I expect today will be a day like all others. Today, at a frantic pace without stopping for food, breath or any form of self care or nurture whatsoever, I will spend every waking minute (and many when I should be sleeping) doing the things I have to do in order to somehow, magically, beyond all reasonable expectations or hope, get absolutely everything done so I can somehow finally, finally, finally, after soooooo many years trying... somehow one day get to do the things that my heart and soul and every ounce of my being are so longing to do. Yes.. insanity.. that's my life!!!

Even more insane... despite my very, very best efforts and intentions every single day for aaaall these years.. I'm not even very good at it. The house is never tidy or spotless, I never eat properly, the thing I treasured most.. my marriage is now gone, the kids are out of control and very rarely do I ever reach my one and only goal... Washing Nirvana!. That's where you have every single piece of dirty laundry washed, dried, ironed and put away before another piece of dirty laundry hits the laundry floor (never in the basket even though I've told them a million billion times!!!!!!).

Oh but every day I get up and do it aaaaall over again. You go girl!!!!

“The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results". Albert Einstein

Maybe today will be different. Maybe, just maybe today I will stop to smell the roses.. and eat. Maybe I will write this post instead of cleaning the house. Maybe things are changing. I can feel a shift. It's very exciting!!!