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Beautiful Mess - Episode 23

Say Yes Loco Kismet. I shuffle down stairs in my jeans and off the shoulder sweater. "Are you going out?" Honey asks me and I nod. "Can you? Aren't you still sick?" "Geez, thanks for the vote of confidence" I say and she laughs, Mimi raises her head from some paper work. "Where are you going to?" Mimi asks . "The super market, we need groceries, since you decided to eat us out of the house, I have to restock" She pokes her tongue out at me and I shake my head. I turn to shout up the stairs at Jasmin. "Baby girl, am about to leave, let's go" "You are taking jazz?" Mimi ask and I nod. Jasmin runs down the stair and I almost get an heart attack. "Baby, never run down the stairs again ok?" "Yes Maman, can we go now?" I roll my eyes, I don't know where she got that version of mother. "See you later Mimi" Jasmin says and Mimi waves her on. We walk outside and get In my convertible before driving to the local store. "Moooom" Jasmin starts and I sigh before answering. "You don't have to whine jazz, I can hear you just fine" "You said we were gonna go to the big store" "Well we are going to the local store, you know I am not too fine, I can't drive for long" "Mommy.." She starts and I know I have lost the game. "Fine" I say and I pull out of the local store's parking lot and we go on a drive

. "You are the best mom" "I know, you should know that too" I say, flicking her nose and she giggles.

When we get there I pull into the last spot in the parking lot and we step out, I put on my sunglasses and Jasmin does so too. I hold her hand as we walk towards the entrance of the mall. I try not to think of the last time I was here and how good the memories where. I shake my head when they threaten to overwhelm me. I grab a shopping cart and we begin to walk down the aisle. "Maman can i get some oreos?" "Sure baby" I say as I peruse a brand of mints, it says on the label that it gives all day freshest goodness. Am sure Mimi will appreciate the irony, I add it to the rapidly growing pile before I turn to Jasmin. "Jazz baby, you can't have 9 packets of chocolates, put them back" I say to her and she pouts but does as I say. We go to the meat section and I get some beef, I am craving a little bit of suya, maybe I will barbecue some when I get home. We get some ice cream and cheese before we go to check out. Am standing behind a couple when Jasmin tugs on my sweater telling me that she just must have some s'mores, I nod and she runs away. I keep my eyes on her and I see her grab a packet, my vision is blocked by a chest and I try to look past but stop when I feel that familiar ache in my chest region. I dread lifting my eyes but I do and my world tilts on its angle. So. He is staring at me like he has seen a ghost, I can't help but try to take him all in at once. He looks so good, a little pale but very good. "Kis.." He starts in a broken whisper. I turn when the checkout lady asks if I wanted to do a card or cash transaction. I hand her my card as I try to make my self forget what I just saw.

Jasmin comes to stand beside me and she hands me the smores, I take it and pass it to the checkout lady. She swipes my card and bags my groceries, I take them and pull Jasmin with me. "Careful Maman" She says but I don't slow down, I don't even make it to the exit when his voice stops me. It's official, I am a loser, a big fucking loser, and yes I just used a cuss word. I can't believe even after all these years his voice still has the power to render me motionless. "Maman? Why are we stopping?" Jazz asks and I pull her behind me as I turn, I see his eyes on jazz and I see pain lance through them and I immediately feel the urge to calm him. Tell him everything was OK, I stop my self. It's no longer my right. "Kismet.." He starts and I open my mouth to speak but he falters before my eyes. I frown, what's wrong? Is he sick? "Baby, please let me.." He starts again but stops and he staggers, I drop my groceries on the floor and I run to him when he almost drops to his knees.

The moment I make skin contact I feel at home, the pain in my chest goes away. I lift my head when he tugs on my braid, I look into his eyes and he smiles a slow sad smile. "Heaven baby, you touching me, it's heaven" He says before passing out, I can't hold him up and we go down together. I begin to panic when I see the paper bag of drugs slip from his grip. Is he sick? Is it serious? I hope..

. I can't bear.. Not once did I think that he might be married and that I had no right to worry over him. I try to get his phone from his pocket but there's none inside. By now we've been surrounded by store goers. "Please, somebody, call an ambulance!" "I already did Maman, with your phone" Jasmin says and I nod, I turn to Garrett on the ground and I stroke his hair off his face. Before whispering. "Please stay with me babe" I say as I hear the sirens from the distance. AN. What do you think? Sweet right? Have a great day. Don't forget to like, rate and comment. Wish me well, tomorrow's the birthday Love you, yes you.