Bless This Mess

Snapshot 04.28.15

–Hello! The sun is shining the air is clean, and I am not longer on that horrible medicine regimen that caused a fantastic array of side effects, including but not limited to: palpitations, agitation, extreme drowsiness, insomnia, back pain, neck pain, crazy itching, depression, nasty mouth-taste, thirst, suppressed appetite, depression, anxiety, headache, congestion, nausea, and dizziness. At one time or through the medication’s entirety, I had all of them. Because of course I did. I’m the poster child for bad medical reactions. But I tolerated it enough to take the whole course, and hopefully this helps fix me. I like the way my friend Ellen described my condition to another friend: “she is imploding from the inside and right now they are doing the best they can to shore her up.” Pretty much. This afternoon I have an appointment with my specialist to go over biopsy results and discuss treatment. I’ve been off and on bummed about it because the likely for invasive surgery is pretty high. But as my friend Stef keeps reminding me, the sooner I get this done, the sooner I can get back to feeling better and hopefully requiring less naps a day than my baby.

–I broke my blog somehow. I’m not even sure how I did it. Hopefully by the time you read this it’s all patched up, but right now if you go to the home screen it’s totally blank except for one sad button. My super nice hosting company, Twenty70, is going to figure it out for me. Probably. Unless I broke it too hard. I don’t know.

–Isobel had her first dentist visit yesterday, and while she was definitely not pleased with it (sorry bb, I hate it too) she has perfectly healthy teeth with no cavities. Hooray! I would love to take credit for this, but like so many things in parenting, you can only take credit for so much. I make sure she brushes and flosses her teeth (those little pic things make flossing fun and easy for her) but genetics does the rest. I used to work with a friend in the library who took better care of her teeth than I did and was always having cavities filled and root canals done. It’s the luck of the draw. I am so glad we don’t have to drag her through the pain and expense of getting a filling–yet, anyway.

–I’m eating more normally again, about two meals a day, which is pretty great, but right now my fatigue is so bad that I want to fall asleep constantly. I think my body wants to induce a Sleeping Beauty coma state so it can heal, but the joke’s on it! I can’t heal on my own. That’s probably what I’m looking forward to most, even if I have to have surgery: being fully awake during life again.

–Isobel and I have been playing Goat Simulator every day since Anthony bought it. I think he thought I was joking when he came home from work and I took his face in my hands and said, GOAT SIMULATOR IS NOW ON XBOX LET’S BUY IT NOW. He said something along the lines of, are you sure you will play with it, or do you just want it because it has goats in it? Reader, I did not divorce him right there, but I was sorely tempted. We bought the game and since it has a two-player mode Isobel and I have been using it to cause mayhem and destruction on a daily basis. Isobel is a found of personal mission ideas, or as I like to call them, free DLC for Little Big readers. For example, fill an empty swimming pool with garbage and call it “goat furniture.” Next, destroy each shop in search of money, then pile all the cash on the second floor of the hotel. This is called “goat bank.” Then, find some people minding their own business, and as Isobel says, “Disturb them.” Here’s a quick video (safe for work) that shows you what it’s like to play this game, and it makes happy deep, deep in my soul. When we tried describing the game to our friend Dave he said, “That sounds like a fever dream.” Pffffff. I wish my fever dreams were this cool.

–Isobel named her goat “Joonifer,” a name that she swears that she made up. My goat is named Francoise (Ed for short). We were playing GS while Anthony had his regularly scheduled D&D night at our house, at one point Isobel said, “Excuse me, bros, but I have to get back to my goat party.”

–I’m making progress on the new design and should finish up with that and move to finishing posts soon. I have about a half dozen in my draft folder in varying stages of completion, and I’m excited to getting back here. I’ve been so sick and lethargic that keeping up with the kids (most of my time and energy) and the house (much less so) is all I can do. I’m really looking forward to recovering some of my normal energy and stamina again.

–Internet pal Bethany of Reware Vintage has just opened up a fabulous vintage shop on instagram called NaptimeVintage. She’s got tons of great stuff and great prices. Check her out!