learning to fully embrace this moment and fully live right now…

About

I’m a wife, a mama, a daughter, a sister, a friend, an employee … and most importantly, a follower of Jesus.

I don’t have it all together. Not at all. This is a process and a journey… I’m growing and learning and changing… as I believe we all are in one way or another.

This blog is about one little corner of my journey – about learning to live fully right in this moment. I think it’s important for all of us to do, but it’s also important for my own healing. See, I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, and surviving that trauma required that I learn to disconnect from my life. In order to survive the pain, I had to disconnect from the part of me that hurt. But over the past several years I have found that while I needed those “skills” as a kid, they don’t serve me well now. I’ve also found that disengaging from pain also means disengaging from joy, and I don’t want to miss out on my life that way.

And so God is restoring me. I’m learning to be “all here”, to be fully present in what is going on around me, to pay attention to and be intentional about what matters, and to live this one life I’ve been given in the best way possible. I’m learning that being present here in this moment makes it hard for me to be regretful for the past or anxious about the future.

This blog is based around Matthew 6:25-34. I love the whole passage, but specifically verse 34 in The Message: “Give your entire attention to what God is doing RIGHT NOW, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.” (caps mine)

I’m learning to do just that… to pay attention to what God is doing RIGHT NOW… and I’m finding that God is re-connecting the pieces of me that were broken away all those years ago. I’m hopeful that by sharing my story, I can create an encouraging, safe place for others to see God’s redeeming and restoring love.