Sunday, 27 May 2012

Having discipline is important. To push through points and resistances
require discipline because you go against your programming and that can be very
difficult. The best way to deal with thisand what I have learned is to keep to your word meaning if you say you
are going to do something you do it.

What happens mostly is you come up with excuses not to keep
your word. For example let’s say I say I am going to work on an assignment
today.But instead of doing it I would
find excuses not to do it like: ‘I will do it tomorrow’,‘ I don’t feel like it now’ ,’I’m to tired’.
these thoughts are part of the resistance keeping myself from staying true to
my word.

Same with facing addictions and stopping addictions – there
is always some excuse you’ll find to not give up the addiction. No
self-direction. No power.

To allow feelings and thoughts to direct me in not doing

what I said ill do is me giving my power away – in this invalidating myself and
my word making it basically worthless. Then I cannot trust myself.

I commit myself to stop the thoughts and feelings and
emotions that keep me from doing what I said I will do

I commit myself to stop making excuses and give into the
resistance that comes when working on points I don’t want to

I commit myself to be self-disciplined and keeping my word
so that I can trust myself and my word.

I commit myself to push myself and breathe when it becomes
difficult to stop .

I commit myself to stop the belief that I am too weak to
face my addictions to stop them

Tuesday, 22 May 2012

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to out of fear to avoid conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make sure that my actions never cause conflict with others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself by not speaking up when I see I need to because it would cause conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow fear of conflict to direct me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear conflict situations because I fear I won’t be able to direct myself or the situation effectively

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot handle conflict situations based on past experiences – not realizing that I have never actually directed myself to become effective

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a peaceful person that does not get angry

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself because I fear conflict

I commit myself not to hide or run away from conflict

I commit myself to embrace conflict – because through conflict you create friction and its through friction where points get moving

I commit myself to push myself through the fear and resistances to say what needs to be said and not to worry about if I will be effective or not.

I commit myself to stop comprising myself by avoiding directing myself and others

I commit myself to stand strong when a point needs to be said and to follow through

Wednesday, 16 May 2012

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others and to see myself as better than others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am better than others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I were other peoples position I would do better or would have done things differently

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others so that I feel better about myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to feel better at others expense – not realising that in the need to feel better means that there is an underlining problem that requires direction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to first find fault in others before I look inward at the real issue

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to look inward at the real issue – but first want to judge others

I commit myself to stop judging people

I commit myself to look at myself first and see why I want to judge someone

Tuesday, 15 May 2012

Today we finished ANOTHER song – yeaaay. We has some difficulties with sorting out the production of it. We have to export the song and listen to it on various sound systems to hear what it sounds like and if there is something that needs to be changed I have to go back to the original mix and fix it. So today was all about listening and going back and listening and going back and listening and going back and listening and going back and listening and going back and listening and going back. In this I really got frustrated and a bit moody as a result.

In the End it was worth it – we got it to sound GREAT. Will be available shortly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become frustrated

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by frustration

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate the backchat that resulted in the frustration

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not breath to stop the thoughts that led to the frustration

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the frustration to change me in my consistency and become edgy and snappy

I commit myself to stop the thoughts before they accumulate frustration

I commit myself to breath to assist myself in stopping the thoughts

I commit myself to not allow the backchat as feelings and emotions that lead to the frustration

Saturday, 12 May 2012

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be impatient

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want everything to move faster

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in moving too slow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ill get everything right first time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I’m doing something wrong because things are moving slow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea that this process should be faster

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get used to today’s industrial system where everything moves fast

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself because it seems that what I do has no effect

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel it’s pointless to spend time in making music, because the videos move slowly

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it takes time to accumulate points

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the accumulated effect this process already has and that in reality it is actually moving forward

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I play a big role in keeping the ball rolling – that I and another I plus another I plus another I we then have many I’s that work towards the accumulated effect and through this we grow faster

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself and my actions and words as insignificant, not realizing that it takes not just me but all to make a difference and that I am part of that all and that it is important to keep on doing what I do

I commit myself to see that I am insignificant alone – but as part of a group of I’s we have an effect

I commit myself to keep to my commitments

I commit myself to patient

I commit myself to see that what I do is important

I commit myself to stop seeing my actions and deeds as not important.

i commit myself to see that as part of a group my actions and deeds effects the effectiveness of the group