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Saturday, March 17, 2012

Lucky? 5K Race recap (and photos)...and...they have RETURNED!:(:(

I did most of my processing over the phone with Amanda....so we'll see how open and honest I can get here...I might be all out of thoughts/emotions and I'm on oxycodone again so my mind is a bit fuzzy....I hurt and I feel like I could vomit at any given moment.
I am home alone though and kids are sleeping so I might as well write this as my hubby hates it when I blog and he's at work for the evening.

After my mile repeats I remembered that 5K's hurt...but I was confident I could at least break 20min. I was running the same course I ran the Turkeython on back in November before I even started training and ran a 20:10....so SURELY I could take off AT LEAST 10 seconds.

I woke up this morning and with my first pee..I felt that "twinge".....the twinge I felt when Ipassed my kidney stone 6wks ago.
I ignored it and moved on with my morning....on my way to the race, the sensation was growing. I DID think about possibly skipping the race...but when your mantra is:"You're not a quitter" .....well..you understand...makes it hard to walk away. Sweet Amanda kept asking if I was okay.....and I told her I was fine.

I knew the pain wouldnt' get worse til later but was sort of hoping it was just gonna go away and be a false alarm.

when I lined up at the start line, I talked to the girl beside me who had been doing strides beside me to feel out what she was trying to run....she said 6:40-6:50pace.....

The bell rang and off we went......The honest truth is, I felt something a bit "off" in my energy level from the first quarter mile...I looked down and what felt like 6:30 pace was 6:45 pace...I picked it up, since my first mile goal was 6:25.....but it felt much harder today than it normally does....just didn't have that "umph" in my stride.....

Mile 1: 6:32
I headed into mile 2 realizing I was already behind my average...I needed to average 6:25 or better to break 20min.

The course is VERY windey...ANNOYINGLY windey and lots of people to pass and weave in and out of...that was pretty annoying....the 10K'ers started before us so I was passing all sorts of groups and slower individuals...sometimes I had to jump onto the muddy grass if they weren't moving out of the way.
anyway...I FORGOT to look at my watch at mile 2, but it was just over 13min so I was off by atleast 10-15seconds....Mile 2 was: 6:37
I told myself "this is your last mile....you have GOT to run this fast if you're going to break 20"....I looked down and for most of the mile I was running 6:10pace....Amanda and I passed eachother as she headed into her mile 4 and I headed into my last mile....we just "looked" at each other...that was about all I could do, gasping for air....Mile 3: 6:15
I started to feel like it just wasn't going to happen today and sure enough when I crossed the finish line ...it read: 20:07..:(:(
My watch said 3.13mi (6:27 average which is a 20:03...but really...who cares?). I didn't do it. I just couldn't bring it today.

I still WON my race, which was great and I felt positive about the whole thing...I knew my body wasn't working properly today so I just let it roll off my back...as ANNOYING as it is......

During our cool down, my pain got quite intense...After 2 miles, I told Amanda I needed to get to my car and get home. I was supposed to go to a wedding and felt HORRIBLE that I had to call my bride and tell her I was in so much pain that I couldnt' make it:( Luckily Bri was doing her hair and told me she could do her makeup as well.
On the way home...I was starting to get chills and shake from the pain...when I got in the door, I immediately took an oxydodone and crawled into the bath.
I still couldn't believe I was passing another FREAKING KIDNEY STONE!

After about 20min...the oxycodone kicked in and I was feeling warm and fuzzy...and a bit woozy. I actually had my friend drive me downtown to the hotel to do my brides makeup...I felt SO BAD cancelling on her.I have an impeccable reputation that I just can't risk being ruined!
My husband picked me up after and on the way home, I hit the naseous phase...which is where I still am now. .....if there is a logn break here...it's bc i'm puking in the bathroom!! grrrrr

SO...WHERE DOES THIS LEAD ME TO???

-well...honestly...a lot of self doubt.....I don't have doubt about the race, I know I am in much better shape than what I ran today....but I have doubt about what all these setbacks and missed trainign is doing to my marathon:(
I am TRYING to stay positive.....b/c I KNOW that getting down will NOT make it better. not even a little bit! so let me rant and then I'll be over it and move on.

During this 11wks of training...I've been sick ...2 or 3 times? lost my MIL, and now had kidney stones twice!:( The fact of the matter is...it DOES affect my training.
will I be able to BRING IT on Race day April 16?

I guess I just have to Trust in God. Trust that he's got me this far..he'll get me there too.
I suppose more than anything I am just discouraged at Life today....but at the same time I feel like I should just shut my face and be thankful! So many people are suffering...have cancer, are dying or have HUGE life challenges....
Me? well this will pass in a few days and I will be hopefully be back on track. I will probably miss my 16mile progressive run Monday but what can ya do?:(

BAck to my OTHER Mantra I guess:....

