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Chained up in my own fears. I alone am my greatest restraint.
The past haunts my future, silently in the dark.
My shadow is my enemy. Every move I make its there. There to judge and critize.
Every thought I have. Every word I say. Every move I make.

I hold myself in chains. My fears are relentless. Hold me in a cell inside.
Holding me in a cell inside. It was only meant as a safehaven.
Only meant as a safehaven.
Inside I'm Locked.

Fear of wanting too much from someone.
Fear of being too much for anyone.
Abdonment is my motivator.
Loveless is who I am.

Love escapes my soul.
Who would love a freak like me?
Who would accept all of me?
Who?

I hold myself in chains. My fears are relentless. Hold me in a cell inside.
Holding me in a cell inside. It was only meant as a safehaven
Only meant as a safehaven.
Inside I'm Locked.

Life inside is so lonely.
Yet all I know how to do is move on.
Pick up the peices and hide them.
Unbroken is how I seem.
Inside I'm torn down too far.

Light is all anyone sees. Life is all anyone sees.
Inside I'm lost and confused.
The walls scratched and torn.
My escape from myself was useless.
No where to run.
No where to hide inside.
Its all a torment.

I hold myself in chains. My fears are relentless. Hold me in a cell inside.
Holding me in a cell inside. It was only meant as a safehaven.
Only meant as a safehaven.
Inside I'm Locked.

All I want is to know
Yet I fear the same
Fear you'll leave me if you knew
If you knew the outcast that resides within.
Hidden from view.
Hidden from you all.
Here in my cell.
All alone. Inside All Alone.