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Took a knife to my wrist....

And boy did it feel good. It would be so easy to apply more pressure and watch myself bleed. I don't want to die, just want to hurt myself really bad. It's been a good day for the most part but I couldn't resist the knives. I want to go back to them. I turned on the television so I could think about something else. But it's not working. Mom is laying down and asleep so I can't talk to her. she is not feeling well. I can't burden her. I just want to go back to the knives and cut myself some more. Maybe if I get really drunk I will forget about it. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just want to hurt myself on the outside like I am hurting on the inside. I picked up several job applications today and don't know where start. Am I worth hiring? I don't think so. I just feel all alone. Dad doesn't get off work for another hour so I can't call him. God what to I do? I really don't want to die but I'm afraid that if I don't leave the knives alone that's what is going to happen.I am so conflicted right now.

I'm sorry you're feeling so badly. I used to get the urge to cut a lot. I've cut myself enough times to know that it isn't worth it. You feel better for a little while but the pain comes back just as deep and as strong as it was before. If nobodies around and i feel like cutting I go out. I go to Walmart, the mall, any place i can be with people and away from knives. I also try getting a friend on the phone if i can, that helps a lot, someone to share how you're feeling with or at least to distract you. I hope you feel better soon, I'll be thinking about you!

I want out I just don't know what kind of out I want. I just can't handle this emotional roller coaster anymore. I am taking my meds but they seem to have stopped working or they are not the right meds. I just dont' know anymore. My mom is making dinner right now and she is going to freak when i tell her I took a knife to my wrist. I don't know if she can handle it. If she wasn't in the kitchen right now, i would have a knife in my hand.

I just cut again. I wait for my mom to turn her back and bam, im back at it. What the hell is wrong with me. I wish I felt like someone cared. I am all alone in this world. Noone gives a shit so why should I?

You aren't alone in this world. I know how you feel about cutting. I have done it in the past. It gives me a feeling of power when there is a feeling of hopelessness and helplessness. It only makes things worse.

I'm really sorry you feel this awful now. Have you tried meditation? That helps me when I'm feeling like this.

I have seen your posts. Perhaps it's time for a call to the doctor. I really hope you find some hope and peace.

I found if your cutting and you can't seem to stop, the best thing to do is to tell someone close to you. They can hide the knives, sit with you, distract you,, hold you, get you help. Try telling your parents. I know its hard, for me it was embarassing, but letting someone close to you know is the best way to get yourself help. Don't give up, please reach out!

My doc justg adjusted my meds the other day and I see him on Wednesday. I told my mom and she wants me to go to the hospital. If I go, I miss my appt on Wed and work on Thursday. I just cant afford to go to the hospital. I am waiting for my dad to call me back right now. See what he says.

I'm so proud of you!! Your reaching out. Your parents can help you make the right decision. You may not feel like it right now, but you're a really strong person. All us beepers are. Don't underestimate yourself.

I wish I was. I feel very weak at the moment. I don't know if I should listen to my mom and go to the hospital or listen to my day who wants me to call him whenever I feel like cutting instead of going to the hospital. i feel bad putting this on my mom. My dad is out of town right now. I came down here to feel safe and I don't know if I would feel safe in the hospital right now. I think I might get more frustrated and angry.

I guess its up to you. Do you think calling your Dad when you need to will be enough? Will your mom stay up with you all night so you won't be alone? You really are going to need that, this urge to cut takes awhile to go away. If you don't think your Mom can stay up with you or you Dad won't be available all night, then you probably need to go to the hospital. Maybe you and your Mom can rent movies to distract you and go get your favorite snack. Now is the time to pamper yourself. Take a bubble bath, watch your favorite movies, eat your favorite food, play your favorite computer games and most importantly stay with people who can help watch out for you. .

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