Date: Tue, 9 Oct 2007 12:33:57 -0500
From: Morris Henderson
Subject: Grandson's Education - Part 6
NOTE: If you are offended by descriptions of sexual
activities between a man and a boy who are related or
if it is illegal for you to read such material, leave now.
Chapter 16 -- Jerry's Advice
Having made love to each other for more than an hour, they laid
quietly in bed embracing, each lost in their own thoughts. Jerry
was alternately thankful for being able to break his 30+ years of
unfulfilled yearning and dreading the inevitable end of the vacation.
Kevin, too, was grateful for the comfort of finally accepting what he
was and the joy of experience of gay sex. However, his thoughts
also revolved around condition three -- the difficulty of having to
find another partner -- and, significantly, Casey. Or, more
precisely, reflecting on his and Casey's behavior during the brief
time they spent together.
"Is it all right if we talk for a while?" Kevin asked.
"Of course."
"I've been trying to remember everything you told me ... about
finding somebody like me, I mean. And I've been thinking about
Casey. And I get more confused. No, worried more than
confused."
Jerry made a guess as to what worried Kevin: the typical difficulty
of gay boy being attracted to another boy but fearful of saying so.
He had the same feelings as a teenager. However, he chose to
let Kevin clarify what was troubling him. "Go on," he urged.
"Casey is really nice. We seemed to get along great right from
the start. We were just having fun with various video games but
then I started to wonder what he would look like naked. That
wasn't so bad but he caught me looking at him. I was embarrassed
and scared at the same time because he might think that I was
mentally undressing him, which, of course, I was but what would
he think of me for doing it? I tried to control my eyes like you
told me, but he caught me again. Then, I was really scared."
"Did he say or do anything when he saw you looking?"
"No. He just kept playing the game with me. So I began to feel
better about it. But then I caught him looking at me -- just the
way I had looked at him. I know he saw that I saw him looking
at me but he just smiled and continued playing the game. At one
point, he asked me about my family, how I liked school, and
whether I had a girlfriend at home. I said 'no' but then he asked
a strange question. He asked if I had a boyfriend. He had a
funny kind of smile when he asked that. I said 'no' and we
went back to playing the game. Here's what bothers me. He
asked me the same questions that I wanted to ask him but
I don't know if his reasons were the same as mine. Do you
think he was testing me, trying to find out if I was gay?"
"It's possible," Jerry mused, not yet willing to draw any firm
conclusions from what Kevin had said. "Was there anything
else that might make you think that?"
"Well, when I saw you, I said I had to go because my grandpa
was waiting for me. He said he hoped we could see each
other again. Finally, we agreed to meet in the pool tomorrow
afternoon and he looked positively happy at the thought. So
here's the bottom line. I'm attracted to him. I suspect he's
also attracted to me but how can I be sure?"
"From your description, Kevin, it sounds like there were some
definite clues but, as you realize, you can't be sure. It would
be nice if people could come out and say what they're thinking
but the world isn't like that, especially for gays. What people
say and do is often quite different from what they think. Of
course, there's a reason for that. Dustin Hoffman was in a
movie called Tootsie. At one point, he was dressed as a
woman and talking to another woman. The other woman said
she wished men would be more honest. Instead of the usual
pick-up lines, she wished they would say, 'you're interesting
and I'd like to make love to you.' Later in the movie, Dustin
Hoffman was dressed as a man and met the same woman.
Remembering what she had said, Hoffman said, 'I like you
and want to go to bed with you.' The woman threw a glass of
wine in his face and walked away. So why the story? It's
just to say that it's risky to come out with the truth even
when that's what the other person wants to hear. How
would you react if Casey had said, 'let's go somewhere,
get naked, and have sex'?
Kevin grinned and said, "I guess the same way as when
Patrick did that back at the lake."
"Exactly. Straight guys and girls have to play a game to
build up to what they both really want. Gays have to play
a similar game but the risks are much greater. If a girl
gets mad at you and tells her friends that you're a crude
sex-maniac, it's not so bad. But another guy is likely to
get really pissed and spread the word that you're a fag.
