An old soul with a new beginning.. Living life.. One moment into the next!

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Begin Again

Laying under the blankets hiding from your eyes..Leaving the words that needn't be spoken on the outsideTrying to ignore the pain already on the insideI feel it in the airAs you walk away.. the tears are set free.. while im bound by my breaking heartI have seen the love that you are..I have felt what i wish to denyTime and time again i throw the words to the side and run from youI dont want to knowwhat you would thinkI dont want to seewhat you would doIf i say it..Push it down, hide it awayShy away from what will fulfill youNumb to my own senses.. but not ignorant of what i can becomeI can wrap myself within your existance and see nothingI can stand outside and watch as you stand aloneBut how long will you stand there waiting to get inside?How long will you wonder what is going on inside my mind?Im content to fall from graceWilling to give up the good to receive the truthIm tired of who I am..I am ready to end.. to begin againTo speak the shameful truthTo release our souls from doubtTo stand before youlook into your eyeshurt the man I have come to loveWith or without you.. I cannot be what i had becomeI was foolish with freedomConsumed with hiding in a fantasyEven now this glass tower must fallStarting againWalking out into the sea of facesalonewaiting for a sign.. againYou walked to me on that swing when i asked for a signYou took my hand and held it as i thoughtWhat have i doneUnfaithful.. why have i become my worst enemy?