The language of the times has changed drastically. Yesterday no longer serves this day. As a society that is separate in our belief, we now desire to unite. There is emotional pain, fear, anger, and dis-ease of our bodies, and mind. Our souls are offering clues that there is a better way to exist.

We all want peace!

We all crave to be whole!

We all need self-love!

The questions arise daily for many of us that we are unhappy, and being harmed by another’s, thoughts, words, and actions. At times, even our own thoughts that are negative do harm to us. The seeds of yesterday that were planted and fed by anyone who has ever caused any of us to fear, experience guilt, shame for not letting another control us, and grief at a loss of any kind need to be released.

Becoming aware is becoming awakened to the truth, passion, and purpose of our life existence. Somewhere along the path of believing in what our parents raised us to follow and all that society instills as a way to be, look and perform has created our truth to hide. As all of life is energy, money is the culprit in many relationships that manifest a form of suffering. We choose money over our passion and purpose in life.

We desire to be a chef, but the money is in working in our family business.

We want to be a teacher but there is no money for college, and we instead marry and raise a family.

We crave to experience life by playing music, but the money is in working with our hands.

We choose money over our innate gifts.

Life is a process of understanding that free will offers us the choice of how we want to live our lives. Everyone shows us who they are, by their decisions. This very day is the day to sit, close your eyes and reflect on where you are at this time in your life. What is it that you need to release that is no longer serving you. The following affirmations by Sohini Trehan are a way to look within and contemplate your beliefs about yourself daily.

“I am a divine being of light, and I am peaceful, protected and secure.”

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Bring your attention to your legs at the base of the spine down to your feet.
Personal development stems from being grounded in our lives. If you are disconnected from your body and the world it is due to trust issues, not feeling safe, nourished, or healthy, that stem from your family, tribe and home experience.

How do you feel at this moment?

Are there any aches or pain?

Stiffness?

Do you fall a lot?

What beliefs are yours when it comes to how you were brought up?

Who is part of your tribe on a daily basis?

Do you communicate with love to one another or fear?

Was there any negative birth experiences?

Did you ever feel abandoned or felt abused as a child?

Any childhood surgeries or severe illness or accidents?

Did you move many times when small?

Is permanent stress part of your existence now?

Aromatherapy, by using essential oils in a diffuser like cedar or clover is beneficial. Hug a tree, yoga, Pilates, walk barefoot outside, take a hike, dancing, gardening, sun on your body. Meditate. Journal about how you feel. Visualize your roots. Sit against a tree. Close, your eyes, breathe deep belly breaths and imagine your energetic roots sinking deep into the ground beneath you. Picture them connecting you to Mother Nature and know that the foundation is a solid one to build your life on.

I am radiant, beautiful and strong and enjoy a healthy and passionate life…”

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Move up to sacral, place your hands on your naval area.
What is the sensation you experience at this moment?

It is here where our emotion and pleasure exist, the divine inner child and wounded child. A person who has unhealthy boundaries when it comes to relationships, money, and sex, become a martyr. The major distinction is an addiction to food, drugs, alcohol, sex, pornography, shopping, and exercise that is excessive, and chocolate and on and on. A person who wants to control others is angry and filled with rage. They are very excessive, their belief is ‘life is about me!”

Are you creative in your life by enjoying what you do daily?

Are you whole in your sexuality or is guilt in your body from past actions?

Any tumors, or miscarriages?

Prone to negative attitudes daily?

Did you sell out for money, power or sex?

Are you chronically feeling lonely or abandoned?

Do you get angry when you give to others and they are unappreciative?

Are you sacrificing your dreams and goals for another’s approval?

Do you sense impotence within?

Do the opinions of others matter most to you?

Does change terrify you?

Are you revengeful and unable to let things go?

Is there a lack of ethics?

Are you an energy vampire?

Your body needs to move; dance, slow and sensuous or wildly abandoned. How do you feel when you dance? Indulge in a treat once a week that comforts you, take a bubble bath, use scented oils, treat yourself to lunch. Keep the sexual energy moving through fantasy, books, romantic movies or sexy clothing.

“I am positively empowered and successful in all my ventures.”

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Take your hands and place them on your solar plexus and imagine the power you possess as a divine being of light and love.

Do you feel powerful in your daily interactions with those you love, work with and when it comes to your parents?

Has anyone ever made you feel shame?

Are you angry?

Who do you blame?

Jealous?

Filled with resentment?

Only you – can do for you! Laughter is the best medicine to heal. Play! Get physically outside in sports, swimming, and connecting to the earth. Get outside every day in the sunshine. Walk by bodies of water, rivers, lakes and the ocean in the moonlight especially.

“Love is the answer to everything in life, and I give and receive love effortlessly and unconditionally.”

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Now you are at your heart the bridge to the rest of your body above.

Do you love yourself?

Do you feel loved?

Are you loving?

What does your heart ache for in your romantic relationship?

How has grief kept you stuck in a relationship because of fear, guilt, and shame?

What have you refused to do with passion and purpose in your life because of grief?

Is your heart shut down?

