Started the new drawing…

Wasn’t sure on what to draw this time. Asked my mom to think of something for me to draw. Gave her 24 hours to think of something.

She showed me two different pictures. I told her, “Let’s look for different ones”.

We looked for an hour or 2. This picture startled both of us. But in a good way, it was a crazy looking image. Deciding to do this one, in my mind I feel fear. Just being honest.

Trying my best to not feel fear. Keep telling myself this, “Each line and sketch is the same as the last, time is nothing but a thought.” By telling myself this I don’t get nervous and I vision myself finishing the final product without giving up.

Sure, it might not be completed the way I want it. But who cares, I will still learn a lot, at least I’m doing something that challenges me rather than being easy.

Looking at this without knowing what it is might be quite confusing. My main focus is the detail. My mind tells me “Quality over Quantity.”

Now I’ll try my best to complete this. Not promising anything crazy, let’s see what happens. The main focus is detail. Hours put into this will be ignored, just need to find a flow to follow on. Keep steady and go.

Hi Brandon,
Maybe some well seasoned artist do not feel fear at starting a new work, but I surely do. Although I know that if I do make a mess of a painting I can paint white (or black) gesso over it and start anew, I often feel a kind of fear when starting a painting. With me it is the question: can I paint the things I want to paint? There are 2 paintngs that are in my studio for ages. One is a seascape, I painted the main item in it 4 times and still it is not what I wanted. And I wait and wait and still have not tried a 5th time. And the other painting is one of a big mountain and lot of fishing ships in a harbour beneath that big mountain. I painted the air, I painted the rock and I did start with the sea. And then I could not continue… thinking I would be unable to paint the ships as I want them to become. And because of that I am not finishing the sea. Stupid? Yes I know. It is good that you have started this drawing. Good you overcame your fear. You do make such very special and skilled drawings, so unique!Keep going on please !

I feel as if the fear holds a greater purpose. Instead of painting. More of the inner emotions fearing to be released. Not accepting the thyself. That’s just my opinion, makes sense to me.

If you really think about it, there’s no reason you cannot accomplish something.

Sometimes the obvious is hidden in plain sight. Ignored but very obvious.

Listening….

Seascape 4 times, hahaha. Now a 5th.

Big mountain, fishing ships in the harbour beneath the mountain. Air, rocks and the sea. I imagine it now, uncompleted.

Hahaha, I understand your words. Try to accept yourself more as a person and for your everyday actions and everything in life will come easy including the art.

Anxiety could be consuming your mind quite often, just a quess.

Like I said before the feeling of “fear” has been slowly disappearing as my image of myself has been disappearing slowly too. In a goo happy way, more accepting than ever to myself.

Just some advice I thought I would share.

Not sure why I thought this would be a good idea, hahaha. But all “bad” ideas turn into something much greater than expected. Just have to belive in your stupid self. Because there’s nothing there in the first place. Just many thoughts.

Thanks appreciate the kind words, really do. 🙂

Will continue creating unless something crazy happens in my life or life takes me. Otherwise there’s no excuse.

I’m interested to see what comes. Perhaps two animals, one turned to the right, the other looking straight at us.
I started a new painting yesterday. It will be God’s wings and a woman stsnding under them praying. I have fear about my background colors and style. I think I will like what I’ve decided to do, I paint it and then dislike it. Lol it is frustrating.
I’m just going to leave it for now and see how I feel when the rest of it is done.

Reminds me of Picasso. When he was asked why he drew, he said it was in his blood and brain. He did it for the art and not the public. I wrote a blog on the Great Artist. I will reprint it today. Give it a read and let me know what you think of it. Thanks, Barry