I've read on IFTN that there wouldn't be season two for this series anymore. Which kinda broke my heart. WHY?! I barely understand why. I liked it a lot! I was excited for season two the moment the 1st season was over. I wish that the people responsible for this show would change their minds. Anobayan.

Season two will premiere next year, yay! Please bring Ned Stark back to life. Everything's possible, I believe. Pretty please? It would never be the same without him. I'm sure I'd miss him a loooot. And oh, I still can't get over his death. Sad.

Yes, there'd be a fifth season. Excited much? I can't wait too! In the meantime, I'd be reading the latest installment of the Sookie Stackhouse novels where the TV series was based, entitled Dead Reckoning.

Season two will continue airing next year. I can't wait. Seriously. Why does this show have a loooong mid-season break? I don't really like waiting! Argh! However, there would be a Halloween flashback episode that would premiere on October 19, 2011. Bring it on!

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I'm also watching The Secret Circle as of the moment but not yet really hooked on it. It'll be airing its third episode this week. I'm kinda hopeful about this series, though, since I'm into witchcraft and I kinda feel like I have some kind of power in me. Lol. Will still try to find out how the show would progress.

Sunday, 25 September 2011

Some days, I just wanna die. I wouldn’t want to die, in the literal meaning of the word… I just wanna lie down and rest... Close my eyes…Turn off my mind… Shut off myself completely.

Sometimes it becomes one of the things I wanna escape from. It feels so illogical and senseless sometimes. I just wanna be by myself sometimes. I want all the boundaries and limitations I have to imprison me. Put up barriers between the world and me.

Some days, I just wanna be alone… And I can’t blame hormones for that.

I’m so bored, I wanna cut myself to pieces. Create tension; make that red stuff flow outside my body and with it, all the negative thoughts I have. Be freed from something that doesn’t quench my need to comprehend. I just wanted to feel that stinging sensation and the throbbing pain I wouldn’t be able to escape from for at least a while...

I’ve been catching myself looking over the horizon, a lot. I can’t actually group together some words to come up with an explanation… And I don’t think I could come up with an excuse for this action, anyway. It’s just that I’ve been catching myself looking over at the horizon without actually realizing I was doing it… With my sad, disappointed eyes.

I’m kinda disappointed with my life right now, you know… And by how it’s turning out to be. Well. Not everything about my life though… I’m being such a big disappointment to myself and it sucks, really. I don’t know why I ended up here, what exactly I did, what’s the main cause of every wrong thing that eventually happened, what actually happened, and what were the first signs of trouble… *SIIIIGH*

We cry for the things we can’t understand. We’re scared of the things that might be lurking in the dark… Of what’s hiding under our beds at night, when we’re comfortably sleeping and we feel like everything’s sound and nothing would hurt us… Or of what we might find beneath the deep well that stays safe on the corner where we keep our darkest secrets… Swallowing up our ground, leaving us defenceless.

Wednesday, 21 September 2011

You read that right... It's Batman and Ken. Batman and Robin's so yesterday. At least in my life. Hee. Kidding.

Hey! That's my favorite superhero over there! :* And he goes by the name Ken, mind you. I favor Batman, too. But I'm just too goddamn purrfect for him, I settled with someone equally perfect... Ken. And I can proudly say, with my head held up high, that I've never been this happy in my entire, as in entire, life. It feels soooo good to have found someone I'm sure to spend the rest of my life with.

He's my greatest superhero of all time. He triggered in me a more positive life. He saved me from myself...

I would've wanted to share him with you guys. (But not that much, though.. No, so not really.)'Cause I believe that every person deserves a loving man like Ken. It's just that I'm a hundred and ten percent sure that he would never ever take a second look at you or anyone else for that matter. Why, you may ask. Well, the sole reason is that... He is so absofuckinglutely in love with me and only I could provide him with everything he would ever need in this lifetime (and other lifetimes to come). So. No chance for you, biatch.

After all, I'm the most interesting but sometimes lethargic, not to mention beautifulheroine in the whole wide world and universes that anyone would ever encounter. Period.

