Depression is blind, because you cant see hope. The light is blocked by the eclipse of your soul. ~David Wayne McCannon

July 13,2010

You are totally blind during the eclipse of Major Depression. You have to walk through a dark valley and there is no light of hope in site. Along this walk you must get around some major road blocks that are invisible to the naked eye. The road blacks are self hate, the forest of internal anger, and the deep pit of the hurts of life.

Because of the darkness we cant see that there are others who are there with us along the way. Because of the darkness you have injured yourself. You are afraid to reach out for help, and you feel totally helpless. The light of joy seems like it will never shine again. We must work our way through the darkness. We must let go the anger inside our mind, because it caused the eclipse. We must move our minds from the darkness within to the light that is outside of us.

We cant do this by ourselves. Our Higher Power must take us by the hand and He can guide us out of the darkness. We may need to reach out to a professional for help. We may need a medicine to help the eclipse to end. And it does come to an end. You cant snap out of it; you must work to regain joy and happiness in you life. Weather genetics made us prone to it, or a life changing event, we have to work our way out of depression. We develop bad coping skills that feed our tendency to become depressed. We must accept the fact we are ill. We must reach out for help. We must learn to love and accept our lives as we are. God can help you with this. Cast all your cares on Him.

Most addicts get high with Drugs; a person with Bipolar Disorder gets high by not taking Drugs. It is an addiction in reverse. We just want to live life by our natural means, but it cannot be. Psychiatrists give us drugs to calm us down, but we want to go, go, go, but in our society it is just not allowed.

In our natural high we can create magnificent things. We can go days without sleep, and life for a while can be a ball. Our ambition can leads us astray, and our own imaginations can brings us down. Psychiatrists give us drugs to calm us down, but we want to go, go, go, but in our society it is just not allowed.

After days of our natural high, one with Bipolar will crash and burn. Sometimes it has a devastating effect on ones life. We just want to live our lives by natural means, but it cannot be. Psychiatrist give us drugs to calm us down, but we want to go, go, go, but in our society it is just not allowed.

In our addiction in reverse, we do not like how our drugs make us feel. Sometimes the unwanted side effects of the drugs affect our desire for sex, and cause bad feelings; makes us feel down. We just want to live naturally, but it cannot be. Psychiatrists give us drugs to calm us down, but we want to go, go, go, but in our society it is just not allowed.

One may say it is a blessing to be in a country that has medication for mood disorder like Bipolar. True you can sleep more normally with these drugs. The problem with having an addiction in reverse, one wants to be normal, but it cannot be. Psychiatrists gives us drugs to calm us down, but we want to go, go, go, but in our society it is just not allowed.

When the life storm of mental illness comes knocking at you your door, life seems to be all but over. Hope fades into a distant memory and life is forever change. Nothing will ever be the same. Why should you die before your time?

When the life storm of mental illness comes knocking at your door, in a desperate cry for help you try to take your life. You find your way into a mental hospital with a mental diagnosis. Why should you destroy yourself?

When the life storm of mental illness come knocking at your door, you will learn a new word recovery? Is this a myth? You know nothing will ever be the same. Yet the question remains. Why should I die before my time?

The life storm of mental illness can strike any given time on any given day of life. Like in any storm, destruction lays everything in waste and work is needed to restore order. This takes time. As we know this too shall pass. We learn recovery takes time. We must get to work. We dont have to die before our time.

Despite of the life storm of mental illness life can be good. The good times does come again. We learn we can persevere and grow stronger with the help of our higher power, friends, and through the fellowship of another person. We learn life is worth living; it takes a lot of work, but it is worth it. Do the work, you are worth it.

I am tired of this thing called life. It is full of heartaches and pain. Why must I go through life feeling this way? Can I not even have one day where everything seems okay? I can't cope with life today. I am lonely and it seems that no one cares or understands why I am feeling this way. Why I can't be content with myself, excepting the limitations I have? Why is it that sometimes death seems more desirable than facing an uncertain future and fears we must face each day? Why is it so hard to do the things that are good for us? Why do we feel so helpless when it comes to handling our own feelings and emotions? It is no fun living with the internal pain day after day. I have found that my life has become unmanageable. The simple things in life have become a major burden and more of a challenge than I would like to admit. How does one take responsibility for ones life when all desire to live has faded away? Lord, help me to make it through this day

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