Hard day....

Hello everyone, well today is my Son's 28th Birthday, but he passed away 10 years ago. I just got home from the cross and put up beautiful flowers and balloons on his cross. Today hit me harder than usual and the tears just seem to keep flowing. So now I am going to get out all the old pic's of him so that they can make me smile and usually laugh cuz he was a silly kid...so off I go.

oh Leslie, i'm so so sorry about your son :( that is so sad.. can i ask what caused his death? honey, i know nothing i or anyone say can change the way things are, but i just want you to know that my mind and heart are with you and with your son's soul today. love and hugs to you sweetie ♥♥♥Hodaya06/05/2007 - STARR procedurecolonic inertia w/pelvic floor dysfunction08/16/2009 - total colectomy w/ileorectal anastomosis07/08/2010 - loop ileostomy

Leslie, I know you don't know me but I also want to say that I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that looking at his old pictures will make you smile and that you feel the two of you will be reunited in Heaven. I really feel that our time on Earth is just a very small portion of time compared to the Eternity we will have to spend with our loved ones! I am so sorry you had to lose him at such a young age though.

Hodaya, Well he had just got of work and wanted to go swimming with his friends. He was supposta ride with his best friend but he was delayed with something, so Lucas decided to ride with some other people who were going right away so he got in the back seat of the car. This guy tht was driving he did not know very well or the girlfriend in the front seat.

What we found out is the driver was behind a semi and could not see around him and decided to make a left turn without seeing if anyone was coming and they were T-Boned. My son took a direct hit, the other 2 lived and my son died. We found out that the driver was impaired, he had been up on Meth for 4 day, and high on pot and was drinking...plus I found out that he was a habitual offender, had many DUII and did not have a licence. He did 6 years in prison, and now he is out and living in my small town. Its just not fair.\

oh i am so sorry. That's so aweful. I'll be thinking about you, and praying for peace for you today.Chassity29y. married with one beautiful daughter born 11/20/07-2002 dx with severe pancolitis u/c; 12/19/08 had total colectomy; 12/25/08 emergency surgery due to abscess-had to redo ileostomy and switch to left side; 2/15/09 found blood clot in superior mesenteric vein (prob. from inf. and surgery inflammation) Feeling Fabulous Now with my ileostomy!!!!!Pregnant with second baby due 5/26/11

Thank you both ...so much now I have to put on a happy face for my sister in laws birthday party in 2 hrs...trying to get ready and I keep ruining my make up...LOL I have got to stop this, I dont know why it is taking over me this year like it is.....so tell me to knock it off...lol...dang got to redue my makeup...think I will just have to go all plane...got to get off of here...

You've had a difficult year...that's probably what's doing it:( I hope you can find you peace today.Crohn’s dx 1989some terrible years before mytemporary ileo in 2001Proctocolectomy w/end ileo in 2008...wish I knew then what I know NOW!

TIme is the great healer. I hope your pictures keep you connected to the joy of having him in your life. It's not fair on earth sometimes but equals out in the large picture.

Peace be with you.Those things we keep trying to do get easier not because the feat gets easier but our ability to "do" gets better.Thyroid cancer removed 1988Stomach problems finally figured out 2001 Crohn's/ColitusTried every drug without much successColon/rectal cancer removed Aug 20096 Grown kids, grandkids and a great husband to keep me busy

Thanks for the messages everyone. Well made it through and I am good. So now I am focusing on ThanksGiving...my daughter is coming with her husband from Cali for it, so can't wait to see her she always cheers me up.

leslie my deepest sympathy to you , my heart aches for you and i feel your pain to loose our child in such needless circumstances is a pain we should never have to go through , i lost my son 22 years ago just a few weeks before his sixth birthday , i always find his birthday to be harder to deal with than the day he died , i think as time goes on it seems harder as its been so long since we said goodbye , i always try to remember the good times i had with my gorgeous boy and thank god for the years i did have with him , but at times its of little consolation because no matter what happens in life i always feel like i have been robbed and i guess any one who has lost a child feels the same way .

enjoy time with your daughter leslie and hug her till she whinges like mine !

(((((((((( hugs ))))))))))

from one mum to another

p.s

leslie my son would have been 28 on the 11 december and l will release a balloon and go sit by the sea and think ,i find the water to be comforting watching the waves roll in and out again seems to be the way of life itself we have highs and lows and tides come and go as do troubles and happiness

jackaratWow our sons are the same age but just different years we lost them. I am so sorry to hear about your son as well. Yes, we have been robbed..if you don't mind me asking what was the circumstances that your son was gone at such a early age? If you don't want to share I completely understand.

My daughter is a huge hugger, so we do alot of that...She is my best friend and my biggest supporter through everything...so many many hugs...to you my friend..

hello leslie no i dont mind at all , i lost my beautiful boy because of an immune deficiency problem he was fine when he was first born but at three months got very sick and was rushed to hospital and ended up in the icu he developed pneumonia very lethal kind and was diagnosed with gamma globulin anemia , we were very fortunate not to loose him then , he had various illnesses over his short 5yrs and 10 mths , and one day got very sick his drs rushed him to surgery to biopsy his lungs and when he was in recovery his lungs collapsed he was placed on life support and after 15 days and much agonizing we decided along with the medical staff to turn off the life support as all his organs were failing big time and his lungs were destroyed . he was the most gorgeous cheeky kid loved by all his funeral was attended by the drs and nurses that had cared for him over the years and lots of helium balloons were released on the day , my little fella would always bring a helium balloon home when ever we wen t to the hospital and he would let it go when we got home thats why i will be buying a balloon on his birthday and letting it go , its not fair leslie but thats life and there is nothing we can do about it . in another coincidence leslie i have a sister called lesley as well ! hope you are well jackarat

Hi jackarat, Thank you so much for sharing your story. Wow, your little guy sure went through a lot in his short life I am so sorry. We too had to make the decision to take Lucas off of life support, or I should have said, by the time I got off work and got home and got the message that he had been in a wreck "why no one called me at work I will never know, and that makes me angry' but by the time I got to the hospital his dad had already taken him off of life support, because his mom was a nurse and told him to let him go.

My good friend was the respiratory therapist that took him off and met me at the door and explained what she did. When I got in there he looked great, just a sm abrasion over his eye and his heart was beating on the monitor...so in my mind I thought he is not gone he is still with us. But she told me that their hearts can beat for like a hour or so after they have been taken off. He had already been in surgery to try to stop all the internal bleeding but they could not, and his leg was broke, and had no brain activity.

OK I have to stop now as I am bawling my eyes out..so I do understand...God be with you..