Dr. Dennis L. Siluk’s has published 72-International Book. He is a poet since twelve years old, a writer, Psychologist, Ordained Minister, Decorated Veteran from the Vietnam War, Doctor in Arts and Education, and Doctor Honoris Causa from the National University of Central Peru, UNCP. He was nominated Poet Laureate in Peru. One of his books, “The Galilean”, took Honorable Mention at the 2016 Paris Book Festival and received an award from the Congress of Peru, for his cultural writings.

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Sorrowful Reflections

Donkeyland, A Neighborhood Heart break

Sorrowful
Reflections

(1968)

During
these sorrowful reflections, which to me is a bold undertaking I have imposed
on myself for having taken advantage of the devotion I have for writing the
truth about Donkeyland, still rising rapidly in my brain like water filling up
once a dry well, is the following account, and now I ask the question, perhaps
it is a rhetorical question in that there is no good answer: is it better to have to done something—something
you have thought about doing, let’s say a desire of some sort, and have to repent for it, than not to have done
it all and still have to repent for it
for thinking about doing it? To a person with no limits, no discipline, and
no one to stop him, Plato would say he’d do it! Thus, the latter part of the
idiom, is possible under such conditions; and as for the second part, chivalry,
or just being a man of honor demands it not to be so, assuming he has those
limits and discipline, and culture: that is to so, we are not animals are we
not? So the man says: ‘Why not just do it, if you have to repent for it one way
or the other?’ And in this case, they did it!

In this case, two cases to be exact that
we are talking about, we might say we need to look at the mentality of these
men, but when I do, environment and intelligence, nutrition, domestication, it
all fits into a proper perspective of cultured men with normal if not higher
than average IQs — it all fits into proper ratio for normality—what went wrong
then? The question I’m faced here is the same question God may have been faced
with in heaven when Lucifer went against the traits within and among the
citizens of heaven, in what man thinks is the perfect environment. Did he not
go against the grain? Say I can do whatever I want to do? Who can stop me? What
was Lucifer thinking? Primitive he may
have been but supernatural he was with all the intelligence of the Universe at
his fingertips, yet he brought into the most holy environment, sin!

The gulf between humans and animals
is negligible, there can be little
impulse control, no attention span, no originality of thought, no power of
reasoning, to which are not capable of
sustainability in a wild undomesticated animal— in both cases in animal and man
it simply might be the soul which in man is eternal, and the brain which adjusts to culture from
primitive to advancement, but this isn’t the case here, man has advanced under
discipline and laws, and reviewed his limits, realizing without discipline
there are no limits. So now we are back in that so called unsustainable state
with the animal—but we are not animals as Darwin would like us be, and there
remains gulf between man and animal, we must call this case a phenomenon as
with Lucifer in the rebellion of heaven with the two thirds renegade
angels—regardless of race, historical
causes.

Most likely Boas would say to examine
epistemology, I have, which is the nature of knowledge, its presuppositions and
foundations, and its extent and validity. My conclusion might sound a bit,
lopsided: the difference in the logical conclusion reached by these two people
and their psyche: they live in an irrationality period of man, primitive man
perhaps, for the lion doesn’t even do what they’ve done. They live in a past
culture of the Magdalenian age an age some 20,000-years ago in Europe that
might tolerate such behavior, how they got there is another story. But we must
move on to the premise of this challenging work, eugenic failure, for with
these two offspring we do not see an improvement in humanity, from the
primitive, but a sliding backwards.

I am
compelled to tell you to assume a standing position as you read this account
complete, though in so doing here is another something to think about: the
first time was not the last time.

I have bethought these two characters, both
Washington High School Students, from St. Paul, Minnesota, who lived in the
1960s in Donkeyland, up front, and I write this with a harsh falsetto voice,
for the personages involved are Richard Z., and Tom F., I repeat, both
Donkeyland brigands, I could spell their name out for you, but I do not intend
to, although public figures in the past, they have worn their ‘A’ as in ‘The
Scarlet Letter,’ on need to belabor it. Their stories decree and defy all-wise
and impenetrable providence, or sense. I will tell you the end first, they both
with receive un-expiated punishment.

For Richard Z., he received a fresh
trial, after the first because after his father mortgaged his house to pay the
lawyers for his first sexual criminal investigation, and short incarceration,
let out on bond, and actually beat the rap, he went back to his old ways of all
things. As for Tom F., fortitude awaited him. Thus we can say the rats formed a
comradeship in their criminal actions, fast-gathering, and at the end of the
road, finding no other means of escape, no refuge, from one step to another—with
the impulse to continue their escapades, and nearly without limits, both ended
up in a prison cell with perpendicular walls.But
the horror they caused is indescribable in degree, and done in coldness, clammy
fingers, crawling and clinging to women. In their attempts to repulse them with
their sharp knives, a cold bite, inflictions, the pain and the wretchedness of
dirty sex. Alas, when they raped them
girls, women—and I use the plural, they tied them to their own beds, and the dull echo of their voices stopped with a
stuffed sock or rag in their mouths; consequently, they screamed in pain
silently.Then the choking, and loss
of air began, then came the first symptoms of asphyxia: as their temples beat
violently, and they surely experienced a faint sickness, death did not occur in
any of these cases, but heavy chest convulsively did, —accordingly we see one limit,
and that was because of the severity of the penalty, but should they have
continued, on this rampage, would it not
be fair to say, they would have been desensitized, and death would be the next step
forward to appease their hunger and desire, they sought? Something to think
about. Becoming the prototype of: Carl Panzram; who’s to say?

If they are reading this, they know who
they are, perhaps they are have passed-on, and long dead, and standing in front
of God this minute, for this was 40-years ago, or perhaps they are pacing the
halls of hell, with their kind. And I got thinking, why deprive them of this
little vignette, if those days are not yet gurgling in their ears, perhaps this
will bring it back. Just writing this I’m becoming exhausted.

As I was about to say, I once came to
the rescue of Richard Z., I had come out of my Karate Studio, on Payne Avenue,
and three guys cornered him, I asked what they were up to, “He was a peeping
tom, in my wife’s bedroom window,” said one of the fellows, “and we’re going to
teach him a lesson!”And
Richard invented a sad story quicker than the eye could blink, and I said to
the fellows, “It must be a mistake, he’s a friend, and he must have been simply
moshing about waiting for the karate session to stop…” thinking he was so
innocent, and I was about to defend him in battle if necessary, and they knew
that. His two arms that were seized, they let go of, so this was not to be his
downfall, and they told Richard, “You lucked out this time!” But he was from
our neighborhood, and I didn’t think such behavior was in him. How wrong can a
person be?

And then, to boot, when Richard got out
of prison, coming directly back into the neighborhood, Donkeyland, and drinking
with the guys, that that they cared for it, but overlooked it, he wanted to
test his new fighting skills on Larry L., also called Lou, the boxer of the
neighborhood, this was his second mistake. Lou sliced him up like a turkey,
limb by limb: the Dhammapada, has a lot of wisdom to say on this: “By standing
alert, by awareness by restraint and control too, be intelligent one could make
an island that a flood does not overwhelm,” also, “Engage not in unawareness,
nor in intimacy with carnal delight,” in both cases Richard failed, as did Tom.
And for the reader, “Delight in the …noble ones.”