War In Iraq To End In August 2010You know this would be a wonderful thing to see happen. But I think the only way I can believe it is when I see it. He seems confident in the words he is saying; but than there is life and how life can be. It's just the way of the world.

50 Things About Me1. What is your best friends name?
Lexi.
2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
Multicolored.
3. What are you listening to right now?
the tv, Psych is on.
4. Whats your favorite number?
hmm, 15 was my favorite jersey number growing up
5. What was the last thing you ate?
Burritos and chips and salsa.
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
PINK!
7. How is the weather right now?
Cold and a little snowy.
8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?
My mom.
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Smile or butt, depending on what side I'm viewing. lol
10. Do you have a significant other?
Nope.
11. Favorite TV show?
Law and Order: SVU.
12. Siblings?
None.
13. Height?
6 foot even.
14. Hair color?
Blond.
15. Eye Color?
Green.
16. Do you wear contacts?
I sure do.
17. Favorite Holiday?
Thanksgiving. mmm green bean casserole.
18. Month?
You want my favorite? March. My birth month and National

Shake Ya Lulz1]How tall are you barefoot?
about 5'10
2] Have you ever smoked heroin?
Nope.
3] Do you own a gun?
Nope.
4] Rehab?
Amazing band ♥
5] Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"?
This situation has not happened more than once so not really
6] What do you think of your friends?
I have those?€
7] What's your favorite Christmas song?
These are a few of my favorite things
8] What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Water
9] Do you do push-ups?
girlie ones
10] Have you ever done ecstasy?
nope
11] Are you vegetarian?
lulz bacon!
12] Do you like painkillers?
heck yes.
13] What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
titties n ass
14] Do you own a knife?
a steak knife
15] Do you have A.D.D.
SHINY *o*
16] Date Of Birth?
Dec 30
17] Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
My throat hurts, God I need to get my homework done, and i need booze
18] Name the last 3 things you have bought?
Rock Star, Amp,

Really?seriously, i have two nsfw folders that have pictures in them. i had one unlocked to friends, the other to family. when i started getting the assholes in my shoutbox that couldn't understand that having a picture up did NOT mean i wanted to fuck them, i locked the second album back to family.
now, the album names are "don't bother asking for more..." and "don't ask, you can't see them" ... you'd fucking think people would figure that meant "don't fucking ask"... but no, of course not.
yet again today someone asked to see all my folders... now, at some point i will probably unlock the one that was unlocked originally, but people you're NEVER going to see all my pictures unless I FUCKING DECIDE TO UNLOCK THEM OR ADD YOU TO FAMILY. absoFUCKINGlutely NOTHING you say will EVER make me do it.
so for future reference: the answer to "can i see all your folders" is "no, but now you can be blocked for being an asshole considering it says not to ask."
oh and btw, stupidity WILL be m

03/01/2009dyam baby, all that hottness turned my software into hardware

Coast Guard Searching For Missing Nfl Players!The Coast Guard searched off Florida's Gulf Coast on Sunday for a fishing boat carrying NFL players Corey Smith and Marquis Cooper and two other men missing more than a day in choppy seas.
Smith, a defensive end for the Detroit Lions, and Cooper, an Oakland Raiders linebacker, were on a 21-foot vessel that left Clearwater Pass for a fishing trip Saturday morning and did not return as expected, the Coast Guard said Sunday. Crews used a helicopter and an 87-foot ship to search a 750-square mile area west of Clearwater Pass, but poor weather made the search difficult. Officials did not receive a distress signal from the missing craft.
Cooper owns the boat and he and Smith have been on fishing trips before, said Ron Del Duca, Smith's agent. The pair had been teammates on the Tampa Bay Buccaneers in 2004. Two others were aboard: Will Bleakley and Nick Schuyler, both former University of South Florida players.
Coast Guard Capt. Timothy M. Close said the weather early Saturday had be

Sheep, Love, And Everything1]How tall are you barefoot?
about 6'
2] Have you ever smoked heroin?
Nope.
3] Do you own a gun?
Nope.
4] Rehab?
Its for quitters
5] Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"?
i always end up humiliating myself
6] What do you think of your friends?
Wat?
7] What's your favorite Christmas song?
FAIRYTALE OF NEW YORK
8] What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Coffee
9] Do you do push-ups?
Oddly, my fat ass can, yes
10] Have you ever done ecstasy?
not yet
11] Are you vegetarian?
Nein
12] Do you like painkillers?
Ya'RLY!
13] What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
My Vag
14] Do you own a knife?
im not mexican
15] Do you have A.D.D.
OCD mehbee
16] Date Of Birth?
November 5th
17] Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
Life, The Universe, and Everything
18] Name the last 3 things you have bought?
AIDS
Rockstars/coffee
Colostomy bag
19] Name five drinks you regularly drink:
Coffee
R

27 Days And Counting,blah!Well its here its almost here.Good bye 20's here comes the 30's...Yeah i know this rant is a bit early but im having one of those fucked up, overly emotional, nothing but nonsense, bullshit kinda days...I have nothing to show for this past 10 years,at least in my own mind.I settled to early i wanted a house some kids a rock solid marriage a career....I have none of that,had it,but now its gone..still no kids that really hurts some days, but hey i guess its just not meant to be,thats what i tell myself when it makes me crazy...enough of that shit,ill make myself cry...when is my luck going to turn around...Is there that right person for me out there, is there anything out there for me i just dont know anymore..i hope so, but thats all i got is hopes and dreams that fade more and more everyday it seems....I sit here everyday and think about the days im losing and the time that ive lost over these past few years....knowing all to well that its never coming back...what ever im sure this w

Llamas Special Prayer Request NeededMichelle~R/L Wife of Miracle Monkey~Winterhawk~Native American Pride~Member of Llama Levelers@ fubar
Miracle Monkey Chief of N.A.P, Founder of Llama Levelers@ fubar
Co-Founder of Our Llama Family"Dave and Michelle" and their family are in need of prayer tonight-I won't go into detail but please keep them in your thoughts and prayers!!Dave and Michelle we love you both and know were thinking of you and ur family!!Our Prayers are with you always!!

My First Auctionthis is my verst first auction. just trying it out to see how it goes. stop by and check me and the other guyz and gals out. :D
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Taken From Sherry, She Made Me Do It.1]How tall are you barefoot?
5'10''
2] Have you ever smoked heroin?
Oh hell no
3] Do you own a gun?
Yup
4] Rehab?
Never needed it, never plan on it
5] Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"?
uhm no?
6] What do you think of your friends?
I love them to death
7] What's your favorite Christmas song?
Christmas Baby(please come home) Darleen Love
8] What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Hot tea with sugar
9] Do you do push-ups?
I can and i will
10] Have you ever done ecstacy?
No
11] Are you vegetarian?
for the most part
12] Do you like painkillers?
I love them and i have some now
13] What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
Duct Tape
14] Do you own a knife?
I haz a meat cleaver
15] Do you have A.D.D.
Nope.
16] Date Of Birth?
3/28/1981
17] Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
I don't feel good
I need a shower
I need to mail Sherry a package
18] Name the last 3 things you have

Nsfw PicFUBAR BOUNCER.....32,MALE FROM MILPITAS,CA.... HAS SAID ONE OF MY PICS ISNT NSFW... IT IS A SAYING CALLED GREAT PIECE OF ASS, ALOT OF ON HERE HAVE IT, NOTHING WRONG WITH THE SAYING. THIS FU-BOUNCER IS BLIND.... IT ISNT SHOWING ANY NUDITY AT ALL, SO HE NEEDS TO OPEN HIS EYES. DONT YOU ALL AGREE

Who Am Iwho am i i have no clue for the longest time I was the man in love with YOU Now You've found another I tried to deny it But sadly it's true
All the love I have is No good for you I dont think of you often only day and night I can't help it still LOVE YOU with ALL of My broken heart! So i put on this mask and pretend I'm not dying but one look in my eye would easily show the lieing Where is my self respect? my pride,my cool?All tossed out the window with the thought of being with YOu I invested much more than I told All I could see was You by myside as we grow old Now I'm lost with out a single clue
My whole world burst into flames the moment I
knew this was more than just a fling and he loves you Too

Somethings About Me ...prt 3..the Final!1 - I like giving and not recieving (with everything )
2 - I can bench press 120 kg.
3 - MooMoos daughter loves me.
4 - I can be sarcastic (99% of the time)
5 - I think Shosh is my evil soul mate with girl bits.
6 - I once ate 24 Lamingtons at my sisters wedding feast (a sponge cube shape cake with chocolate covering sprinkled with coconut)
7 - I've never been married or had kids
8 - I once went out with a girl 18 yrs younger (and no, it's not Moos daughter)
9 - I'm romantic and like to cuddle (specially big breasted women).
10 - I love salads and cold chicken in summer and hot Baked chicken with baked vegies covered in gravy in winter.

I Robbed Sherry.1]How tall are you barefoot?
about 5'3
2] Have you ever smoked heroin?
Nope.
3] Do you own a gun?
Nope.
4] Rehab?
Why would I go to rehab?
5] Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"?
A little. If a relationship has gotten that far, I'd really hope they'd like me
6] What do you think of your friends?
I ♥ my friends
7] What's your favorite Christmas song?
Carol of Bells
8] What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Coffee
9] Do you do push-ups?
I probably could...
10] Have you ever done ecstasy?
Nope
11] Are you vegetarian?
nah, but I probably could be
12] Do you like painkillers?
Only when I'm in pain.
13] What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
It's so secret I don't even know. If I knew, I wouldn't be single.
14] Do you own a knife?
Nope
15] Do you have A.D.D.
I seriously think I do
16] Date Of Birth?
June 14
17] Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
Smoking
Sex
Drinking
18] Na

Funny ThingsFunny the twist and turns life brings us though you can go in the course of a few months you can go from having every thing to having nothing and then while you down you realize its not that bad and that you will survive. I feel i had to go down to rediscover myself now i am happy and good friends with the one who helped put me down. to that person i have only one thing to say. thank you! i needed this to every one else watch out cuse here i come

Bound By DesireCaptured by my lustful thoughts and cravings,
I have you bound by desire.
Tide up with ropes of my tongue and spanked with whips of my passion.
feel that fire in which our souls are chained .
Blindfolded with the silk desires of the untold reality that is bound inside you.
Not knowing what sinful desire you will receive next ,
But are willing even more.
A pull of the hair,
A thrust from the rear
A smack on the hip,
Just give me that code word and I will stop the trip.
By Sterling P. Carroll

March TearsI hate the month of march. I had not even realized it was already here till i got out of the shower to check some of my other web pages. This month brings the worst memories of my life back... In march of 1996 my best fired turned 15, but by March 26th she was gone. She had gone down town to some shoping, left the shop of a family friend to call home. Jennifer never made it home for months no one even new what had happend or where she was. That summer a body was found on the side of an old rearly used road. it took dental records to id that it was her. The Venturea Ca police had to face the fact that she did not run away. The facts lead all to belive that she never made that call home, and she didnt live past that day. Her case is unsolved last i heard and very cold. I think about her all the time and every march is a very hard time as these memories came back as clear as when it happend

It's My First Time.....................♥TwiZted ViXen♥
Is in a St Patrick's day Auction
What she is offering is:
If Fu-bucks bid given:
~♥~ 1 SFW salute
~♥~ Your name in mine for 1 month
~♥~ Link to your profile in mine for 1 month
~♥~ Top friend # 2 for one month
~♥~ Daily drinks for a month
~♥~ Rate all photos
~♥~ Daily gifts for a month
If cash bid given:
~♥~ Your name in mine for 2 months
~♥~ Top friend #2 for 2 months (permanent spot in top friends if cash bid exceeds $50)
~♥~ 1 personal morph (if cash bid exceeds $50 I will also make a morph for 2 friends of your choice also)
~♥~ Added to top family for 2 months (if cash bid exceeds $50 permanent spot in top family will be given
~♥~ Permanent link to your profile in mine if cash bid exceeds $50
~♥~ I

I'm SureSo,I have 3 packs of cigarettes left and then I am done.I promised myself and my kids I would quit. Now,I have a massive oral fixation (shut up!!) and I need to find something else to chew on etc etc. Suggestions other than ones manhood would be nice.

Counseling SuggestionsPotential Counseling Clients and Some Words of Wisdom ( Josie & Kevin )
1. For the downsized -- who can't understand why loyalty wasn't rewarded
Nobody owes you a living. You can't rely on an employer for your whole existence,
they can only supplement you. Compute your minimal needs and try to get an
employer to supply that. Understand which of your limits are artificial and can be changed.
2. For the downtrodden -- oppressed, out oftime to fill in forms again and again
Needless to say, your typing skills come in handy filling out forms. This is simplified if
you have a generic form already well prepared. Or get a friend to do it for you.
3. For the down-of-luck--can't postpone punishment for admitted goofups and have damaged their reputation
Only moving to another location may solve a reputation screwup. Honesty is the best policy
--have the attitude to make amends, a willingness to change. You have to know what you're
good at to have confidence.
4.

Soldier Sunday 3/13/1/2009
Opened show with American Soldier by Toby Keith
First off, I would like to take a moment of silence to remember those that will never come home…..
We must never forget those people who give all they have so others can share in our freedoms.
SO DEAR TO MY HEART
So dear to my heart are my loved ones at home
As I toss and I turn in my bunk all alone.
Everyday I see death, hate, and corruption
Combat is God's proof of man's malfunction
For family, comrades, and myself I pray
To my love with this poem I wish to convey.
I knew I loved you though never how much
Till by war, I'm forced beyond your touch.
Where violence thrives, there's the stench of death
With the taste of fear on every breath.
Who shall prevail, who shall die
As the sadistic kill beneath God's sky.
Baghdad has become man's highway to hell
Where the hearts of darkness are alive and well.
I count each day till it's time to come home
And be with my love and never alone.
Love

Omg!! So Happy!!So the county's public schools are closed tomorrow which means no lab at the elementary school. Then my professor writes and says class is cancelled altogether!!
Since I work at a public high school in the afternoon, I have no work tomorrow afternoon.
Which means I have THE ENTIRE DAY OFF tomorrow!!!
*does the happy dance*
Yes, be jealous, VERY jealous! Although, I have plenty of homework I'll be doing tomorrow.

Taken From Crystal1]How tall are you barefoot?
ALMOST 5'2 {hush}
2] Have you ever smoked heroin?
Nope.
3] Do you own a gun?
Nope.
4] Rehab?
LOL! Never.
5] Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"?
Nope.
6] What do you think of your friends?
I love them dearly.
7] What's your favorite Christmas song?
Santa Baby
8] What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Coffee with a lil caramel vanilla creamer.
9] Do you do push-ups?
I can.
10] Have you ever done ecstacy?
Nope
11] Are you vegetarian?
No
12] Do you like painkillers?
I don't like them, but I have to take them sometimes.
13] What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
If I tell you I will have to keel you.
14] Do you own a knife?
Kitchen knives. lol
15] Do you have A.D.D.
Nope.
16] Date Of Birth?
5/22/67 {I know, I'm old}
17] Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
Sex
A certain someone
Getting this done.
18] Name the last 3 things you have bought?
New

Remember We All Get OldOLD PEOPLE
We love to see life
Feel the glow of the sun,
To feel the earth beneath our feet,
see the water in rivers and streams run.
We love to be with family
We enjoy our friends,
BUT
What do we do?
How do we feel?
When they don't want us.
Old people.
We don't walk as fast, see as good,
or hear as well as we did.
We do talk about the past
they feel, too much.
We helped shape our world,
Gave life to our children.
We gave ideas and ideals to live by,
and gave them a chance to grow.
They depended on us as babies.
Needed us as children.
Tolerated us as young adults.
They forgot us when they became adults.
Old people become old
because....
They are pushed back,
overlooked ~ forgotten.
WHY?
They answer, you have done your part.
Now it's our turn...
FOR WHAT???
We are forced to grow old
The world is only for the young
NO WAY~NEVER~NOT ME
I will fight, stay active and young at

147Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first. - Mark Twain

Lampoonlampoon \lam-POON\, noun, verb:
1. a composition that imitates or misrepresents someone's style, usually in a humorous way
2. a light, good-humored satire

To All The Mom's"A Mother's Love"
From the moment of birth,
a mother's life changes
When she sets eyes on her baby,
her world rearranges.
Through thick and thin,
She'll see them through
Just to hear them say,
"Mom, I Love You."
She comforts them and
helps them conquer their fears
Laughs with them, cries with them,
and wipes their tears.
Her own wishes and desires
come second best,
That her children may be
well fed and dressed.
A mother will always be
the best she can be,
Some things that no one
Else can see.
Seeing hope, and seeing dreams,
Seeing pranks, and seeing schemes.
Love for her child will not be
far from a mother's heart,
Until the unfortunate day
In which they must part.
A mother will love her child
until the day that she dies,
And her dying request will be
"Please wipe my baby's eyes."
Mother
There never was or could ever be
A dearer mother than God gave me
From a

Thank You All!Thank You!
I just want to say thank you to everyone that helped me reach Lost Soul this morning! It has been a long journey since I began the site way back when it was Lost Cherry back in June of 06.
I have made wonderful kick ass friendships from the site, both in real life and online friendships. So many people I would do anything for. You all rock in my book!
I may not be doing as much on here, nor pointwhoring quite as much because my carpal tunnel has started acting up quite a bit, and I apologize for that, just know that I will do as much as I can for each of you, within my limits of course.
Friday when I began this journey to really level, I figured it would take at least 2 weeks, and a lot more being a hooka for points. I had over 13 million to go, last night I went to bed with about 1.5 million to go figuring I could work on it today. I got woke at 4:30 am by a phone call from my bish iDaHo (my real life bestie, go love up on her!) saying wake up wake up wake up you

You Are Here For A ReasonPurpose
We all have some kind of purpose,
It's not to hurt people
or tell them their worth.
Everyone was put here
with an equal chance,
Take a look around you,
take a good long glance.
Some were meant to heal,
and some to teach,
Some are used to build,
and some to reach.
You may not know
your purpose just yet,
God will tell you,
when he knows you are set.
Don't rush your fate,
it has already been planned.
And God will always be there
to lend a helping hand.
You will go through times
that are really rough,
But you will always have someone,
when the going gets tough.
Don't judge others,
for when you do,
There is always
someone else,
judging you.
Think about things
before they are said,
Say your prayers
before going off to bed.
Take time just to sit,
and observe all things,
A flower and its petals,
or a bird and its wings.
For when you

Always Tell Them You Love Them..you Never KnowWe always think that our lives will be perfect,
especially when we bring a newborn child into the world
But sometimes...."God" has different plans for us...
Sometimes God gives us an angel
and doesn't tell us. Until afterwards.
It changes our lives forever
"The baby has died"
The words no one can say.
Half truths.Turning away. Avoiding eyes.
And pain becomes so powerful
That it pushes everything else far away.
So far away.
Were there ever good feelings?
Where is joy? Eager anticipation? Smiles?
Excitement? Pleasure? Most of all...
Where is love?
You feel nothing but pain.
Pain does go away. It uses itself up.
After its harsh, tormenting , and constant
Battering of self and soul,
Pain slowly stops. With cost, of course.
For feeling always costs.
And emptiness remains.
Sometimes the pain returns as part of the price of life.
But never with such intensity.
The memories of pain begin,
Yet are less intense.

Please ReadTHINGS I'VE LEARNED
I've learned...
You cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
I've learned...
that no matter how much you care,
some people just don't care back.
I've learned...
that it takes years to build up trust,
and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned...
that it's not what you have in life
but who you have in your life that counts
I've learned...
that you can get by on charm for about
fifteen minutes...
After that, you better know something.
I've learned...
that you shouldn't compare
yourself to the best others can do.
I've learned...
that you can do something in an instant
that can give you heartache for life.
I've learned...
that it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.
I've learned...
that you should always leave loved ones
with loving words, it may be the
last time you see

Cunfooshuss Say......want to be a lady, act like one...... otherwise ur just a tramp.
I think that cunfooshuss resides at disney.
sb convo:

When Chihuahua's AttackI was at work today happily playing photographer having a fairly good day when I was the recipient of an unprovoked attack from a vicious chihuahua. I mean this thing was angry, it tried to rip my face off then when it couldn't it settled on my pant leg.
I learned some things about chihuahuas today I'd like to share:
- They are enraged by flashing lights
- You should not name one nugget
- If you own a chihuahua named nugget you are an idiot
- Once one attaches itself you you its like a mini vice grip
- They are fucking ugly
- I hate them
- They have the tenacity of Rocky Balboa
So this thing is gnawing away on my pant leg like he is Jesus at the last supper and the useless owner is sitting there yelling at it, not doing anything. The yelling seemed to egg it on because every time he yelled "NUGGET STOP THAT!" it attacked with renewed vigor. Now I need new khakis. Finally I release my pant leg from its jaws of vengeance and pushed it away. I can't really blame the

ConservativesA friend of mine wrote this on his blog. It relates back to what I wrote some time ago about fundamentalism and speaks to the fundamentalist beliefs of people from different backgrounds than you usually consider to be fundamentalists.
What follows is from Tim Bryce:
Following the release of one of my more politically inclined columns, I was accused by a reader of being an ultra conservative. The reader based his comments on established stereotypes of conservatives which I personally find distasteful. Such images have become rather old and tiresome, but were still effective in last year's elections. These stereotypes were concocted by the Media over time and inevitably raise their ugly heads during election time. What concerns me though is these images are simply fallacious and aimed at misleading people away from the true issues at hand. Let me give you some prime examples of conservative stereotypes:
CONSERVATIVES ARE PRO-BUSINESS, EVEN AT THE EXPENSE OF SQUASHING ANYTHING T

Mug Cake5 MINUTE CHOCOLATE MUG CAKE
4 tablespoons flour
4 tablespoons sugar
2 tablespoons cocoa
1 egg
3 tablespoons milk
3 tablespoons oil
3 tablespoons chocolate chips (optional)
A small splash of vanilla extract
1 large coffee mug
Add dry ingredients to mug, and mix well. Add the egg and mix thoroughly.
Pour in the milk and oil and mix well.
Add the chocolate chips (if using) and vanilla extract, and mix again.
Put your mug in the microwave and cook for 3 minutes at 1000 watts.
The cake will rise over the top of the mug, but don't be alarmed!
Allow to cool a little, and tip out onto a plate if desired.
EAT! (this can serve 2 if you want to feel slightly more virtuous).
And why is this the most dangerous cake recipe in the world ?
Because now we are all only 5 minutes away from chocolate cake at any time of the day or night!

