Janey Godley's Podcast Episode 82(Please be aware that this Podcast Contains strong language)
In episode 82 of Janey Godley’s podcast the mother and daughter comedy duo discuss the latest news about Scottish Independence, Sir Fred ‘The Shred’ and Eamonn Holmes gaff about prostitution live on TV. Janey gives us her opinion on the young Tory who dressed up as Maddy McCann and Ashley waxes lyrical about her latest puppy obsession.
Ashley gives us a roundup of interesting religious groups and Janey talks about her husband going for a personality test with Scientologists. There are many podcast questions to get through and the gabby duo talk about their forthcoming New Zealand trip to the comedy festival.
Mother and Daughter comedy team get to natter and the world gets to hear it on Janey Godley’s podcasts, expect some bawdy language and home truths, as Janey Godley and Ashley Storrie lead you down the roads less taken in their fantastic weekly podcast. Listen as mother and daughter ban

1Darkness falls on me
Covers me like a blanket
Warm and new
Taking the light away from me
This, all so new
All because of you
Love is a lesser word
Has no meaning here
Has no place
Only , a sweetly biter taste
Covers my mouth
Want , need , could ,only
Be you
There is nothing like your face
Nothing like the grace
True understanding
A new life has landed
The birth of me
Has

New SpacesShades of night ,
Help me fight.
Threw the light.
Crawling.
Falling .
Deep .
Lost .
Never knowing,
It was even there .
Oh, life is not fair.
Not having a single care .
Now , I want more .
Found and bleeding .
Spilling out for you.
Take it,
Take it for me...
Even threw,

T He Ghost Of You .Like a ghost
I feel you in my room
Your hand slides a cross my face
So sensual
Just the thought of your touch
I know you are not here
but I feel you every where
Seems to be to much
More then I had asked
For
The , thought of you,
Leaves me wanting more
Laying in my bed
Eyes shut
Relaxed ,
Deep in my thoughts of you
Where are you ?
It seems to be tricking
Me
Swear , I have touched you
I know , I feel your lips on mine
Distants and time
Distants and time
Oh , the dista

Everything Happens For A ReasonMe (in a tizzy) : God, can I ask you something?
GOD: Sure. Me: Promise you won't get mad?
GOD: I promise.
Me (frustrated): Why did you let so much stuff happen to me today?
GOD: What do you mean?
Me: Well I woke up late.
GOD: Yes
Me: My car took forever to start.
GOD: Okay....
Me: (growling): At lunch, they made my sandwich wrong and I had to wait.
GOD: Hmmmm.
Me: On the way home, my phone went dead, just as I picked up a call.
GOD: All right.
Me: (loudly): And to top it all off, when I got home, I just wanted to soak my feet in my foot massager and relax, but it wouldn't work. Nothing went right today! Why did you do that?
GOD: Well let me see..... the death angel was at your bed this morning and I had to send one of the other angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that.
Me: (humbled): Oh...
GOD: I didn't let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that might have hit you if you were on the road.
Me: (ashamed): ............

What It Fill LikeWHAT IT FILLS LIKE TO HAVE SOME ONE THINK I AM SO BEATUFULL! CAN NOT BEGIN TO TELL YOU HOW I FRISL! SOME ONE WHO CALLS AND CHECKS ON ME EVERY DAY! SOME ONE WHO CALLS AND SAYS GOOD MORNING BABY! SOME ONE WHO CALLS ME JUST O LISSEN TO ME AND SOME ONE WHO LOVES ME SIGHT UNSEN! SOME ONE WHO THINKS IAM ALL THAT! I NEVER GET THIS LUCK AND I HOPE I STAY THIS WAY! LOVE IS A GRAND THING! LOVE CAN MOVE A MOUNT AND BILD A BRIG ALL AT THE SAME TIME! LOVE THE WAY HE MAKES ME FILL! HOPE IT NEVER ENDS!

Slow Dancing Lolsometimes i just feel like slow grinding on my man to make him feel good hahahahaha slow dancing its the best! if you think so to comment

VjDon't ever take a fence down until you know the reason why it was put up.

Ll﻿Half truths are as bad as lies, sometimes worse. And history has suffered hugely from half truths.

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"Don't fucking be a pussy! You just should start shit with me, regardless of your opinion, I never said shit to you directly, however, you came on here for a reason, you also advertised you're a tranny for a reason, so let that be the reason you stay on. You will find what you're looking for, fuck everyone that gives you shit, me included. You're not here for us, you're here for w/e it is you're after. Good luck with all that, seriously! You're still a human being and have feelings, please don't respond, I'm just sayin"
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this is an email i get this morning after a mumm ;ast night that i had to have a bouncer pull, this gentelmen thought that it was perfectly fine to tell me over and over again

WorkA French doctor says 'Medicine in my country is so advanced that we can take kidney out of one man, put it in another, and have him looking for work in six weeks.' A German doctor says 'That is nothing; we can take a lung out of one person,put it in another, and have him looking for work in four weeks. The Russian doctor says 'In my country, medicine is so advanced that we can take half a heart out of one person, put it in another, and have them both looking for work in two weeks.' An American doctor, not to be outdone, says 'You guys are way behind. We recently took a nigger with no brains out of Illinois , put him in the White House, and now half the fucking country is looking for work.

Lolsooooo, i was talking too this indian lady, i was trying too be nice and she was just rude too me... lol no wonder why people hate indians... im ashamed too even be half indian...

Ice Cream DreamIce Cream Dream
Sittin' back for a moment of mental release
body enveloped deep within the leather of your lazy boy seat
light breaking through the the window to find....
You awaken from slumbers with erotic thoughts heavy on your mind.
Totally roused from this seeming never-ending dream with longing desire for some refreshing ice cream.
Make no mistake, within these words lies a deeper message
Sometimes a meat and potatoes encounter ain't always the best vestige.
Mama always said "life's short indulge and start with dessert"
Mmmmm, cool tasty treats guaranteed to please- What flavor to start with first???Maybe....
"Ample Breast Delight." Nipples full, a beautiful presentation
Swollen , hard-textured, nice and tight
Suckled between your waiting moist lips
Tongue so hot and wet-teasing those delicious nipple tips

PunksThere is something nice when you find out that the person you love loves you back.
Makes me feel all warm inside.
Makes me happy.
Makes me feel, almost, complete.
On a side note.....Van's penis is mine for 3 weeks.

Ten RosesFor every tear you cry, I cry a hundred thousand more, I'll give you ten roses, For everything you're fighting for.The first will be a red rose, For courage and for health, The second a bright yellow rose, For gaining all life's wealth, The third will be a soft pink rose, So you may be happy in love, The fourth will be a white rose, Brought by a turtledove, The fifth will be an orange rose, To give you back your fire, The sixth will be a deep pink rose, So you may have what you desire, The seventh will be a coral rose, To gain you many friends, The eighth will be a purple rose, To guide you through life's bends, The ninth will be a pale yellow rose, To give you hope to try, The tenth will be a black rose, So you can mourn me when I die.I have to leave my dearest friend, But may the roses last you til my end, I'm sorry I could not say goodbye, Though ten roses I leave by your side.I leave you with a kiss, Along with these rose flowers, I know I will be missed, But I pray the roses will

I Found Love!Well i just wanted to start a lill blog and i figured i would do a mind teaseing queation that always finds it way into my head. How far, or how long, can to people be together, and relise its not love..... but lust?!

Searching For The Southern Cross ( Finding Ones Self )Some time ago I posted a dream about sitting in a grave yard with bright shiny beautiful tombstones that I marveled at until I realized that they were jet black and I felt the cold, sad sterility of the place descend on to me. I then noticed a book in my hands which had no identifying marks and which I did not open. It was suggested that this was my unknown future waiting to unfold.......... with me as its author. The other night I posted in another social network about my Wolf Spirit Guide and how she has set me on a path that there will be no returning from. One where I leave the mainstream of society for good and withdraw to my own kind. I told all those in that group that it is okay to be a freak, that they should love and celebrate who they are. Last night when I retired to sleep and I had a dream where I was in a junkyard(grave yard ?) and I found a box that I could see a pair of piercing eyes staring out of it's dark interior. My first thought was that it was an ea

Absent The FarewellI must admit that point is belabored.
Conspirators may move in shadowed steps
far from my view,
but what good is searching
if nothing is there to find?
Could I have known what I know now?
That I would wake
to find you gone?
So I turn a hopeless pale
and the sun shines through a cracked windowpane
stretching another shadow on the wall.
Betrayed by a longing within me
there is now no one in whom to confide.
A final word from me
became the first for you.
Meaningless?
So it seems.
And what is there left to take?
I'll try to forget you as you forgot me
but how to contemplate this change
in my time of need.
I ponder how easy it could be
to end it all
and disconnect from that sickness
that turns me from the world.
In fleeting moments,
the darkness fades
but it never sustains.
Turn away.
You never belonged here.
So I'll wake to an emptiness
haunted by the three words that forsook me.
Watching promises turn to lies
and the plight carries us all away.
The hop

But If I Had A Final Wish.Visceral in motion, perplexing in slur. I don't think you understand what it is to be so flexable.
It's like a geared set of 5th-cycling prepositions flawlessly aimed towards a track record, not 1st place.
It's not just a motion, and I'll be damned if I actually have to clear a place besides the one I'm in.
If you're askin', it's not a gentility phrase. I'm condemned in a fluctuation of peace and lies.
Unfortunately, I only deal truths and I love to blow-up scenes. It's why I think you're narrow.
Go for the finish, will you? We're bored, over here. That's my problem.
The bored or the harrowed. That's what they say. I choose harrowing billards over the bored, any day.
The problem is the week, or maybe the month. Hell, let's just claim the whole year and chalk it up to a misdemeanour.
If only you'd've listened to how well I danced with you. Some people do.
One did, and I fell in love with her hug. Her 'hug'. It's hardly fair.
Oh well, I guess. If I had one final wish, I woul

Freaking Misfit OutAfter a really hot pic that I can no longer view, was send to me, Misfit and I had this "chat".. She so wants me..
the pic link is..
http://fubar.com/as-in-the-words-of-mr-garrison-don-t-trust-anything-that-ble/photo-316494-96876-288405083
'Ford' dammit.. no i'm hungry and horny.. when are you getting here? i can't wait..*drools*
'misfit' FUCK YOU FORD!
'Ford' when you get to NY, it'll happen.. you can fuck me all you ant..*drools*
'misfit' oh come on...you are vomiting now arent you :p'
'Ford' not at all.. hungering for Misfit pie..mm-mm-MMMM
'misfit' *gets you new meds*
'Ford' Viagra?? you sooooooooooo want me... *sings 'All Night Long'*
'misfit' that chick has weird boney ankles...
'Ford' just means she has no meat on her bones.. like you do.. when you getting here? :p
'misfit' ARE YOU CALLING ME FAT??
'

Not Finished Yet. Not About Anyone SpecficPlease Master,
I want to be your slave, I want to take care of you.
I want to behave, I want to do the best i can do.
I want you to hold me, I want to stay in your arms.
i want to make you see, I want to be taken by your charms.
this is a work in progress just had to save it

Butterfly KissesLaying here with you in my armsGently caressing you silky smooth skin My hand running over you tender placesthe look of desire can't hide in your eyeslow moans and coos escape you lipsleaving butterfly kisses on you bodymy lips exploring you secret placesFeeling the heat rising off your bodymy tongue teasing your moundLow moans turns loud as my lips find you pearlnails scratches my back as you fight you bodyreaching the point of no return your body tenses upyou scream out my name as you ride the wave of pleasureas you come down your body shudderas I leave more butterfly kisses upon your body

Close Your EyesClose those moist eyes of yours submissively,
As I lower my painted mouth to yours,
Open those milky thighs, permissively,
Let us sweetly kiss, with widening jaws,
Thrill me again with that exquisite tongue,
As it lovingly slithers against mine,
When your lacy bodice, becomes unstrung,
Till clothing, your breasts no longer confine.
With my hand cupped upon your heaving breast,
And my passionate mouth still glued to yours,
As I titillate, that hardening crest,
For breath, from our French kissing we must pause,
Arch your fragile neck, towards my warm mouth,
As my questing kisses, lightly travel,
Downward from your flushed face, to places south,
To find those treasures, below your navel.
For a while, will pause my sensual passage,
Upon the rising foothills of your breasts,
Exploring the deepness of your cleavage,
And tongue, puckered peaks teasingly molests,
Wrap you slender arms around me, so tight,
Till my impassioned kisses, are all done.
And I’ll take you t

Here To HateI'm not here to make friends. besides theres no such thing as a friend on the net. only in person. I'm here to piss others off. so bring me your anger & your hatful text. I love it & i eat it up.

Straight EdgeCM Punk is in his locker room getting ready for his big match on Smackdown against Kane. He checks the tape wrapped around his wrists when there is a knock at his door. Punk motions for his bodyguard Luke Gallows to open the door and the tall bald wrestler opens the steel locker room door and in to Punk's locker room walks Natalya Neidhart. She looks amazing with her blonde hair streaked with pink tied up above her head, she also has on a pink leather jacket and pink and black one shoulder top showing off her flat mid section and low cut enough to show a great deal of her big breasts. Punk eyes go lower to Natalya's tight pink wrestling tights and white boots and the blonde looks stunning and Punk has to take a second to put his eyes back on her face as she starts to Punk.
"Thank god your here Punk I need your help," Natalya says to Punk her head lowering slightly.
Punk looks behind her to Luke Gallows who is silently asking Punk if he wants the Diva thrown out and Punk shakes

What Goes Through My Head Sometimesok, so about a week ago i started getting weird comments on here about coffee like "coffee does rock". i've been getting them every few days and thinking, do i know this person? well, today i figured it out, i looked at my profile pic and was like duhhhhhhhh lol. i can be such a dork some times lol

Drama From HomeSo it's no longer home to me, being in WV. I have moved on, but my ex-wife has not. She tried to commit suicide. Had me up all night worrying about whether or not she was going to die. Had our kids worried and even had other people worried about her. She needs help which now I believe she's going to get.
How many times can you tell a person that the relationship is over before they get it? And you can't force a person to stay in your life when they are not happy. That's what the ex-wife tried to do. the suicide thing was the call for attention that she wanted to get from me. or anyone. I feel like it was her attempt to force me to go back to our failed marriage and live in misery. I'm sorry. I do not feel guilty over what happened. It's done, let's move on...
It's not like I don't care about my family. I just don't have any feelign for my ex-wife. I made that clear to her. She is convinced that I walked out on my kids as well. in truth, I walked out on her. I still have contact

Life Don't worry if people talk behind ur back. It simply means ur are two steps ahead of them already

Fuck BuddyI really need a fuck around where I live so if ur that girl hit me up

Words....Slipping away to a dark place. a place that has no windows no doors. Loosing myself inside myself. Fallin to the ground with no paracute. watching it all unfold from above. Things that once was are becoming undone. In my mind the events happen. Take it in my hand watch it go in....fallin to the ground....slowly fading into my reality. Lookin down seeing the relief in the eyes. Peace at last. Mind has finally shut down. No more worries no more thoughts. Just peace within. Finally. slipping away slowly watching it all unravel. The peace is there the light is brighter. The world is quiet. Finally the peace within.

The Lure Of Amber Jewelry –Do you love amber jewelry? If you do, what attracts you the most about it, it’s wonderful color, and the gorgeous feel, its light weight, the enticing history behind it? Whatever it maybe, amber jewelry really is one of a kind. No wonder there are so many people who love it and are always wearing them. There are people who call this the sunshine stone, light captured in a stone etc, all because of the glorious color and the feel of this amber.
A little about the amber stone –
The amber jewelry you possess and wear today, is actually millions of years old. Hard to believe, but the amber jewelry you are wearing is actually a spot of resin. Millions of years ago, pine trees gave out the resin, which has hardened over these years to form these magnificent pieces of amber jewelry today. Amber jewelry is actually hardened resin that is full of energy, history and wonderful purity unlike other gems. You will find that the history of amber jewelry is actually fascinating. It was

Different Types Of Packing And Moving CompaniesPacking and Moving is one of the growing industries in India. Numerous companies are working in major cities and towns of the country. Most of them have their head offices in big cities like Delhi, Mumbai, Cuttack, Hyderabad, Chennai, etc and several branches in small cities and towns as well. All the expert removal companies provide wide rage of services related to relocation but they can be categorized into several types as well. Now have a quick look over the three most frequently hired packing and transportation companies.
Long Distance Relocation Agencies
When you need to shift to some far away places, long distance reallocation companies can be really helpful. Most of the reputed professional agencies come under this category. Long distance relocation agencies have wide range of goods carriers, vehicle transporters and several latest tools and equipments for safe and optimized transit of belongings. They also have their branches and business associates in several cities fo

Ysl Shoes Ruohan Response"I kind of put your name to say, we poured this cheap Christian Louboutin shoes matter." Qin Mu's shoes, there are a lot of mud, kick him in the quarter Zhigang footprints particularly evident. "Qin Mu, the river of the town Xishan village head." Qin Mu her own hands, quietly said. "A small broken village, waiting for you to give me." Ferocious quarter Zhigang said. "When you no problem, but you are not the first home to change clothes?" Zhigang Qin Mu pointed to the season's shirt, with a smile. Quarter Zhigang Leng Heng, and stare Bairuo Han, turned in a hurry to leave. County clerk's son so arrogant and overbearing, it is interesting to ah. Zhigang Qin Mu looked out the back quarter, thoughtfully think. Qin Mu did not notice the lobby, there is a fifty-year-old Manolo Blahnik Black Pointed-Toe Pump looked at him, nodded his head slightly. A storm in the past, Qin Mu Bai Ruohan went to the hospital following the canteen. Halfway Bairuo Han asked the identity of Qin Mu,

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You People Really Piss Me Off SometimesYou really do
But I'm sick of letting that get to me - I am trying to be here simply to have fun. Now my fun may not be your idea of fun (and vice versa) but guess what? Don't much care.
Anywhoooooooooo
I read about this chick; she made a cake a day, to give away, for a year. Doesn't sound like much? Once you put the thought into the actual doing of it, it's a lot - here's a link for anyone with more than the fu-attention span http://www.nzherald.co.nz/lifestyle/news/article.cfm?c_id=6&objectid=10778028
I've been toying with a similar idea - I cannot afford the time (believe it or not, fu-time is also work-time generally; kitchen time is altogether different.
I don't like to make commitments I don't keep, so I'm ending up doing nothing at all...which pisses me off also. But I'd rather positive energy than the endless soul-sucking pain-manifesting-as-bullshit around here...so this should probably be a MuMM but I'll be fucked if I deal with some of those unctuous cunt

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That Was You, That Was MeThere is much debate concerning the topic of abortion
Whether it is a life or just some small unimportant protrusion
Some say that it cannot feel therefore it is not considered real
But I say don’t assume, when God says “I knew you before you were in the womb”
At eight weeks it already has his hands and his feet
Eyes are apparent those that will one day see their parent
It is not a lump, an object or a mass of insignificance
It is a human life that one day deserves to learn to dance
His hands have formed, hands that one day may perform
Perform a majestic melody, or perform a life saving surgery
He has already begun to move, ever so slightly in the womb
Moving a tiny finger, that one day he will use to touch his mother
But there are still those that would stand up and disagree
I say to you, at one point and time that was you, that was me
But what if the parents are just teens, what about them and their dreams
There is always another option, put the baby

FriendlessSo I think to myself. Why do I try so hard to get friends?
Everyday i try to make friends because I am tired of been alone and tired of not having anyone close to talk with, for that matter I have no one to do anythign with entirely. I have tried to behave in every possible way I have thought of or head of trying to make people see me in a different light and perhaps they would join me. Apparently nothing has worked so far. Some say I should not try so hard in fact that i should just be myself,but, what good is it to be yourself if you hate been yourself because you hate how things go on around you. I guess in any result of this I should take that I am just the lucky one that will leave like as an spectator to it and will not be able to play the game even if as much as try it.

DifferentThings should be different with us
You're the one I want
I would love to go back in time
Things seem different when I look at you
I think of you often
I don't want to be just a number for you
......I'm rambling.

Good Food?Boiled chicken with some chicken flavored stock to make the chicken have that extra.
After boiling it and makign sure the hormones in the chicken are gone and is well boiled bake it in an oven just as it is to crispify the chicken. make some rice and some black beans. Lets see what comes out eh!

ReflectionWho do we talk to when there's no one around to listen?
Who do we hug when there's no one around to care?
Who do we cry to when there's no one around to console you?
Who do we see when we look in the mirror?

More WritingsTHIS SCARLET ROAD I WALK
My feet drag heavy as I walk
My sword in hand used as a crutch
As its tip drags the ground beside me
The shield beaten and nearly broken
My armor has seen to many battles
I just wanted to live my life
I didn’t need anyone standing in my way
You can take a walk with me
Down this dreary path
I hope you’ll part as a friend
I regret nothing in my past
Far to busy living in the now
Looking forward to my future
I am moving forward on a positive stance
If you are by my side stand strong
If you have fallen you will be remembered
For those who oppose me
Keep your negative attitudes to yourselves
Or you’ll be the path I am cutting through
Brandon M. Albrecht 2011

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Jedi PowersI really wish I had Jedi powers. Maybe then I would find the man of my dreams. I'm pretty much down to no hope at finding him. My fate is to be alone for the rest of my life. I see that now.

WorkYesterday I got two possible jobs. One consisted on working for an arcade games place near by my place. As soon as i try to get the job is like if someone had thrown the best corn on the field and around a million hungry birds just flew in. I know it is normal, with the economy and all been bad, but i seriously had a thought of been th eonly one to show up. The second job consisted on a computer tech assistant who needed a person to help them out, perfect two because is what I am looking for. No exp or degree needed as long as you know yoru way around a pc your good and I take it the shop would teach you if (like me) really ask around and want to learn about computers. I emailed the employeer and he emails me back. Everything seemed like it was goign to happen I mean after 3 emails and few keywords thrown in to it I sure thought I had make them want me in the group. Well I send them a last email about what shoudl I do or when should I go or anything. Has been a day already and no word.

The 70'sHolding a hand out
While blazing thru
A hand out to anyone
Who gets the road

:(What a crappy day. I went to the doctor this morning about the numbness in my hands and arms, was told I had advanced carpal tunnel syndrome, I have to have surgery on the 10th and then the left hand 3 weeks after that, then was told by my boss tonight that i would not have a job after friday as he could not afford to pay me anymore, im really stressed especially because I am the only one working here and if I dont have even that little bit of money to pay my bills im so screwed. I sure wish I was financially able to not have to worry anymore :(

For A Best FriendHow can I hate you when I love you,
Could never hold a grudge or treat you as a foe,
Time's have come & time's have past,
So very veyy slow we both know,
Although the knife was raise & I was dealt a bitter blow,
Fires burned in my mind & soul,
You are my best friend & I cpuld never let that go,
Just so you know , even though you can''t be here,
I'll stay thick skinned through it all,
Stand up proud & protect you as you go,
Try to smile that same old glow

Fubar Vs Education And FutureWell where do I begin well I have been neglecting my school for the past few month well since December and I kinda let myself get caught up with a girl on here. Which has resulted me getting kicked and banned from a lounge which I will not name cause i don't start anything else since dealing with all I dealt with I haven't been able to focus on anything and it has made this place less fun so I have come to the conclusion that I am going to take fu-break for a while so that finish my education and get some stuff in my life in order
I just wanna take this time to thank all the wonderful awesome people I met on here I that I will miss each and every one of you but i am not leaving until I finish this level so I will be here for a few days

Went And Seen The Doctor About My Backwell i guess i will try pne of these things i went and seen the doctor about my back and i guess i really pulled a number on it this time i get a cat scan thur they might think i slipped a disk oh boy now what i have a 3 yr old and a 5 yr old to take care of just if you can keep your prayers out for me if you can that i get better i hope i do thanks for taken your time to read this
MMFWCL DJ~JUGAALO~4~LIFE

PeacePeace is good. I'm not asking you to contact me either. I just know you are going through a lot of hell. And I know it's not too late for you to find true happiness, without bullshit. I'm not asking for favors....not tonight.
Sympathy (For Tomorrow)
I'm not asking for favorsnot tonightI look up in the sky...all the rockets fall down (fall down)too many promisestoo many lies
too many faces for me to know
Sometimes I sit among the markersand contemplate my next lifesays something less sympathetic-"a little more unconditional respect was buriedhere"
"But it never livedand it never died
it never came from themit was always inside..."
I don't care if time just passes us byI can stand the change...but not the crueltytoo many promisestoo many liestoo many faces for me to know
Sometimes I sit among the markersand contemplate my next lifesays something less sympathetic-"a little more unconditional respect was buriedhere"
"But it never livedand it never diedit never came from them

Room MatesOk, so I'm having to live with my friends brother and his pregnant girlfriend at the moment. Don't want to, just have to right now.
Anyway, to the point. Can I kill her, pretty please? I've never in my life met such a waste of breath. Everytime she opens her mouth I want to punch her in the face repeatedly.
In case you think I'm being unreasonable, let me explain a little as to why, and as best I can. He's 21, she's 19, they're both lazy bastards. Go for weeks at a time not washing up, or cleaning anything, or takeing out trash. They leave dirty dishes with food left on them all over the floor, there are cups and glasses literally everywhere. Cat litter tray hasn't been emptied for at least a month.
Neither works, he's too lazy to look, she used pregnancy as an excuse not to 'cause she just doesn't want to. She talks at him, never too him, she screams at him from about an inch away like he wouldn't be able to hear her somehow, constantly complaining about something or ordering him t

Catch Up Pt 2Momma has had a good week, lots of company and getting out to do stuff...she has considered dropping her medicare, which I hope doesnt happen, she needs it so much to help her out. I guess she thinks because she wont be seeing drs for her cancer she doesnt need it at all... she is staying confused more and cant have a conversation without forgetting what she is trying to say... i know how frustrated she gets over it.

A Knights OathKnights OathWhen fears give way to tears from the wretched's spears my strength is yours from the Western shores I've ridden, with the Mightiest of Weapons, with it I smite the wrongs and painful things, as I drive on with wings.Yes, to a Love call that rings this Weapon of which I speak, My Heart, is but yours fair Maiden, and nothing, Nay, any a harmful one shall keep it's protection from you, This Loves Armor, does shine.Let me save you, Let me wipe the passing beads from your eyes, Take my hand in full gallop from here, Let this Knight love you till eternities end......this was on the pic, and this made me cry, as it is all I have ever said to those I love, and thoses I call friend...I truly am A Knight in My Heart, and I am ever glad to be thy Knight.I hope this says all I need to say to thee, and thee knows this is true of me, and thee has seen this in me.... thy Knight

A Knights Letter HomeA Knights Letter Home Dearest Love,I am putting this to paper now as I have the time, to let thee know How it is with me. I have only just arrived at the point of battle. It Looks to be not an enjoyable thing. My commander has given me leave to write to thee, and I find that it is hard to express to thee the thoughts an emotions that this place, this time, is instilling in me, my Lady, and I am filled with a sense of dread in this hour. I have returned to this point of this, as I could not see thee before I left. I was filled with hopelessnes As I found that while I was away last, even though I wore thy promise, that thou wed another…and left me to my devices….and I walked away knowing that one who was mine, is and would never be. And now thee knows as well that My King has ordered me to wed as well, and I have obeyed His command. I do not love her, but will be a husband to her. As long as I have breath in my body. Thy marriage has shaken me My L

A Knights Love To His LadyA Knights Letter to His Love
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My dearest Lady, I have only to look upon thee, and my heart skips it’s beat. To look at thee and have the love I feel in my heart for thee, I am truly blessed. I know of no other who doth tough me as thee
Does, and I wish for no other to look at me the way thou does. Thy ways of looking at me, they make my heart sing a song of pure Joy, and peace.
Ever since I first looked on thee, I have had a song in my heart that I wish the world to here. I only hope I may sing it loud enough for thee to hear as well. It is a Joyous song, one filled with thee and the love I have for thee, and the love thou hast for me. I can feel thy love for me from here, and it is a truly Great and beautiful feeling.
The minute I awoke this morning, I was filled with thoughts of thee. I hoped for thee, that thou would know the minute I was awake, and when I saw thee awake, and welcoming me, I was filled with more Love for thee. I truly believed

I Knights HonorA Knights Honor
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A Knight is bound by a strict code moral as well as mental
Strains his heart, mind and soul, causes anguish if he fails
A Knight will give his life to see to the well being of his charges
Yes, even though it means they may not wish it so
A Knight feels the pain, suffering and hurts of his people
His only desire is to serve and protect those he is sworn to
A Knight has every weapon at his disposal mental and physical
Sword sharp wits sharper and his mind only on his task
A Knight not only loves, he loves with all his soul and heart
And will keep to him self what he feels towards anyone or thing
This Knight loves fiercely with all he has inside of him, and out
Feels as though he has failed in his duty to one of his charges
This Knight feels the need to make right what has gone wrong
Even if it means having the charge removed from him
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This Knight does not wish to lose his Most Precious Charge But,
It may be nothing he can do to

Friends And TruthI have never done this, and it is hard to do as I have not writtenn anything for a long time. But I have a need now to put my thoughts down, and I hope my true friends can see it for what it is... a need to get out what is in me about this subject.
Lovers to me are folks who you have had good times in realtionships and have come to love, and share intimacy , sexual or otherwise. now I know all who read this are very aware of this, but think on it, and you will see that all the things we once thought of as being for Lovers, is really about finding that special someone to have in us til the end of time . Not just for now, but always. And we all have our share of those we think fit us, and those who don't. But there is , I believe one for us all, who is meant to be ourts, and ours alone for all time.
Friends as we all know are those in our lives that enrich us and ask nothing in return. Are always there when we need them, through all of our ups and downs, successes, and faliures, with

Part 1What it breaks down to is this in a nutshell, either you believe or you don't. Some that do believe do so with a unswerving loyalty that can at times border on hysteria, which is about the same feeling that those who don't believe feel about how they believe. The difference is people that don't believe by and large do not feel the need to beat you over the head with their beliefs, while people on the opposite side of the coin feel it is there mission in life to "save" you. I don't have a problem with anyone believing in their own beliefs, what I do have a problem with is people pushing their views on me. That seems to be the prime objective for most organized religions out there. They feel as though it is there one and only goal in life, this need to convert me to there way of thinking. We don't do that. When is the last time an atheist knocked on your door, peddling his viewpoint, trying to convert you? You say your rights are being trampled on by atheists wanting to t

Life Life's a game sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. But no matter what your cards in life, whether club, spade or diamond. Always remember never play...

Mother Offers Self, Daughter For $25 Debt...This is our sicko story of the day. Wonder if this woman has a Fubar account or what she would do for a bling pack. Sick. Check out the video here below:
http://video.foxnews.com/v/1403690062001/mother-offers-sex-daughter-for-25-debt
WTF is wrong with people today? Sick. Peace.

She StandsJust felt the need to write this morning and this is what flowed...good or bad it is what it is. Feedback is always welcome....
She stands
There she stands before the shadow that blocks out the light
Trembling she wants to give up the struggle
So tired, so tired
Dead of night, endless life
And yet a tiny ember remains, a slow fire not yet refrained
A small glimmer, a small flicker
She will not give in
Warmth of light, endless night
There she stands, arms open and soul left bare
Will you find her and shelter her there
Stoke the passion and ignite her thirst
Quench the pain, endless sorrow
There she stands, once lost but now found
Her heart breaks, it’s almost too much to take
Walls crumble and freedom soars
No more endlessly alone

Valentines Day Auction EntrysVALENTINES DAY AUCTION
Here are the Valentine hotties that's up for grabs come and own you a hottie for Valentine's.

Its Funny How Things Work Out SometimesWell, sometimes it takes a stark reminder of who your friends really are and who you are truly close to and whom cannot be trusted. there comes a time in all our lives when we must stand up for ourselves and shout "Enough is enough!"
You see "friend" Recently spent 4 months lieing to me, every single day, playing the victim and the damsel in distress... Now what you need to realize is that I will always try to be the knight in shining armor, often times to my own detriment. If someone I care about says they need me i will do anything i can to be there for them no matter the cost to myself or the risk. Hell brandi can attest to that i picked up and went to Tennessee few years back because she said she needed me... anyway moving on... This person told me how baddly her ex was treating her, how he was a horrible dom how he neglected her and how its been over a year since he touched her intimately and so forth. I did my best to be there for her but there were flags that w

Grattitude To Fu-ownersI think fu should have some kind or award or special ability for faithful ownership teams. (Talking for the owners here - NOT the ownee) Me and my owner and great friend http://fubar.com/girlsride2 have been together for a while and she has steadily kept me at $30.000.000 ($50.000.000 before the ownership change) I am not going to get into our friendship but I have not seen ownership between others go on this long... *only been here 3 1/2 yrs, so sue me lol - Shouldn't she get some kind of prize?

Valentine's Day Part TwoHey guys...remember...Valentine's day is right around the corner...it's never too late to break up! Trust me...98.2% of women simply lose their fucking minds on this day. It's like...bridezilla but nation(world)wide. Run away while you can.
Just a follow up on last year. No, my opinion hasn't changed. The pussy recieved to money spent ratio is still way the fuck off kilter. And Hallmark makes more damn money on this holiday than I will be spending on my college education. NOTHING SHOULD BE THAT FUCKING EXPENSIVE!!!
Ladies...be fuckin happy with your man. Every day. Not just because he did something good for you on VDay...Speaking of VDay...I mean really...What the FUCK is wrong with our society to abbreviate shit? I know I know I so just did it but come on now...Ok, I digress. Goddamn A.D.D. It's like seeing a shiny christmas tree becoming inhabited by squirrels on crack. Case in point of original statement. Just be happy with him. You don't need a reminder of why (or if) he love

Drinks Made After Popular Video GamesFor More Drinks go to http://www.thedrunkenmoogle.com/tagged/CLICK+FOR+MORE+DRINKS
T-Virus (Resident Evil Shot)
Ingredients:
3/4 shot Silver Rum
1/4 shot Everclear
1 Blue Twizzler
Directions: Wind a blue Twizzler around a tall double shot glass. It should stick to the sides of the glass. Pour in the silver rum and top with the Everclear. Drink, then eat the Twizzler for a sweet and tangy aftertaste. You will have to fish out the Twizzler with your finger after you drink, as it will still be stuck to the side of the shot glass.
T-Virus Antidote (Resident Evil Shot)
Ingredients:
3/4 shot Silver Rum
1/4 shot Watermelon Vodka
1 Green Twizzler
Directions: Wind a green Twizzler around a tall double shot glass. It should stick to the sides of the glass. Pour in the silver rum and top with the watermelon Vodka. Drink, then eat the Twizzler. You will have to fish out the Twizzler with your finger after you drink, as it will still be

Gifts To Make Your Special Person Feel SpecialYour presence can spice up the lives of the people surrounding you. Your parents, brothers, sisters, or those who comprise the meaning of relationships to you, expect nothing but the presence of yours in their lives. Come birthday, or wedding, celebrations, anniversaries, thanksgivings, or you name any other personalized events, gifts from will give them the sunshine of happiness like anything. Seasonal occasions like Baishakhi, Valentine’s Day, Fathers day, Mothers day, Rakhi, Diwali, Holi, Bhai Duj, Karwa Chauth, Dusshera, Ganesh Chaturthi, Friendship Day, Teachers Day, they simply want you to be there with them, and that’s it. And at www.indiafloristnetwork.com one will find the proper and perfect floral and other gifts suitable for any occasion or events. If flowers still find it difficult to win someone’s heart, surely their food items will achieve that. Kaju and pista barfi, laddu, rasgullas, dry fruit chikkis, motichur laddoos from Haldirams, Ferro Roach chocol

Beer, Its What’s In Your Dessert.So this weekend there probably is going to be some entertaining going on and I’m learning that a big part of being in a working relationship has to do with not being able to lock oneself in the bedroom when company shows up (oh how I miss those single antisocial days). Bright side its not a big gathering and so far works been slow this week and looks to stay that way so I will be able to have all the me time I need before hand. I get seriously grumpy when I have to cut back on me time. Since its at my boyfriends place and we’re the ones hosting I can run and hide in the bedroom for short burst of time if needs be (have I mentioned I really don’t like social gatherings?)
The biggest highlight is finally getting rid of some of the beer that has taken up most of the fridge. It was bought a few months ago when hopes of a BBQ was going to take place but when it fell through the beer staid (and I’m talking about a lot of beer), since I don’t drin

Too $hort In Tha Speakeasy!Joslyn James, Lil Uno, Stevie Shae, Bonnie Rotten, Too $hort, Dr. Suzy, Tasia Sutor, Maya Hills, Prince Yahshua, Vanessa Blake, YunGee. Photo: JuxLii
Length: 01:35:13 Date: 1/28/2012
It gets gangstah raw up in my Womb Room as we welcome Oakland’s own Rap University Dean of Pimpology—Too $hort. In his honor, several of the hoochies get hella hyphy—not to mention, naked. Then the strippahs wrap around the pole as the gangstahs rap about their holes.
Featured Guests
Too $hort: After his long awaited first time arrival to get his digs into the Womb Room dugout, we womb-warmly welcome Pimp Prince of Rap, the one and only Too $hort, even if he is almost Too Late. Promoting his new album NoTrespASSing (drops 2/28/12) and deliciously nasty, booty-shaking new song “Money on the Floor,” Shawt Dawg fits right into the Speakeasy scene of ethical debauchery.
Joslyn James: After pleading the Fifth about her private relations with Continued Click Here »

My HeavenThe first thought in the morning is your nameWhen eating alone imagining you are thereTaking a nap daydreamingand Spending my time just thinkingas I Enter the world of realitythere's a courage to see youTaking any path just to meet youEven if it's so hardstill patiently searching just to be with you.Finally the heaven is foundIt's a paradise when our eyes metThe flowers started to bloomThe birds are singing the song of lovewhile the trees are dancing,and the sweet breeze of the wind is comforting.as i look at youyour eyes are shining like a staryour touch is like a feather of the doveeverything about you is perfectthat's why I'll give my heart, soul, and trust in you.I love you so muchI hope this will never end.

My BabyI look at you and see what I love, those eyes they see through me when no one else can, that voice it gets me caught up every time we talk, that small smile that makes me smile every time, even when I least want to..You make me feel great about myself I could never ask for anything better... Your my inspiration for everything I write.. and you are my inspiration to life....

PleaseLet me pour my heart and soul to youyou dont need to understandyou dont need to try to cheer me up or to even hold my handlet me pour my heart and soul to youshow you what eats me inside give you a taste of how upset i amtake you on this crazy ridelet me pour my heart and soul to youall i ask is for your peaceall i want is you to listen allow me a moment of releaselet me pour my heart and soul to youit would put my mind at easeall i need is for your patience will you do this for me, please?

Mirror MirrorMirror, Mirror,lie to meand show me whatI want to see,a world untouched,un-harmed by love,a world not cursed,that soars above,a world of warmth,not cold as ice,a world where hearts break once,not twice.Mirror, Mirror,lie to meand show me whatI wish to see,a moonlit night,not pouring rain,tears cried for joy,not cried for pain,a peaceful life,a brand-new slate,a world where lovecan't turn to hate.Mirror, Mirror,lie to meand show me whatI hope to see,a world where paincannot occur,where tears don't makemy vision blur,where happinesscan't drag me down,and love won't tryto make me drown.Mirror, Mirror,lie to meand show me whatI pray to see,a place where Iwon't need to feel,where time and lifeare not so real,a place where Idon't need to think,where into deathI'll never sink.Mirror, Mirror,lie to meand show me whatI know can't be,a world where deathis not a choice,a place where Ican't hear his voice,a world where cutsdon't bleed or scar,where I can watchlife from afar,a world where Ican hide

LifeWould you like to hear a secret,Something I'll bet you never knew,A secret deep inside me,I've been hiding it from you.Do you see this smile,So huge upon my face,My eyes are big and sparkling,Everything seems in its place.I'll bet you didn't know,As I close my bedroom door,There's something I've been hiding,I let out as I fall to the floor.You can't hear my silent sobs,Or see the cuts I make,You don't know the things I do,When I don't have to be fake.The secret I've been hiding,The one that I hide best,I never wanted you to worry, I'm horribly depressed.

Mewell here go's first time doing something like this im a country boy /cowboy i dont do dudes sorry not me i love the ladys i dont take any shit i like to talk and make freinds i have horses yes i ride them they are my babys...i am single live by my self dont have kids wished i did ok got that out the way.love music it has a way to help people!!!i dont need anything i do beleave in love i think it is beutyful!!!!

Zombie Appocalypse Really?The CDC recently revealed a list of what to do incase of ZOMBIES. Yes, your government, in thoughts of preparedness, has actually issued a survival set of instructions on what to do in case of an outbreak resulting in ZOMBIES.
Does this mean that washington is ACKNOWLEDGING they do exist?
What's next? When M&M's attack???

A-t-t-i-t-u-d-eThere once was a woman who woke up one morning, looked in the mirror, and noticed she had only three hairs on her head. ‘Well,’ she said, ‘I think I’ll braid my hair today.’ So she did and she had a wonderful day. The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and saw that she had only two hairs on her head. ‘H-M-M,’ she said, ’I think I’ll part my hair down the middle today.’ So she did and she had a wonderful day. The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and noticed that she had only one hair on her head. ‘Well,’ she said, ‘today I’m going to wear my hair in a pony tail.’ So she did and she had a wonderful day. The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and noticed that there wasn’t a single hair on her head. ‘YAY!’ she exclaimed. ‘I don’t have to fix my hair today!’ Attitude is everything! Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you

If Ya Can't Laugh At Yourself........Holy shinanigans batman! Sometimes I scare myself. I can be smart as a whipe...wait, are whips smart? LOL anywho, for those that need a laugh, I often find myself laughing at my idiotic ways and silly things I do...examples would be; falling up the stairs backwards (now that takes talent), running in to random things because I am so busy thinking about something else, not getting jokes because I overanalyze everything, coming up with random and insane thinking that sometimes makes absolutely no sense at all..no..don't worry, I am very stable person just silly I love to laugh. Laughter just makes you feel all warm and fuzzy. So, on that note, it is not often you will find me down in the dumps. I will find something amusing for sure

Places I've Been.visited 31 states (62%)Create your own visited map of The United States or Like this? try: Vendian

Jean's New Friend (fiction)Jean is a 18 year old girl with long blonde hair, light blue eyes and a slim figure. The one thing she loved to do above everything was to receive sexual pleasure. She would do anything for an intense orgasm.One day Jean wandered around the mall looking in the lingerie shops. She came across a nice pair of red lace underwear and a matching bra. She brought it, but while she was paying she got a look from a hot brunette. They broke eye contact and Jean left. As she was walking into the next shop the hot brunette quickly skipped out of the shop. Before Jean left the shop attendant called her over. She gave Jean a folded note. The note read "Hey, i saw you checking me out. If your interested visit me at the below address." Jean glanced down and read the address. "Yeah why not." She said to herself.A few nights later Jean was standing at the doorstep of her new friends apartment. The door quickly opened after she knocked. The hot brunette stood there in a dressing gown. "Oh I can"t belive

It's Not To LateIt's really not. He hasn't taken you down all the way, yet. For us, yes it must be too late. But for a kind word, it's never too late. And it's not too late for you, no matter the shit you are going through. Broken you may be, but you are still a child of light.
Sympathy (For Tomorrow)
I'm not asking for favorsnot tonightI look up in the sky...all the rockets fall down (fall down)too many promisestoo many lies
too many faces for me to know
Sometimes I sit among the markersand contemplate my next lifesays something less sympathetic-"a little more unconditional respect was buriedhere"
"But it never livedand it never died
it never came from themit was always inside..."
I don't care if time just passes us byI can stand the change...but not the crueltytoo many promisestoo many liestoo many faces for me to know
Sometimes I sit among the markersand contemplate my next lifesays something less sympathetic-"a little more unconditional respect was buriedhere"
"But it never liveda

MultitaskingI have four different stories up and plan on getting a little work done on each of them, a paragraph at least. The challenge though is to not jumble up the characters and their different personality (and boy they are different). I doubt I will be able to start on Accidentally Appropriate Weeknight any time soon due to a mixture of lack of inspiration and just the need to finish (or get closer to finishing) some of the other stories. Can’t really say there is one though that I’m focusing on more then the others though I really want to get the phone sex scene done on Wrong Number, it’s the scene I’ve been struggling with the most even though its mostly dialogue I’ve had to scrap so many rough drafts because it just didn’t have the right feel.
Anyway the rest of my evening and night will be spent equal parts working on my writing and procrastinating, oh and drinking loads of coffee. Hopefully something good will be coming from it. Oh an

Mind Runs WildDreams of one day being truly loved not with sex cause that is not an issue, but with devoted undying love for me.I have problems I will admit, but not hard enough to figure out. Was never taught to hate but to love one with allthat I am. They say I'm a survivor, but what has made me survive is the truly unconditional love that is inside.I was told I am a handful that I am for I am like a wild horse one that can not be tamed. I am as wild as they come.Full of spirit and hope that one day that special someone will see me under it all and take notice and keep me forever.No games no hiding once it is done and someday soon I will be with that one.

