Dec 6, 2009

Fantasy..

Here I finished the most awaited book “Five point someone” finally. Not that I m a big dieheart fan of chetan bhagat but I read all the other books by him apart from the very 1st one. I was introduced to him by Nikhil who wanted me to read ‘One Night @ Call centre’ (so he gifted me that one). Was a good book worth a read (and I read it twice). But this post isn’t about chetan or his books. This is about my fantasy, a lifelong fantasy which never came true.

My fantasy to stay in a hostel in my student life. Isn’t that amazing, staying on your own, away from your family taking care of your own things. The freedom of taking decisions, managing your own finance, being on your own in all ups and downs. All this sounds super exciting to me. I always kept dreaming as to how it would have been if I had a chance to stay in a hostel. Not as paying guest and all but being an hostelite. Being under those restrictions, rules still finding your way out, breaking the deadlines. I strongly believe if I were in a hostel even for couple of years I would have been a total different person( don’t worry not a spoil brat) do have some friends who have stayed. Life in a hostel teaches you so much. I mean one should really stay in a hostel to know the real “you”. It makes you self dependent it makes an individual.

I do have friends who stayed in hostel. They kept telling me stories about the life in a hostel. Like how goody goody it may sound to stay away from folks this and that, but nothing remains Mary go round. But you know what I don’t care how harsh it might turn out to be, I would get a lifelong lesson. A lesson of its kind. This book reminded me of my long forgotten fantasy. And I enjoyed it so much cos kept imagining myself as one of the character in the story and kept thinking how it would have been. It was too good of fun even when I cant go and do those things I could at least do it in my imagination in the world of this book. I would always regret not having that peace of happiness, fun, madness being an hostelite…

Oct 30, 2009

Nostalgia:

Don’t know why but surfed through the old snaps of mine. Old as in not real old ones, just last 5-6 yrs. Or to be precise the memories of my architectural course. Was too good of a fun seeing those once again. Everyone looked so different, we all looked like kids. The 1st year photos are marvelous cos that was the beginning where we looked like as if all of us were from all different corners. New to all this, new to architecture, new to each other Popping our little heads out of our own cocoons. And trying to become one class, trying to become KRVI’ts (my college KRVIA) the second year snaps are fun, we actually look like pals for ages, as we belong to one big family. So innocent we were. There wasn’t much of a group-lism by then. But by the end of third year we had made our small small groups, and still were a class when we had to be a class.

With time we knew our differences, we knew our likings, we knew our preferences too, but on the process of knowing all of this the idea of “one class” had already taken a back seat. Fading up slowing in our minds. Wasn’t surprising, cos that’s human nature we love to form cocoons, sometimes just by ourselves, or sometimes with the preferred ones. By the end of fourth year even the occasional hi-bye vanished away, and the ones who did so either it was for the heck of it or for some own purpose. Thankfully there wasn’t any rivalry as such in the class. Fifth year added to the gap, we started working and were on our own in the big outside world. New work, new people, new world. The gap between us expanded. Some of us tried to reduce it. It worked with some with other there wasn’t any reciprocal reaction.

And now its very different, all of us are scattered. Soon ill be out of this college, and I wonder will anyone miss me? will anyone remember me? Answer is unknown but I know one thing ill never forget these five years, cos I have learnt a lot. I have got a lot, some good some bads. I loved may pals, and I still love them. The way Newton said ‘every action has a equal n opposite reaction’ I think even friendship is like that. If there isnt equal reaction the bond never lasts.

Ohh!! What am I talking about.. I thought I would say something nice and cheerful cos was very happy looking at those pictures, I thought I would tell u about some funny snaps which reminded me of crazy fun we had… but I guess I am little nostalgic now..

I would say even if we have 10 friends only 3-4 of them would be your real friends, who think the same for u the way u do. And those are the ones who know what’s on ur mind even just by the way u say “hello!” on the call…those are the ones who love u for you are, the ones who know truly know who you are… I do have such pals (very few but that’s better) and I am happy that I have realized this so soon in my life…

Posting a snap of mine to change the mood of the post. That 1st day of my life when I wore saree. Shits can’t forget that..see how I look. :D ...bye

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Oct 21, 2009

hello..once again.

Its almost two months .. Quite a long time for anyone to not blog isn’t it.. but things have way too busy in life. I had some final college submissions to make, so was caught up with that. Some family things also kept me busy. And frankly speaking I totally forgot I have a blog as well :D.. so now u should know my mind was so caught up with things. But it always feels nice to get back to the blog, my own space. Saw some comment which I didn’t check for all this time. I hope u guys had a great Diwali and loads of fun. My Diwali wasn’t to great again cos of my studies. Didn’t do much this time. And actually have lot more things to update u about..but don’t have enough time to do so.. but I m sure u ill do it soon.. n u will wait n come back to read it :D..

See you soon

Take care..

Sep 14, 2009

my garden tails (tales)!!

