Sunday, April 18, 2010

Lovely Sunday Afternoon

Hey everyone...so as you all know I was in a bit of a funk yesterday and kinda feeling sad and lonely for no reason. I don't know why but since my husband got deployed its been so much harder for me to be alone. I will be completely fine all day as long as I'm around someone...(my sis,friends, family etc.) and as soon as I'm alone again its like I'm a heaping mess! Which, maybe some of you are thinking, "Well DUH!!" but for me this is not normal! Being alone has never bothered me and in the past I often enjoyed doing many things by myself....curling up with a good book, watching a favorite movie, listening to some of my favorite songs or watching some One Tree Hill (yes, I admit it...I love One Tree Hill!!) so I can't really figure out how to understand why I'm feeling this way. Of course I am lonely and missing my hubby, thats a given, but lately it just seems like more than that. Honestly I think the hardest part of going through this deployment is the mental battle I have with myself each day, inside my head. I know I need to be stronger, I know I need to have thicker skin and most importantly I know I need to leave my worries and troubles for the Lord to take care of. I know I need to trust him to bring Isaiah home safely, and last night as I prayed before I went to bed I felt a peace in my heart and a quiet, calm stillness. I could feel the Lord taking my worries and it was almost as if he was saying, "Brittney you can trust me, I love you and I know whats best for you." I know that might sound corny to some people but to me it made me feel better and I went to sleep at ease. Although I am still sad and missing my hubby I know everything will be ok. And I am so thankful to all the people in my life, who are helping me get through all this with their kind words and encouragement. So I'm sorry to all my friends and loved ones who read my blog and listen to me complain all the time...you are appreciated! Trust me...your advice and friendships mean more to me than you could ever know. And to my Mom who is the strongest woman i know, thank you for raising me to be strong as well. I know that many of the things I've been through in my life have helped prepare me for this and have helped make me a fighter, someone who doesn't give up...even when things are hard. So thank you Mom. I know we have our differences and don't always agree on everything but I hope you know how much I love you. Well I think thats all for now..I just wanted to share what was on my mind. I hope you all had a lovely Sunday afternoon! Thanks for listening and as always, God Bless. :)

2 comments:

Yes...the nights are very lonely:( I'm the same way. I think every deployed wife feels the same way. It's good you have such great people surrounding you though. It makes ALL the difference in the world!

Amen sister!! The nights are always what gets me! I hate it!! lol but at the same time I have to get over it and accept the fact that I'm gonna be alone sometimes and I just have to learn to deal with it in a constructive way and not turn into a pile of tears!! lol and thank God for all the amazing people in my life...my bloggy friends included!! :)

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Welcome to my blog! I'm Brittney, a twenty something wife and mama enjoying life on the West Coast. I've got a sweet little boy and precious baby girl.This blog is where I document my daily life as a SAHM and our family's adventures. Welcome to my world!

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My husband and I met six years ago by chance when he happened to stop by my work to visit one of my co-workers. He made me laugh and we hit it off instantly. We fell head over heels in love and the rest is history! We've had our share of ups and downs but there's no one else on earth I want to spend the rest of my life with. In January 2013 we welcomed our first baby boy, Jeremiah Elijah into our lives & our hearts. I love my little family so very much.♥