Belonging

Summary:
Heaven just moved to Eatonville Washington. Another move due to her "problems". She is dying inside as her parents distance themselves from there "freak" daughter. She doesn't know why she is freak, or how she ended up the way she is.
Edward is bruised and broken after Bella chose a life with Jacob over him. Can Heaven let the Cullen's know her secret? Will Edward drop his walls and let this sweet stranger into his life?
Will she ever find somewhere that she truly belongs?

Notes:

5. Chapter 5

The rest of the day went by as expected, nothing too exciting. I did have my last period with Alice though, and I was happy about that. After history was over, Alice came bouncing over to me as we were exiting the classroom.

“Hey, do you want to come over to my house to do homework?” She looked at me expectantly.

I figured my parents still weren’t home so I agreed. “Sure, think you could help me with some of this math?”

She gave me a brood smile, “Of course, come on lets get going though before Edward leaves us.”

My stomach gave a small lurch. I had forgotten about the car ride to her house, with Edward. I expected that since we were no longer going to be in the presence of anyone, he would continue with the attitude and hateful glances. I was going to ask Alice later about the “damage” she said her brother had.

We got out to the parking lot quickly, and saw Edward leaning against the Volvo waiting for us. He had the same grim expression on his face, still no emotion showing through his eyes. I let out a sigh of relief. When he saw us, he turned around and opened the door to the driver’s seat and got in.

Alice and I followed, and got in the passenger side. As soon as I was in the back, I let the warmth crawl up my legs and cover me. By now I was used to the sensation of it coming and going when Edward was present. We drove in silence for a few moments before Alice was the one to break it.

“So Edward, how was your first day?”

He sighed, maybe a little too dramatically, “Same as every other school, same old stupid people and boring classes.”

He glanced into his rearview mirror at me when he said stupid people. I felt ready to explode with rage. I couldn’t believe his audacity. I took everything in me not to come back with a rude remark. Alice didn’t reply to him, and the rest of the way to their house was in silence.

When we arrived, Edward got out of the car first, slamming his door behind him. Alice sighed loudly, and started to open her door when I stopped her.

“Wait, do you want to go for a drive?” She looked at me with her eyebrows raised.

“I just wanted to talk to you about something.” I said.

She smiled and jumped over into the driver’s seat, thankfully Edward had left the key in the ignition. We pulled out of the long driveway slowly, but as soon as we got to the road Alice started speeding up. She drove just as fast, if not faster than Edward was. I couldn’t help but wonder what was with this family and there need to travel at such great speed.

I asked Alice, “Why do you guys drive so fast, aren’t you afraid of killing yourself, or hurting something else?”

She laughed, “No, we’re careful don’t worry. You’re safe with me.” She glanced my way and smiled at me. If only I could tell her that it wasn’t my own safety I was worried about.

Alice pulled the car down a gravel road, it was sprinkling now, and from the looks of the clouds it was going to get worse. We drove nearly ten minutes, until we reached a clearing. Looking ahead I saw a small stream. There was a bench, trees towering around all sides, next to the stream.

Taking a seat on the bench, I took a deep breath of air, inhaling the scents of rain, the stream, and the wet wilderness around us. I got a sense of peace and serenity. It was beautiful. The stream was shallow, and clear. The water running smoothly over rocks.

I turned to look at Alice and she was smiling at me, “I found this place about a week ago. It’s beautiful isn’t it?”

I only nodded in response.

She continued, “I know what you want to talk about, you want to know why my brother is the way he is, don’t you?”

I looked at her in surprise. How could she know that’s what I was wondering? I hadn’t said a word about him since the weekend.

She could tell I was skeptical, “I saw the way you were staring at him earlier; it was a mixture between curiosity and anger.” She gave a short laugh.

“Well I’m not trying to impose or anything; I’m just curious why he is like that. I don’t see how someone can hold so much anger! He confuses me so much, one second he is looking at me like he wants to kill me, and the next he’s blank! I’m usually pretty good at reading people and I have no idea why he wouldn’t like me when he doesn’t even know me!”

