I hope you make it! I say that every night myself. I am trying to change that but just started today. Tonight i am going to say goodnight, I am going to have a better, less painful day tomorrow. I have met good ppl on here and help.com that have changed my way of thinking. i dont know if its gonna work but since i cant die i might as well try to live. I know i am a good person and there must be a reason for me to still be here. I am goin to try to look at my pain and illnesses in a different way. i also write a lot on Penzu.com which i started a journal and try to write at least one good thought or phrase or question everyday. "Someone loves me today" or "the sky was beautiful today" i know it sounds stupid but at least it takes my mind off of my pain for even 1 second<br />good luck to you and i hope you make it through the night