AngelicDemonhttps://angelicdemon.myblog.de
dephpFeedCreator 2.0.0My 'new' life is on the wayhttps://angelicdemon.myblog.de/angelicdemon/art/195585320
Strange, huh?
<br />But it seems kinda true, to me anyway...Even though I still don't know where I'll be going.
<br />I hate waiting, but that's what I'll have to do now, at least until next monday anyway, well at least I'll get my results from my Leaving Cert. on wednesday, then I'll now if I have any chance of studying in England.
<br />It is a strange feeling though, on one hand I'm really scared because I don't know what's coming, but on the other hand I'm so happy to start something new, that I can barely wait.
<br />Let's just hope that it works out the way I want it to, that's all I can do for now anyway ;PTue, 14 Aug 2007 01:47:36 +0200On being Singlehttps://angelicdemon.myblog.de/angelicdemon/art/155238440
Ok, i must admit i have been single for about two weeks now...and i'm actually rather happy about it...ok ok...i mean it was me who ended the relationship, so i should be happy.
<br />still it doesn't stop me from looking back on it and thinking 'what if...?" however after thinking about all my 'what if's i realised that they had a lot to do with 'what if his character had been different' and that surely isn't the right thing to think, is it?
<br />To me it just proved that our relationship wasn't working and hey, let's just look at the positive thing here.
<br />Yesterday evening i met this incredibly hot guy and now i'm waiting to see if he will actually text me, well why shouldn't he? *g*
<br />Never mind the past, i'm happy with the way things turned out, it was for the best and i just hope he will realize that as well in time!
<br />Luv you all, hugs for free (just ask)
<br />MaiaSat, 12 May 2007 20:43:34 +0200S.O.S?https://angelicdemon.myblog.de/angelicdemon/art/121213088
No, actually not.
<br />At the moment I'm rather happy, maybe because I talked to my two really good friends on the phone. Yesterday I talked to my best friend for like three hours, it was absolutley great...we made all those plans for the summer and talked about everything and everyone. And guess what, if he finds the money he might even come over to see me ^,^
<br />It will be brilliant!
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<br />Anyway...what else have I bee doing? Not much I guess, apart from the usual stuff (studying, less than I should, going out with anna and clara, trying to see my boyfriend as often as i would like to...by the way, it's not really working out...i just decided to blame the school and society ;p)
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<br />Still I'm really happy to have him ^.^
<br />Ok, I have to admit that it's not always perfect or the way I would like it to be, but I guess that's normal...still it's something that I would have to get used to (for this I'm blaming the perfectionist in me)
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<br />Ah well, that's about it from me...this week-end I'm going to watch my freidn get drunk, while I'm going to take as many pictures as possible :D
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<br />Love and Hugs to everyone who cares!
<br />MaiaThu, 15 Mar 2007 17:39:47 +0100The nature of happinesshttps://angelicdemon.myblog.de/angelicdemon/art/45563372
I have been quite a happy and content person for about the last months, the good thing about that: it doesn't look like it's gonna change soon!
<br />Why? I presume there might be some people out there who care to know (if not, I don't give a damn ^,^)
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<br />Now, you all should feel as if I am making a dramatic pause, in order to increase the tension *g*
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<br />*still pausing*
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<br />Enough of the pausing (you should all be excited by now).
<br />Well, I've met some one who makes me feel like no-one before was able to.
<br />I couldn't really understand when people said that they didn't stop thinking about that one person, or that they don't see all the other atractive people out there. I couldn't really understand that it was possible.
<br />But now I do understand fully what it is like.
<br />Is it love?
<br />I am still afraid to call it love...because that tiny little word carries so much meaning. To a certain extent I would even say it puts a kind of pressure on you.
<br />However I enjoy myself, and it is not only because of him (his name being ''Sean'...and guess what he is Irish!)
<br />I haven't stopped smiling for a very long time now, that is also because of my really great two friends that I found here (those two are Anna and Clara, the first one german and the second one spanish).
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<br />I certainly can say that it has been a very long time since I have been so content with everything that is going on in my life, even the school seems to work out just fine.
<br />At that point I am ignoring the fact, that I still didn't get a letter from Cambridge, concerning my application interview.
