Tuesday, September 28, 2004

biological clock and crap

Man. I sure hope God isn't going to have me wait to get married until I'm 87 or something like that. He's put such a desire in me to get married, have a kid...and this longing just increases each time I hold a baby (TPR's 3-month-old nephew is adorable!) or see a man holding a baby. So sometimes, when I'm frustrated by the fact that I don't even have any "potentials" in my life -- well...depends on the definition of "potential." if "potential" means "the kind of guy I want to marry" then okay. I remember that God is in control...that maybe I do know The Guy already, and I shouldn't be frustrated. I remember on the back cover of a National Geographic from the 70's, there was an ad for...I think it was Kodak...anyway, it was of a guy relaxing (shirtless), with a diapered baby in his arms, and they were just looking each other in the eyes -- anyway, I thought that was so beautiful (I was 9 when I found it, I think). Over eleven years ago. Good heavens. My birthday was on Sunday, and I spent the day (after going to church, talking to TPR and holding his nephew -- I held a baby on my birthday. awww. I was on a baby-high for the next day and a half) with my friend, H. She and I went to a family fall fest thing (sponsored by her church) at a huge pumpkin patch in town, had food, and colored each other's hair. My hair is now a dark burgundy brown, and when the sun hits it, it's bright red. It's so fun. :D So far, the comments on it stand thus:J - "I really don't like it." (well, that's fine. I wasn't doing it for him, anyway. :P )H - "I love it!" (of course. she did it to me. :D ) J - "I noticed it." (amazing, coming from the most unobservant person on the planet)TPR - "I like it." (aww. thanks, man!)I love going to a college where I know everyone. My friend C -- recently remarried -- is more like an older brother to me, and when I see him in the morning, he gives me a huge hug, lets me smell him (his cologne is perfectly splendid), and compliments me on some aspect of my wardrobe...it could be my hat, or dangly earrings, or a shirt, or coat, or anything. It's so nice. :)

2 comments:

I don't have a blogger, so I had to "post anonymously", but this is Kali.

I just wanted to say... Keep reminding yourself that God has said He will give us the desires of our hearts (Psalms 37:4). I believe that if He put that desire there, He will fulfill it :-)

Things can change around quicker than you can say "engagement ring", and when you least expect it ;-) You might find yourself married sooner than you expect. You never know. Just gotta trust the One in charge!I know if can be hard though :-( (((HUGS)))

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