Have you felt betrayed, or rejected?

Who do you need to forgive?

Are you resentful?

What feelings don’t you want to feel?

Being loved and loving is why you are here! Get a pet to love with joy! Meditate, journal, then journal, meditate daily! Intend to be open to loving yourself. Do what you love! When balanced with a sense of love of self and love of others a profound sense of peace and fulfillment is evident.

“My thoughts are positive, and I always express myself truthfully and clearly.”

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The throat is our avenue to communicate in life with all. Now it is time to speak your truth! In the past, did someone lie to you and you were aware of it. In doing so, you have grown up to also lie as a defense mechanism because you are clueless as to why they lied. A pattern develops in all of us as we copy our parent’s behavior.

Are you honestly taking responsibility for your needs?

Do you say what you think or do you self-edit?

Do you hear and act on inner guidance?

Are living creatively?

Chronically hoarse?

Do you have repeated sore throats?

Frequent pain in this area?

Talk too loud, too much, stutter, or reluctant to speak?

Are you shy?

Purchase a beautiful journal that you will enjoy writing in daily all your thoughts, feelings and insights about you. Scream if you must! Singing lessons, chanting works as well. Pick a form of creative expression like a child; dance, voice, writing, drawing, painting, or whatever appeals to you. If you have relationships issues go to couples therapy to improve communication to connect. Surrender. Open to guidance to a higher power.

“I am tuned into the divine universal wisdom and always understand the true meaning of life situations.”

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Between our eyes is our brow or third eye, which also is called our intuition. That which we see that is unseen. We store our memories and dream experiences. The imagination of the past and future is evident here. We also can go beyond our five senses and the physical plane. Discernment in our daily life of what we want to see or not choose to see.

Any health conditions related to the eyes, nose brain or neurological system?

Do you remember your dreams?

Are you closed-minded?

Do you deny or ignore the facts or truth in a situation?

Are you shutting off your inner guidance?

Do you believe your inner guidance does not exist?

Do you believe in a way that it is not of your moral obligations?

Are you negative first and project that out onto others in most situations?

You will benefit by sitting in silence through meditation, being in Mother Nature or even the act of prayer or taking pen to paper? These are the tools to awaken the mind of intuition. Believe that you are intuitive! Practice visualizations. Set an intention and commit to listening within for direction. Honor the information with your actions. Create a feeling of inner harmony by surrounding yourself with beauty that you love. Experience life as a child filled with wonder. Explore life more. Set an intention at night to remember your dreams and write down what you do in the morning. What is the message?

“I am complete and one with the divine energy.”

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The crown of our head is our connection to the Divine in thought, consciousness, information, and intelligence. The whole process of knowing. Our search for fulfillment and enlightenment. Spirituality needs to be in the body and our daily lives not in our heads only.

Are you always in your head?

Do you have a holier-than-thou attitude?

Are you spacey?

At times are you dissociated from the real world?

Do you believe you are narrow-minded?

Do you have rigid beliefs?

Meditation, and prayer, as well as a sacred ritual, will strengthen you. Spiritual practices allow us to embrace the universal field of consciousness. Fear, anxiety, and anger tend to close off our connection to the Divine. Prayer, meditation offers a release from difficult emotions so that we live entirely in our unique life journeys.

We are all born gifted!

We need to discover this gift!

We can then live our gift with passion!

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At a convenient time, take a pen and paper, light a candle and answer the above questions one by one. In doing so, you will develop a path of truth for how you want to live your life today. Your inner wisdom will guide you towards all that needs to be released by simply paying attention to how you feel in your body.

There are many doors in life that we open as we travel our journey. It seems that we choose to be born into our specific family type to discover one key. Yes, there are confrontations and diseases, illness of all kinds and demons that we suffer. We enter life as a Spirit of Light, and we grow up not remembering who we are or where we originated.

We all get to travel many different paths throughout our lives. Different schools, jobs, and relationships all come and go. Our demons sometimes get the best of us as well. Challenges and chaos seem to be part of many daily lives. The saying goes that when one door closes another door opens in life. However, there is only one key that we need to discover to open the first door to change.

“You have to believe. Otherwise, it will never happen…” – Neil Gaiman

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It is a belief of many that this is it! We are here! We live! We die! The end! Some of us believe in reincarnation and that we will get the chance to be born again after we die because our souls are eternal. Karma is another example of what goes around comes around, or what you do to me, I will eventually do to you. There is a belief that we manifest in our lives lessons we need to learn lifetime after lifetime.

“A very little key will open a very heavy door…” -Charles Dickens

My understanding is that we are here to discover one key in life and that is the key to LOVE! If we wake up one morning and feel that life sucks, we are miserable, hate our job, do not understand our spouse and even dislike who we have become, well, change is needed. Fear is the culprit for staying where we are not happy. Fear of change. Fear of blame. Fear of not being loved. There are many fears and reasons, but as a Spirit of Light, you will know when it is time to make a change.

