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Sorry I have been missing but I had been doing my hair. It took me 3 days this time but that is because I didn't braid the hair all the way down. Other than that, not much, just got off the phone with Sexy who has been sick and a bit depressed. He's starting to open up to me and I like that.

On the lighter side, my lantus shots have gone up to 32 units and is staying that way. I saw my doc on Friday and he looked at my sugar diary I have been keeping. I also asked to get a new liver specialist. I just did not like the other one and skipped out on my colonoscopy, I didn't want him in my ass..

I also went to see about starting school today. I have to go back on Wednesday for the financial aid part? Can anyone currently going to school chime in on this? I did try to go to school a few years back but then I lost my hearing so I dropped out. It was online though but I remember applying for fafsa and stuff. Forgot my password though...*lol*

Glad to see you ladies are doing well in my abscence...*lol*... Betty, I hope you are feeling better.

Not going to do much today but chill and watch the Hip Hop Awards, watching the top 100 now. And been downloading some of my faves.

I am SO excited to see Moffie back here! Woo-hoo, he's back in the Forum!

Welcome to Charity, so sorry about your date not working out, but let that be a BIG note on the guy's character -- or lack OF. No second chances for him, keep looking, cause there are lots of fish swimming in the same bowl!

BT, sorry you're bummed. I get like that sometimes. Depending on my mood I'll either be "at one with the couch" or I'll play with Cheech. Hope you get back to feeling like your old self soon!

Queen, so you were caught up in your hair. No wonder we didn't see you! I know that is WORK for you to get all of that stuff done. Glad to hear Sexy is showing you his softer side. My sugars are nuts right now with the Levemir, mostly some very scary LOWS, but I'm adjusting.

Iceman asked me to stay at his house AGAIN tonight for the 9th night in a row. I said I needed to do laundry cause I wasn't going "commando" to work with no undies tomorrow, lmao. He is wonderful and looking forward to his trip this weekend on the MC!

Well, the shit hit the fan again at work for the 2nd time in a week last Friday. Of course, I wasn't there. PITA had a meltdown today in front of the entire dept as well as the owner of the company, the CEO and CFO. Things have been changed AGAIN with our training to accommodate her. We are paired up now so we can help each other out. Not she and I, but she is with another girl in the dept, and so am I. PITA is relieved because she can go back to the way things were with her duties, but I think it will eventually bite her in the ass when we have to be on our own in a few months. HR asked how I was doing and I said I was good, just sick of constantly changing the plan because one person doesn't get it as well as the rest of us. Oh well, I have been rolling along. I'll be fine with the new plan. We'll see what next week brings.

Wow, I didn't even notice Moffie was back. I haven't been in the rest of the forums, though.

Jenny, whenever I go out, I'm always home by 9:30 p.m. or 10:00 p.m. at the latest. So, don't think 1:30 a.m. is an early time to get home. Of course, I'm probably about 20 or 30 years older than you are (hee)

Snow, you stopped by to say "hi," but what's going on with ya?

Charity, fuck that man! If he didn't show up, then he's not worth your time. I'm glad you're going back to school. What are you going to take?

Queen, you should be able to apply for financial aid through your school. Or, you can use the FAFSA website; I will get that and post it. I'm going to e-mail my voc. rehab counselor about it, because pretty soon I'll be needing it. So, as soon as I get, you'll get it. I think it's something like fafsa.edu.gov, but I could be wrong, which is why I didn't put it as a direct link. I think that's great you're going back to school. And hey, if I didn't feel right about a doctor, I wouldn't let him look at my ass let alone in my ass. I did have to laugh when I read that.

Cin, I can't believe PITA had a meltdown in front of the higher-up execs. That must have been a sight to see. Sorry they keep changing your job; that must get frustrating. So, Ice is asking you a lot to stay at his place. Things really must be getting serious (I'm staying tuned).

I'm feeling a bit better this evening. I got my government exam done. It was 10 type-written pages (no shit). I'm going to bitch at the teacher (not really). I'm just glad I got it done.

The depression started yesterday. Yesterday I didn't even take a shower or get dressed-yep, I stayed in my p.j.'s all day. I did manage to brush my teeth. I go through cycles like this. It's something like Hermie (heartforyou) described in the "living with" section of the forums. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my doc to talk about an antidepressant. The last time I got clean I was on two that worked well. I'm going to talk to him about going back on those.

That's it for me. I hope Drag's doing alright. And where the hell is mum?

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I took my son to see a dentist today. His wisdom teeth are coming in and one is really killing him. He had xrays and they gave us an appointment with an oral surgeon. $1500 bucks later he will have 3 wisdom teeth removed. He doesnt have one for some reason on his lower side. Maybe God has given me a break and knows I cant even afford removing the 3 he has. LOL

So all you ladies with young ones take a note. Save money now for those wisdom teeth or make damn sure you have good dental insurance on your kid.

BT- I'm sorry that you are in a funk. I hope the doctor can help you. I bet you feel REALLY relieved to be done with that paper. That sure seems like an awful lot! Oh, before I forget, you have asked before what grade I teach..5th grade.

Queen- Do you always braid your hair? I just would not have the patience to do that. It sounds like things with Sexy are moving right along....

