Just Thoughts,read Eles Where.Well this blog entry is one of many that I have thought of ,but didn't post. As I do this I'm still not sure this is the right place or right time to post this. I've been doing alot of thinking lately about the few people i call friends ,so the only thought on this blog is it must mean something, Like I told D that I to hide behind my stories and blog entry's. In the few years that I've had a 360 many blogs have come to my mind but were never posted,but most of them left my mind in a few hours after I thought of them or I wrote them in my note book, but for some reason this one that I'm about to post didn't leave,because of that I feel it needs to be posted. I'll I hope is that I don't piss anyone off with it.
My thoughts are these this night. Why do we run from something we know we can get through because we have in the past. What I'm talking about is love, we always run from it, most people think it's because we're scared of the pain, but from my view i think that is wrong, becau

~you Say You Love Me~You say you love me
But, you can't look me in the eye
You say you love me
But, when others are near you back away from me
You say you love me
But, i rarely come first
You say you love me
But, when i call you never have time
You say you love me
But, i seldom cross you mind
I say if you loved me
You'd take my hand and hold me close to you
If you loved me
You wouldn't be ashamed of me, you would want
the world to know
If you loved me
Thoughts of me would make you smile
If you loved me
The mere thought of losing me, would make your heart ache
If you loved me...........
~Patrice~

Dammit It AllI was laying on the couch and the phone rings. It's my darling hubby at 10 at night to tell me that while his roommate was out this evening, his truck was broken into and I need to call and suspend service on his cell phone. f**king great. so I called Tmobile and tell them and sure enough, someone had been using the phone, but they turned it into a paperweight for me and luckily I have my old phone and just need to go get a new SIM card and Chris can have that phone until I replace it with something better. so it's not like it was that big of a deal, just not something I really wanted to deal with at 10 pm. and now I am pissed off because some idiot stole the phone. anyway... I had to rant to about it quickly.. now I go back to my couch.

Did You Get Your Cd Yet????HELLYEAH, the new band featuring former PANTERA/DAMAGEPLAN drummer Vinnie Paul Abbott alongside members of MUDVAYNE and NOTHINGFACE, will hit the road beginning around May 20 with dates in the U.S. before heading over to Australia and making its way to England for an appearance at this year's Download festival. In a live interview that was broadcast Monday night (April 9) on the nationally syndicated radio show "Rockline", HELLYEAH bassist Jerry Montano (also of NOTHINGFACE) stated about the group's plans, "It's looking like we're gonna be hitting the road around May 20. Looks like it's upstate New York, and kind of coming all the way down through Ohio and down back to Texas. So we're gonna be out for a few weeks — maybe two and a half weeks — before we had over to Australia, the Download festival [at Doninton Park in England] and maybe another club date in London and then back here for [the] Family Values [tour]. So we're gonna be out doing it up."
As previously reported, HELLYEAH

If I Was Your Boyfriend1.) How many times a day would you hug me?
2.) Would you let me hold you?
3.) Would u come with me to places?
4.) Would you love me?
6.) Would you lie to me?
7.) If I was sick what would you do?
9.) Would you leave me for one of my friends?
10.) Want to have a future with me?
11.) Would you listen to all my problems and help me solve them?
12.) Would you introduce me to your mom/dad?
13.) Would you care about what I do when we go out?
14.) Would you hang out with me AND my friends?
15.) If your friend tried to get with me what would you do?
16.) If me and one of your friends argued, who's side would you be on?
17.) Would you give me your myspace password?
18.) If I gave you mine would you read all my mail?
19.) If I said I loved you would you say it back?
20.) How good do i look from 1-10?
21.) How do you feel about me?
22.) Have i ever made you smile?
23.) Would u sp

Hoooray!!!!!!!!!Today it is finished. I now have Sole Physical and Legal Custody of my daughter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOOORAY!

Chapter 8Death was besides himself. he traveled to the Pearly Gates, rushing toward Peter and Azrial. " Peter, Peter, I lost one! I lost a soul, what am I going to do now? You have to help me please, Peter, help me find her before I'm responsible for her nonexistance." if Deth could be discribed as disheveled, that is what Peter would have said. Death looked frazzled, disheveled, distraught and decidedly scared, much to his delight.
"Well my friend," Peter could afford to use a condensating voice now," just where did you leave her? You only have to back track and Im sure you will find her. After all, shes a lost soul, how far can she travel?" Peter thought this was delightful, a real kick in the pants. Imagine, Death scared!!! This one ought to be good for a few thousand years of laughter.
Death turned away from Peter thinking " what now?" Perhaps Satin had an answer. Winking down there, he saw the Gates "manned" by his least favorite demon, Orda. he hated to think that he mi

Carlin, Pt 2Okay.. more Carlin quotes....
"I've got just the place for low cost housing. I have solved this problem. I know where we can build housing for the homeless. Golf Courses. Perfect. Golf courses. Just what we need. Just what we need. Plenty of land, in good neighborhoods. Land that is currently being wasted on a meaningless, mindless activity. Engaged in, engaged in primarily by white well to do male businessmen, who use the game to get together to make deals to carve this country up a little finer among themselves."