" It is What it Is"....

well...I can't really bare this discomfort any longer....I'm going to go take more pain meds and hit the sack....

thanks for listening to me complain!

Here are some pics from the day!

What I decided to race in. If the weather is decent in Boston,I plan to run in these shorts.

11 comments:

I could write you a book as a response- but insteady I'll keep it short and sweet, You are amazing Nicole and you the best part about you is your amazing ability to be both introspective as well as always reminding yourself just how grateful you should be. That alone will keep you grounded for life. Your setbacks barely affected your performance- as an outsider looking in- you've had to battle the mental and emotional stuff that comes along with all this stuff. In my opinion- you really bounced back very quickly from your first set of stones and I feel the same way about this one. I'll stop now- but You are Great- will be Great- Glad the blog can allow you to vent and post and sort through your feelings- the princess picture is perfect and sweet and Congrats to You & Amanda again- You both inspire me and I think of your strength when I run sometimes too- So thanks and I'll say a prayer for you- quick healing!

Running 5Ks during marathon training is hard enough, I can't imagine dealing with the kidney stones too! You did great. Your training has been amazing this training cycle. Life stuff happens, but you are handling everything really well. A missed workout here and there is not going to make a difference. It's the consistency in your training that is going to make Boston the race of your life! Last few weeks!!!

You've been on my mind since I got your text last night...praying for you girl!

You are right though, even with all of the setbacks and challenges which have been thrown your way you still press on and always prevail. Life is never easy, and it's rare that training ever goes smoothly, but you always get to that starting line and finish the race. You have a strong and sweet soul and while God's plan for you may seem tricky and confusing, he has amazing things planned for you my dear friend.

Take care of yourself! A 20:07 5k while a massive kidney stone is taking up shop in your body causing you discomfort is pretty freaking amazing...if you can WIN the race feeling like that, imagine how sweet crossing that Boston line is going to feel. Keep your head up!

Big hugs my friend! I am so sorry that you are dealing with ANOTHER kidney stone. That is just miserable. I am praying you are feeling better quickly, and so glad you have help and are able to rest today (and had the drugs you need ready!)

You can NOT doubt yourself! You have done such an incredible job in your training and in your racing lately. The fact that you did as AWESOME as you did, even while passing a kidney stone, should be a HUGE confidence booster for you!!! Your speed and fitness are incredible and despite the setbacks you are MORE than ready for Boston.

You look amazing in the pics and you have to embrace that you are crazy fast!

Oh, and I LOVE my Pureflows too. I have run in nothing else (training or racing) since September. They are amazing. :)

We've already chatted about this but I'm so proud of you! You've really handled your training and hardships like a champ!! And you get strong every turn you take. So excited to see what you will do with yourself this year Nicole!! Thanks for being such a good friend.

Oh girl...... Where to begin?!! First, you are amazing for waking up and not just running- you RACED through a kidney stone. Who does that?! Do not for one second let this race put any doubt in your mind about your 5K speed or racing potential. You ARE faster than you were months ago. You have had some pretty crazy health and other random issues (that whole hit and run, etc) to deal with this training cycle. You are are so determined and driven. You just get tougher and keep going! I think that all these crazy obstacles are just making you stronger for Boston.

And back to the race- great third mile! You pushed through the pain and finished strong. Also- LOVE those shorts!! I love your matching team uniforms! ;-)

You are just amazing Nicole. If you can do this with a kidney stone on the way out, I can imagine that you will have a fantastic race in Boston. It's not about a few days off here and there, it's the accumulation of everything. I just know you'll get to the start line and be in GREAT shape for a very fast race.

Your daughter is so sweet. I would have cried too. Looks like you are teaching her the right things :)

Pathetic on my blog commenting these days but I've read this a few times.

So, first of all this is a great 5K and you WON and you're in marathon training!! Congrats girl! Look at your training week and no rest day before the race, and running with a kidney stone! Based on your mile repeats (and other training), with a taper you are well well under 20 minute capability-under 19:30 I think.

I am extremely impressed with your training Nicole. You are consistently running your workouts SO STRONG and more miles than ever and I truly think you are going to absolutely CRUSH your PR in Boston. If you were a horse on a track, I would put a hefty hefty bet down on you.

Laughing at the legs comment but yes, they sure do look good:)

Yes, that is a sweet angel from heaven. I would have bawled too. Priceless.

Best of luck to you in the next few weeks. Can't wait to see what you will do in Boston!

About Me

I am first and foremost, a mother of 2 beautiful little girls. I own my own business doing makeup for weddings and events of all kinds. Running is a passion I re-discovered when I was 30 after not running since I was 13. I was recently diagnosed with Hashimotos disease and am working on healing after not being able to run since July of 2013 and after 3 stress fractures in less than 2yrs. This is my journey:)