Thursday, December 10, 2009

today i woke up at a crack of dawn.lol.don't really know why but i think it's because of my really bad ache on my back.i brushed and cleaned my toilet the day before yesterday,so i guess that's the 'dominant' source.hahaha.my papa plan to go to kuantan this morning but it did not work out consider that he just realized today is his friend's wedding day.so,i think he didn't wanna dissapoint the groom and are willing to cancel his two-days plan for kuantan.afterward,we went to mesramall on the way back home cause the wedding were held at kerteh.there were so many people from all walks of life at mesramall cause i think there were some sort of like a futsal competition went on.we had or lunch at pizza then we went back home cause papa and my little cousin have to go to usual friday prayer.n now,i'm just waiting for 90210 and gonna get ready for my add math tuition tonight.i supposed to have my tuition on thursday morning,but then i had to take good care of my cousin cause both of my parents were not home yesterday.i'm in group 2.so tonight i have to lodge in group 1.i don't really like to be in other group cause mine are awesome but then i have to.it is a waste if i don't go at all.so,daa....................................

hey...i still can't get my mind of someone.no matter how hard i tried to forget him/her,but the reality is i still can't.just as i thought that i'm over him/her,something that include or involve him/her happen.i hate this feeling!hate it!the person's just not worth it.i know that he/she never really care about me.but when i saw the person,i can feel that my face get really hot and red.my emotion at the time was unexplainable.i don't really understand myself.why is it so hard for me to let go?i've tried,very hard but i just can't.the memories for me just too good to give away.n i know that the person will never look at me the same way again.i really don't know why it has to be like this.it had been quite a long time since my emotion crumbled,but it seems like i can never take care of it.i will never be ok again.though i have something/someone else now,but i still can't give my whole self to the new 'thing' no more.no matter how hard i try,but the feeling's still doesn't change.the feeling for the person doesn't go away.n i hate myself for that.'please go!i don't need you cause i know that you don't want me'...........................................

About Me

my name is amalia athirah ahmad razak.i'm currently 16 years old.i haf a twin sis n two very caring parents.plus,i haf an amazing boy in my life now.
i also haf great friends n i love each and everyone of them soo much.mmmuah.....