I'm sorry Sarah

by Ella

Hey Sarah. You probably don't want to speak to me I understand. I just want to say I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for being such a terrible friend and leaving you at your worst. I just didn't know what to do. I was jealous of your relationship with Megan and I left because people say if you're not happy go. So I left.

I shut you out because I felt safe in my own bubble where no one could hurt me. I was scared.

That day I got really upset was my last time to redeem myself but I blew it. I thought maybe because now you spoke to me it was okay but it wasn't. The night you spoke to me last, made me realise I had done everything wrong.

I shouldn't of sent you all those texts, you were doing what I had done to you. I shouldn't of blamed you for anything. You did nothing wrong. I was jealous that I wasn't your favourite and that you liked Megan better than me because I was immature and rude.

I just don't know why I do the things I do. I can't. I just can't. I've tried, trust me.

I'm just so sorry for being the worlds worst friend. I wasn't there when you needed a friend most because I was too busy focused on myself. I lose friends left right and centre and this time it hurt the most.

Maybe one day we can speak again. You have every right to hate me, to block me. I still don't know your full side to the story so I can't judge. You may never see this but I just want you to know I tried. I tried to get back to you whether it worked or not. You're a beautiful and cool person and I was too blind to see that as I was to busy on myself.