Friends and family are probably the people that you should turn to if you're self harming yourself. They may be the ones best suited to stand by you while you seek out a solution that will allow you to stop. If friends do not stick by you after knowing that you are being sincere and seeking help, then they were not worth having on your friend list anyways. The main thing right now is for you to get some assistance in determining the root cause of your issues and then seeking solutions so that you don't self harm. You might also seek out peer support by way of NAMI, or a similar organization. Good luck to you.

That doesn't make you a bad person. But perhaps opening up to the person you most trust will help. You do not have to deal with this alone Conor. There is a lot of help out there, but I believe you have to want to help yourself. And if you do, then go out and reach out for you. You made a big step by talking to us here.