I'm 25, male, hail from the San Francisco Bay Area, and am a graduate from San José State Unviersity. My interests are a bit of a laundry list, but my core ones are cosplaying (see left for an example), tea, light travel, Touhou, 2D shooters, music games, Ingress (L8 ENL player), and Monster Hunter. I tend to be shy and an introvert, rarely in public without headphones, a smartphone, or a Nintendo 3DS, and I strive to keep my emotions in check. But if you show that you're worth keeping as a friend, we can set aside the terrible aspects of life and have fun together. =)

If you wish to get to know me more or contact me, my online presences are below. I can also be reached via email at frozenray13@gmail.com. I'm also on Jabber as raydere@palemoon.net, LINE as raydere, and Skype (if the aforementioned two aren't an option) as raydere. If you want my 3DS friend data, ask me and we'll exchange friend codes, though I won't really do much with FCs until Monster Hunter 4 Ultimate gets released here.

Many of us, at some point, have been asked what’s our favorite song, favorite musician, favorite game, favorite film. etc. Or a list of favorites in a particular category, which is an extension of that concept.

I don’t like to list what my favorite whatever is, because it would require me to put things I like on a single axis of quality.

Let’s take games for example. Two of my favorite games are Ketsui and Gradius Gaiden; if you made me compile a top 5 shmups list at gunpoint, they would be in that list. I love the former because playing it competitively encourages fun but risky point-blank attacks, but won’t cripple the player completely just because they died or fired a bomb (unless they were going for the ura loop), and the latter because it provides a wonderful selection of ships that are all balanced yet stand out on their own and a vibrant, diverse collection of stages. But that doesn’t mean these two games are better than everything else in every way; no one game is going to be perfect. Another game I play, Eschatos, is something I wouldn’t consider one of my favorites because of a few qualities that make playing it seriously a bit of a joke, but its wave-based stage progression and emphasis on speedkilling in Original and Time Attack modes are two things I really like because they don’t show up enough in 2D shooters. Every game is different, and even if I don’t get as much enjoyment out of one game over another, I can still find some things to appreciate in the game I enjoy less.

Another example would be music. For the most part I have no single favorite song or favorite musician, or even favorite genre. It’s hard to call a single song my favorite, or even a small collection of songs my favorites because what I enjoy listening to depends on my mood and what context I’m in. For example, eurobeat and trance sound better for driving on a highway, but when I’m driving around the suburbs at around 11 PM coming home, my musical mood may shift more towards Asian pop or chillout. Doing repetitive tasks? Game music, particularly music from 2D shooters, often keeps me going. Studying, or doing something that requires me to think? Ambient music, or no music at all. I think of my enjoyment of music as something that’s multidimensional, not just "this is my favorite track, this is my second favorite track, etc."

Because of this way of thinking about the things I enjoy, for me to put down a favorite _____ would not only disregard the individual merits of each item, but would also take a lot of time because I’d have to spend a lot of time mentally processing which items I enjoy overall before coming to my conclusions, to the point where I’ll just say "I like thing A, thing B, and thing C, among other things I also enjoy".

Some can easily state what their favorites are down to single all-time favorite items in each category. But I don’t have a mindset like that.

So I’m on Facebook around 3:00 and I’m browsing posts from my music game acquaintances and friends when I see this:

Ah, osu!, the Osu! Tatakae! Ouendan / Elite Beat Agents simulator that have a number of fellow otogamers in a bunch.

I’ll admit, I’m not the biggest fan of osu! myself. There’s almost zero original songs, the game is ass to play without a touchscreen or a tablet, and the game takes the godawful combo-oriented scoring system of OTO/EBA and makes it even worse with modifier multipliers. (Want to top the leaderboards? Double the song speed, among other things!)

But at the same time, there’s a few problems with the outrage I see over someone playing the “looks like <game one is more familiar with>” card.

It’s kinda standard fare when osu! is such a popular game and not something I’d get worked up over tbh, even if I’m a bit contemptful of osu!. I mean hey, people who use comparisons when looking at media that reminds them of other works are pretty common; playing Touhou for the first time reminded me of DoDonPachi, O2Jam looked an awful lot like beatmania IIDX to me at first glance, and it’s hard not to look at falling block games and instantly go “oh, looks like Tetris” (despite the specific mechanics and strategies of, say, Puyo Puyo or Super Puzzle Fighter II Turbo being completely different from that of Tetris). We draw such comparisons because we want to put new experiences in terms and quantizations that we can understand.

