Tag: Confusion and doubt

Hello Krishna believers, Hope you all doing good and enjoying your life. Once again i am back with my lies, my story, Oh sorry! story of confusion and doubt. There are so much to say in this post and probably this is my last page on confusion and doubt, heroes of my story. If you have not read earlier posts, please do read to know Doubt and Confusion. Hope you are enjoying my lies, if you don’t please drop your feedback so i will stop wasting readers time. 🙂 Click here to Read Previous Lies.Another Lie_1 Another Lie_2Another Lie_3Another_Lie_4Another_Lie_5

Another Lie: Or Is it my Last Lie?

As you read in earlier posts that Doubt got three appointment letter from different different leading government banks and now she has joined a rural bank as she wanted to prepare for higher level jobs. She was very happy and informed Confusion that she is enjoying her life. She was very busy from last few months for various reasons and now her interaction with Doubt was just a formality. On the otherside, Confusion was struggling with mixed emotions, he wanted to smile on her success and also have many reasons to cry for her ignorance, he stopped behaving normal, he started hiding himself from others and was trying to get her back. He was not giving his 100% to his new business, even he was not feeling to work. He was neither enjoying his life nor he was allowing others.

Confusion’s last letter to Doubt was an outcome of his deep frustration, he was just paying for his day dream. Doubt, who use to access his social site had urged him to change password, he did. Now Doubt was not replying to his text and not talking anymore. Confusion has no idea how is she, what are the situations there, when he asked to her she replied that she is fine and also asked about her past, confusion’s first love, he said he is fine, may be Doubt was not fine with her answer and she asked confusion to enjoy with his people and requested not to disturb.

On the same day when confusion logged into his social site he found that Doubt and her first love/lie both has blocked him, he got disturbed again that what he did new now, why they blocked. As Doubt has blocked him, he accessed his brother’s profile and texted her again. She replied and said that she has no more love for him. Confusion asked where is that girl who use to be mine, who says i am better, who was always available. Doubt didn’t answer and said from last two months she is not feeling love. Confusion was not able to bare that situation, like a baby he cried, he accepted his failures and tears were proofs. On that moment he wanted to abuse her, but how can he when he knows that all is his fault, when he knows that she is one who carried him out from daydreaming and given him the real view. She is the lady who he believed most and thanked god for allowing him to meet her, he was not able to show her frustration near her, he created problem for himself. He controlled her anger and said nothing bad to her but he asked why? Confusion asked why are you not feeling love, what is the reason behind? He asked you are not feeling anymore because we are from different state, or because of religion or government job??

She said reason is government job, she reminded him that from last few months she is saying Confusion to do preparation for government job but he is not serious. Doubt has said many of times in these months that their parents wont accept if he wont have a government job. Now after getting her clear answer he wanted to ask that why not you hurt me on the same day when we expressed our love, why after so many months but he did not because he was convinced that it is not fault of her it is Krishna’s mercy. He wanted to say more but Doubt has blocked that profile too and later texted on Confusion’s mobile that she has no options for now. She wished him for future and texted good bye.

Confusion who became heartily dead replied that he will never come back to her and asked her to not call/text back again. He is still convinced that she is good no matter she is ambitious. ————————————————————————————————————————-

My Take- And now when their fights has been ended, love is not alone in the air, Doubt is enjoying her new life, a fresh, a boundless life, a life with new responsibility, with feeling of an achiever. Today i checked her social site and found she was happy and she also shared pic of her new bike.

On the other side Confusion is sharing his story with family and friends and got a good care and trying to change the things soon. He is lucky that she has a huge support and he is not paying anything for it. May Krishna Both Them and Bless us all with more love and pious thoughts. Thanks for reading. Keep Loving and Believing.!

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Hi Reader hope you are doing good and enjoying your life. I have come with another lie where liar of my story, Confusion is struggling. If you don’t know about “Confusion and Doubt” please read these posts.

