5.13.2017

This was my mantra during the brief hours of labor with my
second child, our daughter, Juniper. It was a strange second birth, preceded by
my water naturally breaking at home, and a day spent watching HGTV while waiting for labor to start. It was strange in that it was very unlike Milo’s birth, which
was preceded by a week of cyclical back
labor and long nights of pain and fatigue. I know I’m in good company when I say that, though they were different experiences, I'm glad both are over.

As I mentioned, by this point Craig and I had already decided that after this we weren’t going to be trying for more biological kids. (It's the plan, anyway.) So, in those hours of labor, I found some slight
relief in the idea that this would be my final act of uterine madness. No more screaming, crouched in the hospital shower. No more mortar-and-pestle
pain in my hips. No more counterpressure.

No. More. Counterpressure.

Though labor was in many ways, exactly as painful as they
say it is (whoever they are), through it I became the recipient of an extraordinary gift.

You might expect me to list my children here, but you’d
be wrong. My children are undoubtedly two of the most incredible and
overwhelming gifts I’ve ever received, but the gift I’m referring to is
something I didn’t expect:

Moms.

I have been given the gift of moms.In fact, I have been given the Flying V of moms.

It is a grand understatement to say that this has surprised
me.Before having Milo, I was so unversed
in the language of parenting, of children and really, of empathy, that I was blind to the cause of mothers, even if I already counted them among my friends.I could
love and appreciate my own mom and mother-in-law, and I could respect my peers
who had children, but I put very little effort into understanding the hard work,
long-game strategy and deep value of what they were investing in as parents,
and specifically, as moms.I
should really go around and ask the forgiveness of every mama I’ve ever known,
because I was just so terribly lazy in my friendships with them. Their interests weren't mine. The kids were noisy. The diapers were... diaper-y.

Note that this is my story as an individual, and has
no – read: ZERO – bearing on how others relate to parents.For example, I am awestruck by how so many
of the people who we’ve gotten to work with over our years in the camp industry, whether age 15 or 50, have been perceptive and intentional and kind in how they have befriended me as a
mom, all with what seems to be genuine warmth and interest. This wasn’t my way.

I wasn’t nearly as gracious.

And yet, despite my under appreciation and lack of effort
into really knowing mothers, I currently
find myself completely surrounded by an astounding group of these women.I wore their pants while I was pregnant.My children are clothed in their children’s clothes. I have snort-laughed at their texts at
three in the morning, and found relief at their stories of pebbles being crammed up
little noses and daughters eating paint chips and overstressed relationships in the violent wave-pool of kid-dom.They have
been some of the most encouraging people I’ve ever encountered, many of them all the while running their own ever-changing, ax-swinging gauntlet of parenthood.

This is my Flying V.They are transparent, strong, honest, forgiving and have a killer
instinct for when toddlers are up to no good with the toilet paper roll.And they are diverse.They are ten years younger than me and ten years older.They are mothers and they are
super-mothers, who’ve already done the dance once and are now
grandparents.They are liberal and
conservative. They are urban and rural.They are single, married, and divorced.They are like me, and they are not like me.

And yet they hover and protect.

And yet they fly together.

This weekend, I celebrate you mamas.I sit and think about your impact on
not only your families, but on the other parents and caretakers who share your world.I know that many women who desperately
desire to have children aren’t given the chance or don’t have the opportunity,
but, oh,

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My husband, son, daughter and I have moved out of the northern woods and are acclimating to life within of the reach of Walmart, local coffee joints, a hospital, and a major highway system. We are still learning to enjoy the simple things, namely good people in a good community and still way too much snow. Check in on us now and then, and if you have any ideas on a more efficient way to dig out a car, let us know. Some things never change.