Tuesday, November 24, 2015

7:50 am.... Walking to my car to go to work when I noticed something is wrong, why is everything everywhere in my car??? Oh no.... somebody broke in! Damage control activated! Like in a chess game, we need to evaluate the situation and cut our losses.... Darn, my mom´s rosary is missing.... my Sekhmet pen.... my tetragrammaton that I got 20 years ago in Argentina.... my GPS.... and darn, the spare key of my home!!!!! Panic strikes when I realize now I am not safe... they have a key of my house. I ran to the office where I work, pick up my computer and on my way home I spoke to the property manager so she changes the lock of my house today. The idea of thinking somebody may come over and be able to get in really freaks me out. In the frenzy of adrenaline and fear and anger, I have forgotten I am always protected. I have forgotten I am a powerful witch and I always walk with my angels, guides and protectors. My ancestors also walk with me and they are definitely not happy with this incident as whoever broke into my car took my precious token - my mom´s rosary... the item she gave me for protection.

To curse or not to curse? That´s the question. The scared little girl that lives within me says.... "make them pay" while the adult Priestess says.... "Have compassion, they really don´t know what they took and in the end, you are the power... not your elements and tools, it´s you." As I move from the stages of feeling from scared, to numbness, to anger... to goosfraba... I know that this situation feels like a violation of my space, taking my sacred objects and leaving me feeling vulnerable and open. I know how to curse and I also know my power and I definitely would use that as a very last resort because it would just come back to me.

Sometimes we are attached to things and we start thinking the things are the real thing but in reality, it´s all in the vault and these days, as I grow in my skills, I can feel and talk to my mother everyday. She and my witches of East Wick walk with me. They keep me protected and they keep me safe. I don´t need the physical things because in the ether we are all one and that´s the place I am moving towards to. It´s time to let go of the attachments and feel the power that lies within the Witch... no tools... no elements... Just the witch.

My little girl is angry and upset but for her, there is always Goosfraba..... For me, it is the wisdom of it is not the tools that make the Witch but the Witch that makes the magick.

Monday, November 16, 2015

Wake up! The time is now! What are you waiting for? There are times in life when reality decides to slap you on the face so you come back to your senses and see the picture you have created. Is what you see what you really want? Is that what your heart desires? Are you stuck in any areas that are preventing you from moving forward? Are you carrying a bag full of emotions and things that belong in the past and you should leave behind?

Yesterday, I saw a picture of my ex with his new wife and I realized that the clock is ticking and moving forward and I either get on the bus of my own life or just stay stuck in situations forever. I can hear my ancestors screaming "Let it go!!!!!!!!! It´s complete! Don´t carry this bag because that´s not yours anymore.... drop it and move forward!!"

It´s interesting to see how the message I am getting lately is trust your vibes, what you feel is real and even when you feel it and you know it is true, it is still hard to face reality and see it. You thought it was just you, a figment of your imagination but no... it is true. It´s time to start trusting what you feel, what you see, what you hear because it is all part of the bigger plan - the Divine Plan. This plan does not include your ego fantasies but it includes what you are really meant to do in this lifetime. If you go with the flow of the Divine, you will find yourself living a charmed life as I am experiencing now. Even the painful findings are also guiding me in the right direction, just cutting the cords that keep me trapped in that which no longer serves me.

This weekend, besides having the shocking experience of confirming my feelings, I also got to experience synchronicity and magic in finding the perfect parking spot when I was going to work or in the middle of the city when I was going for dinner. Even today when I said to the universe I need something sweet in my office job, I found a chocolate chip cookie waiting for me in the kitchen. Magic is all around me and I know both the positive things and the challenging things are just ways the Divine has to move me forward, to show me that I can do it and that I should not get distracted with drama or situations that are not serving me anymore. Don´t carry the old lady bag... let it go... drop it so you can be lighter and move more freely.

Feel the grief and feel it fully for all those dreams that did not come true, all those relationships that are no longer in your life, all those frustrations and disappointments but don´t get attached to them. Let them go and release them so they can be transformed. That energy that is stuck in those feelings can be used for something more aligned with your purpose and with your future self. That self that you are creating today, in your now moment.

Today, I was reading the book "You Can Heal Your heart" by Louise Hay and David Kessler and they were saying at times it is harder to heal from a divorce than when a person passed away because you have to come to the understanding that the person does not want to be with you anymore whereas when they pass, they are no longer in a physical form to be able to share with you, so people tend to keep fantasies of getting back together or fixing things when the other party is alive. I do have to agree that this is true as I have experienced both types of losses and divorce or broken friendships feel really harder than accepting the passing of significant other because I feel I can connect with those who have passed while with the living, there is no connection anymore.

The secret is in knowing that even though there is no connection, the love shared can not be destroyed and it exists forever. That love that was expressed and felt is always so in the spiritual planes so we do not have to hold anger of fear but know that the situation is complete in this plane now and we can move on to the future. It is time to leave the past behind, don´t get stuck in grieving and move forward.

Thursday, November 12, 2015

11:11 means different things to different people. In America, it is Veterans´ Day. In China, it is Single People Day. For me 11:11 means magick! You get to make a wish and see the power of intention at work. The question becomes, what wishes do you have? Are your wishes your true heart´s desires? How bad do you want them to become true?

When we work with the power of intention, we have to be mindful of all the voices around us and within us. Many times we say we want to have a meaningful job but then we start telling ourselves that meaningful work does not pay well and there goes our dream down the drain because our unconscious mind does not understand the positive or negative, it only agrees with us so it will bring to our lives whatever we are thinking whether it is positive or not. This is one of the reasons why it´s easier to manifest a negative situation than a positive one because somehow we are wired to believe the negative is possible and the great is just a dream.

