just like breathing, but not.

Diabetes is such a routine. I eat, I exercise, I test, I correct, I bolus, I snack, I plan, I forget, I worry, I rebound, I calculate, I crash. Blah, blah, blah. It's so predictable and also so not so. 99% sheer, unending routine, 1% intense, panicky drama. Everyday. It's almost transparent in it's presence, normal because of the countless times I do the drill. It's just normal. And boring. And there. Test, correct, bolus, snack. It's like breathing now.

I've often used this analogy when talking to people about how tired I get. I say that it's like having to conciously remember to breath in and out. Sure, you can do it, but wouldn't you get tired of it?

Oh my, I can certainly relate to this. To cut down on the stress and clutter lately I'm trying to think about each diabetes act or decision JUST ONCE, no thinking about thinking, no second-guessing, speculation, reaction or attachment, no victory dances, no getting mad...but it's so hard!

I want us all to be free to think about lots of other things.

I love this blog and all your perceptions and pictures. Thank you for creating it.