Monday, May 24, 2010

As I, Cj and Gripen sat comfortably on the corner table of the Yellow cab at MOA, the orders have been taken, the food was served and we were just waiting for the two other “special persons” who will join us (one was John). Waiting was my cup of tea ever since, patience, i have lots of them, its just a matter of time for them to join us. We were enjoying our chit chat when this very peculiar person came towards our table. He wears a red polo shirt, the kind of color that makes his skin glow as if hes a star of a moonless night, jeans that not necessarily fit his thighs but just enough to know hes slim as a model on the runway. He also carries a bag just like an ordinary kid on the block ready for school, a necklace and a black watch to accessorize him. His white sneakers just fits his style. Armed with a cute smile and a soft hand for a firm handshake, a true friendship was sealed between the two of us.

He sat on the chair opposite mine and we were face to face. Now I can see clearly his face and I so adore his fair skin tone and remarked: “And puti mo…” which he replied gleefully: “Salamat sa Glutathione” and we started to laugh. His deep and manly voice can somehow be similar to a commanding officer of a battalion at war and his nice smile can win a thousand and one hearts, that’s for sure. The night was very long, ive heard him sing, saw him drinking beer, watched him enter the cab, walked with him in every way possible… that was a night worth reminiscing. Firsts were always special, that’s true… Though he came late, he will never be at the bottom of my list, in fact hes one of few people on the top. He’s Dave, and we both love Instant Pancit Canton…

Ive first known Dave through his former blog “The Instant Pancit Canton Life”, and though we haven’t had enough connection that time, it was but a nice start between the two of us. We were not as close as this when I started to visit his blog nor we were regular textmates for that matter. The mystery in his being stayed and was preserved just until that time we met in that fateful night of well mannered escapade.

Our adventures didn’t end that night, it was just the beginning of a lifetime relationship, with a person whom you barely knew yet you wanted him to be part of yourself, someone to talk to, to laugh with or to walk through the rain. It was a great feeling that you have been accepted to who and what you are and in turn to show how much you care for a friend that you just saw once. Somehow it feels strange that you have found what you need, but you cannot keep it for yourself… well of course for others to share the beauty, the flower should remain on the stem or a star should remain on the sky, until otherwise it has fallen to land on the palms of the one who deserves you(or by using a babylon candle... right Dave?). Hehe referencing to one of our favorite films Stardust.

ENCHANTMENTS really do happen, me Grips and Dave, had – in my heart, had a special connection that cannot be denied. The gang decided to spend a day in Enchanted Kingdom, excitement and thrilled, I asked Dave to be with me as early as possible for us to be there at the time when the park opens. And there we were sitting side by side on the bus that will take us there, a little bit awkward I presume, but nonetheless special. He wore a black shirt with bold letters that says “WORLD WITHOUT STRANGERS” … Indeed the stranger that once was called dave is now close and is now DAVE to me, a friend, not a stranger anymore. I forgot the details on what we have talked and laughed about, but im pretty sure it was about the good things in life. We have been together for quite sometime now and its fun to note we rode the bus, the jeep, the tricycle, the MRT together, crossed the noisy streets of busy Manila, enjoyin every minute of it. And there we were walking and smiling. It was my first time on the amusement park, and we were like children, amused on the rides, screaming our lungs out (well dave, I know your smiling right at this very moment, when I used the word “scream” I think this rings a bell? Hehe) enjoying the pretty faces that we met (hmmm the orange guy, where is he?) and lots and lots of things. It was a great thing to know that someone is around to share the happiness you feel.

IN The days of November 2007, I have become close to Dave, A true friend indeed. We shared two more events together, both lunch dates with other blog friends. On the last date that we were together, he promised to give me something special and indeed it was. He gave me DIANNE. ;)

She is something that grows and will live forever and ever. An intuitive feeling, a scent or a flavor that stays, it’s a permanent season- either Sumer sunshine forever or Springtime in Paradise for eternity, something that you cant live without. She’s an assurance, a promise and the best thing in life… She is friendship between two souls separated by distance and time, sorrow and happiness, but nonetheless joined by love, respect, trust, care and hope.

Well its really strange that someone like Dave befriended someone like me. What I mean is we were almost opposite, but we clicked. Its something that you cant buy in the store, or can be planted on the soil… this is not something that you can see everyday or hear in the news… Between me and Dave, its some connection that can never be altered by time or space, though its really hard to be separated by distance to a friend who has been a special part of your soul, its somehow strange that he will always be in you no matter what, if you know what I say… it’s a mystery really.

