Arrr! See CONTENTS for links to the 125 chapters of The Monstaville Memoirs plus introductions, conclusions, postscripts and appendices. This treasure trove also includes a collection of articles offering further insights into the themes explored in the trilogy. Namely, managing suffering and conflict (dealing with hostile people if you are nervous, sensitive or shy) and learning not to react

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Friday, 2 October 2015

Monstaville Book III. Chapter 20

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“Let yourself be a little bit crazy.
Don’t worry, in time, everyone else will join you. Are you willing to loosen up
and be a little bit more experimental in the way you think things need to be
done? Alright, have fun with it, no expectation, just play…”

“Through
violence, you may ‘solve’ one problem, but you sow the seeds for another.” - Dalai
Lama.

“Your
seeing has to come back here, not there. There’s nothing to solve there. The
mind wants to live out there. But you’re here. It wants you to go out there.
‘The problem is out there.’ ‘It’s him!’ ‘It’s her!’ ‘Look, it’s going…!’ And,
as long as you miss this opportunity you’re looking to tell the story: ‘OK,
this thing happened and that was Wednesday. And then I called and what time was
that? It was the telephone…You get caught in the traffic of the mind. But that
which sees this is here. And there is a seer who is reacting to what is being
seen. And this seer is not the pure seer. It’s also got conditioning in it. The
ego sense in us, the identity, the limited identity also is capable of
observing but the difference is that it observes with self-interest. The pure
seeing only sees.” – Mooji (Satsang, 17 April 2010).

I have
generally dealt with people as gently as I know how to whilst protecting
myself. I have endeavoured to persuade them to cooperate and behave more
considerately without being negative and aggressive and destructive to myself
and others. This I have found very difficult because people can be so proud and
selfish and treating them with kindness can be regarded as weakness and
actually make them worse. Sometimes, more extreme measures, or more radical
threats, seem to be the only things that can work. It’s like trying to keep the
slugs off the vegetables growing in the garden: gentle techniques may not be
available or effective so you move on to deadlier means of warding them off
such as slug pellets because it’s either that or you are just growing
vegetables for slugs and snails to eat!

There is a
huge difference between reacting negatively and destructively and releasing
tension, refusing to hold on to it and suffer. It is the difference between
aggression and power. Rather than simply reacting on automatic pilot, whether
violently and barbarically or self-destructively as a victim or martyr, one
needs to have the desire to find more harmonious alternatives, solutions which
cause no real harm either to self or others. There are higher ways of
responding that we may simply be unaware of. We must want them, look for them,
ask to receive, give them a try.

All I am
doing is:

Releasing the tension before it kicks in and ruins my
day; refusing to let it linger and make my life miserable.

Teaching them that their selfish and aggressive
actions have direct consequences. An attempt to deter them from continuing,
asking if they can take some of their own medicine. That is, does it cause them
to feel tension and feel negative? Are they able to release and transcend it?

“Every time
you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner
of the past or a pioneer of the future.” - Deepak Chopra.

If you are
getting wound up and holding on to negativity even after shouting, try
meditating so that your guides can calm you down and help you to restore your
self-control and a more balanced perspective. You can still do something to try
and deter them from behaving violently but you have not inflicted your anger on
them or on yourself (more importantly). The trick is to avoid focusing on the
person(s) involved. All expression must be self-expression. Its purpose
therefore is to explore your own inner joy and creative potential which themselves
extend from the love and pure Being of the Self. Have fun and treat it all as a
game, in other words! Use it as an opportunity to express your Inner Child.
Your response to hostility can then be relaxed and playful as a foundation for
displaying power wisely and compassionately as necessary. This also means that
your mind is focused more on the Reality of who and what you are as a divine
being, as a god, than on the illusion which is mostly just other people’s shit
that you’re refusing to inherit and take on.

Socrates (Nick Nolte): “Everything has a
purpose, even this, and it's up to you to find it.” (Way of thePeaceful Warrior,
directed by Victor Salva, based on the novel by Dan Millman, 2006).

My way of dealing
with these people without going to extremes is called ‘tough love.’

