Jessica: Okay. I know that the Buchanan Christmas can be a little much, but
you can't just ignore it.

Nash: Why not, Jessica?

Jessica: Because -- you'll get depressed, and I don't like seeing the people
that I care about depressed on the holidays, okay? It's just easier to enjoy
them.

Nash: I'm not depressed. I just -- I got stuff on my mind, all right?

Jessica: Nash?

Nash: What?

Jessica: You're having a Christmas. There is a tree tied to the roof of my
car and I am not dragging it back inside Llanfair.

Nash: A tree is a waste for one man. All right?

Jessica: It's not just going to be one man. I -- I'm here and Bree's going to
be here. Bree is looking forward to spending Christmas with her dad.

Nash: You're not going to be here, and Bree is not going to miss a Christmas
tree. She's an ankle biter.

Jessica: Really? Well, maybe not now, but when she flips through those photo
albums that you're putting together for her, she is going to be pretty
disappointed that her dad didn't go all out for her first Christmas.

Nash: Cheap shot.

Jessica: Mm-hmm. Now, are you going to help me go and get that tree or am I
going to have to do it myself?

Antonio: So you want to propose to Evangeline, but you can't?

Cristian: That's what I said.

Antonio: Well, why not?

Cristian: How's it going to work?

Antonio: What do you mean, "how's it going to work?" What, you need money,
money for a ring?

Cristian: Don't do that. Look, if I can't afford to buy Evangeline a ring,
then I have no right to even think about asking her to marry me.

Antonio: Oh, Cris, what are you talking about? Look, if Evangeline loves you
-- which she does -- having a ring right now shouldn't even matter.

Cristian: It's not about the ring, man. It's -- it's about what it
represents. I want to be able to take care of her, give her the kind of life
that she deserves, the kind of life that I'd -- that I'd want to give her.

Antonio: All right.

Cristian: And want to be able to hold my head up in our relationship, you
know, not have people looking at us like I'm some lazy freeloader living off his
wife.

Antonio: Oh, you know, first of all, no one's going to think that, and second
of all, since when do you care what other people think? I mean, this -- this is
about you and Evangeline making a commitment. Money shouldn't even enter into
it.

Cristian: Yeah, easy for you to say. Hey, come on, man. You and Jess had
plenty of issues before you got your inheritance, and you didn't get married.
And now, whatever Jessica needs or wants, you give her.

Antonio: Oh, no, wait a second. The only thing Jessica needs is my love and
my loyalty, and if I thought otherwise we wouldn't be together.

Cristian: Coming out of the mouth of a rich man.

Antonio: You know, maybe it's not the money. Maybe you're not ready.

Evangeline: Todd has to have more sense than that, right? He wouldn't do
something so self-destructive.

Bo: Look, Manning's never been a favorite of mine. I hate the way he takes
the law into his own hands, but I can understand how the possibility of Truman
never being punished -- I can see how that'd drive him crazy.

Evangeline: Does John know about Spencer going M.I.A.?

Bo: Not as far as I know. I want to be the first one to tell him.

Evangeline: You know, he's going to flip out when he hears about this.

Bo: I don't know who wants to see Truman get punished more -- Todd or John.

John: Ah.

Natalie: You know, if I knew it wouldn't set your recovery back for weeks, I
would throw this at you except for, then, the doctor would know I gave you soda.

John: Huh. Thank you.

Natalie: You know that I love you with all of my heart and I would absolutely
never do anything to hurt you. However --

John: Oh, boy. Here it comes.

Natalie: I am going to do everything in my power to make sure that you do
nothing to compromise your recovery and I mean everything. I'll be right back.

Michael: Of course. Huh. I understand. Yeah, thank you.

Natalie: Michael?

Michael: Yeah?

Natalie: They said what you expected, right?

Michael: Yeah, I knew what they were going to say. What John wants to do,
it's -- it's insane.

Natalie: I know and I am so worried. You know, when I told him about Spencer,
he acted so calm. He actually said that he was going to let other people take
care of Spencer and concentrate on what's important.

Michael: Hmm.

Natalie: And then the minute I turn my back -- I should just make them take
the phone away from his room.

