Happy Monday's Shaun Ryder not such a perfect dad

I don’t want a relationship with him but it would be nice if he could just say sorry.

Coco

She insisted he is a woman- beating addict who smoked heroin while looking after her as a child.

Coco, 18, one of Ryder’s six children by four women, has not seen her dad since he walked out on her mother when she was five, leaving them broke and homeless.

She has revealed for the first time the horror of seeing her father and mother always arguing.

She said: “He would scream and I remember windows being smashed. I have flashbacks. I remember this feeling of panic, of just wanting him to stop.

“I don’t want a relationship with him but it would be nice if he could just say sorry.”

Legendary drug user Ryder, 50, spoke to a national newspaper recently, calling himself a great dad and saying his ­children “all loved him”.

Coco said: “When I saw that I just shrugged. It’s been difficult to read but I have a certain numbness where he is concerned.

“He left when I was five and for years I constantly asked where my daddy was. I stopped at about ten.

“After so many years of me asking and my mum being so kind, she broke down and said to me, ‘Your father is not a good man, I know you are young but you need to know’.

“I don’t have any hatred or resentment towards him. I understand he had issues. I just want to move on and let my father know that I know what he is ­saying is not true.”

She added: “As many as 100,000 people who read that article might believe it.”

Coco was born in Manchester and lived there with her mum Oriole and Shaun for two years before moving to Ireland.

She said: “I have memories. One is good, where I am playing tag with dad in a pub garden – but others are much more vivid and not so nice. I remember dad standing on one side of the room and my mum on the other. He is just screaming at her and she is crying.

“I was about five and remember just running to hug my dad’s legs, then ­running to hug my mum’s. I wanted it to stop.

“I have memories of feeling ill when I would wake up. I would have a stomach ache and wouldn’t be able to move much.

“I asked my mother about it. She told me she’d come home a few times to find him smoking heroin with his friends in the same room as me.”

Coco added: “All my brothers and ­sisters have been kept away. I found out I had a brother at the age of nine through a newspaper.

“I tried to get hold of my dad when I was 13. We spoke on the phone and were going to meet. Mum asked him to take a drugs test to prove he was clean but he refused.

“He sent me a card and a Wii console on my birthday that year. It is the first and last time I have ever been given anything by my dad.”

Coco has finally realised it is unlikely she will ever sort things out with her dad.

She said: “I have to accept it now, we are done.

“At 15 to 16 my mother and I had financial problems and were homeless but we got nothing.

“With everyone going on about him now I think it’s the perfect time to come out and say something that would help me – something that would bring a feeling that isn’t numb, angry or upset.”