irregular frustrations and bike desires

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

8 pounds of frustration...

I haven't weighed in for just over two weeks even though I wanted to. I had been doing fine, not necessarily losing much but not gaining (appreciably). When my sister was visiting my mom had a lasagne dinner and I enjoyed that... the following day (Monday) I went to weigh in to find my weight had risen from 141-ish to 144. Ok, alright, I'll just give myself a week to let the impact of the cheese and pasta subside. This past weekend my boyfriend wanted to weigh himself so I did to... to find myself at 147. So I'd had leftover lasagne for two meals in the past week but otherwise had been pretty decent about my eating, though spent a lot of time sitting and stressing... this will pass. I went to zumba twice over the weekend (and walked the 40ish minutes home both times) and have been drinking an extra liter of water per day... but as a friend suggested, maybe I'm a bit dehydrated and constipated... and I am believing that is part of it. Frustrating... I'm at my boyfriend's house for the week, he just bought a new scale yesterday (and new sheets, looking forward to those!) and this morning my weight read 149.

Eight pounds gain in less than 2 weeks?

Whatever, I can't worry about it now, all I can do is keep drinking more water and eating well... and trying to get out for bouts of exercise. I am THIS close to being done with my dissertation and I only have a month left so I need to spend a lot of time sitting... and I have been stressing, no doubt that contributed to my current state, my mind and body are freaking out and holding on. I also know for myself that I can't let myself get down on myself for whatever the scale might say because I'm (like many of us?) good at letting it take over other aspects of my life and then I just get kind of self depreciating and I don't feel like going there. It will all work out if I just keep doing what I know is good for me!

Last night boyfriend and I went looking at bikes. With all my time spent sitting I've been wanting a bike... and this is kind of funny because as a kid I was not good on a bike. I have some inner ear balance problem so whereas I'm alright in yoga standing on one leg, once motion is introduced I am much more unstable. The last time I was on a bike, probably about 15 years ago, I went on a ride around the reservoir with my aunt and somehow I managed not to fall in the water, but I did have a good wipe out on the way back... in front of a hospital. The hospital wasn't necessary for my scape. So... this will be a challenge for me, but one I'm willing to take on! That being said, I more than likely don't want to start with a crazy expensive bike because what if I decide I can't do it, or what if I total it in short order? Anyhow, we started looking at Walmart. I know already that I'm interested in a hybrid or cruiser type bike and they had two options, the one for $134 had neither gears nor hand breaks... but the one for $138 did so, I think, is a very viable option. Funny too, it's a huffy (brand) just like my bike as a kid was. We're going to check a few more places, including this nice looking bike shop right by his place (we were peering in the windows two nights ago and there is this beautiful looking bright pink and white cruiser but the price listed is $570). Having a chance to talk to people who know bikes might help me looking for a bike, regardless of how much I end up spending.

Anyhow, I should get back to work for now... I might take a walk when boyfriend is at work, or I'll just look up a path to go explore after dinner. I also don't know what dinner will be, we were trying to think of that yesterday but still nothing... so maybe I'll go get something... salmon and something? I think that sounds good!