I'm so sorry you are going through ALL of this... The main thing now is focusing on yourself because you alone are the only one that is going to get you through this horrible time.. I'm glad you are sticking up for yourself, this is something I do not do and well you know all of the things I've been through with my pdoc and meds...

Give yourself some credit though, you have been posting and helping out others and that just goes to show what type of person you are..... You have ALWAYS been there for me even when you were going through your shoulder surgery and that says a lot of who you are, ICC..... Bat would be proud = )