my medulla oblongata

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Such a long time i've gone through this kind of feeling. And I almost forgot how sweet this feeling was like. I have expectation. And he conquered well the expectations of mine. Suddenly I feel

"I'M GONNA WAIT FOR HIM"

A very quick, sudden thought. And I promised to myself to never confess this. Will keep this as one of my spiritual strength. The rules here are still at the same grid. He's not medical student though. but I think, he can be the cure to my sickness, the eraser to my mistakes, and the sweetness to my life. I'm gonna wait for you. I know, this might sounds silly, reckless. But all i know, i like you and i'm gonna for you no matter how.

Take your precious time, find okane o takusan desu. Hontoo takusan desu! And we will live happily. Zutto ikitte na! Go prepare yourself at your best! And i will prepare mine. I will start behave myself...to suits you, to completes you.

No matter what, i will never reveal to anyone the person i am really into now. But if we are not meant to be, i just want to have a permanent memory of this. The sweet feeling. I don't want to miss any of this feeling so that I could tell to my childre. How sweet to fall in love with someone who didn't know your feeling. (The best part, I think he has completely friendzoned me). It's okay. Above all, i will wait for you.

Now, please listen to these 2 songs that I never gave to anyone because these 2 songs are really special for me.

ONLY HOPE - MANDY MOORE

LEARNING TO BREATHE - SWITCHFOOT.

Please, listen to the lyrics carefully. ;)

Sincerely,

ZAFIRAH TAJUDIN

Footnote; I'm not a pyschopath. But is this love? Because if it is, I think, this is my first love. :)