Monday, May 14, 2012

May 14th, 2012

Well my Mother's Day call was awesome!
I am really glad I called at night because my mind was racing as I went to bed,
but luckily I woke up with the missionary focus back with me. But I really loved
the phone call. I have always loved all my family and friends, but as I hung up
the phone, I realized how much more I love you guys than before my mission. I
didn't want to hang up the phone at all! But I do love all of you so much and am
grateful for all that you do for me!

Well on Sunday the talks were of course on Mothers. I learned A LOT from
the talks. One of them is that the speaker said that some mother's do not like
mother's day because the feel inadequate or like they have made a lot of
mistakes. I could really easily relate to that because I often feel inadequate
as a missionary, every single day actually. But I just want my mother to know
and my grandmother's and all the mother's out there that they are so special in
God's plan. They have such a hard job and they do an amazing job! I hope that no
mother feels inadequate, but that is just Satan. He knows our potential and he
knows what we are capable of doing and becoming. He often tells us that we
aren't any good and brings our mistakes to us to make us feel bad. One thing
brought me peace this week that helped me realize on how we don't have to be
perfect. I am pretty sure that I talked about it last week too, but it was
GRACE. Grace is the best! It is the enabling power of our lives, it is the
strength that we receive from the Lord, it makes up for all of our
imperfections. We weren't perfect, we aren't perfect, and we can't be perfect in
this life. But luckily Jesus Christ makes up for everything that we can't do.
And He loves to do it. He knows we are going to fall short, but time after time
his arm is always extended to us. I know that I can't be perfect, mother's can't
be perfect (right now), but it is always reassuring that everything can be made
better and perfect through the Atonement of Christ. The Lord will make up for
what we can't do. We just have to have faith, try our hardest, repent, and
repeat and all will be taken care of. I like the story of Peter falling in the
water. It was his fault, he wanted to walk on water and he lost faith and he
sank, but he did something that all of us can learn from, he called on Jesus to
save him and help him. And then we read that Jesus IMMEDIATELY extended His arm
and saved him. Peter could have just thought to himself, well I got myself into
this, so I should get myself out of it, but he didn't. (I stole this from and
April Ensign talk... haha) The Lord makes up for what we can't do, we just have
to call on Him.

I love my mother and my grandmothers and my aunts. They have all helped me
out in my life and have done a wonderful job in raising me. I couldn't have
asked for a better mother. I love her and miss her.