Saturday, September 27, 2014

Old Moons Bespectacled from My Childhood

Okay, okay, don’t shrink back in horror; don’t fake a fever.
It’s a total myth that poetry is hard and boring and uppity.

Here’s proof that you encounter it every day and ENJOY it.

The obvious one is in music. Lyrics (even bad ones) are
poetry. People have favorite songs they sing in the car, in the shower, to
their puppies. Guess what you’re doing when you do that? You’re belting out
poetry!

You see it everywhere. Greeting cards. License plates. Advertisements employ it. It may not
be great poetry but it’s accessible and memorable (and who’s to say not great?)
Sample of one of the best: Raid kills bugs dead. It’s got it all, a strong
action verb, horror and a great end delivery.

Poetry gets harder when it employs too many words that
confine it and distract from the point, when it uses difficult words (who wants
to go to the dictionary every three seconds?) and when it rambles
self-indulgently, with too much self-consciousness and without a sense of self
control. Mostly this stuff is avoided by the masses. Even the classics. And
what about classics? Just because it’s labeled as one does not necessarily make
it something you must like or define as good. That’s up to each individual. You
don’t have to be a Shakespearean scholar if you don’t want to be. You don’t
have to snobbily say you love Spencer’s “The Fairy Queene” or Milton’s “Paradise Lost” if you really can’t
relate or understand. If you truly like them, that’s fine. If you don’t, you
don’t. You can still love poetry. There are no rules. Simply, if you don’t like
it, change the channel. Screw what the critics say. Thinking you must like
something because critics or teachers say it’s good or else something is wrong
with you is...well, wrong.

I’ve been writing poetry since age 12. I’ve been
reading it, too, everything I can get my hands on especially when I was
younger. Confession: I only really love about 10 percent of everything I’ve
read. I’ve read a lot. I majored in Lit./Writing at UCSD. Believe me. I’ve been
exposed to tons of it. And I'm grateful for that background because education is about discovering what you love and don't love. But loving only 10 percent of poetry means that I am “meh” about 90
percent of it. That’s a huge lot of poetry! And yet, I am a poetry lover. I
love it, I write it, I sing it, I read it. When I find the good stuff that
makes my heart grow three sizes in one day (yes, even Dr. Suess was a poet,) I feel like I’ve won the lottery.

My brain is trained to think in the language of poetry. I
trained it that way. I think maybe I was born that way but I forget. My mom is
credited here with helping me 'think' maybe I had it all along because she read to me and my brother
when we were little. Some of what she read to us was children’s poetry from “gardens
of verses” and “treasuries of poems.” Even at age four they filled me with so
many feelings. My mother reading to us ignited the poet in me even at that age. I never forgot that. Later I exercised that poetry muscle by training. I did it on
purpose because that was how I wanted to be and think. The best training was
when I discovered translations of ancient Japanese and Chinese poetry. Those
poets really knew how to write a poem, a real poem about heart, feeling,
longing, life, the Earth, the skies, love…but without being super obvious about
it. Their poems truly stand the test of time. They taught me that instead of saying “I cried piteously” to look for an
image that might 'show' that instead of telling. Like: “my sleeve is wet with
tears.” Those poets, and their more natural styles, taught me about complexities in simplicity and I read them over and over again.

After
college I started over in my poetry writing, banning rhyme and form (my choice;
form is not for me except haiku, but others make different choices and love
form and that’s okay!) I realized I am more moved, shattered, amazed by little
events, personal and seasonal, than I am by world events. So my poems are not
about anything so grand as politics and world order. I am a dreamer and my
dream worlds are odd and alien and escapist. And that’s okay, too. I have
feelings inside for which there are no proper English words. So I think of
images to convey them. Put all that together and I end up filling my journals
with lines like these which I posted to a friend’s Facebook page today:

leaves fidget in the sunset streets

pressure of gold winds

I wade

deep cool trails of ghosts

no one can see the thousand distances

that inhabit my October veins

Sometimes I might throw in a starship or robot or vampire (instead
of the ghost) because, well, I truly never grew up. Weird? No. Remember: no
rules. Everyone is free in poetry to do their own thing. It’s not about being
published or acclaimed, it’s just about opening up to an authentic self and
true wonder unencumbered (as much as possible) by the outside programs and
expectations of others that can ruin everything. You like leather and lace, toss some into your poems. You like bluebells, sprinkle in those, too. You like zombies, same thing. Snails, leaves, porn, picket fences or pickles.

Whatever you love, that's what you should write. Maybe I keep writing the same
poems over and over again; maybe my stuff is truly self-indulgent. But I don’t
care. It’s like the best drug.

I’ll end with a poem I wrote talking about what
I write. I’ve written tons of poems like this. But this one gets to be here
today because it is most recent…like five days old.

Interviewer: Describe Your Poetry

My answer:

I have written of

the old moons

bespectacled from
my childhood

drifts of meteor ash

all the gold and crackling grasses of Earth

bodies of light

empyrean seas

crests of star-waves

stygian mermen with tongues of salt

all the relic Decembers

all the tomorrow worlds

airless and so
silent they roar

the owl determining night’s depths

glazed-green lightning

the sorrow of storms

strange and ridiculous voids

ghost winds crying

ghost moons trailing frail light

the dreams of star-riders

spinning torn from the sun

Wendy Rathbone, author of the poetry collection, Unearthly, as well as the novels Letters to an Android, Pale Zenith and more.