KEN”S STORY CONTINUES 11/18/10

I’m not sure if it’s anger or fear that eats at me the most. Jail for me was a nightmare and a half! I’m have mutably bad disc in my back plus heart damage from 3 heart attacks so I’m always tired just to start with. In Jail there was no place to just sit down except the floor.N is padded. I was in so much pain I would pray for ibuprofen pills but it was like putting a band aid on an amputation. The VA give’s pills that I have to cut in half. I Tried to tell the staff…. the first week I was incarcerated, I spent overdosing on heart medicine as well as my blood sugar medication. I guess they read the bottle sometime after the first full week or maybe it was the low blood pressure and or the low blood sugars that might have hinted at it. They told me they wouldn’t show me running a fever because then I would be on lock down. I was grateful for that. The fear of return to this is unbelievable! There is no defending myself. I can barely walk. All I can do is go from wall to wall. When we had the chance to go outside it was all I could do was sit in the sun. My back was hurting playing basketball or weight lifting was out of the question. With this being the loving arms of the County what is grown up jail going to be for me. Then there’s the question what happen to my benefits???? Will I lose my VA and SSI??? What happens to my family??? If I can keep them… then what????? You see… here they charge you $58.00 a day times 14 days to stay in their jail. Plus they charged me for every blood test and every pill for the treatment on my toe. After I was order to pick up and carry my bed and clothing from one cell block to the other. I dropped the bed on my toe. So there’s paying for that. Then the Lawyer’s $3000. then the fine is $5000-$20000. I live on my VA plus a small amount SSI. I have no idea were that’s coming from. Just because the State of Mo. thinks it better for me to be strung out on Morphine rather then smoking a joint?????? We’ll more then likely lose our home.What ever happens in the court, we plan to move once I’m free from the state. We want to move out to Co Spring it keeps us in driving distance from our family. It’s both happy and sad. When I was fighting to get my VA benefits we came very close to becoming homeless. When thing were at there worst we dreamed about having this home.It sad to think of moving. However the neighbors have made it known they think we should move.