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Wednesday

Yes,
it is Valentine’s Day; NO I do not have some romantic date. I can never
celebrate this day for what it is supposed to be. I have grown to hate this day
and not because I am single, I am happy being single, I’m not the relationship
type. James actually asked me out and I turned him down, I can’t be happy today,
I can’t put a smile on my face and pretend everything is okay. I don’t even
know if I should write it down, but on this day I always feel compelled to relive
what happened. Although doing that, again, and again, year after year certainly
doesn’t help me move on, which I know is what she would want me to do…

5
years ago today my best friend Mia was abducted right in front of me. It was
late and we were walking home together. A van pulled up next to us, two men
with masks jumped out and grabbed her. They tried to grab me too but I ran,
leaving her with them. Her body was found 3 days later, raped, tortured and
beaten. I can never forgive myself for running away, I may have saved my own
life, but I lost my best friend. Maybe if I had tried to fight them off I could
have saved her or at least died trying.

That’s
why I stopped writing for those 5 years and I dropped out of college. I
couldn’t be there anymore; I could barely even function for a while. I couldn’t
deal with the way everyone looked at me with such pity; they all knew what had
happened…

~ Amelia

*This is a Fictional story, click Amelia's Diaries to read more about her and read the story from the begining here! Come back each week for a new chapter!

Last
night is such a blur, I remember going to work and it got really busy as it
typically does on a Saturday night, then it gets fuzzy. You would think I had
been drinking but I know I wasn’t, I would never drink at work and I’m not much
of a drinker anyway. I must be tired; I have been having some crazy dreams
lately. Maybe I should start a dream diary too.

This guy at work keeps
flirting with me, his name is James he is totally cute, so I flirt back a
little, flirting is fun and harmless. I have no desire to date him, first off
we work together and that could get ugly and second, I am not looking to date
anyone. Besides, he probably just wants to get in my pants; he doesn’t seem
like the commitment type.

~ Amelia

*This is a Fictional story, click Amelia's Diaries to read more about her and read the story from the begining here! Come back each week for a new chapter!

I
actually like working at the bar, it’s a lot of fun. My coworkers are really
nice, and the customers are fairly laid back. I get hit-on all the time, which
I will admit I like, it is kind of an ego boost which I sort of need right now.
I’ve been a little down in the dumps lately; I guess I can’t help it this time
of year, no matter how hard I try the sadness always creeps in. I can’t help
it, I miss her.

~ Amelia

*This is a Fictional story, click Amelia's Diaries to read more about her and read the story from the begining here! Come back each week for a new chapter!