I'm a wife, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, and friend, but sometimes I feel like I'm all alone on this crazy ride. Come along on the journey that I call my life, through the ups, downs, and in betweens...

About Me

My name is Eva, I've been married to my hubby for almost 3 years now, and we have a baby girl named Haeley. She is my world, and I never knew what true, unconditional , unwavering love was until she was placed in my arms. There is no feeling on the planet like being a mother, the words have not been invented to describe the way I feel about my little girl. I thank God for giving my husband and I the girft of being her parents. After having Haeley I went back to school to finish my BA in Education, I love children and I love to learn new things. I think children have a beautifully pure way of looking at the world and making others see the beauty they see. When I am helping a child nothing else seems to matter, all my problems melt away and I am in my element. I become optimistic, alive, happy, and goofy.
I absolutely adore my hubby, without him I do believe it would have taken me years to see the potential I have within me. He showed me that I am good enough and complete just the way I am. He makes me smile, laugh, and cry because of his generosity and loyalty to those he loves. I am blessed that his love has touched mine and my family's lives.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Going CRAZY Here!!!

I've been spending so much time in front of this computer my ass hurts!!! I know it's not funny, but it is, in a way.I am so sick of sitting here, I feel like I am not getting anything accomplished. I keep on doing the same thing over and over, if the professors had clearly stated what they wanted in the beginning, like any good instructor would. I don't think I would be on the verge of tears, and screaming at everyone who asks me a question.It's that bad. I feel like I can't answer anything. Like I can't have another thought interrupt my train of thought when it comes to writing out these lesson plans. I know that some of you may be wondering why I am finding it so difficult, well it's a long story.As you know I am a junior, and one of the classes I am in is an integrated curriculum course, which means I have 3 professors for the course, and I only receive one grade. I get 3x's the work for no perks, so to speak.I take my education seriously, I have been on the Dean's List since my first semester. I just received my Associate's Degree and I only have 2 semesters to go after this. However, the professor's I have this semester are making things unbearable. I am not the only one that feels this way, but like always I do have the biggest mouth so I am the onlyone they hear.They want us to write 6 lesson plans and hand them in by Thursday. In previous semesters they have given workshops, to teach the class how to write the lesson plan according to their criteria. For some assinine reason they decided to cancel the three workshops so we could do our observation hours, now for the most part none of us know how to write a lesson plan accrding to their standards, and all we have to base our knowledge on is samples from last year. BUT WAIT!!! they've changed some of the elements!So I am basically shooting balls in a basket in the dark, hoping I get them in.

I ask questions, and I'm told to go ask someone else. No one wants to do their job, they just want to keep cancelling classes and getting paid for it.

AHHHH! I just needed to vent.

On a brighter note I went to the gym today, I'm telling you I feel great, but the scale is not budging. How annoying is that? Well actually it moved 3 ounces since last week, lol. I 'll get it together somehow, at least now I know what I have to do in order to maintain my weight, and eat the way I want on the weekends. LOL.

I'm so sorry that you are so frustrated. I know how well you want to do, and in the end....I know you will. But still, the stress in getting there when you don't know what they want is so hard. I'll be sending you good thoughts.Good for you that you made it to the gym..that will help with your stress as well as your weight. Don't worry about the scale Eva, you are doing what is good and it feels right.....just keep on keeping on!