Alright, so after watching Tyler's no bs video, I snapped out of my shitty depressing mindset and realized how stupid it was. I mean, Im not compeltely out of it at all. But I was very motivated to go out, I am a complete noob, not a complete fucking lose, but a chode at cold approach. Im going to upload vlogs for every day i go out, get me pumped and ready to go.

Today, I went to a bar ive never been to. There was prettty much no one there, (thursday night) so I sat at the bar and talked to the bartender for about an hour. I talked to some other losers that were there that I used to work with. It's kinda mean to call em losers, one of them is alright, but the other is a 40 year old kreep fucking jackoff. I actully wanted to talk to him, and see how he was doing, I went to shake his hand and he actully almost didnt, we ahve had our disputes :(. Other then these couple of approaches, I just talked to the bartender about bartending, life, and other stuff.

I learned today to enjoy talking to people, chill, relax, and just have fun. I didnt learn this, but I was thinking, and trying to program this into my brain, the whole time I was talking to him, my brain was telling me to leave, and not open up to em. I stopped that, opend up, talked about myself a fair bit. Enjoyed at least half the conversation. So today was usefull, I went into the bar scared, because of the lack of familiarity with the territory. Its a LIMITING BELIEF. All bullshit in your brain, there are so many of them in my brain, I will chipp at them a day at a time. After talking to him for a while, I felt very comferterble in the bar, and enjoyed being there.

Vlogged right before, and had my phone recording for about 12 minutes, Im not gonna put the voice memo on just because I didnt really get in any approaches. But Ill post the vlog, and Im doing this thing, 30 days of going out, even if it means just going to the bar and sitting. I know ill do more though. These vlogs will keep me responsible for going out, give me leverage you know? Ight, Ima peace, enjoy me ranting. Overall, worth going out, insted of staying at home and doing nothing.

Peace!

(so the video is fucked up, its just an audio now, its cuz the format was quicktime, ill upload a real vid tommarow, face in all :) )

Chiyahhh, Day 2 SANNN! Ight, so I uloaded my FR, cuz im too lazy to type, Overall good night, was very congruent, had over 10 approaches if you include guys (old friends, boyfriend of girl, random dude) approached about 5 girls, 8 if you include a 3 set as 3. Never been able to approach and be confident/congruent, did it tonight, last night was a good warm up, and I made some damn good progress. As I say in my video, no home runs, or numbers, had a hottie 9, friend 9, and friend 7 liking me, had a 90% chance in my mind of getting the one girls number as she was into me, my buddie said she was too, but they left when i was walking the bar and talking to other people, have to keep my eye out nex time. Other then that, had a couple fb's and girls actully interested in me, hotties, all because i was confident, congruent and having a good time. Day 3 tommarow, having fun with this. Watch my FR video, PEACE!!

So, last night was different then my first two, I got off work at 11:00, and started chatting with one of the servers, the one that wants to bang me. She is a solid 8, nice tits, awesome body, cute face, the only problem is, she has a bf long distance, and she is kinda crazy. The bf doesent stop me what so ever, but she is a bit nuts, so im afraid if I bang her, shell be coming back for more, break up with her bf, and possible enter an insane asylum, im fucking serious.

The night was good, got to chill with pretty much all hot girls, was gonna smoke weed with another, but it ended up being 2 am, so we decided to post pone. Could of banged the crazy hot broad, but im still handeling logistics. She constantly hints at how she is single when her bf leaves, and how she wants a "here" boyfriend, aka me fucking her. So will see.

Im gonna summarise some things i have been learning throughout these past three days.

1) Having confidense is key, I seem to predict many of my actions, which makes me come off as insecure/needy/unconfident, this is only sometimes when i get inside my head. So being "confident" is key, and when you are confident, your actions are congruent, and it really does not matter what you do. People will like it, or just be indifferent towards it because your congruent with what your doing, mainly, they wont think less of you because your being a needy bitch, your just doing what you want.

2) Your head/ego will try to play mind games with you once you start to change. Ill ellaborate. Since going out these past three days, I can see my confidense going up, my actions are different, I speak with allot more intent, and am more alpha all together. When your ego sees you doing this, It will try to put you back into your old mindset, BUT, if your continually go out, you will observe your brain doing this, then be able to snap out of it. I would just randomly laught at myself for doing it, and put my self back into "state", or my new personality. This is by all means just whats happening to me. I dont know if other's have this same thing happening to them throughout there transformation.

3) Confidnese will not be constant right away, well it isnt right now. I can have a high level of confidense at night, and when i go out after work. But once I wake up the next morning, I have felt like my old self, not very happy/confident, I 100% believe it's just the state your brain is used to being in, so it will continually do so until you build up the habit of going out allot, making new friends all the the time, working on rapport building skills, and just oveally being happy. This takes time, I can see it already.

4)Looks/your perception of yourself, is comepletely false, and has no purpose when sociallizing with other people. All the things you think you are, your not very good looking, your hair isnt perfect, you have a little acne, it all does not play any effect on you, unless you let it do so. When you are congruent/confident, just naturally happy, and at ease with whats going on, which is what you should be feeling most of the time, all this stuff has no effect on the way people see you, because they love your confidnese and congruency. Not every girl may want to sleep with you, but you will gain massive respect from them.

