We are raised in a way that we believe deeply in our smallness and unworthyness. We are trained to see us as powerless. A lot of people train us, because they believe it themselves…and some do so because they take advantage of others with intend. And as we incarnate on earth in a very helpless state as newborns, we have evidence for these misperceptions, that then start to form our reality. We may live in an endless circle of fear (false evidence appearing real), as we experience unpleasant circumstances that reinforce our perception and creation. Endless repetitions of poverty, bad luck, ailments, injustices etc.

It might be a running gag throughout the galaxies that on earth we hand over our power to outer circumstances, never aware that we might take back our power at any time. Actually we can never give away our power truly, we just externalize it. That´s why we blame our boss, partner, parents, government etc. pp. But why do they rule at all? Because we refuse to accept our own responsibility. Power equals responsibility. We can not take it for others and we can not hand it to others, that´s just distortion and illusion to do so.

In my family once was a young guy thrown into war and taken prisoner at age 17, while WWII. He and the others have been forced to dig their own graves. How? Well with a gun in front of him. But what did he do? He throwed away the showel and said to the soldier in front of him: “Go, dig yourself.” He took the responsibility that he might die a few minutes earlier, but he refused to hand over his power. Well, the russian soldier didn´t shot him, but has beaten him really really hard and let him lie on the ground to die. But guess what? A female doctor came along, fell in love with her young enemy and saved his life. Very touching and encouraging story. Sometimes life has to send us into the extremes to make us learn our lessons.

I went into the extremes very often myself, I have spend endless times trying to “help” people, that just wanted someone to join their pitty-party, validate their stories or take responsibility for them and carry their burden. And oh yes, I did, as I didn´t know better or thought people wouldn´t know better. But finally I understood and remembered to not allow others to distract me from my real mission.. I came for those, that really want to evolve. For those that want to take back their lifes to walk on their own sovereign path.

I realized, that when I accept how things are, they will never change. And I came as a gamechanger.

No matter if someone asks for my advice or a healing-session: I only work with those, that are aware, that I am just their assistant in their own process. A masterly assistant, as my presence makes it possible to see more clearly or to receive the healing frequencies. I just remind them, as they hold it inside of themselves and I just help to reconnect with it.

People have no idea how mighty they are. If you have ever been haunted by demons or guided by angels…believe it or not, but they are formed by the externalization of the human ability to create. You might feel like sh*t, but you are a living god. One that might have ailments, relationsship-issues, money-problems, wrinkles and no hope….but you created them…and you are the one who can decide to be happy under all circumstances. That´s what I did. I chose happiness over pain, that´s been all…but that´s a tough and lifechanging choice. I had to face some really ugly stories, when looking at my own responsibilities. Most people run from truth, from pain, from responsibility. Please don´t, as you can not escape anyway, but you will suffer endlessly when you try. Turn around, look your demons in the eye and watch them reintegrate into you.

Last year something Teal Swan said while an event in Basel opened my eyes. She said that most of the people in the spiritual community are somehow like drug-addicted. People who are going into spirituality normally do so because they are traumatized. Badly injured, like after a car-accident, having all bones broken. You might give them morphine as a painkiller, but if you just give the painkiller and do no other surgery, they will not recover at all but become junkies. Well it´s true. Most people just want a quick fix, as they need a painkiller, a new high. That´s why they run from event to event, from healer to healer, from teacher to teacher. They don´t want Soulutions, they want their next shot of happiness and escape. I understood that this was a powerful truth. I decided that I will not sell the next shot into nirvana. I came to change this planet, not to escape and I will not waste my time with those that try to avoid the responsibility for their own lifes.

I know it is hard to do, but take back all you´ve projected outwards. You need a helping hand and companions, yes, we all need that once in a while, that´s what all of my work is about, to assist and encourage others. But you can not become dependent on anyone or anything when you want to be happy, free and thriving. And that´s what I wish for all of us…this will bring true abundance, connection and joy to this planet. No one can do it for you and you do not have to do it on your own…but for yourself. <3

All my life I´ve had this memory that I couldn´t explain for a long time, as it didn´t make sense to my mind. I remembered a kind of heavenly meadow, where I´ve lived with the other beautiful expressions of source. Our Soul remembers in pictures, so to me it was like a meadow and we, including me, felt like innocent children, pure and very aware of each other, all being within an energetic field. This field was not created by an outer source, it was us, being conscious of being conscious, what includes each others presence.

