Friday, January 29, 2016

Note: "A Recipe for Love" is a short story that I am about to send out to literary magazines. Comments or suggestions from readers are welcome!

Wind scoured the side of the house and
skidded across the back yard.It
was winter, but we hadn’t had a single snowstorm, and here it was the end of
January.

Inside, we were standing at the counter with
two cans of fresh tomatoes.A huge
yellow onion.Four fresh cloves of
garlic.

My friend Jen had come to visit me from
Amherst. And now I was going to show her how to make my favorite spaghetti
sauce.The recipe calls for capers.

Jen was reading from a heavily-stained three
by five card.I was cooking.She would tell me a step, and then our
conversation would wander.

“It’s just not me,” she said finally.“I mean, what the heck was I thinking?
I’m out there on Route 9 in some guy’s pick up truck and it’s one thirty in the
morning?What was I doing?”

I looked up at her.“If I’m not mistaken, I think what you were doing was making
out. Or, whatever?” I smiled.

She blushed.“Oh but that’s craaazy,” she said, stretching out the “a” in
that way she does.When Jen says
crazy like that, blood kind of flushes her face and she laughs and her voice
flies up into a bird’s high register.She practically squeaks.It’s one of the things I love most about my friend Jen, the way she says
the word crazy.

I shrugged.“It all sounds very nice to me,” I said.“What’s the next step?”

“The next step?” She looked at me blankly,
her head still making out in the truck I guess.“Oh, sorry,” she said turning back to the recipe.“OK, so now you dice a large onion and
brown it in olive oil.”

“Oh.Well.I know the recipe
says a whole onion.But I watched
my grandmother make sauce for years, and she never used more than half.”

“Well, OK, that’s fine.You also need two cloves of garlic.”

“Oh no,” I said.“Not two cloves.I use four.Just don’t tell
my husband, because he thinks he hates garlic.”I set to work.Jen watched as I peeled the brown skin
off the onion.I could feel her
eyes on me.I could feel her
thinking.

“Hey, I need a big frying pan from that
cabinet down there,” I said, pointing with my knife.“Would you mind getting it out, and the cover too?”

Jen crossed the kitchen and retrieved the
pan.Handed it to me at the stove.

We were quiet for a moment.“You know what I need,” she said.

“What?”

She sighed.“I need a recipe for love.”

I looked up.“Oh Jen, that is a very sweet thing to say. And you know I
would write you one in a minute, that is, if I had one.”I slid the chopped onion into the
frying pan. “How much olive oil do I need?”

Jen read from the card.“It says a third of a cup.”

“Yeah, but I just pour enough to cover the
bottom of the frying pan.”I turned
the front burner on high.

Jen started laughing.“Claire, why exactly do you have me
reading from this recipe card anyway?”

I looked up.“I thought you wanted to learn how to make my secret caper
sauce.So you can fix Rick a
romantic dinner.”

“I do,” she squealed, “but you aren’t
following any of the directions.”

I frowned.“Sure I am.It
calls for two cans of tomatoes doesn’t it?”

“No, it calls for one.”

“Oh well I always use two.Can you open them for me?”

She laughed. I handed her the can opener.For the next few minutes, while Jen
opened the cans, neither of us said anything.

“Maybe,” I said.“Maybe you just need to take it a day at a time.I’m a big believer in staying in the
moment.”

“Yeah, maybe,” Jen said.“Except one moment leads to the next,
and then the next, and soon it’s a day and a week and, suddenly before you know
it it’s a month later and he’s in your house repairing the doors.He’s gonna totally take over my life.”

She set the lids into the trash.“I just think my life was fine the way
it was.I was happy.Yeah, I was alone, but so what?And then, because of that dimwit in my
office, I did it.I did that
stupid Speed Dating thing.What
possessed me?Whatever possessed
me to listen to her?You know
what’s going to happen.You know
how it will all turn out.”

I was stirring the onions.I looked up.“I do?”

“Of course,” she said.“These things,” she had both her hands
up in the air, waving them almost the way my grandmother used to.“These things just never work out for
me.Think about...” her eyes
closed.“Think about…”

“Stop,” I said.“Don’t you dare
say his name!”

“GGGGRRRRR.”She growled and grit her teeth.“But you know how it went.I spent seven years with that man, and then at the end I
find out that he’s got a five-year old daughter.A baby by another friggin' woman.”

I stopped.Inhaled. Handed her the spoon.“Here, you take over stirring.”

