Friday, January 23, 2009

Right now its hard for me to see myself on a stage anytime soon. Its hard for me to focus. I'm frustrated that I can't work out. I got sent home from work today because my breathing is so bad. My chest really hurts. :( I'm on a ton of meds to make me better. I'm just not better yet. I want to lift and do cardio. I feel like a fat, lazy bum! I haven't been 100% on eats. I know that eating clean is totally separate than working out. One does not preclude the other. They are two separate functions that both must be done 100%. One doesn't make up for the other, yet... when I miss workouts I get that fatalistic thinking. The thinking that since I am not working out.... I can eat this. *UGH* That's the reverse of what I should be thinking! Everything just feels better about my day when I workout first. I'm tempted to do something tonight. I just KNOW that it is NOT smart. Grrrr.

So I can't visualize my weight loss right now. I can't see the stage. I am gaining weight from the meds I am on. I can't workout. Let's add hubby being a jerk and loads of work stress. I'm feeling lost. I'm stumbling through the woods with no clear direction. Its foggy and I am getting smacked in the face with tree branches.

One thing I miss the most that I haven't done since last spring is Yoga. I miss it SO much. Doing some Yoga and meditation will help. Instead of fighting my way through this I need to just stop and recenter myself. I have a pile of worries and tears. I need to sit down and just breathe. I think this bronchitis is actually a gift. Its forcing me to have some down time. No more spinning in circles.

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I am a 31 yr old woman getting in the best health of my life. I want to be the best and healthiest version of me.
I love to help others and I want to help people achieve their own greatness.
Life is journey and I'm glad to be on it!

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"Its not the mountain we conquer, but ourselves."-- Sir Edmund Hillary

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you've imagined."--Henry David Thoreau

"There is a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when it is convenient: when you're committed to something, you accept no excuses, only results."(Excerpt The Success Principle)

"We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face ... we must do that which we think we cannot."-- Eleanor Roosevelt

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Mini Goals & Rewards

Mini Milestones * Fit into wedding set again* Current clothes go from tight to falling off* Wear shorts and skirts in public by August* Wear bikini from Honeymoon on Anniversary!

Each week of 100% compliance earns a non-food reward*Massage (I think I will need this one the most!)*Pedicure*Hair appointment*Photography gear*New Clothes*New makeup

94-100% compliance on whole program * Trip to Hawaii & Skydiving!*New wedding/anniversary band