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Sunday, July 1, 2012

The Beginnings of A Story . . .

I feel the carpet burning my freshly shaved milk white knees
as I crawl through the closet looking for my boots. I wonder why I am so disorganized. I wonder why I am such a mess. As I look around I realize that I may never find them. I flick my long brown hair off my right
shoulder and notice the clock on my white wash stained end table is screaming at me. Its ten o'clock!

"Dam I am late again!" I
think to myself.

I go into a half
stand catching my nightgown under my toes and fall flat on my back. I reach my hands up and begin to rub my
now red bumpy knees back to life.
I have no energy for this.
He is for sure going to be mad at me again.

I curl up into
a ball hugging my legs, rubbing my flushed cheeks against the softness of the
flannel on my nightgown. I begin to
rock back and forth as if I am in a straight jacket. Strangely the rocking
soothes me. In the stillness
of the moment I am longing for him.
Sometimes I think I can feel him next to me. I look at my forearms still wrapped around my legs as if
they are holding on for dear life and I see goosebumps. I feel the chill of them race through
my body tugging on my heart. I
stop rocking. A calmness washes over me. I wonder if it is him
again.

It doesn't take much to lure me back to those moments. Even though it was years ago for me it will always feel like yesterday. If I close my eyes I swear I can see him. If I think hard enough I feel him touch me gently on the face. Its as if I am right there in the kitchen with him again . . .

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I am a self taught artist, writer, photographer, pug lover, chocoholic, cancer survivor and author of the memoir "Breastless in the City".
For me it is all about the journey. Art takes me away to another place. It heals me.
I have fun with mixed media, abstract art, and digital collage. I hope to inspire with you with my creations!