This morning our beloved Bhagavan Shri Sathya Sai Baba was coming by a
special kind of wheelchair onto stage of Sai Ramesh Hall, Brindavanam.
He was wearing a dark red-orange cape and looking sooo cute.

Our Lord started a Healing Puja by holy fire (likewise Dasara) that
will have to go on for two days more. After about twenty minutes of
sitting on the hall's stage Bhagavan was doing about ten steps by Himself
in direction to the fire. Afterwards seven gents were allowed to guide the
Lord back to (and
into) the chair by their helping hands.

The fire is placed on Ladies side of the stage and spreads a lot of
holy and healing smoke to all in and around the hall. On gent´s side of
the stage there is a big veda group spreading vedas.

It is expected that Bhagavan will grant His Divine Presence for two
hours every day until 18th.

Holy Healing to all.
Posted by Jay Sai Ram on 16.05.2005

Brindavan Darshan News -- 15th May '05

Swamy came for darshan at around 9:00AM. The bhajans
started on HIS arrival. Swamy sat for a couple of bhajans and left. The
news is that the hon'ble home minister of India Sri. Shivraj Patil came to
visit Swamy. Perhaps that is the reason Swamy was here for a short while.
In the afternoon, Swamy came earlier than usual (4PM).

Jai Sai Ram

Posted by Ramesh Sistla on 15.05.2005

Brindavan Darshan News -- 14th May '05

SaiRam All!

Reached Ramesh Hall by about 7:30AM. Since there are no regular darshans
these days, there was not much crowd, well not yet. Slowly Ramesh Hall was
filling up. I could get a place inside. I was sitting in the end of
the hall. As I sat there, I couldn't help a trip down the memory lane. A
couple of years ago, as HE came walking from Trayee, at every turn, HE
would keep us guessing as to which way HE would go! And as HE moved we
turned, much like iron filings would align with a powerful magnet or sun
flower turning to face the Sun! Swamy would collect letters as HE moved
along, for a moment from the gents' side and the next moment from the
ladies' side. As HE came to the end of the hall, HE would hand over the
letters to someone coming with HIM and raise both HIS hands in blessings
to the devotees and make us absolutely happy.

As the trip down memory lane continues.... time is ticking...It is
8:00AM. I come back to the present. Ramesh Hall is almost full now.
Devotees start sitting in the extension. The photoes on the stage have
been changed. There is one of Swamy in 'Abhaya mudra'. The pigeons are
flapping their wings and flying from rails to rails.... minutes pass by.
As clock strikes 9AM, some devotees get restless and lose hope that they
can catch a glimpse of the Lord today. Since lot of devotees go for
darshan from Bangalore, it is a little difficult to wait for very long as
they have to catch up with the day after the darshan.

I pray to the Lord in my heart, please give a glimpse at least from a
distance. I am not asking for more. It is 9:20AM and by now quite a few
people are near the cafetaria and suddenly there is a sign of Swamy
coming out! We all run back and assume seats wherever we can get one. In a
few moments, the music starts and is sollowed by Omkars. ' Pasupathi
tanaya bala Gajanana......' as it goes on, we could see some movements in
the Trayee compound. Two boys go up and remove the throne. This is
indication that Swamy is coming on to the stage on HIS custom made car
which has a throne in it. The throne can slide out of the car. Within a
few minutes Swamy appears on the stage sitting on the mobile throne! HE is
draped with a shawl. We can see HIS left hand with which HE is timing the
bhajans and also adjusting the free flowing lovely curls. Bhajans pick up
tempo and there are loud claps. We feel very happy to have got a glimpse
of the Lord, even from a great distance. The Lord sits there gracing us
with HIS divine presence for about 8-10 bhajans. Then HE signals, it is
time to go and aarati is given. HE exits from the back door on the stage
through which HE entered.

