Saying GoodBye To YettiSays.com

hey say to grin and bare it. Never let them catch you down. Don’t give them the satisfaction of your tears or your pain. Fake it to you make it. They tell you if you want something bad enough, you’ll find a way to make it happen. You’re told to hit the ground running. Keep your head down and work hard. Sacrifice. Focus. Plan. Execute. Cut back. Work some more. They say the idea of burn out is in your head. Mind of matter. Slowing down and giving way to exhaustion is for the weak. Showing signs of vulnerability? Nah, we can’t have that, they say.

But how do you refuel yourself when the wheels are barely turning? How do you get the vehicle going again when your engine is desert dry?

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Can I be honest with you all?
Like come-undone-don’t-judge-me-too-hard honestwith you?

My engine is desert dry. It’s been dry. It’s drier than fucking dry.

I have just about no motivation to do anything outside of what is necessary. I work my 60+ plus hour week, workout like a mad woman, and uber home because taking the train is too much work. I attend 3 to 4 evening meetings for NSBE, boo-love, and lay in bed contemplating my next move. The next move I have no motivation or energy to make. I mean, even right now, I am forcing myself to write this post.

I think it’s a little bit more than losing my mojo. I think it’s exhaustion coupled with extreme laziness and I don’t know what the fuck I want anymore. It’s a little bit more than not wanting to fail at these new ideas that pop into my head. It’s no longer caring about living a complacent life with a side of being an overachiever is really hard and boring and lonely.

But more importantly, and what is relevant to this space I call home on the internet, I just don’t think blogging is it for me anymore.

This year in blogging has been nothing short of disgraceful. I think to date I have posted 10 real blog posts outside of my post series and the Currently staple. I’m actually a little ashamed. You see, sitting down to write doesn’t come easy for me anymore. The words no longer pour from within and the release is never met. It doesn’t feel natural, or freeing, or relaxing. It’s feels more like a chore and a “you have to do this” obligation, and I refuse to produce anything with that being it’s intention.

Every time I log into WordPress, I wonder if it’s time to hang it up. I wonder if maybe this year-long dry spell is not simply just a dry spell. I wonder if maybe my time on the interwebs was numbered, and I’ve been holding onto something that no longer serves a purpose. Because it shouldn’t be this hard to dedicate time to it, and it shouldn’t be this much of a struggle to complete a post once or twice a month.

The words are not failing me, they’re simply just not there anymore, and I feel terrible because a few of you constantly follow up with me via email or social media, and I’ve responded with assurance that there will be a come back, but deep down, I’m really just not sure if it’ll happen.

But rest assured, if I do decide to hang up this hat, I’ll keep YettiSays and AndSoSheWrites open to you all, and you’ll always have a way to get in touch with me. I just really needed to honest with you, my faithful, loyal readers. That time feels like it is near.

Comments

Amazing post! Roxanne Gay wrote an amazing essay about the trouble with being an overachiever. The trouble is that no matter how much you accomplish – you always believe it’s not enough. You become a new kind of hampster on the wheel where success is that next degree, that next promotion, that next bright idea or that next certification.

Spoiler alert. After you get a victory, it’s only a matter of time before you go in hot pursuit of the next one. And spoiler alert #2 – no victory is ever good enough.

True victory is knowing that you came and conquered what was for you to at those appointed times in life. And if you’re lucky you’ll inspire others to do the same. You’ve my dear Yetti, have managed to do both. Congrats for executing and writing a kick ass blog but an even bigger congrats on not just being phenomenal but real as f*ck. ??

My beautiful Yetti, those who support you will be right here when you hit us up on our in box. In the meantime from my perspective I think you should just go out and live your authentic self life! Explore new things, new ideas, sleep, cry, scream just do you! Then who knows what great stuff you may come back sharing!!! Best of luck doll xo:)

I have my bouts with this especially as a professional writer. The last time I blogged was in May. LOL. But the secret when you feel like writing is a chore and you don’t want to do it is to read. Don’t force yourself to write if the words aren’t there. Read and remember why you’ve always wanted to write in the first place. And also live your life. The passion comes back.

Your honesty is inspiring. And while I had no idea you were going through so much in terms of a ‘go go go’ lifestyle and the busyness of it all, I do have a sense of how you feel. That’s why i stopped blogging… it felt like a ‘chore’, something that I ‘had’ to do and didn’t ‘want’ to do anymore. I kept it up because I felt I was letting others down. Listen, I’m glad you were brutally honest and the reality of it… you have to take care of you. I still admire you in so many ways and those who have been blessed to be in your life will still be here if and when you ever decide to come back. And if not, you made a hell of an impact on some folks and hopefully some friends for life. I’m cheering you on in wherever life takes you next! xoxo

This has got to be the year of clarity because I had the same revelation about a week ago (week ago! lol). I made some tough career decisions that made me uncomfortable. I almost ugly cried for real. But I know I did the right thing for me, and I root for anyone in that place. Get it Yetti! Wish you the best!

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Yetti is the creator of award-winning blog, YettiSays.com, where she writes what she feels, and delivers readers her raw and uncut truth. She is also the founder of Certified 10, the organization encouraging millennial women to kick ass while falling madly in love with themselves. When not tending to her passion for self-love and mental health awareness, you can find her obsessing over stationary. Cute post-its anyone?

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