Monday, February 23, 2009

My parents and sister are OBSESSED with 24. I would like to get involved in watching it but......it is TOOOOOO intense to handle. My parents and sister are watching the show right now and it's really intense. I could not handle watching this every week. I would have to watch the entire season in one sitting. I don't think that I would even be able to take a bathroom break.

I've got my mom and sister to watch Charmed! Missee already liked it but my mom resisted. We finally got her to watch the show and she's actually kind of enjoying it so far. We are currently in the middle of the third season. Only half a season left before Prue dies....... I really didn't like the character of Prue as much as Phoebe and Piper. I love the show though, and wish it wasn't over.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

I had a good weekend with Steve. He's getting better everyday. We were able to see Tim (Steve's brother-in-law), Carrie (Steve's sister) and Daniel (Tim and Carrie's son). Steve had so much fun playing with Daniel. He was so cute with Daniel and Daniel was sad when we left. It made Steve miss his son Hunter even more.

I don't want to work tomorrow, but unfortunately I have to. I hate waking up early, I am such a night owl that I hate waking up so early. Hopefully work will go by quickly tomorrow.

Friday, February 20, 2009

Steve gets to come home for an overnight visit tomorrow! I am so excited, I just wish that he was coming home for good, but I know that he's not ready t come home yet. Soon, but not yet.

I had dinner at Roosters with Brad, Camille, Barbara, Carrie, Tim and Daniel. It was really nice and I had a lot of fun with them. I just wish Steve could have been there. Daniel is so cute, he kept asking for a cheeseburger and then when he finally got it he ate the pickles and a few fries. He's over 2 years old, but he looks and talks like he's 3 years old.

Our Christmas tree is still up and I'm thinking Steve and I will take it down on Sunday. I wanted to keep it up until Steve came home and we could have Christmas with Hunter but I think it's time for it to come down. I'll miss the tree but it's time.

I got our Tax refund deposited today! I used the ENTIRE amount to pay down the credit card. We were thinking we were going to get more money back, but we got less than expected. At least we have a lower balance on the card. It is much better to pay down the card and have less interest than to use the refund for something fun and impractical. Oh well.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

At my work, just outside the office on the second, third and fourth floors are these notice boards. They post the open positions, any news that the company feels that we need to know and some different things that give interesting information on different things. I noticed yesterday they have a new notice on the board that is to inform everyone to keep a good look out for anyone in the work area that doesn't belong. It says: "There have been times at other workplaces where people suffering from delusions and other types of mental illnesses have wreaked havoc through threats and violent acts including multiple homicides. They sometimes appear anxious, paranoid or in a rage. Other times they may appear calm and look perfectly normal."

WHAT THE HECK??????????????

I am so ticked off about this notice. They make it seem like everyone with a mental illness is dangerous and capable of murder. I know a lot of people who have mental illnesses, and I mean A LOT, and none of them are dangerous. Even if they have paranoia it doesn't make them violent. Many people with mental illnesses actually withdraw from the world and are the least likely people to become violent.

I HATE THE STIGMA OF MENTAL ILLNESS!!!!!!!!

People need to become educated on mental illness. Yeah some people with mental illnesses can become violent, but saying most of them are is like saying "All criminals are guilty" or "All Blondes are dumb". That simply is not true and I wish people would get more involved with learning about mental illness and stop being so scared of it.Want to know more about mental illness? Go to www.nami.org

I am soooo not a morning person! I wish I was since I have to be to work by 8 everyday (Monday through Friday). I wish I wasn't such a night owl, it would be so much easier to get up for work the next morning if I went to bed at a decent time.If I was at my house I most likely would go to sleep much earlier, but at my parents house with all the chaos and because I'm sleeping on the couch in the living room, it's difficult to go to sleep as early as I need to. I'm thinking of going to my old room to sleep since it's in the basement and would be much quieter and would make sleeping earlier a lot easier.I wish I could go back to sleep...........

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Tonight's Family-to-Family class was awesome, even though the class was really small. I really enjoy the class. It's a nice place to vent and talk about my feelings with Steve's mental illness and at the same time learn more about mental illness in general. It was a lot of fun.

I'm actually getting caught up at work. It has been almost 2 years since I felt like I was caught up at work. With so many people appealing lately, we have been bogged down with appeal cases. I am really enjoying work right now since I am feeling accomplished when I leave. I used to feel that I was just shuffling work around and not really getting anything done.

Missee and I started watching Charmed together. I have all 8 seasons on DVD and so far we have watched all of the first season and only have a few episodes left in the second season. It's so much fun to watch the show with Prue and to see how much Piper and Phoebe have changed since the beginning of the series. Phoebe had changed so much since the first season. She was always dressing frumpy and not cute. Luckily she changed her style and started wearing much cuter outfits later on. I LOVE CHARMED!!!!! That is still my favorite tv show of all time. I think I started liking the show much better after Prue left. I'm not a big fan of Shannen Doherty so Prue was my least favorite character. If you live near me and haven't seen Charmed, or you also love the show Charmed I can always bring my DVD's of the show over.........I love watching the episodes, even if I've seen them multiple times.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Why am I still up? I have to get up at 6 for work tomorrow and so I should have been asleep a few hours ago. I am having a hard time going to sleep lately, but not much of a problem staying asleep. I would like to take something to sleep, but refuse to take something that I could possibly become addicted to. I have never abused drugs (legal or illegal) and I don't want to start now.I normally like anniversaries but in about 22 days it will be an anniversary of something I wished had never happened. I'm thinking I might take that day off work so I wont have to worry about crying all day. I wish that no one ever had to go through losing a baby, but unfortunately a lot of women do. My mom lost a baby when she was about seven months pregnant. There was no reason for the death of my sister. When she was delivered (stillborn of course) my mom said she looked like a normal baby. Why did she die then? Why did my mom have to go through that? It will have been 27 years ago on June 14th that my mom lost Angel Marie (the name really fits her). I wanted a sister so bad that I used to get mad that God had taken my sister. I was lucky that 10 years later my mom had my only (living of course) sister, Missee. I am so grateful for Missee everyday. She is a ray of sunshine in my otherwise dreary life right now. I love her dearly and am glad that she is my sister.I can't procrastinate sleep any longer so.....good night.