Positive thoughts on my life.

September 2014

09/23/2014

Is to stay moving!! I just got home from work and I'm trying to not sink into the couch. I have found once I do that I don't want to get back up and then I'm stuck in front of the tv until bedtime. I walked the long way home from school. It's been a long day as I'm covered in chigger bites and all I want to do is scratch. It's annoying. So here it is 2:45 and I'm searching for chores to do. Empty dishwasher, do a load of laundry, put away the clutter. OH! Maybe dig out some fall clothes.....surely I have some somewhere. Drink some water. I am still having a hard time forcing myself to drink water! I think I'll fill the scentsy pots with some smell good wax....Aaron said he's been missing that. I'll do anything to just not sit down. Let's see.....take out the trash, bring in the mail, sweep the floor.....no. I don't want to do that today. Sweeping the floor could be a 24 hour job around here. It seems pointless. Bring in the washed blankets that have been drying on the deck for a week. Wash the car? No....it looks like there could be a chance for rain which is basically the same thing, right? Um, oh ya, I have some bills to pay and get sent off. Sounds boring as hell, doesn't it? I think so.....which is why it's hard to get started. Some days are like that. I hope you all are having a great day! Count your blessing if you don't have chigger bites!! It really is a blessing.
Peace and happiness to you!!

09/22/2014

There are many great things about today! I feel good about the accomplishments I made this weekend. I walked both days. I did a Pop Pilates workout. I didn't eat like a hog. I made lists.....and checked off many lingering tasks that needed to get done. I listened to an e-book. Do you have an audible account? I have found it most helpful. I like multitasking and listening to a book while doing something else. The great thing about today is I popped out of bed ten minutes before the alarm went off and I was awake!! Really awake and ready for this day. Right now, I am forcing myself to eat breakfast which has always been hard for me to do. I went to bed hungry so I was actually ready to eat this morning. I am eager to see if it makes a difference in my energy today. I showered and am wering a dress with leggings......mainly because my legs are covered in bug bites......other than the urge to scratch my legs off, I feel pretty good! I am excited to get back to the routine of the week! After work, I have a few things that I have to do in town. I feel blessed I don't have to do them on the weekend when all the stores are so busy. I know what we are eating for dinner....spaghetti! And after that? early to bed. A basic day with a happy heart......it's pretty great! So......Woohoo!! Oh and I created a new facebook page. A new page with people I actually know. It will be fun to get back into the loop. I have wondered what is going on with the people I never see......I will not play any games on it. God, give me strength to not play any Facebook games. Ok, I got to go.

09/21/2014

I'm back!! I am wondering if there is anyone to come back to?? Are you there? It's funny how adding 30 hours of work into a week can wreak so much havoc on my time! It's not like I was doing anything productive during that time before that. I have the same amount of time! I am just really busy in a good way. In the few minutes I do have time to sit down, I haven't had a clear thought to share with you....there is too many good things going on....it's hard to pick one thing. Evidently with my new schedule, it's hard to find time to keep the house orderly also....but who cares? Today? I will clean and bask in the glory of having a full life. I have to say I almost enjoy the weekdays better than the weekends these days. I am still loving my job and being around all those little kids. They lift my spirits and make me happy to be me. I've gotten off track with so many of my coping mechanisms......such as list making and quiet, creative outlet time, Some days, my mind just races out of control and although I am happy and content, I have no idea what I am doing. Today, I busted out the paper for my list making and I filled in my calender. I have pen in hand and soon I will purge all the clutter that is distracting my peace. Another thing that has been weighing heavily on my mind is my body is aching from overindulgence and lack of movement. Today I will write down the plan for the physical overhaul I am about to embark on. Last week, I ate at Taco Bell, Kentucky Fried Chicken and ......well.....I can't think of where but it was gross......wait. It was McDonalds. I have found that my body aches so much I can't get out of bed. sore back.sore muscles. my clothes don't fit. I know what to do about that. It's just hard to get started so I have been developing a plan that I am excited about and in the next few days. I will share it with you. Are you excited about that?? Actually, I am sharing it with you only because I need encouragement and accountability. I know that at the age of 51, I do not have to be sore and achy and tired.....life can be better with a little work on my part. I can't continue eating 9 handfuls of potato chips before I go to bed at 11 and expect to feel good physically in the morning. It's just dumb. On a positive note, I hiked a 3 mile trail yesterday and it was a wonderful start to something good. Today, I will walk somewhere even if it's around the block. It's a good thing. I have hope for a better future!! I love hope. I am so thankful for the heart that God gave me......and all the blessings He has given me in this life. There are so many. Mainly, I am thankful for you faithful friends. As I think of each one of you who may be reading this, I know you are wishing me well and wanting me to succeed and I wish the same back to you in whatever you are doing or going through. It's nice to feel the love, isn't it? I think that's the best thing of all. Hope and Love and peace. May we all feel that today! Now..... Go!! sieze this glorious day!! Woohoo! high kick and spirit fingers!! Life is good!

