Thursday, December 31, 2009

EVERYONE IS MAKING NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS...
NOT ME.
I REFUSE TO BS MYSELF.
I DONT NEED TO CHANGE A DAMN THING ABOUT MYSELF.
ACTUALLY... I TAKE THAT BACK...
I DO NEED TO CHANGE THINGS ABOUT MYSELF.
BUT HONESTLY THATS NOT GONNA HAPPEN UNTIL I WANT THEM TO.
&& RIGHT NOW, I'M GOOD JUST DOING ME.
I WISH EVERYONE WAS AS REAL AS ME.
SPOKE THEIR MIND, ACTED ON THEIR EMOTIONS, JUST DID WHATEVER THEY FELT LIKE.
ITS NOT ALWAYS A GOOD TRAIT, BUT I'M FINE WITH IT.
ANYWAY... I WISH EVERYONE WOULD SPEND THIS NEW YEARS IN CHURCH.
TALKING TO GOD. THANKING HIM FOR YOUR LIFE && FOR KEEPING YOU THIS FAR.
&& ASK HIM TO KEEP YOU UNTIL NEXT YEAR && TO LET YOU PROSPER IN EVERYTHING YOUR HEART DESIRES.
WELL, I KNOW I'M GONNA BE DOING THAT.
UNTIL NEXT YEAR.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

YA'LL MIGHT THINK THIS IS AN OVER REACTION BUT I'M REALLY STARTING TO HATE THEM.THEIR JUST CONSTANTLY TRYNA BRING ME DOWN!LIKE REALLY, WHAT KIND OF PARENTS DO THAT SHIT?!UGH!!!!I'M SLOWLY BEGINNING TO REALIZE THAT THEY DONT SUPPORT ME IN ANYTHING.NEVER CONGRADULATE ME ON GETTING A SOLO, OR COME TO ANY OF MY PREFORMANCES, NEVER EVEN BEEN TO A TRACK MEET.THEY COMPLAIN ABOUT EVERYTHING I DO, ALWAYS ARE BRINGING ME DOWN, && TREAT ME LIKE I'M THEIR DAMN SLAVE.LIKE THAT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH.I'M DOING ALL THE MANLY CHORES AROUND THE HOUSE WHILE JAMES IS JUST WALKING AROUND OR SITTING IN HIS ROOM.LIKE REALLY WHAT MESSAGE ARE YOU SENDING??CUZ TRUST IF PRINCE CHARMING EXPECTED ME TO TEND TO HIM HAND && FOOT.I WOULD CUT HIS NUTS OFF, ROAST IT, THEN SERVE IT TO HIM.YOU'LL HAVE TO EXCUSE MY VULGARNESS...I'M JUST REALLY UPSET.&& THEY ALWAYS TELL ME I HAVE LOW SELF ESTEEM...I'M LIKE WTF?! DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM????MY SELF ESTEEM IS THROUGH THE ROOF!BUT THEIR JUST SO WRAPPED UP IN WHAT THEY WANNA BELIEVE THAT NO MATTER WHAT I SAY, IT WOULDNT MAKE A DIFFERENCE.THEY DIDNT EVEN TELL ME I DID A GOOD JOB YESTERDAY!THATS THE TYPE OF PEOPLE THEY ARE.THEY DONT SUPPORT ME IN SHIT!EVEN IF I WENT UP THERE && MADE A COMPLETE FOOL OF MYSELF... I STILL EXPECT THEM TO GIVE ME A "GOOD JOB" OR "YOU TRIED."BUT NOT WITH MY PARENTS...ON THE WAY HOME, I WAS ALREADY UPSET BC OF THE ADLIBBING SITUATION, THEN THEY STARTED IN ON ME.THEY ONLY SEE THE NEGATIVES, THEY LIKE TO JUST PICK, PICK, PICK.I USED MY MASCARA TO DRAW A WAR MARK ON MY FACE && THEY WERE LIKE "WHY CANT YOU BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE?? ALWAYS DIFFERENT."LIKE SHUT THE FUCK UP!UGH!!!!STAY TRYNA BRING ME DOWN!I JUST CAME BACK FROM CHURCH SO I REALLY SHOULDNT BE CURSING LIKE THIS.YOU'LL HAVE TO ACCEPT MY SINCEREST APOLOGIZES.GOODNIGHT.

