I'm so sorry to read this. It doesn't seem fair at all to me. I agree totally with AkasaWolfSong, keep faith in yourself and the life process.

I want to offer advice so much ... but feel it's presumptuous to pretend I know the answers for your own life problems. I think you just have to stay grounded and walk the fine line between *accepting* and *action*.

You have to accept the present, so as it doesn't pull you down. But at the same time, you have to keep trying to take postive action to do what you can to make things better. I wouldn't ever want to pretend that's easy. It's not; it's really hard. Keep believing in yourself.

There so many people in similar situations. I hope you can network with them, and together maybe you can help each other.

The Almighty Heidi

Starbucks junkie,vanilla latte' holic. Obsessive pen chewing,compulsive hair color-er, and chap stick addict. My older brother Mark is my superhero, so I called him Captain Markle, and I became his side kick, the "Almighty Heidi". (Thus the name) This is where let it all out...whatever "it" is.