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It's my party, and I'll cry if I want toCry if I want to, cry if I want toYou would cry too if it happened to you.

Judy and Johnny just walked through the doorLike a queen with her kingOh what a birthday surpriseJudy's wearin' his ring

It's my party, and I'll cry if I want toCry if I want to, cry if I want toYou would cry too if it happened to you.

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"Life in Lubbock, Texas, taught me two things: One is that God loves you and you're going to burn in hell. The other is that sex is the most awful, filthy thing on earth and you should save it for someone you love." - Butch Hancock, Musician, The Flatlanders

Oh, what a shame that your pockets did bleed on St. Valentine's And you sat in a chair thinking: "Boy, I'm such a prince!" Well, life's a train that goes from February on Day by day But it's making a stop on April first

And you will believe in love And all that it's supposed to be But just until the fish start to smell And you're struck down by a hammer

Sure, you were swift When the handsome greek boys dropped by with gifts You are suave Thanks to ribbons that open sesame But in the stars and closer to home, in every planet It ain't hard for me and dear jo jo to see

That you will believe in love And all that it's supposed to be But just until the fish start to smell And you're struck down by a hammer

So let it all go by Looking at the sky Wondering if there's clouds and stuff in hell

And you will believe in love And all that it's supposed to be But just until the fish start to smell And you're struck down by a hammer

Live lifeLive life like you're gonna dieBecause you're gonnaI hate to be the bearer of bad newsBut you're gonna die

Maybe not today or even next yearBut before you know it you'll be saying"Is this all there was?What was all the fuss?Why did I bother?"

Now, maybe you won't suffer maybe it's quickBut you'll have time to thinkWhy did I waste it?Why didn't I taste it?You'll have timeBecause you're gonna die.

Yes it's gonna happen because it's happened to a lot of people I knowMy mother, my father, my lovesThe president, the kings and the popeThey all had hope

And they muttered just before they went"Maybe, I won't let go"Live life like you're gonna dieBecause you are

Maybe you won't suffer maybe it's quickBut you'll have time to thinkWhy did I waste it?Why didn't I taste it?You'll have time'Cause you're gonna die

I tell you who else left usPassed on down to heaven no longer with usJohnny Cash, JFK, that guy in the StonesLou Gehrig, Einstein, and Joey RamoneHave I convinced you?Do you read my lips?This may come as news but it's timeYou're gonna dieYou're gonna die

By the time you hear this I may well be deadAnd you my friend might be next'Cause we're all gonna die

'Cause maybe you won't suffer maybe it's quickBut you have time to thinkWhy did I waste it?Why didn't I taste it?You'll have time 'cause you're gonna die

Live LifeLife life like you're gonna dieBecause you're going toOh yesI hate to be the bearer of bad newsBut you're gonna die

Maybe not today or even next yearBut before you know it you'll be saying"Is this all there was?What was all the fuss?Why did I bother?Why did I waste it?Why didn't I taste it?"You'll have time, babyYou'll have time'Cause you're gonna dieYou are gonna dieOh yeah

(the sung part in the background)Y-O-U-apostrophe-R-E-G-O-double-N-A-DIE Die!You are gonna diiiiiieLung cancer, heart attack, diabetes, drug overdoseChoke on a chicken boneHit by a lightning boltHeart attackAirplane crashCar wreckF*cked up in your aaaaa---s-s-s-s!

All day long he was fighting for youAnd he didn't even know your nameYoung men come and young men goBut life goes on just the same

And I don't know whyWhy do we keep holding onI don't know whyPretending to be oh so strongOh whyIs there something I don't knowOr something very wrong, with you and meor maybe

That's the way it is, there's nothing I can do,That's just the way it is.

They've been waiting for word to come downThey've been waiting for you night and dayThey won't wait any longer for youIt may already be too late

And I don't know why...

You see the dying, you feel the painWhat have you got to sayIf we agree that we can disagreeWe could stop all of this today

It's been your life for as long as you can rememberBut you cannot fight no moreYou must want to look your son in the eyesWhen he asks you what you did it for

'Cos all day long he was fighting for youAnd he didn't even know your nameYoung men come and young men goBut life goes on just the same

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Artist: Phil CollinsSong: Son Of Man

Lyric:

Oh, the power to be strongAnd the wisdom to be wiseAll these things willcome to you in timeOn this journey that you're makingThere'll be answers that you'll seekAnd it's you who'll climb the mountainIt's you who'll reach the peak

Son of Man, look to the skyLift your spirit, set it freeSome day you'll walk tall with prideSon of Man, a man in time you'll be

Though there's no one there to guide youNo one to take your handBut with faith and understandingYou will journey from boy to man

Son of Man, look to the skyLift your spirit, set it freeSome day you'll walk tall with prideSon of Man, a man in time you'll be

