Well today is 29february. Its a leap year! Anyone been proposed today? Or make a proposal to ur love one? What a nice day. Congratulation! Or if not today pun, maybe any other day winthin the year. Still in the leap year kan ;) Haha, budget mat salleh la kan. Ok sy org malaysia n org melayu. Leap year tu ape ek???

I received a basket of chocolate and a bouquet of lilies last week, sending to my office. I dunno who was the sender but internal staff here la kot, since yg hantar pun staff hospital ni jugak kan =p Whoever the sender is, thanxomuch. Well i never celebrate valentine's day, and there is no more month of love for me. But, u make my day!

Alhamdulillah, thank God for giving me strength to go tru all the tough and hard time. Of course im not fully recovered yet. It might take months or years. If i could have one wish right now, it would be to eliminate this feeling. All or nothing. Cause for having this feeling and not being together is just too much for me to handle. As for now, im living my life to the fullest as much as i can. And be a stronger person. Well single life is not that bad, but of course rasa sgt sunyi. Sometimes super lonely. But time will heals, insyaAllah.

Last year and this year seems dat ramai my frens yg menimang cahaya mata. And ramai jugak yg their babies will pop up soon. I went to visit few of them lately. When i visited my senior physicist lastmonth, tros mata i berair masa dukung her baby. It was a different feeling. Rasa sebak sgt. I would say... Hm, i tingin sgt nk dukung baby sendri. I used to berangan i have my own baby in my 28 or 29. But i know it is impossible. Yes, pple owez berangan kan. Sampaikn i penah mimpi dukung baby, tp xtaula anak sape tuh ;p All I know is dat being a mom is such a great feeling kan. Congratulation to all my dear frens yg dah selamat dikurniakan putera n puteri masing2. U are all great mommies!

February 07, 2012

In life, we all want to be loved, understood
and cared about. But often what we get, instead, is a feeling of being
misunderstood, rejected and betrayed.

In society we're taught
it's not OK to feel pain or hurt. Men, especially, feel they're not
strong if they feel pain or hurt. It's crucial that we allow ourselves
to feel those vulnerable feelings, because we can't heal them unless
we're willing to feel them.

The real tragedy of betrayal is,
when people close down and become bitter towards life. We need to learn
how to grieve the hurt and compose our self so we can open our hearts
again to another possibility, another relationship.

For a healthy relationship we have to create a climate of trust, love, care and honor, so we minimize the prospect of betrayal.

February 01, 2012

Have you ever done blood test for Hep B? I did mine last few weeks. The result came out with this.

U can see the result showed that my blood is anti-HBs negative. What is that means?

The interpretation of Hepatitis B Serologic Test Results

Mine? Anti-HBs ~ Susceptible

Hepatitis B surface antibody (anti-HBs): The presence
of anti-HBs is generally interpreted as indicating recovery and immunity
from HBV infection. Anti-HBs also develops in a person who has been successfully
vaccinated against Hepatitis B. You might still be protected, because even if the antibodies
aren’t circulating in your blood, the memory cells would still be there
if you initially responded to the vaccine. Your doctor will need to give
you one booster shot and then re-check your antibody levels 1-3 months
later. If you have memory cells from the vaccine, the antibody test
should come back positive after the booster. You won’t need any further
boosters or revaccination. If you still don’t have any hepatitis B surface antibodies in
your blood after the booster, this means you did not respond initially
to the vaccine. You’ll need to have another vaccine series, with double
the dose.

Welcome february! I have few flight tickets already booked for this february 2012.

Kuching - KL 3 Feb

Kuching - KL 9 Feb

KL - Kuching 12 Feb

Kuching - KL 22 Feb

KL - Kuching 26 Feb

Since i dun have any urgent or serious matter to go back frequently anymore, so i decided tuk abaikan je few of the booked flight tickets for this month. If my mom is stil in shah alam, then ill definitely go back. But since she oredi move back to perlis, sgt jauh tuk i go back to perlis from kl. Cuti pun xlama. Naik flight to kl, then naik bus to perlis. Then again naik bus to kl then flight to kuching. Abes masa kat travelling time je. Ponat n pokai. Huhu. Ill meet my parents kat umah my sis at perak this early february. Its wafa's birthday coming soon. Wafa is my anak sedara and she is turning two very soon! Balik jupe my parents and also celeb wafa's birthday. Erk, nak beli present ape ek. Aiya.. kena shoping jap this week. So im going back to kl on 3Feb, depart at 4.15pm from kuching. Then ke perak wif my sis on the next day maybe. We will be back to shah alam on 7Feb cos rabu my sis dah start keje. Then back to kuching on sunday 12Feb depart at 5pm from lcct. A week leaves from work.