Monday, March 7, 2011

I'm thinking that I might switch my blog over to Tumblr. I'm starting to get bored with my Blogger layout, and while I can change it, they all pretty much look the same. Tumblr has a lot of really exciting layouts. They are different and awesome :)

Though, I kinda like being able to go back and look at my old posts. So I'll be sad to just leave them here all alone. :'(

Saturday, March 5, 2011

I hate crushes. They're stupid. And they never work well for me, because I always get too attached. And I promised myself that I would not have anymore crushes. I was doing SO WELL for like, 6 months! And yet, here I am in this position again. Over thinking everything, asking everyone their opinions, facebooking, plotting, and most importantly: GETTING MY HOPES UP FOR NO GODDAMN REASON. And I'm not being pessimistic. It's just true. He hasn't shown ANY signs of being interested. But I must be kind of masochistic, because I'm thinking about asking him out anyways on that small, itsy, bitsy chance that maybe he'll decide to give ME a chance. Which is pretty much just setting myself up for failure and undoing all the good my self-esteem has been up to in the past 6 months. Why? Why do I let this happen? I swear though, I think the only way a relationship is ever going to work out for me is if he decides to pursue me. They have to surprise attack me. Otherwise I scare all the men away with my... Andieness? I don't know. That's what I should call it though. My Andieness. Grrrr.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Friday, February 18, 2011

So you know that analogy about the brain being a sponge so you can soak up knowledge? Well, sometimes I feel like I soak up too much knowledge. For example, last year when I took anatomy I studied so much that I started to go a little insane. My brain was a sponge and it was soaking up knowledge. But it got to the point that I felt like my sponge was starting to infringe on my skull. And because of that, water (a.k.a. KNOWLEDGE) was leaking out of the sponge to form a psychotic puddle in my head.

That's how I feel now. I have a functional anatomy test tomorrow and I started studying a little bit later than I would have liked. Also, I have a crying friend in my room whose roommates are being awful. Which leaves me with the couch to sleep on tonight (not that I'm gonna get much sleep)since I'm not done studying and she needs to go to bed. And then there are my two genius lab partners who are freaking out about the exam, which in turn is making me freak out. And then I was studying via Skype with Erin but Kelsey shushed me so now I'm scared that I was keeping her up. And all of these things are making my brain feel like it's leaking. But I need to calm down. Because when I get stressed out, I don't remember shit. I think I have mild test anxiety. So I. Need. To. Calm. Down.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Can go die. It is 11:46 pm and I am TRYING to be a good little student and study for physics. But I just can't find the motivation. I already have an A+++ in the class and I know that I still have to study. But I don't want to. I want to sleep. I want to browse iTunes. I want to look at Zac Levi's beautiful face. And every time I try to study, I hear Professor Vawter's OBNOXIOUS voice in my head.

"Now I know that you all only care about getting good grades. But school isn't ALL about GETTING good grades. It's about UNDERSTANDING the material. But you ONLY care about the GRADES! How are you SUPPOSED to LEARN if you don't UNDERSTAND the MATERIAL? Now I'm going to LECTURE you all for 45 MINUTES about stupid TOPICS and have my voice CRACK every FEW words, and more FREQUENTLY when I'M getting WORKED UP!"

My new favorite song :) guess where I found it? Chuck of course! I always find the greatest music during that show. And on another note: this weeks episode of Chuck was fan-freaking-tastic. Like I could watch it over and over again because I loved it so much. *sigh* I'm so marrying Zac Levi.

Friday, January 28, 2011

I love this show :) Nathan Fillion is so awesome. And I think this is like, the cutest thing ever :) Granted, they were doing it as a cover, but you can tell by their faces that they totally both enjoyed it. Now Beckett just needs to break up with her boyfriend so they can be together.

I found this on a blog called John Mark Ministries. It is a collection of quotes from children trying to describe love. It's pretty much the cutest thing ever.

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, “What does love mean?”

The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:

“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.” Rebecca- age 8

“When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.” Billy – age 4

“Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.” Karl – age 5

“Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.” Chrissy – age 6

“Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.” Terri – age 4

“Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.” Danny – age 7

“Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss” Emily – age 8

“Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.” Bobby – age 7 (Wow!)

“If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,” Nikka – age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka’s on this planet)

“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.” Noelle – age 7

“Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.” Tommy – age 6

“During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.” Cindy – age 8

“My mommy loves me more than anybody You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.” Clare – age 6

“Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.” Elaine-age 5

“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.” Chris – age 7

“Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.” Mary Ann – age 4

“I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.” Lauren – age 6

“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.” (what an image)

Karen – age 7

“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn’t think it’s gross.” Mark – age 6

“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.” Jessica – age 8

And the final one — Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbour was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman’s yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, “Nothing, I just helped him cry”

