Me: It was a bit of a disaster on the whole.Still, nice to see Jackie Lane.The Culture Show special was the other end of
the entertainment spectrum from the Aftershow party, but you haven’t seen
that.

Him:It was beautiful.Can I leave now?

Me:Soon.
There was a lot that I didn't just agree with, but feel like I've been banging on about for ages. Those moments left me feeling a bit vindicated. "Yes! That's exactly right!" That sort of thing. Overall, it was great. It looked beautiful and managed to carve some new marks into ground that's been trodden into a quagmire over the last half-century. I tweeted about how I thought the Culture Show special was superb, and
then we got a reply from Matthew Sweet, the presenter.This delighted me so much that I panicked off
Twitter, and sat blushing in a corner for the rest of the evening.

Him:Maybe he’s just a nice guy and replies to
everyone.

Me: Shush.I’m special.Ummm… I think that’s
probably about it.You haven’t seen or
heard anything about the Christmas special have you?

Him:No.

Me:Right, well we’ll wrap up and I’ll go and
write the things that I should have been writing earlier on in the week.And then I can get back to reading comics and books about comics as 'research'.

Him:Ok.

Me:I’ve got some plans for next year.

Him:I have no idea.

Me:Well, when the dust’s settled with the
missing episode rumours we can remount the Ascent, but there’re also a couple
of other things I’d like to have a shot at.

Him:It’ll never end!

Me:We’ve got all the stories watched up to The Space Pirates1 – I just need to type up what we said.

The Him grows an arm
out of his back.

Me:And then…If any of the stories we watched as recons are returned, then I can just
recon the write-ups2 and we can do a
proper entry for the story itself.

The Him drags himself
up the wall with his new arm.Wings
begin to sprout.

Me:Otherwise, there’s the thing about British horror
comics that I’ve been trying to write.The Doctor got jealous at being
ignored and kept flinging stuff at me to make sure I was paying attention, so it's been waiting patiently for the last month and a bit.I’d like to get back to that in
2014.

Him:Would you?

The Him’s jaw distends
by about six feet as his eyes start to glow a virulent blue.

Me:Yeah.And I want us to meet Tom Baker.

Bones crack - tendons scream - a terrible metamorphosis concludes.

Somehow.

The Him emits a piercing
shriek and launches through the window, flapping deftly into the cold November
darkness.Distant screams blow in on the
frigid air.

Me:Born in a barn?

Pause.

Can I type you saying ‘squawk’?

Him:No.No
you can’t.

Me:Fair enough.Lovely.G’night.

1.And we’ve watched every (available) story
that isn’t The Ambassadors of Death –
most of them before we started this blog – in case I hadn’t mentioned that at
some point.

2.Our recon of The Web of Fear can be found in the Travers Tales set here.Go and
have a look, if you haven’t already, and you’ll see what I’m getting at.Also, we’re hedging our bets that there’re
still goodies yet to escape from the BBC Canteen…

Me: So do I, but we haven’t got time at the
moment.You were quite embarrassed when
I took the photo of the advert.

Him:I pretended I didn’t know you.

Me:I know.I felt quite self-conscious until I thought, well, why not?No-one cares and this is the only chance to
do it.Which is a bit like going to see Doctor Who in the cinema anyway.You were excited.

Him:Not as excited as you.You were frightening people on the train all
the way there.

Me: Ha!Payback for all the football songs I’ve had to put up with since
2005.

Him:You should stop going to football matches
then.

Me: BDMTISH!Well.You’re hiding it now, but you were looking forward to it.

Him:Prove it.

Me:You didn’t complain on the way there.

Him:Yes I did.

Me:Too late now.So.We got there early.

Him:An hour early.Just like everyone else did!

Me:We all wanted to beat the rush.I noticed that they’d added an extra showing.

Him:Sneakily.

Me: The cinema we were in – screen 15 – was packed.Weren’t some of your chums-

Me: Oh well.I think we had a few exclusive moments.Y’know, on account of being in the cinema.

Him:What exclusive moments?

Me: The live-action pottery warning for one.

The Him chuckles.

Him:I have no idea what she was talking about and
I don’t think anyone else did either.Possibly because you kept shouting “WHAT?” every three seconds.

Me: I couldn’t hear what she was saying.But then, I suppose Real Radio have paid a
lot of money to have their slurry pumped into the cinema, so no-one’s allowed
to turn it off or down.Even when a
member of staff is issuing some sort of statement.

