We were looking forward to hearing all the juicy and dirty deets about Calvin Klein's relationship with his ex-porn star lover in Nick Gruber's tell-all, but now we'll never know!

The aspiring reality TV star said the $375,000 he was offered for the memoir just wasn’t enough to sell What Came Between Me And My Calvin.

Nick explains:

"I decided I no longer want to do that anymore. There was a ton of interest, but I just did not want to hurt him or others. I am a good person, not a mean person. Love is a beautiful thing. Money doesn't matter at all."

We’d have to agree with that, but why did he have to be a good, not mean person BEFORE he published it?! Ha!

No, but srsly.

Maybe we’ll find out some juiciness on his show, if it ever gets picked up!