Cindy- Wow! Such drama at work...I love it! LOL! Do you think Ice will ask you to move in? Any word on the medical office that you applied at?

Jenny- 1:30am is early? I am in bed at 9:00pm! I get up at 5:00am though...I am definitely a morning person. Are you a native of Kentucky?

Charity- That sucks about the guy. They can be such idiots! A good one is hard to find. What are you going to study at school?

Hey Snow!

I have been wondering where Mum is too. I hope she is ok...Does anyone talk to her?

Well, today was Monday...need I say more? I have been having a difficult time kicking this cough. I really should go to the doctor and maybe he can give me something. It is hard to talk in class without having a coughing fit. I am just downing cough drops. I hate being sick. I don't know if you remember but I mentioned last week that one of the little boys in my class broke his arm, well he came back today. Poor thing is trying to figure out how to function with his arm in a cast and a sling. The other kids are helping him out so that is good. Well I need to get busy with "homework". My principal put a book in everyone's mailbox and assigned each grade level a chapter to read before the staff meeting tomorrow...excuse me, homework? Well a lot of the teacher were totally upset, myself included. I mean I already have to take work home and now she wants to read chapters and be ready to teach the others the main points? Our union rep. called the union president and he said that it was ridiculous that we had to do that. My principal just needs to retire. She has had many complaints...oh well...we are all hoping she doesn't have much longer...

Ladies!! sorry i havent been on in ages. Ive been away, after coming back from france i worked for a week or so and went away again. I hooked up with other pozzies someplace beautiful. It was not as I thought it would be (what is?) but Im still glad I went, even though it cost twice as much as planned. I learned a lot being with people who are 20++ years poz. it was, for me, an intense and sometimes very difficult emotional experience. not exactly a restful holiday before the wedding, which I could use.

I am not married yet, I'll be off to get married next (not the coming) weekend, and it will happen the following week.

My arm hurts again, today i have phisio which i hadnt had for ages b/c of all the traveling. so I cant be here as much as Id like.

some good news is that probabaly I'll cross the pond later this year and visit the east AND the west coast and even stick around for a while on the east coast. at least, my bosses want to send me. but they dont know that we are trying to get pregnant and maybe even do fertility treatment and that things could change a lot. they do know I am poz though, thank God I told them back in the day when i wasnt thinking clearly. Had I thought I wouldnt have told them and then I'd be so tense about it.

I think I will wait to see who is elected b4 I commit to the trip. I doubt a republican would sign the US HIV travel ban cancellation. But maybe Im wrong. asides from my own little issues, of course the whole world is holding its breath. On election day (night here), there will be a "white night" in the Dutch town where I live, and everyone will be watching satellite tv. I cannot tell you how tense I am for the elections. Everytime I catch sight of McPalin I get literal shivers. God help us. Im glad to be living in europe and for my brother also who is doing good so we can get my parents away from the iranian reach if need be. The whole world is dependent on america, but some places, even more... I am missing my parents like crazy and losing sleep over abandoning them. I am 100% sure of marrying the right person except for this price. But he isnt near his family either so cant complain. I wish I didnt have to be away, but I was away even before I met him, but the fact of making it formal - as overjoyed as I am about it - is making me sad and worried and just happy and heartsick at once.

Wendy I havent had those apples since I was eating cotton candy the last time there was a worm in it! those are always sold at faires here. 1500 to extract a couple of teeth, yikes!Please give my belated condolences to Billy.

Snow, how's it going? Hope things are calmer now

Queen, as Borat would say, it's Sexy Time!

Betty, in the haze of your depression, you did manage to complete a 10 page government exam. now that would depress me also. I have a feeling that when you have outside appointments you get out of it, thats how it is with me at least. I always crave nothing to do but when i get there I feel anxious, scared and empty. Hope you dont get fined for the books, you can try calling them next time nand say that you dont feel well and will drive out the next day. maybe you can even email. they usually just want to be acknowledged...

Jenny, Charity - hello! I love bowling, although i suck at it. Charity, that guy is a wanker, probabaly better he never showed up, although upsetting...

Viv, just scan it... lots of coughing going round here too.

Moon, 9 days huh.... I have a hunch where this is going sounds like PITA is doing a great job digging a hole for herself, now you just have to stand aside and watch her trip into it. what happened with that doctor's office job? sorry I may have missed that.

Tendai, Im glad your enjoying the company. you always know to make the best of it somehow, you are really something else woman and God I hope things start moving in the right direction there already. Love you.

Netta, glad you're connected again.

I hope all the ladies I havent mentioned are doing great and warm regards to all. I'll try to catch up more but things are really becoming hectic now. I will def. be reading though.

Much love to all you ladies, xoxo

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"If you keep one foot in yesterday, and one in tomorrow, you piss all over today". Betty Tacy

Hows it going. Nothing much going on for me. This accounting class is really getting on my nerves to the fullest. Had to take DD to the ER last night. She has some kind of bug. Other than that nothing but work and school. I'm kind of tired this morning. Didnt get back from the ER until about 1 this morning and had to be up at 5:30.

Drag- Hey Chick long time no hear.

Queen- Did you do micros to your hair.

