I apparently really need to see a doctor. One thing I've been procrastinating on since I moved back to Detroit is finding an orthopedic surgeon to check out my right knee. First I just didn't have insurance to afford it, but now I've just been lazy and most of the ones I know of around here are not spoken very highly of. I for the most part can deal with the lower mobility I have with my right knee and for the most part the pain is manageable and I keep a cane in my car and a few at home just in case, but recently it feels like it's deteriorating. I'm not sure if it's just the lack of ergonomic seating at home and work, the amount of snow I have to tredge through every day wearing me out, my weight, my age, or a combination of those items (and I have actually been working on the weight thing. I've dropped nearly 50 lbs since I moved into my new apartment in August.)

The past few days have been almost unbearable as far as the pain goes. I joined a bowling league at work we just started up and we bowl every other wed. This week at the alley I was bowling like normal and then all of a sudden I felt my right knee do one of it's 'give out' things in the middle of my throw. (the give out thing is where my knee will just stop carrying my weight, buckle, and I nearly fall but end up catching myself and it works again) It usually hurts a bit when this happens, but this time the pain was almost as bad as it was when I tore my ACL back some 18 years ago. I could barely put weight on in for the rest of the night. I still finished my game, just limped up to the line and did a standing throw (and because my arm had to work extra it hurts from the extra workout) which worked but I was in quite a lot of pain. I had been prescribed by my old doctor to take 600mg of ibuprofen 3 times a day as needed for pain way back when, and I usually haven't needed to use it, but now I'm having a hard time maintaining the pain with 800mg.... I must have really tweaked it bowling, which is usually pretty stress full on my right leg since that's the leg I end my approach on being a lefty, but usually it's just a little sore after...

Either way, it's 2 days later and the pain isn't going away. In some ways it's getting worse. Trying to sit down at BW3's for lunch was not fun.... I always knew I would need to eventually go in for knee reconstruction surgery after 20~30 years after my surgery, the doctor had said that. I always expected I could get another 5~10 years out of this knee but that may not be the case, especially if I want to keep being active and trying to work out and loose weight. I really wanna prove my Mom wrong and not have to spend the rest of my life with handicap parking and all that jazz...

In the meantime guess I'll spend the weekend babying my right leg, keeping it elevated and enjoy some movies and video games from my couch and recliner. I need to ask around and see about getting an appointment to look at the leg soon, especially if the babying this weekend doesn't help lessen the pain.......

I've been feeling exhausted lately. I have trouble articulating any thoughts because of it and I often forget what I'm doing almost as soon as I start doing it. I think I just need a day or two where I do nothing but sleep and watch TV.

Yeah tires are pretty steep. Theyre one of the reasons I keep a sears credit card on hand. For one their warrenty is good and I always have a place to goto to get tires replaced and realigned and rotated and credit to cover it just in case.

I'm ready for the snow and ice to be gone. For the first time in a very long time I actually slipped and fell this morning on my way to the car. There is usually a buildup of ice at the end of roof of the car port but I've never actually slipped on it before. Go figure, I slip and fall today, on my way to get an MRI on my knee, and I fall down almost twisting my right ankle and land right on the bum knee itself. So, I go through with the MRI, knee starting to hurt more and more despite it being laying down (though I had to keep it still) and even 4 hours later it is just throbbing and not happy.....

I hope the doctor can tell what is going on with my knee from the MRI and we can decide what is needed to get me back to a more functioning state. Honestly, I can't stand not being able to be active, especially considering my new years resolution was to work out more and try to loose some weight and hopefully a few inches off my belly.

And bowling league is tonight. Guess I'll take some meds (I need to eat lunch first) and just walk up to the line....

i hate how twerking is considered girly when a couple years back EVERY nigga up in new york thought wearing pink was cool because some rapper. i beleive jay z WORE IT ONCE! probably because it was laundry day. it s crazy how society or just people in general define manly and girly. my aspect of a man is someone who can take care of his family and who isn't ashamed of his life choices. holding your head proud and being a strong and stable person is what i use to think everyone thought a man was. guess i was wrong. apparently you need the three B's Bread (money), bitches.... and SOME MOAR BITCHES YOLOSWAG 420BLAZEIT FGT . i wear i hate how people think.

Ps: and also if i wanna twerk imma twerk!, its just i dont wanna twerk because im not good at twerking.

Castor Troy wrote:Sick of being broke all the time, so I think I want to live in the wilderness as a hermit.

you could say you're Thoreau living in an unjust state

Haha, yes!

Missed a call from work asking me to come in today on Saturday, but it was too late. Don't really care if I get yelled at or canned when I come back in on Monday. Any job that requires me to work on the weekend on short notice isn't worth my time anyways.

Gonna be stuck be some weird ass eye condition for the foreseeable future. This would be fine if I could just take the drops at home and be done with it, but I'll have to keep going back to the hospital for eye examinations, which are the single most physically uncomfortable thing I've ever experienced (Because I'm a derp and can't keep my fucking eyes open properly).

Got more coursework that I can't seem to get done. I don't know why, but any form of coursework always really drags out for me (Physics took about 3 months), and the current pieces are no different.

Beginning to really get pissed of with the way everyone around me hates each other for totally stupid reasons, whilst all pretending to be on great terms with one another.