It has been way too long…..

It has been so long since I have been on here….I don’t know what to say. I have definitely been sucking at this weight loss/healthy living business. There have been some major downs the last few months and lots of eating out. I haven’t weighed myself in months but by the way my clothes fit I can tell I have gained a little back. I am not as comfortable with my body and sometines its hard to explain to people why. I have gotten back into the gym but I need to start meal prepping again.
No one tells you how hard this process is. No one realizes what a struggle this is. I love how people on the outside can just be like lose weight, workout, stop eating so much……seriously?! Let me hit you with my shoe and then maybe I can explain how it’s not as easy as that. If I ate just when I was hungry I would only eat once a day. That is not my problem. My problem is when I’m bored or having some kind of emotion (apparently any kind of feeler will work), usually at night, I eat to fill a void of some sort. Soooo don’t act like it’s as easy as just stop eating. Everyone has something they have to work through and I know this is my lot in life but I really wish people could see what others are going through. Honestly, we are all fighting some kind of battle. We should be nicer and more supportive of each other. I have several friends who are working through weight issues and I try to be so supportive and excited for them. Even when things aren’t going well, I try to be there for them because I know this struggle. I know I could have it so much worse and I am so thankful for what I have and what I have accomplished.
I was doing so well and then i wasn’t. There are days, especially when clothes feel tight or my body feels extra “bloated” that I feel like such a failure. I know that I am not though. I have come so far. I have seen the amazing things my body can do. I have seen and felt my body work hard and overcome the thoughts in my head telling me I couldn’t go on. Those thoughts were lies. I can go on. I will do this. I know there are ups and downs in this process and I cannot and will not give up. I am going to try and keep up with this blog again. I loved it before and I loved all the support I gave and recieved. I cannot wait to see what everyone has been up too. 🙂

It is awesome that you have been able to identify the need to get going again. Focus on the positive. Don’t allow yourself to go too long without weighing. I have a private group on FB with other ladies like me who are trying to change their lives, and I require us all to weigh weekly. Not for the number of it. The number is not important. What is important is that you’re being mindful of what is causing that number to change. It is used totally as an accountability tool because as we all know, the number on the scale does not determine the quality of your health. Weigh regularly. Did the number go up? If so, why? Reflect. What did I do differently for it to increase? Not getting enough sleep, too much stress, too much eating unhealthy foods, not enough movement, whatever…it helps you stay focused on the process. It is a lot like a science project, so you need to document in some way to be able monitor that process.

I agree that we should all be nicer. Hopefully through writing our blogs people will become more aware of how difficult it is to undo damage made by decisions made years ago. I wrote a blog post called, “Judge My Buggy Not My Body” for that very reason. People tend to judge on the basis of what you look like, when you’re kicking a$$ at the gym and eating well every day. The key is that YOU know what you’re doing. We’ll work on teaching others how to look at us. The number one important point here is for us to look at ourselves the way we expect others to look at us.

Great job for getting back on the horse!! Come over and check out my blog post about the buggy. I think it will resonate with you. http://241journey.wordpress.com

Welcome back! I’m in the same place as you are, so you are not alone. You can do this. It’s a lot of falling and getting back up; a lot of trial and error. But it will be worth it. Learn as you go. That’s all you can do really. 🙂