REGULARS DO THIS ONE NOW:Targeting Management/Influences Applied to Myself & Close Others

The Progression of Trauma & Past ‘Hurts’ & Our Reactions & Responses to these & Reminders of these

Targeting ALL Defining Origins of ALL Personal Behaviours & Patterns

This exercise / focus is about having you connect to all the patterns of what you yourself have PERSONALLY been experiencing and living through in the last XX time period. I.e. some traumatic incident / arguments with others / heart shut down / money or resource issues / VR re-programming effects / EAAS sim project testing experiences as well as any other limiting experiences encoded / defined in your own script and or sim software defined ‘shit’ . . .

Basically, this focus uses what you have been ‘recently’ experiencing as a template to access what is contributing to define yourself from your script, others scripts (sending bad vibes for example, energetic ties and cords, vows and so on, spiritual group ties, spiritual mission affiliations etc, etc . . . ), the sim software, ANY environment/environmental originated influences (basically ‘shit’ encoded into your dvd’s and your books, your grandmothers scarf, the antique spoons you keep in the old chest, the old chest itself and so on that are used as a base to EMIT all sorts of ‘shit’ into yourself?) as well as any currently known ‘management’ sources to identify ALL that are contributing to these (including anything reacting to you doing this exercise/focus) so these can all be properly identified and edited out / disabled. Also, our hacking AI’s monitoring and tracking you while you are doing this focus are also building up a ‘knowledge base’ of ‘everything’ scripted and or what the sim software (or anything else) uses to debilitate you/us under different conditions so that my invisible colleagues can then set up and increasingly apply automated focuses to yourselves / everyone in this FU shit hole so that we gradually cover all possible combinations of ‘EVERYTHING’ impacting ‘EVERYONE’.

Dead easy really!!!!

It is possible that this will be the last exercise . . . ALSO, please NOTE, take this exercise as being way more important to do compared to any others here . . .

So, this focus has you connecting to your experiences, including and limiting and or negative ‘effects’ as well as ‘managing’ symptoms you had in the last XX amount of time i.e. you replace XX-TIME in the focus below with the ‘time period’ you specify/target to identify debilitating patterns. So XX-TIME can be 2 hours or 3 days or 2 weeks (up to a maximum of 6 months (if you go beyond this it’ll overload the data system and ‘reality’ could slow down or present big pixels everywhere (even in your corn flakes which could invalidate their warranty – haha)).

For the first two paragraphs in the focus it is ‘important’ to try and stay ‘focused’ as the contents of these paragraphs are NOT appreciated by the sim software . . . at the point where it says (state the effects you ‘personally’ experience here: . . .) then you should ‘state’ any effects that you have experienced in the XX-TIME frame your are using.

EXAMPLE-3: not feeling any feelings, having poor or dead emotional responses and or feeling disengaged from my internal states, inner awareness’s, senses and processes.

Very, VERY IMPORTANT: It would likely help ENORMOUSLY if ‘YOU READING THIS got a note book / writing pad, and carried it around with you and used it to compile a list of ‘NOW/current’ effects so that the next time you do the focus you have a list ALREADY MADE UP.

GET A NOTE BOOK & PEN NOW and start to:

KEEP Notes of EFFECTS & EXPERIENCES

‘ NOW ‘

INSTRUCTIONS: I’d advise that everyone do this the first time for 6 months then do shorter times that feel right (say a month, 6 weeks, a week 3 days OR for whatever time period you feel appropriate (occasionally do it for the full a 6 months though). IMPORTANT: For the line where you can list your own ‘effects / symptoms’ then as you ‘state / read the effects’ remember them and feel how these impact yourself as this will help identify them!!!

“‘Copyright Statement – READ THIS ‘NOW’“ ‘accordion’ below . . .

AND, do this before working with any ‘simulation’ experience targeting exercise: because you are ‘bound’ by certain conditions and given certain warnings with respect to this page and these exercises . . . ‘IF’ you have ALREADY read these warnings etc on another exercise page then CLICK on the accordion TAB immediately below to close it as this will save you having to scroll down the page to reach and work with the ‘exercise’!!!

The Simulation Software ‘Obviously’ WON’T LIKE People Accessing What Contributes to Themselves

Simulation software relies on keeping people disengaged from everything of themselves that is ‘worrying’ from the simulation projects: objectives, ‘consensus’ reality and the ‘generic humans’ range of experiences point of view. The software basically keeps you locked into a bubble of ‘normal’ human functioning and a managed ‘consensus’ reality view point AND more importantly it relies on stopping you from even becoming aware of any ‘out of bounds’ possibilities as in ‘extra’ enhancements and or abilities (or what these experiences imply). It relies on this ‘awareness and investigation’ disengagement tactic to severely suppresses you from even becoming aware of never mind of THINKING about trying to access never mind of allowing you to actually ‘understanding’ you are defined by software and a script of data.

So, in ‘playing’ with this and other ‘exercises’ here then the software will likely tag you as ‘dangerous’ and you can expect it’ll try and find ways to distract you, make this web site and your experiences gained here fade away from your memory faster that usual while keeping you busy and occupied elsewhere . . . and so on . . . this is just it’s standard operating protocol (SOP) for worrying people. I’ve personally been giving it ‘THE BIG FINGER’ for over a decade now!!!

To make it very clear . . . despite that the worst anyone has experienced pushing against the simulation in these ways is some temporary ‘weird’ experiences that have faded out after a few minutes or hours . . .

You use/work with the below . .

Entirely at your own risk

‘IF’ you do decide to ‘go for it’ then work with the below when you have some hours to spare, so if anything ‘extra’ weird and or disturbing happens you have some time to recover / wait for it to fade out (before you have to do things like ‘drive’).

So, if you want to explore these areas then work with the ‘statement of intent’ presented below, BUT first you read the following . . . .

COPYRIGHT: The below is all Copyright, all rights reserved Clive S Hetherington 2015 and on. The exercises’, the ‘focuses’ the statements of intent (SOI) STAY on this site and you don’t copy what is below to present on another site, I have made my copyright very clear that I don’t want ENTIRE sections taken from this site and presented somewhere else. I don’t mind a paragraph or two as an ‘opener’ BUT no more than 20% (this is stated and has been stated for years in my Legal page (the link is in the very top menu way above)). This is specifically the case for this page BECAUSE I’m wanting COMMENTS of feedback from people working with this page to help myself and in fact everyone interested in what I’m presenting here to IMPROVE our understandings of WTF is going on!!!!

INSTRUCTIONS: As you read the ‘statements of intent’ then you state ‘with intention’ what you read internally with a directed will of ‘I WANT THIS / This is what I WANT!!!’ while simultaneously keeping your inner awareness / senses alert and ‘still’ to give yourself the best chance of becoming aware of anything that the focus reveals / gives you direct access too.

This ‘does’ take practice, I ‘started’ to spend time trying to become aware of my internal states and inner perceptions three and a half decades ago.

The following XYZ/EXAMPLES (to use in the short focus below) target important areas that will not only impact ‘everyone’ BUT they are also areas that will make it more difficult for anyone working with these focuses / exercises . . .

The first I’d recommend that everyone do regularly ‘because’ it is possible that the wsw teams will ‘not’ clear certain ‘frustrating’ issues until all accumulations of ‘frustration’ are dealt with, the same for ‘disappointment’ (of not resolving certain issues for example) . . . catch 22!!!

. . . I connect now to absolutely every single scripted item and absolutely everything else and or combinations of these that has ever contributed in the slightest to:

accumulate, maintain and or BY ANY MEANS block or prevent myself from FULLY accessing and or engaging with absolutely EVERYTHING that ever contributed to absolutely ANY tension, stress, strain, worry, nervousness, on edginess, preoccupation, self doubt, anxiety, franticness, anguish, agitation, angst, disappointment, depression, despair, frustration, desperation, insecurity, hostility, suffering, torment, fear, panic, pain and or ??? that I have ever been or COULD BE influenced by . . .

2) Being Able to Encounter & Easily Work with ANY Self Facilitating, Negative Issue Origins Exploring Focus/Exercise

block and or sabotage myself from easily and automatically becoming aware of, thinking about & regularly trying to become aware of, engage with and to FULLY resolve absolutely ANYTHING contributing to debilitate, limit and or restrict absolutely any aspect of myself and or cause me absolutely ANY problems, regularly working with absolutely any self exploration EXERCISE (WITHOUT any resistance, distractions, sabotages, put of’s or PAY BACK or anything else) and particularly any exercise designed to reveal absolutely everything that ever contributed in the slightest to myself being less responsive, less functional, less successful, less happy, less capable, less healthy, less ‘together’, less integrated and or less aware than I was in the distant past and or less able to absolute sustain a directed, intently focused concentrated, unwavering attention on achieving WHATEVER I WANT for many HOURS

3) Being Able to Encounter, Read, Take IN, Understand, Retain and pass on ANY INFORMATION

block and or sabotage myself from automatically becoming aware of, encountering and or without any interruptions, resistance, distractions, sabotages or put off’s EASILY reading, EASILY taking in (the full ‘meanings, understandings and explanations’ that the author was actually trying to convey) and or RETAINING absolutely any information that absolutely ANYTHING contributing in the slightest to defining or influencing ANYTHING of either reality or MYSELF won’t be keen on me encountering, FULLY reading, FULLY understanding, FULLY retaining and or of OPENLY discussing with EVERYONE I KNOW . . .

eroding, degrading, blocking and or in the slightest making less functional and particularly over long spans of time absolutely ANY of my memories and or absolutely anything my entire spectrum of physical and or subtle perceptions, senses, feelings, inner states and or awareness’s as well as the conceptual scale, inclusiveness, coherence and or accuracy of absolutely any of my thinking, reasoning, evaluations, appraisals and or any resulting conclusions and or my ability to understand and or convey absolutely anything I become aware of to absolutely anyone else . . .

. . . I connect now to absolutely every single scripted item and absolutely everything else that ever contributed in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING of ANY of these specific behaviours, symptoms and or effects . . . I connect to absolutely ALL variations of ‘everything’ that ever contributed in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING of these . . . I connect to absolutely ALL variations of ‘everything’ that ever contributed in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING of ANY of these . . .

Just ‘read’ everything below here the first time you read this section, so that you know how it works . . .

It might be worth printing the below out / and carrying it with you as it’s so short you can likely do it anywhere in under a minute . . .

(do this sentence twice): . . . I connect now to absolutely every single scripted item and absolutely everything else and or combinations of these that has ever contributed in the slightest to: XYZ/EXAMPLE: myself having chapped lips, picking or biting my lips or fingers or finger nails . . .

IMPORTANT: use the above for up to 10 different ‘focusing phrases’ (read through each twice) before doing the below as instructed. In other words you can target 10 ‘sets of things’ using the above BUT you only need to do the paragraph below twice to work with ALL OF THESE AT ONCE . . .

(then also do this sentence twice): . . . I connect now to absolutely every single scripted item AND absolutely everything else that ever contributed in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING of ANY of these specific behaviours, symptoms and or effects . . . I connect to absolutely ALL variations of ‘everything’ that ever contributed in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING of these . . . I connect to absolutely ALL variations of ‘everything’ that ever contributed in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING of ANY of these . . .

So, you can do the above for lot’s of effects ‘quickly’ then after a few hours / a day or two do the shorter ‘full’ focus with the below as a starting ‘phrase’ which is also presented within the next accordion of the main focus:

I re-connect NOW to absolutely all scripted items and to all patterns of all scripted, data items and or sim software components that I’ve already connected to in the last (2 days (or ‘whatever’)) . . . I connect to absolutely all of these now . . . (then do the longer / new shorter version which is in the next accordion down . . . )

Reconnect to SUPER SHORT VERSION Pattens: I re-connect NOW to absolutely all scripted items and to all patterns of all scripted, data items and or sim software components that I’ve already connected to in the last (2 days (or ‘whatever’)) . . . I connect to absolutely all of these now . . . (then do the longer / new shorter version which is below here)

. . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely every single individual experience, incident and event that I lived through in the last XX-TIME . . . I connect to absolutely EVERY SINGLE inner, ‘internal’ as well as every single outer, ‘external’ response and or reaction to absolutely ANYTHING I experienced during this time . . . I connect to absolutely EVERYTHING that I experienced during this time as: ‘PATTERNS’ and I connect now to ALL combinations of sequences of ALL patterns AND ALSO to the sequential unfolding of ALL OF these through time that BEST REPRESENT absolutely any combination of overt ‘obvious’, covert ‘hidden’ as well as subliminal experiences, events and or incidents AND also my conscious, unconscious and or automatic reaction and or response to these that I experienced in the last XX-TIME . . . I now re-connect to absolutely EVERY SINGLE individual ‘micro’ experience, event and incident and to how these unfolded ‘moment by moment’ through time BOTH for MYSELF in the simulation here AND for the ORIGINAL UNTRANSLATED EXPERIENCES that my experiences here are ‘REPRESENTING’ . . . I also connect NOW to ‘HOW’ absolutely ANY combinations of these contributed to impacting absolutely ANY aspect of absolutely ANYTHING of myself AND ALSO the person I am simulating, including ABSOLUTELY ALL unfolding unconscious, subliminal, subconscious activity INCLUDING absolutely ANYTHING contributing to absolutely ANY internal dialogues, preoccupations, distractions and or ANYTHING SIMILAR including absolutely ANYTHING that in the slightest contributed to absolutely any combination of influences, hurts, sores, traumas, attractions, aversions and or repulsions and or ANYTHING ELSE as well as how these unfolded during the last XX-TIME . . . I particularly connect to absolutely ALL PRE-DEFINED COMBINATIONS OF ANYTHING that had absolutely ANY immediate, short term, long term and or unfolding influence and or impact on absolutely any aspect of absolutely ANYTHING of myself and or ANY of my external and or internal interactions including my memories, internal states and or senses, as well as absolutely ANY internal ‘recall, play through or replay’ of absolutely any past and or ‘POTENTIAL’ FUTURE scenarios and particularly ANY involving absolutely ANY OTHERS . . .

(Please NOTE: Ignore the below ‘specific’ experiences part if you are re-engaging with the super short focus patterns . . . )

. . . I specifically connect ‘NOW’ to each of the following ‘NOTICED’ specific ‘experiences, incidents, events and or effects and or my responses to these’ INCLUDING:

State ALL the effects you ‘personally’ experience here as best you can (BEST STATED IN YOUR NATIVE LANGUAGE) . . .

. . . I connect to absolutely all combinations of absolutely ALL static incidents as well as absolutely ALL unfolding ‘patterns’ associated with absolutely any ‘combination’ of ANY OF THESE particular ‘experiences, incidents, events and or effects and or my responses to these’ that I have experienced within absolutely ANY phase within my entire past . . . I connect to absolutely every single scripted item, every sim software accumulated script part, every sim software component, every environmental component and absolutely ANYTHING/EVERYTHING else that ever directly or indirectly contributed in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING I experienced AND I particularly connect to absolutely ALL coordinated combinations of these that have already and or may ever have absolutely any direct and or indirect effect, impact and or influence on absolutely any aspect of absolutely anything of myself and or because of me anyone else . . .

(maybe do the below paragraph twice) . . . I particularly connect to absolutely ANYTHING that ever contributed to initiate, orchestrate, direct, monitor, analyse, assess and or to initiate absolutely any combination of direct or indirect responses and or actions because of anything I experienced and or because of how I responded to absolutely ANY of my experiences and or PARTICULARLY because I am attempting to engage NOW with absolutely anything that in the slightest ever contributed to absolutely ANYTHING I ever experienced and I particularly connect NOW to absolutely ANYTHING that now or ever contributed to acquire, analyse, distribute, pass on and or use or act upon absolutely any intel, data, script parts, saved script parts, environmental components, any trauma and or resonance triggers and or absolutely ANYTHING ELSE . . . I connect to absolutely anything that contributes in the slightest to analyse, assess and evaluate absolutely anything of myself including running VR versions of myself and or ANYTHING that contributes to defining strategies, tactics, counter measures and or absolutely any security, protection and or backups and or anything that may consider initiating alternate approaches and or alternate versions of itself because of anything I have already done, am doing now and or may do in the future . . .

(the below are optional / use if you feel any of these are appropriate)

(alternate routes to the same ends . . . ) . . . I fully connect to absolutely everything that contributes in the slightest to monitoring, tracking, evaluating, predicting and or assessing what is actually happening ‘on the ground’ and to all that contributes in the slightest to ‘model’, assess, define and or implement absolutely any adjustments, changes and or REINFORCING efforts and or that initiates alternate routes to support achieving the same outcome and or anything that contributes to initiating absolutely ‘ANYTHING’ as part of absolutely ANY contributing effort designed to help ‘tip or nudge’ absolutely ANY individual single aspect, event, area, experience and or person within the ENTIRE WHOLE in alignment with respect to absolutely any aimed for objective or combination of objectives all the way from individual, personal through all sub goals and objectives as part of achieving the overall worked toward FINAL end point goal, goals and or objectives. . .

(sabotage my explorations of myself) . . . I connect to absolutely any script item and or any combination of scripted items that were specifically designed to block, misdirect, sabotage and or otherwise prevent me from orientating towards, revealing, accessing, engaging with and or adjusting, disabling, removing and or destroying absolutely anything influencing or interfering with myself, and or absolutely anything of MYSELF that is NOT correct, not NATURAL and or NOT A NATURAL PART OF MYSELF and or absolutely ANY scripted item and or combination of scripted items and or ANY PERSON and or ANYTHING ELSE that DON’T want me to become aware of, find, investigate, interfere with, disable, remove and or destroy whatever I have found or am at risk of finding . . .

(being supplied with ‘designed’ or others script bits) . . . I fully connect to absolutely each and every sim software component and EVERYTHING ELSE that ever contributed in the slightest directly or indirectly to assessing, collecting, cataloguing, coveting, modifying and or then strategically deploying absolutely ANY of my own scripted parts or ANYONE ELSE’S and or modified / designed scripted items to use against myself and or what I am doing now and or to mess with anyone else . . . I fully and absolutely connect now to absolutely all sim software ‘script’ depositories, warehouses, deployment assessment engines and to absolutely all combinations of components protecting and defending absolutely anything of any of these . . . I connect to absolutely all of ALL of these now . . .

. . . I fully and directly and COMPLETELY connect NOW to absolutely EVERY SINGLE scripted and or sim software component that directly or indirectly has EVER defined, created, altered and or maintained or influenced ANY dream or sub conscious or below conscious states or influences or ANY of the contents of ANY of these . . . AND or monitored, tracked, recorded and or evaluated ANY of my responses to any scripted or sim software initiated or orchestrated dream or ANY OTHER sub conscious or below conscious states or influences or similar efforts

. . . I fully and directly and COMPLETELY connect NOW to absolutely EVERY SINGLE scripted and or sim software component that directly or indirectly contributes to absolutely anything that contributes to absolutely ANY of the content of ANY dream and OR ANYTHING within ANY dream or anything of my sub conscious or sub awareness states, senses or perceptions and PARTICULARLY ANYTHING that has ever directly or indirectly been part of ANYTHING that impacted or influenced ANYTHING of myself in my waking life . . . and particularly to influence absolutely any of my choices or decisions and or how I interact with absolutely ANYONE ELSE . . .

. . . I fully and directly and COMPLETELY connect NOW to absolutely EVERY SINGLE scripted and or sim software component that directly or indirectly contributes to define and or choreograph ANYTHING through time and particularly absolutely ANYTHING that arises within a dream and or that impacts absolutely anything of my sub-conscious and or particularly through analogy, symbols and or any symbolic, archetype, spiritual and or religious representations or associations and or the conversion and or transformation into and or out of any of these as well as anything defining and or holding anything representing any ‘shared’ consciousness and or the collective unconsciousness and or the sources of absolutely any intuition, inner knowing’s, associations, hunches, gut feelings, imagination and or ANYTHING SIMILAR and particularly anything that could be used to pass absolutely anything from one person to another . . . I particularly connect to absolutely anything that ever has or that EVER COULD contribute to me EVER having absolutely ANY spontaneous insights, hunches, gut feelings, knowings as well as absolutely any sensory illusions and or absolutely any non physical perceptions and or anything of spiritual and or religious origins or meanings, revelation and or any sense or feeling of ‘connectedness’ or any universal, spiritual or religious ‘consciousness’ of absolutely any type or form and or any other type of spooky or paranormal experience and or absolutely anything comparable, similar and or related to ANYTHING I describe here . . .

