Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Life is stressful enough when your going to college and raising a teenager and then you get a phone call from one of your other children and they are going to the hospital, so you leave class early to go be with you kid, as they check her over, doing blood work, a CT Scan and then an MRI and they come in and tell you MS, not at all what you are expecting, your thinking a pinched nerve something of that nature, so you go home thinking your prepared for the next few doctors visits and then you run into a moron that shouldn't even be practicing medicine and they just cause your child an extreme amount of stress and of course my blood pressure is rising because I really want to tell the doctor what I think of them, but I won't add that to what my kid is already dealing with, so we leave, we make the best of the situation, but then I get a call yesterday and she is not doing well, her symptoms are worsening and so off we go again to the ER and thank God we get the same doctor from our first visit to the ER, she is amazing at the way she handles my daughter, helping her to calm down, she goes an consults with the Neurologists, they increase one of her medication and put her on soemthing for all the dizziness she is experiencing, all that they can do right now is to manage the symptoms until we go to the neurologists appointment, which we are still waiting on. It is hard to see your child deal with all of this, it is even harder when ti hasn't really sunk in that your child has MS, especially because we don't know what to expect, what treatment they will deem the best for her, with this disease there are so many unknowns because everyone is different. I am having a hard time processing this, it still doesn't seem real for me. The doctor did tell my daughter to get into a support group, I am hoping that will help her. I may need to find one myself, maybe between my journaling and blogging I will find my way. Because I know my child so well I think we are in for a bit of a bumpy ride. God give me strength and wisdom. Iwant to yell and scream but it won't change or fix anything but maybe then I would really feel something, right now I feel numb inside.