Actually, this is not the first time I'm alone celebrating new year's eve, because years before, where my family is abroad celebrating new year from christmas, I choosed to stay home with my dog, except on 2015 when I'm able to finally go back to Hongkong.

What's difference this year is, I'm actually alone far from home, on a new island. Actually, what I'm aware is that, I'm just like a water that's following the flow on where I'm currently stay. The point is I try to be strong and faithfull, and to realize that when you're travelling there will always be a risk that you must bear and endure by your self, because that is the real meaning of being independent.

However I am now, I'm very gratefull for 2016, a year that for me, is filled with surprises and life lessons, where sadness and happiness comes in turns. But I think I'm gonna skip the sad one's and focus on the happy side of 2016, let the sad part be only known for a few people, because not everyone will understand and maybe starts to ask questions of why my blog is filled with tears and starts to think if this is actually a blog or atlantic ocean hahahaha...

The world is always turning, tears will always be there, because without tears, our life will be empty. Just be gratefull that we can still cry, because that means that we can still "feel" something. My best friend Boy once joked with me by saying "that tears of your's seems to qualified to be a pearl, right?" lol i found that question to be funny at that time lol

My happiness on 2016 is, i met with new remakrable people, that's becoming my new best friends in my life. Although they're relatively new to me compared to my best friends back in Jakarta, which have been my friends for more than 15 years, they're still awesome. They're so underatanding and always there when I'm down (not up). They always help me wipe my tears off, help me in realizing my dreams, a little by little, but sure..

From here, I believe that there's n such thing as coincidence, it's all been arranged by The All Mighty. I'll tell you about how I met with them on my future post.

The point is, what has happened on the years before can not be taken for granted, because believe it or not on the next year it will all continue, because God will never create a story without an ending, there will always be an ending, and for this i had a quote from line's "The Story of Life" which is "God always have a happy ending, if your story don't have one, than your story is not yet finished."

So finally, I want to say, thank you and good bye 2016, I will never forget you, because you gives meaning to my life, my life becomes colourfull because everythings that happened in you, my trip there make me understand what's the meaning of survival and to strive when everyone underestimate me, the experience that I gained, that made me appreciate all the meating with new people, all the experience that taught me not to taken granted all of my intuition and dreams.

And I welcome you 2017, I know you're gonna be much more incredible, because I've learned a lot of valuable lesson on 2016, and I know that you're the future of my good dreams, you will complete my dreams and hopes, which is delayed on the years that had passed, I can't wait to meet you...

Special thanks for my new friends which have been here accompanying me for the last few months : Boy, Evelyn, Idham, Mbak Ayu who made me excited in making my dream comes true, and also for my old friends on #Mythology you're irreplaceable..., our friendship will be a legend....

I love you all.. and will always need you all

Thank you very much

And have a happy new year for all of you, with friends and family and your love ones....

She missed her lover. She really missed him, but she doesn’t have the courage to call him first, not because of pride or selfishness, but as a woman, she's afraid to look annoying when she called him first, afraid that he see her like she’s overacting, she can only cry by herself in her room and pray deep within her heart "I hope he's alright and always remember me."-m.m.l.a-

A long time ago, when I was still a child,I thought that Christmas is a celebration where I'm going to spend a lot of time playing and receiving a gift, besides of going to the church.
Christmas is filled with joy where there's a lot of tree's that's decorated with beautiful lamps, eating together on beautiful places, vacation abroad with our family..

Have we all wonder, who should get a gift? Have we all wonder, what have we gave Him for His birthday? What did He wanted from us?
This moment and this second, I have my own way about Christmas.

Oh, it turns out, Christmas is the birth of the world savior named Jesus Christ. Christmas turns out that it doesn't require us to party with the gift, because we're the one that should gave a gift to Him.

Christmas turns out to be more meaningful when I was alone and contemplate.. talk heart to heart with Him personally without there’s others to hear what we talked about.. it's a beautiful moment.

He, who had sacrificed everything for us without asking for anything back.
He, who always faithfully wait for us to realize the meaning of His love.
He, who always understand that we often forgot about Him because of our activities
He, who always whispers soft words for us, so that we turn to Him
He, who doesn't mind to greet us first even thought that He is far more valuable than us
Have we follow His lead?

It turns out, this year Christmas, even though far from everyone, I begin to feel that this Christmas is the real one, because even He the great one, was born with modesty, yet He can be meaningful for all the living things on earth.

For all of you that celebrated Christmas..Merry Christmas.. may the peace of Christ be with you all..Enjoy your holiday with your family and love ones.

Dear Mom,Thank you for teaching meTo be a tough woman, even when I’m hurtTo understand the meaning of being independentTo understand that to be able to choose your own way is very valuableTo understand that all things need time, process and struggle, right till the last drop of blood.To understand that we need to take care what's valuable before we lost it.To understand what the meaning of loyalty and survival.Thank you for giving birth to a world that is filled with injustice..so I learned to be fair at least to my selfThank you for giving birth to me to a world that's filled with falsity.. so that I learned to be honest to my heart and myself.Thank you for all the valuable lessons that you showed me,Once again thank you... I hope God will always take care of you, Watch you and give you happiness,Because I know how much I tried to make you happy but all of that will never be enough for all dreams and all the fight that you've done.I love you.. even though, I sometimes can’t say the words, But believe me, even though that everything that I've done sometimes goes outside of your dreams and even though that we fight a lot, I still love you and will never ever hate or forget about you... I just want to grow up and finally, make you proud that you've gave birth to meBecause in the end I know what I need and what I'm looking for

Lot's of people see her happy, not a little even admire her, but not a little also women that hate her. Women hate her because they envy her.

She asked within her heart, "Are those who hated me, willing to swap their place with me? Going trough all the hardships alone, deciding things alone or crying here, alone? Ahh.. looks like they didn't know about all the wounds that I had.. all the pain that I had, they think I'm allright, but they don't know how many wounds and tears that I had and been through, how many life obstacles that I had and been through? Did they know that I actually had enough of this? If they want to switch position with me, I'll be gladly to switch with them."