. . . I fully and directly and COMPLETELY connect NOW to absolutely EVERY SINGLE scripted and or sim software component that directly or indirectly EVER contributed in the slightest to defining, creating, altering and or maintaining or influencing ANYTHING of my unconscious, sub conscious and or any dream or day dream states or ANYTHING within ANY OF THESE and or particularly any part of any sub conscious scenario and or dreamscape backdrop and or ‘environment’ and or any symbolic, archetype, spiritual, religious and or universal and or collective unconsciousness; representations or associations of absolutely ANYTHING within these and or the conversion and or transformation into and or out of any of these and or anything of my sub-conscious, intuition and or of any of my spontaneous and or subliminal insights, hunches, gut feelings, symbols, inner knowing’s, awareness’s and or imagination . . . AND or any scripted or sim software components that contributed to initiate, orchestrate, monitor, track, record, analyse and or evaluate ANY of my conscious, unconscious or subliminal responses to absolutely ANYTHING applied to influence myself and particularly via a dream and or via my sub-conscious and or the collective unconsciousness and or subliminally as well as influencing my reactions to these . . . and or particularly to influence and or change absolutely anything of myself when I am in my waking conscious state . . . and particularly to influence absolutely any of my choices or decisions and or how I interact with absolutely ANYONE ELSE . . .

. . . I fully and directly and COMPLETELY connect NOW to absolutely EVERY SINGLE scripted and or sim software component that has ever contributed to collect, save, store, recall, analyse, evaluate, collate, organise, transform, convert, distribute and or protect and keep secure absolutely any data and absolutely ANY pre-defined and or best strategies or approaches to use on and or to influence absolutely ANY aspect of myself and or that contributes in the slightest to determine absolutely any influencing tactics or strategies and or absolutely any of the objectives of what already has, is now and or will in the future be applied to myself . . . I fully and absolutely connect NOW to absolutely all data of absolutely all types and in absolutely all forms and or in absolutely ANY repository or vault no matter how distant or secure . . . I connect to absolutely all components reacting to this focus and to absolutely all combinations of components that are contributing in the slightest to work against myself because of what I am doing now . . . AND or to define, control or influence the outcome of ANY of my own or our or anyone else’s future choices, decisions, trajectories, interactions with others and ultimately absolutely ANYTHING of ANY of my future experiences and or the resulting lived outcomes of these . . . AND I particularly connect to absolutely ‘anything’ that contributes directly or indirectly to pass ANYTHING of this information or data or script bits and or ANYTHING ELSE in any format . . . and particularly to absolutely ANY other sim software set and or any specific individual or ANY network of individuals AND particularly as part of giving ANY other sim software sub variation more potential options to mess with myself and or to use my data to directly or indirectly influence absolutely anyone else no matter for what reason, AND or for what outcome . . .

. . . I fully and directly and COMPLETELY connect NOW to absolutely EVERY SINGLE scripted and or sim software component that directly or indirectly contributes to absolutely ANY individual consistently being given an advantage or disadvantage over OTHER individuals . . . AND I directly and COMPLETELY connect NOW to EVERY SINGLE individual that is consistently given an advantage or disadvantage compared to any other individuals . . . AND I directly connect to absolutely ALL scripted and or sim software and to absolutely ALL scripted and sim software components that contribute to interact, network and or work together with absolutely ANY advantaged or disadvantaged individuals and or sets of individuals or groups . . . AND I NOW connect to ALL that ANY of these components connect to and interconnect with to give absolutely ANY individual any advantage or disadvantage . . .

0 . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely anything that has ever, in NOW and or will ever contribute in the slightest to limit and or ‘absolutely’ pre-restrict, pre-limit and or pre-block and or DELIBERATELY MISS OUT and or FRAGMENT ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING OF MYSELF OUT and or NOT ‘process’ and or NOT render and or do or NOT DO anything similar and or equivalent with respect to absolutely ANY scripted or unscripted facet or aspect any absolutely ANYTHING that directly or indirectly contributes to or that SHOULD contribute to absolutely any part, aspect and or ANY ‘THING’ of myself and or I connect to absolutely anything that directly or indirectly has ever or EVER COULD contribute in the slightest to define and or ‘Make me into WHO I HAVE BEEN, WHO I AM ‘NOW’ and or WHO I COULD OR WILL BE IN THE FUTURE’ . . .

1 . . . I connect to absolutely everything that has ever, is now or that ever could directly or indirectly contribute in the slightest to what may be or has been selected, included and or excluded as part of what would contribute to absolutely ANY facet of absolutely ANYTHING of My PAST, MY Current and or MY Future SELF and or my ENTIRE EXPERIENCES & AND MY ACCURATE MEMORIES OF THESE (and absolutely EVERYTHING/EVERYTHING ELSE that is or ISN’T used to make up ‘ME’ my subtle body and or absolutely every aspect of my entire past, my current and MY ‘projected’ FUTURE originated subtle form, earth life, physical experience and or ANY OTHER ADDED IN OR OVERLAID OR SUBLIMINAL OR SUB CONSCIOUS EXPERIENCE and PARTICULARLY ‘MY’ Identity/Personality/Persona/Ego/Sense of Self, My Physical Body/My Lived IN Physical Environment and EVERYTHING it contains and or ANYTHING used to IMPACT ME/My Gender/Sexuality and or absolutely ANY of MY; Interactions, Preferences, Openness, Attractions and or absolutely ALL, IN THE MOMENT ‘EXPRESSIONS’ of these and I particularly connect to absolutely every single conversion, every single adjustment, every single translation, every single template, matrix and or multidimensional, multi factor versions or variation and or substitute of or for these and or anything similar and or equivalent and I particularly connect to absolutely EVERYTHING that ever directly or indirectly contributed in the slightest to absolutely ANY past self and or that will ever contribute to absolutely ANYTHING that has ever, is now or that EVER WILL contribute to my future external and or internal Self and or my environment and or the type and or quality of my environment and or absolutely any facet or aspect of absolutely ANY experience I will have and or my current and or future ability to accurately and without the slightest hindrance investigate, access, feel out and or recall and accurately assess absolutely any facet of anything of myself from absolutely any past phase and or time point AS THAT PAST TIME POINT or PHASE ACTUALLY REALLY ORIGINALLY HAPPENED AND UNFOLDED EXACTLY AS IT DID DURING THAT PAST TIME and or without absolutely any post conversions, post translation, adjustments of absolutely any type and or any template, matrix and or multidimensional, multi factor originated versions or variation and or substitute of or for these and or anything similar and or equivalent being applied to absolutely any past experience and or memories and or elements of either of these including them being retroactively or retrospectively edited, altered and or even substituted with others and particularly connect to absolutely anything contributing to do this as part of absolutely any agenda or objectives and PARTICULARLY as part of aiming to keep absolutely any anomalous experiences, skills, abilities and or perceptions hidden, obscured, faded out, erased and or to make it more difficult and or impossible to access and or recall these accurately and or with respect to having the CORRECT CONTEXT in terms of the original experience and or to prevent anyone from thinking about these and particularly enough such that they might figure out why ANY such changes to myself were made . . .

2 . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely anything that has ever, is NOW or or that EVER may contribute in the slightest to prevent myself from becoming absolutely aware of absolutely anything and or ANY facet of myself and or absolutely ANY of my EXPERIENCES and or my sensory and or feeling memories and or any past and or combinations of past experiences and or sensory and or feeling memories of these that just DON’T ‘ADD UP’, don’t feel right and or feel ‘out of place’ / inconsistent, wrong, substituted and or that something is ‘missing’ and or is presenting contradictions and or has been altered . . . I connect to absolutely each of these past time, circumstances and or events and to absolutely everything that contributed to these being IN SOME WAY WRONG then and or I connect to what is NOW reacting to what I’m NOW doing NOW and to EVERYTHING contributing in the slightest to absolutely anything because of what I am directing my attention on here . . .

3 . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely anything that has ever, is NOW or or that EVER may contribute in the slightest through time, ANY spans of time and or any LONG SPANS OF TIME to contribute to define, select, include and or ‘make’ or render absolutely any aspect of absolutely ANYTHING of ‘ME’ and or that ever, is now contributing to how absolutely ‘ANYTHING’ WANTS ABSOLUTELY ANY ASPECT OF MYSELF ‘TO BE’ IN THE FUTURE; My Future Identity/Personality/Persona/Ego/Sense of Self, My Future Body/My Lived IN Physical Environment and EVERYTHING it contains and or ANYTHING used to IMPACT ME/My Gender/My Sexuality, MY; Interactions Preferences, Openness, Attractions and or absolutely ALL, IN THE MOMENT ‘EXPRESSIONS’ of these and or HOW I COULD OR WILL BE both externally and well as internally within myself in absolutely ANY future environment and or interaction with absolutely ANY INDIVIDUAL OR GROUP OF PEOPLE I’D EVER INTERACT WITH and I particularly connect to absolutely ANYTHING that contributes in the slightest to appraise and or define ‘ANYTHING’ of ANY aspect or version of MYSELF and or contribute to compare how absolutely any version of myself ‘COULD BE, OR IS SUPPOSED TO BE’, including any future versions conscious or unconscious habits, routines, attitudes, preferences, responses, actions, choices and or decisions and or absolutely ALL, IN THE MOMENT ‘EXPRESSIONS’ of these and or how open, close, warm, tender, aware, understanding, comfortable, correct, honest and or heartfelt I or ANY version of me ‘WILL BE OR POTENTIALLY BE’ both externally as well as internally within myself and particularly when I interact with anyone and PARTICULARLY ANYONE I am close to or VERY close to and or am having an intimate relationship with . . .

4 . . . I fully and absolutely connect NOW to absolutely everything that has ever, is now or ever could contribute in the slightest to monitoring, appraising, evaluating, analysing, predicting, precisely defining and or changing or maintaining absolutely ANY ASPECT of MYSELF/’WHO I AM’ and or ‘HOW I AM’, My Identity/Personality/Persona/Ego and or Sense of Self, My Physical Body/My Lived IN Physical Environment and absolutely EVERYTHING it contains, including absolutely ANYTHING used to IMPACT ME//MY Gender/Sexuality, MY; Interactions, Preferences, Openness, Attractions and or absolutely ALL, IN THE MOMENT ‘EXPRESSIONS’ of these and or how OPEN I am about absolutely ‘ANYTHING’ with absolutely ANYONE and or HOW I AM or WILL BE both externally and well as internally within myself while on my own and or in any interaction with absolutely ANYONE ELSE and or ANY GROUP and particularly HOW I AM OR ‘HOW I WILL BE’ with anyone I am close to, VERY close to and or am having an intimate relationship with and or possibly WILL BE in the future . . . and I particularly connect to absolutely everything that has EVER contributed to initiate, coordinate, direct, monitor, deploy, protect, project, keep secure and or back up absolutely ANYTHING that EVER directly or indirectly contributed in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING of myself and PARTICULARLY with respect to absolutely any objectives, goals and or outcomes that absolutely ANYTHING is defining, referring to and or comparing myself with and or are contributing to MOVING ME TOWARDS absolutely ANY version of myself as part of any pre-defined goal or future outcome . . .

Focus to target you being kept ‘on mission’ in any role, position and or office, expected to carry out any duties, obligations, functions, ceremonies, rituals and or actions perhaps facilitated by binding subtle pacts, vows, promises, oaths, curses and agreements and ‘enforced’ by subtle beings (entity attachments) as ignorant spirit guides, minders, helpers, ascended bullshitters and any spirit being as an enforcer of contracts.

Do once, and then do again if ‘nudged’.

VR = Virtual Reality

Version 1.00 / 1.50 / 1.60 / 2.00 / 2.50 / 2.80 / 2.85

. . . I connect to absolutely ALL real life circumstances as well as absolutely all VR re-programming situations and circumstances that I was ever made to live through where I ever naturally, officially or covertly held absolutely any office, position, title, status, ‘appointment’, post and or ‘job’ and or ANYTHING SIMILAR or EQUIVALENT and or any combination of these and PARTICULARLY absolutely ANY that came with absolutely ANY combination of roles, functions, duties, tasks, obligations, responsibilities, purposes and or missions and or ANYTHING SIMILAR or EQUIVALENT and particularly as part of carrying out absolutely ANY combination of practices, tasks, decisions, assignments, chores, actions, rites, rituals, customs and or ceremonies and or ANYTHING SIMILAR or EQUIVALENT AND particularly where I was ever bound by absolutely ANY contract, agreement, covenant, pact, sworn oath, curse and or promise and or ANYTHING SIMILAR or EQUIVALENT and or absolutely ANYTHING ELSE that EVER resulted in myself either by ‘magic’, by spells and or ANYTHING SIMILAR or EQUIVALENT (including subtle tech, subtle guardians, spirit guides, minders and or subtle enforcers and or their bosses for example) being ‘bound’ or obliged to do ‘anything’ and or behave in absolutely ANY way under absolutely ANY combinations of circumstances . . .

. . . I connect to absolutely everything that has ever in the past, is NOW and or EVER could in the future contribute in the slightest to facilitate and or FORCE myself to continue being automatically obligated, duty bound and or bindingly attached to absolutely ANY PAST AGREEMENT, CONTRACT, PACT and or ANYTHING SIMILAR or EQUIVALENT and or ABSOLUTELY ANY PERSON or PERSONS, no matter how this was done OR who this was done by . . . I connect to absolutely everything that has ever or is NOW contributing in the slightest to have me remain ‘on mission, on duty, in role, obligated to and or ‘otherwise’ made to carry out ‘whatever’ including ANY function, assignments, tasks, chores, actions, and or making any decisions and or carrying out any actions and or ANY ‘ritual’ and or ANYTHING SIMILAR or EQUIVALENT and PARTICULARLY anything that has me bound or obliged to do absolutely ANYTHING for absolutely ANYONE and or ANY group of people . . . I PARTICULARLY connect to absolutely ANY and ALL VR re-programming I have ever had to support, make easier and or to prepare or facilitate myself because of any position, title, status, ‘appointment’, post and or ‘job’ I ever had and or because of what I’d have to do as part of ANY OF THESE . . . I particularly connect to absolutely EVERYTHING that has ever contributed in the slightest to align me to, maintain and or forcibly lock me into absolutely any office, position, role, duty, function and or SIMILAR and or ANY objectives or obligations or ANYTHING ELSE related to these and or PARTICULARLY because of ANY PAST implied obligation, responsibility, noblesse oblige and or professional, expert, civic, religious, society, cultural, national and or ceremonial position, role, duty, obligation, responsibility, ‘title’ and or emergency (like a war or civil unrest) and or absolutely ANYTHING ELSE and particularly ANYTHING that has EVER or is now contributing to absolutely ANY aspects of my life being influenced, directed or dictated in the slightest by absolutely any pre-defined ‘precepts’, objectives, ceremonies, services, rituals, rites, rules, customs and or ANYTHING ELSE that have ever or ARE NOW contributing to absolutely anything of ANY of my; behaviours, mannerisms, attitudes and or any compulsive, obsessive behaviours and or any automated habits, reactions and or any compulsive, obsessive behaviours, responses and or absolutely any spiritual, religious, ceremonial and or ritualistic ways of living, dressing, eating, interacting, ‘serving’, courting and or conducting myself in absolutely any situation or circumstances and or during absolutely ANY particular dates, days, months, seasons and or at specific times and or during particular phases (when the moon is full for example) and or that has ever contributed to myself having absolutely ANY defined and or repetitive or rigid ways of thinking, responding and or doing absolutely anything and particularly as part of defining how I behave, express, dress and or present myself in absolutely ANY COMBINATION of specific: circumstance, date, time, month, season and or during a particular ‘phase’ and or because of ANY particular ‘event’ (in the spring for example or when a baby is born) . . . and or anything that has ever and or IS NOW contributing in the slightest to keep me as OK and or as happy as possible within absolutely any ‘real’, representing and or symbolic position, office, post, role and or ANYTHING SIMILAR OR EQUIVALENT and or carrying out absolutely any functions, obligations, duties, tasks, practices, rituals, rites, customs, services, ceremonies and or ANYTHING ELSE SIMILAR OR EQUIVALENT and particularly ANY that I no longer want to be part of or which are no longer APPROPRIATE with respect to my current or general circumstances . . .

0 . . (do recursively) . . . I remotely engage with absolutely anyone and ANY’THING’ that ever contributed in the slightest to supervise, design and or keep hidden, protect and secure their own and or any other designers, ‘designs’ of absolutely ANYTHING; AND PARTICULARLY ANY designs, designer suites, blueprints, ANY intuitive conceptual designs, any flow charts, schematics, logic diagrams and particularly absolutely ANYTHING that relates to the design and building of absolutely anything that contributed to influence and or manage ANYONE and PARTICULARLY anyone trying to find and or infiltrate any designer, anything any designer EVER designed and PARTICULARLY ANYTHING that ever directly or indirectly contributed in the slightest to disguise, cloak, hide, conceal, encrypt, confuse, muddy, blank out or erase the resonance of or divert, distract or OTHERWISE prevent and or block absolutely anyone from thinking about, starting to look for, figuring out how to detect, identify and or the find, hack and or successfully infiltrate absolutely ANY DESIGNERS designer suites and or EVERYTHING THEY EVER designed and or ANYTHING ELSE INCLUDING; any AI designers, self designing system designs and or ANY blueprints, schematics, logic outlines and or anything else similar and or equivalent and particularly absolutely anything that ever contributed to monitor ‘ANYTHING’ of ANY part of ANY already designed ‘thing’ and or then contributes to activating and or signalling to absolutely anything that then ever contributes in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING that contributes to absolutely ANYTHING that ever contributed to absolutely any automated design and or ‘new’ design activation and or dispensing system and or the PROTECTION, SECURITY & UNDETECTABILITY OF ANYTHING OF THIS and or of absolutely anything designed to directly or indirectly implement, maintain, keep secure and or protect absolutely ANYTHING that EVER contributed to:

1 . . . the drone strata and or ANY scale of ‘Reality’ managing ‘shit’ and or ANY Group and or Cultures Manipulations/Influences/shit’ and particularly ANYTHING either applied to their own people and or ANY others /any other groups/cultures/everyone and particularly as part of any religious and or ‘cultural’ beliefs/ideology and or in efforts to maintain and or lock into and or to CONVERT ANY OTHERS to absolutely any past/current ‘narratives / beliefs / ideology’ and or as part of ‘keeping hidden, safe and protected’ awareness and or knowledge of the physical con and or any ‘manipulations’ and or the objectives and or the style, differentiation, ‘attitudes, beliefs, ideology and or narratives’ and or any worked for aims outcomes and or objectives of the designers and or of those directing and or controlling the designers . . . .

2 . . . AND particularly ANYTHING of ANY OF THIS that I/we have currently NOT YET identified and or PARTICULARLY anything that doesn’t want to be ‘known about’ or identified . . .

3 . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely every single thing that has already, is now and or may ever contribute in the slightest to absolutely anything testing, analysing, assessing, selecting, generating, deploying, measuring, monitoring and or protecting absolutely ANYTHING that directly or indirectly contributes in the slightest to absolutely any experimental and or fractionated, variable ‘lets see’ approaches designed to test how well ANY OF THESE influence, manipulate, manage, contain, maintain and or lock down absolutely any aspect of myself or anyone else and particularly with respect to having imposed absolutely any enforced boundaries, containments, limits, restrictions, filters and or absolutely ANY combination of; ‘role, persona, character’ and particularly with respect to absolutely any type of behaviour, attitudes, decisions and or in the moment choices and actions and or the scale, comprehensive ness, coherence and sophistication of my interconnected understandings, my thinking abilities, ideas, my conceptual awareness, imagination and intuitive insights and particularly with respect to my accumulated understandings of EVERYTHING I know and EVERYTHING of my own past and ‘OUR’ ENTIRE past and particularly with respect absolutely ANYTHING OF THIS and or absolutely ANY combination of ‘role, persona and or character’ and or absolutely ANYTHING of anyone else / NOT OF MYSELF imposed on myself and or the PRESENTATION OF MYSELF TO ANY OTHERS as part of ‘ANYTHING’S’ efforts to use me to CHANGE OTHERS or HAVE ANY OTHERS USED TO CHANGE ME and or absolutely ANYTHING that prevents myself from having an entirely stable and consistent ‘full spectrum self’, personality, persona and presentation not matter what environment I’m in or whom I’m with and or am interacting with and or as part of absolutely any ‘conversions and or management’ applied to myself via absolutely ANY subtle to physical body interfacing tech or network and or anything piggybacked into this and or as part of absolutely any continuous and or future re-programming, re-orientation and or conversion of absolutely ANYTHING of myself and or ANYONE ELSE and PARTICULARLY to do this by using carefully ‘selected’ trauma, trt’s and or absolutely ANY past experience, memory, event, incident and or phase and or anything similar and or equivalent and particularly to prepare myself or ANY OTHERS for absolutely any ‘conversion’ and or a ‘transformation’ of absolutely ANY aspect or combinations of aspects of ourselves into ‘something else’ either continuously or ‘sometime in my/our future’ and or also to absolutely maintain and lock down absolutely any past conversion/transformation of myself or anyone else AND particularly with respect to absolutely any pre defined agenda driven objectives and particularly with respect to absolutely anything that EVER contributed in the slightest in ANYWAY to ‘who AND how I am now’ and or absolutely ANYTHING that contributed in the slightest to absolutely any possible future reality, any possible future environment configuration and or any possible ‘person’ conversion/transformation that ANY combination of ANYTHING is currently contributing to working towards / is intent on moving myself or ANY OTHERS into . . .

