The public life of an adult female Prodigy

heather J. Moore

I’m starting to remember the bodies. Why Mom tried to leave but couldn’t. Why I tried to leave. I remember your M.O. I remember their M.O.’s.

You Mizzou Ku Klux Klan can all GO FUCK YOUR SELVES. If the Knock-Out Game don’t get you first!

Your favorite words were ‘nigger’, wetback, queer, nigger-lover, bubble butt, retarded… You cleaned up your act, somewhat, for a roof, and access to more kids, guns, and young minds to fuck-up. It’s the only way you can get that little winky of yours hard…

Maybe that’s why I hate those words. And that attitude from doctors, police, employers.

I’m autistic. I have serious communication barriers. I have a lot of information for many jurisdictions. I seek to educate and inform massive amounts of data in an efficient manner that bigoted, neurotypical boneheads can understand so we don’t have another Matthew A. Nestle. That is to say that the attention I want is NOT self-serving. It’s so many, many families can eventually sleep at night.

The Klan uses the ‘spoonful of sugar’ method to get people to swallow their crap. They’re are a wolves in sheeps clothing.

BY ALL PROTECTED ADULTS, GAYS, LESBIANS, BISEXUALS, TRANSGENDERS, AUTISTIC, AND CHILDREN’ by the ‘Peoples Prodigy’. If your a white frat boy, or a perfectly healthy white sorority girl with an ass the size of a 13 year old girl (just the way these not-so-closeted pederast Missouri men like ’em) then by all means continue to get your care through them. You deserve each other…

This article is dedicated to a true American Hero. She is a Vietnam & Korean War Veteran. She ‘controlled the Naval Movement during the Vietnam War’, flew helicopters (and maintains her license even now), counseled military dependents (including me), served in ‘militarized and D.M.Z.’s’ (de-militarized zones), trained some of ‘West Points’ best, and was probably special forces… She ‘earned her star’ by testifying before congress about the Appropriate Application of Affirmative Action, has ‘the same Diplomatic Immunity as the President of the United Sates, ‘dated John McCain before he ever met Cindy’, she’s a historian, is/was an investigator for the U.S. Department of Justice, and ‘investigates human trafficking’. Her name is Virginia, and because she saved my life, she intermediately helped all of those who’ve I’ve helped, and will continue to help, up to and including MYSELF. That said, if I fuck-up, or misuse my powerful gift then I have insulted her efforts. This, I will not knowingly do. My focus, and steadfast resolve on my personal investigations (systems analysis) may not be obvious… That, again, goes back to a conversation she and I had on the smoking porch at C.A.S.S. when I was discussing my secretiveness with my M.O.’s. She said ‘Like Einstein?” I looked at her because that was the second time that she referred to something from the article I wrote to insure Masons conviction, and lengthy sentence… Just because I suspected why she was there, at least partially, doesn’t mean I yanked her chain… I wasn’t sure, so I played by her rules in not revealing herself, directly… Which she did partially identify herself the day before she left… She, and I, deserve for me to use my gifts exactly as I promised her. She listened, and I talked about some very painful revelations about the state of our union regarding the everyday cover-up of the subtle ways of child predators/traffickers. I believe, perhaps, that she was heartbroken to realize that an autistic female version of Albert Einstein, who learned to that her gifts in mathematics applied socially could (and did) save her own life as a Munchausen S.B.P. & child pornography/trafficking/incest survivor and did autodidactically develop skills that allowed her to do the same for others suffering from child abuse. Like her own private ‘reconnaissance missions’ to rescue tiny little ‘Prisoners of War’ wholike herself came out of the womb fighting for their tiny little lives. No training like those who actually made an adult decision to ‘Serve’ in the military. These tiny warriors were given no choice. Virginia, and I discussed this in short… She said ‘P.O.W.’s are required to try to escape…”

I replied “Yes, but, they have military training… Children have nothing…” She looked down and to her right, and said, “this is very disturbing…” I had to stop as not to upset her, and have her shut down and not absorb these concepts (logical axioms) that I operate from…

The more common definition is one that states once the addict ingests/shoots/smokes any mood altering drug, then they are set into a perilous cycle of uncontrolled physical cravings, and subsequent behaviors. Basically, a true addict can not, by definition, control their drug use.

I can control my much needed pain management medication, needed for these uterine tumors that University of Missouri Hospital & Boone Hospital Center were recorded NOT telling me I had them. I can AUTHENTICATE via witnesses who keep all meds in the home locked-up for everyone’s safety. . On the days that I work, and must perform my job, I will take up to the maximum dose IF NEEDED to stay OUT OF THE E>R>. This SAVES insurance, and taxpayer $$$$ especially when, like me, they have no insurance, yet. Having lot’s of EXTRA pain medicine, well documented by my previous & current care provider, is NOT indicative of drug abuse, or addiction… Addiction disorders are for idiots. I enjoy my ‘Prodigious Savant-isms’ which disappear when under harsh side-effects of meds. Chad used to go nuts wondering how I managed to only use HALF of a pain pill… I said “I only want the relief from the harsh NERVE pain, or pain from the tibial rod. NOT the side effects that make me only as smart as you… Professor…” With a smart-ass smile. “Oh! hell NO! You did not just say that to me!” And he rattle off his huge list of credentials as a legal scholar. “Don’t talk to me!” say. I’d be roaring, and the dogs would laugh right along with me!

As a U.S. Navy trained Special Operator, I can, and will, lie & pretend to gain the trust of addicted/alcoholic child abusers/molesters/traffickers OF ANY KIND much the same way an undercover Narcotics officer may snort a line of cocaine to gain the trust of his target. I however, am autistic. I will not use street drugs, or actually abuse my own. I will lie to whomever I have to all around the ‘targeted predator’. How will you know the difference? Accountability. I always have witnesses to my own use, and the amounts of meds I take… My meds were literally under lock& key at Lois Bryant House & Salvation Army’s Harbor House where they stole the damned things on camera.

I offered the physicians at Green Meadows to have me come in DAILY for a pill count to ESTABLISH my safe use of my medication so that I can work and not have the pain cost me money. They had more excuses for NOT doing their job than a pedophile going to jail. The visit was recorded unbeknownst to them. Theirs will be in writing, probably falsified. the one that I now have access to will allow you to actually hear my very sincere efforts to ‘reasonably accommodate’ her ‘feelings’ so that I could return to work. She kept interrupting me until I established that I PAID for that time, that it was her job to listen, evaluate, examine, and ‘reasonably accommodate’ my need to go to work despite my pain. She claimed that it was against the law to treat me without my medical records, which she refused to get by stating that “You only get 30 minutes…” most of which she wasted by going on and on with excuses, conjecture, presuppositions, and refusals to actually do her job… YET suggested that I may benefit from back surgery??? For uterine tumors???

