Yep. One of the other people at the table was Dylan Jones, the old editor of GQ. He was very polite and sweet, but I kept thinking “you were a big David Cameron supporter. You actively choose to starve and mistreat vulnerable people as long as there’s the tradeoff you get more money to keep for yourself”.

TOMORROW IS MY LAST DAY AT MY SHIT JOB!! I AM SO EXCITED TO LEAVE. while hardly anyone is coming to my leaving drinks (loool), the 5 people who are are genuinely my 5 favourite co-workers. i cannot wait to work my last shift while massively overdressed for it, then go to my lovably shit old man local down the road for drinks while massively overdressed for it. gonna wear my tiara and loads of sparkly eyeliner!!! gonna do a test run of my outfit tonight to choose the right jewellery for it and make sure my shoes go as well as i think they will.

think i’m just going to try loads of different outfit combos this evening.

She’s joining the dis mod team. Sean’s arranged for a fold out to be delivered to nikki’s bedsit near the office and apparently has been generous enough to offer a £1.50 lunch subsidy. Theo is still the big earner on £14k per year (9-8 hours) ofc.

So basically things got extremely shit at my retail job (not sure if you saw about that?) and I just felt so furious and helpless and desperate to get out that I grasped at the easiest thing I could, which was an admin job at Fenwick in Tunbridge Wells :’) It’s full-time and a whole 45p per hour better paid (…so, still pretty shit pay, but eh)… I feel weirdly depressed about it (it is obviously SO NOT what i want to be doing, and I’m so crushed by the whole job hunting experience that I hardly feel less crushed that I’ve had to settle for such an underwhelming role. feel like suuuch a failure), but at the same time, I’m so relieved to have something to go to that’s less exploitative than my current role and means i get to have weekends off, a stable routine and no customers to deal with. (my friend’s mum, who is great, is going to be my line manager at new job, which is quite comforting.)