Confidence, Power, and Black Only

When I began writing this (weeks ago and with much happening since), I was listening to my favorite music that I play during my hotel trysts with my black Bulls…soon my pussy is wet from an indescribable desire for black cock. I’m smiling and thinking, “how did I get to be such a black only slut?!!”

From my previous posts, you already know that in the past james and I were active in the swing lifestyle. The socialization was nice, and I enjoyed the attention of constantly being pursued by single men, but the sex interaction with predominantly white men became predictably disappointing. It wasn’t until I had my first fucking by a black man that my sexual energy really became engaged.

That first experience was about 15 years ago.Anxiously excited and full of anticipation, james and I met Michael, a very dark and handsome businessman, in town for the weekend, at his nearby hotel lobby for a quick meet and greet to become better acquainted and comfortable before going to his room to fuck. During that time it was not unusual for me to be accompanied by james for first time trysts with single men. What I remember most was the contrast of Michael’s very black skin against my very white skin. james was present, watching and taking photos and it shouldn’t be a surprise that if james participated sexually, it was unremarkable and I have no memory of that part.The memory ingrained in me was the confidence and power I felt over me by this beautiful and sexy black man as he fucked and pleasured me.

A year later I met a20 something young black executive. A very polite, handsome former college athlete, and definitely wiser than his years as he was openly aggressive in seeking married white women. I remember meeting him for lunch on a Saturday…and while james stayed home with the kids. The connection was immediate and there after with james’ encouragement I would frequently leave my house alone, dressed as sexy and inconspicuous as possible to meet up with him for mind blowing sex at either his home or various hotel rooms.

Though we were clueless to what cuckolding was, I now know that this was the beginning. Eventually there was a pause in our relationship for his own self growth, and after he successfully conquered his quest for mainstream vanilla life, he came back….with a hall pass in his back pocket. To this day my bedroom and legs are open to him whenever he can get away.If you have been reading my posts here, you know him as ‘A’.

Aside from the obvious contrast of their dark skin against my white and blonde features, “why am I so attracted to black men?”…that thrill which ignites my sexual energy…

My experiences, getting to know and fuck black men, definitely have had a seductive and explicit effect over me, not only physically but especially emotionally. In time I’ve been with several fantastic black men who deserve the description of BBC (believe what I say, not all black cocks are created equal). Yes, being physically endowed is without question of utmost importance-whether it be by size, shape, or best of all, both. But it’s the personality that comes with that cock that is key in unlocking my sexual verve. Black men, seem to have a natural confidence and power in how to sexually please. When I’m with one, he exudes that power and confidence over me quickly making me wet. His skill and level of patience in discovering all of my deepest points of pleasure physically and emotionally is something that I have never encountered with a white male, even my husband of 30+ years. Their playful smile, alluring eyes and ease of conversation have a way of making me melt as they skillfully direct me to the hotel room. In bed my inhibition lets go and I surrender.

Until recently, opportunities to meet black men have been few, making it a frustrating experience when in need. That began to change this past July when it was suggested by a friend here on CM to check out the Keys and Anklets Podcasts. In the same context as CuckoldMarriage, it was an epiphany were the host through his own experiences as a black bull is “pulling back the curtain” and introducing the voices of others to share openly to the public about the real life of hotwifing and cuckolding. Through Keys and Anklets I also learned of BlacktoWhite.net a site specifically directed toward interracial sexual encounters. With my verified ‘real’ profile I have been able to meet select and verified black men who travel to my city regularly on business as well as others that live in nearby larger metropolitan areas that are easy to get to and make for very fun and sex filled get aways.

Since my introduction to Keys and Anklets and then being invited to be interviewed (james separately also) by the host in late September, followed by another in January, I have become confident in openly expressing myself as a Cuckoldress. Being able to speak openly and honestly about my cuckold marriage to the host during the interview followed by a sexy ‘after party’ interview was very fun and liberating. Listening to myself later when the episodes were broadcasted to the public definitely gave me a renewed sense of empowerment and reinforced having absolutely no hesitation about owning the fact that I am a selective slut for black only.In the past the word ‘slut’ to me had a negative female connotation but I now fully identify with the word as a positive within the context and dynamic of my cuckold marriage. I have finally discovered my pure desire and harnessed my true sexual energy to find what I am looking for to satisfy my most raw sexual needs.

