My goal is to write about my experiences, share what I have learned, and hopefully help someone deal with and free themselves from their narcissist. My secondary goal, is to let out all so much I have held in for years and quietly suffered. I do this as a means to continue to heal.

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About Me

I graduated from one of the most prestigious schools, got my bachelors and masters in engineering, had a promising career, and had wonderful, beautiful children. By all accounts and appearances, it would have appeared for a long time that I had a great, picturesque life, but underneath it all, I was married to someone who was diagnosed as being narcissistic.
My nightmare started almost immediately after I married this person who was Jekyl and Hyde. I want to share my experiences and to let you know what I had to sacrifice and do to get away from this person. My journey still continues as I am still working to fully recover from experiencing this person in my life. I don't think anyone ever really recovers from dealing with such a monster.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Reflecting Back

If someone were to tell me a year ago that I would be in the midst of building my dream house, I would have told them that they were crazy. A year ago, I was in a quagmire, trying to get away from my narcissist and uncertain of how the future would turn out. There were points in my life, where I felt like I would end up in the streets completely ruined. I felt like this person would stop at nothing to destroy me.

I slowly took back as many ways as I possibly could the ways in which he could hurt me. In doing so, I made it ever so much more difficult for him to come after me. I kept doing what I knew to be right. Life is never quite perfect, but it sure is a lot easier when you are not with someone who works against you and tries to destroy your every happiness.

I am so very fortunate that today I am happy to report that I have a great job, an awesome and understanding boss, a great boyfriend, and I am delightfully relishing every aspect of picking out the details of my new house.

Sometimes we can't see that things will get better, but I tend to believe everything happens for a reason. I often wish I never met my narcissist and didn't have it so hard for so many years of dealing with this person. However, in hindsight, my life with my narcissist, has made me a better person. It has taught me to cherish the people who are genuinely good and to run far away from those who have the personality traits of a narcissist. It has taught me to enjoy the good fortunes I have had and to live my life to the fullest. These lessons definitely came with a high price tag, and for that I will take care of them. I can't say that I have any fond memories of my relationship with my narcissit, but I did learn lessons that I am quite fond of.