my emotions are constantly up and down.
i just want the chance to make sense of it all.
maybe then i can take a step back and really figure my life out.
"You can never be old and wise,
if you were never young and crazy."

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

on edge.

so a friend of mine is back.well not like she was gone for a long time.we had a falling out about a month ago,but i ran into her last night and it was just like old times...which kind of scares me.we just lead two very different lifestyles.with her its just so easy to get caught up and forget about my morals and priorities.at first the lifestyle was so glamorous.shes a playmate so money's never an issue.we can always get in anywhere we want.VIP, the whole nine yards.but the lifestyle that comes along with it is completely insane.the partying, the drugs,the sex,the every nights a party thing.after awhile it can be so draining.you dont know who you can trust.who's real, who's fake.its just a lifestyle im not used to.and i dont know if i want to get used to it.i mean its fun now, but theres no long term in it.i dont still wanna be doing that five years from now.i want to be done with school and starting a career.i dont know.i just need to set boundaries and stick to my guns this time around.i mean ill still hang out but no more binge weeks of partying hard.im over it.

"God determines who walks into your life.. it's upto you to decide who you're letting to walk away, whoyou're letting to stay, & who you refuse to let go."

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I´ve done a lot of that in my past, lots of booze n drugs n other things, but it soon just became booze n drugs an 10yrs ago i crashed n burned n had to quit the lot an rebuild myself and my life. Some people can do it n survive but others it takes their toll. If you are listening to yourself deep deep down you will know the best way to go. Keep on truckin.