On My Own

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released 18 May 2012

Lyrics and music written and performed by Robert L. Ross
Keyboards on "Next Time Around" by Jason Rufuss Sewell
Additional vocals on "Set Yourself Free" by Kimberly Freeman
Produced by Robert L. Ross
Mixed by Jason Rufuss Sewell and Robert L. Ross
Mastered by Eric Broyhill

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I know you never promised nothin'
I wish that you had heard me straight
I fought to try and win you over
but now it seems I was too late

All I wanted was to hold you
To share my life and make me whole
A simple dream I've had too often
Frustrated visions of a fool

You only looked away
I wanted you to stay
Now you're gone and I'm here on my own

You only looked away
I wanted you to stay
Now you're gone and I'm here on my own

When you look back upon this moment
How will you justify the day?
Will I have been another loser
or be the one that got away?

You only looked away
I wanted you to stay
Now you're gone and I'm here on my own

Track Name: Fate

Fate

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You can forget what you wanted
You can forget what you feel
You can't escape from the questions
Fate deals the hand of the real

When you peer into the midnight sun
do the answers come in threes?
When you rush into oblivion
are you free?

In the timeless march towards nothingness
In the shadows of the great
Hear the crying of the sheltered ones
Hear your fate

In the echos of the lonely ones
With their cold oppressing weight
Hear the aching of tomorrow
Hear your fate
Hear your fate

You might be wise to abandon
Your idle plans for the wait
You'll never stir from your slumber
Awaken or find you're too late

In the forest of your emotions
do the answers grow like trees?
When you've doctored your perceptions
are you free?

In the timeless march towards nothingness
In the shadows of the great
Hear the crying of the sheltered ones
Hear your fate

In the echos of the lonely ones
With their cold oppressing weight
Hear the aching of tomorrow
Hear your fate
Hear your fate

When you stare into forever
are you filled with certainty?
When you're blinded by the rising sun
are you free?

In the timeless march towards nothingness
In the shadows of the great
Hear the crying of the sheltered ones
Hear your fate

In the echos of the lonely ones
With their cold oppressing weight
Hear the aching of tomorrow
Hear your fate
Hear your fate

Hear your fate

Track Name: Next Time Around

Next Time Around

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The door is open I stare at the night
Waiting for something to bring in the light
If I could see clear towards it I would run
Is it all over or never begun?

That's when I'll find it
That's when I'll find it
I'll find it next time around
That's when I'll find it
I guess I'll have to wait for next time
I'll find it it next time around

The smiling faces of those who have found
the inner glow of two souls tightly bound
The quiet calm of the soft blowing wind
whispering gently the victory within

That's when I'll find it
That's when I'll find it
I'll find it next time around
That's when I'll find it
I guess I'll have to wait for next time
I'll find it it next time around

Hiding in shadows I gaze at the sky
Drown in the laughter of those strolling by
Peering through windows at tables within
the places set for the feast to begin

That's when I'll find it
I guess I'll have to wait for next time
I'll find it it next time around
That's when I'll find it
I guess I'll have to wait for next time
I'll find it it next time around

Track Name: Why

Why

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I don't know why I tremble dialing on the phone
the worst that you could say is no
And as you sit there smiling talking with your own
the distance to you seems too far

I don't know why you leave me staring at your door
Why can't I ask to come inside?
And though I tell myself you might be wanting more
I know I'll not see you again

Why am I here?
What do I fear?

I don't know how to say the things that must be said
I never learned to play this game
If you could guide me please, the light that shines the way
before my soul is numb and dead

Why am I here?
Why aren't you near?

And now the curtain slips away
and what remains is cast astray

I don't know why I bother writing down these songs
the ears I love will never hear
And though it fills this void and gives me time to think
I'm ever closer to the brink

Why aren't you here?
What do you fear?

