(I haven't been to NM in many years. I could travel but with real effort and my teacher would have to drive many miles to take me to dialysis if I were to visit her. The last trip I made was to visit my son in New Jersey)

otherwise i am on hiatus...
i feel so ungrounded...like I'm floating away from normallacy...it takes a lot of effort to do what's expected of me...as i just don't want to co-operate anymore....so tired of the rat race..expectations....time...
i know.....i should meditate....duh....
i don't know whats the matter with me....

(and just to let you know...i rarely drink alcohol...but when i do, it loosens me up...and i feel like writing poetry..happens like once a year..)
and i confess to my teacher....also i really don't like to drink alcohol....funny that.....also when i told my teacher i got drunk...he was surprised, and said I've never seen you drunk, and i said I'll get drunk so he can see me drunk....LOL