Happiness. Love. Daily struggles. Reality.

The time is now.

I’ve been talking about our dreams and plans with a lot of people these past few days, and I must say, it’s amazing how many people are supporting us. I didn’t feel very well on Wednesday but I’ve done some serious thinking and talking and I came to a realization.

I suddenly felt like a spoiled rich girl. The fact that we can dream about this, the fact that we can actually make plans like this. How lucky are we? I should not be worried about little practical stuff. I came to the realization that I should appreciate my possibilities. Even though it seems like a big step for me, it’s an even bigger privilege to have the opportunity to take this step.

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When I was younger I already had these dreams but they didn’t seem possible. It felt like it would stay a dream forever. I remember when I was on a plane for the first time, I was 16 years old and I went to New York with school. I remember having the feeling like this would be the only chance on a big trip like this. When I was walking around in New York, I never thought I would ever be this far from home again. Little did I know…

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In the meantime, I’ve done some serious thinking and talking with my boyfriend, but we came to the decision to take the plunge. We’re young, we’re healthy. The time is now. We have to do this in this phase of our lives. I know some of you might think, “it’s just a trip, why are you making such a big fuzz about it?” But for me, it’s going to be the first time to be away from home for a long time, not having the safety of my job, my salary, my home, … Just kind of going with whatever life throws at us.

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There’s a certain kind of ease in my mind right now. Even though there are still a lot of things we have to arrange and decide, we know what we want right now and that gives me some kind of rest. We are doing this, and more importantly, we are doing this together.