EternityThe rain comes down but I hold my head high,
The puddles I see before me are not because I cry,
The whisper of the wind and the cracking of the storm,
but still with you I feel so warm,
Even in the blistering heat Ill sweat sweet drops of ecstasy for you,
And mother natures crimes will not make me blue,
I hope only for your touch, heart, and your kiss,
Because these feelings that fill me I cannot dismiss.
Lightning strike me if I cannot be,
Lost in a world with you for eternity.

NightmareThe Scars U Gave Me Haunt Me At Night, I Awaken With Screams And A Racing Heart... In Fear Of Wht I See..... I Seek Healing By Standing Far From U, For Ur My Weakness, Shattered Like The Bones U've Broken; Bruised Like The Ones Placed Upon My Once Vibrant Skin... Once A Beautied Angel; Now A Frightened Fairy... Urs Deeds Are Done, My Vengeance Comes And Takes Thy Soul To Claim...

Blah!!!I'm going to TRY to make today a good day....but it's not starting off the best. In a bit of a stess filled funk today...snapped at the kid.. the wife...and co-workers could be next. It just seems like everyone is STUPID today.. smh! Oh well, guess I better get my ass to work. Hopefully I won't have to choke the shit out of someone!

Thinking Out LoudIf you have to choose between knowing you will never meet someone or becoming abstenent which one would be less painful?

FacebookI originally intended my Facebook account to exist primarily for 'real world' friends, family, work colleagues, school friends etc. Not as a judgement on internet based buddies, but just as a privacy thing regarding photos and that of my friends I might post that they might choose not to have circulated too widely, plus the fact that I have younger nieces and nephews on my friends list that I didn't neccessarily want exposed to stuff posted on my wall like "YO KINS, WHAT THE FUCK YOU UP, HOW'S IT FUCKING HANGING??" and all that. When my Fubar activity went on the wane, I relaxed that, and started adding online friends to my facebook. In a recent change in policy, I have, you may have noticed, reversed that decision. Again. There you go. Not significant of anything, I've just slimmed down the old Facebook. If anyone fancies being all weird about it, that choice is yours, naturally. But don't.

JadeTime stands still, the wanting, the dreaming, the never ending bliss,the warmth of everything inside concealed with a kiss,passion and words can always prevail,when you have someone to release you from hell,The skin so smooth, so unappreciated, unwanted,And yet still so divine and mesmerized,and bruised,she waits....
Will you release her from the torment she has suffered for so long,will you bring her back from all the people that have done her wrong,Made her feel empty, unwilling, captured, unfree,give her a your emotion, touch, your kiss, you longing to be,A friend, a soul as one, a everlasting life of bliss and harmony with you,Will you give it to her like she so willing gave you,she hates..
Only wanting a simple kiss, or a hug,She only wants to be loved,Yet you hurt her, she wants nothing more,she calls to you, you are the one she adores,when you left, it torched and burned her heart,she cries now, you tore her world apart,She dies...
Slowly she drifts away from reality, she sta

Thinking Out Loud @ 0521To all those who got bothered and annoyed by this profile around 1 hour ago or so, my apologies it was some friends they thought it was funny to use my profile to mess people with.

PainAS I SIT HERE WITH ALL THIS PAIN THAT CUZ OF U I TRY TO HATE U BUT THE HEART THAT U RIP UP STILL WONT LET ME EVEN IN SO MUCH PAIN IT STILL LOVE U AND EVEN THE WRONG U DID TO ME I STILL CANT HATE U . I DONE EVERYTHING I COULD DO YET I GUESS IT WASNT GOOD ENUFF FOR U.ALL THE THINGS THAT U SAID AND THE LOVE U SAID THAT WAS MIND WAS A LIE AND ALL I GOT LEFT IS THE PAIN. AND I ASK MYSELF WHY WHAT DID I DO FOR U TO RIP A HEART THAT WAS TRUE. I GAVE U ALL THAT WAS MINE TO GIVE AND U THROW AWAY AS IF IT WAS TRASH AND U COULD CARE LESS. EVEN WITH THIS PAIN I WISH U THE BEST. I CANT TAKE NOMORE PAIN OR LIES OF A HEART THAT U SAID WAS MINE YET ONCES AGAIN I THE ONE U HURT. SO I HOPE IT WAS WORTH THE PAIN OFTHE ONE THAT LOVE U WHO LEFT WITH ONLY PAIN

WowSo ya its been 4 years since I've done a blog...
A lot has happened in my life since then....
I've fallen in love countless times only to get cheated on everytime and it sucked...
I recently found out I have a baby girl whom I've never met yet and can't meet untill the court decides weather or not I'm gonna get full custody or partial, I'm praying for full! But the babys momma cheated on me and married the guy and is now getting a divorce and went after child support from me. How I found out I have a baby girl. Fucked up right?
I'm with a special woman whom I love dearly but things are kinda shaky between us right now. More my fault because I just don't feel like having sex most of the time or ever really. My sex drive is def. not gone. I just dont know.
My pops Max Ando Cabrera passed away Feb. 1st 2011. Taken from us from a fatal car accident on highway 99 southbound between Maze and Kansas. That day was the shittest day ever. I wish no one has to lose a parent the way I did. I

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Read If You Want To Know Who I Ami am 27 and i am bi. i am a mom of three. i have two boys and one girl. they live with their dad. i am going through my third divorce. i dont put up with cheating or hitting or lying or using. been through it all. i am a happy go lucky person usually. i dont like mind games. i love dancing and singing and cooking and baking and cleaning. i like hanging out and drinking sometimes i smoke ciggerettes. thats me in a nutt shell. i live in warrensburg missouri.

3 Way.I never had one so can someone please tell me what the big deal is about a 3 way?

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http://youtu.be/xwhBRJStz7w
You're keeping in step In the line Got your chin held high and you feel just fine Because you do What you're told But inside your heart it is black and it's hollow and it's cold Just how deep do you believe? Will you bite the hand that feeds? Will you chew until it bleeds? Can you get up off your knees? Are you brave enough to see? Do you want to change it? What if this whole crusade's A charade And behind it all there's a price to be paid For the blood On which we dine Justified in the name of the holy and the divine Just how deep do you believe? Will you bite the hand that feeds? Will you chew until it bleeds? Can you get up off your knees? Are you brave enough to see? Do you want to change it? So naive To keep holding on to what I want to believe I can see But I keep holding on and on and on and on Will you bite the hand that feeds you? Will you stay down on your knees?

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Some Boring Post About Republican And DemocratsScott Fernandez Mentioning God in Speeches as a politician is against the separation of church and state with which this country is gounded on. Second, Conservatives are just as notorious at blocking things that they don't like for similar reasons. If they don't like abortions they don't need to get one. If they don't like schools teaching evolution then they don't have to learn it and they can abstain from the lesson.If they don't like gays getting married than they don't have to be gay and get married.All politicians are guilty of doing this. Conservative and Liberals. My personal views lean much further Conservative but not per the party majority. That would be like letting a lawyer who knows nothing of my case represent me in a trial.
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Scott Mitchell Mentioning God has nothing to do with separation of church and state. God and the church are not the same thing. The abortion issue isnt about getting one or not, it is about murdering children. The

Baby Girl NewsThis is a blog about my littlest girl Lorelai “Lora-lie’. She is three years old, born on February 14, LOVE DAY as she calls it. She is a beautiful, colorful; she has such determination for such a young girl, and she is very organized for a little person she must stick to a schedule and we or someone goes off of it….she just can’t handle it. She loves horses, cats, and dogs. Anyone who has met her will never forget her she just has that type of personality that people don’t forget her! She is so out going, thoughtful of others, she is blonde haired, blue eyes, and the cutest smile you have ever seen.
In November 21, 2011 she was at her grandmothers’ house while her daddy and I were at work. When I went to pick her and her sister up her Nan told me she had not felt good all day. She didn’t get sick just high fever and acted tired all the time. They didn’t have thermometer. So I went to get to one from wal-mart. Came back and checked

"this Isn't Me...i'm Not Mechanical"Perfection
We all seek this elusive creature. If you are human, you are already guilty of it.
I am not perfect, tho I am rather anal in everything I do, a Virgo trait.
Whenever I say or do anything, I am always thinking of ways to do it better the next time.
Perfection is in the eye of the beholder.
It is only what we are content in accepting what we consider "perfect"
In my eyes, a perfect score isn't always "scored" perfectly.

What I Do (and Do Not Do) For FubarNOTE: If you were redirected here from my SB or PM, please read the whole thing. If after doing so you have a smart retort to SB or PM my way, then you've missed the point and you may be bounced from fubar briefly as a form of "free bar etiquette correction".
I work on a ton of things here:
1) Programming (features/bug fixes) -- more specifically: fuMafia, lounges, forums, new levels, etc, etc, etc... Pretty much any new feature or one that needs tweaking I'll have some involvement with.
2) Abuse/Spam Prevention
3) A bunch of other things
4) Documenting and dealing with chronic TOS violators
What I don't do:
1) Handle support questions or ANY direct inquiries for ANY of the above in response to direct shouts or PMs.
Why?
Because, my attention is focused *after* a due process which escalates the highest priority items to my attention. Also I monitor a number of aggregate sources to find and correct things that are going on with fubar.
Here's a dialog that I'

Everyday Livin Shouldn't Be Everyday B*tchinYou wake up in the morning, should be the best part of your day. Seems like everybody now adays always has something to complain about. Just live life, be happy. You might not be the best looking person in the world, maybe nothing ever goes your way. Get over it, there has to be downs before you can go back up. Take a chance every once in awhile, the only person that is holding you back is yourself. No one can stop you if you set your mind to it and always give it your best. Keep your head up the universe works in mysterious ways. Never let anyone stop you from chasing your dreams, the sky is limitless...

ReflectionReflectionThe dark clouds burst aboveSheets of rain like needlesI sense you here with meAnd it makes me trembleAnd the rain comes pouring down,Its resurrection A reflection of what used to beAnd I’m just a reflectionDamp ground beneath my feetI feel your intense stareI close my eyes, sinking downAnd I am consumed by you thereAnd the rain comes pouring down,Its resurrection A reflection of what used to beAnd I’m just a reflectionAnd the rain comes pouring downIts all deceptionA reflection of what used to beJust a reflection of meThunder crash and lightening flashRain and tears upon my faceWash it all awayWash you awayAnd the rain comes pouring downIts all perceptionA reflection of what used to beJust a reflection of meRising spirit, ascend the stormMy eyes unobstructed nowYou’re not thereJust a reflection of youAnd the rain comes pouring downIt’s my salvationJust a reflection of what used to beThe salvation of me

First Postthis is just a salute to all my friends, i hope you will show me some love here (h)

WordsWords can hurt your feelings,but silence breaks your heart! So always speak what you have to say,bcoz new door might never open unless you ring the bell..

Waiting To Be FoundWaiting to be FoundI fell into the shadowsI got lost within the painStraying from the light(And waiting to be saved)I wait and hideTrying to decideFind meLove meLeave meWaiting to be foundAlone in the darknessReaching towards the lightConcealed by the shadows(And waiting to be saved)I wait and hideTrying to decideFind me Love meLeave meWaiting to be foundWith an empty stare I waitFear locks me in this placeI am left within my thoughts (And waiting to be saved)I wait and hideTrying to decideFind meLove me Leave meWaiting to be foundMoonlight through the windowPassing through my veil of tearsIlluminate my tattered soul(Still waiting to be saved)I wait and hideTrying to decideFind meLove meLeave meWaiting to be foundStill waiting to be found….

Thinking Out Loud @ 0521I keep hearing how I should change my attitude towards life and people and things. I just have one question. What good can come from me changing my attitude when even if I changed it the world and people in it stay the same?

A Pets 10 Commandments1. My life is likely to last 10-15 years. Any separation from you is likely to be painful.
2. Give me time to understand what you want of me.
3. Place your trust in me. It is crucial for my well-being.
4. Don't be angry with me for long and don't lock me up as punishment. You have your work, your friends, your entertainment, but I have only you.
5. Talk to me. Even if I don't understand your words, I do understand your voice when speaking to me.
6. Be aware that however you treat me, I will never forget it.
7. Before you hit me, before you strike me, remember that I could hurt you, and yet, I choose not to bite you.
8. Before you scold me for being lazy or uncooperative, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I'm not getting the right food, I have been in the sun too long, or my heart might be getting old or weak.
9. Please take care of me when I grow old. You too, will grow old.
10. On the ultimate difficult journey, go with me please. Never say you can't be

Cyber LessonNo one came up with rules on how to enjoy social networking sites, like Fubar. But personally, one shouldn't enter this site in the hopes of finding their one true love. I didn't say it's wrong, we just shouldn't get our hopes up or expect that there's one member on here who is made especially just for us. Chill. Take it one day at a time. Enjoy making friends, levelling up, or hitlisting someone on FuMafia. If you pressure yourself on finding that special person, it could go downhill from there.
There are lucky souls on here who had their happy ending. I can't say I am truly lucky (I hope), but I found a guy who COULD be the one and who makes me happy. Reality check: He is from North California and I am from Manila, Philippines. I can't say what the future holds for us both, but sometimes you just gotta take that crazy leap of faith, you know? Let's just say I like living on the edge and this person is worth spending all my time with. Wish me luck, please?
I really didn't come her

Mtv Online Relationship Documentary. Interested? Read More..So I came upon this information here and it might interest some of you or someone that you know real life, here, etc. What they are trying to do is start a film documentary about online relationships from people that have never met or have some dramatic online-relationship situation, be it good or bad. Kind of like "16 and pregnant." Bad example I know but it's that kind of MTV themed show...
Here's the screenshot of his facebook posting and his facebook link below to contact:
https://www.facebook.com/pages/Nev-Schulman/146979968664283
I think this would interest quite a few Fubarians. Upon contact make sure you tell them where you got this information from. If you receive a form to fill out be sure to either hard link this blog:
http://fubar.com/real-fu-kin-life/b56627
Fubar itself:
fubar.com
Or if you have any further questions, feel free to contact the happy fellow below and he will be more than happy to help you out if:
esixfiddy@ fubar
I want to state

Thinking Out Loud @ 0521They say " if life gives you lemonade"..... well we all know the other half.
But; What if " if life gives you nothing"...then what???

Pet Boarding Facility In Your AbsenceMany of us do not know where to leave our dog or cat when we are away. There could be so many reasons why we are unable to take care of our pet for a particular time. For example –
1. A pet owner might be going away on a vacation.
2. They might need to take an urgent business trip.
3. They might be ill.
4. And so many other reasons...
In such a situation, it is important to have a reliable place where you can leave your pet. A pet boarding facility is surely one place that you should consider. They can offer your pet several advantages as there are many pets there. If you are not sure which pet boarding facility is the right one for your pet, then you can ask your friends, relatives or other people you know and find a reliable pet boarding facility. Otherwise, the Internet can give you a good option to find a pet boarding facility.
There are sure to be many options no matter where you reside. There are several places that you should consider on the Internet and you

Its Only - 951Never taking that road again,
found myself turned inside out
once more living in sin.
Only way out was pain,
hard hitting, forget the blood
once more living in vain.
I have a picture of you,
in my mind and in my heart
you are fully clothed too.
But don't seem right,
to hold on, to keep dreaming
need to accept the cold at night.
Are you uncomfortable yet,
it isn't my goal, I'd love if it wasn't true
please never forget.
Trial and error thats the key,
ecstasy and pain, morning and evening
hey, hey its only me.
This is more than it ever may seem,
I need you to understand its only day dream.

House DramaWe looked at 3 offers yesterday; rejected 2 (a cash offer of $285,000 and a USDA financed counter offer of $280,000) and are sitting on a third (the First Time Home Buyer) of $292,000 until Monday @ 5PM. Because we showed our house 7 times over Sat / Sun, we feel there's a chance an offer could come in sometime Monday.
Well, the USDA offer we rejected decided to accept our original counter offer of $292,900 (which he had actually REJECTED when he countered @ $280,000) . I guess he saw the REJECTED on his counter and panicked. He sure came up with a lot of money very suddenly. So our Realtor called FTHB's Realtor to tell her that our counter had been accepted by the USDA Buyer. And the other Realtor said, "Hold it!"
What a mess! I guess it makes sense that this can't happen. Our counter was null and void when he countered. So now our Realtor has to call Legal to find out what to do. I think the guy needs to write up a new offer for $292,900 if he wants the house. We would love that. B

BensohurstIf you are from Bensohurst, You are raised by your parents to expect more out of life then they had. You are raised to go out into the world and experience more than what your parents did, so you do exactly this. Threw out your life you try to become something more than just the kid from Bensonhurst. One day you wake up and realize that the best thing you ever were is that kid from Bensonhurst and that home is home and you miss all that made you the core person you are today. You may be Italian, you may be Spanish or you may be Jewish (to name a few) and we may be loud but we are honest and we would lay down our lives in a second for our family and friends. I am that kid from Bensonhurst and I'm proud of it!!!

For Sarge's Bad Girls (read This)Bad Girls. Can The Sarge Get A Salute Or 2 ? Let Me See What You Can Come Up With. As Always You Know They Can Be SFW Or NSFW Your Choice. .

Angel Above UsU HAVE LEFT US ON EARTH WONDER WHAT U DOING NOW IN HEAVEN AND WONDER WHAT U ARE THINKING NOW .U HAVE LEFT US ON EARTH NOT SAYING GOODBYE OR LOVE YOU ONE MORE TIME . NOW U ARE HEAVEN WITH UR LOVE ONE THAT U HAVE LEFT US ON EARTH. U HAVE LEFT US THINKING WHAT WE COULD DONE SAVE U FASTER AND KEEP U SAFET LOT BETTER . NOW U ARE IN HEAVEN WITH UR LOVE ONE WATCH US DOWN HERE ON EARTH AND GUIDEN US IN UR OWN WAY. U HAVE LEFT US HERE ON EARTH LOST AND MISS U EVERY DAY AND EVERY MIN OF OUR LIFE .

Me, Another Couple And My Husband...Me and my husband met a couple in a local bar, started up conversation and played a few games of pool. It turned out to be girls against guys; my husband was pretty good in pool and so was I; with a few drinks in me. Paul and Cathy were pretty good also, I kept noticing Cathy's butt in those tight jeans of hers. Then again, Paul's 501's were tight in all the right places and made me drool to see the way these jeans managed to make his "package", look very inviting. Cathy seemed to like the way my husband looked, but his attitude towards new people was all wrong. I was hoping he wouldn't ruin my chance with this couple.
The night took off well and I asked these two to our room in our motel to finish with cocktails and good conversation. Before we left the bar, however, both Cathy and I went to the little girls room to make sure we still looked presentable enough for our guys. While at the sink, I looked at Cathy in the mirror and asked, "are these drinks getting you as horny as they

KharmaKarmaDo You remember me or have you forgotten? I've come back to surprise you,and haven't you on more then one occasion,But am I the one to blame? You've cursed and called me all the wrong names , but yet that's what you get.A lot of people have often gotten me confused with "Payback", but my true name is Karma.And I'm the one that will tap into your conscious and ask you "Do you remember that?" I don't believe in getting even because that will only equal the score, Then there is no lesson Learned.I'll make you shed tears and let them see you sweat. I'll repay you double and ten times the complication that you calised me. I have perfected the art of inflicting hardship when you least expect it, Or could it be when you thought I've forgot?I've waited days,Months,and somtimes even years to give you what you got coming. And to put bad in front of your luck.. Isnt that what you deserve?I Always get my chance and as the world turns It always spins in my direction,Because what co

Lost PoetryHer love is like a swimming poolwinter comes and it's no use to you Her love is like a suicide Lose your faith and it takes your lifeHer love is like a Merry-Go-RoundSpins you in circles then it knocks you downHer love is like cheap alcoholMorning comes and you don't remember at allHer love is like a Cheshire CatAt first so friendly but at you it laughsHer love is like a passionate kissAt first so sweet then it takes your breathHer love is like the stars aboveYour guiding light always leaves you lostHer love is like Jesus ChristNo matter how much faithYou still die on the cross.---Nikki Sixx----

Kharma Can Be A B*#$@ KarmaDo You remember me or have you forgotten? I've come back to surprise you,and haven't you on more then one occasion,But am I the one to blame? You've cursed and called me all the wrong names , but yet that's what you get.A lot of people have often gotten me confused with "Payback", but my true name is Karma.And I'm the one that will tap into your conscious and ask you "Do you remember that?" I don't believe in getting even because that will only equal the score, Then there is no lesson Learned.I'll make you shed tears and let them see you sweat. I'll repay you double and ten times the complication that you calloused me. I have perfected the art of inflicting hardship when you least expect it, Or could it be when you thought I've forgot?I've waited days,Months,and sometimes even years to give you what you got coming. And to put bad in front of your luck.. Isn't that what you deserve?I Always get my chance and as the world turns It always spin

Missing YouFor a long time I didnt know what I had.
Taking you for granted
Not approving of all of your actions,
But at the time I was only a child.
And as the old folks say When I was a child
I thought as a child, I spoke as a child,
But when I became an adult I put childish things away.
So as I grew up I forgave you for those things that I couldnt understand.
Growing closer and closer to you not knowing that our time was growing short.
You showed me how a real man is supposed to stand up and take responsibilities of his actions.
And for this I love you.
You showed me what a real man is supposed to do and how he is supposed to take care of his family.
And for this I love you.
You were the first physical man that ever accepted me and loved me.
And for this I love you.
You were the first physical man that I ever loved in return.
And for this I love you.
No one could ever replace you although some have tried.
But they just dont understand the role or the shoes that they must fill