To A Special Man In My LifeI Love You
I've come to believe that you are the one true and real thing in my life.
I think about you throughout the day until I fall asleep at night. You are the first thing I think about when I awake.
Just the thought of your kiss can send my heart into a frenzy.
Your smile can take my breath away.
I love you so much that my heart aches.
When I'm away from you, I get restless and the thought of losing you is unbearable.
When we get close, I'm so nervous I feel as though I'm having a panic attack.
I have never in my life felt this way about anyone or anything. You have truly captured my soul and my essence.
I wish I could understand why I feel the way I do but I probably never will.
So I just accept the fact
That I love you.

~~only At K-mart~~A woman went to a K-Mart service counter and told the
clerk she
wanted a refund for the toaster she bought because it
won't work. The
clerk told her that he can't give her a refund because
she bought it on
special.
Suddenly, the woman threw her arms up in the air and
started screaming,
"PINCH MY NIPPLES,
PINCH MY NIPPLES,
PINCH MY NIPPLES!!!!!!"
The befuddled clerk ran away to get the store manager
in front of a growing crowd of customers.
The manager comes to the woman and asks,"Ma'am what's
wrong?"
She explained the problem with the toaster, and he
also told her that
he can't give her a refund because she bought it on
special.
Once again, the woman throws her arms up in the air
and screamed,
"PINCH MY NIPPLES,
PINCH MY NIPPLES,
PINCH MY NIPPLES!!!"
and doing so draws an even bigger crowd!
In shock, the store manager pleads,
"Ma'am, why are you saying that?"
In a huff, the woman says,
"BECAUSE, I LIKE TO HAVE
MY NIPPLES PINCHED
WHEN

To Reply (lol)My comment wasn't deleted, my account was. I was a level 17, I am still missing alot of my friends, and all my pics are GONE that was on here because my old computer bit the big one and I didn't have them saved on this new one yet. Not to mention the work on the page itself, I did alot of html on there, my visitor map is GONE, it's just the point of it all. He wanted to hurt me, well he found a way to do it. And without do much as a WARNING to me. Just poof gone. Came home from work and went to log on and it said invalid user specified. Then when I made a new account, BBG found me and when I told her what happened she said all the people that left a comment on babyjesus's page in regards to the time out on pic rating was deleted.

ConcertHey check out this concert that I am going to at the end of the month. www.98rockfest.com Cant wait to go. Its gonna be a blast!!

When Darkness FallsWhen Darkness Falls
Killswitch Engage
As you walk the path of least resistance
Is it as simple as you claim it to be?
Your tongue, your eyes
Your lies, they do decieve you
I stand firm in my solidarity
The path I walk, I walk it with my own resolve
When darkness falls we are reborn
Our dream since the fall of man
We are reborn
My beliefs are not antiquated
We are the hope
Silence them all with not just words
Let resolution be our voice
I stand firm in my solidarity
The path I walk, I walk it with my own resolve
When darkness falls we are reborn
Our dream since the fall of man
We are reborn
We are the remnant
We the remnant will silence them all
We are the faithful
We the faithful will silence them all
When darkness falls we are reborn
Our dream since the fall of man
We are reborn

The End Of HeartacheThe End Of Heartache
Killswitch Engage
Seek me, call me
I'll be waiting
This distance, this dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you
Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
You know me, you know me all too well
My only desire - to bridge our division
In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors my torment
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture, a bitter memory
For comfort, for solace
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For

Low Raters, Pt 2Okay, youknow what's REALLY sad? when someone can't even rate a salute at least an 8. It takes a lot of balls (or tits) to admit that you're a real person.
Now... as for rates... I have YET to rate a salute anything lower than a 10. Nor have I rated anything else lower than a 10.
And of course... "Remember to put all tray tables to their full and upright position." "Fine... who's going to put this guy in the Grateful Dead shirt and fuck you hat to his?"

YesterworldMidnight finds you a bit empty,
the lateness of the hour,
you look at the collection
of everything you have,
faded tokens,
empty gestures,
cross words said
oh so fierce,
now ferocity is gone.
So many things in the scrap book of you,
so many things discarded,
forgotten,
nonregarded,
and left.
After midnight,
to be rediscovered.
Listen to these echoes,
you might hear yourself,
find a beat up photograph,
of you in happier times.
Or not,
these shadows don't dance,
and nothing unearths itself here unasked.

Thoughts Swimming Around My Brain.Long long day, here are some of my thoughts.
First.
Me: "Babe, tell me a lie"
Her: "I love you"
Second.
I decided im not going to be emo anymore for many reasons, so on the day that i decide this why the fuck is this song stuck in my head?
Between the future and the past tense
Lies the present and the distance
So you think we're never coming back
Scoring points for passion and persistence
Between the lines and the highway
Lies the danger and the safety
You never thought this was gonna last
I always knew you'd never take it back
I always knew (I always knew)
[Chorus: x2]
I know it seems like we're never coming back
I know it feels like we're never coming back
You tried your best and you knew it wouldn't last
They were the words that she placed on her casket
Between the sadness and the smile
Lies the flicker of the fire
You always said this never hurt you
I always said you were a liar
With all the towers and the wires
There still lies a little sil

