From An Awakened Eye

Monday, April 26, 2010

Speechless

This weekend has been every kind of emotion you can think of....

Thankful...
that I had help setting up for the Beth Moore conference.
Nervous..
that no one would show up
Happy...
that ladies showed up and were blessed
Stressed...
because it took several trips to Life Way to get the books for the on site book store.
Frustrated...
that I was the first one at the door 7 am at REACH and the 3rd one to have my labs drawn (long story)
Relieved...
that I made it out of there on time to grab breakfast and make it to the church by 8 am
Refreshed...
from the conference through the Word Beth Moore revealed in Ephesians 4
Exhausted...
from all the hard work and litterally man hours in the set up and tear down and set up for Catalyst
Blown away...
at the message Vic shared with us at Catalyst and how we try to bring Earth to Heaven, when God wants to bring Heaven to Earth. When He spoke to Abram and told him to look up and count the stars.
Heartbroken...
that a dear friend had a misscarriage, when she so badly wanted this pregnancy.
Sobbing...
for 24 hours I think I have cried. I have poured my heart our before the Lord of all the crazy situations around me. Including a dear friend's brother, Jamie, who tried to commit suicide over the weekend.
Relaxed...
because I took several hours yesterday for some Target therapy and only bought the necesities.
Royalty...
because I was able to relax in a "green room" with couches, water and snacks while I watched Jonathan on a tv screen play for a conference last night. Instead of sitting in an uncomfortable chair when I didn't care to hear the topic of interest. (wasn't really Bible based material)
Exhausted...
to the point that I totally forgot that I had an MD appointment this morning until it was the time I needed to leave.
Thankful...
that the only thing I wear to work is scrubs that don't require ironing.
Brokenhearted...
because a family member commited suicide on Sat night in VA.
Sad...
because I see pregnant people ALL around me. When is my turn coming Lord?
Frustrated...
Confused...
Hurt...
Jealous...
Rushed...
Overwhelmed...
Happy...
Tired...
To the point that I am just speechless!

On Friday I was looking for scriptures to email out to the ladies that would be attending the conference. I was searching for the topic "power in numbers" and found this. At the bottom was a tab that you could click on that said next and I did and this is what poped up:

Overcoming Barrenness

1 Samuel 1:10-11 says,

And she was in bitterness of soul, and prayed to the LORD and wept in anguish. Then she made a vow and said, "O LORD of hosts, if You will indeed look on the affliction of Your maidservant and remember me, and not forget Your maidservant, but will give Your maidservant a male child, then I will give him to the LORD all the days of his life, and no razor shall come upon his head."

These words are written about Hannah, who was barren. But God answered her prayer by giving her a son, and he became one of the most prominent figures in Biblical history—Samuel.

Perhaps there is a "barrenness" in some area of your life, and like Hannah, who was tormented by her adversary—so it is with you. Prayer can change things. It did in Hannah's life, and it can in yours. But there are several things about Hannah's prayer that we need to consider:

1. Hannah's prayer was not casual. It was heartfelt and deep. Too much of our praying is "skin deep." Only prayers that originate from deep within us get God's attention. James 5:16 declares that the effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.

2. Hannah's prayer was specific. She asked for a male child. Too much of our praying is too general. Don't be afraid to be specific in your requests.

3. Hannah wanted the answer to her prayer to glorify God. Her boy would be dedicated to God's service. When our prayers take on the purpose of glorifying God, we have moved into a higher realm.

If you are experiencing a barrenness in any arena of life, pray.

And let your prayers be heartfelt, specific, and for the glory of God.

I was {Speechless}!!!

Hope this touched you as much as it did me. No matter what the situation. It is for the Glory of God!