I never ever thought the backyard of my house has so much that i was unaware of. These are some of the visitors i tried to capture. I really wish i knew there names. when i find time i surely try to find out. as of now just introducing u to "My Garden tails" :) If i had a better cam may be an SLR the snaps wud have been more intresting. :(

Sep 8, 2009

vacation Part-2

I m back, I know took a little longer..so let’s not waste any more time and continue with

Part- 2

The real vacation started the very moment when those crystal clear waves touched our feet, the smooth wind blew on our skin, and all we could hear was wind and all that we could see was the ocean. It felt heaven to be at such a place. So neat, so clean, total pure form of nature. Three of us were just walking on the shore being quite, cos I guess all of us were amazed and lost in the beauty of the place. We walked and walked looking around, clicking pictures, making faces, chasing each other at times, and racing like kids. Everything felt right at that time, its didn’t matter actually, all right and wrong things were left behind. Imagine such an amazing beach and u r the only people on the beach. Would u really care then?? It felt as if we owned the place, and as if it was our territory.

After the first intro to the place we were starved cos we walked a lot. So had our lunch and then sat for sometime enjoying the wind. Got some rest in the afternoon. Today being the 1st day we decided not to go in water and keeping this day a dry day. (in all ways J) day seemed smaller for some reasons cos the sunset was real early here. Then we talked, chit chatted. And as always I was the bakara for all sorts of leg pulling. I got to know a-b-c-d of “Dakarrr”. As we had eventful day we went to bed early planning for a good early morning jog for tomorrow morning.

The early morning happened to be at 10am. Cos we had such a good sleep, none of us woke up for the “planned jog”. Anyways that didn’t matter much cos we were on a vacationJ. Had breakfast, and then the real fun was there!!. We got into our short, kept all our imp gadgets in the room and just jumped into the water. Damn it was madness the waves had super force, the wind was super fast too, and the water was nicely cold. We looked like three kids who went in water for the 1st time. We jumped, we hopped, we ran, and dashed on the waves. It was just awesome. Pure awesomeness. We sat in water, closed our noses and went bellow water. We were floating, we were trying to fight with waves, and top to bottom we were drenched. When we came out of the water it was almost 4 hours that we were in water and still we wanted to go back. Hell loads of chapp chapp like kids. Then what, good lunch and some rest cos even when our hearts wanted to go back in water the bodies were screaming for rest. Nikhil had some small problem in his knee too. So we got some rest. As it was a vacation for me having booze was an integral part of it. It was me and suku who had to go on our hunt to find booze Nikhil decided to stay back. We went to market brought booze (my favorite vodka). 1st time I was buying booze N even when I was away from Nikhil may just for an hour or so, I was still missing him. Felt stupid to miss him like that stupidly in love I guess J. So then by the time we were back time for dinner with nice drinking session. Where me n Suku were d 1st to finish our pegs and had to wait till Mr Nikhil finishes his. As always started blabbering the very moment I finished two pegs. Loads of stupidity, he stopped me from drinking more so we finished our small party and said good night..Frankly speaking I don’t remember when I sleptJ.

Next day morning we were in water little early. Did lots of masty today as well. These guys were busy playing in the water, I was busy listening to a good music and enjoying the waves. But as u know if u don’t have any thriller in the story it isn’t fun. Same thing happened here. Me being the girl my parents got hell conscious as to where I was and all. And they wanted to talk to someone I was with. Man shits u should have seen our faces. They didn’t know I was with Nikhil if they knew this trip wouldn’t have been there. So then we had to think and think for a way out. Having two tech savvy people with me helped. We made a conference call and it actually worked. God felt so good. Then again the trip was back on track. He gifted me a nice t-shirt which I wore today and it was good one as always. His choice is nice (including me) or may be he knows me so well that he knows what will look good on me. Today’s day was an eventful day, and the last day of the trip too cos we were to take train tomorrow back to Mumbai. Woke up early did all the packing and left the rooms. Our train being in the evening we had all possible time in the world to do time pass. We sat there doing nothing. Then me and Nikhil went for our last stroll on the beach promising that we would come back here soon. We took local bus to station and dumped our luggage on platform. We were almost 2-3 hours early. Sat there like three lukhas having no work in life. At 6:30pm boarded the train and that was the end of our small n fun vacation. So our journey back home started the moment train started. Felt little bad that it was over, but felt amazing for the fact that we had a good vacation.

Nikhil and Suku were to stay in Mumbai for two more days.

So I will be back with part-3 of the vacation or I would say Mumbai part of the vacation.. See ya.

Aug 19, 2009

Our 1st vacation.. -part1

There were arguments, there were fights, there were days when we didn’t talk to each other and finally there was a day when we headed for our 1st vacation…that’s 5th august 2009 place:Tarkarli-konkan.

