There's actually this thing about being creative...
we call it: "Creativity."

But what some of us may not be aware of is the essence of which your creativity, as we know it, might come from.

Either way, I'll tell you what my essence of this urge currently is.
I call it an urge, because if I am not, then I am constantly aware of myself NOT being creative. Meaning: "My urge is not being fulfilled."

MUSE.
One must have a muse. Although, what that is or may be, can differ from creator to creator.

It's nice to know what once muse is.
Hey! And as unexpected as this might come to you now (the muse of which I am currently nurturing from): "I am happy to have met you, my dearest M."

Lying on the couch and thinking of anything but you. Trying.
Working on my day job and thinking of anything but you. Exhausting.
Spending my weekends alone and thinking of anything but you. Masterbating.