installed blog/blogger apps so i can continue writing my journey on mobile phone since i havent get myself a new journal since the old one wont do much in this 8 days.

334 am.

i think this is going to be a scheduled post. im currently at the local starbucks at the airport. waiting for my flight with my mom. were going away for a while.

heal.
what heal? what to heal? whos hurt? whats hurting him? does people whos going thru breakup really need the vacations/getaways? to take things off his/her mind?

i just cameback from mini holiday in langkawi n some place. nothing. no changes happen. i still feel empty, void. dysfunctional. here. *points out heart*

empty laughs, empty thoughts, empty smiles, faked happiness.

idk. yeah i think i got it all figured out. but i was wrong. i wasnt aware that our relationship is deteriorating.

and ur seeing someone else behind my back ur schoolmate crush. i could do the same with all the attention im getting. i could do the same. every time when i want to talk to ya, u gotta do this, u gotta do that. i am fully aware that ur busy. but...

ah let it go. doesnt matter pun. my fundamentals and understanding "love" is far greater from urs. u dont know whats its like when u love somebody and not getting back the love that u gave. or being left in the middle of it.

because, u dont know. u dont have any idea.

i dont know how to put this. or even my feelings right now. devastated? tell me. i've been thru a lot worst than this. how about breaking up a day before graduating? how about quitting ur last semester of ur studies and start all over again without nobody knows why?