Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Frusterated yet again...

Feeling a bit frustrated this morning. I finally got the scale from Jason. It has been 8 days I think since the last time I weighed in. The last time I weighed myself I was at 192. I had gone down to 190 previously. This morning I got on the scale and saw 193. It made me a bit sad and frustrated at myself.

I haven't given this weight loss my all in a couple of weeks and I'm paying for it. I have GOT to get back to eating veggies, working out 100% and being more active.

I've now only lost 11 pounds in almost 2 months. That's just not good. I really thought I'd continue on the 10 pound a month path and lose 20 pounds in 2 months, not 11!

I am determined to start pushing myself like I was at the beginning. Is walking an hour not good enough? Is doing zumba 40 minutes not good enough? I sure do sweat during my workouts. I'm drinking plenty of water.

Maybe I'm still bloated? Who knows. All I know is that the scale doesn't reflect the weight loss I would like to see.

I want to be motivational to other people but right now I'm not. It makes me feel like a failure. I'm STUCK in the 90's and I'd really like to be in the 80's already.

Not sure what else to do. I guess I will be more diligent in watching what I eat. Maybe I will switch things up and eat more protein and less carbs. Not that I'm eating many carbs now anyway. I need to get back to eating breakfast in the morning, a light healthy lunch, a few little bites during the day, and a healthy dinner.

I did go out with friends the other night and had a few margarittas. I'm sure that didn't help my weight loss at all. On the way home, I did have taco bell (just a chicken quesadilla- was my dinner and didn't put me that far over my calories).

Maybe I'm too concerned with "calories" and not looking at the other factors in the food- sugar, fat, carbs, etc.

I know I can do this. I just wish I knew how to do this. I know I can get back in the groove of things and push myself to lose this weight but it sure would be nice to have someone behind me pushing me when I want to stop.

Oh well, I will do better this week and I WILL lose this dad gum weight I've been carrying around with me FOREVER!

I didn't get a chance to take pictures of myself this week... not sure I really want to. But I will tonight and I'll try to post a comparison shot. :/