Definition of a Whistleblower:
(from the American Heritage Dictionary) One
who reveals wrongdoing within an organization to the public or to those
in positions of authority in the hope of reforming it.

I have worked for and with the Church of Scientology for over two
decades, assuming various posts and eventually reaching the Highest
training level (Class XII) achieved by only a handfull few. During that
time I was able to experience first hand the numerous paradoxes and
conflicts within. The same organization has been professing the highest
possible humanitarian goals and has provingly helped, at least for a
time, many to achieve better lives. Yet in far too many documented
cases, it has sought to enslave others through Mental and Emotional
Manipulations or been guilty of Human Rights Violations..

THE SCIENTOLOGY PARADOX

To explain the Scientology paradox, it is vital to distinguish its
three components:

1- Scientology,
according to the very first recorded mention of it on November 28th
1951 (lecture titled: The Chart of Attitudes) "is a route: it is the
study of science or the study of truth or the study of knowledge".

The reason I undertook that study was to help myself and others achive
greater abilities, develop more fully our potential and to reach higher
levels of Spirituality. Many years ago, I established the firm
postulate that no individual or Organization will ever ever be able to
stray me away from those goals. Nearly 15 years after my departure from
the Church of Scientology, those goals are more present than ever in
both my life and my daily activities.

2- L.Ron Hubbard ,
the individual (1911-1986). An important distinction is required here
between it and "L. Ron Hubbard. the Trademark"..

L. Ron Hubbard the individual is of course a Man (not deity, hence by
definition prone, at least in some form, to some of the imperfections
of humankind) born in 1911 and deceased in 1986.

"L. Ron Hubbard, the trademark" is that trademark owned by the "Church
of Spiritual Technology (CST), a FOR
PROFIT
organization (and acknowledged as such by the IRS) who is led by three
non-scientologists Special directors. (It main figure head being Meade
Emory, a non-scientologust who was the IRS High Comissioner for many
years. The Church of Scientology DOES
NOT CONTROL
CST, but rather the opposite. The Trademaks, L. Ron Hubbard,
Scientology and Dianetics are controlled by them and the Church of
Scientology has agreed to not appoint or remove any of its Senior
Management structure without their approval. Note that the President of
CST (a Scientologist) has no true power and that only its
non-scientologist board of Directors has. Some have even argued that
due to the direct links between CST's directors and the American
Government, that the Church of Scientology had actually fallen under
the control of Big Brother...

L. Ron Hubbard Library is ficitious name officially registered by CST.
In other words an alias. L. Ron hubbard Library is found as the final
signatory and authority in all current Church of Scientology documents,
revisions of LRH originals and their publication, and new directives.
Therefore anything revised after 1986, no matter how contradictory to
the original philosophy of Scientology and to LRH (the individual)
writings and recordings can be freely stamped "L. Ron Hubbard" as its
author since it is legally defensible (as absurd it may be in the mind
of most people).

So this leaves us with two new paradoxes.

A) L. Ron Hubbard and Scientology may not necessarily 100% of the time
be in full harmony
B) L. Ron Hubbard library has legal license to authorize the complete
re-writing or editing of the works of L. Ron Hubbard (the
individual),
even if those were to satisfy somebody else's pernicious agenda. It can
therefore, at its whim, grant the right to appose the name L.Ron
Hubbard to any perversion of the original technology or of its original
intent.

