Thursday, December 14, 2017

The Most Unexpected Forms

“’Cuse me, Mister. Do you know what time it is?"

Curtis looked down at the child standing next to him on
the bridge. An odd question for a kid

to ask, but it was a distraction from Curtis’s
contemplation of the choppy cold water below, and his wondering how long a
person who fell into the water would survive. Or, more to the point, how long
would they suffer if they didn’t survive?

He wasn’t planning to survive. He’d had enough, and saw
nothing better in the future.

What was a kid who looked to be about ten doing walking by
himself in the rain? On Christmas morning? With a dog?

Most people had fancy phones that told the time, but
Curtis couldn’t afford that. Never really could, but especially not since the
accident. He pulled up his sleeve and checked his watch. “About ten thirty.”

The boy nodded.

“Why do you need to know that?” Curtis asked.

“Well, last Sunday, the pastor said that at eleven
o’clock today they were going to have a Christmas dinner at the church. It was
mostly for the homeless, but everybody was welcome. Especially anybody who was
going to be all alone on Christmas Day.”

That would be me, Curtis thought wryly. His stomach
growled at the thought of food. He’d spent everything from the emergency SNAP
card, and had no way of knowing when, or if, it would be renewed.

Right after the accident, when she discovered he
wouldn’t be going back to work any time soon, Curtis’s girlfriend had moved on
to greener pastures. And he supposed his so-called friends were really just
drinking buddies or co-workers who really didn’t care. Why should they?

But how could this kid not have somebody to be with on
Christmas?

“You’re all alone? On Christmas? How’d that happen?”

“Well, not all
alone.” The kid pointed at the dog. “I got Arariel with me. But he can’t cook.
And I can’t, really, either.”

“Where’s your folks?” Curtis asked. Even if he were a
foster kid with no family, like Curtis had been, a social worker or somebody
would make sure he had someplace to go. With adults.

The kid shrugged. A tear glistened in his eye.

Curtis couldn’t just ignore the kid. His plans would
have to wait. “Tell me,” he insisted.

“My mom and dad had a big fight over where I was going for
Christmas. I was supposed to go with my dad, but my mom wanted to take me to
see my grandma in Ohio. We were going to go on an airplane. I’ve never been on
an airplane.”

“And?”

“My dad asked me where I wanted to go. I said I’d like
to visit my grandma. So he got mad and dropped me and Arariel off at my mom’s
house. But she was already gone.”

“He didn’t check to make sure she was home?”

“Nope. He just left.”

“So where have you been staying?”

“I know where my mom keeps the spare key. I got it and
let myself into the house. There’s some food there, but…”

Curtis found himself grinning. “But it’s lonesome,
right? And sometimes you need more than just a place to stay, even if you got
food there.”

The boy nodded again.

“You gonna go get the Christmas dinner at the church?”
Curtis asked.

“Yes. Can you come with me? They might not let a kid all
by himself in. But they would for sure if I had a grownup with me. You could
get a dinner, too.”

“Yeah.” Curtis glanced down at the river. He could come
back later. After he made sure the kid was all right. And had dinner. Didn’t
even condemned men get a final meal?

He held out his hand. The boy took it and together they
walked off the bridge, the dog following.

The wind from the river was picking up and the rain
changing to sleet. Curtis tried to pull his jacket closer around him, but it
didn’t help. He could feel the dampness on his shoulders and back where the
rain had soaked completely through.

The kid, at least, seemed to be dressed for the weather,
with snow pants and a hooded jacket.

They got to the church as the doors were opened. Warm
light spilled out onto the wet sidewalk.

A woman looked down at Arariel and frowned. “No dogs
allowed,” she snapped.

Curtis thought about saying Arariel was his service dog
and they’d have to let him in, but it seemed like a mean thing to lie to these
church people. After all, they were fixing this dinner for anyone who needed
it. He turned to the kid. “You go get your dinner. I’ll stay with Arariel.
Then, when you’re finished eating, you can come and stay with him while I get
something to eat.”

Reluctantly, the kid agreed. He pulled open the door and
went inside.

They are going to notice a kid by himself, Curtis
assured himself. Then they’ll make sure somebody steps in to take care of him.

