Last night was a hell night for me. At the edge of sleep I woke up to that horrid wide-awake place. After which there was pain so bad that sleep, if I could have found it, was out of the question anyway.

Today I am barely functional.

It goes like that sometimes.

I’ll try and catch a nap today, and then brace myself for tonight. Or plan to be awake anyway and have a good book to read, a meditation to do, or some other welcome distraction.

It’s been a long while since I had a night like last night. They used to be a regular thing. So I know I’m improving. Gee, I HAVE improved so much. But lyme disease and its co-infection friends are still reminding me they’re here.

Truth be told I’m a bit over it today. A bit cranky. A bit disgruntled. A bit disappointed because of all the things I’d planned for today that will undoubtedly fall by the wayside now.

On the upside? The moon was beautiful last night, and the air, after all our recent rain, was sweet and cool and earth-scented.

To watch the transit of moon and stars across the dark bowl of the sky was a decent consolation prize.

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About Cauldrons and Cupcakes

Hi! I'm Nicole Cody. I am a writer, psychic, metaphysical teacher and organic farmer. I love to read, cook, walk on the beach, dance in the rain and grow things. Sometimes, to entertain my cows, I dance in my gumboots. Gumboot dancing is very under-rated.

9 thoughts on “One of those nights…”

My God Nicole, even in your slightly delirious state, you can still write beautifully – you have a gift.
Sorry the night was so tough – the full moon dose make all those gut bacteria and otherwise party.

Every right to feel cranky and downright pissed-off I reckon – sounds positively lousy. Praying this period of ‘tough healing’ passes quickly – incredible how far you’ve come! Sending you much love and light from me, and doggie smooches and excessive tail wagging from Dudley xxx

Cool, thick green blades of grass I send for your feet
Scented warm waters and a scattering of crystals I prepare for you
Chai tea with a slice of orange to ease loops of thought
The love of man and dogs to cloak you
May there be some aspects of the moon tonight that are
friend not foe
May body have reprieve

Happy Full Moon, Sweet Spirit ! I just wanted to let you know you were in my thoughts and I will be sending you healing energies of gratitude tonight Nicole. I made a batch of your ‘Easy Tomato and Onion Gravy’, tonight as a ‘celebration’ of the full Moon. I think anything can be made sacred with intention, and so I thank you for this great healthy and simple affirmation of Love and Light, that is ‘disguised’ as a simple recipe. Thank you for your knowledge and your sharing AND making it enjoyable and wonderous and magical 😉 I made this batch of healing Love last summer with our home grown tomatoes, which are the best….this time using store bought, vine ripened. I just wanted to share that I just came in the kitchen from watching the full moon here in northern Saskatchewan, the house smells of your simple incantation for Love and Healing…..Thank You!