Day 38- NO AF- BFN

Just got back from my outwards bounds course today. Totally knackered- but very glad AF didn't arrive whilst I was on a mountain!!! Still no sign of AF, haven't a clue what's going on- I guess the pill still hasn't left my system yet. My boobs are really tender. I'm pretty sure I'm not but it's not over until Auntie Flo sings and all that.

Had some bad news when i arrived home- my husband very cleverly decided to walk out of his job whilst I was away. I've always been the breadwinner, but it really pisses me off that he takes me for granted in this way- I mean, he knows I don't have the choice to just walk out of my job when I get pissed off. A great way to start Christmas and the New Year. The house looks like a shithole as well. He can do the bloody housework whilst he's looking for a job, cos I'm sick of being a bloody mug. Sorry. Rant over. Probably a good thing that I'm not pregnant this month!!! Do they ever grow up and realise that money doesn't just materialise?????

wow know how you feel im on cd 36 no sign of af and two bfn as for useless men i own one aswell he does work hard wich means i can concentrate om being a mum to my girls but he has no idea how hard i work also he asked me this am if i minded if he went out for a drink tonight after work (he finishes at 10) and i said i did as id like to go to bed 4 somr bd soz tmi and he got stroppy. y ask?

Men eh. I am so pissed off with him, it's untrue. He seems to have very little ambition. I know I am always going to be the main earner, even if we have kids (he loves the idea of being a house husband- I am NOT loving the idea!!!) He doesn't realise how hard I work either. I'd love him to come and do my job for a day because I know he wouldn't last 5 minutes with the pressure. I really don't feel like BD'ing any more to be honest after this. I can't rely on him, or at least I don't feel I can.

Saw my parents today and my dad rightly pointed out that it's like having a child in the house. I'm not sure having a kid whilst things are like this is such a good idea. I've spent 5 years with this man, and I've now realised that things are never going to change with him. I'm sick of running round after him and if he thinks I'm going to do housework when i get home from work after he's been lounging around playing xbox all day then he can think again.

Sorry, I know this is turning into a rant, but I'm now Day 40 no AF (another BFN last night) and am now panicking in case I AM pregnant!