Actually to confess; sometimes when I'm listening to NIN in the corner, I think about creating this comic about my retarded emo dreams… the main character is ‘an extension of myself’ and the comic would just be one crappily rendered picture with a ton of my award winning emotic poetry detailing my inner darkness…

But then I realize what a huge faggot i'm being and get back to creating super kawaii anime comics

I might be, too. But it's hard to tell. I've had a couple of bad experiences in that area before I got to an age of developing those desires. So I might just still be feeling the aftereffects of those.

However, more and more these days I happen to be noticing that attractions past seemed to be based on aesthetic features, intellect and personality rather than sexual desire.

Despite these thoughts and feelings in my head I can't help but feel angry that I'm supposed to be ashamed of them.

Anyway, my problem with creativity is the fact I have too much. I've always had that issue. It's nothing new. And getting those ideas down is always difficult. I'm a perfectionist. If it's not exactly like I see it in my head, it's never good enough.

I've noticed that most of my best and most productive artworks have been those in which I'm totally absorbed into. I eat, sleep and breathe it. It fuses with my skin and leeches my blood from me until I get it to near-perfection. Total dedication.

If I was to form an intimate relationship with someone it has to be somebody creatively supportive or near enough the same as me in that area in order for it to work out.

Call that jumped up metal rod a knife?Watch mine go straight through a kevlar table, and if it dunt do the same to a certain gaixan's skull in my immediate vicinity after, I GET A F*****G REFUND! BUKKO, AH?!- Rekkiy (NerveWire)

When I was in my dating years, I found I was wildly creative for a time after each breakup or dumping. All that energy had to go somewhere. When I got my first real boyfriend, I found I had no will to work on my comic. I actually considered breaking up to keep the comic going.

Yeah, um, just go ahead and shoot yourself before we come and kick the teeth out of your bragging mouth. You can't actually expect us to take your “complaint” seriously.

Jokes aside. I hate it the most when my time is consumed by anything not related to art. And I'm not bragging. In fact, I dislike my situation with a passion. Thank god we've come into an agreement that we won't participate in such activities while in college. It's a huge distraction to me.

I think it all really depends on who you are. Sort of like being left handed, some people are energised by having sex and others it just takes away their energy. I'm more the first group, it just makes me feel so much more productive. If I slept around all the time, like three or four times a day, I'd probably be able to get a graphic novel done in a week.