WOS, remember this when you're having your operation. There are a lot of people who are thinking about you all over the world and their prayers go
out to you. I wish you all the luck in the world with this operation, and hope you can finally beat the cancer. You stay strong.

William, you are in my thoughts. From reading your journal, it sounds like you have the right attitude.

It's impossible for other people to know the feeling of lonliness and aloneness one feels when they discover that their body has betrayed them with
this wretched disease. At least these were my feelings 2.5 years ago when I discovered that the lump in my breast was a fast-spreading cancer. It's a
feeling that I couldn't really share with anyone who hadn't experienced the same thing. Fortunately my friends and family were very supportive and
I'm on the other side of the whole miserable thing now.

After a radical mastectomy and lymph node removal, I can attest to the fact that there is 'the other side'. After all the wondering, fear of
completely handing my body over to another person's care, the painful recovery, there came a time when I knew I was on my way up instead of down;
that I actually wanted to get up in the morning and face the day. That time is there waiting for you.

You will arrive on this side, William, and leave the whole contemptible thing behind. You must know that and believe it. My brother went through a
very similar operation to what you describe. He also is on this side of it.

Skeptic Overlord reassures us that you are in the best of care. That's important. For a control freak like me, that's the hardest part. Trusting
someone so completely with the care of my person. But, amazingly, some of those people really do know what they're doing.

I'm looking forward to your future posts and threads William. By now, you should know you are not alone. I know you will be you amplified when you
come back. The one thing i can say that i know i mean: Thanks for being you, and we'll be patiently waiting for your return after your
recovery.

Interesting things these cells are.

I personally define consciousness as being something that can integrate information about it's environment, and have an effect upon it's
environment. And cells do both.

If you were told enough times by enough people that you are ugly, you may very well start to believe it.

If you were told enough times by enough people that you are stupid, you may very well start to believe it.

Every time you look in the mirror you think there is only 1 in the reflection.

You have just told every cell that comprises those thoughts of "I am one" that they do not exist.

Just a thought.

You will be in my prayers, and my prayers make a difference. Personally I'm slightly envious. I know it sounds weird, but what a simplicity of
choice. To either give up trying, or stay positive. Personally I pray and hope for the latter. We are with you William. Peace, and happy
holidays.

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