"I wanna do as much as possible to help keep you smiling and realzing that you're still you, even with a piece missing."

That was what he told me a few months ago.

There are so many times when I think I've literally been asleep since the very end of 2010. Everything around me has just always felt like a dream and these past few months have been some of the hardest I've ever had to face in my life.

I can't even explain the way that I was feeling.

It was as if someone had ripped out a piece of my heart that I needed in order to continue living, and without it, I just could not function anymore, no matter how much I wanted to, I could not do it.

But the day that he got here, I was slowly able to slip out of the empty daze I had fallen into. I was actually able to start opening my eyes again.

He brought so much color and warmth back into my life, all the good feelings I'd missed so much had come back to me just in that time we spent together, just going to all of those places and having all that fun. It was the first time I was able to feel that complete in a really long time.

I will never be able to thank him enough for driving out all those miles just to come here. I will never be able to thank him enough for that. For healing me.