Thursday, October 15, 2009

How can something be something so good for you, and simultaneously so utterly bad for you? How can it make you so happy, and yet have moments of pure misery? Yes, this entry may appear over-dramatic or personal. However, it is simply the thoughts (simple and complex) of a young woman stuck in a weird place... Stuck.

There are times when something appears so wonderful we take it all in... We indulge in the sweetness of the moments, and crave more. We give so much to make the happiness and hope continue. However, the paradigm shifts. What was once so completely beautiful, rusts, but can't (or won't) seem to decay.

Can something be good for you and congruently bad? Yes. I think we've all experienced this to some extent, but have perhaps not even recognized it. We all have things in our life that we see the briilance in and have trouble throwing away... An banana is a fabulous fruit, and source of nutrition... until it rots and turns black. Yet often we hold onto the bad bananas much longer than is necessary. Now, these bananas can make amazing banana bread... but they can also just continue to rot.

Okay, maybe that's a bad analogy.... maybe it's not.

I have determined the following: Things that are good and bad for you can coexist in the same space because that's how we learn. We use our agency to determine how we will use the things that are given to us, and how we let it affect us. There can be good and bad found in almost everything, and we have know how to bring forth the good... and let things go when only the worm in the apple appears to be left.

In regards to these current thoughts, I guess that I am simply aghast as to how a person could be the cause of this poisonous vaccine... the vaccine that that somehow backfired and hurt when it was suppose to protect - protect and heal.

It's a paradox... A living paradox.

*muah*

Song of the Day: Firstly, the song of the day is relevant to the post above... and second, this is one of my favorite songs of all time. Yep, I said it - It's epic to me. The song? Check out Jon McLaughlin's song Indiana - my favorite lines are written below. He also sings the song So Close from the "Enchanted" Soundtrack. Enjoy!

I'm glad i never lived next to the water So I could never get used to the beach And I'm glad I never grew up on a mountain To figure out how high the world could reach I love the miles between me and the city Where I quietly imagine every street And I'm glad I'm only picturing the moment I'm glad she never fell in love with meFor some the world's a treasure to discover And your scenery should never stay the same And they're trading in their dreams for Explanations All in an attempt to entertain But I love the miles between me and the city Where I quietly imagine every street And I'm glad I'm only picturing the moment I'm glad she never fell in love with meThe trick of love is to never let it find you It's easy to get over missing out I know the how's and whens, but now and then, She's all I think about I wonder how it feels to be famous But wonder is as far as I will go Because I'd probably lose myself in all the Pictures And end up being someone I don't know. So it's probably best I stay in Indiana Just dreaming of the world as it should beWhere every day is a battle to convince myself I'm glad she never fell in love with me

A Little Bit About Me...

I am a singer, an actress, and a dancer. I am an educator and a life-long learner. I am a comedian. I love to laugh... and smile. I am spiritual and passionate about my faith. I love sports, politics, reading, writing poetry, and I'm crazy about traveling! I work hard and play even harder... I hold no shame in my awkwardness, and embrace the unique. I am passionate and emotional, though I very rarely cry. I have two webbed toes, love eyeliner and the color yellow, eat too much ice cream, collect elephants, and am a personal paradox - living in planned spontaneity. Oh, and I love to BLOG.