I Did What I Could.......

With what I knew at the time. I didn't know the damage I'd cause myself by being his "friend". I didn't understand the scars I'd end up carrying inside for the rest of my life. That by going with him, by being too scared to tell, by just going into the trees & blocking out the pain, that I was condemning myself to a life of shame, guilt & fear. That I would become a true victim.....

I never thought it would cause me this kind of pain. So, I have finally realized that no matter what happened, or what I "imagined" I should have done differently, it wasn't my fault. NONE OF IT! I didn't do one thing to deserve any abuse that was heaped on me, at any time. I am a good person. I am worthy to breath the same air as you, to be loved, held, to have friends, to go out, & to be the best me I can be. I deserve to live, not merely survive.

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