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Archive | April 2012

So I finally manned up as it were and managed to buy myself a small make-up kit. I’ve been experimenting around with it, even though I forgot to get some foundation (whoops). Anyway, this is just a quick one to show you one of my attempts, not the greatest in the world, butit’s only my first attempt. With a little practice I’ll (hopefully) get better at it.

Just a little post for me to show off mainly. Been working on a drawing all day, and then been experimenting around in photoshop to colour it. Just a sketch of both Mel and my male side enjoying a quiet smoke. Enjoy

So I’ve had a massive boost in my confidence (if you couldn’t tell by the title). So, we’ve just had some new neighbours move in next door to us, and they came round to meet us last night. During a conversation it was brought up that they’d seen my “sister” outside smoking yesterday afternoon. Well my heart skipped god knows how many beats, especially when my mum said she didn’t have a daughter. Thankfully I was quick enough to say that it was one of my friends who’d popped round to drop something off, and they seemed to buy it, so *phew* on that one. It has made me think though, that I must be doing soemthing right to pass as female looks wise, even without make-up, wich has made me enormously happy. Now if could just get my voice sorted. Anybody got any tips on how to achieve a right sounding voice. I’ve seen a few videos on youtube, but was just wondering If there were any other methods out there.

Yes I’m still in the world of the living. Really sorry for being absent for longer than I said, I’ve been having a few personal problems of late that have been affecting my health (mainly worrying about money), but I’m back again.

For the first time in about three weeks I’m back in Mel mode again, my younger brothers have been back from Uni for easter so I haven’t had the house to myself in order to be me. I must say I’m already feeling the world happier dressed this way again, feels like slipping into a comfortable pair of shoes (ironic considering I’m still not used to heels Ouch).

Another thing I wanted to say is that I’m so happy with the support from the friends I told about my secret, although I still haven;t had the guts to show my fiancée (I’m working on it though), but she’s still supporting me. Anyway, in a couple of weeks my parents are going holiday, and with my brothers gone I’ll be free to be Mel nearly all day every day (I’ve managed to get that week off work) and I’m planning a girly night in with those aforementioned friends, who’ve agreed to show me how to do makeup and such. Depending on how brave I’m feeling, we might even venture into town, that’s a BIG if though.

I’m also trying to work on a more feminine voice, but I’m struggling with it at the moment, partially because I feel silly talking to myself, but it’s mainly because I’ve never tried anything like this before. Hopefully once I’ve got it sorted enough I’ll post some more videos here.