Sorry to read if the loss of your brother. Lean on the ADV community if you need to, that is why we are here. We will listen to all who go through these tragedies. The words of inmates unknown to me helped me through my grief when I lost my wife. I trust we will help you through yours too.

Understand, right now I would ride off the deep end if I could, but I have someone who still needs me even if she is there in only flashes of conscience. I can still see her smile, even if she isn't really here right now. So I have a bit more to hang on to. Hang in there, no idea when it stops hurting, but freinds tell me it will. Out there are people who love and care about you.May we all find peace even if the world makes no sense right now.

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I very recently lost someone close to me, but under different circumstances. Dealing with an unexpected death is so very hard. Time is what we need to eventually feel better... But time creeps by so slowly during our times of grief. Just know you're not alone in your time of grieving.

I rode that stretch last November during a round trip between Las Cruces and Timberon, beautiful.
He was close to heaven on that ride.
Too late to wish he'd worn the helmet, but never too late to celebrate his life.
Loving memory.