If, like me, you’ve been waking up in a cold sweat at night, panicking that Rachel is going to give her final rose to the overly suave Lothario known as Bryan, then this exclusive clip of The Bachelorette‘s Monday finale may help you sleep a little easier.

The duo are on a romantic winery date, but the mood is clearly “awkward” — Bryan’s term — as both he and Rachel are still reeling a bit from Bryan’s tense hometown visit with Rachel’s family. Bryan tells Rachel that he doesn’t want her family to think he has “anything to hide,” but he can’t help but feel that the Bachelorette’s mind is somewhere else. “Today was a little rough,” he admits. “I felt that she wasn’t all there.”

And, yes, Rachel does seem to be having second thoughts about her Miami-based suitor. “I’m struggling with the decisions that are coming,” she says. “I don’t know…”