Random Thoughts and an Urge to Blog at 11:45PM

It truly amazes me how things can change -so much- in such a short amount of time. None of us know how long we have on this earth, but instead of appreciating the wonderful things that we have in this life, such as our families and friends, we take it all for granted. One of these days our parents aren’t going to be here anymore. Our grandparents are going to pass away. Significant others will be snatched away from us. Friendships will dissolve. Hearts will break. Tears will be shed. We all know all these things are a fate that none of us will ever truly escape, but why do we try to act like it’s something that will never happen to us, and only realize after it’s too late that we should have done things differently? It baffles me to think that anyone would go out of their way and try to deliberately push their family away instead of trying to work things out, or not communicate their true feelings to the people that they love. Why is it so hard for people to just talk and let others know how they honestly feel? Why leave anything unsaid? I don’t want to die, but I know that one day that is going to happen. When I die, I want my family, friends, and loved ones to -know- without a doubt that I loved each and every one of them with every ounce of my being for every second that I was alive. I want them all to know that I have alway appreciated everything any of them have ever done for me, and I hope and pray that when I leave this earth I have done everything in my power to make them all as proud as I possibly could. We all make mistakes in our lives, but we can all choose to turn things around at anytime too. That’s the beauty of free will — there is always a choice.