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

I have a Netter, ha haha haha ha! For those who don't know, a Netter is actually Frank Netter's Atlas of Human Anatomy. It's pretty much the bible of physical therapy. It's something that I'll keep and use for the rest of my career. This guy PAINTS all of his pictures. Every bone, muscle, organ etc. is in that book in excruciating detail. And he painted it! It's amazing. I love being able to see any muscle I want to. I am such a nerd, but proud of it! I don't think I've ever been this excited to get a book haha. You know you are all jealous of my nerdiness and my Netter.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Another reason I can't sleep is because there is SO MUCH SNOW OUTSIDE. And I love snow. I am literally like a child in the snow. Except for when it started snowing it was 9 pm on a school night when I was already exhausted. So I didn't go out to play in the snow :( And the weather report says that around 6 am it's going to start RAINING. RAIN, THE EVIL FIEND, THE CRUSHER OF DREAMS, THE MENACE OF THE NORTHWEST, THE SATAN OF WEATHER (actually I honestly believe that would be the wind), but most importantly, THE MELTER OF SNOW. If it rains, all the snow is going to melt, along with my happiness :( I want a snow day! I want class to be cancelled and I want to be able to play in legit snow tomorrow! Is that too much to ask for?

So apparently this is a piece of art called reoccurring dreams. Just in case you were wondering what the heck the picture had to do with anything.

So before you read this post, you should read the last one. Because this goes along with my Teddy Bear Thesis.

The other day my Aunt was telling me about this reoccurring dream that she had. Then my whole family went around discussing reoccurring dreams. And I didn't think I had any. But that last post made me remember! I have had so many dreams where I bring my bear with me into public. And that's really the only distinguishing thing about the dream. Sometimes I'm at a movie, sometimes I'm at school. But I always have my bear with me. And then all of a sudden I realize that I have brought my bear into public. And I become extremely embarrassed. It's like that dream where you come to school naked, or you have a test that you didn't know about but everyone else did. Though I've never had either of those dreams, I assume they give you the same feeling.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

So I made a bad decision. It was snowing outside and I was feeling very much in a warm and cozy mood, so I decided to have some hot chocolate. That was a terrible decision for me. Especially since I have a hard time falling asleep on a normal night. So even though I'm exhausted, I'm still laying here awake. And I guess it's not that late... but it's late enough that I want to be asleep.

Anyways, I was thinking about this weird thing that I do. I call it my Teddy Bear Thesis. And I'll have to make a little bit of an embarrassing confession in order to explain. So here it goes: I still sleep with a teddy bear. But not in a childish my bear is my best friend kind of way. It's more of a need to hold something in my arms close to me while I sleep (if I'm not home I still end up using the sheets or a pillow for the same purpose). I noticed in high school though, that when I have a boyfriend I don't need my bear. And not just when the boyfriend is physically there. I don't ever use the bear at all if I have a boyfriend. Which is kinda weird. So I've decided that I think it comes from a need to feel close to someone, to have a person to embrace you and keep you safe. When I have a boyfriend, I feel safe, secure and happy. And don't get me wrong, I'm perfectly happy with the way my life is right now. I think it's a deeper thing that I can't really explain.

Like I said, I was just thinking about it. So I thought I'd share this embarrassing little tidbit of information with all of you. So don't judge me :p

Monday, January 10, 2011

Saturday, January 8, 2011

I just realized that in my headphone singing comic post that I only actually posted the first half of the comic. Which isn't actually funny at all. So if you are here reading this post, scroll down to the bottom of the page and go re-read the headphone singing post. Because now it has a punch line and it actually is funny, I promise. Oh and I got that comic from The Oatmeal if you wanna check it out. They've got some pretty funny comics.

One of my favorite things in the entire world is being able to sleep in, then waking up and just laying in bed while I watch tv on my laptop. It makes me sound really lazy, but it's just so peaceful. Nowadays there is always something for me to worry about. For example, today I need to write a mitigation letter for my speeding ticket, I need to go work out, I need to work on Functional Anatomy, I need to get ready for Kelsey's birthday tonight and I need to get my car fixed. But in the morning when I'm laying in bed and watching my tv, I don't have to worry about those things yet. I can just stay warm and comfy inside my bed. It's the calm before the storm. The sleeping in part is really nice too. This year I have become such a night person. Or maybe just NOT a morning person. I despise the mornings. If I have to get up before 9. I feel like a creature of the night when my alarm goes off at 7.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Happy New Year's everyone! Hope that everybody had a good time. I sure did! We went out with a really good group of people, and most importantly, MEAGAN was there! She's finally back from Ghana and I am so excited that she's home I can hardly contain myself. I did get a little sick though.... I mixed too many different types of alcohol. Not a good idea.

RESOLUTIONS!

My New Year's Resolutions are: 1) to get back on the healthy bandwagon. Meaning no sweets, limited bread products, exercising 3 times a week (at least) and all that jazz. 2) I want to reach my goal weight by the time we go to Las Vegas for Spring Break. That's about 14 more pounds, unless I gained a significant amount of weight over break. It's quite possible and I think I can do it :) 3) Get better grades, be better at delegating studying time. 4) Marry Zac Levi.