It's hard to lose. Obviously you have to deal with the immediate moment afterward, when somebody else is crowned the winner. But you also have to deal with the aftermath — the part where you replay things in your mind and wonder just what you might have done differently to change what happened. That aftermath can last a few minutes. It can last months. It can last a lifetime. But you have to deal with it somehow.

That's the mindset MMA fighter Ronda Rousey must have had to push through after she lost her first fight ever, to Holly Holm in 2015. Before the fight with Holm, Rousey had seemed invincible. Afterward she seemed, well, human.

In a moving, open interview with Ellen DeGeneres, Rousey discusses both the loss to Holm and its aftermath, when she considered suicide for a brief second as she devastatingly linked her defeat to the end of her self-worth: "What am I anymore without this?"