Dear Dave,

Ambilis ng panahon ano? Its been years since we first met each other. Its just a matter of time that we will see each other again. We are not certain what will happen tomorrow but im pretty sure well make it in the end of the road together with our friends. Youre definitely loved by people who you have touched in more ways than you have expected. Youre definitely a star from the sky to turn the stone to Ruby, or the flower that protects the wearer and brings charm and luck to everyone. Youre a prince in disguise, a knight among the peasants and a fairy to offer his fairy dusts for flight. Definitely, youll always be in my heart and of course always remembered. Thank you dave… my heart is overwhelmed with the thought that you always finds time to send me something that makes me go on, in this sad place. Its not just something, but its one of the greatest thing that a person can do to a soul… a lifeline, an oxygen tank, friendship uncomparable… I hope I have given you reasons why I am worthy of the friendship we have, and I do hope you can feel my presence in every word I say and every lines I create.

Anyhow, as usual lagi naman ako dramatic actor, gaya lang ako sa iyo… hehe, at least hindi masyadong nosebleed and I know you know what I mean… Take care of yourself Dave, and always remember I am here. Destiny has taken his part to intertwine our lives together, and I have chosen to walk with you – ready to take your hand when we need to run, to swim you ashore,to carry you when youre tired and to lift your head high to see how beautiful life is…

You deserve to be happy and I wish you all the best things in life – good health, sound mind, healthy heart, long life and wonderful days with your true love. God bless you, your family and all the persons you love and who loves you, and again I thank God I found you.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

I finally finished Final Fantasy XIII. The ending was indeed emotional, though i did not cry, still i find it full of emotions. Minsan we have to say goodbye and sacrifice ourselves for other people to be happy, thats what i think the sacrifice of some characters were all about. That in the end of all things true love vanquishes any doubt of goodbyes and indeed Hope is not just a name but the truth that lives in all of us.

Im so happy, i love this game.

"My Hands"Leona Lewis

I wake in the morningTired of sleepingGet in the shower

And make my bed aloneI put on my makeupTalking to the mirrorReady for a new dayWithout you

And I walk steady on my feet

I talk my voice obeys meI go out at nightSleep without the lightsAnd I do all of the thingsI have to keeping you off my mindBut when I think I'll be alrightI am always wrong cause

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I never liked money that much, though I need it to survive I never depended my happiness on it. I wasn’t good in handling it, i even had phobia on banking- until now, I haven’t maintained any bank accounts- ever since highschool, I don’t even like to have credit cards, its such a burden.

Ironically im here abroad for it, am I happy? At first I was, when I was dreaming- that im here also for a job that will develop my character, and then when I woke up the entire world seems to be all just symbols of materialism. After all those years I have been away I realized ive never been fair to myself, its not complaining or whatever, its just the truth. The money that ive worked so hard every month of those years were not meant just for myself but for my loved ones. Yes ive pleasured myself with luxuries-simple things that keep sadness at bay, but to its fullest extent? No I think not. I haven’t used that material power for myself alone, there’s always someone near who benefits more than I do.

Though sometimes its better to leave the truth inside us, so as not to hurt those we love the most. Its better to leave behind all the gold that you have found to save not just yourself but the ones that matter. Its better to giveaway something that is superficial to gain some peace within. Its better to forget all the things that you have done for someone- not that it would make you feel better but somehow through it, youll learn to forgive yourself too…

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Noon. The sun was in his most shining glory, there were no clouds up in the sky, the day was clear, the temperature was high- scorching the dried skin of a man passing thru the empty field of desert sand. Clutching his phone in his right hand, his left on his empty pocket. He searched for the song of the moment, he misses someone - truly, the song he oftentimes associate to him, a long lost friend. The Mp3 player on the phone was on shuffle mode... he pressed PLAY.

"I miss you old friend, can i hold you? And though its been a long time, old friend, do you mind?" I Miss You Old friend, Loretta Devine

But he asked himself “the good question is, does he miss me too. Does he still know who am i?” The next song left him dumbfounded. The only person who knows why would be him.

“Really” he whisphered as he entered his messy room. But somehow he smiled. There were no more hurt, no more pain, he can actually smile now whenever he remember the old times. But the scar would always be there, reminding how fragile one soul can be. he wondered why there was no anger, anger that was supposed to fill his empty cup, he can only think of one thing, he wasnt capable of filling a cup full of rage. Surprisingly the next song on the shuffled player serendipitously reminded how human he can be and how love can make some people stay even when left behind without even a sign of redemption.

