"When I ask for help I get told I have to do it myself "

I have been under the leeds mental health trust for 6 years now but in the last year I have had difficult time with my care team at millside cmht about extra support when I need it I find it very hard to told to CRT because they just see my illness not me as a person and they say people with bpd do not need ics or Becklin.

when I contact my worker I find and feel like they don't want to talk to me. I have been in Becklin and ics a couple of time over the years but I find that I always end up in because non of my problems have really been dealt with now they have built up so much I don't know where to deal with them. I have ask and one time I spoke to to a doctor but nothing come from it like nothing come from any meeting

I want to change and get better but I find that the staff have given up on me I have ask a few time to see if could be sent to a bpd hospital to get all the treatment I need like therapy and dbt and still be able to say stay because if I have this me been at home I will end up self harming badly. the cmht know all this but they still just leave me

the way thing are I am sick of staff in the trust having a negative thought of me because I have been in the trust for years

I am sorry I felt have gone on a bit but it just get me mad when you ask for help and all you get told that nothing works with you just like someone writing you off for good