Friday, May 29, 2009

Horrible sweet cravings tonight

Why is this still happening? I think bc I have had more sweets lately- even in small doses. Sweets beget sweets true but depressing.

Tomorrow is my diet day off and I'm going to take it. I had to really watch myself today. Things were not happening naturally or without major effort and willpower. Definitely not in my normal groove today!!

I was looking for dinner starting at 4pm. This happens when I'm home early sometimes and it's horrible. I ate 100 baby carrots and sugar peas and cooked exotic pestos. I just could not distract myself!! My lunch may have been too small and my snack was insufficient due to being greasy and not high fiber. Potato chips and chicken sausage free samples from grocery store!!!! Somehow I ate an ok dinner around the right size. I should have just had a yogurt at 5 but I didn't want to admit defeat. What a dork.

Then tonight I've been dreaming of making chocolate chip cookies all evening only deterred by the thought of messing up the clean kitchen and by knowing that tomorrow I can indulge guilt-free.

I realize this post sounds completely neurotic. I must be more normal tomorrow!!