All posts tagged Unintended

Unintended
A reminder, that dug deep into my heart.Seemingly unintended, yet sharply unkind.So, I let it slide back, to that place inside.To be stored again, on the edge of my mind.

Subtle and unintentional. Cruelly unnecessary.A mention of things that I am well awareSlid out to me, with an unknown intentSuch a sad reminder, so doubly unfair

I could only assume that you were unawareSo, I closed the door, and locked out the badSpent a moment alone, in your bathroom mirrorEmerged with a smile. And without the mad.

Yet, I can’t even fathom why you said what you saidAnd I am positive that you don’t even knowOn any other, more certain nightMy first instinct would have told me to go

But, I wouldn’t have.

This has little bearing on the respect that I have.Typically, thoughtful, in most you say and most you do.It’s more a self-analysis, of my coping skills.Ninety-eight percent about me, and only a bit about you.

A reminder, that I didn’t need to hear.About something that I can’t control.A reality, always on the edge of my mind.An unintended reminder of my limited role.

This is not the first time that I have felt this wayAnd, certainly, it will not to be the lastSuch painful reminders feel doubly unfairUnintended entendre, of both present and past

Of circumstances, that I can barely graspChoices, life’s evolution, and some of my fearsSet situations, that are beyond my reachReluctant adjustments made over the years

Yet, just as I find a semblance of acceptanceThere it is, pushed out at me all over againTo be pulled back inside, in one irreverent momentMe, not certain why. You, not knowing when.

I wanted, intently, to discuss it with you then.But it seemed somehow misplaced in the dark of your view.So, I kept it inside. Until I could write it, instead.From the edge of my mind, like I always do.