I 'm lost my own dream for about two to three years. I feel live very upset everyday, with no aims, just working and back to home, then working. I don't have my own idea, and just work with not thinking of everything. Everything I do just to earn some for my food and house. I don't think any thing. That's really black days of me. I finally past that time. I have my dreams now, that's just let myself living full and happy. so don't be upset, man can't live without a dream.

sounds like depression to me, everyone must have a dream big or small, it is something to look forward to, to try and make our lots better in life, whether you dream is become a world leader, or the simply a good mother, everyone should have a dream.

I know what you mean, Raydene. I find even in my night dreams I'm doing things like being stuck in a endless quarry with no way out or back. Or having to carry a bomb on my back, and all I can hope to do is save the other people around me from it.

You have a computer, and can reach out. Look around and explore the internet. Look for oportunities. You are on MyLot, so the way you are going you can probably aford to drink decent coee. Keep communicating, and looking around on the internet. I would probably feel the same way as you did if I did not own a omputer. I met my husband on line, and I'm making lots o money on line too. I also met a lot of nice people, you being one of them.