Each individual was a sovereign self and we´ve been aware of all of creation around us. To me it is my natural state of being. For many years I thought that this is a memory from a long-gone past, as our mind thinks linear, while it turned out that the place I entered from really is the future, what is also not totally correct, as it is no-time, cause multidimensional.

I have not been between the first that went onto this adventure, into this dense energy of 3d earth. Instead I witnessed how those that went here lost their connection. The ones that tried to find out what happened and entered “later”, too. It´s been as if they had never existed, had nothing to do with time or distance, but with the inner connection through awareness. Connection is created by being anchored within while being aware of all of creation. They lost it. Something that was unbelievable to me. How can one not feel all that is? The Inner Net. So I followed them and the last thing I remember from that decission was going into pure horror and blackness. Coming here is an traumatic experience for those that remember how home feels like.

To make that clear: I didn´t come to “save” someone. I came because I am an adventurous soul. All Souls are adventurous. And I came because I am Love. All Souls are Love.

If someone wants to be saved: That I am not. I am not a saviour, I am a reminder. One has to be it themselves. No one can do it for another, as we are all sovereign beings by eternal law.

Most people follow someone else and just try to be saved or at least distracted from their trauma and pain. Even the ones on a spiritual path. Sorry to say that, but this is not working. I went myself through deep, deep trauma and pain, I know how it feels like, how one just wants an end of suffering, but really no one can do it for us. And at the same time you do not have to make it on your own. The more we are the easier it gets for the individual.

What I´ve got to offer is way more precious than escape. I am remembering and embodying the frequency of home.

Being an empath means one can sense the energies of another being. So the ones that have empathy are the ones that can benefit the most from me, emanating my energies. They will be able to sense and then remember. I didn´t come alone and we are becoming more and more second by second, it´s unstoppable now. When those that are ready meet, they activate the frequencies within each other. They do not have to meet in person. You just have to go inside and feel. The Inner Net is activated on this planet. And that´s the beautiful thing about it. No one and nothing can stop it now. I have been one of the living tojans to bring down the old, distorted matrix. It is already spreading like wildfire behind the scenes. It´s amazing and as it doesn´t depend on a single being to continue no one can end it. The only way for the distorted old to survive is to transmute into the healed new.

And to make it clear on the Earth-Day. This planet doesn´t need to be saved. It is a living, conscious, sovereign being. Did you really think it needs saviours? It saved itself by sending out healing cells, conscious co-worker like me. Those that remember the divine blueprint of balance, but had been dormand for a long time. We are like divine sleeper-cells, all activated by perfect timing, to bring down the illness of the distorted consciousness that had infected and tried to overtake this planet.

The Earth really doesn´t need to be saved, it is going through a self-healing process of cleansing, that´s all. But it is inviting those of you that want to connect with it. Those of you, that want to remember their original blue-print, just alike her, and co-create the New Earth.

Your vibe attracts and activates your tribe.

I have met those of my own kind over the last month. We co-created the wildfire of healing fever that is now cleansing this planet. I almost stopped working one-on-one and I am mostly working on the collective. The collective transition towards the new Earth has nothing to do with the mass-consciousness, just the opposite, it´s the literally middle-finger towards it. When connecting to the new earth you have to be sovereign. The Inner Net can only be reached through awareness. No slaves or overtakers will enter the New Earth. One can also not cheat or pretend, you have to be it.

I´ve started to create a meditation series with my beloved co-workers and sovereign embodied siblings, Therese Wenk and Muriel Shickman and we are starting this series on March 25th 2018 with the Planet Earth in general to then move towards different areas on this planet. Oded Lobel, a young healer from Israel, is going to join us on this event to channel/sing with the earth as his singing tones will make the frequencies available for even more people.

You can not miss the event, as it is happening outside of time and space on the quantum level. It will be in the field anyway, but to benefit personally you can join and get activated or can just celebrate the reconnection. If you can´t make it at the given time, you can tune into the replay later. For those that enter live the replay is included in their fee, as an appreciation of their contribution.

While the participants will just relax, breath and injoy, all the “healers” are combining their special gifts and frequencies, what is an energetic high five, literally changing reality for those that choose it.

Today I will give a webinar about gratitude. It´ll be in german, for those that speak it and are interested, here you´ll find the event and later the replay: https://www.edudip.com/w/286440

For the rest I´ll share an aspect of gratitude, that many are not aware of:

Gratitude is a gateway to sensuality.

