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Matt, you are awesome. Tying all the loose ends up and finding a bf for Evan. However, that still leaves Kevin for me.......................I haven't lost hope in that regard. lol I wonder what Coach would have thought had Matt told him of the dream. I'd love to be there in the morning when Kevin wakes up in an entirely different room and with a gargantuan headache. Keep going, I'm sure there will be many more delightful new faces to meet.

Craiger

There are still plenty of loose ends to tie up! It's about to get a whole lot more interesting, that's for sure.

Originally Posted by pianoninja

A great couple of chapters, the only downside is now I have Stronger by Kanye West stuck in my head.

Sorry! That actually was my roommate's alarm clock my freshman year of college. He never woke up instantly to it, either. Probably could have had an ancient gong go off by his head and not wake him now that I think of it...

Anyway, thanks for the comments! I'm here with chapter 12! I hope you all enjoy it!

Matt

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 12

I woke up Sunday morning in the arms of my beautiful boyfriend, Brayden. He was already awake, smiling at me when my eyes met his. I smiled in return and he said softly, “You know you’re really cute when you sleep, right?”

I felt a warmth rush to my cheeks at the compliment and whispered, “I’m just so happy in your arms!”

“You’re cute when you blush, too,” He started, still quiet, “and when you smile. You’ve got this one dimple that makes you look adorable!”

I just giggled and heard a groan from in the room. I must have had a sudden look of panic cross my face, because Brayden looked at me and said, “Shh, it’s okay. It’s just Kevin on the futon.”

“Fuuuuck!” Kevin said from below. “Where am I?” He asked softly. I took that opportunity to climb down from bed.

“Good morning, sunshine!” I said, “We had to bring you here last night, because there was no way we were getting you upstairs without someone getting hurt.” Brayden climbed out of bed, too, and then we left to go to the bathroom.

“Ugh,” he said when we came back, groaning and holding his head between his head and sitting up on the futon, “thanks for everything last night. Was I trouble?” He asked, concerned.

“No, not in the least. Only trouble was how much bigger you were than the rest of us. Good thing for Aiden, though. would have been a struggle without another football player there!”

“Aiden was with you guys?” He asked, confused.

“No, he was with you. And you promised him Brayden’s futon to sleep on.”

“Shit. Where did he end up?” Kevin asked, concerned.

I grinned and said, “Where you were supposed to be, of course!”

“Oh?” Kevin said, “Well, I’m going to go bury my head in darkness for the rest of the day. I’ll see you guys later if it goes away.”

Brayden laughed and said, “Just take some painkillers and drink as much water as you can! You’ll live!”

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“Oh my gosh!” I said as a surprise hit me, “Brayden! We don’t have class tomorrow!”

“No shit, Sherlock,” Jason said as he, Brayden, Kelsey, and I sat on the futon in his room, “Did you seriously forget about a three-day weekend?”

“After that week? Yes!” I said, “I really didn’t look ahead at all.”

“Well, tomorrow is the first Monday in September, wasn’t that enough of a warning flag to you?” Kelsey said, laughing.

We continued bantering back and forth until we heard a knock coming from across the hall. I leaned forward and saw Lukas was standing at my door and said, “Lukas! We’re hangin’ out over here for a little while.”

Lukas walked over to Jason’s room and smiled before saying, “Did you guys know Aiden just left Evan and Kevin’s room, grinning like a fool?”

I smiled to myself as I heard Kelsey say, “Aiden? Aiden who?”

“The football stud.” He said to her before looking at me. He peered at me as he awaited a response. “Well, Matt? You’re grinning like a fool, too! What do you know?!” He begged.

“You know I was Kevin’s driver last night, right?” I said as he nodded, “Well, Aiden was with him when I picked him up. Kevin had promised him the futon that’s no longer in his room, so I said he could still stay on it since it was in my room.”

“Okay, so, why was he in Evan’s room?” He asked impatiently.

“I’m getting to that, hold your horses!” I said, “Kevin was completely out of it and we had little chance of getting him up the stairs in one piece. Evan happened to be down there and agreed that Aiden could stay in Kevin’s bed.”

Lukas chuckled and said, “So that’s why Kevin’s up in my room clutching his forehead. Why was Aiden grinning earlier? Do you know?”

“I don’t ‘know’, per say, but I have a feeling.” I said, thinking back to last night, “He hit on me last night, but I told him that Brayden already had my heart. I also said that I knew someone he might like, and that happened to be when Evan came out and said he could sleep up in Kevin’s bed.” I smiled, and then thought back to his comment about Kevin, “Wait, why is Kevin in your room?” I asked, confused.

“He didn’t say!” He seemed to be satisfied with the answers, so he thanked me for the information and walked out. “See ya later, guys!”

Kelsey almost immediately turned to me and said, “Aiden hit on you?” She said, seemingly impressed.

“Yup. My heart’s already taken, though!” I said as I clutched Brayden’s hand and held it up for all to see. I looked at him and smiled and he smiled back.

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Brayden and I were back in my room when I got a text from Evan. I opened my phone and saw that his message said, “”. That was it. I had an idea why he might be text-smiling, but one can never be sure. I responded by saying that Brayden and I were in my room if he wanted to come by.

He must have been on his way there already, because it seemed like seconds after I shut my phone when he knocked on my door and walked in. I got up to greet him and he gave me a hugged me tight and said, “Thank you, Matt!”

I looked at him and smiled as he released me, “What?! You’re acting like I got you a BMW for Christmas!”

He giggled and replied, “For Aiden, of course.”

“You agreed for him to sleep in your room, I just suggested it!”

“Yeah, well, you didn’t say he flirted with you!” He replied, quickly.

I giggled and said, “Okay, maybe I left that part out. So?”

“So what?” Evan said, grinning.

Brayden replied before I got chance, “Sew buttons on your underwear. What happened?!” He asked, impatiently.

“We talked all night.” He said, smiling, “We went to bed around five and didn’t wake up until Kevin knocked. Apparently he forgot his keys in the room, last night, by the way.”

“He’s taking me out to dinner tonight!” He said, excitedly, “And then we’re going to rent a movie and watch it. He wanted me to ask if you two if you were up for the movie, so, are you up for it?” He said and looked on, excited.

I looked to Brayden to see what he thought. I smiled to show my approval, and he nodded his head rapidly and said, “Definitely! When and where?”

“Oh!” Evan said, stopping before he left, “One more thing. My parents are going to be in town tomorrow. Can you join us for lunch or something?”

I was speechless. His parents? My parents? I looked for an answer out of Brayden even though he probably wouldn’t be there. He nodded and smiled at me. “I- I don’t know what I’d say.” I stammered as turned back to Evan, suddenly overcome with emotion. “Y-yes.” I said nervously.

“Fantastic! We’ll have some fun with it, too.” Evan said as a sly grin crept across his face. “They didn’t tell us about each other, after all!” Then, he told me about his plan to freak his parents out a little. I have to say, it’s nearly cruel! I’d have to practice my best poker face between now and lunch, tomorrow, though.

After Evan left, I looked at Brayden and smiled. “You know, we’ve only been on one date, and it was a meal in the school cafeteria...” I said, trailing off as I suggested the possibility of a big date.

“You’re right!” He said, “Do you wanna play dress-up and go on a proper date, then?”

“Yeah, I do,” I said as I smiled and asked, “where do you wanna go?”

“Don’t you worry about that, I’ll get it all ready! You just smile and continue to look pretty!” He said, kissing me softly on the lips.

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Brayden took me to the nicest restaurant in town. That wasn’t saying much since the population of the town practically doubles when school is in session, but it was still good food. I was half expecting something to happen since we were affectionate in public for the first time, but nothing came about. I happened to see that Aiden and Evan were there as well, but we decided to leave them alone. They already had their meal, so Brayden bought them a dessert for the waiter to deliver to them anonymously. I saw Evan start to look around, so I brought my attention back to Brayden and our date.

Before long, I noticed Evan and Aiden were gone and it was getting pretty quiet in the restaurant. Brayden and I had already finished our meal and dessert. He paid and we left to go back to the dorm and change. When we walked in the front door, we were holding hands and I was beaming. The girl working the front desk smiled at us and said, “Aww, you guys look so cute together!” I blushed, and Brayden smiled and thanked her. I simply couldn’t believe we were lucky enough not to run into any bigots.

Once we walked into the room, I got a text from Evan. It gave Aiden’s address and asked when we could be there. “So,” I said, looking to Brayden, “how long should I say? Fifteen minutes?”

“Nah, you could say ‘less than ten.’ We don’t have to change that much. I still want to be able to show you off!” He said as I blushed again. Damn, he’s good at that!

Aiden’s apartment was in a part of town that I’d never been to, so we had to pay extra attention to find the street he lived on. Once we found the street, we found the apartment complex and then his apartment building. Evan came to the door of the building, let us in, and then showed us to Aiden’s apartment. We all sat with our respective dates while we watched some romantic comedy. I didn’t really care what it was, I was just enjoying the company of my friends.

This evening was awesome. Aiden really seemed to care for Evan and us as his friends. I had a really good time hanging out with them, and by midnight, everyone seemed to be tiring out. Brayden suggested we hit the road, so he and I got up to leave. I didn’t know what Evan’s plan was, but it was up to him to ask if he wasn’t going to stay. As we left, they waved and told us to have a good night, so we wished the same to them.

On the way out, I had this weird feeling in my stomach. The area wasn’t very well lit and I was very glad I had a hand to hold on to. I tightened my grip and felt Brayden do the same. Once we were in my car and on our way home, Brayden said, “Man, I wouldn’t want to walk back from their alone at night.”

“Me neither, Brayden, me neither.” I said as I shook my head. “It gave me the chills!”

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When we walked into the dorm, it was quiet. The lights were mostly off and the front desk was already closed for the night. The hallway lights were off, too, and when we got to my door, I could see that Jason’s light was still on. When I opened my room, Jason’s door opened and he said, “Matt, your brother called.”

I immediately looked at him, confused and said, “My brother called you? Why?”

“He didn’t say why. He just said you need to call him back as soon as possible.”

“Okay,” I said, confused and concerned and pulled my phone off. “Crap, battery’s dead. How long ago did he call?” I said as I plugged my phone in.

“Not long, 15 minutes tops.” He said. The way he looked at me meant he was concerned, too.

I kept my phone plugged in and called my brother. He picked up almost instantly, saying “Matt! Where’ve you been?!”

“Sorry, Bryan, I was at a friends’ place and my phone died. What’s up?” I said, trying to maintain my composure.

“What?!” I exclaimed softly as tears welled in my eyes, “A-are... Are they...” I started to say as a lump grew in my throat, “Are they going to be okay?” Tears were already falling out of my eyes and I could see the concerned look on Jason’s and Brayden’s faces.

“The doctor said they were in critical condition.” He said softly, “Matt, it’s ... it’s not looking good.”

“Bryan,” I started as I sniffled and took a big gulp, “I’ll be there in 45 minutes. I-Is...” I started, but couldn’t finish without taking a deep breath. “Is that going to be enough time?”

“I-I don’t know.” He said as he took a deep breath, “B-be careful, Matt! I love you.” That’s something he’d never said to me.

“Bryan, I’ll be extra careful. I love you too.” I said as I sniffled and hung up. To be fair, I hadn’t said it much to him. We never got along the greatest as kids, but we were still brothers.

I immediately found the phone charger for my car in my desk and started to put my shoes on when Brayden spoke up. “Matt, I’m so sorry.” He said as he pulled me into a tight hug, “I’ll take you. I can’t let you drive by yourself like this.”

Before we left, Jason stopped us and pulled me into a bear hug of his own. “Matt, I can’t even imagine, but please be strong for them. Take care of yourself!” He said as he released me and Brayden to leave. I felt bad for not saying anything, but I think he understood that I wouldn’t have been able to say much. I waved good bye, and Brayden and I started the longest 45-minutes of my life.

Re: Lost in a Dream

Wow, Matt. I didn't see that coming, but you did say there were other loose ends. This is going to be a very difficult time for Matt and for Brayden. I would hope that Matt's parents would be OK, however, something tells me otherwise. Possibly the mystery of Matt and Evan will be revealed. Emotions are running wild with this chapter. And, with this cliffhanger, I hope you don't take too long to get back to us. Thanks, Matt.

Re: Lost in a Dream

Originally Posted by Craiger

Wow, Matt. I didn't see that coming, but you did say there were other loose ends. This is going to be a very difficult time for Matt and for Brayden. I would hope that Matt's parents would be OK, however, something tells me otherwise. Possibly the mystery of Matt and Evan will be revealed. Emotions are running wild with this chapter. And, with this cliffhanger, I hope you don't take too long to get back to us. Thanks, Matt.

Craiger

I had that chapter built up for so much good that it was really hard to have to do something like that. But it felt important to push something hard in to Matt's life (pun intended? ) that he didn't have a dream to rely on. After I wrote that last scene, I honestly didn't know where it would lead right away. I contemplated a few different scenarios, so what you'll read in this chapter wasn't the only possibility.

Originally Posted by Dannycutie

WOW! Really good chapter!!

Thanks!

Originally Posted by sheep

Awesome chapter until the end. Got my fingers crossed.

Me too!

Alright, I've (finally) got the next chapter written. It is easily the longest chapter I've written yet, and I'm quite happy with how it turned out. There's a little bit of a lot of emotions in it, so I hope you enjoy! The bonus of the chapter is the subtle reference to a line in Coach Carter if anyone can find it. (Don't worry, nothing to do with basketball!) SO! Without further delay, I bring you CHAPTER 13!

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 13

Brayden and I had been on the road about a half hour before I had the courage to say anything comprehensible. “Brayden, September’s cursed.” I said softly with a sniffle.

“Cursed? How so?” He asked, trying to keep our first conversation going.

“Bad luck runs rampant throughout the month in my family.” I said as I recalled some of my worst memories. “When I was in fifth grade,” I started, taking a deep breath, “my grandma was diagnosed with an advanced stage of breast and ovarian cancer. I didn’t really know what it was, but I could tell by my parents’ reaction that it was bad. Cancer took her life on September 24th. The following year was even worse. We had to put down the only pet I’d ever known on September 10th.” I said as I took another deep breath, “The next day, as you might have guessed, was the terrorist attacks.” I started to tear up again as my voice crumbled, “And now this. The only times I’ve ever felt this -- this devastated -- has been in September.”

“I know it’s hard, Matt,” Brayden said as he comforted me, “but it’s times like this where we find our strength.” He said as we saw the lights of the city in the distance. We were almost there.

When we got to the emergency room, the staff wouldn’t let Brayden in. He told me he’d wait as long as he had to, so I squeezed him tight and suggested he try to catch a nap while he could. He agreed and made me promise to keep him updated.

Bryan was in the room and got up when I entered. He came and hugged me and said, “Matt, I’m so glad you’re safe!” He looked like a mess. Bryan was about six feet tall and had swimmer’s build like Brayden. He wasn’t a swimmer, though. His shaggy brown hair complimented the scruff on his face, but his eyes gave away all the emotion. The hazel eyes I knew were red and bloodshot from the stress of the night.

“Did I make it in time?” I asked softly as I took a gulp. That was the hardest question I’d asked yet.

Bryan nodded and said that Dad was still unconscious, but Mom had been in and out of sleep since her arrival. He walked me over to Mom’s bed and I saw she had tubes coming from everywhere. I pulled a chair to the side of the bed and grabbed her hand and spoke quietly. “Mom,” I said in a near-whisper, “I made it.” I started to tear up, so I continued as my voice became shaky, “I’ve got good news for you, too.” I said. I could see her chest slowly rise and fall with each breath.

I didn’t know how to continue when Mom squeezed my hand and turned her head. “Well,” she said with a soft voice, “are you going to tell me the good news, or are you going to leave me in suspense all night?” Tears were streaming down my face as I nodded and looked at her.

“Of course!” I said softly as I let go of her hand. “There’s someone I want you to meet, Mom. I’ll be right back.” Bryan looked at me confused as I walked out to get Brayden.

When I reached the waiting room, Brayden was still awake. He jumped up and hugged me tight once he saw the tears down my face.

“Brayden,” I started, “come with me.” I said as I pulled him along and got him signed in.

Bryan still looked confused when I walked back in the room, and I pulled Brayden over to Mom’s side. “Mom,” I said and took a deep breath, “this is my boyfriend, Brayden.”

I’m sure it was just a few seconds in actuality, but it seemed just like the time I first saw Brayden in real life. My heart was pounding through my chest and Brayden had his arm around my shoulder as we waited for my mother to respond.

“Oh, Matt.” she said as she reached out to grab my hand. I took it willingly and she continued, “I’m glad you finally have someone who can return the love you give to them.”

“So...” I started, “you don’t care that I’m gay?” I said as I looked into her eyes.

“No, Matt, I don’t. All your father and I have ever wanted is for you and brother to be happy. When you’re happy, we’re happy. Okay?” She said as I nodded my head and smiled for the first time in several hours.

“I don’t care either, Matt,” Bryan started as I turned around, “I may not understand, but you’re still my brother.”

“And you, Brayden,” Mom said, bringing my attention back to hers, “I can tell you’re special to him. That means you’re special to me, too.”

“Thank you, Mrs. Connors,” Brayden said with a smile and squeezed my shoulder, “he is very special to me, too.”

“Please,” my mom started, “either call me ‘Mom’ or ‘Jamie.’”

“Okay, Mom!” Brayden exclaimed as a grin crept across his face.

“Now, boys, I think we could all use some sleep.” Mom started, “I love you boys. All three of you.” She said as she wished us a good night.

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While we were leaving the hospital, Bryan asked us where we were going to stay. After talking, Brayden and I decided that we’d travel back to the dorm room and return to visit tomorrow. I was feeling better and so was he, so we decided that if we got tired, we’d pull over and switch.

We made it back to the dorm around four in the morning and immediately went to bed in a tangled mess of limbs. I thanked Brayden for joining me, to which he told me he was glad he got to meet my mom.

My phone’s ringtone awoke me from my slumber some time later. It was bright in the room, so I figured it was late in the morning. “Hello?” I said groggily as I answered Evan’s phone call.

“Matt? Are you just waking up?” He asked, clearly surprised since we left his apartment around midnight.

“Yeah. I had a long night last night.” I said, still tired from the wake-up call.

“Everything okay?” He asked, concerned.

“Uh,” I said, stumbling for an answer, “not exactly. My parents were hit by a drunk driver last night and Brayden and I went to see them in the hospital. We didn’t get back until four-ish.” I said, trying to keep the story short.

“Shit, man. Sorry to hear that. Well, my parents are here and I was calling to see if you were still up for lunch. If not, I understand.” Evan said, my night clearly deflating his mood.

“You know, it would probably be a good distraction,” I started, “but, can Brayden come too?”

“Sure!” He said, glad to hear I was still up to meet his parents. I asked him about the plan, and he confirmed that it was still on if I was okay with it. “Okay then,” he said, “See you in a half hour or so!”

I shook Brayden and told him we needed to shower so we could meet Evan and his parents for lunch.

“Wait, what?” He said in confusion, “I thought it was just you going?”

“It was, but I’d really like it if you could be there. Saves me the trouble of explaining the story later, anyway!”

Brayden smiled and said it was okay with him, so we got up to get ready for the day. After we’d showered and changed, I went over to Jason’s room and knocked on his door. I thought I’d give him an update on my parents.

He opened the door in a hurry and was glad to see we were back. I told him that both my parents were still alive, although dad had been unconscious the whole time. Then, I got a text from Evan saying he and his parents were on the way to the fast food place. I responded and told him we’d be there soon.