SO WHERE DO I START?? YESTERDAY WAS A LONGGG DAY.
I'M STILL KINDA TIRED.
IT WAS THE START OF BRING DOWN THE GLORY. (A PROGRAM AT MY CHURCH)
LIKE EVERYONE WAS THERE!EVERYONE!
I'M LIKE THIS AINT GONNA BE LIKE THE LOCK IN, LOL.
BUT I AINT EVEN GONNA LIE, I WAS SCOPING TOO.
&& THEN I HAD TO SING!
OH LORD... I REALLY DIDNT WANT TO SING FRIDAY CUZ I DIDNT PRACTICE THE SONG WITH THE OTHER PERSON.
SHE WAS ALL CONFIDENT CUZ SHE KNEW HER PART WELL...
&& I WAS LIKE LET'S PRACTICE BECAUSE I DONT WANNA GET UP THERE && EMBARRASS MYSELF.
SHE WOULD NOT EVEN HELP ME!THREW ME UNDER THE BUS!!!!
BEFORE WE GOT ONSTAGE WE ALREADY DECIDED WE WE'RE GONNA ALTERNATE ADLIBBING.
CUZ IF WE BOTH DID IT IT WOULD SOUND NASTY.
ITS LIKE AS SOON AS WE GOT UP THERE SHE JUST DECIDED THAT SHE WAS GONNA DO EVERYTHING!
SO I'M STANDING UP THERE LIKE A JACKDUMMY, JUST LOOKING AT HER LIKE "REALLY?"
UGH... LIKE JUST PICTURE ME, STANDING ON THE ALTER, HOLDING THE MIC WITH BOTH MY HANDS, MOUTH OPEN, GIVING HER THE EVIL EYE.
I WAS UPSET...
BUT ITS MY FAULT CUZ I SHOULD HAVE LEARNED THE ADLIBS BETTER.
DIDNT EVEN APOLOGIZE WHEN WE WERE DONE.

Friday, December 25, 2009

WHAT THE HELL DOES CHRISTMAS FEEL LIKE??
PEOPLE GET SO CAUGHT UP IN THE MATERIAL MADE UP NONSENSE OF CHRISTMAS THAT THEY FORGET WHAT CHRISTMAS IS ALL ABOUT.
ITS CHRIST'S BIRTHDAY!
DUH!!!
ON YOUR BIRTHDAY HOW DO YOU FEEL SPECIAL??
YOU TREAT YOURSELF && THE PEOPLE SURROUNDING YOU DO THINGS TO MAKE YOU FEEL SPECIAL.
SOO... DO STUFF TO MAKE JESUS FEEL SPECIAL!
ITS REALLY NOT THAT HARD. JUST THANK HIM.
THANK HIM CUZ YOU WOKE UP.
THANK HIM CUZ YOU HAVE EYES.
THANK HIM THAT YOU EVEN MADE IT TO THIS DAY, CUZ MOST LIKELY YOU KNOW SOMEONE WHO STARTED THE YEAR WITH YOU BUT IS NOT HERE TODAY.
BUT THANK GOD THAT THATS NOT YOU.
WE GET SOOO CAUGHT UP IN THE PRESENTS && MATERIAL THINGS.
I AINT GONNA LIE I DID TOO.
BUT READING EVERYONE'S STATUS ON FACEBOOK REALLY PISSED ME OFF.
SO, THATS MY LIL PSA.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

MONEY CAN MAKE ANYONE ATTRACTIVE.
GOT $20 FROM A STRANGER && I DIDNT EVEN HAVE TO DO ANY SEXUAL FAVORS.

WENT TO THE STORE TO GET ONIONS FOR MY MOM.
SHE TOLD ME I GOT THE WRONG KIND && TO TAKE IT BACK. I DIDNT. UNGRATEFUL LADY.
&& I PAID FOR THEM HOES WITH MY OWN MONEY!

THEN WENT BLACKBERRY CASE SHOPPING FOR MY DAD.
THE RUDE ASS INDIANS. UGH!!!!

