Saturday, February 26, 2011

Micah travels, what sometimes feels like a lot. I get that he has to I do, and I don't complain when his check gets deposited in our account. He was gone last week and he is going to be gone again soon...

When he's traveling I have to admit that somethings fall through the cracks, like Mason eating cheese for dinner while I make his dinner...

and Mason decided that he needed to cover his face with Butt Cream

The boys end up taking more bathes, because of how filthy they get everytime I turn my back

When Micah is gone it sucks, it seriously sucks! Somedays I feel overwhelmed, and tired, and then I see Mason do something hilarious like the butt cream, and I remember to just laugh at life and take a moment to breathe.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Why is it that we always want what we can't have... right now I am obsessed with sleep! I want SLEEP! The amazing pre-child sleep of the dead, the kind that you have before you grow up and have adult stresses... Do you remember that sleep... I do with such fondness *sigh*

Sleep of the innocent...

Sleep of the angels...

I like my babies best like this, I can quietly sneak into their room and scoop them into my arms, and do what all mothers do, listen for the sigh, that perfect beautiful sigh that quiets the fear. I worry, I am a worrier and I need the quiet reassurance of those sighs. I check on them before I go to bed, I take them both in my arms and whisper things that mother's whisper to their sleeping babies, and re-tuck them into their beds... I love those peaceful, precious moments, that give me reassurance. They remind me how very sweet my babies are when they sleep, and how grateful I am for 8PM bedtimes!!

Sunday, February 6, 2011

In High School I took Chemistry 3 times and finally passed with a C-, I got a B in biology because the kid sitting next to me had a crush on me and did all the lab work (I was that girl who got sick during dissection). This term I signed up for a Bio bonds the CO reqs for Anatomy and Physiology. Bio-bonds is Chem 112 and Bio 112, its a years worth of science smashed into 10 weeks! Right now I live in the Science Resource Center, science has always been Chinese for me and I am fighting to maintain my A in Biology and B in Chemistry. As stressed as I feel and as much as I feel like I'm dropping the ball in other areas of my life, I LOVE school! I love that I can feel myself growing and changing, that I'm finally doing all the hard things that I thought I never could. I never want to forget how I feel right now!

I live by these quotes, there are a couple posted around campus and when I read them I feel inspired to work harder, to push through the pain! I hope they inspire you! I hope that you feel like you're doing the hard things...