I met my twin at school. I moved across the country knowing that I would start a healing journey and hoped to find my life partner. She knew that she knew me, but I wondered who she was ever since she friended me on Facebook. I did not fall in love with her right away, nor did I feel any interest in who she was.

I’m a “lesbian,” I don’t fall in love with or connect with men on an emotional, physical or sexual level. I have been single for almost five years, and I find myself wondering if my twin is ever going to love me because she deals in denial and avoidance.

Her life has always been one thing after the next since I started to get to know her. She went from an abusive relationship with a man to another relationship without any time in between to heal.

I fell in love with her shortly after she started dating the new guy. I was not expecting our connection to be as it was at all. We hung out twice, and she went away for the summer. It was then that I realized how much I loved her. It was the first time I ever told someone I was in love with his or her soul.

I began to have telepathic interactions with her in the way of conversations and sexual activity. She never felt comfortable discussing it. I tried to bring it up several times only for her to run away or deny it.

Our relationship has been the most challenging and painful experience of my lifetime. I have been hurt by a woman before, but not like this.

My twin continuously runs away, every time we start communicating as humans, she gets scared again and disappears. It is so trying on my mind and my heart and spirit. I have learned so much from her already that I have a list of lessons we are teaching each other.

I already deal with depression and not having regular honest communication with my twin is killing me. I have tried to convince myself several times to go on a date with someone. I did, but I had no interest in getting to know them. The mere act of going on a date with another woman feels like a complete betrayal of my heart and soul.

I can’t stand to be mistreated, ignored, and set aside. For 1.5 years now we have barely spoken about the telepathic sexual episodes. Never in my life have I experienced anything like this. I only know she was raised Mormon and been married and divorced several times. She once told me that she’d rather be with a woman because they are better companions, that was before I even loved her.

She has rejected me to my face also and said many times she is not a lesbian. I don’t know how to proceed and feel like I need heavy drugs to forget about her and the pain this is causing in my life.

I have read so much about twin flames, but I don’t understand why I would have chosen this difficult path to have a homophobic twin. If only to heal her, to put me through all of this pain to heal her? She ignores my calls, even when I am crying on voice mail. I conclude that she doesn’t care about my suffering, that she has no heart. I know her soul, I see her fear, her deep seated denial of who she is and who we are.

I don’t know how to proceed and how to survive this. I have tried many times to decide to never speak to her again and to try to love another woman, but I know deep inside I have no interest in loving anyone, but her and I cannot force myself to love someone else.

Please, anyone dealing with same-sex twin flame relationships, I would love to hear from you.

Hey; I’m in the same boat as you, the denial, rejection, backstabbing, and taking all the blame. I am a man, however.

Take radical steps for love; lead by example, and demonstrate your self-worth to her to the point where the tables turn; where she feels like she has to get to know you; my twin finally is starting to come around, but it wasn’t easy.

Try connecting with her through music and try and help her feel safe with you and it’ll go a long way. Try not to make her feel jealous or hateful towards you; like I accidentally did. My twin knows I’m about to give up and he is going to extremes to keep me here but doesn’t initiate conversation, yet…

Rachel, you have a deep profound love for your ex, but unfortunately, the feeling is not mutual. She loves you but not with the same intensity that you love her.

As you described your pain my heart went out to you. You believe she is your twin but she is not reciprocating. You mentioned her religious values. I don’t feel that is the issue here because it didn’t stop her having a relationship with you in the first place. Also, she has been married and divorced several times so her Mormon values don’t seem to be affecting her.

What reasons does she give for not wanting to be with you? Does she respond to your messages? She is obviously bisexual, maybe she is more into men than women.

Rachel, you cannot force someone to love you. Your life has been on hold for so long, I think it’s time to let go. If she comes back to you that’s wonderful, but if not you need to start enjoying your life again. I know what I am saying is impossible to act upon when you are so deeply attached to a person but you must start living again. Remember, she doesn’t seem to care at all. Your suffering hasn’t moved her. Is she really worth it? Do you want to be with such a cruel person?

First let me express my sincere sorrows for the heartache you are experiencing. Unfortunately, this will never go away unless you let it go. I know thinking what is this person talking about? Like it just that easy to do. Well, it’s not easy, It’s probably one of the hardest things in life to do.

Your mourning is destructive, your mind and soul are taking a beating every day, and you need help to stop it. Please confide in your Doctor. He or she is there for you and will guide you through this. I could tell you write her a letter and ask her to respond truthfully, but her response may open your wound even further. You sound like a Good, loving, caring person. Don’t let this be taken away.

p.s. I’m a straight male, That should not matter, Our blood is red, and our souls have no orientation.

Rachel, I have just read your message, and my heart goes out to you. Well done for being strong and fighting for so long, however, the more you fight and the more she resists, this obviously shows you that all of the trying in that aspect is not going anywhere.

You say you read plenty information on TF? You should know then that whatever you do to yourself will affect your twin whether it is good or bad. Basically what I’m trying to say is when you focus on your self, and you improve yourself, simultaneously you help her (the connection between you and her) regardless if you’re together or not. And reading what you say, it seems as though you are the awoken one and she is not (or not entirely)

I attended the Mormon Church as well but left due to my own personal issue’s (nothing to do with the church) and but remain incredibly spiritual. Let’s just say that I have discovered my TF is female as well. And after learning this, like you, I read PLENTY information on Twin Flames. The most important message I get from it all is improving on myself helps the other (Twin Flame).

Try going along your path, meet other’s, become whole by yourself. My twin flame and I are both females, and I’m bisexual while she is pansexual, but the thing is, the problem wasn’t even being in a relationship, we legit hated each other, fought all the time.

We weren’t ready to be together, and I was the one who ran.

I found so much about myself on my own; I found friends I love very much, and I learned so much. I’m becoming a whole person on my own.

When you’re whole by yourself, that’s when you should reunite, if there are fear and hatred and fighting, take on your path. It will melt when you are ready.

It’s been like two-three years since I’ve left, but it’s completely worth it.

Have trust in the universe that you will reunite when you are ready. You’ll know when.For now, know that you don’t need her to live on.