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10:00pm Thoughts…

I know I’ve been posting a lot lately. Life has been busy & this place is a reflection of my life so, there you go.

It’s 10pm and Miles is laying on the family room floor in a make-shift bed. My make-shift bed is setup right next to him, along with towels, a bowl, and cups of ice & gatoraid (he’s been throwing up since 2pm today). Jen’s got Macy up in bed with her because she played her like a fiddle saying “my tummy ow”. I didn’t buy it, but Jen did.

Tomorrow we go to San Diego Children’s Hospital, again; This time to get the results of her bone scan. I can’t say I’m not nervous, I know Jen is – it’s our human nature. I know that God has a plan and that he is in control, but humanity gets the best of us. The news could be devastating, or it could be something simple. But the unknown is what gets you. The thought of my little baby girl suffering brings me to tears even as I write this.

You know how everyone always says their kids are special? I know, I know. Our kids are special. They bring joy to everyone they come in contact with. Yeah they can be brats, but honestly there’s something special about them. And we love them SO MUCH. We look at them and then at us and ask, “how did this happen?” (well we all know how it happened…).

So I am just sitting here alone thinking about tomorrow. Tonight I have faith, and trust God fully. Tomorrow will be another day – I hope my faith is strong enough to hear what could be coming. It’s been a really strange month. I often wonder if sharing this kind of stuff is a bummer when I read blogs of people who seem to be just riding the waves of success and joy, but we’ve really felt under some pressure lately. Junk going on in our church, Macy’s broken leg and now her mystery injury, Jen getting in a car wreck, we got a phone call last week informing us that the home we’re renting is now in foreclosure, Miles getting really sick the night before we have to go to San Diego… If you’re reading this, pray for us please, pray for good news tomorrow, and pray for strength to “consider is pure joy” when trials like these come.

Oh yeah, and I am preaching this weekend, the title? “What happens the minute after you die”…

PS – we do have MUCH to be thankful for, and right now Miles is snoring away! Goodnight bloggers.

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I haven’t been commenting much lately but I just wanted to let you and Jen know that you guys are totally in mine and Jason’s prayers. If you need anything at all, don’t hesitate to call.
We love you guys! May God bless you and your family.

i can’t help but find it interesting that a week ago you blogged on Prayer: A Lifestyle. in my experiences when i truly pray, there is a time of testing that occurs. will we trust God in the midst or will we try to fix it ourselves?
i am praying this for your guys this morning:
“For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named,that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being,so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith–that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth,and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us,to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.”- Ephesians 3:14-21