Nikhil’s arrival in Mumbai was 11:30am and our train was at 11:00pm. Don’t get surprised with his early arrival like that. Cos sometimes it’s just too difficult to stay away so he decided that we will roam around a little in Mumbai and then catch our train. As we say everything isn’t ‘Merry go round’. I couldn’t go to airport to receive him cos some family things came up so Nikhil and Suku had to find their own way. Which I was sure Nikhil was capable of. But I was feeling really awful for not going to airport n then even after he was in my city I was still away from him, was definately a sad feeling. The most important thing which made me feel nice was, I just told him the reason for not coming and even before I could say anything he told me to take my time. i felt so relaxed n really wanted to say thanks to him for such an understanding. Anyways managed things as fast as possible n finally I was at Mochha where these guys were passing there time till I come (or I should say nicely enjoying there hukahh). Gave him a call n told him to come outside. And that was the moment, like every other time, when my smile went bigger my heart went faster and the world felt nicer, the very moment I m in his arms. Meet Suku (our common friend) who was visiting Mumbai for the 1st time. So he was having a good bird watch. Then we started thinking as to what all we can do cos our train being in the night we had plenty of time. We headed for our lunch cos I knew these guys must have been hungry and I was hungry too (cos in the excitement of meeting him I had nothing since morning was just on my coffee .. J shuuuhhhhhh!!) so took these guys to an Chinese restaurant called ‘Stomach’. Did hell lot of time pass had good food and waited for Shweta to arrive.(shweta my friend but a perfect partner of Nikhil J). Finished our lunch, and then took Nikhil to my office cos people at work wanted to meet him. Sat there for some time and then went to nearby mall. Malls are the best places to do time pass even for the whole day, u sit there do nothing still no one comes to bother you. And anyways we looked like four lukhas who had nothing to do in life and were sitting there. Then there was Suku’s friend who came to meet him, Nikhil and shweta went and brought gifts for her ( nothing for me L) basically loads of time pass. Finally we left the mall and headed towards CST. As u all know when he is with me I forget half the things cos he takes away all my attention. We got into the local n then I realized I paid for our tickets but forgot to take them so we got down on the next station and brought new tickets. I hated myself for it and said sorry n no of times but still I m very foolish sometimes. Reached CST got settled in our seats, and the train started n the same moment the thought which travelled my mind was, finally our 1st vacation he he. And the 1st long distance journey with him the one I always wanted to go for. We talked forfor a while but these guys were really tired cos they had come right after there shift and then there was whole lot of roaming around, so we said good night and were back on our own berths. Within seconds these guys were on the moon but I was awake for very long, partly cos of the happiness and partly cos of some moron making some stupid noises to seek my attentions..bloody idiot..

Overnight journey at around 11:30am we reached the resort. Before we reached there Nikhil gave me a warning saying that “hopefully the place is good or u are dead”. The moment we reached n saw the view my heart was full of pride for choosing this place. It was too good of a place. And isolated beach and small houses (our rooms) along the beach in the rows of trees. Amazing it was. I looked at him and noticed the small smile on his face when he was looking around. Held each other and thought as to how long we have to wait for this moment to come. And then Nikhil said “it’s gona be five years… our 1st vacation” and both of us had a smile…

good start of vacation I guess..

To be continued ..

Jul 22, 2009

It’s just green

My last Sunday was too good. No no I didn’t go for any picnic or something. Actually I didn’t have any weekly off and had to go for work even on Sunday. So u thinking as to how come that makes it to be nice Sunday right? I’ll tell you. .. Actually I woke up at 5:30am unlike my weekdays when I wake up by 7:00am reason being I had a site visit to go for and the site was no where nearby but it was in Puna. Yeah!! now u know why did I wake so early. So there our journey starts to puna at 7am in the morning from Andheri .in office car with one of my colleague (sir’s wife). But it was wired cos even after waking up so early (unlike my other Sundays when I wake up by 10 or 11) I was very happy just to be out on Sunday morning cos there was no crowd in the train, on the roads, it seemed like everything belonged to me and I was the only one there. Felt very refreshing to see Mumbai roads without traffic.

Like u know me , the moment I got into the back seat next to mam I started talking cos just the cheerful mood. This and that n our talks went on till the point when I realized that it was my 1st ride to Puna by road, and as many people told me the Mumbai- puna express highway is amazing. That got me jumping in the front seat next to the driver. After a while we were out of Mumbai on main road the express highway. And I must say it was a perfect time for the drive less cars on the road cloudy day little bit of drizzle, totally perfect. I took over the music and played some amazing stuff perfect for the perfect weather.

