INTRODUCTION
Decided to make a journal to document my progress this summer. I’ve been writing up FR’s but they lack direction and I find I am extra motivated when I have other people reading my shit. Pumped to get some good stories on here and write down my thoughts, feelings, and realizations as I go along. This journal will be very much about GOALS and closing the gap between where I am and where I want to be

ABOUT ME21yo uni student living in Toronto, Canada. Chode background with women. Lost my v-card just after my 20th birthday, to a girl I really didn’t like that much but just wanted to get it out of the way. Around this time I also dropped 40 lbs and made a drastic change in how I communicated with other people. My confidence was much higher but I was still horrible with women. Picked up a drunken one night stand with a 6 during the summer (after my 21st) which got me to 2 lays and where I’m at today
I’ll be doing monthly goals so I can gauge my results and raise the bar as I go

WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON
Lack of direction: I haven’t explicitly decided what I want to work towards while Im out. This translates to myself not really knowing what to do in the venue and feeling conflicted in general. One way of dealing with this is by writing this FR thread and being super explicit about my goals (# pulls, # lays, # dates I want etc.) and writing my vision on paper. My end goal decidedly is to be able to enter a girls life quickly, relate to her, and form an immediate connection that most guys cant have

Stifled: Feeling super stifled at most toronto venues, especially the higher end ones. This basically comes down to exposure, getting at ease in the environment, and realizing that no one is going to kill me while im there

Balancing my intent: My physical game is pretty tight but these days Ive been working on my verbals and getting girls to hook based on what I say as opposed to the high physicality, all up in her face style of game. A lot of this will come with practice and going for prolonged sets as opposed to the short polarizing interactions

Going on dates: I don’t have as much experience as I should going on dates but luckily this is simple to deal with. Just set up more dates. Get comfortable going on dates and closing

Differentiating myself: A lot of toronto is filled with dudes doing pickup, frat boys trying to get laid, men trying to get laid in general which translates to defensive women. Best way to deal with this is to show your value right off the bat, let the girl know who you are and why she should be excited to meet you. Find the girl that wants to fuck you as opposed to the girl that wants to get fucked tonight

Stunner game: My old city had little to no “stunners” aka hottest chicks at the venue. I need to start hitting up the hotties (even to get rejected) just so I can stay I stepped up and really push my comfort zone this way. Theres really no question about this. The reason I’m in the game is to find a beautiful attractive woman and this city is full of them

Daygame: DAYGAMEEEEE. No doubt I’ll be pulling chicks off daygame. Still getting very calibrated to hooking girls in the daytime but practice makes perfect and the more I try the better I’ll get

Daygame Full day of gaming, out with a wing while he was doing drunk daygame and I was doing my thing sober. Stifled at the start, after the first couple sets managed to get out of my head a little bit. Daygame is interesting, I had to tone it down a LOT and just go in chill and calm. All my good sets have been either very chill or a quick hook and playful/funny right off the bat. In total probably 5-6 hooks and quite a few uncalibrated opens. Its all good this part of my game is just about testing and seeing what works

Wing is in set with a cute dark haired girl. I’m just walking around Dundas square, spot a blonde with massive tits by herself. Sit down chill, vibe with her for a bit, start relaxed but amp up the sexuality and decide I wanna pull her to my place. Older women are funny because they know our intentions and make a conscious decision about whether they wanna fuck or not. Mention we should grab a drink and I live nearby, she’s waiting for friends so I tell her it’ll be 15 mins and I need to burn some time regardless. Bounce her to my place, my condo has people in it so I bring her downstairs to the men’s changeroom. Pull her into the sauna room and get her to start blowing me. She gives me pornstar head I fuck her tits and blast all over them