Ya Want One?I am going to be making salutes for friends in the next few days. I need to know if you want one. Once school starts I will be busy smacking my head on the desk so if you want it to be pretty,you need to tell me now. Cuz I am thinking the dark circles and bruises are not gonna look great for one. Okie dokie pokers...let me know in this and I will get to it.

What Do You Think Of Mr. Obama.Regardless of what you have seen on tv or read in the news paper, Mr. Obama has created the biggest federal deficit in the history of the world! And he has accomplished this in just 40 days!!! Now that is awsome!!! Isn't it?
I am sure alot of people will be upset for me writing anything bad about this man, but I am trying to get my thoughts out there! I will try to put a more in depth note together and have it on my main page for all to read. Also, I would like for anybody intereasted to go to www.christianaction.org and watch the trailer! This is going to blow your mind! I promise you that! Please leave comments!

OutlookYesterday was a fast track, and I raced around the morning till everything was a blur trying to get so much accomplished, complete so many laps at record speed. I started home after working through the morning and running half a dozen errands and my mind was racing along still 'on track', and then something caught my eye.
At first, it was just another office building, a little off the beaten path, but nothing extraordinary in the architecture. But there was this tree adorned with flowers as big as my hand. The tree wasn't very tall or thick, but it was home to these amazing blossoms. The sky was grey and there was no doubt the rain would take the sky hostage later on.
I pulled into the parking lot and pulled out my camera. Then starting back I saw another tree. This time a tulip tree. The area around the office building was modest houses, and apartment buildings that were losing the battle with shabbiness. But someone had taken the time to plant and tend somet

My First Auction!!I"m up for auction please come bid !!!
the higher your offer the more ill add for you
any request you can pm me
smooches and hugs to you
(repost of original by '~~ stormwoman~~"owned by TEDDY T."' on '2009-03-01 16:25:42')

What's Sexy About Libra WomenWhat's Sexy About Libra Women
Make the Most of Your Natural Sex Appeal
A Libra woman's cool exterior hides a passionate soul -- and men enjoy the challenge of getting past your seeming detachment to uncover it. Like Libras Brigitte Bardot and Gwyneth Paltrow, you're often downright gorgeous, and know how to use your feminine charms to great but understated effect. Men feel manly around you. And, you instinctively know how to turn your guy on by, for example, wearing silk negligees or gold stiletto heels -- and nothing else -- to bed.
Ruled by Venus, you make an art form of being a woman. You're skilled at dressing to enhance your assets and using accoutrements like scented candles and bubbling fountains to beautify your environment. But you've also got an excellent mind and sharp wit that your man enjoys sparring with. Your most appealing feature is your eyes, which are often large and full of light. All it takes for you to draw a man in is to bat those long lashes of yours, and l

My Thoughtsim sitting here w/ zach wondering if my life has been a total crazy mess or if this is the "hell before the calm" (if that makes since)
last week was so hard for me, Damien turned 6. i cant believe its been 6 yrs since he passed away. 6 yrs of wondering how he wouldve looked, how he would act, how he would smell, how he would feel in my arms..... it kills me. i miss him so fucking much!!
noone understands the pain i go thru everyday.... noone understands how hard it is to see other children and wonder if you baby couldve been that way.... i will never know!!
my "closest" friends tell me the are there for me... then they leave me and dont talk to me for weeks. WTF?? do you even care that im dying inside? do you even care that my heart is broken and cannot be mended?? do you care that i dont sleep? do you??
you might think i am over doing it.. but how do you get over it?? how do you ever say goodbye?? how do you ever go a day w/ out thinking of that sweet angel?? i cant... i

Places To Eat In Austin, Texas For Reasonable PricesSome examples of places to eat in austin, texas:
Kentucky Fried Chicken
a catfish/beans all you can eat place
a catfish/shrimp specific item selection place
Taco Bell fast food , for Mexican food, e.g. burritos or tacos or burritos supreme
a Chinese or Oriental buffet
a strip joint for a good steak dinner at modest price for lunch
Red Lobster for clams, however their other prices are too high now
a fish dinner place which also is a grocery store for various fish
Luby's cafeteria where you go through the line and make selections from a wide variety
another one similar to Luby's
SUBWAY or QUIZNOS for submarine sandwiches
turkey or ham sandwiches at a convenience store or gas station
an eat in pizza place, e.g. Pizza Hut
a take home or delivery pizza place like Domino's Pizza
a homestyle meal place
Golden Fried Chicken which also has catfish
an Italian restaurant which has good spaghetti meal with garlic bread
IHOP for all you can eat pancake breakfast 24 hours a day

Sunday Adventures...Out for a late sunday drive... The air is cold, very crisp an clean.... He can't help but look at her... Her hair falling into her face. she brushes it back to continue to stare out into the woods...
What are you thinking about.... He ask's her trying to start conversation..... Just trying to clear my head, it's been a long week.
The car lay quiet once again.. Turning off down a dirt road they've taken only once before.. the road was wet from the evening showers... Are you sure we can go down this road... She said with an uneasy voice...
He reach's over and grab's her hand... I'm sure we will be fine..
Slowing down for the curve ahead the car seem's to drag. Are we getting stuck?!? With a sudden jolt the car came to a hault...
Great she thinks to herself... He then get's out to check to see how bad it was....
Maybe I should help.. Without hesitation she get's out to lend a hand...
Let me help you honey... She reach's for the other side of the board.. Get in the driver's se

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TouchThe first time we touched it scorched my soul, my fingertips lightly traced your lips. My soul is lost without your touch. The strange thing is I have only touched you in my dreams. Just a glance at your sexy silhouette sent shivers down my spine. If only I could show you what heaven is like, only you don't even know who I am. The love I could show you is beyond this mortal world. Our first kiss would last eternity. If you knew what I was you would never love me but I could make you if I wanted to.
By: Dale Wesley Jr.

5 Sexy ThingsI can tell you guys that there are certain things you can do to make your wife swoon. They aren't difficult, anyone can do them and they are some of the sexiest things I can think of... So, are you ready?
Technique #1:
Wet Hands -- Yep, it is the wet hands technique.
So simple, so exciting. You will leave her breathless.
* Fill the kitchen sink up with hot water and add a few drops of a scented dish liquid. There are many very nice scents out now, from vanilla to lavender.
* With a soft cloth in your hands plunge your hands into the water and get the cloth very wet.
* Now, moving slowly and gently place a dish in the water and rub the cloth across the surface of it.. over and over again.
* Place the dish in clean rinse water and repeat until she is moaning with pleasure.
Technique #2:
Vibrate Me Baby
This technique utilizes what many women think of as toys...
* Carefully pull the vacuum out of where it has been stored. You know you want to.
* Plug it in a

Abstract PassionOur bodies in a tangle,
Satin skin and candle light,
Sweat pours from our bodies,
All we have now is this night.
Outside a storm is raging,
Lightening flashes brightly,
I feel your arms around me,
Holding me so tightly.
Lips meet in fevered passion,
I crush skin between my teeth,
Feel your length inside me,
Begging for release.
Capturing this moment,
And holding it forever,
Flying like a bird,
And falling like a feather.
Our skin feels like fire,
Our bodies are dancing,
Our limbs all entangled,
Our tongues are romancing.
Thunder tears through passion,
We gasp as we hit the brink,
Then lie side by side,
So tired I can't think.
Dreams of vivid color,
Waking to the dawn,
I watch you sleeping soundly,
I smile and I yawn.
Love was made for passion,
Dreams are smoke and fire,
The way I feel about you,
Can only take me higher.
Soaring through the heavens,
Your lips upon my skin,
We were made for this I think,
And I fall asleep again.
by: E

My Stylistics Of PoemsAll of my poems rhyme and have lines which are of
approximately same length. Some are written as acrostics.
The styles I so far write in are:
1. kidsville , e.g.upgrades of fairy tales
2. spiritual alternatives, esp. mystical moments
3. Star Wars futuristic
4. romance
5. horny
6. mournful
7. humorous ditzy
8. relationships in general
9. about manic-depression issues

Totally!It's funny how a guy who usually never has a problem winding down, turning his mind off at night gets into trouble and can't sleep at night. It wasn't too bad, but last night it just got the best of me. Tried to lay down, then the mind kicked in. Then about the time that the mind got wound down, the heartburn kicked in. So at 3 AM I was outside getting some Rolaids from my truck.
Then to top it off even more. I am not feeling anything. I am kind of "numb." While the constants are still there, such as missing my kids, fear, and all that usual stuff, I'm not feeling the other things I should be feeling. Elation at being off this weekend. Exctacy for not being in the field. Happiness for passing both tests in class last week. Happiness at most likely still getting to go to ALC/BNCOC in April. The usual stuff just ain't making a difference in my life. I am fricking stuck.
Garth Brooks, you are a sonofabitch. This learning to live again is killing me. It's funny how a s

A Road Walked...now A MissionGrowing up in the streets
Getting by with what little food I have to eat
Collecting cans from day to day
Makes life sad in a way
Hopeing for a bed to lay
Hopes and dreams fade away
Tired of this life
Cause nothing good seems to come my way
Start the hustle
Game of life and death
Jackin cars,
Ring fightin,
Getting cash
Partying the night away.
Playin' everything by chance
Gettin' carried away in this life of sin
Suppose to be a good role model
To my youngest of kin
Too late
Followed in my footsteps, dancing this dangerous dance
But he wasn't as lucky as I have been
An amature mistake he did make
He lay's in my arms, screamin', bleedin'
His last breath escapes
A pain that will never go away,
Cause I am the one to blame.
I shoulda said stay
Said no
I look up to the sky above
There I see a lone dove
Peace settles the ache within
Starts to wash away my sin
Simmering lights of hope
It my choice to make it shine
Here's my words for you
They're taking on a

Undeniable Truths1. There is a distinct singular American culture - rugged individualism and self-reliance - which made America great.
2. The vast majority of the rich in this country did not inherit their wealth; they earned it. They are the country's achievers, producers, and job creators.
3. No nation has ever taxed itself into prosperity.
4. Evidence refutes liberalism.
5. There is no such thing as a New Democrat.
6. The Earth's eco-system is not fragile.
7. Character matters; leadership decends from character.
8. The most beautiful thing about a tree is what you do with it after you cut it down.
9. Ronald Reagan was the greatest president of the twentieth century.
10. The 1980s was not a decade of greed but a decade of prosperity; it was the longest period of peacetime growth in American history.
11. Abstinence prevents sexually transmitted disease and pregnancy -every time it's tried.
12. Condoms only work during the school year.
13. Poverty is not the root ("rut") cause of crime.
14

Why Do We Love LoveWhy do we love, love,
When love seems to hate us?
We love the way love feels.
It makes us full,
Full of the something that
Marks a path that is only one way,
The path that closes behind you, and blinds you from both sides.
Love hates us cause it makes us do stupid things.
Causes us to close our eyes to reality, dreams to fade for others and breaks our heart, because we couldn’t see the truth from the start.
By Sterling p. Carroll

Legendary Broadcaster Paul Harvey(CNN) -- Paul Harvey, the legendary radio host whose career sharing "the rest of the story" with listeners spanned more than 70 years, has died, according to ABC Radio Networks.
He was 90.
Harvey died at a hospital in Phoenix, Arizona, where he kept a winter home, said Louis Adams, a spokesman for the networks. He was surrounded by family members when he died, Adams said.
Known for his deliberate delivery and pregnant pauses, Harvey's broadcasts were heard on more than 1,200 radio stations and 400 Armed Forces networks and his commentaries appeared in 300 newspapers, according to his Web site.
He had been hosting his radio shows part-time for much of the past year, after recovering from physical ailments including pneumonia and the death of his wife, Lynne "Angel" Harvey, in May 2008.
"My father and mother created from thin air what one day became radio and television news," said Harvey's son, Paul Harvey Jr., in a written statement. "So, in the past year, an industry h

P!nk-funhouse"Funhouse"
I dance around this empty house
Tear us down
Throw you out
Screaming down the halls
Spinning all around and now we fall
Pictures framing up the past
Your taunting smirk behind the glass
This museum full of ash
Once a tickle
Now a rash
This used to be a funhouse
But now it's full of evil clowns
It's time to start the countdown
I'm gonna burn it down down down
I'm gonna burn it down
9, 8, 7, 6 5 4, 3, 2, 1, fun
Echoes knocking on locked doors
All the laughter from before
I'd rather live out on the street
Than in this haunted memory
I've called the movers
Called the maids
We'll try to exorcise this place
Drag my mattress to the yard
Crumble tumble house of cards
This used to be a funhouse
But now it's full of evil clowns
It's time to start the countdown
I'm gonna burn it down down down
I'm gonna burn it down
This used to be a funhouse
But now it's full of evil clowns
It's time to start the countdown
I'm gonna burn it down down d

More About My Damn Problems!I went to see that Oncologists Cancer Specialist, he checked me out down stairs an well found the tumor which is 5mm in size, it's not really that big however he said my choices are either radiation,chemo or surgery at this point I don't know what I'm going to do he wants me to have some testing done such as a CT scan & blood work I am do to go in tomorrow for those & then I go into see him on the 12th. I have been doing alot of research on all this shit and most of it doesn't make since but then again I know what I've got to deal with & if I don't do anything about it, the doctor said that it will start to spread anyways I'm some what worried about the out come of the testing because he wants to make sure that it hasn't spreaded anywhere else such as my lungs, ect... I'm so glad that I have friends on here which understand an know what I'm going through & hope that those who have had cervical cancer will do the right thing by getting paps done every 2 years, also to do your research.I

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BuddhaIf we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly,
our whole life would change.

Beyonce-hello"Hello"
Oh!
Oh oh, oh oh oh oh......
I love to see you walk into the room
Body shining lighting up the place
And when you talk, everybody stops
Cause they know you know just what to say
And the way that you protect your friends
Baby, I respect you for that
And when you grow, you take everyone you love along
I love that you don't fly me away
Don't need to buy a diamond key to unlock my heart
You shelter my soul
You're my fire when I'm cold
I want you to know
You had me at hello
Hello
Hello
You had me at hello
Hello
Hello
It was many years ago
Baby when you
Stole my cool
Cause you had me at hello
Hello
Hello, oh oh oh oh oh
I get so excited when you travel with me
Baby, while I'm on my grind
And never would I ever let my hustle
Come between me and my family time
You keep me humble out of this hype
Cause you know there's more to life
If I need you, you will be here
You will make the sacrifice
Don't fly me away
Don't need to buy a diamond key to un

My 1st Auction...bid On Me!Heres your chance to own your very own fu-slave for a month. Have you owned fubar's very own PIMPSTRESS yet??? WELL? What are you waiting for? Click the picture below and...
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This auction is an all type bid auction. Bids of tickers, blasts, VIP's, Bling, HH's and of course fu-bucks are all welcome. But, cash gifts outway fubuck offers. The Auction starts February 28, 2009 at 6pm est and ends March 14, 2009, 6pm est!! So hurry and get your bid in quick.

DevourRelishing my view as you stand before me,
Heat flushing my body as desire takes over
Mouth watering, wanting to taste...
All that is ~You~
Softly caressing, encircling, teasing...
My tongue begins my game.
Caressing, encircling, teasing...
Until I hear you utter my name.
Appetite piqued
By one escaped bead
Awakening in me
A ravenous need...
To DEVOUR you.
Hands in my hair
As I establish my rhythm.
Guiding me to the tempo of your need
Feeling you throb against my wet kiss
Until at last I allow your full release...
3-1-09 LC

Beyonce_halo"Halo"
Remember those walls I built?
Well, baby they are tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But, I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had, you break it
It's the risk that I'm taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out!
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh ooh.....
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

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QueerHey boy take a look at me,
let me dirty up your mind.
I'll strip away your hard veneer
and see what I can find.
The Queerest of the Queer,
the strangest of the strange,
the coldest of the cool,
the lamest of the lame,
the numbest of the dumb,
I hate to see you here,
the choke behind the smile,
a fake behind the fear,
the queerest of the queer.
This is what he pays me for,
I'll show you how it's done.
You learn to love the pain you feel,
like father, like son.
The queerest of the queer,
you hide inside your head,
the blindest of the blind,
the deadest of the dead,
you're hungry 'cause your starved,
while holding back the tears,
choking on your smile
the fake behind the fear,
the queerest of the queer.
I know what's good for you (you can touch me if you want)
I know you're dying to (you can touch me if you want)
I know what's good for you (you can touch me if you want)
But you can't stop.
The queerest of the queer,
the strangest of the strange,

Lifehouse-brokenThe broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see

We Have A Little Problem..I feel like a fucking recording have to repeat all the time.So here is repeat again.
I get so fucking tired of people thinking they own me or I am with them.This is the internet & until we meet up it is what it is.I see status all the time of people letting me know how they feel about what I am doing.Yes I ask then they tell me it was for me.It is fucking crazy.
I do not live on this fucking thing and will not stay on all day I have other things to do,but when I am here I like to have fun.That is it.I do not wish to talk about my private life or what is going on,if I do then I will tell you.I will no feel isolated again like I did before it will not happen I will just start taking you off list and blocking I don't give a fuck if we known each other long time or not.
When I am in my lounge I am what I am.Sometimes I talk sexual,sometimes I have orgasms ,but it is hard and sometimes I just like to have a friendly chat,but if your ass is coming in there to spy on me or see what I do th

Up For Auctionim up for auction again i am offering
1.rate pics durning hh
2.comment every day
3.gift every other day
6.your link in my about me
7.pimp you out in a blog
8.sfw salute
link

3 Doors Down-let Me Be Myself"Let Me Be Myself"
I guess i just got lost
Bein' someone else
I tried to kill the pain
Nothin ever helped
I left myself behind
Somewhere along the way
Hopin to come back around
To find myself someday
Lately i'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's ok, but tell me
Please, would you one time
Just let me be myself
So i can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
Would you let me be myself
I'll never find my heart
Behind someone else
I'll never see the light of day
Living in this cell
It's time to make my way
Into the world i knew
Take back all of these times
That i gave in to you
Lately i'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's ok, but tell me
Please, would you one time
Let me be myself
So i can shine with my own light
And let me be myself
For a while, if you don't mind
Let me be myself
So i can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
That's all i've ever wanted from this world
Is to let me be me
Please would you one time

Depressedi know that yall are gonna think that i'm nuts but... i miss ross like crazy and i'm so stressed out with my daughters father that i don't know what to do or think anymore. then i have to be alone for my birthday. the only thing i will have is my mom and stepdad. my daughter will be in louisiana with her fukin father. but i made sure that he go to be with her for his birthday. wtf am i chopped liver. does anyone besides ross, dani and lee even give a shit about me anymore. i want nothing more than to feel loved and supported every once and a while. i have done nothing but cry for the past two days. i think i am going crazy.plz some one help me calm down. if you care anything about me let me know

Bid On Me..... Auction's Is On!!HEY I'M BEING AUCTIONED OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!
COME SEE WHAT I AM OFFERING SOME LUCKY PEEP WHO HAS THE RIGHT BID!!!!!!!!!!!!
AUCTION RUNS MARCH 1ST 5PM FU TIME TILL MARCH 8TH 5 PM FU TIME.
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Come Place Your Bid!I'm up for AUCTION! Come place your bid!!!!
Auction will run from 5pm Fu-Time Sunday March 1st and ends at 5pm Fu-Time Sunday March 8th.
Don't forget to F/A/R the host while you're there!
~~ stormwoman~~"owned by TEDDY T."@ fubar

A Beautiful Lie-30 Seconds To Mars"A Beautiful Lie"
Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
'Cause this is just a game
[Chorus:]
It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me
It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game
[Chorus]
(Oh Oh
The end of the world)
Everyone's looking at me
I'm running around in circles, baby
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game
(So beautiful, beautiful
It's a beautiful lie
So beautiful, beautiful
It's a beautiful lie
So beautiful, beautiful...)
[Chorus]

Broken ComputersMultiple times a week I receive support requests for all manner of things. Normally through Yahoo i get messages that start with HELP!! or my all time personal favorite, "BUZZ"
first off. DONT EVER Fucking Buzz me. its rude. Buzzing is NOT to wake me up, nor is it a conversation starter. That's plain and simple ignorant.
Next, don't say things like "I have viruses on my computer" While true you probably do, your also not smart enough to know if you have a virus, or spyware, or malware, or some other program that your anti-virus is complaining about. This week has been really bad for me anyway, but on top of that to tell me you don't know what's wrong, that your computer illiterate, to then turn around and tell me that you do know whats wrong. No no.. shut the fuck up and listen you might learn something if those last two remaining brain cells happen to connect in that giant void between your ears.
So why am I so pissy tonight?
Today's help request came in the form of "BUZZ! M

Come Place Your Bid!!!I'm up for AUCTION! Come place your bid!!!!
Auction will run from 5pm Fu-Time Sunday March 1st and ends at 5pm Fu-Time Sunday March 8th.
Don't forget to F/A/R the host while you're there!
~~ stormwoman~~"owned by TEDDY T."@ fubar

Who Is Where And Whenok i live from paycheck to paycheck, so i need to know who is auctions, my paycheck for march 5th is already almost 100% budgeted, and my paycheck for march 19th is 66% budgeted already.
i make no bids nor promises i cannot fulfill.

