This is whatever is on my mind, I am uninteresting, random and abnormal. I dont like the over use of apostrophes and spel check is overrated. I rarely re- read what I wrote so you might have to decode some of this. I am prob the laziest writer on here.
I am frightfully honest kind and female. I love morning coffee, morning yoga and morning wood any time of the day.
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Sunday, March 8, 2009

Boredom is a Pattern, not a Reality

This year is already flying by. I can't seem to get a hold of MY time. WTF? Seems there is always something , someone or both pressing me and taking over. The worst part is I am not doing the things I want to do. Yeh, I know, I'm the mom and have the family and work full time. I even get that we still have a full 24 hours everyday all day that hasnt changed in like, forever. But I am at a loss as to how to make these changes where the fam is happy too.

I'm just at a stand still. Blah. Bored. Resisting. I'm not living the life I want to live, I wonder if I am living the living the life everyone else wants me to, at least....

I am not a fan of this mood I am in. The weather in Arizona is the best in the country, at least for now. I really am not unhappy, just friggin bored with my routine. Maybe I am just boring.

Saturday we took the kids north of here to see if we could find some Indian ruins. Livi wanted to go. I was going to call it off since Haley has been invaded by some mouthy little know it all, she did not want to go and announced if she went she would be in a foul mood. The BF insisted I not give her that choice, reminding me that she would be fine once we got going. I agreed and painstaking let her know that she was going and was going to have a fun time whether or not she wanted to.

Her mood was good and since none of her know it all friends were with us, she was actually very nice to us and her sister. We never found the ruins but the day was pleasant and we spent some family time together. We ended up going to a ghost town called Jerome, west of Sedona and had a late lunch at a famous place call the Haunted Hamburger.

See, just doing things. Nothing exciting, nothing LOL to report, nothing. Don't get me wrong, I was happy to spend the time with my kids and BF and glad we didnt do the usual nothing. But some how I really feel that I am very static.....

*pauses to turn down the white noise*

Perhaps it's just the season change. Maybe not. I just need an attitude adjustment. Maybe a wild weekend away from the same 'ol. Maybe a lesson in gratitude that I am in a good place and this might be contentment and since it is drama free I need to stop and appreciate that spring is here and... so on and on and on.....

I know I will move past this mini pity party. Feel free to comment using a famous Cliche`. maybe something like:

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When I get bored, I take a jaunt into the city and go on a homeless killing spree. Then I steal a car and smash it into things at a high rate of speed. When I find an alley, I get a hooker and after she's done I smack her until she gives my money back. When it's all over I get the drugs to their final destination.

Personally I like to start fires and or cause chaos. Why you may ask. well life is no fun if you are not breaking laws, beating children and or homeless people, selling my body for a swig of sumpin or other and just the general causing of problems etc.

Currently I am targeting the ex. more specifically I am going to drive to the california border so i can race his car. I havent had a ticket for like a month so i am super excited. i am tellin ya this car of his kicks ass, it picks up quick and since it aint mine who cares if i wreck it eh....so anyway that is my entertainment for the day.

i am going to next go drop my kid (cant remember her name) off at the MGM and see if she can find her way home.