journalist, author, and editor based in New York City, who grew up in Sweden and New York.

The Truth Barrier has not been publishing for many months, due to technical complications that seemed insurmountable to me but weren’t at all. All I had to do was focus on it and fix it.

I am glad to be publishing again and I hope to gradually restore the site to the way it was before it crashed and all the design and formatting was lost.

A very important note, going forward:

If my fierce opposition to “the left,” “globalism,” “identity politics,” and/or my growing embracement of Christianity bothers you then this website will bother you. I will no longer, this time, allow tantrums in the comments section. I will always allow discussion, debate, etc but not tantrums seeking to convert me to a leftist or an atheist.

Not as we are but as we must appear,
Contractual ghosts of pity; not as we
Desire life but as they would have us live,
Set apart in timeless colloquy.
So it is required; so we bear witness,
Despite ourselves, to what is beyond us,
Each distant sphere of harmony forever
Poised, unanswerable. If it is without
Consequence when we vaunt and suffer, or
If it is not, all echoes are the same
In such eternity. Then tell me, love,
How that should comfort us—or anyone
Dragged half-unnerved out of this worldly place,
Crying to the end ‘I have not finished’.

If Candace Owen is not “evil,” or “right wing,” then what hope is there for the coherence of the media’s hate symphony? Will Kanye now be retro-fitted as evil or right wing? Will “crazy” work? Probably not. Seems like Game Over, to me. Bear in mind, for propaganda to succeed, there must be NO interruptions of message. No hiccups. No deviations. Kanye is doing what a real artist does, which is disrupt established patterns of conformist, consensus “reality.” Nobody should be surprised. There were indications long ago, that he was not hammered into place, had not surrendered his voice. Was in control of his own mind, though it was clearly an epic battle.

His Twitter feed is suddenly America’s Berlin Wall. And we are all heading over, or are there already. Birds too, are flocking there. And some people thought to bring champagne. What is being celebrated?

The sound of a bird I had never heard before. I didn’t even know for sure if it was a bird. It was calling–Ceeaw! Ceeaw! Ceeaw! and I stopped short. I looked out at the fire escape. The window was open on the bottom. I stood on high alert, felt this was a meeting, and an important one.

“I hear you, but I don’t see you,” I said.

Then he showed himself, flew up on the the railing, as I gasped. He looked at me, then flew off. A magnificent Bluejay. It felt personal, that he had come booming out of the cold milky Manhattan sky to my fire escape, just as I stood there, to tell me something, just at the last moment of bearability. And I got it.

“Thank you,” I whispered.

A radiating warmth filled my consciousness, and for the first time in so very long, the fear was gone.

“Please come back,” I said.

The next day, today, I heard him again, calling to me. I raced to the kitchen window and he did the same thing. Looked at me, then flew off in such a perfect curved arc, his blue-black wings so perfect and striking. In all our years of feeding the birds on the fire escape, I’d never seen any other bird but pigeons and brown doves. (Whom I love.)

I told Dean, who is teaching me how to pray: I got two signs.

“Don’t secularize them,” he wrote.

I never doubted this bird for a moment. He came to give me a message. Twice. I was so moved. I began waiting for him, by the window. Why did I know he would return. I was out of seeds and there as no food in it for him.

“Live!” he cried. “You must live!”

He knew I was choking to death on ugly modernity, and that I had committed the sin of despair in recent days.

“Look at me,” he said. “I’m the truth.”

(It would have been funny if he said, “Forget Twitter,” but he didn’t. I don’t think my majestic friend would ever say “Twitter.”)

It was only when I thought of him that I felt a spark of hope.

Then I heard him again, late this afternoon. I dashed to the window and saw him yet again. Three visits, in two days. Tears came into my eyes.

I held onto the bars of the window gate and looked at the sky where he had flown off.

Three visits. I wondered why he seemed so familiar. The way he needed to get ahold of me. Just like Guy used to sound on the phone.

“Guy?” I said. “Is that you?”

Guy Alexis Obolensky.

He always said I had to make it. I had to do my work again. I had to write, and that we both had to survive this cruel age. At the very least, survive the winter, so he could re-build the machine in the spring.

The last time he called me I was on another call.

His death broke me. I lay on my back sobbing and unable to move when I got the text from John.

All winter–fossilized by grief. Nothing mattered, not The Truth Barrier–nothing.

When I publish a piece called “The Machine Whisperer,” you will know who he was.

I told him over and over that he could not leave me here alone.

Also, in life, he came flying in like that, in blue, in his famous blue smock. He shook my hand so warmly. It was the beginning of the most important friendship of my life. A gift I did not deserve.

If the bird does not come back, I will remember him, and his message, to be brave, and good. As he is.

It gets creepier every time I watch it. Below the video is a link to Sinclair’s self description, which is itself Orwellian. They call themselves “…the most diversified television broadcasting company In America today.”

You couldn’t make this up.

May this viral video wake Americans up once and for all, the the fact that we have been–for decades– under the heavy spell and attack of a “media” that is a fully loaded propaganda weapon aimed at all times at your sense of reality and morality.

“Nothing has changed in the process by which an individual is Possessed by personal and intelligent evil. Nothing has changed, either, in the requirements for successful Exorcism of a Possessed individual. All of that remains as described and summarized in the chapters and cases that follow. What have changed are the conditions of the society in which we all now live. To a far greater degree than most of us could have imagined fifteen or so years ago, a favorable climate for the occurrence of demonic Possession has developed as the normal condition of our lives. In 1976 Satanism was presented, and was probably regarded by most Americans, as a box office and a bookstore draw. In fact, Hostage to the Devil was intended as a clear warning that Possession is not—nor was it ever—some tale of dark fancy featuring ogres and happy endings. Possession is real; and real prices are paid. Now,”

― Malachi Martin, Hostage to the Devil: The Possession and Exorcism of Five Contemporary Americans

“When we’re talking about the climate industrial complex…first of all you’re talking about multi-billion [dollar] American foundations. We’re talking about the various Rockefeller funds, you’re talking about Pew, MacArthur. These huge, huge foundations who’ve been funding some of this stuff really since, well, the Rockefeller Foundation’s been funding [since] the [influx of the] Frankfurt School.

When the Frankfurt School, these far-leftist, post-Marxist academics from Germany fled Nazi Germany, they came to America. Part of their time here was financed by these foundations. Their return was financed by one of the Rockefeller Foundations. They’ve been in this game for a very long time, and in addition to which, you then have all the climate scientists and the billions of dollars of climate funding research. They depend on that stream. They’ve got to keep this going to keep the grants coming. And then you’ve got the wind and solar [movements]. And that’s not billions, that’s hundreds of billions [of dollars supporting the relevant organizations]. It’s enormous.

And then out in front of those, you’ve got what I call the “shock troops” of the climate industrial complex: The NGOs. [These include] [n]ot just the people at the World Resources Institute, if you like — they’re the more respectable kind of intellectual end of it — but you’ve got the people who go out there, like Greenpeace and Friends of the Earth, the Bill McKibbens of this world. And again, when you look where they get their money, it comes a lot from these large foundations, West Coast foundations. And it comes from Silicon Valley billionaires. So we are talking about something that is very large, very powerful and extremely well financed.”

“But the second thing is to do with the way the climate industrial complex behaves, and how they seek to win the argument, and that is to close down debate; it is to delegitimize dissent; it is to cull people into silence. And the penultimate chapter in the book is called, “The Spiral of Silence,” which is this notion that when people don’t hear arguments in the public square, they cease making those arguments themselves. They stop even knowing what they believe…So you can suppress debate, you can suppress the arguments, not by having an argument but just making sure you don’t have an argument. And I think that…ultimately the United States Constitution depends on the First Amendment, the right to free speech, but that’s a formality. The real thing is the essence of being able to speak freely, and that is what is at risk.”

The astonishing interview, posted below, with Rupert Darwall resonated with everything I have first hand experience of, in the field of weaponized, fabricated “science,” that “good people” believe in. (HIV/AIDS–)

I always thought I was surely an “environmentalist” and that does not change.
I’m not an expert in that subject. But I detest all totalitarian methods, especially against scientists.

The storeowner is being brought up on charges of excess aggression with a possible prison sentence. Both Denmark and Sweden have laws that say, yes, you have the right to defend your property and life against an intruder, but you must use just the right amount of aggression, not more than the situation calls for.

🆘‼🤬🔥 #Sweden: robbery in a shop. The shopkeeper is threatened with a knife, he picks up a crowbar, and makes the robbers harmless. Now Lars Alring, 59, is suspected of gross assault and is in danger of imprisonment! The world of idiots! https://t.co/9D01pgsGhTpic.twitter.com/Mv4hDjjmd1

This is literally mass death for mass profit, with full media complicity and societal apathy/silence.

No Psy-Op.

No “brave” kids who get to speak out on camera about what it felt like to see their friends die.

Why no outrage over our failure to ban Fentanyl? You’re barely allowed to say it killed Prince and Tom Petty, but it did. Among countless others.
Here’s a nice little story about the company’s stock value, as it seeks to launch something probably even deadlier. Why stop at 75-10,000 times more potent than morphine?

“Fortunately, the low point was when pessimism over allegations of off-label marketing for its fentanyl opioid spray, Subsys, were at their maximum. Investors seem to be hoping a $150 million reserve Insys has set aside to settle lawsuits will be enough to squelch the Subsys problem.

Insys’ long-term value will be tied to Syndros, which hit the market last year and its buprenorphine sublingual spray for moderate-to-severe acute pain, which is currently under review by the Food and Drug Administration. If Insys can make the Subsys lawsuits go away and produce decent sales from the two new drugs, its current $800 million market cap is certainly a reasonable valuation.”

I posted this last night on FB. Peter Barry Chowka, to my delight, made a tweet out of it. And now I am making a Truth Barrier post of Peter Chowka’s Tweet of my comment. And since I usually tweet posts, this will re-appear as a Twitter post, of my comment, tweeted, posted, then tweeted.

It was also tweeted by Sean Hannity, who once told me he grew up listening to my father under the covers late at night. My father would say: “Get up and get a map, because you are going to learn something.” Sean told me: “We didn’t have a map, so I brought a globe to bed.”
He added: “Every time I am a jerk on the show, it’s because of me. Every time I am a gentleman, it’s because of him.”

Thank you @PChowka for this wonderful piece about my father. A conservative who wears clogs–who sings West African folk songs at the grocery. I have always wished somebody could describe his hilarious soul, and you have. His motto for journalism: "Penetrate The Ostensible" https://t.co/8IL5VbujT8

Do you all see what's happening here? Anti-Trumpism is being used to manufacture consent for increasingly dangerous cold war escalations. There will never, ever be any proof of collusion. That has never been what this is about. It's about crippling an obstacle to US dominance. https://t.co/XO2Gf1UWlf

According to a DOJ investigation conducted by Dr. Judith Reisman, between 1953 and 1982, at least 9,000 images featuring sexual scenarios of children under age age of 18 were published in magazines like Playboy, Penthouse and Hustler.

“Your average guy thinks he’s buying a girlie magazine…and he has no idea that the messages that are being pumped into him, near-physiologically…include images of sexual assault of children.”

Peter Barry Chowka found (in the archives) and tweeted, an article I wrote about the future of radio, for Media Post, in 2008. I don’t often post published articles of mine here, but some of them hold up well. I don’t even own a copy of my own book. I’ve never read my Wikipedia page. I react neither to praise, nor attacks. I just think about one thing: How to return from disembodiment. Once I have cracked it, I will have a real book too write.

I used to love the process of writing, how it felt to get an idea, when the material started to buzz and hum. Seeing it on the page. Now I mostly write inside my mind, just listening to all the voices, lines, twigs of words. I don’t aim to organize it anymore. I seem to be waiting, like a fossil under the ice bed, until some giant biblical thaw makes it once again a free and safer world, for expression. When the storms of hatred subside, the hammer-blows over the heads of the different-minded.

“Radio used to be strange, free, intimate, mossy – like an enchanted forest, dominated by a few heavy trees that seemed to have sprung from a soil of eccentricity and showmanship. Anything could happen there. It was a medium for the ever wandering minds, the insomniacs, the history buffs, the truth-seekers. Talking meant talking – which entailed listening, combing the ocean’s floor for that which might surprise or delight. It was not, or did not seem, all that connected to money, power or politics – until the mid 1990s. It was around that time I started to truly lose sight of the medium that honors my father as one of its shapers.

When talk is free, when nobody has harnessed it, it is closer to music than speech. Not what is said, but the way it is said.”

So where does this leave the average American “card-carrying leftist?” Can you despise Trump without carrying water for the Rothschild Oligarchs? Same ones who funded the “Bolshevik Revolution,” one hundred years ago.

I’ll post the full interview in a later post. We have had absolutely NO dialogue about “Russia,” and generally, Americans do not interview people from OTHER countries. We only keep track of what we are emotionally hysterical about inside our bizarre bubble of shame, guilt and wanna-be “Socialism.”

“Okay , but you do know that Trump in January signed surveillance extension into law ,
the sweeping warrant-less programs that intercept digital traffic of foreign targets while hoovering up the personal information of an unknown number of Americans. YES , that law..
Then to defend your case you use RT (?)
Do you at all see the hypocrisy in this??”

Reply, from Celia Farber, which also contains a reply to Gerald Riley in second half of comment:

“I do.

Trump is not my issue. I have bigger fish to fry.

Trump is actually largely incidental, to the Story Of Our Time, which is: The overreach, exposure (by whistleblowers) and final unraveling of the US Deep State which is complicit as we know in crimes from JFK to 9/11.

If you DON’T know that, you are are very good (or subtle) hallucinogens.

Only easily fooled goldfish are falling for EITHER the anti-Trump or the pro-Trump spy-ops. Trump is one man. One President. 4 or 8 years. Me, I am interested in systems.

Not personality, nor gossip, nor gladiatorial class wars and distractions from what TRULY matters to human life.

Government tyranny. Vs. Government accountability.

Smart people read Wikileaks. Listen to William Binney. Read and listen to Diane Roark. Research the history of Trailblazer, SARC, Thin Thread…smart people know who the criminals are at the heart of all of this.

Oh, Gerald? You brought up the word “excellent,” in trying to persuade me Rachel Maddow is “excellent.” She sure is rich. But is she “excellent?”

I offer to you, two names I consider “excellent:”

William Binney and

Diane Roark

(among many, way way way superior, to Maddow, who has cashed in to the system, supports it every step of the way, and simply does not get the story of the century. Her century. Doesn’t mean she’s not “super smart.”)

Yeah, we know, and we’re getting kind of sick of you, with your dirty, Godforsaken boot on our American necks. You’re counting on your Trump Is Literally Hitler Psy-Op to keep you in power, but the Deep State’s days are numbered. Thank you Diane Roark, William Binney, Ed Loomis, Kirk Wiebe, Ed Snowden, Julian Assange, and many, many deep state whistleblowers whose names have yet to be illuminated. The war is not between Pro and anti-Trump factions, but between those who support a surveillance state with unchecked powers to violate every American citizen, including Donald Trump, vs those who would oppose this passionately and vehemently.

Do you feel, as I do, (when you hear this agent of the Deep State spittling forth on CNN) that the agent, Mr. Mudd, is speaking a dangerous language and cares nothing for the will of the American people? It feels like violence, to me. I watch it once, and that will have to be enough.

‘All go unto one place; all are of the dust, and all turn to dust again.’

Comments from RT, reflecting part of the international conversation about the Nunes Memo [LINKED in this NYT article) and its implications:

“Why do nearly all American politicians sound like they’re standard government villains from Marvel movies? Is it just arrogance? Are they drama queens?

This guy seriously sounds so proud that he “knows how the game goes” and “you’ve only been here 13 months.. we’ve been here since 1908″. Sounds like dudes measuring eachothers’ members’. FBI/DOJ get caught red handed in a corruption scandal, and this guy is treating it like a football game. He’s proud that a corrupt system is capable of outwitting an elected official… how is this not causing protests?”

“Pelosi also knew how it would go. “Trump won’t win, you can take it to the bank”. The whole American political system is full of false prophets. They don’t know how it will go.”

“The fact remains that if the FBI are not worried, then why did they the Dems, the MSM and twitterati try so hard to block its release?”

“That “guy” isn’t a politician. He is CIA as are many of the broadcasters for CNN and MSNBC.
all NWO operatives.”

“I don’t really know how the different departments in US work. But it’s pretty obvious that nobody, not even the president has enough control to real in the FBI, CIA etc no matter what they do or how they act.
It may have been established that way to fight corruption etc. within, but no safeguards were put in place to control those departments when they themselves become corrupt.”
“FBI out of control since J Edgar Hoover, and CIA since Truman.”

“The FBI, Hoover and his Einstein and the Communism phobia…
FBI, CIA, NSA….mankind have about none of them a good meaning. They are under control of Oligarchs and the deepstate and their leaders are acting like Kindergarden cops…”
“Actually, since 1909.”

“Yeah, “we are going to win”, just ask Comey and McCabe. ; )”

“The agencies forgot they are nothing without peoples and govmnt. Support.
And now EVERYONE knows that CIA and FBI and KGB have designed whole sy stem of the world for past 50 years……This WILL stop. In next 15 years all memories of current leaders will be erased.

Mark my words.

Humans dont praise Murderers….or do they?”

“Wrong! they have never worked for the people nor have they been elected by the people.
the Soros of the world, the Rothys, all control the world and have never been elected.”

“The MEMO is the kick start, followed by a tsunami that will wash the swamp like never before.”

“One would hope… nobody appears to care about this. People genuinely don’t realize how serious a precedent this sets – there is corruption in the top organizations of government.

Americans will suffer for their apathy because of this. They may not understand how dangerous this situation is, letting FBI/DOJ off the hook for illegal actions. This is going to snowball in the next 10-20 years.”

“This isn’t only about US citizens, this is global and the root cause as to how presidents have been bought to create global terrorism ,and not held accountable I’m sure Africans especially in Libya and Middle East especially Palestinian’s ,Iranians; Syrians, Iraqis South America especially Venezuelans Cuba Asia North Korea 9/11, JFK MLK etc this is global and huge.”

I’ve never seen Mike Cernovich look like this. He looks ashen. I think his words take the story to another level. He’s so right. This is so grave, and so frightening. I want to quite literally get far away from any person who does not recognize the gravity of this, and who instead merrily goes on Trump bashing.

Trump is merely incidental to this way deeper horror story, about the Black Ice Deep State, and every last one of us. Trump was raped, as we all have been, will be, or could be, by the politicized and corrupt intelligence apparatus. If that does not scare you then you are, I feel, completely hypnotized.

To all those friends with whom I have parted over the past year, I see now that there was no way we could have remained “friends.” Anybody who can’t oppose this is helping evil on earth.

I’ve conducted several thousand criminal, civil, and military investigations with the LAPD (1980-2000) and as a private investigator (1997-present). I’ve observed FBI and DOJ corruption since 1991 and am relieved that the criminals at the DNC, DOJ, and FBI have been exposed.
This unprecedented and treasonous behavior deserves the harshest prosecution available so that Americans can be confident that no one will ever attempt to repeat these crimes. If ANY municipal detective was caught conspiring with political candidates and prosecutors to file false affidavits to secure warrants to spy on a local mayoral candidate, he (and his co-conspirators) would face fines and many years in prison. Hillary and her co-conspirators deserve no less.
The fact that the FBI, DOJ, and DNC officials fought so hard to prevent us from knowing shows what prosecutors call “consciousness of guilt”. They KNEW they were breaking the law and violating President Trump’s constitutional rights at every step of the way and did it anyway for political reasons. Russia didn’t try to steal the election – the FBI, DOJ, and DNC tried to steal the election. Russian is a dangerous player, but not nearly as dangerous as the enemy within. #DTS

“The House Intelligence Committee has released its controversial memo outlining alleged abuses of secret surveillance by the FBI and Justice Department in the Trump-Russia investigation. Here are some key points:

* The Steele dossier formed an essential part of the initial and all three renewal FISA applications against Carter Page.

* Andrew McCabe confirmed that no FISA warrant would have been sought from the FISA Court without the Steele dossier information.

* The political origins of the Steele dossier were known to senior DOJ and FBI officials, but excluded from the FISA applications.

* DOJ official Bruce Ohr met with Steele beginning in the summer of 2016 and relayed to DOJ information about Steele’s bias. Steele told Ohr that he, Steele, was desperate that Donald Trump not get elected president and was passionate about him not becoming president.”

“The House Intelligence Committee has released its controversial memo outlining alleged abuses of secret surveillance by the FBI and Justice Department in the Trump-Russia investigation. Here are some key points:

* The Steele dossier formed an essential part of the initial and all three renewal FISA applications against Carter Page.

* Andrew McCabe confirmed that no FISA warrant would have been sought from the FISA Court without the Steele dossier information.

* The political origins of the Steele dossier were known to senior DOJ and FBI officials, but excluded from the FISA applications.

* DOJ official Bruce Ohr met with Steele beginning in the summer of 2016 and relayed to DOJ information about Steele’s bias. Steele told Ohr that he, Steele, was desperate that Donald Trump not get elected president and was passionate about him not becoming president.”

This website is a “labor of love” (that gratefully receives some micro-donations, but not enough to maintain editorial overhead and Celia’s life/income.) This website has for a long time been trying to become more a) consistent b) up to date with new media, meaning transition to video podcasts, c) relatively harmonious, not plagued by fights in the comment sections. When those conditions are met, it will earn its salt and attract more supporters on Patreon–OR–it will die because things that can’t sustain themselves die. (Wrongly referred to as “Darwinism.”*)

(*Why wrong? Because apparently Chuck Darwin never wrote the words “survival of the fittest, but I must double back and find out the details of this via my friend James Macallister, who worked closely with Lynn Margulis.)

I don’t want it to die, and I don’t want the financing of it to depend upon me harassing my readers to become patrons. I believe somehow things can float with or without “money,” and I am kind of a magician at this. This post is not about money. It is however, about survival. Energy and frequency.

I can not keep the site going, and allow those participants who consistently appear to tell me everything I post is wrong, stupid, crazy, right wing, paranoid, etc. I erred on the side of NOT blocking for so long that I created actual trauma to myself and my readers in some cases. It’s depressing to always be countered and tomato-pelted, but NO, I am not censorious and thin-skinned. Anybody can correct anything at any time. But this is no longer the playground of anybody who objects vociferously and regularly to EVERYTHING I post, or even “just about” everything. It’s too draining and demoralizing. The site will die if I give up. And the constant, relentless objections are very wearying.

I understand that I have offended some people and there are people who are upset with me and hate this website and everything I come up with.

I understand that I made mistakes in the past and I insulted certain people when I myself felt insulted. I want it all to stop. I apologize that I partook in anybody being injured. I want never to hurt anybody. I want us to figure out, together, what the big truths are. I am honored to host this website, to that end, and grateful to all who come here and contribute their thoughts, knowledge, and time.

Anybody who finds they are blocked, please know that I WANTED your participation here as member of this online “family” but it became untenable because the frequency was destructive and combative.

I remain open to non-abusive criticisms of all kinds.

If you’re blocked, you were also warned, many times. BE RESPECTFUL.

I have challenges behind closed doors that are not visible here, but I ask that you take my word for it–the struggles are formidable. I need to captain this ship. Anybody who is not with me, (not “agreeing” or “conforming” but also not constantly disagreeing) is now off the ship. It is always a possibility that things will change and people can return with new better intentions.

Thank you. The next step is going to be to transition from print to audio/video, and interviews. When I can find time, and what the Swedes call “ork” which means vital energy.

“Ok so this is another, I believe, fantasy. Whenever medicine talks about inflammation you can just substitute the word ‘inflammation’ for parasites.”

–Dr. Jennifer Daniels

This is one of the most eye-opening interviews I have ever heard.

Before I posted this, I watched many YouTube testimonials from people who have used turpentine in either sugar or castor oil, to rid themselves of parasites and re-balance candida. If you ingest no more than one teaspoon of 100% pure gum spirits of turpentine daily, distributed on either (white) sugar cubes or in castor oil, according to those who have tried it, you will immediately start to purge parasites and effectively curb candida.

A most fascinating part of this interview traces this cure–all to the era of slavery: When slave-owners were near death, they would go to their slaves’ cabins and ingest the tonic the slaves used (actually, how reprehensible it is to even have to refer to human beings as slaves but that it the word we are left with) to remain healthier than their “owners.” It was also once known as “Apache chewing gum.”

I have ordered a reputable brand and will try this remedy myself as soon as it arrives. I have been unwell (fatigue, brain fog, etc) for about 10 years, and found no real relief despite following various gut-healing, anti-inflammation protocols. I now believe that, yes, parasites are the problem for most of us. The blind spot, and the source of our “demons.” Here is Dr. Daniel’s PDF, detailing her research on the healing power of gum spirits. I hope you listen to the entire interview, before making up your mind one way or the other. The African-American patients Dr. Daniels questioned had, in many cases, grandmothers who were still alive, well, and taking care of themselves well into their 90s, using this old folk remedy.

“The spirit of liberty is the spirit that is not to sure it is right.”

–Justice Learned Hand

I trust this narrator. I find new Q narrators now and then, replacing older ones, who perhaps get a little too famous.

I go on voices, and just the way a person makes me feel. Frequency.

This is apparently going to be a shocking, “planet changing” week. So let’s–yes–be kind to one another as we brace for what is coming.

I respect that many people believe Q-Anon is a Psy-Op, but I don’t think so. The culture of Q-Anon, [Reddit, 4-Chan, 8-Chan] in any case, is not a “top-down” geometry (pyramid) which presumes that un-annointed priests of information get to bless and hand down what is good, right, true, and or worthy of shock. It is the in fact nothing less than inversion of the CIA’s “Mockingbird” media. A “revolution.” (A thing turning all the way around.) It’s driven from “below,” (the many, the anybody, the everybody) not the anointed overpaid PsypOp few. It is an eco-system, and a symbiosis in action.

This is such a long held dream of mine, that I would live to see the media exposed and known, seen for what it is, no longer blindly believed. It is such a longheld dream that I can barely “see” it as one squints toward the sun. I had given up. It was so many years ago, I began to discover how violent and truth-destructive “the media” is. (are.)

I think I should pipe down and let you watch this video. And remember: If you try to show up and berate people (starting with me) because PRRRROOOOOOFFF is not yet “in,” the guns will shoot blanks. It doesn’t work anymore. No more shooting down people for “getting it wrong.” Rather, truth is a massive collective archaeology and excavation mission–in real time, together. The renaissance of Citizen Journalism. It is by definition “not too sure it is right,” hence, protected, transcended and transcending.

The Truth Barrier‘s position (i.e. my position) on “Trump Derangement Syndrome” is that it is an actual demonic infection. Why do I say that? Because it afflicts millions, at once, with an identical “thought form” as in a Psy-Op. You could call it “code.” It eclipses instinctual humanity, nuance, terminates mercy, encourages sadistic fury, hates accuracy, obliterates context, and begins and ends with an infinite accusation from which the accused cannot, by design, transcend. It’s not enough to call it a mental condition. People who have it appear to be possessed and should be avoided at all costs. But I admire Cernovich for imploring these people to “get help.”

The demonic infection stands apart from Trump’s flaws or criticisms of them. Trump’s character flaws can be addressed by non insane people in ways that are not governed by this destructive syndrome, which seeks the total annihilation of varying perspectives from their own. ie. extreme narcissism. Secularists call demonic possession “narcissism.” The terms are interchangeable.

Welcome my son
Welcome to the machine
Where have you been?
It’s alright we know where you’ve been
You’ve been in the pipeline
Filling in time
Provided with toys and scouting for boys
You bought a guitar to punish your ma
And you didn’t like school
And you know you’re nobody’s fool
So welcome to the machine
Welcome to the machine
Welcome my son
Welcome to the machine
What did you dream?
It’s alright…

Welcome To The Machine,
Roger Waters

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Let’s not forget about Shungite. I notice when I remove my Shungite pendant, I am prone to an immediate allergy attack. When I put it back on, it begins to resolve. That is only one effect. When I see people who need Shungite more than I do, I often give them my pendant or whatever shungite I have on me. Shungite is a potent mineral/crystal–it can push people out of your life who should not be in your life, rather dramatically. It can precipitate a “crisis” in your life that is actually a healing crisis, an awakening. It always wants the best for you. I can attest to that the Shungite that comes from Cosmic Reality (CosmicReality.net) is real, which is all that matters. (No commercial affiliation.) I recommend the stickers, the nuggets, and the pendants. I am astounded by the effects of the fridge magnet. Food stays good much longer, and the fridge is much colder. It’s quite astonishing.

I listened to this yesterday and I highly recommend it. (Not sure why we use that phrase, “highly recommend it…”) I trust Edgar Cayce. And I generally trust those who spread the word of his works. They are straightforward and not trying to dominate and hypnotize us. Edgar Cayce is often referred to as the “father of alternative medicine.” God bless him. Had he lived today, the demons of “rational medicine” which could also be called “militant atheist medicine,” or even Luciferian medicine, would have hounded him to death. But he made it. And his wisdom lives on and is available to us all.

“Jen you probably have more on this but it looks like POTUS just said he found out HRC was using her personal email when he saw it in the news… we need to clean this up – he has emails from her – they do not say state.gov”

“How is that not classified?” Huma Abedin to FBI when shown email between Clinton & Obama using his pseudonym. Abedin then expressed her amazement at the president’s use of a pseudonym and asked if she could have a copy of the email.”

I can’t state how huge this is, it’s a cover up involving the President of the United States. There are a lot of emails implying this, but this email states it very clearly so anyone can understand. The email proves obstruction of justice and shows how they lied to the FBI, and likely perjury of Congress. This at the very least proves intent by her Chief of Staff.”

“Georgi was given a diagnosis of uppgivenhetssyndrom, or resignation syndrome, an illness that is said to exist only in Sweden, and only among refugees. The patients have no underlying physical or neurological disease, but they seem to have lost the will to live. The Swedish refer to them as de apatiska, the apathetic. “I think it is a form of protection, this coma they are in,” Hultcrantz said. “They are like Snow White. They just fall away from the world.”

The apathetic children began showing up in Swedish emergency rooms in the early two-thousands. Their parents were convinced that they were dying. Of what, they didn’t know; they worried about cholera or some unknown plague. Soon patients with the condition filled all the beds in Stockholm’s only psychiatric inpatient unit for children, at Karolinska University Hospital. Göran Bodegård, the director of the unit, told me that he felt claustrophobic when he entered the rooms. “An atmosphere of Michelangelo’s ‘Pietà’ lingered around the child,” he said. The blinds were drawn, and the lights were off. The mothers whispered, rarely spoke to their sick children, and stared into the darkness.

By 2005, more than four hundred children, most between the ages of eight and fifteen, had fallen into the condition. In the medical journal Acta Pædiatrica, Bodegård described the typical patient as “totally passive, immobile, lacks tonus, withdrawn, mute, unable to eat and drink, incontinent and not reacting to physical stimuli or pain.” Nearly all the children had emigrated from former Soviet and Yugoslav states, and a disproportionate number were Roma or Uyghur. Sweden has been a haven for refugees since the seventies, accepting more asylum seekers per capita than any other European nation, but the country’s definition of political refugees had recently narrowed. Families fleeing countries that were not at war were often denied asylum.
In an open letter to the Swedish minister of migration, forty-two psychiatrists asserted that the new restrictions on asylum seekers and the time it took the Migration Board to process their applications—children could be in limbo for years—were causing the disease. They accused the government of “systematic public child abuse.” Opinion within the medical community converged on the theory that the illness was a reaction to two traumas: harassment in the children’s home country, and the dread, after acclimating to Swedish society, of returning. Sweden’s leading medical journal, Läkartidningen, devoted dozens of articles, and several poems, to the syndrome. “Your eyes had seen it all / aged with an old man’s weariness without any hope of life in the future,” Mildred Oudin, the chief of child psychiatry in Skövde, in central Sweden, wrote. Magnus Kihlbom, the director of an institute for child psychiatry in Stockholm, proposed in the journal that the disorder represented a kind of willed dying. Kihlbom cited the psychiatrist Bruno Bettelheim, a Holocaust survivor, who wrote that some prisoners in the concentration camps were “so totally exhausted, both physically and emotionally, that they had given the environment total power over them.” They “stopped eating, sat mute and motionless in corners, and expired.”
Swedish news programs broadcast footage of children on stretchers being loaded into airplanes and expelled from the country. Sweden prides itself on its commitment to helping the most vulnerable, and the illness was seen as an affront to the country’s national character. Even the King was alarmed.”

*I recall this topic being discussed at dinner parties during my most recent (and final) attempt to return to this country I once thought might be “my” country, though I was 11 when we suddenly moved there. It was discussed as a controversial assertion–something that one camp claimed existed for real and another, (one was to assume more valid,) was dismissive of. Heads tilted in the glow of the candle light. Oh oh oh, how hard it is to know if anything is really actually true. I remember a prickly rage rising up my throat and a strong effort to keep my mouth shut. Because I knew it was true. And I knew that if I said that I would be the loser, the emotional one, the immigrant, the dirty goat.

I experienced “intellectual” life in Sweden as torture. One knew only one thing: Sweden must simultaneously emerge seeming to have been dipped in self-recrimination, but in actual fact, emerge un-touched and gleaming, like silver.

Thank you for all you do to keep the determined flame here. I am always amazed and grateful that YOU are still there. May we all find more of what we seek, in 2018. Happy New Year! And here’s a little bit of Pushkin to kick us off, from my Russian friend Marina Himanen. <3

–Celia Farber

It’s time, my friend, it’s time! (Rhyming)

Versions: #1#2
It’s time, my friend, it’s time — the heart demands repose —
The days are flying by, and with each moment goes
A tiny slice of life, and vainly, you and I
Endeavor thus to live, but in a wink we die.

There is no bliss on Earth, but there is scope and solace;
For many years I’ve dreamed of this elusive promise:
A place that will give me, a tired slave, new strength
Through able-bodied work and simple, pleasant things.

Today in #Rasht, chanting “Death to the Dictator!” For those asking if movement is dying down, appears it’s gaining momentum in numbers and in cities. There has been, however, a slowdown in sending videos as Telegram & Instagram are blocked in certain areas. #iranprotestspic.twitter.com/zNVbnOLBcQ

I listened to this entire interview 3 days ago in The Trauma Bath (I feel most calm when I am in a hot bath with 2 cups of bentonite clay.) I have discovered that I only listen properly when I am in The Trauma Bath. (I could call it the Anti-Trauma bath.) I then sent an urgent email to Stephen Ericson asking if I was crazy or if he also thought this was not only shocking but probably real. The trouble with everything these days is you simply can’t tell if it’s real or if it’s part of the great infinite Psy-Op on the collective human brain.

I think this is “real” and true. I can’t say for sure but for what my battered ears are now worth, I think so. I would like to know what you all think.

This is an infuriating and devastating two hours of human testimony. It sickens me to think that I know people who voted for Hillary Clinton. Thank God she did not win.

This Hagman show was published Dec. 22. Former CIA Operative, Cody Snogres, was in a car accident apparently due to outing the information in this show about the CIA offering him half a million USD to blow up the Murrah Bldg. in OKC. About 2 hrs. https://t.co/c3wP8sAyJx

‘Tis the gift to be simple, ’tis the gift to be free ‘Tis the gift to come down where we ought to be, And when we find ourselves in the place just right, ‘Twill be in the valley of love and delight. When true simplicity is gained, To bow and to bend we shan’t be ashamed, To turn, turn will be our delight, Till by turning, turning we come ’round right.’

“The primary object of crucifixion…was to impose shame on people. Jesus endured it all. But he despised the shame.”

–Derek Prince

“Not being loved is the worst sickness.”

–Mother Theresa

I have realized (I think) that the Catholic Church, as we loosely call it, has been engulfed by an error, and it is no minor error: The trafficking of shame. How many Catholics do you know, i.e. people raised as Catholics, who neither harbor shame nor seek to impose it on others?

That said, I believe that true Christianity is rooted in the opposite of shame.

“What is the opposite of shame? How many of you can tell me? I think the best opposite of shame, is glory.”

This conversation is worth paying very close attention to. It has many astonishing reveals, about common mineral deficiencies and things like irritability and quarrelsomeness, all the way to arthritis, osteoporosis, depression, insomnia, bone spurs, ADHD, and more.

I am considering writing, in 2018, strictly on health and healing matters as I continue to attempt resurrection of my own collapsed health, and find a strong urge to share what is working and what clues I find along the way. I find all things pertaining to minerals fascinating. I am always drawn to them. Just a warning–I am also, of late, completely obsessed with activated charcoal. The color, first of all. It is so black you actually can’t see it. Like the black in the horse’s pupil in that poem by…aaargh. Who do I mean? Russian. I’ll find it. I have a sinus infection and am even more forgetful than usual. I have had today: One glass of charcoal, one glass of Bentonite Clay, one clay bath, and some vegetable broth. Sea Salt and tea tree oil Netti pot for 3 days has not resolved sinus infection. It’s bacterial, right? Last night I also ate 2 blurbs of chopped garlic in honey.
These are the kinds of situations I think are actually important. How can you help a person, yourself, say, who has a sinus infection, with what they have at home?

How can people on low income get their mineral levels up to par?

Things like that.

Above all: How does “nutrition” affect the soul? Why did they find elevated manganese in the hair of 100% of serial killers tested?

Why did the rats Dr. Olson mentions in this video like each other again–enough to once again sleep in a single pile– when they got calcium?

If you wish, and feel prepared–look at them again. I am struck cold, dumfounded, when I review these images. Even my mind, to the last moment, struggles to find the outlet–why and how this is not evidence of Hell.

Understatement: I have been unable to work out how this could be “ok.” Babies and children, in the normal world, (if it exists anymore) are rarely photographed without their parents or family. Think about it.

Babies are rarely held by anybody outside of immediate family. I suddenly had a flashback. “That man in Riverside Park who wanted to take pictures of us, and Mom was so upset and we didn’t understand quite why she was so upset…”

I can see his face in front of me. Heavyset, dark, frightening eyes. A yellow checkered shirt, pulled right (this part, not sure it is a real memory.) But Mom took a picture of him.

Was that what happened? There was always so much going on that Mom was upset about that I did not understand at the time. Mom was always talking about things I was too young to understand, but I understood that my mother was deeply alarmed.

I am not sure I can even handle reporting on this. It fragments the psyche. It’s trauma.

If Kevin Spacey is being cut out of movies, why is Comet Pong Pong cleared of wrong doing?

“The program is going to be rolled out nationwide, and it will become the norm. Every man, woman and child in America will be under the influence of this technology…Hive mind, voice install, emotion manipulation, behavior modification. This is horrible stuff that’s being done to people. It’s specifically to make sure that people will pull the trigger when they need to and stuff like human decency and love and compassion and empathy and sympathy and caring for a fellow human being does not enter into the decision making process.”

“…specifically to take away their conscience…The most horrific technology ever conceived of by the mind of man.

“They were going to torture me, they were going to destroy all my relationships with friends and family. I was never going to be able to make a living again.”

“It came down to the victims. It came down to the targeted individuals all over the country who were crying out for help, curled up in a ball in a corner in their bedroom, in horrible physical pain and horrible emotional pain. Nobody will help them, everybody calls them crazy, there’s something wrong with them, friends and family have abandoned

them, their relationships with their significant others are ruined.

Some of the most brilliant men and women I have ever known in my life, as I got to know them, are now homeless, and they have no way to get out because the DESC is specifically making sure, going out of their way to make sure they can’t get jobs and they can’t find homes.”

As my only commentary, I will say that your pilot over here is on the map, (as opposed to not) I know true north–many of the salient points light up in my mind as “yes, right. Yes right. Exactly.” Sometimes: “I’ve been saying that and people said I was crazy…” “Oh yes, there’s that piece…I remember wondering about that…”

I’m re-posting this Saudi/Obama post here because it fits and prepares the mind for questions posed in this video. These are not manipulative, lesser magic questions like mass media likes to pose, but actual questions with precise answers that are democratic in nature. (The asking and the answering.)

Tell me what questions I am permitted to ask and I will tell you if this is Love or Psy-Op.

Quickly: Examples of “lesser magic” questions in mass media that drive me up the wall, they sound like this:

“Should Parents Let Children Choose Their Own Clothes Even Earlier?”

“Will Anti-Vaxxers Destroy Mankind?”

“Is Anal Sex Being Taught Right In Public Schools?”

“Will Trump Be Impeached Before Thanksgiving?”

“Is Donald Trump Mentally Ill?”

“Is Incest Always Bad?”

Crude imitations; I could do better, but…you get the idea. Mind-control mass media “questions” have been bothering me for a long time. Honest, real media should answer specific questions–not pose them as vague guilt trips. Our job should be, pose questions/answer question/look for source who knows/rinse, wash repeat.

Who was Deep Throat?

That kind of thing.

These questions “love” us, because they are designed not to wash your mind with alien concepts, but rather, to liberate you from darkness by the lighting up of the relevant and right questions.

A real question wakes you up. A false question pushes you down.

Hansel and Gretel: Didn’t they follow breadcrumbs to get away from the witch’s house? I’ll never forget the trauma of that fairytale. It should be told very starkly: “Children, watch out for people who are very very “nice” to you. Consult your inner voice. Are you seen as food? Are you free or are you held in by some force you can feel but is denied? Don’t be polite anymore when you see an oven! Trust your instincts. Avoid all forms of seduction. Trust very few. No, even fewer. If it felt weird, it was weird. Get out, fast.”

(If I were re-issuing that fairy tale, as a publisher, I would make this the foreword.)

“And I’ve got to tell you, for all the elites out in the world, the Party of Davos guys are sitting there today gobsmacked, absolutely shocked,” he said. “The largest financier in the Arab world, the Muslim world, is Prince Alwaleed. He’s got stakes in just about every high-tech company. He’s a huge partner of Rupert Murdoch. When he came to the United States back in the early nineties, he was actually a client of my firm as he got into Hollywood; he got into media. He owns a huge stake in Citicorp, he saved Citicorp from going bankrupt.”

“People are stunned today that he was put under house arrest, put under arrest yesterday in Saudi Arabia, in this situation of what they called corruption, money laundering, et cetera. People are thinking this is directly tied to the financing of the Muslim Brotherhood, this whole thing about cleaning up Saudi Arabia to take care of this. You’re going to see a lot of changes. This thing is far, far from over. You’re at the top of the first inning. You’re probably at the first batter,” Bannon said.

Ben Smith, Editor Of Buzzfeed, that’s who.

“According to Sutton, al-Mansour had asked him to “please write a letter in support of [Obama] … a young man that has applied to Harvard.” Sutton had friends at Harvard and gladly did so.

Three months before the election it should have mattered that a respected black political figure had publicly announced that an outspoken anti-Semite like al-Mansour, backed by a Saudi billionaire, had been guiding Obama’s career, perhaps for the last twenty years, but the story died a quick and unnatural death.

