I pray that God will grant me the serenity to accept the things I can't change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to hide the bodies of the people I killed because they were annoying.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

I don’t care that much about work anymore because it’s apparent the big bosses are not. Two of my good friends are leaving the company and if you have been following my writing, you would know that I would take the longest time to befriend someone. Here we go again.

I have been writing a lot lately – poems and just rants. Somehow I felt that I have this desperate need to prove myself as a writer. Not necessarily a good one. Just a writer.

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

We spent the whole of last weekend away from the city. Well, at my parents’ to be exact. I didn’t realize how much I needed that little break until I was physically there.

The water was freezing cold and yet I couldn’t get enough of it. I don’t recall having tap water that cold in the city. It was surprisingly cool and refreshing. Just what I need to lift the pressure off my shoulders and wherever else they might be sitting on.

The company was even better; in fact it was just perfect. Everybody managed to make some time to drop by though not together at once. I got to see my nephew, all better from an episode of pneumonia and also my niece whom suffered a broken arm almost a month ago. The little darlings made excellent recovery and seemed to be enjoying the extra company. I feel bad for not being able to be by their hospital beds but I suppose that’s the price I have to pay for being a million miles away from them. All of my siblings are a stone’s throw away from my parents. I am always the odd one, always the furthest from the family in distance but always the closest at hearts. I guess I’m not done proving to them that I am independent. – Smiles –

By the time we got back to the city, my temperature was off the charts. I couldn’t really sleep the night before – the coughing was worse than ever and I had a few minutes of breathing difficulty but no fever. So when we reached home, put away all the luggage and Coco (the cat), we wasted no time and headed to the hospital. The waiting room was full to the brim. So full that some patients (or their companies) had to loiter around the waiting area. We were there for an hour and a half before being summoned to see the doctor. He dispensed a long list of things to keep check of; blood sugar level, fever temperature and so on. We waited another hour for the bill and meds; that by the end of it all we were so hungry and headed to GE Mall for a quick bite.

Little did I know that the dinner was the last of my proper and prosper meal.

Then after, I retched whatever food I had and couldn’t take anything except toasts. I could only muster to eat 5 pieces of toast the whole of yesterday, apart from gallons of water. Today is no different; I had 4 pieces of toast, gallons of water and nothing else. I feel so weak but couldn’t force myself to take anything more than that. I just had a few pieces of chicken nuggets and already my tummy’s behaving a bit weird. Let’s hope that I’m not going to waste these as well. I have already lost 2 kg, not that I’m complaining but I need to eat real food. Sigh.

I have been missing work for 2 days and a lot has happened in the office. I am scheduled to participate in a conference-call to Regional Office tomorrow but I don’t think I can make it. I plan to have a light and easy day tomorrow.

We’ll see how it goes.

Oh by the way, FIL is in the hospital; warded because of his diabetic condition. I have not had the chance to visit him with me being sick and all. Probably I’ll pay a visit during the weekends. Deli on the other hand has been going to the hospital every day, on behalf of us all. Our prayers for him; for his speedy recovery and better health condition.