Positive thoughts on my life.

January 2015

01/22/2015

Just stopped in to tell you that I have been making some delicious food! I am on a roll in this new year with whole food eating! In fact, I can't think of one processed thing that I have eaten. Well, tonight, I ordered the kids a pizza and I ate yogurt and granola. I guess technically that could have some additives in it. Every night as I sit down to dinner, I'm just thrilled with myself for whatever I have created and I think about taking a picture for you but....I haven't....yet. Would you like to see what I'm eating over here? I could make that happen! I've also been walking to work! even in the cold!! I figured out that if i start from my kitchen and walk on the street and quit counting when I get into my classroom that it is almost a quarter mile walk. So I like to say I get a mile in every day just walking to and from work......I walk home at lunch too! It's a simple way to get a bit of fitness into my day without really working at it. Oh! and you know what else I have been doing? So after lunch, the kindergartners have "naptime" for 20 minutes. I have started taking advantage of that period of time on a personal level. I sit. I close my eyes and I meditate...I just concentrate on breathing......sometimes I drool a bit and the kids have to wake me up but luckily that doesn't happen every day. I have been using the school day as a time to focus on my posture too. I spend a lot of time standing and quite frequently I readjust to align my spine into the proper position and suck in my gut. How"s your posture? By the end of this year, mine should be pretty good!! What about you? What are you working on for personal development? Tell me!!

01/14/2015

So ya'll know that for quite some time I have desired a cleaning lady, right? Well, guess what!! I have one. Yep! And she is free! My neighbor has two little girls. Their dad is a basketball coach. One night, I was over there yakking and I said something like, "I have always wanted someone to come clean my house." She said, "Hey!! I'll clean it!" She said that she would trade me cleaning if I would watch one....just one of her daughters after school during basketball season. I jumped on it and said that sounded like a great deal. So, my sweet little neighbor girl walks over after school. I love the time I get to spend with her. This week I started reading Peter Pan and Wendy to her.....my favorite book....sometimes she reads to me! It's quite pleasant! She draws and giggles and converses with me. I truly enjoy her being here. Her mom came over and mopped the floor which I don't enjoy. I mean I enjoy her mopping.....I don't enjoy the act of actually mopping. You get it I'm sure! When I walked in and the house smelled so good and everything was in it's place, I just felt so blessed and I thought dreams really do come true!! They do! I was thinking about this as I was playing at recess today. I've always thought it would be awesome to get to workout while I'm working. I took a kid out and we played basketball and soccer for 45 minutes. I worked up a sweat! Let me tell you..... I can shoot and score in basketball. and I have a pretty good kick for an older child. We had a great recess, I had a awesome workout and I didn't even mind that it was 22 degrees out. Our hearts were warm with laughter and feelings of fun. It humbles me to live out these thoughts and desires that I have held in my mind for so long. It excites me to think that many more dreams can and will come true. I'll wait and be humbled as they transpire. God is good! It's in His time. He knows the desires of your heart. So here I sit patiently....waiting to be amazed as I am today. It's a great day!! What's a desire you have dreamed of? Do tell!!

01/05/2015

HI!!! Happy New Year!! What is this January 5th? I'm just waking up from hibernation......yes. I've been hibernating. resting. doing nothing at all....and it's ok! In fact, it can be rather enjoyable at times. I woke up today feeling energized and ready to go back to work tomorrow though. I learned over this break that I actually enjoy having to go to work. I have missed having to getting up and dressed and leaving for my measly 5 hours a day. One can only spend so much time cleaning and doing laundry and watching TV before it becomes a horrible existence. I guess I have been doing something this new year that I enjoy......once again, I am de-cluttering. I bought a book called "One Month to a Clutter Free Life- one month to clear your home, mind and schedule" by Ruth Soukup. I have been following it and I must say.....so far, so good. I LOVE getting rid of shit and having space..... and peace. It's just fantastic to walk into a room and not see stuff all over the place. Is your home cluttered with stuff? Seriously, take small steps to let some stuff go and you will be amazed at how good it feels. Just clean out one drawer or a closet. It's amazing! Today, I am going through my books and magazines. I have a lot of books that I have never read. I have a few goals for this year and one is to become a better reader and read those damn books. I'm trying hard to not buy magazines. I love magazines but I never read them. I'm almost ashamed of the stack I am purging today. yes. Ashamed.....which is an awful feeling. I felt it a couple times over break as I splurged on chocolate. It all started when the teacher I work for gave me a jar of candy and then before I knew it, the house was full of candy and chocolate and I decided it would be a good idea to have a piece. I was wrong. One piece led to eating it all. There were a few nights where I got bored around 10 so I just started eating chocolate bars and then a half hour later felt sick to my stomach. Do you know how much chocolate you can eat in a half hour of continuous eating?? A LOT of fucking chocolate....and for me, eating one piece is like "breaking the seal" when you take that first pee while out drinking beer....I just can't stop.....and then I feel ashamed and gross....only when I'm drinking beer and peeing I just spend most of the night in the bathroom and there is no shame in making it to the bathroom without peeing your pants. Anyway, I have learned that one piece of candy is too much for me. Today I am back on the sugar wagon. This year I am also on the beer wagon. Ian mentioned while he was here one day that in this new year, he is going to try to stop drinking alcohol. I said, "I think I will join you!" I brought in the new year sober and it was pretty good! New Years Day was fantastic without a headache! I might have even put the Christmas tree away that day. I'm not sure....the days seem to blend. There is nothing wrong with being sober. Is there? Alcohol to me is a lot like my addiction and gluttony to chocolate. One leads to too many. I never have been a very good drinker.....and really alcohol hasn't been all that good to me in this life. It has been the source of a lot of unnecessary chaos. Some people can enjoy it. It seems to leave a bad taste in my mouth.....seriously....in more ways than one.....I rarely brush my teeth before going to bed after a night on the town.....and then the next day?? Whoa! I don't know how that will work out while camping. I mean drinking beer and camping go hand in hand but then again, I guess I've never tried to camp sober so I really don't know how it would be!! That is one of my New Year Goals....try something new! I didn't think it would be that but MAYBE it is! Life is funny and great isn't it? So I started writing to you at 8am and now?? It's 10:30 and I am happily jumping into bed....giddy to see all my kids tomorrow. I may be too gidd to fall asleep. Hopefully, I can get back on track and write to you all more this year. I would enjoy that. I like you and love you all so much!!