Why Say It If You Are Not Onethey say Lesbian dont need a man right
so why is it that they say they dont need a dick when in fact they do
like my friend said all woman need dick weather it be with a man or a dildo they still need a dick so stop saying you are a Lesbian
no iam not bashing anyone becuse i have a few Lesbian friends
i just think its stupid to say so after all you dont see gay man saying they need a pussy do you never hear that

Newhi everyone,i am new here and so far this place looks cool and i like it so i will add more as time goes by so u all rock n roll and have a great time.
chow 4 now, ROCKSTAR

FriendsSupport of the mind,
body and soul.
The flower of a root,
that will never grow old.
Love is something special,
oh what a treasure to find.
You can't touch it, smell it,
prices money can't buy.
Dedication and turst,
the heart shall reveal.
What words can't express the way a true friend feels.

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500 or more 11s
drinks to keep you sh*tfaced when I'm on
top friends
possible family add
pic with your pic or name graphics
personal salute
profile comments
crush during ownership
WANT MORE??? JUST ASK I AM FLEXIBLE
minimum bid is 25k......

Equality Or Inequality That Is The QuestionI admire the fact that women are becoming more and more visible in getting their rights, jobs, and their voices heard in this men's world. They have come a long way to get their share of pie. Although women's right made big progress in west, nevertheless,it's still a big struggle in most underdevloped countries.
As far as the equality between women and men in US and other western countries, I am still puzzled with some aspects of this subject. Despite the fact that women working so hard to get their shares of some jobs and careers which were usaually dominated by men for so many years, yet they would not do some jobs that are either a little more daring, or might be somewhat degrading. I am sure we can all think of some examples.
Aside from career competitions between men and women, there are still other areas that most women would like to keep them silent, and or sweep them under the carpet. For example, if a man goes on a date with a woman and doesn't open the car door for her

Shamandalie By Tony Kakko Of Sonata ArcticaShamandalie
-By Tony Kakko Of Sonata Arctica-
In good old times, remember my friend
Moon was so bright and so close to us, sometimes
We were still blind and deaf, what a bliss?
Painting the world of our own, for our own eyes, now?
"Can we ever have what we had then?
Friendship unbreakable
Love means nothing to me
Without blinking an eye
I'd fade, if so needed,
All those moments with you
If I had you beside me"
One cloudy day we both lost the game?
We drifted so far and away
Nothing is quite as cruel as a child
Sometimes we break the unbreakable, sometimes?
"And we'll never have what we had then
Friendship unbroken
Love means nothing to me
Without blinking an eye
I'd fade, if so needed,
All those moments with you
If I had you beside me now"
I was unable to cope with what you said
Sometimes we need to be cruel to be kind
Child that I was, could not see the reason
Feelings I had were but sham and a lie?
I have never forgotten your smile
Your

BoredWell, things are goin good. I truly dont think about the sperm donor any more. And the only thing that does bother me about him is that he isnt havin ne thing to do with his kids. Ummm...Im lookin for a job while still tryin 2 get my Mom outa my house. Ummm...As far as my personal life? The jury is out on that one right. Well see whats goin on with that. There is someone I like but... lets just leave it at that...

Come Bid And Win MeAuction will run from March 1st @ 8pm eastern time thats 5pm fubar time
till march 8th @ 8pm eastern 5pm fubar time.
Have fun, Bid to win me and get what I'm offering to the winner. Click on the link above and leave a comment with the amount you bid.

Coming Homeshe went to meet him at the airport from his long trip home, she was nervous to meet her man since it been about 10 months, he was overseas helping out the troops. The plane pulls up to the docking bay, she watches for him to get off the plane. Her heart is beating so fast she been waiting for this moment they meet, she see him coming off the plane. There eyes meet and the tears come flowing down there faces, they kiss so Passionately that people stop and look!!! They make there way to go home, in the parking lot he needs to touch her, he cant wait til they get home to caressing her body and feel her skin next to his, he take off her shirt and caress her breast in his hands touching every part of her breast, he take his shirt off and presses his body to hers to feel what he been longing for 10 month. They make it home, the walk threw the door and they are striping cloths off of each other they are leaving a trail, they stop in the hallway he take her pins her up against the wall an

Poor KitKit has no power. Poor thing can't get online.
She said her hot flashes will keep her warm, though.
She will return as soon as possible.
Text her if you have her number. So she won't be lonely.

Oh Ma Dear Cinn Updateoh ma dear cinnamon is so
ma visit was very productive
muc better than last time
she is sporting a sporty cast
smaller she more able to move abot
memory is much better mostly drug induced
she seems happier but i never see her not
she seems more happy to see me
but she sleeps though the nite without wake
her face looks so much more better
she already feels da pain of knowing
her bff is gone on to a better place
she took it better than the family had thought
she seems to accept it well
maybe unhappy she miss her going away party
she knows she could not be present
cuz she might not be here too
i pray she continues to get better
wish she knew she was in ny
she think she is in virginia
she say i dont visit enough
(tat makes me cry)

So FarI'll tell you how the stories told comon' oh
I'll tell you how the stories told
I always wanted so much more
And way on down the road I caught a glimpse of the sunlight
Working on my favorite thing
using every piece of me
Drinking, and smoking, and fucking, and making nothing
I didn't do it for money, I did it all for free
I did it all to fill the fucking hole inside of me
So far it's working out, everything's different now
So far na...
Think about what you know
forget about what your told
See how your story grows and let it come from your own mind
Do all your favorite things
cover it with all your dreams
Breathe it, and smoke it, and fuck it and make it something
I didn't do it for money, I did it all for free
I did it all to fill the fucking hole inside of me
So far it's working out, everything's different now
So far na...
So far the mean machine hasn't got the best of me
So far na.....
I'll tell you how the stories told I always wanted so much more

My Screen Namescreen names. how important they are depends on how you came up with it. some people use long stretched out names and some people stick to basic names. copy the questions and answer them in a blog. what does yours mean?
how did you pick your screen name?
the movie blade character, i thought it had a nice ring to it
have you changed your screen name and how many times?
once...when i started fu i was known as gmacc and recently just dropped frost off
does anyone else have your same screen name?
yes... a few even have deacon frost
have you added someone elses name to yours? why?
no I havent
do you use the same screen name on other websites?
yes... if its unavailable i add some type of symbols to it
if another person uses you same screen name, woud you keep it or change it?
im keeping mine
if you keep it, would you ask the other peson to change theirs?
nope...unless they are doing something that confuses them for me with friends

FamilyFamily is about Love,Honor,and Respect,all 3,not 1 or 2.we may not always get along or like one another,we may disagree,argue,yell n call each other names,we may fight even fist fight on occasion,but,we always love n keep honor for each other,and we Don't disrespect one another,especially for an outsider.whatever the binds,whether blood,clan,or friendship this is what Make's us FAMILY.

Sbg Cure To The Monday Blues ~ March 2nd EditionDo You Have Monday Blues?
Are your wondering what to do on a Monday?
Do you want to rate but don't want to go through the BORED board?
Are you tired of only rating only ezrate pics?
Well, here is something different, fun, and exciting!
SARGE'S BAD GIRLS
The BEST bad girls you will ever meet!
A listing at your fingertips of beautiful women with great pics.
And of course the man that made it all possible. (He has folders of some of our best pics!)
Give these bad girls a good old fashioned fu-spanking and don't forget to thank the man that made it all possible.
Fan - Rate - Friend - Bling - Comment! You won't regret it!
***SBGs*** You Should Be Rating
The SBG picture folders of Sarge and the Top Five SBGs (Up To 25 Mandatory) in this Bulletin/Blog. Next Monday These Top Five Will Be On The Bottom Of The List. All SBGs .. please comply!
Sarge's Bad Girls

DecsionsSo a minor bombshell went off in my life today.
Mom said that soon we'll have to move, Me into my own Place and her into a 1 bedroom. don't know the exact date but it's a definite thing.
Wow Mom, couldn't you have told me this...say a Month ago when I was working out my budget? And why am I even upset? I really shouldn't be, I guess. She obviously feels it's time to be on her own again.
That she doesn't need me any more - no - that's not fair...that I am more hindrance and annoyance then I am of help. I think that's what she's trying to get across.
So I have to sit and figure out what to do.
What's best.
Just survived layoffs at the job, and now need to move...but where...all the places that I will be able to afford aren't built yet or outside of town.
Decisions, Decisions - What to do??

Email From My Baby Sisteri went to the docters and i might have this tummy ack for the rest of my life! so its scarry!
it is so hard to ignore kaity! but things have gotten better i can tell u that! oh and kaity and mom just got in a fight about a week ago! they were fighting about how kaitlyn treats mom like trash and how she doesnt give her any respect! mom waz crying that night and kaitlyn might live with ur dad!
when are u going to see me agian? I hope its soon cuz i really miss you chris!
I got to go. I love you so much! bye!
**(Almost teared up. She is adorable)**

Let Me Clarify SomethingWhen I started out on my quest to get the spotlight I had 6 million of my own fubucks. I have since had some amazing friends help me along the way, but don't forget 6 million of what I have is still mine that I earned. Oh and I also rate and other stuff to earn fubucks that I didn't "beg" for. So if you have a problem with me spending MY fubucks to buy friends in fu-owned or buy gifts from the gift shop then I'm sorry but that's on you. Just because I'm trying to get spotlight doesn't mean I have to stop spending fubucks altogether. That is just stupid.
In short, if you're going to judge me for how I spend my fubucks then just delete yourself from my friends list. I don't need "friends" like that. I won't argue with you. I'm sorry you think my practices are wrong.

Wonderingyou came along and lit my world on fire...and like a thief in the night you were gone. so for days i wonder what im missing and then you come back with small words of hope...and i realize thoes words arent for me..and one drunken night i prove what a lost soul i have always been just because i made you a little more than my friend...i wish i had never thought about you for a moment in that way i wish you could have been honest with me...but i find thats impossible and obviously even the best intentioned can hurt others without trying or meaning to do it

Winning Some PantiesSome of the people on here are so DESPERATE. Don't you have brains, or actual lives, or any sense of intelligence!?
So there is some panty raid auction going on right now that showed up in my bulletin, i was like ohh ill go check it out see how much people are paying.
Some guy is paying $500 for some 48 year olds underwear! FIVE HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS.. for someone who is my mothers age's UNDERWEAR.
Thats fucking crazy!
if she washes them you wont be able to smell ... it.. and if she doesnt, who the fuck wants to smell 48 year old snatch!.. and this guy isnt even old either.. in his 30s.. so not too old.
The snatch is old enough to be grandma snatch!!!
is it me or is that just psychotic!?
honestly.. would you pay $500 for granny snatch undies?!

Love Vs LustHave you ever thought you were in love with someone? Or was it just Lust?
I'm looking to find some interesting stories about people who thought they were in love but turned out the other person was just lusting after them for sex. Please tell us your story, good, bad, or ugly

Q & AYour Name:
Age:
Favorite position:
1. Do you think I'm cute?.
2. Would you have sex with me?
3. lights on or off?
4. Would you have to be drunk?
5.Would you take a shower with me?
6.Have you ever thought about having sex with me?
7.Would you leave after or stay the night?
8.Do you like cuddling afterwards?
9.Condom or skin?
10. Have sex on the first date?
11.Would you kiss me during sex?
12.Do you think I would be good in bed?
13. Would you use me as a booty call?
14.Can I use you as a booty call?
15.Can we take pictures of the act?
16.How long would we have sex?
17.Would you tell your friends about me?
18.Would you want me for a b/f , g/f or friend?
19.Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
20. One thing that you would like to do to me if you were alone with me?

You Will Never FindYou will never find
a love so true,
As the undying love
I have for you.
This love of mine,
could never be matched,
There’s nothing
I wouldn’t do.
You could point
to the highest mountain,
I would climb to the top with ease.
You could point
to the deepest sea,
And I would swim to the distant shore.
I would do this honey,
Because it's you, I adore.
If I had to reach you
in the heavens,
I would find a way to fly.
If I had to cross,
the hottest desert,
Than surely I would die.
Because only for you,
I would give it my best try.
Ask me to give my life,
I will.
Ask me to bare my soul,
I’ll do it.
I would do anything that you ask.
There’s only one thing
I can not seem to do.
The last which is the greatest
Of them all.
I would do all of the above,
And more.
I would give everything,
if I could do just this one.
I pray and pray,
every single day,
That there was just one way
For me to get you
to love me,
As much as I do
you.

Birthdays Always = Instant LameBut apparently I'm allowed to have enough fun for the whole year in a 4-day package deal....
So many tried to use my liver as a killing method! Thursday wasn't too bad, but Friday and Saturday? H-I-Larious!
Friday, I spent $5 and went home with what I can assume was a .20 BAC. Friends later told me that I looked about ready to do the Stumble-of-Shame. I woke up the next noon, propped against the wall, beer in one hand, cell phone in the other (ready to dial my gf,) one boot off and that foot on the floor, shorts around my knees and I had absolutely NO clue where I was for about a minute. Mind you the boot I had taken off was stuck in the shorts leg.... yeah...
Saturday was a little more timid. I spent most of the day recuperating at a coffee place. I got my tattoo finished on my forehead! Then, I went back to the club and proceeded to drink the night through, while working. I had to play the responsible one, and sent my gf home... I felt bad. We were both ready to go at it in a p

For New MembersWELCOME TO FUBAR!
What you need to do is upload some pictures! The more pictures you have the more points!
Until you are a level (1), all you can do is rate profiles and pictures.
So right now, upload pictures. Then what you can do is rate people's profiles and do friend requests.
You ONLY rate people 10 (or 11 if VIP). NEVER rate any profile or picture under a 10.
To view people's pictures, you click on their profile picture. It will take you to their folders. I have some folders that people can't see unless they are my friend. So you need to be sure to rate the profile and send a friend request.
When you become level (1), you need to rate the profiles, FAN them, and send a friend request. Some people will not accept friend requests unless you say something in the friend request so keep that in mind.
Some people do not accept friend requests unless you have a salute photo. A salute photo is a picture of you holding a piece of paper with your fubar name and id number

Trivia #14- Episode 93Wow, we had a ton of ppl in the room, but not everyone decided to play, their loss!! Here are the results of last night's event:
Xanrose----------61
BigRich----------36
Nightshade-------28
Lost-------------28
MissAshley-------28
StacyDawn--------27
Punkette---------25
Mchgn------------24
AnitaDick--------23
Sassy_Jen--------22
Redlar-----------21
OP_free----------13
Monkey-----------13
MammaHelle-------11
Topfueler---------8
For the 2nd time, Xanrose nailed every question correct!! Congrats on that as you claim the weekly bonus of 5pts.
Now for the cumulative totals as of now:
Mchgn---------------354
Xanrose-------------329
MammaHelle----------292
Sheena--------------269
Nightshade----------273
Lost----------------231
MissAshley----------226
Punkette------------208
SweetAngel----------196
Redlar--------------193
StacyDawn-----------161
Strega--------------159
Sassy_Jen-----------137
AnitaDick-----------118
Hellermoon----------113
Topfueler------

Octoplets Mother Offerd To Do Porn!Porn war breaks out over octuplets' mumFebruary 27, 2009
The mother of octuplets born last month in California has been targeted by rival bids from adult entertainment companies, including an offer of $US1 million ($A1.54 million) to star in a porn movie.
Nadya Suleman, who has been at the centre of a fierce debate in the media and medical arenas since giving birth to eight children last month, is now embroiled in a public relations spat involving rival purveyors of porn.
Los Angeles-based Vivid Entertainment, the world's largest adult film producer, announced that it had offered Suleman $US1 million ($A1.54 million) plus a year of health insurance if the unemployed 33-year-old starred in a porn movie.
"There is a tremendous amount of interest in Nadya and we can help her capitalise on that interest and put some real cash in her bank account," said Vivid co-chairman Steven Hirsch.
But rival porn company Pink Visual has responded by urging Suleman not to participate in the

Looking AheadThe month of February has gone and it left with a great evening. My Harley friends got together with an evening of pool, drinks and great music from an extraordinary band. A good time was had by all. March is rolling in with a bang and 6-10 inches of snow due tonight. It’s hard to believe it was 65 on Friday….really cuts down on my riding. I guess I will have to find some other indoor activities with someone to capture my attention. With the chill in the air, I want spring! I hope that March brings as much fun as February has. March and April, I have some charity events coming and since I have been blessed with many opportunities, I look forward to helping out others. And let’s not forget the beginning of camping season!!!!. Until next time, party hearty and safely!

Hehehe...play It Forward...Your Name:
Age:
Favorite position:
1. Do you think I'm cute?.
2. Would you have sex with me?
3. lights on or off?
4. Would you have to be drunk?
5.Would you take a shower with me?
6.Have you ever thought about having sex with me?
7.Would you leave after or stay the night?
8.Do you like cuddling afterwards?
9.Condom or skin?
10. Have sex on the first date?
11.Would you kiss me during sex?
12.Do you think I would be good in bed?
13. Would you use me as a booty call?
14.Can I use you as a booty call?
15.Can we take pictures of the act?
16.How long would we have sex?
17.Would you tell your friends about me?
18.Would you want me for a b/f , g/f or friend?
19.Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
20. One thing that you would like to do to me if you were alone with me?

Is It Just Me????Maybe I am just a magnet for cheating, but it seems that the only people that are into me, ARE IN RELATIONSHIPS!!
That last girl I hooked up with was ENGAGED to a dude. And the last few men I have been talking to ALLLLL are in relationships. (well not ALL but most)
I have been the "Other Girl" MANNNNY times in the past. I used to love it. All the fun of a relationship but no fights. And I never had to worry about them wanting to BE WITH me. You know, since they already had someone.........
But I am over it. I'd like a single, attractive man/woman that I get along with. Is that too much to ask??? Single people?? Where are you????

Episode 93- The Best Show Never RecordedThis show rocked! We had everyone of the hosts on the show, and I started intros for the lounge Officers. We started it off with:
Hellcast News
Pool League update
Top 10- Internet Commandments
Redlars Good Deed of the week
Best of the Beast
Drink of the week- Flaming Cock Smack
Haunt of the week
King of the Hill- Joan Jett, Kid Rock, Men at Work
Rant of the week- Nightshade's
Hellcast Trivia #14
Sextalk with Sexyshelly
Mad LIb- Drivers Manual
Fractured Fairy Tale
Country of the week- Peru
Slackney's Wisdom-
Presidential Address
Comic of the week- Larry the Cable Guy
On this day in history-
60 second science-
60 second psych-
The major problem here is that somewhere after i started comic of the week, there was an error in the stream, and then it recovered, but the way i had saved it, it started recording right over the file. So I am a very pissed off man. This was easily one of the best shows we have ever had and we hope to be able to maintain the greatness for

Do Male Enhancements Really Work?Non-Prescription Male Enhancement Pills: They Don’t Do What You Want Them To!
By Shannon Farley
Men are concerned about penis size and sexual stamina. After all, it is biologically sound why men would like to last longer in bed: The longer and steady the rhythm, better the chances of the woman achieving an orgasm and help propel the sperm towards the egg, thus ensuring the man’s genes are propagated. However, issues with size are merely a matter of preference. The length from vaginal opening to cervix, as well as the circumference of vaginal walls, differ from woman to woman (anal cavity size differ from man to man as well). The unfortunate thing is men and women can be cruel and like to point out the shortcomings of others. As a result, many companies have tried to capitalize on this dent in the male ego. These companies have offered a cavalcade of products to quell the male worry that some other guy is bigger, thicker, harder, or can last longer.
Though they are perfectly

Ever Felt Like This Before?Wrong Company - Flogging Molly
Well I fell into prison about a quarter till three
Where I found in my cell a glass waiting for me
So I filled what was empty and I pulled up a stool
But he stood in the corner, the old devil wouldn't move
He said, "You drink when you're lonely." No I drink when I want!
He said, "You'll never be sober." Sure. Why would I want that?
I only drink to be merry but unfortunately
I'm in the wrong prison cell and the wrong company

Squirting: Myth Or Reality By Shannon FarleySquirting: Myth or Reality?
By Shannon Farley
The female orgasm is a mystery to some. The elusive location of the G-spot has baffled lovers and doctors alike. But if one were to slide deeper down the rabbit hole of sexual lore, past the average orgasm, past the G-spot, she would reach “squirting,” otherwise known as female ejaculation or gushing.
Squirting is not a new phenomenon, Numerous historical accounts discuss women ejaculating fluid during sexual arousal and orgasm. The Kama Sutra, one of the oldest texts written about sexual behaviors, includes information about female ejaculation. Ancient Taoists saw the female ejaculation as something necessary for life, and they wanted to understand and explain the purpose of it. Thousands of years ago, writers discussed the female ejaculation as accepted fact. Now, current research is questioning its existence.
Medical science might be reluctant to completely confirm female ejaculation. But, a quick Google or YouTube search

"folding Elements" Original Drawing For SaleHello, everyone.
I decided to move a piece from store inventory to 7-day auction on eBay, starting at 6pm PST tonight. The starting bid is ONE PENNY, and there is a very modest reserve on this piece due to the numerous hours put into it. Follow the link below to get to the auction. REMEMBER: this link will not work until the auction starts a 6pm PST!
"Folding Elements"
Feel free to bid...you won't be obligated to pay unless the reserve is met!

