It wouldn't hurt so much if I didn't have Charlotte. Partly because I'm worried that she won't remember mom. But mostly because we're starting to do things together like I remember doing with mom. And now I won't be able to share that with her. We haven't read "Heidi" yet. She's only just learning to ride a bicycle. There's all the books that were mom's, that she gave to me to read, that I'm only just beginning to take out. She'll never got to tell Grandma that she's reading *her* books.