I like to explore the world and I feel sorry for people that don't feel the need to do the same. People that don't know where Africa is on the map, well...they should be ashamed of themselves.
This blog will visualise the things I see, the things I feel, the things I experience. You can read song lyrics, see photographs and read my thoughts and feelings on different situations.
Take the journey with me if you want. If you don't, then piss off :-)

Catching my breath, seems effortless,
When I’m ten feet underground.
With my head in the sand, and an empty hand,
Not one friend around.
And it’s times like these I forget to breath,
And damaging my skin.
And it hurts so much, this sharp touch,
But the drive comes from within.

Am I really that beautiful,
For you, to really want to stay?
Am I really that beautiful,
That you, would actually want to love me.?
I don’t really feel that beautiful,
Today, or any other day.
I don’t really feel that beautiful,
I say, I want to take myself away.
Just to see the consequences.
Just to see the consequences.

Watching the sun, as the day begun,
Still feels strange to me.
With my heart on my sleeve, you decide to leave,
Make it look so easy.
And it’s times like these, my mouth no longer breaths,
Injecting the pain.
And you can try to forget, the way that love first met,
But it all ends up the same.

I am forced to question, these people, who tell me I’m beautiful.
What do you see, that I cannot see?
I’m in the position, to doubt their words, I don’t feel beautiful.
What do you see, that I cannot see?

I’m breathing.
But only barely hanging on, through,
This time of your departure.
And I was smiling.
But that didn’t last long, you,
Had to go ruin this adventure.

(Chorus)
Love is gain.
Love is pain.
Love is short.
Love’s insane.

Love is gain.
Gaining the whole world in your hands.
(But) Love is pain.
It falls down and you don’t understand.
(That) Love is short.
But the memory stays on forever.
Love is fake.
Love’s not true.
And I have learnt this, from you.

I’m here.
Back in my space, tenth time,
And possibly the last time today.
I’m trying.
To not be a disgrace, all the time,
And let you fall in to my games.

(Chorus 2)
Love is blind.
Love is so unkind.
Love is poor.
Love is not placed in the mind.

Love is blind.
Blind to all reasoning and compromise.
Love is so unkind.
Never forgiving to any form of lies.
Love is poor.
It takes and it takes, and has nothing to give.
Love is a curse.
Love’s a disease.
Why would you ever want to love me…?

When I have these lines,
Engraved in to my skin?
They’re not for your eyes.
I let your temptation win.

Love is so cruel, so kind.
So wrong, so right.
Love is greener on the other side.

Love is so wild, so tame.
So different, but the same.
Love is nothing, but a simple game.

I know not what love is,
But what it can do.
I've witnessed the special effects,
That it's had on you.
I know not how love feels,
But how it can dictate.
I thought one day many years ago,
That love was in my fate.

I know not why love consumes,
Or why it is so addictive.
I've not joined in the process of loving,
And yet I feel restricted.
I know not when love can strike.
I question if it happens at all?
Funny though, that it's always on my mind.
Just waiting and waiting for the call.

I know not why love is a drug,
To be taken twice a day.
But I know if I don't get my dosage,
Then my heart will soon decay.
I know not why love is sparse,
In such a romantic society.
Seems to only choose the brave,
And skip the weak like me.

I know not why love is here,
Showing itself in such young skin.
Creating a situation,
Where nothing can begin.
I know not why love is you.
You're from a different dream.
I can fight all I can but still,
You, reign supreme.

With someone so beautiful, hanging off his arm.
You'd think he'd want to show them off to the room with their charm.
With someone so eager to please, and willing to give.
You'd think he'd show some respect, and not objectify what he believes is his.
With someone so kind and heartful, polite and loving.
You'd think he'd understand that he has someone, worth having.
With someone so on the edge, afraid of falling.
You'd think he'd be careful with what he says, but he keeps on talking...bullshit.

(Chorus)
He doesn't see,
That it's got to be,
Fifty fifty.
No no no no
He doesn't see,
That it's got to be,
Fifty fifty
Fifty fifty.

With someone so full of shit, and useless words.
You'd think that they could let go, and take back their own damn world.
With someone so hard to change, and stuck in his own ways.
You'd think that they could let go, and move on from yesterdays.
With someone who's so damn stubbom, and controlling then.
You'd think that they could move on, and get the ball rolling again.
And with someone who doesn't listen to a word you say.
You'd think that they could pull back and not, let him have his way, everyday.

- chorus -

Funny how he expects to be understood.
And if he gave just a little back then maybe he would.
Funny how we seem to be the ones in the wrong.
And yet we're the people who think we're being strung along.

He runs wild with the horses,
And he paddles down the streams.
He follows everything that’s in his heart,
And lives out every one of his dreams.

He has no money in his empty pocket,
But he is rich in the hand of love.
He doesn’t do anything they tell him,
But, he still, has enough.

(Chorus)
He takes ten thousand steps to find his way.
Tries to make amends of his mistakes,
From yesterday.
No longer full of greed.
No longer desperate to succeed.
He takes one more step to sin.
He throws his heart out into the wind.
His core starts to bleed,
As he starts to believe.

How many lessons can one man learn,
From a teacher so rich with words?
He’s able to detach himself from them,
While all the pain is being deferred.

No such force as a family.
He is able to run on his own.
Every single thing that surrounds him now,
Officially, becomes his home, form home.

- chorus –

He runs wild with the horses,
And he paddles down the streams.
He follows everything that’s in his heart,
And lives out every one of his dreams.

