The last few weeks I have been awake and taking care of essentially everything 15-20 hours out of each day. This is not a complaint, to be honest, I've been amazed that I can function like this given everything behind the scenes, however, it is in these late hours that I do start to feel stress in relation to getting the important aspects of Gracie's Gowns taken care of.

This is my job, this is my dream, this is the legacy that I will leave behind when my time is over on this earth, and I will continue to put forth every ounce of energy to make the bigger plans I have in store for Gracie's Gowns come true. However, despite all my valiant efforts to save the world one stitch at a time, it can be and sometimes is exhausting, overwhelming, and even in some aspects it can be frightening.

Those are the moments I look for inspiration to just keep swimming and to bring myself back to where it all began. Sounds simple, but even that can prove challenging. That being said, over the last month or so I have a constant reminder that has helped me to remember just how amazing this organization is and will continue to be, my roots in creating it, the reasons behind every stitch, and how far the organization has come since conception a little over three years ago.

A little over a year ago I had a box of 4" x 4" fabric squares that had been cut from remnant pieces of gowns and from what I can remember now some of my personal projects as well, just taking up space, so to speak. It was always my intention to make them into scrap quilts and raffle or auction them off in order to help raise shipping funds and such.

I had posted to Facebook about this box of scrap pieces and Rosie was so excited to take them off my hands and make them into "something special." Little did I know that this something special would end up being for me.

When she first brought this scrap quilt over and I opened it up, I couldn't help but start crying. It is sentimental on so many levels. There are pieces from gowns from day one of me sewing them, gowns of children that have passed away, and so many pieces of gowns that I can pick out the name of who it was for, because I am just that kind of person that every child deserves a gown just as unique as they are.

And then there are the random, I just thought they were pretty fabrics that I used to make items to sell at Graves Mountain over the last three years to raise money for Gracie's Gowns (like the macaroons one above). I originally had posted to our page that the quilt was going to be for raffle or auction, but the more I looked at it, the more I thought about it, the more I held it...I just couldn't let it go and in that moment, Rosie messaged me saying that the quilt was for me/Gracie's Gowns to keep as a reminder and keepsake of these children we make gowns for.

It is in my plans to have an office in the near-ish future, while I always say the sooner the better, we have some decisions to make and the office may have to be postponed just a wee bit, but I do know that when I have an office, there will be a reading corner for families and children to use while they are there. This will be going in that reading corner, so anyone who needs a hug, can snuggle up with it and feel connected and hugged by all the children who have gowns represented by this quilt. Right now, it sits on the back of my sewing chair...the best place for it to be, to continuously remind and inspire every stitch...and to keep me warm when this bedroom becomes way too cold.

Thank you Rosie for blessing me with such a sweet keepsake...and thank you to all our families for blessing me with being a part of your child's medical journey, to inspire me to be a better person and to fight for not only what matters most, but what I believe in as well.

Earlier in the month we asked everyone on our Facebook page to nominate a NICU and/or Hematology/Oncology unit or clinic that was there favorite to receive a special surprise from Gracie's Gowns!

We are choosing two NICUs and two Hematology/Oncology units from those nominated to receive a special box from us. The first NICU was chosen - and it is going to Tripler Army Medical Center's NICU in Honolulu, Hawaii! Jennifer nominated the hospital after her son Colton (who is also a Gracie's Gowns recipient) was born and cared for by the NICU staff. She was awesome enough to include a story of his stay and just how wonderful the staff was - and some sweet photos to share as well!

Here is her precious Colton when he was born and cared for back in August of 2011. She includes the following about the hospital and staff at Tripler Army Medical Center's NICU.

"Our son was in the NICU for 12 days in August 2011. Our pregnancy with my son was very rough. Not many doctors believed he would make it or he wouldn't live long after brith. The NICU was just very amazing with him. They did everything they could to help him and it was so nice to finally have someone believe in him. They felt like family to us when we were there. And they just went above and beyond for my son. The NICU staff was just amazing! My son had an MRI when he was 1 1/2 months old and they let my son back into the NICU to be observed overnight bc they knew I was very uncomfortable with him going to the PICU with a bunch of sick kids. They were very understanding and cared very much for my son! And being a Military Hospital a lot of kids are in there with just one parent and no other family members to help them out during a stressful time in life and they could use a little a cute hospital gown!"

The photo above on the left is Colton in his gown from us back in September of last year (2013) and the photo on the right is him today at 2.5 years old! Look how much he has grown and how precious that smile is!! Way to go Colton - you've come so far and we have no doubt it was because of the fabulous start and care you have received since coming into this world!

