Although we live in a free country with a constitution protecting our freedom of speech it doesn’t mean we are truly free to speak. Our government is NOT what truly suppresses us, society does!

We live in an age where bullies are applauded, respected, supported, and even rewarded. But if our words are sincere, honest and heartfelt we are shunned, frowned upon, ridiculed and even to blame. I’m witnessing evil doers, whom we may even love, who cannot tell a truth if their life depended upon it, being hailed by hoards and showered with gifts of sympathy.

Also, I read a post not long ago whereas some were disappointed I wasn’t dead yet. Worse, folks clicked ‘Like’ in support of such hate. I can assure you I haven’t a kindred love for everyone either but I’d NEVER wish a person dead nor EVER support someone who spewed such.

I’ve watched folks reap happiness from the pain they purposely plotted to cause. I’ve witnessed egos inflate as the sadness was made apparent. I’m convinced tears are their trophy.

I’m angry, life is simply cruel and I find myself burying my love & kindness with hopes to protect myself as the devil truly does rule this planet. And, yep, daily I’m praying for miracles and continually striving to grow with God while learning how truly patient I reeeeeeeally am!

**It’s true, it’s true – look, look!**

Watched the final commercial several times and we’ve spied me in this VERY fast-paced commercial at least 4-times already. YAY – I didn’t wind-up on the editing floor! #WhompWhomp

Whatta day it was – I watched some very entertaining, creative, talented & professional crew-of-brothers film. Tis fascinating how all of those takes came together as they did to birth this commercial masterpiece – baffling, like magic.

Okay, logistics – as I’m sure you’re dying to know. *w* The commercial will be airing shortly. Sadly, I do not know as to which channels it will be on nor the exact air date, However, with us being in winter attire in the commercial factored with Christmastime decor already in stores, I think I’d be safe to assume it’ll be airing on TVs nationwide VERY soon so be sure to keep-on the look-out!

I want to, once again, express how thankful and honored I was to be chosen to partake in the filming. Not only did I get to ‘work my craft’, but I met a lot of nice people. It was most definitely an adventure-of-a-day.

And, a VERY special thank you out to … The Herbert Brothers, zappos.com, and Patty Bamber whose filming, awesome customer service and talented photography gave me a memory I shall never forget! I’d be humbled to work beside any of you again – truly humbled.

Like so many, I am also very saddened by the loss of the GREAT Robin Williams; however, am I surprised? Nope. I see my brother when I look into Robin’s eyes whenever a photo of him appears.

My brother was funny and his laugh was HONESTLY contagious too yet he hung himself to death.

And in a warped way I hope my mommy is seeing all this on tv & getting strength from it all – a wonderful man’s being remembered, a man who shocked the world yesterday as all thought he was genuinely happy because he told jokes. I hope my mom sees that suicide hasn’t any boundaries – she didn’t fail her child. Just like her son who hung himself on 9/1/11, no one is immune, NO ONE! Nor is it her fault. Fault lies on the person who gave-up on all who loved him!

In the way I pray for my brother, I pray for Robin – you have your right to live your life as you wish. Tis sad though that they hurt so many in the process. But that’s human-nature folks!

Next time you THINK someone is fine, listen to your gut and react – but tis they and ONLY them who has to feel it deeeeeeeply inside themselves, the courage, the confidence to go on. Don’t over-coddle them either, it causes them to feel weak & not in power. Just be positive! Don’t knock people! Don’t purposely hurt them! The pain you inflict you think an “I’m sorry” will erase but deep-down that person will live their ENTIRE lives hurting.

I know Heaven is cracking-up today … and my brother & sister in the front row … I can almost hear my brother’s laughter, honestly!

My thoughts & prayers to his loved ones left behind as his grand-children, great grand-children who’ll never know him. BUT it was HIS and ONLY his choice – that’s the HARDEST part for the survivors – he didn’t love them enough to try harder. (yep, from experience I speak that – experience folks)