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30 September 2012

Right now my life is so much different than it was only 3 months ago. I live in a new house and now I’m the mother of a preschooler, elementary student, middle school student, and a high school freshman at the same time. Chaotic. Awesome. Blessed.

Right now we are settled into our new home. The main areas are empty. We have no kitchen table, dining room table, or a couch. But what we do have, we now love and adore. And for that, we couldn’t be happier.

Right now I’m reminded how quickly Samantha is growing up. She loves yoga at preschool with teacher Barbie and now her first team experience with soccer.

Right now Samantha still loves going to the swimming pool to watch Rebecca or Emily practice. It is her happy place too, which makes my heart swell.

Right now Emily is enjoying volleyball on Saturday mornings. Our family was shocked at the talent of our little 55 pound fireball. She walks and plays with a bounce in her step.

Right now if Emily is not swimming or playing volleyball, you can find her nose in a book. She’s currently reading The Lemony Snicket Series. I love how I can look over and see her expressions change as she is reading. I’ve seen tears and I’ve seen her laugh out loud. Oh how I love to see her respond to the power of words and stories.

Right now Ben is changing before my eyes. He is changing physically with his braces and requested deodorant on the family grocery list. His love for adventure and thrills has not changed one bit though.

Right now Ben loves math but would prefer to play sports daily until sundown and if allowed, would fall asleep watching the highlights on Sport Center. He is currently a quarterback on his flag football team but loves playing defense and intercepting the football.

Right now Rebecca is handling her first year of high school like a champion. She is carrying a full load of honors classes, loves her Varsity swim team, and started Young Life.

Right now Rebecca is becoming a young woman. And if I were to be honest, she is handling it better than I am. She has been asked to the Homecoming dance next weekend. We spent yesterday buying all the essentials – a dress, shoes, and makeup. But in reality, I want her to be little like Sam again, running in the wrong direction on the soccer field.

Right now I’m still humbled by my brother-in-law Chris’s promotion to Major in the Air Force. My dad, a retired colonel, led the ceremonies and it brought back a flood of memories. So happy for my sister and her family.

Right now I am thankful for this man. He started his own law practice in May and works so hard to provide for us financially, emotionally, and spiritually. He has been my biggest cheerleader and is encouraging me to get back to writing our story.

Right now Jeff told me to go. Despite his work schedule, he arranged airfare, hotel, and a rental truck for me to go on a life list adventure this week. I’m sitting in a hotel room in Texas. I feel like both Thelma and Louise. My soul is in need of a jump start that often travel, hearing the stories of strangers, and time alone can provide. It’s time to leave my baggage and scars on the road. I’m choosing to walk away from them now.

Right now I’m more aware than ever that my attitude and outlook on life rubs off on my family. I essentially set the mood in my house. That realization humbles me and scares the hell out of me at the same time. So this trip is as much about starting over, accepting, embracing, and being grateful for all the changes that life has ushered into our wonderful family.