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October 3, 2008

In The Meantime

I know I've "been here" lately, not appearing to miss a beat, but my mind is off somewhere else, a bit of a la la land, in a transition of sorts- probably still finding it's place from me being pregnant to not, Mom to three to Mom to four, someone who sleeps to someone who would like to sleep, and so on.

I'm floating. Still have my head in the clouds but I will have to say that sometimes feeling the firm ground beneath your feet is just as nice.

My days are scattered and still a bit fuzzy. I'm feeling my way through and so far think I'm doing a pretty fine job. I never want to put the baby down, and so, I don't. We can be found quite attached at any given time and I will make no excuses about that.

Having her close, she keeps me centered. She's that balance I need right now, possibly so that I don't tip over.

And even if I am unsure of just where I am right now, or where I will land, I have my arms full and my heart satisfied.

One place you can find me is talking more about this In Between time over at 5 Minutes For Parenting today.

You'll come out of the fog. You will. The floating phase just makes you feel a bit off. And I suppose so does sleep deprivation. Like the rest of the world is going on and you're in a foreign bubble of some sort. You're finding your new groove. And you really are very good at it. I say that because of your perspective through your words. Your heart is always in the right place, even if you feel out of balance.I LOVE that you said Ivy is keeping you from tipping over. Humor and truth all wrapped up in that one line :)

I can only imagine the transition your body and mind are going through. I am finally feeling awake, and my guy is 8 months old, and I only have 2 children. It seems that always when I try to go back in my mind to when my babies were just itty bitty, like your sweet Ivy, it is always a bit foggy in my memory. I think new mommies are just too sleep deprived to fully process what is going on around them. You are amazing in that you are even functioning as you are! And you look beautiful, at peace, and in love in that picture. Keep on wearing that baby, and don't let anyone tell you to put her down.

Oh man. Those first six weeks are always the toughest. Unless of course you count the years between 12-16. Those are tough too! :)

Being a mom of four is certainly far from easy. But you're right about the heart being so full. I'm going to go read all about your adventures so far with little Miss Ivy - can't wait to catch up with you two!

Goodness, that picture makes me hold my belly even more tenderly than before. I am just in my 2nd trimester going through a high risk pregnancy. You picture makes me so warm, fuzzy and hopeful! I can't wait to have another little one snuggled up close to my heart. Those are truly the most precious moments! So cute!!