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Hypophrenia.

Have you ever been doing something completely normal, and then a wave of sadness hits you out of nowhere? You don’t know why, but you feel so sad and depressed all of a sudden. You think talking to people will help, but it doesn’t, not really. You try to talk to a few people, but as soon as you start talking to them, you realize that you don’t really want to. You realize that you don’t actually care about anything.

There’s this gloomy cloud hanging over your head, and the sunshine seems so far away. You lose interest in everything, even the things you used to love doing so much. You feel like sleeping all the time, you feel so tired. You lie down and close your eyes, thinking you can just sleep it off, but sleep chooses that moment to play hide-and-seek with you. Its SO close, but still not close enough. Sleep is just out of reach. And your brain chooses that moment to replay every memory of you getting hurt. And, before you know it, you’re crying and you don’t even know why it all began.

I hope you are fine now… -_- I know this period of life, It’s disturbing and irritating! I wish no one else has to experience that especially someone as dear as you… -_- get well soon.. Do what you love, try to push off such thoughts! 😉 And make sure you have the best every where! Do everything you enjoy doing, try new stuffs, spend time with loved ones! : ❤ Love you dear :* Hope you get well soon.. I did the above to get out of this feeling of mine…

Tell. Me. About. It.
People wake up from nightmares, and they are all relieved, and shiz. But, at times, I feel as if I’ve woken up into this nightmare, and there’s just NO way out. You know, sometimes, I really wish that life would come with a trapdoor. So, people won’t have to see me like THIS. I’m not weak, and I just HATE it when circumstances make me feel so. -infinite sigh-

I know I’ve felt like this, where to go anything, even dragging yourself out of bed takes enormous energy, hopefully it shall pass, or at least quite down. It reminds me of a post of have coming up this coming Sunday, a word, like Hypophrenia but describes myself sometimes too a T, weird isn’t it that although “we” sometimes feel totally crap there is beauty in a word to describe feeling bad?

yeah, I think I have been there. I think though, sometimes, when you’re looking for an answer to “why the hell did I just get washed by this wave of sorrow”, your mind plays tricks on you and reaches out to find any thing in it that could possibly cause sadness and amplifies it to the degree that makes it seem fitting to the wave that overcame you.
Meaning, of course, that it isn’t the actual reason, and maybe there isn’t an actual reason or there is – but minds are such illogical jerks sometimes…

I’ve often experienced something similar to what you describe. It didn’t come out of nowhere, with me. Something usually triggers a memory with me of getting hurt, or hurting someone. I then feel worthless and unlikeable.

I know right? I have literally experienced this. It’s always out of nowhere, you get a sense of sadness and all you want to do is to wallow, to cry. There is no pain, just some kind of illusion where you are unable to get out of this big ball of sadness, you are trapped.