Having Hope After a Bad Day With Depression

Yesterday, my depression got the best of me; I didn’t do any homework and cried all day, but today is different. Today is a new day.

I woke up, fought my urges and ate breakfast. I talked to my mom and did some homework. I am now going to class and actually looking forward to my other classes today.

Depression defiantly does have ups and downs, but today I’m up. I don’t know how my mood is going to change, but that is how depression affects me. So, if you’re having one of those awful bad days, just know it will not all be bad. Yesterday, I could have sworn I would never be “OK” but look at me now — I am procrastinating in a healthy way and crossing things off from my to-do list!

I’m L and I’ve been suffering from anorexia nervosa for years now. More years then I can remember, but it started getting really bad three years ago. I have been in and out of inpatient, residential, partial hospitalization and intensive outpatient. I have lost a year and a half of my high school education and am now trying to make it up. I am writing to try and give hope to those in the grips of anorexia because I too am trying desperately to recover. Not only do I have an eating disorder, I also have depression and have been dealing with self-harm for six years. I think that by sharing my experiences with other people, I may be helping someone like me