Although I'm not good enough a writer to actually be at stake as an author, I feel that I have to express what I feel are points about life, and which I can't (at least not easily enough)write with good quality. I apologize for that :-( ... and hope people can enjoy these stories anyway.

Friday, April 8, 2016

The Maid

Three siblings, one boy and one girl,
who were twins, and one two years younger brother, were taken care of
by a maid who very much, it seemed, enjoyed scolding children of
above three. She did this a bit cunningly, so that their two parents
didn't quite realize that their maid had a gluttony about that she
could break their self-confidences a little at a time. She even
prided herself in seeming rather innocent, while at the same time
taking out her own childhood frustrations on these two - the kids
of some other family.

She had developed those frustrations
from how her own single mother, mostly, had treated her as a child.
But also very much the acquaintances of her mom, including her actual
father were guilty of her frustrations. It was not as if she, the
mother, was clever at seeing reasons for being mean, but it was the
mother who pretended that meanness was to be seen as morals.

The upbringing emerged in the daughter
of this single mom didn't see in herself that she didn't have to care
about insinuations that said she was being mean. There was thereby an
insolence to her against just about anyone who seemed innocent enough
for her to despise. By the time she was a maid, her insolence was
developed enough to blame her victims, i.e. she used her own
insolence for interpreting her victims as insolent.

This happened to both of the twin
siblings, for example after they had been to the loo, continuing even
until they had just recently had their forth birthday. Thereby, about
then, the twin brother at one occasion spied her do to his sister
what she also usually did to him. It was not the first them he saw it
- not at all - but it was almost the first time he really
reflected over it.

Though he did not quite understand what
was going on, there was something disturbing for him about it.
Because as he watched the maid picked her up and then wiped his
sister's behind, he observed her not hesitating about putting her
hand upon her downer genitals as well in the process. He thought that
as the girl was four years old, she was thereby capable of taking
care of that herself. It was not she, but the maid who pretended that
this was a nuisance, though. Because the maid seemed angry with her
for having to do it. At the same time, though, she had it that she
was very fond of herself as the one to seem good at doing this stuff.

He felt kind of sorry for his sister.
But at the same time he didn't know if he had enough reason to. But
he did know that she hadn't asked the maid to do it for her, any more
than they were supposed to do. Because they had been instructed by
her to call out for her when they were done at the loo.

He felt it immature, though, that they
should be viewed as ridiculous enough not to be able to do it for
themselves. But, he figured rather naively, “I guess we both have
to learn how to accept that she as a grown-up has the authority -
and thereby the right to find herself to be necessary for it!” he
thought, and then also reflected over that what he saw seemed to be
almost the same scenario as it were with him about a few hours back.

Two weeks later, their parents had told
the maid not to wipe their behinds, but have them do it themselves
after each visit. The brother had not interpreted this as meaning
immediately, though, since the maid had seemed so determined to clean
them thoroughly, with very thorough emphasis on her importance for
the procedure. So the next time after going to the bathroom, he felt
obedient when he as usual called out for the maid. But she was this
time very angry at that he didn't do it himself.

That afternoon the maid insulted the
mother of twins about that the boy had not realized that he should
“even by now consider it important to wipe his own butt!” The
mother thereby was insolent, too, against the two of them -
especially the boy.

The brother felt afraid because of the
maid's insinuation of about him. He felt now that he shouldn't ever
trust anyone who seemed innocent enough not to be scrutinized.
Moreover he felt like scolding anyone who never seemed to be scolded.
Thereby he grew up to be a guy whom people very often interpreted as
a disturbed kind of a fellow.

He, on the other hand, felt about
himself that he was rather thorough about being moral about everyone
around him. He felt also that he never had been into seeing in the
people around him that they were the innocent ones. It was even his
sister who was not very innocent by his comparison. She one the other
hand, unlike the others, kept on feeling for him that he was of an
innocent nature, and he thereby was able to feel safe from the
insinuations from the other people around him as he grew up.

And as an adult, the guy felt that he
was inferior, but still the guy who was the only person who cared
about deeper morals - or at least who cared much about them.
Thereby he insinuated about people around him that they were never to
be seen as his friends unless they were capable of having it one
should not trust those who advocated for those who seemed totally
innocent on the surface.