Saturday, March 27, 2004

Sturgeons will nibble at bait, and just when you think youve got them, theyre gone.

"You were with (LeGirl) this evening?"
"Sure. I stopped by her job, she asked me if I was doing ok, we chatted a bit, I left. I do that a lot."
"You never mentioned you see her that often."
"You never asked."
"Man, youre such a sturgeon."

Friday, March 26, 2004

Color 'em sold gone

yamB: didja have your show yet?
JPennant: it was moved to May
yamB: nod
JPennant: Im already selling prints :-)
yamB: where?
JPennant: Just sold 2 to former co-workers at Deloitte
yamB: cool
JPennant: 3 more to clerks at the post office :-)
JPennant: and 2 to guys at the shelter
JPennant: hee
yamB: are ya gonna sell any on the net?
JPennant: yup
yamB: natch
JPennant: I wasnt gonna, to tell ya the truth
JPennant: sell prints, that is. Just show 'em.
JPennant: but they seem to be selling themselves when I do show them.
yamB: as well they should! ;-)
JPennant: so far the biggest sellers are "Still Water" and "Showing the Blues"
yamB: you could prolly sell them down here, on the street with no problem
JPennant: heheh, THERE"S an idea. :-)
yamB: at the beach or a swap meet
JPennant: that might be fun :-)
yamB: your stuff is way better than anything i've seen in those locations
JPennant: really?
yamB: well, maybe that's not a good comparison....
yamB: yours should be more in galleries than some cheesy flea market
JPennant: whoa
JPennant: I dont even think Im at that level yet
yamB: seriously
JPennant: well, lets see how it goes at the cheesy markets first :-)
JPennant: theyve got money too ;-)
yamB: but going those avenues might be a way to get your name out there too
JPennant: Im not being modest, but Im actually surprised people are coming to me wanting to buy
yamB: well, the next time you consider coming south, maybe we could look into what it would take to sell at one of those places
JPennant: thats incentive to visit for a weekend at least
yamB: might even pay for your visit ;-)
JPennant: LoL
JPennant: I aint counting on it :-)
yamB: haha, no ya cant do that :-)

Last week if you'd said to me, "Marn, the right side of your face is going to be partially frozen for a while and you're going to have to put goo in your eye three times a day" I would have been horrified. There would have been mass quantities of anguish and drama.

But now I'm all, "Woo HOOOOOO, It's Not A Stroke" and everything else seems like small potatos.

Mira asked me the other day "What do you do with your time every day?"

I think she expected a forward moving itinerary or list.

I didnt give her a straight answer.

Apart from sitting around waiting on beauracratic nonsense, the honest answer is...

Nothing.

Or, more accurately... nothing that I dont want to do.

Its pure joy to have the relative freedom to live my life the way I want, but the other day I realized that there is something that MUST change.

Do I do what I want because Im FORCED to do it or do what I want when I CHOOSE?

Which means I do have to be more proactive, for as I get older, Im appreciating the value of time, and how precious it is.

Sometimes I go "DAMN, I wish I'd have done all this earlier!"

Sorry, I wish I could articulate this better.

But long story short - I appreciate the life and freedom I have to live on the path I want to be on.

Because I need to be doing nothing that I dont want to do.

For as Marn sums the matter:

And because you can hear the clock softly ticking, ticking, ticking and you know that the verb "can't" is going to have to become a bigger part of your vocabulary.

No coffee = Cessation of hypertension and some of its associated maladies.

Woohoo.

However, one nurse at Highland Hospital opined..

"You know, I read an article somewhere that coffee helps against the symptoms of diabetes. So it might be that all that coffee youve been drinking, along with being a non-smoker and non-drinker actually PROTECTED you."

The *@^#%@%^ woman who flaked MONTHS ago NOW decides that she wants in.

She bitches to the owner of the place, who orders the co-ordinator to make room on the schedule and now I have MORE time to prepare.

*humph*

Of course its good news, you kiddin'?

I get more time to prepare. I have time to get better art supplies. I can get more help.

Still tho... I didnt NEED more time. I also told a zillion people that I'd be showing in April. And really I was being QUITE motivated by that sense of urgency.

And I wanted this to be OVER thanyouveryfuckinmuch. Ive got too much OTHER things to do.

"But this is a GOOD thing. You get more time!"
"Yeah, and a litle more cash become available for art supplies."
"So, itsa good thing right?"
"Yeah, but I dont want more time. I get lazy if I know if I have time."
"Man, there's no pleasing you, is there? :-)"

Answer censored.
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Today's horrorscope:

Mars, planet of action and energy, leaves your fellow earth sign of Taurus today, but there is no reason your own energy should wane.

You have built up a good head of steam in recent weeks and if you are sensible you can keep it going for quite some time.

Yeah, thats my achilles. I get too comfortable when I know I have time to spare.

Time for some Jedi Mind Trix.
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All fire-breathing drama aside, I do know this is all for the best.

As I was telly Doc Goodhead in her comments.. the things that are supposed to Be, Let them Be.