Oh no you don't. We are going to have tea at the castle, so no deal.Out with them and their kin. We are going to lay down by the fire in deep and soft velvet cushions, with robes embroidered with little crystal beads in the shape of stars, and tiny sleepers to keep our feet warm and Jacquie will have white tea and so would I and you can have whatever you want but no the interlopers. Absolutely not. No even open for discussion.Beside I invited Serenity, and Quiet and Harmony, and Rest and they would be horrified to find them there. So...off with their heads and lets get on with our tea.And that my love, is an order.

Pssst ... let's skidaddle out of the side door and go and play in the snow. This is one meeting we really do want to miss. So ... snowman building or full on snowball war? Your choice. But be warned ... I have a strong throwing arm!!!

Oh Renee if only we could eh? One day.

Today is a full rosary day ... you, Jacquie, Daisy, some others too. I hold you all in my heart as I pray. And I hold your hand too.

awww, sorry about the first conversation, but I love the baby bat! He is cute! They are only scary at 3 in the morning when they are full grown and have flown down the chimney into your bedroom and are flying around flipping out until hubby hits them with a tennis racket and gets them outside! Don't ask me how I know this!! three different times until we got a screen installed!! ;>)

Wow...that second photo is amazing. And I am SO with you on the first one. Ugh. Was horribly sick again last night. Getting my strength back again today in hopes to at least sit at the table and sketch.

Oh, Renee. Oh, oh, oh, those two photos just hurt my heart. That little baby bat looks like I used to after a day in the dungeon I used to work in....Sending you virtual hugs, love and joy.

It's 19 degrees here this a.m. and I thought of you the minute I woke up. I trudged outside and cracked the ice on the bird baths and put out bird seed. I'm so worried about the little Sparrows. I don't know why, because God promised to even take care of them:

"Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten in God's sight. But even the hairs of your head are all counted. Do not be afraid; you are of more value than many sparrows." (Luke 12:6-7)

I'm here and I'm lighting a candle and I'm going to PRAY! There's too, too many peeps at this meeting! Come here my dear Renee, come into my arms for a BIG HUG!!((((((Renee))))))I HOPE YOU can smell the sweetness of prayer from my little candle's BIG flame for YOU!and we will leave this meeting to go to HOPE, HEALING,LOVE, PRAYERS, HELP and FRIENDSHIP!!! meeting!!

Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding.Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.And could you keep your heart in wonder at the daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem less wondrous than your joy;And you would accept the seasons of your heart, even as you have always accepted the seasons that pass over your fields.And you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief.

Pain is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self.Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy in silence and tranquillity:For his hand, though heavy and hard, is guided by the tender hand of the Unseen,And the cup he brings, though it burn your lips, has been fashioned of the clay which the Potter has moistened with His own sacred tears."Love,Cat

O God who are the only source of health and healing, the Spirit of calm and the central peace of this universe, grant to me such a consciousness of Your indwelling and surrounding presence that I may permit You to give me health and strength and peace, through Jesus Christ our Lord.

Renee, I'm so sorry about this meeting going on. You are so brave, intelligent, funny and honest.

If I was God (the Sheriff), I'd say: "Wait - before you start that meeting, I'm calling Family, Friendship and tenderness. They are on their way to your house now, with Love, Humor and Good Meds (the Sheriff's Posse). That meeting is going to have to be held elsewhere, because there's a Sheriff's party coming to your house."

I love you my friend, and I pray that the darkness (and the bats) will be illuminated (and sent into hiding) by the light of Love. XOXO

Yep my Nanny is my grandma...I think way back when it started as nana and went to nanny...easy for lil ones to say fast lol..I am going to be a mema. I miss her, lost her when I was 13. Working the evening shift for the boss...Here at the pc till 12 am.

You know that you can always attend these meetings, listen to what they have to say and then smile at them and tell them, thank you very much for coming and that you appreciate their comments and thoughts but you will be just fine without them thank you. That doesn't mean you have to be all light and bubbles right away, it just means that you are AWARE that they are there, which means that you do not have to be tricked into joining them or their committee. Today sometime little lover, you will see Wahid look at you in a certain way, and in that moment be aware that i ducked into him for a second so that I could look at you for a moment and show you through Wahids eyes how much i love you.I adore you and i wish you exponentially increasing bat free moments.xxxmichelle

This popped into my head when I saw this post.Love and huge hugs my pretty!!

