Who are you Trying to Impress?

I went and visited some people while I was on vacation and all I could think about was "I hope they notice I've lost some weight."

Why? Why was this the first thing that I thought? Why did I want to make a change only to impress other people?

I got home from vacation and in the last couple of days have not worked out and have been eating whatever I wanted, not really caring about anything anymore. My sisters went to Arizona on Spring Break so I have no one pushing me to go to the gym. My motivation has definitely been lacking.

As I started my new job today I sat and thought to myself, "if I'm going to make a change, it has to be for me." I need to surround myself with people who will help me and motivate me through my journey. My new job has fruits that are delivered twice a week and lets employees take walking breaks! I'm so excited for the positive change in my life.

My husband and I talked about having another baby. My doctor keeps preaching that I need to lose some weight before I can have another baby because it will be to stressful on my heart to carry a baby right now. Travis and I have discussed it and we're going to see where I am at in three months. He said he would be there for me to push me and help me along the way. He wants me to make a change FOR MY SELF.

I need to stop trying to impress people who have no impact on my life anymore. I rarely talk to these people, let alone need to impress them.