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There comes a time in our lives where we have to let go of something or someone. This could be for multiple reasons; because that thing or person makes you unhappy or makes you feel as though you're not, and that you'll never be good enough. If someone makes you feel like you're not good enough, then that is when you should get up and close that chapter in your life because it's not worth putting yourself through hell to try and become something you're not to try and impress someone, if they can't accept your life then get up and slam the door right in their face. Which brings me onto changing your entire personality to try and become good enough for someone else, if that person can't accept you for who you are then they're not worth your time, you should never change for anyone, ever.

I am a big believer in happiness and the key to being happy is to be yourself, and loving who you are. "Just be yourself" - how many times have you heard that? BUT it's why Disney's Frozen was so good, and why 'Let It Go' was such a hit with everyone, and everyone loved it, it's because we like the thought of being free and the importance of being ones true self. But how do we know when we're being our true selves? Because it's not in a work place, or being surrounded by strangers who you've never met before, hell I'm not even my true self in my class at university and I've known them for half a year.

I always feel most comfortable around my family, my closest friends from school, my drama class from college and the people who lived in our block at uni last year. I was really lucky in the fact I didn't feel anxious at all (which is really unusual for me) when moving away and I was able to be myself from day one around the people I was living with, with a little help from alcohol, of course. However it usual takes me a few months to settle in and get to know people and then over time I'll slowly become the loud, bubbly person that I truly am. OR I'll have a night out and then my true self will be revealed with help from alcohol, I guess I do depend on it to give me some confidence... Anyway, if I'm not surrounded by people I know then I'll usually be very quiet and reserved, even if I have friends who I'm comfortable with, with me. Maybe it's because I was told to be polite when I was younger that I just felt I should act that way towards every stranger until I know I can trust them, I don't even know.

You're your true self when you're around the people whose opinions don't matter to you, it's when you know those people will accept you for who you are regardless if you've put on ten stone or are dressed like a tramp. It will be those people who make you feel at ease and comfortable, you won't feel as awkward or intimidated, it's where you'll feel most happy. Of course there's always times when you can't be yourself, for example, if you're at work you'll behave how you're expected too and not how you'd choose to, but that's just life.

Since I've decided to start living a healthier lifestyle I've given up bread, which is the main ingredient to one of the best dish in the world: pizza. I then looked at other alternatives, portabello mushrooms, cauliflower crust etc before coming across the butternut squash beauty..

Ingredients:

(For one pizza)

1 Butternut squash (whole)

1 Cup of ground almonds

3 Tablespoons of flaxseed

1 Teaspoon of oregano

2 Tablespoons of corn flower

1/4 Teaspoons of salt & pepper

Pesto sauce for the base:

50 grams of pine nuts

Large bunch of basil

50 grams parmesan

150 ml of olive oil

1 garlic cloves

Toppings:

(That I used)

Tomatoes

Mozzarella

Spinach

Olives

Directions:

Step 1: Pre-heat the oven to 200 degrees, and slice the butternut squash into two halves and scoop out all of the seeds from the middle using a spoon.

Step 2: After scooping out all the seeds place both halves face down in a shallow dish and fill half way with water, after this place the tray in the oven for 45 minutes and then sit and wait for them to roast.

Step 3: When the butternut squash is cooked and drain the water and leave aside to cool.

Step 4: In a bowl mix the three tablespoons of flaxseed and add six tablespoons of water leave this aside until it's needed later.

Step 5: scoop out all the butternut squash excluding the skin, this won't be needed for the base. Place the butternut squash in a bowl and mash up so all of it's soft.

Step 6: to this bowl add the flaxseed, ground almonds, corn flower, salt, pepper & oregano. Mix the hell out of the bowl so the mixture becomes a thick paste.

Step 7: Line the baking tray with grease proof paper and spread the mixture out evenly, in whatever shape you fancy making the edges of the base thicker, as crusts. (Definitely not like I've done below haha)

Step 8: Put the base in the oven for 30-35 minutes on 200 degrees until it becomes darker and crispy around the edges.

