Daily Post – I Wanted To Feel Human, I wanted to Feel Alive. I Thought Suicide Could Do This

Word Press Post A Day – After an especially long and exhausting drive or flight, a grueling week at work, or a mind-numbing exam period — what’s the one thing you do to feel human again?

Feeling alive again, feeling human again. How I long for those sometimes. It is so easy for me to just feel numb and dead. My depression can take over. It can consume me. Lifting a piece of paper, can feel like I just moved a boulder.

Three years ago, I wouldn’t have done anything to feel alive. After a grueling week, an exhausting week, a horrible exam, or anything that just overwhelmed me — I would have attempted suicide. If I was alive, then I could die. Bizarre thought process right? That is how it was for me though. Mental illness was lying to me, it was messing up my thoughts, my…