I was watching my guilty pleasure on Investigation Discovery Channel about this girl that was raped by her uncle. When her parents found out, they decided to treat her to a trip to Disneyland. The father had to take care of the farm so the mum went with the two girls, met the wrong man, were raped and drowned.
It hit me then that no matter the last hand life dealt you previously, you may still get yet another bad hand. Has nothing to do with the previous hand you were dealt. You may get cancer and then get raped and then robbed! What a life.
I shake my head as I see I have to firmly focus on making my peace with God. He is the ultimate satisfier. The only One that can bring us any real peace. May we all continue to know Him more
Selah!

Moi!!!!! Yes I'm a year older and I'm now in a place where I don't disclose my age easily!!!!! Wow. Life! Who knew!
So many lessons and I know it sounds clique to say "thank you God for everything" but I have to say it. God had been good to me. Not because everything in my life is in tip top shape but because He is teaching me to worship Him in tip top shape :)
I'm not going to preach but God is good. Try Him out and see. So in celebration, I'm having a few friends over on Saturday and we will kick back and relax.
I love birthdays :)
Stay blessed and fulfilled

One thing about writing on a blog is that people can tell when you are being authentic. Fakeness is easily detected and people can tell when you are writing from your heart.
But what about the things you don't want to share? How does that affect the quality of your writing?
Sometimes it can be hard to be 100% honest in your writings cos its hard to take back anything you've put out there for the world to see. So what gives?
I think I won't share EVERYTHING about my life but what I do share, I will be 100% about it. How's that for compromise?
Stay blessed y'all

There is something about us Nigerians. Or maybe it's not Nigerians. Maybe it's just a people thing and that just happened to be person I dealt with. Maybe I'm just sensitive because I foolishly have higher expectations of Nigerians but who am I to "expect" anything of anybody anyway? You know what I mean? It's my fault for thinking people should behave a certain way. They don't owe me that. Anyway I digress.
Back to the story I was going to tell. So I'm back in school taking online classes. And in one of the classes I'm taking , we had to do two group projects. In my group was a fellow Nigerian. However we did not acknowledge each other which was ok. Trust me sometimes it's easier. Just because they are fellow Nigerians does not mean you have anything in common with them.
At the end of the class, he sends out an email acknowledging some of the group members as "champions" of the project. Ok so maybe it's not that big a deal but everybody worked hard. Why you got to be like that? Give props to some people and not to others?
Of course he did not give me props but that's not the issue :)

So being that I don't have enough going on in my life (haha) I decided to go back to school to get a masters in public health. Sounds great ... except when its time to do the work! Good thing is graduation is around the corner (I started in 2011) but there is still a major hurdle to cross. I have to complete a practicum! 8 hours a week for 3 months is not my idea of fun and it is so depressing I can't even tell you how depressed I am.
I'm already working full time and now I have to carve out 8 hours every week to go somewhere else? So not fun. So I have to encourage myself cos I'm not looking forward to it.
However the good thing is that I am accomplishing my dreams! I love getting to do what I dream of doing. It is sooooo satisfying. And after this, I have some more things I want to do. You only live once after all. Why don't I just live my best life abi? I hear you :)

I envy these bloggers that can blog consistently. I'm not one of them. I got the app on my phone thinking that would make me blog more frequently but it don't. :) But I like blogging! When I read older entries I can recall exactly what I was thinking when I wrote it and I don't want to lose that feeling. Maybe it's because I'm not an anonymous blogger so I cannot blog about certain stuff in my life and I don't want to open up another blog. See my dilemma? You don't? I don't blame you. I'm just ... all over the place. I think about certain things and wish I had written them down.
A few days ago I found that birds are not really free. They are prisoners of certain habits. They keep doing the same thing over and over again even if it leads to their demise. Who knew?
You know what I miss. I miss certain bloggers. I miss I don't even have time to for blog cruising any more. I loved discovering new blogs. Twitter and Instagram don't really cut it for me. I love to know what people are thinking. That really moves me. I remember the London girl who would write about her sick mother all the time. I remember the "yellow paw paw" blog that was so raunchy. I remember this guy that was so funny forgot his name. But that was years and years ago and nigerian bloggers were on it. Kudos to BellaNaija and Linda Ikeji for their staying power especially Linda. I remember when she started. But she hung in there, didn't she?
Ok I have spoken. How did your day go?

It is indeed! I love entering a new year. I always feel like I can start all over. Everything pertaining to last year is scrubbed away. My adrenaline has got me going again. I'm looking forward to new goals and achievements, new projects, learning new things and growing especially spiritually.
I was really blessed last year. I learnt to really count my blessings and give thanks. Got into new things and got rid of old things and I just look forward to this year
I hope you feel the same
Stella

It's September ending already! New months make me reflective. And I'm trying so hard not to put up somber entries every time. But its hard when you are not a naturally bubbly person. I'm not. So I will list the the things I'm grateful for. That always brightens my mood.
I'm grateful for the gift of life
I'm grateful for family. We don't always get along but I know they have my back
I'm grateful for good friends I can discuss something's with. Not everything. Some things you should only discuss with God
I'm grateful for having a job
I'm grateful to have Him as my lord and personal savior. It really puts a different spin on life. Trust me on that!
I'm grateful for the many gifts and talents He has blessed me with
I'm grateful for problems. They give me a reason to run to God and be closer to Him
Sometimes I feel a contradiction in my life. I'm not really where I want to be. But then again, who is? I believe everybody well most people feel that way about their lives.
It's always good to be grateful. It makes you happy, to be honest.
Let's toast to life!

Name: lalaHome: Memphis, Tennessee, United StatesAbout Me: I'm an introvert. I love challenges and the "path less taken". I have discovered that life more of a journey than a destination so I try to enjoy each day. And if you've never failed at anything then you haven't tried anything outside your comfort zone. Right now, I have a love/hate relationship with Memphis. I love the city because the people are very friendly but careerwise, this place will be a dead end for me.See my complete profile