Hello Lisa. My name is Robert and I am a Los Angeles area Alcoholic. I am sure there are people that have never relapsed but I haven’t met one yet, which includes me and I have been sober since my first meeting. The only difference between you and I is that I did all of my relapsing before I got to the room. The book as a page plus on how we tried to control or stop drinking and failed. Both are founders relapsed after taking step 1. What we learned is that we couldn’t do it on your own. what it sounds like to me is all you did is prove you are one of us….welcome back

Robert
Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in pretty, well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out and loudly proclaiming WOW What a ride!!!!

your experiences as a person who has acheved long term sobriety are invaluable to other AA membersthe way you react to a bust is vital to all in AAfaling off the horse is part of the experiencegetting back on the horse will give you a new outlook and I can assure you no one will judge you as much as youare judging yourselftake a day off from yourself and go to a movie drive or long walk then just walk in the room sit down and smilethe rest will happen naturally

i know its easy to say but you will view the world with new eyesI wish you luckTerry