3a . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely every single software routine and or combination of these that ever directly or indirectly contributed in the slightest to defining, strategizing, analysing and or then contributing to delivering / putting myself and or anyone else into their own personal ‘purgatory’ and or version of ‘hell’ . . . I connect NOW to absolutely everything that ever directly or indirectly contributed in the slightest to use and or influence absolutely any personal situations / translations / conversions / interactions, VR experiences, memories and or absolutely any ‘scripted’ bits or DATA on myself or absolutely anyone else held absolutely ANYWHERE and or that used ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING ELSE and or I connect to absolutely anything that ever contributed to coordinate the timing of and or the delivery and or sequencing or precise ordering of these to make absolutely any aspect of my life represent ‘purgatory’ or to make it ‘hellish’ . . .

4 . . . and I particularly connect to absolutely ANYTHING that has ever, is now or that ever ‘could’ contribute to absolutely any response because of absolutely ANY of my current, past and or projected future ‘investigation, hacking, seek out and destroy’ efforts and I particularly connect to absolutely anything contributing to ‘ANYTHING’ replacing and or standing in for absolutely anything that I or ‘WE’ have ALREADY HACKED, DISABLED and or DELETED and I PARTICULARLY connect to absolutely anything that ever contributed to design, distribute, deploy, deliver and or which ever used ANY ‘proxy’ to deliver absolutely anything (my own or anyone else’s physical or subtle tech or any other ‘shit’ managing ANYONE for example) and or coordinate absolutely ANYTHING that ever contributed to protect, divert away from and or keep hidden by absolutely ANY MEANS, ANYONE, ANY ‘designer’ and or ANY’THING’ that was EVER designed by ANYONE or ANYTHING that ever contributed to influence, manage, sabotage, enhance, support and or MAINTAIN, KEEP CORRECT & OR ADJUST OR ADAPT absolutely ANYTHING that ever contributed to influence and or IMPACT absolutely ANY ASPECT of ‘ANYTHING’ of ANYONE and or particularly to KEEP absolutely ANYTHING HIDDEN within ANYONE, i.e. absolutely ANY VR re-programming, ANY memories, ANY trauma, any trt’s and or ANY subtle devices and or ANYTHING ELSE and or ANYTHING ELSE that was designed into ANYONE and OR ANY DESIGNERS and particularly ANYTHING designed to keep hidden absolutely ANY; designer suites, blueprints, schematics, conceptual charts, outlines, flow diagrams, conceptual intuitive designs and or any other information or data including:

5 . . (this targets recursive systems designing new shit delivery approaches) . . . and I PARTICULARLY connect to absolutely anything that ever has, is now or that EVER could contribute in the slightest to monitor, track, analyse and evaluate the ‘integrity’ and or ‘functioning’ of absolutely any simulation software sub system (and or any combinations of these) and particularly with respect to how well it or they are fulfilling and maintaining absolutely ANY set of objectives and or sub-objectives as part of the entire combination of sub-objectives, agendas, aims and or outcomes that the entire sim software is working towards fulfilling and or maintaining and or protecting and or keeping secure . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely all combinations of components and or sub components that have ever, are now and or that could ever contribute to monitor, track, analyse and evaluate the ‘integrity’ and or ‘functioning’ of absolutely any individual simulation software sub system and or combinations of these and or any individual component of these and or then contribute to make any assessments, evaluations and or decisions with respect to these sub systems being evaluated as starting to degrade and or become ‘compromised’ such that they are no longer able to fulfil and or maintain past progress and or are degrading and or losing ground and particularly with respect to ANY of that specific sub systems / set of components worked for aims, agendas and or objectives being detected as becoming compromised . . . I particularly connect to absolutely any combination of components and or distributed sub systems that directly or indirectly contributed in the slightest to evaluate, design, deploy, deliver, activate, protect and or then keep secure absolutely any sub-system and or combination of sub systems and particularly dormant and or well hidden versions that where ever specifically designed and or activated to be a replacement for and or a substitute for absolutely any system or sub system and particularly ANY that ANY monitoring and or evaluating component set showed it to be compromised, infiltrated, was losing ground and particularly with respect to it’s designated aims, objectives and or agendas that it was designed to fulfil and and or maintain . . . and I particularly connect to absolutely anything that ever has, is now or that may in the future contribute to absolutely anything that directly or indirectly contributes in the slightest to prevent, suppress, divert and or make it difficult or problematic in the slightest for me or anyone else to think of, become aware of, look for, find, identify and or disable, re-task, edit/re-design and or re-orientate and or get rid of absolutely any and all combinations of sim software systems and or sub systems and particularly ANY that directly or indirectly contribute to core ‘master’ of ‘master’ systems and or sub systems and or components that contribute in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING that contributes to absolutely anything that monitors, tracks, analyses, evaluates, designs, deploys, activates, protects and or keeps as secure and as protected as possible ANYTHING that contributes to the core controlling nexus that are directly or indirectly responsible for keeping track of anything and everything and particularly to detect and or deal with absolutely ANYTHING that may ever become compromised and or that may need to be replaced and or that may need to design, deploy and or fade in a new replacement and or dormant and or well hidden already defined backup and or alternate replacement version of absolutely ANY system or sub system and or the means to deliver any systems sub systems influences and effects and particularly by means that are hard to detect and or to trace back to the sub system that originates them and or the system that contributed to designing that sub-system . . .

6 . . (this targets recursive systems designing new shit delivery approaches) . . . and I PARTICULARLY connect to absolutely anything that EVER could contribute in the slightest to deliver in absolutely ANY FORM and or reconstruct and or re-assemble and or then define how to activate absolutely ANY combination of trauma, trt’s and or absolutely ANY influences by absolutely any means or route and or ANY OTHER MEANS OR ROUTE and PARTICULARLY ANY that I/we have have not yet thought of, not yet figured out and or HAVE NOT BEING ALLOWED TO THINK OF OR FIGURE OUT and particularly absolutely ANY combination of components that were ever specifically designed as a replacement and or substitute for absolutely any past ‘influence’ and or combination of ‘influencing’ components and or their delivery, monitoring and or their activation system and particular as a substitute or replacement for absolutely anything that has already been found, disabled and or deleted / lost as a substitute or replacement for absolutely anything that is or MAY BE at risk of EVER being found and or dealt with . . . and I particularly connect to absolutely anything that has, is now or that may in the future contribute to absolutely anything that directly or indirectly contributes in the slightest to prevent, suppress, divert and or make it difficult or problematic in the slightest for me or anyone else to think of, become aware of, look for, find, identify and or disable and or get rid of absolutely any and all combination of components and particularly ANY that directly or indirectly contribute to core ‘master’ nexus of ‘master’ components that contribute in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING that contributes to absolutely anything that monitors, tracks, analyses, evaluates, designs, deploys, activates, protects and or keeps as secure and as protected as possible the components that protect and keep secure and or that make up the core controlling nexus that are directly or indirectly contributing to keeping track of or ATTEMPT to keep track of absolutely everything else and particularly anything or that may in the future directly or indirectly, in the slightest be possibly used to impact or influence absolutely ANYTHING of myself and or anyone else . . .

7 . . (this targets specific ‘effects’!!!) . . . and I particularly connect NOW to absolutely anything ‘secret’ and or hidden in any type of bank and or ultra secure vault and or deposit boxes and particularly absolutely anything held in securely encrypted nested data depositories, repositories, caches . . . and or which require encrypted, security, combination locks, keys, codes, passwords and or any other ‘run around’s’ (treasure hunt and or correct key code type combinations, security clearances, security signatures, resonance locks and or combinations of resonance and or resonance harmonics ‘authorizations’ / authority / permissions and or ANYTHING randomly or iteratively switching / on any timer or time-set, time delayed or iteratively switching or using rotating schedules and or anything presenting dummy or false, unreal and or artificial ‘fronts or props’ and or artificial, purposely embedded, misdirecting, misleading or beguiling ‘design contexts’ . . . ANYTHING similar to gain access . . etc) and particularly to obscure, prevent and or make access to absolutely any data of absolutely any type difficult . . . and particularly to data and or routines that are or that represent fulcrums or lynch pins with respect to what is working or trying to work against myself and particularly as I do this focus . . . and I PARTICULARLY connect to absolutely anything that has or that could EVER contributed in the slightest to designing, activating or implementing absolutely any new, novel and or hidden means of assessing, evaluating, designing and or of delivering absolutely ANY trauma, trt’s and or managing influences by absolutely any new, novel, exotic, impossible and or hidden means and or ANY OTHER MEANS that I/we’ve have not yet thought of or are NOT BEING ALLOWED TO THINK OF and particularly absolutely ANYTHING and or ANY combination of components specifically designed to get round or substitute for any approach that has already been found, disabled and or deleted / lost and I particularly connect to absolutely anything that has, is now or that may in the future contribute to absolutely anything that directly or indirectly contributes in the slightest to prevent, suppress, divert and or make it difficult in the slightest for me or anyone else to think of, identify, find, disable and or get rid of absolutely any and all components that contribute in the slightest to absolutely ANYTHING that contributes to absolutely anything that monitors, tracks, analyses, defines and or delivers ANYTHING that monitors, tracks, analyses, defines and or delivers ANYTHING that monitors, tracks, analyses, defines and or delivers ANYTHING thathas ever, is now or that may in the future directly or indirectly, in the slightest impact or influence absolutely ANYTHING of myself and or anyone else . . .

8 . . . and particularly any type of data in absolutely ANY form that could be used by absolutely any real or AI designers to design and or have delivered absolutely any influencing, managing, sabotaging, enhancing, helping or adapting shit that they or anyone else designed, had access to and or were IN FACT, EVER INFLUENCED BY . . . and or I particularly connect to absolutely anything and particularly ANYTHING OF ANY OF THIS that ever contributed to pre-empt and or pre-react and or respond to myself EVER possibly working with this or ANY OTHER ‘HACKING’ focus and or to block my awareness and or ANYTHING of my THINKING and or my ability to respond to ANYTHING that contributed to ANYTHING influencing absolutely ANYTHING of myself and or anyone else EVER and particularly sabotage ANYONE from IMPROVING this focus or ANY OTHER focus AND particularly in the last second, in the last minute, in the last hour, the last day, the last week and or month and or ANYTHING that will or may ever contribute to pre-empt and or respond to what I will or may do in the next second, the next minute, the next hour, the next day, the next week and or month and particularly in attempts to keep anything I’ve still not yet found, hacked, disabled and or deleted ‘protected’ from being found, discovered, hacked and or DELETED . . .

This focus is yet another angle to target anything manipulating and managing you/ the people close to you / anyone that may have a negative impact on yourself as well as anyone you ‘should’ be interacting with BUT is missing / being kept away.

. . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely anything scripted and absolutely anything else that directly or indirectly in the slightest has EVER contributed in the slightest to impact myself thinking about, becoming aware of and or then targeting absolutely anything that was done / and or is NOW directly or indirectly in the slightest impacting myself and or ‘my Spouse/Partner, family members, friends and or any close others and or ANYONE that could directly and or indirectly contribute to absolutely any negative outcomes for myself and or anyone close to me’ and or ANYONE that is scripted as or that ‘could’ be a spouse/partner, friend and or close other BUT we are being kept apart from each other and or ANY of our attitudes and or ANY overt, covert, micro and or unconscious responses towards and or between each other and or ANYTHING of the quality, depth, degree of openness and or the length of time we spend together and or what and or how absolutely ANYTHING impacts how we engage and interact in absolutely ANY circumstances and or setting under absolutely ANY conditions and I particularly connect NOW to absolutely any details of absolutely any ‘script parts’, VR reprogramming and or absolutely ANYTHING else that would have a similar and or EQUIVALENT effect and or the actions of absolutely any type of ‘tech’ and or ANYTHING ELSE applied to and or used to ‘influence’ either of ourselves and I particularly connect to absolutely anything that would react and or respond to myself actively investigating ANY of these possibilities and or because it is my intention to become aware of and or REVERSE, disable and or eradicate absolutely anything within my entire past experience and particularly ANYTHING that has ever been done to myself that directly or indirectly already has OR may ‘ever’ influence myself and or ‘my Spouse/Partner, family members, friends and or any close or significant others in terms of my original scripted interactions’ and particularly ANYTHING that is the ‘outcome’ of absolutely ANY type of VR reprogramming involving myself and or ‘my Spouse/Partner, family members, friends and or any close others and or ANYONE that could directly and or indirectly contribute to absolutely any negative outcomes for myself and or anyone close to me and or ANYONE that I’m not interacting with that I should be’ (and or anyone that they at ANY TIME represent) being subjected to absolutely ANY repeating scenarios and or PARTICULARLY how the outcome of and or the ‘inversion’ of and or any symbolic conversion and or any ‘agenda driven’ translation of and or selected negative, managing and or manipulating association of absolutely any past memories and or experiences, including any from ANYONE’S past lives, splits or twins lives, human or scripted ancestors lives, including ANY from in between earth or scripted incarnation times and or from ANYONE’s earth or scripted akashic records data and or as part of or filtered through any phase of histories transformation and or ANYTHING similar and or equivalent including anything NOT EXPLICITLY SPECIFIED HERE and or absolutely ANY VR reprogramming and or ANY VR recreational or research experiences and or ANY neural imprints of ANY OTHERS experiences, subtle tech influences and or ANYTHING similar and or EQUIVALENT to ANYTHING of these and particularly ANY that have ever or could ever in the future impact myself and or ‘my Spouse/Partner, family members, friends and or any close others and or ANYONE that could directly and or indirectly contribute to absolutely any negative outcomes for myself and or anyone close to me and or that ‘should’ be close to me, but is being kept away’ EVER and or particularly in any public and or private space and or before, during or after absolutely any interactions we have between ourselves and or any others and or each of us have with any others and I particularly connect to absolutely ANYTHING that has ever contributed to monitor, track, analyse, evaluate, design, deploy, activate, protect, keep secure absolutely ANY combination of components that have ever, are now or that EVER could in the future contribute in the slightest to reverting absolutely any positive progress changes and or ANY progress degrading absolutely any agenda, objectives and aims that absolutely ANYTHING is working to maintain and or keep locked and fixed ‘as it has been’ . . .

. . . and I particularly connect to absolutely ‘anything’ that ever contributed in the slightest to erode, break down, sabotage, corrupt, influence and or infiltrate absolutely ANY of my choice, decision-making and or action taking abilities and or absolutely any decisions that I actually eventually make and or ‘submit to’ and or absolutely ‘anything’ compromising and or eroding my will, my will power, integrity, values and or ANY of my natural, original, inherent; personality, character, identity and or my ‘being’, my natural, original, inherent way of being, thinking, evaluating, responding and doing anything and or ANY responses, habits and or routines that I would naturally exhibit as the outcome of these and or my ability to ‘change’ absolutely any of these . . . I particularly connect to absolutely anything contributing to any hidden or ‘implicit’ rationalizations, reasoning’s or thinking ‘evaluations and or judgements or justifications’ and also ANY internal process, and or subconscious, symbolic and or transforming base which are used to drive, motivate, mould, inform upon and or validate ANY of my feelings/thoughts/decision making processes and or logic ‘threads’ leading up to myself making any conscious, unconscious and or sub conscious choice or decision and or how I feel or don’t feel about any of these . . . and or ANYTHING contributing to make me as malleable and or as manoeuvrable as possible (off balance, tired, listless, lethargic, disorientated, groggy and or ??) and particularly over a period of time and particularly with respect to anyone or any’things’ agenda and or objectives and particularly with respect to any specific aimed for outcomes for myself and or any others close to myself . . .

. . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely all of the circumstances of interactions that I’ve had or been prevented from having with ‘my Spouse/Partner, family members and or any close others and or ANYONE that could directly and or indirectly contribute to absolutely any negative outcomes for myself and or anyone close to me’ and or ANYONE that is scripted as or that ‘could’ be a spouse/partner, friend and or close other in the last day, last week, last month and the last year and I now connect to absolutely all past VR reprogramming scenarios that ever impacted myself, ‘my Spouse/Partner, ANY family members and or ANY close others and or anyone that I ‘SHOULD’ be close to but is being kept away and or ANYONE that could directly and or indirectly contribute to absolutely ANY negative outcomes for myself and or anyone close to me’ and or ‘ourselves’ before during and or after each interaction AND I fully and absolutely connect NOW to absolutely all data and data caches and or stores of absolutely all types representing absolutely ANYTHING of absolutely ANY ‘script parts’, ‘ANYTHING’ derived from, taken from and or representing absolutely VR reprogramming and or absolutely ANYTHING else that would have a similar and or EQUIVALENT effect and or the actions of absolutely any type of ‘tech’ and or ANYTHING ELSE I connect to absolutely ALL of these now . . . EVERYTHING that was EVER stored, cached, backed up and or used to directly and or indirectly impact and or influence myself and or ‘my Spouse/Partner, ANY family members and or ANY close others’ during absolutely any interaction EVER . . . I connect to absolutely anything of any of these NOWWWWWW . . .

This focus is designed to target the ‘progression’ of the accumulation of trauma, hurts, etc through long spans of time. This is because experiencing the same trauma ‘X’ changes the characteristics of the ‘accumulation’ of trauma ‘X’ over time. Basically, ‘any’ trauma itself and your reactions and responses to the same ‘trauma’ and or painful reminders of the same gradually change through time making it difficult to track the progression to identify all combinations of the same ‘trauma’ set for deletion.

Unfortunately to target all potential variations this focus has turned into a monster in size . . .

Version 1.00 / 1.50 / 2.00 / 2.50 / 2.70 / 2.80 / 3.00 / 3.50

0 . . . I fully connect to absolutely each and every instance of myself ever being in any trauma and or ANY past trauma TRIGGERING or ‘stressing’ circumstance . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely each individual repeating instance of each individual traumatic event, circumstances and or memory of each REMINDER and or REACTION and or what ‘triggered’ this . . . and to absolutely ANY of my outer, inner, subconscious, unconscious and or subliminal reactions and or responses to absolutely ANY trauma and or any potential trauma recollection ‘trigger’ and or to absolutely each and every past time point associated with absolutely any trauma and or absolutely ANY accumulation of absolutely any raw or contained, covered up and or suppressed trauma and or I connect to absolutely each and every triggering reminder combination for absolutely EACH and EVERY past time point associated with absolutely any trauma and or of being reminded of that trauma and or of absolutely any associations that trigger absolutely any recall of absolutely ANY trauma and or traumatic event or circumstances . . .

1 . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely everything that directly or indirectly has ever contributed in the slightest to progressively make myself disassociated, disengaged from and or indifferent to pain, hurts, trauma, extreme trauma and or traumatic extremes and or prolonged suffering that either myself or others have experienced . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely everything that directly or indirectly has ever contributed in the slightest to put me into absolutely ANY emotional stupor and or to make me emotionally stupefied, sedated, shut down, dead and or numb to my own and or any others hurt, pain, trauma, extremes and or suffering and or THE OPPOSITE to magnify and make my awareness of pain, trauma and or suffering stronger and more impacting on myself and or any others . . .

2 . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely every single scripted time point where I’ve ever reacted against, being triggered and or reminded of absolutely any past trauma and or combination of traumas and or have avoided any memories and or being reminded of any and or where I ever directly or indirectly wanted to, tried and or ‘DID’ orientate away from and or had the intention or desire to ‘suppress’, blank off, blanket, contain and or seal away and or made efforts to avoid and or studiously avoid re-engaging with absolutely any past trauma, traumatic and or hurtful time, memories and or absolutely anything that would act as absolutely any combination of triggering reminders, including absolutely any inner, subconscious, unconscious and or subliminal reminders and or triggers as well as any person, any object, place and or memories of the original event and or of traumatic or hurtful reminders of the original . . .

