Monday, September 8, 2008

i haven't forgotten about you.

Dear Sweet Blog,

I am so sorry I've been gone. The forces of life have taken me away and the winds have left me without words. At night my brain feels the urge to write, to share all of the things are happening and all the ways my life is changing but when I open my mouth the words don't come out.

Grammie has taken yet another turn the worse and navigating this is next to impossible. The doctors say she has no more than 6 months and tragically I feel that would be too many. Her body is giving up on her and even opening her eyes is becoming too much for her. To say it breaks my heart would not cover the pain. I'd give anything for one more day with her, the her she used to be. All I can do is sit quietly at her side, knit and make sure she isn't alone.

I will be moving soon and I believe that when my life settles a bit more I'll be better prepared to handle these things. I promise to come back blog with pictures and insights. You have my word, but for today I will share a small bit of inspiration. It's a drawing I found so so long ago that I no longer know to whom it belongs, which is sad because I'd like to see more. I love its simplicity and something about it seems to suit my mood.

2 comments:

lizz, i'm so very sorry to hear of your heartbreaking struggles. how wonderful, though, that you can sit by her side and knit. for the rest of your life these moments will mean everything. and though she may not be able to say it, i'm sure your constant presence means everything to your grandmother too. don't worry about the words. just soak it all in. it