We are all Beings of Light, and we come to our earthly homes to discover that Love is the key that opens the door to our freedom. Many of us know that there is more to life, even a better way of living life but fear locks us in place. Look around at your life and imagine that you can live your heart and souls desires whatever they may be now. Can you believe this?

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The tool that one must discover for making a change in their life is:A shift of belief …

To awaken to know your Soul is the first door of many that love opens

That you as a human are a vehicle, for the Soul is pure light born as a baby to grow and experience free will

There are lessons chosen by Self of Soul that you decided to learn from

The Soul is eternal love and focuses on bringing Light into your life

You are a Being of Light with a mission of awakening, which is due to all that the Soul has experienced every lifetime

To change is to know that there is more to your existence in life

Your Challenges and Chaos have all been agreed on but forgotten

To Be a Being of Love, You Must Choose Love

Remember You are Love, but first, You are Light.

“Where there is love there is life…” -Mahatma Gandhi

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There was a time during this life experience that I filled with fear. Fear of EVERYTHING! I walked the path of my journey connected to the challenges, and chaos in life growing up. Yet, I survived and the significant change I made was to get to know me which led me to LOVE MYSELF, the one key! A Belief of Self then led me to open all the doors that I needed to live my Passion of Self and Purpose of Self.

Today, I trust that there is a process to live because I believe the Universe. I am aware that there are no mistakes and that anything is possible with Love! We as humanity residing at this time on Mother Gaia need to look within, connect to our Light and change our beliefs to manifest being responsible for our actions in our relationships to live our universal truths.

Our path is a journey of discovery for each of us. We all awaken at a time in our lives when we cannot take the pain any longer. There are many kinds of abuse, but mental abuse is the most difficult because the words spin around in our minds. An ego is a beautiful tool that can repeat words over and over again in our head. However, the words that scream within usually are negative and filled with anger from another.

“Life is a spell so exquisite that everything conspires to break it.” -Emily Dickinson

Fear stems from the root of our ego. We are blessed with this ego to guide us to awaken to the love of self and love of another. The battle within is that the fear believes it is better and knows what is right for another. Love is the opposite, for it is pure and breathes into all the essence of our truth. Once we embrace love as the belief of who we are no one can ever abuse us.

Each of our experiences is different, but if there is pain, tears, fear, and sorrow, then there is a form of abuse from another inflicted onto you. Why does another feel they have such a right to be mean, condescending, even angry at your actions and choices? Can it be they are mad at their choices in life today which have nothing to do with you!

“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.” -Henry David Thoreau

In the past, I searched for something more… I did not know at the time what I needed, but the universe stepped forward and showed me a different life that was possible. As an avid reader, I always believed I was in search of something, and that was why I read so much. My best friend has always been my journal. Writing helped me to survive through the years growing up and then as a wife and mother.

I never understood mean people or controlling people who wanted me to be other than who I was. What was wrong with me? My path would take me on this incredible journey of books and teachers that would lead me to an understanding of people and their fears.

“Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced.” -Soren Kierkegaard

If I have learned anything, it is that people show you who they are. We as a society try to change one another because it is how we have been raised to believe. Our daily world is changing all around us, and yet we refuse to stop and take inventory of how we are living our lives. Instead, we are concerned with how others are choosing to live.

Abuse of any kind from another is not acceptable ever! Our planet, our home, our mother is feeling the abuse as well. It is our anger towards each other, hate and fear that is spinning her to rebel as well. Love is the essence of our life. Love is the tool to change who we are and to heal ourselves and our world.

I set myself free of those who hurt me by forgiving them and in doing so, I set them free too with love in my heart. I learned the greatest of lessons is that we cannot change anybody else. We can only improve ourselves. I aimed to become a better me. Opening my heart filled with love and acceptance for all is the journey I travel today.

“Dwell on the beauty of life. Watch the stars, and see yourself running with them.” -Marcus Aurelius

Changing oneself opens the door to embrace that which is possible. The reality of this is that we can only change ourselves, it is impossible to change another. As we are one, genuinely connected by all that is others will change and as they do, will see us differently.

Even if others do not understand how we are different, they will know something is not the same. The most significant gift we can offer on those who abuse us is to accept them as they are because that is what we want them to do for us.

Words are the key to many angry outbursts that are not necessarily your truth but as how your abuser sees things. Thank them for their opinion and tell them you will think about their words. Fill your heart with love and move on.

“Be yourself. Everyone else is taken!” -Oscar Wilde

When we as women/men stay true to who we are and drop the defense patterns that no longer serve us, it is at that moment that our world will change for the better. It comes down to trusting God and that there is a process to live. Let go today and Let God do His work!

When we choose to be kind, loving and accepting of them, knowing they are living in fear and praying for them, allowing them to be as they need to be, we are offering them, love. We must first start with loving whow we are. It is not the truth of who others are that they show us. They show us their fear.

Some parents believe it is their right to control their children; that their children MUST listen to them even when they are adults. They fear that they are not needed anymore. But, mostly it is a belief that they as the parents, know what is best for their children. It matters not to them that their children are grown and with children of their own. There is never respect in a relationship that travels this path from the parent to the adult child.

“Life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

There was a time where I chose to accept all people as they are because I saw their fears. Look, and you will also see their fears in how they talk to you. It is almost as if they regress to being a child again and in doing so, act like a child today. A sort of temper tantrum. Listen to them, and you will not need to defend yourself. You never need to defend yourself once you are an adult, mother/father as a wife/husband to another if you are loving and kind to all.

Unfortunately, you will never be able to reach who is abusing you. All you can do is change who you are and how you perceive others. When we all choose to love and not fear we drop our patterns of defense because we know love is all there is. Be the being of love you were born as no matter what.

As the only daughter of my dad, I cherished him. Today, I miss him and his wisdom. I imagine he did not have an easy childhood and one I cannot ever imagine. Born in 1927, he lived until 1998 when he died of lung cancer. He was 70 years old. His struggles were many.

Abandonment, alcoholism, and mental illness. Dad grew up during a time that I was unaware of but heard of; that his mom at 16 gave birth to him and then left him on a stoop at the age of four. That is where his issue with abandonment took off. His father’s sisters raised him. He grew up with hand me down clothes and toys from his cousins! He never felt loved. His dad who worked on the docks of New York City was never there for him.

He told me of working nights at American Beverage Soda Company and how they wanted to give him a 25 cents raise once, but he felt he was not smart enough to be a manager. For 25 cents though, dad could get a can of soda and a sandwich he said. He liked beer at an early age was drunk lots of times but happy at those times, it seemed to me. I had no clue these episodes were what today is called ‘dysfunctional.’

“I thank you for being the reason I smile …”

As a child, I only knew what went on in my house and had no idea of what a normal, happy home life I did not have. Fear was part of daily existence when he was drinking, but the memories I choose to cherish are when he was not drinking. There is ugliness in life, but we can eliminate that which does not serve us today. We can pick what we want to remember. I felt loved by him, and that is the greatest of my memories.

He sang drunk at weddings, and my mom would drag me into the ladies bathroom and hide because she was embarrassed. Alcoholism would be passed down to him from his family. And so the story moves forward. Married young to my mom, they would raise my brother and me to the best of their ability.

I was blessed to have missed the gene of addiction. I feel all through life our connection was about his wisdom and how I decided somehow at a young age to love my dad unconditionally. I felt he was the way he was because of his childhood. Today I know we all have our stories and in sharing them, we may help another. I trust that the Universe waits for our reaction to the experiences during life and how we decide to live our lives. Choosing love or fear is always our free will in all situations.

The mental illness did not arrive until he was forty years old when he heard voices to murder his family. Instead, he slashed his left wrist and neck. Years later, he told me he could not see himself harming me. He would laugh and say if he had murdered all of us, he would have served 25 years in prison and then would have been free. I guess he never felt free in life and that troubled him. He survived his attempt at suicide but was deformed and never worked again.

I was heartbroken to the depths of my soul, my mom was terrified, and my brother started his addiction process. The journey began with him going in and out of mental institutions like Creedmore State Psychiatric Hospital, and different psychiatric wards. I was there for him with my husband for thirty years after my mom finally divorced him. He nicknamed me ‘mom’ and ‘author,’ and we would laugh about this. He always adored me and wished his mom was more like me. The reason he called me ‘author,’ was because he wanted me to tell his story. He was very interested in human behavior and all the people who were ill that he met throughout his life. He believed that there was a reason for everything that happens.

The lung cancer that killed him had started 58 years before he died. Through it all he loved life. He worshiped Mother Nature and her beauty. He was addicted to her ocean, pools, and parks. He never drove a car and walked everywhere or took mass transit. He was wise, fun and wanted to be loved. It was my job to love him, and I did with my entire heart and soul. This Father’s Day he is gone nineteen years, and I think of him often. Individual songs that he sang when he was drinking pop on in the strangest of places at restaurants, and we say, ‘hi!’ I smile in acknowledgment of his presence.

“Dear Past, thank you for all the life lessons you have taught me …”

“Dear Future, I am ready now …”

His life may have been traumatic, but it never allowed him to feel sorry for himself. He loved music; all kinds, playing cards, whistling, worshiping the sun, walking outside and listening to the radio. Movies and Elvis Presley and other stars of his era were his favorites. These are my memories of a man who I had chosen to be my dad, and I would like to thank him for being the best dad ever.

LOVE IS ALL THERE IS…

His love of me allowed me to feel cherished and special even though he was scorned by many as a mentally ill person in our society. There is sadness in how his battle in life was to encourage me to be the woman I am today and what a sacrifice he chose for me. I am his proud daughter because of him. I am who I am today because of him.

As a society, we need to accept everyone’s story and embrace one another with kindness and love. It is not difficult to be there for another who you have manifested as a being in your life for a reason. We are born to learn from one another as well as teach one another during our life experiences. Was it easy at times, no! But! He was my dad!

“If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is “Thank You,” it will be enough …”

Happy Father’s Day to the many fathers with their issues, addictions and unbalanced behaviors. Please know that, you are loved!

