Mother's Day

I've been dreading it for a while,
now. Well it's that time of year,
and so every time I go to the grocery store
and see all the cards and little gift
bags, I feel like I've come this close
to losing my ever-living-mind.
I recall my first car crash - in an
instant, watching the car in front of
me get closer and closer, slamming
the breaks even though I know they
won't be enough, and thinking
"this is going to hurt". It feels that
way again, only slow this time,
frame-by-frame. I'll buy her
a card this year, and maybe a box
of chocolates, and I'll lay them
by her grave, regretting all the
horrible things that she loved me
in spite of.

This is too sad for words Chad, buy her a rose and lay it on her grave, then buy another one place it in a vase keep it in your room as a reminder that love never ends, she loves you still, every time it rains she showers down too with your memory, sending you peaceful thoughts of healing and comfort, luv vie