November 13, 2006

So in order to try and get on with my work today and try and satiate these emotions that distract me, I'm going to try and write them out.

When you want something you are guaranteeing that you won't have it, ever. For as long as you want something you cannot have it because the want itself is a declaration of your personal lack. But this lacking that you have is an illusion for there is nothing that you do not have and there is nothing that you cannot do. The realization and knowing of this will change your life. Simply believing it is not enough, you must know it and see it in yourself, your life, and everything around you.

Know that you have EVERYTHING. There is nothing that you cannot have, do, or overcome as long as you choose it as an expression of Who You Really Are. Pain comes from actions that deny Who You Are. All pain and trouble you have results as a separation from Who You Are, and when you deny Yourself, you deny God, for the two are one in the same. So also as you deny God, you deny Yourself.

This pain I feel is of my own creation. I have not lost some part of myself, and I have not been rejected. I must always ask myself, "What Would Love Do Now?" And in asking this I must also remember that:

"Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, for it knows that there is no such thing as right and wrong. Love bears all things, knows all things, endures all things, embraces all things, yet forgives nothing, for love knows that nothing and no one needs to be forgiven."

I must be patient and kind, never jealous, boastful, arrogant, or rude. I must not be controlling, irritable, or hold resent. I will not rejoice at wrong, for there is no such thing as right and wrong. I must bear all that you do, embrace all that you do, and endure all that you do. And I realize that nothing you do need ever be forgiven. Love, real love, love for all people, for all mankind, is unconditional. My love, if it is REAL love, for my friends, family, lovers, and all people is unconditional. I will NEVER stop loving you, all of you, for to stop loving you would be a denial of Who I Really Am.

So when I say that I want you, I am in fact saying that I do not have you. That is what causes me pain, my feeling of lack. However the simple, wonderful, and liberating truth is that I lack nothing. It is there as long as I choose to see it. Focus on the positive, always look for the positive. Look for the good in every situation, I promise you that it is there, always, everywhere. This is hard to do, believe me I know it is difficult. But have faith and know that God has already provided everything you need, in fact he has already solved your problem for you. Let go of your troubles and go within, for if you do not go within, then you go without.

If I do not go within, then I go without. Go within, and in all you do, come from within. Come from God, express Who You Really Are.