Fears of Disappointing People

After documenting their relationship on Bethenny Getting Married and Bethenny Ever After, the Skinnygirl cocktail creator says she feels like she's disappointed people, "because I felt like I was this role model that represented the fairytale."

But she says she doesn't regret allowing the cameras to roll on the good, the bad and the ugly aspects of her relationship with Hoppy.

"I could have stayed on the show and been like, 'Oh everything's perfect with us. Everything's great,' " she says. "It made me feel dirty for people to think that I had this perfect relationship and this perfect life."

Now the new daytime TV host (whose talk show Bethenny debuts Sept. 9) is trying to look forward. She recently vacationed in St. Tropez with longtime friend and billionaire Warren Lichtenstein and is doing what she can to alleviate her stressful situation at home.

"I would imagine, eventually, sex would be a nice release, but you know, who knows," she says. "If I'm exercising or doing yoga, it'll take the edge off on some level. And then I like to have a Skinnygirl cocktail. I'm not going to lie. Honestly. It's mommy juice."