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And the Classic Hits 4FM presenter said she’d questioned her sexuality and fancies girls though has never been in a relationship with a woman.

She said: “I did at one stage. I’ve been with women. I would appreciate women.

“Not that I’d say I’m bisexual but I would’ve probably had times where I would’ve questioned, ‘Am I?’.

“Maybe I am to a certain degree because I do appreciate women as much as men.

“I would fancy a girl. But I’ve just never had a relationship with one.”

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But Nikki, originally from Bray, Co Wicklow, and now living in Dublin, confirmed she had sexual relations with women over the years describing them as “intellectual”.

She added: “It’s very different. It’s more intellectual in a way. You meet each other [in your head] before you meet down there.

“It feels a little bit more organic. You can’t compare the two. There have been situations where the minute you say to a guy you’ve been with a girl, they’re like, ‘Oh, bring them around’. And you’re like, ‘It doesn’t mean I want to bring them in straight away’.

“And that’s always the thing, ‘If you’re going to do it, you’re going to do it with me’.

“But that’s not always the reason – you don’t want to do it for the threesome side of things, you know?”

And Nikki blamed alcohol for getting involved in a threesome – but said it was fun.

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She added: “I was a lot younger. I just didn’t care – it was like, ‘OK, let’s do this, come on – everybody in’.

“It was more of that. There wasn’t much thought. It happened because a load of us were out drunk. And the guy said, ‘You kiss that girl’. Or, ‘You do that’.

“You know, dare you to do it. It happened like that. And then, sure, we were so drunk it just kept going. It became what it became. I couldn’t look back and tell you, ‘This felt great’. Or, ‘This felt wonderful’. It was so frenzied and drink-fuelled that it was just a bit of fun. It was alright.”

Nikki also revealed despite her lifestyle she was 18 before she lost her virginity – though it was in a New Jersey motel. She told Hot Press writer Jason O’Toole: “Seriously. It was a friend of my sister’s. She was living over there. We were at a pool party and he asked did I want to come to the off-licence with him to get some more drinks.

“I went with him and then he suggested checking into the motel – which I did.

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“It sounds so seedy but there you go. That’s what it was – a motel at the side of the road in New Jersey. I remember going, ‘Really? This is it?’. He told me, ‘The more you do it, the more you’ll enjoy it’. I was like, ‘Yeah, whatever’. I went home a month later and that was the end of that.”

Mental Health

But along with the partying came crippling bouts of depression and as recently as 2015 Nikki had a mental breakdown that resulted in her being locked up for her own safety.

She said: “I had the breakdown, believe it or not, three years ago now. I was in a psychiatric unit being held under the Mental Health Act. Then, when I came out there was a lot of recovery going on.

And then a year after the breakdown, my marriage broke up. So, I never really properly recovered – just as I was starting to get back on my feet again, I was back down in the dumps.”

Looking back Nikki realised she had serious mental health issues from an early age. She suffered from anorexia when she was 15 and was later diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.

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Nikki said: “I had [BPD] which is something that I didn’t know I had. And looking back, it explains, growing up, how I felt. I was never part of things properly – I acted impulsively [and] was always in trouble. And then obviously going into the college years where I was impulsively drinking for days on end, taking drugs.

“All of it led up to one thing and that was the fact that [with] the borderline personality disorder there’s addiction involved, there’s impulsivity, there’s obsessive compulsive behaviour. It’s all part of the one thing.”

Nikki admitted her battle with mental health played a huge role in the split with her soldier husband Frank Black. She said: “Yeah. Frank tried and tried and tried to live with it. But it’s not an easy thing to live with and it just got too much. So, it definitely impacted on us.”

Despite her adventurous attitude Nikki joked she is celibate... for now.

She added: “I’ve joined the nunnery. A year-and-a-half of celibacy. God love the next person who meets me.”

* The full interview is in the latest issue of Hot Press, in the shops today.