taken on the recent Eid-ul-Adha at 'rumah besar' as referred by Nabil.

oh its so cute Nabil refers to Tok Ummi's house - the house he lives in - as 'rumah besar'. his parents bedroom is 'rumah Nabil', the house i'm living in is 'rumah Ikram', and so on.. he can even differentiate between Muja's Myvi and Kholah Tikki's Myvi although both are silver in colour. and he knows if the turqoise Hyundai Getz he sees on the road is not his mother's. such a brilliant boy, subhanallah!

Ammar is the second grandson of the huge family. he's also super-duper cute and clever. he's a huge fan of Tok Abah's iPad and calls it 'pad'. one day he was at his other grandfather's house and he wanted to play games on iPad. there was none there so his grandfather took out his laptop for Ammar. when all was set, Ammar touched the screen and nothing happened. he said, "rosak". LOL!

another cutesy little boy is Ishraf. he's now crawling actively and could stand up straight and strong while holding onto something. his smile is so adorable and bright and to me the smile says something like this: "i'm happy and nothing else matters ^_^"

baby Zayd oh baby Zayd! i've never seen the real him yet! i hope baby Zayd and his parents will come back home early next year. from his pictures and videos, i could tell he's one clever growing boy nshaAllah

baby Azzam is Nabil's little brother. he's so chubby and have double-triple chin! hehehe.. Nabil and his Papa was playing with him this morning and he got excited and smiled! subhanallah! i still remember the morning Ikram smiled his real smile for the first time. baby's smiles are always the best smiles in the world!

and Ikram... he's my little hero. he's growing up so fast now. he now can do 'commado crawls' - i.e. crawling on his tummy - and sit up on his own. one sad thing is, he went to nursery since early october and caught flu each and every week T__T everyone says is a normal thing for babies and there's nothing i should worry about since nursery is a perfect place to pass viruses, but i don't know if EVERY WEEK is normal enough. it's oh boy what a sad thing that is. but there's nothing much we can do now except to let him get a break from the nursery until i start my industrial training on 13th december..

hmm.. suddenly i remembered being very sad and disappointed one day before i had to submit my final year project report. people always asked me how is it to juggle between studies and taking care of a baby. i say, it's no difference than a working mother. there are times when you just have to leave the baby with his father or anyone else in order to tend to your other responsibilities. i got really sad when some people blame me for leaving my baby behind until late at night or on weekends. what can i do? when i do that, i made sure i was with him throughout the day, or else i would definitely bring him with me. it's sad to know that people only see the bad side of what you're doing. oh i should stop now or i will start crying.

anyways,

this ikram warded at 5 months..

that was when i went through 'the worldly hell' i call it. worse than 12 years of migraine.

my heroes ^__^

right after i finish my FYP presentation, both of them fell very sick T__T i hope i could do more to provide them comfort.. get well soon ok Baba n Ikram, love you both very much!

Friday, October 01, 2010

at 5 month ikram starts weaning, eating fruits n vegetable puree and everyone immediately commented that he put on weight!;ikram knows how to roll from his back to front a week before he turns 5 months;he learnt how to pass his rattle from his right hand to his left and back again before he turned 4 months;he could giggle when he turned exactly 3 months;he couldn't wear his newborn clothes anymore a week before he turned two months. he was too long for them already;a week before that he started smiling 'real smiles' and learns how to play with people;

4th October will be Ikram's first day of school @ hadhonah adnipraying that everything will go on well, nshaAllah :)

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Last week was quite hectic for us when Mavi Marmara was attacked by the Israelis. Mujahid's father a.k.a. my father-in-law was one of the activists @ volunteer on that freedom flotilla.

Suspense was indeed in the air as I watched the news on al-Jazeera and a Turkish online website, as we all waited for Abah to call home - if he is still safe and sound. Alhamdulillah, Allah knows best, a couple of days later the Israelis let free the 12 Malaysians who were on Mavi Marmara. As you all had already known, they were sent to Jordan. Abah called home.

Several weeks back, Mujahid had asked me to translate his CV to join the cause. Sorry Abang I really had to hesitate because I was so not ready to raise our baby alone for now, not even for a couple of days, in addition to some other reasons.. It's not "never" it's just "not yet".. inshaAllah..

Anyways, on Tuesday 1st June 2010, Ikram Fakhri went off for his first demonstration for Palestine. Being the youngest demonstrator of the day, he slept soundly in his carrier despite the heat and the noise - which he actually loved.

Mujahid and I had planned to bring him along for the big demonstration on Friday but after some last minute consideration we decided to leave baby Ikram at home..

Oh by the way, Ikram Fakhri & Baba was on TV3 on Sunday, the day Tok Abah Hasan came back. They were also in the local newspaper on Monday. Ikram with Datin Rosmah :P not something to be proud of, but it is an experience to be recorded.visit --> click here...All newspapers gave wrong info, eithor Ikram Fakhri's name was wrongly spelled or his age was said to be 18 months. It's so illogical.. A 1-and-a-half year boy couldn't be that small..

tup tap tup tap dah 8 bulan lebih pregnant.. nearly 38 weeks!i'm telling you - those who never or have not experienced this - it's really not an easy thing. but i admit that what i've experienced is nearly nothing compared to many other pregnant women..

this third trimester (7th-9th month) really made me feel like i'm pregnant. LOL~ trust me, before that i still could run up and down the stairs and move about like i'm not carrying any extra load. but suddenly after 7 months of being pregnant, i started to feel some limits to my movements, and that limit increases from week to week.

