Sunday, August 26, 2007

Thursday, August 23, 2007

I am not in the best of moods tonight, and probably will not be in the best of moods tomorrow before I get a phone call…my brother is going in for a medical test…he’s got some symptoms…maybe really nothing and then again…

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Saturday, August 18, 2007

I am who I am…people use blogs for many reasons…but the main reason is for the purpose to remind them of where the were at a specific time and place…this has never been or ever will be a place for those of you who may wander in from random “hit” from Google…or what ever…this is my home…it is a place for my memories…for the place to record what I might forget…

On all levels but one had a very nice day, because friends are on opposite sides of an issue(s), I find myself in an awkward position…it is a lose/lose situation…and I will withdraw…

Got a call from my brother…let’s meet on a local short golf course and play some golf…we did but no actually golf was played…we did take several swings at golf balls…but hacking…or the fact that golf spelled backwards is flog…was the better description of what occurred…but we had a great time…

I have been…well withdrawn…for sometime…in the last few months I have made a conscience effort to reconnect with those who live around me…I am by nature a very private person…I must re-evaluate…I hate drama…I hate being caught in problems I can’t solve…but it seems that those that I’m most attracted to as friends…?????

Thursday, August 9, 2007

t’s really been a couple of very strange days…(for those of you who hate novellas you my want to click away right now because this may take a while)

It was really kind of weird because as I live alone, well not really alone, I do have 2 cats…my sister today (we will deal with the other elements of that deal later)…was concerned that I don’t “socialize” enough…sorry sis but I realized that months ago and have corrected the problem…if I ever really had one…

I have been avoiding something for months…someone that I have know for like 41 years, and work for, for 30 some odd years…has been trying to get a face to face with me over a meal…well to give the man some credit…I never really worked for him…I work with him…he was always the boss but with a few exceptions he always after a brief discussion, well that’s not really true …we never really discussed anything…a friendly argument would be closer to the truth…I was usually able to convince him to just let me do my job…but he had no real contact or any power within the firm having retired a few years ago…I was dismissed a few months back…as I understood when we finally sat down yesterday over a fine lunch of Greek food…his concern was that I did not blame his son for my dismissal…his concern was that his son…who is actually my brother-in-law was not responsible…but then since the firm was sold about a year before…I knew the exact problem(s)…never did connect with the new “power” and wasn’t surprised that they found an excuse to walk me out…( and never blamed his son)

Have any of you ever grow up as a middle child…I don’t think that anyone who hasn’t can comprehend the following…so you have my permission to just walk away from here right now…

For most of my life…a least through my school years I hated my sister…well maybe hate is too strong…intimidated would be closer to the truth…parents, teachers, and the odd “friend of the family”…”Why aren’t your grades as good as…(name deleted)”…or regardless what had been the problem between me and my younger brother it was always my fault because I was older I should have know better…I have come to grips long ago with my brother…but it’s only been a few years that my relations with my older sister have…well…become good…

She had called me early in the week that she needed my signature on a document that was still required for dad’s estate…we had thought that hat was handled months ago…we though we had crossed every “T” and dotted every “I”…but then neither of us have no really idea of how deep and thick “RED TAPE” can be…well that’s not complete true…in her line of work she has a better idea then I do and she was surprised…

After all these years…(63 and almost 60) we have finally come to he realization that we have similar differences…we are both very intelligent, very logically and very driven…in totally different directions…is it surprising that we “butted heads” more then once…

(Did I ever say here that as much as I love my cats I hate it when their insistent for attention derails my train of thought and delays my postings)?

As much as I regret this as a life long fan and player into my 40’s of baseball/softball I have observed the passing of Henry A’s homerun record with great sadness…firstly because I have been a Braves fan for over 50 years…secondly because Henry A was a huge fav of mine…and lastly because as a reasonable decent college athlete, I really resent Bond’s appeal to the old dumb athlete stereotype…” I’m an athlete, I didn’t know what they gave me, I trusted them that it was okay”…

Dang it’s been awhile since I’ve posted, no excuse. Like the line from “Tale of Two Cities”…today was the best of times and the worst of times…slept poorly last night…but a nice lunch with my daughter this noon.

About Me

i am who i am. i am a singularly individual personality...been that way for 70 years and i'm not about to start changing now....who really doesn't give a "fart in a wind storm" if you like me or what i write,

about this blog

at one time i had this blog, but decided to spin off a links blog and a poetry blog years ago ( you can find links below).........but what's left is a hodge podge of what doesn't fit in the other two....sometimes silly, sometime mundane, some times serious....so in the words of an old TV series:

"You have entered the Twilight Zone".

[Please Note: only the poetry blog still exist........so this has become a bit of more of a catch all then before......but some is now on my FB site........link is below ]

Origins

When I started blogging I needed a title for the blog, and got to thinking about an old TV sitcom "Car 54 where are you", and since I was 54 at the time, and my "good" friend BP had hung me with the nick troll....Troll54 where are you was born.......he once had commented that I was the most even temper and least bigoted person he had ever met........by that he meant, I was always in a bad mood and hated everybody.......therefore I was a troll..........after beating the carp out of him, i decided that he was probably right, the beat-down was verbal, not physical, dang the kid was 8" taller then me, I may be ornery but I ain't stupid

About the same time as the blog began, I found a game called "Blogshares" ....was in beta at the time....and now rests where internet games go when they die.......I was there for the beta......and there for its' passing.......but having looked around and viewing the players' forum.......I decide I need a persona....and to avoid the stigma of "troll", out of my warped mind the "Madtrollie" was born.....complete with a bridge and an extreme hatred of noobs.......well that developed over time.....but privately.....always sent gifts.....advice.......and at times involved them in my nefarious schemes......except as the writer of this warped blog...the Madtrollie has become more or less benign in his old age.......but beware when least expected.......

Avatars

For many years online I lived behind avatars when ever a picture was asked for, first one was a budgie on a skateboard, then there was the cat with a yamaka, then it was the parrot with a yamaka and a tallith......you can still see him wandering around this blog looking for matzah.........whether I finally came to the conclusion that at least I should show my true-self, or I lost an argument with that orthodox parrot, or the simple fact that this 70 year old man finally figured out how to use the camera that is embedded in my desktop... but the bottom line is I've decided not to hid behind avatars no more...just a hoodie and a pair of shades