Wednesday, April 29, 2009

My soul yearns for the simple.. So I am spending time reflecting on things that make me happy. A walk on the beach, a walk in the woods, a walk hand and hand with whom my heart and soul yearns to be with. Walking in silence, and enjoying the company of God.Here is a poem written by one of our greatest poets to go with my mood.

A Dream Pangby: Robert Frost

I had withdrawn in forest, and my songWas swallowed up in leaves that blew alway;And to the forest edge you came one day*This was my dream) and looked and pondered long,But did not enter, though the wish was strong:you shook your pensive head as who should say,'I dare not--to far in his footsteps stray-He must seek me would he undo the wrong.'

Not far, but near, I stood and saw it allbehind low boughs the trees let down outside;And the sweet pang it cost me not to callAnd tell you that I saw does still abide.But 'tis not true that thus I dwelt aloof,For the wood wakes, and you are here for proof.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Today was the perfect day for walking on the beach. While walking I allowed my soul to be quiet, which allowed my spirit to soar. The ocean always helps me feel closer to God. I always feel such awe at that feeling I get when I am at the ocean.

I found this poem this afternoon, and thought it perfect for how I felt today as I walked along the shore.

Sonnet #43, From the PortugueseHow do I love thee? Let me count the ways.

I love thee to the depth and breadth and heightMy soul can reach, when feeling out of sightFor the ends of Being and ideal Grace.I love thee to the level of everyday'sMost quiet need, by sun and candlelight.I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.I love thee with passion put to useIn my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.I love thee with a love I seemed to loseWith my lost saints, - I love thee with the breath,Smiles, tears, of all my life! - and, if God choose,I shall but thee better after death.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Here, is my latest painting. It is a very personal painting, because it is painting of myself. I am calling this work "Full Of Beauty".

I saw an image in my mind of total freedom in being me. I have always been so self cautious of my weight gain over the years. A weight gain caused by emotional trauma and physical health issues.

I feel God has slowly been showing me that no matter the size of the woman they can be seen as beautiful.

This painting will be one of emotional growth in seeing the beautiful lady that God created. I also hope that it will be an expression of shedding many layers of emotional baggage and show casing that I am a survivor!

I am showing myself walking into the ocean and dropping a towel, allowing it to slide slowly down into the sea..a symbol of the baggage being shed that i have carried through out the years.

The reason I chose a sunrise for the sky is because it is a representation of a fresh start, and new beginnings.

This is the first time i have painted the human form, and i acutally chose to paint myself. Go figure.... lol

I like to let God guide me when i paint, and this was the time to paint this.

As always i love feedback on my works. It helps me to grow not only in my work but spiritually.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Because I have not been feeling very well of late I haven't been doing much in painting. Now that I am feeling so much better I am able to do what I love! Here is the very first stage in the new painting I am working on. As you see in the 1st stage it needs lots of work still, but thought you would like to follow me on this latest journey in creating another one of my visions. I still need to even out the sea line, and work on the ocean, as well as paint the main reason for this painting.

In the 2nd stage, the sea is more even, and the water looks more real. There is more movement. I have added more to the sand, making it appear as if the water has been pulling in. I am now going to move to the third stage.

I am hoping I am able to paint myself. I saw an image in my mind of total freedom in being me. I have always been so self cautious of my weight gain over the years. A weight gain caused by emotional trauma and physical health issues.

I feel God has slowly been showing me that no matter the size of the woman they can be seen as beautiful.

This painting will be one of emotional growth in seeing the beautiful lady that God created. I also hope that it will be an expression of shedding many layers of emotional baggage and show casing that I am a survivor!

I will be painting myself walking into the ocean and dropping a towel, allowing it to slide slowly down into the sea..a symbol of the baggage being shed that i have carried through out the years.

The reason I chose a sunrise for the sky is because it is a representation of a fresh start, and new beginnings.

I hope you enjoy watching the stages as they take place. Hopefully as I progress in this painting I will not be to shy to post the painting.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Today my family is on my mind. My mom and dad in particular. Growing up we listened to music a lot. Between Conway Twitty songs that my mother sang, and Johnny Cash songs that my dad sang.. I am in a remembering mood. Smiling and enjoying the memories i had with my parents.

I love you both! Some day Mom I will see you again. Dad... Someday soon i hope to see you, hugging you close!

Friday, April 17, 2009

I am up once again with only a few hours sleep, but laughing with my friend Tart on chat, what a nice surprise. I showed her the test results I took on facebook that made me go wow! The results fit me to a tee. Tart and I thought I should share it here on my blog. So here goes.