UMMMM, surgery is a last ditch effort when nothing else works… And that reference was an attempt to treat, as well as the medications she wrote for. Therefore, according to her, she and every other doctor who treats me in a ‘comprehensive manner’ is guilty of criminal?, and civil? violations??? I am writing a formal grievance to their Risk Management people, because of her deliberate refusal to do her job, Boone Hospital center had to do all the tests, ultrasound, examination on one of my issues to get some answers and write a work release. They also instructed me to be seen by my ‘ARIZONA PROVIDER’ on my discharge papers… Now, I discussed the Green Meadows blatant malpractice with the Boone Hospital E.R. M.D. and showed him the hard copy prescription for the tramadol that the Green meadows M.D. wrote for. An ‘addict’ would not still be hanging on to the hard copy. Nor still in possession of about #16 of #20 pills when I was seen at Green Meadows on the 16th. I counted them in front of the M.D.

You will hear all of her lame excuses for NOT sending for all of my records establishing my very serious orthopedic nightmare of a body. My autism, and savant syndrome. However, all she very admittedly wanted to do was go on & on about her ‘feelings’, her ‘discomfort’, and ESTABLISHED & admitted ‘prejudices’. When she acted on them, she was guilty of discrimination. the other physician GOT what I was saying, and apologized for her when she left, stating that she ‘wasn’t on the same page’. probably because of her barely speaking English.

Oh! Did I just show prejudice? Insensitivity? Act with Discrimination? She fucked with my job, my health, my financial ability to provide for myself independently, and as far as I am concerned my life. I take that very personally, and as you will hear, in her nasty condescending tone that came from nowhere because I was very straightforward, and respectful, she DID make it personal.

Again, “All’s fair in Love & War…”

This is going to go very much like the Beasley/ Mason article…. I’m going to peel back the memories in my Savant brain one layer at a time, so that you ‘linear thinkers’ can keep up. So, just when you T*H*I*N*K you know exactly what’s going on in this prodigy’s mind, ( And that’s all it is… just your ‘over-educated flea’ O*P*I*N*I*O*N, of which, you will eventually smell the stink ) I’ll PROVE that no one can ever truly know what I am, or was, up to… Only I know that. However, I am going to share a very vague version. vague because if I revealed my prodigious trade secrets then I would be unleashing a socialized ‘Weapon of Mass Destruction’ for all to use to destroy their competitors. Just like what happened to Einstein’s Theory of Relativity. You don’t remember? let me show you….

Men (and women) in positions of power don’t need my help in destroying each other via ‘intellectual properties’. Such as the millions of deaths via suicide, and the permanent disabilities from the millions of incompleted suicides that occurred from the doctors, like these ignorant/money hungry doctors here in Columbia Missouri, who forced individuals to continue taking Neurontin, and now gabapentin, for ‘off-label uses’. Which is to say uses other that what is F.D.A. approved for that drug. it’s F.D.A. approved as a S*E*C*O*N*D*A*R*Y seizure medication. That’s it.
[<a href=”http://www.bloomberg.com/news/2010-04-02/pfizer-agrees-to-first-settlement-of-a-neurontin-related-suicide-lawsuit.html&#8221; rel=”nofollow”>www.bloomberg.com/news/2010-04-02/pfizer-agrees-to-first-…</a>]

This article was written, and authenticated about 16 years ago when I was still in the ‘Prodigious Savant Closet’ and still conducting my own ‘covert operations’, of sorts, as an activist and investigator into the practice of child trafficking by drug addicted/dealing/trafficking mothers, and the drug addicted/dealing/trafficking male pederasts that infest not only the City of Columbia MO, but the many rural areas all over the state of Missouri. Let’s look at the medical definition of addict:

THE UNIVERSITY OF MISSOURI – COLUMBIA THINKS LIKE, AND ACTS LIKE ADOLPH HITLER. THEY PRACTICE & MAINTAIN PROPAGANDA CAMPAIGNS via DELIBERATELY F*A*L*S*I*F*I*E*D MEDICAL RECORDS AGAINST ‘PROTECTED’ PATIENTS FOR THE SAKE OF FINANCIAL EXPLOITATION, AND REFERRING US TO ‘SOCIALIZED CONCENTRATION CAMPS’ FOR THEIR OWN COMFORT.

The State of Missouri, as well as many of it’s communities practices FEDERALLY FUNDED discrimination on a criminal level reminiscent of those who support the ARYAN BROTHERHOOD, WHITE SUPREMACISTS, AND THE ARYAN RACE. They use dangerous drugs like Neurontin/gabapentin to keep their patients sick (this medication causes suicidal depression, suicidal tendencies, and countless suicides) as it is widely known for over a decade, now.

However, the M.U. health care community has fucked, and sucked, and drank and drove, and cheated, and committed criminal offenses together SO they must ALL participate or they all go down individually… Hence “united we stand, divided we fall’.

Who am I to say all of this?
An autistic adult female prodigious savant who has prodigiously survived, investigated, elicited the confessions of (via her own medical records ;-b) all of the above so that she can be authenticated, or vetted, by any U.S. Department of Justice investigators. Why D.O.J.?

Because the University of Missouri receives federal funding. And when any entity gets federal funding they MUST comply with all federal laws, and guidelines, regarding patients rights, safety, and medical records… however, in my case, and 2 very recent cases of 2 women who came to me for help, these local doctors are in violation of all of the above.

It’s called a ‘propaganda campaign’. Hitler, and the sexual predators of children under the age of five -like Richard Edwin Beasley, Scott Rozear Mason, and his child pornography making father John R. Mason, use these to create an alibi for themselves, create ‘plausible deniability’, and make a ‘preemptive first strike’ against the credibility of the victims. All of this in order to emancipate themselves from any type of civil, or criminal prosecution… So, when they pulled this shit with me, they declared war on me…

“All’s fair in love, and war…”

War is my friend. I use the TRUTH to send out a message about the ways of my enemies, and use my

Let me also make it clear that what Hitler did, like putting upside-down pink triangles on homosexuals, and sending all types of different people -NOT JUST THE JEWS, to the concentration camps because he felt that were to be used up to make as much money from their labor, and then murdered by genocide, and starvation, when they became to expensive and useless to him and his cause is really NO DIFFERENT than the slave owners of the Confederate States, The Trail of Tears, and exactly the ‘white-collar social slavery that’s being perpetrated by the ‘tailgate partying, date-raping, Aryan thinking frat boys right here in Columbia MO.’

So, if anyone is of the mind that I am going to show any mercy to an unbalanced community that’s blowing smoke up their own asses, and blowing smoke up the asses of those who provide their federally funded social terrorism by means of falsified documents perpetuated by ‘groupthink’ then you are sorely mistaken. Everyone must be participating for this to be such an epidemic in this community.