Monday, 12 September 2011

So many words get lost. They leave the mouth and lose their courage, wandering aimlessly until they are swept into the gutter like dead leaves. On rainy days, you can hear their chorus rushing past: I was a beautiful girl, please don’t go, I too believe my body is made of glass, I’ve never loved anyone, I think of myself as funny, forgive me… There was a time when it wasn’t uncommon to use a piece of string to guide words that otherwise might falter on the way to their destinations. Shy people carried a little bunch of string in their pockets, but people considered loudmouths had no less need for it, since those used to being overheard by everyone were often at a loss for how to make themselves heard by someone. The physical distance between two people using a string was often small; sometimes the smaller the distance, the greater the need for the string. The practice of attaching cups to the ends of string came much later. Some say it is related to the irrepressible urge to press shells to our ears, to hear the still-surviving echo of the world’s first expression. Others say it was started by a man who held the end of a string that was unraveled across the ocean by a girl who left for America. When the world grew bigger, and there wasn’t enough string to keep the things people wanted to say from disappearing into the vastness, the telephone was invented. Sometimes no length of string is long enough to say the thing that needs to be said. In such cases all the string can do, in whatever its form, is conduct a person’s silence.

Sunday, 11 September 2011

It's raining so hardLooks like it's gonna rain all nightAnd this is the timeI'd love to be holding you﻿ tightBut I guess I'll have to acceptThe fact that you're not hereI wish the night will hurry up and end, my dear

It's raining so hardIt's really coming downSitting by my windowWatching the rain fall to the groundThis is the timeI'd love to be holding you tightI guess I'll just go crazy tonight

It's raining so hardIt brings back memoriesOf the time that you were here with meCounting every dropAbout to blow my topI wish the rain would hurry up and stop

I've got the blues so badI can hardly catch my breathAnd the harder it rainsThe worse it getsThis is the timeI'd love to be holding you tightI guess I'll just go crazy tonight

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I was watching Bridesmaids a few hours ago and heard this song somewhere in the middle of the movie and I instantly loved it.

I can imagine myself listening to this song during rainy days, missing my boyf. It's not even raining tonight but I miss him a lot already... I guess I'll just pretend that it's raining so I can feel the song and inhale its soothing melody... Feel it inside my body, caressing my heartstrings. Hee. I feel so sentimental just listening to this song.

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The movie, by the way, is really really funny. I loved it! Praises to Kristen Wiig and the super stunning Rose Byrne. Yay! I got kinda emotional and missed my girl friends by watching this. I thought that this is one of the movies that I should be watching with them. Aww... Sad. It also has a lot of lessons that I should try applying to my life right now. Hmn...

Oh. And. This is one of the movies that I think I'd watch again. It made me laugh a lot. Hehehe.

I’m currently listening to Speak Now, Taylor Swift's third album. It was released on October 2010, but I just listened intently to it last month. I kinda belittled this album since I WAS not actually a fan of Taylor Swift… until now. Sshhh… Don’t ask.

I downloaded this album the moment it was released but I never really got the time to listen to it with all my heart. Heehee. I just decided to take some of my time to listen to her and feel her after I noticed my siblings singing most of Taylor Swift’s songs from this album. And. Gosh. I became so addicted to it. I don’t know what’s there is about her and her voice but I instantly loved her. She’s so addicting, I kinda feel like I am under a spell.

Now, I make it a point to listen to her album every day. O diba. How’s that?!
Here are my favourite songs from the said album (in no particular order):

Wednesday, 7 September 2011

There’s this new series from Fox that would be aired this September. And it stars the super gorgeous Zooey Deschanel from the movie 500 Days of Summer. Can you please just watch the trailer below. Heehee.

I love how Zooey Deschanel can be super awkward and cute at the same time. Her character seemed too trying hard to be hot, likeable, and funny. But that's exactly why she's super funny. She's trying so hard without knowing it! Hahaha. Trying hard but still keeping it real. She can be anything she wants to be with proper guidance from the not-so-weird people in her life.

