Being alive meant I had to confront the terror of the past! Breathing meant I had to confront the terror of the past! Waking up to a normal life meant looking around at all that I did not have or have control over! Things are changing! Im choosing to address and face terrors of my past! Face them and walk right through them back into a life! . Im learning how to rebuild and rethink a life! . Im learning how to take negative and bi pass it recreating a new positive story over the top! . Im learning that positive thought become cool things! . Im learning that I have a gap between where Im at now and where I want to be and their is a pathway; 50 pathways to my goals or desires! However, I work with God while traveling down those pathways in order to have hope! .I always quit; that make me a victim! Im not longer doing that!