this should be a confession, but i feel so bad for you, he does not deserve to have you honey, its hard to move on from a break up but try to do things that make you forget about him, it may help you get over it, the only thing he deserves is a b.i.t.c.h slap, he may be laughing right now but one day he will regret hurting you and will only then know the pain and sorrow you're going thru at the moment.