Thursday, January 26, 2012

Wakeful

Why in the night do I feel so restless. Dreams of you silent of late. Thoughts of you vivid and strong. The smell scents the sheets and I feel you in my arms, heavy and whole. Tears stain my pillow upon awareness that I felt you but could not see you sweet little man. As I try to fall into a dream again with hopes of a whispered, I love you or vision of dark hair and big smiles another tear spills as I notice I missed the window again. Upon reflection I think you were there... snuggled in close for a while working your magic. I only wish tangible the moment.

Joseph can you hear mommy? I love you more than every breath I have. I would give mine for you if possible. thinking of all that you are in heaven and loving you tender and soft. deep in my heart son.. deep in my heart. Love, mom

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Joseph Henry Jean

A Mothers Love

My name is Brandy Jean. I love my Family. My first born baby...His name is Joseph Henry Jean lives in heaven. I live in Arizona with my husband and our little's...rainbow Jonathan and the twins, Wren and Bryn... Joseph Henry was born on 10/15/2009. He died on 10/16/2009 due to multiple organ failure. My placenta abrupted and he did not get enough oxegyn during emergency C-Section. We love our son. Our life... and what our son taught us is how we are living today. What an incredible journey. Along with Loss we are survivors of Infertility... Join me in my journey through grief... Life with our "littles" With Joseph in our hearts and love that streatches from here to heaven.