She did.I went to the glass cabinet and reached up to the top shelf
and grabbed two wine glasses.I
went to the dining room to the wine rack.I took out my favorite bottle of red, a Montepulciano de Abruzzo, made
in the region where my grandparents were born, in two tiny villages tucked
beneath the snow-covered high peaks known as the Gran Sasso, due west of Rome.

I came back into the kitchen.As I did, Jen had the three by five
recipe card back in her hand.“I
think we were supposed to chop up some parsley.And we were supposed to put oregano and basil into the oil.”

“Oh you are exactly right,” I said. “But turn
off that stove for a moment, will you?”

She looked up at me.“Why?”

“Because we are not ready to make spaghetti
sauce.”

“We aren’t?”

“No.”

I reached into the drawer and pulled out a
corkscrew.

She looked at me, confused.

“If you are going to make sauce the right
way,” I said, “you gotta be in the right state of mind.”I wiggled the cork out of the
bottle.It popped with a very
satisfying thwunk. I poured each of us a tumbler of wine.

“Here, sit down and drink this,” I said,
handing her a glass.

“Thanks,” she said.We settled on the stools in the kitchen. We sat there
without saying a word.I heard
what I call “the Sunday afternoon sound,” the football game, droning on and on
in the background.

“I don’t have a recipe for love,” I said
finally.“But I know how my
grandparents made it through.One
thing they did, they had wine every day.Not a lot.Just about three
or four inches.They were simple
people.And they had a kind of
faith in things.I think that’s
what we don’t have enough of sometimes.”

“Yeah, well faith is fine for some people,” Jen
said, “but that’s not me.I’m not
the religious type.”

“Neither were they.My mother’s parents were not church goers, well, not so
much.But they had faith.Things happened to them.Some very, very sad things.But somehow they never lost hope.My grandmother, Mish, she lost her
first baby, Dante, when he was nine months old.”

I sipped calmly from my glass.Jen said nothing.

“What happened was, my great grandmother Clementina
had heard about this new vaccine.For diphtheria I think.It
was the early 1920s and she was a kind of forward-thinking lady. And also,
back in Italy, she herself had lost a baby to pneumonia.So my great grandmother told her daughter, my Grandma
Mish, that she better get baby Dante vaccinated right away.”

“And?”

I inhaled. Shook my head “The
vaccine was bad.He died within
hours.”

“Oh my God,” Jen said.“That’s so so awful.”

“Yeah, I’ll say.He was this gorgeous blonde baby, a rare and precious thing
in Italy, blonde hair.He was a
real cherub in the one photo I saw of him.” I turned to face her.“But what’s amazing is, my grandmother
got pregnant again almost right away.And you know what she named the new baby boy?”

“Let me guess…”

I nodded.“Yeah.Dante.”

“Somebody else might have avoided that name
like it was contagious.But my
grandmother, she had a kind of faith in life.She was quiet, but she was strong and stubborn.She believed that one way or another things were going to be better.Or, at least, things were going to be different.She always used to say, in Italian, “in a day, a Pope is
made.” Meaning everything can change totally. Overnight.”

“Yeah, I’ll say it can.So what happened with the second baby?”

I drained my glass.“Oh, well.My
Uncle Dante lived until he was 89," I said.“He was my mother’s oldest brother.A really great great guy.”

I stood up.“So, Jen, maybe if you can think about letting go of the
past.Convince yourself that this
relationship isn’t that other one back then.Tell yourself that things do change for the better. ”

“Maybe.”She spoke the word in almost a whisper.

I went back to the stove.Turned the burner back on.

“You really gotta let yourself believe that Jen.”The flame soared up under the frying
pan.“Hey, I have an idea.”

“Oh, maybe I should have a baby or
something?”She giggled.Jen is turning 50 next week.

“No.I think you should write a story.Did you ever think of writing a story?”

“Claire, I think of writing a story almost
every day.I’m a writer,
remember?”

“Jen, come on, I mean, did you ever think
about writing this story?”

“This story?”

“Yeah, a story about this.A love story.”

“I don’t write love stories, Claire.I leave you to do that.”

“Well then, just write a story about your
life right now.Write about this
new guy.Write yourself clean of
the past.”

“Claire, don’t you remember?I did that.I wrote the novel.I tried to tell it all.”

“Yeah, you did, you did a great job too.I love that novel.I love the way you dealt with…” I
cleared my throat. “HIM.But now,
now you need to write the next chapter.Write what happens when you meet the new guy.Write about Rick.Make the story go the way you want it to.Make it everything you want it to be.Make the love come true.”

