I just want to disappear and runaway.

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paulinaand12 wrote:

I’ve been having problems with my boyfriend since I basically found out I was pregnant. My partner freaked out and left me because our relationship wasn’t healthy and we talked about co-parenting. He basically pushed me towards abortion, he told me i was stupid and selfish and I was going to do this by myself because he wasn’t staying. After a couple of talks and and periods of not talking, we were finally able to work our relationship out to were it was suitable for both of us. I was happy and so was he. I was getting the recognition I wanted from him and I wouldn’t snap at him too often or bring him down. Everything changed yesterday though. I found a note with a girls number and something along that number that said “ps, no one has to know ;)” and i confronted him about it. He said it was meaningless and he kept it because he quickly put it away and he didn’t have time to look at it. He basically said that he had it because it was so irrelevant that he forgot about it. And i was hurt and distraught over everything. I basically called our relationship quits because I can’t trust him anymore and he didn’t want anything to do with our kid. I told him our kid won’t have his last night nor will i be getting child support from him. He claimed he was happy with our relationship and he loved everything i did for him. And he messed up by keeping the note. I’m so hurt and everything i close my eyes to sleep i could just see the note. I feel like i was cheated on and it hurts me so much. I just wanna run away and die. I hate myself so much and I’m beating myself over it. And I’m not good enough nor will i ever be. I just wanted him to love me and appreciate me the way i deserve to be appreciated. And it’s so hard for him to do so. I’m hurt and i don’t know what to do.

Good Morning Beautiful. It is completely natural to feel hurt and bothered by what you are going through. It's normal to want to hate him or be angry or want to leave him. It was wrong what he did and he should have been supportive of your emotions and pregnancy. Don't runaway unless you will find a better place to raise your baby. Your baby will teach you unconditional love and you won't have time to worry about your man acting up. I am praying for you. Remember, there are thousands of women on here to talk to. We are all here for each other.

You will be better off in the long run, I'm speaking from experience. Just let that boy go, he clearly isn't mature enough for fatherhood. Prepare yourself to go it alone and stay positive. My son was the best thing to happen even though his dad was a deadbeat cheater. I'm now happily married and my DH is the most incredible step dad. It all works out in the end

What My Emergency C-Section Taught Me While I initially felt like a failture for having to have an emergency C-section, I soon realized my birth experience was just that: an experience — but not one that has to define my life (or my son's).