Sunday, January 31, 2010

My niece Brittney and her husband Jared had their first baby on January 18. I drove down to Cedar City on Friday to see the little cutie. He is SO tiny. In fact he is the same size as River was...I just don't remember River being so small! We are so happy for Jared and Brittney, and love little Jasper so much already!

Friday, January 8, 2010

Can't believe it...our baby boy is ONE year old! As I am sitting here typing this there are tears in my eyes. I just keep thinking about that amazing morning when the nurse placed him on my chest. That overwhelming magnificent feeling of pure love...not only for my baby, but for my husband as well. I do not regret the 7 wonderful years Bret and I spent together just he and I, but I did not know I could love him any more than I had...until that very second. I thought, wow, this human being is part of BOTH of us. Both of our blood runs through his veins. Both of us responsible for his very being. We created him.
I spent the entire 9 months of my pregnancy just praying and hoping that I would have a healthy baby. I did EVERYTHING by the book...daily vitamins, exercise, no pop, etc. I think back to my life changing experience 2 1/2 years ago, laying in a hospital bed in the ICU, in completely different circumstances...People praying for MY health! Now here I am a couple years later, maybe even in better health than I have ever been,....and a perfect, beautiful healthy baby boy in my arms. I stared at every inch of him. From his head of blond hair, down to his tiny toes. I couldn't believe how perfect every little part of him was! His little body was so warm against mine. I felt no pain. A complete feeling of euphoria came over me. Then seeing Bret hold him for the first time, I knew he felt the same love. Here we were at the hospital with a BABY! OUR baby!! It was unlike any feeling I had ever had. I often look back at the pictures from that day and sometimes get a little sad. Although I love to watch him grow and change, a part of me just wants to keep him my "baby" forever. I know I must embrace his changes and let him grow into this little boy that he is becoming...this little boy who will someday become a big brother, a man, a husband, a father, a grandfather...
But for now, he is our adorable little 1 year old.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Meet the newest member of our family! Little baby Chanley was born on New Years day! She belongs to Lance and Denise (Bret's brother and his wife). I haven't been able to see her in person yet, but I'm excited to go meet her sometime this week. Congratulations, Lance and Denise!!