Here I was in 2003 affirming a new life for myself. Not that my life needed to be different but more like I needed to change my beliefs and step into a new beginning for me. When I heard the call of my soul I awakened to a world that was called by many new age. An interesting term when the truth is that this world that opened for me felt like it was part of my existence. I felt like I was home as I traveled the many avenues offered. In November of this year I experienced a Spiritual Day Spa which was amazing. It was at this spa that I met my mentor and studied with her for one year. She also was a Reiki Master Teacher and Certified Holistic Health Counselor. When the student is ready the teacher will come is how the saying goes. It seemed that I was ready.

Reiki is a 100 year old healing modality where the practitioner uses hand positions over the chakras. The chakras are both connected to the physical organs in our body and the different layers of the aura. Chakra is a Sanskrit word and means “wheel.” A chakra will spin in relation to the energy level of your system. These chakras exist within us all. In the same way that we have a physical body we also have a subtle body. There are seven chakras that start at (1) the base of our spine (2) going up the body to the sacral (3) then our solar plexus (4) to the heart (5), throat (6), brow or third eye (7) the crown. Every chakra has a corresponding organ in our physical system. I always refer to the chakras as the blueprint to our soul. As I discovered a new way of connecting to myself and by receiving Reiki, a shift from the depths of my soul guided me forward.

As I recall these years there were so many teachers that appeared for me in the form of books as I love to read. I actually have a library in my home. My dream ever since I could read and write was to be an author. My entire life I loved the action of taking a pen to paper and putting my thoughts and feelings into a journal. I explored poetry as a form of therapy when I was a young mother.

Here I was with my mentor who also taught me Reiki and led me to the Institute of Integrative Nutrition in NYC. The year was 2004 and in April, I discovered Caroline Myss and read her book Sacred Contracts. I have to take a second to inform you my reader that not only did I read many of these teachers books but I also traveled to their workshops. I laugh as I remember my fears as a Long Island mom traveling into New York City. However, the call of my soul drove me to take one step in front of the other and move forward at my pace.

Remember those little fingertips holding on for dear life when I looked into the mirror, well my inner child was starting to loosen up and let go. She was somehow happier as I traveled this path of my truth. I developed a need to walk at the beach, skip and sing with her. I fed her and she nourished my soul as we reconnected. There was no looking back but I will admit there was fear that I was going somewhere I knew nothing about haunted me. I was a wife and mother and that I knew how to do very well so I allowed that change is growth and I was doing something to create a better me, a wiser me and developing a spirituality that I had forgotten was mine.

Caroline Myss explains in her book Sacred Contracts how you can identify your particular spiritual energies, or archetypes – the gatekeepers of your higher purpose – and use them to help you find out what you are here on earth to learn and whom you are meant to meet. Exploring your Sacred Contract will shine a light on the purpose and meaning of your life. You are meant to do certain tasks, you are meant to have certain relationships.

By the time I was reading this book I had become a Reiki Master myself. Not only does Caroline Myss write of our contracts but she also writes the following about our chakras.

The system of energy centers known as the chakras defines and supports our spiritual life much the way the spinal column – along which they are traditionally located – supports our physical body. Like the stages of a Contract, they too follow a progression that reflects our spiritual development from childhood through maturity. But in a literal sense, the chakras are also connected to the everyday function of our bodies and minds. They regulate everything from our survival instinct, sex drive, and self-esteem to our emotions, intellect, will and spiritual aspirations. A knowledge of how they function and how they help you to function is essential to a complete understanding of your Sacred Contract.

It is the reaction to our life situations I have learned that are capable of filling each and everyone of us with fear or love. My journey to live my truth has been an experience for me to look into all that is possible in life. As I pray I know I am creating a connection to a force that is beyond my wildest imagination to a power within. Releasing my thoughts in a journal is a form of therapy that clears my mind and soul. Meditation takes me into the vast depth within that waits to calm, center and enlighten me.

As I share my story and the journey next and how I became a true believer in the unknown I hope my light shines on you.

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The Fears of Life Eventually Lead us to our Path, Passion and Purpose….

I believe with my entire self that anything is possible. I believe in love and kindness for all. I believe I have loved deeply and will always love deeply. It is the part of me that best describes who IAM! There was a time though that I feared life. Why? In retrospect I was lost and scared. I needed to believe first in who I AM. I created a pattern of letting my own self, my truth disappear and be taken from me. Strange words to write I imagine for others to read and yet it is the essence of life one needs to learn to see the beauty of which one can be in life. I have learned that we are all beautiful in our own way. We just glow brighter when we realize our own beauty comes from within. To let another rob us of who we are is a lesson to accomplish in returning to oneself, to simply remember our truth. This pattern we create to survive is our shield, mask or simply not who we believe we are allowed to be because of fear that has been gifted to us by our parents, spouses or society.

