In January of 2005, my son C. died. Then he was born. These are the 8 million pieces of my life, as I pick them up,one by one.

And now, featuring the addition of our second beautiful child, BB and his lovely sister E.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Where did the words go?

Well, I am really getting to that point where it is a chore to write a post. When I started this blog, the words poured out of me because they needed to. Now? I think I have cleared enough space in my head that I have room for the words that I have to deal with in there.

This is not some sort of "stopping blogging" announcement. But it is a "don't expect too many posts" announcement. Like you didn't know that already. :)

I have worked at keeping my real life and my blog life totally separate. So now, when life is less about grief and more about, well, life... I don't have as much I can share here. I could brag/complain about my job, brag/complain about my family, brag/complain about other trivialities... well, this doesn't seem to be the forum for it. I have my daily struggles, but those things just don't seem to belong here.

The main question that remains is the question of future children. For now, I guess it is just still a question. If we make a decision on that point, or if life makes the decision for us, I will let you know.

This is no "goodbye", but I may as well say "thanks". Thanks for coming back to read (or keeping me on your reader), even though I so rarely post. It means a lot.

You know, it's good. It's good that there are enough good things in your life to take up your time and attention in the here and now. But I think I am with Cara-- they come in waves, and whenever they come, we will be here. Because yes, you are in my reader. :)

Just wanted to say thank *you* for all of your posts over the past few years. It has helped so much to read about your thoughts, hopes and fears, especially when they were often so close to my own. I kind of arrived at the same place as you regarding blogging several months ago. I still peek into Bloglines every now and then, though, so if/when you decide to post again, I'll be sure to read it (eventually!). Take care!