See, when a predator becomes a medical student, and manages to get over on his ‘teachers’ (in their various forms) via his own multiple personality disorder (all predators have this and they use it) to get access to vulnerable/autistic patients for the sole purpose of physically torturing them via performing surgeries W*I*T*H*O*U*T any local, or systemic, ANESTHETIC just to make her scream bloody murder, and then tell the nurses who come running from all directions, that “SHE’S being difficult…” (like most autistic individuals are perceived) even though the nurses, and nursing director, didn’t buy his bullshit and stared his sick ass down and TOLD HIM that he just ordered an injection of a system anesthetic, and then ran out of the room to get the injection and ordered the attending physician into the room because they couldn’t get the sick bastard (Ortho surgery student) to stop (because he couldn’t help himself) stabbing said patients ankle where the tunneling from a raging infection that they JUST operated on and squeezing the blood out of her leg, while she let’s out blood- curdling screams heard down the corridors of the University of Missouri Health Sciences Center/Hospital, nothing ever really gets DONE about it because those who caught him in the act have all done drugs, drank and driven, fucked, sucked, and committed serious infractions of their own so they falsify medical records, and perpetuate a nasty propaganda campaign to make sure the patient is never properly treated for her sexual assault perpetrated b y a surgical student who GOT OFF on what he was doing, so that she will be perceived as a ‘difficult patient with a bad attitude’ so no one will listen to the truth. Their bad luck she’s a prodigy, which is to say that she has an enormous memory, and remembers dates, faces, and names of the clinicians who witnessed the grotesque assault by the Dr. Jeffrey Scott Hoskins, who studied under Dr. Jeffrey Anglen.

Then said community demands (by threatening to involuntarily commit you to if you DON’T take it, as they still do to other female patients who’ve asked for my prodigious help, to take Neurontin/gabapentin even though it causes suicide, and suicidal tendencies (that’s how the stabbed/assaulted autistic patient got the shattered leg in the first place) that caused patients taking it to put guns in their mouths, jump off of buildings, and God only knows what else… See, these physicians are beefing up their bottom lines with financial kick-backs. Neurontin (Pfizer Pharmaceuticals) is now available in generic form called gabapentin. Guess who is still the primary manufacturer of generic Neurontin?

The university of Missouri – Columbia health Clinics do make enough ‘token’ efforts at looking like they are in compliance with federal regulations for the sake of ‘plausible deniability’. So, I’ve been told by various staff members who I will protect as sources at all costs.

You are a protected adult if you are:
FEMALE
AFRICAN AMERICAN
PHYSICALLY OR MENTALLY DISABLED
AUTISTIC and/or SAVANT SYNDROME
HISPANIC, OR OF ANY OTHER NON-CAUCASIAN DECENT
NATIVE AMERICAN – like ME (Yes! The Prodigy is of Native American lineage)
ELDERLY
PEDIATRIC PATIENTS
OF A RELIGEON OTHER THAN CHRISTIAN
GAY, LESBIAN, BI, TRANSGENDERED, POLYAMOROUS
NOT BORN IN THE UNITED STATES

Doctors have come from distant cities
Just to see me
Stand over my bed
Disbelieving what they’re seeing

They say I must be one of the wonders
Of god’s own creation
And as far as they can see they can offer
No explanation

Newspapers ask intimate questions
Want confessions
They reach into my head
To steal the glory of my story

They say I must be one of the wonders
Of god’s own creation
And as far as they can see they can offer
No explanation

O, I believe
Fate smiled and destiny
Laughed as she came to my cradle
Know this child will be able
Laughed as my body she lifted
Know this child will be gifted
With love, with patience and with faith
She’ll make her way

People see me
I’m a challenge to your balance
I’m over your heads
How I confound you and astound you
To know I must be one of the wonders
Of god’s own creation
And as far as you can see you can offer me
No explanation

O, I believe
Fate smiled and destiny
Laughed as she came to my cradle
Know this child will be able
Laughed as she came to my mother
Know this child will not suffer
Laughed as my body she lifted
Know this child will be gifted
With love, with patience and with faith
She’ll make her way

Being a prodigy is a prodigious pain in the ass. I can predict, and manipulate not only people, but groups of people, entire communities, multiple jurisdictions, and come up with a plan on how to do it LEGALLY -including contingency planning- in a microsecond. I did it on my article (book) I wrote to insure Mason’s conviction. In mathematics it called ‘probabilities’.

Though, I did not have a name for it, nor had I heard of John Forbes Nash as a kid, or even more recently until I read ‘A Beautiful Mind’. However, I still SAW what he calls ‘governing dynamics’ in my head all of my life. At the individual level, group/family level, community, state, national, global. I see it in microseconds like one long equation, however, it’s 1000’s of memories of events, sound bites from what people have said, and logical axioms that apply.

Everything we say, and do, ADDS UP TO SOMETHING…

“We are the sum total of our choices.” – Woody Allen

This goes, too, for families, groups, communities, states, nations, and the world…

“We’re all faced throughout our lives with agonizing decisions, moral choices. Some are on a grand scale, most of these choices are on lesser points. But we define ourselves by the choices we have made. We are, in fact, the sum total of our choices. Events unfold so unpredictably, so unfairly, Human happiness does not seem to be included in the design of creation. it is only we, with our capacity to love that give meaning to the indifferent universe. And yet, most human beings seem to have the ability to keep trying and even try to find joy from simple things, like their family, their work, and from the hope that future generations might understand more” – Woody Allen

You may wonder why on earth I’d want to do such a thing…

Simple.

To stay alive, AND live my life the way our U.S. Constitution says I’m allowed to live it…

In the ‘pursuit of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness…’

Now Charles Darwin’s theory of our evolution teaches the concepts of ‘survival of the fittest’. This makes us a very competitive bunch. You all are not ‘prodigious savants’, so, you are a bunch of very insecure little bastards…. Hey! truth hurts. Most of you only feel good when your fucking up the success of others, and taking over the territory.

Let me show you how it’s done…. Prodigious savant style. It’s not about winning every battle. It’s about winning as many as possible and sending a very important message that the ‘pillars of the community’ do not have an inalienable right to ‘socially starve’ the less fortunate members of a community. This creates I*N*E*Q*U*A*L*I*T*Y. That’s ‘the rich getting richer, and the poor getting poorer’. that’s Nazi tactics.

Like that pathetic 13 year old doctor that thought she one-upped me, yesterday. I set her up. I deliberately went to the exam in a tremendous amount of pain to be as symptomatic in my autism as possible. When I’m over-stimulated I look like a ‘retard’ as these University of Missouri college students like to refer to me.

