Diane's Audio Testimony

The beginning of Diane's journey. The first of 21 knee operations.

Diane's Memoir

A journey through pain and heartache; that led Diane to God's very best, while exchanging her wounded heart, for a heart that could lean on God's strength, while reaching out to others' who live in despair. LEARN MORE>>>

January 4, 1989"I will take you through the wilderness...I will take you through the storms...I will take you through the valleys and if you trust me, the victory can be yours."

Today, I now sit here...totally free; from a God, who truly has stood on His promises...the promises He made me, over 20 year ago!

Diane's Life Verses2 Corinthians 12:7-10 reads...

And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure. 8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me. 9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

As I sat on my bed...heartbroken, with no hope, I reached for a Bible close by and the first verse I read was Psalm 34:18..."The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" At that very moment, I knew God was trying to show me that He was in that room with me...and since that very moment, I've never ever felt alone.

From One Survivor to Another

"No...I will not abandon you or leave you as orphans in the storm...I will come to you." John 14:18This photo was given to me, from a lady who was in my counseling group...for women surviving sexual abuse as a child. What amazes me; is how God uses other people who are hurting...in the same way, to help ourselves. This photo will always have a very special place in my heart...and will be a reminder, as to how far God has brought me.No matter the loss...no matter the pain...God is ALWAYS there, when we choose to seek Him, with all our hearts!

Can we honestly say that no matter what we face in life; that it is well with our soul? You know…I have come to see; that to be happy, in the midst of despair, can be quite the challenge at times. We want to trust God and continue to press on; but at the same time, it can seem as if we are up against a wall, with no way to get around it or over it.As I think back on my own life, I remember the many disappointing times I experienced…especially when it came to the problems I was facing with both of my knees. There were times, when I actually felt like an experimental project. In fact, some of my surgeries were done in operating rooms…for students to observe, while microphones and cameras hung from the ceiling…and oh yea…the time, when x-rays and pictures of my knees were taken to Orthopedic conferences, as my situation was a very rare case. Many times, I came out of the doctor’s office, in the same way I went in…with no new answers. These were the moments that became very discouraging and hard to understand, as I questioned God continually, as to why He never answered my prayer for help.

​As time passed…and more and more surgeries took place…to repair damage done by major knee dislocations; I began to wonder if God even loved me anymore…for I just couldn’t understand why a loving God would ever want to leave me in this pit of hopelessness and despair.

Finally, I began to see that I was going after something that just wasn’t going to happen. From there, I even asked my husband to stop praying for a miracle…and it wasn’t due to a lack of faith; but rather, it was time to accept God’s will for my life, and why He was allowing these painful moments to remain within my life...for as time passed, I began to see that God had allowed me to be born this way for a reason…even though I didn’t quite understand it all at the time.As I gave into God’s will, rather than my desires…a peace truly began to take hold of me and before I knew it; I began to see the reasons why…and ever since that moment in my life; I have watched Him use these legs…and the pain I bare each day, for His honor and glory. To this day, I live with two bad legs and lots of pain; but you know what…I can truly say… “It is well…it is well with my soul…and why…because God’s got it! No matter what you’re facing…never give up on life; but rather, give it all to God and let Him make the final decision, as to what He has planned for your life. One thing I truly came to see…through those trying times; is that life will never be truly well with our soul…and we will never experience His eternal peace, until we are willing to let go of our own desires and wants…and let His will be truly done within our lives.Blessings so much on your day!It’s Always & Only Because of Him…​Diane