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So this should be the home stretch. Nick had an appointment with Dr.Standard Thursday and the smile on Dr.Standards face while looking at Nick’s leg really says it all! His right leg seems to be about 1cm longer than his left! This was unplanned and unexpected. It also made the news that Nick’s bone is not consolidating as well as we would like much easier to take. There’s really nothing wrong. It’s not really been that long but we still hoped for more.

The fixator could come off next month as planned but Nick would need a rod put in his bone to protect it. I’ve heard this is often painless and no big deal but sometimes it can lead to painful setbacks. As in the past I am inclined to let Nicholas decide what to do. His options being 1) take off the exfix and have rod inserted or 2) leave the exfix on another month or so and then hope he won’t need rod at removal or 3) just wait till the bone completely consolidates.

So far my boy has chosen option one. He’s seemed a little down lately and I think loosing this hunk of metal would help! He also still has pain in his foot when he walks, which the weight of the fixator could be contributing to. His new shoe insert helped with the pain in the bottom of his foot but now his heal hurts because it makes his shoe a little too small! I’d really like this insert to work out! Nick needs to walk pain free! And considering it was over $400 and not covered by insurance it would be a pretty penny to have spent!

On the home front the specifics of our move are still not settled and Steven is obviously still traveling and I’ve been unraveling just a little bit. I think I jinxed myself with my mental health post. I’ve gone back to therapy and even just one session was helpful. I needed to hear that all my stress and feeling’s about surgery/moving were ok. Why do I need professional to tell me this I do not know. Maybe it is too darn hard to admit to those I’m closest to that I am struggling (well some of you know and now anyone who bothers to read this knows). I often think I should be able to handle this or I just don’t want to ask for help. I hate asking for help. Maybe that’s reason alone to go to therapy.

So right now I am doing my best to simplify and say no to anything that will add stress or items to my to do list that are not necessary. The definition of necessary at the moment is “what my family needs” and of course friends if they are in crisis. Otherwise I am not available.

I’ve even taken a Facebook hiatus. I have Steven checking in on Fibula Hemimelia and Limb Lengthening Awareness. I feel a sense of responsibility for the group I created and I want to make sure folks are getting what they need. The group has over 540 members! Its awesome and seems to really be helping families connect and face the future.

My tenure as board president of our church is ending just in time and I’ve not been called in to the nursing home, where I am a companion for dying folks, in a while. I’ll hate to say no to that if they call but the times I go are usually at night and I need to sleep more! Plus there are others in the program they can call on. I am so grateful for the time I’ve spent as a companion. I hope to find similar volunteer opportunities in Delaware.

So while much of our future is unknown I am comforted by many things, including the cute little boy next to me who needs me to help him play Mario vs. Donkey Kong on his Nintendo DS. Time to get to what’s necessary!