If we want to manifest our desires, we need to align ourselves with our purpose and use both the power of intention and the power of attention to bring that we wish to manifestation. If you want to be abundant, focus on abundance, intent to be abundant and remove the phrases "money does not grow on trees" "I can´t afford that" "I don´t have money for that" among other phrases from your vocabulary. Again, remember your unconscious mind does not know the difference so it will say yes to anything you say whether is I am the richest woman in the world or I can´t even afford a pancake. The choice is yours because our words have power. If you find yourself saying something negative, just say cancel cancel and affirm the positive. The more you affirm your wishes, the more chances they will manifest. If you don´t believe in the dreams you have, how could the Universe believe in them? It starts with you. Be mindful of your words, be mindful of your actions and be also mindful of your no action because not doing is doing in a way.

Yesterday, I was working on the Ritual For Living Dreamwork and Planner questions and there were a couple of questions that made me think a lot about. One was - "when you get to the end of your life, what would you like to have accomplished?" To this question, many things came to my mind such as I would like to have written my books, created my oracles, helped people in their spiritual journeys, change the world for the better, among other things. When I ask a friend, his response was quite simple and that surprised me because I thought wow, is that all you want? Sometimes simplicity is great but when it comes to manifestation, I believe the more details you have, the better. The clearer you can see it and imagine it, the easier it will be to bring it to life. Everything starts with a thought and I do believe in the saying "If you can dream it, you can create it". With this concept in mind, I try to give as much color as I could to what I want to create whether it is a new job, a new relationship, a new home, or anything that I want to manifest. I still imagine it and finish my prayer... or something better! Because I am aware there are my plans and there are the Divine plans and I am always co-creating with the Divine.

The other question that called my attention was "Where in your life you feel you are not fully present or fully participating?" I thought some areas where I feel they contract my energy instead of expanding it. Places I feel are not positive or up-lifting. Relationships that are not adding anything but at times take away. This question made me think that I want to be present in every area in my life and if I am not present, maybe that´s an area that needs decluttering and letting go to provide space for those things that are fulfilling, that are illuminating, that are expanding my energy. Do you have any areas in your life where you feel you are feeling stuck or contracted? If yes, what are you going to do with them? Can you afford spending the time and energy on places where you are not fully present? Once again, the choice is yours. Just be aware that those areas will take from the energy you have to manifest those things you want.

11:11 brings magick and allows us to create. It´s up to us what we create. We can create heaven or we can create hell with our words, our intentions and our wishes. Be mindful of what you ask for as it may come true.

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Life is a continues dance with its ups and downs, its twists and turns, its jumps and pauses. Sometimes it´s like a slow romantic dance while other times it seems we are in the middle of a heavy metal song and all we can do is scream. This year has been a year of discovery where I found some new tunes and some new moves that have guided me towards my soul purpose.

The first tune I had to listen to was the tune of my heart. What do I want in this lifetime? What´s my purpose? What´s my mission? What makes me happy? If I have to complete the phrase I love... what comes after? I love helping people. I love reading the Tarot. I love being a Priestess. I love being psychic. I love cooking. I love writing. I love teaching. I love being a Druid. I love being in Nature. I love dancing! I love.... As I completed this exercise, I discovered those things that make me who I am today because there are times when we get lost in the layers of life or we get attached to the roles we play to the extend that we lose our essence. After my divorce, I had to find my essence once again and become Carolina Amalia Amor once again.

After I reconnected with myself and started listening to the beats of my own drum, it was time to connect with the symphony of guides and spirits that walk the path with me by my side. Each of these guides has its own tune and brings its own dimension to the music of my life. Without one of them, our symphony would be incomplete. Some danced to the beats of rock and roll while others were dancing salsa and then there were the ones that were just admiring the classical music. As I connected with them, I started seeing that there was more in life than what meets the eye and we have our compass. Our body knows the steps, we just need to reconnect and tune into the radio station that plays our coming home song. We all come with our own set of musicians that make our life a beautiful masterpiece symphony. It only takes courage and openness to be able to listen the beats of our heart and eliminate all the distortions that we get from the environment and the tribal mandates.

Reconnecting with the orchestra members of my life showed me that if I wanted to succeed, I needed to believe in my dream and align myself with it. I needed to be flexible and movable because my dream may not manifest in the way I envisioned but it will manifest if I flow like water and trust that it takes two to tango, my desires and the Divine timing. When you dance, you need to trust your partner and if you do, the dance will flow smoothly no matter how many obstacles you may face. In the dance of your life, your partner is the Divine. Shall we dance?

Monday, October 19, 2015

What an adventure!!! It all began when Kasey Conder told me I should participate in the Parliament of World Religions a year ago. At that time, the event sounded good but I was not 100% sure it was the type of event I wanted to participate. Then, I decided I would attend but Kasey kept pushing I submit a proposal to do a presentation there. Thank you Kasey for pushing me as I really submitted a very fast proposal, did not put much time into it as I thought they would never take it. A person talking about social media and technology to expand spirituality??? Technology and Spirituality usually don´t go together. I still submitted it so when I got a call in May saying that they couldn´t take my presentation but that they would love to have me in a panel talking about the Goddess Isis with two Priestess Sisters, I was like, yes! I´ll be part of that panel. Little did I know that three week later I would get a letter saying they have accepted my proposal and I would be presenting in a multi-speaker session on Friday, October 16. This was not the end of the unexpected for me, 10 days before my presentation, I received an email saying that my presentations was now a single session and I should be prepared to speak for 90 minutes instead of 45 minutes. Yes, 10 days before and I had to double my time so I started re-doing my speech. Thank Goddess my work for the panel was completed.

I landed in Salt Lake City on Wednesday, October 14th, early morning and that allowed me to go to my hotel and check in. Luck was on my side and they let me check in at 10 am even thought the check in time was 3 pm. In my room, I had an opportunity to practice my speech and relax for a little bit. Then I went explore as I wanted to see the Conference center, where to park, and be ready to begin the following day. When I arrived at the Salt Lake Palace Convention Center I was amazed. This place was like a city! It was the biggest convention center I´ve ever seen. Then I went to see some of the rooms and they were huge! Every room had a projector and I was like... oh no!!!! I did not prepare a power point presentation for this event.... what should I do? It was already stressful enough to have to switch from 45 minutes to 90 to think now I needed a powerpoint presentation. It goes without saying that I decided not to do a powerpoint presentation after all! I was intimidated by the size of the venue and the event!

After seeing the convention center, I decided to explore the area and I found myself in the Temple Square. I knew very little about the Mormon faith and I was surprised by noticing that one of the buildings had a Start of David and the whole place was surrounded by walls so I thought... At least it is not only in Argentina that Jewish buildings have walls around them to protect them from terrorist attacks. I decided to go into this square to find out that it was Temple Square! I never discovered why the Star of David was part of the Assembly Hall but the people were quite nice there. I still smile when I remember a lady that offered me a map and then she caught eye of my Isis Wings and made a small comment such as "Those are nice" and I have learned to not engage in conversation at times so I just said "Thank you". I wondered what her reaction would have been if I was wearing a pentagram at the time. I visited most of the buildings in the square and still did not understand the core of that faith. I saw they had an old and new testament and then the book of mormon. I have to admit I am curious about what the book of mormon says as I know what the other two books say after being raised Roman Catholic.

Wednesday night was our Pre-Parliament Fellowship of Isis meeting in Crone´s Hollow so I headed out that way after my little excursion. Crone´s Hollow is an amazing witchy store in Salt Lake City so if you are visiting the area, don´t miss an opportunity to go and check it out. If I hadn´t been traveling by plane and had more room, I would have been in trouble as I would have bought a lot of things! The ceremony was amazing and Kasey Conder, Linda Iles, DeTraci Regula and Annitra Ravenmoon were spectacular. The event was small and very nice. I think it was perfect to have a small event before the monster event that the Parliament was.

Thursday morning, I headed up to the convention center and registered. There was a book so big it looked like a bible, filled with events and presentations and my name was there! I have to admit that it was overwhelming at times. There were about 40 presentations/workshops taking place at the same time and picking the ones to attend was a skill. I enjoyed many of the sessions I attended and this event gave me exposure to religions I had not been introduced before such as the Islam or Spiritism. During the opening ceremony, I had the honor to see Jean Shinoda Bolen who said that we all come with an assignment and this assignment has to have three elements. First, it has to be meaningful for you. Second, it has to be fun. And third, it has to be motivated by love. Do you know what your assignment is? Do you live from your purpose? How can you get closer to your purpose and work on your assignment so it can have those elements? Another speaker said that women did not have the luxury of getting overwhelmed or wait for somebody to do something. The time is now and you are that somebody... stop waiting and take charge because you are the change you want to see in the world. It all begins with you as we are all one.

During the Opening Ceremony on Thursday night, we got to receive a blessing from the tribes of Utah and that was very powerful. I think it was the first time I had contact with Native Americans in an event and I can experience part of their culture. Then, there were a few speakers and the one that stood up for me was Rabbi David Saperstein who said "There is more danger in educating women than in dropping misiles and creating war. Educated women are the most powerful weapons the world can see and that´s why they have been denied education in the past but that needs to stop now." He was the only one who received an standing ovation from all the panelists in the opening ceremony. The lack of female representation in the opening ceremony was a bit disappointing as it showed that there is still a lot of work to do because even though 50% of the presenters were women, there was very little female representation in the opening plenary.

Friday was a very exciting day for me as I had my presentation early in the morning where I talked about using technology and the internet to connect people with different spiritual paths and help expand spiritual teachings so not only businesses but also spiritual paths can go beyond the borders. In the afternoon, I had the honor of sharing a panel with my friend and mentor Ava Park and my sisters in Isis, DeTraci Regula and Karen Tate where we talked about the Goddess Isis of 10,000 names. After that, we got to relax in the Red Tent and enjoy sisterly love and women space.

During Saturday, I attended Karen Tate´s presentation on re-writing the Goddess Myths to change the world and it was fascinated. Karen empowered us to re-read the myths and re-invent them to create the world that we want to see and be agents of change. I can´t wait to get her book when it comes out! After that, I enjoyed visiting the different booths and learning about different spiritual paths such as Spiritism, Islam, Buddhism, Hinduism, The Sikhs, The Ba´hai, among other paths. I have to say that I´ve never seen so many religions and spiritual paths coming together in one event. It was life transforming as it showed that we can all come together, respect each other and work towards one goal - a sustainable future for the next generations. During one of the talks, a person said "The way we treat women is the same way we treat the Earth and that needs to change now" I couldn´t agree more. We still live in a very out of balance world and until we realize that no gender is better than the other and that we are all one, we will not be able to move forward and it will create more detriment to the world. The time for change is now before it is too late. Be the change you want to see in the world because no person is too small. Everyone counts and it´s time to wake up and be fully present knowing that we have the power in our hands and there is not better time than now to start. Don´t wait till tomorrow because tomorrow may be too late and we create in the now moment. Choose different today. Choose unity not separation. Choose compassion not ego driven behaviors. Choose love not hate. Choose peace no conflict. Choose joy not drama. Choose to be the change.