If you are
intent on fighting back in an effort to silence them, you may have to pay a
price so be prepared for consequences equal to your actions or worse! Make it
fun as well! Yeah, make it fun. If it’s not fun (without being nasty) then
don’t do it. I suppose this means that, whether or not you feel love in your
heart during such actions, at least feel some degree of joy!

When you
are trying to teach someone or get them off your back, do it with love and
humour: elegantly, cheekily. And with grace; that is, lightly, as a light
being, not heavily; playfully, not too seriously. As much as you can anyway
(it’s all in the intention and deeper feelings within oneself). Dance with feeling
and awareness, rather than being just physical and mental like a destructive
machine.

“What you
resist, persists.” (The Swiss psychologist Carl Jung is noted
for saying this. Eckhart Tolle expands it thus: “Whatever you fight, you
strengthen, and what
you resist, persists”).

“Pain is a
relatively objective, physical phenomenon; suffering is our psychological
resistance to what happens. Events may create physical pain, but they do not in
themselves create suffering. Resistance creates suffering. Stress happens when
your mind resists what is…The only problem in your life is your mind’s
resistance to life as it unfolds.” - Dan Millman (author of The Way of the Peaceful Warrior).

When you
resist something or someone
you feed the situation with energy and sustain the challenge or conflict. I
also have to do something to deter the neighbours from making life unbearable
with their loud TV however. I am finding it easier to cope with the loud
coughing. I am continuing to show them what consequences there can be, to show
that I too have a range of options. I need to ensure that I do not inflict
anything as a negative reaction, or emotion. This seems unavoidable sometimes
but generally I am being relatively disciplined.

Yes, basically, if you react or
engage on any level, you are feeding their behaviour. Yet, when they live next
door and the noise and intimidation is a frequent occurrence it becomes
increasingly difficult to tolerate and ignore such negativity. It is a reminder
that I should overcome the more savage reactions that surface at times when the
going gets heavy [Retrospective note: “Separate your reaction from yourself,”
as Betty Perkins advises (Lion Taming,
p.45)]. These people are in my life, I suppose, because my ancient barbarian
has not been fully released yet. This way, a bit of it is triggered at a time
and can be released safely in small measures without doing any real damage.
Hopefully, love will take over from negative emotions completely at some point
and I will not feel any desire for revenge or feel the need to try and deter
them by giving them a taste of their own medicine.

Ultimately, you are acknowledging
the illusion of others’ lower personalities when, in Reality, we are all One
Being, we are all Love and we are all eternally loved and we are all magical
and multidimensional gods.

Oliver Hardy: Now fix
that lamp.

Stan Laurel: Shhh.

Oliver Hardy: And, if
you must make a noise, make it quietly. Shhh [Tiptoes out of the room then
returns after having spied Stanley stuffing cotton wool into his ears] What are
you putting that cotton in your ears for?

Stan Laurel: Well, if
I make a noise, I won’t be able to hear it.

Oliver Hardy: Oh [Turns
back to go into the other room again but then turns around with a start as the
absurdity of his friend’s logic dawns on him]

- Their First Mistake (directed by George Marshall, 1932).

I am beginning to learn that these
tests reflect repressed anger locked away in myself that needs release…and that
this is an issue for me to recognise and work on. Let the emotions out as the
neighbours trigger them. If you hold them in, allow them to come out when they
insist or the time seems right. Yet, not in a violent way, in direct protest to
the neighbours’ behaviour. But to and for myself. And, also, not creeping
around quietly and respectfully like a mouse for fear of retaliation for the
normal sounds I might make when I am in the kitchen. Listening to music and
having fun doing the very opposite, making whatever noise I want to, freely,
not giving a damn. Touché. I can be either quiet or noisy. Only giving them
attention when I choose to. Ignoring them, being indifferent, yet opening a
door to release the tension as and when I choose.

I am doing what I feel is right and what I think is
necessary, what I feel I have to do to preserve my sanity in this situation, my
peace of mind and quality of life. I have tested and employed a range of
strategies from subtle to severe with varying levels of success but always the
results have been temporary. It has been exasperating. Time and time again I
have wondered what I could possibly do to get these people to stop behaving
like fascists. I have tried affirmations, sending love and Light, blessing
them, praying and found these experiments to be ineffective. The reason,
undoubtedly, is that the only permanent solution is to move out. In other
words, there is no solution. Everything appears to come down to money, not
love!

