LYNNABEL's Mar 2011 CalorieKing Blog

There is some alchemy in the spring sunshine together with laughter after tension that has lasted too long that makes me raw to the world - in both good and bad ways. I feel at the end of something - winter, I guess, but something more, too, I think. I feel exhausted and rejuvenated at the same time. I feel desperate love for my babies together with confusion for myself that isn't necessarily 'bad'. My eyes well up at nearly everything, ...

Major meltdown for me today. Not for sure on why - maybe a disapointing weigh in, maybe a frustrating set of interactions with S, maybe feeling overwhelmed by the new job, maybe fatigue from less sleep. That sounds about right.

I don't really want to dwell, but it is amazing how writing things down, specifically, typing things down, helps me organize my thoughts. I wish my thoughts were naturally organized, but I suspect that's not an acquired skill.