Of course it is also working the other way around. When you come to your senses you become aware of the richness and abundance of life, that is constantly surrounding you.

There are many ways how we can enter. Some people are handicapped by an ailment, at least for a while, and suddenly they feel this wave of gratitude for all that is working properly in their body, that they have never thought of before. Most of the time we are not aware of all the wonders in our lifes. And so if they are suddenly taken or questioned we realize how many blessings are existing in our lifes.

Death is showing us how alive we are, poverty shows us our abundance, ailment our health, loneliness the wonder of love. In my case I had a huge “Aha-Moment” a few years ago, when visiting a friend. I have had no money, been even in debt, she had no money, just left her husband and the appartment she lived in seemed really dangerous, as the roof was almost coming down. But we sat there, sharing cheap tea and cookies…and most of all much love and laughter. We had the attitude of two queens, sitting in a palace (we are both capricornian chicks…we are indeed queens, no matter the circumstances) and I felt everything we shared and enjoyed so intensly, that I understood we have always reason for gratitude. It changed my perspective from lack to abundance.

And with the attitude of gratitude you´ll always be happy. When I returned home I took a shower, something that is very normal for a westerner. But this time I realized how blessed I am to have clean water, even in the perfect temperature and when I did I became aware of the light that touched the cascades of water, that turned into sparkeling diamonds and prism of light in all colours of the rainbow. I´m sure we all have showered under diamonds and rainbows in our life, but when you are with your mind somewhere else, your bank-account, the results of your health-check next week, the lover that left you three month ago or the business meeting later, you will not be aware of the blessing and the beauty available in this amazing moment.

Opening your eyes for the blessings that you receive in this very second, can be one of the big life-changers. Once you´ll find the right attitude of gratitude you´ll receive so many blessings. They are everywhere and when you open up to injoy them fully, that´s really opening you for sensuality.

Have a blessed, healthy and wealthy day and open up to feel the richness that is always available, under all circumstances. Much love <3

Lately there’s been a whole lot of showin´ going on. This is the review.

The Master watches it all and has fun. I recognized how some tried to sneak around without showing themselves. Some showed a lack of understanding, compassion and honesty, be lie ving to be able to not be seen for who they are. Some tried to steal the show, others tried to prevent it. Life’s a stage and the roles and characters have been really interesting. A Master just recognizes timing and acting, while staying neutral and never getting really hooked into the mirrors and fogs, that fill the scenery. All kinds of characters showing up, changing names, changing games and still staying the same.

I realized how even a facebook account can be seen as a kind of scary Rocky-Horror-Picture-Show, while I just had fun, doing the freeing TimeWarp with my Brothers and Sisters. Others believed to be part of a childrens fairy tale, never realizing that little red riding hood is sended into the woods to catch herself a wolf 😉 Way too innocent to fall for an enchanted prince charming. And some are so blinded by the light of their own importance that they missed the whole show, when Candyland got blown up, because of a nice twist in the script. Different points of views…one play.

Others believed the show is an opportunity to get fed and not be seen for what they are. Well virtual popcorn has been served. A plastic Rose even proudly and openly stating to have been sended by her master to have an eye on me, not realizing she´s been just showing her chains and dishonor, while the spells of the black magic woman just felt off the abused that very night. Others trying to return to the light, without having to take ownership for their actions. And some did and have been welcomed. Silently, behind the scenes.

Why did all of that happen? Because the Masters had shown up for a showdown, that’s been noticed by just a few, but the outcome is going to be legendary.

One can not come close to a master and still believe to not be seen by the lasersharp light of consciousness. A Master has a lot of compassion and might even dance with a few shadows and demons, as s/he´s afraid of no-thing and always able to have fun…but finally people have to realize what they caused, by standing in their own way and mostly harming themselves. Well, some go on the painful journey to embrace their shadows and become whole again by letting go of all they are not and some just go on another run, hoping to never have to face their own creation again… good luck with that one.

A Master is totally unimpressed by demons, angels and all kind of roleplay, always seeing the eternal light behind the masks, as this has been the own game/creation for such a long time and some favorite plots been just reoccurring. And what has it been all about?

