I've had a few times in the last week where I started freaking out thinking that I made the wrong choice and that maybe I do want the epi... then I remind myself WHY I chose homebirth and the fact that I'm scared to death of hospitals and wouldn't be shocked if I walked out w/ having a c/s. I know labor is not going to be easy and I know I prob will freak out a little in the midsts but I also know this is the best choice for me and my baby. I trust my body and my baby and know that we can do this. I don't know that my hubby will be a lot of help =/ but hopefully he surprises me!