Testing Grace

This morning I was spending my devotional time, as I normally do, reading and a bit of praying when something dawned on me. First, I was reading in Job 2 where Satan goes to God and God offers up his "servant Job". There is a point in the story where Job's wife tells him to "curse God and die". Ahem...

In light of Job's unfailing faithfulness, it dawned on me that I have been in a state of "Testing Grace" lately. Here's what I mean; I love my savior, He has given and sustained my life, He has directed my paths and continues to love me despite my struggle to earn it; recently I have been making decisions which aren't clearly directed by Him. Mary and I have been taking steps blindly and hoping it's the right thing. I feel like I'm walking in a dark room, hoping that one of my steps will reveal some light; all the while feeling like I'm pushing the limits of grace, that at some point Jesus is going to say, "Erik, dude, you haven't been listening."

So, I have some work to do. I need to spend more time listening to my whispering savior and then move based on that. Jesus, do your thing... Thanks for your Grace.