This child M.D. ( I asked her if she was a child prodigy! LOL ) I think I pissed her off… Anyway, I was seen on an emergency basis for ‘female’ problems that have been ongoing for quite sometime. This little girl, nor her clinic, EVER asked me for my medical history… Not any of it. I now know that I have uterine tumors. Had she actually done her job, instead of acting discriminately, she’d have ordered the proper imaging to see it herself.

Now, I ask you, HOW IN THE HELL can ANY physician do any kind of a comprehensive medical evaluation on a 44 year old female who is bleeding so severely only 14 days after a heavy menses cycle without even ASKING for her FULL medical history?

No physician can. Period. And she was no exception. her bigotry, youth, and her arrogance, and open and notorious practice of discrimination against persons with disabilities lead her to make a diagnosis, and a referral to an expensive specialty clinic, even though she very subtly refused to make a reasonable accommodation for me to return to work at full- time hours so that I might pay for all this highly specialized ‘pelvic floor’ therapy… This tiny little girl with M.D. after her name still hasn’t grown up enough to realize that money doesn’t grow on trees, and that her J*O*B is to keep me working (provided that it’s safe) and paying taxes. NOT to cost the taxpayers because of her insensitivity to the needs of persons with disabilities. We don’t have to live in the ‘social cages’ that she, a lily-white cracker, decides is more comfortable for her if we’re in our ‘proper places’. This is reminiscent of the days when persons with any mental health disabilities such as depression, addiction, autism were sent to asylums. The state of Missouri still has one for ‘retards’ like me… It’s called the Missouri State School.

First of all, my ‘pelvic floor’ is fine. The ultrasound shows the tumors.Her bullshit diagnosis for sake of referring me to that specialty clinic for kickbacks? or does University of Missouri hospital clinics need more bodies to get their federal funding?

This was as a result of the University of Missouri Physicians, Orthopedic Surgeons, and M.U. Psych Dr.’s, Family Counseling Center Psychiatrists & Counselors gross malpractice, and seeking financial kickbacks for prescribing Neurontin, now generically called gabapentin. This is all scar tissue, and I have to be very protective of it. It still has a Vancomycin bead in it. And watch for pics from the other tibial rod placement in the right leg that’s still there….

Interestingly enough, M.U. doctors also prescribed the now terminated drug Bextra, also by Pfizer.

What’s most important is that the Neurontin/Gabapentin made the pain meds almost completely ineffective for my pain, and made me sick, and soul-less. It was a horrifying nightmare of memories that are going to be harder to talk about than what I worked on with Virginia Holiday.

This was basically being raped, chemically, from the inside out by arrogant abusive, and chauvinistic University of Missouri physicians and surgeons.

Did you know that it’s cheaper to pay the lawsuits, than to practice good medicine/psychology? Yep! their malpractice insurance covers everything, yet all the kickbacks that they get are theirs to keep… It’s called a costs benefits analysis…

These are scars from him lancing ‘puss pockets’ formed by the tunneling from the chronic infection resulting from the tib/fib compound fracture as a result of taking Neurontin/gabapentin for chronic back pain. Which it is not F.D.A. approved for. It’s approved only as a secondary seizure medicine… All suicide related issues with these drugs are reported to the F.D.A.

Again, for the record, I was forced to take the medication by the University physicians despite my complaints of the side effects of it not only causing severe side-effects which impacted my savant syndrome (which University of Missouri physicians misdiagnosed due to their extreme chauvinism as they are a ‘Rapists Paradise’, and beliefs that women are not autistic, or savants. That would bruise their fragile Missouri men’s egos, then they couldn’t get their dicks hard… That’s how it works, folks… If they are not the alpha, then they can’t get it up so they can ‘tap dat ass’…

Back to my point. The cocksucker said “That’s what you get for acting like a retard…” He did these surcical procedures with no local, or systemic, anesthetic. It was obvious to me, as through my blood curdling screams, and the way the nurses who came running and did take over the situation that Dr. Jeffrey Scott Hoskins was more than enjoying his torturing of an autistic female. they made wrongful diagnosis of bipolar, major depression, and borderline personality for their convenience of being able to commit me to Mid-Missouri Psych ward, for more torture. Which reminds me of the first time I met Dr. Hoskins… These scars aren’t the first time he performed surgery without any local, and not the first time he openly enjoyed making me scream, and calling me retarded. Again, it makes these University of Missouri physicians, both male and female (they have penis envy) feel better to look, and treat autistic females like ‘retards’ upto, and including, the condescending tones of voice, arrogance (they must mistakenly believe that I don’t have the resources to hold them accountable for their actions), and indignation. This is prejudiced, biased, discriminatory, and abusive malpractice. The sad part is that the rest of the country has caught up… They have not…

Did you know that it’s cheaper to pay the lawsuits, than to practice good medicine/psychology? Yep! their malpractice insurance covers everything, yet all the kickbacks that they get are theirs to keep… It’s called a costs benefits analysis…

I remember being treated here for exposure. I woke up frozen to the ground. I was sleeping outside, by choice, and already had Pneumonia… none of the shelters would take me because of the false mental health diagnosis I was tagged with by all local clinicians. Girls aren’t autistic, or savants according to these physicians back then… Boone got with the program. University is still as bigoted about women with autism/savant syndrome as ever… That’s their male, and female providers… idiots…

Raising awareness about the very deadly ‘groupthink’ (lynch mob) that this particular community, and that of my own hometown of Marshall MO, has CHOSEN for themselves.

Did you know that it’s cheaper to pay the lawsuits, than to practice good medicine/psychology? Yep! their malpractice insurance covers everything, yet all the kickbacks that they get are theirs to keep… It’s called a costs benefits analysis…

This was fun… mark box if… According to your ‘tools’ any woman, or man between the ages of 16 & 45, with a history of pre-adolescent sexual abuse, A*U*T*I*S*M* are high risk for abuse, addiction, etc. DRUG ABUSE, ADDICTION, and S*T*U*P*I*D ‘tools’ like this are a CHOICE! ‘Tools’ being the key word… If your ‘discriminating’ based on a sexual abuse history, or autism, whether or not someone gets to work for a living, or live in a homeless shelter, with NO access to medical care then you are the fucking ‘TOOL’… GET REAL, people…

This says nothing about a risk of addiction, or abuse… one article says we are more likely to do exactly what you say because we don’t have time for B*U*L*L*S*H*I*T… I sure don’t… This bullshit malpractice has cost me 3 1/2 months pay…

Had Green Meadows sent for my records (university has PLENTY of their own albeit FALSIFIED) when I got there an hour early the idiot supervisor for the green team might have saved thousands of dollars in E.R. visits for doctors notes for work… Instead she went on and on about HER ‘feelings’ instead of doing her god damned job… WOW! All of the E.R. physicians openly advised me to see someone else…Boone Hospital Center

