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This blog started as a place to chronicle my attempt at rekindling a long ago romance in spite of the fact that we were both married to others but evolved into a journal of my sexual revolution and now what is hopefully my maturation into a fully functional adult.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Haiku from a Conflicted Soul

Where are you my friends?Why does friendship elude me?I cry day and night

Doing myself inBy pushing people awayI self sabotage

Get close! Be my friend!Oh wait, not so close! Back off!Come back! Be my friend!

There’s an old adageTo have a friend be a friend.I really want to be!

Internal struggle,Get well enough to be friends.Don’t push them away.

Sometimes too scaryTo let anyone too close.Help me let you in.

Be gentle with me.Do not tease or point out myInsecurities.

Do not treat me wellTo lure me in so you canHurt me like others.

Or just go away.If you won’t be my friend thenDon’t torture me. Please.

I have closed comments for this post. No matter how you might respond, either kindly or unkindly, it would surely bring me tears, and I don’t need any more of those right now.

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We could learn a lot from crayons: some are sharp, some are pretty, some are dull, some have weird names, and all are different colors...but they all exist very nicely in the same box. -- Unknown

Sometimes you just do what you gotta do, mess or not. -- BJ

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You've got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you're not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice.

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle. -- Plato

Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye. -- Matthew 7:1-5