Saturday, August 13, 2005

DONT LISTEN TO YOUR HEAD JOHNO

Your all starting to become the Anti Christ in my head my sponsor told me about in step4. It never came before.

Whats this the very last throws of the disease? Wanting me to hate the people that are doing me the most good?

It’s the people that tell me the truth. I get wound up just being in their company. Its cos none of you give my head what it wants, you give me what I need. Even if its nothing.

I got very few people around me that fuel a self pity attack, and if you did I wouldnt thank you for it. Much as I dont like it, I love the ego puncturing truth, it heals me.

Disease is cunning baffling and powerful. It still wants to isolate me and kill me. It wants me to stop, tells me I got enough, and the programmes not helping all this by working!! I feel good, i got a "lasting" inner peace i never felt before.

My head tells me you all got nothing more to teach me. Then it tells me all newcomers are wasting my time, so whats the point of calling them.

Its bollocks. DONT LISTEN TO YOUR HEAD JOHNO

Just keep on keeping on Step8 suggestions especially work wi newcomers, until told otherwise

About Me

Picture is "Hands Of God & Adam" Michelangelo.
Lets "Keep it simple". A recovered alcoholic. Grateful for the mysterious, magical gifts of a Loving God, AA, 12 steps, traditions & principles. Continually, doing for me what I could never do for myself. No longer suffering... but never cured. Yeh I get scared and abit pre mental at times! BUT I am not the emotional cripple I used to be. Always much work to do and always will always be work in progress. Living Sober, with a REAL sense purpose & a sense of humour. It just keeps getting better!!