It is ridiculous how busy and sick I have been recently. I failed a test this week because i didn't have the energy to study for it. I went to two different doctors for them to tell me that it was basically the common cold and that my body would fight it off. Luckily for me now, I am starting to feel better.So- I am super sorry for not posting for a few days.. I will get back on it daily agian, I promise. I am starting to feel a lot better. And when school ends- you can expect some great new changes to my blog! :)Other than being super busy with work, school, and my health- I still feel great. I have not been this worry-free in a long time. And it is weird because finals are in a few weeks... but I am not stressing over anything.The other day I was on the shaved ice truck and I just got this overwhelming feeling of happiness. You know that feeling where your stomach kind of drops and you just smile? Yeah it was one of those feelings. I am smiling right now thinking about it. I cannot picture my life any other way right now. Doing great in school, doing my best at work, putting my all into my family and relationships, and most importantly bettering myself everyday.I am proud of the person that I have become, and I can't wait to see where I end up.When you sit there and think about being happy with your life... what do you think of? Recently accomplishing a goal? Reevaluating different aspects of your life? Doing your best on a project?From recent events... What can you pull out of the vault and say "this has made me a better person... this is making me happier everyday"? It is a beautiful site to see someone genuinelly happy. And sometimes it takes time, you just need to listen to yourself. I am truly a big believer in following your gut. You know the truth. You know exactly what you need to do to be happy.. It is just up to you to make that decision. It is up to you to take the next step.Do what you have to do to make yourelf happy. Your happiness does come first. If you are not happy, then nothing is worth it. If it doesn't make you happy, it has no purpose being in your life.I try to preach happiness a lot- I know. But the only reason for that is because I know what it feels like to be genuinelly sad. I know what it is like to hate yourself, and hate everything around you. I have been there, that is why I am now here to help anyone who needs it. I show my emotions how I am feeling them. I can get over things fast, and I can also hold on to things... But the difference with me and most of society is that I drop the things that don't make me strive to be better anymore, and I hold on tight to the things that I never want to lose, the things that make me feel like a better person. This is what I try to preach. Why waste time being sad or angry about something?You are doing nothing but hurting yourself."Hating someone or something is letting it live rent-free in your mind."Now tell me... Is it still worth it? The negative energy? No. And maybe this come with maturity... maybe it comes with age.. But personally I think it comes with maturity. It comes from learning from your own mistakes or the mistakes of others and moving on.Personally I love learning from the mistakes of others. It makes me a better person because i don't have to go through a mistake to learn something. If you really try hard enough, you can be a happy, care-free person. But if you don't care about being a better person, you will do the exact opposite.You need to remember though- you cannot help everyone. Not everyone wants your help, and that is okay. But that is when you need to make the decision- does this make me grow? Sometimes you need to make decisions for YOU. When it comes to happiness- sometimes you need to be selfish. Being the better person means that you are professional, you keep your composure, and you do not try to bring others down to make you feel better. Some people will never get this through their head, and that is okay- those are the people that you need to steer clear from. There is no need for negative energy to be in you life."You attract people by the qualities you display, you keep them by the qualities you possess."

One thing that you need to keep in mind though..."There are two things that define you. Your patience when you have nothing, and your attitude when you have everything."I wish that I could tattoo this on my forehead. When you read this, and something comes to mind... I hope it is a positive thought. If not... I recommend some changes to be made. Negativity only hangs around if you let it.All in all... if it makes you happy- do it. If it doesn't- don't.You just have to practice happiness everyday.Yes, it really is that easy :)