Latin phraseology aside, I'm gonna get serious for a moment and vent some via train of thot.

I'm not noticing any side effects except perhaps some additional fatigue. One of you guys asked about the lawn, considering I could only cut half of it a few weeks ago before having to quit. This week I managed the whole thing, albeit with a break between doing the front and the back. It's frustrating as hell. I tell myself, "...but I should be able to do this! [like normal people]"

I know there's a mind-body connection. As I've digested it, the baseline numbers were more of a shock than I expected. Go figure I glommed on Pedro Zamora's CD4 being the same as mine just before he died, tho' in '94. And ran across a 2012 article citing a study indicating that those who started HAART with a CD4 <100 had a considerably shorter life expectancy than those who started at >350. At my 50-something age, I rationalize, it probably doesn't make a difference.

But, between the lack of stamina, a few nasty (but treatable) infections and The Dreaded Numbers, my head's not in a good place on this subject. I got really sick in '01 and, given my 5-7 year prognosis in '93, kinda figured that was it. I'm feeling similarly now...sometimes worse.

I'm still functioning. The work/home basics are getting done. I don't have that emaciated, bug-eyed "sick" look (mygawd yes, I wouldn't be a model fag if I wasn't vain as hell). Sense of humor's mostly intact. But I still feel like I'm in decline.

I suspended the new T search - another thread entirely. And a lot of you know I've made some remarkable progress reconnecting with some empathetic family members...all without a T. But I'm reconsidering one guy who, though not familiar with CAPS (PTSD) evaluations, seemed to have a good, particularly responsive manner and specialized in HIV.

That's about it on the vent. Next bloodletting/results Tues. I think any indication of improvement would start to help my head a lot.

Thank YOU Pero. Have been on an acylovir prophylactic since the shingles - which has had at least some effect on other stuff - and Bactrim when/if I need it to block pneumonia. I'm just out of sorts at the moment and this is a good place to vent.

"Your numbers indicate a damaged immune system..." LOLOLOL...y'think? <---back to being a smartassWhen I read that I thot, well, it's not like having a flat tire. It's more like I'm running on the rims.At least it's a German car.

Hey Lancer, lol, sorry for my remark related to immune system, I wanted to say that numbers could be additionally lowered because of other health issues that you've had recently. To be honest I'm trying hardly to educate self in this matter which is completely new for me, lol, so I'm far far from being smart-ass, lol.

We will find you some great tires, even that Mercedes looks very stable there, only that I don't like is black color

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