there is this movie that ive wanted to see forever. its a dutch film called the dress and it follows the life of a dress and what happen to the people who come in contact with it. so last night we decide to watch it and it being dutch its not rated and we only saw about twenty minutes of it before we had to turn it off. it was quite dirty in a very disturbing way. i was very upset. ah well. im still hurting today pretty badly but i suppose that i should just suck it up and get on with my day as im getting off at two tomorrow to go to the doctor and then have thursday and friday off. hurrah. will be able to clean my house. however on sat and sunday will be in jasper for a wedding. im just so excited about being in the town that is famous for a hate crime so horrendous, even kkk members were offended. if i wasnt such good friends with the groom and if i hadnt promised him even before they were engaged that i would be at his wedding, i would so stay home and sleep. and when i asked karris to go with me, she laughed in my face. not that i blame her. im white and i dont want to go. but still... so much for that whole best friends through thick and thin scenario. well i shall away and leave you with this lovely survey that i guarantee will take me at least an hour to complete. must also figure out where one can go to buy opera length black gloves on your lunch hour. the answers to these questions and much more next time on the mcneil/lerner/becca hour.

top 5 things that turn you on -01 when you get a roll of film developed and dont know whats on it. its like a wonderful surprise.02 getting packages in the mail03 people showing up with a single daisy just cause 'i was thinking of you'04 my house being clean and staying that way05 having extra money at the end of the month

top five movies you watch all of the time - 01 american in paris02 moulin rouge03 life less ordinary04 bridget jones diary05 the importance of being earnest

Top five things people should know about you - 01 have a vicious temper02 im usually joking when i say mean things03 ill be the best friend youve ever had04 im very shy despite my loudness05 even though i act tough, im really pretty fragile

Top five things you say the most - 01 son of a monkey02 whatever03 good morning(afternoon)o'hare and associates (i answer the phones for the office)04 heya baby05 would you stop it?!?

Top five things you do not understand about your own sex - 01 why let men objectify them and disvalue them 02 girls that think they have to get married and thats the only option available to them03 why they talk about other women worse than they talk about men04 why they think pouting and crying is better than talking calmly about a problem and trying to work out a solution. (what are we six years old?)05 why women dont want to watch sports or go to hardware stores or mess up their hair or be seen without makeup

1.) Are you male or female?: female2.) Describe your neighborhood: very multicultural, quiet, small houses with families, old established neighborhood, big trees, friendly, lots of kids running around playing in their front yards3.) How do you look?: like im 15. i have long dark red hair and great sparkling eyes that vary from green to gold to brown depending on my current hair color and my clothes. i have a good smile, great laugh, full bottom lip, okay top one, adequate cheekbones, and a straight nose. i have one and a half dimples, eyebrows with a little too much arch, long legs on a short body, small wrists, long fingers, a body thats been described as "juicy" which i believe could stand to lose four or five pounds but no one else agrees with me, and skinny calves. 4.) If you could say something to the person you like, what would it be?: um, i like you? 5.) Where do you wish you were right now?: somewhere else, somewhere warm, somewhere with people i love, somewhere with scary movies and too much candy, and a cute little pug to be constantly underfoot.6.) What would you say to your best friend?: hi i miss you we dont see each other enough i love you (not in that way you big sicko) and hope you are feeling better (do you need more drugs?) do you want to go to jasper with me? ill let you wear my shoes. any pair you want. and ill pay you a quarter. a shiny one. please?7.) Any words of wisdom: everything is going to be okay even if i have to fix it myself. you will get through this and i will help you.8.) What do you wish you were doing right now?: sleeping, reading, eating hummus and drinking too much with danielle who is forcing me to watch scary movies and then laughing when i scream.9.) What do you think of drugs and alcohol?: thank you sir may i have another (as long as its in moderation) except illegal drugs those are bad and wrong. 10.) If you could say one thing to your enemy, what would it be?: what is wrong with you? why do you treat people this way? why do you think youre great cause youre not. 11.) What do you usually do on Friday nights?: um used to go out with karris and assorted friends but now usually stay home and people come over and eat my food, mess up my house, drink my booze, watch tv and then go home abruptly leaving me to clean up.12.) Are you for world peace?: yes of course13.) What do you think about school?: i love it i miss it im going back soon14.) How do you feel right now?: im in a lot of pain but im pretty upbeat about it.15.) Any closing words?: appreciate all the beauty in life, you never know when it could all be taken away from you.

in that vein, you should always live life to the fullest cause you never know when you could get hit by a turnip truck on its way to tuscaloosa. my brother came over unexpectedly last night and brought me a daisy. he does that sometimes when hes bought his girlfriend flowers or my mom flowers and sees the daisies and thinks of me. when i asked him which one of them he bought flowers for he said just you cause i know youve been sick and i just love you and was thinking about everything you do for us (him and his girlfriend) and i hope you get better soon. i just about cried. and that was the absolute highlight of my week. i know its only tuesday but not even a four and a half day weekend is topping this. thats by favorite thing in the world. knowing im loved and appreciated for no apparent reason. its enough to make me happy for days at a time in the manner of doris day or some other cheerful person perpetually bursting into song. well must away to work piles. catch you on the flip side,

bluebirdgirl on November 26th, 2002 11:27 am (UTC)Re: its ever so lonely without you here

id prolly say by myself but ill need to verify that before i can tell you for sure.febuary would be lovely. soon enough that i can make plans, far enough away that i can get my house clean and unpacked and get another bed so you dont have to sleep on the floor.

as for my sis, ill see what i can do but i can make no promises to you.