UPSIDEdown

12Jul08

I literally feel as if I’m on an emotional roller-coaster ride. I’ve never felt this way before. NEVARR. It’s surreal…it’s mind-boggling…
This is…
THIS IS MADNESS!

Lemme explain,
One day I’m beyond otimistic/hopeful/happy/on cloud nine for [undisclosed] reasons and then BA-AAAAMMM! Completely crushed and hopeless the next day because of ONE tiny [undisclosed] reason that I have NO friken REASON to be worrying about in the FIRST damn PLACE!
(DON’T mind THE RANDOM words PUT in CAPS for NO apperant EMPHASIS!)

Have I ever mentioned that I have this certainty inside me that tells me I’d die if ever I went on a roller coaster that twirls and flips upside-down? I truly believe, dunno why though, that I WILL DIE IF EVER I RIDE A HUGE COASTER.
:/
I know it’s pretty wtf. But I’m positive my heart couldn’t take it.
And “bee tee double-u”, this isn’t some metaphor based on my current roller-coaster of a life. Na-non, I’m just saying, roller coasters would prolly kill me :/
Random but true.
I mean, REALLY, dad said I looked dead when I went on like one of the wooden rides at canada’s wonderland. D: and those badboys don’t even do flippy’s and stuff.

WOW OKAY. All this to say that yeah I’m feealing really weird lately. And I’ve realized that I over-analyze situations and shit WA-AYYY too much.