And now the curtain falls today
and what remains is swept away

Track Name: Frog Princess

Frog Princess

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I met a princess
who thought she was a frog
and far too many times in life
was treated like a dog
She smiled at me
with blue and lonely eyes
and as she sang her song
I listened in surprise

So much beauty from so much pain

Frog Princess
more princess than frog
Frog Princess
too soon to write your epilogue
Frog Princess
to thy own frog self be true
Frog Princess
The world needs more frogs like you

The life you've had could fill the pages of a book
Oh the places you have been
the things that others took
the things that you have seen
the things that have been done
the people you have lost
Salve regina ranarum

So much beauty from so much pain

Frog Princess
more princess than frog
Frog Princess
too soon to write your epilogue
Frog Princess
to thy own frog self be true
Frog Princess
The world needs more frogs like you

When the long and grueling road
begins to wear you down
when despair pays you a visit
and attempts to steal your crown
kiss yourself for us and see
reflected in our eyes
your transformation from a frog
Dicimus, vox ranarum populi

Frog Princess
more princess than frog
Frog Princess
too soon to write your epilogue
Frog Princess
to thy own frog self be true
Frog Princess
The world needs more frogs like you

Frog Princess
Frog Princess
Frog Princess
Frog Princess
The world needs more frogs like you

Track Name: Stay

Stay

(c) 2012 Robert L. Ross
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The dreamer waking, sleepy gazing
sunlight at midday
the clock is ticking, time is slipping
suddenly dismay
so many plans though given birth have
somehow gone astray
the seed now planted rips the soil and
strains to pull away

Where is the strength to find a way?
Was it ever there once anyway?
A thousand futures beckon, calling every day
a search for something else to say
a search for reasons left to stay

And there you are both near and far
Oh life's contrary ways!
for every plan there's choices made
that push you through the maze
So many doors that now are closed
were open yesterday
Destiny awaits so pick a path
and don't delay

Losing the strength to find a way
Was it really there once anyway?
A thousand futures beckon, calling every day
A search for something else to say
a search for reasons left to
a search for reasons left to stay

Where is the strength to find a way?
Was it ever there once anyway?
A thousand futures beckon, calling every day
A thousand futures beckon, calling every day
A search for something else to say
a search for reasons left to
a search for reasons left to
a search for reasons left to stay

Track Name: Love Song in D

Love Song in D

(c) 2012 Robert L. Ross
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I think I love you
I think it's true
I think I love you
You love me too

The spark in your eyes when we kiss
the feel of the soft touch of your lips
your hand rests comfortably in mine
I want to love you all the time

I think I love you
I think it's true
I think I love you
You love me too

You make me feel so alive
Heart pounding beats of joy inside
With you there's nothing I will fear
come let me whisper in your ear

I think I love you
I think it's true
I think I love you
You love me too

You make me feel so alive
Heart pounding beats of joy inside
With you there's nothing I will fear
come let me whisper in your ear

I think I love you
I think it's true
I think I love you
You love me too

I think I love you
I think it's true
I think I love you
You love me too
I know you do
Oh say you do

Track Name: Undone

Undone

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Can that once made be made undone?
Escape behind the setting sun?
Do caverns deep beneath the earth
hold out hope for life's re-birth?

Or gazing towards the starry skies
with supplicating scripture lines
call out to powers still unseen
to wake us from this bitter dream

Upon this stage we play our part
till curtain close and houselight dark
And if by chance we win renown
fame does not outlast the mound

Wherefore eyes to witness sights?
Exquisite grandeur oft delights
But light will fade and neurons rot
and all such visions are forgotten

And why then ears with which to glean
a lover's sigh or child's dream?
And music, Music! Oh sweet sound
Eternal silence underground

But to be nothing, after all
is not like any thing at all
Our musing ends when the carriage calls
so let us muse until night falls

Then at that moment, at the brink
will I find solace when I think
although my time to be was brief
to be at all - beyond belief!

beyond belief
to be at all
Can that once made be made undone?

