Jena Malone Posts

Self contact / body improv / body contact / self improv /I have no idea what I’m doing// is this freedom? Song “ race you to the light” by the @masonjennings #iknowiknowtoomanythighclaps

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Whomever brings softness To your heart Make room For they are our teachers as well as our friends And whomever brings you hardness As a challenge to your heart Make room For they are our teachers bringing the tender lesson of amends. In the most holy room with my fellow tenders of softness Photo by super woman @shelbyduncan & my main flame @jsuskin

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He is teaching me that every letter is a question. And every question has a thousand answers. And in those answers is always a choice to remain soft. How many times I left my words out in the sun , forgotten and under cared for. He is teaching me to gather my letters like flowers , to see the shapes as stories and that divine gift of seeing one another thru language. Thank you sweet boy.

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Ring the bell Of your own surrender There is nothing sexier Then laying your armor down

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I could be the death of me Pushing towards a new bloom I could work harder for More space I could build a bigger room

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We share the same waist line My grandmother’s Grandmother Didn’t have to write her History with a pen This petticoat Holds enough space For a thousand whispered secrets An army of grace Sewn within Our shared waist line.

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Waking in the canyon, with dreams as old as the sun. The young , unseen birds singing fluidity back into my quiet heart. Yes. Chapters end. Yes. Newness rises each morning out of the swell of the mist. Yes, I too, can have my image change , my body bend and my purpose lost a thousand time on everything but the mountains. For they have always held space for me and my reclaiming. Standing near me , mirroring our shared divinity —————- Speaking with the Santa Monica mountain range

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But child There is a song In every egg you break

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Today was a day for the heart records. The rock records. The earths memory. Today is a day I’d like to run back too , when I need to feel loved and full and free and like a wildly amazing mama. This day will be held and remembered. A day of feeling all of my many parts I play come together with glory and light. The soft woman , the loving mother , the honored daughter , the wild sagebrush mountain poet. Today was a great day.

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Melting into my mama puddle. The oldest and most beautiful held space in my heart. I love you both so much. @debzen55 @grandmalamadingdong

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It’s not just That I know I can It’s simply just That I am Musings on power/water/heat outages and being tender to my flock

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You are that sliver of light That breaks between the curtains And wakes an army With warmth You gather your courage with ease Like a long skirt, by the fistful And dance your body between The concrete And what can’t be seen It’s beautiful What you create in this world. /// a poem to your future from your former

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Here’s to another ten years of performing the best music of our lives for no one but the birds and maybe a voice memo. Love you @lemjayig

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Heaven is a blue only found in a chemical equation

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An ode to the mother I want to be as I lay on the kitchen floor dreaming of the child I had been ——— I know now why my mother woke at dawn She was curing the darkness With bacon and eggs Poured puffed grains And maple syrup A hot plate To fry the heat back into our hearts She was unwrapping the day for us The breaks in our bodies The fear of the future And our cowboy inclinations to remain hard She was preparing softness as a home Like the womb her body prepared for her To carry us Slicked fingers smoothing the static of our hair She moved thru the kitchen Waking up our wildness With berries and toast Settling our stomachs With soft demands To be human The sounds of breakfast And her hands wringing out The towels To allow A fresh start

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When my breath leads me back to the astonishment of you.

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Working with my art hero , @janetcardiff ,on a sound installation piece for the Walt Disney music hall. The piece is up now for the next five years. It’s an audio journey where you put headphones on and interact with the absurd beauty of the building and me as a cat. Enjoy this amazing piece. Might be my favorite role to date.

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Just a silly divine moment between sisters that always reminds me to laugh at the complexity and invite in more joy continually. And more cuddles please. When my hair was shorter and their hair was not pink. I love you monk.

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Come here spring I don’t want evening to fall And look like the face of regret For not having spent A thousand moments touching My lips to your neck

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Now is the time to shake ————— My love your life is unraveling Like a garment That no longer holds its weight In covering your shame Or supporting your beauty Do not hold on to the threads Like some golden strands Of a child’s first hair cut Do not pause In considering what muscles would allow Your body to stand still And unseen You are getting free From the tangle Now my love Now is the time to shake

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And again In the garden I’m reminded To love you more In all your rashness Of growth And need to spread Over the smaller More delicate blooms It’s my job And my job alone To allow you The space to flourish And when to say no more Not here This is where Something small And intricately Mine grows

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Can I Be Your spring bloom That eternal color You wait for No matter the darkness No matter the dirt Can I be My own Inner noon That breaks The bleakest morning Into two Can we Be The patient Seed Holy small and awakening That life that we get to lead Despite the frost That covers Our lawn.

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Can we Just stop And thank the universe For sending us Those that touch our deepest nerves They may not have brought flowers Or poems Or chocolate But they , being who they beautifully are Brought the lessons We couldn’t teach ourselves.

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Careful what you pursue And what you call out to And the figures you shape with your mind What you read into And what you dream out loud to And what you will It will All these things They will Become you ——————————— Some words from my travels thru Myanmar. Happy to share these images again with the world. Excited to be a mama bear artist , swinging my tiny babe on my hip while I put the final touches on my photo show , opening today. Excited to follow the universe to my next adventure that strikes fear in my heart and wisdom down my spine. Just fucking feeling alive and full today. And also can I please get a tiny nap before this evening? Thanks ( info on show in my stories )

I wanna share my dance playlist with you all. It’s been deeply feeding me this past year. Come and listen and dance with me at @vashonsnapdragon March 1st starting at 8pm til late. My favorite bar is letting me take over the dance floor and share my musical medicine for you to shake your bodies too. So excited for next weekend and to see your shining faces there. The song is the video is called “Time” by @grettaray

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When I was 29 years old I woke every day to what felt like horses pounding in my heart. I felt there was so much to see and so much to express before I crossed the imaginary threshold of 30. I was working like mad , I think I filmed 5 films that year and was still touring and promoting my last album with @theshoeperforms and still felt this desire for more. Some invisible pulse that was aching. On a good friends recommendation I ended up taking a couple of weeks off from my life and went traveling thru Myanmar. I was a solo traveler but sought the help of a travel agency that works with local women in the country and ended up spending the most beautiful time getting lost and getting to know a deep part of me that was aching to be found. To be guided by a fellow woman , who spoke the language and could let me stumble step in awe and fumble for my camera in each town square , to know I could actually sit down and communicate with people instead of the three minute charade of smiles and gestures changed everything for me. We hiked up mountains together and thru tiny ancient villages where grandpas cooked me lunch while the kids chased me thru their hidden spaces and shared a can of soda with me . I slept on the floor in old temples , were the novice monks allowed me to join their games of soccer and movie nights of National Geographic on vhs. I was embraced and given so much love that just came mirroring right back out of me. By the end of the trip my feet were light and my face ached from that incredible gift of being human, smiling so damn much. One of my last days on the journey I visited a small temple to sit and allowed myself to fall into a deep mediation. This was where I was given the vision that my life would change. I would become a mother to a beautiful boy. And he and his father would point me into the direction I had been longing to go but never had the words to articulate. I left their sobbing, just giant wet face and nose and ears and hands wringing my

