12.30.2009

I was at the store last week picking up some food and flowers, when out of the corner of my eye I spotted an acquaintance of mine. Mind you, it was just out of the corner of my eye, so I didn't get a good look at her, but she was standing right behind me in line. Instead of looking back to see if it was who I thought it was, I just redirected my eyes to my purse pretending to look for something, and tried to be as inconspicuous as possible. Since I had avoided her to begin with, I felt the need to keep up the whole act. So, I almost ran to my car after I finished paying. I was hyper-aware for the rest of the time I was there, too. Just ridiculous!

It's not even like I don't like her, I do! On the few occasions that we've met, it's always been a good time. So, it would have been perfectly pleasant to turn around and say hi. It must be a touch of social anxiety, too, because how awkward would it have been if she didn't recognize me.

Oh my, and this wasn't the first time I avoided someone that I happened to spot in public. I just don't like to be surprised in public, I guess. Although, if it's a good friend, it's totally different. I'd love to see that person! Just today, I happened upon a friend at the mall. That was nice, although we only briefly talked before I had to skedaddle.

You know how it is though. Sometimes, you've dragged your ass out of the house, hair unkempt, wearing sweats, and truthfully, you're just not in a presentable condition. Plus, all the awkward small talk and if it's someone you really don't know, then you're not exactly sure if it really is that person. So much trouble!