One day in 2014, like any other day, I was upstairs getting ready for work. I typically study a couple scripture verses each day. That week I had been questioning the concept of God’s love. Not questioning my belief in it, more like questioning it because I never felt it. I know God loves us, I just don’t feel that love. In my study I read scripture and writings from theological thinkers on the subject. Everything came back to John 3:16. “For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. NIV” I believed this statement; I just didn’t feel this statement. Basically, after my week of study I came to the conclusion that God loves us because scripture says so…and that’s about it. I accepted it yet was disappointed. So I turned to prayer and asked God to help me understand this. I know people that have an emotional connection to God and have such a deep relationship with Him. Mine felt cerebral at best. And this was after many, many years of becoming saved. As I was getting ready that morning I was praying to God, as I did before, to show me what it all meant. I told Him that I was dense when it came to hearing His small voice in my spirit. All at once I felt this overwhelming feeling of dread. My mind was filled with the sickening feeling of all the sin I ever had. I felt as though I was losing my mind. I wanted to yell out for my wife thinking I had snapped. I really didn’t know what do, so I just prayed the Lord’s Prayer over and over. I prayed the Lord’s Prayer three times before this mental explosion, overwhelming feeling of all my sin, slowly subsided. As I stood there in shock God impressed upon me all that it meant. To God, sin has substance. It’s not just a theological concept given to keep people in their place or to put a name on their poor actions. It has mass and weight. He referred to it as filth. We cannot be in His presence with sin. He is pure light, pure joy. Sin is the opposite of all God is. I understood that He created us to be with Him forever. That is what He wants of every one of us. So because of our sin spirit we cannot be in His presence. He took care of it all. He gave us His Son to take upon Himself all of our filth, and went to the cross where His blood washed it all away and made us pure. He did all this just because He wants to spend forever with us. Do you understand that?! In spite of us, He took care of it. I cannot accurately describe the horror of the feeling of sin. I also cannot describe the great joy in God for the sacrifice that He made on our part. We had nothing to do with it. It is His grace. You really need to understand that He did all this just because He wants to spend forever with us. That is how much He loves us.So, how did this change me? What was once just a mental concept for me now became real....very, very real. Before, I believed God loved me because His word said it was so. Now, I have an emotional experience associated with it all. I now know what it feels like to be loved by God. I understand it in a visceral way.Twenty five years ago I had my first experience with God that was part of what set me on my walk with Him. I have seen God work in my life in small ways like He has in the life of many people. However, after this last experience, I have had a few thoughts that won’t leave me. First, I am very careful in what I ask God to show me. If you ask Him, He will answer. Second, now what do I do with all this? Well, this is the beginning of all that. I have heard of people being saved in an instant. It took me 25 years. I told you I was a little dense.