Main menu

Life and Love as I know it

Post navigation

Dearest Ones

We have much compassion for the mind, it has brought you far in ways necessary for your human experience.

We know what it was like to live in the confines of what feels limited, what is taught, what is learned, what is deemed as reality by many. We struggled too, we cried too, we were on our knees too. We feel you, and this is why we ask you not to judge your current state but to allow it to move through, to let it be a reason to call upon our help and those you trust more than before but also to listen to the depth of your heart. To let your lack of faith in us and yourself in this moment, to actually be a moment that you drop deeper into your heart, into the place that is not of understanding but of being.

For when there is nothing on Earth that makes sense, when you are down to your last drop of faith, your true heart speaks. The depth of your desire rises up, above your fear and you invite the miracles into your life that have always been here for you. It isn’t that you must suffer to experience true miracles, no, but we see that in your efforts to be OK with how you life has been, in your choice to remain comfortably in what is less than magic, you have remained somewhat closed to what is truly possible. When there is nothing left but for a miracle to be shown to you, when it seems as if this is your only option before you break, a deeper clarity and truth emerges.

Please know you are safe and we’ve got you. BE in this moment. Rest in the love which is everlasting and unending regardless of your tears, your fears and your struggles. The struggle will lessen if you remember that you needn’t figure anything out now. The fight to do so will only keep you stuck in your mind which rarely has any sustaining answers and is never the source from which miracles are born.

You are about to go deeper. You are about to live fuller. You are about to love more than you have ever known. But for now be in the grief for what has or has not happened. Let the voice of fear have full range if that is what it needs. Just remember that we hold you in love through it all and promise that your light shines even brighter than before.

We love you beyond,

Your Angels and the Divine Feminine energy of ‘the Roses’ (channelled by Anna April 2017)

Advertisements

Share this:

Like this:

It’s been said that we teach what we need to learn and so I write not as someone who has it all figured out, but rather as someone who has spent many years communicating with Angels who have shared these messages over and over again:

LISTEN to your heart. Listen to your feelings. And that means ALL of them.

It is true that we are divine beings having a human experience but we ARE human!

In much of the spiritual community, there seems to be a confusing separation between our divinity and our humanity because many have deemed the spectrum of our emotions as ‘wrong’ or ‘negative’, when in truth, it is those we deny or hide that become our greatest burden and the pain ends up having far more power over our lives than when we allow it to come to the surface.

So pay attention, acknowledge what is present and embrace it all – embrace everything that makes you human because you are indeed here on Earth for a purpose.

Yes you are! We all are. One that is multi-layered, unique and found once again in the whispers of the heart. We search for our purpose, thinking that once we find the answer – that thing we are meant to do – we will find peace.

But as we look around, comparing ourselves to others, deciding what we think we ‘should’ be, we are rarely fulfilled and more often than not, exhausted by our efforts to fit in with the crowd.

Listen! What makes you feel alive? What makes your heart sing? Follow whatever it is that brings YOU most joy and share it with others because it is this sparkly passion that lights up the world and makes more of a difference than you can ever imagine!

And remember that whatever you do you are NEVER alone. We live on this planet with almost seven billion other people and are connected to an infinite source of divine love and support. We are not meant to struggle. Reach out for help and ask for what you desire. Say yes to all the blessings that are available to you and let yourself RECEIVE!

Why? Because you deserve it!

Why? Because you exist!

It is that simple. You do not need to pretend, or push, or prove anything. There is nothing you need to do or not do to be more or less worthy. You are loved unconditionally without exception. Forget trying to be perfect and know that right now, you are perfect as you are.

If you’re anything like me – and yes, as I said, I am learning too – your mind may drift into every reason that this isn’t so, but if you can take a deep breath and look yourself in the eye with half the compassion and acceptance you so easily offer your best friend, then you’re well on your way to recognizing the truth of who you are.

