memos to me

How is it that I can sit and plan and write reminders and yet hours/days/weeks will pass and I have yet to strike through one thing on my to-do list? Writing feels as naturally as breathing but sometimes I forget to breathe as if it’s natural. I look back and think “I should have done better” and in the end the past keeps distracting me from what to accomplish in the present.

I can’t keep “I can do it” in the future tense.

I have to figure out how to make it become part of the past, so it’s just “I did it.”