09/07/2014

I am finally living a full and happy life! Well.....at least I did this week! This entire past week kicked ass! It wasn't moments each day that added up to greatness......it was all the days! That silly little job at the grade school has made a BIG difference in my life. I LOVE IT. All those kids are just really enjoyable and funny and they like me! One little girl told me that we could be twins! It was the excitement in her voice that made my heart melt melt when she said it. We were talking about birthdays one morning and the teacher asked me when mine was so I told the class it was in May. This little girl stood up and said, "Hey! My birthday is in May, too!" She was SO happy to have her birthday in the same month as me. She got up, ran straight over to me, stood right in front of me and looked up into my face and said, "Miss Shari!!!! We could be twins!! Your birthday is in May....my birthday is in May! You have blue eyes.....I have blue eyes! You have blonde hair....I have blonde hair!" Then she just smiled so big and I smiled back as guided her back to her seat, She sat down and was so proud to be like me. It was funny and I loved that moment because well, my eyes are green and my hair is now half black and grey due to missing my last color appointment and never rescheduling. I would compare that moment to about 50 Facebook "Likes"......You know when you post a good status and all your friends "like' it and it makes you feel good for being so clever....or wait. was that just me? I thought several times last week that I would enjoy being a teacher for a first grade class......maybe kindergarten ....or maybe second grade. I love that age of kid. I had the privilege of spending a day with one of my favorite people who was the substitute teacher. She was Ian's first grade teacher so I have known her for what? 25 years.....she's long retired....but she still has it when working with those kids and I loved watching her. They were mesmerized and so was I. I'm learning a lot every day and having a great time. It's just a happy place. Both the boys had ball games. On Tuesday I watched Max play soccer. I sat with some parents that I hadn't talked to in awhile. They were the smart ones sitting in the shade. It was 100 degrees. It was nice sitting with some new people and gabbing about new things. It made the loss funner. On Thursday, Sam had his first football game. It was in a town an hour and a half away. I asked some fellow parents if I could ride with them. I don't think I have ever done that before but you know what? It was a fun road trip. We talked so much it didn't seem like we were in the car very long at all. Sam's team was amazing. They won 30-8. I was so proud of the teamwork! They just looked solid. You know? Most of those boys have been playing since 2nd grade and that game was the first game where it seemed like all those years just came together. It was so touching that I nearly cried. I did. I was busting with joy for them. This week they play a tough team. I will be out of town and will miss it. I'm a little disturbed about it. It almost makes me want to skip the festival we are going and stay home to watch them. I may just do that...but probably not. I'm not sure! That idea just occurred to me that it could be an option. Huh. I'll have to ponder it. I am looking forward to getting out of town. Aaron and I are going to a music festival in Oklahoma with Reggie and Emily and James. It's 4 days of camping and music and I hear they have Kayaks. It should be fun. We bought the tickets months ago and it is sold out. I'm sure no-one else wants to skip the first night to watch an 8th grade football game. Shoot. So this past week, we, also, went out for Drew's birthday. He's 14 now! His birthday dinner/night out was fun. I enjoy Aaron's family. They are fun to be around and I enjoy FUN! I learned that eating a chocolate brownie Sunday at 9 pm is probably not the best thing to do. It made my stomach feel crappy the whole next day. Being a 50 year old woman, I probably shouldn't eat those anymore anyway. I am about to make an overhaul on my diet....just tone it down a bit. After we get back from Oklahoma....I have a plan. I'm gonna make some changes that I have been planning for months. No lie. The satisfaction I feel from my life lately makes me feel strong and powerful. I know I can do anything I ser my mind on doing. Oh!! Probably the funnest thing that happened for me was yesterday......the whole day. The weather is beautiful. I've been wanting to clean Lola.....Someone emailed me and asked if I would like to sell her. I said NO but invited them to come have a look if they desired. They said they would love to look inside. I fretted about what a messy state she was in so yesterday, I got up and went outside and cleaned the camper. I turned on the radio and listened to the K-State game. I piddled around out there for hours and just had a great time.....then I cleaned my car which was a total disaster too. It took most of the day. After that, I came inside and tidied up and then Aaron and I went to town to meet Reggie and Emily for dinner and some trip planning. Reggie had invited a girl we went to school with and it was awesome talking with her! We all ended up at a bar with a band that was playing. I loved it because it was around 8 pm and it was packed.....not with young kids but with OLD people......older than me.....like we were the youngest people there. I would say we were at least 10 years younger than everyone there. These people were dancing their asses off and laughing and having the time of their lives. It was amazing to watch. Aaron said, "we should bring your mom here." and really we should. In all my nights out watching music....these people were having the most fun I have ever seen. It was amazing. At about 9:30, the music stopped and everyone just vanished....probably went home, crawled in bed and are now sitting in church feeling satisfied and fulfilled in their life. I love it. I am feeling satisfied and fulfilled in my life today. Not bored. Not searching for answers. Not looking elsewhere for validation. Just here......feeling happy and smiling. It's a great day!

