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Wabi-sabi

Status: good. I mean kinda good. post weekend hangover which has left me feeling lethargic and apathetic this morning. That’s not uncommon for a Monday morning. Had a big Saturday night, which resulted in a slovenly Sunday recovering from the festivities. Fully admit that this is a big momentum killer and I seemed to only have the capacity for YT videos this morning when I woke up versus being able to engage with the task list. I think I need to retire this habit as it’s not working for me anymore.

Captain Marvel.

Very mediocre and forgettable. I think I’ll detail my thoughts about the movie into a separate blog post, but this was a very disappointing addition to the MCU.

Date.

Had two dates scheduled over the weekend. The lady I met on Saturday was actually quite nice and engaging. Very quickly realised that the reason we got along so well together was because our dysfunctions were compatible. She has almost the same background as me, and it looks like I’m a good fit to help her recreate her childhood environment. I could see through her body language that she was recognising characteristics in me which are similar to her primary caregiver.

The smart move here would be to run, not walk, in the opposite direction. She reminds me alot of Thais, and that was a fkn disaster which I have no interest in experiencing again. Still, I know this is a temporary situation because I’ll be leaving in two short months, so perhaps I’ll entertain a few meetings with her while I explore alternative options.

Second date for the weekend was due to happen yesterday, and she pulled a no-show. I’m vacilating between indifference and annoyance. She showed signs of enthusiastic interest leading up to the date, which at times felt a bit absurd that someone would be that interested before meeting in person, so I was a little surprised when she failed to show up at the cafe and also that she ghosted me. Part of me thinks that she revealed her true nature by not showing up, and therefore I’m better off having this information now and before I invested any more time into this. The other part of me just wants to send a ‘thanks-for-being-an-asshole’ kind of text message to her, but I know this likely won’t make me feel any better and it will just give her the opportunity to play the harassment card, even if my text is relatively benign.

It might be best to just leave this one alone. I mean, I now know everything I need to know about this person. There’s nothing more to be gained here.

Photography.

In a developing trend, the model I was due to shoot on Sunday decided to cancel at the last minute. Gave me an excuse which may or may not have been the truth. At least she didn’t stand me up, and I had enough time to make alternative plans.

I’m thinking that I may just make arrangements with alternative options, so I’m not wasting any more time with this one.