woke up sick as hell. Soon after I hear about Las Vegas shooting. Barely coherent @work Mind racing thinking of the families of the victims. Called those i know down there. 12hrs later I climb into my big cold bed w/a sore throat, fever, headache/bodyache I just realize I'm scheduled to run my next marathon in 40 days there....i don't know how I feel about that, I'm scared, sad, terrified angry stuff like this reminds me of how fragile life is & to always tell my people how much I love them & value them. I haven't made any decisions but as I tuck myself deeper into my bed the thought of running there makes my stomach curl. #iloveyou#needsahug#prayforvegas#imscared#womensrunning#runnergirl#rockandrollmarathon#marathontraining#instarunner#ughihatebeingsick#whereareyougod

When you judge yourself for needing help, you judge those you are helping. When you attach value to giving help, you attach value to needing help. The danger of tying your self-worth to being a helper is feeling shame when you have to ask for help. Offering help is courageous and compassionate, but so is asking for help. This is Something I need to learn and something I wish others would learn too. Asking for help isn't one of my best traits. I've been pushed beyond my limits lately. Hoping that I'm making the right life decisions. Cutting ties while mending others. Trying to balance myself while life continues to throw stones at me. I take pride in standing strong and independent but I'm cracking. To be able to have someone genuinely tell me that I'm doing a good job and everything will be ok would melt my heart. .
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#doingmybest#stressed#tired#needsahug#anxiety#stress#bedtime#goodnight#toomuch#slowdown#itsgoingtobeokay#lifegoeson#bestrong#succulents#pretty#girlswithtattoos