Thank you, I need all the resources I can to understand. I am getting really disheartened.

Please don't get disheartened, if you ask we can help you understand. I know all the different services seem arbitrary in how they fit together, and how they are arranged internally. At first it's hard to follow and easily becomes boring because it just seems like random prayers coming at you during a really long service. But once you get more of a feel for the structure, things start making a lot more sense, and are even less boring because you see the point of how it fits together. If we can help with that just let us know what parts are most frustrating and I'm sure a little explanation will help. It might not seem like it immediately, but it would help it become natural more quickly.