Saturday, June 7, 2008

ABUSED-------DOWN & DEFINATELY NOT OUT...

IT WAS LATE IN THE MORNING AS THE WOMAN AWOKE, STARTLED IN THE DISORIENTATION OF HER SURROUNDINGS AND NERVOUSLY GLANCING AROUND TO CHECK WHERE SHE WAS, AS THE MOVEMENT OF THE BLANKET CAUSED A FINE LINE OF DUST TO BE RELEASED, HELD IN THE MOMENT BY THE VOYEURISTIC SUNSHINE , MAKING IT'S WAY THROUGH THE BROKEN SHUTTERED WINDOWS, WHILE THE MUSTY SMELL OF THE UN AIRED DANK SURROUNDINGS ASSAILED HER NOSTRILS, AS HER MIND BEGAN TO RACE AND REMEMBER WHY IT WAS THAT SHE WAS IN THIS STRANGE ROOM, IN A PLACE, SHE HARDLY REMEMBERED, AND AS THE AWARENESS OF CONSCIOUSNESS GRIPPED HER IN A VICE-LIKE GRIP OF REALITY, THE THOUGHTS FLOODED INTO HER MIND, AS HER BODY SHUDDERED IN THE FEAR AND THE KNOWINGNESS OF WHAT SHE WAS RUNNING FROM, BUT THE ANSWER AND THE DESTINATION OF WHERE SHE WAS GOING ELUDED HER, AS SHE STEPPED OUT OF THE BED AND FELT THE ITCHINESS OF THE DUST MITES THAT HAD HAD THE PRIVILEGE OF HER COMPANY THIS NIGHT, AND AS THE FIRST DROPS OF WATER HIT HER HEAD AND SHE CLOSED HER EYES, WHILE THE HOT WATER SPRAY RAN DOWN HER BODY AND SHE STARTED TO DRIFT AND THINK OF THE REASONS AND CIRCUMSTANCES THAT HAD BROUGHT HER TO A PLACE OF FEAR AND INSECURITY AND ON THE RUN FROM AN ABUSIVE ALCOHOLIC PARTNER, WHO HAD IMPRESSED UPON HER HIS NEEDS AND THE MASCULINE STRENGTH OF HIS FEET AND FISTS, WHICH RAINED DOWN UPON HER MORE FREQUENTLY, UNTIL THE THE TIME ARRIVED WHEN THE FEAR, THAT SHE HAD WAS NOT ENOUGH TO KEEP HER IN THAT PLACE AND SHE ACTED MORE OUT OF A NECESSITY TO FLEE AND CARRY HER HER FEAR WITH HER TO ALL THOSE UNKNOWN PLACES, WHICH BEGAN TO MERGE INTO ONE KIND OF HELL TOWN AFTER ANOTHER AND AS SHE DRESSED AND DECIDED TO TAKE A WALK, SHE REALISED THAT SOMEHOW, SHE HAD TO LIVE THE WAY SHE FELT IN THAT DARK SECRET PLACE AND AS THESE THOUGHTS PLAYED ON HER MIND, SHE BECAME AWARE OF THE SILENCE AND FOUND HERSELF IN A FOREST, WHICH SHE HAD NOT NOTICED ON ENTERING THE TOWN AND AS THE AWARENESS INCREASED, SHE FELT FOR THE FIRST TIME A SENSE OF CALMNESS AND PEACE, WHICH SEEMED TO EMANATE FROM DEEP INSIDE HERSELF AND SHE SAT DOWN UNDER THIS ENORMOUS TREE, RESTING HER BACK AGAINST IT'S BROAD GIRTH, WHILE SHE FELT KIND OF SLEEPY AND AS HER EYES CLOSED, FOR THE FIRST TIME WITHOUT THE HISTORY OF THE MEMORIES PLAYING THROUGH HER HALF SLEEP, SHE WENT INTO A WORLD OF DREAMS AND FELT THAT HER BODY WAS PART OF THIS GIANT TREE AND AS THE WIND PLAYED WITH THE UPPER BRANCHES, SHE STARTED TO SMILE AND LAUGH AND AS THE LAUGHTER GREW LOUDER, HER WHOLE BODY CONVULSED AND SHE COULD SEE HER SLEEPING SELF AND AT THE SAME TIME, SHE COULD SEE THE DREAM, FEEL THE LAUGHTER, WHICH PERMEATED THE FOREST, WHILE SHE SUDDENLY SAW THIS BLACKNESS THAT HAD STARTED TO EMERGE FROM HER HEAD AND GREW LARGER AND LARGER, SHE REALISED THAT THIS WAS THE ACCUMULATION OF ALL THE EMOTIONAL NEGATIVITY THAT HAD COLLECTED, WHICH WAS STILL TRYING TO STAY INSIDE HER, WHILE HER FEET BEGAN TO GLOW AND SPARKLE WITH A GOLDEN LIGHT WHICH MOVED IT'S WAY UPWARDS, FORCING THIS BLACK ENERGY UPWARDS AND OUTWARDS AND AS SHE WATCHED IN AMAZEMENT, THE BLACK ENERGY BEGAN TO DISSIPATE, AS THE TREE SENT OUT LONG TENDRILS OF WHITE ENERGY, UNTIL THERE WAS NOTHING LEFT.

SUDDENLY SHE WAS BACK IN HER OWN BODY AGAIN, AWAKE AND KNOWING INSTINCTIVELY AND INTUITIVELY, THAT ALL HAD CHANGED AND AS SHE LEFT THE FOREST, SHE KNEW THAT LIFE WOULD BE DIFFERENT AND THAT SHE WOULD BE INSTRUMENTAL IN HELPING OTHERS TO FACE THE SCOURGE OF COWARDICE AND MANIPULATION FROM PEOPLE WHO HAD TO EXERCISE THEIR POWER THROUGH THEIR FISTS AND WERE THEMSELVES JUST A PRODUCT OF A CIRCULAR EXISTENCE.