Month: July 2017

There’s definitely a theme going on here. I wouldn’t say this is an ultimate favourite ‘artists’ list, though I have listened to theses artists albums and playlists completely, many times over, and mostly when I’m in a lost or creative mood. Several of these I can’t listen to just a few songs, I have to listen to it all otherwise I can’t sleep. Some of these artists hardly come out with anything, but I still check back occasionally to listen to the same thing. Or if there is something new it’s like a birthday present. It’s awesome but you either like it a lot or not really. Some in the list also have very little out, but I love the sound of everything.
My list is in no particular order. Some I’ve listened to while studying, while making clothes or drawing, and even while doing nothing and just staring at the ceiling for a whole hour. Also, this list was kind of hard because I had to remember a few I hadn’t listened to in a while, and like a normal person I don’t usually listen to more than a few songs from an album/artist a time.

Creedence Clearwater Revival – a recent Uber driver showed me his spotify playlist and when I saw Creedence there I went off rambling.

Twin Cabins

Gorillaz – First 3 main albums. I still like the newer 2, but I only listen to bits and pieces of them.

Pageants

Cyndi Lauper

Surf Curse

Tammi Terrell (& Marvin Gaye) – Marvin is in brackets because there’s a whole playlist on my phone of Tammi solo and some unreleased at the time which I love the most.

The Shirelles

Bon Iver

Empire of the Sun

***A few I used to listen to a while ago, and some when I was a kid. Compared to the ones above, some of these I now only listen to a few songs like normal, unlike how I would in the past.

After work, I get home quite late at night but I always have the same routine, even if I’m busting like mad… The first thing I do is change into comfy room wear, turn on my computer, and head to the kitchen. I make a hot drink, doesn’t matter if it’s got caffeine because I’m already so energized at night. Recently my diet is quite unhealthy and I have desert foods over decent nutritional meals. Oh well… I still love my vegetables. Next I finally go to the wc and bathroom to do my skin routine, just like all those videos on youtube. Lastly, I bring my ‘dinner’ to my desk and spend about 2 to 3 hours through midnight in front of my BenQ monitor, doing whatever creative hobby that takes my interest for the night. And the whole time I’m thinking to myself about how fast everything will go by and I’ll be in a completely different situation by the end of the year. I’m comfortable at the moment, but it’s been like this for a little too long now and I’m feeling extremely drained.

I’m past making plans for myself, and I’m in the action phase. I’m excited for the things coming, all the changes I will experience, all the good and bad, and all the hard work and frustrations I’ll have to endure.

Everyone has their routines, I have my small ones that I always stick to. But they’re a very small amount. Even after work, I have several ways of getting home and go with the one I’m in the mood for. If it’s later than usual like 11.30, and I’m feeling restless and want some fresh air, I will hop off the train early and walk the rest of the way home.

Like many people, my formative years were fucking nuts at times, and I’ve grown up learning to appreciate the experiences and wonderful things that come by when ‘change’ happens. Sometimes I think I need change to get energy, and just to stand having a job. I’m not talking about a holiday or vacation. I’m talking about changing jobs, doing something drastic to myself, moving, spending 3 months or more in a different place, and even completely changing or removing something in my life. I can’t stand even thinking about having a 9-5 for more than a year. In high school I made a short film about time and a girl walking around in a sort of daydream, and I think the teacher kind of understood what it was about. I need flexibility just to stay sane. My current schedule usually changes but I start to get irritated if It stays the same for more than 3 weeks.

I’m sure this isn’t gonna be so great in the future when people my age have families, a home and a career etc. But no ones life is certain so I’m not too worried. I could live till I’m 30 planning and going about my life ‘perfectly’, then something out of my control can fuck everything up and I wouldn’t know what to do. So I feel better embracing everything that could go wrong now, and appreciate how things turn out afterwards instead of trying to fix things and make them go back to how they used to be.

So I’m excited, but I’m not naive. I know there’s gonna be more frustration, stress, and exhaustion than I can handle. But it’s all part of how I’d prefer things, the peaceful moments will actually be relaxing instead of me scratching at my brain going nuts like I am now. And it will pay off in the end, if I somehow achieve those things that so many people say they ‘wish I could’ve done /pathetic sigh’. They will probably have more money and security than me, but whatever.