Monday, September 14, 2015

Spinning! Spinning! Where will it stop? What direction will it show? The Wheel is turning and you don´t know where you will go but you do know that what was before is no longer so, and it´s time for the big leap. Trust your destiny! Trust your vibes! Jump! Say YES to destiny and follow your heart! These are the messages I received this year as I turned 37 which adds to 10 and shows a Wheel of the Fortune type of year for me. Yes! Combining Tarot and Numerology, you can find out what your Major Arcana for the year is and mine turns out to be my Personality Card - number 10 - The Wheel of The Year.

Sometimes the arrow turns down and sometimes it turns up... not every wheel of the year time is a happy and lucky time... there may be challenges and another version of this card is when you have a gun and you spin the wheel and you trust... is that bullet yours? Trust is a big lesson during the period of the Wheel of Fortune.

2015 has been a transformational year so far and I know I haven´t seen it all yet! I have buried some of my dreams and made decisions that will shape my destiny. For years I debated whether I wanted to have children or not... this year, the clarity came and I realized that my books and my oracles will be my children. Motherhood is not only birthing a child but giving birth to a project or oracle. I have also realized that I should still have the two bags... las valijas itinerantes... because I have not reached my final destination and I am a Priestess on the move. I know I have limited time where I am and I intend to enjoy my time here living each day as it is the last day. The future holds multiple possibilities and I trust Goddess to show me the next steps but I have learned that the less attached you are to things and places, the better you are to move around and follow your heart. I have accumulated many things in the last 13 years, even after my divorce! It´s time to lighten the load and really prepare to have the two bags that will contain the essentials and you know it will have one bag full of books!!!! Thank Goddess there are storage facilities in the US so I can put my life in a storage facility if needed, ha ha ha! Yes, I am attached to some things!

2015 has brought me several teachers and messages! When you are in the flow, the things that are meant to be for you will come your way. I still remember when I saw the Hay House Summit in facebook and I signed up for it. Little did I know that I would be introduced to people that would changed my life completely! From becoming an Angel Card Reader with Doreen Virtue to taking several of Sonia Choquette´s trainings. I have also studied with John Holland and Colette Baron-Reid in the past 4 months. I feel my life has taken a leap into a new dimension where the separation between muggles and I is growing stronger... Yes! You heard it! Like Sara O´Hara said.. "You may not want to tell somebody that this crazy lady in Ireland told you to give them a kiss next time you see them because they will not understand the messages of the deceased". Reality is that I am fearless! Baba Yaga is with me and I don´t fear being different, I don´t fear seeing things. I don´t fear the other dimensions so I am open and I am listening....

Next month, I will be facing the Parliament of World Religions and I wonder if they are ready for what I will bring... once again... I may be the Uranus/Aquarius energy that breaks structures but I know I will just be me, a pioneer ready to show a different side of the coin.

As the Wheel turns and spins, I know it will continue showing me the direction to take. I will flow... I will be spontaneous, I will take a different round... trust my inner compass. It is time, I am ready. Are you? Where is your Wheel of Fortune leading you?

Saturday, August 22, 2015

We are all sailing in the ocean of life and some of us are going with the ebb and flow while others are trying to push the river... others are just giving up and blaming the universe for all the stagnant water they have around their boat without taking any responsibility for the situation they face today. I have to say it is easier to blame the universe than take ownership of the big swamp we have created in our lives. It takes courage to see that things are the way they are and intend to change them so we can create a beautiful ocean that will move us in the direction of our life purpose and makes us feel uncomfortable when we are derailing from our authentic life.

Since I came back from Miami last April, I can say that my life has experienced a big shift. For the first time in my life I chose to let Goddess lead the way and move myself out of the way. The Universe decided to send me an SOS and show me the way to the Hay House Summit, an online event that introduced me to several teachers and mentors whose message was just what I needed at that time. I started working with Sonia Choquette, Colette Baron-Reid, Jennifer Grace and Doreen Virtue. I reconnected with the Angels and Archangels, I opened up to my intuition and all my guides and decided to start living a magical life. I also decided to start making sh#t happen like Jennifer says. I committed myself to let the flow of life move me... These days I start my day asking the Divine to guide me and use me to bring Her message to this world. That every step of my journey is for the highest good for everyone concerned and also for the rest of the world.

Living a guided life does not mean we don´t face the ebb. The ebb is also there to help us re-adjust. It is also there to rock our boat and provide an opportunity for us to learn a different path. We should be as grateful to the ebb as we are to the flow because both are just helping us grow and become the person we were born to be... our authentic self.... that self that is not based in fear or tradition, it´s not structured by the tribal beliefs but it is the one that is our core, our heart, our authentic being. We may come from different planets and we are all unique in our own way but one thing that brings us together is that each of us has a purpose, each of us has a mission and the closer we get to it, the happier and more fulfilled we feel. The farther we are from it, the more disconnected and unhappy we feel and then we feel that the ebb is just a curse and we may tend to become victims in our own lives.

Today choose to be moved into the ebb and flow of your own life. Choose to live an authentic life. Choose to not care about what others think or say about you. Choose to be YOU! The unique and beautiful being you are. Be grateful for the ebb that re-adjusts your course and let your boat move with the flow. The ocean of your life is yours to explore. Just let go of control and trust. Your authentic self is waiting for you on the other side.

Friday, August 7, 2015

Are you sitting in the driver´s seat of your life? If you are not, who is driving? Where is your GPS? Do you know where you are going? Clarity leads to better manifestation of your own reality. The key is to know that you are always co-creating your reality with the Divine. If you don´t know what you want to create, then your manifestation will reflect that. I usually tell my clients it is important to have as many details about what they want to create so the Universe can deliver it to them. Know what type of item, what color, what size... if you are trying to manifest a job think about what hours you want to work, what days, what type of job, what type of environment in the company, do you want to work for others or be self-employed? The more details the better because if not they Universe may send you something that will not be what you wanted but it fits some of the specifications that you had.

