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Wednesday, January 01, 2014

The new year is here! I started out the year strong. I started out with running a 5k this morning. It was the last 5k that I had to run to complete the trilogy of holiday 5k's that I had committed to completing. These were set up as virtual events. (although my Thanksgiving 5k was an actual organized Turkey Trot).

Seriously, what was up with my head band.......

While I was running this morning I was actually thinking about riding my bike. Last year I rode my bike. I enjoyed it...but stayed to pretty much the same route. I pushed through the first (dare I say awful) few rides on my new bike. I got to the point where I was out riding. I rode and I'm not going to say that it was all easy....but I will say that I was out there. Yet I hesitated to leave my normal route. I hesitated to hit the open road. I struggled. Today I figured out exactly what was the problem? I was afraid. I was afraid that I would come upon a hill that I couldn't climb. I was afraid that I would get a flat tire. I was afraid that I would get too far from home and get so tired I couldn't make it home. Looking at it realistically (and of course it helped that I was far removed from either of my bicycles at the time) I am once again blown away at how irrational fear really is. So what if I can't climb a hill....I walk. No, I don't want to walk and I've pushed myself up hills, slow as molasses sometimes but I pushed myself up every hill I came across. If I get a flat tire....well that is rough. I know HOW to change a tire, but I have issues with changing them. (my brother did give me a lesson...but I still struggled to get that darn tire back on). But seriously, even if I get a flat....is it the end of the world if I have to call for a ride??? And even more unrealistic.....if I run out of steam....there are two options...calling fora ride but in all reality I'm pretty darn sure that I would find a store of energy deep within myself. Once again it turns out my fears are totally irrational. So what do I do with this knowledge?? The first chance I get (once I get my legs back under me on my bike) when the weather gets warm....I head down a road that I don't know and I RIDE!

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I am pretty laid back. I am newly single and the fallout of that change in my life sometimes seems to overwhelm me. However, I will admit, stretching out with the whole bed to myself is fantastic. I am determined to get my weight back in check once and for-all as I learn to navigate this single thing. I am filling some of my free time with some various activities.....running, piano and remodeling and refurbishing a dollhouse. My life is wide open before me....the pages are blank. It's up to me to decide how it's going to look!