Poison Water

I feel the burning sensation in my stomach
But oh how i love it
I take a sip of this wonderful drug
And all my problems dissolve with one chug
It takes away all my problems and doubts
I ignore all my friends' pleas and shouts
And slowly, my sanity disappears once again as it starts to kick in
My frown becomes a grin
Once again ive successfully escaped my life
I used to not understand why people did this
Drinking their lives away day by day
I had a heartbreak
Not realizing what was at stake
I grabbed the bottle and drank it down
Digging my hole deeper and deeper into the ground
Getting myself into trouble with boys i didnt even know
Never sex, but still not being able to say no
I had become the kind of girl i hate
How could i think this life was great?
I was a threat to myself
Trapped in my own hell
Whenever things got bad
Whether i was mad, heartbroken, worried or sad
Alchohol was my cure
The feelings of happiness felt so pure
Everyone else around me could see how false it was
Everyday i was consumed by it
I tried to admit
To myself that i had a habit
A 14 year old alcoholic
What were the odds of this
Why was it so hard
It appeared i was scarred
With the burden of a false happiness
Vodka, whiskey, rum, wine...
It didnt matter what kind
Nothing seemed to matter
My life was beginning to shatter
The help from my friends ended it all
I still fight the battle
The one that'll
Free my heart and soul
Fill this empty hole
One day ill be free
And finally be able to be the real me