So anyway my roommate might have to move out immediately, leaving me stranded with seven months left on our lease so I have to pay both halves of the rent now, which I can't really afford, or desperately look for another roommate willing to live in a tiny one bedroom apt with 2 cats, which will never happen.

Ren has been putting off applying for residency again and our funds have once again dropped to concerningly low levels, which is esp bad because now we don't have enough money to pay for the application at ll. On top of that they just did their taxes which is another 4 grand we definitely do not have! Awesome!

I've been on and off my meds over the last month so i feel like i'm going completely crazy?? Plus i have so little energy to do anything i can't bring myself to cook or whatever, and Ren has gotten a cold so they can't do much and i'm basically confined to my bed

I can't even go out anywhere to get food or even order pizza because we have less than zero money right now so i guess i'm just going hungry

On top of this there was some chocolate in the pantry that i'd been saving (and Ren ate 2/3 of the block, so specifically said the rest was mine). Because i'm super stressed i just went to go eat it and it turns out no Ren has just eaten the whole lot

Im very lonely and feel as if i dont have any friends i can just drop into a conversation with? Pretty much everyone just ignores me or is outright dismissive about my interests. I just want to be happy and enthusiastic about stuff, or link things that made me think of them

I got off at the wrong busstop when going to somewhere I haven't bussed to before. I walked around for 2 hours looking for the street I was supposed to get off, only to find that it didn't exist and was probably renamed or the google map was just plain wrong. I cut my losses and went home.

My right foot is sore and my left foot has a blister.

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(03-02-2015, 02:07 AM)Papers Wrote: i don't know what i expected from reyweld's new hawkspace thread

my brother is working at home. I have work to do. There's two different routers. The family router and the guest router. guess which one is password protected and that i can't use. The family router. So today the family router worked and mine just plain didn't. Rather than spending a few minutes to fix this problem (or, say, letting me use the fucking family router), they decide to wait the whole day until 6:30pm to fix my router. All because they think my brother's work should not be interrupted and that "i probably don't even work anyway"

Thanks, just venting helps sometimes. Wheat is a great guy and has offered to help financially. Several peeps have been really nice and have offered to listen too, I just feel like I don't want to overwhelm anyone because I would just mostly talk about the same shit that doesn't even matter anymore.

I know, it's hard to fight back the irrational thoughts sometimes, or even muster the energy to talk at all.

I once tried to go live in the US since my aunt offered me to stay at her place but it didn't work out, my visa was denied and of course I lost the money I paid for it. Trust me, getting a visa is not easy, even if you are employed. Although I've heard it's way easier to get a visa for Canada (if you even need one at all).

It has been expanding the gap between the newer/unlucky players and the older/pay-to-win players by introducing events that are essentially impossible unless your team is already extremely good that gives the best players massive rewards. Also, its latest update made the UI "sleek and efficient", but really made it look like garbage.

The only way to improve your team is to earn currencies that grant random troops (think CCG), but in the time it takes me to get 50 cards that have a slim chance of being good, the top 5-10 percentile gets 500+, some with better odds. Even if you get the 2nd highest or highest rarity of troop, the range of power within the group punishes people who don't get as many.

In a specific event, Guild Wars, you can pay currencies to make your team better for the duration of the week. But the only people who can afford to get a large amount of upgrades are the winners of previous weeks and the people who pay money.

It feels like the game is saying "if you aren't going to do significant microtransactions, you can't do well" and if this continues it's going to make a lot of players leave the game and inevitably kill it.

tldr; It has serious balancing issues and new events are only benefiting pay-to-win players.

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(03-02-2015, 02:07 AM)Papers Wrote: i don't know what i expected from reyweld's new hawkspace thread