It’s OK to Feel Beautiful (Jennifer)

onTuesday, May 8, 2012

age 23
4 pregnancies/ 3 births

I am a 23 year old mother of 3 children ages, 6,4 and 2. I gave birth to my oldest at the young age of 17…Even then I was overweight… Not nearly as big as I am now, but chunky none the less… I had given birth vaginally 3 times in 4.5 years… I barely had any time between pregnancies to get my body in shape… I used to hate myself and I was ashamed of how I looked. I remember looking at myself in the mirror and just crying looking at myself. I was embarrassed when I would go to the OB and have to pull up my shirt to show tons and tons of stretchmarks covering my belly and sides. Not to mention having to have anatomy scans done in the hospital rather than in office because the machines weren’t strong enough to get a clear shot through all of my extra belly fat. I can remember the embarrassment during labor and having to be naked in front of practically everyone in the room. I remember thinking ” I wish I were thinner, I KNOW I wouldn’t be so embarrassed” or thinking that everyone is in disgust with my body…

Right before I gave birth to my youngest, my husband cheated on me for the 4th time.. I had allowed this behavior over and over again because I didn’t feel deserving of love and true happiness because I didn’t love myself. And each time my husband got with another woman, it pushed me further and further away from myself and bringing more disgust and hate and blaming my looks for him straying…

It’s been 2 years since I have given birth and I am 80lbs down from the 378lbs that I was when I delivered. I separated from my husband and I have met the man of my dreams, the one who I always though I deserved. Someone who truly loves everything about me( even my weird toes :P)He showed me that I am allowed to love myself and that there is someone who finds everything I find imperfect about myself, perfect. He makes me feel like a princess and I love him so much…

I feel fabulous. I love who I am, I love every little stretch mark, I love my voluptuous shape, I don’t even mind my cellulite.. All these years I had been telling myself I am not allowed to love who I am and think I am beautiful because of my weight.. But now I know I was wrong. I was beautiful then and I’m beautiful now.. Size does not equate worth, or love, or beauty..

Thank you for sharing your story! You are beautiful! You do deserve to be loved and respected and weight should have nothing to do with that. I think your a gorgeous congrats on the weight loss that’s a great accomplishment losing weight is extremely difficult. I’ve struggled ever since I got pg at 18. Keep your positive additude it will only do good things for you!! :) Oh and yay for your new man!! There are some good ones out there!

OMG you have such a pretty shape! (A great booty.) I love your hair and from what I can see of your face, you are drop dead gorgeous!
Congrats on finding a good respectful man who appreciates both outer and inner beauty.
Your breasts look just like mine and I’ve always disliked them, but seeing them on someone else…heck they don’t look half bad :) Now I can believe my hubby when he says he loves them.

I had to cry when I read this. I was thinking this sounded so much like me and then I saw the pictures and actually had to do a double take. I thought this girl is gorgeous. Her shape is so feminine and sexy. And then it dawned on me why I had to do a double take. We are almost twins!! The coloring, the hair, the whole fricken shape. That naked picture? I took one that looks almost exactly the same for my husband and he loved it. I hated it. I hate my boobs and my hips, belly and legs. I think I am reconsidering that today!!! Thank you so much for this. I too can now believe my husband when he tells me I am beautiful and he loves my body and all it’s parts.

Wow, this website is making me feel so much better and way more secure!! I always feel like i’m the only one and turns out im among all you beautiful women and maybe for the first time I’m happy being there.

You have the body of a goddess! I seriously almost started crying as I was reading this. I am so thrilled that you have come to love yourself, and can now realize how strong, and beautiful you are. You deserve to be loved and treated with care and respect. Thanks for posting this- what an inspiring post!
Blessings to you and your little ones!

Goodness sakes that’s a booty! WOW. I am not sure I would worry too much about the rest there lol – but I know you’re a woman and you see everything else. If you could just wear some mens goggles for a day.

Like everyone said, it’s a goddess shape. Just find clothes that compliment and feel good about yourself!!

Just wanted to say youre amazingly strong. Im pregnant with my 3rd and im large. 295lbs at 5 ft 3 in and im ashamed of my own body. You look amazing. I wish I had half the confidence you have. And maybe im fretting over nothing but the fact my husband has watched porn of these skinny stick women hasnt made my confidence any better. ????