Track Name: Find Your Way Home

Find Your Way Home

(c) 2012 Robert L. Ross
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You say
you seek a love that feeds your hunger
You pray
that his open arms will swallow you whole
You find
in the winter of your love you lose your mind
Your soul
in your icy prison lost unto the world

How long
must it be the way you never wanted?
How strong
must be the light that takes you home?

Find your way home

You cry
tears that never seem to dry
You think
your life before you rushes to the brink
You try
to salvage something you wish that was there
You die
inside you feeling falling to despair

How long
must it be the way you never wanted?
How strong
must be the light that takes you home?

Find your way home

You say
the only way is for him to love you
You think
that less than this to nothing you must sink
But your life
cannot be measured simply by this goal
Your soul
is a priceless gift, a beacon to us all

How long
must it be the way you never wanted?
How strong
must be the light that takes you home?

Find your way home

Track Name: Laugh

Laugh

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Angry young boys
with deadly toys
their classmates lie upon the ground
Poor little girls
have left this world
how is it that men can be so mean?

Pictures I see on my TV leave me blind
trying to see the fate we build for mankind

Laugh through the anger
Laugh through the pain
Laugh or you'll cry
the world is insane

Bearded young men
who plot revenge
against a world that's left them far behind
Pious old men
who say Amen
then create new angry little boys

I turn off the tube
not in the mood
and go outside
to gaze in the air
bluest and fair sunlit sky

Laugh through the anger
Laugh through the pain
Laugh or you'll cry
the world is insane

Track Name: Set Yourself Free

Set Yourself Free

(c) 2012 Robert L. Ross
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Growing up confused and frightened
hearing all the time
a worthless waste of time and space
success you'll never find
The constant verbal swords that stabbed you
have bled your ego dry
an emptiness devoid of hope
you face your future blind

And now you sit alone and helpless
the tube your only friend
empty bottles strewn about
portend your bitter end
Wincing as the door flies open
waiting for his spite
A dead end life engulfs you
but escape your fate you might

You can set yourself free
let yourself go and just be
move yourself along
leave behind the wrong
and you can set yourself free

Somewhere deep a child sleeps
who never got to learn
that fate is something only formed
by you and you alone
so dare to to take a chance
a thousand dreams wait there for you
if you take a look inside you
then you know what you can do

You can set yourself free
let yourself go and just be
move yourself along
leave behind the wrong
and you can set yourself free

When will this vicious circle end?
Our children's hope we owe to them
and all of us should plainly see
our brother's keepers we must be

You can set yourself free
let yourself go and just be
move yourself along
leave behind the wrong
and you can set yourself free
let yourself go and just be
move yourself along
leave behind the wrong
and you can set yourself free

Track Name: No Dying

No Dying

(c) 2012 Robert L. Ross
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I used to think when times got tough
an easy way to deal with stuff
the magic bullet loaded gun
a razor's morbid slicing run
hang a noose about my neck
cyanide, or better yet
a leap from some gigantic height
forever ends these painful nights

That was then, this is now
a wiser view evolved somehow
no cozy way to deal with pain
just shake it off and try again
I look to hope to keep me sane
a cooler head can win the game
never a reason to keep from trying
as long as I live there'll be no dying

It's darkest just before the morn'
till Aurora flies and new day's born
Sun rays greet the warming sky
the night is chased away, goodbye!
Hanging on to see it through
there's always something there for you
to grasp before you slip away
so fight to face the dawning day

That was then, this is now
a wiser view evolved somehow
no cozy way to deal with pain
just shake it off and try again
I look to hope to keep me sane
a cooler head can win the game
never a reason to keep from trying
as long as I live there'll be no dying

Now all grown up I have to say
these passing thoughts don't fade away
We learn to choose when faced with pain
the strength to fight and dry the rain
For is peace in death such a sure thing?
I've never heard the Valkyries sing
I'd rather be alive to moan
than rushing towards the great unknown

That was then, this is now
a wiser view evolved somehow
no cozy way to deal with pain
just shake it off and try again
I look to hope to keep me sane
a cooler head can win the game
never a reason to keep from trying
as long as I live there'll be no dying