The path of life is to love the life you have chosen. To develop a trust that there is a process to all of life and that everything happens for a reason. Those who dare to believe otherwise refuse to learn about themselves. Clearly, I see the pain in life that we ourselves need to create due to the basic belief we choose when we choose fear. Once love replaces fear the pain will be no more. We all at one time need to grow our thoughts, words and actions with a belief that is positive by planting one seed at a time. A wholeness will then develop to set one apart. As we realize there is a part of us that is our spiritual self, we will then discover that these inner parts are deep and profound, as well as, perfect.

We create barriers in our own lives! Who or what is this barrier? It has to be an emotional state one gets into which is not contributing to who one really is. As the carrier of our own emotions we need to release the ideas, thoughts and feelings of yesterdays relationship with life that have become habits today. In doing so, a new beginning will unfold.

There is a definite oneness to life – a unity that connects us all yet we are individual with our own creativity to allow one to progress in life to complete self-harmony. We will then become balanced and have responsibilities through the service of this creativity to fulfill a life daily with this inner wisdom which is our self-harmony. Individually each one of us needs to attain this for ourselves. The barrier created of emotional attachment will be released then forever. The beauty of life is when we choose not to allow despair into our being and to stop the growth of it to become a strength that is unacceptable. We must grow beyond what we ourselves can imagine.

There comes a time when we desire to travel alone in life without the strength of another. Why? We need to find the strength we possess within! When one flies to the highest change one can experience the discovery of who they can be will be waiting to complete them. This release of emotional attachment to our past is the grandest of complete growth and our independence. We all have the right to travel this journey of knowledge that we crave about who we are and who we can be.

There will then be a positive sight to cling to and the path will be cleared of the debris of fear that had been gifted from one to another. The body, mind and soul creates and craves to release the negativity of life that surrounds everyone. This is the needed escape to cleanse the thoughts of yesterday once and for all. The routine of the vicious cycle of life one is accustomed to will then end quite quickly. We cannot stop the fears of yesterday by the thoughts of trying to reason or ask why. That is not up to us IAM told. Embrace the lessons learned and leave the rest.

It is a bit difficult to be able to stand up and believe in oneself. Yet, it is needed and the only way is to follow the inner ache of the heart for more. The truth of who anyone can be is this accomplishment. We are never taught to love ourselves first but to do for others especially as women. It is expected that women must sacrifice their lives for those they love. Men also have the burden of being strong, successful, responsible and insightful to the needs of the women they love. Whether we are woman or man fear is of the ego. Love erases the fears of yesterday and connects one to God. Anyone can get a chance to live a life that can fulfill their desired dreams at any age. A miracle of insight and knowledge, of all one can desire, dream and imagine starts by the simple act of loving oneself.

One may wonder how one begins to love oneself and reach as deep within as they can to find their path, passion, and purpose – their power. It is not easy to relive the past looking for answers to all the questions that start with why! Know that there is a road to travel that is waiting for you. Leave the past where it belongs in the past and become aware of your present thoughts, words and actions. The steps can be many; from diet, to exercise, affirmations, Reiki, acupuncture, massage, meditation, prayer, energy healing and the inner work of taking pen to paper is the greatest therapy I have ever experienced to release all that no longer serves me today. My greatest moments in life have been when I connected to Mother Nature’s beauty; a walk at the beach, a walk around the block, sitting under the moon, swimming in water, even hugging a tree to ground myself to her and fill myself up with her strength. We are one as we all spend time with her daily in any form that we travel. Mother Earth connects us and supports us in all that we choose to be.

As I sit at the table on my deck in the backyard on this beautiful sunny morning I feel connected to a Divine Intelligence. Birds are singing in the tress and the water is flowing by ever so silently. There seems to be a stillness in the air that is comforting. I understand that I need to be part of life to live life. In reality I am more comfortable being alone because I enjoy the company of the universe. I am neither bored nor feel as if I am missing something. It is this beauty and wonder I feel for life that surrounds me and fulfills me. It simply is the need for nothing. I have everything I can think of. This simplicity and beauty of life fills me with joy. I am abundantly fulfilled.

I feel protected and satisfied on this path I am following as I am aligning my life’s goals and purpose. There is a time for all things in one’s life if one is patient, honest, truthful and noble. The part I am learning today is that I must join the human race. This is not easy for me because I have comforted myself in the silence of a lifetime by being a spiritual loving and giving woman. I believe that I have grown beyond a need or reason to teach my children any more. They have learned all they can from me. Now they make choices as adults in their life that they are offered by the universe. Sometimes they just need that connection to me as a means of verification.

I am a child myself learning about all that I can be. I need at this time to play and fill with joy at all that is waiting for me to embrace; to see life through the eyes of children again. My dreams are joyfully filled with wonder by my grand babies as well as the flow of water that I am witness to every day. I am offered an emotional energy that fills me with intuition by the waters of my dreams and daily existence. Water nourishes my soul as it offers me a spiritual alignment with the powers of the universe. I find this to be a connection to the depths of my soul. I am overwhelmed with the emotions of my life at times because they are not what I had expected from myself. It is the ability of feeling connected with all and not separate from but whole that is harmonious.

