8.8.12

The more remote is the likelihood to have a short summer-break in Greece, the more it feels like an abortion. Last year I came back with blue cubicle inside me. This year it will look like Malevich 's painting: black square on a black background

as opposed to Malevich, Iakovos Ouranos takes black out of black by plunging white within white.

in this way an autopsy of black becomes an x-ray of blankness....

Black is the colour that absorbs huge doses of sunlight: the lover of ligh is the king of darkness. The symbol of anarchy. Total denial of all contracts, including the biological ones. As the parish priest told us once: black frock does not symbolizes mourning. It symbolizes the refusal of mourning, the denial of death.

MAGIC Depression is a state of mind in which absolute pessismism
magically transfoms itself into a hedonistic engagement with pain,
suffering and defeat: 'loss' becomes 'win'. This psychological attitude
points towards the roots of homo-eroticism: instead of competing with
the other dominant males of their species, some males transcend their
positioning within the 'gender wars' by making love to their main
competitors, enemies and killers. In this way, they transform their
utter fear -- the super-males of their tribe -- into machines of
pleasure, playfulness and ecstasy.

6.8.12

In the video below [at 44.26] a group of whales attack ashore and grab a seal pup. They drive it into the sea and kick it like a ball on the air, for over half an hour, until it dies.
I recently started thinking of morality as a mode of evolution. Emotional intelligence -- the ability to recognize a form of biological kinship with different species [which have eyes, mouth and nose]-- is an evolutionary phenomenon. The mythology of 'humanity' is a move forward, similar to the development of feathers or feet in living organisms of the sea (it is well known that all tetrapods derive from fish).
Whatever happens in our minds, in our imagination, in our emotional life feeds our biological evolution: nature changes as we change, because we are nature.

Organisms ground their survival on illusions: ridiculous desires expand the power of adaptation.Mad expectations trasform the body: we grow wings to fly, mouth to kiss and eyes to attack. Huge changes burst on DNA: fish learn to crawl upon the land,gods offer themsevles for crucifixionspecies evolve: I learned how to spend myself without you

Jeffrey James Vickers aka Kyle McKenna
d**g overdose/suicide 5/3/2000
Suicide, OD'd on pills of some sort 3/14/2000 His parents refused to
claim his body (they had long ago rejected their homosexual son), so
Kyle's ex-boyfriend and friends had him cremated. His ashes s**ttered
over the mountain where he loved to snowboard.

Caleb Carter
Suicide by d**g OD as he lay dying of AIDS 6/7/93
Suicide 02/20/2009 Twink star active between 2004-2007. Also appeared on
several MTV shows in 2006. He had been struggling with manic
depression, alcoholism.

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Alexandros Papadopoulos was born in Thessaloniki, grew up in Athens, got drunk in Paris, lost his youth in London and felt like an astronaut in Manchester: the sky is always dark and the city looks like a spaceship..