Even as I type this right now, my ego is going in fucking circles, it's not used to this much exposure of people, and just feeling this confident/happy, and therefor is trying to put me into a bad mood, or just make me unconfident. It's unbelievable. w.e though.

I have work today, closing :(, so every bar I know of will be closed, I will use tonights shift as a kind of going out night, just focus on pushing my boundries/confort zones. My goal tonight will be to maintain constant confidense, and just enjoy what Im doing, and enjoy talking to everyone. I did this on friday, and killed it. It was fucking sick. Ill count this as a night of going out, because it's an eight hour shift of bartending, and I will socializing with a ton of people.

Mindset
-It does not matter what you do or say, as long as your confident and congruent with what you are saying/doing
-Your should be at ease, and happy with whatever you are doing, or who ever you are talking with.
-Presence is amazing
-Challenge your brain, challenge your old mindset when you see it kicking it, your becoming a much better happier, congruent, confident person, who is at ease with everything he does.
-Life is easier, when your confident, and not micro managing eveyrthing you do, its so much easier.

So I had to close at my work, didnt get out till 1:00am, so I decided to focus on work, get outside my head, build confidense, and flirt like hell with the servers. I kept two of em at the bar for two hours. I was completely in my own relaity, didnt need to say shit and i had them laughing, I havent actully felt like this for a long time. Going out every day is paying off, although as Im typing this, I have taken a day off. Completely burnt out. But Im going out tommarow, and continuing this challenge/ going out almost every fucking day, till I get so but hurt, I dont ever want to go out again, then Ill continue going out. I have seen my moods change pretty drasticlly, like go from high confidense, to mediocre. Its weird. Hit the casino at 2 am witha buddie, trippled my $70.00, and went home with a clear mind. Finally saw the potenchial I had bartending that night.

Day 5: DAY OFF FUCKK!!!! I watched Tyler's no bs video, and actully took more out of it this time then the first. My mind is a bit more open to the material, and I can see how this stuff is helping me when I go out. Taking a day off thought, I was about to type excuses as to why, but w.e. Im gonna get up early, so some shit, get my new phone, blah blah blah. Tommarow, Im gonna start texting girls in mah phone just to stir shit up, start hanging out with the servers at my work, practice my game on them, but also to build confidense and get to know them (Im not a basterd yet) NOT BE A BITCH. When Tyler said your brain will see some feeling of liking a girl, then your brain blows it up and backs it up with a ton of bullshit, that really hit me, your brain is your worst enemy in all this, also is your tool to get better. I can see though patterns, and how I put wight on things that are very superficial.

Im going to go out, every fucking day, I dont give a fuck any more.

Also, If your still reading, Im not going to be posting these massive blogs, Only my appraoches and quick summaries of my nights, or what ever Im doing.

My minset is much different now, I really didnt give a fuck about giving it to her.

When I got to the mall, my heart pounded like crazy, because that was my natural response, but i did not care at all at the same time. Gave em to her.

She said I looked very intense, thats actully what she told me, I was like ok, thats cool. She didnt want to stay and talk, I think i intimitated her with my ocnfidense, I never had it when i was with her.

Day 6: Bar: Duke o dublins
Went there at closing time, only 3 guys and a couple waitreses were in the bar.

I sat down at the bar and started talking to the waitress, she was a cute couger, and was nice to talk to.

Talked about the bar, fluff talked, about my job, blah blah blah. She was happy to talk to me, she actully sat down.

She said she wants to come down to my bar one night when im there.

Only was there for about 20 minutes, i knew I wouldnt be able to do much tonight, I had hockey at 10, but I forced myself to go even though my brain wanted me to chill at home.

At this point, Im starting to not care about going out what so ever, its starting to feel very regular.

I am gonna have my focus nights for talking to girls fridays and saturdays, othe then that, the other nights will be to go out and socialize with who ever is out.

Before I started this challenge, I didnt feel confident, wanting to go out, at ease in most situations.

Now, I am starting to feel very confident in most situations, and I am improving my confidense in situations where I would not have too much confidense.

Just going out and forcing yourself to enjoy talking to people, and socialize, really starts to put you at ease in most situations.

When I feel the ease, and am present, I draw people in easily. I havent meditated in proably a week, yet I havent felt more present and confident in I dont know how long.

The cure and way for change is to go out. I now know what core confidense is, and see how it makes you feel, you feel, good in most situations, even if it's new to you.

Dont get me wrong, I havent made any MASSIVE progress, but for six days of going out and socializing almsot every night, has already showed me what Im capable of. Once I get my consistancy down, I will start pushing myself in different areas, like always going for number, bulding physical rapport, all that shit,

Im gonna hit a local "club", or at least hit a packed bar this weekend to do some legit appraoching, and push myself.

Week nights, Ill hit bars, and mabie do day game. Also, I have been setting up "dates"/get togethers with old friends, and been pushing to hang with new people of late.