The Sound Of Silence (3:07) P. Simon, 1964 Hello darkness, my old friend I've come to talk with you again Because a vision softly creeping Left its seeds while I was sleeping And the vision that was planted in my brain Still remains Within the sound of silence

In restless dreams I walked alone Narrow streets of cobblestone 'Neath the halo of a street lamp I turn my collar to the cold and damp When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light That split the night And touched the sound of silence

And in the naked light I saw Ten thousand people maybe more People talking without speaking People hearing without listening People writing songs that voices never shared No one dared Disturb the sound of silence

"Fools," said I, "you do not know Silence like a cancer grows Hear my words that I might teach you Take my arms that I might reach you" But my words like silent raindrops fell And echoed in the wells of silence

"I've called this meeting to say you all have been acting up way too much lately and things must change. I've brought some New Life into this meeting to teach us a few things about Faith, Hope, Peace, Compassion, Love and let's not forget Joy. So fellows, take a back seat, the New Kid's in town and He's taking over! So sit back, listen and take lots of notes as Love has all the answers. OK New Life.... take it over from here... Don't forget, I'm always watching.... Oh yes and pain, soothing Peace is taking over for you, you've done more than your share, now go away so Peace and Contentment can take over now." Eternally Yours, With All My Love God

Good Night Dear Renee. May you dream of magical places where unicorns dance and rainbows fly. May the warmth of Light wash over you, cleansing you, healing you. May the Pure Energy of All Flow through you tonight washing away the bad and enhancing the good. May you wake refreshed with a New Resolve. May the bats leave and cancer crumble as the army of Light marches through you tonight. You are not alone my friend, you are forever Loved. Blessings to you and yours always. Love and Light, Nina

how awful ... you are smarter and stronger then anyone else at that meeting, you will find a way to deal with those bats and their little friends misery, loneliness, pain and frustration - tears can stay though because sometimes we need tears...xoxo

Dearest Lovee, I just read your comment on Sweet Mango's blog about your beloved Mommy. Such a faithful servant she has been. Surely God can look down upon her and grant her a blessed passing. I was thinking of St. Joseph and how The Lord blessed him with dying in the arms of Jesus and Mary, to spare him the suffering at the cross. "O, Blessed St. Joseph, you gave forth your last breath in the loving embrace of Jesus and Mary. When the seal of death shall close my life, come with Jesus and Mary to help me. Obtain for me this solace for that hour; to die with their holy arms around me."

Renee, I so wish I could take away some of the sorrow you and your family are going through right now. It is just too much all at once. I wish I owned my own hospital. I would force my lab technicians to work day and night just to diagnose your bats. And I'd fly in all the best doctors for you and Jacquie and your mother. If only.

I am feeling so sad right now for you with all the fucking crap you have to deal with.

No, I didn't know your mom was dying.I'm so sorry Renee. How old is your mom? What pain... Is she in pain? I hope she'll get to see Effie... She must be a beautiful woman to have such a beautiful loving daughter...

I've known you also for a very long time in my heart...Love to you ~Renee~

Soundless for sometimes it is what one requires to make sense of all the noise.I hope you had a brilliant week and I thank you for the encouraging comments you left on my blog. Warm regards and a lovely week to you.Sincerely,Simone.

Ohhh ... how you must feel. I am sorry to hear of your IBC. My mother is dealing with metastatic breast cancer, so - despite it being a different variety - we are well-versed in the ways of cancer and the toll it can take. I do not like it one bit. Hang in there and be well.

Butterfly and eskimo kisses for you Renee - the meeting is over for now n'est-ce pas? You have a lot of love and friendship waiting to greet and meet you. How do you manage to write comments of love and encouragement when things are rotten for you too?? Ah, but that is your secret! xxx

Renee,I have just added a new feature to my website - www.beingcancer.net - called Top Ten Commentators, a ranking of the people who commented on the blog. You made the list! The feature is in the left sidebar and contains a direct link to your site so you might see some extra traffic. I also did some other improvements that you can read about in “New Year’s New Face”. Thanks for helping to build a strong cancer blogging community.

My initial reaction on reading this post and seeing the little baby bat was heartbreak. Then anger and then hope.

Heartbreak at what you are going through with your own health and also with your sis and mom.

Anger at the overwhelming unfairness of it - just like the words of the participants in the meeting. "They" barge in with no regard to anyone. Barrel their way through, trying to flatten and subdue anything and everything in 'their' path.

Hope - the innocence and peacefulness of the little baby bat. He has escaped all the tangled tormenting of you and is now resting - hoping his brothers and sisters will join him (and thus, leave you alone).

Dear Renee,I did what Elizabeth did, and read your comment on Allegra's blog. I'm so terribly sorry. Just so sorry. I am sending you heaps of love, and I pray for comfort of every kind to fill your heart, mind and body. God bless you, dear friend! XOXO