Live and Learn

I went to the store to buy toiletries last week. I bought lotion and cotton. As I was lining up to pay, a child who was lining up behind me had touched the keychain display. The display case crashed to the floor. The mother who was lining up behind me, immediately spanked the young boy. She hit him on his back.

She reprimanded him, ” You’re so clumsy. Look what you’ve done!” She looked so mad.

The young boy looked like he was about to cry. But he just crouched near his nanny. The child tried to pick up the keychains that were scattered on the floor. The boy’s nanny helped pick up the keychains.

The mother got so angry and she got impatient. She then said, ” This line is taking so long. Let’s just leave and buy things at another store!” They then left the store in a hurry. The mother dragged the young boy with him.

I felt so sad for the young boy. I know how it feels to be clumsy. I was once a clumsy child myself. I don’t understand why adults expect children to act like adults. Don’t they remember being a child? I still remember the emotions that I had when I was a child. I haven’t forgotten how it feels to be small, clumsy and scared. The world is so big. When you’re a child, you’re afraid of getting lost. You’re afraid of being scolded by adults. When you’re a child, the world is a very scary place .

Adults were once children too. How can they ever forget how it feels to be one? How can you forget a part of yourself?

I guess I was fortunate in being unfortunate. My parents were absentee parents.They were never there for me when I was growing up. They were always so busy tending to their own business. They never really had time for me. I grew up under the care of a nanny.

I’m fortunate because I know that I won’t ever treat my children the same way. I won’t be an absentee mother. I will be this cool Mom. I’ll play with my kids. I’ll allow them to be just kids. I don’t ever want my children to grow up unhappy or sad like me. I want them to grow up happy and well-adjusted. And I don’t care if they want to end up being a band drummer or a piano teacher. I don’t care what kind of careers they are going to have. I just want them to be happy.

My parents are so controling. I’m in my late twenties and I’ve only been recently allowed to go out by myself. They call me the non-conformist and the rebel. I call myself being human.

I think it’s unhealthy that at twenty-nine years old, I have only started to learn how to drink and how to party. I was never like that before. I was always so prim and proper. But nothing happened to my life.

One day it just hit me. I’m nearing thirty and nothing has ever happened to me. Nothing exciting and nothing wonderful. Then I realized that I was the only one who made my life boring and unexciting. There are so many things that I can do with my life and yet I’m not doing anything. And just when I thought I needed a change, I discovered Buddhism.

It’s so strange. I think I’m a walking contradiction. I’m trying to be an ideal Buddhist and yet, I’m trying to make my life much more exciting. I’m an anti-boring Buddhist. I’m a very modern Buddhist.

Happiness isn’t about being irresponsible or being carefree. It’s about being happy with what you have right now. And what I have right now is my youth and my vigor. My life is filled with so many wonderful possibilities.

I already know what kind of family I’m going to have. I’m going to have a loving family. I already know what kind of kids I’m going to raise. I’m going to raise happy kids.

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