Wednesday, 11 April 2012

Goodbye

At some point comes a realisation that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step that can be taken is to stop. Leave, to walk away. Its not called giving up, and its not trying to show to the world that you should quit when things don't go your way. Its just realising when to draw a line between determination and desperation. Giving up, doesn't mean you are weak, it means you are strong enough to let go, and the minute you let go is when you realize that what truly is yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try will never be. Sometimes you have to try to not care no matter how much you really do, because someone might mean everything to you, but you might mean nothing to them. This shouldn't be perceived as pride, its basic self respect .Its hard spending your whole life waiting for something that you know will never happen, but its when you try to give up on that flicker of hope that you somehow always seem to hold on to,that you realize that its harder,since that something is everything you want.
And that's why its so hard for me, to stop myself from liking you,this feeling is part of me now, but sometimes the hardest things and the right things in life, turn out to be the same. At times, I just close my eyes, and pretend that its alright, but its never enough, I have to learn to except the fact that you can't be mine, have to accept that the ending we want, is not always the ending we get. Its what you have always wanted, its the only thing that i know you truly wants from me, to stop liking you, but until now i was not strong enough to do it. Its really tough, but its not a sacrifice, it my last effort to save things, to save myself, and most importantly to save our friendship, which i now value more than my life.
I want you to know, that this is my goodbye gift to you and that whatever there was, has ended, whatever remains, will end, This is how our story ends,as friends and that this is how i want you to remember me.