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When I made it to the restaurant, I saw where Evan and his parents were sitting. Brayden and I ordered our food and got our drinks ready. Once we had our drinks, we started walking towards Evan’s table. We weren’t going to sit there right away, but we were going to go to a table or a booth that was close. When I walked by, I went to the booth that was connected to theirs and sat on the bench that was touching the bench that his parents were sitting at. I wore my poker face to perfection, which was aided by sunglasses. I noticed his mom stare at me when I walked by, but she didn’t say anything the first time. After a few minutes, I got up to go wait for our order, so I removed my sunglasses and left them on the table. I was facing away from his parents this time, so I winked at Evan as I walked by.

Once I had our food, I made sure to walk by again. This time, it was almost as if his mom was waiting for me, as she was making no attempt to hide her stare. I avoided it as best I could, but I noticed her elbow her husband when I walked by. I could tell they were whispering something when I heard Evan ask his parents what was wrong.

I was still standing up at the booth, pretending to check the receipt for the correct order. Since these booths weren’t tall, I saw his father turn his head and look at me as I stood. I turned my head and smiled, and he returned it.

“Well, I’ll be damned,” he said as Evan smiled in the background, “that is a face I wasn’t expecting to see today.” He got up and I figured he was going to shake my hand, so I extended mine first. He accepted and said, “The name’s Dan Schmidt. And this,” he started as his wife left the booth, “is my wife Mary.”

Mary was already leaving the booth when he said this so I moved my hand towards her. She did not return the hand shake, however, as she immediately went into a hug. As she was squeezing me I could hear her soft voice say, “I was starting to think I wasn’t going to see you again.” I could tell this meant as much to them as it did to me. When she released me, she said, “Come, Matthew, join us!” I looked at her in surprise as I hadn’t told her my name yet.

When we sat down, Evan and I gave each other a high five since the plan had worked. “I guess that means you two have already been acquainted,” Dan started, “which means Mary and I have some explaining to do.” He smiled and said, “But first, who’s with you, Matthew?”

“Dan,” I said, “this is my boyfriend, Brayden.” I said. I was expecting to see shock in their faces, but there was nothing but smiles.

“It’s wonderful to meet you, too, Brayden.” He said as Brayden nodded and returned the sentiment. “Well, now that introductions are out of the way, I suppose I should get started.” He said, taking a deep breath, “It all started back when Mary and I were seniors in college. We were engaged to be married and ready to be done with school and start our life. Fortunately, life is full of surprises, and it certainly decided to throw us a massive curveball.”

Mary looked to Dan and continued the story for him, “Everything changed after our wedding, like we were hoping, but not the way we hoped. When we returned from our honeymoon, we had some pleasant news for our close friends and family.”

Evan laughed and said, “So what you’re saying is that Matt and I are an accident.”

“Accident?” Dan said, “Believe me, son. This was no accident. It was merely unplanned.” He said as he smiled. “We didn’t know right away if we were ready for a child, but decided we had to be. Two months into Mary’s pregnancy,” he started, “we got the second biggest surprise of our marriage. We found out we were having twins.”

I could tell the story was starting to get difficult to explain. Mary continued the story, saying, “I started doing research on everything, and my worst fears came true at that point. We simply couldn’t come up with the money to raise twins. It was close enough to raise once child, but the numbers made a second seem impossible. We explained the situation to my parents, Dan’s parents, and our two best friends.” She stopped, taking a breath.

“Jamie and Marshall Connors.” I said.

“Yes.” Dan said. “Like I said, they were our best friends. We were each other’s best man and maid of honor at our weddings. The only difference was the time between the two. Anyway, they already had a two-year old at the time and they were financially stable. We knew they could be trusted with another child, so once you were born, we finalized the adoption process.”

“We stayed friends for a few years afterwards,” Mary started, “but, through time, we drifted apart.”

“Well,” I said abruptly, “I’m glad we could meet and it’s good to finally hear the truth, but Brayden and I have to get going.” I said, with tears welling up.

Dan looked at me and said, “I’m so happy you two are being civil about this. I wish we could have told you sooner, but we just couldn’t come up with the courage. But you boys,” he started, “made us forget about being afraid to tell you.” He said as he smiled.

“Matthew, are you okay?” Mary said like a concerned mother.

“It’s about my parents,” I started, “they were in an accident last night. Drunk driver hit them and they’re in the hospital. I’m sure they’d appreciate a visit if you find the time.” I said as Brayden and I got up. Evan’s -- my parents got up and thanked us for the visit.

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After our lunch with my other family, Brayden and I decided to make our return trip to my hometown to visit my parents in the hospital. Once we made it to the hospital, we were informed by staff that my parents were moved to a room outside of the emergency room area. For the first time since hearing of their accident, I felt relieved.

When we made it to their new room, I saw both my parents were sitting up in bed and already talking. I smiled as I entered the room and said, “Dad! You’re awake!”

“Yes, I am.” He started, “You’re old man has the body of an ox, you know? A little accident isn’t going to stop me.” My dad was right; he was an ox. Technically, he was just built like an ox, but it’s a good fit for him. He’s 6’4” and stocky. He always seemed to have a five o’clock shadow and could probably grow one hell of a beard if he wanted to. He had always kept his brown hair short, whether that’s a couple inches or a buzz cut. He was a man’s man. Even before I knew about my real parents, you could tell that Bryan and I didn’t get our build from him.

“Of course, old man!” I said with a sly grin as I walked over to hug him. Despite his size, he’d always had a heart of gold.

“And who’s this strapping young lad with you?” He asked, raising an eyebrow. I had a good feeling that he already knew who he was, seeing as Mom was smiling.

“Dad,” I started and took a deep breath, “this is my boyfriend Brayden.”

Dad stared at me and created this incredibly awkward silence after I said that. His statue-esque expression was throwing me for a loop. “Dad?” I asked softly.

He didn’t answer that time, either, and Brayden leaned in and said, “I think I should go wait in the lobby.”

Brayden made it to the door when my dad finally showed his thoughts. “Brayden, wait.” He started, face still showing no meaningful expression. No anger, no happiness, no sadness, no fear. No emotion. Brayden stopped at the door, and my dad said, “Fuck it, I can’t hold this face anymore,” as his smile reappeared. “I am and always will be proud of you, Matt.”

He laughed earnestly as he said, “I’m sorry son, this room has been so dreadful all day long. Hospitals are so gloomy!”

“You’re gonna pay for that, dad.” I said, thinking to the surprise coming, “I have a few friends coming later, and now I’m not going to tell you who! If you thought that was mean, just you wait. Just you wait.” With that, I turned to Mom and said, “I’m sorry, but it’s his fault, mom. You’ll be waiting in suspense too! They should be here before too long, though.”

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I felt bad for Brayden. My parents were quizzing him on his own life. I was happy they wanted to get to know him, but it seemed almost like a job interview. At one point, Bryan showed up and joined in on the quizzing. I tried to save him as much as I could, but it was a good ‘family’ moment for us all. I got a text from Evan at one point telling me that he and his parents were on there way and about 10 minutes outside of the hospital. I smiled in anticipation as I sent him the room number my parents were in.

Bryan looked at me as I grinned and said, “What’s so funny?”

“Mom and Dad’s surprise is about 10 minutes away.” I said with the grin still apparent on my face.

“Surprise? What surprise?” Bryan asked as I remembered he wasn’t here for Dad’s devious deed.

“I came out to Dad earlier and he’s getting payback for his attempt at humor. I do feel bad for you and Mom, though. But it’s all part of the surprise now!” I said, smiling away.

I’d venture to guess the next ten minutes were hell for Mom and Dad, but before long, there was a knock on the door. I stood up and opened it, and in walked Dan and Mary.

I think the collective gasp of surprise from my Mom and Dad sucked all of the air out of the room, but what surprised me most was my father’s reaction. “Matt!” He said as he broke down and cried, “How did you know?” I could tell Mom was at a loss for words as she stared at their long lost friends.

I walked over to his bed and said, “Surprise!”

Bryan looked at me while Dan and Mary were reacquainting themselves with Jamie and Marshall and said, “Matt, what’s going on?”

“Bry,” I started and introduced the three newcomers to Bryan, “this is Dan, and Mary. They’re my biological parents.”

His eyes opened as wide as saucers as he exclaimed, “WHAT?!”

“Yep, and Evan here is my twin brother.” I said, putting my arm around Evan’s shoulder. We moved ourselves into a circle with the chairs in the room and my parents’ beds. I sat on the foot of Mom’s bed as Dan sat on the foot of Dad’s. Brayden was in a chair next to me, with Evan next to him, Bryan was next to Evan, and Mary was in between Bryan and Dan. All four of my parents shared in the explanation to Bryan.

Once the story was explained, Bryan looked like he understood. I couldn’t tell how he felt about it, but before long we had switched gears and stories all together. I couldn’t remember what was told afterwards, I was just happy to be around my family. My big family.

Around 5:00 in the afternoon, a couple of police officers came around to talk to my parents about the accident. Dan, Mary and Evan said their goodbyes and promised to stay in touch. Brayden, Bryan, and I left and went to the floor’s lobby to chat. Bryan looked at me as we were walking and said, “We’re still brothers, right?”

I smiled and put my arm around his shoulder and said, “Yeah, we’re still brothers. The way I see it,” I started, “I’ve gained a brother and two parents.”

“Good,” he said, nodding his head and patting my back.

“Say,” I started, suddenly remembering something, “are you still with Rachel? I haven’t heard you mention her yet.”

“Nah, I broke up with her a few nights ago.” He said, surprisingly not very said, “Caught ‘er red handed. Literally.”

“You know,” I said, “I always thought she was a bitch. She never really treated me like she wanted me to be her future brother-in-law.”

He looked at me shocked and said, “Awesome cuss, bro! And nice cover-up. I’d give it a 7/10. If you had called her a ‘fuckin’ bitch’, I’d have given you a nine.”

“Did you just rate his cuss?” Brayden asked with a confused laugh.

“Of course!” He said as he ruffled my hair, “His cusses are like a solar eclipse. We rarely hear them, but when we do, they’re always special.”

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Before long, we saw the officers leave the room. We wandered back to the room and asked what that was about.

“Oh, it’s all just formality at this point.” Dad said, “They wanted to know if we would be pressing charges against the driver, but we decided that we aren’t going to.”

Bryan looked at them and said, “Why not?” I was curious as well, but he beat me to the question.

“Boys, there are times in life when it’s nice to just be a good person.” Mom said, “The driver was killed in the accident and we don’t want to cause further pain to an already suffering family.” My heart sank as I heard about the driver. Even though I’d never met them and they’d put my parents’ lives in danger, I’d never wish death upon someone.

“Oh,” Bryan started, “I didn’t know about that.” He said as he trailed off.

“The driver had a brother who was in the accident as well. I believe he was taken to this hospital if you wanted to look into it at all.” My mom said, reading my mind.

I looked at them and said, “Can I go tell the family?” I asked with hope in my eyes. I wanted to give my condolences, too. Both my parents smiled and nodded, thinking it was a good idea.

I left Bryan and Brayden in the room as I went to the nurses station. I asked her if she could give out any information about the accident, saying I was the son of the Connors’. I explained that I wanted to give my condolences, and she seemed a little hesitant as she thought about her response. I told her that I would leave immediately if the family wished, and that seemed to sway her judgement. She wrote down the room number and wished me luck.

When I made it to the room, the door was shut. I took a deep breath, and knocked on the door. After a couple seconds, there was no answer, so I knocked again. This time, the door opened a little bit and a man said, “I’m sorry, but we don’t want any visitors right now.” His eyes were red and puffy, and I could tell this was probably the worst day of his life.

Just as he was about to shut the door, I said, “Sir, my name’s Matt Connors. I just came by to offer my condolences.”

He had nearly shut the door before he realized what he heard. “Connors?” He questioned, “As in, the Connors from the accident?”

“Yes sir,” I said, “I just heard about your loss. Even though I never met your daughter, I’m very sad to hear about it. And,” I said, thinking of the better news, “I wanted to let you know that my parents aren’t going to press any charges.”

He looked at me and his eyes appeared to glisten a little bit. Surprisingly, he hugged me. “Thank you.” He said in a soft, whisper-like voice. Then, he called for his wife and as she came over, he said, “Honey, this is Matt Connors. He’s the son of the couple.”

She looked towards me with a look that seemed like confusion and shock. “Yes, ma’am. I came by to offer my condolences for the loss of your daughter. My whole family is very sad to hear about the news. Everybody makes mistakes in their life and it’s my personal philosophy that everyone deserves another chance. It’s really unfortunate that she doesn’t get any” I said. I could tell that my presence meant a lot more than even they expected it to, and their next gesture was a surprise to me.

“Would you like to say something to him?” The mother asked, referring to her son. “I can’t promise you he’d say anything back, he’s quite stunned by the whole thing.”

“If you would allow it, I would like that.” I said honestly.

“Go right ahead. He hasn’t said much to us, but he’s always been pretty shy.”

When I went into the room, I saw a guy my age lying on a hospital bed. He was swollen and bruised, but alive. “Hey.” I said calmly as I walked up to the bed. His eyes were focused on the TV, and didn’t falter from it when I spoke. “My name’s Matt Connors.” His eyes still hadn’t moved from the TV. “I’m sorry to hear about your sister.”

“Don’t be, it’s my fault, not yours.” He said as he spoke for the first time. I couldn’t tell if he was mad or just trying to keep his emotions in check. He was still watching TV.

“That’s not what I meant, I guess.” I said, “I mean, I’m sorry for your loss. It’s a terrible thing to have to go through.”

He finally looked at me. I couldn’t read him, though. He was either surprised at the concern, or pissed that I kept bothering him. He stayed silent.

“Anyway, I’ve got to get going, uh...” I said, forgetting he hadn’t told me his name. “Sorry, what was your name?”

“Dean.” He said as he looked back to the TV.

“Well, Dean, I’ll probably be back to visit my parents. Do you mind if I stop by and visit you, too?” I said, trying to be polite.

“No, it’s a free country.”

“Yeah, but it’s your room here. If you don’t want me in, I’ll respect that and stay out. I don’t want to feel like I’m intruding.” I said. I don’t know if he’d recently built a shell around himself, but it was there. It was worse than Kevin’s and probably my own. “Anyway,” I said as I started to get up and walk to the door, “I’ll see you later then, Dean. Bye!”

“See ya.” He said. The way he said it sounded scripted, so I’m sure he was just saying it to be polite. I’d definitely be back. His parents thanked me for the visit and the kind wishes and said I was welcome back anytime.

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I stayed and visited with my parents and Bryan until about 6:00, when Brayden and I decided it was time to head back to our dorm. We grabbed a bite to eat on the way out and before too long, we were in our room attempting to do some of the homework that we had procrastinated all weekend.

It wasn’t going so well for either of us, so Brayden told me he was going to go take a shower to attempt to refocus himself. When he returned, his hair was still damp and he had a towel wrapped around his waist and a fairly obvious bulge. I whimpered a bit to myself as I looked him up and down. He had a grin slyly creeping across his face when he saw my reaction when I got up. I felt like I was in a trance as I walked up to him and planted my tongue in his mouth. Thank God he shut the door when he came in.

Our tongues battled fiercely as the attempted to explore the inner depths of our respective mouths. I used my hands to free him from the confines of his towel, and his cock happily pointed at me. I gave him a few tugs while we kissed and eventually he broke the kiss. “Wow!” he said, “All this emotion over the--” he started to say as I put my finger to his lips. He smiled and pulled off my shirt.

We started making out again, except this time our hands were busy exploring the rest of our bodies. His skin felt like silk under my fingertips and his hands were touching me in all the right ways. He broke the kiss a second time and dropped to his knees. He was face-to-face with my shorts and fumbled with the belt to get them off. Once they were, all that was in between my most personal toy and him was my white boxer briefs. That didn’t last long, though, as those were quickly pulled off and my cock went into his mouth in a frenzy. His constant fondling and slurping had me practically squirming in pleasure as he sucked. To my shock, I felt his nose in my pubes and I almost came right there. “Brayden,” I said, “you have to stop.” He didn’t listen, and I had to try my best to control my guaranteed orgasm. “Brayden!” I said, “Please!”

He stopped, pulled off, and looked up at me with a sadness in his face. “Are you okay?” He said, concerned.

“Of course. The only reason I wanted you to stop was so that we could try something else.” I said, looking at him lovingly.

A sly grin crept across his face again as he said, “What did you have in mind?”

“I’m ready, Brayden. I need you.” I said, hoping he’d catch my drift. I know he did, but he pretended that he didn’t.

“You need me to what?” He said, showing off his great teeth.

“I need you to fuck me!”

“Ooh! That’s definitely a ten.” He said, giggling. I looked at him confused and he said, “That cuss was a ten out of ten.” He said, making me giggle. We pulled the futon out a little bit so we could set it into a bed. While we had set up the futon, he had grabbed a bottle of lube and a condom from his top dresser drawer. He laid me down gently on my back and we made out again. After he broke our kiss for the third time, he grabbed the lube and squirted a copious amount around my asshole. It was cool to the touch, but I don’t know why I ever expected it not to be. He told me to relax, and I felt a finger ease into the opening. He started blowing me while he fingered me, and soon enough I felt a second finger enter. It surprised me, but it didn’t hurt as much as I thought it might. He must have thought I was ready, as he grabbed the condom and ripped it out of the packaging.

Once the condom was on, he grabbed my legs and practically threw them over his shoulders. His cock was fully engorged and I lubed it up for him, and I was breathing hard as I felt him touch the entrance. “Go slow!” I said as I was both afraid and excited at the same time. That was a very strange feeling.

I grimaced as he inserted the head, but knew that was probably the thickest part of his dick. Not like the rest was a pencil or anything, but it wasn’t going to be worse. He looked for permission in my face to continue, so I said, “Okay, keep going.”

He pushed in inch by inch, and after some time he was all the way in. Once he told me that, I told him I was ready again. He nearly pulled all the way out, and then began to push back in. He continued at a slow pace, and before long, he was truly fucking me.

And then, he hit something. More appropriately, he grazed against my prostate and sent me into ecstasy. All the pain that was initially there was erased in that incredible moment of bliss. He continued to speed up as he expertly kept prodding me from the inside. I had my hands clenched to the futon for a long time, but released the material when he first touched my prostate. I didn’t really know what to do with my hands, so I started playing with my nipples. “Brayden,” I started as his pace had continued to quicken, “look!” I said as I smiled, “No hands!” I said as I came. It was probably the largest orgasm I’d ever had, and it was most certainly the most pleasurable.

Shortly after I came, Brayden pushed all the way in, threw his head back and I felt his cock throb inside me. Too soon, he pulled out and threw away the condom. He grabbed a wash cloth and cleaned us up. We laid there together for a few minutes as we calmed down. I looked at him and smiled, and suddenly a tear rolled down my cheek. He saw, and said, “Matt? Did I hurt you?”

I smiled and said, “Oh, no! Not at all. That was perfect!” I said, “Brayden,” I said as I gazed into his blue eyes, “I love you so much!”

His eyes glistened as he heard those words leave my mouth. “Oh, Matt! I love you too!” We both leaned forward and kissed, swapping saliva for the last time in the night. I drifted off into a deep slumber, holding the man of my dreams in my arms.

