I Have Extremely Strong Urges to Hunt, Attack, Kill & Sometimes Eat Other People

Asked by itslikeathing on 2018-05-8 with 1 answer:

When I was about sixteen, I started experiencing extremely strong urges and desires to essentially hunt other people. I will want to ambush them, chase them down, tear out their throats with my teeth, slaughter them with teeth and claws. Sometimes these urges even include cannibalism; occasionally I will want to actually eat these people and even drink their blood.

These desires never apply to any specific person or type of person, just anyone other than my close friends and family. Often, these urges just sort of come about randomly. However, they can also be caused by extreme stress. It often takes every ounce of strength I have to stop myself from acting on them.

To go along with these predatory desires, I often have dreams involving shapeshifting and bears. These dreams began at the same time as the urges did. However, I suffer no delusions of being anything other than human. I’ve been incredibly terrified to get help because I’m scared I’ll be locked away, and I’ve never been able to find any information about what I might have. Just what is wrong with me? Am I just a very primal and feral person?

I Have Extremely Strong Urges to Hunt, Attack, Kill & Sometimes Eat Other People

Your fantasies all involve your becoming more powerful; a force to be reckoned with. Many people have fantasies about being more powerful. Often because they do not have enough power in their own life or they have been abused or bullied. In both conditions, being abused or bullied, the victim suffers the abuse because they lack the power to stop it. If they could say the magic word and the abuse would stop, they would say it. If they could suddenly shape shift and become an 800-pound bear, they would do so and thus end the abuse they are suffering. Since victims do not have magic words or the ability to shape shift, they are left only with their fantasies.

Is this why you have the fantasies and urges that you possess? I certainly do not know. There are of course many other reasons for the type of urges and fantasies that you are having, I have just given you the most common one. Certainly, there can be other causes but you would need to work in person with a therapist to determine the origins of your fantasies and urges.

These types of fantasies and urges are more common than you might imagine and most assuredly would not resolve in your being locked away. If you were to tell a therapist about your violent and cannibalistic urges, these alone would not result in involuntary commitment. If you were to tell you therapist about your urges and the secret room that you built beneath your garage floor, filled with ropes and chains and torture equipment, and surveillance footage of your intended victim, you would likely end up being involuntarily committed.

And that is exactly, what you should want. The purpose of involuntary commitment is to protect you as well as other people. Carrying out any of your fantasies would certainly destroy your life. Carrying out your fantasies could result in your being killed or suffering locked away in a violent prison system, every moment of every day until your heart stops beating. Not only would your life, as you know it, be taken from you but prison itself is a torture. It is violent, degrading and inhumane.

Involuntary commitment is meant to protect you and to protect those around you. The involuntary commitment is not a punishment. It is not violent, it is not inhumane, it is not degrading.

It is treatment. It is an attempt to save your life. It is an attempt to use the greatest advances in the field of mental health, to cure you.

If you can say “I don’t need committed because in reality there is absolutely no chance that I would do any of these things, they are purely fantasy” then you do not need involuntary commitment and no therapist would suggest involuntary commitment.

If you can say “you know, I think I just might do it. I have a real hard time right now stopping myself sometimes.” Then commitment, voluntary or involuntary, is something that you should welcome because it will protect you and save your life. Yes, it will protect others as well but most importantly it will protect you from you.

I hope that I’ve been of some assistance to you. You should make an appointment with a therapist, it might make you feel much better.

Dr. Kristina Randle

I Have Extremely Strong Urges to Hunt, Attack, Kill & Sometimes Eat Other People

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Kristina Randle, Ph.D., LCSW

Kristina Randle, Ph.D., LCSW is a licensed psychotherapist and Assistant Professor of Social Work and Forensics with extensive experience in the field of mental health. She works in private practice with adults, adolescents and families. Kristina has worked in a large array of settings including community mental health, college counseling and university research centers.