Grown Up

When do you grow up? I was 17 when this picture was taken- that was a Swatch phone and a teddy bear and yet I know I was thinking, " I am so grown up."

But then, when you are supposed to actually

be

grown up- you start to doubt it.

I mean, when do you start to become the things you always wanted to be when you grew up?

Ok- don't laugh because I am being vulnerable here- but I think I grew up this summer. I will share several reasons that I believe this.

Now

I did just go the grocery store in my pajama bottoms but besides

that-

I really think I grew up this summer...

so here are my reasons:

1. I turned 33- I am in my

mid-

thirties. I think that might even constitute

oldish

.

2. I am starting to trust my gut... actually God in me. And that kind-of walk with Him is giving me confidence, clearing the fog of some insecure scatteredness.

3. I eat pickles and mustard on my sandwiches- my entire life I have passionately hated pickles and mustard. I am so confused by this.

4. The sun has become evil- I used an absurd amount of sunscreen and a very large mom visor at the beach. (When I asked my sister if my visor was momish- she looked at me with an "I can't believe you don't know that visors are momish" look and said, "

well

you are a mom.")

5. My son, going into fourth grade, became a real person. He amazes me- his depth, his heart, his own unique passions. I don't have young kids anymore- I have short people with future spouses and lives. I feel that more than ever.

6. All the chips that I eat at Z Tejas- they stick to me. :(

7. The boundaries as to what I am willing for God to do with me and our family have fallen.

8. I am finally starting to do some of the things I wanted to do when I grew up. If I keep waiting till I grow up... well I'm grown up- I am calling it. Grown up.

9. I picked up wake boarding this summer. I know that makes me young- not grown up... I still want you to think I am cool. Oh and I like the Jonas brothers.

10. I no longer think someone else will take care of things. When I see something that needs to be done... I feel compelled to do it... usually.

Ephesians 4:15-16

Rather, speaking the truth in love, we are togrow upin every way into Him who isthe head, into Christ, from whom the whole body, joined and held together by every joint with which it is equipped,when each part is working properly, makes the body grow so that it (the church) builds itself up in love.