SchizophreniaDarkness falls on to the mind of a man his emotions all fade to black as if blinded from a hot iron. His soul tarnish from years of pain and anger caused by his own blood. Tears never come anymore, no empathy, no remorse just dull pain from a broken back and voices that scream through his mind like banshees wailing whom rarely relent for a moment of silence. Struggling through the voices to find his true conscience he breaks inside every time they scream for self mutilation and despair. Then at night his eye's play tricks on him the shadows come in the dark everyone being just around the next corner. Though not scared of the dark or the shadows that lurk just inside, he does become scared in crowds of people sometimes as their faces contort into demonic masks of death. Sometimes he has conversations with others he never remembers having. Always struggling constantly to stay in the realm of reality, people look at him as if he is a monster. Very rarely finding true peace with in himse

I Normally Do Not Do This But Please Help!About a week ago, a friend of my little sister, was stabbed by an ex-boyfriend. We are passing around a donation list, whether it's a dollar or so, please help. And a petition, to help stop monsters like her ex-boyfriend stay off the streets. This is all for a good cause, if you could find it in your hearts to please help out as much as you can my friends.
Any PayPal donations can be deposited to edohme@aol.com
http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/melissas-law--mandatory-monitoring-of-violent-domestic-offendersrestraining-orders/

New AuctionI have decided to hold another Auction. I couldn't decide weather I wanted a winter auction or a Valentines Day auction so I created a mumm. THe votes were surprisingly in favor of a Valentines Day theme hense the red script. so this is how it is going to work. All entries must be in to me no later than Feb 5th the Auction will run from the 5th to the 14th. All contestants have the right to refuse any bid. Please do not ask to be pulled from the auction before it is over. All bidding will start at 10 million fubucks, sorry no exceptions. I realize some of you are above fubucks bidding but guess what? I don't care. If you are really better than a fubuck bid then no one will bid less than 165 credit bling pack on you and you won't have to worry if someone only bids 10 mil. I will not start anyone out at a higher rate than the rest. it is unfair and demeaning to the less popular people on fubar. So lets get this thing started.
Fee = 2 credits
(if unable to come up with 2 credits and st

Time For Another AuctionI have decided to hold another Auction. I couldn't decide weather I wanted a winter auction or a Valentines Day auction so I created a mumm. THe votes were surprisingly in favor of a Valentines Day theme hense the red script. so this is how it is going to work. All entries must be in to me no later than Feb 5th the Auction will run from the 5th to the 14th. All contestants have the right to refuse any bid. Please do not ask to be pulled from the auction before it is over. All bidding will start at 10 million fubucks, sorry no exceptions. I realize some of you are above fubucks bidding but guess what? I don't care. If you are really better than a fubuck bid then no one will bid less than 165 credit bling pack on you and you won't have to worry if someone only bids 10 mil. I will not start anyone out at a higher rate than the rest. it is unfair and demeaning to the less popular people on fubar. So lets get this thing started.
Fee = 2 credits
(if unable to come up with 2 credits and st

Mei am a submissive...not a switch not a top i dont flip flop. i'v been in lifestyle for 6 years i know how to behave in public and at home..i wasnt "born" a submissive events and relationships throughout my life have shaped how i do things im passive by nature and love to please however . i have a mind and opinions and most of all feelings, i am obedient once i'v submitted . i give Respect where its Earned and Courtesy in any other instance. i am loyal loving caring and rarely forget what One likes or expects i am not in to poly arrangements or cybering. texting and yim is fine at first but please be honest with Yourself and me on what You are looking for and Your expectations of any relationship You are seeking with me. i am looking for a caring patient loving loyal content honest accountable attentive Daddy Dom that is NOT married or otherwise attached and IS local and at least active. i am so tired of games and falseness it would be a nice change of pace to find someone who has the a

One Of My Favourite Quotes“The secret source of humor is not joy but sorrow; there is no humor in heaven.” ― Mark Twain
people always complain i have a sick/horrible/tasteless sense of humour....
truth is... the world is a really messed up place...
a lot more messed up than most of you would ever want to know about..
if you actually understand where i'm coming from... all the stuff i say would seem quite fitting :)

World: Holocaust Remembrance DayMore on November24.info
January 22 2012( ), Holocaust Remembrance Day: April 19 2012 is for Students an Occasion to Express their Views on Holocaust, Holocaust Remembrance Day and how this Day should be Celebrate.A Special Poster will be Displayed by The UN all around the World to announce the Iniciative.The Next Holocaust Remembrance Day will mark the Seventieth Anniversary of the begining of the Millitary,Social, Historical and Political Process leading to the Creation of the State of Israel and therefore to Our Nowdays Israel: Discribed by the PM Netanyahu during His announcement Speech for the Event: The year 2012(5772) Holocaust Remembrance Day.
More in the Sources...Sources: "PMO:http://www.pmo.gov.il/PMOEng/Communication/EventsDiary/eventmemorial220112.htm".

Airline Ticketsairline tickets
My recent troubles began when I booked three flights from Florida to Hong Kong. For the past few years, I've been using a local travel agency for most of our travel. Once I've thoroughly researched online consolidators, I went back to my local travel agent armed with a firm idea of options and good pricing. They were accommodating in my dictating my desired price for them to match. I like to use a travel agencies because I like to have someone to blame, if anything goes wrong besides me. Someone with a face and a place I can visit, if need be. Seriously, for me, it's a backup plan, as it can give extra clout should a traveler need help.I originally booked these flights more than eight months ago. So, imagine my surprise, when I wasn't able to get our necessary ebookings or tickets from the travel agency upon demand. They kept putting me off. All I had was my cancelled check and a couple of emails.Finally, two weeks before we were due to leave, I made a trip to their

Has Got To Be The Lamest Thing I Have Heard!!!People go around polishing bling to help themselves level, From what I understand this is also what a polisher is for. Why spend 20 dollars on a polisher if this is going to happen?? Also I see people asking for things in there status and other people bitching about it,I guess is one of the reasons why. YOU CAN'T POLISH PEOPLES BLING without them blocking you.... I am a helpful person and whoever polishes what bling I have its helps them and it helps me. In my case its first come first serve. And if you want to block me for polishing your bling thats fine aleast this women is woman enough to tell me so.. No love lost!! So from now own when I polish bling and I am blocked you will be put here as a warning to my friends who not to polish or give bling to:)

Hi There,I like to be with my friends on fubar at night because I have alot of fun with them all the time and fubar is a nice site to me. Thank you

Nice GuysWhat happened to all the nice guys?
The answer is simple: you did. See, if you think back, really hard, you might vaguely remember a Platonic guy pal who always seemed to want to spend time with you. He'd tag along with you when you went shopping, stop by your place for a movie when you were lonely but didn't feel like going out, or even sit there and hold you while you sobbed and told him about how horribly the (other) guy that you were fucking treated you. At the time, you probably joked with your girlfriends about how he was a little puppy dog, always following you around, trying to do things to get you to pay attention to him. They probably teased you because they thought he had a crush on you. Given that his behavior was, admittedly, a little pathetic, you vehemently denied having any romantic feelings for him, and buttressed your position by claiming that you were "just friends." Besides, he totally wasn't your type. I mean, he was a little too short, or too bald,

Edgar Cayce's Wet Cell Appliance
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Q: Who was Edgar Cayce and what was his “wet cell appliance”? – Johm Wyatt - Houston, TX
A: Edgar Cayce(3/18/1877) to (01/3/1945) is one of the world’s best known psychics. Born in Hopkinsville, KY, Cayce at an early age, displayed talents

Nice Girls Get Played.Dudes, please help me understand. Why is it the sweet girls, with the hearts that are too big for their own good, the girl who wants to be nothing but a great girlfriend to you is the one you always fuck with ? Like, really...why ? What satisfaction comes out of screwing over the sweetest girls, the best one for you, and you chase her off ?Apparently a guy that will be silly with me; love me for who i am, flaws and all, be cheesy to remind me why I liked him in the first place and serious when he needs to be; one who will teach me things and not act like I'm a nuisance or dumb; one who enjoys cuddling but wont be afraid to challenge me to a COD war; will hold me when I'm sad and chase after me when I'm mad is just too much to ask these days. =/What happened to the guys like in Gone with the Wind ? The ones who bent over backwards for a girl who wasn't even interested, just because they care about her soo much they want to woo her and show her how important she is. Where are those guys,

I Am In A Valentine Auction/ My First One With My Wife.Its a Valentine Auction.
Go bid and be our Valentine. We are hot and sexy as fuck. You know you want to.
Here is my link
http://fubar.com/cupid-s-auction/photo-506188-1782771-2527725910
Just highlight it and right click and open window, that is it or put it in your browser. Will you win me or my wife ?
This is my sexy ass wifes link to hers
http://fubar.com/cupid-s-auction/photo-506188-1782771-2527725910#sky/photo-506188-1782771-3756236630
- Can you handle us both?
Come be our Cupid. Do you dare ?
This is my very first auction, show me how it is done !!

Stood UpI am so pissed off right now. A supposed friend was going to come over to take some pics of me since he has a much better camera and perspective than I do. I've been stood up. That's a great way to get on my bad side since it is a major peeve of mine. You stand me up, you're gone from my life.

The Road Less TraveledHow often we must bear the challenges of life;The endless roller coaster between happiness and sorrow;The constant ups and downs of daily strife.And always the question remains .... why?Life is not an easy road for most;It twists and turns with many forks in the road,Although always, and inevitably, we are given a choice ...Do we turn to the right ... or the left?Do we take the high road ... or the low road?Do we take the easy path ... or the difficult one?Decisions are not easy for those struggling for direction ...And sometimes the many choices and signs become overwhelming.While standing at a crossroads in life,The urge is to take the most comfortable path;The road with least resistance ...The shortest or most traveled route.And yet, if we've been down that comfortable road before;Have gleaned its lessons in life, and learned from our experiences;Do we yet again follow the known?Or does our destiny lie in another direction?The fear of the road less traveled is tangible and all too r

I Missed My ChanceI missed my chance
I sat and watched you walk out of my life. Not that I did anything to stop you but off you went, on to bigger and better things. I was just person you saw out the corner of your eye some days as you came in and out of the coffee shop. In my head we did this dance like I would say hi and you would say hello and out the door you would go. Then the next day I would say hi and you would smile brush the hair over your ear and say hi. And after bout a handful of hi and byes we would sit and chat over coffee and doughnuts. Then came time for me to ask you out and you would smile and say yes. Yes would have been the best phrase one simple man could ever hear. Dating would be a breeze, there would be no fights just love and passion. Passion that burned so bright it would rival the sun. And the kids we would have would be gorgeous. Little talented angels that could hum a tune, turn a phrase, and are the humblest kids a person could ask for. I would love till I lay down

I Lost A Friend TodayA high school friend passed away today.. I am way too young for this shit.
It reinforces my desire to become healthier...which causes me to be happier (who the fuck knew??)
I went to sit with his widow for a bit...she seems numb :( Then when she had to go to the funeral home, I went to my kick boxing class. I really worked hard... hard enough to need my inhaler ( I almost like when I have to use it...I know I am working hard)
It is cathartic to work out, I just realized that......
Every bit of pent up emotion went into my punches and kicks, I mean sure I am still sad...but I am at peace with it.
I work hard to better myself, and my instructors (who I am thrilled to also call friends) push me. Just when I think I can't do it, they come gimme a shove
I love those sadistic bastards.
Tomorrow I am going to push myself even harder. There is NOTHING I cannot do if I work hard and keep pushing myself.

How Are You Feeding Your Spirit?Blessings of our beloved ABBA ADONAI ELOHIM YAHWEH in the blessed Name of HIS SON our MESSIAH Y'SHUA/JESUS CHRIST through HIS HOLY SPIRIT. Amen.
Greetings one and all.
I can only hope you're filled with many blessings from our FATHER in heaven, encouraged in the hope of HIS promises to one day be fulfilled soon. I pray, too, for your continued health, peace, and joy. At the end of this deovotional I've included a music video. I pray it blesses all who view it, and I thank you in advance for sharing it by passing it forward to others.
What are you nourishing today? Your Spirit or carnal natures?
There's not a day that we don't question our belief in an all powerful CREATOR. There's not a day that our faith isn't tested and challenged in some way. There's not a day when we aren't compromised by our trust issues, or lack there of, be they moral and/or ethical. Just because we're flawed through our carnal states (ie: physical, emotional, psychological, deveplomental) does not m

My FaimilyMY FAMILY ONLY PLIST WILL CONTAIN
2 NSFW full nudes
each member will recive a salute from me (nsfw or normal)
and will see when i upload new ones into the folders new pictures i mean
pictures will be uploaded into there very often unless something crops up like me getting a gf
FAMILY MEMBERS MUST BE
female, good friends of mine, must have talked more then 5 times and had great convosations, must have a salute
must not be judgmental upon me,must have me in their family as a return favour
and must not rip my pictures because i block rips anyway
FAMILY MEMBERS MUST NOT
remove me from their family if they do they will also be removed, try ask me for bling to join their family if they do i wont add them to mine, must not ignore me after i add them just because they join they should not think thats all they needed to do
i'm sorry that i do not allow males into my family but that is my choice you could buy me all the bling and credits you want it still woouldn't happen tha

Candybratz Video To Moi ...Every now and then people do nice things for me. I like that kind of thing. Simple, little things..anyways I figured it share this video with you all..
This was bought to you by:
CandyBratZ tastes like Trouble@ fubar
I think it's cute as hell. Haha. Have a good weekend and peace.

@We should place the elderly in prisons. They will get a shower a day, video surveillance in case of problems, three meals a day, access to a library, computer, TV, gym, doctors on-site, free medication if needed. Put criminals in nursing homes. They have cold meals, lights off at 7pm, two showers a week, live in a smaller room and pay extortionate rent a month!!! It's pretty sad that we treat prisoners better than the elderly.... copy and paste if you agree
"rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness... give me truth."

Audition Update!Ok! So all the paperwork is filled out. Agreements with NBC signed. Now to deliver!
On Feb. 4th, 2012 in Charlotte, NC on Convention Center Drive, I will be awaiting the biggest Audition of my life! And I thought trying out for the High School Show Choir Concert was HUGE!
America's Got Talent producers will be watching over every inch of me and hearing every crack in my voice. I am nervous but confident, scared but grounded. I feel that I am going to go where the road decides to take me on this journey. If it is no where, then at least I tried.
I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. So whatever happens will lead to what is supposed to happen next for me!
Cross your fingers for me please if you believe in me

A Friend's PhotoChase Burt Hmm not really we are all thinking the same thing
Thursday at 8:28pm · Like
Dustin Nouansiri I'd shoot him. Also, we need you back at drill, we are doing gunnery test next month and the 50 cal is part of it.
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Scott Mitchell when is the next drill?
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Have You Ever By Westlifehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=M6wbA1iVS_U
I don`t honestly know what my life has in store for me. I don`t think I care now...but I know I am what I am for a reason. I have had good friends...and lost them. I have such a complicated life that no-one understands just what it's like to be a lesbian....it's not easy...nothing ever works...something goes wrong somewhere.
Just maybe it's not other people..maybe I need to look at myself...maybe it's me. God I have such a long time to think about all my life and look at who and why I let these people into my life. I hide allot of stuff inside me...and there's no easy way out of my feeling for what I feel.
this is why I wanted to put this music to this mail of mine "have you ever by west life " and this song is exactly what happened to me...and now I sit here and think back to why I let this happen to me. I just wished everything would change for me...in ways I would like to see my life...but you know what.

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Online ShopsChanges in our shopping habits over the yearsl remember when my children were small, holding a thick, heavy, glossy catalogue in my hand. l was very pleased with myself as l´d become an agent for the company for the 1st time.l was always looking for little jobs to work from home , so that l could be a full-time mum but still earn a small amount of money. My husband earned the main share.Catalogues were a good idea for people who wanted quality goods but could not afford to pay out a large sum of cash all at once, but they COULD pay a little each week , regularly.These catalogues sold everything from womens and mens clothes, to childrens´clothes and toys, to furniture or tools... Almost anything you could think of.The more customers l had, and the more money they spent, naturally would mean the more commission l received.l once left my commission with the company until there was enough to buy a three piece suite.Very nice it looked in our sitting room and l felt as though it had cost me

[i Should Be Asleep]I should be deadbut let's not split hairs.Well, the last month some of you may have noticed I went a little darkStar Wars Old RepublicI wanted to hit the top of the mountain and see what the air was like.I'm kinda there now.Still have no idea why that game is subscription-and I hope these folks pull it together having played for a while, and getting kinda neck deep in consumer-peons, I can tell there's some MAJOR subscriber grumbling.Butwho cares?I should be asleep.My dog is at the kennel (boarding clusterfuck) and I have to drive to Topeka for my Gramma's 90th birthday.There were over 100 cupcakes of varied flavors made...and I'm going to bludgeon my mother if she ever takes on such a grand and misguided projectand asks me to helpfor so many strange ingratesI could sit herelieand tell you there's been some progress on:jobssexbookand moneybut there hasn't been.I'm about to spend more on gasoline in one day than I've earned in a month.HURRAY!!!But it will get me out of the house (kickin

Shouldn'tI won't lapse into deception.
I look upon it all
- that is to say, all of you
- with such envy.
My noxious longing to know
to feel
to see
to taste
to touch
seems to only stoke the inferno.
Rhetorical questions of profound ignorance
drip from my tongue
like the saliva of a dog.
"Why me?"
What hubris is this?
Such a notion of entitlement lurking in that pitiful refrain.
Paint green the walls of my prison.
Perhaps here,
here in this maelstrom and decay,
you could find me.
So close to madness
yet closer still to tears.
Days and nights go by in a gray blur
of wishful thinking
and vain hopes.
So you see,
I am simply a cancer
wishing he were health.
Isolation
stirs me
to falter.
Is it true?
Was I
...a mistake?
A plague upon this Earth
that should never have been wrought?
Oh.
What have you done?
This existence...
my grand failure.
I tremble as I don't want to know it.
I beg my mind to forget.
How selfish.
To envy that which I do not possess
when l

What For?What for?
As the hate flows
the anger grows
to much on a plate
it deals with fate
always planning
the future spanning
with a steel spine
you've got all the time
in the end we all blend.....

Im A Ghost Writerwhat she tried to take she cant have, but it took a while to get back, what im refering to is this boi's swag, She left because the ghost life she couldnt stand. so i hung up the mic to become a dad, opened a business and kicked back, but fuck it lets go ahead and get back, on the map, get back on tracks, recognize my words in others raps, this a fact from my words comes stacks. ssso u boochie cats should bag back, watch there eyes lookin through the cracks, cause bitch im a sav. yes im that guy im DaRealDeal. mad sex appeal, they say hard wood gripin, but when ur gripin me ur gripin steel. now that my skills, have done been revealed, should i stop chill? or squeeze u little bitchs til u squeel. mutha fucka this is how i realy feel. believe i still do what i gotta do to pay dem bills. slang that chronic move them pills, haha na i used to dont get it confuesed, but i aint u. a dead beat dad that doesnt wasnt to see there lil dude. u lunch meat pussies get abused, to spend time wit him

My Yummy New SpotTHOUGHT I WOULD ADD A NEW BLOG SPOT TO THE MIX.I LOVE TO READ.WRITE, AND COME ACROSS SOME REALLY YUMMY STORIES AND SUCH.SO PEEK IN FROM TIME TO TIME:)
XOXO

DriveWe sit on our porch sipping iced teas
The Sun is sitting high and no breeze
Inside the house, grab my shades & keys
As all I need are you and these
Lets go and drive
Hop in my car and fire up the beast
Hearing it rev is an adrenaline feast
Drop in gear and back out of the lot
Driving is a love story with no plot
Lets just go and drive
One hand on the wheel and one on your leg
Romp the gas watching the guages peg
Tires scream before they burn
Let off enough to make the turn
Now we go and drive
Glance your way see your hair blow
Scenery is a blur as faster

Avg Antivirus Ergent!!! Please Read!!!FOR THOSE WHO DO NOT KNOW ABOUT ANTIVIRUS SCANNERS AND WHICH ONES TO AVOID HERE IS 1 SCANNER YOU DO NOT...I REPEAT DO NOT WANT TO GET!!AVG ANTIVIRUS SCANNER IS A VIRUS. IT CAUSES MAJOR LAG ON OTHER PEOPLE WEB PAGES EVEN THOUGH YOU MAY NOT SEE THE EFFECTS OF IT.THE ANTIVIRUS PROTECTION AS LONG AS IT IS ON YOUR COMPUTER IS RECORDED AND TRACKED BY THE MAKERS OF THE AVG VIRUS PROTECTOR..FIND ANOTHER ANTIVIRUS PROTECTOR TO USE LIKE MICROSOFT SECURITY ESSENTIALS WHICH IT IS FREE TO DOWNLOAD AND LIKE KARSPERSKY'S.NORTON ANTIVIRUS IS THE EXACT SAME WAY THEY RECORD YOUR INFORMATION AND KEEP TRACK AND RECORD OF WHAT YOU DO ON YOUR LAPTOP OR DESKTOP.SO IF YOU HAVE THE AVG ANTIVIRUS PROTECTION ON YOUR COMPUTER GET RID OF IT IMEDIATELY!! YOU WILL SEE THE DIFFERENCE OF HOW YOUR COMPUTER RUNS WHEN YOU DO!!

