So…. just when I thought I was done with “doing other things” …. I have been getting text messages and phone calls to make appearances and give interviews and be a part of more events and fundraisers.

Seriously?!?!

I had my mind made up. I had my mind set on deleting facebook… which I already did. I stopped posting on the social media pages (Except Instagram.. i Love Instagram!!) And I even made a page on our website saying “hey, we are taking a break!!” And then all of a sudden I get a text from my partner asking me if it was okay that a reporter comes with us to the NICU to pass out the Christmas gifts!!

Seriously?!?!

No!!! I don’t want a reporter there. I don’t want to be interviewed. I don’t want the reporter to come watch us package all the gifts. I don’t want that. I don’t need to be on tv anymore. I don’t want that. I never did want that. I never wanted my name out there like that. It isn’t about me. It never has been and it never will be!!!

But then my partner tells me about this reporter. She had a baby that was born premature. She went through everything we went through with a baby in the NICU. And then she said she wished there was an organization like Made For A Miracle in the hospital when she was in there. She said she wants to help other NICU moms too…. just like us. And suddenly my heart changed. THAT is who I want to be friends with. THAT is WHY I do what I do. THAT is WHY I still want to help other moms. Because there are so many of us that need it. Even now…. after our babies are out of the NICU and well and growing. It stays with us.

So i said OKAY!! Yes, she can join us. Yes, she can record us. But I told my partner, because SHE is the NICU Ambassador for March of Dimes at our local hospital, then SHE needs to be the one on camera!!! hahaha win win for me!! lol. i still get to do what needs to be done and i DONT need to be on camera!! woohoo.

So THEN.. today I get a text from the Director of our local Children’s Hospital Guild, and they received an amazing grant and they want ME and the twins to be present and be interviewed by the local news (again) to talk about it. This is huge!!

I can’t believe all of this is happening. I mean… God tells me to Be Still then I decide okay.. i am going to be still. And I am not going to do anything else. I am done. And then I get these amazing opportunities literally days from me deciding that and then back to back. And that’s not the only thing. We are going to have a fundraiser for Matthew to help find him a kidney donor and THEN we will have promotion for the Ronald McDonald House Walk For Kids …AND… the March of Dimes Gala. ugh… lol… Theres just a lot.

I can’t help myself. I love doing what I do. I love helping. I love being a part of these amazing events and fundraisers. Maybe that is my problem. I am not a great leader but I am a great helper!!! lol..

Amen to that!!! I am surrendering!! I am surrendering myself completely. I have no control over what WILL happen or what is to come. It is all in Gods plan for me. I know He is preparing me for something much greater…