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This book makes me weepy for a couple of reasons. It is represents so many possibilities and crippling fear at the same time. It used often for graduations but we use it for our wedding. We had a pop-up book for our guest book and today I’m looking at the baby book for one of my dearest friends.

How do you put into words the hope and support you have for your friend’s kid into words? I always struggle with this. My heart is full thinking of my friend-babies and cousin-babies and the potential that just is out there waiting for them. And what little I can offer in ways of a helping hand or support for their parents or them is there for the taking when it is needed.

There seems to be a growing number of people in my life going through changes in their life. For some of them it was expected to some extent, part of growing up. For some, while others may think it’s long overdue, it’s liberating and I hope a new beginning for life in general. For some it’s a chance to embrace life for real.

I’m most proud of a friend who is working on taking back control of her life and working through some crazy traumatic events in her life
I hope this is a new beginning for her.

How does an adult become involved in a community (online or otherwise)?

So one way is to just show up, but then what about if you have a nearly crippling social anxiety problem?

My personal social issues are not crippling but I do feel awkward talking to people I don’t know. Does that get easier with practice? I have classes with real people and I make some small tall but not enough to make a real friend. Maybe I should ask people more questions. How do you learn to care about a stranger’s life?

Over the weekend my friend in the hospital woke up. He seems all there, if a little battered and confused. He’s had tubes and been asleep for so long that he can’t talk yet, but seems well aware of what is going on around him. Since he does not have his glasses he can’t really see anything. He does recognize people (at least his family and his SO), and that he does not like the nurses trying to clean out his mouth – he clenches his teeth so they can’t get in. His SO says he smiles when they put on his ipod. there is still a long way to go, but being awake is a big step.

my friend Scott is in ICU. there is a woman also in ICU with the same thing he has and just as bad. his lungs look better and his heart is under control and all the things that should be happening are… except he’s not actually getting better. Now he has sepsis. all the things that can treat it they’ve been doing and it didn’t prevent it so I don’t know how they’re going to treat it.
Scott’s boyfriend practically lives at the hospital. His family too. The room they him in is so boring and quiet. all you hear is machines unlesss someone is talking and even then that’s mostly drowned out. they don’t have the tv on or music playing. if he is aware of things it’s got to be torture. the boyfriend plays music when he can but the family won’t let him leave an iPod playing when no one is there.
I don’t know if they’ve given up or are just super reserved but they seem very cold sometimes.

but there is still a chance no matter how slim.

this started three weeks ago as a cold. then it was pneumonia. then it was a trip to the ER and the next thing you knew he was in icu knocked out. all over 3 days. and it’s not a cool virus. the little bitch causes stupid shit like pink eye and the cold. it just freaked out this time.

I had my second interview which was really short. two questions and one didn’t count. I didn’t have any for her. five minutes tops. hopefully I’ll find out the final decison soon. this whole waiting crap is killer.

had to drop otherj’s car at the mechanic again. stupid break lights. so I’m at work early with nothing to do for 20 minutes. ok only 10 left but still. waiting games suck.

this week I applied for a promotion with the company I work for. they asked me a total of three questions. why so little?I answered most of the questions they were going to ask in my answer to their first question. one of the interviewers was scrambling to think of more to ask. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.
* I started this post on Wednesday. Since then I learned that the above was a good thing and the interview went well and that I have a second interview on monday at 11am.

this week a good friend went to the hospital with pneumonia. he’s in icu on breathing and feeding tubes. antibiotics are not helping. his body is not fighting off the infection. they have a doctor that works with infectious deseases working with him now and have moved him into a negative preasure room on case he is contagious. they may do a lung biopsy next week and are waiting on tb tests. at least they are planning on him having a next week

right now we’re pony sitting for my aunt. went to the state history museum today and may head into town tomorrow to check things out before we head home. I hope that next weekend we can have a lazy day at home with no running around. at least one of the days. we should also clean house soon. maybe next weekend.

Last Sunday 4.19.09 – we spent at least TWO HOURS looking at phones before I decided to get an iphone. TWO HOURS… that is way too long to be debating a phone. I wanted a full keyboard and a big screen (preferably touch screen). The phones i went to look at were less than expected. In the end it was between the blackberry bold and the iphone… iphone won because it was cheaper and will be updated in june to the the horizontal keyboard. Its taking me a little bit to get used to not having real buttons.

Thursday we went to the “This American Life” live event at the movie theater… it was really cool. Joss Whedon sang… kinda funny.

. Hiking ended up being an all day event that started out… flawed. It ended up nicely and like normal… but wow was the morning messed up.
1) We forgot our digital camera at home and did not realize it until we had already driven at least an hour.
2) We drove to VIRGINIA before realizing that I had picked the wrong freeway.
3) More wrong turns because I was paying more attention to the podcasts than to the road.
4) Its 87 degrees outside, we brought along extra water. I’m not used to so much water. I just got a bigger camelbak this year so I hadn’t had to carry 4 liters of water and an ice pack before. My back did not like this. The steep inclines in the beginning hurt really bad.
5) On the top of the massive rock there were loud annoying children screaming about how it was cool to throw things over the side of the rock. I hate people. They should have become human sacrifices but Other J would not let me.

After the new part of the trail we went to the part of the trail we knew we liked and were not disappointed. Took some pictures with our disposable cameras acquired at the gas station on the way, had lunch and a nap and the hiking trip ended well.

Came home watched some x-files and went to bed.

Today – Lunch with 1.0 and Jeff, ran some errands, took a nap, and now we’re down to business.