Am I?

Am I the only one suffering? Out loud…in silence. I cannot tell these days. Everything has become unclear. Paths, worlds, existence? What does it actually mean. Emptiness will get you so far. BPD will get you even less further. I notice that I am different but not too much just a tad. Cannot control emotions, the rage, the depression, the anger, the lonliness, the emptiness. It gets better though right. Maybe not.