Opening UpI sleep at night with my hands in fists
I've closed off my heart as well
but there seems to be something about you
like some wizard whose cast a spell.
With patient determination
you gently pry open my cell
just one little finger at a time
you pull me up from my hell.
I do not understand you
an enigma you seem to be
like a puzzle I've yet to finish
before I'll be able to see.
Is it too much for me to hope for
that this may in fact be love?
I'm tired of being crushed and hurt
by charmers devoid of the concept of love.
We who believe there's love so true
when no one is judged as un "fair".
Life is not always as we planned it
but bourne by two is easier to bear
One can trust the other
like a stoic column bare
the brunt of all frustrations
as honesty and truth's what they share.
Equal partners in this odyssey
faced with many ups and downs
the sorrows, joy and successes
when your true love you have found.
You become more than the self you see
you become more t

If You Had Me AloneIf YOU HAD ME ALONE... LOCKED UP IN YOUR ROOM FOR TWENTY-FOUR HOURS & I HAD TO DO WHAT EVER YOU WANTED ME TO, WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH ME? TELL ME IN MY INBOX... CUZ ITS A SECRET... THEN SEND THIS TO ALL YOUR CONTACTS... YOU MIGHT BE SUPRISED WITH THE RESPONSES YOU GET. THEY COULD MAKE YOU LAUGH OR EVEN SMILE .. LOL.IF YOU DONT REPOST THIS YOU ARE A COWARD AND IS TO AFRAID TO SEE WHO ACTUALLY LIKES YOU.SEND THIS TO EVERYONE IN . COPY THIS AND PASTE IT.... I WILL BE WAITIN TO HEAR FROM YOU

Making Id'sIf you want an ID made by me, Abbit the Rabbit, then come by and let me know.
I need to know your Birthdate, Location, the name you want on it, and your CT ID #.
Just private message me the info and let me know.
NON-VIC
VIC

Hmmmm....I was listening to George Carlin earlier tonight, and I was wondering something.... Has anyone figured out yet that about 90% of what he says about his observations on life are right? For example.... Quote: "War is just a big prick waving dick fight... which is why all the bombs are shaped like dicks"
You and I both know that it's aerodynamic... but.. have you noticed, that the shape... looks like a dick with wings? lol. "You don't need to be an expert in foreign policy to see, 'what? they have bigger dicks? bomb them!'"
This year is his 50th in comedy and he turns 83ish, and he's still going... And he'll be around forever... and ever... and ever... because he doesn't believe in god... he believes in something he likes to call.. "The Big Electron... whoa...... whoa......" "It doesn't judge, it doesn't hate...."
And always remember... he DID revise the list of the 10 commandments to 2... "Always be honest and faithful to the provider of thy nookie... and always try real har

People Are StupidSince the Pledge of Allegiance andThe Lord's Prayer are not allowed in most public schools anymore Because the word "God" is mentioned....
A kid in Arizona wrote the attached NEW School prayer.Now I sit me down in schoolWhere praying is against the ruleFor this great nation under GodFinds mention of Him very odd.
If Scripture now the class recites, It violates the Bill of Rights. And anytime my head I bow Becomes a Federal matter now. Our hair can be purple, orange or green, That's no offense; it's a freedom scene. The law is specific, the law is precise. Prayers spoken aloud are a serious vice.

My NameOkay ya know what...I am tired of people saying my name is bullshit...Well you don't believe me ask him ask his aunt...I don't really give a fuck...cause ya know what...if he wanted you mother fuckers to know about his son or his personal life he would prolly tell ya...but ya know what everyone that I know..knows about my son and who he is by...so you have a fucking problem with my god damn name keep it to yourself...because frankly i don't give a flying fuck what any of you mother fuckers think about my name...it aint your name...you don't have to wear it...so fucking deal with it...Don't come to me calling me a liar...I am the one who his son...his one and only son...so fuck you...don't hate because you aint got his son...

My Oat To You MasterYou are my Master. My place is by your side.
Should you turn to me, I am always ready to listen.
Should you lean on me, I am always ready to support you.
My Lord, my place is at your feet.
I am eager to learn your desires and wishes
so I can help bring them alive.
Look down upon me and lift my spirits with your love,
caring, and guidance.
Allow me to rest my head upon your knee
so I may share your strength.
I am your slave always.
These chains, though invisible links, hold strong
for they are fortified by respect, love, admiration,
and pride I feel in being yours.
These feelings were not freely given but easily earned
by your personal integrity, honor, kindness, intelligence,
creativity, and understanding.
I am humbled. I am bound to serve you for my own needs.
To please you is now in my blood.
May my body serve to please your lust, your passion, your soul.
May my mind serve to inspire you.
May my soul and spirit share the energy they hold.
Every part of me

Beer Contaians Female HormonesBeer contains female hormones
Last month, National University of Lesotho scientists released
the
results of a recent analysis that revealed the presence of
female
hormones in beer.
Men should take a concerned look at their beer consumption. The
theory is that beer contains female hormones (hops contain
phytoestrogens) and that by drinking enough beer, men turn into women.
To test the theory, 100 men drank 8 pints of beer each within a
1 hour period It was then observed that 100% of the test subjects:
1) Argued over nothing.
2) Refused to apologize when obviously wrong.
3) Gained weight.
4) Talked excessively without making sense.
5) Became overly emotional.
6) Couldn't drive.
7) Failed to think rationally.
8) Had to sit down while urinating.
No further testing was considered necessary.
Send this to the men you know to warn them
about drinking too much beer!

