all because my boyfriend broke up with me and I couldn't find a job. Now I cannot see straight, or walk because my left side is not working properly. I also gained 90 pounds because I don't feel hungry or full. Dumbest thing I've ever done.

Took a bottle of Paxil a little over a year ago, just wanted to die. Felt like such an *** when I woke up like 2 hours later with the worst pain I had ever felt in my life...couldn't **** right for a week or two. Probably ****** up my stomach or something I haven't been able to...

Don't regret it!
Because by failing to die got the message loud and clear. And i feel like i'm stronger now, because all this things aren't powerful, i am and god only knows when it's my time to go.
I'm no saying that i will not try again, i just can't, because i don't...

in an attempt to end my life.
The night started off fine. I had a date with my boyfriend, I hung out with my best friend, and I laid in bed until 12.
It was a good day.
The days before it had been some of the worst in a while.
My ex of 3 years had come to me asking me to sit...

Well, I overdosed on paracetamol and sleeping tablets around 2 months ago, and ended up in A&E. It upset me that I couldn't even kill myself properly, and to make things worse all anyone ever does is yell that I'm selfish, a failure, etc. How is that meant to help?:S I know I'm...

My arms swing free.. i feel the air around me.. my eyes are closed, my head totaly back.. the wind blows around me.. fresh and cold.. its november so its cold.. i smell snow.. it will snow soon. i feel tears over my cheek..
funny, i never cried in public.. but i dont care...

It has now been 10 years since I tried to kill myself. I have since been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder resulting from what could be classified as an 'adverse childhood experience' that lasted until I was 19 years old.
At the age of 19 with nowhere to go, I...

4 sleeping pills.
boyfriend broke up with me after he found out, didnt even come to the hospital.
apperently hes worried i will relapse, so leaving me when i needed him the most seemed like the best option for him.
went to his house today to get my things, he kept saying he...

I was told that I'm a terrible actress. That's not true though. I got you fooled. I'm not happy as people see me. I'm not a bubbly person who tries to make the world better. Behind the mask an costume, I'm just a sad girl who tried ending her life. No one knows, no one cares. In...

I tried to kill myself a month ago, pills and alcohol. I just didn't feel worthy of being alive, a waste of life, unable to be happy even though I knew I had everything to be happy. I just didn't want to continue hurting those around me. So I did it, I...

I downed almost 210 grams of rat poison, cups full of it. blue and green granules and i started feeling nauseous so i went and lay down on my bed, plan B was choking on my own vomit and dying(saw a friend die that way)....nothing happened. Im still alive. I had 90 grams of it...

I started feeling depressed when I stared high school. I don't know why, but anyways, towards the end of my sophomore year I was sent to the hospital for suicidal ideation and then two more times for suicide attempts. the first one was more of a cry for help I overdosed on pain...

and other days i feel as if i can't handle it at all. Yesterday was a day i couldn't handle anything anymore. I was walking out of Kroger and i saw a car coming towards me. I didn't think i just acted i walked out in front of the car and my friend who was with me had pushed me...

But I Always think of killing myself. I self harm. And I need help. I just feel so alone in this world and I want to have people I can rely on. People I can text and call or FaceTime anytime and get their help. I hate being so lonely all the time.

Sometimes it feels like you have never once in your life had a good night's sleep. That for twenty-four years you have been constantly shaken into consciousness, gasped awake in your sheets, troubled by light that has made it through the curtains by a throb in your chest by a...

I couldn't deal with being picked on in school, being sexually abused, being myself. I took a bottle of Tylenol and went to bed. I woke up about 24 hours later feeling godawfully bad. I threw up a lot and was so dizzy and my stomach hurt so badly. My mom thought I had the flu...

future, specifically the uncertainty surrounding my graduation from college, that escalated into depression. While I had always been an overly anxious person, I had never been depressed before; this made me unequipped and generally unwilling to diagnose myself as such.
It was...

About a month or so ago I took an overdose, I took 8 different types of tablets: Paracetamol, Anti-Depresants, Mood stablizers, Co-codamol, Day and Night Nurse, Anxiety medication, Ibuprofen and a lot of sleeping pills. I got to hospital in time and had my stomache pupmed. I...

So i tried to kill myself today... sort of.
(apologies for length, i hope it doesn't put too many people off reading to the end)
i've been depressed since the age of 16 and i'm 19 now. i've had counselling and stuff before which i guess helped a little. my doctor prescribed...

It is hard to explain when people try to understand and ask the WHY? of such act. I can't even call it a desire because everything has left you when you get to the point of actually trying to do the act of "killing" yourself.
I remember like if it was just today her beautiful...

people used to ask me "what did you do last night?" I would often reply "tried to drink and drug myself to death again" Often they would laugh without realizing i was serious. many a time i would hit the drink and mix drugs not caring if i woke up or not...