In learning you will teachAnd teaching you will learnYou'll find your place beside theones you loveOh, and all the things you dreamed ofThe visions that you sawWell, the is drawing near nowIt's yours toclaim it all

Son of Man, look to the skyLift your spirit, set it freeSome day you'll walk tall with prideSon of Man, a man in time you'll be

Son of ManSon of Man's a man for all to see

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Artist: Phil CollinsSong: There's A Place For Us

Lyric:

So here we are togetherjust you and mesitting side by sidedon't know whywith time just racing bybut I don't want to go

Well I don't know much about it'cos all I am is what you seein front of youthere's no morefeels so close and yet so farbut I don't want to go

Here I am, take my handhere I am, please take my hand

I'd like to sit here with you if that's all rightif you don't mind I could sit and stare all nightsit here waiting for you to hold me tight

It's sad but I know it's trueyou see I know you wellyou'd only laugh at meand that would hurt me sojust look at me hereyou've got me pleading with youbut I don't want to go

'Cos you know that I love you soyes you know that I love you so

Here, I will be here lovefor you love, I will always be here love

If you look real closeyou'll see my heart is on my sleeveand it'll be here waitingwaiting for you, waiting for mesomeone once said that if you truly, truly believeyou can make things happenmake things appear to be all that they seemtell me do you believe?

We'll find a hideawaytogether we'll find a waysomewhere, somehow, we'll find some waythere must be somewherethere must be someplacewe can find somewherewhere they don't know my facebelieve me we can find ityes we can find itsomewhere, there's a place for ussomewhere, a time and a place for ussomewhere

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Artist: Phil CollinsSong: All Of My Life

Lyric:

All of my life I´ve been searchingfor the words to say how I feelI´d spend my time, thinking to muchand leave a little to say what I meanI´ve tried to understand the best I canAll of my life

All of my life I´ve been saying sorryfor the things I know I schould have doneall the things i could have said, come back to mesometimes I wish it had just begunseems I´m always that little too late

Set 'Em Up, I'll take a drink with youpul up a chair, I think I'll stayset 'em up, 'cos I'm going nowherethere's too much I need to remember, too much I need to say

All of my life. I've been lokingbut it's hard to find the wayreaching past the goal in front of mewhile what´s important just slips awayit doesn´t come back, burt I'll be lookingAll of my life

Set 'Em Up, I'll take a drink with youpul up a chair, I'll think I'll stayset 'em up, 'cos I´m going nowherethere's too much I need to remember,too much I need to stay

All of my life there have been regretsthat I don´t do all I couldplaying records upstairs, while he watched T.V.I didn't spend the time I shouldit's a memory, I will live withAll of my life

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Artist: Phil CollinsSong: Find A Way To My Heart

Lyric:

Find a way to my heart, and I will always be with youFrom wherever you are, I'll be waitingI'll keep a place in my heart, you will see it shining throughSo find a way to my heart, and I will, I will follow you

This journey's not easyfor you, I knowIf your footsteps get too faint to hear, I'll goCos you know, quesations are never that easyAnd never the sameYou have the answer believe meIf you have the faith

Find a way to my heart...

Time may come, and time may go, I knowIf you should call out for me, I'll goBut you know, there is a code to be brokenI wrap it aroundWithout a word being spokenWithout a sound

Ther's a reason I hide my heartOut of sight out of mindAnd when I find out just who you areThe door will be open for you to..

Find a way to my heart...____________________________________________________________

Artist: Robbie WilliamsSong: Feel

Lyric:

I wanna contact the living

Not sure I understand

This rope I've been given

I sit and talk to God

And he just laughs at my plans

My head speaks a language

I don't understand

I just wanna feel

Real love fill the home that I live in

Cos I got too much life

Running thru my veins

Going to waste

I don't wanna die

But I ain't keen on living either

Before I fall in love

I'm preparing to leave her

Scare myself to dead

That's why I keep on running

Before I roll eye

I can see myself coming

I just wanna feel

Real love fill the home that I live in

Cos I got too much life

Running thru my veins

Going to waste

And I need to feel

Real love and the love ever after

I can not get enough

I just wanna feel

Real love fill the home that I live in

I got too much love

Running thru my veins

To go to waste

I just wanna feel

Real love and the love ever after

There's a hole in my soul

You can see it in my face

It's a real big place

Come and hold my hand

I wanna contact the living

Not sure I understand

This rope I've been given

Not sure I understand

Not sure I understand

Not sure I understand

Not sure I understand______________________________________________________________

ImADope

Two much different songs from my new favorite film, lt's a Boy Girl Thing:

