1985 Jeff gave me Pebbles and Biko, two Lilac Point Siamese cats – hardly able to support myself, and now with two cats to feed, only Jeff

1985 first trip to Europe, first summer with Ross

1986 summer in Venice, studied Venetian painting and architecture

1986 blue kitchen, blue flowers in Toronto – a real home for the first time in so long, so long, Ross is here

1986 Mother died of leukemia

1987 received MFA from the International Center of Photography and New York University

1987 Wawanaisa Lake: beavers, wild brown bears, Harry retrieved every buoy he sees, New York Times every morning, duck cabin

1987 joined Group Material

1989 fall of the Berlin Wall

1990 Myriam died

1990 moved to L.A. with Ross (already very sick), Harry the dog, Biko, and Pebbles, the Ravenswood, Rossmore, golden hours, Ann and Chris by the pool, magic hour, rented a red car, money for the first time, no more waiting on tables, Golden Girls, great students at CalArts, Millie and Catherine, went back to Madrid after almost twenty years – sweet revenge

1990 silver ocean in San Francisco

1990 first show with Andrea Rosen

1991 Ross died of AIDS, Dad died three weeks later, a hundred small yellow envelopes of my lover’s ashes – his last will