Manning-Lamo chat logs revealed

(12:59:41 PM) bradass87: uhm… crazy, almost criminal political
backdealings… the non-PR-versions of world events and crises… uhm…
all kinds of stuff like everything from the buildup to the Iraq War
during Powell, to what the actual content of "aid packages" is: for
instance, PR that the US is sending aid to pakistan includes
funding for water/food/clothing… that much is true, it includes
that, but the other 85% of it is for F-16 fighters and munitions to
aid in the Afghanistan effort, so the US can call in Pakistanis to
do aerial bombing instead of americans potentially killing
civilians and creating a PR crisis

(1:00:57 PM) bradass87: theres so much… it affects everybody on
earth… everywhere there's a US post… there's a diplomatic scandal
that will be revealed… Iceland, the Vatican, Spain, Brazil,
Madascar, if its a country, and its recognized by the US as a
country, its got dirt on it

(1:01:27 PM) bradass87: i need one myself

(1:10:38 PM) bradass87: its open diplomacy… world-wide anarchy
in CSV format… its Climategate with a global scope, and
breathtaking depth… its beautiful, and horrifying…

(1:10:38 PM) info@adrianlamo.com <AUTO-REPLY>: I have more
messages than resources allocatable to action them. Please be very
patient.

(1:11:54 PM) bradass87: and… its important that it gets out… i
feel, for some bizarre reason

(1:12:02 PM) bradass87: it might actually change something

(1:13:10 PM) bradass87: i just… dont wish to be a part of it… at
least not now… im not ready… i wouldn't mind going to prison for
the rest of my life, or being executed so much, if it wasn't for
the possibility of having pictures of me… plastered all over the
world press… as boy…

(1:14:11 PM) bradass87: i've totally lost my mind… i make no
sense… the CPU is not made for this motherboard…

(1:14:42 PM) bradass87: s/as boy/as a boy

(1:30:32 PM) bradass87: >sigh<

(1:31:40 PM) bradass87: i just wanted enough time to figure
myself out… to be myself… and be running around all the time,
trying to meet someone else's expectations

(1:32:01 PM) bradass87: *and not be

(1:33:03 PM) bradass87: im just kind of drifting now…

(1:34:11 PM) bradass87: waiting to redeploy to the US, be
discharged… and figure out how on earth im going to transition

(1:34:45 PM) bradass87: all while witnessing the world freak out
as its most intimate secrets are revealed

(1:35:06 PM) bradass87: its such an awkward place to be in,
emotionally and psychologically

(1:35:06 PM) info@adrianlamo.com <AUTO-REPLY>: I have more
messages than resources allocatable to action them. Please be very
patient.

(1:39:03 PM) bradass87: i cant believe what im confessing to you
:'(

(1:40:20 PM) bradass87: ive been so isolated so long… i just
wanted to be nice, and live a normal life… but events kept forcing
me to figure out ways to survive… smart enough to know whats going
on, but helpless to do anything… no-one took any notice of me

(1:40:43 PM) bradass87: :'(

(1:43:51 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: back

(1:43:59 PM) bradass87: im self medicating like crazy when im
not toiling in the supply office (my new location, since im being
discharged, im not offically intel anymore)

(1:54:04 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: not really. 2600 is an ally of
wikileaks.

(1:54:10 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: how old are you?

(1:54:15 PM) bradass87: 22

(1:54:55 PM) bradass87: but im not a source for you… im talking
to you as someone who needs moral and emotional fucking support

(1:55:02 PM) bradass87: :'(

(1:55:10 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: i told you, none of this is
for print

(1:55:16 PM) bradass87: ok, ok

(1:55:19 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: i want to know who i'm
supporting

(1:55:25 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: no names as yet

(1:55:26 PM) bradass87: im flipping out…

(1:55:32 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: security.

(1:55:43 PM) bradass87: huh?

(1:55:51 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: re. no names as yet.

(1:55:56 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: except brad, i assume.

(1:56:23 PM) bradass87: ive already sent you full name in
emails…

(1:56:43 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: oh! you're the PGP guy

(1:56:52 PM) bradass87: yeah, im sorry

(1:56:57 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: i'm an idiot

(1:57:33 PM) bradass87: im pretty reckless at this point

(1:57:53 PM) bradass87: but im trying not to end up with 5.56mm
rounds in my forehead…

(1:58:38 PM) bradass87: that i fired..

(2:00:18 PM) bradass87: im not lying when i say im totally out
of it right now

(2:01:02 PM) bradass87: ok, so… im not suicidal quite yet…

(2:01:14 PM) bradass87: but im pretty desperate for some
non-isolation

(2:02:34 PM) bradass87: idk anymore

(2:04:29 PM) bradass87: im a source, not quite a volunteer

(2:05:38 PM) bradass87: i mean, im a high profile source… and
i've developed a relationship with assange… but i dont know much
more than what he tells me, which is very little

(2:05:58 PM) bradass87: it took me four months to confirm that
the person i was communicating was in fact assange

(2:10:01 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: how'd you do that?

(2:12:45 PM) bradass87: I gathered more info when i questioned
him whenever he was being tailed in Sweden by State Department
officials… i was trying to figure out who was following him… and
why… and he was telling me stories of other times he's been
followed… and they matched up with the ones he's said publicly

(2:14:28 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: did that bear out? the
surveillance?

(2:14:46 PM) bradass87: based on the description he gave me, I
assessed it was the Northern Europe Diplomatic Security Team…
trying to figure out how he got the Reykjavik cable…

(2:15:57 PM) bradass87: they also caught wind that he had a
video… of the Gharani airstrike in afghanistan, which he has, but
hasn't decrypted yet… the production team was actually working on
the Baghdad strike though, which was never really encrypted

(2:16:22 PM) bradass87: he's got the whole 15-6 for that
incident… so it wont just be video with no context

(2:16:55 PM) bradass87: but its not nearly as damning… it was an
awful incident, but nothing like the baghdad one

(2:17:59 PM) bradass87: the investigating officers left the
material unprotected, sitting in a directory on a
centcom.smil.mil

(2:18:03 PM) bradass87: server

(2:18:56 PM) bradass87: but they did zip up the files, aes-256,
with an excellent password… so afaik it hasn't been broken yet

(2:19:12 PM) bradass87: 14+ chars…

(2:19:37 PM) bradass87: i can't believe what im telling you
=L

(2:19:50 PM) bradass87: ive had too many chinks in my armor
:'(

(2:20:52 PM) bradass87: im a broken soul =L

(2:21:22 PM) bradass87: i need to go eat, ill brb

(2:21:26 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: *hug*

(2:21:39 PM) bradass87: thank you :'( it means a lot

(2:54:21 PM) bradass87: im sorry

(2:54:21 PM) info@adrianlamo.com <AUTO-REPLY>: I have more
messages than resources allocatable to action them. Please be very
patient.

(2:55:00 PM) bradass87: im just… ugh

(2:56:34 PM) bradass87: my family is non-supportive… my
boyfriend ditched me without telling me… im losing my job… losing
my career options… i dont have much more except for this laptop,
some books, and a hell of a story