Looking For A Woman That’s Never Been Born

One green eye, one blue. Let her wear a silver star tatted on her forehead, let her find us another earth, now that we’ve traasahed this one. An astrophysicist on the cover of Hustler – is that still around? A woman who draws an entire row of eeee’s during scrabble and still wins. The devils daughter but dressed in white. If whatever we think about we bring about, then go find her Miss Multiverse. Should keep you busy for a few. A girl that can make a delicate sound of thunder. Produce her in the flesh. While your busy doing all of that, I can pretend not to have time for it. Avoid any confrontations, direct contact and actually have to care. But hey, Im single by choice, just not my choice.

I shot off into a rant there for a minute, it happens.

I noticed recently that I might be looking for a woman that has never been born in order to not repeat the past. Interestingly enough everything we think is based on the past, is it not. We are all familiar with people who live completely in the past, lost in their memories of long ago, but we usually label such people senile or mentally ill. Certainly we are not among them. Or are we?

In A Course in Miraclesone of the lessons ask that I look around the room while I say “I see only the past” in this book, in this pencil, in this lamp, in these photographs…….It took me several tries and then I was able to perceive that we really do only see the past. I’ve heard several speakers over the years say that we have 60,000 thoughts each day, the thing is, we have the same 60,000 thoughts each day. Now I’ve never counted, so whether that is true I do not know. I will say that once you pay attention to your thoughts you will recognize the same ones coming and going.

About three years ago I decided to buy a motorhome and hit the road. I sold everything that would not fit in a motorhome, found a motorhome right down the road that was perfect. She was named Maji the Majestic. Maji, myself and my little dog Mia then hit the road. Long story short. I went out west and sat in the cathedrals of the forest of my mind. I found a incredible peace in nature but more importantly I was able to watch my thoughts. Some thoughts brought happiness but inevitably the same depressing thoughts would come back around. After several months of this I discovered that those thoughts would continue until I brought them up and looked at each one, dismantled them, forgave myself or the person involved thoroughly and then gave that thought to the Universe to burn in the fire of the sun.

I discovered that when a incident occurs that causes you emotional distress it can put you in a mood. If this mood is held onto for a long period, i.e.. I can’t believe they stole from me, that mood can turn into a personality trait. The person that was stole from now is untrustworthy of everyone. We all have become a product of our experiences. We only see the past.

This is just an invitation to take a look for yourself and see what you find. To know yourself puts you on the road to conquering yourself.

A Course in Miracles – Lesson 7
I see only the past.

This idea is particularly difficult to believe at first. Yet it is the rationale for all of the preceding ones.

It is the reason why nothing that you see means anything.
It is the reason why you have given everything you see all the meaning that it has for you.
It is the reason why you do not understand anything you see.
It is the reason why your thoughts do not mean anything, and why they are like the things you see.
It is the reason why you are never upset for the reason you think.
It is the reason why you are upset because you see something that is not there.

Old ideas about time are very difficult to change, because everything you believe is rooted in time, and depends on your not learning these new ideas about it. Yet that is precisely why you need new ideas about time. This first time idea is not really so strange as it may sound at first.

Look at a cup, for example. Do you see a cup, or are you merely reviewing your past experiences of picking up a cup, being thirsty, drinking from a cup, feeling the rim of a cup against your lips, having breakfast and so on? Are not your aesthetic reactions to the cup, too, based on past experiences? How else would you know whether or not this kind of cup will break if you drop it? What do you know about this cup except what you learned in the past? You would have no idea what this cup is, except for your past learning. Do you, then, really see it?

Look about you. This is equally true of whatever you look at. Acknowledge this by applying the idea for today indiscriminately to whatever catches your eye. For example:

I see only the past in this pencil.
I see only the past in this shoe.
I see only the past in this hand.
I see only the past in that body.
I see only the past in that face.

Do not linger over any one thing in particular, but remember to omit nothing specifically. Glance briefly at each subject, and then move on to the next. Three or four practice periods, each to last a minute or so, will be enough.