Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Well, if there is anyone out there who is still remotely interested in my little green bloggy, I'm attempting to make contact...

I know, it's been a while.

I just couldn't bring myself to type into this window for the last few months...

My life, my world, had been thrust from it's axis and sent spinning wildly from it's orbit. Needless to say, it has been a really rough ride, the sheer g-forces propelling events in various tangential directions rendered me virtually deaf and dumb for a time. As a result I buckled up, braced myself and hung on for dear life, attempting to get through the last few months without being ripped to shreds.

In short, my life has been excrement...buffalo chips...meadow muffins...basically poo poo courtesy of a very large animal.

Here's the 411...

My divorce has been and continues to be very contentious (I could say more here, but I'm saving it for the teleplay), quite costly and currently in stasis. I have been laboring 50-60 hours per week in order to pay for the formal demise of my marital mayhem and as a result of this epic life event, I have become a very neglectful housekeeper (seriously, the dust bunnies have planted their flag and named their new territory Watership Down) and I am a shadow of the parental unit I once was. I am finding it difficult to finish tasks, both menial and material. I wade my way Monday through Saturday (and sometimes Sunday) without enthusiasm or motivation. The bottom line? Yeah, I am deeply in debt (hey, Beverly Hills divorce attorneys claim a few pieces of eight), still not divorced (UUUUUGGGGGHHHHH) and as if these two factoids were not enough, I have a distinct possibility of losing my home (more salt in your wounds Ms. Linoleum?).

Can someone stop this ride? I'm feeling sick and I'd like to get the hell off.

Okay, I do have at least one thing in my favor...

I'm a tough old bat (don't make me put on my knitted black wings). So, I will get through this, teenager in tow. Okay, this time next year we may be living in a fridge carton off of Ocean, but I'll be happily single and the waves will drown out the sound of my adolescent's whining, so all is not lost! I wonder if all of my yarn and fabric will fit in my future mobile home? My stash might make for a comfy mattress...

My glass? Definitely half full.

Anyway peeps, I'm back and I've missed you guys (you've no idea!). I have a lot to share, both crafty as well as calamitous. So, in other words, stay tuned because this blogging catharsis has only just begun...

Didn't Neitzsche say something about "that which doesn't kill us, makes us run for the hills...?" Hmmm, maybe it was Iron Maiden. I am hoping your particular crazy train slows down soon and many good things come your way. I look forward to hearing about your creative wonders.

I've been thinking about you and Lena a lot and yeah, what you wrote was what I was thinking, but I was also thinking that your theme song should be "I Will Survive". You're smart, tough, self-reliant and a great mom. Remember that.

ditto what Deneen said...it has been a tough year for a lot of people...

This last year my husband lost both of his parents, I had my purse stolen, identity theft, vehicle vandalism, and lost my job...

We have been trying to focus on the positives like having our health (and yarn) and just push pass the negative. Your blogging buddies will always be here...take care of you and your daughter and you will work past all of this!

Good to see you post. I understand the absence. I haven't blogged in a bit (although not quite as long as you) as we had been dealing with the death of my hub's ex (the mother of my three step children).

I'm sorry things have been bad for you. I emailed you not too long ago with a special request and at least now I know you probably didn't see the email. I'll go ahead and post the message here.

Regina, I have stage 4 Kidney Cancer.

I know that the Gollum Hat is a free pattern but is there any way I could pay you to make one for me? I am on chemo and my hair is almost all gone and since everyone will stare at me, your hats would be the best thing for them to stare at! I live in Seguin, Tx which claims to have the world's largest pecan so a pecan pie beret would also be nice too.

If you are willing to make me one or both hats, please let me know. I can pay you on paypal for the hat(s) and shipping.

I am allergic to wool so if you can't make the hats with a substitute, I understand. Bald heads are so sensitive as it is and the chemo makes it worse.

I totally understand if you can't do it but I didn't think it would hurt to ask. Your crochet makes me happy! My email isbillrcar@yahoo.com

So sorry to hear things have not been going well - been there my friend! Although it must feel very bleak right now, you will come out of it and debt or no debt, you'll be free of a millstone round your neck. My lovely ex left me in debt, in a foreign country, with 2 small children & no income other than the sale of my car - that was 15 years ago & life has been rebuilt better than it was before. Things WILL get better!

I used to work with a divorce attorney, and I was always amazed that you can get married on a whim--not even a blood test in Arizona, no more planning than the length of time it takes to get to the courthouse and fill out the paperwork--but getting divorced takes about a year. (More if one party wants to fight about it. We once spent THREE DAYS IN COURT arguing over the (fake) Christmas tree and half the family pictures.)

There's something dead wrong about that.

Hang in there. The bottom line is that you will get through this and be able to rebuild.

Aw, I'm so sorry things are pretty hellish at the moment! I've been a silent blog follower for a while, but your current state of being seems like it could use the extra internet hugs :(

I'm sure someday (hopefully sooner than later!) you'll be able to look back on this time as if it were some strange nightmare from the distant past...and who knows, you may be able to squeeze a few dark laughs when reminiscing about it.

Just remember that these are some great character building times for you and you kid, and don't stop counting those blessings of yours! Hang in there!

I just finished working your great bat pattern from last year. In-spired. I hope you feel up to continuing making off-beat crochet items. I periodically get back to your site and it always cheers me up.

Every day or so i checked your blog..a good day for sure..because you are back !! now stay back and be tough...we all miss your words and works...so full steam ahead.. & know that we support you and send good vibes..

Aw, my heart's breaking for you. I kept checking your blog like every other day and when days would go by without a peep from you, it was apparent something was wrong. Sorry things aren't going so well right now, but hang in there!Just remember that you've got people who care for you (even though we've never met).Sending hugs!

Don't worry, we will all be here when you make your big return. Just make sure you take care of yourself and your daughter first and foremost :) I will be looking forward to seeing your upcoming creations! Big hugs and love to you, hope things start getting better soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx