Are You Normal?

I would live a christian life to marry a girl

I don't think my conscious would allow me to lie directly to people but I think I'd be willing to go to Church, read the Bible, live by the ethics, and maybe even pray, if it meant I could be with this one particular girl I dated.

I liked her a lot and she was extremely beautiful. She challenged me as a person and when were clicking it felt so natural, free, and happy to be around one another. Also I had a sexual attraction to her I haven't felt in years. It's been months since we've talked but I still think about her.

She would never marry a guy who wasn't a full blown Christian And I would never lie to her to say that I am, i.e. that I truly believe Jesus rose from the dead and that there's a heaven and a hell. (I think of the Bible more as a deep metaphor. One that I truly respect and want to study, but I don't see it as always literal.) But hypothetically if she somehow would date me seriously if I lived the Christian lifestyle even without fully believing in it, I would do that for her. Is it normal that I would be willing to do this? Again, this is only hypothetical because she realistically wouldn't date me unless I was a real believer.

"She would never marry a guy who wasn't a full blown Christian And I would never lie to her to say that I am... Again, this is only hypothetical because she realistically wouldn't date me unless I was a real believer."

"She would never marry a guy who wasn't a full blown Christian And I would never lie to her to say that I am... Again, this is only hypothetical because she realistically wouldn't date me unless I was a real believer."

That'd be risky, you might end up becoming brainwashed into actually believing it. You could end up with serious permanent deep-rooted psychological damage from that.

I grew up in christian schools and even though I've long since realised it's all nonsense, there are still times where I feel like I'm being watched and judged and having my mind read by some cruel powerful magical being (where I basically feel like a schizophrenic), due to the manipulative indoctrination I received from the age of four. And I may never completely heal from it.

Cute, i would probably do the same but idk, people who are that devout are a bit too different imo, it's like you'd have to alter your whole thought process to where you're on another plane of existence that you were taught by someone else rather than formed on your own. no hate, it would just be hard to be compatible.