1827

March

HCA expresses, in a none dated letter to Jonas Collin, his fear of, that Meisling is so unsatisfied with his skills in Greek and Latin he wont let him graduate, and all work would have been in vain.
HCAs personal relationship with Meisling and position in the household appear from the following:

“Since you wrote to Meisling he hasn’t been so hard on me as before, but his manners against me is getting more cold every day; Helsingør is an expensive place to live and everything is therefore more and more restricted. – Every day at noon I’m at the school reading until the afternoon where education starts, and thereby save warming up my stove in my room. – Every evening I get 5 pieces of wood, my room is pretty tall and my stove is so big that the 3 pieces is half burned when I, a little after 5 o’clock, return to my room with the last 2 pieces. I can’t stand the cold until 9 o’clock and I can’t get more wood;
The girls sometimes slip in some wood to me in my room, but this can’t happen every night, so the other night I had to go to bed at a little past 9 o’clock. – I could stand this, if I saw a friendly face every once in a while, but nothing is more rare. – Last Sunday my stove was warmed up at 6 o’clock in the morning, but at 9 o’clock it was almost burned out, I therefore asked the girl to ask him for a few pieces of firewood, cause I was going to stay at my room all morning. I got about three pieces, but as we sat at the dinner table, the hole family, the new teacher in Hebraic and his brother, and a talk about rooming and things like that, Meisling turned to me and said, that I have asked for wood today and that I shouldn’t expect to get wood next time I asked for it, since the payment I gave him was not enough, and that you in town paid this, that and the other for dinner, but I only paid 200 rdl. for everything and he was loosing money in having me. You probably understand how painful this was for me dear benefactor and that his thinking of me is very bad, since he see me as a burden. I truly live as limited as possible, live very modest and I am very tolerant despite the circumstances”.