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Jena Malone and her bloodstains , my OG creation space since I was 21 years young. I’ve been slowly working on new music , haven’t released a project under this moniker since I was 24. It’s coming. Don’t worry. Haha. Until then ....IM PLAYING A RARE SHOW on March 3. Link for info and tickets in my bio. I’m opening for the fucking cellist from nirvana and I also have a special guest sitting with me for the set . It’s going to be all types of wonderful and strange. I LOVE YOU AND AND MORE CREATIONS OH SO SOON. X

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Tiny

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My son’s first picture of me!! and as you can see he captured my heart melting into a thousand tiny droplets of love. I am a silly, emotional and proud mama. Every first of his is just the beginning of a new intimate conversation I get to have with my beautiful boy. I ache and dream and await each and every one. Love you baby b.

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That unversed narrative in your mind. That exists only in a few words. Further that narrative. Fill in the blanks. You will quickly see if it has purpose. Now change your scene. And fill in the verse that makes you happy. That makes you feel seen. It might be that easy.

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Flowers for men or rather my small steps to reclaim the divine masculine in us all.

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and the world isn’t ending, its just growing up and over us and our constant need for making it a park. all that wild and dark is pissed and teething. we, the blip and the speck, may be the smallest thing that ever fantasized so large.

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Breaking the 4th wall of winter.

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Love letters that can possibly out live your physical body.

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@theshoeperforms at echo park lake. Who took this ?? And @lemjayig where the f are you ?

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We landed on the moon/ In my golden orbit When Light reflected simply And perfectly from my own I will always remember Where I was Who I was For your first landing When life and a million dancing Angels Gave me to you. ---------------

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My body is more than a field map Which can only speak in prayer But can not kneel In kindness To its own being

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“ I got saved by poetry. And I got saved by the beauty of the world “ Mary Oliver /// Real kinship is one where two hearts find a sacred belonging in the same point of view. Mary Oliver was kin to me. A mother figure who allowed my forest to be a church and my everyday moments a prayer of astonishment. Real family cant always give you permission to be holy and be yourself. Sometimes it’s the kindred spirts that come to you in many forms that bring permission into your life. Permission to love what you love. Freedom to seek joy where your spirit craves it. In honor of Mary , I’m allowing 2019 to be the year of kinship for me. Bringing more people into my life that mirror my light , spending more time and care with the people that give me permission to be myself. I’ve been desperately building this image of family since I gave birth to my son , a lineage I want to pass down to him and surround him with. But it’s been hard because I’ve been missing the higher understanding that real kinship is not always about blood ties . Thank you Mary for awaking in me a new found strength and giving me permission to build the image of family in my own light. And I love you. Thank you.

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You know the feeling

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I like this ten year challenge. Ten years feels like such a chunk of time, impossible to fathom in the middle of a long month or a hard day. But here it is. I’m pretty much the exact same person , ten years later. 24/34 2008/2018 except looks like I’ve finally let my eyebrows be the thick wildness they were meant to be. I also guess I chop my hair completely off every ten years , or rather I allow myself to be completely fucked over by a man and chose the fine art of hair transformation as my alchemy of healing. Also I’m stronger, sexier, healthier, happier and more dedicated to my personal expansion that mirrors the divine light of the universe then I ever was. So hell yes.

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I speak to you like I long to be spoken to. Softly. Bravely. With patience and love. Transparent to any moods and misunderstandings. In plain tongue. With an open heart. Oh honey, you are a far better teacher then you know. Teaching me that delicate art of loving myself better , being kinder and gentler with missteps and preconditions. As I navigate , you absorb. As I speak , you listen and mirror. The best thing I can give you is an inner monologue that speaks of allowing and acceptance . One that supports and forgives and laughs easily into the evening. One that looks in the mirror and instantly sees worth and gratitude. I’m not completely there yet my love. But that is another lesson you teach me every day , it’s not about completion , but rather a day by day evolution. No other man in the world I’d rather be learning this with my sweet boy. We got this :)

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The boulder problem // At risk of crying He stands down It’s so effortless This look of thriving Amongst the boulders and smaller men He loves the edge The paper thin membrane Of no return With wild abandon Where did he learn it was ok to abandon Children and animals And young women Who’s hearts were on the verge Of giving everything He disconnects so well This is why he likes the edge He was taught everything human and broken belonged in the distance He could shoulder Only the view That was so picturesque But grotesque Because Nothing grows well At his elevation

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Island expiration. Scouting pirate cabin building pads and found this falling down cabin near the water. The squatters had amazing taste in music and reading. Old tapes of the pretenders. I found the likes of Jack Kerouac , Walt Whitman and much more. So many ways to live in this wild world. All temporary and all sacred. Blessed to have souls that seek adventure and reverberate light near me on my journey thus far. Thanks @argonautphoto

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Musing on my main muse. I’m so glad we get to be imperfectly divine together. We have the chance of growing something so beautiful together.

