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Monday, June 13, 2011

I give up!!!

Or....are you like me....and giving up is the equivalent of giving in, or admitting wrong, or fault, and that is one of the most difficult of human emotions....

....at least it is for this human!!!

I've been reading a lot lately about surrender. Remember I shared with y'all that my prayer in The Lord's Supper service last week was for God to empty me of me....and fill me up with Him? Well....it hit me like a ton of bricks as I studied this week....that in order for that to happen....I have to give up some things....surrender them to the Lord! I can't go thru life with the mentality that "I want what I want when I want it"!!!I do believe that I'm the absolute slowest learner who ever lived!!! As I prayed one morning....I knew in my spirit that I had to voice....out loud....to the Lord....that if it meant suffering for His glory....then I was willing to let that happen. I have to tell you that I was very hesitant to even say those words because I knew that once I did, it was like saying, "bring it on, Lord....whatever it takes".

Did I mean it?

Yes....I think!;-)

Am I willing to suffer for His glory?

Yes.

Will it hurt sometimes?

I'm pretty sure it's gonna!!!

What happens when we surrender to God?

Galatians 2:20

My old self has been crucified with Christ.

It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me.

So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

Oh Deb, this has been the song of my heart for a couple of months now .... God allowing difficult, "hard" situations to come up to see if I have actually surrendered all to him...even my "foolish thoughts"...I found I had some in reserve....but thankful this morning for a loving God that see what is hidden in the crevices of my "old" heart. Have a marvelouuuuus Monday ....

Oh I have goose bumps as I just read this verse in Galations today and felt it pull me strongly. Will need to ponder this more...I want to be used by Jesus and bring glory to Him...surrendering to His will for me. Hard to let go of being healed as my goal...leaving it in His hands. Love this post as once again it speaks to my heart. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

I recently listened to a talk by Elder Neal A Maxwell on Enduring to the End. He put a lot of things in perspective for me. One is that enduring is not enough, but to endure well and for the glory of the Father and the Son.