3- The Organization: currently known as the Church of Scientology and
including the Sea Organization and its numerous affiliates.
Legally
the Church of Scientology is accountable to no one but its leadership.
It's Supreme leader is accountable to one but himself. By its very
design the Church of Scientology has no provisions of any kind for any
"Checks and Balances" since by Policy it is assumed that it is exempt
from ever doing any wrong and that its leader is by definition
infallible. (This is amply covered in the Organizational Executive
Course Volumes). There has not been a single instance in Human
History
of an Organization without Checks and Balances, not eventually sinking
into complete corruption. Corruption is like Cancer, if left untreated,
it will lead to the death of the organism. The Church of Scientology 's
actions are based upon the dictate of a self-appointed clique. This is
not opinion but fact. The only legal defense to justify the take over
of current Management of the Church in 1986 is a Will signed by L. Ron
Hubbard the hours before his death, when it is doubtful from the amount
of medication found in his body at death time that he would have been
conscious or been able to sign the document in a full conscious state
on his last day. After 20 years the same clique is intact, in spite of
wholesale lower statistics and no evidence of stable expansion. (It
lists of completions as published in Advance and Source Magazines,
shows it is still falling seriously short of earlier levels). That
clique per its own public admission is able to rewrote policy and does
not tolerate any attempt to correct it or challenge it. It has
ruthlessly declared a Supressive Person anyone challenging their orders
or anyone attempting to correct them, no matter how they contravened
LRH own policies or how destructive their actions may be. It is almost
trivial, under those circumstances to demonstrate that the philosphy of
Scientology and the Church of Scientology as it is being operated
today, are virtually in complete contradiction one from the other.

In Summary one cannot truly judge Scientology, or the philosophy of
what stands for through the actions of the Church or even to a lesser
degree to its author.

Whathever reprehensible actions the Church may be currently doing is
generally the product of aberrant behaviour by its leaders, and is not
necessarily due to a fault in the design of the philosophy.

Something remains workable because it is so or can be demnonstarted to
be valid. The actual biographical details or shortcomings of its
designer do not necessarily invalidate the workability of something,
especially when supported by experience and logic.

From the 3 March 1952 lecture:
"Introduction to Scientology" "Out of
Scientology you could formulate, ...a very fine
type of "thought warfare" which you could use enslave people utterly"

My statement is therefore that Scientology correctly applied by someone
with a clean heart will help people. Perverted or used by people with
ulterior motives and it will trap or enslave them.

The renaming of
Standard Technologies as an exercize in propaganda and re-education

What is Hatred?

Tips for Prevailing
over OSA phony PR and tactics

Lost
technologies:in each article, the author explores the
theory, background, technical validity, subsequent alterations and
perversions and the reasons for abandonment as well as results related
to each one.

1- Who are You?
2- How did you get to leave the Church?
3- What are you doing Now?
4- In what daily activities do you apply your knowledge.

What alternate is there to the Church of Scientology?

What is Standard Tech?

Why is there all this jargon in Scientology?

What should I do if I decide I dont want to want to continue with the
Church or disagree with its practices?

Does Scientology promotes Hatred?

Is Scientology the ONLY ROAD TO TOTAL FREEDOM?

Does premature exposure to confidential materials (such as the Clearing
Course or OT III) makes someone goe mad, sick or even die?

Does Scientology Kills? Are the reports of numerous deatha ssociated
with Scientology exaggerated or in any way true?

Does Scientology Make people go Insane?

Are the stories presented by the media of Sceintology prmoting the
belief in Space Aliens (or space Invaders) true?

Official Church of Scientology FAQ errata sheet (correction about
misleading information given on the Church in Society on the orfficial
CoS Web site)

Does the Church still believe or apply the FAIR GAME LAW?

What is the Church of Scientology "FINAL SOLUTION" to the Opposition
Problem?

Has the Tech being altered?

Why are some many good people gone from the Church?

What LRH a Con Man?

How can you explain reports of LRH harsh behaviour?
Why are there so many discrepancies between LRH offcial biography and
documentary evidence.?
Is the Tech Valid?
Why are so many OTs (including OT VIIIs) dead?

Have you corrected OT VIII and IX?

Why did LRH change over the years?

Was David Mayo as bad as the Church said he was?

What do you think of the Free Zone (The Free Zone is loose term
for the Scientology Underground, for those who seek to practice it safe
from persecution by the Church)?

A SCIENTOLOGY WEDDING
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This
is a brief introduction about myself and
my search and struggle for Spiritual Freedom and enlightenment.

My long term
goal for this life time and for many others has been
the seeking of the truth and the spiritual improvement and
accomplishment
that come with it.

I consider
anyone who honestly and truthfully seeks the truth to
be my friend.

Thanks to
the correct application of a working Spiritual
Technology,
I have not only handled all the character and Spiritual traits that
bothered
me years or decades ago, but have continued to increase my awareness
and
understanding of both life and myself.