She looked at me with a sad smile, “Don’t worry Heaven, your not imposing. My brother has a lot on his shoulders right now. Let’s just say it has to do with a girl. She left him, and he loved her. He loved her more than anyone could love anything. I can’t go into details, due to that fact that it is his personal life. But let’s just say, that maybe you remind him a little of her. That’s the only thing I can think of that would make him dislike you.

But I can tell you it’s not so much his hatred of you, as it is hatred of himself. He believes everything bad that has happened to him and to others close to him, is completely his fault.” She was talking so fast I could barley keep up with her, “He has so much on his shoulder’s weighing him down right now, he’s never happy. That’s why I’m always trying to get him to do something, anything with, any of us. Ever since Bella left him for Jacob, he’s gone into such a deep depression he barley speaks to anyone.”

She became silent and the look on her face told me that she had said too much.

“Don’t worry Alice; I’m not going to say anything to him. I don’t want him to hate me more than he already does.” I tried to reassure her.

She looked up at me and smiled, but it wasn’t a smile of happiness. It was a troubled smile.

Listening to and thinking about Edwards problems reminded me of my own. The way he blamed himself for his and everyone else’s problems made me think of how I did the same thing. Though, I had a reason to. I was a freak; Edward was a normal teenage boy. Now I was the one looking down at my hands. He thought he had a lot on his shoulder because of a relationship gone wrong. I sure could tell him a thing or two. I could feel Alice’s eyes on me now, and I knew what was coming.“Well, now I told you about my brother and his problems. Now tell me, why do you always look so sad. What’s eating you up?” Her tone was soft; it made me relax a little.

I felt I could confide in her, I wanted to tell her everything so badly, but I knew I couldn’t, no matter how much I needed someone.

“Just my parents, I never get to see them. They are always gone on business. It’s like I’ve lived alone since I was twelve. They move me to somewhere new, and go off and do there own thing. Then come back, and we move again. I know they don’t want to be around me, but it just hurts. Sometime‘s I wonder if they really are gone on business, and not just living somewhere else away from me.”

She raised her eyebrows, now I had gone and done it and said too much. Surprisingly though, she didn’t ask me why. She smiled and pulled me into a hug, “Heaven, we haven’t known each other very long, but I feel like I’ve known you my whole life. You know I’m always here for you. Since your parents aren’t home a lot, I can always come over and spend the night with you.”

I hadn’t realized it but I was crying. I sniffed when she pulled away from me and wiped my eyes. I looked at her and gave her a half smile, “Yeah, I’d like that. It would nice to have someone around for once.” I put all of my worry and stress of being discovered aside. I needed someone, anyone. I took a deep breath to calm myself down a little bit.

Alice stood up, “Let’s head back to my house and get some homework done.” She smile at me and extended her arm out to help me off the bench.

When we arrived back to Alice’s it was raining hard, you could hardly see the road through the windshield. Thankfully Alice pulled into the garage, saving us from getting wet. When I got out of the car and looked around, I couldn’t believe what I saw.

The garage was enormous. There were three, what appeared to be very expensive cars around us, not including the Volvo. There was also an empty space where I assumed a car was usually parked.

Alice, standing next to me now, saw the look of shock on my face. She quickly hopped over to the yellow Porsche. “This one is mine.” She said with a large grin.

“The Volvo is Edwards, the Jeep is Emmett’s and the BMW is Rosalie’s. Carlisle is at the hospital, so his car isn’t here right now.” She rattled them off so fast it took a second for it to register.

“Wow,” was all I could say.

“Well let’s go get started on our homework.” She already had our backpacks in her hand and was heading to a door on the far left side of the garage. I ran a little bit to catch up to her, still in awe of all the beautiful cars.

When we got into the house, we entered through the door into the kitchen. I tried to look around, but Alice grabbed me by the hand and pulled me through the room quickly. Trying to keep up with her fast pace, I was near running by the time we reached the couch in the living room. She plopped down in the far right side of the elaborate couch, and put our backpacks on the table in front of it.

