So I walking out of the train station when I started to feel very anxious and when I'm in that state I find it very hard to concentrate/listen. I had a Right to Travel permit because the first station is small and has no office. I showed the permit to the ticket officer at my destination and he told me to buy a proper ticket at the desk. However, when I'm in a heightened anxious state / experiencing a panic attack, as above I find it difficult to think/listen and everything becomes disoriented. I walked straight out of the station without buying a ticket and the two men working at the station shouting at me to come back as I left. I know it sounds awful and I do feel bad about it but I just wondered if anyone had any advice on how to resolve the issue because now I can't get off my mind. My destination is my main station that I use up to four times a week at most and the thought of going back there after I've done this fills me with dread. It's definitely something I wouldn't do again, I just hope that anyone that replies understands that I wouldn't have done if I didn't feel like I was about explode out of my chest with crippling anxiety.

You should go to them and the ticket person, explain what happened and say you'll pay for the ticket now to show you weren't ducking the fare. It's best to do that because otherwise you might risk them chasing you for it and it becomes a long winded thing. If this wasn't your regular station I might not suggest you be so proactive about it but these ticket people can be pretty hardcore with slapping fines and things so it's worth going out of your way rather than having them spot you and issue something. Hopefully they'll appreciate your problem and willingness to pay for it now.