Only To Feel Something

Growing up, i did'nt feel as though i could talk to any one about my feelings not even my own mum so i kept them locked away and pretended that everything was ok. slowly everything started coming up and cutting released all that pent up emotion. in a weird it also allowed me to feel alive because i felt so numb inside somtimes. although i stopped years ago and i've gotten help for my problems , somtimes when i'm stressed i get the urge to. i know alot of people think this behavior is wrong or people that do it are crazy but i can understand the feelings behind it.

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