It has only been 5 days since I stuck my youngest on a plane headed to Europe but I feel like someone has kicked me in the gut. There is definitely an emptiness with him gone. I think everyone in the family feels it. The teenager has been spendi... Read more

So my feelings were a little hurt that I got bumped as a team leader. But I understand why. I was struggling and non existent with checking in. I get it. I found a team of 1 that was not active. I submitted a request to become the new team leade... Read more

I have never been one to need my families reassurance of love, but lately I have been feeling really alone. My kids are getting older and there is no more cuddle time with mom. My husband works alot and we never talk for more than a few minutes ... Read more

most people have reached their goal in the amount of time that it took me to lose 29 pounds. since 2008 when i joined spark there are alot of people who have lost 100 pounds or more and i sit and think what if..what if i had logged my food every... Read more

Let me start by saying I was a Mary Kay girl for over 10 years. Until a month ago my skin started breaking out and was extremely oily. Don't know if they changed their formula or if my skin just changed that drastically. I wanted something diffe... Read more

so my kids were bugging to got to the rec again last night..the 12 year old and i had been there at 5 am...so for the 2nd time in 1 day i was back exercising..yeah me! the boys made all leagues this weekend and were looking for extra swim practi... Read more

So yesterday I had an appointment with the employee nurse to have my cholesterol and blood pressure check for my 2010 benefits enrollment. Wasn't to concerned because I have always had low blood pressure and my cholesterol while never great hasn... Read more

It's like I am outside my body watching me and the me who is outside knows the inside me is in a funk but can't help pull me out of it. I suffer from depression..I know this..I don't take medication because when I exercise everyday..and everyday... Read more

I just wasn't able to get myself back in gear. A sinus infection with 2 rounds of antibiotics to heal it, a vacation to the beach and the July 4th holiday just threw me into a tail spin. I had kept drinking to only Friday nights but found with v... Read more

I have just been having a crappy time of it this week. I can't seem to stay within my 1500 calorie range and I just feel blah..like what's the use? I ate like a pig today snacking on all the junk that is sitting around the office. I made a point... Read more

I have been thinking about what is motivating me, especially since I blew it big time over Easter and have been struggling to get back on track. I have started out strong these last 3 days but when I get home and am staring into a basket filled ... Read more

This is a blog in progress and a tool to keep me motivated!
3/5/07 - a doughnut (offered by a coworker)
3/6/08 - dark chocolate covered pretzels (offered by a coworker)
- chocolate chip cookie (offered by my 10 year old)
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Nathan hugged me the other day. He rested his head on my belly and squeezed as he sighed "Your a beatiful Mommy and I love your fat, it is so cushy" What did he just say??? Did I hear him right?? You love my fat?...this from the child who only l... Read more