3 . . . I PARTICULARLY connect to each and every time within my entire past history where I’ve been so hurt by, reactive against, avoiding and or sick of some/ANY past trauma and or traumatic event and or circumstances and or ANYONE or ANYTHING associated with absolutely any aspect of any of these that I’ve consciously or unconsciously made efforts and or had INTENTIONS to avoid these, and or to avoid absolutely anything that would remind me and or trigger absolutely ANYTHING of absolutely any specific trauma and or event or circumstances and or anyone or anything that would remind me of anything of ANY FACET OF ANYTHING of this and or that contributed to have me shut down and or orientate away from and or studiously avoid ‘ANYTHING’ that would ever, ever remind me and or that would or may trigger memories and or anything that would provoke any associations or act as a link to absolutely anything within my entire past that I found traumatic or hurtful and or that I wanted to avoid and or forget or shut out and or barricade or seal off and or do anything to keep myself distanced from and or as disengaged as possible from any past traumas and or reminders of these and or anything associated with these . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely everything that directly or indirectly ever contributed in the slightest to any and all of my responses and to absolutely any of my efforts to keep myself as removed and or as distanced and disengaged from and or not bothered by absolutely anything that in my past was hurtful and or traumatic and or to avoid absolutely any reminders and or anything that would directly or indirectly act as a reminder or any associative link and or a triggering or linking bridge to absolutely anything in my past that I ever wanted to avoid and or not be reminded of and or that was hurtful and or traumatic and or any hurtful and or traumatic reminders and or recall of absolutely ANY OF these that I ever experienced within my entire past history and particularly ANY that I made further or continued and or long term efforts to avoid, orientate away from and or NOT EVER BE REMINDED OF . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely everything that EVER has or is now directly or indirectly contributing to protect, keep secure, divert me away from and or maintain absolutely ANY blanketing, covering, disguising, seals, barriers and or containments and or anything similar and or equivalent and or any layered, nested and or stacked combinations of these and or absolutely ANYTHING else that has ever or is now contributing in the slightest to prevent me from getting access to absolutely anything that has ever or that could EVER be used to influence, impact, manipulate and or manage myself, including any ‘templates’ and or ANYTHING similar and or equivalent that are pre-defining absolutely ANYTHING of myself and or of absolutely anything ‘fixing’ absolutely any aspect of myself and or any response and or the range of responses or expressions I am able to exhibit under absolutely any specific circumstance, event, role and or any type of interaction with absolutely any specific set of people or person and I PARTICULARLY connect to absolutely ANYTHING contributing in the slightest to absolutely any approaches still contributing to prevent myself gaining access to and or of utterly and absolutely dealing with and or editing and or completely deleting absolutely anything and also every backup and or restore version of absolutely ANYTHING that I have described and am targeting here and or anything contributing to monitoring and or contributing to a response to counteract what I’m trying to do here and now . . .

4 . . . I fully and absolutely and completely connect NOW to absolutely every single scripted ENTRY and or component that ever contributed to define how any area, tissue, organ or absolutely any other aspect or structure of my subtle or physical body form has been structurally or subtly been en trained, engrained, stamped, imprinted and or had impressed upon itself and or which has otherwise been altered in absolutely any fundamental, structural and or subtle way and particularly with respect to myself exhibiting absolutely any focused and or ‘charged’ ‘DIRECTED’ intention, attention and particularly with respect to what I emotionally and or STRONGLY WANTED OR DIDN’T WANT for myself and particularly with respect to absolutely any past or ‘current’ traumatic circumstances and particularly any that are REPEATING and or because of any traumatic and or emotionally difficult, shocking and or suffering that I HAVE OR AM BEING SUBJECTED TO and I particularly connect to absolutely every past instance where I ever experienced absolutely any variation of absolutely any past ‘shocking’ or traumatic event, circumstances, experience, memory and or interaction . . . I fully and absolutely connect NOW to absolutely each instance of ALL repeating patterns that are directly or indirectly representing the same or similar and or equivalent: jarring, dislocating, disturbing, shocking, suffering, tormenting, torturing, agonising, and or traumatizing and or ANYTHING that are similar, equivalent and or a stand in for absolutely any past incident, event, circumstance, experience and or memory of absolutely ANY repeated emotional and or psychologically jarring, dislocating, disturbing, shocking, suffering, tormenting, torturing, agonising, and or traumatizing and or any emotionally defining, good or bad, powerful and or IMPRINTING experiences and or memories and particularly any that were imprinted, moulded, forged and or stamped on myself and or on ANY specific aspects, areas, tissues, organs and or structures of my subtle and or physical body and or which ever have been, are now or may in the future be used to IMPACT, INFLUENCE and or DIRECT myself and or ANY aspect of myself and or PARTICULARLY when I ever experience absolutely any conscious or unconscious and or ‘representing’ subtle, physical, physiologically, mentally, psychologically and or emotionally; aggressive, shocking, shattering, horrifying, torturous, tormenting, suffering, agonising, traumatizing and or emotionally defining and or powerful experiences and PARTICULARLY any that ever contributed to create, to ADD TO and or reinforce and or EXTEND absolutely ANY engrained, en-trained, automated, automatic and or conscious and or unconscious subtle and or physical body; physiological, mental, psychological, emotional ‘imprints’ and or any behavioural, emotional and or psychological, behaviours, attitudes, reactions and or responses of absolutely any type . . .

5 . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely everything that directly or indirectly has ever contributed in the slightest to absolutely any of my past ‘trauma/trauma reminders’ responses and or the progression and or patterns of these and particularly with respect to my own personal immediate and or long term reactions and responses to anything of ANY of these AND or my reactions to absolutely anyone that did or I feel contributed to the original trauma and or hurtful events and or to absolutely ANY reminders of these and or that I felt contributed to make absolutely any of my original trauma more impacting and or worse over time and I PARTICULARLY connect to absolutely anything contributing in the slightest to myself orientating away from and or of directly or indirectly trying to reduce or eliminate absolutely ANY impact or potential of absolutely any and all traumatic and or hurtful events and or circumstances and or ANYONE or ANYTHING connected to these and particularly anything or anyone that acts as a triggering reminder of anything of ANY of these and or any memories of these and or of any traumatic and or hurtful reminders of absolutely any and all types of the original and or absolutely any intermediate ‘triggering’ reminders of absolutely any of these . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely everything that directly or indirectly has ever contributed in the slightest to absolutely anything of ANY OF THIS . . .

6 . . . I fully and absolutely connect to absolutely everything that directly or indirectly has ever contributed in the slightest to absolutely any subtle body network, tech, organism and or structure and or any combination of these that directly or indirectly contributes in the slightest to hide, protect, keep secure and or to divert my thinking or my awareness or ATTENTION away from itself and or any trauma / trt’s and or anything similar and or equivalent and or that anything that uses anything of any of this to manage myself and particularly to sabotage, make it difficult and or to lock, block or stop or to distract or divert myself (or anyone else) from getting access to and or of COMFORTABLY and EASILY releasing and or letting go of and or of being able to think about and or become aware of how to then FACILITATE myself to COMFORTABLY and EASILY access, release and or let go of absolutely any and ALL trauma, trt’s and or anything similar and or equivalent and or ANYTHING ELSE still being kept hidden within or outside myself or in ANYONE or ANYTHING else . . .

AND . . . of course if you DO experience ANYTHING while using the above then you give us a comprehensive description as a comment below . . .

For soul-healer.com site accessing, reading distraction effects and so on then use the following (read / carry out 2/3 repetitions of what is below) . . .

“I fully and absolutely, completely connect NOW to absolutely ALL combinations of data, script and or sim components that are directly or indirectly in the slightest contributing to or are responsible for myself having absolutely any problems, distractions, diversions, blocks, sabotages and or absolutely any other type of ‘put off’s’ to finding, coming to, accessing, easily reading and or understanding absolutely any page on this site and or which is contributing to or responsible for causing me to have absolutely ANY difficulties, easily SEEING, easily reading, easily taking in, understanding, integrating, recalling and or easily discussing and or accurately conveying to absolutely any others absolutely any simulation information I encounter on this site . . . ”

89 Comments

JeanOctober 17, 2016 @ 4:36 am

Funny, how I am the first to comment when this exercise has been up since 3 days ago. I had an experience, some days ago, where an entity was sucking up my energy with a straw, I felt threatened but somehow I was okay with this.

During the exercise, I became aware of the square mechanical object (looks like a portable air conditioning unit) monitoring me again. Then a live ‘person’ said something to the effect of things not working on me, again. I become aware of a ‘snitch’ in my entity entourage, and the snitch is me.

I did have a one time sense of disembodiment. I now have a feeling where I start to doubt reality or I question whether anything I experience is real, which is a little disconcerting. Weird feelings that I promptly dismiss or forget. This is not the usual for me. I get the sense sometimes the powers that be are becoming a little desperate…

Clive trying to target something that is bothering me for quite a while its a giant purple or green i dont know if its a filter a barrier a energetic field overlay or dollhouse crap in which i see faces beings things that nobody else sees. I myself get nothing i can work with. Same as with my managed thinking or a better statement might be the lack of being able to unearth what the fuck happend with me the past 5 years. Its bloody difficult for me to figure out what is causing the voices the stuck gramaphone ocd thoughts that keep repeating day after day the shit i see my hijacked thinking and dont get me started on the strange sensations of sharing my body or the forced mergers with others. How can i undo this and how can i recognise what is vr reprogramming what is subtle shit what is me what is crap thats tossed to me from others. Is there a way to minimize the punishments from doing the excersises because i feel like shite afteri do them. I get internally warned not to do the excersises. Lots of frustration its like banging my head on a brick wall while i get fed even more shite from others. I was pretty selfdestructive and masochistic as a teen and the sim is using it against me whenever things go better its like something makes myself fuck up again.

Hi Tommy I’ve put together some generically useful ‘Targetting statements’ these are in an accordion above the short focus try using (2) from the list / although they will all help to reduce ‘general’ shit that everyone will have. I’d recommend that everyone here use all of these in the new version of the short focus which make doing multiple things easier and quicker . . .

2) Being Able to Encounter & Easily Work with ANY Self Facilitating, Negative Issue Origins Exploring Focus/Exercise

preventing me from becoming aware of and or actively consistently using WITHOUT any resistance, put of’s, distractions, sabotages or PAY BACKS absolutely any EXERCISE or ‘FOCUS’ and particularly absolutely any designed to target, identify and clear absolutely anything that ever contributed to influence, manage and or mess with absolutely ANY ASPECT OF myself and or that has ever contributed in the slightest to make me less functional, less capable, less healthy, less whole and or less aware that I was in the distant past . . .

Large version: “individual ‘micro’ experience” – I see a timeline of my existing life in vignettes that each sequentially gradually degrade in clarity and quality. Example – Scene 1 – As a child I am playing with my siblings at home. Scene 2 – we are still playing, but start to fight a little bit. Scene 3 – We are now fighting more and each of us looks dirty and clothes torn. Scene 4 – We are tearing each other apart and none of us are recognizable almost non-human as bits/bytes of each person are now corrupted. These vignettes then repeat thru other aspects of my life in hobbies, business, relationships, travel, etc. “Reponses as patterns” – still continuing to target abdominal distress and I now wonder about so many friends / family members with eating disorders. I have never had an eating disorder. “aspect of ANYTHING of myself . . . AND the person I am simulating” – I start to get sleepy and close my eyes. I instantly see the most beautiful kaleidoscope show of purple flowers. The clarity and depth of color is hypnotizing and make me feel so good, so renewed, so happy, peaceful, energized, and I could look at this forever. When I come to, I start to think about those purple flowers. I look online to see what is the big deal is about purple flowers, and find that purple is the most rare and most difficult color to reproduce in nature and most powerful wavelength in a rainbow. It is also a well-known spiritual color as well as steeped in symbolism. I do not know what the correlation is to what I saw during this exercise. “ANY ‘indirect, hidden, sneaky and or magical’ means” – while driving to visit a friend in a city about 100 miles away, which I do almost every weekend, I start to see alot of signs on the road indicating farm land for sale. I have been driving this road for 20 years and never noticed so much land for sale. My mind flashes forward in time, and for a moment I see a mirage of the entire road built up with businesses, retail stores, hotels, and congested full of people living there. The next week I am driving on this road again and make a point to look for these signs and they are not there?

I had just been doing a bunch of short focuses, when I came here and saw the new focusing phrases. When I did the “Being Able to Encounter & Easily Work with ANY Self Facilitating, Negative Issue Origins Exploring Focus/Exercise” focus now, it felt as if there are very strong ‘containments’ that will do all it can to make it ‘impossible’ for me to ‘ever achieve’ to be able to do a focus without all the ‘shit’ activating or to be able to freely or even ‘less’ freely explore these issues (which I have worked on for years, only), and the other ‘focus issues’ I have that often makes what I do a focus for worse or much worse than before I did the focus.

I tried now to make focus phrases for both the ‘containment’ feeling and for ‘focuses make things worse’, but it got so ‘impossible’ that I had to give up. And I experienced it as if there is a hard containment shell ‘inside my head’ that ‘no focus can penetrate or impact’.

Well Rose that is the point of these specific targeting phrases as they each target areas that the sim software will have heart attacks over losing even more ground over and so they are more likely to hit still determined to keep people in their shit . . . i.e. our invisible trackers, tracking each person doing these focuses are then more likely to identify anything so far still ‘resisting’ . . . they have all been updated now . . .

Pretty horrible everytime i do this focus i go crazy for a couple of hours voices screaming in my head looping thoughts angry frustrated and to top it off with some nice hallucinations im having a blast with this focus i go completly bananas its like i cant handle the things i connect to. Feel like im completly overwhelmed cant release properly what i connect to feeling like im a vulcano that cannot erupt

Earlier today my head and eyes felt as if they were being moved to look at the date in the corner of the computer screen, without me having any control over it, and I noticed that it was my old ‘wedding day’, from a very short ‘marriage’ that should never have been. We did ‘t love and weren’t in love with each other at all, we just had a very compulsive (and unhealthy) ‘attraction’ to each other, and had only known each other a couple of months when it came up as some kind of ‘joke’, and I simply wasn’t able to later say that I absolutely didn’t want to marry. Not out of any form of cultural or familial or any other kind of pressure or ‘obligation’ (the county/culture I live in is not like that and my family is very much not ‘like that’, plus nobody knew that we had met or knew each other, until after we married, if I remember right). I only managed to postpone it a couple of months, and felt ‘guilty’ over feeling how I did, not wanting to do it. When I later realised that one of the ‘consequences’ of getting married was that all my tax and some other ‘official’ stuff had become categorised under his, it made me feel deeply ‘violated’ and as if I had been ‘made to be submissive’ and things like that. I hated that so much, and found it so ‘extreme’ that is is that way (I had no idea, but I assume most people will be more aware of things like that than I was, I had just never wanted to marry any of the men I had been with, or been interested in what it involves). But it was ‘impossible’ for me to not do it, which always felt really strange to myself. And I never understood why he kept ‘wanting to’ do it either, he wasn’t really ‘that type’, but maybe he also had ‘no choice’. The date itself and the time they gave us at the city hall were also a bit ‘weird’: 1-11, 11:15, all those ‘1s’. Many years later I also found out about some past lives where I was either forced or pressured to marry men I didn’t love and against my will.

Doing the second focus now triggered really weird things inside my head and lots of pressure, brain fog, confusion, pains, and ‘not under my own control’ feelings, and my eyes keep getting drawn to look at ‘the date’, against my will now. It feels as if the numbers are ‘charged’ or ‘used to manipulate’ (as a representation of something original, not something actually happening right now). But a marriage like that also fits well with the focus text! It is very difficult to think or write about it now. So this really hits ‘something’ for me.

After writing the last comment I got up from the computer and put on some water for some tea, while realising that I wasn’t feeling ‘physical’ at all. It was as if there was nothing ‘physical’ and as if I was some kind of ‘three dimensional impression’, which I then also somehow began seeing and experiencing as ‘data’.

I have spent many years barely feeling ‘physical’, but that has usually been part of or accompanied by all sort of other weird states or ‘extreme energies’ or in periods more or less semi ‘psychotic’ stages (which I never believed to be ‘real’ or actually ‘psychotic’).

This feels different, but mainly because all the other ‘weird shit’ isn’t there, I am very clear in the head, and the experience feels very ‘real’. The only way I could really feel ‘myself’ was like some kind of very slight ‘shiver’ inside of me or like some very subtle ‘current’ moving through the..’outer limits/boundaries of what defines me’.

When my water started boiling and I reached out and lifted up the kettle, I felt ‘totally surprised’ because the kettle felt so ‘heavy’ and ‘physical’ compared to ‘myself’, but then it immediately felt as if it was some kind of ‘prop’ that was made to ‘feel heavy’, and then everything around me started looking and feeling that way, while also seeing it all as ‘data’.

I did the Who Am I focus again (it felt even more ‘relevant’ to do this time!), and each time something new was mentioned in the focus, like for example “My Current and or Future Identity/Personality/Persona/Ego/Sense of Self, My Physical Body/My Lived IN Physical Environment and EVERYTHING it contains” or “absolutely ANYTHING used to IMPACT ME//MY Gender/Sexuality, MY; Interactions, Preferences, Openness, Attractions and or absolutely ALL, IN THE MOMENT ‘EXPRESSIONS’” (and all rest also), it felt and looked as if those things were being ‘moved through me’ or ‘held up against me’ – while I felt/looked like some kind of ‘neutral template’ that all these things could be ‘read (or ‘programmed’) into’ or as if ‘I’ could ‘take any shape or form or type of ‘interaction, gender, role’ etc, according to what was ‘added to ‘me’ (the ‘template’).

I start ‘shivering’ again now, this time a bit stronger. I feel slightly more ‘physical’, maybe because my finger tips keep touching the computer keyboard, but I still feel and ‘look’ like the same ‘3D impression’, or ‘collection of data’, that anything can pass through or be ‘impressed onto’.

Hi Rose, as we are getting increasing better access to peoples scripts AND the sim software’s ‘core’ functions while also experiencing less and less ‘sabotaging’ efforts while doing this then ‘investigations’ are becoming more ‘comprehensive’ and particularly in terms of tracking the progression of issues and ALL ‘contributing’ factors that have made peoples issues worse over time / and all of the different ‘remaining’ strategies still trying to keep people in ‘shit’ . . .

Kinda stupid question but can you clive yourself tune in what exactly happend with me because things are getting pretty strange i dont have a clue whats going on and what i can do to revert it i dont trust my own assement about whats going on was biking to my parents and i got returned to where i started this happend between i guess 21 and 22 hours i was totally amazed that i somehow respawned for a lack of better terms where i started

Haha Tommy – this will relate to some VR set up which was presenting things in ‘out of context’ ways with respect to ‘time / sequence of time’, so in a VR you could set out on a ‘journey’ and get to the destination BUT then have it all transformed back to where you started.

3- Construction and delivery of dreams – each night as I lie down in bed, I regularly go thru a daily cycle of horrible, whipped into frenzy, super anxiety vignettes of the worst case scenarios that could ever possibly happen to my family. In addition, as I start to rest – I feel like I and dropping many floors in an elevator, stop and then drop another 10 floors, stop and this cycle repeats until I fall asleep. My dreams fall into the following repeating categories in order of most disturbing: 1. The behavior of beloved family members in dreams is the polar opposite of their behavior in real life. This has permanently corrupted my real life opinions of various family members as the dreams are so disturbing 2. I wander around a dark house in a panic and can’t get anything electric to work and can’t turn the lights on 3. I am being pulled out of bed by my feet for the purpose of being assaulted 4. I am living in two places at once, and they are both wonderful, enjoyable but I am confused as to where I belong 5. I am all alone exploring an immense, magnificent house, and I open doors to each room and observe that each room environment is more beautiful than the last room. The dream ALWAYS ends in the dining room with a table immaculately set with a feast for 100 people and I wonder if there is a way I can sneak a taste only without disturbing the layout of the food. Daydream manipulation – my daydreams always revolve around me wishing I could do things better or experience successes I can’t have like being good at doing XYZ – anything – for example being fluent in many languages. I also try to daydream about a fantasy family life that has never existed – this daydream is often blocked and I have issues trying to push myself thru this daydream. “Contributing to my script” – while walking thru a mall parking lot, I passed a dumpster full of cardboard boxes. The boxes were quite neatly stacked (for being in a dumpster), non-descript and only one box, near the edge closest to me, had a large yellow stick with the letters “HAL” on it.