Natalie: Yeah. Yeah, he would. He says he's changing, and with me -- with me,
he is.

Michael: Yeah, but that -- you have to understand. That was before, after he
locked Spencer up. But now, all bets are off, because until the man that killed
our father is brought to justice, he won't be able to put it behind him. And one
thing he's definitely not going to do is listen to reason -- not from you, not
from me, not from anybody.

Antonio: Look, Cris, if it's money you need, I mean -- or anything -- bro,
don't -- don't let pride get in the way of asking for help.

Cristian: It's not like I can ask for help and know that I'd be able to pay
it back.

Antonio: Oh, what -- now you're never going to make a good living? How about
having a little faith?

Cristian: Faith in what, man? I have nothing that I can take to the bank
right now, nothing.

Antonio: I got an idea. How about you stop thinking about what you can't do
and start focusing on what you can?

Nash: Supposing I let you put your Christmas tree in my house. I don't have
any ornaments, I don't have ornaments, I'm not going to buy any ornaments, I'm
not going to waste any money. What?

Jessica: I have ornaments for you right here.

Nash: You're too much. You know that? You're too much.

Jessica: I love Christmas. I want my daughter to love Christmas and it would
be really nice, Nash, if you loved Christmas, too.

Nash: You can't shove Christmas cheer down somebody's throat. They either got
it or they donít. I'm sorry -- I donít.

Jessica: Wow. Have you always been this scroogey or is this just a new
development?

Nash: I love Christmas. I love it. I'm going to do Christmas. I'm going to --
I'm going to spoil her with gifts, I'm going to take pictures. I'm going to do
the whole Santa Claus thing. I'm looking forward to it.

Jessica: Let me help.

Nash: That's just the thing -- you're not helping. Christmas trees are for
families.

Jessica: You have a family.

Nash: It would be great for the five or six hours that Bree was here, but
then it'd just be a tree in the corner.

Jessica: Hmm. Well, if you're not depressed, you're coming very close to it.

Antonio: You got a beautiful woman who loves you. Why don't you concentrate
on that?

Cristian: You know damn well it's not that simple.

Antonio: Yeah, because you're making it complicated!

Cristian: Fine. So I should just ignore the fact that I have no money and no
career?

Antonio: Oh. All right, look, Cris. You've been through a terrible ordeal,
all right? Most people only have nightmares about what you've actually lived,
all right? And -- and you got your life back, all right? That in itself -- you
should be so damn proud of it, man, not to mention that you almost won the
cruiserweight championship. I mean, how many guys get that far? All right? And
you -- and you would've actually won it if -- if Vincent hadn't rigged it. And
if that's not enough, you're a kick-ass painter.

Cristian: With a bum hand.

Antonio: All right, look, so, uh -- maybe you can't paint, maybe you can't
sculpt, all right? But you'll find a way to express yourself. All right? We're
all -- look, what I'm trying to say is that -- that life is too short, okay? And
if you love someone and someone loves you back, then you need to enjoy the hell
out of it, and why am I having this conversation with you?

Cristian: All right, you're right. I should know this, and I do.

[Antonio sighs]

Antonio: Good. Good, because I got to go. I've got to meet Jess at Nashís.

Cristian: Jessica at Nash's? What's she doing over there?

Antonio: Oh, she's bringing him some Christmas decorations. What?

Cristian: Nothing. I -- I just don't know how you do it, man. I wouldn't be
able to.

Antonio: Nash is a good guy, Cris.

Cristian: All right.

Antonio: Okay? And he's connected because of Bree and he's a part -- he's
going to be a part of this family and I'm not going to fight that, okay? And --
and, you know, the bottom line is, is that Bree and Jessica, they -- they love
me, all right? And if I start to feel threatened by Nash, then that means I
start to doubt Jessica and I'm not going to go there.

Evangeline: Oh, Cris. Hmm. Oh, God, you have no idea how much I needed this.

Cristian: Bad day, huh?

Evangeline: Oh, it was the worst.

Cristian: Don't worry. I know just how to make it better.

Natalie: Uncle Bo.

Bo: Mike.

Michael: Hey.

Natalie: Hey.

Bo: How's the patient doing?

