In the 151 days after Mo Ka met Chen Ge, everyday he warned himself not to like Chen Ge a man: "Comrade[1]MoKa, hold on. Persist in victory, in victory there is wife and children, rush ahead. But the enemy is very powerful, colliding into Mo Ka's heart scurrying around, no longer holding weapons tightly, obeidently surrender, offering/sacrificing himself

[1] 同志 comrade is a term that is used to refer to gay and lesbian identities in China.