Some of my favorite bloggers have said goodbye and/or have deleted their blogs altogether. Some of the links are no longer working. I want to write a big THANK YOU – you pulled me out of my misery at one time and made me forget about my worries. Most importantly, YOU inspired me to create my own blog.

I knew Tony Leung from “Infernal Affairs” (which was the basis of Martin Scorsese’s “The Departed”). He was also in “2046” and “In the mood for Love”, both of which I have not yet seen. He is a “friend” in Facebook so I can see updates on his timeline. He posted a picture from the movie “Happy Together (1997)” as a milestone. It showed two almost-naked men on a bed so naturally I got curious. I downloaded then watched the movie. I was not prepared for the utter cinematic beauty the film had to offer. I was so blown away, literally and figuratively.

It was about two gay men, Lai and Ho (played by Tony Leung and Leslie Cheung, respectively) who left Hong Kong to go to Argentina. They were lovers who were in a passionate and destructive relationship with each other – Lai was a simple guy who wanted nothing but to take care of Ho. Ho, on the other hand was a wild child although I could sense that he also loved Lai very much. The film revolved around the ups and downs of their relationship. I am not going to write how the story ended but needless to say, it was a very heart warming and gut wrenching film. The emotions it aroused was so raw – the arguments they had, the stares in between, the phone conversations – I was so moved. I loved the parts where Ho would wake Lai up or just come to him to ask for his attention. Ho really needed Lai so much but could not seem to get things right. I especially loved the rooftop scene where Ho spilled some water on Lai’s back and then hugged him from behind and kissed his back like he was drinking the water he just spilled. I really love this movie.

Pleasing to the eyes, smart and confused. I did not know he has a girlfriend when I was flirting with him. I thought he was only being nice by reciprocating my messages but when I found he has a girlfriend, I stopped. But he would not. So I invited him out to dinner and the rest as they say, was history. I loved having sex with him — he kissed really good and his moans blew my mind. The lines of communication are still open so we’ll see if he will be part of my 2012.

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J

He’s very sweet, very smart and very hardworking — a great catch in my book, until he confessed to having a girlfriend in the states before he left for a short trip abroad. I felt something was wrong prior to him leaving but I decided to throw caution to the wind because I thought he would not mess with me since he pursued me for quite a long time. When I felt ready to be in relationship again, that was when shit started to happen. I said goodbye because I couldn’t forget the lies he told me. He started texting me again last month. He still doesn’t know what he wants from me even if I kept prodding him for reasons to meet. He told me that sometimes, he needed to be told what to do. Who doesn’t? Was he pressured to act ‘mature’ while he was with me? I will find out because we will meet soon.

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D

Good guy. Too good I should say because he just wouldn’t make a move. Maybe he did one time make a move but I was not having it because I was not feeling him at that time. I asked him out for dinner another time but I was not sure if he was getting any of my hints as I could be vague sometimes. Lately, he has been sending me flirtatious text messages complete with “mwah”, “tsup”, “:*”, etc. Hopefully he will grow some balls soon and take charge. Nothing turns me on better than a tall mestizo chinito guy who takes charge.

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J the original

The ex. We were together for almost two years. We broke up almost two years ago but kept in touch over FB and SMS. He kept telling me that he would come over one of these days but that took forever so whenever he would say it again I did not expect anymore. I wanted to see him, see how he’s doing, how he looks like. He finally came over last Christmas day and spent the day with me in the house. It felt like home — us together watching tv on the couch, his head on my lap. We headed to my room eventually. I was reading him Chico and Delamar’s book of top ten’s when he wrapped his legs around me. He kept getting closer and closer. I had to put the book down and return the favor. We made love just like the old times. I was, am glad we made love. I needed to feel it again with him.

We exchanged a total of one text message since it happened. I think we are now in an awkward period. Hopefully he reaches out before the year ends.

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Four boys that I really liked for 2011. Not bad. I did not include the one night stands anymore. You can visit another blog for those kind of entries.

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To end this post, I would like to share this song by Christina Perri. The title of the song is “a thousand years”. I discovered it while watching a vimeo video of a marriage proposal using internet memes.

The proposal was awesome and well executed. When I looked up the original video of the song, I almost puked! It was from “Breaking Dawn” LOL! I never liked the series so I was not surprised that I never got to know the song! But then again, a good song is a good song and this song is good in my emo book.

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I might not be able to post before the year ends so I am taking this opportunity to thank all the people who visited my blog (naks, my blog hehehe). Thanks for taking the time to read through my entries (more like ramblings). Special thank you to those who took time to post their comments. Thank you very much! 🙂