My Slimming World Journey Has Begun!

Monday, 20 July 2015

Today I have embarked on a new chapter in my life, a chapter I should've started as soon as I gave birth to Harper and that chapter is, Slimming World. I have never been a skinny mini, I have never been 1000% happy with my body and I have always been the target of people who say things about my weight. Now, let me get this straight, those people who have tried to insult me or hurt my feelings on a daily basis about my size mean nothing to me, their opinion is completely irrelevant to me, but that doesn't mean it isn't like a dagger in the stomach when someone says something disgusting about my size.

Even when I was a size 12 - 14 I would be abused constantly about my size, even someone I was seeing would say the most disgusting things about my size and allow his friends to attack me and I allowed that to happen to me for nearly 2 years! Now I am 5 stone heavier and miserable, but my weight loss journey is for ME and MY HEALTH, not for those bullies. It actually upsets me even writing this because I can't believe I have allowed myself to get this way. I love fashion and for me, plus size fashion is just not up to scratch. I struggle to follow the trends that I am obsessed with and taking full length photo's is a NO NO. I am a party girl, I love to hang out with my friends and get dressed up, but lately I dread trying clothes on for a night out in fear of looking at myself and seeing the horrific reflection that faces me, I want to look good and for other people to look at me and see how good I look. I am irresistible to Justin, he couldn't care less whether I am 9 stone or 90 stone he still loves me and fancies me more than ever, the continued support he gives me when I have breakdowns at the wardrobe every other day is unbelievable, he puts up with a lot of the issues I have been going through with my weight.

I have so much respect for the plus size women out there who just don't care about any of these really trivial things and I wish I had the body confidence that I have continued to fake as I piled on the pounds over the last 3 years. Everyone who knows me and meets me are so attracted to my confidence and my 'don't give a fuck' attitude and I think over the years of putting on that thick skin, I have started to believe even myself that I don't give a fuck, but I do, I really do.

Another major factor for this is my health, I am constantly sleepy and even running up the stairs finishes me off! I have a 2 year old daughter and I am trying for another, my weight is not ideal for conception and pregnancy, if I continue to have this relationship with food it will cause nothing but problems for me in the future. For my daughter and future children I need to be the healthiest version of myself and I feel guilty for denying them of that.

So why slimming world? I have seen the results my best friend has achieved, she has lost a remarkable amount of weight and still leads a normal life eating out and having BBQs without even really having to worry about it. She's a mummy to two beautiful children and knows how tough it can be to stay on the wagon and has been through similar weight gain issues too, but she is looking absolutely incredible and I am so jealous of her beautiful figure she's achieved and seeing how happy it has made her inside and out. She's my inspiration completely and I can't wait to join her on the journey and start being able to steal her gorgeous clothes again!

I am doing the EXTRA EASY plan, and I will go into a bit more depth about what you can and can't have on it and how it works in a post next week. You can have unlimited lean meats and poultry, potatoes, all vegetables and fruit, and some low fat yoghurts. You have healthy extras A and B that you need to have one of a day and then 10 syns for the days when you need that cheese toastie, chocolate bar or lashings of ketchup on your meal! You can even save up your syns for the week and have a takeaway on a Saturday night! Slimming World is all about being realistic, God knows I couldn't live off 500 calories a day or be without my vodka and diet coke at the weekend. The thing I love about this is the very basic restrictions and the endless possibilities with recipes. I will be posting once a week after my weigh in with heaps of recipes from the week and how i'm feeling, so make sure you're following for weekly updates, tips, tricks and recipes!

Above anything to do with fashion or the way people have treated me it's all about maintaining and creating a healthy lifestyle by making positive changes. My first milestone goal is to lose 4 stone and then after that another 4 stone to reach my target weight of 10 stone, and I just can't wait to share results with you.

I am so glad I got everything I needed to off my chest today, and I hope that current slimming worldies will share their journeys with me and if you have a blog about your slimming world journey please link me to them in the comments below for added inspiration! I would love to hear people's success stories and their personal journeys. If you've been putting off changing your eating habits but your weight is getting you down, please do some research on Slimming World. I'm so excited for this journey and can't wait to share it with you all, thanks for reading!