Time after time oh I have tried,
To let this attitude pass me by.
But it seems it won’t go away this time,
And now I’m left to ponder how to survive?
I wish I could look you in the eye,
And really stare past all of the lies.
But reality tells me to hold on tight,
Something says it’s a bumpy ride.
Time after time oh you have tried,
To win my heart in a great surprise.
But when it comes down to the final fight,
You’re the only one standing in the light.

(Chorus)
I fell below the line.
And I’m paranoid all the time,
I’ve fallen far behind.
And my sanity’ll become frozen.
I fell below the line.
And I’m paranoid all the time,
I’ve fallen far behind,
And my heart will end up broken.
Broken. Broken.

I’m working below the surface now,
And trying my best to sort it out.
I’m picking up my pieces now,
And trying to work this picture out.
I don’t know what to say right now.
And I can tell that you don’t want me around.
I’m finding it hard to breathe right now,
But I gotta move on and live somehow.
I wish I could pack up and move outta town,
But I can’t be true without you around.
I wish I could hold and kiss you now,
I could be everything that will work it out.

Love is, not in what we say but what we do.
And I would have walked, the deepest waters to show my love for you.
It doesn’t hang on the words you often say.
But it forms in the actions you seldom make.
And I should have known by now my mistake,
Was when I give and I give but I never take.

(Chorus)
We could be friends,
But I’m afraid, this is the end, my dear.
We could be lovers.
But I’m afraid, of what’s undiscovered, my dear.
We could be friends.
But I’m afraid, things won’t mend, my dear.
We could be kindred spirits,
But I’m afraid, I do not feel it, my dear.

Love is, not what you feel for me but me for you.
And it’s a god damned shame, that an unbalance reveals the truth.
I can’t love you forever and a day.
And nor can I just sit here and patiently wait.
I shouldn’t have let myself fall into this state,
But I suppose it’s my own fault now for feeling this way.

- chorus –

Love is, not found in the letters we write to one another.
But more in the movements, that occur deep beneath the covers.
It doesn’t just happen while wishing on a shooting star.
But more in the feelings of when we’re apart.
And I’ve said before that you can keep my heart.
As I for one am heading back to the start.

Are you a chaser, a hunter,
A man who wants my soul?
Or would you take no, time to,
Devour my heart whole?
Because I saw you, you’re looking,
But I do not look back.
And now I know that, you want me,
But I do not like that.

You run, run, run, after me.
But I shoot, you, down, easily.
But you still get up again.
It’s not the end.

(Chorus)
I can’t put you to rest, inside my head.
(You always rise inside)
I can’t believe the best, is now dead.
(And you always mess my mind)
How long is this gonna go on for?
I can’t put you to bed, inside my head.
You always rise inside.

Are you a dreamer, a wisher,
Do you believe in fate?
And does the thought of, you love me,
Always keep you awake?
Because I see that, you’re tired,
And I do not know why?
But now I’m seeing, you breaking,
Because our love has died.

You still run, run, run, after me.
But I shoot, you, down, easily.
But you still get up again.
It’s not the end.

- chorus –

Are you a hater, a fighter,
Do you ever give it up?
It’s just I’m trying, to work out,
How to tie this loose end up.
Because it’s killing, I’m willing,
To let you in for now,
But just beware that, I’m flippant,
And I’m not afraid to shout.

You still run, run, run, after me.
But I shoot, you, down, easily.
But you still get up again.
It’s not the end.

Words get thrown around.
Hearts get picked up, and dropped down.
Love gets passed from mouth to mouth.
But it’s never true, in the end.
The stars come out to shine.
We fall into the trap of what is yours, is now mine.
And then all of a sudden somehow,
It’s never true, in the end.

If I could make one wish it would be to,
Have the ability to understand you.
I can’t tell you what’s on my mind.
I don’t tell you what’s in my life.

(Chorus)
No one, no one ever knows anything,
About life,
About love,
Or about me.
No one, no one ever knows everything,
About life,
About love,
About me or my safety.

Nights get spent in each others’ arms,
And memories are full of bliss and charm.
Future plans are made to live as one,
But it’s never true, in the end.
The sun plays its part in the heartless game.
Making all the shadows all look the same.
Shining the light for eternity,
It’s never true, in the end.

- chorus –

If I could make one wish it would be to,
Have the ability to understand you.
I can’t tell you what’s on my mind.
I can’t tell you it’s the end of my life.

A promise was made to live as one,
Until a different lover came right along.
Now Im thinking did I do wrong?
Taking it back to where we begun.
How can we say that we are strong?
When most of us feel we dont belong.
Letting corrupt life tick along,
When a lot of us here are in the wrong.

How can you say you believe in me?
When at the same time you cant even speak,
Words to put my mind at ease,
That we could live ever after happily.
Its the fairytales and the fantasies,
The illusions that we all believe.
How can we take this seriously,
If its a real hard effort to even breath?

How can you stand by what you said?
When every time you see me you see red?
Why cant you just fade instead?
And take your voice out from my head.
Why cant you just leave my bed?
You never really were that interested.
You said yourself our love was dead,
But I still felt I was being misled.

Why cant governments really see,
That people are dying out on our streets?
Hearts are breaking so easily,
Every time we fall asleep.
Its the fairytales and the fantasies,
The illusions that we all believe.
How can we take life seriously,
If its a real hard effort to even breath?