Through
personal experiences, I have found the philosophy and
Technology
developed by L.Ron Hubbard (LRH) to be highly workable in thousands of
people.

I am again
continuing on the Spiritual journey that was laid in
the
"Bridge" as formulated by LRH. It is my strict intention not to deviate
from the Standards set in Scientology Technology by strictly applying
its
Axioms and Logics and the wealth of information I have accumulated
training
and applying his Technology for several decades.

Hence, I
have corrected the errors made by RTC who have perverted
the Upper OT Levels and I have found the answer as to why so many
people
died, became sick or sour after completing RTC's rendition of OT VIII.
(It is not the one they believe) Better yet, I have found the answers
of
OT IX (a level that was never designed to be done years apart from OT
VIII
and is kept dangling like a carrot to cadge the loyalty of those who
completed
OT VIII toward RTC.

Thanks to a
decade of progress and improvements, I have reached a
point where I feel that my recall for this lifetime events and those I
was personally involved in, for the past 2000 years to be excellent.

A few years
ago, I ran, based on my recall, an experiment based
on
the Project "Where are You buried?" and I was quite satisfied with the
results.

(The Project
Where are you buried was conceived by LRH after the
publication of "Have You lived before this life? and consists of
locating
one's past burial's locations and tombstones)

THE
FUTURE OF THE UPPER BRIDGE

I do not
believe in "Invented Technology" as a solution to
improving
or continuing the Bridge. These unusual solutions are merely a
hodge-podge
of "other practices", case dramatizations from its instigator and
reactive
ideas gotten as a result of self-auditing.

The end
result is clearly described in HCOB 30 June 1971
"Confused
Ideas".

However, it
might be possible for someone who has sufficiently
freed
himself from the constraints of his case, and who possesses a
conceptual
and thorough understanding of the entirety of Scientology Tech to be
able
to continue in LRH footsteps beyond OT VIII.

However it
has become amply clear to me from observing and
studying
the "Free Zone" that every "researcher" who claims having looked beyond
OT VII, was so heavily introverted into his case, that they found
nothing
of value, except perhaps pointers to addressing their own private cases
through Repair and Advance Programs which are entirely covered within
existing
and published Technology.

EARLY
YEARS THIS LIFETIME

I was born
and raised in Canada, majored in Pure Sciences
(Physics
and Mathematics) and always have had the highest Academic grades in the
application of logic and deductive reasoning, which to this day I still
consider to be my strongest intellectual skill.

While I did
not particularly fare well at School in subjects such
as History or Geography, which I regarded at the time in great part as
the byproducts of irrational human activities, and a number of facts
and
dates to merely memorize, I absolutely excelled at Analytical
Geometry.
In fact, I never had less than a perfect score in all exams I ever had
on the subject, and never found a new Geometry problem or theorem that
I was unable to resolve and prove completely on my own. I even recall,
being called more than once to the blackboard at the request of the
teacher,
when he had forgotten the solution or embarrassingly discovered that
his
book did not contain the solution after he had started to explain it .
I took great pride in those accomplishments.

Later on, I
was very favorably impressed, by the discovery of the
Scientology Axioms and Logics, where all subsequent rules, processes
and
applications are merely extensions, albeit convoluted and complex of
those
same fundamental axioms and Logics.

During my
school years, I was always much more concerned about my
intellectual development and achievements, contrary to most of my peers
who judged others through their athletic (and later on, romantic)
performance.
On that point, LRH and I are clearly very different as I recall reading
in one of his Biographies that he scored Lowest in Geometry and Highest
in Physical Education. I scored the exact opposite: Highest in Geometry
and Lowest in Physical Education.

I skipped
Grade 5, due to exceptionally high Academic Grades. I
went
to one of the best Schools in Canada (I like to think it is so, since
two
of the six prime Ministers of Canada born in my province frequented
it).Unfortunately
I then became the target of older bullies who were content with
"repeating
grades". Many were 3 or 4 years older than I. My Academic performance
never
recovered, a fact I understood only later when I became acquainted with
the Mechanics of Suppression and PTSness.

I pursued my
undergraduate studies in Pure Sciences, keeping my
options
open as I had not quite decided whether I wanted to become a
Mathematician
or a Physicist.