Nightgame We go to a smallish bar, get blown out hard upstairs and get put into my head right off the bat. Got punished for being a and not stepping hard. Come back down and decide to chill and enjoy the venue. I have a blast dancing and fucking around with the dudes. After a while theres a two-set of brazilians orbiting us… I can sense its a super easy pull so let it simmer for a while. After a bit some negative assumptions start to kick in (feel like I have to hold them there) and I start weirding my girl out by over-gaming. She was into me so really no reason to do this whatsoever. These chicks bounce to a cooler dude and I get punished for being needy little bitch. Open a few other sets but they mostly fizzle out. Met a cool chick during twilight and set up a date for this week

Lots of shit to work on. The reason I botched the pull was I didn’t have that carefree vibe and put WAY more attention on the chicks than needed. This will come to me as I get more girls and get less needy

Positives
-gamed hard and really pushed my comfort during the day
-epic sauna room PULL
-experienced a new environment and reference experiences

Lessons
-got PUNISHED for being outcome dependent
-enjoy yourself and girls will naturally chase you
-step hard and push the energy reserve tank
-be less reactive, enjoy the company of girls without having to “game them”

Daygame
Bounced around the mall for a couple hours with a wing. Opened a bunch of sets that were ALOT more calibrated than Saturday. Couple fun hooks where I would draw the girl in with my self-amusing banter/make her laugh right off the bat. Took two girls on mini-adventures around the mall-- simply by plowing and staying in set. Also approached some sets where I really didnt wanna go in but got myself to do it. Starting to get alot more comfortable with opening chicks at will. Lets keep going

May 28/2013

Date flaked, spent the night working on my side-business. Hustling while I'm hustling

Went to a high-end club instead of the hitting up the college bars. Transitioning into the higher end venues is interesting and I’m still getting attuned to the environment. I was rolling solo and sober, made the mistake of not talking to anyone in line-- immediately puts me in spectator mode. I'm tripping out at this venue for a few reasons

All good, I chode around for close to an HOUR, realizing I'm being retarded and getting sucked into the environment. Still, I cant get out of it and almost lose my whole night

I finally see a wing roll up around 1. He gives me a huge boost and helps me get out of my head—sends me to open some dudes just to realize that people here are completely normal and here to have fun. My brain makes the click and I start talking to people. Open a mixed group, followed by a group of three chicks, and start getting into my talkative state. Later we go to the dancefloor, I see a cutie with 3 dudes surrounding here, reach through two of them and punk her away from the guy she’s with. I LOVE doing shit like this and it pumps my state hard

My girls into me but I prematurely eject (sticking point). Later I see a stunning brown girl in the hallway and I step to her SUPER hard. Just boom up in her face and she loves every second. I get scared cause I know she’s on her way to a table or some shit, and let her go without pushing the set. See her later in the venue and she’s giving me massive bambi eyes

I have to take off shortly after so I leave with my sense of validation intact. Tonight was very interesting. Its almost like I was a newbie all over again—where its literally impossible to pull until after you get entitled to the idea of pulling and fucking girls of that calibre. Gotta get accustomed to the small things like stepping hard, drawing the girl in, and leading the interaction. Eventually pulling will become a very natural thing

Lessons
-people still respond to value, if you're friendly and having a blast people will resonate with you
-the realization that people here are just NORMAL dudes. Just because a guys wearing a suit and mean mugging doesn't mean shit
-the realization that nobody really gives a fuck about you, they are usually too worried about themselves
-most of the times the rich, player looking dudes are actually chodes and are looking to other people to be the leaders
-you can turn around those fucked up nights. start talking to dudes, start talking to fatties, whatever you need to get yourself social
-work on staying in set and ejecting

Daygame
Had a date around 6. Fat booty italian girl. Bounced her around the area and eventually to my place on the pretense of viewing toronto. Hitup the rooftop and got her back into my room. Amped up the physicality, got us both half naked followed by LMR for about 1.5 hours. Two reasons why we didn't have sex 1) outcome dependent and 2) not being playful enough/playing at one speed only. Sucks as I wouldve fucked this girl for many hours :(

Kick the girl out and walk to the Eaton centre. Do a couple approaches that go well, meet up with the boys and run some sets on the street on the way to dinner. Decided I wanted to start collecting numbers again so grabbed a few #s along the way