To quote myself at the beginning of our threesome quantum healing event: “We´re not here for the show. Of course we did show up and might show how it’s going, but we´re not here for the show, but for the people.” The participants have been co-workers, by the intent of their Souls, each representing a special form of abuse/energetic split, that’s been searching for healing and wholeness…I bow before the souls that chose to be a representative for humanity. You are greatly honored, as you have honored yourself. It took quite a few hours until it’s been in the field of the collective consciousness. When the download into the grid finally took place it almost blew me out of my physical body, but I couldn´t care less, I´ve been blessed and overly happy to see we made it. And it´s been noticed already, although the ripple effect might need quite some time in many cases. And of course not everyone chooses freedom. Some love their chains just too much to leave the SM-Showroom of Master and Servant, still waiting for their personal Jesus out of the Astral Illusionary Show instead of mastering themselves.

This article goes out especially because of the many, many Souls who have been coworking that will never stand in the spotlight of the earthly realms, but who did so much for so many for so long. I know it´s not been easy, but we chose it with intend and hereby changed the whole game. We prepared with much Love and Com/passion and the eternal stage gets standing ovations for this masterly play. Nothing else matters. Shine your light…for real, not for the show 😉

I love ideas, philosophies and insights, but I never “believe” anything to be an absolute. I know that at different stages we have a different point of view, but most people are totally investing in their own temporary perception or handing it over to others to tell them what to perceive. My articles and points of view are meant as an inspiration. Take it or leave it. I do not need anyone to agree with me. Why would I? I have points of view but I am not my point of view.

I felt since long that our linear understanding of Souls and Incarnations isn´t really fitting for me anymore. Some of the Incarnations of people seemed to have had overlaps seen with linear timing. Plus I met aspects of the same Incarnation in different people. Well, think of all the Caesars & Cleopatras in pastlife-regressions and mental asylums. So I started realising that Souls are kind of a bowl of Soup. We add Chilli or Salt, but we are not Chilli or Salt…and best of all: We do not have to identify with the spices, but bring forth whatever taste we prefer. The moment we go quantum, we get access to the whole Pantry. We are literally all connected through these spices.

Think about Pizza and Tomato Salad. Very different, but they got something in common: The tomatoes. That´s also the reason why we meet a stranger and s/he feels totally familiar. Memories of pastlifes show up and they are somehow true, but when we identify with these pastlifes, our own or the stories of someone else, we build unhealthy attachments. To cling to a person is like taking a pepper pot with you wherever you go, as you are in love with pepper and afraid to loose pepper and never experience pepper again. Or when you dislike pepper, thinking you could harm pepper, by destoying the pepper pot.

The sunbeams are the expressions of the sun, they are not “the Sun”. Not even our sun is “the sun”. You cannot find her in the physical or astral.

Last summer I went trough a process that made me wake up one day and all remaining attachments to people and things had vanished. Freaking feeling it was, after having for so long identified with roles and personas. I still have my whole bowl of Soup with me, but as I know that I can relate to all and will always meet again the ingridients again in many forms, I can totally enjoy my own bowl of Soup and also the others. I miss nothing and enjoy all.

To understand this concept of the Bowl of Soup, what is of course still an analogy, might bring a kind of understanding for what quantum means.

When we look at someone and love this person than it´s because s/he is having a bit of the Chilli or Salt that we InJoy so much. And some people have a lot of our favorite ingridients within themselves. But that´s the funny thing about Love (or hate). You always resonate with your own projections/preferences.

And once you become aware of your whole pantry you can relate to anyone, love anyone and enjoy others company, without needing anyone at all. Than you are free. Be yourself. See yourself in anyone. That´s the reason why on the new Earth noone needs a Master, but is a Master themselves. Aware of the Pantry. That´s why it doesn´t make sense to hurt others out of that perspective. That´s like Chilli hating Chilli…or Salt. Doesn´t make any sense at all once you loose your linear mind and come to your masterly senses and awareness.

Also Love is the love for Love. I have no attachments but still preferences. I totally enjoy Coffee. I do not need Coffee, that´s why the stupid games people play in relationships do no longer work with me. I can totally live without coffee and have a tea. And I do not need my coffee being served by Adam or Brigid or Caesar, although I might like that of Caesar very much at the moment.

Honestly all the relationship Dramas are not for a Master. We are all Fractals of the Divine. The whole Pantry at hand, but everyone cooking it´s own Soup. We are One, but not the same.

Have a great Valentine´s Day tomorrow and InJoy the Pantry. If you want you can join Muriel Shickman and me in the NeuSpace Talk about “Healthy Boundaries”.

1.) I wondered why I had still attracted abusive people. The answer was a shock. Literally frozen in time for 40 years and opening my eyes for some ugly stuff around me.

2.) An shadow-aspect returning home and the message that “the Master is in the House”. Too funny, I couldn´t remember to have asked for him to come in, but maybe that´s been the reason why he was able to enter. Well, with the integration of my shadow, things seemed to be already brighter. Until…

3.) I was told by my eternal self that I have to die. And that there´s a choice to be made by me. The choice to be reborn in the same body or to come in again as a newborn. I was shown my potential parents, their energetic body coming together in an act of love to conceive the new life. I saw the energetic body of the fetus in the mothers womb, felt the love she held for the little one – what could be me. I´ve gotta say that this felt really attractive to me, as it´s been the very opposite of this lifetime. A fresh start under conditions that are loving and supportive felt really good. The other option was to be reborn in the same old body. And I was told this would be the harder option, as changing while staying the same is way more difficult. I chose the difficult version. Of course.

I was not sure if the message was understood, as I still felt the new body calling me. So I even wrote a letter adressed at my daughter, just in case…

But my choice was heard, cause when I woke up in the morning, a few days later, my whole surrounding felt totally strange to me. At least I changed my incarnation while sleep-time, that´s been a goodie. But still not that funny, as I had lost all attachment and interest to the things that once have been mine. Loosing attachment sounds nice…it´s not in real. I can hardly describe what was going on with me. I doubted if I might have lost my mind. I was so unattached, that I could walk out of me door the very next minute and never wanting to look back, no thoughts and feelings about the old would arise. My birthchart has had lots of earth in it, so this was really weird for me.

The strangest thing was, that all was the same, but I am not. It is really like a new incarnation. Love is the only thing that remained. I will always love my daughter, no matter what body or incarnation or relationship we have. And I love cats and coffee and the starlight. And Love itself of course.

The real difficult thing was that people expected me to be the same, plus even if I had no real attachments, I still had tendencies for some behaviours, that I had to get rid off. That´s why dying is much easier, than staying in the body. When you die everyone accepts that you are not available. But when they see the same body, they´ll blame you for not being and behaving like you are supposed to – from their point of view. But of course, it doesn´t matter what someone expects, we are the ones who have to take ownership of our behaviours…no one else can be blamed for what is our responsibility. So I tried to look as normal as possible, while unbecoming what I am not.

Dying alive was a hell of a ride, while I am in total peace, holding hands and having a melt-in with all of me, loving all of me. Well and of course a million angels, incarnated or not, trying to assist me. Two of them I have chosen to cooperate with for a quantum healing space about abuse. That´s been done to the most beautiful Souls and we need them being themselves again. Whole and complete. Well today Therese offered me spontaneously to have a look, what´s still missing in my field. She´s an awesome healer. Well actually she´s been a midwife today. She´s been handed the last missing piece to be integrated again. My divine blueprint, the innocent baby child …the aspect, that´s still been missing. Dying, to be reborn. Hallelujah.

We have to be content within ourselves, becoming whole and complete again. No one can give that to us and no one can take it from us.

Since quite some days my Masterself showed me situations, where the split between the fe/male energies has been seen clearly, to shine the light of my consciousness there.

I saw how we become needy, a hole instead of whole. Or how we did compete instead of being complete. It happens everytime when we expect something from the outside or when we want to overtrump others.

Expectations/needyness is often expressed through the feminine energies and the competitive/fighting energies through the male energies. But all of us have both in us, what already holds the so(u)lution for this problem.

On monday morning my divine self told me to have a coffee in a nearby café and told me where to sit down, to relax and watch the scenery. What happened to be a fighting couple. An older man with a chinese woman as a mate. He told her he is going to have a Thai Massage and she was totally jealous at the woman he wanted to go to, to have this massage. It´s been interesting, as this guy was totally controlling this woman, told her even how to sit or eat. And she allowed that to happen, while being totally out of her mind and really agressive in all, her body, her voice, words and energy, cause she felt hurt and was afraid to loose this man. I watched it, remembering how a guy once played that jealousy trick on me, when nothing else has been working any more, to control me. Of course he was just trying to control his own inner feminine and I wanted to be valued by my inner male. He had also tried to suppress and control me, as a reflection of his feminine, that he feared. Well, and the woman in front of me that I watched while having my coffee? She started fighting, cause the mans behaviour gave her a feeling of unworthyness. No matter how much she tried to please him, she was not enough for him. She was fighting him, because she was fighting her inner selfworth-issues. Why did my masterself show this to me? Well to heal my past, while sending Love and Awareness towards this man and this woman, so for them a space for their so(u)lution opened. Cause, me sitting there having a coffee, opened a different timeline for that couple. My masterself told me, that the woman will end her relationship what will set both free… Many women will refuse their roles. Many men too, hopefully. I deeply honor those, that dare to bring in the change.

