To help me make up my mind, I asked six writer friends what they thought. Their answers ranged from "I would never have gotten an MFA if I hadn't wanted to teach" to "I think it's a great experience." I sided with the person who said he wouldn't have gone back and shelved the idea. Or so I thought.

I remained interested because whenever I wanted to experiment with writing or deepen the learning experience for my workshop students, I found myself wishing I were better read and more well-versed in the underlying reasons why techniques work or don't. I know why on instinct, but I came to believe instinct wasn't enough.

The nagging sense of more to learn wouldn’t leave me, as one of my more patient colleagues can attest (I pestered him often on his experience, which was quite positive). So I went to Poets & Writers' list of top 10 low res programs and whittled it to seven. I wanted low res because I need to work — a gal's gotta eat — and buy shoes.

When I heard the forecast for the Connecticut shore was mostly drizzle and fog, I considered canceling. But I needed the time, and I certainly had reading material.

The first afternoon was sunny, so I laid by the pool and enjoyed the day, with all that information only a distant concept. Then came the fog. It rolled in like the fright scene in a B movie, so thick that when I went to the ocean in Watch Hill, I could hear the grinding surf but couldn't see it until I went out on the sand.

With its Brontëan feel, the weather was perfect for reading, and as I sat in the hotel room I realized my biggest concerns — time and money — might not be so big. First, it occurred to me that since I care for an older mom, I couldn’t select a program far from home. I also realized that if I jettisoned all projects except my day job, I would have time for the program. Then it dawned on me that the cost might be deductible. In a rush of clarity, the MFA looked possible.

I excluded four of the seven programs and considered only the three I could reach by car in three hours or less. Then I created an Excel spreadsheet with my own comparison chart. And I read Lori May's book, paying particular attention to how often she said, and I paraphrase, don't think you're getting away with anything by choosing a low res MFA. It's the same work, just distributed differently. Still, without all those projects, it looked doable.

I sent emails to the three program coordinators asking one key question — for me anyway — whether they required the GRE. None did. Then I considered the three Ps: price, proximity and program. At first I leaned toward one program, then another, then finally one I had initially dismissed altogether because it wasn't on P&W's list. Yet, the more I looked into it, the more I liked what I saw.

The program is Fairfield University's low res MFA in creative writing. It had everything I wanted and some things I hadn't noticed at first, like a book prize, an extra residency — abroad (not required, but there if you want it; I like the one in Sicily and hope they keep it) — and a payment plan. And it wasn't the most expensive program, not when I tallied all the fees not listed on the main web page of the other programs. It was like a third date with a decent guy — the more I saw, the more I liked what I saw. When does that ever happen?

When I got home, I scrambled to apply. Why, I asked myself, was I rushing, especially since I didn't plan to attend until spring 2012. But, providentially, I churned out the requisite items, watched the video, contacted the program director, hustled friends for recommendations and sent the packet. When my accountant said the tuition could be deductible, I contacted the MFA director and said I might be able to enroll in 2011. I took slim encouragement from his response that he was glad I let him know.

Meanwhile, I decided not to say anything at work or at home. What an emotional rollercoaster. Some moments, I thought I had a good chance; other moments, I thought I was crazy. Then came the acceptance via email. I think one of my favorite words is "congratulations." But two confirmations remained — home and work. I needed someone to watch out for my mother while I was away the 10 days, and I needed approval for a block of the busiest time in our production schedule. I got both. Now I'm getting up to speed with the required readings, etc.

Amid all the flurry of excitement, there are specific reasons for going back to school at this comparatively late date in life. One is freedom. Not just from that pebble, but to leave what I know behind, the strictures of safe depths. Another is to go from craftsmanship to art. I don't know how to do that except to study with people who are already there.

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Adele Annesi is an award-winning writer, editor, and professor of writing, English and English as another language. She is also a co-author of Now What? The Creative Writer's Guide to Success After the MFA. Co-founder of the Ridgefield Writers Conference and a professional book editor, Adele crafts articles, columns, reviews and stories for journals such as 34th Parallel, The Fairfield Review, Hotmetalpress, Feile-Festa, Marco Polo Arts Magazine, Midway Journal, Miranda Literary Magazine, The Pittsburgh Quarterly, Pyramid, Tertulia, The Washington Independent Review of Books and Southern Literary Review, where she was managing editor. Her work has also been anthologized for Chatter House Press and Fairfield University, where she received an MFA in creative writing. Her essay on Italian citizenship is part of the Clarion Award-winning Essays About Life Transitions by Women Writers, and her flash fiction has been adapted for the stage. A professor of English and writing, Adele is completing a novel set in Italy. Her website is Adele Annesi.