Nightgame
Hit up a college bar. I run a few longer interactions and notice my game improving quite a bit from 3 weeks ago. See some community dudes and taking turns winging with them, lots of fun. Meet a few cuties but no realistic options to pull tonight. I kinda piss myself off by messing up an interaction with this stunning brunette. I could've went for the pull but was hesitant about it. Shiiiit

Run some streetgame after, bounce around with an Israeli chick and seed the pull but my girls got work in the morning. Chatted this cute tall dancer chick, went for the pull but couldn't steal her away from the friends/couldnt pull the whole group

Lessons
-LMR is expected. The key is to not be needy and pushing for it. Get her horny and then take it away. Be chill about it, be funny and let her enjoy the moment
-be more relaxed. WAY more relaxed. This high energy stuff is good but its gamey and inconsistent
-have a low energy conversation just to see how it goes
-keep talking and assume youre the shit when plowing
-girls need to meet you, give them that opportunity

Positives
-interacted with women
-had a blast
-seeing small improvements. making mistakes = good

Good friend of mine came down for the weekend. Had a few drinks and hit up the bars, just having a blast and messing around with people. Awesome to kick back with your boys and have a blast without worrying about PU

June 1/2013

Friend stayed the night again. Decided to sober up tonight and self-amuse while my boys got drunk. Had a fun ass time, met a bunch of people and really enjoyed myself. ALSO made plans for my 3 picture challenge. I've been losing track of my nights in TO so every night Im gonna take 3 photos to remember it by. Kind of like the 1 second every day challenge but without the video editing. Super pumped about it, got ahold of a cheap digital camera today for this purpose only. May post them on RSD as alot will be me with random sloots

I've also gotten back into collecting numbers on my nights out. I decided I need to keep a spreadsheet of girls because I was going through my phone and realizing ALOT of my numbers have went untouched . Following through on numbers is good because it pushes that "abundance mindset" and can convert extra girls if you have good phonegame.

I usually do something like this: a spreadsheet with the girls you fill in after every day or night out. I'll usually send a text as soon as I get the number and then try to setup a date later on when I have time

Monthly reflectionMay was a great month. Especially considering I first started going out on May 9th and was rusty as shit, Im really getting back into the swing of things and enjoying myself. This month also revealed a ton of STICKING points and helped me realize what things I need the most work in. I know what these are and I also know what direction my progress will be heading in

Funny thing is this: Im slowly realizing that a lot of game is just about having a shit ton of FUN, pushing yourself in the right direction and enjoying every moment that you can. There is still that notion of “being on the right path” and hammering in new behaviours, but there’s no reason not to enjoy the journey as much as possible. In the end we wanna improve ourselves, as well as enjoy and have sex with hot girls

For June I’ll be taking massive action, going out 4-5 nights a week and daygaming whenever possible. Similar to last month, my focus will be completely on going for the PULL and really working on being more chill/consistent in my sets

This series by Julien is what I’m following, as well as the Julien manifesto which I’ve been going over meticulously while I hammer in the basics

DaygameWent to the mall after work around 6. Approach this cutie go with her on an adventure to Shoppers drug mart. Interaction goes well but Im not in that relaxed headspace aka trying to convey value. After like 30 minutes I seed the move to her place, tell her we need to drop her groceries off and I only have 10 minutes before I gotta take off anyway. Fail a HUGE shit test when she mentions her BF and I flinch/react to it. Still pretty pumped that I got to that stage. Went back to mall and had some quick blowouts before going to grab dinner

Nightgame
College bar with utld. My goals going in were to

1) have fun
2) make myself laugh
3) always be in set

I do some tough approaches on the way to the venue that get me laughing, chasing down girls in the subway and shit. Get to the bar and immediately start approaching. No excuses not to talk to everyone. Have a bunch of short interactions early on, my aim is basically to screen the girls and get the number for later on. Get one or two good sets going this way