09/03/2014

Last night, Max had a soccer game. His team this year has a new coach and the players are young. During the first half, things looked bleak for our Kaws. The other team was running all over us scoring goal after goal after goal. Our kids were frustrated and getting more and more frustrated as the night went on. The more frustrated they got, the more mistakes they made. It just got ugly. At halftime, the score was 1-10. If the other team had scored just one more point, the game would have been called and we would have left humiliated. It was hard to watch. But you know? At the half, our guys re-grouped. Made some changes in their defense. They made a new game plan and came back strong. They played better, their confidence grew with each small victory, they persevered. At the end of the game, we still lost but we got to finish! The score was something like 12-3. In the second half, we tied. It was a victory in itself! I was proud of them. I learned a lot watching that game. It was a great life lesson. I learned that when things aren't going your way.....Stop. Rest. Regroup. Change your game plan. Renew your spirit and go on! It works and makes the smallest victories amazing and good! The game plan can always be adjusted.....don't get frustrated! Adjust and move forward!! Love it!
Peace and love to ya!!

09/01/2014

Just when I was thinking the weekend was a bust.....I pulled enough energy out of my ass to play a game of pitch with some friends and it renewed my spirit! I love playing cards on a Saturday night!

It made me happy enough to get up at 7 am and take the boys to the lake to spend some quality time with Dad and Jo! One of my favorite treats is my dad's pancakes! He made some this morning and they were as awesome as ever! Sam ate so many that he couldn't finish his lunch! This picture doesn't do this event justice.....that's because the celebration was taking place inside our mouths....our taste-buds were highkicking all over the place. Believe me!!

It was COLD outside today. I don't think we saw the sun once!! So we just kind of stood around on the dock. To my surprise, Brother and Diane showed up! And a little later, Max's music teacher and her husband came out too. Alayna and I got up enough nerve to jump on a airtube and have Scotty pull us around the lake. We bounced and laughed and got wet. Actually, the water temperature was quite pleasant....it was getting out that kind of sucked a little bit. I laugh as I tell you this because nothing about this day sucked at all. It was great.

Scott spent a lot of time punching and chasing Sam around. He's funny! I love him! I love him so much I took a selfie of us.......

Lake Wabaunsee is one of my favorite places on this earth. I don't know why we don't go out there more often. It's always a great time and I leave happy and refreshed!

It's been a nice weekend. I hope you have enjoyed yours! Life is good! I am thankful.