Permission walks into a room like they know they are welcome. Empowerment sits alone on a bench and feels the community of humans that came before. Compassion sits down before it collapses in the corner. Love allows before it ever defines. Walking into the new year with some old friends I haven’t seen for awhile. Whom are you walking with today? #walkingwithpermission #walkingwithempowerment #walkingwithcompassion #walkingwithlove

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Throw back to 12 year old me at my first golden globe experience. I was nominated for best actress in a mini series/ made for television film. Along with Vanessa Redgrave , Meryl Streep , Ellen Barkin and Alfre Woodard ( who won!) . I was sort of in shock the whole time. But funny how shock comes off as composed as a youngster. I had these angels ( Goldie, who directed the film I was nominated for and Kurt )to guide me thru the night. Thank goodness for the allies and angels I’ve had around me to help navigate such shark infested waters. I don’t remember whom I was wearing ( didn’t seem to matter as much then). I do remember I was shooting stepmom at the time and Julia Roberts was also nominated and she was kind enough to let me and my nanny fly in with her on her private plane ( she was also nominated for best actress in a comedy for “ my best friends wedding”) What a wild thing it is to sit in the nostalgia of my youth briefly and unpack such once in a blue moon memories. Life is a trip. Especially since just 4 years prior I was dumpster diving for food and proof of purchases with my mom and siblings. Gratitude is too simple of a word to describe how it feels to look back at my trajectory. I feel such deep love but maybe something more like purpose is a better word. The gifts I’ve been given have given me a purpose that resonate in every moment of my being. I’m so happy I’ve followed my own path ( and so happy I was such a self aware and stubborn child ) it’s an honor to sit back and watch the circus now. Having experienced it in such an innocent and important way. But for those that have never been or in reality will prob never go to en event like this , it’s really not the giant myth it’s made out to be. More like being in a circus for a night of your peers. A roast , a toast , a grand facade of belonging in an industry that’s deeply isolated from one another. But fun as hell. Yes. So much fucking fun. And terrifying ( but that’s simply another layer of fun i

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You and our mountain. Things that sustain me no matter the distance.

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Replace the magazines with seed catalogs and the high heel boots with bare feet and this is still pretty much me after I put my kiddo to sleep.( joking but not really ) I like using my hour or two alone as a time to tap back into my maiden self . Taking off my sweatpants and putting on a lace onesie with soft thigh highs or some nice 1930s satin pajamas. I drape myself in pillows and throws and dive deep into whatever moves me. It’s such an important time of resetting. I use to use this time for dishes and preparing for the next day but I realized that doing chores with my child was so much more rewarding for us both and there is no preparing for tomorrow with a toddler. Not directly. You wake everyday to a million possibilities, each one requiring different levels of preparation in the moment. And I really value following both of our compasses on how best we will thrive that day. Yes, I still do dishes but in lingerie. Yes, this is when my dance practice takes hold of my body. But mostly this is a sensual hibernation time. Of being lazy af and deeply self driven. This is my time for self love, masturbation, writing poetry, reading books, planning my garden, mediation , editing little art videos , FaceTime dates with girlfriends. And then I crawl back into our tiny little bedroom and let sleep offer me that final recalibration parents so desperately need. Fellow parents ? Single mamas? I’m interested in your night time rituals after you put your little ones to bed ? Photo from the cover shoot with @asifmagazine shot by mama extraordinary @tatijanashoan

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When you find yourself in a low state. In a space where it’s overwhelming to determine your true worth or ability. Reach out to someone. A third party. A counselor. A friend. It helps to have someone who can see you clearly and help you reconfigure your gentle capacity of life. Building you right back up to where you belong. Hey , can we all tag someone that helps us feel seen when our eyes have gone weary from being overlooked. And I love you.

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I bleed in public, what do you do ? Photo by my darling mated soul , @jordanpaynee

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Forgiveness is so fucking hot ( or rather how warmth feels now on my diet of not thinking negative thoughts )

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My heart didn’t have a name until I named you. Photo by @jordanpaynee

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Your light is the only gift I want from now until eternity. No wrapping necessary

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Let it go child.

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Beside every person that shines is an army of light that mirrors that brightness. I stand beside an army of creators, Mothers , teachers, farmers and fathers that reflect such light in the world. Proud of @aliyanaumoff and her powerful work as a director( check our her reel on her page , just incredible !) This image taken by another incredible creator @lemjayig , is from her directorial debut. And the most beautiful music video I’ve ever seen. It also happens to be for a song created by my band @theshoeperforms called His Gorgeousness. It was a mirror dance piece choreographed by another powerhouse creator @celiarowlsonhall ( follow this woman’s journey!! She has created such magic in the world!!)(( I miss you lady!!)) I’ve learned that as I traverse my journey of evolution , when I’m considering letting a new person into my heart, the most important thing you can do is get to know their friends. People tend to surround themselves with people that support their current state of being. If you see fellow light seekers and compassionate beings you can rest assured that the person is on a similar journey. If you see small minds, gossip makers and stagnant beings then you can know for sure that that is their current state of evolution as well.

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I see rainbows on every tongue Wet with truth

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“ if grief can be a doorway to love , then let us all weep for the world we are breaking apart so we can love it back to wholeness again “ #robinwallkimmerer #braidingsweetgrass

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(personal prayer// don’t take this personal) This year has been the hardest/ most important of my life Leaving california ,my friends and my family to seek a new life of balance &sustainability for me and my son Navigating the ever changing waters of being a single mother in a way that feels authentic to me Learning how to create space for myself as a woman and artist Starting to put one foot back in the door of picking up where I left my work and passions pre pregnancy Buying a tiny house and starting a life in a place where I didn’t know a soul Healing and tending my relationship with my mother Healing and tending my relationship with my ex partner and building the light we want to exude for our son Rediscovering my sexuality after having a child Falling deeply in love with a man whom spoke of marriage and his deep love for my son only to be completely discarded by him almost overnight ( that was a rough one ) Started smoking cigarettes again ( the worst addiction I’ve ever known) Finally completely quitting them ( almost two weeks strong now! accepting light and love and all forms of support) Discovering I have an auto immune disease with no cure ( psoriasis) Just battling and loving and learning and giving and feeling so empty only to wake with my heart so full again and again. My work this year has been learning to be open to my own suffering. Overcoming my fear of the mess pain causes. Looking into the lions mouth and realizing that it’s actually the truest path towards my higher self. Pain is the fast track towards human evolution if you can find the courage to accept it. I’m still learning this/allowing this muscle to flourish. I wake every day to the light of my beautiful son and in the next moment hear stories of the earth burning and people deeply hurting and toxic old paradigms still having a strong hold on the human heart. It feels like too much sometimes. It’s so easy to be overwhelmed by your inability to change anything in this world. Just the

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I have more to learn from the tide than from telling time. ————

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The practice of using a camera allows me to constantly be considering what is holy and what is in front of me. Regardless of how time dresses my experience in loss or gain. The flesh of the matter , the naked truth will always remain. And I think this is what pushes me to use a camera , or my words or my body to dance light/ meaning into the moment. To help me see what is holy and what is really there in front of me. I’m glad I can share these things but in reality it’s a deeply personal practice of trying to be present. Not just to my human body or it’s limited experience here but present to my own divinity and grace. So I guess thank you for being part of my practice and witness to my journey thus far.

