Saturday, September 27, 2014

I don't usually watch Tagalog movies. Mostly coz I don't understand them very well, but also coz I can't really relate to them or 'get' them. That changed last night.Last week, I was having lunch with someone's dad and he told me to watch "She's the One", a Dingdong Dantes / Bea Alonzo / Enrique Gil movie, and intrigued-Anj went for it. Wrong move, intrigued-Anj. Wrong move.

"She's the One" starts with Dingdong's phone ringing and on the other line is his best friend Bea, whom he calls *wait for it*… BOSS. But wait! That isn't where the similarities to my life ends.Dingdong and Bea have conversations in the movie that I have personally already had in my life recently, with quotes that I have personally already heard come out of our mouths before. And their intense non-couple arguments are the exact same intense non-couple arguments that we have.The harsh words. The vicious statements. The truth that we know, but don't want to hear or admit. Everything in my life within the past 10 months (sans Bea's virginity and hot young stalker) was basically condensed into a 1.5-hour movie in "She's the One" and I watched it with pain and resentment in my heart.

See, for the first time in 10 months, I watched my life unfold before my eyes (though with a much hotter woman cast in my shoes) and for the first time in 10 months, I actually saw what I looked like from an outsider's perspective. And I didn't like it.Because of this, what was supposed to be a light and carefree watch turned into a question-filled nightmare, and I know I have no one to blame but myself for this. Like Bea in the movie, I know I chose all of this. I chose to be the fool and to forgive and to hold on and to hope and hope and hope. Because, well, that's what I do. I hope.

During the movie, I screamed "BOOM!" at the TV at least 5 times and I cried at least 3 times because I was reliving painful moments from my life all over again.

After the movie, however, I sat on my bed wondering how I had come to this. That strong-willed girl who once fucked emotions in the ass for a living was suddenly sitting on her bed blubbering like a child after watching a big, bad Tagalog movie.

What the actual fuck.

But that's exactly what I needed, I guess: a reality check. Glasses with the right prescription, so to speak. Robot eyes to show me the truth about my life that I had been trying to ignore and hide from my heart with a beautiful waterfall of hope.

In the movie, Dingdong eventually realises what a coward he is and that he's actually been in love with Bea for the longest time and, of course, there's kissing, and there's rain, and there's kissing in the rain.

I don't know if there's any kissing or rain in my near future, but I know I can't be the 'hilawna girlfriend' forever.

Photos by Josue Faustino.

Don't get me wrong. I'm happy where I am right now and I'm happiest when I'm with him, but I have some insecurities that can't get buried without a label and I know I'll only deteriorate more and more the longer I stay here like this.

Let's just hope the strong-willed girl makes a comeback and starts slutting it up with those emotions again. Though, personally, I'd really rather just be kissing him in the rain.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

TBDress - Inexpensive Bridesmaid Dresses at Your Fingertips

Who says the bride is the only one who should stand out during a wedding? While it may be true that the bride should be the best-looking one on her special day, it would make any wedding much better if the bridesmaids look stunning, as well.If you are looking for inexpensive bridesmaid dresses that look great and will make your wedding one that everyone will remember, TBDress is the place to turn to.

TBDress - Inexpensive Bridesmaid Dresses at Your Fingertips

For something more elegant and sophisticated, these dresses might suit your special day best:

Of course, you can also opt for something more simple and neutral, but with unforgettable designs that people will talk about long after your wedding day:

Opting for inexpensive bridesmaid dresses from TBDress won't just make your wallet happy; it will keep your bridesmaid happy, as well. Check out their designs today and find the ones that will suit your wedding theme and needs best! Enjoy!

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Neverland Manila: Are You Ready for the Ultimate EDM Festival?

I know that I repeatedly mention that I am a rocker chick at heart, but I also have those moments where all I wanna do is let loose and party the night away!This year, I've been to two epic nights of EDM goodness, but the year isn't over yet and Neverland Manila is set to be the EDM festival of the year with hype about it starting as early as a few months ago and still not dying down to this day. As such, I am incredibly stoked for it!!! :D

Neverland Manila

Do you have your tickets yet? Will I see you there? Let me know! :) I personally cannot wait to dance the night away with my fellow EDM-loving friends. Are you ready for the best night of your life? I know I am. Just remember these two words: Neverland Manila.Neverland Manila will be held on October 3, 2014 at the SM Mall of Asia Concert Grounds. Get your tickets before it’s too late at the Neverland Manila website (www.neverlandmanila.com), smtickets.com, and all SM Tickets outlets nationwide.

