So i went to the interview for the Real World today. I am so not as crazy as the other people so I am sure I didn't make it but we'll see. You find out at 9pm today I think he said if you make it to the next round. Even if I don't, at least I can say I tried!

So this afternoon I wasn't in a great mood as Sundays sometimes get me down. I really wanted to go out for lunch or for a walk but everyone was busy so I decided to go for a walk by myself which is fine and fun sometimes. I parked on Bidwell kinda near elmwood and then walked down elmwood to allen, then down allen to like the Days Park and Kleinhan's area and walked around there, and then back up Allen til Pearl, then down Pearl and down towards downtown more. And then back up Franklin/Linwood and back to my car. It was quite a long walk , maybe like 2, 2/5 hours which would have been fine because sometimes you just need that when you want to clear your head. Here's the glitch, I was stupidly wearing a new pair of flip flops. By the time I realized the pain I was as far as I possibly could have been from my car. My feet were sooo torn up and full of blisters and in pain now. It really really hurts. Thankfully I got a little respite when I stopped at the 44 and (e:carey) was on the porch and so I was able to sit for a bit and go in and get a glass of water (and my wallett which I left the night before). The wallet actually became an issue and I had to carry it instead of putting it in my pocket, because as some of you may know, My wallet has about 1.2 million cards in it, and my pants are a little big on me which equals pants falling down every two seconds when wallet is in pocket. So I had to carry it. Did I mention my feet hurt so bad?

Then spent some quality sun catching time lying at Delware park with (e:beast) and (e:maureen). I relaly realized I need glasses when (e:beast) pointed out a cute dog and I was like oh he is so cute, and then she was like um you aren't looking in the right direction. As it turns out what I saw as a cute dog was actually a little kid. Eh..it happens.

Then me and (e:jill) went to see Vacancy tonight. It was really scary though my threshold for really scary is really low. Reeally I waould classify even a jack in the box as really scary. Anywho we were completely curled up in our seats just from the preview. We don't know why we always go to scary movies as we always get terrified and keep our eyes closed for the majority of it.

It got us thinking about why cell phones never work around scary remote places. And then we were tlaking about how how they have things that block cell phone signals and some theaters and churhces have them. And then we thought what if killers started carrying those around and so you couldn't use your cell phone to call for help. Terrifying isn't i?

And i'll leave you with this pearl....on Nick at Nite right now they have a spoof called Ugly Betty White...and I love it!

How random? As you all know I do not partake in the 4/20 activities as I was the DARE poster child at one point in my life. But randomly my mom bought me the book Puff the Magic Dragon yesterday at a book sale. She was like I remember you used to have this book and loved it and so she bought it yesterdray. And isn't it all about smoking pot. Do you think it is a secret signal that she thinks I am a pot smoker because I am not!

Anywho, Why do I always have to take a situation that I have made super weird over the years and then take it to that next weird level. just the other day I was talking to someone about how I don't think I could make it any weirder but guess what...I FOUND A WAY. A few of you might know what I am talking about....why do I hav to get so creepy sometimes....

The ability to make a weird situation weirder is a gift. Use it wisely, for you can creep the shit out of the lord himself.

metalpeter writes
at 03:59:01 04/21/07 - Comment #17731

Here is where I get Confussed there was the Book, song and movie Puff The Magic Dragon. The Book and The Movie where aimed at kids, but not sure about the song. Was the song first and it inspired the book or was it for the movie that was based on the book. Or was the song first and about spoking up and someone turned it into a kids book? Oh yeah dragons fucking rule and the fact that a dragon could have a little boy as a friend is a little different but still kinda cool.

paul writes
at 01:21:06 04/21/07 - Comment #17727

YA, what the heck are you talking about.

mk writes
at 12:30:48 04/21/07 - Comment #17725

I don't think I know what you're talking about...and I'm intrigued...