I really have no idea how to put it in words, but still I will try. Every single corner of the view was filled with the nature’s beauty. It was all green, with the stark difference of black stone of the Cut Mountains cutting the way across this beauty. Penetrating trough the green with the superb road. The clouds were so thick n so low that one can’t figure out where mountain ends. The hill tops were just invisible. It felt like if I stretched my hand I could reach the clouds. The ghats were at the pick of its beauty. Our car was at the speed of 110 (thank god mam was sleeping in the back seat). Rushing through the heavy rains at times and just blowing wind sometimes. Cutting, shattering the water on the road splashing it in the air behind us. The vehicles which past by vanished in seconds in the dew of rains. We reached Puna so fast, that didn’t realize we travelled so much. As the city started the fun started to vanish somewhere. Still it being new city for me I had lot to see lot to observe. The day went by fine with our site visit. The house I m doing interiors for, was a nice flat 3bed-kitchen flat on 4th floor, with nice view and a big terrace. And it was situated in good area. And some visit to a big tile shop which was 3 story showroom. Got to see lot more new things. So the went by well, but ended up making me go super tired and stressed out cos by then it was the 7th day of the week I was continuously working. When we started our journey back I was dead my back n neck was gone given a chance I would have slept on the roads itself. So I sunken myself in the car. But no idea how all the energy was back in place when we left Puna city and were back in the beauty of greens. I go the camera out and was back with my photography. I reached home by 10:30pm n dragged myself in bed somehow, when I thought about the day as I always do it got me smile, cos whenever ill think of my first road ride to Puna, it will remind me of the greens all around and will make me feel refreshing within. But I must tell u clicking snaps sitting inside the car running at 110 isn’t an easy thing. I guess I have still managed well, take a look n let me know.

Enjoy...

Jul 12, 2009

GIRLY..GIRLY

“GIRLS” what’s the first thing which comes to ur mind after this world? The physical factor, or the girly factor in her?...What defines a girl?. Physical things are natural but according to my observation, the girly factor plays an important role too. Now talking about girly factors, what does it exactly mean? or what all do fall under the name of “those girly factors”. Hmm let me think.. One most important would be the style, style in walking, dressing, talking as well as expressions. Now u would ask expression also has style, I would say yeah it does, for example I did hear many girls using word “isshh!!” (from movie devdas). And I wondered how natural that was. Or like people assume color PINK to be the girls favorite one. and every time I go for shopping the first color shop fellow shows me would be pink, n have to request him to show anything but pink, then he gets this big question mark on his face as if I m an alien or pink was the only color in his shop.. Dressing up putting up make-up are also known to be girly things. Isn’t natural beauty appreciated?

Style in dressing is fine with me. But style is talking in expression sounds wired to me. Just because I m girl do I need to follow all this. Or to be precise do I need to have those latake- zatake, those addayen. And how would it look if I try n give those intentionally.. I m sure it would look awful. I have many people telling me I m not at all like other girls, or they also end up saying that I m a girl by mistake. :D May be they say it cos I m frank. My way of expression is bold and straight forward. Or as they say it the so called girly factors are missing in me. I personally don’t know if I have those or I don’t, may be they are subtle hidden somewhere in me, which do pop up sometime. But I m a girl after all, may be little tomboy types. What makesa girl, is her emotion, feelings and not all the superficial things.

I would say i m the way I m, and still I m girl... and happy to be different than other girls, whichever way it might be. :)

Jun 11, 2009

Whats "Love"

Something intresting i came across..enjoy..

A group of 4 to 8 year-old Children was asked, "What does love mean?" Theanswers they gave were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.

What is Love???*

--"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears iteveryday" (Tina - age 7)

--"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone elsekissing me to sleep at night." (Clare - Age 5)

--"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. Youknow that your name is safe in their mouth." (Billy - age 4)

--"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and painther toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time,even when his hands got arthritis too.. That's love." (Rebecca - age 8 )

--"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your Frenchfries without making them give you any of theirs." (Chrissy - age 6 )

--"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." (Terri - age 4 )

--"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sipbefore giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." (Danny - age 7)

--"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are stillfriends even after they know each other so well." (Tommy - age 6 )

--"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at allthe people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was theonly one doing that.. I wasn't scared anymore. That's love" (Cindy -age 8

--"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken." (Elaine -age 5)

--"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him aloneall day." (Mary Ann - age 4 )

Love.............is not only made for lovers....... its also for friendswho luv each other sometimes better than lover....

Jun 8, 2009

the BMC toilet story..

Venue: Worli BMC (Architectural) office.

