OH!MY!GOD! Girl, we need to talk...I found exactly what I was feeling...look: http://everydaylovetips.blogspot.ro/2013/04/normal-0-21-false-false-false-fr-x-none_5.htmland what you said about the pain...that's exactly what happened to me: I woke up one day and the paid was gone..just like that. I was so down for so many kicks, that each day I was still down waiting to get the coup de grace..but the other thing happened..everything disappeared...