A reputation as a crude sex-maniac is far more acceptable
when you're interested in girls. I know you don't want to
hear it but it's true. You have to be very carerful and inch
toward your goal rather than impulsively leaping toward it."
"But how do I do that? If I'm in another situation like with
Casey today, what should I say?"
"It's been a very long time since I faced that problem so
I'm not sure I can give you any easy answers or even very
good advice. You're going to have to rely on your insincts
and judgement in each new situation. You may make some
mistakes but you'll get better at it with practice. As for
Casey, here's what I think I would do if I were in your
position. Take the opportunity to practice your skills at
observing. Every time he says something or does
something you think is suggestive, respond accordingly.
I don't mean take a big leap, I mean inch toward what
would be leading in the direction of revealing what you
and maybe he really want. Then pay attention to his
reaction. If he backs off, you back off but if he moves
the next inch, let it keep going. You'll be together in the
pool tomorrow. That's your opportunity to practice the
game that you'll have to play back home with a boy who
interests you and may be interested in you."
Kevin thought about that for a while and said, "I'll do it.
What's the worst that could happen? He'll find out I'm
gay and then have nothing to do with me. So what? I'll
never see him again so why should I care?"
"Or," Jerry added, "You'll find out that he's gay. Gay and
attractive. Which leads to another possibility you should
be prepared for. He may suggest -- or you may suggest --
that you sneak off somewhere for a little bit of pleasure."
"I'd never do that!" Kevin exclaimed. "That wouldn't be
fair to you."
"Fair? Sure it's fair. It would just be a logical interpretation
of condition three. We both know that it would be a one-time
experience but it's very much a part of learning how to find
another boy your own age. In fact, if it gets to that point with
Casey, I think you should invite him to the cabin. I'll get lost
while you two enjoy yourselves. Just remember what I've
told you about STD's."
Kevin was aghast at his grandfather, in effect, encouraging
him to have sex with another boy. He stared in amazement
at Jerry. "I can't believe you said that!"
"Yes, Kevin, I really mean it. I really want you to practice the
game -- and it is a game -- of leading up to having sex And
that is part of the larger game of finding a long-term partner.
I say that only because I know you like Casey, he's a fine
looking boy, and I trust you to say no if he wants something
that you don't. Consider it a part of your sex education and
not just a way to get your rocks off."
"You're really serious?" Kevin asked, still not believing what
he had heard.
"I promised to be honest with you. I'm being honest."
Kevin hugged Jerry. No words were necessary to express
his appreciation and love.
Chapter 17 -- Kevin's Next Victory
Although Kevin seemed to enjoy the horseback riding the next
morning, Jerry could tell that he was preoccupied, which was not
surprising. Having been encouraged to practice his novice skills
of finding a partner and especially having been given a license
to have sex with Casey, Kevin was understandably distracted.
Casey had briefly spoken to Kevin at breakfast and they had
agreed to meet in the pool after lunch. Casey's family would be
exploring the hiking trails throughout the afternoon and Jerry said
he would relax in the lobby of the Lodge.
"You don't want to swim with us?" asked Kevin.
"No. I think it would be better if you and Casey were together in
the pool without your grandpa around. That would probably
discourage Casey from giving or accepting any suggestive
comments."
"Yeah. I suppose you're right," Kevin admitted. "But I don't like
the idea of leaving you alone. It doesn't seem fair."
"Don't worry, Kevin. I really do want you to gain experience in
finding somebody who shares your intersts. And I'm quite
sure that we'll be together tonight. All night. I'm looking
forward to that."
During most of the horseback ride, Kevin's agile mind was
busy plotting a strategy while simultaneously appearing (poorly)
to be interested in the ride. By the time they returned their
mounts to the stable, Kevin felt comfortable with his afternoon
plans.
At lunch, Casey once again made it a point to stop by Kevin and
Jerry's table. "We're still on for swimming this afternoon?" he
asked Kevin.
"Sure thing," he responded, perhaps a little too eagerly.
Turning to Jerry, Casey said, "I hope it's all right with you,
Mr. Knowland. It doesn't interfere with your plans, does it?"
