After an idea from a friend, I am treating July 1st as New Year Day… I really need to start 2014 over!

I just signed back into my tumblr account probably since the last time that I wrote my blog last blog update in October 2013. When I wrote that a lot had changed since July… that was an understatement…. My whole world has been turned upside down. A few days after posting I found out I was pregnant with our second child. Yay! We were ecstatic! My pregnancy was perfect… I mean I was super sick for the first 19-20 weeks but I was okay with that knowing that it was going to be our last child and I was going to enjoy every moment of the pregnancy.

At our 19 week ultrasound we discovered that we were having a baby girl! Everyone was so excited, she was going to be the 1st girl on both sides of our family! At 26 weeks I began having horrible headaches and on Friday, March 21, 2014 after just feeling a bit off and not feeling the baby kick that morning I went in just to get checked out. I was waiting for the triage nurse to tell me I was being super paranoid and to go back home… but after my nurse left and a rush of doctors came in I soon realized that something was terribly wrong. My baby girls heartbeat had stopped… After a full day in the hospital with tears and endless tests, I delivered our beautiful baby girl. The deafening silence after she was born still haunts me to this day. 3 months later and the grief is still there and will always be, but my family and I are learning to move on.

The doctors discovered torsion in the umbilical cord causing the blood flow to cut itself off. The one thing that has helped me through is knowing that our daughter, Hadley Kathryn is with her Grandpa Tom in Heaven.

I have been working hard to get my pre pregnancy body back. I went back on Weight Watchers and since the day I delivered at 26 weeks I have lost 22.8 lbs!

I still have a long way to go so you’re going to see a lot more of me on here! : )

Wow… I’ve been thinking a lot about this blog in the last few days after my friend Kate and I talked about it. I made some excuse when she asked about it about not having enough time. But seriously who does have enough time. I just need to make time!

A lot has changed since my last post in July, just a day before my younger sisters wedding. Which by the way was an amazing time. She was absolutely beautiful and we had a blast! I was so glad how much hard work that I had put in that year to prepare!

Here is my amazing family!

After the wedding I started to slip a little… It was so amazing to how easily I could slip right back into my old habits. My Mom and I talked the other day about how disciplined I was. I would plan out and prepare a weeks worth of meals. I would also have great snacks packed in my car & in my bag so that I didn’t give into temptation.

In August I found out that my Dad’s heath was getting worse. My amazing Dad had been battling Colon Cancer for the last 7 years. He let us know that he had about 6 months left to live. I was devastated and began talking to a friend about the prospect of moving jobs so that I can spend more time with my family. At that time I quit my membership to the YMCA and to Weight Watchers since it wasn’t convenient any longer. Well and who are we kidding, I wasn’t going to the gym. haha

I began my new job about a month ago, I’m now working at a family owned Child Care center. The kids keep me so busy running around. So maybe that’s my new gym. Last Thursday and I was at work I received a call from my brother, Nick letting me know that my Dad was doing much worse and that I should come say my final goodbyes.

My family spent an amazing weekend together, saying our goodbyes to my Dad and sharing memories. Ohh yes and our amazing friends and family sent all of my favorite foods. It was so nice not to cook and plus I began stress eating again. On Sunday, October 6th at 5:31pm my Dad, Tom passed away peacefully at home.

He was such an amazing Dad. He would help anyone, he taught us so much about caring for others, having a strong work ethic, what it meant to love and care for a family. I’m so grateful for all of the years that I had with him and that he had a chance to know my husband, Adam and son, Gavin Thomas.

I woke up this morning again thinking about this blog. I want to recommit to my health. Not for an upcoming event but for my life. But to help prevent any chance of getting Colon Cancer as well. While there is no guarantee that you won’t get it, your chance increase with diet and exercise!

I went to the store today to get a few items to get me started and I will be starting to run again. This time I’m going to use loseit.com to track with my Weight Watchers books and magazines to help me out.

It’s been a bit since I’ve posted. But I’ve been eating way too many leftovers and Lean Cuisines! Tonight when I got home, the boys were making a frozen pizza. So I took my cut up chicken to make a chicken salad sandwich & made some Sweet Potato fries! (The Olive Oil I cooked with doesn’t count as my daily healthy oil. I ate popcorn instead sprinkled with Olive Oil!

2. To make filling, spray medium nonstick skillet with nonstick spray and set over medium-high heat. Add turkey, onion, garlic, chili powder, and oregano; cook, breaking turkey (or beef) apart with a wooden spoon. until brown about 6 minutes. Reduce heat and simmer until flavors are blended and mixture is slightly thickened, about 5 minutes. Remove skillet from heat and stir in cheese.

3. Spoon about 1/2 cup filling down center of each tortilla. Fold in sides and roll up to enclose filling. Place chimichangas, seam side down, on prepared baking sheet. Lightly spray tops with nonstick spray. Bake until crisp and golden, about 20 minutes.

My breakfast! I decided to go with a little instant oatmeal 4 WW PtsPlus & 2 tsp of my healthy oil. I went with olive oil 2 WW PtsPlus. At my last meeting they suggested we eat with smaller utensils… I went with a baby spoon. Wow it worked, I wasn’t hungry for my banana until later!

I was out running errands this afternoon, so I grabbed a little Wendy’s. I pulled out my iPhone and added up my usual meal. Crispy Chicken Meal with french fries… I couldn’t afford the 22 Weight Watchers PtsPlus. Haha So I tried a combo that someone recommended. A Garden Salad 0 Weight Watchers PtsPlus, small Chili cup 5 Weight Watchers PtsPlus and Lite Ranch 1 Weight Watchers PtsPlus. It was so good and kept me full all afternoon!