but...i'm back to work today after a 5 day breakincluding wakes and funerals andtrying to hold it together andmake your dad laughwhen you know he is trying so hardnot to cry in front of youand no matter how many timesyou say it's ok to cryyou know he won't break down in front of youbut the sweetness of that secondwhen he held your hand tightand walked across the parking lot of the church{when was the last time i held handswith my father...i'm not sure i know}