Becoming Angra Mainyu

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I’m back. I suffered 3 strokes and have a stent in the right side of my neck. I will write things down as Kesely and I recollect them. It started at the beginning of Dec 2017. I had a vision during sleep paralysis, the only time that happens. The way to describe it is to think of my house being protected by bugs that formed a concrete barrier. I could hear a voice says “This is St. Micheal the Archangel. Let me in.” Then he started to punch the wall from the outside. 5 times he banged on the wall, then I awoke from sleep paralysis.

I had to calm down. Then I got my phone and looked up what the Catholics had done at St. Joseph’s Old Cathedral downtown by the bombing site. They had a priest that did a blessing on the church. My feeling is that we were attacked by a group of priests concentrating on me. Kelsey could feel to be best described as a big snake move over us with the feeling of safety and that lasted about 30 minutes. I then the next day came down with an upper respiratory infection, ear infection, and pink eye. I kept doing family things as normal as possible but then on December 27th about midnight I got lightheaded and had a migraine and went to sleep.

On the 28th I woke up not recognizing where I was and not able to understand the implications of the bed and the nightstand. I immediately fell out of the bed and hit the floor. I used my left arm and felt around and realized my head was in between the bed and the nightstand. I called Kelsey’s name and hoped she would be here. Upon Kelsey showing up I guess she had called 9-1-1. I had been in and out of consciousness. I only remember parts of being put in the firemen’s sling to go outside then to the ambulance. I woke up for a short time on NW Expressway and Portland cause they woke me up and asked me questions. I couldn’t respond and I just fell back asleep.

It’s from Kelsey. I was staying in the ICU with him and on the3rd night I was finally dozing off and I woke up and took this picture. I didn’t understand until I looked at the image on the tv. It was like the upper half of Ahriman and his wings were in the bed where Adam was. That morning for the nurses he answered almost all of the questions they asked him and was responsive enough they said he had a nice voice. This was when he started coming around and remembering things the next day, on Sunday evening, he woke up and a harry potter marathon was on and he motioned to change channels himself. He found Spongebob and that was the first time he grinned. The right half of his face was still non-responsive and it was a half grin but it was the best thing. Then we found Austin Powers Goldmember and he was laughing the best he could and I saw him tear up and I asked him if he was happy cause he remembered it and he nodded. Later we found the last 30 minutes of Adam Sandler’s Big Daddy and when it was over he cried and said he wanted to sit up and get the nurse. So she was very happy with Adam’s clarity and will to get better and she moved the bed to a sitting up position but he could only handle about 5 minutes before he had to lay down. That was day number 4.

The surgery was that Tuesday. Herbad Jared came up again and helped with Adam’s transition to the surgery, which they had to keep him awake. That was the hardest part of all the different leaving the rooms for tests and stuff. But the procedure was successful and the Dr herself showed us pics from her phone about that before and after. There was only 1 percent blood flow in the right side of his neck, so in the E.R. on the morning of the 28th, they put a balloon in his neck and the blood flow got up to 30 percent. After the balloon was deflated and removed and the metal stent set up the blood flow got to be about 65 percent. To this day the tests and scans prove it still works and as proud of a mother I am it was almost better to hear the blood flow in that side of his neck for the first time as it was to hear all the girl’s heartbeats for the first time. It has only kept getting better, more movement and feeling able to be controlled by conscious thought, not subconscious movements.

Knathaith is the serpent wrapped around Ahriman. She becomes apart of Ahriman’s being after he arose to Jahi’s call in Hell. So, to back up the theory, Manasa (Knathaith) has been used.

Suarva is the commander of the Daevas. Since he owns the Heart Daeva that is why he is Kali Ma. And her leadership and verosity will show everything in her past.

Nanshait is known as the cosmic dancer in Hindu. He is known as Natarga in Hindu. He is the over the Throat Chakra.

Indra is replaced by Chinnamasta, who’s Hindu name is Paitisha. Her two servants at her left and right are known as Driwi and Dakini.

Aeshma reminds us of Hanuman. Especially when his story talks about when he went up to Ahuramazda and was, in response to his visit, knocked back down to Earth and that is how is jaw got broken and deformed.

Varun, originally known as Bala, is in control of the first of the Lower Chakras. The first Lower Chakra is known as Atala Loka.

Haraparva is a Hindu name for Shiva. He is in control of the second of the Lower Chakras. The second layer is called Vitala Loka.

Varanga is also known as Bali, who is in control of the third lower chakra. This chakra is known as Sutala Loka.

Zariz is better known for Chamunda. Chamunda is in charge of the fourth lower chakra, known as Talatala Loka.

This is Kapasti. His Hindu name is Krodhavasha. He is in charge of the Fifth Lower Chakra. Mahatala is the name of the chakra he is in chrarge of.

