Friday, October 17, 2008

Okay, so I think this is SO cute... This is what my baby looks like right now! All scrunched up in there. I can understand why I should be feeling kicks soon! I'm 19 weeks! (well, in 2 more days). That means that finding out the sex of our child is RIGHT around the corner! I can't even believe how fast this has all flown by. I have been doing pretty good at sleeping on my side. I was for sure this would be a challenge for me, but it is more challenging just to sleep continuously through the night! I guess I need to get used to this. In about 5 more months 'sleep' will probably be a foreign word to me.

It's been another busy week, and I even took a day off to stay at home and rest. (my first day off my entire pregnancy!) God has been challenging me to apply what I've been learning lately. Our church gave everyone a copy of the book 'Crazy Love' by Francis Chan. I have been really focusing on living my christianity OUTWARDLY. Our life is so short, and every moment will be wasted if we aren't careful. My integrity was challenged this week, as I was asked again to be deceptive in my job. I had already tried to be strong and make a stand by having a meeting with my boss telling him that I refused to compromise my integrity and was uncomfortable with certain parts of my job that were deceptive. He again put me in the situation and this time I was ordered to do it. The reaction was interesting when I spoke out about the deception. He didn't tell me to hush up about it, but proceded to shout over me sarcastically and across the room that 'we were having a righteous moment over here!' I have to say, that's a first for me. I don't mind my righteousness being shouted. I'll shout it out myself, I ain't skeerd...

It was definately challenging as I asked to meet with my boss alone in another meeting and bringing an HR representitive into the meeting for documentation. It was hard to keep my cool and not be so angry! Though in my job, I was still forced to do this, I at least was able to explain that I was not 'ok' with what was going on, and it is on record with a witness. I look forward to the day that I'm presented with a new job opportunity. I know that GOD for sure is working in me while I'm here though. Let the persecution continue!!

It has really been great to just surround myself with people and conversation that is inspirational; between the play, 'coupon-ing', and taking a Love & Respect class with my husband. It is very hard to go a day without forgetting what my job is on earth, and the motivation to be more so that I may do more.