discovery

My role as wife and mom filled me with joy. I imagine as women that stay at home we experience the unique balancing of the stages of our children’s growth process. School, homework, tests, sports, music, dance and the many ways we need to beat the clock daily. Yet we survive it all. Dating today has amazed me raising four children as I never dated but have been with my husband since the 7th grade. Definitely different times. I have one rule and that is who they love I love.

As I witness the expansion of my family with marriage and babies I realize that generationally we are all raised in different surroundings. As such, no one can comprehend another’s childhood and acceptance is needed. Acceptance and love allows us to not be critical or judgmental. This I strive for in my life. I believe the soul aches to be nourished as we enter into all relationships. it matters not who we are in relationship with we are all given the choice of how we react to them. Love needs to be the foundation in all relationships not just for babies or our pets. When we strive for excellence others will also.

When my youngest daughter at seventeen and she left for college my life shifted. It was a time of deep reflection for me as motherhood responsibilities were eliminated. Three of my children moved out of the home at this time and the tears began to fall. I questioned why I had not prepared for this moment. With a deep ache in my heart I prayed to know where I was headed. The word “share” became part of my vocabulary. As a mom for twenty-four years at this point in time, I had shared my love, time, and wisdom with my children. Now what? It is in these times of emotional sadness where we are rewarded with our purpose. An avid book person and a daily woman who took pen to paper, I discovered God definitely had a plan for me.

Visiting my daughter in Arizona at ASU I began to read the book, You Can Heal Your Life by Louise L. Hay. The date was October 10, 2003! The definition of transformation is the act or process of transforming; the state of being transformed..

When do we learn of the power and strength within that creates a path we must follow by being protected by the power of our own thoughts? I believe it is the final stage of belief that there is a process to all of life that is amazing. Many people cross our path, some stay, some move on but some are the greatest and brightest of lights that come to guide us. When we believe in ourselves because another believes in us is a verification of our truth. It is then when the doors and windows shall open to let the sun into our lives. It is this light that becomes the brightness in life that warms our days. The discovery and ability to be witness that one is on a journey that will make them whole.

Personally, I have noticed I have new words in my writing; unity, self-harmony, universe, whole, purity, grace, truth, divinity, eternal and spiritual. For me these words are a completion to all that IAM learning. It is the beginning of who I truly can be. The sadness is that there has to be an end to what was, only because this is my journey and one must fulfill their dreams to live in the light and glow of love eternally. IAM traveling that which has been written in my book of life I believe. IAM filled with the emotions of yesterday because IAM thankful and grateful to all I have learned from because in dong so, I have remembered what is important to me.

As part of this universe I appreciate the beauty of life and how I have unfolded myself into such enormous growth. As I travelled this path of change through these past years I have been witness to many different thoughts only because I needed to research how I accomplished all that I did by never leaving my home. I began a search seeking to know, devoured by a belief that there was more to life and learned from many books about the protection of totem animals and saw my own timeline and years I was guided and comforted by them. I always believed in God but now I met my Angels, Archangels, Ascended Masters, Spirit Guides and Ancestors through prayer, meditation and my greatest of passions writing daily in my journal.

I believe it is the requirement to accept life and to love the life you have, after all you chose it. I have loved my life always and this love is my strength that led me to the woman IAM today. I ask to live a life of cleansing myself of yesterday’s toxins by my spiritual belief now. IAM accepting of all the powers of the universe that IAM provided with. As I look at the world with eyes of a child all is new. My spiritual belief is charged! I no longer have any use for the beliefs of the past or even any of my own old attitudes. I release and forgive all that was! IAM delighted with all that IAM given and realize my own deep inner wisdom is the grace and strength of who IAM today. This instinct of belief is part of me and with determination and will power I will be led to all in a spiritual form of unity. I bless this life I have been given anew and believe in the journey.

Are we not all survivors of sorts that search for a second chance? A place to start fresh? To begin anew? It is the brief voice within that whispers, ‘yes there is more!” Once one begins to listen and search for that ‘more,’ begins the process to discover ones passion, purpose and destiny. We are led to know we are never alone as we travel the journey of this life experience as I have been shown because the universe stands right by our side. It is this feeling of wholeness of thought that makes me aware and insightful of life. It is the comfort and guidance we are all given by this belief in the unity of life. I live in a spiritual world that I can share with those in the physical world. For there are many who cannot grasp this inner beauty and kindness that waits for them.

The bottom line is to experience the wonder of being nice. It is a little word and yet very few possess the ability of being even nice to those they claim to love. To tell any lie of any kind drains everyones energy. To hurt another, not only hurts that person but hurts oneself by the draining of ones energy as well. It is that which society needs to release as a way of existence. Honesty and kindness incorporates love into being and begins ones journey to find who they truly are. It is the truth of life we all need to look for. To believe otherwise is a rejection of the process of life. Everyone needs to set goals to learn from to accomplish their destiny.

