So I really don’t know where to start. I have been absent from writing for well over a year now. This was never my intention, but it just became a thing. I can’t excuse it. I don’t want to because this blog has very much been a self-care thing for me.

But my life has also changed pretty significantly in that year. The biggest changes being that I ended a long-term relationship. This was definitely for the best. I feel better than I have in a long time. I have finally dealt with and have some answers (or at least lack of further questions) with my health. I became fully licensed as a clinical psychologist, meaning that I am no longer a trainee. I have a new job that I feel significantly happier in so far. I started a new relationship that is pretty awesome. Overall, I feel like I am in a better place, having come to terms with a few of the things that led me to the anxious and irritable place that I was in.

So what got me back here and wanting to write this was looking one of my last posts. Things that I wanted and goals. I think I met a few of those. I’m definitely still working on others. I still struggle with social anxiety. That’s something I’ve come to accept will probably never change. I was shy and anxious as a kid (sometimes I do wonder if I would have met criteria for Selective Mutism, but my parents are not best record keepers and I don’t trust my own memories). But, I feel more together and confident in a lot of areas. The changes that happened were necessary and positive.

Yep. Here I am. Getting back into something that makes me happy. Again, even if no one reads it. I’m still trying figure out where I want to go with this. I enjoy writing in such a stream of consciousness way. I miss being able to just start on a topic and see where it takes me. So I missed this. Here I am! Yay and I am making a commitment to myself to start writing again!