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I know the numbers can be daunting, but it's the numbers that show the progress and that encourages me to change... it's just finding your own most motivationg numbers (the scale doesn't work for me)... body composition and inches do!

As for the binging, remember that all behaviour is purposeful (meets some concrete need), and to change a bad habit, you have to replace it with a better one. Instead of just telling yourself that your binging is 'bad' consider looking at what sincere need it fulfils and then find a better behaviour that will satisfy the need productively. Maybe it's even as simple as allowing yourself to 'binge', but only binging on celery (extreme example for effect). Likely whatever you choose to binge on won't satisfy in the same way, which will help you figure out what the need is.