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Month: February 2016

Okay, if you are a person that cries this story about me finding Jesus is the one to read here (laughing). But in all seriousness I posted a Instagram photo yesterday saying how I love Jesus and my flaws. So I thought that’s just a glimpse of I what I wanted to say. Why not tell my story on how I found Jesus and discuss the person I was before and right now.

I’ve always believed in God and I knew he loved me. Would always go to church and youth group just because I felt I had to at the time.

I grew up in Lansing, Michigan. My family and I moved to Cincinnati in 1997. My loving Dad passed away when I was two because of heart problems. My mother has been the best role model ever in my life. I have two brothers (Junior 23, Matthew 15). I went to school at Symmes Elementary before moving to Mason in 4th grade.

The Middle School years weren’t the best I was teased and sometimes bullied by others because of my weight. If you know me you would know that I was a quiet person in 7th and 8th grade. I wasn’t comfortable in myself and overall hated the way I looked.

I knew I had to make a change to my lifestyle so I started running thanks to my best friend Tate who has made a big impact in my life. I loss a lot of weight because of running and ran cross country and track in high school. Had lots of friends and was comfortable in myself. Life was good at the time.

Did I kept going to church during high school? Yes but I was just going there just to see my friends and not really pay attention to the sermons. If I can go back in time and change my ways and do it all over again in a heartbeat I will!

Everything changed after high school. So I started going to college at UC. I was so scared because I thought I was not going to have any friends cause I was used to my friends in high school being there all the time. So I started doing stuff that was totally out of the ordinary of myself to get notice. I started smoking weed and drinking. I was going out and hanging with the wrong crowd. I just wanted to fit in and have everyone like me.

During the time I never went to church and I stayed away from God. When sophomore year came rolling along I still kept doing the same stuff but I notice a change towards the end of it and into the summer time. None of my friends wanted to hang out with me and I didn’t know why. I felt so lonely and fell into depression. I told myself “Why doesn’t nobody want to hang out with me? I’ve hit a low spot in my life.

The night of July 22d, 2013 forever changed my life. I was alone in my room and it was another night of staying in the house because I thought I had no friends at the time. So it was around 2am and I’m just sitting in my bed thinking its time to end this. Went down to the kitchen and grabbed a knife, took it back to my room and I was ready to just end my life there. But then I heard a voice over my ear saying “don’t do this” I knew it was Jesus and I’m thinking to myself “this can’t be!” Then and there I knew he was in my room.

I cried and put the knife down and bow down to my knees and said “Jesus! I need you! I want you! I’m sorry for everything! Come rescue me! I surrender my life to you!” Getting a little emotional just thinking about that night. Everything changed and the next morning I told my family what has been going on with me lately. It was one of the hardest things I had to do.

Since then, Jesus has the been the main focus in my life from the time I wake up in the morning and when I go to bed. I’ve met new people in my life that have a relationship with him. There have been friendships that have come and go. I hold no grudges back then I used too. It’s been hard ever since I accepted him into my life. I still have my doubts, worries, and questions. But it’s just awesome knowing that I can turn to God for everything and he’s my source of light and hope!

I just wanna give thanks to my family, especially my old brother Junior whose life has changed because of Jesus, he has given me such great help through my faith journey and I’m grateful for that! My best friend Tate was the first of my friends to know my depression and he took me under his wing to help me get through it and grow in my faith.

My church I go to which is Crossroads is where I got baptize last May. I love it because of the community and how real they are in their love for Jesus!

Guys, I’m still struggling and what I said in that Instagram post yesterday is very true. Jesus is the reason I’m still here today and breathing. He’s so amazing and loving. Weather you don’t believe it he loves all of you so much and he’s always going to be there for you forever! Cling on hope to him! And if you ever make the decision to follow him for the rest of your life it will be the best decision you’ll ever make!

