Whom have I in heaven but you?There is none on earth whom I desireThough my flesh fail (me)You're the strength of my heart

And as for me, drawing nearTo you oh Lord, is good for meI've made you my refugeYou're the strength of my heart

When I was bitter, deeply pierced withinA reasonless creature in your sightNever the less I'm constantly with youYou took me and held my right handAnd guided me with your counsel(You're the strength of my heart)

Source text Psalm 73 vv.21-26 (NIV):

When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you. Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel... Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart.

Soldiers haunted by the faces of fellow fighters who lost their lives in battle and plagued by nightmare-filled visions of battle scenes are turning to a somewhat unconventional source to end the symptoms of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder: Bible-based exorcists.

“Society thinks PTSD cannot be healed, but society is wrong,” said one veteran who attended Bear Creek Ranch in Portal, Georgia, a ministry by Tim and Katie Mather, News.com.au reported. “It’s called deliverance. It works wonders.”

The husband-wife team have performed more than 5,000 exorcisms, some on veterans — and those with PTSD say the treatment has worked where others have failed. The Mather’s work is profiled in a new book by Jennifer Percy, “Demon Camp,” along with the outcomes of several soldiers who turned to them for help.

The couple provide a retreat based on “Luke 4:18, declaring the good news of the Kingdom, healing for the brokenhearted, freedom for the captives, liberty for the bruised and recovery of spiritual sights,” the Bear Creek Ranch website states.

And that goes for soldiers suffering battle fatigue and PTSD.

One veteran who attended said that the belief is simple: “People are in bondage to a pattern of sin. Trauma is the doorway through which demons can pass.”

And the three-day retreat, complete with food, housing, a demon-fighting workbook and a 30-minute exorcism, is the solution to those afflicted with PTSD, the veteran said, in News.com.au.

The retreat can hold a maximum of 15 soldiers at a time, and the exorcisms are conducted when space allows. They start with worship and prayer, and then bring in the afflicted individual.

Ms. Percy profiled in her first book the exorcism of Caleb Daniels, a special operations sergeant who survived a helicopter crash in the deserts of Afghanistan — but was the plagued by the memories and images of his best friend -and seven soldier colleagues- who weren’t so lucky.

Mr. Daniels said the images that haunted him after his 2005 ordeal were nightmarish and included the presence of what he described as a Black Thing — a “Destroyer demon” he said wanted to punish him “for killing and for living.”

In desperation, Mr. Daniels turned to the Pentacostal church group for help.

He said in Ms. Percy’s book that after the prayer and exorcism, he felt “hot Jesus blood coming down” his face and a “glowing thing” that moved on his legs. He described how the minister then told him, “Caleb, you have a reason to live.”

Those in his prayer circle, meanwhile, described their own visions, saying they say Mr. Daniels‘ wrist bound with wire, and his body tied to the train tracks.

Mr. Daniels said in the new book that as the group prayed, he “felt a burning sore rip open on the back of [my] neck … [and] it felt as if the flesh was coming off and something was being pulled up [my] spine toward the burning.”

Roughly 2.6 million veterans who serve in Iraq and Afghanistan suffer from PTSD-type symptoms, reliving trauma on a daily basis and fighting visions, flashbacks and accompanying negative feelings, News.com.au reported

"My family is gone ... My family is broken up ... split up ... scattered ... dispersed ... strewn-about.

A family should be together...(it) should work together ... play together .. .love together. I am sad, I am sad ... My family is gone. I am lonely. I need My children, My family, about Me, around Me.

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Where are they? where is My family, My loved ones, My people ... ? I see them ... I see them, scattered, broken, bruised, hurt. I see My blood, My flesh, My body... (They) are all over the world ... but they are apart.

My family is hurting ... they are cold ... they are sick ... they are lonely .. .they are in need. They suffer ...they cry ... they silently endure. My little ones suffer the most; for they do not understand their lives. Let them come to Me ... let them know of Me, of My love, of My love, of My love.

As a gentle shepherd lovingly cares for his flock of worn sheep, so do I care for My sheep, My lambs, My infant lambs.

I grieve to see the condition of My flocks upon this earth. I grieve, I grieve.