THEN CHURCH.
CHOIR PRACTICE TOOK TO DAMN LONGGGGG.
WANTED TO GO TO D.I.C. BUT I MISSED IT.

JAMES WENT TO MCDONALDS, DIDNT EVEN LET ME GET ANYTHING.
I HAD TO EAT SOME CHEERIOS WITH "ALMOND MILK."
YUCK.

&& I'M TRYNA BE A GOOD FRIEND && HELP OUT CRYSTAL CUZ HER EX (JERON ROBINSON) IS "KING OF THE JERKS."
I COULD CARE LESS... I'LL CALL OUT ANYBODY I WANT TO ON MY BLOG.
GOOGLE THAT JERON! AHAHAHAA.
(HE CONSTANTLY GOOGLES HIMSELF.)

SIGH... ANYWAY I'M TIRED.... REALLY TIRED...
I'LL PROLLY HAVE TO DELETE THIS POST IN THE MORNING. I TEND TO RAMBLE WHEN I'M TIRED.
EH... MAYBE NOT.

GOODNIGHT. I'M IN LOVE. WITH BENJAMIN.
FRANKLIN, THAT IS.
AHAHHAHAHAHAA.
I NEED A LOVE INTEREST. MY LIFE IS QUITE BORING....
LOL. THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A SHORT POST...
OH WELL... WHAT WAS I SAYING??
YOU KNOW WHAT, I'M GOING TO BED.
LOL. GOODNIGHT.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Sunday, December 20, 2009

SOO JUMMY GRADUATED YESTERDAY.
AT THE AGE OF 21.
PRETTY CRUNK, IF I DO SAY SO MYSELF.
WE PARTIED AT HER HOUSE.
ALOT OF PEOPLE CAME.
GOODTIMES.
CAN'T WAIT TILL I GRADUATE...
SO I CAN HAVE A PARTY...
&& GET LOTS OF MONEY&&GIFTS!
AHAHAHHAA.
(YOU HAD TO KNOW THAT WAS COMING.)

Friday, December 18, 2009

MAN...
I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
YOU DONT EVEN KNOW.
I MISS JUST CHILLING AT YOUR HOUSE && TALKING NONSENSE ABOUT PEOPLE.
I MISS GOING PLACES TOGETHER, CUZ YOU WERE BASICALLY MY WAY OUTTA THIS DAMN HOUSE.
I MISS TALKING YOU, YOU ALWAYS TOLD ME HOW DUMB MY JOKES WERE && I WAS A RETARD FOR EVEN SAYING STUFF LIKE THAT.
I WAS SO DEPENDENT ON YOU.
&& NOW WITHOUT YOU, I HAVE TO HOOVER AROUND PEOPLE I DONT REALLY CARE FOR.
PEOPLE THAT DONT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME.
I WANNA CALL YOU UP SOOO BAD.
OR SHOW UP AT YOUR HOUSE.
BUT MY EGO IS THROUGH THE ROOF.
I JUST CANT.
I DONT KNOW IF I SHOULD JUST LET IT GO...
LOL.
ITS SO IRONIC, CUZ I'M ALWAYS TELLING PEOPLE TO DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY.
"IF THEY MAKE YOU HAPPY && YOU FEEL LIKE CRAP WITHOUT THEM JUST DO IT. DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE ARE GONNA SAY, JUST DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY."
I SHOULD REALLY TAKE MY OWN ADVICE.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

I HAVE A PROBLEM.
NO JOKE.
IN ALL SERIOUSNESS, I'M ADDICTED TO SHOPPING.
ONLINE && IN STORE.
SIGH.... ITS REALLY BAD.
SO I WENT TO MALL WITH MY SISTERS SATURDAY.
I GOT A COUPLE BILLS ON ME THAT I SAVE FOR EMERGENCYS, BUT MAINLY FOR AFTER CHRISTMAS SALE SHOPPING.
BUT I HATE GOING TO THE MALL WITHOUT ANY MONEY!!!!
TO ME THATS PRETTY BUMMY && POINTLESS.
SO TOOK $45, A CRAP LOAD OF COUPONS, && MY DEBIT CARD. (ALTHOUGH I DIDNT PLAN TO USE IT.)
STORE, AFTER STORE, AFTER STORE. THEY WERE HAVING SALES.
PINK, AMERICAN EAGLE, FOREVER, && MACY'S.