Whether you can or not, it’s OK. Just listen. Listen to your heart. Trust your own journey; trust your music. And be REAL. The rest is just details!

With love,

Anna and the Angels

Share this:

Like this:

This is a poem I wrote some years ago, but I felt guided to share it with you today. It’s so important for us to surround ourselves with supportive people and to remember we deserve that support. At every moment. When we believe that, it cannot help but show up in many different ways.

For Every Moment

For every crowd of people who think you can’t, there is someone who knows that you absolutely can

For every morning you look in the mirror and see your flaws, there is someone who only sees your beauty

For every night you feel alone, there is someone whose presence means you never have to feel alone again

For every memory that makes you cry, there is someone who shows you the gifts within your past

For every second you ask how, or why, or when, there is someone who reminds you that all will be revealed

For every wish you make to be somewhere else, there is someone whose smile says you are exactly where you need to be

For every time you lose a little hope, there is someone who gladly lets you borrow some of theirs

For every fear that shakes your peace, there is someone whose whispers bring you back to LOVE

And for every moment of clarity and wonder, there is someone who is always ready to share the pure joy of simply being alive.

Share this:

Like this:

I don’t know about you but when it gets dark at 4:30PM, I find myself cosying up and reflecting on the rest of the year. Which is good except when a little voice inside my head starts comparing my life with everyone else’s around me and reminds me of what I STILL haven’t done.

Ugh. It’s so frustrating isn’t it? The things is, I know from working with hundreds of clients over the years that it’s often the ones who seem to ‘have it all’ that are struggling because they aren’t happy inside, despite having everything that ‘should’ make them happy.

This highlights the fact that happiness starts from within and that comparing ourselves is futile simply because we are all on a unique journey that is right for our soul’s growth. All that, coupled with the free-will we have, means no one life experience can, or ever will be, the same.

However, the Angels say that there is actually a wonderful gift in acknowledging those we admire because in doing so we are more able to recognise the same qualities within ourselves.

So, rather than getting caught up in the envy, at the lack of what you do not have, I invite you to list those you admire and why, as a way to connect more deeply with yourself. It doesn’t mean that if you admire a dancer, you have to be a dancer, but if you look deeper at the qualities within each person on your list you will begin to see a thread that will help you tap into your true values and desires. The things that ‘move’ you, are literally resonating with your energy and are indeed offering clues as to the ways your soul wishes to express itself in this life time.

From this perspective, envy becomes the empowerment that propels you forward into living your own joy.

Try it and let me know what happens. You might be surprised at what you discover!

Much love to you,

Anna

Share this:

Like this:

It’s been SO long since I’ve written a blog. But in recent years, just before my birthday, it’s become a little tradition to share what I’ve learned or what I’ve been reminded of in the previous twelve months. So here I am. Thirty four has been intense but life-changing!

1) We all chose the perfect body for our purpose. Including me. I mean that more than I ever have.

2) Self-love is a continual journey

3) Having healthy boundaries is an important part of that self-love.

4) Perception is a huge part of life.

5) So is patience.

6) Procrastination is sneaky.

7) Perseverance is rewarded.

8) Perfectionism is futile because as humans we can never be perfect and as souls we already are.

9) Gratitude and grief can co-exist.

10) Healing happens when people are willing to put the past behind them and focus on peace.

11) Nobody but me has heard my true singing voice and that needs to change.

12) Sexiness has nothing do with my actual body image and everything to do with how I feel about it.

13) Worrying about what people think is exhausting.

14) Never assume anything. Ask.

15) Imagination is a very powerful tool. Use it wisely.

16) I rarely shed a tear. If I cry, many tears fall at once.

17) I am more of an introvert than I thought.

18) I long to dance across the floor. But I know I dance within my heart.

19) Should is a very unhelpful word.

20) Woohoo is a very under-used one.

21) I would rather be deemed too trusting than close my heart.

22) There will always be those who do not see me for who I am. That is OK.

23) There will always be people who do. I focus on those.

