Oh man, I am...and then I read RC's thread about Sable, so I'm a bawling mess. Ugh. Maybe I can pull myself together and get some snuggles from my ManFriend. I love my ManFriend; he is wonderful...really.

_________________sometimes, I see a really cute woman and I'm so excited I poop myself ~ Olives

i'm increasingly troubled by how fond i become of people i've never actually met, when i am so reluctant to feel anything for people i'm around all the time. amelie filled me with hope a decade ago, but now it makes me so disappointed in myself. why don't i ever pick up that book? it is right there.

_________________"rise from the ashes of douchebaggery like a fancy vegan phoenix" - amandabear"I'm pretty sure the moral of this story is: fork pants." - cq

I'm so sore from moving all week, I just decided to start drinking early today. My roommate bought me some stuff that he swears by that has arnica in it to get the golf ball sized cramps in my calfs out. Doesn't seem to have done anything yet.

At least I've slept well this week, that's about all I can say. More godfather shots to come.

I thought I was boarderline tipsy/drunk, but I think I'm drunk. I'm kinda happy I forgot to text that guy I like with the time for the movie because I don't trust myself right now. Okay, I think I might be drunk.

Spiced Cider from Trader Joes heated + Sailor Jerry's Spiced Rum + Big Huge Mug = Accidentelly more intoxicated than planned. Its almost one and all I want to do is dance! Don.t think my neighbors would appreciate that much ....

My BFF (and roomie!) (yeah, in going to keep bringing it up) called in 'sick' and we instead got a bunch of pumpkins to carve and I made Reubens and roasted Brussels sprouts and now they're (both friends and Brussels) all gone, some to sleep, some to has sex, I'm watching 30 rock. James Marsden is hot... Um... My crush is hot... I carved a bison and the drawing was awesome but the pumpkin turned bad because I did it too low so you can only really see the top half... Anyhow.

God I wish I had some reubens and brussels sprouts right now. Or pumpkins. But I just planted mine and it will take several months before I know if we'll even have any....

I started drinking two hours ago when this stupid malware scan began. No idea how long is left. I think I have another good drink left in me and then i'll be slithering to my bed. In the meantime I'm reading a book about feminist approaches to japanese word choices. Makes me wonder why I don't read this kind of stuff when I have free time and am sober.

Kind of yes. It's 12:30 and I don't want to sleep, I just want to stay up and enjoy these fleeting moments of not panicking about all the things I should be doing with my time other than drinking wine and enjoying fleeting moments.