“This resting point, now activated within you, is
the gateway to your dreams, to the manifestations of your hearts' desires and
it will be for you alone to birth these new realities through the portal of
heart-centred consciousness.

Dear
ones, you have taken yourselves and the planet to the point of no return, to
the dimensional border of a new earth based in unity and love.

Your
role was vital, for each of you carry within you an encoded portion of DNA for
the collective human experience. You have triumphed over adversity and you have
mastered the craft of neutrality in service to the One and in preparation for
your new roles as divine way-showers, divine stewards of new earth.

And
now you sit in stillness.

It
behooves you to embrace stillness for a yet a moment longer as you shed the
remaining coat of armour once needed to live a life in duality. What for you
may ask, and we will share that you have come to this resting place in final
preparation for your new roles of active service.

Be
at peace dear warriors, for this time is of benefit to you and will also serve
to enhance the biological purification process of ascension. You are extracting
and releasing eons of discord and strife from your cellular memories and once
completed you will be free to experience the pure joy of higher creation. This
purification process is a necessary component of advanced living, it is the
release of density prior to the ascent into oneness.

Bless
this space of incubation and allow yourself to simply be, to remain in peace
and bask in the comfort of a recumbent pose, for soon activity will abound.

To
resist this time is to deny yourself the space to heal, to prepare and to
adjust to the new frequencies that will escort you to your heaven on earth.
Resistance of what is will only serve to create great anger and frustration,
depression and feelings of captivity within your personal and collective
experiences.

Free
yourself by surrendering fully and completely to this moment knowing that all
is in perfect order and timing. You are fully supported by the heavenly realms
but remember too that suffering is a choice. Resist nothing and you are free.

Beloved
wayfarers, you are soon to realise why you endure, for indeed you have entered
thy kingdom of glory. It was your plan, the gods and goddesses, the creators of
new earth who came together to anchor and distribute the energy of Christ
consciousness for all.”

Whenever
Fabala walks around in shoes, take a deep breath – breathe her in – and
visualise violet flames rising upstairs surrounding her as you breathe in and
out. Say, ‘Bless you.’ Combine these three actions.

This is a
person in pain who seeks to harm for the harm caused to herself by others.
Regard each walk across the room upstairs as a signal that there is a wound
‘somewhere’ that needs healing.

Where the
wounds are, may Divine Love heal them.

And perhaps
you are healing your own wounds at the same time! Perhaps you have similar or
related issues on some level. That is, she is in my life to represent part of
myself. There is something in my subconscious that drew her into my life. It
is, I have finally discovered, our subconscious projections that makes the most
powerful impression on life. For, the soul and life both fall into the category
of consciousness (feminine) as opposed to being (masculine) as I understand it.
“Remember,” explains Jesus/Sananda,“it is your subconscious that creates
first and foremost. That is why we say to you - stop now and give thanks. Bless
what you have and let go of the 'need' to have more. Enjoy the gifts of
abundance HERE & NOW and in doing so you will not even feel the need for
more. Perversely it is this very 'letting go' that will open you in your
appreciation to the energy of abundance, and without realising it you will
ALLOW more of it to flow into your life! I Am often told that it is easier said
than done. But I say to you my beloved friends and Masters that it is much
easier done than said! Get beyond your mind for there are too many limiting
thoughts there. Stop thinking and creating for your tomorrows - let go, 'BE'
and enjoy today. Know that this understanding will create a million more joyful
tomorrows! To sum up our communication to you then we will simply say - 'What
You Focus On Increases.' Focus then on the gifts around you - for they are
many. Remember you came here to transmute the limitations, not become part of
them!” (Channelled by Ishvar, 11 June 2000, www.ascendedearth.ishcom.net/sananda110600.htm).

So…be nice
to your subconscious! It bites! Haha.

