Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Confidence Is Part Of Growing Up

A wise, old doctor once told me," The fear of failure is what causes people to fail." He was speaking to me directly because, at that time I was indeed afraid of failure. That fear was tearing me apart. I couldn't live with myself the way I was, I loved myself but not like I should have. I thought I would never be enough for anyone, much less myself. Growing up (I've still got a lot of that left to do) we all struggle with self image issues, but sometimes those self image issues go deeper than just our skin, they delve into the scary dark caves of our souls. The same caves that hold our regrets, fears and dreams. I was in a dark period of my life because I was letting that fear of failure hold me back. It wasn't until that doctor drove that saying into my head that I realized my potential and what it was I could endeavor to be.

One day that saying clicked, not like "Oh I get it," but, like how to apply it in a literal sense. I stopped caring so much about what people thought of me and started focusing on if I look my best everyday then there is nothing more I can do than just be me and be content with my looks. I stopped being afraid of being told "No Kayla, that's not in your reach," I stopped listening to the voices in my head that said other people were holding me back when in reality it was I hindering myself. I started walking with confidence (not arrogance, there's a difference) and instead of looking at the ground I looked people in the eyes.

It was the elimination of fear that led me to where I am today, and it is still that absence of fear that is pulling me along a path bound for unlimited success. That epiphany of letting go of fear led me to write this: