are you busy keeping your sh*t together?

are you busy keeping your sh*t together?

Everything came to a point, as it always does, and the last straw broke my metaphorical camel’s back, so to speak.

The ‘shit cake’ that I was layering with pretty, sugary icing was smooshed, like a pie to the face.

Finally!! All my efforts in trying to keep my shit together, and portray a peachy image out there to the Universe came tumbling down.

It was a LONG time coming, and what an intense relief it was…letting myself go!

There’s a few things I realised (and perhaps you can learn from too):

~ I realised that my energy & efforts in holding everything together and making sure I was perceived as ‘together’ – both online and offline – was actually far more exhausting & strenuous than actually losing my shit and becoming vulnerable.

~ I realised that I was taking other people’s (one in particular) problems, circumstances and situations on as my own, and stressing about things out of my control.

~ I realised that the energy I was putting out there was actually affecting people around me, even my best friend who I had not opened up to about this stuff for the past 6 months.

~ I realised that I was hardening up, and not allowing myself to fully feel the feelings and be fragile, delicate, vulnerable and soft (i,e, feminine).

~ I realised that I was emitting a highly sexual energy resonating from my base Chakras, with intentions rooted in desire instead of love.

~ I realised I was being a sayer, not a doer.

~ I realised that I was out of alignment, and hence will be commencing ‘SINGLES COACHING’ going forward, as opposed to Relationship Coaching (watch this space).

~ I realised that telling the truth is actually fucking invigorating and sets you free from the cage that lies create for you.

SO what have I changed and what’s so important about losing your shit?

The minute you stop lying to yourself, you are set free. The moment you start to actually feel the stuff inside you, rather than be numb to it, you let it go. I had been walking around balancing on such a high strung vibrational tightrope, that I didn’t even notice what frequency I was giving out or what was going on around me. I was so caught up in everyone else’s (and my own) muck that I was drowning in it and not being clear on my own stuff.

So I cut lose the other person’s problems I was harbouring and taking on as my own.

I began to love my choices, or choose to change them.

I started breathing more and being present, rather than worrying about the future.

I took on a challenge and nailed it.

Iallowed myself to break down and become vulnerable, not necessarily to the world…but to my close friend, who helped me realise my shit cake was still a shit cake at the end of the day, no matter what pretty icing I was layering on it!

Sometimes losing our shit is just what we need to do. And it might not be just once, it might happen a bunch of times…though be warned… the lesson is learnt not from releasing and letting go, it’s from making the changes necessary moving forward. You might have a melt down, immerse yourself in the black hole, go down to the depths of hell, and then come up for air and feel light and fluffy and change your vibrations…but then the Universe will swing you a curve ball as a test, and that is your chance to break through.

The break through isn’t the break down.

The breakthrough is resisting your old patterns and way of life. The breakthrough is learning the lesson and not repeating it. The breakthrough is putting words into action. The break through is realising the test and breaking it, smashing it, flipping it the bird!

So if it’s a break down you need to have to have a break through, go for it. And do it in all your messy glory. Cry, scream, punch shit, yell. Feel it all. Be real. Authentic. { Need inspiration? Watch here and learn from Vanessa Florence’s Wild Woman antics.

But remember to learn from it. Come into the light and embrace the challenges coming your way and listen to your divine higher self whispering in your ear to carry on and be aware of the tests coming your way!