My Wait Is OverMaster I want you to know
that I have waited a very long time for you.
I have been waiting patiently to give these
gifts locked away inside me.
Now you are here, so much a part of me.
You are here in front of me
as I kneel in respect to you
while you place your collar on me.
At times it is unbelievable to me,
Still a dream that we have found each other.
But yet,
I hear your voice, a voice my soul has always longed
to hear and instantly recognized.
I feel your touch, a touch my body has always ached
to feel and instantly reacted to.
I see your handsome face, a face my eyes have always searched
for and immediately affirmed.
I taste your kiss, a kiss my lips have always hungered to taste
and instantly felt the fire and passion.
I smell your hunger, a hunger whose scent I know all too well.
I have waited for you and now I am yours body, soul, mind and heart.
Take me.
Take my hunger for dominance and nourish me.
Take my thirst for control and quench me.

Whens My Flight???I think I've missed my flight. What flight you ask...the flight to my life. Its not that I have a bad life...eventhough somedays I do say "damn this sucks". I just feel like...I'm stuck. I try to change things and it just never works out. I try to find different roads to take only to end up at a dead end. But not before I get my hopes up high. Am I the person to blame? Am I not allowing things to happen for themselves and am I being to overly critical? I used to think everyone on earth was here for a purpose. A purpose we'd never know about until our time here was over or close to being over. As everyday goes by I tend to not believe this more and more. Atleast not for myself. Trust your heart...that saying is hard for me. Because my heart isn't telling me anything. I guess I just haven't found my place and I'm tired of waiting. Maybe, I did miss my opportunity.

Want A Laugh About A "women Of God"This is a bulletin from the baby basher that a friend gave to me that I find intresting. I have proof of what she has said. I just need to get to my parents house I have it on my mothers camera but due to me being in the hospital a couple of times this week I havent been able to post it but will this weekend after i get off bed rest here is her bulletin. Im sorry but a women of God like she says she is wouldnt put down a child.
this women has serious issues and is making up false stories that are extremely sick and disturbing. that anyone would accuse someone of saying these types of things is sick. I was going to leave ct due to the amount of threats I received. I have had to block all communications from what could be nice people due to her sick accussations. However I am not running due to I did nothing to this women other then state I felt badly for her child due to her having such sick behavior. Ive blocked her to have her fan me so now I can not keep her away. So just be caref

Playlistchanged things around on my playlist on my page....took out messed up tunes and added some new ones....got some beatles love on there now :-)

Offered YouMy world it was a shamble
My world it was a mess
and to all of this
a few can atest
but when i am in your arms
my world is at rest
because you are my Master
because you are the best
you hold the key
which is my heart
which i gladly give to thee
and that which i give
i give so submissively
i offered you my heart
i offered you my soul
i offered you my subbissiveness
and with this you took control
you light up my days
and also my nights
within your eyes
i see strength and delight
I submit to your power
and draw from your strenght
and look to the days and the time
we have spent
your control is so powerful
that even when not around
you still make my heart pound
the ties that bind me
no one will ever see
because they are within you
and within my need to please!

Update With BabyjesusWell, I went to find him on my friends list so I could see if my comment was still up there....GONE! Both him as my "friend" and my comment on his page. I know it was up there for about an hour though.
So I'm under the assumption that he read it, deleted it, got rid of me on his friends list (no big loss there), probably blocked me so I can't post any more comments on there. But I think just because he deleted it and I'm still here, my account, for the time being, is safe. I guess that was his reply. Maybe he didn't delete my account because by the time he saw it, he saw the time it was done and realized too many people might have seen it and if he deleted me a mutiny of sorts might happen. Dunno.
But I honor his deleting of being his "friend", friends don't delete other friends for voicing opinions. As I do appreciate all he's done, he is getting PAID to do this site and that doesn't make him GOD. Although now this site is going to hell in a handbasket as we speak.
My 2 cents

My MasterMy Master's eyes are so very firm at times yet,
always filled with love.
My Master's mouth can speak harshly
but never demeaning or cruelly.
My Master's arms are strong and forceful yet,
warm and secure.
My Master's hands can give punishment when needed
but never lack to show
the love within.
My Master's legs are fast in walk yet,
never leave me behind.
My Master's mind is set to his ways
but so aware of my needs and feelings.
My Master's heart has to be extremely large
to hold all the love he shows to me.
All these things make up my Master
who cares.....loves....and looks
after me.

Our Lovebeing loved by you
for me is the happiest feeling
for your love is as lovely as
a million birds singing
your love can make the flowers bloom
that brings beauty even in my deepest gloom
loving you
for me is the most wonderful feeling
for loving you is as lovely as
a million swans swimming
for you alone can make my heart thump so fast
that i wish forever this feeling will last
this precious love i've waited for so long
the love that i dream to have and so on
i want this love to last more than forever
for our love i know will bind us together...
forever..

First BlogThis is my first blog attempt, go easy on me. I look around CT and see all these beautiful people, and I rate their pictures 10. If I don't think tey are a 10 I don't rate it. Not a problem. If you see my picture and rate it a 1 I wonder why are you not leaving your name. I ain't pretty, I ain" good looking, but at least have the guts to say who you are. I have seen many rockin people here, and I dig you all. If you don't like one of my pics don't say anything, just move along. Don't be mean and rate my pics a 1. That hurts, I didn't come here to be hurt. If I wanted that I would have stuck with M**pace. Sorry for the rant.
Spicoli gone surfin!!!

From A Law Enforcement Agents View...... Read It I Dare You ToDepending on who you ask, sex is like variety or things.
For a law enforcement agent sex is like a 44 magnum snub nose revolver.
For an officer his powerful piece needs to be clean at all times, and properly supported.
When he is preparing for his long hard night, he gently slides his big gun from its soft warm leather holster,
He moistens the cloths and begins to stroke it up and down the barrels shaft. Making note to gently wipe around the rim and hole. Gently pushing his index finger slightly into the hole just enough to release any build up. After stroking and rubbing her down he brings out the oily lubricant. He makes sure she is fully lubed in all the right places. Inserting the bullets is essential to the process. Only a small tease as she is placed back into her warm safe holster. Only to be whipped out a few hours later fast rough and hard. With a tight grip he looks down the topside of her. Taking aim, he gropes her even tighter. He's beginning to sweat, his heart

My LoveMy heart takes flight
When I gaze into your eyes
My soul soars higher and higher
In amazed delight
All that I am, is all there for you
You take me higher
Then I ever knew
I could go
Dreaming of placing my soul in your hands
Remembering in wonder
How I strove to meet your commands
Wanting to please you again and again
Waiting in bliss to hear your demands
Never release me
My Master, my Love
You so complete me and make me feel loved
Two halves that were searching
Have now become one
A melding so complete..
It shall never be undone
I promise to give you my heart, mind, body and soul
Together we two will always be whole

A Lifetime Of HolinessA Lifetime of Holiness – Romans 12:1-3
A new believer is sanctified when he places his faith in Jesus Christ. He’s set apart for God’s purpose. Salvation takes place in a single moment, but sanctification is a lifetime process. Those who trust Christ as Savior and allow the Spirit to control their lives are being sanctified. It doesn’t matter what we may feel or how our actions appear to others. We are progressively maturing in our faith.
If we’re growing, we must be working our way toward something. In Romans 8:29, the apostle Paul explained the Christian’s mission. He said, “For those whom [God] foreknew, He also predestined to become conformed to the image of His Son.” The believer’s character, conduct, and conversation should reflect Christ. On our own, we’d place too much emphasis on conduct. We’d get caught up following rules and rituals that look “Christian” yet don’t truly reflect Christ. But God has given each believer His Spirit as a teach

~~lost & Found~~I know most of you are dog lovers and will help us.
Our neighbor has lost her Chihuahua and is desperate to find him.
She does a lot of traveling and always takes her dog with her.
Yesterday, she was sitting on the couch watching TV.
She called out for her puppy with no response, and the back door was open.
She has been putting up signs everywhere. If you see this dog, please let me
know and I will notify her. Your help would be greatly appreciated.

Beauty Through The Eyes Of A PredatorBeauty Through The Eyes Of A Predator
Demon Hunter
I'm not the only one who can't see why it crossed your mind
I see your life and death reduce into a product line
It's not enough to see you speaking through the blindest of eyes
The same dead, cold breath is reducing mine
I can't see why
You're not a saint, you're a thief
You can't deny
It's all a ploy underneath.
All I've seen (you better learn to keep your face under the dark)
All I need (wake up and feel the blood escape your heart)
Your disease (for every word that you devalue and mistake)
I can't breathe (for every soul you nauseate with what you say)
You've brought this verdict on yourself (before we ever had a chance)
I hope you cry for the one's you've lost.
You built this burden when you fell (you know we never took a glance)
I hope it's worth all the blood it cost.
It's been a long way back from the dissipated path
Only half way through, say goodbye and take a breath
And when the end shines new wit

PentagramsThe Pentagram means different
things to different people. Some may argue as to what it represents, but
I will tell you the real meanings of it. The Pentagram right side up represents
God ruling over the world of matter. The 5 points represent the 5 places
that Christ was wounded. This is why Devils are afraid of it! It
also represents the Microcosmic man with his arms stretched out.
Let us not forget that
it also represents the elements Spirit, Water, Air,
Earth, and Fire as shown below.
This is used by most people
in Witchcraft.
Now there is also the
upside-down Pentagram. It represents Satan or the world of matter ruling
over God. It is the same as denouncing God. To wear it is to attract
evil around you. It will not bring good spirits around you. Normally it
is only worn by Satanists or devil worshipers. So if you wish to
attract good spirits around you... wear it right side up!
Here we have an example
of both the right side up and the reversed Pentagram...

Movies I Have Seen RecentlyI have gone to the movies several time s here lately being that I have been on vacation and such and just let me say "300" was awesome great movie.
I also saw "Blades of Glory" and it was stupid but pretty funny still good.
And I saw " The Number 23 " and that was really cool you'll never figuer it out till the end.

