Saturday, September 27, 2008

Here goes..............

Well, here goes! My first post. In a few moments I’ll no longer be a blog virgin and would have committed myself to starting and maintaining this message in a bottle.

What am I doing here? Processing, I guess. So, some context – a little more stuff about me:

I’m 43 and came to describe myself as femme early last year. My emerging identity (together with some other bumps along the way) resulted in my ending a long term relationship with a (very special) man. I’m now deeply in love with my girlfriend, P, and have been for sometime.

I describe myself as femme because that is what I am, and, importantly, what I’ve always been. “Lesbian” is a term that I don’t choose because, for me, it has a meaning that does not describe me for the first 41 years of my life – where as “femme” (and “queer”) do precisely that.

On good days, I would compare my journey to a happy, no, joyous, awakening and on bad days to a very difficult birth (not that I have any idea what that feels like!).

At the moment I’m endeavouring to move forward and build a life that is intentional and owned. I’m also trying to feel guilt-free about that, sometimes successfully, sometimes not.

My endeavours have been and are hugely supported by P, TSM (The Special Man), femmeismygender, Holden and friends & family. I’m a very lucky woman.

This blog will be framed around the fact that I want to remain anonymous, because for me this means, less attention to censorship. I hope it works out that way!

Have to sign out for now – P has just emerged from a soak in the bath and well…………

Queer Rose- you are truly beautiful. You make my days shine and my nights twinkle.Because of you I carry a smile around in my heart.I love your courage, your strength and your passion to be true to yourself and others. I have decided to not intrude upon your blog unless you invite me to do so.I hope it brings you whatever it is you want it to- and more much more.