The text of a talk given by Eugene
Halliday at Parklands. Ishval tape 26

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We have been asked to discuss a very important
problem for young girls, so if any non-young girls would like to
leave they can do so now. Are there any non-young girls about?

No.

No.The problem has been put - what
can a girl do considering the condition of young men today, to get in
touch with her own masculine half, instead of looking for their
masculine half? Any comments on the nature of the problem first?

Why did you?

Are you over twenty-one dear?

Me, no, I am only eighteen.

Joking
apart, you know that women are ageless are they not? So the question
of the advancement of time in relation to women is irrelevant. Every
little girl is born millions of years old and every old lady is a
girl at heart. This is a very serious problem so we will have to
consider it seriously. At the top here we have a circle and this
circle represents the original egg of the human being. We know
there was an original egg because we all derive from parents and at
some remote time in the past there must have been a mutation, a
change in the germ-plasm which turned a creature that was not yet
human into a human being. We know that we start life with a very
simple primordial soup. That is to say the oceans are full of
chemistry, primitively, in a certain delicate state of balance
requiring only a flash of lightening to turn them into the first
stage of living substance. We have to think about this ocean of life
as what we call a protopathic sensorium. Protopathic means the first
kind of sensitive suffering. It is a kind of indiscriminate way of
receiving reality that you see in a newborn baby. A newborn baby does
not yet separate itself from the environment. It has not had
sufficiently intense different stimuli to make it different
in-tensions in the body from the environment. Its body feeling has
not yet been stimulated sufficiently, through the senses,
particularly through sight and hearing, for the child to
differentiate between itself and the environment. Those of you with
good memories will remember that when you were very little children
you were quite unaware of the differentiating lines between things
and between you and external world, you and external feeling, you and
other people’s emotions. You know that if a mother cries, often a
baby cries because the mother cries, not because the mother is
crying, but because it feels the emotion of the mother. This is what
we mean by protopathic experience. It is an experience in which
discrimination of oneself and the other has not yet been made.

Now, imagine a primordial soup, that
is to say, the same kind of chemistry that we could get out of a
single cell in our body, but imagine this same chemistry spread
through the oceans of the world, rather thinly but still there, and
it is sentient, it feels. It is not yet egotistic but it does feel.
It has not got a specific reference centre, it hasn’t got a
particularised idea yet but it has got sensitivity. And this is a
very interesting thing. Imagine this ocean, I mean that literally, an
ocean of chemistry in water and the chemistry is so delicately
balanced that it is sensitive. It becomes colloidal. It begins to
draw upon itself under stimuli. When the stimuli hit it they produce
a reaction and the stimulus can be either just right, that means to
say the energy input can be assimilated fairly easily, or it could be
insufficient, that is to say that the energy input will be so small
that the receiving colloid, the receiving protoplasm could easily
take in more and therefore begins to draw upon it; or, the stimulus
could be excessive. That is to say, the energy input could be so
great that it begins to disturb and even disrupt, break, the
protoplasmic unity and introduce a very primitive form of death by
disintegration. Now, if we imagine, that under repeated stimuli of
the right order certain zones of this primordial soup, this
protoplasmic colloidal soup, begin to cohere and they begin to make
primordial bodies, protoplasmic beings, very vague, very
indeterminate at their edges, but still, nevertheless, they are
beings. They are locatable in space. They do receive stimuli from
outside themselves, and under the stimulus they either draw
themselves together, try to draw more in or try to tense themselves,
to defend themselves against an excessive energy input, but in the
process of this repeated stimulation they gradually become more and
more determinate, their edges become more and more clear until we
finally arrive at a condition that we would recognise when we saw
either an amoeba or a simple mono-cellular life, a life-form of only
one cell, and this is what this circle represents.

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Now you can see, that if we have a
mass of this colloidal chemically balanced protoplasm and the mass is
very big, then the assimilation process of in-taking of stimulus
energy must be relatively very slow. So that if we are going to move
towards integration and towards greater self-consciousness and
greater control, then, we could save a few million years if we were
to accelerate the process of evolution. Now this acceleration
requires that we reduce the size of the mass. We could do this by
simply cutting away, progressively, portions of the mass from the
outside or we can do another trick. We can sub-divide this mass,
process of mitosis, we can cut this mass into millions and millions
of little pieces, all chemically, more or less identical, all
sentient, but now, because of their smaller mass, less inert, more
mobile. Now, if we apply this to a simple monocell, like the egg in a
woman, we find that an egg, which is say, roughly a thousand times
bigger than a sperm from a male, that egg is relatively immobile. It
doesn’t have legs, it doesn’t have a tail, it doesn’t rush
about. When it comes down the fallopian tube, it is shuffled along
that tube by little hair-like processes. It does not have its own
power of motility. Consequently, its movements are relatively very
slow and its change from one environment to another is also slow in
consequence of which, the differential stimuli, the different kinds
of experiences that it has, must also be encountered in a relatively
slow way.

Now, by a simple process of
compression, of further reduction of the protoplasmic cell and of
protruding from that cell of a portion of it, and a specialisation of
it into a tail, we turn a primary monocell into a sperm. This sperm
has its own motor. If you put a sperm under a microscope you can see,
and with the electron microscope today, you can see very well, the
sub-division along the tail. Think about the head of a sperm is just
like the ovum that a woman carries but the tail of that sperm is the
same kind of protoplasm but specially organised to propel itself
along at a very fast rate considering its small size. In other words,
the sperm shows you a way of travelling through an environment more
and more quickly and thus gaining more and more experience in less
and less time. Now this is the origin of the differentiation into
what we know as male and female, and the characteristics, physically
and psychologically are in correspondence. That is to say that the
ovum of the woman is relatively less mobile, is more dependent on
external stimulus to move it along, whereas the sperm of a man is
self-mobilising, has a principle inside it of utilising energy to
thrash its tail and drive itself along. Now in the same way, the
female tends to the type of the ovum. That is to say, she tends to be
relatively immobile unless stimulated from outside, and the male, the
sperm mentality tends to be drivey and push itself about and pursue
external experiences in a way that the ovum of the woman does not. So
we could say these being correspondent, the analogue is quite
practically good enough, the woman specialises in physicality and
immobility and sensitivity; she feels but she is relatively immobile.
If she does not get the external stimulus she would tend to be still
and she would tend to feel. We have mentioned before, that in the
butterfly-catching industry in South America, you get one female
butterfly, hang her in a tree in a cage and from all directions of
the compass come male butterflies. Now, it cannot be that she is
sending out a perfume because that would depend on the wind to carry
it away, and the male butterflies would come in a direction
determined by the wind. But they come from all directions. This means
that the female is somehow, sending out a message to the males, “Come
here.” She is the centre of a radiating sensorium. This means to
say that the males are tuned, without their being aware of it, to
respond to the call from the female element.

