English Hallway

One rainy day, you look across the moderately full coffee shop and lock eyes with the man of your dreams who is reading your favorite book, drinking a Red Eye with two sugars, and somehow listening to your favorite music (but you don’t know that, you are just assuming at this point)… However, not all of us have that type of luck… plus it’s not this fantasy world.

My best friend was the first person I told about this boy that I like… let’s call this boy English Hallway (I don’t actually see him in the English hallway, it’s just a pseudonym). And she was very supportive about it (I told her during the summer, by the way), then I told another friend, who has apparently known English Hallway for a while. These two friends were very supportive about me liking English Hallway.

Now, I don’t actually know English Hallway. I had a one word conversation with him at the ending of last school year (where I turned around, looked him up and down, gave him a slightly disapproving look, and then ending that whole exchange with a very curt “No.”). However, I do see him everywhere, in the unit with my locker, at lunch, and just random places around school. And as it happens, my best friend has a class with him.

However, trying to think up ways to talk to English Hallway (and coming up empty), me and my best friend asked the opinions of some of our guy friends. The first guy we asked said that this (having a head-over-heels crush) on a guy I don’t even know will end badly, even bringing up a past (and horrible for many reasons) experience… which was (sarcastically) great. The second guy we asked said that I needed to interact with English Hallway. The only dilemma there is that I don’t know him, period. And he has no clue who I am except for the fact I smile at him sometimes… (probably not even that though…) So, while the interaction advice is some great advice, it will be odd if I just walk up to him and start a conversation with him.

Another friend of mine told me to go up to English Hallway and say “Hey, I think you’re pretty cute, want to go get coffee sometime?”. One of her friends did something along the lines and the two people have been dating for sometime. The only problem is that I’m not that outgoing, which sucks, because that’s probably how easy it is, but me and my anxiety think differently.

Anyhow, English Hallway is in a club I plan on joining this year, so I’m hoping (not the best word, but I can’t think of a better one) that I will be able to talk to him when that starts. Plus, I’m also probably over-thinking things, and probably going up to English Hallway and asking to get coffee or something is really as easy as it doesn’t (to me) seem.