I formed the illusion that my great grandmother is separate from me – in my mind. I am doing self-forgiveness for perceiving myself separate from her -as i identify as the ego-personality. This Blog is me directing myself within my perceived separation with my great grandmother – my beliefs, judgments etc. The self-forgiveness releases me from the perceived separation that exist between me and my grandmother and the relationship that i formed from that starting point.

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I am made of the same substance my great grandmother is made of. I am that which is equal to all that exist.

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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from Nanay Ibing

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a memory of Nanay Ibing as my great grandmother

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be self-dishonest and not ask permission from my great grandmother when i take food from her store.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as more than my great grandmother and my great grandmother as less than me – believing that she loves me and because of that love – i can be dishonest – defining myself within love and hate.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define love within a sweet called “Bukayo”.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bettle nut to the word red

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the bettle nut as less than other plants as they are being chewed by older people – and within this, judge old people as less than me and young people as more than me – and so judge me as less than myself – as i am 53 yrs old – and judge younger ones, those less than my age – as more than myself .

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge a house made of bamboo built above the ground – with the wind passing through- as more than myself and houses made of concrete as less than myself .

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect a house made of bamboo with love

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a memory of staying in Nanay Ibing’s bamboo house

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel loved when i am in a bamboo house

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel comfortable when i am in a bamboo house

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a memory of what i experienced in the store of my great grandmother – existing within an experience – as i identify as the ego-personality

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire the hard texture of the red cookie called “gorgoria” – as it entertains me – as i identify as the ego-personality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a memory of my great grandmother

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a memory of me in a relationship with my great grandmother

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within an experience of me feeling loved by my great grandmother

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my relationship with my great grandmother is real

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a memory of eating the red cookie called gorgoria and liking the sweet taste of it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the the dress she wears, called a “duster” to dress worn by old people – and within that judge the duster as less than myself and the clothes worn by younger people as more than myself – where i judge myself as more than myself when i wear jeans – which i connected to young people’s wear – and judge myself as less than myself when i wear a “duster” – as i identify as the ego defined by beliefs, judgments etc.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within a memory of my relationship with my great grandmother – as i identify as the ego-personality

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within an experience of me in a relationship with my great grandmother – as i identify as the ego-personality.