Sunday, November 7, 2010

“Am I More than You Bargained for Yet?...I’ve Been Dying to Tell You Everything You Want to Hear 'Cause That’s Just Who I am this Week...”

New Week, New Plan, New Goals. I’ve been looking forward to this week for quite some time now. This week I want to spend some alone time with CJ. Somehow him & I missed each other this weekend. We saw each other pretty much the whole time with people all around & slept in the same bed but we were never truly alone & I was just off. I don’t know why I was so off. My mind raced & the stress took over. I want to reach out to him & bring him back. I miss him ever so much.

The battle that has been my first home purchase has drained me of my excitement & replaced it with regret. I’m seriously thinking of career change to something mortgage related because not one person knows how to do their job where I went or communicate properly with others. It has been like that scene in “Kill Bill Vol. 1” where Uma Thurman fights the Crazy 88. You think you have won but then there is 60 more right behind them or then another coming at you then another.One problem turned into dozens.

BUT this is a new week with a deadline…

By Tuesday & Wednesday I will have my final paperwork for the approval of the mortgage and the choosing of the closing date will not be far behind. People get confused when the words “Pre-Approved” & “Approved” come into play. I’ll admit I was one of them. Maybe when I sign the papers the excitement will return & I can take my shoes off in my own place and take that next step in life. Maybe…

This week I’m also going to continue with my Weekly Goal of Eating Healthy & Exercising. I realized that my diet has taken a vacation & I’m eating horrible things & I’ve seen the light of why I’m still not losing any weight. So it’s not so much a diet as “I’m not going to eat the following things that I seem to be living on”: Taco Bell, Bacon, Chinese Food, Cheese & Chips, Beer, Icing, & Pizza. When I wrote out my food diary I was kind of embarrassed. No wonder my skin also has been a mess. Where did my mind go eating all this junk!?!

I will find it this week and get back on track with it all. I’m tired tho. I HATE when it gets darker earlier. Perhaps that’s why I’ve been so thrown off? It should be midnight instead of 11? Now it’s bed time. I’ll be back tomorrow. =)

20 comments:

It's crazy how different it feels with the time change--I can't believe that it isn't even 9 pm yet here! Feels SO late! I'm totally with you on the eating healthy thing--it's ridiculous how I've been eating lately! Here's to good luck for both of us. :)

I think you're making a smart and healthy decision to try and find routine again this week. Focusing your personal time on CJ, finishing the mortgage contract, and getting your diet back in shape sound like simple, but important steps. Hope things calm down.

Daylight saving time means Edinburgh gets dark at like 3:30pm, its infinitely depressing and makes me want to do less and less. But I have 2 major term essays due soon, so I need to get my life together, not go to bed early! haha

You have such an exciting week ahead of you; I'm so happy for you, Melanie! And ohmigosh how I adore Daylight Savings Time - when we are gaining an hour, that is! I seriously think that yesterday was my most productive day all year!! :)

Why hello friend!!!!! Thank you for the sweet welcome back, I have missed you! Your new goals sound great...and I know what you mean about eating junk. This past summer I remember thinking, did I really eat Mcdonalds and pizza like 4 times this week?? Good luck with the mortgage issues, that must be so stressful!

I feel like a super bitch because I only clicked on your link in my Reader because I was like "Oh, 'Sugar We're Goin' Down'. I freakin love Fall Out Boy." But seriously, though, good luck with your deadline and paper work, and don't let DST ending bother you too much. I frankly LOVE IT! An extra hour of dark and sleep. But, I'm a damn night owl anyway, so...

I walked out of work and it was sooo dark already which immediately made me feel like the day was already over :( Oh and I'm with you on the junk food. I need to clean up my diet asap. My skin is such a mess when I eat too much junk.