There is no
harm in showing someone what they are doing, reflecting their behaviour back to
them. Now that we have brought the ‘intentional hostility’ issue out into the
open, you are free to reflect it back to her by throwing things at or tapping
on the ceiling just as she has gone to bed. Just make sure you have let go of
any anger first. It might be a good idea to do the first violet flame exercise
at the time and then this a bit later. [Note: here, I was playing around with
ideas and experimenting. For a day or two, in fact! And, as I have explained
previously, the practising Fabala’s ceiling didn’t last long either. Knocking
on the ceiling was just a temporary measure, a warning, to see if it worked. It
had no effect. I couldn’t go on like that. It felt too negative. No positive
energy in such an action. It felt like I was just attacking the target, not
enjoying the game! Or, rather, the initial sense of fun wore off quite
quickly].

So now,
yeah, you do what you like and I will too. This is a combination of both sets
of neighbours being horrible. In addition, El Phaba is not only stomping around
in shoes (especially when she has less to risk) but also turning her TV up
louder too for some reason and that is right above me so it doesn’t need to be
on full volume to disturb me. After twelve years of living next to and beneath
these selfish, proud types of people, I have concluded that the best solution
is to say, ‘OK, you do whatever you want and I will too,’ and then go crazy!
Then they can’t complain that you’re imposing your will on them or forcing them
to be more responsible. Wearing soft slippers isn’t your tradition? Wouldn’t be
seen dead in them? Or some other excuse OK then. If you won’t change, I will.
[This was written sometime in November].

The
solution is to make a noise anyway, especially when she doesn’t want you to.
Loud music is the answer. I enjoy loud music (of my choosing) but not every
day, all the time. Besides, I need peace and quiet for writing these books. As
for the next-door neighbours, if someone (like Maltesers) who is particularly
hateful and resentful, intensely bent on disturbing you, is making banging
noises until 1 a.m., and you play loud music the next day (I mean for an hour
or two) in retaliation or as a deterrent (and to release the tension caused by
getting up late), it backfires if the other family members don’t know what’s
going on. You could be made to look like the aggressor and they may want you to
appear hostile to justify further action.

Oh, in this House of Horrors you may
shout or laugh,

Talk gibberish or watch comedy on
TV,

Do whatever you need to in order to
avoid

Being dragged down into negativity;

And to deter further intimidation.

And so say all of me.

AThe
present times are such that you can review whatever of your old self is being
carried forward. It is part of your personal cleansing that cuts links with
certain aspects of your consciousness, that no longer serve one who is aspiring
to raise their present levels. What you are wrestling with are thought forms
that have long been part of your psyche. They determine your reaction to
circumstances through your past experiences, and your own image as to who you
think you are. You are faced with automatic responses that can no longer align
themselves with the changes you are making so that your consciousness may be
uplifted. You can break the link by denying it your energy which will prevent
it manifesting. Let thoughts pass through your mind in the same way that you
become an observer of actual events, and release them straight away. Be assured
that in time you will be able to take full command of your thoughts and
actions.@
- SaLuSa (channelled through Mike Quinsey, 9 Nov 2009, www.gfbymikequinsey.blogspot.com).

I
eventually dealt with the problem of the next-door neighbours turning their
television up by putting a radio on loud in the kitchen. In their resentment,
they made loud coughs and knocking, late at night, eventually adding loud
talking and babies crying into the mix as well. Not really anything I could do
about that, I thought, until I decided to be defiant about defending my right
to go to bed at a decent hour and get up early for my own health and wellbeing.
When I then had to draw upon this resource (the radio) to manage their late
night noise I then resorted to playing loud music on my hi-fi (combined with
single shouts which are not much different to Ha Chu’s fake coughs).

Yeah,
like, I’m not lowering my vibration for you, not now.

“Do
not react with hope. Do not react with fear. Respond with knowledge.” – Wisdom from The Greater Community. Volume
II (by Marshall Vian Summers).

So,
I have learned to ignore the thunderous steps from the ‘ogre’ living above me.
I have learned to bless you. Now, perhaps you can learn to cope with goth
metal! No, I don’t think I am sorry for enjoying myself at your expense for
five minutes a day!