Broken Like An AngelBroken Like an Angelby Crossfade
She was a queen
Lost within a dream
Misconceived that he was fit to reign
Lies take victims
Separate them at the seams
Cause them to fall apart
Then move along to better things now
She
Wants to fall in love again
Don't you know that
He's
Satisfied to own her
No time permits to open up
When you've been hiding thoughts so strong
She's been holding out for an angel to come along
No reply from the sky
But she just keeps looking up
She just keeps looking up now
She
Wants to fall in love again
Don't you know that he
He's
Satisfied to own her
She'll never know love's true potential
Lost in the open wind
To his impatience
Never feeling they would fall apart
She let her feelings grow
To tears she'll never show now
She
Wants to fall in love again
Don't you know that he
He's
Satisfied to own her
You know he couldn't see
That she could be his everything
Bringing light to everything now
Oh
She just wants to
Fall in

Just Because...Okay so you have to answer this survey completely and totally honestly!
1. What’s your full name? Bryan F. Jakubowski
2. Where do you live? Hamlin NY
3. Are you happy where you live? No.
4. If you could live anywhere where would you live? Anywhere but here.
5. Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? Amber meade
6. Did you love them? at the time i thought i did.
7. Who was your first real love? For fear of seeming like a freak i will plead the fifth.
8. Do you still love them? Deffinitly.
9. Who are you dating now? No one.
10. Do you love them? um do i love no one? no.
11. Would you do anything for them? Would i do anything for no one? no. But when i am with someone it is about them and so yes i would do anything for them.
12. Have they ever hurt you? christ get off this already
13. Do you trust them? Do i trust no one? No.
14. Who’s your best friend? Ambers
15. What do you do for fun? ADVENTURE. SOmthing you can tell a story about.
16. Wh

TonightI have a lot of women visitors tonight...it's sweet...but, how about a hello or something...or are you just checking me out?
And your rating me 5 is too cute!
Thanks : )

A Sad Society!In this day and age it's sad at how people still look at some of us and consider us to be outcasts. I have felt so out of place since I lost my legs. People look and point and stare not realizing how it feels to be different. Since I have come to CherryTap I have met some of the most wonderful people. Thank you for accepting into the family and for not judging me before you get to know me. You are all wonderful. I also want to thank sexydisabledman for inviting me.

Crazy Dream 2ok so i wake up like any normal morning in my room. everythings is basically in its place, thn i notice that im fully clothed. i ignored it as i go downstairs n c my dad n stepmom, patti, sittin on the couch drinkin their coffee. i say hi 2 them, but they dont respond. so i go n stand in the middle of the living room n say it again, n they still dont respond. theyre lookin at me, but it feels like theyre lookin thru me. thn it all goes black...
...thn i find myself at codys place. in his room. n theres cody n risa just sittin there, n risas cryin. codys holdin her n i said, "whats wrong?" n they dont respond. cody says, "risa its ok. hes got something better now maybe. besides he mightve wanted it this way." thn risa looks up n i c their eyes meet, n all risa had was a look of pure sorrow. thn everything blacks out again...
...thn i find myself in annies kitchen. annies leanin up against the counter w/ tears in her eyes as chanti n rachel r comfortin her. "annie its gonna b alrig

Thank You For Being My Friend !!!IN MY CIRCLE
When I was little, I used to believe in the concept of one best friend, and then I started to become an ADULT.
And then I found out that if you allow your heart to open up, it would show you the best in many friends.
One friend is needed when you're going through things with your spouse.
Another friend is needed when you're going through things with your parents.
Another will sit beside you in the bleachers as you delight in your children and their activities.
Another when you want to shop, share, heal, hurt, joke, or just be.
One friend will say, "Let's cry together,"
Another, "Let's fight together,"
Another, "Let's walk away together."
One friend will meet your spiritual need.
Another your shoe fetish,
Another your love for movies,
Another will be with you in your season of confusion,
Another will be your clarifier,
Another the wind beneath your wings.
But whatever their assignment in your life, on whatever the occasion, on whatever the da

Hypnotism1. Sit on a couch in the
upright
position and close your eyes and your arms at your side or in your lap.
Do not move around. Just sit there and relax for a minute.
2. Clear your mind of all
thoughts.
How do you do this?.... simply imagine a big Dumpster or a very large
metal
box on your mental screen. Then see it open and put all your thoughts
and
worries in it one by one.... bills... your lovelife.... problems....
your
children.... your job... everything you can think of. Then close the
lid
and lock it! Then push it off your mental screen.
3. Now sit there quietly
with
no thoughts for a minute. When you are ready to start... do not forget
to tell yourself as you go through each part of the body that you are
becoming
more and more relaxed as you go. YOU MUST TELL YOURSELF THIS!
4. Now... start with your
head....
imagine every part of your head relaxing... start with your eyes....
then
go to your ears.... the mouth... all your facial muscles. spend time
w

Woman's Care GardenWoman's Care Garden - Plus Herbal Remedie Recipes
Adapted from Herbal Remedy Gardens, by Dorie Byers.
These plants are beautiful when grouped together, and will provide women with some of the remedies they need.
The woman's care garden features potted herbs in willow or twig baskets of the appropriate size, placed in front of ground-planted fennel. One container holds the lemon balm and chamomile plants, the other contains the red clover. You can place Spanish moss on the surface and edges of each container that is nested in its basket to blend the edges and enhance the serenity of this spot.
Container Garden Plants
3 fennel
1 lemon balm
7 German chamomile
1 red clover
Here are recipes with which to use your herbs:
MONTHLY RELIEF TEA
Drinking this infusion will help relieve menstrual cramps, but take no more than 2-3 cups a day
2 teaspoons dried lemon-balm leaves
1 cup boiling water
Steep the leaves in the boiling water, covered, for 10 to 15 minutes. Strain, th

