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December 1, 2010

Christmas Dolly

It hasn't worn off, the whole having a daughter thing. She's seriously like my little friend. I won't even realize it but she'll be sitting next to me just hugging my arm like a koala on a tree. I'm so used to her touch it's a part of me. My skin is her skin.

We lie in bed face to face nose to nose and her big blue eyes tell stories without need of mouth, and she looks into mine, and understands my soul.

i am on this same page with my little girl it feels so good to feel this way with her when I worried about having a little girl. My only worry is setting boundries as she gets older and will need me as a mother not just a friend.

i feel like this about my girl. i imagine us talking on the phone, hanging out, being buddies forever. ivy is so beautiful, like her mama. and hey, remember when there was an oilily outlet at lighthouse? i used to hit that sucker up all the time. my brothers were babies and the clothes were SO CUTE. i wanted to buy all the the girl stuff for my someday-daughter. so crazy that i am the someday version of me now, and my someday-daughter is alice.