Him:I think she said that if the film was too
boring to watch then we could still come and buy some snacks.Which was interrupted by cries of “NEVER!”

Me: Yeah, those weren’t from me.I was fairly sure she was either warning us
that they hadn’t been able to run the film first to check for flaws – what with
all the secrecy - or that the doors would be locked while a film on the history
of pottery was being played.

Him:I think it was more likely to be about the
pottery.

Me:So.We
had adverts and then we got some exclusive content.

Him:Yup.Which we’re not allowed to talk about since it was exclusive.

Me:There was a trailer for an upcoming DreamWorks
film, altered to look like an animated Doctor
Who spin-off - it’s only a matter of time - then an Anchorman trailer, also shot specially. And then…

Him:Strax telling us how to behave in the cinema!

Me:Yeah.I enjoyed that.“Popcorn feels
pain.”

Him:“I love their tiny screams”.

Me:And then a special introduction – designed to
give our eyes time to adjust to the 3D.

Him:Matt Smith and David Tennant telling us about
3D.And budget cuts.

Me:Yeah.Shall we run through the film?

Him:We’ve already seen it.

Me:You’re on fire today, boy.On fire!

Him:It smarts!

Me:The 3D was pretty good.

Him:It has to be said.

Me: I loved the old opening.And then Coal Hill School – which was right next to Totter’s
Lane, oddly enough.

Him:Why was Clara teaching there?She doesn’t seem qualified.

Me:I think it’s so Moffat can recycle some jokes
from Chalk in the next series.

Me:I’m going to go into more depth in the
footnotes because I’m after your thoughts,
but I think I finally saw what Moffat’s aiming at.In that cinema, it was a totally success.

Him:Definitely.Most people even stayed until the end of the credits.

Me:And even the credits were great.I hope that’s the new look.

Him:No, I think it’s just a special credit
sequence for the Fiftieth.

Me: Tell me your three favourite moments.

Him:I don’t know.

Me:Try.

Him:I can’t decide.

Me:Okay.Three bits you liked then.

Him:I can’t choose.I don’t like doing that.

Me: Fair enough.Tell me the story in your own words.

Him:Stuff.Massive bomb thingy and then the story happened and then it ended.

Me: Concise.

Him:And then the credit sequence was great.

Me: TARDIS over London?

Him:Is that a headline?Sounds like an episode title.

Me: Zygons?

Him:They were always your favourite – well,
somewhere up there.

Me: And David Tennant’s favourite.Hang on, mine’s the Krynoid.Time War?

Him:I can’t do it.

Me: Alright.When did the audience make noises?

Him:David Tennant.Zygons.Umm… Peter Capaldi-

Me: Oh yeah!What a moment.The cheer was
massive.

Him:There was more clapping than actually
howling.

Me: I bellowed when Tom Baker turned up.

Him:You were so happy.Did you expect to see him?

Me: Yeah.He’d announced that he was in it but that he wasn’t supposed to tell
anyone, earlier in the week.I thought
it might be a double-bluff though.It
was a weird moment.Really strange.Very moving actually.The handover from the past.Well, that’s a theme running through it.

Him:Are you happy to have finally seen it?

Me: Yeah.I’m…However cool I try to be
about it, Doctor Who’s a massive part
of my life and…A lot of people are
being a bit curmudgeonly about this but I think they’re missing the point.I’m going to go into the ins and outs in more
depth in the footnotes but…

Pause.

However you look at it, we’re lucky to have something as
unique and strange as this in our culture.Truly.It’s bizarre and idiosyncratic
and it’s always there.I’m stunned by it
right now.Sometimes it’s alright to be
proud of a part of popular culture.Doctor Who is…

Pause.

I don’t know…It’s
very emotional…

Pause.

It’s…

Him:I don’t know how to reply to that.

Me:I wrote a thing about the Five Faces repeat
season, yeah?

Him:Yeah.

Me: And I was a bit tongue-in-cheek about
suggesting the Doctor was a folk-hero who’d managed to make himself immortal…

Me: No, it’s General Ironicus.Have you seen the reboot of Battlestar Galactica?

Him:Of course not.

Me:That’s what Moffat’s counting on.

Him:Oh.Why?

Me: Because a couple of the big themes in the
upcoming series look likely to be quite similar.Quest for a home planet.You can’t be sure who’s human…

Him:Must be murder painting a 3D painting.

