August 28th, 2007

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Subject:

Reinventing the Exit

Time:

10:25 am

Current Mood:

relaxed

Sorry i haven't been updating lately everyone but ::shrugs:: can't think of a good excuse. Though i spend most of my time bullshitting online i don't actually write much or felt the need to write much. But since i need to vent some even if i don't give full details helps me out greater than anyone can imagine.

The girl that i was interested in is dating another guy, pretty much out of nowhere (i saw via myspace when i was reading my old comments). Which frustrated me because she made me wait a couple of months to "get to know me" and out of nowhere ends up dating random guy? Unless she was talking to the other guy and lied to me the whole time? Regardless when i first found out the first thought in my head was "well that makes sense..." and i laughed to myself.

Yes i was sad i will not deny that but from the get go i wasn't really expecting anything to really happen. With age and enough time you can cope with just about any situation or disappointment. Being the optimist i am at least i found out that there are still girls out there that i truly like. Not to say that i don't see any now but there are more than i originally thought.

In a way i'm accomplishing the goals i set out for myself. I've become comfortable with myself and how i am. I do not set out to be a person that i am not just to make people comfortable. People flock to me like moths to the flame because of how i am. Looking back i don't understand why i had try to hide how i truly am to some people. Despite some set backs i'm more or less where i want to be as a person. Though i admit that professionally i am not where i want to be that will be next thing on my "to-do" list.

Weight wise i'm still going down so i am quite happy despite being lazy the last couple of weeks due to an early schedule for work and my trip to Indiana (which was amazing by the way!!!). Once classes start i want to aggressively work out as much as possible. I am the same weight i was when i started high school (many moons ago) so i am quite proud of that.

No major plans lined up for the coming months, i guess i'll just have to wait and see what fate holds for me.