Many people (at least those whose initial exposure wasn’t to rhythm game superplays, often with sensationalist titles like “Crazy Japanese Speed Game!”) are first exposed to rhythm games through StepMania or osu! because of availability and ease of access; they can be loaded with simfiles of familiar songs, they’re on PC rather just on a specific less-universal platform, and most importantly, are free(-ish). Sure, games with high content-to-price ratios like Cytus ($2 for 100+ songs with two charts each) and Tone Sphere ($2 for 40-ish songs with 2-4 charts each) exist, but not everybody has a smartphone or tablet, and even if they did, some people, especially minors, don’t have their own card for conducting online transactions with; I received my first payment card at the age of 17 in 2006 and until then had been playing Albat–I mean, PangYa and O2Jam for a few months, with no way of purchasing things that require real money until my card arrived. It’s not fair to look down on people for choosing a game because it’s a lot more affordable especially if living circumstances prevent them from buying other games. One of my friends freaked out after discovering that 4-song music packs for jubeat plus and REFLEC BEAT + were $4 each, and I don’t know how many people who don’t already like BEMANI are willing to put down, say, $100 to have 100 songs. (There are ways to get these songs For Free, but that steps into territory I kinda don’t wanna touch in public.)

So while it is kinda annoying to see the osu! comparison when I introduce people to other rhythm games, given my dislike of Everyone’s Favorite circle-clicking game, when a game like osu! is very popular and very accessible, it’s inevitable that the comparison will pop up.

Pop culture, everyone.

Update (7:25)

Okay, so a friend of mine provided some context to the above paraphrasing. Apparently, the original complaint is over osu! players who look at other music games and ask “is this osu?” That makes more sense as to why people are irritated, as comparing osu! and IIDX (for example) is like comparing Tetris to Puzzle & Dragons. I saw this image without knowing the full context, which said image doesn’t allude to, though my points still apply when people do comment in the form of “looks like _____.”

the creator of this image is indonesian lol. i think it actually meant “is this osu?” (context being an osu player’s comment when they see another game)

indonesians are bad at translating with context o<-< people take things quite literally here

I will not be going to AoD this year. First time skipping after four years of consecutive attendence. I’m getting to the point where con experiences all start to feel same-ish, with the same lack of things for me to do.

I will, however, turn up for Cherry Blossom Festival as usual, and hopefully Fanime and AX. Touhoucon is on my bucket list, and MAGFest is currently my "dream" convention.

I’m starting to shift more towards fandom-specific and gaming cons, basically. Me being a "game fan first and anime fan second" is part of why small, general-interest cons don’t really have that much charm for me these days.

A major point of contention amongst the non-eA-market BEMANI community is a unofficial implementations of eAMUSEMENT for machines outside of Konami’s markets.

On one hand, it’s pretty much a blatant breach of copyright; Konami did not intend for their services to be duplicated and their games pirated. But on the other hand, machines on these unofficial networks are often in public. It’s not like you need to take a 5km elevator ride down and go through ten blast doors each with authorization measures to play on such machines; anyone can walk into, say, Sunnyvale Golfland or such and play on these cabinets that are not running official eA, and if they have an eA pass they can see the address for the network’s web interface (which replaces the official eA URL). On top of that, Chrono Seeker is translated into English, and anyone with a pass will see all that delicious translated text. That’s an unofficial fan effort, not an official localization.

Tau himself has stated that Konami doesn’t really care what goes on with BEMANI cabs outside of their markets, because it doesn’t affect them. It’s when, for example, Spada Omnimix screenshots or obvious home setups of arcade IIDX games make their way around Japanese and Korean communities that it becomes a major issue.

Finally, as my friend says: Piracy is a service issue. Why are such networks implemented in the first place? Because we want a way to experience these various online-only goodies without having to travel to Japan or other countries with eAMUSEMENT. If BEMANI games were released for the international market and eAMUSEMENT was an international service–two things that I highly doubt will ever happen–this entire discussion would not exist in the first place.

When expressed in a civilized manner, disagreement is a beautiful thing. It shows that people have different ideas on a particular topic; difference means variety, and that people aren’t just going to kiss-ass and not think for themselves.

It also means that there’s an opportunity to come to an understanding of other viewpoints and to come to a compromise if necessary. ”Even though I disagree with what you say, you made some good points!”