Time: 1:15pm

Me and my clique. Both of us sitting at deputy architects table. Waiting for him to come back n give us our file and get our work done. It’s been three odd hours that e are in this office. We have submitted drawings for one project and today was the meeting. Meeting was done with and we are waiting for the approval. it’s a lunch time and I m hell hungry m cursing the officer in my mind with all the possible bad words I know. I waited for 10 more min and told Brijesh (my clique) that I will go and get freshen up a little. When I search for ladies toilet I came to know . in an BMC architectural office, there they have gents and ladies toilet on different floors. Amazing isn’t it. Me being on the second floor and second floor having just gents toilet. What an amazing design. I had to come to 1st floor. I entre the loo n open the tap Bhuussshh…!! All the water drained on my feetcos the wash basin had no pipe at its bottom, it was all open from bellow. Isn’t that a smart design u get to wash ur feet also when u are washing ur hands. Let’s move on.. The only ladies toilet for the whole building has only two W.C (great!!) . I slowly pushed the door to check if its clean enough. Thankfully it is! I entre inside n push the door. Before I could do anything the door is locked. And there is no latch no handle nothing inside, for me to hold on to and pull open the door. Woo!! I try I try pushing it kicking it.. Nothing works apart from one thing that I realize.. “Darshana ! u r stuck in a public toilet in an BMC building!!” I laugh I go on laughing with that for next 2 min. then I look around to see some way out, the window. I can remove the lowers andgo out.. hello hello!! Woman u are on 1st floor u can’t jump down. So what’s the next option?? Thankfully had my cell with me..I call up Brijesh. “hello Brijesh , I m stuck in the toilet..” Brijesh: “which toilet?” me: “what nonsense off course ladies” (wrong time wrong question) Brijesh: “what do I do now” .me : “ u mind coming and opening the door” ok ok..after 3 more min he came and opened the door..till then I m laughing .. and I laugh for some more time .. by the time I reached the table everyone on the floor seem to know I was stuck. I laugh I laugh some more.. I come back to my office. And told this to people and we all laughed.. and we discussed all possibilities of how it would have been if I didn’t have my cell.. or I was alone there..??..so whole lot of fun..

But learnt a lesson today..Always check the door of any public toilet.. especially when its an government building :P

Take care.

May 7, 2009

my 1st intro as an "ARCHITECT"

Sitting in the office and thinking as to why am I working here , why am I a part of this office. All this is going on in my mind, sitting at the lunch table munching one bite. And the phone rings its sir’s call for me. Sir: “Darshana I have an urgent meeting. My laptop is in office itself. So come down and give me that laptop. I need it. I m at U.D.RI...” Me: “ok sir, I’ll be there in sometime”. Call ends.What the hell !!. Is that may job to deliver ur laptop. Where ever u r? Being an architect in ur office is that what m I suppose to do? But knowing the fact that I m the only one at that moment in the office who knew where is UDRI and who is linguistic enough to reach there. Unlike the kerla guys in my office. Even all the helping staff was out of office for some work or the other. So it was obvious that even when I didn’t want to step out of a good chilled office room to outside 38’c temperature at 1:30 in the noon, I had to. With all those feeling I had to leave office and for sure the thought of “why am I in this office “became stronger with the burning sun over my head.Now let me tell u what UDRI is till I reach there. Urban Development Research Institute (of Mumbai). This is one of the major institute of the city which handles development planning and research work. Being in architecture for 5yrs now I have seen the kind of contribution to the city and kind of work UDRI does. But have never been able to visit this place. Cos even going there to refer any books or any of such work isn’t that easy. U got to have reference later from college this and that. Most important is that my sir is one the heads of that institute. Google about UDRI Mumbai and u will find more details. After around 45min traveling by rick-train-taxi I reached there and gave him laptop, with all outside heat sucked up in my head. I just gave him his laptop and told him that I’ll leave now. Sir: “no no wait for sometime sit here.” Me (to myself): what now, what the hell I would do sitting here. But still I sat. Sir came after 5 min with a young female and introduced me to her. Sir: “Deepali, this is Darshana, she is an architect and she works with me. Please will u explain her what are we working on currently.” I greeted with a smile and said to myself wow! Good intro an architect ?P feels nice. This making my temperature come back to normal a little. So she sat with me explaining me what they are working on, and gave me some n books they have published- Mumbai Readers. So sat there surfing through the books. Then someone came and told me “Darshana, sir has said u will have to sit for the meeting that we are going to have in sometime.” I was like why now, I don’t even know what the meeting is about. But still I went for the meeting. When I entered the conference room, there were 10 experienced people sitting there, and two firangs. And the only empty chair was next to one firang, so I had to sit there. Meeting started with the introduction by my sir. And then I came to know the meeting was about migration of Indians to gulf (Dubai). And the firang was the speaker for the meeting. He was a big Dutch architect and was also a part of very big architectural ferm called OME. The other people sitting there were heads of UDRI and some masters student. That left with me being the most junior. Wow!! The feeling was awesome. I was sitting at the conference of such a big institute with so many big guys. for such an important discussion. Leaving a big wide smile on my face. The meeting was about the collaboration of two different institutes for some research work. Meeting went on for very long time with lot of good topics and all. And I was all attentive, had to cos sitting next to the head of the meeting u can’t afford to doze off :D. Meeting got over after some hours. i said bye to sir and left. But smile was still on. And the question was vanished in the air which was playing on my mind “why am I in this office?” I was happy that it was me who had to deliver sir his laptop, and felt great that he considered me important enough to make me a part of such a big thing as an ARCHITECT. :D

Apr 26, 2009

its just me now..

“What an attitude” that was my 1st impression on her. I don’t know whether I was showing attitude or I was little reserved. in 1st few months we were just casually together. No friendship, no rivalry, nothing. By the end of 1st year things changed a little and by 2nd year we were great friends. Both of us were really different from each other. Neither our likings were same nor our interests, but still there was a bond between us, which held two different people together. She was my true mentor. There were lot of bad things in me, She was the one who pointed it out to me and made me improve myself in many aspects. She was too adorable and the sensible one in two of us. We gave each other shoulders, we gave each other slaps. We giggled together, we shared things. She came and shared all possible small details of her personal life with me so did i. she was all crazy stupid, so I was. Then like the way seasons change and there is summer after winter,time being the reason. Here things changed but time wasn’t the reason. Things changed, the bond kept on falling lose, the affection went on vanishing. I kept on feeling it inside but never could do anything. Cos in friendship u cant force, it comes from heart, it comes on its own. I was lost, I was irritated, I was being possessive, and I made a mistake. Realized it as well, felt guilty as well, apologized as well. But it was enough of a reason for that bond to break. She kept on going away from me. I stretched my hand to hold hers, but she was gone, she had turned her back to me to even see how badly I was trying to reach her again, how badly I wanted her by my side, as my mentor, as my best pal. But she had moved ahead, she had found a new bond.. She moved ahead and never looked back. I kept standing there.. and now there is just me.... Without her by my side …

Apr 23, 2009

nikhil

Guess what.. Today’s post is not going to be about something but it’s about someone. And that someone is Nikhil. Wondering why suddenly writing about him, reason being I want to really find out what I think of him (not that I don’t know but never penned it down), and also go little public about it … J

Nikhil..

Knowing him for years now, made me realize one thing, that he is a gem of a person. The one who is full of fun, one who is all

cheerful. One who goes all nuts when it comes to having pizza n burgers. Who has great sense of humor and u can’t stop laughing when u are with him. The one who can go really crazy pulling leg. I m sure all those who know him would agree with me for all this.

But there are few things I personally admire about him…

He has a good head on his shoulders. He knows how to tackle critical things. Really a sensible guy. And has been my true mentor.

There is a sweet kid hidden in him who keeps on popping his head every now and then especially when it’s about food and games.

Have good patience, damn good listener. If u r the person who loves to talk u have found a right guy. He would let u talk as much as u want and he would also give his inputs. So now u know why do I talk so much. J

Damn straight forward. If u do something he doesn’t like or feels isn’t right, he would tell u flat on ur face, no back stabbing at all.

If u want any honest opinion about something, u would always get an unbiased opinion from him. And he won’t be judgmental ever.

Very flexible, and would very well gel well with anyone.

True sweetheart with train full of love for everyone who is on his hit

list. If u ask for help u would always get one.

Some things I really hate about him:

He loves sleep more than anyone and anything on this planet. Given a chance he can sleep for 24hours at a stretch.

Little moody, if u want him to do something and he inst in mood, even if u break ur head it won’t be done by him until and unless he feels its imp to do that.

Loves junk food like anything. And for ur surprise if he eats homemade food 24/7 he would fall ill. Ready for chicken anytime of the day. And if there is a pizza in front of him the company doesn’t matter, cos that person would be nicely ignored and would be nicely neglected till the last bite of that pizza.

Talking about reactions. Don’t u ever expect any instant or sponta

neous reaction from him for something sweet u have done. His reaction would come slow, may be by the time they come to u, u wouldn’t remember what are they for. :P not really but still, he doesn’t know how to express for any of the emotion.

He thinks too much, even when he has most blank face there would be 100 things running at the back of his mind.

Very shy, yes!! Even after knowing him for so long, he is still shy of loads of things, for example dancing. I haven’t been able to find out whether he really knows dancing or not. Cos we have never danced together. L

But most important thing which attracts me the most to him is, He has his unique way in whatever he does… and there is nothing fake about him, whatever comes, comes straight from his heart.. :)

Apr 22, 2009

Finally done!!

Finally I am free, done with the exam. And it went well too. The juror I had was quite cool so I hope ill get done with it. Still there was enough of drama. As always things with me don’t go so easy same thing happened this time as well. Thinking about my last jury, it was good enough of a lesson for me. I was late for the jury and that fellow refused to take the exam. So this time I finished my work beforehand (not totally but still) and I was sitting chit chatting before my roll call. After my exam I made a record to sleep for 15hours at a stretch, nothing compared some people I know J J . But still, me being the person with minimum sleep this was a big thing. But all such sequential events in my curriculum has made me strongly believe, that there is something know as good luck, and this luck factor takes over ur efforts many a times. And this luck factor has never been in my favor in my studies ever.Anyways… Today’s day also went all boring cos, I didn’t do anything apart from orkuting, facebooking, and gmailing. So nothing that was interesting. One sweet thing happened today though. Sumitra wrote a post about Nikhil. And I really felt great reading it, and was too happy to read something so nice about him, I would like to say thanks to Sumi. To my surprise I have no topic to write about, I am just blank. May be that’s a void in time after such a rush rush in life. Ill get back to u people after I m cross this void and get back to the ocean of my own thoughts. See you soon …

Apr 5, 2009

in self's company..

siting here in a boring room,..

just another stupid Sunday afternoon..

i m westing my time, , i have got nothing to do... .. .

