It all ended and I'm numb

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Well mum passed away, and to say I'm devastated is an under statement. But I feel so numb at the moment. I cry but not as much as I thought I would yet, I don't know if it's because the last year of mums life for so full on looking after her. I'm pleased to say though that we still had brief windows where she knew who we were but the end was not what her or us wanted.

We are so busy at the moment with arrangements and work and 'life' I'm scared what will happen when the roller coaster docks. Mum was our lives for such a long time, what do I do now? ? I'm finding it incredibly hard to deal with anyone else's feelings , is this odd and selfish??

I want to thank everyone that's ever posted a response to any of my posts, this site bought me comfort and advice when I needed it. Sadly though it's all over.

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Well mum passed away, and to say I'm devastated is an under statement. But I feel so numb at the moment. I cry but not as much as I thought I would yet, I don't know if it's because the last year of mums life for so full on looking after her. I'm pleased to say though that we still had brief windows where she knew who we were but the end was not what her or us wanted.

We are so busy at the moment with arrangements and work and 'life' I'm scared what will happen when the roller coaster docks. Mum was our lives for such a long time, what do I do now? ? I'm finding it incredibly hard to deal with anyone else's feelings , is this odd and selfish??

I want to thank everyone that's ever posted a response to any of my posts, this site bought me comfort and advice when I needed it. Sadly though it's all over.

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My condolences andypandy - I'm so glad you had some time when your mum knew you

Your feelings are not odd at all - you have been so caught up in caring that 'you' took a back seat - now you are discovering your own feelings again; allow yourself to feel whatever does or doesn't come to you - and others will survive while you care for yourself

I'm pleased TP has been a comfort to you (it certainly is to me) - come here anytime you want a listening ear

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I'm so sorry your Mum is no longer with you, please accept my condolences. It's nine months today since I lost my Mum and I miss her loads. At the time it all felt so surreal and numbing. I wish you strength and love, Rose