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The tide A natural conversation Between us Filled with crescendos Tongue flicks And a thousand Restrung Broken hearts.

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Honey , this is heaven.

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It’s my birthday and I can be reborn if I wanna.

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// our creation story is simple. And I like it that way// ——- Somewhere in all that dirt Is you and I Crawling out of the earth Looking towards the sky

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I’ve never felt more at home. Side of the road. With the ones who lift your heart up like it was their own.

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Speak softly into this space. Choose words with intent and grace. This digital translation doesn’t sing as sweetly as your breath near my face.

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It’s pretty easy to know me. Just take off your shoes and sit on the floor with me. Or dance with me with your eyes closed. I’ll tell you anything you want to know.

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When I am weak from the bleakness that surrounds , I always fall back on the warm bed of poetry to help lift me back into the dance of being truly seen and heard. This poem is from the human fire #adriennerich #iwantawholenewwayofbeinginthisworld #guncontrolandmentalhealth #youcantseparatethetwo #nooneisabovethelaw #fuckingscoundrals

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Just this. The innate being expressed in the infinite. That’s all I will ever need.

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A long lost @theshoeperforms song made when we first met that we never released and one of the most beautiful pictures I’ve ever captured. My queen at her fullest @bethanymccarty @lemjayig on piano and me on tap shoes and voice.

Not only are you powerful, you are prestigious. Not only are you prestigious, you are beautiful. Not only are you beautiful, you are consciousness. Not only are you consciousness, you are the spirit. Not only are you the spirit, you are the security of the future, the most bountiful beauty ever created. Men call it ‘woman.’ #YogiBhajan photo by the divine @neilkrug

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/the boys of my youth/I wish it had been said how bad you were in bed and how I left you breathless reaching your 5th or 6th climax of the day and how you left me wetting my fingers to feed myself I kept thinking your pleasure was enough that somehow your ecstasy could be transmuted to me what a strong held game of the patriarchy calling bluff on our divinity masking their inadequacy simply by refusing to learn the eloquent language of the female body I refuse to engage with sexually monolingual men I refuse to teach my son the“ drive thru” sex culture I was raised with. And gentleman , now is your time , in so many ways , to shed the clothes that have suppressed your human heart and run naked into that wild forest of true intent. I believe in you. I will stand by you as you crawl out of that cave you were raised into. I will gladly answer any and all questions you have on this journey back to your divine. And I love you. #sacredsexuality #callingyououtwithlove #sexualawakening #notallboysturntomen

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An ode to the memo my son will never read I open a book I see what I use to see a shape that looks like a man In a children’s story It says “ he is wearing a red hat” But I stop And look toward my son And I see two eyes That have yet to define That simple shape And it hurts my heart And confounds me How immense the unlearning of oppressive languaging Can be So I look again And what I see is a person With clothes on And I tell my son They are wearing a red hat They are looking at a cat They are wearing blue jeans Together We are learning a gender neutral vocabulary That can allow all of the world to be seen. These are the small steps I’m taking as a single white cis mother of privilege to free the human heart from any and all means of oppression . I know it’s not a lot. But I wanted to share. Because every little piece counts in this grand equation of changing the world together. #nonbinary #gnc #trans #intersex #transrightsarehumanrights #protecttranskids #iwontletyoubeerased

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—how did I get so lucky— to be this little golden hearts number one lady —— he swings his arms tightly around my neck and tells me “ mama I’m so proud of you , your so brave “ and then runs off and allows me time to melt into a thousand puddles. I must have said that to him a hundred times but he says it to me like it’s his original creation. Like his mind cooked up something so beautiful for me he can hardly find his breath to share. And it never gets old. All we both do is grow and grow and grow and still , he stops time with his being , every time.

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If I had to write an epitaph in this moment it may be this. Or what I want to press deeply into every growing human heart. This equation is always balanced from the inside out. Not from depleting your own precious self. I’ve literally torn my heart open from the inside out just to keep giving to people and situations that didn’t respect my worth/ my heart/ my being. I wish someone, a little birdie had whispered this into my ear as a 14 year old girl on the wild journey of becoming. So here I am. Think of me as a tiny bird that lands for three seconds on your shoulder and sings something sweetly into your ear. A melody you won’t have to try and remember because your body will naturally do that for you. Such is the wild art of innate medicine. All you have to do is listen.

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Let me rest here with you while the world wiles away into its chaotic dream. We have always been each other’s resting points. We are each other’s landmarks of ease that even from a million miles away dispel disharmony just from being seen.

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Today was a beautiful day. Also discovering new music is a gift from the universe. @sashaspielberg aka @buzzytunes made a beautiful EP. This track is called “facepaint” and it really brought something out of me today. Shall I post the whole dance on my IGTV? Does anyone watch those things ? Can I just start doing improvised dance pieces as an actor ? Will it become my next street corner gig ? Oh dear hearts I hope so.

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I’m writing every day on set. Writing as many words that come to me about the strange beauty of my everyday life as an actor on set. I think it’s meaningful for you all , for we all, for everyone , to invite the world into our lives and dispel the myths that get created without consent. Tell your story with compassion. It’s all we can do. Photo taken by @domwolczko Layered photo and edit by me.

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It takes courage to be an absolute weirdo. Oh thank goodness for true love. When you set down the shame and pain of who others need you to be. Where you can wear nipple tassels and sequined undies and a cape and still be deeply loved and supported and seen. I love you Monk and Skye and Aspen so much. Can we please find time to get lost together soon? This was taken during a photo adventure or rather a life adventure, using cameras to express our purpose . Or really just four women wearing their own color of the human condition on their sleeve or cape for that matter.

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Self less no more. Self ish is not a sore word you apply to a wound but a salve to the burn of non reciprocal giving. Selfie with my phone. The phone a device I hold like a sword to my own tending. It’s clumsy. And occupies too much of my time. It’s sharp in the way it cuts invisible lines inside of me. And yet and still , I wield. I wield. And bend. To allow it room to point me in the direction of my own healing. A social virus. A tool of my own lifetime. A lifeline in the open sea of the human condition. I feel like my time with it is almost done. Selfish. Self love that puts the phone down when I’m looking for connection. And I simply look within. Almost my love. Almost there.