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Let us think about this very
carefully because it is absolutely basic. The woman is, apparently,
still, apparently immobile physically, but she is permeated by and
surrounded by an extended bio magnetic field and she is continuously
pulling into the centre of her being with a special message, “I am
here, I am female, come and get me.” And this goes out from her
being and at a very, very subtle level; the sperm can feel that there
is a direction in which he must move. Something in him drives him,
the energy in the tail part of his being, something in him receives a
direction. So he rushes about, at first haphazardly and then out of
his movements the sensitivity comes, “We go this way.” So that a
sperm can find its way over what for it is a very long distance in a
very difficult situation and it can swim into the uterus and up the
fallopian tube and meet an egg. There is a peculiarly subtle
interrelation between these two.

Now, if we remember what we said, if
this cell eats and gets bigger, the bigger it gets, the less quick it
will be able to move. It will move less and less quickly the bigger
it gets and therefore from a point of view of survival probabilities
it would be better for it to limit its size so that it does not
become so immobile
that it cannot escape an enemy, or cannot acquire information quickly
enough, so a division of labour occurs. The egg, the primordial mass,
what is called in certain oriental philosophies, the Cosmic Egg, the
energy field that comes from the Sun, what in Indian philosophy is
called Surya Prana, the prana, the energy from the Sun, that
energy divides itself. Here in the diagram, we put a simple straight
line to divide it, that is for our convenience. And then, it
separates itself out and one half goes into one environment and the
other goes into another. Imagine in the
water, such a piece of protoplasm, having an experience of its
environment, then divides itself and then swims away, east and west.
Supposing one half goes into deeper water, one half into shallower
water. Then, the one that goes into deep water, if it goes down will
receive less stimulation from the Sun’s energy than the one that
goes into the shallower water and so there will be an energy
differentiation in the two. The one that gets the greater stimulation
will begin to show the greatest type of reactivity and the one that
gets the less stimulation will be relatively slower. So, we find in
the oceans, a kind of life, apart from a few predators like very fast
sharks, and so on, we find a peculiar type of life, a jellyfish,
which is carried largely by the tides of the sea, but when it does
move, it moves in a very gentle, undulating way, very reminiscent of
the way females walk and move and this jellyfish kind of life is a
sort of type-life for the ocean. It is an undulating life; it is
cyclically phasic life. It is life very, very sensitive to ocean
currents, it is very sensitive to moon phases and it is aware of the
environment round it and the pressures of tides, the differences of
temperature more than a quick-moving predator, also in the sea, like
a shark.

Now,
we know, that in the evolutionary sense, the animals that first
appeared on the land had climbed out of the sea. They must have been
ones near the edge of the sea and as they climbed out, like certain
mudskippers do even today, they turned their fins into legs. There
are fish, the other side of the Equator that can climb trees. You may
know, some of the fish, after the Pacific atomic bomb experiments,
some of
the fish came out of the sea and started walking about on their fins.
Some kind of mutation was occurring, something similar to the one
that occurred millions of years ago. Those that developed legs are
beginning to become more directionally conscious. Now separate them
out in this way and then we will put a differentiator on it to remind
us, we will call this the dexter side in heraldry, the right hand
side. Imagine this is a shield facing you, carried by the enemy. That
is where he puts his lance, that is his right side and that is his
left. Now in heraldry the right side is called dexter, that means
done externally, and the left side is called sinister that means
hidden, secret. The dexter side is the side that grows the tail and
the other side will round itself off and become an egg. But because,
when we divided these two, we pushed the two halves apart, we left a
bio-magnetic charge, it is even measurable, electronically, today in
terms of micro-volts, we need a charge that means that they are
continuously being reminded, bio-magnetically, that really they are
the same being, split. Now this is the basis of all human ethics and
it is the basis of sexual relationship. The original protoplasm,
having divided, went off in two different directions and one side of
it tended to develop more motility than the other and that particular
side eventually finished up with a tail and we call those boys and
the other ones girls.

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Now
there is a great advantage to this, as we shall see later but there
is a terrible disadvantage until you understand it. The two halves
(here) when they have been away in different environments for a long
time, they have a different internal content, don’t they? One knows
about shallow waters, one knows about deep waters, the more they
differentiate in this way, the less vocabulary they have in common.
And this is represented in early Renaissance and Mediaeval
manuscripts by turning the circle round and putting the two halves
back to back and then tying them together. The tension between them
guarantees that they are interested in each other but the difference
of their environmental stimulus records guarantees that they cannot
understand each other. Now this itself is a bad-good thing. It is
bad because the two partners to the alliance have dissimilar
vocabularies, dissimilar ideas and find it extremely difficult to
understand each other. But that very, very same thing which, if they
could understand each other, would not exist, because if they could
understand each other, they would be happy, and they would be
adjustable and they would do that terrible thing, falling into
comfort mechanisms. If they really got on as well with each other as
they would like to do, they would fall asleep in each other’s arms.
You know what young lovers are like, they like to be in each other’s
arms and they like to think nobody else exists and they like to think
they are in a kind of private Eden, and they would like to stay there
for ever and ever, Amen. But if they did what they want to do they
could not evolve. So, mysteriously, the differential stimuli that
have made these beings, warning, are very useful for furthering
evolution, for accelerating the rate of development of us, because,
every time we have a misunderstanding, we stimulate each other more
and more and more in an annoying way. And this kind of stimulation
forces us to try to find new ways of adjusting ourselves to this
double attack.