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<br />Although I must admit that there is one little thing that is bothering me...still, I will sort that out when I'm back in Germany (hopefully)
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<br />Well, that's it for now.
<br />I do hope that someone who reads this will comment...I haven't gotten any comment in quite a while.
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<br />Special love and hugs to all my friends!
<br />MaiaTue, 12 Dec 2006 18:30:00 +0100Muse concert (and some other random stuff)https://angelicdemon.myblog.de/angelicdemon/art/14297048
Ok, well...I haven't written in ages...but I just didn't feel like doing it.
<br />Besides I had other stuff on my mind, like my college applications and partying ;P
<br />The last one of course is not be as important as school, but I still enjoy doing it <img src="https://blogmag.de/ap/smilies/wink2.gif" border="0" align="absmiddle">
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<br />Anyway, on the 3. November I was at the MUSE Concert in Dublin, at the point theatre, it was absloutly brilliant.
<br />It was definitley worth every single euro (48 euro by the way ^^)
<br />Me and Clara we managed to get in to the front row, because I talked to the security people, so they let us go to the very front...well it was because I got nearly squashed at the barrier at I looked pleadingly at the security guy to take me out and he did it ^^
<br />Great, we could basically touch Matthew Bellamy, this was the best thing that happend to me up to now...of course if I would get invited to an interview to Cambridge that would be even better.
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<br />Hm...what else could I write...I guess nothing much, except that I'll be coming back home for christmas, but I won't stay long, 'cause me and my family we are going skiing (for me it would be snowbarding).
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<br />Any comments on Muse or the concert are welcome, they can be in German, I don't mind, French is also accepted :P
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<br />Love you all, I really do hope that I get some kind of response!Tue, 14 Nov 2006 18:32:19 +0100Thank youhttps://angelicdemon.myblog.de/angelicdemon/art/3993666
Den schreib ich mal ausnahmsweise auf Deutsch...wird ja auch nur ein kurzer Eintrag.
<br />Ich hab mir mal grad wieder mein GÃ¤stebuch durchgelesen und wollt mich nur fÃ¼r die tollen EintrÃ¤ge, die ich hab, bedanken...einige liegen mir wirklich am Herzen, den sie sind von Menschen die mir viel bedeuten und von denen ich weiÃ, das sie meine Freunde sind.
<br />Ich bezeichne zwar viele Menschen als Freunde, doch gibt es nur wenige die auch wirklich zu mir stehen.
<br />Ich hoffe ihr wisst wie viel ihr mir bedeutet, denn ohne euch hÃ¤tte ich das letzte Jahr vielleicht nicht so gut Ã¼berstanden.
<br />Danke an Rayko, Katja, Clarissa, Franzi und Anne, ihr seit die Besten!Sat, 15 Jul 2006 11:47:00 +02003 years Animexx, but my first convetion everhttps://angelicdemon.myblog.de/angelicdemon/art/3993537
So...I actually expected a bit more from yesterday, but anyway it turned out to end better than it started.
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<br />What the hell am I talking about you might want to now?
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<br />Well, on friday (yesterday ;P) I was on this convention (Mexx Sommer, for those who might want to know), anyway a guy that I met in school took me there with him.
<br />He basically went around greeting everyone and I just followed him around like a little dog ( a thing that I can't stand, since he, most of the time, didn't even bother to introduce me to anyone).
<br />After a while I just sat on a bench and he went of to some place, with me not knowing anyone.
<br />Some time (maybe an hour or so) later I started talking a little bit to another guy who was sitting next to me, so this basically safed the whole event.
<br />Thanks to him I met some really nice people that actually convinced me of maybe coming again to anonther convention.
<br />I'll see about that, but hopefully I will manage to come to another one, before I leave and go back to Dublin.
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<br />Ok, maybe it was kind of my fault that I didn't meet some people earlier, but my problem was that everyone seemed to know each other and I just felt out of place...and I didn't dare to speak to someone.
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<br />That's all for now, folks ;P
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<br />*hops on to her brom and flies away*
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<br />MaiaSat, 15 Jul 2006 11:29:00 +0200Sleeplesshttps://angelicdemon.myblog.de/angelicdemon/art/3943712
Okay, right now it is one o'clock in the morning...I should be sleeping, but I'm not. Do not ask why, 'cause I can't tell tell you anyway, don't know it even myself.
