She was admired and hated at the same time

Lot's of people see her happy, not a little even admire her, but not a little also women that hate her. Women hate her because they envy her.

She asked within her heart, "Are those who hated me, willing to swap their place with me? Going trough all the hardships alone, deciding things alone or crying here, alone? Ahh.. looks like they didn't know about all the wounds that I had.. all the pain that I had, they think I'm allright, but they don't know how many wounds and tears that I had and been through, how many life obstacles that I had and been through? Did they know that I actually had enough of this? If they want to switch position with me, I'll be gladly to switch with them."