I bet your mom spoke out of some internal struggle she is having not because she really met it...moms are people too so please habibi don't do anything rash okay? Your a lovely person full of love and potential and I really think she was just very frustrated at something else and will come apologize soon.

I don't know your mom obviously, but my mom would always pull that same crap. Like I'd do nothing and just get the whiplash effect because she's pissed eternally.

I would try not to let it bother you so much and not believe what she said. Her saying that was just to do exactly what happened--make you upset.

Some people can also easily say harsh things and feel nothing. I'm REALLY against ever saying the F word to close ones. But I had a friend that would say F you blah blah like nothing and make me cry. Maybe the world 'hate' makes you feel the same.