Re: Lost in a Dream

I really liked the chapter, Matt. So many questions answered and the fact that his parents are going to be OK topped it off. I have a feeling Matt will be working his wonders on Dean in the near future. Great positive actions. And, finally Brayden and Matt have fully consummated their relationship. However there certainly will be more to come....lol

Re: Lost in a Dream

I have only just begun this story, but am already hooked after two chapters. One of the things I like about it is that it thrives on anticipation and yet has not relied on the cliff hanger to create it. Instead, we know from the very unusual opening that there is some link between Matt and Brayden. Of course, we're all expecting it to be a romantic and/or sexual link. But just how is this going to play out. The plot is well paced to keep us looking ahead, looking for clues, imagining whatever we want to imagine. But we would only do that if we cared about the characters. At least in the case of Matt, I am already rooting for him to find his soulmate. It could be Brayden. Maybe not. But I am already invested in him and that isn't easy to do in two chapters. Hats off for good writing and staying away from having everyone sport 9 inch cocks and drive Audi's to go to McDonald's. And after two chapters, nothing more than a firm handshake and I'm still reading. Will there be sex ahead. More anticipation. Now this is what writing is all about. And reading too! Thanks

"Reading should be easy. Only the reader should be hard." -- hard reader (author of the erotic porn novel "I Thought I Knew")

Re: Lost in a Dream

Matt, I know how difficult it is to write emotional chapters like this. You handled it extremely well, and brought it to a "hardfelt" conclusion

Thank you! I tried to put myself in Matt's shoes and just write what I would have felt. I cried while I wrote some of this! (more so at the end of Chapter 12 than 13)

Originally Posted by Craiger

I really liked the chapter, Matt. So many questions answered and the fact that his parents are going to be OK topped it off. I have a feeling Matt will be working his wonders on Dean in the near future. Great positive actions. And, finally Brayden and Matt have fully consummated their relationship. However there certainly will be more to come....lol

Craiger

I see what you did there!

Originally Posted by Ohiospeedo

Just read the whole story today. Loving it.

Still more, don't worry!

Originally Posted by TheFireGod

Loved the last few chapters!

Thanks!!

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I'm posting today to tell you that there might be a bit of a delay in getting Chapter 14 out. I've been chatting with hardreader since he started reading and has had some incredible pieces of advice for me. Because of that, I'm going to be working on "re-mastering" some of the first chapters. We'll see what comes of it! Besides, there may be some extra scenes involved

Most of the re-mastering shouldn't take too long; the chapters are already written. I haven't started yet, but I certainly plan on it!

Right now, though, I wanted to say thank you for everyone who has stayed with this story. I really, really, really appreciate the feedback as it gives me the extra push to continue. So, thank you all very much!!

Oh, and one more thing: it is perfectly acceptable to contact me! If you have something to say and you don't want anyone else to know, don't be afraid!

Re: Lost in a Dream

Matt, I had no idea you were going to mention that I was talking with you about/critiquing your wonderful story. Not that Lost In A Dream needs much critiquing. You are a natural storyteller and you have an amazing story going here. This final scene ... well it was so well done and the build-up to it was so delicious. The ending was near perfect. It would have been just another sex scene if you hadn't made us understand the characters so well, care about them so much, feel the longings they feel. When a writer can do that, and then adds sex, it becomes that much more powerful and compelling to read. Not pornography but life as we really live it ... or at least wish we did. And for me it was truly powerful, compelling and engaging ... if you catch my drift. I look forward to so much more of this story and from you in the days and weeks ahead.

"Reading should be easy. Only the reader should be hard." -- hard reader (author of the erotic porn novel "I Thought I Knew")

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Originally Posted by hardreader

Matt, I had no idea you were going to mention that I was talking with you about/critiquing your wonderful story. Not that Lost In A Dream needs much critiquing. You are a natural storyteller and you have an amazing story going here. This final scene ... well it was so well done and the build-up to it was so delicious. The ending was near perfect. It would have been just another sex scene if you hadn't made us understand the characters so well, care about them so much, feel the longings they feel. When a writer can do that, and then adds sex, it becomes that much more powerful and compelling to read. Not pornography but life as we really live it ... or at least wish we did. And for me it was truly powerful, compelling and engaging ... if you catch my drift. I look forward to so much more of this story and from you in the days and weeks ahead.

Thanks HR! I'm really happy that you've liked this story and that you want to help make it even better. Oh, don't worry, either. I catch that drift! I believe you made that quite clear when we chatted!

Originally Posted by Autolycus

Your latest chapter is truly moving - no need to change a word of it!

Thank you Auto! It means a lot! I don't know if I will or not, yet. I might add a few subtle things here and there, but not as much as I did for Ch.1 and Ch.2.

Originally Posted by Dannycutie

Another amazing chapter once again! I love your writing! Can't wait for Chapter 14 or the re-master chapters!!!!

Thank you!! It's going to get way better, I promise!

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The reason I'm stopping in today is that I want everyone to know a few things:
First, Chapters 1 and 2 are re-posted thanks to some advice and editing from hardreader and the gracious post-editing work by Autolycus. That's from me, and I hope everyone else thanks them too!

Next, Chapter 14 is completed. I will most likely be posting it on Monday, but that is not something I can promise.

Finally, (Ramble mode, skip if you want!) I want to post this as a way to talk. I had a really tough day yesterday. There's a certain someone out there (I know he's reading and he can reveal himself if he wants) that talked with me a long time yesterday and really helped me get through it. If you want to thank him, put a '' in your post.

I don't know how much each one of you has read about this story, but there are a lot of things about this that are meaningful to my real life. Not all of it is true, but not all of it is false. The emotions are 100% real. I cried when I wrote about the accident with my parents, because I had to imagine what it would feel like!

Now, the reason these are related is because I used some of the emotion I was feeling to write about a part in Ch.14. It's not what happened, it's just the way I'm using it to fit with the story. If you figure it out, great! If not, that's fine too. Like I said before, this is just making me feel good. I'm feeling MUCH better today!! So, thanks again you-know-who!

Now, if you have a comment or want to talk about the last section send me a PM. I like those and I promise I don't bite!

</ramble> Please, enjoy the first couple re-makes! There's a little special "addition" to each of them if you can find it!

ONE LAST THING. (Man, I won't shut up today...) If you like this, comment. Tell a friend to read it. Send me a PM. Rate it! Something! I'm gracious to everyone that has. That's what makes this worth it! If you don't like it, GO AWAY! (Just kidding, please don't!!!) PLEASE, DO tell me what I can do better!

Re: Lost in a Dream

That's a hard note to follow! For a story to be convincing, an author has to draw on his experience. OK, so facts may be given a new twist or totally invented but a feeling has to come from the heart if the story is to be plausible. In enjoying this particular story, we are mindful of the energy you have applied in its telling and for that we thank you.

Re: Lost in a Dream

Originally Posted by Autolycus

That's a hard note to follow! For a story to be convincing, an author has to draw on his experience. OK, so facts may be given a new twist or totally invented but a feeling has to come from the heart if the story is to be plausible. In enjoying this particular story, we are mindful of the energy you have applied in its telling and for that we thank you.

Thanks Auto! I'm glad it means as much to you as it does to me!

I know I said I thought I'd post this tomorrow, but, HR and I got a chance to talk earlier than we had thought. SO. Don't forget to check out the newly "refurbished" first two chapters. You'll like them! Other than that, I'm here to bring you chapter 14. Enjoy!

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 14

I awoke to a dark room on Tuesday morning. I had a feeling I was up way too early, but I also had a feeling I wasn’t going to be able to fall asleep again. I was laying on my new favorite pillow, being soothed by the constant rise and fall of his chest. I thought back to last night, and how much it really meant to me.

Up until a few weeks ago, I had no clue what ‘love’ really was. My family had always told me they loved me, and I told them I loved them; but, I didn’t know what it meant. When I met Brayden, I knew he was something special. The fact that I dreamt about him made that clear to me.

When my parents were involved in that accident, I realized that anything can change in the blink of an eye. I couldn’t help but think of how I would feel without Brayden, and it ate away at my very soul. I had gotten so close to him over the past week that I suddenly couldn’t imagine what I would be doing without him. Whenever he was there, I felt safe. When my parents were hurt, he was there to comfort me. There’s a very distinct possibility I wouldn’t have even made it to the hospital that night if he wasn’t there to take me. I was an emotional wreck.

‘Love’ was no longer an empty word to me. It wasn’t just a way to say goodbye. It wasn’t just something said to someone for their relation to me. It was something more. I don’t love my parents because they’re my parents; I love them because they taught me to be who I am. I don’t love Bryan because he’s my brother; I love him because despite how much he would pick on me, he was always there to clean up my messes.

“Penny for your thoughts?” A familiar voice said from above me. Clearly time had been racing as much as my thoughts were, as light was emitting from the windows.

“Brayden!” I said in a soft voice as I looked up to face him, “Have I told you how much I love you?”

“Yeah.” He said as his smile extended across his cheeks, “And it makes me love you even more!” I hadn’t just hear him telling me he loved me; I felt it. I laid my head back on his chest, right over his heart. The sound of his calm heartbeat and warmth of his silky-smooth chest soothed me back into a glorious slumber.

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Brayden woke me up when he got up to get ready for the day. When I got up, my ass was sore. Big surprise! No, I didn’t have to walk bow-legged. I did have a bit of a limp, which Jason noticed when he saw me in the hall.

“Good morning, sunshine!” He exclaimed as he saw my face from his room. When I stopped to say hi, an evil grin appeared as he said, “Aww, Matt!” He said as blood started to rush to my face. He knew. Well, he assumed he knew. “At least you don’t have cum on your cheek this time!”

There I was, mortified and speechless in the hallway again. My mouth was agape, but no sound came out. “What?” Jason started, “Cat got your tongue?” he said as he teased me.

“No,” Brayden said as he pulled me into our room, “I do!” He said as he pulled me into a kiss.

Jason just laughed as he said, “Matt, check your e-mail. I found something you might want to read!” So that’s exactly what I did! I found the e-mail from Jason and clicked the link and followed it to the story.

“A local woman who tested one-and-a-half times the legal limit was killed in a multi-vehicle accident over the weekend. According to police, 21-year-old Amanda Johansen was driving west on 4th Street when she crossed into the path of a northbound vehicle.”

I could hear a female reporter’s voice explaining the story as I read, “The northbound vehicle veered to the left in an attempt to avoid a collision, but crashed into Johansen’s driver-side door. Johansen was taken to the hospital along with passenger and twin brother Dean, but passed away en route.”

My eyes widened as I took note of the grim details. “Both persons in the northbound vehicle are hospitalized, but doctors expect they will make a full recovery.” I couldn’t help but smile as I heard about my parents. Even though I had seen them and talked to them, I hadn’t heard that reassurance by the doctor. It was a good feeling.

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I lounged in my room as the morning progressed. I enjoyed the relaxing feeling of my calm mind. I had nothing to worry about. I had nothing to fear. I had no one to hate. I was at peace. And then a soft knock interrupted my thoughts. I called for whoever it was to come in and was soon confronted by Lukas. He looked completely rattled by something I didn't understand and he was asking for me to help him.

“Of course you can talk to me, Lukas. That’s what friends are for!” I said trying to sound reassuring. “So, what’s on your mind?”

I could see in his eyes how he longed for some answer, some understanding. Those eyes told the story as much as his voice did. “Who am I?” he pleaded not so much to me as to the universe. And then he abruptly sat down. His eyes glistened in the light. Something was eating away at him.

“Lukas, I don't understand what you're asking me. I want to help but that sounds like a question that’s for you to answer. I can’t answer that for you.”

“But I don’t know!” He said as he dropped and shook his head in frustration. His hands grasped the hair on the side of his head, as if he wanted to rip it out. It was tormenting him.

“I promise you, you may not believe or understand it, but you do know. Only you know right now. Just think: What do you want to make you happy?”

“I don’t know that!” He said.

“Okay. I can’t help you if you’re not going to help yourself.” I said firmly. “You have to be true to yourself, Lukas.”

He closed his eyes, but nodded in agreement. As he opened his eyes again, a single tear escaped and cascaded down his cheek. Then he sucked in one big, deep breath and exhaled forcefully. “Matt, I’m gay.”

I smiled at him and rubbed his back as he continued, “And, I know what I want to make me happy,” he said as the tears rolled down to the bottom of his jaw. Another deep breath. “I want to be with someone who wants to hold me as much as I want to hold them. I want someone to love me as much as I love them.”

I smiled profusely at him, “I’m so proud of you, Lukas. I know it’s hard to say, even to friends. But it feels good to get that out, right?”

“Yeah, definitely!” He said as he smiled brilliantly. That smile quickly faded, though. Something else was on his mind. “There’s more I have to say.” He said as he drew in one more deep breath. He exhaled as another tear fell from his eyes. Another deep breath. His lips quivered. “I ...” he started, but his voice cracked as he tried to continue, “I feel like I’ve lost my chance.” Tears started streaming from his eyes.

“No, Lukas, you haven’t.” I said as I pulled him into a hug. I had tears of my own now. “You’re a perfectly wonderful person, Lukas. Anyone would be a fool to doubt that.” I could feel his cold tears start to soak through my shirt as his head rested against my chest.

“But I have, though!” He protested, “The man I love is already taken!” He said as he started to sniffle. “Not only is he taken,” He said with another sniffle, “he...” His voice cracked as he whimpered that last word. He couldn’t finish. His mouth was open like he wanted to say something, but he just couldn’t.

I rubbed his back in a circular motion as I tried to soothe him. “It’s okay, Lukas. Let it out. You’ll feel better, I promise.” We sat there in silence for several minutes as Lukas collected his thoughts. I could tell this was a struggle for him, so I said, “It’s Evan, isn’t it.”

He looked up at me and I read the answer in his eyes. He didn’t have to tell me anymore, I knew. “Are you okay to tell me what happened?” I asked, hoping he would finally tell me what had happened. I’d already talked with Evan about this. He said they were more like brothers. Heck, Brayden told me that Lukas said the same thing! Unfortunately, one of them had lied. I knew which. That was painstakingly obvious right now. But, it wasn’t a malicious lie. It was a scared lie.

“We talked a long time one night. We had finished watching a movie and he was cuddling into me. I felt like I was protecting him. I don’t remember how long we sat there,” He said as he sniffled and looked off into space, “but, I can remember how much I enjoyed that. And I told him so.” Lukas looked at me as if he wanted permission to continue, so I nodded. “And he agreed.”

I looked at Lukas and saw the sadness in his eyes. I wonder what made him feel like this? I hadn’t seen him act like this yet. “Okay, and how did that make you feel?” I said.

“Right away, it felt great. Both of our bodies were like one mass of warm flesh. It made me so happy!” He said as he wiped his eyes of a tear. “But, he said something like, ‘This is just brotherly love, right Lukas?’” He sniffled before he continued, “Stupid me just nodded my head. It made my heart ache, but that’s all I could do. I was in a stupor.”

I looked at him in a sad shock as he continued, “That happened at the end of last semester, though.” He said as he sniffled, “All those emotions went dormant. Until he got hurt. And then even more so when I saw him after he met Aiden.” I looked in his eyes and felt sick to my stomach. I set those two up. “A couple of days ago, when I first saw those two together and I came to ask you about it, I was pissed. I don’t know how I held it in. I was pissed and I was sad. After I talked to you guys I went to my room and bawled. I couldn’t help it.” His tears had dried up and his fists were clenched on his knees.

“I’ve seen the way you look at Brayden and the way he looks at you. I’ve seen Aiden and Evan together, and that’s not the way they look at each other. It’s something else entirely.” His eyes narrowed as a frown grew on his face.

I sat back and thought for a minute. I thought of the look I saw in Jason and Kelsey’s eyes when they are together. I thought of the way Brayden looked at me. And the way I saw Lukas look at me the first night I met him. It was all the same. But now that I think of the look I saw in Evan’s and Aiden’s eyes on Sunday night... That’s still not right. Aiden’s eyes could have written a love story, too! What the hell, Evan...

“I think you and Evan need to talk. Alone. Tonight.” I said as I looked into his eyes. I saw that fear again.

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The rest of the day went by quickly. Class sucked, per usual, but it was nice to be able to get into the swing of things. Fortunately, there was no physics lab this week because of the holiday yesterday! Yes!

After supper, I drove to the hospital alone. I told Brayden that I wanted to talk to Dean again, and that he didn’t have to come if he didn’t want to. Before long, I was finished talking with my parents and left to go say ‘Hi’ to Dean.

“I know I said this yesterday, but I want to say it again. I’m really sorry about your sister. I just found out she was your twin today.” I said with a sincere voice. “I can only imagine how you must be feeling, but know that I really feel for you right now.”

“What could you possible know what that feels like?” Dean said, angrily.

“I don’t know what it feels like. You’re right. But, like I said, I can imagine. I have a twin brother.” I snapped back at him, although I knew immediately I had no reason to. He deserved sincerity.

“Oh, sorry.” He said rather flatly. “It’s just ... never mind.”

“Go on, I don’t mind. People tell me I’m a good listener!”

“Nobody else understands how it feels to lose something that close to you. My parents don’t even understand how much she meant to me. She knew things about me that no one else did.”

“I don’t mean any offense by this whatsoever, but I know for a fact I would hurt more from losing my lover than my twin.” I said, “Death sucks. It really does. But it sucks for everyone. Please don’t push other people away. They’re trying to make it easier for themselves, too.” That made him think.

“Why are you doing this?” He asked after a long silence.

Easy answer. “Because you remind me of myself.”

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As I was leaving, I got a phone call. A frantic phone call, from Lukas. “Wait, wait. Slow down a minute!” I said as I tried to figure out what he was saying. He restarted and told me what was up. “Seriously?” I said, annoyed, “He just walked out after you said that?” What the hell, Evan...

“Okay, okay. I’ll call him. But I’m not telling him what to decide, Lukas. That’s up to him. Okay?” I said as I tried to calm Lukas. I hadn’t felt this mad at any one person since Kevin called Brayden an asshole.

I stood in the parking lot of the hospital, wind gently caressing my hair. It was a cool fall night, and despite the beauty of the scene, I was irate. “Evan,” I said as the other line answered the phone, “we need to talk.”

“I’m really not in the mood right n--” He said before I interrupted.

“NO, Evan!” I practically shouted. “You can’t treat people like this!” I sighed and toned it down a notch. “Whether you wanted to or not, you’ve played with someone’s emotions.”

“I know tha--” Interrupted again.

“Are you sure you do, though? Are you really sure what the ramifications of this are?”

“Yes!” He said, almost whimpering, “Someone is going to get hurt, and I don’t wan--”

“You don’t have a choice in letting someone off easy on this, Ev.”

“Help me!” He pleaded as his voice quivered.

“I’m not deciding for you. That’s for you and you alone. I’m going to ask you some questions, and don’t you dare tell me the answer. Just say ‘okay’, got it?” I said sternly.

“Okay.”

"Do you want to be close to someone like in a relationship? I mean like me and Brayden?" Okay he said with a hint of belligerence.

“What are you looking for in a relationship?” I asked. "Okay."

“What are you looking for in a person?” "Okay."

“Now think about the guys your thinking about. Think about them and who they are and what they mean to you. What they have meant to you and what they can mean to you for years to come. Don’t decide without thinking of each of them. Who do you care the most about?” "‘Kay."

“Who have you cared the most about?” Mhmm. His voice sounded more frail with each response.

“Do you know your answer?” Sniffle. A soft hum. I think it was the tail end of another ‘Mhmm.’

“Good. Now you need to tell them. It’s not going to be easy, but they need to know. I’m sorry it had to be like this, Evan, but if you do this right … if you handle this right like the man I know you can be, it will be good for you. I know it.” Click.

Re: Lost in a Dream

I think this latest chapter turned out great! It wasn't at all what I expected, but that's one of the nice things about your storytelling ... it's not predictable. And so I have to wonder what in the world you'll have up your sleeve for us next. You know I'm out here waiting. And as for Chapter 1 and 2 rewrites, you nailed them. It makes it so clear just how much Brayden got lodged in Matt's mind and just how powerfully it affected him. Thanks for all the extra effort.

"Reading should be easy. Only the reader should be hard." -- hard reader (author of the erotic porn novel "I Thought I Knew")

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I've been away from my computer for a week and I have just caught up with reading Chapter 14 and I really like where it is going, Matt. I will check out the rewrites on the first two chapters in the morning. I think I'm needing someone like Matt now too. I guess I should say many of us are needing Matt. Thanks for this awesome story.

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Originally Posted by sheep

liked the additions in ch 1/2 and loved this chapter

Good to hear! Thanks for staying with us!

