What you can't say owns you. What you hide controls you. I am no longer ashamed of my depression. So this is my blog, sometimes chaotic and most of the time random but always real. Literally, my life in a nut shell.

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Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Google Saved my Life, Saved me Lasting Despair

I just had a terrible scare. I decided that I didn't need 2 gmail accounts so I decided to delete one. Well I guess it was the primary one that I deleted.. I clicked on Blogger to go to my blogs and they were gone. My heart sunk to the floor. A strange feeling of deep despair came over me. I thought I was going to have an anxiety attack. I tried to calm down and think. I kept trying to navigate through Google help and Blogger help but was getting confused. I kept thinking "I need to speak to a real person, got to talk to someone." I even found an actual phone number for Google. But after a little bit, I just came to a screen and right there it said something about restoring an account. I followed the easy instructions and then right before my eyes as quickly as the blogs disappeared everything popped up. Thank God it worked. I kept thinking "What am I going to do?" I worked so hard on my blogs for the last year. I was devastated at what the outcome could have been. To have had to create my two blogs from the very beginning again would have been too much. I thought for sure that this was not going to turn out well. But I am glad that I never gave up looking for a solution online. Google saved my life along with the man upstairs.It has been about a half hour since I almost caused a great catastrophic event and I still feel really funny inside. It was a really weird feeling that I don't think I will forget. A feeling of such deep, dark, heaviness ascended upon my chest. My breathing was heavy. The feeling of such despair and impending doom is something I haven't felt in a very long time. This all may sound stupid or look like I overreacted but I just had no control of how I was feeling on the inside. I just kept busy looking for a quick solution in hopes the feelings I had would subside. Whew! That was a close one. I thought I was doing the right thing but now I know it is just way much easier to deal with two gmail accounts than what could have happened. I had worked hard to promote my blogs, establish myself in the blogging community, and was just starting to feel comfortable with the layout of my blogs. Anyway, catastrophe diverted. I am too old to go through this again :LOL. And to think I am fairly comfortable and knowledgeable with computer issues and thought I knew quite a bit about online practices, yet I just about killed everything I had worked for. What was I thinking? I will call Google in the near future and have them help me to get rid of one of the emails. I am just too busy to have more than three primary email accounts. Hell, I just about gave myself a heart attack over this episode. Until next time, I think I will have a drink.