24) I am a big dreamer. And proud of it.

25) When I make something non-negotiable in my life it happens. I need to remember that more often.

26) Travelling to California is always life-changing for me. Often in ways I least expect.

27) Being upgraded to Business-class included.

28) I am more of an artist than I thought.

29) Still, I cannot draw to save my life.

30) One prayer, one word, in one moment can save a life.

31) My biological clock is loud. Especially when I’m quite in the middle of the night.

32)If something feels ‘off’ it usually is.

33) Sometimes not getting what I want is very disappointing. Sometimes it turns out to be the best thing ever.

34) Words are among my favourite things about life. But there are no words to describe the beautiful, extraordinary Divine love I have felt and continue to feel in the most ordinary moments.

Much love,

Anna

Share this:

Like this:

This morning, my shower was once again my sanctuary. As the water ran over my tired body, tears also flowed as if they finally had space to be set free. I thought of the people in Nepal whose lives have literally been shaken up and torn apart in a matter of seconds; of the after shocks that must be rippling through their land and their hearts; of the unimaginable pain and fear they must be going through. I inhaled and called upon God and the Angels to help them and then me, so that I didn’t feel so much. But in that same breath, I stopped myself.

‘Why not feel it? Why not feel the pain for a moment, whoever it belongs to?’ I thought. As a sensitive person, I am acutely aware of how important it is to stay in my own energy and not to carry other people’s pain but in this case, I wanted to stay with it. To allow my beating heart that was One with everything to just feel what it felt.

As my mind was flooded with images of the devastation in Nepal, and other places I could not name, I could barely think straight. It was unimaginable, even though it felt like part of me had been transported there. It all happened very quickly but I sent as much love as I could and soon, the pictures altered to remind me of those closer to home. The grief of losing a child, a sister, a partner; those who had lost their hair, their limbs, their money, the life they once knew. It all came rising up. My heart ached for them, and suddenly myself, as my own grief surfaced in the tears. Tears that I could not run to lift my nephew up yesterday when he wanted a hug; for the times that will happen over and over again, for the kind of passionate love I am yet to experience, for the touch I am yet to know, for how it all feels so far away. For the way my teenage years were spent being in pain every day; and how I have to think so much about whether I can travel to London tomorrow to see a friend because I can’t just jump on and off a train or a tube like hundreds of others do. For all the things I have missed out on and those that might always remain a dream. And, and, and…

I began chastising myself for being so self-pitying when I was enjoying a hot shower in a comfy, safe home. I do not have a life-threatening illness, I have not lost a child, nor was I in Nepal. My feelings seemed a little ridiculous at first. But grief is grief. How often do we stand in judgment of ourselves or others rather than remembering how alike we all truly are — how we are all doing the best we can with what we know? And honestly, what I know right now is that it doesn’t serve anyone — least of all ourselves — to compare anything or to belittle our feelings. They matter. Because we matter.

I do believe that everything happens for a reason. But I also believe that some things may never make sense. I do believe that life is amazing and there is so much to be thankful for but it is also HARD and to deny that is to be a robot. I don’t want to be a robot, I want to be a human. I want to be REAL. I want to be surrounded by others who show me who they are, too. Including their tears. To me, that’s when I get to bear witness to how beautiful and brave they are.

And so, I believe that grief and gratitude are not exclusive. They can walk hand and hand together in our life experience. In fact, I think allowing ourselves to ride the waves of human loss, to break down, to fall apart, to allow ourselves to be cracked open, so to speak, is actually what makes way for a deeper sense of gratitude and faith. It is the reason I do what I do, the reason why I celebrate life as much as I can because I know how painful the flip side can be. It is the reason why some of the people I love most have epic stories of triumph in adversity, because I am drawn to that same fire behind their eyes that says ‘I survived. I now choose to live and I will not waste a moment.’