Originally Posted by hardreader

I think this latest chapter turned out great! It wasn't at all what I expected, but that's one of the nice things about your storytelling ... it's not predictable. And so I have to wonder what in the world you'll have up your sleeve for us next. You know I'm out here waiting. And as for Chapter 1 and 2 rewrites, you nailed them. It makes it so clear just how much Brayden got lodged in Matt's mind and just how powerfully it affected him. Thanks for all the extra effort.

Thanks HR! Glad you're still enjoying it! And you're right.. It was fun to get a look into how Brayden had an effect on Matt!

Originally Posted by Autolycus

Matt, the latest Chapter is great - your characters really leap off the screen as real people!

Thank you Auto! I've really tried to work on that!

Originally Posted by Craiger

I've been away from my computer for a week and I have just caught up with reading Chapter 14 and I really like where it is going, Matt. I will check out the rewrites on the first two chapters in the morning. I think I'm needing someone like Matt now too. I guess I should say many of us are needing Matt. Thanks for this awesome story.

Craiger

Glad to have you back, Craiger! You didn't miss much, though! I hope you got a chance to read the first two again, I think you'll like the changes! As much as I'd like to say there's a real 'Matt' out there we could all latch on to and enjoy, he is a fictional character! Besides, I call him first if he does exist!!!

Thanks to everyone else for sticking with me here! I'm still working on Chapter 15 and I might be able to finish the writing of it today. I can't promise when it will be posted, however. If everything goes smoothly, it could be tomorrow. If not, it could be Monday. Sometimes I just don't know!

To hold you over until then, check out the newly updated Chapter 3 and Chapter 4. It's a lot of little things that help show you the relationship between Jason and Matt and even other characters (Brayden, perhaps?) So, enjoy, and patiently wait for the arrival of Chapter 15!

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I just read your new rewrite of Chapter 4. Score another point for Matt. You know what I mean. The chapter rewrite is awesome. Better than I ever would have guessed. This story is getting better and better and better and messier and messier. I am loving it.

"Reading should be easy. Only the reader should be hard." -- hard reader (author of the erotic porn novel "I Thought I Knew")

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Just finished reading the chapter 1 and 2 revisions. I like it, I like it.... Makes me want to go back to my college years and open up a little more than I did.... But, now I have to live vicariously through Matt and all the others...lol They do give me ideas, however.

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Originally Posted by hardreader

I just read your new rewrite of Chapter 4. Score another point for Matt. You know what I mean. The chapter rewrite is awesome. Better than I ever would have guessed. This story is getting better and better and better and messier and messier. I am loving it.

Thanks HR! All the help is coming into fruition!

Originally Posted by Craiger

Just finished reading the chapter 1 and 2 revisions. I like it, I like it.... Makes me want to go back to my college years and open up a little more than I did.... But, now I have to live vicariously through Matt and all the others...lol They do give me ideas, however.

Craiger

I wish I was this open in college. But, if I was, I wouldn't be writing this now, so I guess I'm glad I wasn't!

OK everyone! Chapter 15 has made it! I do hope you enjoy it, part was quite hard to write!

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 15

I expected to get a call from someone on my way back from the hospital. Whether that was Evan, Lukas or Brayden, I didn’t know. I worried the whole way back. Was I going to be happy with Evan? Was I going to be mad?

But that call never came. Which was good; I didn’t want to get distracted at night when deer were around. It wasn’t until after I made it back that I realized my phone had died. Shit.

I didn’t have to wait long to find out the result, though. Once I had made it to the dorm, I could see the result. Aiden was outside with Lukas. Wait! What?

“Guys?” I questioned as I got closer. Lukas had been crying. It appeared Aiden was there to console him. “What happened?” I said as I got closer. That seemed to act like a trigger for Lukas, as tears poured from his eyes. “Aiden?”

“Apparently, after you got off the phone with Evan," Aiden said, "he told Lukas to follow him. Shortly after, he waltzed into his room and started making out with me.”

I looked at him with any number of emotions covering my face. Shock. Sadness. Anger.

“I was so surprised by him kissing me," Aiden said, "that I still had my eyes open, and I saw Lukas walk into the room and stop.”

My eyes widened as I teared up. I brought my hands to my mouth in shock and denial as the hair on the back of my neck stood up. Did Evan really do this? How could he?

“He didn’t!” I said, shocked.

“I didn’t even know what was going on, so I chased Lukas out. And he told me everything. What what was it you told Evan to do?” He questioned, suddenly angry.

“All I told him was that it was his choice to make.*I asked him questions to consider and that’s all. I had no idea who he picked or why. I just knew someone was going to get hurt.” I said.

“Oh, okay. Sorry for accusing you.” Aiden said. “Can you take care of Lukas? I need to go have a little chat with Evan.”

“Yeah. We’ll be in my room. Thanks for being so good to Lukas, Aiden.” I said as we all walked inside.

“I’m really sorry it has to be like this, guys.” Aiden said.

“Don’t be, it’s not your fault. I hated that it had to be like that anyway. I only wish I knew before I tried to set you up!” I said. It was true, though. I like Aiden. I like Lukas. They’re both great people in a bad situation.

The rest of the night was uneventful in comparison to everything else that had happened. I didn’t hear from Aiden like I thought I might. After Lukas and I explained everything to Brayden, we all decided it would probably be best for Lukas to stay with us for the night. He was emotionally overwhelmed.

I really struggled to fall asleep. My mind was full of questions I wish I knew the answer to. What did Evan see in Aiden? What didn’t he see in Lukas? Maybe it was the other way around, too.

How was Aiden going to deal with it? How was Evan going to resolve this? What made Evan think the ‘kiss’ would have made anything better? I hope I find some answers soon.

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I woke up suddenly in the middle of the night. Or, so I thought. I wished I could have gone back to sleep for a little longer, but I couldn’t. Before I knew what I was even doing, I was getting up. What the hell? As soon as I got out of bed, I realized I had little control over myself. I left the dorm room, expecting to find myself in the hall; but I'm not in the hall. I'm not anywhere I recognize. It's another room. A cold, empty room. With nothing in it except two other people. They both are staring at me, but I have no idea what to say to either of them.

First, I walk up to the body on the left. Or, at least, my body did. I felt like I was just along for the ride, I guess. When I look at this guy, I see a very beautiful man. He looks like a lot like Aiden. But it isn’t Aiden, at least not exactly like I’ve ever seen him before. He seems ... exaggerated. His smile seems to radiate light. Just a feint light, but he seems radiant. His muscles bulge like I’ve never noticed before. I can sense the power; there’s something that draws me to that power. His skin seems more tan and I feel an urge from deep within. It urges me to touch it; to run my fingers across its warmth. He appears perfect like a model or even like he was photoshopped.*

After a few minute of staring at this Aiden, I am drawn by an instinct I don't control to the second person. As I approach, I realize he appears to be almost a child, or childlike, rather than an adult. If I'm not mistaken, the child resembles a young Lukas. He has a smile across his face, too, but it seems more forced, not natural and relaxed and welcoming. Almost a cheesy grin. His eyes look up to me and glisten in excitement. Or anticipation. He obviously is happy to have me here. Have me close. I can sense that I touch a chord deep inside of him. Was this really Lukas as a child? Something in that look, that need that I am seeing, makes me uncomfortable. Not that I am not glad to be with him. But his need for me ... I don't know why. What the heck is going on?

I step back and look from one to the other. Aiden? Lukas? Not as I know them. But there they are in front of me.

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The clock showed 7:15 when I awoke in the morning. I was nestled comfortably up against Brayden and his warm body. It was a nice feeling, but I couldn’t help but think of that dream. What was with that? Why did Aiden and Lukas appear so different to me? The more I thought about it, the more it started to confuse me. I just didn’t know what that was.

I glanced at the clock and realized I had to get up and get ready for the day. When I made it to the bathroom and splashed some water in my face, I looked in the mirror. And it all hit me at once. It all started to make sense. I saw Aiden and Lukas as Evan did.

Eventually, I had to get up and get ready for class. I thought for a while I might be distracted all day, but as soon as I made it to Spanish, my mind settled down. There’s nothing like having to focus on another language to do that! I noticed Kevin was unusually quiet. He really seemed like a zombie today. After class, I didn’t know what I was going to do. Should I go talk to Evan? Should I wait until he came to talk to me?

I didn’t even realize it until I got back, but I had left my phone in my room. And I, apparently, shouldn’t have done that. Three missed calls. My heart started to pound until I saw they were from Evan. If it was that important, he would have left a message. The whole thing had started to piss me off. I sort of get why he picked who he did. But why did he have to kiss Aiden in front of Lukas? That still made no sense to me. He better have a good reason.

I snapped out of my trance when I got a text message. From Evan. “Do you hate me?”

I should. That was a really shitty thing to do to someone. Especially someone who’s supposed to be your friend! Someone who’s confessed their love! “No. Am I mad at you? Yes.” I replied.

I got a near instantaneous reply. “Oh. Can we talk?”

Why yes, Evan, we both have the ability to talk! I should really stop being a smart-ass when I’m angry. I just can’t help myself, though! “Don’t chicken out and do this through a text, Ev.”

It took a while, but eventually I got another response from him. “Can you come up here?”

Yes, I do have that ability. Will I? That’s another question. Oops! My smart-ass was showing again. “No. I’m alone in my room, though. The door’s unlocked.” If he can’t talk to his own twin about this, how is he going to be able to face Lukas again?

He arrived in good time, but the whole situation had him quite rattled. That was apparent. His eyes were red and puffy. His hair was the messiest I had ever seen it. As much as I wanted to feel bad for him, I couldn’t. I had to keep a stone face. No emotion. Neutrality. “Hi.” I said.

His eyes teared up as he saw me. I hope he didn’t expect me to make him feel better. I didn’t know if I could. He wrapped his arms around my neck in an embrace that surprised me. He almost immediately started crying into my shoulder. I returned the hug, but could only console him. “Shhh. It’s going to be okay. It might take time, but it will work out for you.” I said. “But, you need to talk to me and tell me what’s going on, okay?”

I could feel his cold tears soak into my shirt as he nodded. I lead him over to the futon and we sat down. We sat a few minutes in a silence only broken as he sniffled and whimpered softly.

“Matt,” he started as he continued to sniffle, “I fucked up. I fucked up big time.” Yeah you did, I thought.

“Okay. Admitting the mistake is your first step. What’s next?” I said as I tried not to guide him completely through. I only wanted him to continue to talk.

“Well, I wanna make it better,” he started, “but ...” Sniffle. “But I don’t know how.”

“What do you think you did, and who do you think you wronged?”

“I thought kissing Aiden would make Lukas see that I liked Aiden in a way I couldn’t like him,” he said. Woah!

“What do you mean you can’t like Lukas that way?” I prodded.

He slowly started to explain everything, and it calmed him. To a point. “I’ve known Lukas forever. I never felt anything before I was gay, so why should I now?” I don’t think he meant it to sound cruel; I think he just didn’t understand.

“Do you think you just turned gay overnight?” I asked.

“Well, no. I guess I always ... Oh. I ... Uh ...” He said as I tried to think of something.

“Have you ever noticed the way Lukas looks at you?” I said. He shook his head. “Think back to that night at the end of the semester last year. Do you remember it?” I figured if it meant something to Lukas it could mean something to Evan.

“Yeah.” He whispered. "I know what you're talking about."

“Have you ever thought about that night before now?” I asked. Evan had a lot on his mind. More than I anticipated.

“Yeah.” He whispered again. This time there was a hint of a whimper in his voice. “I’ve thought about that a lot. But ...” He started before he closed his mouth.

I had to be meticulous about word choice. “But ... you don’t know how to explain how you feel?”

“Yeah.” He said as he took a deep breath. “Lukas has always been there for me. I admired him as a friend and a brother. I know I have some sort of strange feelings for him but I don’t know how to explain them. It’s completely different than what I feel for Aiden. I mean ...” and then seemed lost for words. “Aiden’s incredibly good looking. And he’s a great guy! Who wouldn't want to be with him? I want to reciprocate the feelings he has ...” He said as he trailed off.

“Aiden is an incredible guy. He’s good looking person and he’s got a good soul. There aren’t many better. I see and feel all that about him too. But, my heart is already taken, and I can shelve those feelings for him. And frankly, I think your heart's taken too like mine.”

Evan looked at me for a long while. Not out of confusion or anger or happiness. He sat and thought. “Do you think ... Is it love?”

“It could be.” I said, honestly. “But I don’t know that. That’s something only you will know.”

“Really?" he asked seeming confused by where this was all leading him. He was silent for a while and then said, "Okay.” He was surprisingly calm. “Will I know?”

“Yeah.” I said as I smiled at him for the first time. “Love is like a flower, buddy. It’s not something that simply shows up over night. You have to take care of it. Sometimes it grows fast and sometimes it doesn’t.” I paused, “But, with the relationship you’ve had with Lukas,” I started, “I suspect it’s there already. Waiting to be drawn out.”

Again he looked at me, but this time I sensed what he felt. Happiness. For the first time that morning, a subtle smile appeared in the corner of his mouth. “I think you’re right.” He said before his smile faded, “But I need to talk to Lukas.”

“Yes you do. All I’m going to say is now you’re on his time now. When he’s ready to talk to you, he’ll let you in. But don’t get discouraged! If I know you both as well as I think I do, he’ll talk to you when he’s ready. And you’ll tell him how you really feel!”

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After a couple of classes early in the afternoon, I was ready to go back. Once I made it to my room, I was surprised to find my door already open. I was confused, because Brayden was supposed to be at class. I thought it might be Jason, because he knew I left my door unlocked if I knew he’d be around. When I entered the doorway, I saw two heads sitting on my futon. One definitely belonged to Jason, but the other I couldn’t quite place. He was a blonde, but I still couldn’t quite figure out who he was. As I set my backpack down, both heads turned and said hi.

That’s when I saw it was Aiden, and it looked like he needed someone to talk to. Jason got up to leave, so I assumed he was just there to keep him busy until I got back. I sat down on the sofa next to Aiden and said, “So, what’s up?” I looked him in his eyes and couldn’t get a read on how he was feeling. It wasn’t like when Evan or Lukas came and talked to me. He already looked like his problems were resolved.

“I told you I was going to talk to Evan last night and I did.” He said. “We talked for a long time, too. About things he did and things he was going to do.” Aiden seemed surprisingly calm.

“You know, I talked to him this morning and he never mentioned anything about you or your talk.” I said.

“I’m not surprised, I guess.” He started, “After talking with Lukas and then Evan, I could tell there’s something between them. And I told Evan that I didn’t want that ‘something’ to be me.”

I nodded my head and said, “I’m still sorry it had to be like this, Aiden. Like I said last night. You’re a great guy and it really sucks it had to happen like this.”

“It hurt a lot last night. But, I’ve seen into both of their hearts now and I can tell there’s no place for me. At least not right now.”

He looked sad but he didn’t want to get himself down. He started to get up off the futon, so I got up too and gave him a friendly hug. “Aiden, I hope we can still be friends.”

He let go of the hug and looked at me confused and smiled, “What? Why couldn’t we be friends?”

“I don’t want to be a constant reminder of what you felt for Evan!” I exclaimed.

“You’re funny, Matt!” He said as he laughed, “You and him are so different. Are you sure there isn’t room in your heart for me?”

I smiled at him and said, “Yeah, I’m sure. Sorry!”

“What if I got to know Brayden, too...” He said as he trailed off.

“Nope! It doesn’t work like that. We can be friends and I’ll always be here to talk, but nothing more!” I said with a smile.

“Damn!” He said with a laugh, “Oh well, it was worth a shot!”

We sat around and talked for a while after that. We got into storytelling mode and both had some interesting stories to share. I thought it was interesting we both came out to people in unexpected ways. He came out to his dad because his dad saw something that shocked him; I came out to Brayden and Kevin because of the massive asshole Kevin was. I thought I saw his forehead scrunch up and a subtle frown appear when I mentioned Kevin’s behavior. Must have been my imagination, though, because he didn’t mention anything about how that made him feel.

At one point while we talked, he got a text message. He didn’t check it until he left, so I never heard who it was from. Whoever it was made him smile from ear to ear. “See ya later, Aiden!” I called out as he walked down the hall.

He turned and walk backwards a few paces. His happiness was quite apparent as he waved goodbye. “Whoever it is, just be yourself!” I said to him as I waved goodbye.

I stood in the hall as he left and smiled to myself. That guy deserved someone nice in his life for everything that has happened in the past couple of days.

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I didn’t see Brayden that night until 9:00. He told me that he'd hung out with Lukas and kept his mind off of everything else. He said something else, but I zoned out. I don't know exactly why but all I wanted to do right then was to stare at his incredible body. He wasn’t even out of his clothes yet! When he realized I lost concentration on the conversation, his hand crept into his pants. When that didn’t help get my attention back, he squatted down so that my eyes met his. “Someone is a wee bit distracted, huh?”

“Oh God yes!” I exclaimed. His blue eyes glimmered in excitement as he reminded me just how beautiful his whole body was.

He pulled me in close for what I thought was going to be a heavy make-out session, but at the last second he moved his mouth to whisper in my ear. I could feel his warm breath tickle my skin as he spoke softly, “I’ve just got to take a shower. I hope you don’t mind.”

“You tease!” I said as he changed in front of me. Oh boy. I stood there and watched him as he disrobed. I wanted to help him, but he insisted that he needed this shower and that it wouldn’t happen if I helped take his clothes off. He was probably right! No, he was absolutely right! As he walked out the door, he turned his head, smiled, and winked. As if I wasn’t hot enough for him already!

As he got cleaned up, I moved the futon out and got it in position to be a bed. I had to wait a few torturously long minutes, but I wanted him. I needed him.

And I think he needed me. When he walked in the door, he had a towel wrapped dangerously low around his waist. There wasn’t much left to imagine, but I didn’t need to anyway. He had a smirk on his face the second he walked in the door. Once the door was shut, I pounced.

I was already naked, so as soon as I could, I unhooked his towel from his waist and let it fall to the floor. I don’t know why I decided to do it, but I jumped into his welcoming arms. He caught me as if he read my mind, and I wrapped my legs around his waist in the hope he wouldn’t put me down. As he held me, I forced my tongue into his mouth and started to rediscover every detail in his mouth. I remembered how soft the interior of his cheeks felt. How smooth his teeth were. How warm mouth was. He returned much of the favor with his wiggling tongue as we mutually pleasured one another’s mouths.

He slowly made his way towards the futon, and once we got close, I told him to lie down while I sat on him. When he lay on the futon, I sat on the middle of his thighs and stared at the wild beast in front of me. Brayden was already breathing hard, and I could clearly see he was as horny as I was. Seeing him this way so close to me was incredible. He is magnificent. I wanted to be with him so badly. I knew I wasn’t going to last long. I scooted forward so both of our cocks touched. Mine jumped in excitement as I could feel the heat of his cock touching mine. As it leapt, I saw a dollop of pre-cum form a rope between our cocks. That was the last push I needed as I grasped them both together gently. He gasped as he felt my hand and my cock begin to rub slowly and passionately up and down.

The heat of the moment drove me wild. It didn’t feel like I was masturbating two people at the same time; I felt like we were one. I knew he felt the same as his breathing became ever more irregular with each slow stroke. The way our cool pre-cum lubricated both of us was the last push I needed to get over the edge. I felt my balls draw up and I arched my back as my cock exploded. Most of the shots hit Brayden in the chest, and that feeling must have been his tipping point. I first felt his legs tense from under me and I noticed his balls hugged his body. I watched his every move as he threw his head back and gasped. And then he started his climax.

He and I made such a mess. I decided I would clean him up. I licked up all of our cum and shared the precious mix in a passionate kiss. We had kissed for several minutes when I realized the beast inside had come out from its slumber. I felt his hot and sticky prick against my own as we both readied for round two. Condom and lube, check!