Confusion, the ruthless guy who has written his first letter to Doubt, The Super Girl whom he loves most, was a break up letter letter which hurt both but anyhow their lies survived and they remain in touch and shared emotions.

After that break up letter they both came closer and cared more, but careless confusion never cared of Doubt’s expectation, he always failed to realize her situation. One side confusion was happy with his zero performance Doubt was busy in her preparation for government jobs. She asked confusion not to disturb and so he followed her commands. Now when Doubt return to Confusion with her success story (she got three appointment offers from Govt. Banks), He felt happy but congratulated halfheartedly. Doubt has texted him number of times that eve and Confusion failed to reply as he was driving. When in night she called they talked for a while and again Confusion’s poor fate came in between and he struggled because of mobile’s low battery.

Things were never normal, not attractive, impulsive or demanding like before, talks were formalities and Confusion has accepted that he should stop dreaming.

Confusion, who works with his friends now a days and working to setup a new business have nothing to show, share and tell to anyone, he is dying inside and his mental state was not like before. The person who was known for his jokes and pranks has now blessed with a burning heart and he is convinced that he should live a lonely life.

Yesterday when he was suffering physically and mentally he dialed Doubt for hundred of times and his poor fate that she was busy in her bank formalities. He cried at his fate, not eaten and were acting like a lunatic, he went to that old chat-room (where they met for first time) but it didn’t worked.

Then he started writing for Doubt and written this…

Dear Bujji,

Please give me your few minutes, it is not going to change anything but my heart wanted to share it with you. It suggested me to share what i felt/lived in last 1 year with you.

I have not noted every day, not remembered how many times you made me feel that my Life iz Amazing but i have remembered how do we met, those funs and hundreds of texts in a day. I am thankful that you had noticed me and shared your life with me, suggested to focus on my carrier and that saved me..

I don’t know how to thank and actually i don’t want to. You did what you should. I would always praise you for your commitments, dedication and “Just get it” Attitude. I admire you the way you love your heroes and fight for them. There was a lot of things to learn from you, but i didn’t.

It was more than amazing the way we met and thankful to Krishna that he send you at the very right time. I don’t want to make you remind of those sleepless nights, i don’t want to make you realize of the fantasies we shared but i wanted to tell you that i will always miss those days.

You know most of time when you hung up the call i felt like god has taken my life away. You have put me in pressure cooker most of the time, i still imagine what if that day i couldn’t see you message where you texted to reply you back within 10 minutes or else you would not contact me ever. Thanks to Krishna he saved my dream that day, i have suffered and made you too. I am sorry.

When you got BOB Joining Information, i felt happy for you but don’t know why my excitements got down when i had seen a post about it on FB. May be my failure was hesitant or may be you have informed the world before me. I don’t want to figure out on those when i know how pious your soul is and the importance of your happiness mean to me. My poor brain you know had suggested me to stay away and said that you got result as i was not with you.(Don’t forget we had fight at that time and you were ignoring me, reason you know). I was convinced and ready to stop dreaming and i failed again.

I love you for calling my family as yours and caring for us. When i know that there are only barriers between us and the love which we feels is not coming out to world, I found myself helpless , i hated myself that i was not there when you needed me and i was not strong enough to achieve a goal given to me.

I agree with you that i am dominating and wanted to add that whenever i turned to you it was for my mental peace. You made me feel good always no matter how tough i was living.

I respect your values, freedom and choices. I know that we are living in different situations and i have created so many problems for you. If possible forgive me but haan you made me feel that i am love and in love.

You have doubted me on churail and i have cheated you, sorry but we are just friends, she is my sister from my another mother, and she is also a pious soul and had cared for me. I also wanted to say that i have followed swetie’s profile from yours.

I have nothing to give you, nothing to share, the things i cared of became useless and my things are hurting me now.

For me your love was not a medicine it was an additive drug.