So what's the surprise we're sending to Tripler Army Medical Center's NICU?

Well, we are sending them thirty NICU smocks to be distributed to the babies they care for! We know it doesn't remotely even make a dent into the 1,100 babies they serve annually, but at least there will be thirty styling babies this year!

These will be sent out this week to Hawaii and we hope they are received with much love and bring many smiles to the families that receive on of the gowns!

Thank you Jennifer for nominating Triple Army Medical Center's NICU and sharing Colton's NICU story with us and allowing us to share it with all that may read our posting!

Thank you as well to Kim for sewing pretty much every single one of these thirty gowns going to the NICU (after we drew the name - we learned Kim's granddaughter was born at this hospital as well, but fortunately did not need to be admitted to the NICU).

Stay tuned for our second NICU to be drawn once we have the items completed - but also for our Hematology and Oncology units/clinics to be chosen!

This SATURDAY - the MOMS Club of Louisa is hosting a benefit bake sale and yard sale for Gracie's Gowns! We are so honored that the MOMS Club of Louisa has chosen us for their service project this year. Way back when my youngest was first born, we were members of the MOMS Club of Louisa - had been for almost three years at that point. What a great place to meet other mothers in your local area, have play dates and just enjoy the adult conversations too! Since then they have grown and do so many wonderful activities for families in our area and really try to reach out to all the mothers with children of all ages - regardless if they are working moms or stay-at-home moms.

It was a real treat last year to present Gracie's Gowns to the current members of the MOMS Club of Louisa and to share what we do and how we serve children in the local area, but also across the globe.I will be at the yard sale this Saturday sharing Gracie's Gowns with those that come by to browse for goodies for the whole family and then some! So stop by, say hi, I'd love to meet you and you never know what you might find!

The address is: 116 Apple Orchard Drive Louisa, VA 23093It is located in the Countryside Subdivision just outside the "main drag" of the town of Louisa.

You can drop off items this Thursday and Friday at the same address between the hours of 10:00am and 6:00pm, to be sold to benefit Gracie's Gowns as well. They will be tax-deductible donations! So instead of taking those too great to throw-away items to Goodwill you can drop them off, still get the tax receipt and help benefit our ministry in making these precious children a hospital gown of their very own!

The MOMS Club of Louisa has set a goal of $500.00 to try and raise for Gracie's Gowns - so even if you don't find anything you need or want item wise, pick up a baked goodie for the trip home!

We are entering the last week and some of our spring raffle now!It has been so much fun drawing winners for the prizes given in this raffle and I hope everyone is loving their new goodies. Here are the winners from last year.

Our eighteen winner was Vicki Quick - her items were from Scentsy!

The items for this day in the raffle were sponsored by Karen Day Hill!

CONGRATULATIONS to EVERYONE!!!And thank you to everyone who has helped with this raffle by purchasing a ticket, donating items, sharing our event and inviting your friends as well!We still have some tickets for purchase for the last of our amazing raffle items! There's a deep covered baker from Pampered Chef, Scentsy bundles and more still to be given away!

Okay - so old picture, but had to use something with the sewing machine. I love sewing these hospital gowns, I love sewing them for your little ones and seeing their smiling faces and knowing how it can literally change a hospital experience from bad to at least tolerable.

Sometimes though, I have to break the routine of making gowns and work on other projects, just to keep from crying over how many precious little ones are in need of such an item. It breaks my heart in so many pieces at times, that I have to sit back and remember how much of a blessing each child is, how they have changed the lives of those around them...how they fight, just to make it through another day and while yes, the odds are usually stacked against them, they inspire others to do such amazing things - like Gracie's Gowns and so many other organizations!

One of the items that have been done and still being worked on were these squishy little monsters! We sold them over the course of a couple days in order to raise shipping funds for gowns.

I am happy to say they are almost all done and out in the mail (still have maybe 7 more in total to make I believe). Here is some of the ones that went out last week, as I didn't get pictures of the previous ones made to post. My apologies on that...they are too cute not to picture and post.

These guys come from leftover minky fabric that I have from making millions of blankets over the last few years I have been making for friends and family.

One of the other items that get worked on in those little breaks are some bags for Beads of Courage - I love making these little bags from leftover pieces from gowns!

They are easy enough to make and still give that feeling of inspiration and fulfillment I suppose in knowing the fabric we use won't go to waste and can brighten the days of so many other children too.

This year we have 17 bags made so far to donate to Beads of Courage and will probably have close to 50 by the time the donation is ready to be made. We are hoping to be able to donate them to our local hospital with a Beads of Courage program.