His Zoroastraian names are Manzana and Muidhhi. The Hindu names are Danavas and Daityas. They are in control of the Sixth Lower Chakra known as the Patala Loka.

Pairaka Knathaith (Manasa) is in control of the lowest lower chakra known as Patala Loka. Vasuki is the Hindu name for her.

The Supreme Ahriman symbol has taken on a few changes to help get across the Traditional Ahrimanism’s teachings:

Naga Manasa Pairaka starts at Ahriman’s feet and wraps herself around Him 7 times. This teaches us that She is the one that brings the Siddhis of Patala through our lower chakras to main Kundalini Chakras. It also teaches us, in our Kundalini work, we invite Manasa in and blocked Shakti and suppress Shakti from ever coming up the Sushumna.

Naga Manasa Pairaka is in the Naga form showing 5 heads. On the top of each head is a Jewel that lights up Kakola. From left to right, the jewels show are red, orange, yellow, green, and blue. These represent mastery of the 5 tattvas that make up reality. The spread of the 5 heads shows our version of the Crown Chakra exploding open when Manasa and Ahriman meet in the Third eye Chakra.

Ahriman Stands on the World, representing His stands against Ahura Mazda creation and to show dominion over mankind. Ahriman’s feet are buzzard’s feet. This is to show that He can indulge in death eating like an Ahura, with these feet on the world shows He is a world eater.

Ahriman’s wings were changed to dragon wings. This is remembrance when Ahriman took on the form of the Dragon to cause the Ice Age to kill the life on Earth. It also deviates Ahriman’s image further away from Zurvan. It also removes the Vedic symbol of good vs evil of the eagle vs the serpent.

Ahriman has the head of a Lion. This is a symbol of a royal king and fierce warrior. Ahriman’s lion head shows the highest level of Manas is attained. Manas in its widest sense as applied to all the mental powers, intellect, intelligence, understanding, perception, sense, conscience, will, in philosophy. the internal organ or antah-karana of perception and cognition, the faculty or instrument through which thoughts enter or by which objects of sense affect the soul; in this sense manas is always regarded as distinct from atman and Purusha, ‘spirit or soul’ and belonging only to the body.

In Ahriman’s right hand, is the keys to the Kingdom. This represents the Cosmic bodies of the planets. This is His cosmic chakras that affect all of the realty by the kingdom. The Kingdom in the individual minds and the collective subconscious minds aka the weave that keeps reality together.

In Ahriman’s left hand, is the Trisula. Trisula is the three-pronged sacred weapon of the Hindu deity Shiva. In a general sense, the trisula represents the deity in his three aspects of Creator, Preserver, and Destroyer. Its three prongs represent the various triplicities in Shaivism (Shiva worship), including the three principles of pasa (Lordship, the divinity of Shiva), pasu (man’s base animal nature), and pasa (bondage, including illusion and karmic debt) central to Shaivite doctrine. The three also represent the three shaktis (powers): will, action, and wisdom, and the three main nadis (energy channels) ida, pingala, and shushumna, which allow kundalini energy to travel through the chakras. The Damaru Drum on the trisula is Shiva drum:

Shiva is believed to be the progenitor of all sounds, languages, music, and vibrations in creation. The damaru symbolizes his connection with them. The two triangles in the damaru represent the Purusha and Prakrithi, and their union, which results in creation (srushti), movement (chaitanyam), speech (vac), and sounds (shabda). When they are separated, everything comes to a standstill, and the mind lapses into total silence.

Damaru also symbolizes Jiva, the embodied soul, who is helplessly caught in the play of Shiva and moves according to his will and force. He is active as long as Shiva moves his hands but goes into rest when he is withdrawn. The two triangles in the damaru represent the mind and the body, while the chord represents the twin states of birth and death, to which it is bound. Just as the being is bound to the cycle of births and deaths, the damaru is bound to the chord. We understand that much of Zoroastrian demonizing Shiva was what created the Devil, Ahriman.

Since we are on the topic of Shiva, where does he fit into Traditional Ahrimanism? Per Zaehner, Naonhaithya (or as we call him Nanshait), is the form of Shiva called Bhairava. This goes back where Bhairava beheads Brahma’s 5th because Brahma was lusting after his own daughter. So, Brahma forced Bhairava to the mortal realm with the skull of that 5th head attached to Bhairava hand. Bhairava was forced to be an ascetic and to use that skull as a begging bowl, drinking bowl, eating bowl, and other vessels. Bhairava was not allowed to have sex, but he did. Bhairava’s penis fell off after the act, thus creating the lingam. This story is where a lot of Tantra Shiavism come from to into the Kapalika branches: Kaula, Trika, and Aghori.

