Wednesday, October 22, 2008

The last nail ... an adieu

It's been a journey in the true sense of the word, the last few months that is. During it's course I analysed my own self, understood the dark side that lay within me and worked towards freeing myself from it's clutches. I realised the need to send a facet of my character into hibernation, exile rather. The need arose from a simple revelation that I lacked the strength to uphold any form of new relationships and also that I was extremely vulnerable to making new ones as well. Prevention is better than cure; makes a lot of sense to me now, and hence I embark upon a rather "Long hiatus", where I shall put aside my emotions giving them an ample amount of rest. They have been at work for a really long time now. They need to be rejuvenated and as a prerequisite to that, they need to be rested.

For a long time now emotions have taken the front seat in my life and have modelled my personality in ways they deemed mandatory for being a good individual, a good partner. I guess it's time to put them in the back seat now and let the other side take control till the former gets enervated and the later has set my life on a track where I achieve my professional goals. It is not the end of the road for me or my emotions; just a sabbatical. A forced vacation in order to ensure no more mistakes are made either out of foolishness or weakness. The vacation deems of me to give up the media I have since a long time used for expressing my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions. It is time for me to end this side of my thoughts for a considerable amount of time and that requires of me to end this blog "Aggravatingly contumacious yet serene" right here. hence adieu.

Over the last few months I did make some good friends here in this virtual world, ones who gave me care, affection and more importantly their time. I am thankful to them and the end of the blog shall not have any bearing on that, for I do treasure them. For the other readers, it felt nice to read what all had to say about my thoughts, each one of my writings, which were purely a reflection of events in my life and not a figment of any imagination. Did it fetch me a solace ? No, but it fetched me perspectives and for that I am greatly thankful to all. The cocoon has been formed and hopefully what will hatch will be beautiful. I wish you all smiles in your life.

Though there wasn't much talkin done.. I can relate to what you have posted here.. M somewhere mid way my journey here.. Still venting out, maybe someday I'll say a goodbye too when I am done with Blogville.. Keep Smilin whereever you go! It was lovely stoppin by your blog.. but I guess.. All Good Things Come To An End... :)

Im late here altho I knew u had left. :( I only got some time today and here I am to say Goodbye to u, altho Im not sure if u'll read this comment since ur off blogs now.

I just wanted to let u know that in the very short time we knew each other, u left a big impact on me. Ur such a fine writer, a truly sensitive soul and a beautiful friend. ty for being in my life, cos u made a difference!

** I shall put aside my emotions giving them an ample amount of rest. They have been at work for a really long time now. They need to be rejuvenated and as a prerequisite to that, they need to be rested.

I agree. It has been like that for me too..in the last few weeks. I feel I need to let let my heart rest a lil...and come bak when its fresh and lively again.

U hv a great break...TC..be good...stay happy and most of all keep smiling :) U r being missed!

dude...if you are reading this, just don't do something you don't want to just because it feels right...instincts go wrong now and then...one more thing, writing as i hold is a way of expressing oneself, and that definitely cannot be put on a 'hiatus'...anyways, hope to hear from you.