How the Lord pulls us up out of the garbage of our past and dances with us on top of the dumpster.

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About wilmalinhartrn

I grew up Amish and was not allowed to attend High School. I continued my education and have now graduated from Nursing school as a RN. I love the Lord and want to be his hands and feet while working with Hospice.

I will praise him from the bottom of my heart; “Lord, who can compare with you? Who else rescues the weak and helpless from the strong? Who else protects the poor and needy from those who want to rob them?” Psalm 35: 10

I think these hormones may rob me from sanity!! I want to eat every sweet thing in sight. Tonight I made my mom’s recipe of oatmeal raisin cookies. They were so good, but I ate way too many! Don’t tell anyone, but I ate some of the dough too.

The Lord is the only one who can rescue us from ourselves and I’m grateful he is willing to do just that. Today I was able to support a wife who is losing her husband of 51 years. Her heart is breaking!

I saw she had Jesus calling sitting on the window sill, so I picked it up and said have your read today’s? She said no. So I read it out loud to her and it was about resting in the Lord during hard times.

It was pertinent to what she was experiencing. In moments like today it feels like my job is not a job but a ministry that gives me a deep sense of satisfaction that I’m doing what the Lord wants me to do.

I pray that I can continue to praise Him every day and meditate on His word so that I have something to offer others. I can’t offer hope and peace that I don’t first have.

My Pearl today is that in spite of my hormones I know the Lord is going to keep me close to Him as I walk through this world as His hands and feet. I have faith in Him, not in myself.

The Lord hears his people when they call to him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the broken-hearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit.

The righteous face many troubles but the Lord rescues them from each and every one. Psalm 34:17-19

These verses don’t tell us when The Lord will rescue. This is our problem nine times out of ten we want to be rescued from our struggles right now. We don’t want to suffer at all, especially not years.

As soon as we have suffered more than a day we are ready to say where is The Lord when we need Him? Isn’t he going to rescue me? What??!! Where is he? Learning how to wait and suffer is not natural for the human soul.

Sometimes the way The Lord rescues us is by helping us die to self and therefore the rescuing is from ourselves. Its a bit of a paradox, but imagine if we were able to surrender to everything The Lord wanted for us?

Wouldn’t that be true freedom? To be able to respond the way that we want to even if we are hormonal? Wouldn’t that be a true rescue?

My Pearl today is the joy of gaining The Lord’s perspective and knowing he will rescue me.

Even strong lions sometimes go hungry, but those who trust in the lord will never lack any good thing. Psalm 34: 10

This is quite the promise. I think the key here is trusting in the Lord. Its easy to trust when everything is going well. Its a different story when life is not going as planned.

When the answers to prayer are wait, no or not yet its harder to feel like trusting The Lord. If I did only what I felt like doing, not much would be done. I’d stay at home in bed and eat cheetos, snickers bars and ice cream all day and watch Steve Harvey.

The reality is that I don’t do what I feel like, because the outcome would not be what I want.

What is the definition of a good thing. Those who trust in the Lord will never lack any good thing. Well, its good to have a nice house, kids who are good citizens, spouse who protects you, job you want, but does this verse mean we will get all this?

Probably not, I think it means as we go through the natural hardships of life, The Lord will provide for us and that is a good thing. Many times when we read a verse like this we immediately think of all the things we want.

I don’t think that the Lord is a genie in a bottle, he is a loving parent. Just like our children who want everything, we don’t give them everything or they would be spoiled arrogant brats. I think there is a similar relationship with our Lord and us.

He gives us the best and helps us with the inevitable hard things in life.

My Pearl today is the fact that I have the best available to me which is a relationship with The Lord.

“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” 1 Cor 2:9 I wonder sometimes what I might be missing? Here I am again talking about death. I’m wondering when I die will I see how much I missed out on?

I’ve heard stories about dreams or visions of people who have died and the Lord showed them all the things they could have enjoyed had they fully trusted Him.

I don’t want to come home someday and have Jesus say, You know Wilma if you had listened to me there was so much more I wanted you to do.

