Say one prayer for me.. One is enough.. To restore this ruin within my hearth..

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Music speaks to me. Perhaps it will to you. If so, here is a song that I relate to from my recent time in the spiritual desert. Just don't linger there too long. Make the effor to get out. Just a little is all it takes. One foot in front of the other. God bless you!

Quoting: Resister

I love that one,thank you very powerful and speaks to me. Much more than the previous one. Thank you!

Re: Say one prayer for me.. One is enough.. To restore this ruin within my hearth..

LUKE 1511 And he said, A certain man had two sons:

12 And the younger of them said to his father, Father, give me the portion of goods that falleth to me. And he divided unto them his living.

13 And not many days after the younger son gathered all together, and took his journey into a far country, and there wasted his substance with riotous living.

14 And when he had spent all, there arose a mighty famine in that land; and he began to be in want.

15 And he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country; and he sent him into his fields to feed swine.

16 And he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto him.

17 And when he came to himself, he said, How many hired servants of my father's have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger!

18 I will arise and go to my father, and will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before thee,

19 And am no more worthy to be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants.

20 And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.

21 And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son.

22 But the father said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet:

23 And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry:

24 For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.

25 Now his elder son was in the field: and as he came and drew nigh to the house, he heard musick and dancing.

26 And he called one of the servants, and asked what these things meant.

27 And he said unto him, Thy brother is come; and thy father hath killed the fatted calf, because he hath received him safe and sound.

28 And he was angry, and would not go in: therefore came his father out, and intreated him.

29 And he answering said to his father, Lo, these many years do I serve thee, neither transgressed I at any time thy commandment: and yet thou never gavest me a kid, that I might make merry with my friends:

30 But as soon as this thy son was come, which hath devoured thy living with harlots, thou hast killed for him the fatted calf.

31 And he said unto him, Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I have is thine.

32 It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found.

I just wanted to be sure. Ok. I want to say that while I was reading your post,I just read the first post though it was enough,and while doing that,I felt like I wrote,I 2 days ago,that is the fullness I lost,by what you wrote there,you and me are same person so to say,my friend I know that you can understand my emptyness now when I say I had that state of mind yesterday until I fallen,that was it,clear flow of thoughts,calmness,no anger in any situation,I had that Truth you speak of inside me till yesterday,I know you can understand now to some degree how I feel,like I said what you wrote there was me just one day ago.. I will get back there,nothing in this world will stop me from trying and doing that.. Thank you very much,speak to me some more :)

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I can't quote the prodigal son story too long for my mobile.. But yes like I said that is my story today,and I just want to get back to my father,and want to see him runing towards as he sees me coming back. To fall into his loving arms again; Home. That is what I desire.. And will get back there sooner or later..

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"God forbid we should ever be 20 years without such a rebellion. The people cannot be all, & always, well informed... If they remain quiet under such misconceptions it is a lethargy, the forerunner of death to the public liberty... Let them take arms... What signify a few lives lost in a century or two? The tree of liberty must be refreshed from time to time with the blood of patriots & tyrants. " - Thomas Jefferson in 1787

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Never done this before. I am empty,all the joy of this day,all the prayer,all the good work I've done today,the living spirit of God I had today burning within my being,is now gone,no joy,no pain,just a desert,emptyness,I'd be good if I felt anything even pain but this emptyness..If you are willing one is enough.. If there is anything specific you want to pray for me.. Let it be brokedness,pray to the living God that he breaks me once again,every piece of me,to break it,so He can rebuild me at His will.. Restore this ruin within me. Like one pastor said.. I am not what I was,I am not where I'm supposed to be,God I don't have your heart or your burden,I wanted it easy,I just wanted to be happy.

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Some let their head rule their heart, one would assume your heart rules your head, try as you might. If your heart isn't into it, follow your heart you must. What caused this change of heart, we're you unhappy, is there change afoot?

Don't panic, and by all means don't beat yourself into submission; take a step back and listen. I don't think you've lost your religion as much as your religion lost you.

Forgive me for unsolicited advice and opinions, yet otherwise my prayer might not be understood...I hope you find your way again; I hope you find your passion, go the distance...

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I said a prayer to Our Lord to notice your distress and bring you joy. He's been carrying you through "The Dark Night Of The Soul ". You know the story about the sad scared man on a beach walking along with a newly met companion who spoke words to him of great comfort... when the man glanced back behind them walking he saw only one set of footprints, and then when he looked back beside him again his friend had disappeared. I am glad to hear it sounds like you now see a light at the end of a dark terrible tunnel. Been there.

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Never done this before. I am empty,all the joy of this day,all the prayer,all the good work I've done today,the living spirit of God I had today burning within my being,is now gone,no joy,no pain,just a desert,emptyness,I'd be good if I felt anything even pain but this emptyness..If you are willing one is enough.. If there is anything specific you want to pray for me.. Let it be brokedness,pray to the living God that he breaks me once again,every piece of me,to break it,so He can rebuild me at His will.. Restore this ruin within me. Like one pastor said.. I am not what I was,I am not where I'm supposed to be,God I don't have your heart or your burden,I wanted it easy,I just wanted to be happy.

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OP, I´ve seen some shit.Believe me, now matter how dark it gets, there will come a new day. You fought a good fight, now it´s time for you to rest a bit.Go through the Metamorphosis, as long as it takes, that you become, what lies within your soul.

There will come a time when you believe everything ends.This will be the beginning[Louis L'Amour]