"I can look back over the past 10 years and there were no steps wasted, and there are no regrets,'' she said. "I did all I knew to do and I think that gives me greater peace now." "I've lived every parent's worst nightmare and I'm the parent that nobody wants to be," she said.

"I can look back over the past 10 years and there were no steps wasted, and there are no regrets,'' she said. "I did all I knew to do and I think that gives me greater peace now." "I've lived every parent's worst nightmare and I'm the parent that nobody wants to be," she said.

Loving Natalee - Beth HollowayPage 219: I have to make difficult choices every day. I have to make a conscious decision every morning when I wake up not to be bitter, not to live in resentment and let anger control me. It's not easy. I ask God to help me._____

ďA person of integrity expects to be believed and when heís not, he letís time prove him right.Ē -unknown

Family is like a deck of cards. You never know what kind of card youíll draw. No one is able to choose their family, but has to accept their own family. I consider myself lucky because I am really happy with the family that I have to me, family is very important and should be a personís top priority.

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Loving Natalee - Beth HollowayPage 219: I have to make difficult choices every day. I have to make a conscious decision every morning when I wake up not to be bitter, not to live in resentment and let anger control me. It's not easy. I ask God to help me._____

ďA person of integrity expects to be believed and when heís not, he letís time prove him right.Ē -unknown

As I read on in the journal, I discover that one of the most moving entries is her desription of a hero. Natalee writes:

A Hero is someone who puts others before himself. He or she is very selfless and cares about the well-being of others. Heroes also accept life's challenges and remain strong through tough times. They also have a strong sense of determination and stick to goals and morals. I believe that heroes uphold morals and try to encourage others to live life morally correct. Heroes are not only just people called in times of physical danger, but individuals that can both emotionally and physically help people get through rough times. A hero should always show respect for other people as well as respect for himself.

Instantly I realize that Natalee is poignantly describing the people who have reached out to help her family get through this "tough time." It's almost as if she is thanking everyone herself by recognizing the importance of selfless people. And I am amazed at her profound words here. I sit and read the entire journal ...

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Loving Natalee - Beth HollowayPage 219: I have to make difficult choices every day. I have to make a conscious decision every morning when I wake up not to be bitter, not to live in resentment and let anger control me. It's not easy. I ask God to help me._____

ďA person of integrity expects to be believed and when heís not, he letís time prove him right.Ē -unknown