Sadly since I've been busy and the time I used to have is no longer available to me. The result of this will be slower updates for Project Explore. While it is my passion project and the one I enjoy working on the most, there are other things that currently stand in the way. Such as my day job and a few other side projects.

You see I never wanted to stop or slow the progress of development for the game despite what so many people seem to think about me. I literally don't have a choice at this point. Sales dried up months ago and have ran at the same rate for a while now (4-5 months). I continued work regardless because I love the idea and know that with enough work that the game will be great. Sadly though I worked for longer than I expected and put too much time into it without laying out my priorities correctly. Now I am working as many hours as I can get to climb my way out of a financial debt and trying to give both my girlfriend, and myself a bit more of a survivable situation.

It got to the point that we were literally eating raman and rice, only raman, and rice. I kept working Project Explore despite all the warning signs around me. During the duration of the project I've lost lots of things including $200 to my ex-co-programmer who never finished more than a terrain blending re-write (which he did in under 8 hours). I have dealt with lots of hateful people, jealous game developers, and even disconnected from most of my close friends.

It has been a very lonely journey despite the many people who support me continuously. When you have a project you are really passionate about the positive comments are all but visible to you when a single negative comments lies among them. And believe me there are a lot of negative comments. If I had to guess the ratio of positive to negative in my own experience, it would probably be 80:1

The point of this whole post was to share my story. I never explained what has been hapenning behind the scenes simply because I was pretty much in denial of it myself. I couldn't see how bad things had gotten. Jesselle deserves more than to work 40+ hours a week and rarely get a decent meal. If I don't take care of my own health and wellbeing then I won't ever be able to finish any project. Believe me when I say that I am not doing as well as a 20 year old should. I can hardly run 50 feet without becoming terribly fatigued. I gained no weight but have become VERY out of shape.

Anyhow thank you for reading and I hope that if you are a fan of Project Explore, or any of my other work, that you don't lose faith in me.