Thank you very much Lord for Your divine darshan despite the pain in Your
hand. There is some information that Swamy has sustained a hair line
fracture in the right arm. So I feel it is better that HE doesn't come for
rounds and takes letters or disturbs HIS hand. We should be content to see
HIM from a distance. Let us pray for HIS physical recovery and also
realise HIM in us.

Jai Sai Ram

Posted by Ramesh Sistla on 15.05.2005

Darshan News -- 14th May '05

SaiRam.

Today Bhagawan granted Darshan.

He
came out of Trayee around 9:30 AM in the Toyota and came to Sai Ramesh
Hall (The Bhajan MahaGanapatim Namostute.... was started just as He was
entering Ramesh Hall) from the ladies side. Satyajit was driving and He
was seated in the left seat.

He
came down the centre pathway and exited Sai Ramesh Hall near the
Saraswati Statue. And then He Decided to re-enter Ramesh Hall from the
ladies side and went past Ganesha idol and just at that time - Mr. Raj
Kumar Jain rushed up to the stage and removed the Chair that was kept
there. In a few minutes - it became clear Why.

Bhagawan came out of the car in the same seat/chair that He was sitting
inside the car and was wheeled onto the elevator and then the stage.

Just
when He took up his position in the middle of the stage, the Bhajan
Satya Dharma Shanti PRema Swaroopa was sung (maybe reminidng Him that He
is Shiva Sakthi Swaroopa and a Poorna Avathara.....). There were lot of
high tempo Bhajans - Radhe Govinda Bhajo Radhe Govinda Bhajo...,
Vanamali Radha Ramana ..., etc. etc. He was keeping beat with His left
hand. The right hand was covered by a shawl and He was using the
Handkerchief with His left hand as well.

Bhagawan was on stage for about 30+ minutes and everyone had Darshan to
their Hearts content.

Bhagawan asked for Aarati just as the 1st line of the bhajan Nandalala,
Nandalala was sung.... and after Aarati, He went to the back of the
stage - where the car was already waiting for Him.

It
was a wonderful experience overall... Really really nice...

Posted by K V Naresh on 15.05.2005

Sai Ram,

A few days ago, Baba fell while giving darshan in Whitefield. His right
hand was injured and a cast was put on it.

All is well. Baba is giving darshan again.

Also, he is using the new vehicle which was shown to devotees last
December. It has a special seat that Double as a portable chair. It
enables Baba to go in and out of the vehicle without leaving the chair.

Gerald Dominick
13.5.2005

\

Sri Sai Ram

This morning, after a looong time of waiting
and feeling tension many Devotees already had left Sai Ramesh Hall,
Brindavanam.

Than about 9.15 am ... our sweet, sweet, sweet Lord Bhagavan Shri Shri
Shri Sathya Sai Baba (a little bit serious?) was coming to give His
Darshan.
First He entered the Hall by car and left by “background”.

Than ... He was coming into Sai Ramesh Hall by car again, kept sitting in
the car chair (remote throne) and moved on stage by using the elevator.

Than ... He stayed there for about twenty minutes to share and guide
Bhajans with all before leaving the Hall´s stage in His Remote Throne by
the back door.

Than ... everybody was in Bliss. Rumors (broken arm ... ) too.

Now ... what about You?
Happy Surprise.
Happy

Jay Sai Ram

12.05.2005

\ Sri Sai Ram

This morning (10th of May 2005) our Beloved Swami´s body had a bad fall,
complete down to the ground, just before entering Sai Ramesh Hall.

After coming up
again Our Lord granted a short Darshan to all by using the golf cart.

This was for the third time that He had an accident in Whitefield and all
of us should go inside in Love to find out the holy meaning and to become
ready by heart, head and hands for indispensable good changings.

Om Tat Sat

\Sri Sai Ram

Dear Ones,

I am taking permission from the Sai brother who shared this mail with me
to share this with all of you, for your further information about our
Dearest Swami's fall this morning.

This is from sister Deirdre
currently in Whitefield.

SWAMI WE LOVE YOU!