Natalie: Impatient, but he's doing better all the time.

Bo: Oh, oh. Well, that's good to hear. I -- did you hear about Truman?

Michael: Only that the judge declared him incompetent to stand trial, shipped
him off to Wingdale.

Bo: Yeah. Well, listen --

Natalie: Well, is there something else?

Bo: I -- I think John should hear this, too, okay, so why don't we just go on
in?

Natalie: Okay.

Bo: Thanks.

John: Hey, boss.

Bo: How you doing, John?

John: I heard Truman tried to get himself a section eight. We're not going to
let him get away with that, are we? What?

Bo: Well, there's no easy way to tell you this, so I guess I should just tell
you. The van that was taking Truman to the sanitarium was hijacked. Truman was
taken from the scene by a masked assailant. Hmm.

John: Well, as ridiculous as it sounds, he probably arranged it.

Bo: Well, yeah, that's what we thought, at first.

John: But now?

Bo: Now, it's starting to look like Manning is behind it.

Natalie: Why would you think that?

Bo: Because Manning hates Truman and because Manning always seems to want to
take the law into his own hands. Plus, he was just way too calm when the judge
called a mistrial. That's not the way you'd expect him to react.

John: You put a tail on him?

Bo: Yeah. Plus I have every available cop looking for Truman. The entire
eastern seaboard's been alerted. Sorry that I have to give you this news.

John: No, no. Thanks for coming down to tell me, you know. Go catch this guy
for me, will you, Bo?

Bo: We'll do that.

John: Thanks. And for his sake, I hope you're wrong about Manning.

Bo: Hmm. Oh, yeah, me, too.

Spencer: No, you see, Todd, there is something you don't understand about me
-- I don't lose. And I'm not going to lose this time. There is no way in hell --

Womanís voice: Spencer?

Spencer: Ma? Ma?

Blair: You want to confess something, Todd?

Todd: No.

Blair: Okay, you know what? You're -- you're scaring me --

Todd: No, no, no.

Blair: You're -- what is it?

Todd: You told me once that you thought that if I had confided in you about
Margaret and the baby and what happened at the lake, that maybe you wouldn't
have run to Spencer. Right?

Blair: Well, things might've -- might've been different, yeah.

Todd: They might've been? Of course there's no way to tell now, but anyway,
the point is -- I realize now lying to you was a mistake, even though I thought
that lying to you at the time was the best thing for you, but it didn't end
well. I almost lost everything as a result of it.

Blair: Mm-hmm.

Todd: Uh -- so now, because I feel this regret about lying to you and because
I have vowed never to do it again, I feel like I have to tell you about
something. I feel like I should tell you about something that I've been planning
and am doing that I didn't fill you in on.

Blair: Something that you've been planning?

Todd: Yes. Now -- if you love me like you say you love me, then you're going
to support me with this, and you're going to understand. And if you don't, I
don't know what's going to happen because I feel like I'm risking everything by
telling you, so --

Blair: Todd? What did you do?

Todd: I kidnapped Spencer and I'm keeping him prisoner.

Bo: Yeah, I wish I could stay.

Michael: You can't stay, Bo. You got to get out there. You got to catch this
guy.

Bo: No, you're right, okay. You take care, John, okay?

John: Thanks, Bo.

Natalie: Thank you.

Bo: See you.

Natalie: What are you thinking?

John: Well, I was just wondering why Mike is still standing here and not
talking to my doctors.

Natalie: Because he already knows what they're going to say?

John: You're not a surgeon.

Natalie: Ahem.

Michael: It's not a good idea, John. L the way around, it's just bad. We're
only looking out for you. We want what's best for you.

John: Hey, if you want what's best for me, you would know it's to get me out
of here, and I need your help to do that, Mike.

Natalie: I knew -- I knew it. All that talk was just bull about you going to
-- you were going to let everybody else take care of Spencer. You were actually
talking sensible.

John: No. No, it wasn't bull. I do want to start my life over again, I want
to do it right, and I want to do that with you. So that's why I need to get the
hell out of here. I need you two to understand that. I don't want to live my
life for revenge anymore so I have to get out of here to finish what I started.

