February 9th, 2009

Hey kids. I haven't posted in a while so I thought I'd give it a whirllll. Recently I've been troubled by friendships. For the longest time I was guilty of not making an effort to keep in contact with people...this is especially true in high school. Any high school friends I speak to now is none of my doing whatsoever. So, maybe this is karma... Well, one of my closest friends in college has become a chore to get in touch with. (This does not apply to anyone reading this) This friend now lives in Virgina, so usually when I call she's busy and she will say she will call me back later that same evening. Nope. A week and half later I end up calling back wondering if she is still alive. I know I'm not the only person she has done this to, but it makes me wonder. I'm not in the mood to put forth energy on someone for a friendship they appear not to care to have in the first place. Maybe this is wrong of me to say, but I'm tired. As I grow older I want to maintain friendships with people who care to be my friend in return. I just know that once a month I call to see how her life is going. I believe the last time she called me was four days after my birthday last april to apologize for forgetting my birthday....yeeah.

Sorry if this sounds way out of line, but I'm just tired of it. I think it's ridiculous that you can't trust one of your best friends to return your phone call within two weeks of phoning them...

I get it that everyone is busy. I'm busy...for God Sakes it's my first year of teaching special education, I'm planning a wedding and Matt and I are looking into buying a home. I just feel you make time for what you believe is important. Maybe I just need to realize that other people do not have the same priorities.