EARLY
INVOLVEMENT IN SCIENTOLOGY

Having
discovered Scientology in Montreal in early 1973, and
experienced
life altering changes in my introductory services, I decided to join
staff
full time, and put my studies indefinitely on hold.

The
organization became prosperous and expanded by leaps and
bounds,
thanks to an FEBC trained Executive Director and to my effective
activities
running Divison 6 (New Public into the org).

The
organization eventually moved to the main street, a mere one
block away from what was the busiest intersection in the country.

I was made
in charge of Divison 1 (HCO) supervising Communication
and "Ethics" and doing recruitment myself.

In just over
6 months, the organization more than doubled in size
and personnel. The best staff were hired during that period. In 1992, I
felt a great sense of pride when I discovered than the entire Senior
Executive
structure and the 6 oldest staff members in Montreal org were all
people
that I had either personally hired or introduced to Scientology in the
1970s.

I eventually
fell out of favor with the Executives running
Montreal
org in 1975, and it was agreed that I would complete my 2 1/2 year
contract
working under the Executive Director in Quebec City (a 4 hour drive
from
Montreal), in exchange for one of their staff who wanted to be
transferred.

The
Executive Director made me his assistant, and essentially
allowed
me the full run of the Org, merely filling in reports and acting as the
contact person with the Flag Liaison office, so that he could pursue
other
activities and training.

I had a
"different understanding" of Ethics than my Superiors at
Montreal and those at the Flag Liaison office wanted.

To them,
Ethics was "Harsh", absolutely punitive and degrading in
its application, and you had to go through Hell to get through it.
Ethics
to them was something meant to be as unpleasant as an amputation
performed
without anesthetics.

I differed
in that viewpoint (and still do), in that Ethics was
merely
a tool to get the job done and the application of Ethics should be an
activity
where "Everybody Wins".

Degradation,
torments and humiliation seem in my eyes to be
merely
relics belonging to Medieval History and are largely Whole-Track
Dramatizations,
not a component of a Science of Life that boasts to be on par with the
man's Highest Technological Achievements. In my Technical view someone
who thinks and act like Ethics is something savage, harsh, unreasonable
and even cruel, not only demonstrate a clear need to have his Evil
Purposes
(and Rockslams) on the subject of Help addressed, but is a serious
candidate
for receiving a GF40 (earlier practices assessment), as he is clearly
confused
between some earlier humanoid practices and that of Scientology.

Looking back
at it, Quebec City of the 1970s is one of the few
places
in Scientology where Ethics was applied in a Benign and Benevolent
Manner.

The result:
High Stats and Morale. No blows, no cries, no grief.
Staff so happy being there that each and everyone instinctively
disseminates
and recruits whenever he steps out of the org for an errand, a meal or
taking the bus. Staff not fighting with each other to "get their own
stat
up", but sincerely cooperating one with the other with their foremost
interest
being expanding the Org and the broad Dissemination of
Scientology.
Almost no more PTS Type A situations to handle as entire families are
on
lines getting Services and drilling each others. Body routers were
frequently
being recalled from passing hand outs on the street, because unexpected
high inflows of interested public would just walk in. The Number of
Well
Done Auditing Hours in the Staff HGC was competing with those from the
Public HGC...

MY
MEETING WITH LRH

It was in
the Fall of 1973. Unknown to anyone at the time, even
to
the entire Scientology world, but only to a selected few, LRH had
resided
in Queens, New York for the previous 10 Months. Some say, he was
hiding,
from attempts at indicting him for fiscal reasons.

Whatever the
case, he deemed it best to return to the Ship (which
was in Lisbon) at that point in time.

Accompanied
by his two body guards (Jim Dincalci and Paul
Preston),
he decided, to avoid possible FBI scrutiny on American based
International
flights, to take the train to Canada, and to fly to Lisbon directly
from
there.

Upon arrival
in Montreal and after booking a room as "Mr Harris"
at the Queen Elizabeth Hotel in Downtown Montreal, LRH was pleased to
discover
that Montreal Org was within a mere 10 minute walk from the hotel.
Montreal
had some significance for LRH, since a personal friend and one of the
first
people to train as an auditor in Elizabeth, New Jersey in the Summer of
1950 had opened one of the very first Dianetics Foundation, in
Montreal
later that year.

