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A while ago I was on a Family holiday with my parents and nephews (9 & 10). One day we drove up to this little chapel hidden in the mountains. It belongs to a small monastry. I had been there before and wanted to take my family there, too.

As we entered that chapel no people where there. We strolled through the aisles, looked at the paintings, I stopped in front of the Altar, facing the Altar, I closed my eyes and started singing a worship song, it didn’t take long till I could sense the sweet fragrance of the Holy Spirit filling the room, I sang another song. After a precious time of worship I turned to leave the chapel and was nearly shocked when I saw the pews filled with people listening, enjoying that short time of worship. They must have sneaked in very quietly. As I walked outside some of them nodded there had with a “Thank you” and I was just thankful having been able to spend this time of worship giving them the chance to encounter God. After all they were tourists wanting to see another sight on their list of things to see. They most probably didn’t expect to encounter God. I didn’t mean to entertain anyone, I was just filling the place with worship, allowing Father God to love on those folks. I hadn’t planned that. It just flew naturally and I just had eyes for my heavenly Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. That was so precious!

I got bolder now, worshipping in public places – our praise & worship changes the atmosphere and allows Gods Holy Spirit to come and touch people. When we start worshipping HIM heaven comes down and HE works in situations that we have no answers for, all we have to do is lift up our eyes to HIM, lift up our voices and PRAISE HIM, love on HIM and HE will do the impossible, HE will bring light in situations that seem impossible, HE will heal & restore.

Sometimes it seems too hard to praise, that’s when we speak of a “Praise Offering”, I can tell a number of stories where I just wanted to cry, hide, mourn and be depressive due to situations that where too hard to bear, BUT turning to GOD in those situations and starting to worship him has brought healing – physical & emotional, joy, new life, love, peace,….

Be encouraged, try it out. God LOVES hearing you sing HIM your love song. It doesn’t have to be well known songs, just sing whatever is in your heart, you will be amazed about the well that’s opening up inside of you. And don’t you say “I can’t sing.” YOU CAN! GOD loves to hear your voice!

Did you ever realize how much effort we put in our outer looks when we first meet someone? Don’t we have a desire to leave the best possible impression about us? We dress up nicely, put on nice jewelry and make up etc…only for people to see the best side of us – making really sure that nobody sees those little “mistakes” we think we have. How about that pimple that wasn’t there the night before? Gosh! Funny enough I pondered a few times about trying out the Windex method? Never heard of that? In the movie “My big fast Greek wedding” Toulas Dad always uses Windex for anything. Yes, we do crazy stuff to show off, to wear the best mask we can. But how about simply being our beautiful self, not worrying if that one hair is getting messed up by the wind…if someone is really interested in us, they look for deeper stuff – our heart, that’s the “thing” we long to connect with – right?

As a teenage girl I always struggled with the way I look, my not so nice skin, my too much weight etc. etc, plus I was born into a Christian family, which made me think I am not “normal”, I am “different” than everybody else. I simply did not like myself at all. Then one day I came across the word “You are born an original, don’t die a copy”. I thought, “Right, that’s true for everybody else – I am weird.”

It took years for me to start enjoying the way God created me, learning to see what treasures HE placed inside of me. I was able to join a School of Ministry in Canada in my early Twens, little did I know how much that would restore the picture of how HE created me to be and how HE sees me – I now can say, He calls me beautiful. But that school was just the beginning of a long journey of healing. It’s not that my family didn’t love me or anything, they did! But the world so often tells us different! And we are so desperate to fit the latest “beauty ideals” and try to fit in. We are Originals! Each one of us! We are all “different”. Thank GOD for that!

God says to each one of us, “You are beautiful! I created you in my image. I, God Almighty, who IS beauty, can not create anything ugly.”

If you call yourself that or live according to this lie, that Satan whispers into your ear, God is hurt. So start looking up to your heavenly Father, let HIM love on you and show you how beautiful you really are! You are HIS masterpiece! His treasured possession! Ask him to show you how he sees you. You will be amazed!

The following is a prophetic word given by John Kilpatrick on January 6th, we believe this will be a blessing for you!

This year many of you are going to wake up and realize that you are outgrown of where you are. All of the sudden you feel like a bird locked up in a cage. You didn’t feel that way yesterday. You feel desperate to get out and fly to the place that God prepared for you. The LORD will open the door. You suddenly realize that you are prepared for more income, more responsibility, a different location, a change of address. Your clothes must be changed. Your name tag and your desk name plate also must be changed.