What Would She Think?I wonder what my wife would think if she knew that I had secretly created this page and didn't even mention that I'm in a relationship. Oh well hope she doesnt mind that I plan on adding single girls from nearby. I almost feel a little shame when I tell her that she's the only girl I want to look at I mean she does have my two kids and is expecting my third. Do you think this makes me a full blown prick? anyways Hit Me up people on my days off the wife wont know and I'm not telling ;) lmao

Updated LookIt took a lot of time last night but I finally rearranged this place to how I like it and to how I think will be more user friendly. Instead of having to search through blog post you just have to look at the menu and you will see the title of your favorite erotic story and their chapters (if they have any that is). As for the blog part of Erotica I will be using it mostly for writers rants, updates, and the sharing of ideas. It will be a little look into the madness that is my writing process hehe. Oh and another big change is going to be my update rate aside from what is posted in the blog I will be uploading a new chapter, or a new story (depending on how my muse moves me) every month so no longer waiting forever and a day to find out what is happening to your favorite characters. So please check out at Erotica all the new stuff and I would love to hear some feedback on it (^_^)

When Was Your Last Vacation? (not Mine)When it comes to consumption America is #1. Whether, it is TVs, smart phones, clocks, furniture, big cars, RVs, homes, watches, food, gourmet food, whatever it is, except for one thing: vacations.
First of all the average American has only 23 days off, 2 less than industrious Japan at 25 and 19 days less than the average German who gets 42 days off a year. This might seem the reason for this discrepancy, however, the real reason is much more absurd than that.
The real reason why Americans spend less on vacations that everyone else is that it is impossible to ‘buy yourself’ a vacation. Vacations require some sort of communal networking process. You can’t go to the mall and tell your friends “guess what! I bought myself a vacation to Mexico today”. Also, buying someone else a vacation package so they can go with you, sounds like a very Un-American thing do.
Thus, it is the inherently isolated nature of our lives that make us the world’s biggest cons

More Porn Thoughts (not Mine)There are many people who see pornography as a harmless expression of human sexuality. There are many men who see watching pornography as a mere leisurely activity. This sort of perspective is downright delusional and completely irresponsible.
First of all, pornography is a highly regulated industry. It is regulated by the oppressive state to deflate the emotional and psychological energy in millions of people. The average male in the United States watches countless hours of pornography each week, estimates range from 3.2 hours to 5.1 hours. This becomes even more problematic when you consider the fact that pornography is a very complex form of consumption.
When you watch pornography you are essentially watching a machine that is milking your sexuality. When you focus your eyes on the image on the screen, you are essentially having sex with the machine. When you devote all of your sexual and emotional attention to the screen, you are essentially becoming one with the screen, worshipp

"80's From The Crypt" Friday Here And On Www.darkgiftradio.com"80's From The Crypt" will be ON THE AIR tonight from 7pm-Midnight EST Tonight, Friday January 27th, 2012. Call in your requests to (201) 870-1767 or AIM/Yahoo/Skype us at DarkGiftRadio. Please Help Share The Links & Hit Up That "Share Button" & Tune In, I'll be playing the best and favorite 80's Tracks at www.darkgiftradio.com or click on my profile INTERESTESTS TAB for the station stream player.
You can also send me your requests to www.facebook.com/darkgiftradio. Follow us on Twitter atwww.twitter.com/darkgiftradio or #darkgiftradio, you can also see how to tune in the show on other devices here http://darkgiftradio.com/tune_us_in.htmTonights Show is Dedicated In The Memory of my cousin Rich Witkowski who tragically lost his life this morning in an accident in work, You will be missed and never forgotten Cuz..!!
Please tune us in, Turn it Up and Help Us Out By Telling Your Friends & Sharing The Links.
Thanks,
Shawn aka: DJ DarkGift

Where Did Piss Poor Come From?Have you ever wonder where the saying 'Piss Poor' came from? Will I got this e-mail about 'Interesting History'. I hope you enjoy this as much as I did.
They used to use urine to tan animal skins, so families used to all pee in a pot & then once a day it was taken & Sold to the tannery....if yo had to do this to survive you were 'Piss Poor'
But worse than that were the really poor folk who couldn't even afford to buy a pot...they "didn't have a pot to pin in" & were the lowest of the low.
The next time you are washing your hands and complain because the water temperature isn't just how you like it, think about how things used to be. Here are some facts avout the 1500's:
Most people got married in June because they took their yearly bath in May, and they still smedded pretty good by June. However, since they were starting to smell......Brides carried a bouquet of flowers to hide the body odor. Hence the custom today of carrying a bouquet when getting Married.
Baths consisted of a b

Make Yourself AwareFIND MORE HERE http://www.youtube.com/user/TheAnonMessage Things you need to know about the ACTA bill. Citizens of the united states, you need to understand what the bill ACTA is and why it's so dangerous. Here are some things you need to know about ACTA. It isn't the european SOPA. It's nearly global, and will apply to every country that signs the treaty. ACTA is far more aggressive. ACTA will not simply affect websites and have them blocked out of the internet - its measures go as far as surveillance of anything you share through private channels. ACTA doesn't have a campaign against it that is as wide spread and organized as the SOPA one. This is dangerous, and there's less time between now and the final signing of the bill. It has effects on healthcare, trade, and even tourism. ACTA has to be stopped. Let's start spreading the word and organizing a good, solid response to it. We are legion. We do not forgive. We do not forget. We are anonymous. Expect us.
Together we st

The Beginning..Ok.. so here it is.. obviously guys would rather stay with a bitch than with someone who cares for them and loves them with their whole heart..
Case in point.. ex bf stayed with a bitch for 15 yrs.. stayed with me 4 months
Case 2.. exhusband just married a bitch that has him on a leash..
so I am going to try my hand at being a bitch.. not sure how successful I will be but in the end it has to be less painful then handing over your heart and having it stomped, crushed, broken, mutilated, etc..
you get the point..

Accepting The Facts.You've got to accept the fact that life isn't a fairy tale, things aren't always happily ever after. Things like magic wishes, Prince Charmings and true love don't happen in real life. Magic wishes come from money, Prince Charming's a shallow idiot with a bad haircut and overpriced clothes. And true love? Ha, true love is one-sided, Ace. You love her, she loves someone else. She loves you, you love someone else. Never quite works out does it? So you end up with some actor pretending to be your true love. Real considerate of someone to let you know reality was like that before being thrown into it. 'If you wish, it'll happen.' Well, wish in one hand and crap in the other and see which one fills up faster. Welcome to reality. Enjoy your stay.
Study what people's faces look like in the moonlight. Set aside time to watch the sun set over the Atlantic. Study colors. Wonder why things work. Take in the smell of fresh baked bread or newly cut grass. Sun bathe. Moon bathe. Just don't forget

My Other Accounthttp://fubar.com/7230065 is my other account, but I mistyped the password when making the account, and the forgot password link doesn't work. So it's abandoned. Sorry!

Join Social Network, Business Network At Common Platform- Bizeso.comEveryone believes in connecting & interacting and is aware of the caliber of social media in today’s life. It is a place where we can connect to known as well as totally unknown persons in a few seconds. And getting to know all the different aspects of their life makes connections trustworthy. Now a day everyone has social networking accounts on more than one site and business networking accounts are dealt on other different sites. But people are aware that our business connections can always add value & boost our social connections. Similarly our meaningful social connections also improve and raise our professional network building. The possible influencing effects of our professional & social connections on each other are undeniable. If professionally you are a film director, there are hundred percent chances that you would attract models and actors on your social front too which strengthen the chances of reaping benefits for both the sides but for this to happen a common platf

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In Conclusion.I saw Red Tails tonight!
I was awe-inspired by the splendid luck we had with the Jet plane.
Did you know:
14 of the Mark 2 Jet Fighter made by Volkswagon were made, but only 5 got into the air, and 4 were deemed operational?
The Mark 2 Jet Fighter was the fastest thing in the war, but the least deployed?
The Mark 2 Jet Fighter had the most kills out of any attack force with minimal problems but still was defeated?
Why didn't we lose again? Oh yeah, America was teh beeznees back in the day. Oh, how I miss you, America of olde. Back in the day when we didn't make fun of the British for a language we basically hijacked and mugged.
AMEEERRRIICCA of GRACIOUS--OH SHIT, JETPLANE.
Go Tuskegee!
Why is derelection the greater part of valour? Because you need to get past Mach 3.
Valour, in essence, is a flatspin gone awry. I believe this in turmoil and in great prejudice. Spin and throw-up a little, at least the guy next door says he's seen better days. An eternal w

The Best Divorce Letter Ever!Dear Wife, I’m writing you this letter to tell you that I’m leaving you forever. I’ve been a good man to you for 7 years & I have nothing to show for it. These last 2 weeks have been hell. ... Your boss called to tell me that you quit your job today & that was the last straw. Last week, you came home & didn’t even notice I had a new haircut, had cooked your favorite meal & even wore a brand new pair of silk boxers. You ate in 2 minutes, & went straight to sleep after watching all of your soaps. You don’t tell me you love me anymore, you don’t want sex or anything that connects us as husband & wife. Either you’re cheating on me or you don’t love me anymore, whatever the case, I’m gone. Your EX-Husband P.S. don’t try to find me, Your SISTER & I are moving away to West Virginia together! Have a great life! Dear Ex-Husband Nothing has made my day more than receiving your letter. It’s true you & I have been married for 7 year

Just Another Boring Day At Home, Gotta Love It.I have absolutely nothing interesting to write about but I am so bored. Today I went to the store, and well, that's about it. I am feeling pretty tired and just down as usual. Went out last night with my girls, Bonez and Camille. I had a nice time, listened to peope karaokee drank a bit. Didn't get sick so I know I didn't over do it. Why am I so tired all the time? I have no motivation, I'm just too dragging ass to be motivated.

What Is The Meaning Of Lifewhat is this life for? Are we here for a purpose? Is there a reason for the suffering that every man and woman suffers? why do we have to suffer? is there really a god? if there is why dose he let us fight each other? so how do we know joy is joy at all? what is this world coming to? the world is changing as we speak is it changing for the good or bad? life is full of questions and the goal with any life is to answer as many of the important questions as we can before we move on to the next chapter of life which is death. as a wise person once said there are only 2 garentees in life. death and taxes. but i have to add one thing to this and if someone says its not true they are suffering more then anyone else. pain is a garentee in everyones life. pain is there so you can learn what life is about and how could you love if you have never hurt before? have you asked your self these questions? if so leave a comment on your feelings it feels great to share

FredomFREEDOM! WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO YOU? HERE LATLEY MYNE MEANS EVERY THING TO ME! YOU CAN HAVE IT ONE DAY AND THE NEXT IT IS GOHN! NEVER TAKE FORGRANTED ANY THING OR ANY ONE HAVE IN YOUR LIFE! LIFE IS SO SHORT AND CAN CHANG IN A BLINK OF AN EYE OR JUST A BAD DISION YOU MAKE! ONE DAY YOU ARE OUT INT THE REALL WORLK AND THE NEXT YOU ARE LOCKED UP AND EVERY THING IS TAKEN AWY FROM YOU! THEN ALL YOU ARE IS SIN # AND YOU WATE TO SEE WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU! ONCE YOU ARE IN THE LEAGAL SYSTEM IT IS SO HARD TO GET OUT OF IT! PEOPLE NEVER LOOKAT YOU THE SAME WHY THEY USED TO AND PEOPLE NEVER TRUST YOU AGAIN! LIFE AS I NO IT HAS CHANGED AND IAM CHANGING TO ! HAVE TO!

Love, WantThe person I love,The person I want most of all,I can't have.But I will go on loving him,And wanting him,Just the same.Because someday down the road,I just might get to have him,Even if it is for a minute.Until someday comes,I will go on loving,And wanting,The man I cannot have.

I Wish You Enough!Found this elsewhere and liked it enough that I thought I would share it.
Recently I overheard a Father and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the Father said, 'I love you, and I wish you enough.' The daughter replied, 'Dad, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Dad.' They kissed and the daughter left. The Father walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, 'Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?' 'Yes, I have,' I replied. 'Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?'.. 'I am old, and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral,' he said.. 'When you were saying g

Curtain Call
Hurt me once, it's shame on you. Hurt me twice (or three or four or five times), it becomes shame on me. When it gets to the "shame on me" stage, I am done. There are a couple of people here that have pushed me to that stage. The fact that I have allowed it is SHAME ON ME!
I am fairly certain that they will read this and none of it will ring true with them. as denial goes hand in hand with cluelessness. Either way...
Close the curtain on the "shame on me" stage? Don't mind if I do...

Life Can Chang In A Blink Of A Eye!YES I SAID IT LIFE CAN CHANG IN A BLINK OF AN EYE! I WAS MAKING PLANS FOR A BETTER LIFE FOR ME! WAS PLANING ON MOVING OUT OF WHERE I LIVED FOR ABOUT 16 YEARS! WAS GOING TO CHANG MY LIFE AND DO BETTER FOR MYSELF! I HAD MADE ALL THESE PLANS AND WAS GOING TO LIVE A BETTER LIFE! NOW I HAVE TO PUT ALL THOSE PKANS TO A STOP AND SEE WHERE THE LEAGLE SYSTEM IS GOING TO TAKE ME! GOT MY SELF IN A JAM AND I HAVE TO GET OUT OF IT! LIFE CAN CHANG IN A BLILK OF AND EYE! YOUR FREDOM AS YOU KNOW IT CAN BE TAKEN AWY FROM YOU! LIFE IS TO CHORT AND IT CAN CHANGE IN A BLIK OF AND EYE!

The Debut / Pilot BlogGreetings friends, Romans, and devoted fans of the FuNation:
Welcome to my first installment of the Royal Degree, where I'll give you my take on all the goings-on in this world-gone-haywire, as well as whatever whimsical nonsense that may come to my wicked, wicked mind at any given moment.
For starters, I am not looking forward to filing my federal and state income tax forms at the nearby H & R Block tax office this year. When I filed my taxes last year, I only received 64 buck from my federal returns, while I owed the state somewhere between 300 and 500 bucks. It was as disheartening as it was disappointing, I don't mind telling you. And while I'm hoping things will get a little better when I plan to file my this year's taxes either sometime this weekend or the early part of next week, I'm afraid I might end up owing Uncle Sam more money in state and / or federal taxes. I may be sound like I'm too paranoid for my own good, but I must be strong and deal with whatever hand the

Santorum: Obama’s College Reforms Part Of ‘indoctrination’ Plot (repost)Topics: President Barack Obama ♦ President Obama ♦ Republican presidential candidate Rick Santorum
Republican presidential candidate Rick Santorum on Wednesday suggested that President Barack Obama wanted to every kid to go to college so they could be brainwashed into being a liberal.
Speaking to a crowd of Floridians at the First Baptist Church of Naples, Santorum said that churches and families were under “assault” by the president and liberals.
“We’ve lost, unfortunately, our entertainment industry,” the candidate explained. “We’ve lost our higher education. That was the first to go a long time ago. It’s no wonder President Obama wants every kid to go to college. The indoctrination that occurs at American universities is one of the keys to the left holding and maintaining power in America — and it is indoctrination.”
“If they taught Judeo-Christian ideology, they would be stripped of every

CarsResting my head on the window pane,
watching those cars go by.
Often I wonder what it's like
to lay to rest and fly.
So often do I wonder how
it feels to be so free.
Yet often do I pray and hope
someday someone may see.
And often do I think about
the tme Ive spent on Earth.
But no one can feel how much I need them,
or hear how much I hurt.
..~~HelpMe~~..

Things On My MindIve never been much of a person to blog whats on my mind. It seems as if now is the time. I am sick of hearing the he said she said bullshit. The this isnt real life.. bullshit, really? What is this make believe? Grow the fuck up its real life but ur just on the internet not face to face. For some ppl it gives them bigger balls being on the internet. for some it gives them the feeling to be more open on how they feel. For some it makes them act completely fake as they believe its not real life, so why not act like a complete ass and make a fool outta their self. Heres the deal lately.. My "friends" have acted one way yet talked a different way. Do u realize how many of you are being played? No, u sure dont.. Kinda sad. Yet most of u are being played by the same circle even more funny in my eyes. Then lets move on to ppl mistaking IFLY to omg I really love you as if im marrying you 2moro. Come the fuck on and get ur panties out of a knot. There are so many ppl that seem so

I Don't Get It....Just a rant. I needed to vent and this is the proper place to do it. Don't like what I have to say? Deleted yourself from my list and wish yourself luck in finding another good friend.
I don't get it. This "filtered reality" we call the internet. Why is it, that we become members of a social site.....a place for meeting and interacting with people.....but then when you actually make a friend and a little hurt is exchanged unintentionally, people resort to the "Oh it's just the internet, it doesn't matter." Um....EARTH TO PEOPLE........the screen names and profiles on these social sites have ACTUAL PEOPLE behind them. People with feelings. Why is it because it's "the internet", people feel it's ok to just say anything they want.....things they wouldn't normally say in real life? Yes, I speak the truth......but sometimes when people joke.....it can go too far. You really have no idea what that person behind the profile has been through in their life NOR can you assume that everyon

Dva Bounty Hunter Hall Of Fame 10{DVA}*FUZZYMYA$... just KILLED $ $ BILL YALL and collected a bounty of $1,199,275,200, with $1,199,275 going to turf tax!
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Murder In FloridaI have been following a court case In which my adopted mothers cousin was murdered in Florida. Her name is Stephanie and as the story goes a guy did not like what she was doing so he shot her at point blank range in the head and killed her. The man that did it turned himself in and confessed to the crime. The family waited months for the case to go to trial. It went to trial the original charges were 2nd degree murder which got dropped to 2nd degree manslaughter, It was turned over to the jury on 1/23/2012 they came back with a verdict on 1/25/2012. This guy was found not guilty, go figure he confesses to murder and gets found not guilty of it. This is how it was placed on facebook to let the family know how the verdict came out. So the justice system has failed again if anyone wants to get away with murder just come to Florida. It seems like they get everyone off for it, there will be no legal justice for Stephanie. I guess that is why the street people have started t

Just To Make Someone's DayWhat ever happened to the days when people would help you level and things as such on here without expecting things in return? I mean it's not just here either, no one ever just does something to put a smile on someone elses face. It's more and more about "What can you do for me'? now a days.
P.S. Not EVERYONE is like this but it was something that had been on my mind a few days and finally decided to getting around to share my feelings.
I like the majority of you, love some of you and wanna see you all naked at some point :P

People Who Wanted Me GoneThere comes a time in our lives when some people just have to go either because we don't want them there or because they feel the need to leave. I have over the years watched to their own dismay people who have walked out of my life only to return again begging to come back. Yet as I sit before my computer all who have parted ways with me have stayed in the past where they left me hurting and in tears. The day has come when this time I will cut some people out of my life never to bother me again. I am sure it will hurt them for a lil while but it is better that they take that bitter sweet pill now then later. I have learned since my first ex that an ex is an ex for a reason. So to go people I thought were friends and family. I have been reborn to start a new I bid those of you I choose to leave behind a parting farwell and I wish you happiness. I can forgive things such as holding on to someone until it becomes crystal clear that their intentions are to hurt me or hold me back. I have

Wow I Did Not Know I Was So Popular.It seems as if there is a group of men on here and possibly women that feel. That they need to target me for their own sick pleasure. I know who one of them is for sure now. I see them move up and me move out they say things to poison peoples mind against me. Or they just take advantage of moods they manipulate others into thinking they are their friends. You see to some of you this is just a game but their are some people on here with cancer or other sickness. Then there are those who really think that they can meet people here because of the interaction. It is only a breeding ground of people who only care about themself and being popular.
They try to hurt me by coming between me and the people i try and become friends with. The real joke is on the person or people who allow them to come between us. For what ever petty reason or for whatever little thing they can come up with. I am only on here to meet people to be online friends with. I do not ever want to meet anyone on here it s

MermaidThe look in my face ,
It will say,
I am beautiful and confident .
In my eyes , they have a pull ,
but Don't let them lie to you ,
Don't be taken,
No, I am not faking .
I am magical, wonderus ....
A creature beyond the tide.
A secret , a legend, a dream .
I will fade ,
Get , washed back under,
Don't hold your breath,
You can't save me .
I will drowned.

Oppsafter a loooooooooooong tireing day..how sweet it is to come home and see the one u love has thought of u....wait..that doesnt happen to me..my bad..continue on...just hook me up when u decide im a priority in ur rl :)

May Be I Will Fall In Love Some Day...May be I will fall in love some day falling stars on my face of love. As I walk alone may be love will come my way in the dark of the night. Cover my heart of the moon of love over my eyes of love. Move my heart see the stars over the sky so bright. I will fall in love some day falling stars on my face of love. Cover of the night of love the moon is here on my face may be you will find me some day and may be not. I will fall in love some day falling stars on my face of love as I walk alone may be love will come my way in the dark of the night cover my heart of the moon of love over my eyes of love move my heart see the stars over the sky so bright I will fall in love some day falling stars on my face of love.

Stupid People
These are the assholes who are ripping my pics to their default albums
Please send hate their way
Or at least help me report them
Thanks!!!!!
Mike Jones:jttheraven:http://www.fubar.com/jttheraven/photo-5720282-0-3669694853(He has all my pics in his default)nfa1965AshHeels Wheels Girl's photoshttp://www.fubar.com/ashheels-wheels-girl/photo-713724-0-759767662TexasRebel69asslicker2http://www.fubar.com/69asslicker2/photo-6543158-0-918885824cpylovehttp://www.fubar.com/cpylove/photo-5645990-0-1949199
speedster692008
http://www.fubar.com/speedster692008/photo-1963824-0-371554007

A Tale Of Love LostCasualties of War
When it’s over will I cry
Will I loose and want to die
Will it hurt beyond what I can feel
Will I question ,”was it ever real?”
Questions that answer themselves too true
I know what happened between both me and you
The love was real and true love never really does die
Distance killed any romance between you and I
Three years at war and so far away
I return a changed man on that fate filled day
I have seen too much and you can’t ever understand
Watched men live and die by a far off command
Till life and death became one in the same
And nothing can change what I have became
People think that death and injury are the toll of war
But I know the truth so much better than ever before
Loss of a freedom took for granted the next moment we share
Loss of wanting to have passion and to let myself care
For knowing what I do can give no one peace
And it far kinder still to give one I loved their release
For to be loved in this worl

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Douchebags
Mike Jones:jttheraven:http://www.fubar.com/jttheraven/photo-5720282-0-3669694853(He has all my pics in his default)
nfa1965These are the assholes who are ripping my photos to their default albums
Please send hate their way
Or at least help me report them!!!!!
Thanks....
AshHeels Wheels Girl's photoshttp://www.fubar.com/ashheels-wheels-girl/photo-713724-0-759767662
TexasRebel
69asslicker2http://www.fubar.com/69asslicker2/photo-6543158-0-918885824

It Seems Like I'm Cursed!!ok, I'm cursed...I thought that this was going to be a nice and civil divorce, yet the soon-to-be ex-wife is going to play dirty. she's been tracking my calls. ALL my calls. doesn't matter that she's calling shippers and receivers as well as all my friends, I feel like she's stalking me. And she says she still loves me. Meh! Ever heard the saying "if you love him, let him go, and if he returns, he was meant to be yours"...
Apparently she has not heard of this. She intends to try to put me in a cage and keep me there till I die. I can't stand being caged, I can't stand being tethered any longer! it's time for me to flee.
then she says, what about the kids? Our kids are nearly grown. one is going to be 17 the other just turned 15...and besides, kids should never have to live with parents who don't get along, and constantly argue. What does that do for them, besides give them bad relationship models...
I will admit that my choices in the matter were not always the best, but it wa

Annelid's Pickup Lines - 1st Draft....Are your legs tired? Oh, well, I’m not surprised; your thighs are almost comically muscular.
You must wash your pants with Windex, because something really smells like Windex.
Your father must have been a thief. I don’t know, you just have the look of someone who was raised by criminals.
If I said you had a beautiful body, would you hold it against me? That is to say, would you be offended by my comments, not would you physically hold your body against mine. Sorry for any confusion. Anyways, would you?
Do you have a little Italian in you? Really? Wait, what was your last name again? Oh, yeah, I guess that does sound Irish. Never mind.
If I could rearrange the alphabet, I probably wouldn’t. Can you imagine how much that would screw with everybody?
Are you from Tennessee? I hate people from Tennessee.
Excuse me; I seem to have misplaced my inmate number, which was assigned to me by this state’s accursed penal system after it was discovered that I was indeed

Janey Godley’s Podcast Episode 81
(Please be aware that this Podcast Contains strong language)
In episode 81 of Janey Godley’s podcast the mother and daughter comedy duo give us some Oscar facts. The podcast is recorded early due to the duo heading to London this week. Ashley has unearthed many weird and wonderful titbits of Oscar award ceremonies from the archives and also gives us a roundup of the latest nominees.
Janey gives us some ‘singing’ from her version of The Northern Lights and Ashley talks’ crunchy lettuce diet tips. They both talk beauty tips and get a chance to read out some podcast questions. Ashley wants to be the face of Poundland (which isn’t sexual).
Mother and Daughter comedy team get to natter and the world gets to hear it on Janey Godley’s podcasts, expect some bawdy language and home truths, as Janey Godley and Ashley Storrie lead you down the roads less taken in their fantastic weekly podcast. Listen as mother and daughter banter, bait and burst

Open Your Eyesdid you kno neil armstrong was not the firtst human to set foot on the moon think about it who was filming him getting out of the space craft hmm.

Don't Mess With The MilitaryAN ACTUAL CRAIG'S LIST PERSONALS AD To the Guy Who Tried to Mug Me in Downtown Savannah night before last. Date: 2010-09-27, 1:43 a.m. E.S.T. I was the guy wearing the black Burberry jacket that you demanded that I hand over, shortly after you pulled the knife on me and my girlfriend, threatening our lives. You also asked for my girlfriend's purse and earrings. I can only hope that you somehow com...e across this rather important message. First, I'd like to apologize for your embarrassment; I didn't expect you to actually crap in your pants when I drew my pistol after you took my jacket.. The evening was not that cold, and I was wearing the jacket for a reason.. my girlfriend was happy that I just returned safely from my 2nd tour as a Combat Marine inAfghanistan .. She had just bought me that Kimber Custom Model 1911 .45 ACP pistol for my birthday, and we had picked up a shoulder holster for it that very evening. Obviously you agree that it is a very intimidating weapon whe

Poem I LikeI hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick,it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you’re always right, I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh,even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call. But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you, not even close…not even a little bit… not even at all.

What Do I Want?I guess it can be summed up pretty easily.
I want to be good enough.

Legend Of The ButterflyOnce as a child many years ago... on a balmy summer's eve. I sat in the yard at my Mother's side... and a butterfly lit at my sleeve. "It's a sign of good luck", my Mother said. As the butterfly stayed at my arm... "It's a symbol of all the beauty in life. Make sure you do it no harm." First butterflies are eggs and after they hatch... they see that their life's just beginning. They're content with their lot in life, so, they go out on a limb and start spinning. They stay out awhile in a magic cocoon.... then emerge like flowers in spring. Then they share the story of their victory and success... through each of the colors of their wings. The gold in their wings is the"Golden Rule"... To follow that is a must. The blue....That means true blue. Always be someone people can trust. The green of the tip of their wing is saying Stay green, and you'll always grow. The silver is the lining in the clouds of doubt... that you must look for as you go through life. Butterflies bend with the wind,

Beautiful ButterfliesButterflies, beautiful butterflies, with so many colours rare, it hurts my heart when one dies, Yet, does anyone truly care? For butterflies, butterflies, you represent new birth, from chrysalis until you die, you beautify the earth. thank you, lovely butterflies.

Preparing For LossMy parents were not young when my mother gave birth to me. My dad was 42. My mother was 39. They divorced in 1990, when I was 15, he 57, and she 54. Each of them has since found someone new and, I'm lucky enough to say, they have been wonderful step-parents.
As you get older, you prepare yourself emotoinally and mentally for that day where you get that phone call: the one that says you are about to lose one of your parents. You expect it. It's part of life.
I got a phone call from my godbrother up north today. The news was grim: my stepfather is gravely ill.
Ronald knew my mother when they were both children in Trinidad. They were originally supposed to get married, but my mother landed an opportunity to go to England to study nursing. She met my father there, and they eventually moved to America and got married. Ronald was never quite that far away, however; it seems that no matter where in the West Indies you grew up, you eventually wind up in Brooklyn. So, they were never reall

Butterflies, Oh, ButterfliesButterflies, Oh, Butterflies, Your beauty is so rare. Butterflies, Oh, butterflies, How could anyone dare. to catch you and to hold you against your solemn will? They should just admire you and let you have your fill. of flitting here and flitting there, gathering up your daily fare of nectars from the flowers bright, from early morning until night.

A Butterfly Hovers CloselyA butterfly hovers closely And then quickly moves away, Swiftly going where so ever Her heart may freely say. A butterfly lowers and rises With the winds' gusty breath, As if coupled within a dance Of a loving tenderness. The butterfly only knows How it feels to have wings, To kiss the petals of flowers In such elegant flutterings. To have but one moment Of such an exquisite flight, Would be like a dream Where all seems so right.

Looking To Find Out The Interest InksI am looking for people who would like to go to a private nsfw party in the Junction City area. Cost is $30.00 at the door and bring a bottle. There will be dancers there so bring lots of ones:) If you are interseted email me bettyparties@yahoo.com

BackstabbersI'm sick and tired of hearing all about my lifeFrom other bitches with all of your liesWrapped up so tight, so maybe you should shut your mouthShut your fucking mouth
Honestly, I think it's kinda funny thatYou waste your breath talking about meGot me feeling kinda special reallyThis is what you're all about

If You Live On American Soil You Must Read This It Doesn't Matter If Your American Or Not! The Last Six Seconds On Nov 13, 2010, Lt General John Kelly, USMC, gave a speech to the Semper Fi Society of St. Louis , MO. This was four days after his son, Lt Robert Kelly, USMC, was killed by an IED while on his 3rd Combat tour. During his speech, General Kelly spoke about the dedication and valor of our young men and women who step forward each and every day to protect us. During the speech, he never mentioned the loss of his own son. He closed the speech with the moving account of the last six seconds in the lives of two young Marines who died with rifles blazing to protect their brother Marines. "I will leave you with a story about the kind of people they are, about the quality of the steel in their backs, about the kind of dedication they bring to our country while they serve in uniform and forever after as veterans. Two years ago when I was the Commander of all U.S. and Iraqi forces, in fact, the 22nd of April 2008, two Marine infantry battalions, 1/9 "The Walking Dead," and

Fu Bloopers ~ The Funniest Typos In Support ~Ailina- Tewety: up to 24 hrs depending on how many its forest come first serve
Narley- dont pop the clutch!.....i pooped the clutch went off motobike
Sproet: Trixie - it's you rank again all the other members that made points from the previous day Sproet: it's *how* you rank *against*Sproet: holy typoes Sproet: *typos
More to come :)

Sporks UpdateThere was a long ago member here called I Love Sporks who was actually #1 Red Lifetime at the time of this incident. For those who remember the situation regarding the death of her baby, here's a recent update I was sent by the wonderful Ms. Cherry (aka Inked Angel.)
http://galvestondailynews.com/story/216838
http://pysih.com/2011/03/15/update-travis-%E2%80%9Ctj%E2%80%9D-mullis/
And a more recent..
http://galvestondailynews.com/story/259502
It was one of the most polarizing events in Fubar history. It led to the most viewed bulletin of all time (upwards of 17,000 views), a murder investigation, and screenshots being used as proof sent to the Galveston police department. We broke it here of course, to the shagrin of many. People still ask to this day about it. I figured an update would be appropriate as we approach the four year anniversary of this tragic event. Feel free to post your thoughts. Now it's rape in addition to the murder of a child. Lovely people I tell you. P

Prettylicious Xposed...Birthday Alert!! Here's wishing a very happy birthday to..
MrsBitchlynn@ fubar
She has a file of fakes too. Ha! Have a happy hump day!

Thank YouTwo very simple little words that brought tears to my eyes!
Why would those two words bring me to tears?
Because they were said by one of the many people I respect and pray for each
night. His a member of the finest group of people this country has, OUR MILITARY.
He said it because I used my voice to recognize him and all those like him
that chose to put on the uniform and protect this country. They chose to
protect you and me, people they don't even know, so that we can sleep in peace.
So that people like me have the freedoms like being able to use our voice, and
all those others that we take for granted everyday.
Those two words meant the world to me. Imagine what those same two
simple words mean to them.The ones that will look you in the eye and say
"I'm just doing my job", when we all know they are doing so much more.
When was the last time you stopped one of this country's HEROs, past or
present and said those two very simple but powerful little words?
To al

World OpensUp at night '
lost and lonely,
looking for the way to go.
There you are ..
Where ? Did you come from?
I do not know ,
Stay, Stay,
Here with me .
WALK , walk slowly....
Take me away.
Save me ,
Save me from the lies ,
How I loved them so .
I can see the light .
It blinds me .
I can't !
I won't !
I am so afraid .

A Hawk's CallingSo much traveling in this life
Now a peace restored
Within the heart and soul
Finally a comfort
With a warmth
That only is brought out
By the calling of a hawk
Doves are to love
As a hawk
Is a messenger of a living spirit
All one and the same
When it comes to
The spirit of love
And what is a blessing
Yearning across the canyon
For a place to land
Soaring high
Above the red rocks
Ready to land
My heart is in your hand
Just be gentle
And it will gracefully
Serve you well
Taking nothing for granted
Only tiny steps as to what can be
Hopefully one day
Sorting it out
When the eyes lay upon thee
Tender touches
Within the dreams
Passionate kisses
Filling the desire of flame
Within each scene
I can't believe all of this is truly happening
With what all a hawk means to me
And what my Ancestors have taught me
So thankful for their loving ways
But knowing that they are truly
Watching out for me!
@2012 Judy Little Hummingbird

Just Random Crapwriting about life? nope, more just about odd things i know or odd questions i may have, like why is a bottle of soda cheaper then a bottle of water?
tid bit of info for ya - if you buy a new washer and set it up yourself, Remove the shipping bolts! you be amazed at how many people don't..
hinges on your door coming loose? slide a little sliver of wood into the screw holes and reinstall the screws waalaaa.
computer acting stupid on start up? try replacing the internal battery before anything else ( yes they really do have one ) its like a big watch battery
why did they stop making universal remotes with the new tv's ? and why can't all remotes use the same size batteries?
okay, so do people think Mcdonalds hamburgers really taste good? i cant possibly understand how anybody could but hey to each their own.
if you're going to buy a new dishwasher, measure the opening from top to bottom, can make a big difference on what you can buy.. btw i used to install built-in appliances b

Something To Help The Fubar MaleThis is a summary of what I assume to be a great essay, I did not write this summary, I did not write this essay, but I can relate to it on multiple levels and it might help someone else to stumble upon it.
Start with the premise that a person - generally a male - may be addicted to pornography, and that this addiction may be part of a larger addiction to any number of other sexual "highs" - affairs, visits to prostitutes, anonymous sex, exhibitionism, voyeurism, etc. See where this premise leads.2A man wishes to believe there is a beautiful body with no soul attached. Because of this wish he takes the surface for truth. There are no depths. Because of this wish, he begins to worship an image. But when this image enters the future, it loses what the man has given it - momentary devotion. The man wishes for another body, another face, another moment. He discards the image like a painting. It is no longer to his taste. Only the surface can be known and loved, and this is why the imag

And I'm Right Here WaitinSo yeah just sittin here thinkin about questions I don't yet have answers to so don't ask me cuz I don't know!

More Offers On Our HouseWe've had several offers on our house, which has been on the market for a couple of months. All of them have been countered or rejected. Nothing has been acceptable to both parties.
Today we got another offer. It is $20,900K less than our $295.900 asking price. We have asked for the buyer to wait until Thursday @ 5PM for our answer to his offer. *I just picked up a job that will have me gone for most of Wed. and part of Thur.
We are waiting on another offer from a cash buyer. Their agent has been talking to our agent for a few days. They sold a property a few months ago and are living at her parents' house. The husband is READY to get out of that situation.
Our agent contacted theirs today to say that we are sitting on an offer. Of course she didn't tell the other agent what the offer is. The buyer's agent said they are still waiting to see how best to remove the $$ from the trust account (legalities and tax issues) but that they will have a very strong offer very soon.
I'm trying

Reaching The Bottom(this was taken from a conversation about cock)
I may not reach the bottom but i can fuck up the sides

My Girlshow your love for my dog she was a sweet cute girl she love all ppl she pass away today im so so sad so put love on my dog

Away For Awhile Again!!This is for all my Fubar Family & Friend's:I have made a decision to go to Trucking School again,yes if you did not know I used to drive 18 wheeler's 14 yrs. ago..So I am going again for 3 weeks and on the road I go,I will not be on Fubar at that time,Please don't forget me because I will be back..sooner or later..lol...Love all of you...Wish me luck!..As some of you know I am Lora and if ya don't it's Crazy Azz Texas Woman AKA Texas Willow

Jack In The BoxI live in a new section of Albuquerque. You drive down the road and there is still large pieces of undeveloped land here and there. I was excited that a Jack in the Box had opened up in the neighborhood, having never had it, the closest one being across town. I cook at home a lot but when i do not feel like it a few food choices are nice. There is not much selection in 5 square miles we have, McD, Burger king Carls jr, and a taco bell/kfc (meaning it does not have a full menu of either). Jack was having a promo, we are new to the area come in and try this combo, Burger, fries, 2 tacos and a drink. Now my thought was, hey trying to win over new customers with a hot fresh and tasty combo. Verdict: Massive fail to win me over as a new customer. Fries, while flavorful were cold, not warm but freaking cold. 2 tacos, at first I thought they were soft tacos being so cold and loaded with grease that the shell was more soft than crunchy. Might be on par with a taco bell taco, somewhat tasty but

DrivingOk, it's been a hell of a day. Today started with me getting lost going 18 miles, and ending up 25 away from where I needed to be...
I stopped last night at a rest area (I drive trucks for a living). I went to sleep, got up, made coffee. Then I started to head toward my delivery and ended up going the wrong way! Yeah, my sense of direction is in question by now. Usually I have a really good sense of direction, but when I can't read the street signs cause I'm watching other cars zip in and out of lanes, it makes it hard to see them. Anyway, I went to the first stop and found out from the receiver that they didn't have the equipment to unload the unit...Bites!
The receiver ended up sending me to the actuall deliver point where they did have a crane to unload the unit I was carrying. Got rid of one. Now I have to get to my final stop before 1:00 est. I didn't make it at the time I was supposed to, but they unloaded me anyway (Nice of em). Finally got empty and now I have to sit fo

2012Happy New year my fubar family and friends! I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday and personally I am glad it is over for another 12 months! I have kept my New Year's resolution, so far and have not smoked a cigarette in 24 days I am so proud! I am also proud of my daughter who is doing very well in school academically and in orchestra and color guard.
I could be happier in my personal (love) life, I am still waiting on my husband to get a job, yeah hes been here since August and still doesnt have a job which really really SUCKS! I am getting a little tired of supporting someone who is entirely capable of supporting themselves.
I am still missing being in the south and all my family and friends down there, especially my aunt and all my favorite hang outs. This place is so small and boring I feel like I am losing my mind! There is absolutely NOTHING to do in this little bitty one horse town :(
I guess I cannot complain too much, I could still be stuck in that miserable box (motel

After All Day Thinking They Were Going To Be Here "" ! """wow, checking on my phone repair status, this is what i found on right side says this: We did not find any pending repair requests --
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First Song(verse 1)
Cocked, locked and ready to go,
the time bomb is ticking and I'm ready to explode.
Let's start a riot and give the world a show,
its pandemonium and I want the world to know.
(chorus)
Social media chaos has got me in a rage
and everyone can see me cuz I'm locked up in this cage.
As the lights go out we can now turn the page
and everyone can see me cuz I'm on center stage.
(Verse 2)
It's time to pay back and give everyone their dues,
like the ones in Iraq you don't see in the news.
The political views have got our heads in a noose,
and its time to fight back for the ones whove been used.
(Chorus 2)
Because, this Social media chaos has got me in a rage
and everyone can see me cuz I'm locked up in this cage.
As the lights go out we can now turn the page
and everyone can see me cuz I'm on center stage.
(Verse 3)
There are kids in the street with no shoes on their feet
and little Jimmy hates his dad because he got beat.
And all you hear on

Just Gonna Say This Right Nowi've changed my top fam...
the people in my tops have me in theirs...
so before you come to me with hurt feelings that i've taken you out of tops and/or out of my family completely, please spare me the bitch fit. i'm not trying to insult you, i also don't want anyone gauging our friendship based on where the fuck i have you in my list.
but if you don't have tops and i've kept you in mine for however long, then, i'm sorry but i'm doing what i want with my page and my tops.
i just know how people can be about where they sit in a list and this is my warning, bitch and be deleted and blocked completely. i don't wanna fuckin hear it cuz i sure as shit don't say a fucking word to you.
THANKS have a nice day.

Vengeance
As I lay here drifting on the waves of my dreams,drifting in that place where nothing is what it seems,where all my senses know exactly what to do,where I judge about what is false and what is true,No surprises for me here, no sudden mistakes,here it's not my heart but your heart that aches,here everything is controlled by me including you,here I call the shots, I tell YOU what to do,You've got nowhere to hide, you've got nowhere to run,let's cut the suspense, the games have begun,now YOU will learn about being afraid,the hunt has begun, you better not wait,Don't waist your time, just run for your life,Cause now it is ME who is holding the knife,I won't make your mistake, I'll finish what I start,I won't stab you in the back, but straight in the heart.lol... this is what I'd refer to as a venting poem.Directed to my ex while waiting on his sentencing, it kinda wrote itself, quite ehm.. well.. harsh and brutal. Part of a healing process I suppose.

Winter RebornAs fastas her eyelids flutter;feeling their way through the dark that surrounded the hungercaptured within his breath; travels, within the silent path of a tear cried in stolen youth,a pain as liquid as the silken touchof an unconditional loving soul.Her criesecho ache through time into a future doomed to darkness where the curves of femininity sway to the seductive soundsof a snake’s venomous hissand swirl onto the hands of greedclawing into her fleshwithin the boundariesof their own shallow minds.A sigh ruptures the heavy velvet veil that shields the disfigured view of humanityas painted by the nurturing handof the male figure"the guardian of innocence"claiming trophiesof unearthly measureswhile deep withina newborn winterhowls through the depth of soul.

Winter SolsticeIf not for that single candle;flickering as the estranged fingersof hope-filled-lifecaress and ticklein foreign affection;the days would be longand shadow traced
and so I findthe silhouette of lost soulcrouched down in the forgotten cornerattempting to blend,submergeinto memories of too long ago as the shades of daygrow older.the shadows of nightcome to hauntthe fleeting body of immortal longingcraves to grasp hold of the synergythat emerges from kindred loversas life taunts relentlesswith hints and wispsof dream fulfilled propheciesand life-vitality becomes as much a phaenomenonas the auroraafter winter solsticebut even in an ice-kissed-breathwords of passionand compassioncannot be frozento be keptand silent echoesof whispered nothingsfade into the darknessof night

And Winter Came EarlyA shiver..and words utteredrest heavily on the coolness of an unannounced breezetraveling into the very heart, lingering there on a breath held longer than a tear, traveling from the eye to the line of the jaw, would fall and shatteron the cold Formica of white sterile thoughts.and I pull backunder the weight of accusationstriggered by a simple request,leaving a trail of destructionin the slate grey skyof a winter born too soonreleasing the stingof icicle sharp memorieswith ice pick precisionstabbing not once, not twice,but three timessince, after all,three times’ a charm cold…emotions wrapped in crystal clear ribbons of glassare bound to shatteron the frost licked snowthat covers the surfaceof the otherwise clear blue pools of eyesand I shiver..a breathed plea escaping lipsforms clouds in the cool of early morning snowstormsthat haunt with relentless precisionthe depths of soulswhere the apparition of love unconditionalloses its silhouettefadesand the footprints left behi

Learning To Let GoNo matter how they try and seethe love that lives eternallybetween the lonely soul and methey never will conceiveWhen once again the night has passedand left behind the love that laststhe taste of my ongoing questfor you, my nightly thiefWho purposely invades my dreamsthe ghost of bitter memoriesyou choose to tease beyond releaseyou'll never let me goYou beg and plead relentlesslykneeled down behind your souls debrishope with your might I'd choose to seebeyond that what I knowHow could they ever understandwhen I can't even comprehendwhy I still hold on to your handand choose to let you beIn time I'll come to realizethat you were aiming to disguiseyour lack of love through heartless liesyou'll die inside of me..