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Life is unfair sometimes. You love someone with all your heart and give them everything you could possibly give to make them happy and yet, sometimes, it still isn't enough.

I am one of the easiest people to please as far as I know. I don't ask for much: loyalty, honesty and occasional orgasms go a long way in my book. However, if you fuck with my heart - especially more than once - it's hard to bounce back. Unfortunately, contrary to popular belief and despite my usual smiley and perky demeanour, there is a lot of emo stuck in this lil bubble of crazy.

Sure, you can promise me that one day it'll be better; that one day we'll get there; that one day I'll be happy; that the wait will be worth it. But I've been through too much to rely on empty promises.

Words are just words. How you act and treat me when I'm not around speaks more volumes than words ever could.

Aside from that, the future is never constant. Yes, I love you now, but if I keep getting played the fool day after day after day by Single-You; that love will eventually fade and I will resent you for longer than I have ever loved you.

And I don't want this love to fade. I want to remember how happy you make me feel on a daily basis. I want to remember the butterflies that I still get when I think about you and see you, even after months of having known you. I want to remember the way you look at me sometimes - like maybe there could be something there, after all. Just maybe.

If there's one thing I realised today, though, it's that you can't force a person who isn't ready; but you can't wait around when you're being played the fool, either. Loving someone is one thing, but it's more important to love yourself, especially when other people won't.

Don't waste your life waiting around for people who don't think you're worth it yet and who need to be convinced that what you have together is worth the world. If it's a legitimate reason, like distance,then fine. But if it's because they want to have fun and fuck around, then let them have fun and fuck around. But don't stand by and watch while you writhe around in silent pain, wearing your fake smile and swallowing back your tears.

If they let you go without even thinking twice… if they choose that kind of life over you… then they never deserved you to begin with. Know your self-worth. Dry those tears. You deserve better. This is my current self mantra.

Saturday, September 20, 2014

For the past few months, I've posted mostly nothing on my blog but sponsored post after sponsored post after sponsored post - and I'm terribly sorry for that. Despite the fact that I've been super busy with other rakets, I did have to make a bit more money through this personal space of mine and I am incredibly thankful that you stuck by me despite those "low months" of mine (as I like to call them).Although today isn't a particularly special day, I decided to finally revive this blog from its sponsored post-dom and finally post something personal and fun - something that I'm sure long-time readers of this blog will enjoy, something known as Seph's 21st birthday party (let's just pretend he's 21 to make him happy).And since I believe that pictures speak a thousand words, welcome to the most epic photo blog this blog has had since my own "21st" birthday party in Zambales (relive that awesome time with me here: Part 1 and Part 2). And now on to Seph's big day aka our MEGA REUNION aka one of the rare times when the 6 of us were actually all free to go crazy together… :pAll photos from the birthday boy.

After lunch, we then headed to Rue Bourbon Tagaytay - most probably my favorite resto-bar in the entirety of the Philippines right now. Cold weather + cold flavoured beer = PERFECTION.The night proved to be walwal at its finest, so I can't share 99.99% of the photos with you, but here are some to make you stare, giggle and laugh anyway:

I thought we had a decent photo that night, but no.

Spot the tomatoes. :p

A lot of molestation went on that night.

Mostly in the form of Attack of the Trice.

You don't want to know what happened with the birthday cake.

That last photo pretty much sums up the night. I have to say: we don't drink much when we go out (well, David and I do, but the rest really don't), so it was fun to let loose together for one night and have some legit fun in the company of good friends. (It's safe to say this kind of night will never happen again, though. Haha.) Drink moderately, kids! …unless you have a shuttle service bringing you to Tagaytay and back. :pI hope this post brought you some giggles and laughter, and well, I hope you'll start reading my blog again coz I promise I'm back with more personal posts this time. :)

Thursday, September 18, 2014

TBDress: Sexy Cocktail Dresses that Will Make Heads Turn

Every woman wants to be sexy, and that includes when going to cocktail parties. After all, this is where people socialise, mingle, get to know other people and - let's face it - judge other people. If you want to make a great first impression at your next cocktail party, then sexy cocktail dresses from TBDress could just be your saving grace.

