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Tuesday, April 26, 2016

It seems like the heat wave has left us alone. The climax is cooling down slowly. The wildest gathering was just something for us to remember. Everyone has got on their own car and ready to boost back to the F1 track. How I wish we could sing 2 more songs before we continue our journey. How good it would be if we could stay 5 more minutes in the fantasy moment. A good friend of mine came back like a storm and left like a breeze. They say good friend doesn't have to meet everyday. Excuse me, is that true? I thought we have to hold the good things tightly like there is no tomorrow.

With friends we are in a community. Friends can enlighten us when we couldn't walk out of the spell. Friends can be someone we lean on when we lose our balance. Friend can give us advises when we are out of our mind. A friend with wisdom tells me stop hating but start loving. A sentimental friend can write scripts which remind us how important family members are. A best friend of mine can draw something to make people smile. Some people say I choose the awesome people to be with. Some people ask don't you feel stress to walk beside the talented and successful man? Some say I am his assistant. I really don't have any clue to answer all these questions. No wonder my body was filled with blue black swollen patches without anyone hurting me, it called blue & black tattoo which is F.O.C . They say fear defeats love. I mean I love my friend as a friend. I cannot fear because of all these differences and comparisons. I like to stay around with people who can inspire me. I need a very good reference(role model) to refer from time to time. I would like to know I'm how many miles away from the target. I would like to know what a successful man is up to. But come on, everyone has different missions and excel in different ways. Anyway just make sure you are not out of the track.

Money cannot buy us a good friend. The moral values that you told me It makes me think. The things that you say sometime even I myself feels disgusting but I dont know why I would laugh. I remember there was a time I had just scolded my family member before going out with you, and so co-incidently you mentioned something about kindness while you were driving. That topic made me couldn't help myself from crying because of I didn't tidy up my heart properly and i had failed to show kindness to my love ones. Its too late for me to stop you from talking to me and I felt embarrassing because of my emotional disorder. Its hard to believe that it was 10 years ago. During 2006 I remembered the 1st thing I did was smile without my intention when I met you. Maybe we haven't met for a while after we graduated. You were asking me what are you smiling at and I asked you back then what are you smiling at. Its funny and something to miss (shaking head). Anyway, we are moving forward and not going back to that old place anymore. Its not the beginning of the story and its not the end. Eventually, it is time to let the new chapter begin......

Friday, April 22, 2016

Lets take a break. Without any reason I unintentionally click on the facebook video live. This was the outcome. At the 1st place I wanted to experiment on this new song called "history." I thought I can make my friend cry with this song. At 1st my idea was sing until half way break down n cry kind of scene. Eventually the outcome was the other way round. So sad to hear that.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

My hobbies are drawing, music & socialize. This was out of the blue I came across Simon Cowell reference. 1st time to see him appears with beard because he is turning into a father role. Its good to hear that. Im not a fan of Simon Cowell. I kind of admire his business minded ways and how he chooses a star, how he brands a star. I can tell he can foresee very far. Though he uses his harsh word to punch until you burst into blood or tears, he is talented and hardworking. I had read his article before. After he did a show he can stay beside the phone without sleeping just to receive the reviews and feedback. I found myself, my character is a bit similar to him. That's why I read his news occasionally to find out what his next action. Of course Im not success like him. You know what? I can also sit beside the computer just to check out the respond of the audiences, with what I wrote, sang and draw. Its not how many likes or assure me or esteem that I need. I want to know where I can change to make it more fascinating. Where to improve its very important. Some people do not like comment, for me I do appreciate the comments. Sometime they say its very hard to be happy if you are so concern about the review. I not sure, I only know that I can be extremely embarrassed by myself if I didn't do well in things which regard to my hobbies. I like the vantage points that Simon has. Maybe he looks into many different kind of views before he makes a decision just like what I mentioned in my "Vantage Point" post. Plus the reviews that he collects are a bonus to spur him up.

I was thinking to change my career fully related to my hobbies. It could be a dangerous turning point. They say hobby cannot earn a living, I dont believe. I only know hobby plus passion sure can earn a living. I told my friend i phone & Samsung counld be outdated one day but talent will never run out of expiry date. How you going to excel it, thats the question. Lets think about it.

