Thursday, June 8

It's okay

"I am writing roughly from 8 AM to 10 PM every single day. Later when I am facing a chapter deadline. I have filed 240 pages with my committee and will file the final 160 later this month, I hope. Although that will probably entail writing until 1 AM instead of 10 PM."

But I just can't do it. I don't have near as much to my committee. I'm moving house. I've got other things pressing on me. Working like this fucks me up.

8 Comments:

Anne-- good for you. And in case it makes you feel any better, it's not dedication or any kind of work ethic that is keeping me going so hard... it's pretty much mortal terror of having to find a new dissertation chair, because mine is leaving the university this summer and I would have to teach a whole new person from scratch what the heck alternate reality games, etc. are. No one in my department works on technology and it was nearly impossible to get someone on board with my project... so basically I'm fighting for the life of my project~ finish now or who knows what would happen to it!

I've always been wondering how people supposedly do that anyway, writing/working on something like a dissertation or a lengthy exam paper for more than eight hours a day over a period of several month. I mean, I have to take out my trash, go grocery shopping, earn my living (and tuition fee) somehow, cook, do the dishes afterwards (because otherwise the cooking smells will linger for day in the whole apartment …) and at least every once in a while clean my apartment (for I cannot concentrate under messy conditions …). Also sometimes I do get this strange urge to be among and talk to other human beings, preferably friends or family. One must have a very supportive boy-/girlfriend/spouse not to have to bother with most of this (or still live happily in ones parents basement …). Or maybe I'm just not organised well enough … *sigh*

thanks everyone. and anonymous - my mother always told me that behing every successful man is a woman, and my case it's simply reversed ;) without the stability and joy of my relationship and home life, none of this would be possible.

Well, I think being like Jane can be good, but there also some cons at his place. Well, it is good have a break every once in a while, especially working with abstract of thesis that can really be hard. That way, you can rest and refresh your mind so that you it would be fit to use.