Never can I really understand in any "completeness" the reason for my incarnation...for I chose not to do so at the onset of this incarnation...of this I have become aware (at least to some degree)...however...I have learned that and have come to believe through experimentation in other areas of my existence on this planet that the newly "rediscovered" Ho' oponopono really works....so beloved and most beautiful....I say unto you over and over again until the cleansing is complete between thee and me "I'm sorry (so sorry), please forgive me (please do), I love you (so very much), Thank you (thank you, sweetest one beyond measure)...and may it be so dearest and most precious one...bless you...amen and amen

at the end of the day....oh beloved one...I just ask...do you have the answers to the reason for existence anymore than the bum on the street?....let's just say that I have the answers for existence....can you really refute me?....I mean in all truthfulness...can u irrefutably say that you have the market cornered on the meaning of the universe?....let's just say that I have connections....connections with powers of which you have never dreamed about in your most magnificent dream....could you really refute it....of course u could call it "demonic" for that is what people have always called that which they do not understand....the burning question for you to mull...however...it may be just a elementary question to one of such a spiritual intellect....do u have the answer?....sorry if a sardonic laugh erupts from the depth of my being...for what is...really is...

I must ask you this...oh divine one...what makes it imperative upon you that you even respond to a plebian such as myself....you...who revel in your wonder and your greatness...truly...what have I done that would merit even a thought from one so Godlike as your mighty and exalted self...oh that I could render the sufficient obeisance to the omniscient likes of you....alas...but one lifetime will not be enough....for surely....among the maidens of your harem...I will live in the afterlife...simply awaiting your illustrious return....ahhhhhhhhh....how I await the beautious day when that shall materialize....until then....I wait in quiet repose until I may herald in the momentous day....until then....deepest and most obedient love most dearest and eloquent one......for now I send honor and love to your most resent conquest....for truly they require it....more than they shall ever know...

finally....and thankfully...I now see the real truth....there are those out there in the "real" world who are so much wiser and advanced...and...thankfully...no harm done...for I see who you really are....and ....well...my world will continue in a much wiser and more resolute way...bless you sweetie....bless you:)

At this point...I don't know how you see me...and really...I know that it is what I think that ultimately matters...but ...at this point in space and time...I am simply a human being...with feet of clay...reality is that I would only want you to be doing what you want to be doing...that's why I left my "other half"....to give him the chance to "have" whatever made him happy...I would wish no less for you...believe me...I watch from a distance...I always have...people love...people love people...but that is never enough...because what they really want is to be deeply and completely in love with themselves...I am not unlike the population...I have had dreams of the "fairy tale"...but from a very young age...I have been aware that...we just all are part of a great love affair that is with everyone....it is just through a "glass darkly"...but it i so....

Truthfully beloved...it matters not how the chips fall...you are the apple of my eye...I have given up the why's and wherefore's....you are so precious to me...it is definitely a spiritual thing...I'm sure we could enjoy one another on the physical plane...but...definitely...we have know each other in another space and time...I have only faltered in my belief because of your current "spot" in life...so many admire you that it is easy for me to question my affection...however...I have been in situations and know many who either equalled or surpassed your magnitude of popularity and never did I feel this way about them....I have come to terms with the fact that we may never connect in the physical on this plane of existence...yet...I am so very glad you exist...it brings me joy just knowing you are you...and doing such a beautiful thing in this life...I love...dear one!!!

Truthfully...I sit in a cesspool of puke....at the time in which I lived there was nobility....true...our current leader is of nobility beyond his understanding....but...there are those that know not of true ethics....forgive me but it is true...