I thought if I keep a journal, it will be easier for me to keep track...starting tomorrow, since now it's already 22 pm I really hope I can go to the gym and that this stupid cold gets out of me! Damn it!

I weighed myself this morning... awful! 48.8, that means I have put on 1.1 over the weekend... I'm sad, discouraged, angry at myself and feeling like giving up. I don't want to go to the gym so that people ( and specially the trainer) don't see me fat...I don't want a healthy diet, as for right now, I would gladly starve myself in order to lose weight...I'm desperate... why the F**** can't I eat less? I feel like a pig . IHMAIWTD.

Aw! Hey everyone feels like this from time to time. The gym is not for people to judge you. If they do they are a-holes. If you are at the gym the only judgement intelligent people will make is that that woman is working hard, she cares about her health. Don't give up, just like your thread title, never surrender. It takes time and over eating urges are never easy to deal with for anyone. Just keep working at it. Try to add more healthy foods and that will eventually help you to crave the unhealthy less. Maybe not completely but definitely less.Its good to hear that you are taking the first steps towards being healthier even if they are difficult and frustrating. Just remember there are tons of us out there that can relate to your frustrations. Also there are tons of success stories, from those same people.

I went to the gym and did 1 hour bodycombat + 20 minutes abs exercises + 1 hour bodypump.... It was a blast, I really enjoyed the bodycombat! I had so much energy! and bodypump is always great, all the more since today a friend came to the class too...

I'm trying to diet according to macros, 40% p, 30% c and 30%f... HARD! I normally fall a bit too short in protein and a bit too high in carbs and way too high in fat! ... According my plan it should be 90g carbs 40 g fat and 120 protein...

I haven't weighed myself today but yestarday I did and had dropped 700gr...

I have to plan a bit better and more realistically, cos when I work out I get really hungry and 1250 calories a day might be a bit little...I don't know...well, as far as I'm losing weight (and fat) I'm happy

Hmmm... I'm having many more calories than I planned and not because I'm bored but because I'm hungry.... maybe I should go up to 1500 but like that I wouldn't lose weight I guess.... I put on 300 gr. ...and I read all that stuff about processed foods , how bad they are ...and now I'm having everyday this fake meat...and I don't even like it so much...just to have more protein and less carbs....

I still have cravings...chocolate is still my downfall... The information I'm finding here is really helpful but I fail when it's about putting it into practise.... I'm disappointed in myself. I just want to lose weight and fat and it's not working! I allow myself too much....and beat myself up for it! how stupid!....

I just want a plan to wich I can stick and that is effective for me....

I changed for 45% c, 35% p and 20% f in 1100 calories...I hope it works....and especially I hope I can stick to it.... fake meats are not in my plan anymore, just raw protein powder and raw protein bars along with fruits (not many because of the carbs) , vegetables and soy milk, tofu and soy yogurts... at least it is a menu i can be looking forward to eat.... that will make "dieting" easier....

My plan looks like that ( I used the complete time at the laundromat to write it down, LOL):

Breakfast: Sun Warrior + Soy milk + 1/2 raw organic protein bar

Snack: 1 glass soy milk (with coffee)

Lunch: Sun Warrior + soy milk

Pre workout: 1 banana + 20gr. dark chocolate

Dinner: Tofu salad + 2 soy yogurts with protein powder.(as alternative if I have to eat on the way or I feel like something sweet I would have a vega protein bar - when I receiv them, that is- and just one soy yogurt)

The plan sounds yummy, so there is no reason that I couldn't stick with it! It seems enough not to be (very hungry) but also not much so that I can create a calorie deficit and therefore lose weight.

48.8 kilos and you feel fat? How tall are you? I am a bit afraid to bring it up as I know little on the topic so don't want to say the wrong thing, but it seems a bit dysmorphic to feel fat at that weight, especially to the point where you don't want people to see you.

I know... I'm really short 1,57 and I know I'm not fat but I HAVE fat and... I come from an eating disorder...so I've been much thinner and have a bit of a problem accepting my current weight.... Last year I was weighing 41 to 42... tho I still had fat! I didn't do any sports or anything...just reducing calories to about 600/day... but I don't want that anymore...I'd be happy weighing 44 or 45 but with a bit of muscle ...I still have love handles (I hate them!) and fat in the belly region... but it's just 2 months since I started training so I hope it will change

I'm confused about what "diet" to follow but if one thing is true that is that the best diet is the one you can follow...so now...taking into account that I have to follow it, wait...that I WANT to follow it!!!, that I don't have time to cook (neitehr I'm good at it) and that I want to lose fat (my caliper said I have 38% fat... WTF?! I think I did it wrong, that is according to the measuremet overfat! and I can't believe I'm overfat weighing 48 (106 lbs yesterday) kilos even being so short! 1,57 (5"2)...

Anyways... I want to lose fat and maintain muscle....first things first and that is...losing fat first...

As far as training goes I want to do 5 days a week 50 minutes cardio (BODYCOMBAT) and 50 minutes BODYPUMP (That is weights but lots of repetitions with rather small amounts of weight)... I REALLY hope I can start today, I'm feeling still a bit sick, my ear hurts, I thought it was the throat but now I thoink it is the ear... FUCK! I hate these things...who doesn't?!

As far as diet goes.... I'm soooo confused.... If I want to get lean fast (and I really need the motivation), maybe the best thing would be to adapt the pre-contest diet... and mainly eating clean, that means fruits, vegetables and raw protein powder....it doesn't sound bad...as long as I still can have at least one banana a day!

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