I'm not going to drag this out like a half-lit cigarette, but keep it brief like the underwear I just threw on the floor.

I'm back, I'm here, I'm writing again.

I'm sorry, I'm sick, I'm stupid and I'm married.

I'm silly, I'm sad, I'm excited and I'm worried.

Okay, to elaborate.

I'm back: Yes, I am back, after quite a hiatus.
I'm here: Refer to above. And also, I am alive.
I'm writing again: I'm working on a novel.
I'm sorry: Sorry to have been away so long, and to have been so zuru-zuru about everything.
I'm sick: I have frontal lobe epilepsy, just diagnosed last month, February.
I'm stupid: I forgot my password to this site.
I'm married: I was married September 20th, 2010 to a wonderful man in the Marine Corps. He is my best friend. I have many of those.
I'm silly: For posting a journal entry that probably won't get read by anyone I used to know on here.
I'm sad: I miss people, I miss driving because I can't anymore. I miss my family.
I'm excited: I get to see a best friend in April, who is living with me for seven months. My husband is deploying soon and the launch of Bamboopink is ongoing.
I'm worried: About my life, financial comfort, my husband deploying, my brain and my liver. I am just plain worried.

Keep it real, sixlets.

...Created 2011-03-16 00:46:23

Journal: Well...-------------------------------------------

Mood: Thinking...

I believe I have learned many things so far, on this journey called life.

I have learned to love, to give, to not expect.

I have also been humbled.

I can no more ask a human being to quit being a human being, than to forcibly press upon someone my lifestyle...my way of thinking.

The world can be dark, evil, confusing. And people can be depressed, scared and angry.

Yet I believe, and I still do wholly, that I can brush against one person and gift them some moment of happiness. Of laughter. Of just relaxation.

My goal I suppose is to be the video game to life. Or the canvas and oil paints to life. Or the notebook and pen to life.

I want to give people that brief moment of release, where they don't have to worry about time and the things that need doing. Instead, just to take a breath, and exhale slowly.

Things can get out of control, they can get downright rough, but I want to take that away for an hour or two. Maybe a day, maybe a week.

I want you to talk to me about those things that bother, I want you to realize that I am not going to judge you for it is not my place.

I want to listen.

I want to comfort you.

Let me be that lapse in hellish life where you can just sigh.

This is why I am here.

...Created 2010-01-13 03:24:55

Journal: 2010-------------------------------------------

Mood: Yeay!!

May it bring you all that you desire, and may your goals be completed!

...Created 2010-01-01 01:07:22

Journal: Inspiration-------------------------------------------

Mood: Relaxing

I'm going to start posting books on here that have inspired me.

Full books. For you all to read.

...Created 2009-10-25 03:45:50

Journal: My Life Sucks-------------------------------------------

Mood: The Usual

>:(

...Created 2009-06-02 00:30:53

Journal: AUGH!-------------------------------------------

Mood: HELACIOUS!

I hate when people lie! It makes everything ten times harder, and it makes a reasonable friendship practically impossible! Lust is a terrible, difficult thing, and it seemed to have gotten the best of a few I know.

They felt they had to hide their sexuality with one another because I was uncomfortable with it. Well, all it did was make me so angry! I can't stand being lied to, I can't stand when people are so devious to cover their own asses, I can't stand when people are sitting on me!

I was promised something before my so-called friends even arrived, and they broke that promise the first night they were here@!!!aksdehjg

FUCK

...Created 2009-03-12 19:43:06

Journal: Fascinating...-------------------------------------------

Mood: Hardy

My new method for finding featured pieces is the number of views they have received.

Also, my writing will continue at the pace it's found for itself.

But again, I'm an opinionated bitch who only thinks of herself, has no regard for other people and will not wait for polite-politics in a world falling apart. Create for me not my own shambles, but a paper mache' version of your own for me to destroy.

...Created 2009-03-04 18:53:06

Journal: Well...-------------------------------------------

Mood: Fetching Fetching

I'm an opinionated bitch who only thinks of herself, has no regard for other people and will not wait for polite-politics in a world falling apart. Create for me not my own shambles, but a paper mache version of your own for me to destroy.

...Created 2009-02-22 10:11:59

Journal: Oh, My-------------------------------------------

Mood: Woo! Listening to Sally Anthony

Updateness:> I now work at Wal-Mart, same as Flynn! Haha. Not the same store, but eh. Purdy close I suppose. I'm happily together with a wonderful man, and hope to be forever!

To all my ES friends:> I love you guys, thanks for keeping me in your thoughts and hopefully I'll get a chance to stop by your page and look at all your beautiful work! Don't stop writing, it's amazing what the soul can produce.

...Created 2008-11-24 21:41:35

Journal: Hrm-------------------------------------------

Mood: Slightly drunk

Well, I guess I lied on my last journal entry. I haven't really done much for the community of ES. Nor have I done much for my friends.

Sorry guys, been busy working and getting my ass kicked by medical/bills/bills. Heh.