I COULDNT HELP MYSELF!

I FIRST WENT TO PINK, GOT 2 SHIRTS FOR $26.
I'M LIKE DAMN THATS A DEAL!!!!
THEN I PULL OUT MY MONEY AGAIN AT AMERICAN EAGLE && I ONLY HAD $19.
AHHH, CRAP. I HAD TO WHIP OUT STAVINHO.
(THAT WHAT I CALL MY DEBIT CARD.)
LOL.
THEN I SEE SOME COACH SHOES AT MACY'S.
30% OFF PLUS I HAD A COUPON?!
I HAD TO GET THEM.
ON THE WAY HOME I'M JUST LOOKING THROUGH MY BAGS, ADDING UP THE RECEIPTS.
HAHAHAHA. THEN I GOT MAD AT MYSELF!! WE WERE ONLY THERE FOR LIKE 2 HOURS, HOW COULD I HAVE SPENT THAT MUCH??
THEN I WAS LIKE, "MAN, I'M NOT BUYING ANYTHING ELSE UNTIL AFTER CHRISTMAS."
SMH, I BOUGHT 2 POLOS WITHIN AN HOUR OF ME GETTING HOME.
IN MY DEFENSE, THEY WERE ON SALE && I HAD FREE SHIPPING.
DAMN... THANK GOD I DONT HAVE A CREDIT CARD, CUZ I WOULD PROLLY BE IN DEBT.

FOR NOW!
PEOPLE ARE SO FUNNY.
THEY WOULD FIND OUT ABOUT "TRIXIE BERMUDA" BEFORE I EVEN TALKED IT THEM.
LOL. IT WAS CRAZY.
THESE WHITE GIRLS STARTED GIVING ME DIRTY LOOKS.
BUT I DONT CARE!!!!
IMMA DO ME!!!
IF I WANT SOMETHING, I'LL TAKE IT.
IF I NEED SOMETHING, I'LL GET IT.
I DONT CARE IF YO MAMMA, GOT A PROBLEM WITH IT.
BUT THE FUNNIEST PART WAS IF I TOLD SOMEONE.
THERE WAS ALWAYS 2 TYPES OF REACTIONS:
"WHO WOULD PAY YOU??" OR
"THEY BE AFRICAN MEN, RIGHT??"
LOL. IDC...
I NEEDWANT MONEY.
I KINDA THINK I'M ABOVE WORKING, SO GETTING A JOB WOULDNT CUT IT.
&& MY SUGAR DADDIES ARE FALLING OFF.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

YA'LL GONNA HAVE TO FORGIVE BUT I'M KINDA UPSET.
WHEN ARE YA'LL GONNA REALIZE THAT I'M ME.
I AM SELFISH, INCONSIDERATE && GREEDY.
I'VE COME TO TERMS WITH MYSELF.
OTHER PEOPLE ARE JUST BS- ING AROUND PRETENDING THEY'RE PERFECT && WHATNOT TRYNA PASS JUDGEMENT.
BUT I COULD HONESTLY CARELESS.
I'M GONNA DO/SAY WHATEVER I WANT, REGARDLESS OF WHAT ANYONE THINKS.
I WISH I COULD MOVE TO LONDON. START FRESH.
MAYNE... THIS BLOG THING NOT WORKING.
I THINK I SHOULD JUST VENT TO SOMEONE... SO I CAN GET SOME FEEDBACK.
I NEED A NEW TEXT BUDDY.
I'M OFF, I'M GONNA CALL SOMEBODY.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Saturday, December 5, 2009

THIS WAS ALMOST THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE. IT WAS SOOO CHILL && FUN!!!!!
I AINT GONNA LIE I DID RUN AROUND LIKE A CHICKEN WITH MY HEAD CUT OFF FOR LIKE AN HOUR BUT REALLY CAN YOU BLAME ME??
LOL.
WE EVEN HAD A SNOWBALL FIGHT!!!
WITH REAL SNOW @ SCHOOL && @ MISSION GLEN.
CHELSEA && LIL CHRIS KEPT GETTING ME IN MY EYE && IN MY CRACK. AHAHHAHA.
ITWAS TOO FUN!!!!
WHAT AN AMAZING DAY.
I HOPE IT SNOWS AGAIN.
HERE ARE A COUPLE OF PICS!