I
have turned these conflicts into exchanges for the most part by coming up with
‘answers,’ responses, depending on their actions. If they turn the volume of
their television up then I have the radio on loud in the kitchen, next to their
toilet. My response to their loud coughing/sneezing and banging at night is
supposed to be punching the punch-bag whenever I want instead of being too
polite and not wanting to provoke the neighbours. I go through phases of
wanting to enjoy this pastime, however. It’s not something I want to practice
as a daily ritual although, I have to say, it might well have become one when I
was attending classes if I had not prohibited myself from practising my punches
on the bag during peace time (which, during such times, generates a negative
response from next door). Keeping someone awake at night, however, actually
prevents them from going to bed so this doesn’t seem like a fair exchange to
me! Other than my early morning treat, playing music loud on the hi-fi is
strictly a last resort: either if they do not respond to the radio or if they
make my life unbearable, for example, with their loud TV. During November, I
also got into the habit of putting some music on low volume to avoid being
distracted or stressed by the noise from next door and upstairs in the
evenings. This limits the type of music I could listen to. I can only bear so
much classical music and other mellow sounds I have, much of which is pretty
bland to be honest. I do have some cool stuff I can listen to, like some of
David Sylvian’s albums (Gone to Earth,
The First Day with Robert Fripp, Flux and Mutability with Holger Czukay,
and I find the Rain Tree Crow album of the same name particularly beautiful and
relaxing. In addition, I can listen to the spiritual song ‘Praise’ sung by Mata Amritanandamayi on
Sylvian’s album Dead Bees on a Cake
for hours as I mentioned previously). There is a track by Joy Division – ‘The
Eternal’- that I totally adore in this regard and confess to having played this
one track on ‘repeat’ all evening on several occasions! There doesn’t appear to
be a limit to how long I can listen to it. Another mellow tune I can listen to
over and over is the Paris ‘Quatre’
ambient instrumental mix on Malcom McLaren’s album Paris.

“We
need people to push our buttons - how else do we heal the negative, the dark
side - within us?” - Mark Cameron.

I
suppose I have been placed here partly to shake up the dictatorial status quo
of the hyenas and partly to shake up my own potential for aggression as well as
release my tight grip on my emotions. I expect destructive emotions from
previous lives is being unleashed, Pluto having reappeared at the location of
my natal Moon (not quite reaching it but getting close enough to create more
turmoil and chaos). This unconscious energy that is resurfacing in order to be
transmuted has, I believe, been repressed in more recent lives. It has continued
to exert pressure too, however. Lower astral entities have been able to exploit
this energy and provoke reactions through personal and collective events.

I
feel like I have been surrounded by hyenas and other wild beasts. Either I
can’t get to them or they are female or a psychopath you can’t go near anyway.
So, my responses for quite a long time were self-destructive and crippling to
me because I did not know how to release the energy. But, living with hyenas
over a period of years, two things happen. One is that one tires of reacting.
There is simply too much selfish behaviour to quell. The other is that,
eventually, power takes over because it is needed. One finally realises that
being so powerless is unacceptable and cannot be allowed to continue. A whole
new outlook of life is required and one intends to reclaim one’s power in other
areas of life too. As you increase your power your potential for being creative
or destructive grows. Christ/Love must be developed alongside it so that the
‘Law of One’ (or natural expression of divine unity) is maintained and no harm
is caused to others.

It
is a negative vibe but I=m
in a sufficiently high frequency now to not be too affected by it. It=s
a good test of my vibration. There is a degree of tension that is caused by
both neighbours but it is only the loud TV that really gets to me and then I
take action. I am, however, also enduring loud get-togethers once or twice a
week but I just can=t
be bothered to play these people=s
games anymore. I asked the last tenant who lived upstairs if she=d
mind wearing softer soles indoors and look what happened!

“The world does not know that we
must all come to an end here, but those who know it, their quarrels cease at
once.” – Buddha.

During
the Summer of 2009, I prepared myself each day to make sure my vibration was
sufficiently high to offset any noise harassment due to come my way in the
evening. I also managed my days to get the work done that required peace and
quiet during the daytime and left other work for the evenings so I could play
music at the same time, usually mellow but for a while there I played loud
music in order to silence the utterly insane noise levels inflicted on me from
upstairs for a few weeks. I also started leaving baths and walks and certain
tasks (even washing up) for the evenings in order to relocate myself at least
for part of the evening (aka the ‘three rabbit hole’ strategy!).