This boredom is gonna kill me. not that i haven't got anything to do, but i m bored of what i have got to do.. ?? ?? i know i know..

But i want to ask a question to u all, my dear readers. do u really wait for weekends ?? i mean really the way people talk about it on TV on FM radio,and the way people talk about it in there friends circles. Do u really look forward for weekends for all the weekdays?? When it comes to me, i have never waited for any weekend in my life. cos there has not been any exciting weekend for me. When i was in collage there was no need for a special weekend. We used to have fun anytime when we felt like. At that time i used to feel that weekends are for the working people. who slog all the week and go out enjoy . party around for refreshment on weekends. So they can be back to work all refreshed on Monday morning. Now when i have joined my office, this weekend factor isn't inn my life as of now. (i wonder why??) i mean this will make u have an impression of me being the biggest boring girl on the planet. but its not true. So siting here today i m trying to find out as to why i m never excited about the weekends like others.. There are many things actually first and the imp one is the set of close friends that i have aren't party freak like me. another one might be, every weekend most of them have some family thing or the other. (they r really family family type kids, not like me :) } Other reason might be this city, the mumbai, the fun n crazy city as we all know it. Cos of its geography and if u know the map its a linear city so travelling in mumbai takes a lot of ur time. On weekends i m no where in mood to get into a local train n travel some KM just to watch a movie (i m not at all a movie person) After visiting few other cities, (thanks to our study trips), i have started hating this city for this travelling aspect of it. i strongly feel smaller the city better the life is. And the last and the worst reason is the office that i m in right now has no good people, good as in people i would like to hang out with. stupid office. huhhh.. There are lot of important and good points about this ferm,like the kind of work they do.and kind of exposer i m getting here but this is a worst one that i m the youngest person in the office. and have no one interesting there. Working in this ferm have made me believe that having a good companion at the work place is really really important. so sitting here in a boring room i did something interesting i managed to find the reasons for not having an exciting weekend. Also one more thing i though of just now is, why do need to have someones company always to have good time. U urself can be ur company. isnt it?? and the way this life goes u cant be always having someone by ur side. so decided today on words i will try n enjoy my own company by doing something interesting.. i guess as of now i will sit in my garden with my coffee observing the people passing by.. and may be a small walk after that, what say ?? good idea isn't it?? so me off for my weekend fun.. u guys having ur rocking weekend..

take care..

Apr 2, 2009

happy to have u back.. :)

i never ever knew that i m so attached to my laptop. but importance of somethings r known only when u dont have them isn't it?? yeah u have guessed it right my laptops hard disk got crashed , cos of my own stupidity itself. stupid me i hate myself for being so careless though. it happened around last week. i woke up next morning and was about to sit for my work but laptop refused to start itself. and the whole proses followed after that,running the diagnosis, trying to boot from CD, running in safe mode this and that. by the end of the day it was finalised that my hard disk was gone bad. with that my mood was also dead. i had to wait for two days to give time for it cos those were the last two days of my office so had to put in all the efforts to finish all the work given to me. so finished that. then yesterday finally got time and went got the HDD replaced, installed everything and then my sweetheart was back all alive ready to serve me.. he he.. hmm i know it must be sounding quite dumb to u that i m writing about my HDD crash.. there must be n number of people with n number ofHDDcrashing everyday. but for me its not just my PC but its my dear pal who is always there with me. u know we always say whatever happens , happens for good. this HDD crash also in a way ended being a good thing cos i learnt quite a bit about laptops the diagnosis, F8, F12, F2, system restore, factory restore, OS install and also how to get the HDD out.. he he learning all of this was fun. cos its always good to learn new thing even when they r not related to ur profession. but i hope i wont have to do all of this on my PC again, hope for no more stupid mistakes.. by the i wanna say one thing here "my dear laptop i m really happy to have u back". :)

Mar 19, 2009

my loss :(

Sorry guys for not keeping u updated about me for so long.. was a technical problem, my laptop’s adaptor was gone bad.. so now i m back cos i brought the new adaptor now.. so how r u??.. nothing much has been happening in my life as such. Just office, personal work that’s it, oh sorry!! How can i forget to tell u this... forgot to tell u something imp the only interesting thing which happened in life is i had a short trip to Hyderabad.. yeah i know .. Wasn’t really a planned trip, but it ended being a good one. Will have to write a separate post about it for sure. :PBut today’s post is not about all of that, its about what i lost today. I mean for u or for anyone else it may not sound as a big lost. But for me it is. Some days ago i had to format my Pc i did take a backup. Everything went well, i installed all the stuffs back, i loaded my data back but one file was missing ..that word file where i wrote down all the imp sms from important someone. And the crazy part is its been quite some time for this thing but today when i was reading some old sms on my cell it strike me that the word file is missing from my PC. And that was the moment of the realization of this loss..i hate myself to be so careless... i m very much attached to the whole sms thing cos those small line.. Those sweet nothings,, and more over its like preserving those small talk ..in the form of sms.. so i m all sad today... for this lost ..and i wanna say one thing i miss u my “sms word file” (named “moi’s sms”) and ill always miss u.. L(did i tell u that my cell phone has capacity to store 700 sms.. J yeah i know!!)

