I am Me

hello, anyway I'm Syaza. Uncle Nana's & Aunt Shelly's daughter. Turning to 20. KLMU student. Taking Diploma in Advertising. Actually, idk what to write ! :D I smile &a laugh too much for stupidest reason sometime. Tetapi seorg yg pemalu when first time meet someone new, a paper bag has never seemed like a BETTER accessory for hiding embarrassed laa. I love my friend :) I grown up already, to be a BETTER PERSON & even more meaner than before :) I am not here to pleased any of you people out there. This is just a place where I share my thoughts and random personal things about myself. My sincere thanks to those who became my follower and keep on reading my post. You're most welcome to drop in your comments and opinion, it may help me alot in the future time.
Thanks for dropping .
Loves,
SyzaJacob
TQSM<3

If I die tonightWhat would I do on my last dayI know i'll wake early in the morningCrack of dawn's last rayWill probably go for breakfast like I used to doFried kuey teow F.A.M and roti canai at Raju's with my booAnd friends from way backNeighborhood, homies, extended familyOnly know me as the same catWith that shaved headRocking cross colours, sneaks the schoolRocking rhymes at back of classPlaying tricks on foolsThen I come back to the cribTidy up a bitY'all know my room's messyThough classyStart arranging my shitLine up my shoes one by oneStart with Jordans and end with them Airforce onesPut a post-it on the tongue of each oneWith the name of each dunI think I know my homies and who would want which oneGet on the phone and holler at everybodyIt's nearly noon gots to have lunch with the familyI spend the last day, I don't knowTry to do a million other thingsHoping somehow time will slowI guess what I'm trying to say isTake everyday like it was your lastAnd work towards your dreams before you passAnd have a blast while you're at it'Cos we don't know when we're gonna goSo make the best of itJust keep it real to yourselfAnd to all people, if y'all lost somebody beforeRemember they'll be to see youIf I die tonightYou know we'll be alrightJust smile for meReminisce the fond memoriesIf I die tonightYou know we'll be alrightJust smile for meReminisce the fond memoriesWell, if I die tonightI wonder where I'll be tomorrowNobody cry, please push away the sorrow'Cos I have been the best of manThe best of friendsThe best of mum and daddy's last sonThe best of anythingTell Joe here's the last oneIf I die tonightWill I be forgivenFor all the people I've been slackin' with when i was livin'Those who I've hurt their heartsTook advantage of and even lied toHug you one last time for forgivenessYea, I would like toIf I die tonightWould you feel the lossTomorrow would you dial my number by accidentAnd then suddenly pausedIf I died tonightI wonder who would get to keep my caps and shoes, jerseysEven my little stuffed crocodile, Coco tooGet my cellphone, message everyone from A to ZTell them this ain't MaliqueHe passed away last nightPray he rest in peaceIf I died tonightWhat wouldcha think of my roomWhen you see blueWanted to clean it up this morningBut then I never knewIf I died tonightWhat would happen to TimHow long would it take before she kissed another manGod damnAt fast food jointsWould you still order the same combo meal for 2Things I wish I knewA cute little thing to many eyesTo me you were simply a beautiful thingI tell no liesWe went from mere invisible friendsTo pals real tightA rendezvous'd uponAnd then a chit-a-chat all nightI used to pick you upUntil you got your own rideA slammin two door wheelA grey 3672 lookin' all sleekRemember when I asked why thisYou said because its real fastSo you could rush to see your boy after classThe last time we metWas 01 SeptemberYou left feeling upsetOver something I can't rememberI never apologised til January 10th 2003When I heard you passed awayWhen I was deep in my sleepYour loss taught me not to take my friends for grantedMisunderstandings gotta slam them quickDeath you never plan itYou're sorrowly missed down hereWarwin rest in peaceThis too shall passBut our true friendship will never ceaseLoveIf I die tonightYou know we'll be alrightJust smile for meReminisce the fond memoriesIf I die tonightYou know we'll be alrightJust smile for meReminisce the fond memories

Sunday, March 27, 2011

i wish those who look at you with any interest would beblind. i wish those who speak of you with any interest would be mute. i wish those who think of you with any interest would belooney. i wish those who listen to your voice with any interest would be deaf. i wish those who touches you with any interest would beparalyzed. i wish those who knows you with any interest would haveamnesia.

