The first accused Stanley Cup rioter to go on trial admitted to a police officer he broke down upon seeing video of himself smashing windows and grinning during the June 2011 mayhem.

Police interview footage played in court Tuesday shows a very tense Spencer Kirkwood recalling the riot night for an investigator.

He repeatedly told RCMP Const. Cathy MacDonald he had no memory of rampaging through downtown Vancouver following a night of heavy drinking, but identified himself in a video in which he smashed windows at the Telus building.

“When I first saw the video, I thought I was going to jail,” he told the investigator in July 2011. “To be honest, I just started to cry a little bit.”

The Vancouver man, who is originally from Chilliwack, said he contacted authorities after seeing footage of himself online.

Kirkwood declined to contact a lawyer when MacDonald placed him under arrest after the accused said he “poked” some windows at a downtown building using a city barricade.

He also said during the interview he only remembered drinking at a downtown apartment before waking up the next morning to find more than 20 missed calls on his cell phone from worried friends and family.

He told MacDonald an anonymous caller phoned him later that day after and threatened his safety.

“I’m very scared right now,” a man who identified himself as Kirkwood said in a call to a 911 operator that was played in court.

The 26-year-old, dressed in a white shirt, stared at the ground as the footage played before the court, while his mother watched a TV monitor attentively from the gallery.

Despite dozens of people having been sentenced for rioting after pleading guilty, Kirkwood is the first to go to trial after entering a not-guilty plea.