Andrea Constand, the first woman to accuse Bill Cosby in court of sexual misconduct, has broken more than a decade of silence about being sexually assaulted by the disgraced comedian in a new TV invertiew. Cosby was found guilty in April of three counts of aggravated indecent assault for attacking her in his Pennsylvania home. Constand, a former employee at Temple University, had accused Cosby, a famous Temple alumni and supporter, of drugging and then sexually assaulting her in 2004 after inviting her to his home to discuss her plans for a career change. Speaking with NBC’s Kate Snow in an interview for Dateline, Constand said that after she complained of cramps Cosby, offered her “three blue pills” to help relax her.

“He put his hand out and I said, ‘What are those?’ And he said, ‘They’ll help you relax,’” Constand recalled. “And I said, ‘Are they natural? Are they, like, a herbal remedy?’ And he said, ‘No, they’re your friends. Just put them down.’”

The decision to trust Cosby and take the pills, she said, led to him violating her shortly thereafter. Within a half hour, Constand said, she was unable to walk or even to speak without slurring. Cosby, she said, brought her to a couch, and then assaulted her as she lied helpless.

“My mind is saying, ‘Move your hands. Kick. Can you do anything? I don’t want this. Why is this person doing this?’ And me not being able to react in any specific way. So I was limp. I was a limp noodle,” she told Dateline. “I was crying out inside, in my throat, in my mind, for this to stop. And I couldn’t do anything.”

When she awoke hours later, she drove herself home and didn’t confide in anyone about what had transpired until a year later, when she first told her mother about the rape. Constand never expected justice, she said, since she thought no one would believe her over the denials of the man who had become known as “America’s Dad.”