PoMoHippy CharisMystic & LOVE ACTIVIST:
“Ministry means the ongoing attempt to put ones own search for God, with all the moments of pain and joy, despair and hope, at the disposal of those who want to join this search but do not know how.”
― Henri J.M. Nouwen

Blogging is a Moving Meditation.

BLOGGING as a MOVING MEDITATION:Liminality's thin passage untangles as it weaves, fits in the ineffable nooks and crannies of my heart's prayer wall, like the cracks in pavement, mile markers on the road, windblown whimsical napkin poems written in eyeliner.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

New Year and the tilling.

Mysterious Toast to this year... filled with wonder, new wine and light.

This year has come in with a fast and furious pace. New CD's being released.... Stephen Roach, Brandon Willett & Mark Stoney just to name a few. New birthing of home churches... Way to go Rebecca & Tim! Hit my link to "twentyfour/7 church"-Travels and Travails- Wow.... All i know is God's got something really cool up His celestial sleeve.

However... there is the "tilling" process that i'm feeling and sensing at this moment. Some of the major rocks need to be dug out of the field. Things like bitterness, anger, fear, rejection & unforgiveness is what i'm seeing, not just in my own space on this cosmic neighborhood plot, which i'm seeing VERY clearly. (despite the Merlot that is clamoring for attention.)

I'm seeing the terrain and it's slope & grade... where the irrigation ditches need to be developed. For most of US... (those that i know well... and some i'm getting glimpses in the Spirit)- these past 3 years in particular have been very dry... wadi like in it's vast expanse. What i'm seeing is that when those rocks are removed...

God's got WELLS in the Spirit... where fresh, pure and refreshing water is bubbling just beneath the surface. For some it is like the water at the place of Bethesda... and Angelic Host of the Most High God are stirring them so that the lame will walk. Some are like sulfur- mineral baths... that will sooth achy joints and muscles. Some are wells of revelation of His Spirit... and a deeper communion where the water will become wine and a portent of the New Wine in the Heavenlies.

This can't happen without FORGIVENESS.

Which sound rather simple... (yeah right)

Jesus said something to me ... not too long ago ... about Forgiveness. He said:"If it were not for the forgiveness extend on the cross... (Father forgive them for they know NOT what they do)... the Resurrection could NOT have taken place."

That stunned me... I just sat there as HE downloaded the revelation that ... if HE didn't forgive FROM the cross... He would have been bound by the sin of UN FORGIVENESS!

I had NEVER looked at it that way.... and i'm still pondering that one liner. But the verse ... "that He who knew NO sin, became sin for us"- smashed into my spirit like a wave, that He had to forgive the sins against HIM as well.

We have all known either by sins of omission or sins of volition... the pain that it has caused... The grief, the anguish, the sheer injustice of it. Sometimes i have to say... Lord, i believe,HELP my unbelief... because I can't do it ... it hurt too much... and it's even changed how i relate to people.

But then that verse in Hebrews 4 comes with it's salient point...

"For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weakness, but we have ONE who was temped in every way, just as we are- yet was without sin"

Ok... so it's not just me.... sins of generational proportions have filtered down. Judas was not confined to one of the twelve... but we all have been kissed by betrayal. So how do i do this.??? So how do WE do this?

It says "to confess our sins to one another that we may be healed"..... interesting that it doesn't say forgiven. But the point that sticks in my spirit... is that by the act of confessing our unforgiveness... and imparting that forgiveness... HIS hand can come with Healing.

OUR HEALING IS MADE MANIFEST.

I could go on for days on how i see the emerging church needing to "confess the sin of unforgiveness" to their/my forefathers of the faith. For what we judge - we become. But i'd rather keep it personal. For we are all in the process of Emerging...

I really want the "rocks" out of my garden ... so that HE can plant deeply His plans and destiny in the fruitful field that it was intended to be from the beginning of time.

But for me... that means allowing him to till the field and co-laboring in the digging out the stones that cover His wells... First i need to ask HIM to give me eyes to see them and then choosing to lay them down... before i hurl them at someone in a "fleshy" moment. (he that is without sin cast the first STONE thing)..... Perhaps older and wiser laid them down first.... or was it they just had a longer list?

I long to see the wells of HIS goodness and mercy uncapped in your lives!!!Love to each of you.... shalom, cathryn