"Filthy / Gorgeous" Scissors Sisters

When you're walkin' down the streetAnd the man tries to get your businessAnd the people that you meetWant to open you up like ChristmasYou gotta wrap your fuzzy with a big red bowAin't no sum bitch gonna treat me like a hoI'm a classy honey kissy huggy lovey dovey ghetto princess

When you're runnin' from a trickAnd you trip on a hit of acidYou gotta work for the manBut your biggest moneymakers' flaccidYou gotta keep your shit togetherWith your feet on the groundThere ain't no one gonna listenIf you haven't made a soundYou're an acid junkie college flunky dirty puppy daddy bastard

Beautiful dawn - lights up the shore for me.There is nothing else in the world,I'd rather wake up and see (with you).Beautiful dawn - I'm just chasing time again.Thought I would die a lonely man, in endless night.But now I'm high; running wild among all the stars above.Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Beautiful dawn - melt with the stars again.Do you remember the day when my journey began?Will you remember the end (of time)?Beautiful dawn - You're just blowing my mind again.Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine.High; running wild among all the stars above.Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older?Promise me tomorrow starts with you,Getting high; running wild among all the stars above.Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

I'm like a storm cloud eager when you go outCalm again I'll ask permission for the wrong to winDrop the bomb and get your story out and get it on In a haze the beginning of your days Gonna fall down Got to get back up but at your own pace Got to fill your cup and find the way Out of your own maze Yeah boy what you said now

And hide the rule book throw it in the waste Look strongLike you belong cause you do belongWhether right or wrong you belong

I'm on your side if you fail at least you triedTo keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart alive Yeah and pride don't keep it all inside Don't keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart alone Write you own song

Whatever happened to our inner glow Whatever happened to the song the soul the me i used to know Whatever happened to my radio Whatever happened to my song It is my song

So here's a preview shove it under old-newOr call it rock or pop or bach or fuck Goddamn where did we go wrongNow there's a catergory for every song

Yeah we only want to sing when we want to Yeah we only want a dream we can flaunt to Yeah we only want to fly by the side making love to the rhythm be a jeckyl and a hydeYeah we only want a field we can run through Yeah we only want a beat we can drum to Yeah we only want to fly by the side making love to the rhythm be a jeckyl and a hyde

So stride if you fail at least you triedTo keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart aliveAnd pride don't keep it all insideDon't keep your aching celebrating wonder making heart aloneWrite your own song

Whatever happened to our inner glow Whatever happened to the song the soul the me i used to know Whatever happened to my radio Whatever happened to the song

Gonna wake up strong ya we're all gonna wake up strong...

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"Life in Lubbock, Texas, taught me two things: One is that God loves you and you're going to burn in hell. The other is that sex is the most awful, filthy thing on earth and you should save it for someone you love." - Butch Hancock, Musician, The Flatlanders

Here's a little chestnut that I just can't get off my brain today for some reason.Hope you like it.

You Can Call Me Al(Paul Simon)

A man walks down the street He says why am I soft in the middle now Why am I soft in the middle The rest of my life is so hard I need a photo-opportunity I want a shot at redemption Don't want to end up a cartoon In a cartoon graveyard Bonedigger Bonedigger Dogs in the moonlight Far away my well-lit door Mr. Beerbelly Beerbelly Get these mutts away from me You know I don't find this stuff amusing anymore

If you'll be my bodyguard I can be your long lost pal I can call you Betty And Betty when you call me You can call me Al

A man walks down the street He says why am I short of attentionGot a short little span of attention And wo my nights are so long Where's my wife and family What if I die here Who'll be my role-model Now that my role-model is Gone Gone He ducked back down the alley With some roly-poly little bat-faced girl All alone alone There were incidents and accidents There were hints and allegations

If you'll be my bodyguard I can be your long lost pal I can call you Betty And Betty when you call me You can call me Al Call me Al

A man walks down the street It's a street in a strange world Maybe it's the Third World Maybe it's his first time around He doesn't speak the language He holds no currency He is a foreign man He is surrounded by the sound The soundCattle in the marketplace Scatterlings and orphanages He looks around, aroundHe sees angels in the architecture Spinning in infinity He says Amen! and Hallelujah!

If you'll be my bodyguard I can be your long lost pal I can call you Betty And Betty when you call me You can call me Al Call me Al

What's it all about, Alfie? Is it just for the moment we live? What's it all about when you sort it out, Alfie? Are we meant to take more than we give Or are we meant to be kind? And if only fools are kind, Alfie, Then I guess it's wise to be cruel. And if life belongs only to the strong, Alfie, What will you lend on an old golden rule? As sure as I believe there's a heaven above, Alfie, I know there's something much more, Something even non-believers can believe in. I believe in love, Alfie. Without true love we just exist, Alfie. Until you find the love you've missed you're nothing, Alfie. When you walk let your heart lead the way And you'll find love any day, Alfie, Alfiewould you tell me what's it all about?what's it all about? Alfie, Alfie, Alfie.What's it all about? Whats this all about?what's it all about Alfie? tell mewhat's it all about Alfie? what's it all about Alfie?just tell me yeah. what's it all about?what's it all about?

