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It's about a girl reminiscing about falling in love with someone the same sex and their time together and how bad it really was with them

I’m Shivering inside, my heart beating fast Palms sweating, constantly thinking of our past The way you’d whisper in my ear, ‘I love you’. The way I’d foolishly believe, your words true The way i walked miles for you, wanting by your side Like a little child, oblivious I was just kicks, your ride The way I’d stare at my phone all night, waiting for your voice I loved you so much; you were always my first choice The way you push me around, lying behind my back All the times I apologised, for your decided attack The way i would always cry, you sit smiling in content The way you hurt me so bad, I’m still broken present In my dreams I see you with him, happy as can be It kills that you’re smiling at him, not at me Then I remember I’m the one who deserves better, not you All those times you stabbed me, the hell I’ve been through I’ve found someone else, he’s better than you ever were to me He’s funny, charming, perfect... and he’s here to set me free You were just one mistake, I will never make again I’m not as stupid or vulnerable as I was back then So I’m going to pick up my life, and look into the light Instead of dwelling in darkness, I will stand and fight You’re not worth my spit, my pain, my hate You’re nothing to me now a phase, a dead weight My ride, my kicks, exploration of same-sex lust You’ll never see me again, ashes to ashes, dust to dust I’m finally found what I was looking for And honey, get over yourself. It ain’t you

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