Monday, April 4, 2016

This time around I didn't manage to go back for Ching Ming. I feel kind of guilty. Whenever the radio plays the song Lay me down by Sam Smith, it reminds me of my grandma. I remember last time I promised her that I will become a lawyer when I grew up. The truth was I didn't even know what is a lawyer when I was a kid, I only knew they wear a white wig when they are working at the court. It was really funny. I still remember we used to steal my grandma fish to feed the stray cat. There was a time the 50 sen coin fell into my throat and my grandma dig it out and saved my life. I used to sleep with my grandma sometime. Day after day things weren't going so well. During midnight I heard my grandma suffer in pain, I was so scared as a kid. I still remember I sent the angels to surround her and rescue her. That's how clever I was. Anyway you'll be in my heart even you are gone. You had taken care of us, that's how you played an important part in our life. Because of you we are living healthily today. Our bond is unbreakable and invincible that will never be forgotten. Our deepest love goes out to you. Eventually I use my prayer to reach you. Please bless us as the man you want us to be from above.

Saturday, April 2, 2016

Surprisingly. I have left this sentimental blog for 2 months. Just like the restaurant's boss asked me "what took u so long to come back?" I think it is time, time to practice my writing skill before my skill gets worst. I had a very amazing Chinese New Year with my family and good friends. Everything has changed from my hometown. The only thing that remain was we were still calling up the same old friends. We were still drinking the same old drink in the same old place. We were still singing the same old songs which brought back the good old memories. Sometime I do stuck in the past. When I passed by the bar which we go usually I will still imagine we were laughing like nobody's sons over there. When I randomly got something to say and I turn my head to the left then I realize you have got down from my car and will be flying away in few hours time.

Every year I go back for holiday. The changes of the environment and people just like a blink of an eye. Many new faces. Many new shops. It gave me some kind of fear like am I getting old? It makes me realize there are many stages in life when you observe the teenagers, the college boys, the working adults, the mid age adults, the retired men and the old men. We will get old even we are not putting any effect. The question is not about your age. The question is where are you standing right now? Let us pause for a sec. Imagine, you are in a tall concrete building. Every floor will give u a different vantage point because of the different height. Ground floor will give you the angle of eye level. When you go up to 10th floor you will know which roof top is having some leaking problems. When you go up to 20th floor you may accidentally look into people's private live. When you go up to 30th floor you will have the full map of this land and you will figure out where to go next. When you reach 40th floor you will able to predict where the cars and people are going, just like how you predict the ants.

So...How do we look at the circumstances, are we still looking at it like a beginner? When obstacle comes, do we handle it wisely or angrily? Its not every people can reach the highest floor in their live. Even I myself has been stagnated at the same floor for years. Some people insist to stay the same. Some adults behave like a teenager. Some old man/woman still seeking for attention like a kid. Some married men lives like a single man. There are too many things are yet to see if we insist to stay at the same floor. When we are seeing the same view everyday, our idea and exposure will be very limited. Lee says the only way to maintain a good relationship is non stop transforming. If you were wounded and broke down at the stairs, how long its going to take for you to recover? How many month or how many years to get back to the fast track again?

The new rivals appear is some kind of threat. I look at them and I wonder how fast is their walking pace? how many step they travel per sec? How far they can go? Everyday we have so many new and young comers. There's no forever young in this world. What makes us different is how much we can grow and develop ourselves from the daily life. Follow Jesus doesn't mean you don't face difficulties. Just like Saint Peter denied Jesus 3 times because he wanted to protect himself during the very dangerous moment. Just like the very challenging questions that Jesus asked him: Do you love me? Repeatedly 3 times.

I talked to a man during the lent season. I told him about my problems. He gave me some advises. He said there are many challenges and struggles in life. Even your family members can give you a lot of challenges. It depends how you look at the problem. He said its useless to play a Mr nice man character but without a changing heart. The only way to change the heart is pray. We will only stop attacking until we are granted by the mercy of God. Lets pray for God's mercy. Mercy gives us hope.

I was drinking with my dad last month. I had raised some questions for him. I said: "The situation will be very dangerous if we continue to unfix this financial problem. we may turn the debt into motivation but the debt may turns us into a broken man." My dad was speechless for secs and he replied: "I know its very hard to stand with this situation but all you need to do is keep pressing and holding on." I was impressed to hear that and that was what I wanted to hear.

Eventually. I haven't figured it out, how and what to transform from myself even though I have watched all the Transformer movies. Sadly, it doesn't help. All I got to do is reach out and seek for the answer. Only transformation can make us move. Only prayers can transform our harsh action. If at this vantage point doesn't give u a good view, maybe it is time to change.