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I think I finally understand Batman
he is a shadow
but not just any shadow
no he is the embodiment of reconciled darkness
the reconciled darkness of Bruce Wayne
So that just leaves one question:
How do I reconcile my darkness
to be a purposed shadow?

I don’t think I’m good for you
I want to be
I want to be one of your answers
To be the one to rescue you
To save you from you
But thats the problem
I save you from your pain, from your consequences, from the things that will cause you to grow
I want whats best for you
to help you reach your potential
to make sure you’re safe
I know myself well enough
to know that I will protect you
with everything within me
but is that good for you?
we talked about being toxic
and I think the truth is
that I’m toxic for you
in my effort to help I’ve gotten in the way
I’m no longer helping
I’m actually hurting you
and all I want is whatever is
Good for You
Even if its not me
because I love you
more than I love me

knees tapping together
the classic tell tale
you must be riddled with anxiety
but, wait.
your face speaks of something else…
is that boredom?
bored.
ah yes I see it now
how did I miss it?
from shoulders to toes it oozes
your life isn’t what you’d thought it’d be
those decisions you made at the beginning
the ones that were suppose to be “life changing”
and in the “right direction”
have led you here
to a brown leather chair
in the middle of a bustling
coffee shop
and there you sit tapping those knees
your face shows signs of life
but your eyes,
your eyes reveal,
your inner zombie state
those decisions that would seemingly change everything
took you to a dead-end
which you can’t escape
it is here your dreams died
and hope receded
here you first encountered that zombie
now living in you
and there you are
across the way
knees tapping together
in that brown leather chair
bored