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Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Yep, definitely better! I woke up this morning and did some house cleaning. I figured that at the very least I would feel a sense of accomplishment and that always helps the mood! It did. Then I was able to get the money to get my meds refilled & within an hour I already felt more like myself.....aaaahhh....relief!!!! I came back home, turned some music on and whipped up some enchiladas for dinner...YUM-MY!

I've started making a list each morning of things that I'd like to do on a daily basis, as well as things I'd like to accomplish that day. So far I've been able to, at the very least, get motivated to do some things that I have been neglecting. Updating my blog being one. Reading, a long time love of mine which has been sorely neglected, being another. Through all the instability in my life right now I have neglected the one hobby that is my true passion as well; my knitting. *sighs* It is added to my list as well! Now, if I can just make this a habit...

I want to thank all of my wonderful blog-land friends for being so caring and so supportive. I really cannot express how much your friendships mean to me!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Y'all this is one of those days that I just am NOT doing well at all and I just need to vent. With that being said, now is the perfect time for you to stop reading if you don't want to read anything negative today! Being bipolar and out of my meds is not a good thing. Thursday, when I will be able to go buy them, is only a couple more days away, but in the meantime I am having a really rough go of it. I don't know what the hell to do with myself! I got up this morning, had my cup of coffee, ate a fairly sensible breakfast & even journaled it! I made the bed, cleaned the bathroom, made a list of stuff I wanted to accomplish (writing in my blog more regularly being one of them) and thought things were going good...then I had to deal with Wayne invading my personal space earlier and that was all she wrote! It was like a light switch....I went into total panic attack, an uncontrollable crying fit & hating that I have no control over my emotions! I feel like I need to do something but I just don't freaking have a clue what!! I am at such a loss, begging for God to help me....please!!! I have so many positive things that I want to tell you all about and just can't right now...why can't I just be normal so that I can focus on those positives and be ok. Logically I know that would be the most effective way to handle my feelings right now, but it just doesn't work like that for me...aaarrrgggghhhh!!!

Ok, end of my crybaby ranting now. To those of you that read it all, thank you my friends, and I am sorry this wasn't a perky post.I sure do love y'as!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Hello my friends! Just a little bit of news about my personal situation. Still dating casually, haven't clicked with anyone enough to date consistently yet, but that is really a good thing for right now. I've never just dated; I always went from one relationship to another. This is truly a nice change.

I got approved for help with housing! I am so excited! Now it's just a matter of waiting for availability. Waiting is so hard for me. I am NOT a patient person! LOL

Last night I was up and down throughout the night coughing & with a sore throat; fun-fun. I was told that it was probably because the pollen count is so high here right now. Maybe, who knows. I just hope whatever it is, it's over soon!

Since I didn't get much sleep last night, I'm feeling pretty drug down today, so I'm just taking it easy. I had a request to make a hacky-sack for someone, so I'm crocheting one today. It's about time I got my hands working on something. I've been so preoccupied lately that I haven't taken the time to knit (or crochet) at all. Here's my progress so far....