Go in on a 2 set of croatians with utld. My girl is skeptical but I keep the conversation flowing and spew alot of nonsense. Utld is doing his canned panty-dropping routine aka the baby kidnapping video. We chat for about 15 mins, they dont seem that down and I don't grab the number for whatever reason. Not alot of leading going on here. Did something good here which was testing my girl for compliance--got her to stand up and slow dance with me in the middle of the patio

Some madness in between sets. Spot a 3-set I remember from last week. These girls are seemingly DTF and we chill for 15-20 minutes. Made the mistake here of not commiting to one girl, I kind of bounce around all 3 and go with the flow of the interaction. Grab the one chicks number and expect to see them later on. I'll definitely bang these girls at some point

Ditch the 3-set and run some streetgame, hook a brunette shorty and try to operate the pull back to my place. Both girls are not looking too adventurous, I try to get them to grab food near my condo but no go. My girl likes me, I decide to grab her number and set up a date for next week. Open the last several girls of the night, burn it down the right way and feel great

Lessons-lead lead lead. make firm decisions on what needs to be done. the difference between dudes who get laid and dudes who settle for numbers = LEADING
-big lesson on being unreactive when going for the pull. it needs to be completely carefree and natural, like its just the next logical course of action
-don't fall for BF shit tests. Plow through and watch her attraction spike
-fix eye contact and posture, realized I was feeling lots of tension in my shoulders at the end of the night

Positives
-had a blast and stayed positive throughout
-reshifting my mindset to go for the same night lay
-stayed in set nearly the whole night
-burned it to the ground

Daygame
Went to the mall around 6 for a daygame session. Lots of fun opening chicks and just spewing random nonsense. I still find it HILARIOUS that we literally just hunt the mall for girls to try and pull. Way too funny

Go in on a 2-set with Dante, my girls a cute 19 year old brown chick. They love us for 20 mins or so but we don’t sell the pull hard enough. I derp on my girl at the end at get her to take my number instead of vice versa. I also learn a good lesson here which is that you ALWAYS need to qualify your girl especially when you come off as a super cool dude. Without qualification she’ll feel like just another girl

Open this rocker chick outside, she’s skeptical but I walk with and get her to hook and start wondering who I am. She lives on her own and seems pretty open minded-- I was tempted to fully go with her to her place but the mall was closing and it was pretty damn far (30 min walk). I derp once again and give her my number and tell her to text me … obviously hasn’t texted me

Some fun interactions outside, open a 2 set inside and run another longer set. My girl loves me and I plow through the BF nonsense as her pupils are massive. Me and Dante fuck around with these chicks, try to pull them but I made the mistake of grabbing the number early. Try to push the compliance and go for the makeout but no go. This girl seems into me we’ll see if I can make it happen with the date

Nightgame
Hit up a small bar in the ossington area. Wanted to focus on being completely congruent and not trying to button push at all. I open a few sets early and we bounce around doing short opens in the venue. Make myself laugh by trying to bathroom pull this one brown chick. Shes all grabbing on my dick, I go for the pull but she has some annoying “schtick” on and won’t come with me. I yell and tell her shit like “we could’ve been something girl” and some other dramatic nonsense. She doesn’t really bite but I do succeed in amusing myself

Try some dancefloor opens but they don’t go that well. Reason: I’m half-stepping to a lot of girls and getting ignored super easily. I hardly have any long interactions over the course of the night. We bounce shortly after to a different bar, do some sets there and try to pull these two older chicks. No go but glad we pushed for it

Tired as shit after the second bar. We push it and do streetgame for another 1.5 hrs or so. Longest sets involve two greek girls and me telling randoms about my unlimited nickels

Lessons-Keep being congruent and expressing yourself freely, no filters = comfort and different from most guys
-Keep opening all when you go out
-Cut out the half-stepping shit. The girl needs to meet you, step fully in front and demand attention

Positives
-had a ton of fun
-gamed while tired—reference for being able to do it
-learned lessons