(A journey through life set in Japan)

Category: Miscarriage

Last night Demande called me. Fortunately, he called while Mamoru was on the phone with a coworker (which is super rare). At the beginning I told Demande that I needed to talk to him, and I didn’t say why only that it was important and it was something about me he needed to know. He… Continue reading Mamoru & Demande & Rei…

Hello! It’s almost my birthday which means it’s almost time to hate my life and everything about it. Let’s recap: Rei is moving to Korea in like 5 minutes. I’ll be 39 soon. WTF do I have to show for it? Not a great job, not great friends, not a great life. I’ve 3 MCs… Continue reading Fuck friends and birthdays…

My cousin messaged me today to express her concern about the earthquake. Within that message was her telling me that she was pregnant and that she knows we had been trying and that she hopes the news wasn’t too hard to hear. See in 2016 when our fertility troubles had just started (that was when… Continue reading A pregnancy (not mine)…

Perhaps you remember my last post where my mental health deteriorated to the point that I couldn’t find my keys which were in my bag the whole time. Yesterday was another for the books. Some point between changing my clothes in the bathroom and walking into the office. I lost my phone. Unfortunately, I had… Continue reading “3…2…1…fun!”

Hello everyone! WordPress sent me a notification that I’ve received 200 followers. Holy shit! That’s pretty damn amazing is all I can say. From the bottom of my heart…thank you. What better way to celebrate than to offer those new followers a quick recap. If you’re new to this blog here’s a quick summary. For… Continue reading 200! A recap…

Yesterday was rough. Rough. Another adoption closed on the online NPO. Another child we applied to adopt given to another couple and not us. Meanwhile, literally everywhere I was was swarmed with families. You’d think it was a holiday but no. A plain old Monday. I saw a mama on her bicycle. One child in… Continue reading Babies, Japanese, and friendship…

I don’t even know where to begin. I’m physically and mentally exhausted. Every inch of my body hurts, and my heart aches as well. It’s been a weekend for the books. That’s for sure. I guess I’ll start with the physical pain. I did yoga yesterday for the first time in what seemed like decades. … Continue reading The weekend part 1: Saturday…