Hajj Chronicles: Part 1: Why?

It’s a simple question, and if you didn’t know enough about Hajj – or have a deep emotional attachment to it – you may struggle to find the answer.

Why would someone leave behind the security of their home, their family, their enjoyment – to go halfway across the world and spend days and nights in a simple, unflattering tent – where the only physical comforts are a mattress, blanket, and pillow (if they’re fortunate enough to get that).

Why would they leave behind the ease of riding in their car for a journey where they’ll be walking for miles and miles on dirty, congested roads, in huge crowds that they’d run away from?

Why would they leave behind the beauty of their clothing to wear nothing but two white, unstitched pieces of cloth – wherein they’ll look exactly the same as everyone else, with no physical adornments to separate them from the others?

Why would they go to a flat, empty plain – in the middle of a desert – to stand in the scorching sun for a few hours, reciting a few words, making a few requests, and crying their hearts out?

It comes down to motivation, and intention.

Intention

Everything starts with the intention, and the journey of Hajj is no different. Hajj starts long before you get to Makkah; and long before you leave your home.

In Islam, we know that the intention is absolutely critical. As the very famous hadith goes, actions are judged by intentions – and you will be rewarded according to what you intended. It’s a beautiful teaching that empowers one to know – without doubt – that every single (halaal) thing you do in life – if done with the right intention – can be considered an act of worship, which you will be rewarded for.

So when it comes to Hajj, it makes sense that the intention must be good – or else you’re wasting your time, energy, and money.

For me, my intentions were threefold:

to fulfil the obligation of Hajj placed upon me by Allah, thereby pleasing Him

to be completely forgiven for my lifetime of sins and mistakes, and

to be spiritually purified and strengthened to such a degree that I could make the important life changes and improvements that I wanted to make – thereby living a better life until my time on Earth expires

Danger

We also learn that intention is one of the most difficult things to maintain. The heart is unstable – always turning in different directions, so it can be hard to remain consistent in your motivations when you intend something.

But on top of that, the sworn enemy of mankind (shaytaan) is constantly trying to attack us – knowing that corrupting the intention would spoil the entire deed.

And the latter is most dangerous. Shaytaan works in the most subtle ways – slowly introducing thoughts, feelings, and temptations into our hearts and minds. And if we allow them in, they act like a slow poison, gradually infecting that intention and polluting it to the point that it’s no longer sincere or pure.

When it comes to Hajj, several things could spoil intentions, including:

the promise of a ‘holiday’ from the rigours and responsibilities of everyday life and work

the luxury and enjoyment of fancy hotels and good food which await in the hotels and restaurants (which you’ll frequent before the days of Hajj begin)

the opportunity to shop, shop, and shop some more – finding Islamic clothing, books, and other items that you wouldn’t normally have the opportunity (or money) to get

the esteemed status that many people in the Muslim community ascribe to you via the title Hajji (though I’m not sure if this is universal – it may just be a Cape Town thing)

As you can see, it’s a potential minefield to navigate.

So once you make your intention, your work really begins. For Hajj – like many things in life – we’re advised to regularly examine our intention and renew it; over and over – because if we preserve and protect the foundation / heart of the deed – then we preserve the deed itself.

Lessons to learn:

Actions are judged according to intentions – so it’s important to always try to make the right intentions

Intentions can be easily corrupted, so it’s important to stay on guard against all that which would pollute your intentions – both internal forces and external

It’s important to consistently purify and renew your intentions

With this, I end this first part of the series. I realise that this post didn’t actually start on the trip yet – but I felt it important to cover this, since it’s the very foundation of the journey. I have many lessons to share later in this series, as well as experiences – like the nine hours I spent lost after Arafah, the time I got hit by a bike, and the phone that disappeared in a place nobody would venture to go.

But those stories are for a later time – and I hope you’ll stick around long enough to read about it. Stay tuned for the next part – hopefully up in two weeks insha-Allah.

For now, I welcome your feedback – so feel free to leave comments below or send me a mail.

Update: The entire series (30 parts) is available at this link – post by post. Alternatively, you can download the complete series as an e-book in PDF format. Feel free to share with anyone you think may benefit.

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One thought on “Hajj Chronicles: Part 1: Why?”

For me during this hajj, keeping my intention pure was one of the greatest challenges. As you have mentioned, there are so many distracting elements: break from work, luxurious accommodation, food, shopping and so on. Then you have the pressure of not getting annoyed with people.

Subhanallah, hajj pushed me so hard that one time Shaytan came to me and whispered, “What is the point of going through all these hardships?” I reminded my nafs that I was doing it for Allah.”

Yet unfortunately, there were moments when I lost my cool: like when I was hit by a wheelchair during tawaf.

That is why intention is something that you have to remember constantly; not only at the beginning. Because Shaytan can pollute it anytime. He can pollute it even after the completion of the act of worship.

I really wish that I were more mindful about my intention during hajj. It would have made my hajj much easier than it felt. It is for this reason I pray to Allah that He gives me another opportunity to perform hajj, where inshallah I will be more cautious about my intention throughout the journey.

Links

Beyond Hajj
My other blog, focussing on my Hajj journey, and written for a multi-faith audience

Bridges Foundation
An organization that aims to open communication channels to narrow the gap of understanding between Muslims and non-Muslims; through educating both sides about the culture of the other.