personal story about life with chronic pain and owner of a retail website selling a few herbal remedies to help chronic pain sufferers, providing information for folks to help themselfs and other gifts to lighten the load.

I am so in a quandary of what to do. Do I keep trying to sell in a website or Etsy or Ebay or all…and do I make products, or sell used products, or just do tye dye? I haven’t been able to be healthy enough to build up a momentum of any kind and I am not sure if I will be able to get to that point.

And then there is the whole thing about us both wanting to be able to so certain things while we are still able. But the past two years were taking care of his dad and now his mother is holding her hand up to be next. So where and when can we find the space and time to do those things?

We also have to decide where we are going to go when we cannot do the quarter mile hike and carrying everything in and out part of living here anymore. We do not have a plan because the one we had fell apart. So now we are here and where to land is way out there. Will we even have the time to develop our own destiny in amongst all the others who need us to be there for them? It is starting to feel like that is not going to happen for us.