This is my place to lay down my thoughts. I am depressed about, anxious because of and unhappy with a lot of things happening in and around me. This blog is where I unleash the thoughts, fears and random mind rambles that are floating around in my head constantly. So I hope you don't mind, but here it goes... and feel free to leave a message at the beep!

Inner ramblings....

"Let me show you what I'm made of, good intentions are not enough, to get me through the day or this life."-Chantal Kreviaux

" I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived."-Anonymous

Updates

10/27 Update: I GOT THE INTERNSHIP!!! WOOHOO! It starts January 14, 2010. I'm very excited and proud of myself.

What is it to be cherished by another?To feel the want of another for you as you feel for them.Love is a fickle thing, as slippery as water through a sieve.Yet, it flows as thick as honey through the veins, although not always as sweet.Roses, beautiful as they are, have the ability to prick your skin and tear at your flesh; so has love the ability to rip your heart out under the guise of perfumed innocence.What is it then to be loved by another?To know the heart of another is only for you as yours is only for them.But if love be such a fickle thing, why trust in love that it will carry through on it's promise to be true?I say, do not trust in love. Instead trust in yourself that you are true. Try to find yourself clear of heart and mind and your path will be set clear before you.Your path, clear and free, will lead you to be cherished and loved both of yourself and of another.What is it to be cherished and loved by another? The answer lies within yourself. Find the true nature of your heart and you'll find your true happiness.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Up down back and forthCaught between the best and the unknownPeople swirl around me, spilling thoughts into my headDon't wanna disappoint but I gotta be meLove and hate, bitterness and intrigue filling my heart and drowning me in the floodSense of self caught between right and wrongThe best for all and the worst for me, the life I lead is mine but I don't own itAlways letting others in, allowing the overtaking, forgoing my rights, losing myselfLonging for the simple thingsThe life of a flower beginning to bloomThe sunrise after a stormA cool breeze on a hot dayA simpler life, an easy selfBreathe and look up, exhale and smileDon't wanna disappoint but I gotta be me