For You I Would

Alli Thompson is a 18 year old High School student who just started on a new school. She came from New York and has just moved to Los Angeles because of her dad's new job. She quickly becomes great friends with Lea Martinez, and she finds out that not only are Lea interested in her company; so is the popular guy from 12th grade, Justin Bieber. And he'll take her on an adventure full of extreme experiences, intense love and heartbreaking drama.

19. Part 19

Part 19How come he has this sort of affection on me? It’s like when I’m around him I feel different.I feel… bad. Like, I wanna do things I’ve never wanted to do before. And I don’t know why.It’s like he has this kind of control over me. Like his body is speaking to mine, making me do things that my mind can’t stop me from.He’s mysterious. And I don’t know if it’s a bad thing or not – if it’s worth to explore.I don’t know him. All I know is that he smokes, drinks, does drugs and now I just found out he’s also done criminal things. If my dad finds out, he’s gonna kill me, and he’ll never ever let me be in touch with Justin again. He can’t know this. I’ll have to make sure that Michael won’t tell him anything.“Okay, my turn” Justin interrupts me, and takes a deep breath as he thinks of what to say.I watch him. His jawline fits perfectly to his perfect shaped face, and I can’t help but stare at his eyes. I’ve never seen anyone with eyes like this. Completely hazel brown and they’re shining as the light from the window hits them. And then there are his lips. So soft and plumb you have no idea.I just want to bite that lip right now. Lick it. And kiss it. I can’t help but bite my own lip. And then I suddenly feel something stir – down there. This is such a weird feeling. It’s impossible to describe. It’s like the butterflies have left my stomach and moved down there instead. This can’t happen!I don’t want to feel like this. I don’t want to lose control! His eyes then catch mine, and he looks intently into them as he speaks. “I have never ever done something, and then regretted it afterwards”. I stare at him for a while, and he stares back, waiting for a reaction.Then I blink a few times as I snap back to reality. “What? Regretted anything?” I ask, to make sure I heard right. He nods. I take a quick sip, didn’t have to think twice. He raises an eyebrow.“Tell me” he says, and then takes a sip himself. I look down, not wanting to think of it.“Well. I don’t really wanna talk about it… But I can say this much; it’s the reason why I didn’t swim back at the waterpark. Why I don’t swim at all.” I watch my fingers as I fumble with them.Justin doesn’t say anything for a few seconds. “That’s okay, I understand” he watches my fingers too. Then I look up at him. I don’t want to think of this. It’ll just ruin my mood.“Well, I saw you taking a sip as well. Are you making your own confessions now?” I smile at him, and he starts smirking as he chuckles a bit. “Yeah I guess so. I didn’t really think twice, so I forgot I’ve done some pretty bad things too. Also recently, actually” I raise an eyebrow “oh really? Like what?” I’m curious. I want to know more about him, and with this game it’s my chance to get to know him. Though I do have to tell some of my confessions to him in return, but I guess it’s worth it. He clears his throat. “Well, yesterday to be exact” he says and looks at me. I frown.“Yesterday? What did you do that you regret?” come on Justin, stop teasing me like that and just tell me already, I’m going nuts over here!“Well” he starts and starts pulling in his lower lip with his fingers as he continues “there was this girl at the party that I ended up doing things with that I guess I shouldn’t have done” he chuckles.I freeze. Ashley. He’s talking about Ashley. So it is true. They really did it. God fucking damn it; I was truly hoping Leah was just joking me. I can feel it starting to shiver down my spine, and I’m sure my cheeks are getting reddish now. I don’t wanna hear the rest. I can’t, I just can’t.“I really don’t know why it happened” he just continues, and I don’t think he has noticed my reaction yet “but I guess we were both just really drunk and fucking high, and just in a really great mood” and then I can’t hold it in anymore. I can’t even think before the word just fly out of my mouth. “Ashley” I said, staring out in the air. I feel the anger building up inside of me again, and my mood has just suddenly changes 180 degrees. I don’t want him in my room. He needs to get out, and it has to be now!“Wait, you know about this….?” He asks shocked and confused I guess.“Listen, I think you should leave now. It’s late, and it’s school tomorrow” I get up from the floor and grab the bottle of Captain Morgan as I walks towards the door.“Wait wait wait, what’s wrong? How did you know about Ash and I?” he gets up as well, still looking confused, and walks towards me. Ash?! How cute, they’re giving each other nicknames already. Wonder what she calls him, Justy? Honeyboo? I feel sick.“You need to leave. Now” I repeat, ignoring his question. I look down, I don’t wanna face him.“What’s wrong with you? You’re acting so… weird now?” And that’s it. Suddenly I can’t hold everything back anymore, and before I know it, I just burst out everything that’s on my heart.“Weird?! I’M weird?! She's fucking one of my bestfriends, and you’re calling ME weird?! Are you fucking dumb or what? I like you, I really like you! You don’t see that? Well, I guess that’s too bad now, because now you’ve lost your patience with me, and now you’ve moved on to my bestfriends – who will the next be, Leah? Alyson? You know what, I thought you were better than that. Really! But I see Michael is right. All you do is making drama and you’re nothing but bad. Don’t you dare fucking think you’ll ever get in my pants, because that won’t happen! Ever! Maybe you’re just showing yourself to everyone and letting everyone have a piece of you, but I’m not! At least I respect myself! It’s more than what I can say about you. Now get out!” I’m out of breath, and I have to catch it again otherwise I’ll faint. I’m still staring at him, and he’s not responding. Nor he’s moving. Nothing.