She wrote: “I couldn’t bear him leaving me on my own, so I ran into the kitchen and grabbed a knife.

“I stood there with it held to my wrist and screamed ‘I’ll do it’. I was standing there pleading with him not to go.

“I was crying and saying ‘You are the love of my life’. He was my world.”

The brunette beauty said she chose to stay alive for her daughter Mady, but she told a pal she was still feeling suicidal hours later.

TOWIE star Chloe Sims revealed a school bully once tried to set her on fire

She said: “I dropped the knife. It hit me what I was thinking about doing and all I could think about was my daughter.

“I don’t think I’ve ever felt so upset and alone. I was left sitting on the floor sobbing and must have stayed like that until the next day when my friend Ellie came home and found me in a right state. ‘I don’t want to be alive’, I told her.”

Does anyone else want to give her a BIG hug right now?!

We want to give Chloe Sims a BIG hug after reading the revelations in her new book