I seriously dunno wads your problem la ok? If u really think u're not wallowing in self pity here, den perhaps u might like to explain wad the hell u're exactly doing la... Wads with the "i'm so lonely" or "i'm always extra; everyone forgets about me" talk? If u're lonely den do something about it... stop thinking dat people ask u out cuz they pity u. Cuz no one does. We just ask cuz we want to. And when we don't ask, we have our reasons too. Don't take it for granted that everyone will always ask u out all the time. It just doesn't work this way. Not only for u. For everyone else. Its normal for people to forget. And if u're just gonna sit back and tell urself that u dun wanna be extra instead of doing something about it, den too bad if u remain forgotten. PAP doesn't garner their votes by shaking their legs at home and keeping mum... Oh.. Another thing. Stop acting depressed over every single small thing la... Its childish, immature and simply stupid la... Just cuz we don't ask u out? Just cuz another girl dumped u? Just cuz u can't find a steady girlfriend? Please la.. Life is more than dat la... If we don't ask u out... plan your own acitivities la... If the girl dumped u then tell urself u're worth better dan dat la... Cry once, cry twice, den shut up lor... And wads all the crap about NOT wanting to find another girlfriend so soon? No offense but u sound kinda desperate to me la... And yes u are SO right. I've changed. Everyone has. What's the big deal? Life is all about changes wad... Y didn't u look into the mirror the year after u entered ITE and say "WHAT THE FUCK? Y I CHANGE UNTIL LYDAT?!!!" If we could cope with ur "new personality", y can't U cope with ours? Yea i've gotten myself a boyfriend so wad? And yes I dare to admit that he is definitely more important than u. Come on la... If I don't put him at top priority den y do i bother calling him my boyfriend? So stop saying things like... "u got bf le dun wan gor le lor..." If dats the case I should have disowned qr as my jie long ago le ba... =.=" I dont care if u're thinking dat i'm commiting some heinous crime for even posting this... I've had enough la... Stop blaming others for your unhappiness. For heaven's sake... No one told u to sit dere and sulk like a little boy. If u wan to do dat den its ur problem. Don't say dat mr-so-and-so said this and that to make u unhappy. U're the one who allow urself to be unhappy. I used to feel guilty whenever u did dat la... Like i really did something wrong. But as u say lor... I CHANGE LE. And I can safely say dat i dun think i've done anything wrong la... I dun care wad u're going to say after reading this entry. I know it wun be anything nice but so be it. And lastly... I suppose its not gonna be able to penetrate ur thick head but i still must advice u. To grow up. And wake up. See that the world doesn't spin for u. Even if u're depressed, even if u're sad, the sun still rises and sets. And God still doesn't give a damn shit. So please just buck up and do something constructive in ur life instead of moping around. Lets just hope dat maybe one day, all this will finally get into dat thick head of urs.