Bambi & Birdy

Mittwoch, 31. Dezember 2014

To 2015:
my list of changes is long, my ideas are big and my imagination unstoppable...

here are the five biggest goals I need to finish, risk, love or start trying..

1) I don´t know how, but I will fish my BA

2) The precious present will be my new best friend

3) To end this craving of far away lands, beautiful countries and new cultures... I will travel to Latino América

4) I will open a new box in my head, where I put all the worries. I will close the box, just for a while, and start breathing again

5) I will stop the whining, just stop it - theres just no reason for it!

The way to happiness is long and stony, but one day I will know the following phrase by heart:

Life maybe was bitter sweet, but it was not more or less than we gave away... every minute or moment we offered someone as a present, every bite of our heart, even love, can be measured by how much we were willing to give away, to risked, to invest, to love...and in the riches moments, where life tock us by surprise and filled our hearts with joy, we gained everything back...

Donnerstag, 25. Dezember 2014

Freitag, 19. Dezember 2014

I'm coming home...I am about to leave the house in order to fly home over the holidays. I am looking forward to seeing my man, my Birdy, my friends and family so very much and wish you all a wonderful weekend!

Dienstag, 16. Dezember 2014

The beauty of mononucleosis is, that you have tons of time (= the couple of hours a day you're not sleeping) to finally read all your bookmarked articles, watch movies you always wanted to watch, and generally be inspired by everything the internet has to offer...so, here is parts of what I did during the last weeks... now that I'm somewhat healthy again, I reentered the real world though, so no worries.

Freitag, 12. Dezember 2014

I want you to know one thing.
You know how this is:
If I look at the crystal moon,
at the red branch of the slow autumn at my window,
If I touch near the fire
the impalpable ash or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail towards those isles of yours
that wait for me.
Well, now, if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you, little by little.

If suddenly you forget me
do not look for me,
for shall already have forgotten you.
If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners that passes through my life,
and you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart
where I have roots,
remember that on that day,
at that hours,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off to seek another land.

But if each day, each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love,
ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live, it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.
- Pablo Neruda -

We never met - A series of conversations two photographers (Alex Mendes and Hugo Catraio) never had. Short stories created for random strangers - a beautiful art project:http://instagram.com/wenevermet

Dienstag, 9. Dezember 2014

Recently I visited a good old friend, who lives right in Munich right now.. I have never been there before and was pretty excited to see the city, meet new people and get a hint of southern german culture... a little more than just bear and sausages - the number of museums you can find there is incredible, even though I needed a couple of good arguments to be allowed to see one! But still, thanks for the wonderful weekend! - most of the pics you find in this post are from an organic festival in Munich... Everything was for hippies and I love it!

Mittwoch, 3. Dezember 2014

“Ever morning, until you dead in the ground, you gone have to make this decision. You gone have to ask yourself, "Am I gone believe what them fools say about me today?”

2) Go Tell It On The Mountain, James Baldwin

“There are people in the world for whom "coming along" is a perpetual process, people who are destined never to arrive.”

3) TIMBUKTU, Paul Auster

“... love was not a quantifiable substance. There was always more of it somewhere, and even after one love had been lost, it was by no means impossible to find another.”
4) August: Osage County, Tracy Letts

“All women need makeup. Don't let anybody tell you different. The only woman who was pretty enough to go without makeup was Elizabeth Taylor and she wore a ton.”

Montag, 1. Dezember 2014

nice to meet you! I'm laying in bed, sick, right now, as I do A LOT. And I am tired. Not only of not being healthy, but of always being frustrated and angry about being sick. So, for this beautiful month of December 2014, I decide to give up. I decide that I'm worth something even if I can't do anything a lot of the time. I decide that my life has meaning, even if I spend approximately a third of my days in bed. I decide that my life can be a success even if I don't have a college degree at 24 and generally am forced to take it slow. And most of all: I decide to not hate myself, my body, God/fate any more for all the things that I cannot do. I give up in the best possible sense and this month, I'll be content anyway.