Don’t be fooled by it’s bullshit pledge about promoting youth growth…It promotes the white male, and rapists populations… It refused to help the rape victim who committed suicide… Now, it’s making a token effort for the sake of appearances… that’s adding insult to injury…

BY ALL PROTECTED ADULTS, GAYS, LESBIANS, BISEXUALS, TRANSGENDERS, AUTISTIC, AND CHILDREN’ by the ‘Peoples Prodigy’. If your a white frat boy, or a perfectly healthy white sorority girl with an ass the size of a 13 year old girl (just the way these not-so-closeted pederast Missouri men like ’em) then by all means continue to get your care through them. You deserve each other…

This article is dedicated to a true American Hero. She is a Vietnam & Korean War Veteran. She ‘controlled the Naval Movement during the Vietnam War’, flew helicopters (and maintains her license even now), counseled military dependents (including me), served in ‘militarized and D.M.Z.’s’ (de-militarized zones), trained some of ‘West Points’ best, and was probably special forces… She ‘earned her star’ by testifying before congress about the Appropriate Application of Affirmative Action, has ‘the same Diplomatic Immunity as the President of the United Sates, ‘dated John McCain before he ever met Cindy’, she’s a historian, is/was an investigator for the U.S. Department of Justice, and ‘investigates human trafficking’. Her name is Virginia, and because she saved my life, she intermediately helped all of those who’ve I’ve helped, and will continue to help, up to and including MYSELF. That said, if I fuck-up, or misuse my powerful gift then I have insulted her efforts. This, I will not knowingly do. My focus, and steadfast resolve on my personal investigations (systems analysis) may not be obvious… That, again, goes back to a conversation she and I had on the smoking porch at C.A.S.S. when I was discussing my secretiveness with my M.O.’s. She said ‘Like Einstein?” I looked at her because that was the second time that she referred to something from the article I wrote to insure Masons conviction, and lengthy sentence… Just because I suspected why she was there, at least partially, doesn’t mean I yanked her chain… I wasn’t sure, so I played by her rules in not revealing herself, directly… Which she did partially identify herself the day before she left… She, and I, deserve for me to use my gifts exactly as I promised her. She listened, and I talked about some very painful revelations about the state of our union regarding the everyday cover-up of the subtle ways of child predators/traffickers. I believe, perhaps, that she was heartbroken to realize that an autistic female version of Albert Einstein, who learned to that her gifts in mathematics applied socially could (and did) save her own life as a Munchausen S.B.P. & child pornography/trafficking/incest survivor and did autodidactically develop skills that allowed her to do the same for others suffering from child abuse. Like her own private ‘reconnaissance missions’ to rescue tiny little ‘Prisoners of War’ wholike herself came out of the womb fighting for their tiny little lives. No training like those who actually made an adult decision to ‘Serve’ in the military. These tiny warriors were given no choice. Virginia, and I discussed this in short… She said ‘P.O.W.’s are required to try to escape…”

I replied “Yes, but, they have military training… Children have nothing…” She looked down and to her right, and said, “this is very disturbing…” I had to stop as not to upset her, and have her shut down and not absorb these concepts (logical axioms) that I operate from…

The more common definition is one that states once the addict ingests/shoots/smokes any mood altering drug, then they are set into a perilous cycle of uncontrolled physical cravings, and subsequent behaviors. Basically, a true addict can not, by definition, control their drug use.

I can control my much needed pain management medication, and I can AUTHENTICATE via witnesses who keep all meds in the home locked-up for everyone’s safety. I am allowed by my current prescription to take 6 pills a day. It was written on Sunday, July 13th for #20 pills. I had #10 pills left at count when I got out my days supply. That’s #10 pills in about 5 days. Average of #2 a day. That’s because I’m not working because of a very painful medical condition. On the days that I work, and must perform my job, I will take up to the maximum dose IF NEEDED to stay OUT OF THE E>R>. Which is EVERY primary care providers GOD DAMNED J*O*B!!! This SAVES insurance, and taxpayer $$$$ especially when, like me, they have no insurance, yet. Having lot’s of ETRA pain medicine, well documented by my previous care provider, is NOT indicative of drug abuse, or addiction… It is indicative of someone with real pain problems (easily seen by huge surgical scars all over my legs), and a passion for her ‘Prodigious Savant-isms’ which disappear when under harsh side-effects of meds. Chad used to go nuts wondering how I managed to only use HALF of a pain pill… I said “I only want the relief from the harsh NERVE pain, or pain from the tibial rod. NOT the side effects that make me only as smart as you… Professor…” With a smart-ass smile. “Oh! hell NO! You did not just say that to me!” And he rattle off his huge list of credentials as a legal scholar. “Don’t talk to me!” say. I’d be roaring, and the dogs would laugh right along with me!

Anyway, this does not an addict make… I can, and will, lie & pretend to gain the trust of addicted/alcoholic child abusers OF ANY KIND much the same way an undercover Narcotics officer may snort a line of cocaine to gain the trust of his target. I however, am autistic. I will not use street drugs, or actually abuse my own. I will lie to whomever I have to all around the ‘targeted predator’. how will you know the difference? Accountability. I always have witnesses to my own use, and the amounts of meds I take… My meds are literally under lock& key and I have not the key/combonation

I offered the physicians at Green Meadows to have me come in DAILY for a pill count to ESTABLISH my safe use of my medication so that I can work and not have the pain cost me money. They fucking had more excuses for NOT doing their job than a pedophile going to jail. the visit was recorded openly and notoriously not only by them, but by me. Theirs will be in writing, probably falsified. the one that I now have access to will allow you to actually hear my very sincere efforts to ‘reasonably accommodate’ her ‘feelings’ so that I could return to work. She kept interrupting me until I established that I PAID for that time, that it was her job to listen, evaluate, examine, and ‘reasonably accommodate’ my need to go to work despite my pain. She claimed that it was against the law to treat me without my medical records, which she refused to get by stating that “You only get 30 minutes…” most of which she wasted by going on and on with excuses, conjecture, presuppositions, and refusals to actually do her job… YET suggested that I may benefit from back surgery???

UMMMM, surgery is a last ditch effort when nothing else works… And that reference was an attempt to treat, as well as the medications she wrote for. Therefore, according to her, she and every other doctor who treats me in a ‘comprehensive manner’ is guilty of criminal?, and civil? violations??? I am writing a formal grievance to their Risk Management people, because of her deliberate refusal to do her job, Boone Hospital center had to do all the tests, ultrasound, examination on one of my issues to get some answers and write a work release. They also instructed me to be seen by my ‘ARIZONA PROVIDER’ on my discharge papers… Now, I discussed the Green Meadows blatant malpractice with the Boone Hospital E.R. M.D. and showed him the hard copy prescription for the tramadol that the Green meadows M.D. wrote for. An ‘addict’ would not still be hanging on to the hard copy. Nor still in possession of about #16 of #20 pills when I was seen at Green Meadows on the 16th. I counted them in front of the M.D.

