Sunday Check-in 6-26

i don’t know if it’s the licorice root stick, or just a slightly different way of thinking about food, but i haven’t been eating compulsively this last week. My scouting forays into the kitchen to see what we’ve got good to eat have practically stopped. i eat my meals, and that’s enough. Weird, isn’t it?

On the other hand, i’ve been reading – and writing – erotica like crazy. And masturbating. Often. Well, often for me – maybe once a day, or once every other day. Compared to going a month or even several months without. So maybe my food compulsion has been replaced by a porn compulsion. At least i’m not gaining weight from it, and i’m certainly more relaxed because of it!

i’ve been walking just about every day – um, walking as in leaving the house and walking through the neighborhood at a fairly brisk pace. Not just walking from the computer to the kitchen or bathroom.

AND i’ve even done some meditation.

Next in the what’s-new-this-week list, i had a brief flirtation with some guy on fetlife. Yep. Someone who lives in the same city. He was about my age, single, and really nice – maybe even sweet. i was super honest about my situation, and he was understanding. It was all pretty low key, and kinda fun.

i ended it when he started talking about having dinner or an ice cream together and getting to know each other better. i panicked just a little bit – i don’t want to sneak around, and i don’t want to tell MP that i’m having dinner with someone else. Plus, our kinks were not completely compatible.

That made me realize that my own fetish really is spanking. He would have incorporated spanking into the list of things for us to do because he is the kind of Dom who believes the pleasure needs to be mutual, but spanking is not his thing. i need someone who shares my love of spanking, only from the other side of the belt.

Many high achieving, “Type-A” people find it difficult to accept that they are human. That perfection will always be out of reach. Giving up power, even for a little while, puts life back in balance for some. This is a story about Jessica, who is just such a person. In this story Jessica goes to Sir’s house on Saturday afternoon. After tea he gives her a long, hard spanking.

“The Road goes ever on and on Down from the door where it began. Now far ahead the Road has gone, And I must follow, if I can, Pursuing it with eager feet, Until it joins some larger way Where many paths and errands meet. And whither then? I cannot say” ~ J.R.R.Tolkien