Sunday, August 1, 2010

journey girl

I really don't like doing murals. There is an insecure process that I go through every time. First the agony of oh no my work is going to be on someone's wall and they will have it in their face BIG...every day. Then I have the "I don't have a clue what in the world I'm doing" stage. Why in the world did I act like I did?? Then the dread of actually starting the project, and finally in the middle...when it looks it's worst...I want to run away. I actually want to just cry and run.

I've figured it out though. I'm not a journey girl. That's horrible to say because that's where we are most of the time. I really don't like the messy in between parts. I like it when the big picture is in focus and all the edges are smoothed out and I can actually tell it's going to be alright.

Sorry for the blurry picture. This is where my day was spent...on this ledge. Praying pleading with God that it would look okay in the end. That I wouldn't fall off and kill myself.

My style is whimsy...childlike. Not perfect or realistic. I kept stressing that...trying to manage expectations.

Turns out in the end I liked it. She liked it. All was well...whew!!!!

Why do I freak? How do I learn to trust myself...trust God?? In the end I was covered in paint. My back was killing me and I was totally exhausted....probably from all the fretting;) But once again the result was good. Maybe someday I'll actually learn to enjoy the journey...nah!

Yeah, I struggle during the journey too. Somehow I like to think in the end it made me stronger...but I don't know that that is true? :/ However, my friend, you are such a great painter, I'm not certain why you fret. You did such a gorgeous job :) You rock.

Yep, the journeys pretty much stink, but I think they're fun in the way that you just KNOW you're going to learn life lessons from them and help someone later in life that is going through the same thing! :)the mural is wonderful!!!

The mural turned out great! Like the previous comments, journey's do stink sometimes but they are necessary. They shape who we are and how we respond to situations. A necessary evil I guess. But in the end turn out to be a necessary good! You have incredible talent and don't think otherwise!! God will guide you through your journey's!

You are awsome, and so is your work! I would LOVE to have your painting in my house! Love the end result! I too do not love the journey...I really like to know where I am going, and I like some amount of control. My life is completely changing right now, and loss of control is an understatement! But I am shifting my focus, and trying to trust God. After all He has a plan, that should be comforting!!! Thank you for the encouragement through your situation, you are an incredible artist!

I'm not a journey girl either!!!!! And at the end, when everything is as it should be, I kinda regret all the fretting I did instead of enjoying the ride. But, truth be told, I seem never to remember when the next journey comes along....

So proud of YOU Becky! I love your mural! Truly, you've done a great job on the mural. I like her idea of a Scandinavian Fishing Village. Plus I love your style. I'm hard on myself too when it comes to mural painting for someone else. I've been there and the journey of making them is scary in some parts but in the end it's very fulfilling to see your art on another person's wall. There is something about that quote you inspired me to believe after you came back from Brave Girl Camp= "Do It Afraid!" Well, you just did it afraid and look at the wonderful outcome!

So cute!!! Thanks so much for the bday wishes, you are so sweet! I just read your previous post, oh my that is some swanky place! How cool!!!! I have a funny story about our connection to Verne Troyer, I will have to email it to you though!!! You looked so pretty!!! What a night! My head would be spinning too, my goodness, Ozzie and Sharon!!! What an awesome memory for you!

I get you...the journey is the hard part of all of us..it's tough and we cry a lot...but in the end, HE always brings us through. You are much better than you give yourself credit for...as in life too! I love it and I also love your header! :D

You did a GREAT job and I your braids are too cute! Thanks so much for all your posts. I always enjoy reading them and feel like I've known you forever. You are so "REAL" and I love it! Hope you have a blessed day!

Gosh, you are soooo talented! But I hearyou; I often put offthe big projects becauseI get to that middlestage and think, "Whydid I start THIS???!"Usually, because somethinggoes wrong. Guess that'sa metaphor for life, right?We just have to deal, havefaith and in the end, itworks out the way it issupposed to! Happy, happySunday, Becky : )xx Suzanne

You sound just like me in earlier days! Your work is delightful and the mural is beautiful. I think we can place so much energy on expectations...and expectations can be premeditated resentments. I hope that you applaud yourself for a job well done! The journey is where we find the joy ~ :-)

Sometimes when I read your posts, I would swear that we're related. Seriously! I am sooooo not a journey girl either, and I am keenly aware of just how much I miss by not being in the moment, enjoying the moment.

When you figure out how to just surrender and fully trust God to make everything right in the end, PLEASE share it with me! I've been struggling to master THAT little trick my entire life.

Your mural looks darling, I want to see the whole thing, I think we all second guess ourselves and maybe we are more afraid of failure then the journey, I know I am, cause in the end you can't hide from the journey but you can from failure...you did wonderfully, belive in yourself, cause you are that good!!! :)

Becky your art work is beautiful. I know how stressful the process of creating can be. Our styles are very similar. My painting is childlike and very unrealistic... not perfect, I did a post about this not long ago. Keep creating... Girl you are a wonderful artist.

do you think as we grow ~ we will learn to enjoy the journey more? I keep wondering if I will ever embrace more of the journey than I worry about... =) Simply Beautiful art Becky ~ I enjoy seeing all the fun you create!!

Hello! You just commented on my photography blog: www.faundimages.blogspot.comThank you! I, too, LOOOVVEE comments! It was funny because after looking at your site, I realized we really could be friends! Besides doing photography, working at a library, I also PAINT walls! haha... I haven't got as much time to do it as I used to. I've thought about doing a blog for that as well but haven't gotten that far and am not sure I want any more jobs! :o)I love your work... so much FUN! You have a beautiful site and I love the feeling of it. You seem like a great lady. Have a fabulous day!

I know exactly what you are talking about!! I did a drawing of a couple as a wedding gift.Afterwards, they asked me to do a painting of something that was very outside of my comfort zone. I worked on it constantly! (To the point where you over-think it and mess it up even.) And even though I think it turned out nice, I was so worried they wouldn't like I never gave it to them...

I think you did an amazing job!You have such a gift - being able to relate to people so well.

I hope you are having a great weekend!KareyEllenKareyEllenDesigns.blogspot.com

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Hi...I'm Becky. My life's journey so far has led me to marry my high school sweetheart. We've been married for 22 years, have 2 beautiful girls and a furry creature named Fergie. My painting style is very simple, colorful and almost childlike. I grew up in rural Illinois hence, "Farmgirl Paints". I get my creative inspiration from God. It is only through His giftings that I have any ability whatsoever.