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April 26, 2010

the comfort in just being

Every week I buy flowers to put in jars or bottles that I [obsessively] save. Mums and daisies and this week, white roses. I'm certainly no interior designer, and I'll never pretend to be. I just like pretty little things around my house.

I enjoy taking photos and find it relaxing when I can sit down and look at them on my computer and have fun playing around with the editing. I'd never claim to be a photographer and will never pretend to be. I just like to take pictures. And so I will.

I love to knit, and am in the middle of a project I'm excited about, because it's for my house. But I don't really think I'd ever want to have my own etsy shop. I just want to knit for me, and for gifts. I like it this way.

I blog. And I find writing is one of my passions, but truth be told I do not blog with the hopes of getting a book deal someday. I am happy just blogging. So I will.

I am a Mom and while I would never personally consider myself The Best Mom In The World (many days I think I'm doing the WORST job at it, ever) (but I know that's not true either), I think my kids would call me that (the best mom in the world), so. I know a lot about being a Mom, but oh heck, I don't know anywhere near everything. And I will not pretend to.

I think it's perfectly ok to do neat things and do them just for the joy of it (or others) with no need of becoming a "professional whateveriam." I find comfort in just being. Me. No [yarn]strings attached.

You are such a great writer and I love seeing your cute kids all the time in pictures! I still can't get over the blank test! seriously?? That's weird! I'm sure that God has a plan and if He wants you to have more kids.. it'll happen! :) It's all in his timing{I got pregnant on birth control}, so I just try to trust that everything is going to turn out great! You are such an inspiration, and a great mom! I might be emailing you for some help when my first little one comes along in October!! Have a great week!

I love this post, because I feel this way about the things I love, too. Especially knitting... I feel like if I started doing it as a "job" it would lose all of its magic. Right now it's still this little thing I keep for myself, which is probably why I can't stop doing it. :-)

This really blessed me today. Sometimes I feel like every time I pick up a hobby, people expect me to climb the ladder until that "professional" label is achieved. I like to crack jokes, but I don't want to be a stand up comedian. I like to clean floors, but that doesn't mean I want to be a janitor. ;) I really enjoy just being, even if other people think I shouldn't. I do. And I will. Thanks for sharing. :) And, I'm sorry for the negative. Not because I think it's sad, but because I happen to think that you, like myself, are the type of person who takes such tests and until the day it becomes impossible, will maybe sigh a little tiny wistful sigh at every one that's not positive. Not because we're sad, just 'cause. But that's just my speculation. ;)

i struggle with this because i see some great work at home moms that have shops and i'm like "i can do that! i can sell those!' and i think i can become a little work at home mom person. but i can't. i don't have the time or the talent.

thank you for keeping this in perspective. i'm currently working on a little project for our home too.

If you are wanting a positive, which I assume you are!, I am sending much baby dust your way. I wish I could have more kids but it is not advised for me. :( I hope that you are able to have as many children as you are able to care for! :)

I totally understand your not wanting an etsy store and sometimes deeply regret mine-- because in an ideal world I would just make gifts for everyone all the time.

I constantly worry that people won't like the stuff they bought from me or things like that. I also hate taking money from people and wish that purse supplies were free so I could just give them away.

But, for me, who has no kids to chase after, the store can be a lot of fun. Since my current living/working situation is a bit isolating, it is kind of my social life. Perhaps when your kids all leave home and you have hours to do nothing but knit, we will drag you into our etsy world. :-)

Katie Jo will often say, "Guess who's the best mommy in the world?" and I'll guess a few names to which "No" is stated firmly and then I'll say mine and she'll say "Yes!" I need those moments because most days I do feel like I'm doing a horrible job. I told someone today that I like to give everything about 10% and that way I consider myself an equal opportunist! :) You were so sweet to ask how we were doing the other day and before I turn old and gray I will update my blog. Cheers!

I think it's perfectly ok to do neat things and do them just for the joy of it (or others) with no need of becoming a "professional whateveriam." I find comfort in just being. Me. I'd been struggling with this for a while now, and have only recently, finally, found my peace with it. You've worded my thoughts better than I ever could have hoped to.