it's my first grade of the year.solid 100 percentand i feel a thrill as i look at it even thoughi hate this system. and it's not even a thrill because it's a good gradebecause god only knows that grade has a whole semester to go down.it was only based off of a few things anyway. no, that thrill came from the simple reality of having a grade. that curse of last year. that reinstituted prison. i hate having grades. i hate the way having your learning evalutedkills it. i hate how subjects i used to likeare converted into numbers on a pageand those numbers determine my future. i hate having to obsess over these,and i gloried in having a whole summer free of it. and now the prison is back, and i welcome it with open arms. because i no longer know how to evaluate myselfwithout it.

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aesythe

Sep 05, 2018

"I hate the way having your learning evaluated kills it." Couldn't have said it better myself. What a paradox, right? The school system gives you all these rule(r)s with which to measure yourself, and though you hate the way they confine you... how else are you to judge yourself? Even in my mid-20s I still sometimes hear people discussing their SAT scores! You may never truly wriggle your way out of these systems, especially if you have college in mind, but I hope you can come to acknowledge that grades and numbers are only a small facet of who you are. ...although that said, be proud of your 100! :)