born on different sides of life

i just finished watching one of the top movies ive seen. Eat, Pray, Love.

I admit it, i love it. it makes me happy. it makes me hungry on pizzas from neapels, great italian red wines, sundried tomatoes, parma ham, pasta, fresh heavenly pasta. i get back appetite for food. it makes me inspired to start meditate more regularly, to get up early in the morning, get up on my roof and watch the city wake up beneth me. eat, pray, love makes me open up my heart even more, i love, i love so unconditionally.

i love so many people in this world. people that ive meet, people that have changed my life, people i will never meet again. people im yet to meet. i love people i have in my life now. people that have recently been visiting me, and people that are in sweden.

but i am scared of loosing it. i am a deep person that connects with my mind, believe in my mind, celebrate my mind. find balance in being alive. but im scared of let go of control. i build my it, my balance, on control.

eat, pray, love inspires me. am i on a journey to find my balance? or do i create it myself? i travel the world, i see cultures, meet people. im alone on a different side of life. i belong with the world. i belong with my love.

eat, pray, love might be my story.

sometimes i dont make sense, but out of nonsense and chaos can the brightest happiness and balance be created. amen.

The world is worrying me

If we are to believe the Mayans, the world as we know it is going to end. It is actually quite cryptic, isn’t it?

I am sure they are right, so much is going on this year. So much things are breaking down, and vantage points for people are actually changing. There is storms in several parts of the world, of my world, in Yemen, Syria, in Maldives.

In petite beautiful Maldives. In my beautiful wonderful Maldives, which i love so unconditionally. The first ever democratically chosen president was forced to resign, and now people are fighting. What seems to be correct there?

And in Syria, i believe in Syria things are worst right now, people are dying as flies. Innocent people, civil people, kids, babies, ladies, boys, men, women. They do not care, they just kill everyone. They switched off the electricity in a hospital and 18 to early born babies died. I saw photoages of a boy who was still alive for 2 days after they shot his mouth off, they cancell all bread and food transportations. And where are the world reactions?

(In sweden they are worried about the discussions to increase retirement age till 75?) So many chose to close their eyes to what happening in the world, since it is to painful to take in. But what if you were there, what if the choice to close your eyes didnt existed?

And there is storms, technically and literarily. The weather is confusing us even more this year. Winter wonderland hit Sweden harder then in years, and it came later then in years. It was very stormy in the beginning of the year?

In Qatar it is sunny and warm, and then it gets cold again, and then warm again. The storms are here. It is time for us to react, and to realize, maybe the Mayans were right, the world as we have before known it to be, is going to end.