Sunday, April 29, 2012

That's it. My heart is not at peace. And it will stay that way until I'm through with our Final Swimming Practical Exam (which I'm not quite certain when). Why am I so terrified to jump?!

Do you have any idea how fast my heart beats when I'm in this position??? No, you could NEVER imagine. I got so scared to the point I couldn't hear anything else above my fear. All I could hear was a voice telling me "You're gonna die. You're gonna die. You're gonna die. . .", and soooo on. Even though I knew I was surrounded by more than one coach and as if any of my friends would just watch me die there and for God's sake! It's a swimming pool. Not a bottomless ocean! I am such a scaredy-cat. Maybe that's why they call me Ching (abbreviation of Kucing). Lol. Not funny.

Oh my God. Oh my God. OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!! I could NEVER see myself doing that! Not in a million years! Not even if I'm provided with a life jacket.

You know, sometimes I wish I could "invent" an alter-ego of me who isn't afraid of anything. Just FEARLESS. And name her Alanna. WTH am I talking about? One thing's for sure, when I have a child of my own, I'd definitely send them for a swimming lesson when they're 8. So that they wouldn't be as "hydrophobic" as I am now =.=

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Whoopsie! What's swimming and jumping's got to do with RETRO?? Nothing, at all? EXACTLY. Sorry ter-merapu dan ter-merepek sebentar tadi hahahahahaa.. Well, then, what's up with retro?? Here's the story: Once upon a time, blah blah blah.. blah blah blah.. We (Aquaculture + Marine Science students) have an annual dinner to attend to and the themes are retro, hipsters as well as smart and nerdy.

I think I'm gonna go with Retro. But if I couldn't find any retro outfits, then I'm gonna go with Smart and Nerdy.

Before going shopping for my outfit, I need some inspirations first. So here goes:

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Had ABC this evening (setelah sekian lama) and although it tasted awful, it immediately reminds me of the times I used to share with several of my schoolmates in SM All Saints eating ABC in the cafe in front of our school, especially after the kokurikulum session has ended.

Oh, how time flies, since then. I'd do anything to have those moments again T_T

Well, everyone has their own lives, right now. They've moved on. And so should I. Although moving on is one of the hardest things for me since I truly ♥ & appreciate all of them (Hey, moving on doesn't mean I should forget about those people whom I cared for and still do, completely. It just simply means that I need to accept things the way they are, now^^)

Sighhh I reminisce too much =.=

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LOL look at the time. I have midterm tomorrow at 8.00 a.m. and I am 99.99% clueless.

p.p.s. Haven't had any time for blogwalking. These past few weeks have been very hectic for me. (And something tells me it's going to be that way until the final exam. Bikin panas. Bukan pun student medic saya ni.)

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

My body is quite full of scratches due to the fact that I have loads of kitties and I ♥ playing with them even though the so-called "Playtime" will usually involve kitty-superpower-scratches which will later result in scars. Well, whatever, I'm used to it, anyway. What I'm never getting used to is when any of my kitties passed away and left massive scars in my heart that can never be erased. Last night, another kitten just left us all. Its name was Whisskass.

This photo was taken yesterday, several hours before it's gone for ever.

We'd taken it to the the vet, but it did no good. Whisskass could no longer walk properly (It couldn't even stand right) so I knew there weren't much hope left. I even thought to myself that death would be a much simpler solution for this little fella, since it was very heartbreaking watching it constantly trying to get up and walk but end up crushing on the cold, hard floor, instead. I mean, look at how little and fragile the kitten was. Sigghhh.. So it passed away around midnight. Rest in peace, Whisskass. I hope you've met your sister Loudy, up there.

Whisskass in healthier days.

Confession#84: No matter how hard I tried not to be one, I'm still a soft-hearted person. Which means I'm easy to start caring. Therefore, yes, I DO care about you. And there are others who care about you, as well. So PLEASE get well soon.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Today marks the beginning of our one-week holiday. Hooray?? NOT LIKELY. I still have tons of assignments and homework to do.

Not only that, I am also 100% penniless due to the fact that I still haven't received my scholarship money, yet, which I was supposed to get since, like, TWO MONTHS ago. Well, my friend's right. "Duit free memang macam tu". That sucks. I can't shop, I can't even go out! I'm gonna stay home for a whole week. BOOOOORING!

And to make matters worse, I've to (temporarily, I hope) live with this one (or two) mistake(s) I've made, which does nothing but screw up my life even more. Why why WHY do I ALWAYS forget to use my brain before making such crucial decisions?? WHYYYYY??!!

Oh! Forget it.. I've brought it upon myself and there's no reason for you, you and you to waste your time reading such ridiculous entry of mine. Ciao~