Good for you OP. Too bad Christianity and every other religion in history is a made up pile of horsesh*t with no evidence to back it up. Do some research and you'll clearly see that it's a load of sh*t. I was raised Christian and when I found out the truth I was not happy that I had been lied to all my life.

I do not understand why someone not conditioned and indoctrinated from birth like me would latch on to such ridiculous nonsense, but I can only guess that you are terrified of death and want to find a way to escape the inevitable. You can't. No matter what nonsense you choose to believe to make you feel better about death, you're going to be worm food one day and there's nothing you can do about it. Accept death as it is. It's not so bad. I don't even really see it as a negative. You won't exist any longer so no negative experiences can be had. It will be just like before you were born. It won't be a bother to you whatsoever. Sorry, but your Heaven is make-belief. A fairytale