I'm stuck in my room
As the night becomes darker
The windowsill painted
With lyrics and marker
And my motivation
Oh where has it run off to?

But all of a sudden
Words cease to mean nothin'
Especially names
Of girls I've been fuckin'
And places that I
Had left them behind
Tryin' to find someone new

But that's how it works
It all just gets duller
The more that you settle
The harder you falter
The planned routines you wish you could escape

From the grand routines you wish that you could change

So the only thing to stop me from gettin' on a plane
Is the embarrassing fear of trying to explain
To my parents and friends that they're not to blame
It was the only way for me to stay sane

But the further you go
To the place you call home
The more comfy you get
With being alone
And the closer you get
To knowing yourself
And feeling all the things
You wish you had felt

How come I have this fear
Of the way that my memories disappear
Of the way that most of the time
None of us will ever do anything with our lives

I’m sorry for
The songs that I sent you
I’m sorry for
What I got you all into
I’m sorry for
This early eruption
I’m sorry for
My sexual disfunction
I’m sorry for
My fake disposition
I’m sorry for
My shifting opinions
I’m sorry if
I’ve become heartless
I’m sorry that
I am so sharpless
I’m sorry