... this friend wasclosing his YouTube account,that he had establishedonly two days before.

It was his second account.He had closed the first onebecause he was being harassedby someYouTube hater idiotand couldn't take it any more.

I was so happy when he came backabout a week later!Two days ago ...... only two days.

And we messaged again,and sharedgood videosandgood thoughts.

I thought he was fine,felt comfortable and secureand was able to make a fresh start.

He wasn't.

He sent me a short good bye message ...

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thanks

thanksappericate everythingi am feeling not good about somethingsand it's just never going to be the sametake care

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That's all that I have leftfor nowfrom a really nice guy.

The hater idiots,scum of the Web,ignorant, spiteful and antisocialvermin ...

... they are still therelike dog's faeces on a shoe,sticking and stinking.

SometimesI feel like hurting a creature like thatin return ...

... for the hurtthat this creature has broughtto a good personwho could not defend himselfand, therefore, took damage.

Hurting with words ...... fear me when I start doing this.

Take shelter, vermin, if I do that.

Bury yourself alive.And delve deep.Or cut off your ears.Maybe it will help.Maybe, though, it will only hurt.

Do anything so you don't hear me.

Rueing the day when you were bornis not a nice feeling.But that's what you would doif you had to listen to me now ...if I'd express the anger thatrushes through meat this moment.

But ...

... beingneitherverminnorfaeces,you find mehelpless ...

... unableto fight fire with fireto claiman eye for an eyeand a heart for a heart.

For me:

Just the sadnessabout losing a friendthat I had already lost once before.And missing him... again.

Jacob,you're a great guy,you have the heart in the right spot,you have a good and caring soul,and you think good thoughts.

I miss youandI hope thatsomedayyou'll return.Make a new account.Or just e-mail me.

I can't afford losing good and dear people.Can't afford losing them by a brutal death,or due to harassment, and a broken heart.

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And nowfollows the video that he sent me.

I loved it so much before.I still do.

But I watch it with different eyes now.--Michael

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[Verse 1]Just a friendly face in a crowd of strangers,With hats held close we will feel no danger,Seein' stars for the next 8 years,Wishes may let go your fear

[Chorus]Yes we canYes we canYes we canYes we can

[Verse 2]JFK for the brand new wait,In our lifetime we enter a hopeful state,Be kind to your neighbor if no one is watchin'The sight of goodness that no one is stoppin'

[Repeat chorus 4 times]

Yes we can,Overcome,Yes we can,Be as one (Be as one)Yes we can,Lift together,Yes we can

[Bridge]Tell me that I'm preachin',I'm just speakin' my mind,Tell me that I'm reachin',Got to reach to find,Love the world and you begin,To see what it's about,Can we change the way we live,And let the truth sing out,

Yes we can, yes we can, yes we can ooh,We can be as one,Yes we can yes we...can

I know I cared, and I still do. There's not a day passing by (and I am not making this up) when I am not thinking of my friend from back then, and hope he is doing okay, wishing that one day we may be talking to each other again.