Month: October 2016

You’re probably thinking; “Wait, what?!” How are those two remotely related? Well you may have heard the saying “don’t bury your head in the sand”. Well that saying is attributed to ostriches and the appearance that they bury their heads in the sand. (For info on where that saying came from click here. For factual info about why they appear to do this click here.)

Well burying your head in the sand as they say is no way to confront a problem in the present or in the future. Unfortunately my family was presented a problem yesterday that quite frankly we’ve not been wanting to face. We’ve been playing ostrich with this problem for a little while not wanting to face the reality of it.

I will say that while we may not have wanted to face the problem and tried to bury our heads (or the problem) in the sand, having faith to trust the Lord to work out the details is something that I am able to do. In the last few weeks I’ve found a renewed sense of the Lord’s presence and faith in my life that allows me to trust his guidance and provision.

So while we play ostrich, God continues to remind me that he is good and says “I got this”!

Tonight I had plans to post another “real” entry in my blog, even though in the back of my mind I feel I might be getting ahead of myself. Its only day 2 I keep telling myself, plus I have maybe one follower?! I just have so many things I want to share as the thoughts keep swirling in my mind.

Well . . . you know that thing called life gets in the way. The day had some ups and some downs, but I’ll take the good with the bad. However, wearing many hats and juggling many balls can make my nights like a circus (see what I did there). Amongst overtired kids, an overtired mom, and things on the to-do list, I suppose tonight might not be the best night to write something insightful. However, I will try leaving you with just a token from someone I follow. This one hit hard, but she’s got a point. . . .a good one . . . .

Lord, please uncover my spiritual eyes daily to not judge, but love others with grace and sincerity. Help me to realize that I can only hold someone accountable that asks to be held accountable and if given the opportunity, help me to do it with love. Help me only to speak truth with grace and love. Amen.

All week I can’t seem to get the song “Mended” by Matthew West out of my head. I heard it on Monday on my daily commute to work. I thought it was very fitting for my husband Phillip’ s sermon from Sunday about being healing and restored. While his words were impactful and they spoke to me, the connect for me really hits home with music. Music has a way of speaking to me as if God has artists write songs just for me. While I know that isn’t true because Christian music speaks to hundreds, thousands, and even millions; I can still find it special and relevant to me.

There have been times in my life, one in particular, where I have had my spirit and my life broken beyond repair. I’m incredibly grateful and humbled that grace and forgiveness was extended by everyone but most importantly by Jesus Christ.

So often we think we are not deserving of the grace and forgiveness Jesus has to offer, but that is what Jesus came and died for over 2000 years ago. He died for our sins, not just the sins, but the weight and burden of them. I believe the first step of being “mended” and allowing His grace flow through us is to admit that we are broken and acknowledge that he can mend us. His grace, love, and mercy are abundant. I’m so grateful of the reminder!

I’d like to share both the lyrics and audio of the song. I believe Matthew West says it better than I can . . . .as Jesus’s song to us:

“Mended”

When you see broken beyond repair
I see healing beyond belief
When you see too far gone
I see one step away from homeHow many times can one heart break?
It was never supposed to be this way
Look in the mirror, but you find someone you never thought you’d be

Oh, but I can still recognize
The one I love in your tear stained eyes
I know you might not see him now, so lift your eyes to me

When you see broken beyond repair
I see healing beyond belief
When you see too far gone
I see one step away from home

When you see nothing but damaged goods
I see something good in the making
I’m not finished yet
When you see wounded, I see mended

You see your worst mistake
But I see the price I paid
And there’s nothing you could ever do, to lose what grace has won

So hold on, it’s not the end
No, this is where love’s work begins
I’m making all things new
And I will make a miracle of you

When you see broken beyond repair
I see healing beyond belief
When you see too far gone
I see one step away from home

When you see nothing but damaged goods
I see something good in the making
I’m not finished yet
When you see wounded, I see mended

I see my child, my beloved
The new creation you’re becoming
You see the scars from when you fell
But I see the stories they will tell

You see worthless, I see priceless
You see pain, but I see a purpose
You see unworthy, undeserving
But I see you through eyes of mercy

When you see broken beyond repair
I see healing beyond belief
You’re not too far gone
You’re one step away from home

When you see nothing but damaged goods
I see something good in the making
I’m not finished yet, no
When you see wounded, I see mended

Ooh, I see mended
Woah, oh I see mended
I’m not finished yet
When you see wounded, I see mended

Just know His grace and mercy are available and the quota never ends. Free Refills all the time. 😉

So in the recovery of Hurricane Matthew, in thick of a heated political season, and a time where I feel my spiritual life getting deeper I came to the realization that I cannot express my feelings, opinions, thoughts, etc as normally as a normal person can do everyday.

I’m a pastor’s wife and that comes with a set of “expectations” if you will. People view you as a person who should be acting more Christian-like and hold the standard a bit higher when they view you. As I daily push myself to be a better wife, mom, co-worker, friend, family member, pastor’s wife and Christian, hear me say I am no better than anyone else. My flaws, imperfections, and sins are no different. I do struggle with being a perfectionist, but know that the ultimate perfect One is Jesus Christ.

This blog will serve to be my place to share my feelings, experiences, thoughts with grace. This will be a place I step back from Facebook, breathe, and write. It’s too easy to offend and be offended on Facebook and I need a place to regroup, think, and share. A place where I can be more meaningful and purposeful.

I am not going to say it is always going to be rainbows and butterflies, because as a human being I have passions, thoughts, feelings, and opinions just like everyone else. I’ve chosen this format because it’s not as readily seen by my Facebook friends.

I invite you to follow the blog, because if you’re a FB friend you might not always see my blog posts shared.

If you’re not a FB friend I invite you to come along for my journey.

I invite my readers to be full of grace and encouragement as I will try to be.