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Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Still lost in the never ending pity party....

I just cannot shake it. I keep saying every night "tomorrow morning I will be back on track" then the morning comes, the day passes me by as I eat crap and dont exercise and then that night I say yet again - "tomorrow morning I will be back on track" and it just keeps going and going.

I havent ran in almost a week now. And its so hard to get back out there after only one week - uhhh.

And then the pity party for one starts - with eating badly day after day and not getting my workouts in ...the thoughts start..

Its too hard and I cant do this

Im not worth it

I dont deserve it

And on top of that - I feel bloated. My skin is breaking out and feels gross. My stomach is jiggling like crazy. I dont feel sexy. I dont feel empowered like I did before. I dont feel awesome.

Just 2 weeks ago I felt freaking awesome - its amazing how fast one can fall in two weeks. I can pin point that things started with the time change. I hate to blame the darker earlier and colder weather on my downfall because I am the cause of my downfall. But it was the start.

I need to get outside. I need to be in the fresh air. I need to get moving. When I exercise I eat better.

I need to get over this hump before this hump turns into a 10 lb gain.

I used to do that for years. Going to bed with "I will start tomorrow" and forgetting all about it until it's time to go to bed again was my daily ritual. Write a note to yourself to remind you to get back on track. Put it somewhere where you'll see it first thing in the morning. Hang in and never give up! *hugs*