Right now, the only thing that I am praying for is the peace of the world. That the only thing that I can do right now is just keep on praying for all of the things and people that I need to be praying for.

There are times though, when I as a person of faith, have found myself in the need or the position, not to question God, or to eve doubt God’s existence, but there have been times when I have found myself wondering why God would allow things to happen or not to happen.

In all of this though, I have come to three primary conclusions. A. There is a God.B. I’m not Him.C. He’s still in control.

Now I know that there will be those of you who will differ with me, and that is good, but there have been more then one time in my life, when, looking back on it, there was no other explanation for the way that things turned out for me, and that there will always be my belief, that God’s hand was in that.

I have also come to three other life lesson that I have learned, and am still learning every day, and that is there are three things in life that are import.

1. Faith2. Family3. Friends. The rest of it is background music.

Sorry, I really didn’t mean to preach, but there are times when the only thing that I can do is go where the Spirit moves me, and this was where the spirit moved me. I pray that you all understand and agree. In the meantime, it is all good.

It’s just a thought, but there are times when the only thing that I wish for is some sort of understanding. That I will be bale to make sense of the things of the world. At other times though, it just seems that it is so far out of reach for someone like myself, that I think that I will never find what it is that I am looking for, or what it is that I am looking for, and that all of my life will continue to be the same circle of things and of people and of places that I will never get to see, other then in my dreams.

Dreams that always seem to be the same, and that are getting warn, frayed, threadbare to the point of being useless. Yet I can only continue to do what I do, believe what I believe and wish what I wish, because at this point in my life, there is nothing else left for me to do but to keep on believing, because it is the only thing that I know. It’s just a thought.

still livingstill believingstill trying to understand that it will get better then thiswhatever this happens to be in any given point of our livesknowing that one of these daysall of this will really not matter any morewhatever all of this happens to bein any given point of our livesknowing full wellthat there will come a timewhen the mountains will be brought lowand the rough places will be made plainin the meantime,the only thing left to doto believeor to even try and understand,will finally come through all of this darknessand we will see what life really iseternal

The one thing that I am sure of right now is that I am still holding on to my dreams, because there one of the few things that I have in my life right now that seem to be giving it any meaning at all, and one of the dreams that I still continue to go back to right now is the one that I will be able to spend some time in London, Paris and Rome, if for no other reason then to go to some of the places that some of my literary heros went to.

To be able to have high tea at the Ritz Carton in London. Windsor Castle. The Eiffel Tower. The Colosseum and a hundred and one other little things that I would like to be doing, but at the rate that I am saving money at this point, which is none at all, it seems that is something that will never happen and that it will be just another one of those things that may or may not come true, but the only thing that I know right now is that there has to be some other way to get through all of this, but at this point, the only thing that I can do right now is to just wait and see where the rest of my life will take me. It’s still good.

I write to please myself, the rest I know will follow, it is just a question of when, but it just seems to me to be taking a lot longer then I thought, but at the same time, I guess that it is a case of I do not want to peak to early. So the only thing left to do is to wait and see what is going to happen next, and there is always something that is going to happen next.

It is just a thought, but the only thing that I know right now is that there is always going to be someone that will disagree just for the sake of disagreeing, and there is nothing that is going to be changing there mind, whether they are right or wrong. The only thing that we can do is to just be doing all of the things that we need to be doing just to get through the day.

Now where am I going with all of this, well I am not really sure, but the only thing that I can do right now is to just say what I have to say and see who will agree or to leave it alone.

the one thing that we are all looking for is some sort or redemption against all of the outragedoing what needs to be donein the truth of what is really donenever again saying what it is that we need to be sayingin the truth of it allthere is always something that we need to be sayingstill there is always something that will be left behind

What else is there left to do.When the only thing that is left to dois to make the best of all of the things that I haveand to make the best of all of the things that I am praying forjusticemercyand the truth of what iswhether we like it or not

in the name of everything that I hold sacredI pray that one of these days I will be able to do all of the things that I have ever dreamt about will finally come true,but there are times I fearthat the only thing that I can do is just dream about thembut even nowthat simply doesn’t seem to be enoughbut what else is there in the whole scheme of thingswhen we wish for something that does not come truebut knowing that we have to wish for it anywayin the hope that we will be able to leave the real world behindeven if only for a few momentsin the hope that it will all be trueeven if only for the momentand that after all is said and donewe can say that was really enough,but if it is really enoughthen why do we dream to begin withwe dream becausethe real world often can be for to painful to be believedand that we have to find something elsesomething beautiful and goodsomething of a higher ordernot the common placethe drollthe last best thing that we can do to keep it all aliveto keep it all goingeven for the sake of what isand what could bewhat might be what has to be in the whole scheme of things that even in the whole matter of beingthere is always something that I have to do to make myself heardit is just what needs to be doingit’s still good

It’s just a thought, but it just seems that with every year, the holidays, Christmas, Thanksgiving, even Easter seems to becoming more and more commercialized, and we are just being led down that path, to something more then just what Madison Avenue seems to think that we should be doing. Will we ever learn, that we need to remember all of the things that these things really stand for, or have we come to far to turn back. I pray that is not the case, that we will be able to find our way back to the true meaning of Christmas and over Easter, and what it truly means to be thankful. I find myself waiting for all of this to be true. I fear that it just might be more then just a thought.

It’s just a thought but the only thing that I know for sure is that the only thing that will change the human heart is the willingness to open up to the divine. The rest of it is in God’s hands. It’s just a thought.

when I try to writethere are times when I find myself trying to hardand the harder that I trythe worse that it getsand the worse that it getsthe harder that I tryand around and around that it goesuntil nothing every changesbut the world still turnsno matter what it is that I do.

There are times when it all just seems that there is nothing left to say, but that the best that I am going to be able to do right now is say something, and hope that on the morrow there will be something new that I will be able to say. It is all good.