Sunday, June 8, 2008

hee, i found this site on that other one where i got all of those other crazy things for blogs and stuff. it said that i clicked the mouse 168 times in 30 seconds. :P that's alot. and now, i'm gonna take some other crazy stuff and post it on here when i should be goin to bed since i gave an ortho appointment tomorrow at 9, meaning that i hafta wake up before 8. :P

so, yeah, in my last post, i told you that i might be in like with marvin. well, i talked with krista and haley on the phone sometime later on and i came to the conclusion that i DO like marvin. i kinda already knew that already but i didnt want to admit it to myself. yeah, i'm just weird like that.

but now, i dont know what's goin on anymore. lately, we havent been talkin that much. or actually, marvin's not replying to my messages that quickly. but yeah, the less that i talk to him, the less that i think about him. it's not that i still dont think about alot like i used to in the beginning. i mean, i still think about him at least 8 times a day; not to mention his birthday is on the 12 (if he gave his real birthday on myspace), the day after we go to cali and also the day that's vivian's (cuzin in cali) graduation. so yeah, i'm kind of constantly reminded of his birthday, meaning that i'm reminded of him.

but i think that i'm kind of like how shelle is. when she finally admits that she likes someone, pretty soon, she gets over him. but i dunno if it's true with me since marvin's my first real crush. not to mention, i STILL think about him, so i still could be liking him. but then again, he's my first crush and he'll always be, maybe i'll still have some feeling for him cuz of that. i guess that i'll find out if it's true or not when i start crushin on someone else. but that'll prolly take a while.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

so yeah, i guess i'll hafta explain from the beginning, dont i? well, a couple days ago (saturday, i think), the whole family had to go to nixon and johnson's graduating party cuz nixon just graduated from skool. we made friends with some people we'll probably never meet again, and there were a couple of white people there, too. it was funny watching them dare each other to eat wasabi.

it was the first party where there were people who were my age. you know, who were in my grade. but yeah, some people left that we were hangin out with, and then there were 2 other main ppl that we talked to for the rest of the night. that was marvin and kim, and nixon and this really tall white guy but they were mainly talkin to eachother.

but yar, all of us were outside hangin out on the porch. marvin sat on the rail and eventrually, i did, too. actually, eventrually, everyone was sittin on the rail. but yeah (i'm sayin that alot arent i?), i was sittin next to marvin and we were jokin around and he kept on tellin funny stories and stuff. and shelle said that we were unknowingly flirting with eachother.

but yeah, after that day, i kept on thinkin about him. it turned out that he was gonna be a freshie like me, altho he looks older. but he acts like a little kid when i make fun of him, so yeah... but he had a cell so him and shelle exchanged numbers.

the next day, we (the family) on a road trip to athens to visit our cousins christen, loan, and kyle. i finally got to play the wii!!! it was awesome! we totally need to get one. you actually DO exercise. :P but yeah, apparently, he texts shelle when he's bored. she said that half the time they were texting, he brought me up. he left some messages like this which really got to me cuz i had no idea if i liked him like that yet. they were something like this: "yeah, i miss talkin to your sis. it was fun" and "i'll talk to you tomorrow. GOOD NIGHT. AND TELL YOUR SIS I SAID GOOD NIGHT" after that text, she asked him, "quick question. do you like my sis" he said, "yeah." then she asked, "more than a friend or what?" he texted back, "i only met her for a day. if we hung out more, then i dunno."

GAH!! that boy is driving me crazy!!! i got to talk to him last night on the phone and then i was talkin to him for a while on myspace that same night/morning and he was flirting with me! i'll show it to you. hold on.

you said that you live in macon county, right? have you ever met a girl named haley hortman (i think that's her last name)? she moved to macon during 5th grade, is white, and could of moved again for all i know.

and then shelle just had to right something flirty back and he never answered. and i talked to him today, too. he acts really childish. but i like it? i dunno. *mass confusion in my brain* and he lives in macon county, near the place where daddy's new chicken houses are at.

and i asked betty about how you know if you like a guy or not cuz she has a new boyfriend and seems to really like him. she said that if you keep on thinking about them or talkin about them. I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM!!!

but me and shelle were talkin about it and she said that i might like him cuz he was the 1st boy that i really connected or got along with. but i dunno. i'm so CONFUSED! and then, i just checked this message that i sent to him a couple of hours ago saying "i'm bored." and then, he said "then you can call me for some company."

OH MY GOD!!! i dont know what to think anymore! doesnt that last message practically mean that he's interested in me? i dunno. but shelle's talkin to her friend teyona on the phone about me and my "lover" and she's wondering if this is gonna be a "summer fling?" since we dont live near each other and stuff. i dont know either, and i cant stop grinning when i think about him and our conversations!

god, i hate bein a teen. this was an unspoken rule that i told myself when i was in 5th or 6th grade; that i'd never fall for a boy until i'm in high skool cuz i didnt want to deal with all of the problems and drama it came with. but guess what? i just graduated from middle skool and am gonna be a freshie. i AM in high skool now! god, i hate it when i prove myself right like this!

enough of these talks about boys and confusion. i'm now gonna show you the fuzzles that lindsey drew of us for the first time.

well, the stupid picture uploader isnt actin gay so i cant put up any more of the fuzzles. >:( so yeah... later