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She had done an all – nighter preparing for another useless business task at a price that fills the pockets of her masters.

Someone else came up out of the earth at that moment. Heavy density, the origin like gravity, like the 4th force of the universe. He, She, it, animate, inanimate, phantom like yet harder and denser than the most dense matter from the stars. This life form he was dealing with had reached a its dead end. Of course, this often happens with many species. They reach a point where they cannot adapt and surviveWill these humans evolve into another humanoid like form? Will they be able to adapt to the conditions they have created in their foolish lack of forsight?

Not to worry, it would feel nice to do some whimsical things.

It reached into itself and pulled out several scenarios.

In this moment, a handsome young man made his way to the coffee bar. Behind him came our female friend lost in her anxiety over finishing her work project. She could smell him, sending a warm wave from her third eye to her groin. She saw herself with this man, whereupon he turned around. He very gently placed a hand in the small of her back. He looked into her eyes, and she pressed her mouth on his, touching the tip of his tongue with hers.

This was like a dream come true. How could this happen this way? How could this happen so quickly?

He ordered his coffee with his arm around her waist, she nuzzling her nose and lips into his neck. She felt very secure and confident for what she had to do in an hour and a half and he ordered exactly what she wanted without having to ask. They got their coffee and retired to a table outside obscured from the view of others. They took a few sips of their coffee, staring each into each other’s eyes, hands touching. She had on a skirt to her knees, no panties; a plaid with blues, greens and black with a black skin tight top, no bra. Her voice made his cock rock hard. She sensed it and opened his pants, freeing it in into the morning air. Her right hand found the tip giving the motion, which is perfect for him while his tongue probed her mouth, leaving the coffees on the table. Soon she was in his lap, burying his cock in her wet quim, and squeezing it with the muscles made fit from those hundreds of thousands of Kegels she did for years. They kissed wildly. Her vagina massaged that rock hard pulsing penis and felt the cum rising out of his balls several times, which she halted mid shaft, giving him the shivers of body orgasms she was experiencing. For some reason, this drew people walking by.

People pulled in, parked, getting out of their cars, getting some coffee of their own, some of them engaging in their own orgies and couplings. Meanwhile, on the street, two cars smashed head on with a fire truck close behind them, full of firefighters also after their coffee. They parked mid street, walked in and ordered before they extracted the injured and dead from the wreck.

Our friend from up out of the earth was laughing now. Here once again, some sex and death with a decrepit species. It wasn’t the great energy fucks he was used to in his interdimensional travels. Not so unlike other lower life forms he encountered, conjugating and fucking and exchanging genetic information. This is a species fast becoming infertile. Not only in body, also in thinking and neuro evolution. It felt pleasant to watch death filling the street with blood and shit from spilled guts, and to feel the fucking and the bodily fluid exchange from those who were oblivious to the carnage which had occurred outside.

Now in another dream on another day, the new POTUS and his cronies had gathered together to cause the destruction of the administration they hated so much. In this moment, the generals and the elite strike force they created needed for such a coup and execution, rushed into the room, weapons raised, killing all. At that point, another weapon was introduced, which disintegrates organic matter, and all traces of them vanished. Not even dust remained.

Back at the coffee shop on that other day, people changed partners and continued to fuck and fuck and fuck. The firefighters watched and drank their coffee. The cops showed up, the forensics team showed up. A lady coroner arrived who should have been a pin up in some men’s magazine from the 1950s. She grabbed the battalion chief on the fire truck who was another pin up from the calendars some cougar women hang on their walls. They grabbed each other and lay in the blood and shit and piss in the street and created a fuck fest spectacle that even the worst scat porn people will shit their pants watching….

In my college years I aimed my curriculum at Veterinary Medicine. I pursued what my parents wanted for me. I didn’t chase my dreams – writing, art and photography. I had an education trust. School (ASU) was cheap like $160.00 /semester and books. However, I had to live so the trust gave me a nice little stipend and I went to school for six and a half years including graduate school. It was a complete paradigm flip from art to science and I did it and loved a lot of the knowledge and direct laboratory experience. My inheritance bought me a new, in 1972, Datsun 240Z for transport and I drove the piss out of it for eleven years. I drove ninety on the freeway everywhere. We had KDKB, the cutting edge underground station and KJZZ and I had a cassette player in there so I was tuned. I still aspired to be the best front man Phoenix turned out ever and didn’t even own a microphone. Deep inside me I had what I believed was unresolvable emotional pain so relationships with friends and women were tough.

I craved the deepest connection with a woman and yet when awesome women presented themselves I would have great sex with them and distance the next day. During a two year period, four women proposed to me. They were all highly valuable people with excellent integrity and made something of their lives inside and out. I kept myself from getting what I dreamed of having because of a weird, depressive self-hate. I used inordinate amounts of chemicals, hoping they’d make me feel better and my whole emotionality seemed like a gloomy toilet full of misgivings which didn’t flush. Every so often I would meet some woman who totally cleaned my clock and I somehow doomed myself out of her. Some of these women I am still friends with today. I love them with the intensity of any partner and have no desire to fetter them to me. It’s very fulfilling to have love with no possessiveness and unconditional friendship which could easily be sexual again and has been upon occasion. I have fully realized long ago how we live and die alone and it’s natural even though there is this connectedness we all feel. No persons, regardless of their physical connections will stay joined. It’s all ephemeral gone like life goes – a moment at a time.

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It has taken years of work on myself, experiential, writing and answering self help, self esteem questions. Also, a great deal of interactive work with others in self development trainings and best of all NLP training, workshops, and clinical. Today, I am opened fully, sometimes it seems too fully, expecting better out of those who do worse. In retrospect, it’s all paid off, one way or another.

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Many times when I am having very connected sex with a woman I have a profound sense of joy similar to our emotional and intellectual connections we experience privately and socially. These, to me, posit as my most favorite experiences. They are unparalleled journeys into sustained bliss. I feel her giving to me with her affections and I surrender fully to them in very receptive ways, allowing myself to fully appreciate the giving and the pleasures I experience. I give to her in such a way and she responds deeply, passionately and in her sustained orgasming. The appreciation I have for her in these ways gives me great fulfillment in the creating of pleasure – part of my life’s purpose.

To you whom we have the pleasures of enjoyment now, before and sooner rather than later, I salute you and what you do and what we will give to each other sustained in the eternity of the moments making this life.