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Return of a New Age

It is April 22nd, the year: 2017 and I am 22 years old. I have not blogged in years though my heart has yearned to. I’ve done a lot of things my heart has yearned for and resisted more.

In the years I’ve been absent I’ve grown so much and learned even more. My faith has been tested, my walk slightly averted, but I’ve always returned to God.

There’s something about Him that makes life different. I can’t explain it.

Although I’ve done things I’m ashamed of (more details in my other blog, PinkCrosses) I always knew God was waiting.

As I am about to walk across the stage to accept my Bachelor’s Degree in Accounting this June, I’m doing something I’ve never done before: removing all negativity and distractions. I started with analyzing myself. Am I ready for what’s to come? How can I prepare myself? What steps do I need to take? What changes do I need to make?

Then, after answering these questions I developed a plan of action:

Step 1: Talk to God. We had a good ‘ole conversation… about everything.

Step 2: Talk to those who hurt you. I privately messaged those who have hurt me in any way and did something which took a lot to do. I apologized. (Even when I felt I did nothing wrong.)

Step 3: De-clutter your spaces. Clean. Clean your area and your mind. Meditate and let go of all the things from Step 2.

Step 4: Re-focus. Now that everything is cleaned up. It is time to refocus my new beginnings. I made a list of all the things I wanted to focus on:

God. Keeping Him first and returning to the kind of wholehearted worship I once had.

Relationships. Working on sustaining and improving the relationships I currently have and developing myself into the wife I want to be (no, I’m not engaged. I’m not even in a relationship but it’s good to start early) for a future relationship.

My physical health. This has been a long battle. My weight goes up and down.

My mental health. This includes studying for the CPA and battling my obsession with perfection. It also means I will be doing a summer long social media fast. (Wish me luck.)