Today i came from Muzaffarpur to Patna, not feeling well, and so called you(sorry for it) but you have not picked, you might be busy with your preparation, Once i opened my fb have seen two posts from you both were meaningful and agree that “Not Knowing is better than Knowing and worrying”. A guy like me who cries at small small things can not make your life beautiful, my mind suggested that we had lived enough together and now we should apart, for us.

I will always pray for your success and my selfishness is that in my story there should be at least one successful character. Please make your parents proud.

I can’t wait for my last day to say you this

Though i have loved you and got double in return,

Though we have dreams of future together,

I found you were suffering whenever i was with you,

I know i have created problems and leaving you to face alone,

All i want to say you now is Please FORGIVE AND FORGET.

“Hold me to your willing heart

And let me—help me—weep

That I of need might fall apart

And then at last might sleep.

Let the truth slice into me

That I might finally bleed

And purge myself of agony

I cannot now concede.

For I have bound myself in light

That I might live in joy,

And cannot—will not—let the night

My bonds of love destroy.

And yet I know if I would gain

The peace for which I pray,

I must allow the floods of pain

To wash my love away.”

Krishna bless you Bujji, Love u Always..(Sorry)

In evening when Doubt came from bank she texted Confusion that she was busy in banks, Confusion congratulated her again and ask to forgive and forget him..

[Don’t know what will happen tomorrow but yes keep believing in Krishna, The Supreme.

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Break Up Letter Before Love Letter

Dear Lovers, First of all thank you for reading all my Lies, keeping believe in me and forgiving me for my unprofessional writings.

Today, before i tell you about “Confusion and Doubt”, What they are meeting, would like to ask, Have you ever written a break up letter before love letter..? No? Hmm good but Confusion, Hero of my lies, he had.. Why and How is the thing would like to share with you. (If you don’t know Confusion and Doubt please click here to read from beginning. Another Lie_1 )

Confusion, a careless guy with worst fate was trying her(Doubt) number since morning onwards, first network didn’t allowed him and when network worked Doubt didn’t picked his call and asked for the reason of call(She texted), Confusion didn’t replied and called again and then Doubt messaged him and asked him not to call again and said she is getting irritated with his meaningless calls.

Doubt, The perfect lady (In Confusion”s believe) has also written that she never had love and this relation was just fake. May be she was angry but confusion felt like nothing, wanted to say a lot but what he did…?

Ruthless guy, who should know the reasons, should try to make things on way but he didn’t. He just written a letter and here it is.

Dear Doubt,
I don’t know what and how to write at the stage when we are going to live like strangers. I don’t want to recall those good days when we were friends, beautiful nights when i had not allowed you to sleep and those evening when i made you cry. Though i had suffered too but this poor guy knows the fact that whatever happens to me, i was responsible. I’m sorry that you have suffered with me in those days and thank you that you made the decision and talked today with the worldly rules.
Don’t loose the qualities in you and remember my name one day if your Jesus n my Krishna want we will meet again.
It was not a fake relationship, it was fake people who were involved, why to blame abstracts.
Thank you.
(do 1 more mercy, if possible leave all those places where you are.)
Sorry and Thank you(Strangers can use.)
Good Bye.
A Liar

Don’t know what will happen tomorrow, Is this an end or a new beginning but yes I do pray and May Krishna Bless them with love.

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He was dreaming and when he came out of dream, this reality was waiting to hug him with an another dream. Yes, It was a perfect Sunday Morning for Confusion, he slept yesterday very late and don’t know how many meaningless dreams he had.Today’s morning gifted the best to him. Her love, doubt was there for him.

