Dawn: Ew, Boys.

Don't you just absolutely hate boys? With that kind of gut wrenching hatred that makes you sick to your stomach? Well maybe not that much, but the opposite sex has definitely been on my hit list lately.

So my life got flip turned upside down, again.
I am once again single.

This time I'm not going to let it get to me that much though. Boyfriends will come and go, and sometimes there is really nothing you can do about it. Long distance relationships are tough, regardless of how far apart you are or how much you love each other. It's just flat out hard. So the sudden end didn't come as too much of a shock to me. Putting pieces together from the past few weeks made me realize that it was coming with full force, I guess I was just too ignorant to even consider them a threat. I wouldn't want to believe the signs if they slapped me in the face. But it is what it is, and I'm still alive and breathing.

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It's funny how a drastic event in one's life can change perspective on things. Yeah, getting dumped and losing the one you love is devastating and heartbreaking... but we always pull through, we always keep breathing. Once that initial stabbing pain has eased, life gets better. You notice the little things. You laugh more, you stress less. Not necessarily because you are happier, but because you know you made it through one of the most painful and numbing experiences that you will have. Those moments where you swear you cant go on anymore, you made it through. You are alive, and time stops for no one.

So for now, I'll let go. The memories will never fade and I will see things that will remind me on a daily basis of my past, and that boy that I gave my heart to. I'll let go, not only for me but also for him. Because this is what he wants, this is what makes him happy. He is my best friend and his family is like my own, and they will never be completely out of my life. I adore every single one of them, and I will always be around. Even if I have to toughen up and be nothing more than his friend. Sometimes, it's what you have to do.

I'm going to enjoy my last month of my freshman year. I am going to have fun and have no regrets, all while keeping my composure and beliefs. Summer is coming, and who knows what that will bring. ☺