TBDress: Sexy Cocktail Dresses that Will Make Heads Turn

Sexy doesn't necessarily mean you have to bare a lot of skin, though. If you want to make sure you still look elegant and sophisticated at the same time, TBDress.com has various options for you:

If you are more about the details and want to wear sexy cocktail dresses that are truly unique and will really make heads turn wherever you go, then take a look at these:

Stunning details that everyone will notice and love!

Now, if you really want to go as sexy as possible, then these babies might be perfect for you:

The sequins provide an added touch of oomph!

As you can see, TBDress provides a wide array of selections for sexy cocktail dresses at very affordable prices. The best part is that the selections are so varied that you won't have a hard time finding a design, style and cut that you will love, regardless of what your budget might be at the moment.

Thursday, September 11, 2014

TBDress: Cheap Cocktail Dresses that Look Like a Million Bucks

Are you looking for stunning cocktail dresses that won't break the bank yet still look like they are expensive? Well, TBDressprovides cheap cocktail dressesthat are made of top quality materials to ensure that you look like a million bucks at your next event.The best part? TBDress has cheap cocktail dressesin various styles and colours to suit any personality or preference.

TBDress: Cheap Cocktail Dresses

If you are after stunning designs, then check out this stunner that will surely get heads turning at your next event:

You can also dazzle in gold or pile on the ruffles like so:

Of course, you can also keep a more conservative look going to please the adults around you. Just keep things more current and modern by opting for an eye-catching color like bright red:

No matter which dress you opt for, you are sure to feel like a million bucks when you choose one from TBDress. The best part is that you won't actually have to spend too much money on them. With the discounted prices found on the website, these cocktail dresses are real steals! Check them out yourself!

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Wedding Dresses at JDDresses are Perfect for Any Type of Wedding

Are you getting married soon? What type of wedding do you plan on having? Regardless of what kind of theme you want or what kind of personality you have, you are sure to find wedding dresses that will suit your style at JDDresses.

Wedding Dresses at JDDresses

Looking to have a beach wedding? Wear something casual, flowy and free:

Are you looking something more elegant and sophisticated? Do I love adding details to your dresses? Then maybe this dress would be more up your alley:

Does your church not allow sleeveless dresses? Fret not, for JDDresses also has sleeved dresses that look just as stunning:

Regardless of what kind of style you are aiming for or what kind of wedding you are aiming for, for that matter, JDDresses has got you covered! :) Check out more of their available styles on their website today!

Friday, September 5, 2014

Color Wedding Dresses at DressV: Add a Pop of Color to Your Special Day

White wedding dresses are a thing of the past. In today's day and age, you are free to go all out as you please. It's your wedding, after all, so you should be able to decide what you want to wear and choose the colours that suit you best.If you want to see the different options that you have for color wedding dresses nowadays, DressV would be the perfect website to turn to.

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Cheap Shoes: Save Money with Women Shoes at TBDress

I think it is safe to say that every woman loves shoes. I have always believed that women have a shoe fetish because it is the only type of clothing that doesn't make them feel fat.If you are looking for cheap shoes, though, TBDress is definitely the place to turn to as they have a lot of different styles, designs and materials when it comes to women shoes.

Cheap Shoes: Save Money with Women Shoes at TBDress

If you love flats, but really want to stand out with unique styles and designs, check out these babies:

If you are looking for unique sky high heels, on the other hand, take a look at these:

You can even go for boots with or without heels if that is your thing:

Regardless of what kind of cheap women shoes you are looking for, TBDress will have something from you in materials that range fro canvas to synthetic leather to sheepskin leather.These cheap shoes online are also suitable for any occasion and any outfit. Check them out today!

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Homecoming Dresses 2014: Turn Heads With Dressfirm's Stunning Choices

When it comes to homecoming dresses 2014, there is no need to follow the traditional rules of dresses anymore. Back in the day, things were always kept conservative and the color choices available back then weren't as widespread as they are now.Color choices aside, the styles of homecoming dresses nowadays range from girly to flirty to classy to sexy, as well. Your choice will merely depend on your own personal style. If you want the widest range of choices for the best quality and at an affordable price, then you need to check out what Dressfirm has to offer.

Homecoming Dresses 2014: Dressfirm's Stunning Choices

At Dressfirm, you won't have any trouble whatsoever finding the perfect dress for you.

They have dresses available for those who are feeling girly.

They have dresses for those who want to keep things classy.

And they even have dresses for those who truly want to stand out.

So, regardless of what your goals are for homecoming, Dressfirm can help make those dreams come true with the perfect dress - one that will feel like it was truly made just for you. Check them out today!