Saturday, October 30, 2010

I don't remember having drifted away from anyone. If I am gone from the friendship or love relationship, I always make the closure. If that someone does not know or does not recognize the closure, I am sorry that you are pig-headed.

There are reasons for parting ways:

1) Distance brought about by change of residence, change of jobs or change of interests. I always communicate, though - through letters or emails , text messages, phone calls, unless you have also caused me the next item.

2) Disappointment. I could be disappointed that you did me wrong like being dishonest with me, stealing from me or from my loved ones - all the while pretending that you have the best intentions for me and my loved ones. I have loved you before but constant dishonesty and theft wear me down. You who knows me, you whom I've loved and I've been fond of, you who I've been proud of. I am at a loss how I could help you, but I also have to protect myself and my other loved ones from you.

3) Disgust. You are disgusting as you covet what is rightfully mine. You who always think that the grass is greener on the other side need counsel. You might be sick inside your head. Or if you are right in thinking that my grass is actually greener, you could make yours greener too by working on your own grass instead of attempting to drive me out of my place so you could enjoy my grass! As I said, I did not drift away from you. I told you that I am not comfortable with you anymore and I am gone - our friendship is kaput. Goodbye.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

I so wish that you have met your life partner by now. It's been a long time since we've talked - - over the phone. Yes, everything began and ended in a phone call. Our 'relationship' is based on phone conversations anyway. Your parents disapproved of me because 1) We have different religions, 2) I am married, and to a Christian, although we've been separated when you and I met, 3) I have two daughters, 4) I am older than you, 5) I am not from your country, 6) Mentally and emotionally, you are a little slow, although you compensate with great understanding of me and generosity to me and my family. So many obstacles but at that time (2002 ) you (and I sometimes thought too), that love conquers all.

I am sorry that our 'relationship' did not work out, it was doomed at the very beginning. You kept calling me at my place of work during lunch breaks. I knew you were so lonely and emotionally needy. I thought I could be your 'surrogate' mom and I could offer you a shoulder to cry on. I do that to almost everyone who needs me, thinking that people would also do that to my daughters who were far away from me then. You were unstoppable with your romantic notions as regards our 'relationship' and told your parents about 'us'. I admit that there was a time that it crossed my mind to throw caution to the wind and imagine living life with you. I know it would be so difficult. I know that more than ever now, it would be impossible.

I am sorry that you found it hard to forget me and move on. You are a very generous, innocent and forgiving man. I know that in your heart of hearts there is goodness and forgiveness no matter how much your family 'painted' me as a bad person. I refused to communicate with you again over the phone or via email as I would like you to move on and find a suitable partner that your parents would approve. I pray hard that you are happy where you are now. God bless you.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

For this writing assignment, I don't have any person in this category, 'Letter to the Person I Hate Most/Caused Me a Lot of Pain', but you are the most likely candidate, so I am addressing this to you.

I don't hate you that much, you did not really cause me lots of pain, as I mentioned above. We had a short relationship - about three months. You lived in my house, paid me for your board and lodging, too. You insisted on it, you told me you would have paid the same amount had you stayed in a hotel or apartelle. that was decent and generous of you.

My pride was hurt when you chose my housemaid over me. You denied having a relationship with her. I could believe that, because a few hours of tumbling in bed does not make a relationship. And you may use the excuse of the infamous former president "Oral Sex Is Not Intercourse". And even you if preferred her for her youth and lithe body, your relationship did not have a chance, as she was afraid to go with you out of the country. She was very afraid too of living with an old man by herself! Did you not know that to a housemaid, flirting with and stealing 'Ma'am's' husband or partner is the ultimate fantasy? Did you not know that to an ambitious village girl, a foreigner is synonymous to dollars or Euros?

You must have known that by now, even as you are now outside of the Philippines and living in Thailand. You tried to come back to me, but I would not have you anymore. It took me time to forgive you, and until now I can not forget what a jackass you are. Thai girls and women don't differ much from Filipinas. No wonder that until now you are without a partner. I know that you prefer young girls as you have this fantasy of having a sex slave. Fat chance, old man. Your other illusion is that my then eight year-old daughter was in love with you, and you even called her Lolita! Your randiness is only exceeded by your ignorance. Despite everything, I still wish you a nice life.

We're are practically neighbors yet we don't see each other at all. I miss the days when you were just a text message away. I miss our coffee and tete-a-tete almost everyday. I miss the days when looking from our window, I could see you playing scrabble with our young girl neighbors. We call them young girls because they have not reached forty years yet, and they looked like young girls with their svelte figures and carefree attitude. Too bad that you transferred at the Sunset apartments and later one of the young girls that we befriended flirted with your husband.

I feel your pain; I could also relate because one other young girl flirted with my husband too. Yesterday you sent me a text message while you were in the city having your chemotherapy. Maria, it's sad to know that your cancer is acting up again. And sadder still is that you suspect the girl who flirted with my husband as having an affair with your husband now. What to do, what to do........It must be so difficult to be sick and away from your loved one. I pray for your speedy and total recovery. I pray that these young girls don't seek 'greener pastures' in the arms of our husbands. I miss you Maria. I have not told you yet how this young girl flirted with my husband and how I was able put an end to it before it escalated to a fling or to an extramarital affair. I wish so much I could help you now.