It’s a slow process on how we learn to stand back on our own two feet sometimes.
The weather these few days feels alot more forgiving than it use to be.

I’m glad that i have my “WALL” of friends sometimes. you guys just crack me up sometimes.

These days pass me by
I dream with open eyes
Nightmares haunt my days
Visions blur my nights
I’m loosing ground and gaining speed
I’ve lost myself or most of me
I’m headed for the final precipice

But you haven’t lost me yet
You haven’t lost me yet
I’ll sing until my heart caves in

No you haven’t lost me yet
If it doesn’t break
If it doesn’t break
If it doesn’t break your heart is it love?
No, if it doesn’t break your heart it’s not enough
It’s when you’re breaking down with your insides coming out
That’s when you find out what your heart is made up of

Rated 93% on rotten tomatoes.
Despite the set being on a snowy ice-cy month of february.

Still has that sunshine kinda feeling to it.
a small background on what this movie is about:

Joel Barish(Jim Carrey), heartbroken that his girlfriend Clementine(Kate Winslet) underwent a procedure to erase him from her memory, decides to do the same. However, as he watches his memories of her fade away, he realizes that he still loves her, and may be too late to correct his mistake. as Joel’s memories progressively disappear, he begins to rediscover their earlier passion.

Most of the movie takes place in joel’s mind.
on how he decided he could not bear the thought of having clementine being complete erased from his memories, runs. but in the end having to just succumb it all.

Amazing ending i’d say. catch the movie!

i guess in every good thing, there is always some bad times. Bad times compliments the Good things in what we do, what we see.
you can’t really appreciate something till is gone, out of your hands.

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been doing alot of writing lately.
in the car, waiting in the car, bus stop, during lunches, in between breaks.

had a chance to take a bus back the other day. sat next to a girl, who looked like she was about to break into tears..

“I wished you smile more.. who stole the fire in your eyes? I guess she lost something as well.
you and i both, we lost it. we lost it. we really lost it, now didn’t we?”

a total stranger, what could i do?

Wrote a note.
Just before i left the bus, the note landed in her hands.

Joel: [in the house on the beach] I really should go! I’ve gotta catch my ride.Clementine: So go.Joel: I did. I thought maybe you were a nut… but you were exciting.Clementine: I wish you had stayed.Joel: I wish I had stayed to. NOW I wish I had stayed. I wish I had done a lot of things. I wish I had… I wish I had stayed. I do.Clementine: Well I came back downstairs and you were gone!Joel: I walked out, I walked out the door!Clementine: Why?Joel: I don’t know. I felt like I was a scared little kid, I was like… it was above my head, I don’t know.Clementine: You were scared?Joel: Yeah. I thought you knew that about me. I ran back to the bonfire, trying to outrun my humiliation.Clementine: Was it something I said?Joel: Yeah, you said “so go.” With such disdain, you know?Clementine: Oh, I’m sorry.Joel: It’s okay.
[Walking Out]Clementine: Joely? What if you stayed this time?Joel: I walked out the door. There’s no memory left.Clementine: Come back and make up a good-bye at least. Let’s pretend we had one.
[Joel comes back]Clementine: Bye Joel.Joel: I love you…Clementine: Meet me… in Montauk…