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Thursday, August 7, 2014

To Ben, My Almost Kindergartener

"The Lord bless you and keep you;the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace."

Numbers 6: 24-26

Dear Ben-

In a couple of weeks, you will be going to
kindergarten.I’m sure that it will be
harder on mommy than it will be on you because even as I’m typing this, I’m
getting tears in my eyes.Why, you
ask?It’s truly hard for you to
understand until you become a parent.It’s
so true.I love you so much!It’s a love that is so big that I can’t even begin
to describe it to you.It’s a love that
is so pure that it can only come from God Himself.It’s a love that is so real that I know it
will never leave…it will only grow as you grow.

I waited for nearly 5 years to be a mom, so when you finally
came along, I was in awe of you, and I still am.You were my precious miracle, and you still are, and so I have to admit that it will be hard to let you go.

Even though I would love to have my little miracle stay at home with me and never go out into this big and sometimes scary world, I know that I have to trust that God will protect you because He loves you even more than I do.But it’s so hard!I want to be there for your every need.I want to be a part of everything you do and see and learn. I want to get your snacks for you and eat lunch with you and answer your questions for you and play silly games with you and laugh with you and go to the park with you.I want to be near you all the time!I want to protect you like when you were a baby. I don't want you to get hurt. I don't want you to be bullied or teased or ignored. I don't want others to treat you unkindly or break your spirit. I don't want your precious love for nature or your sensitive heart be made fun of. I don't want you to learn bad habits or mean behaviors. I don't want you to be exposed to the evil that's in this world. I want you to stay inside our little protective bubble here at home. (Ok, Here come the tears!)

Here's the truth: I can't even begin to protect you from those painful and hurtful moments in life. I wish I could, but it's impossible. Sadly, those things are just a part of life...for all of us. So here is where my prayers and my faith have to come in. I have to trust God to protect your spirit and give you guidance and wisdom to make good choices. I have to trust that God will give me wisdom to know how to teach you, guide you and love you as a parent as you do go through those difficult times. I have to trust that God will use your experiences to build your character so He can use you in His Kingdom. I have to trust that you are God’s Light, and He’s going to use
you to shine His love on others. And
as much as you’ve blessed our family, He’s going to use you to bless everyone
you meet especially your classmates and your teachers. Let your Light shine, my little man!

Being at home with you over these six years has been a huge
blessing to me.I’ve seen you learn and
grow so much.In the blink of an eye,
you’ve changed from a tiny infant into this amazing, loving, problem-solving,
creative and inquisitive little boy.I
know that as you go to Kindergarten, I will watch you learn and grow even
more. I will learn to treasure the time I do have with you.I will love look forward to seeing your smiling face when I pick you up from school.I will value our time together in the afternoons and evenings and weekends.I will appreciate you even more than I already do!

As a kindergartener, you will experience new
things.You will make your own
choices. You will find out more about who you are and who God created you to be. As you learn your ABCs in your
new classroom, I want you to always remember the ABCs you've learned at home!

I love you, Ben!

Love,

Mommy

A

Attitude

Always have a good attitude.Smile.

B

Brave

Be brave and be willing to try new things.

C

Caring

Be caring toward others.Don’t
leave someone out.Try to include
others.

D

Determination

Show determination by not giving up too easily.Learning can be hard sometimes, but don’t
get frustrated.Keep trying!

E

Empathetic

Be empathetic towards others.Try to be understanding towards their feelings.

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