Responsibility

May 7, 2012

(No pictures?!?! Must be serious!!!) 🙂

14,117.

Anyway you slice it, that’s a big number. That number signifies the amount of people that have read my blog since it’s inception.

YEAH – I KNOW.

So… the other night I had this fantastic conversation which led me to actually SAY something I’ve thought about for a very long time, but never really talked about. I never actually put into words. You know what I’m talking about – you’ve got something in your head that’s run through there a bunch of times then, when it comes time to articulate it:

But great people – truly great human beings – are great because they help bring out the great in others. Could be with words, in their performance… it can be a bunch of things. This chat did that for me. It brought to the forefront for me something I think I need to address, because I need to make sure everyone is 100% clear on what’s going on.

I started to write this blog for me… I got tired of updating everyone with the same story over and over again about what was going on with me so I figured I’d put it all in 1 spot, make it a little entertaining, and then my family and friends could start the convo with me if they felt so inclined after reading. It’s clearly become more than that.

And I want you, reading this right now, to know that I recognize that.

I write about the physical people in my life a lot; the people that are around in my life that motivate me. I kinda feel bad because I think on some levels they’ve maybe unwillingly accepted the fact that they’re part of this for me/ with me. This was MY choice to put this all out there, and they’ve all been kinda sucked in to having their pics posted and their ‘rolled up sweatpants/ sandal running’ lives put out there for everyone to read. That’s gonna be something I re-evaluate w/ my peeps… it’s been so long I should really make sure they’re OK with it.

HOWEVER… what I don’t put out there as often as I maybe should is the ‘random acts of kindness’ that I receive almost daily from people who read this. It’s stunning to me to see the reach this blog has produced simply by Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, etc… all of the people it’s touched and, apparently, helped or motivated.

In all 50 states and over 15 different countries.

YEAH – I KNOW. 🙂

It’s a hard thing to accept. To say “Yeah, I motivate people to (insert activity).” I’m not an idiot… I look at myself in the mirror every single day… so to think I motivate someone in some kind of physical capacity is awkward to say the least. But I chose to put myself out there (action) and, sometimes, this is what happens when you do that (reaction).

That being said, I accept the responsibility of how this blog not only helps ME with a lot of things, but how it’s helped others as well. I am not going to fail this time. I refuse to do that to myself – or you guys. I do not take this lightly and don’t EVER think that every one of you 14,117 isn’t appreciated – even if at this point you’re simply a number. Each of you are here for a reason, and will do my best to entertain/ motivate/ educate you while I continue on my journey. Even if I hit the bump in the road, I’m gonna share it regardless of how crappy it may be, because as I’ve said before this journey isn’t all sunshine and roses – It sucks sometimes. But the true test isn’t those times, it’s how you RESPOND to those times… how you GET THROUGH those times… and how you still head towards success IN SPITE OF those times.

I’m really looking forward to having more conversations like that. Lord knows it’s not easy to make me speechless (see: every single post I’ve ever written… ever… including this one.). And to everyone reading… thank you. I appreciate you and I will NOT let you down. Fasten your seatbelts… we’re taking this to a whole new level real soon.