Tuesday, March 1, 2011

This winter has been really tough on me. We had a peek of spring a couple of weeks ago and it was quickly replaced by gray and snow once again. I didn't realize how much I had been affected by the lack of sunshine until I felt the lightening influence of the sun yesterday. Yesterday's blast of sunshine did wonders on my mood and my attitude. I had to go to the hospital to have another blood test to be sure there were no further complications from my miscarriage and it didn't get me down. Bless you sunshine! Bless you!

It started me thinking about my role in my family. That old-timey song came to mind (try not to think of the Soggy-Bottom Boys in O Brother, Where Art Thou? singing this one)...

You are my sunshine, my only sunshineYou make me happy when skies are gray

I am my family's sunshine. I affect the mood around here perhaps more than any other member of my family. "If mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy." TOO TRUE. I am certain that my shorter fuse and irritability has taken away from my children's happiness at times. My husband comes home from long and stressful days at school and needs peace and solace... and all too often, I am a huge source of stress for him. Complainers aren't cute. He fell in love with an ambitious, energetic, fun-loving, happy girl, not an insecure stressed-out complainer!

I am the sunshine in my home. A little sunshine in my day changed my mood and made my whole day better. I want the same to be said of me by my kids and husband. "Mom changed my mood and made my whole day better."