Boo
I need to tell you how I feel. You are the biggest regret in my life, not meeting you or loving you, but the fact I walked away from my best friend, my soul mate.
I’m haunted by memories and often see you in my dreams, most end the same way- I get you back, to which I then wake deflated as it was just a dream.
Each time i saw you recently- you drove me completely crazy, I just wanted to put my arms around you and embrace you, I felt like I’d found my way home. You have invaded my head for a really long time.
I hate that I can’t figure you out, I know we have both “moved on” but I want you to know that for me it isn’t over, I’m not sure it ever will be.
I understand that this is all my fault, and as I said to you before, that this is something I have to live with, but I promise you it hurts every single day.
I understand what I let go, and I am so sorry for everything I did to you and put you through. You were and will always be my one, and I hope one day we may get past all that I have caused and start again.
But equally I just want you to be happy and be loved in life, so whoever that is with I will be happy for you, you are precious and should be treated like that.

I will understand if you don’t want contact with me, I will always respect your wishes, I do not want to cause you any confusion or hurt- I just wanted you to really know how I feel.

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