ShinedownA little more than life's been a wasting,
Since you ran away, Nothings changed.
So stick together, it won't last forever.
Why is there so much pain? I can't explain.
This war I fought without you.
It's all in my head, well step aside and succumb.
The last time was free, Yeah...
Give up the times are never gonna change.
I made up my mind, I still feel the same.
Release me from a life full of pain.
Shine down your light on me.
One million short of a billion.
I can't speak if you won't listen.
There's no one, no way I'm falling down without
You here.
Lift off the stain I wear and graph this state of
Mind, Yeah.
Give up the times are never gonna change.
I made up my mind, I still feel the same.
Release me from a life full of pain.
Shine down your light on me.
Give up the times are never gonna change.
I made up my mind, I still feel the same
Release me from a life full of pain
Shine down your light on me.

Romeo And JulietWell ashes to Ashes.
Love to dust.
Sure as the sun will shine,
And I was lost in lust.
Now I am looking in your eyes,
So black and so cold.
Your words don't mean nothing,
This game is so old.
Now my world is spinning faster and faster.
No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
This is just another Romeo and Juliet.
I swallowed my pride.
And way too many times,
I left my heart wide open.
Now I can't take no more.
Now I guess some things
Are just not meant to be - like you and me.
Now my world is spinning faster and faster.
No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
T

Survey From The Uber-lovely JosieThought I might post this survey, posted by the sumptuously delicious, uber-lovely Josie.
Now here's what your supposed to do....and please do not spoil the fun..Start a new blog,delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other.
Three names I go by.
1) Javier
2) Javi
3) Methos and Porthos
Three jobs I have had in my life.
1) Student
2) Bookseller
3) Automobile Salesman
Three places I have lived.
1) Santiago De Compostela, Spain
2) Staten Island, N.Y. and Boston, Massachusetts
3) Orlando, Florida
Three TV shows I watch.
1) Battlestar Galactica
2) Heroes
3) Fareed Zakaria's 'GPS' on CNN
Three people that e-mail me regularly.
1) My pal Mike
2) My pal Tracy
3) The New York Times
Three of my Favorite foods.
1) Seafood (especially crab and lobster)
2) Japanese Cuisine (seafood bentos make me happy or tons of unagi rolls)
3) Italian Cuisine (e

Please Read......Just wanted to let everyone know that 70gtxmike is a hater. He left this message in my shoutbox ---> Thanks for the fuckin rate you stupid nigger...

ShinedownA little more than life's been a wasting,
Since you ran away, Nothings changed.
So stick together, it won't last forever.
Why is there so much pain? I can't explain.
This war I fought without you.
It's all in my head, well step aside and succumb.
The last time was free, Yeah...
Give up the times are never gonna change.
I made up my mind, I still feel the same.
Release me from a life full of pain.
Shine down your light on me.
One million short of a billion.
I can't speak if you won't listen.
There's no one, no way I'm falling down without
You here.
Lift off the stain I wear and graph this state of
Mind, Yeah.
Give up the times are never gonna change.
I made up my mind, I still feel the same.
Release me from a life full of pain.
Shine down your light on me.
Give up the times are never gonna change.
I made up my mind, I still feel the same
Release me from a life full of pain
Shine down your light on me.

CarouselThere are days that take too long
It's those days I wish I had you right here in my arms
I'm gettin' lonely, I'm sick waiting here for you
I'm gettin' lonely, please come home cause I want to be with you, or maybe I'm a fool
And I say baby you still drive me crazy
Nothings gonna change me so you don't have to cry
Maybe I should take the blame
I guess a music man is no shelter from the rain
And I say baby you still drive me crazy
Nothings gonna change me so you don't have to cry
Baby you know that you saved me
Your loves so amazing you're never off my mind
Nothings going on I've been gone for way to long
I'll be right back in your arms don't be afraid
I'm getting closer, I'm making my way back home to you
I'm getting closer, I can see your face and the light keeps shining through, and what am I supposed to do
Nothings going on I've been gone for way to long
I'll be right back in your arms don't be afraid

Romeo And JulietWell ashes to Ashes.
Love to dust.
Sure as the sun will shine,
And I was lost in lust.
Now I am looking in your eyes,
So black and so cold.
Your words don't mean nothing,
This game is so old.
Now my world is spinning faster and faster.
No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
This is just another Romeo and Juliet.
I swallowed my pride.
And way too many times,
I left my heart wide open.
Now I can't take no more.
Now I guess some things
Are just not meant to be - like you and me.
Now my world is spinning faster and faster.
No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
T

S Is For Sex!It makes you think!
Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, & enter yours. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
Have Fun!
1. What is your name: Stacie
2. A four letter word: sure
3. A boy's name: Shawn
4. A girl's name: Saundra
5. An occupation: Sales Clerk
6. A colour: Silver
7. Something you wear: Shoes
8. A food: Sandwich
9. Something found in the bathroom: Soap
10. A place: Sacramento, CA
11. A reason for being late: Sick
12. Something you shout: STOP!!!
13. A movie title: Snatch
14. Something you drink: soda
15. A musical group: System of a Down
16. An animal: Seal
17. A street name: Summers St.
18. A type of car: Shelby Cobra
19. Th

Signs You Should Have Been Sisters Instead Of Best FriendsSo my best friend and I were joking around and I have decided that yes, we should have been sisters instead of best friends.
1. When you live in different states and you call each other discussing clothes and you realize that you both have bought the same identical things without consulting each other.
2. When you can complete each other sentences unintentionally when just walking into a conversation that's half way through.
3. When you can buy each other clothes that fit perfectly without having the other near.
4. When people call you by the others name regardless of your hair color, glasses/contacts, weight gain/loss etc.
5. When people see you with the others boyfriend and based on the significant others description they presume you are that one.
6. When your best friends mom calls you both her daughters and occasionally calls you by the others name.
7. When you trust the other enough to dye your hair even when they're mad at you.
8. When the children call t

News From The Roadwell its ben really busy. left thursday..have been to palm springs to san diego to los angeles. now i'm in portland and heading for seattle tomorrow. after that back to eureka calif an then to Albuquerque new mexico. the new job is really keeping me going. staying in portland tonight getting some rest. using the computer at the motel. typical oregon..raining like hell. so i will be home next weekend before heading to Albuquerque. will get caught up on all my lovin then. your all very special to me or you wouldn't be reading this anyway. take care and miss you all..big hugs and kiss...marty

Unforgivenunforgiven 3
How could he know this new dawn's light
Would change his life forever?
Set sail to sea but pulled off course
By the light of golden treasure
Was he the one causing pain
With his careless dreaming?
Been afraid
Always afraid
Of the things he's feeling
He could just be gone
He would just sail on
He'll just sail on
How can I be lost
If I've got nowhere to go?
Searched the seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I be lost
In remembrance I relive
How can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?
These days drift on inside a fog
It's thick and suffocating
This seeking life outside its hell
Inside intoxicating
He's run aground
Like his life
Water's much too shallow
Slipping fast
Down with the ship
Fading in the shadows now
A castaway
They've
All gone
Away
They've gone away
How can I be lost
If I've got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
How can I

Being Blocked For No Damn Good Reason..You know...I dont quite understand the point of having a page and then instantly blocking someone who goes to look at it... I was on akashas page and i looked at her number three and I really didnt think that was a big deal. I notice he checks me out and so I go to return the favor and give a rate only to find he blocked me... This infuriates me because i cannot go block that individual back! I log onto my boyfriends page to confirm i was blocked and yes he had done so... So I then blocked him on his page because I certainly didnt feel it fair that he could go block me without any kind of retribution. Then Akasha proceeds to block me and my boyfriend.. why? I suppose I can only think that is the reason why. So I log onto my alternate page to ask what the deal is.. only to be instantly blocked again. I tell you what.. people are too fucking touchy!! So I say to Akasha..get off your fucking high horse.. There was no reason to block either one of us...Maybe this is just the way New Zea

Can You Say E?It makes you think!
Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag 10 people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
Have Fun!
1. What is your name: Erik
2. A four letter word: easy
3. A boy's name: Ethan
4. A girl's name: Emily
5. An occupation: engineer
6. A coloUr: emerald
7. Something you wear: Eyes.. yeah, you wear 'em. (okay okay.. eyeglasses, then!)
8. A food: eggs
9. Something found in the bathroom: empty asswiper
10. A place: Egypt
11. A reason for being late: emo
12. Something you shout: EWIE!
13. A movie title: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
14. Something you drink: eggnog (it took me forever to think of that.. stupid vowel

~why You Don't Let A Guy Know~Never tell a guy you like girl, because no matter how much they say they're aren't like every other guy it's a lie. I'm really alone in this world. Guys want girls who do things with other girls so they can have threesomes. I just wish I could fine a girl who knows how I feel and wants to be with me for me. I'm done with Guys, excluding::: Will Smith and Se7en.

Still My MindStill it rushes through me,
in every pore,
through every cell.
What is this . . .
what feeling is this?
I cannot tell,
what secrets unveil
capabilities
unknown to limits.
This absolute emmersion
blankets my every
conscious thought.
Drawing you closer,
bringing you here.
So close to me I dare not say -
still not within my sight.
I feel your breath,
heat penetrating my skin
like a hard summer rain.
I feel your face, your eyes,
trace your mouth
with my fingers.
You give me breath
so close to your mouth,
still we do not touch.
Smoldering fantasies
ignite burning,
lust and longing.
Desire tempts me.
"Move closer . . . " she whispers,
"closer, closer. "
A paradox? Closer to you,
like the finest lace -
our bodies occupy exactly
the same space.
Deeper you come!
Taking you in -
surrounding me and filling
me up- and down- push, shove
CRASH!
Eyes open, must I see?
Truth is now . . . this reality.

Short Vacation!Tomorrow I'm gonna be heading up into the Scottish Highlands for a short break. I'll be just outside Aviemore next to the Cairngorm mountain range, one of my favourite places to be. I should be back either Thursday or Friday, but will have my laptop with me so I might be online during the evenings for a little bit.
Also, I just paid off the £6,500 still left on my wife's car finance as a surprise. She now owns the fucker outright and is as happy as a pig in mud. I'm not so happy though - I've actually had to say 'yes' to doing some jobs that I would rather not have done. But still, she's happy so I'm happy, right?

My Kindred SpiritMy kindred spirit,
Do you doubt we’ll share,
A love transcendent,
And truly rare?
Our souls dominion;
Will give us no choice.
Time will stand still,
When I hear your voice.
If fate has its way
Your eyes will meet mine,
Lost in forever
We’ll travel past time.
Then, long awaited
Our hands will touch;
Mine, fragile, soft,
Yours warm and rough.
No thoughts will break,
Or suspend our dance.
When our souls meet,
We’ll be left to chance.
A force of nature,
Destiny shall ordain.
Our will cast aside,
Released from the pain.
To each other's center,
We will be led,
Seduction upon us,
Our hungers fed.
My heart, for you only,
My flesh will surrender,
Respond to your warmth,
To your touch, so tender.
A coveted encounter,
Fulfilled at long last,
We’ll know from then on,
If this will just pass.
The danger for us,
Will be revealed then -
What might be our future,
Are we lovers or friends?
*Footnote: I did NOT write this... only enjoyed it &

Not Going To Be On MuchJust want to let all my TRUE friends the ones who actually reads the blogs know that im not gonna be on fubar to much nomore for awhile because i start college on Monday but i will check the messeges and all that when im able to.

My Grainindignance,
viciousness,
my vulgar apathetic
morality.
how long has it taken to build this
haven?
this safe place i have built
for myself, where the apirition
of a long since dead heart,
can forever lay siege to my
soul.
my penance.
the bull who gets the matador,
the sting of the razor cut,
shaving,
the icy rythyms of a whore
practicing her trade,
to me these things were
the best
now sheding skin to start
a life,
i don't understand

Stolen From Ninjadorkface ♥RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF
The Good Left Undone - Rise Against
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
What Do We Know? - Thousand Foot Krutch
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Let It Be - The Beatles
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Completely - Art of Dying
IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
I Don't Care - Apocalyptica
WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Swim - Jack's Mannequin
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Breaking Inside - Shinedown
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Love Hurts - Incubus
WHAT DO YOU OFTEN THINK ABOUT?
Here to Blame - Incura
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Wonder Why - Rides Again
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Save Me - Forty Foot Echo
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
You Don't Know - Milow
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Lucky - Jason Mraz (&hea

Car With Corpse In Back Seat Given Seven Parking TicketsGAINESVILLE — A car found in a Gainesville neighborhood with a dead body in the back seat had been ticketed seven times by city parking enforcement.
Police found the body when a resident called authorities Monday afternoon to report the car, which had been parked on the street for days. A preliminary autopsy helped police identify the body had been missing since Feb. 11.
Police say the autopsy revealed no obvious cause of death. Investigators are awaiting toxicology results, which may take up to six weeks.
City records show the first ticket was issued to the 2001 BMW on Feb. 12, the day after the man was last seen alive.
A Gainesville city spokesman pointed out that ticket officers are not trained police officers but work out of the city’s public works department

Where I StoodI don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening
'Cuz I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cuz she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside
'Cuz I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cuz she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyon

A? Eh.It makes you think!
Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag 10 people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
Have Fun!
1. What is your name: Amanda
2. A four letter word: Arse
3. A boy's name: Adam
4. A girl's name: Amber
5. An occupation: Artist
6. A coloUr: Apricot
7. Something you wear: Arrogance
8. A food: Alfredo
9. Something found in the bathroom: Asswipe
10. A place: Australia
11. A reason for being late: Asswipeless
12. Something you shout: Anarchy
13. A movie title: Anchorman
14. Something you drink: Amaretto
15. A musical group: Atreyu
16. An animal: Alligator
17. A street name: Arizona
18. A type of car: Audi

Bling Pack Up 4 Auction!I have a bling pack up for
auction and will end on
March 6th at @ midnight!
So come and check it out
highest bid so far is 750k!
Click the pic below
to make a bid!
Bully & Auction Brought
To You By:
♥ToFreknCute♥@ fubar

Behind The Scenes In Making A PornA Behind the Scenes Look at the Making of a Porn Movie
January 31, 2007 by Antoinette McGowan Antoinette McGowan Published Content: 304 Total Views: 557,821 Favorited By: 63 CPs Full Profile | Subscribe | Add to Favorites Recommend (89)Single page Font SizeRead comments (21) Most guys and girls like to watch porn movies. During watching these some questions have raised as to how did they do that? Other questions sometimes have been on the safety of these kinds of movies due to the exchange of bodily fluids. So here is a look at the behind the scenes making of a porn movie to show you how some producers really do it.
Watching a porn movie you will see the actors and actresses going for an hour or more at a time. But thanks to editing equipment you do not see that the actors and actresses will take breaks through out the makings of the movie. They may only be filming for about anywhere from 10-20 minutes at a time.
Safety is a major concern when making these types of movies.

.i Dont Like You, Michael.blah blah blah bla blah
Whoo!
You were everything I wanted.
You were everything a boy could be.
Then you left me brokenhearted
Now you don't mean a thing to me
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
Brought you around
And you just brought me down.
Hate is a strong word.
But I really really really don't like you.
I really don't like you.
Thought that everything was perfect
Isn't that how it's supposed to be?
Thought you thought that I was worth it
Now I think a little differently
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
Brought you around
And you just brought me down
Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
Now that it\'s over you can't hurt me
Now that

J.petras: Ode To Combat VeteransAmerica (I am blind to your virtues)
By James Petras
I have seen
What I have not seen
The nightmare vision
Of homeless soldiers
Washing their feet
In the fountains of Malibu
As the flashy cars of millionaire Middle East philanthropists
Pass them by
I have seen
The ragged trousered soldiers
Panhandling on the streets of Manhattan
Throwing quarters back in the faces
Of wealthy brokers hurrying
Back from billion dollar deals
Millions for distant kith and kin in the Promised Land
Coins for derelict soldiers, the unwashed of unchosen people
I have heard their curses
And seen their bloody eyes
As they approach the politicians
Hurrying from lunch
Demanding a dollar
For a bottle of tokay
In the streets of Baghdad
Baghdad swagger, turned
Vagabond stumble
Barking orders, turned sullen silence
Heroes: patriot, true American
Uncelebrated schizophrenics
Mentally disturbed, trauma ridden
Suicide prone
Losers, lost survivors
Sound in body and limb
With scr

OuchYou know how sometimes you go to bed with a heavy heart and hope to wake up with the feeling gone and everything back to normal?Well i went to bed with a heavy heart and woke up with one.I feel ashamed for the way I feel but i dont know how to deal with it.I know how to fix this problem so i never have these feelings again but not having him in life is not an option never has been never will be.Im just confused i have someone who really cares for me and i care for him too but im afraid of so many things i just dont know what to do anymore.Im just ranting this morning so i apologize if anything i've just said makes no sense whatsoever.

T Is For Titties???It makes you think!
Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, & enter yours. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
Have Fun!
1. What is your name: Tiffy
2. A four letter word: toad
3. A boy's name: Tim
4. A girl's name: Tina
5. An occupation: Turning tricks???? lol
6. A colour: teal
7. Something you wear: tee shirts
8. A food: tomatoes
9. Something found in the bathroom: towels
10. A place: tequilla mexico lol
11. A reason for being late: towed!
12. Something you shout: two!!! ( how many burgers you want TWO!)
13. A movie title: TOP GUN
14. Something you drink: TEA
15. A musical group: T-PAIN LOL
16. An animal: TIGER
17. A street name: tennessee

Need And Opionwell I was to start my first business and I like to call it blu ray unlimited sell nothing but blu ray movies and blu ray player does anybody think is a good idea or a bad idea laet me know thanks luis

Size Does MatterOk ladies, I am curious! How do you feel about big dicks? Gotta have it? Scares me? Sometimes?
Give me some input and check my NSFW's!
How much is too much? Is there a limit to what you want, or is bigger ALWAYS better? Tell me- I wann know!

Lookin' For Love.....I was at a restaurant a few weeks ago, and some woman just sat down next to me and started up a conversation. She was a nice lady, and the conversation was ok, but then it led to this question...."So what do you look for in an ideal woman?". I was about to answer this question when I paused and thought for a moment. Then I told her that I would only know a woman is ideal for me AFTER I get to know her.
I realized in that split second what I've been doing wrong for sooooo long. What many people do that is sooooo wrong. We get on websites and chat rooms, we go to bars and social events, and we tell total strangers what qualities we look for in someone we would like to date or be intimate with. And there are two fundemental flaws with that. First, we're telling people how to "act" or "be" in order to get to that next level with us personally. Which means that any random asshole, bitch, or psycho would only have to put on a front according to our "preferences" so we can let our walls do

My Faith ( For An Angel ) it is I ... the whisper within evenings shadow ... here, that I might breathe upon you
the caress which makes dreams ... and me ... so ~
in those breathings .... so shall always be dreams ... so shall I always be so ~
thus it is I am before you now ... that I might again speak to you ... that I might in the words
of the Dragon ... exhale another breath , and say to you ~
let not any doubt give you cause to fear the coming of silence ... for I am of such things ... I am the still .. the calm ... the quiet reverie, I have always been of such things ... and I shall always bring with them ... the moments that are ... our peaceful absolution ~
in that ... is the mending of this wound upon my life, I proudly bear it’s scar for you ... for your love ... for that alone ... for your love ... I ... my love ... my heart ... my soul .... my life .... heal ~
it is what I truly believe ... it ... is my greatest faith ~
this ... my always in all ways ....
‘tis my ever

It All Starts Here.So here I am at Fubar - found out about this place from my best friend, Maria - who is an awesome person - if ya don't know her, ya should...
What am I doing here? I often wonder that myself. I guess it's because I was born from my mom and dad, and here I am... Oh, you mean Fubar! Oops.
Not sure what i'm doing here on Fubar either, it's kinda a lot of stuff going on at once, almost like Myspace on steroids with cocaine and crack chasers, with a dash of E to go in there too... oh, and throw in some speed for just good measure.
I'm still getting me 'fubar-legs' around here, so who knows what will become of this place... just thought i'd say a few words and put a stake in the ground.
So here it is.

'ello Ladies ;)Hey gorgeous women....
Seems there is a chainsomethinganother going around round these parts....
so, here's the PoStaL spin...
I ♥ you all! you are gorgeous, intelligent, strong and unique!!!
NOW...HERE'S THE DAMN BLURBISH THANG
The lady reading this is beautiful,
classy and strong,
and I love her.
Help her live her life to the fullest.
Please promote her and cause her to
excel above her expectations.
Help her shine in the darkest places
where it is impossible to love.
Protect her at all times,
lift her up when she needs you the most,
and
let her know when she walks with you,
She will always be safe.
Luv you Girl!!!!
I LOVE YOU ....SISTA!
♥ PoStaL

First Letter Game1. What is your name: Pixie is what i go by in Rl so thats what I'll use.
2. A four letter wordunk
3. A boy's nameatric
4. A girl's name: Pixie
5. An occupation: Painter
6. A colour: Purple
7. Something you wear: Pants
8. A food: Plums
9. Something found in the bathroom: Plunger
10. A place: Paradise
11. A reason for being late: Pregnant
12. Something you shout: Please
13. A movie title: Pocahontas
14. Something you drink: Passion
15. A musical group: Pearl jam
16. An animal: Panda
17. A street name: Pensacola
18. A type of car: Pinto
19. The title of a song: Purple rain

I Has Stoled This From Ninjastars.RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF
Angels and Girlfriends - Five For Fighting
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Redneck Woman - Gretchen Wilson [LOL]
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
A Day To Be Alone - One Less Reason
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Crossroads - Bone Thugs n' Harmony
IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
10 Years Today - Bullet For My Valentine
WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Take Me Home Please - Reggie and the Full Effect
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Now or Never - Three Days Grace
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
The Unwinding Cable Car - Anberlin
WHAT DO YOU OFTEN THINK ABOUT?
Wild One - Billy Idol
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
It Was A Good Day - Ice Cube
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
This Time - From the August Rush Soundtrack
WHAT IS YOUR LI

AwwwwThis is so beautiful...
A little boy asks his mother,
"Mommy, how come I'm black and you're white?"
His mother replied,
"Don't even go there! From what I can remember about that fucking party, you're lucky you don't bark!

