So I’ve have a mini like chill out from social media. But all is well. Had a made eating weekend though. But hey you can’t 100% all of the time. It was just what I needed.

So my last weigh in I weighted 16st 8lbs. Lowest I’ve been since before I started putting all the weight on.

I’m going to start scheduling posts a little better from now on. I’m always going to do my weekly weighs on a Thursday as that just always been the day. But I’m going to touch on a topic/personal issue etc at least once a week. Anymore is a bonus right?

If you do read these comment below what you’d like to hear about, weightloss. Fertility, pcos, workouts or even my daily routine. Comment below.

A new found love, ok ok, it’s not as amazing as the image above and it’s not exactly in the water either. It’s on solid ground in the gym. So not as exciting as first thought.

I needed to incorporate more cardio into my routine. At first I was sticking to bike, treadmill and occasionally the stepper (this machine will bet the death of me). But last week I decided to do the rowing machine; something which I also hated. My first try I did ages ago if I can remember was 1000m in about six minutes and whatever seconds. Maybe even seven minutes. I’d stop and takes rests, be totally out of breath but now this was my first result. 1000m for 5:00.7 so much improvement from the first time. About two months previous.

A week later I then decided to try again but this time push myself even more and better myself. 1000m for 4:51.5 amazingly better. Yes it’s not amazing to some people and nor is it close to the world record but to me this is my record. This is me showing myself I can improve, I can push myself and my failure is not what I think it is. I can do better and get better results. I’ll keep trying to get better result. Watch this space.

“You know you have a really pretty face, shame your a bigger girl” – I bet more than one of us overweight girls have heard this before, or something along these lines. It’s not like you already dislike yourself and how much you’ve let it go you get people putting there too cent in. So far I’ve done extremely well and lost 21lbs but my eating it not on point. I woke up this morning and asked myself “how much do you actually want this, how much effort are you willing to put in”. And I said out aloud, “MORE THAN ANYTHING”

So today after work I went out bought myself measuring scales, measuring cups and spoons. I’m going to get this eating sorting, as they do say 80% is what you eat and 20% is the gym, time I got this eating habits into a lifestyle and treat my body better. I’m going to try a follow weight watchers until I get a hang of this, so any fellow WW out there get in touch.

Goals for April. Maybe I’m being very optimistic but I’d like to lose a stone. Right? Who wouldn’t. I think the real question here is; would it be possible? Am I jumping the gun and thinking this is healthy? Is there even a healthy way to lose that much weight? So many unanswered questions. You know what I think, let’s just flipping try shall we? April is that step close to summer, a step closer to that bikini body we all dream of yet that’s still about SIX STONE, yes six whole stone away from that. How will I even know if I’ll like my body or even have the body confidence to strut my stuff.

One of my main reason for losing weight isn’t that bikini body, that would be nice. However I’m just losing weight to have an even bigger belly, yep you got it. A big pregnant belly.

I have 124 days to get to lose 4-5 stone! Now that’s the real question. Can I do that. You see I can’t have a child naturally and need to go down the IVF route.

One of my main goals in life is to become a mother. But my main goal is so far out of reach, I have PCOS, polycystic ovarian syndrome. I’ll do a post in more detail about that at a later date.

Watching all these status’s on Facebook from people who I went to school with showing the things there children have gotten them and the things they have done today is extremely bittersweet. My main aim is to become a mother and in doing this I have to be 100% healthy, not only for myself but for my child as well. I’d never want to bring a child into the world when I am this overweight and another main issue, I have to do it via IVF and for this to happen I have to be at a very very lower weight that what I am at now.

Since joining the gym for this reason I’ve also found a new love for the gym and exercising, to become the best I can ever be and after I become a mother I will continue to go to the gym and get healthy to give an example to my child.

By this time next year I want that card from my bump, and in two years to have so many amazing adventures with my family.

I’m trying something new, a review. I’ve recently got a new pair of training shoes ‘Nike connects’So with me being a bit of a bigger girl, I hate bending down and doing my shoe laces, I get really self conscious. So when I saw the Nike connect training shoes I knew they where for me. No laces at all. They have a huge range of colours to choose from, but if you know me this where an imitate pick. Teal, aqua and greens are all my favourite colours.

Other reviews say they run small, I’m a size six and they fit perfectly, not to tight, but tight enough they done slip or move.

They are extremely comfy and very easy to train in, I wouldn’t suggest any other trainer. They do loosen during my sessions not enough to impact my cardio or weight sessions but when I go to put them on for my next session they are just like new.

They give extremely good support and with a price tag of £40 you couldn’t really disagree, this was discounted. I suggest you all grab yourself a bargain. You’ll never look back.

Everybody loves to eat, I know I do. As of late I’m finding it harder to get healthier meals today, I’m finding hard to make better choices, I really wish I was better at the food side of things. I can go to the gym, smash an awesome session. Here is me lifting a 100kg. ​

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Im doing so well in the gym however I’m cheating myself, I just can’t make good food choices, they are not bad choices just not the right choices, can anyone point me in the right direction? I need to lose weigh and I’m not going to achieve that by not eating right.

Guess who’s back! The internet took an extremely long time to be installed. But I finally have it back and can post regular updates. Not going to lie so much has happened. I’m still a regular at the gym. Doing amazingly may I add. I’m stuck at the moment around 17 stone 2 pounds. Really want to get to where I see 16, it’s so close. But I’ve come so far from 18 stone 8lbs.

So a little update, where to begin. So a main thing that’s happened is I’ve hit 100kg on a deadlift, this I am majorly proud of. Things have been a little tough as of late, I had a cold which has pushed me back. But other than that I’m excited where my new found fitness is taking me. Obviously I’ve moved house, I absolutely love my new place. I felt at home the moment I walked in, so that’s a bonus.