Snake Skin & Fear of Rejection

Happy Friday loves! How has your week been? Much better than mine I hope. My am I glad that the sun has been showing us it’s beautiful face a lot more lately! 🙂

When I was in primary school, part of our playing field used to have snakes. When the snakes were shedding off their skin, they hid for days, sometimes even weeks. And if you were to walk around that area soon after they were done shedding, you would see the remains of the skin that they shed off. The remains would normally resemble the length and shape of the snake and If you looked closely, you would be able to tell the color of the snake that left behind the old layer of it’s own skin.

Our theme at church this month is mental health. And one of the things we will be doing is identifying our recurring issues, insecurities and revealing their root causes. This put me in a space where I became inspired to shed certain layers of myself. Layers that I tend to think are normal but have affected me over time and influenced how I live my life. Layers that may be painful to shed but will reveal a much better me.

One of my recurring issues is that I make certain decisions based on my fear of rejection. I remember this one time when I answered a questions templates on Instagram when they were quite popular and it asked if I had ever been dumped. If you guessed that my answer was no, you guessed right! I had not realized that I had answered yes to all the questions save for that one until one of my followers pointed it out. Interestingly, I often left relationships due to the fear of rejection, only to find myself running into the arms of people who would reject one part of me or another. Some said I was too much, others said I deserved better, while others simply said “it’s not you, it’s me”. Since you can’t heal what you do not reveal, I am learning to be honest with myself and question why I am drawn to certain people and characters. I am learning to work on these parts of me that fear rejection and to be very unyielding about who I choose to give my time to. I am learning to shed this fear off my skin. And I am unlearning the habit of jumping from the frying pan and into the fire. What are some of your recurring issues and what are you looking to shed off?

I will be doing a live video on Instagram on Sunday morning at 9:00 am EAT. Do tune in if you can and feel free to send in any questions or any topics you would like me to talk about. Wishing you an amazing and wine-filled weekend! 🙂