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Monday, June 26, 2017

WAITING FOR KINDNESS 6-26-17

WAITING FOR KINDNESS 6-26-17

I’m sitting in the coffee
shop, listening to Otis Redding’s rendition of “Sitting on the Dock of the
Bay.” I’ve always enjoyed it, just listening to the rhythms, and his voice.
Today, though, I’m listening to the words, and hearing even more sadness than Otis’
voice tears out by itself. “I’ve got nothing to live for, looks like nothing’s
going to come my way.”

Otis died in a plane crash
only a few days after he recorded that song. I hope people were kind to him in
those few days. We need kindness all the time, but especially when we’re
thinking “nothing’s going to come my way,” when we’re sitting on the edge, all
alone.

So many old people are not
kind. I suppose many are just being consistent; they’ve never been kind. Others
don’t feel good, and it’s hard to be kind to others when the world is not being
kind to you. We have a lot of aches and pains. We also have a lot of loneliness
and depression. “I’ve got nothing to live for, looks like nothing’s going to
come my way.” That could be the anthem for the aged, at least for many. So, in
pain or in malice or in self-centeredness, we say and do things that hurt.

My mother adored her older
sister, Virginia. She gave her older daughter the middle name of Virginia to
honor her. But when their mother died, a time that is hard for everyone in a
family, a time when it’s especially important to be kind, my mother became
unhappy with Aunt Ginny about something. I remember the look on Aunt Ginny’s
face when Mother said, to her: “If I never see you again, it will be too soon.”

It’s very difficult to be
kind to those who are unkind to us. Fortunately, though, Aunt Ginny understood
my mother. She knew that Mother would forget about it, whatever “it” was that
upset her, if Aunt Ginny continued to be kind to her.

Some old people say that
life is too short now to waste time being kind to idiots. I understand that.
I’m less patient with stupidity, especially willful ignorance, as I grow older.
But life is too short now to waste it with unkind words or actions or even
thoughts. Any time I’m being unkind, I’m wasting my life, my precious final days.

I’m sitting on the dock of
the bay, looking out at a vast ocean of future life about which I know nothing.
I need a kind heart to come my way. If no one else’s heart comes your way, it’s
okay to let your own heart be kind to you.