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Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Looking forward to 2014

December was an okay month; I've done my nails twice since the last (and first) time I posted, but I just didn't feel like taking pix or blogging about it. In hindsight, I really should have because now it looks like I only ever use hot pink nail polish!!! (I'll be sure to use something different next time.) But I've been kinda bad with the picking, especially on my thumbs which always take the brunt of it anyway, so I sort of wasn't in the mood. And as usual it's caused some fights, arguments, whatever you want to call it, with the husband. I'm not sure exactly why it's been a bad month... I think part of the reason is that I'm one of those people that get a case of the holiday blues. But also I think it's because we just don't really have an effective way of dealing with it together as a couple. I pick, he comments, I get mad and frustrated, I continue to pick, he gets angry... it's just a nasty cycle. I'm not going to say that my New Year's resolution is to stop picking because 1) I don't believe in New Year's resolutions, and 2) I don't want to set myself up for failure like that by saying that I'm going to stop altogether. But hopefully we can work on some way to at least deal with it a little better, together.

So anyway, for today's mani I used a bottle of Rimmel Lycra Wear 10 in 292 Magenta, and on my left ring finger I put some 1/64" silver striping tape. I've never used the striping tape before but I definitely like it. For those of us who don't have a super steady hand, it's way easier to use the tape then to try and draw a straight line! Of course I still managed to put the tape on a little crooked but it's not really that bad. It's just the OCD part of me that notices :) Enjoy the pix below. I made sure to include one of my thumb this time, with a little evidence of my mistreatment of it. It doesn't really look that bad because my hands are freshly lotioned and my cuticles are soaking up some nice Borghese cuticle oil, but you can definitely see a little red cut from when I picked too much, and I think you can tell that the skin around my thumbnail is messed up. It's permanently red because it's just a bunch of scar tissue, and it's always rough to the touch. Or maybe I'm kidding myself; maybe "normal" people would look at that picture and think "Ew, what's wrong with her thumb?" I don't know... my hands haven't looked "normal" in so long I probably think they look good when other people would think they look gross. And unfortunately I've done so much damage to them that even if I did stop altogether they'd never look normal again. But although I definitely regret that a great deal, I think I've (sort of) accepted it, and I'm trying not to let the fact that my hands will always look messed up be an excuse to just keep on picking. So another think that I am hopeful for in 2014 is that I continue to get better.

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My profile picture is of me on the happiest day of my life - the day I got married to my wonderful husband.
I was pretty proud of how beautiful I looked that day, my hands included! You see, my hands haven't always looked too good (and even these days there are times when they don't) because I am a compulsive skin picker. But I am getting better, and my adventures and obsessions with polish are helping me along! :)