For his Spirit searches out everything and shows us God’s own deep secrets. No one can know a person’s thoughts except that person’s own spirit, and no one can know God’s thoughts except God’s own Spirit.

And we have received God’s Spirit, (not the world’s spirit) so we can know the wonderful things God has freely given us. 1 Cor 2:10-12

I can know the secrets that belong to The Lord they are here for the taking, I just need to spend enough time being quiet so I can hear His secrets.

Today I was sitting in a traffic jam on I 65, it was stop and go about 10 mph. There was a four car pile up. I sat there waiting and let my mind calm down and think about how grateful I was that I wasn’t in the accident.

My pearl is that I can know the secrets of The Lord and may even be able to learn them while I’m sitting in traffic.

The joke is on me. I’ve been wondering why its been incredibly hard for me to ride my eliptigo? I thought wow, I’m getting weaker?!

I’ve been having GI issues and gynecological issues and so I put two and two together and decided I must have a cancerous tumor growing within. What else could it be? I’m tired and I can’t ride up the hill like I use to be able to.

Something must be wrong with me? Yeah there is something wrong with me. I’m a hospice nurse who has terminal illness on the brain.

I did have my brain checked as well. I don’t have anything wrong with it. Well, there is nothing wrong with the structure of my brain I should say. The jury is still out on the function.

My colonoscopy came back clean. Now I’ve got an ultrasound of my abdomen scheduled because I want to make sure my bladder hasn’t dropped. With old age, gravity can work in our disadvantage.

Now for the best part of all this! I have legitimately had these symptoms but the part about my bike being hard to ride and thinking I was getting weaker? Well here is the joke. My tires needed air!!!

I asked my husband to check my tires because I thought they seemed a little flat. He said they were so flat that the pressure gauge didn’t even register any air!

Tonight when I rode my bike, it was so much easier! I laughed a good belly laugh! Lord what are we going to do with me? I have symptoms and then I feel tired and I immediately assume the worse.

My Pearl today is that I’m not getting weaker, my tires just needed some air.

This morning I was reminded of my adrenal fatigue because it was hard to get out of bed.

About seven years ago I went to the doctor and they ran some tests to check my adrenal glands. I was tired all the time and had thyroid issues. The doctor thought I had more issues than just thyroid.

The results revealed that I had severe adrenal fatigue. My adrenal cortex does not produce cortisol. Cortisol is a chemical that is produced by your adrenal glands to help a person deal with stress.

The doctor said my adrenal glands had pumped all the cortisol they had to offer me. There was nothing left to give. I felt mentally exhausted, as well.

He also said that since my cortisol was flatlined that I should not be able to get out of bed in the morning. I admitted that I never felt like getting out of bed, but I did because I needed to for my job.

I take a lot of natural supplements and coffee to help me get going in the morning. I also jumpstart my metabolism by getting on the ellipitgo every morning.

I feel like a car that you have to run along side and push and run with until you get it to start. This is how it is for my body in the morning. I have to exercise to get my metabolism to start. I don’t start on my own, I need a little push.

My Pearl today is that I’m able to exercise and take vitamins to help me get jump started every day.

Love the Lord, all you faithful ones! For the lord protects those who are loyal to him, but he harshly punishes all who are arrogant. So be strong and take courage, all you who put your hope in the Lord! Psalm 31: 23-24

I have placed my hope in the Lord and I don’t want to be proud. I want to humble myself before the Lord has to humiliate me. Spending time with The Lord keeps my heart in check.

If I get wrapped up in the busyness of life its easy to get self focused and become arrogant thinking only of myself. When I switch my focus to The Lord and what’s important there is an automatic shift in my attitude.

Today was a busy day, but everyone’s needs were met at the end of the day. Including a patient I had wanted to help a couple of days ago, but the family was not ready to let me help.

Its difficult to see the outcome of a patient yet the family isn’t quite ready to hear the truth.

I learned today that I should have pointed out what I thought I was seeing, but I was afraid the family wasn’t able to receive the bad information.

My Pearl today is the joy of learning how to approach hard situations.