop culture blog for young adults. Unfortunately, my mental health has been deteriorating and has meant I’ve unfortunately had to leave the site as a lot of my self care means interrupting my time and efforts for the site. I still very much love the site and will always support it. I hope to be able to rejoin in the future when I’m feeling a lot better.

As for my deteriorating mental health, I’m not entirely sure what’s going on, but my bi-polar is getting more and more intense mood swings and making it difficult to cope with day to day activities. I’ve been trying to try and take control, but it’s been a fair few months now and so a trip to the doctors is on the cards. Since writing is something I like to use to escape on a good day and talking is proven to be a great way to deal with mental health, I decided to start a blog series called ‘The Anxiety Files’. When I was younger and first diagnosed, talking about mental health was such a taboo and it felt like a cold and lonely world away from ‘the norm’. Fast forward 11 years and everyone is encouraging one another to talk and help one another, so this was the perfect opportunity.

I do love writing, it’s a passion of mine. So to completely wipe it off the cards would be silly. On good days, I can write for hours and it’s like an escape for me, but to commit to a company who needs you on the ball on a regular time set is difficult because right now I literally have to play each day by ear because there’s no telling what will be a good or bad day until the day arrives. It’s stressful, but that’s why I’m so thankful I have a blog – I’m the boss here and I can work around my health needs, which is extremely useful.

Onto good things now – I turned 21 back in September which I spent in Brighton and met my internet friend of four years. Emi is from Arizona, United States, but is currently in Brighton studying for a few months. I’ve always wanted to visit Brighton and didn’t have any birthday plans, so it just happened and it was the best birthday ever. I definitely love the town and would visit again in a heartbeat. Emi also came to Cardiff earlier this month to visit the city and meet with Sarah and I where we had a sleepover in a hotel and vlogged it – it was a lot of fun.

The scenery of Brighton was aesthetically pleasing

Last month my friend, Camryn, was in town for the first time in three years and she invited me to interview her for United By Pop as well as chill on her tour bus and just talk. She was the support act for Fifth Harmony’s 727 Tour in Europe and it was incredible seeing how she’s evolved since she first came onto the scene at the tender age of 11. It was so much fun catching up and having a chat with her band and I really hope she’s back in the UK again soon.

Alysha, Camryn and I on the tour bus

There’s not too much else I can think of right now that I haven’t already mentioned in great detail on the blog. I’m looking forward to the Christmas season and writing lots of blog posts while trying very hard to get back on track with things. I hope to be in a better place by Christmas.

I hope you’re all doing great and are enjoying the hype for the festive season!

Literally the only time I will be giving advice I hope you follow is now: You focus on you booboo. Literally don’t even think about doing anything until YOU are fit and ready. You’re such an important person to me so don’t be hesitant to message me when you need a chit chat XXX