November 1, 2008

some say,im da kinda of guy which in the hepi go lucky type.is it true?well, i have to say just..susah gak r org nk tgk aku muka com @ susah ati @ tak lalu nk makn ker..im just not dat kind of guy.. why should u be upset eventhough u got a problem?just relax, calm down let it pass by.. u wil have to face it anyhow so why be upset?just stay hepy 4get bout it for a while n when u r ready fight it like hell.trust me.. no matter how hard, no matter how deep, no matter how difficult we can overcome it..or its just gonna be hanging around u or hunt u down..but why should u let it bring u down?it shouldn't..dats why i choose to be hepi go lucky just stay hepy all da time.eventhough there r so much pain in me, soo much probs, soo much responsible laying on my shoulder, so many things to face, so many fucking person i hate dat i have to face everyday damn day, but will i let it bring me down?

hell no..

yes sumtimes it get into my head.. but just for a while.. if u ever find me down, just leave me for a while..trust me.. i'll be back on my feet as good as new.as gud as fun as great as i used to be..because in just human..i do have feeling..sumtimes i loose control of myself.trust me, when i do, i dun wanna be near me..because im a very hot tempered, a short fuse, a loose cannon, not a wise one when im angry..i tried to keep it deep deep inside.as far as i can push it down..i dun wanna let anybody see the real me..the jerk,the bastard, the asshole dat i am, n who i alway be..i cant buried it 4 good.. its just who i am..but i can promise one thing, i can control it..even in the hardest situation..

dats why i choose to be

HAPPY GO LUCKY..

because sumtimes its easier to pretend to be a person dat u r not just to fit in, otherwise i will die alone.. it is hard but i can try.. yes! im trying..

October 31, 2008

i dedicated this entry to all my frens.. may all the memory we share together will alway be as good as it is.. frens4eva..no matter what.. i luv all of u no matter where u r.. honestly, i really miss the time when we r still in skool where we can fool around,skip tuition class together, skip skool, even skip puasa n eat popcorn in cinema (i will never 4get dat..seriously),hang out together at oldtown or McD or Swenz Kopitiam..

October 30, 2008

give up?was its worth?after all u been through to get to this far?after all the problem n trouble u face?after all the consequence u pay?again..i ask..was it worth?hell no..i'll keep fighting no matter what..i put a lot on the line to be here..blood sweat n tears had been wastedyess.i will fight!!!!no matter what..this is my time to shine..eventhough i noe sumone else will outshine mei dun care..i will fight..give up is not an option..to all the one dat doubtjustrise ur finger middle finger n sayFUCK YOU...