In spite of
the obvious, if unvoiced, misgivings his companions
had
on the fear that he may end up being publicly recognized, LRH decided
to
pay a visit to the new fledging Org...

Upon
emerging from my office that was adjacent to the reception
area,
I was introduced by a young man calling himself "Jim" who looked just
like
a "Sea Org Missionaire" to "Mr Harris" who was decribed as an "Old
personal
friend of LRH". Mr Harris appearance was anything but ordinary. A stout
Man in his late 50s or maybe early 60s, he had bright red hair,
penetrating
blue eyes, muscular arms, and he literally exuded the Beingness of a
"Seaman".
Upon gazing at him, the instant thought that raced to my mind was: "By
Gosh, this is LRH", but being an introverted type person at the time, I
felt uneasy at the fact that nobody else's seemed to have recognized
that
obvious fact. I kept glancing back and forth between the Man standing
in
the Lobby and the large picture of LRH on the wall and the more I
looked,
the more I saw similarities and the less I saw differences. Finally, I
almost blurted out: "This is LRH!!!", but some invisible force seemed
to
have gotten hold of my throat and I received a form of telepathic
communication
from the man who was friendlily staring at me straight into the eyes
across
the room.

I am not
certain how much I understood at the time from that
communication
cycle. It must have lasted a mere few seconds, but it had enough
bandwidth
to have kept someone occupied for a whole hour. There was no denial
about
his true identity. there was nothing that could be construed as a lie,
even in retrospect, but there was a definite and deliberate suggestion
that I had "better things to do".

A few years
later, after I joined the Sea Org at Flag, three
times,
when I wrote to LRH about my taking constructive steps and making
concrete
progress toward my goal of becoming a Class XII Auditor, I had both the
incredible thrill and experience of receiving my reply, not on the
standard
SO-1 stationery, but in LRH own handwriting on my own letter. Those
letters
will continue to remain amongst my most precious possessions and
clearly
indicate how special becoming a Class XII has always been to LRH.

I am not
aware of anyone else, having received handwritten
replies
on the SO-1 line (letters to Ron), and certainly not from any other
Class
XII that I ever worked with. I have also verified with SO-1 staff
during
the 1980s, that my encounter with LRH was historically possible and it
was their opinion that in most probability my description of the events
was entirely accurate.

BRIEF
SUMMARY OF MY CAREER as a Class XII

After a shaky start, I eventually rose through the ranks and became
Flag Top producing auditor and held that title undisputed for many
years.

I spent 4 years
in the Class IV HGC, auditing the world's most
difficult
cases, including people who come to Flag having received over 20
intensives
of "No results" in the field and looking forward to getting their first
win and their first cognition in Auditing.

I became an
expert at the Case Cracker Rundown and acquired the
utter
unshakeable conviction that "There are No Failed Cases" and that a
properly
trained C/S and auditor will resolve 100% of the cases when applying
the
Tech correctly. I delivered Clear Checks and in spite of the confusion
and numerous revisions about Clear Checks, Dianetics Clear Intensive,
Clear
Certainty Rundowns through the years, I am satisfied that to this day,
that I have neither allowed someone to attest Clear who wasn't or
failed
to acknowledge someone who had made it.

I eventually
went through the OT levels. Sheer determination, not
luck was the reason that I made it. Unless an auditor is flubless, has
continually good results and can routinely pass the continual checks
made
with his auditing and submit passing Videotaped sessions, he will
simply
not be allowed to progress up the Bridge. Not only that, but one must
take
arrangements to get the required auditing as absolutely nobody is going
to offer you to get up the bridge and do it for you..

After
completing OT III and IV, I went onto NOTS training, I was
eventually transferred to the NOTs HGC and audited thousands of cases
at
that level. I then went onto Solo NOTS and with the formation an HGC
for
Solo NOTS only, was transferred there.

In the mean
time, I was made to do a plethora of specialist
courses
along with their Internships. The only way, someone could move on up
the
bridge was by doing all the Tech Course and all the Internships.