In the short time since the broadcast of my podcast interviews, I have met and fucked several (ten I guess it is) different black men, some of them on multiple occasions…and I continue to look for more with that confident combination of sexy, smart and fun. I quickly realized from listening and being inspired by other podcasts that turning up and expressing my slut factor, especially whenever I travel, is exciting and I have no hesitation to seek out what I desire wherever I may be.

My Thanksgiving in LA was definitely memorable as I arranged multiple trysts in an upscale downtown hotel; I skipped the turkey and went straight for dessert…big black cock. Black Friday continued the fun as I met another bull and was filled again and again by his seed. A 24 hour pussy rest was necessary before I finally met and fucked the third bull of the weekend.And where was james?Always in the lobby, in chastity, waiting.

The strongest statement of humiliation that I can make to james?…

I have withdrawn his rights to my pussy, and I will NEVER fuck another white man…no apologies made. james will always be my number one for intimacy (not sex), but whenever I see a black man, I smile, look right into his eyes and then immediately undress him in my mind….all the while never thinking of james’ penis.

Even when finding the right black men to fuck my married white pussy it is not a given that it will happen. It seems that many black men prefer to be with couples where the husband does the looking, makes the plans, and is then in the room watching. I on the other hand want to be in full control of whom I get to fuck. My trysts are arranged by me…james’ only involvement is making sure my pussy is bare and smooth and selecting my outfits for my display….and remind me to always be careful and safe with a quick kiss when I leave. If he’s lucky and the Bull is open to sharing how he fucks me, james might be invited to watch or take photos. Recently after I had already been fucked once, james was invited to the room. In chastity, and as directed fully clothed, he sat in a chair blindfolded as I was fucked again.

I am hitting my stride, excited at being aggressive, confident and more adventurous in continuing to find the right Bulls that fit within my marriage and as a slut. Different to what I have said in the past, I know now that looking for ‘the one’ I will probably never be satisfied (sometimes it is fun having that “zipless fuck” as Erica Jong explains). As it is, I am stronger, more relaxed and love james with more intensity. That may sound contradictory but it’s truth…

About The Author

Hello,
I am a 59-year young, tall, blond woman and happily married more than 30 years. I've always been an adventurous soul with strong sexual desires and needs. After years of exploration, discovery and lots of conversation, james my husband has agreed to be my cuckold.
I'm always “interviewing “ interesting bulls and not hesitant in having many wonderful relationships to satisfy me...the right combination of sexy, smart and endowed is my need.

It is so refreshing to read another genuine responsible narrative from A and J, it gives other cuckold couples continued purpose to our lifestyle, choices and positive envy at the wonderful place A and J are enjoying as a committed loving cuckold couple. Our respect and congratulations to you both for your honesty, integrity and courage. g and J

Perfect title to one of the best articles I’ve ever read on the subject. It takes confidence to go to the lengths Anne has taken to commit to Black Only, Power to stand firm and strict in such a beautiful commitment and both confidence and Power are fed and built up by Anne’s incredible sexuality shared with black bulls that only black men can provide…cuckold James surrenders lovingly and I can truly tell through his writing how immensely proud he is to be Anne’s pussy-free cuckold❤️. I pray to someday have the happiness and fulfillment that you share together and hope for the same amount of deep love from my cuckoldress 2 Express cherished and valued I am as her cuckold and in turn privileged and honored to surrender myself too permanent chastity to express my deep love and devotion ❤️♠️👑🙏. In my opinion a wife’s decision to commit herself and the marriage to being black only is the most beautiful and powerful expression of love and I respect, adore and admire committed black only Queen of Spades as the highest pedestal of worship that I hope more and more women strive to attain!

And has truly given you a priceless and divine gift James and I’m so happy for the both of you! James is one lucky cucky and I only hope that every cuckolding couple be so blessed one day❤️

And that’s what it;s all about Anne, better sex for the lady. My ex complained my small penis was not enough and wanted to feel full(of bbc). I was very happy with the idea Sadly it never happened but I think she would of definitely become addicted and gone black only. I miss her!!

Excuse me for my questions and my thinking! But why would a normal adult want to be humiliated by another one particularly by his life companion? Seems to me he is psychologically disturbed ! And a life companion, regardless of whether his wife or life mate who takes advantage of that person is , in my eyes, only a selfish and not a loving person. Be aware, a mentally ill person will always argue thats his desire to be cuckolded and or humiliated by the woman he loves because he fears that she leaves him! So please explain to me why you think cuckolding or humiliating some one is o.k.!

