Saturday, November 5, 2011

Getting Better With Time

Last weekend, the hubana and I saw Crazy, Stupid Love at a local theater. The movie is about a man whose wife asks for
a divorce. He moves out and ends up
crossing paths with a classic Don Juan who tries to teach him how to play the
dating game. The movie was actually a lot
better than I expected, and by the end, I had tears streaming down my face. For those of you who know me well, this is
not an unusual occurrence. I once cried at a Wal-Mart commercial. It is what it is.

So as the lights came up at the end of the movie, I was
frantically wiping my face with every inch of dry fabric I could find while
people flooded past out the doors. There
were many a raised eyebrow or a
too-long look, as I’m sure my entire face was puffy and red and screaming I
JUST CRIED DURING A STEVE CARRELL MOVIE!

I was super
embarrassed. I did the classic “hiding
behind the hair” move as well as generally just staring at the floor instead of
other people. But on the way home,
amidst my poor hubby’s comments of “Umm that movie really got to you huh?”, I
started thinking.

I don’t want to be embarrassed that I am emotional
and feel things deeply! I have been this
way ever since I was a kid, and I have always felt people were waiting for me
to “grow up” and not act that way. And
as you can see by my last post, I am
getting pretty tired of feeling like I have to change in so many ways in
order to grow up.

So in light of these thoughts, I want to share a list of
things that I hope I never give up, no matter how “mature” I get.

1.I hope I NEVER stop crying during movies.

2.I hope I never stop crying during country songs.
(Sensing a trend? Don’t judge me.)

3.I never want to stop feeling icky inside when
people swear.

4.I never want to stop singing in the car at the
top of my lungs.

5.I hope I never stop dancing... alone, with
friends, in the shower, ever.

6.I hope I never stop dreaming about what I want
to be when I really grow up.

7.I never want to stop remembering all the stupid
things I’ve done so I don’t start to feel too proud.

8.I hope I never stop sending my better half
ridiculous pictures while he’s away (or while he’s right next to me on the
couch).

9.I hope I never stop wanting to be better and
love harder.

10.Aaaaand, I hope I never stop doing slightly
insane things like giving each of my stuffed animals a spouse and having
imaginary conversations in the mirror.