We changed positions as we prepared, him. He knelt above me as I lay on my back with my legs over his shoulders. I smiled in excitement as he applied the cold lube to my equally excited asshole. I knew there would be pain, but it was worth the pleasure. After he had applied a generous amount of lube to my hole, he inserted a finger as we made out. I couldn’t help but relax as he distracted me from the initial pain of multiple fingers penetrating me by sucking on my tongue as I sucked on his. He slowly pushed two fingers in and out of my ass as I focused on his mouth. As he slowly worked two fingers in and out of me, he moved his attention from my mouth to my sensitive neck. Once he was at my chest, I realized that he didn’t have just two fingers in me anymore. He had three. I didn’t even notice him putting the third in!

After he stopped with the three fingers, he ripped open another condom package and wrapped up his love tool. I saw him squirt and apply a large amount of lube all over his cock and my asshole. While he lined up to enter, he stopped and looked me in the eyes as if he were asking permission. “Hurry up and fuck me slow!” I said in the heat of the moment. He smiled at the comment and it took me a second to understand the irony behind it. He took my advice, though, as I felt his head begin to enter.

Of course it hurt at first, but once I felt the whole head in, I knew it was only going to get better. Inch by inch he entered as I endured the onslaught. The pleasure had begun to override the pain as I felt all of him inside me. I felt his pubic hair tickle my sensitive balls. His hairless thighs up against my ass cheeks. Without asking how I wanted it, he started to fuck me gently. I had begun to love every part of the way he was making me feel. The gentle nature of the act along with the pleasure of the fullness he had provided.

He was driving me wild! Again! It felt like we were puzzle pieces perfectly designed for one another. “I want your cum all over my chest!” I said as I felt myself nearing another orgasm. When I said that, his pace quickened even more. Soon enough, my body tensed up and I felt my orgasm bubbling from within my balls. I squeezed my eyes shut and tensed up as I tried to hold my cum in a few more moments. I heard Brayden moan in delight as I tensed my ass around his cock. He kept right on fucking me, so I knew he was just as close. Every thrust pushed me closer and closer to my inevitable orgasm.

When he pulled out, I let go. I grunted as I opened my eyes to see my cock stare me down and explode all over me. The first shot hit up by my developing pectorals. The second hit my cheek. I continued to cum as Brayden aimed. He furiously worked his cock and I looked just in time to see him tense up in pleasure. I looked down just in time to see the first shots hit my stomach. I panted for breath as Brayden finished all over me. Once he was done, he looked me in the eyes and smiled. “That,” he started to say through his panting breath, “was amazing. The way you squeezed your ass around me was incredible.”

I was at a loss for words, so I smiled. I hadn’t intended to do that, but now I knew it felt great! He started lapping up the pools of cum on me and shared it with me as I had shared with him earlier. So much more than just a kiss, the tastes of our cum fresh from our love making were mingled in our mouths bring us even closer together. Finally he collapsed next to me and we kissed some more. Our legs were intertwined and our arms held on tight as he said, “I love you, Matt!” with a generous smile.

I smiled in delight as I looked him in the eyes, “I love you too, Brayden! You’re incredible!” We kissed one more time before falling into a precious slumber; I was helplessly entangled in my man’s arms and legs.

Re: Lost in a Dream

Wow, Matt! That was intense. The entire chapter was awesome. I hope Matt realizes that he is the glue that holds all the rest of the gang together. He exudes the wisdom of an old soul. Still there are more ends to tie up. Who is Aiden's text from? When will Lukas be willing to talk to Evan? Where is Kevin fitting in all this? Questions, questions..... I'll wait for the next chapter...lol

Re: Lost in a Dream

I absolutely love your characters, especially Matt of course. And your storyline, because it is completely original, weird at times but so believable and unpredictable. And of course the sex, which is not just awesome in its eroticism but also helps give great insight into your characters and the emotions, values and desires that drive their lives. I'm sure that a lot of guys who read Chapter 15 ended up with an experience much like sheep's. But I don't hear them complaining about the way you presented it. So I sure won't complain about the multiple messes you caused at my house.

This story is the best thing going on JUB right now in my opinion (sorry sheep and other JUB writers who may be reading this). Please keep posting and let us know when you update anymore chapters. The new versions are well worth going back to reread.

"Reading should be easy. Only the reader should be hard." -- hard reader (author of the erotic porn novel "I Thought I Knew")

Re: Lost in a Dream

This story is so fucking hot I need to read all of it. I read the firts chapter and the end of the last one. got so boned i want to real the whole fucking thing. You are like a jizz wizard with a magic dick. it got me boned. and i like it. its a great sotry and hot guys. i'll be back. i think it weird but i like it a lot. plus i get a boner. ha

Re: Lost in a Dream

These past few chapters are amazing! I love the way all of the characters interact with each other, especially the repartee between Jason and Matt, it adds a certain element of mateship that otherwise wouldn't be apparent.
I'm actually happy I haven't had a chance to read through them until now otherwise I would have been left on the cliffhanger of Evan choosing between Lukas and Aiden! How cruel it would be to be left in such suspense.
You are an amazing writer and I hope that you enjoy writing this story as much as I, and everyone else, enjoys reading it.
Please keep up the excellent work.

Have you considered turning these chapters and the one's to come into a book?

Re: Lost in a Dream

Hey everyone! I thought I'd drop by and say that Chapter 16 is really close. Keep an eye out for it! I'm working on a couple of the next edits, but those may or may not be done by the time I post 16.

Originally Posted by sheep

I think I need to clean up. That was an amazing chapter, tense with emotion but ending in a climax of...well a climax!

Thanks sheep I'm really happy with how it turned out!

Originally Posted by Craiger

Wow, Matt! That was intense. The entire chapter was awesome. I hope Matt realizes that he is the glue that holds all the rest of the gang together. He exudes the wisdom of an old soul. Still there are more ends to tie up. Who is Aiden's text from? When will Lukas be willing to talk to Evan? Where is Kevin fitting in all this? Questions, questions..... I'll wait for the next chapter...lol

Craiger

He may or may not realize it yet but I think he will! He's just trying to be a good person, and something tells me he's doing a darn good job at that!

Originally Posted by Autolycus

Passions and emotions run so high among these guys, its a wonder they have the time and energy left for the more mundane aspects of their daily lives! A great new chapter Matt.

Yeah, I'm starting to wonder if college is even possible for these guys... They're getting to be pretty naughty!

Originally Posted by hardreader

I absolutely love your characters, especially Matt of course. And your storyline, because it is completely original, weird at times but so believable and unpredictable. And of course the sex, which is not just awesome in its eroticism but also helps give great insight into your characters and the emotions, values and desires that drive their lives. I'm sure that a lot of guys who read Chapter 15 ended up with an experience much like sheep's. But I don't hear them complaining about the way you presented it. So I sure won't complain about the multiple messes you caused at my house.

This story is the best thing going on JUB right now in my opinion (sorry sheep and other JUB writers who may be reading this). Please keep posting and let us know when you update anymore chapters. The new versions are well worth going back to reread.

Thank you HR. I've worked quite hard on the characters. Some more than others! But I hope each will have their own spotlight at some point in Matt's life. Whether that is good or bad, I don't even know yet. Like I've told you a handful of times already, I'm just glad you guys are enjoying reading this as much as I am enjoying writing this.

Originally Posted by BillyCanCum

This story is so fucking hot I need to read all of it. I read the firts chapter and the end of the last one. got so boned i want to real the whole fucking thing. You are like a jizz wizard with a magic dick. it got me boned. and i like it. its a great sotry and hot guys. i'll be back. i think it weird but i like it a lot. plus i get a boner. ha

Thanks for joining us, Billy! Even if you cheated and read ahead... Thanks for the comment and thanks for the laugh, I know for a fact I've never been a "jizz wizard with a magic dick"! I'll take it as a compliment!

Originally Posted by pianoninja

These past few chapters are amazing! I love the way all of the characters interact with each other, especially the repartee between Jason and Matt, it adds a certain element of mateship that otherwise wouldn't be apparent.
I'm actually happy I haven't had a chance to read through them until now otherwise I would have been left on the cliffhanger of Evan choosing between Lukas and Aiden! How cruel it would be to be left in such suspense.
You are an amazing writer and I hope that you enjoy writing this story as much as I, and everyone else, enjoys reading it.
Please keep up the excellent work.

Have you considered turning these chapters and the one's to come into a book?

Thank you for sticking with the story, pianoninja!! It is most certainly a pleasure to write! Although, I don't always get to enjoy it as much as some do... I did enjoy 15 quite a bit, though! I am most definitely going to be continuing, so don't you worry! And I haven't thought much about turning this into a book. I definitely need a solid end point, and I haven't quite found that yet. I will, though. I definitely will! But thank you for the incredible compliment. It's really hard for me to believe that this could have turned out the way it has (so far)!!

ANYWAY... I'll be back soon with chapter 16! You can count on that! (ALSO: I hope I didn't get anyone's hopes up for this post. Just stay excited for me for when 16 gets here!)

Re: Lost in a Dream

Like I said, Chapter 16 was really close! I've got a couple ideas for 17 and I will be starting that shortly! For now, though, enjoy! (I have been working on some edits of past chapters, but none are ready to be sent off to Auto yet! I'll let you know when they are up!)

Matt

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 16

I awoke Thursday morning to a ... surprise. A wet surprise. I lifted my head to look between my legs and saw that Brayden had my cock in his mouth. Not anymore! My heart started pounding and my breaths shortened; I was in heaven.

“Oh my goodness, Brayden!” I said as he slowly worked my rapidly rising meat. The feeling of his hot mouth had me lost for words. My mouth hung open as I watched his nose hit my pubes. Luckily for me, I had just cum twice before bed. I hoped that would mean this was going to last longer, because this was the best alarm clock I had ever had.

The whole scene had me in awe. It was the way his tongue gently caressed the shaft as he sucked the strength right out of me. It was the way his hands switched from softly touching my body to lightly pinching my nipples. The only imperfection on the moment was he was so focused on me that he wouldn’t let me do anything to him.

I honestly had no clue how long he had been at it or what time it was. I was in pure ecstasy and he knew it. He took his mouth off of my cock and I could instantly feel the cool air in contrast to the warmth of his saliva. I didn’t have to worry about that for long, as he quickly smothered my cock with his hot mouth again. The overriding sensations from my cock had reached their limit; I was ready. I looked down at Brayden at the precise moment he looked up. I saw hunger. I saw desire. I saw passion. His eyes told a wonderful story and I could no longer deny him his prize.

I felt my balls retract up towards my tense body. Brayden pulled off, as he apparently decided he’d watch the result of his wake-up call. I looked up to see my cock erupt, but all I saw was stars.

My eyes shot open. My body and mind were overwhelmed with sensations. My eyes shot open! I expected to see Brayden between my legs. But he wasn’t there. He was still cuddled next to me where we fell asleep. As I tried to gather my thoughts and make sense of it all, my cock rapidly deflated and there was, I saw clearly, a mess on my chest and stomach. Was I that amped up over sex that, even though I had cum twice just hours ago, I could have such a vivid wet dream?

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“So,” Jason started as I walked into his room, “Brayden tells me you had a wet dream last night.” A sly grin slid across his face. With anyone else I might have been embarrassed, but Jason couldn’t get to me anymore.

“Yeah,” I said as I matched his tone, “that boy gets me so riled up at night. Even though I had spent two loads with him before bed, I couldn’t help but let my mind take over in my sleep!”

Jason opened his mouth to say something, but I think he was stunned by the lack of subtlety in my voice. I continued, “And even when I woke up, I was frickin’ hard as a rock at the thought of what we might do later!” I tried my best to keep a poker face while I said this, but my personality took over after. I started to laugh as Jason and Brayden looked on in awe.

“I don’t wanna know what you fed him, Brayden,” Jason started, “but keep it up. He’s grown so much as a person since he met you. I can’t even believe it myself!” Brayden blushed at the compliment and I grinned from ear to ear.

But, Jason was right. I was comfortable with myself around him before, but never around other people. He said that I seemed proud of my catch. I was very proud I could get Brayden. And I got the feeling that Brayden was proud he could get me. As my mind started to wander, Jason’s room got another visitor.

“Lukas!” I heard Brayden say as he entered the room.

“Hey guys!” Lukas said with a smile. I assumed he would want things to start to go back to normal and I was more than willing to help out. “So, Matt.” He started. Uh oh. “Brayden told me --”

“Dang it Brayden!” I said as I interrupted Lukas. Brayden grinned from ear to ear as he saw my reaction. “Quit tellin’ people about that! Wet dreams are perfectly normal for horny guys!” As soon as I mentioned the wet dream, he started to laugh. I realized too late that wasn’t what Lukas was going to say.

“Well, that’s not what Brayden told me, but nice!” Lukas said as he gave me a thumbs up sign and a smile. “What I was going to say was that Brayden told me you talked to Aiden and Evan after you talked to me. Thanks.” He said with a half smile.

“Actually, they both came and talked to me.” I corrected, “But, that whole thing was so messed up I wanted to do my best to help out my friends.” I said with a smile.

“Aiden talked to you too?” He said, surprised. “What did he say?”

“That’s something he can tell you better than I can, Lukas!” I said. “I’ll text him now and tell him that you wanna talk to him!”

After a subject change in our conversation, I got a reply from Aiden. “Ok. About what?” I told him about what we had just talked about and that it would be better to hear it from the man himself. After I got the last response, I looked at my phone in confusion.

Jason looked at me and noticed my confusion, “What did he say?”

“He said he’s waiting up by Lukas’ room. How the heck did he get there so fast?” I said as I relayed the last message. Lukas said he’d see us later and left to go talk with Aiden.

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Brayden and I decided we were going to my hometown to visit my parents in the hospital that afternoon. I wasn’t as worried about them as I had been, but I still wanted to see them. And I suspected they wanted to see more of Brayden!

When we got there, though, we were quite surprised to find their room empty. I suppose I’m not really surprised, but it would have been nice to get a phone call! I pulled out my cell phone and dialed my dad’s number.

“Hello?” A voice said from the other line.

“Dad,” I said, “do you have anything that you think I should know about your visit to the hospital?”

“Oh shit!” He exclaimed, “Sorry, son. Does that mean you’re in town and at the hospital?”

“Yeah, Brayden’s with me.” I said, “We’ll go visit Dean so it won’t be a total waste of time!”

“Are you sticking around for dinner? You know you’re always welcome back at home.” I asked Brayden if he’d be all right with dinner with my parents. He looked nervous, but I told him I’d have more to worry about than he would!

“Yeah, dad, we’ll stick around. See you soon!” I said as I hung up the phone.

Brayden and I walked to Dean’s room and saw he was watching TV. “That’s gotta be getting old by now, right?” I said as I walked into the room. He turned his head and saw me and smiled.

“You came!” He said excitedly. I expected him to be happy I was here, but not excited.

“Sure did! We came to visit my parents,” I said as I pointed to Brayden, “but they got released and didn’t tell me. So, we decided to visit you so we didn’t waste two hours of total driving tonight!”

“I see!” He said, “And... who’s this you brought?”

“This,” I said as I pulled Brayden forward and put my arm around his shoulders, “is my boyfriend, Brayden.” I didn’t think he’d care since he didn’t react to me when I told him I had a lover. “Remember when I told you how I knew it would hurt more to lose a lover than a twin?” I asked.

He nodded in response. “If I lost my twin,” I said as I started to get choked up, “it would be hard. Through thick and thin, he’ll always be my twin. But,” I said as I turned my head and looked Brayden in the eyes, “I know that I’ve got someone here that can help me get over that.” My eyes started to water, “If I lost Brayden...” I said as I searched for words. “If I lost Brayden,” I repeated as my voice lowered to a whisper, “I wouldn’t know what I would do. I would be lost.” Brayden’s eyes watered at that thought. I pulled him into a hug and squeezed tight. We had a silent conversation in that simple little hug. I could feel he didn’t want to let me go, as I didn’t want to let him go.

“I think I understand.” Dean said as he looked on. “I mean, I don’t just hear what you’re saying, I see it.” He looked at us and smiled. “You know, I’ve never really had any gay friends before.” He said, “Well, at least I’ve never had any openly gay friends before.”

I smiled at the sentiment and said, “You know, I never thought I’d be so open. But, I realized that if people don’t like me or any of my friends for who we are, they could go fuck themselves.”

Brayden smiled, “Well, I know that. I was actually just surprised you said ‘fuck’!”

“You should know by now I use it when I mean it!” I said as I laughed. “Dean, that’s not a word you’ll hear from me much. So remember how I said it, ‘cause it could be a while before you hear it again!” I decided it would be a good time to change the conversation. “So, Dean, when do you get outta here?”

“Nice distraction.” He said with a laugh, “But, they say I could be out by tomorrow night. I just have to find a ride back up to school.”

“Up to school?” I asked, “Does that mean you go to State?” He nodded. “Nice. That’s where we go! Call me when you’re about ready to go and I can be here in an hour!” I said as I gave him my phone number.

“What about your classes?”

“I’ll e-mail my professors and tell them my parents are getting out but I don’t know when. Don’t worry about that! A couple missed classes won’t kill me.” I said as Brayden and I got ready to leave. “See ya tomorrow, then!”

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As I pulled up to my childhood home, I noticed right away that this wasn’t going to be an ordinary dinner. Aside from Bryan’s car, I saw my grandpa’s car parked in my old spot. “Well, this should be interesting.” I said to Brayden as I parked. “That’s my grandpa’s car out front. We’ll find out if this is good or bad before too long. For now, it’s interesting.” I said as we walked to the house.

Mom greeted us at the door when we walked in. “Boys! It’s good to see you. We’re sorry we didn’t tell you we got out, things got hectic!”

“Good to see you too, mom!” Brayden said as he received his hug. He smiled as they broke apart.

“Yeah, good to see ya, Mom. Where’s everyone else? If I’m not mistaken, Bryan and Grandpa are here.” I said as I scanned the room.

“I told them to wait out back while I make dinner. You boys go on and join them!” She said as she ushered us to the back door.

“I’ll be right out. I’ve gotta make a pit stop!” I said as I wandered to the bathroom.

Once I was finished, I made my way outside to find Brayden and my grandpa chatting by a couple of his hand-made bird feeders. My grandpa was a tinkerer. He always had to fiddle with something. I stood next to my dad and Bryan as they talked. “He’s not being too brutal with him, is he?” I asked as we watched.

“Doesn’t look like it,” Bryan said, “but, we didn’t tell him you two were boyfriends.”

“That’s okay.” I said, “I’d rather be here if he needed a rescue.”

Soon enough, Mom announced that dinner would be ready. We all headed inside and found our spots at the dining room table. The conversation changed from time to time, but ended up on the topic I feared the most.

“So, Matt,” my grandpa started, “have you got a beautiful girlfriend yet?” Oh boy. My heart started pounding when he asked this. How would he respond to Brayden and me?

“Nope!” I said proudly, “No girlfriends for me. Ever.” I said as a silence crept over the room. Awkward! “But, this young man you met earlier is my boyfriend.” I said as I looked into Brayden’s eyes and smiled.

Seconds seemed like minutes as everyone waited for my grandpa’s response. I thought he might say something to me. Instead, he turned to my father and said, “I knew you shouldn’t have raised someone else’s son.”

I looked on at him in shock. A twinge of anger. Confusion. What was I supposed to say to that? I grabbed Brayden’s hand under the table and clutched it.

“Don’t you dare tell me how to raise my own children.” My dad said in response. “That has nothing to do with what he likes in life and you have no place to judge that.” I squeezed Brayden’s hand a little tighter for a moment. He squeezed back.

“Not one word makes Matt or Brayden any different than the type of person you already knew them as.” My mom added. “They are who they are and I will always love them.”

Grandpa had nothing else to say; he sat and thought to himself for the rest of the meal. The rest of us continued to eat and chat until it was time for Brayden and I to head back to school.

