A black hole is what I saw in my future. As a 21 year old young man, it’s absolutely depressing to not know what your future holds. It was even more shattering to see a black hole, a future without any light.I desperately needed someone to interrupt my journey into this black hole. I needed help! Out of nowhere I kept hearing about an organization I had never heard about, YWAM. I took a leap of faith and signed up to do a DTS to see if somehow I could reconcile the predicament I was in.

I met the “I AM”.

In the six months of my DTS I saw God in a new paradigm, saw Him up close. It was a moment of enlightenment of who He was and how He sees me. I saw Him as a father. I saw Him as a shepherd. I saw Him as a friend with whom I could communicate my heart with, who is willing to listen and talk to me.

I met myself.

I found myself for the very first time. I always lived according to other’s expectations, and let situations and my past define me and where I was headed in life. I began seeing a version of me that I never saw before. I saw the original design that God had in mind when he created me. I was set free! I saw the world in a new light, saw opportunities to make a difference, to live, not just to exist.

I met friends for life.

All of this happened in the context of a community. I had people who did not see me for who I was in the moment but rather who I could be. They knew my story and believed in me, which helped propel me towards what God had for me. It was no longer me fighting alone, I had an army behind me.I didn’t know what my future was holding, but I knew Who was holding my future. I saw Jesus in my future. That is all I needed.Psalms 119: 105 says, “Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.” In those days, they would tie a lamp to their feet when they walked in the dark. The lamp only had enough light for one step at a time. That’s all they could see ahead.

All I need to know is the next step, and to be faithful to obey Him in that next step.