The truth is,you should lie with me.

July 5, 2011

Man #1 :we are all searching for a cure

Man#2 :A cure for what?

Man#1 : Does it matter? As long as we are searching, we might find something.

(I feel like I’m being sexist. I mean I just used Men and no Women in that thing above me. Thought if you feel like I’m being sexist, you should probably get fucked and go live in a house with 17 windows you freak!)

So it’s that time again that i start talking about my life because i know you guys are so excited about my life. This week has been going pretty fast and action packed and no doubt I have learnt about many things and thought about others. I realised My relationship with my farther is more of a school Principle relationship rather than a Farther and son thing if you didn’t know. I’m really the odd one out. Out of all my brothers I’m the least closes to my Dad. Yeah I’m more of a mothers boy. Though because I’m a middle child it’s really never worked out like it suppose too. I guess mid way through my life I had to start comforting myself in other ways to compensate for the lack of “attention” I lusted for. I guess thats why I’m so good at making friends. I also grew attachment to inanimate objects. Having myself to play/entertain myself. falling in love with video games. Yeah things are pretty fucked up. Though it could be worst and I’m thankful that I have to deal with his then my brothers.

Another thing that has dominated my mind lately is death. Well old age. Amnesia! I mean losing your mind is a crazy thing to think of. I mean whats the point of life if you can’t remember shit! Though a day is going to come where everything is going to come to an end or when no one will miss you/remember you any more. It’s really depressing to think about. Thats just life imagine how many people thought of this hundreds of year ago. All those people who just mean nothing whose names are forgotten. Though they have had a bigger impact on our lives then we could guess. I mean if you went back in time a thousand years ago and killed 1 a random child. Everything would be so different. Our impact on this world may seem small however larger than we think. Though it might seem pointless maybe it has more point to it then we think? Who the fuck knows. Deal with it.

So I guess I’m going to start to talk about my love life,Because its juicy! Yes so juicy that you could make some sort of juice drink. I myself is terrified about by this whole love thing. I’m really not sure if I’m actually capable. I mean my heart has been out of action for so long I wouldn’t really know how you can actually work it. I mean if A heart defies logic you are pretty much fucked. Or are you? there is really no telling who or what feature physical or non physical is the best. Perfect people don’t exist and if they did you wouldn’t be close to even breathing their air from their lungs. I mean come on, You aren’t perfect. Perfect people are too busy non existing then to look at blogs. Though The truth is I want to lie with you. The truth is you aren’t worth missing out on. The truth is you’re amazing;we;; I think so.