Jai Sai Ram!
-Mary-

Date: Tue, 10 May 2005 12:11:28
+0530

Subject: FW: DARSHAN

OM SAI RAM

Yesterday morning Swami didn't show up - I left at around 9.10 am and at
9.30 it was announced that there would be no Darsan. However this morning
the Karnataka Youth had left and we were back in our normal places. Swami
came to our great joy at just before 8.25, and again He was walking, the
wind blowing His lovely hair (quite long but making a round halo) - and
not holding anyone's hand. Then, He turned to glance at those seated on
the bench right at the front and suddenly a new
DRAMA........................ HE FELL DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It looked as if His left leg gave way, or He lost His balance in some way.
I huge gasp of horror rose up from many of the women, but myself, I kept
very quiet - just affirming that God can never fall from His high estate,
and supporting Swami with every atom of love I could muster. Whatever the
reason Swami chose to do that, we can't tell, but He is always the Supreme
Example and is teaching everyone a lesson. Those around Him rushed to help
Him up He seemed to have fallen sideways and then backwards - we couldn't
see if He hit His head. Immediately the golf cart was beside Him and He
got up into it, with no fuss, no loss of dignity or presence, and directed
the driver to come straight in. He looked happy and serene as ever,
blessing everyone with His divine Sweetness, and drove right down the
central aisle and round the men's block again, taking letters as usual as
if nothing had happened at all - and came along past us again on His way
out, just turning His head to flash a radiant smile at us, and then
proceeded out and back to Trayee. Darshan was just about 10 minutes.

Love,
Deirdre

Posted by Mary on 10.05.2005

\ Sri Sai Ram

One of our beloved Sai Brothers was sending a special Love Letter to
JaySaiRam and within this he is giving a good example how to read, to
understand and to digest news of all kind coming from our Beloved Lord
Sai.

I am sure Your hearts will take each and every word as prasadam.

Jay Sai Ram

SAI RAM. Praying that Bhagawan's Love, Grace
and Blessings be with you and your family at all times.

Every Action of Bhagawan has a meaning, a lesson for everyone. On May,
10th Bhagawan had a fall in Brindavan. There is surely a reason for that
action of Bhagawan. Bhagawan's actions never go waste or in vain, they
always have a meaning, a reason.

In the summer of 1965, Bhagawan gave a wonderful example of what I mean by
the above. In May, 1965, Bhagawan was giving a series of Discourses on the
Ramayana, (which I hope to post it to you in due course), On one Sunday,
Bhagawan was giving a wonderful description about the War, when he said
that when Indrajit had shot an arrow which Wounded Lord Rama, Hanuman
rushed towards Rama who had fallen and put a Cloth on the wound thereby
preventing any blood from falling on the earth, Valmiki says in his
Ramayana that the world would never be the same again if The Lord's Blood
had fallen the ground.

After concluding the Discourse Bhagawan was swaying to the Tune of some
Melodious Bhajans when Suddenly Bhagawan asked for a Blade, when The blade
was given to Him, Bhagawan cut a deep slit on his right Forefinger, Blood
started coming out, Then Bhagawan cut his left Forefinger, then his right
and left wrists, There was Blood everywhere on his Robe on the Table,
Bhagawan asked for some cotton, Bhagawan then Started taking the Blood
with the cotton from the 4 wounds that he had inflicted on himself. Not a
single drop of Blood was on the floor. Everyone was in tears, nobody did
not know what to do, Bhagawan did not allow anyone to touch him during
that time. Bhagawan then asked two white towels to be placed on his two
arms.