Now, using the terminology of
Ancient Egypt, we could say once upon a time there was a period
called the Period of Isis. Isis is the moon goddess and the old
anthropologists would have said, studying that period, it was a
period of matriarchy. It was the period when men did not know that
they fathered children, because it is, say, ten lunar months from
intercourse to the production of a child, and it a long time to
remember where you were. So, there seemed to be hardly any connection
between the increasing girth of this lady and something that happened
in a semi-drunken stupor ten lunar months ago, so the gentleman
responsible, not response-able, responsible, liable to be called to
account, saw no connection between it. And, for thousands and
thousands of years, men did not know that they were the fathers of
children. And, during this period, they worshipped the woman as a
kind of magical creature, a goddess, omniscient, omnipotent because
she, the Great Mother, Mahama, the great Ma of the Universe, she knew
everything about everybody and she had a deep intuition and somehow,
what happened to her to produce the child had got something to do
with the men. Even today, sensitive women know when they have
conceived. At proletarian level they call it ‘clicked.’ I don’t
know whether you have ever heard that expression, “Mm I’ve
clicked. How awful! Tut, tut, tut.What will I do now?” They become
aware of a peculiar kind of change of bio-tension inside themselves
that now spells ‘pregnancy’. And when they get it, they know they
have got it, but the men don’t know they have got it until the
girls tell them.

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Now, for thousands of years, women
with this secret information dominated the human race. The Great
Grandmother dominated all her daughters and sons and all her
granddaughters and grandsons so that three generations constituted a
tribe. Tri, three, be, house. In one great house called
the long house there three generations and that was enough to
constitute a tribe because this magical woman could have lots and
lots of husbands because they saw no connection and she could have
children and as soon as the children were born and became themselves
nubile, they could start on the same process and then her
grand-children. Soon there would be quite a lot of these and she, the
Grand Mother of all of these, could order them about because she was
the source of their being. She was the great goddess, she was Ishtar,
she was Ashtaroth, she was Isis, she was the great Moon Goddess. So
the anthropologists will tell you about these matriarchal, lunar
cultures. They are lunar cultures because the women know that
something to do with this pregnancy thing is menstruation and this
has something to do with the moon. So we call them the great
matriarchal, lunar cultures and this went on for a long time and we
find plenty of evidence, not only in the peat bogs of Denmark where
men are pegged out and left there to die, having been previously
carefully drugged so that they won’t fight too much, because you
know that ladies are very good at making Irish stews that are lethal,
and on one special historic occasion, a mutant arose. A man suddenly
got an idea. His mind suddenly made a connection. The connection was
quite simple. He observed that the women who were capable of becoming
pregnant, weren’t too bad looking, and some that were absolutely
horrible to look at had not got this magical power. So he began to
think, “Why do the horrids not beget these magical children?” And
he began to think and he discovered the horrids don’t have visitors
called men. And they click, like one of Cruella’s chimpanzees,
“Ah,” insight, “It is something to do with us!”

So he thought, well we will try it.
Socrates gives evidence of this because he says a man who has
intercourse only with beautiful ladies, isn’t really testing
himself. So, how about getting a horrid that hasn’t managed to do
this magical trick and doing a little bit of early empirical
experiment with her. It is not difficult to get her to join in the
experiment so why not try, and behold, result, the horrids deliver a
child, only half horrid. These half-horrids, incidentally, in the
Bible, are called the nephelim, titans. Winston Churchill was one.
Roosevelt was another, Stalin was another, Mussolini was another,
half-horrids. I am not joking you know.

Now, once the secret was out, did
the man that discovered it tell everybody? Give me an offer. Did he
tell everybody?

No.

Why not?

Power trick.

Power trick. If you told all the men
they would all start wanting to be free wouldn’t they. They might
all start being generous to the horrids. What they would become aware
of was that they need not obey women as goddesses any more.

So, he had a problem. He had
discovered it. He could not work the thing single handed so he
invented Free-Masonry, old style. That is to say he told his closest
friend about this and said, “Try it out and see if it isn’t true,
and then we will make a brotherhood of knowledgeable men who know the
rules. And we will make a band of such men and then we will rise up
and we will overthrow the matriarchs.” And they got together and
they made a club, first gentleman’s club, means where the gentlemen
club together, and we have the Rape of the Sabine Women and the
overthrow of the Amazon Women as historical examples of this process.
Suddenly the men with the insight get together, they smash the
matriarchal authority. Once they have done so, they begin to go about
in that reactive manner that the newly free always do do. They went
about, they smashed every evidence they could find of matriarchal
dominion and they established a new thing called The Age of Osiris,
the Sun God, the Patriarch, Daddy is now in charge.

But not all men were told this
truth. Most of them, 95 per cent of them were left with the illusion
that mother still ruled. This is what we call Mariolatry, the worship
of the Mary principle or Mother principle is for the generality of
men who are not to be told that men really can be fathers, really
have initiative, really can show more mobility and a greater capacity
to evolve at faster rates than women do. Now, once again, it had to
be a secret to begin with and that was a good thing, because it meant
that only the best men were let into the secret, but, like all secret
organisations it had a drawback, because it produced an oligarchy of
men, who very jealously guarded their secret and would not let them
out, even to men that could have understood them. And so there
appeared a great social division between a handful of men that knew
the rules and a great mass of men who did not.