Jerry was pleased that Casey was considerate enough to ask
and replied, "Not at all. I thought I would take my Jeep into
town for servicing and a check up before the long drive home.
That leaves Kevin here alone all afternoon and I know he'll
enjoy himself with you as company. I don't think I'll be back
until at least five o'clock so you two have fun." Mentioning
that he would be gone all afternoon was, of course, deliberately
telling both Casey and Kevin that they could be alone together.
Casey smiled but Kevin showed a little surprise since he
thought Jerry would spend the afternoon in the lobby.
After leaving the restaurant, Kevin said, "I still can't believe
you're doing this for me, grandpa. But I'm worried that I'll
do something stupid and screw things up."
"I'm doing it because I want to. I want you to learn how to
find a partner. You may make a mistake -- it's basically a
trial-and-error process -- but if you do make a mistake, it's
something you can learn from. Then again, you may make
no mistakes. You've got a good mind and good instincts.
Who knows, Casey might want the same thing you do and
you'll have a very satisfying afternoon. And by the way,
when I get back from town, I won't go to the cabin. I'll
meet you in the lobby for dinner."
Kevin was the first to get to the pool. He looked around for
Casey and was disappointed not to see him. He swam a
few laps and looked again. Still no Casey. His spirits were
sinking until he saw Casey come through the outside door
looking absolutely stunning. At 17, Casey had developed
into an extremely virile-looking hunk that was only barely
detectible when he wore shirt and pants. Kevin called to
him and Casey's face lit up before he jumped into the pool
alongside Kevin.
The two boys swam, dove, and enjoyed the water for a
while but both, unknown to the other, were working up
courage to take the first, tentative step toward what
each wanted. Each boy was encouraged by the other's
increasingly obvious glances but each boy was also
hesitant to do more than look.
They sat on the edge of the pool to rest and Kevin's
impatience prompted him to make the first move.
"You've got a great body. For swimming, I mean."
Casey looked at Kevin quizzically, unsure of whether to
respond to the 'body' or the 'for swimming' part of the
comment. He chose to take the next step. "Thanks. I
could say the same about you." He then looked long
and admiringly at Kevin and let his eyes linger tellingly
on Kevin's crotch.
Kevin's smile could have simply meant he was flattered
but it might have meant he understood and welcomed the
underlying meaning of Casey's uninhibited stare. Kevin
took what, for him, was a bold step. He spread his legs
just enough to be noticed and said, "Do you like what
you see?"
It became quite obvious that Kevin was sending a signal.
"Yes, I do," he replied. "You've got a great body, too. At
least the parts I can see."
They grinned at each other knowingly. Kevin was amazed
at how easy it had been to uncover Casey's interest and
pleased to know that it was what he hoped it would be. But
then a thought crossed his mind and he chuckled.
Casey was now confused. "What's funny?" he asked.
"Sorry," Kevin replied. "I was just thinking of Dustin Hoffman."
Now Casey was thoroughly confused so Kevin had to tell
him what happened to Dustin Hoffman in Tootsie, concluding
with "I wanted to say something like that right after we met in
the game room but I was afraid you would punch me out or
something."
Casey then laughed along with Kevin and said, "I did too. In
fact, I'll say it now." He looked around to see if anyone might
overhear and in a soft voice said, "I like you. I'd like to go
someplace and get naked with you. I'm getting hard just
thinking about it."
"As long as we're being honest, I'd like that, too. Let's go back
to my cabin. Grandpa will be gone all afternoon. We'll have
two or three hours alone."
"But what if he comes back early and catches us?"
Kevin knew that Jerry would not walk in on them but, of course,
couldn't tell Casey that his grandpa had promised the two of
them private time just in case things worked out between them.
Instead, he said, "No problem. Grandpa knows I'm gay and
he's cool with it. He would understand. He'd probably just
say excuse me and leave us alone until we're finished."
"You're sure?"
"No doubt about it at all."
"Geez," Casey exclaimed. "My parents would yell and scream
at me if they knew. They'd probably make me go to a shrink of
something."
"Trust me. My grandpa's not like that. He's very open-minded."