V Is For VendettaIt makes you think!
Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, & enter yours. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
Have Fun!
1. What is your name: Van...gonna make this tough
2. A four letter word: Vain
3. A boy's name: Van
4. A girl's name: Vanessa
5. An occupation: Valet
6. A colour: Violet
7. Something you wear: Vinger rings (Dutch)
8. A food: Veal
9. Something found in the bathroom: Vinegar
10. A place: Virginia
11. A reason for being late: Vehicle Malfunction
12. Something you shout: VEGANS SUCK!!!
13. A movie title: V is for vendetta
14. Something you drink: Vodka
15. A musical group: Van Halen
16. An animal: Vampyroteuthis
17. A street n

I Believe......I believe and know that nothing is incurable. At some point in time, every so-called incurable disease has been cured.
In my mind, and in the world I create, " incurable " does not exist.There is plenty of room for you in this world, so come join me and all who are here. It is the world where " Miracles "
are everyday occurrences. It is a world overflowing with total
abundance,where all good things exist now, within you.

The Letter RIt makes you think!
Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, & enter yours. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
Have Fun!
1. What is your name: Robyn
2. A four letter word: Rock
3. A boy's name: Roger
4. A girl's name: Rachael
5. An occupation: Researcher
6. A colour: Red
7. Something you wear: Ring
8. A food: Rice
9. Something found in the bathroom: Ring around the bathtub
10. A place: Reno
11. A reason for being late: Rain
12. Something you shout: RUN!
13. A movie title: Rent
14. Something you drink: Rum
15. A musical group: Ramones
16. An animal: Rat
17. A street name: Rankin Blvd
18. A type of car: Ranger
19. The title of a song: Run

SnowSnow
Snow is soft
my love is soft
the snow is cold
my love is warmth
it snows
I love
poet

Blinky Stuffok so wtf is this...does everybody have all that flashy blinky bullshit on their profile?
i know to each his own and all that and if you dont like it dont look at it and all that jazz...but damn...
i still gotta say...I HATE THAT BULLSHIT...i go to someones page and the shit is blinking so much it drives me fucking insane....
you look at a photo and the fucker changes every split second cause somebody to have an epileptic seizures.
who tha hell sat down one day and decided they thought this looked good and though everyone should have it...between blinking shit and morphs....although i gotta admit i can take morphs a little better, at least THAT SHIT DOESNT BLINK AT YA...
thats one good way to get me to not be a perv or stare at your pics , hell i cant even sit there to see what they are pics of !!!
you find yourself looking at the pics and blinking along with them like an idiot...
and they think its cute...wtf?
remember people..too much of anything can be worthless, garba

My Tarot Card Choice. The Empress.Well here we are following instructions and at least I have not ended up bugged. I am surprised to be the Empress though because I always thought of myself as a moon person. Maybe I fibbed on one of the questions.
I cannot remember where it came from but it was on a profile which I am too tired to think of at present so I will put it on later. I just did not want to lose this. I am bushed and as for the Rosa Regusa well it is pruned and naked.
The sun has been shining here but it was cold and as I had put some ayervedic oil on my hair to promote hair growth I was forced to put my cap on. Rather than get a greasy cap I put a headscarf on then the cap and Biggles had nothing on me. I even had my Elton John 80's glasses on in order not to get my new ones scratched.
I have just cleared up and am resting between courses if you like. I have to cook tea but don't feel like it so we can have the take-away from last night that was meant to be put in the freezer for a rainy day.
I

Threesome ShareThreesomes Share
Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other.
Three Names I go by
1. Norine
2. bean
3. papachina (its a nickname my grandpa gave me)
Three Jobs I have had in my life
1. Kaufmann's
2. Denny's
3.macy's
Three Places I have lived
1. alluminum city terrace
2. shadyside
3. new kensington
Three TV Shows that I watch
1. i survived
2. family guy
3. any of the CSI's
Three places I have been
1. california
2. texas
3. virginia
Three people that e-mail me regularly
1. mom & dad
2. friends from facebook, tagged, myspace, fubar.
3. my sister
Three of my favorite foods
1. Italian
2. seafood
3. chinese
Three things I would like to do
1. just move out of my house soon
2. can't wait for my friends to get back safe from iraq.
3. Go s

HaloRemember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin
It's the risk that I'm takin
I ain't never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again
Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin
The risk that I'm takin
I'm never gonna shut you out

Good ByeGoodbye
I’m sorry for all the pain I caused,
I didn’t mean for it to happen this way,
I wanted to be with you forever and a day,
Something about you changed, everything paused.
There was something about you,
Something that was special about you to me,
I just want you to understand and see,
I can’t put my finger on it, but it was there, at least it used to.
I understand that you hate me,
I know I probably broke your heart,
I guess we were slowly drifting apart,
I did not want this to be.
You say that you told me so,
Having you say that only made me cry,
It broke my heart, when I said goodbye,
I wish this wasn’t such a hard blow.
I drank a 2 pots of coffee that night,
I can’t get over it,
I guess you think my words are empty as you sit,
I wish I could, but I can’t make this right.
If I’m wrong or right, there is no need to shout.
Maybe doing what I did was wrong,
Maybe doing what I did was right,
I suppose the answer is in the light,
We both just

The Great Lizard Birthif you have raised kids (or been one), and gone through the pet syndrome, including toilet flush burials for dead goldfish, the story below will have you laughing out LOUD!
lizard love
Overview: I had to take my son's lizard to the vet.
Here's what happened:
Just after dinner one night, my son came up to tell me there was 'something wrong' with one of the two lizards he holds prisoner in his room.
'He's just lying there looking sick,' he told me. 'I'm serious, Dad. Can you help?'
I put my best lizard-healer expression on my face and followed him into his bedroom. One of the little lizards was indeed lying on his back, looking stressed. I immediately knew what to do.
'Honey,' I called, 'come look at the lizard!'
'Oh, my gosh!' my wife exclaimed. 'She's having babies.'
' What?' my son demanded. 'But their names are Bert and Ernie , Mom!'
I was equally outraged.
'Hey, how can that be? I thought we said we didn't want them to reproduce,' I said ac

Llama Leveler Of The DayGnbRebel Asst Mng & Head Thumper At Sweetwater's Slave To Carolvision63& Carrie Llama Leveler@ fubar
all Llama Levelers will kindly leave 100 rates each when done please leave a comment below that you have done so...Thanks

Just A Bunch Of StuffWhat does it take to get bombed? Seriously, I have 6 folders that can be bombed, went and rated and fanned tons of people with the bling and NOTHING. Maybe I'm not posting enough boobs or something. For the few that say I'm "popular", this proves that I'm not. I tried to tell you.
The hotel I stayed at last night was great. I'm trying to remember why I didn't stay there last week. I'm thinking they didn't have any rooms open or that they didn't have that they had room service on their website. At any rate, they had it. It was so much cheaper than the CRAP I had last week.
Let's compare the two hotels. Holiday Inn was $119 a night. Comfort Inn was $90. I know it's only about $20 dollars, but that does make a difference, lol. I'm not going to tell how bad Holiday Inn was for me, if you want to know, go read the blog about it. I will tell you how this one was. Comfort Inn didn't have a toilet that made a noise every time you flushed it, the food that I got was wonderful and it was

Panty AuctionOk All our fu friends who wants Sugar and Cupcakes
Panties they are up for auction.
Brought to you by the one and only Sugar Cookie!
Sugar Cookie Fu-owned by Cupcake Suprise and Fu-owner to Big Daddy {Spankers}

Gun Lovers- A Must ReadThe Blair Holt bill, H.R. 45 was introduced before Congress January 6, 2009 and essentially creates a national database of all firearms and owners. It is currently before the subcommittee on Crime, Terrorism and Homeland Security as of February 9, 2009. The text reads as follows:
HR 45 IH
111th CONGRESS
1st Session
H. R. 45
To provide for the implementation of a system of licensing for purchasers of certain firearms and for a record of sale system for those firearms, and for other purposes.
IN THE HOUSE OF REPRESENTATIVES
January 6, 2009
Mr. RUSH introduced the following bill; which was referred to the Committee on the Judiciary
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A BILL
To provide for the implementation of a system of licensing for purchasers of certain firearms and for a record of sale system for those firearms, and for other purposes.
Be it enacted by the Senate and House of Representatives of the U

11 September 196511 September 1965
Your date of conception was on or about 19 December 1964 which was a Saturday.
You were born on a Saturday
under the astrological sign Virgo.
Your Life path number is 5.
Your fortune cookie reads:
If you want the rainbow, you must to put up with the rain. D. Parton
Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 9.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 8.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 6, 11 & 22.
The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2439014.5.
The golden number for 1965 is 9.
The epact number for 1965 is 27.
The year 1965 was not a leap year.
Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/2/1965 and ending 1/20/1966.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Snake.
Your Native American Zodiac sign is Bear; your plant is Violets.
You were

A Stop To Her StrugglesA sensational serenity of softness to her suppleness,
I strive to strike the stone of her heart,
She’s sweet, but struggles to second the strife,
That sticks and spurs in her spine.
Spontaneous combustion to strengthen her situation,
That she speaks of on several occasions,
Suspended by spears when she’s stuck to the wall,
So hurt, she cry’s as her tears slowly fall.
With specific scepters that antagonize her sanity,
She slips into a state of neurological shock,
What’s simple for some, she strains to separate,
A struggle that summons me to stop.

A Shout; To All The "fallen" ComradesMy Brother; Albert Leigh Savaige. 11May1964 to 26Feb.2009
A true warrior, died in his element. Northern Yemen.
Rest in Peace my Brother, your battle is over.
May the Peace you pursued in your life, be with you in your death!
Bless "ALL" who have died by their beliefs!!!

VacationWell my Fubarians, Im leaving tomorrow bright and early for a vacation. My parents and myself along with my two dogs are going to Gatlinburg, Tennessee. Ill be gone for a week. I will be back on Fubar one week from today. We be staying in the cabins in the mountains, wood area. Besides I love going to Tennessee cause I just blend right in cause I do have a southern accent hehe. So, y'all dont miss me too much while I am gone.
i except a vip when i get back **wink wink** just kidding
**Nessalette**

My DreamI had a dream last night and it fit just like a glove...I had a dream last night.....lol song lyrics....
Anyways I had a dream last night that I was with this guy who I love but totally ignores me unless I'm right by his side and he lives far away and well its a long story and I don't really want to go into it.
Back to the dream so my friend texted me last night and told me he was fighting with is older brother and so I went to sleep with that on my mind.
I had this dream that he was totally ignoring me and then I had to tell everyone that we were in love and he was moving with me to some little town so I could work as a college prof. I was happy cause I not only was a college prof (thats my biggest dream right now) but he was coming with me. I wonder that means....hmmmmm

If I'm Not Around Quite As Often......I just purchased a motor vehicle for the first time in almost 20 yrs, so LOTS of things to do in association with THAT.
Also, much, **MUCH** straightening to do in conjunction with the remodeling of MUCH of an "ancient" home.
P.S. IF showing "on" but I DON'T respond, very likely it's 'cuz I'm Auto 11'ing in between Yahoo IM's to my fiancée overseas.

My ThreesomesThreesomes Share
Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other.
Three Names I go by
1. Johnelle
2. Nelle
3. NellaBella
Three Jobs I have had in my life
1. Fast Food (Taco Bell, McD, Pizza Hut
2. Cashier Lead/ Cash Office (Busy Beaver)
3. Cooking and Running a kitchen in steel mill
Three Places I have lived
1. Oakland / South Hills (with boyfriends for wkends)
2. New Kensington
3. New Kensington (with my aunt and grandmother)
Three TV Shows that I watch
1. ex-treme dating
2. hit list
3. brothers and sisters
Three places I have been
1. canada
2. carribbean
3. down south
Three people that e-mail me regularly
1. mom and dad
2. jimmie
3. all my tagged and myspace friends
Three of my favorite foods
1. seafood
2. mexican
3. all american
Thre

My Rl Friends...are almost as goofy as you fu-friends.
My hubby went off to a surprise party last night for one of our friends' birthdays. He came home with a giant card decorated with lots of boob stuff. I thought it would be fun to share some of the comments they wrote.
"We love u sorry about the tits" Shane (the birthday boy)
"your boobies are soooo going to look better than my "26" year old boobs biatch!" sara
"now you are going to have to steal my shirts! Again, again, and again! I ♥ you" sara
"I have a whole 5th of buttershots and noone will help me drink it! I need help!!" DC
OK, so most of the rest of them are "normal" comments. Including well wishes from the staff at Buffalo Wild Wings who gave them the supplies to make the card with.

Any AdviceThere is this girl who happens to be an awesome friend of mine. I have dreams and fantasies about her every night at least when I'm not having nightmares about some of the crap going on here in Iraq. Can anyone tell me what they mean or what I can do about them and yes I'm referring to the nightmares and dreams of the girl.

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COME SEE WHAT I AM OFFERING SOME LUCKY PEEP WHO HAS THE RIGHT BID!!!!!!!!!!!!
AUCTION RUNS MARCH 1ST 5PM FU TIME TILL MARCH 8TH 5 PM FU TIME.
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Profile Of A MadmanThe profile of an anal retentive man. Yes, the picture above is indeed my sock drawer. Boxers to the left, undershirts in the middle, and socks to the right. I may have a problem. Hah.
Over the last two days I've gone into a cleaning fit, it's no uncommon for me, but did involve washing every piece of clothing I owned, completely tearing everything off my desk and replacing it, throwing junk away, cleaning closets, etc. I guess this is my spring cleaning fit, and I hope it is over.
I think it may be inspired by the lack of change I've had lately. Something about me likes to change things. It doesn't even have to really even big a big change, just moving furniture or something like that. Growing up I moved things around about every three or four months, trying to find the best layout for everything. I've moved my office at work around five times this last year. Unfortunately with my current setup at home there's just no room to move anything. I may try anyway to to appease myself

Im Up For Auction!! For The Very First Time!! Own Me..for A Month!!The One . The Only
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Is Up For Auction!
[and. her VERY FIRST auction]
Click the picture to bid.
Offerings
Owned By in my name for 1 Month
1 SFW salute
My Crush For A Month
Added to top friends
100 11's a week during HH
Keep Shitfaced
Random Bling of my Choice(1)
Your Name in My Status 3-4 times a week
If $$ Bids
All of the above+
Bulletin Pimpout weekly
PERMANENT blog pimpout
Added to Family
[TOP FRIENDS & FAMILY]
Added to Yahoo
2 NSFW's of my choice
2 SFW salutes of your choice
Random Big Pimpin Gifts of my choice
Random Bling of my Choice (3)
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offer a bling pack - ill give you 1/3 of credits
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Anything higher and
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My 2 Year Old Has Cancer!My 2 and a half year old son was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma on January 17th 2009.I found this out via CT scan. Of course, we all know that a CT scan is not part of a regular check-up. You will never believe how it all happened. It started on January 15th 2009. On this day, I was driving on Irvington-B.L.B highway going at about 40 m.p.h. My brakes went out on my van and I crashed into a phone pole. Brodie and my other son, Jeremy, were in the car and buckled up. Luckily, noone was hurt. But my airbag did deploy and knocked me out. I was carried to U.S.A hospital and was admitted. My 2 boys went to U.S.A Children's and Women's hospital where they were kept overnight for observation. My 7 month old was released the next day, but I was still in U.S.A, when my baby's father called me and told me Brodie had a tumor in his sternum. I completely panicked and like most moms would have done, I left A.M.A. For the next several days, Brodie underwent numerous tests to determine what the tumor w

MultitaskerKETTERING, Ohio — Police in Ohio say a woman has been charged with child endangering after another motorist reported she was both breast-feeding a youngster and talking on a phone while driving.
Police in the Dayton suburb of Kettering say the caller told them he saw the woman Thursday.
Officer Michael Burke says authorities used a license plate number to track down 39-year-old Genine Compton.
He said the woman told officers she was breast-feeding and wouldn’t let her child go hungry.
Burke said the legal concern is that Compton had a child in her lap while driving, not that she was breast-feeding in public.
He said the child was under 2 years old.
Police say the woman faces up to 180 days in jail and a $1,800 fine if convicted of the misdemeanor.

Last Week In Febuary, Here's How It WentFirst- my truck dies again...I had it towed to the shop..waiting to hear the price.
Second- I go to the grocery store to grab a few things. I didn't get a car or a basket cuz I thought I could carry it all... I dropped a few things, no big deal.
So I get to the counter, and the guy say paper or plastic, I say "plastic is fine." He starts ringing things up and says "do you what a bag?"
I thought I made that clear when I said I wanted plastic....lol
Third- I go to McDonald's on Saturday for a sweet tea and a dbl. cheeseburger. Drive-thru was long so I went in. The guy says "may I take your order?" I say "yes, I'd like a dbl. cheesburger and a sweet tea" He says "you know that's not a dollar" I'm like um, "ok then I'll have a McDouble."
I thought they were the same thing? Just got a name change. Then he says "do you want a small, medium, or large tea?" LOL... Tea comes in 1 size and that's a dollar too.
Maybe he missed training day...Who knows

Intro To Many Different Storysfor many days im going to be writing different stories of angels from something i bought i thought that people would like to read them for they are true & if they help everyone realize they arent alone then i will feel in some way i have helped because everyone needs help & an Angel on there shoulder so daily i will write a short story or two for everyone can read them. Thought i should tell you all im getting these stories from a book called "When God Sends an Angel"

Awwwwwwto hold you. gently put my fingers on your face. brush back your beautiful black hair. gently kiss you on your sweet lips. when i look into your pure and beautiful eyes. i will say I LOVE YOU, than kiss you again. give you a big hug and whisper i want this to last forever. you have a beautiful smile. when i see your gorgeous body. i want to sweep you off your feet and make love with you all night. cuddle with you on our loveseat forever. giving you a full body massage to help relief all the stress. cuddling in bed with you. watching you sleep makes me the happiest man alive.just knowing your happy and feeling loved everyday

Your AlibiHer dream got out of bed
And made its stand screaming out loud
"Get your feet of the ground"
She said "drop dead"
Stuck in the clouds
That hang around her head
Will someone light a candle for me
lending to my morning glory
Sunday morning I arrive
Through the dark in night's disquise
Sunday morning baby I'm your alibi
Give and take
And get what you give
The mistake is it's easy to die for you baby
It's harder to leave
Windows down keep me awake
Driving to my morning glory
I know it don't make sense
Except that this is love
It makes no difference
Accept that this is love
Conversations with my coffee and cigarettes
She's as far from me as heaven but it's worth it
In the end
I wouldn't be here if this wasn't worth fighting for
And for every mile marker on this interstate
There is a reason why I am here and why she still waits
So someone light a candle for every reason she is my morning glory

.wakey Wakey.Guys on here crack my shit up, I'm not stupid. I know what you do. Don't try and play me for a fool. FUBAR IS NOT REAL LIFE!! Can I not stress that enough? Get over it guys.
I met one guy off of Fubar and will probably never do it ever again. I'm not gonnna dog the guy but it turned out not so good. Partly my fault, I was stupid. But just because I add you, fan you, and rate your pictures does not mean I was to fuck you, suck you, and marry you.
Went out last night to my old redneck bar. It was fun! I saw all my old guy friends and it was a good time. I thought I would feel akward but I didn't, they acted like nothing had changed which was awesome. I do miss hanging out there! Left about 2 A.M., spent way too much money but it's all good! BABY BABYYYY!! lol
Okay I need a shower, I smell like smoke and jack. Have a great Sunday

The Daily News Pt. 3if one more of my few remaining friends, snap at me for no fucking reason, im not going to bother with this site anymore
i got told i look easy twice in two day, to those people, please go back to your sheep and leave me alone
if you dont like what someone has on their page, leave and go to another one instead bitching about it.
if one or more of my friends are in an "efight" im not getting involved unless it involves me, if it involves me, ill probably just tell you to fuck of anyway
p.s. i have hot fudge cake and you dont

Blogging HereEmotional one:I wish people would fucking grow up and mind there one concerns. I am sorry but your not my relationship, your not anything u might be a friend with advice but that is fine. But there is two different matters here. A friend and a relationship. I am a friend and i am in a relationship. But it does not get fucking people reasons to come between two people. Yes i know how people are. I hope the sickness of jealousy or hate whatever it maybe gets over because its nothing but purr immature to me. There is a point in time when u can act like a kid and enjoy having a great time and there is a point in time when u need to be grown and act your age. This is y i don't tell people about my relationships u think u can trust someone and yet be happy with the person u are with. This shit is annoying, half the time people wonder why I, stick to my self and not do anything else. Because it always lead to jealousy and drama and yet in this world there is nothing but drama, stress, jealou

Who Am I What Am I Becomingall journeys must begin with a single step
how far can i go before realizing the futility of the unguided march into the future
the annointed said to share but when do i get my piece of the pie
wheres my american dream
i am the voice crying out in the darkness
i am the thing that goes bump in the night or perhaps bang might be more appropriate
what is appropriate anyway
some people who know me tell me im a good man most people who dont know me think im a monster
theyre both wrong
why bother playing at all there are no winners
only varying degrees of loss
what happens when we die
good question
ill let you know when i find out
heaven
hell
purgatory
worm food
dust in the wind
does it really matter
do i decide on finite or infinite terms
all i know is not enough to make an informed decision on the matters that keep me up at night
no matter how many i told you sos ive dealt out in my life i still cant win
tomorrow is a new day a new chance to pu

SearchingSearching
Why do we search?
To find salvation
Through miracles?
To find union
Through communion
Of souls?
Or the body and blood?
Do we need the magic,
The promise of
Heaven
In the ever after
To believe in we,
Of two?
Why not life now?
Can we live the
Dream today?
Following ethically
An example
Of sacrifice for others
Without promises of
That which requires faith
In something not experienced
Love without commitment?
What is original sin?
The desire of Eve to
Know knowledge?
Or Pandora who’s curiosity
Is just another name for
Knowing?
Why have women
Been the purveyor of
Mankind’s ills?
Because men wrote history?
Cannot we believe
In the sanctity
Of relationships?
In the joy of communion,
In the experience of love
Without domination of one mate
By another, but shared
By simply enjoying the experience
Of we, of two
Melting into one.
poet

Leaving BehindDont try to explain Ive been here before
the phone calls and letters of loved ones
always crying and implying that when
the stormy sides of dreams arrive
I feel the consequences hit but Ive
Ive had enough ive had too much the feeling strains me
ive had too much the feeling drains me with so much at stake
Leaving behind shortcuts to find a long way home
Leaving behind shortcuts to find a long way
Ive tried to escape Im drifting from shore
the vaulve breaks from weight of the loved ones
who leave us gliding, forward and flying out when
the sunnysides of dreams have died i feel the consequences lift but I
Ive had enough ive had too much the feeling strains me
ive had too much the feeling drains me with so much at stake
Leaving behind shortcuts to find a long way home
Leaving behind shortcuts to find a long way
Ive tried to explain, but the right words feel wrong
big mistakes for the well and the loves gone
and now this crying and goodbying
Ive had enough

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Can Kitty Get A Cherry Bomb Pwease!I'd love a Cherry Bomb!
Here's the deal. If you get me the Cherry Bomb I will; Give you my YIM, give you full access to my NSFW folder, Make you 2 NSFW salutes, If a DJ I'll make you a HOT Drop!
Pretty Pwease teehee,
Mwahzzzzz
Kitty

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Today...I just don't think I can mumm anymore today. Too many people purposely looking to start a fight. The self righteous people are getting to me. I think I may spend the day point whoring and making salutes once the happy hours start rolling.