Lastly, whenever I really want to venture out into my sewing fun - I go back to making little items from leftover pieces of fabric and working through my own personal fabric stash and creating other items that we will be taking with us for our craft show in October - last year we raised $900 for Gracie's Gowns with items made from leftover pieces and whatever fabric I had on hand - this year we're hoping to meet and exceed that amount...especially with the Christmas Box Program coming up at that time of the year as well. Right now we've loaded the items into an etsy store (which will be put in vacation the Thursday before the show) to try and sell some of the items throughout the year with all the money being put into our shipping expenses. So here is the etsy mini with links in case you want to browse it!

With all that fun being said and shown - no worries, gowns are still being made, still being sent out and Gracie's Gowns is rolling right along like we always do. Sometimes just a little slower than normal, because we are in the process of moving and my health has gotten a little "interesting" for lack of a better word, but we are still upholding and maintaining our mission to provide every child we can a special hospital gown of their own to wear while in treatments, surgeries and hospital stays!

Our first week of winners and a special drawing winner have already happened!! So exciting and the majority of these items have already been mailed out too - thanks to some extra running around we've had to do in our personal world and was able to swing by the post office on those trips too.We're excited to start another week of winners - after I draw today's winner - we still have 22 awesome days of prizes left to give away and another special drawing prize if we can still 200 tickets in total (we're at 117 right now). Lots of great Pampered Chef and Scentsy items are being given away and you're not going to want to miss out on the upcoming prizes for sure!

Our first winner was Debbie - her items were from The Pampered Chef!

The items for this day in the raffle were sponsored by Marie Snyder - a local Pampered Chef consultant to Gracie's Gowns.

This past weekend we celebrated our two year anniversary in making hospital gowns for children across the United States and around the globe. What a great accomplishment, what an amazing experience, what a blessing for my own life the past two years have been (even with the crazy times)...but we also took the time this year to celebrate the lives of the children we have made gowns for and remember those that have passed away over the past two years.

Each child we made a gown for that traded in their super hero capes for angel wings had a lantern with their name, date of birth, date the became an angel, diagnosis and anything else the family, us, or the person who purchased the lantern in their memory wanted to say on it.

This year we released 45 lanterns - there were a few duplicates from where Gracie's Gowns had a lantern for the child and someone else wanted to purchase a lantern in memory as well, but overall there was one lantern per child. We had a few lanterns as well for children that we did not make a gown for, but were warriors as well - and we gladly added remembering their courage, strength and smiles to our ceremony.

Due to some weather related issues, we started later, but lanterns went in the water around 8:00 p.m. and the final one went out about 10:00 p.m. It was a very cold night, but watching the lanterns float in the water, seeing their reflections and just how they illuminated the water was breath-taking. Even more so, it was very, very emotional for me. Too have a visual of the children that lose their lives battling illness was heart-breaking...to know that this is only the children our organization has personally worked with in two years was devastating. There are so many more children who pass away each day, week, month and year that if we lit a lantern for each of them - we'd have to worry about them catching themselves on fire...there wouldn't be enough water for them all to float.

Watching the candles go out was probably the most emotional part of the whole night.

The lanterns - if the wind didn't blow them out - started to sink as they were wet. They are biodegradable, which is the point for them to get wet and sink/fall apart/etc. But as they did...you would see this light, barely above the water...like it was holding on unto the last second. Fighting until the very end to stay shining. They flickered, almost went out, flickered some more, got brighter and held on...and then once the water came closer, the flame disappeared without any warning. Just like our little warriors.

They fight until the very end, giving it 100% and then some - they have so many close calls and yet still manage to pull through and almost make a complete turn around and then...in a blink of an eye, they are gone.

Here is all of the lanterns we released out in the water - a beautiful tribute and celebration of their life.

Over the next few months, I will be creating an angels/in memory of page here on our website. It is my hope to get each child that we know has become an angel and learn about the ones we do not already know, on that page with their parents permission and help.

This will become an annual event for Gracie's Gowns - and for those that may not be able to attend at night, it is in my plans to do a balloon release during the day and make that a family event as well.

To view all the photos and lanterns from the event - you can visit this link below:

They are two part raffle tickets, we will be keeping the part that has your name, address and phone number in order to contact you should your name be drawn as a winner during the raffle that will start on April 1st. The second section also has the same ticket number and that will be mailed to you once your payment has been received.