but they're all just wishes that ain't ever coming true. i could just wish for the only thing that is possible enough to be granted; i wish you would see me as the only existinggirl in the planet. i wish you could grant me this wish because i am so tired of wishing unwishable things. also, because you are mine or at least that is what you told me. you used to think other girls are invisible, somehow you are seeingthem now. though i know your heart will always be mine and only mine, a girl will always think of the unthinkable about their boy. so please, don't poach my heart and grant me this one wish. a wish for i'll be yours and you'll be mine till the end of time.

if u look into the eyes of the one ulove, ublushif u look into the eyes of the one ulike, usmilein front of the one ulove, ucant say everythingon ur mindbut infront of the person ulike, u caninfront of the person ulove, utend to get shy but infront of the one ulike, u canshow ur own selfthe person ulovecome into ur mindevery 2 minute and ucantlook straight into the eyes of the one u love.but u canalways smileinto the eyes of the one ulike.when the one ulove is crying, ucry with thembut whenthe one u like is crying, u end upcomfortingthe feeling oflove starts from the eyesbut thefeeling of like starts from the earsso, if ustop likinga person u use to likeall u need to do is cover ur earsbut if u try to close ur ayeslove turn into tears drop and remain in your heartforever after

am i stop from blogging ? no im not ! cumaa lama tak update. BLANK ! out of idea. haha.

btw, neyh bukan i punya. tp kwn i punya. one of my best ever friend, Peah . girl, im very proud of youu. wuhuu ! you are one of my role model. i just wanna be with you. serious neyh weyh ! aku jelez. grr. rugi sgt duluuu aku study maen-maen. spm pown maen maen. alhamdulillah, now in college life, i've change a lot ! know why ? i just wanna be like you. and be like the others ! btw congrate babe !

Friday, March 18, 2011

i dont even knw wht i feel act . these few days , i was just like not becoming myself . i smile , i sad , i angry , i mad , i cry , i laugh alot , and bla bla bla . ohh god so can die one -.-' HAHA .honestly speaking , everything is sucks for me now . so suddenly i feel uncomfortable with all this thng which is surrounded me . i cant breath wisely , thinks positively . all i can do is just crying , thinks negative and bla bla bla in the bracket is bad .so today i think i have to clear all of it and start my new day with the tittle of HAPPY . ohh god , crappy talks . so can die one haha -.-' looks guys , i am becoming like an annoying one . i do notice about it but i cant do anythg beside control my emotion , online , chillin , hang out with my girls and bla bla bla.

*btw, i cant understand what is the problem with my internet ?why i my fb slowwwwwwwwwww gila weyh ? -___-

Thursday, March 17, 2011

we keep counting days for how long will we still be living in this very own world. yea, for sure we've been through bumpy roads. the ups and downs. passed many major obstacles in front of us. and frankly speaking, thats what make we learn new things. thats make us learn on how to overcome these unpleasantness. to those who strong enough, they will get through these with smiles and its enough already to cheer themselves back and forget the unnecessary. but to those who failed to put that smile on that face back, they end up, crushed and bumped hard. and sure does it hurts. hurts like alot.

*20 nowadays :)

in another 1 months im gonna have my 20th age. there will be some maturity going there baby. i cant be this childish anymore. i cant mumbling bout some unimportant stuffs as my daily conversation. i got to act according to my age and sure my thinking also need to be matured. i got to stand up by my own. and be more independence in every aspect. financially and of course my mentality. =) insya Allah. anyways.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

i have been waiting for you for so long, and now you are here with me, i will never ever let you go baby. we both know that life sometime is not always fair. we know that there will a time when we have to face problems in our relationship, but we will overcome because our love will see us through. they say promises are made to broken, but i say promises is meant to be for as long as we believe in the power of love. i know that in my heart you believe it too. i am so thankful and so happy that i have found my destiny in you.

you are my happiness, a very special blessing GOD has given to me. i am so excited to spending my whole life with someone that i truly madly deeply love and care about, spending each special day with all the love in our heart of hearts. i love you so much F and will always love you until my last breath. that is a promise that i will surely going to keep forever in my heart.

we get a seat for two :) then start to order :) haha. kebulur benar mlm tuu. f kalau boleh nak order 2 appetizer. for me one is more than enough. then i plak kalau boleh nak order desert minis. tapi tak kesampaian jugak coz dua dua kenyang. haha. so gmbr mknn and air boleh tgk dekat gmbr paling atas sekali., that is what we had for our dinner.