I wish I were on intervention lol. I haven't seen old dxm Ben on here in years.

Best of blue light would be fitting for the end of my drug career. Still clean still struggling, as much as drugs have ruined my life I am thankful for my dissociative experiences, they taught me so much compared to my escapist drug use.

Thank God and Jesus and such for this making it to best of BL. This is my greatest accomplishment ever. that's pretty much all i actually did. god damn mystical deluded thinking always gets the best of me.

yeah gf only cheated on me, dropped out of school, father had a massive stroke, got arrested, overdosed and came off a 20mg/day etizolam habbit cold turkey, lost my cars, had to move in with my dad, went to rehab, stayed clean for 4 months for nothing. All in all not a bad run. Fucking hell.

I think i did reach some spiritual height that night lol but my physical self and world took a fucking beating. Oh well I've seen the light.

yeah gf only cheated on me, dropped out of school, father had a massive stroke, got arrested, overdosed and came off a 20mg/day etizolam habbit cold turkey, lost my cars, had to move in with my dad, went to rehab, stayed clean for 4 months for nothing. All in all not a bad run. Fucking hell.

I think i did reach some spiritual height that night lol but my physical self and world took a fucking beating. Oh well I've seen the light.

ebola's existence was enough to will it to occur. And i was reading a lot of ebola posts while high on mxe, dxm, and other dissociatives up until that glorious day lol. If you look back you can see my development of a mystical framework bordering on delusion lol. It's an interesting thing to experience.

ebola's existence was enough to will it to occur. And i was reading a lot of ebola posts while high on mxe, dxm, and other dissociatives up until that glorious day lol. If you look back you can see my development of a mystical framework bordering on delusion lol. It's an interesting thing to experience.

haha thanks for the reply finally. was seriously wondering! truly it was an earth shattering day. whenever anyone brings up the concept of doing it or doing something a smirk comes across my face and remember you. so thank you for giving me a lot of happiness over the past week and many to come.

ill have to reach out to the cosmic consciousness to take an idea on the best date for a mass BL "FUCKING DOING IT" event. I could do this sooner rather than later if someone is willing to provide the necessary MXE of course