BT- How you doing. I know you ready to get out of class. GOod luck.

Wini- Thanks for the advice. My 9 year old has to go today and get all his baby teeth pull because they haven't come out.

BT-Glad you feel better. I have been taking Lexapro (previously took Zoloft) and I love it. Zoloft made me gain over 100lbs in a year. So far no weight gain with Lexapro. Hope the appointment goes well.

Win-Man that is expensive. I go to the School of Dentistry for my dental work and it is cheap, sure they might accidentally screw up since they are in training, buy hey, I save a few bucks. Hope he does well with it.

Nothing new here. Of course child support didn't show up in my bank account this morning so I am screwed. I called the girls father and he always gets nasty with me, like I am stealing money from him. He lives in NYC and never sees the girls and has even asked on several occasions if he could sign over his rights. Ummmmm, no thanks. He claims they took the money from his paycheck, but who knows what happened to it from there.

Wendy, I believe that price. When I had mine done (about 22 years ago) it was expensive. You're so right about saving money for tooth problems. Of course, if your kid lives 1/2 way across the country (like mine does) then they're on their own.

Andrea, I wouldn't like to have your own homework when you're busy grading other peoples'. Good luck.

Drag, it sure is good to hear from you. So, you might come to the U.S.? Really, I think no matter who wins, the HIV ban will be repealed. If by some chance (God help us) McCain gets in, he won't want to right away start making enemies (more than he has). I'm not voting for him, don't get me wrong. But I think he would sign the repeal also. I know the rest of the world is watching us right now; especially with the stock market crashing due to the current financial distress. But it'll bounce back. If you watch the news all the time, they'd have you believing the sky is falling. But, the stock market rises and falls every day. It'll come back, probably just not as fast as some people would like (like the CEO's who make millions off others' backs). I can't believe you're getting married in a couple weeks. You must really be excited.

Keeping, I hate going to the ER. Is DD better? Anything seriously wrong? It takes forever at the ER and it's so hard to wait. You must have a lot of patience.

Jenny, I hope the child support gets into your account today. So, the father wants to sign off his parental rights? But you don't want him to? Is that because the child support will stop? I don't know these things, since my daughter's father never paid while he was alive (he never signed away his rights though). I didn't know you were a Native of Kentucky. You know, I just live in Indiana (South Bend). We're not really that far away from each other-only about five hours. I've driven through Kentucky several times when my brother used to live in Alabama and I used to go see him.

I'm alright this morning. Running a bit behind, but that's alright. I'm just going to pay the library what I owe them (probably online, so I can use my debit card) and check out a couple more books.

Oh Drag, you said you think I tend to cancel outside appointments? I used to; I try not to do that anymore. I still sometimes think I'd rather be doing nothing or something else; but then when it comes down to it, I know I need to go, so I usually do. I used to cancel them though. My poor mum, she would always give me rides to my appointments and she never knew if I was going to keep them or not. Sometimes she would drive over from the next city and I would tell her I cancelled them. She was such a gem for not ringing my neck.

Anyway, just going to the doctor's, library, then that horrid class tonight (Microeconomics). I was on Zoloft before and it worked well. So, I'm going to ask him for that. If he doesn't like that, well, I'll just handle it from there. I hope all you ladies have a good day.

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BT- Yeah, if he signs off his rights then he will not have to pay child support, which of course is not an option. I took the girls there this past June to visit him (was going there on a business trip anyway) but he has (and won't) not made an effort to come see them. He doesn't even call them. Of course they are only 2 (she will be 3 on Oct 19) and the other turned 4 early September so they don't really get it. The youngest one actually still refers to my ex (who infected me) as her Daddy. He really was great to my girls, and to me to be honest, I just didn't love him anymore. He was willing to adopt them and assume all financial responsibility. Anyway, the girls father is just really immature. He is my age (32) but is with an 18 year old. Wow, you are pretty close to me. I am in Louisville. Have you ever been to the Derby? Man, one of us may have to make a road trip sometime in the near future!!!

Just getting back in from my support group, not much else going on really. I'm sitting here watching "holiday heart" with Ving Rhames as a drag queen. I liked the movie, I'm going to have to find it. A little bummed because this Friday is my son's bday and I don't have any money to put on his books at jail. I did write him a letter though. Other than that, nada. I'll check back in later.

Oh Drag, you said you think I tend to cancel outside appointments? I used to; I try not to do that anymore.

No Betty, that was just my awkward grammer. I meant that appts. tend to get one out of depression, at least they do me and I feel that you too. But when I have less things that force me to contact things outside my home/office (where I sit alone and far from everyone so unless I make appointments for lunch or coffee I can pass the whole day not talking, very wierd and happens a lot) I tend to be less depressed. More irritated maybe but less depressed. I'd probably try to get out of paying the library by using some excuse. I am not above that . Glad you're doing better. Good to hear.

Yes, if I dont get pregant its likely I'll go to the US. Thanks for the encouraging words re the ban and the economic crisis. It seems that my boss's wife objects to me going to the west coast as well. How is it her business? really it isn't... thats ok with me. whatever.