So whatever you feel, feel it. Give yourself permission to go into that place where you’re mad, sad and heartbroken, even for a few minutes. That is where healing begins, even when we least expect it. Even in the shower on a Sunday morning with the Beatles playing on the radio.

We see you. We know who you are. And we wanted to remind you this day that who you are is powerful, beautiful and completely LOVEable. Any other thought or idea you have about yourself that makes you feel less than this is merely an illusion. You are human, yes indeed, and so we honour every emotion that you may feel on your journey through life and have compassion for everything that you experience. But we do not focus on your seeming mistakes or judgements because we know that they are simply learning curves for you to come back to understanding the real TRUTH of your existence as a Divine, perfect soul who is capable of anything – whose LOVE knows no bounds, whose JOY is the reason for being alive right now.

And so we ask you today to take one second to see yourself and others with this knowing. Ask us to show you, to help you with this feeling of LOVE and then you will begin to recognize the choices you have made in coming to Earth and how absolutely wonderful it is for you to be on the planet with the variety it offers you.

It is a time of great change, we know this and we understand that it takes great courage for you to shift your lives in the moment. But please know that we are here to support you with anything you need because as we shared earlier, there is nothing we see other than your greatness and so it is our pleasure to assist you in experiencing this greatness for yourselves. We ask you to ponder these questions, ‘What would you do if you had no fear? What makes your heart sing? What fills you with the most LOVE? Because you ARE LOVE and so when you feel this LOVE you really are feeling exactly who you are and why you are here. So then there no need to concern yourself with if you were doing the ‘right’ thing because the ‘right’ thing is ALWAYS for you to be who you are in all your glory.

These may seem simple questions and answers for you but truly life is and CAN be simple. Going back to basics, so to speak, is what is necessary now. The complications are only created by fear, by your ego, that forgets the truth. And we see so much potential for your growth now and beyond if you keep these questions in your mind. Make decisions from this place in your heart. Act from this place that knows that miracles are not only possible but inevitable when you follow the calling inside of you to be the shiniest, the most vibrant most amazing YOU you can be! Believe us, when we say that we see this YOU all the time. And we celebrate every step you make in the journey to discover the treasures within and all around you.

You really are BEAUTIFUL. So go ahead. Make a choice now to begin to see it for yourself. And then let the world see it. Choose to make the most out of every minute and we’ll be right with you, cheering you on as your biggest fans. We LOVE YOU. We really do.

Following on from last year’s 14 tips, I wanted to share some others with you to make 2015 even more wonderful! Wishing you all the BEST year yet!

15 Ways To Make 2015 Fantastic!

Believe it can be!

You don’t have to know how it will happen or even every detail but at least be open to wonderful possibilities! If you expect it to be ‘bad’ from the get-go then that won’t help anything!

Choose to be victorious rather than a victim!

Life can be hard. We all have challenges and things will often happen that are outside of your control. But you do have a choice about how you react and how you move forward. No one is the source of your happiness. Keep the lessons and the love and let go of the rest.

Make plans but be flexible!

Set your intentions, plan your next step but always say ‘this or something better’ because it’s important to stay open to your highest good and God and the Angels may often have a far greater plan for you than you can imagine!

Be true to yourself!

Not everyone will agree with your choices but that is OK. You are the one living your life and only you know what’s right for you. In the words of Oriah Mountain Dreamer’s poem ‘The Invitation’ – be willing to disappoint another to be true to yourself. That’s not to say do not care; however, living your life to please others never works.

Be creative!

Whether or not you consider yourself artistic, we are ALL creative beings. Singing, dancing, cooking, gardening, writing, or expressing yourself in whatever way feels good to helps you experience your natural Divine state of joy and therefore raise your vibration and further inspire you.

Practice random acts of kindness!

Doing something for another, just because you can, without expecting anything in return is a powerful way to open your heart and you might change someone’s life, too! Treat other people how you’d like to be treated.

Let yourself receive!

