My cancer situation

So I know I've mentioned this in another thread before but never really in its own.
About 1.5 years ago I was diagnosed with adenoid cystic carcinoma.. a tumor in my sinus cavity/brain.. which then spread into my back/spine.
Up until the past month I was dealing with it all very well... I am only 25 years old.. as of December I was still skating doing double axels and everything.
As of the past month it seems to have spread like crazy.. I started to be unable to walk as well... but even last week I could still stand and take steps with a walker. Then each day after that I got significantly more paralyzed... and now basically up to my chest is paralyzed. I can't walk, can't function at all for myself really. I'm now admitted back into the hospital while I do some more radiation treatments. The doctor says I have "months" to live. I have no idea how to handle any of this anymore... I am just breaking down constantly, I hate not being self-sufficient at all... everything just happened so drastically and suddenly I don't know what to do at the moment!

{{{Spazactaz}}} I am so sorry to hear this. I don't know what to say either. I will certainly keep you in my prayers. Does the hospital have any counselors or ministers or others who can talk to you? Maybe the radiation treatment will help.

If you are willing, if you post or PM your name and address, I know some of us would send you cards. It's not much, I know...

Don't know what to say besides offering my own {{}} & offering to read in case posting ever makes you feel better. Cannot even imagine how hard it must be to be unable to walk at all, especially since you were so active to begin with. Hang in there and don't give up hope -I know, a lot easier said than done.

So sorry to hear this Spazactaz. Will be praying for you. Does the hospital have a cancer support group you can reach out to? There are so many resources available to patients that sometimes get over looked.

Ask about support groups during your next radiation treatment. Many departments have them or will put you in contact with one. It helps to be able to talk with people undergoing the same things. I'm very sorry.

(((Spazactaz))) I'm so very sorry. I don't think any of us would know how to handle your situation, no matter how old we are, but such good advice from other posters. Please know my family and I are thinking of you even though we've never met you, and hoping for the very best for you. As someone said above, if posting and venting here helps you, we promise to look for all your posts.

Prayers Sorry I don't know what to say. I wish I could find some advice for you. I wish I could make this scary painful time and the future unknown less scary with some amazing insight. You deserve better. You deserve to grow old and live at least until your 80's. Plus I don't know why life has got to make matters worse by having hell make us lose control over our physical selves. It's crazy. It's sad. It's totally F-ed up.

I pray you have loved ones who know how to honor your life so that you can understand what a special person you have been. I mean you have made this forum interesting and you have affected us so I can imagine what you did for people in your real life. And I pray that they know how to handle your fear, frustration and what ifs with a mighty strength so that you have some one to lean upon right now.

Sending as much positive energy as I can your way. Praying that you find a way into best case scenario. Praying that You find a good peace. It's the hardest thing in life but I hope and send prayers.

God needs to leave everyone with a double axel ....there just aren't enough of them
Kidding aside....I don't know what to say but that you have my thoughts and prayers and make each day count....keep us posted on how you are doing

(((Spazactaz))) I'm so sorry. I will keep you in my prayers that a treatment will be found that can help you. Are there any experimental protocals available? You have a number of friends on FSU who are here to support you.

So sorry to read this. I'm hoping the hospital staff can make you more comfortable and provide you with everything you need. As people have already stated, we are here to support you. Sending hugs and positive thoughts your way!!

I'm so glad you decided to tell your story here at FSU, Spazactaz, I wanted to suggest it might be a great source of support and comfort. Sometimes speaking to people you only know online is easier because you can say what you want without upsetting and worrying real life family and friends.

It might be a great outlet to bitch and yell here. Everyone will listen and we all care.

Even though we only met a couple of times in London, and I'm just an old broad, I've been thinking about you and cheering you on.