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Its been a long time since I blogged here. I tend to do that. Go for long spells where I fail to write and then write a whole lot. It can be tedious for the reader and it certainly does gain a loyal following, but it’s how my life is.

I could talk about work and its stresses and demands. I could talk about home life and how its going mostly well, but my world as a “Dad” might be stressed more than I expected it could be. I could discuss my kink, which is going well. And I could discuss my female led relationship, which is also going well. But to pick out a few things might make them seem more “important” or “impactful” than others and I don’t want to annoy or upset anyone by doing that.

But in essence, I kind of need to do that. Instead of writing “all the things!” I’m going to need to pick out a few things here and there and expound on them as regularly as I can. And if I’m including people in the conversations, then they’ll need to know that I’m dancing ^W writing as fast as I can and will get to all the things, eventually.

And no, it’s not a NaNoWriMo type thing inspiring the writing that I need to do, but I do think that there are times when putting pen to paper (or hands to keys) can be a useful exercise in working things out. It’s much like the technical technique of “confessional debugging” – where you explain the problem to someone else, what debugging steps you’ve tried and more often than not, just in the process of explaining it this way and the person you’re explaining to mostly listening, you can discover the problem on your own. It really works well! So, perhaps my confessional debugging of writing will help all of me and in the process help me find some peace of mind with all the things in my head. At my core, I am happy, but a few important things make me feel stressed and not entirely whole. So I’ll do what I can to bring some of that to the fore and see where I can make improvements. So, let’s hope for more writing from me soon!

It’s all pending… so many things are pending… it makes me pensive. Well, no, more apprehensive than anything.

Work – crazy busy. End of fiscal. People to hire. People to train. Projects to wrangle. Special project to wrangle. And Guilder to frame for it.

Personal – end of school year shenanigans, family events, family things to fix (I am tech support… :( ), family plans for Chloe and I going on. Craziness.

House – One roommate in and out of the hospital, another roommate off to work often. Gotta keep the house up as Chloe and I are the ones that wrangle most of the house stuff. This is tedious at times. But it has to get done and we just end up doing it.

Sex life – We make the time to fuck. And that’s good. It’s been a good time in this manner. But we find little time for play because of all the above. But beyond that, any non-primary relationships suffer. That’s the nature of it. It can’t be helped.

I have a full week at work to come, camp to shop and pack for and any myriad of things on the list to wrangle before camp. And then I have to hope that work can keep their shit together while I’m gone, which I have problems believing will happen.

The saving grace in all this is…

Chloe gives me space and light loads before camp so I can concentrate on getting us ready for camp.

I will get to camp and have good cathartic hard work. Hopefully some of it will be naked or damn close to it!

I will get to be on vacation at camp. After that, I might be able to play at camp.

But it’s a long road to camp, literally and metaphorically. We’ll get there. It’s a light at the end of a tunnel. We’ll get there.

It’s quite some time. Sorry folks. It wasn’t planned. Life happened. We had a bit of a breakdown in our relationship which we have put repairs to, but it completely stopped our D/s dynamic. Then her life blew up some, my life blew up a little, my laptop blew up completely (although not like a Galaxy Note 7!) and… well.. life happened. You know all those things that happen to you while you’re planning what you want to happen to you.

In the meantime, we did finally come to the point where my long term denial ended. 217 days after it started. It turns out that she wasn’t of the mind to just make me wait until the next February 29th. That would be a bridge too far. Since then, there’s been several other spillages, several other fun times and some growing again of our FLR. I am again in my daily shackle (a bracelet with nautical overtones to the vanilla folks) but not quite back into my collar yet. I’ve had a visit from the lovely Lady J, wherein we partook of much quality time together and she got to explore some areas of Maine that most people don’t get to see. She was also my photographer for naked October!

Manning the defenses!

I’m still in a state of rebuilding the laptop to where it once was, but getting there slowly. Soon I should be able to get to the point where I was some weeks ago and then be able to be full steam ahead.

Sorry dear readers, it’s been a time, to be sure… but I’ll keep writing as best I can.

