Revisited

Well, it's official (or as official as it can be without an actual visit to my primary care physician).. there is something wrong with my knees. I tried to complete another run after my last failed attempt at an LSD, and ended up only running a measly 1.5 miles. As I walked back to my car, worried about hurting myself further, I was at a pretty low point. I want so badly to run a marathon this summer, but I'm not sure that it's in the cards for me. Anyway, that's why I've avoided posting for a little while.. I'm just disappointed and didn't want to log on and see all of the other running blogs that I follow.

I have a PCP appointment on the 12th, so I plan to ask for a referral to a sports medicine doctor or a physical therapist to see what they think is going on. I assume that they'll tell me that I can't run for a few months, or that I have a tear, or something was overworked. I am also hesitant to do yoga now, because there are a lot of table poses and things that involve my knees that I probably shouldn't be doing. Since the temperature is hot in my yoga classes, I feel great at the time and tend to limber up a lot but I usually end up extending my knee a little more than I should.

So I am thinking all of this, on and off, and I'm writing it now.. but I can't help but think that I sound pretty selfish. There are plenty of people who will never have the chance to run or walk even, and here I am complaining about not being able to do a marathon. I hope I can find some happy medium with my health and my thoughts on this whole situation.

On a lighter note: I went to visit my fiance and took a trip to Whole Foods for my semi-monthly haul of 'vegan goodies I can't get in my hometown.' :)

Not super healthy of me, but still very happy to grab all of this stuff:

We also made a trip to the Eastern Market (my first time), which was fantastic. I can't wait to go back and pick up some flowers and veggies in the coming weekends. A farm-to-truck food truck was set up, and I enjoyed a huge vegan falafel wrap that I keep thinking about...

I will likely be indulging in some of these WF goodies at some point, doing some reading, and watching Revenge on Netflix because I can't. get. enough. Happy weekend!

I was supposed to complete my long slow distance (LSD.. anyone else call it that?) run today, but my knees were starting to bother me so I finished a measly 2.85 mi. I shouldn't say that my knees were bothering me per say, but I was definitely conscious of them and thought that they seemed tight/uncomfortable on and off, so I elected not to run the entire 8 miles to play it safe. The marathon plan I'm following suggested running 8 mi today, but I was going to just do 6 if I was having trouble. I immediately stopped at the drugstore after the run, picked up some anti inflammatory pills and some new inserts for my running shoes, then came home to ice my knees.

Overall, I'm pretty disappointed with how my body felt this morning. I was prepared for a great run (wearing my new windbreaker helped my mood!) but it didn't end up like that at all. It's funny, because I ran cross country my senior year of high school and basically loved everything but the actual running part. I loved the friendships, the support, and the race atmosphere. I wasn't the best though, and even though I went to the state championship meet, I am running MUCH faster times now, some 6 or 7 years later!

Something happened to me after I graduated college and began running as more of a hobby - I became addicted to it. I kept chasing distances mostly, and times, and now all I can think about is wanting to run a marathon. I was devastated when I injured myself before that marathon last summer, and I kind of felt worthless. I know I'm not, and I know I'm exaggerating about this because I'm very healthy in every other way, but it's a hard pill to swallow when you work your mind up into believing you can complete something and your body doesn't allow you to. I'm going to rest my legs the rest of the night and try my LSD tomorrow...

I had the great fortune of attending a screening of The Ghosts in Our Machine last night. It is a film that highlights the ways humans use animals for food, fashion, research, and entertainment. The film's protagonist, Jo-Anne McArthur, is a photographer who works to show that animals are sentient beings and are deserving of much more than filling the role of property or commodities. In the film, McArthur photographs animals in these settings in the U.S., Canada, and Europe over the course of a year. The film is truly moving and I encourage everyone to watch it. I got teary-eyed several times, but I get emotional easily and I don't believe that it's impossible to get through (in contrast, I had a very hard time watching Earthlings the first time I saw it).

Here is the trailer for The Ghosts in Our Machine:

On a lighter note, I went to a great vegan place in Ann Arbor and destroyed this carrot cake whoopie pie:

Now I'm off to do my 3 miler! Today is technically rest day for me but I skipped my run yesterday because my knee was hurting. Yesterday's workout consisted of back, biceps, and some hip ad/abductions. :)

I decided late last night that I am definitely going to take training seriously and work toward a July trail marathon in northern Michigan. I had looked at Hal Higdon's marathon training plans before, but didn't follow it exactly, thus ending my training with an injury. Even though I've done several 5K's and an 8K, and feel very comfortable with the actual act of running (sounds serious huh), I'm going to do the Novice 1 program simply because it (like the website says) eases you into the long distances. I just don't want to screw up my body again.

Today was my 5 mile pace run in the first official week of the plan, since I did a breezy 4 miler yesterday. I was nervous about running this far on the road because after I last ran 6 miles on pavement, my knees hurt the next day. I think the combination of weight lifting (more on that in a later post) and religious icing/elevation of my knees set me up for a stronger run today - I ran 5 miles at 8:26 pace!

Pictured: my awesome tights that I am obsessed with.

As for my "healthy eating" today (and any day) - I'm not going to be one of those people who counts calories or posts every meal on this blog because frankly, I'm lean and happy about the metabolism I've been given. I did make a conscious effort to eat a small meal before I ran this morning which I think is SO important. I've almost passed out during a morning run once, simply because I didn't eat anything beforehand. Scary.

I like to eat about an hour before I run. Other quick pre-run meals that I like include: coconut milk yogurt, a small packet of oatmeal, a plant-based protein shake (I like Arbonne), or a banana. I've found that drinking a cup of black coffee about an hour before my workout helps perk me up, too.

Here's my evening to-do list: finish my ab workout, do delts and calves at the gym, maybe hop on the elliptical then do some studying! Happy Wednesday :)