Thursday, July 15, 2010

That is my big guilt sigh, as I try to figure out how to explain my lack of enthusiasm for doing posts on my blog and getting back into reading your amazing blogs again. After my months of hell during these last few shows at my theater, I went on a short break to visit with my daughter and the G-babies and go to my family reunion. It was nice to get away, but I came back to several band trips and then had to play catch up on work that I needed to still get done for the theater. (I had a director quit on me----and have had several weeks of panic!)

But now, I have some time, and I can't seem to get the posts done! I keep putting it off. I have a camera full of pictures. I have tons to say. I want to read blogs. I want to write a post.

But I just can't seem to do it.

Its a mystery, that is for sure. Maybe its like when you get so far behind on something and feel that you can't ever catch up, so you just stay away from it.

I don't know.

I have been doing this blog for almost five years, and I am wondering if I even want to do it anymore sometimes. That is the negative side of me. I really want to keep it going to have a record of my life----as I don't believe that I will ever write my auto-biography one day for my children, etc. That is the hopeful side of me. I really do enjoy the writing---it helps relieve my stress, in a way. That is the positive side of me.