Are You Normal?

I torture myself with cuddles

I’m very sensitive and absolutely obsessed with hugs and cuddles. Whenever I don’t get someone at least hugging me or petting my head once a day I get extremely sad and angry. Sometimes I’ll deliberately keep myself from getting hugs just to torture or punish myself. It hurts a lot but it’s strangely addicting, like I get pleasure out of being sadistic towards myself. Is this normal?