Whew I'm tired. It wasn't really a busier day then usual but I'm beat.

I am getting Guardianship of Makayla and the last step is a Social Worker has to come see my house and talk to us and her. I spent today picking up the house and just making sure it's in order for her to come. I'm not going to fake it and have my house be completely spotless because well, that's impossible. But I do want it presentable.

I made dinner too. One of us will take the older kid(s) to soccer practice and the other stays home to make dinner and do what needs to be done. So I made taco salad....yummy.

But after all that, my feet hurt and I'm tired.

School starts on Monday for the kiddos so we're trying to establish a routine again around here. They're not too happy about the 9:00 bedtime. I am.

I think I'm rambling on. My dogs are tired and my brain wants to shut off. Oh but one last thing....ok a couple. I got a new computer so as soon as I move into my new house I will get it hooked up and be a much better blogger. And of course there will be many more pictures. This computer is just too much of a pain. We also went to the teeny tiny baby doctor...all looks good, haven't gained a pound (which with Hudson I only gained 2 lbs...weird I know), and if he/she cooperates I'll find out the sex on the 17th of September.

As I was rocking Huddie to sleep tonight that's what I was thinking about. We are busy busy people, it's unreal. Soccer, work, doctors, getting ready to move, busy. We're always in a rush...I'm constantly telling the kids go go go, hurry, let's go because there's just not time to not be rushed.

Anyway I am usually thinking gotta get the baby down to sleep fast so I can get things ready for tomorrow, get the older kids ready for bed and then get in bed myself by 9 since I wake up so early. And then I start thinking, now we're going to be having another one so I really need to get him to go to sleep on his own in his crib by February since we'll have a baby to put to sleep too. But seriously, I love rocking him. How often do you get to experience your babies being babies? My "baby" will be 10 in a couple months! I had all the time in the world for him. As a matter of fact he slept with me so instead of rocking him to sleep, I'd snuggle him to sleep.

Shortly after Hudson was born, Makayla came to live with us so suddenly I had two school aged children, a full time job, a house to clean, and a new baby. The thought of making time for all of them was, and sometimes still is, overwhelming. They have such different needs The older ones take more mental energy and the baby takes more physical energy . Plus by the time I get off work after dealing with about 900 of the most difficult people on the planet for 8 hours, I'm sucked dry.

BUT. Yes there is a but. There are a few things...well more then a few things but I'm only listing a few of them...that I absolutely love about making time for my kids.

I love having chats with my oldest son. Whether we're talking about something he got in trouble over, something great he did, something he wants to do, a girl he likes, what he did with friends, whatever. I could talk to him all night.

I love doing girly things with my niece. She likes to have her makeup done, nails painted, and hair done. We giggle and talk about her friends. And she always so much older by the time we're done.

And lastly I love rocking my baby. When I put his tummy to mine and his head lays on my arm and he just stares at me as his eye lids get heavy. I can feel him melt into me when he drifts off.