You will hear all of her lame excuses for NOT sending for all of my records establishing my very serious orthopedic nightmare of a body. My autism, and savant syndrome. However, all she very admittedly wanted to do was go on & on about her ‘feelings’, her ‘discomfort’, and ESTABLISHED & admitted ‘prejudices’. When she acted on them, she was guilty of discrimination. the other physician GOT what I was saying, and apologized for her when she left, stating that she ‘wasn’t on the same page’. probably because of her barely speaking English.

Oh! Did I just show prejudice? Insensitivity? Act with Discrimination? NOW, HOW DOES IT FEEL? A*S*S*H*O*L*E*. She fucked with my job, my health, my financial ability to provide for myself independently, and as far as I am concerned my life. I take that very personally, and as you will hear, in her nasty condescending tone that came from nowhere because I was very straightforward, and respectful, she DID make it personal.

Again, “All’s fair in Love & War…”

This is going to go very much like the Beasley/ Mason article…. I’m going to peel back the memories in my Savant brain one layer at a time, so that you ‘linear thinkers’ can keep up. So, just when you T*H*I*N*K you know exactly what’s going on in this prodigy’s mind, ( And that’s all it is… just your ‘over-educated flea’ O*P*I*N*I*O*N, of which, you will eventually smell the stink ) I’ll PROVE that no one can ever truly know what I am, or was, up to… Only I know that. However, I am going to share a very vague version. vague because if I revealed my prodigious trade secrets then I would be unleashing a socialized ‘Weapon of Mass Destruction’ for all to use to destroy their competitors. Just like what happened to Einstein’s Theory of Relativity. You don’t remember? let me show you….

Men (and women) in positions of power don’t need my help in destroying each other via ‘intellectual properties’. Such as the millions of deaths via suicide, and the permanent disabilities from the millions of incompleted suicides that occurred from the doctors, like these ignorant/money hungry doctors here in Columbia Missouri, who forced individuals to continue taking Neurontin, and now gabapentin, for ‘off-label uses’. Which is to say uses other that what is F.D.A. approved for that drug. it’s F.D.A. approved as a S*E*C*O*N*D*A*R*Y seizure medication. That’s it.
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This article was written, and authenticated about 16 years ago when I was still in the ‘Prodigious Savant Closet’ and still conducting my own ‘covert operations’, of sorts, as an activist and investigator into the practice of child trafficking by drug addicted/dealing/trafficking mothers, and the drug addicted/dealing/trafficking male pederasts that infest not only the City of Columbia MO, but the many rural areas all over the state of Missouri. Let’s look at the medical definition of addict:

THE UNIVERSITY OF MISSOURI – COLUMBIA THINKS LIKE, AND ACTS LIKE ADOLPH HITLER. THEY PRATICE & MAINTAIN PROPAGANDA CAMPAIGNS via DELIBERATELY F*A*L*S*I*F*I*E*D MEDICAL RECORDS AGAINST ‘PROTECTED’ PATIENTS FOR THE SAKE OF FINANCIAL EXPLOITATION, AND REFERRING US TO ‘SOCIALIZED CONENTRATION CAMPS’ FOR THEIR OWN COMFORT.

The State of Missouri, as well as many of it’s communities practices FEDERALLY FUNDED discrimination on a criminal level reminiscent of those who support the ARYAN BROTHERHOOD, WHITE SUPREMICISTS, AND THE ARYAN RACE. They use dangerous drugs like Neurontin/gabapentin to keep their patients sick (this medication causes suicidal depression, suicidal tendencies, and countless suicides) as it is widely known for over a decade, now.

However, the M.U. health care community has fucked, and sucked, and drank and drove, and cheated, and committed criminal offenses together SO they must ALL participate or they all go down individually… Hence “united we stand, divided we fall’.

Who am I to say all of this?
An autistic adult female prodigious savant who has prodigiously survived, investigated, elicited the confessions of (via her own medical records ;-b) all of the above so that she can be authenticated, or vetted, by any U.S. Department of Justice investigators. Why D.O.J.?

Because the University of Missouri receives federal funding. And when any entity gets federal funding they MUST comply with all federal laws, and guidelines, regarding patients rights, safety, and medical records… however, in my case, and 2 very recent cases of 2 women who came to me for help, these local doctors are in violation of all of the above.

It’s called a ‘propaganda campaign’. Hitler, and the sexual predators of children under the age of five -like Richard Edwin Beasley, Scott Rozear Mason, and his child pornography making father John R. Mason, use these to create an alibi for themselves, create ‘plausible deniability’, and make a ‘preemptive first strike’ against the credibility of the victims. All of this in order to emancipate themselves from any type of civil, or criminal prosecution… So, when they pulled this shit with me, they declared war on me…

“All’s fair in love, and war…”

War is my friend. I use the TRUTH to send out a message about the ways of my enemies, and use my

Let me also make it clear that what Hitler did, like putting upside-down pink triangles on homosexuals, and sending all types of different people -NOT JUST THE JEWS, to the concentration camps because he felt that were to be used up to make as much money from their labor, and then murdered by genocide, and starvation, when they became to expensive and useless to him and his cause is really NO DIFFERENT than the slave owners of the Confederate States, The Trail of Tears, and exactly the ‘white-collar social slavery that’s being perpetrated by the ‘tailgate partying, date-raping, Aryan thinking frat boys right here in Columbia MO.’

So, if anyone is of the mind that I am going to show any mercy to an unbalanced community that’s blowing smoke up their own asses, and blowing smoke up the asses of those who provide their federally funded social terrorism by means of falsified documents perpetuated by ‘groupthink’ then you are sorely mistaken. Everyone must be participating for this to be such an epidemic in this community.

See, when a predator becomes a medical student, and manages to get over on his ‘teachers’ (in their various forms) via his own multiple personality disorder (all predators have this and they use it) to get access to vulnerable/autistic patients for the sole purpose of physically torturing them via performing surgeries W*I*T*H*O*U*T any local, or systemic, ANESTETIC just to make her scream bloody murder, and then tell the nurses who come running from all directions, that “SHE’S being difficult…” (like most autistic individuals are perceived) even though the nurses, and nursing director, didn’t buy his bullshit and stared his sick ass down and TOLD HIM that he just ordered an injection of a system anesthetic, and then ran out of the room to get the injection and ordered the attending physician into the room because they couldn’t get the sick bastard (Ortho surgery student) to stop (because he couldn’t help himself) stabbing said patients ankle where the tunneling from a raging infection that they JUST operated on and squeezing the blood out of her leg, while she let’s out blood- curdling screams heard down the corridors of the University of Missouri Health Sciences Center/Hospital, nothing ever really gets DONE about it because those who caught him in the act have all done drugs, drank and driven, fucked, sucked, and committed serious infractions of their own so they falsify medical records, and perpetuate a nasty propaganda campaign to make sure the patient is never properly treated for her sexual assault perpetrated b y a surgical student who GOT OFF on what he was doing, so that she will be perceived as a ‘difficult patient with a bad attitude’ so no one will listen to the truth. Their bad luck she’s a prodigy, which is to say that she has an enormous memory, and remembers dates, faces, and names of the clinicians who witnessed the grotesque assault by the Dr. Jeffrey Scott Hoskins, who studied under Dr. Jeffrey Anglen.

Then said community demands (by threatening to involuntarily commit you to if you DON’T take it, as they still do to other female patients who’ve asked for my prodigious help, to take Neurontin/gabapentin even though it causes suicide, and suicidal tendencies (that’s how the stabbed/assaulted autistic patient got the shattered leg in the first place) that caused patients taking it to put guns in their mouths, jump off of buildings, and God only knows what else… See, these physicians are beefing up their bottom lines with financial kick-backs. Neurontin (Pfizer Pharmaceuticals) is now available in generic form called gabapentin. Guess who is still the primary manufacturer of generic Neurontin?

The university of Missouri – Columbia health Clinics do make enough ‘token’ efforts at looking like they are in compliance with federal regulations for the sake of ‘plausible deniability’. So, I’ve been told by various staff members who I will protect as sources at all costs.

You are a protected adult if you are:
FEMALE
AFRICAN AMERICAN
PHYSICALLY OR MENTALLY DISABLED
AUTISTIC and/or SAVANT SYNDROME
HISPANIC, OR OF ANY OTHER NON-CAUCASIAN DECENT
NATIVE AMERICAN – like ME (Yes! The Prodigy is of Native American lineage)
ELDERLY
PEDIATRIC PATIENTS
OF A RELIGEON OTHER THAN CHRISTIAN
GAY, LESBIAN, BI, TRANSGENDERED, POLYAMOROUS
NOT BORN IN THE UNITED STATES

Doctors have come from distant cities
Just to see me
Stand over my bed
Disbelieving what they’re seeing

They say I must be one of the wonders
Of god’s own creation
And as far as they can see they can offer
No explanation

Newspapers ask intimate questions
Want confessions
They reach into my head
To steal the glory of my story

They say I must be one of the wonders
Of god’s own creation
And as far as they can see they can offer
No explanation

O, I believe
Fate smiled and destiny
Laughed as she came to my cradle
Know this child will be able
Laughed as my body she lifted
Know this child will be gifted
With love, with patience and with faith
She’ll make her way

People see me
I’m a challenge to your balance
I’m over your heads
How I confound you and astound you
To know I must be one of the wonders
Of god’s own creation
And as far as you can see you can offer me
No explanation

O, I believe
Fate smiled and destiny
Laughed as she came to my cradle
Know this child will be able
Laughed as she came to my mother
Know this child will not suffer
Laughed as my body she lifted
Know this child will be gifted
With love, with patience and with faith
She’ll make her way

Being a prodigy is a prodigious pain in the ass. I can predict, and manipulate not only people, but groups of people, entire communities, multiple jurisdictions, and come up with a plan on how to do it LEGALLY -including contingency planning- in a microsecond. I did it on my article (book) I wrote to insure Mason’s conviction. In mathematics it called ‘probabilities’.

Though, I did not have a name for it, nor had I heard of John Forbes Nash as a kid, or even more recently until I read ‘A Beautiful Mind’. However, I still SAW what he calls ‘governing dynamics’ in my head all of my life. At the individual level, group/family level, community, state, national, global. I see it in microseconds like one long equation, however, it’s 1000’s of memories of events, sound bites from what people have said, and logical axioms that apply.

Everything we say, and do, ADDS UP TO SOMETHING…

“We are the sum total of our choices.” – Woody Allen

This goes, too, for families, groups, communities, states, nations, and the world…

“We’re all faced throughout our lives with agonizing decisions, moral choices. Some are on a grand scale, most of these choices are on lesser points. But we define ourselves by the choices we have made. We are, in fact, the sum total of our choices. Events unfold so unpredictably, so unfairly, Human happiness does not seem to be included in the design of creation. it is only we, with our capacity to love that give meaning to the indifferent universe. And yet, most human beings seem to have the ability to keep trying and even try to find joy from simple things, like their family, their work, and from the hope that future generations might understand more” – Woody Allen

You may wonder why on earth I’d want to do such a thing…

Simple.

To stay alive, AND live my life the way our U.S. Constitution says I’m allowed to live it…

In the ‘pursuit of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness…’

Now Charles Darwin’s theory of our evolution teaches the concepts of ‘survival of the fittest’. This makes us a very competitive bunch. You all are not ‘prodigious savants’, so, you are a bunch of very insecure little bastards…. Hey! truth hurts. Most of you only feel good when your fucking up the success of others, and taking over the territory.

Let me show you how it’s done…. Prodigious savant style. It’s not about winning every battle. It’s about winning as many as possible and sending a very important message that the ‘pillars of the community’ do not have an inalienable right to ‘socially starve’ the less fortunate members of a community. This creates I*N*E*Q*U*A*L*I*T*Y. That’s ‘the rich getting richer, and the poor getting poorer’. that’s Nazi tactics.

Like that pathetic 13 year old doctor that thought she one-upped me, yesterday. I set her up. I deliberately went to the exam in a tremendous amount of pain to be as symptomatic in my autism as possible. When I’m over-stimulated I look like a ‘retard’ as these University of Missouri college students like to refer to me.

This child M.D. ( I asked her if she was a child prodigy! LOL ) I think I pissed her off… Anyway, I was seen on an emergency basis for ‘female’ problems that have been ongoing for quite sometime. This little girl, nor her clinic, EVER asked me for my medical history… Not any of it.

Now, I ask you, HOW IN THE HELL can ANY physician do any kind of a comprehensive medical evaluation on a 44 year old female who is bleeding so severely only 14 days after a heavy menses cycle without even ASKING for her FULL medical history?

No physician can. Period. And she was no exception. her bigotry, youth, and her arrogance, and open and notorious practice of discrimination against persons with disabilities lead her to make a diagnosis, and a referral to an expensive specialty clinic, even though she very subtly refused to make a reasonable accommodation for me to return to work at full- time hours so that I might pay for all this highly specialized ‘pelvic floor’ therapy… This tiny little girl with M.D. after her name still hasn’t grown up enough to realize that money doesn’t grow on trees, and that her J*O*B is to keep me working (provided that it’s safe) and paying taxes. NOT to cost the taxpayers because of her insensitivity to the needs of persons with disabilities. We don’t have to live in the ‘social cages’ that she, a lily-white cracker, decides is more comfortable for her if we’re in our ‘proper places’. This is reminiscent of the days when persons with any mental health disabilities such as depression, addiction, autism were sent to asylums. The state of Missouri still has one for ‘retards’ like me… It’s called the Missouri State School.