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Surely I did not intend this to be. My intent was for peace, for security, for gladness and joy. I never wanted this misery upon the earth, upon My creation. I do not ever want such suffering ... for any creature: human or animal. I planned a world, a place, a paradise .... for My family... My human family. I love you all so much ... in ever intended such chaos for you. Hear My heart, hear My heart.

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So why do you rebel and turn form My love? Why do you run? why do you resist Me? Why do you turn to other 'loves' ... other 'lovers' ... other gods and idols of your fancy? Why turn from the One who loves you so?

I see (that) you are all deceived, to some degree ... that is the way of the world. It is a world of deception, of falsity, of mirages, or illusion, of delusion, of thwarted imaginations.

I seek to save you ... I came to 'seek and t o save that which was lost ... that would be YOU! I am the saver ... you are the ones needing Me ... I came ti rescue you, to give you a better life...

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The fire is in the furnace.
What does that mean, you ask? It implies a refining ... a purification. Yes, many of you are laden with sins, with excesses, with fleshly desires, with unabated hungers and appetites .. .all to satisfy the flesh, the mortal man, the natural man. That is to be expected ... I see the ways of the body, of the flesh, of the sexual excess, of the gluttony, the greed, the anger, the hatred. I see ALL the many, many, varied *works of the flesh* .... there are MANY!

Yes, I am well acquainted with ALL your weaknesses, oh man, oh woman ... oh child. I see it all. I see it all. I know all about it ... about ALL of it. I see, I see.

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So how can such an unholy, vile, sordid, evil generation ever expect any goodness, any help form Me? I will show mercy on who I choose. My rain, My mercy... falls on the just as well as the unjust .. .on the innocent, as well as the guilty. I am no *respecter of persons*... that means I am not partial, I am not biased ... I do not show favoritism as humans do,.

I offer (My) love, My mercy ... to all ... I will rain upon the whole earth ... I will send My floods of love to all .. .to all ... to all!!

I assure you, people of the earth ... I will visit you ... in your time. I will meet with you ... I will let you into My covering of glory and grace. You will experience it ... you will (then) KNOW that I am who I said I am!

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It is so easy to judge others, from the outer appearance, or from their 'sin life'. WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE? I am the only judge ... I will mete out any judgement, in My way, on My day. I am a fair, merciful judge. I love justice ... I love defense ... I love meting out good, fair judgement. Judging can be good, can be fair, can be beneficial. I am your defense, whether you know it or not. I am your defender in this life.

I am your mediator ... between you and My Father. I am the law giver. I show you, by My Spirit, what the 'laws of My Spirit are' ...
how they are 'written upon your hearts'...yes.

I supernaturally engraft(ed) My laws upon your hearts, as you offer yourselves to Me; as you give Me access into your hearts and souls and spirits. I take your hard, darkened, jaded hearts of stone ... and turn them into soft, bright, pliable, spiritual hearts of flesh, of My flesh!

You then become flesh of My flesh! We are then true spiritual family, as I always intended!

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If you see (or sense) a brother or sister is in trouble ... then pray for them. Ask Me to help them ... do not presume to know all the details. The details are My business ... I will help them privately.

Send My love to all. Send practical help, if possible! Ask of Me, ask of Me ... what should I do, Lord? what can I do? A simple gesture of honest kindness can be very life-giving!

If it in your ability to help someone, please do it! Do things in secret, if you can. Let no one boast of their giving. Let Me reward you, at the opportune time of My choice. The humble will be lifted up.

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I am free. I am free to all. I am a free God .... Where My spirit is, there is liberty.... .there is real freedom! I am free as the wind! I rush through the skies! I am unhindered, at My supreme place. I am the Most High, yes, but I am with you, here, now. I am the God who sees, who feels, who empathizes.

Turn your words of hatred into words of reconciliation. Let your anger be turned to meek agreement ... and into newly-forged alliances. Let there be new unity! Let there be a coming together of peoples, of individuals, of My lost ones, of My lost and battered sheep.

Let the unity be (as) a foundation for the beginning of My out-pourings ... My fresh flow of Heavenly manna ... coming down upon My beloved family ... My creation, for indeed, I have come for all ... I am come for all of you.

I love all of you.

Wait ... and seek ... and wait again ... for Me.

I will visit.

