" semakin dewasa entah kenape sunyi menghimpit diri, selalu rase ouh everything need to be done by your own. everyone cant do it for you laa. like you are baby dulu dulu. and you know what one of the reason that is Allah want to give you the best preparation for your to feel alone bile tibe mase ajal dijemput. takde sape nak teman kat dalam liang lahad tu kan. "

*telan air liur*

true indeed? setuju?

and tu lh ape yg aku terfikirkan. and it also teach us that

do not rely much at people because they are also rely on others.

so, put your trust on Allah, have your faith.

bile selidik, renung balik dari kita lahir memang survive sensorg, then berjaye in the competition of many sperms, come to earth, living by family, and everyone growing up and become more clear of your own path life.

then life will be cycle, being teenagers, getting married. that is the time you are surrounded back with many people but then your children grow up and leaving you and you become lonely again and when the times come you are prepared much to be alone in your grave.