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Now, the battle raged between the
women and the men. We had a division of labour. The men went out and
they gathered food or they hunted and the women stayed at home, and
when the food was brought back, they cooked it, they divided it, and
this is the origin of woman stay at home, man go out. It is perfectly
obvious that when the men were out hunting and shootin’ and fishin’
and things like that, they were being wildly excited in what was
happening, interesting things were happening; and when the women were
at home there was nothing much going on except a waiting process for
the men to return. So, the domestic, closed situation was less
stimulating than the external, exposed hunting situation. So, again,
the men had been gaining through plentiful stimuli, more and more
opportunity for accelerated development and the women were slowing
down. But, when the men finally overthrew the matriarchs and
established the Age of Osiris, the Sun-worshipping patriarch, the
women did not take it completely lying down. Whatever weapons they
had got they used and they hit back wherever they could. Now because
they were the keepers of the house and the preparers of the food,
they became specialists in poisoning techniques as the men had been
specialists in violence techniques. And so, when the women did not
particularly like the bad way they were being treated by the men,
they retaliated by bad cooking and sometimes by lethal cooking, as
you know, right up into the Italian Renaissance when this kind of
poisoning technique was largely a woman’s weapon.

This process was never exposed
thoroughly to both men and women and the battle raged between the
lunar, matriarchal cultures and the solar patriarchal cultures and
from side to side, the stimuli swung and they gradually produced
another type. And this type we call the Age of Horus. Horus is a
hawk-headed god and he is the product, he is the son of Isis in the
myth and of Osiris, he is the being who is being born today. This is
very interesting, because through the clash of man-woman in the
marital situation the children are progressively becoming more and
more hermaphroditic. That is to say, instead of a straight, clear
division, as in the early days of the matriarchs where the men went
out and baby knew where daddy was, he had gone a-hunting to get a
rabbit skin to wrap the baby bunting in. And he knew where mother
was, she was at home, cooking it and saving the best bits for her
lover. Now, gradually, through the interchange of the inter-marital
fight, the children saw sometimes daddy won, sometimes mother won but
you could never tell which one was going to win the final battle. So,
a new law began to operate, the Horus Law. Horus means, like the word
horse means, hierarchy of powers, hierarchy. The child began to see
there was a hierarchy of power that swung from the dexter to the
sinister side and back again to the dexter side and it was
continuously oscillating. So, in progressive generations this law
operated. Now, you know that if children see father and mother
fighting, they always watch with wide eyes to see who wins, and if
there is a clear victory for one or the other, the child copies the
behaviour of the victor. So, in the old days, a boy with a hunting
father who knew how to hit out, he would stand up and he would hit
out too. And if the father was not there and he saw the mother giving
orders, he would wonder whether he ought not better be a mother.
Transvestism today is just another echo of this kind of problem. But,
when the battle rages, the child copies both. This is very
interesting. So that as we go forwards in evolution we show that we
are more and more obviously hermaphroditic. That is to say, we have
techniques of the man and the woman in both the boys and the girls.
It is this fact that led this young girl to say, “Can we please
talk about the problem for a girl who, today, when she goes to get a
boy, often finds she is getting somebody as girlish as she is.” How
can she contact the man within? We know there is a man within because
the original egg divided into male and female, so the original
protoplasmic mass must have had the potentiality of maleness and
femaleness, and that potentiality has been split, different
environments have been encountered, different experiences have been
gained and all those experiences are recorded in the human
protoplasm. So that today, we are in the Age of Horus, we are in the
age of that combined being who has learned tricks from the mother and
tricks from the father, and at this stage of evolution doesn’t know
whether to go on one side or the other but has not clearly seen that
he has to go on both sides and unify these two techniques of life and
bring them back into the original state of unity plus the value of
the memory of the separated evolutionary steps through which it has
gone.

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Now the question was, “How does a
girl get in touch with the man within her?” The search for that has
produced, as you know, a new type of being, a girl that begins to
think that she might think. She has been provoked to it by a boy who
is looking at his mother and father and using a bit of the techniques
of both so that he has not got the decisiveness of one of the
Nietzschean Supermen. Remember Nietzsche, in describing the Superman
the Germanic blond beast said, “Women are for the delectation of
the warrior.” That is only the Nineteenth Century. “Women are for
the delectation of the warrior.” That means that they have really
no other use than amusing men after the men have had a battle. That
was an attempt to restate an ancient tradition, we can call it the
Mithraic tradition if we like, the age of the militarist male, who by
sheer physical force, by initiative, by deliberate violence, can
conquer external beings and then appropriate them to his use. That
blond beast, as defined, if he really existed in his pure form would
smash all opposition with violence and would then divide the defeated
into two categories, those he could use as slaves and those worthy of
his sexual attention. Now we know that that was a kind of pipe dream,
that the blond beast in his pure form does not exist. We know that
Hitler himself was not a blond beast. We know that a lot of the Nazi
parties did not have blue eyes and sunny, golden hair. A lot of them
had brown eyes and brown or black hair. They were not pure enough to
fulfil the definition. What we do know is, that all people being born
today and that have been born since the turn of this century, are
tending towards a hermaphroditic state. That is, they are tending to
balance the male and female sides of their being so that the males in
them are there and the females in them. So that if it has got the
external form of a boy, more or less, it does not mean that it is an
old Mithraic, militarist man of initiative and violence. It could
equally well be a very, very quiet, subtle weaver of patterns of
feelings and of ideas, a wheedler as much as a man of violence.
Simultaneously, because of this female emergent in the so-called
male, the females have had to start thinking to themselves, “Can we
find a masculine principle inside ourselves so that we can rescue
ourselves from being toys for warriors, considering the warriors
don’t exist?”

Now, having set the general outline
of this, we can now start to answer the question. The question is -
How does a girl get in contact with the male side of her being? Let
us assume, for a moment, that until we get the balance of
male/femaleness properly inside ourselves as individuals, we will
never attain ultimate happiness. Let us see why. Because we have a
physical body, and we have said that is a female stress, and we have
a feeling kind of existence and that is female, but we also have
motility, mobility and this mobility is masculine. Women are as
mobile today as men are. They have a superior stress on their feeling
and their preference for physicality but, in fact, they can move. A
woman on skis can give quite a good performance today. She is not
just a piece of jelly sitting in the shack waiting for male gentleman
to come back off the ski run. She is able to join in and she does not
tumble much more than he does except in the early stages, which is so
she can be picked up by him.

