Friday, 16 March 2012

My Thoughts: Day 19 of depressive episode; All quiet...for now.

Signing off the last post by saying my
journey was about to get rough was premature, since the 13th
the downward spiral has halted. A couple of things have helped since
the last posting, firstly my beloved football club beat their
fiercest rivals thus completing a double over them for the first time
in 40 years, secondly I was given a excellent character reference
from a friend for a volunteering position and having seen it it is
clear they hold me in high esteem.

So those events have for the time being
at least stopped the spiral by giving me a good (if only temporarily)
morale boost. At the moment I am in limbo in how I’m feeling, I
don't feel good, bad or just okay, its a strange void its almost as
if me and the depression are in some sort of stand-off.

The next two days will be interesting,
tomorrow i'm expecting the result of my second assignment for my
course and the day after I will attending a selection day for a
volunteer organisation where I will be informed whether I have been
accepted to undergo training with them or not.

Two good results from
them could very well cut short this depressive episode or at the very
least give me some more strength to withstand it...two bad pieces of
news could simply plunge me back downwards.