“ When you lower me down, so deep that I can get out. When youre lost, lost and lone, yes youd think it was the last place youd come back for more…” – If You Don’t Wanna Love Me, James Morrison

That made him smile bigtime, this guy has always came back for more, bled him dry until nothing was left. It wasnt all the guys fault, half of it was his'... he let him do it. Then hed thought, love will never find him. For as long as he lives the ghost of this past will always remain, the shadow of his very existence, an impeccable blemish that may never be resolved. But he continues to hope. Hope that love really moves in mysterious ways. That was the next random song, one of the few that he commonly associate to him and the past.

“its always so surprising when love appears over the horizon… which only proves love moves in mysterious ways…” Love Moves in Mysterious Ways, Nina

How surprising that four of the songs played one after another were previously dedicated only to one person. He challenged destiny that if the next song was related to their story too, then he guessed there is still a future for both of them together, as friends. And guess what the next song was:

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

I have been a fan of the Square Enix Final Fantasy games for a long time now and i have been so excited to play their latest game: Final Fantasy XIII. So to prepare for the imminent arrival of the game in stores, i purchased 2 months in advance an XBOX 360 Elite just to find out after that the game will be released locally for another month. I was left with no choice but to play Naruto and Overlord which were actually pretty good, I have finished Naruto, while Overlord im halfway through when I got bored with it and the Xbox altogether (main reason is-i cant play divx files on it). Afterwards my youngest brother requested for a Play Station 3 for him to play the final installment of God od War (3) and also the Final fantasy XIII. We both share the same passion when it comes to the Final Fantasy series, our favorite games were Final Fantasy VII & XII. I cant say NO to loved ones, so a plan was formed: I will buy all the 3rd generation consoles for the three of us: The Xbox 360 will go to Piolo - my younger brother, the Plastation 3 will go to Leo-my youngest brother and a Nintendo Wii - will be mine. Just last month, i bought the Nintendo Wii and just a few days back i bought the Plasytation 3 and a Final Fantasy XIII game (for PS3). Im so happy, so far my favorite is the Playstation (it plays mp4 files and divx, yey), then the Wii and then Xbox. Next in line would be a Sony Bravia or a Samsung LCD for my Inay and Tatay.

As of the moment i am so into the FF game, breathtaking graphics, superb storyline, nice battle system - making more sleepless nights for a rabid player like me. Maybe i was so attached with the story because of the nice conversations/one liners they put into it, Somehow i can relate to them, and wished i have said those lines too or someone have said it to me... and now i wanna share some of it here:

When I couldn't see a future and I was afraid. When the future was clear and it hurt to see, I just close my eyes and lose myself in happier days.-Vanille

Seems we are going to say good bye, better do it with a smile.-Vanille

Kindess like his, you never forget.- Vanille (About Sazh)

I might as well have tired to stop the rain. I fought the tears..but they still fell... ill be fine its only water... -Vanille

Knowing you'll always be welcomed, no matter how much has changed...That's what having a home is all about -Vanille

No one ever said the future would be easy. But I think we all saw the glimmer of a dream, somewhere in the sky that night. The tiniest spark of hope that we can change our fate. Who could say? That moment has come and gone.-Vanille

And what if that gets people around you involved? What happens when your actions end up ruining someone's life. What if someone dies? What then, Snow? How do you pay for what you've done?- Hope to Snow

You can't drop the breakup bomb like that. Being alone's all right, I guess. Yep. Always was until we met. But then we did. And now I know there's something better: being with you. We've come too far to quit now.-Snow

Sometimes things seems easier when you look at them from a distance, you know?-Serah

It not a question of can or can't. There are some things in life you just do.-Lightning

Don't touch anything. Control your emotions. If you want to survive, you forget about sympathy How can I explain? Think of it like a strategy. Focus on your ultimate goal and shut out everything else. Still you mind. Move on instinct. Let doubt take over, and despair will cripple you.-Lightning

Fighting without hope is no way to live. It's just a way to die. I want you to find the hope you were named for. Staying alive, I can help you with. But I can't--I can't give you hope...-Lightning to Hope

I made him a promise.I promised him to keep going, and do what I had to. He said only I would know what that was. The world's full of lies. There's no way of knowing what's right. All we can do believe on ourselves It's easy to sit back and let people trick you. From here on out I use my own eyes. Think. And act. I might not make all the right choices. But as long as I'm the one who decided what to do, there's nothing regret. -Hope

Well, you know, sometimes you have to lie about stuff. To keep yourself going, because you afraid. Or to protect someone else, so they don't get hurt. Sometimes, even the things that everyone in the whole worlds think are true turn out to be lies. At the end of the day, though, it's not the lie that matter, but what you do after you tell it. Work hard enough, and you can make it true.-Hope