Monday, May 24, 2010

as i click on my blog to refresh myself...WEDNESDAY!?!seriously-WEDNESDAY.lord.re-dic-cu-lous.

hence this post rambling so vmg post...{let me catch you up}

monday morning.dylan and mama wake up at leisure...late-we cuddle up on the couch as if we have no place to be- on time. just school.3 more days left until summa' time...so excited. no rush. no homework. no tardies. no 50 million b-day parties.just us.the heat.and my lens.oh! don't let me fool you...you know how this mama is with "me" time.it's a must. but then...through the toothpaste and spiky hair...tears."i don't wanna go to school!"and really at that exact same moment- i didn't want him to go either.i wanted him to stay home- with me. i had this overwhelming sense of "he is my baby- growing up!"ironically you have these feelings on the first day of school, not necessarily the last few...

and then my day flashes before me...gym, a lunch, errands for lex, 3 edits, 1 blog post, a facebook check, an upload to the website,a shoot, another shoot this evening, dinner, bath time, bed time, and repeat.really- longing for him to be home and then a big sigh...how will i get it all done with a lil' spiky haired boy and mimi in tow...

struggling this am...wanting them so close to me. not growing up. less the braty-ness.{cause it does happen as they grow, just keepin' it real.}embracing moments like the one this morning when they are as sweet as they will ever be.kinda like when they have little crushes in Pre-K....

lex on the other hand-no boys allowed!cuz mama says not until you are 35-and on days like this morningshe is ready to conquer the world and i will let her.she is one focused, tough, smart, ambitious, outgoing, smart, funny little princess.i am so proud of her- i can't stand it.for what? just being her. she is a.maz.ingwatching her in social situations where she knows no one-{will blog on this later}she is flippin' amazing.not shy. confident. beautiful. polite. gracious.and leaves the party with a new bff-at 6.that rocks.

so i guess on this monday...i contemplate.my days. my time. my work. me.summa' time. no school.{eek!}their days. their time. their fun. them.