Final Act ~closing SceneAs thick as the red heavy velvet,that veils the outlines of the with white marble decorated stage, was the with longing perfumed breath that lingered in the air, exhaled during the opening act, received with an ovation that still echoed in between the walls
the première where the heart laid kneeled naked with her face on the cool stones whispering utterances…singing ballads of a grandiose love…long after the in black silk and lace draped audience had abandoned their reclining black leather seats; and the 8 tier chandeliersceased to illuminate the space with their gold-flavored sheenwhere the ever relentless lashing tongue of disillusion;captured in act 3, scene 2; left behind the raw scent of crimson cried tears, desecrating the white marblewith small puddles of the; as labeled; vile red-tinted bodily fluidscarelessly tossed in the corner, the crumpled remains of a programthat once was held by a hand whose owner still believed in dreamslong before the all overruling shad

The FoolVanity was granted a part in this play‘the grand soprano of ignorance’flanked by Ego who waltzed from scene to scenedressed in bright colored grand costume
Blinded from those little messages that seemed to pop up...just every now and again... (you weren’t very consistent)not that they would notice if you were;too preoccupied with their own playThe rosy shades you supplieddissolved five minutesinto the second act.
Vanity and Ego performed ‘the’ performance of a life timenever realizing that they were leftwithout an audience.In a play called “the Fool”

Liesyour words are nothing But poisonous lies Your eloquence enraptures me Your words enthrall thy soul Frequently you poison my mind, my body And my soul. Your aura is intolerable Your presence is shameful Thou reminds me of an odious palfrey You act if you are my prodigy With thy masked removed You’re nothing but thy fool. With one hand you hold a scythe And the other sword. A sacrifice for the sinner, a deep Torturing sense of guilt. Feeling sorrow and revenge You fall from grace Depraved of soul Resistant’s is weak. My little sinister how you bring harm Evil and misfortune Sulking around the shadows Grasping your evil deeds in your hands You fall deeper and deeper Becoming translucent and undeterred You've become unearthly Thriving in sin An insatiable, unsubdued thirst for pain On the verge of death You stumble into my court. I stand and watch as you wither into agony I step down and whisper into your ear As you slowly fade "I Always Loved You".

StillI am still in love with Him My heart beats with his Every breath I breathe is his I am completely blind to others Pain his only affection That smile. His kiss, I take any pain Just to see his face And feel his hands Or his soft cold lips against mine. Watching him spill my blood Sends me into ecstasy. I'd die for him any day. Unfortunately that came He pushed to far Cut to deep His beautiful soft body came down next to mine And those lips whispered softly into my ear "I've found another".

CareI dare you to love me I dare you to care for me All I want is for you to care I dared to love I dared to care And with that you took it all I had a chance I had freedom and love It was okay until I loved you I gave you my soul and heart I told you my darkest secret You shared it with the world After all I did to you You did worse to me All I because I dared you to love Was I that bad That you had to leave Was my kiss like acid rain Or was I sweet as wine I will never know Because I dared to care.

...Play my wrist like a violin Steel kisses caress my skin Stings hit me then a wave of relief Still I run my arm underneath its teeth My best friend my stress reliever More effective than any meat cleaver No more tears stuff them deep inside Still they peep from the scars where they hide You must always smile never let it slip But when your alone you do a total flip Tears claw their way up and slide down your face Hidden emotions come out feeling out of place Soon you fall into a peaceful slumber Only to be woken by a constant number Snapped awake from the place of dreams And in a place of death and disease Each day passes still nobody knows Pure white tissues turn as red as a rose So polite so happy so normal Yet even with family I'm formal Where am I? who am I? I died years ago I created a character that who everyone knows Bright smile and expressive eyes But they don't understand that it's all lies Fire burns in my soul consuming my rage Until I can escape from my cage And that's

Ever AfterDreary smiles and anguished laughter, They try to hide the pain, Of a broken happy-ever-after, As the tears run down your drain. A cry for help is calling you, Its sobs sigh on the wind That whistles up the Avenue, To rattle your window pane. Alone you sit, battered and bruised, As you read another page, Of another broken romance book That holds you, centre stage. The spotlight is on your tears, But the audience have departed, No one's left to share the fears That leave you broken hearted. And so with melancholy in your head, You contemplate the tall grey tower, Thinking you'd be better dead, You could leap, it'd be all over. And your soul could fly with angels, Or the demons of the night. That's the alternative angle, The enigma of your plight. So where do you go tonight, As the shadows dance their merry dance, By the flickering tongue of candlelight, That holds you in its trance? You go to dream another nightmare, Of a place where heartache reigns, Where there is no happy-ever

My Music CareerHey fellow metal heads
I'm a singer song writer and ive been in contact with a major prorduction company that is helping me get my song's heard so hopefully soon i can get signed to a major record label and get my song's on the radio so plz friends keep your fingers crossed for me as i start my career thanks a lot your friend Metalheadbrian

Love Or BeautyBeauty is a mere smile. Love is a smile that warms the heart. Beauty is but skin deep, from outside-in. Love is beauty from inside-out.

FriendsFriends are friends forever together 'till the end. You promised me that you would always be my friend. One day something changed I'm not sure what it was. I lost you on that day and the reason was because it was a late dark night and we had a stupid fight. And for some reason, I don't know why, we couldn't make it right. We went our separate ways. This went on for days and days. I made new friends and you made yours, but that hole in my heart could not be filled for that hole was only yours. Times got really tough, my road of life was, oh, so rough. I needed friends, not the kind you see from day to day, but the kind that will always and forever stay Memories were all I h

Simpler And Easier Shifting In IndiaPeople move towards the new place to make their livelihood more comfortable. Moving along with the goods is really a very annoying and tedious task that makes people tensed. They get confused that how to start the shifting work to make their resettlement successful. They don’t know the exact way to finish the whole task that’s why they get puzzled in between the tedious task. There are numerous packing and moving companies working in India who makes their customer’s resettlement relaxed. They offer one of the best services for the hassle-free shifting towards the new place.
The Packers and Movers based companies have team of expert employees who complete the entire task perfectly without doing any sort of mistake. They know all the important techniques to complete the whole process perfectly. They work in a planned manner as per the needs and requirements of their customers. They do the utmost care of your belongings while doing the shifting works. They do their best

A Solution For Your Pet Boarding NeedsThere are so many companies that say they will take complete care of your pet, but it remains to be seen whether or not you can trust them to do so. So many people need to leave their pet somewhere when they go away for one reason or another and they often turn to a pet boarder to help them out. Here are some things to know about pet boarding:
1. Why should you choose pet boarding?
There are times when you as a pet owner will need to leave town for some reason, whether it be personal or business related. At such a time, you need a trustworthy person or a reliable place to leave your pet while you are away. A good pet boarding facility can actually help you a lot with this. If your pet is a young one, it may not be able to travel well. Pets tend to get tired when they travel and cranky as well when they need to adjust to a new place. Therefore, pet boarding makes the most sense.
2. Is the Internet a good place to find a pet boarder?
The answer to this question is yes. The

Married Or Not You Should Read This!!! (married Guy Speaking)MARRIED OR NOT YOU SHOULD READ THIS!!! (MARRIED GUY SPEAKING) When I got home that night... my wife was serving dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know ...what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. S

The Housesitter's SecretFor Fans of WWE
I had been house sitting for Mrs. Orton for two weeks while she and their daughter Alanna had been out of town, visiting relatives. The Orton's house was nicely decorated and everything. I took up the house sitting job while finishing up tech school for the first quarter of the year; I'm in school studying for a degree in medical billing and coding. As a house sitter, I leave notes and reminders for things like grocery lists, phone messages, and whatnot. Sometimes, Mrs. Orton would call just to see how things are going at the house.
One day, I was in the living room, studying with my textbooks and notes because I have a test for both medical terminology and career development classes. Gradewise, I've been getting A's and B's in both classes, even passed tests. I go to school four days a week, career development on Mondays and Wednesdays, and medical terminology on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I'm off on weekends, mostly Fridays. I still work at a movie theatre at box

Bbw Loveryes my big girl lover
I know you are shy
reluctant to undress
in front of my
hungry eyes and
lustful tongue;
please don't be
ashamed of your size;
your size to me is a plus;
I love your round,
firm and fully packed hips
and sexy butt...wow!
Those giant melons that
require extra space are
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I can't wait to suck on
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spread your big oak thighs
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let me search in your silk
forest for the your hungry pussy
and take you on a trip that
only big women can take:
B-I-G stands for:
B-eautiful
I-nticing
G-oddess
who has forgotten more about
pleasuring than most will ever know.

Horny DevilJust because I like to spank
or my cock that I yank
You call me a Horny Devil?
Just because I've looked at porn
you narrow your eyes and scorn
and call me a Horny Devil?
Well just remember this my dear
you get horny when you drink beer
then who's the Horny Devil?
Do you recall the pool table balls
and the things we did along the wall?
We were definetly Horny Devils.
I can't help that I get turned on
by the sight of a woman in a thong.
I turn into a Horny Devil
Something is to be said
about a woman in red
is she a Horny Devil?
Watching you suck my cock
Your in that lingerie that I bought
I'm a Happy Horny Devil
I have a cock that likes to rise
I guess I proclaim my demise
I am a Horny Devil

I Know NowI'm wishing on a star in the sky
To light up your face
I'm writing a song to sing-
Something to brighthen your day.
I tried to kiss you last night
Under the oak tree where we first met
But you pushed me away
And told me goodnight.
Now I know the reason:
I can't make you to love me-
Thought I wish I could try,
I could wait till morning
But I'd rather sing you a lullaby tonight.
Darling, you are my air
My sun in the sky.
You are my warmth from my pain-
Without you I can't stand the rain
But you ran away from me
And I asked myself why
I know I hurt you then
But now I know why:
That I can't make you to love me
But I can't hide this pain
This room is all but empty
Still I'd rather sit out in the rain.

UntitledLet's start a fire and watch everything burn,shadow this world with flames of desire.Words of wisdom adding fuel to the fire, I close my eyes as the flames grow higher.Let's start a fire and dance in the flame,let it burn until the world is free of pain.Then let the rain come down and wash awayall the glory, the glam, the fame.Let's start a fire.

Everlasting Loveyour hair flows like a summer's breeze
your beauty brings men to their knees
your voice captures my heart with ease
eyes glisten like the moon over the seas
and tho i know im not easy to please
still you stand right there beside me
trials and tribulations seem like a daily thing
some days it seems like we're always fighting
but one day soon you're gonna wear that ring
because our love is truely everlasting

Eros Day Xiii: A Squirting Rap-happy Sex Marathon!Celebrating Eros Day XIII with Lyla Storm (Venus), Jeremy Conway (Eros), Lil Uno of The Pack, Tasia Sutor & GoldiLoxxx. Photo: Mad Passion
Length: 02:22:53 Date: 01/22/2012
It’s Eros Day, which means the stars and the gods are aligned in celebration of sex, as this day marks the annual entry of the penile-shaped and boulder-balled planetoid, appropriately named EROS-433, into Earth’s orbit—and of course, the Womb Room. I thought that since our 13th annual Eros Day celebration happened to fall on the same day as the AVN Awards, it wouldn’t be so hot. Oh Eros, was I wrong about that, as Eros Day XIII turns out to be one of our hottest, juiciest Eros Days in history, featuring an extraordinary multi-orgasmic, multi-squirting, mattress-bouncing, mama-loving, truly Olympian, non-stop sex performance from real-life married couple Jeremy Conway and Lyla Storm as divine lovers Eros and Venus, climaxing with a sizzling concert by Lil Uno of The Pack accomp

PoemI never want to be A humming bird In a garden of roses I never want to be A singing bee In a garden of apple trees I never want to be A lonely sparrow In a golden luxury cage I never want to be A mighty eagle Flying in the sunny sky I never want to be A drop of silver tears Falling from your angel eyes I only want to be A golden memory And stay always in your mind

I Am Who I AmI am who I am. I am a Full Figured female with some dangerous curves & so who friggin cares. My body not yours, so stop judging. Just because I am a different size than you does not make me any less of a person. It does not make me unworthy of your time, only an individuals closed minded preferences make those types of horrid choices.
I am a parent, I try my best w/o the instructions manual. I just hope I don't screw them up so bad they have to have 55min shrink time a week once they leave the house.
I am a wife & lover, both requireing patients & managerial skill sets that occasionally pay off w/ beneficial perks.
I have unconditional love for all my friends & family.
I am bi-polar & I embrace all that entails because it is a part of me, the good & the bad. I never had a choice, I was born this way. As well as many other medical malfunctions I have been plagued with. I have degenerative disk disease,
costochondritis, bi-lateral tendonitus in both hands and wrists, suffer from

PainWe can never understand another's pain unless we ourselves have experienced the same exact same type. There is a difference though, everyone's mental anguish is uniquely their own. No one can ever know what someone else goes through in their own head. The torture of coping & over coming if they can, to reach for that small strand of their old selves. Remember to smile because that may be all someone else needs to regain themselves.

Thought This Was Cute~ ♥ ~ Sometimes, there might be a second chance.Cause maybe time wasn't ready for the first one ~ ♥ ~

Tonight 1/23/12 Well Here`s My Good Luck, First Show I See Is This, To Make Me Feel Even Worse,copy`d from my my yearbook,
well here`s my good luck, first show i see is this, to make me feel even worse, i`m not going on nice dates like they are "" http://abc.go.com/shows/the-bachelor small clip if it adds to my what ever i want thing on my page.
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I`m talking about them taking you to nice places to see and do nice things together.
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Yes, I understand..I was taught to set them up for sucess and give hints. Maybe that would help

WasteSo dark, pitch, impossible to see forward
Or back, in perdition eternal
You ’ve left me, discarded and broken
And scarred beyond the pale, internal
Life continues, so hollow and vain
Void of inspiration, zest
Everywhere I look, all I see is pain
Can’t even decide what path is best
Foolish it may be , never learned
Try to push away or somewhere
Into the void, anywhere but here
Disguise the reality so nobody will care

Broken HeartI waited for you I waited so longThought you'd be back Can't take anymore I waited for you I waited so long Trust your words you say All the lies I can't take no more..How can you break my heart once again. I waited and I'm still left here with a broken heart. I guess my heart meant nothing to you. I was just another heart to break.

At Journal 2011 (9)14 mile day set up camp at campsite right after fording south branch carrabassett river which is the third river I had to ford in Maine. Rule for fording rivers: face into the current and lean forward. Saw two full grown moose today ran across trail about 50 ft. in front of me. Finished the book “the deceived” starting the book “bitten”. The deceived was a good crime fiction novel it kept me interested unlike the Koran which was a complete bore. Get this 2000’ climb done with today and then call it a day at horns pond lean-tos yes to’s there are two of them. Oh and the 2000’ climb is only 3 mile climb. I forgot to mention the privy at piazza rock lean-to is a dual privy with a cribbage board in the middle. Passed the 2000 mile mark today YAY!!!!!! Set up camp at little bigelow lean-to. From the elevation chart *GASP* the at appears to be shall I say is flat or shall I say at flat. For 15 miles *GASP*. I have hit the 2000 mile mark thr

At Journal 2011 (8)Made it two the fire wardens cabin which was one hell of a climb. Way past bumfuck and the back 40 wasn’t even on the map anymore. Went from 880’ 3,230’ in 4 miles. A couple of girls showed up and gave me a brand new package of like 12 flour tortillas, new package of 4 pita bread the flat circular kind and a nice big bag of trail mix that has Oreos, goldfish, pretzels, raisins, cheerios, and some other stuff in it. Got the cabin all to myself tonight J J. No one wants to spend the night with me which is a blessing sometimes J J. Only 400 miles to go. Just think if I do 100 miles every 3 days I will be done in 12 days J J. That is not going to happen but it’s a thought. It is beautiful up here in new Hampshire. The views and scenery is fucking AWESOME. It makes all the effort worth it. I know I have done a lot of bitching and moaning in here but most of that was from all the climbing I believe. Take away all the climbing and it is AWESOME. But then ag

At Journal 2011 (7)journal
digital camera, batteries, memory card
deodorant, shampoo
pack repair, tent repair, sleeping pad repair
pillow
butt paper
¼” rope
matches,lighters,magnesium strip
camp dry
iodine tablets
trekker socks- 2 pair
crocs
trash bag
Ziploc bags various sizes
food bag
shorts, pants, ls and ss shirt, stocking cap, hat, jacket, gloves,
3l hydration bladder
birch bark
pens
ankle gators
zip strips
k0bar knife
tyvek ground cover.
Rain delay again today. It smelled and felt like rain all morning and finally my Achilles heel got sore enough I was limping so I set up camp and now it is raining. Was it a sign?? My Achilles heel acting up and making me stop?? Maybe. But I am sitting the rest of the day out and read more of the adventures of huckleberry Finn and follow his adventures while mine are put on hold. Yet another rain delay. At least I will get to finish

At Journal 2011 (6)Peregrine caught up with me at rph shelter yesterday as well. His test results came back negative for lyme disease which is good news. Met someone at rph shelter that is more frugal then I am on the trail. Says he spent $300 total on all his mail drops and basically doing what I am no hostels,restuarants,hotels etc. Heard a new term yesterday as well. Trail Tragic. When you come across a cooler full of nothing but empty soda cans and candy wrappers. I hate trail tragic. I have came across a few of those myself. About 17 miles to the connecticunt-jew york border. They are saying which by looking at the data book seems to be true it is going to get harder and harder to resupply at a grocery store. Seems the trend is going to continue from here to Katahdin of convience stores and gas stations for resupply. UG UG UG UG :( :( :( :(. I don't want to be stuck spending $20-$30 for a 2-3 day resupply every convience store or gas station. Sure the people at the convience store or gas s

At Journal 2011 (5)Then my tent pole snapped again this morning had to fix that. Walk about 1 1/2 mile round trip to delps spring to find it dry as a bone and it rained last night. Bonus miles I will have done when I get to Maine: 200. With water sources 1/2 mile from trail, town for resupply, and me just being a plain dumbass and losing the AT a gazillion times. All which are not counted nor is the 8.8 mile access trail to Springer Mtn. Everything is getting tore up on the trail. 1. Vestibule zipper went out. 2. Tent poles snaps 3 times. 3. Shoulder straps on pack break. 4. Brand new pair of boots I got right before pa are basically wasted on one state. 5. zipper on sleeping bag compartment broke. 6. Headlight doesn't work anymore. As far as me goes everything seems to be working as of now. No bruised muscles or anything just the sore feet from walking on rocks all the time and sore shoulders from wearing my pack all the time. Everyday I wake up thinking ok this is what I am going to do today but

At Journal 2011 (4)Hopefully they hold. Got some new rice sides in Front Royal. Buffalo Chicken, Baby Back BBQ, Steak Fajitas. About 17 miles to Blackburn Trail center probably end up there tomorrow I hear it is worth a visit. So I am going to check it out. Maybe they have free tent and or pack repair definitely take advantage of that if so or maybe Harpers' Ferry has something like that. Just have to check it out and see. More roller coaster again tomorrow YAY ahhhh it is so much fun here in PARADISE. Took a ride on what they called the roller coaster but wasn't today. Took a break at Sam Moore Shelter. It was clear and sunny. Got about 1/2 miles from Sam Moore Shelter before I could get my tent set up it just down poured on me. The trail got flooded tent has a HUGE PUDDLE of water in the corner. Everything is soaked except for what is in my pack. It dumped several inches of rain in mere minutes. It is late in the day the rain is over and I'm a dumbass cause I should have just kept going

At Journal 2011 (3)Lost the trail on Dragons tooth went 1/4 mile straight down mtn no white blazes so climbed back up oh did I tell you it started raining as well so now everything is slick. Found the trail again yeah it went down a sheer rock cliff. They had a few foot steps on the side of some rocks. I came close to visiting Valhalla today as well. I took a tumble down the cliffs. Wish they would have said something about rock climbing gear. Cause that just stupid climbing down a sheer cliff in the rain with a loaded pack and no climbing gear. Surprised I didn't break something or get severely injured. I am definitely going to put some rock climbing gear in my pack next trip. That was just plain stupid. It was not crazy, not insane, just stupid climbing down dragons tooth with no hooks or anything in the rain. Did I mention how stupid that was? Set up camp in the rain. It was a FUNDAY IN PARADISE. I have my sleeping pad, sleeping bag, tent on the outside front of my pack and when I went down

At Journal 2011 (2)Sign said Clyde Smith Shelter 3.3 miles N. 3.3 miles my ASS. Don't know where they get their mileage from but it has been screwed up since Springer. People say it is the pack weight but I disagree. It is the 45 degree up climb on a mtn for several thousand feet that is the problem. I can carry my pack all day long if I am not going up and down mtns. all the time. Even without my pack I get winded climbing up a mtn. after getting water from a spring. Oh well just slam some more honey or a couple of snickers and go back at it. Tomorrow is another day another couple of mtns to climb. It is just another day in PARADISE. Holy Fucking wind today, climbing open pasture mtns. today winds had to be about 50 mph coming in from the side had to hold my hat the whole time. I took a break behind some rocks to get out of the wind. Found an army ammunition box for a m-13. Full of mostly crap but did have some bounty to go and a 3x5 memo book that I took. A big storm is rolling in tonight. I

Heart IssuesI just want 2 get this out there so everyone knows what is going on with me! I have had a few health problems 4 a while now but don't really talk about them! I think now it is time 2!
I have really high blood pressure...like heart attack stage! They have changed my meds a bunch of times & nothing is really working! I go 1/24/2012 to have an ultrasound done of my heart & lungs! They r also putting a Holter Monitor on my heart for 24 hours! On 1/25/2012 I am going 2 have the monitor taken off & have a chest x-ray done! I went 2 the doctor on 1/16/2012 & they did an EKG cause my blood pressure was 215/120! My EKG came back abnormal! That is y they r running all these tests on me! They r trying 2 figure out what is wrong with my heart! I really hope it is nothing 2 bad & something that can be fixed easy! I will update as I know more & can!
Thanks,
Chris =)
1-24-2012
I went 2 the hospital 2day & had my ultrasound done on my heart & had my Holter Monitor put on! I go back 2 the h

At Journal 2011I got off the bus in Gainesville GA. It was raining. Walked to the city park and camped out in the backwoods near the lake. The next day it rained till about noon. Then I packed up camp and started towards Amicoala State Park. I kept running into dead ends trying to get across the lake. Stopped at a gas station and grabbed a soda and this guy in a truck pulled up and asks me where I am headed too. I tell him I am headed to Amicoala State park but can't seem to get passed this lake. He says well I can give you a ride up to hwy 400 which will get you passed the lake. I said that would be much appreciated. He dropped me off at a gas station on hwy 400. By then it was getting late about 4 or 5 pm. So I went across hwy 400 into some wooded area and set up camp for the night. I got up the next morning packed up camp and headed down hwy 400. A guy pulls up and gives me a ride a couple of miles down hwy 400. I continue walking. After awhile I decide to sit down and take a br

I Waited For YouHold the lineNever retreat and never breakI've triedBut I'm addicted I can't lie Another step is in my sightAnother step I'll see the lightI waited for youI waited so longThought you'd be backCan't take anymoreI waited for youI waited so longI'm not coming homeTrust your wordsTell me your emptyCause you know it hurtsHer eyes were spillingI was realHave I not held back the fightMy body racing out tonightI waited for youI waited so longThought you'd be backCan't take anymoreI waited for youI waited so longI'm not coming homeFeel all aloneTake It SlowYou Tell Me SweetieRest Here With MeDon't MoveI'll Fight BackYou Won't Expect ItNow I Have To Leave YouI waited for you I waited so long (I waited so long for you)Thought you'd be back (You promised me the world when you returned)Can't take anymore(You're gonna come back empty handed)I waited for you(You think I'll be waiting for you)I waited so long(You better think again)I'm not coming home(You'd better wake up)Feel all alone(Cause You Know

Me Eitherever been loved by someone who couldnt go a day without say hi..or hearing ur voice...letting the world know there in love and dont care who hates it..loved by someone so much they would do anything to be with you?---- me either
You know i may ask to see you every once in awhile but i don't ask you to buy me gifts. I'm simple...all i want is you!
:( I just want you to want me as much as I want you. To love me as much as I love you. To miss me as much as I miss you. To need me as much as I need you ):

My DelightIf your walls could speak,Would they talk about usAnd the things that we’ve done,As silently they witnessed?Would they tell of how you would anxiously shove meFace up against them, as soon as I’d step through your door,Your left hand holding my neck firmly, the right dropping my defenses to my ankles,Fingers exploring, soaking in my delight?Would they express how you made me writhe and squirm,And burn with an uncontrollable desire;How I would moan for you to go deep inside,My swelling lips begging to be hushed?Would they disclose how you forced me to the floor,Down on all fours,As I whimpered,Like a dog, begging to be played with some more?Or tell how I pleaded with you,To drive in from behind,As they watched without a sound,Us imitating two animals in a mating ritual?Would they voice how you raised me from the ground,Thighs straddling your waist,As you slipped inside, legs wrapped around,For a ride to your bedroom,Leaving them to wonder what came next?

