The only reason why I woke up so early is because today's officially the first day into this full time job. I am in this "shift" until next Saturday, at least, 7 days of courses and workouts. I'm glad that the effects of [THIS THING] has worn down dramatically since I slept. I wish I can shoo it away like some stray dog, but I think I fed this dog a good piece of treat.

I am glad I tried [THIS THING] nonetheless. Since I've been with [in_motive] I've changed a lot of perspectives on things in little pieces. I'm glad that happened. I am drinking [in_motive]'s juice now, to put [THIS THING] at ease.

I love Chris, there's no doubt about it. Despite at times it seems like an independent cold shoulder shrug trick can come abruptly to suggest the end of "the trip", he never failed to again and again prove to me how special he is. It haven't been long, but he has been there through thick and thin with me during this short period of time.Maybe I am willing to do almost everything for this relationship now.

currently my [THIS THING] is a case of corona (well maybe 3) and catching up on the NFL Draft and the first day of the NFL Playoffs on the net.

I went to bed around 5 am (took a while for me to be tired), then woke up at 8 am cus of guys on the neighboring roof doin construction. I threw an empty water bottle at them (yeh theyre on a roof, i should be careful) they turn and I bitch about whether or not there are laws against roofing, but no.

so i just lie around and watch saturday cartoons in a haze for a few hours and crash around 12. Then I wake up and notice, yes, it's nighttime.

played shenmue 2 a little while I woke up. I got to the Kowloon part again with my new game. It reminded me of you, or at least made me think you'd be mad when character after character in Wan Chai (hong kong town i guess) told my character Ryo Hazuki that 'Kowloon is a dangerous place!' or 'a place filled with danger!', tho a gang leader said it was 'a maze with danger around every turn!'. I pictured you just saying 'that is such garbage!' over and over if you had seen it.

Still tho i got two jobs in Kowloon. Moving boxes and wrestling big guys from mongolia for bets.

If you were still in Kowloon I could more picture you wrestling the mongolians.

guess this comment is so long cus we didnt talk today, i miss you, and love you too, thanks for the kind words in the post, im gonna keep trying to do whatever it is i do that is good, and not only that but do it better, and with more frequency