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Friday, September 24, 2010

I don't think I will ever get over this man. You read to him your feelings and how you feel about him and when your done he says nothing. What am I suppose to do with that???

Sometimes I secretly want to be a sexy dancer. I'm pretty good at it too. When I'm bored I listen to my i-pod and just start dancing! It relieves a lot of stress. It would be AWESOME being a dancer! All you would have to do is be good at it and catch on with steps pretty fast. I could do it!

I'm so terrified of dating again. He says that I'll still date. But I won't, as sad as it sounds I believe that all guys are the same. Not trustworthy, cheating men. Sorry men...I've been in some messed up relationships. I'm also afraid that they would leave me, so like I did with my previous relationship...I'll mess it up and then they do end up leaving. Mind over Body he would always tell me. I should have listened... He was the only one that wasn't the same as all men...which explains why I'm still in love with him. It's hard to find good guys out there. They're either gay or taken. lol!

I use to not be afraid of marriage but now I am. I wish I wasn't...Marriage is a big thing though...You have to spend the rest of your life with that person!!!! Forever and ever and ever and ever.... What if they cheat, lie, steal... ugh, so many things. Now I'm not saying I'm perfect because I've done all 3 of those things too. But I'm at the point where I'm done hurting ppl and lying. I've matured...I wish some people could see that.

Idk if I still want to do teaching. It's my heart and passion to teach kids and watch them learn and grow but there is so many other things I want to do also. I want to be everything!!! I also want to travel and learn different cultures and explore new things. The only person I would do that with was of course...."him".