Friday, December 07, 2007

Feeling down last couple of days, somehow me and not me, lost in space, time and reality. But even being lost and disturbed as I am these days I remember I have to write the tag. "Life would be different if.." And actually I knew what to write about but somehow not into anything these days, even was not sure if I would write anything this week.

But today while waiting for the bus to go home after work i thought that life would be different, if I didnt have to stay there in this cold evening and wait for the bus for the time period which one would call eternity! And then I again thought and thought and thought..... I guess I just thought too much and then..... well .... then the bus came.. not mine!! Whatever! I took this one, just like that as it came to my mind, then changed it, took another one and another. Finally it was the one that could bring me home.

And sitting there, almost falling asleep I got this line that was supposed to be the last line of my yet-to-be-born post. Trying to catch the line and not to let it go i pulled myself together and concentrated on it.. Somehow didnt work out and the line was gone. Felt miserable, really, but then i caught it again ... and again lost it... playing hide-and-seek with this thought i finally reached home and tried to store it somewhere deep in my mind in order to get this thought out of it when time comes.

So you see I really had to write this post otherwise the thought would have gone forever. This tag is pending for such a long time which someone would call ETERNITY. During this time I read lost of tags done by my blogger friends and only wondered what should I write about. Now I know.....

Life would be different if...

we had no sunrises to watch

there were no rains for walking out

there were no first snowfall each year

there were no flowers to blossom

Life would be different if

we didnt have smiles that happen for no reasonswe didnt have smiles for every reasonwe couldnt laugh till it hurtswe didnt have friends to be with us when things go wrongwe didnt have friends to be with us when thing go rightwe didnt have friends who we could call at 4 am just like thatwe didnt have pillow fights

Life would be different if

we didnt have dreams

we didnt believe in impossible

we didnt have hope

we didnt believe in wonders

Life would be different if

we didnt know that someone loves us

we never got to hear "I love you"

we never said "I love you"

we didnt know that someone cares

we didnt care for someone we love

we didnt know that someone misses us

we didnt miss that someone special

we couldnt give a hug to someone we care about

we couldnt get a hug when we need it

we couldnt have a chance of being with our loved ones

Life would be different if

we couldnt stay at home on a rainy day, sit at fireplace and read our favourite book

we couldnt have a family dinner every now and then and enjoy funny family stories

we couldnt have a hot tea on a cold day

we couldnt have breakfast in bed when we want it

we didnt skip room cleaning every now and then (more "now" than "then")

Life would be different if

we didnt have instant messengers to keep in touch

we didnt have miss calls to show we are there

we couldnt call each other to make each other feel important

we didnt have chocolate to cease the pain when things go wrong

we didnt have chocolate to feel more joy when things go good

And maybe...

Life would be different if

we knew what to dowe knew where to gowe knew what it is all about....

But does it matter? If we have these small moments of happiness each and every day, do we really need to know why sometimes things go wrong and we cant do anything about it, why sometimes life is dark and people just dont care.

Sometimes when we think the world is dark, it is just us closed our eyes. Open the eyes, start to appreciate the moments you have got because it might happen you wake up one day and those moments are gone and life is different... but then ...different doesnt always mean better. Happiness is not in looking for better options, it is in the ability to appreciate the ones you have got. There is only one life you've got to live and choose to live it happy because there is no way to happiness, happiness is the way..

And life would be different if i didnt tag Sameera because i also have my mischievous side :D

sometimes, divvi, i believe you think about me better than i am :DOnly after you are through some failures in life you start to appreciate what you have got. Blessed are these ones who realize it before they fail even once. and I only shared what i feel :)

Oh Lena this is such a nice post, I just really enjoyed reading, and just the title, Smile! Tomorrow could be a lot worse, is so true, that is why I just like to enjoy every minute of my life, because it can be changed forever in matter of minutes or even seconds. I really think that we cannot design our life or have it the way we wanted, our life is designed for us, and guided as each of us has purpose in life, to be good, and sometimes to be bad too, because if we wouldn't have opposition or tension, we wouldn't be strong, just like working out in the gym - resisting the motion, lifting weights, etc. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Anna :)

hi, Anna, and thanks for comig back :)you are right, we should enjoy life as it comes because we havent got another one and dreaming about what life could be is just wasting of time. But i still think that we have powers to change our life for better even though if each of us has his/her own path. Some things are meant to be but some others are meant to be changed! :)

Lena, no problem, and yes you are absolutely right we can change our life and take the right paths, but don't you find that once you think you got it, something else comes up. But that something else is not usually part of your path, just may be two paths crossing together - i.e. someone elses path crossing yours, and that may alter the routine again. We just don't know, everything is unexpected, however, like you said still managable, depending how we react to each situation. Thanks Lena, it is nice conversing with you. Anna :)

I realy enjoyed reading what you have written and i agree to almost eveyrything you mention. but... there os always a "but". wouldn't life be better if we knew why things happen and not just let them happen? well, i guess that i am very impatient, and this is why i need aswers to everything, before everything turns to disaster.i think that every moment of our life is precious, but we will be able to fully enjoy it only if we know what will follow up....does anyone agree??????

hi, nikol, thanks for coming by :)you know i believe that the beauty of life lies in unknown, once you know things you lose interest to them. I think that not knowing what will follow up makes life more courageous and gives us more points to think about, more things to dream on. And life would be beautiful if we accept it as it comes without thinking how it might be :)