I did that but she said somethign about me bieng a cross dresser and killing her mother to get the thong . Seriosuly I am just going to give up if she does not understand how much I love her.

On the other hand, turning emo might work. That way, even if it never does work out, you'll be able to write bad songs about how your love was doomed from the start. And if it does work out, you can still write songs about how your love was doomed from the start.