Living love ( Jesus Christ ) in a way to imprints itself upon the heart as treasured memories to be counted as more valuable than gold!

As a child I remember a neighbor that was a dear woman of GOD and she after working a long day at her place of employment would come home and take the time to sit down at her kitchen table and present snacks. But the icing on that cake is that this woman would take the time to share the bible-study with my best friend and I!

What impressed me so about this is the fact that this woman hardly knew me personally but opened up her heart and home to my friend and I!

I did not have the bible taught to me in my own home as a child! Which makes this act of kindness mean even more to me.

Mrs. Bolton I know that most likely you’re long gone from this side of life now and are directly in heaven worshiping GOD.

But that seed the God used you to plant into the soil of my life and heart is now very much bearing fruit:-)

I love you!!!

Isn’t HIS Throne beautiful, Mrs. Bolton?

Befitting such a magnificent KING of KINGS as our God!!!

Heavenly Father I want you to know that You fill me and fulfill me like nothing else can!

My gratitude list is going to be short but profoundly sweet this week.

I am so thankful being that little girl sitting at Your feet just waiting for your next Word, smile, encouragement or even waiting for You to challenge me to reach for even more of You and Your wonders!

Thank you for knowing and reading my heart as if it were words dancing around on a piece of paper. You know me better than I know myself I look to You for all the answers.

I also want to share this poem that reminded me of some important things about GOD’s Promises!

2 Corinthians 5:13-14 (NLT) 13 If it seems we are crazy, it is to bring glory to God. And if we are in our right minds, it is for your benefit. 14 Either way, Christ’s love controls us. Since we believe that Christ died for all, we also believe that we have all died to our old life.

Jesus Christ ( the anointed one) I envision in my heart that Whitney is singing the bridge to the song “I’ll Always Love You” in YOUR name; and for that beautiful vision I am thankful!!

LORD, I am eternally grateful and thankful that YOU love me and that your love is oh so real and concrete (in the person of Jesus Christ) to my body, mind, soul and spirit! Oh LORD, how we all need YOU ( not extreme wealth and fame but endow me (us) with the talent to obey YOU cheerfully)! And, shower us in YOUR LOVE, GRACE, and MERCY!

Pray with me, will you?

May my ( mind., body soul or spirit never- ever be smitten/ enamored by or eclipsed by any idolatrous drives or mask from within or without but may the true image and likeness of Jesus Christ thrive vibrantly lighting-up both my inner and outer world! In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen!

Beloved sister Whitney…thanks for the beautiful legacy of music you have left for our pleasure:-)

It is by HIS amazing grace (through the gifting of Jesus Christ) that any enter into the Kingdom of Heaven!

Nothing else makes us good enough!!!!

We as your body of believers want to honor thy unfathomable sacrifice Jesus, to redeem us!!!

Just to try to sum it all up, my heart is singing oh, Holy One at this very moment for thy complete faithfulness!!!!!

I can count on YOU and who You are even when nothing else makes sense in life because JESUS YOU are TRUTH:-)

From a human perspective love feels right/ means being comforted and being understood emotionally.

God’s version of love requires us to put on the Whole Armor so that we can stand!

God takes into consideration our need to be comforted, understood, to have real and lasting stability, for unconditional love and opportunities to grow!

God does not waste one single moment of our life experiences. They all can be turned into divine teaching sessions!

God does not want you and I to bow to fear AKA ( false evidence appearing real) .

In prayer we often ask God to divert our fears or we ask HIM to direct us around our fears.

Danger and fears are not always perceived as the same, by GOD.

What God often does instead is to walk with us through our fears in very creative ways and HE provides us with the tools to over come them and place the enemy under our feet!

Good earthly fathers have many of these same qualities of helping their children do things that they did not think they were capable of achieving!

God’s way of nurturing is also to give us a deep sense of our real identity and sense of worth.

When we know our value and worth to HIM, then we can love ourselves although we are perfectly imperfect!

