A lot of my life choices have been reckless and spontaneous. As I get older and work toward my goals, the reckless behavior continues

Self Awareness and Fortune Cookies

March has been off to a good start. I feel a lot more organized and a lot more happy and to top it all off I finally bought a new car! It was a very stressful process going from dealership to dealership trying to find what I was looking for but fortunately my older brother hooked it up! He has the connect at Volkswagen in Hayward (they have other cars besides Volkswagens) so I literally went in, told them my price range and BOOM out came my dream car.

I ended up buying a 2008 Nissan Sentra. The car was right in my price range, in great condition and the best part is that it is RED. I have always wanted a red car, so this really has me ecstatic. This whole week I have been driving around so happy and finally at ease with the whole car situation.

However, there is one irritating thing I still have to worry about. Stupidly I let the dude I was dating last month drive my rental car one time and he ended up getting a dent on the side of it when he was trying to parallel park. I really hopped that Enterprise didn’t notice it (it was very small), but they did, so now I am waiting to see how much that will cost. Currently so annoyed! I have to pay for damage I didn’t even do, but that’s what I get for trusting a clown (ladies don’t do it!) Everyone told me to reach out to him for the money, but I know his financial situation (broke phi broke) so I will just have to take the L on this and NEVER trust anyone with my car which is how I usually operate. Nothing but a learning experience… I just hope this isn’t an expensive L.

Meanwhile, I feel more self aware than I have ever felt. I posted this on Facebook a couple weeks ago:

“February is really evolution month. I feel like I’m learning from every single one of my mistakes #evolution“

I learned the lessons I needed to learn and now it’s time to take my own advice like Kehlani says in her song. I’m tired of being the person who doesn’t learn from their mistakes. I really have to give a shout out to my best friend Aliyah. I get upset at her, because sometimes I feel like she’s too hard on me, but honestly I need that tough love in my life. All my other friends sit there and watch me do dumb things over and over, but she will talk to me and make me cognizant of patterns. Without her and my sister Crystal, I would be like 40 making the same mistakes LOL.

Today I went to Panda Express (frequent readers know that is my comfort food). I haven’t been eating it as much, because I know it’s not good for you, but today I wanted to spoil myself. I thought I lost my fortune cookie and I was really upset. I look forward to opening the cookie and reading my fortune, even though I know it’s probably BS LOL. Anyways, I found the cookie deep down in my purse and this is what it said:

Striving for the best will bring you closer to the best

I love this! It really made me start thinking about my life and how I push myself. Although I have stressed at times, I do not regret going hard. I hope everyone reading this is also pushing themselves in 2017. It is still early and you have time to accomplish so much. Don’t sleep on yourself this year… you’ve been doing it for too long 😉 Have a great weekend ya’ll.