Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Didn't make it to work yesterday. I felt so bad about not going but could not do it. I was in bed the entire day sleeping until this morning. I was able to get my butt out of bed this morning and was here at 8:30am. Not many people were here because it snowed this morning. When it snows even one little flake around here the schools are closed. My daughter was extremely pleased.

I have an interview today at 1:30pm. I dressed the part but my heart isn't into it. I hope it goes well. I don't feel very confident.

Give yourself a huge pat on the back for making it into work despite feeling so poorly. A doctor told me once that no disease is more debilitating than depression. You should feel proud of yourself. I hope by day's end you're feeling a little better.

That combination of not wanting to go in to combined with the mental and physical drain of actually doing getting there is hard work indeed. Then you have to face others (which makes it all so much worse). Don't worry, other people's opinions may seem to matter, but they are not absolute. You don't need their moral approval. Just work on getting your own.