its kinda harsh but, its the truth. at least im being honest about how i feel. i dunno babe. why now? its been 3 years already, grow up, move on. NO!!! i had no more feeling towards u babe. just live with it. i am different now, im not the old dude that dumb enough like before. not like u, i evolve. better being. so, i sugget u do the same. get over me man, live ur life for god sake. dun let that obsession ruin ur frenship babe. seriesly. its been a nice journey that we ride on, but make a crash as the ending of the story. please. let it go. let me go!!! remember what i used to said dun be a maniac!!

one more thing, why in the blue hell all of my past come back n haunting me huh? why now? why when im in this sitaution? hana, i get it. shes alway around but u bitch, go to hell! fuck u lil' blood angel. yes, like i said, i never get gid of our pics in my folder, but i changed its name. the folder now entitled, FUCK U LIL' BlOOD ANGEL!! happy? u should feel lucky i'd bow to myself never hurt a lady, but if im gonna break that, u'll be my first blood victim.bare that in mind.

i guess these thing happen to anyone though. our past trying to pick up where we left off. the truth is, there nothing more to patch on, except frenship. rite? i guess so. but, these people they just dun get it, MORON!!

She's a pretty girl She's always falling downAnd I think I just fell in love with herBut she will never remember, rememberAnd I can always find her At the bottom of a plastic cupDrowning in drunk sincerity A sad and lonely girl

And she said, I think we're running out of alcoholTonight I hate this fucking townAnd all my best friends will be the death of meAnd they won't ever remember, rememberSo please take me far away Before I'm melt into the groundAnd all my words get used against me You sad and lonely girl

Try to take a picture, of loveDidn’t think I’d miss her, that muchI wanna fill this new frame, but it’s emptyTry to right a letter, in inkIt’s been getting better, I thinkI got a piece of paper, but it’s empty

Maybe were trying, trying to hardMaybe we thorn apart maybe the timing is beating the heart,Were empty

The Only Song- Sherwood

Im okay, since like I just need a break,Set down town and now im up againstFinding out that im alone, my friend left me behindAnd into another town,Where this boy is not aroundAnd I don’t blame them cuz I do the sameAnd now im alone again

So I sing along this only song,I rather knownAnd I sending out to the lonely oneThose day are gone but the night roll onTaking their place

Hey, lets write this story again,Where im your lover and bestfriendPack ur back and we’ll leave this old goes down behindInto another timeWhere this boy is not around

Far away- Nickelback

This time, this placeMisused, mistakesToo long to lateWho am I that wanna make you wait

Just one chance, just one breatheJust in case this wont lastYou know, you know, you know

I love you, I love you all along I miss you, far away is far too longI kept dreaming, that u’ll be with me and u’ll never goStop seeing when I don’t be with you anymore

On my knee I’ll lastOne last chance for one last standWith you, I’ll stand, to just hold your handGive it all, give for us, but anything I just wont give upCuz you know, you know, you know,

I love you, I love you all along I miss you, far away is far too longI kept dreaming, that u’ll be with me and u’ll never goStop seeing when I don’t be with you anymore

Here Without You- 3 Doors Down

100 days had made me olderSince the last time that I saw your pretty faceA thousand lies had made me colderAnd I don’t think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separatedThey disspear now when I dreaming of ur face

Im here without you babyBut you still on my lonely mindI think about you baby,And I dream about you all the time

Im here without you babyBut you still on my lonely mindI think about you baby,And I dream about you all the time

Broken- Seether ft. Amy Lee

I wanted you to know I love the way you laughI wanna hold you high and and steal your pain, awayI kept your photograph cuz I know its serve me wellI wanna hold you high and steal your pain, away

Cuz im broken when im lonesomeAnd I don’t feel right when you you gone awayYou gone away, I dun feel me right anymore

Fall for you- Secondhand Serenade

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fightingCould it be that we have been this way beforeI know you don't think that I am tryingI know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breatheBecause tonight will be the night that I will fall for youOver againDon't make me change my mindOr I wont live to see another dayI swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to findYour impossible to find

Only One- YellowCard

Broken this fragile thing now,But I cant I cant pick up the piecesAnd I thrown my word all around,but I cant I cant give you a reason

I felt so broken upAnd I give up,Just wanna tell you so u know

Here I goScreams my lung outTry to get to youYou are my only one I let goThere just no one that gets me like you doYou are my only, my only one

Until the day I Die- Story Of The Year

Until the day I die, I spill my heart for you,Until the day I die, I spill my heart for you

As day goes by, I race the clock with youBut if u day right now, u now that I die tooyou remind me of the time when I knew who I wasTill the second hand will catch us, like we always does We make the same mistakes; I take the fall for youI hope you need this now, cuz I know I still do

Until the day I die, I spill my heart for you,Until the day I die, I spill my heart for you

p/s-this is exactly whats my feeling for the past few days.dunno. she rock my heart.

March 30, 2009

For once, it is hard even for meTo be in the situation that I don’t want to beTo take the beat, I am cool with itAs long as I know where it would leads

Same reflection past by me every day and every nightIt’s doesn’t matter because I know it’s what I likeFor the true love I seek, that’s why I will fightIt is okay for me, even if you “might”

Because,You are the one that I dull about like and loveYou are the one that make me not stopping my puffYou are the one that I open my heart to happinessYou are the one that have the key to my fragileness

The smile upon your face bright ups me dayEven though sometimes its buzz my tongue and left me no word to say,The cute smiles of you make me exposed and cloud my judgeIt could make my day better or make it fuss

Your smile is one of the reason I’m falling forIt is also because you are special and rawI like you just the way you areAs the same reason I’d fight till this farOnce, I tried to give up on youBut my heart won’t let it thoughSo from now on I will keep on tryingBecause it’s you that I’m craving.