Adele Speaks About Her Postnatal Depression: “I Felt Like I’d Made The Worst Decision Of My Life”

Adele has spoken about her battle with postnatal depression following the birth of her first son, Angelo. Speaking to Vanity Fair, Adele said: “I had really bad postpartum depression after I had my son, and it frightened me.”

“I didn’t talk to anyone about it," the 'Rolling in the Deep' singer said to interviewer Lisa Robinson. "I was very reluctant . . . . My boyfriend said I should talk to other women who were pregnant, and I said, ‘F**k that, I ain’t hanging around with a f**kin’ bunch of mothers.’”

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“Then, without realizing it, I was gravitating towards pregnant women and other women with children, because I found they’re a bit more patient. You’ll be talking to someone, but you’re not really listening, because you’re so f**kin’ tired.”

The 'Hello' singer continued: “I think it’s the bravest thing not to have a child; all my friends and I felt pressurized into having kids, because that’s what adults do. I love my son more than anything, but on a daily basis, if I have a minute or two, I wish I could do whatever the f**k I wanted, whenever I want. Every single day I feel like that.”

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Adele detailed how tough her battle with postnatal depression was becoming: “One day I said to a friend, ‘I f**kin’ hate this,’ and she just burst into tears and said, ‘I f**kin’ hate this, too.’ And it was done. It lifted."

"My knowledge of postpartum—or post-natal, as we call it in England—is that you don’t want to be with your child; you’re worried you might hurt your child; you’re worried you weren’t doing a good job. But I was obsessed with my child.”

“I felt very inadequate; I felt like I’d made the worst decision of my life . . . . It can come in many different forms," said the 10-time Grammy Award winner (Adele has actually won a massive 121 awards in total).

"Eventually I just said, I’m going to give myself an afternoon a week, just to do whatever the f**k I want without my baby. A friend of mine said, ‘Really? Don’t you feel bad?’ I said, I do, but not as bad as I’d feel if I didn’t do it.”

Later in the interview, Adele spoke about how her huge world tour is impacting on her relationship with her son:

“I’m enjoying touring, but at times I feel guilty because I’m doing this massive tour, and even though my son is with me all the time, on certain nights I can’t put him to bed," Adele said. "I never feel guilty when I’m not working. You’re constantly trying to make up for stuff when you’re a mom."

“I don’t mind, because of the love I feel for him… I don’t care if I don’t ever get to do anything for myself again.”

28 Incredible Records Adele Has Smashed

With 24 non-consecutive weeks at No.1 in the US, Adele broke the record for the longest No.1 album by a woman in Billboard history beating Whitney Houston's 'The Bodyguard' soundtrack.

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In 2012 Adele became the first solo female artist to have 3 singles in the Top 10 of the Billboard Hot 100 at the same time

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Adele was the first female to have 2 singles and 2 albums in the UK Top 5 simultaneously.

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She was also the first female artist to have 2 albums in the Top 5 of the Billboard 200 and 2 singles in the Top 5 of the Billboard Hot 100 simultaneously.

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'21' is the biggest selling album of the 21 century.

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'25' is the biggest selling UK No.1 album of all time - 800,307 copies sold in one week

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'25' had the most album downloads in a week with 252,000 copies sold. The previous holder was Ed Sheeran's 'X' at 96,000

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In it's first week of release in 2015, 'Hello' broke the UK streaming record with 7.32 million streams, beating Justin Bieber's record by almost DOUBLE with 3.87 million. It's since only just been broken by Drake's 'One Dance' (7.32 million)

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In the US, 'Hello' became the first track to be downloaded more than one million times in one week - nearly twice as many as the previous record holder Flo Rida's 'Right Round'.

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In the US, '25' broke the first week album sales records in just three days with a staggering 2.43 million copies sold! The previous title holders were NSYNC who sold 2.41 million copies of 'No Strings Attached' back in 2000.

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'25' then became the first album to sell more than 3 million copies in ONE week (total 3.38m)

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According to Billboard '25' is officially the first album to ever sell 1 million copies two weeks in a row.

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'25' became the UK's fastest million selling album ever, tipping 1m after just 10 days on sale (Oasis' 'Be Here Now' took 17 days to hit 1m in 1997)

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'Hello' became overtook PSY's Gangnam Style to claim the fastest time for a video to receive 1 BILLION views on YouTube just 88 days after it was uploaded.

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Adele beat Taylor Swift's record of 20.1m views in one day on Vevo for 'Bad Blood' with 27.7m of 'Hello'

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'Hello' hit 100 million views on VEVO in five days beating Miley Cyrus' previous 'Wrecking Ball' record of six days. (NB. PSY's Gentlemen is the fastest to hit 100 million on YouTube)

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She achieved the most views for an act on VEVO in 24 hours with combined videos clocking up 36 million views. (Since beaten by David Bowie)

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'21' was the first album in UK chart history to reach sales of 3 million in a calendar year.

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'21' also set a new record for most consecutive weeks for a UK No.1 album for a solo female with 11 weeks at the top.

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'Hello' was streamed 47.5 million times globally on Spotify in one week.

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'Skyfall' is the first Bond theme to win an Oscar.

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...and a Golden Globe (Best Original Song)…

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…and a BRIT Award! (British Single Of The Year)

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Way back when, Adele was the first ever recipient of the BRITs Critics Choice Awards.

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'21' was the first album released this decade to be certified Diamond (10 million copies in the States alone)

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'Hello' was Shazamed 200,000 in it's first 24 hours of release - the most ever.

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'25' was the fastest selling album on iTunes in history selling 900,000 copies in it's first day of release in the States, beating Beyonce's previous record of 617,000 worldwide.

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Adele holds the record for being the most awesome woman EVER - OK we made that last one up...but it's true.

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