You’re ready? Its time! Even the devil can’t stop it, because it’s time. You are used to say “I can’t” But now all of the sudden you are raring to say “I go. I am ready.”

It looked as though things were over for you. You were sheered like Samson was sheered. You felt that your anointing was gone. But now you’ve woke up and you feel something tickling in the back of your neck. It’s a fresh growth of hair. Your anointing has returned. You thought that the Holy Spirit had bypassed you. Get ready, your most rewarding accomplishments are just around the corner, just as Samson was awaiting him.

Go ahead now and start rolling up your mat. Not an Angel is being sent to stir the pool but Jesus himself is passing by and you will receive your healing. Roll that mat up and get ready to walk. You’ve got better things to do that lay helplessly by a pool for the rest of your life. You’ve got things to do, places to go, things to say. Your healing will be both in mind and in body. You will need to be healed in your mind so that you can begin to see yourself healed in your body. Your mind has already accepted that this is the way it’s always going to be. But it’s NOT! JESUS is passing by!

This year you will forget what it feels like to cry. Your laughter will be so deep and so long that it will be like a release on the inside. That you will not believe that it was just that morning you were crying and lonely and in despair. Within 12hrs he turned your mourning into dancing.

Elijah is passing by. He’s going to throw his mantle around you while you are plowing the yoke of the oxen. You are going to burn your plows. You are going to leave your secular work. You are going to slay the oxen. You’re going to pack up. You will finally begin your odyssey in the ministry God has promised you years ago.

There is a mighty rumbling. It’s the hooves of Gods angels coming to bring freedom. Their swords are drawn and their banners are flying. Your enemies that have tormented you are getting nervous. They are losing their influence over you now and confusion has already set in. They are scattering. They are becoming like loose soil where at once they held you like concrete. Your enemies will leave bounty and spoils that you will gather from the battle. Not one shot will be fired. This is a battle the LORD himself will fight. Your enemies will scatter at the sound of the Lord of Hosts. This will be a sudden thing. Again I say this will be a sudden thing.

The investments you have made in someone very close to you will not be in vain. Those years of investment – prayers and intercession, the Lord is already at work untangling Satan’s web. That he, the devil has woven particularly over your son. The blindfold over his eyes is going to come off. He will begin to see clearly what he couldn’t see previously. He’ll see the trap that was laid for his very soul. When he’s free, he’s going to set you free. God ahead and NOW rejoice. It’s as good as done.

You will sign your name this year to papers that will unlock your future. A simple signature on these documents will be the key that will unlock many locks. It will be like a chain reaction. This document will now lead to future contracts. It’s your childhood dream.

A couple years ago I traveled to the States, the flight itself was already a nightmare. I had to change planes in the States, which was not unusual, the 2nd flight should only take me 1,5h but after all it took 8h, because quite a few things went wrong with that plane and we experienced lots of Godly protection but that’s a whole other story. When we finally reached our final flight destination in the middle of the night I was totally exhausted. This was gonna be interesting. After more than 8h in that plane we finally hit the ground, a Shuttle bus took us to our Car rental. Half asleep I listened to the instructions for the car and the GPS. I was allowed to pick a car myself, so I chose a fancy sports car – I thought that fits me J. It was my first time driving with an Automatic car and my first time driving with a GPS – FUN times ahead! Driving the first few meters with that car nearly clued me to the front window as I kept trying to use the clutch which of course did not exist J. But I learnt quickly. Thank God! The next challenge was the GPS. Theoretically one knows that you should never turn off your brain while listening to the instructions that friendly voice gives you rather insisting. The Lady in that little box told me where to go but she wasn’t aware of the recent construction areas near by plus learning to know how many feet away that one turn is when you are used to meters is interesting, too. How close is 300 feet with two turns right behind each other, which one must I take, the first one or the second one? FREAK! It was 2am and according to my Central European watch it was even 8am, so yes, I was tired, I was exhausted from the long journey and was about to freak out! And right there you hear that friendly voice saying “Please turn”. This ride surely could have ended in a major disaster if my heavenly Father had not sent us an Angel. It wasn’t that kind of an Angel as one would probably imagine it – consciously or subconsciously – with a white robe, blond hair and wings. No, most of the Angels God sends us look just like you and me, but they are send with a godly, divine order – to help and support us.

