So many dreams, dreamed.
So much heartache is over
So much love, still there.

Red wine is too bold
Tonight, I seek the subtle.
Slow, easy movement.

Letting go, fully
Allowing in the pictures,
universal dreams.

Oh, life! Had I known
Years past, how easy it was
To make dreams come true.

What we dream in sleep
Can come true in waking hours.
Surrender, it’s yours.
This haiku set comes from the day. I undid a lie. If there’s an order to lies, from large to small, it was small. But if there’s no order to them, and I believe there’s not, it was just another lie. It was, in my opinion, a lie, just like all the other myriad of lies over the last year. I undid it, seeking just to stop it from cycling through my head. Over and over and over, like a 45 record with a scratch.

When I did that, my world immediately, if not sooner, opened up in the direction of my dreams. I received an offer on the house, a cash offer, rare in these parts, and when I countered today they accepted my counter. Soon I will be free of all of the triggers that make me remember and feel all the pain. Things which kept me tied to the past, in an unhealthy way. These things will cease to exist.

Avalon. The place of healing, of making new starts. Of new beginnings. 11, the portal to new energy. All these things matter to me. I’m going to Avalon, in two months. Since every thing else I have wanted has manifested, I am sure the things I dream about there will also.

(Note: Avalon, the mythical place where King Arthur was supposedly buried, known as a place of healing and of new beginnings. When I think of Florida, I think of these things. I’m going to have my sister or my friend paint me a plaque to put by my door that says “Welcome to Avalon”. )

Had a nice long FB convo with my friend in Florida this morning. God, I can’t wait to be there. She’s going to brunch at the place we went when I was there. Outdoors, music…good food, all vegetarian. That will be my life.

She was telling me about a good friend of hers, a guy. Who is finalizing his divorce, she thinks he’s perfect for me. She said he’s “good looking, kind, generous, not into game playing, has enough money to take care of himself.” I told her to tell him to wait for me. He will be at her brunch this morning.

We were mostly joking, but she tells me how she meets people all the time, just hangs out. She said there are so many nice, good-looking men….She said some amazing musicians. She said, get your house sold and run down here! LOL. .

I’m trying, I’m trying.

She’s gonna try to deal with my ants too today. She’s such a good friend. We have been friends since we were 12 or 13. It’s so cool to have these old friends in my life. We know who we are, and how we grew up, there is never any pretense. We just fall into the honest old ways that made us friends in the first place.

Gonna finish the deck today if I can, because it’s gonna rain tomorrow. And also going to my bff’s for awhile. Hope I get it all done.

Dreaming of Florida today. I guess that’s good, that’s how we manifest, to dream of it exactly the way we want it.