I Want To Be On My Own Now

by Ann ()

I truly regret my selfishness and I just wish it was possible to turn back the clock. If only I had not been selfish and fought for the man I thought I loved, then he and his now ex partner would still be together and I know that they would have made things work. My selfishness pushed his ex partner over the edge to the point where she attacked him purely out of jealousy and being hurt. I was too engrossed in my own wants to see that she was hurting too. Four years on, I have realised all the hurt I have caused and as a result, she has been punished again and forced to move to another part of our country where we live. She is alone and financially destitute and is it mostly due to my selfish actions. My intuition tells me my partner still has feelings and he cares for his ex, even though he won’t admit it and he says he loves me and wants me. I don’t love him as I used to either mainly because I have grown stronger and I know that I can live by myself without fear. I pray for an instant miracle which will me from this relationship and I pray for a miracle which will reignite the spark between him and his ex so she can have what I selfishly took away from her.