Pagina's

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Update

Hi everyone,

It's been a couple of weeks since my last post and I just want to say thank you to everyone who sent me an email, message or posted a comment on that post. It made me cry that there are so many sweet people out there - even though we may not know eachother. It made me feel warm and fuzzy inside and for that I say a BIG thank you *sends hugs*.

It's going a little better lately. I guess the weather helps; 20 C and days filled with sunshine are definitely getting my mood up. I'm still applying for jobs without luck, but I guess I will have to keep trying, so I will. It's just hard, but I'm sure it will work out.

So.. What have I been doing besides filling in job applications and absorbing sunshine? I've been working on another little project besides this blog. It's helped me to talk about what's on my mind in relation to what I've heard or read lately. That's a little cryptical, I know, but I will let you know what it is when I feel good about telling the world (which it sorta is, of course). Also, I've been working on answering my emails; I think everyone has gotten a reply (if not, PLEASE send me a reminder. I had so many emails that I didn't know where to start).

I've been in contact with different companies and hopefully I will be able to tell you what we've been discussing soon :) I think it's cool!

Also, I've been cleaning. A lot. I've almost completely redone my room, so I think IKEA's profits went up a little more. I spent a lot of time there looking at furniture - I needed a new bed and closet - and put those together with a little help from my dad. But before I could do that, I had to thouroughly clean my room and get rid of the junk. I didn't even know I had that much stuff! I'm currently working on my desk, since my room itself is done (and it's pretty darn awesome if you ask me).

In my free time.. I've been reading. A lot. Like, crazy amounts of books. I discovered that I'm not really into the kind of books that is considered literature, so I've been reading different kinds of books. It was (and is) my way of escaping the world around me. Because unfortunately, not everyone sees that I'm trying really hard to find a job. That I practically do the household on my own, except the cooking. That I would rather have a job and spend my time outside the house and make some money. So I read to escape. For me, it's a wonderful feeling. I love to read.

The reading has made me calm and somehow it made me organized as well (must have been because I had to be creative to fit all my books on their shelves) so I started cleaning and organizing and now my life is a little easier.

Anyway, I'm rambling. Sometimes typing these kind of posts just feel like pouring your heart out in a diary. It's lifting a weight of my shoulders :)

I'm working on coming back, I really am. Hopefully I can post some old material later this month, because my backlog is huge. I will post a new post somewhere between today and Sunday next week to put stuff up for sale (besides the stuff that is still up for sale on my Blogsale page). Because I have a lot of nail polish and even makeup that I've never used and honestly, I could use some extra money.

I'll keep you posted.

Thanks for being so patient with me, it really means a lot. You are the best readers I could have wished for. Thank you.

10 comments:

I'm hand in hand with you ... inside my head. I so can relate to everything you've going through. You never imagine you can lose everything and see the life you builded vanishing like a card castle. Yet it happens. It's very long to recover but there is an end and a healing to all the bad things we're going through and everything is always prone to start again. Elsewhere, with other people. That's what I'm thinking.

I hope your little project turns out well! Come back when you feel like it. :)