Me: Especially in oils.

Him:Ha!Vincent Van Gogh did an alright job.

Me:Right up until he was chased by a giant
invisible space-chicken, then bundled into an impossible box, shown a future
where he was revered as a genius before being dumped back into the final days
of his hellhole of a life.Not one of
the Doctor’s finest hours really, no matter how many uplifting pop-tracks by
Trainer or Plimsoll or whatever they’re called that you-

Pause.

Sorry.I’m supposed
to be being positive.And anyway…

Him:Anyway?

Me:Did you like it?

Him:Yes.Did you?1

Me:Yeah.I
did.A lot.Thanks for sharing it with me.

Him:You’re welcome.I do
make things better just by being there.

Me: Ha!That’s not quite what I meant when I said, ‘Thanks for sharing it with
me’…

Him:Oh.

Pause.

I see.

Me:Do you?

Him:Yes.

Me: Really?

Him:Yes.

Me: Are you just bluffing here?

Him:No.I
understand.It’s fine.

Me: Good.Then you won’t mind if I explain what I meant to everyone else.

Him:You do that.

Me: Thanks.I will.1

1.In 1983 my Dad took me to Longleat. It was the day after April Fools’. Those are facts. I’m fairly sure that he bought the tickets as
a surprise – I was reaching my first peak of enthusiasm with Doctor Who at the time – but I can’t
prove it and I can’t ask him. All vivid childhood memories are likely to be
constructions that’re equal parts fiction, embellishment or someone else’s
entirely.

I can prove that I
sat in Bessie, looking uncomfortable. I
also had my photo taken in front of the TARDIS, surrounded by what can now be
identified as cosplayers. But there’s
not much else about that day that I can prove happened. I’ve seen footage from the panels, shots of
giant model Cybermen, the crowds and the mud – can’t remember any of it. I do remember walking through a tent, leaning
on a wooden railing and taking photos of various sets and monsters – most
specifically the TARDIS console room.
None of the shots came out because I didn’t have the flash on. I got back one blurred glossy photo of
darkness from the developers. It came
with a free snotty sticker, offering hints at ways of ‘taking better
pictures’. At least, I think that’s what
happened. It’s become an anecdote more
than a memory, so maybe it’s fictional.

I got a chill when I stood in front of the same TARDIS console room set, last October. We were down in Cardiff visiting – it’s
where we were both born after all – and Dad suggested me and the Him visit the
Doctor Who Experience that he’d been reading about. He bought the tickets again.

Back in Longleat, I’d been in a queue for something like a
geological period, give or take five hundred years. At that time Doctor Who and the Visitation was the only Target book featuring
the Fifth Doctor that had been released.
I’d been reading it in the car and I’d brought it with me, which turned
out to be fortuitous. Like I said, it
was a long queue and I’d developed a reading habit early. At the end of the queue I met Peter Davison
and Sarah Sutton briefly. I can prove
this because they both signed the book, everything else I’ve said about the
encounter is as true as my memory makes it.
I’ve probably made up the escaped tiger but everything else is definitely
genuine.

If you’ve read our ‘review’ of Peter Davison’s fan tribute
film (yes, it is) The Five(ish) Doctors,
then you’ll know that I wrote a fan’s tribute to him that was published in a
real book made of dead trees. The call
had gone out from Miwk, who were looking for contributors to You and Who: Contact Has Been Made, not
long after we’d visited the Doctor Who Exhibition. The Terror
of the Zygons essay was still available.
The Him told me to pitch for it, so I did and I got the gig.

Months later, the week before the deadline (if I remember
correctly – if not, never mind, dramatically will do just fine) I had a gentle
reminder email from editor J.R. Southall, and wrote a rushed and barking piece in
response. It was as honest as I could
manage. In the end, I turned in five
essays over the two books. I think
enough time’s passed to say that I wrote them to interlink as a single piece,
even though it doesn’t matter what order you read them in. It was cocky, but I guessed no-one would
notice, mind or care, apart from myself.
Well, that’s put paid to that, I guess.

The essays themselves were written under a pseudonym,
because I wrote everything under a
pseudonym. With a bit of gentle nudging,
I agreed to change the future and publish them under my own name. This wasn’t just so I’d have books on the
shelf that I could prove I’d contributed something to, because that didn’t
bother me really, I like anonymity. I’d rather
be behind what I’ve written because then it’s less distracting. Also, you’d notice that I really do look like Adric and that’s not going
to do any of us any good. Nah, that
wasn’t the reason I took off the mask.