The principle assassin was Ben Smith. On September 4, 2008 — a week after I reported this story in WND — Smith fired back in Politico. Sutton’s story, Smith reported, “seems off in at least one key detail.” The “detail” was that Obama, through spokesman Ben LaBolt, claimed not to know al-Mansour.

What Smith failed to report is that, unless forced to, no presidential candidate in his right mind would acknowledge the sponsorship of a man Smith described as a “Black Panther turned Muslim businessman.”

“The octogenarian Sutton calmly and lucidly explained that he had been “introduced to [Obama] by a friend.” The friend’s name was Dr. Khalid al-Mansour, and the introduction had taken place about 20 years prior.

Sutton described al-Mansour as “the principal adviser to one of the world’s richest men.” The billionaire in question was Saudi prince Al-Waleed bin Talal.

Given the game-changing nature of this revelation when it surfaced in late August 2008, the Obama camp and its allies in the media, particularly Politico and Media Matters, shifted into overdrive to kill the story. Through a series of denials, lies and slanders about Sutton’s mental health, they succeeded.”

–Jack Cashill

The Washington Post reports (failing to reference Jack Cashill’s reporting about the Obama/Harvard connection and the Percy Sutton interview in 2008:)

“Holdings in Twitter, Lyft, Euro Disney and Twentieth Century Fox; luxury hotels across the world; a tower under construction in Saudi Arabia that will soon be the world’s tallest building. Or his opulent palace, where Business Insider once reported the prince kept “a group of dancing, laughing, joking dwarfs” in his entourage, occasionally tossing them around as sport like human shot puts.

That last part isn’t in the official biography. And it would be a shame if all you knew about Alwaleed was his wealth, because the personality behind those billions of dollars sounds no less extraordinary.”

Bad news for us: This guy owns us. We live at the mercy of the fake news brothel he funds. He is a major shareholder not only in Twitter, but in Apple, News Corp, and many other culture-controlling corporations. I guess this explains what I have naively called “the Saudi blindspot.”

He has done business with Stephen K. Bannon, even, and Trump has purchased a yacht from him. (Which, by itself, is not that worrying.)

The only person I can locate at press time who did not take his money was former NYC Mayor Rudy Giuliani.

And: Why did Rudy Giuliani reject bin Talal’s gift offer of $10 million to New York, after 9/11?

So…he’s a progressive? A good guy? WaPo tells us, confusingly, that the “prince without borders,” Bin Talal’s politics are “hard to pin down,” and that he is both a “medieval monarch” and a modernist/feminist reformer, whose heart bleeds for the poor, and an unrepentant abuser of midgets.

“Not only did the prince hold occasional “midget-tossing” contests with these people, Business Insider wrote, but once invited his “jesters” to a business meeting, where he taught them the words “Boeing” and “Airbus” and had them decide which type of plane he should add to his personal fleet.

In the face of such bizarre accusations, Alwaleed has made great demonstrations of his concern for human rights — especially among the poor and women.”

Jack Cashill’s articles contain all the important undetonated landmines, and the history of how Ben Smith got the story killed–all linked above, with video of Sutton, no longer viewable on YouTube, but easy to watch in the WND article. Lastly, his Twitter stakes and the complete list of names of the Saudi Royals “purged.” Prince Al_Waleed bin Talal, Obama’s lucky charm, is number one on the list.

Take it from here, all citizen reporters. Don’t let any reporter get isolated, cornered, and beaten up. (As happened to me.)

All truth is carried by all truth-seekers and finders. This story was “broken” by Jack Cashill, years ago, killed by Politico, Media Matters, Ben Smith, et al, who are mass murderers of truth and reality, and paid handsomely to “discredit” reporters who do honest work. Make it stop. Support small, independent journalists, and above all, protect the drive-by shootings that appear to kill “reputations,” for political propaganda gain. It’s gone far enough. Why weren’t we allowed to know who bin Talal was, and what it meant to our entire political landscape and consciousness, after 9/11?

“Over 650 pages, he builds up a portrait of Freud as the most vile, medically useless, misogynistic, snobbish, petulant, jealous, crazy, sex-obsessed creep you could ever hope not to look up at from a couch — and a man whose ‘treatment’ you wouldn’t wish on your worst enemy.”

I remember when I “got it.” It was a scene in that movie about Harvey Milk, starring Sean Penn: “Milk.”

A straight Christian politician, and colleague of Milk comes into his campaign office and all the gay staff fall dead silent. He is nervous. He has come to invite Milk to his wedding. Milk–who is a class act– casts a glance at his horrified staffers, stands up, and says: “I’d love to come. I’ll be there.” (We are of course to understand that this man is actually in the closet, etc.)

In any case, the marrying Christian hetero man nods, relieved, (he is entirely the “loser,” the bad guy, the ugh, who- would-want-to- be that guy, in the film, whereas Milk is a perfect shining hero and martyr. And has all the charisma and love.)

When he has left the office, the staff unfreeze. They roll their eyes, hiss, cackle, and exhort Milk to explain his bizarre decision. “You’re going?”

As if he was entering a very filthy tank full of terrible untouchable creatures nobody would want to be associated with.

I always wondered if the film maker, Gus Van Zandt, who intended his film to display gay heroica, realized what he had done in that scene.

Did he understand that Harvey Milk’s staff were showing exactly the kind of “PHOBIA” that this whole predictable exercise in virtue signaling was meant to deride?

I was very eager to ask him but of course I don’t know the guy.

Let me tell you another story that defies Hollywood’s strict ideological narratives and moral codes. My father ran for Mayor of New York City, in 1977, on the Republican ticket, and actually did very well, due to his capacity to turn up in any neighborhood and speak any foreign language. I love him but he would have made a terrible Mayor, I think. He is not interested in anything administrative or dull. He likes to do things like place colored flags on all his cheeses and know their names in foreign languages. A hoot, a total character–but Mayor of New York? No.

(I was in Sweden, with my mother and sister, and literally was barely aware of this Mayor Of New York business. Before the internet…)

He ran against Ed Koch, who of course won, and who was deeply in the closet as a gay man. Nobody knew, nobody cared.

BUT: I met and interviewed Koch, many years later, for a story about post 9/11 New York, in Newsmax. He was very warm and nice, until I mentioned my father, at which point he turned to cold steel. Perfunctory quotes–done.

Usually people across the political spectrum, all the way over to and including Victor Navasky, all but hug my legs when they learn who my father is. People just love him. But not Ed Koch.

So I asked my father about it and here is what he told me. His campaign manager wanted to leak to the press about Koch’s homosexuality. (Bear in mind, this is in 1977.)

My father said no way. NO WAY. I’d rather lose than win like that. (I have no doubt whatsoever this is true.)

Koch nevertheless believed to the end of his life that when the story eventually did leak, my father was behind it. He would not believe the truth.

I have mixed feelings about my addiction to the illusion that I can make heads, tails, or demon horns out of the endlessly traumatizing news cycle. I try, and I am heartened by the feedback that many of you feel kind of safe and comfortable here, even if we are not equipped to BREAK BIG STORIES IN REAL TIME. thump thump.

Associate Editor Jack Mackerel

I want to go home, go back, go somewhere.

I want to not be hooked into all this terrifying narrative, with which I also traumatize others, (you guys) in the sacred name of getting-to-the-bottom of-the-bottomless-abyss. Funnily enough, this never seems to happen.

I have a proper book-book to complete right now. I have to “un-hook.” I ask, warmly encourage, you all to keep looking, posting, even fighting, if need be. Tell me (us) what you know, suspect, find. My trolls love you too, they just don’t know it yet.

Women make good journalists in the sense that nobody takes us seriously anyway so what do we have to lose when we get beaten like gongs. It just has a kind of clarifying effect, in the end.

I just saw a headline that the latest shooter, in Texas, was an Antifa member. He looks quite indistinguishable from a KKK type. All these creeps start to look the same–just post-human. Those clammy, dead eyes. Jesus, what has been done to these people? Have they never picked blueberries in the woods? (In Sweden, my mother actually steered us toward a very rejected–by the Swedes I mean–cousin berry to the blueberry, an oblong, not perfectly round berry called an “odon.” She had us all–cats included–in the woods, filling buckets, certain we had struck gold. Nobody else was interested in them. They actually tasted kind of weird. But we made jam, juice…)

These are the things I prefer to think about, when my nerves start to shake–unravel. I do not (not anymore) have the nerves necessary to do “investigative journalism.”

I unhook the hooks, and admit a kind of defeat. I do not know. I can never know. I don’t know if that photo that person, that name, that narrative is entirely real, entirely fake, or some composite of the two.

So to heck with it all. What am I saying? I want my “life” back. I am only really on solid ground when I tell little stories that I know are true, because I saw and heard them with my own eyes and ears. Subjective perception.

True success, to me, is when you say you can tell what I am asserting vs. what I am thinking out loud about. Transparency. Thank you. (In this instance, thank you Scott Gordon. But thank you to each person who has ever expressed “getting” the elusive concept of this website that doesn’t behave much like a news site or like a conspiracy site.)

It is a trauma portal. Edited by somebody who has survived many rounds of trauma based mind control, since I was shorter than my desk. Because it happens in families, as it happens in society at large: Rage based reality shaping.

This is all I know: Those who hold forth narratives based on what they observe, as H.C. Andersen’s child did, are met with abuse, rage, and identity collapse. So: Any time you see that–anger, rage, attempts to make somebody feel like dirt–truth is trying to cross over.

I was composing a post about “Your News Wire” having posted an article claiming it knew about the contents of the sealed indictments that are being posted on Twitter. I suddenly (as I was composing it) got an email saying I had published it. I was not aware of having published it–this usually requires a few steps which I don’t recall taking.

Now I have pulled it, to try to figure out how that happened. Meanwhile, I put out questions to two people, including James Brower, on Twitter, asking if they could confirm or deny it. Awaiting replies.

If there is a “bot” that is running the control panels here, I have every plan to fight back and give them a hard time.

For now, everybody can go read it for themselves.

Are you noticing that your phone is blinking? That your screen is jumping around? It’s always possible that we are “imagining” these things. One likes to think nobody would bother with a website this small.

Sometimes to calm my nerves, I tell little stories. I tell myself stories. Or rather, I remind myself of stories. Many of the stories in my head are from my father, who is a master story teller. He makes you have a feel for the story by painting a picture of the emotions of it, and the people in it. One such story just came into my head.

It was Friday, November 22, 1963. My mother had somehow reached my father at work, and told him she’d heard President Kennedy had been shot. He took the elevator from his office up to the main news floor, at “the station.” The radio station where he was employed at the time. (Though he is my father, I actually don’t know which radio station he worked for in 1963, and I was not yet born.)

On last year’s anniversary of the JFK assassination, I said to my father: “For some reason, this year, I am focusing on it, as it must have been for all of you. Trying to imagine and picture it. It must have been so traumatic for you. I don’t know why I never thought of it the way but everything is always about the bullets and the theories…”

He said: “Have I ever told you how I learned it was true?”

“No, I don’t think so.” (I say that even when he has told me, so I can hear a story one more time.)

“I took the elevator up to the main news floor. ” (As he was telling me this, I was transported to that elevator car, and can see my father frantically trapped in there, like a giraffe in a cage, waiting for the slow elevator to get to the right floor. When I “imagine” things, it’s always these kinds of details that get me. Was it silent? Was it packed? Were there elevator buttons that lit up? White light? Were there men in damp overcoats and fedora hats? Had they all stopped wearing fedora hats, by then, because JFK stopped wearing one? Were you in shock? Disbelief? There was no “fake news” then. No Twitter rumors. Just sober newscasts one would have a hard time disbelieving.

“The elevator doors opened,” he said. “There were two men carrying a woman, horizontal, who had fainted. As soon as I saw that, I knew it was true.”

My parents left shortly thereafter, took a train to Washington D.C., and got in a very ling line, to view the casket. They stood in that line all through the night, and in the morning, reached the casket, and paid their respects.

That is one of a small handful of stories I have and hold, from my parents, as a couple. Children of divorce collect these stories like sea-shells. The photo of my parents is its own kind of “fake news,” but I like to look at it, because it represents “before.” They look so happy.

We all have a JFK assassination in our memory bank, when something dark came in, and wrecked our innocence–our lives.

Why did it all have to be taken away? Who was the gunman? Can’t he be stopped?

It just occurred to me that alot of “alternative” media, including InfoWars, (to a lesser extend) Cernovich and all the other biggies, rely on a domination model rather than an inclusion model. They rely on “fame” journalism and swelling audiences. They do great work, but narration has taken over cautious bread-crumb fact finding and dot-connecting. So it begins to wash over your consciousness, like a “show.”

This, below, on the other hand, feels like a new tradition to me: It lays down a question grid–and an inclusive one, at that. Most media lays down an “answer” grid, and asks you to surrender some part of yourself, essentially, to “believe.”

So: Here are the questions “Q” asks that we keep in mind as this week’s news events unfold.

First: Interesting video I reviewed, from 3 days ago. Second, update from yesterday. All help is needed from all people with an Internet connection to discern what might be “truth” at this moment. This video is mostly questions, but they amount to a perspective that I had not heard before.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EwFsTowoGFI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EwFsTowoGFII am reporting this AS a Twitter rumor, from yesterday. Not confirmed.

Note: How do I report on developing news, and how do I weigh information? I am a one-person, unstaffed news portal relying on micro-donations, nowhere near capacity to do the kind of heavy first hand reporting that enables you to be plugged in to sources. The next best thing I can do is spend hours each day trying to at least figure out which portals and threads are asking the right questions, doing the digging. Hence, I am reporting second-hand, basically ushering TTB readers to certain places where I hope you will continue the research yourselves. We are all “the media.”

Saudi Prince ousted is the second largest share holder of twitter and owns a larger share than @Jack

The Saudi Princes have been protecting the cabal. They can’t any longer. The princes had to go first.

IMPORTANT – See my comments in the thread below for essential reading on the Saudi tweet from Trump earlier.

Q signed a post with a puzzle leading to the initials DJT (will find the link)

It appears that MegaAnon is Sarah Huckabee Sanders. Follow from this post, and into the next thread where the ‘feet ‘ photo shows feet on the WH Press Room carpet — http://boards.4chan.org/pol/thread/147998236#p148001412 — Appears that she’s posting as Sarah and Megs at the same time.

We have been chosen to support DJT and this historical time. WE ARE THE MEDIA NOW.

Princes First — Podesta and Clinton Cabal Next

Whatever you’ve got, please post it over there too, all the dots are being connected JUST NOW and they are calling for us PG Voaters to help as we know our subject.”

It got me thinking about the vested interests that the Rothschild-Soros-Clinton-Bush cartel are working on:

*Positioning anti-government (mainly peaceful anarchists and libertarians) as “violent” – effectively shunting actual righteous anger into a dead-end – a perfect recipe for preventing any real revolution (as if that is what we needed anyway) – and an excuse to annihilate citizen opposition to their hegemony over the common people

*Bigger government with more and more control measures implemented unopposed

*Fueling both extremes (racist alt-right vs. “alienated” fake alt-left) with fake events and a new army of “brownshirts” (Nazi-era paid agents, violents and actors for those rallies) – a perfect recipe for increased gun control and other police state measures

*Increased sales:
-gun sales (yes, these Rothschild-Soros-connected families manufacture and sell arms)
-sale of news and fake news (the mainstream media cartel)
-selling arms to city police forces
-it has been brilliantly pointed out that people under stress go shopping – they buy more things they don’t really need – distorting the economy – directly benefiting merchants in league with the Rothschild-Soros axis (MilesWMathis.com)

But probably chief among all reasons for their current panic operations:

*Distracting from the global pedophilia and child sex trafficking that has had them controlling politicians, governments and militaries across the globe – this is starting to unravel and has been the basis for their control and their long-running march into one-world-government globalism

If you post a comment that is strictly mockery, with no “point” other than contempt, you may get your comment deleted. If you are calling yourself “Satan’s Tool” while you do it, your chances of getting deleted shoot up to 100%

I am doubling down on abuse, not disagreement.

Now: There were two people who suggested, caustically, that the NYT Antifa ad was an Alex Jones hoax. I proved it wasn’t and asked that those who partook in this distortion return and say: “Roger that.”

This is about correcting the record as we go.

One was David Crowe. I can’t recall the second. I trust you will eventually let us hear from you.

“For the people who still are believing that this movement, this black movement, even some of these white movements, are legit….man you have a lot of growing to do.”

“Alot of the black leaders are leading us straight to our demise…They’re playing us emotionally because they need all the help that they can get. They’re getting gays, they’re getting black people…anybody who doesn’t like Donald Trump. They’re basically trying to get you to fight for a war that is being started on American turf very very soon.”

“This is all a big set up.”

“The various black movements have been compromised and infiltrated. The BLM is not a black organization, it is being used to help those who want to start a civil war. Many black people are being set up to be slaughtered. We must put the race thing to the side, for now. The Democratic Party is using black people to fight whites for Antifa. Antifa is being paid for by Clinton, Soros, and Rothschilds. Black allegiance is the target. The whole plan is to take the guns away from people on the conservative side. November 4th is the day that Antifa has pledged to start the war. It is already here with the Las Vegas thing. That was a direct hit from the left. I want black people to understand that you are being used.

What is going on now is so much bigger than the issue of racial equality, it is about revolution against America. I am damn sure not going with Hillary and Soros. The people on the left are trying to get you to do their dirty work and start the civil war. White, Blacks and Mexicans, they are coming after you. You are going to get slaughtered if you listen to them. Hidden powers are controlling the narrative. Trying to get you to hate white people.”

–Chaziel Sunz

Note: As I have reported here in recent days, I attended the Oct 30 Antifa protest against journalist Mike Cernovich, at Colombia University. There’s still a lot I have not had time to report. One thing that struck me to the point of shock was this: As they stood crowded into that lobby, chanting, then pausing, to allow speakers to come to the center, and take the mike, the white leaders (thin, shifty, menacing hooded types) they said, over and over: “Are there any brown or black people that would like to say anything? Are there any brown or black people that would like to say anything?” They made sure every speaker was “black or brown” but the leaders were white, and oozing violence.

Who talks like that? “Black or brown people?” It struck me as racist and condescending. And exactly in line with what Chaziel Sunz is saying here.

Well, whatever comes, it starts today. It’s November 4th.

What are the two sides? Rothschild Hate Based Revolutionary vs. Anti-violence Humanist. Trump is a trigger, a huge trigger. And what we are being subject to is mass trauma based mind control. Try to hold in to your thoughts. Don’t let your mind be hacked, to abandon your values, because you feel abused enough to go along with anything the Globalist Narcissist ghouls say. As he says, “Do your own research.”

There are ways to oppose racism that do not play directly into the hands of a destructive, deadly NWO Bolshevik revolution that benefits the 1 % here on US soil, just because you may not like Donald Trump. He is not nearly as relevant, or as central, as he is made out to be.
You are under no obligation to become hateful, to assist banking elites in their final destruction of human liberty.

Is hatred of women the new place where hate goes, when it can no longer go where it used to go before some forms of hate were rendered “unacceptable?” What caused this? What is the devil’s border abyss between lust and abuse? For the record, I was never one to take the cultural mushrooming popularity of S&M lightly. Sadism is very dangerous and so is masochism. These are symptoms of desensitization, which breeds violence, which breeds destruction. Every day I am more and more pleased to be old fashioned and a prig. Look what can happen if you are too open to people’s expansive “sexuality:”

Where is all this coming from? If you have accused friends you’ve known your whole life of being “racist” in the past year, you have been successfully conditioned by violent mind control to do the bidding of the post 9/11 Saudi-Globalist-Zionist puppet masters.

Apologize to your friends, take a shower, and take back your mind.

This is mass mind control and mass abuse. A Psy-op, just like “HIV-AIDS.”

[Anybody whose work or ideas has ever been connected with a larger identifying “group,” has had the experience of mistaking said group for some kind of “family.” Only to discover, the hard way, that that is exactly what it is like. Here is Robert Mercer’s pained and somewhat mysterious quote:]

“A society founded on the basis of the individual freedom that flourishes under a limited federal government has no place for discrimination. Of the many mischaracterizations made of me by the press, the most repugnant to me have been the intimations that I am a white supremacist or a member of some other noxious group.

“Discrimination on the basis of race, ethnicity, gender, creed, or anything of that sort is abhorrent to me. But more than that, it is ignorant.

“The press has also intimated that my politics marches in lockstep with Steve Bannon’s. I have great respect for Mr. Bannon, and from time to time I do discuss politics with him. However, I make my own decisions with respect to whom I support politically. Those decisions do not always align with Mr. Bannon’s.

“Without individuals thinking for themselves, society as a whole will struggle to distinguish the signal of truth from the correlated noise of conformity. I supported Milo Yiannopoulos in the hope and expectation that his expression of views contrary to the social mainstream and his spotlighting of the hypocrisy of those who would close down free speech in the name of political correctness would promote the type of open debate and freedom of thought that is being throttled on many American college campuses today. But in my opinion, actions of and statements by Mr. Yiannopoulos have caused pain and divisiveness undermining the open and productive discourse that I had hoped to facilitate. I was mistaken to have supported him, and for several weeks have been in the process of severing all ties with him.”

I have just seen the comments asking if this is an Alex Jones ruse, a rabbit hole, or “another Pizzagate.”

At a time when pedophiles in Hollywood and all through society are being exposed and (in the cases of the less powerful, wealthy ones) arrested, I am astounded to see “Pizzagate” still referred to as a fake distraction. I am astounded also, that anybody thinks Alex Jones would risk losing all credibility, by doctoring an Antifa ad that did not appear in the New York Times.

Here below, InfoWars reporter Kit Daniels walks into a supermarket, walks over to the newspaper section, and opens the New York Times to reveal the ad.

I would ask each person who has questioned whether this is real, to please check back, and say “Roger that. It’s real. It is proven. Sometimes my politics affects my capacity to have a good feel for what is credible, believable, provable, and what is likely fake.”

No harm done, but it would be reassuring to me if those messages came in, so we are all “on the same page” about when we have proven a thing and when we have not. Please watch the entire video. Thank you!

“Whoever knowingly or willfully advocates, abets, advises, or teaches the duty, necessity, desirability, or propriety of overthrowing or destroying the government of the United States or the government of any State, Territory, District or Possession thereof, or the government of any political subdivision therein, by force or violence, or by the assassination of any officer of any such government; or

Whoever, with intent to cause the overthrow or destruction of any such government, prints, publishes, edits, issues, circulates, sells, distributes, or publicly displays any written or printed matter advocating, advising, or teaching the duty, necessity, desirability, or propriety of overthrowing or destroying any government in the United States by force or violence, or attempts to do so; or

Whoever organizes or helps or attempts to organize any society, group, or assembly of persons who teach, advocate, or encourage the overthrow or destruction of any such government by force or violence; or becomes or is a member of, or affiliates with, any such society, group, or assembly of persons, knowing the purposes thereof—

Shall be fined under this title or imprisoned not more than twenty years, or both, and shall be ineligible for employment by the United States or any department or agency thereof, for the five years next following his conviction.

If two or more persons conspire to commit any offense named in this section, each shall be fined under this title or imprisoned not more than twenty years, or both, and shall be ineligible for employment by the United States or any department or agency thereof, for the five years next following his conviction.

As used in this section, the terms “organizes” and “organize”, with respect to any society, group, or assembly of persons, include the recruiting of new members, the forming of new units, and the regrouping or expansion of existing clubs, classes, and other units of such society, group, or assembly of persons.”

By “new journalism” I mean the non-deep state affiliated, working class, non Ivy League, non-pod Mike Cernovich, who was showing slides about facts vs propaganda inside and taking questions. That’s the new “literally Hitler!”

[I was not able to hear the talk at the time, but watched it later online, and will post it.]

You know…I have never done many disgusting, popular things. One such thing is chant. I have never chanted. Not once in my life. It seems to me like an exercise in degradation– the collapse and reversal of sovereign mind space. I would not even chant along to something I heartily agree with.

Once I submit to a chant, I give up my voice, by lending it to the injected command–the content of the chant.

“It is clear that the importunity of these devils was as monstrous as their numbers. Whenever Richly, a Cisterian abbot, closed his eyes he saw them around him as thick as dust. There were more precise estimates of their numbers, two of which are known to me, but they differ widely: one is 44,635,569; the other is 11 billion.”

I have many more videos. I often struggle with whether to narrate, or let material speak for itself. I can give you a bit of context: The mob was weary of its chants inside the lobby, scoping the exits, looking to attack (if possible physically) the speaker inside (Mike Cernovich) and/or anybody who had come to hear his talk on the rise of the new alternative media. Suddenly, with tremendous speed and velocity, they all took off running for a “kill–” somebody they were calling a “troll.” There was a lot of commotion, and as I walked toward there the commotion was coming from, the man in question was on the other side of a locked gate, and the squalid little deep state “radicals” were bullying him from the safety of their numbers, their “many” to his “one.” I wanted to ask: “Do you guys make any distinction between an American flag and “fascism?” But this aren’t “people,” who will answer questions of fellow humans, so I thought better of it, and just went back to observing.

I was wondering how much such an ad costs in 2017, so looked it up. According to Quora, about $150,000 for a pull page ad in the NYT.

The Soros sponsored Anitfa is by no means “ragtag.” I attended one of their protests the other night, against Mike Cernovich, who gave a talk at Columbia University about the rise if new media. I stayed and observed–watched and listened, for about 4 hours, until I was frozen and hungry and my phone had powered down and they were still baying for Cernovich’s blood outside the building, with the cops standing politely by as they screamed that they are the same as the KKK.

It was so depressing and dispiriting, I have no words. These people are pure hate. Their nature is perfectly cold. For this reason, it is almost impossible even to write about them or describe them. But I will try, if you want me to.

I have never been quite so happy to be reunited with my cats, Jack and Lewis, as I was that night, when I came home, horrified and cold. I saw straight up fascism: Violence against any and all who do not conform to the ideological doctrine they have set out. I mean physical violence. And verbal. And spiritual.

“The case against Dr. Wakefield and his two co-defendants, was contrived and filed by Brian Deer, on assignment for Murdoch’s Sunday Times. Deer had been explicitly commissioned to get “something big [on] MMR”.6 As a Murdoch-commissioned reporter, Deer gained access to numerous influential sources. Doors to confidential information that Deer would not otherwise have obtained – including confidential medical records – were opened. Deer was essentially providing the ammunition, while garnering material for his “story”. The case was crafted as a relentless assault, aimed at destroying Dr. Wakefield’s professional career and reputation, for which Deer won kudos, and advanced his own career.

Among MLI’s services to its pharma clients was crafting complaints to initiate GMC investigations.
The GMC hearings were calculated to: (1) end the line of research into the relationship between the MMR and autism; (2) prevent parents from filing legal action; and (3) to destroy the professional standing of the senior doctors in order to achieve 1 and 2. [GMC proceedings are noted for being high pressured, prejudicial, & extremely stressful. Defendants in GMC proceedings are presumed “guilty unless proven innocent.” Reports have documented a startling number of doctors who have committed suicide during GMC proceedings. [See Appendix 6]”

Please consider making a donation to AHRP, and remember that these brave, small boats have been shelled by Pharma affiliates for decades. Money is protection, and the capacity to keep researching, keep the flame going.

“It was a source of terrible lies, and viciousness, and meanness, and cruelty to struggling families. It laid the trap for new families to be brought in…and for their children to be hurt, and even killed.”

–Ginger Taylor

[HIV dissidents, at the inception of “ScienceBlogs” fought many brutal, bloody battles, we too lost people at the hands of this truly sociopathic organ of deep state lies and murder. Here they are for example, celebrating the death of a grieving mother,

What are they afraid of? Why are they going off-line? What should be preserved before it’s erased? These murderous toads do not readily retreat. There is a reason. They know they are defeated and they are covering their tracks. I can’t personally “go to” the site because when they killed my friend, and almost killed me, I was energetically unable to ever look at it again. A friend coined the term “Luciferian misogyny.” They represent hatred of women, mothers, children–above all.

I agree with Ginger Taylor’s Christian influence, and while I am in one sense rejoicing because, as this also demonstrates, the deep state is everywhere in thrashing-wounded-animal-death-rattle-free-fall, I feel no hate. I do feel relief. Sorrow, for the countless victims of this murderous “blog” that really, genuinely, killed so many people, most tragically, children.

As I write this, it is 4:10 pm EST. I am yet in my robe, have not had breakfast, have been transfixed and agog over the shock contents of the Mueller indictment and the clear, imminent path to the Podesta indictments.

I believe the Deep State is dying before our very eyes. But strap yourselves in, this is going to be extremely turbulent.

I also believe there is a God, there is good, there is evil, and evil is losing, miserably, right now. At last.

ScienceBlogs is shutting down on MondayProverbs 24:17-20Do not rejoice when your enemy falls,And do not let your heart be glad when he stumbles;Lest the Lord see it, and it displease Him,And He turn away His wrath from him.Do not fret because of evildoers,Nor be envious of the wicked;For there will be no prospect for the evil man;The lamp of the wicked will be put out.Chris Mooney, Sheril Kirshenbaum, Lori Kozlowski, Rosie Mestel, Thomas Maugh, David Gorski, Virginia Hughes, Science Journalists, The Dying of the LA Times and an Angry Autism Momhttp://adventuresinautism.blogspot.com/2009/09/chris-mooney-sheril-kirshenbaum-lori.html

I may be wrong but this is my best assessment after reading the documents all morning: This is way bigger deeper, more obscene and deadly than mere “money laundering,” and I am astonished that anybody with a brain would try to spin the crux point as the nexus between Trump and Manafort. READ IT.

2006-2014, Manafort and Gates ran a multi-million dollar lobbying campaign “directed by the government of Ukraine.”

The European Centre for A Modern Ukraine.

Imagine what enough money can buy you. This group not only “lobbied multiple members of Congress and their staffs about Ukraine sanctions” but meddled in something cryptically called “the propriety of Yanukovych’s imprisoning his presidential rival, Yulia Tymoshenko…” [Italics mine.] Now we know why. The MSM is spinning this, rather insanely, as a Trump debacle, though it seems to be a bullet that barely grazes him, but is aimed at the heart of the criminal Podesta gang.

Manafort resigned from the Trump campaign in August of 2016.

Here are the burning questions: Which companies are company A and company B in the indictment? And why is nobody interested in Podesta Inc’s ties to The European Centre For A Modern Ukraine?

And what about all this (JPG below) strangeness between The European Centre For A Modern Ukraine and the US deep state media? Is it incorrect to say there was collusion, it was with the Government of Ukraine, it was (among other things) about THEIR election, while these guys profited, took tens of millions from Ukraine, lobbied members of congress, media, put Yanukovych’s rival in prison, laundered all the profits, and Podesta Inc. was at the center of it WITH Manafort, Gates, and God knows who else?

That’s just for starters.

Tell me if I am wrong, and if so, how I am wrong. Left media is spinning this (meekly) as a Trump scandal, right wing media as a Nothing Burger–I see it as neither, but am getting disoriented, because I don’t see my interpretations reflected elsewhere.

Seems these are big crimes and Podesta is next to be indicted. I welcome corrections in my thinking, but only with documentation and proof. Speculation is only serving to further cloud the already impossibly clouded mess right now. We should take time and not jump to conclusions that fit our political stripes.

I heard about this when I was in Sweden, last year. It’s not a new story: “Apatiska barn,” or “Apathetic children,” now called “Resignation Syndrome.” I believe personally that the extremely powerful WiFi networks in Sweden play a role, as do all the cultural rules and prohibitions that in so many ways turn immigrants into inert parcels, treated as something not quite human. There is actually one camp in Sweden, in this debate, that argues that the kids are faking it. I doubt that.

And you will be instructed, conscious modern person, on social media. that this “does not give you permission to be homophobic.

To I would hope you would say: F@^k right off. They don’t get to control this demolition, and this moment is about chasing the PC prison guards back under the rocks they slithered from. “Homophobia” has had its reign and rule for decades, and anybody who would interrupt an investigation into the breaking, lurid, horrid truth about Hollywood pedophilia to whip and spank you into an obedient response is, as they say, “part of the problem.” This is going to be messy, is going to break and shatter across all political, social, and cultural lines. It comes down to the predator class and the preyed upon class. Those who assaulted and those who were assaulted. Those who were protected and those who had to repress their stories for decades because they were an inconvenience to the predator class and its sycophantic media enablers.

I consider the most important work I do to be this: A) Agreeing by karmic soul contract to experience deep spectrum trauma, B) to “confess” it (live in and with it, openly) C) Fail, fail, and fail again, D) continue to search for answers, try everything on myself until E) something works so well it stuns me, and F) I spread the word!

Stephanie Dietz and Nancy Hopkins host a show that has become a favorite of mine, called “Shungite Radio Show.” [If you type “Shungite” into the search bar, three previous article will come up. I have no financial connection to any form of Shungite or sellers of it, but if you buy it, I want you to get the real thing, so consider going to: www.cosmicreality.net.] These two women, I consider pilots of the highest caliber. I’m no longer as keen on “healers” as I am on pilots.

Women perceive cloud formations that have not even happened yet, in a 360 degree way that takes into account past, present, future, body, mind, soul and above all: Energetic literacy. Women understand the invisible, impactful. Because you can’t see it or prove it, it’s a hard road. It’s better to be a man, in many ways. People believe you.

But women are very important pilots at this moment.

I think its safe to say: We are going through a wild storm right now connected to long repressed, dark secrets emerging–from dark to light, via pain and fear. Maybe many of us are also going through that on the “individual” level, (though there is no such thing as an “individual.”)

Three people in my life gave me two tools, and today they became “aha” breakthroughs. One was the importance of supplementing properly with magnesium (which I will return to) and the other was breathing.

Not just “deep breathing,” but rather, a remarkable way to breathe in a certain sequence that activates all parts of the brain.

If you are suffering from free-floating anxiety, spinning mind, unable to focus, I strongly recommend you listen to this entire podcast. At around the one hour mark, Jodi Neering takes us through the exercise, breath by breath. Many of us will be resistant to breathing properly, and that is a sign we are among those who needs this the most.

Shungite (by far the most powerful mineral/stone I have ever encountered) opened up pathways to healing that, as I knew going in, are not always easy, but are always necessary.

Let me know if you tried it, and what the effect was, on the comments section. I want this website to contribute to “truth” but not to contribute to “trauma.” As I unlock the mysteries of trauma and the brain, I will become better able to integrate the healing secrets, and share what I find.

“The Obama administration and then-Secretary of State Hillary Clinton have risen to the center of controversy over a 2010 nuclear deal that handed Russia control of 20 percent of the U.S.’s uranium supply. The Uranium One deal has been referred to as a Russian nuclear bribery scheme and similar names since government documents surfaced last week showing the FBI had substantial evidence of racketeering by Russian officials before the Obama administration approved the deal.”

Any and all who continue past this point in history to mock or attempt to degrade people who have resisted media driven Russia-Trump hysteria are 100% discredited, face down in the mud. The best of them will admit defeat. The second best will keep silent. The worst will persist in their distortions, thus declaring themselves mentally unfit for public discourse.

“The blood of every vaccine injured or killed child is on the hands of every pediatrician that parroted lies like “vaccines do not cause autism” and “the science is settled.”

The science isn’t settled, it’s corrupt.

The vaccine industry will soon face the backlash as doctors, scientists, and parents across America become aware of your crimes, rise up to oppose your lies, and hold you accountable for the vaccine injury holocaust you’ve caused.

This is the first video I have ever posted without watching it in its entirety. I have followed the raw, heartbreaking posts of the Catone family on Facebook, since the sudden death of their son, Nicholas, almost two. When they describe the shattering moment, (“Nicholas is sleeping a bit late..?”) the details so vivid and frozen in amber, I traveled there and felt it too, so many thousands of layers of intensity less, of course, but even that hurt so much that I turned from it. It’s not enough to say: “I can’t imagine.” We can all imagine. This is a catastrophe. A catastrophe. It’s happening every day. They are over-injecting EVERY American child and risking their lives from sudden death, sometimes up to two weeks or more after the chemical attack. The body fights so hard, harder than we can ever know, to compensate, balance, find a way, stay alive. In the case of this strong little boy, his body fought for 17 days before the fight was lost.

Nicholas’ parents have asked–in reply to the question, “what can we do?”–that everybody spread the word, spread the links, to Nicholas’ story, his parents courageous account of what killed him. They don’t want this to happen to anybody else.

Ask yourself: Why has no mainstream media outlet covered the story of the death of Nicholas Catone? Not one.
It is spreading like wildfire across social media and alternative media.

May God bless and protect the Catone family, as they move forward, shattered, and unwavering.

Many people have written to me saying that they are unable compost comments. I have no web master or other kind of assistance, so I do my best with the software. There must be some bug in the system–nobody should have any problem posting a comment; The problems people are experiencing are not consistent with the settings. I finally (now) have removed even the one requirement that commenters identify themselves with an email address.

I welcome all comments. People have written asking me to please censor those commenters who are consistently negative, and/or insulting, bringing down the mood and spirit of the site. I have been reminded that it is my site and I should not hesitate to maintain order. Any time I have tried to in any way keep the negative/harassive comments under control, the harassers leap forth and accuse me of censorship. Even when they are in the middle of attacking me and/or others, they still claim they are being censored. Now I have changed the settings to no restrictions, so we can expect more attacks.

If you are consistently angry/offended/affronted/incredulous over what I post here, I would ask that you ask yourself why you come here and read material that only upsets you, since you have a fundamental problems with the site and the editor. (me.) And anybody who does not hate the site and the editor.

You are here because I created this site as a place for ideas and interpretations of what may or may not be happening in our world. A post is not an end point, but a starting point, for thought and dialogue.

If you were invited to a dinner parry at my home, and started attacking me and my guests, presumably you would experience regret, and expect to be shown the door.

This site is a voluntary event, in both directions. Therefore, I ask that all comments that are critical, avoid insults, sweeping character assassinations, and energetic attacks on people’s soul or character. If you wish to resolve an old conflict with me, I make myself available privately, through an email exchange. I have said before: I don’t pick fights, but if somebody else starts them, I am human and I sometimes get defensive and angry. I am not a robot.

Any comments that strike me as carrying a bullying energy, will be deleted. Any comments that are factually corrective, no matter how strongly worded, but contain no bullying energy or character assassination, or laments about how stupid I or other are, will remain.

If you have tried recently to comment and not succeeded, please try again, with the new settings. And thank you for letting me know about glitches in the system that I did not design.

As soon as I am able to afford it, I hope to do a comprehensive overhaul of the site, and clear up and and all annoying glitches, especially with the comments software.

“Notably, in the same month as the Clinton speech, Uranium One and Rosatom notified CFIUS of the Russian government’s intent to acquire twenty percent of the United States’ uranium assets. The next month, in July 2010, Renaissance Bank reportedly assigned Uranium One a “buy” rating, a move that would principally benefit its Russian investors.19

The donations raise concerns about potential conflicts of interest for Secretary Clinton and the Obama administration. The fact that Rosatom subsidiaries in the United States were under criminal investigation as a result of a U.S. intelligence operation apparently around the time CFIUS approved the Uranium One/Rosatom transaction raises questions about whether that information factored into CFIUS’ decision to approve the transaction.”

“Have been using these stones for only a few days and all I can tell you is that Something Good is Happening. I have been feeling down lately with a disease that has been difficult to deal with. I am actually feeling much better and I wanted to give you a ‘testimonial’ that they work! I wear this around my neck 24/7 and I put them in my water and my cat’s water as well. Yesterday, they were dancing all around my lawn like it was the best day of their lives and today I have been feeling the same way. From my heart to yours, Nancy!”

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“wow is right Mr Benton! I should also mention I have been able to cancel FIVE (that’s right 5 !!!) unique doctors appointments and am now going to slowly try to eliminate some of my meds on my own. I really think the Shungite has saved me so much money already in medical bills….. I will continue to post here and keep you updated to my progress. this is yet another day I am feeling like a spring chicken again.. nothing is hurting or aching and am mentally clear……………this is amazing!”

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“Shungite had been linked to a multitude of healings. Old dog Josie had been doing so bad we thought she had only days left. I took a shungite pendant and put it on her collar. By the next day she had improved so significantly I actually forgot to give her medication. In the following three weeks she continued to get stronger. Instead of a dog who mainly slept and did not want to eat, I now have a dog who eats three times a day and spends most of the day dozing between being awake and taking short walks. The only change in what I was doing was the shungite. That was on March 5, 2014.

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I admit this is very limited examples of what I have seen shungite do. Mostly it is a feeling that this mineral is just magical. I believe shungite takes negative energy and changes it into a positive energy while enhancing positive energy. It works to balance the human or animal energy fields that results in healing. Illness and aging are simply energy fields out of balance. Shungite works to bring back balance.

And since writing the above all I have seen is Gaia’s Gift of Shungite continually demonstrating rather mystical powers. Please, give yourself a change to experience Shungite. It is now May 13 and old dog Josie is better than she was six months before having the Shungite experience. And the friend diagnosed with lung cancer had the diagnose changed after wearing a Shungite pendant for a couple of weeks. Because they could not explain what had happened and did not want to admit to a misdiagnosis, the doctors claimed it was a 1-100,000 chance that the thing they thought was cancer was not. Was it chance or Shungite?”

N.L. Hopkins

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“CAUTIONARY NOTE: One of the things brought on by Shungite is getting distance between people who are not good for you. The tell tale sign is someone is attacking you and you do not react emotionally. It is more of WTF moment. It is just a temporary distance. You need the space to grow. Once you get to a point of complete empowerment, those who were negative influences will be drawn back to you for healing.”

N.L. Hopkins

“I received my Shungite a couple of months ago….. and I have to say I was a total skeptic that it would do me any good what so ever.
My mind was mush, from all the drugs I was taking to keep my body working.
I have Rheumatoid Arthritis, Fibromyalgia, Crohns Disease, Thyroid Disease, COPD and a host of several other health problems…..that were all keeping me from living life…….
.. after about a month… I (and my hubby) noticed I was thinking clearer … I was not so spaced out, and could actually hold a nice long conversation. The true test was when hubby let me balance our checkbook for the first time in several years .. and it was a success! ….. as time passed I continued to drink my shungite water and wear my pendants daily….
Not kidding you ~ one day I just woke up feeling so good, I decided I would tried to take a walk, … just a short one, didnt want to over do and hurt like hell the following day. The next day, the same thing, walked a wee bit farther than the day before.. and over the last few weeks I have finally walked myself back up to an entire mile. You dont know how good this feels to move like this again! I have alot of weight to drop from sitting so much and so many steroids and walking will help me do it quickly!!! Before I broke down and got “sick” I walked 3 miles daily without fail.
I FIRMLY in my heart believe if not for the Shungite, my brain would still be in a fog .. and I would not be having the clarity or energy I have …. I HAVE DONE NOTHING different than purchasing the Shungite and using it !! please please believe me when I say to TAKE THE CHANCE and make that purchase! I was at the end of my ropes and so desperate,
~ seriously ready to even off myself even ~
I will never be without my pendants … and I will continue to keep moving and walking… and never give up trying to get back to my normal life !!! THANK YOU NANCY, THANK YOU for the quick & courteous delivery and providing me with a stone that is so magical, so unbelievably unique… that I can hardly believe it myself !!!!!!”