"Well..." Casey said. "If you're sure, then we're wasting time
sitting here talking about it."
Chapter 18 -- Sweet and Sour
It didn't take long for the two boys to dry off, slip their shoes on,
and walk to the cabin. By the time they got there, both could feel
their cocks hardening in anticipation of what was to come. They
entered the cabin, locked the door, and stood looking at each
other. Everything had gone smoothly for Kevin so far but now he
seemed at a lost as to how to proceed. Fortunately, Casey took
the lead by slipping out of his swim trunks. Kevin did the same.
Once again, they looked at each other but this time, their focus
was on the other's cock. Both seemed fascinated watching the
other's cock gradually inflate and slowly rise to an erect stance.
Casey's was somewhat longer and thicker and his balls hung
lower than Kevin's but Kevin was not intimidated. He was
confident that his was still growing and when he was Casey's
age, it would be just as impressive.
Again, Casey took the lead by grabbing Kevin into a hug and
grinding their erections together. Soon, they were on the bed
massaging each other all over. Kevin's passion and lust were
growing and he suddenly recalled a very important part of the
plan he had formulated while horseback riding. "Time out,
Casey. Before going on, there's something I have to tell you."
Casey was surprised at the interruption and a little worried but
stopped fondling his new friend.
"We only just met and we don't know much about each other.
So there's one thing I have to insist on and that's safe sex.
I can assure you that I'm clean but of course you can't be sure
of that just because I say so. You can suck me off if you want
but I won't do that to you. I'll jerk you off or you can fuck me
with a condom but I won't suck you off. I hope that's okay with
you."
Casey was surprised at Kevin's laying out ground rules just as
they were about to get serious in their sex play but there was
no way he could object. He was far too horny to engage in any
discussion of the merits and risks of sex with a relative stranger.
"Whatever you say, Kevin."
The interruption was brief and they immediately returned to
exploring each other's bodies. Within minutes, Casey was
licking Kevin's balls and then taking his leaking cock into his
mouth. Kevin was surprised at that but said nothing. After all,
he had warned Casey. If Casey then chose to take the risk, it
was his choice. Kevin's orgasm was intense as he filled Casey's
mouth with cum.
When Kevin recovered, he heard Casey say, "Is it all right if I
fuck you?"
Without responding, Kevin retrieved a condom and the KY and
handed them to Casey who grinned, "You must have been a
boy scout -- be prepared."
Casey was not nearly as careful and gentle as Jerry had been.
In fact, his haste and manner could almost be described as
ruthless. Kevin had to tell him to slow down a couple of times
because of the pain. Eventually, however, Casey's cock was
imbedded in Kevin and he began thrusting furiously ... so
furiously that Kevin derived little or no pleasure from the
experience. But then it stopped. Casey he froze with his cock
buried to the hilt, and filled the condom with his cum.
After several minutes laying together, Casey said, "That was
wonderful. Do you think we can do it again tomorrow?"
"Sorry, Casey. Grandpa and I are leaving tomorrow for home."
"Oh," he said dejectedly. "Maybe later tonight then? Could you
get away long enough for a quickie? We could go off into the
woods. It wouldn't take long."
Kevin suddenly felt a hint of dislike for Casey. To this point, he
had been impressed with his personality. He admired his body.
He had thoroughly enjoyed their sex. But Casey seemed to be
a little too obsessed with the sex. "No," he said firmly. "We have
to pack things up tonight and probably get to sleep early because
we'll be leaving early in the morning." What Kevin didn't say and
couldn't say is that his last night with his grandpa was going to be
consumed with frequent and prolonged love-making. Not just
sex but genuine love-making.
"Okay then," Casey said. He got out of bed and slipped on his
swim trunks. "Better be going then before your grandpa comes
back. And thanks for the fuck."
Kevin was speechless as Casey crossed the room, opened the
door, and left. Thanks for the fuck? Is that any way to end what
was, until Casey's animalistic fucking, an erotic and satisfying
sexual encounter? What happened to the well-mannered boy
with charm to match his good looks that he met in the game
room? Kevin suddenly felt used. And dirty.
