Why don't you be the artist and make me out of clay?
Why don't you be the writer and decide the words I say?

Monday, May 19, 2008

Well, forgive me for being emo, but there are just some things in my life that people aren't worthy enough to hear about. No one should even know about it. There are just some things that a human can't take altogether. It may be funny to some people, like, "Who cares about your blog? ... You're so lame, haha! ... I could use this for entertainment when I'm bored! ... You need to get a life, man!" Like, yeah, whatever... Even now, some idiots in the world don't understand the meaning of sarcasm, and some just don't understand, don't listen. Then again, God bless those for being idiots, or the population of the world will be halved... Or even quartered...

So, yeah... There's nothing left to say. 'Cause everything's just been dashed and all you hear is "OMG! ... What happened?! ... Are you okay? ... Be happy! ... Cheer up!" I don't think these phrases carry much meaning anymore.

Why do we like to hurt so much...

Maybe it's for the fun of it... There's, like, someone just pulling the strings and confusing everyone, changing their lives, changing the people around them. Then all of a sudden, something just sheds light on our own lives, and it dawns on us that someone else has been pulling the wrong strings all along, and somehow has gotten them tangled up, and we blame the puppeteer for it... 'Cause we don't treasure what we have, and by tangling up our own strings, we've strayed away from our own purposes. But I know, my Puppeteer will always untangle my strings, whenever it happens, wherever I am, whatever I do...

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There's always this light bulb that suddenly turns on, like, *FLASH*... With the *ding* and all. Maybe we've been blaming the wrong person... Maybe we've been fooled by the same person, but made it seem like it was coming from everywhere...

It'll always hurt when it hits you in the face. You'll remember the action, more than the pain itself, and from then on, you just don't get it. You keep trying, but you always get pushed down. You get up, and you stumble some more. Always that way, isn't it? You face so many disappointments, people don't understand what you're going through, they give off fake sympathy, they just act around you... There's no more sincerity in their words anymore... No meaning... And even if they do mean what they say... No one believes them anymore... 'Cause it's too late to undo what damage has been caused, and not even words can fix it, sometimes...

What we all want is to be happy and content with what we have. With what we want, we lose focus of what we already have... But we always ask for more. There's no limit to what we want. And in the end, it'll destroy us. It'll cause us unnecessary pain, hurt, suffering, misunderstanding... Is that what we really want...?

I want to give up on what I want, on a personal level. I really do. And I think it's not a very hard thing to do. Sometimes, you just have to accept what's done is done... You can't change what has already been set. Just like how you can't control when the Sun rises, or when you lose somebody... It's not fair, it never is. But that's just the way it is... You can't change what's been laid out for you, you're just human. Nothing in this world should change because you say so. It goes according to what He says. And what He says, goes.

And all I had was the memory of what was, so let's pretend it never mattered to us...

the origin.8:50 PM

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Well, this post is actually more of a summary of what I've done over the past week or so...

Watched "Speed Racer"... The best show of all times!!! Love this show so much!!! <3

Watched "E.T."... Bought the VCD.

Won Talentime English Solo Vocals (everyone's already blogged about it and I haven't, and it's been a week already...)

House Comm. for Sports' Meet.

Bought 2 new pairs of jeans.

Got a curfew... (7 p.m.)

Got the song "That's What You Get" by Paramore.

Reached school at 6:15 a.m. (Sports' Meet...)

CTYF musical practice.

Found Murong's husky for her... XD We went through the wrong bag at first... So embarrassing... Hahah...

Cooked mutton curry with Uncle Keith...

Ate Bakerzin at Paragon...

Things I'm gonna do for the next week or so...

Return the library book that's due on Tuesday

Go to Su Jia's house for PW project

Go to school on Wesak Day

Go to school

Go to school

Go to school

Go to school

Book my bus ticket back to Malaysia...

Go to SIBKL church on Sunday... (Finally!!!)

Go to NSt, too...

Study Chemical Bonding and maybe Econs, too...

Buy a phone pouch...

Buy more VCD's/DVD's...

Top up my EZ-Link card...

Duplicate my keys...

Forget about you...