By my side,You'll never be.By my side,You'll never be.Cos I'm fake at the seams,I'm lost in my dreams.I want you to know,That I can't let you go.And you're never coming home again,And you're never coming home again.By my side,You'll never be.By my side,You'll never be.I wanted to tell you I'd changed.I wanted to tell you that things would be different this time.But I see you, you see me,Differently.I see you, you see me,Differently.You tell me that you love me but you never want to see me again

Dan J.

Come gather 'round peopleWherever you roamAnd admit that the watersAround you have grownAnd accept it that soonYou'll be drenched to the bone.If your time to youIs worth savin'Then you better start swimmin'Or you'll sink like a stoneFor the times they are a-changin'.

Come writers and criticsWho prophesize with your penAnd keep your eyes wideThe chance won't come againAnd don't speak too soonFor the wheel's still in spinAnd there's no tellin' whoThat it's namin'.For the loser nowWill be later to winFor the times they are a-changin'.

Come senators, congressmenPlease heed the callDon't stand in the doorwayDon't block up the hallFor he that gets hurtWill be he who has stalledThere's a battle outsideAnd it is ragin'.It'll soon shake your windowsAnd rattle your wallsFor the times they are a-changin'.

Come mothers and fathersThroughout the landAnd don't criticizeWhat you can't understandYour sons and your daughtersAre beyond your commandYour old road isRapidly agin'.Please get out of the new oneIf you can't lend your handFor the times they are a-changin'.

The line it is drawnThe curse it is castThe slow one nowWill later be fastAs the present nowWill later be pastThe order isRapidly fadin'.And the first one nowWill later be lastFor the times they are a-changin'.

Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus When I see your smileTears run down my face I can't replaceAnd now that I'm stronger I've figured outHow this world turns cold and breaks through my soulAnd I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fallI'll stand up with you foreverI'll be there for you through it allEven if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.Seasons are changingAnd waves are crashingAnd stars are falling all for usDays grow longer and nights grow shorterI can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fallI'll stand up with you foreverI'll be there for you through it allEven if saving you sends me to heaven

I've touched some objects of faith more precious than pieces of eight.Seen sacred places and ritual ways, but for communion let's go to my place.I learned to pray on my knees.Been taken in hand, if you please.Had my own revelations, ideas about fate, but for communion let's go to my place.So as the body, so as the blood, sacred as the soul is to love.Don't be mistaken if you don't understand, divinely simple.Part of the plan.Take!Eat!This is my body!I give it to you.Take!Drink!This is my blood.Do it in remembrance of me (so you won't forget me).Now, I've been a witness of grace.I've stared sacred days in the face.The long long parade of ritual ways, but for communion let's go to my place.Sacred stories are told.They're passed on like pieces of gold.So make your conclusions, consider your fate, and for communion let's go to my place.Are you ready?Are you ready for communion?

Dan J.

Down On The Ocean FloorThat's Where I"m Heading ForHold On To A Sinking Stone Untill The Worst Is KnownNobody Wants To Think AboutNobody Wants To Talk About ItNo one Protects You They Make It Go Away Pretending That Its All OkBroken Pieces On The GroundEveryones Tiptoeing RoundNobody Wants To Think About ItNobody Wants To Talk About ItNo one Protects YouAre We Losing SomethingWe Used To CryWe Used To Say WhyFor All I KnowWe Might Not Get HomeBut I Found OutIf We Open It Up We Could Work This OutNobody Wants To Think About It Nobody Wants To Talk About It NowWhat You Suspected All AlongEverything He Told You Was WrongAnd You Can See It If You WantBut Nobody Wants To

All the colors of the rainbow,All the voices of the wind;Every dream that reaches out,That reaches out to find where love begins;Every word of every story,Every star in every sky,Every corner of creationLives to testify

For as long as I shall live,I will testify to love.I'll be a witness in the silences When words are not enough.With every breath I take, I will give thanks to God above.For as long as I shall live,I will testify to love.

From the mountains to the valleys,From the rivers to the sea;Every hand that reaches out,Every hand that reaches out to offer peace;Every simple act of mercy,Every step to kingdom come;All the hope in every heart Will speak what love has done.

For as long as I shall live,I will testify to love.I'll be a witness in the silences When words are not enough.With every breath I take, I will give thanks to God above.For as long as I shall live,I will testify to love.

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful nor conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes." - 1 Corinthians 13:4-7, adaptation in A Walk To Remember