Autism, Cerebral Palsy, and being an "Adult Baby"...#98

Lonely...
Feeling like a small little boy...
Feeling like I always am bad and naughty...
Me always have to be punished...
Not allowed to do what I want...
"TOMMY!!!!! STAND IN THAT CORNER!!!!!"
"OBEY!!!!!"
Mummy been dead for years, but I still hear her yelling at me...
Me still feel the blows like she is still "beating me" to make me OBEY...
Still scared of doing anything wrong...
"NO!!!!! I WILL NOT ALLOW YOU TO _____"...
Terror, pain, and suffering still...
Mummy still has to be obeyed...
Or I will "face the consequences"...
In despair...
Lonely...