Month: October 2014

It all began when I’ve first heard “Love Story”, I’ve got amazed by the fairytale feel of the song, then I’ve seen the music video and it was magical. Then I’ve started searching about the singer, who turns out to be “Taylor Swift”, found her songs and heard them. They had these feel of like she’s writing my diary. All those emotions hidden in every word, phrase, lyric, and song. Then this fangirling goes on and on. Started buying albums and merchs. Listening to her songs all of the time. Deciphering messages of every song. Taylor Swift is writing her life and she’s writing mine too. And for this new record that is already out. I can say, “I would never ever stop listening to these songs for a lifetime.” Thanks Taylor for being there. You’re existence is the most amazing thing in the world. ♥♥♥

Here we are again
Going on a roller coaster we never thought it was.
Every time we touch it sends shivers down to our spine.
Maybe we got that chemistry
But we never knew what does it really mean
Or just waiting for each other to speak
Until we just got tired of understanding

There are so many words to say.
So many words left unsaid.
And I wanna ask.
Would I speak it up for you?
Can I speak it for you?

They say action speaks louder than words
But sometimes actions need words too.
I wanna understand them.
Help me understand them.
‘Cause there were so many times I wanted to ask you.
Seems afraid for every little moment.
Going back and forth.
But all I want is to run into you.
And now here we are living our separate lives.

There are so many words to say.
So many words left unsaid.
And I wanna ask.
Would I speak it up for you?
Can I speak it for you?

And so here we are
Letting each moment to just pass by.
Ignoring what we truly feel.
Hurting each other absentmindedly.
But the truth is.

There are so many words to say.
So many words left unsaid.
And I wanna ask.
Would I speak it up for you?
Can I speak it for you?

There are so many words to say.
So many words left unsaid.
All I wanna say is I love you
And I hope you care for me as much as I do.
And I would say.
I’m speaking it up for you.
I’ve spoke it for you.

Feeling wasted again today. I’m such an idiot. I just wanted to help but then again I end up ruining it. I just want to care for them. But then again I hurt them. I just want to protect them. But then again I put them to harm. So it’s better to not help, care and protect and just ignore. At least they have already labeled me someone numb.

I’ve just realized I just need to have fun in life and make the most of it, before life takes it away from me. I’m not saying that I’m dying, its just life is not too long and not too short, it’s just enough to be alright.

Heartbreak. It is. Shattering me onto pieces again. And again. Trying to control myself not to breakdown. Or anything. Telling myself its gonna be okay. But how can I be okay when I’ve said those words, you’re the one I remembered. ‘Cause you’ve said that. But everything’s falling apart now. And I’m left here alone, still insanely inlove with you.