Month: June 2008

Good News!! Hubby’s grandpa is out of the critical care unit and is receiving medication to stabilize his blood pressure. The plan is for him to come home tomorrow. YAY!!!!

Switching gears, Saturday will mark day 28 of this cycle. The past few months that i’ve been taking progesterone, i haven’t made it to 28 days – i always started early. So, my trying-not-to-be-hopeful thinking is that if i can make it to Friday without any event, there is a good possibility i could be pregnant. I’m really trying not to think about it. Just happened to take a mental note of the length of my cycle thus far when i was noting my medication on the chart.

On another note, hubby worked over at my parent’s house all weekend. My dad is building a pole barn and my hubby could not be more excited to help. This is kinda cool cuz my hubby has never really expressed much interest in anything my parents do. I’m hoping this will be a good bonding experience for hubby and my dad. So far, so good.

We celebrated my mum’s birthday on Saturday. I made a cake and brought it over. All my brothers came over and we celebrated with pizza and cake. Sounds like a little kid party, but everyone was tired from working on the barn all day. My brother got a new puppy last week and brought him over. So cute!! Holding a cute little puppy made me want one, but i’d rather have a 2-legged puppy if you know what i mean.

Sunday i worked most of the day on generated invoices for hubby’s business. We only send our customer’s invoices once a month, so usually the last day of the month is crazy for me. The final tally was encouraging, and only a small handful of customers have outstanding balances. We are making some pretty big strides financially. We went out to dinner the other night and reminisced on how far in debt we were just a year and a half ago and the progress we’ve made. I pray that we can keep up the pace as far as income goes, but when you depend on the weather you can never stop and take a breath. This October will mark our halfway point in the credit counseling service we signed up with. One step at a time we are regaining our life. Although the economy makes me nervous, i have faith that God will not let us encounter a situation we can’t handle. We’ve pretty much encountered it all by now. We’ve learned our lesson and are in the process of paying the price. I see the finish line and i’m not taking my eyes off of it!

Yesterday my MIL had knee surgery so we stopped in for a few minutes to see how she was doing. She’s on crutches and pain meds for a few days, but otherwise no big deal. She’s looking forward to a few days off.

Afterwards, we went next door to check on gramps. He had a doctor’s appt earlier that day and found out that the cancer was back and is ulcerated – whatever that means. Although not good news, he seemed to be in good spirits and was talkative. Just as we were getting ready to leave, he vomitted unexpectedly. We got some towels and got him cleaned up. I really felt sorry for him, he’s a very proud man and i’m sure he was embarassed by the incident.

We left and went home, made dinner and went to bed. A litttle after midnight, grandma called and said grandpa is very sick please come down. So of course hubby jumps out of bed and runs down there. They called the ambulance and took him to the hospital. Hubby and i followed along with hubby’s parents. The docs think he has an infection in his blood stream on top of very low blood pressure, diarrhea, and the cancer diagnosis. Poor guy. He was doing so good and feeling really good. He’s in ICU for now, but hopefully the doctors can fix this problem right away so he can feel better.

A few weeks ago a colleague came to work in tears. Her daughter’s high school graduation was just a few weeks away and she had hardly anything planned. She had ordered graduation announcements from the same company that did her older son’s announcements. But, when she picked them up, they looked awful. She brought them to work to see what our opinion was, maybe she was being hypersensitive. Seriously, they looked like a 9 year old hastily created them in 20 minutes and printed them on an old inkjet printer. I offered to re-do them for her since i like to tinker with those sorts of things. She gave me her daughter’s senior picture on a Friday and asked me to tinker if i had time, if not don’t worry about it, please don’t feel you have to, etc. They would be addressing envelopes that weekend and if i couldn’t do anything, they would just send what they had.

Well, i tinkered a little and printed some pretty nice looking invitations on my laser printer on nice cardstock that printed her picture nicely. It really was not a big deal. I enjoy doing that stuff and like helping friends out even more. I brought them to work on Monday and she loved them. she offered to pay, but i adamently refused. She had already paid for invitations and it’s not like i had to purchase anything. All i had invested was my time and i enjoyed doing it for her.

Fast forward to today and surprise, surprise, i find an envelope on my desk from her. She snuck out early so i didn’t even get a chance to talk to her, but inside the envelope was a beautiful note of appreciation and a gift certificate. She wrote that “no matter how bad a day can be you are always the contstant bright spot and inspiration in mine. That’s the good stuff.” Wow. It’s nice to know that despite all the crap going on in your head or in your personal life that you still have the power to make someone else’s day better. You serve a bigger purpose than what you may believe.

Things are getting pretty tense at work. We have recently been awarded several big jobs that start in a few weeks. That’s great news right? Well, somehow, the powers that be seem to have forgotton one very important thing. Although these jobs will bring in some big cash, we need to buy tooling, materials, and labor now. I’ve been doing projections since we’ve been awarded these jobs and showing a gaping black hole for a few months until the cash starts coming in and the payables level out. Apparently either nobody has looked at them or hasn’t cared.

This makes me really mad. Now i’m the one left wringing wet, sweating it out how we’re going to make payroll each week and balancing the demands from our vendors. Who will really stop shipping if we’re past due? Who won’t bother us for a while? What materials can we do without for now? Where else can we buy the same thing? ARG!!! And what really sucks? I’m the lowest paid, highest seniority of the upper management echelon.

Maybe it’s just time to move on. I hate to say that because i really love my job. I like what i do (other than recently), i love the people i work with, i love the drive (7 miles, who can beat that?!). I DON’T like my paycheck, and i DON’T like feeling like the only one who cares around here. So, i don’t know. In the long run, do the pros really outweigh the cons? I don’t have retirement befefits or dental insurance, but at least i have health insurance for my husband and myself. Can i really do better? It’s an awful scary thing to find a new job.

On another note, just when things start to go my way in my personal life, all hell breaks out at work. I am very worried about the future of the company i work for. Cash flow is a major concern. i think our sales group may have bitten off more than we can chew.

The past few weeks have been kinda crazy. Hubby’s grandpa has been going back to the doctor regularly. Apparently they found another spot of cancer. And now they are talking about starting chemo again. Hubby and i talked and decided that it’s time to turn to drugs to try to get pregnant before anything happens to his grandpa.

So, today i had an appointment and we are going to try femara. i haven’t lost any weight, well i did but then i gained it all back. carbs suck. anyway, i talked to the doctor and she said it was perfectly fine to continue doing low carb even during pregnancy. so, since i’m one of those people who work better under extreme pressure, i’m thinking this might be the best way for me to lose weight and stick to low carb once and for all.