Someone who isn't necessarily shy, but never really tells you a lot about themselves. They observe almost everything and listen to everything you have to say without criticizing or judging. These people are often the most sincere, kind, and wonderfully interesting people, yet fail to be attractive to the opposite sex for some reason.
so this is my life, and i want you to know that i am both happy and sad. and i still trying to figure out how that can be

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Tuesday, July 31, 2012

ramai kater kalo bos perempuan ni leceh. and as a woman (#shudder#), i think so too.
i mean yesterday i joined their meeting the the ladyboss was like a total bitch. there is no professionalisme there only professialisme.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

in the Hunger Games (book), there is a song that katniss sung to Rue when she was near her death. this song was a lullaby she (Katniss) used to sing to her sister, Primrose when she was ill.
here is the lyrics:

(let just call the song Rue's Lullaby)

Deep in the meadow, under the willowA bed of grass, a soft green pillowLay down your head, and close your sleepy eyesAnd when again they open, the sun will rise.

Here it's safe, here it's warmHere the daisies guard you from every harmHere your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them trueHere is the place where I love you.

Here it's safe, here it's warmHere the daisies guard you from every harmHere your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them trueHere is the place where I love you.

to me, this is one of the most significant moments in the hunger games, i'm glad the film maker keep this scene

when looking up for this lyric, i found the official one sing by Sting entitled Deep In The Meadow. here is the link for those who like to listen to the official one: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vEG7QbDuu0Y
i however prefer the independent version one. the one that was made by Adrisaurus (at least that what her youtube profile name). here is the link for those who like to listen to this one: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=suJqCw3SAZw and i suggest yoou better listen to this one.

however, this is not about which rue's lullaby is better, b/coz both had delivered the song in their very unique and special way. it was about another song.
enter Safe And Sound by Taylor Swift ft. The Civil Wars. the song was written by Miss Swift herself and it was one of the original soundtrack for the 2012 film, the Hunger Games.

here is the lyrics of the song by Taylor:

safe and sound

I remember tears streaming down your faceWhen I said, "I’ll never let you go"When all those shadows almost killed your lightI remember you said, "Don’t leave me here alone"But all that’s dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyesThe sun is going downYou’ll be alrightNo one can hurt you nowCome morning lightYou and I will be safe and sound

Just close your eyesThe sun is going downYou’ll be alrightNo one can hurt you nowCome morning lightYou and I will be safe and sound

Just close your eyesYou’ll be alrightCome morning light,You and I’ll be safe and sound…

just close your eyesyou'll be alright,come morning light,you and i'll be safe and sound

now, if we study both lyrics, and replace the Taylor's one into the novel it could still make perfect sense, right?
the two lyrics had quite the same meaning. it was about letting go of nightmares here and embrace the future. it might be bit crude, considering that Rue's future was death but in my opinion it was all the same.Taylor had really impersonate the mood and feeling in her song with Katniss' own mood and feeling, and it was one of her greatest ballads. it was great considering she didn't need another break-up to come up with the mood for this song. but i think she can just figure out the feeling, mood and theme of the song by reading the book and studying Rue's lullaby. (i surely can)

however, to be fair, Safe and Sound deal with much more real (in the movie) deal. the song really reflects the mood and feeling of the entire movie while Rue's Lullaby is just one Katniss had in her mind to gather her wits, so that she can win this. it was the song, (i think) Katniss will sing to herself, as if to delude herself that one day she'll wake up and figure out that this all was a dream. and in this case, that's why she sang the song to Rue on her deathbed. she was hoping that wherever Rue opened her eyes, she'll always relieved her horrible memory of being in the Hunger Games and being speared to the stomach as one nasty nightmares.

between this two songs, i can't decide which one i like better. Adrisaurus version of Rue's Lullaby was sweet and lulling, as it should be as a lullaby, Sting's version was too slow, i'll never sing it to my baby meanwhile Safe And Sound was easy to the ears and we had the tendency to sing along.

i love both songs, and i love how another song (Safe and Sound) was written in honour of all the tributes in the Hunger Games and how Rue's Lullaby was the one that keep Katniss going.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

another masterpiece by john green. honestly, if i never read any other green's book, i probably won't read this. i think cancer related themes novel are just too much too handle and i am not very good in emotion department.

this book centered around two cancer-crossed lover who in my opinion was a perfect tearjerker. not because their unwillingness to live but their ignorance to the normalcy and the need to face the world and the consequences.

in the book, i think hazel's really wanted to find out what happened to anna's mother (an imperial affliction) because that is the thing that she had access to. she will never find out what will happen to her parents when she died and maybe in figuring out what happened to anna's mother, she'll have a clue on what will happened to her parents.

i think the book also tell us that we can never be well prepared. our lives are not something that is predictable. in hazel case, she was so ready, so prepared to be the one that leaves everyone behind; her parents, augustus, isaac... but she was never ready being the ones that was left behind. that's why augustus' death had been a huge blow for her.

yet, hazel shows us that lives must go on. she still had her parents and maybe the epiloque of 'the imperial affliction' waiting for her. her parents also promised her that their lives will also go on even when she is gone because the one that make the world moving is the living, not the dead.

i won't give you the synopsis or anything because to reveal too much is like a crime because this book is so beautiful.

i can't relate myself to hazel in any way. i don't have cancer and i also never lost anyone i love. but if i were her, i can't imagine waking up every morning and being thankful that i am breathing and alive.

Friday, July 6, 2012

ahhh.... nothing says memories like disney's classic. this one is worth mentioning.
i gotta say, who ever missed this movie in their childhood years really did missed something ( i didn't and my childhood is awesome). and p/s kirten dunst was so cute in this movie.

another pigeonholed american teenagers movie. need i say more?
it was a good stress relief movie, a bit funny and a little message (be who you are, be confident bla, bla).
the story is about amber pollock, a super vicious, high heels and red cklaws high school queen bee who died on the night she was crowned prom queen. when she was up there she was given a chance to redeem herself by making the least popular girl, lisa sommer the prom queen in a week. can she make it? only heaven knows...

watching this because daniel radcliffe was in it.
it leads us to the journey of four orphaned boys, all born in December, in a quest of family and friendship.
This story told about the real meaning of family and what it is to had one.
this movie is also about coming of age (coughsexytimecough) and the truth that not all things are as it seemed.
a quite good find , if i might add, and as per usual, independent film always had a way with their presentation.