Thursday, December 31, 2015

It feels like just yesterday I was writing this 2014 Recap, and now it's almost the end of 2015. Time do flies fast. Honestly speaking, I tend to be very forgetful recently that up till this moment, I'm trying very hard to remember what were the significant events happened this year. Phew.

2015, come to think about it, it was all about me - myself, relationship, faith, career.

Being in the middle-20's stage, I face a lot of circumstances from deep within me. Mostly it was about Quarter Life Crisis, Desire,Life Calling. At times, I felt so lost that I don't know what to do, where to go and how to express it. In the end, some confusion that I felt, I just keep it safe with me; for I know that no one would be able to understand what I was going through. It was more like feeling scared of what others would think of me once they know the truth. No wonder, certain things are meant to be kept silent.

Growing up enable me to see who's my real and true VIP in my inside story. I learn to treasure them more. Yup, I know it's a bit late for me to realize that,but I believe God has His own magical way to let me know His blessings for me. Thank you Lord, it may take me a while to see it but now I'm here.

Being OT in a hospital setting is indeed an adventure. I realize that I never posted nor share anything about my hospital job, not because I hate it but I guess, I have another issues that concerned me more. As OT in JMC, there are lots of thing that I need to catch up, learn, refresh and I'm fully aware that I still have a long way to go, even just to reach a beginner level of being OT. I just hope that I will be able to survive and challenge myself to be better for this coming year.

2015 was a year of blessings for me. Although, there were certain things that I lost along this year, but I believe, I gained more.

Thank you, Lord.

Funny but true, I kinda feel a bit nervous about going into this new year, 2016. Lord, may this new coming year, enable me to find what I've been looking for this whole time and yes, with Your grace abound me. Amen.

Sunday, December 20, 2015

Answering this questions is like deciding which comes first, the egg or the hen.

For me, it can be either both. I see myself these two traits in the people around me.

'When you age, you will become mature'- True enough. As you age, you had already experience life issues that makes you wiser today. When the youngsters can only see a one way out from the box, you may see more than that. It's not just the way out, but what's next when you're outside. That's why, we tend to look for someone older than us for opinion or solution.

'Maturity is not related to your age'- Indeed. No need to look further but this actually suits me best. I'm 26 and honestly speaking, my attitudes at times is worse than a preschooler. I'm aware of it but when my childishness thinking is really into me, I could no longer behave as a 26 years old self. Regret will only creep in once I was settle down and I'm stable enough to think that I've been acting like I'm not supposed to.But what to do, what done is done, You could only do a throwback and promise yourself that this will not happen again.

I'm sharing this today, because I've experienced myself how does it feel when childishness has been possessing someone. It is really annoying up to the point that it makes me so frustrated and less interested. I know, I've been acting like one few times, but when it comes to food/ eating or anything related matter, this is serious. Especially, when you're really hungry. This was not the first food issue that I encountered. What makes it much, much more frustrating - because I experienced it with the same person.

One thing that I'm obviously clear now is - Maturity doesn't come with age.

*Sorry, but I just feel like blogging to express my inside story. I didn't mean to offend anyone.

Sunday, December 13, 2015

In every little thing you do, be calm. Often we get too stress out nor panicked especially when making a big decision, we end up suffer with the consequences.

It is easier said than done but one thing that I learnt is, not too make decisions when you're overly happy or angry. I'm glad to say that, I've been trying to do it in a smaller step. Whenever I feel like wanting to do something silly in times of emotional instability, I take one step back and think - is this really necessary, would I have done it tomorrow; when I'm stable enough.

Thank you Lord, you have never forsaken me, in good or bad times. May this Year of Mercy, enable me to grow my faith stronger in You. Amen.