Category: Letter Writer

I have noticed as of lately in my little part of this dreamers world that many and yes there have been many experiences that have popped up. Experiences in a way that I thought I had put away in the back of the linen closet and never to see the light of day. Yes I am waxing eloquent as is my want and just for today.

Let me enlighten you and make this story oh so much clearer for the reader, you.

I am in the drivers seat and wanting to park along side the curb but unable to do so as a truck is coming out the parking lot and has his nose out there and I look at the driver and he is gesticulating wildly at moi. You see I had the right of way but obviously not going at a faster rate of speed for this man. It was funny to watch as he mouthed naughty words my way. I on the other hand was pretty darn calm. Now before I would have been actively participating in this dance but not today, actually now it was going to be never, I felt. It was a choice and I felt no need to be out of control. It felt liberating on my end. In that same week I had comments thrown my way which normally would have crushed me but now I gave it no consideration. All this in one week. Whereas a few years back I would have dramatically phoned one of my best friends and cried on her shoulder but now handling it all on my own.

Today visiting someone whose opinion mattered to me slung a low handed remark about me. I gave it no matter. As I talked out loud to the universe saying that he lived in the past where it concerned me, where he didn’t really know me at all so why should it concern me at all. There was no basis to his thought pattern. It was like fluff you find on your sweater and blow out to the air. My growth is amazing to see and I wonder what will come next. What type of challenges that I will face that I stuck in the back of the closet as I have forgotten.

I also know that I am making room for better things to come and so I wait in anticipation like a little girl at Christmas time, excited for something but not knowing what, but knowing it will be indeed, brilliant!

I have a great neighbor who is always willing to help his friends and family with any odd jobs on there homes. He had bought his own home with the intention of sprucing it up and he has done so but at a slow pace as the man was doing other people’s work. The garage that was erected looks spiffy and the concrete pad was set to be poured…two years ago. He had admitted to me that, that at the end of day all he wanted to do was go in his house and unwind by playing his video games and that everything he had started was now languishing. The half finished yard, the half finished garage and now the pad which concrete has yet to be poured. I had got wind that that job was set to happen this very morning. Very early in fact! Last night he was scurrying around in his back yard in a effort to move dirt that was back there. He had this crazed look on his face. I remarked that it was a tad overwhelming for him but that he had the help of a skid loader from one neighbor and a big dump truck from another man down the street. Pat told me that the man with the skid loader was laid off but he wanted to help out with the pad out there as his last job and a promise to be kept.

Change happens all the time, whether we make the effort to do so and if we don’t then the universe in it’s infinite wisdom does its job, pencil’s you in and sometimes makes it even better than we would have made it. I told Pat that even though it might be inconvenient at this time he still had help coming over, that he was not alone in all this.

“Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge.”
― Eckhart Tolle

For many years I dealt with anxiety and because of this I was unable to take trips to far off places because of the aircraft. Too small, too frightening it was in that space. Panic attacks ensued. Through the years and life changing circumstances I have dealt the anxiety through meditation, proper nutrition and physical exercise. In December 2013 I attended a “Sierra Bender’s Workout to the Core” workshop and did that ever help boost my confidence. Through yoga I was finally able to purge and let go and the finale was the board breaking ceremony which I accomplished. For my test I booked a single flight ticket to Vancouver, B.C. for a week long visit to bounce around this beautiful city and take oodles of images.I was wondering as I sat in my seat before take off what was about to happen but I sat back, closed my eyes, took a deep breathe and let everything go. Said a prayer and then we were in the air. I was EXHILARATED!! I started to cry from the happiness of it all. I have to say that that week went by so quickly and I was looking forward to the trip back home. Super excited actually.So now the other half and I are on our way to the east coast coming up soon and this involves a flight to Dallas with a stopover and then on to Miami. So looking forward to our adventure and so looking forward to the plane ride!!

I have noticed of late how busy you are and that you delight in this adventure of your life. Learning too from like minded people that have seemingly been drawn to you. See how it works when you envision your desires and dreams? And when you redirect your thoughts from judging to just letting it go. Your journey, your business. There journey, there business. And that bit about being a peacemaker, well my girl you got to let that go. You cannot make everyone happy.

I note that you also getting it and that it was always in you from the start. You call it Realization or what you love to call, your Aha moments. Keep at it all the meditations as it will keep you grounded, calm and all that great stuff that goes with it. And above all, Listen!