So among this chaotic year I gained 16 pounds and I felt like the ugliest thing in the world. School just wouldn't stop stressing me, the dogs were driving me nuts, and I severely missed Angelica when she worked offshore. But this past month and a half I started working out everyday for 45-60 minutes then swimming right after along with eating healthy. I've lost a total of 13 pounds and have the body I so badly missed!! :.) I have one of those fitness pals and lord does it put the amount of food I eat in perspective.

So when Angelica comes home today I'm gonna surprise her so bad :D gah I'm so proud of myself I haven't felt this good since my senior year of high school.

Everyday Workout Includes:
Running 1 mile on treadmill
Eliptical for 1 mile with and average of 8 resistance
Bicycling for 1 mile with a 10 resistance
Weight lifting for 4 sets of 10 each
Knee weight lifting 30 pounds for 2 sets of 10 each
Ab workout by lifting leg to hip level for 1 set.
Swimming an hour

I'm so tired. . . I hate sounding whiny, but everyday is so exhausting, that I feel like I'm aging. I look in the mirror and see this ugly person who still hasn't gotten a degree, can't please my girlfriend in the right ways, and struggles that I have to spend 90% of my free time working at the hospital for no money. I think it'd just be so easy sleeping and never waking up but life isn't that gracious.

I feel mentally broken, I wish I could forget many things. I wish the other students didnt cheat so I wouldn't look like the only one who fails a comp. they have so many undocumented ones.

And I don't even know if I like radiography. I just want to see people happy- so my favorite thing to do is give patients warm blankets. Maybe that's the customer satisfaction side of me from dominos '_' I got cussed out the other day from a patient, and just eugh it's frustrating. It's one thing to forget their marinara sauce- completely another to move them in a position that hurts them. I do love reading the radiographs right after. I adore knowing every aspect of the bones. I can feel my shoulder and know what each bump is. That little bump under the acromial end of the clavicle medial to the humeral head? The coracoid process of the scapula. My favorite thing to look for on patients for a shoulder view. :D

But I need this job so I can save up for a baby. To have my girlfriends baby would make me the happiest person, and to provide for them without her working offshore would be amazing. To get this degree- I'd cry because I've shed so many tears and hardships already.

I'm so sorry I hardly have time for art. My anime evolution mascot entry made executives choice, so I'm happy about that, but I don't think ill even get to go cause clinicals. I won an art table so I hope that can still go to someone else :C and the gold pass. If anyone going to there is interested hit me up and ill send the pass to ya.

So ready for my two week vacation coming up |D~ spending it on making my lady happy!

So since the hospitals don't want us to post which ones we are going to I shan't :< BUT I will say I got assigned to the pediatric section. I am even MORE nervous than before. I am going to try so hard to be the best rad tech, I hope I make the experience an enjoyable one for any kids. :.> TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY! OORAHHHH. I START TUESDAYYYYYYY. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHH. I have a feeling they did this because of my voice and how friendly it apparently sounds like according to the program peeps :.D

So I officially finished my first semester of being in the Radiography Program. All I can say was it was the most stressful thing I've ever done, but it was worth it! I now have a little family, because of this program and we all have each other's backs. I've never been in a group like this before but it's nice c:~ We have had times where we cried on each others shoulders and brace ourselves for the next challenge in the program. I love our departments teachers as well :D

BUt I get to start actually working working in the hospitals soon *_* I'm SOoooo nervous... Dx I only pray I take care of every patient that comes in my room. For the summer ill only be taking X-rays of the chest, upper extremities, and the abdomen. >n<

So I've been getting back into the groove of art with much more enthusiasm than ever! I'm going to try posting an update for my new comic everyday til my girlfriend gets back on January 1. Gotta get as much done before my lady and the start up of college!! :D so please excuse me for if I keep posting too much ;m;