“Oh Claire, you are such a dreamer.”

I shrugged.“I guess I am.But what’s the harm in it?Rather than sit around being scared things won’t work out, just write
the story the way you want to see it happen.Make up your own recipe.”

Jen finished her wine.“Right.Like the one you don’t follow to make this sauce.”

I smiled.“I never saw my grandmother ever once use a recipe.And she was the best cook on the
planet.”

Jen got off her stool.“Do you want me to chop the parsley or
not?”

“Yeah, chop the parsley.It’s in a plastic bag in the bottom
drawer of the refrigerator.”

I started to stir the onion again.Oil spurted out at my wrist.“Oh and while you’re at it, pull out a
carrot.”

“A carrot? What the heck do I need a carrot
for?”

I smiled.“Grandma Mish’s secret ingredient.To sweeten the sauce.”I held up the three by five card.“I know, I know.The recipe
says, add one teaspoon of sugar.But that’s not what I do.Grandma always said that spaghetti sauce came out sweeter if you dropped
in a carrot.”

“That’s craaazy,” Jen said as she handed me
the carrot and set to work washing the parsley.

I stood next to her, peeling the carrot.“Yeah, my grandma was kind of crazy.” Suddenly
an image of Grandma Mish flooded me.I saw the halo of grey hair, tied in a bun behind her head. I saw her soft bosom, where she always rested big loaves of crusty homebaked
bread as she sliced them up for dinner.I saw the huge serrated knife heading straight toward her chest.

The rest of us would cringe, terrified she would
lop off her breast. But she was fearless.

I blinked.I don’t know if was the wine at work on me, but standing
there, suddenly I could see the flesh of a baby, right in front of me.I could see into a set of watery grey
eyes.A newborn was
squawling.His head had a fuzzy blonde
layer of hair.A thick little clump
sprouted up over his brow.His
face lay nuzzled there right against my grandmother’s giant bared breast, his
pink wet mouth rooting for the sturdy nipple.

I watched her sitting there in the dark,
nursing.Rocking through the
night.

It was less than a year after she had buried
the first baby.The questions
pressed beneath my tongue.I felt
them thick and heavy, weighing against my heart.

Did she cry when she felt the milk leaking
into that new baby’s mouth?Did
she hold that tightly swaddled warm bundle of life thinking about the baby that
had gone cold?

How did my grandmother manage it?How did she ever manage to move
on?And how could she possibly
have given the second-born that name? Dante?

Sunday, January 17, 2016

I don't know if you've been following it, but Washington Post journalist Jason Razaian, who was arrested and jailed in 2014 by the Iranian government for basically doing his job, has been freed after 544 days of captivity.

Back in 2014, he was accused of being a spy and was thrown into the Evan Prison, the worst prison in Iran.

VIENNA — The United States and Iran moved into a new era of international relations Saturday, with the implementation of a landmark agreement on Iran’s nuclear program on a drama-filled day that also saw the release of imprisoned Washington Post reporter Jason Rezaian and four other Americans.

It is indeed a happy day for Razaian and his family and the other four Americans.

“Friends and colleagues at The Washington Post are elated by the wonderful news that Jason Rezaian has been released from Evin Prison and has safely left the country with his wife, Yeganeh Salehi,” said Frederick J. Ryan Jr., publisher of The Post. “We are enormously grateful to all who played a role in securing his release. Our deep appreciation also goes to the many government leaders, journalists, human rights advocates and others around the world who have spoken out on Jason’s behalf and against the harsh confinement that was so wrongly imposed upon him,” he said.

"Take Hold of Seeing Red With Your Hands, Your Fingers..."

August 7, 2011 “…take hold of this book with your fingers, your hands, your arms. It’s that human.Ricci has not only crafted wonderfully-flawed characters, she has brilliantly painted in the scenery around those characters.” Sandy Prisant, Wordsmith Wars.

"You Forget You're Reading, You Just Feel Like You're There!"

"With a book as artfully written as Seeing Red, it only takes a few pages to become immersed in Ronda’s world. For a time you won’t even know you’re reading; you’ll just feel like you’re there."
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Readers Rave About "Seeing Red"

July 7, 2011

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“I am having the best experience reading your book. I would love to see the bookmade into a movie. You are a genius, you have amazing talent…write more!”--Ruth Horowitz,Boca Raton, Florida

June 27, 2011

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