I write to a blind audience who doesn't know me and will never have to. They pick and choose whether or not there's wisdom in the experiences I write about and are welcome to offer the solace of their own if they find it applies. Response from total strangers have always been the most eye-opening and provocative in the writing all these years, and I welcome it.
I'm trying, still trying, to be an important part of the world.

Tuesday, July 09, 2013

Quiet, Not Silent

I don't usually take the time to comb through the words I've written; I guess I operate under an assumption that once they leave my headspace, they have no business cramming themselves back in. But in the solace of a soothing cup of jasmine and honey tea and with the sound of LaMontagne's myriad heartbreaks offering a backdrop to my journey down memory lane, I open up my journal and my heart, preparing to revisit the ghosts of my past.I find three truths. One, I was an angsty, confused, sad, angry, happy and curious... child. Two, I will always be this. And three, things will be ok, if not now, then in time. Always.I offer three gifts. One, prayers for the losses as of late, as I feel too many souls have left the Earth in the very recent past. Two, more words written and much more often, to tell of things I experience, as I feel that knowing other's stories are important to the human condition and the development of a broader sensibility. And three, to call home more.I set three goals. One, to find my faith in things again. Two, under-promise and over-deliver. And three, to tell you 'I love you,' and to accept that expecting it in return is something I have earned and am entitled to.The crisp San Francisco evening offers a quiet ambience to write these words, as the pugs snore in unison upon the bed, beckoning me to join. I think I will, because there is nothing better in the world than to sleep in a pile of pugs after saying hello to your past.

Earth-Shattering Revelation #33: Too many things live in our head, all the time. And this is the way thing have always been.Current Music: JT's "Mirrors" & Rihanna's "Stay