I've been binging aaahhhrr. that's the VERY LAST thing I should be doing. I was on such a right track with my weight until all that traveling. I am getting all bridezilla now I'm afraid - just told the BF he'd have to dine alone as of tomorrow b/c I'll be on the ginger-maple syrop-lemon-pepper diet.

Keeping, hope your daughter is better. That's a short night you had. Being a parents is so incredibly challenging, that I want and fear it in equal measures.

Jen I wrote you back

Have a great night ladies, I'm off to bed soon

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Hi Ladies. Lucas and I are both doing better. I work 20 hours night shift at the hospital on the weekends. That's why you don't usually hear from me then, and Monday is always a catch up day for housework. Nothing special happening today. Thursday Lucas goes to the neurologist for a check up visit for his Cerebal Palsy. He's doing so good I don't anticipate any problems.

Keeping - I hope your DD feels better. As much as I hate being sick I'd rather it was me than Lucas.

Viv - I hope you are feeling better.

BT - I'm glad you're feeling a little better and hope that you can get what you need from the doctor to make you feel a lot better. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Cindy - Things sound good with you and Ice. I'm glad you're having fun and meeting his friends. Too bad you weren't there to watch PITA go off infront of the big wigs. I would have wanted a front row seat for that show .

Charity - I'm sorry you were hurt, but glad he showed his colors now rather than messing with you for a while first. There are lots of frogs out there, but there are also princes. I hope you find yours soon.

The entire accounting dept was in with the big-wigs in a meeting the other day, so YES, we all saw PITA cry and whine. Emotions were running deep but she was in a league of her own. More on the recent changes this weekend...short version: My new teammate at work hasn't done any of her work for the past week so I played catch up today to help her. She has some deadlines to meet, but really, she has been slacking perhaps?

I am still waiting to hear back from the interview I had at the doc's office. Hopefully I will make it to round #2!

Since Billy is totally into the presidential election and enjoys debates and all news regarding the nominees our TV will be tuned to the debate. I doubt I will watch the entire thing but I will likely hear plenty of it while playing on pogo.com.

I cant remember what PITA stands for all these initials for people in our lives doesnt seem to stick in my head.

Happy early birthday Drag. I hope your wedding turns out to be everything your heart desires.

Jenny - I'm usually in bed by 10:30 and staying up past midnight is rare.

Get better soon Viv

Charity sorry the date stood you up. I think someone else already said it but try to think of it as a good thing. At least he didnt screw around with you for a couple of weeks and then leave you. Your better off. There are some nice guys out there but the shit heads are a dime a dozen. Its likely good you didnt have the chance to fall in love with mr no show. I've met my fair share of guys I wish did not show up. LOL

Hey ladies,I haven't been on in awhile, so I thought I would check in. I hope everyone is well. I have just been working really. I had an interview for a promotion a few days ago, and now I am just waiting for the verdict. I turned 27 on sunday. It was a pretty low key birthday, just did some shopping and had dinner with a friend. I moved into a much nicer apartment about a month ago. I am so glad to be away from the dump I was in. Plus, I have a washer and dryer now I am talking with this guy, but it's much too soon to be saying anything about my status. We'll see if it gets far enough that I need to disclose. Hopefully, but we will see. I hope everyone is having a good night!

Hey ladies!! I just got back my first lab results. My CD4s were at 723 and my VL was at 14000, so I don't have to start on meds yet unless I want to. I was relieved that the disease hasn't progressed rapidly. All the talk about about meds has got my head spinning though. I think my little brain has reached its capacity and is shutting down, lol. I'll just take my time for now to make a decision.

I've been in a pretty good mood these days. Next week I get to take some time off. My SO will be off too. Yay!

BT65: It must be really exciting working for the Obama campaign. I hear the atmosphere is really electric in those offices. Hope your spirits begin to improve.

#1 Mom: I'm glad you and Lucas are feeling better!!!

Keepingfaith: You must be exhausted. I guess it's definitely the season for cold and flu

Moonlight: Iceman definitely knows how to keep a girl happy. Nothing I like better than good food. He's definitely a keeper!!! Hope the pain gets better.

Jenny, Moonlight: I'm baaaaad about buying new undies too!

Jenny: Your girl's father sounds like a real jerk!

Hi Netta!!!

Hi Snowangel!! Congrats on your daughter losing her first tooth. It must be fun playing tooth fairy.

VivyT: You're so lucky that you have a friend you can open up to. I think we all have people who would really be there for us if we gave them a chance. I know I would have been there for any friend if they were in my shoes.

Winiroo: Those candied apples look soooo delicious. I used to love those when I was a kid. I love this time of year. I would probably have eaten all of them at one time. Since there are apples iin them, that makes it healthy, lol. $1500 for dentistry. Yikes!!!

Dragon: Congrats on the wedding!!!! I hope everything is beautiful!!!

Charity: Congrats on getting your schooling set!! Men are definitely frustrating at times. That one that stood you up is definitely a loser and in the long run he did you a favor. I hate that I wasted so much of my life with losers. At least it helps you to appreciate when good guys come along. Seems like Maxine's love life is doing well though, lol.

Hi Queen!! So is Sexy your fella??? Hope you get your financial aid straightened out. I've been hearing on the news about how so many people are having problems due to the bailout mess.