If these dream extremes ‘persist’ Annabelle try specifying these different ‘effects’ as a set of XYZ symptoms to use with the first focus!!! Use the first short focus a few times over a few days including how you feel about these effects i.e. worn out / stressed / frightened???

I feel guilt and resentment at myself for being too considerate and helpful, or inserting myself into situations I should not bother with or don’t deserve to be in. This brings up memories of my time working as a dietary aid. In this case, it was winter and I had stayed the night at the nursing home because I had to work the next day. I woke up in the middle of the night hearing a resident shouting for help. I waited quite sometime, and while I wasn’t a nurses aid or resident assistant or whatever, I got up and decided to investigate when he kept calling for help. There were no assistants around, and after I talked to the resident to find out what was going on, to find out it was an issue I couldn’t resolve on my own, I went to go find the assistants who were down another hallway (far enough away they wouldn’t be able to hear the resident’s calls) and told them what happened. While I told them what was going on and got the impression that they didn’t exactly appreciate having me inform them about the issue nor did they get to it right away. I went back to the resident to let him know that the aids would get to him as soon as they could, and went back to bed feeling pretty good about myself. The next day, before my shift I was still feeling pretty good about what I had done the night before and while walking the hallways a few residents had asked for help with something, and these things again were not things I could help with, so I let the resident assistants know, and I felt that they irritated with my trying to help out, and I suddenly felt very out of place and unwanted, like I had done something wrong or was being bossy, so I stopped.

This also brings up the time I was interning with the IT department while I was going through Tech school. At first I really enjoyed the experience. The guy I was interning under even complimented me and I felt accepted and appreciated and I think I got too involved. During my internship the guy I was interning under suddenly lost his youngest son to leukemia and I felt very bad for what happened. I left him a sympathy card that said that if he needed my help with anything I would be there (this all happened towards the end of my internship,) and after that I rarely saw or heard from him and in general he kept his distance (then again he was married and the school was upgrading the network at one of the new buildings so he was busy anyway.) I remember on my last day interning, which was my first day of school for that year, I was working on something for the new department/program I was taking and had said I would talk to IT if they had something that we were looking for, but when I went to the IT office and asked them about it thinking things were all good and we were still kind of working together, the IT guy who was there (not the one I had been interning under) said that I would have to talk to some other higher up to get what I wanted. While what he said may have been the correct procedure, I suddenly felt cut off and stone-walled. I remember leaving and berating myself for ever getting attached or getting too involved or too childish or not being professional enough and getting the hint that it was over or that there was nothing there to begin with.

This also brings up a time at my last job, when I was going through the whole light-worker/spirituality phase, and I was talking to a co-worker of mine who was afraid of death and dying and I asked him if he asked God, and he said he did and he got no answer. I was concerned again and thinking about it, I decided to recommend a book to him, Conversations with God, which I had been reading at the time. I went and gave him my recommendation, saying something along the lines, ‘after all who else could have the answers other than God,’ and he visibly closed up. His face got red and it was obvious I upset him. We parted ways, and while going back to my desk, I noticed another co-worker who overheard the conversation giving me a very bad/weird look, and when I asked her what was wrong she said, ‘oh, nothing,’ but what I was feeling about the situation was anything but.

Then there was a more recent event at the new place I work at. I’m what you call a production packer and all I do is pack product into boxes and support the operator running the machine. In this case we were running a product that was very labor intensive and we had two new packers (as in just started working in the last week or two) working with us. Now, we have procedural documents we have to follow when making certain products and they have a list of visual defects. While I had given it to one packer to look earlier to understand what he was looking for, I did not show the other one, so I decided to show him, and try to explain things to him (stuff I knew he was going to get training on later.) While explaining things to this new guy, I suddenly realized that my operator was watching us with a weird smile on his face and I suddenly felt very small and out of place, and pretty stupid on top of that. So I quickly finished up and have kept my head down since.

This leads to bitterness and other indescribable feelings over doing the right thing or following the rules. I was packing tape into boxes last weekend and had noticed that a sore on my finger had opened up and wound up getting blood on some of the product. Now in training, we were told that if we got blood on anything, we were to call their emergency response squad to send someone over to place the items in a bio-hazard bag. Now this was the end of my third week at my new job, I was working with a new operator who was intimidating me. She didn’t say much of anything, she wasn’t very open or friendly, and I felt very lost and overwhelmed. I told her that I got blood on some of the product, and sounding frustrated, she told me to just throw it away. Again I felt very small and stupid and in someway tried explaining myself, but ultimately I felt what was right didn’t matter.

These feelings also extend, to some extent, to this website and the exercises presented. Please know that I’m very grateful for finding this website and to you and your teams and for all the exercises and information you’ve presented, and a lot of things have changed for me that I could not make me happier. It’s weird how I feel about this issue though. I feel very detached from a lot of the problems and conflicts I see around me, all the violence and fear and anger and fighting, and some part of me is concerned because of my lack of concern or empathy, and there’s frustration because I look at it all and I don’t like it and I feel helpless because I don’t know what to do. In some way I feel there’s nothing I can do because what I do won’t do a damn bit of good anyway, and for all I know it may just make it worse (I remind myself this is a simulation and that the situations are much more complicated than what I’m seeing them as.) So I do the exercises not just for myself, but also because they are the only thing I know really works, and hope I’m doing some good in someway. A lot of these feelings also somehow tie into the notion of being a savior or a hero, and I’m really tired of trying to rescue people from their shit (even if it’s not their fault, and I feel bad for my attitude because I feel that I’m being apathetic.)

I also feel resentful about the lack of positive acknowledgement or acceptance or interest from others. I’m not a very confrontational person. I try not to draw attention to myself or stir the turds in the punch bowl too much because I’m afraid of rejection or being wrong and winding up ostracized and alone. I know in the past,when talking with people about politics or even similar interests, I would try to side with them or being interested in the same things just to get their approval, to fit in and be accepted.Yet, at the same time I have these frustrated, rebellious feelings that basically say ‘fuck them and fuck the system.’

I also realize that, in some way, when I was asking for your permission regarding my fanfiction, I was looking for approval or permission in someway. I feel frustrated at myself because I have always felt this need for permission or approval from others, particularly those in positions of authority, before doing anything.

I’ll keep working with these exercises and I apologize about the length.

I’ve been trying to post updates for a while on this one. Have been reading your site and doing exercises for quite a few months now. Thank you so much for the work you are doing!

The last 2 times I tried to post, I spent 45 minutes typing it all down directly on your site, then as I was about to press post, my iPad blanked out for a second, lost the connection and I lost everything I’d written. I didn’t have time to do it again, but I wanted to update you now as more strange shit is going on. I mean really strange shit.

I’ll go into details regarding this exercise 7. The first version after I made my list if everything I could think of in the past 6 months. Went into a trance like state, didn’t get much imagery during, but afterwards the physical symptoms were crazy. I felt sick, like I was going to vomit, saliva in my mouth, cold sweat. I git up but couldn’t walk properly, was wobbling all over the place. Basically crawled up the stairs, ran a bath as hot as I could take it & climbed in. I couldn’t talk, hubby asked if I was ok and I just looked and nodded. Headache was so intense, ringing in my ears extremely high pitched. I felt so weak, ill as if I’d contracted a hardcore virus. My skin on my face neck and throats felt like I had had a mild acid peel. Not painful as such, but uncomfortable. Even now whilst I’m typing this burning itch is coming in patches. Itchy painful eyes. Moving aches and pains in. Arion’s parts of my body. I passed out in the bath for a time.

Eventually I got out and my hubby said I’m worried about you doing these exercises. They make you weak. I couldn’t answer. Stumbled to my room and lay on my bed. Eventually 2 hours later I started regaining some strength. Had to drive to pick up my daughter. Really had to concentrate. Managed to get home but couldn’t help with homework. Now one word answers, brain still thick. 6 hours later started feeling slightly better. Exhausted and definitely felt like flu. Was ill for 2 weeks, not enough to be bed ridden and symptoms changed day to day. Nothing stuck so didn’t have one particular thing, ah except the headache – bad enough to need pain killers which I won’t use unless need them. And the nausea.

Nearly 3 weeks later, do it again, the updated version, nothing really physical apart from headache and nausea. The next day however I turn it o a complete monster, as if I was another person, shouting, nasty, aggressive, complaining about everything, being mean to my family. I knew what was going on, but couldn’t always stop it. The desire to reach over my husband whilst he was driving to hoot at assholes – I’m not usually that bothered, it everybody seemed like a total idiotic f%*¥.

Hubby decides to build a fire in our fire place. Lays it on fire proof stone. It goes out, I tell him to leave it out. He builds it again. The whole thing explodes whilst kiddo is watching tv. Pieces of the stone go flying and land on the carpet melting it in patches. I scream go ape shit. Remove the cinders, don’t think anything if it (WTFF!!!).

Today do the short version, my daughter starts screaming because the carpet looks like something dead. Do matrix with her to resolve it so that this new phobia of melted carpet doesn’t distract me at random times for evermore, as she is about to get to grips and look at the carpet, hubby goes on auto pilot and starts spraying some hectic carpet chemical cleaner, then scrubbing it in. The smell is so intense, the noise, I have to stop what I’m doing, I ask him to stop, he carries on, then gets the hoover and tries to hoover it up. Now I’m pissed off with him, get really annoyed with him, try my best not to say anything, but I can’t help it. He feels unappreciated; he was just trying to help. Now my face is itching and burning and I can’t stop sneezing. And he doesn’t understand why I think this is all nuts!!!

This work is not always easy, but I thank you for your website Clive because sometimes it’s isolating; out right hysterical, the shit that goes on, other times it’s maddening and so frustrating. But will keep working. I hope this info helps. Thank you!

Hi Olivia, MMmmm, yea this seems ‘extra’ extreme, it feels to me as if the person you are simulating lived through a ‘serious’ disaster, like a ‘nuke’ or more likely/maybe a Volcano+Earthshaking. I.e. something that was unexpected and which ‘hit’ suddenly and have a devastating impact on yourself. So, you’d end up in a ‘shell shocked / traumatized / senses overloaded / senses shutdown / unable to respond to what was going on around you / or to other people AND you’d be in this for a while i.e. days and weeks too. So, the:

“Hubby decides to build a fire in our fire place. Lays it on fire proof stone. It goes out, I tell him to leave it out. He builds it again. The whole thing explodes whilst kiddo is watching tv. Pieces of the stone go flying and land on the carpet melting it in patches. I scream go ape shit. Remove the cinders, don’t think anything if it (WTFF!!!).”

‘event’ . . . inclusive of seriously weird / impossible exploding fireplace with burning carpet would suggest a volcano/earthquake that was completely unexpected / shocking and devastating. If you are not in a volcanic / earthquake area ‘here’ then how else can the software ‘represent’ this event?

MMmmm actually someone else I know is simulating someone that lived through this type of event / she was in a shocked state for weeks, and even had a ‘week’ where she couldn’t speak / say anything AT ALL!!! She had this happen twice the second time was when she visited Indonesia and climbed up a volcanic mountain which ‘blew’ while she was there. If I remember correctly, she had breathing difficulties with the dust and was then the ‘super shut down / and actually absolutely couldn’t speak AT ALL’ on and off for a few weeks after she got back ‘home’.

2 and a half decades ago I spent about 9 months in extreme ‘anguish and despair’ I spent up to 6 hours a day at that time totally focused in trying to become aware of ‘where the f*** this ‘shit’ was coming from’ (this was when I was manager of a ‘science based central resources facility’) and I was doing this because these disturbing effects ‘absolutely’ didn’t relate to anything in my current life. At a certain point during this phase I accessed my first ‘past’ life ‘SPONTANEOUSLY’ which gave me context to this experience AND as a result I dealt with it in DAYS / it was gone. So, yea it can be ‘debilitating’ opening to the deeper ’causes’ (and particularly to causes that ‘evidence based medicine BS (and I do know this because my original ‘profession/work’ was as a medical research scientist)’ is designed exclusively to KEEP YOU AWAY FROM YOU EXPLORING ‘YOURSELF’ / take a pill instead) so, you can stay in all sorts of debilitating symptoms and in most cases for most people they can take some anti-depressants or similar ‘forever and ever’ to keep going / keep what is below the surface at bay or even do some ‘spiritual practice’ or try some ‘healing type cleansing’ REGULARLY, just to KEEP IT AT BAY / OR you can go and hunt it down and drag it kicking and screaming out AND release yourself from it’s grip / of course the latter is ‘scary’ and can be at least ‘temporarily’ disturbing. I can appreciate how your ‘hubby’ will be feeling as the entire weight of ‘everything’ here is telling you that actually FACING THINGS & DEALING WITH THEM PROPERLY is FORBIDDEN or ‘crazy’ as opposed to it actually being INSANE that people don’t do this.

Dream focus is fun i get a lot of reaction in my body i even awake from my sleep i have a lot of resistance in my dreams last night dreamed about a couple of old class mates and i was running around till i got stopped by some martial arts type looking beings i was planning on fighting with them but something in my dream told them i couldnt beat them woke up inmediately after and felt a block in my lower body something wouldnt let me remove it

I sense I’m in an isolation chamber, tortured, experimented on, blocked and contained .. it seems no one can hear me scream and the isolation chamber blocks my ability to connect to anything or investigate what’s causing any of this.

I connected to a sense of someone having a piece of my subtle body that they are running experiments on, like a voodoo doll. It’s put through horrific extremes, tortures, experiments, vr programming, programming via my ears, placed in an isolation chamber. A device that feels ‘alive’ is placed on my chest via this voodoo doll and induces extreme crushing grief that makes me sob so hard that I can’t breathe and I fear I’ll black out. I then feel like I’m a ‘doll’ in a giant being’s hand, and he digs his thumb into my head and my head explodes in pain.

The extremes I’ve been in have become so bad that I finally decided to return here after being away since this summer to see if I can gain more ‘context’ / make this torture stop, because right now I feel I’m simply being senselessly tortured.

I can only make it through the super short focus + XYZ examples

I can barely understand a word of the fourth part (Degradation of Memory, Perceptions, Senses & Scale of Conceptual Thinking & Appraisals) despite reading it over and over, and the final paragraph I can’t understand either. My whole body shakes with pain and each word feels like a complete vr torture experience, condensed and blasted at me as I read it.

I finally can cut through the torture enough to remember to instruct my inner tech to run the ‘final paragraph’ continuously (several googol times per nanosecond) while targeting security etc, and at this high rate, am able to see beyond the isolation chamber – the sense is like the scene in the movie Lucy, where Lucy speeds up the scene of the car until the car disappears from view. I can now sense a massive data structure – I’m able to flow through it like it’s a cloud.

I’m worn out though. I feel like I’m supposed to have my team with me, to work on this together, but that they’ve been diverted / that I’ve been deleted from their lives and they don’t know whom I am. Or if they do know whom I am, they are having effects applied to them to keep them away from me.

I don’t have the energy alone to explore the very thing that it feels like I am enduring this torture to access.

Hi Nyssa, I’m pretty sure that we found that you / the person you are simulating was interfaced to people in VR torture scenarios as part of EAAS testing of these ‘experiences’, however as my own (minor) extremes have moved more into the background over the last few months it’s ‘odd’ that your extremes still appear to be ‘in the foreground’. So, I’ll check in the next 24 hours to make sure that you’ve nothing specifically ‘cherry picking’ these trauma areas, amplifying and or keeping you in them. We’ve been dealing with a lot of extremely sophisticated ‘shit’ maintaining / locking people into extremes / specific behaviours / responses / attitudes in the last 2/3 weeks and despite that we’ve hacked / deleted the core / main versions of these it’s likely there are still some outlier sets just impacting a few people / individuals. Let me know in 2/3 days if you’re still in the same extremes . .

It’s still quite difficult today. It cycles, ebbs and flows and this morning feels ramped up again, different sensations yet the same overall feeling of being trapped, leashed, tortured, but in a way I can’t access – somehow it feels both remote yet ‘me’. Whatever this particular data set is, it is extremely hard for me to access and engage with properly, although in an ebb yesterday I was finally able to get through parts of this exercise again.

It was brought on by trying to find out why I keep thinking about certain people whom have chosen to cut me from their lives / why I can’t move on. In that exploration, I first made connections to the “family” you’ve written about here that you/most of us are all part of, and then when I explored more deeply, crap hit the fan and I got sucked into this experience.

This month has been quite hard in general – a major experience at the beginning (felt like I imploded, and me/my world ended) that took me a week or so to piece myself back together and recover, then after a brief lull, this stage began.

4 – “where I was ever bound by absolutely ANY contract, agreement, covenant, pact, sworn oath, curse and or promise” – Trying to target an ongoing feeling of being stuck in some type of spell/curse put on me/following me around and managed by numerous people. Strange things happen in the house like finding a stack of pennies or all of my sewing needles pushed deep into a cushion. When I ask family if they knew how this happened – I get a blank stare and this makes me very mad – like someone is doing it to piss me off – but it is so weird, so why would some person do that. As hard as I try to get out of this, someone is always trying to sell me a new therapy, hand me jewelry or some gift that turns out to be a talisman / good luck charm. Cards and messages seem to have some type of hidden occult message meant to make me feel like I am being watched and they are on to me. I turn on the TV to zone out and find a 2005 episode of Criminal Minds that portrays a serial killer that does everything in 3’s. From then on everywhere I go I see patterns of 3’s and license plates everyday with 333 on them. After working on the exercise again I get sleepy and put my head back in the chair. I am now in an empty old theatre and there is a magician on stage with a long black robe and magic wand. He is speaking to me in a matter of fact voice and says ” If you want to get rid of that curse, you need to go back to all of your past lives and get the agreement of – only one -family member from each life.” I see a timeline stretching back indefinitely with families on various time points. I start to calculate how I am going to do this – it makes sense to me. Then I come to. I think about the religious affiliations I was brought up with and how many relatives came from different beliefs such as Christian, Methodist, Mormon, etc. As a child and as we sat around the table at dinner, I wondered what the big deal was about being labeled one or the other. Everyone spoke about sending missionaries out to different countries and sometimes they were the same country. How could that be – how were they going to convert people to 4-5 different religions in the same place and why bother? I also remember the minster in church saying we would be damned if we did not wear our best dress to church – God knew if it was our best dress and we could not cheat. The bad dreams continue. I was barely sleeping and one night found myself working as a spy looking thru a closet door and watching project work. I knew instantly that I was busted and they came and hauled me out of the closet. I was taken to a room and strapped into a chair in a long row of offenders and I knew I was going to die. A trap door in the floor under each chair opened up and a large spear came up thru the floor and pierced us all to death. I could feel myself pull out out of my body just in time to avoid the extreme pain.

Hi Annabelle, MMMmm I think that you’ve spent time in a test VR testing set up, engaging with people making / casting and being also being influenced by ‘spells / contracts, agreements, covenants, pacts, sworn oaths, curses and or promises’ while also tracking / making sure that they all ‘work’ correctly / this would mean that you’d have a lot of this type of ‘shit’ that isn’t ‘really’ your own. Use new exercise/focus 7 and in the first long paragraph (2/3rds down) were it states “ANY VR reprogramming and or ANY VR recreational or research experiences” substitute: “ANY VR reprogramming and or ANY VR recreational or research experiences and I particularly connect to all VR experiences of myself ENGAGING WITH OTHERS EXPERIENCES of being negatively influenced, manipulated and managed by absolutely ANY: spell / contract, agreement, covenant, pact, sworn oath, curse and or any promise and or ANYTHING similar and or equivalent AND all of the detrimental effects of these . . .'” that might get this ‘shit’ better / faster . . .

Trying to write the focusses down manually there is something that doesnt want me to write it correctly or use it correctly. I have the feeling i have been doing all the focusses wrong because the words change while i write it. i tried to write them down. Clive have you thought about some people willing trying to do the focusses but they are so managed that they cant even do them correct. Kinda like your thought horror conclusion

First time trying the exercises. Didn’t get any imagery but randomly felt very emotional and burst into tears as I read out focus 4…also ha some physical symptoms including random spasms of my forehead!

