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Surfing the web aimlessly,I came across a journal saying a post 80’s does a good job by selling fried egg cake after quitting his job in Wuhan.The guy is not a stranger to me as we once worked together as an cake apprentice in Wuhan two years ago.During that time,exactly only one week,we learned all the basis about making a delicious cake.Dough making,sauce boiling,cheek frying,goods selling and many other processes were our daily work from 11 am to 11 pm everyday.The weather during that period in Wuhan was extremely hot.We could just stand on our feet to completed the work.I vividly remembered my legs ached all the day standing for nearly 9 hours in my first day.We were not the only two apprentices.I learned quickly but he not.I came alone but he came with her mother.When he started her own business I even went to his stall for a help and took a taste.It’s not the one we’ve just learned,I have to say.When I started my own one back in Shenzhen,I dare to say I still made a better texture at the beginning.But what has happened since then? My business just lasts less than three months nevertheless he insists on it all the time. Now he has made a big progress and even becomes a local web celebrity more or less. But what about me?I haven’t done anything from the start to the end.I am still standing at the starting point of my own life again,having no idea of what to do next.What is a huge difference!

Like tennis and English language,if I could find a career that I put all my hearts into it,obviously I would succeed eventually.Everyday when I play tennis,I find my whole body is full of energy.I cherish every second on the court.I always want to have more,even after playing for three hours.I forget all other things but only focus on tennis.I am glad for every excellent stroke,pity for every unnecessary missing.What an enjoyable experience that I find I’m on the top of the world during that period.I need my career to go like this,no matter how many times have to reset my orientation.I know this not a easy path but I promise myself to try to the end.

A post 90’s young girl,sitting besides me in the cubicle,makes a deep impression on all the members in the office.She works very hard.Everyday I go off work on time,she is always there doing her work alone.Sometimes looking at her work stuff I even find it is a little ridiculous and even meaningless. It seems she does a lot of work with no shortcut. Computer skills are what she is obviously lack of. But she just heads into what she ought to do.Strictly speaking, she is not my colleague because she just stays at our office but works for another company.Sometimes I even wonder if I were her how I would behave. Would I obey the time discipline? Would I put all my efforts on the work even with no supervision? Would I accomplish all my duty, even get praise from the irrelevant parters?Probably the answer is no! So this is the difference.

Then one tiny thing attracts me when we talk about what she is mainly doing.It is that she joins hundreds of wechat and QQ groups.There are so many chat groups that her two phones even can not operate quite well.Often We all laugh at this.But today then suddenly,I realize one of my problems exists all the time.I always live in my own world and do not want to get out of it.I do not want to connect with others too much because it involves so much effort and trouble.Comparing with interacting with other people,I prefer to playing with myself,for instance,reading a book,listening to a soft music,and just sitting in the chair with nothing to do.Concerning interacting with other people,it needs more time and patience to cater to them.What if I spend a lot of time doing something myself less distraction?Unfortunately I was completely wrong from of my own experience.I always doing things absolutely with no room.I need more balance between myself and connecting others.I am not an isolated person at all! Learn to keep balance as soon as possible.

Self improvement is a long journey.I know I have no other choice but do my best to improve myself gradually.The Lord Of The Rings is one of my best favorite films that I love so much.I do not know how many times exactly I have seen it.Every time I see it I always can get some courage. Frodo and his companions are on an unknown venture that they have to make done. At last they succeed. I hope I can too.So do not just stay in my own world all the time.I need chance to get out of it.Spare space is necessary but public one is also indispensable.

Sitting in the cubicle with little desire to do anything,it is so disappointing to find I’m still standing at the starting point after so much time of trying.Am I just counting down to have an end of this job here?How many days left?Two?Three? or fourteen?All seems likely.

It will be exactly half a year since I got this work in July at the end of this week.Half a year is not a long period,to some extent.But it is also not a short time.Looking back upon the surroundings when I decided to change my career to this one,I had so much of passions and ambitions.There is a big chance to make a difference this time just like any one before.I wish I could move ahead but not.Unfortunately I messed it up again.Where are the problems?How should I do to improve it?What is my plan next month?

It’s how you view the life inside you that creates the life outside of you.Once I read this sentence then wrote it down.Yes,it is true.The life I have now is the one I chose.I have no other choice but have to accept it.Additionally,I must have a clear mind that I must find the right path to fulfill my callings as soon as possible.Time is priceless.I have no time to waste any more!

Two weeks ago I decided to write at least one English post every week.But unfortunately nothing has happened since then.Sometimes I had the desire but no time.Otherwise I got time but no desire.All led to the same result:no new posts at all.The situation also applies to reading somehow.I had my Kindle Paperwhite2 half a year ago.How many books have I read using such a cool device?Maybe less than 10.What a pity!What a waste of money! I EVEN have read THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE RING for over two months but haven’t completed it yet.This is the reality.After so much effort,I get to know what I want to pursue but I am always lack of persistence and focus.

A week ago I read a post in which the author,Jeff,recommended everyone loving writing to write a post not less than 500 words each day for a month, I registered with no hesitance and decided to take part in this great challenge.I reckoned it’s a practical and meaningful project.I even imagine how far my writing skills would make after accomplishing it.But till now,no posts has written out.

We all know persistence could make a great difference.Just as our Chinese saying goes,dripping water could wear through a stone after many many times’ drop.Persistence is a power that everyone of us would undertake its magic only if we could make efforts consistently to make it happen..It is such a power that we couldn’t get it over a night,a week,even a year.No one knows when it is the time.If we want to get the ideal outcome,we have no other choice but keep moving.Taking myself as an example,I always make up my mind to accomplish something worth doing.At first I am full of energy.Then gradually the energy decreases.The objective is one thing,plan is another and action is the other.For me,persistence is not easy.