My heart sings HIS praises at this moment because…

205. I do not have to be perfect God’s strength is made perfect in my weaknesses! Through my cracks and breaks HIS glory can be seen by others that much more:-)

206. I am so thankful for the fact that I continue to bear fruit in HIM.

207. I don’t even mind and am thankful for the pruning that must take place constantly in my life so that I can continue to bear fruit into my old age!

208. I am thankful being delivered from being B.U.S.Y (being under Satan yoke). God desires instead for me to BE more in HIM not do more in an already impossible schedule.

209. I am thankful for the God opening the eyes of my heart to see how perfectly HE has molded and made me to fulfill the unique calling that HE has placed on my life.

210. Thank you GOD for making me totally unique and irreplaceable no-one else can ‘snatch my value” or take my place in your heart nor walk the path and reach souls exactly as You have crafted me to show YOU to this dying world.

211. Thank you, Heavenly Father for rescuing me from no-mans-land of self-service!

212. Thank you for the special gift promised to each of us that reads the book of revelation. Each time I have read it ( twice now) I have consciously been aware of being blessed but at this time I want to really focus in and thank you for the blessings that I have given that I have yet to perceive!

213. Thank you, beloved Father for being the sweetener in my life that otherwise would be quite sour!

214. Lord, you’re so good and I am so thankful for YOUR heart, virtues and aspects of your character in each person, or situation you have ever provided to bless me in this life! You’re not invisible to my heart, soul and spirit! You are everywhere! Thank you for for giving me the means ( method) to see and be with YOU in this life ( and beyond).

Being able to go before the Throne of GOD and offer prayers is one of the greatest gifts we’ve been offered as children in proper standing with The Most High God!

And this high privilege should never be abused to try to force your will over another or the Will of GOD.

Enter into His gates with thanksgiving enter into HIS courts with praise!

Saints when we are angry with raw and unbridled emotion it is not the time to offer up prayers about the person we are angry with attempting to make ourselves feel more Godly ( acting as if we praying for our enemies).

In cases like this we wind up actually praying horribly against the person because our anger is in the drivers seat/ blinding us.

It would be better to ask GOD to help us with our anger and to understand what is fueling or motivating it.

Hypocrite first get the beam out of your own eye, then you can see your brother/sister more clearly!

No matter what we feel the other person has done to us, remember we are all sinners saved by the grace of GOD almighty!

For instance, acting with a lack of patience towards another child of God can reveal a preoccupation with your needs over theirs but if the fruit of love is in operation in our lives then the fruit of God’s perfect love will gently correct your impatience.

Thus restoring the relational equilibrium.

Anger is a tricky emotion in that very often other issues, emotions, feelings and motivations hide behind it.

Pride ( thinking too highly of self) a need to be right commonly known as self righteousness, unresolved issues of self-worth that lend themselves strongly towards the expression of Jealousy, emotional issues those concerning abuse that involved shame and self loathing all can mask themselves behind a smoke screen of anger!

Can’t we all clearly see why our time spent before the throne would be best used in asking GOD to help us to unmask the real demons and culprits behind why we are miserable and angry!

Lord, this week has been a hard one as far as lessons go. You have turned me inside-out and upside down/ showing me clearly what the enemy means to destroy me that You are bent on using every morsel for my good, benefit and ultimate growth.

I need to let you know that I know that I am your child and I am thankful and that I love you always especially so when I don’t get what I want the way that I desire it. I learn more about YOU and who I really am in my trials than by serving a yes GOD.

You’re too good to pacify me!

I accept that my full understanding of how You work is not necessary in order to offer you my full submission. I give that to you willingly because YOU are my GOD Jesus!!

Submission is not always filled with emotions of sublime pleasure sometimes it can be down right unsettling to my emotions but YOU allow this to reinforce that I am not to bow to my emotions but to bow to and worship YOU only!

And there are even times that I am asked by YOU to let go of my place of being right for another child of God’s in need, but in cases as such I solely rely upon YOU for direction.

Your Spirit guides me not a list of rules!

I choose to stand with YOU Lord because YOU are the Truth and because I love you!

I am thankful for…

190. That you Lord do not abandon me in the thick of the fight!

191. Thank you for teaching me that my faith in you is not blind or radical but that YOU Lord are all that I have to use in the pursuit of seeing what is true, right and good.

192. Thank you for teaching me that carnal weapons never solve the problem.

193. Thank you for unmasking the real enemies and isolating the fight to the spiritual arena ( we wrestle not against flesh and blood but against powers, principalities, rulers of the darkness and wickedness in high place).

194. Thank you for showing me that pride always kills but humility heals.

195. Thank you for the wisdom and love that you have placed my elder brother in Christ Rev. William Boddie

196. Thank you for preparing my heart and never allowing one in right standing with you to enter into any situation blindly.

197. Thank you for second chances.

198. Thank you for the perfect work of Agape Love.

199. And for its companion forgiveness.

200. Thank you for teaching me what prayer is and what it should never be used for.

201. Thank you for teaching me that there are no short-cuts in working with Your principles and precepts that each of us must pick up our cross and follow you daily.

202. Thank you Lord for emptying my heart of all the stuff that wants to crowd You out and come between us.

203. I am thankful for your seal of approval Lord that speaks life into my being!

Trying to dot all of my I’s and cross each of my T’s but failing to walk in love.

Self-loathing is not spiritual and does not create super-saints nor does it produce points for us in the here-after!

In order to walk in love we must first accept Gods love in the form of salvation and then allow the depths of this Agape love to flood our being ( body, mind, soul and spirit).

Once this occurs then we can love the UN- lovableness in ourselves and then as this love overflows our being we can extend it to others!

How?

Because we learn to look past flaws and see the need that lies underneath.

I can not always love each personality ( some of us have personality traits that are not functioning from a healthy space) but I can love each soul and want what is best for them:-)

We must minister the gospel to a dying world from a place inside of our hearts where our ” cup is running over”!

Praising/worshiping God is my hearts desire but I cannot even praise and worship GOD without the ability to love otherwise I’m just making noise and moving around without purpose and power!

The enemy’s greatest point of contention?

Your praise!

Saints, did you not know that it is always your praise of The Most High God” that the enemy wants to steal?

Our praise of GOD brings forth senseless envy from the enemy, pointed in our direction to hurt and further challenge GOD.

We can even go about the business of ministry and church ( big or small) the enemy does not mind this as long as there is not genuine praise of GOD going forth.

When one ministry or church competes with another and one child of God is jealous of and competes with another it only serves to tear down the office of ministering and works of GOD on this earthly plane.

How can a kingdom divided against its self stand?

The Holy Spirit in me would never attack the Holy Spirit operating in you or in another ministry!

When this is going on the Holy Spirit is not the driver but instead it is a demonic or familiar spirit.

In Lucifer’s ( aka ) Satan‘s fall from heaven in Is 14: 13-14 you will find the 5 ” I Wills” highlighted below.

13 You said in your heart, ‘I will ascend to heaven;
above the stars of God
I will set my throne on high;
I will sit on the mount of assembly
in the far reaches of the north;
14 I will ascend above the heights of the clouds;
I will make myself like the Most High.’

Friends, do you see a sick, twisted and dark pattern in those five I wills?

Satan (covets) wants to be or take the place and identity of The Most High God!

When we want what another has or to take their place we are operating from the principles of the kingdom of darkness and not in agreement with the Christ ( or Holy Spirit).

Just like when we are ensnared by envy we can’t stand to see or hear of another receiving attention and praise we feel we deserve!

Remember, we must worship God in the Holiness of HIS Spirit and in Truth!

We cannot posses or own the Holy Spirit or His gifts but we must surrender in love to HIS Ways, Will and Teachings!

Lord, here is my incense of gratitude, praise and worship in written form as You know each and every moment I have breathed Your name in love and adoration this past week:-)

168. Lord, I am thankful because your Holy Spirit lives within me and I can praise you from the depths of my soul!

169. I am thankful for when the enemy comes in like a flood YOU oh Lord raise up a standard!

170. I am thankful that I am YOURS and YOURS alone oh Lord!

171. I am thankful that only YOU can tell me who I am and this flows from who’s I am.

172. Thank you for teaching me that it is most important how we play the game. A superficial win at the cost of Your glory and my soul is NOT winning at all!

