This is street realism through rhymes, beats, and rhythm /
I'm on a daily quest in search of peace and wisdom /
Observing while fools would rather speak than listen /
I'm everyday people, same time, I'm uniquely different

13. Dear Life

[FenaxiZ – Intro]
Huh, yeah, I’d like to dedicate this song
To the memory of everyone I’ve loved
Who’s passed on before me
Yeah, I keep y’all in my heart forever
I got your back no matter what

[FenaxiZ – Verse One]
Dear Life, huh, it was good while it lasted
As I look at the past, shit, I took you for granted
So before I’m put in this casket, I gotta make peace
In search of God like when Muslims face East
At least, the best part about death, y’all
Every end’s a fresh start so whatever’s next
Let’s not mourn or carry on with sad faces
Can’t escape this or backspace this so have faith
It’s all planned; cotdamn, I’m in God’s hands
Grateful I found myself in this lost land
This life, some take it, ’cause they can’t take it
With rose-colored glasses faded, they too jaded
Flesh decays; but not consequences of yesterdays
That’s why I try to touch lives when I bless the stage
So when my essence fades with the winds of time
Here’s a message placed to my fam and friends: I’m fine
As long as I had fewer failures than successes
A man of good intentions, I was taught all my lessons
The hard way: never ignore what your heart say
Love and laugh, ha ha, partay and parle
Can’t keep hate in your heart so forgive, but don’t forget
Play your part, make your mark, there’s no living with regrets
Humble yourself and understand the bigger you grow
More you learn the more you find just how little you know
When you’re younger, you never think one day an icy grip
Will pull you under, but any second can be your number
So ask yourself: are you prepared to go
Would you be ready to leave when your chest is heavy to breathe
Lights dim and the noise stops, your voice drops
Joints lock, trust, nobody stays, there’s no choice, y’all
But in the meantime, while you’re still here
Work hard, play harder ’til the end and don’t feel fear

[FenaxiZ – Chorus]
I never asked to come, but dear life, don’t let me go
For years, I’ve wondered what’s behind this door
And now that I’ve arrived, I don’t wanna turn the knob
I’ve never believed, but I’m begging with you God
Don’t take me yet, it’s still alot that I need to do
Is this the end, where my road’s been leading to?
“Close your eyes, my son, I’ll take away all the pain
Say goodbye to the sun, say goodbye to the rain”

[FenaxiZ – Verse Two]
Dear Life, huh, I never asked to be involved with you
Don’t take it personal, but yo, there’s so much wrong with you
All these years, you’d only offer me a somber view
Born in solitude so I do what I gotta do
I accept I can’t change what’s been manifest
Like I suspect that there’s no such thing as accidents
In retrospect, pain pushed pursuits of happiness
So I expect that there must be something after this
Is Hell a mindstate or is it metaphysical
Is Heaven a place or does it rep the pinnacle
Of achievement or could it be Heaven and Hell’s identical
Two sides of the same coin or am I being cynical
Everything under the sun has its time and place
So in my final days, my mistakes are mine to face
Through this chaos, I’m tryna change and find my faith
But looking at the bigger picture, all I see are lines and shapes
Why do my loved ones have to be taken
And tell me where does a dream go when you awaken
All I ask for is a sign, anything, just a statement
But talking to God, it’s like a one-way conversation
So I tell myself perfection’s a process
Whenever I dwell on all I’ve yet to accomplish
Don’t wanna waste away behind a desk in an office
‘Cause death comes, that ain’t a threat, it’s a promise
That ain’t a threat, it’s a promise
Death comes, that ain’t a threat, it’s a promise
Death comes, that ain’t a threat, it’s a promise
Death comes, death comes

[FenaxiZ – Chorus]
I never asked to come, but dear life, don’t let me go
For years, I’ve wondered what’s behind this door
And now that I’ve arrived, I don’t wanna turn the knob
I’ve never believed, but I’m begging with you God
Don’t take me yet, it’s still alot that I need to do
Is this the end, where my road’s been leading to?
“Close your eyes, my son, I’ll take away all the pain
Say goodbye to the sun, say goodbye to the rain”

[FenaxiZ – Outro]
Rest in peace to the homie Dwayne Foster
Aka D-E-K, Dek, yo your spirit lives on homie
Yeah, a big shout out goes to the homie Ralph Acepcion
Aka RapRap from Dabarkadas
Ayo, no lie, I literally just found out you passed away
Like two or three hours before I hit the studio to do this song
Yeah, rest in peace and one love to my sister Rachel Matta
Rest in peace to my lola, lola mommy
I still remember the last time I ever hugged you
Ayo, for everybody, this song is for y’all
I’ma see you one day