Feb 23, 2009

my b'day gift

whats is this ??or why is this here??? wait let me tell u..these are just some snaps of the beautiful gift which i got on my b'day from suku... who sent it to me all the way from hyderabad..Amazing isn’t it..thanks to Nikhil that he carried it all the way with him. I was really happy to see this gift. Not because i love plans and all (that was the reason too) but mostly for the thought behind it. to send the good luck plant , to send that good luck all the way 900km. That thought was amazing. I really felt like giving him a big fat hug. Thanks suku (sukumar). Talking about suku, he is kind of new friend of mine through a common link that we have that’s Nikhil. But since the time we have spoke to each other that common link is sidelined and now i can very well say that me and suku are friends. He is nice guy as much as i have got to know about him. True hearted and adorable as well. Little sentimental, little bit of filmy, but fun, yeah and philosopher as well but in a limit... yeah that’s good the philosophy is in limit cos I can’t be with people with too much of it. But he is good guy and i know him for such a short time now but seems like we know each other for quite long..oh come on !! This doesn’t sound filmy.. I mean it ok.. but one thing i liked about him is , he is very optimistic. And he has this positive energy in him. I really admire him for that. As i always feel that, there is this special thing about each and every individual that makes us different or i would rather say unique. And i always feel that’s something we should learn from each other. So from suku this is what i m going to learn.. to be optimistic. But i m sure there is lot more stored in there for me in this new gem i have found.. so i m going to wait to know more and more about him.. and surely ill keep u updated about it.. as of now i m very happy to find a new friend.. someone worth calling a friend (after a long time).. :)

Feb 18, 2009

yuppy!!! :)

finally found new look for my blog...:) it was good enough of an hunting business.. but this is my own space ..so efforts don't count...thanks to nikhil for the technical part though.. thanks a lot sweetheart..so how do u all find the new look of .. comments are most awaited...:)take care..

Feb 15, 2009

unusual..

9:15am Churchgate fast local. Ladies compartment, usual crowd. But something unusual today. Something or I should say someone unusual. That face which didn’t belong to that place. She was sitting there on a forth seat. Everyone who entered kept asking here as to where she wanted to get down. She didn’t reply she kept looking at everyone, and she kept quite. I looked into her eyes, and could only see one thing fear. I wondered what was she afraid of. She wore an outfit with all possible colours in the colour palate, silver jewellery all over her, oiled hair. And she bared a smell, not of any perfume but may be a smell of that place where she belonged, may be a smell of all those sweaty days, or may be just a smell of her poverty. She kept sitting there, and someone or the other kept asking her. I turned and looked at her once. But there was one thing i could not miss about her, her eyes. At that moment I felt as if she was wrapped in her cocoon and the only thing which visible was, her eyes. She got up finally, i thought she will get down, but she went near the door and stood at the corner. She looked around and saw everyone giving there glance to her. Then she looked down looked at her feet, she kept looking down. I wondered what she must be thinking of, nothing came to my mind. May be because we belonged to different place, or belonged to different worlds all together. It was time for me to get down so i went to the door. I kept looking at her, hoping for some communication, so that i could help her. But there was nothing. At one moment she looked up her eyes moved and they meet mine i gave her a small smile, cos i thought that was the only possible way of communication. I think she smiled back at me, or it was just her eyes, or my assumption. But they were still scared, lost, confused. Some aunty asked her again where she had to go, she said nothing, and she got down. Did she really know where she had to go, or people forced her to get down. Train moved on but my mind was stuck, it reminded me of that theory in science taught to us. The theory of evolution, ‘survival of the fitessed’. And i think it still applies to us, we the so called evolved human beings...

Feb 6, 2009

Celebrity Collage

Feb 2, 2009

keep moving on..

Another ditch in the road...u keep moving..Another stop sign ....u keep moving on... – Savage garden Perfect words for this unpredictable life of ours. Isn’t it?? Where u don’t really know what’s in stored for us in next moment. Something good may be something bad or something totally crazy. Sometimes i think ‘surprise ‘is a perfect synonym for ‘life’. But the problem here is we always relate surprise to something good. But bad things happen with a surprise too its just that we don’t call it a surprise. Human emotions, they are always been a mystery to me. We fall, we fail, we cry but we still stand up again, we stand up for some more surprise to live. Without thinking about good or bad.I haven’t seen much in my life but how much ever i have seen, how much ever i have learnt..i know one thing “HOPE FOR GOOD”.. and keep moving..Another ditch in the road...u keep moving..Another stop sign ....u keep moving on..that’s the key to live this life, isn’t it??