Now, how to become in contact with
the masculine side of being, the female has to initiate activity
inside herself because initiative, the starting of mobility is a
masculine characteristic, and she has to do another thing, she has to
commit herself to the logic of the situation. Now this is the hardest
thing. The male mind has developed itself logically whilst the female
was developing in feeling and emotion. So, for a female to develop
her masculine side she has to develop submission to logic. Now, tell
me truthfully, ladies, do you like the idea of submitting your lives
to the dictates of logic?

No.

Any offers? Logic.

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Let me tell you of two kinds of
logic now. One we will call Aristotelian Logic. The Aristotelian
Logic is very rudimentary, it is very simple. It consists in saying
that the letter A shall represent the letter A, and any other letter
than the letter A shall not represent the letter A. We call that A
equals A and not-A equals not-A. And another law, a being must either
be A or not-A, it can’t be in the middle. Now that is all that it
is. A thing is what it is, it is not what it is not, and between
being what it is and being what it is not there is no middle. That is
Aristotelian logic. That is very simple. Is there any problem about
it? You are what you are, you are not what you are not and between
being what you are and not being what you are there is no middle.
Sounds easy doesn’t it? An orange is an orange, it is not a
non-orange; a non-orange is not an orange, and between being an
orange and a non-orange there is no middle. Sounds crazy doesn’t
it? It is simple and it is useful in certain clearly defined
situations to do with material objects that can be clearly defined
and separated from each other. But, it hasn’t much use outside.

Supposing we take an example, we
take one apple, verily it is an apple and not a not-apple, and we
start to peel it with our teeth. Is it still an apple when we take
the first bit off? Is it a slightly peeled apple? So you go round it
until you have got all the peel off, is it now a peeled apple? Then
you start biting into it. First bite. Is it now an apple with one
bite out or is it less an apple? And you go on biting bits out. At a
certain critical point you come to the old joke about is it a
half-apple, not eaten, or is it a not-half-apple, that is the part
that has been eaten. Or is the pint of beer half drunk, half full or
half empty? In any dynamic situation, in any changing situation, that
logic is too crude.

So we have another kind of logic and
this kind of logic we call logologic from logos, a Greek word
meaning ratio and it is the word that is used in the fourth gospel to
signify the second person of the Trinity, the Creator of the world.
Logos, ratio, logos, a word that means ratio, the ratio of realities.
This Logos is the same concept that is applied to the person of Jesus
Christ, he is the Incarnate Logos. That simply means he is a man who
has wholly given himself to operate the principle of the Logos.

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9

Now, we are going to draw the Logos
so that we don’t get mixed up. Sometimes a diagram saves a lot of
trouble. Here is the Greek letter L, (Λ), λ, that is lambda and
here is the Greek letter gamma (Γ) γ. I will thicken the
gamma one up to differentiate it, γ. We have now written the
word ‘leg’ or ‘log or ‘lig.’ In a primitive language like
Hebrew or Arabic, there were no vowels as there were not in the
Egyptian. So we can say we have written L, hard G, gamma.
Lambda gamma. Now the lambda signifies light, signifies
consciousness and the gamma signifies physical body, inertia,
unconsciousness. And now we are going to make a very funny,
dialectical statement. Whatever we can assert of the one we can
assert of the other, only hidden. That is to say that the gamma
is lambda inverted and the lambda is gamma
inverted. We will find this to be a very important concept. Your
consciousness is the sole means whereby you know that there is a
world. The world is gamma, that is, substantiality. Lambda
is consciousness but the only evidence that you have that there is a
world equals gamma, is your consciousness equals lambda.
That is to say, the world that you know, and this includes your
physical body, which is a gamma function, the world that you
know is a phenomenon in and of, consciousness. No lambda, that
is, consciousness, no gamma. But no gamma, that equals
physical body, no content for lambda. If you have not got a
body, you have not got a content for consciousness.

Now
that is L G. We will put an O in the middle and an O round it outside
like that, we have now written logo, LOGO. We lack only an S which we
will put in in a moment. The small circle on the inside we will let
represent the O that follows the L, and the big one we will let
represent the O that follows the hard G, the gamma. So we
could read L O, and we could read Go, LOGO. And logo means a body
permeated with consciousness. Golo means appetite-eating substance.
When you talk about your gullet, down here and when you talk about
the golo or colon you are using the same word in a slightly modified
way. The appetival nature that draws in energy in the form of food
and deposits it in the physical body is the gamma principle
and the consciousness, the lambda just observes that
consciousness. Now let us just for a moment allot these two to the
male and female principles and a very interesting piece of dialectic
comes in. The gamma is occupied with physicality so we will
have to say it is feminine, the gamma principle is feminine,
it is to do with the physical body and the sensation of physicality.
But the lambda principle is to do with consciousness and
because consciousness is structured formally, it is to do with formal
awareness, with intellect, it is male. So we say the gamma is
female the lambda is male. And yet mysteriously, because women
receive from men in the process of being impregnated and they receive
factors of heredity which they perpetuate through their children, and
there are gifts in children, because children receive. The children
receive characteristics from the parents, so the abilities of the
child are a product of the lambda-gamma relation of the
parents. And, as each child has two parents, it follow that there
must be a gamma-aspect female in the child, that is its
physicality, and there must be a lambda-aspect in the child,
the pre-occupation with the increase of consciousness which is male.
So, every child born is male-female.

