Monday, June 12, 2017

54. Do You See?

Hilary, who’d been quiet up to
this point, said, “I feel bad for him.”

“You feel bad for Jimmy?” Daphne
asked. “Why the hell would you feel bad for him?”

Hilary said, “Because he has no
idea just how much of a weasel he is. We say he wormed his way into some girl’s
bedroom, but he says he charmed her. We
see he might be a sex addict, but he sees himself as too sexy to resist. He’s not breaking any laws, so there’s nobody
to force him to look at himself the way his drunk driving did. To him, it’s all
good.”

I said, “I dunno, I’m having a
hard time feeling too bad for the guy.”

Hilary said, “Look, without any
insight there’s no reason for him to change. He’s going to be stuck in this pattern of one
night stands and meaningless relationships until he becomes the creepy old guy
nobody will sit with. That’s sad.”

“You have a point,” I said.

“Maybe,” Daphne said. She
pointed her cane at Jimmy and shook it.

Today I’ll be grateful for whatever insight I have into my own
behavior.