A hot shower didn't help. The more he thought about it, the more
depressed he became. By four o'clock, he had come to no
conclusions about why things ended as they had. He walked
down to the Lodge hoping that his grandpa would be there waiting
for him. He entered the Lodge through the front door and lobby
but didn't see Jerry. He was about to take a seat in the lounge,
wait for his grandpa, and pretend to watch the baseball game
on the wide-screen TV. However, he heard Jerry call his name
from over in the corner. Kevin walked over to him and, forgetting
to greet him or ask if he had been waiting long, immediately said,
"Can we talk? In private?"
"Sure," Jerry replied as he stood and followed Kevin outside.
He caught up with Kevin just outside the building and said,
"Is there a problem?"
"Yes and no," Kevin replied. "Can we go back to the cabin?
I need some advice."
Kevin's demeanor indicated clearly that he was upset, which
worried Jerry. Perhaps, he thought, it was not a good idea to
encourage Kevin to come on to Casey and to give permission
for a sexual encounter. Something had gone wrong and Kevin
was not happy.
In the cabin at last, Jerry said, "So what's the problem? How can
I help?"
Kevin threw his arms around Jerry and said, "Grandpa, I love you
more now than ever. I loved you before, of course, but now more
than ever. And I appreciate everything you've done for me in the
last week."
"That doesn't sound like a problem to me. What's the matter?"
"It's Casey. Or maybe it's me. I don't know. It could have been
beautiful but it turned sour."
"Tell me about it."
"We had a lot of fun swimming. Then I dropped a few hints and
Casey picked up on them right away. Before I knew it, we had
agreed to come back to the cabin. We were both horny and it
started out fine. I told him that I insisted on safe sex and he
agreed but he sucked me off and swallowed my cum. Then he
put on a condom to fuck me. All of that was just like I wanted
it to be but Casey turned into an aggressive beast. He wasn't
kind and caring like you. I had to slow him down because it hurt
so much. Then it got worse. He wanted more, later this evening.
I said no, that we had to pack. He just got out of bed, put on his
swim trunks, said 'thanks for the fuck' and walked out. I couldn't
believe that he changed from the nice guy -- a guy I liked and
thought he liked me -- to a guy who wanted nothing more than
satisfying his own lust. He used me, grandpa, and I was too
dumb to see it coming."
"I don't think you're dumb, Kevin. It sounds to me like you did
everything right. You picked somebody that you liked. You
dropped hints and let things progress slowly until you were
sure that he wanted what you wanted. You made it clear that
you wanted safe sex. And you said no to his request for more.
All of that sounds like you learned what I've been telling you.
The fault is not yours. Casey is the problem. Frankly, I'm
surprised at his behavior because I thought he was a very nice
young man. But that's a problem you might face again --
someone you like does something you don't like. Then you
have a choice. You can continue to be used, you can cut
off the sex and try to remain friends -- that's very hard to do --
or you can stop being friends altogether. It's no different than
friendships that don't involve sex. Your friends may disappoint
you or even be mean to you at times. But you always have the
right to choose who will be your friend. The stakes are higher
when it's a sex partner but the principle is the same. You can
tolerate their behavior, you can try to change their behavior, or
you can change your own behavior by cutting them out of your
life."
"So you don't think I did anything wrong?"
"No. Well, maybe. Perhaps you forgot the situation. You were
practicing your ability to find a compatible partner and I'm sure
you learned a lot from that experience. But both you and Casey
knew that you would never see each other again. Casey may
have been looking for a quick fuck with no thought of a
relationship. Perhaps you're not considering his motivation."
"You're right. Again! I was thinking more of my goals and not
thinking of his. That would explain why he left so abruptly. He
got what he wanted and couldn't get more so he didn't have to
be nice any more."
"Another lesson learned?" Jerry asked.
"Another lesson learned," Kevin agreed. "And only a gazillion
more to go."
Chapter 19 -- Finale and a New Beginning
It was their last night sharing a bed and they made the most of it.
Neither Jerry nor Kevin mentioned that it was their last opportunity
for sex although it was seldom far from their minds. Both of them
appreciated that the other didn't mention it because it would surely
have distracted from the magic they shared.