There definitely is a process to all of life. There is a renewing of energy by embracing and grounding oneself with love for Mother Nature. Life is about paying attention to the signs and being aware of how we show who we are to others. Know that there is goodness in all. We are not separate from each other but one. How we speak, think and act has an affect on all of mankind. It is this understanding that we all possess that we are separate on our own paths that confuses us. Know we are united towards the accomplishment of truth which will lead us all to love.

These are the questions that have popped into my mind over and over. I have struggled for years with not knowing the direction of my life. Married at twenty, raising four children and now I am a grandmother to four grand babies and still I do not know who I am. How can that be?

I have been searching it seems for my entire life for this answer. I have meditated and prayed for this answer, as well. I have filled many a journal over the years inquiring about an answer. I have read literally thousands of books, gone to many workshops and studied under many teachers searching for this answer. I have become a Reiki Master, a Certified Holistic Health Counselor, Metaphysical Practitioner and Author, imagining I would find this answer. I studied Science of Mind, ACIM, Kabbalah and the Teachings of Abraham by searching on a yearly basis for an answer. This past year I signed up to study with Deborah King once again seeking to know of an answer.

I have walked the streets of my neighborhood, the mall, skipped at the beach with tears of joy waiting for this answer.

I have been called a student of life, a healer, a counselor, a comfort to many and very spiritual and intuitive from women and men. I wondered and was amazed at how others saw me, just maybe one of those labels is the answer?

At night when I lay down my head on my pillow, I close my eyes and have recited for the many years the following:

“Thank you dear God, Blessed Mother, Archangels, Angels, Spirit Guides, Totem animals and my Lord and my Lady Yesuah Messiah and St Mary Magdalene for this day. The moon, the sun, the stars in the sky and the earth that grounds me.. Thank you for the foods that I have eaten. I thank my Ancestors! I pray the Glory Be, a Hail Mary and a Our Father. I wait a second and pray God is Love, Love is God, God is all there is. I look within and smile to myself if I have spoken to all four of my children, especially on the rare occasion when I see all four! I thank God for another day with my husband. I say and imagine in my mind’s eye, IAM as God created me, a Spiritual Being of Light And Love. I create joyful experiences in my life, I trust the process of Life. IAM a Spiritual Healer, IAM a Spiritual Teacher, IAM a successful Author. IAM healthy, happy and whole body, mind and soul. IAM safe, IAM fearless, IAM abundant…”

It seems to me that I have struggled with God’s plan, His belief in me because of my own doubt and disbelief in myself that I now release these questions for they no longer serve me. I believe finally I have received the answers to my questions and I can let go and let God lead me on this journey, as He has been obviously doing.

It feels great to know that IAM not in control and that there is a Divine Intelligence that is leading me to be “Me!” I have been truly led all of these years and I believe the questions stem from my ego-self but finally my God-self simply whispered a little louder. All I need to accept is that All is Well, as is…

… God rests within the heart of each one of us while the soul awaits the connection of body and mind into a spiritual being of wholeness. There can be no truth, no wholeness felt if there is no belief in God.

What would it take to learn to not blink? When we choose willingly to not react to another’s fear and anger we bring God into the moment.

What would it take to be silent? When we choose to know the person before us is doing the best they can we bring God into the moment.

What would it take to not take another’s words personally? When we know within our heart that this person before us has been conditioned from childhood to believe as he/she does it brings God into the moment.

What would it take to bless another? When we know in our hearts that this person before us is a creation of God and by God it brings God into the moment.

What would it take to see God in all? When we smile with love in our soul at the fearful person before us and know that they too are here to awaken to God’s love in their heart when the time is right will bring God into the moment.

What would it take to be witness to the truth of another and to know that there is no right or wrong way to be? When we fill with unconditional love, silence, belief in God and know and trust that life is about the lessons we are here to learn brings God into the moment.

Try for a week to incorporate the six above means of not blinking at another in any situation that arises by bringing God into the moment and be witness to a change in your life experience …

Critical language is how you express yourself because it has been years since your belief system had a kind word to say to you about you. Who you are and become is who you believe yourself to be by the conditioning of your own childhood. How your parents, family, friends, teachers and society in general have projected you should be. It does not always stem from words but from the world you live in, the radio you listen to, the television shows you watch and the movies you pay money to see as well as the type of magazines and books you read.

Along the way on your path and journey through life you have erased the loving baby you were born to become as an adult, into this critical person because you have fallen victim to a life that is all body and ego. There is no mind that is connected to your heart that nourishes your soul because fear is part of your life daily. You need now to discover all that you fear and release it so that you can see literally with the eyes within that love is one of the lessons you are here to remember and re-learn. In doing so, you begin the process of discovering your ‘soul work,’ which will nourish and transform you…