Confession is Good for the Soul

I have something to confess. Last night I made a post asking to donate to a water project for my birthday. I don’t hesitate asking because I know how dire the need is. And when I had my first person donate, it brought me to tears. Still does. But I have to confess something. I gave way to fear.

The reality is that I would like a goal of $5000 as that will fund the entire project. But I gave way to fear and only put $1000. I was too afraid no one would give and that the goal couldn’t be met. Furthermore I’ve struggled with this whole turning this particular number. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because I’m so far from home, family and friends. 🙁 I know it’s not because I feel old or think this number is old. I don’t. I really don’t. Although at times I had hoped/expected to be in a different place in life right now. But at the same time I’m glad to be re-entering the waters of missions and am looking forward to what is ahead. And my goodness, I’m in a tropical paradise! So again, I don’t know why it’s bothering me but it is. So the thought of going for $5000 is a risk to the heart. And fear gave way. So this morning I repented before the Lord and asked for permission for His grace. I ask the same of you.

This week I heard the expression pertaining to Peter’s walking on water that “I’d rather be a wet water walker than a dry boat talker.” That’s exactly the way I feel. So I’m going for it. If I don’t get to the $5k, I’d rather say that I gave it a shot then played my heart safe. But I need your help. Will you email this link to 7 friends? At this point I can’t think of any other way. Maybe through our connections we can together get this whole community in Africa clean water. And I just love the thought that we get to see actual pictures of this project. I couldn’t think of a better way to celebrate 40 years of my life.