Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Starting Now

Starting today I am going to make a conscious effort of setting higher standards for myself. I was thinking last night in bed while awaiting my caffeine fix to subside about how when you get together with a girlfriend, once you get past the updates on how "your world" is going, there isn't much to talk about that doesn't involve someone else's business. It's not that gossip dominates my life but if I were to make it a point to not discuss anything that is going on with anyone else, I would honestly have a lot less to say And I think God wants the words I choose to speak be worth speaking. I have always been a talker. I'm a listener too but the "talker" in me dominates the "listener" side but I am going to do my best to switch the balance on that scale.

I also need to work on not being so critical of others' choices. I don't feel that I go too far when it comes to getting upset when I see loved ones taking "the hard road" in some cases but I feel guilty when I get worked up over what a friend is doing in his/her life. So seeing how it is their life and their decisions maybe I should just keep telling myself to live and let live and just pray, pray, pray that God will convict them and lead them in the right direction. It's not that I think I have it all figured out. It's just sometimes easier to see things from the outside but whether or not I feel I have a logical solution to a problem, I have to learn to just say a prayer for them and go on. Whew...this won't be easy. I won't have any issues keeping my mouth shut and not saying anything to anyone- atleast I think I won't. My problem is the ranting I do in my head about it. That will be hard. So please pray for me to get where I need to be in order to be the best friend I can be.