I am always thrown off for a few minutes. His questions always make me realize why it is stupid to feel whatever it is I am feeling at the time. It appears He knows that's the best way to get me back on track, put some senses into head and fix my eyes/heart on Him.

. . .

God: Do you want my principles or do you want my personality?

Me: Huh? Lord, how do you mean oh?

God: Amaka, you seem to desire my principles more than my personality.Me: Lord, how?God: I know what you need. I know. My personality is the experience that makes you a celebrity but my principles is the power that helps you succeed.

Me: I see. Is that why I can't get what I want?

God: (pause) You cannot trade my personality for my principles. My personality makes you TO BE, but my principles makes you TO DO. It is my personality you need, not my principles.

Me: Hmmm . . . But this thing has been working for others. Why is my own now different? (tears)

God: Your ministry is not about what you do, it is centered on WHO YOU ARE.

. . .

As it dawned on me what God was trying to let me see, I was totally blown away.

GOD WANTS ME TO BE.

There are some traits in my personality that need to be checked. And I know it.

"It is better to have good character than to have great wealth."

As a media personality (who is not-so-popular yet. Lol!), there are certain traits that should not be found in me if I want to go up there to shine THE LIGHT. If I want to live as an expression of God's glory. If I want to make progress. If I want Him to take me by the hand and lead me there.

Others can get there any other way, but I'd need His personality (presence) to get there and remain sane.

As I went into the bathroom, I confessed my sins and asked God for mercy and grace to be a better person. I have come to know that the closer I walk with God, the more I become more like Him.

It's just so amazing how He keeps reaching out to me, wanting me to come back to being, looking and acting like Him. He wants people to meet me and have a Jesus experience.