I
have practised blessing El Phaba all year. The ego mind seeks to protect us
from feeling pain. It urges us to block it out and apply our minds to the
situation. Allowing ourselves to feel the pain, we relax and open our hearts
and we may then feel loving tenderness - just as practising gratitude raises
one’s vibration and releases enough joy to help us to manage the challenges in
our lives better than we would without such positive energy. This is something
I am exploring too! [Retrospective note: Not that it is easy to be grateful for
noisy neighbours – or cold weather I might add! - because they are there each
and every day and no amount of love or gratitude will get rid of them or help
us to endure them, not that I have really put such a notion to the test. That
would seem to require a considerable degree of selflessness…or wisdom combined
with strength…or devotion to the Divine Light of Reality beyond this unruly
sandbox].

Without
resisting or judging, without applying our minds, we feel something of the love
and oneness of our eternal Self. Saying, ‘Bless you’ helps to activate the
heart, to feel some of the love that is our true nature. And, of course,
ultimately, this is one of the Ascension tools through which we can reclaim our
natural, inner, innate beauty as All That Is. For, as St. Germain counsels:

“We
have said it before: it is your time. Claim it. Claim it through your actions,
through your expression. Claim it. When you witness an energy or expression or
action that is not aligned with love, bless it, forgive it. When you see those
who suffer, bless them. When you see those who hunger, feed them. For, it has
been shared: the greatest hunger in this world is the hunger for love. And,
each one of you that hears this, it is you who was sent here – to express that
love; to share it.” (Channelled through Ashamarae McNamara, ‘Saint Germain:
Part 2. ‘Remembering Who You Are,’ YouTube video posted by messagesfromwithin,
17 November 2009).

“So the only question is (and with
this question we will complete this short message, but a very important message
upon which we will be building) the question is this: ‘Am I, as a creative
being, made in the image of God, willing to deliberately, consciously, and
actively choose being responsible for which thoughts, which pebbles, are
dropped into my mind in each moment? And if the answer is yes, what do I want
the new pebbles to be? What vibrational qualities will I call to myself and
thereby create my tomorrows?’ Any time you react to what you believe is outside
of yourself, you may be absolutely positive of this: You have elected to pick
up that old pebble that said, ‘I'm a victim of the world I see. What I
experience is caused by forces outside of me. The fault really is in my mother,
my brother, my father, my child. The fault really is in the government, and the
planet, and the quality of air. The fault really is from a source outside of
me, and I have no choice but to react to it.’ To which I can only say, ‘Would
you rather be right, or happy?’” - Jeshua (channelled through through Jayem, The Way of the Heart, Lesson 8, www.wayofmastery.com).

“There
are many in the world who are dying for a piece of bread, but there are many
more dying for a little love.” - Mother Teresa.

“All things are either the extension
of Love or the cry for help and healing.” – Jeshua (channelled through Jayem).

Although
these Monstaville books focus on my
efforts to try and manage the situation here, it has to be said that there have
been countless occasions when I have tried to simply ignore the noise instead
of either reacting negatively or responding positively.

One ought
to respect a worthy opponent, but I’m not so sure one should tolerate one’s
enemy and allow them to triumph. No, one must fight back but in the most
intelligent and inspired way imaginable.

Warriors
work for Truth, Light and Justice. Anyone fighting for other reasons is, or
should be, commonly known as a menace.

We must
prove ourselves responsible and worthy of power.

Enemies
are there to make us stronger and wiser. With time, we can become strong enough
to topple Goliath and bring him crashing to the ground.

I have
always sought to control my aggression. I have turned it towards myself.
Eventually, it does harm to me but no one else. Who knows if, beyond being
oversensitive during a traumatic childhood, this has resulted from not
forgiving myself for violence in previous lives. Undoubtedly, it relates in
some way to having turned away from the Light and pushing myself to open up
fully again to the wholeness and unconditional love of my true Self. I need to
allow this violent energy to surface and I need to transform it through love
and awareness now. In a sense, I have accepted and befriended my inner tiger
whilst living here. I have recognised its value and understood that I need its
energy and power, not just to meet the challenges of life, but also to bridge
and bring in the energy and power of my Higher Self too. To become whole again.

If I keep
holding this energy, this ‘beast’ (my negative ego, or shadow side) in, denying
it, I will continue to be crippled by it. Any anger that builds up must be
released.

