Sunday, September 21, 2014

Now We Are…Sixty?!?

Gosh.How on earth
did that happen?!?!

At any rate, Happy Happy Birthday to me and to Bruce (Springsteen, of
course) whose b-day precedes mine by a few years but follows mine by a few days.How is that for a riddle?Extremely lame?Yes, I agree, but what can I tell you, I AM lame.ha ha ha haI know, I know I am hopelessly
corny.Happy birthday Bruce and thanks
for being a remarkable entertainer and human being.I know some people consider him controversial,
but there cannot be any argument about the abundant good works he does, many of
which go unknown.

As for me, it has been quite a sextet of decades, that is
for sure.I have had amazing experiences,

ups and downs.While the hard stuff has been extraordinarily
challenging, the good has been so spectacular that it far outweighs the bad. Most
of the good has revolved around my children.I was blessed to be mother to four cherished human beings.In ways they will never know, they have
provided me with moments of such pure, sparkling joy that I am literally left
without words.Those times, some simply
seconds of an exquisite baby smile or a spontaneous, merry hug, shine up
through the years.I hug these memories
to myself. They are my treasure.

Even though every day brings struggles, I have so much to be
grateful for.It is hard, especially
when I’m dealing with a lot of pain.But
during the hard times, I pray and then I list for myself the things I am so
lucky to have.My darling grandchildren and
my wonderful, generous friends.I still
have a roof over my head, although I am not sure for how much longer.Then there are the little things.A perfect cup of tea.A good book.
The tactile satisfaction of embroidery, like painting with thread. The soft murmur of rain.My
little dog who wants nothing more than to be adored and my even littler cat who
is a constant source of irritation but she
is unfailingly attentive and as a result it is hard to dislike her.

I miss my mother particularly on my birthday.We had
a fractious relationship for much of my life, but we were so different we were
bound to clash.I was not what my mom
had wanted or expected in a daughter, I had wildly divergent values and goals
from hers.I simply bewildered her at
times. As I got much older I made an
effort to understand her and not deliberately provoke her by challenging her ideals
and taste, as I had for such a long time.My sister and I had many a good cackle in private, but I was truly sorry
I had disappointed her and then rubbed her nose in it.I talk to her all the time now, telling her
how much I regret our lost time.I
believe she is watching over us from her place in Heaven, where she is healed
and happy.Believing she is happy and at
peace at last gives me great satisfaction.But more than anything I wish she was still here.

One thing I have been especially grateful for has been the
opportunity to express myself through this blog.Writing has been one of the most rewarding
things in my life.The sheer pleasure of
stringing words together in a way that appeals to people has been a
delight.Sadly, someone I love deeply
and whose opinion matters to me, recently told me that they considered my blog
something hateful and destructive to our family. I have never deliberately done
anything to offend anyone I love, so I was stunned to hear this.The idea that something I was having such fun with unknowingly caused hard feelings just sucked the spirit right out of me The accusation has tainted what had previously been such source
of pleasure and I have had a hard time finding my way back to writing.But I am trying and also trying to be
attentive to anything someone might find objectionable.

Moving on….

What could be nicer than a window seat and a book on a rainy
day?

I have amended A. A. Milne’s sweet poem.My bit, with abject apologies to Mr. Milne,
is added in bold.

Happy Birthday, Marie! Mine was on the 7th, so we're both September babies! I enjoy your writing, and I can't see why someone could find it 'hateful.' I, too, had similar problems with a 'reader.' So I shut down my blog and will open another soon.Enjoy your special day -- surround yourself with those you love.

Happy (belated) birthday, Marie. I hope this one doesn't disappoint, but brings you a measure of happiness amidst everything else you're dealing with.

When I get negative comments from readers, especially those who are not "regulars," I just ignore them. They aren't worth the aggravation of starting up a new blog. IMO, that's catering to them. So, keep your blog as it is, and don't worry about being misconstrued; apologise or explain as necessary and let it go at that.

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Origin

Welcome to Nourish: living, laughing, whining. Here is a blog where you will find encouragement, boring stories and, best of all, self-pity!

Yikes, what a journey this is!! Who needs to do it alone?!? And without laughing?!?

This started out as a blog for weight loss support, to nourish ourselves as we slimmed down. ha ha ha ha Ok, at least for me, that didn't happen. But lots more did, so I started writing about that instead.

Now in my posts I consider how it helps to have a sense of humor while exploring life. Although it is still important to take care of ourselves physically and emotionally. Don't forget that.

This site was inspired by the brilliant ideas and input of many dear friends.

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About Me

I am a 60-something writer and I spend much of my time pretending I don’t have Multiple Sclerosis. I have limited success at that. Unfortunately, life did not think MS was quite enough and I am also fighting Stage Four breast cancer. The rest of the time I write, I read, I knit, I sew. I obsessively watch documentaries about the British Royal Family. Ok, just kidding about that last one. Sort of. It’s NOT obsessive.
I am an inveterate Anglophile. I am grateful for my children, for my grandchildren and for my many, many wonderful friends. I think vodka is underrated as a coping mechanism. I adore my little dog. I wish I could marry Dick Cavett, Conan O’Brien and Bruce Springsteen. But not at the same time. I realize two of them are out because they are already married. I thought that still left Dick. But I just found out to my dismay he is taken as well. Sigh. Further proof you can't always get what you want.

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Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. --Mark Twain