Sunday, March 17, 2013

I once wrote, "Suffering is not part of the human condition. It is part of the ego. Let it go." Sometimes (often?) I get to this morally superior plateau where I feel no pain. I'm in the flow of life, and I think this is how it's supposed to be (perhaps it is), but it somewhat disregards all the pain and suffering that led to that temporary place of enlightenment in the first place. A psychiatrist might call this somewhat bipolar, swinging from one extreme to another.

Today I see I am better off accepting pain over choosing comfort because being comfortable makes life appear easy. Life is not easy. It comes with a tremendous amount of suffering. For me acceptance of pain and suffering leads to the courage to make appropriate choices.

It seems to me that those who don't believe life is pain haven't truly loved. Of course this is a personal issue. I have loved and continue to love like a crazed man out of control, perhaps to a fault but all the while enjoying the feelings of aliveness that come from loving in this manner. Perhaps I could release this way of being and calmly live in love's pure light, but if that be the case I must first admit the truth of where I'm at. And the truth is sometimes I am tremendously angry and want the whole world painted black. So I must tread carefully about making absolutist statements, though they may be sometimes true.

I believe truth is here, now, in this time and at this place but also everywhere and in every other place. And so sometimes two deeply profound and seemingly opposing truths can be simultaneously true. But then how can one say anything at all about the emotional nature of existence or reality? Life would certainly appear to be here, but it won't seem to allow itself to be pinned down. And thank God, truly.

Are these just mood-swinging tangents? I like to believe some wisdom, compassion and empathy can be gained as we move through our cycles of joy and sorrow and come to recognise the true Oneness of all things, that everything worthwhile does indeed come from love and that it is possible for us to create a world in love's image. And perhaps we may even come to realise this is what we've been doing all along.

Monday, March 11, 2013

First of all I'm not writing here to attack science. I just don't like it being imposed on me as to where I am supposed to get my morals, meaning and direction for life. We used to have to go to church. Now we have to go to school, and for many people school is absolutely essential, much the way church used to be. Then they use their school indoctrination to explain the need for school the way a churchgoer would use their church indoctrination to explain the need for the Church.

Many rational thinkers today would never let the Church define God or reality for them, if they even have a concept of God or reality, and yet daily they take the word of science as truth. Certainly they argue these truths are temporary and open for revision as nothing is absolute, but nevertheless this ideology is the truth or as close as we can get to it for the time being. It's a model they say that works as we grow.

Of course the average individual is not discovering these truths for him or herself. For them defining reality must be left to experts who have been educated by jumping through hoops guaranteed to have them grounded in reason. Even interpreting the Bible for themselves as a means or tool for reality definition is unacceptable since for them it is riddled with inconsistency and is not based in science. Actually getting first hand knowledge from spirit guides through meditation is also not acceptable because this anecdotal information is non-scientific.

These folks are using an ideology that refuses to look at a large portion of reality. They are holding themselves inside a narrow world-view that will never allow them to grasp the mystical spheres of life, which could be argued as the greater portion of life. They call them un-knowable, which often negates faith. They have placed themselves inside a self-imposed prison that insists on trying to explain by collective scientific reason or logic that which can only be known personally by the individual heart.

Plus this model of reality that ostensibly works for the time being isn't really working. One in two men in North America will be diagnosed with cancer. Billions of people are starving in undeveloped countries unable to take responsibility for their hunger because of politics. And while scientists argue over climate change more people are dying. This model of reality has us in complete disharmony with ourselves and our world where war and conflict are rampant, and nature has become a force to be conquered.

This entirely rational and scientific ideology also leads us to believe this has all just unfolded naturally. It's just the way it is. Evolution they call it. Disharmony is apparently our natural state. My intuition and personal investigation say we have been manipulated into being this way, but this is discredited as conspiracy. Never mind that I have been abducted by aliens or have spirit guides, everything outside of this physical world is denied or labelled as some type of psychosis.

We need to get back to the Source, each for ourselves. We need to connect individually with our food supply. We need to get back to family networks and smaller communities united through prayer and meditation. We need gratitude and humility.

Any religion or ideology, be it Christianity or Scientism, can be a wonderful way to further build community and to grow spiritually, but to have any one of them thrust upon us is unfair to say the least. To have the homogeneity of only one perspective merely takes us back to the dark ages. So simply replacing Christianity with Scientism is an unacceptable and backwards proposition that cannot accomplish anything but more servitude. Our awakening humanity will not have it.

Personally I choose faith and my spirit guides and my awakening heart. I choose my family and friends, love and life. I choose courage and righteousness, living wildly and lovingly, making mistakes and amending them rather than living in the safety and servitude of conformity. For me life is to be lived not explained. Besides even if Scientism can explain the entire mechanics of life right down to the atom and beyond in either direction it's still an awe-inspiring and undefinable miracle.

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Intuitively I would think you couldn't make one single product that would appeal to all people, due to a diversity of tastes, unless of course you were able to dictate to the people what they wanted. Obviously our contemporary media are doing this, but who specifically is doing it and why?

Why all this homogeneity? Could it be in the best interest of most people to have common likes and dislikes and to fit into specific groups? Is it for the people's own good to be corralled and controlled unbeknownst to them, especially when most people do not believe they are being manipulated. Everyone individually thinks they are at least somewhat free, but when taking a broader look the corporate and media control appears obvious. Who then is being manipulated?

If you live in Canada perhaps the manipulated appear to be in the States, or if you live in the US maybe they are Canucks or oversees. Maybe only the poor are being manipulated. Or the rich. It seems maybe we are all being manipulated and shifting the perception of manipulation elsewhere. But again who is doing it and why? And are we asking, or are we simply acquiescing?

I Am

I have no other desire than to seek out and fulfil the will of God to the best of my ability. Generally that means telling the truth, ugly and subjective as that might be. For me it has been and continues to be a dirty and crazy journey and far from safe.