Monday, April 12, 2010

Help?

remember my long weekend?
this is of the few photos I have of that weekend, since I was meant to entirely disconnect and, you know..

This is my cousin, Mohamed, he is more than a cousin to me, he is also my very close friend :)
I am keeping my friends close since my friends and family are all I have at the moment. I am going through a very hard time. And by hard I mean, not easy! (I am known for pointing out the obvious, mind you)

So, simply, I need all the positive thoughts and wishes you can send my way. I need to find direction, and I need to make a major, life-changing decision.

The thing is, I suck at making decisions. I hate it! Having to make a decision makes me anxious and panicky- yes, I know, I need to grow up and so on. But I just hate making decisions, am I the only one?

Lots of positive thoughts from me to you darling!!!! Making decisions is not easy but even if the decision you will make is not "right" in the future then there will be a reason for it and it will maybe lead you to something even better! Don't stress to much about making a decision! :)

As cliche as it sounds ... follow your heart, I know you'll be able to make the right decision for you ... don't listen to what other people think you should do with your future, it's yours :) Definitely sending positive thoughts your way, and I hope your friends and family will too!

And ooo, that 30-day idea is really neat, I like it! Plus it gives a good reason to blog every day haha :)

sugar!growing up is the scariest thing and don't let anyone convince you otherwise. don't make any decisions until you're ready to and until you believe in them with most of your heart. we are still so young and have so much time to live. that being said, wasting any of it doing something you don't love will break your heart faster than an elephan breaks an eggshell.

whatever decision you make will be the right one because you will make it be the right one. the best part about life is that we can make the whole experience our own. i'm excited for the big changes in your life. i know they will be wonderful and they will continue to shape you into the person you are. plus, you can always alter your course later down the path, as you gain more experience. good luck!! i know you'll make the best decision for you. sending lots of positive vibes your way!!

Get to know me

I am a sunny person.
I can be reckless, impulsive and dependent.
I can be stupid.
I cry. I am a happy soul. One that is random.
I want to keep records of my life for days to come, to show my children. And for those days when my memory fails me.
I believe in growing. And not growing up; you grow in all directions- not just up.
I believe in me.