I've embraced this!! I've told my masseuse and she's all for it. Yesterday she said she was thinking about me as she said she wants to put me in dress and said my waxed, smooth legs and butt are perfect along with me having perfect build. When we go shopping I was told I'll be wearing dress. She had catalog and we picked out dress/halter & women's tank tops she wants me to wear with warm weather. To not pay for shipping she has my clothes going to her place and said she wants me to try them on in front of her. Also this Friday she said to bring my dresses so she can see how I look in dresses.OMG with this happening she's taking lead and control of our relationship. She even called me a women during my massage yesterday. She also said she's going to look after my spending so I won't go broke. I bought 2 more purses As she told me that I'll be going with her to buy another purse. She's going to dress/turn and keep me as her cream puff girl. This is for real! She really has her nails dug into me with no intention of letting me go. I belong to her.

I've embraced this!! I've told my masseuse and she's all for it. Yesterday she said she was thinking about me as she said she wants to put me in dress and said my waxed, smooth legs and butt are perfect along with me having perfect build. When we go shopping I was told I'll be wearing dress. She had catalog and we picked out dress/halter & women's tank tops she wants me to wear with warm weather. To not pay for shipping she has my clothes going to her place and said she wants me to try them on in front of her. Also this Friday she said to bring my dresses so she can see how I look in dresses.OMG with this happening she's taking lead and control of our relationship. She even called me a women during my massage yesterday. She also said she's going to look after my spending so I won't go broke. I bought 2 more purses As she told me that I'll be going with her to buy another purse. She's going to dress/turn and keep me as her cream puff girl. This is for real! She really has her nails dug into me with no intention of letting me go. I belong to her.

If you are not careful, your reality is going to become complicated and distorted. Head saying one thing, heart another, society another.

Remember that what you explore can confuse, reprogram and be there to miss. What happens if done all this for five years and she moves away?

This isn't a relationship, it's a gigantic d/s mind game. And you are the emotional star having your mind through the wrangler.

It's nice to escape and to explore, but is this rabbit hole a little too deep, too quick. Do you secretly desire to end up a dominated female ts performing sexual favours?

I understand escape and exploration. But unless sexually you want to attract men or you get some bsdm kick from it (as well as her) I don't understand the need to dress that way publicly. Why is her feminising you a turn on? What need is it fulfilling. For example, with me, it allows me to be someone else a while who has no problems...

I said to a woman yesterday I have recently met and wanted to talk direction, that every time I investigate this side of me, I find all the yukky stuff...

Why does someone else have to gove you permission to explore who you are and in ways you may mot have chosen to explore independently?

There is no sex involved. I'm just enjoying the moment as I've found someone that wants to take control by dressing me. It's harmless and innocent fun. She's to hot to say no to I was surprised that she was thinking of me this past weekend, especially when she said she wants to see & have me wear dress when we go shopping. I am to deep in her rabbit hole and I don't see myself getting out anytime soon. I can't get out of this now as she knows and can expose me. She told me that she's going to watch over me and make sure I don't overspend. She's the big sister I never had and feel safe and secure being with her.

I'm going to bring her book on how women can put guys in panties/bras/dresses and say to her I want her to do that to me and that I want her to dress me as a girl. The fact that she told me she wants me to wear a dress when we go shopping and that to avoid shipping cost on clothes I bought will be mailed to her place tells me that she's taken lead in relationship. She said this way I can go to her place and try on the clothes and dress so she can see what I look like. Also she said I have perfect build to wear women's clothes as she thought of me wearing dress and called me her women and wants me to go shopping for purses with her. Today she told me to bring my dresses so she can see what I look like. I'll have my heels & slip along wearing my bra/panty/leggings/women's turtleneck sweater with scarf. I can't go back now Andrea she can expose me and I don't want to upset her. With her saying she wants me to wear dress when we go shopping she's dug her nails into me with no intention of letting me go. It's what you said in Ms Cindys blog about this starting small then it's seeya. It is seeya for me now as I'm her cream puff girl.