Absence Makes The Orgasms Stronger“If there is anything you need, don’t hesitate to phone room service, Sir” said the hotel concierge, as he handed Jake a key card. The couple excitedly stepped into the glass lift, hearts pounding, Jake’s cock visible through his shorts and Lucy’s pants dampening with every second. Jake called for floor 15 and pushed her up against the glass wall as the views of Paris became smaller in their ascent. The couple opened the hotel door. It was 3pm, they had the hotel until noon the next day. With the first glance around the suite, they knew this would be the hottest 21 hours of their lives. Black marble flooring ran throughout the bathroom and into the shower room. Huge mirrored walls above a his and hers sink bounced their grinning faces in every direction. They moved through the sliding door into the bedroom. A luscious velvet headboard towered the king size bed, floor to ceiling windows gave the most perfect view over Paris. Lucy was stunned, she had never

Getting To Grips With Me“No thanks, am not really into getting my Chakra’s aligned, I have just recently relocated my ovaries thanks” I said to the hippy looking woman who boldly sported a shock of white hair.
She was younger than me but was brave enough to resist Wella number 5 hair dye, am just not ready to ‘come out as grey’ some women can carry it off and their families accept them being grey, not for me, am staying in the Wella number 5 closet.
I don’t look sexy and natural with grey locks; I look like I might milk goats & live in a static caravan site or have walked off the set of a Dickens show set in Newgate prison and am the old woman with two days to live.
This hippy grey haired woman Desdemona (I swear that’s her name or she changed it on Twitter or something similar) met me in a cafe and immediately decided I needed her help getting my aura and chakras sorted out. I really needed a cup of strong tea and a bacon roll.
“Do you have head

Catch UpThings are not good, momma has decided after talking to the drs that she will no longer pursue treatment; she was told that it would not decrease the tumor size, only keep it from getting bigger. She is losing her memory, not eating well and staying sick alot. Its really hard to see her deteriorating this way. She continues to be in good spirits though and wants to do as much for herself as possible.
The stress is monumental but we are all just taking things a day at a time...

I Never Knewcrouching behind this tear stained face. i hide myself from reality. hoping to never be exposed to what lies deep within. my body quakes, sensations i never knew existed. wandering through the mist of my memories, blood coursing through my veins turns to acid. scorching my soul. i crumble. falling to my knees in this weakened state. i never knew. i couldnt begin to fathom. i am alone. my inner demons beckon to me, darkness closing in. my heart ceases to beat. i am left as the green eyed shell of what i once was

Wanderi woke up feeling nothing. i sat up. and still lost in oblivion. my feet touched the floor, and i felt as though i was falling. lost in my own thoughts. wandering this nightmare, searching. but always comming up empty handed. my body aches. but still i ignore the pain. pushing forward, i am blind. sightless to the world. an invisible stranger, unknown my fate. whispered pleas, begging. my blood becomes cement. i am suffocating on my own sorrow, cursed with this sadness. i still wander. casting no reflection. for fear of what i've become.

Little Jennifernot knowing how to start this letter; i sit alone in the dark surrounded by candle light. chasing away the looming shadows of my past. i know that you are tucked away, kept under lock and key my little one. i can hear you whimper. cries of pain bellow from deep inside. years of torment and being abandoned has left you callous and bitter towards the outside world. the hand that life has dealt left us molded into our worst nightmare. i see you now recoiling in fear. disgust plain on your round face. watching the light catch on the tears falling from your eyes. i feel you begin to point the finger, you are pointing it at yourself. so sad now. you walk through this life invisible. a tortured soul never finding rest. yearning for love, to be accepted. eventaully self loathing becomes your only comfort. it keeps you warm at night. i wish i could wrap my arms around you, softly stroking your hair and tell you everything will be alright. but i cant, because that little girl is me. she is the o

Automatic WritingLet's do some automatic writing, click to begin exercise... Death. Something I had obsessed over for quite sometime. Blood, something I constantly crave, be it my own or someone else's. Animalistic urges that build and build inside of me. I am a cup quivering on the edge of my sanity. I have this seething pit of rage, something that I hide really well. It scares me. I am a monster. Mutated through out the years. A flesh eating contagion, Masked behind a pretty face. I am feral, rabid beast. Pet me right and i shall purrr for you.. I fear myself. There are a million aspects to my personality. Its hard to bring them all to light. Close your eyes and you shall see. I am being followed. A black mass that eats the darkness around it. Something sinister. It beckons me. Whispering in my ear, calling my name. Jennifer... Jennifer, come home. My hair stands on end, my heart skips a few beats. Its always been with me. I've opened a door that cannot be shut. Being chased down dark corridors. I sh

Betatox.It's a fucking wonder.
The estrogenic beseechment of the bemusing astrogens.
I lied when I said you weren't palpable.
Do you stretch to such bonds as bwilderment?
Frigsmede and palimar.
Studiousness and belixtiousness.
It's a doubt and a wonder.
Is the frogsmede gandering?
Is the gallaspidonian palimatrix frailstede?
Puckerishing.
A fucking wonder. That's what you should call it.
Let's give it space, then.
To what do I owe the honor?
Pardon? An honor is a basis.
Oh my, obligatory?
Hu?
Do you like it?
I fancy any aptitude amongst pleasure for the sake of pleasure, that's right.
Why?
I have no sanctity beyond the love of others.
You're a robot then.
It's children?
Yeah.
You're a robot still.
Oh, excuse me. Do you bleed?
Black, now.
Why?
Besunk.
---Initiative Line: Action: Bestow Combat Variabalistics---
HAHA, caught you.
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Overages.
Yeah, let it breathe.
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Cooling Semiconductors With Lazors!source: http://www.electronicsnews.com.au/news/cooling-semiconductors-with-lasers
RESEARCHERS at the Niels Bohr Institute have found a new way of laser cooling semiconductor membranes. Paradoxically, the new method of cooling involves heating the semiconductor material, but the researcher managed to cool the membrane to -269 degrees Celsius. The results are published in the scientific journal, Nature Physics. The specific type of membrane the researchers worked with is a photonic crystal membrane made of gallium arsenide (GaAs). However, they had to fabricate one with specific dimensions to work with the experiement. The researchers produced a membrane with a thickness of 160nm and a surface area of 1 x 1mm. They then allowed the membrane to interact with the laser light within a vacuum chamber in such a way that its mechanical movements affected the light that hit it. When the laser light hits the semiconductor membrane, some of the light is reflected and the light is

Trinket Box - Celebrating A Special Occasion –This is the best gift you could give someone on their marriage. You know that the bride is going to receive many jewelry and other related products on the wedding. So what could be better than a gift such as the trinket box which is going to help her take care of all her jewelry And while you are at it, why don’t you get a really fancy box that is both practical and looks lovely. They have been using this for over hundred years and this is the reason why many people find this to be a wonderful piece of jewelry that is going to help them take care of storing their stuff.
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Til The Endmy words are heard, but seldom heeded
i put the pen to the paper, but will you read it
and what difference will it make
how long will it take
for the random thoughts to leave your mind
for you to know the facts and still be blind
for you to see the truth right before your eyes
and still act as if its a huge surprise
i do my best, to educate yall
not my fault when you do fall
but still right there i will be
helping hand to raise you from your knees
back never turns on a true fuckin friend
just know that i'll be there until the end!!!

The Tales Of Ezra Cold I In Progress I hadn't imagined the day was one of any given exceptionality. In fact I had simply decided to go out for a couple drinks. The bar was a cheap sleezy pool hall with a known reputation of unpleasantness. The first step through the door was like walking into a room just after a badly financed porn shoot. Sweat, beer and the simple yet pungant oders that screamed "get out if you don't want syphalis" perverted the air around me. I remember smiling the second I walked in. I was alone and the band playing was one featuring a former Ms. Teen New Jersey who was blatantly lied to in terms of her ability to sing in a heavy metal band. This was clearly a place for fallen dreams and those who cut their feet walking on the shattered remnants.

Stab Me In The FaceStab me in the face so I forget how badly my thighs and shoulders hurt...please and ty!

Because I'm BoredThere's a peculiar quietness tonight
the internet is dead
hardly anyone on fubar
no facebook status updates
no text messages
and not a single car has driven past my house in hours
I know everyone's probably somehwere watching the game or something
but sometimes on nights like this I start to think that the rapture happened and Im still here..
but that wouldn't explain why fubar is dead.
so zombie apocalypse ftw!

NeedI need to walk away,I need to get out,I need to learn my lesson.I walked away once,But I came right back,Back to the emptiness,Back to the loneliness.I have to learn my lesson,You aren't going to love me,Love me the way I love you.Please try to help me,Tell me walking away is for the best.Tell me getting out will hurt less,Hurt less then it does to stay.Becasue staying is killing me,And that is why I need to walk away,Why I need to get out,And most of all why I need to learn my lesson.

Military FriendsOTHER FRIENDS: Never ask for foodMILITARY FRIENDS: Are the reason you have no food.OTHER FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs.MILITARY FRIENDS: Call your parents mom and dad.OTHER FRIENDS: Bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.MILITARY FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you saying, "Damn...we fucked up...but that shit was fun!"OTHER FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.MILITARY FRIENDS: Cry with you.OTHER FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.MILITARY FRIENDS: Keep your stuff so long they forget it's yours.OTHER FRIENDS: know a few things about you.MILITARY FRIENDS: Could write a book with direct quotes from you.OTHER FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that's what the crowd is doing.MILITARY FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.OTHER FRIENDS: Would knock on your door.MILITARY FRIENDS: Walk right in and say, "I'm home!"OTHER FRIENDS: Are for a while.MILITARY FRIENDS: Are for life.OTHER FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they thi

Hear MeI hear my heart cry
For once I love someone so much
That time apart is hard
It turns me inside
Everyday we are apart
The will to go on is with her
The will to be strong is whats growing in side of her
Honor is what is serve everyday
For she is the one that loves me
Deep inside I feel her pain
I work hard everyday
With a picture of us in my pocket
To take it out only to see her for a moment
Then I place it back till I need to see her again
She is what holds me together all of the time
Brings me to tear's when we are to far apart
There is nothing I want more
Then to wake by her side once more
She is there for me when I need her to be
For she is the life's blood inside this hard soul

Everyday Your Not HereI wake from a dream
Only to not be able to tell you
It was a good one babe
But you won't know because I can't share it
Life is sad because you not here
Time is odd without you to hold
I want to walk the earth & show you the world
But the fear is in you that it's not safe
Fly with me and your always safe
family will understand & be happy
The world is on hold till you return
To where your ment to be
Every morning when I wake I am weak
Everyday I spend without you I Stumble
Every minute without you seems to long
You are my world and I love every minute

Leaving A Man BehindNothing is harder then to let a brother go
He is always in your heart
You try to go back for him to bring him home
But nothing you do can find the Brother
He has left with no lines to catch
He sacrifice himself for the greater good
He left to keep you safe
Nothing you could say would ever change his mind
For he is a brother that gave you what he could
There was nothing he wanted more
Then for you to remember
The line he walked to keep you on top
Peace my brother for you are in my heart
Walk safe through this life
Find the road less traveled
For that is your road to walk your friends are there

Always FaithfulOh As I Walk Through The Valley Of The Sadow Of Death I Fear No Evil. For Evil Is All I Know There Has Been Not One Time I Have Not Felt Like Death Isn't Near. There Has Not Been One Man That Has Not Challenged Me. For They All Have Fallen Before Me & I Have Taken That In Witch They Hold Most. There Comes A Time Where We All Defend Our Pride To The Death. Well Most Take That Lightly But With A Marines Heart There Is Honor In My Life. For That Will Not Be Taken From Me. There Is More To Me Then People Care To Know. I Washed My Hands Of The Past For It Was Killing Me Inside. I Look To The Future Now With A Brighter Look On Life For This Man Has Nothing To Prove To Anyone. Take For Who I Am or Take Nothing At All. There Where Many Before You To Try And Condem Me but I Walked Through Them.
Where We Go From Here Is In Your Hands Not Mine. Walk Softly Around Me You Might Stand A Chance. You Might Get To Say You Know Me And Understand Me. But Do Not Think For One Second That Yo

He Isn't Heavy .. He's My BrotherThere I stand alone in the darkWorried I might not make it homeFrom the corner I see the shadow of someoneSomeone that might take me homeAs he draws near I can see a little moreA friendly face I think to myselfMight be here to guide me back homeNothing is running through my body but fearHe continues to come closer He is what most fear He is a brother that never gives up A true friend with love tracin through his veinsTo come back is only in honor To take you back home is the prayerHe hears from miles away Nothing will stop him from getting thereHe will take bullets to get you homeHe will stand beside you in the biggest fire fightHe will lay it all on the line Just to be the brother next to youIn the end you would ask why he came backIn his heart he knows that you would if it was himTo stand beside each other through hellAnd to tell him to go first through the gates of heavenTo you I say this: My BrotherMy FriendYour in my heart till the end

StrongThere is a place and time
Sitting down tracing and placing
What all went wrong
Time can heal more then you know
Sitting down hoping that it is easier
Then the last time I had to be strong
Closing my eyes thinking of the beautiful times
In your arms thinking about the future
Lighting a candle for our love
In the eye of the man above
Writing this in the sand
Knowing that by night it will all be gone
Dreams are there ones that make me smile
My heart dances with you in those times
Taking your hand in mine
Walking through the sands of time
With every footprint we leave
There will always be another
One step at a time
For the rest come in time
Follow me and we are free
Stand together where we are forever
In this light never to be dark
In each others love where its bright
Come with me follow it through
Time will be the witness
To what we hold so true
Open my eyes for its you here next to me
Love Always
SierraSix

A MessAs I walk this earth alone I stare at the stars
Only to see that they are not looking back
Harder to know what is out there
When life has no answers
There tends to be a break
When life hands you a love
But only to have it ripped away
To fear the next is what you do next
Not knowing, Unsure Miss-believing
In what was there is not no more
Thoughts run through your head
But none will let you sleep at night
Love was there but not able to be found
Ripped from your soul
Trashed in a heartbeat
Life can be so hard sometimes
Why carry on if there is no meaning
Love that once was will never be again
Sitting in a dark corner
Afraid of what is out there

Old SoulSitting waiting that something will come out
Time runs short for this old man
Thoughts and prayers are no longer there
Falling fast with nothing to stop me
Wondering if there is an end somewhere
Nothing from the truth is what I need
Watching others grow together
As I fall apart
Waiting is the death of this old soul
Trying to keep it going is hard
Looking to someone to pick me up
But yet no one cares to come back for me
Life is starting to fade to black
Just as my sight of life was snuffed out
There tends to be one that can give it back
But nothing will come from that
Wishing that life goes by fast
Only till another person can save this soul
From the time I hit bottom
Leaning on this tree it's starting to lean too
Fading faster can't call out fast enough
Closing my eyes waiting
Feeling nothing but a black heart
Care to change that I ask

Speak Those Words To Save MeSitting here alone thinking why you are gone
There comes times that I wish I would have done more
Thinking about what is and what was is hard
Just wanting to hear your voice
Just wanting to hear you speak those words
That I long to hear
Speak to my heart with them
To ease my mind of the hardship that follows
Wanting and waiting for the time to pass
Wanting you to have a great time
The path is not clear but I know you will walk it
Trying to stay in your life is hard
Trying to hide from a person that your hold
That is always something that can never be easy
Wanting to tell you what's in my heart
Only to remember that it will cause more heartache
Sitting here watching people pass by
Watching as they kiss and hug
Wondering why that is not us no more
Pass the time by thinking of something else
Can't think straight because of memories that I have
Of being with someone like you
Your on my mind all the time but knowing that it will never be
Tracing t

Distan Memory...A distant memory I have of us
Wanting the best for you not sounding like I do
But deep inside I do want it to be true
Thoughts of a memory pick's me up
Thoughts of a distant man I was
Not wanting for it to be true
I can see where I will no longer be
Where I always though I would be
Can't think about what was or what it could've been
There is history there not for me to impede on
You're on your way to a better world
I wish you luck in the journey to come
Wishing and hoping that it's what you want
Not knowing if it's all it can be
Wanting you to hold in there was the only way
Walk that road because that is where you were meant to be
A quick shadow of the former man I was
Looking the outside in now from a back row
Not taking the whole picture in
All I can be is a friend to thee

Dream Of It ....I wake from a bad night
Only to see that the dream was true
Alone in this bed and short in life
Come to wake with nothing to show
Your not here to talk to and to far to call
Nothing but to hold on the thoughts
Running from what once was
Tripped up by the thought of what is
Face to face short of breath
With the world hot on my heels
Come to rest for the time
But watch because it's fast approaching
Life seems slow but time speeds by
Watching as life tries to catch up
But time is to fast make a mistake and it's gone
Rest and sure for it's what can't be returned
Hold on to what you have in this time
For once its gone there is no time to get it back
Sure enough it's long pass due
Step to the window the reaper is waiting for you

Written In StoneWritten in stone what it has told me
Short and sweet reminds me
Of a time that will be at some point
There it was written in stone
She walks up behind me and whispers that she misses me
Only thoughts of the day are of the voice that touched me
Wondering if I turn to see, if she is there for me
Hoping that it's not a dream
Hearing your sweet voice slows the world down
Gathering thoughts and a new line of sight
You have become my eyes and my ears
For the only thought is you now
Resting at night brings great comfort
Able to close these heavy eyes
To dream a good dream
They are all thanks to you My Love
You are, what is written in stone
Everything strong, Everything proud
That is what you are to me
Complete happiness

UntitledAs I look past the beauty of you
I cant help but stare into your soul
Your eyes open the gates to your soul
Your mind talks the words of your heart
Nothing in the room that I can hear but you
Surrounded by your mind, body & soul
Heaven has only a glimpse of you
As you are the angel they are missing
All I ever need is you
To ease my mind and soul
Trusted in every way possible
There is nothing that I ever wanted more
Try to hold myself back and hold on for the best ride
This life got a lot better when you came into it
There is a brighter light for me to walk to
A better way of thinking that you bring
You help in everyway that my mind can't work in
You changed my soul from cold to warm
Heated my heart back to the place it needs to be
You wrote a passage on my heart
Within me I can see what I have become
A lost soul turned into a home for you
To call safe and to warm up too
Everyday you come home to me
Your all I need that is the fact
Without yo

Wounds On The Heart.. The wounds on the heart can't be seen.
The Pain given by your loved one's can't be alleviated.
I have lost myself.Since the time I 've lost you.
Lost and forgotten memories fill my heart.
-Spanishfly

WftI run from an emotionThat has brought me backBad memories of the pastDrowning in what was goneNow resurfaced to destroyThe better part of meBecoming what was pastedStarting overJust want to be meNot walking on egg-shellsCaring a bad dreamWanting faith and love
Not wanting bad memories
Not wanting to dream
Not wanting to close my eyes
Wanting to pass it all by

Love Is FaithLove Is FaithWhen your in a dark spot Love will set you freeTime is nothing when you love someoneTreat one with respect and love For you are what they wanted in life Come walk the truth in Love Jump the line and see the one you care about
Travel to the one you need
Let it all ride on faith
Like a ride at a carnival
Scream, yell and complain
For the one you lay next too is there
Check every morning for life you will miss
Take their hand and follow them past point break
Life will miss you if your gone from them
Write your life with them in stone
For that stone will stay for as long as the weather holds
Take the stone and show it to everyone
It will be the best that everyone can see and read
They will be in love with your love to the other and see it works