Pink_beauty: Happy Birthday!!!!!!! I hope you get some good news on that promotion. Oh, and good luck on the fella. I have had a good time reading about all the fellas on this board.

Drag, you've got a birthday coming up, aye? Well, happy birthday girlie! Really, I hope your day is special. You deserve it. About getting out, yeah, I'm usually less depressed when I do get out. Of course, sometimes I can come up with excuses why I don't also. The library told me there was a day's grace period on books, so I didn't have to pay anything.

Queen, I'm glad you got your password. I never can remember mine. Good luck with that.

Cin, so you saw PITA have a break-apart? Wow, I would love to see that. It's always the people who complain and goof off the much that fall apart the easiest when the job gets tough, isn't it.

Wendy, there have been a lot of guys that I wished wouldn't have showed up either. I watched about 10 minutes of the debate. I'm a bit disappointed in myself, since I'm always telling people how important it is they vote etc.

Pink, happy belated birthday.

Sweet C, those are great numbers! Congratulations. Forgive me, but I can't remember when you tested positive. Yeah, you don't have to make a decision right now about which meds to take etc. When the time comes for that, your doctor will most likely do resistance testing anyway to see which ones you might not be able to take.

Only two more Microeconomics classes! Last night the professor was mentioning how America is capitalistic, which is why we have the largest gross domestic product in the world. Of course, this all sounds good, but it also means jobs sent overseas for cheaper labor (or to Mexico), machines that replace people etc. So, I guess on one hand it's good, because it keeps us competitive, on the other it's really bad because it puts people out of work. I mentioned Wal-Mart (yeah, I do go there very occasionally, but I don't like them).

Today I'm going to run to the store and then I've got my Government class tonight. I hope we're not there all night. The teacher of this class can tend to ramble. Have a good day ladies.

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Just checking in before I have to go to the school to try to get financial aid. It's rainy over here today and I pretty much slept in, I didn't get up til after 12 pm. I haven't done that in a long time. Have been talking with Sexy though we haven't gotten together lately. It seems like it is one thing or another but it's ok. No, he is not my man, just a friend-----have to lol cause that reminds me of that Biz Markie song..You know the one," And she says she's just a friend, oh baby, you, you got what I need"....

Keeping---Yes, I did do micros and you know how long that takes. But I do my hair myself to save a couple of dollars plus when other people do my hair they seem to make it fall out instead of grow. I guess I have growing hands because my hair has gotten much longer when I take the braids out. My hair is past my shoulders now but I still want it longer so I can wear my own hair in a long style, not braids.

Cindy---Those crabs sounded yummy. I remember when I lived in Florida and we use to catch lobster and cook it with beer. And garlic crabs, they would stink up the joint but they were banging. I know Drag is getting married soon but when are you? Ice is a catch girl, I am waiting for the day he proposes to you. And I want to be flower girl, break the rules, who says the flower girl has to always be a kid?

I did not watch the debates, I never do. I just hate all the bickering and mudslinging. Why go through all that? Just do what the hell you say you are going to do, why waste the time and energy digging up dirt on the next man. I will be glad when it is all over honestly.

I gotta go, almost time to get ready to go to the school. I will keep you all posted, wish me luck.

Well, I am in default on some school loans from before. So, now I have get them consolidated or some crap. Fill out an application from OVR, which is about 30 pages long and then wait to see if they will accept me. If so, then they will pay part of my tuition but they move slow so I may not end up in school til around January....Major Bummer....

BT65--I tested positive on September 11. I think I was infected late last year or early this year. Don't worry about missing the debate. All the highlights have been covered over and over in the news, and there really nothing new to learn. I only watch the debates for the potential drama. I get more information reading about it online.

Queen--Sorry you're having to deal with student loans. I definitely feel your pain. I've been out of school for ten years and haven't made a dent in them because I've managed to forbear. I'm banking on there being a huge student loan bailout or something. It's insane the amount of money the student loan companies make off of us! Okay, rant over.

Moonlight--Well at least I see you got a really hot pic of Billy Baldwin!! Mmmmmm...

This week has been going by so fast, but I like that. I heard from my boss, I am a finalist in the hunt to become the new supervisor. I have a second interview this friday. I am nervous, but confident (sorry for the misspelling)

I can't wait for this weekend. I will be buying myself an early b-day present. I being at a friends home playing Guitar Hero. I feel in love with it. It was so much fun playing some of my favorite music.

I got pretty good. So this weekend I will be buying a gaming system and the game. Plus a larger TV for my room. I am glad this is working out for me.

I am excited for what might happen soon.

Nothing new to report on the men side. I am thinking about join this singles group called "Events and Adventures" Something to do with single people. I think it will be fun and it cost about the same as going a gym.

I will check back in later. Love you all.

Thanks

Charity

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Win~ PITA = Pain In The Ass , and I fell asleep during the Presidential debate. Seems I didn't miss much!

Pink~ Happy Birthday to YOU! Congrats on the new place with the W/D, too!

Sweet~ You have a great CD4 count, just be sure to keep an eye on your VL and to keep your appts with your doctor. A lot of us have been poz well into double-digit years. December will be 15 years for me, I can't believe it.

