contemplations and ruminations

Some days you feel great and some days you just feel like complete shit. Unfortunately, today is the latter for me.

Despite needing to study for my exam on Tuesday, I slept for most of the day. I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night and feel like something is nasty is lodged in the pit of my stomach (I like to call it Mr. Anxiety). Now that I'm finally out of bed, I have no desire to do anything. I feel run down, my head hurts and I can't seem to keep my attention focussed on any one thing for very long. I'm downloading the season premier of Canada's Next Top Model because I know it won't require any great mental effort on my part to watch it.

Maybe I could use a nice hot cup of green tea.

I feel like having a tantrum. A good, old fashioned, 8 year old style tantrum. *sigh*

Generally, painting, writing, reading or playing video games tend to relax me when I'm feeling crummy... of course, I don't really feel like I'm in the mood for any of that right now. I definitely don't feel like leaving the house either and I'm sure a bit of a walk would be really good for me. Bleh! How the mind works against me sometimes!

I have an idea (if there is time before it gets too dark). Why not take your work, and a nice snack of some kind with water etc, to the park. You can do your readings and relax outdoors... I used to do that when I felt crummy and had school work to do bac on the Island.

The thought did cross my mind. The problem is getting enough motivation to actually get up off my butt and leave the house. The thought of leaving the house is really putting me off right now. It's part of the anxiety... feeling like I just don't want to do anything.