You'll notice that I have not really gotten around to writting some sort of summer end summary. As much as I want to blame it on not having the time or being really busy or trying to focus on other things - none of thoes things are true - I simply have not wanted to.

The above is a poor attempt at a 360 degree view of my new dorm room. I'm all moved in and excited about having a nice new room and a suite with an awesome view. I'm excited about having new house plants to water and care for. I'm excited about the new blender my parents got me and to live with three new suitemates.

What doesn't excite me is hard work.

When I am confronted with my own aversion to doing something like taking the time to write out my own reactions and thoughts about the summer as a whole for you all, people who really truly care about it and want to know, I have a hard time mustering up the energy and will power to sit down and do it.

That is precisely why my Character Growth Plan (for those of you who have been following along) for the summer was to grow in naturally examining my own heart. It is NOT something that is natural for me to do and resolving to update this blog has been a real means of exposing my heart issues to the surface. The fact that it must be updated on a computer only heightens the fact. When, over the course of the sumer, I've finally sat down to try to update it my fingers often wander my attention over to other places scattered across the internet. My problem isn't that I'm just lazy. It's not the internet's fault. It's mine.

I've got a whole year ahead of me. Before that I have this one week ahead of me. There are meetings to plan, scheduals to organize, sign-up tables to sit at, parties to plan, supplies to gather, and all other manner of details to take care of. Beyond all of that there are real people out there who are broken and scared. There are Christians who just got on campus and are worried that they won't find a good Bible study or body of believers. There are also non-believers who are overwhelmed by the future and don't know what to do with themselves. They are devout athiests who are angry with their parents and everything else they were raised on (the church?) and are rip-roaring ready to rebel.

Those are eternal beings whose souls are on the line

and I'm worried about not being able to sleep in.

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Hello, I am Jason Knox

I'm going to Seminary for lots of bad reasons. I have good reasons too and now I'm trying to live a life of putting aside the bad ones, really pursuing the good ones, and being open to surprises. It's been a strange journey to get me to this point. I think what I've realized is that I actually do have certain life goals: 1) To fall deeper in love with Christ and 2) help Christians understand Christianity better (namely by allowing them to fall more madly in love with Christ too). In light of that, I've decided to come up with some career goals that are quite similar to my life goals (makes the list easier to remember). That's why I'm going to seminary. I'm taking steps to be a pastor of a church. I'm at Covenant Theological Seminary because what I want is to say with Paul, "For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus Christ and him crucified" and I have become convinced that Covenant is an institution that is committed to not only knowing about Christ but just actually KNOWING Christ. More than anything the best way to combat all of the bad reasons I have for going to seminary is to encounter and embrace Jesus. I want to be in a place surrounded by the people who wrote to me in a letter saying, "The education of our students is far more than a merely academic exercise--it is our ministry to you and to those whom you will serve in Christ's Church. Our goal is to walk with you--not only through your seminary years, but also well beyond--so that, by God's grace and for His glory, you may faithfully fulfill the ministry to which He is calling you." I'm so excited.

I'm (still) learning to be more open with people and offering of myself. This blog is a step in that direction (like a band-aid on a missing limb).