The Private Journal of Inok Alrutz

Dear Reader,

This isn't really a blog.It's more like private journal, made public.So, let's get personal.

My mission here is mainly to express and record my innermost experiences in a way that is raw, unfiltered, authentic, candid and explicit.

I am going to write about the intimate details of my experience and what is important to me- mainly my relationships, and my journey of becoming a more awesome Me.

I am going to write about whatever feels juicy and relevant for me at the time that it feels good to write it. I will likely jump around a lot and leave out background info, because this is for me first, you second. And because it has to be natural to be as real and raw as I need it to be to serve its purpose of expediting and solidifying my evolution.

Sometimes I may write things that are really profound and potentially super helpful to others going through similar situations. Sometimes I may just rant, or rave about what drives me crazy, one way or the other. Sometimes I might seem like an asshole, but I am ok with that because I realize that sometimes I AM an asshole! And basically, sometimes, so is everyone, and if they don't think so it is probably because they are deluding themselves.

What I most hope is that I am able to flow naturally and unfiltered, and if it is coherent enough for you to follow along too, then all the better.

Why Share?

I choose to publish all this juicy inside info with you for a few reasons:

1. It is immensely helpful to my own process of conscious evolution. When I share my experience, it shifts things for me. It shifts my relationship with that which I am talking about, especially when voicing my inner experience aloud for the first time ever. It is like trying out a version of myself in reality. How does it feel to live the me that is like this, now being out in the open for another to witness, in relation to the witness as well.

2. It would be so deeply fulfilling to know that another being has benefited from sharing in my experience and conscious process. I feel that an essential aspect of my calling in this lifetime is to serve in this way.

3. It is about the only thing my mate of 5+ years has ever asked of me, and it is about time I gave him the one little thing he wants.- an account of the incredible TRUTH.

4. I have wanted to share through writing for many a year now, even felt it was a part of my destiny, my karma, that which is set before me to be fulfilled in this life. And despite still having many internal hang ups about it, I now have zero excuses for why I don't.