Saturday, May 31, 2014

Isn't it funny how you can know something your entire life and simply forget it? I had one of those moments yesterday. Ever since I stopped doing hair about a year ago, I have been struggling with what my purpose is in life. Really I feel I've been searching for it since I donned that blue cap and gown back in 2006. I was going to take over Broadway, didn't. I was going to be a hairdresser- I'm still Derek's :) but that's about it.

Whenever I set off to attempt something, I didn't feel it was completely right and subsequently those ambitions didn't last. Every few weeks I have a mini melt down and stress fully try to come up with some career/ambition that will make me feel and seem important.Yesterday the veil over my foggy human brain was lifted. I will still be searching for the next 100 years, if I don't re-realize this truth: I am first and foremost a daughter of God. My identity need only be found in Christ. Not in my career, not in my marriage. True fulfillment comes from knowing and being known by my Savior. Everything else will fall into place.