Forgotten Suicidal

I’m sorry.I’m so, so sorry.For thinking these thingsFor considering how many pills it would take to kill me for certain...For wondering how many seconds it would take with a pillow over my face…For deliberating how long and deep a bloody cut would have to be…For pondering how I would hang the rope from my ceiling… So many, too many options.I want all of them.Every single one. ...