173. Heavenly Father I am thankful for the process of consecration unto YOU Glorious One!

174. I am thankful for Your showing and modeling in me that to win I must decrease as You oh Divine One increase!

175. I am thankful for the fact that Life,love, grace and mercy got up when You rose on that third day.

176. I am thankful for the ministry of The Holy Spirit and may I love the truth and the Gospel more than the sound of my voice!

177. I am thankful for learning that being right is my standing with you; nothing more and nothing less!

178. I am thankful that You have chosen to carve Your image and likeness within the person known as Jennifer Boddie and that You can do anything but fail!

I submit to YOUR Holy Work in my being, life and affairs. All of my business is YOUR business!!

The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. 2001 (Is 14:12–21). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society. “How you are fallen from heaven, O Day Star, son of Dawn! How you are cut down to the ground, you who laid the nations low! 13 You said in your heart, ‘I will ascend to heaven;
above the stars of God
I will set my throne on high;
I will sit on the mount of assembly
in the far reaches of the north;
14 I will ascend above the heights of the clouds;
I will make myself like the Most High.’ 15 But you are brought down to Sheol, to the far reaches of the pit. 16 Those who see you will stare at you and ponder over you: ‘Is this the man who made the earth tremble, who shook kingdoms, 17 who made the world like a desert and overthrew its cities, who did not let his prisoners go home?’ 18 All the kings of the nations lie in glory, each in his own tomb; 19 but you are cast out, away from your grave, like a loathed branch, clothed with the slain, those pierced by the sword, who go down to the stones of the pit, like a dead body trampled underfoot. 20 You will not be joined with them in burial, because you have destroyed your land, you have slain your people.

“May the offspring of evildoers nevermore be named! 21 Prepare slaughter for his sons because of the guilt of their fathers, lest they rise and possess the earth, and fill the face of the world with cities.”

HE has been the Father long-lost breaking the mold of what I thought a Fathers love would mean.

HE mirrors to my soul the foundational elements of what my earthly relationships should contain in order to contain life in them.

157. I am thankful for the approach of a brand New Year!

158. I am thankful for my autonomy and loving my family and friends enough to share a measure of this gift with them.

159. I am thankful for the way GOD uses conflict to bring about a deeper awareness of how we move and breathe in relation to those around us.

160. I am thankful for learning one of the keys to being a peace-maker is not to attack nor to avoid.

161. I am thankful for the gift of deeper clarity of perception that hindsight brings.

162. I am thankful for healing of old emotional issues.

163. I am thankful for the greater freedom experienced after I’ve walked through a trial.

164. I am thankful for knowing and accepting that my journey with GOD was never meant to be on a crowded HWY!

165. I am thankful for the fact that GOD has allowed me to know and experience HIS beauty, glory and wonder!!!

166. I am thankful learning not to’ judge’ even when hurt. Instead I evaluate people, places and circumstances. I can check, look at data and draw conclusions about the effectiveness or none effectiveness of people, place and circumstance in my life, then pray to GOD for further guidance on how to best go ahead.

167. I am thankful knowing that speaking the truth in difficult situations is NOT the same as evil speaking. The truth is often a hard pill to swallow even under the best of circumstances!

Beloved Father!

There is nothing in this universe as glorious and awesome as Your very Being! I long for Your presence in my world above all else!! You are goodness, perfection, beauty and food for my very soul. May You grow and magnify Your greatness in my heart, mind, body, spirit and world daily until You have Your being within me to YOUR full satisfaction and to Your greatest glory.

Who Am I, that You’re mindful of me? That You hear me, when I call upon Your Holy name?

You blow my mind and delight my heart!!

This is not my ministry but it is a place and a space for me to show case YOU more clearly and fully to a dying world that needs the gifts of Your being.