Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

Trying to stop...stupid b/p cycle....

SO I've been bullimic forever...and I would like to stop for good. I told my roomate that if I throw up, then I owe him 10 bucks....which isn't a lot but would add up for sure.
SO last night I just coulnd't stop eating...and I told myself I would eat what I wanted, but I would not throw up after. Well I did throw up, but in a garbage bag in the living room while my roomate was sleeping instead of in the bathroom where he always seems to know after (because I am going to tell him I didn't puke).
Why can't I seem to control myself? I just don't understand why when I am full and I have eaten enough, my body doesn't seem to register and I eat until I'm so uncomfortable I feel I HAVE to vomit or I'll burst. I really hate it. I know I hate my body....but I also know binging and purging will make me gain weight, not loose it. It's a crappy cycle and I just really needed to vent!!!!

I totally understand what you are saying. I have been bulemic 6 years and it is a god aweful cycle! I don't think betting that you aren't gonna puke is going to help you. You need to make realistic goals that will work for you, real meals that are good for you and portioned, do other things after eating like watch tv,go for a drive,listen to music,write in a journal....It's a huge struggle but I know you can fight it!

hi hon. been dealing w/ bulimia for 6-something yrs. i say i'm never gonna do it again, but yeah right! take it as slow as you need to. if you need anything you aren't alone on this site. that's one thing i'm learning. take care

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