Early this year I helped kill a band that I’d been with over
the century. In the weeks counting down
to the gig, we put up an album’s worth of material - along with sleeve-notes,
artwork and an accompanying essay – every day.
2013 has been a year of endings and new beginnings, change and renewal,
loss and… If you’ve read this far then
I’m guessing you know how much of a panic it was getting tickets to see The Day of the Doctor in the
cinema. The original plan was to meet up
in Cardiff with
my fellow band founder and family and immerse ourselves in a hometown,
homecoming celebration. BBC Worldwide
put the knackers on that one.

Me and Him watched our way through a fair chunk of Season
Clara in preparation for The Day of the
Doctor – but with all the stuff he had to catch up with, including An Adventure in Space and Time, we were
down to the wire. I’d scheduled two An Unearthly Child posts to go up at
1715 yesterday – to mark two years of No Complications – with the huge Travers Tales set I’ve been working on
forever, ready to launch at 1716, the actual minute of the Whoniversary. After those went live, we put on jackets and
shoes and headed to town. Well, after a
quick photo of Him cosplaying as Him: a record for posterity. Evidence.

Outside was cold and orange.
There weren’t many people around, but someone was already sitting in my
usual seat. Patterns, eh? Worth breaking every so often. We got off the train in the city centre, and
I embarrassed Him by snapping the giant screen.
More evidence. We walked in a bit
of a zig-zag so I could take photos of the Doctor
Who-themed windows, a local bar had painted as a tribute. I’d tweeted the early stages, but it felt
that there’d be a certain frisson to capturing these transient moments while
they were hot and fizzing with a type of shared relevance, however brief. Then we went to Sainsburys and bought popcorn
to smuggle into the screening.

We had to hunt around a bit before I found a cinema poster
for the Day itself. I knew there’d be
one. The elevators took forever. We were near the top of the car park
disguised as a cinema and had to stand behind other patrons who refused to
move any faster than technology allows.
Like cattle being carried blissfully toward rotating knives. I prefer taking the stairs because it’s
usually faster and time is often an
essence.

We dashed briefly to the very top of the car park so
the Him could feel like a pre-lunch Galactus for a moment. Having got the evil bellowing out of the way,
we turned and bounded down the empty escalator (that’s how they’re supposed to be used) to our proper
floor. According to the display screen,
another showing had been added. Both had
sold out. We scurried through the foyer,
in the style of Groucho, got our tickets ripped by an attendant and headed
straight up and into a pair of decent seats, just behind Glasgow Who. This when we noticed we were about an hour
early.

The Him read through an old blog post while I sketched
twitchily in the half-light. Time
treacled by until another attendant made an announcement that I totally failed
to catch. Then… Trailers and so on.

Which brings us to The
Day of the Doctor. I’ve been harsh
about Moffat recently, not just on here either.
I definitely feel he took his eye off the ball over the last season and
I’m sure that The Day of the Doctor
is the reason for that. He had to get
this right, and if some other stories took a bullet as a result, well – so be
it. He made the right choice.

The atmosphere in the cinema was chewable. Seeing an episode of new Doctor Who with a crowd of people who were there because they
wanted to be, was an incredible experience.
Even Murray Gold was bearable – mostly – because the pomp was lost
within the scale. I’m not sure how well
it’ll work in a more intimate space, because this was written to be an epic,
shared drama rather than anything else.
And when I say ‘shared’, I don’t just mean the hundred or so people in
the theatre with us. I’ll come back to
it in just a moment because I think it’s important.

I went on a school-trip to Chepstow as part of the Art
A-Level I was failing as a result of discovering that being in a band took a
lot of the sting out of talking to girls (and that performing live carried a
huge rush that was hard to match). It
was on this trip I bought The Sisters of Mercy’s ‘comeback’ single, ‘More’ (on
7”, 12” and CDS - I was one of those fans
– I bet you’d already guessed). Of
course, this means that I know Chepstow isn’t in England, so the opening Zygon
gambit broke a wire on my suspended disbelief straight off. The horse was a nice touch, especially if you
don’t think about it. Queen Liz didn’t
convince me, sorry. The Zygons are too
confused – but the set-up is pure Battlestar
Galactica Final Five and…

Well, what the hell?