By mutual agreement, they decided to skip dinner. Both knew --
and knew that the other knew -- the reason was to use what time
they had to enjoy the intimacy that they would not have together
in the future.
Jerry was able to bring Kevin to orgasm four times before they
fell asleep in each other's arms just after midnight. Each orgasm
produced a decreasing amount of cum, of course, but each was
just as satisfying and meaningful as the others. Jerry ejaculated
only twice but got as much satisfaction from caressing Kevin and
sucking him to orgasm.
Before falling asleep, they locked themselves together in an
embrace. Legs and arms were intertwined; their spent cocks
pressed together.
Kevin's thoughts wandered back to how he had been transformed
into a new person. From the confused, frustrated, and tormented
boy whose fear of what he was consumed him to a contented young
man comfortable with being gay yet still worried about finding a
partner and being accepted for what he undeniably was. It was a
stroke of remarkable good fortune, he concluded, that his grandpa
had rescued him from the demons that tormented his conscience
and had shown him the utter joy of male companionship. Yes, he had
learned a lot in a week. He knew there was much yet to learn but
he also knew that his grandpa would support him through whatever
problems he might encounter. He had resigned himself to condition
three. He would have liked to continue the intimacy with his grandpa
but had to agree that it could not continue.
Jerry's thoughts centered on Kevin. He was pleased that Kevin had
accepted what he was and pleased that he had been able to help
him. Of course, he was also thankful for the sex that had eluded him
for too many years but he was not nearly as concerned about his own
sexual future as he was of Kevin's. He didn't know whether he could
find a partner but was still absolutely convinced that the incestuous
relationship, as satisfying as it was, must not continue -- for his
own sake as much as for Kevin's.
Jerry was the first to awaken in the morning only to find that Kevin
was spooned into his back with his teen erection pressed invitingly
against Jerry's ass. He slipped quietly out of bed, hoping that he
wouldn't wake Kevin, and went to the bathroom to empty his
bladder. Upon returning, he saw that Kevin was awake and
smiling mischieviously at him. He was sitting cross-legged on the
bed, uncovered so that his boner was prominently displayed.
Jerry marveled once more at how beautiful Kevin was.
"Can we?" Kevin asked. "Just one more time?"
Jerry could only smile in reply. He laid two condoms and the KY
on the night stand. Kevin grinned, jumped out of bed, and ran
to the bathroom saying, "Be right back." Surprisingly soon, he
returned, jumped into Jerry's lap, and kissed him passionately.
For nearly twenty minutes, they kissed, caressed, massaged,
and sucked each other. Jerry then put pillows under his hips,
spread his legs, and said, "I'm ready for you, stud."
Kevin immediately put on a condom, coated his cock with KY
and started to prepare Jerry who grew impatient and said,
"I'm ready. I want you inside me now."
Kevin was deliberately slow at inserting his cock, not wanting
to cause Jerry any pain. But he was also slow as he began
thrusting because he wanted it to last as long as possible.
Ultimately, however, he couldn't hold back. With one final
plunge, his orgasm made him tremble.
Jerry was also slow for the same reasons but restrained his
urge for longer than Kevin had.
They snuggled up to each other for half an hour more, not
wanting the bliss to end but knowing that it must. "We'd better
pack our things into the Jeep," Jerry said, "and be on our way."
"In a bit," Kevin replied. "First, I want to thank you for all the
things you've done for me. And I'm not talking just about the
sex. Thanks for being there for me when I grew up. Thanks for
the vacation. Thanks for helping me come to terms with who I am.
Thanks -- in advance -- for listening to me and giving me advice
after we get home. You don't know how much I appreciate
everything ... and how much I love you."
"You're wrong, Kevin. I think I do know. Because everything
I've done for you is exactly what I wanted when I was your age.
I know what you faced and I'm more than happy that I was able
to help you through it."
Less than an hour later, they had checked out, packed the Jeep,
ate breakfast, and were leaving for the long drive home. Both
were grateful for the experience. Both looked forward with
confidence to their future.