and after today I welcome change if the outcome is good or bad I welcome change if there is one thing I do get from this change is to be better but you always want more so you have to ask yourself what is for you in this life I like to think anything you want in this life you just have to have a need and I need this ... whatever the outcome is from all that I do will be who knows ... who knows.

when one door closes another one opens the past two years I've been workin at a place at first it was ok and over time it just got boring and not worth goin to work anymore knowing you have to deal with them or it anymore I guess you can call it a bad break up at the end you wanted different things and you're better off finding something that will make you happy so here I am ... with a new year almost upon us only 2 days away starting over sounds good so I'm startin over Happy New Years!

so yeah here we are with a new year and so far 2009 is lookin pretty good I have a new job I'm startin on monday and yeah I'm looking forward to seeing what the year will have in store for me
everyone out in fubar land stay classy
later

so yeah things are good but they could be better in all ways as far as my work life my personal life goes and everything inbetween
I still work at the herald and I've been there for pretty much a year now but yeah the more I'm there the more I don't think I will miss it there the co workers I work with well most of them are ok and some are a pain and a few are actually rad to work with
the other day I went to my fiance's parent's house out in Oak Harbor and everytime I'm out there I never spend enough time out there I go there to get away the stress from work and life but we had to head back I had to work the next day oh yeah did I mention I'm startin to feel like a workaholic anyway I think in a couple of weeks I'm taking a much needed vacation
later

so yeah it's been awhile since I've been on here after taking a long hiatus from myspace to do other things like work and sleeping and yeah I've been lacking sleep the past few days but yeah maybe the next few days I have off I can sleep in but yeah right on that one
right now in my life things are going ok but I think they could be better I've been runnin around trying to find another part time job I've been at my job now for almost a year and I think I can handle workin two jobs for awhile but so far that's not workin out the way I want it to right now but hopefully I find something soon!!!
on that note I'm taking the next weekend off to go to Oak Harbor I think I need some time off to clear my head about things and relax
I love you Mackenzie

if people are really as crazy as they make themselves out to be like this man Idaho...
HAYDEN, Idaho -- A man who believed he bore the "mark of the beast" used a circular saw to amputate one of his hands, cooked it in a microwave and summoned authorities, Kootenai County sheriff's deputies say.
The man, in his mid-20s, was calm when deputies arrived at his home in this north Idaho town Saturday afternoon, and neither he nor the severed hand bore any noticeable tattoo or other mark, sheriff's Capt. Ben Wolfinger.
"It had been somewhat cooked by the time the deputy arrived," Wolfinger said.
The man, whose name was withheld, was in protective custody in the mental health unit of Kootenai Medical Center in Coeur d'Alene, where he and the hand were taken by ambulance. Hospital spokeswoman Lisa Johnson would not say whether an attempt was made to reattach the hand, citing patient confidentiality restrictions.
"He put a tourniquet on his arm before, so he didn't bleed to death," Wolfinger said. "That kind of mental illness is just sad."
The New Testament book of Revelation contains a passage in which an angel is quoted as saying, according to the New International Version of the Bible, "If anyone worships the beast and his image and receives his mark on the forehead or on the hand, he, too, will drink the wine of God's fury."
The book of Matthew also contains the passage, "And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body tha n for your whole body to go into hell."
Wolfinger said he didn't know which hand was amputated.
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" no wonder their are Atheist's in this world ".
here's the link to the story
http://www.heraldnet.com/article/ 20080110/NEWS03/230068743

so yeah lately life has been ok but it could be better on christmas I went to Whidbey Island for a couple of days and yeah it was good times I got away from work and my so called life and it was nice to do something that took my mind off of my every day life it was a nice road trip
with always working and devoting all my time to work and everything else I don't have time to myself its stressin me out
so I think I'm going to take a vacation sometime soon and yeah that would be nice now I have something to look forward to next year
that being said there are alot of things I'm looking forward to like for me taking time out from life and work and everthing that stresses me out but yeah I'll see how that one turns out
hope everyone has a happy new year
later

So yeah what's up guys? I'm not up to alot I'm here checkin out fubar and yeah so far it's goin I'm still figuring everything out maybe later when I have time I'll add something cool on here but yeah moving on
it's that time of the year again and every day is a day closer to christmas and yeah I went to the mall and man it was crazy out there I didnt think I was going to survive being at the mall but somehow I made it home and I barely started christmas shopping and yeah I've been procrastinating I've been good about doing that lately
next week I have a few days off and I'm headin out to my girlfriends parents house and yeah I'm leaving sunday and won't be back til wednesday and yeah Merry Christmas
later