Friday, June 29, 2012

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to
return to the internal energetic experience of ‘love’ because it felt good and
made me feel special.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
prioritize my experience of ‘me,’ and ‘my life, and feeling ‘special’ in a
world that is in dire condition, wherein, within my participation within and asthe energetic experience of ‘love’ I am making the statement that the way Ifeel inside is more important than my commitment to myself as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
want/desire to return to ‘love’ because it makes the world seem like a better,
nicer, and even wonderful place, when it most certainly is not- it’s not about
going around depressed about the state of things, but rather for reach to
accept their responsibility within it, wherein- when one is lost within and
consumed by the inner emotional energetic experience of ‘love’ created by the
mind and experienced by/through chemical reactions within the physical body (which
has nothing to do with the actual state of reality or anything real or
practical whatsoever)- one is absolutely disregarding the state of the world
and the suffering and abuse taking place, and one is placing oneself and one’s
own internal experience which is based only on self-created experiences,above the actual real problems that require
immediate attention in this world and within self, as the separation and disregard for one’s own physical body in pursuit of energetic emotionalexperiences instead.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear
hurting another within the act of my withdrawing my participation in ‘love.’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
think/believe/perceive that I am a heartless person as I withdraw from ‘love,’
and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being seen as a
heartless, uncaring person by those that may not understand what I am doing and
why.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to
return to the old, familiar and comfortable patterns and habits that I am used
to, instead of standing up and walking and forging a new way and a new path for
myself, wherein I assert mysef as the self-directive principle in my life,
instead of floating along and accepting and allowing events to unfold
willy-nilly wherein I sit back and react.

I commit myself to taking the wheel in my Life, as this is
the only Life I have, thus it is of absolute primary importance for me to step
up, step in and get physical.

I commit myself to see through the veil of ‘love’ and energy,
to the actual reality of myself, physical reality and how it’s all unfolding,
and where I stand within it.

When and as I see that I am being tempted to fall into and
follow an energetic experience, I stop, and I breathe. I bring myself back to
self-direction within the understanding that I can enjoy myself with another
without participating in the inner emotional energetic experience of ‘love,’ it
is not necessary tosabotage myself
because I am able to self-honestly stand within and as relationships without
giving up or giving in to the mind of ego and desire, to be wanted, important
and special, etc… instead of valuing myself as all as one as equal. I value
myself, whole, Here, and walk within self-direction as I change within
relationships in my world.

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Hi, my name is Kimberly Kline (nee Doubt). I stand for an Equal Money System- I stand for a dignified life for all beings and I will no longer accept or allow this system of human greed and self-interest that is causing suffering, starvation and abuse for the masses. Every 'solution' we have tried so far has failed- from the United Nations to the United Church. Individual self-change and leadership by example is where it's at. I humbly commit myself to this process and invite anyone who has respect for Life to join me and walk with me, beside me, as self-willed equals, until all are free from the global compromise humanity has created for itself.
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