Friday, May 23, 2008

God is in the Details

A strange thing has happened to me. I'm feeling a little lost. Our church is doing great things: building another church, growing. I don't feel like I'm growing. There is the inevitable conflict that comes with change. Our church is divided, and both sides feel that God has spoken directly to them, so the words get increasingly sharp. People speak plainly once they know that God is on their side.

I guess I'm an "unchurched Christian." I haven't really enjoyed going to church since leaving the military, and that was decades ago. When I attended a service at a military chapel, it always seemed a no-BS zone, a place where hidden agendas weren't at work. I've seldom felt that way in civilian churches. Maybe it's just a luck-of-the-draw thing, I dunno.

That said, I think there's a lot of value in the fellowship and community that a church can offer. It's just that, for me, the real church is nature.

Actually, Hal, it is very strange. I'm suddenly finding God outside the church walls more often than I find Him inside. I don't know why. I'm trying to find peace in the fact that at least I am finding him, but it is an odd time.

Redlefty: a hint of the Divine. That's a nice thought. Really, I think it's time for me to sit quietly and wait. And learn.

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I'm the wife of a good man, the mother of good kids, the grandmother of sweet William. I am a student. A small time writer for the local paper. I am funny. I am serious. I am practical. Hardworking. I make great bread. I'm loyal.