I'm going to bring her book on how women can put guys in panties/bras/dresses and say to her I want her to do that to me and that I want her to dress me as a girl.

I am still confused why. I think she knows this already!!!

Why do you want to live as a female? I can understand escape from male issues. But why does a woman need to make you? If this is what you want, why did you not just do this yourself? I find it interesting you need a woman to.

So why is that? To prove a kind of love? To humiliate you; a kick/submission? You enjoy living as a woman and she lets you feel better being one? You seem to like that when fem, you lose control. A stress release maybe.

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The fact that she told me she wants me to wear a dress when we go shopping

For me, goong shopping in lingerie, a dress and getting a makeover is quite a forward move. I will be interested to see whether you felt really silly or really good after.

If silly, you have this domme making you...
If you liked, she does it more, soon you will find more fem things feeling 'normal and comfortable'. You may even feel like a fabulous sissy...

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...and that to avoid shipping cost on clothes I bought will be mailed to her place tells me that she's taken lead in relationship. She said this way I can go to her place and try on the clothes and dress so she can see what I look like.

A man in a dress unless she is an expert with makeovers, has wigs etc and starts you on hormones... Try a mini skirt, some nice hose, top, bra, panties... That would feel nice. . You like being told to do things - so tell her...

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Also she said I have perfect build to wear women's clothes as she thought of me wearing dress and called me her women and wants me to go shopping for purses with her.

She seems to like collecting purses like I collect records and computers. For me, purses are the least interesting fem thing, but then I guess as a sissy girl you should like purses. But dear. Better buying some sexy clothes and lingerie.

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Today she told me to bring my dresses so she can see what I look like.

I take prior to sending to her place?

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I'll have my heels & slip along wearing my bra/panty/leggings/women's turtleneck sweater with scarf. I can't go back now Andrea she can expose me and I don't want to upset her.

You're funny. A bit of you wants to be exposed. It's the classic fantasy. Only you are enjoying it in reality. Someone will see you sooner ot later...

From what you said before she was being caring and would not expose you.

If she would go there, cock might be in your future afterall!

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With her saying she wants me to wear dress when we go shopping she's dug her nails into me with no intention of letting me go. It's what you said in Ms Cindys blog about this starting small then it's seeya. It is seeya for me now as I'm her cream puff girl.

She's into this bsdm, cuckolding stuff maybe...

So little steps until one day you find yourself living as a sissy girl full time. She has perfume in your future - you are waiting for a BIG bottle...

What I said, is be careful that when you find yourself a woman that you like being a sissy if she moved on. Ie met a guy she is attracted to as a guy. Otherwise you will want to be a man but love being a sissy girl. If by then you are sexually into men, be easier to find someone that loves you as a girl and maybe even treats you as one.

If she walks away ever, she'll be fine. Your mind however might feel like its been whisked. I am a bit concerned you don't fully open your heart and get hurt. You like it different to me, but hurt still hurts...

Hi Andrea-the book is about erotic feminization and lingerie discipline. It's turnon that when she said she was thinking about me in dress. It caught me off guard and I didn't expect to hear that. When we go shopping with me wearing dress I will feel silly and really good especially when I get makeover done. I've dressed myself as girl many times alone. I am going to tell her that I want her to dress me as girl as its therapy for me. She has said she's going to look after me and watch my spending. Purses are hot but I do agree with you I want to buy more sexy lingerie/clothes. With clothes being sent to her place I think this is beginning of her making me be her cream puff girl. There's never been talk of sex about this and there won't be. It's the thrill of having her dress me as a girl and give me makeover. She did say I'm her women and when I see her next week I'll tell her that I'm glad she was thinking of me and wants me in dress. Ill tell her I've never had girlfriend because of my interest in crossdressing/makeup/lipstick. It's addiction and I can't stop because I like it to much and I want to find women who like this. I'll tell her I'm emotional train wreck. We will be shopping out of town. Maybe someone I know will bump into us maybe they won't. She's too caring as I said with me buying clothes we aren't going to shopping trip until fall time. She said she will watch over me so I won't go broke with spending. She's the sister I never had.