[Slow music plays]

Evangeline: Wow, feels so good.

Cristian: Not too hard?

Evangeline: No. Oh, that's perfect. Oh, God, and this wine.

Cristian: Well, I don't know much about wine, but Nash swore it was a good
one.

Evangeline: Mmm, so good. It's -- it's so good.

Cristian: Relaxed yet?

Evangeline: I'm trying. But I don't really think I can, Cris, not until
Spencer is caught and convicted. I mean, this is a nightmare. God, I should've
done something more, you know? I should've -- I should've come up with some way
to keep Judge Fortier from declaring a mistrial.

Cristian: Okay, okay. Basta. Oh.

Evangeline: What, am I tensing up again?

Cristian: Yeah, and that means I'm going to have to work a lot harder to make
it go away. Close your eyes. Close your eyes.

Evangeline: Okay.

Cristian: Take a deep breath. And let me do all the work.

Singer: Touch me tonight

Jessica: Maybe -- I think you're just thinking of family in the wrong way.

Nash: I think maybe I'm thinking of Tess.

Jessica: Well --

Nash: Do I got to spell that out for you?

Jessica: Tess isn't Bree. I know it's not exactly the way you want it, I know
you want the three of you here for Christmas, but I can't fix that, Nash.

Nash: I am not trying to make you feel guilty.

Jessica: I can't help it, okay? And I can't do anything about it. It's one of
the things that I'm working on in my sessions with Dr. Jamison.

Nash: Oh. Well, what did he have to say?

Jessica: He doesn't exactly say anything.

Nash: Hmm.

Jessica: He gets me to say things.

Nash: Therapists are tricky that way.

Jessica: He got me to admit that feeling guilty is unproductive.

Nash: And that's what I've been trying to tell you. Hey, you know, I should
charge by the hour.

Jessica: Oh. Funny.

Nash: Ha-ha.

Jessica: He says that I should feel sad for the people that miss Tess --

Nash: That's me and only me.

Jessica: But realize that it's not my fault. Does that make any sense to you?

Nash: Yeah, I suppose. Jessica, I know you're here trying to be nice. You are
nice. You're very nice, but there's nothing --

Jessica: "Nice"? You should've known me before. I was so nice that I --

Nash: You don't have to apologize for yourself. It's okay. I'm just trying to
get you to understand that I don't want anybody to feel sorry for me. I just --

Jessica: That's not what I'm trying --

Nash: Yes, it is. You just said it -- you feel sad for me.

Jessica: Will you just let me give you a Christmas?

Nash: Well, there it is. You want to give me a Christmas so that you won't
feel guilty.

[Knock on door]

Nash: Ha-ha -- Antonio.

Antonio: Well, don't just stand there. How about giving me a hand? Ah. Where
should I put this?

[Jessica chuckles]

Spencer: Ma?

[Voice moans]

Spencer: Ma!

[Spencer pants]

Spencer: Uh-uh. No. No way, Todd. Uh-uh. You're not going to do this to me.
No way.

Todd: At the warehouse where he kept Margaret until she gave birth. And I'm
torturing him. And I'm going to torture him until he tells me where my kid is.

Blair: Oh, no, Todd, you can't do this!

Todd: What are you going to do -- call the cops?

Blair: Yeah, I'm going to tell them anonymously.

Todd: He's going to rat me out.

Blair: You can deny it.

Todd: Bo suspects me already, Blair. Fine. Do what you have to do. I did.

Blair: Come on, just -- just take Spencer, dump him somewhere --

Todd: No --

Blair: And let the cops find him.

Todd: Not until he tells me where my kid is!

Blair: You can't do this, Todd!

Todd: Too late.

Blair: Well, thank you for telling me. Thank you for trusting me enough to
tell me. I'm going to ask you one more thing.

Todd: Hmm.

Blair: What can I do to help?

(Bells ringing throughout)

[Soft music plays]

Evangeline: Oh, God. That's amazing. Cristian, could you -- could you just,
like, do this all night long?

Cristian: Actually, I -- I had other things in mind.

Evangeline: Do you?

Cristian: Yes, I do. Too bad we don't have a hot tub.

Evangeline: We have a shower.

Cristian: Before or after?