Sex Is Apparently Quite Good For You! Lol1. Sex is a beauty treatment. Scientific tests find that when women make love they produce amounts of the hormone estrogen, which makes hair shine and skin smooth.
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2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores and makes your skin glow.
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3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that romantic dinner.
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4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and tones up just about every muscle in the body. It's more enjoyable than swimming 20 laps, and you don't need special sneakers!
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5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases endorphins into the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you with a feeling of well-being.
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ScarsI tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
and I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is
I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
and I tried to grab your hand
and I left my heart open
but you didn't understand
but you didn't understand
You fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can

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Everything You WantSomewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why
But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return
Chorus
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But you mean nothing to him
And you don't know why
You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say
Chorus
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But you mean nothing to him
And you don't know why

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Stop by and see me.

Life So Far In 2009Hello Hello all my precious friends, family,and loverz. I havnt written alot lately... i know... iv been really busy. Work is kicking my ass. I still work at the nursing home, i have been employed there since June of 2008 (yay!) congrats to me. this is the longest i have ever held a job! So i have been working about 40 hours a week if not more... The wing i work is getting sooooo physically demanding. Its really getting bad. my back is killing me. my arms hurt, my knee is really getting bad... i sound like a bowl of rice crispies when i get home. its horrible. But i make money i pay my bills a do what i have to do. I will be moving into my place come spring cant wait for that. Oil is way to expensive for me to afford right now so thats why i am moving in when it gets warmer. Gonna be going away to Florida in a few weeks i hope goin to visit my Marine. I cant wait. Its gonna be fun.. iv never been on a plane before AND iv never been to Florida. This will be interesting lol. My Marine

Just A Test...only A Test Of The Emergency Broadcasting System....beeeeeeeeeepppppNow here's what your supposed to do....and please do not spoil the fun..Start a new blog,delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other.
Three names I go by.
1) Josie
2) Jo Ann
3) Jo, Jojo, HoJo.....it goes on and on....haha
Three jobs I have had in my life.
1) Parent( That would be nice if you actually got paid for..haha...but I love it)
2) Building pc boards
3) working the street corner
Three places I have lived.
1) North Carolina
2) Virginia
3) ? will come back to add this one whenever I move somewhere else....hahahhaa
Three TV shows I watch.
1) CSI
2) Family Guy
3) Sex in the City
Three people that e-mail me regularly.
1) Hef
2) My SuggaDaddy
3) My baby daddy.....hahaha
Three of my Favorite foods.
1) Mashed Potatoes, mashed potatoes and more mashed potatoes!!
2) Italian food
3) Only three favs....I need more than three...I love Food

Brevard County School SystemThe county in Florida where I live has been having regular budget cut meetings to discuss where to cut funding. On the chopping block are school sports up to Varsity (how are the kids below varsity supposed to get the help they need to make the team?) and all music programs. My 14-year-old daughter has been playing the cello for the past 4 years, and has been counting on that ability to help with scholarship funding for college. If she is not able to get scholarship funding through music, she will be in competition with countless others for academic scholarships as there will be no alternative.
This sucks.

Are You A Military Gf Or Wife?If your a Military Girlfriend or Wife its a tough job... its been said we have the toughest job in the military well if you happen to fall into that role. There is a website for us to talk about it with others when he is away and when he is home. Share your feelings and talk about anything. There are plenty of things to talk about at Military Mavens!
www.militarymavens.proboards102.com
make sure when you join you say ~*Niki*~ sent you when you get your registration form!
Join me there!
Niki

This Is Just Sick!!!I saw this news article scrolling in the ticker this morning and this just blew my mind!!! MY daughter is 9 years old and I would murder someone if this ever happened to her!!!
" World Breaking News
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Girl, 9, to abort twins
From correspondents in Sao Paulo
Agence France-Presse
March 01, 2009 04:00am
A NINE-year-old girl pregnant after years of alleged sexual abuse by her stepfather is likely to abort twins she is carrying in a case that has shocked Brazil, reports in Sao Paulo said.
The Brazilian girl, who was not identified because she is a minor, was found to be four months pregnant after being taken to hospital suffering stomach pains, the news websites G1, pe360graus and the Diario de Pernambuco reported.
She was being cared for by a medical and psychological team in the Maternal-Child Institude in the northern city of Recife, close to her hometown of Alagoinha in Pernambuco state, they said.
"We don't know if she will de

What Is The Cherrybomb?★What IS the Cherry Bomb?★
~Cherrybomb™
HAHAHA! No.... that's not the one we're all talking about right now .... this one is:
When activated, you can go to someone's folder that hasn't recently been cherrybombed and bomb the folder.
What you do is try to find a folder of at least 250 pictures. If it has more, that is okay because only 250 pics will be rated.
Just click on "bomb this album"...when you do..it will rate ALL the pics in that album with 11s (up to 250 pics for the album)...so you both get 14k (I think) in points. If that person is running auto 11s, you might get double. Have to check on this.
You can bomb each person ONCE. You can bomb every 60 seconds so you can technically bomb 60 folders of 250 pictures each. The folder of 250 (or whatever number) pics is rated 11 on each picture.
My suggestion is to get your list together of which folders you want to rate. A folder can be bombed once every 60 minutes. You don't really wan

Cherry Bomb Bling And Auto 11sTULSA'S ANGEL HAS AUTO 11S ACTIVATED!!
ღTulsa's Angelღ
Come hit me up and get LOTS of points rating my pictures!
Tulsa's Angel~
Also looking for peeps with folders of 250 pics
so I can bomb them!
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Male In The Porn IndustryHello to all.
I remember when I was a kid, I remember my male friends and I always talking about how cool it would be to do porn for a living.
For years now, I have had my hand in the porn biz. As a manager, editor, agent, and lately as a model myself.
And now I can tell my friends, it's not as easy as you think.
Men in porn seldom receive the money or notoriety that women do for the same work. While I don't find this as fair, I do understand the reasons behind it.
Using myself as an example, I do male porn which caters mainly to gay, bi, or bi curious men. I do not do ( as in participate in ) gay porn, but as a male model I never say never.
I have rather big 9 inch cock, and I know how to use it fairly well, I do foot fetish, bath / shower fetish, plastic wrap, wax fetish pics and videos; and that's just naming what I already have done, not to include what's to cum. ( pun intended )
But I don't see half of the attraction to my site as the later 90 percent of t

3 Somes - TaggedNow here's what your supposed to do....and please do not spoil the fun..Start a new blog,delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other.
Three names I go by.
1) Jay
2) Manwhore...dont ask
3) instigator
Three jobs I have had in my life.
1) Missile technician
2) manwhore...i said dont ask
3) maintenance tech at a rubber plant
Three places I have lived.
1) Illinois
2) South carolina
3) Scotland
Three TV shows I watch.
1) Mythbusters
2) cool tools
3) secret diary of a call girl
Three people that e-mail me regularly.
1) My dad
2) Becky
3) britany spears...damn girl, get over it already
Three of my Favorite foods.
1) lasagna
2) no bame chocolate cookies
3) cheesecake
Three things I would like to do.
1) be debt free
2) skydive
3) take a 2 month ride across the country
Things I am looking forward to.
1) Summertime...riding weather
2)

3 Somes - Tagged!Now here's what your supposed to do....and please do not spoil the fun..Start a new blog,delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other.
Three names I go by.
1) Terri
2) Theresa
3) Mom
Three jobs I have had in my life.
1) Secretary in a prison
2) Secretary at a university (same as a prison)
3) Parent (counts as a job - it's HARD work)
Three places I have lived.
1) El Paso
2) Austin
3) Okinawa, Japan
Three TV shows I watch.
1) CSI
2) Speeders
3) Law & Order
Three people that e-mail me regularly.
1) Grace (my sister)
2) Scott (my friend since 4th grade)
3) Skippy (my boss)
Three of my Favorite foods.
1) Anything Mexican
2) Chocolate (even though I can't eat it)
3) Cinnamon donuts!!!!
Three things I would like to do.
1) Raise a good kid (not sure if it's working just yet)
2) See the Sydney Opera House
3) Lose 15 lbs.
Things

Concert Review (bleeding Through Tour)I could make this short and sweet and say "The show was badass...Go to this tour when it comes to your town...))
But I won't do that...
We got there right after some Jax band played...So we missed one of the bands...heh...Oops...
IMPENDING DOOM
Badass grindcore/death with breakdowns... Shouldn't have played first...The show line up should have been ABRB, Impending Doom...etc...etc...
This band deserved the sophmore spot at this concert... They left me happy and wanting to jump in the pit and start crowd killing...
AS BLOOD RUNS BLACK
I was kind of disappointed with this band's live performance...Yeah they're a wicked ass metal band...Their music live is almost orgasmic...But after I.D. this band didn't seem so great... Even though there was a fight in the pit when they played...
THE ACACIA STRAIN
My thoughts when these guys came on were along the lines of "Holy Fuck I wanna rape nuns and kick babies"...
Awesome fucking band. Awesome in concert. Really made me think "Ble

Clickever hear a song that almost perfectly defines how you're feeling at that exact moment? maybe its a song you've heard before, maybe not...but it just clicks? this song totally just clicked this morning while i was on my way home from work...
Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held

Death RaceDeath Race
Within four years from 2008 the economy of the United States has fallen into disaster, Unemployment and crime rises, and private corporations run most prisons across the nation for profit. The movie focuses on the Terminal Island Prison, which broadcast "Death Race" to the world via a popular paysite on internet. Death Race is not only a race to the finish line, but a battle pitting car against car.
It was full of action and the cars were great, if you like Jason Statham in Transporter then you'll like this too.

~cum For Master~"Take a deep breathe through your nose and hold it in for the count of 10, concentrate on Master's voice. Now, through your mouth, exhale completely and slowly. Continue breathing long, deep, breaths through your nose and exhaling through your mouth. Tense up all your muscles very tight, now, counting from ten to one, release them slowly, you will find them very relaxed."
"As you read this you will hear Master's voice, with every breath and passing movement, you are feeling increasingly more and more peaceful and relaxed. The words are peaceful and bright. you will hear Master count from 10 to 1, as Master counts, you will become more and more relaxed, getting more and more open with each passing moment."
"10 you will find yourself becoming more and more aware."
"9"
"8 you will find yourself becoming more and more relaxed."
"7"
"6 you will find yourself becoming more and more open."
"5"
"4 you will find yourself becoming more and more willing."
"3"
"2 you

Got It? Get It! -- Deepest Spiritual ViewsGot it? Get it! my deepest spiritual beliefs/experiences
This is an example of my deepest felt religion/spirituality
Hebrews 6:1-2 lists in woeful summary the 6 fundamentals
of Christian belief/faith/life. The "laying on of hands" therein
mentioned refers to healing and "spiritual gifts" both of which
are considerably controversial, and tend to be dealt with
in each denomination, and even each individual local church,
on a basis of their "clientelle's" wants/needs/desires and
perceived mission in their communities, as prejudices and
limited $ funds have major impact on what will be tolerated.
I have a short essay on these 6 fundamentals listing paragraph
on each and a contemporary song which embodies the
belief. I won't share that with you now.
Hebrews in general is the most mature expression of the
deeper levels of Christianity in my personal opinion, with
6 warnings if you look carefully, which I won't discuss
just now.
I have studied Bible

Drive Towards ProphetHELP ME TOWARDS MY DRIVE TO PROPHET
AUTO 11'S ON SUNDAY 3/1/09
9am FuTIME (12 NOON EST)
I WANT TO BE A FuCHAMPION
JUST LIKE THE REST OF MY NEW ENGLAND
SPORTS TEAMS
IT'S A NO LOSE SITUATION FOR BOTH TEAMS
RATE & CHERRY BOMB ME
ALL LUV WILL BE RETURNED
(PLEASE LEAVE A PM WHEN DONE)
CLICK THE LINK BELOW TO GET THIS GAME STARTED
Lucky McLovin ~Convicted FuPornstar and FuDisciple of the Leprechauns~

Vrabel & Cassel To ChiefsCassel and Vrabel go to the Chiefs for a second round pick, the 34th overall selection was this a good idea for the Patriots or the Chiefs I am not so sure.
Maybe Brady is further along than reports are leading us to believe if the Patriots who had sworn they intended to keep Cassel at the end of last season.
I wonder exactly what they were thinking in letting the back up they had go when he had done a fair job for being suddenly thrust into the line of fire. Especially at the one position where the backs up players don’t see too much live fire in practice on many teams where other positions do.
Though they did not get far in the season they were respectable with Cassel at the helm though he obviously was lackluster with his consistency on the long ball pass as reported in a fantasy report by Christopher Harris on ESPN.COM.
Vrabel is not a total loss to the Pat’s defense though I personally tended to think about him when making my own fantasy picks for my leagues on ESPN. H

The RingIt’s a cold fall day, the brisk sun is shining and the wind is blowing in another blustery day. No one on the beach except for one older gentleman walking his dog. James is about 5’8”, stocky build, shaved head with a scruffy looking goatee gray in color with specs of brown. His glasses are thick and heavy as his age has not been kind to his eyes. He loves to walk along the beach with his dog, Jake.
Jake runs in and out of the surf splashing James and breathing in the cold, heavy fall air. He paints, his tongue hanging out his age showing on his as well. James got Jake when the divorce was final, 10 years ago. Jake is getting older and a steady reminder of days that James would soon rather forget. But he can’t.
That cold November day, he entered the courthouse. It was all a blur, lawyers saying this and that. He signed some papers and it was over. She was gone. That same day he drove to the Lake, near the beach where Jake lived. The older couple was moving from the bea

Jon And LauraIt was a cloudy, overcast night a light mist was on the air as the breeze began to blow in a Northern wind across the lake inviting everyone to go inside and stay warm.
Jon and Laura were sitting in the living room enjoying the quiet night, listening to soft classic rock and watching the fire pop and crackle as they held hands. Her fingers holding onto him as though this might be the very last moment they will ever spend together, he was gently stroking her fingers with his thumb as though he had no other care in the world as long as she was with him.
The slow song that they danced came on as it always does on the mix tape he made for her in 1998, it was worn but since it still played she always put it in when they had time to just sit and be together as their lives were so busy these moments had to be the best they could ever be. He pulled her gently to her feet swinging her about into his warm, caring arms as he has done a thousand times before her face fell into his shoulder

No Rescue RequiredOkay, the last concert I went to for some reason started not only on time - but early. So I missed seeing the only band I really wanted to see - Shinedown. The crowd was really not a good chemistry mix for my aggressive side either. I think some rebel 16 year old girl in the crowd shouted out I LOVE TO FUCK GIRLS... *yawn*. The rest of the vibe was sorta limp dick, to borrow words from Sevendust. I made up new words to Crazy Bitch (she stands about 2 foot 6) and made mention of Keebler elves somewhere around my third beer - and I hate beer, but that is how bored I was, I actually drank for entertainment at a freaking concert venue - pathetic. Sweat, and dodging the mosh pit should be entertainment enough, damn it. I will say that I do like Rescue Me by Buck Cherry - but I am so happy to be going to a concert where REFUSE TO BOW DOWN is more the theme than rescue.
I antcipate that the Black Label Society and Sevendust concert will be far more energy filled, and I will leave feeling s

KissKiss my lips softly, whisper in my ear.
Magic words I long to hear.
I love you so
I need you more
I want your love
Hold my hand gently
Head on my shoulder
Love as solid as boulders
I love you to hold
I need you to care
I want you to be

For YouClose your eyes, take a deep breath
Can you feel my body close?
My fingers caressing you
My lips kissing every inch of you
My soul entwined in yours
My heart beating in time with yours
Close your eyes, touch my body
Can you feel my love for you?
The passion in my eyes
The caring in my touch
The softness of my love
Close your eyes, take my soul
Can you feel me near?
The warmth of my being
The protection of my love
The loyalty of my heart
Close your eyes, take my hand.
This is all for you.

Why I Have To Be Away For A Minute Ty 2 A True Friend Confidence
***Your Prayers Are Truly Needed*** This is my Friend Deb! She is one of the most Amazing, Caring,Loving , Woman i know on Fubar! I am Honored to have been able to meet her on here! She has a heart of gold and is always looking out for me and helping me and many others out in many ways! & This woman NEVER ask for anything in return! Deb has gone through so Much In Life! And has been through many of lifes hardships and has pulled through them amazingly! She is a very Strong Woman!At the young age of 32 She was terribly beat by two men with a baseball bat! This Pain that One night has Continued on to this day! She got severe brain trauma which led to a build up of fluid which requires a shunt to be put in every year! Debs Daughter gave me this information as she knows i'm close to her mom and wanted me to know what was going on and that Deb will be going into surgery very soon and is in a lot of pain right now. This from her Daughter Tasha......... "i dont know how she get

I Like Dreamin'In my mind I have held your hand.
We've walked along the beach in the sand.
Holding each other close at night,
I've often wondered where you are at night.
I'm lying here under the stars all alone,
Cause in my mind is where I can't go wrong.
I know I love you, I know I care.
I just can't seem to find you near.
In my heart, in my mind,
Is the loneliest place I'll ever find.

Our Family:militaryWe went as young men and women
We came back as troubled bodies
The marks left were not always visible
The things we have seen not always pretty
The lives we lost were always honored
Some gave all so we could come home
They did not die in vain
They died in our honor
We played taps for them
Play taps for us
Say goodbye to our brothers and sisters in arms
Our family will never forget you
The family of those who have served proudly beside you
May you find peace now in that place of rest
May we meet again in a kinder, gentler place

I Was Born Gullible & Lacking Common SenseMy aunt Vera Mae teased me once when I was visiting her house. She told this story a lot thereafter and got a lot of fun out of it, because I was so gullible. What she did was I was sitting out on the porch waiting for supper and she came out and convinced me that I had
already eaten. I had a pathetic look on my face and I don't remember if she let me eat or not. It was her home after all.

Quizzicals & Fubar Answers Thereto!THIS IS EXTRACTS FROM OFFICIAL DOCUMENTATION,
MOSTLY OF STUFF THAT I NEED TO LEARN MORE ABOUT.
FUBAR LEVELS AND POINTS:
What are Points and how do I earn them?
You earn points while you surf and interact on fubar. When you reach a certain level, you will unlock features and benefits such as increased photo storage, ability to rate and comment more photos, ability to create MuMMs and more. You can see your point total on your home page or profile page. Points also help your Ranking; the more points you have in comparison to everyone else on the site, the higher your ranking! babyjesus does not reveal how many points you receive for what action, but you receive points for nearly everything you do to interact on fubar.
Points are awarded when you:
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Someone becomes your fan
Someone adds you as a friend
Take someone’s cherry comme

Butterflys On Doves Wings!as the sun breaks through in gold & orange hues delete
eternity clears upon the dawn delete
upon the marble floor , skates on dreams & destiny delete
sparkles of clear water drop from the opaque ceiling delete
as the flame burns brighter illuminating the dark shadows delete
Feathers drop from the celing in white , covering the black soil delete
carrying olive sprigs with there sharpened beaks delete
as the doves are released delete
candles flicker in the cool breeze delete
in shades of green & blue delete
the world keeps spinning delete
as butterfly wings envelop the soul delete
smelts the sword & watches it burn red hot delete
dances in a ring of fire delete

My Night So Far...So I'm sitting here thinking about alot of stuff... drinking and i dont go good together if I'm not doing anything in particular. I'm thinking about how the hell I'm going to get back to CO and get a job and find another apartment. Second I'm thinking about how I really dont like being single. I've never noticed how much it bothers me untill today. So when I first noticed it today was when my family and I went to state street for my sisters birthday and did b-day things. My sis and her ex are kinda like fuck buddies or something cause they still hang out with each other... sleep over at each others houses... you know the whole shebang. Anywho, they where all over each other the entire time and to top it all off all the other couples where too!!! I want someone to kiss me all sweetly and hold my hand and cal me cute names. I actually want the sapiness of a relationship.
I'm a friggin retard....
Ich Bin einsam Ich möchte ein guter Mensch in meinem Leben, die ich weiß, dass ich ve

Your Gift PoemYour Gift (C 2008) Josie Roberts
When we've seen
The vision of great faith
We can choose life
Or we can hesitate.
God is greatly
To be praised
The signs of paradise
Are not a maze.
Now is the moment!
I'll dream again.
Synergy is building
Because Jesus is my friend.
CHORUS:
Your gift resolves ambiguity
Your roles are calm
Your utterance is imaginative
Your purposes provide balm.