Before we could go, my grandpa stopped me. “Matt, I’m sorry for what I said at the table. I was confused and I don’t understand.”

“Thanks, gramps,” I said as I smiled, “it’s a hard concept to understand. For everyone.”

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After we got back from the hospital visit and dinner with my parents, Brayden and I had a quiet night. Brayden had showered and I had somehow kept my hands to myself. I decided it was time for a shower of my own.

When I got back, Brayden was buck-ass naked. Well, there went my chance at staying clean! “Brayden, why do we shower at night if we’re just gonna fuck and get all sweaty?” I said as I tried to get him to laugh.

“What, you don’t want this?” I said as I turned and lowered my towel so he could see about half of my cheeks.

“I didn’t say that!” He said as he stood up and then shut me up with a simple kiss. At least, it started as a simple kiss. His soft, warm tongue pushed its way between my lips and started to explore as he sucked my tongue into his mouth. I followed his every move. He’d test how deep his tongue would go and so would I. He’d feel every inch of my teeth and I'd feel his right back. He tried to tie our tongues in a knot. At first I didn’t even notice his hands had drifted to my ass until his fingers softly caressed my cheeks. What did this boy have in mind?

He broke our kiss as we both took in a deep breath. His hot breath gave me shivers as his lips and tongue tickled my neck. He slowly, passionately moved to my chest. He payed extra attention to my sensitive nipples. I felt his warm breath, followed by a wet kiss, followed by the cooling sensation around each spot his mouth had been. His hands gently caressed my body moved down it inch by inch. I was definitely going to get stamina practice tonight.

My soft cock jumped when his chin brushed against it. Well, it was a soft as it normally was when I was around Brayden. I shuddered as I saw his mouth open and felt his hot breath against the head. He looked up at me and smiled. “Let me know when you’re close. This one’s gotta last.” I gazed into his eyes and saw the desire I had seen in my dream. The hunger. Passion. This better not be another dream!

I nodded in agreement that this blow job was going to last . I wanted it to last as much as he did. I gasped when he closed his eyes and his mouth took hold of my cock. I was rapidly hardening and Brayden continued to suckle on my cock head. His slow, deep motion had me like steel. His tongue glided and swirled around the head whenever he was at the top of his motion.

“Brayden, I’m getting close!” I said as he looked up at me one last time. I had to pull out and close my eyes or I would lose it right there. I pulled him up to be face to face with me. I kissed him and said, “That was the best.” Another kiss. I was turned on by the fact my tongue was exploring the same place my cock had just been. “Now it's my turn,” I said and I kissed him one more time.

I moved my kisses down to his neck as I tried to induce the same sensations he gave me. A gentle, warm breath on his neck followed quickly by a loving kiss. Each kiss incited more and more passion in me. More desire. A thirst for one thing and one thing only.

I traced the outlines of his nipples with my tongue. He gasped. I flicked my tongue over the teat and followed up with a soft kiss. I moved my hand up to join my mouth as I switched nipples. I repeated the tactic. Trace, flick, kiss. I looked up at Brayden as I began to move down. His eyes were glued to mine as I continued down his body. My hands had drifted from his nipples to his ass cheeks as my kisses had reached his abs. I kissed down the middle of them until I reached his belly button. I planned to continue, but his cock was pointed straight up and surprised me as it jabbed into the underside of my jaw. I felt his cool pre-cum as I jerked away in surprise.

I looked up at Brayden and smiled slyly. I slowly licked up from the base of his shaft, only stopping for effect. I took the head of his cock in my mouth and swirled my tongue around. I softly rubbed the underside of his head with my tongue as I prepared for more. I tasted his sweet natural mix as I sucked inch by inch down his cock. As I worked, I practiced at getting closer and closer to his pubes. Once I could feel my nose pressed all the way against him and my lips all the way to the base of his cock, I knew I had mastered it. Mastered him. I was willing to do anything to make my man happy and I was glad if this was just a small piece of the puzzle.

I moaned while his cock was fully inside my mouth, and that caused him to moan. “Holy fuck, Matt. If you do that again I’m gonna lose it!” That was all I needed to know before I left him on the edge. I caught my breath as I saw his wet cock still leaking in front of me. I looked up and said, “What’s next?”

“Now,” he said as looked me in the eyes and smiled, “you get to fuck me. I’m ready. I want to feel you inside of me as you felt me inside of you!” My eyes watered as I knew he meant it. I would have been just as happy letting him fuck me, but it made me that much happier knowing he wanted to feel the same.

We moved over to the flat futon and he got on his hands and knees as I grabbed a condom and lube from the dresser. When I saw his position I said, “No, Brayden. I don’t want to fuck you. I want to be able to look you in the eyes and make love.” My own heart melted as the words poured from my mouth. I hope he felt the same!

He nodded in excitement as I helped to flip him over. I laid down in between his legs and decided to try something he hadn’t. I stared at his asshole as it winked in anticipation. I leaned in and licked. I had no clue what it would be like, but I noticed right away it tasted just like the rest of his body. Clean. Thank God! I continued to swirl my tongue around his puckering entrance as he moaned in excitement. I inserted my tongue in and repeated the process. He squirmed and continued to moan and said, “Holy fuck! I...” he started, “This is... Fuck!” He said with an apparent loss for words.

As I rimmed his asshole, I grabbed the bottle of lube and squirted some on my finger. As soon as I had finished with my tongue, I applied the lube with my fingers. I used one of those lubed-up fingers to gently press against the entrance of his awaiting asshole. He pulsed around my finger as I felt all around his hot insides. I gently pulled in and out to prepare him for later. I slowly continued as I looked back up to Brayden. His eyes were clenched shut and he looked incredibly nervous. “Brayden, if it’s ever too much, tell me to stop. I want you to enjoy this, too!” He nodded without opening his eyes, but I knew he wanted more.

I pulled all the way back with my finger and then lined up another for entry. It took more pressure, but I eased in both fingers. I moved them in and out gently. After I added more lube, I prepared for a third finger. I looked up at him in concern and his eyes were still clenched. When he noticed I had stopped, he opened them and said, “Don’t stop!”

So I didn’t. I have to admit, I don’t know if I would have done this many fingers if he hadn’t done it to me already. I knew it could be too much, but I think we both knew it would help the final step. With my free hand, I grabbed the condom package and ripped it open with the help of my teeth. After I pulled my lubed fingers out to help with the condom, Brayden said, “Hurry up! I want you in me, now!” I thought I was hard before that, but I felt another throb of blood make me even harder.

Once the condom was on, I slopped on more lube and lined up. “Okay Brayden. You’re in charge now.”

“Go slow.” He said as I pushed the head of my cock gently against his well-lubed asshole. “A little faster than that.” I pushed a little harder and felt his asshole open up for me. My senses were already going wild as I could feel the muscles of his asshole contrasting with the cool of the lube. After I had gotten the head in, he said, “Okay, stop for a minute.” I looked up at him and I could see he was taking deep breaths.

“Brayden, is it too much?” I asked, concerned.

“Fuck no. I just need a minute to get used to it. Just like you did,” he said as he smiled weakly. “Okay. Go slow again.” I pushed into him slowly as I felt his asshole wrapping around my cock. Inch by inch I felt his inner warmth. I slowly pushed as I waited for him to tell me to stop. But that never came. I was inside Brayden, to the hilt. And it felt incredible. I fully expected him to tell me to stop and wait, but instead he said, “Ok. Fuck me!”

“I will not fuck you, Brayden. Not yet.” I said as I slowly pulled out. “But, like I said before, I will make love. You’re not just someone I’m fucking to get my rocks off.” I said as I gently pushed in. And then out. Slowly. Carefully.

Brayden looked at me and smiled. “I love you so much, Matt!” I started to move my hips around as I hastened my pace. I watched Brayden’s eyes with every movement. I wanted to see the feelings in his eyes as everything happened. I don’t know exactly what I did, but Brayden’s eyes widened as he tensed up and said, “Oh, fuck! I’m cumming!” I saw squirt after squirt shoot up and hit his chest. As he caught his breath and looked into my eyes, I got that last trigger I needed to push me over the edge. I pulled out and took the condom off as I prepared to cum. Brayden grabbed my cock and pulled me closer as he urged me to orgasm. My body tensed up as he stroked my throbbing cock. I let loose. I could feel his hand milking the cum out of me as I came all over him.

Re: Lost in a Dream

I know I told you in my PM how fantastic this chapter is from start to finish. The sexy dream sequence, the banter with Jason, the hospital visit and visit to see Matt's parents ... They're all beautifully crafted and show us so much about the guys and what really motivates and drives their lives. You show us the inside story, not just the veneer and that sets this story apart from so many others. Then there was the final scene in Chapter 16. Auto beat me to saying what I wanted to say and that is: It was so fucking hot!

I was so hard and so close to blowing my load when I read your next to final paragraph:

Brayden looked at me and smiled. “I love you so much, Matt!” I started to move my hips around as I hastened my pace. I watched Brayden’s eyes with every movement. I wanted to see the feelings in his eyes as everything happened. I don’t know exactly what I did, but Brayden’s eyes widened as he tensed up and said, “Oh, fuck! I’m cumming!” I saw squirt after squirt shoot up and hit his chest. As he caught his breath and looked into my eyes, I got that last trigger I needed to push me over the edge. I pulled out and took the condom off as I prepared to cum. Brayden grabbed my cock and pulled me closer as he urged me to orgasm. My body tensed up as he stroked my throbbing cock. I let loose. I could feel his hand milking the cum out of me as I came all over him.

I thought/felt/believed as I read the final words "as I came all over him" that I'd take another stroke or two, feel my nuts tighten, my cock throb and shoot my load.

But then I read that one last sentence. I was shocked. Literally scared by it. Taken totally by surprise! I was left there stunned. My rock hard cock still firmly gripped in my right hand. My shiny cock head with its dribble of pre still leaking from its lips. Too frozen to finish myself off as I had certainly intended to.

As my cock finally softened I understood just how deeply you have drawn me into your story. How real you have made it for me and I guess for most of your readers. It is masterful and powerful and intoxicatingly sexy. Don't worry about me, by now I have cum rereading it and throughly enjoyed it to the last sticky drop. Thanks so much for what you share. I

"Reading should be easy. Only the reader should be hard." -- hard reader (author of the erotic porn novel "I Thought I Knew")

Re: Lost in a Dream

And he is a frisbee player? Imagine if he was a swimmer. Speaking of swimmers, a few thousand of them blasted through my jeans on reading this. Can you give us some warning to unleash the beast before you write hot stuff like this the next time? Whew! I need to turn on the A/C now!

Re: Lost in a Dream

Lordy, Matt! I don't think I can add much more to the sentiments stated above. You have certainly opened an entirely new phase in your writing. Not only the compassionate part of Matt, but the deep sensual exchange between he and Brayden. It's going to be hard trying to get to sleep tonight... One thing they both have to learn, however, is to make sure the door is locked......... I wish it had been me making that last statement. Great chapter!

Re: Lost in a Dream

I said Id write to this when i read it all. i did and it is like other guys say so fucking hot! I fucking jizzed so hard to that last part you wrote. If were were the guy at the door i couldnt be wriitn this now cuz wed be fucking all three of us on that fusion and there'd be so much jizz flying i could drown both of you happy. you guys are really in love and that makes it so good when your fucking and suckin for each other like you do. jakcing your jizz and suckin a guys jizz out is like the most guys can do for each other and you make it fun like it is. i liked your folks. they did good. this is like the best story. now get us more of it.

Re: Lost in a Dream

Originally Posted by Autolycus

Oh-er! “That,” A voice said from the door, “was fucking hot!”

Thank you Auto, was it you at the door??

Originally Posted by hardreader

I know I told you in my PM how fantastic this chapter is from start to finish. The sexy dream sequence, the banter with Jason, the hospital visit and visit to see Matt's parents ... They're all beautifully crafted and show us so much about the guys and what really motivates and drives their lives. You show us the inside story, not just the veneer and that sets this story apart from so many others. Then there was the final scene in Chapter 16. Auto beat me to saying what I wanted to say and that is: It was so fucking hot!

I was so hard and so close to blowing my load when I read your next to final paragraph:

I thought/felt/believed as I read the final words "as I came all over him" that I'd take another stroke or two, feel my nuts tighten, my cock throb and shoot my load.

But then I read that one last sentence. I was shocked. Literally scared by it. Taken totally by surprise! I was left there stunned. My rock hard cock still firmly gripped in my right hand. My shiny cock head with its dribble of pre still leaking from its lips. Too frozen to finish myself off as I had certainly intended to.

As my cock finally softened I understood just how deeply you have drawn me into your story. How real you have made it for me and I guess for most of your readers. It is masterful and powerful and intoxicatingly sexy. Don't worry about me, by now I have cum rereading it and throughly enjoyed it to the last sticky drop. Thanks so much for what you share.

When I started writing 16, I had no intention of that ending the way it did. As I was writing, I got an idea, and, well, it stuck. You and everyone else will see how this ending has an impact on the rest of the story quite soon. The reality is what makes this so special to me and everyone else. Thanks! I think I've said this many times now, but I really do write this as if I were the one in Matt's shoes. I've thrown myself into the story and I'm really loving the response!!

Originally Posted by sheep

And he is a frisbee player? Imagine if he was a swimmer. Speaking of swimmers, a few thousand of them blasted through my jeans on reading this. Can you give us some warning to unleash the beast before you write hot stuff like this the next time? Whew! I need to turn on the A/C now!

Don't diss the Frisbee guys!! And the swimmer, well, that's what Brayden's there for! Here's the warning you wanted for 17.

Originally Posted by Craiger

Lordy, Matt! I don't think I can add much more to the sentiments stated above. You have certainly opened an entirely new phase in your writing. Not only the compassionate part of Matt, but the deep sensual exchange between he and Brayden. It's going to be hard trying to get to sleep tonight... One thing they both have to learn, however, is to make sure the door is locked......... I wish it had been me making that last statement. Great chapter!

Craiger

I think a part of all of us wanted to be right there, myself included! Even after I had first written that, I didn't know who was there. But by the time it was posted, I did. Sometimes, it just cums to me, I guess!

Originally Posted by BillyCanCum

I said Id write to this when i read it all. i did and it is like other guys say so fucking hot! I fucking jizzed so hard to that last part you wrote. If were were the guy at the door i couldnt be wriitn this now cuz wed be fucking all three of us on that fusion and there'd be so much jizz flying i could drown both of you happy. you guys are really in love and that makes it so good when your fucking and suckin for each other like you do. jakcing your jizz and suckin a guys jizz out is like the most guys can do for each other and you make it fun like it is. i liked your folks. they did good. this is like the best story. now get us more of it.

Glad to see you caught up, Billy! But you did catch up awfully fast... did you read anything other than the sex scenes?? Do I need to quiz you on some things? I hope you realize I'm teasing! More of it is cumming, VERY soon! I can't promise a specific date, but Chapter 17 is written.

So, unfortunately for all of you who are waiting for the next chapter, I have to say that it's not quite ready. It's done, and I have a start on the next chapter, but like the rest, they will be posted in due time. I am going to be writing to everyone who's commented just as a personal thank you to those who have stuck with it. If you've read Lost in a Dream and would like a thank you, send me a PM and comment! If I haven't sent you a PM by the end of tonight (10/10/12), then send me a PM to see if I forgot! Believe me when I say the reaction is what makes all of this worth it. I had no idea this is how it would turn out and I am oh so thankful it has. So from me to you for the billionth time, thank you!

Re: Lost in a Dream

Yesterday I read over this last chapter with the excitement of seeing what's going on in the world of Matt and, to my delight, I got a lot more than I bargained for.
Today I am still racking my brain trying to figure out who the voice at the door is!
I got rather excited to see the most recent post was from justanothershyguy only to find out that more waiting is required until we get to find out who is at the door.
I did enjoy the rest of chapter 16 especially where Matt and Brayden get to the hospital only to find that Matts parents had already been released and forgotten to mention it. I'm also looking forward to possibly getting to hear more from Dean.
All in all a GREAT chapter, I'm held in suspense until the next.

@justanothershyguy
I know you wish to wait until you post the next chapter but please don't wait too long, the anticipation is killing me!

Re: Lost in a Dream

Originally Posted by pianoninja

Yesterday I read over this last chapter with the excitement of seeing what's going on in the world of Matt and, to my delight, I got a lot more than I bargained for.
Today I am still racking my brain trying to figure out who the voice at the door is!
I got rather excited to see the most recent post was from justanothershyguy only to find out that more waiting is required until we get to find out who is at the door.
I did enjoy the rest of chapter 16 especially where Matt and Brayden get to the hospital only to find that Matts parents had already been released and forgotten to mention it. I'm also looking forward to possibly getting to hear more from Dean.
All in all a GREAT chapter, I'm held in suspense until the next.

@justanothershyguy
I know you wish to wait until you post the next chapter but please don't wait too long, the anticipation is killing me!

Anyway, I can tell everyone now that this is the post you've been waiting for *drumroll, please* No more anticipation to find out who is at the door. In the end, I think I will still surprise you, as I didn't expect it to turn out like it did!

Anyway, I'm really, really happy with how it turned out and I'm really proud of how the whole story has gone and is going. Thank you for being my loyal readers!

Matt

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 17

‘That was fucking hot!’ The words rang through my head like a broken record. ‘That was fucking hot...’ The familiar voice echoed in my head. ‘... Fucking hot...’ My eyes widened as I looked down at Brayden. He was absolutely covered in cum. My cum. His cum. Our cum. His hand was still wrapped firmly around my hard, leaking cock. My mind started to relive the amazing sex that preceded what my eyes now . . .

I snapped back to reality and turned my head rapidly towards the door. My heart jumped into my throat. I felt beyond mortified. “What the fuck!” I blurted as I saw Lukas and Evan standing in the doorway. I tried to cover myself, but I realized it didn’t matter. There was nothing I could hide that they hadn’t seen already. “What are you guys doing here?!” I half whispered, half yelled.

“Oh,” Lukas started, “Uh...”

His pause gave Evan a chance to answer instead. “I texted Lukas and asked if we could talk and he said he’d only talk if you were there."

“Uh, okay.” I said and then asked, “So why are you guys holding hands?”

Both of them looked down and immediately separated. Their cheeks flushed with embarrassment.

“Oh, please,” Brayden said, “that’s the least of your embarrassment right now. Looks like Matt and I weren’t the only one’s who enjoyed that fuck!”

I giggled at Brayden’s comment when I looked down and saw Evan and Lukas’s predicament. Evan looked down and tried to hide himself. “Evan, please. We’re identical twins.” I said trying to lighten the mood. “Besides, you definitely don’t need me for help anymore, Lukas.”

“Yes I do!” he contested.

“No, you don’t!” I said calmly with a smile. “You were just holding Evan’s hand. You didn’t even seem to notice until I mentioned it. Believe me when I say this, Lukas. You don’t need my help with this!” From the look in his eyes I could tell he was pleading for my help. Our silent conversation ended as I shook my head back and forth.

“Ok Lukas,” Evan said as he turned around to leave, “let’s go talk.” After they walked out the door, Brayden and I laid down on our backs on the futon. I tried to catch my breath and calm my heart as we relaxed.

“Holy shit, Matt!” a familiar voice said from the doorway. I bolted upright and saw Jason standing there with a shit-eating grin smothering his face. His eyes seemed to be focused on my shock and nudity. He shook his head and laughed to himself as he started to walk away. “Get yourself cleaned up and open a damn window. It fuckin’ reeks of sex in here!” He shut the door in his exit and I collapsed next to Brayden a second time.

I couldn’t help but laugh at the whole situation. “Next time, we gotta lock the door and wait until later,” I said and with that Brayden joined in my the laughing.

After our laughing fit ended, I rolled onto my side and looked towards Brayden. He turned his head and smiled as our eyes connected. For the first time since we were interrupted, I relaxed. His eyes soothed me. His soul beckoned for me to calm down, and I did.