My quiet awe about the energy transforming effects of shungite only grows, with each passing day. I’m way more stable, less distracted, less armored, less exhausted. In fact, I’m downright energized, to the point of feeling like I was returned to my body, after about 10 years of being in energetic exile.

We are under Ahrimanic energy field attack like never before; Shungite is the secret weapon, to restore harmony, repel bad energy, cut EMF fields, resolve countless ailments, dispel hatred, and repair broken love.

Within 24 hours of wearing my shungite pendant, my persistent, annoying eye allergies vanished, (about 2 weeks ago) and have not returned, except for the one time I took the pendant off, overnight.

The allergies were only getting worse, no matter what I ate, or didn’t, and despite countless supplements, which I have now (on the gentle advice of two very wise friends) stopped taking altogether–for now.

My energy is shifting noticeably. I can fulfill tasks, without “splitting.” I have kept my desk clean, and am sometimes waking up in the early morning to re-organize drawers. (This qualifies almost as para-normal.)

The plants are growing beautifully, and the whole apartment feels peaceful.

My father actually came into the room where I was talking to my son on the phone, within 15 minutes of having his shungite in his pocket, and he said: “I feel noticeably better! Is that possible?” His wife Sara cleared a chronic stomach problem by the next morning, and called me, amazed.

It seems to make tap water taste like spring water, no chlorine smell. (The cats have shungite in their water bowl as well.)

Lewis and shungite

I notice also, that I am less defensive, less armored. I can think about my flaws, sins, shortcomings, and accept myself without feeling such a sense of metallic dread as I used to. I can also think about all the very painful things that have happened, and feel the embedded shards loosening, dissolving. Forgiveness (of self and others) is no longer just language, but something I can finally experience in my own energetic field.

Some of you may have noticed a long, breathless and (even by my standards) tangential article that appeared here about a week ago, about a carbon mineral called “Shungite” that had made me hysterical with excitement. I woke up in the middle of the night and my voice that always talks told me it was “clinically insane” and I had better take it down.

So I took it down. I am going to ask a friend to edit it for me (he is an editor) until it sounds sane.

If I am right, and if the other Shungite enthusiasts are right, then this mystery mineral can heal broken, perturbed energy fields, and reverse all forms of degradation to life. I would not advocate something that I have not tested myself. I took my Shungite pendant off once in the last week, and it resulted immediately in chaos to my body in the form of a profound allergy attack. Once I put it back on, the allergy cleared again, along with my energy, mood, and concentration.

I listened to this broadcast tonight–and decided to start Shungite Week at The Truth Barrier with this fascinating interview with Walt Silva, who calls himself an “energy explorer.”

The article I took down contains a story about how I have been obsessed with the region of Karelia–the only place real Shungite exists–for about 16 years. But that can all wait.

Why and how Shungite has these properties that seem “magical” will be explained more in future posts.

You who claimed we did not HAVE a pedophilia pandemic, or that because it was wrongly named “Pizzagate” instead of “Pedo-gate,” you could dismiss the problem and mock the alarmists–I do hope you were sincerely misguided, as opposed to possessed.

I politely ask anybody possessed by Satan to stop reading The Truth Barrier.

That’s the whole bloody thing, isn’t it? Everything that really matters, everything that really works out there—as a writer, as an artist, as an interlocutor—everything you do is about whether or not you actually are going to be exposed. If you choose not to be, if you choose to be defended, if you choose not to go there, if you choose not to risk it, then that’s your choice and that’s fine.

I look at HST’s writings and marvel at many of it qualities, but above all, how his motifs and counter motifs moved symphonically, at high speed, and totally against expectation. As far as I can tell he wasn’t even using the metrics of Anglican languages. The embedded rhythms and simultaneous varying time signatures remind me, if anything, of West African music.

I got a chance to tell Mr. Thompson, via letter correspondence and telephone, that I thought he was the most original American writer of the past century.

Here’s something he wrote about gun control. Except notice how far afield from mere “gun control” it moves, and how fast. The man was never boring–always hilarious, always the voice of the writer alone in his mind–unable to replicate the mass feelings, phrases, conclusions, or platitudes of anybody around him. Hunter was clearly on the “left,” but among his many contradictions: He was an open gun enthusiast and frequently dressed in the American Flag and not much else.

“…the membership hears nothing but bells when the NRA is “attacked.”

I love him for his refusal to trod out easy, chewed, pious positions. Healthy incivism against government, media and “counterculture,” alike. A writer should never become a billboard for contemporary political fashions.

His word for himself was “freak.” What might he write, today, were he alive? Would have loathed Trump. But would have helped us see under many surfaces, penetrate many “ostensibles.”

Someone should go undercover with a recording device and hidden camera to catch this sort of abominable behavior by medical personnel on tape; no one believed cops were beating up suspects or shooting them in cold blood with such frequency either until such behavior was recorded on video for all to see.

Christina Moore took her happy, healthy 8 month old son Trent to his well baby visit at Seymour Medical Center in Seymour, TN. He passed away in the night, less than 13 hours after his mother was bullied at the doctors office to give him 5 vaccines, even though she only felt comfortable with one at a time.
Trent dead after vaccines
Christina wrote “I argued with the nurse practitioner for 30-45 minutes. They would not split the shots up! They bullied me, told me I was retarded, told me he needed all the shots that day, told me they could not split the shots up, told me it absolutely would not hurt him! He was injected with 4 needles and given the Rotavirus oral vaccine. He died less than 13 hours later. I’m upset that I argued with them and they bullied me into something that I did not want in the first place and the same thing that I told them might happen, did happen!”

She was not even given an apology when she went to pick up his medical records and saw the person who did this. A claim was filed with the Vaccine Injury Compensation Program but since the parents couldn’t find an expert witness to prove Trent died from the vaccines, they settled their case for $20,000 before it went to trial. They had one of the best lawyers and still almost lost any chance at receiving any compensation.

More than 2 out of 3 claims are denied and parents have to prove the vaccines harmed their child. That’s what his life was worth to those responsible. Most never see a penny. Trent’s younger sister he never got to meet is vaccine free. Trent is greatly loved and missed. They said he died of unknown reasons. Trent Michael Blackburn 4/29/12-12/21/12

“There are many people who are not entirely themselves because as children they were not given time to think about themselves. And because they don’t know everything about themselves they can’t know everything about everything. But no one likes to admit that she doesn’t know everything about everything. And so these people try to make up for not knowing everything about everything by doing things.

[…]

People who for some reason find it impossible to think about themselves, and so really be themselves, try to make up for not thinking with doing. They try to pretend that doing is thinking.”

Bob Guccione Jr. just sent me his essay on his father’s rival, High Hefner, tonight. Wonderfully written, starting with the perfect opening lines:

“My father hated Hugh Hefner. Which I always thought was irrational and, by the end of his life, just force of habit, something he no longer felt with any real emotion, a default position for which the source code had long been lost.”

These two pieces on Hefner are darker, angrier–As much as I love Bob’s writing, humor, and sense of the absurd, I lean toward agreeing with these perspectives:

“And his appreciation of male-female difference was rotten, too — the leering predatory sort of appreciation, the Cosby-Clinton-Trump sort, the sort that nicknames quaaludes “thigh openers” and expects the girls to laugh, the sort that prefers breast implants to female intellect and rents the charms of youth to escape the realities of age.

No doubt what Hefner offered America somebody else would have offered in his place, and the changes he helped hasten would have come rushing in without him.

But in every way that mattered he made those changes worse, our culture coarser and crueler and more sterile than liberalism or feminism or freedom of speech required. And in every way that mattered his life story proved that we were wrong to listen to him, because at the end of the long slide lay only a degraded, priapic senility, or the desperate gaiety of Prince Prospero’s court with the Red Death at the door.
Now that death has taken him, we should examine our own sins. Liberals should ask why their crusade for freedom and equality found itself with such a captain, and what his legacy says about their cause. Conservatives should ask how their crusade for faith and family and community ended up so Hefnerian itself — with a conservative news network that seems to have been run on Playboy Mansion principles and a conservative party that just elected a playboy as our president.”

We fall in love with places we’ve never been to, and we don’t know why.

My father, for example, loves Albania.

He has even been “adopted” by a large Albanian clan in New York, who over the years, have invited him to to their festivities, and delighted in his mastery of their language, their culture, and especially, their famous ironclad, unbreakable tribal vow called the “besa.”

Due to the “besa” that went down from the Albanian warlords during WW2, the “backward” country became the only country in Europe that had more Jews after WW2 than before–despite being a Nazi ally. Ten times more, in fact.

“Hitler got nothing out of the Albanians,” my father remarked. Once when we talked about why he loves this place so much, he said: “Maybe I was Skanderbeg’s horse in a past life, I don’t know.”

Besa during World War II

Besa also means taking care of those in need and being hospitable. During World War II, Albanians saved over 2000 Jews from Nazi persecution.[2] Rather than hiding the Jews in attics or the woods, Albanians gave them clothes, gave them Albanian names, and treated them as part of the family. The concept of besa is incorporated into their culture. Before World War II only about 200 Albanians were Jewish. At the end of the war about 2000 Jews were living in Albania. An award-winning feature film documentary BESA: The Promise (2012) is about American photographer Norman H. Gershman’s quest to tell the story of Besa and the Albanians who saved Jews during World War II. This story was featured on CBS News Sunday Morning on November 8, 2009 for the 71st anniversary of Kristallnacht, which occurred on November 9, 1938.”

–Wikipedia

Everybody who knows me, knows I have harbored an irrational obsession with Karelia–the embattled, and finally ambiguously deserted “mellanland” between Finland and Russia. Since I first happened upon a CD by The Karelian Folk Music Ensemble, some 17 years ago–I played it until my son begged me to turn it off. “Mom! No more Karelians!”

To this day I listen to this Best Of Kantele, when I need to transport myself to a higher ground. I always used “Karelia” as part of any chosen screen name, thinking it would protect me. Yes, seriously. I always knew there was some lost magic in that land.

Over the years, as my life conditions deteriorated, my Karelian Dream only grew. I kept saying I needed to get myself to Karelia–somehow. I immersed myself in their music, their tragic history, and always pestered my father about what status Karelia had after the dissolution of the Soviet Union. My understanding was the Finland didn’t want it back and Russia didn’t want it, period. My old Swedish-Finnish friend Urban Sarback flat out said to me, one of our nights on the island of Runmaro: “Celia stop talking about Karelia. You don’t want to go there.”

This was at the beginning of my old friend’s loss of innocence; Now we don’t speak anymore, but that story is too sad to tell.

I still talk to him in my mind sometimes.

“You were wrong about HIV. And you were wrong about Karelia, Urban,” I said to him today, in my mind. “There was a reason my internal energetic systems were insisting I focus on this place. There was a reason.”

Today the reason came clear. Let me back into it.

My father and stepmother called me, in the early evening, to find out how I was feeling. In recent days, for the first time in my 10 year battle with Mystery Fatigue, I was unable to dress, and had to cancel a commitment to moderate a panel discussion of Miranda Bailey’s documentary film about Andrew Wakefield–yesterday. I got a report on a hair mineral test that my adrenal exhaustion is so bad, my worst enemies have cause to celebrate. My adrenal and mineral energy, the report said, (and I don’t want my enemies to get too excited here–there’s a point, coming)…is at an an “end of life” all time low. I got “sick” at the exact moment in time, about 10 years ago, that my building installed a cell tower on our roof, right above my head, as I write this. I live right under it.
(I have committed to a program of Nutritional Balancing, which I will chronicle as my energy permits, here, but let me get back to the winding story.)

I suddenly saw, in a new light, my shundite pendant, on a bathroom shelf, and put it on. I started looking up videos about it, and as my excitement grew, the pendant became warm to the touch. I got more and more excited. Even enthralled. I watched about 10 videos, read various reports, and one scientific paper. I ordered some additional pieces, from a seller called Karelian Heritage, where my pendant came from.

“You won’t believe this,” I said to my father, and stepmother,” but I have experienced an energetic healing in a matter of hours, from wearing a pendant made from a rare kind of carbon that originated in outer space, only found in Karelia. It’s called shungite.”

“I believe it,” my father said. I kept talking. They listened.

“It’s got some kind of molecular structure called Fullerenes. Some kind of vacuum bubble that reverses decay, radiation, and takes poisons out of water. They awarded a Nobel prize for this discovery, and they tried to invalidate the findings but I read a paper that proved it’s true. It came from some kind of ancient meteor collision two billion years ago. It’s not a material that can be found on earth. And the only ones who have it are the Karelians. On the Russian side.”

Soon we were worrying out loud that somebody would stage a fake war, invade Karelia, and take over the shungite mine. (Don’t get any ideas, bad people.)

“Let’s try to stay positive,” my stepmother, Sara, said.

“Celia, has somebody yet… made a fortune on this?” my father asked, as though we were on his radio show.

“I don’t think so, not yet,” I said. “But it is referred to as “the medicine of the 20th century,” and I would expect it to be worth more than gold, silver, and diamonds, as poisoning in all forms becomes our biggest problem.”

“Wait–I’m getting exhausted again. I have to calm down.”

We’re the kind of people who would call up other people until we found somebody who might want to make a fortune on this. We would just hope they remembered who idea it was. I don’t want anybody to do anything to Karelia! They deserve peace and prosperity after all they have gone through.

“This is not New Age nonsense,” I said. “It’s backed by chemistry, and science.”

“Fullerenes are powerful anti-oxidants, and their presence in this stone seems to be quite unique.

It has been noted that this stone has strong healing qualities, and that Shungite will help to neutralize any organism within your body that is harmful to you.

This is an amazing claim, but this black stone has been in use for a very long time in Russia where they have been documenting these qualities.

Since this stone was discovered in Russia in the 1700’s, they have been recording amazing results from its use. They use shungite chips of various sizes to purify water.

Shungite is a powerful stone to shield you from the electromagnetic radiation given off by electrical equipment, including computers, mobile phones, microwaves and televisions.”

“What is the unique property that distinguishes shungite from other protection stones?” wrote Regina Martino. “I have carried out detailed studies using bioenergetic tests and have personally tested more than 200 stones and crystals that have an influenceon the chakras. Among those tested, I made comparative studies of about 20 stones, including shungite, that were able to resonate withthe first chakra.In comparing tests on shungite with tests carried out on other stones of this group, we noticed right away that for stones of the sameweight, shungite is the stone that achieves the largest expansion of the vital field, the greatest concentration, and, in a striking way, a significantexpansion of the first chakra. It is quite possible that the presence of fullerenes would explain all of shungite qualities:

We should all order some pieces of “elite” shungite from reputable (Karelian) sellers, and place it in pitchers of water, and around our electronic devices.

I have been asking for years what the New Age people mean when they say you can’t change your life until you “heal your frequency.”

“How do you do that?” I asked. And asked. No answers ever came.

I believe this is the answer. And maybe just maybe my old friend and mentor/editor Bob Guccione Jr. will send me to Karelia on a shungite safari, for his newly launched travel magazine, Wonderlust. I would just go lie down in the shungite mine and go to sleep.

Skeptic Troll: You will be tempted to say I don’t know what I am talking about and they didn’t find fullerenes ha ha ha, what a fraud, but guess, what, they did so.

This article (that you are reading) is strictly reporting that this article has appeared.

I am well aware that there have been times when YourNewsWire.com has published less that rock solid reportage. My sense of that landscape is that as their reporters go, Baxter Dmitri is the high end.

“Hugh Hefner was found dead in suspicious circumstances on Wednesday at his home in Los Angeles, just days before he was set to be arrested on child sex charges, according to a Los Angeles police source.

Hefner had been dealing with police on a daily basis for the past three weeks, trying to work out a plea deal, after an investigation, launched in 2009 after a lawsuit was filed against Hefner, suddenly “went hot.”

[An email sent from Cat McGuire, to a friend of hers on the Left, re-printed via the Facebook page of Mark Crispin Miller:]

Hi, F.
I know you are familiar with the criticisms of Burns’ Vietnam documentary film. I am not sure which ones you read, but I think this review by FAIR in particular does a very good job of explaining why Burns’ series is flawed. (You know who FAIR is, right?)
On the one hand, I agree with you that just seeing the images alone is a stark wake-up call for clueless young people who have no idea about Vietnam. On the other hand, as the FAIR review astutely deconstructs, Burns’ narrative neuters accountability, thereby shielding the psychopaths who willingly, calculatingly perpetrated the massive Southeast Asian horror.
Without full-disclosure analysis accompanying all that imagery, by and large the public — unlike you — does not have a context for interpreting the historical truths underlying those images. History thereby becomes co-opted by the dominant culture’s version of reality. One might say how bad is that?, at least they’re getting a clue as to what happened — as opposed to zero idea.
What’s so bad about it is that the exact same dumbing-down lies and fake news is what is being peddled to us once again with the current 9/11 Wars. History is repeating itself, and documentaries like Burns’ are a continual programming of the public to accept the official narratives being drilled into us, subliminally or otherwise.
Add to that, it’s not necessarily what is said that’s so bad, it’s almost always what is not said. The omissions is where truth lies. Through glib gloss-overs of the role of the power elites (yep, his funders), popular-culture filmmakers like Burns, under the guise of an inclusive “lets hear all sides” (as if all the sides have equally weighted power), serve to lull people from doing the deeper critical analysis of teasing out the depths and nuances of history — which is the exact lack of perception the powers that be require for today’s 9/11 Wars.
Or as Orwell so aptly wrote: “Who controls the past controls the future. Who controls the present controls the past.”
On a somewhat tangential note, it frustrates, angers, and pains me how FAIR can deliver such an astute analysis of a past war, yet perpetuate so thoroughly the same myopia for current wars. To wit, the mainstream-left’s inability to acknowledge the historical roots of today’s wars — the Deep State’s responsibility for committing 9/11 — keeps America in as thorough a state of denial of the truth as Burns’ propaganda film does.
FAIR is ultimately mirroring the same failures of omission as the dominant power structure it exposes and excoriates. Pot calling the kettle black.
As long as the Left – just like Ken Burns – continues to eat from similar Big Funder troughs that demand deflection of the uber criminals, they will never truly grasp why they are no less enabling the 9/11 Wars as the liberal establishment enabled Vietnam back in the 60s.
Or as Upton Sinclair wrote: “It is difficult to make a man understand something when his job depends upon not understanding it.”

–Cat McGuire

*Note from Truth Barrier editor: Despite the tone of moral purity and clarity here, Ms. McGuire continually erases the female half of the documentary team, proving that male supremacy on the left is intact and unquestioned.

I count six mentions of the name “Burns” not one, “Novick.” I understand Lynn Novice traveled to Vietnam, where as Ken Burns did not. Unconfirmed.

“I was actually stunned by what I saw,” Verstraeten told those assembled at Simpsonwood, citing the staggering number of earlier studies that indicate a link between thimerosal and speech delays, attention-deficit disorder, hyperactivity and autism. Since 1991, when the CDC and the FDA had recommended that three additional vaccines laced with the preservative be given to extremely young infants — in one case, within hours of birth — the estimated number of cases of autism had increased fifteenfold, from one in every 2,500 children to one in 166 children.
Even for scientists and doctors accustomed to confronting issues of life and death, the findings were frightening. “You can play with this all you want,” Dr. Bill Weil, a consultant for the American Academy of Pediatrics, told the group. The results “are statistically significant.” Dr. Richard Johnston, an immunologist and pediatrician from the University of Colorado whose grandson had been born early on the morning of the meeting’s first day, was even more alarmed. “My gut feeling?” he said. “Forgive this personal comment — I do not want my grandson to get a thimerosal-containing vaccine until we know better what is going on.”
But instead of taking immediate steps to alert the public and rid the vaccine supply of thimerosal, the officials and executives at Simpsonwood spent most of the next two days discussing how to cover up the damaging data. According to transcripts obtained under the Freedom of Information Act, many at the meeting were concerned about how the damaging revelations about thimerosal would affect the vaccine industry’s bottom line. “We are in a bad position from the standpoint of defending any lawsuits,” said Dr. Robert Brent, a pediatrician at the Alfred I. duPont Hospital for Children in Delaware. “This will be a resource to our very busy plaintiff attorneys in this country.” Dr. Bob Chen, head of vaccine safety for the CDC, expressed relief that “given the sensitivity of the information, we have been able to keep it out of the hands of, let’s say, less responsible hands.” Dr. John Clements, vaccines advisor at the World Health Organization, declared that “perhaps this study should not have been done at all.”

If you are on Twitter please Tweet out both articles. Salon founder David Talbot is to be commended for his pro-journalism stance and ethic. The story here is very familiar to the editor of this website. It’s a formula, that was perfected over time, and reached its apex around 2006-2008. Journalism was actually assassinated, by the Pharmaceutical industry, and the fake “press” it installed to do its black ops, reversing truth, crushing reputations overnight, vanishing articles by vicious intimidation, and then claiming the authors were discredited because the article was “retracted.” Or had “errors.”

“When I was young, it seemed that the prevailing wisdom was that women were the victims of this pornographic society that he labored to usher in. To think that not all that long ago, only real creeps would have a subscription to Penthouse, or Hustler. That was rough stuff back then.
The real victims of porn are of course men and women. Equally. Women have to live in this world where men are frequently damaged by this thing, and men have to have been damaged, even if that damage has been normalized, that doesn’t mean it didn’t happen.
It messes with your neurology, your survival skills that were hard wired, long long before we were even human.

To me his life seemed like a garish cartoon. Weezer wrote a song about his mansion. It was a rock bottom low point for the music of my generation, that being X. Especially being that they were capable of much better; it seemed to represent this…bottom, this inevitable attraction to something that almost can’t be avoided due to its ubiquitousness, and it’s one of the handful of songs that have a built in, spoken word apology to their fans for ever having been so honest about their most base assessment of ‘success’. Beverly Hills is where you want to be? Really? Why?

I remember watching his reality show while alone in front of the TV, and there was this woman who should have been living a life somewhere, but instead she was forcing a smile out onto the stage her face had become, obviously repulsed to have sit there, listening, not watching but listening to episodes of Flash Gordon on a radio with the Hef. That was the meaning, the essence of a life well lived, to enjoy the same banalities that thrilled your pre pubescent self, with an endless round of compliant human love dolls.”

“Now we see North Korea claiming to be a victim and that the world is picking on them,” Fred Warmbier said. “And we’re here to tell you North Korea is not a victim. They’re terrorists. They kidnapped Otto. They tortured him.”

The Warmbiers also opened up about seeing their son for the first time after his release from North Korean custody, offering new ― and, at times, disturbing ― details about his condition.

Fred Warmbier described a “howling, involuntary, inhuman sound” as he and his family walked up the steps of the plane that transported their son back to the U.S. from North Korea.

“Otto was on the stretcher … and he was jerking violently, making these inhuman sounds,” Warmbier said. “Otto had a shaved head. He had a feeding tube coming out of his nose. He was starting blankly into space … He was blind. He was deaf. … It looked like someone had taken a pair of pliers and rearranged his bottom teeth.”

“A quick summary is that the buildings didn’t burn up, nor did they slam to the ground, but they turned into dust in mid air. How do I know that? Because if they collapsed to the ground, you would have a pile of debris that would correspond to two hundred and ten story buildings. That didn’t happen. “

It has been pointed out that Silicon Valley and the Tech-Topus, Google, Facebook, Twitter, Amazon et al, are the helm of the new American Totalitarianism–its de-facto “deep state–” and that the actual, lumbering “government,” uses said Tech-Topus to enact its agendas, polish its mirrors, send its critics “to the cornfield.”

No longer trying to be covert or subtle, it has instead begun to perform its bloodbaths on free speech in plain view, followed by paternalistic justifications as to why the world is a better place this way, and it was only acting in the best interest of the Nation, Truth, and The Right And The Good. (Political Correctness fulfilled.)

Hillary Clinton’s latest book What Happened (is the title a nod to the “diabolical Joseph Heller?) (that word, by the way, comes from his daughter) came out last Wednesday. The day after its release, there were 1,600 predictably polarized reviews: About half had given it 5 stars, slightly less than half, one star.

Along comes Mr. Clean, arms folded, ready to fight and kill germs of wrong opinion. The very next day, over 1100 negative reviews had been purged by Big Brother, leaving 460 positive ones. The following day, a dash of free expression was added back to the bland soup, leaving us with 626 positive reviews, of which 607 were glowing, but also (hey, you’re still free, Americans) 22 negative ones. Those token 22 are meant to be the way these megalomaniacs at Amazon disabuse you of your deplorable “free speech” baby rattles.

Obedient Bland Soup Media wrote Obliging articles explaining in maternalistic tones why Daddy Amazon had to do what it did to take care of us all. You see, some reviewers are suspect, and what makes them suspect is they never reviewed any previous books. Fair enough. They also couldn’t possibly have had time to read the 400 page tome and review it so fast, hence they deserve to be eliminated as troll-roaches. Follow the logic and the magic: Positive reviewers can read and review a book in the exact time frame!

This trifecta (that is the first and I hope only time I will use that pompous word) of traumatizing corporate PC narcissism, was sealed by the one quality all reviewers had to prove: They had purchased the book on Amazon, and could prove “verified purchase.” 100% of reviewers were “verified.”

Who loves freedom, raise your hand!

The somewhat good news: Things are getting so obscene and out of hand, that plain old fashioned websites are becoming popular again, as information life rafts. The Truth Barrier is one of them, and if you will subscribe, and have faith, (and consider making a tiny regular monthly donation of $5,) I will stop putting most of my writings on Zuckerberg’s surveillance site Facebook, and focus them here instead. I am well aware of the gravity of the situation, and it calls for all people who value non-state sanctioned corporate news to help these tiny rafts star afloat as the war intensifies.

We still have ham radios. We still have a few well-positioned lunatics who love reality more than money, and are prepared to die 1000 ways to smuggle the contraband to the West.

Julian Assange, Ham Radio King, is a very good curator of non-corporate media–things written by people using their own minds, on their own platforms–and he tweeted this remarkable review of What Happened by Jeffrey St. Clair, editor of the journal CounterPunch, founded by the late Alexander Cockburn.

I feel bad for the 1100 and counting who bought the book on Amazon and saw their (admittedly rushed) reviews expunged–something I doubt Amazon has ever told its customers is something that can and may happen. After all, reviews are core and critical to Amazon’s business model. Reviews drive our purchases.

But this review by St. Clair can be read in lieu of those perished ones, and reality (a word I prefer to “truth”) survives its infinite, squalid hunting packs. Nobody “hates” Hillary Clinton for “being a woman.” Rather, it is being a traumatizing narcissist who can’t open her mouth without polishing her 12 refracting mirrors, splayed as on a 1960s Mod Vespa.

As St. Clair points out, even every admission of guilt, error, or responsibility, morphs quickly into a boast laced with victimhood. Narcissists love to say: “I’m sorry the cruel, insulting thing I did or said was misunderstoodby rubes, when in fact I was perfectly justified and you know what, come to think of it I’m not sorry.”

“The closest Hillary comes to any admission of personal liability is when she discloses that she may have blundered when she smeared Trump’s supporters as “deplorables.” Then she suddenly pulls back, recalibrates and defends her denunciation of white working class voters as an act of courage, speaking truth to the powerless, even though it may have harmed her. “I regret handing Trump a political gift with my ‘deplorables’ comment,” she writes. “[But] too many of Trump’s core supporters do hold views that I find — there’s no other word for it — deplorable.” What started as a confession ended in a boast.

Of course, Hillary Clinton has never been able to conceal her contempt for her enemies, real and imagined. It’s one reason she’s never been a successful politician. Where others are supple, she is taut. Unlike Bill, Hillary is a prolific, but graceless and transparent liar. She is also probably the nastiest political figure in America since Nixon. Yet she lacked Nixon’s Machiavellian genius for political manipulation. Hillary wears her menace on her face. She could never hide her aspiration for power; her desire to become a war criminal in the ranks of her mentor Henry Kissinger (symbolized by the laurels of a Nobel Peace Prize, naturally). Americans don’t mind politicians with a lust to spill blood, but they prefer them not to advertise it.”

The post from yesterday about Joan Shenton and Andi Reiss’ HPV YouTube series “Sacrificial Virgins” was spread across many vaccination-aware groups on FB. A FB friend central to the movement emailed me today:

“Hi Celia, I’ve shared your latest Truth Barrier post in several groups. Someone just commented that your site is trying to install ransomware on their phone, and suggested viewing the embedded video directly on YouTube.”

I am not sure why this is happening but am going to park The Truth Barrier off-line, to be safe, while I solve it. Please go to YouTube and type in “Sacrificial Virgins” to get a safe video upload. Many apologies if anybody has had trouble with ransomeware via TTB. I hope to solve the problem soon.

Here is a comment that came in, following last night’s post:

GARDASIL gave my daughter CERVICAL CANCER at 17.She died on Christmas Eve 2013, just 8 days after her 20th birthday.RIP Jessica D. 12/16/1993-12/24/2013

Ps… One day very soon, I will hunt down and “vaccinate” the ENTIRE Board of Directors of MERCK Pharma.

“So magazines like Encounter, they were created in Paris, they were created in Italy, they were created all over Europe; and then they spread to the Nordic countries, they spread to the Third World. What they did was they involved people at different levels. So the people in the know would be people who were editors and regular contributors, and it would even for them be kind of an open secret. So one person I interviewed was a guy named Nelson Aldrich, and he collaborated first—well, he worked for, I should say, first with the Paris Review.The Paris Review was not one of those magazines created by the CIA, or if it was, it was sort of indirectly used. It was used as Peter Matthiessen, the writer who was one of its founders, as his cover in Paris in the early fifties. But then he says he resigned from the CIA and there was no connection. Well, later on, George Plimpton, the famous writer and man about New York, was the public face of the Paris Review through its formative years and for many decades; he found a way to get CIA money through the Congress for Cultural Freedom, its cultural propaganda front. So that’s a second tie. Later on in my research, I found a third tie through a founding managing editor. So you have such a vast network of money for culture that in one organization, one magazine that’s sort of only a tangential CIA asset or friend, you can find three big separate ties.”

“In other words, this is the way they’re implementing it. The EU is there as a sub-unit of global governance. It’s there to consolidate the European countries, so they can then be subsumed into the world governance. That was what the Trans Atlantic and the Trans Pacific partnerships were about.”

–David Knight

Note: I think defenders of the EU at this point ought to be ashamed of themselves. But they never are. They keep invoking the “peace in Europe,” fairytale.

I checked it with the person I trust most about all things Wikileaks, Bella Magnani, on Twitter. She explained it was false and I immediately took it down. I apologize to Truth Barrier readers, but there is a more valuable lesson here. Big money is being spent to discredit Julian Assange by creating imposter accounts on Twitter.

Thus is why I miss the days of interviewing people on creaky old tape recorders. You always knew that the person was real, and said what they said.

I feel sorry for people who only have “fake news” as their life-blood.

O.J. Simpson was freed on parole today as you probably know. I was commissioned to write about O.J. Simpson on two occasions. One article (linked below) was published in Esquire in 1998. It was at the time the second largest selling issue of Esquire, second to thisin 1970, 28 years earlier. [“The Confessions of Lieutenant Calley.”]

The second article, “O.J. Incorporated,” was in Rolling Stone, 2000, issue #853, and is absurdly relevant to today’s news, where the name Bruce Fromong is trending at #1 on social media. Would you believe I was in a room with Fromong, O.J. Mike Gilbert–before they all wound up in Nevada Court together as the Las Vegas “armed robbery,” put a bit of a strain on their old bonds. It’s not available online. I have exhausted myself trying to get hold of it. I finally ordered it in the mail.

“The 2016 election was in part the revenge of a white working class long ignored and neglected by the establishments of both political parties. This America turned out in large numbers for Trump.

Vance knows these people. He’s one of them. So he became the Trump whisperer, the voice of a forgotten tribe that rather impolitely had the gall to reassert itself on the national stage. When Trump won, Vance became a permanent fixture on CNN’s pundit couch, explaining to puzzled liberals “what these people think”.

When I first sit down for coffee with Vance, he nervously checks his watch every five minutes. He’s worried about being late for the US celebrity news anchor Megyn Kelly, who later arrives in a fleet of sleek black executive cars to record a special programme on his recent move from California back to Ohio, where he was born and spent much of his childhood.”

Thank you, from the editor, who has never revealed–but will– her strange life journey through privileged beginnings and a childhood crash into working class misery, in Sweden, in the 1970s. This may partly explain her incapacity to express total hostility toward Trump, or at least her visceral defense of his voter base.

“And in fact Trow did wear a fedora for a while—to the great amusement of his colleagues—when he was a young writer at William Shawn’s New Yorker. “This is the sixties, so to wear a fedora is some kind of a big statement,” says Jonathan Schell, who, like Trow, graduated from Harvard in 1965 and was swiftly hired by Shawn. “Since Kennedy didn’t wear one, it was like a high wind blew through the country and took off all the hats. For George, the hat had something to do with being an adult, but some kind of mockery of being an adult. The fedora was like a flag of our fathers: No one else wore a fedora except William Shawn.”

“It was such fun, I can’t tell you,” says Jamaica Kincaid of her early days in New York City, when Trow was her mentor and social guide. Trow would take her to the parties and events he covered in “Talk of the Town,” and he found Kincaid so amusing he decided that she too should write for The New Yorker. “George took me to lunch with Mr. Shawn at the Algonquin. I was always hungry, I had no job, and I didn’t know when I would eat again, so I ordered the most wonderful, expensive thing on the menu. Mr. Shawn ordered a slice of toasted pound cake and I thought, Oh, gosh, I’ve spent all his money; I’ve reduced him to toasted pound cake,” she says. “I went to the West Indian Day Parade in Brooklyn and I made some notes and gave them to George, and I thought he would rewrite them and make them into something proper. George gave them to Mr. Shawn and he printed it just as it was written.”

Trow told us that we had “a third parent—television.” And that the function of television is “to establish false contexts and to chronicle the unraveling of existing contexts.” Television is neutral, it is the referee, not distinguishing between the war against wrinkles and the war in Iraq. Over time, Trow suggested, this would scramble people’s brains and lead us to our current situation: “Of all Americans, only they”—celebrities—“are complete.”

“Trow spent the last years of his life living the radical rootlessness he’d prophesied in “Within the Context of No Context”: “at home in many strange places.” He sold the house he had designed and built in Germantown, New York, and cut off almost everyone he knew. He drove his pickup truck to Alaska, Texas, Newfoundland, and Nova Scotia, where some friends of his came to get him after neighbors complained that he’d taken to going outside without any clothes on. They found him very thin, living on Scotch and sardines, and checked him into McLean Hospital, the famous psychiatric institution outside Boston. After Trow got out, he moved to Naples, Italy, popping up once in a while as a voice on the answering machine of an old friend, never leaving a number. Twice, he was visited by DeCourcy McIntosh, his best friend from Exeter, and told him that he was never coming back.

Trow’s body was discovered by the Italian police in his apartment in late November last year, days after his death.

In 1999, Trow wrote (again) about what he saw as the protective function culture had once served in people’s lives. “Well, we don’t have that,” said Trow. “People fall off the high wire invisibly. There is no net; they crash.”

Al kol: Genie or spirit that takes on varied shapes or a supernatural creature in Arabic mythology.

Al kol: Any drug or substance that takes away the mind or covers it.”
The word alcohol is also linked to the fixed star in astronomy known as

Algol- also known as “the Demon’s head.”

The current Arabic name for alcohol (ethanol) is الغول al-ġawl – properly meaning “spirit” or “demon”.

It is not a coincidence that alcohol has often been referred to as spirits. There is a deep history behind this intoxicating substance. There are layers of information throughout our culture, sometimes we have to look below the surface of things to find the fullness of truth. I encourage you to deeply consider the information shared here, look at the effects of alcohol in your life, in the lives of the people you know, and in society at large. Make conscious, informed, and health enhancing decisions. The more people who awaken to truth and seek health and liberation from mind control agendas, the more likely we are to make positive changes and co-create the world we feel good about living in.

In the New History, nothing was judged—only counted. The power of judging was then subtracted from what it was necessary for a man to learn to do. In the New History, the preferences of a child carried as much weight as the preferences of an adult, so the refining of preferences was subtracted from what it was necessary for a man to learn to do. In the New History, the ideal became agreement rather than well-judged action, so men learned to be competent only in those modes which embraced the possibility of agreement. The world of power changed. What was powerful grew more powerful in ways that could be easily measured, grew less powerful in every way that could not be measured.
POWERFUL MEN

The most powerful men were those who most effectively used the power of adult competence to enforce childish agreements.

According to Eberwein, a paltry 0.6 percent of donations granted by international donors to the Clinton Foundation with the express purpose of directly assisting Haitians actually ended up in the hands of Haitian organizations. A further 9.6 percent ended up with the Haitian government. The remaining 89.8 percent – or $5.4 billion – was funneled to non-Haitian organizations. –WND

Gary Ogden and others–I share your confusion and shock. Who and what is “Antifa?”

Who and what is backing them, and to what end?

Please let’s NOT ARGUE right now and instead put our heads together about what is going on, as it is obviously very dire. Very. And by the way, the word “Kristallnacht” is irrelevant.

Anybody who can find words for this, or first hand knowledge, please let us hear from you.

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German here. Do not come to Germany. Save your country instead and don’t become the next victim nation. Within two years our country has become a hellhole beyond imagination. Do not let this happen to you.

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So basically going back to Hitler’s playbook. Christ, this is leading up to World War 3.

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Stefan!!

The ANTIFA in Germany are the storm troops of the Government!! ANTIFA members are being payed by the hour with tax money by governing political parties!! Believe me! I am in Germany! I know !! GERMAN ANTIFA IS CONTROLLED BY THE GERMAN GOVERNMENT!!!

An event so impactful that most people in a given time knows its name and roughly what happened is a “historical event.”

These events spawn avatars, even centuries later, turning up in people’s sayings, writings and creative works. The Swedish pop group ABBA for example, won the Eurovision Song Contest in 1974 with a song called Waterloo.

The opening words are:

“My my, at Waterloo Napoleon did surrender. Oh yeah! And I have met my destiny in quite a similar way.”

In quite a similar way? Well how DARE they? Here is the historical death and carnage toll (some 25,000 men killed) from the actual Battle of Waterloo:

What is the metaphorical resonance of the very real, very horrific historical event then, that was the cruelly named “Kristallnacht–” the Nazi pogrom that swept through Germany and Austria Nov 9, 1938?

I was referring to an outbreak of state sanctioned hatred against a detested and (perceived as threatening) minority group, in this case independent reporters– in the battle between populism and globalism. The sense of the attacks now being done in the open, and almost welcomed by the state, media, and authorities–this was how I arrived at the metaphor of “Kristallnacht.”

Interesting that Caroline, who is proudly Jewish, with Middle Eastern, American, and Canadian heritage is NOT offended, whole others (not Jewish) seem hysterical almost.

I am not an authority of when use of these metaphors is kosher and when it isn’t–I am open to the charge that I chose the wrong word. A writer is supposed to choose the right word. If at all possible, the inevitable word.

What stirs in me on the eve of the birthday of this nation, that feels like a terrible secret, like when you’re not supposed to love somebody or something but you do. Walking home from the park last night, I wondered what this feeling is and why it has nothing to do with what evil has been committed by the malignant rogue state people THINK of now when they think of the United States.

What would I try to say to my European friends (actually I’m not sure I have any “European friends” anymore)–about why I love this place?

Everything about us is insane.

Precisely!

It’s not the government! It’s not any President. We surely ache for our collective sins. It’s not fraud.
It’s a collectively held mirage. People who love this country (immigrants, all) don’t love it as a thing, but as a reverie–a prayer, that never ceases. You may think we should want it answered, but that isn’t how Americans think. I tell you: We’re crazy.
We want to stay in our reverie, just a little longer, because you NEVER KNOW what tomorrow may bring.

I just realized something. All my so-called life in so-called journalism, all I was ever doing was looking for genuine expression of emotions, through the human voice. I love the human voice, when it is being honest. It’s an instrument like no other. Like a Stradivarius. For this reason, I oppose the email interview, as well as the notion of “trimming” transcripts after the fact, cleaning up the voice. (This was a fierce argument I had with both Liam Scheff, and Christine Maggiore, who both believed that cleaning up dissenting scientists voices would hasten the collapse of the HIV empire.) (It didn’t.)

A real scientist sounds like nobody else. A fake scientist sounds like hundreds of others.

Anna Akhmatova famously said: “We must never forget about despair.” This is not an American idea–we are afraid of despair. We like successfully repressed people in this culture.

Last night as I listened to this voice,of Laura Loomer, screaming helplessly: “Shame!! Shame on all of you! Shame!” (Video below) I was riveted, because I was hearing a genuine human cry. Until I listened to it, motionless from start too finish, I did not realize how long I’d been waiting for it. She sounded like somebody screaming into the Atlantic iceberg before the collision. She sounded like I feel. (Yet I rarely make a sound.)

Inside the theater she had been dragged out of by security, the actors had been doing what actors do: Simulating the emotions of the famous play. We’re always told that great theater and great actors provide, as the ancient Greeks defined it, “catharsis.” I have rarely, if ever, experienced that in a theater, and rarely go see plays as a result. This rendition of Julius Caesar is now a juggernaut of palatable emotions that are not classical or eternal, rather, a “period piece,” delivering fascistic mass sentiment —Trump hatred. I would argue that mass (political) emotions can never be real emotions, they can only ever be positions. You can’t have a political emotion, only a political persuasion. In addition, you can’t have an emotion that millions of other people are also having at the same time.

I was very moved by Laura Loomer. It was not until today that I stopped to think about it more carefully. Was she the real play, lasting a few seconds, bursting forth like the shackled ID of a brainwashed society?

You can argue whether plays should be disrupted–I would always argue in favor. I would expect most playwrights to agree. A play is alive, or should be.

Loomer, intentionally or accidentally, transformed (in moments) a very petit bourgeois night-at-the-theater moment into a wild avant grade living theater moment. She interrupted a fake play with a real one, a one woman tragedy in one act. (“Tragedy” is an internal measure of despair–should not be used to describe events.) She interrupted safe emotionalism with the very dangerous emotion that was not permitted to enter the theater, or for that matter, the culture. It must remain on the deplorable, dirty fringes. I would sooner hurl myself into the jaws of Siberian tigers who hadn’t seen food in 2 weeks than do what Loomer did. You can say many things about it, (echoing Bill Maher) but you can’t say it was not brave. Loomer went in without a single trapping–no platform, hub, alt-right, boy’s club, back-lit American flags, website, gang, badge–nothing but her own voice.

Americans of all ethnicities and backgrounds who oppose Trump hatred, and the escalating normalization of the “Kill Trump” meme, people who may or may not “support” Donald trump, yet despair at the ugliness that has arisen in the name of crushing him–these people feel voiceless.

I am one of them. Laura Loomer screamed bloody murder, on behalf of that missing voice, that voice that can’t find a home, can’t find a culture that understands or hears it.