Haloland PoemHeaven's Halo Land (C 2008) Josie Roberts
Wow it's judgement eve
I see but come as you are.
It's dust to dust we go
But we still can go far.
CHORUS:
Into heaven's halo land
By the wind of the spirit.
Twirl and swirl in earnest
Much more than just an it.
2nd verse:
So we can work together
Make roles to play
And select a service point
That doesn't cause dismay.
3rd verse:
Don't hesitate or hinder
Because sharing our burdens brings rest.
Pray for yourself and for others--
Zest with knowledge is blessed.

My "x" Should Read This.should Read How I Feeli just wanna break down and get on my knees and beg him back into my life but it sickens me to know anyone can have this much power over me,how just talking to him for a minute brings everything i ever felt for him back in a second.Sometimes i wonder if he knows the power he holds over me,if he knows how far i would go for him,if he knows the love i truely have for him.When we meant it was like "damn this man is gonna be mine one day" and when it happened i kept my joy to myself, i kept my feelings to myself in fear he would reject me ,in fear he would say it wasnt like that for him but that wasnt the case instead he said he was in love with me that i was what he wanted.His love is all i ever wanted and without him in my life,i am able to move on able to find someone who loves me as much as i love him but im so afraid i'll never find it,im afraid he's already passed me up.I shouldnt feel this way,i shouldnt want someone who doesnt want me but i cant help it.I wish that one day he reads

Sports AppreciationI AM LONG-WAISTED, which makes participation quite limited in most. And means that I have to go to big and tall men store to purchase my
shirts.
When younger I enjoyed baseball, basketball, swimming, and fishing growing up and with my kids. Also skating, both ice skating and roller skating.
I avoid dangerous sports like football and any kind of skiing or wrestling, except the latter playfully with children.
At baseball I was pitcher at softball, and great at batting long flies to cousins for them to practise catching. I bat right-handed and throw
left-handed. When pitching, I pitch slow under-handed, but otherwise I throw sidearm which is somewhat a strain physically. I am good at
catching flies, but not grounders.
In basketball I was great at shooting, including hook shot, and especially from long distances, a few times from 1/2 way down the court. I was poor at dribbling.
At swimming, I am still great at floating and unknown how good my swimming still is. I was grea

Music Participation/appreciation InterestsMy grandfather led choir in church for several years.
My mother participated at singing at a town store for several years, which helped get more customers.
Two of my pastors in high school let me lead singing some.
I can easily carry a tune and sight read, and wave my arms properly. Since I seldom miss a note, other bass singers can easily follow my voice.
My 1st wife mary was a musician -- singer alto/soprano, pianist, and later organist, she also taught music some.
I can't sing solo, but can sing duet through quartet. I can also improvise bass, and hum a lot.
Myself sing bass and also alto an octave lower, best friend Kevin sings baritone, Bobby Ray professional on 1st CD album sings baritone/tenor, and Jack singer on upcoming CD sings tenor.
In high school I also played music instrumental, but not piano, or I might have majored in music composition in college. I did take a music composition course in college nevertheless and got an A.
My instruments were all

KittyOkay! Okay! Okay! Okay!
I was doing just fine. But I get this way right when March comes along. You think of spring as a newness. It hasn't been for me.
Yeah, it is about Kitty. My baby sister. GOD! I begin to miss her so much!
Why did she have to go like that?! Why?
Why did my family have to go through such pain and turmoil.
Even goes as far as to missing my own two little girls. Wondering if I will ever see them again. To hold them.
But I do miss "Kitty".
She will always be missed! I miss you babygirl!

Theoretical Math InterestsAREAS OF MATHEMATICS THAT I LIKE THE MOST
This will probably sound boring to you. sorry.
1. topology in general, and topological groups where I convinced my pal famous topologist James Dugundji who I was auditing in another course to also present another course in my college dorm the next semester for credit. The students did the lecturing.
2. homotopy theory, part of algebraic topology, which is of interest in economics high class work also.
3. surgery theory and obstructions, part of algebraic topology
4. fibre bundles, where I gave a seminar in graduate school after studying one of the 2 only books on it for 2 years
5. differential topology and singularity theory, where I am researching to entend the work of Rene Thom and the genius Russian V.I Arnold. This is also known as catastrophe theory
6. category theory in the foundations of math, which is partially a revised set theory, and also a way to say "hey this is the same situation in another area, so the same proof app

His Sweet SlaveBegging for the touch of her Master
Always submissive wanting more,
He led her through the bedroom
Walking her all fours on the floor.
He pulls her collar closer to his firmness
He slaps her cheek's with its delight,
Attaching her lead to a hook
On her breasts he start's to bite.
She stands naked amongst the flickering light
Of scented candles burning,
Surrounded by the smell of sandalwood;
To be his pet she is yearning.
For total domination she craves
Releasing submissive sigh's of pleasure,
He caresses her curves smoothly
With a shiny whip of leather.
Taunting her flesh with his tongue,
Biting, pinching with his teeth,
He pulls her legs apart
Rubbing the whip between her thighs
From underneath.
Her glistening dampness adorns
The shining whip,
He runs it up past her naval
Around her nipples
Stopping at her lip,
She begs for the pleasured pain
In the master slave game
Saying she will obey
In the games they want to play.
Telling her to become

Whats Wrong With These People?Whats wrong with some people here....
Ahhhhh!
I feel so frustratedddd cuz if im nice im like a flypaper for weirdos, pervs and crazypeople, but if im a bitch i could miss the chance to meet nice people, and its really hard to know who's a real and normal person....cuz many times some ppl pretended to be nice, but if they dnt get what they want they just become another hater.....
And is the other weird group that cant be treated well cuz start to think ( and say bullsh*t...)
Guys ( and girls ) I like fu to play, rate, and stuff but i dont fall in love here; and im not here to hate anyone....and no i dont wanna see ur hardest parts....
Ahhhhh im thinking about do the same that some friends already did, become a gosth...with a new profile.
And yes my english is bad, so what? dont come to read my sh*t then hahahahahahahaa.
Love to my friends. xoxoxo
And so much love to those that doesnt hate me,
and moreee love to the haters....

Art AppreciationI was introduced to art appreciation in the 4th grade, where Mrs. Green was sponsoring Texas UIL competition in that area. I took 30 art pictures
home and memorized them in one day according to my mother. I think her memory is bad on this point, but i definitely was entranced and enjoyed
several of the pictures all classical.
My artistic efforts in those years were pretty limited, mostly of ancient scooners and cars.
My 1st choice of art styles is impressionistic and Van Gogh.
There is a website, i don't know how they got my name, that gets the public to be juries of artists paintings/photos/sculptures/mixed media each month if the public person will comment on 20 artists. You can skip over ones you just don't feel you are good at evaluating at all. I have participated so far about 7 times. In the competition, the artists that win get their works displayed somewhere in a gallery i don't know where.
My favorite artists have been Monet, the contemporary Ukranian Rusakova fa

November RainWhen I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darling when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothing lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long, long time
Just trying to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's letting go today
Walking away
If we could take the time
To lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowing that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
Then darling don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walking
In the cold November rain
Do you need some time... on your own
Do you need some time... all alone
Everybody needs some time... on their own
Don't you know you need some time... all alone
I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you
Sometimes I

DamnDamn everytime i talk to him,everytime i look at our pictures together i am reminded of how much i still love him.My heart is a heavy cloud,waiting to release the pain ,anguish and love I have for him.I want one more chance ,one more chance to show him how much i love him,to show him what a great guy he is and how i can give him the life he deserves.My heartbreaks just thinking about his smile,thinking about how he used to hold me in his arms, thinking of how when she was near he gave me looks of "i love you".Our secret i shall ever keep close to my heart ,our secret i shall take to the grave for he means that much to me.... i just wish i meant that much to him.He knows who he is,he knows what i speak of I just wish he knew what i felt.Just to hear him utter words of love towards me would make me whole again.

ThreesomeNow here's what your supposed to do....and please do not spoil the fun..Start a new note,delete my answers and put in your own.Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn alot of little known things about each other.
Three names I go by.
1) Carrie
2) CarieMarie
3) Sunshine
Three jobs I have had in my life.
1) Network Administrator
2) Media Assistant
3) Administrative Assistant
Three places I have lived.
Hmmm tough one lol
1) Eastern North Carolina
2) Charlotte, North Carolina
3) Winston-Salem, North Carolina
Three TV shows I watch.
1) The Closer
2) Saving Grace
3) CSI/NCIS
Three places I have been.
1) Arizona
2) Tennessee
3) Vermont
Three people that e-mail be regularly.
1) I don't really email much, mostly fu-mail.
2) Work colleagues
3) Family
Three of my Favorite foods.
1) Steak
2) Baked Potatoes
3) Lance Crackers
Three things I would like to do.
1) Travel to various States in the US and meet some wonderf

Updatescourt went decent, my lawyer got a lot taken care of and we got an extension on the remaining nonsense until may which means im stuck in tennessee until may 21st and that sucks sooo bad. i have to tell my po anytime i want to leave the state for anything which is inconvenient considering my job is 80% travel to shows. i'm currently in NoLa (thanks to the lord) i got my boss to tell the po i had a job that required me to be here for 3 days so i can spend some time with the people i love and miss the most. its been great so far ive hardly slept because i know it will soon be over and ill be back off to tennessee and sad again. ive been so inspired since arriving. ive already painted kiki's wall with souls and tress and have been working on this great stencil that i want to put up on this ran down building on rampart but it may or may not turn out right lol. we took a tourist day earlier and rode on the carriage and went to have tea at the old brothel tea house and bought wacky souveniers

50 Odd Things1. Do you like blue cheese?
no
2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
uhhh NO
3. Do you own a gun?
not allowed...im dangerous
4. What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic?
never been there
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
nope
6. What do you think of hot dogs?
i have never really "thought" about them
7. Favorite Christmas song?
I wanna hippopotomus for xmas
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? tea
9. Can you do push ups?
believe it or not...yes
10. Why do you post surveys?
boredom
11. What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
my start sapphire
12. Favorite hobby?
fubar
13. Are your toes painted?
no but my toe nails are
14. Do you have A.D.D.?
no
15. What is one trait that you hate about yourself?
bad temper
16. Middle name?
lynn
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment
im hungry,im hungry and im hungry
18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
smokes,gas,breadstix
19. Name 3 drinks

This Is Soo Mean And HurtfullFrist off yes I come off as a bitch but I am really nice and a sweet girl. And the ones who have got to talk to know should know this. Yes I havent got to all of you but I have been trying. Well this is why I come off the way I do. I am soo tired of this from guys and girls. Please take a look at this and see why I am hurt and crying
http://www.fubar.com/images.php?u=2623894&albumid=1542377&idx=0

Urban Dictionary SurveyUnder each question, answer it, then go to urbandictionary. com and put the VERY FIRST definition that comes up.
1) Whats your name?
ME: Sandra
UD: Sandra
A strong name for a strong woman
A Sandra, especially one born under the star (sun) sign of Aries tends to be intelligent, witty, extremely open, honest & passionate and will do whatever it takes to uphold her morals. While these are extremely admirable traits, they also mean that they should never be crossed. Hope you are paying attention, you have been warned!!
On the flipside, if you do the right thing (and why wouldn’t you?) a Sandra will go out of her way to make your life beautiful.
While fiercely independent, a Sandra has both a strong sense of community and family and will do whatever it takes (regardless of personal cost) to defend and protect those that she cares about.
Do yourself a favour – find a Sandra; stocks are limited and they are (rightly so) in high demand.
Need a friend?
Look no furth

A Thru Z SurveyA is for age:
31
B is for beer of choice:
MGD bottle
C is for career right now:
Bartender
D is for your dog's name?
Dino and Peanut
E is for essential item you use everyday
Computer
F is for favorite TV show at the moment?
Criminal Minds
G is for favorite game?
Fubar...lol
H is for Home town:
Pgh,Pa
I is for instruments you play:
Computer keyboard count?
J is for favorite juice:
Orange
K is for whose butt you'd like to kick:
Bill's
L is for last place you ate:
Work
M is for marriage:
Not as of yet
N is for your full name:
Sandra Lynn ...
O is for overnight hospital stays:
Last time was when my lung collapsed in 2007
P is for people you were with today:
Bunch of drunks at work
Q is for quote:
"What's you talkin about Willis"
R is for biggest regret?
Chuck..lol
S is for status:
Engaged
T is for time you woke up today:
Havent slept yet
U is for underwear you have on now:
Boyshorts
V is for vegetable you

Now This Is Funny About Me?! Demon Vs. Purgie On Yahoo!purgie.ownz: u r pissed at me and that is ok with me
www.demon_inc: a little sis
purgie.ownz: i speak my mind and what i think
www.demon_inc: cause what you was asking me to do on the phone wasnt right at all just cause you dont know someone you automaticly dont like em i dont understand your logic in that at all
purgie.ownz: well
www.demon_inc: well i am speaking mine as well
purgie.ownz: i hate people
purgie.ownz: i really hate females
purgie.ownz: and i truely hate blondes
www.demon_inc: i am not going to break it off with her just cause you dont know her and you already dont like her thats i realy dont see you logic in that how can you like or dislike someone if you have noe ever met the person in the first place ?
purgie.ownz: because i am me
www.demon_inc: and well just because you dont know her you automaticly dont like her
purgie.ownz: yep that sounds good to me
purgie.ownz: i have my reason's
www.demon_inc: lol and your wanting me to break it off with her for no

My Younger Brother Vs. David Jordan 5Fri, 2/13/09,
Matthew Kestner:
You've been very defensive since we've began exchanging emails, what drives you to have so much revenge against me, what sort of 'justice' is that?
No answer.
Fri, 2/13/09,
Matthew Kestner:
So you've wasted most of you're life since Uni days just trying to convert people?
No answer.
Fri, 2/13/09,
Matthew Kestner:
Do what again? be nice?
No answer. (David said: you do that again, and I can leave you in your outer darkness and no design brain without any qualms of regret or responsibility.)
Fri, 2/13/09,
Matthew Kestner:
I understand entirely, because you don't want to take responsibility for you're own lack of things done.
Gotcha.You just love that tendency to scapegoat those who don't agree with you. Anything else my fault while we're on that subject?
No answer. (David said: it will be all your fault.) I can handle it being my fault, however, he still hasn't given evidence for his claims.
Sat, 2/14/09,
Matthe

Life And Deathwell, everyone needs to get to know someone before they can judge them, this is what i believe, i know that i have misjudged people and found out, it tears me apart that some people won't give others the time of day because of the way they look, i'm semi-overweight and what not, and people don't wanna know me because of this, but i tell those people to fuck off, anyway i know the pain of this misjudgement, but know that this is a learning process, i've tried to kill myself over a girl before, i know now that it's not worth it, but if i can even save one person with this piece of knowledge i may find peace in this world yet, i just want to meet someone special who won't screw me over in the end, anyway i'm headed to bed gotta work tomorrow have fun

Make You Wonder!!!So i looked at all the stars tonight (yes i can see the i live in the fucking boondocks) but i was wondering how can there be so many stars in the sky... so many people in the world that some one lie me can feel so lonely.... lol i think about how i feel sometime and think i am so stupid for feeling this way.. i try so hard to not let it weigh me down but it does expectly during the wee hours of the night... Lol i think it is because i have no one to tell goodnight sweet dreams i love you and all that other stuff. But why is it so hard to just be with yourself why do we spend our whole lives looking for that special someone? I mean come on its like a fucking merry go round lol im tired of playing games.. I feel like i need to settle down to be accomplished... Which i don't i truly don't i can live happy with me and my son and be happy right? My head fuck yea you can do whatever in the fuck you want. But my heart tells me i need some one there to tell me they love me want me need me...

My Daughters WishNot long after Jessie was diagnosed with cancer I got a call from the Make-A-Wish foundation saying that Jess had been referred to them via her doctors.We talked a bit on the phone and they told me to have Jess start thinking about a wish.Jess could choose to go on a vacation,meet a celebrity,get a gift wish,or participate in an occupation of her choice.In the meanwhile we set up an appt. for the wish team to come to the home and we could make a choice.
Jess had said from the beginning she would love to go to Disneyworld.
So the team of 2 come to the house on Feb.26th and while I filled out the paperwork with one,Jess went over her wishes with the other.They told her to pick her top 3 wishes and she chose
1.Disneyland
2.Disneyworld
3.they didnt even tell me lol
So from what I gather Jess changed her mind and wants to go to California as first choice.As long as she is happy then I am as well.
To be honest I would never be able to take her there without their help!
Soooo...anyone

Self Realizationafter reading a friends words this thought came to mind.
truth in words...
truth in thought...
only words spoken in earnest and from the heart matter...

I Was But Now Im Not?got over it with 3 24s its all good im happy now!thank you! and paul is here! he let one yuk

New PhotosNew Cell Phone Photos taken last night. You know the kind I like to take Go check them out and let me know what you think
Hugs and Kisses
Kelly

I Want To Hurt Youi want to hurt you.
i want to use you in ways that make you cringe
yet excite you at the same time.
i want to run my tongue all over your body
then dig my nails into you until you bleed.
you make me shiver in both fear and anticipation
when i think of the things i would let you do to me.
you make my body tense up with desire
as i feel teeth dig into my thighs from miles away.
i want to use and abuse your body
with ideas that make me hungry just to consider.
i want to run my lips across your chest
before biting gently somewhere far beneath.
you make me need to feel your hands pulling my hair back
as i shove my hips back into you.
you make my hands clench, wrists bound in invisible cuffs,
my back arches as a blade runs down my thigh when none is present.
i want to tie you down to a table, a chair, a bed
and tease you and use you, with nothing for you to do but beg.
i want to be tied down as you test my limits,
of pain and pleasure and sanity.
y

Looking For A Winter PlaymateI love all the friends i have made here some have become very close friends to me and would not give them up for anything. Unfortuantly most of you are long distance, and here i am a single lady that could use some tlc a no strings fun playdate,yes i can come out and play.I love a long haired man or lady i love to ride and i just love to have fun kinky or not,untill find in this crazy world a man or women to date. so I Know it cant be much to ask to find some local fun I AM STAYING IN HAMPTON NH AT MOMENT BECAUSE HOUSE BURNT DOWN I STILL NEED THAT PLAYMATE LETS MAKE TH EWINTER INTERESTENG

In The Loop...There are 24 hours
365 days
31,446,925.9936 seconds
That is so very very long to hate
So much time spent comtemplating self-loathing
So much fear
So many mistakes can be made with so much time
My errors have run the gambit
My course seems set toward self destruction
There must be some way out of this cycle
This endless loop I've put myself in
Is suicide the answer?
If so, whats the question?
I'm so scared of being alone
Why do I push so hard to stay that way?
What am I so afraid of?
I fear myself...

No Were To RunFlames showing on the first floor
As they kick in the door
In they go fearless and equipped
Not knowing they will be whipped
The fire grows more and more
Overcoming the front and backdoor
The mayday calls they all yelled out
Heard by all on the fireground
Bursting into action all the crews ran
Only to find the first floor caved in
Full of tears emotionally spent
Not believeing the tragic event
Three men went into the devils mouth
Three heroes we lost in the small little town

To All My GirlsMy puter is running slow. But I wanted to let my girls know this...
The lady reading this is beautiful,
classy and strong,
and I love her.
Help her live her life to the fullest.
Please promote her and cause her to
excel above her expectations.
Help her shine in the darkest places
where it is impossible to love.
Protect her at all times,
lift her up when she needs you the most,
and
let her know when she walks with you,
She will always be safe.
Luv you Girl!!!!

