I’ve been home alittle over two weeks now, feeling new, feeling revived. Thanking God for ever moment of the day. I’ve been through a lot, and it seem as thought all I been through was nothing at all. That’s how God works, He makes everything alright, so He can get the glory. I choose life, my struggles was Only for God to get the glory!, I’m free, and whom ever God sets free is free indeed. Im not a people pleaser that doesn’t fit well with me. The Lord have shown me over and over again, He is in control. Living to please God isn’t easy, trying control my emotions, my angry, and trying not to hurt others, we all know this is a task everyday we wake up in the morning. I’m telling you it’s not worth it, what’s not worth it? letting people run you in the ground. At the end the day, you’ll miserable from holding to they’re problems, that you either create for yourself, that wasn’t even meant for you to get involved in. Leave people and there problems alone, let them deal with they’re on mess,. Situations don’t go away, you have to overcome them. Prayer is the key to strengthen you, keep you focus on the things that are important in your life. Pray and ask God to deliver you from the cares of this world. People don’t care about what you need, or what you want. They will go to the ends of the world to destroy you. Be faithful to God, because He loves us all! GOD IS WORKING BEHIND THE SCENE. The same person that broke you, God will build you up in front of them. God sets things in order.

THIS IS MY SEASON TO REAP THE HARVEST GOD HAS BEEN WAITING TO GIVE ME.

Everything went smoothly, no complaints. The mission work was a complete success. I didn’t let anything or anyone hinder me. when I made up my mind, to do something, I stuck with it. I have many struggles in Kenya when it comes to asking for help, or making things happen. This year God gave me a wonderful young lady to work with. We work well together, I thank the God all the time for the support, Edwinder gave me. Our plans are not like the lord plans. When He does something, He does it right. He opens doors, no man can close. Well, there’s nothing to write about much, this journey to Kenya was led by God. I didn’t try to make things happen, I was stress free. Nothing in this world can stop God. What the enemy meant for bad, The Lord turn around for my good. Enough said. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 Prayer changes things, it moves the old out, and moves in the new. I’m rejoicing, because I know the lord did it all. I Stayed focus, on the word of God, despite how I felt at times, being alone even sometimes confused, I said devil get out of my head. I reflex on my past…. not this time devil! I put my trust in the lord , my faith into action, and I BELIEVE. Until my next journey, GOD BLESS KENYA 🇰🇪

We sit and dream of many things, and wonder what today will be like, or if tomorrow will just be dreams, and thoughts about yesterday. Life is like breathing in the toxic waste, everyone is polluting, by the things they do, and the horrible words they speak. Sitting, and waiting to suck the life out of every living organ that works in your body ( LIFE ). Underneath my mosquito net thinking, what is it, that make people, change into that horrible green monster, that was once a tender butterfly ( LIFE ). One minute up, the next second you’ll at a crossroad saying, did that just happen. People will flip the switch on you! You’ll thinking what the h.. Then you ask yourself, why I didn’t see it coming ( LIFE ) we must cont. to love life, and never let people interfere with progress. At the end of the day, it’s all about what they want. People don’t care about how they treat you, pretending to care and plotting at the same time. They will go to the ends of the world and back to get what they want out of you. Think about your life, and look deep within yourself, and ask this question, do you love LIFE ? I do. Peace, love and forgiveness can only come through Jesus Christ. A good life is a peaceful ( LIFE ).

I’ve been in a lot of pit falls, many I thought would surely destroy my destiny. We were born with a purpose, No one can live your purpose, only you can. If not careful, you can destroy your own destiny. I believe when opportunity comes our way, And God reveals things to us, we must take extreme measures to do what it takes to make things happen at the right time. Things happen seasonal, I believe I’ve miss some seasons, my emotions took the best of me. Maybe I’ve lost one or two lol. Pit falls can work either way. If you’ll in a pit, and waiting for someone to pull you out forget it! Pits falls are made to teach us a lesson. Pits falls can make you strong or make you weaker. My weakest point, which are many. I’ve noticed everytime I survived a pit situation, people I thought would be with me, got left behind. It’s takes a strong will to survive pit falls, it’s horrible thing to lay there with dirt on your face, waiting for someone to cleaning off. I thank God for my pits situations they made me stronger, and they made me wiser, and most of all, they taught me to only trust in Him.

I’ve been in Kenya 14 days tomorrow. This is my season to let go and let God. Truly I know I’ve let go, because I’m at peace. Let’s talk about me for a moment. The ministry will Be six young years in March. I work very hard at trying please God, But some where Along the way I got lost. Trying to make things happen, that wasn’t in God’s plan. Yesterday is gone, but my pain didn’t escape me. Years of letting myself down, TRYING TO PLEASE OTHERS. I was only digging holes for myself. I assume, I had fail. BUT GOD! Patience causes a lot of pain, when God is telling us to wait, we must be patient. God puts a hold on things, because he’s trying to protect us. it’s all for a good reason, God makes know mistakes. A hard head, makes a soft…..you know what I mean. I’m at peace, finally, I really turn it over, and gave it to the lord in prayer. Ministry/missions is not easy. I have never felt the peace of God in my life, like I do now, since the ministry began. In 2012. I give God all the glory. Letting go is peace. Of course it’s not easy to do, but if you keep praying, and praying, the lord surely will set you free.

I been home from kenya for some weeks now, and it has been very hurtful for me. Things didn’t go the way I wanted them to. So I started Pointing my finger, and blaming others. We make plans, and we want everything to go with the plan, but our plans aren’t the same as God’s plan. Many people always say, I love the lord, but they never wait on Him. We fail when we don’t wait on the lord. Life is hard in Kenya, I’ve made many friends, but I only trust one. It’s something about trust. We all lie, and don’t say you don’t. Because we do lie, for what ever reason it maybe. I know for a fact, or let’s say I do know now. When our friends disappoint us, we must be willing to forgive, and not talk about it everyday. I’m not saying, We have to let people back in our lives that hurt us. If a relationship is worth working on and you see a future that can change your life, and theres too, I suggest that you try to work things out with that person, or people. Good folk, are hard to come by these days. Forgiving means. LETTING GO!!!! Letting go means freedom.

God is teaching me, he’s has control of my life, and not the PEOPLE WHO HURT ME. I want to be better, and I want to forgive easy, I recommend you do the same, you’ll only KILLING YOURSELF.

My journey back to kenya indeed was a challenge. You would think by now I would have gotten use to flying, I really don’t like to fly. There many times, I’ve felt has though I wasn’t getting ahead in my work. When there’s a desire in your heart, you can’t ever do enough. Because you love what you do. I’ve been praying a lot, and asking the lord to give me patience. I ask myself have I ever gotten mad at God? I once heard a pastor say, one time or another we all have gotten mad at God. Mmmmm, I often think of this statement. Nooooo, I’ve never gotten mad at God, but I have disappointed him many times. O, and do cry out to him, that’s ok, because I will admit, I’m a very weak. and emotional person. Not in a bad way, just trying to put my life in place with ministry.

We think life isn’t fair, but life is wonderful, if you surrounded yourself, around good people. People that will lift you up, real friends speak life, and they encourage you along the way. Be good to yourself. We want what we want, but we must try to gain it honestly. We’re human, and we do fall short, trying to make things happen.