I didn’t really know what to say. I felt like I wanted to say something, but I didn’t know what. Or even about what. As I thought, Brayden saved me from my mental conundrum. “Was that everything you expected?” he said as our eyes reconnected.

I thought for a couple seconds as I bit my lower lip. “You know what?” I started, “I didn’t really know what to expect. It was definitely better than what I hoped. Was it everything you expected, babe?”

“Yeah!” Brayden said as his face lit up. “Sure it hurt, but I thought it would. I had no idea how good it could feel at the same time.”

“So I did okay?” I asked, concerned about my performance.

“Absolutely!” He said with a big smile plastered over his face. “You were fantastic. It was fantastic!”

I leaned forward, pressed my lips against his and we kissed. “As were you!” I said when are lips parted. We laid there enjoying the moment as we stared into one another’s eyes.

Several long, wonderful moments passed and we both decided to take Jason’s advice and get cleaned up. I opened the window before we headed to the shower. Brayden tried to convince me to share and save water, but I told him I wasn’t ready to be caught twice in one night.

Somehow, after we returned to the room, we managed to keep our hands to ourselves and catch up on some homework. After a sufficiently terrifying yet exciting evening, the night had finally settled down. We had finally settled down.

I went to bed that night comfortably in the arms of my warm lover. I fit neatly into the contours of his body, like he did to mine. Were we perfect for each other? I was starting to think so. My eyes closed and I drifted off into sleep with a soft smile across my face.

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I didn’t really know how it happened, but I found myself under the hot spray of a morning shower. I liked a good, hot shower to wake me up in the morning.

I had wrongly assumed that this was a normal shower, though, when a pair of firm but gentle hands rubbed soap across my back. I turned my head slightly to the side to see Brayden had joined me. I smiled, but realized we were still in the communal dorm showers, albeit behind the curtain. “Brayden!” I whispered, “What if we get caught?”

“As long as you don’t make too much noise, we won’t!” he said as his hands began to rub the tension out of my shoulders. That felt good. That felt damn good. His thumbs gently and masterfully pushed and prodded the tension from my shoulders and neck. A soft moan escaped my mouth as I closed my eyes and leaned back against him.

“Like that? Shh!” he said as he touched a finger to my lips. I looked up at him and saw the love in his eyes. He pushed his hips forward and I felt the head of his cock push and then rub as it slipped against my left ass cheek.

As my head rested against his shoulder, he turned his head so his lips could meet mine. My left hand fell to my side and found Brayden’s semi-hard cock. I gently stroked it as his right hand snaked its way under my arm and to my own cock. I was semi-hard like he was, but quickly rising to the occasion. It only took three slow, long strokes until I was hard, throbbing, and leaking. I matched his rhythm and could feel the heat of his own hard cock trapped between my hand and my hip.

I felt Brayden begin to speed up. I tried to match his motion as I rested against his body. His lips pressed firmly against my lips for the second time. This time, his tongue forced its way into my mouth. It was so soft and gentle as it moved about. I tried my best to reciprocate the feelings his tongue was giving me, but I couldn’t focus on multitasking like he could.

I was fast approaching my limit as Brayden’s tongue danced in my mouth and his hand stroked the pleasure right out of me. It made me feel like I was a puppet and he was the master. I had no control over my own body and I didn’t care. I was on the verge of euphoria. The more he worked, the more it seemed like he knew my body better than I did. Stroke and squeeze. Stroke and twist. Whatever he did, I could feel the ultimate pressure building up in my loins.

He released the kiss once he felt my body start to tense up. He must have been able to feel my balls rise and hug my body. He knew what was coming. I knew, too. One last stroke after the kiss, and all I saw was stars.

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I opened my eyes and tried to regain my senses. I looked down and sighed as I rubbed my eyes. Brayden’s hand was wrapped firmly around my spent cock and my stomach had a few globs of hot cum rapidly cooling in the early morning air. I realized how cold I was and that I had forgotten to close the window before bed last night. A rush of cold air passed over me and I shivered.

“Had another sexy dream, I see?” Brayden said softly.

“Yeah. Apparently I really did want a shower with you!” I said with a laugh. “Wait, what are you doing awake so early?” I said as I realized it was still quite dark in the room. “Did I wake you?”

“No, you didn’t wake me.” He said using a finger to scoop up a dollop of cum. “I didn’t sleep very well. And then I saw and felt you squirming around, so I pulled up the covers and saw you were hard and leaking! I grabbed you and it was like my hand was the trigger and your cock was the gun.” Brayden said as he scooped another glob of cum onto his finger. This time, he offered it to me and I happily accepted. “I just didn’t sleep well.” He said, then added, “At all.”

“Aww,” I said as I turned my head to face him, “what’s wrong?” It appeared as if his eyes held a heavy burden for him. It was probably just because he hadn’t gotten much sleep.

“It’s nothing bad, really. It’s just ...” He started and then stopped to think. He took a deep breath and said, “It’s just, I didn’t know what would you think of it!”

“Brayden, I love you and you love me. If there’s ever anything, we can get over it. I’m sure of that.” I said with a smile.

“Okay,” he said as he took a deep breath. After he exhaled, he continued. “Last night I saw Evan and Lukas out of the corner of my eye as soon as they walked into the room. And I got even hornier with them watching.” He looked at me as if hoping for a good response. I thought for a few moments before I realized I hadn’t said anything. “Matt? Please say something!” he pleaded.

I smiled and said, “Sorry! I didn’t expect that!” I looked at him as he sighed and relaxed. “Well, I didn’t know what to expect!”

“You never seem to!” He said with a smirk.

I shot him a playful glare as I continued, “But I’m glad you told me. Now I know that I have to be the one to lock the doors and shut the blinds!” I giggled as Brayden rolled his eyes.

“You know I wouldn’t do anything like that to you, right?” He asked as his smile faded.

I smiled again, “Yes, my love.” He smiled, so I leaned forward and kissed him tenderly on the lips. It did make me wonder, though. Was I enough for him? I had to shake that thought off, though. Of course I was. He said so!

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Friday was mostly a normal day for me, aside from waking up with my boyfriend’s hand wrapped around my cock. I made it through all of my classes without trouble. I talked with Kevin in Spanish and he told me when his and Aiden’s game was. So I now had something else to look forward to on Saturday.

I was on my way back to my room when I realized I was walking behind Evan and Lukas. And they didn’t notice me! I followed them back to Lukas’ room and was standing at the door when Lukas began to shut it.

“Oh my God, Matt!” he said as he clutched his heart. “How did you get there so fast?” he exclaimed.

“I followed you guys into the building and you didn’t notice me!” I said smiling and nodding toward Evan, “So. Did you guys talk?”

Lukas smiled as big as I had ever seen him smile. It was the smile I had hoped to see ever since he first told me about his love for Evan. He turned around as Evan walked forward and they grabbed each other’s hand. “Yup!” Lukas said as they looked at one another and smiled. They look great when they’re happy!

“Good, because I couldn’t stand being mad at one and sad for the other!” I said and gave them each a quick hug. “So, what are you then?” I asked. I hoped to draw out if they had decided on their relationship.

“What do you mean?” Lukas said as his forehead scrunched in confusion.

“Well,” I started, “are you fuck buddies? Boyfriends? Just friends?”

Evan looked at me and laughed. “Lukas is my boyfriend, and I am his!”

I smiled at both of them and my phone started to ring. I pulled out my phone and saw a number I didn’t recognize. I congratulated them and told them I’d talk to them later.

“Hello?”

“Hi, is this Matt?” A familiar voice said from the other line.

I thought for a moment as I wondered who this was, “Yep, that’s me. Who is this? I don’t have the number saved.”

“Oh, sorry! This is Dean. From the hospital,” he said as he clarified the familiar voice.

“I knew your voice sounded familiar! Are you getting released, then?” I said as I walked towards my room.

“Yep!” He said, excitedly. Or, at least, he sounded excited. I would have been ecstatic to get out if I had been in the hospital as long as he had been. I told him I’d give him a call when I was at the hospital.

Since I was probably going to miss my afternoon classes, I wrote my professors a quick note that explained the situation. I may have left out a couple details, but what they didn’t know wouldn’t hurt them!

The drive to the hospital was fortunately uneventful. My mind wandered a bit more than normal at first, so I turned up the radio and sang my heart out. It was a great distraction and before too long I was there. I got out of the car and waited for Dean outside the front door of the hospital for a few short minutes after I called him.

As he walked out, he looked like a new man. He didn’t seem gloomy anymore. I can’t believe I hadn’t noticed this side of him before! It wasn’t just that he was practically glowing; he looked good. No, he looked great! His dark hair blew around in the wind as I took note of his appearance. He was taller than me, but shorter than Brayden. He was muscled, but not muscular like Kevin or Aiden. His dark eyes were a compliment to his brilliant smile. As I scanned his body, I couldn’t help but notice the bulge in his jeans. ‘I wonder what he looks like naked...’ I thought as he approached. Wait, why did I care about that? Why did I just think that?

Before long, Dean and I were on the road. Fortunately, he had a lot to talk about and I got to listen. I was glad that Dean brought up most of our conversation topics, because I’d have run out of conversational topics long ago. After I parked next to the dorm he lived in, he thanked me for the ride. I told him I was glad to help out for a friend.

“You know,” he said as he unbuckled and turned his head, “my sister would have loved you. You’re a lot like her.”

“I wish I could have, Dean. I hope it’s a long time before I know the pain you feel.” I said with a weak smile as he opened the door and stepped out of the car. As he walked away, he waved at me and mouthed what I thought was ‘thank you.’

The drive back to my dorm was quiet. I didn’t have the music on since it was such a short drive, but I wish I would have. It would have stopped me from over-thinking. Did I see Dean so much differently because I was horny? ‘Yeah, that’s gotta be it.’ I thought.

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While Brayden and I were cuddled together as we watched a movie at Jason’s, I had to resist the hardest temptation I ever had. It was like he was a Christmas present and I had to wait just a couple more hours to open it. Every time I’d look at him, I’d throb a little. I’d leak a little. A shudder would travel up my body. I really was that horny.

It was just Kelsey and Jason in the room aside from Brayden and me. I have to admit that I was really glad Kelsey was there. If she wasn’t, I’d probably have straddled Brayden’s legs and have my tongue down his throat by now. Jason had already seen us naked, but I didn’t want to make Kelsey uncomfortable. At one point in the movie, Brayden set his hand on my thigh and I jumped in my spot.

Jason saw me flinch, but I don’t think he saw Brayden’s hand. “Jeez, Matt, this isn’t even a horror flick!” He said with a laugh. Brayden’s hand travelled up my thigh and I shuddered again. This time, I gasped a little. Thankfully I didn’t moan.

“Yeah, I know,” I said to Jason as I tried to ignore Brayden’s movement, “I guess I’m just a little on edge tonight.”

“Want a beer?” He asked as he got up and went to his mini-fridge.

“I’m not 21.” I said.

“Who cares? I’m not a cop. It’ll take the edge off!” Jason said as he offered me the beer in his hand.

“Not tonight, Jase. Maybe another time.” Brayden looked at me, concerned. I think he knew there was something more to that, but I also think he knew not to pursue it with Jason and Kelsey around.

Somehow, Brayden and I were able to keep our hands mostly to ourselves throughout the rest of the movie. After we got to our room, well, that was a different story. Once the lock on the door clicked, we latched together at the lips.

I invaded his mouth with a fiery passion. My hands rested at the back of his head, gently holding it in place. His hands moved to the back of my head where he softly ran his fingers through my hair. I think the force behind my tongue’s assault surprised Brayden; he didn’t reciprocate my actions at first. When he did, his tongue snaked and squirmed its way into my mouth. It felt so smooth and I moaned when he tickled the hard palate. Our tongues twisted together as they tarried; neither of us wanted to be the one to stop. My tongue slid along his teeth and his along mine. This wasn’t about exploration or something new. I enjoyed the warmth he brought to my mouth and my heart, and judging by the hard tool in his pants, he enjoyed my presence too.

As we continued to make out, my hands dropped to his waist and I worked at the last remaining resistance: his belt. After that was undone, his pants dropped like a lead weight. I was still lip-locked with him, so I couldn’t see what was left. My gentle touch could tell he had underwear of some kind. Further exploration lead me to discover that his hard cock was trapped in a pair of boxer briefs. My favorite part of anything wasn’t what color or what design, rather the object of my lust found inside. Instead of pulling those down on the spot, I decided to let my hands travel upwards on his body.

I let my fingers graze along the edges of each muscle on his chest. I quivered at the vibrations as he softly moaned in my mouth when I tweaked each of his nipples. Satisfied with the reaction, I stopped and started to pull his shirt off. He raised his hands to help, and when we got to neck level, we broke the kiss and I pulled his shirt the rest of the way off. As he pulled me toward the futon, I finally got a look at his boxer briefs. Their black color was a compliment to his skin, and his excitement was evident. If you couldn’t tell he was rock hard, you would have certainly noticed the glimmer of light in the spot where his pre-cum leaked through.

He started to kiss me again. His tongue invaded my mouth first this time and his hands attempted to strip me of my clothes. I broke the kiss and stopped him; I had better plans. He looked at me, confused, so I smiled slyly and told him to sit. He still looked confused, but he obeyed.

I began my strip show by clutching my shirt with my arms crossed in front of me. With my feet planted, I leaned back as I moved my hips back and forth. Inch by inch I raised my shirt. Just before I thought my navel was visible, I turned my body around in one continuous motion. Instead of leaning back, I pushed my ass out as much as I could. I continued to move my hips back and forth as I oh-so-slowly worked my shirt up my back. Once my hands were at chest level, I rotated back around and pulled my shirt off in one last motion. I threw the shirt off to the side and began to rotate my hips in a circle, like I had an invisible, slow-moving hula hoop spinning around me. I unsnapped the button on my snug jeans and carefully unzipped. I wasn’t worried anything would get caught, I just wanted to take my time.

I looked down at Brayden and saw him biting his lower lip. I continued my slow strip as I rocked my hips back and forth and back and forth, each motion inched my jeans down my legs. The tightness of the jeans brought my boxers down along with them. I turned around as I thought I might be showing too much. I could feel the cool air on my exposed cheeks as my jeans slid the rest of the way down my legs. As I stepped out of those, I gripped the waistband of my boxers. A few inches and there would be nothing left to hide. I turned around and revealed to Brayden just how hard I was. I was still covered, but I leaked pre-cum through each new part of cloth my cock head touched. With my erection still covered, I grabbed the bottom of the boxers and scrunched them up. I turned back around so my back faced Brayden. My ass was covered again, so I moved my hips back and forth and inched my boxers down to reveal the rest of my ass.

I bent down and pulled my boxers all of the way off. I made sure my ass stuck as high in the air as it could go. After they were off, I rotated my hips a couple more times and turned around to face Brayden in all of my glory.

He gasped when he saw my cock. It stuck straight out and bounced as I walked forward and straddled his still-covered cock. I looked down and saw the pre-cum ooze out as my cock rested against his stomach. His hand travelled to my cock and he scooped up a bit of pre-cum that had begun to trickle out and on to his stomach. He offered it to me, and I graciously accepted. As I sucked on his finger, I scooped up some on my own finger and offered it to him.

Once we pulled our fingers out of each other’s mouth, we exchanged several kisses. In the process, I pulled his boxer briefs as far down as I could. Once we broke the last kiss, he stepped out and said, “Okay. My turn!”

“No!” I said as he laid me down on the futon, “I need you in me, right now, one way or another.” I pleaded to him.

He smiled and said, “Okay, we’ll suck each other at the same time. Whoever gets close first, pat the other on the ass and we’ll know when to slow down. We’re gonna cum at the same time.” I was so excited for that moment that I didn’t think one cum would be enough for my cock to soften.

With my drooling cock pointing at his face and his drooling cock pointing at mine, I felt a familiar warmth engulf my cock as I started on him. I did my best to focus on the task at hand (well, technically at mouth). With all the pleasure he was giving me, I had a real struggle to keep focused. Each swirl of his tongue around the head of my cock would make me moan. Each moan made him moan. The back and forth action, pleasure for pleasure, caused us to race towards the finish line. When I felt his nose in my pubes and my head at the back of his throat, I had to tap. He slowed his actions, but must have been close, because he never quit sucking. Once I felt his cock at the back of my throat, I could tell he was close, too.

I moaned one more time, and that sent him over the edge. I felt him tense up in my arms and take my cock to the hilt. He returned the moan I gave to him, sending me into a blissful orgasm. I pulled off his cock a little so I could gather as much cum as I could in my mouth. He did the same. Shot after shot flooded my mouth. I let some of his cum dribble out of the corner of my mouth so there wasn’t too much in at once.

After he turned around with his cum-filled mouth, he looked me in the eyes and swallowed. I took that as permission to swallow his load, so I swallowed his sweet essence. After it was all down, I kind of missed it. I missed how sweet it was. How hot it was. He quickly returned his lips to mine and we made out all over again. There was a slight after taste of cum on his tongue as both of us searched for anything we might have missed.

The only extra cum either of us found was what had dribbled out of the corner of my mouth. It wasn’t much, but it was enough. He shared it with me and we both savored the flavor as it swirled between mouths and tongues. It wasn’t about the sex between us anymore tonight. I could feel the cool air as it tickled my wet, soft cock.

“That was the best yet,” I said as I smiled and looked into Brayden’s eyes, “I loved that mutual pleasure. We have to do that more!”

He smiled in return and agreed, “Yeah. It’s too bad we can’t fuck each other at the same time!” Too bad, indeed. “The lead up was everything in that, Matt. You teased me so much. But I loved every minute of it.” He said as his smile widened. “I love you so much!”

“I love you too, Brayden. And I don’t just love you for what you do to me, I love you for who you are!” I said as I kissed him.

We laid in a loving embrace for several long minutes. I enjoyed each one more than the last; I didn’t want him to let go. I didn’t want to get up. But we both did so we could shower and go to bed. After our separate showers, we returned to the room and got in bed, naked and dry. Everything was just right. He made me feel safe, loved and comfortable at the same time. He was just as much a part of me as I was. I hope I made him feel the same!

Re: Lost in a Dream

Well, that was certainly worth the agonizing cliffhanger..... Bravo, Matt. I truly like the way you are writing this. It is extremely hard to not feel every kiss, caress, and intimate experience between Matt and Brayden. So much so, that I may become "lost in a dream" tonight. At least I hope........... Thanks!!!!

Re: Lost in a Dream

I can hardly believe the intensity of feeling you convey through your writing. Your characters don't just come to life; they are alive! They are not realistic; they are real. Their lives twist and turn with all the unexpectedness and randomness of modern life. To be so close to these guys as their first love opens before them and in them and between them is a pleasure to share.

At the end of Chapter 16, I was left stunned and still achingly hard. Now, after reading this ... twice or more start to finish ... I am so completely satisfied ... as a reader, as a friend and, of course sexually. This chapter has truly drained me and I have only you to thank.

At the end you wrote this short paragraph: “That was the best yet,” I said as I smiled and looked into Brayden’s eyes, “I loved that mutual pleasure. We have to do that more!”, I couldn't have agreed more. "We have to do that more."

"Reading should be easy. Only the reader should be hard." -- hard reader (author of the erotic porn novel "I Thought I Knew")

Re: Lost in a Dream

Hr makes your story sound nice its all he says it is. he knows that stuff but i can tell you its jizzed up fucking hot! like i to;d you your a jizz master and got a magic cock. tell that to hr make me jizz every time reading this. im jizzed that your going on telling this story even though it like ended with them happy and everything in bed again. there's still oots of stuff they havent done i bet you tell it all. maybe they shud havwe a 4 way with those guys at the door next time. thatd be really hot ha

Re: Lost in a Dream

Originally Posted by Autolycus

Another hot chapter!

Thanks again, Auto!

