--Update 02/19/13 I'm trying once again to rejoin the Spark community. As you can see from the paragraph below when I first joined Spark, it has a power unlike any other if you give it respect. I know this. I've never forgotten it, but I like many others am full of excuses. I want to be the old me. Well, not the old, old me pre-Sparkpeople. The one that learned, supported, and got fit! It's a journey that never ends. So let's go!!!!

Sparkpeople has changed my life. It has ...

--Update 02/19/13 I'm trying once again to rejoin the Spark community. As you can see from the paragraph below when I first joined Spark, it has a power unlike any other if you give it respect. I know this. I've never forgotten it, but I like many others am full of excuses. I want to be the old me. Well, not the old, old me pre-Sparkpeople. The one that learned, supported, and got fit! It's a journey that never ends. So let's go!!!!

Sparkpeople has changed my life. It has helped me get into shape and eat better. My journey is not over but I'm well on my way and my mindset has changed. Because I feel better, I'm improving many areas in my life that I have been procrastinating. I know that progress is made by tackling what you can when you can but the effort must always be exerted. Keep working at anything but be patient about it and anything is manageable!

My Goals:
Looking to lose and maintain new weight while learning to cook more healthy for my family

My Program:
Exercise and low carb dieting

Personal Information:
Married and mom of one active son and baby girl. I'm starting over on spark after my second child - literally as I'm back to my beginning weight when I joined Spark. I've got 20 to go to get to where I was before getting pregnant and 30 to goal! Let's go!!!

Life sucks sometimes! I'm trying to so hard to get back on track. I start out great for about a week or 2 then I get an invitation for dinner or someone brings in something yummy in the office and then I blow it or I get sick and eat whatever is easy. But I keep trying. Started back today. Ate really well so far. I miss you and our chats. You helped me so much as well. I'm getting close to 50 and I know it gets more and more difficult to take it off the older I get. Gonna try to stay motivated. SparkPeople helped me tremendously and I need to visit site more often. Take care. Hope everyone is doing well!

Thanks girl! I failed or quit or just kind of rode off into the sunset many many many times (which is why I left all my old blogs "I've got it this time" up) and I'm here to tell you YOU CAN DO IT if you just don't quit... I found the right combination for me that works perfectly for me... eating Paleo (no sugar or processed food, no grain - which my body responds to like sugar) and serious weight lifting.. basically I learned to get comfortable being uncomfortable via CrossFit and my life has changed. I still have about 20-30# ot lose but have been stable at my current weight for a year... so I'm fixen to do another big push to see what this 52 year old body can do... if I can do it, you can do it.. I swear.. the first 30 days was misery.. the next 30 days is hard, I'm not gonna lie, but after that it was honestly pretty darn easy.. but it takes dedication and CONSISTENCY not perfection.. YOU GOT THIS!!

Nikki, I thank you for starting this idea for me as far as making a new topic daily. It helps me stay on track. It does not take much time on the computer and even if I have a bad day the day before, it reminds me that everyday is a new day. It is just putting one foot in front of the other, trying to go in the right direction most of the time. If I didn't log into sparkpeople daily, I might spiral out there to somewhere I do not want to be. I want to be healthy and happy with my weight and fitness level.

Here I am again today. Come join me and tell me where you are. Thanks everybody!