8.07.2013

It's time to get serious.... I was often alone, but I never lived
alone. When I was with someone I was often happy. But I also felt it's all a
matter of chance. These people are my parents, but it could have been others.
Why was that brown-eyed boy my brother, and not the green-eyed boy on the
opposite platform? The taxi driver's daughter was my friend, but I could just
as well have embraced a horse's head. I was with a man. I was in love. But I
could just as well have left him there, and continued on with the stranger who
came toward us.... Look at me, or don't. Give me your hand, or don't. No, don't
give me your hand, and look the other way.... I think there's a new moon
tonight. No night is more peaceful. No blood will be shed in the whole city....
I never toyed with anyone. And yet, I never opened my eyes and thought: 'This
is it.'... It's finally getting serious. So I've grown older. Was I the only
one who wasn't serious? Is it our times that are not serious? I was never
lonely. Neither when I was alone, nor with others. I would have liked to be
alone at last. Loneliness means at last I am whole. Now I can say it because
today I am finally lonely. No more coincidence.... The new moon of decision. I
don't know if destiny exists, but decision does exist. Decide. Now we are the
times. Not only the whole city, but the whole world is taking part in our
decision. We two are more than just two. We personify something. We are sitting
in the People's Plaza, and the whole plaza is filled with people, who all wish
for what we wish for. We are deciding everyone's game. I am ready. Now it's
your turn. You're holding the game in your hand. Now or never. You need me. You
will need me. There's no greater story than ours. That of man and woman. It
will be a story of giants. Invisible, transposable. A story of new ancestors.
Look. My eyes. They are the picture of necessity, of the future of everyone on
the plaza. Last night I dreamt of a stranger. Of my man. Only with him could I
be lonely. Open up to him. Completely open, completely for him. Welcome him
completely into myself. Surround him with the labyrinth of shared happiness. I
know it is you.