Reasonable question. Maybe love is a kind of mental illness. You want the best for the one you love but you realise that you can’t satisfy her. You don’t want her to leave you so you encourage her to seek an outside lover and keep your relationship secure.
We are all different here and we have different needs. Some of us are happy to know she is going on a date we may even help her dress for her lover. We wait at home wondering how it’s going and when she finally gets in later than expected she tells us what a wonderful lover he is. You realise you can never compete with that but that gives you satisfaction.
Sometimes she brings him home or lets you come on dates with them. You want to do what you can to make it good for her you can serve them drinks as they dance or make out in front of you. She lets you follow them to the bedroom your martial bed and you watch as she undresses for him and takes him in her mouth.
He takes her and gives her pleasure that you could never give her.
That is love not mental illness.

At Psychology your situation is called ” self-abnegation due to interdependence ” !! The affected people agitates out of fear of loss and not out of love! The deceive oneself is only a guardianship due to the misassumption he is the wrong part at his partnership! His bondage to his mate will be compensated by his acceptance of her sexuell dominance and the sexual favors in the form of “cheating” circumscribed as “cuckolding”! His asserted sexual enjoyment is a real satisfaction because his spirit needs a hideout without which he would go under! I know, affected people couldn’t care less about what’s going on around them. But sometimes its helpful to know “why”!!!

If you are truly curious this site has plenty of information to assist and educate you in your quest.
The cuckold lifestyle isn’t for everyone, myself I embrace the fact my wife needs more (no pun intended, but true) we spent YEARS searching for help in why she couldn’t orgasm & enjoy sex to the fullest, from seeing sexual therapist & to buying every toy imaginable.
In the end finding her a Lover was what we had searched for all along we are BOTH so very happy, her in receiving the Pleasure she deserves & ME in seeing my wife totally satisfied with a glow that is priceless.

Great update explaining the details for why you are going BBC only and also to announce that will include James as being denied access to your pussy. Very clear tip understand the reasons and how you have progressed to this decision.

I would love to hear James point of view of this decision and how he feels about not being a pussy-free cuckold.

Side question. In past year how many times has James even been permitted inside you? Did he feel like this was coming with the increase in BBC you have been getting?

Great post as always, Anne. I think the best part of this lifestyle is that women are taking what they want and owning it.

I know you and james are real so I too would love to hear his point of view on this. A lot of cucks love the idea of being pussy-free, but I’d love to hear from someone who I trust that has actually moved into this part of the lifestyle.

As Anne has written in previous posts, and I have also occasionally posted, the decision to subtract me from having sexual intercourse with her is not sudden, but very much mutual. It is the result of Anne as an ‘adventurous soul’ discovering greater pleasure from being with multiple men over time whose cock sizes are larger and shaped more pleasurably in comparison to my penis. To her there is a very different physical response and emotional satisfaction being fully filled by a cock…likewise I also realized that “swimming” in her very wet and open pussy didn’t let me feel the intense physical pleasure as I would get with her hand. All of this was already happening before we even knew what cuckolding was about….she would lay back and thrust herself on me while I stayed still until she mildly orgasmed, I would pull out, and with her wetness all over my penis, she would stroke me quickly until I usually spurted. The intimacy is there and very strong, but the sexual pleasure for each of us was very separate.

How do I feel about not having intercourse? It fits perfectly for our sex life…and it’s result is greater intimacy. The elation she feels and shares with me after being with her BBC’s emphasizes and energizes how in love and close we are…not just some predictable intense arousal only for me. The context of who we are as a cuckold couple really is about our very loving relationship dovetailed primarily to her sexual empowerment and pleasure. It’s normal to us (what is ‘normal’ anyways? Everyone having to have sexual pleasure in the same way?) and not a “mental illness”, being “psychologically disturbed” or “selfish”, and having a “fear of leaving”. And it’s not really about denial or humiliation (elements that happen as a sexual stimulant) nor counting how few times I have been inside her in the past year (which if you need to know has only been once as described in Anne’s post “Dynamics, Intimacy, and Evolving”). Simply, it’s being secure as best friends, madly in love, and realizing our true satisfying sexual identity.

Thank you, james! I truly think cuckolds are wired a little differently allowing us to be intimate with our wives on a level other than what intercourse provides. We’re certainly turned on by denial, but it’s more than just that. It’s a reinforcement of the feelings we have for our wives. Great post!

(Anne & James) We Love all your post,
James it is GREAT your allowing Anne to fulfill her potential & experience all that is out there
She is enjoying life to it’s fullest as Michael says “Ladies cum first”
You are both so lucky to have one another, Good Luck,
have fun & keep posting,