Some antidepression drugs are absolute lifesavers for many patients. But drugs are not always perfect for different patients, and obviously neither are doctors. I'm living proof. For my bouts of depression, I was prescribed a broad spectrum of drugs over time, from mild antipsychotics all the way to antiseizure medications.

When I was on an antiseizure medication, I felt like a zombie. It made me feel cloudy and disconnected from everything. When I spoke, the words sounded like a jumble of mass confusion. I could feel my creative edge and mental sharpness blunt and fade, and I hated the feeling.

Then I was put on an antidepressant medicine. I won't name it, because my experience may not be typical. I can tell you it wasn't Prozac. This drug made me feel agitated, psychotic, and eventually suicidal. I was having serious conversations in my brain about how to kill myself. Should I jump out the window? Jump in front of traffic? Suck a bullet out of a gun barrel? I'm a gun owner, so this is an extra-dangerous thought process for me.