13,594 Likes | 229 days ago | 195

My dream dance partner finally emerges. This is my practice before bed. This is my ritual. And now it’s ours , whenever he graces me with those tiny spinning curls. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ gosh I love you baby boy.

9,388 Likes | 229 days ago | 43

Throwing back to the time I transformed myself into a sitting flower nude at the funeral parlor of my own glorious heart. From a music video directed by @alia_pop from a song by my band @theshoeperforms entitled “Dead Rabbit Hopes” online in every place you wanna find it.

3,889 Likes | 229 days ago | 9

Diving deep and well into that open hole of creation. Nearly 24 years of working in film. And this next project might be the closest to my heart. Underwater til 2019. Lots of love. #lorelei

5,090 Likes | 230 days ago | 14

4,027 Likes | 232 days ago | 25

Becoming a mother is mostly about learning to mother yourself. Which has taken me 2 and half years to truly realize. Caring for yourself in such a deep and authentic way that there is a natural surplus in how it extends out of your body. When I mother for others there is always a depletion that doesn’t get addressed. It’s a wild and holy practice. Letting my maiden grow into her own mother. Loving myself so deeply that loving others is simply a reverberation of that self love. A practice. A constant exploration where curiosity thrives and conclusions fall away. I’d love to hear from others on this journey. 📸 by @aliyanaumoff a million years ago in nyc.

7,731 Likes | 233 days ago | 34

A young bloom that wore an old tune. 21 years old. Photo by my brother from another mother @mblash

3,268 Likes | 234 days ago | 19

Reclaiming the art of falling apart.

2,380 Likes | 234 days ago | 20

I want to hear your story. Your silence is a wound worth healing. The world is listening. Finally. We , the people, have the power to change the collective story we are passing down to our children. I’ve recently learned about a website that is collecting stories you share ,anonymously or publicly , however you want to tell it. Amassing a narrative of truth that can change the world as we know it. If you are survivor of sexual assault and have lived with that weight too long I wanna offer you safe space to reclaim your voice. Please follow the link in my profile. #hearusnow Thank you @amberheard for making me aware of such important and timely movements.

3,479 Likes | 236 days ago | 16

Morning

4,954 Likes | 238 days ago | 17

We

2,647 Likes | 238 days ago | 22

Depression, sadness, hurt, pain, loneliness , fear..... all these are only words that carry half of the real definition of what it means to truely live in these states of being. The real all encompassing word we are searching for is : AWAKENING. Be gentle with your processes in this. Honor the greater teacher in these temporary states that are only pushing us into a higher state of being / awakening/ becoming.

2,846 Likes | 239 days ago | 14

Mama, how do I learn to forgive someone? Oh my darling , first you must begin the journey of loving yourself. That’s where you can truly learn how to forgive another, by forgiving and really loving yourself. —— With tears just falling and falling down my face , it’s with love and grace , that I can finally let my own forgiveness touch my own face. Swaying here , in the only arms Ive ever needed , love is just pouring out of me and on to all the ones that I’ve let hurt me. And in turn I have hurt so greatly. I see you. I love you more now then I ever have. And I forgive you. I accept where you are. And I’m rooting for your light in whatever form it takes you on the journey ahead. I’ve had such incredible teachers this year. Thank you for being such clear mirrors of the work that had been left undone. I love you and this journey back to my center.

Ohhh I love myself so damn much it burns my muscles to move mountains into light. Or rather why I dance. Or how not giving a fuck is really all about self love. And yes , I dance with measuring tape all the damn time.

3,091 Likes | 241 days ago | 13

“Judgment is blaming the character for the condition being noticed, compassion is noticing the condition while forgiving the character." Beautifully said by @mattkahn1 Holy yes , the wind and leaves on my back and mama awakenings while her kiddo naps.

2,668 Likes | 242 days ago | 10

To be so present in your process, in all of its shifts and turns, is in itself an act of self-love. Quote from my moon bride @jennyparking

2,196 Likes | 244 days ago | 18

Come like the rain and whisper your wounds to me with a clumsy tongue. I love you for your broken. As the leaves reach the height of their beauty as they too become undone. Graceful #autumequinox to each and every light out there. I love you.

2,442 Likes | 246 days ago | 13

You are that sparrow that closes the same loop in every flight , despite your freedom. Despite your mouthed choice of what you feel is right.

3,036 Likes | 247 days ago | 5

You are my witch and my moon. Your light never leaves my side no matter the tide. I love you and happy bday.

3,415 Likes | 247 days ago | 11

Grateful to each and every soul I’ve encountered on this journey back to my center.

1,378 Likes | 247 days ago | 14

—watch till the end for the cutest surprise visitor ever—-I’m so obsessed with @6lack new album #eastatlantaloveletter I posted a whole song of dance on my IGTV. These are mama sun worshiping outtakes of another incredible song called I’m sorry from the album. Listen , spread , support , REPEAT!!

3,858 Likes | 248 days ago | 29

Stay curious. I guess that’s all I could say. Curious enough to want to press yourself deeply into the wet parts of the earth. Into the spiders’ web that may lead you to a higher nook in a tree. Into the woman seated next to you. Into the hard part of the chair. Press and ask questions. And share. Share. Share. You are the only person capable of telling your story. Stay curious and tell that tale beautifully well.

11,754 Likes | 249 days ago | 61

When my mama bear engages ( watch out ) 📸 @jennyparking

4,638 Likes | 249 days ago | 14

Sitting pretty. Mourning death causally. Listening to you describing your love for me. Letting me cry openly. You gently taking my heart out of my body. Sending it down the river. Let the spineless and senseless go my love. Let’s sit simply and mourn love authentically . Just being the best you can be is enough.

4,804 Likes | 250 days ago | 12

Oh the body I became to help you remain.

10,547 Likes | 253 days ago | 45

What I love is easy to see, as real love just comes pouring out of thee. And I loved being working with these strong , sexy bad ass women that inspire me greatly. Our film #thepublic has such an incredible ensemble. Couldn’t be happier to stand among them as Co - creators. Thanks #emilloestevez for writing and carrying the weight of such an important film. Thank you @raybouderau for these awesome captures in the madness and producing our film.

3,533 Likes | 253 days ago | 17

I can be fully clothed and yet stand naked before you. Such is the delicate weight of wearing your heart on your sleeve.

1,148 Likes | 257 days ago | 9

Fuck momentum This solace Is not a mountain I need to climb To get rid of you I see your brutal leaves with the bedsheets And I’ll wake and find My own peace in the night After math The pulse returns And science is not a cure for the heart Simply the written wisdom Of your truth being good enough.