Last month, I had the opportunity to work with Jennifer Grace, the author of the book "Directing your Destiny: How to Become the Writer, Producer and Director of your Dreams" and it really reminded me that we create our reality. It´s our thoughts and our beliefs what create our reality. It is also about the clarity you have to create what´s in your heart instead of creating a horror movie that has no happy ending.

In order to get clarity of what we want to manifest, we need to connect with our authentic self and let go of the illusions and mandates of our lives. It is important to peel the layers to get to what is really important. Sonia Choquette says that in order to find our true self we need to connect with what we like doing ... One way is by completing the phrase.. I love...

I love teaching.

I love dancing.

I love writing.

I love reading the cards.

I love helping others.

I love being a guide.

I love being a lighthouse.

You get the concept, right? Then you can affirm it by placing your hand on your heart and asking yourself "Is that true?" If you get a profound YES! it means that´s your authentic self talking to you. Then it is your task to bring to this reality the situations that connect with your authentic self because if you don´t do that, you will be faced with resistance and feelings of being uncomfortable or not in line with your purpose and your true nature.

Working with these concepts have made me realize that I need to bring my life more in line with my purpose. Most of you know that I have an 8 to 5 job that is not very connected to my spiritual path and my purpose in life so I am committed to make my Priestess job a sustainable job so I can dedicate my life to be a healer, a teacher, a guide and help others find their purpose in life and follow their dreams. It all starts with re-writing my life story to make my purpose the center. I know I can manifest my reality. I am deeply grateful for all the experiences that have brought me to where I am because without my 8 to 5 job I wouldn´t have been able to realize that my path is different. Without the teachers I´ve had so far, I wouldn´t have been able to get the clarity of my new objective. Now I can see it, I can name it, and I can claim it!

I am the director of my life. Can you say the same? Who is directing your life?

Sunday, July 26, 2015

The radio is tuned in and the station is sending one clear message "You are a healer, you are a teacher, you are a guide, own your gifts now!" You could look the other way and continue ignoring the messages but you could also decide to be brave and start a journey to make that happened. We all look for our security blanket but it is when we realize we don´t need one because we are always covered by the Goddess´grace and Divine guidance so we area always protected. Feel safe, feel protected, know you can manifest your destiny.

Each of us has a unique purpose and it is up to us to hear that calling and take action or just continue doing what we are doing because we are scared of trying something different. Society, our family, the traditions, the tribe... everyone has a message for us of what we should do or should not do but deep within we know what we are supposed to be doing. We all have gifts that we are to share with humanity and many of us are hiding those gifts just because we feel it may look strange, we may be called weird, crazy, psycho among other things. We may be left alone and isolated if we really show who we are. Have you ever felt that you would be rejected if you expressed your spirituality? How about if you decided to choose a career path that is out of the norm?

During the past few weeks, I´ve been expanding my knowledge on psychic abilities, mediumship and angel therapy. I have found these areas of study fascinating but also have brought me to the question on how many times we receive messages from our guides, our spirit, and the Goddess and we disregard it or we think we are crazy. It is easier for us to accept that we are crazy than the fact that we have a gift and our guides are always around showing us the way to make our life purpose come true. They push as and pull us when we are going in the wrong direction and make us feel as everything is running smoothly when we are on the right path. Have you ever experienced synchronicity as you were at the right time in the right place? That´s your sign! Have you ever experienced that everything was blocked and no matter what you did you found problems and limitations? That´s a sign too! Don´t expect a hollywood sign as a spirit will come to you and talk to you like in the movies. Signs are subtle but they are there and if we tune in we can definitely hear them and see them and feel them.

What signs are you getting these days? What is the Universe trying to tell you? Pay attention because you will definitely hear them. I know I hear them and they are saying loud and clear "Own your Gifts".

Saturday, June 27, 2015

If you have to choose a word to describe the month of June, what would that word be? June... June... June... Thinking.... so many words!!! Learning, awakening, growing, expanding, light, crossroads, review, letting go, ending, beginnings... but if I had to pick one, I would say my word is Clarity. June marked the beginning of a self-discovery journey that started with hypnotherapy and counseling and followed with the beginning of my work with Sonia Choquette´s online classes and Colette Baron Reid´s class on Weight Release Energetics. The combination of all these items together created the perfect recipe for clarity and direction. Mercury Retrograde and Shadow period was also helpful to review and re-direct energies. As I look at my round table, I see several journals that mark the commitment to self-exploration and the promise of fearless shadow work that can lead to more light and clarity in my life. It´s time to free the energies tied in old regrets, old patterns, and old beliefs. The only way we can change our world is if we change ourselves. We are all one and it starts with each and everyone of us doing our own work, healing our own selves and accepting our own truths. When we change ourselves, we change our families, we change our communities, we change our cities, we change our states, we change our countries, we change our world.