After a few minutes, Bhagawan gave
directions to call one Krishniah, who was a very ardent devotee of
Bhagawan, Krishniah came rushing and fell at Bhagawan's feet, Due to
some very grave personal problems, He had tried to kill himself with a
knife, He first tried to cut his right Wrist and then his left
Wrist, But even when the knife struck his hand, wrists nothing happened,
he felt no pain, no blood came out absolutely nothing happened, The Knife
had cut his fingers and wrist but there was no Blood, Bhagawan had cut his
own fingers and hands for a Dear Devotee, he had given his Blood for a
Dear Devotee. There were tears in everyone's eyes, they could not see
Bhagawan suffer, Bhagawan then calmly said " See, Nothing has happened to
me", and lo and behold as Bhagawan removed the cloth from both his hands
there were absolutely no wounds, there was no blood at all on the cloth.
There was no trace of Bhagawan cutting his hands. Mysterious are the ways
of the Lord. Every action of the lord has a meaning, It will be revealed
later, Never take Bhagawan's actions on face value. Mysterious are the
ways of the Lord, he protects his Devotees, Gives everything to them ,
does everything for them. If only we Pray sincerely to him.

Posted on 10.05.2005

Morning Darshan:

Swamy was coming for darshan at around 8:30 AM by walk. As HE was
approaching the Ramesh hall, HE had a fall on to HIS left side! HE l
anded on HIS left hand and the hair almost touched the ground. We all lost
a couple of heartbeats! Immediately HE got up as if nothing has happened
and started walking a few metres!! The golf cart came and HE sat in that.
Entering through the ladies' side, HE came towards the gents' side. HE now
took the central avenue and kept going towards the end of the hall, at
which HE took a left and yet another left to reach the stage. Now HE took
one more left and straight away went out of the hall. It must have lasted
about ten minutes. It was all happening too fast, the fall..., the rise...
, the Darshan...., the exit...!

Afternoon:

Reached Ramesh Hall by about
3:30PM and waited for an hour. Swamy sent word through Warden Sir
that HE wouldn't be coming for Darshan. HE also said, "Nothing has
happened to ME. I am fine, happy and blissful. Be happy. The happier MY
students are, the faster I will recover".

Let us all pray from the innermost recesses of our heart to HIM to stop
this drama of falls. The more intense our prayer is the healthier Swamy
will be.

Jai Sai Ram

By A Sai Brother

Praying to Swami to heal His divine body.

On the morning of 10th
May 2005 our Beloved Swami´s body had a bad fall, it seems that Swami’s
body received shoulder injury due to that fall, perhaps a fracture. This
was reported by a devotee thru Phone call. Anticipate everyone is praying
to Swami to heal His divine body. Let’s give few minutes of our daily
prayer to Swami for Swami. These are testing times for all devotees and
the Divine master works in mysterious ways. As pointed by many others
we’ve have to go inside ourselves to find answers to all the questions in
our mind and heart. One should always keep this in mind that, Divine
Avatar’s every action, word & deed has deeper spiritual meaning and every
layer of meaning has hidden treasure of spiritual reality. We must dig
deep if we want to realize and find that hidden treasure.

There exists a story in
the annals of Aryan culture. Sage Bhardwaj spent a lifetime in the quest
of knowledge and complete and thorough mastery over the sacred Vedas
(Divine knowledge). But even after a life span of one hundred years,
devoted and consecrated to that thirst for Vedic knowledge, he realized
that he was merely standing at the shore of the ocean only gathering
pebbles and the pearls still lay hidden in the depth of the ocean. Feeling
sad and disconsolate and faint on account of withering old age, he
approached Indra, the king of Gods, and prayed to him for lengthening his
life further. The boon of another hundred years was granted to him and he
resumed his quest with additional vigour. Time passed and the fresh lease
of hundred years of life came to an end. But sage Bhardwaj felt that the
ocean of knowledge lay still before him and he was thirsty and insatiated
as ever. The knowledge was limitless and infinite and life too short.
Although he was granted three centuries of existence, at the end of the
period, he stayed on the fringe of Vedic knowledge.

Above story is a good
example that spiritual quest is tough job! One must be patient persistent
and truly committed to find the pearls hidden in the depth of the divine
ocean.

