Well, it's a natural feeling maa. It's kinda weird since the last time, maybe dah 7 years ago kot. Then I officially declared tak nak lagi. Yes, tak nak! I wanna be a freak single lady who devote my entire life saving animals. Can I?

I've read somewhere that love has no reason. Well yeah I kinda agree with that. Because I don't have a reason to like that guy. No reason at all! Love? I don't know, it's too early but the feeling that I have towards him memang not the same feeling yang ada towards other guys. Even though there are a few guys yang treat me nicely, but why him? Haiyooooo...how could that happened?

Honestly, I don't know. It's really really weird. The more I tried to forget him, the more likely for me to remember him. I think about him all the time, even when I was driving! He drives me crazy indeed. LOL!

I don't know what makes me like him that much. He's rough, he did hurt my feelings couple of times, he is unpredictable & may act spontaneously which may lead to silly & stupid consequences at times. His words, alahai, can make my heart shrink.

Why does he can't just get out off my head? Why? Why? Why?

But, one of the things about him that touched my heart is that, he loves cats. He has these beautiful photos of him with his cat. Very cute!

To be honest, it's very hard for me to like someone that much. VERY. I don't fall in love that easy. But if I did, that's iNt.

Sadly, he doesn't have the same feeling as I do. He did tell me that. I respect his decision. Hey, we can't force someone to give something in return, right? That is why I am trying very hard to dump that feeling far far away...please wish me luck. Haha!

But, I do feel grateful about something. Yes , I do! At least I know that I'm a normal person with feelings & emotions towards human being with the opposite gender. Yay!!!

And this song tells pretty much about how I feel right now...

Maybe he doesn't know that I care, but I do. I just don't show it. He may not read this. But I do wish the best in his life.