We tend to take the familiar for granted, so when I had to go into Tel Aviv on an errand, I decided to take advantage of the opportunity, brought along my camera, put myself in complete “mindfulness mode” and used the eyes of a tourist for the short while I was walking around. It is quite wonderful the things that are all around us and that we don’t normally see. I had a surprising lovely day and hope you enjoy the photos. Lots of beautiful old buildings, some restored, others not…and other scenes I found worth photographing: see more photos at this link:

I found my senses so keen and alert to everything around me, not just what I photographed – but the smells, the feel of the breeze on my face and my hair blowing in the wind, the noises from the street, from the people, from the birds and dogs, to my own footsteps on the pavement…I felt so fully alive. It was wonderful.

Maybe I will make this a new habit….just get on a bus, go someplace with my camera, and enjoy the day wherever it takes me!!

Reading the Angel Medicine book is proving to be a very powerful awakening for one of many things that I know deep inside but never connected with previously. In addition, I am receiving strong confirmations for my routine daily practices and healing “techniques” which I have come to practice by following guidance from my guides, angels and ascended masters over the years.
The more I am cleansed by the panchakarma, the more room there is for personal growth on deeper levels than ever before.
The book has written about the effects of sunlight and this connects up with what I learned so many years ago in Soul Love…of the sun being the soul of the universe and the immense power of sunlight in helping us connect, and stay connected with our soul’s needs. It also speaks of the importance for (more…)

I continue to have vivid dreams which stay with me after waking up. Last night I had a very long dream but the main part involved my taking a journey in a canoe on a body of quiet water, seemingly with no current. And have no paddles. I was just gently moved along by an unknown force to wherever it was I had to get to. that also unknown to me. But I felt myself, in the dream, completely at peace and enjoying the journey (water plays a big role in many of my messages, and my poetry as well (see poetry page on upper toolbar as well as the poem at the end of this post which I wrote one day sitting along the Ganga).

When I finally got to a place where I met other people., including Kobi, my car mechanic (!), I found myself welcomed by all and feeling at home. Don’t know where I was and even found my car which was sparkling clean both inside and out – including all mechanical parts – spotless – like brand new. Kobi said he had nothing to do with the change…it arrived here like that [new car? Or just a message that a solution to the car issue is already in place at the end of whatever this journey is?]

More details:
The canoe was made of soft material, almost enveloping me but still keeping the physical form of a canoe while being flexible enough to bend and move with the flow of the water. Even able to shield me from getting wet when there were splashes of water along the journey. Bending its nose left and right to go around bends…and me just sitting there completely at ease all the time.

There are lots of interpretations for this dream, and one could simply be a message about my car problem, or just a message telling me that I am being gently moved along and protected through my journey wherever it is taking me…and to allow myself to gently flow with it… or Dr. Arora’s interpretation which I also like.

The beautiful clean car, sparkling like new, including all internal mechanical parts, simply represents my body, inside and out, after the cleansing and rejuvenation of panchakarma!!

And that’s it for this dream.

And here is the latest “water poem”:

Sound – flowing, moving with it the sacred energies of Ma Ganga.
Sound – vibrating and cleansing with its subtle but powerful rhythm.
Water – rushing over rocks, its voice vitalizing the languid flow of the river.
Water – transforming forceful turmoil into calm serenity to my soul.

November 9, 2008 – Further Insights and Final Cleansing Of Past Issues

Sun Setting on the Past

The process continues…(Please read the previous post if you have not already done so to understand this one)…it is now the next day and have had many more insights – some I will keep for my private journals, but will share enough to allow others to gain insights from this as well.

This morning came a full disclosure to myself. What was revealed to me after 23 years of being completely unaware of these feelings and issues! Really full understanding of what I haven’t admitted to myself all these years. I would have wanted more than anything else to have stayed married – but I was not given the opportunity or option. Instead of working WITH me to help me at the time I most needed it, he did everything possible to push me further and further away. The person I had taken care of so lovingly for over 20 years, who I had never asked anything of – attuning myself to his needs in all things – had deserted me in my time of deepest need. Cruelly pushing me away in every way possible when he should have been protecting and cherishing me – helping me to move through my Dark Night. While I desperately clung to hope as a drowning victim does to a life raft, he pulled this from my grip as well, leaving me to go under along – slowly sinking. I was forced to rip apart a family which would never fully recover the wounds inflicted on it – as a unit and as individuals.

I am sure I could have gotten to the same place in my life that I am today WITHOUT having to break up my home, if he had only been willing and able to work along with me for a few years until I found my path. I COULD have done it differently if I had been given the opportunity. And I now know that this frustration, so long repressed was what caused this anger to well up in me after being held back by illusion for so many years. . This realization is a cause for profound sadness and grief– but I will move forward. What’s done is done and there is a reason for this as well. That reason is still to be discovered! I will do my best to be patient but I joyfully look forward to finding out what it is!

It is important to understand that I am not seeking to “place blame”, for there is no place for that in our lives. Just coming to terms with these hidden issues, and releasing them, is all that is necessary. And I have done that completely…feeling light and at peace with myself and everyone else connected with these issues. It is a true blessing!

There will be one more post with a truly lovely dream which reflects this final cleansing on all levels, but will leave that for a separate post.