8,597 Likes | 257 days ago | 39

We are simply custodians for the debris of the universe. Take care of what you care for. And let the other shit simply and beautiful go. 📸 @zoeygrossman

5,926 Likes | 257 days ago | 20

The last time my band @theshoeperforms was in Toronto , we got to freestyle and musically explore @thompsontoronto from basement to rooftop lounge. Such an amazing experience. Photos taken by our right hand man @eliastahan

8,536 Likes | 260 days ago | 30

Oh happy silly blur of summer. You end where true warmth begins. The sweater that comes. The fire that is lit. How we spend the rest of the year recreating your ease. Taken by the golden hearted mama child , Eden. A Polaroid for the alter of what fall brings.

3,155 Likes | 261 days ago | 22

How to resurrect the holy / by memory alone Be gentle with me darling. You were a sudden taste of the extraordinary that turned my whole being to bloom.

5,119 Likes | 264 days ago | 36

Swerve

9,758 Likes | 265 days ago | 44

Let ___________ Close the loop Of your open wound #grief #radicalselfhealing #insertyourowncure 📸 by the mystic @jennyparking

20,422 Likes | 267 days ago | 117

Oh tender tending the true. I love this moment between my forever and you 📸 @jennyparking I love you

6,209 Likes | 269 days ago | 26

Invite in tending. Invite in care You could have a warm hearth from friends you keep near.

10,657 Likes | 270 days ago | 63

It’s not permanent. It rinses out a little more each day.

2,476 Likes | 270 days ago | 3

Empathic guide lines

8,303 Likes | 270 days ago | 59

Tomorrow we can talk about equations Tonight we must feel the moon. Photo by my beautiful mama @debjenmad12 and the mirror she creates. (( me trying to desperately to keep my chin up while buying a mattress. ))

9,895 Likes | 271 days ago | 51

Between meaning . Breathing

10,616 Likes | 272 days ago | 48

You are that leaf Let go by your holy tree To land and make a home Out of every tumbling

10,555 Likes | 273 days ago | 182

It’s causal. This precarious dance of life. Chew more gum and give less shits. Do more work to tell your story honestly. With compassion. It’s really all we can do. Thanks #edsheeran

4,800 Likes | 274 days ago | 27

It is a different river that flows in August then the one that flows in December. And you are a different woman as well.

3,381 Likes | 275 days ago | 10

How to let go and stay afloat. Or really just the most beautiful photo I have ever taken.

18,812 Likes | 276 days ago | 92

True love

3,894 Likes | 277 days ago | 20

Good grieve and real release. Honoring what conditional love may mean.

6,788 Likes | 278 days ago | 23

Dear me, there in the slight part of your knee is the hunter you were meant to be. And the gatherer has always been , naturally in your lean. You don’t have to worry about making a choice between strength and vulnerability. You were both equally before your you came into being. #radicalselflove #iamhumanhearmeroar 📸 by an angel that finally released me

18,560 Likes | 278 days ago | 61

I’m so proud of us and the journey we are on together of radical healing , emotional honesty and learning to set boundaries out of love and respect. I love you and see you mama. Forever and always holding your light.

8,736 Likes | 281 days ago | 74

Alone time or rather time well spent on a hotel floor.

3,472 Likes | 282 days ago | 18

One strand is the wind , the rest is glorious and unabashedly my sons everyday hair style. All filter , no shame, taken by a mama learning to get over social expectations and loving the self that remains at the end of the day.

6,002 Likes | 282 days ago | 15

I think I’ve been waiting for this moment your whole life. The moment the bubble bursts and you somehow become the adult you have always been. I’ve seen your tiny moments growing strong. I’ve seen you fight your path bravely , walk it kindly and meet each new turn with such grace and ease. I’ve seen the wildness of your heart and your curiosity and courage grow into dear friends. Ive counted your fingers and freckles and bruises with you. I have cried with you and fought with you. And I have loved you deeply before you were even born. The world is not just a better place with you in it but it is a world that will be changed by having you in it. Forever and always your ally in this. Happy 21st dear woman. I hope you get shit faced with those that can mirror that gorgeous light. I love you. Your big sis.

7,627 Likes | 284 days ago | 40

Morning comes to those who wake and embrace it. In another life I woke early for the sunrise to capture it with my camera. Now I wake early to make tea and waffles for my little one. My Mornings are still spent tending the things I love. And always naked somehow. At least that hasn’t changed. Photo by @shelbyduncan

5,733 Likes | 286 days ago | 28

A tide pool of hurt or rather how not to drown in your tears but bath in your own salt water cure.

15,648 Likes | 288 days ago | 72

When your heart explodes and matches the sky , you thank your lucky stars and kiss every single one his fingers and toes. Photo by our captain for life @domwolczko

4,520 Likes | 289 days ago | 36

Los Angeles , you have watched my private moments closer then I have. You have tended them by pretending not to care. You created an exile for my wall flowers to bloom. I left you so many times and still , the strange lover that you are , welcome me with nostalgia and golden light. I love you more when you are a poem to me. Lucid and captured on my tongue. Then when my shadow becomes your mockery. Comparing my beauty to billboard just for fun. ——————————— an old photo I took , like an old flame ———— taken in an abandoned house in la.

6,770 Likes | 291 days ago | 26

My reciprocal place #myfirstmountain#laketahoe

3,574 Likes | 291 days ago | 9

In the bedroom of my youth #kahleforever

4,781 Likes | 293 days ago | 12

You and I Caught In that passing perfect Light Across the sky How you easily fill Each moment With eternity And I’m forever yours And you my darling Are forever a light.

22,521 Likes | 298 days ago | 207

When my arms were the size of my head or rather what a whole stunt/ film crew does when they stand behind you and believe in your inner strength. Or really I’m never gonna stop standing up for myself no matter what. And I’ll never stop believing I’m stronger than I look. In other words, don’t fuck with me. Self portrait taken with photo booth on a laptop while shooting and vigorously training / living / breathing the film #suckerpunch . Thank you @cruelfilms for seeing something in me I didn’t know was there ( and now will never shut off )

6,487 Likes | 299 days ago | 21

where i knew i could lean back into you , without looking being carried by a deeper pulse than just flame Photo collab with @mblash

It’s no small miracle. The simple act of being seen and understood. This human expression of love may well be my favorite gift to receive. In awe of how powerful we can be together while living in such a separate society. I love you so much.

