It's Not Something That I Chose To Have

I know you can't chose to have chronic pain or not, but others can chose who to give the throbbing pain to. Sometimes I think that it would be easier to be dead than to live a life in pain. Suffer becuase someboody chose for you to suffer. I wish there was a way to transfer the pain into the person that gave it. I would make sure they screamed in pain, couldn't move, got woken up in the middle of the night aching. I would make sure they got what they gave me. People telling them that they will never be able to do what they love agian. They can't sleep with any pillow they want at night. They have to sleep with a neck temperpedic pillow, or even if they just want to lay down they have to have it under their neck to run away from the screaming pain that srkies within you. They should have been the ones who had to hear the doctor say "Disability" to them. Not me! But, I guess sometimes we can't chose what we have or what we don't have.

I am 68 years old and virtually confined to my home in the Shenandoah Valley and a power wheelchair most of the time. I usually need over 300mg of morphine a day just to get my pain down to a 7 or 8 on a 10 scale. I have had twelve surgeries on my right knee, including a failed...

I suffered a compound open tib fib almost five years ago. The darn thing has hurt almost every moment since the hit that floor. I used to take alot of percocet. I worried about addiction so I switched to codeine and now ibuprofen. I have fought off depression and hopelessness...

I have fybromialgia and haven't been sleeping well at all these last few months. Its weird because after work Im so tired and Im able to fall asleep the first time but the problem is staying asleep. I go to bed around 9 to 10 pm and i have to be up at 8am. So here is how it goes...