Im still going to fast. For a couple of days regardless but I'm just concerned because if it could lead to serious health consequences then probably won't do t
I want to fast for at least 3 weeks
But realistically I know I can get through 7 days before my mother spazzes out/finds out
I'm 19, yes ik immature but I want to cleanse my...
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Im still going to fast. For a couple of days regardless but I'm just concerned because if it could lead to serious health consequences then probably won't do t
I want to fast for at least 3 weeks
But realistically I know I can get through 7 days before my mother spazzes out/finds out
I'm 19, yes ik immature but I want to cleanse my body and lose 30 pounds because some how sadly along the way of growing up I now base my happiness on looks and I hate the way I look and I hate myself so
Water fasting it is.
I weight 135
And I'm 5'8

You know when people know in their hearts what they wanna do or when they're so lost in life, the fall into something
I feel like I'm destined to commit suicide
And I know it's wrong to think but I'm so over this ******** life
I just want to be happy but I don't have the courage
I'm about to be 19 years old and I have have...
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You know when people know in their hearts what they wanna do or when they're so lost in life, the fall into something
I feel like I'm destined to commit suicide
And I know it's wrong to think but I'm so over this ******** life
I just want to be happy but I don't have the courage
I'm about to be 19 years old and I have have as many rights as an 8 year old
I don't want to break my moms heart by living cuz then I wouldn't be able to enjoy life
And I can't leave because I know my dad has really bad high pressure
So I feel stuck being a slave and obeying their ****** up laws
I can't live like this anymore and I just don't know what to do
Out of all my siblings they failed my parents
And they always tell me how I'm their last hope
Honestly I wish I wasn't me

II used to sneak around taking off hijab behind parents back
I told them I didn't want to wear it
Honesty wasn't the best policy in this case cuz now I have to quit my job
I'm still 18
Paying for school etc
So I don't need to throw myself into a finicial struggle
So I have to stay with my parents
Until i can support myself...
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II used to sneak around taking off hijab behind parents back
I told them I didn't want to wear it
Honesty wasn't the best policy in this case cuz now I have to quit my job
I'm still 18
Paying for school etc
So I don't need to throw myself into a finicial struggle
So I have to stay with my parents
Until i can support myself plus it's their rules and I respect them enough to obey
But what do I say to my job people
I worked st the movies
And I love that job but I can't go back wearing the head scarf

Sisters have been lying about going out
I've covered for them and lied to my parents
But if I told on them, I would lose my sisters but gain parents trust
But if I covered for them I lost my parents trust but gained my sisters respect
And I love all of them but I was thinking about
How my life in 30 years
When my parents die
I'll be...
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Sisters have been lying about going out
I've covered for them and lied to my parents
But if I told on them, I would lose my sisters but gain parents trust
But if I covered for them I lost my parents trust but gained my sisters respect
And I love all of them but I was thinking about
How my life in 30 years
When my parents die
I'll be stuck with siblings who hate me secretly or godly because I never covered for them
Yesterday my sisters snuck or went clubbing and one of my sisters confessed to my parents
And my parents moved her 2 hours away to my cousins house
Now they lost trust in me and lost trust in my sisters and honestly I feel so bad
I always contemplated what should I do but I had nobody to talk to or dicusss this with and I still don't know what I'm doing
Cuz now they think I'm innocent
But I take off my head scarf and I did try alcohol and I did try weed
But I wasn't full blown out addicted like my older sisters

What if nobody believes and you put your heart out on the table ?
What if the rapist is someone of authority
Can you just go to the police place and explain what happened
Without it going public to family or friends or anybody
Or would they be forced to call parents
What exactly is going to happen the minute you open your mouth about rape
I...
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What if nobody believes and you put your heart out on the table ?
What if the rapist is someone of authority
Can you just go to the police place and explain what happened
Without it going public to family or friends or anybody
Or would they be forced to call parents
What exactly is going to happen the minute you open your mouth about rape
I feel like there's more to lose then outing this man

t, I work out but my eating habits .. what's something easy to make in College so I don't have time to make mealsI'm gonna start just drinking water and eating apples
Idk what to eat
Actual meals
Everyday I eat pasta my mom makes it
Then break fast cereal and dinner cereal or maybe a muffin or pancake
Like the only meal I eat is...
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t, I work out but my eating habits .. what's something easy to make in College so I don't have time to make mealsI'm gonna start just drinking water and eating apples
Idk what to eat
Actual meals
Everyday I eat pasta my mom makes it
Then break fast cereal and dinner cereal or maybe a muffin or pancake
Like the only meal I eat is pasta
Yea
I weight 130 and I'm 5'9
And I'm a girl
I need to eat meals

I was really looking forward to Saturday, this whole week I was just thinking about Saturday, I know that sounds a bit weird but honestly I hate how my life is so far out of highschool and the only times I find myself actually being happy is when I'm hanging with my friends and how often do I do that now days? Never. My life is **** and...
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I was really looking forward to Saturday, this whole week I was just thinking about Saturday, I know that sounds a bit weird but honestly I hate how my life is so far out of highschool and the only times I find myself actually being happy is when I'm hanging with my friends and how often do I do that now days? Never. My life is **** and there's nothing I can do besides stay up all night on Netflix and even doing that so much I've become immune to it, Netflix does nothing for me. All I do is work and I physically force myself to watch Netflix
Shows, and or for hours I just listen to music and lay in my bed all day, I feel nothing