Decisions… Decisions…

So how many of us are faced with daily decisions? Everyone has their hand raised…right?

Ok, so I was reading up on how to make wise decisions? I mean, I am at a point where I am scared (terrified) of making the wrong decision, because I know how greatly it can impact me.

I’m talking about great decisions… should I move to another country?Should we have a child now? Should I leave this job? Should I get involved with him/her? Things like this can greatly impact your progression forward, especially doing things that are: #1 outside of His will for us and #2 outside of the timing He has for us.

I can’t help but tell this story of what has happened to me at the end of last year.

I was really at an impass. I wanted to move on from my place of work. Bad! Like really bad. The people that know me, know that I have been wanting to venture out to another place of work… I needed benefits, I needed stability, I needed more happiness really. I was over and done with the roller coaster, ups and downs, and I needed a place more comfortable… for me. So I started to look at places that were hiring. (And with me, searching for a job is tedious. I do not wish to apply to everything because it is justthere. I go over the job skills to see if they match up with what I can do, or willing to learn, I look at the integrity of the place of work, the company… the salary, the benefits. Everything comes into play, but the most important thing is what excites my spirit.) So there was this one company that seemed to fit me PERFECTLY. I couldn’t get more excited than it. Even though, it paid as much as I was getting at my present place of employment, it was more convenient and it was just 1 company I would travel plan for, not the different companies and groups I have to juggle presently. So great! I sent my resume and cover letter through email.

I received a call the next week from the opportunity. I leaped for joy! Yes! Phone interview the following Monday. The phone interview went well to get a second interview the following Monday! Great! I went in with my head high, comfortably answered the questions the best way I knew how, took some initiative with references, and thanked them for a great interview. The next set of interviews would be the next week.

As I waited all week long, there were 2 more resignations from my current place of employment, leaving now my boss, a new girl and me in my department. Yikes! Now my head started turning, what if I get offered the position? Would I leave this company high and dry? Would I decline, and stay where I am at? Lord, I need you now than ever before! As much as my mind, and everyone else, was telling me that I should really leave the company I was currently employed if I was offered the position, I just didn’t know what to do honestly.

My thoughts, “I didn’t know if the company would fold within the coming weeks with all the problems we would be facing. TRUE. I have withstood so much mistreatment from my boss, so I should. TRUE. I didn’t know if they were going to do some more cuts in the near future. TRUE.”

And I would have a problem accepting these ‘what ifs’ but God spoke to my heart compassion. I thought, how hypocritical of me to leave a place, high and dry when it seemed as if my boss needed me the most, and I just went through something similar emotionally, and I scorned the dude for it? Wow. Yes, God did speak. I then gave the decision to God. Literally. I didn’t even think about it no more for the rest of the week. I told God to handle it, because I am tired of making decisions for myself, and they end up being the wrong ones.

No, I didn’t get the position. After praying specifically, “…Lord, go before me this week and meet me at my decisions. Already work it out so I won’t have to.” And He worked it out for me! Surprisingly, I didn’t throw a fit! I didn’t get upset! I ask God ‘why?’ I realized for the first time, I was in love with God! I trusted Him and His decision, completely, enough not to even question why! I didn’t feel a disappointment or hurt, I felt relief and joy! And this is a place I have been wanting to get to for a very long time!

You see, just because you don’t agree with what’s presented doesn’t mean it’s not Gods Will. When we pray let your Will be done we need to accept the fact that more thank likely not how we ‘envisioned’ it, but can we still trust Him one in the same? We pray for this job but do you trust Him when he says “no”? I can pray for a specific job all day long, but if it’s not His decision for my life & destiny, I can’t really do anything about it. The next move, has to be my best move in my decision making process. I realize that each decision I make moves me either away from destiny, or towards it. I’m at the point in my life I need the Lord’s guidance and what’s really best for me.

Like I said earlier, I read a blog on making wise decisions, and really we can skip a lot of the ‘pondering’ process when making decisions, by lining up the motive of the decision with the fruits of the spirit. Questions to ask yourself like: am I making this decision out of fear? Am I making this decision out of greed? Am I making this decision out of pride? Am I making this decision out of hurt?Am I making this decision to prove myself to others?

Galatians 5:16, 22-23

But I say, walk and live [habitually] in the [Holy] Spirit [responsive to and controlled and guided by the Spirit]; then you will certainly not gratify the cravings and desires of the flesh (of human nature without God).

But the fruit of the [Holy] Spirit [the work which His presence within accomplishes] is love, joy (gladness), peace, patience (an even temper, forbearance), kindness, goodness (benevolence), faithfulness, Gentleness (meekness, humility), self-control (self-restraint, continence). Against such things there is no law.

Philippians 4:8

For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, —think about such things.

I sometimes believe, He will make the conditions right to leave. That’s what He told me that day anyway. He said I won’t have to put you in a position to leave on these terms. When you leave, it would be a happy ending on both ends.