How I Stopped doubting my creativity

I remember the first day I decided I wanted a camera.We were in Dubai for a short holiday with my family.To be honest I knew the decision to go there was a form of sorry from my dad after my puppy Pepper died.He knew it was somehow his fault and he saw how broken I was.This was a grand way of apologising .My brother and sister did all the shopping they wanted but I didn’t ask for anything else. Apart from a bottle of perfume and a camera .He thought I was nuts.I had no intention of being a photographer or a blogger. I just knew I wanted a camera. I’m naturally creative so I figured I’d make it work somehow. I had a Nikon D3100 in my hand, horrible settings ..(okay fine it was on auto) and unnecessary flashes taking pictures of everything. First few weeks after getting back home..I took pictures, horrible pictures. I found my sister sleeping, I took pictures, my dogs couldn’t stand me. I am honestly sorry for the next pictures you’re about to see.

First time doubt hit me like a wave. I was among a group of creatives on a trip. I was so excited .I could watch them, I could learn ..I could ask questions..creatives are amazing people. This would turn out soo good!

I had a D5300 then and a new 50mm f1.8. I was ready to roll! I don’t think I have ever disliked being around people the way I did that day. They were the best in the country though. They had gear worth roughly Kshs 1,000,000 each ($10,000) and that’s probably the person with the least . Asking to get a few pictures taken of me for my own blog posts was such a task .I mean my $400 camera wasn’t anything and I didn’t have a BIG name as a photographer right? My skill was non-existent to them. I wasn’t accepted and I vowed I wasn’t going to make anyone else starting out feel the same .A few months later I had my first food photography workshop. It was free. I wanted anyone else starting out to know they had a helping hand.

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Wild Earth Botanics

Binti Naturals

Chocolate chip Cookie

Afro Siri Salon

Hibiscus Tea

Pumpkin Spice and Almond Cupcakes

Pasta Dinner

A year later ,I am in a different country with a sizeable amount of gear to my name and a beautiful transition into portrait photography. I even had a bridal shoot to do! In two months of learning portrait photography from Seun Omolewa.

I look and their instagram pages and lol wondering why looking at them made me doubt myself . To be honest ,they won’t be able to catch up with my skill in a few months even if they wanted to.I have a different focus now.To make African people in Australia be SEEN .I work with a foundation that focuses on that.

I know who I am as a creative now.

It is not an easy process but I promise it will be worth it!

I recently started my photography business where I create visual content for websites and social media. I am so proud of where I am!