Betty~ PITA's mood changes like the wind. I've come to realize its her whining that has brought us other three down. Its OK, she'll still crash and burn. I told my boss that even after this buddy-system training we're doing now, PITA will still hit a brick wall when we're all on our own in a few months.

Side note: I didn't get the job at the doctor's office. I got the rejection letter today (when I finally got my ass back to MY house lol). Oh well, I'll do more searching over the weekend. Onward, I say!

Queen~ Sorry about the crap with financial aid. I hope you can consolidate and start anew next semester. As for Iceman, he is so good to me. I can't believe he had me stay over for so many nights. I had to come back the one time to get more meds and dog food, lol. As for a proposal, I don't mention the "m" word. His divorce will be final soon and I really want to give him space to breathe. Although, he's not the typical male who likes to run around and date (obviously). He said months ago really likes to be with one girl. I thought time would tell a different story, but he is very loyal. His buddies at the crab feast really liked me, too. They said I was cracking jokes like I was one of the guys, lol.

Hi Charity~ You posted while I did. I love Guitar Hero. Iceman bought GH3 and has a huge TV that we play it on. I am on Medium level and singing along to the Iron Maiden and Scorpions tunes, lol! Good luck with the promotion at work!

OK, so the Billy Baldwin picture above? Before I LOST my last post, I was typing that I had to go watch Private Practice and Dirty Sexy Money. I have always liked Billy Baldwin, ever since I saw him in the 1991 movie "Backdraft" about the firemen. I saw him on Oprah back then and thought he was adorable. Then he did a full-length naked butt shot in the movie "Sliver" with Sharon Stone. Remember that one? He was the peeping Tom landlord guy or something. I haven't been the same since.

I figured since Ice is drooling over Brooke Burke on Dancing with the Stars, I can admire a handsome guy. Hee hee! At least Iceman is real, though.

I am off work tomorrow for the Jewish holiday and have a million things to do, lol.

Queen, I hope the school can get something worked out for you with those student loans. I've had to take out a few to deal with the rising cost of tuition (my school is $298/credit hour) and I don't look forward having to pay them back. Anyway, I'm sure the school can work out something. Did you have them before you went on disability? If you did, you may be able to get them discharged based on your disability.

SweetC, I watched the debate yesterday afternoon on CNN and parts of it again last night in my government class. Obama seems like he's more together with details of his platform than does McCain. Cin (Moonlight) is right about people here being in the double digit years of being infected. Next Feb. will be 20 for me.

Charity, good for you for treating yourself to a birthday present. What are you going to be taking in school? And good luck with the 2nd interview.

Cin, the biggest thing I like about you is your positive attitude. It does help me. Now, I've got to see that movie where Billy Baldwin does full nudity. I always appreciate a good looking naked male.

Andrea, good to hear from you. I really wish you'd get to the doctor. A cough that lasts this long isn't normal. You're not a smoker, are you?

I'm up early. There's going to be a "Women and Aids" conference today put on by the local ASO that I'm going to. It's from 9-3. Hopefully I'll learn something I didn't know (new breakthroughs, local services available etc.). My doctor was supposed to be a speaker but had to cancel, so one of the case managers is going to do his part. I don't really like this person, but I don't know her all that well either.

Last night in my government class we watched parts of the debate. There's this one guy, in his 50's, who's been in the Marine Corp, who at the beginning of class identified as Republican. Well, now he says he's voting for Obama (yay). He says he always votes his conscious. What does that tell ya. Anyway, I'm going to check out a couple more threads before I have to get ready. You ladies have a good day.

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Well I had another long night with the neighbor banging at all hours. I swear it sounds like he is bouncing a ball off the wall. I think I am going to have to complain to the home owner's association and just deal with whatever he does to me. I can't stand it!!!

Win- I wanted to to laugh when you mentioned earlier about pogo.com. I am a member myself and have spent and evening/afternoon on there. I get fixated on certain games...I guess I am in good company LOL!

BT- Yeah, I need to go to the doctor. I am not a smoker. It is just hard to find time to go and I keep hoping it will go away but I guess it isn't. The morning is the worst.

It is almost Friday!!!! Tonight I have another Math seminar. We have to do several follow-up meetings from the week I spent in the summer in order to get the other half of our money. I am not looking forward to it but I know it always turns out better once I get there.

Yes, BT, I am usually all smiles and bubbly, but I see right through any bull that people (at work) try to pull over on me. I figure, out of respect for people around me, put on a happy face. They don't need to be brought down by me or know what I'm really dealing with. Its a privacy thing (with all of these health probs!) and no one has a clue what I'm really all about unless I let them in. Hee hee, I'm a secretive one, really.

OK, "Sliver" that's like a thin "sliver" of cheese or something, NOT the color silver. That's the name of the movie about a high-rise apt bldg that looks like a sliver up in the sky. It was released in 1993 with Sharon Stone and Billy Baldwin. To think all I could do was pause the VHS tape back then and gawk at a blurry frozen frame of his butt, lol. I might have to see it again on DVD where it can do some REAL damage to me, lol.