<br />So...that is why I'm writing a new entry.
<br />What it will be about? ;P
<br />NO IDEA.
<br />Doesn't matter anyway, since I writing this in English, I don't think someone will bother with my silly midnight-weblog-entrys.
<br />I might continue in German, to see if it will make any difference.
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<br />Na jut, dann eben auf Deutsch :P
<br />Stellt sich mir wiedereinmal die groÃe Preisfrage, worÃ¼ber ich schreiben sollte.
<br />Hab eigentlich nur angefangen, weil ich grad eine kurze Pause brauchte von meinem Buch, ist Ã¼brigens echt klasse, kann es nur jedem empfehlen, so wie eigentlich alle anderen BÃ¼cher von Murakami auch, oh, es heiÃt 'Kafka on the shore' von Haruki Murakami...und JA das ist der englische Titel, ich les sowas grundsetzlich, wenn ich es kriegen kann, nur auf englisch.
<br />Die deutschen Ãbersetzungen find ich meist nicht so Ã¼berzeugend.
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<br />So, ich glaub ich geh nu schlafen, bis morgen ihr Freunde der Nacht ^^
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<br />*hÃ¼pft auf ihren Besen und flieg lachend davon*
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<br />P.S.: Ich nehm keine Drogen....Sat, 08 Jul 2006 01:29:51 +0200"And I don't want the world to see me ...https://angelicdemon.myblog.de/angelicdemon/art/3834282
...'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
<br />When everything's made to be broken
<br />I just want you to know who I am" (Goo Goo Dolls, Iris)
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<br />"All your mental armor drags me down
<br />nothing hurts like your mouth" (Bush, Mouth)
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<br />"So tired that I couldn't even sleep
<br />So many secrets I couldn't keep
<br />I promised myself I wouldn't weep
<br />One more promise I couldn't keep" (Soul Asylum, Runaway Train)
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<br />"I don't know what I'm hungry for
<br />I don't know what I want anymore" (REM, Bittersweet Me)
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<br />"I lost myself in sorrow
<br />I lost myself in pain
<br />I lost myself in gravity" (REM, Leave)
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<br />That is basically how I feel right now...empty, describes it quite well.
<br />I'll continue writing in english, 'cause I'm quite sure, that there aren't many people out there who will bother reading this.
<br />If there really is someone, he probably won't leave a message anyway.
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<br />Maybe you would want to know why I feel like that, well, I don't even know it myself, and if I do, I can't describe it.
<br />Right now there are only two things that are keeping me going, the first one is the fact, that I'm going back to Dublin on the 20th of August, the other one is, that there are still some people that mean something to me, and I don't want them to see me cry.
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<br />So...that's all for now
<br />Oh, and next monday we will perform our school play (I'm playing Julliet, maybe you can guess what it is)
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<br />*as usual takes her broom and flies away*Thu, 22 Jun 2006 20:47:00 +0200I amhttps://angelicdemon.myblog.de/angelicdemon/art/3269780
Confused? Don't know...difficult to say how I feel, changed quite a lot over the past few days. Oh, by the way, right now I'm listening to a great feel-good song, 'Die Happy- I am' that's why I this entry will have the titel 'I am'
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<br />Might be wonderig why suddenly I'm writing in english?
<br />No idea ^.^'
<br />Better not ask me why ;D
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<br />Well, as one can probably tell right now I feel pretty good, as just yesterday I felt exactly the opposite...horrible, either I just want to be left alone or go around hugging everybody (and NO I do not have a mid-life crisis...and I am also excluding that I could be pregnant ;P )
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<br />Yeah, that's enough talk about feelings ^.^
<br />Over the holidays I'll try and update more often, maybe I'll continue writing in english (IF anybody cares to read this and leaves me an entry in my guestbook ;P )
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<br />That's all for now, and don't forget, no matter what: THE SHOW MUST GO ON
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<br />*hops on to her broom and flies away*Fri, 07 Apr 2006 14:47:00 +0200