Friday, 27 December 2013

Considering my future.

I wrote this post on January 7 2013. It’ll probably be long past
that now.I’ve waited a considerable
time before posting this because the issue became more controversial than I
anticipated.

Basically there was an incident involving some wake turbulence that
left me really rattled. I happened to be filming it. I posted the video on
YouTube for many reasons.

1.I wanted Bob to see it , to talk me through what had actually happened

2.I wanted other pilots to see what “caution wake turbulence”
actually means

3.I wanted ATC people to see it to understand what can happen when a
light aircraft gets too close to a larger one.

The following are NOT reasons
that I posted it

1.To show off

2.To look cool

3.To advocate that other people should try it.

Shortly after the incident I got a phone call, the crux of which
was that various people “requested” that I take down the video in case people
interpreted it as encouraging the above reasons. I complied. I’m not sure they
had the right to ask, but at the end of the day it’s their playpen. They don’t
have to let me fly their planes. They don’t have to train me. So I decided it
was a battle for another day.

I am concerned about the other part of the phone call, where the
word ”investigation” was mentioned. Another pilot had obviously filed some kind of report. The nature of which was unknown to me at the time. I had no idea of the scale, scope or possible consequences.

I won’t lie. I’m scared. For anumber of reasons. In no particular order:

·I’m scared that someone’ll figure out that I really shouldn’t be
flying*

·I’m scared that Bob is going to cop some sh#t for this

·I’m scared that the flying school will as well

·I’m scared that the above two points will lead to my relationship
with them both deteriorating (perhaps beyond repair)

I’m considering all my
options at the moment, which yes, do include quitting.

By the time I post this, I’ll have made a decision one way or the
other, this post will help explain how I got there.

* I always have that little voice in my head that tells me " this really isn't for you WMAP, just give up now"

About Me

I once was terrified...... now I don't know what I am.
I started this blog as The World's Most Anxious Person aka WMAP.
I was scared of flying but now, somehow, I managed to get a Private Pilot Licence.
These are my thoughts......