Monthly Archives: July 2013

Surprise!! I bet you are smiling right now:-) I am – because I am not ashamed to say it….. I AM F.A.T.! FEARLESS AND TRUTHFUL!

F.A.T. has new meaning for me since my annual visit to the “ladies doctor” included the step-on-the-scale moment of truth! My home scale has been hidden for months since it became a mood-modifying tool and even though I closed my eyes while on the doctor’s balance-beam scale – my sharp mind could easily figure out the numbers by the sounds of those sliders! The real moment of truth came when I saw the actual number of my fluffy body weight written on my chart……

SURPRISE!!! I was not sad, disappointed or shocked!! My first thought: The truth sets you free. I smiled and said “OK, now it’s time for wisdom. Help me, Lord, to wisely use the knowledge I have.” I felt a fearless courage rise up in me to forge ahead and boldly tell you all about it!

Then, the revelation: I AM F.A.T. — FEARLESS AND TRUTHFUL!

So, this is my first F.A.T. act – to declare it out loud and blog about it! I can say it and share it with you. I AM F.A.T.!
The outside fluffy stuff will shrink as the inside FEARLESS AND TRUTHFUL stuff gets bigger!

I am not afraid of those words anymore and I can honestly say that I am not ashamed to say it anymore:
I AM F.A.T.! FAT=FEARLESS AND TRUTHFUL!

Please be gentle with your comments – this new found courage is still a tender spot and I can feel the butterflies….here goes!

Just write. Empty my brain, pour out my heart and put my voice on paper!? Just write. Feels like cliff diving! Just write. I have been on the launch pad so long, not sure how to take off without exploding!

So, here I am, in the zero-dark-hundred hours that I find so peaceful and inspirational…….beginning to let my voice and heart go on this blank page of a blog that has been patiently waiting since my last attempt at beginning.

“Write, for these words are true and faithful” This is my inspiration and my guidepost. I have such respect for the written word. Sometimes the knowledge that the pages live beyond the mortality of the writer overwhelm me. I am not sure I want my words to live that long. What if I change my mind or discover I was wrong? Do I really want my shortcomings and failed attempts recorded for my future grandkids to read? (deep sigh & shaking head)

So, this morning, I begin to let my voice flow in truth. I promise to jump over the hurdles and continue in my journey of authentically “page speaking” by putting my voice on paper.