Jessica Neely, a youth pastor by the age of 21 turned a porn star that same year when something she had never thought possible happens to her. A pastors child that was crazy for the lord, became crazy for sex.

One afternoon, Jessica Neely was walking to her car when her head was bashed against her car and was brutally raped by a stranger who took her virginity. Unfortunately, Jessica’s trauma and shock of what happened to her did not allow her to report the incident. She thought she was not the kind of girl that’s raped; she was a good girl…a decent girl and she never thought she would participate in porn later after that… she never imagined she’d become a human trafficker.

After a while of the rape, she later tried to get help but none of it seemed to help her trauma so she spiraled into sex addiction and alcohol. She finally came across a magazine that was inviting girls to escort and porn. She signed up for a porn website and begun to shoot many porn movies and begun to lure young girls into the porn industry as well. She was making more than $10,000 a day.

In the midst of her addiction and her new found porn life, Jessica says that she was still angry at God for allowing her lose all her dreams and all hopes of whom she wanted to be in future. Jessica recalls singing hymns at her very low times unable to say a prayer. Sometimes, Jessica would sing hymns before she started a porn scene because part of her was yelling “I want out!” but she did not know how. “Nobody would accept me…no church will take me back now!” she cried. All she had left was sing, “I surrender all” and many other hymns we all love to sing.

Jessica felt the rape repeat over and over again whenever she had a sex scene but she felt that atleast she could now choose whom to sleep with and not forced by a stranger.

So her turn around came when she went to Kentucky on a corn field when she was tired, hopeless, suicidal and wanted to get back to the lord. She gave up porn and completely surrendered to the lord and that was when she started a fruitful relationship with God.

She now goes around talking to the youth in churches, seminars and all sort of youthful gatherings to talk to them about the dangers of pornography and human trafficking.

I heard this story on a post on my facebook page (in the comment section) where many others expressed ignorance towards those who featured in porn and human trafficking. People made surprising assumptions that porn was not real. Other people made statements like all people who acted porn were bad people and they dont feel sorry for them. These are very horrible things to say or assume about people you dont even know. Click here to view the video and the comments below.

You see, your past cannot define you…neither should your present; it can only define who you are if you let it. Where ever you are in life, you need to know that there is a second chance and there’s never too late a time to make a positive turn in your life. All you need is to make the decision and allow God take the wheel of your life.

Sometimes, the world judges you even without hearing your story…the world has already cooked up ideas about whom we are without getting to know us personally. But what we make out of ourselves and not succumbing to their ideologies of whom they expect us to be is all that matters. The best revenge in life is to get better.

However, I was prompted to write yet another blog post on pornography from an experience I had yesterday. On one of my facebook group pages, I was notified when someone posted this:

As you can see, it reads: “Whatsapp group dupe…adult only drop your numbers. Let have some fun…strictly adults…no joke” So I thought to myself,” This is a freaking stupid post. Who in his right frame of mind would send such personal information for EVERY and ANYbody to see on a post like that?”

Apparently, I was wrong. In less than a few minutes, the comment area of that post was flooding with phone numbers. I then decided to teach them a lesson by starting a group with a few of those numbers and bombard them with unpleasant stuff that will make them think twice next time they put their contact on a public platform like a facebook group page.

So in this ‘prank’, I was the fraudster or the spam creator. They were lucky it was me this time, because it could be a real fraudster the next time. I created a group with some of the numbers and Oh my God! I have never felt so appreciated and loved. Not even if I contributed to a dying child’s surgery to SAVE his life would I have been appreciated as I was for creating a ‘porn whatsapp group’. They were full of praise with words like, “We are so grateful to the administrator for opening a group like this for us.” Someone else added, “Yes oo. God richly bless him” I was shocked! Did I just read “God”?! They were unbelievably grateful. That was when I was getting worried at the magnitude of their addiction. These are people who are probably in denial of how addicted they are to pornography. Most of them might not have given it a second thought.

I then went through my blog to find blog posts and all over the internet for stuff that will help them realise the magnitude of their porn addiction and how irrational porn has made them. Before I could finish finding what I was looking for, I was getting notifications that they were already customizing the group page—literally feeling at home as they changed the group’s picture and started sending pictures of themselves.

Then it started! My phone would not stop buzzing. They were sending pornographic videos and pictures one after the other at a very fast rate. Since my wifi was on, they were being downloaded automatically. That was when I realised, “I just pranked myself!” I simply couldn’t take how fast my phone storage was being flooded with pornography.

I decided to leave the group because I couldn’t take it any longer. Then it occurred to me that I had to close down the group. After I had dissolved the group, I received countless messages of them begging me to put them back into the group and whenever I told them the group had been dissolved, they expressed sadness or anger. Yes, I received messages like “Oh”…”awww” and then most of them said “FUCK YOU”

They expressed grave addiction and I could see suffering, lack of self control, discontentment and shame as these strangers were desperately asking me to add them to the group.

So I came across Jake, a former porn addict who is going to reveal some effects of porn addiction and most importantly symptoms that will make you know if you are addicted to pornography or not. This will be of aid to people who are in denial of their addiction.

So if you have the symptoms Jake is talking about, then you definitely need help. Get all the help you can get because all these symptoms can lead to DEATH if you don’t find help. They are all serious symptoms that affect your mental health—mental health is very crucial to life.If your mental health is not right, you walk on thin ice until you get help.

For those who can’t afford rehabilitation, I recommend Healthsexualitysystem to you. They take you through processes and a support system where you also get your own anonymous partner who will make sure you are well and restored by the time the program ends. So check them out here.

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