5.18.2014

This year...

I am not going to compare myself to others as much. Or at all. I am embracing the struggle, accepting the mistakes I've made and pushing through. I am learning. I am trying. I am not going to let it get to me. Everything. It is going to be okay. I know it will. I am going to finish that one project I've been working on for some time now. I will not put it aside and forget it. I will keep it up front and center. Because I know that that's my spark. I know that it will keep me whole. I know that I can call it my own. I am going to draw when I don't want to. I am going to draw when I'm tired. I am going to draw when I need to. Because I am losing my identity when I don't. I am going to draw more and erase even more than that. I am going to organize my thoughts and ideas. For once. And I am going to listen to my wife. Because she knows me best. Even when I think she doesn't, she does. Always. And I am going to give in to the uncertainty of this year. Because I know I can't control it. I am not going to forget things and I am not going to give up. I am going to remember and I am going to keep going. I am not letting my weaknesses take root. I am not letting my insecurities envelope me. I am not listening to my doubt. I am not letting my negativity control me. I am not letting it win. I am not losing this year. I am not. I am not. I am going to win. I am. I am.