Wednesday, May 6, 2009

the date for enrollment to the matrixthe date of my sister visit to balai bombathe date for me to return the library bookthe date for my father to visit his sick friendand to me, it is alsothe date for putrajaya programAHAH!!!what is kind of programme??i am never good with wordsand i try to spill out somethingand try not to make me sound ungrateful,snobbish,pesimistkind of personif i ever sound like thatplease..do not mind ..it does not my intention to make you feel like that.

here it goeshonestlya quit excruciating word"the programme" for an 18 years old-to-be teenagerwell..of course lait does not sound normalcause ..on what purpose people goto the mosque-kind-of-buildingin the middle of day work THAT is very very not normal

i am goin'to PUTRAJAYA"for BTN programmealong with a JPA orientationand an INTERVIEWat the US embassy"(JPA have put all of this progtogether due to time constraint)

now, this is the scary partto be truthfully honest n frank..apart from all my experience ofinterview-camp-motivation prog(yang sememangnya ciput tu)this is not a kind of thingthat i usually feel"let's tell her this n then she will forget itin a minute"well..sad to saythe theory is not applied herei think of this thinglike FOREVERit's freaking me upit's driving me to wallit's make me worry&the fact that i have to go therekeep hunting me even in my dreamperhapsyou might think thati put too much emotion on this thingof course i amit's like meeting the strangersand you have be nice with themcause it is necessary for youand i am not kind of"camping or school prog selected student"personi just a student..not to bright but enough forpeople to noticesuck..like repeating high school all over again~sigh~

back to the main storyi will be away forabout seven daysmaybe and maybe noti dunnothe instruction is not clear..~the flaw of govern****~u & i will never know

what i want isa good impression on menice people to befriend withadequate tips for living& maybe a bug-free kind of food(the paranoia of having ulat in my food)

i pray had for all to be the bestfor all thing that will happen to meto youto usto everyone..

let's go into some mind-thinking

the path that we choseis the path that willreflect what are we going to bein another ten yearsmaybe an engineera doctor, a surgeon, a bussinessmanor not a white-collar-workera salesman maybe..

"We should all be concerned about the future becausewe will have to spend the rest of our lives there." ~Charles F. Kettering

and the future always begins nowwhether we want or notthe truth is the truthwe are older each minutemore responsible to takethe relationship became more complicatedthere's a lot to thinka lot to be weighedand we start to think"wish could be in school right now"life is simple..you can say thatbut it is not just easy..

Life is a great big canvas, and you should throwall the paint on it you can.Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be.

and we have to take what is given by GODand appreciate itand value itand ALHAMDULILLAHi have got the chanceand i will not waste itand i will try my bestdespite of all my "mambling" abovei must admiti am totally happy with this chance(eventhough..the program is not in my to-do-list)pray hard to ALLAH

"When My servants ask you concerning Me,I am indeed close (to them);I listen to the prayer of every supplicant when he calls on Me;Let them also, with a will, listen to My call, and believe in Me,that they may walk in the right way."[2/al-Baqara/186]

From small beginnings come great things.with thisi am nowoffblog.salam.

reminder:do not mind the grammar.mind the message from it.i even had a C in my English once.