I had given my full attention to the tender voice of that friendly Lady in that little box – yes, it was my first trip with a GPS, it was all new to me, so I was really obedient to her instructions and took that turn on the highway. I was wondering why the cars from the opposite direction kept honking at me until a street worker stopped me with wild gestures. He introduced himself, “Hi. I am Tom, whats your name?” I told him my name and now emotions broke loose, I told him this was my first ride in the USA and my first ride with a GPS. He was super calm and friendly and said, “You drove in the wrong direction, I take you to the right highway, I take you where you need to go. I will drive ahead of you.” Wow! I was a Ghost Driver. Ever wondered what that feels like?! Scary!!!! God sent his Angel who brought me back on the right path.

“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will counsel you and watch over you.” (Psalm 32,8)

I simply couldn’t stop thanking God for letting me experience this heavenly Encounter. As soon as I was on the right way, he vanished. Yes, we could NOT see his car anymore, he had disappeared. Wow!

The Lord saw my despair and which kind of danger I was – there he was, right away! That was quite a lesson for me. Of course we should not get ourselves into dangerous situations, but when we are under his cover as HIS children he will not allow that our foot slips. He always has an eye on us, he doesn’t miss a thing! Hallelujah! We may be in the most dangerous situations, but HE is right there with us, to protect us, to help us, to guide us into peaceful ‘waters’.

“For He will give His angels charge concerning you, to guard you in all your ways. They will bear you up in their hands, that you do not strike your foot against a stone.” (Psalm 91,11-12)

HE is love in person; the truth in physical form; the way and the way sign in one and pure, clear, rich life. There is no one like Him, there has never been anyone like Him and there will never be anyone that comes after Him. Everything and everyone was created through Him. He is JESUS CHRIST, King of kings, Lord of lords and He has great fun living (and loving) right inside of you. Yes, that’s right! Inside of YOU! YOU’RE His glorious temple. You are the open Heaven. Light and salt of this earth. It is not part of the plan for your new nature to hide away and you’re definitely not tasteless…

I was astonished and perplex when Corrie’s small, but excellent Email reached me at the beginning of October 2012. The weeks prior to receiving her message I had spent some time with her via Facebook and Skype. I was able to minister to her with the help of God’s (Agape) love in my heart as much as she was prepared to receive. But it was not my intention to win Corrie for a love relationship.

We had been loosely connected friends for some years and had initially met each other during a Christian conference about the love of God the Father. We had met each other every now and then through joined friends and also online.

During the weeks prior to the mentioned Email I was just there for her when she wasn’t very well after her relationship to another guy had failed. I just offered an open ear and was one of her encouragers.

Our friendship wasn’t going beyond a chat from time to time and some practical help with computer issues. Well, that’s what I thought at least.

I was quite blind emotionally until October 2012 and I didn’t realize the good things that were coming up on the horizon of my life.

At the end of 2011 I made a comment to my Mom, that was meant to be a dry joke, but was also partially serious. We had discussed the chances that I’d bring some grandchildren home some day and I asked her to prepare herself to see me becoming a monk very soon. I think I left her quite shocked and hurt. I’m sorry about that today.

My situation looked like a one way street in my view. God’s overview was and is much better!

I had my first serious relationship between 1998 and 1999. The girl pretended to be a Christian, to do me a favour. I can’t really remember why we broke up. But I was definitely not ready for this kind of commitment at the time. A few months later I had another relationship with a girl with whom I shared some precious days. Todays she’s married to the right guy and it wasn’t meant to be me.

But I was meant to be married since May 2005. My then fiancé and I attended a theological seminary together and had planned to get married after the first school year. 2 weeks before the wedding date it all went pear shaped. It was her decision and I’m yet to find out the reason for it. But I’m sure it wasn’t easy and equally painful for both of us.

The years after that were years of pain and healing. I didn’t really long for another relationship of this kind and kind of got used to the idea of being single after a while. The flame of longing for a partner was kindled every now and then, but I blew it out pretty soon. I said to God, if there was to be a wife, she shouldn’t be German or from Saxony at all. She was to be a mixture of a woman coming from Asia and Africa. I pretty much made it extra difficult, so I didn’t have to go through the same stuff again.

