but what is really going on? You have created everything that is floating around in your thoughts, you have placed that in your thoughts, you choose to focus your attention on what it is aimed at. You can also choose not to think anything, to let it go. To let it be.

You are wondering so much, often you wonder about things not related to yourself: external objects. In your mind you make a judgment about what you see outside yourself. You want to explain why the neighbor is singing along with the music, you want insight on why the man on the plane is so angry. You fill in these things with your creative thoughts; you create a vision. You make a representation of the life of this person, and this representation is the truth, in your reality.
Often this “truth” is a pessimistic truth, a truth with a negative charge. Look inside yourself and see what is really going on. What hinders you from thinking something else, a positive thought. Or perhaps no thought. Observe what you are experiencing, without having any further thought.

The grass is green. The cow has spots. The cow eats the green grass. The sun shines.

Observe it, and let it be as it is.

The void / silence in you does not have to be filled up. Let the silence, be quiet.