In Traditional Ahriman, Nanshait aka Shiva is the Daeva of the Throat Chakra. This makes Nanshait the champion of evil speech. The creator of sound and vibration, took it upon himself to swallow the poison left by the turning of the sea. It killed Him, and it took Mother Manasa to resurrect Shiva by taking half of the poison and filled Her empty eye socket and gave the rest to the noxious creatures of the Earth. Before Shiva died, the poison got stuck in His throat. The poison became evil speech.

Just as the Ashema Spenta are extentions of Ahura Mazda, so are the Daeva extensions of Angra Mainyu. Nanshait is throat chakra of Ahriman and is one the Daeva that plague on mankind that causes dissatisfaction against Ahura Mazda. Thus evil speech, blaspheme of freedom is said in woe. It’s the poison or medicine that created evil speech that begins our freedom from god and puts on the serpentine path of Manasa Kundalini that leads us the great liberator, the Supreme Ahriman.

Majority of modern Occult comes from Madame Blavatsky. She can be seen as a voice to ushered in Tibet Tantric practices into the Western Occult. You see this through the continuation of Rudolf Steiner as the main front man for Theosophy. Also, throughout Nazi German, Tibetian Monks where found vibrating mantras to protect classified sites and religious artifacts that Himmler was acquiring. These practices come from Bardo Thodol or The Tibetan Book of the Dead.

Tibetan Book of the Dead is that culture’s version of the MahaNirvana aka Hindu Tantric book The Great Liberation. Bardo Thodol means, Liberation Through Hearing During the Intermediate State. Buddhism and Hinduism have a different understanding of the reincarnation cycles. Buddhism sees Bardo as a place between the reincarnation cycles of death and rebirth where the individual plans out their next birth. In Hindu, if your religious merit outweighs your negative karma, you will spend a determined time in the Loka of the Deva that you are devoted to. If your bad karma outweighs your religious merit, then you spent in the Nether Realm until the jiva purified.

The Intermediate State is the state of jive while in Bardo. This why the monks are found technically both dead and alive. If they meditation to get their mind and jiva contained inside the body that is physical preserve state, then they have Liberated themselves from the reincarnation cycle. In the MahaNirvana, similar meditation techniques are used but with different goals in mind. That is meditation in the void or nothingness in the mind. Dhyana Meditation requires great concentration, but first, the mind settles into No-Mind.

This state of mind is when stillness on the mind is attained, which is after a round japa of a mantra. The Buddhist use this hollow state of mind to confront the negative side of their personality to find inner happiness. In Hindu Tantra, they move into Dhyana. This type of practice was a major change brought on by the Bhagavad Gita, and is an internal visualize meditation that you worship the deity while chanting mantra on a mala. The mala is offered to the deity and if its the goddess one normally then lays on the belly and say their desires. It is a god, pranayama is done to bring the knowledge of the God into the jiva.

So, what is the point of understanding these 2 different types of Liberations? This is where Western Occultists start blurring the lines of the spider web. Buddhism takes on the understanding that each person is responsible for themselves and don’t rely on the Gods to be responsible for them. Just as the Buddhist sees the different Buddhas or Gods as a symbol of evolvement to become like, the Hindu wants to become like the God they worship by gaining knowledge of. This is a reflection in Western Left Hand Path of Atheist vs Theist. From here, it all goes to shit.

Now you got Blavastky, Steiner, Himmer, Crowley, Mathers, and etc mixing together all aspects of the occult into Hermeticism and Gnosticism. The great cauldron has created a poisonous soup where all these great wisdom become one. The understanding of Good and Evil no longer exists and the duality is dissolved into a crazy fucked atheistic monotheism of righteous self-worship. This is how attainment of Liberation of the birth cycle (Vamachara) to Left Hand Path (Western Occultism). Then along came Lavey, who blurred the lines even more.

Satan is a Jewish/Christian concept that has nothing to do the attainment of Liberation from the rebirth cycle. Per Lavey, there is no afterlife, which means no need for devotion just self-service. Again, here the lines of good and evil get blurred again. Then from there, Luciferianism then become Gnostic Luciferian. The final topping is the lessons taught Carl Jung to influence the mess even farther into the atheistic monotheism of righteous self-worship.

The most important tether that must be cut, is the I am. The ego of the I am is 1 part of the illusion or ignorance known as Maya. Started with a religious formula that Liberates one from the rebirth cycle to atheistic monotheism of righteous self-worship with no afterlife. Religiously and Spiritually dead, all in the name of an ego defense of not being able to accept that the individual is evil. As above, so below is all connect to ego defense known as righteousness. Until I am, become I am He and I am She, no attainment of Liberation will even be found.