I'm sorry that you feel like you're messed up, but talking about it is the first step to making things better ya know? One thing you got to know is we are for real here, not B.S. Sometimes some of us break down and come here, sometimes some of us come here to try to help the people that break down, but we all share the common experience of being sexually abused. Plus everyone here is of different ages, cultures and locations; we're all so different and yet I have found a lot of people that I could tell the worst experiences too and find out that they had the same thing happen to them. I'm 20 years old and in college and the people on this board to me are very real; although the internet can make people come across in unforeseen ways we are only trying to help each other and inherently care because we know what "it" is like.

I hope everyone's responses has made you feel better tone. Don't give up dude, we need you to survive so that we all can.

journal:people actually cared enough to take me seriously , to read my weaknesses and not to push me away.I went to the chat room and got help from two persons who tried to make me feel as if all was gonna be ok.Didn't sleep well last night and puked a couple of times.I stayed home today , didn't set a foot out of the house. I felt naked and i didn't want to see anybody.I talked to my wife on the phone and she thought I sounded weird, but i dismissed it and told her i was getting a cold.I don't think she bought it.My dogs are sensing that there is something strange in me and they are following me around the house.I hope i can find support in this place, and am thankful to those who welcomed me. I hope that i can learn to trust .Thanks, tone

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