As a consolation prize, I offer this image, only able to be taken on the off season, because when the island is busy, there’s not a chance in hell that we’d be able to get away with this! Bonus points for anyone who can identify which island we were on.

The world has been quite busy for me. Work has taken my to one of our other offices a couple hours away several times. Each time, Madame locks up her cock to keep it safe and secure and I wake in the night in the cheap hotel room with her cock swollen in the Steelheart chastity device. At least I know she cares about her cock. ;)

a lovely hand in a lovely pair of panties

I’m also about to leave for a conference for work, so am headed to Las Vegas for a few days. Given the recent work schedule, my ideas of adventure while in Las Vegas may have changed from “DO ALL THE SW THINGS!” to grabbing a bottle and sitting by the hotel pool with three books. We’ll have to see which option wins. Maybe more than one?

But there is service in my life while I’m doing my service at work. Madame woke up to a lovely gentle backrub, a little bit of comfy comfy sex and some other oral service. Then she fell back asleep while I got up to make coffee and do the blog thing. With work keeping me so very busy, there won’t be much time for lazy morning oral service in the coming two weeks, so we’d better get that in now!

Also, naked time at home has pretty much stopped. One roommate returned from her winter in the tropical islands and is back. The other roommate destined to return soon as well, by the end of the month we’re told. So, we’re back to a full house. Add in a few couch surfers here and there and there’s a whole lot less of this dog sitting naked on the couch!

I’m hoping for a daily post while I’m at the conference. What would people like to hear about?

So, I’m not sure if there are loyal readers, but if you are, you’ve no doubt noticed that, hey, we haven’t posted. There’s a perfectly logical explanation for that. But not a quick or easy explanation for that. So, let me do my best at explaining.

Chloe and I got into a an argument. I won’t go into details about what it was about or such, but it ended up being one of those types of arguments which proved to give us thoughts about whether we would remain together or not. Not for the content within the argument, but for my reactions as a result of it. The good news and the shortest story is that yes, we did make it through. And we are here together at the end of it, sharing our bed again, back to “normal” and I’ve even spent a few nights collared before she ended up leaving for a bit of a late winter getaway with her bestest college friend.

Even before the argument, I had not been blogging as I had before, perhaps the wind out of my sails since Chloe had not been blogging very much and I’ve always been great at starting projects and getting them rolling, but sometimes don’t do so well with the upkeep. So, having left it to her, she was doing great before the holidays, then we both kind of dropped it after the holidays. And that was months ago! I suppose one factor in the lack of blogging is that I didn’t really feel like we were being read. And yes, I know we can’t expect to have followers immediately, but writing on a wall that never gets a light turned upon it gets tiring. And as Chloe mentioned to me in conversation about the blog, she was worrying that the blog might be getting stale. I mean, how many times can one write about collars and cleaning up this or that and the fact that we had a great fuck last night before one goes “Well, what else is there?” – both from the writer’s perspective and the readers. So there’s THAT, which is a huge consideration. This blog IS a learning experience for the both of us. The social media experiment that we are on could take a while to figure out, but, in the end, I think it will be a good exercise and I think it may just educate some folks along the way. I can hope. And I’ll try to blog more often as well – to keep the momentum going. This will be part of my improving myself, which has taken on many facets in the past couple weeks, including my weight (now under 220, which is great, but not under 200), my fitness (3 days running this past week, compared with NONE before) and my other things that are in my life (volunteer efforts, projects, etc). I’ve come to realize that I’m the only one that’s going to make these things happen and that my life is pretty damn lucky, overall, and I need to get off my ass and “do it” instead of complaining to myself and others around me about the lack of time I have to do it. Because I know I waste some of my time. Don’t we all?

So, well, I’m going to continue to post more in the coming days, perhaps give you all something fun to read, and continue with all the other things and just keep doing. I can only hope we might make back our readers from before and gain a few over time. And Chloe’s last post, which was actually posted automatically the morning AFTER the argument, can be responded to (by me) and provide some good stories for all of you.