Positive thoughts on my life.

November 2012

11/30/2012

Oh dear Lord!! Have you ever tried Zumba?? It. Is. FUN!!! I went last night. I could barely move all day then I went to that Zumba class and had such a great time that I laughed and smiled through the whole hour. I may have over did it slightly as I'm having a hard time getting out of bed this morning. I can hear the old trash truck outside so I'm gonna have to get up. We generated a lot of trash this week! I was wanting to go back to yoga today but I don't know if I can. I may have just taken on too much physically this week. I have loved every minute of it tho and what I have truly loved is being out in the community in a good productive way! It's been nice to see faces I haven't seen. Who knows! Next thing you know I'll be walking across the street to go to church!!
You know? When I think of one of the happiest times of my life....a time that I was taking care of myself and felt truly joyful and just great.....it was a couple years ago when I started walking every day. Walking and breathing and nurturing my soul on a personal level. Seriously, I had never felt better. So I take the pain I am feeling today as a good thing...a stepping stone to greatness and I welcome it. Movement is a good thing....a gift to myself! I love it.....I also love this little Christmas angel doll!! Enjoy your day!! Peace and love to you!!

11/29/2012

So after the aerobic exercise session on Tuesday, I came home and said, " I must be extraordinarily limber." I said this because I can actually touch my toes and I'm pretty flexible. I was feeling pretty good about it until I went to yoga. Man! Those ladies are flexible. And strong. And they have tight abs. I loved the class....although it was a little heavy on the new age thing which I don't understand. There was chanting. I don't know about chanting but we chanted good words like accepting love and forgiveness and sharing it with the world....or something like that. It was just awkward. At the end of the session, everybody stood on their head. I didn't at first. The lady came to me and asked if I needed help and I asked....stupidly....".you want me to stand on my head??" She gave me a funny look. And I looked back at her just as strangely. Then I pulled myself up into a headstand. Have you stood on your head lately? It's not that easy. And it kind of hurts. I actually grunted and moaned throughout the class. Yoga is exhausting when you aren't strong enough to do the routine. The lady kept asking me if I was ok and I just answered "yes" every time not worrying if I was disrupting the others. I don't think I was. I could have been. I felt more like a hillbilly than ever. But I finished!! Afterwards, I had a discussion with the lady like this:

Me: that was awesome! Thank you. Sorry if I glared awkwardly at you at times but this is foreign to me and I don't know the moves.

Her: you do yoga.

Me: no. I don't.

Her: you've done yoga before.

Me: well, I've done it before. I went to 3 or 4 classes 6 or 9 months ago.

She stared at me for a minute and said, "wow! That's hard to believe. You are a natural!"

That made me feel good and I decided I would go back on Friday! I told y'all back then that I think I found my forte in yoga. It's just gonna take a lot of work to master it. I am up for it.....except for the fact that I seriously can't move today. My whole body is in pain. Yowza!! I'm just gonna stay busy and keep moving though. I am dreaming of a 6 pack. 6 pack abs. That's what I want. I must want them bad. Last night, I made hamburger helper for the boys. I couldn't stomach eating it. I opted for the green beans and a banana and some pistachio nuts. I was just as satisfied. So here's is to more movement today, people. And good eating! I'm making ham and beans.....and thinking good thoughts about my dad.

11/28/2012

As a carry over to yesterday's post.....I just have to say that when shopping, I am also drawn to squirrels. I have a hard time resisting bringing them all home because they are all so stinking cute.

I have to limit myself and remember that I am now a MINIMALIST. I don't want stuff. I don't know....it seems as if I have just as much stuff now as when I wasn't a minimalist....and on the way to having more. I love the concept. Today, I will be cleaning. I think every dish in the house is dirty. Plus I got out all the Christmas decorations. I have a lot of those. Too many. I realized when I looked at the boxes of them that I don't have to put them all out..... I can just pick my favorites and then I didn't feel so overwhelmed. Less is more. So I am really excited to get my house in order. I went to an aerobics class last night. My friend started this class on Tuesday nights and it's close and free. I haven't done aerobics ever. When we finished the warm up she said, "Ok! Now we will start the cardio bootcamp." and then she proceeded to kick my ass with moves from an jr. high football practice and then we did kickboxng and lots of squats....for an hour. In the midst of the action, I found myself thinking about how out of shape I am. And how easily I could get in shape if I continued going to this class. It was good and fun and I want to go back. I came home and blocked off that time for two months in my planner. That's what you have to do......claim time for enjoyable things for yourself in the ol' planner.....that way there is no backing out or scheduling something else. I have to admit I am a little sore today......Sore in a good way. I decided that I would go to yoga at noon and stretch. I love yoga and I will be ready to work out at noon. I'm pretty excited. They have two classes a week at noon that I think I can make on a regular basis.I'm gonna give it a go today and then head over to Dillon's. Buying fresh foods requires lots of trips to the store. I am thinking a job at Dillon's is still a good thing. I could work and pay for my gas to Yoga....and my fresh foods which I would get at a discount. The yoga studio is right by Dillon's. I could work there a couple days a week and still work at Weight Watchers. See? That is the great thing about life! So many choices and a person can build an enjoyable life. The only thing is you have to know what you want and then go after it! I am building a life that I love....day by day! Hopefully, by the end of this day, it will be in a tidy house because I love that....as of right now, I am just making a bigger mess. OK, People. Seize the day! Enjoy!! Peace and Love to you.

