I want to marry him. And I told him today that I am ready. It was said jokingly, casually, but I meant it. I don’t know if I grasp what that means right now and if I think about it, there are so many things about marriage that I do not feel ready for but all of that aside, I’m not scared to be with Tyler. It’s been long enough now that I know what I’m getting into and none of it makes me want to run away forever. He is my best friend. Things will be hard but we can figure them out together. They won’t be perfect but we can work through them. We both have a lot of maturing to do, but we can grow as one.

Lord, I have not been near and faithful to you but I know that we are where we are only because of You. You are the invisible cord that holds us together. I am sure we would have imploded long ago if that were not true. Please lead us. Lead him.