First of all, my ‘pelvic floor’ is fine. Her bullshit diagnosis for sake of referring me to that specialty clinic (kickbacks? or does University of Missouri hospital clinics need more bodies to get their federal funding)

She was right up there with the University of Missouri physicians who gave me Neurontin/gabapentin for pain… And then my suicide attempts that left me with 2 shattered legs:

I was giggling like hell…”I’m not screwing anybody, either…” I reported. “I’m going to screw someone, again, someday. I’m not sure if she’ll be interested in screwing me back, though… I need to loose a good 50 lbs. to be able to perform.” I replied.

“Well don’t screw anyone. People are going to come at you from all directions. They’ll try to set you up.”

I reassured her that I was very sexually self reliant and only have eyes for very specific types of females, and I wasn’t at risk for getting laid in Arizona. Missouri chicks are where it’s at…

I was thinking about how pain is controlling my entire life, right now. Just because I’m not moaning, and groaning, and raising hell <b> in such a way that it’s obvious to you </b> doesn’t mean you have the right to <b> judge </b> my predicament as an autistic person with <b>severe chronic pain <b>. I see the ‘big picture’, or to better explain it… <b> I see the Butterfly Effect, and exactly how the flapping of the wings creates a ‘ripple effect’, or ‘domino effect’ <b> . Projecting is something that we all do based on our experiences. For you <b> linear thinkers <b> your projections are in one layer of the onion. I see all layers all at once, and can manipulate via my own ‘Windows’ operating system called an eidetic memory. I can see multiple layers, in multiple dimensions, all at once. I can also analyze the mathematics, or <b> governing dynamics </b> of all of these relative systems based on multiple ‘absolutes’ (logical axioms) plan interventions, possible outcomes/responses, plan my interventions/responses for those possibilities/probabilities, and then do <b>contingency planning</b> even further, and further out… I can go backwards with the analysis, as well… </b></b></b></b></b></b>

So… what’s the point? I am looking at art, dreaming up art, and occasionally a cute librarian to forget about the pain. Then, I think ‘Yummy! Handsome woman!’, then about sex, then my conversation with Virginia popped up right along with some very graphic visuals about the cute librarian. She could be my ‘Love At First Sight’s brunette sister… It’s all about association… Now the good visuals are gone, and I’m in pain, and pissed off, again…

Thanks! Virginia…

My pain is in control of my life because, as usual, a University of Missouri physician was NOT IN CONTROL of her emotions, prejudices, bigotry, ignorance, or ‘feelings’…as she put it. I made every offer to accommodate her ‘discomforts’ so she could ‘establish’ me as a patient (which is what I PAID for), do a <b>comprehensive</b> examination as I am AUTISTIC, and in need of <b> conservative pain management because of the delicate balance needed to numb the pain, without numbing my enormous memory, and <b> sex drive</b> as well. ( you linear thinkers orgasm in linear form. I do not. Everything I experience both inside, and out, is powerfully ‘multiple’, and in the ‘abstract’ (multi-layered). Jealous, yet? I may be a ‘fat retard’ to you, but from where I set… YOU”RE the ‘retarded’ ones. If you need drugs, and alcohol is a drug, to loosen up, and have decent sex… then THAT’S pretty fucking retarded, to me…</b>

Now, imagine this superhuman dynamic, spirituality, and sexuality not only taken away, but leaving you feeling like a shell of a human being… that’s what Neurontin/gabapentin did to me. And these local physicians forced me to take the shit, gave misdiagnosis, assaulted me with a scalpel for being a ‘retard’ (the word is autistic’ you pricks), and left me with 39 breaks/fractures, and a M.R.S.A. colonization.

This is probably the most intelligent caregiver that I have ever had… I told her I had savant syndrome, and immediately new that I was probably autistic. She spent a lot of time doing verbal, and physical examinations. She didn’t seem in the least bit interested in obtaining the falsified records, and misdiagnoses of the TWO hospitals that damn near killed me by forcing me to take Neurontin, and pursuing malicious forms of treatment based on their bullshit diagnosis.

In April/May of 2002 I was brought in by ambulance to Tallahassee Memorial Hospital because 1) the persistent M.R.S.A. infection 2) uncontrolled pain even though I had a Duregesic patch and a prescription for Percocet which neither worked because of the Neurontin in my system 3) I wasn’t feeling right, like I did the day that I jumped in MO and broke my leg

Now, Tallahassee Memorial had already had me inpatient for the M.R.S.A. & chronic osteomyelitis. they however, completely missed the autism, and savant syndrome. I was, again, labeled as a ‘difficult’ patient. So, after I told them I wanted to kill myself, they just acted on their ignorant prejudices and set me in a wheelchair, out in the E.R. waiting room…

Now, I’m not right in my head, autistic and the lobby was full of screaming sick kids & adults…

I snap.

I get on the elevator, take it to the highest floor their was a button for, THANK GOD it was the parking garage elevator so it only went to 2, and went out and JUMPED from the parking garage (about 15-18′) and landed on concrete right outside of the E.R. and Ambulance bay. No ‘bama-lance needed… Everyone started screaming and the staff ran out to scrape me off of the drive-way.

I do not remember this fondly. In hind-sight I see how Tallahassee Memorial hospitals failure to comply with their own protocols for caring for patients who say the feel like hurting themselves, especially one with a history of violent suicide attempts. Even though my history of suicide attempts is restricted to only while I was ON NEURONTIN/ Gabapentin, they still fucked up. Their policy was to have mental health patients set in a chair where any member of the staff could keep an eye on them until they had a bed… They didn’t do this…

Then, there is the Neurontin… I would never do some shit like that in front of a bunch of children, or anyone else for that matter. I am very private, about just about everything, unless someone goes out of their way and makes very dangerous decisions… Then I will take my ‘fight’ out into a public area (social media) so everyone can see exactly what I do and not-quite exactly how I do it.

The point is to create a public referendum, which can create balance.

Let’s look at the definition of:

bal·ance
/ˈbaləns/
noun
noun: balance; plural noun: balances
1. an even distribution of weight enabling someone or something to remain upright and steady.
“slipping in the mud but keeping their balance”
synonyms: stability, equilibrium, steadiness, footing More
“I tripped and lost my balance”

antonyms: instability
•stability of one’s mind or feelings.
“the way to some kind of peace and personal balance”

2. a condition in which different elements are equal or in the correct proportions.
“overseas investments can add balance to an investment portfolio”