I don't think you're selfish or a waste of space. You're not well and that's why you are feeling this way today.Do you have a kind GP who you can talk to? Are you on medication and is your GP keeping an eye on this?All of those people can deal with themselves, you are only guessing what they feel about the situation. Work can carry on paying you and real friends can hang in there.Your DD is different and I can see you care about her because you are sad that you can't currently be everything she needs. Even though you are down and ill and sad at the moment, she wouldn't prefer not to have you, I bet.I am a stranger who wanted to reply but obviously I am not qualified (though not inexperienced in some of this) and you may want to talk to someone, or look at a support website. Take care xxx

The saddest person I know is one whose mother committed suicide when he was young. He has never got over it and is a shadow of the man he might have been if his Mother had stayed alive . She was a damaged woman its true but her presence in the house meant that the children still had her warmth and love. Once she was gone they were split up and never recovered as a family.

Give yourself time to get well again. Eat well and take the medication you have been prescribed. If you have no prescription go and see your GP. Be brutally honest.They arent mind readers .

No your daughter would be a wreck without her mum. No child should go through that. Children of suicides are more likely to go down that route themselves. No, you have to know this and this child us your responsibility. You have to hang in there for get. She will love her mum if she is happy or sad.

You feel shit now, so hold the thought that you need to be around for her. You didn't always feel like this did you? You said you want your life back.

An unsympathetic and unsupportive partner can only lessen your feelings of self-worth.

You have to drag yourself to the doctor and get support. What's the worst that can happen?

I wish I had the courage to kill myself is something I told myself all the time when I was really low. I don't know if this will help, but you need to close your eyes and remember that courage will not come from ending your life. Courage is dusting yourself down and choosing to live.

Has your DH told you he wants to leave? Does he still love you, tell you he loves you? From your thread, it seems he is not at all supportive, but possibly your mind may be blocking out the support you are getting.

If things are not working between you and DH, then if you did die, your life insurance is there for your DD. And if things between you two are working, what use is money to him when his wife has just killed herself?

I was 15 years old, telling myself that I was ready to die, that everyone would be so much better off/happier without me in the world. I'm 18 now and am so pleased with and proud of myself for not doing it. I'm glad I didn't have that 'courage' because I now enjoy laughing with my boyfriend, I chat and am cheery at work, I'm doing ok in my A Levels, etc.

You are struggling with your mental health, a battle with your mind, and that is okay. You have a right to be sad, you're allowed to cry and feel like the world deserves better than you. But, you have a duty. You have a duty to yourself, your DH, your DD, family/friends to help yourself. You have to seek help (from anyone and everyone - and medical professionals) to get yourself back. We need you to stay on this planet.

Please, remember this.

You are not a bad mum, bad wife or bad friend. You are not evil or a disgrace to humanity. You are a person, with thoughts, feelings, memories, a beating heart. There are people that want to, can and will help you.

Please, stay strong.

"To the world, you are just one person. But to one person (can be more obviously like your DD, etc) you are the world" - Unknown

Had your GP checked your thyroid and other related levels? I say this because I felt EXACTLY the same got a long time, and it was just put down to depression. But it was my thyroid causing the depression. Might be worth looking into.