Saturday, July 16, 2011

I think I made a mistake by keeping my calories so low yesterday. I was fantasizing about binging when I fell asleep.

My boyfriend has some gift cards to olive garden, which is like a restaurant for young people - one of the cheapest "sit down" Italian restaurants with waitresses and everything. He's been wanting to go the past couple days. I looked up the soup and bread sticks that I usually get - the soup is 250 calories, which is ok, but the bread sticks are 150 calories each!I about died when I read that. He's been pestering me to go. :-/

Then again before I only had liquids yesterday, I had basically stayed at exactly the same weight the two days before that.

Two days isn't so long I guess. I think I basically just need to calm down. It took me months and months to get this fat. It's ridiculous to expect instant gratification.

Although I've noticed sex with the boyfriend has been much better. I wonder if that's just a confidence thing? Or because he was out of town so long and recently got back... either way, not complaining!

Intake today:
257 g Fiber Gourmet Macaroni - 605 cals

@ AJ: Thank you so much for your kind words. You're officially my first fan, by the way. Did you know that? Although I've gotten 6 more since :D 4 lbs is a lot, it's just hard when I want to lose 70.

@ Kes: Thank you for helping me keep in perspective. Sometimes I go off the deep end. 4 lbs is a lot for one week. Like I said to AJ, when I need to lose so much weight, it seems daunting. I just need to take it one day at a time.

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I'm so jealous right now lol After I did the sea salt flush I GAINED weight, and now I'm stuck it seems. I don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to do! I should be losing weight because I'm not eating! That's how it works. I could just cry right now. Congrats, though, on the progress. At least one of us is losing weight. I just wish I was too :/

I used to love Olive Garden until I saw how many calories were in their breadsticks and salad. And most unfortunately my boyfriend still loves it and expects me to eat like I used to, like four breadsticks and a huge serving of salad, more then I can eat in a day! Their minestrone soup is pretty good though, and with one breadstick it's pretty satisfying...as long as you can stay under boyfriend rader. Good luck if you go!