The She Chronicleshttps://bats0711.wordpress.com
A Blog for the Alcoholic & Bipolar MindsSun, 31 Jan 2016 23:49:41 +0000enhourly1http://wordpress.com/https://secure.gravatar.com/blavatar/8f427ad44d31f403d372a0247f3bda6b?s=96&d=https%3A%2F%2Fs2.wp.com%2Fi%2Fbuttonw-com.pngThe She Chronicleshttps://bats0711.wordpress.com
The Fray ~ Because….https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/09/02/the-fray-because/
https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/09/02/the-fray-because/#commentsWed, 03 Sep 2014 03:10:05 +0000http://bats0711.wordpress.com/?p=2435]]>Filed under: addiction, alcoholism, Bipolar Disorder]]>https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/09/02/the-fray-because/feed/1bats071118 Years Agohttps://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/18-years-ago/
https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/18-years-ago/#commentsSun, 31 Aug 2014 08:39:52 +0000http://bats0711.wordpress.com/?p=2431]]>18 years ago I gave birth to a child that was not alive. I hurt every year on this day. Physically and emotionally. If you really know me then you know I love my kids. So damn much.

Sigh.

Thank heavens I was able to let that out just now ,because I thought my chest was gonna explode. I don’t have anyone I can talk about things like that to.

Wish me luck today y’all.

Filed under: addiction, alcoholism, Bipolar Disorder, Friends, life, Mental Health]]>https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/31/18-years-ago/feed/15bats0711Just a Tad Bit in my Brain, Good Luck y’allhttps://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/22/just-a-tad-bit-in-my-brain-good-luck-yall/
https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/22/just-a-tad-bit-in-my-brain-good-luck-yall/#commentsFri, 22 Aug 2014 06:52:03 +0000http://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/22/just-a-tad-bit-in-my-brain-good-luck-yall/]]>At what point in time are we not putting a boot in someones ass?

RIP dearest James Foley.

Again, at what point are we not putting a boot in someones ass?

I get peace. I don’t want to be at war, EVER.

But when do these ‘people’ have to act like human beings. You know, like you and I?

I heard there were 10 people held by these people. Whether that is true or not, who knows. It’s the media. All I know is James Foley died. In a very….well way. That’s all I know.

I guess I am just angry.

Filed under: Disaster, Health, life, Mental Health, politics]]>https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/22/just-a-tad-bit-in-my-brain-good-luck-yall/feed/3bats0711Let Us Explain Ithttps://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/22/let-us-explain-it/
https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/22/let-us-explain-it/#commentsFri, 22 Aug 2014 06:19:59 +0000http://bats0711.wordpress.com/?p=2427]]>Tonight or this morning which ever one works for you, I need to know how you explain mental illness and addiction to your loved ones. Not only explain it to them but get them to understand what you are going through.

I am thoroughly frustrated. Well maybe not frustrated but want people to understand.

I know how I feel in my mind but can no longer explain it. I know how I feel in my body but can no longer explain it. I’ve explained it out the ying-yang and no one gets it.

Okay good news!

I have a doctor’s appointment to discuss medication management which means a lot since I am on none and need to be for my bipolar disorder. You have no clue. Or maybe you do. Who knows at this point.

I have zero desire to add what year he was born and what year he died, sigh.

This one hit ME hard. Being Bipolar and alcoholic…how can I possibly know that I will survive this when this man couldn’t? Nobody in my life can understand those feelings. I keep hearing because you don’t have Parkinson Disease, because you can do this, just brush it off it doesn’t mean anything.

But it does mean something.

Dear Robin Williams,

You have changed the world not only by laughter and drama but by us knowing what Mental Illness can do this. So many are going to ‘try’ to seek help now because of you. Sir, thank you.

Respectfully,

An alcoholic, bipolarized Bats

Quite honestly this death took me for a loop. I shrug at it and hope I can continue on.

Filed under: addiction, alcoholism, Bipolar Disorder, Celebrities, life, Mental Health Tagged: Robin Williams]]>https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/15/2413/feed/2bats0711I Literally Watched Stupidity Tonighthttps://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/13/i-literally-watched-stupidity-tonight/
https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/13/i-literally-watched-stupidity-tonight/#commentsWed, 13 Aug 2014 06:18:57 +0000http://bats0711.wordpress.com/?p=2411]]>Tonight, in an AA chat room (and keep in mind this is just online) I watch so many people tell someone that was struggling that they were not sober because they were taking their prescriptions. They are Bipolar. They have alcoholism.

Should they not take care of their brain?

I was very quiet and kept it all to myself.

Really? Are people with a brain disorder not allowed to treat it because they are addicts and alcoholics? I mean really? Are we still in the 1990’s?

I shake my head tonight and hope this person is okay.

I am waiting two weeks for an appointment for someone to help me with prescriptions with Bipolar Disorder, I hope AA will still accept me because I want to be sober. SIgh.

Two weeks ago I had an ambulance come to my house to help me. I don’t know really what for…I think for panic attacks but they made me feel like those were no big thing.

“Eh, let her pass out. It would be better for her.”

I do not understand how panic attacks are nothing to people. I know this seems unreasonable right now but, I thought I was dying.

I just want a normal life.

I want a normal life for them.

Filed under: addiction, alcoholism, Bipolar Disorder]]>https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/08/10/normal-is-for-the-easy/feed/14bats0711Soccer Mom???? Really?!!!!https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/05/10/soccer-mom-really/
https://bats0711.wordpress.com/2014/05/10/soccer-mom-really/#commentsSat, 10 May 2014 06:21:36 +0000http://bats0711.wordpress.com/?p=2404]]>There is nothing more satisfying than a coach asking if your daughter will be at every game through the season and to please have her show up on the games for the tournament (that I had no clue would happen). Nothing more disappointing than knowing you can’t be there for the one game she would want to be there for. Sigh.

Smarts, needs to go up against this team. For three seasons she has and they have a boy (manboy) who is so much older than the other kids and Smarts is getting ready and IS ready to finally take him but yet we won’t be there for that game. Talk about a let down for Smarts. Double sigh.