Mark Hamill has written another statement about Carrie Fisher, and this one has us bawling

Mark Hamill will be the first to tell you, “there is a long list of people who knew Carrie [Fisher] better than [he] did,” but no matter what, it’s always going to be Mark Hamill and Carrie Fisher. Luke and Leia. Space-twins forever.

“I felt like I didn’t want to do this, that it was too soon to talk about Carrie... It’s just unimaginable," he explains to EW. "Our relationship was unique. It was special. We were in the garage band that hit it big and had all these hit albums. Then we split up and went on our merry way."

He’s talking about Star Wars, of course, and his words are true. He and Carrie (along with Harrison Ford) were blasted into hyperdrive after the release of A New Hope, and it never quite slowed down for them after that. The threesome went on to do their own things in life after wrapping the original Star Wars trilogy, but has still very much remained close. They reunited again, on screen, for The Force Awakens — and Carrie and Mark will be together again in Star Wars: Episode VIII.

“I’m still trying to process this. I can’t think of her in the past tense. I think of her in the present tense, in the future tense. It is still so raw. I think that if I talk about her, maybe fans will not give in to despair, but I feel like a real hypocrite because I’m not okay with it at all. I’m angry and so sad. In a way, if we can all work through it together, we’ll all be better off."

Carrie’s passing has been incredibly hard on so many — both those who knew her personally, and those who saw her up on the big screen/read her books/idolized her. While none of us ever want to go through this kind of loss, remember, we can all get through it together. Mark, too.