Bad day, but still grateful

5/20/2005

Well, MGB is great, my life is not right now. Today is the first day that I am really having to hold myself back from wanting to drown my sorrows in food. Today, I wish I had not had the surgery! Right now food is the only thing that I can think of that will make me feel better temporarily. I guess the key word here is temporarily. I would like to visit fast food heaven, but instead I have had one egg, a ½ piece of Canadian bacon, protein bar and a piece of leftover grilled fish. I’m not quite sure how a quarter pounder w/cheese, fries and a coke would make me feel better now or how it did in the past? I guess you just go with the emotions, and know that tomorrow is a new day. Thank goodness I have this blog to write down some of the feelings that are taking place. I am grateful for the control that MGB has over me because today, control doesn’t exist in my mind or vocabulary, it exist in an operation performed 2+ months ago.