11/27/2012

With all the plans I have made and starting my new job soon and the kids activities , I have been yearning for a new planner! Mine runs out next month and its lost its excitement. It doesn't woo me or call my name or anything. It doesn't motivate me....and most of the time I can't even find it. That planner just doesn't work at all. In fact, it sucks. I have been doing a good job with the list making and check mark making....but sheets of notebook paper aren't fun. They are boring too. It's 2012, there is exciting fun paper out there. I should know. It's one of my favorite things to shop for. Yesterday, I spent most of the morning planner and paper shopping and thinking about everything I would and should write down. I touched and looked at a lot of paper. It was blissful. We are busy over here, People! And 2013 doesn't look like its gonna slow down one bit. I guess that is a good thing. Life is never boring. Well,I do get bored but Emily tells me that is just nonsense and she is right. Being bored is silly when there is so much to do. Can you believe there is just a few weeks til Christmas? I decided that I need to decorate so went and bought and artificial tree this year. I looked at a bunch of those yesterday too! I finally picked one that had red berries and pine cones on it. It's a beautiful tree. I am always drawn to the red berries.....I was super excited to find some on a Christmas tree. I just adore the pops of red. Ok. I adore that color. Period. Don't you?? I just googled the color red. It symbolizes courage and sacrifice and LOVE.....my favorite thing. No wonder I'm drawn to it. So I found myself at the checkout counter with a planner and a tree and sprigs of red berries . 3 good things. As I decorate for the season, I'll share some pics with you. I'm excited to see this new house all festive and bright. Which reminds me of another favorite of mine.....twinkle lights!! I'm excited for this day! I hope it is good to you. What are some of your favorite things?? Peace and love!!

11/26/2012

I have a busy day today of driving around so I can't talk but I thought you might like to see some pictures of the cousin gathering we had this weekend. It was a lot of fun!! I love all those people. My family. I hope you are surrounded by Love and happiness today....and I hope you have a wonderful day!!

11/23/2012

I love this day all ready.....although I am sitting.....and have been sitting for a couple hours. All my kids will be home this weekend. All of them. So as I sit here, I actually am multitasking and thinking up a game plan for food. My cousins, Reggie and Ronnie are coming tonight also! Reggie's kids are visiting from Wisconsin and one of the things they requested was coming to the KUENZI kitchen. That warms my heart. It is a wonderful place to be! I love it. This will be the first holiday in the new kitchen but I think it will be just as awesome as the old kitchen. I did consider that when purchasing this house. I'm blessed that my home would be a highlight of their short little trip. I'm so blessed that all my kids have stayed close. One hour away isn't so bad compared to a ten hour drive. I couldn't bear that. I don't know how Reggie does it. I just committed to walking a mile a day til January 1 with a friend so I guess I better get up and do that and go to the store and prepare for a boot stomping good time tonight. Here's to family and love and laughter and joy and memories in the making! I am thankful.

11/20/2012

This has been a busy day!! I've been shopping and running and finally got a chance to sit down for a second. So....HI! Today I am thankful for days like this. You know.....the kind of day that just feels good and everything just falls into place perfectly.....and ya get a new pairs of shoes? I had to get work shoes! That's the funnest part of having a job, isn't it? So I will be showing off my legs a little bit with these babies which are so not like anything I've ever worn but I love them. Ok. I need to get back to my business. Sending you warm thoughts and a smile! Peace!!