Evangeline: During.

Singer: Feels so nice

Natalie: If you rush your recovery --

John: What'll happen? I won't live happily ever after?

Natalie: It is not about that.

John: Well, it sure as hell is not about my well-being, is it?

Natalie: Oh, my God, that is all I care about.

John: If you cared about me, you would know I have to get the hell out of
here so I can finish Truman off.

[John groans]

Nurse: Excuse me. I'll check his dressings.

Michael: Yeah, we'll -- we'll wait outside. Come on, Nat.

Natalie: Michael, what are we going to do?

Michael: Look, he can kick and scream all he wants, all right? If his
physicians think it's a bad idea to speed up the grafting process, they won't do
it. If they think it's too risky, it's not going to happen.

Natalie: And they will decide that, won't they? Is everything okay?

Nurse: His blood pressure is elevated. I need to tell his doctor.

Natalie: Damn it, John, do you see what this is doing to you?

Michael: It's no good, John. It's no good all the way around.

John: Listen to me and listen to me good. I'm going to talk to my doctors,
whether you want me to or not. And I'm going to convince them to do their job,
and get me the hell out of here as soon as possible.

Spencer's mother: I had his son. And he abandoned us. Please, make him pay.
Make him pay.

Blair: I really need to be a part of this.

Todd: Hmm. Just keep quiet about it.

Blair: What'd you do to him?

Todd: Chinese water torture.

Blair: You're kidding me.

Todd: I'm not kidding. It's perfect. I just set it --

both: And forget it.

Todd: No, really. It's just drip, drip, drip on his forehead, till he cracks.
Of course, keeping him isolated is essential.

Blair: And you think he will be tortured and he'll crack, and he'll tell you
where your son is?

Todd: That's what I'm hoping. And if he doesn't, I'll just tell the cops
where he is, and they'll send him to Wingdale. They'll examine him and discover
he's really insane, because I'm not letting him go until he's insane. And
they'll just throw him in a rubber room. He'll spend the rest of his life there.
Either way, I win, he loses.

[Slow music plays]

Evangeline: Oh, Cris -- oh, if we don't stop, we're not going to make it to
the shower.

Cristian: Oh. Good point.

[Evangeline giggles]

Cristian: Wait a minute. You still haven't told me what you want for
Christmas.

Evangeline: Well, that's easy. Lo mismo que quiero ahora. You.

Jessica: Okay, dim the lights. Go.

Jessica: It's perfect.

Antonio: It's beautiful.

Jessica: Nash, is it okay?

Nash: It's perfect. Perfect.

John: Mike, convince these doctors to finish up my grafts if you want what's
best for me.

Michael: Johnny, you know I do.

John: Then get me the hell out of here, Mike.

Michael: Okay.

Natalie: No, Michael, no. You canít.

Michael: Look, I have to do this for him. I'm sorry.

John: I need your help, too. Please.

Natalie: Okay. Okay, I will. Whatever you want. Just promise that you won't
leave me again?

Bo: I want more people called in on the search. All days off are canceled
until further notice.

Officer: I'm on it, Commissioner.

Bo: Also, I want an update on the search as it stands right now, and a 20 on
Manning. I want to know where he is every second of the day; I don't care how
insignificant it seems.

Officer: Yes, Sir.

Bo: That Manning -- you know, for a smart guy, he's a real idiot. He thinks
that I'm trying to save Truman, okay the truth of the matter is, I'm trying to
save Manning from himself.

Blair: Look, I know you want Spencer to pay for what he's done. But what if
you do get Spencer to confess and tell you where your son is? Will you let him
go then?

Todd: Well, I could make a deal with him. And then just kill him right
afterwards.

Blair: What are you thinking, Todd?

Todd: I was just wondering, you know, if I find this kid, whether you'd be
able to raise him as your own. I mean, Margaretís kid, you know? It's okay.
Don't answer now. But when you decide to tell me, I hope you'll tell me the
whole truth. You know, I have to tell you, if the shoe was on the other foot, I
don't think I could do it. I just don't think I could accept you having a new
child with another man.

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type?

Evangeline: If our friendship means anything to you, Todd, I need you to
level with me.

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