A blog about inner explorations

Month: December 2013

I feel like this semester has been dragging on the past two weeks. I’m exhausted all the time, skipping class, and not going all together. When I wake up, or try to rather, I just feel that I haven’t slept at all when I probably had a healthy range of sleep. It is really frustrating how tired I’ve been…I don’t know if it is because I get seasonal depression, or if I’m just ready to be rejuvenated with the coming of winter break.

I’m also broke thanks to Christmas and my compulsive shopping problem. In the past two months I’ve racked up about thirteen hundred dollars. It is ridiculous, embarrassing, and stressful. I don’t know how to deal or help a shopping problem, it is tearing me a part and my wallet.

The end of the semester brings a shit ton of work and headaches and not to mention, stress acne. Lots and lots of stress acne. I just wanted to lay in my bed and watch Netflix all day.

I feel like I’ve been slacking at work too. I work from home with my mom as an admin assistant and I do like my job but I feel like I slack and don’t do the best I can, yanno? It’s like this time of the year I have no motivation to do anything. I just want to snuggle by my electric fire and watch Christmas movies. I’m such a pain in my own ass.

I just posted a sweet Green Tea Lemonade recipe and have been on a roll all day just cleaning, but now I’m procrastinating hardcore and avoiding doing my paper for my Western Civilization class. I notice lately I’ve been letting stress take me over, due to finals week and the little bumps in the road life leaves for you. I’m trying to deal with this stress the best way I can, but being in debt, having those winter blues, and feeling extremely tired ALL THE TIME has seriously been bringing me down. I’m reading a little and hitting the gym often with Lexi (she got a membership finally!) which has been helping me immensely. I keep thinking that if I get on track with my eating and exercise it will better my spirits but it is way harder than it looks.

However, I’m really trying to stay on a lighter note when it comes to stress and just realize that it will pass and soon enough the semester will be over and I’ll be off for a month and be able to relax!

Things with Lexi are impeccable, I couldn’t be happier with where my life is going and where it is at right now. It seems that were always on the same page and the way we are with each other is better then I ever expected a relationship would be. I have never loved someone and have been so close to someone than her. Being with her I find comfort, love, and pure happiness. She is my best friend and I don’t know what I would do without her in my life.

Sorry I got a little sappy there, I tend to seem pretty nonchalant about stuff like that but lately I’m all giddy when I’m with her and when I think of her.

Tis the season dudes and dudettes, I am loving the Christmas movies on netflix and the christmas lights in my room, even though I leave them up all year around, they just seem much more festive during this time of year. THE CANDLES! I love candles, but especially now, the warm scents like baking spices, pumpkin harvest, and autumn harvest are so inviting that I can’t help but burn at least one every day.

I don’t really know where this post was going but just rambling can really help me and my thoughts, I hope you all have a wonderful rest of your weekend!

Lately Lexi and I have been going to Starbucks on numerous occasions during the week and we usually get either an unsweetened Green Tea Lemonade (Venti) for about $3.80 or a Vanilla Chai Hot with soy milk, sugar free vanilla, and half of the chai pumps (Grande) for around $4.44, this creates a huge hole in our pockets and lately I’ve been experimenting with both drinks to make a healthy and cheaper alternative.

Today I wanted a green tea lemonade in the worst way and I had to go to the grocery store anyway to pick up some things, so I decided to try to create my own Starbucks drink at home. I picked up a box of 40 tea bags of Bigelow’s Organic Green Tea, and two boxes of those lemonade packets that you use in your water bottles or glasses. This totaled me about $4, close to the price of ONE drink at Starbucks.

I brewed a cup of green tea and allowed it to chill and proceeded to pour a half of cup into a glass of ice and allowed the ice to chill it even more. I then poured HALF of the packet of lemonade then poured another 1/4 of a cup of green tea on top then added more ice.

I had Lexi try it first and she said it was almost identical to Starbucks but less bitter. She likes bitter things such as limeade, some lemonade, and sour grapes. I however, enjoy sweeter alternatives such as sweet lemonade and red grapes. I wanted to have cold green tea on hand so I wouldn’t have to wait for it cool down or water it down too much with ice, so I proceeded to fill a pitcher of cool green tea which took abut six cups. I’m so happy I found an alternative and for $4 I can make numerous servings of an Unsweetened Green Tea Lemonade beverage.

Here is the run down:

Starbucks Green Tea Lemonade (Venti):

Calories: 70
Sugar: 16g

My homed Green Tea Lemonade:

Calories: 5
Sugar: 0g

I think thats a pretty awesome and healthier alternative if you ask me, plus, I get to save gas!