I had the most vivid dream last night of giving birth. It was our second child... In the dream it was a huge deal that i was having a VBAC. There was no pain... But the urge to push was very distinct. I squatted and caught my own baby. Another girl, with dark hair. It was a beautiful dream....

this is weird. i'm using sandy's computer, mine is kind of not working so well right now. yeah... it won't start.

i splurged and ordered a dress for jon's "best" friend's wedding. can't waitttt for this wedding */sarcasm* not going into that subject, though. i'm glad that i really like jon's other (best) friend that actually comes around. lino and i definitely just... don't click.

but splurging on the dress was kinda nice, i'll admit.

SO now i'm on this diet. i'm getting more into it... at least getting into thinking about it, lol. i'm really planning on sticking with it, though.

healthy normal sized portions of food, walking the dog three times a day (long walks)... waking up extra early, when i get home, after its dark. taking the kids out for a (long) walk at work once a day. drinking only water, maybe one soda a day i don't know. LOTS OF WATER. eating breakfast and earlier dinners.

my problem is i snack when i'm bored, i'm bored from 3:30-9 usually, and i eat dinner on top of that when jon gets home.

plus the walks will help both the dog AND me. we both could use it :-P

anyway, i installed trillian on sandy's computer... so till i go out and buy a new laptop battery, i'll be on here.

ED i need your cell number again... plz email it to me at psarahm@yahoo.com, unless you feel comfortable posting it here. just in case i don't talk to you before the trip.

the most wonderful future husband ever=one who will make a special trip to the store just to buy you tampons (boo, period), without having to think twice about it. and running to the bank and mcdonalds to pick up dinner.

bailey called me on friday to invite me to her daughter's first birthday party, and to suggest we all go bowling when she gets her income taxes back. this is good.

my cousin also called me friday to try to make plans to go out sunday to lunch, but that never ended up happening. i'm confident that it will, though. i'm not too worried.

i've been looking into other possible apartments. i'm sick of our lazy landlord not getting our door for us. we can't afford outrageous heating bills... especially lately, we've had a lot of expenses. just dropped $650 on jon's car, another $180 on getting our kitties spayed, $250 on our gas bill last month. ugh. i have YET to pay it... i'm terrified to see this month's bill. it's going to probably be double that. i wouldn't be suprised, honestly. if it is... ha. we'll be out of here. either that or larry WILL pay half of it. stupid landlords *grumble*

my dog chewed up the body pillow i made jon for christmas. :'( i got really sad when i saw that. he has this thing with pulling stuffing out of things. sighs.

15. Cologne/Perfume- i had this victoria's secret stuff but it broke. i have lots of bath and body works spray that i never use. i never really use body spray nowadays. i smell good without it 8D duhhh

16. CD in stereo right now- ummmm we'll just say James Blunt! yey!

17. Piercings - um my tongue. ears.

18. What you are wearing now – pajamas. betty boop pants with my cool blue shirt jon gave to me way back when i moved in here

19. Wishing – that sometimes i could be a little more independent.

20. Wanting – to have a baby...

21. After this: ummmmmmm who really knows. maybe reading? or going to bed? or something.

22. If you could get away with it and murder anyone who would it be? i don't really hate anyone enough to murder them. sheesh.

23. Person you wish you could see right now- my grandma. i miss her a lot, i don't think i've seen her since.... easter?

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

Maybe it's intuition But some things you just don't questionLike in your eyesI see my future in an instantand there it goesI think I've found my best friendI know that it might sound more thana little crazy but I believe

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There's just no rhyme or reasononly this sense of completionand in your eyesI see the missing piecesI'm searching forI think I found my way homeI know that it might sound more thana little crazy but I believe

Fill this out because A) you want to make me happy, B)you're bored C) you like filling these things outI don't care which reason you pick, I want to know more about most of you since we don't actually know one another (feel free to fill it out even if we do know one another)

01. Name:02. Age:03. Where do you live:04. What makes you happy:05: Fandoms:06. What have you been listening to lately:07. Favourite film:08. Favourite band/singer:09. Interesting fact about you:10. Are you in love at the moment:11. Favourite destination:12. Favourite quote:13. When is your birthday:14. Will you post this in your LJ: