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You could call this a personal creative fiction journal about a world traveler and his evolving life.
He saw the warmth of Americans vanish with the once large friendly middle class. Was there a Camelot, when we thought of ourselves as a good nation?
The powers that be have been holding our country hostage since Reagan took away the power of the unions and Neoconservatives took over the Republican Party!
Will we ever stop our declining ways?
(sorry for typos!)

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When I have writer's block or I'm just too embarassed to show my innermost feelings to my 5 readers I like to include an essay from the Daily Om since it coincides with my feelings so much! From there I can bounce off my current feelings and have a guide to write something...

January 30, 2009"Expanding Their VisionNine Ways To Help Others Awaken to Consciousness1. Living by your values allows you to become a positive source of inspiration for others. Don’t hide – express yourself and embrace life without reservation. By simply being yourself, you can help the people in your life see how one person can make a difference by being a living example of consciousness.I often think of what impact I might of made with the Navaho students at Utopachi...it was wonderful hearing a voice from our past when Ang and I chatted over the ocean to Mary...she had become a wonderful friend and colleague to us both...she said how there was a vacuum at the school with no more after school activ…

Right now, my wife is feeding our beautiful child…I feel frustrated at this point…thinking about how many things we could be doing to have fun…We need to at least rent a car and try traveling around the country a little bit..It was good finally chatting with my brother, Ron. I know that he loves me even though he doesn’t really show.. I felt like I was ripped off by him the way he would take advantage of me in Monopoly or other games since I was a little child…I felt jealous of how he would always have the friends and be successful at school thereby getting the praise and adoration of my parents…I was the black sheep of the family always struggling in school and in relationships but oh well…Now I have a loving wife who does not know much about domestic engineering so it challenges me to do all the things that I never had to do…I am a new father …I have dove into the pool of parenthood attempting to dog paddle in the new waves of fatherhoodI was just looking at one of the thousand pho…

January 27, 2009Patient PersistenceSagittarius Daily HoroscopeYou might find that you are determined to get your ideas across to others today in order to achieve your goals. If you find that you are extra-persistent today to the point that others begin to feel restless, you may want to work on developing patience. One way to create more patience is to take a deep breath and count to 10 before speaking. When you stop to count, you can become aware of your behavior when you speak to others. This could help make your interactions go more smoothly. Remembering to breathe and counting to 10 can also help you cultivate patience during those moments when you want to push people or situations forward before the time is ripe. Take the time to slow down and think before you act today, and the wellsprings of patience and understanding that you cultivate could help you achieve your objectives.

Pausing before speaking and taking the time to consider what we are about t…

wow!!...I hope that Conyers nails this pompous pig and the rest of the Bush henchmen ... will they get him as well as they did to all those crooks from Watergate??Watching this pig grovel the way the bloke did in Deliverance wouldn't do justice for all the murders and bullshit that this criminal brain of Bush has masterminded!No punishment would be better for this slimy bastard!Saddam was executed....why not the same for causing a war of murders for innocent young soldiers and civilians!

""On Monday, House Judiciary Committee Chairman John Conyers (D-MI) issued a subpoena to Karl Rove, requiring him to testify regarding his role in the Bush Administration's politicization of the Department of Justice, including the US Attorney firings and the prosecution of former Alabama Governor Don Siegelman. The subpoena calls for Rove to appear at deposition on Monday, February 2, 2009.

Rove has previously refused to appear in response to a Judiciary Committee subpoena, claiming t…

MARRIAGE!!...It could so easy for folks married to people with ADD to lose patience and get divorced when the going gets rough..Imagine two people with this condition and shades of manic depression...Could that be twice as bad??It's easy to just say"Fuck it! ...Another one bites the dust...easy come...easy go...but suddenly there is a love child involved and that changes the whole story....He has changed both of our lives...Suddenly this young man came into our ADD worldand put us both into topsy turvy and we have to figure out not the very easy solution of parenting in the 21st century...but at least we are coping in paradise...Can't beat taking a dip in the rejuvenating salt waters of the Pacific two times a day....and then she gets distracted and forgets about the tomato soup, rice and pasta creation of her husband's on the stove!!

"The stories of creative individuals are replete with instances of childhood problems in school (Piirto, 1992; Thompson, 1971; West…

WOW!!! mY WIFE IS DRIVING ME INSANE SOMETIMES AND i THINK I DRIVE HER CRAZY...BUT OBAMA IS HERE AND HE HAS A DREAM LIKE i DO.... Seriously, I'm gonna work on my B ronze Medalion with the local Mermaid Beach Surf Life Savings Club. One can join the club for only 60$ !! and then buy the speedo beanie with the Mermaid colors that I have on my head for only 15$! The lifeguard club is just below the restaurant part of the club where we eat affordable meals a few nights a week (if my wife will behave ;)

Now my to become a volunteer surf lifesave without getting eaten by shark first.... Speaking of which: We interviewed a babysitter yesterday evening over dinner at the Surf Club who was harrassed by the local shark It was a little earlier almost just in front of our flat! I congratulated on both of us being shark survivors! (Colin Murray is showing off with his power to the people fist!) Mermaid reef is now spawning...(spawning means that the local reef of coral is reproducing which brings hea…

Do you think there is any likeness?? I apreciate the nice comment from LA!! The beach and surf life is wonderful...

I am looking forward to seeing the inaguration and hopefully Oz TV will show a lot of it! From the Daily OM: "January 19, 2009 Evolution Through ExplorationPurposeMost living things belong to a particular soul group and are born knowing their purpose in life. An animal will spend its day foraging for food, taking care of itself and its young, and creating a home. No one tells an animal to do this, yet it instinctively knows how. Humans, for the most part, are not born consciously knowing what their purpose is. Purpose gives our life meaning. When you discover your purpose, you can live your life with intention and make choices that serve your objective for why you are here on the planet. Finding your purpose is not always easy. You must embrace life wholeheartedly, explore many different pathways, and allow yourself to grow. Your purpose is as unique as you are and will …

"Shedding Light On Ourselves" from the Daily OM"In almost every case, we know what is best for us in our lives, from the relationships we create to the food we eat. Still, somewhat mysteriously, it is often difficult to make the right choices for ourselves. We find ourselves hanging out with someone who leaves us feeling drained or choosing to eat fast food over a salad. We go through phases where we stop doing yoga or taking vitamins, even though we feel so much better when we do. Often we have no idea why we continue to make the less enlightened choice, but it is important that we inquire into ourselves to find out. When we choose that which is not best for us, the truth can be that there is a deep seated part of us that does not want to heal. We may say it’s because we don’t have the time or the energy or the resources, but the real truth is that when we don’t take care of ourselves we are falling prey to self-sabotage. Self-sabotage happens unconsciously, which is w…

Ang just went shopping with the bub... I'm happy she still has some of her tax refund check TV is showing the "remake of Barrack" Monday night at 9:50 (here is my other gf;) just kidding... she won't tell me how much she spent on her hair...but's that's cool...I'm so happy she still hasn't spent all of her hard earned tax refund$$ and can have a good hair day!!I haven't had to worry about hair or lack of it on my head for over 3 decades!! I guess that's like having a bad hair day for more than half my life???It seems like baldness is the one disability that anybody can pick on.... "Look, Ma. He has zero hair!"lol

but seriously folks , we all have to tighten our belts with us in the worst depression since Okies left the Okie Zone in the "Grapes of Wrath" 30's! as beach bums we are making the least carbon imprintfor any small family in the western world(??)....cept my wife takes showers too long..;)

I dunno...I just love these images...this camera has been the best present to myself....capturing moments of time with a picture... it's worth a thousand words......coming to Oz has brought back so many childhood moments of happiness... we hope to see this happiness when he laughs... we see him develop a personality with everyday.. There are so many topics to discuss with you...and yet sometimes I feel so shy to come up with the words... when really this blog is for myself and hopefully let others tune into my life??

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its good to be working again, even if its only subbing to get my mind off that my son was taken away by x and selfish xinlaws who want to enjoy his youth in their own dreary life

I get down but then Im invigorated with an autistic student that wins a Rhodes Scholarship and is going to Oxford!

Kelly Fleming remembers the low point of raising her son, Jory.
He was eight years old when he spent an entire morning, afternoon and evening wailing uncontrollably. She still doesn’t know what set off the boy, who has autism and a metabolic disorder.
But the tough times seem more bearable now, at the high point. Last month, Jory, who is 22 with a feeding tube inserted in his stomach and braces on his legs, was awarded a Rhodes Scholarship.
In between came Ms. Fleming’s decision to give up on her own dream of practicing medicine, home schooling Jory, learning to read, a bird named Federer and finally college and a dog named Daisy.
“All children have amazing minds,” Ms. Fleming says. “Their brains…

. September 8th happy that my family is together just trying to live one day at a time one moment at a time life is short I love my son so much I'm at a Crossroads in my life to decide to become a teacher I write my book it's a matter of putting several pages together and then figuring out which stories all the best and I need to get Help from My Friends even perhaps my neighbors but the judgmentalism of the human nature intimidates me more than anything I had another beautiful day with my son we went to some family therapy with a good counselor who has played a couple of family games the Dynamics would help us appreciate my ex coming back today for the sake of our beautiful son! I have to pinch myself and I'm blessed to be his father and I shouldn't be last I'm doing everything that I can with him I have to overcome that often disability of laziness....tomorrow... domani!n

the story of my life,,, sad i cant even borrow some fold up chairs for the evening :( s…

i went downstairs to admire the almost full waning moon...
realizing my own mortality...
i think of a friend who had his wake up call at a much younger age
and then i get a glimmer of what my own mortality could be
when i walk across Hedges ave.
and suddenly see double with much better acuity...
it was bizarre
i closed either eye and didnt see double
but then I could walk just shutting one eye
to a chair
to see my beloved ocean one more time
and eat a halloween mini candy bar
the uneasy feeling wondering when the double image
fades away with each bite

hypoglycemia or
a mini stroke....

and I hug my son that evening
and play frisbee with my son more than i ever have
having discovered my son's new toy hidden among
the seaweed about a 100 meters out from shore...

the feelings run across my mind that night,
with frustration at my own body's fragile shell
and the necessary need to establish the bucket list....

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its good to be working again, even if its only subbing to get my mind off that my son was taken away by x and selfish xinlaws who want to enjoy his youth in their own dreary life

I get down but then Im invigorated with an autistic student that wins a Rhodes Scholarship and is going to Oxford!

Kelly Fleming remembers the low point of raising her son, Jory.
He was eight years old when he spent an entire morning, afternoon and evening wailing uncontrollably. She still doesn’t know what set off the boy, who has autism and a metabolic disorder.
But the tough times seem more bearable now, at the high point. Last month, Jory, who is 22 with a feeding tube inserted in his stomach and braces on his legs, was awarded a Rhodes Scholarship.
In between came Ms. Fleming’s decision to give up on her own dream of practicing medicine, home schooling Jory, learning to read, a bird named Federer and finally college and a dog named Daisy.
“All children have amazing minds,” Ms. Fleming says. “Their brains…

. September 8th happy that my family is together just trying to live one day at a time one moment at a time life is short I love my son so much I'm at a Crossroads in my life to decide to become a teacher I write my book it's a matter of putting several pages together and then figuring out which stories all the best and I need to get Help from My Friends even perhaps my neighbors but the judgmentalism of the human nature intimidates me more than anything I had another beautiful day with my son we went to some family therapy with a good counselor who has played a couple of family games the Dynamics would help us appreciate my ex coming back today for the sake of our beautiful son! I have to pinch myself and I'm blessed to be his father and I shouldn't be last I'm doing everything that I can with him I have to overcome that often disability of laziness....tomorrow... domani!n

the story of my life,,, sad i cant even borrow some fold up chairs for the evening :( s…

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﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿ ﻿ ﻿ ﻿ ﻿﻿﻿﻿This lady who calls herself a journalist took offense to an article written by a journalist named Sullivan who used to like Bush. He stated that critics of Obama lack intelligence. She and fox love to criticize our president because she gets paid to cut down Obama and show her pretty face , but actually looks likes she's had a messed up nose job since this photo was taken in her prime years. ﻿﻿﻿﻿ ﻿﻿ I don't watch TV let alone Faux News (even though fox is the only cable news show here in Oz) since our TV went into a coma, but I have seen how rude this lady and other fox anchors have become to their guests. I believe they are trained to be this way so they can bully their guests enough so the audience will have believe the host of the right wing biased shows. "40-year old Megyn Kelly is a mommy again! The FOX News star gave birth to a baby girl on Thursday, the network announced on the air. The girl, Yardley Evans, was born at 10 AM on Thursday a…

do other folks all over the world have an obsession with their fantasy of the ultimate "hippie stoner girl"and my site comes up...?? always intrigued with the hilarious searches that come up with my site....
and how do I segue into the next topic...
well, sometimes we have the best thoughts especially over a good game of chess,
our best moments from our current crop of leaders could have been after a good doobie! ie clinton, Obama, maybe even Bush actually thought he could be president... and the plan evolved when he was doing a Jamaican joint perhaps with the great Karl Rove, the wizard of the dark side

....I'm watching Obama talk about killing the 2nd in command for terrrorists...so if we were to be looking at a football game... the heart of republican thinking with a high testosterone for patriotism and dominating the world... Obama just scored a touchdown!! even though we've been behind from the start with a very hostile crowd booing and cheering at most often inap…

Lord, or the universal energies that give you periodic signs , sometimes more and more frequently, ie. I said Baby,,, the tv says baby girl...
there's a word I just say and the tv says it almost synchronistical...
I have so many things to do... and I wake up and I don't say wanna see all these bills , esp. gold coast rates! 1200 per month.. my tenant, Jesus, does not pay enough in rent to cover half of the bills, yet I am so poor...
aaa..... but I finally get to be with my son today, since my x bought her car and has a sales job coming up... she has been taking everywhere along with long walkabouts in the huge expanse of Okc and its white flight suburbs...
to be continued.. I really need to get a cheap wifi.. so that I know Im at least writing to you and my muse/benefactor, Leigh Anne...

hoping we will get some of this published , if whatever funds that she has helped me find like a "TREASURE HUNT"but the old man is too lazy to get off his ass and start filling o…

When will Americans finally say "Fuck you" to the Saurons and Republicons who are systematically destroying the world as we currently know it..
they have their Saruman(wizard of the dark side) in the shape of the porker Karl Rove, sounding now like a veritable voice of reason for the party...
which is being led Right over the cliffs with the leaders of the tea flake party! He is seeing the party go down the toilet, because he knows most sane americans won't vote for the lunatics on the fringe!

I was chatting with my very good friend, Charles, over the possible future/fate of our country and how scary it could possibly become within the next few years!... what if Bush and the Neocon party were really behind the "implosions" of the twin towers, when the explosions went off inside the buildings as they fell as perfectly straight down as thelarge hotels that were imploded on purpose in Vegas!
They have been succesful in their strategy since Reagan and Bush senior …

I was reading last night at Border's about ADD and romance. It helps me understand myself and what I could have done differently in past relationships. There is a deep desire to be hyperfocused on somethings such as romance. The person with ADD constantly is seeking stimulation. When the stimulation is gone , the love sours often. At first in the impulsivity of the action you are putting all your efforts into the relationship so much so that often lovers of the ADDers are the happy receptacles of the best lovemaking and more attention than they have ever received.

It really helps when I read these books to get over my own disability and lack of focus in my life. There are many famous folks that have blossomed with their disability such as Edison, Churchill, Lincoln and Einstein. Both Churchill and Lincoln were documented to suffer from deep black depressions. I wonder how they would have been if they had tried the medication. Would they be able to tolerate or even not have these m…

i went downstairs to admire the almost full waning moon...
realizing my own mortality...
i think of a friend who had his wake up call at a much younger age
and then i get a glimmer of what my own mortality could be
when i walk across Hedges ave.
and suddenly see double with much better acuity...
it was bizarre
i closed either eye and didnt see double
but then I could walk just shutting one eye
to a chair
to see my beloved ocean one more time
and eat a halloween mini candy bar
the uneasy feeling wondering when the double image
fades away with each bite

hypoglycemia or
a mini stroke....

and I hug my son that evening
and play frisbee with my son more than i ever have
having discovered my son's new toy hidden among
the seaweed about a 100 meters out from shore...

the feelings run across my mind that night,
with frustration at my own body's fragile shell
and the necessary need to establish the bucket list....

I'm excited about the video "Sherman's March" coming in about this man's historical documentary "evolving into an improbable search for love". I need to see if I can show it to Muffy as she would she the similarity between this man and me. It is so amazing that I have been thinking about how this website could evolve into a movie also. There have been so many funny things happening in this story. I like to think of these types of coincidences as signs from above. I feel that the spirits that are wanting to guide me are telling me to do this. Muffy badly wants me to get a laptop so that I can easily download pictures and film from the camcorder that I'm investing in. I have not smoked anything yet today, so I am completely sober in this vision.

I woke up to another beautiful gorgeous day just begging for me to go outside and enjoy it. I can feel love and hope in the atmosphere on a crystal clear warm day in December. I feel that there is hope for huma…

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You could call this a personal creative fiction journal about a world traveler and his evolving life.
He saw the warmth of Americans vanish with the once large friendly middle class. Was there a Camelot, when we thought of ourselves as a good nation?
The powers that be have been holding our country hostage since Reagan took away the power of the unions and Neoconservatives took over the Republican Party!
Will we ever stop our declining ways?
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its good to be working again, even if its only subbing to get my mind off that my son was taken away by x and selfish xinlaws who want to enjoy his youth in their own dreary life

I get down but then Im invigorated with an autistic student that wins a Rhodes Scholarship and is going to Oxford!

Kelly Fleming remembers the low point of raising her son, Jory.
He was eight years old when he spent an entire morning, afternoon and evening wailing uncontrollably. She still doesn’t know what set off the boy, who has autism and a metabolic disorder.
But the tough times seem more bearable now, at the high point. Last month, Jory, who is 22 with a feeding tube inserted in his stomach and braces on his legs, was awarded a Rhodes Scholarship.
In between came Ms. Fleming’s decision to give up on her own dream of practicing medicine, home schooling Jory, learning to read, a bird named Federer and finally college and a dog named Daisy.
“All children have amazing minds,” Ms. Fleming says. “Their brains…

. September 8th happy that my family is together just trying to live one day at a time one moment at a time life is short I love my son so much I'm at a Crossroads in my life to decide to become a teacher I write my book it's a matter of putting several pages together and then figuring out which stories all the best and I need to get Help from My Friends even perhaps my neighbors but the judgmentalism of the human nature intimidates me more than anything I had another beautiful day with my son we went to some family therapy with a good counselor who has played a couple of family games the Dynamics would help us appreciate my ex coming back today for the sake of our beautiful son! I have to pinch myself and I'm blessed to be his father and I shouldn't be last I'm doing everything that I can with him I have to overcome that often disability of laziness....tomorrow... domani!n

the story of my life,,, sad i cant even borrow some fold up chairs for the evening :( s…

I was reading your blog and I'm sorry that you have had a very rough challenging life... Maybe one day you will read this and I want to say sorry. I hope one day you can forgive me... I would like to write more to you but I know that all my neighbors read this...

life is actually going better... I am so happy to be with my son and thinking one day at a time eventually he will be in Oz.. on our paradise on the beach!he

I go outside and visualize walking out to the sunny beach instead of our backyard with a view of the neighbors, wondering if they will leave curtains open..(oops forget).
just the thought of some people I know reading this and taking it the wrong way...
but I digress, enjoying a lansy weekend with my son.... loving the aspect of enjoying a weekend with no worries.., trying to enjoy the warmest weekend in January, thankful that this hopeful agnostic has prayed for help with his place in Oz... sometimes things seem to fall in place...e
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