Hello.
I am a disabled man.
I don't see that well.
And i am a diabetic.
I tried to kill my self last night.
But i phoned samaritans.
I talked and it helped.
I phone them alot.
This is why i tryed to kill my self.
I am a 20 year old man.
I live with my mum my dad dide when i was...

I was watching lost and finally got to the last episode. I had drank a bottle of champagne that my landlord bought me for Xmas/New Years. Without any spoilers, I just got so depressed after the ending. I watched all seasons within 3 weeks. I don't have many friends. So thats all...

All my life I've been picked on. In 2nd grade, I learned that you could kill yourself, but I didn't know how to really. I nearly drowned, and I hated the fact that I survived. I went back and did the same thing and yet, someone jumped back in the water and pulled me out again. I...

I was 28 years old and life held no meaning for me. Haunted by my past though nightmares and fear that just tore at my soul until I didn't even feel alive anymore. I was tired of trying and getting nowhere. When you have serious depression nobody takes what you say...

I can't sleep out of fear I hate it i have nightmares everytime I sleep I just got released from hospital for an attempt at my life mostly from lack of sleep, fear, stress, and traumatic depression. Last week I got about a total 6 hour of sleep. God help me, this has been...

Life just kept pushing me. My response was "who cares.screw it. I'll die then." I wish I had succeeded (over the course of trying). I wish I was normal, and could fit in. But I'm not and can't. Even though I hope someday I get to be happy though... I also hope I'll die right now...

im not sure where 2 start,but here goes
i have always been shy+felt somehow on the outside,even in my own family,i used 2 drink heavily to compensate for this,it got so bad,
the other reason i hate my life is i feel like i have never actually acomplished anything in my life of...

so depressed that at one point I thought to myself I've had it. I had a few of my old antidepressant medicine left and I just chugged it.
Without thinking I just took it all and yet for some reason I'm still Here. Why?

My alarm clock woke up early that day because I had a doctor's appointment. I had run out of Xanax and needed to get a new prescription. When I got to the appointment, I acted like everything was fine, but I said my anxiety was still a problem, so the doctor gave me twice as many...

I tried to kill myself a while back. About two months ago. It was my girlfriend who called the ambulance, and I hate her for it. I wish she had just let me die. Not many people understand what it's like after a suicide attempt. They all just expect you to move on some how and...

i stood there, feeling sad, depressed , angry and scared!!! i waited and i waited, but i just couldnt do it!! woooosh, the train went right before my eye's!!! it was all too much!! it was the toughest period of my life, in the 3 previous years i had suffered depression, a...

A few months ago I took an overdose. It's not something I find easy to talk about-I struggle to discuss most things anyway but I've really tried to talk as little about what I did, to as few people as possible. Partly because I'm still very ashamed about it, and partly because...

not sure where to start,so i will just wade ini have always had a sense of being on the outside of things,even at school being popular+all that sort of stuffi had on several occassions considered harming myself during my school yrs,but chickened out of itthen i hit the bottle...

Why? Because I cannot imagine suffering more than I already do. Now I'm loosing my mind all over again. Voices in my head telling me I even have a ******* mind. They are only an extension of my suffering and pain and emptiness. I don't want to sleep anymore after the masons...

I wrote this in an email to a friend a while ago...it kind of explains it...
"I have had a really hard time the past couple of years that I have been in college. Before college (and my first boyfriend at 17), I was a really strong, pure Christian girl. I was like...

Many times in the past I tried to kill myself. It got to the point where I was trying once a week.
Obviously, though, it didn't work.
I am SO THANKFUL that I was never able to do it successfully. I now have a wonderful husband, and a life...

And I regret it for the rest of my life and she found this out from my best friend who I loved for 19 years. It's a she and I tried making my wife happy cause she admit to me that she is bi and would like to try a different sexual encounters. So I am not for it...you guys maybe...

rock bottom and tried to kill. Myself. Some heartless individual comes back with a joke. See my human life has no meaning. I really want to thank this person for knocking me down farther than I already am. They'll probably even loan me a gun.

I've attempted it 2 or 3 times, overdosing, but none of the times were severe. I ended up in hospital after the first one, however after that, when I made the 2nd and 3rd attempts, I didn't tell anyone, because I can't stand hospitals, and didn't want to end up in one again. I...

of 12 and 15, I was diagnosed with severe depression. It was strongly suggested that I take medication for it, see a therapist every single week, and consider staying in a hospital.
No one ever really knew when I over-dosed because I was so discreet about it. I was responsible...

Two months ago, I made a huge mistake and cheated on my boyfriend of 4 years. He found out about it and I confessed to him what had happened, sparing the details. We've been working on making our relationship work and he even proposed to me right afterwards. He said he changed...

I have separated from my wife. I am 25 years old. I have two young children. Yesterday I tried to kill myself. I sat in my car and connected a hosepipe to the exhaust. Long story short. After sitting there for nearly an hour, the tape I brought came unstuck. I failed. Now I feel...