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You're gonna carry that weight.Tue, 14 Aug 2018 22:54:59 +0000enhourly1http://wordpress.com/https://tutormadnessword.files.wordpress.com/2017/07/rufio.jpg?w=32Drunken Monk Publicationshttps://drunkenmonk.org
3232Annoyed but persevering.https://drunkenmonk.org/2017/07/18/annoyed-but-persevering/
https://drunkenmonk.org/2017/07/18/annoyed-but-persevering/#respondTue, 18 Jul 2017 23:55:29 +0000http://drunkenmonk.org/?p=135Continue reading →]]>So I don’t know why I always expect it to be easy. In my mind, getting healthy in mind and body should be simple. Eat better, Read more, Focus on what you need to fix and Sleep normal hours. I can see everything I need to do. Problem is doing it and not letting little things get in the way of me actually accomplishing my goals. The problem becomes routine.

Keeping up with anything requires you to make it a part of your routine. I don’t have a routine…. At all. There is no times when I need to be up. There are not really a set schedule to how much I work or how often. I set those depending on the level of work. This means some days I goof off. Other days I am working 12-16 hours. It just makes making a routine harder. Not impossible.

My other problem is the book I was looking forward to reading seems to be some bullshit. Like the parts I am reading seem like so much pseudoscience that I might just stop reading the book. Then I wonder if I am perhaps not giving it the opportunity and if I wade through the bs I might get to that nugget of gold. My buddy told me… “It can’t all be shit.” My problem becomes what if it is all shit…

But Perhaps this will help me with another of mental problems, not doing shit because I don’t see the point. Sometimes you will do something and it will prove you right. It was pointless and stupid. Sometimes you will do something and it will prove you wrong and perhaps be life changing. I will roll the dice. Let you all know.

Well back to the grind…

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https://drunkenmonk.org/2017/07/13/stress/#respondThu, 13 Jul 2017 10:03:25 +0000http://drunkenmonk.org/?p=94Continue reading →]]>So today I had my first real big hurdle. I couldn’t sleep. Wasn’t tired. So I stayed up til 5. Finally go to lay my head down and I wake up an hour later freaking out. I don’t know why but everything is coming down upon me. My heart is racing. I am going to die…

Breathe.

Talk to people around me. Call someone important to me. 20 minutes later back in bed sleeping peacefully.

Wake up 4 hrs later and Now I am stressed about the fact that I am not sleeping well. This waking up in terror is now stressing me out. All I want is a soda. One coke will make everything better.

Breathe.

So then I start working because today is a busy day. But like a cockroach, that shit is crawling in my head behind the scene. Distracting me. An itch I can’t scratch….

Breathe.

Do something small, solve a rubik’s cube. Read a chapter of a light novel I am enjoying. Make sure I finish work. Cook a meal for myself. Take a meal to my grandmother because she appreciates that stuff. I still want a soda.

Finish up the day. No soda. Pretty proud of myself. I think I might be able to keep this up. No soda. Worked out. Sweated. It sucked.

I often feel myself getting overwhelmed. I bottle most of my thoughts up. It leads to me carrying a lot of stress on myself. You gotta carry that way though. Sometimes, you just have to pause and breathe. Focus on whats important. If you can’t figure out whats important, call someone to remind you.

I can’t fix everything in my life. Sometimes it seems like so much. I will never get where I want to go. I will never be healthy. I am going to die tomorrow without taking care of what I need to take care of. I don’t have control.

Breathe.

Control what I can. Do what needs to be done. Forget the rest. Move forward.

That stupid saying, shoot for the stars and you’ll hit the moon.

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https://drunkenmonk.org/2017/07/08/resting/#respondSun, 09 Jul 2017 06:53:39 +0000http://drunkenmonk.org/?p=90Continue reading →]]>Sometimes it is good to take a break. I worked out yesterday and today I got to relax and just watch the fights. It was a good day. Focused on me. Tonight I plan to start on the book and eventually lull myself to sleep. Tomorrow will be a big day where I move mountains. But today, I let my hair down and just enjoyed the moment. Still no soda and no alcohol but a great day! I also went to a weird eastern medicine place. I had magnets strapped to my body. Then an ionic foot bath. I didn’t think I would feel anything. But the magnets on my head gave me a head ache which surprisingly went away after I focused on my breathing. Not saying it didn’t something. But not saying it didn’t. The doctor seemed nice though and the nurse was cute. So I got no problem going back.
]]>https://drunkenmonk.org/2017/07/08/resting/feed/0rufio1083Goals Update and Working out..https://drunkenmonk.org/2017/07/07/goals-update-and-working-out/
https://drunkenmonk.org/2017/07/07/goals-update-and-working-out/#respondSat, 08 Jul 2017 06:30:06 +0000http://drunkenmonk.org/?p=70Continue reading →]]>So I finally am making progress on my cars. One is out the shop and needs to go back in and the other needs some TLC. But hopefully I will have them both up and running well soon. Then I can move on to the truck. Won’t be ready to go to the beach this season but perhaps next year. I will have a better beach body and a nice truck to tear the beaches up in El Gulfo. So progress is being made with the cars.

Next up is working out while it is hot. I hate it. I have to wait til like 9-10 at night to get in a good work out. And it is still almost 100 degrees outside. Now I know some of you may say join a gym! I don’t feel comfortable being in the gyms down here. Every one I have been to is crammed. I need space. So I got my nice little set up out back that I work on and some fans. They say it is 98 degrees in the shade or something.

I know I didn’t post them but I also have daily goals. I am just starting and I am finding myself discouraged on how I am not keeping up with them. I need to emphasize them. Though a reason for not doing them was getting my car and doing other things for my big goals. I feel that I just need to do more. I know I can do more. But my motivation runs out. I think I just need to telling myself that you don’t want to be that guy anymore.

That may sound a little self-criticizing but I feel like you got to hate yourself to save yourself. There are things which don’t matter to me. Like when I wake up, getting dressed and ready or showering and shaving everyday. I think to myself, I didn’t really do anything and I can do it tomorrow. I don’t want to get out of bed or do anything but finish up the work on my computer and have a netflix day. But it is not fixing the broken windows and broken windows causes the neighborhood to go to shit. So I got to start fixing them broken windows. So I end my blog with this, in all aspects of life, it is the little things that matter.

]]>https://drunkenmonk.org/2017/07/07/goals-update-and-working-out/feed/0rufio1083Diethttps://drunkenmonk.org/2017/07/05/diet/
https://drunkenmonk.org/2017/07/05/diet/#respondThu, 06 Jul 2017 06:18:02 +0000http://drunkenmonk.org/?p=57Continue reading →]]>I want to diet! But it is so hard. I know the purpose of the diet but I don’t feel like doing a diet exactly. I want to cut out most carbs. No Alcohol. NO SODA. But outside of that and eating more veggies… I don’t see the point in dieting. I want to eat healthier in general rather than limit myself and get discouraged when I get off the diet. So I have a plan of eating healthier. But I am also in a unique situation where I don’t have to go out at all in day if I don’t want to. So I can stay at home and cook for myself. So that is my plan. I got my home gym and I will be eating at home healthy meals I prepare for myself. Dieting is simple. But I also want to allow for a little cheat day. On cheat days I can have carbs or eat out. And I think once a month I can have a soda.