On Not Knowing by Gretsie Ames

The hardest part of waiting for anything is in the ‘not knowing’… whether it is in the ‘not knowing’ when a guest shall arrive, or when a baby will be born, or a family member return home from war; or waiting for the news of a job or of a health report or for a proposal of marriage!

Any kind of waiting is made harder by the ‘not knowing’.

This is due to the FALL .

The very need to know was inserted into My peaceful plan and perfect communion with all My creation. By believing the lie that I, the Lord God could not be trusted, and was holding out a ‘better, higher good’ from you, the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil declared war on all trust, and total communion with Me and rendered you unable to REST and BE AT PEACE if you did not know everything-good or bad. Yes, you still turn to Me- but when all else fails.

Thus ‘the FALL’.

Why? Because in your need to know, you unwittingly became solely responsible to discern the evil and choose the good- something only I can do perfectly and you can do only with My intimate counsel.

And so, in choosing to walk apart from Me, you became riddled with anxiety, and anger, unsure how to choose aright, and angry that “you do not know”; Still worse, under the delusion that if you did know, then all would be right!. And so it continues…

This “need to know” so prevalent in My People today, is rooted in sin; therefore, it is illusory because it offers nothing but a false sense of power and control. False, because in reality, it decreases your ability to find peace and to REST in My love. It hinders your ability to hear My Voice and to trust in My guidance. Worst of all, it undermines your faith in my Goodness by continually questioning the truth of My Word: “Hath God said?” is the basis of all rebellion and pain in My world.

When you do not know: Instead of feeling anxious or angry and pressed to feel responsible to make the right choice or “someone else is to blame”, turn to Me. Take a moment in quiet to Listen for that ‘Other Voice’ in your deep heart, continually speaking an encouraging word. I speak, without condemnation, calming your heart, assuring you that your are not alone, and helping you to WAIT. Choosing to listen to Me is, in fact, acting in faith, and waiting on Me making a decision of great import.

When you do not know: and nothing seems to be forthcoming: WAIT.

I am not holding out on you, and you did not mess up! I am not punishing you, but protecting you by training you to listen for My Voice and learning to rely on Me to provide the wisdom and discernment and the timing ‘to will and to do of My good pleasure’ -and your ultimate satisfaction. (Phil.2:13)

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