My strength has always been my children. My greatness is them. I miss the joy and love I surrounded our days with as a mom in the past. Yes, there are telephone calls and questions daily but the time to move on past the walls of just being a mom is now. This change of being a creative, productive woman is upon me in its fullest capacity. I believe I have completed being the woman I was yesterday only because of the strength my children possess today to fulfill their own paths. I have nurtured and nourished them with unconditional love and I am aware that I have to let them fly out into the world and do their own work now.

I notice that my soul/personality is screaming extremely loudly to be heard. My soul is satisfied by my choices and is brightly lit. It is my personality my heart that is bruised and wounded but the comfort of my soul is stronger than the discomfort my personality is going through. The wonder of my whole existence is now the knowledge within which is the truth of how I am and all that I am capable of. If my emotions are bruised it is because as a human being it is part of the journey of life to feel and experience that which we need to learn from. It is fine for me to acknowledge the pain within caused by a life I chose to exist in. For now I believe I need to cleanse myself of that which I no longer need in my life. I will then be nourished by the spirit of my soul.

All in all I am accepting of the changes I have made and realize how the strength and belief in oneself brings one power to be. At times I move slowly and seem to revert back of my own free will to old thoughts. There are endings and beginnings in life and a new beginning can only start with an end of the old, a sort of completion is required as I accept what is today.

I myself look for reasons and excuses when I know the truth yet cannot acknowledge it is so. I am in a state of suspension, a limbo as I wait for my true purification of yesterday. As a balanced, enlightened soul I am dwelling on the change of my lifetime and emotionally I worry of its effect on those I love.

I am not a different me. I am a true me. My choices are for me and the universe. To be joined in unity with love. I see we are all one, all connected. The pain caused to one hurts all. To believe otherwise or that there is separateness is to deceive oneself. There can only be love in life to belong to each other. With no love, no kindness, and no joy one’s light deems.

I believe that the greatest lesson is that change is healthy and required to find one’s way. To love with pain and knowledge of despair is true love. The pain is the emotional aspect of rejection because the blood of love pumps through our veins. My soul requires no answers or reasons why, for a new life is possible once the old one no longer works.

The spirit of our soul cries for us and gives us opportunities we push aside. It is the way of our lives to doubt ourselves and believe we are not good enough or not capable of fulfillment. We refuse to accept our own voices in the night. The stillness and silence one needs to achieve can and will open many doors to show us the way. They say dreams come true but only if we realize it is our dream and one we can make true by being honest and truthful to our passion. Not for the monetary accomplishment but for the freedom and happiness in doing what is important to us as well as being able to help others. I believe this is the truth we all need to search for. It is the whole essence of whom each and everyone can be. To realize we can free ourselves by that which we acknowledge as the path of our own fulfilled destiny. Never to forget there are reasons for everything daily and there are many teachers we can learn from.

When we choose to pay attention and meditate we will fill with awareness which gives us insight to see the clarity of our own existence. To close our eyes to see is the greatest step in life. A true lesson in all that one can be is to be accepting of the connection to a greater existence. That which is part of the universe of life will allow one to be grateful, appreciate the beauty shown and to be then encouraged by that which belongs to us. To see and grasp this while we fill with love, understanding and compassion to create enlightens our souls. Not to waste time and dream but to dream and create is an accomplishment. To know we belong to a universe that smiles down on us as we are watched and guided on our way.

Our soul craves to express its wholeness, to feel free by the act of being productive, curious to learn as much as we can and to be nourished by that which is our inner wisdom. Find your place to be in silence, to gather up your resources and surrender to the powers that be. In doing so, you will become like a child filled with joy once you accept the wisdom that rests within.

Every soul desires and craves solitude to fly on its own.

Every destiny is being fulfilled daily as we live in spirirtual oneness with the universe.

Everyone needs to realize their power and give thanks for it.

All need to release their emotional self so that a cleaning can take place.

All will discover that their emotional energy and intuition are part of their life’s path.

The changes will become vast once the soul becomes whole. It is the sense of being united with all that will fill one up. One will become sure footed in their direction and path in life. They will be given an intense feeling of enormous change in life when they are ready. Change comes to all when change is requried. To fulfill the burning desire in the heart one needs to trust and believe that all things are possible. All will be comforted to know that as their dream unfolds into reality they will fill with abundance and gravitate towards the light of love.

It is the work that needs to be done to learn and create a spiritual life that will lead one to complete their journey.

It is the trust and belief in the universe that allows one the strength to be aware of the depth of the sea and its vastness for comfort. Being drawn to water connects one with being drawn to the flow of life; its beauty, strength and calmness. We all need to connect to the elements for sustenance at one time on this journey; the earth, water, fire and air. At that time one can ask anything of the universe and be granted what their heart desires because we are one. This is to be accepted and acknowledged as part of the miracle of life.

Let your dreams be a window that opens in the night to guide and comfort you.

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I looked around and was witness to the beauty of four generations; the oldest just turning 90 years old a few days ago, while the youngest will be 8 months this week! My heart filled with love for them all, as we shared another meal as family in celebration of Easter Sunday. I remembered those that had sat with us in the past and my soul whispered a sigh of memory for that which had come and gone for now.

