Crazy, wild, Homeless Jack snuck back into town last week
and was on a talking binge. I mostly listened.

"Listen
man, things are starting to happen faster and faster now. I figure a major change
or realignment of the world, or something like that is going to happen. The other
night I was sleeping in some bushes out by the freeway and I had this really vivid
dream.

"I dreamed I had entered a cave and
came upon a door that would not open.

"From behind the door I could hear the tortured
cries of millions of people begging to be let out. As I stood there wondering
if this were the door to Hell and whether I should even try to let the people
out, an old man appeared and said, 'Be thankful that door only opens from the
inside, otherwise your mind might be infected by those people. Those who are trapped
in the Tunnels of Non-Being are trapped by their own minds. There are only two
doors out of that vile place. You're looking at one of them.'

"Who are they?" I asked.

"They are soulless
white people--the living dead. They are empty husks full of death instead of life."

"They sound like they're being tortured," I replied.

"They
are. They are torturing themselves. They are tearing their skins off, plucking
out their eyes, pulling out their hair, and trying to destroy their genes."

"Why?"

"They despise themselves and want to cease
being as nature made them or, failing that, to simply cease being. They have forgotten
what is most important."

"What is the stuff of which the door
is made?" I asked.

"It is made of words. It is called the Door
of Self-Hatred. To come through that door and leave the self-hatred, self-doubt
and the mental illness of self and group rejection behind and to enter into the
light, one must be mentally strong and be confident that one is right. Then, one
can brave these words and move beyond them."

"Yes, and a few other words in the same
vein. These people have given up their freedom to BE and to exist, rather than
risking being called these words. Now they seek non-being and self-destruction."

"You used the term 'most important.' What is most important?"

"It is the essence of who you are. Its core is genes.

"Upon hearing these things, I yelled to the people behind
the door: 'They're only words. Face these words and pass through the door with
your heads held high. These words are being used to keep you imprisoned until
you die off. Come out with no fear. You have a right to think as you want, express
your views, and to be true to who you really are. You have a right to be white.
You don't owe any other races anything. You don't have to be less than you are
lest you offend others. Haven't you heard that you are to multiply and inherit
the Earth? To do this, you must first see that you and your genes are important.Your
genes are you and you are them. They must not be denied. Respect them, preserve
them, multiply them. Love yourselves for who and what you are.'

"No
one tried to come out. Instead, some of the self-haters called back using the
very words that were used to imprison them: 'You are a racist, a bigot, a hater.
You are prejudiced and you are an extremist a xenophobe and an anti-Semite. Shame,
shame on you. You do not deserve to be out in the light. You must apologize to
all non-whites for being who you are and then you should kill yourself.'

"Then I noticed another door, and from it were emerging
some of these neurotic soulless white people who would not exit through the first
door. As they came out, each was embraced by a non-white person who filed in one
by one from another cave. Then, the white person and the non-white person walked
off arm in arm down a corridor with no light at the end.

"What's
going on at that door?" I asked

"That's the other way to get
out. It's called the Door to Extinction. Whites are released from the Tunnels
of Non-being when they promise that they will not reproduce white and that they
will be the last white people in their families. They then find their sense of
being in their own short lives. They are allowed to emerge and to be happy for
their life spans. When they die, they die for all time. They leave nothing of
themselves behind. They are dead ends in their lines.

"It
sounds like whites are being killed off similar to the way we kill off some insect
pests," I said. " With insects, healthy insects are mated with sterile
insects. This satisfies the mating urge of the healthy insects, but no offspring
are produced and the insects soon die off. Here, the whites are being mated with
genetically different humans so that their mating instincts are satisfied and
yet they either produce no offspring, or offspring that are not white."

"You
have understanding," said the old man.

"Then I woke up and realized that the Tunnels
of Non-being are our everyday reality in a world gone mad. Gone are the days when
we, as a people, as white people, faced the world and all that is in it with boldness
and assurance that we could master any and all situations. Now, we have become
meek and mewling sissies afraid of our own shadows and intentionally limiting
ourselves in hundreds of ways lest we offend non-whites or be seen to actually
have pride in who we are. We are trying to deny our genes--our very essential
selves--and who we are. Instead of finding joy in our uniqueness and our shared
peoplehood, we try to deny it and become like the mass of humanity.

"The
truth of our existence, if only we would learn this, is that we are a strange,
unusual and rare variation of humanity. We are people who bring the rare genes
of white skin, blond hair and blue eyes to a world where brown skin, black hair
and dark eyes are the norm. We bring, as a result of our genes, a different approach
to the world and all that is in it. We are a different mixture of the things that
make humans, human. We are unlike anything offered by other peoples. We are the
sports of nature. We are the uncommon ones. We are the mutants.

"Because we are so different, we are often hated by
those unlike us, unless we humble ourselves and seek to be less like Us and more
like Them. Many of us do fall into this trap and seek to negate ourselves. We
have forgotten, or maybe we never learned, that we are a new species aborning,
but we may be nipped in the bud before we separate out from the mass of humanity
by the weak minds of some of our people. Indeed, this is happening right before
our eyes as many insane, feeble-minded and dispirited ones among our people are
mixing themselves back into the batter of humanity instead of remaining apart
to keep our unique genes from being blended away.

Instead of becoming
ever more different from the conformist mass of humanity, we are being sucked
back down into the oozing muck of a gene pool that does not want anyone to escape
or to become different. The force that is pulling us back into the muck is being
helped by the incorrect thinking of this age. This incorrect thinking holds that
people are all the same and that race doesn't exist and if you think it does,
then you must be an evil racist. We run from this word "racist" as though
we've been set on fire. We even deny the existence of races and in doing this
we fool our minds to deny genetic differences.

"We white ones are the different ones. We
whites are one family, one tribe, one people. We have forgotten this and we wander
in the Tunnels of Non-Being as a result. It is time we emerged. We must think
white, act white, and try to become more white. We must try to wash out non-white
genes from our beings through proper mating so that we are blonder, more blue
eyed, fairer skinned and have more classical white features. Our destiny is to
move higher, not lower, and higher means to move to the light and be more white.
This is something each of us can do in our own lives without even telling others
if we don't want to tell them. It's all about DOING the white things. How do we
know if we're on the white path?

Look at the children. Are they as white
or whiter than the parents? I mean, if one parent has brown eyes and the other
has blue eyes, are the children brown eyed or blue eyed? Blue eyes are the ideal.
If one parent has brown hair and the other blond hair, do the children have brown
hair or blond hair? Blond hair is the ideal. See, there's nothing wrong with brown
eyes and brown hair, but when I talk about an "ideal" I mean that this
is the model or template of the ultimate white person and is something that is
to be sought. These things: white skin, blond hair, and blue eyes are easily seen
visible signs of whiteness. God gave us eyes to see these things and know us from
not-us. There are many other signs both seen and unseen that are important, but
these three things are the main ones that can be easily seen and are quintessentially
white characteristics.

"Man, we have to stop the multiracial and
multicultural genocidal maniacs who are trying to exterminate all white people."

"Jack,
you keep coming back with new things like this. Where are you getting all these
ideas?" I asked.

"I have a book full of
revelations directly from God."

"Where'd
you get it?"

"Found it."

"Can
I have a copy?"

"I'll let you see my copy
sometime. When I do, I expect you to send it out over the internet."

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