I cant help it, I need you lot, dp died yesterday, I cant stop seeing it, it hurts so much

everything hurts, I cant close my eyes without seeing it happeninghe collapsed at homeI did chest compressions till the ambulance camethey tried for ages but he was goneI cant stop seeing itmy arms hurt, my heart hurtsI'm exhaustedI cant do this again

Oh my god I nearly threw up when I read this and clocked that it wasn't an old post. Trinity I'm so sorry. Offering hands to hold, arms to hug and anything else that might make you feel like you aren't alone <3 XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Your Dp must have been a wonderful man your pain must feel all consuming

We will hold your hand but remember you may need help to get past the first few days and the physical shock it might be worth calling you ooh they should be help if you feel like it might be a good idea

It sound rediculius but time does help you will in time be able to remember your woderful husband and not relive the last few moments of his life

There is no right of wrong for your emotions at the moment if you need to scream and punch the wall then do it if you need to cry then do if all you can manage is sit on the sofa then that is right too

Trinity so sorry to hear about your loss. I also thought this was a zombie thread and then clocked the date and thought oh no, how much can one person take.

Trinity you are strong, you can go on, you have a lovely family to help you through this. Keep posting, you know (unfortunately from experience) that there is someone here at all times who can offer practical support and an emotional crutch.