There was an abundance of food and laughter as we shared many hours together. I was amazed that the four little ones, the new generation were clueless to the meaning of the day, only due to the fact that they were all under four years of age but were filled with joy that we had gathered together.

How marvelous the day was as I was witness to an energy that can only be called, “Love!” We were enjoying being a family as we shared the day sitting around the table. I believe I am in awe of God and His power to show me that the little things to treasure in life are the moments we come together as a family, laughing, eating, hugging and kissing. It was a day to embrace the beauty of abundance that filled our hearts, not the food that filled our bellies.

I felt grateful to be alive! I was thankful for those I share my life with! I felt a serge of love for everyone! I am blessed for the experience of awareness.

I shall store these new memories in my mind with all the rest as I travel this path, called life. No matter how I look at it, I fill with love for all the experiences through the years, the tender moments that begin with a new life as we travel this journey together until it changes and one moves on. The greatest gift I have been given is to know I need to stop and smell the roses along the path of life …

In January I spent my time reflecting, renewing, and remembering due to the fact that I had to “Pause” the life I had been living. In doing so, I began to dig deep within to discover what I am not getting that pertains to the rest of my journey. Yesterday or as many of us refer to our life as the past I was a strong daughter, wife and mother. I was determined, focused and wild as to the way I wanted to be, even though at times there was a silent women crying to get out and be seen and heard. My awareness stemmed from my Spirit, I imagine today because I always followed my intuition with prayer and unconditional love.

Suddenly, God stepped in and there was a fork in the road; with tears and many fears I chose to become a better me; to educate myself about the life I could change! The main word I heard all of the time was to “share” with others my journey. As I remember that time in my life at fifty years old I simply went with the flow because there was a passion calling to me from the depths of my being. I felt like a “wild woman,” searching for herself. I had been missing from my own life for a very long time.

Through the written word I released the confusion, doubt and panic, as I filled journal after journal. I was totally clueless as to where I was going or why but the “wild woman” inside seemed to know. All these years later I believe another tremendous shift is upon me because I cannot continue as I have been. It seems I am missing again! I WANT MORE.

What one believes from their own inner dreams is key to this process we call life which I have experienced. Creativity MUST be daily manifested in some form. Without any ritual in life we simply get side tracked. Meditating, keeping a daily journal, praying and acknowledging the beauty of Mother Nature allows one to manifest the desires of the soul.

Here I am wanting to step up to a new “Me,” if that is possible. I am tired of yesterday’s beliefs. I am exhausted by the demands. I am disgusted with the doubts and fears. My freedom is in healing and blessing all.

It is a time for me to respect and honor my past for it has led me to awaken and seek my inner wisdom. Being passionate about learning and sharing with others is key to my reason for being. I am not clueless, I am knowing all that I need to know by the gifts that I have been bestowed with. Life is a true blessing for me because I have no regrets.

I am ready to let the “wild woman” run with me forward once again with open arms.

I received a word this past week that allowed me to look at my life differently! It was just a whisper, gently heard from within but the word “PAUSE” stopped me dead in my tracks. I had to agree as I smiled, “yes, my life is on pause…” Simple and clear it was time for me to reflect, renew, and remember. I had always just moved forward in life asking no questions just going with the flow. I remembered that I never wanted for anything yet I received everything I could ever want or imagine.

As I write this Sunday, I sit in the window seat of our cabin in Upstate, NY watching the snow fall ever so gently on the mountains and treetops that surround me. It is silent in the cabin I have named, “The Palace,” as I breathe in all that I am witness to. I believe I have a connection here, on this land to Mother Earth which started as a child. As I reflect on yesterday I see that little girl I was, learning about the beauty of Mother Earth from her dad, who was an avid walker. I remember we walked everywhere our feet could take us because my dad did not own a car, otherwise we took buses and trains.

We walked through the streets of our neighborhood, the streets of Manhattan – even the Bowery and it was at a young age I learned of the homeless and forgotten men and women of our world. I was amazed and a little afraid at the men and women who approached us, but my dad told me to hold his hand. I would be okay, these people might have been doctors, lawyers, nurses and they just lost their way but they would not harm us.

The greatest of these memories is the times we went to Coney Island and a neighborhood park in Greenpoint, New York which I believed was called McCarron Park. It was there that my brother and I had our own trees that we had chosen and which we climbed and hugged when we visited. I would try and run so fast once we entered the park to try and beat my brother to our trees.

I no longer walk as much as I have in the past, I no longer climb trees, but I do still hug them! This land that we own 155 acres renews me and I believe my appreciation, my love and joy in Mother Earth stems from my dad.

This past week I journeyed to the life I have lived to reflect on who I am today. I learned that I need to renew myself, to pause and just remember how great my life is and has been. This I believe in my heart but I know it stems from deep within my soul.

I also remembered this week that as a little girl, a teen, a young woman, wife and then mother I did want to be a writer for I have always been an avid reader. I wanted to tell stories that in some way would and could put a smile on another’s face, maybe let them reflect, renew and remember.