hooking up on the ethers

Dead Man Walking

Dead Man Walking… an excellent film, with Sean Penn and Susan Serandan. Couldn’t get much better, and the theme is pretty universal, when you get down to it… Live or give up.

But this isn’t about the film, or even about the soundtrack cut with Bruce Springstein, which i share with you. This was the Name i began calling him, and for many months…

Alcir…………..something had happened while i was gone, and likely it was just an extension of what had been occuring for years, decades between then and now. But he was different, perhaps showing me, or unable to Hide, a side of him that was complex, fractured, and unavailable to me. I arrived so full of hope, and the way i am, i always believe that it can work out, if we want it badly enough…

So…. it’s midday. New Year’s Eve has been told, and has passed… so you know what i was left with. A very hung over, very still-drunk man, who was unavailable to me. I’d come 5,000 miles, and he held an equal distance.