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Now, you know this word, eunuch,
I’ll put a hyphen in there. (eu-nuch) The statement in the new
Testament, “Some are born eunuchs, some are made eunuchs by men and
some become eunuchs for the Kingdom of Heaven’s sake.” Now this
little couple of letters here (eu) is a Greek prefix meaning
‘the best’ or ‘noble’, and the nuch is the form of the
word noah and nous means intelligence, so the word
eunuch means the most intelligent way to be. Now this statement of
Christ’s, “Some are born eunuchs, some are made eunuchs by men,
some become eunuchs for the Kingdom of Heaven’s sake,” led to one
of the greatest errors of the early Christian period. It led to
certain men, who thought they were going to secure power if they
gained this eunuch form, to sacrificing their genital organs by
cutting them off. They thought if it is true, the Kingdom of Heaven
consists in power, and you will see the Kingdom of Heaven coming in
power, and, mysteriously, their Great Teacher has said, “Some are
born eunuchs,” that means with the best way of living, “some are
made so by men, and some become so for the Kingdom of Heaven’s
sake,” that means in order to secure power, if you cut off your
sexuality you will get it. Now the men that did do this, called the
sacrifitium phalli or cutting off of the male organs to get
this power have made an equation that the generative power in the
human being, as in the animal world, as in the plant world, is
somehow, mysteriously connected with the force of evolution. So that
if you stop the leakage through the sexual nature you will retain the
power that would otherwise be lost and you will become very powerful
and you will be able to rule people. Now early church leaders who
performed this sacrifice on themselves, became very great nuisances
to everybody else, because once they had done it they assumed they
were powerful and they began pushing people around and if you read
early church history you find some lovely examples of the men that
did this and what terrible nuisances they became to everybody because
now, the energy they were not expending in the old way of sex, had
sublimated itself in the body and become a wonderful new talent of
criticising, dogmatising and ordering about. The energy not expended
physically was now being expended mentally and especially verbally,
pushing people about. There had been a misunderstanding of the
principle.

Now what Christ meant by this was
something slightly different. Slightly different like the opposite of
it. What he meant to say was, some people are born in a state of
balance such that, they are conscious of their physicality, the gamma
function, conscious that they are conscious, that is the lambda
function, a few people are aware that they are physical and they are
also intelligent, conscious beings of initiative. Now, some other
people are not born in that way, there are very few like that, but
they are made so by what? By education. That is to say you can take a
fellow who was not born with this insight, “I am a physical body,
gamma but I am also an intelligence, lambda, with my
physical body I can receive sense stimuli from objects around me but
with my intelligence I can categorise and use those stimuli to change
my environment. We get hold of some people who are interested to be
educated and we can start, “Some are made eunuchs by men.” That
is, some are educated to know they are physical bodies, they are also
intelligences. They are great thinkers but they have sensitive
feelings too. So they have physicality, a female principle,
sensitivity, a female principle, intellectuality, a male principle
and initiative, a male principle, all in the same being, and you can
be educated to do this. You can teach a child that it is a physical
body, you can get hold of it and say, “Look, this is a physical
body, I am holding it. Try and get out of my grip.” The child tries
to get out and you don’t let him out. “You see, you cannot get
out of my grip but you can try. I want you to try harder.” And then
when the child tries harder, you loosen your grip a bit and
apparently the little boy escapes and he smiles. He has now got
positivity, he can get out of your grip, and you encourage the child
by putting it in difficult situations and then releasing it subtly so
that it actually thinks it has won. This way you educate it into
self-confidence, it actually begins to see that it can initiate
itself. And then you take little puzzles and you show him how to put
bricks together, and how to get pieces of bent nails and put them
together and take them apart, and Chinese Puzzlery and you say, “This
is the development of your intellect.” There is a way of doing this
thing, this is called making eunuchs by men, that is, in a true
educational process.

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But then, there is a third way,
“Some become eunuchs for the Kingdom of Heaven’s sake.” Now,
the Kingdom of Heaven consists in power. It consists in a field of
energy that is so subtle that your physical eyes cannot see it but it
is really there. We will have a little of silence for this bit.
Listen to the silence a bit. Can you hear that the noise of the
machine was being adjusted to beforehand, but now you can hear
something else? You can hear what you call silence. It has a
characteristic, doesn’t it? It is not nothing. If you listen, can
you hear funny noises? Can you hear the noise of that lamp? Can you
hear something running somewhere, like somebody may have left a tap
on? If you listen very carefully you will begin to hear the sound of
somebody moving a sleeve which you would have not noticed before
would you? And then think, your sensitivity can be extended to
infinity. The only reason it has not been kept so is because of
concentration upon the particular material objective that has been
chosen and imposed in a materially biased educational system. So we
can extend our sensitivities beyond anything that ordinary sense
perception knows about. When people do this deliberately they are
called sensitives. Some so-called spiritualist mediums approximate to
this. Yoga practice is supposed to help you to develop it; meditation
can help you to develop it. And when you understand the increase of
sensitivity is increase of sense data, the more quiet you can make
yourself, the more you can hear. The more you can hear, the more
information you get. So that increase of sensitivity is a movement
towards power, it is a movement towards knowing more and being able
to do more, because when you know more, and you adjust to what you
know, you can accomplish more. Then you discover, in your sensitivity
you find a peculiar thing about the sense of hearing. It convinces
you that you are a being of initiative.

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Just do this little experiment.
Listen to the sound of the air. …………………… Can you feel
inside you a kind of tension……..? You call it psychologically,
attention, pay attention to the air, see if you can hear sound. Is it
absolutely silent? No. Now, while you are listening, I want you to
focus on something like say, that lamp or that one. See if the
quality of the content of consciousness changes. Does it remain the
same?……………….. Is it exactly the same? Try this little
modification, listen very carefully and then focus on the person next
to you, close your eyes and listen to the person next to you……
See if you can hear them breathing………. See if you can feel the
rhythm in their body as the lungs contract … and expand. Have you
got no information or some information? Some information…. is there
anybody with no information about the person next to them?……

Yes I have.

You? Sure? Well you always have no
information about the person next to you don’t you? Because you are
my best example, aren’t you? You are focussed, self-confessed, on
you, right? So you don’t really want to know what is going on in
anybody else, do you?

Not true.

Let us try it. Is it not true,
generally, of you, that you don’t want to know anything about
anybody unless it adds to your power? Particularise physical problem
and focus on your body as a means to solve it, you logically cut
yourself off from the extension of sensitivity. Right? If you feel
and listen, you will get more information than you had and in the
process of this you will discover your initiative because to feel in
this way you have to focus and you have remember that you are
focussing and you have to tell yourself, “I am focussing on this
being, or that being or the other being,” and you discover that you
have this power to converge upon a content of consciousness. Let us
do an example with my friend Gerhardt again, who will oblige by
telling me, are you aware of that spotlight up there Gerhardt without
turning your eyes?