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First of all, I think every woman has an inner man and every man an inner woman. Just for a man it is more taboo than it is for a woman.

There is the male that is macho, real man etc. Never thinks of being a sissy. Into women etc.
But even he has an inner woman. It is just so deep in his mind, pink room is locked, that he is not aware it is there. To become a sissy, a trigger has to occur from a woman. He is ridiculed for performance, size etc. Put in panties etc and all this leads to finding his pink room... Then it gets complicated...

But two paths. One led to a male/female great relationship. Other led to being a sissy.
The only difference to create the scenario was the experience. Whether found porn or not etc.

Becoming a sissy can be an outside influence. Porn is dangerous.

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For me a guy that wants to live as a woman has an issue with sexuality and trying to find it. Not experienced sex or they are really gay and in denial. Being publically fem is for one thing. Is to attract. It might humiliate too and also might like the escape, the clothes. But for me, a man would not dress this way unless they want to be admired and attract. The female them is slightly stronger...

If a guy wears lingerie underneath, there is a battle going on. It is still escape, enjoyable, but he is fighting himself. He might be gay or bi. But in denial. I don't think you just like it - it is the start of finding who you really are. I am fighting it, but the right woman scenario would make it happen. I might still deny, but there is a curious side of what that submission is like.

You can do a Fall trip and also a small shop/makeover. Start small and see what you like.

All the waiting is doing is going round and round in your head and you need to do this to find out who you are. After you do it, the curiousity might be appeased and so you may not want it again for a while. The fantasy out your system might help you and I won't get bored lol.

Not doing makes you look in other places. So get her out your system and she will be happy and you might then be able to reflect...

I know what you mean about your 'inner woman' getting in the way of relationships. You definitely need a relationship where the woman gets you crossdressing and allows you, but does not neccessarily push you in deeper.

Trouble with andrea is she dents the male side I want to portray but I cannot deny her. I am just worried that she can be influenced, so that is why I haven't pursued a relationship in part. Also as I've explored, things have changed. I'm thinking about what the girl I like wears lol...

Suggestion is powerful. The Internet has opened doors I may not have otherwise. That can be good too in being honest with yourself, but due to a lot of the stuff online being 'become a sissy' it influences too.

I cannot find the helpful stuff, just here's a link to pure red etc... lol

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I agree with you about getting this out of my system. If we can do this one time and then take bit of break then I'm more then fine with that. I just want to see and feel what it's like to have makeup put on me and be totally feminized by her.

I agree with you about getting this out of my system. If we can do this one time and then take bit of break then I'm more then fine with that. I just want to see and feel what it's like to have makeup put on me and be totally feminized by her.

That makes sense.

It's not the major shop you want. It's the experience. Curiousity.

I waxed once...curiousity. I may again - have it to miss, but I wanted to KNOW. And doing it has ticked it off.

If you do ever look to settle with a woman sexually, you need a woman that gets you. If you try and pretend this side is not there to be in a relationship, you will be unhappy. She's a side of you you unlocked and once done that, you cannot deny her existance. Mine gets narky if I do that... I really tried lol.

I would rather be single than not be allowed to acknowledge her.

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That's what she told me as well. I was told to bring 6 dresses/2 bras/panty/slip for her to see me in. I had 15 years of operations when I had tragic lawnmower accident when I was 2 years old and I missed out on childhood/no dating/girls coming after me. I wanted to experience what it's like to wear women's clothes/bras/panties/makeup/lipstick/dresses/perfumes. Just harmless dress up fun. That's what I'm going to tell her.

That's what she told me as well. I was told to bring 6 dresses/2 bras/panty/slip for her to see me in. I had 15 years of operations when I had tragic lawnmower accident when I was 2 years old and I missed out on childhood/no dating/girls coming after me. I wanted to experience what it's like to wear women's clothes/bras/panties/makeup/lipstick/dresses/perfumes. Just harmless dress up fun. That's what I'm going to tell her.