Ah! So “spoons” must be an idiom, not literally meaning those metal things you eat with. Now, what does “ESE” mean? A web search turns up things like “East south-east” and “European society of endodontists” but I don’t think that’s what the person meant. Suggested phrases: “I’ve been really interested in that subject for a long time.” “I find the subject fascinating, the complexities of how people’s minds can work.” “I feel a strong motivation to help people in this way.”

realsocialskills said:

I don’t actually know ESE - I assumed from context that it meant something to do with special ed.