11/19/2012

Just so ya know, I got my bloodwork back AND..... I'm good! ok. I'm not just good....I am FABULOUS! I sighed a big sigh of relief upon hearing the results. All that worry for nothing. Apparently, I am not going to fall over and die on the spot anytime soon so that is good news for me. I may have a few mental health issues to deal with.....like anxiety.....but physically? The doctor said he couldn't have made up better results. So YAY! The strange thing is that here it is lunchtime and I am craving KALE of all things. I don't think they sell it at our grocery store. I have been contemplating driving 20 miles to get some. Kale....the shittiest tasting superfood on the planet. I guess it really is good for your body though and evidently causes withdrawal when you don't eat it for a few days. I am also contemplating making roasted brussell sprouts for Thanksgiving which makes me wonder what the hell is going on with me. It is a absolutely gorgeous day outside and I am getting ready to go for my walk which is good for the soul. I am just pretty darn excited about my health and about my body and about life in general. I have so much to be thankful for! And we all know that gratitude leads to happiness! I feel blessed and happy but more so, on this day, I feel content. Not anxious. It's a good thing. I hope you all are having a glorious day! Peace and Love to you!

11/17/2012

She wanted me!! :) I couldn't figure out why I hadn't heard from her since my first interview which was in April. I have to admit I kind of felt like a loser not being able to land a job at weight watchers. Not that I think less of the other women that work there...I just think that highly of myself! I thought maybe my self perception was a little off but it wasn't. She offered me one of two jobs. I took the easy, less demanding one....receptionist. All I have to do is greet people, take money and smile. I can do that. I also get to get up in the morning and fix myself up a little bit and go out in the world and make some money!! Hurray!! I'm not going to sing this job from the rooftop because I crowed about that job at the post office pretty much and was so excited about it and then Boom......It sucked. That was a horrible job for me. I find myself missing the interacton I had with our clients at the vet clinic on a daily basis. You know it was close to 20 years that I sat down there for at least part of the day talking to various people. I do miss that. So this I think will be a good starting point for me. I'm happy! and it's only a few days a week so I will still have plenty of time for flitting. If I want to stay with the company I can move up to leader....which would require a 3 day trip to some big city for training. I asked, "Would I go on this trip by myself?" The lady looked at me strangely and said, "Yes." I didn't want to tell her I had never been anywhere or done anything by myself. Shoot. For years, I never even got to go to the bathroom alone. I can't imagine getting on a plane and doing that. I have heard that the company treats their Leaders very well at the trainings....like celebrities! I suppose if I really loved the job at some point I could move up into management and then one day...be the president of Weight Watchers. It's possible. If I wanted to, I could do and be anything! I know this. For today?? I choose to be a receptionist! I think I will go make myself some eggs.....for 4 points. :) Smiles and Happy Weekend, People.

11/16/2012

I'm cleaning...and I like it! I like to start the weekend with a fresh house. It just makes things a little more pleasant. By tomorrow morning all my work will be for not. I don't even care. I started the day with a trip to the chiropractor shop. I asked him the other day if he could do a wellness checkup and run some bloodwork to see how I am doing. I have some issues and I dont feel good physically sometimes. The thing i love about him is that he believes in a more holistic way of dealing with things and will not perscribe mind altering drugs to help me deal with my issues. I am stressed out a lot. I worry. My stomach hurts alot daily and I cry a lot. I haven't ever had my blood checked so now I worry that something might really be wrong with me. I decided that it would be funner to see what is right than to go somewhere that is looking for something wrong. Idk. It makes sense to me. So I had that blood drawn and I feel at peace that they are gonna tell me I am really healthy and being silly worrying so much. I am gonna go back Monday to get the results . After that, I should go get a physical. I've been to the eye doctor this year and the dentist. I always expect to hear the worst and doctors scare me. I cann't handle anymore bad news....ever. So, I feel pretty good about taking this step today. I will let you know what they say! Honestly, I've never even had my cholesteral checked. So....guess what? This afternoon, I have a job interview!! I do! The lady from weight watchers that I talked to a few months ago called me and said she wants me to come work from them. I told her I haven't been doing the weight watchers program and I felt bad because I would really like to work with them. She said that we would see what we could work out so I am going to talk to her. It made me feel good that she considered me for a position. It has been a long time since I applied for a job and to tell you the truth.....I feel slightly inadequate....which is strange for me. I think working for a organization that focuses on health and wellness and has an incentive for making me stay in shape would be good for me. I would be getting paid for doing what I love, for feeling good and inspiring others. It sounds good, doesn't it? We will see. Also, I think I may go sign up at a yoga studio that is offering unlimited classes for the rest of the month and all therough the holidays for a small fee. Since I quit smoking, I have no stress release. Smoking was my way of dealing with stress. I'm thinking yoga classes would be beneficial.I know they would. Well, ok, I'm done. Even though this ramble may not sound positive....well, it is. It's a beautiful day and I feel hopeful and good! I hope you do too! AND IT"S FRIDAY!!!! YAY!!