Also, music has changed my life as well. Listening to real songs with awesome messages about God! The “116” clique group with Lecrae, Trip Lee, Andy Mineo, and KB. They’re music has been so influential! You all should definitely check it out!

This is a topic that have been wearing down heavy on me the last month or so because I’ve just seen it so much on social media and around the world. It frustrates me how women are being treated like or look upon like they are objects and pieces of meat.

I don’t blame this on them but manily on the music industry, tv shows, movies, etc. I think for most guys when we look at a girl that is attractive at first glance we don’t think about her, usually we have dirty thoughts on our mind and etc. We’ve all done it and me as well. I’m trying to look at her like she’s created by Jesus and should be look upon with respect.

The reason why I don’t like rap music is because of how they treat women in their videos. It’s like you have dancers in the background and they are just there to look at it, like it’s just an object over there. That’s really sad to me. But people will say well it’s their decision to go on the videos and do that. Yes, but I for those women they lack self esteem of themselves and think that’s how they are going to get notice.

Also for women out there that think dressing a certain way that is way over the top thinking it will attract a guy to come talk to it will probably but for most men that have respect and don’t look at girls like that will shy away from you cause that’s not the way to present or show yourself. It means that you are uncomfortable or don’t have respect for yourself. God created you all equally beautiful. I know lots of girls have heard that and don’t usually roll with it but it’s the very honest truth!

I love this bible verse right here:

“Likewise also that women should adorn themselves in respectable apparel, with modesty and self-control, not with braided hair and gold or pearls or costly attire, but with what is proper for women who profess godliness—with good works” 2 Timothy 9-10

This is saying that Jesus want women to respect themselves in a godly way. Don’t let the world think “oh you have to dress in a sexy way to get attention.” No! Forget that nonsense! Be yourself in the way your father in heaven created you!

And for men we lets try and stop looking at women with lustful minds. Trust me it’s hard at times and somedays we trip. But if we think for a second and realize she is made in the creation of God and we should not look at her in any type of way but that. Doesn’t mean we can go up to them and say you are beautiful and gorgeous. Just do it with a pure mind and heart.

Hey everybody! So it’s Valentine’s Day weekend and that’s usually the day where either you are in a relationship or married spend the day together and giving presents to the significant other. In my opinion this day should not be in the calendar year because should it be every single day we should love our other and give presents? Should not be on day once a year.

I’m here to tell you my experiences with this day because back then it used to effect me really hard. So I’m 23 years old and I’ve never been in a relationship. And I tell myself “Well, the single lie is good because I can just live free.” I’ll admit there will be times where I wish I had a significant other but I know Jesus is just waiting patiently with me to find the right girl for me. Man, when this day rolls along I hate it because everywhere I see on social media is pictures of couples and how happy they look.

It used to bother me because I’ve always been lonely on this day. Since accepting Jesus into my life 2 1/2 years ago I’ve come to the conclusion that I should have never let this day get me down in the dumps. Back then I would always say “nobody loves me on this day.” That’s the wrong premense. Jesus loves me and all of you 24/7 and all the days of our lives.

If you don’t know me some might know my testimony into accepting Christ in my life knows that I used to be a porn addict. Basically I would watch it on a daily basis like every single day. When Valentine’s Day came along rolling I would always revert to the computer screen to get love and pleasure. Looking back at it was just me trying to fill the empty spot that I wanted fill because I had no girlfriend. I know for single guys who are dealing with this addiction on this day they would turn to it and I’m just praying that temptation and the lies Satan are feeding them will not get to their hands and know Jesus loves you and will always will!

Another person doesn’t complete you, only Jesus can do that! The best love story isn’t something you see written with pen and paper, it’s God love for his people. It’s the reason why he died on the cross for us!

So to the people that are single on this day and feel like they are lonely! You are not! You have a perfect savior who loves you unconditionally and is always there for you! Don’t let Valentine’s Day come around and you feel like it’s the end of world of never finding someone. Trust in God’s plan he works in ways where he still amazes me every single day!