32 comments:

Dear, sweet, kind, amazing woman. I hope the sadness leaves soon and all that remains is great and abiding joy and love. You have done something wonderful. I only wish I lived closer so I could come and make you tea and hug you when you need it.I hope your 3 year-old is home soon.

I don't remember how I came across your blog, but I've been following you for a few weeks. I think that you are incredibly selfless to bless another family with such an amazing gift. I will pray for God to heal your broken heart.

Rebekah - Just wanted to let you know I have been praying for you the last couple of days. I won't even pretend to understand what you are feeling right now, however, I hope you allow yourself to feel everything and lean on our heavenly Father during this time. He so wants to be there for you.

I think I would feel the same way you do- so many conflicting emotions all at once. I know this is the most difficult and generous thing a person could do and I, a stranger, are proud of you. I work with very stressed people and my only advice is to break it down into tiny parts, like 1 hour at a time, rather than the whole day, or god forbid, your whole life. You know he is safe. Now you can concentrate of yourself. You have my utmost respect for what you have chosen for your son. Good job!cathy

Oh becky! I'm crying! You have done SUCH an amazing thing! My beautiful cousin, my heart is sad for such a loss but ecstatic for the gift of life and love U have given. I am SO, SO proud of u! If u need anything, u know how to reach me. I am forever in love with you!Cindie

Are you ok to be home alone already? In my state they keep you 48 hours after birth? I just hope you are doing ok, I know this is emotionally heartbreaking but you need to physically be taken care of too.

as happy as i am for your baby boy's parents, i'm heartbroken for you. for them to have a whole heart, yours had to be broken, and i hate that.

i will be praying for you, dear sister in Christ... every day & night... i promise you that. i trust that the Lord will give you comfort, peace, and strength as well as healing - physical AND emotional.

i'm sorry you have to feel this pain. please know that you're not forgotten - the attention of some may be focused on the other rebekah & ben, but you are still the focus in my mind (well, you and the baby) because you need my (and everyone else's) prayers more than anyone & now more than ever.

please do keep us updated... if your heart can't handle sharing details, that's fine, but please just let us know how you're doing whenever you can. i still care. very much.

I just want you to know that I am praying for you and this remarkable journey you are on! Your baby boy is precious, the parents you have chosen for him are going to be great and you my dear are an amazing person! Best wishes to you and your beautiful children!Hugs from Georgia,Samantha

i'm not just saying that... most of the time when people say a newborn is beautiful during their first couple of days after birth, it's a lie, many newborns are quite ugly... but he truly is beautiful. honestly.

Oh! I am sure it is especially hard to go from the hospital where there are people with you all the time to home where there is noone. Plus, Ty was with you for 9 months too so you were really never alone.

What a sweet story unfolding of pain, loss, and sacrifice. For you to know in your head you cannot parent another child right now but to feel in your heart a connection to him must be so tough. Plus they are so cute when they are tiny...but SO much work that first year too!! I hope you will have some company soon. :)

All I can say is that you are a hero. You have done something so selfless and beautiful and hard and painful and you should be proud. Don't push yourself too hard too soon. Take care. And mourn the loss and bask in the new dreams. God is in the quiet. I am praying for your broken heart to be filled with His love.

But mostly I'm in awe of what you have chosen. Not the easy road for sure. Have been thinking about you the last two days (but didn't check my blogroll). Glad to see "all" is well. Hope you can find sweet solace for you broken heart.

He's absolutely beautiful! You did such a wonderful thing, Rebekah. I can't imagine the emotions you're going through right now. It's okay to feel all of the things you are feeling. I pray that God gives you peace in your heart. You're an amazing woman.

What a beautiful boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I agree with the above comment, your hair is really cute too- u should post pictures of yourself more often.

I am really sad for your broken heart. I've said many prayers for you over the past couple of weeks. I do worry for you. Please continue to update when you can with specific prayer requests...I've checked back like 10 times today!

What a beautiful boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I agree with the above comment, your hair is really cute too- u should post pictures of yourself more often.

I am really sad for your broken heart. I've said many prayers for you over the past couple of weeks. I do worry for you. Please continue to update when you can with specific prayer requests...I've checked back like 10 times today!

Prayers to you. You are amazing. After I read he was born yesterday, tears streamed down my face for you. You are what a real mother is, selfless, giving, kind. What you did was nothing short of a miracle. The LOVE you have brought to this earth is so wonderful.

Please take one moment at a time. Prayers that your broken heart begins to mend.

Your an amazing mom. I am the product of the other end of adoption. I was give to my adoptive family when I was 3 days old. I don't know my birth parents even though I have wondered many times what their entire story is. I do know that my birth mother did not feel she could support me and gave me up at birth as you have done. For me it turned out amazing. Following you I feel like I have followed my own mother in a lot of ways as I'm sure she was also heartbroken. My adoptive parents were wonderful parents and I had a wonderful childhood. Thank you for being a wonderful mom and knowing your limits.

Hi.... I know you're spinning right now. Just breathe. The Lord will guide you and satisfy your needs...He'll stengthen your frame. If you are out today or tomorrow, or whenever; and you see some flowers for sale -- take the time and stop to deeply smell them. You've brought so much joy into the world with what you've done. I'd compare it to the same kind of indescrible feeling you get when you smell a good rose. There's nothing like it. :) You've brought that into the world with the birth of Ty. From here until Eternity - enjoy the flowers because you are brighter and more beautiful than they could ever be. Just a Word for you today....

In your darkest moments I KNOW God will hold your tender, giving, broken heart in his hands. I to have a broken heart, and it seems each day gets a little easier. Joy returns I promise! Each day the sunshine gets brighter! You are in my prayers.(((Hugs))) Alicia

Dear R!I am so sorry for your heartbreak! I can't imagine!As an adoptive mother, my heart goes out to you....I've seen and known that pain from my two children's bmoms!!Praying for your peace and comfort! It will take time but, if this is the plan that you want for your child, the open relationship you will have with R and B will help ease your pain and sustain you!Blessings and hugs to you!!

Me: My name is Rebekah. I am a child of the most high God and the mother to six precious children, four of which I parent, one who went to be with Jesus at six weeks gestation, and the last one (sweet Tyrus) who I relinquished to adoption. This blog highlights all the good the bad and the ugly parts of being a single mom and also a birth mom. Truth be told, I'm just a sinner saved by grace, and I have made a lot of mistakes, but its all about counting the cost and moving on and making life better, because life is good....really really good.

Chelsea: My firstborn. She was born with a crooked nose and a personality that caught every ones attention. She is independent, and loving, and very girly. Give her some hairspray and some makeup and a pair of skinny jeans and she is happy. Thankfully her nose straightened out but the rest of her stayed the same...I'm so glad.

Victoria: My second born. Thoughtful, serious and beautiful are words that sum up Victoria since she was born. It took a lot to make her smile as a baby but when she did it lit up the room. Now that she is older she is still serious, but also very loving and likes to kiss my cheek all the time. She is sneaky yet likes to please. She loves animals and I wouldn't be surprised if she became an animal activist some day.

Matthew: My third born. Movin Movin Movin would describe Matt exactly. He is just a bundle full of energy. He doesn't like video games or TV, he would rather be outside throwing a football or riding his bike. He is all boy. He is my fix it kid. Give him a screw driver and he will figure it out.

Skyler: My fourth born. The baby of the family is exactly what little Sky is. I think he knows this and plays all of us for all we are worth. Trouble would be the word I would use to describe him. Don't leave him alone for a minute or he will be playing cars through a pile of flour in my living room. Even though he is into everything, he is such a sweetheart and we all love him very much.