Monday, April 14, 2008

well..i must say it was not easy...no job in this world is easy...the most hardest part is to wake up early in the morning....but that one also not so bad compared to the routine... u have to go to school everyday be it rain or shine...no escape...no excuses...6 or 7days a week ( we go to school on Saturdays and Sundays too )...sometimes have to be in the school at night..taking care of students ..attending talks, motivational camps and whatsoever...am i complaining? yes...

some says we are lucky..we have long holidays during semester breaks..but not to be cherished anymore...during the precious holidays we have to attend course, go to school to supervise, take the students to visit places and so on...am i complaining? yes...

but i think as a trainee it gonna be worse than that...i have to give individual counselling for 45 hours, group counselling for 35 hours, administration jobs for 35 hours and guidance activities for another 35 hours...total 150 hours within 12 weeks..! i have to teach Moral education to 37 students in Form 1 (minor subject)and i have to relief other teachers' classes atleast 2 hours a day...am i complaining? yes...

then i should put all the blame to myself..who ask me to further study at the first place? ME..who ask me to take half pay leave for 3 years to study? ME...who ask me to leave all the comfort i got during my years in primary school? ME...all me, me, and me...nobody else to blame...

and during this 12 weeks..i need to be observed by two lecturers...one for my counselling course and one for my Moral education...it was very stressful to think when will they come and observe me..it can be at any time of the day...and do i prepare myself well when they coming....? ohhh...i just cant wait to finish my training...!

and to listen to all the grouses, the problems from the students can be very stressfull sometimes.. i always try to put myself in their shoe..try to be empathy and at the same time try to help them to solve their problem...and you know what? kids nowadays are not like kids during my teenage years...they did the most unthinkable things and sometimes i was speechless with their bold statement....well..i just good at complaining...right?

whatever it is..i just need to be patient...only 4 weeks to go and i will be free.....atleast for few weeks...then i can be a full time counsellor...the stress will still be there, the workload will still be there i know but when u a not a trainee anymore...the feeling is not the same...the only soothing words i got was from Dr.F...he was in my school last week to observe me teaching..and he told me that i was born to be a teacher...that i have the patience and i have worked really hard to make sure the students learnt and at the same time acheieved all the objectives...he really make my day and for a while i think all my hard work has been paid off...thank u dr...

Kak Waliz,I have to agree with that. Teenagers nowadays are just bold, aren't they?In a sense, that's good. But doubled by the rebellious nature of these people....it may lead to wrong stuffs.You don't have to worry much about the inspection, I guess. Student will try their best to behave, like what we did when we have some trainee teachers in my previous secondary school.Have a nice day kak, and try to get yourself some good rest alright. You deserves it :)

oh tim...i am emotional right now..u r right...i just cannot stand it anymore..sometimes i feel regret, sometimes i try to be more positive..but as a human i cannot lie to myself and tell everything is fine...

routine is sucks! yeah i kinda realize now tht i must have food on my table and some RM to buy shoes, handbags, perfumes, make up...hehehe..typical women..!

Hi Waliz, with a gorgeous teacher like you, I'm not sure I can concentrate on what you teaching, ha ha.But I certainly will be very punctual, bring an apple for teacher, and never miss your class.Will help you wipe the blackboard too, ha ha.Thanks for the coffee and donuts. They were delicious. Sorry I ate all 5 donuts, ha ha. Lee.

u.lee..u never fail to make me laugh and smile everytime u come and visit me here...oh u can eat all the donuts if u want to...i will make xtra next time..maybe u can tapau it too...*wink*

btw...'I certainly will be very punctual, bring an apple for teacher, and never miss your class.Will help you wipe the blackboard too'..this type of student is very hard to find nowadays...especially if u frm just ordinary school and not from the selected ones....sigh!

gheeeeh i wish you all the best for your current work waliz but as what they sayit was just in the beginning time to time, you can able to cope with the situation and it will become as normal as it washave a great dayi have an award for you and by the way have you checked your private page for the blog idol? i gave it to you in mybloglogyou can answer the information there if youre free

time will tell wether i can cope or not blue..but i believe i can do it..just cannot stop complaining..thts all...

i already checked out the private page...i posted the answers in the comment form..i dont know it is right or not to post it there...and thanks for the award..i missed it just now..have to go again and take a look.."D

Life is never a bed of roses. But just look forward to the breaks in between that you get and go for nice holidays when they come. Think of others who are not as lucky as you, especially the unemployed, who wouldn't mind to trade shoes with you. Keep counting your blessings and stop complaining. Complaints are downers and make you more miserable if you choose to entertain them. Say - I can do it!

anyway, as most of my classmate (when I was at high school), we have a little survey. We decided to evaluate all of the school teacher, and listed out from the highest workload to the easiest job around. Sorry to say, both our counselors at the bottom of our list.

I know, I know.. Compared to other teachers, you guys have to do courses outside school most of the time. Thus, you're rarely around (that's why they put two counselors in each school I guest). And our validation only focused on the weight of the teaching (as you stated, usually counselor will teach moral). Nevertheless, we usually more closed with counselor other than normal teacher (my counselor room has TV, radio, and a bunch of magazine!Thus, we spent quite some times there)

As a trainee, no matter what trainee you're, I am sure the workload will be heavier. What more suitable word should I say other than, GOOD LUCK? hehe..

Just a little head up from me:- I already finished my current examination sem- already back at my home in Johore- Though I should extend my apology as I couldn't leave you a comment earlier. My internet connection is not stable, but much much better now :D- Oh! and I had posted a new post about pet. You should talks about your turtle too (If I am not mistaken, the first time I went to ur page, I saw ur turtle. hehe)

hi blue..glad to see u here..hmmm what can i say...i must admit that is what people always think about counsellors....they think we got the least work just becos we dont have class to teach...i cant change people's perception but like i said before no job is easy...i've been teaching before for several years and i really wish i can teach again...but that is not meant to be...am i regret to choose this career...i can say yes...all the paperworks are killing me...but i'm not the type who keep pinning for wht i had lost...so i will try my best to be a good counsellor ...so wish me all the best dude...:D