I am 21 years old and I have endometriosis. I have to take fertility medicine if I want to have kids. We decided we were ready, so I took it [medicines] and I took three pregnancy tests the next month before I made my doctor’s appointment. We were so excited. We were ready for our lives to change forever. I went to the doctor’s and he told me I was 4 weeks and 5 days, but to be careful because it would possibly be a tubal pregnancy.

I was so careful with everything I did. All I ever wanted was a family of my own. I noticed I started bleeding just a little bit on April 18, 2014. That being the first time I was pregnant, I had my mom take me to the hospital. I went through ultrasounds and blood work. I will never forget the look on both doctors’ faces as they came into my room, one on each side of the bed. They started explaining to me that yes I was having a tubal pregnancy and I needed to have it removed ASAP. I was admitted into the hospital that night and had surgery the next day on Saturday, April 19, 2014. I cried as soon as it was confirmed that I was having a tubal pregnancy. I didn’t sleep at all that night. I cried all night. All I could think about was the baby I was about to lose and what I could have done differently. I was laying in pre-op trying my best to not break down again. My OBGYN came in to talk to me before surgery and told me how sorry he was this happened. He told me I was right on schedule. The day of my surgery, I was 6 weeks and 1 day.

I will never forget him tell me my baby had a heartbeat. My excepted due date was December 9, 2014. With this date approaching fast [at time of writing], all I do is cry and wish I was getting everything ready, not finding ways to grieve the loss of my angel baby, Serenity Lynn. Mommy and Daddy love you, Serenity Lynn!!