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LIFE is not a race to the grave with the intention of arriving safelyin a pretty and well-preserved body, but, rather to skid in broadside,thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming--WOW! WHAT ARIDE!!!

Herman, is home, as it is the Easter holidays overhere and there is no doctor competence to check him; ....... well more specifically his ass-hole

Those of you who knew what our dear man went thru' would not be surprise at all these manifestions coming forth due to layer after layers of events of the most trying nature.

Anyway, on a lighter note, i had suggested that he comes to Brussels, we go sell our asses at the central station , after which hitting the restro for a lobster dinner ( if you are not 18, kindly, do not read this )

As i had reached my allocated time, Herman, is home, very tired and resting alot and besides having a voice of a retired 2 cents whore, HE IS OK.

I am sure he will be very touched by all these words of concern, kindly , have patience, he shall be back to reply you all soon !!

"Get your medical advice from Doctors or medical professionals who you trust and know your history."

"Beware of the fortune teller doom and gloomers who seek to bring you down and are only looking for company, purpose and validation - not your best physical/mental interests."

"You know you all are saying that this is incurable. When the real thing you should be saying is it's not curable at the present time' because as we know, the great strides we've made in medicine." - Elizabeth Edwards

Herman, is home, as it is the Easter holidays overhere and there is no doctor competence to check him; ....... well more specifically his ass-hole

Those of you who knew what our dear man went thru' would not be surprise at all these manifestions coming forth due to layer after layers of events of the most trying nature.

Anyway, on a lighter note, i had suggested that he comes to Brussels, we go sell our asses at the central station , after which hitting the restro for a lobster dinner ( if you are not 18, kindly, do not read this )

As i had reached my allocated time, Herman, is home, very tired and resting alot and besides having a voice of a retired 2 cents whore, HE IS OK.

I am sure he will be very touched by all these words of concern, kindly , have patience, he shall be back to reply you all soon !!

Hi Siang. Good to hear that! Please hug him and tell him hi. A friend can help so much. You're proof honey. Thank you {Hug}

Herman not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I've worried since the 29th when you sent that PM and you told me about the fevers. I kept your PM to remind me to send positive thoughts your way everyday. I sure hope you've gotten a chance to see a doctor before the April 23rd you told me about.

I dread to post this, as i had checked in with Herman this morning, he said he will post something, as he did not , i fear the worse !!

His voice did not sounded like it is worth more than 2 cents ; anyway, i can't make him laugh too much as his ass still hurts one day , they will maybe stitch it up and give him the bag (wonder what my reward will be for this he has already award me with the title : mother bitch , LOL )

What sucks it that , as a caring and giving and loving person, he just discover that love had turn out to be Medusa, he did not turn to stone fear not, it is just depression that had came in to claim it is price.Well that is the bad news !! This helplessness infront of this fxxxxxx wall called depression is killing !!I THINK WITH ALL OUR COLLECTIVE POSITIVE THOUGHTS MIRACLE CAN HAPPEN !! I really do want to believe that !! And Herman can believe in love, and love again and be on his two feet again and smile and laugh again, which was an important part of our frequent exchange.

Thank you one and all for reading and participating, sorry, i do not have good news

Dearest family.When life is cold and frying fevers lash out at you, relentlessly, it is good to know someone cares.Thank you for all the get well wishesAnd yes, thank you Dan for putting this up. Thanks water duck for your friendship.

Everything seems to take a turn for the worst in my life.Even after my doctor told me to go out and do something nice for myself, I got robbed of my wallet while at the Chinese store, to treat myself.My physical health is rapidly deteriorating. I am weak as a child. Scared for more pain in my Rectum.Having been confronted with mental illness in love has shattered me even more.I had to learn the hard way that love is no cure for that kind of disease.Sleeping and crying is the only thing I do.How much can a man take?

Just know that your kind words of encouragement touched me. It is hard to find directions when your brain is fried.

loveHerman

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Diagnosed in 1987 and still kickingKivexa (Epzicom),Tivicay once daily

Maybe one should stop looking for direction and start letting healing take place. It is often times confusing when we try too hard and forget to just stop, look and listen. Taking care of ourselves is often times very difficult when we are fucused on others.

Love you Herman, and hope you can find the time for you.

Love,

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The Bible contains 6 admonishments to homosexuals,and 362 to heterosexuals.This doesn't mean that God doesn't love heterosexuals, It's just that they need more supervision.Lynn Lavne

Hey Hermie: Just focus of your rectum healing because that must be waay uncomfortable. Take away the physical pain and then work with the mental pain which I know you will overcome in a few weeks. Don't remain depressed for too long because life is too precious to waste on depression. Yes, it does feel bad and makes us very weak and without any purpose in life, but that is only because we are still in it's grasp. Slowly get out of that grasp and do what I know you love doing and that is enjoying life and loving what is ours to enjoy. Every time we have a "fall" in life, we just have to slowly get up, wipe off our knees, and move on. Nothing is more important that our health and maintaining it is a full time job. No one but ourselves makes our lives worth living. Having a partner, or not, friends or aquaintances, relatives and our jobs, are just things that are there to make things flow in our lifetime, but it all eventually leads up to ourselves and what we do to our lives to make it as long and entertaining as possible. Cheer up buddy, I still have that nude picture of you on that palm tree, who knows where, you never said, and I hope to see a second palm tree with you on it! Ha,ha. Get better soon...

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Meow to the birdsMeow to the tree'sMeow to the endof this dreadful disease...

Hermie.... Your a strong man... Everybody can see that... Please trust us when we say, "Your a strong man"... You WILL come through this... Stop looking down the road so much... I have felt your strength here, on the phone and in spirit... Keep it simple my Dear Friend...