40+ of bullying

I am in the process of writing a book on my experience with bullying. I was diagnosed as bi-polar in 2005. Grew up with being bullied in school, but I kept it inside for 40 years because I also grew up with a schizophrenic mother, so I did not trust anyone to help me deal me with what has been going on inside of me for all these years. To boot, my first wife and I had a roller coaster ride as a couple. We bullied each other quite a bit, so I internalized it more.

Only since I got married 5 years ago to a very supportive wife can I speak out about my life. There is much rage still inside of me, but I am tired of having that tempest living in me. Recently I have engaged a tremendous therapist who has helped me make progress. It's not easy and very torturous to relive the repressed anger I've had all these years, but for me to live the rest of my life with a quality of positive, I must work it out and speak out.

I will be 50 years young next July. My two sons live with me. My daughter no longer speaks to me because of the person I was during and after my marriage to her mother. I am looking to change myself and to help change how the world sees bullying and, mostly, how it affects people---including those who weren't bullied but live with those people who are the recipients of daily emotional and social torture.

We have forged treaties with other countries to not commit this kind of behavior to prisoners of war. Why do we do it to our peers and relatives?

My heart goes out to all families who are affected by bullying to this day. I am a survivor who is here to give a mouthpiece to those who survive and deal with the effects of bullying. END IT NOW!!

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