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April 24, 2005

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Wow, I can't believe I haven't posted anything ALL WEEK. I don't really have an excuse except that I haven't felt really well all week, and I recorded a show off of the history channel called "The Presidents" and I have been watching 1 episode each night, which really cut into my writing time, plus I have an issue weighing on me, here it is:

Not last Wednesday but the Wednesday before I went out for Violet's going away deal, and drank a ton of wine, WAY too quickly with little food and no water. Needless to say I needed a ride home and the day off of work the next day. I was honest with my boss I told her I was hungover, and she understood. I couldn't lie. Anyway I just haven't been the same since that night. I made a huge mistake that night actually.

See Vi is in the process of a divorce and she has recently started dating someone that we work with (well she doesn't work there anymore) and I recall a conversation where He was going to tell another guy who works there, and her response was "after I leave I don't care who knows) Well I took that to heart and drunkenly blabbed it to the table at her going away party. There were only like 3 people from our dept. sitting there, and 2 of them knew that they were together because of the way they acted around each other, he would buy 2 lattes from Starbucks and give her one, you know, that kind of behavior. Anyway... I have felt so bad that I blabbed it. Like I said, people had already guessed. Either way, I pride myself on being a good friend, and I normally don't do that type of thing. In fact I have never done that type thing before.

So, the next day, Vi was of course very pissed off, and she told me how I could have potentially ruined everything because of that. I apologized to her, I called the guy she is dating (in front of her) to apologize to him as well. I did everything I could do for damage control. I thought things were going okay and that she really had forgiven me. I suppose I was wrong. Yesterday she called me for the sole reason of asking me if I had talked to her soon to be ex husband and told him everything. Now, I haven't spoken to that man in 6 months, and why would he contact me, or I him? I am just getting the impression that every time something goes wrong for her, I am going to automatically be in the line of fire. I don't think what I did was bad enough to encourage that type of behavior. She didn't call to see about me, or anything, just to ask that. Then later on she text messaged my phone blaming someone else. I think the real deal is that her ex drove by and saw a strange vehicle in the driveway and has put 2 and 2 together. I would never intentionally tell anyone about what's going on and I feel really crappy that I am constantly in the line of fire about this.

I am not too sure if I am jumping the gun on my feelings, but I really can't deal with that stuff. I made a mistake, I sincerely apologized for my actions, what else can I do?

What's worse is that all last week I think I was fighting a kidney infection. I DO hope I fought it successfully. I started feeling better on Friday.

On a Happy note, the Mister took the Sequel Server MCAD or something like that Microsoft certification test and passed it. And I lost about 3 pounds on weight watchers this past week. YAY. I made a journal of everything I ate, and I realized that I don't eat all that bad just my portions are a bit on the heavy side.

i think it's a pretty fine line as to whether you did anything wrong at all. she did say that once she was gone she didn't care who knew and anyone would have thought that her going away gathering was as close to gone as a girl could get. seems silly that she made such a big deal and then to assume YOU would have been the one to tell her husband. i say she's being harsh and you shouldn't feel bad. so what you blabbed. what, waiting one day or two days or whatever...that would have meant a world of difference?

i'm the same way with portion control. i eat great. i just eat too much great. ;)

Oh boy. That sucks. The taste of crow is awful, isn't it?? I've been there, heck - we all have. You were a big girl and owned up to it all, apologized and that should be it. People make mistakes- esp. when there is wine involved:-) Don't allow her to make you the scapegoat for all of her problems- past, present & future.

Great job on the WW...I wish I could find something that truly works for me. Since I quit smoking, I've become the rapidly growing girl....and I'm almost 42 years old, that's too old to suddenly start growing!