The Illusion of Sanity

Gina has a few mental problems. Her last suicide attempt lands her in the a psych ward where she meets Val, a disturbed violent sociopath. Gina can't help but fall into Val's trap.
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I don't belong
here. Why did they dump me here? I hate this room. Every room in
this fucking mental ward has three white walls and one green
wall. Even in my room. One fucking green wall. I don't know how
my parents locked me in here. I'm twenty-four. How did they force
me in here? I serious do not belong here. Everyone thinks I'm
crazy. I'm not crazy, I just hated my life. I hate even more now
that I've been dumped here. Shit. The warden is coming. I have
to go.

The warden walks over to me as I hide my journal
under my pillow. She's in her forties, maybe around forty-five.
She's tall whit long blonde hair that she pulls back into a pony
tail. I'm pretty sure if she wore some makeup she would look
prettier. She grabs my arm and pulls me off the bed. I've been
here for about a week and I haven't left my room. I don't want to
be here. I don't need to be here. She pretty much drags me by my
arm into day room. I don't know why it's called the day room.
It's terrible. There are two small windows that only show you the
places you can't go. We aren't allowed outside. There are three
recliners and a couch. In front of them is an old television set
with bunny ear on top. It only three channels. There's a group of
people surrounding the TV. On the other side of the room are two
tables. Each table has four chairs. The warden shoves me into the
room and leaves. I sit down at one of the tables. I cross my arms
and watch everyone in the room. There are no men on this floor.
They separate the men and women. They don't want us having sex
and reproducing mentally screw up children. They don't want any
of us to breed.

A nurse reenters the room with another woman. There
are two nurses following behind her. She's holding the woman by
her arm. The nurse throws her down in a chair at the other table.
She has short choppy blonde hair and is wearing men's clothing.
She is smiling but it's not a happy smile. It's more like an evil
smile.

"It's good to be back!" She exclaims while falling
into the chair. She spins around in the chair. "Woo!" The warden
walks over to her. She reaches her hand out and stops the chair
from spinning. The warden forces the woman to look at her. "Hi
warden." She says.

"Hello Valerie."

"Val!" She snaps back.

"Your name is Valerie and you are a woman. You will
act like it!" The warden demands. I wonder why she's here. She
seems like a total sociopath. I really want to talk to her. I
feel like I could relate to her.

"It's funny you think I'm scared of you." She flashes
another smile at the warden. That evil sociopathic smile.

"If you ever try to escape again I will lock you in
solitary!" Valerie/Val begins to laugh. It's such an evil laugh.

"Empty threats warden." She says while still smiling
and slightly laughing. The warden slaps her.

"FUCKING BITCH!" She yells while jumping out of the
chair at the warden. They both fall to the ground. It takes three
nurses to pull her off the warden.

"TAKE HER TO SOLITARY!" The warden screams. Everyone
is looking over to them. The three nurses drag Valerie/Val out of
the room as she screams and calls the warden every name she can
think of. The warden whips her head around at us and everyone
looks away. Some woman walks up to me and sits down next to me.

"Hi!" She says a little too enthusiastically.

"Hi." My voice is flat.

"I'm Nancy!" There is so much enthusiasm in her
voice. It's starting to bother me. She seems too happy to be in a
place like this. There has to be a really good reason why she's
here. Maybe she's here because she's too happy. Is that possible?
Can they lock you up in a mental ward if you're too happy? She
just stares at me. She's waiting for me to respond, to tell her
my name. I really wish the warden would've just left me in my
room.

"Who was that girl?" I ask. I really want to know
more about her.

"That's Val." Another girl says. She walks away from
the TV and over to me. She sits down next to Nancy. "She's a
lesbian."

"A lesbian?" I've never met a lesbian before. That
kind of thing isn't talked about. I didn't know they locked them
up in mental wards. Guess you learn something new every day. How
do you help someone become straight? Is it possible to bring them
back? This place is so fucking confusing. The other woman nods.

"The warden hates her. She's always trying to
escape." I need to talk to her. Maybe she can help get me out of
here.

"So, she's here because she's a lesbian?"

"She's also a violent sociopath." I whip my head
around to see another woman behind me. Everyone keeps walking up
to me. It's like they think this is some meet and greet picnic.

"Who are you people?" I would really like to know who
I'm talking to.

"I'm Diane." The woman sitting next to Nancy says.

"I'm Robin." The other woman says. "Who are you?" I
pause. I don't want these freaks to know my name but they told me
theirs. I guess I have no choice but to tell them.