She pulled the table closer to us, and began to unzip her backpack. She did everything so quickly it took a second for all of it to register. She already had her homework laid out in front of her.

“So, let’s do Math first, yeah?” She smiled widely.

I nodded my head, and unzipped my backpack; pulling out my binder and books, I gave a heavy sigh. I loathed math. Alice scooted closer to me on the couch with her book sitting in her lap. She began to explain the equations and how to work them. With Alice’s help, everything began to click.

About halfway through the lesson, I suddenly felt my guard blossom around me. I knew only to well what that could mean, and looked up from my work. Edward was making his way down the stairs, he moved so quietly if it wasn’t for my body putting off these signals, I wouldn’t have noticed he was coming. He gave me a sideways glance, and continued through the living room and out the door, slamming it behind him.

Before I had a chance to realize what was happening, I felt a small vibration near my hand. I sucked in a breath of air…Alice had tried to touch me. I dissipated my guard quickly, but not quick enough. I turned my head to her, and she was trying to rub her fingers lightly over my arm, but they were simply running over the air.

Finally her fingers fell, and they slammed against my arm with such a force, a bruise was already appearing. Suddenly she pulled her hand away, and looked up at me with wide eyes.

I jumped up quickly, grabbing my books, stuttering, “I.. I have to, umm, go now.” I was turning my back to her to walk into the kitchen, when I felt a small wind, and suddenly she was standing in front of me.

“Wait Heaven, don’t go yet.” I looked down to the ground and tried to walk past her, but she was in front of me again before I had the chance. I looked up at her this time, irritated.

“Please move.” I spat through gritted teeth. I wasn’t so much angry at her, than I was at myself.

“No, I’m not going to move, so please come sit back down with me. I just want to know what that was in there.”

“It was nothing, I don’t know what you’re talking about so please just let me go, I need to get home.” I was beginning to lose my cool, if she wasn’t going to move, I was going to move her myself.

“Heaven, please! You know what I’m talking about, why couldn’t I touch your arm? Do you honestly think I didn’t see what happened to your finger in math class your first day? So just come sit down and talk to me, and then I’ll let you leave!” She was talking so fast I could hardly understand what she was saying.

“Why Alice, do you want to poke fun at the freak? Is that it?” I could feel my tears burning at my eyes. I was determined she was not going to see me cry.

“God Heaven! Do you really believe that you’re the only person in this world that is different, if there’s one, there has to be more right?” She was nearly yelling at me by now.

I needed to find an escape. I looked at a vase that was sitting on a high shelf. I concentrated a little, and watched it slowly tip over and begin to fall from the shelf. It gave a loud, shattering, crash when it hit the ground and Alice turned towards it quickly. I took this as my opportunity and bolted around her. I didn’t even get ten feet before she was in front of me again. This time I saw her move, and I saw how fast she was. Actually I wasn’t sure if I had seen her at all, when suddenly she was there.

“Stop!!” She yelled, seeing my expression she laughed a little, “See Heaven, I told you, you’re not the only person in the world who is different.”

I faltered, not knowing what to say. Not sure if I had actually just seen what I thought I had.

“What... How... What’s going on?”

I backtracked a few feet and nearly fell on the table. I sat down, and exhaled loudly. I look at Alice in astonishment,

“How did you do that?”

She gave a light, airy laugh, “Do what, this?”

She was sitting on the couch, and it was as if I hadn’t even seen her move.

“I’m different too Heaven. My whole family is. Only we weren’t born different like you were, we were made this way.”

I thought I saw a hint of sadness in her eyes, but it was gone before I could tell. Her face was radiating a brilliant smile. I didn’t know what to say. It seemed more than I could fathom that someone else was different like me. That maybe I wasn’t the freak I thought I was.

“How did you know I was born like this?” I questioned,

“Well I just assumed, due to the fact that you are definitely not like us.” I raised my eyebrows, still in shock.

