A Peek into the Mind of One Ordinary Opinionist

When you tumble and fall, get up and walk again.. *GH

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

I am planning my own planning, of course, with much help from both of the families, and my good, good friend, Julie Haslina. This one aspiring wedding planner is with tonnes and tonnes of ideas, which really do me so much good.

Hiring a wedding planner is very, very risky now. I am being sceptical, I know. But since I love wedding so, so much, the families decided to just do it ourselves. We asked opinions, a number of quotations, reviews on vendors, and me, personally been browsing wedding blogs for a few months. To my surprise, there are A LOT of blogs with so many good writers and most importantly, information on all the things that u want to know about wedding. Just type anything that crosses your mind, Voila! Endless answers to your questions.........

Monday, October 12, 2009

First of all, it is not my intention to spread this bad vibe that I have around me now, but heck.. I just have to tell..

Yesterday was my birthday. As always, been counting the days to come, to be exact, from last year's 12th October. As close ones might know, I treasure birthdays so, so much that I will go through all the hassles to get the perfect gifts, throw the surprise party, bla bla bla. I will get the nicest cake, get the nicest affordable gift, drive everywhere to get things done, bla bla bla. Of course, when I do it sincerely, I shouldn't be expecting anything in return.

Lets start with some good news, started it off with a very nice surprise party from my colleagues. I think I should start calling them friends. I am very close with some of them anyway. It was all really really nice, I had my tears of joy.

But it didn't change the fact that some minutes after the clock stroke 12, someone said something he/she shouldn't and didnt say something that he/she should have. It broke my heart into pieces and it has been a while since the last time I cried like that. To top it off, I was scolded for crying.

As I was trying to get to sleep that October 11th's dawn, I was hoping everything will be okay when I woke up. I said maybe, after all those tears.. things will be better. Maybe, after I let out what I felt.. everyone will start to appreciate what I have done. Maybe, after all the pain, I can really have MY BIRTHDAY after all.

I was wrong.

The day was packed with a list of activities, like open houses, etc.. My October 11th passed by in a blink doing things that I have been doing for the last 364 days ago. It defined a line that is now so visible, seperating me from everyone. I see things differently now. And I hate it.

Friday, October 2, 2009

I have been meaning to start a blog, really. Without any reader, let alone followers, I write better, with my best attempt to stay true to myself. More than often, life brings me down, and for some reasons, I cannot blame anyone but myself. For things that have happened, I found it useless to regret, but to learn from those lessons of life, wouldnt be that simple. I was arrogant in a way, pretending that my life was perfect in every single way, when nobody's one really is.

Here, I admit that my life isnt even close to perfect, but am struggling to live it the best way possible. For what lies ahead isnt something that I know of, but now, am excited to find out. As this will be a start of a new life, with guidance (hopefully, from my coming readers..)and assurance that what I do is right (sometimes I just need reassurance of my doings, although I dont actually need to.. guess thats why we seek for advices, hoping that somehow we will be guided to some correct paths..)And for this reason, this medium is created. For me to reach out to those advices, to share some happenings in my life, to be a little more true to myself and to lead a better life.

About Me

An ordinary girl who is now a great man's fiancee, who can easily be overwhelmed by peoples good heart and deeds.. whose mind can easily travel north south within seconds and wishes, each and everyday, that the world will be a safer place to live in.. a total dreamer who knows that life is all about living it to the fullest!