A university classmate,employed in Tencent, told me yesterday that he just completed his interview with Alibaba’s interviewer.He thought the interview was good and had a chance to make his job transform. The wages and payments sounded a lot of money.Honestly speaking,it is so much that I can’t deserve right now. Baidu is also one of his choice too.Baidu, Alibaba and Tencet, known as BAT in China’s internet industry,are three most famous and wealthiest companies in this country. To get a job in these three companies is a career dream, even a life dream for many Chinese university graduates.My classmate have done a perfect job. He should have deserved pride from himself and admiration from others,of course,in some extent,including me.

It also reminds me of my own poor career path.Having graduating from my college eight years ago,my career is till in a mess,no focus,no persistence and then no fruit.The reality tells me the truth that I will not succeed in any of these fields or types because of my personality.I hate constraint,mendacity and complexity that in all ordinary work I have to comply with.I love freedom,curiosity and creativity which most of work can not provide.Two roads diverged in the wood,and I took the one less traveled by.This is what Robert Frost once said in his work,The Road Not Taken.And It is also just what I want to do in my life.To have a different but meaningful life is much more appealing to me than just to go with the crowd.To be the one I want to be,that is it.

To take the road less traveled by also means much more uncertainty awaits you along the journey because you can’t gain any experience from others but have to get it from your first hand.You will encounter a lot of difficulties,setbacks and even find no ways to go on.That is the price.But you will also enjoy the beauty that few can ever see.If you are determined and lucky enough,you will get what you want ultimately.As the saying goes,all roads lead to Rome.In my opinion,this is the advantage. A man should stand on his own feet,make his own efforts to fulfill his own destiny,with no exception.

The year of 2014 is going to be an end within a few hours. Looking back upon this whole year,much more is to be done in 2015.Looking to the new year,I need to put the past aside and keep an open mind.keep a good relationship.keep reading, writing and learning.Learn to take photograph.Learn to write posts regularly.learn to become the person I always want to be.

(Found an interesting website about.me this week and made some efforts to have my own one.During the process it needed to have a bio then I made one.A few days later about.me sent me a letter with some tips.It said less was more and I needed just an optimal length of just 4-6 sentences to make it.Obviously the one I made is not the one I mostly need.Here below is my original version.It is a waste to just delete it so I decide to leave it here.How to just describe myself using only a few words?Frankly speaking I’ve got no idea till now.But I have to get one sooner or later.)

As a Chinese saying goes,a man should stand on his feet in his thirties.To me,that means you should know yourself well enough,about your strength,weakness,calling and destiny. Life is a long but also a short journey,a quest,full of ups and downs.After over thirty years’ exploration,especially these two years,I gradually find my inner peace that can help me overcome any setbacks,frustration and keep a reasonable mind to love this colorful world.

During my spare time,I like to play tennis,which is my favorite sport since 2008 besides watching Arsenal FC’s game.English language is my another hobby as well as reading and writing.Traveling is also my love because it can open my mind and broaden my horizon.I hope I am able to travel in EU especially UK,watching a Premier game in Emirate Stadium.

Freedom is also my love.I dream of being freelance.I have done everything I could to accomplish that.How long will it take?Maybe 3 years,maybe even longer,I don’t care.I just know I should,have to,listen to my heart.

At the end of 2014,with just a few days to the end,it is the very time to review my 2014 and look forward to a new 2015.

Frankly speaking,my previous 30 years are full of mess and frustration,no plan,no persistence,then unsurprisingly no achievements.Even after 8 years of work,I am still struggle with my career,having no idea of where is my exact place to make full use of my strength,passions and talent.Although Knowing IT is not my favorite career path,I still have been frustrated in that field for nearly 6 years.What is my strength?And what are my passions?No matter how many times I ask myself, the answer is still not very clear.I always say to myself,become yourself,do what you want to do and become the one you want to be.Keeping that in mind,I determine to find out my THE ONE job and my THE ONE partner.I am always on my road.

To some extent,this post is not just the review of 2014 but much like a review of my past thirty years life time.

Every coin has two sides.Looking back upon my past years,to me,life is just like an experiment in which I tried as many ways as I could to fulfill my journey.Most of the results are not what I expect at first.But in the end,I have to accept all and try to learn something from them.Thanks to these moments of setbacks,frustrations and difficulties,they taught me a lot.They taught me to keep persistent,focus and balance.I gradually begin to understand life is not easy but worthy trying.I should listen to my inner peace instead of external noise.

Now it is time to begin the process.

What went well

This list includes some of the things I went well in 2014 and also the year before.

started my own business as making pancakes for 3 months(Oct 2012-Jan 2013)

played tennis regularly to have a healthy body

kept learning English to a new level,especially listening skill

took part in a few business and commercial activities to broaden my horizon

read some books

found a new job in international trade to earn some money after nearly two years cash vacancy

What Did Not Go Well

Many points listed here have something in common which I found it’s difficult to express in detail,but I have to do as much as I could.

gave myself too little time to try pancakes business,lack of patience and persistence

bad cash flow,nearly no savings

not going-well relationship,lack of determinations and braveness

still behaved terrible in job work

In general,there are many aspects of my life need to improve,not only the process but also the outcomes.That is to say,I need to focus on the process and value the results.

Looking to my 2015,these below are the things I must accomplish.

make a big progress of my English to a level that can write,listen,read and say it freely.Try to write at least one post every week.Try to practice oral English every month.Try to read a English book every month.

find a job that can hold my dream and passion,needless to say support my life.

learn photograph and try a new path.

improve my finance situation having a saving of over 30,000.

keep doing exercise regularly,such as continue to play tennis to a new level

have a health relationships.Single or not is not a problem,but I have to keep myself happy and progressive.

Today is Christmas Eve.Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone.