December 18, 2009

2009 -A Year of Miracles-

I know I have so much I need to write about, that I have promised to write about....but I can't get this last year off of my mind. 2010 is going to be a whirlwind of starting-over adventures and happy announcements.......and before all of that starts...I really want to finally tell about the last 12 months.

2009 was beautiful and scary and confusing and heartbreaking and wonderful and exhausting. And, surprisingly, 2009 is my VERY favorite year I have ever lived...at least so far.

I want to spend the next week until Christmas writing about the wildness along our path this year.........little miracles that were SO BIG...some of them happened to our family...some to people we love....all of them changed us....got us closer to all that's good and true and we, especially ME....learned that everything I need, everything I will EVER EVER EVER need, no matter what....HAS BEEN RIGHT HERE ALL ALONG.

As 2009 draws to a close....I can feel deep deep deep in every part of my soul that a whole big chapter of life, of my family's life, of my marriage.....of everything that is my personal history is also drawing to a close. I know for sure that this is a necessary step in the amazing wonderful life that is ahead...in spite of the fact that we have never had "less" that we do now....less material things...less stability....seems we have lost everything on earth and FOUND everything that ever mattered in the first place. As much as I have difficulty with goodbyes...with letting things go........this is a door that is ready & almost BEGGING to be closed. I finally know it's time (and man oh man does that ever feel good!).......but first I have to honor everything that is behind that old heavy door, a door that I will kiss and thank for all of it's lessons. I really must share the things we learned as a family in 2009.

.....even if I am the only person who ever reads what I will write over the next week, until Christmas......I must document the miracles that took place over the last year, and what they have meant to us. Some of the stories I will tell I have never told...some I have told parts of. What I know for sure is that TOO MUCH has happened NOT to tell............

Here's a photo I took shortly after we moved to this rental house last year........after we lost our beloved farm ....I could feel that something big was about to happen....but I had no idea JUST how big it would be.....

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2009 -A Year of Miracles-

I know I have so much I need to write about, that I have promised to write about....but I can't get this last year off of my mind. 2010 is going to be a whirlwind of starting-over adventures and happy announcements.......and before all of that starts...I really want to finally tell about the last 12 months.

2009 was beautiful and scary and confusing and heartbreaking and wonderful and exhausting. And, surprisingly, 2009 is my VERY favorite year I have ever lived...at least so far.

I want to spend the next week until Christmas writing about the wildness along our path this year.........little miracles that were SO BIG...some of them happened to our family...some to people we love....all of them changed us....got us closer to all that's good and true and we, especially ME....learned that everything I need, everything I will EVER EVER EVER need, no matter what....HAS BEEN RIGHT HERE ALL ALONG.

As 2009 draws to a close....I can feel deep deep deep in every part of my soul that a whole big chapter of life, of my family's life, of my marriage.....of everything that is my personal history is also drawing to a close. I know for sure that this is a necessary step in the amazing wonderful life that is ahead...in spite of the fact that we have never had "less" that we do now....less material things...less stability....seems we have lost everything on earth and FOUND everything that ever mattered in the first place. As much as I have difficulty with goodbyes...with letting things go........this is a door that is ready & almost BEGGING to be closed. I finally know it's time (and man oh man does that ever feel good!).......but first I have to honor everything that is behind that old heavy door, a door that I will kiss and thank for all of it's lessons. I really must share the things we learned as a family in 2009.

.....even if I am the only person who ever reads what I will write over the next week, until Christmas......I must document the miracles that took place over the last year, and what they have meant to us. Some of the stories I will tell I have never told...some I have told parts of. What I know for sure is that TOO MUCH has happened NOT to tell............

Here's a photo I took shortly after we moved to this rental house last year........after we lost our beloved farm ....I could feel that something big was about to happen....but I had no idea JUST how big it would be.....