Love HurtsLOVE HURTS
My stomach turns when I think of you
And it makes me so sick
It hurts to get over someone you love so much
Sometimes it just makes you want to cry
Its when you love someone but they dont love you
And you love them so much it hurts
When someone makes you wait for an answer and you never get it
Or when they aren’t ready yet but you thought they were
That’s when love hurts
Its when you want them to notice you love them
And they ignore all the signs
But most of all when your with the one person you love for what seems like forever
And they just leave without looking back or saying good-bye
That’s when love really hurts
So I take this knife and stab it through your heart
And hope you never love again
Only because love hurts

Chapter 1Chapter One: Home Again
Tanner continued down the trail, pushing away the briers which over the years had attempted to take over the open space which the path provided. There were also parts of trees which had died since his last passing that lay across the narrow corridor. At times he had to stop and break or drag the old limbs out of his way, in order to get to where he was going. And after a few minutes of clearing the path once again, he was staring at his goal. Finally, his eyes caught sight of the one thing which brought him back on this quest. Sitting upon the outstretched branches of a huge red oak, were the remnants of what he remembered as the one place where his dreams came alive: The old tree house.
Time had taken it’s toll on the once mighty fortress. Bits and pieces of boards, all of which he had carried to this place were strewn upon the ground below, poking out of the years of leaves which tried to hide and reclaim the now moss covered and rotting lumber. T

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Bs!I know I don't post Blog's about my life and all...but I have to say this....
Damn life SUCKS at times! You know you think you have full and total control over your life then it goes to hell. BELIEVE ME!!!
1. I am sick of sordid drama. I really at times totally tired of it. You know it is ALWAYS around you....but I hate being in the middle of some fukked up situations.
2. People ragging on me....YES I get it all the time and I am tired of it. I am an adult that can take care of my own problems!! I don't need someone telling me what I can or can't do...Most times I just say "fuck off."
3. Poeple who say they can talk to them whenever you need to need it. Those people are nice but the ones who say you can come and talk to them you talk to them and TOTALLY blow you over....They can go away. I hate that!!
4. No one is expected to be perfect...SOO DON'T BE THE PERSON THAT SAYS YOU ARE....I KNOW YOUR NOT!!!
5. "Keep your friends close and your enimies closer" Yeah I know

Do You Like Horror Movies Check This Out Please!!A local guy named Don Varda, he worked on Prancer and some other movies is making a movie about a local woman who was alive a long time ago. She is a big part of our LaPorte history.
Her name was Bell Gunness.
Please go to this website and give a good review for him, it is going to be part of a reality show hosted by Steven Spielberg. Giving him good reviews will help him get a movie deal and win the TV show.
Please go watch it and vote now!!!
http://films.thelot.com/films/35532

Wiccan Terms
Some Traditional Wiccan Terms
1.
Altar - a
surface that has been prepared for the work of doing rituals and magick
2.
Amulet
- an object that
deflects negative energy. It is usually worn on the person.
3.
astral projection - the practice of separating the spirit from the body and having that
spirit move around the world.
4.
astrology
- the study of the stars and how their position affects personality and future
events
5.
Athame - a short ceremonial knife, sometimes with a double edged blade. It
is used to direct energy during the Wiccan rituals.
6.
autumnal equinox
- a day of the year in autumn when the night and day are of equal
length.

Girls OnlyWould you kiss me?
[] Hell Yea [] Yes [] No [] Maybe [] already have ;)
Would you ask me out?
[] Yes [] No [] Maybe
Am I attractive?
[] Heck no [ ] hot as Hell [] Fine [] Cute [] Okay [] Ugly!
Do you think I'm a virgin?
[] Yes [] No
I look like..
[] A player
[] a wife/husband
[] One time thing
[] Next bf/gf
[] A friend
[] A friend with benefits
[] A possibility
[] A loser
[] A stud
If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me?
[] Yes [] No [] maybe
Would you rather.. ??
[] Hook up with me
[] Cuddle with me
[] Date me
[] Friends
[] Friends with benefits
[] marry me
[] have sex
Would you let me kiss you??
[] Yes [] No [] Maybe
On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me..
[] 1 [] 2 [] 3 [] 4 [] 5 [] 6 [] 7 [] 8 [] 9 [] 10
What would you want me to be to you?
[] Friend
[] Girlfriend/Boyfriend
[] Friend with benefits
[] Husband/Wife
Are you going to repost this so i can answer for you?
[] Yes [] No
SEND THIS T

I BelieveBetter Way VideoBetter Way lyrics - Ben Harper lyricsBen Harper Music VideosMusic Video Codes by VideoCure I beleive there is a better way but it is going to take us the human race all of us we are all Gods children his creation if we can't get along here then how are we going to in the next World?to make it better we need to pull together not when bad times come around but all the time help one another , love one another through good & bad, ye I know I'm a dreamer so was John Lennon & Martin Luther King Hey somebody has to dream so the dream can come true so people what you say dream with me.

