Month: July 2016

As I set on the bed I felt the spirit come ( The spirit was very welcoming, very warm and loving) almost like a hug and I began to pray and tears fell down my face and all I felt in my spirit was ( Seek my face and You shall find me) as that was repeated and my eyes closed. I felt something near me, I felt it for a minute, and then it went away. I don’t know if that was the spirit saying that I am always here or an angel. I am very sure that is what it was because this is not the first time I’ve had this experience.

Every time I pray to God or I sing in the spirit and his presence is known, I feel that presence right in front of me. I got scared at first when this happened to me tonight because this will be the first time I recognize it.

I am at the end of my bridge where my life is hanging by a rope!!! I am giving myself so much rope that I am hanging myself and I don’t have that much oxygen left. I am at the point in my life that I don’t know how I am going to get my life back on the right track. It is not enough to just try, I want to SUCCEED. Right now I am in a movie….A very long movie, and it want end until I’ve accomplish something or ANYTHING!!! or maybe until I meet my fate. I am 30 ( I felt like I just made a statement!) UGH, saying that makes me cringe because I have nothing to show FOR IT . Yep, I am one of those people….I want more for my life then where I am now.

I am not complaining.That will not change anything but what I want to know is how am I going to get my self out of this deep graveyard that I am in? Any answers will be helpful!!!! or shall I close my casket!!!! LOL,No, but seriously………..

I am way past 6 feet underground…. I am deep…. I am almost at the core of the EARTH!!!!

I AM STARTING TO NOTICE THAT SOME OF THE THINGS THAT I LOOK AT ARE NOT AGREEING WITH MY SPIRIT. LIKE FOR EXAMPLE: ANYTHING NOT DEALING WITH GOD OR MY SINGING CAREER I BEGIN TO HAVE THIS DEPRESSING FEELING ( It is like a roar in my spirit, a very big large mass feeling) . I FEEL LIKE GOD IS TELLING ME TO GET AWAY FROM THE MESS THAT IS NOT FEEDING MY SPIRIT OR MY MIND AND HEART INTELLECTUALLY. IT IS WEIRD, BUT WHEN I GET AWAY FROM THE STUFF ( THAT I FEEL THE SPIRIT IS TELLING ME NOT TO LOOK AT OR MY SPIRIT DOES NOT AGREE WITH) I FEEL BETTER. I NEVER REALLY PAID ANY ATTENTION TO MY SPIRIT UNTIL NOW. I THINK I AM HEARING GOD SPEAK TO ME IN THAT QUIET WHISPER.

P.S. I am sorry that I use the word depressing, that is the only word I could come up with….but with me being more elaborate …..I hope you understand where I am coming from