Wednesday, September 05, 2007

and just when I was thinking of drinking a cup of coffee with cream....

I realized I no longer had a bad headache or ringing in my left ear. The ringing in my left ear has completely resolved!! HUGE for me......it has been intermittently present since December 2005.

While I knew it was related to caffeine intake.....I never really curbed my coffee caffeine intake....which I guess was more than I ever cared to admit.

DAMN today I miss it a lot.....I know that sounds incredibly silly. BUT I miss it. My subconscious thoughts are fighting with my conscious ones telling me all the reasons why I should just go ahead and drink a cup.

While the physical symptoms of withdrawal have abated for the most part.....the mental aspects I imagine will be something I will have to deal with for some time to come!

ONE way I can get past it is to acknowledge the fact that perhaps one day I can make it a SPECIAL TREAT only and have it once or twice per year. However, in my house if it was available I have no control over it. I drink and drink and drink coffee with cream like crazy.

I am also tired of talking about something so absurd and silly that seems to be taking up a huge portion of my thoughts.....and it is making it very difficult to focus on my job....which is not a good thing. Life is so much more than coffee and creamer and me whining about not getting it. Damn....this has even taken precedence over my thoughts of not getting something else! I am not sure what that means....

sigh....come on Melinda.......get a grip.......get a life...shut up already and move on!

and the ringing in my left ear has returned......I guess it is continuing to be intermittent.

1 comment:

That's how mine ears started, I noticed it mostly at night, then it kept getting worse, went to an ear specialist and he said I had nerve damage. Surgery would NOT help it. So now, they ring, hiss and do what ever you want to call it all the time. Sometimes it reminds me of a bunch of insects far off, sometimes it reminds me of steam heat radiators and when they use to get too hot and they would hiss, Lenore had steam heat at her house and those old fasion type radiators. Also our school had that kind of heat. When our mittens got wet from snow we would lay them on top of the radiator until they smelled like they were scorching then the teacher would make us remove them.

It took me a while to get use to it, you notice it more when the house is quiet.