I assume you are getting DLA and careers allowance, if not then please cliam.

Use that money to hire a cleaner, because it will make your life easier.

Then see if there is support groups you can join, the one I go to is amazing they do day trips and organise events that are closed off to the public ( some free some at a cost) but its worth it because it means you can get out a bit more.

We do get DLA and Carers. I just found out that we are entitled to child tax credits, after fourteen years of believing we were not after being told tjis by the tax credit staff. That money would have changed our life. Awaiting award letter

Hey sole haven't seen you for ages (Alien here, don't know if you knew NC)

I think support groups would be ideal for you, Mums in the same situation, and maybe you could take DS too, get him out and about?

Regards the cleaning etc, mine gets me down too, but I do the 15 minute burst thing, and then chill for 10 or 40!

I'm also trying desperately to low carb, have cut out bread etc, it's just beer I can't say no to!! But am starting The bastard shred tomo, it's free on you-tube, if you want to be low carb or shred buddies??

Why don't you start by cleaning just one room? Don't think of everything at once because then it'll seem like an absolutely ginormous task and you'll have even less motivation. Say you're going to do one room today and just do it! You'll feel a bit better from just having accomplished something.GO GO GO you can do it.

Are you having treatment for depression? If not you may benefit from talking to your gp, as this may be part of the cycle you are trapped in right now.Score yourself on this to get an idea of whether you might be suffering from depression. http://www.patient.co.uk/doctor/Patient-Health-Questionnaire-(PHQ-9).htm

This wont go down well - don't all leap on me for suggesting it - I come from the angle of an old school friend who had a son with CF (and some other medical complications) - eventually she couldn't look after him; her health and sanity suffered dreadfully with so little day to day help with him. She eventually had to put him into residential care when he was14. Is that an option you would consider?

If you believe your DS is the root cause of your depression, it may be the solution.

Thank you Holly. I have almost got to the end of my tether. I have no life. A blind Autistic child, he is taller than i am.nowat 5'10. He is so sweet, quiet, loviig but always in bed. Still in pads and shits a lot and i am sick of my hands reeking of crap.

Hey Sole I remember you, I am sorry you are feeling like this and you are not a fat slob at all just need a little help.

I have no experience with autistic children, but mild depression I have had myself and it's difficult to try and feel better about yourself.

Small changes can make a difference and really boost your confidence.Slightly adjusting you eating habits can help with weight loss, when the carers are there can you get out and go for a walk now the weather getting abit better?