AWAKEN TO YOURSELF

An Expressive Quality

It’s interesting to ponder where good writers get their story ideas from. Some, certainly, come from life experience, but how many stories that we’ve loved over the years have come from dreams? This dream has a love affair between two women, a new job at a city newspaper, the helping in the arrest of a dangerous man, and then the running along a roof top to find some new clothes. All these cinematic images involve inner aspects of the dreamer, and show how her unconscious tries to summarize a state of affairs between different elements within. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In my dream I’ve moved to the city. It’s nighttime and I’ve gone to a woman’s apartment. She’s a young woman; it feels like she’s my lover, but she’s also a lover to a number of other people, several other people there also.

And it feels like I’ve been with her, and then she’s going to be going to a party. So I go with her, initially, to a party at this man’s apartment. I’m just there briefly. Then I come back to her place, and I think she tells me that it’s like we can only be together every so often, we can’t have too much contact.

And I’m informing her I’ve gotten a job in the city at the newspaper, and then I go from there to the job. It’s a part of the newspaper that’s being run by a fairly older, almost elderly, Chinese woman in this part of the newsroom, and it seems to be part of the newsroom where you go out and gather and check facts, behind other people writing the stories.

And even though I’ve just started there a short while before, she’s already pulling me in to kind of work as her right-hand person. I realize some of the other people there are a little miffed by that, and it also means that what I thought was a temporary job I’m beginning to feel I may be doing a little bit longer because it seems kind of important to do.

And then I leave, and what I get involved in in this next part of the dream is, it feels like the man whose apartment I had visited earlier, who is throwing a party, is wanted by the police or other authorities now, because he’s doing something that’s poisoning the atmosphere, or hurting people. And I help them catch him. And he has some kind of an instrument that he uses, that’s causing the harm, and it’s like I go in and unplug this.

Plus I’m trying to find out what things he might have contaminated that people could touch, and it’s like a white powder or something he sometimes leaves on the wall, and some of it falls in the water and poisons his own pet. So I help the police capture and hold him.

And then there’s a slight shift, and I seem to be going somewhere on my own, except instead of being down on the road, I find myself on the roof of this large complex building – like I go down to the edge and realize it’s too far to jump down. Then I notice there’s several doorways that lead into the building from the roof, so I reject the first doorway, and I go over to the edge of the building where there’s another roof and I go in.

And the first thing I see is a shop, and I realize if I’m staying longer I might need some more clothes, but the first shop I go into everything seems too fluffy or frilly or for parties or things, so I leave that shop. And I suddenly see a shop that I could walk into, that in past dreams has always been on the ground floor of any dream I’ve had, but I recognize it because it’s a shop where I can always go in and find something that will fit, or work for me, except now it seems to be on an upper floor. That was the whole dream.

John: You’re working with the polarity of a closeness, that is a closeness to kind of a feminine understanding of things. You’re working with that, and so you have this quality that enables you to be touched in some way, and then that quality then opens up to where you’re able to resonate or reflect in a particular way; project out in a particular way.

So basically what you are seeing is that your adherence to a certain quality of inner balance has led to a certain kind of expressiveness, that you have in your nature, that can exude out, and be visible, and reveal things, and it’s a direct correlation to having gone to a certain inner depth inside of yourself for you to be able to do this.

However, as you do this you jar and you shake things up, in terms of the masculine side of yourself, that is still guilty of something, and that has a certain quality of imbalance. So when you have a certain quality of imbalance, the typical thing to do is the feminine tries to figure out how to please that, but you’re going back and forth has opened up and revealed something to which you recognize there is this imbalance, in a certain masculine way, and you have learned, instead of trying to please it, you’re recognizing the imbalance and can denote how it is that that needs to be dealt with, arrested, or whatever.

With this dream you’re going backwards and you’re pointing out that, for example the first part, this kind of corresponds to the feminine side of your nature having in the past sat in kind of a quiet-tudeness, basically working on the ground floor of things, and was able to develop a certain sight and balance, or access a certain innerness of your own being.

You had to do that in order to catch up with things because you had them misaligned. You had a misaligned understanding of how the masculine was and, as a consequence, it affected you in strange ways, which is how blind-side things work. And after developing a bit of that which is actually difficult to have to stay on the ground floor because it’s quiet and out of sight, you have developed a certain understanding at a depth of motion, of movement inside of yourself, and so now you can basically express this, or do this, at a higher level in a more dynamic scenario of expansion.

So what’s interesting is you had the part of yourself that has to delve down at a certain depth and that’s called into manifestation. That’s where it was feminine, or into catching up with where it is and how it is that you really need to feel. And that’s kind of almost a condensed quality. And then from that condensed quality, then you have an expressive quality that’s able to come out in which you’re able to shine certain feminine values, and views, and beliefs and whatnot that have a nice little twang to them.

And so your higher self is saying, okay, this is the scenario you were in, this is what happened when you were natural, this is what you need to now see, and this is a greater freedom that you now have because something has shifted and changed in terms of how you’re able to be. That’s a psychology dream.