August and september 2013: Difficult dreams

Free at last when the weight gets lighter

Something has been resolved I think, but I need to ask Amper to be sure.

––––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

13 August

I was out in a clearing in the forest and staying in a kind of tent or bivouac.A large faithful dog was with me. It was dawn, I patted and petted the dog that nudged my leg, he was happy that I had woken up.

Even a man who could not be seen was with me. He said something about that it was time to tear down something that was a bit away. Something that was no longer needed.

––––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

25 August

In the waking state. I had been in the woods picking berries. My buckets were full, and I went home. I came past a lake on the road and discovered something I had let go of. I got a nice feeling as if something was over or resolved. I am quite sure that it was so. I must ask my other self. He, if anyone knows what it is about.

––––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

1 September

Just before falling asleep this evening a sentence came to me clearly:The eighteenth line in the wallpaper.

I have thought about these words all day. I understand that it’s important for me to solve this riddle.

––––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

17 September

I was on the second floor of a house. A woman was there.

A man came in, a sort of messenger with something the woman signed for.

I looked out the window; there was heavy traffic on the street. A long truck, a trailer, tried to pass the street. It had dual rear wheels and rear triple boogies. On the platform were lots of smaller machines. There were also hoses for these strange machines. I think the truck got through eventually.

––––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

21 September

Today something happened with and for me.I have felt completely homogeneous. It is as if I understood something more, I felt it throughout my body. This has come after I understood the words eighteenth line in the wallpaper.

––––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

23 September

My dream this morning: I was standing outside a large house where a doctor had their practice on the second floor. It was the weekend, this doctor apparently works every day of the week. A sort of tank stood outside. There was gas in this container. I think I opened the tap and gas poured out of it.

When I went to turn the tap off, problems arose. I tried several times. Maybe it was several days between visits. I finally managed to stop the flow.

All the while the doctor was working in the building next door.

A difficult dream, I must think about what it can mean. It will probably take time.

––––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

24 September

Jorun: – I am crying out, seeking you and calling on you, my other self.

Amper (always in italics):– Both Chreel and I are here.

– I thought I felt you wanted to talk to me?

– Yes, Jorun, you feel the slightest thing, It’s correct, we do.

– Is everything as it should be as we said, Chreel and I?

– Yes, everything is so good it can be with you.

– Eighteenth line in the wallpaper. Have I understood this correctly?

– Yes, totally right. You were led astray for awhile, but you usually arrive at thecorrect interpretation with time.

– Will it be as I thought?

– Yes, exactly as my friend. Jorun, you are being watched by a particular person.

– Female or male?

– Woman.

– She suspects something?

–Yes, she is almost sure.

– Is there a problem with this?

– No, it’s so close now, it will work.

– May I wonder who it is?

–Both yes and no. She will soon reveal herself to you. There isnothing negative at all with this.

– I have had several dreams lately, is there something difficult with them?

– I know it’s hard but you have to solve them. I think you have solved the last one,it seems so.

– Yes, but the second last dream with the doctor and the container outside is difficult.

– You should also solve that one soon.

– I do not understand myself why it should be so. But it is just the way it is?

– Yes, it is. Now Chreel wants to talk to you.

Chreel:– How have you coped with everything for all these years?

– It has not been easy. But who else can say that it’s been easy. What you should know is that without you it would not worked. I think of the time we had together with gratitude. I know you’re in the right place now. We together once said that we hope this is the last time we are born. While I understand that itmight be necessary. We’ll see how it goes. Thank you for being here, here in your way. I know you so well.

– Amper, did I get a visit the other day during my rounds?

– Yes, Jorun, you know who it was. You’re a lucky man who gets to experiencethis. It has never happened to anyone else since the beginning of time.

– The other day, yes, it stayed with me over several days, something came to me, I felt it physically. There is a feeling that cannot be described. I was totally pure and could understand almost everything.

– Jorun, you’ve come as far as it is at all possible as a man. But now it is so thatyou are two. One of the two, and these two are one. You know that so well. Iunderstand that you felt it.

– Jorun, this was a long conversation. You know who you really are and you do not worry in the slightest. You are who you are. Go in peace, as you say, and as I say, contact me soon again.