Giving is great and most of us are able to do so very easily. But what about receiving? Say YES when someone offers to help you, ask for what you need. Consciously open your arms and your heart to all your blessings and know that you deserve them! And remember if you want to be more intuitive, which is to receive guidance, you must learn to receive.

Trust your intuition!

If something doesn’t feel right, it probably isn’t. Listen. And if it does, listen. And if you want clarity, listen again. Your Divine guidance will always be loving and repetitive. It will be supportive and even if it’s daunting you’ll know deep down that it’s right.

Step outside your comfort zone!

It is said that life begins at the end of your comfort zone and in many ways that is true because you cannot continue to do what you’ve always done and expect new things. It doesn’t mean you have to feel uncomfortable all the time (see above) but it does mean that being courageous and taking a risk sometimes could be the best thing you ever do!

Quit trying to prove yourself to anyone!

By all means, set yourself goals, but do not pressure yourself to be ‘better’ or strive for success because you think that makes you more important. Your happiness IS success and you are always good enough because what you do does not define who you are.

Turn your worries into prayers!

Fear is a natural part of the human experience but rather than worrying over and over again which does not do anyone any good, focusing on what you desire instead by asking for help with it is much more empowering and effective.

Spend time in nature!

Being outside in fresh air is good for the body, mind and spirit. The higher levels of oxygen mean that you are more likely to hear your Divine guidance, and your body and mind are always positively affected by natural sunlight and beautiful surroundings. Do not underestimate even a few minutes surrounded by mother nature’s nurturing energy.

Be honest about your feelings!

Clear communication is essential in all relationships and you cannot expect to anyone to know how you feel unless you tell them. Being honest about matters to you, what’s in your heart, means that even if there are challenges, you are more able to live a peaceful, fulfilled life.

Prioritize your time!

It’s easy to be distracted by many things in our modern world or feel like there just isn’t enough time in the day to focus on your dreams. But there is if you make time. Even spending a few minutes a day writing, making a phone call, practising a skill or visualizing your happy outcome – whatever energy you put into your heart’s desires counts and before you know it, what you want will be done! It is already in truth!

Celebrate your life!

You are an amazing, powerful, capable, loveable being and your presence is a gift to the world. Shine brightly and be thankful for the beautiful blessings you have been given and all those you share just by being you!

Share this:

Like this:

My twin sister and I were born eleven weeks premature, each weighing less than a bag of sugar. We survived against all odds. However, as a result, I have cerebral palsy, affecting my legs.

Twenty years ago this week, I underwent major surgery that turned my life upside down and back to front. I never wanted the surgery but when a doctor told me in no uncertain terms that without it, I would be confined to a wheelchair by the time I was thirty, I didn’t have much choice. I felt backed into a corner, unable to see any other way forward. I was promised greater mobility and independence than I’d had for several years and I knew that I couldn’t let that chance pass me by. I was concerned about the impact such anaesthesia would have on my already fragile stomach, but everyone put those symptoms down to my hormonal age and did not see any reason to postpone the multiple operations I needed.

So very nervously, I had the first one and knew as soon as I awoke from the 3-hour ordeal, in which the consultant broke and re-positioned both my femur bones, that something was extremely wrong. I could not feel my legs at all (no one told me or my parents that I would be given an epidural for pain relief) and I went into complete shock. As it happened, my whole body shook internally and the agony I felt over the next few days was the beginning of a decade of pain. Devastating, exhausting pain. After more major surgery, which required me to wear plaster casts from hip to toe (made all the more undignified and ghastly by the arrival of my period!), more anaesthesia, antibiotics, morphine and almost a year off school, my dear, sensitive body pretty much collapsed. Life was never the same again.

In many ways, I am grateful for it. My journey to health and well-being led me on a path of deep self-discovery, and ultimately to incredible blessings. But in this moment, I want to acknowledge all that was lost to me in those years, and the utter despair I felt as a teenager when the promise of a new freedom vanished into thin air. I want to reassure her, to comfort her and let her know what I know now, what I’d tell her if I could meet her in some kind of parallel universe…

Dear 14 Year Old Me,

I know you are scared. I know you do not want to do this. I know that everything feels out of your control. But those caring for you truly do have your best interests at heart.