Remember when you wrote a journal about how you joined a club that lots of people have been a part of for years, and I totally figured that you meant like, a fan club or book club? Remember what you were actually talking about? hahahha

They are having an open casting call in Buffalo for the Real World. They are looking for people who want to live in a big city and work in the entertainment industry such as fashion, television, movies etc. OMG i think i have to go. I have always wanted to be on the Real World. I am sure I won' tget on cuz I am not interesting nor exciting or crazy but how can I let this opportunity pass me by. What will I say? I'm sure I will come across as really boring but maybe not. Maybe I shouldn't have posted it here cuz now my competetion might increase.

i did that once, way back when...only because it was for the london one. i had to fill out a 15 page application, then wait in line for 2 hours to sit in a giant red chair next to a mickey mouse phone, look into a blinding light with a giant camera behind it and tell them why to pick me.

i think you'd be a fun character. make sure you tell them how you take your clothes off the more drunk you get...they like that!

metalpeter writes
at 05:50:53 04/18/07 - Comment #17636

I think (e:Mike) and (e:lilho) would be perfect but I'm not a casting director. I could also see (e:ladycroft) and (e:theecarey) being on the show. I wouldn't want to be on reality TV. But I do want to look into more and find out all the details. I know one of the guys with MTV is from Buffalo. That is why they did the Frat and Soriety house shows in Buffalo. But I wonder if they are going every where for auditions instead of people sending in tapes or if they will film it here and want one local person. I think what they have allways done before is pick a city to film and then select people to send to that location and none of them are from that city. Oh anyone who's name I didn't mention it isn't a put down or anything. It is just that those 4 (e:peeps) stick out as being good for the show or people I think would realy like the experiance.

museumchick writes
at 08:52:16 04/18/07 - Comment #17615

You should go for it! It's worth trying out for.

mrmike writes
at 08:04:02 04/18/07 - Comment #17614

Go for it. You are definitely not boring. I can see it now: "This is the true story.....when an (e:peep) stops being polite."

jenks writes
at 02:15:48 04/18/07 - Comment #17612

of course you have to go! nothing to lose! You would totally be my favorite charactor on the Real World. And I think you are definitely interesting, exciting, and crazy. And you don't come across as really boring. go for it!

I can't believe that no one has mentioned that LARRY IS ANNA NICOLE'S BABY DADDY! Not Howard. Now not that I didn' tdoubt this for a second because if Howard really knew it was his why wouldn't he of had the DNA test a while ago as he would have had nothing to lose. HOw crazy though! That is like winning the lottery all wrapped up in a diaper for Larry! I hope the poor baby has a good life and he doesn't waste all its money. Like will it be in a trust fund or what? I had heard in her will she said all her fortune could only go to her son and no future spouses or children. That would leave the baby broke. But I also heard no judge would hold that up since her son was dead and that the baby gets it all. All I know is I wish I could have got a little Anna Nicole while she was giving it out for free, who knows I could be carrying home a million dollar bundle this weekend!

So I woke up and immeidately had a cup of the sweet sweet sauce they call coffee that I had given up for the last 40 days. I could not wait to get a sip of that. It was heavenly!!!! Then it took like 20 minutes to find my easter basket (yes my parents still hide my easter basket even though I am 23)! See it was under the couch which I never even looked at cuz easter baskets usually have handles that would yield them impossible to fit under the couch. The bunny was just extra sneaky this year I suppose. I got a whole bunch of goodies and Peter Pan the disney dvd that I love.

Then we went to church at Holy Angels whcih was my Nonna's church and the one I go to every week but my parents went with me today. The Capozzi's go to that church and are pretty big in the churhc and the whole family including Anthony were there. You know he is the guy who was in jail for the bike path rapist crimes even though he is innocent. There was all this press outside, it was cool and crazy. The priest said something about them at the end and everyone applauded. It was super juts feel good. LIke I think everyone visibly looked so happy for them. The applause seriously went on for a whlie. It was really really nice. It is a crazy ordeal they have been through. Also, there was this grandma with her grandkids a few rows in front of me. It made me really sad and I was taering up a lot cuz it reminded me of my Nonna. Like there is that kind of love that is only between a grandparent and grandchild and it was so visible in this lady and her grandkids and it just made me so sad to not have my Nonna still here. I really still think about her a lot especially when I am at that church!