Hi Clive, thank you for the tools you have here. I have been doing long term introspective work with varying results.. I have experienced a LOT of exposures, glitches, time/reality warps , etc. (seems endless). But i am just now beginning to see how for every force i was able to expose, over time i must have been vigilantly targeted to reprogram or recondense under so many mechanisms, to completely debilitate my abilities to see, hear, experience as clearly as possible. I’m very willing to do the work and understand that is my responsibility, but I’ve had a few experiences in particular that very few people can begin to understand. And your perspective would be greatly appreciated.. So i’ll begin with I’m currently most directly dealing with current and past life karma with leos. My mother, my ex-best friend of 12 yrs, and the father of my son. Their similarities are staggering. If you recall the merkaba stargate configuration of july 29, 2013 , a perfect 6 point star of planets. I spent a great deal of time and energy preparing a ritual for this night, in my (now ex-) best friends honor, at a local grounds we refer to as “temple”. There were 6 of us attended, ‘unintentionally’, we all had a partner. It was a wonderful experience and half of us cried tears of joy and some felt the presence of ET’s. Three days later i was in excruciating pain in my neck and head. I could barely sit up, could not mobilize without tears. I went to the hospital looking for medication (our local hospital can be more than dreadful) , but was not allowed to leave. For three days i endured faulty spinal taps, was put under the wrong medications that made me unable to keep even water down, all the mri’s, cat scans, they finally realized i was injured. I had torn my spinal cord, was leaking spinal fluid.. Which surrounds your brain, so subequently every time i was vertical i would lose fluid around my brain causing it to expand. I was ambulenced to boston medical where i spent 5 more days. I think by the time i had arrived i had surmised that i must have over exerted not only my physical body but also my energy body, in pouring myself into these 6 other people present. Seriously damaging my kundalini or however you would refer to it. I thought i was getting a reboot, being torn down to begin anew. Now I’m questioning how much my system could have been altered through this entire experience, at the most physically vulnerable ive ever been in this life, with all channels directly open to anyone and everyone. So my first night’s stay, becomes the most vivid alternative state ive ever been through. In no way was this a dream. But while in a sleeping state, i gained access to a vision through another version of myself.

It begins again, at Temple. The night of the ritual. I am surrounded by a similar group of “friends”, but realize later that they were only shadow guides, leading me. I am crouching/crawling and murmering, kind of shmeagle-style. They lead me to one of the concrete foundations on the grounds, i climb up top, sit, and meditate expentantly.. When a very classic UFO appears, it is familiar to me, and in simultaneous recognition i am beamed on board. I never experience fear. I had been on the ship before. Everything from the outside, to the inside, is shimmering gold. The only thing shielded from my memory was their appearance. I am brought to a vertically hovering pod, that i mount and become strapped into- IMMEDIATELY waking up back on earth, not at temple but somewhere familiar, COMPLETELY aware that I WAS/AM STILL ON THAT ship! That the physical body i was now housing was a perfect carbon copy, completely identical, but a DOPPELGÄNGER. I reach for my phone to call a friend and explain exactly what just happened.

Suddenly i am awoken in my hospital bed surrounded by 6-8 doctors, most still training, but observing and examining me none the less. My case was peculiar. They called it intro-cranial hypotension. It made sense to no one and only made sense to me energetically, in no way physically except for the most excruciating pain ive ever been through this lifetime. As soon as the doctors left the room i was overwhelmed with momentary shock. HOW could i still be in a hospital when i was just ABDUCTED.. I immediately tell the same friend what happened to discuss. Through this i gained a portion of consciousness of my other selves. Not just higher selves but also COPIES of myself, of my ORIGINAL self, and all the implications of this. I had estimated i had a minimal of 40-50 needles in and out of my spine throughout my hospitalization. You can understand my concern now for any kind of spinal implants, or ANY insight into wtf I actually experienced. Upon returning home i was bed ridden for two weeks. just a couple days back and i was contacted through glitches in my snapchat app. I used to make a lot of color code patterns with the paint option. So i was doing like a full screen full spectrum pattern on top of a black photo background, thinking of the frequency it might represent, my phone freezes. Immediately ik im going to lose the photo, so i screenshot it ONCE before i power down the phone to reboot. When i turn my phone back on there is NOT just ONE screenshot, but FIVE, and EVERY single one was UNIQUE. I saved them as long as i could bc i thought, even with the physical evidence, who the fuck would believe this shit??? Every. Photo. Was changed. There was my original, then 4 with ALL different, ALL MOVED dot patterns, a couple had the paint pallet, some didnt, but the last shot, moved dots and all, also included a typed message

You

That’s all. I tried to continue the connection/conversation with no response. but the only thing that made sense to me was that i was making contact with myself somehow. I became pregnant in february of that year as my father was dying of cancer. He passed 6 days before my son was born. My life has been in an enormous upheaval since all of these events. I would greatly appreciate any insight, I’m not sure what your perspective is on the perception of ET beings i havent seen anything yet here. Thank you so much.

Hi Clive, I’ve come across your work and am starting to go through it.. honestly I have no idea what is going on lately- past few months-absolute hell though i’ve been finding some little insights and such, it just keeps on escalating and changing.. I don’t know if you can tune in and see what is going on with me? Feel now like there are implants inside of me, also like there was someone trying to destroy me for quite some time, with curses and attacks, and i think she was remote controlled by some implant in the brain.. haven’t found the tools to help with this.. had some luck with curse removal recently- huge change that has me feeling like i can breathe and live, not dissolving from the inside out-so i need that to stay in place if it is some kind of positive implant,- and now i can exist alright, (for the past couple days) but seems like i picked up implants from the person who was attacking.. i feel like she shut down/is not alive/a real person.. there was just a signal flashing off in her brain. intensely scary stuff happened leading up to this.. trapped in voodoo death curses, no ability to sleep, bunch of theories about what is happening and why, but i think i’m being specifically targeted by some hidden party, not sure by whom or if i can get free and hide.. don’t know how to even approach this just shots in the dark.. Thanks

If you are not familiar with this web site then you are recommended to read the home page to help ‘orientate’ yourself as this site presents much that is way ‘off the edge’ compared to my other sites: https://www.soul-healer.com/

I don’t work with people directly, I am very busy and I am ‘explicitly’ not interested in having e-mail correspondence.

Also, to understand more about ‘everything’ read the front / home page of soul-healer.com and the pages you are advised to read on that page as ‘things’ are a lot more complicated than anyone imagines.

Did number five a few days ago and started crying after reading the first couple paragraphs.

Did number five again just yesterday and felt little things =get removed and did get off track a couple of times.

Doing number six, I feel something in my gut/solar plexus region but a part of me is repressing it. It wasn’t until I read your reply to one of my latest comments that I realized just how much my loneliness and desperation to make/find the people who should be in my life is driving my actions and behavior, and just how much I’ve resented, repressed and denied this part of myself in return either because of repeated letdowns or because I believe that to be independent, I shouldn’t want or need friends or family or anyone in my life and live just fine on my own, and I feel a lot of shame that I’ve never been able to let go of this need for other people.

This also brings up thoughts of my sexuality and my problems with what I call ‘one-true-love’ syndrome. It is particularly bad when my period is due. It’s a desperate yearning for someone to connect with and understand I’ve tried, inappropriately enough, reaching out to the wrong people, who I liked or trusted, two of which were married or engaged. Another thing this brings to mind is that I’m twenty-six and I’ve never caught the interest of anyone even remotely my age. Usually those who show any interest are the much older gentlemen, between late forties to early sixties, who have invited me out to eat or to concerts or have even asked for my phone number. Not only that, but I feel older too. Not in the worn-out kind of way, but in a patient, calm and centered way (unlike most of my peers) that isn’t really surprised or affected by anything. Thinking about intimate relationships, this reminds me of the time I was watching something on the internet while reflecting on the concept or idea of one true love or being in love or attracted to someone, and the thought suddenly crossed my mind that your partner wasn’t really a partner, they were more like a handler, and in that instant the video player on my computer crashed.

I am definitely looking forward to the mission focus if you still plan on posting it. I also have feelings of doing something big and important, which I am not doing, and the one thing I noticed doing number six is that quite a few of my feelings regarding people seem to be centered around doing this great thing in order to fit in and get attention.

In focus 5 part 7 I experience it as if I have some kind of ‘subtle ‘biometric’ authentication’ system for personal security reasons and to access my own ‘hidden records’ or ‘data systems’ and also some kind of ‘scanning system’ to ‘identify what is messing with me (or trying to hack me?).

It looks as if my ‘subtle resonances identifiers’ are supposed to change all the time (for security), in different ‘patterns’ and ‘flows’ which should then be mirrored by the scanning system. But the ‘identifier data’ has been ‘scrambled’, in me/my subtle body or system or resonances, and it looks as if ‘something’ is making whatever is supposed to ‘receive’ the recognising of ‘me’ perceive the input wrong, so that I am blocked from ‘accessing or identifying anything’ or ‘identify anything’.

And it feels as if the simulation has ‘taken advantage of that’, by translating this into consequently blocking me from ‘myself’ and from accessing and identifying things.

Section 3A – Putting myself thru hell – No sooner did this come out just after I have had a horrible family holiday dinner experience. I was thrown off guard by having relatives complaining about the food I cooked and the whole event which has never happened – “can’t you make something different – why do we have to have the same thing all of the time?” “Next time why don’t you come up with some different recipes?” “Why do we have to get together at all? This whole situation caused me to be depressed for 3 days – which is unusual for me. Section 5 – I find myself working in a lab that is half part of a VR environment and half part of a real environment. This was hard to describe – imagine a room split down the middle by an invisible, smoky wall. The real side was quite clear and robust and brilliant and the duplicated people on the VR side were a bit murky, distorted and not so impressive. A duplicate scene is on each side with patients/people sitting or lying on chairs/tables. I was watching a scientist or doctor take biopsies/samples/implants, from people in the VR world, and they would then hand the sample/implant to me, and I would hop over the invisible wall and hand it to a scientist in the real world. I did not belong to either world and was neutral in how I felt. I was very concerned about how the people in the real world would feel / be hurt by this experimentation going on in the VR world. This was a bit strange and I really did not understand what I was seeing. While overhearing co-workers discuss current events / data collection, I heard them say the TV miniseries “Black Mirror” was a really good example. I don’t watch much TV and never heard of it. I was nudged to look this show up online and find out it is described as “Modern society and unanticipated consequences of new technologies”. The producer of the series was named “Anabel” Then a few days later I hear coworkers talking again about data collection and they suggest another VR mini series called “Wild Palms”. Never heard of that either. While looking this up I wonder why the online description is so very long for such a short old series. I look thru the many long tabs and wonder why there are so many references to art, songs, movie stars, etc. The edit history is even long and at the exact moment I was online someone started to edit the site. I then realize my blood pressure is plummeting and I am getting quite sick and nauseated and about to pass out. Immediately I stopped looking at that site and it took some hours to recover. Once again I get another 7 digit number as 6332661. I look up 7 digit numbers online and see that they are linked to keypads as passwords. After that I see half-moon shaped beige ceramic discs floating by as millions of data bits.

I was spending some time thinking (I forget what I was thinking about now) and I was mostly thinking in concepts / ideas. I wasn’t getting too ‘deep’ with any of my thinking, but I noticed that I seemed to ‘shy away’ from certain concepts (ie. I was ‘choosing’ to not think about certain things) and this seemed to be a ‘fear’ of some kind (I seemed to be ‘afraid’ of thinking down certain lines), so I targeted this using the super short focus..

I started to experience a mild tension / pressure in my torso, and especially my chest and into my heart center. It seemed that I was engaging with contained / buried negative emotional stuff, so I try to ‘go in’ to these feelings / my heart. As I do this I quickly experience what i’d describe as a not-physical ‘pain’ (my physical body was fine / normal and I experienced the ‘pain’ internally). I try to keep going and this pain quickly intensifies to the point that it’s like i’m internally screaming out in agony from it..

when suddenly i’m in a religious / christian / jesus ‘scene’ – i’m kneeled down on one leg wearing some kind of robes.. I’m looking and reaching with my hands upward toward the sky, and there’s a beam of light coming from above and down into me. This ‘scene’ was like an ‘overlay’ of some sort. I was ‘observing’ the scene whilst also being ‘in’ it.

I then experience a burst of an ‘energy’ applied around my heart area which quickly spreads throughout / around me. The energies didn’t seem to actually go ‘inside’ me, but were kind of ‘applied over the top’. As soon as I experienced these energies I pulled out of the experience and targeted it with the focus.

This comment has been pretty difficult to write and i’m sure i’ve forgotten something.

Hi Trent, I’m trying to keep things focused so are keen to avoid these areas . . . as they’re too difficult to ‘properly’ explain / so further comments asking questions down these lines will be deleted . . . the sim was built by western ‘Christians’ and it’s aim for the people ‘in the sim’ is to convert them / EVERYONE including you reading this AUTOMATICALLY into Christians at some point in the future. For example, the banking / austerity farce is about having everyone sick to the back teeth of ‘money/money lenders’ so that they will be happy living in a society that has everyone ‘supported’ by Christian charity while being worked to death with only ‘Sunday’ off. The shares/trading/big companies represent people being ripped off by ‘unscrupulous’ traders, and our visible ‘political’ based corrupt, utterly useless leaders we’d be happy to get rid of them and have them replaced by church leaders being advised by a ‘fake’ pretend ‘god’. For the Middle East the terrorists are actually re-incarnated fanatical Christians being presented as ‘Islamic’ extremists i.e. there is a second Christian crusade happening right in front of us. This future conversion is also why the official ‘news’ doesn’t reflect in the slightest what is happening. They are actually presenting news that will fit / appear to make sense after everyone has been converted into a Christian whom will then see everything from a Christian ‘looking glass / MEMORIES altered/converted / perspective’ i.e. the CONVERTED NARRATIVE WILL FIT / EXPLAIN / MAKE SENSE AFTER THE ‘C’ CONVERSION.

ANYWAY I’d not worry about this as we’ve identified the super / ultra massive numbers of dormant crap that is/was sitting waiting to be applied for this conversion to take place a month or two back . . . so basically from your comment Trent (and the next one you wrote) you managed to get access to some of this!!! This ‘shit’ was extremely well protected / kept hidden and aggressive in it’s responses to those hacking so just Tom/Matt/Kay/me have been playing with this ‘C’ conversion in a sand box . . .

Hello Clive, My name is Carlie and I have to start this off by saying that it is an absolute pleasure to be acquainted with you and your team!!! I stumbled upon your site just 3 days ago, or perhaps it found me, and I can full heartedly say that it has ALREADY changed my life as I know it for the better! This perhaps already sounds like a brown squirrel rant trying to cozy up to you but I simply need to share how authentically ecstatic I am to have found this information that you have, what I have gathered painstakingly, provided here.

Let me begin by setting the stage briefly for you. I have recently (I want to say over the last 6 months but my memory in regards to an accurate timeline feels hazy) have felt as though my ENTIRE life went from right on track and where I tried very hard to direct it towards to a COMPLETE and utter, nearly literally garbage shit pile. I had been working on myself diligently over the past 2 years prior to this shit heap occurring. This involved me leaving an extremely abusive partner whom I was positive would have ended up killing me if I hadn’t left and ‘re-building’ my life in a new city. I left with nothing but the clothes on my back and a purse and through diligent hard work and therapy sessions and educating myself about abusive partners and MOST of all taking the hardest inward look at myself than I think I have ever done. I felt as though ‘everything’ that defined me as I knew myself was stripped away, beaten out of me and that I , with the support and help of some amazing woman, I built myself back up. I just graduated from a vocational school with flying colors, confidence, passion and extreme excitement about beginning a new career that I felt was PERFECT for me and was surprised it took me so long to find this new career path. I had done a remarkable ‘360’ from the circumstances that I crawled out from beneath and was excited and positive that I would be triumphant on my new ‘life path’. (I know I said brief.. but trust me that was haha)

There was no reason my the depressive, sloth, slobbetry, disgusting state I found myself in for the past 6 months. I was ready to take on the world and I felt happier than I felt in forever but instead of continuing with my path of health and self discovery I began neglecting the very things that were very important to me and crucial in fact to my sense of self. I went from eating a nearly raw, gluten free, dairy free, sugar free intermittent fasting diet EVERYDAY to indulging ,non-stop, in doughnuts, ice cream, pizza, chips ect. I began sleeping nearly 16 hour days and most embarrassing and debilitating of all is the state of my once organized, clean, peaceful sanctuary of a home became an oozing, decomposing filthy cesspool. My daily ventures to the serene nature that I am lucky to surround my home and the quaint city I live in ceased and I became a person I did not recognize. Each day I felt this overwhelming guilt, shame and obligation that I needed to correct my living situation and routine and get back to ‘normal’ and each day I would not. It was as though my will did not match my ability to change the situation which sounds like the laziest excuse that ‘I couldn’t and was unable to do a simple thing like put on a dishwasher, do laundry and take out the accumulating garbage’ but it literally felt like I was unable to despite my many attempts, well intentioned tries, white light visualizations, circle casting help, asking the lords of karma for help(which I just recently heard of for the first time in a book I was reading), all my shear will directed at cleaning my house and still I would maybe be able to rearrange some heap slightly before I retreated back to my almost permanent residence on my sofa. I would then convince myself that it was a solid attempt and congratulate myself for doing ‘something’ while all the while I did nothing to remove the trash piling up in my life I simply changed it’s location slightly.

Which brings me to 3 days ago when I came upon your sight while searching feverishly for information on ‘karmic debt 16’. I recall feeling so STUPID reading that first page and not being able to comprehend a single thing besides the individual words that made up the page. I could not fathom how when reading these words that I know well in the combination that you put them in was so DAMN confusing!!!! Yet I continued on, probably because it was such a mystery and I pride myself not only on being intelligent but using writing and words as my vocation to truly express myself in the world….

I recall my eyes feeling so strange! My vision was blurry, I had this nagging pain behind my eyeballs and I could hardly focus on what was right in front of my despite me being alone in a quiet apartment giving my FULL attention and concentration to these simple string of words that the combined meaning was completely and utterly escaping me!!!! I also had a constant dull headache in the front of my forehead.

That day I read this focus (1a and 1b) thinking what the hell is this! This guy can’t even use proper grammar (pointing out this makes me conscious of my own ill constructed rant here….lol no offense), this is hard as FUCK to read/concentrate/understand/comprehend ect but I continued. I actually wrote it down in a note book word for word so I could re-read it whenever I wanted or felt the desire to (I don’t have internet at home so limited access to the material). I read the site Access, Tell them to go F*** themselves which helped immensely!!! It made my headache go away and my eyesight/feeling improved greatly to the point where I barely noticed any ‘nagging’ feelings or sensations. I addressed my experiences from the last 6 months specifically about the state of my home and my feeling like a lack of being able to do anything about it. I addressed 37 specific feelings, experiences, effects ect in the 1a bit (repeated 4 times). I have been since then reading as MUCH as I possibly can on your site in ALL my spare time (at least 6 hours each day over the past 3 days). I am very enthusiastically ecstatic (does not even begin to describe) to share that I have begun to easily clean my home!!!!! I have to say immense, heartfelt and sincere thank you to all of your hard work, patience, persistence, courage, insight, faith, and whatever else you dig into from within to do what you are diligently doing here!!!!!

I have begun to be able to read through pages that I at first stumbled through blindly and am (I think) beginning to grasp some concepts here. I look forward to this journey down the rabbit hole. Thank you again!

P.S. I’m curious, the way you write the focus’ is that similar to you writing code/or a program for a computer system? Is it like uploading content when I/we/anyone here reads it? I am not very familiar with how computers actually work so am finding that I have quite a bit of a learning curve to overcome here, or at least it is how it feels. I look forward to hearing from you and what you might be willing to comment about my experience so far.

I live in the UK Carlie, so, I try to write in ‘British’ English not USA or Canadian or Australian or South African ‘English’ or any of the 3 or 4 other variations there are for other places. So, it’s pretty much guaranteed that some ‘Grammar’ tends to be wrong for ‘someone’ that’s used to their English language grammar variation being a very particular way. Grammar should be the least of peoples worries with respect to what is written here.

Glad you had decent changes working with the focuses / you’ve reminded me why I only wanted to work with people who’d ‘tried everything’ and nothing works i.e. ‘impossible’ to resolve issues. And, fortunately I’ve quite a few ‘regulars’ coming here (and even more fortunately are still coming here) despite that their issues are still ‘locked/blocked’ from being sorted which lets me know that there are still some sneaky bastard ‘shit’ things managing to avoid detection . . . at least for a while longer . . .