Do not miss the time of YOUR visitation!"
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"we're young hearts...look at us go...all we really need is a stereo..."...EXACTLY!!!! ...never grow old & stale & boring & predictable & safe ...stay young!!!!!,,,young-at-heart, no matter what your 'biological' age is

St. John 10:10b "...I have come to give you life, and life more abundantly." {words of Jesus}

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"I will lift you up out of your distress. In time, you will be free of the heavy, oppressive hindrances. All the weight of the enemy will be gone!

You will be free to worship Me in (the) freedom of the Spirit. You will dance. You will shout. You will rejoice! I desire My people to rejoice and be glad!

I am THE Lifegiver. I AM joy. I am gladness. I am peace. I am love. I am light. I am truth. I am mercy. I am grace. I am life.

Seek Me first, before all (other) things. Put ME first and I will do exceedingly, abundantly, more than you can ever ask or think.

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Don't look to the natural. Look to Me: to the supernatural in Me. The things of this world are passing away, but I (will) remain forever.Look not to the things which are seen, but look to the eternal, unseen things.

Don't labor for the meat (things) that perish, but labor for My Kingdom. Don't put your trust in treasures of this earth, for they will rust and rot away.

Don't become weary in doing well. Every action done in My love has not gone unnoticed. I will remember your loving ways (and words) ... and will reward you.

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Share. Give. Love ... Forgive. As I have given to you, so love others. As I have forgiven you, also forgive others. And, as I have shared Myself with you, also share Me with others. Don't be ashamed.

It's okay to cry. It's okay to show emotion.. Man would shut you down, but I (will) open you up. The world will tell you (that) you don't matter ... and (that) you are worthless ... but I hold you in great esteem .. and tell you (that) you are very precious in My sight. (Each of you.)

I see ALL your tears. I have seen every tear that you've (ever) shed. I have been with you through ALL the heartache ... and all the loneliness ... and all the fear and terror you've known.

I am closer to you than you (even) realize.

***I do not despise you ... I love you. I created you. I put My Spirit in you (so) that you can live with Me forever. Don't fear 'forever'.

Don't fear 'forever' ... for I will be (there) with you.

The devil would make you fear Me ... and (to) fear forever. Eternity will be wonderful , spectacular, miraculous, beautiful, and joyous forever. You will be with Me. You will never fear again.

You will NEVER be lonely again. You will NEVER be sick again. You will NEVER be worried again. This is My promise to you and to all My spiritual children. (Those born by My Spirit ... those of the new birth ... those who are born again ... and have received My love.)

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I know you don't understand all I am saying , but continue to trust Me. Look to Me continually. Those who continue in My Word are My disciples ... My followers ... My children ... My loved ones. (Yes, I desire ALL to come to Me ... for I died for the entire world, not just a few.)

I am come that ALL have life and life abundantly. I am not willing that ANY should perish ... but I desire that ALL come to the saving-knowledge of Me.

Continue to tell others ... in whatever way possible. Continue to pray that ALL would know Me. And continue to love Me, as I have loved you."

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{Note: The liar/devil/deceiver/accuser (i.e. Satan) tries to give us a wrong fear of God. He tries to make God seem bad to us ... make us believe God is mad at us and is condemning us. The truth is ... God/Jesus loves us more than we can imagine. The devil (i.e. evil one/enemy) is the father of lies. He causes humans to distrust God. Believe the truth, and disregard the lies. God is mercy and compassion. God is love.}

in Him was life

people are cruel

i have had the draining, exhausting, mean-spirited, cruel, malicious, nasty, evil, selfish, arrogant, vengeful, wicked, selfish, proud, religious, false, hurtful, destructive attitude of people attacking me---constantly----and -on many, many levels...it is so bad--and so, so wrong...and, one day --they will pay...and--i will be vindicated...i will be defended... and THEY will pay....justice will be served...karma will be paid...!!

evil is all around us

haha

please don't give up

"Now I know for sure, that the Lord has sent His angel, and has delivered me..." -- The acts 12:11b

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"God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble." -- St. James 4:6b

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"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.' -- Psalm 46:1

meow

heavenly

peace in the sky

small hope

"When I catch the first breath of the Spirit, I leave everything and everybody to be in His presence, to hear what He has to say to me." - Smith Wigglesworth