is this gonna end

give me some relief so i can go on
i mean does this stop?
maybe i should just kill my self if it wont stop in the future?
i see alot of people talking about still being depressed after years and shit
so why should i live if this wont stop, when theyre wont be know light, am i always gonna be in a dark place? i want to live a normal life
will this all stop ?
knowing there this wont stop is depressing even more

i posted in the wrong section but i wanted to know the after effects of depression, if it ever leaves people alone