Each day in April, we will be drawing a winner for one of our Pampered Chef or Scentsy prizes. They will alternate each day between the two companies. All prizes will be valued at $30.00 or more!! We will post the winners each day to Facebook and to our blog with a picture of the item won and the number drawn. Numbers will be drawn using random.org starting with the number 1 and ending with the total amount of tickets sold.

Your ticket can win more than once, but to have the best shot at winning an item, multiple tickets are encouraged.

Prizes will be mailed out weekly on Mondays - tracking numbers will be available as well once they are mailed.

So make sure to share with your friends, family and everyone you know who loves Pampered Chef and Scentsy to help support Gracie's Gowns - all funds raised (after the purchase of the raffle items and shipping costs) will be put specifically towards our Christmas Box Program for this year

Here are some of the items we currently have in our raffle prizes!

We still have a few days left for any Scentsy Independent Consultant that would like to contribute towards our raffle prizes! All of our Pampered Chef days have been covered, but we have six Scentsy days that we need covered with item(s) valued at $30.00 or more. They can be bundled together to create the $30.00 value and we will be advertising your Facebook page and/or website each day that the item(s) you donate are given away.

We have 60 tickets sold so far, we'd love to sell many more, so please share this with your family and friends so we can make this fundraiser really successful! Our biggest expense for the Christmas Box Project is going to be shipping, so the better start we can get on collecting the funds we will need helps us greatly!

I have the wonderful opportunity to help out another great organization with some fabric to continue their mission. This time it is for Lilahroo's! Monica makes these precious, cozy, comfy and just wonderful blankets for children fighting medical challenges.

Do we have one? No - but my, oh my, you can just see from her photos and stories of children that have received one just how comfy they are! As someone who has made blankets for years, these are great quality, with wonderful fabrics. Cozy flannel on top and super soft minky on the back...perfect blanket ingredients!

Here is Autumn with her gown and Lilahroo while at her clinic appointment! Doesn't she look super cozy there?!

There website to learn more about what they do, who they are, how to support and even all the stories from families that have received a blanket from Lilahroo's is:

So since the kiddos and I are getting a lot closer to moving time and we've been holding onto some of these fabrics for a while now, without any requests to use them for, here are the cozy flannels we had to send Monica's way and even a minky fabric too:

They will be on their way shortly - as in probably tomorrow's mail!!Can't wait to see what little ones get wrapped up in a cozy blankie made from these fabrics.

I know we posted about this on Facebook, but I just really felt like I wanted to write and post it on our blog as well - especially since we have followers here, that don't Facebook.

Every so often (and much more than I ever want to admit or think about), we have a little one that passes away before their gown is received. Sometimes even before we have started their gown request. While I know it is always a possibility, it is still the hardest part about operating Gracie's Gowns.

Lucy is one of those precious little ones. I had just completed with sewing on her gown and the next day her mother Rinda messaged me through Facebook saying her precious little girl had passed away. She was born with hypoplastic left heart syndrome and the complications from her heart defect gave her a beautiful set of angel wings.

I asked her mother if she still wanted Lucy's gown as a keepsake and she said yes, but then I had another idea in my head and heart to make it a little more special - Lucy didn't just leave her parents behind, but also an older brother named William.

It was agreed that my little idea was perfect for her brother William - he is three years old and is having a hard time understanding why he can't see his baby sister anymore...it was to put Lucy's gown on a special animal and send it to him. So whenever he misses Lucy, he can give this animal a hug and send a hug to her as well.

The search began for the right size animal and I found this fluffy bunny that her gown fit perfectly on.

This precious bunny came from our local Build-A-Bear store in the Spotsylvania Towne Centre. I went there knowing their animals were a bit larger and in prayer I would find something perfect.

I got a huge surprise though while there - as the bunny was being stuffed by the manager, we were talking about what occasion it was for and I showed him Lucy's gown and how it was for her brother. He noticed the angel wings right off the bat and I told him she passed away at fifteen days old from a severe congenital heart defect. The manager then took the tag off of the bunny and donated it to her brother William.

I even showed him the little heart snaps that we used on the back of the gown, while we were putting it together.

The manager refused and I mean refused to let me even remotely pay a dime for the bunny - and I couldn't have been more blessed to see this idea become a reality for William and Lucy's parents.

This precious bunny is making it's way to their home in Australia as I am writing this posting and I know it will be received with many, many hugs.

There she is - Lucy's Bunny.

As hard as it is to lose one of our little ones, period, it is so hard for me for them to pass away before we can get a gown to them. But now we have this amazing, heartfelt way to still provide a little something for their families to hold onto. It is a blessing to finally (after almost two years) have a way to remember these little ones as well and their brave fights, however long or short they may be.