I haven't been able to eat anything since I had dinner last night at 7:30 :/. Luckily I've been able to get some Powerade down though. I was going to go visit my friends at NIU this weekend too, and those didn't fall through thanks to this flu.

Oh... Well, hope y'all feel better soon! Something has been taking down a lot of people at my school lately...

I had something a few weeks ago... It was terrible... There are all kind of things you can do to mess your system up... Including drinking too much water... It literally overloads your red blood cells and kills them... Terrible...

So, just don't overdo anything. Just, like, take a lot of naps, and drink plenty of water. But, not to much water... *shiver-shiver* Definitely not that...

never say never, but i'm guessing whoever this girl is, you haven't dated her (not talking about just 1-2 dates) but been in a long term relationship. Using the love word like that makes it creepy.

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Like I said, it's the Ale talking. For the record Vic, I've known her since high school and I consider her one of the best girls I ever met in my life. I care about her dearly but I doubt we ever get involved romantically.

realizing I'll never see her again, I sent a three pararaph text to her telling her how I feel and acknowledging the fact that she is rightfully avoiding me.

*takes another swig of gin*

*lights another cigarette*

*stars off into the night sky, wondering if life can ever offer true happiness*

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You shouldn't send her anything else after that. If she's avoiding you, that's her loss.

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It's not though. I mean nothing to her. She will continue to live her life, a life filled with people who like her and rewarding relationships while I stand here with this gin and cig wondering where I went wrong. It's not even fully about her, it's about my life and how must I find myself on this end of the totem pole.

realizing I'll never see her again, I sent a three pararaph text to her telling her how I feel and acknowledging the fact that she is rightfully avoiding me.

*takes another swig of gin*

*lights another cigarette*

*stars off into the night sky, wondering if life can ever offer true happiness*

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You shouldn't send her anything else after that. If she's avoiding you, that's her loss.

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It's not though. I mean nothing to her. She will continue to live her life, a life filled with people who like her and rewarding relationships while I stand here with this gin and cig wondering where I went wrong. It's not even fully about her, it's about my life and how must I find myself on this end of the totem pole.

I see her smiling and then, with a mirror, I see me crying

Real talk yo.

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Well, then be more assertive in a way. Like, get out and do more stuff with people, and meet new people, instead of sulking around and feeling bad for yourself.

realizing I'll never see her again, I sent a three pararaph text to her telling her how I feel and acknowledging the fact that she is rightfully avoiding me.

*takes another swig of gin*

*lights another cigarette*

*stars off into the night sky, wondering if life can ever offer true happiness*

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You shouldn't send her anything else after that. If she's avoiding you, that's her loss.

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It's not though. I mean nothing to her. She will continue to live her life, a life filled with people who like her and rewarding relationships while I stand here with this gin and cig wondering where I went wrong. It's not even fully about her, it's about my life and how must I find myself on this end of the totem pole.

I see her smiling and then, with a mirror, I see me crying

Real talk yo.

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damn son that was depressing. ruined my willy nilly/tallywhacker high.

I know how you feel though and usually if I mean nothing to someone I strive to position myself in life so that person means nothing to me. Mutual insignificance is lovely. Or you can go with my nihilism route of just thinking "i am nothing, and neither is anyone else."

Just quit my salaried job, essentially on impulse. Months of frustration piling up and I snapped. No job lined up but I have savings to keep me afloat for several months. Currently dealing with friends/family wondering if I've lost my mind. Claiming I haven't even though I actually may have.

Just quit my salaried job, essentially on impulse. Months of frustration piling up and I snapped. No job lined up but I have savings to keep me afloat for several months. Currently dealing with friends/family wondering if I've lost my mind. Claiming I haven't even though I actually may have.

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You should have had a job lined up before you decided to quit. I mean, it's a good thing you have money, but that money is going to go by very quickly since you're unemployed now. Sorry that you're going through such a rough time though :/.

Just quit my salaried job, essentially on impulse. Months of frustration piling up and I snapped. No job lined up but I have savings to keep me afloat for several months. Currently dealing with friends/family wondering if I've lost my mind. Claiming I haven't even though I actually may have.

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frustrating job or frustrated in life that dripped over into your work life?

that's not a big deal. the fuck you talking about winged, being patient and shit. he is TOO patient, i thought that was the problem.

just ask her: hey do you have skype?
and see if she's "yes here it is!" or "no" or "yes but not giving it to you yet." and go from there.

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I just thought that he didn't know her too well and was jumping into things too quickly. Don't get all mad at me now .

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im not mad at you silly. i curse and stuff randomly.

anywho, i guess it depends on how they speak to one another. i don't know the dynamics or history behind this girl so im not sure.

however, as soon as you get a good conversation going with a girl you can get her skype pretty easily. usually this happens really quickly and on the first conversation and its no big deal. knowing blitz though...there probably isn't a good convo going and asking for her skype is a shot in the dark, but based on her response he could see where he stands in her eyes. he could gauge how much interest she is really giving him based on how she responds to the skype inquiry. that way my buddy won't be wasting his time if she isn't interested.

the biggest thing blitz and i share is the amount of time wasted on girls. and i believe i have corrected that and i would like for him to do the same.

Just quit my salaried job, essentially on impulse. Months of frustration piling up and I snapped. No job lined up but I have savings to keep me afloat for several months. Currently dealing with friends/family wondering if I've lost my mind. Claiming I haven't even though I actually may have.

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You should have had a job lined up before you decided to quit. I mean, it's a good thing you have money, but that money is going to go by very quickly since you're unemployed now. Sorry that you're going through such a rough time though :/.

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Believe me I know, it's a side effect of having a temper and a habit of making rash decisions...I call it "pulling the rip cord", and I do it far too often, and no matter how bumpy the landing is I never seem to learn. Also, I had a strong desire for being free from the 9-5 and my corporate overlords. Call me a hippy POS but I've been working my ass off all my life, I need a damn break. I feel like I'm too young to be so unhappy, I don't care enough about the money right now.

Just quit my salaried job, essentially on impulse. Months of frustration piling up and I snapped. No job lined up but I have savings to keep me afloat for several months. Currently dealing with friends/family wondering if I've lost my mind. Claiming I haven't even though I actually may have.

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frustrating job or frustrated in life that dripped over into your work life?

that's not a big deal. the fuck you talking about winged, being patient and shit. he is TOO patient, i thought that was the problem.

just ask her: hey do you have skype?
and see if she's "yes here it is!" or "no" or "yes but not giving it to you yet." and go from there.

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I just thought that he didn't know her too well and was jumping into things too quickly. Don't get all mad at me now .

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im not mad at you silly. i curse and stuff randomly.

anywho, i guess it depends on how they speak to one another. i don't know the dynamics or history behind this girl so im not sure.

however, as soon as you get a good conversation going with a girl you can get her skype pretty easily. usually this happens really quickly and on the first conversation and its no big deal. knowing blitz though...there probably isn't a good convo going and asking for her skype is a shot in the dark, but based on her response he could see where he stands in her eyes. he could gauge how much interest she is really giving him based on how she responds to the skype inquiry. that way my buddy won't be wasting his time if she isn't interested.

the biggest thing blitz and i share is the amount of time wasted on girls. and i believe i have corrected that and i would like for him to do the same.

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I gotcha. Well, hopefully if they do Skype he can keep the convo going with this girl, if she says yes to Skyping with her.