“Let the
other know that you know them. Let them know you see their beauty, and the
not-so-beautiful side, and you love them anyway. With self-love admit your
strength and love it. Admit your weakness. Admit your ugliness, and love it.
Quite so, it is easy to love the beauty, and it’s the ugliness that needs the
love, too.” - Lazaris
(channelled through Jach Pursel, The
Sacred Journey. You and your Higher Self, NPN Publishing Inc., Florida, U.S.,
1987, p.113).

This is why
I am living here: because the tiger has been let out of the cage but it is
slouched beneath a tree, hiding from the world and especially from itself,
feeling unloved, rejected. Consequently, a pack of hyenas have been sent to
provoke this now harmless, defeated, largely docile beast. It has lost its
predatory instinct and its lust to kill but, at the same time, it is no longer
even bothering to growl. So, it is a two-way learning process. Love even the
hyenas, be patient, gentle and compassionate as far as you are able to – but
not at the expense of power. Thus, the warrior matures into the wise elder. The
tiger has no escape from its tormentors but if they get too close and really disturb him then he certainly
does roar as a warning to them.

The tiger
is still enduring the effects of the tranquilliser dart that was fired into him
in order to lead him into this vulnerable place. There was no other way. His
power had to be taken away for the first few decades of this incarnation. The
tiger is a law unto himself because
he is so powerful!

“Every part
of our personality that we do not love will become hostile to us.” – Robert
Bly.

This is all
about learning to accept circumstances but also shining one’s intent on to them
in order to move in the right direction and create the life one wants; that is,
by staying positive instead of reacting negatively. Being patient with what is,
feeling grateful and appreciative for what you can and responding as required,
nurturing your life, and every person and experience in it, being gentle with
yourself. In a word: loving.

Master Kan(Philip Ahn): What is more yielding than water?
Yet, back it comes again, wearing down the rigid strength which cannot yield to
its staff. What is more forceful than quiet water?

- Kung Fu (Season
3, Episode 3, ‘A Small Beheading,’ 1974).

To me, now, this Daoist principle means either
yielding or responding but without resisting, without blocking or wasting
energy. It means playing and dancing with life, including its challenges, remaining
unaffected by them, not allowing them to get to us. In tai chi chuan, it also
means responding with the appropriate amount of internal power as soon as a
feather’s weight is felt, moving before the other person has launched a full
attack, sabotaging its momentum and restoring peace in a soft, graceful way,
without using force. Once someone has succeeded in getting to you, having
caused sufficient tension to disturb your own flow of energy, you’ve already
lost. "Use four ounces to deflect a ‘thousand pounds,’”
as the classics say. Tai chi
“uses four ounces of effort to calm a thousand pounds of woe." Another
basic tenet of this art is expressed thus: “If the enemy does not move, we do
not move, but as soon as he begins to move we move at once.” As soon as we
detect our opponent's slightest movement, their intention to attack even, we
move first to counteract it. We also match the pressure they employ by yielding
in equal measure and advance as they retreat, sticking to their energy, being
one with the chi which is within both ourselves and our opponent. We allow
power to be expressed in the way that consciousness itself wishes to respond. This may appear to be
force on the outside but it flows from a place within, from a place of peace,
love and creative intelligence. It is therefore effective without being
destructive. The water restores all to its own nature. It brings everything
home to its own innate feeling of peace and oneness where no such violence is
born. It is without tension, fear, denial or judgement. Inner feeling (Inner
Child/soul) is balanced by conscious awareness so there is no tyranny from
either ‘child’ or ‘adult.’

St.
Germain asks, ‘What would love fight?’ [see Appendix VII: ‘St. Germain: Judging and empowering
fear’] - which stops me in my tracks. Beyond the final page of this book lies
a new birth and a new aspiration to attain that level of self-mastery which
knows only love. Perhaps I ended up living in this place because I have not
loved or nurtured myself sufficiently and have persisted in fighting with
myself, exacerbating my inner conflicts instead of accepting all aspects of
myself and surrendering to wholeness. I have been appreciating most aspects of
my existence and my world, including little details, in the present moment.
I’ve also been paying more attention to how I feel and owning my feelings. A
channelled message from Bashar made me realise that there are a few basic
levels of awareness which require a positive attitude. Neglecting to accept or
appreciate the way things are at the moment blocks one’s intention to achieve
future goals. For instance, I want to have a base, a home, in a much more
agreeable environment (then, I’ll be happy to visit urban areas, including this place in which I
live now with some reluctance!). I can make that my intention but I can also
consciously extend my love and appreciation to what is and accept it all, including the conflicts and challenges.
Indeed, that is what I have started doing (not consistently although, when I
slip up, I often see the humour in my own failings because I am more aware of
them – it’s a bit like stepping in dog shit! Haha).