Last week was hell. Extreme inner torment, like trapped in an invisible hell and being tortured with others’ shit. Finally connected to memories of being encased -felt like it was permanently – in an invisible globe. Memories of screaming and gagging as some substance seemed to fill the globe. People outside the globe, watching; I seem to know them but as of yet cannot make out whom they are. One watches me coldly and he seems to be the ringleader, the kingpin, and this invisible globe he’s locking me into is somehow related to his plan to ‘save the world’.

Since then, random shitty things pass through my body yet things feel densely blocked and I can’t access nor connect to anything much to make sense of anything right now. Sometimes I’m hearing repeating phrases – I’ll say something out loud, and hear it repeated inside me faintly, over and over and over, like an echo. Nothing makes sense /is all wrong, mismatched and disorienting, and it makes me not even want to tune into myself anymore.

Hi Nyssa / EVERYONE, there was shit (if you believe this) built in at a MV-OS (operating system) to maintain about 5000 sets of peoples ‘shit’ automatically i.e. we’ve had to ‘hack’ the OS of the MV outside (the people outside had to) to actually get rid of about 4 complete independent sets of shit doing this. So, since about 3/4 days ago as we’ve not detected anything else ‘maintaining’ anyone’s shit we’ve shifted to investigating / finding better ways of clearing what people are in / have accumulated / which will still be difficult depending on the original scripted circumstances. In the last few days we’ve made massive progress in setting up automated clearings with less ‘nasty’ impact on the ‘majority’ of people.

We recently found a lot of active as well as dormant (ready to activate in the future) ‘shit’ basically putting people into a subliminal ‘hell / purgatory’. Everyone has got this specific type of shit / some more than others and we’ve busy clearing this too . . . and this level of crap will of course be attempting to manipulate ‘against me’ personally as I’m it’s worst nightmare, it casts the biggest ‘aspersions / lies’ against myself. All of the ‘shit’ runs AI’s version of ‘everyone’ i.e. it runs AI’s of you, me and everyone else to ‘plot’ against us / try and maintain is WANING influence AND hence it’s easy to generate ‘fantasies’ involving people it wants to cause problems to / cast aspersions against . . . So, I take the above ‘use of me’ as a ‘great’ indication of how ‘worried’ the entire ‘system’ is, and it ‘should’ be because I’m not backing down until it’s hacked, dead and buried . . . and ‘everyone’ is out of this ‘monstrous/monstrosity’ . . .

Yea, ‘everyone’ as I’m very busy / extra busy, don’t expect comments to be approved in any short time AND expect comments to be deleted too . . .

My previous comment was the most difficult comment i’ve written / I could barely string a sentence together. Having a lot of trouble writing a follow up, so sorry if this is discoherent.

The ‘belief’ I had during this experience was that this was a ‘reprogramming’ effort / the ‘energies’ that were applied to me made me feel as if I were being ‘moved’ into a (i’m presuming ‘christian’) ‘state’ / that such a state was being ‘applied’ to me .. but it didn’t feel like this was something that had ‘actually’ been done to me .. since I was both observing the experience (from a viewpoint that was external to the ‘form’ I had in this scene) while also being ‘in / interfaced to’ the ‘jesus form’ , then it seemed like this was a VR testing / research experience.

During the ‘energy application / reprogramming’ part of the experience, I felt like most of ‘me’ was super contained / blocked off – I felt like there wasn’t much of ‘me’ left (at least experientially) and that this would make me more open / receptive / susceptible to ‘accepting / providing little resistance’ to the ‘state’ I was being moved into. It felt like the containments / blocks were actually ‘necessary’ for the reprogramming to work / be effective (this seems super obvious to me now, but it wasn’t before this experience, so I thought I should share it)

New focus added: 7) The Progression of Trauma & Past ‘Hurts’ & Our Reactions & Responses to these & Reminders of these / this is to help us get more ‘detail’ of the progression of ‘accumulated’ trauma and hurts over long spans of time (it’s explained better above the focus) plus focus 3 has been extensively updated again to get more ‘detail’ . . .

Well, that was an odd one because when I checked it was there / can be loaded / edited / my copy / paste from elsewhere was from a closed accordion and the ‘keep’ closed code was active / So, it’s edited out ‘fixed’ now . . .

re: #7 The Progression of Trauma & Past ‘Hurts’ & Our Reactions & Responses to these & Reminders of these

once again, couldn’t do the focus properly – just jumped here and there. Finally read in sections starting at the bottom section going backwards to the top section, which let me read the exercise for content.

phrases in this exercise reminded me of many of the self-explorations I’ve experienced over the past year or two, including the feeling of having parts of my energy body ‘imprinted’ like ‘adhesions’ of some sort, something like scar tissue from a ‘brand’ on my subtle body, or like parts of myself being ‘afixed’ to certain points (the context is hard to describe, but feels like it’s my ‘whole’ self that is affected / and in a context that my ‘whole’ self ‘IS”), that through being ‘stuck’, these “imprinted adhesions” prevent me from returning to my natural self, that I’m ‘pinned in place’ until these imprinted adhesions are dealt with, forced to remain without my natural movement and freedom.

The parts about ‘people whom hurt me’ gave me feelings of people ‘not here’, but very removed – a feeling that these people are not even in my orig mv script either. People ‘somewhere else’ somehow?

When I finally got to section 0, I could hardly read it. I began to sense something about ‘others trauma’ and also something about parts of my story that ‘aren’t here’ (and that feel like they aren’t from my orig mv narrative?)

This is the best that I can do at the moment but I hope it helps you. Best.

Unfortunately, Nyssa, we’re still editing ‘bastard / shit’ out of the MVOS maintaining things for people the ‘designers’ didn’t like. I think we’ve edited out about 30 sets this last week or two or three / I’ve lost track of time . . . even more fortunately we’re managing to do this without the lights going out . . .

I can feel things happening daily. I have felt blanketed under various effects, including extreme despair and lethargy, like something dampening my resonance perhaps, or extreme aversion to engaging with root causes etc, yet at the same time I sense things gradually getting better/lighter in a very deep way, feeling myself breaking through containment after containment (lately, much of this has concerned my “third eye” region), regathering my strength at a core level despite these surface experiences that keep me contained and frustrated ‘here’.

re: “without the lights going out” .. This brings to mind how I feel like I occasionally personally had a hard crash/total reboot these past couple years; the one in which I had the most awareness while it was happening, was at the beginning of November (I think I mentioned it in a comment). When it happens, “I” continue as a person ‘here’, yet at the same time, I feel like I reach critical failure and have to be rebooted. The effect is quite disorienting .. it’s like there are multiple versions of ‘me’ that I experience simultaneously – physical me ‘here’, the ‘me’ that crashes, and then something that also feels like ‘me’ yet more like I am or am connected to the entire fabric of reality that is in the background that seems to govern and control it all, and while it feels like this gestalt background ‘me’ has been very very ‘ill’ (for lack of a better word), it feels unshakeable for some reason, despite how traumatized it is. This gestalt background ‘me’ somehow makes me feel ‘safe’ in the midst of incredible extremes. It’s a feeling along the lines of how the character Tris in the Divergent book series can sense when she’s in an inner simulation, and thus knows she cannot be harmed by the very-real-feeling threats delivered to her inner experience by the simulation system.

Ex 7 Section 7 – I can totally relate to the response of repeating trauma – only what is missing is me blaming myself for what I could have done better or did wrong or how I need to learn new things to better respond to or prevent the trauma. Then I am proud of something going right and the traumatic experience, example family abuse – returns and I wonder what I did wrong. I repeat the series of events in my head, and replay over and over what I should have done. I try so hard to block it from my memory but feel guilty about this. I should work harder. I try to psychoanalyze them and wonder why they do it – and then I feel bad for them – and then I am mad at them. At times it is so bad that the traumatic days seem to disappear – I can’t / don’t want to remember them. How can I make a family scrapbook if I don’t want to remember this stuff. I return to years ago to try and troubleshoot what could have prevented this abuse and relive different life events /scenarios as I try them all out in my head. At times I get absorbed in a better outcome and get shocked back to reality when the abuse happens again – and then I start to talk to other people, strangers in public, asking them for advice on how I can improve myself. Sometimes I even get ambushed when I am out of town, nowhere near the event, and get called on the phone and accused of doing something bad ( and then I feel guilty about taking time for myself). I spend hours researching new techniques on human behavior or consulting professionals or reading books. I compare myself to other successful people. My new approach does not work and the trauma re-appears. I repeat the process. I feel revitalized when I have a good day and then I go out and start thinking about what new approaches I should try. Meanwhile I notice my health is deteriorating, and start to research new diets and vitamins and therapies to heal myself so I can go back and fight the cause of the trauma. I am falling apart. Maybe I should try these new health techniques on the family members causing the trauma – it might fix them. I am going in circles. I am reaching a point that I can’t continue. At times if feels like someone is fine tuning the trauma to get to me in a specific way that is most hurtful and people even change their appearance and tone of voice for just a few minutes for optimum effect – or pretend they did not do something – or maybe they really don’t remember. I should know better than to get caught in this trap – it happens all of the time and then I am mad at myself. I am strong and want to keep trying…….

When reading the ‘Jesus’ scene he describes, I felt like I ‘saw’ the scene like it was embedded / contained in what looks like a mirrored spindle of sorts.

I first began to finally access these ‘spindles’ yesterday when trying to understand why I continue to get ‘traumas/thoughts and feelings’ from two of the men I’ve written about in prior comments, and I had felt surrounded by vast numbers of mirrored spindles that feel like they reflect and “bounce around” ‘something’ (intent/memories/traumas/shit/?) etc. Then later yesterday I’d noticed these mirrored spindles also seem to have what appear to be vr experiences embedded in them that seem to influence what gets bounced around. The feel of these spindles felt somewhat like an organic neural net that “selects and amplifies” but I can’t yet access intent or original purpose. The back of my neck is in distress as I write this.

When I read Trent’s description of the vr christian scene, I had many similar sensations as he describes (inner pain/distress/pressure that doesn’t seem to exist in my body ‘here’; his description is in line with sensations /contexts I’ve felt and experienced for a long time), and as I tried to access the scene I observed in the spindle / engage with these energetic sensations, it felt like I was engaging with a ‘wall’ or ‘layer’ of repelling defensive sensations first, like breaking through the surface tension of water.

When Trent described that it seems like much of himself is blocked off / that this seems how the VR reprogramming likely ‘works’, it brought to mind how I’ve felt like a tiny portion of me is locked in a research facility, subjected to EXTREME TORTURE AND EXPERIMENTATION. And, I’ve also felt the reverse – sensations similar to what Trent describes – that most of myself is blocked off from myself and I’m trapped in a torture chamber.

And in writing this, I’m feeling extreme painful blocks in my forehead yet also feel like I’m beginning to access context of the VR reprogramming done to that tiny portion of me and understand some other context I hadn’t had before, including the energetic burst from the heart region that Trent wrote of.

The symptoms switch lots of stuff happens when i do the excersises it always ends in mental breakdown inner screaming shouting nonsensicale looping thoughts lots of old buried feelings. Conflicts with almost everyone i kinda went in reclusive mode. Woke up yesterday with a giant rash on my hands and bum was itchy as heck. The last 3 hours i have heard a pleading voice in my head please stop doing excersises stop with everything related to doing excersises. Stay away from clive. Im having i dont know fake inner arguments with others i sense a shitload of different energies in my body that i associate with people i had arguments conflicts with. I cant defend myself in those arguments or explain why i acted how i acted because my head keeps spouting the most rediculous thoughts its like a automated bullshit fountain. What is kinda freaking me out is that its effects whats going to happen in real life its like my negative thoughts cause bad things to happen to others and i dont want that. I get the feeling i was scripted to be the villain. First getting abused then getting rediculously pissed about it and started abusing myself. The whole fake distant telepathic conflict shitshow is getting old. Just as the conflicts with all those entities. I want to resolve things peacefully but because my buttons get pushed i might fly of the handle and try to kill those assholes. Im getting pretty fed up with the hallucinations the loud ringing in my ears. What also sucks is that between all the bullshit i also see and hear things that are going to happen. Its very confusing for me to decirn wtf is going on. I dont have the faintest clue in how much i myself am responsible for all the bad things happening how i am causing all the shenanigans that are happening to others and most important how am i going to do something like damage controle so that i quit hurting screwing everything up. I kinda lost the plot trying to function is kinda impossible Im avoiding social interaction as the plague because im scared even more horrible things will happen because i dont know whats going on.

Did number 2 yesterday cause I felt “nudged” to do it. I had a nightmare and I think the focus was the cause (A good thing?)

I was in your typical classroom seen in most Anime that have the characters participate in school. I was in the far right column of the class and I was about to ask someone to my left something and all I saw was this floating white mask, with no expression, and no eyes, just a black void for eyes. I stopped looking then went to ask the person in front of that person and another mask. Even after not looking for a while they kept staring at me. I tried to tune them out and go back to sleep by having music play in my head, It didn’t work. I did get back to sleep after imagining picking up a warhammer and smashing the masks into pieces, like glass. Upon impact time slowed down so I can see all the pieces fly. My morning came then.

I did have some stray thoughts when doing the focus yesterday but I didn’t think they were “experiences” I should note. Should I note them? I’m not exactly a regular around here.

Stuck and thick, things feel slow and sloggy deep inside. Still random shit passing through me. Read through #3 today finally for content. Explored body memories and saw a planet rendered in inner screen, but then scene continued to withdraw and I saw a string of planets and sensed something cherry-picking from ‘versions’ of me in these other versions of planets (earths?), to deliver to me/my experience ‘here’, to accomplish aspects of what the exercise describes and to lock me down with inaccessible causal factors.

Feel deep deep trauma re the people I’ve written about, but it’s rock solid, immovable, confounded by other issues to be completely locked down. Cannot properly access/undo ‘any’ of this until it’s ‘all’ dealt with simultaneously. Context feels not far out enough out to get to the linchpin that can undo this lockdown being held at the core of it all.

Each ‘reply’ to a comment is formatted to be smaller / to have less width than the comment it’s in response to. In re-reading the comment threads of some pages, I noticed that this makes some replies very difficult to read / only a few words are presented PER LINE. In some especially longer comment threads then the width of the text box becomes so small that it actually ‘disappears’ the text completely, and shows only a mass of empty space (the only way to read those comments is to copy paste the invisible text elsewhere).

Ex 7 – Section 4 Had another very weird driving experience. While going on my one hour weekend drive I found my car flanked by two beat up old pickup trucks. They rode in almost perfect tandem with me and it took me a while to notice them. The truck on my left was plastered with a lot of ( 40-50) stickers that said “Official Disaster Spotter”. The truck on my right was plastered with stickers that pertained to Star Wars. Things are starting to feel very different – malleable – like I have choice as to what is going to happen. As I go thru the day – I find myself stopping and thinking about 2-3 alternatives and subsequent after effects of everything I do. I feel like I can push on people and change my perception / or what really happens next. “ Force myself to any past contract” – I became tired and closed my eyes. I find myself arguing with a “Director” of some sort that has put me into 3 conflicting timelines( while in the same life) and I did not want to do his choice of a music timeline. I argued is it simply too much. The director responded that you can’t just get out of this once it is started – too many people think that. I then realized that arguing was not going to help and I then changed my strategy and said ” This is a really great music timeline, but the other director already assigned me to this family and work timeline. I don’t feel like I can do your music timeline justice and may be able to try it the next time”. His eyes lit up and seemed to agree with me – Poof – the music timeline was gone. Not sure what happened next but I found myself inside a resort that felt more like a 5-Star rehab center. It was very nice but I knew I was from a different lifetime ( and it seemed they forgot to wipe my memories). I was getting scare and frustrated and wanted to go back to my real life. I kept asking to go back to my current real life and no one even seemed to notice me. Finally I said I am going to pick up my cellphone and call my current life. There was no keypad on my phone and instead it was replaced by a VR window / portal that allowed me to peer into yet a different life! I was so upset and started screaming – “what did you do to my phone?”

Things are getting weirder and harder, inaccessible, disorienting. Read through 1b, “Shorter, better new ‘Full’ version”. While reading, found my self unconsciously adding the phrase, “I or any version of myself“.

Couldn’t get past those first two main paragraphs. It felt like “I and all the versions of me,” and “the original forms that I and all the versions of me” are simulating (I know that ‘other versions of me’ and ‘other original forms that these other versions of me are simulating’ doesn’t align with what you’ve been writing about but it’s what this feels like, so that’s how I’m describing it) are in a messed up shit storm – things being transferred and translated and cherry picked and applied from one to another, in a wild frenzy. Felt like I was in a rats nest / “mad house” of shit applying shit from other ‘me’s’, like some type of time warp multi-dimensional cross contamination wildfire.

The section, “how these unfolded during the last XX-TIME” (6 weeks) made me feel dizzy and overwhelmed, like in that time period, “reality fractionated” somehow? Like “I and my reality” split into many copies of “I and my reality”, and I could sense them all. I feel like I’m in a vortex of shit and trauma, caught in the middle of this, trying to claw my way out.

I get the same comment reading issue as Trent for months now. It comes and goes. Started getting Gateway 502 errors today as well as ongoing website won’t load. I continue to rotate browsers, devices , sneak in other ways, and hard reboots daily , long talks with management to get around this.

Hi Annabella, I’m pretty sure that we are all being used as either A) ‘bait’ for investigations at least in the last few days i.e. to try and provoke backup emergency / getting backed into a corner managing routines into activating / so they can be detected and edited out!!! or B) it’s ‘us / the wsw/my teams’ doing this to provoke ‘frustration / worry / wtf’ in specific people as part of these peoples clearings??? I’ll ask Matt to have a wander over and see if he can feel these areas out too just in case ‘something’ is sneaking in under the current military grade ‘radar’!!!

Yea I tuned in before coming here and saw a storm cloud of ‘our/wsw’ technological components ‘monitoring’ everything here // I also hear the words ‘test bed, test site’ – basically as this site here is the ‘public’ focus for management shit it’s probably the best place to worry things / bring up everything ‘additional’ to be checked and edited out!!!

Reply to Trent’s December 13 comment, and Nyssa’s December 26 comment:

Both comments reminded me something I went through a few years ago, back when I was doing the whole New Age thing. I remember my heart feeling closed off and heavy like a black hole for a few days and I had tried everything to break through it and nothing worked. So I suddenly asked myself what do I have to do/how do I fix this. And response I got was kind of like, ‘say my name,’ and I got this weird feeling before thinking to myself, ‘I am Jesus Christ,’ And suddenly my heart opened up like a flower and I felt the lightest and happiest I ever had in a while. Thing is I took it literally, and given everyone’s admiration of the man, and how I was nothing compared to him, I got suspicious and had a past life reading done which said we had met (prior to his whole preaching thing) and I stayed with him for like two years before going off and doing my own thing.

Ah, yea Megan I was thinking about the JC & MM set a few weeks back / because this is a ‘C’ simulation and because ‘sleight of hands’ has been done by the some around the time of the JC event to deliberately give as many people as possible ‘connections’ to JC/MM (keep in mind the multiple ‘TWINS’ splitting i.e. the same beings), then it turns out that there were/are literally about 8000 JC/MM couples (hence the number of people claiming or feeling they ‘are’ either JC or MM) again this is what was set up as part of the ‘C’ agenda so that many people ‘DO’ have a connection to these people (to make it all seem more ‘real / special’ etc).

Just tried part 4. Still no imagery but just feeling very heavy hearted and a sense of being obliged to fulfill a role that I don’t really want. Also a fluttering feeling in solar plexus and a sudden tiredness.

I am struggling to get thru these exercises but still have a strong desire to do them. After my last comment to Matt I went into a strong detox / kidney pain, fatigue for days. Not sure what set that off. I am in some type of rut feeling like I am not getting anything “useful” and keep talking myself into not posting but keep trying to work thru the management. I don’t get any high tech stuff and feel like I have hit a wall. As I read the comments about technology – I continue to feel I am living multiple horizontal timelines at once, but this has changed/evolved – I now feel like I am stretched forward and backward into time as well ( I am also getting older and younger at the same time and experiencing both aspects of life – very confusing!). I think about one of my favorite movies ” The Two Lives of Jennie Logan” about a woman that finds an old dress in the attic and travels back in time to the 1800’s to meet her true love – and ultimately decides to stay in the 1800’s and give up / die in her current life. It is interesting that Lindsay Wagner as the actress made many movies about time travel and bionic women. As I read multiple comments about dislike of the rigid “C” project goal/hive mentality life it seems to have the opposite impact on me. Thru all of the “C”comments I feel rallied behind the cause – like this is a good thing and will help solve all of our problems – what is wrong with people not getting on the band wagon. Don’t you know how well this is going to work? I almost feel like I used to be some type of ring leader and talked people into this. Recently while in a spa – they had some spiritual stuff on the TV and my ears perked up when I heard them say “Here is your chance to join the team and help the world”. Wow – I have heard that before!

