chnaman

i see,the world in my own way. i like things done in a timely
fashion and with some order to it. i could possibley have the
mind of a sick dictator. i would hope not,but my mind runs in
cirlcles and can neva quite settle. i find my self watching this
show the walking dead. very good show at first i ddn't like it.
but it grew on me sorta like tru blood in some sort of fashion.
instead of vampires they used Wolves hierarchy. that how i see
the show alpha male bla bla bla even down to the point of where
the males fight for dominance,that part was great u could hear
the dogs in the background,oh there is one black dog who seem to
get injured alot but never dies,that always a good thing
Tokens.theres the kids too. in my head that is. a child got
killed the other day which seem to be the biggest even so far in
the news. the 'shooter' is still free which is weird.i feel like
htat is incorrect the community will correct this problem i hope.
i miss my youth. i wish more knowledge was passed down to
me.about how the world really works not what they what you to do
but what it actually is. i dont know what that is im confused
about the matter. i'm still learning.

i began to believe that someone or something is watching over
me.i asked and have recieved. one key element i found was
negative and positve enegry. for instance if i woke up in a good
mood some thing would happen to ruin that,happy moment,and if i
draw on that bad 'thing' what eve it may be it continues during
the whole day. the only one way i found to fight that,keep a
happy thoguht close by and grasp that,and when u do u will feel
that negative enegry begin to leave and when it does be ready for
a fight because it will try and keep you. the light does not
always win.