We told my girls last night that I was pregnant. I gave them each a envelope 1 said the month 1 said the day and 1 said the year inside. Then we had a cake to say "Its a Boy". My 1 daughter cried and the other 2 were shocked but excited. It went better than I expected because they have made little comments that they didn't want anymore babies in the house. They were all talking last night about moving bedrooms. I only have 2 bedrooms downstairs and 5 bedrooms upstairs. We decided to keep the baby in our room for awhile and leave Neela in her room until she is about 2 1/2. We will then move Neela upstairs. We also went out and looked for a big girl bed for Neela. I don't want to buy another crib.

Nhenriot â€“ Thanks for starting the thread. I hear you on the waitingâ€¦.still waiting for my first scan grr.Time hurry up please!Hope you donâ€™t get MS, sometimes symptoms can just kick in at 6 wks fx the MS leaves you alone!

Erica â€“ Awh big hugs sounds like you are having a rough time.EDD looming is a huge thing.For me the build up was almost unbearable, I just didnâ€™t know how to cope with my feeling and I was probably at my most craziest before.I hope you find a way to scramble through.Hope your MS gets easier, dare I say it that mine is more under control, mainly by cheese! I am not joking hereâ€¦.I just eat every two hours. If I donâ€™t I really get the sick feeling and I cannot get rid of it. I am even waking in the night for food, ridiculious!

Jodi â€“ Love it, love that your more relaxed and a healthy rainbow, these words are the best words ever! So cute that you told your kids and the cake, lovely idea.

G4Papa â€“ I cannot believe you still have 18 tests! I hear you on the anxiety side of not testing though, its like fight or flight!Yeah I have been short/snappy but I am blaming my hormones and the pressure, I think we are under, I mean sometimes it just comes out of my with a bit of snappish, I think itâ€™s allowed.

Arts â€“ I hear you on playing catch up with jobs, I just need to catch up with everything, and I just cannot fit it around my munching schedule J. You must hold a world record for POAS lol!

Angelboy â€“ Glad spotting stopped and lots of luck Thursday, so mice to have another peak at little bean.

Singing â€“ FX the cysts have cleared off at scan next week.I have been wondering about the stress we are under too, I know we are built for stress and all that but it seems for us we go from one wait to the next! Anyway know that you are not alone in this we all have different milestone to reach and so did the ladies before us who now have healthy rainbows, thatâ€™s what I keep thinking of when I think I am stressing the lil bean!

Socal â€“ your post warmed my heart, bless your Mum wanting to tell the world, so cute! I think we will relax when we can see our rainbows up until then we can only try and stay sane and positive as much as we can manage.Love that you have a picture, yay!

Laura â€“ looking forward to your update on the scan tomorrow! Hope MS leaves you alone soon its just blah!!

Billy â€“ Hope arrhythmia is gone! FX you can cross it off your worry list.

Heyalenia â€“ Hope you have a wonderful second scan!!

AMG â€“ Hope everything goes well with the apt on Friday and you get the results back, maybe then you will feel a little better about telling people, sometimes I want to burst out with it then the next minute I want to keep it secret until July!

Welcome heartistique!

First of all - Sorry that I didn't update that because I had my first appointment with the OB and high risk team they cancelled my normal midwife appointment! Sorry guys but thanks for thinkinkg of me. I have nothing until Xmas eve! Tick Tock!

Secondly, most of you know my stress waiting for genetic....wait for it...I DON'T CARRY CAH....I DON'T CARRY CAH!! Sorry but it feels so good! Niall actually carries it but the chances of our baby being affected are low because I don't have the same gene mutation. So they gave a 1/650....I'll take that thanks and now time to exhale for five minutes before the next hurdle.

Hey you know I'm psychic right? Arts? LOL I had a dream I had triplets last night, woke up sweating thinking thank god that was a dream! Don't think I will tell OH he might pass out.

QOTW - I poas 11 times I think! Which I thought was pretty high until I checkd the thread.

Welcome heartistique! I txed in 2010 too. Sometimes I feel like I'm one of only ones on here that txed that long ago and still doesn't have a rainbow in my arms. Wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy and that this is your take home rainbow!

Just wanted to say thank you all so much for your kindness and words of comfort. The MS got so bad that I finally caved and called the doctor this morning, who called in a prescription for Reglan...which they say is much cheaper than Zofran so if I get up the nerve to take medicine I will actually be able to afford it, which is good. I've been throwing up before and after classes and it's getting pretty hard to hide.

sweetsMC thank you so much for your loving and empathetic words. We haven't decided what we are going to do yet for ^Darby^'s EDD...might just light a candle and play some music...or might just feel the need to sleep all day. If we get a holiday tree I will probably put some commemorative ornament up there. Right now I carry some of his ashes in an engraved urn around my neck and that gives me some comfort and sense of closeness to him, but I know the 19th will bring up all other sorts of buried emotions. I am so, so grateful that this forum is here and that I can be honest and authentic instead of having to hide everything. I've been doing a lot of hiding lately, with the pregnancy and leading everyone to think I'm doing much better than I really am...so it feels so good to be able to come here and just breathe.

Thank Nicole for hosting. Hoping the next three weeks go fast for you!

Erica: My EDD is right around yours (mine 12/15). I can completely relate to the should haves right now. The "baby's first xmas" outfits really kill me. I have been having a lot of sadness around this. I'm having vivid memories of the acutal tx often and that has been instensfying my sadness. Glad to hear you got an alternative med. Hoping it works for you if you decided to go that route.

tejod-Hoping you get some stuff done around the house as planned. With the tireness, it's been hard getting stuff done around here. Agree on the warm weather. I'm next door in WI and I'm loving it too. Although, it makes it a little hard to think that Christmas is just around the corner.

G4P: I'm glad you said that about resentment about the first trimester symptoms. I feel the same way. I too have been short, esp with my girls. It is intesified if I am hungry or tired (which I am most of both lately).

Arts: 36 must be a record!!! Love it. Hope you get to your should haves this week. That's awesome that you are doing some exercise. I have been so lazy here. Thanks for the inspiration.

Angelboy: Glad to hear that the spotting is gone. Good luck with your 2nd u/s on Thursday.

singing: Hoping that tomorrow goes well and that the cysts are gone.

SoCal: that is awesome that you have your beautiful NT scan pics to look at. Just so happy for you.

Pje12: congrats on graduating!

lauralu2012: I'm envious of your time off for the end of year-enjoy! Good luck with your ultrasound tomorrow.

amg76: Good luck with your 2nd tri results. Turkey bacon is probably okay. Just watch the salt, esp if you are retaining any fluids (swollen feet/ankles).

AFM: I am getting ready to leave for my first appt and ultrasound. I am so anxious. Just hoping there is a little bean with a healthy heartbeat. I've been sad about my EDD coming up, but trying not to let it consume me.

QOTW: Well I acutally went to the bathroom and counted. 9 preg test peed on and several OPK's (love the smiley face!).