No.

With your eyes open, are you aware
that it is there without turning your head?

No, Not really.

Not really. Are you aware of that
one without turning your head?

Yes.

You are. You head is slightly canted
towards that side, isn’t it?

Mmm.

Now put it half way between these
two lights, I want you to shift your attention to the periphery of
the eye. In other words, instead of focussing sharply on an object,
somewhere here, I want you to put your eyes out of focus and shift
the attention to the periphery of the eye and then tell me whether
you are not aware that there is a light over there and a light over
there without turning your eyes.

Amazing, I
am aware of those two lights but not of this one you were talking
about.

But you are aware of these two?
Normally, in your usual process, you wouldn’t bother to make such
an observation would you? Now while you are peripherally aware of
those two, I want you to do this little experiment. I want you to
shift your attention but not your eyes, don’t move your eyes, shift
your attention to that light and notice what happens inside you. Then
shift your attention to that light and notice what happens inside
you……. Can you feel that you can do this shift?

There is a
slight change, yes.

There is a slight change. Now can
you feel what you are doing inside your head to do it?

It is a shift of attention isn’t
it?

A shift of attention. Now this shift
of attention is, today, measurable. It is a shift of a bio-magnetic
field in the brain and this can be measured, in micro volts, just
like a muscle tension could be measured in milli volts, a very small
amount of current but there is a definite tension there. When we pay
attention to anything we actually tense the bio-magnetic field, that
means the field of our life. Our life is an energy, that energy is
able to tense itself, and that tension, that power of focus we call
masculine. The power of formal convergence, formal focus we call
masculine. To bring consciousness to a point is masculine; to leave
it spread out is feminine. That is to say, if I don’t focus now, I
am not focussing my eyes, but I am aware of all the people in the
room, now that is a feminine act, because I am not focussed. Now I am
using the feminine side of my being, I am aware of all the people
here, and I am not focussed. That is feminine. Now I will
deliberately look at my friend Josie, there, I will converge upon
her. In doing so, I have put the others over here, very much out of
my awareness, and those, Josie is my centre of concentration, that
concentration, that convergence, is masculine. It is exactly the same
function that created the sperm out of a one-time egg, convergence. I
am aware of the lady in front of her, but not so intensely as of
Josie. I am aware of Georgie behind Josie but not so intensely as I
am aware of Josie.

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Now Socrates said, and the Greeks
generally believed, that when you look at somebody, then the energy
goes out of the eye and modern optical theory said piffle, rubbish,
light comes in at the eyes but nothing goes out. But very careful
measurements show that there is a real polarity in the human eye,
electrical. You can put electrodes on your eyeballs, you can turn
your eyes sideways and put an electrode there at the outside of the
eye and therefore you can measure towards the back of the eye there
and towards the front of the eye there and you actually find a field
difference between the front and the back of the eye, in which the
front of the eye is positive and the back of the eye is negative.
That means to say, there is really a tension in the field. The field
is energy, spread out and this energy is able to converge, to focus
itself, and when it focuses, it is masculine and when it spreads
itself, it is feminine. Now, it is obvious, that when you spread
yourself, consciously you get generalised information. In fact, when
you are driving your car, normally, you are driving like a woman,
that is to say, you drive with your consciousness spread out. You are
aware whether there is a person about to step off the pavement there,
whether there is a dog over there. You get them peripherally and the
moment you see the possibility of the danger you convert from the
feminine to the masculine, you converge. You are aware that there is
a dog running along the pavement. If it steps off the pavement you do
a quick flick, you catch it. That quick, convergent flick is
masculine, the generalised awareness is feminine. There is two kinds
of awareness there, convergent – masculine, spread – feminine,
but to make the change you have to use your initiative, and the
initiative is masculine whereas the passive acceptance of the
situation is feminine. So, supposing you were driving down the road
and you had your feminine mode operating, spread, you are aware a dog
is going down the pavement, you are also aware that it has stepped
off the pavement but you didn’t bother to converge upon it to see
how far it has gone. So you hit the dog and kill it. That was a
feminine act because you didn’t converge. Now if on the other hand,
you were looking too wildly for stray dogs, like this, and birds in
the air and butterflies on the windscreen, you would be so convergent
and so multiplicity impelled by myriads of stimuli, you would lose
your feminine general awareness and you would crash into something in
a male way. These two kinds of accidents, diffused consciousness
accidents and excessively convergent accidents. What we want to do is
have both kinds of accidents, deliberately, at will, when necessary.

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Now, the question was, how do girls
get in contact with their male half. The answer is by first deciding
that they never, ever, of course they will fail, but first they must
make the decision, they are never, ever going to wait for a boy to
take the initiative again. They are not going to diffuse their
consciousness merely, they are going to converge. They are going to
learn to look for what they think worth having and go over and get
it. They will march over to a boy and they will look at him and say,
“Haven’t we met before somewhere, girl?” They are going to do
it, do you see? When they do this they are masculine.

Now, because of the feminisation of
the Horus period, that is today, kind of boy, it is surprising how
often they will get away with it. That is, they will catch themselves
what is called, a wife-type husband, with that technique. But the
way to do it is by convergence. It is one way. Convergence must be
gained if you are to get in contact with your masculine half. But not
only convergence, initiative. You must initiate changes. If one
technique fails you just change it for another technique and you
never allow yourself to merely diffuse your consciousness and stay in
that state and you never allow yourself to fall into physical
inertias. So, there is the technique.

You cultivate convergence and
initiative, subjection to the logic of the situation and you let
these gradually take over the direction of your life, instead of the
opposite. Spread awareness, waiting for it and the inertia of
physicality.

Now, the question is, “Is it worth
doing?” And the answer is, “Yes,” are you smiling at that,
Jeremy? Is it worth doing? Is it worth doing Jeremy?

In some cases.

