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At the suggestion of Doug02122014 after creating a blog post about a quote that we are throwing around for my love's headstone, I decided to start this discussion. What was on your departed love's…Continue

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ShelisJenkins (TiffanyLynn)'s Blog

Today is my 30th birthday. Ive cried off and on for the last week thinking about today. I do not want to face today. I do not want to be starting the next decade of my life without him. I got to celebrate his 40th birthday with him, why didn't he get to celebrate my 30th birthday with me. Of course I am happy we got to celebrate my 29th birthday together. It is a memory I will cling onto, but I cant help but feel like all of this shit is unfair.

In Blaine's 20's he had a child, he and his girlfriend gave their son up for adoption. When his son would have been turning 18, Blaine decided to get clean and start a new life. He hoped that his son would come looking for him. The day of Blaine's funeral my SOOL and I found Blaine's son on FB...

A few months ago my MOOL for up the nerve to call him. Spencer was sobbing he was so excited that he was found by his father's family. My MOOL did not tell him that…

in 9 days it will be 6 months since my beautiful man was killed. It is hard to believe that much time has passed already.

This weekend his parents and I went to install his headstone. On Saturday (which would have been a special anniversary for us, if he had survived) we went out to the cemetery to talk to the grounds keeper and make sure what we were doing was ok. There was a rather chatty older gentleman who was there (it was decoration day, so they were having…

This week has been rough, it is not an anniversary of anything, or a sadiversary since his death, but a few things this week have triggered me to finally recognize that this HAS happened and he is NOT coming home.

Sunday a friend of mine, who had never been out to where we lived, came out to pick me up. She walked inside our room and saw the hodgepodge of Blaine's stuff and my stuff mixed together. She looked down at a shoe rack under the desk and said "are all of…

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When I was in high school my aunt had a single vehicle accident 1-mile from our house and passed either before the accident from medical reasons or passed upon impact with bottom of a drainage ditch. When I heard the sirens going by house I jumped up and said to my dad we got to go to this one ! Why ? I have no clue.

I was a high school junior and dad was on his factories fire dept. Neither of us a member of our volunteer dept.

We rolled up to the scene got out & started up to the crash site in the dark when one of the fireman recognized us & wouldn't let us go up there. He told us who it was and that it was really bad.

Just this week I had to recount this event in my P.T.S.D. counseling. It was in the early 1980's when this wreck happened and now typing this in I'm raining tears for the second time this week just like the wreck happened yesterday.

I am this upset over my aunt and cannot begin to understand what you are going through.

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