Among the
more Interesting courses I did: the very lengthy and
extensive
AO review Auditor Course, seldom done by anyone, which deals with the
entirety
of the Clearing Materials ( a great deal more than any Clearing Course
student would be required to go through), OT III, the Upper OT levels
and
contains data by LRH that are not part of any other course even the
Class
VIII materials.

It is a sad
fact that a few untrained individuals, who have not
even
read the materials in that course have elected themselves as "Supreme
Authorities"
on the Subject of Clear and OT III in the FZ. When I tried to inform
them
they did not have all the data, I was invariably told that they
preferred
to deny the existence of any LRH materials that had not been leaked to
the FZ, calling what I knew, even if written or spoken by LRH, to be a
"Hidden Data Line"

Another
fascinating course I did was the "New Vitality Rundown".

Contrarily
to statements made by uninformed people in Ron's org,
the last set of Public Technical Lectures made by LRH was made in
November
1975 in Daytona Beach, Florida to all Flag Auditors on what was called
at the Time "The Special Rundown".

The course,
which I did directly under the Supervision of the Snr
C/S Flag Land base has the 22 LRH lectures Series from late 1975 for
its
core. I was pleasantly surprised when I listened in their Introduction
that I was listening to a Master, not a Copy and therefore no editing
of
any kind had been made, including a number of passages, where LRH
suddenly
paused, after having made a statement with political or other unsavory
ramifications, would say loudly to a messenger :"You will have to cut
that
off, boy!".

I spent
several years in the Solo NOTS review HGC. Once there, I
started doing the Solo NOTS EP Checks, as I could do them in all
required
languages but one and they wanted to strictly limit the exposure to the
confidential EP of Solo NOTs (which is not shown to Solo NOTS pre-OTs).
I did 95% of the Solo NOTS EP checks for the following 3 years.

Since Solo
NOTs completions count for a huge amount of the FSO
Statistics
and that traditionally in Scientology there is an incredible push to
get
sthe stats as High as possible before 2PM on Thursday, I would have
seldom
something else to do but Solo NOTS EP checks on Thursdays between 11AM
and 2PM. I had the entire FSO and Flag Land Base Senior Executive
structure
flocking around me like a bunch of groupies for the last hour, as my
actions
would frequently dictate whether they were upstat or downstat for that
week.

This further
cemented my repute as Flag Top auditor as in 3
years,
contrairily to all others who had done them, I never flubbed one of
those
checks (flubbing would have been a virtual garantee to fail to attest
the
person before 2PM). and that I became utterly impervious to the Huge
amount
of expectation and demands that were put on my shoulders.

I even
managed to do high hours on my own Solo NOTS, being the
only
full time Sea Org Auditor to earn a special pin for doing 25 hours Solo
in a week (This was on top of doing 45-50 hours on public and other
Staff
member duties).

I managed to
complete Solo NOTS to its true EP and became Solo
NOTS
completion #801. I would have been Number #800, but I was bumped so
they
could give that Number to a Celebrity.

As the
release of OT VIII neared, a new HGC was formed for OT VII
completions only and I was transferred there, auditing now Solo NOTs
completions
exclusively.

Then a new
project came to get 5 Solo NOTS Review Auditors to
become
100% flubless sec-checkers.

Flubless
sec-checkers are not merely people who are good at doing
Confessionals. Confessional Technology encompasses the all fundamental
auditing technique and all five styles of auditing. A flubless Sec
Checker
is a Flubless auditor Period. The standard and ante were raised to
unimaginable
levels, as Senior management expected only chronic perfection as the
only
acceptable standard.

I was the
first auditor to pass. The Snr C/S FSO was a distant
second.
Then one by one the remaining four. Even RTC had not managed to get any
of their personel to pass before the first two people in our group.
Part
of the unique materials provided for the course was the ONLY VIDEO
session
of LRH auditing with both TRS and Metering being observable. I saw the
video over 100 times until the time my auditing skill became
undistinguishable.

In 1989 I
finally completed the Saint Hill Special briefing
Course.
This is no small feat, as I had never been on full time study. The
course
is so long. In fact, I have never heard of anyone else completing the
course
on a part time basis and still working in the Sea Org. I spent so many
days off, meal breaks, listening to tapes or going through the
checksheet
that only Tone 40 determination made me successfully go through.