In some cases it is. You know that
old silly joke about when men were men and women were glad of it.
Those days have gone. So now it is a question of deciding in which
particular case, not whether it is worth it, you know perfectly well
that it is worth it, but whether in this particular case in which it
is worth it and to what degree because of a great law, the Law of the
Inequality of Finites. We saw that when the primary egg split, half
of it went East, half West; half into the deep water, half into the
shallow water, and in the process, became differentiated by the
stimuli. So, it means that every person you meet has a unique balance
of male and female principles within, and this is what you were
referring to wasn’t it? That when you meet a so-called male or when
a so-called male meets a so-called female, the situation is always
unique; there is always a very peculiar balance in which initiative
and intellectuality are there in a certain proportion with feeling
sensitivity and physical stress. All those four are there,
simultaneously, in every being, but the balance of them changes. And
it changes every moment and this is why we get a doctrine, that Yogic
doctrine, of Here-Nowness. If you are divergent in your awareness and
convergent simultaneously, if you have a body presence you know you
exist as a physical being and yet you have initiative, you can, in
immediate Here-Now terms evaluate the condition of the person to whom
you intend to relate. You can see how much initiative there is there,
and if there isn’t much, give it a little push. You can see how
much sensitivity of feeling there is there, and not tread upon its
toes too heavily. You can see how much intellectuality there is there
and either climb down while it expresses itself or join in for the
fun of it. In this Here-Now immediate evaluation, you can evaluate
the person to whom you intend to relate.

Now, this was a question about how
can a boy be discovered in a girl so that she doesn’t have to hang
around waiting for a being called boy to act like a male, to balance
herself so that she can conduct her own life. The other side of it
is, how does a boy get hold of his feelings and his sense of
body-ness like a girl has, and this is equally important. For the
male, there has to be a deliberate practice and acceptance that
intellection is not the only mode of awareness, that feeling
sensitivity gives information that intellectual calculations cannot
give and that initiative itself, a male function, is not the only way
of interfering with reality. The way of stillness also interferes.

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We will examine this rather
carefully. It is perfectly obvious that initiative can interfere
because I can reverse this pen, I can put it on there, I am
interfering with initiative. That is a masculine trick. But, there is
another, called the way of the woman, Lao Tse called it the way of
the woman. Conquering with the way of the woman. When you sit still,
what are you doing with your energy? When you do nothing, what are
you doing? You are stilling your energy. Now, in order to still
energy, what are you doing? Nothing? You have to get hold of it. Now,
this getting hold of one’s own energy we call Reflexive Self
Consciousness. To get hold of one’s own energy which is associated
with this body is to get hold of encapsulated intelligence and this
self-getting-hold-of does a very peculiar thing to the whole infinite
field of energy. We are living on the Earth inside a Solar System.
The Earth has a certain orbital distance from the Sun that places it
within the sphere of the Sun’s energy at such a distance that human
life is possible. It is not possible for life to evolve on any other
orbit The Earth’s Orbit is the orbitlace where the heat of the Sun
is neither too much nor too little for human life to evolve and
therefore it is here that we are. When we become aware of this we
centre ourselves. Centring is the beginning of axiality. You posit
that you are inside your being. You feel yourself, remember Bruno in
the year 1600 was burned at the stake for saying this, you feel
yourself to be a centre of infinity. Your circumference is nowhere,
it is extended infinitely but your centre is where you are, and if
you get hold of this power where you are, in your centre, and you
still it, does the energy round about stay the same?

No.

No, what does it do?

It becomes interested in what….

It becomes interested, you see. If
you positively get hold of yourself you have become a centre of
interest. Observe this, most human beings are not interested in
themselves at all. They are not interested in their real self, what
it is, where it is from, whether it is eternal, whether it is
immortal, they are interested in something outside themselves, which
they pursue, and they think by accreting that thing to themselves in
a mineral way, they will become stronger. The exact opposite is the
truth. When the average human being’s interest is outside himself
he comes under that peculiar law, where there is interest in a
particular, the universal field is also interested. Where you are
interested, the field is interested. So, if I look at Zero, like
that, with interest, I am looking at you with interest now Zero,
supposing I decided that you are a desirable creature, and I look at
David out of the corner of my eye, quick look. Supposing I really
mean it, you see, and I start being interested, what I am doing is
causing energy to drift to you. I am actually making you more
powerful than me. Now that is the inversion of what I am trying to
do. So that when a naughty boy gives, what in old-fashioned
terminology when I was a young man, gives what is called the glad
eye, I’ve never heard that expression for fifty years, the glad
eye, meaning, “Glad I have seen you.” A little later they used to
call it the, I-am-bowled-over-come-and- bowl-me-over look. You know
the kind of thing, a sudden flash of interest, and that creates, “I
focus on you. You are interesting.” The Field, the whole field of
the universe begins to converge on you. You begin to become more
powerful. The more I do it, the more I think you are worth having.
And I am doing it! I am making you more worth having that I am making
me! Now that is the way most people do it. They continuously look
outwards and confer values on other people, don’t they? Everybody’s
grass seems greener. Yes?

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Now the true way of doing it, which is very
difficult, is being still on the inside, feminising, instead of
converging on external objects, which is a masculine thing, spread
consciousness, sit still and wait. That is called, conquering with
the way of a woman. Now, women know this is the technique, don’t
they, because they know that most males are, to a certain degree,
convergent, and as soon as they see a relatively quiet girl, they
feel that they want to interfere with it. Why? Because if it is
quiet, if it is not dictating it means that the male can feel
relatively, superior. There is one that is not bashing people about,
“Mmmmmm maybe she is a quiet girl, do you see? I will go and
interfere with her.” Stillness provokes interference, yes? Do you
agree? Are you finding it hard to say yes?

What about animals
in the wild then? Does the male still interfere?

Of course it does. Have you never
seen the still look in a female animal that provokes the male? Even
in deer and things like that. This female trick runs through the
whole of creation. Women intuitively know, that if they keep still
when there is a bit of excess energy around and a male converging,
and they look peaceful and quiet, his interference intent will grow.
And, like the Black Widow Spider, that phsst only comes at the end
and not at the beginning!