Jensen's age

Ethan's age

16 May 2007

I Did It

I SPANK Ethan. It was on Sunday, if I remember it correctly. It's time to nap so I put him in the spring cot but he was like toss & turn, toss & turn, wanted to climb out. I'm already boiling inside. Hubby was eating at that time. Couldn't be bothered. I used to spank his buttock, actually diaper lar, and it's not hard. I don't know why I spank him a little harder than usual on that day and he was not wearing his pants. My hand landed on his thigh and PIAKK! He was stunned for a while, looked at me blankly, hand touching his thigh. Aiyorrrr, I felt so guilty at that moment. He looked superbly innocent like 'Why you spank me, mummy?'. Remember the cat in 'Shrek'? He looked just like that. After that he lie in the spring cot quietly and dozed off shortly. But....I saw that his thigh was like reddish, like got my fingerprint on it. Ouch! My heart also ache lar. I promise and reminded myself countless times - 'Do not spank your child!' But, I just lost it. Guess I have to work harder on controlling my temper lar.

For discipline once a while should be fine la...let them know get smack means for something..I also spank Terry if not go to lie down sleep although I know he almost closed his eye when having last feed..a few round spank soft one he will go guai guai sleep..so far I'm not left any finger print on him yet...