On tuesday my stonepeople arrived, as a gift from beloved Muriel Shickman. They introduced themselves as Mr. and Mrs. Stone. Mrs. Stone told me how she has once been made out of soft wood, but hardened over a long periode with the determined spearhead, Mr. Stone. And well, he told me how much he wanted to be embraced by her and admired for his sharpness and how he has over time lost the tip of his stony head, as it has been rounded by the hardened wood. Well I listened to them and then introduced them to their daughter Jade Stone-Owl, whom had already arrived at christmas. How astonished they had been, that a stone can be hard, piercing and round. How he can be shiny, beautiful and flying. Wise, easy and tough.

Today I have been at my office-job. My direct boss is a guy who has been in military and always remembered me at the crazy military guy in the film “Avatar”. He´s proud in never giving in, always having to be the best. Normally I get along with him quite well. Being respectful, but never devote. I learned much about sovereignity in that job. But of course that guy senses the tiniest bit of “weakness” in others. That´s the moment he´ll try to dominate you. I didn´t get much sleep lately and had a little op at my left foot, so he might have sensed vulnerablility. Today I wanted to leave early and while I prepared to leave, he entered my office and said “Here´s todays post. You´ll not leave, unless it is done.” Always good for jokes this guy. I took the letters, put them in my In-Box and said “I´ll go. I´ve got an aching foot and an appointment.” He answered: “Even more fun for someone who enjoys being sadistic.” I laughingly answered, that he´s free to have his fun and I´m going to have mine, too. Took my jacket and left. And that is exactly the reason, why he likes me somehow, although he hates it that he likes me.

The appointment I have had was with Julian La Erosius from Luxury Masters Academy, for recording a session of the Healing of the Heart series, he´s creating. It´s been absolutely amazing, cause Julian went far beyond the warrior male principle and powergames, but he can open his heart truly without loosing the masculine energy. That is still so seldom and so much needed. We went today in this session beyond the fe/male energy split into the integration of all that we are, to be living examples how to leave all old roles and powergames behind, how to truly love ourselves and others.

We have to be whole and content within ourselves. No one can give that to us or can take it from us. When we love ourselves, and also the other, we will never play games that are no fun, we will never hurt ourselves or corrupt ourselves. And when we are whole again, we´ll treat the other the same way. It´s as easy as that.

This is a recording of a free session I gave while still connected with the energies of the last Monthly Rose Touch on January 7th 2018.

Topics that came up while the session are: Honoring the gift, that we are bringing in with our incarnation, making connection with the divine feminine and masculine principle to melt them together inside of us. And then there’s been a bridge formed to bring in the divine Lovelight and entering the cells of your body. Talk to your cells, have a divine party inside of you. You´re the vessel of all these beautiful energies, uniting within you.

People are constantly under the influence of distractions. Their mind is held busy all day long. When we are not working, we care for a thousand obligations and as we are so stressed out, we use TV and Social Media to “relax” in our free time. Every single minute we are distracted and stay therefore away from all that has real meaning to us.

Often we don´t even know what has real meaning to us. What might that be? We can only find out, when we walk our own path, instead of following the distractions.

This goes for the individual as also for the collective. Why do distractions occur at all? To lead us astray. I´ve got to confess that I got a few times quite distracted in my life. So I really understand how something or someone can catch our attention.

In 2015 I have searched for advise for my Souls Path, as the message to follow my path as a healer has shown up again and again at that time. I spoke to Kahuna Kaleiiliahi about this important topic. She agreed that it is indeed my purpose to heal and teach others and that it has been the reason why I went through all of my experiences and hardships. And than she told me to be careful, as relationships, especially romantic ones, had been a huge distractor in my life, trying to hold me back. That I shall not allow a need for companionship or love to lead me astray from my own calling. It´s been a wise advise that helped me a lot along my journey.