I also like the fact that this series is trying to show us how guy friends can help a girl regarding her love problems. I kinda relate to that, actually. Sometimes the best advices come from the people whom you least expect to get them from. There are really times when it feels so good to have your guy friends around, instead of girl friends. I even feel like there’s no pretentiousness when it comes to guys. As in no bullshit. No fuckery of some sort. And when they care about you as a friend, they really care about you. Do you guys agree with me? Or am I just super lucky to have reliable guy friends? Heehee.

I seriously can't wait for this new series!For more information about New Girl, visit THIS PAGE :D

Sunday, 4 September 2011

Emotions aren’t actually felt with the heart, including love. I’ve read somewhere that Love is just being associated with this shape: ♥ because when we’re hurt, it feels like it is breaking. We’d have a tight, stabbing feeling in our chest, making us feel like our heart’s hurting. It’s such an unbearable, uncomfortable pain that our brain would start yelling “I told you so.” It hurts once again. Why do I never listen to my brain? *SIGH* With this chest pain, maybe it’s really our heart that’s breaking. Even if the amygdala that controls our emotions is located at the brain… Plus. It wouldn’t look really appealing if we use a symbol of the brain to say “I love you.” Like, I [insert picture of brain here] YOU. It wouldn’t look as cute as I ♥ YOU. Agree?

All this heart talk because I kinda feel like my heart’s breaking tonight. I feel used, unloved, consumed, uncared for, and being lied to. By the people I love. Or is it just me? And. But. I don’t wanna feel these feelings tonight. Or ever. I wish I could take my heart out, keep it in a metal vault, and hide it in a dark, cold place where no one would be able to find it. I just don’t wanna deal with my heartache right now. Whatever its cause is… I wanna detach to some things. I keep on looking for a distraction. I just couldn’t find it.

I don’t know what’s happening to my life right now. I feel like it’s starting to be unfixable. I hate the things that are starting to become routine. I call them routine because I don’t really enjoy doing them. Quarrels, for example. It’s starting to be a habit... Us. Fighting. It’s been a fucking bitch that lurks around the corner… Hiding itself behind a lamppost down the street. Watching our every move. Ready to attack whenever it finds a crack. Such a bitch that’s starting to shake this foundation. *SIGH*

I’ve been thinking hard about job interviews lately. My mind’s kinda set that I should be job-hunting already. It’s because the only way to earn money is to have a job, right? And I badly need money right now. For personal, luxurious reasons. Hee. I just realized now that it’s so hard to look for one, especially when you’re still not a college graduate.

I’ve always dreaded job interviews especially the part where you have to tell them something or anything about yourself. I don’t actually know how to start telling people things about me. I kinda feel like this would be the death of me. Chos.

I do know myself but when asked to tell or write something about me, it’s like I don’t really know who I am. Damn. I wish I could just ask them to read this blog and let them find out for themselves. That would be easier.

I just don’t know how to start, what to say, and how to say it. The topic’s so broad. I consist of a lot of things, that’s why. I stutter. My mind goes blank. Who the hell am I?

In other news…

I get really, really sad nowadays. I guess I can’t blame the hormones inside my body anymore. I feel like I need to see a psychiatrist already and ask her to prescribe me some anti-depressants. I’m so helpless. My God. I’m so fucking sad with my life right now. What sucks is that I know I should be happy. I just can’t figure out yet why I’m not.

Earlier today…

I was listening to Mellow 94.7’s The Twist and the Twisted Tell-All topic for the day was: WHAT’S YOUR TYPE? I wanted my answer to this question to be read on air but since I had no cellphone load and I wasn’t online, I would just put my answer here. Hee.

I don’t think I have a particular type. What matters to me is that we get along very well and the other person won’t try to change me or control me in any way. Because I like being myself. The people whom I used to “hang out” with don’t have certain characteristics in common, so I can’t tell if I have a particular type. Haha. I just need to be comfortable with them, whatever their type. Lol.