I truly hope you survive and make the best of this SLR Magic. I wanted to get this lens and one time but became quite worried about the early negativity surrounding it. I read forum reports from Stephen Patterson as well. I'd just expect a nearly resounding positive review for a lens in this price range. I'm all for competition. I own Zeiss and old leica lenses, only one current modern Leica lens (21mm super elmar) and I'd be happy to trade it for a Zeiss plus cash as I got it in a trade. I love third party and used lenses the value can't be beat. There is no way I'd ever spend $10+k on a Leica Noctilux. Best of luck and hope it works out for you in the end.