Doing self-work is like peeling the layers of an onion because we look at one layer and once we are done with that one, we can look at another layer.. and so on and so forth. My June exploration focussed on forgiveness work and connecting with my guides more strongly. Forgiveness is not only about forgiving others but it is also about forgiving ourselves. We carry a lot of baggage that is connected with shame, regret, sadness, or emotions that got stuck within ourselves. As Sonia says, forgiveness is a process and you can not think your way through forgiveness, you need to move the energy. In order to move the energy, you need to look at those things that have created those emotions and see why you are holding on to them. Is it because it is easier to deal with the uncomfortable known that face the unknown? Is pain comfortable? As I was working with the exercises I had a few A-ha moments but the most enlightening of all was to realize that I´ve been holding to my weight since I came to USA because it´s my layer of protection. It´s the extra padding that protects me from the outside. I usually have my guard up and I take a defensive position. It´s like I live protecting myself even when protection is not needed. Many years ago, one therapist told me that instead of blocking energies, I should just allow the things to pass me by and not get attached. This defensive stand is also portrait in my auto-immune disease where my body does not know that my thyroid is not the enemy and attacks it. My own body attacks itself out of protection and fear. It´s time to change that paradigm and trust. Trust that my guides are there to protect me and they are always around. If I want to hear them, I need to be open and in order to be open, I need to let down my guard and protection. I think it´s time for me to come out of the fortress of my own life knowing that I am safe and I am protected. It is ok to shed the weight because I don´t need it to protect me. It has fulfill it´s purpose and now it´s time for me to find my inner peace and discover who I really am, what I love doing and forgive all those that have hurt me and also forgive myself.

As I continue peeling off the layers and there is always something to shed... What layers are you peeling this year? What areas are you ready to shed?

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Have you ever felt that you needed to be the wall flower in your life? Have you ever felt that it was not safe for you to be seen? I have. Not only I was brought up in a big city filled with dangers, a place where you do not want to call attention to yourself, you don´t want to be the prey because there are so many predators out there! But I also felt it was not safe to be seen in my own house. There were dangers beyond my ability to understand at that age that made me feel I should not voice my feelings because it was not safe. I should not stand out because it was not safe. I should not be too visible because it was not safe. It was much better to be invisible than be seen. That was the beginning of a story of shyness, of not wanted to dress too much so I would not call attention towards me, I would speak the bare minimum and keep my silence... I did everything I could to just be invisible.

When I decided to become a Priestess, I knew that there would be a time where I would need to come to the front line and face my fears. I had to accept that I had a valid message and a voice, and my voice was important. I need to realize that it was okay to be the center of attention at times and get comfortable in my own skin to be able to face audiences. I had to learn to love my body the way it is even if I am quite bigger than I was when I was in Argentina. I used to be 130 but that number seems unreal and after an eating disorder, I learned weight does not translate in beauty. I am created in the image of the Goddess and since She is beautiful, I am beautiful as well.

After 6 years of being initiated, I have faced a few presentations, workshops, rituals, and I can say that even though I still get nervous, now I am feeling much more comfortable in my own skin and I am not invisible anymore. I think getting nervous is normal and a sign that I am alive but it is facing the fear and doing it anyway what gives me power. I still have the little voice inside myself that says it´s not safe to call attention to yourself or to speak your truth but my inner self is stronger now and does it anyways because it is okay to have a voice, it is okay to take some space, it is okay to take time, and I don´t need to apologize for that or become invisible. I am a lighthouse and I am here to illuminate the way for those who are lost and scared. I don´t need to hide. It is perfectly fine to shine with my own light and bring my message to the world.

Monday, June 8, 2015

Have you ever wondered why when other people or situations hurt us we may have a tendency to hurt ourselves instead of choosing self-care? I was with my therapist today and we were discussing my childhood when she said the words... "oh you were self-destructing yourself then" as I was discussing my eating disorders when I was young. Her words resonated with me because I started thinking about all the times that I have chosen to hurt myself instead of dealing with the feelings of pain, of abandonment, of loneliness, of lack of love and so many other emotions that were related to growing up in a house with a mother with a severe mental disorder and an absent father due to his job.

When we are children, we don´t have the tools or the ability to recognize the patterns. We are just reacting to certain situations the best way we can. I can recall my severe asthma or my allergy attacks where I would just burst into itching. All signs of calling for attention and taking it up on my body to experience those emotions I could not process.

As we grow up, we start developing other strategies that usually involve some sort of self-destruction whether is over-eating, over-drinking, over-working, among other over-words that we can think of. Have you every got too busy so you can be numb and don´t feel pain? I know I have done this in the past where my schedule was so full I hardly had time to breath but I was so busy that I could not even think of how I was feeling.

They call it comfort food but every time we reach for food to fill the empty spaces in ourselves or to stuff our emotions up we are moving towards self-destruction and away of self-care. We can also abuse of alcohol or drugs to numb our feelings. Any kind of substance that creates the desire outcome - not feel our feelings and just deny reality because reality may be to hard to deal with.

Relationships can also be an addiction and I know I have had my fair share of toxic relationships or relationships that were there just to help me deal with feelings from the past and try to resolve old patterns. As Jung said, until the right diagnosis is reached, no healing can occur. We need to realize our patterns in order to be able to heal them. Awareness is key.

Next time you feel like working 16 hours in a row, think What am I trying to cover with this tendency? Why am I not able to set up healthy boundaries with my employer so I have a better work/life balance?

In the past, I would have had a hard time cooking for myself when I would be alone. If my ex-husband was there it was easier to cook for us but if it was just me, I would just fix something quick. These days, I am choosing healthy meals, organic vegetables, plenty of delicious fruits and healthy foods that will nourish me. I know I have been trained to take care of others first but that has changed in the past few years. Now I put on the air mask first and then help others. It´s time to stop the self-destruct and focus on providing for myself all those things that in the past I expected others to provide for me. It starts with me. I am my own best friend and I come first.

No more this person will self-destruct in five seconds... Now it will be this person will heal herself and get stronger every day choosing healthy patterns, nourishing relationships and better situations.

Thursday, May 7, 2015

Have you ever wondered why charging for services in a spiritual realm has such a bad reputation? Where does that come from? If I look at Catholic Priests, they live fairly well and their congregation helps them every time they can without questioning why. When it comes to Pagan Priestesses and Priest, there is a certain belief that training should be given for free. I have nothing against those who feel they could provide trainings without charging a fee but I also think there is nothing wrong with charging a fee. A Priestess or a Priest is performing a sacred service to her or his community and should receive something in exchange. This is an energetic transaction. Besides this person has studied a great deal and practiced a path of devotion. It is a spiritual leader and paying a small fee to support her or his work should not be such a big deal.