In her wild screams, I heard my own muffled, muted, defeated emotions. The cry for it to stop–for the bullying, cruelty, savagery, the attacks on the politically incorrect “other,” to stop. If not “stop,” to at least acknowledge, in a brief moment of respite, its own brutality–its palatable disavowed sadist. Being a liberal lefty in the Trump era means being safe, and having the power of the bully majority always on your side.

Laura Loomer opened an audio track, so all those smug, air-conditioned theater loving, Trump despising liberals, got to, or had to, hear a shard of the pain they cause, support, and proliferate. Unless, as Tennessee Williams once put it, “you devote yourself to its opposition.”

Two anti-tyranny, anti-violence activists Laura Loomer and and Jack Posobiec disrupted the Public Theater’s production of Julius Caesar.depicting Donald Trump stabbed to death by a mob with knives.

Loomer, of Rebel Media, shouted: “STOP THE NORMALIZATION OF POLITICAL VIOLENCE AGAINST DONALD TRUMP. YOU ARE POLITICAL TERRORISTS ALL OF YOU!” She was arrested and later released from police custody. Posobiec shouted: GOEBBELS WOULD BE PROUD! YOU ARE NAZIS, ALL OF YOU!”

Civil War has now broken out in America. May as well face it.

The Truth Barrier fully supports this courageous protest against the normalization of political violence on the reprehensible bourgeoisie left.

NBC and Megan Kelly are in foaming hot water over Kelly’s upcoming interview with anti-globalist, populist talk show host Alex Jones. Jones pre-empted Kelly’s piece by publishing his own recording of the interview, here. A close friend of mine knows the father of one of the children killed at Sandy Hook, and told me he met the boy once. Another friend of mine has posted on FB that he knows another family who lost a child, but didn’t respond to a request I sent that he put me in touch with the family. It is understandable that grieving parents are simply unable to summon the strength to “prove” that their children have been killed, so the situation persists: People on the internet persist in spreading “conspiracy” theories that run the gamut, all the way out to saying no children were killed, and that the entire event was staged as a false flag to condition to public to surrender the right to bear arms.

Mainstream media outlets continue to report that Alex Jones thinks Sandy Hook “was a hoax,” and that no children were killed. This, a simple internet search reveals, is not true.

Jones, apparently, interviewed people on all sides of the conspiracy spectrum. In 2013, in the video posted below, he said:

“I clearly believe from the evidence, children were really killed in Sandy Hook, and it’s a real tragedy. But the fact that they’re having people script things and that answers are being scripted is incontrovertible. We’ll get to some of that evidence right now..”

The issues raised by Jones in the video below broach the way bigger, messier issue of primarily CNN having been caught staging, faking, and manipulating news, including pretending to be places they were not. That’s the conversation America is getting ready to have now, thanks to Alex Jones/Megyn Kelly hysteria.

My heart aches for the families, and my primary intention with this post is to prove:

A: Alex Jones believes children were killed at Sandy Hook and B: Alex Jones believes CNN is a deep state organ that literally fakes news. These questions should not be conflated to the point where the entire discussion is rendered “toxic,” “hateful,” and taboo. Instead, let’s get everything up to the surface, out in the open.

UPDATE: In 2014, Alex Jones seemed to contradict or expand on the 2013 quote above (which is normal, to alternate position, as new information comes in.) Were no homicides registered in Sandy Hook in 2012? Really?

And–she is a lifelong registered Democrat. I interviewed Paglia in 1990, in a two part interview in SPIN Magazine, and remain an admirer of her wild, caustic mind, passion for history, and serious sense of humor.

To wit:

“Of course this rousing speech (with its can-do World War Two spirit) got scant coverage in the mainstream media. Drunk with words, spin, and snark, middle-class journalists can’t be bothered to notice the complex physical constructions that make modern civilization possible. The laborers who build and maintain these marvels are recognized only if they can be shoehorned into victim status. But if they dare to think for themselves and vote differently from their liberal overlords, they are branded as rubes and pariahs.

In summary: to have any hope of retaking the White House, Democrats must get off their high horse, lose the rabid rhetoric, and reorient themselves toward practical reality and the free country they are damned lucky to live in.”

“There seems to be a huge conceptual gap between Trump and his most implacable critics on the left. Many highly educated, upper-middle-class Democrats regard themselves as exemplars of “compassion” (which they have elevated into a supreme political principle) and yet they routinely assail Trump voters as ignorant, callous hate-mongers. These elite Democrats occupy an amorphous meta-realm of subjective emotion, theoretical abstractions, and refined language. But Trump is by trade a builder who deals in the tangible, obdurate, objective world of physical materials, geometry, and construction projects, where communication often reverts to the brusque, coarse, high-impact level of pre-modern working-class life, whose daily locus was the barnyard. It’s no accident that bourgeois Victorians of the industrial era tried to purge “barnyard language” out of English.”

“Truth Stream Media’s Melissa Dykes revisits a story I posted about 5 years ago regarding hard evidence that has emerged over the years of US military psychological operations involvement in the production of this country’s news media. US Government propaganda against US Persons was illegal until Barack Obama officially legitimized it in the 2012 NDAA (National Defense Authorization Act), the annual budget for the US Department of Defense. This story was first reported by the late Michael Hastings on BuzzFeed, before that independent news service was co-opted in 2015 by the propaganda behemoth, NBC Universal with a $200 million investment.

Dykes’ piece includes a cringeworthy 1996 clip of Anderson Cooper, who interned at the CIA for two summers prior to joining CNN, reporting that TWA Flight 800 had been “Shot down” and then after the commercial break, correcting himself with the CIA’s official line that the 747 had been brought down by a “center fuel tank explosion”.

There are more excellent cringeworthy moments here. It goes into things that are no longer reported on in the Mainstream Media in our post-9/11 world. CNN is hardly the only culprit in the dissemination of US Government propaganda. Moreover the US military/intelligence concerted penetration of the media goes back to at least 1951 with President Harry Truman’s creation of Psychological Strategy Board, under the premise that “Wars could not be won through bloodshed but by winning the hearts and minds of people.”

[Note, I was unable to locate the Hastings article cited here but did find this one,about the CIA and Hollywood. If anybody is aware of additional links to Hastings’ article on this subject, I do hope you will share them here.]

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“The fact that Mueller is opening an investigation on obstruction doesn’t answer the two basic questions. One — can a president be indicted while sitting? And two — can a president be indicted for obstruction — which is simply doing his job, being the head of the executive branch?”
“I think the answer to both of these questions is still going to be no and no.”

Alfieri, who is in the crowd, turns out to the audience. The lights have gone down, leaving him in a glow, while behind him the dull prayers of the people and the keening of the women continue.

Alfieri: Most of the time now we settle for half and I like it better. But the truth is holy, and even as I know how wrong he was, and his death useless, I tremble, for I confess that something perversely pure calls to me from his memory – not purely good, but himself purely, for he allowed himself to be wholly known and for that I think I will love him more than all my sensible clients. And yet, it is better to settle for half, it must be! And so I mourn him – I admit it – with a certain . . . alarm.

“I find myself largely in agreement with these sentiments. Truly frightening that Democrats, at least in California, but Obama is one of these, too, wish total control of every aspect of our lives by government, beginning with the fetus in the womb. The Democrat politicians have become totalitarians, meanwhile our children are very unhealthy, IQ’s are dropping, and not only from fluoride, but from the 72 doses of vaccines they receive, and the Mailman School of Public Health at Columbia University, a real cesspool of pharma corruption, has just confirmed that vaccines cause autism (they don’t admit it, but what causes fever in pregnancy? DTaP and Flu vaccines). What is most disconcerting about public political life today is the vitriol directed by the acolytes of these totalitarians at anyone who questions what they are preaching. They are incapable of civility. They seem to know nothing of science, nothing factual, nothing of history. They appear to be incapable of actual thinking, know not how to use logic and debate, nor seem aware of the rules of basic decency we learned at our mother’s knee. I sometimes wonder if the behavior we see in the young on college campuses and elsewhere is a manifestation of sub-clinical vaccine injury (and acetaminophen and antibiotics and all the other crap they have been shoving into children especially for the past three decades). Things gonna get uglier, as these spoiled, damaged children enter a world without opportunity led by the craven and cowardly.”

These were the days when we discovered that we had no friends, as soon as we developed observations or concerns that did not mirror theirs. Friendships that had held for decades crumbled into dust based on a Facebook post or a single text message.

You could hate Him properly, or expect to lose Them.

Fire, everywhere. Everything was catching fire.

You could not expect to have a proper conversation with anybody. No thoughts could have been fought for, they had to be as instantaneous as they were apparently deep, tethered to something primordial in us all.

Once death began, it became easy.

And soon you were the same way. Old friendships worth no more than a rice paper, or a discarded match, after the fire was lit, after the arson, the discharge that never sated anybody.

Was it worth it?

Let them, then, kill Him, kill your children, kill you.

Praise them as they finish the job. Tell them they were right all along.

Keep your eyes open to the end, and don’t blame God.

“I don’t know what I’m going to do,” my friend wrote me.

(We were still friends because we saw the same thing in the fire.)

“There’s no way I can buy that those shootings and that fire happened on the same day. I’ve never seen a building burn like that. Never. This is chaos.’

[From a correspondence, June 10, 2017, published with the author’s permission.]

“You know Celia I never had really noticed that type of misogny before, the kind you have mentioned before how men want to correct you, contain your voice, isolate it, a demeaning tone and sometimes outright vicious.
I was only familiar with classic misogny,
Anyway, mentioning I’m Irish and gay makes sense i suppose, a European liberal homo

They dont believe it’s “hate” though, do they? They think they are correcting you, putting you in your place and scolding you for being an IRRATIONAL woman, you’re an irritance to them, and must be contained.

Your voice is deeply important to me, you are a lone voice in many ways, you understand tone and the individual meaning of words in a way I’ve never come across before. i was just thinking earlier how journalism has become an art of condemnation, and the tones of condemnation or if not that then an art of smug superiority to anthing that challenges the status quo, peace loving muslims and peace loving liberals who im pretty sure are the majority in both camps are very much in the same situation, they are afriad to speak up, to break the social boundaries that can cause them to be isolated and condemned.”

[Ed: Fred Slater–a friend living in Ireland– has written some things that I feel need highlighting. He wrote this comment (below) some months ago., in response to this post, which was where the civil war at The Truth Barrier broke out, between those who see pure evil in communism, and those who slap down those who see pure evil in communism–refer to us as failed, unwashed “right wingers,” or even spitting on my perspectives as “Vichy journalism.” I am horrified that communist apologia exists here, as horrified as I would be if some of you declared yourselves to be Nazis. We are close to the end–brought about by this conflict, which is not trivial, but fatal.]

Fred Wrote:

“I don’t feel so alone in this world when brave souls like you speak so clearly. You are morally cognizant in drawing this to our attention in a time of such horrifying cognitive dissonance blaring from the liberal left.

Oh and by the way Celia thank you for not patronising or mollycuddling me by telling me right wing dictators are bad too. I would have been pissed at you for being that facetious. Unfortunately the weak minded desire such comforts.

What kind of mindset values free education and healthcare over ‘free speech/free expression’ what kind of life is that? Im shocked to what level stealth Marxism, shadow Marxism has infected the liberal left.
How ready they are to beg for state tyranny as long as we live under a toxic big pharma rainbow for all fucking eternity.

Their humanity is in crisis.

What has happened to the will to be free, to will ‘power’ ‘greatness’
How has culture/arts become so average, mediocre or depraved/muddled.
Have these fools not understood George Orwells 1984, how an infinite
prison/cloud of grey mediocrity/tyranny will fall upon the human race
if we beg blindly for pseudo comforts within the heartless machinations of a
monolith state.

If any fool supports a state that destroys freedom of expression than they
support the stealing of souls and ultimately the POSSESSION of souls.

And in all mythologies around this globe there is a name for entities
who wish to steal and possess your soul.

DEMONS.

So worship demons if you desire so, but it will wreck havoc with your
soul, invite chaos, destruction and horror till there is nothingness.

EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) tapping has been extremely popular over the last decade, and countless people testify that it has transformed their lives. If you’re not familiar with it, you can read about it here:

“The lie told by archeologists is that the great pyramid was the tomb of some megalomaniac Pharaoh.

It’s been clear to me for a very long time that the great pyramid was never a tomb. The great pyramid was a giant instrument for amplifying human consciousness. And it functions as a beacon. It still functions as a beacon. It draws people towards it, from all over the world, they don’t even know why they’re drawn towards it. It selects its own initiates. For some people it’s just a heap of stone.”

Abraham: You activate a vibration of connection within yourself which causes the object of your attention to have the same vibration activated within them. In other words, whatever you hold as your object of attention IS vibrating but EVERYTHING is that two ended stick we were talking about. So every person that you look at has things in them that you would LIKE as you see them and things within them that you would NOT LIKE as you see them. And the way you feel about them is NOT so much about what they’ve got activated, it’s about what YOU’VE got active, which is causing you to rendezvous with THAT aspect of them. So as these people got together and agreed about their criticism, they got it active pretty good and we imagine got more and more of it for a while. And then they reached a point of sort of critical mass where they were clearly getting further and further away from WHO THEY ARE and KNEW it. It’s a wonderful thing they had that kind of awareness going on, and then they visualised, now clearly their idea of the pink light was love and appreciation and so as they deliberately focused there, because of their power of their desire and their willinginess to do it and even their COLLECTIVE willingness to do it, they managed to active within themselves something very different than had been activated before and we imagine the feeling of relief was palpable. And as they activated the different vibration within them, they rendezvoused with a different characteristics in THAT person. We would like you to understand that EVERY person on the planet has the potential of THRILLING you beyond description and causing you DESPAIR beyond description, it just depends on what part of them is active in YOU.”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c2lJUML0n9o by Vera Mrsa

Pink light is to be sent to those who need healing, someone you have difficulty with, a difficult situation, your loved ones who are having a difficult time, and your family. Start seeing the person in your mind, in your imagination. Surround them quickly with a lot of pink light, or pink smoke, which symbolizes love. Send them love from your body to theirs, strongly, from your chest/heart/solarplexus area. Keep talking to yourself and to them about how much you love them, and feel yourself sending them love. Stop after two minutes. Do morning and evening.

This sending of love raises your vibration, and in return the other person must either raise their vibration to match yours, or vibrate out. You should see results 3-7 days. What is the difference in pink light sending, and prayer? Very little. Prayer sometimes includes asking (with or without thanksgiving). Pink light symbolizes Love, which is sending God INTO the situation (God is Love).

[Brought to us via Alexandra Gatsis, who finds exceptional material all the time.]

“Coral reefs are largely plant life. Glyphosate is a plant-killer, designed to annihilate any life it comes in contact with that isn’t protected by genetic modification. Run-off from agricultural spraying of this weed killer goes into our rivers and is dumped into the ocean in less than 40 days. It maintains roughly 80% of its killing capacity.

The researchers found the most notable phytoplankton declines in waters near both poles, in the tropics, as well as in the open ocean. So basically, everywhere. Conventional science tells us that phytoplankton die-off is due to warmer waters from climate change. Then one has to ask oneself: Why is the die-off also occurring in the colder waters at the Arctic poles? Apparently temperature is not the determining factor, so there goes the global warming explanation.”

NEW YORK (AP) — Delta Air Lines and Bank of America have announced that they are pulling their sponsorship of a Manhattan-based theater company’s portrayal of Julius Caesar as a Donald Trump look-alike in a business suit who gets knifed to death on stage.

Atlanta-based Delta released a statement on Sunday saying it was pulling its sponsorship from The Public Theater “effective immediately.”

“No matter what your political stance may be, the graphic staging of Julius Caesar at this summer’s Free Shakespeare in the Park does not reflect Delta Air Lines’ values,” the statement said. “Their artistic and creative direction crossed the line on the standards of good taste.”

Later Sunday night, Charlotte, North Carolina-based Bank of America said it was withdrawing its funding for the production.

“The Public Theater chose to present Julius Caesar in such a way that was intended to provoke and offend,” the bank said in a tweet. “Had this intention been made known to us, we would have decided not to sponsor it.”

Performances at Central Park’s Delacorte Theater began in late May, just days before comedian Kathy Griffin was widely condemned for posing for a photograph in which she gripped a bloodied rendering of Trump’s head.

Oskar Eustis, the Public Theater’s artistic director who also directed the play, said earlier in a statement that “anyone seeing our production of ‘Julius Caesar’ will realize it in no way advocates violence towards anyone.”

Messages seeking comment from The Public Theater weren’t immediately returned.

Earlier Sunday, Donald Trump Jr. retweeted a Fox News story about the play and wrote, “I wonder how much of this ‘art’ is funded by taxpayers? Serious question, when does ‘art’ become political speech & does that change things?”

Here’s a little background on Linda Sarsour, who now has an unexpected new opponent–rock musician Courtney Love.

This clip zooms past the most infamous Sarsour tweet, which I find more breathtaking every time I read it. Pause and dwell on the words:

“I wish I could take their vaginas away–they don’t deserve to be women.”

That is such a deeply disturbing sentiment–nobody alive could call it anything but pure psychopathy.

(I said “alive.”)

The present day “women’s movement,” and “women’s marches,” have been hijacked by a totalitarian, intolerant, pro-Sharia, woman hating cult leader: Linda Sarsour.

But that is not my only reason for avoiding those marches like the black plague. Seeing liberal men in those absurd knitted pink cat-ear hats, knowing all that I know about them, from direct experience–that would be the end of me. I could not continue.

Has there ever been a more grotesque perversion of a liberty movement that this? Contemporary mass-feminism…punishes and attacks as “Islamophobic” any and all who would seek to address the murder of women in the name of Sharia law, all over the world.

I suppose it is on par with a proletarian worker’s revolution that mass murdered farmers and peasants.

I would live my life over as a brain scientist if I could have access to Radical Leftists Brains, and see what they contain. Is there a little blocked brain passage where perception and emotion make a U-turn and go the wrong way all of a sudden, in this brain? Is there a way to quantify empathy? A way to diminish psychopathic narcissism, or block the dopamine rushes of attacking people declared as morally unfit? Racist, Islamophobic, etc?

Everybody is getting high on this garbage. We should approach hate as an addiction. A cheap crack pipe. These frauds are drug dealers and cult leaders, offering nothing but a dead end life of Godforsaken hatred of our fellow man, while the real killers are aided and abetted.

We live in a society that has gone utterly psychotic. The pharmaceutical industry was the driving force beneath the inversion of “life” and “death.” Listen to the words, starting around 0:19. Even by the standards of shocking pharmaceutical death cult propaganda, this one is arresting.

“A former U.S. intelligence contractor tells Circa he walked away with more than 600 million classified documents on 47 hard drives from the National Security Agency and the CIA, a haul potentially larger than Edward Snowden’s now infamous breach.

And now he is suing former FBI Director James Comey and other government figures, alleging the bureau has covered up evidence he provided them showing widespread spying on Americans that violated civil liberties.”
***

“They’re doing this domestic surveillance on Americans, running a project on U.S. soil,” Montgomery alleged. He did not disclose the classified name of the project but said he revealed all aspects of the project during his interview with the FBI.

“Can you imagine what someone can do with the information they were collecting on Americans, can you imagine that kind of power?”

Officials with the FBI and CIA declined to comment due to current and pending litigation.

“The NSA analysis does not draw conclusions about whether the interference had any effect on the election’s outcome and concedes that much remains unknown about the extent of the hackers’ accomplishments. However, the report raises the possibility that Russian hacking may have breached at least some elements of the voting system, with disconcertingly uncertain results.”

“Winner faces 10 years in a federal prison if convicted. The charge, “gathering, transmitting or losing defense information” is contained under Chapter 37 of federal law: espionage and censorship. The law went into effect as of February 1, 2010.

The prosecution of Winner is being handled by Julie A. Edelstein of the Department of Justice’s National Security Divisions Counterintelligence and Export Control Section, a news release by the agency said.

However, what is most perplexing is that her anti-Trump tirades and her anti-government, liberal leanings were all part of the public record at the time she was hired as a NSA contractor for Pluribus in February. How she succeeded in receiving top secret level clearance with such a highly politicized public record remains a mystery.”

I really like this Bill Winston prayer, and send it out not as Christian propaganda but to share the power of the spoken word to bless our day.

(What if I said, Brother S., that the “faith” that “faith” can awaken, is in the healing of past wounds, by speaking favor over our lives, the way we wished it had been done by our parents? Like what George Jacobs was talking about.)

The Lord’s prayer is so good because each time you say it your soul is reminded to be forgiven our trespasses as we “forgive those who trespass upon us.”

That said, I think 99.99% of “forgiveness” lies instead in clarification, deeper mutual hearing. I am afraid of people who talk more than they listen, because not having heard (perceived) lies at the root of most distortion/evil that later develops. Ahriman (according to Rudolf Steiner’s prediction) came through electromagnetism, with his “perfectly cold nature,” in 1998. Certainly the battle of good and evil is played out through emerging technologies.

We heard one another lucidly when we had landline telephones, like this beauty, the Model 500, designed by Henry Dreyfuss, based on the measurement of 2,000 human faces.

“Smart phones,” are not shaped in any kind of communion with the human head. They aren’t “telephones,” and they aren’t designed to serve the ear. Jackie Mason had the great riff on the cell phone misery: “Hello? Hello? Can you hear me? Hello? I just called to say I can’t hear you.”

You can call it “opposition,” if “evil,” seems too old fashioned.

Opposition loves interference, making sure people can’t really reach one another, even when they are supposedly talking. I don’t like “multi-tasking,” and I don’t like when people call me when they are walking their dog. Why? Because I’d rather they commune with and pay attention to the dog during that time.

Cell phones, like CDs before them, mitigate resonance. Vinyl records have made an enormous comeback–maybe next, Dreyfuss dial phones. I even like the idea of how long it would take to dial a number, and indeed, I remember it. This vanquished act would speak to our patience, rather than, as all things now do, our impatience.

In Sweden in the late 70s, we had a red Cobra phone. I don’t like Cobra phones, they’re clumsy and almost infuriating. In Sweden you answered your home phone by stating your phone number. I still remember by best friend Anneli’s number: 139732. “Tretton-nittio-sju-tretti-två?”

Marshall Rosenberg said all bad behavior is really unmet needs on a “suicidal” crossing. Nobody “trespasses,” other than when they are in pain. And pain, in turn, is caused by unmet needs refusing to declare themselves.

Marshall always said it, over and over, the simple punctuation of all his great teachings in non-violent communication:

The Honorable Rex W. Tillerson Secretary
U.S. Department of State Washington, D.C. 20520

Dear Secretary Tillerson:

June 1, 2017

Recent news reports detail that Secretary Clinton and her staff allegedly pressured the government of Bangladesh, including its Prime Minister, Sheik Hasina, to terminate a corruption investigation into a Clinton Global Initiative (CGI) donor, Dr. Muhammad Yunus.1 Reports also indicate that State Department officials threatened the Prime Minister’s son, Sajeeb Wazed, with an IRS audit if he did not attempt to get his mother to terminate the investigation.2 On May 11, 2017, Prime Minister Hasina confirmed that Mrs. Clinton called her office in March of 2011 and demanded that Yunus be restored to his position of chairman of the Grameen Bank.3 This new evidence of pay-to-play and special treatment reinforces the appearance that donations to the Clinton Foundation resulted in favorable treatment by Secretary Clinton’s State Department.4

As I wrote in my August 2016 letter to Department of Justice, federal law requires that executive branch employees be disqualified from matters that have a direct and predictable effect on the employee’s own financial interests or the financial interests of those persons or organizations with which the employee is affiliated, such as those of a spouse, unless the employee first obtains an individual waiver or a regulatory exemption applies.5 Once again, Secretary Clinton’s actions have raised reasonable suspicions that she violated these rules and undermined the public’s confidence in the integrity of the State Department.

“Dear London, fire your current mayor before he starts giving everyone crap about Islamophobia. Hire someone who won’t ever do that again.”

–Stephen Ericson,
(FB)
“In 2016, Prime Minister David Cameron was widely criticized in the UK when he claimed that London mayor Sadiq Khan had ties to the terror group ISIS. An investigation by Disobedient Media has determined that Khan has ties not just to organizations associated with ISIS, but also groups such as Hamas, Al-Nusra, Al-Qaeda and the Muslim Brotherhood. During his time as mayor, London has seen an increase in terror incidents with concerning indications that terror groups wish to stage a major attack on the City of London. Rather than focusing on combatting terror, Khan has used his forum to tell Londoners as well as citizens in other parts of Europe and the United States that the West must learn to live with terrorism as a part of daily life. Khan’s extreme flirtation with radical Islamic extremism raises serious questions about his commitment to fighting a wave of extremist fueled terrorism that only continues to spread after a number of attacks and police operations in London and other areas of the UK.”

I. Khan Has Been Affiliated With Organizations Tied To Hamas, Al-Qaeda, Al Nusra, ISIS And The Muslim BrotherhoodA. Khan’s Relationship To Figures Tied To Hamas And The Muslim Brotherhood

“Most clams live in deep, fairly dark waters. Among one group of clams is a species whose ancestors ingested algae—a typical food—but failed to digest them and kept the algae under their shells. The shell, with time, became translucent, allowing sunlight in. The clams fed off their captive algae and their habitat expanded into sunlit waters. So there’s a discontinuity between the dark-dwelling, food-gathering ancestor and the descendants that feed themselves photosynthetically. ”

–Lynn Margulis

“Viewing life as one giant network of social connections has set Margulis against the mainstream in other high-profile ways as well. She disputes the current medical understanding of AIDS and considers every kind of life to be “conscious” in a sense.” *

–Dick Teresi

Lynn Margulis, Puffers Pond, 2010Photo by Celia Farber

“The way I think about the whole world is that it’s like a pointillist painting. You get far away and it looks like Seurat’s famous painting of people in the park (jpg). Look closely: The points are living bodies—different distributions of bacteria. The living world thrived long before the origin of nucleated organisms [the eukaryotic cells, which have genetic material enclosed in well-defined membranes]. There were no animals, no plants, no fungi. It was an all-bacterial world—bacteria that have become very good at finding specialized niches. Symbiogenesis recognizes that every visible life-form is a combination or community of bacteria.”

–Lynn Margulis

Lynn Margulis with “jellyball,” Puffers Pond, Amherst, June 2011

Crescendo finale of iconic interview here:

Your perspective is rather humbling.

The species of some of the protoctists are 542 million years old. Mammal species have a mean lifetime in the fossil record of about 3 million years. And humans? You know what the index fossil of Homo sapiens in the recent fossil record is going to be? The squashed remains of the automobile. There will be a layer in the fossil record where you’re going to know people were here because of the automobiles. It will be a very thin layer.

Do we overrate ourselves as a species?
Yes, but we can’t help it. Look, there are nearly 7,000 million people on earth today and there are 10,000 chimps, and the numbers are getting fewer every day because we’re destroying their habitat. Reg Morrison, who wrote a wonderful book called The Spirit in the Gene, says that although we’re 99 percent genetically in common with chimps, that 1 percent makes a huge difference. Why? Because it makes us believe that we’re the best on earth. But there is lots of evidence that we are “mammalian weeds.” Like many mammals, we overgrow our habitats and that leads to poverty, misery, and wars.

Why do you have a reputation as a heretic?
Anyone who is overtly critical of the foundations of his science is persona non grata. I am critical of evolutionary biology that is based on population genetics. I call it zoocentrism. Zoologists are taught that life starts with animals, and they block out four-fifths of the information in biology [by ignoring the other four major groups of life] and all of the information in geology.

You have attacked population genetics—the foundation of much current evolutionary research—as “numerology.” What do you mean by that term?
When evolutionary biologists use computer modeling to find out how many mutations you need to get from one species to another, it’s not mathematics—it’s numerology. They are limiting the field of study to something that’s manageable and ignoring what’s most important. They tend to know nothing about atmospheric chemistry and the influence it has on the organisms or the influence that the organisms have on the chemistry. They know nothing about biological systems like physiology, ecology, and biochemistry. Darwin was saying that changes accumulate through time, but population geneticists are describing mixtures that are temporary. Whatever is brought together by sex is broken up in the next generation by the same process. Evolutionary biology has been taken over by population geneticists. They are reductionists ad absurdum. Population geneticist Richard Lewontin gave a talk here at UMass Amherst about six years ago, and he mathematized all of it—changes in the population, random mutation, sexual selection, cost and benefit. At the end of his talk he said, “You know, we’ve tried to test these ideas in the field and the lab, and there are really no measurements that match the quantities I’ve told you about.” This just appalled me. So I said, “Richard Lewontin, you are a great lecturer to have the courage to say it’s gotten you nowhere. But then why do you continue to do this work?” And he looked around and said, “It’s the only thing I know how to do, and if I don’t do it I won’t get my grant money.” So he’s an honest man, and that’s an honest answer.

A Very Weird Sentence In The New York Times, in a strangely euphemistic “Q&A” about the Paris Climate Accord, which I turned to to get the basic facts straight:

“China vowed that its emissions would peak around 2030 and that it would get about 20 percent of its electricity from carbon-free sources by then. India would continue to reduce its carbon intensity, or CO2 output per unit of economic activity, in line with historical levels.”

Also this bizarre graph:

“Unlike its predecessor treaty, the Kyoto Protocol, the Paris deal was intended to be nonbinding, so that countries could tailor their climate plans to their domestic situations and alter them as circumstances changed. There are no penalties for falling short of declared targets. The hope was that, through peer pressure and diplomacy, these policies would be strengthened over time.”

“…tailor their climate plans to their domestic situations and alter them as circumstances changed?”

Why does US media treat the world’s biggest polluters, or “emitters,” China and India, with such deference, and why does this deal allow them to increase emissions until…2030?

I got through 14 minutes of this, which means I beat my friend Sal by 13 minutes. If you need a refresher course on the baroque multi-directional flying carpet narcissism of the PC trash crowd, you have it here. The Truth Barrier takes the position that to should not come as a shock when Americans recoil over a broadcast image of their President’s blood-soaked head, especially in the age of ISIS, and the very real beheadings taking place. I GET that she was creating a response to Trump’s bizarre comment about blood pouring out of Megan Kelly’s eyes and “wherever,” (which I had forgotten, and which was probably among the strangest things Trump ever said.) Re-wrapping your own atrocious conduct in justifications, eye rolling, whining, as this lawyer is doing so inelegantly, is in addition to be foul, also an enormous PR mistake.

Griffin is unintelligent enough to partake in “The AIDS Walk,” so why would I hope she had heard of ISIS, or could anticipate that this decapitation video would traumatize the nation. And “allegedly” (bitch, lawyer) Barron Trump.

I think how back-fiery this is, how tone deaf to this American moment, is what is hardest to take about it. The fact that they think this was the way to go, rather than a mea culpa, and partaking in healing the nation of hate, which would have saved Griffin’s career.

Why must American women be so grotesque, in order to be in the popular imagination? Unconsciously, what the sadomasochistic male dominated media does is to compel women to self-immolate. Women being moronic and self destructive is good for business.

One last thing: Lisa Bloom’s comment suggesting all President Trump does is tweet foolishness, destroys her fleet on the tarmac. It’s absurd. As it is absurd, as much as I detest hunting, to suggest Trump’s son had to “take time away from killing animals” to attack Griffin.

God how I hate distortion and exaggeration. These, forgive me, feminine qualities of manipulating everything until you have no moral code or responsibility, rather, you are the victim.

In a PC inverted world, you can even be astonished anybody would be upset by a bloodied head of the President raised slowly, executioner style–I don’t know, not my forte.

Why can’t women, much less PC progressives, just say “I’m sorry, I was wrong, ” and leave it at that?

Narcissists always make the victim pay, for the crack in the self adoring mirror.

Still, Griffin’s attorney is so awful and humorless that it endears me to her, by comparison.

Something is wrong with her jaw and mouth. She does need to drink water, as she says. More water. God this is sad.

I would worry about her, if I were her mother or close friend. Right now, she is not in control of her own mind, but is casting about for “love” inside a system of codified hate, in which she took a wrong turn and tripped a wire she believed was OK. She reminds me of a love-starved dog. All this weepy flinging oneself onto LGBT, minorities, people with “AIDS,” etc–all part of the pathology of love famine in the PC world. They can’t have love, or give it, so they instead are forced to use all these bankrupt pieties as tiny straws with which to suck in self worth.

5/31/2017
(COLUMBUS, Ohio)—Ohio Attorney General Mike DeWine today filed a lawsuit against five leading prescription opioid manufacturers and their related companies in Ross County Court of Common Pleas. The lawsuit alleges that the drug companies engaged in fraudulent marketing regarding the risks and benefits of prescription opioids which fueled Ohio’s opioid epidemic.

“We believe the evidence will also show that these companies got thousands and thousands of Ohioans — our friends, our family members, our co-workers, our kids — addicted to opioid pain medications, which has all too often led to use of the cheaper alternatives of heroin and synthetic opioids. These drug manufacturers led prescribers to believe that opioids were not addictive, that addiction was an easy thing to overcome, or that addiction could actually be treated by taking even more opioids” said Ohio Attorney General Mike DeWine.

“They knew they were wrong, but they did it anyway — and they continue to do it. Despite all evidence to the contrary about the addictive nature of these pain medications, they are doing precious little to take responsibility for their actions and to tell the public the truth.”

The five manufacturers which are listed as defendants include:
Purdue Pharma, which sold OxyContin, MS Contin, Dilaudid, Butrans, Hyslingla, and Targiniq
Endo Health Solutions, which sold Percocet, Percodan, Opana, and Zydone
Teva Pharmaceutical Industries and its subsidiary Cephalon, which sold Actiq and Fentora
Johnson & Johnson and its subsidiary Janssen Pharmaceuticals, which sold Duragesic and Nucynta
Allergan, which sold Kadian, Norco, and several generic opioids.”

Let’s see if Sanders even mentions this suit in the coming days, when weather conditions are so perfect for anti-Trump grandstanding about the Paris Climate Accord (handled brilliantly by Tucker Carlson, here.)

From the lawsuit:

“It is hardly necessary to say – in this County or this State – that Ohio is now awash in opioids and engulfed in a public health crisis the likes of which have been seen before. In 2012, the total number of opioid doses prescribed to Ohio patients soared to 793 million – enough to supply every man, woman and child in the state with 68 pills each.3 In 2016 alone, 2.3 million Ohio patients – roughly 20% of the state’s population – were prescribed an opioid drug.4 The Ohio Automated RxReporting System (“OARRS”), the computer system that tracks how drugs are prescribed and dispensed, shows that in 2015, 1,663,614 opioid pills, or 182.2 per patient or 21.3 per capita, were dispensed in Ross County alone.

10. The result of Ohio’s opioid crisis has been catastrophic. Opioids have become the main source of unintentional drug overdose in the state and, due to the vast supply of opioids, the number of annual deaths attributable to unintentional drug overdoses has rapidly increased in recent years.

2016 saw a thirty-six (36%) increase in unintentional fatal overdoses in the State of Ohio from the previous year, when Ohio led the nation in the total number of fatal overdoses.”

I am very grateful to my Facebook friend Safaa Hakim for sending me to Nicky Gumbel today. Stunned, I have had a hard time doing anything except listening to his videos, one after the other. I neglected to even eat anything until it was early evening and I got dizzy from from hunger. He’s honest, real, funny, “modern,” and …Jewish! And now: Christian. This progression makes perfect sense (finally) to me. I know I am excitable and impressionable; I know I have alienated some Truth Barrier readers with my Christian searchings, mostly just confused mutterings, so far. But I have come to think of confusion as a great medium. A train.

Gumbel also seems to have been raised, like so many of us, on the churches of rock and roll, pop culture, and barren secular sophistication. I personally relate to him very much. Through his resistances, you’re able to feel spoken to, as yourself–and you recognize the spiritual stalled-out train you have been on. You want to get off, but you don’t know what to do. Finally, you begin to really listen. No longer does Christianity feel like an inside job, a club that would never have you, or something too esoteric for you to grasp.

I don’t want to sit around for the rest of my life trying to figure out how awful Hillary Clinton or Donald Trump may be. Or prove it. That’s my life? I’m a slave? I swallow nothing but ugly gossip and then I die.

No.

I have come to wonder if Donald Trump is not quasi-Luciferian, in the sense that cultural hatred of him has forced our hand.

Yesterday: Comedian Kathy Griffin held up a decapitated Trump head. Last night she apologized, after considerable public disgust, and today CNN fired her from an upcoming TV event. Before it was over, Chelsea Clinton The Church of Satan (!) had denounced what she did, on Twitter, the modern electronic anti-humanity Church, loaded with millions of “bots” who attack people like swarms of hornets.

All she was doing was trying to impress her masters, who are the ones who got the froth going in the first place–they run it 24/7, and they do it for ratings.

I think Griffin will, at the end of it all, have served light, not darkness, by being willing to, as she said, “go too far,” and “cross a line.” I think this sent many Americans into a new kind of reflection and prayer today.

This one goes out to my son, Jeremy, on his 23rd birthday, today.

I thanked God for him today, in front of a Mary statue I sometimes pray at. But it was the first time in 23 years I even thought to give thanks to God, for the miracle of my own son. Something was clouding my soul: Modernity and an impoverished imagination. Before anything else is said: For me, being a beginner Christian is being a beginner at saying thank you.

“The person who takes every opportunity to “pick on” others is often mistakenly called “sadistic”. In reality, this person is a misdirected masochist who is working towards his own destruction. The reason a person viciously strikes out against you is because they are afraid of you or what you represent, or are resentful of your happiness. They are weak, insecure, and on extremely shaky ground when you throw your curse, and they make ideal human sacrifices.”

–Anton LaVey

So I got to reading up a bit, after discussing neo-Satanism with my father, who interviewed Anton LaVey back in the day, and found him to be a mere showman, certainly was not rattled by him. My father has always had a simple policy that NO guest is off limits. So about LaVey… Barry recalled one sequence, decades later. “I asked him to tell me what an act of Satanism is,” he said. (Great question!) LaVey replied that an initiation would be: To enter a NYC subway at a complex station with many tunnels, naked under a coat, and open the coat, facing an empty passage.

“Flash to no people?” I said.

“Yes.”

Good Lord, bring back the Satanists of the good old days!

No but seriously, I looked it up, read some of his quotes. It was not as I expected.

This is Satanism? A bit unsettling that one would agree with most of this. Especially the mating signal law and the lousy houseguest law.

LaVey railed against stupidity and declared it a Satanists’s number one sin. So that would cancel out mainstream media as Satanists. I found him difficult to take seriously as ‘evil’ and was astonished (and pleased) that he insisted children and animals should never be hurt, but that if houseguests are rude they should be “destroyed.” I actually agree with that, as a lifelong victim of terrible houseguests. But I always, as recently as a few weeks ago, remain polite about horrible houseguests, and simply unable to reveal what they have done, because you would never believe me, nor would you believe where the worst were from.

If I had discovered The Eleven Rules of Satanism before they ever plagued me with their total lack of western hospitality consciousness, I would have been better able to protect myself.

I try to forgive and have compassion. It works for up to 11 seconds when I really focus.

You know what–I would like to start a Church too and declare my own list of sins. LaVey said “stupidity” was top of the list of Church of Satan sins. I would say stinginess. But I agree with him that it’s a pity stupidity is not painful.

I think I had better quit figuring out points of agreement between myself and The Church of Satan, and go to bed.

Wow this family is breathtakingly awful. Beautiful and immeasurably stupid. But in some ways, their awfulness lights up the darkened world by being too clueless to conceal its true nature, or even try.

We all express what we are, whether we wish to or not, at all times. So too: “Social Justice Warriors.”

How does Paul Joseph Watson stay in one piece? This is now new, but was brought to my attention for a second time and I watched it all the way through. There are no longer any words, really, that so justice to the Satanic storm we are in. What’s the answer? Is there one?

“Let me give you another example of how rejection can occur at a very young age and of the spiritual impact it can have on a child. Many years ago I was conducting services at a church in Miami. While visiting one of the parishioners at home a few
nights earlier, I had done something I rarely do. I said to her, “Sister, if I’m correct, you have the spirit of death in you.”
She had every reason to be happy, but she never was. She had a good husband and children, yet she hardly ever smiled or looked happy. She was like a person in continual mourning. Although I very rarely make that kind of statement to anybody,
I felt I had to say something to her that night.
I said, “I’m preaching on Friday night in Miami. If you come, I’ll pray for you.”
At the beginning of the meeting I noticed her sitting on the front row. Once again, I did something I do not usually do. At a certain point in the service, I walked over to her and said, “You spirit of death, in the name of Jesus, I command you to answer me now. When did you enter this woman?”
And the spirit, not the woman, answered very clearly, “When she was two years old.”
I said, “How did you get in?”
Again it was the spirit that answered, “Oh, she felt rejected; she felt unwanted; she felt lonely.”
Later that evening, the woman was delivered from the spirit of death, but for several days that incident kept coming back to my mind. It gave me a new understanding of the effect that rejection can have on a person’s life. It is not merely evil in itself, but it also opens the door for various other negative, destructive forces to move in and gradually take over a person’s life. Rejection truly is a root from which much that is harmful can grow.”

Many of us feel that the mass media in the present day manifestation is not unlike a psychopathic narcissist that sees all of us as extensions of its enraged vision, with which me must comply, or be destroyed. When you encounter this is a person, you can leave.

How do we protect ourselves from the destruction this malignant “being” intends for us all? I say: Expression and more expression, is the only answer. Keep expressing what YOU think. What YOU think is found in your own thought and voices, and every time I encounter them here, I know we are succeeding, just in being our own collection of sea-glass on a beach.

[As for so called trolls– I make exceptions to comments that feel malignant and abusive. Those don’t count as freedom to express.]

From Quora.com

Are narcissists delusional and mentally unstable?

Lisa Rochwarg
Answered May 20
“I would say that a person whose rage is barely under control, whose original personality has been obliterated, who regards the slightest autonomy in others as a dire threat to his control, who treats his intimates like dogs, who literally gets high off another’s pain, who becomes depressed and down by the happiness of another, who makes a point of betrayal, who entraps and isolates, who falsely accuses, who plays for a sympathy that he knows really belongs to another, who wants leadership but cannot responsibly handle it, and who manipulates every one around him to gang up on his victim is indeed unstable and much, much more.

As for delusional—narcissists only thrive when surrounded by an entourage of flying monkeys, sycophants, dupes and suck-up wannabes. They’re the buffer between him and reality—the narcissist’s bubble—to keep reality at bay and the flimsy ego intact.

Narcissists are utterly impossible, and sometimes, they’re much worse. Ira Einhorn is one famous example of “much worse.”

“One of the persistent strands in U.S. political life is a cultish extremism that approaches fascism. This was given expression and reinforced during the two terms of Barack Obama. “I believe in American exceptionalism with every fiber of my being,” said Obama, who expanded the United States’ favorite military pastime: bombing and death squads (“special operations”) as no other president has done since the Cold War.
According to a Council on Foreign Relations survey, in 2016 alone Obama dropped 26,171 bombs. That is 72 bombs every day. He bombed the poorest people on earth, in Afghanistan, Libya, Yemen, Somalia, Syria, Iraq, Pakistan.