Step 9: Put all the pesto ingredients in a food processer until it become a thin paste.

Step 10: Cut up toppings of your choice ready to place on the base once it's cooked.

Step 11: Once the base is cooked spread the pesto over the base and add the toppings of your choice. I added mozzarella, olives, tomatoes and spinach to mine.

Step 12: place the pizza back in the oven for 10 minutes on 150 degrees until the toppings are all cooked.

Since returning from Uni for the summer I've decided to become a healthier person, it's no secret I piled on the pounds over the months due to a really, really crappy diet and lack of exercise. So a dramatic change in diet was most definitely needed. Lucky for me I've always had the motivation to do it; so cutting out bad foods and replacing them with better foods doesn't come as much of a challenge to me. I don't like to think of this 'diet' as a diet because it's not a diet anymore it's a new lifestyle and I don't think I'll go back to eating super noodles (no matter how hard times get) because I don't want to be in the same position as I am this year next year, trying my hardest to fight off the extra pounds, because it's just not worth it.

Saying this, though. I do drink a lot of tea which, obviously can't be good for you, Green Tea, however is super good for you, however, it tastes like arse. BUT then if like magic I was to discover the heavenly drink that is Salted Caramel Green Tea. Lord Jesus, whoever created this needs a medal or 500. It is the best thing ever invented and the fact it's good for you makes it a whole lot better. It is HEAVENLY.

Summer came at us in full force this week! Superb for me as I had the weekend off, here's a lovely picture I took in Oxford, my weekend off was spent collecting a few phone (fancy!!) & hitting the pool with some of my nearest and dearest and getting majorly sunburnt on my shoulders, so badly that lifting my arms is now a major pain, literally. And having a barbecue with my family, which is always an essential in the household when there's a ray of sun. I also watched the sunset, which I've decided I need to do more often because it was the most beautiful thing I've ever witnessed.

And this brings us to something I happened to come across this weekend. So after putting it off for so long (behind all the hardness I am a sensitive souls really) I finally read The Fault In Our Stars (I couldn't see the film without reading it first). And oh my goodness it was the best thing my eyes have ever come across, when I read books I have to be completely interested in the first page or else I'll never finish it because my attention span is so small, but with this book I was completely engrossed. I read it all in one day, I honestly couldn't put it down. It is the most beautiful story I've ever read, I rarely cry, something has to be really sad to make my eyes shed a tear, but with this book I completely blubbed my way through the last few chapters. I'm seeing the film in a few days and I'm really hoping they stick to the book because it's something genius. The whole book is just perfect in everyday, it's more than I expected it would be, it's truly amazing and it's not being bigged up online in anyway, Congratulations John Green for writing such a wonderful novel.

So.. last Thursday saw the start of Brazil's 2014 World Cup. I for one was as excited as the rest of the nation. Y'know banging, get a few drinks in whilst England get thrashed n'all that...

I for one love the excitement of the World Cup, growing up with two brothers and no sisters did wonders for my feminine side....

So Saturday night arrived, dad hung (nailed) up the flag up, cracked out a crate of Fosters, created a spotify playlist for the occasion and we counted the hours down before England's first match.

Even though England didn't win, they weren't awful, and will hopefully (all limbs crossed) win the next one!

Since then football has (and I'm not exaggerating) taken over my life. I'm staying up ridiculous hours to watch matches that I shouldn't even care about. Fair to say, I've got the world cup bug. But who hasn't?

I also love the fact that twitter has a special update specially for the World Cup, very convenient for those, by those I mean me, who work whilst the games are happening and need to be updated of the score as soon as it's happening. I also like the fact there are many offers on alcohol during the World Cup, this is good for me because as much as I'd like to go to a bar to watch the England matches, none of my friends share the interest I have for football, leaving me at home with me old man, this is also convenient for me as it's not me spending money on drinks, thanks dad, you're a diamond!