“Let me tell you. Nothing
can impede or halt the work of the Avatar. When I was upstairs some people
foolishly went about saying 'It is all’ over with Sai Baba' and they
turned it. back many who were coming to Puttaparthi. Some said I was in
samadhi (communion with God) as if I was a sadhaka (Aspirant). Some feared
I was a victim of black magic as if anything can affect me ... The
splendour of this Avatar will go on increasing day by day. Formerly, when
the Govardhangiri was raised aloft by the little boy Krishna, the Gopis
and Gopals (milkmaids and cowherds) realized that Krishna was the Lord.
Now not one Govardhangiri but a whole range will be lifted you will see!
Have patience, have faith.”

”This is not Swami's
illness; this is an illness that Swami has taken on in order to save some
one. Swami has no illnesses, nor will he get ill at any time. You must all
be happy; that alone will make Swami happy. If you grieve, Swami will not
be happy. Your joy is Swami's food.”

Editor's note. This
discourse was exciting for two important reasons. First, Swami illustrated
his powers by curing himself, in a few seconds and before thousands of
people, of a severe stroke that he had had for eight days and explaining
why this event had to take place. Second, for the first time, Swami
mentioned Prema Sai, his next incarnation. Swami said that he would come
back in a third incarnation as Prema Sai eight years after he leaves this
body.]

This is not Swami's illness;
this is an illness that Swami has taken on in order to save some one.
Swami has no illnesses, nor will he get ill at any time. You must all be
happy; that alone will make Swami happy. If you grieve, Swami will not be
happy. Your joy is Swami's food.

(Then, Baba signaled to
Kasturi to speak. After his short speech was over, Baba wanted the mike to
be held before him. He asked through it "Vinapisthundaa!". But, though he
asked again and again, the voice was so indistinct that no could make out
what it meant.

He then signed for water.
When it was brought, he sprinkled a little with his shaking right hand on
the stricken left hand, on his left leg. He stroked his left hand with the
right. Immediately, he used both hands to stroke his left leg, and that
touch was enough to cure it. He doffed the disease in a trice! He started
to speak! It was the same musical voice.)

For those who have no
refuge, God is the refuge (Dikku lenivaniki devude gathi). That is exactly
the reason I had to take on the disease that one helpless devotee was to
get. He had to suffer this dire illness, as well as the four heart attacks
that accompanied it, and he would not have survived it. So, according to
my duty (dharma) to protect devotees (bakthasamrakshana), I had to rescue
him. Of course, this is not the first time that I have taken on the
illness of persons whom I wanted to save. Even in the previous Sariram at
Shirdi, I had this responsibility. The suffering that you saw was too much
for this particular devotee, so I had to save him by going through it
myself. This is my play (leela), my nature. It is part of the task for
which I have come, sishyarakshana.

People who were near me
during the last week were asking me to give them the name of the person
whom I had saved. I told them that it would make them angry against that
person, for Swami, they would say, "had to undergo much pain in order to
save that one person." Then, they replied that they would honor the person
because of the extraordinary devotion that persuaded Swami to run to his
rescue that Saturday morning.

Some people even asked me
whether it was this person or that, giving names of those who had attacks
of paralysis, especially on the left side! This is even more ludicrous,
because when I save a person I save him completely. I do not wait until he
gets the disease, and I do not leave him a fraction of a disease so that
he may be identified later. It all looks funny to me, the guesses and
surmises that you make.

Even in Shirdi, Dada Saheb,
Nadaram, Balawanth, all were saved by these means. Balawanth was destined
to get plague, but the bubo was taken over and the boy saved.

This is perhaps the longest
period when I kept the devotees wondering and worried. That was because of
the heart attacks, which had to come later on the devotee, from which also
he had to be saved. Then, there is another reason why the 8-day period had
to be observed. I shall tell you why. This means I must tell you about
myself, about something I haven't disclosed so far, something that I was
keeping within myself for the last 37 years. The time has come to announce
it. This is a sacred day, and I shall tell you.