Viv~ Sorry you haven't been feeling well and that the neighbors are noisy. I am VERY sensitive to noise. I absolutely hate it when people carry on. I start thinking, "Don't they know they share this area/wall with me?"

Your sleep is the most important, so maybe you need to change your bedroom furniture around? Make sure your head is furthest away from their wall, even if you have to put it in the corner on a diagonal. Maybe get a couple extra throw pillows for your bed which you can insulate yourself with to keep out noise.

If its vibrations/thumping, more so than volume coming through the wall, then you can try earplugs, too. It really makes a difference! Don't get the cheap sponge ones, get the WAX ones. All over the package they say DO NOT insert into ear canal, but that's exactly what I do, lol. I break a nickel-sized piece of wax earplug in two, roll it into a bullet shape and jam it into my ear. It creates suction and you don't hear a thing. Where I live, this brand of earplug is called "Mack's" and you'd better believe I buy the 12-pack. I also keep a fan going in my room at night year-round, even if its facing the wall in the winter. It makes "white noise."

Find out what HOA can do if it gets worse. In my hood, they send letters of increasing warning to the party at fault, with the end result being a fine after 3 warnings. If this is the case in your complex, then you just might have a leg to stand on. Who knows? Maybe other tenants are complaining as well about this same person.

Andrea, please see a doctor. You don't want this developing into pneumonia. I can't remember-have you or anyone else ever called the police on that person making all that noise? Cin gives some good suggestions also.

Cin, yeah, I don't usually open up much about physical problems I'm having with other people. I remember hearing about the movie "Sliver" but never saw it. Now I'm going to have to.

The Women and AIDS conference was alright. I ended up speaking on a panel during one of the last hours. The care coordinator I really didn't care for asked me, and nicely, so I can't really dislike her (hee). I didn't learn anything new and left right after I spoke. I had had pretty much enough and only stayed around because they asked me to speak. It was a bunch of statistics, nothing more. There was a rep from Walgreen's pharmacy who was going to speak and I thought "oh no. I'm not staying for that." Anyway, kind of a boring day. I hope you ladies have a good evening.

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Last week my nephew got killed in virginia beach, I had to fly out right away. miss you all I will be back home Sunday. love vannetta. He was shot and killed by a childhood friend, for no reason. He was 31 years old and left a wife and two kids. Keep us in your prayrers.

I made candied apples again. The last ones I made with Gala apples and found that the apple got soft on the insides from the heat of the candy. This time I tried Fuji apples. Wayyy better. Crisp and juicy. Fuji wins.

Netta- I am so sorry to hear about your nephew. I will keep you and yours in my thoughts and prayers.

Win- Good to know about the fuji's. A lady at the local farmers market makes carmel apples with chocolate and/or nuts, heath bar pieces, coconut...they are HEAVENLY. I think she uses the green ones though, I just had a brain fart and can't remember the name of them. How have you been feeling?

Viv- Listen to BT and go the doc. Have the kids at school been sick too?

Keeping- How are things going with you?

BT- Sorry the conference was boring. I think I would be bored to tears, too.

I had to drive back to where I am from originally today to get a modification for visitation for my son and his father. He got out of jail on Saturday and has been leaving messages at my mothers house. They are going to send me something in the mail and then I have to go to the sheriffs office to have it served, hopefully by then I can get his address. He has been given enough chances to get his shit together, he can wait till my son is 18 and old enough to protect himself and drive away, if he has too.

Win- Good to know about the fuji's. A lady at the local farmers market makes carmel apples with chocolate and/or nuts, heath bar pieces, coconut...they are HEAVENLY. I think she uses the green ones though, I just had a brain fart and can't remember the name of them. How have you been feeling?

Granny Smith maybeI've been feeling ok I suppose. I still have intestinal issues but thats nothing new. Hope everything goes smoothly with the paperwork for you.

(((((Netta))))) I'm so sorry!! That's terrible!! What a senseless act. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Charity: Good luck on the interview!!! When do you find out? I tend to get addicted to computer games too, but I haven't played in a few years. Seems like everyone is into Guitar Hero. I joined a group kinda like that on meetup.com. It really transformed my life. It was nice way to get out of the house. I was definitely busy.

Cindy: I have a PITA in my office too. Luckily, I can avoid mine most days, thank goodness. 15 years, wow...I was surprised by how many people on this board had been living with it for 10+ years. It's so good to have people to look up to.

((((Vivy))))): Hope you can get to the doctor soon.

BT65: That sounds like a cool event at your ASO. I haven't been to mine yet. I'm not even sure how it works or what to expect there? Can I just drop in?? It's amazing how well Obama seems to be doing in the polls. I love how people you would never expect are voting for him. He's even losing in on McCain here in GA.

Wini: Mmmmmmm. I can't wait for Halloween.

Snowangel: Hope you can get that sorted out. Sounds like your son will definitely be better off. How old is your son??

It's almost the weekend. Yay. I'm supposed to be going to Six Flags. I love going at this time of year during Fright Fest.

"...health will finally be seen not as a blessing to be wished for, but as a human right to be fought for." Kofi Annan

Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

I was thinking Granny Smiths too. I might have to make some at Iceman's house this weekend.