“What do you mean not like us?”

“Well, I’m not going to go into great detail right now. I don’t want to scare you. So please, tell me about yourself. The real you.”

I gave a small smile. Maybe there was someone I could talk to, someone I could depend on.

“Well, it all started when I was about three…” I continued on to tell her what had changed my life so drastically at such a young age.

“So you have no idea how this happened to you. Obviously your parent’s have never taken you to a doctor. You can really move things too?? Just from looking at them?” She shot her questions at me so fast, I didn’t know what to say.

“Yeah, I can. No I’ve never seen a doctor. Really ever since that bad flu I had as a kid, I can’t recall ever getting sick. Sometimes I think that it screwed up my brain or something.” I looked down at my hands.

“Heaven, your brain isn’t screwed up. You’re not as different as you think.” She smiled broadly.

“Now tell me about you Alice, I want to know. I doubt anything could scare me at this point.” Her smile dropped.

“Okay, if you insist. Though I doubt you will want to come around much after I tell you this.” She said, laughing bitterly, “Well, if you want me to put it blatantly, my family and I, well… were vampires. If that’s what you must call it.” she laughed again. I looked at her, unsure whether she was joking or not. Her face was stone cold. I felt a few butterflies in the pit of my stomach.

“Vampires, really?” I looked at her, still skeptical.

“Yes, really. As in we drink blood, don’t eat and don’t sleep. Amazing strength and speed, as you can see.”

She saw the look of horror on my face and continued on quickly, “But you see, my family and I, we survive on animal blood. So don’t worry, I wouldn’t ever hurt you. Plus, I can‘t even smell you for some strange reason. Esme said she didn‘t notice a scent coming from you either.” I laughed uneasily,

“I’m not really sure if you could hurt me, I was thinking more of others around me.” She laughed loudly,

“Oh I see, well not all of us are the same. There is only one other coven like ours, that survive on animals I mean.” She went on to tell me about how old everyone in her family really was, and bits and pieces of how they became the way they are.

“So you eat animals, your really strong, and super fast. Young forever. You don’t sleep. Is that it?”

“Not entirely. Well we don’t really have to breathe either. That’s just to help us stay unnoticed, and obviously for talking. For some it’s harder to resist the smell of humans, for others easier. We cannot go into the sun. We won’t just poof into dust, but if a person saw us in the sun… well they would know we were not normal. Then some of us can do other things, extra things.” She trailed off,

“Like what?”

“Well Edward, Jasper, and I are the only one’s in the family that are different. Edward, well, he can hear thoughts.”

I laughed, “Really? Well I hope he listened real well what I was thinking about him today.”

“Actually Heaven, I don’t think he can hear you all the time, like everyone else. I also think that is a lot of the reason he doesn’t like you. From what I’ve gathered, he can only hear you when your guard is down. Bella was the only person’s mind he has never been able to hear. Now yours, but not always.”

“Well that makes sense, now I can at least have a reason for the hate. Now what about you, what makes you and Jasper different from others like you?”

“I can see the future. But it isn’t always a guarantee. When the person in the vision changes their mind, or direction, the vision will change. Jasper, he can sense emotions, and change the emotions of those around him.”

“So then you can see me?” I asked

“Only sometimes. Others your more of a big blur, I know it‘s you, but I don’t know what’s going on.”

Suddenly, I felt the heat rising up over me again, my cover protected me. I knew he was back. No more than a minute later Edward walked through the door.

When he got in, he stopped dead in his tracks, and turned to look at Alice slowly, like a predator getting ready to pounce on his prey.

“You told her WHAT!?” he shouted. Alice had not said a word. This for me confirmed that he could, in fact, hear her thoughts. Alice turned around to face him.

“Get out of my head Edward. What I talk to Heaven about is NONE of your business.” He looked as if he wanted to kill her, then glanced at me. In was seemed only a second he was up the stairs, and I heard what sounded like his bedroom door shatter, and then a guttural scream of rage.