May 30, 2014

Ever seen the face of a kid when
they don't get the choc they wanted you to give it to them? Ofcourse you hadn't
done it on purpose, you forgot or some situation made you think "aaj nahi
toh kal leke jaunga". You wouldn't easily forget that face and deep in
your heart that stays imprinted, a sort of guilt feeling and you swear to
yourselves "Will never let that happen?".... Don't you.

Now imagine the same thing with
your loved ones, near & dear, your best friends. You promise something to
them, plan to make it happen, almost get the thing done when you had to back
off. Be it planning a vacation, a visit to a pub, a sumptuous lunch or as
simple as a plate of Pani Puri. You thought you had everything under control,
you didn't even dream that something could go wrong and that's when something
goes wrong- Leaves not approved, You damn forgot dress code for disco, lunch
just isn't happening bcoz of bullshit reasons and it rainssss. The look that gets etched on the face of
your loved one, if that had been anger or frustration or disapproval or sadness
or annoyance or rage or contempt one would get over it after sometime,
seriously you can get over any of these reactions. But if that look is of utter
"Disappointment", I tell you, you will take a long time to get over
it.

The thing that keeps eating you
with display of such an emotion is the feeling of having let someone down...
someone who wants/ wanted to have accomplished the wish with you or have you
fulfill that wish. That feeling, when it comes from a person who trusts you the
most, believes that you could do anything and everything for them, and then you
fail them, it’s just jusstt... I’m unable to find the words that suit the
context or which could define that 'frame of mind'. Such state of mind keeps
you awake all night... that expression keeps swimming even in your thoughts...
makes you restless too.

That's when you need to be
determined.. say it to yourselves and do everything you can to ensure these
things don't repeat! After all what harm can little more efforts do to you if
the rewards of a warm, bright and happy smile from your loved ones weight
more.... And, you find "Satisfaction" written all over their smiles! ... To top it all your deepest apologies for goof up could be a good starting point... ofcourse if they are accepted!!