LOL. I WAS SO BUSY YESTERDAY I DIDNT EVEN POST THIS PIC.
YEAH, SO I WOKE UP IN THE MORNING && IT WAS LIKE 40 DEGRESS SO I SAID LET ME PUT ON A V NECK.
LOL. J/K.
WHEN I PLANNED THIS WEEK I FORGOT THAT MY POLO HOODIE IS AT THE DRY CLEANERS.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

MY SISTER SHOULD REALLY CLEAN HER MIRRIOR.
YUCK! LOL.
SO FAR THIS POLO WEEK THING IS GOING WELL.
NIGGAS BE ON MYDICK!
"DAMN ELIZABETH!"
"POLO ON HER BODY...."
"FRESH FRESH FRESH!" <-- MY PERSONAL FAVORITE FROM REMI. AHAHAHHAA.
BUT LIKE DAMN.
IN ALL HONESTY I EXPECTED && WANTED THIS REACTION BUT UGH!!!
DONT GET ME WRONG I ENJOY ALL THE COMPLIMENTS, BUT WHY NIGGAS BE DYING??
I MEAN ITS JUST A PLAIN COLLARED SHIRT WITH A LOGO.
ITS LIKE... THE ONLY REASON PEOPLE LIKE POLO'S ARE CUZ THERE EXPENSIVE.
BUT I NEVEREVER EVER IN MY LIFE PAID FULL PRICE FOR A POLO.
LIKE NEVER. $75?? FOR A SHIRT??
WHY?? FOR WHAT??
I THINK PEOPLE WHO BUY CLOTHES IN RETAIL PERIOD ARE RETARDED.
I CANT REMEMBER THE LAST THING I BOUGHT THAT WAS FULL PRICED.
(&& IF YOU KNOW ME, YOU KNOW I'M CONSTANTLY ONLINE SHOPPING.)
ONLY STUFF THAT IS ON SALE OR IN CLEARANCE.
I GUESS MAYBE ITS JUST ME...I'M CHEAP.
BUT FOR $75 I COULD GET 3, MAYBE 4 POLOS FROM RALPHLAUREN.COM + SHIPPING&&HANDLING OR THE POLO OUTLET.
PEOPLE JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO SHOP.... IT IRRITATES ME.

&& YOU KNOW WHAT REALLY IRRITATES ME??

WHEN PEOPLE WEAR THEY'RE DAMN TAGS!!!!!!!

LIKE UGH!!!
WE ALL KNOW YOU DIDNT PAY $150.99 FOR THAT SHIRT SO WHY YOU TRYNA FLAUNT THAT STUFF.
SO NOT CUTE.
IF NIGGERS ONLY KNEW HOW TACKY THAT IS. UGH!!!
MY DAD ALWAYS SAYS, RICH PEOPLE DONT HAVE TO FLAUNT THEIR WEALTH.
&& BILL GATES (ONE OF THE RICHEST MEN IN THE WORLD) STILL SHOPS AT WAL-MART FOR CLOTHES.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

ITS NOT A SCHOOL WIDE THING, && I'M NOT EXPECTING OTHER PEOPLE TO WEAR THEIRS ALSO.

I'M JUST DOING IT SIMPLE BEACAUSE I CAN.

MY INTERNET ISNT WORKING AT MY HOUSE SO I'M FORCED TO BLOG FROM SCHOOL.

UGH. IT'LL BE FIXED THOUGH.
I HAVE MUCH TO BLOG ABOUT.
I WAS SOOO MAD YESTERDAY CUZ RALPHLAUREN.COM WAS HAVING A SALE && I COULDNT FIND A COMPUTER TO BUY STUFF OFF OF.
UGH!!!!25% OFF && FREE SHIPPING!!!!
I WAS SO MAD, I ALWAYS MISS THE GOOD SALES.