Every Tuesday — reported the New York Times — he personally selected those who would be murdered by mostly hellfire missiles fired from drones. Weddings, funerals, shepherds were attacked, along with those attempting to collect the body parts festooning the “terrorist target.” A leading Republican senator, Lindsey Graham, estimated, approvingly, that Obama’s drones killed 4,700 people. “Sometimes you hit innocent people and I hate that,” he said, “but we’ve taken out some very senior members of Al Qaeda.”

Like the fascism of the 1930s, big lies are delivered with the precision of a metronome, thanks to an omnipresent media whose description now fits that of the Nuremberg prosecutor: “Before each major aggression, with some few exceptions based on expediency, they initiated a press campaign calculated to weaken their victims and to prepare the German people psychologically … In the propaganda system … it was the daily press and the radio that were the most important weapons.”

Take the catastrophe in Libya. In 2011, Obama said Libyan president Muammar Gaddafi was planning “genocide” against his own people. “We knew … that if we waited one more day, Benghazi, a city the size of Charlotte, could suffer a massacre that would have reverberated across the region and stained the conscience of the world.”

This was the known lie of Islamist militias facing defeat by Libyan government forces. It became the media story and NATO — led by Obama and Hillary Clinton — launched 9,700 “strike sorties” against Libya, of which more than a third were aimed at civilian targets. Uranium warheads were used; the cities of Misurata and Sirte were carpet-bombed. The Red Cross identified mass graves, and UNICEF reported that “most (of the children killed) were under the age of ten.”

“Today, false symbolism is all. “Identity” is all. In 2016, Hillary Clinton stigmatized millions of voters as “a basket of deplorables, racist, sexist, homophobic, xenophobic, Islamaphobic — you name it.” Her abuse was handed out at an LGBTQ rally as part of her cynical campaign to win over people of color by abusing a white mostly working-class majority. Divide and rule, this is called; or identity politics in which race and gender conceal class, and allow the waging of class war. Trump understood this.

“When the truth is replaced by silence,” said the Soviet dissident poet Yevtushenko, “the silence is a lie.”

This is the Call of Obama. It is not unlike a dog whistle: inaudible to most, irresistible to the besotted and boneheaded, especially “liberal brains pickled in the formaldehyde of identity politics,” as Luciana Bohne put it. “When Obama walks into a room,” gushed George Clooney, “you want to follow him somewhere, anywhere.”

William I. Robinson, professor at the University of California, and one of an uncontaminated group of U.S. strategic thinkers who have retained their independence during the years of intellectual dog-whistling since 9/11 wrote this last week, “President Barack Obama … may have done more than anyone to assure Trump’s victory.

A question: I know one person in the US is said to have died of measles in the last 20 years, according to the CDC. Does anybody have information about this mother of three who allegedly died of measles in Essen, Germany?

To the comment that suggests Seth Rich never existed and is part of a new Psyop–all theories are valid, but that one needs some evidence on its scaffolding before it can, never mind must be considered seriously.

When you can’t add to a story, take it anywhere in your own hands, you can at least sit abstain from noting it’s major developments. Here’s the last major development I have seen, not trying very hard, just taking things off the windshield.

“He had more security than a Third World dictator,” one employee said, explaining that Brock’s bodyguards would rarely leave his side, even accompanying him to his home in an affluent Washington neighborhood each night where they “stood post” to protect him. “What movement leader has a detail?” asked someone who saw it.

Extensive interviews with a number of Brock’s current and former colleagues at Media Matters, as well as with leaders from across the spectrum of Democratic politics, reveal an organization roiled by its leader’s volatile and erratic behavior and struggles with mental illness, and an office where Brock’s executive assistant carried a handgun to public events in order to defend his boss from unseen threats.

Yet those same interviews, as well as a detailed organizational planning memo obtained by The Daily Caller, also suggest that Media Matters has to a great extent achieved its central goal of influencing the national media.

Founded by Brock in 2004 as a liberal counterweight to “conservative misinformation” in the press, Media Matters has in less than a decade become a powerful player in Democratic politics. The group operates in regular coordination with the highest levels of the Obama White House, as well as with members of Congress and progressive groups around the country. Brock, who collected over $250,000 in salary from Media Matters in 2010, has himself become a major fundraiser on the left. According to an internal memo obtained by TheDC, Media Matters intends to spend nearly $20 million in 2012 to influence news coverage.

Donors have every reason to expect success, as the group’s effect on many news organizations has already been profound. “We were pretty much writing their prime time,” a former Media Matters employee said of the cable channel MSNBC. “But then virtually all the mainstream media was using our stuff.”

“I would say without any hesitation that he is incapable of recognizing the truth, let alone of telling it,” Christopher Hitchens wrote after reading Brock’s memoir. “The whole book is an exercise in self-love, disguised as an exercise in self-abnegation. How could he, asks the author of himself, have possibly gone on so long in telling lies, smearing reputations and inventing facts? The obvious answer — that he adored the easy money and the cheap fame that this brought him — was more than enough to still his doubts for several years. However, his publisher seems to have required a more high-toned explanation before furnishing him with a fresh tranche of money and renown. And Brock’s new story — that he was taken in by a vast right-wing conspiracy — is just as much of a lie as his earlier ones.”

Why can’t an American journalist in a free America investigate a murder, without being hounded out of a job? Does that make you suspicious?

Do you believe that a McCarthist organization that uses sheer bullying and intimidation against all stories they don’t approve of should determine what Americans get to see, read, and listen to?

If you don’t, then stand up in any way you can, against Media Matters–even if it means that, yes, you support Sean Hannity. It’s not “about” Sean Hannity, or Seth Rich. It’s about a free press vs a bully-controlled press. This is the bully. This is the problem.

This article seems to me to represent a sea change in media: Finally, we are talking about ISIS as they represent themselves, not as PC culture dictates. I had no idea this ISIS magazine existed–and was apprehensive to even click through to it.

I salute the work of Rita Katz and wonder if I am alone feeling that we have not been “allowed” to look at this kind of reality, to discuss it, to learn its terms–without going through countless filters. NOBODY thinks “all Muslims” are ISIS radicals. So how did that guilt trip ever get started?

From Katz’ Daily Beast article:“The first issue of Rumiyah, released on Sept. 5, 2016, contained an article headlined “The Kafir’s [Unbelievers’] Blood is Halal [Legitimate] for You, so Shed It.”

The article told readers that killing any non-Muslim not protected by covenant “is not sinful, but is rather rewarded with Jannah [Paradise].” After providing what was presented as various religious justifications, the article concluded in part: Muslims currently living in Dar al-Kufr must be reminded that the blood of the disbelievers is halal, and killing them is a form of worship to Allah, the Lord, King, and God of mankind. This includes the businessman riding to work in a taxicab, the young adults (post-pubescent “children”) engaged in sports activities in the park, and the old man waiting in line to buy a sandwich.”

“I was told my school is being burned to the ground. I was informed the city jail is on fire. I was messaged the local hospital is taken over by these men in black hoods.
Roads were blocked, fire trucks were seized, and everyone is questioned of religion. If you can’t prove you are a Muslim, you are “taken care” of.
I have received a message that my high school principal is taken as hostage. Along with her are many non-Muslims who strive to give education to young minds of Marawi. My sisters’ classmates and their families are on their way to our house; they are running away from the threat of fire and bullets.
Black flags are raised to claim dominion of the city.
Hope is frail as of the moment.”

..About the true depth of the cancer in government, what Ortel calls the “uni party cabal.”

“There isn’t a sense in this country…that we’ve actually been making progress for 17 years.

“The mainstream media was gutted by, I would argue, 1999-2002, that time frame–the traditional approach of letting editors sit on top of journalists and, you know, have a long lede time between when a story is conceived and the time it reaches an audience, the notion that the imprimatur of The Washington Post or The New York Times would be enough to know that it’s truth or fiction…that’s all dead.”

–Charles Ortel

Bio: Charles Ortel is a former Wall Street banker, having been a Managing Director at Dillon Read and Newport Value Partners, and private financial investor. In 2007 he became a whistleblower and was instrumental in bringing down General Electric after revealing GE’s fraudulently overvaluing its stock by many billions of dollars to mislead its investors. For the past fifteen months, Charles has been undertaking a thorough review of the financial records and collaborations and networks of the Bill, Hillary and Chelsea Clinton Foundation. His analysis investigated the Foundation’s fundraising practices, its allies and associates, its so-called charitable interests, and its political and corporate connections both in Washington and overseas. He received his BA from Yale and an MBA from Harvard Business School. His weekly blog exposing the Clinton Foundation can be found atCharlesOrtel.com.

“We’ve done secret screenings throughout Europe where we don’t announce the location until the day before because there are organized groups of pro-vaccine folks who will mobilize 10-20 people to call the venue that will threaten the venue or get it to change its mind about screening the film,” says Beth Portello, Cinema Libre CFO and vp marketing and publicity.

SPIEGEL: Recently, you have been the focus of fierce criticism from a growing number of politicians and journalists who are linking WikiLeaks to Russian propaganda and disinformation.

Assange: That is all spin. After Hillary Clinton lost the election, she and her campaign manager John Podesta decided to blame it on FBI director James Comey, on Russia and on WikiLeaks.

SPIEGEL: The credibility of Wikileaks depends on it being non-partisan, on not having a hidden political agenda.

Assange: WikiLeaks’ credibility with the public depends on our proven record of accuracy. In 10 years, we have published over 10 million documents. Not a single one of them had been proven to be forged. But of course, every source has its own interest. That’s a basic law of journalism.

SPIEGEL: Do you know your sources?

Assange: We usually have very good insight into our material to authenticate it. In some cases, that means that we also develop insight into a source.

SPIEGEL: If the U.S. government were able to prove that the CIA documents WikiLeaks has published were submitted by Russian sources, that would damage the credibility of WikiLeaks severely, don’t you think?

Assange: That is a media fantasy. The official position of the U.S. government, as expressed by Barack Obama in his last press conference as president, is that the it has no evidence whatsoever of collusion between WikiLeaks and Russia. U.S. officials have said they believe that the CIA documents don’t come from a state party, but from an American private contractor.

SPIEGEL: But you can’t deny that WikiLeaks lost a lot of its popularity since it published documents about Hillary Clinton and her campaign.

Assange: What are you saying? If we hadn’t published Hillary Clinton’s Goldman Sachs speeches, she would have won? Or should we have censured information to favor one candidate? WikiLeaks will never do that.

SPIEGEL: Increasingly, though, secret services seem to be trying to influence the outcome of elections in foreign countries.

Assange: That may well be.

SPIEGEL: If these secret services are using WikiLeaks as a useful weapon, you can’t just lean back and say: “That may well be.”

Assange: Secret services are planting things in the media every day. And if WikiLeaks is logistically able to publish documents before an election, we will do that – and that’s also exactly what the public expects.

SPIEGEL: You don’t care if WikiLeaks influences the outcome of elections?

Assange: WikiLeaks is made up of human beings who have different political views. But we cannot undermine our publicly given commitments, our publicly stated principles.

SPIEGEL: And these principles require that you publish authentic documents as quickly as possible, regardless of who benefits or is damaged?

Assange: That’s our current policy, which might be changed under extreme circumstances.

SPIEGEL: What sort of circumstances?

Assange: If we were on the brink of a nuclear war and a WikiLeaks publication could be misinterpreted, then it would make sense to delay the publication.

SPIEGEL: You didn’t delay the publication of the material which harmed Clinton.

Assange: We are not in this business for likes. WikiLeaks publishes documents about powerful organizations. WikiLeaks always will always be the bad boy.

SPIEGEL: What do you have to say to people who accuse WikiLeaks, among others, of being responsible for Donald Trump’s election as U.S. president?

Assange: WikiLeaks revealed the dirty tactics of the Clinton campaign. Some voters took it in. It was their free choice to do so. That’s their right. That’s democracy.

SPIEGEL: As secretary of state, Clinton sought to take action against WikiLeaks. Was the publication of Democratic Party documents a kind of vendetta?

Assange: That is U.S. East Coast psychobabble. The reason that WikiLeaks follows its principles is because one man has a problem? No! But here is some historic irony behind it. Clinton was involved in putting our alleged source Chelsea Manning in prison. There seems to be some natural justice.

SPIEGEL: You derived satisfaction from her loss?

Assange: . . .

SPIEGEL: You are smiling.

Assange: On a personal level I would probably get along with her quite well. She is a charismatic person. She is a bit of wonk – like me. A little bit awkward – like me. However, there has to be a line drawn. She decided to destroy the Libyan state. As a result, she fueled the European refugee crisis. We published a lot of her emails on how this unfolded. It seems an inescapable conclusion that she is a war criminal.

Assange was accused, tried, and found guilty in Swedish media, which then spread internationally.

How will they spin the story now? Will anybody be held accountable?

Virtually every Swedish friend I discussed the case with since it happened put me “on the carpet” as the Swedish saying goes, for trying to get at the facts. It was just not done. I can see their concerned faces in front of me now.

Assange said, from the balcony of the Ecuadorian Embassy in London: ‘The proper war is just commencing.”

This is a victory and an inspiration for victims of media-driven media-witch hunts everywhere.

One wonders, also, why the Swedish media made such an exceptional exception to its strict laws about never showing the face of an accused rapist in the press. This is supposedly in order to keep the peace. Why didn’t the laws apply to Julian Assange?

Many questions for Sweden–and prosecutor Marianne Ny, famous for her mirthless, self righteous demeanor– to answer.

In setting out to destroy the reputation of Julian Assange, it seems to me Sweden succeeded on destroying its own reputation, cultivated for so many decades, and with so much success.

Many jumped on the “Assange is a rapist” bandwagon; The Truth Barrier was not among them.

The person who should be investigated is Swedish prosecutor Marianne Ny.

“After the incidents for which he is wanted for questioning took place, in mid-August 2010, Mr. Assange remained in Sweden for five weeks, until September 27, during which time Swedish prosecutors once dropped the case altogether, only to re-open it days later. Prosecutor Marianne Ny was quoted in the Swedish newspaper Dagens Nyheter as having said: “Even if I’m wrong, I won’t give up.”

About an hour ago, I walked to my phone, which was ringing, in the bedroom. All of a sudden, I was humming Peter and the Wolf, out loud. I think it was Peter’s theme.

I am only able to get to the oboe, the duck, before I feel unable to bear the feelings that come up.

I will push through again later. Tell me how you feel, listening to it.

Such a mysterious masterpiece by Prokofiev–it’s like the Room of Rooms, where you can’t escape anything you don’t want to feel. The music makes you feel all stories, of all people, all at once, in a few notes, with instruments speaking in ways words never can.

A note:
The “point” here is actually NOT even that one believes or does not believe Rich was killed by DNC operatives. That is highly speculative and speaking for myself, I am NOT saying that.
How would I know?
How would any of us?
The point is: A DNC insider leaked the emails to Wikileaks that tipped the election, if anything did. There is to date no evidence of a Russian ‘hack,” but there is evidence of an inside DNC leak.
So–Russia-gate is complicated by this, and what we should be very concerned about is that US media won’t touch this story. UK media have behaved, by contrast, as normal journalists, by reporting it.

The US deep-state complicit power drunk media is the greatest threat to our so called democracy.

You can dislike propaganda more than you dislike Trump. And I leaver disliking Trump to others, because it’s hard work and others have it well covered. Maybe he is even half the things they say he is, but at this point, they want him to fall more than they want America to rise. And that’s evil.

“Fabrication of news by fake news, yellow journalism, as it used to be called, can be done by anyone. I would like to post my true yellow journalism. In which, I believe is the chain of events:
Clinton insider sees what an evil is being unleashed on America, sends to Wikileaks, gets murdered, Wikileaks posts reward, Hillary invents Russia involvement & collusion to cover up murder, Police cover up investigation. Sessions must get his hands on the murdered “Patriot” computer & the computer of Carlos Danger. Obama sent emails to Hillary, He Knew. They all knew. Including Comey. They will all go to jail. All that is fake news, or is it? Think about, on how Cheney fabricated with Hillary’s assistance, evidence of “Weapons of Mass Destruction” , shunted war to Iraq instead of Afghanistan & Cheney’s ex company benefited. Evidence?? WMD?? Where is evidence of collusion? Everything I wrote above is fake. Except that America Must Honor The Patriot That Crushed The Witch.”

[Ed: I would have asked the writer to change the word “witch,” on grounds that I find the word very troubling, having read “Witch Craze: A New History Of The European Witch Hunts by Anne L. Barstow. There is no such thing as a “witch.” The greatest holocaust that ever occurred was on women in Europe, for centuries, and we stand here today because it was finally overcome. It peaked in Salem, Mass. I hope you understand the difference between being careful with choosing words and being censorious about words, Peter. I’m not into thought/word policing. I appreciate your comment very much and hope it spurs a big discussion. Long overdue.]

I would prefer, as an American, not to hang the Republic on the word and memory of Mr. Comey.

I want to wager a bet: Trump has a tape. I mean a recording.

Let’s see if the tape remembers the conversation the same way he does. Until then, let’s do our best to keep calm, open minds, which can receive incoming information, without filtering for our own preconceived beliefs.

Meanwhile: Watch Comey morph in front of your eyes from somebody they despised and distrusted, thought to be crazy, to somebody they revere.

At this rate, he could be TIME Magazine’s Man Of The Year.

(Sorry– Person of The Year.)

“The only story that matters is what the MSM has created this cover up for in the first place. SETH RICH. The murdered DNC staffer, as of today a federal prosecutor confirmed he sent over 44,000 emails to Wikileaks. But that would destroy the whole fake Russia story so ofcourse no one will talk about it. Look it up! Do your own research. He was a Bernie supporter, and didn’t like the way the party was openly against him. Regardless of how you feel about Trump, this is wrong, and he lost his life.”

This is the best article I have found after hours of “scouring” the internet. It opens about 14 cans of worms and closes none. But at least it sounds like reporters put it together, unlike American journalism which has all its conclusions already baked in; sounds and feels like propaganda.

If you already know what the truth needs to be, i.e. you went to Globalism School, then don’t be a reporter. Reporters are crazy, and driven by an unconscious death wish, which is a necessary attribute. They know how to get people to talk. The best ones know how to also make those same people not to regret it. If you are too good, as a reporter, like Michael Hastings, or Gary Webb, you will have lost your life, right after you lost all your friends, and your editor’s support.

The British still dominate when it comes to journalism. We have no journalism culture, in the US. We have propaganda wars.

I have no doubt journalists would like to be real shoe-leather reporters here, but there are no politically neutral places to report anymore so they are left to either report propagandistically or not at all.

Except: Wikileaks, which uses raw data only and has a 100% record of no “fake” news, i.e. false documents. For this reason, I believe that Wikileaks has already rendered all of western journalism obsolete. It’s all just a huge dysfunctional bar brawl, compared to Wikileaks, which offers at least the chance, if we have the stamina, to locate what actually has transpired in our time.

Sara Carter at Circa is doing good work. Why will only Sean Hannity talk to her?

Want to play Shoot The Messenger? You can make a good living in U.S. media if you just master the dark art of pure contempt for what a fact may or may not be. Usually you can save yourself 25 phone calls or a trip out the front door merely by saying “FOX news…” with the right timbre of Globalist contempt.

For so many hours I have tried to find words that aren’t false, for she hated falsity. Inconsolable, is a word that comes to mind. Also: Pure joy, like a child.
I offered consolations that were not backed by turns of events in this life.

I think of her standards: That you bring gifts, help, uplift, gold-sprinkle the atmosphere. Die sooner than be an ungracious house-guest.
Thank people with gusto, greet people warmly, POUR, she used to tell me, BEFORE your guests have reached empty glasses. NEVER ask a guest: “So, are you hungry…?”

No, you anticipate needs, and meet them.

Oh she would have lost her mind in this PC sourpuss era.

Traveled the world as a Pan Am stewardess–managed to cause an airport to shut down by chickening out of a plot to export rotten explosive herring from Sweden, via Karachi. Was it?
Her favorite country was Haiti, hands down.

My whole life was following her way of thinking and now I am stuck without her and nobody thinks this way and it’s awful. Everybody wants to do things the rational way. I can see her eyes sparking with contempt.

She got my sister and I to the Sahara desert twice on a nurse’s salary as a single mother because we “had to” see the stars. Once there, we “had to” go to a deserted island virtually off the map (almost ended very badly) and we “had to” purchase several large birdcages and send them to various people in the US, including her estranged husband’s parents in Fort Lauderdale–and bring a few home. When we went to visit her dance teacher (yes, dance teacher) Willie, from Barbados, she thought for a long time about a suitably spectacular gift to bring and settled on a full size fir tree, Christmas tree, which traveled from Sweden in a burlap sack to Barbados, and when it emerged on the conveyor belt…I just can’t tell you. Everybody was like in stitches. The customs official, I can see him before me: “A CHRISTMAS tree?” Her sense of humor and adventure were limitless.

Me and Mom

She and her mother Ingrid, on a trip to Haiti, rented a motorcycle to speed up a mountain to a voodoo ceremony, which I wish I’d questioned her more about. She made my father demand of the radio station WINS that they release the gift monkey a sponsor had sent as it was animal cruelty, Max. He became my parents monkey, but turned against my mother when he fell for my father and lived on his shoulder.
Max tore up a friend’s daughter’s bedroom and Mom had to yield. Max went to a zoo.
All I know of their short lived marriage, in terms of domestic detail, just about, was that they played “Rule Brittania!” on the record player to time my father’s eggs to perfection.
Sublime sense of humor.
Temper? Oh yes.
But you know—I get it, now. Roy Cohn was my father’s divorce lawyer, which means now we all speak Swedish. No concept such as warn us we are moving to Sweden.
It’s ok, Mom. Trauma is trauma. She set only one small fire, to my father’s second wife’s experimental noir downtown…um..ah never mind. Nobody was hurt. It was this ex wife of my father’s who told me the story, with a smile, kind of. (Yes, I know, it’s not funny. But nobody was hurt, thank God.)

She rescued at least two drowning men, once from shark infested waters. She was asked to carry a leg down a corridor when in Red Cross nurse’s training, to test her nerves.
She made my father confront a man beating his mule at a train station in Yugoslavia, “Are you going to let him treat that animal like that Barry?”

My father recalled, shaking his head:

“There we are in communist Yugoslavia., and Ulla wanted me to pick a fight with a farmer!”

In the Soviet Union, so they did not have to ask, as they could not, she wrapped gifts for the girls in US fashion magazines.

And when she walked in on my father interviewing an important member of some royal family, realizing his secretary had made a mistake, she invented a crisis in New York, to explain the intrusion, and spare the secretary a major scolding. When my sister, her first child, was on her way, she decorated the house, put on her best dress, and made my father guess for two hours WHAT relative was coming to dinner. “Uncle Ellis?” “No” “Aunt Hick?” “No.” He had to exhaust every possibility on all sides of both families before she gave him the critical clue:

“I didn’t say when they were coming.”

That’s how she told him she was pregnant. Elevate, always, was her motto. She had not one snobby bone own her body and you always knew what she was feeling. She did not believe some people are more important than others.

I’m not saying she was some kind of mother angel person. But she was real, as real as real gets. I wished she could be fake sometimes but no.
When we were on a flight that began to plummet from the sky, my son was one year old, she turned to me when everybody else was screaming for saints, (we were flying back from Puerto Rico) and she told me to “SAY THANK YOU” to God. And I did. That was what she said you do in these situations, and it was not her first. She broke her back, and suffered a concussion, in an airplane incident.
How did she live all these lives?
The line I recall, the thing she said, that kills me the most, was about 6 months before she died. She was setting her hair in rollers, and tossing pins into a pan, and she said, “The only things I regret in my life are the times when I did not show enough love.”

This is me often, now, but I am exhausted and I can’t “show love” anymore. I’m trying to, but everybody is psychotic at the moment.

Mom, this is ridiculous, what were you thinking? Living without her is a bleak slow hell. Living with her was a wild hilarious traumatic ride.
There was a Tunisian man–a Muslim in Sweden named Mohammed, who was paraplegic; He came over sometimes, including, on Christmas eve.
In Sweden!
“He’s a man,” she said.

She said that also, about Peter Olsen.
When my son was due, and I was packing for the hospital, she raised the issue of the importance of a NEW nightgown and robe.
That was another one of those things that just did not end well.
I learned nothing about how to keep the peace, everything about how to keep the….something. What was it? SPIRT.
Now I am a spiritless furless squirrel, gasping for solace in a destroyed, cold world.
“Drink!” she said once, admonishing me for drinking with bird like sips. Go ahead. Say it’s not healthy. I haven’t the strength to argue.
God made my mother, as an antidote to political correctness.
No, that’s not true.
She was Ulla. She was my mom. And I loved her beyond measure, no matter how many times I object to how I was traumatized by it all.
Just told my father I can’t come cook dinner. Can’t move.
Mom, I wish we could spend the night yelling at each other. We could smash some plates. We could clean up. We could laugh again. She would have been SO proud of her grandson, Jeremy, now 22.
And when I am an overbearing tyrant telling him he has to TAKE the gesture, and make it big, it’s her I am channeling.
The only sin in her book, was coldness.

On the last night I would see her alive, I bought her a dozen red roses and Beluga caviar–we partied, and also argued. And then she packed for her trip back to Sweden the next day.

Those roses outlived her. I never tortured a telephone like those two long days when she just did not answer the phone. With each ring, I begged. “Answer Mom. Answer.” Finally smashed it into the floor.

On day 3 we managed to get the lady who watered her flowers into the apartment. I made my father make that last call. His face fell, and in Swedish, he just said the word “no,” over and over. I ran out of the room screaming, and threw up.

She was always, since I was born, my world, my light, my teacher and my greatest ally. We have fallen apart since she died. This is what happens, when you lose a mother. Nobody is there, telling me we have to go to Tunisia…and “DON’T THROW OUT,” the plastic monkeys from the margaritas at Banditos.

“Thanks for the great article. 1939 -1945 we fight with nazism , since 1945 to 1989 -we fight with comunism Now we fight for future of Poland with crazy and extremly dangerous people, who decided to destroy the youngest Poles by more and more and more mandatory vaccinations.”

Ed: I am seeing more and more Polish flags on StatCounter. For the first time in I don’t know how long, I feel hopeful. I hope to hear from more Polish friends, about that is going on right now, in preparation for this massive protest, which will get no coverage in US media. (Not counting us.)

To write about opposition to communism in the 1980s, one must begin with Poland. The Poles were the only ones ever to stage repeated challenges to communist rule, with major uprisings in 1956, 1968, 1970, 1976 and 1980. Solidarity, the last of these, was a more credible alternative to communism than anything else produced in Central Europe. Its influence throughout the region was incalculable…’

A country where a newborn is given high-risk vaccine against tuberculosis – the very one that Germany withdrew 18 years ago! (1)

Country where even premature babies are vaccinated against hepatitis B due to the fact that hygiene standards in medical facilities are notoriously neglected. Newborns are offered a cheap, Korean vaccine used nowhere else in Europe! (2)

Country that continues to use a high risk, whole cell vaccine against diphtheria, tetanus, pertussis already withdrawn in other European countries. (3)

Country where the tender for the pneumococcal vaccine is won by a pharmaceutical company that previously employed the Deputy Minister of Health. (4)

Country where children are injected with vaccines never legally approved for the given market – only by applying the regulations on … pandemic. (5)

Country where parents are charged a huge penalty fine if refusing to inject their child with the above `goodness`. (6)

The country, that didn’t ratify the bioethics Committee and lets testing the biggest amount of vaccines in whole Europe, on it’s citizens. (7)

A country where the government and corporations censor public television shows where families of vaccine-injured children were allowed to tell their story. (8)

Country where doctors are punished for informing patients on side effects of pharmaceutical products. (9)

Country where doctors are unable to recognize vaccine adverse reaction and its consequences. (10)

Country that has the highest child-immunization rate in the world and yet the lowest number of doctors vaccinated against flu. (11) (12)

Country where the only excuse allowing not to vaccinate a child is their death. (13)

Country where the only vaccine exemption is death. Country where pharmaceutical companies sponsor media campaigns aiming to turn the society against the real advocates of patients’ rights and do so by introducing fake epidemics! (14)

Country where the Sanitary Chief Officer performs a rap song mocking the victims of system’s negligence. (15) (16)

Country where the dangerous oral polio vaccine is forced to be used up till the end of stocks AFTER it was given the status “for immediate withdrawal.” (17) (18)

Country where there is no compensation program for the victims and doctors and officials are above the law. (19)

POLAND – a country where you can go to jail if you issue a petition which calls for a change of the abovementioned irregulaties. (20)

JOIN THE PROTEST! (email us: stopnop@gmail.com)

DEAR POLAND,

Allow an American friend to remind you that you are also the country of countless great minds, intrepid souls. amazing people–SOLIDARITY. Do you have Hungary also with you? Between the two nations you have gotten us out of chains before and you can do it again.

Send us a word so we know you got this. Send us INFO and update about the protest please. Thank you!

The Vaccine Reich is hoping nobody notices what just happened in Sweden: The Parliament considered, and struck down, mandatory vaccination laws presented by politician named Sofia Arkelsten, of Sweden’s right of center party Moderaterna, (M.)

Other motions, including for additional vaccines added to the schedule and HPV vaccines for boys, were also rejected.

Age of Autism published this report. Being half Swedish and fluent in the language, all my journalistic instincts started firing with the notion that I had stumbled upon a very big angle that even the vaccine reform movement seemed unexcited by. This happened when I opened a PDF from National Health Federation (NHF) Sweden, with its objections submitted the the Swedish Parliament. NHF is the world’s oldest non-profit for alternative medicine, I believe. They and many others, submitted objections to 16 of 89 proposals made to the Parliament about Swedish public health, (“folk halsa”) which included matters about everything from vaccines, drugs and alcohol, to suicide prevention, to trying to urge Sweden to officially recognize the fact that horses have a therapeutic effect on humans. [This is in the parliamentary debate–and I am impressed!]

Here’s what I found significant–a passage from NHF detailing why exactly it would be a violation of the Swedish Constitution to mandate vaccines: (My translation)

Sofia Arkelsten’s motion may not lie as a foundation for any proposition since:

–It violates parliamentary foundation 2 chap 6.

–It violates the fact that all Swedish medical care, according to existing laws, is based on free will with regard to medication and other treatment (with the exception of forced hospitalization.)

–It violates article 8 in ECHR, about human rights

–It violates the Nuremberg Code (vaccines lack satisfactory scientific foundation, since there have never been any adequate risk-benefit analysis comparing vaccinated to unvaccinated. Thus all vaccination must be seen as experimental mass research.)

–It violates the Helsinki Declaration (vaccines lack satisfactory scientific foundation, because there has never been risk/benefit research comparing vaccinated to unvaccinated. Thus all vaccination must be seen as experimental mass research.

Every Citizen Is Societally Protected From Enforced Physical Bodily Intervention

Society is for all people. Citizens may not be discriminated against. It is equality by law that is essential. Neither the state, politicians, nor society owns citizens bodies and also does not have the right to decide what to do with them. In the parliamentary code it says: “Every citizen is against public [civic] protected against bodily intervention.” This covers all forms of forced interventions and makes forced vaccination impossible. Sweden has foundational laws that protect against enforced intervention, which mandatory vaccination involves. Thus Sofia Arkelsten’s motion can not be considered in such a way that it leads to a proposition of a law.

ECHR—Human Rights

Political initiatives such as mandating vaccinations against people’s will is an act that legally could be considered premeditated murder, as well as attempt to cause bodily harm. The reason for this is that through grounded research and published studies, it is indisputable that vaccines can lead to serious adverse effects, bodily damage, conditions of sickness and even death for some of the vaccinated individuals.

This came at the same time as The Boston Herald published an editorial essentially calling for the “hanging” of vaccine critics, by calling vaccine skepticism a “hanging offense.” The storm of protest about this period piece of an article is formidable; It is literally “hate speech” but as I have stressed in the past, there is a gaping hole in hate speech laws, so long as minority “ideas” are not incorporated into protections. Only race, sexual orientation–etc.

My colleague Pal Bergstrom told me in an online exchange today that there was “no coverage” in Sweden about the Parliament’s rejection of mandatory vaccination, and that he believes this was only part of a bugger push to come. He also told me that Italy is pushing for mandatory vaccines right now. This article details how media led messes scares in Germany, Sweden, Finland, and other countries are invariably followed by these attempts to make vaccine mandatory, as happened so disastrously here in the US, with the Disney World scare and the implementation of SB 277 in California.

I will translate it in a future post–it is very eye-opening.

I was unable to locate any direct quotes from the Parliamentary debate, but Swedish analyst and blogger Mr. Bergstrom has agreed to shed additional light on it all tomorrow, by replying to my questions.

In conclusion, I can say this: Sweden stayed neutral in yet another war. That’s the good news. One only wishes they were less quiet about it.

(With special thanks to Andrew Wakefield and Shiela Lewis Ealey for talking to me about this, as I sought clarity, and with apologies to both for some of yesterday’s over-reaching interpretations.)

Submitted as comment by R.A. Davis, to “American Ugly.” Let me say something here: Those who read The Truth Barrier and comment, are themselves! They are not me. I enjoy seeing “different opinions” by which I really mean perspectives that can cause mine–or yours– to evolve, stretch, grow, or even faint in the road. I don’t care. It used to be known as “publishing.” This was before the Golden Age of Propaganda.

Uniformity is fascism. Incidentally, the comment section has been freed up from experimental settings.

Here’s R.A. Davis:

Donald Trump is, yes, ugly. An egocentric narcissist who was born to privilege and considers his beautiful wives as accoutrements to his persona.

May I quite rationally suggest that this makes him the most honest presidential candidate in recent history, and maybe going all the way back to George Washington & his wooden teeth.

Because all his obvious flaws are out there for all to see; he is saying to us, “This is what I am, folks>”
G.W. bush bore the mantle of Christian Conservative, but spawned more global death than any recent US leader, all under the pretext of a War On Terror. Obama was a CIA trained snake oil salesman with ties to radical Islam. Candidate Romney was and is a drug money launderer.
Sanders is an ideologue who cannot answer the basic challenge to socialism: who pays for all this?

Now this uncouth booming orangeheaded TV star is our president, like it or not. He wears his bullshit on his sleeve. I suspect most of this is by design. It distracts his enemies’ who poke at his flaws. He’s fine with that. It draws attention away from his shrewd brilliant mind,and the sincerity of his mission. Draining the Swamp isn’t a matter of installing enough sump pumps; it’s a matter of disarming those who wallow in it, until it’s too late.

The thing Churchill said to that woman about how he would not be drunk in the morning but she would still be ugly.
Trump detesters will still have contributed to American Ugly, when this is all over, and Trump, the detested object, will be removed…they will say ‘WE didn’t destroy the country. HE did.”
I want nothing to do with those who partook and became part of this ugliness, in the future, if there is one. Moreover, they want nothing to do with me. But even if they did I would not want anything to do with them. Except for that….I wish they would own their ugly nature and address it. And I am prepared foe the life of total isolation. I will not back down on this. I feel as strongly about this as I do about Americans who partook in any lynching esprit.

The character keeps four notebooks which she weaves into one golden notebook. One quote that could apply to many of us is, “What’s terrible is to pretend that the second-rate is the first-rate. To pretend that you don’t need love when you do; or you like your work when you know quite well you’re capable of better.”

Doris Lessing wrote this book in 1962, and was confronted by a horde or reporters in 2007, outside her home in London, telling the 88 year old writer that she had won the Nobel Prize.

Her response was, “Oh, Christ, I couldn’t care less.”

The intellectual, natural writer died in 2013 at 94. Her novels, short stories, operas, poetry, nonfiction and autobiography are treasures.

O’Brien smiled again. “She betrayed you, Winston. Immediately–unreservedly. I have seldom seen anyone come over to us so promptly. She is the perfect penitent. There is not a trace of rebellion or illusion left in her. She is washed absolutely–everything has been burned out of her. She is clean all through. She loves Big Brother.

“You tortured her.”

O’Brien left this unanswered. “Next question,” he said.

“Does Big Brother exist?”

“Of course he exists. The party exists. Big Brother is the embodiment of the Party.”

“Does he exist in the same way as I exist?” said Winston.

“You do not exist,” said O’Brien.

A sense of helplessness assailed Winston. He was no good at philosophy, at metaphysics. He knew, or he could imagine, the arguments which proved his non-existence; but they were nonsense, they were only a play on words.

Did not the statement,” You do not exist,” contain a logical absurdity? But what use was it to say so? His mind quailed as he thought of the unanswerable, mad arguments, with which O’Brien would demolish him.

I called my father,* moments ago, (30 minutes before he goes on air with his nightly radio show) and said: “I need your take on Trump firing Comey,” he said, “My head is still spinning, I’m glad you called it gives me a chance to organize my thoughts. ”
(I opened laptop…)
He continued:
“He had the choice to do it brutally or elegantly. He chose brutally.”
Silence.
“Yeah.”
“This really does not make Trump look good. It’s redolent of Nixon. He didn’t even have a chance to gather his workers and let them know first. This is sadistic.”
“Yeah. Good word. I keep thinking about sadism.”
“Nobody is “good” on this subject– there is no good opinion. They’re blaming it on his handling of Hillary’s emails, Trump is firing Coney for the crime of making Hillary lose the election? What? Why didn’t he do this right after the inauguration? It would have been a hiccup and not a headline. ”
“Well,” I said, ‘I think it’s time to admit that even though they have desecrated so many values we hold dear, Trump foamers may have been right about this. Maybe he’s nuts.”
“Darling, I said that to Sara**five minutes ago.”
Then he told me an agnostic, insomniac, dyslectic joke. It goes like this:

“Insomniac, agnostic, dyslectic lies awake at night wondering if there is a dog.”

* Barry Farber. Originally Southern Democrat, Civil Rights Activist/….Voted Republican first time for Nixon. Voted for Trump but when I asked, referred to him as a “Horse’s ass.”

The term which came via Charles Ortleb, into my consciousness, some time in the late 1990s, refers to a politically armored person who wears political correctness as a kind of sheath. In this way, they protect themselves from injury, and yet they can injure others, whose “pod-d0m” is less intact or well constructed. Pods are “right on,” in every way, but there are questions about their level of humanity. They tend to judge others from a place of moral superiority, and believe that some people have dirty beliefs that needs to be sanitized. By them.

Mainstream media is the game reserve for pods, where they primarily live and breed. Universities. Student organizations, political organizations–basically anywhere there is a dearth of creativity, there will be high levels of “pod-think.”

When you feel in the presence of an aggressive political person who wants to cut you, and all of humanity, down to size, and basically frighten you all the time about who you “are,” then you know you are in a pod zone.

Always get out as fast as you can, scope the exits, never share any of your true feelings, always tell them what they want to hear. They’re quite dangerous.

“Snowflake,” is a very poor substitute for “pod,” and I regret that the term “snowflake” entered the lexicon where Ortleb’s word “pod” would have served so much better. A “snowflake” is a UNIQUE thing that never recurs in nature, is ephemeral, beautiful, delicate and of course harmless. “Social justice warriors” don’t seek social justice but social terror leading to a certain kind of conformity. Pods have an insatiable need for all human minds to conform to a mean, sanitized, hostile, xenophobic and racist world view. Only then are they happy. But the thing about pods is, actually, they are never happy, so don’t waste time trying. Just tell them you’re awful and you know you’re awful, and can’t be fixed. At least this is my new strategy, to cease fighting for the approval of pods anywhere.

They are ‘traumatizing narcissists,’ on a mass scale. They don’t care about beauty or truth, and in fact, truth does not strike them as beautiful.

It takes most of a life time to discover how the word and concept “love” is weaponized to block natural responses to the objectionable and/or repressive conduct of others.

Not saying: “I love you,” no longer, to my ear, means: I lack love for you, or, I lack a desire for your well being. It does mean, more and more: I wish to give myself a pass, a compliment of sorts, or to disarm myself or you, or both. I wish to advertise my own “lovingness,” by asserting those iconic words.

Really, it should work in reverse or no at all. You (one) say(s) to me (other:) “You love me–” or else, nobody says it.

Why should we always declare something so self serving, usually right at the moment when we are most uncomfortable with ourselves?

“I love you.” The most common raindrop of self-serving sound.

Is it violent? It’s muddling, and for animals that is not love. You love me? Great–but is it safe to cross this river? Is there ‘love” outside of habitual, protective, rightfully vigilant responses?

There are two ways of being: Free and unfree.

The more you “love” somebody, the less you let them be themselves, say what they want to say, when they want to, how they want to.

I’m as lousy at this as everybody else but I can’t STAND it, so I…compensate.

Every day I intend, and fail, to understand more about things like Reich’s segmental armoring theories, which sound so majestic. My old friend Tom DiFerdinando knows about this in detail and depth.

I can’t cover but a fraction of what passes across my screen or consciousness at The Truth Barrier, but I want to publicly support the women who are exposing the dark underbelly of Fox News. Is it “biased” to state that you “believe every word of it?” No. I don’t think so. I’m well seasoned in lawsuits. Nobody, but nobody, in addition to “nobody’s” very costly attorneys, would make false allegations against a killing machine like Fox. Nobody in their right mind, and nobody in their wrong mind.

I find it astounding that “people” are out there saying none of this is true, none of it happened, this is a “well orchestrated” leftist hit job against Bill O’Reilly, and so forth.

I don’t think that kind of rubbish deserves any closer attention that Holocaust denial. That’s a sign of mental fatigue, I guess, such an invocation–but I simply can’t fathom what universe you live in if you think O’Reilly walked the Fox plank for no good reason other than martyrdom.
If you live in New York, like I do, you know people who know people.

O’Reilly is very lucky this is all that is presently in the news about him.

I never “hated” FOX news, and still don’t, per se. But its harshest critics are in fact enjoying vindication right now.

“At Least Know This,” was a concept my father and I hatched together about 20 years ago, but never “developed.” I would (and still do) often ask my father–who I did not grow up with– sweeping questions, mostly about World War 2, which he began following closely by short wave radio as a boy in North Carolina, too young to serve. As I recall it, as soon as she said it: “At Least Know This,” we both knew it was a way to capture basic knowledge, and we thought to do a book with one page written by an expert on a variety of subjects: “World War 2: At Least Know This.” Or, “The Bolshevik Revolution: At Least Know This.”

I remember we agreed Peter Duesberg could write the chapter on virology. Neither of us can understand why the publishing industry has not beaten a path to our door.

In any case, last few days, I have brushed up my “at least know this” knowledge about the French election, and offer one article and one video, about Le Pen and Macron, respectively. One shocker, I suppose everybody but I already knew:

I can hear my father say what he loves most to say about the French, in French:

“Ce n’est pas la fin des haricots”

(It’s not the end of string beans.)

But maybe it is. I may call my father tomorrow and say, “You know how you always say is not the end of string beans? Well, I just read something that might be.”