He hoped wherever that was would take the dog, too, or
at least make arrangements for him to go somewhere safe.

The last thing he needed was to be responsible for a
dog. Not now, when he couldn’t even take care of himself. And when he’d decided
it was time to end this charade of a life. He couldn’t do that if he had to
take care of a dog.

They moved to a narrow niche on the church façade by a
corner. Arariel pressed himself back against the wall and lay down. Curtis
squatted in front of him. They were sheltered from the wind and the sleet. With
his heavy fur, the dog was probably warm enough.

Curtis wasn’t. He shivered, and a few seconds later,
shivered again, harder. His feet were wet, all the way through his boots and
the several pairs of socks. He pulled his watch cap down over his ears, but the
bare skin at the back of his neck was exposed to the cold.

Even if he went back to his tiny rented room, it would
be cold. And dark. It only had one light that worked sometimes, and the heat
shut off at dusk.

He closed his eyes and rocked gently on his heels, trying
to warm himself.

“Would you like something to eat?”

He hadn’t heard anybody approach, and looked up,
startled. In front of him stood a man with a tray of food. Fragrant steam rose
from it. Curtis inhaled. Gravy and turkey and spices.

The man smiled encouragingly and held out the tray.

Curtis took it. A plastic fork was stuck in a mound of
mashed potatoes. A slice of turkey and a slice of ham next to it. Corn and
beans and stuffing. He couldn’t take his eyes off it.

The man spoke. “I’m Pastor Williams. They told me
someone was out here. I figured if you wouldn’t come in, I’d bring some food
out.”

With his mouth full, Curtis didn’t bother to try to
explain about the dog.

“You know,” the pastor said. “We’ve got a clothes closet
here where you can find some warm, dry things. Even boots. And take a shower if
you need to.”

There was a bathroom down the hall from Curtis’s room
where he could wash up, but the water never got really hot and in this weather,
he didn’t shower much. He probably smelled bad. Just as well that he hadn’t
gone into the church to eat.

“We’ve got a program, too, to help you find a job.”

Curtis swallowed. “I was in an accident. I’m in pretty crummy
shape.”

The pastor smiled once more. “That’s all right. Some of
them are pretty crummy jobs. But they all pay something. And they’re a start.”

“Thanks.” Curtis thought about the bridge. As soon as he
finished here and got the kid and the dog settled, he planned to go back. Would
it be a waste if he got a warm jacket and some dry boots just to go to the
bridge and jump? “I’ve got plans for the rest of the day.”

“Oh?”

“Yeah. I just have to make sure somebody takes care of
that kid.”

Pastor Williams frowned. “Kid?”

“Yeah. This kid’s a boy, maybe about ten years old. He’s
by himself. Somebody needs to help him.”

“I’m sure the church ladies won’t let a child go without
help. I’ll check when I get back inside.”

“Thanks, Pastor.”

Curtis looked down at his empty tray in dismay. He
hadn’t saved anything for Arariel. Maybe the kid would bring the dog something.

He stood up and wiped his mouth with the back of his
hand.

“Perhaps you would come in out of the cold for a while?”
Pastor Williams said. “Help with the serving and the cleanup?”

“Well…” Inside would be warm. And maybe he could really
help out a bit. That would be a nice change from feeling so useless. And
hopeless.

The cold dark river water wasn’t as appealing when he
thought about the warm church hall. The river and the bridge would still be
there, though, if he decided to go through with ending it all. No hurry on
that.

“But they said no dogs in the church,” he said.‘I can’t leave the dog out here by himself.”

Pastor Williams looked thoughtful. “What dog?”

Curtis turned around to where Arariel had been lying just
a few minutes ago. No way was there enough room for him to have squeezed past
without Curtis noticing.

But there was no dog.

“He was right here…” Curtis looked around in confusion.

Pastor Williams looked grave. “You know,” he said,
taking Curtis by the arm. “Sometimes when we need them the most, angels show up
in the most unexpected form.”

15 comments:

Anonymous
said...

Taking a break at work... what a wonderful story! I just had to let you know. I like that country song, There are angels among us. And today, with your story... you are an angel of mine. Thank you. Merry Christmas!