ADD

There are many balls in the air, but I don’t feel overwhelmed by my workload. Not even close. It’s weird. Normally, I’d be all over the place, panicking, or so stressed out that I felt the need to bury my head in a book and pretend that “it can wait until later.” Which was never true. Not now, not then. I’m crediting two things, the first being the switch in my ADD meds, and the other being in how I have kept myself from jumping around and leaving projects half-finished. It’s been revelatory.

Adderall is no longer my ADD med of choice. It took forever to get it dialed-in, and the result was taking a 30mg time-release in the morning, with another in early-afternoon. That was what it took to get me to focus, and the side effects were horrible:

All my life, I’ve been plagued by an onslaught of great ideas. If you know me for any amount of time, you know that this is both a blessing and a curse. An idea falls in my lap, and I get started on the pursuit of that idea, and then while that’s underway, more ideas crop up and they’re interesting…more interesting than the actual execution of the current project. You could say that I subscribe to Shiny Object Syndrome, which is a hallmark of ADD1. One of my big goals has been to really rein in that crap, because it really does nothing but create a lot of frustration/regret/etc.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know. I’ve fallen back into old habits with minor nonsensical posts. Who cares about to-do lists and accomplishment lists? Yeah, me neither. What can I say? Things have been a bit crazy lately, and as a result, I haven’t really been posting much here. But! But things are evolving. And that’s awesome.