Idk who needs to hear this but...if you’re thinking about giving up, remember in 2 years you could be marrying someone you haven’t met yet. In 2 years you could have a job at a company you haven’t heard of that makes you happy. In 2 years you could be on your way to buying a home you never thought you could afford. In 2 seconds could be happy again. In 20 years you could be watching your kids growing up. But you’ll never know unless you get there. If you want to give up don’t. Take a nap. Gather yourself and remember it’s a bad time not a bad life, you’ll get through this.

Beautiful girl, when you are finished falling, after you hit rock bottom and watch yourself come apart into a million pieces, no one is staying to help you collect yourself, no one is sticking around to pick through your pieces to decide which parts of you are worth keeping. That’s for you to decide. So stay down for as long as you need to. This is the most important part. Take your time. Pay attention. You already broke. So the easy part is over. Go slow.... I know, you thought the breaking was the most painful chapter. It wasn’t. Turn the page. The next part is much longer. It’s the healing. The rise. The comeback. It’s the birth of the new you. And it’s not easy. But you are strong and brave and worth it. You’ll have to leave a lot of yourself behind, you’ll have to let go of all the parts of you that you’ve outgrown. We’re not making ourselves small anymore. We’re not bending to fit where we don’t belong anymore. Do you hear me? We’re going all in. Count your wounds, every scar ripped open, every drop of blood you bled like a promise, every tear you cried like a bet in the name of crossing your whole heart, your whole soul, was all for this moment. Right here. Right now. You had to hurt like that to get here to this version of you who knows exactly who she is, who she’s not, who she will never be again. Drop the apologies, babe. We’re not sorry anymore for who we are, we’re not sorry for what we had to do to get here, and we’re not sorry for the time it took to learn our worth. Step out of the box of all you were supposed to be, according to everyone who wasn’t you, and walk into the you, who’s comfortable in her own skin. It’s time. You earned it. We no longer wear the expectations of anyone else and we no longer let anyone else decide what we’re worth. Because we know now. We finally know. And now it’s time to celebrate it. Get up, babe. It does not hurt anymore. Now go show YOU what you’re made of.

What Would Your Life Be Like With No Regrets? Let me ask you, if your life ended tomorrow what would you regret not doing? What would you regret not saying? We all have things we wish we would have done at some point in our life. We all have wished to be something more. To have done something more. And that’s the problem, we wish. We wish for the things that never came easy to us. We wish for life to have handed us the things we longed for. We wish and never receive because we are not proactive. We do not put in enough effort to make our desires a reality. A beautiful life does not come with no cost. A meaningful life does not come with no pain. Your life is designed and built with all you have endured. It is built with your accomplishments, with your failures, and with your fears. Your life is the outcome of your willingness to meet vulnerability with dedication. Your life is the sum of the experiences you let yourself experience. If tomorrow was the end, the things you are going to regret are the things that you never let yourself do. The things you are going to regret are the words you never let yourself say. The things you are going to regret are going to be the places you never let yourself go to. You will regret not allowing yourself to be worthy of living the life you have always pictured. You will regret not seizing every opportunity life threw at you. You will regret living with regrets. So, when tomorrow comes, start everything you have said you would have started and make a plan to conquer every evil that resides in your head, because you are the single biggest influence in your life, and whether you flounder or flourish is in your hands.

She is holding on, but barely. Gripping whatever she can to keep it together for another day. She doesn't think about next week or next month, just today. That's what she tells herself. That's how she's gone this long. Just keep it together, Today.

A rose petaled bath in Paris, a view of the Eiffel Tower against the sky through the window, classical music softly playing from another room. A long shimmering white robe, moonlight, and internal peace.

i just had a dream, it was graduation, and we all graduated and we were all saying bye, and me and quincy were gonna go out to celebrate and a few other friends, including robert i guess in my dream me and him were good friends again and when i saw him after graduation we hugged and he whispered in my ear that he never stopped loving me and handed me a gift then quicy came up and said its from both of us it was a small wodden case, and there was a key but then quicy and rob said dont open it yet so i said okay, then after graduation we all randomly ended up in a water park and were all in bathing suits and i couldnt find quincy or robert, all i saw was a bunch of kids, and i helped a few because they were to small to swim on their own and then i realized after i got out that i didnt have the box anymore so i went to look for rob and quicy n i couldnt find either of them, so i looked everywhere for them and the box and so then i randomly ended up on top of some stadium looking thing and i was wearing a dress and i guess these people that i knew told me to go up with two other people and so we did and it had something to do with valuing your body image so after we got off i asked the girls if they have seen quincy or rob because ive been calling rob and quincy non stop and when they said no i just looked at my phone and saw a picture of me and rob hugging then kept looking at other ones of me and rob n me and quincy and so then the one girl marissa goes hey whats this, it was the box, so i grabbed the key from off the box and opened it, there was a pictures of me and quincy all around it but therr was also a mini box within it and another key with a tube of liqued so i tried to stick the key in the mini box but it didnt work so marissa suggested to dip the key into the tube of liqued so i did and then tried to open the mini box again and it works, and it was a necklace that looked just like the one he had gotten me for valintines back in 9th grade, and there was a little not as well in the box saying when i opened it to not put it on but to talk to him first so i locked everything back up and went to look for them then i ended back up to realsing from the hug from rob and him telling me to open it so i did and rob grabs the necklace and puts it on me, he apologized for what happened two years ago in 9th and 10th grade and thanked me for giving him another chance to be my friend and that he never stopped loving me and he wanted to fix his wrong to show how much he wanted me back and that not having me made him realize how much he was hut without me there, i smile while looking at him then me, him, quincy, and a few other people hop in this car, quincy was driving a friend was with quincy in the passangers seat, then two friends in the back seat then me and rob in the back back seat, so he looks at me and i look back and say what n laugh and he says if he could redo his wrong and have been with me and he was so sorry but i told him that it was okay and it was the past and then me and rob randomly popped up in a living room and we were watching a movie and he put his around me and i snuggled in bc we were close friends n i thought of it as a friendly thing then we finished the movie and he looks into my eyes and i do the same with him and all he says again is "i never stopped loving you" then i smiled and said "i tried to but it was to damn hard" then we kiss but not a normal kiss, like such a passion filled kiss and we were both happy, then we ended up back in the car just looking at eachother and we reached our destination as me and rob walked in it ended up being me and him at washinton just walking around and he says i cant even remeber going out with you, it was a waist of time, you messed up everything as always, so glade your gone, then all i saw was my face in tears but smiling and laughing....i woke up crying.

One thing I absoluetly love and adore about myself is, no matter how bad i've been treated, no matter how i'm feeling, no matter what i've been through or what i'm going through, I still have a heart of gold and endless love to give. That's one thing no one can ever take from me.

It's the same game today as it always is I don't give these places fake my name explaining this And the wrists of my mind have the bleeding lines That remind me of all the times I have committed Dirty dirty crimes that are perfectly form-fitted To what I've done and what I'm doing I'm brewing and losing and spewing infusing And believe me that's what all the kids are doing What kids are doing are killing themselves They feel they have no control of their prisoner's cell And if you're one of them then you're one of me And you would do almost anything just to feel free Am I right, of course I am Convince me otherwise would take all night Before you walk away, there's one more thing I want to say Our brains are sick but that's okay