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When I was a little girl there was nothing I could not do, / Then came school and all the trials for foreign faces no one knew, / Soon I learnt that difference counts in ways never to be explained, / So began the seeds of anger, pain, frustration, inner rage. / When a mother loves her children she will never let them stray, / Child must tear away from woman, rip the flesh to get away, / Torn apart but never severed from a love that can’t be named, / Feeds and strangles, keeps us bound to memories of our early shame. / Nurse a wound, it never heals, it seethes and eats you from the core, / Roots are laid by past events that lock you down for evermore, / I cannot pretend that I am happy now that I am grown, / All that happened is my heart is aching less now I’m alone. / I am sorry for my anger, for the rage that beats inside, / Won’t you help me tame this tiger, be your love, your friend, your bride.

I don’t really need nobody caring for me, / Just my baby, it’s my baby and me, / I don’t need no substitutes, no perfect guarantee, / It’s just my baby, still my baby and me, / Love is tender, love is pure, / Love is poison, love’s the cure, / Baby, tell me, are you really really sure? / Are you sure you’re really sure? / Will you love me when I’m grey, / And the tides of time have washed away / all the beauty that you knew would never stay, / Because beauty never stays. / (Chorus) / The men before you bled me dry, / Wrung the tears out of my eyes, / A man like you, such a bittersweet surprise, / Oh such a sweet surprise. / So, be my love and I’ll be yours, / Help me handle the applause, / I’m an emerald with many many flaws, oh so many flaws. / (Chorus) / I don’t really need nobody, I don’t really need no-one, / I don’t really need nobody, I don’t really need no-one, / I don’t really need nobody, I don’t really need no-one, / I don’t really need nobody, I don’t need no-one, no-one. / So marry me, I’ll marry you, / The greatest thing that we could do, / Cut me open, and you’ll see my heart is true, / You know my heart is true. / So all you doubters, look away! / We will not be swayed by what it is you say, / Baby loves me forever and a day, / Forever and a day…

You have a choice when you awake, / To leave your bed or stay, / You have a choice when you leave home, / To go to work or wander the streets alone, / You have a choice to do what’s right, / To face the day or waste your night, / To weep and wail or shout Rejoice! / You have a choice, / I made a choice to set aside the love I once felt, / ruthlessly denied, / I made a choice to sacrifice / The pleasures of the present for your future paradise, / Oh baby mine, I lost my heart when I gave you up / To give you that “better start”, / To bloom into a man amongst the boys, / I made a choice.

It’s his destiny, it was meant to be, / It’s his one future, it’s his only desire to go far, / Far away from here, / It’s in the strength of his character, / In the strength of his arms, / He’ll go far, / Far, / Will he father a child? Will he raise the dead? / Will he solve the central paradox running through every small boy’s head? / Oh no no no, don’t go too far, / Far away from here, / We know who you really are, / Oh we know, we know who you really are, / Far, / Will he reach within, will he touch all our souls? / Will he leave his dirty fingerprints and a few raw gaping holes? / Oh he’ll go far, / Run away my dear! / We know who you really are, we’re the ones, / We’re the ones who bear your scars, / Far.

Oh wear your hair up, maybe leave it down, / and paint your nails to match your phone, / do everything you can to blot it out, / you’re going home alone. / You chase him hard and still you lose your way, / you follow him to every town, you beg and plead with him ‘Oh baby, stay!’ / but he won’t settle down. / You were his first, thinking you’d be the last / but the way things worked out, now you’re stuck in the past, / tell me, why waste your time? He’s a boy not a man, / ooh a child with a temper, get out while you still can. / I’m not afraid my dear to spell it out, / it’s quite important that you see, / I think it’s time for you to realise / he’s going home with me. // Oh, you were his first….

I will stay with you, / For the best days are gone, and the rest of my life must carry on, / And it’s easier with two, yes, it’s easier with two. / I will stay with you, / For the evening draws long, and I’m needing a man to lean upon, / And my darling, it’s you, yes, my darling, it’s you. / So we wait, so we wait, / So we wait, slowly fading, / I will stay with you for the rest of my days, / Sacrificing so much in so many ways, / It’s the right thing to do, yes, the right thing to do. / I will stay with you, / For the promises we made won’t be broken ‘til the grave, / It’s the right thing to do, yes, the right thing to do, / For my darling, it’s you, yes, my darling, / It’s you.