Meanwhile, I like this little video about Marine Le Pen’s voters, for the simple reason that it interviews actual LePen voters in the French countryside, who are part of the “forgotten France.” It’s basic man on the street journalism, which we see almost never in US media.
I have a feeling Macron will win. But Marine is very charismatic and powerful. She’s a populist, not “far-right,” though her father, who she kicked out of the party was.

They aren’t trendy, purple haired, tattooed and pierced, gay or transgender, officially oppressed, or getting triggered on a college campus somewhere; They have no functioning anger to deploy, and if they did, nobody would fake-love them for it. They don’t have that kind of middle or upper middle class political energy.

Even if they did, they would not have the money to take the bus to the anti-Trump rally in the nearest big city.

It”s never been safe to be a young black male in the United States, but it is no longer safe to be a young white male either. And if you even say “white,” you sound a little suspect in today’s America. It’s a trigger word.

These are the kids who couldn’t go to college because student loan debt loomed like a crushing mushroom cloud, from which it may never have been possible to emerge. They don’t even try to form families, or come anywhere near what was once called The American Dream, now referenced mostly sarcastically. Instead it’s temporary odd jobs, opioids, and a relatively painless (compared to some) way to suicide by accident, from an opiate overdose. These kids didn’t die because they “were addicts.” They died because a decades long conspiracy at the heart of American financial culture abandoned them, crushed their “American Dream,” like a cheap soda can.

Where are the charts for those who were not even doing that? Could not even get those jobs?

From 2000 to 2014 nearly half a million Americans died from drug overdoses. Opioid overdose deaths, including both opioid pain relievers and heroin, hit record levels in 2014, with an alarming 14 percent increase in just one year, according to new data published today in CDC’s Morbidity and Mortality Weekly Report.

The most commonly prescribed opioid pain relievers, those classified as natural or semi-synthetic opioids such as oxycodone and hydrocodone, continue to be involved in more overdose deaths than any other opioid type. These deaths increased by 9 percent (813 more deaths in 2014 than 2013).

Increases in prescription opioid pain reliever and heroin deaths are the biggest driver of the drug overdose epidemic. Deaths from heroin increased in 2014, continuing a sharp rise that has seen heroin overdoses triple since 2010. Deaths involving illicitly made fentanyl, a potent opioid often added to or sold as heroin, also are on the upswing.

“The increasing number of deaths from opioid overdose is alarming,” said CDC Director Tom Frieden, M.D., M.P.H. “The opioid epidemic is devastating American families and communities. To curb these trends and save lives, we must help prevent addiction and provide support and treatment to those who suffer from opioid use disorders. This report also shows how important it is that law enforcement intensify efforts to reduce the availability of heroin, illegal fentanyl, and other illegal opioids.”

[CDC Press Release, Dec 18, 2015]

I disagree with Frieden’s emphasis on preventing “addiction.” Prevent, rather, financial hopelessness, and cultural segregation. Stop killing our kids by obliterating both their sovereignty and future. Stop, allowing the pharmaceutical mega-beast to finish them off with easy access to pills they are “addicted” to. If they survive, there’s another money mill: Addiction recovery centers. Rehab. Revolving door re-hab, since “re-hab,” doesn’t work, since this is not “addiction.” That’s a very convenient and lucrative way to blame the victims.

I meet and talk to young kids like this, sometimes. They drop out of college or never start because of student loan debt anxiety. Then they try to “get work,” and find that there simply isn’t a functioning world out there that wants them, no energy of “young man, you can do anything you set your mind to.” It’s not there anymore. Norman Vincent Peale, I know you believe me, wherever you are. It’s a different “America.”

You know what happens to the females in this social class by the way? They’re sold into sex trafficking.

Predatory college loans should be the first thing to go in this supposedly new America. How long does that take?

Also, how can you have “loved” Mr. Obama, when he said and did apparently nothing or next to nothing about this, and instead fostered trendy national dialogues about race, gender, bathrooms, and what have you. Not a way more difficult and way less trendy conversation about hopeless white kids dying in dirty gas station bathrooms in Eerie P.A. with no right-on sign on the bathroom door, just another life snuffed out, in the cold heartless shadows of Politically Correct America.

Because it struck me on Easter morning, on what would have been my fourth day as a proper Catholic, I was sure it was an attack from Satan personally. I’m self-important that way, in my imagination.

I was extremely weak, nauseated, eyes were hard to open or see with, and I felt like a poisoned rodent. Still, I put on my red dress, stockings, coat, sunglasses–and made my way to Church. Never felt more grateful for big Jackie-O sunglasses on a sunny day. Got to Church, took one step at a time, up the stairs.

Standing room only. I left only after whispering a soundless apology to God that I had to leave because I thought I might throw up. I got home and did just that, oddly enough, in the sink. That’s an indication of how sudden it was. Rounded the corner into the bedroom, drew the curtains, collapsed into bed, gave thanks for the cool sheets, and begged Lewis to come. Lewis is my younger cat, who always comes when I am ill or extremely sad and stays with me, does not leave my side. Pretty soon, the room was spinning. I wanted water but absolutely lacked the energy to move. It’s not that interesting to die, and also, I didn’t, so I’ll abbreviate the next 12 hours thusly: I had less energy than the dead, my head was pounding in pain, I took to crawling to the kitchen to get water, and vomiting all over the floor, in the hall, in the kitchen, or in the bathroom, totally unable to even direct my vomit. My sister Bibi called and sounded very worried, said I had to see a doctor. I was thinking it was just food poisoning, and did not want to be on a stretcher in the ER alone, shivering and feeling tragic. My sister lives two hours north of New York and my son lives on the West coast. At around 1 am I actually got worse, and our very own John Powell was demanding I go to hospital, after I posted here that I am acutely ill, rather than ignoring our conversation that I was appreciating so much.

I lay there just feeling lighter and lighter, like I was floating, I fell asleep finally, for a few hours, woke up feeling suddenly at peace, suspended over my life, like when a horse is harnessed and lifted across a body of water. There was nothing I could do. Finally I made my way to the bathroom again, vomited on the way, crawled to the bedroom, got the phone and dialed 911. “I’m extremely ill,” I croaked. I gave them my address, then I curled up on the hall floor with a blanket and my handbag and keys. A few minutes later they arrived, and took me in a wheelchair down to the ambulance. In the ambulance nothing interesting happened. Except that the guy with messiah hair from the Dive Bar texted me, one in the morning mind you, and wondered how I was. “are you well?”

“I’m in an ambulance actually,” I texted back.

“What happened??” he wrote.

I told him I would let him know tomorrow. And I did talk to the ambulance workers a little. Never stop asking questions. “You guys must see a lot.”

“Yep.”

“Get used to it, don’t even notice. Blood all over. Then we just go eat lunch.”

At the hospital they gave me IV fluids, and diagnosed a severe migraine with vomiting–not food poisoning. I got migraine medications and some anti-histamines. I am now certain it was all brought on by sitting on a duvet made of feathers for about 5 hours the previous day on a visit. The chair was handed down from several generations, and I am deathly allergic to feathers. I lay shivering for a while, a couple of hours, fell asleep some, then they pulled the needles out, I signed the papers, and I was out on 9th avenue at dawn. Took a taxi home. Jack and Lewis were pretty happy to see me.

Today, I feel fine. But I had an awful lot of laundry to do.

I also had a comprehensive epiphany, while doing the dishes: I don’t need any more fixing. Nothing is wrong with me. All that seeking and asking and traveling to healing clinics and out-sourcing my own intuition, that was all just serving my need to be Under.

I’ve posted about Marshall Rosenberg before, the creator of NVC (Non-Violent Communication) who divided all language into “Jackal” language (dominant, accusatory, carrying deeply concealed needs) and “Giraffe” (deeply hearing, translucent, expressive of needs and feelings, but not to be mistaken for “gentle,” which can also be Jackal in disguise.) Rosenberg used to joke that he grew up in Chicago, and so spoke “many dialects of Jackal.”

Pete Townshend called him a “tough Jew,” which he also was. I loved that choice of words, because it let us know right away that this is not New Age faux kindness. All that does is make the issuer appear to have gold when really he has rocks. False kindness is worse than real cruelty.

Nor does Rosenberg espouse the kind of “tough love,” that is actually sadism in drag, claiming spiritual legitimacy. Marshall Rosenberg was not a man of psychological or spiritual fashions.

Nothing frightens me more, personally, that people who can’t, or won’t, say how they feel. My own mother definitely, always, could, and did. It was often–to choose the correct word–terrifying, but not, I think, as terrifying as it would have been to climb the walks trying to interpret an icy silence in the house, like so many people I know grew up. My mother did not “do” silence and I am eternally grateful for that, because I believe that nothing hurts more. When my very loved mother was entering a rage, you knew because her fist actually came down on the table and the plates and glasses shook. There are four known responses to trauma, all beginning with the letter F: Flight, fight, freeze, and fawn.

In our house, I resorted to fight and fawn, and my sister Bibi: Flight and freeze.

But Marshall Rosenberg tried to tell us we can actually express our needs, if we can reach them, and transcend all these armored reactions. This is the language of the Giraffes.

We have a conflict here at The Truth Barrier. I think about how I might resolve it but I put it off and put it off. It’s very hard to enter into peace talks when you are under attack from another person whose needs have not been met but who is no longer trying to get them met, rather, the anger is just always coming at you, on a continuous loop. My own anger “stimulated” it, I have to accept. I don’t like to be told my ideas and thoughts are wrong or crazy because somebody else has other ones. The need then, is sovereignty. Let me be me. You be you. Let us be different, and just say, “Oh, that’s what you think! OK then.”

It’s not just I who am the target of rage, but others too. The fighting makes me think, sometimes, of closing down The Truth Barrier. That’s not a manipulation. Who wants to stay at a party where the guests have left the spirit of a breaking bread and everything is shaping up for a brawl and broken glass?

But then, we seem to get better, for the time being. I did block overt trolls. I did not block any real people, who just happen to ‘hate’ me right now, because I hurt their feelings. What people need to do is say: How did I hurt the other person’s feelings? This is “translucency.” Giraffe.

But all parties must first be willing.

I believe that anger is the deadliest of sins. I also believe it can be transformative.

I walked into my (Jewish) father’s bedroom, where he and his wife were sitting up in bed, watching the news, last night. I had just come from Thursday Night mass, and felt overcome with emotion. I don’t write any of this to alienate or “trigger” any of my atheist readers. I told them I have plans to convert to Catholicism.

“Oh you’ve been saying that for two years,” said my stepmother sharply. “I know,” I said, producing a smile to indicate that the arrow was well deserved.

“There were people there older than me, who were baptized tonight,” I said. “I’m what’s called a catechumen. Don’t you love the language, at least?”

Well, I do. “catechumen” sounds to me like a little caterpillar type creature, curled up safe and warm.

My father’s wife of 9 years is a staunch atheist, who knew Ayn Rand. My father, on the other hand, prays for two hours every morning, before rising. Then he “closes” his prayers with a curious backwards walk in the large foyer. I think for him, it’s simply important to give thanks.

My mother, who was Swedish, was of course born Lutheran, but her mother, Ingrid, rather inexplicably, took her two children to Stockholm in the late 1930s and converted them to Catholicism. Then my mother converted to Judaism, in order to marry my father, who descended from Russian Jews–not particularly devout.

The Rabbi, right after my mother was converted, said: “That’s funny, you don’t look Jewish.”

Then everything blew to pieces and there was no longer a family, just war, which I’ve written about here. When I was 9, my mother took me out of public school and placed me in an all girl’s Catholic private school here in New York–The Convent Of The Sacred Heart. I was in heaven. Ironed my white blouse each night, put on my grey uniform dress, pleated skirt, took the bus across the park, changed out of pants or wool stockings in the vestibule in the winter months. I loved all the rules and the Nuns, contrary to many other people’s experiences, were my liberators. They taught me I had a mind, and could use it. They has us performing Shakespeare in Elizabethan English, and for the first time in my life I excelled in school–skipped grades, even did well in math. My brain trauma seemed to disappear, and I no longer froze during tests. I fell into a spiritual reverie and began my conversion process. I loved this figure: Jesus. I felt he would always be on my side.

Then, in the winter of 1976, we went to Sweden, and in a small hotel in the town of Orebro, my mother told us we were not returning to New York. Not for at least 8 years–to avert a custody battle that was very real in my mother’s mind.

Sweden is almost perfectly secular. Atheist, materialist, “socialist,” (then) and there was no way of continuing my Catholic exploration. We moved into a housing complex that had incredibly serious class implications. “Working class,” we were told. But we were also told in no uncertain terms that people with dark hair, immigrants, at the time called “svartskallar,” (black heads) lived where we lived. We were from New York so didn’t really understand the Big Deal. They said it had low status, We said whatever. The apartment was bleak, with cement walls, vinyl floors–built to crush the human spirit, But perfectly modern. The kind of apartment complex that now has “no go zones,” where the police won’t even go.

Soon we began to be indoctrinated by the Communist Party–its youth program, which preyed on our very young minds, and began gender-leveling by sending us girls to work in car parts factories, the boys to learn nursing and other female oriented professions. This communist eruption happened to me, but not my older sister. I was always way more gullible and emotionally impressionable. They taught us The Internationale in Swedish, had us raking leaves, painting red stars on the walls of the Youth Center, reciting the outrages of the proletariat. We learned about Joe Hill and Victor Jara. One word I do still feel a certain nostalgia about from those days is “Solidarity.” Like when I sometimes have to lock Jack in the bathroom for a few moments because he is pushing things off counters, even though I have fed him, Lewis goes and sits outside the bathroom door and won’t budge. It only takes minutes until I feel like such a tyrant, I let him out. “Solidarity” is a wonderful concept and yes, they drummed it into us. But when we were 14, the bearded Socialist Youth leaders we had given our souls to, had us raking enough leaves, picking enough apples, to go on a canoe hike. It was very important that nobody who “could afford it” had an advantage–so we all worked for a set amount of time, until the money was raised, and then we took off. I actually, looking back, don’t understand how we raised money this way but in any case, they made their point.

I think I was 12 or 13 when I once came home having attended a Communist Youth rally, and was late. My sister Bibi had to tell my mother where I was and my mother went rather ballistic. I was in very serious trouble when I came home. My mother called my father in New York, furious, and if I recall, hollering. But this time she was not hollering at him, but rather, about me. “Her life will be ruined Barry! She won’t be able to return to the States!” My mother wanted them to agree to ship me off the live with my very strict grandparents in Fort Lauderdale. I don’t know how I even “heard” this, considering the cobra phone technology of the day, but my father, a Conservative, since Nixon, who ran for the office of Mayor of New York in 1977 (the year before) started laughing uproariously.

This infuriated my mother. “It’s not funny Barry!” she roared. And my father roared back: “You’re calling to tell me Celia is a communist. You can’t say that’s not funny.”

That’s become one of our standard phrases to this day: “You can’t say that’s not funny.”

Let me add: I respect my mother’s concern.

In any case, that canoe hike put a decisive end to my communist dreams. Our leaders forgot the maps in the bus. So we winged it–the part about where to carry the canoes and where to paddle. That was all marked up in the maps, left behind. Somewhere around day two, we were paddling along happily when all of a sudden, we were engulfed in rapids. Then we were holding on to the bottom of the canoes, trying not to drown. No life vests. A man called down to us: “You can’t paddle down there!” This we knew. But how to get out? We eventually made our way to the edges, and started climbing up the muddy incline. It was raining. We all got out, but our provisions had floated off, and all our clothes were soaked. I don’t know how many days it was, but we wandered in the wilderness, without food, and with wet clothes, long enough that we began to hallucinate from hunger. Our leaders, unlike us, had packed their clothes properly, and my distinct memory is that “solidarity” went out the window. Not to demonize them, but my best friend for her first period in the middle of all this, and they were not helpful. I don’t know if this contributed to her being worse off than I was but she got very ill. When we were finally rescued–having found our way out of the wilderness, to a small village, she was grey. She was taken to the hospital, with acute meningitis, and her heart stopped–she died. But they started her heart again, with a shot of adrenaline into her heart, which kills you if you are not technically dead. She was so angry at the doctors who brought her back that she cursed them out. She said it was so wonderful on the other side, that there are no words to describe it. None of the youth leaders visited her in the hospital, or called. The same day as her heart stopped, my mother’s fiance fell down dead with a stroke. He was cooking breakfast–boiling an egg– and we were all, the four of us, supposed to go on a vacation trip that day.

My mother and I went anyway–how we got it together I will never understand. She cried, of course, for weeks, like I never heard anybody cry.

I became an anti-communist, but my friend retained her faith. If I’ve told these stories before, forgive me. I am rarely able to remember what I wrote or said or did. “Classic PTSD,” Dr. Brooks always says. I only know the present moment and can’t connect back very well. Eventually, I traveled to the following countries to study communism for myself: The Soviet Union, East Germany, Czechoslovakia (as it was then called,) Romania, Bulgaria, and Cuba. Right now I am too depleted and exhausted to say any more. I don’t even know why I am trying to explain all this, right now. I don’t think my views “matter,” but I have a compulsion to write things like this, unprompted, maybe to calm my nerves. I can’t bring myself to write about the situation with North Korea, China, and the US. A friend from Japan wrote: “Japan is freaking.”

Well finally somebody is having a reaction that makes sense.

I feel like everything I write is getting more and more stupid, like I am still 14. I can’t explain why I never can remain consistent. Feels I am inside a small cell, and barely speak English anymore, but have to keep talking. I can’t form fancy sentences, or “write.” I am trauma with eyeballs. Everybody is angry. Everybody has always been angry. How can I make people less angry, at least here?

I started this post actually wanting to address my kindergarten sense of Catholicism–went to Mass yesterday, and today, and will go tomorrow, and Sunday. This could become a blog that is simply a diary of a middle aged half Jewish woman trying to become a Catholic, but everybody and their uncle will try to get me to drop it. My friend S. wrote me long texts today saying if I was going to do this I should join a non-denominational Church. Why would I want to do that? That’s the last thing I need–a non-denominational Church. I can’t even stand the words “non-denominational.” Cold and watery. Like everything else. And no, I am not a “Buddhist.” I’m also not from a Buddhist continent.

I want Catholicism. I don’t want to be let off easy either. I wrote a letter to the only editor I ever chained my soul to, at the age of 20, and told him I have quit journalism and am becoming a Catholic. (He’s Catholic.) Here is part of the letter, maybe the most important part:

“I am, at the same time, discovering that my distance from God has caused everything. I need to tell you this, since you are one of the only practicing Catholics I know: I went to mass last night and all of a sudden I was able to feel the sorrow of The Betrayal, and I cried. When they turned the lights off and walked around (I lack all the right terminally but can’t wait to learn) …the Stations, I knew it was real, in a way that is more real than the “truth” I have been caught up in all my life.

I was so affected. I walked to my father’s feeling like a different person, like I was no longer alone, cold and in pain. I know Christ would not mock me or sexually degrade me or feel the need to cut down my mind. (Journalism)

He didn’t hate women! He would never allow a woman to be disrespected.

I have always loved him but didn’t think I was “allowed” to because of the false Jewish/Christian divide. It’s all the same, it’s all one. I don’t have to leave my father or my fragmented judaism to embrace the Cross. Judaism, in fact, does not offer redemption from sin and pain. Not really.

Morals, yes, but healing? My father used to quip, when we could still hold a Seder in his home: “All Jewish holidays are the same story: They tried to kill us, they failed, let’s eat!”

But I am out for stars. My whole life has been being hunted. I believe that Christ can cause us to love ourselves and never be hunted, no matter what. ”

That is my “faith.” I can either continue to bleed to death from political, social wounds, wounds of knowledge seeking, or I can embrace the offering of redemption. Today I learned that Christ was mocked on the cross, by the other two crucified.

Did you know that? It made me think of Andrew Wakefield, Peter Duesberg, Ignaz Semmelweis, Galileo Galilei; It made me think of scientists:

29 Those who passed by hurled insults at him, shaking their heads and saying, “So! You who are going to destroy the temple and build it in three days, 30 come down from the cross and save yourself !” 31 In the same way the chief priests and the teachers of the law mocked him among themselves. “He saved others,” they said, “but he can’t save himself! 32 Let this Messiah, this king of Israel, come down now from the cross, that we may see and believe.” Those crucified with him also heaped insults on him.

Mark 15:29-32

Walking to my father’s, after mass last night, I took a photo of another Church–New York is a very Catholic city, and also, a city of sin and pain. All of America, paralyzed by pain, sin, rage. I’m sick of it.

I don’t want to be around people who don’t think they should atone for a thing. Who have no beauty about them, which is to say, no remorse. When we ask to be forgiven for our sins, we don’t endorse a blood-soaked Patriarchy. We just open up the possibility of reversing the plague of selfishness. Of zombie-dom. We thaw our frozen hearts.

The war never ends, never changes. I believe that Satan is real, and that he works through us, through our wounds, causes us to inflict suffering, in a vain quest to escape the pain.

I did not like who I had become.

So I went to Church.

The Trump war was Satan’s triumph. Like the episode of The Twilight Zone “The Monsters Are Due On Maple Street,” where longtime neighbors, from fear, start accusing one another and the whole community breaks down.

“Totally unbeknownst to his mother, Bently received a staggering 13 vaccinations that day, including two triple doses of DTap, Hepatitis B, a polio shot, three oral rotavirus doses, and a pneumococcal pneumonia vaccine. It was all compressed into three shots and one oral dose. It took the nurses half an hour to prepare all the shots Bently received. The pediatrician told Alisa that her boy perfectly healthy—that he showed above average strength in his stomach and legs.

Five days later, he was dead.
Bently died while sleeping on Alisa’s chest in the middle of the day, five days after receiving those 13 innoculations.
Holding up the photograph, Alisa says, trying to steady her voice, “This is Bently, or… was Bently.”

Then she holds up the silver object:

“And this is Bently now,” she says quietly.

Bently died while sleeping on Alisa’s chest in the middle of the day, five days after receiving those 13 innoculations.

Today marks five years since Bently died from the chemical assault he got on a “routine” doctor’s visit.

The family released balloons for him, along with one for the family cat Pumpkin. The two balloons were died together, and got stuck in a tree. Alisa wrote on Facebook:

“You wanna know what’s ironic.
When we released the balloons we tied them together.
When Pumpkin was little he got stuck in a tree.
The balloon that’s making all the balloons stuck…..is pumpkins balloon <3
I see signs everywhere <3 ”

My heart aches for this little family, this grieving mother, big sister fighting to be cheerful as a child has every right to be.

Please pray for them all, especially this week. Please don’t be part of the “looking away,” crowd.

You know why these mothers do not sue? Because it takes everything they have just to survive, just to keep going.

There is a donation page linked to the article.

Donald Trump–the walking wounded and the walking aware, many, voted for you because of a faith that you would DO something. You sure did something when your daughter showed you images of 67 children who were victims of a chemical attack in Syria. [I hold the position that the real perpetrators are not revealed.]

Please do something.

America will never be “great again,” until we cherish our children enough to not sacrifice them in the name of profit and dogma.

I had not listened to this before. I am extremely grateful he left behind so many spoken word pieces, like this one, through which he lives on.

The way Liam channelled the whole “story,” and everybody in it, and all the angles of the trap, all the countless attacks, and all the ways in which they have blocked all the exits–was powerful and original.

What is evil?

I like what Andre Tarkovsky wrote, in “The Sacrifice:”

“Evil is everything that is not necessary.”

It may at first sound laconic but it is actually a perfect definition of evil.

An Irish animal rescue organization called Dogs Aid posted this statement on FB:

“We are deeply saddened to learn that one of our dogs was killed in the terrorist attack in Stockholm. Iggy found his beautiful home in Sweden in 2012. R.I.P. beautiful, special boy.”

I saw his photo and these words, written by a Swedish man, in a Facebook group, and I broke down crying.

“Rest in peace Iggy! You had not done anything wrong. You were going on on a walk like usual. And you were probably as happy as you ever were when the leash was lifted down. But this walk would be your last. At least in this world! Hope you are running over the green fields over there in dog heaven right now, and that everything is completely awesome!”

People are flooding Iggy’s memorial site with dog biscuits, cards, flowers, and candles.

Four people died in the truck bomb attack last week in Stockholm, among them an 11 year old girl who I believe was deaf and probably did not hear the truck approaching. The apprehended suspect’s name is Rakhmat Akilov, and I am having trouble keeping up with the details of the developing story. I believe one of the people killed was a Belgian mother of small children, another a U.K. man, and father, and a third, a beggar, an elderly woman, possibly from Romania.

Sergel’s Torg, a square in Stockholm, was filled with thousands of people honoring the victims, and trying to represent the urge to heal Sweden, without incurring the sin they most dread, and are most often accused of, when they protest terrorism’s encroachment in Sweden, namely racism.

Iggy has become a place where the grief can pour forth. I myself did not cry before, but was able to, somehow, when I saw his photo. There is a photo of the 11 year old girl (after the blast) circulating that people are understandably fighting very hard to banish from the web, and discussion groups.

I was not able to find information about Iggy’s owners, but they have asked for privacy.

Praying for Sweden to find her way back to peace, and become a standard bearer once again, for the rest of the world.

Liam Scheff has passed away, after a long battle with extreme nerve damage (tinnitus)–described here,leaving his many fans, readers, followers, and friends bereft. He’d been mourning the loss of the love of his life, Helen, for many years, who died suddenly in 2010.

I had, like many, recent exchanges with Liam, in which death was openly discussed, and I was fairly good about refraining from imposing useless or banal advice on my suffering friend. Nothing makes people feel more lonely than the feeling that the person they are addressing can’t quite hear what they are saying. Including when they are saying they are ready to die, because living is too excruciatingly painful. (Not psychically–physically, in this case.)

Liam addressed that in his farewell letter, linked above, so I don’t have to run the risk of a ham-fisted or cloying effort to represent it.

If I were to be dead, I would want somebody to bring up my best work.

Liam was both one of the most penetrating, fearless, investigative reporters of our time and one of the funniest YouTube satirists of fake science (I’ll post some of these later.)

He broke a story that was bigger, darker, more devastating, I think, than anything any of us ever broke (proved) before or since, on HIV/AIDS. It came to be known as “Guinea Pig Kids.”

I am a little unclear on whether it was 2002 or 2003 that Christine Maggiore first connected me with Liam Scheff, but when she did, it was because she had found out about a story that Liam then went after like a Tomahawk Missile–emerging with smoking gun evidence that got parlayed into several articles, got picked up by other reporters, and even became a BBC documentary.

Christine deserves the credit for making initial contact with the story, and Liam did the absolutely unparalleled penetrative, undercover investigative reporting that blew it wide open, locally, (here in New York City, nationally, and internationally.

Note: I have problems with this video. The production, especially the music is heavy-handed. Rather like…propaganda music. But it opens some very important cans of worms.

Who pays for RT? To what end? See what I mean?

There is no such thing as non-propaganda anymore, unless you saw it with your own eyes. And even then, if you don’t shoot video, you will get the facts all wrong when you re-tell what you saw 8 minutes later.

[Editor’s Note: I am a contributor to The Indicter, wrote this article for the periodical, know, and trust–utterly– Professor Marcello de Noli who I met while living in Sweden recently. Such trust is intuitive, and rare. I will tell you more about this very interesting man, and this group, Swedish Doctors For Human Rights, in future posts. CF]

Thanks to Sharon Warner for alerting me to the Veterans Today article.

[Note: I will be publishing select comments and submissions from Truth Barrier friends, not as reflections of myself but as reflections of you all, along with other voices on the Internet etc. This first one, by John Powell, was submitted as a comment. CF]

Exactly as I predicted, in an analysis posted on Facebook a few weeks ago.

It’s exactly what Putin and the Chinese leadership wanted, for initiating the consummation of their collaborative project of achieving global dominance by baiting “the West” into World War III (a war which, as all reputable military analysts concur, will be easily won by “the East”).

Russia is the only military force on the planet, which has manuveurable orbiting weapons in space, closely trailing America’s satellites which are vital for U.S. offensive targeting and for defensive detection of incoming weaponry.

Those Russian orbiting drones are ready at any moment, to fire satellite-killing shots at those space-based U.S. assets, thereby rendering American defensive targeting and mission-critical communications completely useless.

The American military itself has admitted its helplessness in the face of that vulnerability.

The convergence of “Eastern” interests and “Eastern” imperial imperatives has arrived at its apex of existential imminence. Its post-Nixon/post-Yeltsin strategy of seduction has successfully provided it with the time to prepare for the grand betrayal of the trust granted to it by those in “the West” who were seduced.

Trump is the man whom that “Eastern” convergence wanted in charge of the attempt to “deal” with its trap.

Exactly as that convergence planned, Trump has grabbed the bait.

If not now, that trap will eventually be SUCCESSFULLY sprung, because “the East” IS superior in weaponry, superior in the will to deceive, and superior in sophistication of the will to conquer human destiny’s bumbling, arrogant, vainglorious western overlords of Eden.

“What a piece of work is Man.” Bullshit. To hell with them all.

I pledge allegiance only to the children, and to the republic for which they stand.

I don’t trust Donald Trump one iota, but instead of being engineered to “hate” him from the outset, I took my time. During this suspended space, many people I wrongly thought were friends went nuts, became abusive, caustic, morally superior and even abandoned me altogether.
I am NOW opposed to Donald Trump, due the Syria threats AND his vile statement that Bill O’Reilly “did nothing wrong.”
Screw him. AND good riddance to all the people I used to think were friends in the sense they would allow me time to weigh situations and draw my own conclusions.
Thank you Donald Trump, for that, at least. You make it easy to detect fanatics in one’s life.

Anybody who was not your friend when you were undergoing some understandable political disorientation is what is known in clinical terms as a “traumatizing narcissist.” These are people who need you to be just like them.

This whole Trump thing really lit that up and made it easy to answer Pete Townshend’s question, how many friends have I really got?

In reply to Tom DiFerdinando:
“Tom, I resonate powerfully with your statement, “It is next to impossible to overcome the emotional plague alone, because the emotional plague is a social sickness, not an individual one.” Just last night my adult son and I were exploring the source of our deep perpetual sadness, and after listening to a painfully shocking expose of the extent of pedophilia in high places of power, we realized that we cannot be whole while living in such an atmosphere, even when not knowing about it, or not knowing the particulars. The field of human consciousness is ill, infected with the despair, pain and fear of those who are suffering.
This in turn impacts our own emotional experience. We are part of a whole, and the whole is under assault.”

A small white plastic bag is stuck on a tree branch outside my window, near the projects. Every day I think it will have blown away but it never has. Will somebody climb up there and remove it eventually?

The trouble is: Everything turns out to be false, including the way we promised we felt about each other.

I keep thinking I need to tell the world that the media is made up of ghastly megalomaniacs but nobody would believe me.

6:19 am. Lying awake I began hallucinating something about wolves and tried to remember, so I could describe it. My mind has spun out of orbit from trying to hold out hope.

Media is a disease and it can’t be cured. If men go in there as men, they become monsters. If women go in there, they live to regret it.

Unless you are Rachel Maddow–don’t go in there and try to turn the big wheel of rage and conviction. Not as a woman.

Knowing I can’t know anything, or generate knowledge, I listen to the Oracles, the men in media, explaining to the other men in media, what is going on now in terms of catastrophe and perpetual emergency.

Who mints the Oracles? Who designates their power over our perspectives? There are some women on TV but they are without sleeves, always. I wonder if they aren’t cold, and why they have to show their arms. It keeps bothering me. Like it’s some kind of skin-tax, before they are allowed to talk.

“This reaction of my closest friends and co-workers to the situation here is exactly the same that has harassed the human race for as much as we can say, 8.000 or 10.000 years, since patriarchy has ruled its destinies and since natural love was extinguished in the newborn infants. I shall not go into that. It is all written up in my publications. Whoever knows these publications also knows what that means. The discovery of the life energy would have been accomplished long ago, had this “I don’t want it, I fear it, I loathe it, I’ll kill it, I’ll flatten it out, I won’t let it exist- live, or exist”. If that had not been in their structures, not in their desires, not in their positive conscious wishes. They’re all descent and good people. No, it is in the structure. It is somehow in their tissues, in their blood. They cannot tolerate anything that has to do with orgone energy, or life energy, or what they call God, or what is their deepest longing for love fulfillment. They cannot tolerate it and they fear it. They fear it by way of structure. Their tissues, their blood cannot stretch out, cannot take it, evades it – avoids it and loathes it.

I do not say all this to depreciate their efforts, their honor, their loves, their lives. I say it because it is true, because it turns up in every single move, in every single word, in every single opinion, in every single paper, in every single thing they did to a- to whatever ever had to do with discovery – the discovery of genitality, life, love, such people as Laurence/Lawrence, or such philosophies as Giordano Bruno’s or such great lives as Jesus Christ, and so forth, and so forth. It is a sad, lonely chapter of the human race.

I don’t feel that I am obligated to solve this riddle, to do anything about it. I happened to discover the life energy. I happened to induce the ORANUR experiment. I know what it means for the future development of medicine and biology, philosophy and natural science and in this awareness I am completely alone.

There is no soul far and wide to talk to, to give one’s feelings – to let one’s feelings go freely, to speak like – as friends speak to each other.
This is all.”

Editor’s Note: I re-post here an outtake from a comment by John Powell, who has been with us for many years at The Truth Barrier, and certainly knows my “armor” and rough sides, which we always manage to overcome. The angry comments (names un-named) have affected my energy and will, to continue the website, and on one occasion earlier this winter, I pulled it, thinking that was the only option I had, against daily attacks. This is a “labor of love,” and not a for profit website. I don’t think arguments are “attacks,” or factual corrections. Attacks makes themselves felt as attacks; They sting and hurt, as they are intended to.

In my life going forward, all I know is, I no longer want to “sign up” for being abused and I never want to be in such a defensive position that I strike out at another person disrespectfully either. Therefore I have said to all haters of myself and my writings: I accept your feelings, but not round after round after round. If I “block” such persons, I stand accused of a terrible censoriousness, as if I am trying to create or project perfect appreciation for all I state. Not so. Anybody who is made miserable here, should consider not reading this site anymore. Surely that’s reasonable.

I am a PERSON. I have tried to repair the damage done by whatever it was I contributed to this angry knot, but at a certain point I can’t continue to explain and apologize, and yes, it is strictly against the rule to publish private correspondences without both parties’ permission.

Here’s part of what John Powell wrote. I appreciate it and I publish it in hopes we can re-boot, start over, and stop all the fighting, before the website is brought down by ill-will.

CF

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I encourage you to embark on the quest for understanding THE FACT that peaceful, calm, well-reasoned philosophical dialectic between two or more people who have differing beliefs and perspectives IS NOT the same as throwing grossly-insensitive, taunting, condescending, malicious hand grenades of personalized ridicule and mockery.

6.) Your persistent and unsuccessful prodding of Ms. Farber, with sometimes snide and snotty pomposity, to get her to publish here the contents of private correspondence, brings to mind something she stated during one of her recent more-than-gracious attempts at accommodating what characterize as a case for receiving justice.

During that recent attempt at accommodation, she stated as her sworn and sacred duty to her conscience, that she would never violate her personal standard of maintaining the confidentiality of her private correspondence.

You continue prodding her, with sometimes snide and snotty pomposity, to compel and/or coerce her into submitting to something to which she has clearly answered “No”.

I encourage you to embark on the quest for understanding THE FACT that “No” means “No”.

I have stopped eating, or feeling hunger. I have a brain signal saying: “Go get some food,” but I don’t feel hunger. 3 days now. Yesterday I made some rice and added frozen peas and butter. I ate about 4 fork fulls. “Add some salt,” I said to myself. I did. But it didn’t feel like eating, and it didn’t seem like food.

The last time this happened I was 6.

Something very traumatic happened yesterday. Another, today.

Oddly: The previous few months, especially the last few weeks, were characterized by a strange wolf-like hunger. I ate and ate and still felt I was starving. My weight, since I returned from Sweden–10 lbs higher than my “normal” since age 21.

I have not been somebody who ever had to think about losing weight, but sometimes I had to think about gaining some. People hate skinny people and people hate overweight people. I think people also hate average weight people, as well as slightly pudgy people.

I am also not breathing properly.

I catch myself and I think:

“Breathe, for Christ’s sake.”

Then I draw one or two deep breaths.

People are always telling me to breathe.

Not wanting to eat, or breathe, is connected to rage about what has been taken away.

The last time I stopped eating, they had taken my mother.

This time, they’ve taken history. And history includes that is happening now, and is about to happen. In other words, everything that “happens–”

[BREAKING DEVELOPMENT: 10:22 AM: THEY HAVE NOW BEEN FIRED.They will not get their equipment back.]

A Swedish singing duo– Claes Mård and Nayana Gulstad–filmed a battle between drug gangs [of unknown origin] on March 3, 2017, in the Swedish town of Hallsberg. The gangs were throwing rocks, brandishing weapons, and attacking police cars. Mård’s 17 year old son was barricaded inside his high school at the time, along with other students, and the two musicians were circling in a car to see if they could evacuate him. They live-streamed the film on Facebook to warn others who may be in the area. Because they said a few mildly negative words about the criminals, their lives have been turned upside down.

They were called up, and told they could expect to be fired from their job, singing favorite tunes at retirement homes in central Sweden. Their instruments and PA were seized, and they were told to write a letter of denial/denunciation, apologizing for shooting this film, and using the negative words. [I have watched the film, speak Swedish, and heard only mildly critical language. see transcript.]

They were–most shockingly–told to recuse themselves on grounds of being “mentally incapacitated,” because one of them, Mård, has ADHD and mild autism, and the other, Gulstad, has has Aspergers. Swedish authorities demanded they put in writing that their mental “handicaps” caused them to not know what was happening, and to act badly, and allow themselves to be manipulated by “far right” media. They have refused to do so. Truth Barrier editor Celia Farber interviewed the besieged duo on March 21, by phone, from the US.

On March 22, (today) they will be called to a meeting and told to sign a new letter, and possibly lose their jobs. The Truth Barrier will follow up with them to find out what happened at the meeting.

NG: We work at a [state affiliated organization] called ABF where we go out and play music, favorite songs, which older people want to hear. We play music from the 11th century to the present. Every week we go around to different retirement homes in Örebro lan. [Note: By sheer coincidence, this is where CF grew up. It is also where whistleblower cop Peter Springare is from.]

CF: What is ABF?

NG: ABF is “arbetarna’s bildings forbund” [“Workers Educational Association”] an old…organization with access to education, teaching people their union rights, that kind of thing.

CF: Is this run by the Social Democrats?

NG: According to some bosses there, you can’t be part of it unless you are a social democrat, but last Monday the top boss said they are politically neutral.

CF: What is the name of your musical duo?

NG: We are called “Sound of Scandinavia.” We play music that our elderly and frail, or people with health struggles, appreciate.

CF: When did your troubles begin?

NG: March 3, a few weeks ago, we happened to record an event where criminal individuals threw rocks and caused a riot at our local high school here in Hallsberg. We filmed this event. I filmed and Claes drove the car. We were talking while we were filming and we wound up saying things that were a slight bit…well put downs, but we didn’t mean it that way. Both of us stand by the film 100% and we are truly sorry if we have hurt anybody’s feelings…anybody of foreign origins. We didn’t mean to do that.

CM: It’s like this. I have lived in the Dominican Republic for almost 20 years. There it’s like, of you say something like “Blatte” to somebody, it’s not degrading. I have a child from the Dominical Republic and my wife is Arabic. So I have been a “Blatte pappa” and still am.

CF: I don’t know the word “Blatte…”

NG: It’s a word…you have some words you may use…words like…well it’s a downer word

Claes: But it’s not a strong word.

CF: B l a f f e? [Did not hear due to poor connection.]

NG: No, B L AT T E. We all say it, like we’re joking around. But publically and official media you haver to sayare not to use this word in Sweden. You can’t say “foreigner” in Sweden you can only say “immigrant.”

CF: This is a law?

NG: It’s not a law but you’re supposed to be socially aware enough to not say that. For example you say “chocolate ball,” not “negro ball.” [This is a reference to an iconic Swedish confection that was disastrously named in the 60s and re-named in the 90s.]

CF: Can we talk about the event you filmed? Are you able to discuss it?

NG: Yes, we can.

NG: We filmed this event and put it put on Facetime. It was live so people reacted very powerfully. In Sweden it’s not the immigrants per se but integration problems that we have in Sweden. It’s easy to blame the immigrants but it’s not their fault. It’s pur politicans who don’t take responsibility.

CF: What kind of event was it you filmed? [Film clip below.]

NG: It was riots with big rocks, weapons. It’s like the kind of stuff you see in the movies. You hear like…about Stockholm, Goteborg, Malmo, this was totally surreal, that it would happen in our little town, in Hallsberg.

CM: They were throwing rocks at the police and they even hit one of the police cars with something. The police managed to get hold of them after a while. My son was locked in at the school because they locked the doors. We were circling the school to evacuate him.

NG: Then we went round and filmed what happened.

CG: And this went out on FB live stream?

NG: Yes.

CF: How many people saw that?

NG: About half a million. It went out on Peter Springare’s FB page and other social media.

CF: Had you been alerted to come to the school?

NG: No, we just happened to be driving past…

CF: How did you know there was trouble?

NG: We simply drove past and saw as it was happening.

CF: How old is your son?

CM: He’s 17.

CF: Were you worried for his safety?

CM: I was accustomed to riots from the years we lived in Santo Domingo, there were often riots. I did think something could happen…

NG: With a mass school shootoing or something…

CF: What happened next?

NG: People had a huge reaction, became “skogs tokiga” (forest crazy) and then they called from ABF and said this film could cost us our jobs.

CF: This was on the phone?

NG: Yes, they said politicans had contacted ABF and asked how we could be working for them.

CM: 99% of those who have contacted us have been supportive of us. This has become like an opening shot in Sweden, the start of something…Now people are finally daring to speak the truth about what is happening here. The lid has been pressed down tight previously. We have used our names openly and we have therefore been threatened and my car has been totally smashed up,

CF: Your car has been vandalized?

CM: Yes.

NG: They told us we had to write our own denunciation, a letter denouncing ourselves. We were told we had to apologize for this bad behavior, which we had already done long ago, for this film, and we also had to come out in public and declare our political “colors.” And we were also to state that we were mentally handicapped and that we don’t understand things very well. That we had been tricked by mass media.

CF: What do you mean, mentally handicapped?

NG: I have Asbergers and Claes have ADHD and [inaudible] autism.

NG: We have never had a complaint about our work,. Everybody says we are the best they have ever had. It’s just the police who think this film is so….they don’t like the film but there have never been complaints about our work.

CF: How long was it between the time you filmed the incident and you got this phone call?

NG: About two hours.

CM: The news spread fast all over Sweden.

CF: This is so shocking. It sounds like GDR.

NG: Tomorrow we have meeting number two.

CF: I hope you will record it.

NG: They have already recorded us but they didn’t tell us.

CF: Insist on recording it. Seriously.

NG: They don’t want us to, they have already told us what to write in the letter and tomorrow they will demand it, they will be very strict.

