What you can't say owns you. What you hide controls you. I am no longer ashamed of my depression. So this is my blog, sometimes chaotic and most of the time random but always real. Literally, my life in a nut shell.

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Friday, January 31, 2014

New Coping Skills are Definitely in Order

Learning to love and accept myself was really hard this week with all the stress I have been experiencing. Thanks to a beautiful Bipolar angry, teenage drama queen with Borderline Personality Disorder to keep me on my toes.

But I am making it, one minute, one hour, one day at a time.

I love her unconditionally, more than she realizes, more than she probably wants me too. I love my daughter more than anyone else. Yet, she has truly tested me this week. She made me doubt my own worth, my love for myself, and made me doubt my self-acceptance.

But I wake another day to face the challenges thrown at me, one minute, one hour, one day at a time.

I have got to come up with some better, different coping skills. I need to be ready, ready for anything. I have to remain strong. She needs me no matter how hard she tries to push me away.

But I will continue to get back up everytime I fall, one minute, one hour, one day at a time.

My wish for myself and for you this weekend is peace, love, and plenty of awesome coping skills.
Maybe some Klonopin and a stiff drink (but not necessary together...Geez I would be knocked out ;p) might be in order this weekend for me while I think up some new ways to cope with my issues, my daughters' issues, and life itself.

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Still Trying to be Madly in Love with Me all the While
Battling Major Depression and Anxiety and Loving my Daughter who Suffers from
Mental Illness as well.

7 comments:

My son has aspergers and I know as a mom dealing with his emotional issues can really take a toll. I am ALWAYS looking for new coping skills. LOL ALWAYS. It is like a juggling act and as a parent I feel overwhelmed and like a failure because somedays I just can't hand him. But then I joke about developing a drinking problem, take a deep breath and go to bed to face it all another day.

Mental health issues with a child aren't the only thing that can have you feeling that way...Like Mindie, I have one teenage son with aspergers, and both kids have Juvenile Arthritis. The meds often cause mood swings and personality changes that are nothing short of incredible. (I even blogged about that very thing over at Everyday Health this week: http://www.everydayhealth.com/columns/kimberly-poston-miller-the-juvenile-arthritis-mom/how-to-handle-your-chronically-ill-childs-temper-tantrums/) I guess I'm trying to say, you aren't alone-I've been there too (regularly) and feel your pain. I wish I could reach through and give you a cyberhug, because it sounds like you need one. One foot in front of the other, because doesn't the saying go something like this: Our track record getting though bad days is still 100%? Every day is a new day, and thank goodness every bad day comes to an end in 24 hours :)