…all of that is in theory. In practice, well…see any political discussion ever.

If you’re male, just like me, you do NOT get to dicatate what “real” feminism is.

Yes, there are people who say some uncomfortable things in the name of feminism. Yes, it can be a sucky feeling. But try to put yourself in their shoes, to imagine what it’s like to be met with prejudice that is in favor of the opposite gender and at the expense of one’s own gender on a daily basis, something that I’m sure is far more of a hassle than “x person talked about men who cause problems to women”.

Not everything is about you and your feelings. Don’t just dismiss a socially progressive idea just because it makes you feel a little bothered.

Next year will probably be my last AX in a row o<-< I like seeing long-distance friends but it’s so costly to attend and I want to save for other cons like Sakura-Con and MAGFest.

I just wish that Fanime, which I’ve had an unbroken attendence streak for since 2006, had incentives for my out-of-state friends to go. It doesn’t help that because it’s only a little over a month before AX, it ends up being a “choose one or the other” dilemma, and most of said friends will always choose AX due to the much better programming, industry presence, and dealer’s hall; Fanime is just a fan-run convention with lower-tier guests and almost nothing that attendees can’t also do or get at AX.

Maybe there will be a day when Nintendo embraces region-free once again; after all, in 2001, an issue of Nintendo Power features a reader letter response touting the region-free properties of the Game Boy Advance. But maybe that day will never come and there will be more chance of Konami releasing their entire active BEMANI lineup in the US. I’m enjoying my 3DS but I don’t enjoy not being able to play games that will never get released here.

Ironically, the Vita is region-free as far as physical copies go, yet has shown to be a commercial failure.

Shameful. Just shameful. I mean yes a costume is going to attract a lot of attention but that's no excuse for their abusive behavior. I hope that these bullies get expelled and that their parents take shame in failing to teach their children not to be abusive to others.

So I didn't go to Anime Destiny 2014, but I will be at NorCal Fall Cosplay Gathering 2014!
Also, this coming week is my 25th birthday! Sometimes I think that I'm getting a little old for cosplay, then I remember that Nonomy is around my age as well, so I'm not gonna let my fleeting youth stop me from doing what I enjoy!

So I'm a gigantic scrub and didn't dress for Halloween. I was going to, but I woke up really late and I was under the pretense that everyone I knew was already out doing various whatevers for Halloween, but totally forgot that my friend mentioned an on-campus Halloween social.
Welp, there's always next year, when Halloween falls on a Friday (finally!).

I'm going to the Philippines this holiday season, partly for vacation and partly to see family.
I'll be bringing a few of my male cosplays--specifically, Minato and genderswap Renko.
I will NOT be bringing any of my crossplays. I already give my mother enough worries. I don't need to cause problems with my judgemental extended family by demonstrating such a hobby.
Then again I never had high opinions of my extended family, save for some of my same- and younger-generation relatives. If older, more conservative members of my family think I'm committing a mortal sin because I don't conform to norms of gender expression, well fuck them. They don't control me.
As wannabe-rebellious as it sounds to say it: I do what i want.
And if you ARE one of my relatives, reading this, and think I've gone down some dark and evil path, let me tell you this: What I do brings others no harm. If anything, it has made me new friends and given me things in life to enjoy. If it's that big of a problem that I choose to express myself in a way that is harmless, yet makes you feel uncomfortable, then please don't consider me part of your (extended) family anymore. Thank you.

I don't announce "secret" cosplays. mostly because it'll get people nagging me what my secret cosplay is and also because I don't see the point in announcing a cosplay that I plan to keep hidden until it's complete.
A /true/ "secret cosplay" is one where I don't announce it at all, only revealing that the cosplay exists when I debut it. ;)

If you're a Touhou fan but don't know who Renko is, I'm not surprised, since she doesn't appear in the games, but rather in side material. In short she's an outsider who's been researching but hasn't been to Gensokyo, with the power to tell time and location by looking at the moon and the stars, respectively.
I chose to cosplay Renko because putting a cosplay for her is generally inexpensive and I find her design to be simple yet cute. Since she's from the "real" world her design is close to that of modern characters, so almost nothing costly was required, although I needed to get the skirt commissioned.
Possible improvements in the future include a bow ribbon on her hat and her capelet, as shown in images such as http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=32770302 and http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=32142491.
Thanks to RnM Photography for the photos and Myro Xylon Cosplay & Photography for the skirt!

