Falling into Obedience

Everyone is surprised by how heavy I have been lately. Isn't it so exciting? Publishing and Adopting

But so many things about both blessings are weighty. I am afraid of my capacity to do all of this, I hate being out there for scrutiny, I am afraid of what writing will mean for my family and so many other things....

So why do it?

What if...

these little acts of obedience were a small part of a matrix of dominoes unfolding the glory of God (small because after all I am a small domino in a huge matrix).... could He bypass me and find another route? Of course- He is God.

But what if I laid down my life domino and through that unleashed an army of others who laid down and unleashed their obedience and through this matrix- God’s glory was displayed through the laying down of lives in the midst of a generation?

And just in case God has given me these insane opportunities to display His glory, we (my husband and I) feel compelled to obey.... no matter the cost and uncertainty.

Because heaven is coming... and soon none of us will care about any other glory but His anyway.

I have many dominoes that have fallen behind me to allow me to fall....