Enriching my Odyssey

Sunday, June 19, 2016

Sometimes I don’t need big reasons to shed tears, just a
little pinch and I am unstoppable. As far as I remember myself, it has always
been that way, I could be hurt with a single word (not even a complete
sentence). As a kid I was always told that I was morose and I believed it to be
true until recently when I discovered ‘you are what you think you are’ and I
replaced ‘being morose’ with ‘being sensitive’.

I am not sure how many would get it, there are some people
with whom we get really comfortable, to the extent that the child in us could
dare to reveal itself! What if those people didn’t react to our childlike mannerism
and instead termed it childish. It would be like thrashing that child mentally;
which would eventually suppress his craving for being cosseted. Probably it was
always suppressed, even when this person was actually a child and so he always
felt being love deprived no matter how good several other things were.

So the probable solution is to train the mind to appreciate
the brighter side of life and smile at the dimmer side. Accept the fact that together
the two balance our world so they need to coexist. An even advanced level of maturity would be
to treat bright and dim alike and not being affected by either... to overcome
the duality of nature (we’ll leave this philosophy for some other post.)

Also people who get hurt soon become happy sooner (a broad
grin even from a stranger can lighten their day); fortunately sensitivity is
not a biased peculiarity!

Monday, June 6, 2016

Today evening, while waiting for my order at the café in office, I realised that I hadn’t turned on the internet on my phone all day. I decided to continue with it and for a change tried to feel what it is to be in the moment completely. Here, to watch the simple process of peeling off and cutting fruits, to be thankful to be able to eat unaware of the pocket but just calories (though it is more difficult for me).

‘In the present’ or ‘in the now’ …a feeling I had been missing since years for either I have been a slave to my past or anxious about the future. A lot of life slips us when we are not where we are but when we are aware everything is a moment worth living for!

This sense of awareness dawned onto me as I have health issues that I have been dragging for a year and that can’t be ignored any further. Since a week, I started chewing my food and what a delight it was or better than delight I could term it as wondrous! I missed almost half of my life without relishing each and every bite that I was blessed with. It was indeed an amazing experience to be fully aware and trust me I didn’t need any TV series to pass the time while eating because it could be intruding.

Another incident that connected the same dots in my mind happened yesterday. I was on a brisk walk chatting with my friend and a car stopped by our side to enquire about some address. I told them to take 2 right turns at both the next circles and just after they had left I realised that I had told them only 2/3rd address and missed the last left turn which they would have had asked hopefully. I felt bad as I could have stopped for 5 seconds and answered their question patiently which I missed amidst the ongoing discussion with my friend. I pondered over the fact, how every little effort (no matter how insignificant it might appear) if taken with utmost care/involvement could bring satisfaction/joy! Well, that’s the secret to life, “paying attention” isn’t it!!

P.S: Good habits take time to develop so I am back with my dinner + TV series recourse (giggles)!

Friday, November 20, 2015

As I always say discovering yourself is the most interesting and exciting thing in the world. After all, we feel everything inside us and when we know what can sparkle us we can try to find it :) !There is a saying 'Love heals', it definitely does. But, every healer has a recommended dose and unless you are given as much as you need, nothing helps! Recently, I had a brief encounter with an old acquaintance and it somehow clarified (and reminded), how much dose could put me back together.. The little gestures that could carry me away...That unspoken agreement where you don't need to say everything ! That warmth which comes from being safeguarded. The comfort that is created after being vulnerable and yet not being judged. That extraordinary care where little 'extra' makes the big difference. And not to forget the intelligence , none can deny its charm and the respect it breeds!

The best part of this experience was, it was devoid of any sweet words! Imagine the magic that could be created once words crawl in <3 !

P.S1: Some things I felt and some I made up ! Freedom of expression :P !P.S2: It took me to cloud 9 and then i started descending gradually because it was also a 'remembrance' about the terms and conditions that come attached to every happiness. Very few get the best of both worlds; lets dream you are among those few!

Sunday, July 26, 2015

It’s been really long since I posted anything. Ya posted not
wrote as I write almost always when I am flurried but writing something
positive needs a deliberate frame of mind and I had decided to start this year
with a positive note.

It
snapped onto me why not thank a friend from whom I learned a lot of things, so what if mostly over squabbles ;). We parted our ways because
we were never on the same page at the same time… I wanted to write so that
every time I remember a wound I could heal it up with a good memoir.

The first realization I had was that when we trust
someone we never feel bad at whatever they say... Even their jokes, their
taunts (People who don't get the sarcasm call it), we take everything in a positive stride because we know they care…
they’ll be there … I felt how trust is the beautiful bedrock of any relationship
and strengthens it…

L1: When you trust there should be no space for doubt!

Second confrontation just took me aback !! Why ? Till long I almost always tried
to understand people through their words.

OMG, not everyone thinks‘before speaking and after listening’ ! I unnecessarily troubled myself interpreting ‘what she meant’
and vain happiness that she would understand me after this discussion. How can I forget every
person is different and so needs to be taken care of differently.

L2: When people are chivying you for something they might be trying to
tell you that they are comfortable with you, don’t take it literally!

Third thing that I would want to mention is when a relation
isn’t working out (even after multiple mending) instead of breaking the thread
let it keep hanging with a knot. As the time passes the knot might dissolve and
you can always slide back on the thread without ego interfering in between…

L3: When you are badly hurt and want to break off just remind yourself
of the happy memories and STOP it with a smile… don’t frown!

Fourth and best experience that was absolutely new to me was: even two people can go to a gathering,
dance, party and have fun…. you don’t
always need a group… after all happiness lies within!!

L4: Believe!! You alone are capable enough to lighten up somebody’s day :) !

Another reminder got added to this list while writing this post! I unraveled the mystery behind what holds me from reconciling and troubles me... I need to learn 'to forget' , 'to forgive' is not enough..L5: In the picture :)

Sunday, October 19, 2014

I had heard that girls are delicate in their teens for they
are undergoing physical changes and they need to be handled with care… I am
sure I must have felt it too in my teens but then I was too naïve to name so
many feelings....

Lately, I think post 25 (near 30 is so heart-breaking even
to call) they are even more delicate … There are millions of reasons like if
they haven’t found their mates forget soul mates. They also undergo hormonal
changes and the fairy tales ending have stretched just too far and doesn’t seem
coming true. The charm starts loosening up & is definitely less in
comparison to fresh faces from college in their early twenties. The fear of not
finding the fellow who could cross the benchmarks already set by their own achievements
or care scores of past relationships. The loneliness when your friends are
celebrating their anniversaries … or birthday of their kids… Well, I can keep
counting such things… So let’s move to the other side of the fence…

The separated singles or the unhappy mingles… can’t believe
I have seen many of them too & then it’s easy to understand that ‘there is
no hunky dory world’ ….

Believe me I am not saying this just to pacify myself but
this is how it is... (There are very few who get the best of both worlds and while being single you can at least hope for it ! )

Esp. the ones who had to leave their jobs(girls) and get
settled in places with no work to do… all for their dear husbands and despite
of that they are not being treated like princesses , the treatment they are used
to or dreamed of against the bigger sacrifices they chose... Some have the
added misery of not very co-operative “in-laws”…. And yes, some of them see me
and alikes as independent women roaming on free will, exploring new places,
climbing corporate ladder, pursuing hobbies and wearing contemporary clothes….
well that’s what I want they should see me as :P ( without understanding my
share of misery )!

So the crux of the matter is ‘Life can always get
better/worse … If you are not happy with your current circumstances you won’t
ever be’!

Just try to save the receding hairline and then you can proudly say this :D