Moffat had an impossible job. Totally impossible. I’m not going to pick any more holes in
something that was so much better than we had any right to expect. The dialogue between the Doctors was
brilliant, of course. Moffat used the
Hurt Doctor to address complaints and…
Look. It’s about growing up.

I’ve said before that Doctor
Who isn’t a show that grows with its audience, because if it did it
wouldn’t have one. An Adventure in Space and Time carries the same theme. Regeneration.
Change. Renewal. Everyone who moans that Doctor Who hasn’t been good since Troughton/Pertwee/Baker/Whoever
is both wrong and right at the same time.
Of course it isn’t. It’s not
being made for you any more: that’s why you don’t like it. You got old.
The Doctor’s immortal.

For all his faults (music, idealised dialogue and the need
to always be the best, spring to mind) Steven Moffat understands this change
and renewal business. Getting old is
different to growing up. We kid
ourselves that growing up’s a good thing, because then we can pretend we aren’t
getting old – we’re maturing. I still feel like I’m about nineteen just with
more experience and less hair. I’m not,
but that’s how I feel. And it’s
cruel. It doesn’t go away. We fix at a certain age and then we’re stuck,
looking out from inside a body that slowly breaks down (if we’re lucky) over
years that pass by faster and faster and faster until we’re just dust; phantoms
conjured by photographs, old letters, heirlooms, books, recordings - the things
that help keep the memory-fiction feeling genuine. We’re all fighting a Time War. We’re all going to lose.

The Day of the Doctor
is about accepting that defeat graciously.
Moffat uses the Hurt Doctor to say what a lot of fans have been thinking
– all the dialogue nonsense, the rhyming stuff – it’s a mid-life crisis. It’s been addressed now, so why not just
accept it and stay? Don’t get
angry. He’s not destroying your
childhood. He’s offered you a compromise
– take it.

That’s why we get Tom Baker handing over to Matt Smith. The Doctor’s moved on. He loved being played by Tom Baker but that’s
done now and he wants to try some new faces on instead. To me, Tom Baker has always been the
Doctor. Not my Doctor, because that’s Peter Davison. The
Doctor. The genuine article you might
say. (I could go into my idea that the
Doctor is now as real as ghosts and Gods are, but that’s something that’ll have
to wait for another day. We really do
need to talk about The Chase
properly.)

As soon as Matt Smith sat down, I knew what was going to
happen. I leaned forward, covered my
mouth and waited. Me, the Him, dozens of
strangers and a record-breaking chunk of humanity, scattered across the
time-zones of this tiny spot of something, spinning in an infinite, cold
nothing, we all moved through the
same fixed-point of time at the same
time: the Doctor shaking hands with his replacement and sealing the deal. It’s okay.
It’s fine. Just one tear rolled
out under the Real 3D lens and down my cheek, reflecting back the Doctor’s face
– “Who. Nose.” – and then…

It was over. The
transition had taken place. He’s no
longer the Doctor. He’s Tom Baker. And Tom Baker, as he is today, reminds me of
my Dad.

Here’s the reason that I took off the mask. I’d offered Miwk an extra essay for their
website, to act as a promotional tool for the books, and it had been accepted. I wanted to write a piece specifically for my
Dad as well, something to link all these worlds together. In the end I wrote about the history of
Ammanford, where he grew up (and where I first watched Daleks: Invasion Earth 2150 AD) and how it connects Doctor Who to the rest of everything. It’s too dense to be totally successful, but
I’m glad I tried. Ray Cusick died two
days before I wrote it. I noticed in his
obituary that he’d arrived to do theatre rep-work in Cardiff at about the same
time that Terry Nation was leaving, which is why he appears towards the end and
shares a dedication with my Dad. The
website essay went up under my pseudonym and I didn’t correct it, I knew I was
unmasked in the books – and those were the ones that I wanted to show Dad. In the end he didn’t see them. 2013’s been a hell of a year.

I had a monumental birthday this year. One of those where the year-o-meter clicks
over and your resale value drops accordingly.
I’ve been hanging around with Apophenia the Library Angel more than
usual. It seems to be working out, so
we’ll cling onto each other for 2014 at least.
Things are changing slowly and none of us are getting any younger, so if
you fancy hanging around, you’re very welcome.

Here’s to the future.
Here’s to Him, me, you and everyone else that’s real.