PostSecret is a weekly blog featuring homemade postcards portraying people’s secrets. The postcards are mailed anonymously, and the secrets range from cute and funny to pathetic and heartbreaking. I stumbled across PostSecret in 2005 and became hopelessly addicted. To commemorate my six-year anniversary of PostSecret addiction and because some secrets are too awesome, crazy, or stupid to be forgotten, I am going to pick my favorite secret from the blog each Sunday and share my thoughts on it.

There’s a fancy clinical name for fear of eternity, and it’s called apeirophobia, which also encompasses fear of infinity and endlessness in general. I became slightly apeirophobic at age 5 when my mother, who believed in the Bible, told me that if I did something terrible on Earth, I would go to Hell, where I would suffer horrendous physical pain and sadness for eternity with no possibility of parole. I grew out of my phobia for the most part when I stopped believing in God at the embarrassingly late age of 10 and completely forgot about it the following year when the vast, scary concept of infinity became denoted by a cute, small sideways 8 in my math book. So clearly, the best way to get over a phobia is to study math and ignore your mother.