Monday, February 05, 2007

It's Been...

a while since I had my last post. I have tons of pics to upload and share with you guys however my laptop made during the 18th century won't let me. He's again trying to tell me that he's the boss and I am just a bossaboss. Yes I pertain to him as a "he" cos' he's so bossy, too moody and feeling grouchy all the time. He can be a dependable guy but you have to get on his good side. As of the moment he's blaring with my Snow Patrol CD and telling me to stop fretting about school, stop worrying about Ben and to stop acting really stupid. I told him I need Prozac, not directly actually but he read it through an email I made to my bestfriend. Another email for Ben later and hell he'll know I'm feeling all crappy cos I am very worried. This guy was my bestfriend in my loneliest hours (this IBM laptop not Ben). He's been with me in my nicest days, he laughed with me and he cried with me he also scolded me through emails I received from concerned citizens. Why am I blabbing about my laptop? Simply because he deserves praises - malapit na syang magretire hehehe. Nga ba? Depends on Luchie.

Segue, midterms now finish... on with the race for finals. I admit I am always absent, with all the right reasons. I got sick, I need to finish something for work, I had an emergency and then I got sick again, I feel bad during the day that I don't want to go to school in the evening and the classic excuse (na di naman dapat), I think I'll be called in the recit and I am not prepared. Estudyanyte blues hehehe na di ko ika-a-asenso. Di naman ako tamad na estudyante because I have reasons why I am always NOT in the classroom instead of being inside. I now cross my fingers... sana I'll pass the QPI. Sayang naman should I decide to continue.

I've been missing a lot of people lately. Ofcourse my sweetie - I wanna go where she is to celebrate her birthday with her this March (di ko girlfriend ok? I still like boys, we both do hehehe). My Kuya Berns, Kuya Berns ano ka ba, the guy on the pic with me is paboritong pinsang "Darwin" heller look closer mama na kase si Win eh. I miss my pamangkins, I miss my other girls... the Jologs, exMLAers (so looking forward to the slumber party), Tita Kimmy, my Pops, Boks Jian, Jude and Ben. Yes walang kupas na si Ben. I miss him so much that I don't know where to begin.

No it's not hormones, not even close to the time of the month. I'm just feeling really low, missing my friends. I don't have the time to meet them anymore, buti na lang Philip has a racket lately that I consider meeting up with him & other friends for coffee as gimmick already. I miss my late night tambay with friends at GB3. I miss them all period. Sinisira na ng law ang buhay ko, ang social life ko hehehe. Can't wait for the summer vacation. I am so looking forward to spending time at the beach, gala with friends and go really far, out of the country not go back ever again, sleep late, tumakas at magpa ampon kay Marco.

Now get the picture? I really need meds for my fucked up mind.

PS: Advance Happy Birthday to the following:

another fave cousin of mine - Nicole who'll be turning 18 next week.my good friend VinaChris Tan (nasan ka na?)another friend Nenengny niece Mengayetc... if I ever I miss out anyone I know its my fault!

I think I am watching everything from space - sabe sa Finish Line song ng Snow Patrol. Yan din feeling ko minsan. There are times when I see my life rolling by while I stood motionless on the sideline. It's a weird feeling seeing your life get pass through you. Parang buhay na patay ka. Meaningless yet full of emotions. I know some of you get it others don't. Sa mga nakakagets, thanks sa pakikiramay.