The musings of ME:SAH mother of 3 kids, spouse of a doctor-in-residency, caretaker and teacher of random children.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

My Daydream Before Sleep

Tonight I was trying to go to sleep and my mind wandered and I had to write it down or I'd forget.

I was walking on a path. I knew it wasn't the right path for my destination, but I didn't care. I chose the path, but I suspected it was taking me away from where I was supposed to go. I stayed on it. I knew there was another path, a better path that was for sure going to take me where I was supposed to go, but I wasn't sure how to get to it and I knew it would be difficult if I tried to. I decided not to try. I kept walking on the path I had chosen, but the way became wet and muddy. My feet stuck in the mud with every step, but I kept walking. It got dark and I couldn't see far ahead of me anymore, but still I kept walking. Then, when it became most difficult for me to continue walking, I fell into a dark, muddy hole. I was stuck. I couldn't get out by myself. The hole was too deep.

Being stubborn as I am, I was determined to climb myself out. I tried several ways to get out, but all of them failed. Suddenly I felt very alone and the enormity of the situation became unbearable and for a moment, I gave up. Then I heard a voice above me telling me how to get out. I wasn't alone after all! I had to make an effort to follow the directions I was being given, and a few times I slid back into the hole a little, but I kept trying. The voice stayed with me, encouraging me, and I kept following the directions until I was most of the way out of the hole and then a hand reached out and helped me the rest of the way up. The voice had saved me!

He helped me find the right path, the path I should have chosen in the first place, and he stayed with me. It got light again and this path was easier to walk upon. I wasn't alone on this path. People I loved walked with me, and as long as I stayed on this path, my Savior never left me. He was always right there walking beside me, giving me directions to my destination.

I never wanted to leave my path again because I knew that other path was out there, and if I didn't follow directions, I might accidentally stumble upon it again and become lost or even fall back into the hole. On this path I was safe.

About Me

Just Me

Colleen enjoys playing with her kids, doing any kind of crafts, reading a good novel, singing for fun and on stage, taking warm baths at night, playing soccer, working out, and cuddling up on the couch with her honey watching movies and eating super-buttery popcorn!

Doctor Ben

Ben spends his time working, working, working...or studying! When he has a minute of free time he loves to wrestle with Jackson, cuddle up with Sam, tickle-attack Ally, hunt, build something or play any type of sports with his wife.

Jackson Garit, age 5

Jackson is my sweet, considerate, intelligent, curious, and slightly hyperactive child. He will walk up and talk to anyone and can't sit quietly while I read him a story without asking me a million questions and commenting all the way through. I love his zest for life and eagerness to please. He is a great example for his little brother.

Samson Jay, 3.5 years

Samson lets nothing hold him back. It's as if he is on a mission to prove that he should have been the first child. He is stubborn, but silly, persistent, but sweet. He is my little snuggle-bear!

Allyson Anne, age 12 mos

Ally is such an easy baby. She is just pretty easy-going most of the time. She loves tickling games or playing hide-and-seek. She just started walking, but usually only takes up to 6 or 7 steps at a time before deciding that crawling is faster. She is VERY curious.