You know I declared on the
very day when I decided to disclose my Identity, my mission, and my Advent
that I belonged to the Apasthamba Suthra and the Bharadwaja lineage (gothra).
This Bharadwaja was a great sage, who studied the Vedas for a full one
hundred years; but, finding that the Vedas were endless (anantha), he did
penance (thapas) for prolonging life, and from Indra he got two extensions
of a century each. Even then, the Vedas could not be completed, so he
asked Indra again for another hundred years. Indra showed him 3 huge
mountain ranges and said, "What, you have learned in 3 centuries form only
3 handfuls from out of the 3 ranges that make up the Vedas. So give up the
attempt to exhaust the Vedas. Perform a ritual (yaga) instead, which I
shall teach you; that will give you the fruit of Vedic study, full and
complete."

Bharadwaja decided to
perform the ritual; Indra taught him how to do it; all preparations were
completed. The sage wanted Shakthi to preside over and bless the ritual.
So he went to Kailasa, but the time was not opportune for presenting his
petition. Shiva and Shakthi were engaged in a competitive dance, trying to
find out who could dance longer. Eight days passed thus, before Shakthi
noticed Bharadwaja standing in the cold. She just cast a smile at him and
danced along as before! The sage mistook the smile as a cynical refusal to
notice him, so he turned his back on Kailasa and started to descend. To
his dismay, he found his left leg, hand, and eye put out of action by a
stroke. Shiva saw him fall, came up to him, and consoled him. Bharadwaja
was told that Shakthi had indeed blessed him and his ritual. Then, Shiva
revived him and cured him, sprinkling water from the Kamandalu. Both Shiva
and Shakthi granted him the boons of a sage (rishi); they would both
attend the ritual, they said.

After the ritual was over,
they were so pleased that they conferred even more boons on the sage.
Shiva said that they would take human form and be born in the Bharadwaja
lineage, thrice: Shiva alone as Shirdi Sai Baba, Shiva and Shakthi
together at Puttaparthy as Sathya Sai Baba, and Shakthi alone as Prema
Sai, later. Then, Shiva remembered the illness that had suddenly come upon
Bharadwaja at Kailasa on the eighth day of waiting in the cold on the ice.
He gave another assurance. "As expiation for the neglect that Shakthi
showed you at Kailasa for 8 days, this Shakthi will suffer the stroke for
8 days when we both take birth as Sathya Sai and, on the eighth day, I
shall relieve her from all signs of the disease by sprinkling water, just
as I did at Kailasa to cure your illness."

It was the working out of
this assurance that you witnessed today, just now. This had to happen,
this stroke and the cure. The assurance given in the Thretha era had to be
honored. I may tell you now that the poor, forlorn devotee who had to
suffer the stroke that I took over was a convenient excuse, which was
utilized. You see, a railway engine is not made available to haul just one
car; when a number of cars are ready, then the engine is put into action.
So too, the disease had to be gone through, the devotee had to be saved,
the assurance had to be carried out, the mystery had to be cleared, the
Divinity had to be more clearly announced by the manifestation of this
Grand Miracle. All these were accomplished by this one incident.

Let me tell you one more
thing: Nothing can impede or halt the work of the Avathaara. When I was
upstairs all these days, some people were foolishly saying, "It is all
over with Sai Baba," and they turned back many who were coming to
Puttaparthy! Some said I was in samadhi, as if I were a spiritual aspirant
(sadhaka)! Some feared I was the victim of black magic, as if anything can
affect me! The splendor of this Avathar will go on increasing, day by day.
Formerly, when the Govardhanagiri (a mountain) was raised aloft by the
little boy Krishna, the cowherd maids and boys (gopees and gopalas)
realized that Krishna was the Lord. Now, not one Govardhanagiri but a
whole range will be lifted, you will see! Have patience, have faith.
Tomorrow morning, I shall give every one of you the Namaskaram Blessing
that you missed today.