Wednesday, April 21, 2010

So much has been going through my mind lately. One of the issues that keep surfacing is my increasing unease about Julius Malema. Todays paper wrote about his overseas trip to Venezuela. One little line mentioned the reason-to learn more about Venezuela's nationalisation policies with President Hugo Chavez.

Upon reading that the hairs on the back of my head stood up. This man is serious about nationalisation. Its more than just rhetoric that he feeds to the mass of uneducated ( and some very educated) folk with peasant mindset who gobble up all he has to say.

The fact that we have such a huge peasant mindset in this country is a major advantage to Malema. Nationalisation sound very good to those who believe they too will finally " share the spoils of what the rich have".

I am very very concerned about this Man. He is a wolf in sheeps clothing.

Monday, April 19, 2010

I so wanted to sit and finish my pruning blogs but I need lots of time and contemplation, and as a working mum, that doesnt happen often.

I was thinking the other day about " how much do i blog for myself vs how much do I blog for others". And I think the latter is higher. I want to change that. I want to put my thoughts down for me. If someone reads it then that is cool. Its a tricky thing to do.

Here goes......
I get sick alot due to a low immune system, but Lord, I notice that I remind myself a lot that I catch every bug that passes me and I remind myself that I have a low immune system.
I want to change this. Lord, you nailed death to the cross, and yet I live as a defeatest in the area of my health.

So, I am going to write a sticky note on the inside of my bathroom cabinet. Every day I will look at this and remind myself at least 25 times that "My immune system is getting stronger and stronger and stronger" I will also remind myself that I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me.
I believe in the power of positive thinking, but I dont put it into practise. I once read a book on the power of positive thinking, so perhaps I need to dig it out and remind myself that I dont need to live as a woe me..poor sick Karen......

Monday, April 12, 2010

John 15 sums up what I have been going through.......while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.
I thought I understood what John 15 meant,but to experience it was a whole different matter.

It was not like walking through fire, nor going through a desert place, or being stripped of self and flesh,it was a very painful pruning.

I live by works. I work hard, am a good girl, do what is right ( or at least try to) and I always have. I have always strived, pushed myself and am very hard on myself if I fail. There is no doubt in my mind that when it comes to my faith, this applies as well. Often we get told that works= just doing things to please man or God. In my mind this may be to some people but not me. To me, I do what I do because I love God.

Lets give you an example: Arent we told that we need to read the bible daily. So that is what I would do. No matter if I felt like it or not. The same goes for praying. Some days I just dont feel like going through my prayer list. Pray for hubby, pray for kids, bless and praise the Lord, prayer for me etc etc.

Here is what I think happened. Because I do what is right, dont you think that makes me a good Christian? After all, I love God wholeheartedly and try to follow his ways. Can you see what began to creep into my life. Yep, its PRIDE.
What was so hard for me to see is that BECAUSE I love the Lord, I could not see the pride. After all, God was talking to me so loudly, in songs, in the word, through my heart, and I could see how far along the good path I was travelling that I had just become spiritually full of myself.

In December God started to take things away. I will continue my tale in the next blog post.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Its been a very long time since I blogged regularly. I have been through a very intense pruning phase that has lasted more than 4 months.

I have been very sensitive and had retreated into a very quiet space. It was so tough that I barely went to church and could not face anything to do with mentoring ( our small ladies group) or blogging.Until now, I could not share what I was going through.

Oh dear, the kids want a bath. Guess I will have to continue with this when I get a gap.