im not sure what to say to my nurse. we meet every week to talk about how my mental health is! i just had my first psychosis episode this year and had to be hospitilised for three months. Since ive came home im still experiencing audio hallucinations as well as visual, i have very aggressive thoughts of which i would never repeat and great feelings of dread and fear but every time i see my nurse i tell her things are ok! i dont know how to tell her these things on 1 side i think she should know and on the other i get paranoid she will tell other ppl. ppl i believe r watching me!

I'm sorry you're having so much trouble. My first psychotic episode was terrifying and I'm hoping you're getting the support you need.

I too used to have a hard time talking to my p doc. Looking back I think he knew I was having trouble, but I never opened up in those days. It seemed like so much work and so painful to say anything. Physcialy painful. Just tell her you're unable to talk. I know you're scared. I wish I could offer more help. Just keep posting, I think you'll get the help you need. BTW, I'm new here too and am trying to find my way around. AmVan