There is some community theatre around, but it’s all mainstream and musicals from what I can tell. I want to create new work or do challenging pieces, and I don’t know that there’s much of that in town outside of the University.

I just want to feel that I’m using my brain or my heart or my creativity at all.

And I don’t at work.

I feel like my life is ticking by. How has it already been almost eight months since I graduated?

And what have I accomplished?

I suppose living on my own for real and holding down a full time job for the first time is something, but I feel like I’m running in place.

I want to move forward.

But I don’t know how.

I get a sinking feeling in my chest every time the thought crosses my mind that maybe the job I have is the best job I can get.

Around here, it just might be.

I need to get out of here. That much is clear.

But to where? And doing what?

Those are questions I don’t know the answer to yet.

In other news, the D&D group I play with Monday nights has started playing Chore Wars. (http://www.chorewars.com) And getting XP for things like doing the dishes and feeding the cat makes the daily drudgery feel a little more exciting and useful. Plus, the competition and the fact that other people will be able to see if I don’t brush my teeth or clean the litterbox might actually keep me honest and the apartment a little bit cleaner.