Then it was over to my cousin's inlaws soooo much good food. They have like polish sausage and lazy pierogies and all this good stuff I never get to have so it was amazing. My cousin jenny and my uncle were both sick and not there which was kinda sad cuz we have a small family to begin with and so that cut down on the numbers a lot but it was still fun.

AND THEN TH E BEST NEWS EVER: I got my grade from my physics exam on friday that I was sure I failed and i got a 74 which I have no idea how that happened but was super exciting, but even better was that THE CLASSS AVERAGE WAS ONLY A 51, so I was like way ahead of the average. SCORE!!!!!!!!

I know I said I wasn't going to write but I had to warn you all out there. If you are already feeling sad or depressed, DO NOT, I REPEAT DO NOT, go to a casino alone at 11 o'clock on a Tuesday night. I mean prolly no time is real great to go. Casinos are sad. Everyone seems sad and solitary. I don' tknow what made me go , I have just been thinking of going there a lot lately. I have only been like once or twice in my life but like the last week or so I have been wanting to go and so I went alone tonight. I wanted to go alone. But it is overwhelmingly sad and soon you end up much poorer and tearing up at the Babushka penny slots while Bev (aren't all the crazy old chain smoking ladies at a casino called Bev?) tries to make it seem like its normal. The people in Happy Birhtday crowns are possibly the saddest because they are sitting alone and you wonder if their friends are just at differnt slots in different parts of the casino (woohoo what a birthdya , alone at a slot machine) or if they are celebrating alone. EIther way the casino did not boost my mood but only depressed it. So beware, don't go to casinos alone!

I will admit I don't get casinos at all. I will admit I have been to one but I never bet on any games. I understand that Poker, 21 aka blackjack, rulete , and the slots can be fun games. But most people don't go for the games they go to try and win money. I think that if you where going to go out to dinner and a play and figured out how much money that was going to be and used only that money as a way to have fun then that is fine. But if you go in trying to win money you will lose. Most people when they are up won't walk away they will just wind up losing it all. That being said I think next time if you walk in someplace and it is sad or you feal sad you shouldn't stick it out just leave and spend your money some place else.

anne writes
at 11:25:18 04/04/07 - Comment #17098

its kinda like being at a bar on a monday or tuesday, especially if its not really night time yet. People at bars on random days are sad too. and also probably named Bev.

libertad writes
at 10:21:13 04/04/07 - Comment #17096

That is sad. It wasn't quite so sad when we went together, but to me there is nothing more depressing than a casino.

You prolly haven't noticed but I'm taking a brief hiatus from (e:strip). I still comment here and there but I think I am gonna take a break from writing my own journals. I just don't feel like posting much lately. Don't have much to say or don't want to talk about myself as much I guess. We'll see how long my break lasts. I don' tknow, maybe I will write about non-my-life items. I'm not sure. We'll see.

One question though does anyuone know where one can find jeans that fit a person built like me in the way I like in the wash/color I like. I like bootcut, I like not super faded and i DO NOT LIKE those lines from the fading that go sideways. I also don't like pre-ripped jeans. I want like darkerish jeans. I dno't know , I have tried on about 7,000 pairs from here to Toronto but cnanot find any I like. Maybe I should switch to year long shorts.

So yeah its true. I am smoking at least a pack of candy cigarettes every day and I am not ashamed of it. It used to be something I just did when alone or with my friends in my car but the other day I had one on the way to my car after class, and I have them all the time now. I really love them! And i love to smoke them, I just don't eat them willy nilly like eveyrone else. I like to enjoy it for a while. I really do! I don't know, I tink everyone should try it. It is very good and satisfying. Something about pretending to smoke a cigarette and also getting a sugary treat. IT IS GLORIOUS!! I also think this might be a fad that is gonna take off soon, so I just wanted it marked here, on the internet forever, that I've been doing it for years, before it was cool, haha!