As much as I'd love to go to ALA or Sac-Anime this January, I'm afraid it's not happening; I'll be on family vacation at the time in the Philippines.
But just in case there are any cosplay events in the Philippines, I'm packing one of my (male) cosplays.

Okay, now that I'm not so sleep-deprived and exhausted, I should be able to form coherent sentences.
This was my first year at Japan Expo, and while it is a bit different from many other conventions, it is, after all, an offshoot of a convention based in Europe. The industry presence was nice, and I found all the Japanese culture stuff (that isn't anime or video games) to be fairly cool. I'm okay with the "need a badge to get into the building" policy, but I do wish they'd do away with the badge scanning policy; it just seems like unnecessary hassle on both staff and attendees. Having the convention open later (7 PM is quite early to close) would be nice as well. I did however very much enjoy and take advantage of the changing rooms, especially as someone who is forbidden by parents to put on or come home in certain cosplays.
I'm very much gonna come back next year, to see how JX USA develops, and what they do to adapt to an American environment and ensure a smoother convention experience.
I'll write a full report on Tumblr later.

Japan Expo is tomorrow (technically today), so I'm gonna get some sleep soon.
I don't have a super duper "more than one costume a day" lineup, instead I just have the following:
Friday: Minato Arisato / Persona 3
Sat. and Sun.: Reimu Hakurei / Touhou Project
See you there!

Skipping Kin-Yoobi Con, but I'll be going to Japan Expo.
Sac-Anime still quite up in the air. Wanna go because a close friend of mine is going, but that'd require me to expend money on hotel and gas. (And food.)

Last-minute update, but I'm going to J-Pop Summit tomorrow (Saturday), not Sunday.
My rationale is this:
J-Pop Summit on Sunday tends to be shorter, but Best of the West uses the entirety of both days. I might as well attend J-Pop on Saturday and BotW on Sunday to maximize my split time at both activities. :)

So I was going to use IFTTT to have a way to crosspost from Twitter to this page, but I forgot IFTTT wiped out their Twitter trigger features because the folks at Twitter are assholes. (Though this isn't the only logistical problem I've had with Twitter lately, speaking as someone who uses Twitter like it's IRC.)
Then I tried a "post photos from FB to Tw" thing but then /every/ photo I upload will crosspost to Twitter (there's no "photos tagged as so and so" option) and that isn't what I want.

This is perhaps my "flagship" cosplay--the one I'm known well for. Long story short it began with a joke about my name, which turned into a nickname by others for me. I eventually made plans to cosplay as Reimu, and I was gonna commission the costume from a friend of mine but that plan fell apart. Not wanting my plans to fail, I ended up ordering the costume from CosplayFu (http://www.cosplayfu.com/comics/touhou+project/Reimu+Hakurei#1846) and the wig from Ayanamisatoru, with my friend Anthony assisting with the hair tubes. This is the first costume that I've had to wear makeup for, so cosplaying as Reimu has been quite the learning experience for me. Eventually I want to remake the costume from scratch so I can truly call it my own~

So a subset of my friends and I are having a conversation about Kitchencore, crossplay (and general crossdressing), and a friend of ours who most if not all of us look up to as a AA-tier trap.
There's nothing wrong with having cosplay idols, or wanting to improve at cosplay, but it's not healthy to obsess over those sorts of things. If you constantly worry that you don’t look beautiful enough to be put in cosplay magazines, or that you'll never be as pretty/awesome/hot/etc. as a cosplayer you look up to, you’re doing it wrong. At the end of the day, cosplay is simply about enjoying dressing as your favorite characters. Just relax and enjoy the pretty costumes you’re in, and the friends you make through wearing them.
I mean really it・s like other hobbies, like music, sports and vidyagaems. You may not be the Michael Phelps or Sangkm of whatever hobbies you partake in, but if you enjoy it and do your best, that's what matters the most.

I'm going to be at Kitchencore today! For those unaware, it is a DJ mixing-type house party event, which many of my friends attend and perform at.
For today's KC, there's going to be a Halloween costume contest! I normally don't attend contests, but this is a fairly casual one and I'm just in it to to demonstrate my Reimu cosplay in person at KC and on the stream.
The event starts at 4 PM and the costume contest is at 9 PM--come watch and check out me and various other people in costume/cosplay!