And I'll
be happy to see those nice young men
In their clean white coats
And they're coming to take me away ha haaa

-
Napoleon XIV (Jerry
Samuels), from the song ‘They're
Coming To Take Me Away, Ha-Haaa!’ (1966).

At the
same time, theoretically, I can use the power of my intent to reach out and
claim more for myself. The common thread through all of this is non-resistance,
non-denial and an attitude of embracing all that is and which can exist
equally.

This
series of books is a ramp. It will always be with me and I will keep riding off
it until there comes a time when I no longer crash to the ground but clear all
the obstacles in my path and attain to sainthood and self-mastery. Evil Knievel
eat your heart out! One day. The spiritual life involves helping someone,
giving them what they need, transcending weaknesses and overcoming surmountable
odds, says Ramtha (channelled by J.Z. Knight, www.ramtha.com).

ATantra
says: >You
say yes. You say yes to everything. You need not fight, you need not even swim B
you simply float with the current. The river is going by itself, on its own
accord, everything reaches to the ultimate ocean.=@
- Osho.

This is the Way of Oneness. Accept all experiences as a
challenge or game. Don’t just passively accept the situation but apply your
heart energy, the love, the joy and the creative power and intelligence of your
spirit. See the world through the heart, the eye of love, and not in terms of
good and evil. See the situation as a challenge to express your higher nature
as much as possible amidst turmoil. Don=t
let them pull you down into negative energy. Have fun, release tension, let
your anger out, rise above it as and when you feel able to without repressing
your emotions, ask for help, send them love and Light. Get by or get on top of
it, whatever, just don=t
sink into the quicksand of negativity.

“When you
receive a thought of darkness and fear and it reaches your being feel the touch
of the Goddess to comfort you. Her will is strong and all here are her
children. With her will and guidance send the Crystal Light to teach your
brother or sister ethics and fairness. Send this light on her behalf to the
temple of their third eye so that they will be enlightened by the radiance and
send her powerful voice from deep within her belly to speak to their spirits
and direct them to feel oneness. Release her energy to ground them to the
highest will of the divine…Every moment is the acceptance of the divine gift of
life, wondrous love and divine bliss.” (From the GoldRing transmission ‘Crystal
Sword of Illumination – 2012. Awakening the Family of Light,’ YouTube video
posted by rysa5, 23 October 2009, www.goldring.wetpaint.com).

“The way
that humans experience life is due to change dramatically for the better in the
very near future. For eons, conflict, distrust, and betrayal have been the
standard modes of behaviour for the vast majority of those living on Planet
Earth, and for that majority it is almost impossible to conceive of any other
way because it appears to be standard and normal, and to actually trust anyone
would seem to invite betrayal and would therefore be insane.” – Saul
(channelled through John Smallman, ‘You are frequently feeling the disquiet
of others,’ 15 January 2012,
www.johnsmallman.wordpress.com/2012/01/15/you-are-frequently-feeling-the-disquiet-of-others).

Self-defence
Against Fresh Fruit (continued
from the sketch included in Book 2).

Sergeant (John Cleese): Right. Bananas. How to defend yourself against a man armed with a banana. Now, you, come at me with this banana. Catch! Now, it's quite simple to defend yourself against a man armed with a banana. First of all you force him to drop the banana; then, second, you eat the banana, thus disarming him. You have now rendered him 'elpless.

Self-defence student (Michael Palin): Suppose he's got a bunch?

Sergeant: SHUT UP!

Self-defence student (Eric Idle): Suppose he's got a pointed stick?

Sergeant: SHUT UP

- Monty Python's And Now
for Something Completely Different (directed by Ian MacNaughton, 1972).

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