Thursday, February 18, 2010

The only place in the world...

Where infertility is not on my brain.

Because frankly folks, there is no room for anything other than lipoprotein biochemistry right now.

Yup, I'm in SF at my board review course. 16 hours with 50 uber nerds nerding it up together whilst being overwhelmed with alphabet soup. If you thought lipids were all about LDL, HDL, and TC.. wait! What about those ABC1 transporters and don't forget those SRB1 receptors and the LXR receptors and who doesn't love some CETP and ApoA1 and ApoB100 and...you get the point.

I guess there's some relief in being so completely brain drained that I cannot think about infertility or next steps or much else. All I really want to do is sleep right now and will someone please wake me up when I have taken and passed this damned board exam?

Plus, of all the people I've met today NOT ONE has been interested in my fertility (or lackthereof). Seriously, no one has asked me how many kids I have! No one cares.No one cares! Instead everyone is going nerd to nerd with the scientific stuff, trying to impress each other with their nerdliness. Gawd, you gotta love doctors, especially the cardiologists.

17 comments:

Good luck with your boards! Sometimes the mental drain can be a good thing for your emotional well being. It's like when my mind is realing with the what if's and how come's. My solution has always been to start working or put in a movie to focus on someone else's life other than my own.

Ok, this is the second time that Blogger has eaten my comment. I'll make this short and sweet:

Are you in THE San Francisco??? The San Francisco that is only 18 miles away from my home? The San Francisco that I am waving at right now (look out your window. you can probably see me)? Will you be here through at least lunch time tomorrow? (if so, email me!)

Anyhow, I'm glad my fair city is treating you well, and I'm glad that your brain is plumping up by the hour. Are you enjoying the fog? =)

OMG, I can post again! Just like that...nothing changed...click on the box and it works! Good luck on your exam! I love those places where you really can just be you...and I remember all those bar exams and the nerves, competition and nerds (I'm admitted in 3 states...so 3 bar exams - ick!).

Get your nerd on, lady! And eat some yummy sour dough for me. Glad you are having an IF-free-ish time, and able to just be YOU (at your nerdy best). PS- I've never seen you not ace an exam, and I'm sure this will be no different. One smart cookie.

Awwww Nuts! I can't believe I missed this! I second Meg, I live 4 miles away from her!!!!

Isn't it a pleasant surprize when you fully expect to be flooded with personal questions about why you've been married so long and still don't have any kids, only to find that people could give a shit?! Dude... I'm so happy for you right now.

Good luck! I work with a group of 4 cardiologists, who are varying degrees of nerdy, but it's hilarious to ask them questions about lipid management. You can see their nerd-tennaes pop up and they just get all glowy trying to talk to us lil nurses about the ins and outs of controlling a patients lipids. Its kinda cute. :DHope it all went/goes well!

I love SF! A great city! Of course, I am sure you are up to your eyeballs in all sorts of lipid nerd love. What a welcomed break too. Have fun, fill your brain, enjoy the unusual company that only cardiologists can provide. You will ACE the exam. You're the smartest person I know!

Haha, sounds weird to say (execpt for an IF) that sometimes it is nice that no one cares and inquires about your personal life. Glad your nerd cells are being put to good use and may you pass with flying rainbow colors!!

Nothing like a room full of nerds to bring in an IF safety net. I am impressed that you have so much drive and determination to just keep on going and excelling when it is sometimes the last thing you feel like doing. It has not gone unnoticed. Keep kicking ass, dear friend.

My Blog List

About Me

What's there to say that isn't kind of obvious in the blog title?
We've been through four failed IVFs (straight up BFNs). Lots of surgeries, prodding, testing, etc. etc. All out of pocket by the way. We recently embarked to a famous clinic (for the second time) for our fifth and final IVF which ended in the cruelest joke yet: the dreaded chemical pregnancy.
We have now ventured into international adoption--and are cautiously excited!