A Patchwork Heart

Summary: [One Shot Fic] Danny & Steve are dating. Or at least Danny thinks they are until Steve and Catherine prove him otherwise.

A Patchwork Heart

Danny Williams had never had a lot
of luck with love. His first girlfriend dumped him on Valentines day for
the pitcher on their rival schools baseball team. His High School sweet
heart was caught going down on a guy who was very obviously not Danny
while they were at the Prom. The schools biggest gossip had taken a
Polaroid of Danny's girlfriend, and had taken great pleasure showing the
picture to everyone there much to Danny's embarrassment. His College
girlfriend decided she was a lesbian and his College boyfriend decided
that as nice as Danny's ass was, he just couldn't handle dating someone
as short as Danny. Then of course was Alexa, his training officer at NPD
who he had spent several months dating before finding out she was
married to a Narcotics Detective. There was also his former partner who
he had never dated, but had seriously fallen for before finding out he
was a dirty cop.

And of course there was Rachel. Rachel, who he
had thought was The One. Rachel who was sophisticated, beautiful and
talented. Rachel with the tantalizing accent and the soft delicate
touch. Rachel who ran her car into his on purpose just to meet him.
Rachel, who married him, gave him his beautiful, glorious daughter.
Rachel, who tore his heart out, burnt it and danced on the ashes before
taking his Grace to the other side of the country.

After Rachel
Danny knew he was never going to have the Happily Ever After that his
parents and sisters did. But he tried anyway. He found a beautiful
doctor who seemed so much like Rachel but with less monetary
expectations of him. And as nice as she was, it had been obvious from
the beginning that it wouldn't last. Danny wasn't smart enough or
cultured enough to hold her interest for long, and when the offer came
for her to head a traveling museum exhibit she had jumped at the chance,
leaving Danny behind. For months after that he quietly nursed his
bruised and battered heart, trying to console himself with the belief
that he didn't need a girlfriend or boyfriend to be happy. He had Grace
and he had Five-0. That was all he needed.

Except it wasn't.

Then
came the night he thought changed everything. Steve was back from his
self imposed secret mission, Danny had escape a bio-weapon once again,
not to mention his kidnapping by the CIA, and the two friends were happy
to be reunited. The whole team had gone out drinking, tossing back far
too many longboards considering the medication Steve had been given by
the doctors for injuries from the plane crash, and for the fact that at
least three members of the team were expected to be up early for work
tomorrow. But drink they had, until one of Kamekona's cousins had
dragged them all out of the bar and shoved them into two waiting taxis.

Danny and Steve had stumbled none too quietly into Steve's
house, laughing and desperately clinging to each other in order to stay
upright. Together they had made it up the stairs, throwing their
clothing everywhere, and stumbled into Steve's room. Still laughing
Steve had tripped on the edge of his bed, pulling Danny down on top of
him. As drunk as they were it hadn't been enough to keep Danny's dick
from jumping to attention when it pressed against Steve's own.

What
happened next was not the most coordinated, let alone most erotic,
encounter of Danny's sexual experience. They had only last a few
minutes, too drunk to hold off their orgasms for long. But he still
considered it a high point to wake up with a warm SEAL spooned up behind
him, telling him to go back to sleep.

He had lain there for
hours, unable to go back to sleep as he considered what this for them
both. He and Steve had an odd relationship from the very beginning.
Neither of them seemed upset or worried by how easily they slipped into
each others lives, pushing through barriers that had been keeping others
out for decades. They practically lived in each others pockets,
spending 8 to 18 hour days together chasing down criminals, only to
wander into each others weekend plans as well. They ate dinner together
most every night and almost every weekend, even the Grace weekends, were
spent together. They teased and flirted non-stop. It seemed so easy to
just fall into bed together and Danny could only wonder why they hadn't
done so earlier. Everyone else on this island seemed to have realized
before them, that they were perfect for each other.

But like all his other relationships this one crumbled in front of his eyes.

Danny
knew Catherine was coming back because of the Enterprise being
decommissioned, and he had expected her to hang out with Steve again
because they had been friends, even if they had had benefits with each
other for a while. But Steve and Danny had been dating and fucking each
other on every available surface for weeks, months almost, and he had
not expected to find his new relationship was a lie. But to have Steve
parade it in front of his friends like that, coming to sweep Catherine
literally off her feet in the tux that made him look as handsomely
dashing as James Bond, while Danny sat there... It hurt. It hurt worse
than Lauren blowing Lorenzo at the Prom, it hurt more than Karen's
revelation of lesbian hood, and surprisingly it hurt worse than Rachel
divorcing him for Stan. His heart felt like it was being ripped out of
his chest while his face burnt up with embarrassment. Chin seemed
oblivious much to Danny's relief but Kono shot Danny a confused look as
if she to didn't understand what Steve was doing carrying Catherine off
into the sunset for a romantic dinner when he should be doing that to
Danny. Not that anyone at the table actually believed the two would make
it to dinner, they never had before.

Danny had slunk home to
nurse his wounds shortly after, too hurt to face the look in Kono's eyes
as she watched him. She knew, had known what Danny and Steve were to
each other. Or at least what Danny had thought they were to each other,
but he supposed he was wrong. He was just another notch on Steve's bed
post, a friend-with-benefit for when Catherine wasn't there to satisfy
his sexual itches. Perhaps that hurt most, thinking that the person who
had finally started to mend his heart was also the one to finally tear
it to pieces. He had trusted Steve. He had trusted Steve to have his
back, to protect him in the line of duty, to be his friend, his Ohana. He had trusted Steve with the bent and mangled pieces of his heart when he had thought he would never be able to do so again.

Choking
back a sob he had wrapped himself up in his blankets, burrowing deep
into them away from the light coming through his dirty windows. He hid
himself away in his little hole of an apartment and pretended he wasn't
crying as his heart broke.

He was only vaguely grateful that this
had happened on a Friday. That he had two more days to try and patch
himself back together into something resembling a whole person. Two days
to decide if he could do this, if he could walk into that room knowing
what Steve had done and still have his back.

Burrowing deeper into his blankets Danny had closed his eyes and tried not to think.

Two
days had come and gone and Danny had been none the wiser on what to do,
how to pull himself back together and go on as if nothing had happened.
So taking a page from the book of every broken hearted college student,
he had called into work sick. Fortunately Kono had answered rather
than Steve, and she had promised to cover for him, her voice telling him
all he needed to know about her having his back. He was pathetically
grateful.

So with her blessing he had gone to the bathroom, downed his last bottle of beer and crawled back into bed.

When
he closed his eyes and finally slept he was tormented with memories of
Steve. Steve bumping shoulders with him, Steve running his fingers over
Danny's tie, Steve kissing him for the first time, Steve running his
finger through Danny's hair, Steve touching him, Steve holding him.
Steve's scent, the weight of Steve against him. Steve's heart beat
through the silken flesh of his dick. It all tormented him, teased him
with memories, fantasies of Steve and what Danny thought, wanted, them
to be.

Eventually he woke and found that the dreams had only
made his misery worse because now he found himself hallucinating. His
mind had created a hallucination of Steve sitting on his floor, back
against the wall, watching him as he slept.

Grumbling to himself
about his stupid mind and stupid cheating SEALs, Danny forced himself
out of bed and into the bathroom. Glaring at his reflection in the
mirror Danny tried to ignore the imaginary Steve standing in the doorway
watching him with worried eyes.

"Danno, you look like crap."

Ignoring
the voice Danny dropped his blanket to the floor and stumbled to the
John, tugging his dick out of his boxers long enough to release a rush
of piss into his toilet.

"Danno," the imaginary Steve whined. "Please stop ignoring me."

"Go away. I'm not sick enough for hallucinations."

Danny
glared at the illusionary Steve until it moved out of the doorway.
Picking up his blanket and wrapping it around himself once more and
stomped out of the room, ignoring Steve's quiet complaint about him not
bothering to wash his hands. It wasn't like he was eating anything after
all.

Dropping back onto his pitiful pull out bed, Danny wrapped
himself up like a burrito again in his blanket and closed his eyes. He
didn't want to sleep and to dream of what he thought he had, but he
didn't want to be awake and dreaming of it either.

