There was a HUGE fucking fire just down from my dad's business today, it was really stressful. There was a guy stuck up on the crane, he was eventually rescued, but I was expecting the crane to come down at any minute. They ended up flying a SAR Griffon in from CFB Trenton, it was pretty amazing and relieving to watch. Apparently now the motel across from the building has now caught fire, and my biggest hangout spot, the local comic book shop/card shop is attached to it... I really hope that they get that fire under control, and that the gas station across the road doesn't catch.

My mood tends to follow me into things I do... or from them. I'm kinda an inadvertent method editor as it were. So when I'm doing comedy stuff or upbeat stuff, I keep myself in a pretty good mood; and if I'm in a pretty good mood, I can't do anything serious or dramatic - it ends up looking like shit. So I'm starting work on a rather somber drama thing right now, and it's somewhat crushing... but if i do anything to pull myself out of it, I know my work's going to suffer for it. I know this hobby isn't worth it, but I really want to say I made something dramatic that I feel proud of at least a little.

CastielTheFallen wrote:Suicidal thoughts are getting worse and worse...buckshot at the ready...here's to trying to hold back

I kind of know that feel. Well it's not so much as straight up suicidal thoughts, but depression/anxiety getting worse and worse that I worry that the me in the future might just finally get sick of it and snap.