It has been almost a year i kept my stories far from this site. Yes, as well, as the same thing i did, i just need blog whenever i'm seriously in tears. Nothing could be describe and share with others. I knew, people will say;

But, the quest is, will them ? Yes, some of them will and some will not be able to accomplish it. So, let me tell some of mine.

I've got a boy. I will always introduced him to my friends. But not face to face, i story them about him, how awesome my life with him, i told them he changed me a lot. Yes, from this to this, he's super good in telling and making stories so our conversation will fill with laughter and smiles. I met him, after a long period i'd been single. I never imagine that i will fall in love with him, A STRANGE GUY WHO ASKED MY BBPIN. He got a good and nice way to tackle me. I will never know whether he did it with reason "to have my heart" or it was happen unplanned. So, with pleasure, i just thought that he was the guy. He first stole big of my heart with his text ;

"Kau bodoh ke ? Kau tak tahu ke aku cintakan kau?"

True, extremely simple. But who knows ? Everyone got their own way and they express everything towards that. I do love him with FULL of my heart, life and he's everything to me. I know, he told me that he is not a good guy. He did this, did that.. but, he promise me to change. Well, he did. I am really proud of him. Hey! he did that! that's my guy! he'd improve a lot!

And i still remember the first time where he struggled to hold my hand. It was happened when we went a mesra mall, watched movie, it was Insidious. I am too shy. My face was red, i'm cold. But at last, i end up with willing to have his hand holding my hand and it such a wonderful day for me. He showed me that he was a right guy. Until one day, i was hurt by him. Little by little until i cant bare to take all of it anymore. But, guess, i still have him in my head. Deep inside my heart, i just have him, be positive, a guy who love u really2 tak sengaja buat semua ni. Maybe he stress. But my mind kept told me;

Deep inside, i whisper to myself, because U LOVE HIM so much that is why u couldn't bare to hurt him even u did. U cried EVERYDAY. yes u did hawa. Why ? sebab cinta. Kau tahu, u've got a lot of guys who tried to steal ur heart from him. But u remain stay with him. Have u ever think to be unfaithful ? never. Hawa, keeps ur head up! Think, if this is the best for u.. u know what u need to do. Out there, there are a lot of men u wait for u. U know that they are ready for ur marrige, so, decide.

I was about to cry when he knees in public and ikat tali kasut hawa. Ya Allah. Sumpah! i didn't ask him to do so. I asked him to hold my bag. But then, he went down and ..... alhamdulillah. Terima kasih sayang.