Well, he just rolled out to meet the guys for the Wild Hogs trip to NC. I am nervous with worry. Its over 9hrs, prob more on a MC. They are staying at a cozy cottage next to a lake in the mts of western NC.

Netta, I am so, so sorry for your loss. What a horrible thing. You're in my thoughts.

Cin, what a nice time of year for a m.c. trip. It sounds like he'll have fun.

Snow, I hope you can get that paperwork through without incident and that SB will be out of your son's life. That's the best thing that could happen for you and your son.

Wendy, glad you're feeling alright.

Sweet C, have fun at Six Flags.

I'm supposed to be leaving in a few minutes to meet my old psychology teacher for lunch. We've kept in touch through e-mail (she's an Obama fan like I am). I was wishing I had her phone number though, because I really don't feel like going. I'm pretty tired and achey. I guess that's part of getting older. I haven't exercised this week, maybe that has another thing to do with it. Of course, when lunch is over I do have the option of coming home and snoozing for awhile.

I was thinking about going to a movie today or tomorrow, but am undecided on which to see. I'd really like to see the new Coen brothers movie, I think it's called "Burn After Reading." I'd also like to see "Religulous," the new Bill Mahr movie. I can't wait until Oliver Stone's "W" comes out about Bush. That should really be a good one.

I don't have any elaborate plans for the weekend. I might go to an NA meeting tomorrow night. Today, after lunch, I'm going to hit the bed. You ladies have a good day.

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BT-I hope you enjoyed your nap. I am jealous. Right now I am so tired but I'm not ready to go to bed.

Drag- Enjoy your day! It's VERY soon right?

Sweet C- I haven't been to Six Flags in years. I feel like going to Knotts Scary Farm.

Snow- Hey there...

Well another week is over. I have not gone to the doctor yet for my cough, I know, I know. I did get a call from my gyno with the results from my repeat pap. Remember I had the colposcopy and my doctor wanted to do another test? Well, the nurse said the doctor needs me to come in. Great. I'm sure there is probably another test she wants to do. Oh well...I just have to figure out when I can get in. I may have to take a day off of work...what a hassle. I wonder if all this is related to the HIV? I need to ask.

I get to see my old friend tomorrow and I am very excited. I plan on telling her about my status. I'll let you all know how that goes. I don't really have anything happening...I'm just tired. Have a good night everyone!

Cin, 560 miles, aye? Wow. That's a long ride, but I'm sure they really enjoy it. They probably don't complain about the weather. I'm sure when they get there, they all scratch themselves and let out loud burps.

Andrea, girl, you better get to the doctor with that cough. I know, sometimes it seems like we don't have time to go to the doctor, but do you have time to take off work when you're too sick to go in? Hmmmm? I'm sorry to hear about you having to go back in for the gyn stuff. Women with HIV are more likely to have gyn problems, that was shown to be true long ago. Do you know where your numbers are at? And good luck telling your friend. Please let us know what happens.

It's a chilly morning, but supposed to get into the high 70's today. I don't know yet, other than study, what I'm going to do today. I was actually thinking about going to see that movie, but I'm undecided. If it were going to be chilly all day, I'd probably stay in my jammees. You ladies have a good day.

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Well, I never heard back from Iceman last night. They were at rest stops at 10pm and 11pm, and he said they were less than an hour from the cottage. I was on Virtual Earth looking at all of the roads down there, waiting for him to call. I finally got to bed at midnight and fell asleep with the lights on, waking up at 245am, and he hadn't sent a text. I am leery of calling now cause they are probably just waking up and are very sore from the ride.

Andrea~ I have been poz nearly 15 years and had my one colposcopy back in '96, right after my husband died. Everything came back normal, it just seems that GYNs are on high-alert when they hear you are poz. After you've been their patient for awhile and they see that you're doing well, they calm down a little bit. I don't blame a doc for being aggressive when there's a potential problem, though. Lord knows my PCP put me through the ringer in Spring '07 with my perception probs.

Oh, I also had a uterine biopsy in Spring '08 after an abnormal Pap and it was fine, too. Other than the pill not being effective from Sustiva taxing my liver, I haven't had any probs. I told my GYN a year ago that I wanted to stop the pill in order to regulate my cycle. I am doing fine now. *High Five*

BT~Yep, I hope the guys are getting their morning coffee and not squeaking too much as they try to move. Ice said during the middle of the ride yest that his butt hurt, lol. He is down there with three buddies from the program, which I think is really nice. They are going to hit a couple of meetings down there, took the laptop and everything to do a search. I feel like staying in my jammies, too, today. Maybe I'll go to the store and buy some apples. Win's candied apples looked SO yummy! I also have a recipe for chocolate cake that you make in a mug in the microwave. It only takes five minutes. I haven't tried it, but I am anxious to see how it would turn out.

Speaking of food....I ran into an old co-worker at the bank Thursday and I was wearing a babydoll style shirt to hide my lipo gut. She said, "Oh, are we expecting?" Oh dear God. I told her I was just trying to hide my gut and laughed it off. I have gained twenty pounds since she last saw me in December, and she is about 4'11" and must weigh 90 pounds. Oh well, at least I am alive.

I am going to go feed Cheech and work on tracking these blood sugars. They are all over the place.