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Words With Arrows

The pain resonates through my body.
I look at myself.
My sorry, pitiful self.
I bled,
But it was not blood.
I tried holding it in,
But it would not cease.
It welled up inside,
Pressing on me,
Until I finally had to let it out.
My armor was cracked.
I looked up at you with pitiful, fearful eyes.
You stood there,
Unmoving.
You will never know how much you hurt me.

Shut me away.
Leave me in darkness.
Alone I can sit,
Protected from the spears projected by your tongue,
Protected from the prying eyes that wish to see me cry.
Alone I can sit,
And pretend none of you exist.

As the blood trickles down my face,
I realize I can’t take it back.
Eyes wide with fear,
I look at my hand.
It did the deed.
I slowly sink against the wall,
Sticking to it with red oozing tape.
It wasn’t like what I thought it’d be.
It wasn’t relieving,
It wasn’t painless.
It was scary,
Agonizing,
And regrettable.
But what can I do now?

Each smile you give me,
Means more to me than you’ll ever know.
Each hug you give me,
Means more to me than you’ll ever know.
Each conversation we have,
Means more to me than you’ll ever know.
Everything you do,
Says “I love you”,
And it means more to me than you’ll ever know.
I want you,
I need you,
Because you mean more to me than you’ll ever know.