getting really down *trigger*

hey
im gettin so down all im thinking about is my little girl she would have been 10 on the 14th of feb but she died 3 mins after she was born i was only 14 at the time but it still hurts me till this day my family still dont know about her till this day and always have ago at me coz i get so uset but how can i tell them now what happened they would hate me for life

I think it would be a good idea to try to speak to a counsellor, preferrably one who specialises in bereavement. You've not had the opportunity to grieve outwardly about this, so it's no surprise that you're finding this difficult.

First thing you have to do is to confide in your GP if you can.
I don't have PM, but if you want to talk about this on a one to one, my msn is in my profile.