There’s a girl you’ve let inside your skin, / There’s a girl you’ve let inside your skin, / She works her magic spell from deep within, / It took a dozen days for your pale grey eyes to stray, / It took a dozen days for your pale grey eyes to stray, / But what’s the use in crying? You never even loved me anyway, / You spent so many years trying to get into my heart, my head, / You spent so many years trying to get into my heart, then you got into my bed, / Ooh, you took your pleasure gamely, then you flee, fly, flew you fled / Into the arms of a woman, so sweet and kind and true, / Fled into the arms of a woman so sweet and kind and true, / All of the pretty little things I could never be for you, / That girl with her long blonde hair, and her pretty little face, / And her outdoor nature, and her buttercup taste, / Well baby, stick us up together, we’ll see what we have got, / For I am everything that she is, and she’s nothing, nothing I’m not. / So you want us both to meet, and get along just fine, / You want both your girls to meet, and pretend to get along just fine, / Well, I’ll pretend that she’s not yours, and you’ll pretend that you were never mine, / One last time, / I’m gonna find a new man, never gonna leave my side, / I’m gonna find one new man, never gonna wound my pride, / For hell has got no fury like a jilted woman cast aside.

I’m losing you, I’m losing you. / Tell me what I should do, to keep from losing you. / I would give up all that I have to stop this going bad, / but I’d still be losing you. / Tell me what you want from me, tell me what you want from me. / Want me to set you free, is that what you want from me? / We made a promise long ago, to build a happy home, / but now it seems you disagree, we disagree. / Baby… please, / Oh, please, oh please?

Yeah, some great love affair, / undeniably choking-crying the end of the affair, / Oh! How we cruelly deceive / ourselves with whitest lies and dark half-truths that neither should believe. / Yeah, some great love affair, / feeling nothing, a heart so cushioned it didn’t even care. / Pre-determined to stall / from the moment of the kiss, trace the arc, chart the rise and fall. // Yeah, some great love affair, / undeniably choking-crying the end of the affair, / Oh! Nothing more now to say, / I’ve no desire for you to stay, / just leave, be on your way.

You’re on a ship two thousand miles from shore, / your ship’s been sailing for two thousand years or more, / and where it’s landing, no-one really can be sure, / the secret sorrow of a travelling man. / You placed your wealth into its empty hold, / you put your trust in rubies, furs and gold, / now all that’s left is what your two cold hands can hold, / the secret sorrow of a travelling man. / Fall on your knees, pray to the East, / scream at the South, let it all out. / Wail at the West, rail at the North, / nothing can turn this ship from its course. / You’re on a ship two thousand miles from shore, / your ship’s been sailing for two thousand years or more, / and where it’s landing, no-one really can be sure, / the secret sorrow of a travelling man. // You’re on a ship…

Sixteen miles to your door. Sixteen miles to your door. / Sixteen miles to your door. / This is what my feet are for, / I will run, run all the way. / I’ll run, run all the way. / Skin so dry, but the rain is wet, / skin so dry but the rain is wet. / Oh, your skin so dry and the rain is wet. / The game is on and the trap is set, / and I will run, run all the way, / I will run, run all the way. // What you see is what you get, / what you see is what you get, / tell me what did you see, what did you get? / Well what I saw I will never forget, / and I will run, yeah I ran home all the way, / I will run, run all the way…

Sunday morning I was waiting for my love to come around, / Sunday morn anticipating for that love to come on down, / Sunday night time is the right time for your lover to be near, / But by evening I’m still waiting for that boy to reappear. / But what you gonna do, eh, what you gonna do, hey hey? / What you gonna do, eh, what you gonna do, hey hey? / Oh, be careful of the wand’rin’ eye. / First he says he loves me then he says he don’t love me at all, / Keep my phone beside me just in case-ing he decides to call, / When they’ve had you twice they don’t seem to want you ‘round anymore, / Best believe a boy’s deceiving when he’s one eye on the door, / (Chorus) / Ladies, pay attention, yes you better listen to my song, / And I’ll tell you how to find a man that won’t be doin’ you wrong, / Keep your eye on the quiet shy guy who loves you from way afar, / He’s the one to worship and adore the real woman you are, / That’s what you gotta do, eh, that’s what you gotta do, hey hey, / What you gotta do, eh, that’s what you gotta do, hey hey, / Oh, be careful of the wand’rin’ eye.

I’ve let go of all the thoughts and dreams I had / And you know it’s right, / And although this departure makes me sad, / Oh I know, I know it’s right, / (Chorus) And though I swear I did resist / that fatal moment that we kissed, / I know forever I will miss this mistake, / And though I cry for you each night, / Turn in my bed, shut out the light, / I know eventually my heart will unbreak, / From afar I used to yearn for you at night / To come and save, save my soul, / But like a star that burns too quickly and too bright / I lost my chance when I lost all self-control, / (Chorus) / So here we are, there’s very little left to say / I played with fire, got burned / but anyway, I’m glad you came into my heart, / the bit of love I got, it was a lovely lesson learned, / (Chorus).