Saturday, July 11, 2009

first post, whatever it is

first post. does anybody even read these?i have a man. and for whatever the reason is, i live through him. i simply seem to be unable to exist without this person in my life. 1 year, 29 days together. and things have never changed, really. my hunger is so easily persuaded by this boy, the desire to not need, to not feel. i feel for every morcel of food that does not pass my lips, he might love me more. every time we fight, it feels as though the cause was simply eating. fights over food, honestly you'd be suprised how often it is the culprit. food does not nourish you. it simply destroys your willpower and causes you to be unhappy.

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quotes

"for every pange of hunger we feel, we can have a double joy, that of knowing we are saving worse pangs in some little children, and that or knowing that for every pang we feel we lose a pound. A pangs a pound the world around we'll say."

"when I wake, I'm empty, light, light-headed. I like to stay this way, free and pure, light on my feet, traveling light. For me, food's only interest lies in how little I need, how strong I am, how well I can resist, each time achieving another small victory of the will."

"i become within myself, unaware of the hysteria around me. it blurs, and i am hovering, floating, completely free from the chaos."