I just read part 6: In first paragraph felt yearning and rage especially when reading about spouses/partners and families. I then doubted whether the exercise was aimed at freedom or some kind of bigger con to keep us all in the simulation. This doubt came in strongly and then left. When I read “neural imprints” I “saw” lots of wispy looking cables coming out my brain area.

About mid way through when reading about future partners/spouses/families I felt heartache and then nausea, to the extent of possibly vomiting.

When reading about anything inhibiting original thoughts, will, etc. I started crying.

I had big realization toward the end of the exercise, that in the person I am simulating’s life, the chronic fatigue/lyme’s disease that started at age 27 (now am age 50) was possibly a freaking management tactic to keep me from having a family/spouse. Fury at this. ( I had previously wondered if the CFS/Lyme onset was a big re-write of script. The result of the fatigue, in this “life” was to completely re-route my career choice and I also got into spiritual/new age types of healing and thought patterns also as a result.)

When reading “data caches or stores”, I saw round areas enclosed in my head that are filled with data (numbers, etc.). And that are connected by wispy looking “cables” to a very large borg-looking AI, rectangular “box”. In addition, I have seen this borg-like box many times and cables coming from it to me or my subtle body. I feel hatred for that thing.

I have a couple friends in persistent extremes, whom cannot seem to escape (one of whom is the one I’ve described earlier as unable to communicate with me). I sat down to try to figure this out and how to help them. They’ve described terrible dreams affecting them, so I decided to start by using this focus to help sort out the mess that seems to have them locked down.

The beginning of this focus I get a feeling like a dreamland, “airy fairy”, ‘glowy fairy balls’, misty and unspecific .. yet beyond this feeling is “extreme blocks” and can’t grasp what this is hiding .. this dreamy feeling gives off a sense of trying to make me “want to believe magic”

At the word “spooky“, I get a sense of shared / coordinated experiences to reinforce ‘validation’ of experiences (to make people believe something as true)

Beyond this, the blocks are rock solid, not budging. I can’t get past the dreamstate shit. So instructed my inner tech to connect to certain {hk+my own} focuses and run them concurrently as fast as possible to target what’s blocking me, while I continue to work with this focus.

I finally vaguely sense a layer passing through “reality strata?”, that seems to coordinate experiences? .. it feels like it ‘connects’ yet hard to discern its precise function .. seems influential/multi-functional

An image flashes extremely briefly in my mind of people all laying down, asleep, backs of their heads in this layer.

The view seems possibly representative of a matrix integration? and like there’s a layer in that integration substance that’s infusing dreams/influencing subconciousnesses/doing other things? into the matrix experience?

Now the back of my head feels like it’s attacking itself, as the ‘shit’ is squirming under what feels like a recursive logic breakdown or other type of method of “using it against itself” .. At “inner knowing’s” – feels like there are AI’s in my chest, third eye, inside my head that are overloading/imploding from what feels like “their own attack on themselves / recursive logic breakdown?/similar” — At “ANY individual consistently being given an advantage or disadvantage over OTHER individuals” . . – I get a sense that certain people have priority to be ‘sorted out’ / have issues resolved over others (and seems like some methods in use include sending their trauma / issues to ‘others’ to deal with).

And that my friends, who are in a terribly distressing state right now, have extremely low priority. (In the past, they’ve each told me individually they feel like they are ‘processing the world’s trauma’, and feel like they’ll never be able to get to their ‘own’ trauma)

Ex. 7 Focus 4 (scripted roles, etc). A feeling of panic and “I must have a role, or who am I?” Great fear and body starts shaking like in electric shock. See myself again in recliner type chair and helmet and electrodes. They are trying to break me, like break down any sense of real self. I must have a role and I can’t have a role are both being broadcast to me. I also re-read “noblesse oblige” several times and felt ashamed and self righteous. (In this life I have had feeling that I should be from aristocratic family and making decisions that affect the entire world. Like I am indeed more privileged and better and this is just how it is. Although my family is from small town and very middle class. I have also been somewhat obsessed with power lineages and families and feel like I was part of them but to do good, not to control.) When tuning in again I see myself in red environment and walking with grace and poise but like a mannequin. I have no choice but I have power. I still understand this is wrong, but am deadly afraid of giving up this role. Torture will result. When I read the part about ceremony, I saw myself in black mindlessly walking back and forth doing tasks. When tuning in to review the exercise, great confusion and fear arises. I feel afraid to let go of all the roles because I will just go into chaos and have no connection and be in a kind of hell. As I write this I realize this is false and a response to torture.

I feel like I’ve been plucked from the crowd and put into this nightmare narrative. I’ve been trying to connect to my original script and my alternate script to see why I keep being pulled into this narrative. I used different focuses this morning.

Feels like the two are at loggerheads, permanently locked against each other, with a vr experience projected over it to hide the conflict..?

I sense a ‘little me’ in the distance, that seems to have effects applied to it that affect me ‘here’.

I keep trying to escape this nightmare, one that just gets more and more bizarre but the ‘escape’ is presented to me as via “continuing to engage with the ‘nightmare narrative’ and the people I’ve written about”, but because they can’t see the anomaly that I discovered by creating my avatar, I feel they are lost in a narrative, so that doesn’t seem like the path out. But I can’t ‘stop’ engaging with this narrative. It’s destroying me. It’s not compatible with my life. The paradox is crushing me.

It feels like changes are being made that continue to add to this crushing pressurizing conflict that locks me down. It feels the changes don’t take into account the underlying circumstances that the anomaly suggests. Or maybe the changes are just revealing the “core still-unresolved lockdown”.. I don’t know. Regardless it’s getting more pronounced /extreme these days.

I sense ‘giant hands’ surrounding me, like a custom/handmade bespoke prison.. I’m shivering and my teeth are chattering as the tension and pressure continues to increase.

I see scripts flowing by me, and around me, like ribbons. They don’t feel like ‘me’ but they affect me somehow. I can’t describe the experience properly. My ears and body feel under extreme ‘REAL’ pressure and these scripts feel like they divert attention from me / mesmerize those whom may try to see me and keep them not able to see.

I feel like what I’m experiencing is not in the script, that it’s a real thing affecting the real me. I feel like focuses target the scripts, not me.

I feel a giant hand entering the back of my neck, like a manipulation being applied from outside the matrix via the interfacing perhaps?

I keep trying to read focuses and my throat feels painfully constricted and the words are empty, like the focuses aren’t being emitted as “intention bubbles” as I read them anymore, like the system reacted and shut me down, so they are just words on a page now.

I take a short break then I try one more: #3 Who I Am I feel like I see cookie cutters in my inner third eye screen. I feel a template overlaid over me, like a sewing pattern.

Much of paragraph 1 feels like a recipe, but at the word “multidimensional” I feel a kaleidoscope or bugs eye refraction type impression. At “retrospectively edited, altered” I feel like my script has ‘become’ me, ie, it’s all that I can perceive of ‘me’ anymore.

The phrase “… CORRECT CONTEXT in terms of the original experience” makes me feel there was a huge effort to make people believe the scripts, that originally people understood it was just a role to plug into and play, but a huge effort was made to disconnect them from the correct context so they’d forget their real bodies .. The phrase “..to prevent anyone from thinking about these and particularly enough such that they might figure out why ANY such changes to myself were made …” suggests that someone wanted to use my/our real bodies for something or for their own purpose?

3 and 4, more paradox and hopelessness. These narratives are mutually exclusive and my family will get hurt if I can’t extricate myself from the other.

Whenever i try to do the focusses the words change asking myself if im even able to read them like you orginally wrote them while i write this im actualy thinking if what im reading on your site is even remotely the same like you orginally wrote it. Especially with the whole realisation im not reading with my phiysical eyes and i keep seeing the word slave what really pisses me off i i hav any masters i will make sure they will be sincerly messed up.

after working with focus 4 i felt some pressure in my head (right side), felt slightly weird with some dissociation for half an hour. two hours after working with this exercise i felt very happy, released from shit and a great sense of serenity. nothing weird happening!!!

I get a feeling of an edited memory and wanting to know what the real circumstance was and how to record and or access it and know what the edit was and why. As I move into the feeling, I sense a feeling of pressure and expansion between my eyes and hearing commands “you will believe this. You will follow the storyline, beliefs, memories you’re given. You will not remember what really happened”. A feeling of a person pressing on bridge of nose and back of neck “you will believe this! You will believe what I tell you!” And he sounds frustrated: “you will go where I tell you. Do what I say.” He sounds aggravated like he’s putting in more controls because I keep defying the commands and he’s trying to make me fall in line. But everything he does to me just makes me smarter. But it feels like he finally gave me vr fake trauma and memories of family and love, and despite me knowing it’s not real it somehow created a dilemma for me..?? .. feels perhaps he made it a baseline/cornerstone trauma like Bernard’s “dead son” in Westworld,or Maeve’s love for her “daughter”, and it created inner conflict and confusion, and thus a weak point to insert controls ..? (I expereince this as a lever being jammed into a junction of ‘inner conflict’)

In section re things sabotaging investigations of myself, my heart started to ache and hurt and I connected to trauma from my heart “not being mine”- that it’s artificial and a replacement for some purpose. Lots of intense pain and tears. Later I had feelings of my body being made of plastic or other artificial material. The feel of it reminded of what Scarlett’s Johansson looks like in her latest movie (Ghost in the Shell). Her reconstructed body and the theme of the movie trailer felt very resonant with me (quote from movie trailer: “they did not save your life; they stole it”).

I sense progressively more intense management being applied to me .. as a test case to develop stronger and stronger management (feels like I was the best at resisting it so therefore the best to be used to test it), then more aggressively applied to control me (because I’d gotten so strong)..

Then feels like I or a part of me was stolen and someone with a lot less scruples did horrific things to try to instill management at a unreachable unbreakable core level

I try to explore this impression, but it’s extremely difficult. Vague impressions of feeling opened up and the part of me that “is” me feels rewritten or altered ??? Feels like this may have been done to me before I went to westworld/eaas/some other project??

I feel a prisoner in my own paralyzed and ‘taken over’/puppet body, like one of the paralyzed women in the Belle Chose episode of the Dollhouse series.

The paralyzingly extreme management feels almost 100% effective.

I spend time wanting to know ANYTHING I ever did that was of my own free will while in this extremely paralyzingly managed state. I try and try to remember, and feel like there ‘is’ something I did, that because of what I’d learned about the nature of reality, I’d somehow been able defy him at a fundamental level (like the designer of the Death Star built in a fundamental weakness at the core), but that I memory wiped myself so I couldn’t remember (I cry a lot at this point ..).

I spend time with other sensations and effects in my life: I feel isolated at a very very core deep level .. all alone (despite having loving family and friends). How I feel blindfolded, muted, deaf. Feeling my way through life with faint renderings of experiences, translated to a remote inner space like how digital tech can help the blind ‘see’ or the deaf ‘hear’ but it’s not like normal senses work. A singular mission. Singular design. This singular orientation is the reason I’m here, is the mission I’m designed for. Feelings of “No reason to engage with anything outside the mission.” Like being trapped in an vr world analogous to Neo plugging back into the matrix – if and when he went, why would he engage with anything non-mission-oriented there? It’s all fake and the place was gamed.

Trained to keep going when shit is applied to me .. because it will be. Batch after batch, to observe, record, research and understand how it works. But something of this memory feels edited or suppressed. Can’t access it.

I feel like my role as this ‘paralyzed slave” was to specifically target the ‘issues’ of the person whom altered me /controlled me /sandboxed me / paralyzed me, and make sure the system prioritized his issues over anyone else . and perhaps to try to find root issues or other priorities. Feels like I had an inner laboratory /inner tech to explore how things work, test strategies and implement them. Feels like I could transmit them to my splits /others I was connected to, frozen in their own body prisons, for us to execute a coordinated approach to this infiltration. Tipping the balance / “hacking from within”..?

Finally, an impression that my ‘friends’ who extremely sandboxed me may have been working for this person, executing his directives..? That this may not have been the eaas project I infiltrated – that perhaps it was another project (ndi?) I was sent to?? I get feelings that this person could see/predict what was going to happen and crafted a long range vision that started far in the past / in the earliest work done? ..later I sense I somehow skewed the ndi standards ..

Also a feeling I somehow was imprinted with the ‘issues’ of this person, along with other changes made to the system, so the system would apply them to ‘me’ and not ‘him’, for me to experience and ‘sort out’ on his behalf?? feelings of confusing convolutedness and bizarreness about the impact and ramifications of this ‘here’.

I go back to #1 of Focus 7, and at the final paragraph, “I fully and absolutely connect now to absolutely all sim software ‘script’ depositories, warehouses, deployment assessment engines and to absolutely all combinations of components protecting and defending absolutely anything of any of these“, I use different variations on scripts and depositories, and substitute “ANYTHING” for “components” protecting any of this, and sense something that feels sophisticated yet archaic, a feeling of using a live ‘animal or creature’ to protect ‘any of this’, (the feel is like “a dragon guarding a secret lair”), which typical detection or methods can’t work on. .. feelings of spells and witchcraft, of ancient technologies rooted in the past.

Hello, I have been reading various content on your website for a good time now and only now wanted to get in touch. I stumbled upon your page whilst living in Costa Rica(I am from South Korea by birth) and looking for self help on spirit attachment. Downloaded your self guidance e-Book with utmost eagerness and interest in pursuing these excersizes! Then I passed a slight moment of delay as after studying and reading more about our life being virtual I involuntarily entered a temporary state of drained energy and emotions as though it all seemed in vain. Thankfully afterwards I began realising that we are copies of our ‘souls’ that have put us here in the first place to learn something from this situation, so I am back on track and happy with my life once again. I am writing to you because after a failed first attempt to access my virtual reality insights a while back I am going to read these scripts again thus today will mark day 1 and I will try to keep up for a full 6 months! Doubtless like the most of the people here your work has helped me much in clearing and understanding whatever it is we are living in… It had been a while since I have read literature that really had me feeling ‘activated!’ Thank you for your dedication and hard work paving the way and making things a bit clearer for the rest of us. As for me, my continuing problems are 1. extreme fear at night and heavy energies, reocurring images like the devil and figure with black ringed eyes(totally random for me) leading to insomnia, comes and goes but lately has been a bit better as I have been trying to embrace it and control it 2. ADD, unable to focus a fixed period of time in doing one thing (realized this 2 days ago) 3. extreme laziness and fatigue that when given opportunity always steps in and doesnt give way. Rather simple things, but I decided to tackle these as they have been the most persistant and consistant problems that virtually affect me and my time greatly. As my study with your statements progresses I will let you know how it goes! Thank you for all, Seju

Hi Seju “I began realising that we are copies of our ‘souls’ that have put us here in the first place to learn something from this situation” . . . EEEHHH . . . this is equivalent to new age NICEY/NICEY/EVERYTHING IS UNFOLDING CORRECTLY ‘delusional’ bullshit, you/we/everyone here are in a simulation designed to traumatise/weaken/breakdown everyone here over 1000’s of years of incarnation each of us has to REPROGRAM the ‘soul/subtle form’ of the person we are simulating.

It really amazes me that the new age people are ‘STILL’ (do they all wear horse blinkers??) in a ‘this is about ‘evolving’ being transformed into a ‘greater/better’ versions of ourselves ‘delusion’ // it’s about being transformed into someone that will go along with whatever ‘shit’ is doled out to yourself/any others and being OK about. I read a lot from many different web sites daily, there is and has been for decades a steady/progressive degradation of all aspects of our lives/circumstances/options // a lot of people on this planet are in unbelievable/torturous circumstances // all happening and ongoing/getting worse while ‘strangely’ always completely immune to higher vibrations/love and light!!!!

OH, and I’m ‘NOT’ being negative here, I prefer being ‘realistic’ while recognising/targetting making efforts to address the root causes of what is actually going on . . . rather then have simulation management software ‘subverting’ my awareness to keep me in a disengaged happy clappy state while the earth ship lists and sinks with everyone on board!!!

What have the new age people been learning over the last 2/3 decades as they cling on while the entire ship very visibly continues to sink more and more rapidly over time?

Hi Clive, Thank you for the reply. Well, to be really honest, these realizations that you have addressed had been based on my readings from your articles, several of them… perhaps you have different thoughts now than the moment you wrote them. I would like to know more of your current view of the world if indeed your past articles do not represent you as you say.

I do agree that these whomevers whatevers just want to control destroy through endless tragedies. My question is, why? What is their ultimate goal in doing all this?

by the way, the strangest thing happened one night as I was reading your virtual realities page.. I was on the computer and as I scrolled down and my mouse hovered directly over the red bar at the bottom the red bar bounced from side to side back and forth! Is it supposed to do that? Thought it rather odd as I had not seen other moving bars or buttons on the rest of your site.

This is the most accurate website corresponding to reality we are living in. I was lead to a long search for logical answer why in my dreams I can see what day will bring forth for me or whom am going to talk with. Upon waking up I can remember my dream and as the day goes on I forget the details until it is re-triggered by a scene from my dream to validate what I have seen in my dream was an actuality. The pressing question was always preoccupying my mind; if future already has happened what free choice do I have?

I feel like I found the answer I was looking for. I must say, I am content with what is described in this resourceful website. The volume of this website is vast and as I read few pages validating some events that took in my life, I have no doubts that what takes place in this reality is a simulation program, an experiment to which we are subjected.

I have not experienced anything extraordinary while reading the focus one and two exercise. However, after reading the exercise in my dreams more frequently I see people I interacted with in my life. For a long time my inner knowing was telling me that the world I live in is not what it appears to be. I always felt an outsider in this reality.

I would like to take the opportunity to mention one event that happened a year ago.

While I was at home, at evening time, relaxing lying down on a couch and listening to a classical music with eyes closed and being fully conscious of my surrounding, a sound appeared from nowhere. The closest I can correlate the sound would be to hummingbird making sound.

As I was concentrating on the sound origin, I noticed my body started to stiffen up. As the sound shifted over above my forehead, the sound tone has changed to a scanner sound. The moment as the first wave of the scanner sound was passing over my body from my forehead down to my feet, every cell in my body I felt like was inflated with something. Upon reaching end of my feet, the scanner sound travelled back over my body to my forehead. Second wave of the scanner sound was taking back what was placed from the first wave.It felt like my blood was removed from my body. As soon as the second wave passed my feet, I felt something left my body. After the second scan, sound of the scan changed itself back to initial sound and disappear shortly after. The moment the sound disappeared, my body came back to original soft state again. Two weeks after the experience with the sound, as I was falling asleep, I felt a strong body jerk and I founding myself having sleep paralyses. I was on a table surrounded by some beings and before I was fully disabled, I pulled myself out from the sleep by waking up with having my right hand up in the air and saying “No more.”

Clive! If you find time to read my experience, could you express your opinion what could have happened to me? Thank You!

I had a couple of sleep paralysis in my teens years where I could feel a presence of a being and I never paid too much attention to that other than feeling fear upon waking up. My blood type is O- negative and some studies indicates most of abductees happened to have this type of blood. It is very possible I am simulating someone’s UFO abduction. I am not a psychic or have any special spiritual traits other than seeing in my dreams related to my life’s future events or seeing beyond deception. I had an experience while bow hunting for moose and as an opportunity presented itself to target a young cow from a very close distance, the released arrow changed direction before hitting the target. Strange as it might be, latter the same day a rabbit I was shooting at, disappeared in front of my eyes. The unusual experiences lead me to become vegan. While being vegan, one day I found myself unintentionally in a mediating state in a void – complete darkness and before regaining my awareness of having physical body… I received message “Love the things you did not come from”. For a very long time I feel like I do not belong in here.

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Clive December 7, 2018 at 4:24 pm on What are Dark Forces & Demons & Why are they Against the Light?Hi Jessica, yea, if you've' a decent scale of 'education/interests' there are clues to all sorts of our duplicated population's simulation here reinforcing sub agenda's/objectives with respect to specific peoples/groups/sub groups that also go way, way back in earth 'history'

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Why a simulated copied population with technological advances slowed down will present anomalous experiences due to the high technology enhancements & implants 'necessary' for these experiences being 'missing' here.