What is wrong with me?

Just finsished a long distance relationship. Felt aful/practically suicidal as he said some cruel things when he ended it. Could hardly get out of bed Sunday. Woke up Monday feeling better then drove my car into my nieghbour's house. I had to pay out my entire bank account to rescue it. Needed that money for holiday. I feel liek I'm loosing the plot . I would love a supportive dp and whenever I break up with someone it compounds my feelings of lonliness. I think I have borderline personality disorder. Mum dies of cancer last year and I'm still struggling with that.

Sorry you are feeling like this. It sounds like you would benefit from a chat with your GP, apologies if you're already way ahead of me on that one. If not, please go & see them ASAP. I can't even try to diagnose what's wrong over the Internet but didn't want to read & run. You're not alone x