UNRAVELED

You are a woman and you are hungry and alone. How do you feel about going out to eat by yourself? There are a bunch of reasons why someone would be eating in a restaurant alone, and none of them are related to the reasons why I typically choose not to eat out by myself. I can count on one hand how many times in my life I have ordered a meal at a table and eaten alone at a restaurant. Guess what? The only person impacted by that decision is me and why am I choosing to miss out?

Seriously? I heard that or something similarly derogatory over and over for years. I laugh now when I think of the days that were filled with nothing but angst over what the scale said, how many more miles I could walk or how many more sit-ups I could do. Sure, I may have been a size two but that wasn’t enough. The desire to be even smaller consumed me.