2007 I moved to Wales in the UK. I was working in the youth ministry of a local church. During this time I also got to now people from a group called Emerge Wales. Today there are two groups called Company of Burning Hearts and The New Ecstatics. Both my local church family and people from these groups welcomed me with much love. A lot of time and blessings was invested into me and I’m very thankful to all involved.

2009 marked the beginning of a big physical change for me. I had suffered with back pain for a while and my local GP drastically told me that I had to lose weight otherwise the issue wouldn’t go away. So I began to do a lot of research online and in my local library to find methods for long term weight loss. I didn’t want any fad diets or short term solutions, but I was after ways of changing my eating habits and changing my life. Until Christmas 2011 I lost 143 pounds and kept my weight at that new level since then.

God, our Heavenly Daddy also used those 4 years of physical change to massively work on my inner self. Local friends have told me time and time again that my physical change also came with an improvement of my character and maturity.

Ok, back to October 2012:

I replied to Corrie’s Email and was careful to use the right words. I didn’t want to discourage her and wanted to honour her courage. But I wasn’t really open for a love relationship of this kind. Well, at least not yet.

So I made the suggestion that we would continue to spend time with each other and for us to take things slowly, one step at a time. I also wanted to take some time to chat to God about these things. Corrie thought my suggestion was mature and had no problem going along with it.

God really worked overtime on my heart during the coming weeks and on the 12th of November 2012 I had reached the point of no return. I told Corrie that I was prepared to enter into this relationship with her, under the condition that we’d both take this seriously and that we would have the aim to get married eventually. That was as much my thought as it was hers.

None of my previous relationships were formed in the way it is between Corrie and I. Within just a few weeks we won such a level of trust and emotional security, I can only stand amazed at God’s work. There are so many moments that we call our “High Five Moments”. Situations in which we realise, that we have shared passions, share thoughts, the same point of view about something, similar plans and many more shared things.

When I’m talking to friends and family about “us” I have often said that it feels like we’re twins in spiritual matters. We’re different in our personality and character, but in a way that we complete each other.

We’re now on a joined journey. We’re still separated from each other locally for longer periods. I’m here in Wales as God has called me here. I’m no longer part of the youth ministry, but I’m one of the leaders of the local church since September 2011. I’m also helping with the churches’ media ministry, take care of our church website, the Facebook page and our newsletter. The church is financially not in a situation to be able to employ full time ministers, so I’m also having a day to day full time job at the customer service office of the largest British retailer.

Corrie lives and works in the east of Germany. This situation isn’t easy for both of us. We try and Skype and phone each other as often as possible and also try to make visits.

I made my first visit to Corrie and her family around New Year of 2013. I was amazed and thankful to experience God’s hand at work in those few days. The connection to Corrie’s family was almost instant. I had a good connection to many of her relatives and family friends. Corrie’s Mom offered me to call her Mom, too. And I felt like I had known her middle brother Christian for years.

I’m very happy and filled with excitement looking at our joined future.

Can I ask you to pray for us? Especially during these days people in relationships need brothers and sisters that stand with them.

Corrie and I would also be happy to hear from our readers. Drop us a note if you like.

Tuesday morning I am off to work, I open the bakery door. A big terrible smelling cloud consisting of white-greyish fog hit me. My first thought within seconds was „Fire + Oxygen = very dangerous!“

I quickly went outside to take a deep breath – Praying. I caught another breath of fresh air and went back inside the bakery. The problem was:our big fat fryer. Obviously it was turned ON since Monday noon/Afternoon. Nobody turned it on. The thermostat didn’t work anymore! I turned it off quickly and ran back outside to catch some fresh air.

Took a deep breath, back inside, opened a window. Back outside, Catch a breath of fresh air, back inside to open the next window. This went on till all the windows in the bakery and the upper rooms were opened. After I had opened all windows and nothing burnt or exploded, i went outside and worshipped GOD with a loud voice! In this very moment the siren went off 3 times – ALERT!

All Glory to GOD: The Alert was not because of us!

“For He will give His angels charge concerning you, To guard you in all your ways.” (Ps 91,11)

After that we started all the cleaning – white-greyish dust everywhere and terrible smell. Afterwards all I can say is: Thank you, Jesus!