So it begins

Wow. Second beta was 144. I actually have an u/s scheduled. The clinic told me that those were good numbers. I’ve never had any numbers before, much less good ones. And the degree to which I am detached from the whole situation is freaky. Somebody show me the money. I just can’t get jazzed about this yet. Yeah, I am probably waiting for the other shoe to fall on my head. It seems a lot like being under water…. slow motion and distorted.

This is fantastic news, and extremely promising beta numbers!!!! Although I totally understand the whole detatched thing – you need to see something “in writing” – or on the u/s screen – to really feel like it is happening. And unless you end up with first trimester symptoms, which many people don’t, it will continue to feel unreal.

But the truth of the matter is that you are pregnant!!!!!!!!!!! I am so thrilled for you!!