is this what you call a white lie?lying to yourself,and to everyone you know and love?trying to say what you mean,but ended up saying otherwise?i've been feeling guilty of doing so.i lied to many people,including myself.why can't i just be honest?why can't i just tell it straight to your face that i still love you?and the stories about me liking other people are just a bunch of lies,and i considered it as a way for me to forget the idea of being with you.it's stupid,very stupid indeed.i've been down and have been keeping this to myself for too long.i have to let it out,if not to you then at least to someone or somewhere.the metaphorical speech behind those lies: