Alexa McAllister's death still remains a shocking mystery to her "devastated" family because she seemed generally "happy" despite "whispers" the former The Bachelor bachelorette struggled with depression and bipolar disorder.

Ryan Anderson, the boyfriend of the late Gia Allemand, only made a few brief statements following her tragic suicide in August 2013, but now he's sharing the intimate details of what happened that night and how he handled her passing going forward.