Guilty....

Simon ran all the way to the beach, never daring to look back once. He then stopped and tried to catch his breath. Tears streamed down his cheeks. "Fuck fuck fuck!! I wish I would just die, damn it...I can't believe I...I'm a fucking monster!!" Simon said between sobs. In his black outs, he never did anything that extreme...And now he was the cause of two people's misery.

Amir heard Simon crying and walked up to him by following his voice. "Simon? Whats wrong, what happened?" He was worried about him crying. "You can tell me anything Simon, I wont judge you." HE put a hand on his shoulder and tried to comfort him.

Simon looked at Amir with tear filled eyes. "I...I did somthing horrible, Amir..." Simon said quietly. "I did something horrible to Ry...and Stone." Simon had a hard tme saying those names, because he knew that he just ruined any chances he might have had in making friends with them. And who would be friends with him anyways? Who would want to be friends with a monster that didn't even know what he was doing until afterwards?

HE croutched down to his level and looked him in the eyes with his unseeing mismatched eyes. "What happened? No matter what you did I will always be your friend. you cant scare me off. I have a friend that has done some messed up stuff so really im used to his kind of thing."

Simon wiped some of the tears out of his eyes and looked at Amir. "All my life, I've had black outs. I don't know what I do in those black outs though, but it has never been too bad....But today..." Simon started to tear up again. "I...I hurt Stone and Ry very bad...and I...." Simon couldn't bear to say the last thing he did.

He rubbed Simons back and hugged him to his chest. "Its alright. You can help it if you have black outs. Dont worry about it, I will not leave you Simon, I care too much." HE rubbed the smaller boys back to show him he was serious.

"A-amir, you don't understand...I...I almost raped Stone..." Simon said, completely discusted with himself. He was absolutely positive that Amir would now hate him, knowing what he had just told him. More tears streamed down Simon's face. All he wanted was for people to not be afraid of him, but it looked like that was just how it was going to be for the rest of his life.

"Alright, but you didnt. I dont think of you any different. My friend killed people. He has these black outs as well and it really does scare him. He doesnt have them as much so we think he will grow out of it. Mabye you will too." HE still hugged Simon close and rubbed his back.

Simon couldn't believe that Amir had just accepted him like that. Didn't he scare him? Didn't Amir detest him for the horrible things he did and his unstabe condition? Simon was glad that Amir hadn't rejected him and was comforted by him. It was rare when Simon was accepted by another person, so Simon was relieved and happy. He wiped the tears out of his face and hugged Amir back. "Th-thanks, Amir..."

Simon had never heard those words before, so it took a second for it to sink in. Once they did, Simon stopped crying altogether and smiled. "Really? Do you really mean that, Amir?" Simon said as he broke the hug to look into Amir's unseeing mixmatched eyes.

Those words made Simon feel so much happier. "Thank you so much, Amir. That really means a lot to hear." Simon said with a happier tone of voice. All the tears were gone and now Simon looked a little bit happier than before.

A friend...that sounds nice... Simon thought to himself as he heard the waves beat against the shore and the seagulls overhead. It was a nice day outside and the sky was blue. A warm breeze swept over them, calming Simon down a bit. The weather was never like that in Romania.

"Yeah, it is a nice day today...I understand how you feel, because Romania was just the opposite of today. It vas always cloudy and grey...pretty depressing place, expecially if you vork in an old, creepy castle."

"That's a good view to have, Amir." Simon said happily. He was pretty glad he had come to the adacemy because he already met a couple of really nice and accepting people. The weather was very nice as well, and it was a good change from Romania.

"That sounds really nice. I might have to visit Norway one of these days...Sounds a lot happier than Romania." Simon said, imagnining just what Norway might look like. It sounded like a really nice place to live, and Simon considered going there one day in the future.

"Vell, like I said before, Romania is a grey, gloomy looking country. It rains a lot and there are very few days vhere you can actually see the sun. Its a bit cold as well. Most of Romania isn't that technologically advanced, so people are always outside vorking or playing."

"Vell, I'm sure there is, Amir. It vould be nice for you to see things. There are a lot of things in the vorld that are beautiful, and it vould be good for you to see them." Simon said with a smile. He really thought that it would be a very good thing if Amir would be able to see.