How did I get here

Its been such a long hard week and im just wondering how the hell I got to where I am now without going insane!!!!

This time last week we had no idea as to what would happen,I guess no one does know.I have been trying to keep myself strong for everyone around me who was breaking down,by keeping myself as together as I could and I have no idea as to how the fuck I did it,but I did.I guess im just confused or maybe it hasn't quite sunk in yet.