Arpad Miklos died! I am totally shocked while I read the news, and I don’t believe it’s true until I searched several net sources which reported this sad news. What happened to him? Why he chose to take his own life in such a depressive way? Why life is so fragile? I don’t understand.

I feel so upset. Arpad is one my favorite gay porn stars all the time. Arpad had shot tons of spectacular gay porn movies. I have almost all his gay porn videos. His chiseled smile, gorgegous body and thick long boner will be missed forever.

“Arpad Miklos & Rod Daily” at Cocksuremen and “Arpad Miklos Massaged” at Jakecruise are two hot scenes I’ve watched over and over again. Arpad shot three hot scenes at Men.com just a few months ago. I still wish Arpad will bottom up someday on camera. But now it’s never gonna happen. 🙁

Here is news quoted from avn.com:

NEW YORK – Gay performer Arpad Miklos reportedly took his own life Sunday in his New York apartment, several sources are reporting. According to the Gay South Florida website, the 45-year-old actor was found Monday evening. Writer and friend Randal Lynch broke the news on Howard Bragman’sYouTube show Gwissues.

The Hungarian-born actor was discovered by Kristen Bjorn and moved to America shortly after his start in porn. Prior to that, he had worked as a chemical engineer. Miklos worked with John Rutherford, Jerry Douglas, Kristen Bjorn and Chi Chi LaRue, as well as European films. He primarily worked as a top and also did straight work for the Straight Guys for Gay Eyes website.

His more recent work saw him featured in the music video for the song “Hood” alongside artist Perfume Genius.

In June 2010 Arpad was chosen to be on the BUTT Magazine beach towels sold at American Apparel, for every towel sold a portion would be donated to the Ali Forney Center, an NYC organization providing housing and services to LGBTQ youth.

“He was a great guy, on top of that, there was a lot more to him than just that surface persona. He was a very active person in the gay community, he gave a lot of money to charities, and was overall a really good guy,” his friend Lynch has told reporters. “He was probably one of the biggest porn stars out there.”

Lynch also publicly stated that often drugs or depression are associated with suicide, but in Miklos’ case his reasons were his own.

“Haters can hate, people can speculate, but he’s not going to give a specific reason and give that satisfaction to anyone,” he said.

Through the years, Miklos won several awards for his work, inluding a 2005 GayVN Award for Best Solo Performance in BuckleRoos Part I. His most recent movie was 2010’s Crotch Rocket.