About a year ago, I proudly posted on my Facebook wall how
long I’d been penis-free.Much to my
surprise, many men sounded upset while I pretty much felt it like an
accomplishment.So I asked my buddy, who
is a heterosexual man, why men who live far away in other states and many who
are married or committed and not dating would care if I choose to have sex with another or
not.After thinking for a moment, he
said that it may not be rational but somewhere deep inside, many feel that
someone should be getting it.

We laughed and I simultaneously fumed.But it validated what I felt most of my
life.It has felt like I’m expected to
pay an extra tax to live on the Earth because I have a vagina.For me, having been penis-free for quite an impressive
chunk of time is empowering.

I come home and lock my door. Grateful to have some peace even
if not yet enough. I’m grateful to have a place to live even if it still needs
a lot more work.I did clean my toilet
today.I finally have a seat for
company.

………….

Big changes ahead at one of my jobs.Can’t say I’m not concerned.I need both paychecks.Neither is extra.I work hard to be this low-income.

………….

I applied for a couple of auditions for paid acting
roles.I don’t do that consistently
enough.So it felt good to let casting
people know I exist.There were several
I couldn’t apply to because of my jobs.Oy.

I applied to participate in a paid focus group.If I get accepted, it means missing the
poetry workshop I love attending.It
also means a hundred bucks.I need it.

………….

If someone is against planned parenthood, is s/he for
unintentional, unplanned parenthood?Doesn’t sound like someone who understands what’s involved in raising a child/building
a person or maybe s/he simply doesn’t care.It is a way to trap a woman.I
know a man who impregnated his first and second wives in reaction to his fear
that they didn’t plan to stay with him. Maybe he felt it easier than becoming a
more desirable partner.Poor babies,
born into unhappy marriages because a pathologically selfish man wanted to buy time with each
woman though he was faithful to neither.

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If you don't stop Monsanto from poisoning us, please don't tell me how pro-life you are. If you think men should have the final say-so on women's vaginal activity, please don't tell me how much you respect women. Be proud of who you are or change.

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When I look at Trump, I see a weak little man who is too frightened
to allow another to be heard.I am so
familiar with the type.I think his
pretty wife is getting to know him too. A friend of mine even suggested that she, like me, may create a penis-free zone of her own.

Whether it looks like this

or like this

it
is the same shit -- not good for anyone.

Treasure and protect whatever freedoms you do have. Don't count on anyone else to do so. It’s International Women’s Day.

Please, vote like a woman! Consider candidates that know they have no right to rule our bodies and lives. Do not dishonor our foremothers who were beaten, hospitalized in mental institutions, jailed, and force-fed, and had the ovaries to endure it so that we can vote. Fuckin' VOTE! Thank you.

Oh Jane, you really make me feel good inside. When I had that craziness with a comic, she told me that she showed my blogs to a lawyer. She said the blogs were very intense. She said it as if it were illegal to write captivatingly and intensely. I sure am not aiming for mediocre. I think part of this country would like to lock up people with something to say, so I thank God for people like you.