In that weird mental place again where I want to smoke and stand alone on the beach staring out into the abyss with music blaring in my headphones and poetry itching to be written down. Been ignoring most of the internet. Watching a lot of artsy porn and living for floral prints soft vintage photos and naked womxn. Rolling my own cigarettes because that’s cool I guess. Contemplating my tortured existence as a polyamorous queer and why I’m doomed to star crossed love interests and breaking hearts and probably never being accepted for who I am. Oh and wondering why when I finally have my own place I can’t stand to be in it. I’d rather be anywhere else most of the time. That’s probably a problem. But I’ll just get high again and think about it later. Completely aware of my attempts at escapism and probably unhealthy and addictive habits forming. What’s the cost of freedom? What’s the price of love? I guess I’m finding out. #mood #mood

Got myself adorned with some North African motifs over the weekend honoring my ancestors in all ways as I navigated teaching learning breaking down and growing. I watched as children danced and as elders raged I watched as a mostly-white gathering began the shift to become more culturally ethnically and gender-diverse. I watched ceremony be forgotten and remembered. I watched as uncomfortable conversations were had and change happened. I watched from within and without from the liminal hedgerow place I often find myself— part of the community and yet separate from it part of this world and yet part of the spiritworld. I battled with feelings of loneliness and not belonging alongside feelings of finding safety and family. I still am adrift trying to find my way. As it seems many of us are. .
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Spent last weekend teaching taking classes visiting with old friends and making new ones at @fireflygatheringnc as @awilda.wemoon ~ other than getting sick with a 24 hour bug I had a great weekend— shout-out to First Aid crew and staff for helping me out. Made a wooden hair comb and a deer leg bone knife and got to share my first mead and a few stories at mead circle. Remembering why I do what I do the lifestyle I want to live and the community I’m searching for. •
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Had a good turn out for my classes Gaia as Healer and Intro to Kitchen Witchery the latter of which along with my The Primal Womxn Salon Series will be available online later this year through the Awilda We’Moon Wisdom School at Teachable.com. Gearing up now for @emakumesisters gathering in PA in August~ •
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Digging my @thekosmickitchen bag and @fellandfair Ranger’s bedroll strap. This strap is amazing y’all it can carry my sheepy and a blanket together. Well worth it. .
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Plus side to working such a late shift is I get to witness the dawn many a morning. This morning I got home and sat in my car watching the eastern sky go from faded blue-grey to pink and orange then I crossed the street to stick my nose in some blooming mimosas getting pollen on my face and ate my dinner that I didn’t get around to at work on the back porch listening to a chorus of birdsong. I knew my kids would be up in only an hour or three but it is these little moments to oneself outside watching and listening and sitting with the world around me that can nourish me. That can make the difference between me being able to make it through a day with screaming children and less than four hours of sleep or breaking down by three o’clock and becoming a complete wreck. •
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I’m also in love with this second-hand dress it feels so soft and flows around my thighs when I walk. I’ve been singing more. Dancing more. Still behind on homework and house cleaning and everything else. But I get to watch the sunrise and steal kisses in the rain so there’s that~ here’s a song I’ve been working on. I’ll be recording it and putting it up on @queenofnettles . •
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“I wanna kiss you in the morning
I wanna kiss you in the evening
I want your lips
Pressed against mine
Every moment of every day
Your kiss is like a drug
And I can’t get enough.”
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Look at my babies grow. Pot o’ nettles in the front pot o’ echinacea in the back. Going to make some traditional nettle soup I think. •
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Fun fact about nettles they’re one of the plants that thrive on having their tops nibbled on. They’re like hydras similar to basils and mints in that when you cut the tops off above a node two more will grow from that one stem. •
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Also I uploaded an excerpt from a story I dredged up the other day over at @queenofnettles if you wanna take a listen and some new poetry the other day. •
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Gearing up for Firefly Gathering in just a couple weeks and I’m so freaking excited y’all. Who else is going? I’ll be teaching three classes again this year and hopefully bringing my first attempt at an herb+fruit-infused mead for mead circle. .
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“You saw a demon before you and thought to show it heaven. You saw a succubus before you and thought to love her. You saw a witch before you and thought to make her your queen. You are my sword and shield you are my rock and my home you are my godking.”
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So this happened. Finally found a set of teifling/demoness/succubus horns. I have wanted a set of horns for a long long time and now that I’m getting serious on my teifling spellthief D&D/Pathfinder/LARP/Dragohir/original cosplay character Na’ryn this was the hardest piece to get right. I finally found the perfect set in shape and size via an Etsy store called MudandMajesty. What’s cool is they’re 3D printed instead of resin cast so they’re super light. I’m going to be making ring bands that attach to veils to hang down my back from the ends of the horns for fancy occasions. •
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What’s funny is this is a look I have always felt like suited me and putting them on felt like I was finally expressing a part of my inner self. Exploring what that means more in depth... And yes my ear is naturally pointed haha. .
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🌙T E M P L E✨
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What do you adorn this vessel with?
What fabrics brush your skin?
What marks do you bear on your flesh?
What scents do you wear trailing them behind you like a wedding train as you walk?
What stones do you wear at your heart and your ears whispering magic to your spirit?
What foods do you nourish it with— juices dripping down your chin fingers sticky?
How do you arrange your hair your blessed Crown— tied up and away from unworthy eyes or in braids down your back?
What do you allow into your field— what words what vibrations what touches?
What does -No- feel like in this body?
What does -Yes- feel like?
How often do you relax your throat and speak your truth?
How often do you find your feet on the Path?
How often do you release and surrender?
How often do you turn in?
Honor this body— this spirit-vessel this divine earthly flesh this temple. Worship the Divine that is You at your own altar. Allow only those who wish to give offerings of gold and honey at your feet who See your Gxdhood worship here.
Do not turn from earthly pleasure. See the healing in pain and sorrow. Feel unconditional love and compassion for all things.
You are Gxd in the Flesh~
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L E T • M E • L O V E // A Poem
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I know I usually share my poems here and I shall this one but if you would like to hear it spoken aloud head over to @queenofnettles ~ •
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A new poem for star-crossed queer lovers and those who bear the curse of loving many~ •
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Let me love
Let me love who I love
Let me be free
Let me be free to love
You and her and him
All of you
All of them
My heart is flung wide
Spilling open
Pouring out for you
For them
For all of us
Tout le monde
Means everyone but really
Means all the world
I would give my love to it
I would kiss each lover’s lips
Like counting petals on a rose
I would touch each curve
Like walking trails on mountainsides
If I were but free
To love and love and love .
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I have been sitting with needed Bear energy the last few days and my mother who is in Alaska visiting my paternal grandfather with my father sent me this video of a mama grizzly and her two cubs that they came across while hiking Flattop Mountain trail the photo my grandpa took from the truck while waiting in the parking lot and they went up the hill where my parents spotted them and caught the video... Follow the synchronicities~ they will show you the way. .
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