Tuesday, November 2, 2010

My Epiphany...

In five months, I've lost 53 lbs. I'm proud of myself, but it seems like I still have so far to go. I am just now, this week, starting to see the physical changes in my body. I know others have been seeing my body change for months now, but my self-image is only now starting to shift. And only in small ways. Sometimes I'll catch a split-second glimpse of myself in the mirror and realize my hips are smaller or my face is thinner. But its very subtle. I don't see the drastic changes that others see. I usually don't believe people when they say things like, "I hardly recognized you!" or "You are just getting so SMALL!". I think they're just trying to make me feel better. *shrug* I guess I'm a little more insecure than I thought.

So back to my ephiphany...

I've lost 53 lbs and I'm down from 297 lbs. to 244 lbs. My "I'll-be-happy-with-anything-from-here-on-down" goal is 180 lbs. "How much more," I wondered, "do I have to lose to hit my goal?". So I did the math.

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64 lbs. Sixty-four pounds. SIXTY-FOUR FREAKING POUNDS!! I've lost 53 and I only have 64 to go!! How is it possible that I'm almost half-way there?! I've been running the numbers through my head over and over again for the last 18 hours and I keep coming up with the same answer!!

Its been like a lightbulb switched on in my head. I'm making progress. And not just a little progress, but MAJOR progress. I've made a major change in my lifestyle that is changing my entire life fro

m top to bottom. I look different (even if only to others right now), I feel different, and I AM different.

Its been a pretty intense 18 hours, my friends. Here's to half-way there!!!!!

You made me smile with this post. I have been doing my numbers in my head as well. It is amazing. My oldest sister saw me a couple of weeks ago and said you are getting small. This same sister told another sister that I really look good. Sometimes I can't see it and other times I can. I am trying to kick my WL up to 10lbs a month so I can hit goal by May. You are doing wonderfully, keep up the GREAT work!!