I hope this finds you well. I wonder what you are doing today and if you think of me as often as I think of you. Since you agreed to the terms of war or peace or love or whatever, I must assume the answer is yes. How do you manage to function on a daily basis? All I can do is sit here wondering what you are doing and what you are thinking and counting down the hours until I can be with you at last. Ten and a half months do not seem so terribly long… and yet…. they seem so terribly long. Sometimes it feels like it’s just a matter of killing time and sometimes it feels like the time is killing me. But you leave me no choice. I love that about you, but it makes me feel so helpless. I also love that about you, that you can take from me everything and force me into patience. I am constantly waiting for you. Killing one moment at a time until at last we can be together. I hope you will be waiting for me at the end. I must trust in you, rely on you…. I have no other choice.

2 Responses to Another love letter to add to the piles of love letters

tricia

August 17, 2013 at 12:03 pm

Waiting is such a hard obstacle to overcome.. Especially if you don’t know if you should wait because the other persons feelings toward you are unknown. Patience is definitely a area of strength that not a lot of people have. Especially in our culture.. Everything must have an immediate result.. They patience pays off in the end.. Hopefully for your situation as for mine. Whether that be finally knowing where I stand with him or time healing my broken heart.. Best of luck!

Thanks for your words of support, tricia. They are exactly what I needed to hear right now.

There is no recovering for me, not from a love like this. My only choice is to wait and see if he will return my affection with the faith and love it has been given. Now that I am no longer bound by a double love, I am bound to wait for the man I love, until he decides the timing is right. I wish waiting were not to so difficult.