my hours got cut at work again...i now only work 2 days a week! friday and saturday! so basically for the entire week i'm sat alone and bored, eveyday is groundhog day since all my friends are ether working or at college/uni, then when it comes to the weekend, i can't go out with them as i;m stuck in work ;-; It's pretty depressing :( i really want to quit my job, but there isn't anywhere else i can go. With the economy the way it is i'm lucky to have a job :/There was always college but that's only helpful if you know what you want to do. I dont. And it's been that way since i was in 4th year at grammar school. I know i want to work with animal, wolves in particular , but that's easier said than done. I have looked online over and over again for college/uni coarses but nothin comes up :(

My parents aren't helping much either,i know they mean well but they are constantly getting on my back about my life :( i understand and appreciate their concern but it's seriously getting to me, it's putting me down :( i've been trying to find a new job, i've been trying to find something i'd like to do until i retire, but so far nothing is coming up :( I have so much going on in my head at the moment it's no wonder i can't sleep Dx

I'm engaged and want to be married at 21 (i'm currently 19) i want to start a family at 25..i haven't got a proper full time job so i'm earning shit pence and if i don't find one soon,this aint gonna happen for a long time ;-; i know this month my wage will be shit :( and i have to give my fiance money, my mum money, SMJ money and i have to take the kitten to the vet -__- it never fails! i got my money now, and by tomorrow evening i'll be down at least 150-200 GBP ...and i only get paid monthly ;__; so whatever is left (and i assure not a lot) i have to make that last me 4weeks! and to top it all off my laptop got a sever virus -_- not that big a deal but still annoying as the programme i have it running off is crap xD (but better than nothing) as everytime i boot it up i need to enter my hub key and download numerous programmes D:

uurrff life can be such a bitch!

last month was tough enough! and i got paid more than this month! *ANGSSSTT*

On the upside ... we got a kitteh :D an adorable male tabby :D we named him Toby <3 iluffhisraccoonliketailx3(when i'm using a laptop i can upload photos to i will post one of him x) )

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hi! remember me? we haven't talked in a while. i think you wrote me a message and i never got back to you:(

i am sorry about how life is treating you right now! :( yuck. i have some similar things going on. luckily my work hasn't gotten cut, but my mom's co-works have. it is a family owned company and it isn't doing well.....i am mostly with you on the college/not sure what career i want. i too want to work with animals but have NO idea where to start. at least you are in school. i am not. i just don't have the money. i have the time(weekends) but no money to do it with. my money either goes toward living expenses, extras, or possible vacations. lately my mom has been asking for more money to cover the huge electric bill($351) and that is for just one month. i live in Arizona. they know we cannot live without air conditioning. and then i got some health tests done without knowing how much they where going to cost; $325 after insurance! that was just for two tests. i have another doctor's appointment with a specialist coming up next Friday. and the car needs some work, but my mom did take it in today and the guy said it is in good shape. got a oil change and some filters changed. hopefully it will be fine for a while. Sorry if that sounded like whining. i wanted you to know i somewhat know how you feel. i don't think i am in the same boat with you, but i am in a boat near you:) i hope things get better for you soon!

new kitten, yay! post pictures when you can. and as a owner of a kitten at one time, take as many pictures of him as you can. they change very quickly. :D

aww man im sorry to hear you're having a rough time too :( yeah my mum has started doing the same :( i wouldn't mind so much if i was earning a better wage D: nah im not in school anymore :) so im left sitting about wondering what the heck i want to do with myself xD so yeah i think we're on the same boat xD daaang that's alot of money you're coughing up O_o thankfully scotland doesnt get too hot so we dont need to worry about air con...instead we spend it on new umbrellas xD ouch D: that's a lot of money for some tests! thankfully i don't have to worry about paying for things like that since scotland has free health care, i think i'd be scared to go out if it didn't xD i dont get paid enough to pay sums of money like that O_o but more importantly i hope you're ok <3 in fact after reading that i've just remembered i need to book a doctors appointment too! D:

It's great to be able to let things like this of your chest ^_^ it's been dragging me down for a while, thanks for taking the time to read my depressing little speech xD and i hope things get better for you too <3

hehe yeah i've got a camera load of them <3 i just need a proper working virus free computer to upload them too xD and yeah you're right :D i've only had himfor roughly 3 weeks and he's gotten huge already :O

sounds like you are having fun! >.< i dunno if it helps but I finally got internet after 2 going on three months now? UGH!!! I am sooo glad to have it back. so at least you had internet?... >.>

dont worry about getting married at 21 or rushing into life. having a plan is fine. but time will tell how everything will go. life can be funny- but it will all work out in the end. and remember if you spend your whole life planning the future- you can end up missing out on the present. You will be changing alot between now and 25... I look back at my life to when I was 19, and I am in awe over how much ive changed- I'll be 24 in less than a month- ive gone through drastic changes and i know i am still not done growing up. I am so much more mature now than i was then, (and at the time i was considered very mature for my age) its crazy!!!

I hope everything work out for you with the wages, and engagement and the like! :) i am still very happy for you!!!! :D

thanks for the uplifting comment :D it is scary how much you change as you grow up :D i've noticed a change in myself recently :)i can handle stress a lot better, i'm a much more mature thinker, etc i wish i'd been like that for the last couple of years xD handling stress would've made school so much easier xDas for getting married at 21 i've told myself if it happens, yay! if not it's gonna happen sometime :Dthanks again <3

oh the kids i sent you ages ago, turned up at my house the other day O_o - god knows where they've been to take them this long to get back to me D:- but apparently the address was wrong :S

could you send me you're address again and i'll post them ASAPsorry you've had to wait so long :(