It will be hard. It will be very hard. But you will never be alone and there are beautiful Angels protecting you always. You will not die, no matter how difficult it may seem to stay alive. You are safe.

Your life has not been wasted. It has just taken a different route. You’ll see.

Your dreams may feel shattered but you will dream new dreams and surprise people in ways you cannot imagine right now.

Doctors know a lot. But they don’t know everything. Listen to them but listen to yourself most. Your body, your heart, your spirit know what they need.

Medicine will only go so far – there are so many other ways to feel well. Take the medicine without guilt if that’s what gets you through this moment. But know that you will also find other ways to heal.

Tell others how you really feel. Talk to people you trust. It’s OK to ask for help and it is not a weakness. Ever.

No-one will ever truly understand what it’s like for you and friends will come and go from your life, but you will meet those who see you for who you are. Be patient for your ‘tribe’. They are waiting in the wings and will arrive steadily throughout your journey.

Breathe. Consciously breathe. Let yourself relax as much as possible.

Time heals a lot. It doesn’t make anything disappear but it does improve. I promise.

Don’t worry so much about school. Education is important but it isn’t as important as your health and will never be as important as the lessons you learn in life; nobody will ask for your grades when you’re an adult, anyway!

It’s a GREAT gift to be ‘different’. You’ll get to do exciting things and meet brilliant people. You don’t need to do what everyone else is doing to be happy or successful.

You will learn what true success is. You will learn who you are.

It’s not easy to watch someone you love suffer every day. Your family are all doing the best they can with what they know, as are you.

Whether you walk freely again or not, you will move mountains in your life and you will, one day, teach others that anything is possible.

You are not to blame for any of this. No-one is. Sh** happens and you will never know all of the reasons why things turned out as they did. Accept that as much as you can. It’ll make everything much more bearable.

You are strong. You are capable. You are wise. You are perfect as you are. You are LOVED.

Love,
Me xoxox

Share this:

Like this:

I have to be honest and say I’m having a tough evening. My faith is wobbly. Really wobbly. Yep, that’s right, ‘The Angels’ Voice’ is not hearing the Angels’ Voice much right now because she’s too busy being disappointed.

My Soul knows that there is always a plan I cannot see, a reason I do not know and that ‘This or something better’ is at play, but right now my ‘Earth girl’ self is feeling more than a little sad and perplexed that a dream so close to coming true is now as far away as it has ever been.

I share this with you because people often think that I must have this whole life thing figured out and that being able to talk to Angels so frequently makes me immune to such experiences. But I can assure that is not the case. In fact, I think that’s why I am able to work with people as I do because I understand and empathise with the sheer mystery of life. I am human as we all are.

And let me say this: being sad, mad, gutted and whatever else we might feel does not make us any less ‘spiritual’. It makes us real. We do not have to feel bright and shiny and positive all the time to create a beautiful life. We just need to show up as we are and that means being beautifully messy sometimes. Letting it all flow through us and out of us is absolutely healthy and a necessary part of truly moving on.

What is not so healthy is staying stuck in the sad, mad and gutted or letting our circumstances define us. That’s victimhood. That’s forgetting that who we are as powerful, creative beings who have a choice about what we do with our experiences. That’s forgetting that life happens FOR us and not to us.

Still, I am not afraid to say that I am gutted to have been given such a wonderful opportunity, only to have been told ‘no’ at the last hurdle. So I am just going to feel what I feel because when I feel what I feel and allow myself to be real, I will more easily heal. (I have a feeling the Angels just gave me that poem to make me smile!)

I hope you will too, wherever you’re at. Life is not for the faint hearted, dear ones! But it IS worth it. We are worth it.