(the previous message sent mistakenly before I finished to write it…)
Hi,
I’m a little bit curious and have a question. What do you mean exactly by: “mental disability to handle any kind of emotions”? What emotions do to you? Good and bad emotions have the same effect on you? Emotions in any intensity level, even when you just break a nail?
If you have some link with explanations, it’s fine…

Thank you so much for your interest.
To your question – It strongly depends on how my day is. Sometimes I’m relatively stable and small things can’t really do me anything. But mostly every kind of emotion, no matter if good or bad, causes fear. Fear is somehow my usual reaction to emotional changes. Especially when I feel happy my anxiety hits me hardest. I can’t handle the feeling of happiness cause my brain links it to the fact that everything is finit. And that leaves me in a state of confusion and makes me act strange (in the sense of others) what often destroys the beautiful moments. Bad emotions also cause fear simply because I don’t know how I can becalm myself. I’m always in an unrest, so I enjoy the phases when I’m more neutral. My therapist explained me that emotional situations bring me in a state of mental regression (means that inside I turn to the age of six or seven and behave exactly like that). When I’m really suffering from my fears and I’m labile then it can knock me out if someone tells me that I have a pimple or something. I hope I could explain it quite well (of course it’s easier for me in german). Have a nice day.