Originally Posted by Craiger

Well, that was certainly worth the agonizing cliffhanger..... Bravo, Matt. I truly like the way you are writing this. It is extremely hard to not feel every kiss, caress, and intimate experience between Matt and Brayden. So much so, that I may become "lost in a dream" tonight. At least I hope........... Thanks!!!!

Craiger

You're welcome! Thanks for reading!

Originally Posted by hardreader

I can hardly believe the intensity of feeling you convey through your writing. Your characters don't just come to life; they are alive! They are not realistic; they are real. Their lives twist and turn with all the unexpectedness and randomness of modern life. To be so close to these guys as their first love opens before them and in them and between them is a pleasure to share.

At the end of Chapter 16, I was left stunned and still achingly hard. Now, after reading this ... twice or more start to finish ... I am so completely satisfied ... as a reader, as a friend and, of course sexually. This chapter has truly drained me and I have only you to thank.

At the end you wrote this short paragraph: “That was the best yet,” I said as I smiled and looked into Brayden’s eyes, “I loved that mutual pleasure. We have to do that more!”, I couldn't have agreed more. "We have to do that more."

They really are alive, HR. And it's all about to get even more real for them.

Originally Posted by BillyCanCum

Hr makes your story sound nice its all he says it is. he knows that stuff but i can tell you its jizzed up fucking hot! like i to;d you your a jizz master and got a magic cock. tell that to hr make me jizz every time reading this. im jizzed that your going on telling this story even though it like ended with them happy and everything in bed again. there's still oots of stuff they havent done i bet you tell it all. maybe they shud havwe a 4 way with those guys at the door next time. thatd be really hot ha

Oooh, I'm a jizz master now! Another acclaim I am unsure I can live up to! You know, I don't have to tell anything to HR when he's reading what you write, too... Ha!

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Okay, everyone. Good news! I have returned with tidings and Chapter 18! I delayed it a couple of days because I've been working on 19, also, and didn't want to get way behind. So, without further delay, I bring to you...

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 18

I awoke Saturday morning to a cold and lonely bed. After a few minutes, I decided that I wasn’t going to be able to fall back asleep. I rolled over and saw the clock flash 12:00. Damn. I could see I was in my own room, so I got up and got dressed.

After I left my room, I wandered across the hall and heard what sounded like a party going on in Jason’s room. I knocked because I was curious and a peppy Jason answered the door. “Hey, Matt!” he said with excitement and a big smile.

“Hey Jase,” I said flatly.

His smile quickly faded into a curious frown, “That’s it? Are you okay?” He asked as I glanced around the room. I didn’t recognize everyone in the room, but I noticed Kelsey, Brayden, Evan, Lukas, Aiden, Kevin and even Dean. Why was Dean there? Nobody knew him but Brayden and me.

“Yeah, I guess I’m okay. Just not feelin’ it today.” I said. I didn’t know what my deal was.

“Oh, okay! Come on in!” he said as he ushered me into the room, as happy as he was when he saw me. Now that I had gotten an even better look at everyone, I couldn’t help but notice how happy they all were. Whenever someone noticed me, they smiled. Not just some weak smile to acknowledge my presence, but as if they really wanted me there. Everyone smiled like Brayden does when we look each other in the eyes. And for some reason, it didn’t make me feel any better. If anything, it made me feel worse. Why was I the cloudy day at this sunshine party?

I felt like an awkward teenager all over again. I was the one no one talked to, even though everyone seemed so happy to see me. Every once and a while, someone would glance my way. If I noticed it, they’d look away and continue to chat up whoever it was they were with. I started to pay more attention to Brayden and who he talked to. I didn’t recognize him, but the longer I watched him, the more voices I started to hear. It wasn’t ever anything specific, in fact, most of it was incredibly vague. I could never recognize whose voice was saying it, either.

... He was good, but you were better ...

That voice wasn’t Brayden’s, though, I’d recognize his anywhere. The more I looked, the more I felt wronged. He was perfectly happy despite my glum attitude.

... It just wasn’t quite enough ... He’s got room for improvement ...

Why did all of this hurt so much? I didn’t even know what they were talking about. The more I thought about it and the more I watched Brayden talk, the louder everything got. It started to sound like they were yelling. All of them, yelling in my head. My head spun as I sat in silence. I felt numb. I felt lost.

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Fortunately for my sanity, that was just a dream. I woke up warm and cozy next to my lovely Brayden. That was the best feeling! Brayden’s arm was draped over my chest and I felt a gentle tweak at my nipple. He was awake!

I turned my head and rolled over to face him, and I was greeted with his genuine, bright smile. “Good morning, love!” he said.

This was so different from that dream. I didn’t feel so gloomy anymore. His smile broke through the grey clouds like a ray of sunshine. I smiled back and said, “Good morning! Did ya sleep well?”

“Yeah, I did! Thank you for making it all better! I know now I’ve got nothing to worry about!” he said as he leaned forward and gave me a kiss. “Can I ask you a question?”

I giggled and said, “You just did! If there’s another, yes. You can always ask.”

He rolled his eyes at my humor, but smiled as he asked, “Why don’t you drink? I mean, surely someone has offered you some.”

I bit my bottom lip as I thought for a few moments. “Well, I guess when I was in the closet, I was afraid I would come out.” I said with a pause, “But, I guess that cat’s outta the bag. I s’pose it can’t hurt now as long as I’m in control!”

“Good!” he said with a smile, “because Kevin told me they were probably going to have another party after the game. I think it would be fun to unwind a little bit!”

I looked at him and smiled again, “Yeah, it would be fun.” I still had a little reservation about it, but I trusted Brayden. I looked over at the clock and saw it was 9:50. “Oh crap!” I exclaimed, “Frisbee at 10 and I still have to wake Jase!”

I practically jumped out of bed and raced to his door. I rapped on it a couple times. Fortunately, he was up. I went back to my room and got dressed and told Brayden to get dressed too. “Come on!” I said, “You’re playing this time. You’ll like it!”

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After a couple hours, we had finished with our frisbee game. Brayden warned us that he’d have to take it easy so he didn’t get hurt, and Jason and I understood. Thankfully he didn’t and he told us that he enjoyed the game.

We decided to go out to buffet style pizza out of tradition. Or, at least, we decided we’d start a new tradition. We invited others, but all except Kelsey had eaten by the time we finished with our game.

Once we got back, I noticed I had a text from Evan. He wanted to talk about something before we went to the football game. So I told him I’d come up and see him.

When I walked into the room, he asked, “Have you found yourself to be hornier lately?”

Interesting question. Where was he going with this? “Uh ...” I said as I thought, “More than normal yesterday afternoon, but that’s about it.”

“Oh ...” he said, almost dejected, “Not at night at all lately?”

“Nope. Well, Brayden and I have been taking care of that, if you know what I mean.” I said as I winked.

“Of course,” he said with a grin. “Lukas and I walked in on you, remember?”

“Yeah,” I said. I wish I didn’t remember, though. “What are you getting at with this?” I questioned as my face scrunched up.

“One last question. Okay?” I nodded and he continued, “Good. Has anything weird happened to you, sexually?”

“Yeah. I had wet dreams a couple of the past nights. Not last night, though,” I said. Evan grinned slyly, so I said, “Don’t judge me! It’s embarrassing enough!”

He laughed and said, “I don’t judge because of that. Besides, I was grinning because I think I know why. After Wednesday and Thursday, right?” I nodded. “This may not make sense, but hear me out, okay?” he said as he looked at me to continue. I nodded again. “Okay. I think there’s some weird hormonal connection between us.”

“What?!” I exclaimed as the words sunk in. That sounded weird, but I suppose it did make some sense.

“You heard me ...” he said as he paused, “Those nights you had your wet dreams? I had to jack off furiously. Both nights. I didn’t know I could be that horny. I know for sure the second night you had a pretty awesome fuck fest with Brayden. Is it safe to assume you did something similar the night before?” I laughed at his description. Fuck fest? Hardly!

I nodded my head as everything started to sink in. “You said you were horny yesterday, and that wasn’t normal, right?” he said. I nodded again. “Lukas and I jacked each other off a couple times. It was fucking awesome!”

Was this in some strange way why I was so horny?

“Well, it all makes sense. But, at the same time, it doesn't. Why, after all of this time, why now?” I said, thinking out loud. “Whatever it is, maybe we should try and hold out until night time for a while. To see if something really is going on between us. Okay?” I asked as I looked for his approval.

“Okay,” He said with a nod and a smile. “You know, you got me thinking after that night Lukas and I walked in on you and Brayden. You remember when you told me that I didn’t have to worry about covering up because we were identical. Well, I mean, I’m sure we are in that department, but what about everything else? Personality? Hobbies? Music? I don’t know shit about you!”

I laughed at his comment, but it was completely true. He was my twin and even though we looked alike, we had to be different in some ways.

“Personality wise," I said, "I’m introverted. That might surprise you now, but that's because I warm up well to most people! It just takes some time and sometimes a few awkward moments. You?”

“Sounds about right. I do most of the talking in conversations though, and from what I’ve gauged from you, you’re mostly a listener,” he said.

“Yeah, I definitely listen. I could probably dominate a conversation if I had enough passion about the subject, but I’m definitely not one to interrupt!”

“That,” he said with a smile, “I’ve gathered already. I’ve also gathered that you don’t fuckin’ swear like I do. What the fuck is up with that?” he asked with a laugh.

I laughed with him and smiled as I said, “It’s nothing, really. I just don’t think it’s a big deal. I do swear, just not much. And I tend to avoid cursing unless the situation is worth it!”

He laughed, but I think he understood. At least, he didn’t pursue it anymore.

“I think that pretty much covers personality. At least, it covers the basics! What about hobbies? If you had an hour of free time and the resources to do something, what would you do?” he asked. Interesting question!

“Probably a sport of some kind. Frisbee, football, softball, and others. I’m not great at any one in particular, but I’m pretty good at all of them. You? What would you do with your hour?”

“You don’t seem like the jock type, so I’m kinda surprised!” he said with a smile, “But not everything is as it appears! I’d find something to do so I could hang out with friends. Casual sports and board games would be a good bet!”

“Nice,” I said. “As for music, I’ll generally listen to whatever as long as it’s not country. It’s just not for me and my ears.”

He frowned and said, “Dang!” Then, a smile formed on his face. “Just kidding, I’m like that too. No country, no problem!”

“Cool. Do you sing? Play an instrument?” I asked.

“Nothing professionally, but I’ve dabbled with guitar and piano before. And I’ll sing a song on occasion. Usually drunk occasions, but we’re underage so that’s never happened!” he said with a wink.

I laughed at his remark and said, “Yeah. I sing when I’m alone, but that’s about it. Never played piano or guitar. Unless Guitar Hero counts. Jason had that for a while last year!”

“Nope, that doesn’t count!” he said. I already felt that I’d learned a lot more about him and we really only picked three topics. It was a good feeling!

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Before long, Jason, Kelsey, Brayden, Lukas, Evan, and I all had on our school colors and were ready to root for our team. If the first game was any indicator, we were actually going to be pretty good. It turned out to be a good indicator after all, because the team won behind an outstanding performance by Aiden and his blockers. Kevin had a nice game too, but it wasn’t as good as his second half of the last game.

The six of us waited for Kevin and Aiden after the game to congratulate them. When they came out of the locker room area, Kevin saw us and pulled Aiden our way. We started walking back to the dorm and, since there was a group of eight of us, there were several conversations happening at once. I managed to pull Aiden back a few feet so I could ask him something that had been bothering me.

“So, Aiden, who’s the lucky guy?” I asked.

“What?” He looked at me confused, so I rolled my eyes. “How did you know? Can you really tell?” he said concerned.

“Only because I know what to look for! So, I’ll ask again, who’s the lucky guy and when do I get to meet him?”

He smiled, looked forward and nodded. Right at Kevin.

I looked at him with a shocked smile and giggled and congratulated him. “Sometime you’ll have to tell me all about it!” Good for you, Aiden!

After we got to the dorm, Aiden and Kevin split off and went to get something to eat. Kevin told Brayden he’d send him the address to the house once he knew where it was. I actually got excited for this party!

Jason noticed, and said, “So much for no drinking...”

I smiled and said, “You were right, I need to loosen up a bit. Brayden will make sure I don’t do anything I’ll regret!” Brayden smiled and patted me on the back.

Jason shook his head and said, “Well, whatever. I hope you have a good time, and if you need a ride, call me. I’m not on duty tonight!” I hoped I was going to have a good time, too!

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Once Brayden had learned from Kevin where the party was going to be, we both got ready to go. It was almost 11:00 already, so I knew it would be a late night. Fortunately, I didn’t have to dress up. I already had the guy I planned to sleep with tonight.

I gave Jason my keys so I wouldn’t have to worry about them and I let him use my car to drive us there and back. As soon as we were inside, I realized that this was just like I expected a house party to be. There was loud music, alcohol everywhere, people everywhere, and even the red cups. I looked around to see if I knew anyone in particular and I was really surprised when I saw Dean.

“Dean!” I yelled as I walked over to him. “Nice to see you here!”

“Hey Matt!” he said once I reached him. “Good to see you, too. Who got you to come?”

‘What?’ I thought to myself at first and then realized he was talking about who I came here with. “Brayden, of course!” Well, I suppose my answer would have been the same either way.

As the party carried on, Dean asked me to be his partner for a game of beer pong. I told him I’d never played before, but he said he didn’t care. I hadn’t had anything to drink yet, so I accepted cautiously. Brayden was over talking with some girl, so I warned Brayden that it could get interesting.

It turned out Dean was really good at beer pong. And I wasn’t too bad myself. We won several games in a row and I was definitely feeling the beer. Dean was fine, but it didn’t take much for a guy my size to feel the beer. Finally we lost, so we couldn’t keep on playing. I should have been glad that we lost, but I did have fun!

The party slowly died down as people retired for the night. Some left to go to the bars, and some just passed out somewhere. Brayden was still talking with that girl I had seen him with earlier. He didn’t appear to be drunk, but I didn’t know how much he drank. I noticed he kept laughing and smiling. It kind of upset me. Was I getting jealous? Who knows what I was thinking in my drunken state. I really shouldn’t have had to worry, I knew he loved me. He said so!

I’ve heard before that people say you’re either a happy drunk or a mad drunk. I was very fortunate to be a happy drunk. Dean kept calling me ‘giggly.’ But it was true! I was enjoying myself!

Somehow, the kitchen had cleared of people and I found myself alone with Dean. I wasn’t happy anymore. For some reason, I was sad. Nervous. What was going on? Dean said something, so I smiled out of politeness. I shouldn’t have, because the next thing I knew he leaned forward and kissed me on the lips. I stood there wide-eyed and stunned. I felt his tongue start to push it’s way in, prodding at my own tongue. Trying to get me to match his actions. But I didn’t know what to do! Why didn’t I stop him?

And then my worst fear hit me like a thousand pound weight on my shoulders. “Matt?” I heard from behind me. A soft, gentle voice. It wasn’t a question; it was more of a plea. I’d recognize that voice anywhere. Oh my God. No. That couldn’t have just happened. No!

I pushed Dean away and turned around. Yup, my worst fear was confirmed. Brayden. Standing right there. I would rather take a thousand unwarranted, hate-filled punches from Evan’s attacker than this. All I could do was stare. Straight into his eyes. Right at his tears as they streamed down his cheeks. All I could do was stare as he turned around and pushed his way out of the house.

Seeing him walk away was the worst feeling I’d ever had. The pit that had formed in my gut was nothing compared to the hole that was now in my heart. All of those moments we had shared just walked away as he did. Not looking back.

I finally moved as I saw him at the front door. Out of desperation, I ran after him, but it was too late. He wasn’t going to listen. He shouldn’t have to. He deserved better than that. Fuck, I didn’t even know what to say. That it was Dean’s fault? That was partially true, but I could have stopped him. I’d stopped Aiden before.

I stopped on the front porch of the house and watched him walk away. He never looked back. I saw his hand reach up and wipe the tears away several different times. Fuck! What the fuck was my fucking problem!

I don’t know how long I sat and hoped Brayden would turn around and come back. I sat there, crying to myself, not caring who saw. Aiden sat down by me at one point and rubbed my back, but he didn’t know what happened. And I wasn’t going to tell him tonight. And then, my phone rang. Jason. Fuck. “Hello?” I said weakly into my cellphone. My hand trembled as I tried to control my voice.

“Matt? What the fuck happened? Why is Brayden here and you’re not?”

I started bawling. “He’s gone, Jase,” I said with a sniffle. “He’s gone!” I could feel the cold tears fall down each side of my cheek as I spoke.

“No, he’s not Matt. He’s back in your guys’ room right now.”

“NO!” I yelled through the tears. “You don’t get it, Jase. He’s gone,” I said with another sniffle. The way I said ‘gone’ gave me the chills. “And it’s all my fucking fault.” Another tear fell out of the corner of my eye. I looked down at my shirt and could see the wet drip marks. I hung up the phone because I had nothing left to say. Seconds later, Jason called back.

“Why the fuck did you hang up?” He asked. He wasn’t angry. Probably just confused.

I sniffled. “I don’t have anything to say anymore,” I said. “I’m just so fucking stupid!”

“I thought you didn’t have anything to say?”

“Don’t try and make me laugh because it’s not going to work. All I want to do is huddle up in a corner and fall asleep.” I said honestly.

“Okay, where are you?” he asked. So I told him.

Five minutes later, he had picked me up and we were on the way back to the dorm. Another five minute and we were back to the dorm. I discovered soon enough that Brayden had packed some clothes and left, but didn’t say where he was going to anyone.

My Brayden was gone and I was left alone with Jason in my empty room.“What happened?” he asked as we stood facing each other awkwardly.

My eyes teared up at the thought of the truth. “Uhm...” I stumbled as my voice quivered, “Dean kissed me and... I... I didn’t stop him.” I stopped and thought of Brayden’s face. I thought of the way his eyes looked. It was different than any look I had ever seen in his eyes. It wasn’t love. It wasn’t shock. Hell, it wasn’t even lust. I have seen those before. This was something different. A form of confusion with an unsettling pain. That’s what I would have felt.

Jason said something, but I was so lost in my thoughts I didn’t hear. I didn’t even realize he said anything until he shook my shoulder. “Matt? Are you going to be okay?”

I thought hard at that question. I wanted to say ‘Yes.’ But, that wasn’t true. My eyes teared up again as I shook my head side to side. “There’s only one way I’ll be okay, Jase,” I said as my voice croaked. “And I don’t deserve his love. Not anymore.” I couldn’t even say his name.

I told Jase to keep my keys and check on me in the morning, just in case. It wasn't until Jason went back to his own room that I saw the shirt Brayden had worn to the party. I picked it up and smelled. I didn’t even notice before, but he had used the same cologne as the first time we went out to eat. It was just as intoxicating as I remembered. I held on close to that shirt as I laid down in bed. I felt cold. Alone. Vulnerable. Nothing felt right anymore.

Re: Lost in a Dream

Oh no! This is a tragedy! But, I have to remember that the best of relationships have their bumps and this has to be the case now. Matt, you have such a talent of digging deep into your readers emotions. Whether they are good or bad, the feeling is intense. I don't know if I can wait too long for chapter 19......

Re: Lost in a Dream

I suspect my reaction to this last chapter was like so many other readers: shock and awe. Shock at how quickly Matt's perfect union with Brayden fell apart. And awe at how your telling of the events and its effects on Brayden and Matt captured their pain and anguish and how deeply I felt it myself. I really didn't know what to say for a day or so. But my hat is off to you for keeping reality, humanity and sincerity in this unusual and powerful story. Like your characters, I need relief from this pain and can only hope that the chapters ahead show them finding their way back together.

The whole turn of events leaves me wondering if other fans of this story were affected as deeply as I was.

Last edited by hardreader; October 21st, 2012 at 01:11 PM.

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