Tracy completed the quiz "What is your theme song?" with the result George Straight -I Saw God Today.You've got a new sense of a supernatural love in your life. You've begun to notice the little things that have been specifically placed in your life, just to make you smile. You are at peace with yourself and the world. Good for you!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

You ever just need to sing?? And sing out loud while you dance??? I have to sing today, I have to dance. I need to get this energy out of my body and soul. I am running on tiredness, running on nerves, and just flat out running....

Sometimes a special song gets stuck in ones head and helps one relax. I have been singing this song all day.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Sorry all. Due to some nasty anonymous commenter I am putting all my comments on moderation. I am sad to have to do this, however what this person is posting on my blog is unacceptable, and rather disturbing.

Hugs to all my blogger friends. Thank you for all your wonderful support and for blessing my life with your uplifting comments.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

This post is dedicated to the anonymous commenter a few posts down. I mean every word of this song, and proud of it. ( btw it is my right to be proud of my country, and to stand up for what i believe in. Thank heavens for the American way!)

Here is the comment that they left.

Anonymous said... Yes...because you was guildy for that.Do you remember,what you have written in the past in this blog?!You blessed USA or Bush for that what he has done,slaughting innocent people in iraq and afghanistan.

Your rap was your payment for this.

Go to hell,fuckin bitch!!!!!

I have allowed for open comments on my blog, because i do want to hear what people have to say regarding my posts. However that does not mean i am open for abusive language, or mean spirited remarks. I speak openly here about what i believe in, and the morals i have. It is clearly stated on my side bar that I am one who has strong beliefs. I am not going to apologise for my beliefs, or my thoughts. If you have a problem with my blog posts, you are free to not read them.

I will not allow anyone to spout out abusive words to me...... I am proud to be a Christian. I am proud to be a conservative Christian. I am proud to be an American who is a conservative Christian.

My rape was not because of my beliefs. MY RAPE was because some sick person thought RAPE was acceptable. The fact that you mr. or mrs. anonymous would think rape was ok for any reason and has to hide behind anonymous... (just shows your character btw) Stop reading my blog.. Or at least have the decency to show yourself.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Hi all. I have been dealing with a new medicine my doctor has wanted me to try. The medicine has been messing up my sleeping patterns. Some nights I have not slept at all. Other nights i sleep a few hours. So i am rather sleep deprived. All in all I feel rather punchy and have not been able to think. I have not wanted to post or talk with to many because i am not making a lot of sense. Thank you everyone who has commented on the posts below. I am blessed to have so many who care about me.

I do want to wish all my friends a very happy Easter though, and post a video a friend of mine sent via email. I hope you find it as uplifting and inspiring as i have! No matter what we all may be dealing with in our lives, we need to remember never to give up! We need to keep getting back up when we are knocked down, and move forward. There is always hope.

I will be reading and catching up on all your posts soon my blogger friends. Just as soon as i can think again clearly.

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I am a woman who is a wife, a mother, and an artist. I have a deep faith in Jesus and try to show this in all that I do. I have a few illnesses that I struggle with, but i try not to focus on them. This website is a place for me to just be me and share what ever might inspire me during my day.
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America Is Good.

2.

I believe in God and He is the Center of my Life.

God “The propitious smiles of Heaven can never beexpected on a nation that disregards the eternal rulesof order and right which Heaven itself has ordained.”from George Washington’s first Inaugural address.

3.

I must always try to be a more honest personthan I was yesterday.

Honesty “I hope that I shall always possess firmnessand virtue enough to maintain what I consider tobe the most enviable of all titles, the characterof an honest man.” George Washington

4.

The family is sacred. My spouse and I are theultimate authority, not the government.

Marriage/Family “It is in the love of one’s family onlythat heartfelt happiness is known. By a law of our nature, we cannot be happy without the endearing connections of a family.” Thomas Jefferson

5.

If you break the law you pay the penalty.Justice is blind and no one is above it.

Justice “I deem one of the essential principles of ourgovernment… equal and exact justice to all men of whatever state or persuasion, religious or political.” Thomas Jefferson

6.

I have a right to life, liberty and pursuit ofhappiness, but there is no guarantee of equalresults.

Life, Liberty, & The Pursuit of Happiness “Everyone has a natural right to choose that vocationin life which he thinks most likely to give him comfortablesubsistence.” Thomas Jefferson

7.

I work hard for what I have and I will share it withwho I want to. Government cannot force me to becharitable.

Charity “It is not everyone who asketh that deservethcharity; all however, are worth of the inquiry or thedeserving may suffer.” George Washington

8.

It is not un-American for me to disagree withauthority or to share my personal opinion.

On your right to disagree “In a free and republicangovernment, you cannot restrain the voice of themultitude; every man will speak as he thinks, or moreproperly without thinking.” George Washington

9.

The government works for me. I do not answer tothem, they answer to me.

Who works for whom? “I consider the people whoconstitute a society or a nation as the source of allauthority in that nation.” Thomas Jefferson