a/n: this is from the beginning of 11th grade. But I want to post all the Ellie and Tass adventure stories. Tass has some problems with controlling his powers, Ellie is mute and kind of hates everyone.

a/n: don't worry! I'm not quite dead. I don't die in BANDKIDZ - that'd be too depressing. I think Jones'll have to save me. Because, even though he has a small role in the story, he has a big part of my past and has become the best healer i've ever imagined.

also, once i'm semi-concious the world begins to destroy itself and so there's a mad rush to get out of danger.

It's crazy-fun.

Not friends-locked, because it isn't worth stealing and also too confusing to take and also also because i feel like showing it off for fun.

a/n: not friends only, because there's not much of a point in stealing it, eh? Just silliness. I don't know where I am during this time, because we totally split up Me, Dan, Sami vs Lynn, Brandon, Jason, Mike.

And you're breaking now and your heart is shattered and you're torn between wanting to hate him and never letting go of your love for him and you know that eveyone is on your side and that he was nowhere near perfect, but you loved him nonetheless and gave him everything you are and he took it all and gave you nothing and you want tot kill him for that, but in the back of your mind you he's not worth it. Not really.

But knowing and feeling are two completely different things and knowing doesn't stop the tears from streaming down your cheekcs or from saying things - half-crazed things that you don't feel and you know you won't remember tomorrow and somehow its all his fault.

Everything is all his fault.

And you KNOW its true, but even now you defend him to everyone else because you still care or because its just habit or maybe because you really just want to believe its true even if you know it's not.

a/n: Well...I have been wanting to do a buddy-fic and this seems to be as close as its gonna get for now. Pointless little fiction that's hardly funny and there are a bunch of words spelled so wrong...anyway point out grammar mistakes and such things if you wish. Oh, and its all dialogue. Have fun!