Another Miscarriage In My Future

I bled a little bit on Wednesday. I have bled more today – not actively, but enough to make me worry.

We had an ultrasound at 2:30pm this afternoon. I should be around 10 weeks and 2 days pregnant. The ultrasound revealed a 7 week gestational sac and non-viable 6 week 5 day embryo. I’ve been carrying around a dead embryo for a few weeks now.

I’m devastated. My husband is devastated. I don’t know how to go on. I just want to crawl into a hole and hide from the real world. I don’t want to deal with my toddler – my beloved miracle child. How f$!^ed up is that?

I don’t think of myself as only having one child. Perhaps that’s our destiny.

We have a repeat ultrasound with the OB group that managed the last miscarriage on Monday. I will likely have a D&C as that is the best way to assure that the pregnancy remnants are preseved for testing. The slab of tissue I presented to the OB last time was not useful.

Kimberly, I’m so sorry for your loss. It is not fair. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and light a candle for your little one during my morning meditations. Best wishes for a gentle recovery. We’re here for you at pabl whenever you need us.

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I’m so, so sorry. Although I know the devestation of wondering if there will ever be a second child to snuggle and hold close (and also then having a hard time taking care of that child you do have) — and that’s hard, so hard. I do not know the devestation of repeated loss. I can only imagine the grief and complex emotions. I’m so sorry. {{{{hugs}}}}}
Love and belief,
Tami

Kimberly, I’m dani76 on mdc. I posted something to you there, but I wanted to send you something here too. I’m not going to say I’m sorry, because everytime someone says that to me I want to cry. So, I’m going to say damn, that f-ing sucks. Maybe you don’t curse, but it feels better than I’m sorry. Please email or pm me if you want to talk.

Kimberly, words cannot express how sorry I am. I wish there were a way to keep this from happening and I hate that your happiness was ruined and I sincerely hope that when you get pregnant again, that it is with ease and without any complications at all. *HUGS* This should not happen. It’s beyond unfair.