I feel the confidense to go out in these situations now, where as before I would of felt uncomferterble.

I truly believe the "not being a bitch" concept Tyler came out with, is the best. I can now watch my thoughts more precisely, and see when conditioning thoughs enter. Im connnecting with my family way more, and dont really feel any stress in situations wiht strangers or large groups.

Day 7 : NADA, hung out with a buddy, and im hanging at home with my fam drinking some rum n egg nog. I thought i had it in me to do 30 days ina row, but i guess not. So far, Ive done 5/7. Not bad. But i have found when i get less consitant, my mindset starts to go from awesome, to awful. I am learning. Im gonna go hard as hell for four days, go out every night. Friday after work, saturday after work, and sunday probably to the casino, Ill hit up some girls at the casino. Also really focus on staying in my own reality, and improving my bartending game as Im working. Wont be hard. I know my potenchial, I just need to tap it, and get motivated again.

So Im thinking by the end of this challenge, Ill have around 23/30 days gone out. After Im done this one, Im gonna start another challenge, where I focus on only hitting girls up, and only go out to approach, not to just "go out", by this point, Ill be able to do this.

Day 9: Bartending
Overall, busy night, was off and on when it came to being outside my head. Was very confident, and really outgoing for the first 4-5 hours, made some really good tips, but after that, started sinking into scarcity. From not being consistant enough, and playing a shit load of video games for 2 days, I have put myself back into bad habits, and created alternite paradigms in which my confidense stems from.

I am going to count my nights bartending as nights going out, because it seems, i slack off a bit socially because i think, "oh, im going out later anyways", well last night I didnt get off till 11:30, and I almost got into a fight with some stupid fuck who took my keys for no reason, right off the fucking bar as I was sipping a corona. Fucking bitch.

So thats what happend, Im saying fuck it, and going to have my focus on the moment when im working, and treat the night as if Im going out. After all, Im doing a shit load of approches, talking to a shit load of hot women, and dealing with retards and shit load of shit tests, why not improve my game by treating the night as if im going out. Ill probly be there till late anyways, and if not, I will hit up some bar on the way home, then go to bed cuz i have to work a 10 fucking am the tommarow morning. fml. w.e, I watched tylers latest video about cherishing minset, and how before you level up, you go into a dip. Thats me right now.

2-3 days ago, when i was consitant, went out 6/7 days, and was motivated, I was hella confident and congruent. I saw change coming, and then I went and fucked it up by not going out, blah blah blah. But honestly, I think this is the dip I need, and I can feel Im slowly hitting permanent change, the change I could feel before.

Im not a player in any sense. But I am continually looking for growth, and staying focused on what helps me grow (going out, talking to tons of people and training yourself to enjoy all types of situations) will put me into the right direction. Last weekend, I felt I could of approached a bunch of different girls, and get the numbers, I didnt really doubt myself at all because I had been going out so much, and been in a "higher concious" mindset. But its almost like when i stayed home and did shit all, I went into a "cherish" mindset, stimulating my state from my enviorment (TV, video games, porn) and not having my own fun, and sharing it with people.

I am learning, and I will be treating tonight as if I am going out. Focus on growth, and my new mindset, destroying the old habits. Really enjoying peoples company.

BEEN SO FUCKING BUSY!! Well lazy. But in the past 4 days, I have pulled! Slayed the beast baby.

To sum up Day 10,11,12,13, I have fucked one girl, had a family gathering, caught up with an old friend, and won big at the casino. Ill post a pic of the girl i banged, I took it while i was in her bed, and before we banged.

I was bartending when I met the chick at the bar. She was giving me a shitload of shit tests, but i busted her balls so much it made her wet.

After my shift I sat down beside her.

Chilled and talked while she tried to sit on my lab, and was molesting my balls. She was a solid 8.5.

Pulled her to her temp house across the street a couple hours later after a bar fight and some other shennanagins.

Over the night, we watched tv, she gave me three blow jobs.

I had to fight a shit load of resistance, I pulled the freeze tactic which got her very aroused, and actully made her give me a blowjob, after the first one, I was being given them on command, like a fucking king.

After 7 hours, some cocaine (i didnt do any), 1.5 hours of sleep, and 3 blowjobs, I fucked her, 20 minutes before I had to work. This is one for the books.

Fucked for about 15 minutes, I busted a nut, but kept fucking, dont worry, it stayed in the condom ;).

Im tired as fuck, so Ill wrap this up. She actully got obsessed with me, and called me three times at work, showed up there, and started to stalk me.

I purposely did not get her number, because she started to get clingy throughout the night.

I pulled a phantom and did not show up to her house saying that I would, because she had to leave to go up north for a long time.

YIAHHH, first one night stand, and pull, very proud of myself, and everyone else who is putting in the work.

PEACE BOYS.

BTW, Im going to try and write some sort of entry every day, something small, but of value.

I want to give advice from my experience, and help others with problems they go through.

I really could of made this FR something of a beauty, but Im tired, and wanna jack off, so piss of please.