November 8, 2008 – The Day Following My First AHA as described in the Previous Post

Dawning of a New Day

I had spent the greater part of the day and part of the night agonizing over my having to deal with those past issues described in the previous post, and how I would go about doing it. Before falling into a fitful sleep I asked for help – for some message – and what you find below was lovingly given to me in the form of a dream.

Woke from a clear powerful dream I can still feel:

I was “deposited” in a familiar place along the water, a settlement of low lying houses on the sand, and only I was gently placed by “someone” with a toddler in arms, in a much higher up house overlooking the scene below. My possessions were all left below as well.

At the end, of the dream, after an enormous wave had flooded everything below, many loving “people” were with me comforting me and telling me all is well. Only good has happened. All is clean and healthy the way it should be, saying it was amazing to be lifted up so high to safety by a loving invisible force and gently held there before the danger began and then deposited back on y terrace out of harm’s way.

More details and My understanding:
I went back to the “old place”. Had a toddler with me who I was responsible for keeping safe (which I realized was ME). I was back in the past where it all began – Gush Katif feeling to the place I found myself in during the dream. Many nice people around me. But everyone was on low ground, at sea level. Only me and my charge (ME) were placed up on high ground overlooking the scene below. We left all of our possessions – things from the past – below, waiting to bring them up to our new place later. I left “me” upstairs and went down to start picking up things to take back with me when I was lifted up by some strange natural force to the height of 27 meters (yes – exactly 27 meters – the meaning of this becoming clear a few days later when I spoke to a friend about the number) and placed back on the terrace of my new place with ME. And then a huge wave came – like a Tsunami – and we rushed into safte, but the wave came up to just below where we were, and then receded.

The toddler ME was terrified. I wanted to just go to the edge of the terrace to look. I forced ME, carrying ME gently in my arms to come see what was left. We saw an amazing scene. Everything was exactly as before, but completely fresh and clean and on the distant waves, which had receded far out – we could see all the items we had left below floating away out of reach.

I have been given the go ahead. I can go back – feel myself as I was then at the time – feel all my feelings (many of which were described in the previous post) but knowing I will be lovingly cared for during the whole process. No matter how frightening, I will be kept safe, no harm will come to me during the process. And then, in one swoop, at the proper moment, all things remaining of the past will be washed clean, leaving all the good things intact as memories. I have no reason to fear going back and dealing with the things that need to be taken care of after so many years!

I must deal with myself with compassion, but this is a place I must go now. It is an opportunity presented to me and I must take advantage of it!

I was given a child to hold – not because I was a child at the time – although in many ways I was LIKE a child – innocent and naïve, very little life experience, and beginning a whole new life from the beginning – – was given the child to hold to remind me to care for myself as I would a lost frightened child. With tenderness, gently, slowly, understandingly, compassionately and with much loving understanding and acceptance.

I woke this morning after another night of strange dreams, which I’ve been having for some days now, but never thought to connect them to the panchakarma, even though the doctor mentioned that I may begin cleansing through dreams as well. The dreams, even before coming to India, for many months now, have had recurrent themes revolving around my ex-husband, mother-in-law, etc., in situations of varying degrees of absurdity that only dreams can bring about.

But this morning I had an extremely powerful AHA! Moment. I had woken up with the deep need to reread the memoirs I had begun outlining for myself almost 5 years ago. For the past 4 years I have not written a word. I have not felt the inclination to write again over all these past 4 years, and sitting here today, in my room in India, reading the previous entries, has triggered a thought process which may seem overdue, but, as I so well know, is beginning exactly at the time when it should for my Higher Good. It has occurred to me several times over the past years that I really should get back to writing about my journey inward, but I could never seem to find the inspiration to pick up pen and paper. While reading I felt as if I was reading something penned by a stranger, and yet at the same time by someone I knew intimately. An extremely strange perception to say the least.

When I went the clinic this morning the first thing I did was discuss this with the doctor and ask if the detox process of panchakarma goes beyond the physical, and he said “obviously”. He was quite pleased to hear what is happening with me as most of his clients fight this in depth part of the process and prefer to remain purely in the “physical”…this would of course render complete detox impossible, as we are much more than just the physical. A powerful catharsis has begun and panchakarma is the (more…)

This is for me the beginning of a personal effort to recapture and understand the rhyme and reason, insight and lesson, and even beauty associated with what would appear to be a single event but which is really the culmination of a long series of synchronicities which lead up to, and even followed the event itself.

So, where to I begin? Well, those of you who have been following my blogs know of my wonderful friend Abdellah and our very special relationship, which included not only the lovely times we spent together in India, but even a 9 day visit I made to Paris to spend time with him in March of 2006. You can read a short account in the blog posts: http://mindfulnessjournal.blogspot.com/#114495322641587364

Abdellah is the only person I ever knew who truly and literally lived each day as it if was his last…truly lived in the moment.

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I am a former American, living in Israel for the past 45 years. Mother of 6, grandmother of 16 ,healer, Reiki Master, Israeli folkdance enthusiast, enjoying the wonder, surprise and blessing of every step of the wonderful journey called “Life”.I have been living in India, Rishikesh to be exact, every year for the past 10 years – several months of each year – and it is indeed another part of my amazing journey.