I´ve had teachers who have done training for free and some who have charged a fee. In the end, it is a personal choice. I can´t say the free training was less meaningful than the paid training but one thing I could say is that I had no issues paying for training because I was supporting that person in her or his path of sustainable priestessing.

When we look at corporations or other legal entities, there are no issues paying a salary for a person to lead them or to come up with the vision for them. There is also no issue paying people who have a profession so the question becomes why Priestessing is not a recognized profession. Who decided that the work of a Priestess/Priest should be done for free? Why do people feel it is ok not to contribute of their energy/mana? I´ve been pondering on this a lot and there is no right answer but I do believe that a Priestess should be able to live by being a Priestess and not need to have a second job to be able to sustain herself. If you are a Priestess, do you charge for your services? How do you feel about your Priestessing? Can this be sustainable?

Saturday, April 25, 2015

Sometimes the second rounds are not as good as the original movie but this was not the case with The Inner Sanctum Symposium of Infinite Possibilities that took place at the Isis Oasis Temple in Geyserville, California on April 9, 2015. Last year, I had the honor to present in the first Inner Sanctum Symposium so when I was invited to participate gain this year, I couldn´t say no. I decided to cut my vacation in Miami short to be back in the Bay Area for this event. Needless to say that it was worth coming back to attend this event.

I landed on Thursday April 9 and unpacked my bag to repack it once again with my Priestess attire. This attire includes my robes, systrum, wand and many other magical elements that I always bring with me when I go to Isis Oasis. I left early on Friday morning with the intention to get there to be present for Linda Iles presentation on Lady Nephthys. I was stuck in traffic for a while but I surrendered to the universe and did traffic. I can´t complain as I was reviewing my notes and presentation on the book of doors. I arrived at the Temple just in time to be part of Michael Starsheen´s amazing presentation titled "Stretching the Cord". Michael has the ability to present on the stars as nobody I´ve ever seen. It was great to learn how the Egyptians would create their temples in alignment with the planetary bodies in the skies. After this presentation, Linda Iles presented on Nephthys showing us a different side of Isis´ twin sister. Even though Nephthys gets a bad reputation because of some of her actions, she is also the one that brings harmony and balance to the Isis-Nephthys duality.

Celestine Star performed an ancient Egyptian Moon Ritual taking us back to Dendera-Temple of Stars. When I arrived at this ritual, we got to choose our seats. Some of the seats had little orbs on them. I decided to sit in a seat that contained an orb... These orbs represented the different planets in the solar system.. guess what planet I got? The one that is not a planet anymore! Lord Pluto of Death and Transformation. I definitely accepted my role in this ritual as bringer of transformation and the scorpio energy. The Ritual was the perfect way to tune into the energies and prepare for my consecration ceremony later that evening. I was to be consecrated ArchPriestess in the Fellowship of Isis Tradition. As I prepared for this ceremony I remembered the last consecration ceremony I participated in several years ago when Lady Olivia Robertson consecrated me ArchDruidess. My father had always been present in my consecrations so this time felt different but it also felt right. The ceremony was beautiful and I had the honor to witness Rain Graves and Mana Youngbear´s consecration as Grand Dame Commanders. After the consecration we watched the fire dancer dance outside the small Temple and we ended the night in the Nesu house with wine and amazing conversations.

Saturday was a day of assimilation and preparation as it was the day I was presenting about The Book of Doors Oracle. First I had to assimilate the energies of the previous night´s consecration and then I had to make sure I was ready for my workshop. I spent most of the morning practicing my presentation and when the time came, I was ready. People enjoyed learning about this oracle that is based on alchemy and numerology combining the Emerald Tablet teachings with the Pythagorean Table with the Goddesses and Gods of Ancient Egypt. I was introduced to this oracle many years ago by Lady Loreon Vigne so it felt just appropriate to present it in the symposium that took place in the place she founded. After my presentation, I was able to participate in an amazing ritual for Sekhmet, one of my main Goddesses, presented by Kielankhamun Milner. Connecting with Sekhmet in ritual space was very powerful and then during the feast, it was funny when somebody brought me a red beer and I thought... I do not have the rage of Sekhmet but I can use a beer! To finish the evening, I participated in the Nefertem´s Sacred Blue Lotus Ceremony with Rain Graves. This was my first time participating in a blue lotus ceremony so I was intrigued. I did not like the blue lotus elixir that much but the ceremony was beautiful and very powerful as well. So powerful that it left the veils very thing for me to see a spirit that we identified as the Goddess Dana the following day after talking to Tracy and some others. Luckily Tracy saw the same Lady in our room so I did not feel as weird as I had dreamed it.

The last event I participated in was Connecting with the Bast through Art with Serena Toxicat. This event was an art class where we got to create a piece of art to bring home so I used some of the stamps and acrylic paints to create a painting for the Goddess Bastet. Art is not my biggest strength but I enjoyed a more practical class to balance a lot of academic and ritual work that had taken place during that weekend.

When the weekend was done, I felt complete as I had learned many new things. I had spent time wiht my chosen spiritual family and connected with the Goddess once again. Being a Priestess is one of the best things that have happened to me in this lifetime and I enjoy every moment in this journey. I am already looking forward to Convocation in October and Symposium next year.

