Cold Stare

Just friends we’d say but we were getting so close
I’d be on phone with you or think of you all day long.
Totally inseparable until the evening my lips froze
Ever since, busy you’d pretend, recording your song.
Despite your ignorance, thinking you’d be uncomfortable too,
Month later I give u a buzz and you tell how bad at it was I,
Wish you’d understand I was so scared, nothing I could do
Totally non committal you were; love, u said, was a far cry.
And all this while as I missed you, my heart used to ache,
I would curse myself and dream of how things would have been new
Trust me baby I’d given up anything, for just a kiss retake,
Would have been in your arms, was waiting desperately for your cue.
Now I mourn, the years I spent loving you, as you trampled my heart.
Unfazed how’d feel you say “babe get over it, it was just a mistake,
Don’t spoil our friendship; also I am dating this gal, she’s really smart”
To my face, and all those moments together suddenly seemed so fake.
My life’s already falling apart; it’s hard to believe you’re gone.
Trying hard but I get so bored with everyone around, feel I no longer belong,
I don’t know how to really console myself, how to really move on
Because am Afraid to fall in love again, someone like you might come along.

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A warm welcome to PoetrySoup I offer to you today Ada. I wish for you the best in your writing endeavors whatever they may be. Hoping you find even more inspiration by reading some of the poetry written here by other poets. Thank you for sharing your writing with us. Love, Carol