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Honestly, one that doesn't seem like it's super important but actually is: scarring. I used to SI. I stopped completely in June 2013. It is now November 2017 and my arm and legs still look like they were put through a meat shredder. I wouldn't say I'm ashamed of my mental illnesses, but it's really degrading to still, 4+ years later have strangers asking me what happened to my arm. I'm extraordinarily self-conscious of it. And like I said, it's been 4+ years and the scarring is still extremely visible. It apparently takes much longer than you'd ever guess to fade.

For scars I have found that using those face masks helps fade them. You know the ones that go on wet and dry shiny and a bit tacky? It's been fading my scars really well. I stupidly cut on my arm during a hospital stay when I was pretty depressed. I can't have visible scars because of work so I'm trying to get creative.

Because a significant portion of the RBCs in my blood came from other people who donated blood to save lives, not so some ungrateful little **** could wash it down the drain and use up even more blood that other people need

Because I made a verbal commitment to the ER psychiatrist that I wouldn't, and my word is important to me

Because I'd probably end up inpatient this time, which would significantly interfere with my work and force others to pick up my slack

Because it didn't feel like "enough" last time or any other time, so why would I think this time would be any different?

Because people already see how bad things are and that I need help, and I don't need to prove it to anyone.

Because you're not allowed to pee unsupervised on a psych hold, and I really really hate that rule

Because cleanup is a pain in the ***

Because even if it's shallow enough that I can suture it myself, it will take all night and I'll be exhausted all day tomorrow

Because I'm tired of having to redress wounds every morning

Because it doesn't solve anything

Because I want to be able to comfortably walk long distances and take the stairs again

Because sutures are itchy

Because it gets worse every time

Because with my hemoglobin already this low, a mistake could actually mean accidentally dying

I could have lost my life if I lost too much blood
The people around me will be affected by it
It doesn't solve your problems in the long term
You will get scars that don't look good
There are other ways to get your emotions out
The feeling making you self harm will pass and you'll regret it when you cut yourself

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