Day: August 24, 2018

I am once again joining in at Five Minute Friday this week. I am glad to be sharing feelings and findings in a short five minute burst once again. No pressure, just a word and my words that follow. This week’s prompt is “loyal”. Here we go…

When I saw the word loyal, I immediately felt guilty. Why? Because I sometimes feel like I lack loyalty. This photo of the dog with the shoe in it’s mouth captures perfectly my feelings on this subject. I think I’m a very loyal person, but I come with a lot of flaws. Just like a dog who loves you more than anything in the world, but eats your shoes (or toys, or door frames, or furniture – just as general examples) every chance they get, I love God and my family and friends, but I can sometimes be found doing the metaphorical equivalent to stealing and chewing on their shoes. I always have a decent excuse. I don’t have enough time. I’m tired. I have so many other commitments. I have spent my energy on people at work or at my daughter’s school and can’t face using more energy.

All those excuses are real things. I am tired. I do have a busy schedule. I do have too many commitments. I do spend a lot of energy at work or volunteering at my daughter’s school. But, in the end, I have only myself to blame. I could go to church each and every week that I am home. I have that much energy and it usually fits in my schedule. Does it take energy for me to go to a place by myself where I don’t know many people? For sure. But, that energy is usually worth it. I could go and see my sister much more often. Does it require a drive and a half a day at least to do so? Yes. But, I spend half a day doing less important things. I could spend more time taking care of my house and cooking for my family. Am I tired? Yes, but not so tired that I could not cook a meal or clean a room.

In the end, I make the choices I make. I have to take responsibility and make the choices that are good for me, not easy for me. I need to remind myself that I am loyal. And although I am flawed, I can still remain loyal and I can do better. I can make better decisions and lead a better life.