here's the deal, i have some untold stories of June! ibarat permen nano - nano, juni kemaren tuh rame beneurrr rasanyaaaa .. but I'm grateful for all that I've been gone through .. grateful for the journey, for the opportunity, grateful for the love and favor from God, grateful for the support from bang re, grateful for the everything! i think grateful is the right word if you go through something yang-bikin-hati-cenat-cenut :)

during the month of June itself, I was challenged by bang re as my mentor slash husband slash big brother slash best friend for not to ask while I'm praying. most human, or at least me have this tendency to ask when we pray, it's like an auto thing .. first you express your gratitude and praises to God and by the end of the prayer you'll ask for something, whether it's for your loved ones, or yourself. this time around, we were challenged instead of asking, we change our mindset and focus to God Himself, to seek Him more, .. basically ask nothing rather than God Himself! in good times you praise Him, in bad times you praise Him. in your tiredness you set your eyes on Him, in your happiness as well. it's all about Him! only Him!

I tell you my friend, it's not easy! come on, be realistic! I'm a normal human being with all those hore-hore situations surround me and I can't even ask for anything?! seriously not a single thing?! but I decided to give it a try, not for the sake of my pride but I have high hope on God .. and let Him be God!

day one, day two, .. day three, day four, day five .. keep on going .. keep on trying, keep on pursuing and focusing on Him and nothing happen .. day six, day seven, I still have to go through all that stuff but hey I felt something different! just a little different, I felt more calm .. day eight, day nine, day ten, I was physically tired but spiritually alive!! God works in His ways that I could not understand, and the more I seek Him the more I can't get enough of Him .. day eleven, twelve .. and keep on counting, I fell in love again with Him ..

I'm not a fanatic religious girl, I'm just one who experienced His unending love and grace in my life! and I'm forever grateful for that .. and that His refers to Jesus! and I'm more than happy to share it with all of you .. shits still can happen in life, and it will always happen but let's just focus on Him, the defender of my life!