79. goddammit, makes me want to cry

It's so easy to lose your compass and start to doubt, or even forget what you know, what you witnessed.

When he was first elected, I had a feeling that he would be great, even among the greatest.

Then the angst started in. The devaluation, resentment, perfectionism, accusations, and it became an avalanche of distrust. I even doubted my perceptions for awhile and thought that perhaps I should join the angry critics who sounded cynical and cool.

Fine, it's human to question your allegiances; a sign of a functioning brain, in fact.

But what saddens me most deeply are the people who revile him, brainwashed by this stinking putrid treacherous and craven mass media and their inability to pull away from their dependence on cheap and simplistic emotional self-involvement.

I'm especially saddened by people I know who are satisfied with blindness and energized by hate.