"The ox is srow, but the earth is patient." Crear-ry, Caine is most
thoughtfur of plesent day kung fu mastas. His moves are consistent
and without mistake. He has comprete glasp of both snake and
wandeling camer (defensive) technique and is the betta wallia. Texas
Langa must rook for success somewha otha than fighting Caine.

When the reality of something upsetting starts to sink in, your mind
just seems to be thrown into a blender with its lid taken off. Bits and
pieces of thoughts and emotions gets ripped apart and go flying off in
different tangents. You just can't seem to put it all together as
everything is just so fragmented and out of control from your
prespective. After some time, when you do manage to pull yourself
through it all, although on the outside it may seem that you're alright,
the scar inflicted on the inside from the experience will most likely stay
with you. Is that why people sometimes say that they can forgive but
will never forget?

It doesn't stop there yet. The whole thing will then result changes in
perception on certain things which will then become the basis for a
defense mechanism that gets built to avoid falling into that upsetting
situation in the first place. Is that why people sometimes change so
drastically after having encountered those situations?

Perhaps I'm on a real short fuse these days, but what's the point of
going out of the way being nice to other people without expecting
anything in return and then you end up treated like shit later anyways?
All my life, I've always believed and have been taught to respect and
treat other people nicely and not to expect much, if anything, in return.
But recently, I've been finding that people have been taking advantage
of my being nice and been stepping me on the head a lot which
eventually ends me up at the short end of the stick. The whole thing is
getting a little long in the tooth. Time for a personality change?

I bet nobody likes it when you lose something you worked on for so
long and so hard in a blink of the eye, especially on something that
you grow attached to over time. What rubs it in is that it is through
factors that you don't have direct control of but yet can still affect you
directly. For me, this hasn't been the first time. Yet, everytime it
happens, I end up being majorly pissed of with myself and then after
some time, I'll be back at it again only to go into the cycle again. Am
I being resilient or just plain stupid? Since this isn't the first time, how
many more there is to come? Will this pretty much be the theme of
my life?

As is evident from the recent water spate between Malaysia
and Singapore.
What irks me most is how the media on both sides is harping up
on the issue. It seems like although both sides are talking in English,
they don't seem to speak the same language.

Them fuckheads are at it again and this time it's in the paradise island
of Bali, Indonesia. I reckon this could very well be in retaliation to the
recent stance taken by the United States in its fight against terrorism
and also its insistence of going to war with Iraq despite the latter's
willingness to allow weapons inspectors in without restrictions. There is
so much fear, anger and hatred in this world today. I wish the
superpowers would take a more tact and intelligent approach in this
matter instead of using just might and brawn. I mean, you don't pour
gasoline onto fire. You don't fight fire with fire. You'll just get more fire
and heat that will burn and scar humanity. Certainly revenge and
retaliation would breed more hatred and suffering. Consider the lives
of the innocent people, the women, the children and the elderly. As the
Malay saying goes, "Gajah sama gajah yang gaduh, pelanduk pula
yang mati di tengah" (Whilst the elephants fight, it is the deer that
dies in its midst).

Singapore today officially opens its Esplanade - Theatre On The Bay. I took the opportunity this evening to find my way there and stayed around to see some of the things they were having (performances by groups from all over the world and fireworks!). The Esplanade is Singapore's take of the Sydney Opera House in Australia. The building has a rather unique look to it. Think of it as a cross between Disney's Epcot Center and the durian! :) Check out the pictures (finally!) and be the judge yourself!

One of the better things in Singapore as compared to Malaysia is the
sidewalks. Generous space for pedestrians all over. However, I find
Singapore's pedestrians a weird bunch altogether. In other places I've
been to, pedestrians just seem to take on one side of the walking lane
and then "automatically" keep with the flow. Here, there's none of
those. They walk on whichever side they want. Not only that, they seem
to walk at a very leisurely pace like the kind of walk you'd do at the
beach. And if you're like me who walks at a faster pace, the whole thing
can be rather exasperating.

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