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

As I say my final good byes, I look back at this journey of 6 days in Miami, Florida. What a journey!!! It did not take long for me to get lost. As soon as I got off the plane I had a hard time finding my way out of the airport... then finding my way to the rental car... then to my next location. Each movement in this land has come with some sort of lost feeling even when I had a GPS. I kept finding myself saying but this is not the right direction... finding the GPS was taking me to who knows where. The lesson was to be comfortable being lost... just surrender... go with the flow... you will eventually find your way and when you do, you will get to your destination.

I also found myself spending a lot of the time in the beach these days. It feels like from all the attractions that Florida has to offer the one I have connected with the most is spending the day on the beach observing the ocean, getting into the water and singing Yemaya Asesu and enjoying the feeling of connection with the Water. I was created in the ocean when my father took my mother on one of his trips so no wonder my connection with the sea is very strong. My father was quite cute today when he told me ohhh you have converted in a "beach Lady" when I said I was getting ready to go down to the ocean. I told him... Yes!!! Just like when I was a child that we would spend the days on the beach in Mar del Plata... with the exception that the ocean here is blue and clear instead of brown and cold.

I couldn´t believe the lady with the umbrellas memorized my name by day two! I would get to the beach and she would be Sra. Amor!!!!! I felt tempted to say Sra. Amor is my mother but I realized that now I am Sra. Amor even when I am divorced, I am a Sra. and I will not change the Amor name ever again... no matter whether I get married again or not.

The hotel life has been very nice. As I said good bye to all servers today I felt a mutual appreciation and I promised I´ll be back. Now I want to bring my father here to do some days of beach relaxation, good cuisine and total connection with the ocean. It´s been an amazing vacation and I can say I´ve seen the sawgrass mall and the dolphin mall and it´s ok! I did some shopping, I had a few drinks, I had lots of meat and I felt like home with the Spanish influence everywhere I went. I honestly think if I lived in Miami, my father would have moved in with me because the Spanish influence makes it easy to transition to this land.

I know I´ll be back... I enjoyed Miami... I enjoyed my vacation.... Miami ... I´ll see you next time!

Monday, March 30, 2015

If somebody was to ask you what the difference between influence and manipulation is, could you point it out? Yesterday I decided to dedicate the day to myself and just grab a book, read and relax and not worry about work or anything at all. The book I chose to read was Toxic People and Manipulative People box set by Sarah Goldberg. Yes, I know! Light reading.... well, I can say I finished the box set in a couple of hours and it left me thinking. Some people may choose books that are recreational for a self-care day but I do enjoy books that challenge my brain to think outside the box, question and analyze different topics.

The first topic I was to analyze yesterday was the difference between influence and manipulation. The author was mentioning that intention was what set the two apart. Influence was positive and manipulation was negative. A little bit like white and black magick although I don´t believe there is white or black but several shades of grey and when it comes to magick, it is the intention of the witch that makes the difference. Like Thomas Ashley-Farrand said in his Mantra - Sacred Words of Power, you can use fire to light a fire and cook a meal or you can burn down the whole city. The quality of fire is the same. What´s the difference between cooking a meal or burning down the house? When it comes to influence and manipulation, I can see that it definitely depends on the person performing the action. I have experienced both first hand so I can say they feel different but they both motivate you to do certain actions or be a certain way. In my case, influence pushed me to get better, to aim higher, try to grow and take the higher road. One of the biggest influences I can think of is Ava Park and her Queen Teachings, she really showed me an archetype that I can bring to life and make my life better, be responsible for my realm and really direct my life in a different direction, away from toxic people. Another big influence in my life was moving to the USA in 2003 and being introduced to the American Dream, that dream where you can have it all, house, car, family, husband, all... I can say I have lived my American dream and I prefer Carolina´s dream. My dream is not the same as the American dream but it has definitely influence my life.

When it comes to manipulation, I was exposed to it from very early in my life. My mother, as much as I loved her, was a great manipulator. She was bipolar and she knew how to make me do things. I remember the days she would get sick just before I had to go out with my friends so I had to stay home and take care of her. With time, I learned to read the signs and I would not let her manipulate me but it took time and effort not to fall into the traps of guilt or co-dependance. Unfortunately, for the outside world, I looked like a cold hearted woman because I could see through the manipulation and not act.

Manipulation and Influence could be seen as similar in vibration but different in intent like the two sides of a coin. Would you agree? I still feel that at times it´s hard to know where influence stops or turns into manipulation because sometimes manipulators can be very subtle. This leads me to the next topic that I analyzed yesterday - toxic people. Why is it so hard for us to break away from toxic people? Are we addicted to drama? Can we break away from people that drain our energy? Toxic people are usually needy, they take more than they give, at times may be egocentric or self centered, they can also be narcissistic, among other things. When you are in a relationship with a toxic person, you will notice that you are unhappy, you are anxious, you feel guilty and somehow you find it very hard to leave that person. Some signs that you are in a toxic relationship is when you feel you can´t do anything right, you feel you can´t be yourself with that person. You can´t enjoy the good moments together and it is always about them and not you. Some suggestions to deal with toxic people are to speak up and stop pretending their behavior is ok. To have compassion but put your foot down and if that does not work, then walk away and move on. Looking at my relationships in the past few years, I can see I have had my fair share of toxic relationships whether they were based on co-dependance or other issues and lessons in my life. As I grow and learn more about myself, I become more confident and love myself enough to say no to toxic people in my life. During the past two years, I have gone through a massive cleansing in my life not only of spaces but also people and relationships. I have let go of many toxic relationships and said goodbye to several people. The people that have remained in my life are the ones that have shown me our relationships are healthy and are based on mutual and reciprocal interactions. Nobody gives 100% while others don´t give anything. I can be myself and I don´t feel like I can´t grow if I am part of that relationship.

How are your relationships? Can you see who has influenced you? Who has manipulate you? Are there any toxic people around you? How are you dealing with those people or situation?