CF: But you are free people in a democracy.

NG: We aren’t, in Sweden, not really.

CM: Not in Sweden. I can say this, I lived 20 years in the Dominican Republic, in Miami, in Colombia, I have worked professionally with music and so has Nayana. We’re not idiots. We have degrees, we have all kinds of things. But they want us to come out and say we are mentally handicapped and because of that we have been bad, shot this film…

NG: I am actually the first female winner of “Big Brother,” in the whole world.

CF: This is very shocking to me as an American, that they have the nerve to say you are mentally handicapped…

NG: I have Asbergers but I am not ashamed of it. We felt very degraded. You know what they did last week? We have worked extra gigs to raise money for our musical equipment. Last week they came to get our gear so we can’t work. We had other equipment so we used that instead..

CF: So they have stolen your instruments.

NG: Yes.

CF: Do you have a lawyer?

NG: To be honest, we can’t afford that right now.

CF: You need a lawyer. They have confiscated your gear and they’re trying to eliminate your livelihood. I speak as somebody who that happened to. Don’t let that happen. This is a modern version of communist tyranny.

CM: That’s exactly what it is. I might be exaggerating here but I think we are now getting to the point where some Swedes will have to leave this country. The same way Swedes emigrated to the US to get away from the Church’s persecutions.

NG: Now it’s the politicians who are persecuting us. And we are culture workers, we are not supposed to be quiet. We are supposed to critique society. We are supposed to be a bridge between normal people and those who make the decisions. If culture workers can’t express themselves here…then what happens?

CF: Has Nerikes Allehanda [regional newspaper] written about this?

NG: The only thing they wrote about was about protests against us in the Church, they’re very angry, they wouldn’t look at us in Church, I sat up front…it was so degrading, they wouldn’t even look at me. It felt like a witch burning, like they were going to set fire to me. I believe in God. I want to say though, that our local police did a fantastic job. They locked the schools, they protected the children.

CF: This outbreak of violence was it to do with drug dealers and rival gangs, selling drugs?

NG: Yes. Narcotics, weapons, different gang affiliations.

CF: Why do you two think it is SO important for the Swedish state and media to repress this story? What is this really all about?

CM: I think it’s like this: In Sweden, our main industry is weapons which we sell to other countries. When people who are fleeing somewhere come here, we earn money. Not we ordinary Swedes, but our politicians.

CF: How do they earn money on the migrants, if that is the right word? Immigrants. How does Sweden earn money on them?

CM: Sweden gets money from EU and other countries to receive refugees. I call this the “humans trade.” You earn money, but in a very short sighted way.

CF: EU want the refugees to come to Sweden. But why does EU want them to come to Sweden?

NG: At the bottom of it all, these people really do need help. When the war broke out in Syria…there are so many people in crisis who want to come to Sweden. We are a good country. We are also a social experiment, since the 1970s. We want to be able to say that we are better than others, that we have high morals and we help people. But we don’t have the possibility to do that, really.

CF: Lets’ go back to the incident. Tell me more about what happened.

NG: They threw rocks at the police, these youth, they had weapons, it was a real panic, chaos.

CF: Nayana when you say weapons what do you mean?

NG: They had steel pipes, they had [inaudible.] We didn’t film anybody’s faces. We were careful not to film their faces.

CF: What was the worst thing you said? This word “Blatte?” That word you are not supposed to say…

NG: In Sweden we say “fy fy fy,” (shame, shame, shame) to those words. If you are a good Swede you don’t use words like that.

CM: But it’s not a very harsh word. It really isn’t.

NG: It’s a word you don’t say. Not publicly. You can say it in your kitchen, but you don’t say it in public.

CF: They have not told you to take the film down?

NG: It has been clicked on so many times it’s too late.

NG:We have a perfectly ghastly media here in Sweden. Demanding that every last person think a certain way…They are awful. Just awful.

The media here are constantly attacking Trump. Constantly. I don’t know. I think he seems like he is pretty tough and plain spoken. Media in Sweden is like the Church was in the 1600s.

CF: Fascinating. And I noticed when I lived there recently, briefly, that you hardly have any alternative media. Except News Voice and a few others. I would suggest you read Torbjorn Sassersson’s Newsvoice, if you don’t already.

OK so, about this meeting…you wrote a letter, tell me about that.

NG: I wrote a denial/ denunciation letter but they did not accept it. I wrote that I apologized for speaking in a derogatory way, that we do not believe that the problems we have here in Sweden are the immigrants’ fault, that it is a problem of integration, a political problem. I explained that we are socially liberal. That we believe in democracy, equality…that absolutely nobody should ever be put down but that you must say something when something is wrong.

CF: Could I possibly get a copy of that letter?

NG: Yes, you can. I’ll send it to you.

CF: Thank you. Why didn’t they accept that letter?

NG: They want us to be more exacting what we mean by socially liberal, what that is. I believe in freedom, I believe everybody should be free to be who they are. But that was not enough for them. And then like I said they want us to invoke our mental functioning, apologize, say that we did not understand what we were doing, and that we were exploited by right wing extremist media, who were using the situation politically. We are having an election soon in Sweden.

I am a liberal. By that I mean I believe in laying out the facts and the truth about things.

CF: Claes, did you also have to write a letter or was it one letter for the two of you?

NG: I wrote it for both of us.

CM: My position is, we shot some video, because we happened to be there at the time these events were happening. We have not mismanaged our jobs, at all. We don’t really have anything to apologize for, in fact. Apart from my use of this word. “Immigrants.”

NG: You’re not allowed to say that in Sweden, you have to say “immigrants.”

CF: You can say “immigrants,” but not “foreigners?” To my Swedish-American ear, I don’t hear a big difference, but OK…Did you write a second letter when they rejected the first one?

NG: No, we have this meeting instead, tomorrow at 2 pm. They are formulating a letter that they will demand we sign but we don’t plan to approve it.

CF: The event was the third of March? When did they take your gear?

NG: This past Thursday, at 9 am. They took all our instruments.

CM: Our boss has a whole garage at home with a PA system…but he came and collected ours.

CF: Incredible. Do you feel fear over the possibility of not being able to support yourselves?

CM: There is a great risk that we will be fired tomorrow.

NG: Yes.

CF: Please record it. Please.

NG: I plan to use the fact that as they have said we have mental incapacity. So we need to know what we have said.

CF: This is important. Otherwise they will do what they will, with your reputations, livelihoods, they can turn it into anything they want. You can even record them saying you can’t record it. In such case, it’s an outright fascist society.

CM: That’s true. I have lived in South America. In countries with fascism. This is worse.

CF: In what way is it worse, in your estimate? I agree.

CM: When I lived in The Dominican Republic, for instance, I was never checked by the authorities. My opinions…nobody was checking that kind of thing. Here they demand to know everything!

CF: Have you been in contact with Peter Springare?

NG: He has contacted us and said he thinks this is ghastly. He has information about these criminals.

CF: It seems to me the missing piece is drugs, gangs. Rival gangs. A friend told me this when I was home in Orebro. She said it kind of quietly. “It’s all about drugs. That’s why they riot and set fires and all the rest. So the cops don’t come in and interrupt their drug trade.”

CM: That’s true. It’s worse than anything I saw in the Carribean.

CF: I noticed when I lived in Sweden recently that people have truly changed. Nobody can talk, nobody wants you to bring anything up, it’s very strange. My friends have been attacking me on FB like I am a criminal for bringing these things up. I am an American. At the end of the day, I don’t care, I can leave. But it must feel very crushing to Swedes to be betrayed like this, that Swedes’ feelings mean nothing, immigrants feelings mean everything.

NG: We are a social experiment. We are to be brought up, shaped, engineered, it’s in our whole education, media.

CM: We don’t need so many jails and things like that because here you can control people anyway [inaudible.] Like me, they can fire me, tomorrow. They can eliminate some social allowance or other. The whole society is built on this system that those citizens who don’t do what the politicians want, they will be punished in some way.

CF: What has the response been among your friends?

NG: Many think it’s a good thing but they would never dare say it themselves. They think we’re brave. They call us whistleblowers. Like Peter Springare. We’re really just simple culture workers, going around trying to play good music for our elderly. We are not trying to be political.

CF: Be prepared that your story can become big internationally. Sweden does not get how bad this publicity is for Sweden, it’s like black PR. In the international community. People are appalled. “What is going ON over there?”

NG: I love my country. I do. But we have to change things. The educational system, the health care system.

[Break]

In Turkey, all their surveillance is bought from Sweden.

CF: You are spied on, then, just like us?

NG: Yes we are. Same as in America, NSA and everything.

CF: Right. Do they check you on FB and everything.

NG: Every Swede on Facebook knows they are being surveilled by Swedish Secret Service. I have nothing to hide. I hope they go after these terror groups…

CF: But they are wasting a lot of time and resources on hunting down Swedes who say the wrong words. When they have grave problems to deal with. It’s like a psychosis.

NG: I think it’s like this—we are close to an election, and Swedish politicians are worried because SD [“Far right” party, pushing immigration reform] has 20% now. And they are entering an alliance with the Moderate party. Next year we don’t know what Sweden will look like.

CF: What is the truth about women, girls, sexual molestation, rape…? How bad is it?

NG: We have always had public bathhouses in Sweden. Now they want to segregate women and men, so these men can’t make sexual attacks on women.

CM: What they have done here in Sweden is, they have caved in to these extremist groups who want to change society.

NG: The worst part is…for 100 years women have fought for equal rights here. Same salary, same everything, It’s all wiped out, not important anymore.

CF: Nobody cares about women’s rights…?

NG: When a Swedish man commits a sexual crime against a woman the newspapers say: “Swedish man” did this or that. When it is an immigrant they just say, “ a man…”

NG: We can’t even let our girls go to concerts anymore, they get raped and molested. Guys come in packs and molest and rape the girls.

CF: Continue as you are doing, don’t cave in to the shame. You have the world behind you, the civilized world.

CM: Maybe we can play for Donald Trump some day, you never know.

CF: You never know.

Are you aware Sweden is deporting 80,000 people in the next 3 years?

CM: I don’t think they will get hold of them.

CF: Why isn’t that racist?

NG: It’s authorities who aren’t synchronized. They have no integration politics. Sweden needs families with children. I don’t understand why we have to receive all these men. We should go to the war zones like we did in WW2 with the “pink buses” from the Red Cross and pick up women and children. Why all these men? During WW2 the king went to collect Jewish children, why can’t they go to Syria and collect these poor children, and their mothers. Why can’t they do that?

CF: We are missing a piece. Something we don’t know. They’re up to something, the globalists.

Last question, for now: I was wondering, how does it feel? How did this attack make you feel inside? Claes, I’ll start with you.

CM: I’m devastated over these developments. My son is born in the Dominican Republic and he went there to visit family over Christmas. He came home and he was shocked. He said, “Dad, we had it better in The Dominican Republic.” This country has gone backwards. I’m deeply worried about the future here. We have to have the freedom to say what we think. You don’t have to agree with everybody. But we have to allow each person the right to express themselves.

CF: Sweden is almost no longer a democracy at all. It’s like a soft totalitarian system.

CM: I might be unemployed tomorrow, because I shot video of this event. I have not even expressed a political position, I just happened to be there when this riot happened.

CF: Classic totalitarian. Punish all witnesses.

CF: How about you Nayana?

NG: I love Sweden, period. We have to develop our democracy BY inviting everybody into the conversation. It’s when you silence people that things become dangerous.

CF: They count on shame—that you will be ashamed, be emotionally brainwashed.

NG: We won’t be.

CF: Everything they are doing is backfiring.

CM: My thinking is this: If I lose my job tomorrow due to this, I want the whole world to know.

CF: We will see to it. You have allies. You’re dissidents now. Like in any totalitarian regime—you are dissidents.

NG: I may be brave but I am also worried. That doesn’t mean I will stop. They can kill me if they want. I believe every person’s voice should be heard.

CF: Keep people who don’t get what you are about at a distance. I say this from experience. And keep a record of everything. Everything.

“What society had done to me – made me completely powerless – it has also done to you. And just the way it had made me feel like a single lonely nutcase, it made you feel like you were the only one. I most sincerely believe that the real reason for the success of this blog, its global community, its vibrant discussions and the amazing outpouring of kindness towards me is in the following simple fact: I inadvertently made it possible for many thousands of people to realize they they were not alone, not crazy, not wrong but that quite literally “we are everywhere”!”

I find his words to reflect my inexpressible experience, in an organized way I can’t achieve. I have too much grief dust, sheer discomfort, and I enter dream states all day long. How do you escape the cruelty and your own rage, which sometimes starts to create cruelty? What is the prayer of words, what is the idea? Is it time to let go of all these truth battles, when it only makes people leave you?

This is the short history of what happened to the film “Positive Hell” which Truth Barrier readers will have heard about before, in 2016. The film was successfully screened in Queens last weekend and will be screened again today in Harlem, where I will join film maker Joan Shenton in a Q&A afterwards.

“The surest, and often the only, way by which a crowd can preserve itself lies in the existence of a second crowd to which it is related. Whether the two crowds confront each other as rivals in a game, or as a serious threat to each other, the sight, or simply the powerful image of the second crowd, prevents the disintegration of the first.”

Crowds and Power, Elias Canetti

I just got off the phone with somebody I have known most of my life, who I love and admire, who actually, unlike the rest of us, knows Mr. Trump and has had fairly close dealings with him.

Because I am compulsively honest*–not in a Girl Scout sense but in a keeping-things-unresolved-makes-me-feel-grimy sense–I wanted to jump right on here and share it. Not the details–just the fact that my heart is registering something uncomfortable. I am taking stock, checking myself for denial.

This person said (not en original thought but nevertheless) that Mr. Trump is a megalomaniac. That was one thing. What bothered me more were some things he said about how he treated women, in this person’s presence. (And the speaker is not known for his lack of enthusiasm for the opposite sex.) Insensitivity, grandstanding, social climbing, boorishness, usury, only caring about himself. Being disrespectful to his wife. Boasting about sexual conquests. Those kinds of things.

The thing about this person is we respect each other deeply and have worked together in intellectual warfare trenches that forged a trust that is impossible to describe.

So I listened. Then I listened some more. I picked up my bruised self and sat it into a chair. What am I missing?

(These days I’m frankly thrilled if somebody at least is not a pedophile.)

I have always tried, since this hell-storm began, to maintain a middle position: That I oppose Trump hatred, that it is destructive and irrational and downright terrifying. I have not loved a President since Jimmy Carter, who I was spiritually in love with, as a child. I was Jimmy Carter for Halloween when I was 8.

But my confession is this: I resist hating Trump, because I hate what Trump hatred has done to us all. And there’s something else. It reminds me of my childhood, which was not at all a happy place.

In childhood, I was forced to hate a man. I was given no peace until my squeaky little hatred came out sounding convincing. He was bad, bad, bad. He had no redemptive qualities. In fact, he was trying to kill me! If I didn’t see how bad he was, I was bad. And I was punished, by the removal of love, safety, and self-regard.

That man was my father.

And my father, you see, was not bad. He was, and is, a very loving person, who was unable to play the role of either husband or father in such a way that we could avoid the cancer of hate overtaking our small family. I understand as well–trust me I do–my poor mother. And my love for her was paramount and visceral. I learned to say and do anything at all, to stop her from being angry.

And my most dreadful secret was that I loved my father

This was unacceptable, and I was a treacherous sinner.

And now I can’t even keep typing because my eyes are filled with tears. I am thoroughly emotionally exhausted by all of this warfare. Aren’t you? I have no idea which way to turn. I am so tired of being flogged, I’m almost ready to say anything, write anything, to make it stop. [No, I do not think Donald Trump is my father, but I did find it hilarious, and rich, when conservative, gay, Jewish, Greek, British enfant-terrible Milo Yiannopoulos coined him “Daddy.”]

I can hate alright. I hate systems: I hate communism, fascism, globalism, political correctness. I hate everything that dehumanizes us and weaponizes our interactions, poisons our language, mocks our hopes.

And yes, I “hate” institutionalized Trump hatred. The self-entitled, reflexive violence of it.

Last night I was verbally assaulted on the street outside my father’s apartment, by a Hillary supporter I used to know. In fact, knew since birth. Upon seeing me emerge from a taxi carrying a chicken I had baked for my father, she screamed at the top of her lungs: “YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF!!!”

I didn’t drop the chicken. I kept my bearings. I screamed right back at her, and on shaking legs, went into the building. Because I am still trying to show my love for my father, who I was never allowed to love as a child–and this is a very primordial need.

There it is again: Shame.

There it is again.

It follows me. It follows us all. Shame for being insufficiently on board with hatred, in the name of “liberalism” this time. Political correctness. I’m not even allowed to hate the surveillance and entrapment that permits us all to know what he said on that bus 12 years ago.

We live in a time of acid hatred, as the primary medium of thinking ourselves “good.”

Last night I got a poignant email from a friend who is one of the most intelligent, ethical, brilliant people I know. He’s a composer. He’s not on the left, no. Neither am I. We share secrets and unburden our souls, sometimes. He wrote this:

“There are a bunch of really, really smart people out there who voted for Trump—in the belief they were cutting the 100% odds we would go down the tubes (with Hillary) in half. Unfortunately, the unalloyed joy of watching the HRC pods (as you call them) weeping on television is offset in real life by the daily reality of presumption that you are one of them! Complaining about Trump seems to be the only way people can communicate with one another anymore, and it makes perfect sense because so much of social transaction is foreplay—before the main event of bitter complaining and protestations of victimhood—anyway. Now everybody has an excuse to complain 24/7/52/365.

When people start in on Trump, I just look at them and say “I’ve come to a different conclusion than you” and enjoy the astonishment. ”

I was particularly struck by the simple line: “Complaining about Trump seems to be the only way people can communicate with one another anymore.”

And I still stand by what I posted here some months ago, as my formal position:

“I do not accept Donald Trump as my anti-Christ.”

And my other point, which I have written about many times: “My issue, my war–is with the deep state and its media. On that, Trump is a co-beliggerent.”

On this, with yesterday’s Pearl Harbor sized event: Wikileaks publishing “Vault 7,”–the entire hacking capacity of the CIA, I have been vindicated. So have all if us who dared say we believed there was such a thing as a “deep state,” which causes elite types to scoff.

So ok.

I will “admit” that Donald Trump may be a megalomaniac, a “pig,” and a bad person. If you will admit that yes, there was a “deep state,” only deeper than we dreamed, and it’s spying on you and me right this very moment. Through computer, TV, phone–the works. It’s disgusting. I actually feel nauseous after yesterday’s revelations from Wikileaks, only 1% of which have been published thus far.

Kind of the way you may feel nauseous when Trump Tweets, when Trump blows his horn, when he does all the things he does.

I hope we can agree it is a good thing there are–allegedly–upward of half a million new jobs already, and the stock market is at an all time high. 1500 child traffickers and/or pedophiles have been arrested.

Yes yes, I know–pedophilia is paranoia, and the soaring stock market only means it is about to crash.

Thanks.

What is it like to be an Oracle, I wonder?

When do we begin to recognize that to deprive people of hope, and to socially and economically induce them to hate another–this is abuse.

So what do I stand for, as one leftist friend demanded to know on FB?

I went to the Trump support rally this weekend (calm down) to watch, listen, take pictures, shoot video, and understand. People were alive and passionate, all races, all social classes, ages. Chinese Americans for Trump wore orange T-shirts, and were the most vocal. They had megaphones. They wanted us to know where they had been, what they had come out of: China. This is the thing about America–it is only loved by those who came here with nothing but their lives, fleeing a tyranny.

The Trump supporters weren’t fancy people, but they were open and talkative. You could go right up to them and ask what they were thinking and feeling. I interviewed the man who runs the concession stand in Trump Tower, where the crowd retreated from the cold when the gathering was over, in their red caps, beneath the cascading wall fountain in the lobby cafe. The man was from India, and had known Trump 10 years. He told me he always came in–before he was President–and bought Rolo chocolates. And he always insisted on paying. “You’re a businessman,” he would say. He proudly showed me a letter Trump had written him, and signed.

I wanted to post some of the footage, here, which would be a way of saying: “Look at the American story. The American street.”

But you don’t care, if you hate Trump. You’re so weaponized and armored that you are rarely called out for another hatred: Ordinary people. Fellow Americans. You hate them too.

Why do I say that?

Because you make no effort to ask what it on their heart. You don’t care what they think, or why. That’s the number one manifestation of both disrespect, abuse, and narcissism–to abject everything that is not “myself.”

Well, at the very least, can journalists still talk to people? It used to be a well respected interview tradition called “man on the street.”

No more.

Now we just broadcast what we know, our propaganda. Our hate.

I can see, with one eye, that Trump may be a very troubled man, and with the other eye, that people who support him are good, sound, decent people with a dream. And their own anger–very well earned.

They’re the new Jews, the new negroes, the new hated and hounded. You can spit on them and throw bricks through the window of their business and nobody will accuse you of being a hater, because your hate is popular and blessed by the media.

Here are two clips, two American voices: Gary from the Bronx and Gary from Staten Island. The former wanted to be allowed to say :”Merry Christmas.” The latter, until recently, was still a Trotskyite.

It was so cold, my iPhone froze every few minutes and shut down, so forgive the truncated clips. I went in to various art galleries–not a soul inside–to unfreeze my phone. There were sculptures in there of headless bodies in white plaster. I fled as soon as the phone was re-charged. I think people–what they say and how they say it–are works of art.

Journalism stopped being journalism when it stopped hearing them–and as we all know, that is why Trump, like it or not–is President. Not yours, necessarily.

“Still working through the publication, but what @Wikileaks has here is genuinely a big deal. Looks authentic. ”

Edward Snowden, Twitter, 8:53 am, March 7., 2017

I’ve been following the mountainous story since it broke this morning–and I went to sleep last night knowing I would wake up to a changed world. We all went to sleep last night mumbling silently: “Vault 7. I wonder what it is.”

I’d seen shady looking “clue” images on Twitter, suggestive of some ghastly secret society or other. Turned out, it was the CIA, no less:

“Since the inauguration of Donald Trump on January 20th, 2017, the number of trafficking arrests for human trafficking in 2017 have doubled the total numbers provided for the entire year of 2014 by the Department of Justice. Each individual law enforcement operation has been listed below for reader convenience.”

“Activist Robert F. Kennedy and actor Robert De Niro are set to hold a major press conference at the National Press Club Wednesday to discuss the correlation between mercury-containing vaccines and childhood autism.
“The event will focus on the announcement of a unique challenge with substantial cash award to the American people and media,” a press release from Kennedy’s World Mercury Project states.
The conference will also address President Donald Trump’s potential “Vaccine Safety Commission,” which Kennedy claimed he’d been offered an opportunity to chair last month.”

“Technique has penetrated the deepest recesses of the human being. The machine tends not only to create a new human environment, but also to modify man’s very essence. The milieu in which he lives is no longer his. He must adapt himself, as though the world were new, to a universe for which he was not created. He was made to go six kilometers an hour, and he goes a thousand. He was made to eat when he was hungry and to sleep when he was sleepy; instead, he obeys a clock. He was made to have contact with living things, and he lives in a world of stone. He was created with a certain essential unity, and he is fragmented by all the forces of the modern world.”
― Jacques Ellul, The Technological Society

“The entire coffee shop gasped in disbelief at the image of American women donning the headscarf.”

“Women’s March” partners include the Council on American-Islamic Relations, which has not only deflected on issues of Islamic extremism post-9/11, but opposes Muslim reforms that would allow women to be prayer leaders and pray in the front of mosques, without wearing headscarves as symbols of chastity. Partners also include the Southern Poverty Law Center (SPLC), which wrongly designated Maajid Nawaz, a Muslim reformer, an “anti-Muslim extremist” in a biased report released before the election. The SPLC confirmed to me that Soros funded its “anti-Muslim extremists” report targeting Nawaz.”

“After all, some smug, pretentious, solipsistic, raging pseudo-intellectual might castigate and excommunicate you for having jumped aboard the anti-Trump bandwagon (how gauche! how plebian!).
And then where would that leave you?”

–Mark Harris

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AqqUDAWPhiA

“I’M sick and TIRED of violence…I’m TIRED of hate, I’m TIRED of selfishness, I’m TIRED of EVIL. I’m not gonna use violence no matter WHO SAYS SO.”

Martin Luther King Jr.

YES. WE GOT IT. WE GOT IT. TRUMP SAID TERRIBLE TERRIBLE THINGS.

But slow down. We have a civil war in the United States, more or less, about whose violence is worse, and whose hate is more hateful. It’s a COMPLEX situation.

Watch this video, below, in its entirety. If you do not oppose the violence you see, then this website is not for you. I can’t say whether I am ‘solipsistic’ (don’t even know what that means,) ‘smug, pretentious’, or a ‘raging pseudo-intellectual,’ but this I know: I oppose tyranny. I oppose bullying. Above all, I oppose fake reality–mass media distortion, brain washing, mind control, and propaganda. Those are my issues.

I am not “ex-communicating” anybody, but rather seeking a community with a shared ethos of opposition to violence, as trendy as it is right now to endorse violence, since Trump is the worst person we’ve ever had to deal with on our planet. He hasn’t killed anybody but you know, words are the new mass murder.

It is widely, and wrongly assumed, that those who have not worked up a frothing hatred of Donald Trump, are racist, evil, stupid, blind, deaf, and political descendants of the Third Reich–or worse. Nobody ever stops to think they may be concerned with another body of hate and distortion. We can’t all be looking at the same thing all the time. One worries you more, one worries me more.

The platform that opposes Trump is soaked with hate. They have a long and unapologetic record of criminal abuse and vandalism: The elderly, children, teenage girls, even a disabled boy, beaten, in some cases almost to death, (on video) for their support of Trump. I saw one today which shows a Trump hater setting a trump supporter’s hair on fire with a bic lighter. This is all part of the new “normal,” and even the new “right on.”

The first such video I saw was a homeless woman viciously attacked by Trump haters, as she tried to protect his star on Hollywood Boulevard. I’ll post it, if you don’t believe me. In fact, I did post it. And as I posted these things, I assumed people who know my essential way of approaching things would understand that my dissent and opposition was to this new mass hate that so quickly became culturally romanticized and endorsed. This disgust on my part was conflated with a support of Trump.

I have consistently despised tyranny, violence, abuse and degradation.

So what about when Trump commits it?

Please listen: I am going to address Pussy Gate. I am going to address his supposed attack on a disabled reporter. I am going to address his quote about Mexicans. Some things were very strange, some inexplicable, some unforgivable, and some not bad at all, but wildly distorted. But Trump has been President since Friday, and today is Monday, so there is no way he is the reason our lives are impossible. If you refuse to give him a chance, then you are declaring war on the hopes, dreams, and aspirations of hundreds of millions of Americans–all of them immigrants. You’re not attacking Donald Trump–you are attacking hard working people who presently have the first ray of hope for their lives they have had in many years. Hope that was snuffed out by 9/11, and the Globalist PC Warring Reich that used it to justify its destruction of civil, economic, medical, discourse, press and countless other liberties in this country. 50 Million Americans on food stamps. 55,403 deaths from opiates in 2015–roughly the same number of dead from then entire Vietnam war. 20-22 veterans commit suicide every day. Rates of autism and infant deaths from vaccines higher than any industrialized country.

Trump has been President for 3 days. If things are WORSE in 6 months, I will swiftly admit it. But right now I find it malevolent to deprive all Americans of their dignity just because they are choosing hope, for a better America, for their children and grandchildren.

Racism is a luxury only those who can already keep roof overhead can afford. Most Americans are wondering quote simply if they can hope to get a job, pay a mortgage, put food on the table, and keep their kids safe.

I suggest you talk to Trump supporters. They’re everywhere. Ask them why they voted for him, and tell us what they said.

I have never endorsed, whitewashed, nor even addressed what I think of Donald Trump as a human being, given the evidence presented. A common mistake people make is to fill in your blanks when you are still thinking about a thing. I think for a long time and when I have something authentic and original to say, I say it.

I have concerned myself primarily with the “systems” of totalitarian government/media/corporate powers–not the cults of the individual. I have not openly condemned Mr. Trump, or, for that matter, any of major Democrats. One of the reasons I couldn’t get to it was that I was consistently being bludgeoned on site and off by a few tenacious critics, for denouncing Marxism, which apparently came as a great shock and betrayal.

My own thoughts about “Pussy gate” were opaque until they found their way to a colony of thoughts that had been lying in wait for about 15 years, that seemed not to be connected–until I realized they were.

So I ask for a cessation of quarreling about my failure to address Trump and Pussygate, with the assurance that I am working on it now. I needed time to think it through.

“The hippie culture of Haight-Ashbury, where it all started for me, was full of men doing nothing all day and expecting women to bring them food. The ‘chick’ had to provide a home for them, cook meals for them, even pay the rent. It was still very much ingrained from the earlier patriarchal mentality of our fathers, except that our fathers, generally, were providers. Free love meant free sex and food for men. Sure, women enjoyed it, too, and had a lot of sex, but then they served men. Even among left-wing political groups, women were always relegated to secretarial, menial jobs. We were all on LSD, so it took a few years for the smoke to dissipate and for women to realize what a raw deal they were getting with the ne’er-do-well hippie male. Men who acquired preeminence at the time were all frauds, fake gurus who were paying lip service to peace and love, charismatic cons who just wanted to fuck all their adoring disciples. Timothy Leary was like that. A big phony.”

“For too long, a small group in our nation’s Capital has reaped the rewards of government while the people have borne the cost.

Washington flourished – but the people did not share in its wealth.

Politicians prospered – but the jobs left, and the factories closed.

The establishment protected itself, but not the citizens of our country.

Their victories have not been your victories; their triumphs have not been your triumphs; and while they celebrated in our nation’s Capital, there was little to celebrate for struggling families all across our land.

That all changes – starting right here, and right now, because this moment is your moment: it belongs to you.It belongs to everyone gathered here today and everyone watching all across America.

This is your day. This is your celebration.

And this, the United States of America, is your country.”

I reviewed quite a few videos and settled on this one from CBS News. They describe all kinds of details that fans of pageantry may find interesting. President Trump’s speech begins around the one hour mark.

I love Melania Trump’s outfit and am dying to know who the designer is. I could look at it for hours. I also think her hair is perfection, and inspires me to hold out hope, perhaps not for my own hair, (per se) but for the hair of all American women going forward into 2017. She set the bar high, which is good. Hillary Clinton’s hair is also sensational, as is her outfit. I love all the white. Bill Clinton looks like spite in a suit. He needs to curb his rage, and stop ogling (apparently Ivanka Trump.) I’m tired of Bill Clinton. Michelle looks great as always but I was puzzled by her somewhat sloppy hair. Michelle usually never has sloppy hair. What happened?

Baron Trump is such a lovely boy, and Melania has dressed him like royalty. Look at his coat. Have you ever seen a 10 year old look better in a coat? He’s just got that quality. But back to Melania, do NOT get on here and start telling me you don’t like her dress or her hair because I will block you. No first lady’s hair has ever looked that good. I was not sure about the gloves at first but I think I am changing my mind.

Congratulations America on your new President, and if we are decent, we will all pray that he does a great job.

And I am in Sweden, trying to get somebody–anybody–to understand that this is America. This too, is America. The choreography of contradictions, overseen by Our Better Angels, careening screamingly toward a happy ending. Though always, always, some people are so outraged they are calling for The End Of The Nation.

But can anybody no matter how hate filled, truly resist the love that overtakes you when you watch the Talladega Tornados?

Like a move on a chessboard that ends the game, and at the same time encompasses all moves that have been made up to that point, this statement from Julian Assange is everything.

I am heartbroken that so many people here have fallen for the ostensible political positions, or outmoded stigmata like the “alt-right,” when in fact, there is one war: The People Vs. The Deep State. If you have not discovered what lies beneath and around us, if you STILL have not discovered it even over these past 6 months, then I think we are wasting one another’s time. But I am grateful for the time you spent here.

There is not one brain cell of mine that still thinks within the Left/Right binary trap, nor can I write or report from that mind set. NOR can I continue to explain that I don’t think like that. I think like

I have lost almost all my friends, but I agree with every word of this brilliant essay by John Pilger.

“The seedbed is Obama’s Weimar Republic, a landscape of endemic poverty, militarized police and barbaric prisons, the consequence of a “market” extremism which, under his presidency, prompted the transfer of US$14 trillion in public money to criminal enterprises in Wall Street.

Perhaps his greatest “legacy” is the co-option and disorientation of any real opposition. Bernie Sanders’ specious “revolution” does not apply. Propaganda is his triumph.

The lies about Russia — in whose elections the U.S. has openly intervened — have made the world’s most self-important journalists laughing stocks. In the country with constitutionally the freest press in the world, free journalism now exists only in its honorable exceptions.

The obsession with Trump is a cover for many of those calling themselves “left/liberal,” as if to claim political decency. They are not “left,” neither are they especially “liberal.” Much of the United States’ aggression towards the rest of humanity has come from so-called liberal democratic administrations such as Obama’s. The U.S.’ political spectrum extends from the mythical center to the lunar right. The “left” are homeless renegades Martha Gellhorn described as “a rare and wholly admirable fraternity.” She excluded those who confuse politics with a fixation on their navels.”

He even quotes Yevtushenko.

Quoting Yevtushenko is always a sign of a healthy mind.

“We even paid her an occasional small fee,
but we wouldn’t accept her as a writer,
because our moral guardians
had decided
she wasn’t normal.
You,
who are so revoltingly normal,
you–”

Brian Hooker, PhD, became a household name in 2014 when it came to light that his 12 years of efforts to obtain vaccine safety data from the CDC had resulted in the phone call that changed history. [See Vaxxed trailer below] when CDC Epidemiologist Dr. William Thompson, also known as the CDC Whistleblower, called him and offered to guide him to the very shattering evidence he had been searching for. Hooker understood, as few do, that there are actually ways to obtain data sets from the CDC, (so-called “public data sets,”) if you have the patience of Sisyphus and know not only what you are looking for but how to navigate the red tape.

Hooker is a bio-engineer, researcher, Associate Professor of Biology at Simpson University, and father of a vaccine injured son, whose suffering set him on the quest for the truth.

He works closely with Robert F. Kennedy Jr. on issues of vaccine safety and so Truth Barrier reached out to him following the media bombshell that President Elect Trump had chosen R.F.K. Jr. to head a commission on vaccine safety.

This interview took place on Jan 14th and 15th, 2017.

CF: yesterday when we signed off you were about to speak with Robert F. Kennedy Jr. Did you speak with him?

BH: Yeah, it was a very quick conversation. He is debating a very pro-pharma scientist by the name of Peter Hotez, who is the head of Infectious and Tropical Diseases at Baylor University, and also receives large amounts of money from large pharmaceutical companies. Peter Hotez is like Offit Jr. and he holds about six patents around the hookworm vaccine that’s being tested in Brazil primarily. Bobby really is going on the offense now and showing our science. But our science is so voluminous. He’s quoted in his book at least 500 papers on thimerosal alone. So that was the primary reason for the phone call. It’s still up in the air whether the commission for vaccine safety will go forward. I think it’s very tentative right now considering how President Elect Trump’s team has walked things back, primarily through the statement that Hope Hicks made after the meeting between Bobby and President Trump, so that’s all very tentative. But Bobby is so good. He is looking for opportunities anywhere to be able to gain traction with the press, or, like with Peter Hotez, engaging the other side. And still with the President Elect, I don’t think he’s abandoned that by any stretch of the imagination, especially with the appointment of the CDC director which has not been made yet.

CF: But will be made soon?

BH: It’s going to have to be made soon because Frieden is basically leaving the CDC at the end of the month.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdCU2DfMBpU

CF: When you say the future of the commission is tentative, are you basing that on your interpretation of the quotes that came from the Trump spokesperson, or do you know something about the status of it from the inside..that it actually might not happen at all?

BH: Yeah, based on that Bobby is saying, that’s where I’m a little more cautious. I don’t want to quote him directly. I just think that based on that and…I mean Bobby’s been through a lot. I’ve tried to stay off his back for the last week or so, just because of this whole set of events.

[Deleted passage.]

CF: You’re saying the Kennedy clan is not all in support of a vaccine safety investigation?

BH: I don’t think they’re all in support of that, I think.. that would be true. And they’re all high profile. So there’s a lot of pressure on them…and when they see their brother or their cousin being eviscerated in the media, it just…it doesn’t bode well for.. you know, they’re going to have a response to that.

CF: Can you tell me anything about how you think Bobby Kennedy as a human being has felt about these eviscerations in the press? How has that affected him?

BH: He’s a trooper. And when I’ve been around him personally, he just shakes it off. ..

CF: But we all know it hurts.

BH: Yeah, it really really hurts. I’ve spoken to his wife and she is just so so supportive. Cheryl Hines. She is so supportive of what he’s doing, so supportive of our community, that’s concerned about vaccine safety, so my hat goes off to them. And he works tirelessly. You get really really tired being around him because he’s such a bundle of energy. (laughs) I’m like, I don’t move that fast Bobby, stop. I just have nothing but admiration for him. Loss of reputation, so much thankless work, and then occasionally he gets attacked from within our community because he says he’s pro-vaccine. And that’s really fine. I mean it’s fine that he says he is pro- vaccine. He’s still fighting for safe vaccines. I wouldn’t say I’m anti-vaccine, you know any level of protection or cover that I can give him as a scientist by giving him good science, I’m always going to put my best foot forward.

CF: When you two put your heads together and compare your best present notions about the causation of autism, do you and see more or less eye to eye?

BH: I think that he and I see eye to eye, that it’s a multiplicity of factors, that it’s difficult to nail it down to one factor, regardless of whether he is advocating mostly on thimerosal, that’s where he..he’s been advocating about mercury toxicity for over thirty years. But that doesn’t mean that he thinks the only problem regarding vaccines is thimerisol. It doesn’t necessarily mean that. He sees issues with the vaccination schedule. He sees issues with fraud and corruption at the CDC, which basically throws everything up in the air, if you can’t trust an agency to monitor vaccine safety then how can you say anything is safe regarding vaccines? I think he has come to that conclusion as well. Getting thimerosal out of the flu shot would be a huge victory. But he doesn’t retire at that particular point in time. And so, in terms of causation, to get back to your initial question, I think that we’re both on the same page.

CF: What did he think of Vaxxed?

BH: He liked Vaxxed. He felt it was well done. I don’t know if he agreed 100% with everything that was in Vaxxed, I don’t know if I do. I can say definitively that there are things that I would have done differently than Andy, Del, and Polly in making the movie. But he liked Vaxxed. He appreciated the effort that they went to to expose the whistleblower story. He speaks on a regular basis to Del and Polly. And even did a Periscope interview with Polly Tommey, between Thanksgiving and Christmas. To me that’s huge. Because you know we have these different factions and groups that are coming together, you would consider Bobby the Trace Amounts camp, then Andy, Del, and Polly, the Vaxxed camp, but we can’t have camps, we have to have some kind of unity. I really appreciate that he’s done that and I appreciate that the Vaxxed team has reached out to him. There was a scuttle that happened over emails..
CF: I remember.

BH: That’s right, we commiserated.

CF: Yes.

BH: Well I’m really glad that that’s come full circle. We have to be circumspect about what we do.

CF: This is very rough terrain. Very rough.What has been the most difficult, for you, doing this work, and being up against such a powerful and mendacious apparatus?

BH: When my family is featured in the pro-pharma media, that’s really hard. My son’s vaccine injury case was just thrown out of the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program and there were several bloggers that blogged about it, and went through the court document and tried to discern the medical history of my son, which is really none of their business. And they were trying to say I was making fraudulent statements about my son’s vaccine injury in the movie Vaxxed. It was really frustrating. My son didn’t ask for that. My wife didn’t ask for that. I’m really really glad that the vaccine injury case is over with because then the level of exposure is done. In terms of documents floating around. It’s really horrible. If he would have been awarded damages then it would have been sealed, nobody could see it, but since he wasn’t awarded damages, the decision was made public.

[Note: The case was thrown out due to an issue revolving around the time of the vaccine injury and the statute of limitations. The court never ruled about whether Hooker’s son had been vaccine injured.]

CF: Have you ever been afraid?

BH: I have employment issues. I’ve been attacked at the workplace by coworkers who didn’t appreciate my viewpoint. Although my University right now is extremely supportive at the highest levels. I’ve had meetings with the President of the University about this and they’ve been so supportive and wonderful. But there were lower levels of management that were vicious, to the point of, you know, trying to get me fired.

CF: Did they write things, did they tell you to your face…?

BH: It was actually both. I had a supervisor who was writing memos to the administration in terms of my lack of fitness, and that I was besmirching the reputation of the university. I approached them because they were my supervisors and I needed to let them know that I was working on Vaxxed. That I was working on Trace Amounts. The response that I got was really, really chilling. I wasn’t even allowed to take notes during the meeting. I just wanted to write down notes, because I take notes during every meeting that I have ever attended, that’s what I do. My supervisor at that particular point in time told me to put away my notepad. It was very disheartening.

CF: You can’t tell me what they said to you at that meeting where you weren’t allowed to take notes…

BH: Exactly.

CF: OK. We will infer.

BH: It was basically that I was bringing down the careers of my colleagues.

CF: Wow.

BH: That I was responsible for the demise of enrollment at the University. It gave me a lot of power. They ascribed a lot of power to me that I didn’t know I ever really had. (laughs.)

CF: Can you go on the record about how you felt about RFK Jr revealing that he had been chosen by Trump to head the vaccine safety commission?

BH: I was excited and disappointed both. I was excited to hear the news. But I was disappointed because I knew that mainstream media’s response would be vicious and callous and.. I want to bring it around to the desensitization of these people who are basically attacking the families of disabled children. So that’s exactly what happened. It was a very predictable thing. I wouldn’t have handled it the way Trump’s team handled it. I don’t think I would necessarily have handled it the way Bobby handled it. I can’t really address that because I wasn’t there and I don’t know all the details. But the level of backlash is always so horrifying. When you’re a parent in the trenches, it’s very very unsettling to see that it would rise to that level of hatred.

CF: But that’s where the whole thing is trapped—these pogroms and these waves of hate and abuse. How do we ever get past that? It’s just pure abuse.

BH: I think that pushback has to happen. I look at the whole pushback regarding the AIDS epidemic and the response of groups like Act Up and Queer Nation…you know, I think it’s time to take to the streets, and respond to these evil people, these Mengeles of our society in very blatant ways. It’s one of the things I grapple with every day, because I’m pretty mild mannered. But I’d like to have a die in in front of Senator Pan’s office. So we can disrupt his business for multiple months, I would love to do that. And it was effective. When you look at the amount of money that is given to AIDS research right now. So I grapple with that. Is that the next step? We have a society that is asleep, and they need to be shaken awake.

CF: And you are a Christian.

BH: Yes.

CF: I’ve noticed that there is a higher representation of Christian faith among vaccine fighters than the average.

