I am about 7 weeks into a new AD treatment that has been touch and go as far as I am concerned. At about week 4 tongs seemed to turn the corner got better in a big way like the load just got lifted I could be happy about the upcoming holidays I even decorated. But the feelings lasted about 5days before the darkness started to decend again. Thought it might correlate with running out of another maintenance med for a few days but the depression held court for 2 weeks before the maintenance meds got staboliz again then it was like an over night light switch too sudden a chg to be believed now I am beginning to feel like I am on the long xslow don hill of the up mood moving back to dark just not as quick a transition. I spoke to my pdoc yesterday and he isn't concerned said the cycles don't exhibit true mania characteristics or hypomanic but I can't afford to be cycling I need stability cycling will destroy what is left of my life and the isn't much at this point

I am scared and I dont even know what to do next

The following user gives a hug of support to tearsnfears:flamesabers (12-17-2012)

Is it possible to get your maintenance meds filled with a long-term prescription delivered via mail to minimize the possibility of running out again? Even though it's been short-lived and sporadic, it's good to hear you're feeling better a part of the time. Is there any other changes in your life other than the meds that might be contributing to your mood cycling?