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Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Folks, this time you won’t be served with some hot, spicy and freshly cooked matter rather I have something rare that would take you to some other world and bring you back wiser and more known-to-yourself. Recently I came across (which is by the way a forwarded mail) but pleasantly true. If you are young and longing for something…. though you already have much of what you have desired for and still feel incomplete…then maybe you are not alone !!Just read and you will find yourself in atleast a few lines if not all. I don’t even know the name of the writer as in who has written it but whomsoever he/she is, has a good observation and ofcourse skills to put down that suppressed feeling into words. Honestly after discovering myself in the same dilemma six months ago ( six long months !!) I gave a thought to write about it but nothing really came out then. While trying to write, I was in a fix if I would be assumed as a highly confused, messed up or indecisive girl who despite having all that she wanted, feel this way. I was afraid. So I dropped. And two days back this mail (was sent by my friend Reema) took me into its arms and said that I am not the only one who feel this but its ‘Natural’. And yes, there’s a hidden aspect of spirituality too in it if you people could find out while reading.Happy Reading J

It is when you stop going along with the crowdand start realizing that there are many things about yourselfthat you didn’t know and may not like.You wonder where you will be in a year or two,but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.You start realizing that people are selfish and that,maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close toaren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met.And the people you have lost touch withare some of the most important ones.What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too,and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere.But that they are as confused as you.You look at your job… and it is not even closeto what you thought you would be doing.Or maybe you are looking for a job…and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom scares you.Your opinions have gotten stronger.You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual.Because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life,and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t.You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.You feel alone and scared and confused.Suddenly, change is the enemy.And you try and cling on to the past with dear life,but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away.And there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.You get heart broken and wonderhow someone you loved could do such damage to you.Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyonedecent enough that you want to get to know better.Or maybe you love someone but love someone else tooand cannot figure out why you’re doing this.Because, deep inside, you know that you aren’t a bad person.You want to settle down for goodbecause now all of a sudden that becomes top priority.

Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.You begin to think a companion for life is better than a hundred in the shack.And for once you would not mind standing tall for that special someonewhich otherwise you had never thought of until now.You go through the same emotions and questions over and over,and talk with your friends about the same topicsbecause you cannot seem to make a decision.You worry about loans, money, the future.

And making a life for yourself…And while winning the race would be great,right now you’d just like to be a contender.What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it.We are in our best of times and our worst of times,trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.Send this to your twenty-something friends…maybe it will help someone feel like they aren’t alone in their state of confusion…Welcome to the Quarter-life Crisis.

So friends what say? We feel that we feel different by feeling such things about our life and see how similar we all feel being so different !! Now Cheer up with a Cheers !