The first thing we learn how to do from the time we’re very small is leave the body- we do this as a way of coping, when emotions and sensations in the body feel too overwhelming or we know our needs aren’t being met (for love, safety, comfort) we can learn that the body isn’t a safe place to be. . I used to do this myself for years- living in my head as if gently floating over my body, detached from it. I couldn’t read or understand its signals- for hunger or fullness, when it was tired, when it needed to say no... I just felt like we didn’t speak the same language but I wasn’t willing to take lessons and get on the same page. I was afraid of what it would say if I stopped all the distractions, the stuffing my feelings down... I didn’t know how to deal with the big feelings.. I wasn’t really taught how. Taught to worry ✔️taught to be afraid what bad thing would happen if I was actually happy ✔️ taught to struggle ✔️ taught to repress anger, sadness, ✔️✔️Instead I pushed away body signals- ignored them, ignored people and habits I knew were no good for me. I pushed through, mind over matter, I did it anyway- over exercised or overate or under ate, spent time with people who took more then they gave and I aimed to please them above my own joy, self respect and honour. I didn’t know then that the key wasn’t to push down feelings, deny them or think my way into positive thoughts and affirmations.... the key was to stop, get quiet and allow whatever sensations were in my body to be present like a welcome guest. The key to HEALING was FEELING- all of it, not selectively choosing which were “ good” feelings and which were “bad” because that’s not how life works. We can’t push away pain and grasp for pleasure or think we have any control at all here. Every feeling you can’t selectively numb emotions because when we try not to feel the pain, the anger, the sadness- we don’t allow ourselves to feel the love, the joy,

In December I heard “stop eating meat!” And I was like...”WHAT?! That message most DEFINITELY isn’t for me!” 😂 (Why the heck do we do that to ourselves?!!!). Anyway, I didn’t listen. I kept eating #paleo because, well...that’s what I’ve done for years now, it’s healthy, and good...I know it and...well, #crossfit...right?! Haha! I have to laugh because in retrospect, this message was so freakin’ loud and I just closed my ears because of all the reasons (aka...excuses) we tell ourselves when something new & different enters our world. I have eaten like this before...vegetarian for a while, #yearsago...and vegan all through #culinaryschool (isn’t that funny...we were fabricating so much meat, I j-u-s-t couldn’t!). Well, here we are, a lifetime away from that experience and I find myself kinda right back in it...with a WHOLE LOT of healing & LIFE in between! So...3 weeks ago...I said ok. I said yes to this message. I said yes, yes, yes! I still don’t fully know WHY...and that’s ok. I’m choosing to #embrace and #embody my feminine energy...alllllllowing the shift...instead of looking at facts and numbers and logic...(that’s all based in the masculine). #intuitiveeating Hmmmmm....heal, let go, allow, expand, release...welcome 🙏🏻, thankfulness. 💜💚💗♥️💛🧡💙 This has been the consistent theme of my life over the past few years and now...it’s my food. My body is #craving raw, my body is craving vegetarian cuisine, it’s craving fresh juices, and homemade nut milks! It wants EGGS 🍳(I haven’t been able to eat eggs for a while because of what I thought was an egg sensitivity...but it was actually a sensitivity to the meat I was eating WITH the eggs!) It’s craving #adaptogens...and it also wants a little salmon & seafood here & there. #kindafunny It’s like this KNOWING doesn’t make any sense, and yet it makes SO much sense...all in the same breath! I’m choosing to let go of another layer and it

One of my greatest lessons lately is to find JOY in exactly where I am, right now 🙃 . I know that my mean of income is not my big “Why” in life; it doesn’t necessarily encompass my life’s purpose; it isn’t a direct reflection of my mission on this planet 🤷🏼‍♀️ . I have big dreams and ideas of what kind of life I want for myself, and what kind of impact I want to have on the planet 🌎 . But I’m just not there yet. I’m still discovering, learning, remaining curious, and ‘figuring it out’ 🧚🏼‍♀️ . I wonder if some of you can relate here✋🏼 . And the lesson is.... to be OKAY with the fact that I don’t have all the answers, that I haven’t established my path or my specific mission yet 🗝 . To embrace this time of unsureness, to remain curious and to stay open to any and all possibilities 🌀 . And most importantly to find joy in exactly where I am right now. To see this place as a stepping stone to my ultimate mission, and to find gratitude in what it provides 🙏🏼 . For me, this means loving and thanking my mean of income as a house cleaner. Although I anticipate following other paths of healing and creation in this lifetime, I can find JOY in the gift I am able to provide to my clients right now 🎁 . While experiencing gratitude for this business which provides me with an income to live 🙂 . Because really, expecting to be somewhere I am not right now is living in a f•a•n•t•a•s•y of who I SHOULD be 💭 . Instead, I choose to embrace who I am, right here, right now ♥️ . PS- if you truly cannot find any joy or gratitude in what you spend time doing right now, it may be wise to consider a change. Leaving your current job or changing your current situation doesn’t necessarily mean moving on to your dream-job, but you will be able to find something that, at least, brings you joy in some ways. A stepping stone. This I can guarantee 🙌🏼 . . . . . #bless#gratitude#righthererightnow

“To the degree you feel blessed and expect good things to flow to you, indicates your state of allowing; and to the degree that you do not feel blessed, where you do not expect good things to come to you, indicates your state of resistance.” -Abraham Hicks Do you remember those “lazy rivers” at waterparks? I used to love them when I was a kid. You just sprawl out and enjoy the flow. It feels like such a good metaphor for life. And as I write this I remember how hard it was to go against the current 😂 I’m definitely guilty of trying to fight the rhythm of life sometimes. So the last few days I’ve been imagining that I’m basking in the flow of the same beautiful stream but one of abundance and well-being. Hope to see you flowin’ out there 🤙🏼 photo 📸 - @viewed.up #flow#freedom#flow#manifestation#abundance#stream#love#allowing#sailing#mate#abrahamhicks#askanditisgiven#consciousness#upful#jahbless

Welcoming the Spring thru death 💀🌱 : : : "Velvet-soft enclave of release, death in which I do not die, receive me. Assist my surrender, that I may enter innocent into the Sacred Garden." : : " Stripped down to essence, marrow of light..." : : "In this surrender, like moss, I am the life, transformation, and insight that grows out of death." : Moving towards the light in me ~ embodying more and more of my Essence Self 🙏✨ #selfreadings#allowing#breathing#sunbathing