11,062 Likes | 302 days ago | 104

These were photos I took casually , as I most often do. All of these images were shot on the same roll of 35mm film in my film camera. I’ve included a few others from the roll to show you whose eyes were behind the lens. They are currently posted on Ethan Delorenzo’s professional website claiming that they are his work. Unfortunately he won’t credit me as the rightful owner nor will he take them down. I don’t understand the need to post other artists work as your own. Though I do understand the delicate process of two people coming together and sharing moments and then deciding to end their relationship. I paid for every roll of film he shot, developed them for him, we used each others cameras occasionally and I most definitely asked him to take images of me that I couldn’t take myself. No matter the reason of his for posting them there is no shame in this action. Only in the lack of action once the mistake has been brought to his attention ( 4th time just this year). Please rightfully credit these photos and many other photos ( not posted here but I can if clarification is needed)that are mine on your website. It’s the very least any artist deserves. Thank you.

6,103 Likes | 302 days ago | 111

With love and respect I gotta ask you to stop posting images I’ve taken and telling people they are your own. There are few photos on your website which I took with my own fingers and hands and heart. I don’t mind you posting and giving credit. But trying to sell them and say they are yours is just wrong. Thanks Ethan.

I love you here , there and yesterday// You are not afraid to wear your underwear to the beach Or stand tall and silent Or laugh at anything that comes your way Your hands are always tending and mending And when they reach for me I too benefit From their healing Your eyes are not just windows To your soul But a vessel whole and complete You don’t take up any of my room And yet You always make room For me. ————

8,667 Likes | 314 days ago | 94

Looking back thru all my behind the scenes photos from film sets. This taken on location at Shiprock , NM. On a strange and wild film called “ Bottom of the World”. Shall I make a small book of my girl gaze behind the cinematic lens?

17,831 Likes | 315 days ago | 307

I don’t want a summer bod , the abbreviation sticks to the roof of my tongue and chokes out my own good taste. I want a mountain body. I want hair that brushes itself by the wind. I want legs full of landmarks . I want a belly full of food. I want my skin like a small farm that chops and drops and trusts the dirt and the chaos and leaves the beauty to the birds. I want soft moss growing where it can , when it can. I don’t want to be bare , with no hair that holds water in the hot parts of the day. I want rocks that crumble around me and edges that require discipline out of me. I have no need for managed perfection. i look towards heaven growing in my back yard and I lay down in my mud and accept each grass laceration on my skin. I don’t want a summer body. I want four seasons of flesh as I grow stronger and freer within.

4,414 Likes | 318 days ago | 16

You are dirt. You are the flower of the season and the thorn of the past. You are flesh and blood and bone. You are human and you act inhumane. Today is dying and tomorrow will always remain.

14,097 Likes | 318 days ago | 51

We 📸 by @domwolczko

5,277 Likes | 320 days ago | 15

Enjoying my huckleberry Finn (( oh the glorious time spent within)) and out of count with paces of culture

3,354 Likes | 322 days ago | 10

When the heat melts the line between physical pain and physical beauty. My dear metaphysical partner in crime @jennyparking , I love you!!

5,916 Likes | 327 days ago | 33

Mamas new ride. Our dump truck , Dottie,named after Gina Davis’s character in a league of their own.

4,976 Likes | 327 days ago | 19

Stay weird and keep pushing into your holy places of fear. This is me collaborating on a performance art piece with @lolarosethompson Terrified and alive and creating is my favorite triangle of time. photo by a dear friend I havnt seen in a long time @fstop_fitzgerald

14,630 Likes | 327 days ago | 39

Traveling poets or rather don’t forget to squeeze the one you love and drop to your knees in admiration to the divine. Or really just take the picture that helps you remember what is good and golden in the world. This shiny one taken by @shelbyduncan

5,029 Likes | 329 days ago | 10

Bearing witness to the magic of the cosmos everyday . The untethered light where we all began. Our children are our natural given teachers. We are their natural born protectors. We must do all we can to allow them to be all they can. #familiesbelongtogether

9,269 Likes | 332 days ago | 135

Get down on the floor, not just to clean , but to celebrate the precarious victory of being alive. Mama rituals. End of the night. Old school fleetwood. YES

2,313 Likes | 332 days ago | 10

Today on the stem, tomorrow on the ground. We all have our simple place in the moment of time.

7,925 Likes | 332 days ago | 32

Occasionally, do me a favor, leave me completely and beautifully alone. Photo in an aspen grove before a thunder storm by my wild hearted @shelbyduncan

5,666 Likes | 333 days ago | 20

In awe of the simple act of standing near you That even this small act Was a wild gesture of true love

2,601 Likes | 341 days ago | 10

Heaven is in the tall grass with his toys and your legs laying bare. Thank you for jumping head first into our tiny miracle of a life. We love you so much.

5,914 Likes | 341 days ago | 26

I love you

3,702 Likes | 344 days ago | 18

I’ve never been afraid to dive into the deep end. It’s with age and grace that has lead me back to swallow waters , toes first, ankles, knees , slowly entering, mid thigh , whole thigh, my hips ,my belly , slowly now , with my breath and my breasts , my shoulders , my lips , my head and now my hair wet. Slow is the new mode of reckless abandon. Slow and steady.

9,042 Likes | 349 days ago | 41

We are best intimate and raw and walking on your toes and playing with your hearts and glasses and interacting with you on an eye to eye human to human level. Our next show in Napa valley will offer us a chance to get intimate in a new way. Please don’t miss your chance to spend the weekend in wine country with us , on a beautiful vineyard @ashesxdiamonds and listening to modern haikus by @mrjohnathanrice. Tickets come with a free book of his new written work and glasses of wine and a chance to get your heart interpreted by us , @theshoeperforms tickets in bio. And I love you all. Photo by @eliastahan

4,869 Likes | 350 days ago | 31

Between my son and the moon There’s no kindness in forgetting The hard rock we are all living on We have lost too many to the silence Of suffering while selling This cover up Of a life worth living We have gained nothing From showing our constant best face The knife of politeness Has done well to shield And shame our pain And yet and still There is always the simple miracle of breathing Life Back Into the cracks Of being human One seen and shared moment at a time I’m here for you You are here for me Ask anything of my empathy And I will try and meet you there With understanding /// small thoughts on hidden suffering and making emotional trauma cool again

4,998 Likes | 352 days ago | 44

My happy place

11,280 Likes | 358 days ago | 47

Mama needs a vacation.

