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June 23, 2009

All Around Her Things Bloom Nonstop

I laid on my bed reading Goodnight Moon to Gray over and over while he jumped on my back, paused to help me say "hush" and then jumped on my back again.

In between pages Carter ran through the room in his underwear, then did a little dance out the door. Noah entertained the baby on the floor and I blinked snapshots with my eyes. Carter's Vaudeville act blink. Gray's love for this story blink.

Remember this.

I'm guilty of thinking fondly of who I used to be and who I will someday be but who I am now? She is forgotten, un-lovely, and in need of quite a bit of maintenance.

But she is special and she is useful and she is something to remember.

She is a Gatherer: Moonlight, Found Wishes, Moments of Gratitude.*

This is my life right now, where I am. Today, not tomorrow, not yesterday.

So lovely. Being here is challenging. I want to soak up every moment of this messy/crazy/funny/gorgeous/irritating/sweet time that my son is little. Everyone says how fast it all goes and I believe them. Thank you for your graceful reminder.

I love that book. We read it to Luke every single night, and sometimes, I need it more than him.You are anything but unlovely, Steph. You're beautiful, and Beth was right when she knew that journal was meant for you.

When you wrote, "I'm guilty of thinking fondly of who I used to be and who I will be someday..." - I almost cried. Something about it really resonated. Deep down. Thank you for reminding me to cherish the present, while still remembering the past and reflecting on the future.

Beautiful! I can so totally relate to this, "I'm guilty of thinking fondly of who I used to be and who I will someday be but who I am now? She is forgotten, un-lovely, and in need of quite a bit of maintenance.

But she is special and she is useful and she is something to remember." Great writing.

Thanks for reminding me Steph. I think we all get caught up in our "roles" that sometimes we do forget who we are. I find my mind wandering sometimes thinking about the future . . . but you're right, live for today because tomorrow is not promised to us.

I love this. It's a reminder to not only live in the moment sometimes, but to also remember the moment, and to cherish not only others but also oneself throughout the various phases and moments of life. What a gift =)