So I go through the effort of picking through pictures of me growing up because my T wants to look at some childhood pictures with me. I understand, he's looking for things that might bring up at least body memories. I go against my better judgement and take them to my session last night. And my T decided he really didn't want to look at pictures right then, he has other things he wanted to discuss.

Am I wrong in feeling short-changed?? I don't know if I feel more let-down or re-abused. And since the anger and desire to act out are both pretty much even right now - it could be either. Or maybe both.

Wow Mark. One of my worst nightmares. I entirely understand feeling shortchanged and invalidated. I agree w/Blue and Scott.

I don't know the T's intentions, but it seems the last damn thing you need is more invalidation. Especially if it's careless.

At the very least - yeah, I know you feel like quitting - please go back to the T, tell him exactly how you feel about it and see his reaction. Frankly, if it's more invalidation, I'd walk. Simply, some T's aren't equipped to deal with CSA. And, frankly, despite letters after their names, some aren't equipped to even be in the business.

Fortunately, you're in Denver and there are probably plenty of choices out there. Heal well, brother.

Hey MarkK, Don't quit T, just quit THAT T. I've seen a few lame, thoughtless therapists and two REALLY good ones that are worth their weight in gold. The payoff from work with a T who clicks with you is HUGE, at least in my experience.

I also find that alot of T don't seem to grasp just how hard it is to follow their advice. And how if they diverge from the preset techniques and structure I at least get really messed up. Even the smallest tangent like postponing an appointment for 24 hours has a big impact on my mood and capacity to be an active participant in the process. I need them to follow all the steps they lay out, lest I too start to diverge and miss appointment when it then becomes a downward spiral.

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