As I write this blog, I am in the middle of saying my goodbyes to the friends that became my family here in Los Angeles.I sure have had some amazing adventures here in the City of Angels.Hiking, standup paddle boarding and kayaking became a part of my life here.I can say I have sat on the top of a mountain, scaled a waterfall and learned to rock climb thanks to my adventures in LA.While there will not be any mountains to climb in my new city, I know there are new adventures awaiting my arrival in Northeast Florida.

I recently wrote out a list of all of the things I want out of life.I labeled this list Dreams: Having a partner in life in the form of an athletic, good looking, outdoorsy, faithful, spirit yielding man; having a broad platform as a writer/speaker/blogger for Christ; Having a ministry or three; having a family/Adoption; Owning my own home; Being financially stable; Staying Cancer Free.I shortly thereafter wrote another list and labeled it Reality: obtain and keep a nice job that is easy and gives me enough money to not live pay check to pay check; Get involved in a church; Get my non-profit off the ground; Write and publish some books; cultivate my painting; adopt some fur babies; if financially able – host international students.I later realized that the Dreams list represents what I perceive to be in God’s realm of responsibility and that the Reality list represents what I perceive to be in my realm of responsibility.It hit me that I still don’t really trust God.I guess there is a reason that Jeremiah 29:11 is my favorite verse.For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you, to give you a hope and a future.I even wrote it on a huge painting (displayed above) and as you can see, this painting reveals that I need to work on writing with paintbrushes.In a recent sermon, Erwin McManus recently stated that if we knew what all God was standing in between for us, we’d all instantly die of heart attacks.The real reality is that neither list is in my control.I have to learn trust God and I am having to trust Him more than ever with this upcoming move.I am in the worst financial state of my life.I have a car that has been giving me reason to doubt its ability to take me across the country and I will only have two months to make it in this new city to which God has called me.I was so consumed with fear over my decision to move that I could not sleep.My heart was pounding out of my chest and I was up walking around and telling God that I could not handle this move.That He was asking too much of me.That this was more than I could bear.Erwin spoke earlier that day on how God meets us where we are and is always willing and happy to do so.Erwin was recounting a scene from the life of Doubting Thomas. Jesus had just died and been raised form the dead and there were many witnesses.Thomas, however, refused to believe the reports that Jesus had been raised from the dead. Thomas said he would only believe if he could put his hand in Jesus’ side where the spear had pierced Him and put his fingers in the holes of Jesus’ hands where the nails had been driven.The part of the story that really hit me was that God did not get mad at Thomas.He just showed up in all His glory, but with the spear hole in His side and the nail holes in His hands so that Thomas could realize that His God was not dead.In a similar fashion, God met me and my fear the very next day.I woke up to an email from a woman named Grace, with a company I had been in contact with regarding an open position.I have an interview scheduled three weeks out for my first week in my new city.It calmed my soul for a day or two.Then I started freaking out again and God gave me another interview.I may not know if either of these interviews will turn into a job offer, but I do know that God is meeting me where I am and saying I have you in the palm of my hand.This is my will for you so don’t make yourself sick over this move.In fact, I have already gone before you and given you a nice place to stay.The rent may scare you, but I already have that handled too.God has also allowed me to know at least one of the whys for this move.You see my current company is in trouble and a new GM has been hired and due to God giving me favor with one important person in this company, I have the inside scoop on what is about to happen and let me tell you – had I not put in my notice when I did there’s a good chance I would have ended up stranded in LA without a way to get home and no money to pay rent.This move across the country might seem crazy, it might seem drastic, it might seem not well thought out, but this move is my saving grace.Louie Giglio once said that God loves Chaos.I think he is right.I honestly do not know what is going to happen over these last two months of 2014.I will either obtain a job or I will be packing up again and heading back to Tennessee to spend some time with my mom while I pay off debt.The one thing I do know is that I am 100% in God’s hand and in His plan for my life so I now sleep fine at night knowing that whatever happens, wherever I end up – God’s Got Me and He definitely has a plan for my life or He wouldn’t be catapulting me back across the country to save me from what I could not see coming.