I finished midterms this week and it's all good! I ended with my skills assessment for CHA and Med/Surg and it wasn't completely bad. Vic and Nat agreed to go to town with me because I needed to get new jeans. I ended up going home at like 6/7pm? And we decided to go to USS the next day aka Thursday. Bad decision, because it was during the primary/secondary school holiday and we didn't remember that at all and it was so crowded. But we got our season passes!! The picture on my card is ugly as heck because I was so close to the camera, I totally should've taken a step back.

It took like two hours to get our day pass and then to queue up again to make the season pass. We then went for the 3D Transformers thing which is still pretty cool. I tried Cylon for the first time and I screamed the whole way through. I don't know if I want to try that again. I legit thought I was gonna fall out of the seat and die. I'm being completely serious. I was screaming "This is not safe" the whole ride. I was pretty traumatised. We had lunch and then tried a bunch of other stuff. My legs died. Even the "lame" rollercoasters were scary to me. I'm scared of everything lah hor, I still want to do the other rollercoasters, but it's a straight up hell naw to Cylon. I didn't go on Human that day. The Mummy one was scary as heck I died. I thought I was really going to hell. We tried the Accelerator and that was underwhelming? I thought it was gonna spin until I wanted to vomit but nope it was just good wind. I was like really sweaty and my skin was sizzling under the hot sun. There was a photo-taking session with Fiona/Shrek but the queue was closed because it was twenty minutes to closing time. We walked from USS all the way back to Vivo and had dinner at Fish & Co and it was so good mmmm I love Fish & Co. It was expensive as heck because it was past 5pm so there wasn't any student deals. I dropped by Candylicious and I wanna buy everything!!! But I'm a broke ass bitch so I just admired all the mouth-watering candy yum. Next door was Cotton On and I wanted to buy some chino shorts (because we're going to USS again next week so shorts would be ideal, right?) but then I felt shit about myself because I remembered my parents talking shit (or the ugly truth?) to me [it actually happened tonight also lol I was talking to my mom and I mentioned that I need to get a pair of shorts and she's like "your kaki tak lawa nah" like ok great mom thanks for this revelation, I had absolutely no idea] but yeah I guess I'll just go in jeans again and sweat to death.

You can obviously tell which photos are edited, and which ones aren't hahaha

I got home and slept after I printed my notes and showered and woke up at like 10:30 the next day. There was no CHA so I came just for Pathophysiology and I'm so thankful for Dr Z because I can go in knowing absolutely nothing and come out like 20% more knowledgeable. Am I exaggerating? Maybe, but I feel like I learn stuff and that's great. Class ended at like 3:50 so I took my time to get to Bugis and the downtown line is so cool??? I'm so jakun please ignore me.

I went up to Bugis Junction and then got lost so I decided to just walk back and wait for Sha lol he looked so good?? OKay moving on - I finally got to satisfy my Wingzone craving I haven't had it in forever and ofc I got my usual sweet samurai boneless chicken + cheese sticks and I can't decide which cheesesticks I like the most? Wingzone's or Pastamania's or Swensen's. I should learn to make my own. We walked around a bit after dinner, went to the rooftop (there's a dog cafe omg) and talked about celebrity crushes hahaha and then finally it was time for the movie but oh my god the cinema hall (is that what it's called) was so gross thank gOD it's shutting down for renovations. The movie was good? I don't know I liked the first two movies better or maybe even just the first one. Theo James was literal heart eye emoji inducing. We went to Marina Bay for the iLight festival after that and I was so fascinated because the buildings around were so big (I'm easily fascinated bc I don't go out much okay) and Sha made a ton of "that's what she said" jokes I was just like shaking my head astagha haha and it was really fun!! Super tiring but I don't care, we chased dogs (well I did) and took pictures and looked at the light instalments and took more pictures and walked around a lot and I tripped (but didn't fall) a bunch of timesand we went to the light origami thing which I really wanted to go to even though I got only like one decent picture on my phone. The weather wasn't totally bad too, it was quite windy? I was still a mess but I'm always a mess so whatever haha. We rested at One Fullerton and then there was this lady walking by us and we thought she was having a bridal photoshoot or what so she went away to change and then she came back and I nudged Sha to take a picture and she looked right at his camera and smiled omg so embarrassing ahhaha and turns out she was a performer!! Lovely voice, too! And then we had to walk back to the MRT station and he called me cranky can you bElieve it I'm almost never cranky (other than in mornings before 10am and when I have to do stuff I don't want to do) but ya I think he was like 110% done with me snapchatting and using the sc filters on his face hahaha sigh it was a fantastic night!! 😊😊 I hope it won't be an entire month again before the next time we go out?

The pictures are almost all blurry because the iPhone front cam is like 1.2megapixels and very shitty in the dark and okay lah I can't blame the iPhone because I have really shaky hands also my bad

oh my god I just remembered we were crossing the helix bridge and the floor had the nitrogenous bases right and I was just like stupid or something because at first I thought okay cool random alphabets and Sha said it's Adenine and Thymine so I'm like ok nerd and then it was C-G and A-T again and again and then it hit me and I'm like oh my god DNA and I swear he looked at me like I was the dumbest creature to ever exist [I haven't walked on that bridge since the photography club orientation camp in 2013 okay - but that doesn't explain my stupidity lah okay cool thx bai] So yeah the end that was a really nice night and then I went home and died

oMG THEY FINALLY KISSED - i'm at episode 4 of descendants now it's 5am I should sleep I really need to pee also BYE goodnight I'll post this like now and then link it to twitter in the morning?? Sounds good?? And by morning I mean like mid-afternoon xoxoxo

Hi. I finished my two hardest midterms which are Anatomy & Physiology II and Pathophysiology & Pharmacology and I don't have school tomorrow so I decided to blog!!!!

I can't remember anything because I have really shitty memory and also because my life is boring. I had all week to study for p&p but I couldn't seem to focus at all until Saturday night? I studied from midnight to seven thirty am and damn, it was productive as hell. I'm more of a night person if y'all haven't found out yet. I studied throughout Sunday but I couldn't focus until like 11pm so I mugged pharmaco till 4am? It was pointless though because today's paper was.... ridiculous.

Sigh I'm mad at my parents. Maybe mad at myself. I was going down to get the mail and dad just came home and he looked at me and went like "Why don't you wear more appropriate shorts" and I'm just like ??? I'm wearing my Meridian school shorts?? I know it's short af but it's SCHOOL shorts? If it's appropriate for school it should be appropriate for me to wear to go down to get the mail?? What drug are you on??? And what hurts more is knowing he thinks it's inappropriate purely because I'm fat. Nadia could wear shorter shorts and he wouldn't say a thing because she's skinny. It's such a sin or a crime for me to be fat and he hates it and that makes me hate myself (even though yes it's within my control and if I tried harder I could lose weight but I'm bloody lazy okay I'll lose weight someday sigh) and like twenty minutes later my mom made a casual remark about my weight and it makes me feel like shit. This isn't like a one time thing? She also says stuff like "Do you think ______ will like you with your body like that? Dia jijik tengok." Are they completely unaware of how it makes me feel? To struggle to even be okay with my appearance. To actively avoid reflective surfaces when I'm out just because I'm so disgusted by myself? I haven't been explicitly emo on my blog in quite awhile, I think. I'm sorry for this. I'm done. I've made it like a goal for me to be more positive and so far so good!! I complain a lot but like I think I'm generally happier these days.

Dear future kids, I will never never never make you feel unworthy of anything or anyone or make you feel less beautiful than you are or make you feel like your best isn't enough or make you think you're not good enough. I don't want you to go through what I've gone through/ what I'm going though.