youre absolutely right you know /: but ben, you can't live your life all the time like that. it hurts like shit but you'll need to remind yourself you can feel something in your heart, because thats where it counts. it sounds weird *and maybe a little emo too* but you need to hurt yourself sometimes to live life like the way it is, to know how alive you are

well ben, i JUST broke up with a girlfriend that we had strong mutual feelings for (dont worry, im not a bullshitter) and as emotional and dramatic i can honestly be, im alright. I'll tell you that story if youd want to hear it, it's like a damn novel what she made me go through -_- well why are you in a good mood?

well i do quite enjoy teh ladiez so thank you new friend.
We meet in highschool blahblahblah all that highschool drama and becoming center of attention. i never liked attention even when i know some poeeple kill for it, i only got the attention because this girl was wanted by everyone. (im in new york so lots of people are openly bi so all the boys and girls wanted her) so i guess im lucky to have her. to make this loooong loooong story short, we had tons of good times and lots of sad or angry times. but we stood through thick and thin but today i couldnt take it anymore and i changed from how i usually always try no to hurt her feelings to just telling it to her straight up. She blames me for all the hard times we have, and today it was like a sob story. For example, we literally chased for eachother in busy streets with tears streaming. *self face palm moment*

youre absolutely right you know /: but ben, you can't live your life all the time like that. it hurts like shit but you'll need to remind yourself you can feel something in your heart, because thats where it counts. it sounds weird *and maybe a little emo too* but you need to hurt yourself sometimes to live life like the way it is, to know how alive you are