2,445 Likes | 359 days ago | 26

Ladies and gentlemen, we continue our journey of improvisational shows in June. This time in Napa valley at @ashesxdiamonds . This one is gonna be PURE MAGIC. Johnathon Rice on dystopian haikus and we, The Shoe, on poetical heart murmurs. Napa valley bringing its finest in tastemakers to delight your palate. Gosh, I’ve never been more excited for a performance. Thanks @kashyk for always being the mad wizard behind the curtains of magical collaborations. Link in bio.

4,965 Likes | 361 days ago | 22

Hashtag momlife

6,628 Likes | 362 days ago | 46

If I gave you the moon , it wouldn’t be enough to light the path we are on together. If I gave you the sun , it would never be enough to describe the simple warmth that spreads between our finger tips. And If I gave you my everything, even that wouldn’t be enough to show you how much of mine is yours. So instead my sweet boy I will give you my word. That my heart is yours forever. To seek comfort and rest in , to break boundaries and mend your bones within. A mother’s vow of eternal love. That invisible cradle that holds you no matter what. Happy birthday Ode. I love you.

4,136 Likes | 363 days ago | 15

I love you for you. For you. For you.

6,176 Likes | 364 days ago | 52

I see your human. No matter how bad it gets. I will always try and see your human. Not just your hurt or outbursts. Or the constant verbal punishments. Or the mom shaming. Or even when you threaten to not let me see my son on his own birthday. I see your human. And I am trying to love and respect you no matter what.

1,607 Likes | 370 days ago | 19

We have a special live performance in the next 15 mins we are sharing on insta live. Friends, lovers, animals and all the sweet babes playing with your mamas phones .... join in and let us all try something new together.

12,408 Likes | 371 days ago | 54

—-INSTALIVE SHOE SHOW ON SATURDAY AT 5pm PST —-Free. Freestyling. Improvisation. Getting away for a moment from the preconceived and getting lost in the unfolding moment of your tongue. I love this holy space so much. Gearing up for some very special shows this weekend ( tickets and info in bio) I’d love to hear from you about stories and words and ideas that you need help articulating into the world. An improvisational writer uses what is around them to create. I’d love to be surrounded by you all. Share! And I’ll pick a few to write a song about. Dm me ❤️❤️❤️

6,448 Likes | 374 days ago | 29

Yes I try to lead by example but mostly I just follow without expectation. And yes this is my child naked except for a wind breaker at the beach.

9,510 Likes | 376 days ago | 19

The shape We make To create Their world Photo of my lovely @bethanymccarty mama in crime shot on film Happy mothering day !!!!

5,857 Likes | 377 days ago | 20

Heaven , maybe, is only seen in the aftermath.

14,663 Likes | 383 days ago | 70

And so it begins again..... #newalbum #theshoeperforms

6,115 Likes | 384 days ago | 8

@jsuskin Your new book of poetry “ At The Edge of the Continent “ arrives today. In hands and hearts and screens. In person, with your spontaneous prayer in mouth. Today, at @skylightbooks at 5pm, let’s all sit and listen to the new visions you’ve brought back from that edge. I’m so proud of you. And love your way in this world so very much.j

5,037 Likes | 385 days ago | 12

Just a bunch of sea dragons. Or how you explain the perfect arch of a lean.

3,119 Likes | 390 days ago | 13

I’m happiest Rugged And amongst the giant boulders I am a woman of the mountains And I’ve always been Better for the wear Of the wind Against The ancient parts of my skin. /// home , again

30,211 Likes | 393 days ago | 259

I am trying sweet boy. Sometimes I feel like they should have given you to a monastery or a flock of wild birds or a better cook. Sometimes I feel so unprepared. So uninspired. It’s very easy to not feel good enough for your magical and testing spirit. You, my gorgeous boy, are almost two years old. And this time between us is full of challenges I’ve never known. Full of the purest joy I have ever felt. You make me a better human being, just having experienced being yours. Be patient with mama. I love you so much. Photo by our magical photo goddess @jordanpaynee

5,280 Likes | 396 days ago | 62

Sooooooo we, the shoe , have been patient with the mystical return of that pulse from above. That mystic muse that grabs you by the panties and won’t let you sleep. She has been calling me closer to create new music. But in a new way. So we are doing some shows in May. All of which will be “ song writing sessions” of a sort. Trying to record a fully live album, pulled straight from that unknown madness that keeps us all woke and hungry. Some in Los angles of course, where my band husband lives. And some on a tiny island in the Puget Sound. All will be telestreamed somehow. So keep watching , listening, staying attune. Send me ideas. I’d love to collaborate across screens. So much love. As big as mountains. #theshoereturns Check out the link in my bio for show info

4,950 Likes | 396 days ago | 16

Little pieces of heaven. Or rather how you fall in love with your own back yard

3,782 Likes | 397 days ago | 16

The earth, or so I envision, deeply values obstacles to grow against. Somehow she always finds her way , no matter how strange things have become around her. I’ve always been called to industrial ruin. It’s deep in my Nevada blood I suppose. I realized today that’s it’s not the man made structures that have caught my eye but rather the delicate coil that nature creates despite the ruin. And always she has been my greatest teacher when I’m lost to my true self , my greatest mirror to real beauty and awe and forever and always my adventure partner , leading me deeper off the path and closer to divine. Happy earth day y’all. Thanks @domwolczko for capturing me in my happy place.

4,151 Likes | 400 days ago | 28

In a field of plenty , you grow with ease ,close to the things that feed you .Growing closer to the ones you love. Allowing what nourishes in and what diminishes to pass through. Find your field and grow there. In bloom and in dormant wait, I’m over the moon I’ve found my place. With you by my side. I love you.

9,944 Likes | 404 days ago | 47

There’s something so small and simple about sharing genes and blood and trauma and experience with some one. So simple it blows my mind the depths that grow there. Today my sister told me she was proud of me and the person I’ve become. These words were like a holy balm to my soul. Roles reverse. And age is meaningless when you share the same emotional landscape.i love you monk. And the amazing woman you have become.

8,667 Likes | 404 days ago | 28

When spring is at its best. The earth receives. The sun shines. And you, the glorious human that you are lays in love and gratitude for all that you have and all the love that is given so easily. #momlife #raisinginreverance #iloveyou #andyoutoo