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Dream GirlOne who smiles all the time
Promising to be all mine
One who thinks constant about me
Even with a hot male stripper on her knee
One who may let out a burp
Or maybe a lil toot
One who likes to be called mine
That one with true love divine
One who is always by my side
Not infront or behind
One who will sweep me off my feet
Really getting my heart o beat
Is she out there i dont know
One day i would sure like to know

Pittsburgh Girls.PITTSBURGH GIRLS
A Pittsburgh girl knows just as much
about football as her guy friend
in some cases, even more.
She drinks beer because it tastes good
but knows when to be classy and drink
something more sophisticated.
She owns a Steeler jersey not just
because it's cute but because she
supports her team and understands the game.
She loves Kennywood and isn't afraid to
order cheese fries from the Potato Patch
because, let's face it.........
Pittsburgh girls wear winter coats and
scarves a lot more than bikinis and flip flops.
A Pittsburgh girl loves St. Patrick's Day,
even if she's not Irish because green
beer is good for the soul.
Pittsburgh girls don't have a funny
accent. They just speak a different language.
The word yinz is dear to her heart, even if
she would never say it herself.
A Pittsburgh girl bleeds black and gold and
knows how to have a great time.
She's stylish and sweet. She has a

More Updates On AshAsh says she sorry she didnt talk to anyone yesterday she was very sick due to the medication that she was on they where pumping to much into her system at one time and to close together in the middle of the day she starting to throw up and her blood presure got extremely low so so she got pumped full of fluids and she slept the day away today she felt a lot better and finally got some food in her n it stayed down her blood pressure has been pretty normal today and she isnt as pal as yesterday. I got to see her today and she is doing better n i got pictures of her n ill be posting them n i got a video of her to n ill get that posted to they are going to start a new antibotic on her tomorow so will see how it goes. once i hear more ill let u guys know SHe says she misses everybody n she hopes to be home this week and so do i well update again sometime soon n plzz look at pictures n show lots of love to show how much we miss her and want her home

Everybody HurtsWhen the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries
And everybody hurts sometimes.
Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.
Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no.
Don't throw your hand. If you feel like you're alone,
No, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.
Well, everybody hurts sometimes, everybody cries.
And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on.
{Everybody Hurts, REM}

Lovelove is like a flower that just is born , it grows, blossoms and then dies just like love

WarriorWas browsing youtube watching it snow~~I came across this video and those of you that know me well~~know that I'm both a Kid Rock and Dale Jr. fan~Anytime they come in a package is a good day for me~~LOL~~As I started to watch it~I got a lil emotional~(if you have read my about me,you know why)~as the soldier stops to kick the ball back to the lil boy in the video~~I thought of Nick~~Even tho I saw him at Thanksgiving~~I miss him daily~and I can picture him doing that~~~I won't get all political about this~~cuz it's only a blog about a mother's love~~Enjoy everyone and have a great weekend~♥ LiL~

Social Security & Sexual PoliticsI am not talking body language or innuendo/hints, where i am either
inept or dimwitted a bit.
I mean what seems to be happening in the last 50 years, not long long ago when women had fewer rights and there were seldom divorces.
When kids are involved in a marriage or long term relationship, the situation financially has worsen over time. In the olden times, he worked
and she stayed at home and took care of the kids. In my generation, 1 1/2 worked, i.e. she worked 1/2 time at home while also taking take of the kids. Now, both have to work even if they don't have kids a lot with these ridiculous house prices if you buy one that is big enough to allow kids eventually. When kids do come along, either one works in the day time
and the other at night, or both work in the day, you hire someone to take care of the kids in the day, and you risk not knowing your kids.
Well, that isn't the main subject of this essay. I'm mostly talking here about situation of no kids.
Youngsters up

Been Thinking...SO I'VE BEEN LOOKING AT MY LIFE LATELY. HAD SOME DAMN GOOD TIMES, AND RECENTLY SOME FUCKING AWFUL TIMES. ALL IN ALL THOUGH I'M PROUD OF BEING ME. I'VE SEEN AND DONE THINGS OTHERS ONLY DREAM ABOUT, AND PROUD OF THE FACT THAT I HAVE GOTTEN TO DO ALL OF THE THINGS IN MY LIFE. GOOD OR BAD ALL OF THEM HAVE MADE ME THE PERSON THAT I AM. SOME THINK OF ME AS AN ASSHOLE, OTHERS THINK I'M A DECENT PERSON, WHERE THEY GOT THAT IDEA FROM I WILL NEVER KNOW. ALL I KNOW IS I'M HAPPY, LONELY AT TIMES, YES, BUT DAMN IT I'M AM HAVING A BLAST. I READ MY BOOKS, WATCH MY MOVIES, THINK MY THOUGHTS AND ALL TOGATHER JUST ENJOY DOING WHATEVER. YOU MIGTH ASK WHY I AM WRITING THIS, WELL I ENDED UP READING MY FAVORITE POEM AGAIN, AND IN READING IT I THOUGH FUCK YEAH. I'M NOT GOING OUT WEAK!! I'M GOING TO HAVE THE BEST FUCKING TIME I CAN, WHEN I CAN. IF YOU DON'T KNOW THE PEOM, IT'S POSTED BELOW. ALL I ASK IS THAT YOU READ IT, AND APPLY IT TO YOUR LIFE. PEACE OUT AND SHIT FOR NOW.-BILL.
How Did You Die?

Im Not A Millionaireim not rich. im not sexy. im not smart.
im poor.
im plain.
im not that bright.
you won't find me with
auto11s or cherrybombs
active.
i barely can afford VIP, but
i can afford that little luxury.
so if you are looking for a sugar daddy, its not me, im not even making $8/hr at work.

Exam To Enter Into Heaven JokeTHIS IS A RECENT EXAMPLE FROM WWW.BELIEFNET.COM
DAILY JOKE SYSTEM.
"Entrance Exam To Enter Into Heaven"
A Christian, a Muslim and a Buddhist die and arrive at the Gate of Heaven.
An angel (or deva) stops them and asks, "Why do you come here? Can you tell me the reasons why you are allowed to enter Heaven?"
The Christian replies, "My ancestors disobeyed God, and I sinned all my life:
I killed, I lied, I cheated my wife and I was greedy. However, Jesus died for me and all my sins are forgiven. So I deserve to enter Heaven."
"OK," replies the Angel. "Sounds good, but I must give you an entrance examination before you can enter." The Christian promptly agrees and the Angel asks him: "How do you spell God?" It is an easy question, and the Christian passes through the Gate.
Next came the Muslim, who says, "I did not do any especially good or evil things during my life but I was very devout. I prayed to God
five times a day. So, I too should enter Heaven." The Angel

Music MadlibsRULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF
Hey Porter - Johnny Cash
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The Arms of Sorrow - Killswitch Engage
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
London Calling - The Clash
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Forever Fades Away - Tiger Army
IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Kill the Poor - Dead Kennedys
WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Faithless - Social Distortion
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Boot 2 Boot - Horrorpops
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
More Human than Human - White Zombie
WHAT DO YOU OFTEN THINK ABOUT?
Post War Breakout - Anti Flag
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Ghost Tigers Rise - Tiger Army
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Shake - The Creepshow
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Joe Grind - The Aggrolites
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GRO

Have Tumor - Going To HospitalGoing to hospital the first of the week, perhaps on Monday to see about getting tumor removed - might be gone for days or not sure how long. Do not know as yet if I will be dealing with cancer or not. The tumor is located on the side of my neck and has become too large in past few days - might be a tricky operation for the surgen to deal with, got no money so doctor will be someone who is willing to get paid from funds set aside at hopital for those with limited insurance coverage.

A Mummer?I posted a mumm a few days ago where a few individuals called me a mummer,and was bashed for being one. I still don't know the meaning this status I've posted mumms yes, I've commented in mumms, yes. But so has everybody. I'm not even acknowledged in other said mummrs mumms when I comment. so how am I a mummer? I'm not in any of the collages of mummer pics. I have opinions mumms ask for them so I give them.
Ok, done ranting someone give me a cookie

The Unknown SoldierThe unknown soldier,
I'm sorry, I don't know your name.
How do you handle your stardom ?
Cope with anonymous fame ?
We owe you so much,
have so much to be thankful for,
you gave your life for us,
fighting someone else's bloody war.
And I try to picture you,
teenaged and full of spirit,
I don't believe you would have questioned,
the war, and why you was in it.
So you would have said farewell,
to your family, maybe a friend,
never thought about not coming back,
didn't imagine your journey's end.
You went straight into battle.
Blood, guts, shells, gas and noise.
Just can't imagine the destruction,
caused by the distant generals' toys.
You were struck your mortal blow,
I can see you bloody and dying,
maybe thinking of your loved ones,
maybe even crying.
Maybe you would have been scared,
maybe glad your war was done.
But your pride and spirit wouldn't have faltered,
to the end you were your country's son.
Because you knew what you was fightin

Deep Withinyou loved me when i was gone
you hated me when i was near
the only thing i could do
is run away and show my fear
just needed your shoulder
so i can cry away my tears
i miss your kiss,lips,and your eyes
but what i did not know,
is that they were all full of lies
you said you loved me
and would never break that trust
was it love u was feeling
or was the damn thing just lust
was it greed or just a must
that let you break my heart
and made me fall apart.
did you know this from the start
that the pain you gave
would go with me to my grave.
maybe you did not relise
all my pain and my crys.
all the dark you put in my skys.
but to the day
i will always pray.
that you will love me.

The Little Red Hen In 2009 AmericaTHE LITTLE RED HEN simply stated........"Who will help me Plant My Wheat?"
'Not I,' said the cow.
'Not I,' said the duck.
'Not I,' said the pig.
'Not I,' said the goose.
'Then I will do it by myself,' said the little red hen, and so she did.
The wheat grew very tall and ripened into golden grain.
'Who will help me reap my wheat?' asked the little red hen.
'Not I,' said the duck..
'Out of my classification,' said the pig.
'I'd lose my seniority,' said the cow.
'I'd lose my unemployment compensation,' said the goose.
'Then I will do it by myself,' said the little red hen, and so she did.
At last it came time to bake the bread.
'Who will help me bake the bread?' asked the little red hen.
'That would be overtime for me,' said the cow.
'I'd lose my welfare benefits,' said the duck.
'I'm a dropout and never learned how,' said the pig.
'If I'm to be the only helper, that's discrimination,' said the goose.
'Then I will do it by myself,' said the little red hen. She bake

Has To Be Saidyes this letter has to be said but if it offends you then sorry but its the truth no matter what...
THE JOB - URINE TEST
(Whoever wrote this one deserves a HUGE pat on the back!)
Like a lot of folks in this state, I have a job. I work, they pay me. I pay my taxes and the government distributes my taxes as it sees fit. In order to get that paycheck, I am required to pass a random urine test with which I have no problem.. What I do have a problem with is the distribution of my taxes to people who don't have to pass a urine test.
Shouldn't one have to pass a urine test to get a welfare check because I have to pass one to earn it for them? Please understand, I have no problem with helping people get back on their feet. I do, on the other hand, have a problem with helping someone sitting on their rump- --,doing drugs, while I work. . . . Can you imagine how much money the state would save if people had to pass a urine test to get a public assistance check?
I guess

Somethings About Me ...prt 21 - I own 5 Cartman stuffed dolls
2 - I lost my virginity in water (a creek)
3 - If you have big breasts..I probly like you more.
4 - My fav food is spinich fettichini and chicken cabanara.
5 I would pass up sex for a big slice of caramel cheesecake.
6 - My fav color combo is Black n Red.
7 - I'd rather lay outside at night looking up at the stars then being inside watching tv.
8 - I'm only on fu to do mumms and make friends...noy here for the points.
9 - I love web caming pantless...do you want my yahoo address
10 - I have flat feet and that's why I couldn't try out for the S.A.S. special forces when I was in the army.

Being Boardim so board today, so i watch movies and just sit here. I am broke and need to be entertained, i feel a little under the weather and all my friends bailed on me today....

Strengthen Business Personality ReviewHow to Strengthen Your Winning Business Personality by Brenda M. Smith 1990
Flowchart of various answers you have chosen,
so you can see where a different answer might lead you down another path.
Each type of business person has their own chapter, with Professional and Trade Groups listed at the end
pp 181 - 188 -- description of generic meaning
of each quality tested
pp 189 - 197 -- mentioning of jobs for certain
combinations of skills
pp 199 - 216 -- "test questionairre" to identify
where you fit in the spectrum of
possibilities
Type of business people are briefly as follows:
1. persuaders
2. diplomats
3. communicators
4. shirt-sleeve managers
5. gnomes
6. delegators
7. wheeler-dealers
8. entrepreneurs
9. consultants
10. small business owners
I WAS TOTALLY SURPRISED AT WHAT I WAS GETTING INTO WITH MY BEHAVIOR AND DECIDED TO MAKE AN EFFORT TO CHANGE SOME!

Picking Up The PiecesYou said you would always be there
That no matter what you'd always care
You expect me to believe this lie again
When you couldn't keep you promise back then
Why should I believe what you say now
When you've gone again anyhow
I thought it would break me and make me cry
But the thought of you not being there just makes me sigh
Oh well, I guess our friendship didn't mean much to you
Not with all the things you tell me and you don't follow through
It doesn't matter like perhaps it should.
I would have you around more if I could
However it doesnt seem that you really care like you claim
Telling me this and that, Do you think I am so lame
I know you won't stick to your word anymore
You did once but that was back before
You said you didn't love me the first time, Oh my
Look at you with that tear in your eye
I'm sorry you don't understand
What I have seen first hand
Go on, leave me behind by myself, alone in the darkness
I have found a way to secure my own happi

Cemetery Escort DutyCEMETERY ESCORT DUTY
I just wanted to get the day over with and go down to Smokey's. Sneaking a look at my watch, I saw the time, 1655. Five minutes to go before the cemetery gates are closed for the day. Full dress was hot in the August sun. Oklahoma summertime was as bad as ever--the heat and humidity at the same level--both too high.
I saw the car pull into the drive, '69 or '70 model Cadillac Deville, looked factory-new. It pulled into the parking lot at a snail's pace. An old woman got out so slow I thought she was paralyzed; she had a cane and a sheaf of flowers--about four or five bunches as best I could tell.
I couldn't help myself. The thought came unwanted, and left a slightly bitter taste: 'She's going to spend an hour, and for this old soldier, my hip hurts like hell and I'm ready to get out of here right now!' But for this day, my duty was to assist anyone coming in.
Kevin would lock the 'In' gate and if I could hurry the old biddy along, we mi

Who Likes Phone SexI am taking a poll on who likes phone sex.
If you like phone sex do you do or say things that you wouldnt normaly say with your partner meaning is it a way to release your fantasy?
What kind of phone sex do you like?
Phone sex for me is the same as it would be in person what you hear on the phone is what you will get in person, can this be said about you???
Let me know yout thoughts on what you think of phone sex.........

Public Display Of AffectionSitting waiting, anticipating for that moment
In time when our eyes lock, caught up in
The stare of heated passion….
At that moment I feel the burning sensation,
Waiting for your touch, hands burning
Up and down my sides touching me right
Through to my soul…
I am burning for you, every ounce of my
Body tingling, waiting for the explosion of
Your touch, your taste, your smell…
Our eyes meet, I am hypnotized your
Glance as you make your way over to me…
I am numb, leg buckling, heart beating.. Ears
Echoing so loud, I cannot hear a sound…
Our lips embrace, so soft so moist, our tongues
Do the dance of love, fiery hot sensations run
Down my spine, cannot wait another moment,
I need to make you mine…
In the dark corner of the room we float, our
Heavenly gaze never broke…Mind racing.,
Imagination flowing..
Hands running up my skirt, hands running
Down his waist, I can no longer anticipate,
Warm loving juices flow, at that moment I
Don’t care who know

Muttering In My MindThings i hate about sleepless nights is all the time I lay there thinking about everything and anything you can think of. Last night was one of those nights. I just thought of all the things I have been going thru lately & how no matter hard you try to get people to understand how you feel they never will. I have my regrets and stupid decisions I've done. All i ask is for people to care and not pressure me right now. I know lately my emotions have been running wickedly crazy. Cuz I was stupid and believed a guy that he cared about me and was going to support me being in his life. but he quickly backed out of that. which made me very angry cuz of what all I gave up to be with him. & most of all I HATE that people should act like it was nothing and move on. I'm sorry I can't. I quit my job to be with this man & also hurt my family. My permit also ran out for driving so I have to go get my physical again & take that stupid book test again. I feel so stupid for trusting someone like that.

Understanding Life From The HeartThe most destructive habit......................Worry
The greatest Joy ...... Giving
The greatest loss ...... Loss of self-respect
The most satisfying work ......Helping others
The ugliest personality trait ......Selfishness
The most endangered species ..... Dedicated leaders
Our greatest natural resource ..... Our youth
The greatest "shot in the arm" ..... Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome ..... Fear
The most effective sleeping pill ..... Peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease ..... Excuses
The most powerful force in life ..... Love
The most dangerous pariah ..... A gossiper
The world's most incredible computer ..... The brain
The worst thing to be without ..... Hope
The deadliest weapon ..... The tongue
The two most power-filled words ....."I Can"
The greatest asset ..... Faith
The most worthless emotion ..... Self-pity
The most beautiful attire ..... SMILE!
The most prized possession ..... Integrity
The most powerful channel of communicati

Life Is So ConfusingI just don't understand life sometimes. I mean one day life is good, the next day I want to explode. Some days I want to do nothing but go home and get a beer, others I want to do anything but go home.
There are those days where I love what I am doing, and others where I don't know why I do what I do. There are days where I love the Army, and days where I blame the Army for everything rotten that has happened to me over the past almost 10 years.
Now don't get me wrong, I love life. I love what I do in the Army. I just don't understand anymore how I am supposed to have a normal life. I have no say in my life anymore. How am I supposed to have a normal life in the Army?
Let me explain where I am coming from on this a bit. Let's take two weekends ago for an example. I was supposed to have Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday off. I put in my mileage pass to go to my dad's house for the weekend. I was getting up and around, the phone rang. I had to go into work for

Wat Should I Do?ok here is the deal he is a good and new friend and he wants me to go to vegas for his bday so i am gonna go tell me what i should do i want to have fun what is there to do please comment me and tell me. he is a sweet heart and he will come down to where im at to b here for my 21st bday so wat should i do in vegas

Somethings About Me....1 - I sleep on my left
2 - I masturbate with my right.
3 - I'm always right and you are all wrong!
4 - I've never watched The Simpsons (and proud of the fact)
5 - My role models are George Constanza and Cartman
6 - I tongue kiss on the first date.
7 - I sleep nude...Summer or Winter.
8 - I have a foot fetish (only female feet)
9 - I have a 4 gold bar black belt in Taekwondo and i can flick it good.
10 - I surf nude and I'm nude right this minute.
11 - I love chocolate
12 - The Crow is my fav movie of all time.

Tonights Praticebeen up and down with the new etude and flamenco...as with every soloist working on material, frustrations always lurk, looking to explode like a volcano---today, that has happened...no matter how hard you pratice or how long you pratice it makes you feel like you're not making doing well-----that is how I sometimes feel, and today it was one of those times---after 4 hours, I had to stop for the night...

True ManA true man does not need to romance a different girl every night,A true man romances the same girl for the rest of his life!

That's What You GetNo sir, well I don't wanna be the blame,
not any more,it's your turn,
for settling the final score
and why do we like to hurt so much?
I can't decide, you have made it harder
just to go on,
and why, all the possibilities
well I was wrong.
That's what you get when you let you're heart win.
whoa
That's what you get when you let you're heart win,
Whoa
I drowned out all my sense with,
the sound of it's beating,
and that's what you get when you let you're heart win,
Whoa
I wonder, how I'm supposed to feel
when you're not here?
'cuz I burned every bridge I ever built
when you were here.
I still try, holding on to silly things,
I never learn
Oh why, all the possibilities,
I'm sure you've heard.
That's what you get when you let your heart win,
whoa
That's what you get when you let your heart win,
whoa
I drowned out all my sense with,
the sound of it's beating,
and that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoah
Pain, make your way to me,to m

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Pedantpedant \PED-nt\, noun:
a person who makes a show of detailed knowledge, esp. relying on books; also, a narrow-minded teacher or scholar

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One Of A Kind ReviewThis is a Myers-Briggs personality
theory book about kids personality.,
for parents to become informed with.
One of a Kind by LaVonne Neff 1988
-- FIRST PRINTING ONLY
Check pages 25-26 should have a questionairre. If not there, then you have the WRONG book!
alias Making the most of your child's uniqueness.
Summary: It takes all kinds! Don't try to bend your child against the grain too much.
As a short quickie subsitute for this -- I suggest the following 4 questions:
1. quiet or outgoing? -- i.e. I or E
2. intuitive or instinctive ? i.e. N or S
3. decides based on feelings or logic? i.e. F or
T
4. spontaneously changes mind at last moment or
holds course once decided? i.e. P or J

You Used My Name In Conversations Cause You Ain't That InterestingYour conversation was no surprise up with bob telling lies
Wish I could remember where I met you, trying to remember so I can forget ya
Changed my number 30 times you called and got my number from a friend 30 times
Milkshakes brought you to the yard must've got caught up because you fell so hard
You wasn't cheating ,could've believed in, we wasn't even like that
Wasn't even trying, why you lying we wasn't even like that
All up on myspace looking for my name, hoping that I would just write back,
if somebody said your name to me who? huh? What?
it wasn't that serious it wasn't that serious
All up on my Celly blowin it up, all around your homies just throwin it up
it wasn't that serious You was just something to do
You always talk amongst the guys always fail to satisfy
Used my names in conversations cause you ain't that interesting
Acting like we best of friends no you don't know where I live
Wishing it was something else, boy you know you need some help

Everyone ShouldForwarded Message:
Bulletin:
EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE A TAGGED SWEETHEART SO
IF YOU ARE NOT SURE WHO YOURS IS RE-POST THIS,
LETS SEE WHO MESSAGES YOU BACK WITH THE WORDS
** I WILL BE YOUR SWEETHEART**
THEN YOU WILL KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE REALLY WANT TO BE YOUR SWEETHEART ,
IT MIGHT SUPRISE YOU

WonderfulThat moment you realize he loves you as much as you love him .... but you both are still too afraid to say it out loud is wonderful! You feel soo excited you think you might physically be sick, then you see him looking at you, and you both smile. THATS when you know , this is the begining of WONDERFUL!
(I Love you Baby!)