Wow... Okay, that's not really alot...

Anyway, anyone who's reading, please pray for Mandy, she's in the hospital down with a viral infection... So, yeah, hope that she'll be fine, or that she is fine, and that she'll be discharged soon, and she'll be back home ASAP... Also, pray that she'll get a good offer from NUS, which is Law... We all pray hard she'll get into NUS Law!!!

Mandy...

GET WELL SOON AND GOOD LUCK FOR THE INTERVIEW! <3

the origin.10:26 PM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What have you realised recently? That I have more time to study now that Talentime is over!

2. Have you given your first kiss away?No...

3. If you are able to choose two super powers, what would you choose?Super speed and super strength (bad combination, never goes together...)4.Where is the place that you want to go the most?Some place where I can be alone... :)

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?The day that Jesus would come down and save us all...

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?I have seen rainbows a few times...

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?Everything...

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?Keep half of it for my family, and donate the rest for World Vision...

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?Maybe... Maybe not...

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.My sister is smart, pretty, and she would never, ever, ever betray my trust.... :D

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?Understanding and must be able to sing well! XD

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?Fake people...

13. What is the one thing you cannot live without?God... And music... They're two things, but God created music, so obviously, I can't live without God!

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?Tell me only if I trust you not to tell anyone else and let the whole world know...

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?God. Most definitely.

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?No...

17. What is your favorite childhood nickname? The Niece. (Though when people call me that all the time, I get annoyed very quickly...)

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?My low self-esteem, and my tendency to do or say things without thinking first.

19. Whats the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?When I received first prize for English Vocal Solo in Talentime.20. Would you wish to change the world?Only if it would cease all the suffering and war.

I TAG:

BenjaminBrandonDenise TanIezahPei LingPhilipSu JiaZakiah

the origin.10:47 PM

Monday, May 5, 2008

Okay, one of the freakiest things happened... Well, I had alot of SMS-es about urgent meetings and all for Talentime, so, yeah, obviously I had to attend... Well, we got some things straightened out, and imagine, someone wanted to do HSM2's "All For One"... I, for one, think HSM2 is GAY... Seriously...

Yeah, after that me, Sangee and Pearlyn went for dinner nearby, and this drunk dude starts talking to us in Mandarin, and me and Sangee were real blur, 'cause we couldn't understand a word he said. Well, thanks to Pearlyn, at least he wasn't insulting us. Anyway, he tried to like, "predict our future". So yeah, Pearlyn was supposedly going to be a movie star, Sangee, a doctor, and I, a teacher... Then, there're these two Indian guys at the next table, and they're like, either staring at us, or laughing at us... '=.=

Weird... And the thing is, I couldn't answer him, nor could I understand what he said, but somehow, he just kept talking and talking and talking, and poor Pearlyn in the end couldn't finish her food 'cause she was too busy translating for us... Also, we were dying to leave, so, yeah... I'll buy her dinner next time round... :)

But, yeah, it's just so freaky. Suddenly some guy with an empty beer bottle and a full mug of beer tells us he's not drunk and he's not lying to us about our "future" career... Personally, I don't believe him, obviously, 'cause only God knows what I'll be next time. And I trust my fate in God's hands. I'm not gonna listen to some drunkard tell me what I'm gonna be. But at least he didn't try to like, y'know, take advantage...

TALENTIME THIS SATURDAY! MUST PRACTICE!

the origin.9:28 PM

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Great... I'm stuck with Zhi Wen... Who in the world is Zhi Wen?! o.o

Yes, Talentime ranting again... We're doing this song for the Finale, and I got paired up with this Zhi Wen guy... Apparently, he's very good. Well, not 'very', but he's good. He won some previous Talentime competition. Not sure which one, but, yeah, that's what they told me... >.> So, yeah. I hope he's not very difficult to work with... Why couldn't we do something else... Imagine, dancing at the same time, while singing the chorus... OMG, I'll be too tired to do anything else... The pitch is like, really high! Ack... My poor throat... >.<

the origin.10:48 PM

Thursday, May 1, 2008

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine. I got a love, and I know that it's all mine. Oh.

Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me. Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me. No.

Take me away: A secret place. A sweet escape: Take me away.

Take me away to better days. Take me away: A higher place.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine. I got a love, and I know that it's all mine. Oh.

Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me. Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me. No.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine. I got a love, and I know that it's all mine. Oh.

Wish that you could, but you ain't gonna own me. Do anything you can to control me. Oh, no.

Take me away: A secret place. A sweet escape: Take me away.

Take me away to better days. Take me away: A higher place.

There's a place that I go, But nobody knows. Where the rivers flow, And I call it home.

And there's no more lies. In the darkness, there's light. And nobody cries. There's only butterflies.

Take me away: A secret place. A sweet escape: Take me away.

Take me away to better days. Take me away: A higher place.

Take me away: A secret place. A sweet escape: Take me away.

Take me away to better days. Take me away: A higher place.

Take me away: A secret place. To better days take me away.

Take me away to better days. Take me away: A higher place.

The sun is on my side. Take me for a ride. I smile up to the sky. I know I'll be all right.

The sun is on my side. Take me for a ride. I smile up to the sky. I know I'll be all right.

-Pocketful Of Sunshine, Natasha Bedingfield

This is one of my new favourite songs! I heard it on American Idol, 'cause she was a guest star on the show, and when I heard it, I was caught up in the tune immediately!!! It reminded me of Africa, for some reason... Like, hop springing forth to children. After watching the video and looking at the lyrics, I just felt something, but I don't know what it is... But I feel inspired to do something... Maybe next time I'll do something in that area. Not really missions, but do something for the children in need... I feel like it =P Maybe it's God's calling! XD Pocketful of sunshine... I need that... =)

the origin.9:56 PM

These are the movies I'm DYING to watch:-

Speed Racer

Iron Man

Yeah, these are the two movies I really want to see! Anyway, I was watching the trailers for Speed Racer, and I remember watching the cartoon, Speed Racer as a kid. Look at the comparison between the old and the new...VS

Yeah, check out the total difference. Maybe 'cause it's the fact that a cartoon shall always remain a cartoon, and an actor will always remain alive, until he dies of cancer, or some incurable disease... Omg, lame... '-.-

Anyway, I love his car! I wouldn't mind getting one like that... If I could drive... And if only there was such a car like that available in Malaysia, or Singapore... But I'd be crazy to drive a convertible in such a hot country. And now, since the weather hasn't been too kind on the poor people of Singapore, it's like blazing hot! Thank God we installed the air-cond in the living room just in time... Phewh... Anyway, about the car...

This car, the Mach 5, is obviously Speed's car. Yeah, his name was actually Speed Racer... But in Japanese it was Go Mifune... Right... Yeah, an original Japanese manga turned anime turned American (1967) turned Japanese (1997) turned English kids show on Cartoon Network. Yeah, we watched it on Cartoon Network, back when Dexter's Laboratory was one of the best cartoons I have ever watched in my entire life. Also, original. And I miss those times... *Sigh*

So, today, I got the Clarinova for my performance for Talentime. I'm able to stand and play at the same time. Yay! Thanks loads to Uncle Terry, who's always trying to get me to smile >.> Yes, I've mentioned it before, but... Bahh, I was happy, I mean, I am happy! Yay, Clarinova... And it's awesome. Hahah, it's not like, funky or anything, it's like a normal keyboard, but 'cause I've got everything, the stand, the sustain pedal, and obviously the power plug... D-uh...

Thanks to those who're supporting me for Talentime, and I don't think I would've made it this far without you guys! Especially my friends, and classmates, and of course, not forgetting my dear EG members!. BUT I haven't won the competition, and I'm not sure I'll even win it. So, I'll leave my fate to God. I'm quite preparing myself for getting third or second. I mean, since there's only like, three of us, so I'm definitely guaranteed a placing XDSo now, I just have to keep practicing and practicing and practicing and practicing and practicing, and maybe if I practice hard enough, Clement Chua wouldn't have to play for me! That will take his mind off like, everything connected to me. Cheers, to the awesome EG VP and IMBA piano player! You rock, Clement!