Shortly
after, I found myself, doing full time training, for the
first time in my life, on the Class VIII course.

Then the
Class X, XI, XII course and Internships, which I
completed
in short order.

Alain
Kartuzinski, a Class XII C/S who was for
a long time one of the Snr C/Ses at the Flag Service Org, used to call
me “The King” when referring to me as an auditor, perhaps because I had
in a way become to Scientology auditing what Elvis became for Rock and
Roll.

I
am not complaining about "mistreatment"
while in the Sea Org. Though I would have more than enough legitimate
reasons
to complain, I view my experiences, both good and bad as important
experiences.
I have fully outgrown any desire or need at complaining, retribution or
any type of hate mongering.

MY LAST
DAYS IN THE SEA ORG

I
reluctantly left the Sea Org in December
1992,
after conditions became simply impossible to live under, and after
Senior
management failure to brainwash me with their non-sense. I had never
anticipated
to leave the Sea Org before.

When
I heard with my own ears David Miscavige
(Chairman
of the Board of RTC) gloating with Marc Yager (IG Admin) and Marc
Ingber
(CO CMO Int) about his latest new invented unusual and cruel punishment
of a staff member, (a completely off-beat Ethics handling) and later
heard
him voicing evil purposes that he had toward my organization (the FSO),
I decided that I did not wish to continue to support such a degenerate
any longer. This was the final straw, having witnessed in a single
week,
more injustices and cruelty than any level of human decency should be
allowed
to tolerate. What I personally witnessed coming out of the mouths of
David
Miscavige, Mark Ingber and Marc Yager was far closer to Joseph Stalin's
ideals than even a corrupted version of Scientology could have been.
While
I would have undoubtedly tolerated someone dramatizing LRH Valence,
even
if it was one of his darker sides, I drew the line at following a trio
who could only remind me of Adolf Hitler, Heinrich Himmler and Hermann
Goering.

So
I left.

I
left Flag through the front door, after
completing
all the requirements that were asked from me (including getting
sec-check
by an auditor who had just been declared a suppressive). I left the
Flag
Land Base under amiable terms.

That
auditor was declared Suppressive for
allegedly
doing out-tech on John Travolta. He audited me at length on Sec-checks
and FPRD. Perhaps I was expected me to somehow become PTS to him, since
he was still under his suppressive declare during our sessions
together,
since the suppressive is traditionally supposed to do in the people
they
audit.

I
had been personally drilled and individually
coached within an inch of my life on Sec-checking by IG Tech and Senior
C/S Int. I was the first auditor to successfully go through this
program
of being a “PERFECT sec-checker”. This was a requisite for doing the
New
OT VIII Eligibility check on the OT VIII hopefuls for the Freewinds
Maiden
Voyage in 1988. They had disregarded the fact that the end product of
that
course was my unequalled ability to detect and recognize any and all
manifestations
of Overts, Withholds and Evil Purposes on everyone I dealt with.
(including
Senior Management, RTC and others).

I
had produced in the vicinity of 25 000 Well
Done
auditing Hours in my career as an auditor, which was substantially more
than any auditor had ever done at the time, anywhere. All my pcs (with
virtually no exceptions) were rave (and still are) about their wins and
were smoothly progressing up the Bridge. I have always found the
experience
of auditing very rewarding, when I have seen how much people can change
and improve their lives for the better.

Becoming
a Class XII is extremely difficult,
due
to the thoroughness of the training, where everything one does is put
under
a microscope, and because “unreasonable” standards of perfection are
expected
in every single thing. If anyone thinks that a Class XII is merely an
auditor
trained to deliver the L-10,11,12 procedures, they have no concept of
it
whatsoever.

I
do not hide it that I find it annoying that
an
"auditor" with less than 1% of my technical baggage, picks up an
altered
version of the Ls on the Internet and satisfied that he has a list of
commands
and processes he can now robotically repeat with no understanding
whatsoever
of the underlying theory, labels himself a Class XII or claims to be my
"Technical Peer".

FAKE L
Rundowns delivered in the Free Zone

One
for one each and every individual that I
have
examined that received the "Ls" (or whatever you call their alter-ised
rendition) from someone who did not train correctly on the full theory
with all the approprate drills done with an experienced Class XII had
the
following three symptoms months and years after "completing them":

1-
General case state seriously deteriorated

2-
Doing significantly worse in life after the
auditing. (many compared their life as little better than being flotsam)

3-
Noticeable worsening of physical condition.

I
know it well, I have done some reviews of
those
botched cases and people were in truly miserable condition.

The
reasons are obvious: Cases are not being
setup,
the "Auditor" doesn't have a clue what he is auditing. Botched
L&Ns,
Unblown case, Unflat Evil Intentions and partially run Succumb
Postulates.

Also
since these auditors have obviously the
quickie
impulse (they do not even try to train completely on the materials),
they
invariably quickie those rundowns in one quarter to one tenth of the
time
they should be spending on them. The full phenomeon is described in C/S
Series 77.

The
following should be read by anyone considering delivering
without
adequate training or receiving the Ls from same:

It is
rumoured that the Ls Materials that were leaked on the
Internet
and are in use by various FZ auditors today were purposely leaked by
the
Church with the unavowed intention to "spin the squirrels". Their
"release"
contained major steps out of sequence, carefully misworded commands
meant
to cave in the entire case on the recipient and core steps meant to
blow
Succumb Postulates were carefully omitted.

Whether this
is true or not I lack concrete evidence to state
with
certainty, but having read the versions of the Ls in use by FZ
auditors,
I can state unequivocably that the version they use is completely
consistent
with that theory. It certainly aligns with the Church philosophy about
applying "FAIR GAME" to those they regard as "Squirrels".

Thank to a
remarquable memory and years of practice auditing and
translating the Ls Rundowns in 5 languages, I have been able to
reconstruct
the entirety of the Ls Rundowns and their remedies. My write up is well
over 500 pages long and contains the totality of all 3 rundowns as well
as their entire history, background, theory and remedies. (Compare this
to the paltry 50 pages released on the Internet).

COMPLETE
LIST OF ALL CLASS XII AUDITORS EVER MADE

In 1990, I
became the 41st Class XII to be made.

Following
this, is the entire list of Class XII
auditors ever made. The list is complete and absolute. I have checked
it
and cross-referenced it with many individuals. The list reflects
information
as of 1998. Only the few (if any) Class XIIs made after 1998, would not
be on the list. If someone's name is not on the list, they are not, nor
ever were a Class XII, PERIOD. In other words they are a fake, if they
claim to be one.

List of ALL Class XII ever produced,
in sequence:The 8 original Class XIIs (trained by LRH)The ship trained Class XII (trained by the
original
XIIs)The FLag Land Base Class XIIs. Total: 54 Class XIIs. Does not include
anyone
trained AFTER 1998, but does include everybody else.
It does not include people who enrolled onto the Class X course, but
never completed training to Class XII (such as Greg Wilhere, Kerry Gleason, Christine
Marquardt)

InREDare
name
of people who are still on Tech lines
either
at Flag or with International Management.

All others are no longer in the Sea Org,
due
to departure. Current status is witten under the name. Those without
mention
are either Auditing or C/Sing.

The
following is a partial list of pcs I have audited.
It is not in any way exhaustive and consists of roughly 3500 people out
of about 5000. It may include a very few cases I FESed when I could
count the hours. Anyone on this list (or not) is
welcome to contact me at the email shown at the top of the page. With
virtually no exception, I enjoyed auditing each of those people and
going over the list and recalling the gains and life changing
improvements I saw in those people provided me with hours of happy
memories.

My ultimate
desire is for each of these people to reach happiness
and spiritual Freedom, whether they achive it in the Church of
Scientology or in another.

A lot of those
names have not been on Flag completion list for a
very
long time.
Each and everyone should be told that "NO CHURCH HOLDS A MONOPOLY ON
SPIRITUAL FREEDOM OR THE STATES OF BEINGNESS PROMISED BY L. RON
HUBBARD". Anyone can move forward from whatever point they have been
stopped, betrayed or given arbitrary actions that were not designed to
help them.