BH: It comes through desperation. You have no other place to turn, so that’s where you go. You cry out to God. Which is the best place to turn anyway, so…

“Obama is a master of gesture politics, but he tends to flinch in nearly every pitched battle, even when the odds and the public are behind him. His political instincts drive him to seek cover in the middle ground. He is a reflexive compromiser, more Rodney “Can’t We All Just Get Along” King than Reverend King. Even when confronted by bumbling hacks like John Boehner and Eric Cantor, Obama tends to wilt.

Perhaps Obama had never before been confronted with quite this level of toxic hostility. After all, he’d lived something of a charmed life, the life of a star-child, coddled and pampered, encouraged and adulated, from Indonesia to Harvard. Obama was the physical and psychic embodiment of the new multiculturalism: lean, affable, assured, non-threatening. His vaguely liberal political ideology remained opaque at the core. Instead of an over-arching agenda, Obama delivered facile jingoisms proclaiming a post-racial and post-partisan America. Instead of radical change, Obama offered simply managerial competence. This, naturally, the Berserkers of the Right interpreted as hubris and arrogance and such hollow homilies served only to exacerbate their rage. The virulent right had profiled Obama and found him to be the perfect target for their accreted animus. And, even better, they had zeroed-in on an enemy so innately conflict-averse that even when pummeled with racist slurs he wouldn’t punch back.

Of course, Obama’s most grievous political wounds were self-inflicted, starting even before his election when he rushed back to Washington to help rescue Bush’s Wall Street bailout. This was perhaps the first real indication that the luminous campaign speeches about generational and systemic change masked the servile psyche of a man who was desperately yearning to be embraced by the nation’s political and financial elites. Instead of meeting with the victims of Wall Street predators or their advocates, like Elizabeth Warren and Ralph Nader, Obama fist-bumped with the brain trust of Goldman Sachs and schmoozed with the creme de la creme of K Street corporate lobbyists. In the end, Obama helped salvage some of the most venal and corrupt enterprises on Wall Street, agreed to shield their executives from prosecution for their financial crimes and, predictably, later got repaid with their scorn.”

My good friend Paul Murray, Scottish, South African, cat-whisperer, humanist, vegan, now based in Australia, with his wife Karen and 7 cats, has a way with words, uniquely his. My own writing often resembles meandering schools of fish by comparison. I’m always negotiating. Whereas Paul can just slam a thing into the wall, when needed. I love that. The fleeting sense of freedom I get vicariously when somebody ceases to sound like an upholstered chair at The United Nations–when the dirt, horror, absurdity, and sublime humor enters the parlor. This is when I personally feel able to breathe. All my life as a writer I have kept my thoughts in chains–carefully tended. So terrified of overstatement. And yet still, of late, I m scolded and flogged (off site, mostly) for my “intemperate” and treasonous posts. I have been mistaken for somebody who “likes Trump.” It will take about 3,000 lightyears to clean this up, and at the moment, I’d too tired. And pissed off. So you see my friends, you can’t win. [I want that on my tombstone: “You Can’t Win.”]

On a FB thread I will post below, about the 4,000 US troops Obama has moved through Germany into Poland to the Russian border, Paul slammed it thusly:

“John Pilger’s been talking about Obama’s bellicose behaviour for his entire tenure especially in the South China Sea.
This dude has spent more on weaponising America than any other president in history and between him and Killary Clinton who has helped teeter the world on the brink of nuclear war, he’ll be handing over this shitshow to Trump who’s achieved pariah status before even taking office.
If Trump turns any of this around (assuming he’s safe from attempts on his life, which wouldn’t surprise me) he’ll be dealing in minor miracles and then when he and RFK Jr take on the infanticide brigade with their toxic vaccines at the CDC, the world will be a much better place even with a boorish, loudmouthed orange sexist at the helm.
Bring it on, I say.”

Here’s the thread. I marveled, by the way, at every person who commented, (Stephen Ericson teaches me something every time he comments) and how lucky I am to know people who are awake and lucid, not overtaken by the new big trendy bubble machine that blows only one bubble of revulsion, over and over and over, the bubble being the weaponized word, one word, “TRUMP.”

And what he said about wimmmmmin.

[Apologies for unclean text but that’s what happens when you import FB.]
Celia Ingrid Farber
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Why aren’t we talking about this? I’m not in the US–did Obama explain this to the American people? “I’m sending tanks and troops through Germany into Poland.” Anybody hear him say that?

The Establishment Is Trying To Steal The Presidency From Trump — Paul Craig…
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Stephen Ericson You don’t just invade Russia, you invade the Russian winter. It’s amazing to me that Russia had such a hard time fighting Finland prior to barbarossa. Fighting a war in a deadly winter just has to suck.
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Lisa Andersson Could be to destroy Polands relations to Russia even more.
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Not a peep. I tried to pointed out to some people, they don’t believe me because it’s not on CNN
I didn’t know why NOBODY address this.
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Theresa Chieng · 2 mutual friends
In the meantime, football season is in playoff and it’s the main thing you see on TV this weekend
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Paul Murray John Pilger’s been talking about Obama’s bellicose behaviour for his entire tenure especially in the South China Sea.
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Alexandra Gatsis Slam dunk.
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Stephen Ericson So now, Obama, the Nobel Peace prize winner, is suddenly a saber rattling war monger. And…the MSM in the United States is absolutely uninterested. This is the same guy who mocked Mitt Romney for being out of touch and stuck in the cold war, and who denied defensive missiles to Poland that they were promised.
I’m starting to think that they had this up their sleeve all along. At the very least this troop build up should be seen as at least a tacit admission of failure in regards to Democratic foreign policy.
Of course you’d probably be branded a racist for seeing it that way by at least half the country, but whatever.

Edit (from the BBC article that started this thread) “The US Armoured Brigade will also carry out military exercises in the Baltics, all part of President Obama’s response to Russia’s intervention in Ukraine and to reassure nervous Nato allies.”

Really? Now he wants to comfort them. How nice of him.

https://www.theguardian.com/…/missile-defence-shield…
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Stephen Ericson To be fair, this story is on CNN right now, but it’s buried under a lot of other complete crap.
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USA is so bloody dominant/ provocative. Some one some day is going to give them a spoon of their own medicin….how many other countrys are they going to be allowed to distroy before the world wakes up?
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Curtis Cost I fear that Obama may be planning something that could halt Trump taking office. This is unprecedented for an outgoing President.
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“You know of course, don’t you, that the Iraq war was started because that agency said that Saddam Hussein had weapons of mass destruction and was in alliance with Al Qaeda, something that turned out to be tragically untrue, so of course people would treat those claims skeptically.”

“The problem that people have is that they [CIA] caused the publication of this material by calling the source credible and then somebody went to CNN in a very coordinated way, multiple officials, to tell CNN that this was briefed to the President and the President elect, knowing that they would report it, and that the document would then surface.”

“I ate breakfast last week with the president of a network news division and he told me that during non-election years, 70% of the advertising revenues for his news division come from pharmaceutical ads. And if you go on TV any night and watch the network news, you’ll see they become just a vehicle for selling pharmaceuticals. He also told me that he would fire a host who brought onto his station a guest who lost him a pharmaceutical account.”

“Can I ask you something?” he snapped. “What do you think of Donald Trump?”
I could say many negative things, but others have that covered. I could say many positive things, but others have that covered. What I question is the question. The presumption that I OWE it anybody to address ONE man instead of what I have been addressing, namely entire systems of deep corruption. Hating One Very Bad Man The Only State Sanctioned Bad Man is central to the narrative in Orwell’s 1984. His name was Emanuel Goldstein. Remember? The enslaved people of Oceania were ushered into halls to scream, roar, and throw tomatoes at the screen featuring his image, during “Two Minutes Hate.”

That is what many of us have been reduced to. It’s a national sport. Hating Trump so much that many of our media pollinate openly statements about killing him, assassinating him.

Absolutely extraordinary in our lifetimes, that this would happen.

You must go inside and ask yourself: Is this what I want to be?
One day we will re-examine everything he SAID, next to everything Hillary and Obama DID. And then we will have a new discussion.
For now, here is my official statement on Donald Trump:

Note: Sometimes a ‘bombshell’ in journalism is a void–a thing that did not happen.

As Obama threatens Russia, Dems and Celebs lead the charge to overturn the election results due to “Russian hacking,” implore the besieged, bombarded electors, today, to “do the right thing,” “be a hero,” and “speak for us all…” we now learn this:

“The CIA even ran a formal training program in the 1950s to teach its agents to be journalists. Intelligence officers were “taught to make noises like reporters,” explained a high CIA official, and were then placed in major news organizations with help from management. “These were the guys who went through the ranks and were told ‘You’re going to he a journalist,’” the CIA official said. Relatively few of the 400‑some relationships described in Agency files followed that pattern, however; most involved persons who were already bona fide journalists when they began undertaking tasks for the Agency.”

Carl Bernstein, Rolling Stone, 1977

Read Carl Bernstein’s full 1977 report on the CIA and The Media, here.

“Every society, including ours, contains the seed of fascism, ready to sprout from fear and anger. We were taught after World War 2 that “just following orders” made us “good Germans” but bad Americans. We were taught pride in America’s revolutionary history and our obligation to speak against tyranny. We were taught that obedience to evil makes one evil.

So I do not vote for war criminals. And I say so though many friends disagree. Trump would harm us unpredictably. Hillary would harm us systematically. Neither is inclined to push back. They are both creatures of this machine.”

–Paul Glover

I haven’t spoken to him in way too long, but I am privileged to know America’s most incorruptible politician, Paul Glover, and am fascinated by his version of “leftism,” [for now, I’m calling it that.] He manages to do what nobody else I know on the “left” pulls off: Love the earth, hate tyranny, and avoid self-serving hagiography. [Paul Glover might object that I have even placed him on the so-called “left” but for now, it’s a useful word to signal certain values, which don’t include allowing the nation’s rape by corporate banks, war, blowing up mountains, locking up dissidents and whistleblowers, espionage, funding terrorists, or colluding with brutal regimes–for starters. It also does not include overlooking the mass murder of up to 100 million people for the sake of “revolution.”

This is one of the reasons Paul and I get along so well. He never “left-splains” or tries in any way to guilt trip me when I raise these little details, outside of the super-weaponized Very Bad Man Who Is Worse Than Anything Ever.

He is founder of the Los Angeles Greens (1984) and the Ithaca, NY Green Party (1989). He was an environmentalist candidate for Ithaca’s city council (1973), Ithaca’s campaign manager for Ralph Nader (2000), Green Party candidate for mayor of Ithaca (2003), and was invited by GPUSA to participate in the presidential primaries of 2004.

I met Paul in 2008 at an extraordinary “concordium” [conference] that took place a few years in a row in Concord, Mass. It was based around the idea of “re-seeding,” the American Transcendentalist movement, and it actually took place in structures that were in some case built by the famous transcendentalists’ own hands, primarily the Alcott family. Drafty wooden wonderful old church like rooms where we sat with wool blankets and spoke without hate, accusation, or interruption for three days–about the lost American dream of freedom and how to bring it back. (The tradition at this concordium was based loosely on the medieval practice of discourse: In order earn the right to speak, you had to first sum up what the previous speaker had said, to that speaker’s satisfaction. Then you could speak.)

Paul Glover’s life of activism is such a blizzard of achievements I can’t do it justice, but for one thing, he introduced the first para-economic system local currency, in Ithaca New York (“Time Dollars,”) and it worked. He has been in Philadelphia for many years now, after leaving Ithaca, and if you see what you could have sworn was a parking lot there, now curiously a blooming community garden–it’s because of Paul Glover.

Another thing that deserves its own interview (I’ll get to it some day) is that Paul walked across the entire United States, in the 1970s. He did this not for any publicity purposes, but just so he could see, feel, and know the landscape, for his emerging vision about how cities can be worked out to harmonize with the land. Unlike many environmentalist activists, he loves cities, and he believes deeply in their potential for transformation. See the video below, to hear Paul’s vision for the greening transformation of Philadelphia. (Philadelphia.]

Here is the best piece I have read in ages, for those of us who feel trapped in the Titanic of this political discourse with nowhere to go.

Editor’s Note: This piece is about what few of us know, namely how common it is for electors to be harassed, and what forms that harassment takes. It’s also about the concept of “faith” among electors. This two time Republican elector says no electors he has ever encountered have voted against their party. Please limit comments to factual observations about the U.S. Electoral College. When I find a source who knows and is willing to speak of something from direct experience, I try to clear space for that person to say their piece, without embedding it. I don’t know about you, but this testimony stunned me.

–CF

You needn’t be too cynical about the prospect of bribing electors… at
least not among Republican electors. I have served two terms in the
Electoral College… in 2000, when Bush-Cheney won with only a two vote margin in the Electoral College, 271 to 266, and again in 2004 when the margin was a bit more comfortable.

The problems occurred in 2000 when the final decision rested on certifying the Florida count. That put Bush-Cheney over the top by just two electoral votes. Unfortunately, someone from the Democrat side obtained a list of names, addresses, and telephone numbers of all 271 Republican electors and published it all on the Internet.

My first bribe offer came by telephone from London. I can’t recall how many bribery offers I received but any one of us could have had $5 million in a Swiss bank account by merely saying, “Yes, I’ll agree to be a faithless elector. Show me the cash.” There were also many death threats. In fact, the danger was such that many of the governors brought the Republican electors to their respective state capitals a day early and put us up in undisclosed locations. We were also advised to travel to the state capital with a handgun within easy reach.

What I remember most about that experience is sitting at a large conference table in the governor’s office and writing in the names of George W. Bush and Dick Cheney on the ballot that was placed before me. As I did so, I was so proud to know that, of the 271 Republican electors across the country who had pledged to vote for the Republican candidates for president and vice president, every single one of us, all 271, ignored all the money that was available to us and did exactly as we had sworn to do.

–Outtake of a longer piece by Paul Hollrah, two time member of the U.S. Electoral College, re-published with his permission

[Note, this is from an email correspondence, Dec. 3, 2016, between Celia Farber and Paul Hollrah, following an inquiry about the possibility of an electoral insurrection in the U.S.]

Celia:

I find it hard to believe that the Left could ever convince 38 people to become faithless electors… which is what it would take to reverse the outcome of the election and put Hillary Clinton in the White House.

Electors are not just people who walked in off the street and decided they wanted to be electors. One cannot become an elector without having given many years of faithful service to the political party of their choice. As you probably know, when I served the first of two terms in the Electoral College in 2000, George W. Bush and Dick Cheney had only 271 electoral votes to Al Gore and Joe Lieberman’s 266. And in spite of numerous death threats and bribery offers, every single one of the 271 electors did exactly what they had sworn to do. I just don’t think that it would ever be possible to corrupt 38 (12.4%) of all the Republican electors. If they did, it would be the biggest political crime in history and a full scale civil war would be sure to follow.

–Paul H.

*Paul R. Hollrah is a retired corporate government relations executive and a two time member of the U.S. Electoral College

In an upcoming commentary for The Truth Barrier, he will tell us more about what few of us can imagine, regarding the real life experiences of U.S. Electors.

“AIDS wasn’t the first ‘big lie’, but it was the first of it’s kind. It became a template which they, the PR people, the drug companies, the propagandists, etc. have used over and over again.

AIDS, as far as I’ve known in my lifetime, was the first subject that came along where the mere act of stopping for a moment to think was somehow considered dangerous. It was the moment that it became ok to be expected to not think and to be called crazy for having done so.

We, the human population in general, were so willing to hear about it. We were so poised to suddenly accept that the end was nigh. Sometimes to me that was the worst part of the whole thing: that at this very innocent age ( I was just graduating high school in 87) I was forced to accept that the most simple and natural expressions of being human was somehow akin to committing suicide. Worse, we had to be ok with it.

“If the spread of AIDS continues at this rate, in 1996 there could be one billion people infected; five years later, hypothetically ten billion people; however the population of the world is only five billion. Could we be facing the threat of extinction during our lifetime? Even before our children are grown?

As of December 31, 2000, 774,467 persons had been reported with AIDS in the United States; 448,060 of these had died; 3542 persons had unknown viral status. [Ed: CDC had “vital” but I assume they meant “viral.] The number of persons living with AIDS (322,865) is the highest ever reported. Of these, 79% were men, 61% were black or Hispanic, and 41% were infected through male-to-male sex. Of the AIDS cases, approximately one third were reported during 1981–1992, 1993–1995, and 1996–2000 (Table 1).

2010: The US Government (tried to quietly) remove “HIV infection’ from the list of “communicable diseases,” that were considered…communicable. Enough to be of “public health significance.” These included, in descending order from the top: Chancroid, Gonnorrhea, Granuloma inguale, and leprosy.

These kinds of apocalyptic quotes based on sheer hallucination were peddled all across the media, including such platforms as the Oprah Winfrey Show, TIME Magazine, and every single media outlet save for a few, that were destroyed for being “irresponsible,” which was the original weaponized word for today’s “fake news.”

The horror is that those who peddled this mushroom cloud, soul crushing terrorism aimed at causing all people to fear touching each other were never penalized, or corrected, or disciplined–only rewarded, while those who tried to correct the record were professionally ruined.

It was the new way to be “right.” (To be indescribably wrong.)

There’s fake news and there’s fake news.

I hope this answers any lingering questions why certain “trolls” would prefer not to say their names.

Would you want your name attached to this holocaust?

“The horror of it is every goddamn thing you look at, if you look at it through the glasses that you’ve developed through looking at this thing, seems pretty scary to me. Look at the oncogene people and I go, oh yeah, I know what they are doing. Same stuff. Oncogenes don’t have anything to do with cancer. Radiation probably doesn’t have anything to do with stopping cancer. The drugs that we use on people – all those goddamn horrible poisons – they’re no less toxic than AZT. And we are doing it to everybody. Everybody’s aunt is being radiated once a goddamn month and given drugs that are going to kill her. We’re dealing with a bunch of witch doctors. The whole medical profession – except for the people that patch you up when you get a broken leg or you have a pumbling problem – is really fucked. It’s just a bunch of people that have become socially important and very rich by thinking about the fact that they might be able to cure the diseases that actually cause people in our society to die. And they can’t do shit about it. It’s scary, that’s what it is.”

He takes a deep breath, and I realize that on the other end of the phone, Kary Mullis, Nobel laureate, pioneer of the DNA revolution, has started to cry.”

[*This was the same year that Associate Editor Staci Bonner launched a Title VII lawsuit against SPIN Magazine alleging sexual favoritism, holding us up in Federal Court until 1997, when SPIN prevailed. Bob Guccione Jr. sold SPIN, and the AIDS column (in 1994) was immediately terminated, being replaced (in the same pages where the column used to hold space) by a three page advertisement for Combivir, a combination anti-HIV drum that includes AZT, which our reporting successfully exposed as lethal, following that of John Lautitsen in the New York Native, which in turn, was put out of business by an ACT UP boycott led by activist Peter Staley.]

“I am Australian. I am not Swedish. I do not speak Swedish. I have never resided in Sweden.
I am entirely innocent. I was already cleared of exactly this allegation in 2010 by the Chief Prosecutor of Stockholm, Eva Finne, who closed the case.
During the height of the Pentagon’s conflict with me the following month, the allegation was resurrected by the current prosecutor, Marianne Ny. It was immediately seized on to extinguish my freedom of movement and harm my reputation.
Without even bothering to take my statement, the Swedish Prosecution Authority broke its own rules and released my name to a tabloid newspaper. Prosecutor Ny went on to produce more than 40 press releases and press conferences about me. As a result, to this day more than half a million webpages falsely conflate my name with the word “rape”.
For six years I called for my statement to be taken so that the ‘preliminary investigation’ might again be swiftly closed.
In February this year the United Nations found that Prosecutor Ny has caused Sweden and the UK to breach their international human rights obligations. The UN found that her actions are subjecting me to “cruel, inhuman and degrading treatment” and an unlawful deprivation of liberty which must immediately cease.”

–Julian Assange

Julian Assange has broken his silence on the manipulated and almost paranormal “rape” charges against him involving two Swedish women who has consensual sex with him in 2010 and never said he raped them. The women themselves never filed rape charges and no formal charges have to date been filed, despite international mass media driven belief that Assange stands accused of rape.

All signs point to that he will be exonerated and walk free. His letter and testimony are here. More detailshere.

I read the 98 page police report in Swedish years ago and The New York Observer published this piece which I originally named, somewhat too flippantly, “Julian Assange’s Penetration Agenda.”

It shows that Julian Assange had consensual, if lousy, sex with two women in Sweden, one of whom had morbid phobia of seminal fluid and had never had sex without a condom. The whole thing was set off by HIV hysteria, which is explained if you read the piece linked above.

What will Sweden do next?

By the way, last week a source informed me that all notions that Assange was dead were the byproduct of “black PR,” and showed me who, what, where, when and why.

“I have a right to be confused about the current state of politics. I have a right to pursue all threads. That doesn’t make me anything but an intellectually curious and open minded person. I refuse to hate myself for having a seeking spirit. I didn’t realize how alienating curiosity is.”

–Alexandra Gatsis

I asked my Facebook friend Alexandra if I could post this prayer she posted on FB, at The Truth Barrier. She said yes. I call it a “prayer,” because it seeks an interior safety as violence approaches. I’ve never known a time when intellectual terror was as unleashed as it is now, including here. That’s why Alexandra’s prayer is so vital.

Sometimes I see words, things people have written, and they just appear luminous, right, simple and expressive of the interior voice that resists all “usage” by forces that wish to paint over it with the red angry paint of the propagandists.

This is what the American Transcendentalists–Thoreau, Emerson, Whitman, Alcott, et al–wrote about so passionately, as well as our “founding fathers.” Justice Learned Hand stated: “The spirit if liberty is the spirit that is never too sure that it is right.”

And this interior space is what Tomas Tranströmer so brilliantly called “The Truth Barrier,” hence the name of this website. Many poets “know” the truth, whereas Tranströmer wrote about the stormy voyage (which never ends) on which we are given a chance to watch ourselves trying to find truths. Are they subjective, objective, both? Do they “exist?”

The late, legendary Yale mathematician Serge Lang also devoted his life to this–the discipline to discern “..a fact from a hole in the ground.” To each freshman class he gave a test called “The Huntington Test,” which was a reading of an article about social unrest (or lack thereof) in apartheid era South Africa, which he famously fought with Samuel P. Huntington about. (Huntington measured lack of street protest as a sign of a “satisfied society” without taking into account that black South Africans had restrictions on when they could even be on the streets. Serge, a member of The National Academy Of Sciences, successfully had Huntington blocked from membership, which the left never forgave Lang for.)

It’s an eternal struggle that never ends. Am I seeing? Have I stopped seeing? Have I developed blind spots?

Here’s my own translation of a famous and utterly stunning passage in Tranströmer’s 1970 collection “Seeing In The Dark,” from the poem Preludes:

“Two truths approach one another. One comes from inside,

one comes from the outside

and where they meet one has a chance to see oneself.

He who notices what is happening hollers

in despair: “Stop!

anything, so long as I don’t have to know myself.”

Note: “The Swedish word “känna” means both “know” and “feel.”

Here isan article I wrote about Tranströmer in Lapham’s Quarterly, in 2012.

“I would say without any hesitation that he is incapable of recognizing the truth, let alone of telling it,” Christopher Hitchens wrote after reading Brock’s memoir. “The whole book is an exercise in self-love, disguised as an exercise in self-abnegation. How could he, asks the author of himself, have possibly gone on so long in telling lies, smearing reputations and inventing facts? The obvious answer — that he adored the easy money and the cheap fame that this brought him — was more than enough to still his doubts for several years. However, his publisher seems to have required a more high-toned explanation before furnishing him with a fresh tranche of money and renown. And Brock’s new story — that he was taken in by a vast right-wing conspiracy — is just as much of a lie as his earlier ones.”

The writer* of this piece is new to me, and has dazzled and overwhelmed me. His name is Jasun Horsley and he is clearly some kind of genius. The trouble with geniuses is their work can feel claustrophobic, though that is not meant as a criticism. The work is (at last) a genuine reflection of a human mind grappling with a sandstorm of “information” and trying to render it coherent. In this piece, drawing out the “Brocktopus” and ultimately, “Pizzagate,” Horsley has owned the confusion in a way I find admirable, but “admirable” is too meek a word. I think we would all do well to look at this, whistle, and admit we are all in the baby pool. Amidst sound and fury, and the pressure to keep up with the autobahn speed of the story, (which moves as fast as it does propelled by induced propaganda rage,) we know almost nothing.

I found Horsley’s article when I went on voat.com to see if there was any real information about the Comet Ping Pong gunman.

[It has a fascinating seaweed bed of links on Welch at bottom, that defy belief. He spent time in Haiti?]

It seems to be the stage has been set for Comet Ping Pong to close its doors, because it is no longer a “safe” restaurant by any stretch.

Sunday brunch in DC with the kids? “I have a great idea sweetie, let’s go to Comet Ping Pong! I can’t see why not. Can you?”

What American writer could ever aspire to “describe” this America, or make “sense” if it?

[You may be familiar with Anna Akhmatova’s famous poem “Requiem,” in which a faceless woman in a breadline during the Yezhov terror turns to the poet in line behind her and says, “And can you describe this?”]

Horsley is entirely correct that in point of fact, none of us know which “news” and which attack balls of abusive “persuasion” on media/sicla media have been “fake” and which or which parts of which may have been organic. This means “Pizzagate” could be a fabrication from the start. Except there is no “start.” It’s all Escher stairs that lead to no “before,” no moment of innocence, before paradise is lost.

It becomes evident as you read, and rub your temples, that you are gulping like a goldfish as flakes of information without having even a prayer of understanding either the context, the no context, or the meta-context of no context of what you think you are revealing.

That said–organized pedophilia and the complicity of the global mainstream media, the sullying of those who press against it morally–this is definitely “real.”

As an aside–I also just reviewed The Society of Professional Journalists (SPJ) website. They linked to a very dubious “toolbox” about “the [debunked] Zika virus,” that suggested they have dropped their standards, like most of these outfits do, on matter of mega-funded scare viruses lacking causation models for the syndromes they are accused of causing. Talk about witch hunts.

Still, I like the fact that SPJ has been around since 1909, I (kind of, but not really) want to know more about them, and I wholeheartedly approve of this ethics code for journalism.

*I don’t call writers “bloggers,” ever. I call them writers.

And now I’m going to make a donation to his Mr. Horsley’s website, the devil being, as we know, in the detail.

It has been widely reported that a 28 year old man from North Carolina named Edgar Maddison Welch entered [controversial DC restaurant] Comet Ping Pong in Washington DC yesterday, Dec 4, at “around” 3 pm with either a gun or a rifle. According to reports and eye witness accounts, he was not concerned with the guests and did not try to block anybody’s passage, nor did he make eye contact or speak with any staff. Rather, he went to the kitchen area and seemed to be looking for something.

At some point he allegedly fired his gun into the floor. I am not aware of anything he said to anybody.

Guests fled, panic broke out, he left with his arms in the air and was arrested.

The story broke at 16:10:18 pm, i.e. an hour later, in The Washingtonian. I don’t know if any news outlet broke it earlier.

On Twitter, early this afternoon, I saw Tweets claiming Welch was an “actor,” and that he was hired to act out a false flag operation to justify a crackdown on citizen and online journalism now branded by the left as “fake news.”

I asked all Twitterers who said such things if they had proof. As I write this, none have replied. It appears Welch has appeared as an actor in some minor film roles.

I have spent the day studying this as best I can, in my at home fact distillery–me, my phone, my laptop, my contacts, my experience and my mind.

I called a source with access to police records and data bases and asked if he could locate yesterday’s police report for this incident. This he was not able to do, yet, but–he was able to locate Welch’s records, which I was not able to download on my laptop but only on my phone. It’s harder therefore to assess–and I will add more later if there is anything important to add, from it–but this much I have gleaned:

Welch has a criminal record–DUIs, traffic violations, and an incident in which he hit a child with his car. The child survived.

He registered as a Republican in 2006, when he turned 18.

He has held 17 addresses–all either NC, GA, and one in Ohio. His record shows 4 evictions, no professional affiliations, no professional licenses, no bankruptcy records, no liens, and 2 judgements. Both judgements involve: “Forcible entry.”

I could find no social media account of his, but have read in alarmist news reports that he “liked” Alex Jones’ Infowars.

I also have found no evidence he was hired to stage a false flag. I vehemently oppose speculation of this kind. Follow facts all the way to the root or shut up, is my belief.

There are two photos of him circulating–in one he is carrying an assault rifle across his chest and looks like a white supremacist, or what we call “redneck,”–menacing facial expression. The other is a man who looks nothing like him (in the menacing photo) whose clothes and even sneakers are in American flag motif. This image is more goofy, less menacing.

I can’t find any online evidence that Welch was upset about, or researching, “Pizzagate.”

Perhaps he was. Many people are.

As I write this, I am not clear how “Pizzagate” came to focus on Comet Ping Pong, nor do I think it’s the right focus. I also have never said I know what is going on with the Podesta brothers. I do report on what is being ASKED by the American public.

Wikileaks leaked the emails and called them: “The Podesta Files.”

We can all read them. I do believe that all people are innocent until proven guilty. I personally wish there was a very strict ban on art that depicts adults having sex with children.

Meanwhile, if Alefantis wants to prove he has no basement, he needs to address the interview bloggers have found where he cites Comet Ping Pong’s basement. All of these “rumors” could easily have been laid to rest of Alefantis wanted to. He wants to play the victim. If none of the suspicions are true then he IS a victim. But why can’t he address them then, in detail? Why can’t he explain any of the things “ordinary” Americans are horrified by?

I’m very mindful of the fine line between the spirit of mindful investigation and the spirit of a witch hunt.

Those of us still deeply concerned with the blatant pedopholia themes (and words) of captured Alefantis Instagram shots are being bullied to stop speculating, and accused of many things, including now vigilante attacks on totally innocent small restaurants that have done nothing to deserve this hate.

I resist all attempts to vilify my continued attempts to glean important facts about all this.

The American Transcendentalist in me, and Romantic, wants to say this: Henry David Thoreau’s spirit is hovering all over this and smiling, (if he ever smiled.)

The pickled observer in me wants to say: What’s this about re-routing? That worries me. Also, did Obama have the executive power to stop this…the whole time?

I really hope it’s not true that Donald Trump is in favor of this despised pipeline.

But it might be. I don’t have time to know all these things at once. I am the only staff I have. In my dreams I have a staff of 50 incorruptible and reporters with no life to go home to, of all ages, races, political persuasions and all in competition to bring ME the truth gold at the end of the day. My office would be a place where they would fear to come knocking if they came home not have overturned every stone. Or failed to call enough sources on all sides to bring me the real story. Which, being the Tribal Chief, I would know as soon as I looked at the text, and if it was true gold, I’d nod almost imperceptibly.

“Run it.”

In a any case: These words have been issued, and are real:

The following statement was released by Standing Rock Sioux Tribal Chairman Dave Archambault II.

“Today, the U.S. Army Corps of Engineers announced that it will not be granting the easement to cross Lake Oahe for the proposed Dakota Access Pipeline. Instead, the Corps will be undertaking an environmental impact statement to look at possible alternative routes. We wholeheartedly support the decision of the administration and commend with the utmost gratitude the courage it took on the part of President Obama, the Army Corps, the Department of Justice and the Department of the Interior to take steps to correct the course of history and to do the right thing.

The Standing Rock Sioux Tribe and all of Indian Country will be forever grateful to the Obama Administration for this historic decision.

We want to thank everyone who played a role in advocating for this cause. We thank the tribal youth who initiated this movement. We thank the millions of people around the globe who expressed support for our cause. We thank the thousands of people who came to the camps to support us, and the tens of thousands who donated time, talent, and money to our efforts to stand against this pipeline in the name of protecting our water. We especially thank all of the other tribal nations and jurisdictions who stood in solidarity with us, and we stand ready to stand with you if and when your people are in need.

Throughout this effort I have stressed the importance of acting at all times in a peaceful and prayerful manner – and that is how we will respond to this decision. With this decision we look forward to being able to return home and spend the winter with our families and loved ones, many of whom have sacrificed as well. We look forward to celebrating in wopila, in thanks, in the coming days.

We hope that Kelcey Warren, Governor Dalrymple, and the incoming Trump administration respect this decision and understand the complex process that led us to this point. When it comes to infrastructure development in Indian Country and with respect to treaty lands, we must strive to work together to reach decisions that reflect the multifaceted considerations of tribes.

Treaties are paramount law and must be respected, and we welcome dialogue on how to continue to honor that moving forward. We are not opposed to energy independence, economic development, or national security concerns but we must ensure that these decisions are made with the considerations of our Indigenous peoples.

To our local law enforcement, I hope that we can work together to heal our relationship as we all work to protect the lives and safety of our people. I recognize the extreme stress that the situation caused and look forward to a future that reflects more mutual understanding and respect.

Again, we are deeply appreciative that the Obama Administration took the time and effort to genuinely consider the broad spectrum of tribal concerns. In a system that has continuously been stacked against us from every angle, it took tremendous courage to take a new approach to our nation-to-nation relationship, and we will be forever grateful.”

I told you late last night that a source close to the vaccine battle posted on FB that Dave Weldon was appointed the new director of the CDC.

It’s not accurate.

The source who told my source said something that the source misinterpreted and it took off from there.

I apologize for jumping the gun, but I clarified in the post what I had heard, from whom, that it was on FB, and that I was not 100% sure.

I wrote: “I hope this is still true tomorrow.”

Well, it isn’t.

Not as bad as Newsweek or Time (forget which) printing millions of copies of Hillary on the cover with the headline: “Madam President,” before the election, and certainly not as costly. But still, I owe you an apology for not waiting for more confirmation.

[Ed: I regret being forced to publish such racist swill but people need to know this. There is a lot more where this came from. ]

“What most people don’t know is that Marx was an out and out racist and anti-Semite. He didn’t think much of Mexicans. Concerning the annexation of California after the Mexican-American War, Marx wrote: “Without violence, nothing is ever accomplished in history.” Then he asks, “Is it a misfortune that magnificent California was seized from the lazy Mexicans who did not know what to do with it?” Friedrich Engels, Marx’s co-author of the “Manifesto of the Communist Party,” added, “In America, we have witnessed the conquest of Mexico and have rejoiced at it. It is to the interest of its own development that Mexico will be placed under the tutelage of the United States.” Much of Marx’s ideas can be found in a book written by former communist Nathaniel Weyl, titled “Karl Marx, Racist” (1979).

In a July 1862 letter to Engels, in reference to his socialist political competitor, Ferdinand Lassalle, Marx wrote, “… it is now completely clear to me that he, as is proved by his cranial formation and his hair, descends from the Negroes from Egypt, assuming that his mother or grandmother had not interbred with a nigger. Now this union of Judaism and Germanism with a basic Negro substance must produce a peculiar product. The obtrusiveness of the fellow is also nigger-like.”

“Well, Celia, it seems we’ve been exposed as charlatans. It was a great hoax–thanks in large part to the behind-the-scenes efforts of our Russian handlers. I asked Boris Badenov how they planted similar stories in Norway and Canada about busting pedophile rings; he said: “Better you should not be asking.”
What’s even more astounding is how our Russkie friends went back in time to alter the urban dictionaries to fake a sinister meaning for the terms “cheese pizza” and “in poor health, not expected to survive.”
And yes, they did all that while stealing the US election for Donald!

Well, now that the Bear’s outof the bag, so to speak, I’m gonna ask for extraction so I can drink my remaining days away in my Crimean Dachau.

It was all a great big joke, folks. We faked the Podesta emails. Our children are safe.

Man, what a week. Unpredictable energy popping out of people like popcorn. Rage. Frailty. “Where’s my place in things?” I feel like I’m falling through colors and icebergs and danger and funerals and toys and hidden romances, and there’s a little bit of blood on everything. I hear the sound of breathing and the ghost of old songs half heard. It’s the holidays, and Saturday, and there’s a wind blowing all the words away. The newspaper goes blank in my hands, and my hands look foreign to me. I feel like we’re all spirits revisiting the days of our earthly lives, leaving little messages for the truly living. A December morning.

As of this morning, my new favorite news website both for trustworthiness and transparent (aka “great”) writing, is www.sofrep.com, billed as “…trusted news and intelligence from special ops veterans.” Some of their ads are for big fat guns that scare me, but I am going to tell you why I like them.

I downloaded the EU’s brand new “European Defense Action Plan” [PDF] and started to read it. It made me uncomfortable. I sought interpretations in the media that told me straight up what it was all about, as I have become intolerant of all things occluded in the age of Political Correctness, where everybody uses that unctuous elitist tone that now has morphed into a virtual smoke machine. You never hear a human voice, and you never escape the narcissistic imposition of moral superiority.

The EU was beefing up its military, dramatically, and it seemed to have something to do with Donald Trump, and I needed to know how exactly NATO is considered evil now.

I found this site, and the writings of one Alex Hollings, a U.S. Marine.

Here is one graph from his report on the European Defense Action Plan:

“The European Defense Action Plan calls for a dramatic increase in funding for joint military assets among member nations. The proposal includes increasing immediate expenditures from twenty-five million euros per year to ninety million by 2020, when it will be replaced by a new defense spending program that allocates five hundred million euros annually. An additional fund created in this plan could potentially be worth five billion euros per year, and could be used to help member states acquire expensive military assets like drones in joint purchases with other nations to reduce costs.

The plan is intended to help bolster defense spending throughout the European Union, while also creating a “single market for defense” within the organization. This financial strategy would be modeled after existing “single markets” in Europe designed to aid international trade within the Union like telecoms and energy.

Some believe this influx in military spending within the EU is due to concerns over President Elect Donald Trump’s stance on NATO, who made headlines during his presidential campaign when he suggested that the United States may not come to the aid of its NATO allies in their time of need. Trump’s stance is based on his concerns over many of the organization’s member nations failing to meet their required defense expenditures, opting to rely instead on the military might of the United States.

John Bolton, rumored to be a contender for Secretary of State under President Trump, said he believed any effort to establish a joint European military body must be considered a sign of withering confidence in NATO in the face of Trump’s hard line stance on the organization.

“If they actually got to the point of achieving [a true EU military capability] – that would be a dagger pointed at the heart of NATO,” Bolton said during an appearance on Breitbart News Daily radio on Wednesday. “If the EU says, ‘Actually, we can defend ourselves,’ I tell you, there are a lot of Americans who would say, ‘Fine, and by the way, the next time an authoritarian militaristic society threatens you, let us know how it turns out.’”

Excellent.

Very clear, and I did not feel bullied.

My curiosity piqued, I stayed on the site, and found this piece, where Hollings is trying to make heads or tails of Cairo, and manages to crystalize a whole world for me in one paragraph:

“As I strolled down the street in Cairo wearing the most foolishly American-looking polo shirt I could have possibly chosen, I realized quickly that the area I was in wasn’t commonly traversed by tourists. Unfinished but occupied apartment buildings towered above me on all sides, with extension cords spanning across them from windowless openings in the upper floors. The moist mud clumped on either side of the street, I quickly realized, was a mix of gasoline, oil, and human waste. I bought some bottled water from a man on the street, who explained that the owners of these apartment buildings didn’t need to pay taxes until they were complete, so they had opted to never actually complete them. The downside to their scheme was that utilities like running water and electricity would only be activated when the owners started paying taxes. As a result, some people simply throw their waste out the window to avoid the long hike required to dispose of it responsibly.”

It’s a marvel of a passage. Every words dances into every other, showing– not concealing– meaning, context, subtext, history, corruption, and humanity.

Speaking of which, the late Michael Hastings was an outstanding journalist and writer, and until his bizarre death, Rolling Stone was still publishing sizzling stuff. I do suspect Hastings was killed, by remote controlled car crash. I interviewed car mechanics back when it happened, just for my own internal records, and they all confirmed the crash and subsequent dismemberment of the vehicle was impossible. Hastings should have perhaps backed down. But really good journalists don’t do that, when they get onto the scent of a very big story and are young enough not to have gotten the Big Memo.

Is a story worth dying for?

I would put it this way: At the root of real investigative journalism lies a death wish. It’s unconscious. For this reason, you’ll find that the best journalists are ruined souls who had horrendous childhoods. Case in point: Julian Assange. Julian Assange told Michael Hastings in a Rolling Stone interview I read several times, that what he is revealing is more important than his own life, and furthermore, that all core Wikileaks staff accepted this.

I almost cried when I read that.

I used to have that deranged big story lust, and should be thankful to be here, still. I like writing here, in total freedom.

I wrote for Rolling Stone once, (in 2000) about O.J. Simpson, and will always be grateful because when Wenner heard I was to be paid $2 a word, he randomly raised it to $3 a word, because I had such good access to O.J. and his inner circle. This I needed, to report the story “O.J. Inc,” about the underground market of O.J.’s signature, which also funded his criminal defense.

I should add that I feel immensely sorry for the journalist who produced the story about campus rape that turned out to be based on a false witness. This is the waking and sleeping nightmare of every journalist on earth. And it happened after decades of Wenner publishing almost only men. Awful.

Self-servingly, I point to it as exhibit A of what happens when a journalist is “discredited,” for real. It happens from the text, not from special interest, funded to the gills, interest groups, or “activists.” And the outlet–in this case Rolling Stone— has to capitulate when the falsity is brought to light.

The very fact that we’re learning about Pizzagate indicates they’re being exposed. Given the nature and extent of this curse, it will be a slow process. Central is the fact that taking these people down is synonymous with destroying the entire corrupt Western political, corporate and financial power structure. But it will succeed.

Years ago when I first got online I started reading about it. I mentioned my findings to a friend–a local cop. He told me that in police academy a guest came to speak about pedophilia. The man told the trainees to be very careful and meticulous when prosecuting these cases, because the presiding judge might be another pedophile himself.

Former PA Attorney General Kathleen Kane just began a 23-month sentence on bizarre charges. Kane had poked her nose into Penn State’s Sandusky pedophile case.

They protect their own, you see.

I know why JonBenet Ramsey was killed. And no, it was nobody in her family.
I know why Supreme Court Justice Antonin Scalia died, with a pillow over his head, and no subsequent autopsy was performed.

I merely collect data. The information is out there, for anybody who has the stomach for it. Run a search for “The Franklin Coverup,” a documentary the Discovery Channel chose, at the last minute, not to air. It’s on the WWW, if you know where to look.

More often than not, the FBI, the courts, are useless. Because when you join the Club, and participate, you’re videotaped. They have something on you. And that’s your ticket to the House, the Senate, the Governor’s Mansion, the White House, an Anchor slot on the Nightly News, and, of course, the Federal Bench. You rarely rise to these heights unless they have something on you.

How do we live with all this? That’s a problem. Some pedophilia is hereditary, in the genes, and so, many of us express outrage a tad too stridently.

We as a society are going to have to come to terms with all of this. And that will require a hard honest look at ourselves. Much as we might wish, we dare not turn our backs on it.

The toughest part for me is knowing that 300,000 American children disappear every year and are never found.again. It is one thing to know this in one’s mind; it is a whole other thing to contemplate all that pure innocence taken from those unable to defendthemselves.
Gonna pour me a drink now.

–R.A. Davis

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