The bed dipped
beside him and Danny felt the blankets being tugged. Stupid imaginary
Steve was acting all Steve like. Kicking out Danny tried to roll deeper
into his blankets, quietly smiling when he heard his hallucination
curse. True, it was only a hallucination and it wasn't really Steve he
had just kicked, but it made him smile to think it could have been.

"Danno please look at me. I need to talk to you."

"Go away. I don't want to talk to hallucinations of living bastards."

The
was a loud sign behind him from the hallucination and for a moment
Danny thought it might have actually vanished back to wherever
hallucinations came from. Sadly, it hadn't.

With a surprised yelp
Danny found himself being forcibly rolled out of his blanket burrito. A
angry looking Steve standing over him, his blanket in his hands.

Yanking at his already wild hair Danny screamed, "What? What do you want?"

"I want to know why you are avoiding me? Why you are pretending to be sick?"

"You
want to know why?" Pushing himself to his feet Danny stormed up to the
hallucination of his best friend, the man he thought had been his
boyfriend. Pushing into the hallucinations space, ignoring the way the
mind twitched at the feel of solid Steve beneath is fingers as he jabbed
them into the hallucinations chest, Danny let himself go. He let out
his emotions. His pain, his sense of betrayal, his love that was still
there despite what Steve had done. "I'm fuckin' pissed off at you. I
trusted you! You think I just let me people into my life? That I let
just anyone get close to Grace and to me? You think I just fuckin' whore
it off to anyone willing to look past the fact that I'm a short, pale, Haole?
You think I liked watching my boyfriend, my lover, walk off for a
romantic night of food and sex with his skanky little two bit Navy
bitch? Really? And you have the gall to come here while I'm trying to
put my heart back together and ask me that?"

Pushing even harder
against the hallucinations chest, Danny forced the hallucination to back
up until it tripped over the end of the pull out, dropping onto its
squeaky mattress with a whoop of surprise. "I hate you. Just go away.
Just go away and let me wallow in my fuckin' misery!"

"Liar! If you had cared you wouldn't have pretended that I was anything more than another of your skanky little bed warmers."

"You aren't! You couldn't ever be-"

"Yeah,
I think I figure that out when you carried her off into the sunset."
All the fight suddenly drained out of him and Danny felt tried. More
tired than he ever had been before. He just wanted to sleep and never
wake up. "Go away. Please. Just go away."

"I can't, Danny. I love you."

Sobbing,
Danny stumbled back, tripping over the edge of his blanket and falling
to the ground. Drawing his knees up to his chest, Danny couldn't hold
the sobs back any further.

"I love you, Danny." The illusionary
Steve slowly moved off the bed to kneel at Danny side, slowly as if
Danny was a frightened animal ready to bolt away. "I'm sorry I hurt you.
I didn't think you wanted me as anything more than someone to take the
edge off. We just...we just fell into bed together and I didn't think,
didn't realize you wanted more. God, Danny."

A hand reached out
carefully combing through Danny's hair, tugging gently against the
tangled knots. "I love you. I thought...I thought I didn't have a chance
for anything more than 'fuck buddies' with you. If I knew you wanted
more, then I never would have taken Catherine to dinner, let alone to
bed."

Danny sniffled and looked up at Steve from under his lashes,
his mind clearing just a bit from the fog of hurt and anger that had
been blinding him for days. "Steve."

"I mean it, Danny. I really
do love you. I do want to be with you and only you." Steve let his hand
slowly slide out of Danny's hair, carefully caressing his jaw. "If it
makes you feel better I told Catherine I couldn't be more than her
friend anymore. That even if you didn't want to be anything more than a
bed partner, I did. I couldn't go to bed with her knowing that I didn't
want her, that I wanted you. Only you." Steve gave Danny a watery-eyed
smile, his thumb tracing Danny's bottom lip. "Please forgive me, Danny. I
need you."

Closing his eyes Danny chocked back the rush of
emotions that threatened to drown him. He had been hurt so bad
but...Steve loved him. Steve had wanted what he had wanted. They, for
the first time, hadn't been on the same wavelength. He was hurt and
angry, but so happy. It would take time. Time to forgive and move
forward, but suddenly it didn't feel so impossible.

"Apology noted....Acceptance is pending."

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