Doubt, a beautiful lady who accidentally fell in love with confusion and then things were never normal but today this abnormal, sensual, loving daybreak was making confusion to feel like he is favorite and the most beloved child of Krishna.
Doubt and Confusion shared their love from morning to noon and things were going perfect for Confusion. But his dream cum reality did not long last and in early even, The Sunday came into action.
Superstitious confusion’s superstition proved right again and doubt fought with confusion and this time again she was right with her points.
What happened actually was, doubt logged in his social networks and get socked by seeing his n number of requests to unknown girls. It was not only reason for their fight but this confusion has chatted with another girl and had not informed to her. Now she asked for explanation and what this confusion that his answers are not going to change the things as she is not believing.
The girl about doubt asked was one of his best unseen friend meet on internet only and the n number of friend request about she is asking, confusion don’t know when he sent, may be in his early days, may be purposely in last 5 years of his career over network which he forget.
It was something where doubt were right and her questions were genuine but confusion have no answers, felt bad but was not able to make her believe that she means everything.
Now she is not picking his call and he don’t want to disturb the lady who he love.

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“After so many years….Sunday gave me smthng 2 smile..” it was confusion’s facebook status today and reason behind this status was BJP’s phenomenal win in state election. It has won 408 out of 589 seats, which is near 70% of the total seats. In excitement, he written for Pappu, Shown Namonia, Thanked New Voters and shown respect for AK Sir’s performance. It was like a perfect day for him, agreed that he was not performing but his team was winning so he too was excited and hopeful.

As it was a Sunday and this jobless joker has not much to do rather read his old stuffs. He started browsing and then glued to his blog, he liked one poem penned by him and he just shared that on his page. He didn’t realized that it was written for his past and The present whom he is living has a strong objection on it. But the poor guy without making any calculation he has shared his creativity.

Krishna, once he shared his poem, The Villain (Sunday) came into action and shown him his hell.

Doubt, who was busy whole day in church and then theater, came online and saw confusion’s posts where links were defining his past, she was unhappy and reasons were obvious. All she asked was why he recalled his past if he had nothing, why he has shared this post. She believes he is living his past and thinking that he is living present. She said to confusion that he is just pretending, not loving and have played with her emotion. Later she said she can’t live with a guy like confusion. She also texted him good bye and asked him to take care.

Confusion wanted to make her convince but she was not in a mood to listen, don’t know the actual number that how many times he has called and how many messages he has sent but it is 3:45 and he is still trying.

If he is pretending i must say he is not only joker but a good and responsible actor too. Well, Krishna bless you both.

(Sorry doubt n confusion that i am posting it. )

[Please forgive me for grammatical errors or should i remind you that Hindi is my first language but to reach you i am using in it.]

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It was month of love when Confusion fell in love with Doubt, his best friend over internet And once they found their love for each other this earth had welcomed them with a passionate hug and both felt the music in air and found their galaxy of love under this colorful sky. They were very glad and used the full clock to spread the fragrance of love all around.
Every morning Doubt was waiting for Confusion’s text and Confusion was also dying to hear her voice after every passing hour. It was Confusion, The Chatter Box, who had not allowed doubt to sleep many of nights and took her busy with his love chit-chat.
Their life was filled with love and dreams but situation can’t be always same and smooth. In few days month got changed and it was summer when doubt got hurt by confusion’s mind, who always talk about his past. It was a fact of that time that confusion was assured about Doubt and had thought that she can understand his situation and whereas doubt has full trust on confusion so they both were never worried about the time frame(Past/Present or Future). But unfortunately this relationship dig in a deep trouble. Confusion, who was living present and sharing past, had failed to win the trust more and doubt was assured that confusion is more happy with his past and he wanted to resume with his past, so she decided to leave confusion.
Confusion has also a view that Doubt deserves better and he is good for nothing and if he will leave then she would be more happy as he is only creating problem for her. Now they both were in love but with different feeling.
One Evening Confusion wrote a poem about his past and informed about this to Doubt, now Doubt was assured that he loves his past more.
Well, Confusion was never choosy with his words and many of times he had hurt Doubt unknowingly.
Doubt observed Confusion’s word but failed to observe confusion whereas confusion was loving Doubt but never shown his care and also failed to know what doubt Expects from him. Time has changed and so their form of Love and Now Confusion and Doubt, who were best friend cum Lovers are not sharing anything and trying their level best to ignore each other…

No one knows what will happen tomorrow, but yes there is some hope left..