What you give attention to, you feed energetically. I´ve got a lot of spiritual energy and the ability to focus. That´s why I´ve been really yumy for all energetic vampires. As I know this weakpoint now, they are never allowed very long in my field, as my energies are needed for my own journey, that will co-create with many on their path, instead of feeding a few.

I am sure this fits for many. Some get distracted by their relationships, others by media, their jobs, all kinds of unnecessary obligations and “important” demands. But take a closer look. Is it our life purpose to argue with others about the tweets and headlines of distractors? Attention is energy. That´s why we will see a lot of stuff in the media, trying to harvest humanities energies, while we fail at the same time to go for our real goales.

Please go for the real gold, not for the shiny glitter.

And don´t get me wrong. It´s not that “doing nothing” or just having fun on Facebook is wrong. You might find me watch the starlight for hours or I post pictures of puppies in my timeline. Sometimes being not productive is not a distraction, but gives space for healing or it is just for fun. Fun is always in tune with our souls mission. We are joyful, adventurous beings. What I mean with distractions is about “getting hooked in” and loosing us, about feeding the dying old earth energies instead of building the new, the one we came for.

Follow your own dreams. Even when we might have to purify them, they are still serving our own purpose. For example: I used to dream of writing a bestseller. Along my path I found out, that I just want to write, no matter the circumstances, as being a writer is my nature. The dream of success has been a distraction, as I wanted to prove my worth at that time. As I can stay now with my true self, I do not need distractions any longer. Cause that´s the reason behind allowing the distractions. Fear of being present with the own true being. Don´t.

I heard the term “Drama-Triangle” a few weeks ago in a Seminar at my working place. The lecturer brought the example of his mother in law, giving a call that she made a cake and will show up in half an hour with the cake (saviour). And how they, both him and his wife working, with 2 children, had an schedule totally filled and had to say “no, thank you”. With the result, that the mother in law first got totally upset and accusing (victimizer) and finally complained how she always tries to do them a favour and how it took her half the day to make that cake, that is now not valued (victim).

The same day a healer made me an offer. Something that I defo would need and only few places are available, but I can have one (saviour). I didn´t feel in any way I need his produkt and gave him a friendly no, wishing him all the best. (I sensed his pressure already as he needs the money, that´s been the reason why I made sure my no is an uplifting one. People often forget that I read energies). He than was not able to accept my no, telling me this would be just my fear and ego. (LOL?!). I still stayed patient, telling him it´s a bit absurd to tell me to know better than myself what I need. Oh my, that made him freak out totally! He went full circle or triangle, how unaware I am (victimizer), how outstanding his produkt is, that I wouldn´t value (victim) and how I had missed my great opportunity (saviour).

It´s just an example, as this was a timely coincident, but I decided to write about it, as I see this Drama-Triangle playing out so often. It´s a very destructive behaviour and people are totally unaware how they sabotage themselves and their goals. See, I never thought bad about that healer, my thoughts were positive, I never thought he might offer products that are not good. Just I have a 24/7 direct line to my higher aspects, they tell me what I need or not. I even felt compassion towards him, as I knew how it feels like to need money desperately. But that never made me manipulate or belittle others, no matter how difficult life became. See, you can not give out such an energy and expect to thrive in life. You just make things worse on the long run.

The reason why the Drama-Triangle isn´t working, but destructive:

You can not pump up your selfworth by belitteling others. And you are no victim, but in charge of your re-actions to life. And for sure you can not feel important by playing the saviour.

The whole Drama-Triangle is created by a low selfworth, what is most common on this planet. But it can only play out when you do not face your own feelings and when you still believe the big lie of “better or less than”.

What helps, no matter if you create the triangle or have to face someone who plays it out, is to bring in awareness. Observe what is just happening. If you have to deal with people, playing out that Drama-Triangle very often, you might remind yourself with hanging a picture of this triangle next to your phone or computer.

Your awareness will help you to not get dragged into the destructive game, but to stay present with yourself. So you do not have to take things personally. It has nothing to do with you, but it´s all about them and their projections. I might feel compassion towards them, but nevertheless I stay away from people that are fully engaged in this game. I give people the opportunity to become aware and to stop their behaviour, but if they do not want to take responsibility for themselves I stay away from them. For me that´s a matter of self-respect and self-care to not engage more than needed with toxic people. But in most cases you do not have to remove them, as they can not stand your presence, when you gain and emanate selfworth, and will stay away themselves. Of course they will tell everyone else what a horrible person you are, but well, the ones that believe them, they deserve them 😉