Sunday, August 19, 2012

Of all places, I heard the following quote in the Series Finale of Desperate Housewives, which has been sitting in my Tivo for months. It so struck a chord with me that I paused, played it again and scrawled it down... It's not pretty, by my god, it is truth. And I get it. Totally.

"You know you've hit middle age when memories become more important than your dreams."

It took me back to my first months in New York, when I had just arrived for my dream job at Billboard magazine in the fall of 1996. Such hope, such ambition... and for sure, every dream that I dared imagine for that job—which ultimately blossomed into a 14-year career—came blissfully true.

In the winter of 1996, January or February, I made a music video set to Collective Soul's "The World I Know," shot around my tiny, adorable, beloved studio apartment on the Upper West Side at 82nd & Broadway. Below is a trio of screen shots from the vid. I have a DVD that I managed to transfer from VHS years ago, but I have yet to figure out how the hell to load it to YouTube so that I might share it—and protect it. It is indeed a treasured memory... of my dreams. *