A blog about my Transition from a female to a male. These are my "T" diaries.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Growth of my penis.

For those that do not know, when you take testosterone what was once a clitoris becomes a small sized penis. If you look at the head of a clitoris, you can see that it looks like the head of a penis. This is because when we are in our mothers fetus and our sex is chosen, a male will grow a penis and the female will have their penis stay the same size and become a clitoris.

The clitoris is the only organ on any human being that is specifically for sexual pleasure. A biological male's penis is not just for orgasm, it is also used for urination and reproduction.

I always had a big clitoris, it was always my sexual claim to fame. I had always wanted it to be a little bit bigger so I could stoke it and jack it off. Before testosterone I could not stroke it, but now is a different story.

An FTM's penis grows over a period of several years of taking hormones. Some get really big, some do not. It all depends on the size of the clit to start with and how their body reacts to the testosterone. I have to admit for only being on testosterone for 10 months, my dick or dicklit is huge. It is bigger than some guys that have been on testosterone for 11 years and it will only get bigger. I am looking forward to a good sized small penis that can penetrate if only a little bit.

My dick is so big that I can now stroke it and "jack it off". It feels amazing because it acts and reacts like a penis, but has the stamina of a clitoris. It is only for sexual gratification and it can go a long way a long time. Now I know that some people might be embarrassed about this blog post, but it is time we stopped treated sex taboo and explored being open and honest about it. We all have a lot of healing to do when it comes down to our sexual energies. We have abused it and it has been abused countless times for some people.

I feel so amazing. Even though I still have PTSD and a trunk full of issues, I feel 90 percent better than I did a year ago. I look 100 percent better. As soon as I get a recent picture of myself I will post it. I have lost a lot of weight. My waist is now a 36 again, with 34 being my normal size. My face keeps changing and I have to admit I look better and younger than most other transguys my age. I look like a hot 25 year old male. When I get my top surgery, I swear I will look like a male model.

Even without the top surgery I still pass, more and more each day. Where now unless I say please let me in the female bathroom, I automatically get let into the male bathroom. I think this is pretty damn cool.

Anyway I know there are some of you out there that are really interested to see what my penis looks like. So I uploaded 5 recent pictures for you to download in zip format.

These are pictures of it semi hard, sticking out of my army shorts. They are not too graphic and you cant see the whole enchilada. Let me know what you think if you look at them. It is a little bit bigger than what you can see in these pictures. I just did not want it to seem to graphic and give away all my secrets. I am not embarrassed at all. I love my little cock, it really rules!

9 comments:

Unlike women, men do not readily discuss personal medical conditions and disorders with their friends. It is for this reason that pearly penile papules are very misunderstood.

It is not surprising that you would be plagued by worry and paranoia at the appearance of a bump on the rim of your penis. Immediately you would suspect venereal disease or even worse, cancer. The likelihood is that you do not have either, but rather a simple case of pearly penile papules. Pearly penile papules are very common among men, especially uncircumcised men. They are not as a result of bad hygiene and are not contagious in any way whatsoever. Many men actually find that they appear and disappear without any treatment at all.

However, if you are feeling uncomfortable with them, they can be effectively removed with a simple treatment of radiofrequency surgery. You should however consult your doctor and have them seen to should they emit a discharge or are physically painful.

bro, I just started T on the 10th of this month it is now the 20th. i feel so much more energetic and like the hulk sometimes lol but i feel a change in myself alrready mood wise, i got a booster injection on the 10th and the 19th i started axiron which goes under the arms, next month ill start weekly injections after my doctor teaches me how to stab myself. he said it should take 6-8 weeks to see big changes, is this true? do you think it would mess with the process switching back and forth?