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Disclaimer: Written by a person whose solo time need is so bad that, in times of socialization it makes her stay in the bathroom longer than needed.

You may or may not disagree, but…

Why trade going out to the digital socialization? This is the question answer of which is already clear to me. Still, somewhat popped up in mind while having my well deserved Sunday coffee.Hint: The answer is not modern day social competence and behavior problems -if you consider them problems– like introversion, social stress disorder, anxiety about which you can find more information on your facebook newsfeed on any given weekend. The answer is, as a concept socialization itself mostly centered around having small talks, getting drunk, which will be probably followed by “the drunker you get the more small talk skills you will develop and in 24 hours -if not 12- all those people and small talk and fun will ghost the scene of socialization and you will be left behind with your sober-time-concerns and terminal hungover, that leads mindless food consumption”. Science says so.

To very sober self of me, this scenario sets some rules of participation; it is kind of a group therapy, and all those people come here to get rid of everyday problems and the small talk and being shallow and getting drunk is not the downside; it is the goal itself, so-called fun. That’s why I am editing my thoughts before I let them out of my brain lobes, not to step on someone’s toe.

Me talking to myself: “Just because you are invited doesn’t mean that you’re expected to show up!”

Unlike the aforementioned concept, digital existence doesn’t stop you share whatever you want to share, it could be shallow as “Trump suck, Berlin rocks” or deep as “The Wretched of the Earth”. You may or may not be in your bathrobe with a glass of wine, or butt-naked with a cup of herbal tea. Still, have the same possibility of reaching out people who might react positive, negative or keep neutral. But the thing is, you already filtered the target group and reached the ones who might be up for a read.

After waiting (reads like procrastinating) for at least 5 months to hit the publish, I finally decided to start with a bunch of reasons behind the need of communicating thoughts via a content management system. Even though I’m aware that figuring out reasons before doing sth. with intent to justify myself is not a good habit and giving up it needs to be among my 2017 goals, I let myself do, for now. Credits for my consciousness.

The very reason for me to spend extremely precious hours of the year 2017 by madly hitting the keyboard is pretty similar toHillary Clinton’s thoughts on baking cookies. I normally avoid trusting people, including myself and politicians, yet I exceptionally endorse Hillary for this badass speech. I also assume that many people, by whom this digital space has been partly inspired, have the same reasons for making a leap, characteristics of which is making people start from the scratch and question the necessity of the move itself. “You don’t have to, yet can’t stop taking the untaken path.”

The thing is;

1. The urge to get rid of that weight is so intense that I don’t even want to hit the spacebar, thisishowbadIwanttogetridofmyfeels. (Just heard someone else’s ideas about the same mood, that’s why I’m writing kind of confidently. Misery loves company, so does insecurity.)

2. What else would a human do with a well-functioning laptop and internet connection?

3. The drive to put out not because they are unique, smart, priceless, but because they are mine and maybe yours.

4. Beating the fear of facing my imperfection.

5. Because other alternatives to writing are;

looking for a better job when I am 100% sure that I will end up having the same problems if I follow the path I already tried and failed because of my inability to fit in.

hula hooping

reading the label on a Greek yogurt container enough times to enlighten a stranger about the nutrition facts of this product in the dairy department of a grocery store in Neukölln.

looking for ways to better your future as if all those shitty politicians, who have built a perfect hell on earth (or turned the earth into an open-air grave) then just painted the word of future black and put some stench of carrion on it, do not exist.

Enough excuses, NO!?

Disclaimer: All you read is subject to change due to the writer’s mood.