Faster than light, some haunting, some fleeting, some sweet, and some filled with sorrow, THOUGHTS are what make or break us. In search of my true self, a journal that deals with day-to-day things that leave their mark on me.. RACING THOUGHTS, my spoken and unspoken reflections!!
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Jun 21, 2007

Well, six months after I had been here, when I look back at my life, is it all the time that has gone down the drain??? Nope, not at all.. then why do I feel as if I have lost everything...

The time period between 2005-2007 has been a destruction and reconstruction phase in my life. Everything that I had based my life on previously suddenly vanished and I was forced to look at life from a new perspective and move on with what was left on hand. I lost then only stable and supporting force in my life, my grandmother, and had been exposed to many of the harsh realities in the life. Yet, I met my OH and set about a new life with new hopes walking hand in hand towards a new horizon. I have evolved as a person, the anger which was once a trademark Sushma feature is nowhere to be seen and I am a better individual than I was before.

When I keep cribbing I had been jobless for the past 6 months why do I forget that I have been building a life of my own, a home that I always yearned for, a secured zone where the OH is there to take of my every single need and be there. This is what I have always wanted and yet when I have it I search for something else. Is this human nature that you always keep looking at things you dont have at the moment and in the process fail to enjoy what you have on hand. I need to refocus my thought along these lines and be thankful for what I have rather than crib and cry for what I dont.. 'cos for sure when I have what I want to have right now, I will have another reason to crib about.. So all in all, this past half-year has been uneventfully eventful in my life and thank God for the small mercies like keeping me sane despite my propensity towards insanity :)

6 comments:

Hey girlie...as you said when you find urself a job, you'll be cribbing abt your busy schedule bla bla bla just as I do now...So just cheer up and live life king size...and enjoy ur newly married bliss..;)

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