anyways, last week i was admitted to the hospital for a night. actually i went to the hospital just to inform them about my baby's current condition, i.e. baby is currently breech, and also ask if it's possible to have an ECV done. it's a must to inform the hospital so that they'll be ready to 'receive' you and be prepared for any possible complication.

so they did some check up on me, monitored me and the baby using a machine and found out that i have mild contractions going on, although i really didn't feel anything 'unusual'. so they say i have to stay in for the night, for the following reasons:- baby's not yet in 'full-term', i.e. just 36+ weeks, slightly pre-mature if borned anytime soon- baby's in breech position, i.e. if contraction gets stronger they'll have to do emergency c-sectionso they plan to give me something to delay/stop the contraction. if it works, they'll perform ECV on me the next day. if not, they'll have to continue with c-section.however a couple of hours later there were no more contractions detected, so they did not give me that stuff. but i had to stay for ECV.

oh what's an ECV? it's External Cephalic Version (click to read more or simply google it up!), a procecure where a breech baby is turned by hand, while they monitor the baby's heartbeat and so on.. there are some risks that could lead to emergency c-sect *in the middle of my final exam days!* but after discussing with my beloved hubby, Mom, Mom-in-law n my sister (a doctor) within a very limited time, i decided to go for it.

the doctor did an ultrasound to make sure of the baby's position, and said that the chance of a successful ECV has dropped since they baby has engaged down into my pelvis, and also the amount of amniotic fluid is just on the borderline. but we agreed to proceed.

to tell you the truth, i never thought the procedure would be so painful. *but i guess togive birth normally is much more painful, eh?*.. the doctor simply 'gripped' the baby's head and body - which means putting firm pressure on my 1000-times-expanded uterus @ tummy - and attempted to turn the baby, slowly, but i'll not say gently. during that very few minutes i could just wish Mujahid was there with me. first the doctor tried to turn the baby anti-clockwise but baby only moved a little. then the doctor tried clockwise, but the baby didn't even move an inch.

"what a stubborn baby!" I you would say.. no no, he's just feeling comfortable sitting upright, i guess.. *even though it actually gives me a whole load of backpain* =P a mother's words are always prayers, so i always say "good boy, good boy, please turn". after the ECV, my whole body trembled, out of shock, i think. my blood pressure went up a little but everything was stable. i was discharged from the hospital later that evening.

now, why can't i give birth to baby in a breech position?mainly, the doctors said, it's because this's my first time having a child. nobody knows whether i'm 'physically fit' to deliver normally. you know, the pelvic bone thing and all the 'pushing' stuff, and so on..however, Dr. Kader said it's all nonsense (putting it the rough way). he asked my shoe size, i said 7, and he said i should be able to deliver the baby normally even if the baby is breech. you see, there's a relation between the size of your feet and your pelvis. many years ago, that's how midwives predict how deal with breech babies.but these days, doctors do not want to take the risk. they said it's much less risky to perform a c-section than to deliver a breech baby normally.. **cries T_T**

and c-section, even though it's very safe these days and the risks are so minimal, it shouldn't really be a first choice..

so, now i can only pray and pray and pray to Allah to make the baby turn, if that's the best thing to happen. if not, Monday, 12th April will be the date.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

35 weeks!today's 23rd march, and in a month time it'll be 23rd april!the estimated birth date of this little mujahid in my tummy ^__^

baby is now still in breech position, i.e. he's sitting upright instead of head down. this minimizes the probability of baby coming earlier than the expected date, but let's all pray that he'll turn upside down soon.. or a c-section would be waiting for me T__T it's not really impossible to give birth to a breech baby normally, but doctors said better not take the risk when he's the first child. hmm..

alhamdulillah last night i'm done with all projects and tests. oh, except for one more assignment to be submitted on 1st april. now i have to struggle my way for the final exam on 27th march, 2nd april, 6th april n 8th april. four subjects. all the best to me~~

Thursday, February 18, 2010

I praise Allah for sending me you my loveYou found me home and sail with meAnd I`m here with youNow let me let you knowYou`ve opened my heartI was always thinking that love was wrongBut everything was changed when you came alongAnd theres a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my lifeI`ll be with youI`ll stay by your side honest and trueTill the end of my timeI`ll be loving you.. Loving youFor the rest of my lifeThrough days and nightI`ll thank Allah for opening my eyesNow and forever I`ll be there for you

Saturday, January 16, 2010

we did the ultrascan yesterday. he was sleeping, but he suddenly woke up and we saw him opening his eyes! taking a peek of those who are looking at him ^__^ *although he can actually just see bright lights not people yet =P*

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

the final long-distance trip...a day before our departure back to Malaysia...

STONEHENGE!!

one of the 7 Wonders of the Medieval World ^__^i don't know why it looks so tiny in this picture.. but it's really not that big either compared to other wonders like the pyramids, great wall of china, petra, etc..

alhamdulillah it was a great and memorable trip indeed! and the farthest i've been from home :)there were, of course, happy as well as difficult times, and so many things to learn from and ponder upon... time management & being punctual, financial management, ukhuwwah & respect, and just so many more important values in life that many of us take for granted...

Monday, January 11, 2010

Ust Maszlee welcomed us and showed us around Durham town centre..it was freezing cold there, waaay much colder than London, Southampton, Nottingham or Sheffield! and Christmas decorations were everywhere!

nice decoration!

woke up the next day with ice frosts everywhere - rooftops, cars, window panes, trees and grasses, and even the road was slippery! it was -2 degrees celcius!

despite the coldness, we went out. Also went to the Cathedral where Harry Potter was filmed~