~~anger Management Program That Works~~--
An anger management program that works
When you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to
take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take
it out on someone you don't know.
I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd
forgotten to make. I found the number and dialed it. A man answered,
saying "Hello."
I politely said, "This is Chris. Could I please speak with Robyn Carter?"
Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear "Get the right f......ing
number!" and the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe
that anyone could be so rude. When I tracked down Robyn's correct
number to call! her, I found that I had accidentally transposed the
last two digits.
After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number
again.
When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled "You're an asshole!"
and hung up. I wrote his number down with the word 'asshole' next to
it, and put it in my de

Limp Bizkit - Break StuffIts just one of those days
When you dont wanna wake up
Everything is fucked
Everybody sucks
You dont really know why
But you wanna justify
Rippin someones head off
No human contact
And if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to just stay away motherfucker
Its just one of those days
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit
Lettin shit slip
Or youll be leavin with a fat lip
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit
Talking that shit
Its just one of those days
Feelin like a freight train
First one to complain
Leaves with the blood stain
Damn right Im a maniac
You better watch your back
Cause Im fuckin up your program
And then your stuck up
You just locked up
Next in line to get fucked up
Your best bet is to just stay away mother fucker
Its just one of those days
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit
Letting shit slip
Or youll be leavin with a fat lip

To A Whore You All Well Knowto my ex:
Ha, you try to hurt me, but i'm better than that. i took you in because you were so damn pitiful when i found you. and i raised you up from the shitty little hole. and as such, it is only suitable that i return you down to your class, you trash. you were just a charity case, like a sick puppy. i did string you along, played with you for a while, it was the least i could do to repay your kindness. I'm not the one to brag, but you were never in my league. so, with this i say goodbye, and return you to the shit hole where you will spend the rest of your life.
Your Baby,
Oz

True Best FriendsTrue Best Friends
Like a needle in a haystack,
true friends are hard to find.
That's why I'm so thankful that I can call you mine.
Whenever I need a shoulder you're there to catch my tears.
You've kept my many secrets,
Throughout the past four years.
You've been there through my afflictions,
You've witnessed my defeats.
I'll remember all the good times,
And pray the bad ones don't repeat.
With you my heart is honest,
but there's one thing I never told you.
Thank you for everything you've done
There's no one else like you.
No one that could ever be a
true "best" friend like you!

Angel In DisguiseAngel In Disguise
You're my angel in disguise
You read my soul with your eyes
Your spirit has entered my heart
And it's my hope we never part
For you are so special to me,
Without you, my heart would weep bitterly.
You're my angel in disguise
Your love comforts my cries
At night you guide me through the strife
And it is for that, my dear angel,
I owe you my life.

I Dare YouI Dare You
My eyes, deep in my eyes
You see the dream you dare to dream
The depth of our perception reflects the likeness of love
A love that catches the morning sun and holds it for only you
Waves of desire blanket our existence
Leaving you helpless to resist my searing will
Sprinkles of dew fall from our pleasure soaked bodies
Exploding together in a climax of embedded devotion
Follow me to the gate of everlasting essence…
For I will always love you…
by Jskins

If You Was My Man??1.)How many times a day would we fuk?
2.)How many times a day would you just want me to hold u?
3.)Would you take me places?
4.)Would you love me?
5.)If we went out on a date would you have me pay for it?
6.)Would you take me anywhere special?
7.)If I was sick...what would you do?
8.)After we had sex...what would you do?
9.)If one of my friends tried to get with you what would you do?
10.)Would you tell me?
11.)Would you listen to all my problems and help me solve them?
12.)Would you introduce me to your mom/dad?
13.)Would you care about what I wore when I went out ?
14.)Would you go to the club with me?
15.)If your friend tried to get with me what would you do?
16.)If someone tried to fight with me in front of you what would you do?
17.)If a Girl/Guy tried to talk or dance with you at the club what would you do?
18.)Would you give me your myspace password?
19.)If I gave you mine would you read al

Enjoy 2Scene 2
“Loving my Pet”
By HOllOW
Master works his way around the corners of the bed tying Acidalia to it with soft restraints. “Are you comfortable?” He asks. “Yes, sir.” She says in a soft tone. “Good.” Masters says intently. Reaching into the chest of drawers at the side of the bed, he pulls from the drawer a bullet vibrator and a bottle of lube. Acidalia asks, “What is that for, Master?” A brief silence filled the room; suddenly it is broken with sound of the bullet. As if a swarm of angry bees have entered the room. Feeling her master’s finger spread her labia exposing her clit to allow the vibrator in. The chill of the lube causes her body to react, pulling tight at the restraints. The intense vibrations make her legs jitter at first. Master finally says to her, “it is for you, pet.”
Reaching into the drawer once again, he pulls out a roll of red duct tape. Pulling off a good length and using his teeth to tear it from the roll. He pushes the

Sweet LullabyHundreds of Queens unseated from their throne
Falling onto green grass
So beautiful...almost like Christmas
Soaking into the Earth
Rain falls from the Hazel sky
A drop for each memory
Close to the stars flying over the world
Time slows to an unending halt
Just one voice, one moment
Sleep sings its lullaby
I dream one last dream
Before the night takes me
....Welcoming me...

Alone "to All That Try Cyber Love And Are Hurt By The Reality Of Loneliness "Alone
In that moment deep inside my Heart
My world is one of undeniable comfort
You are that object of a lifetime of yen
However,
Desire cannot replace fulfillment
For I am mostly left here alone
It is then that I feel the ripping of my soul in two
Such sorrow should never be endured at the expense of rapture
Searing pain as layers of trust are torn apart
My very core of hope dashed to disappointment
Inconceivable loneliness and despair,
Muscle into the place where dreams are stored
Their evil air choking out the last breath of my heart's virtue
As I try to hold on to the memory of loves last words
I feel my grip loosen and my fingers slip one by one
I am about to plunged to that place where hearts break
and dreams are destroyed.
As my last finger breaks and I am all but lost
I hear the twinkle of angels giving me the strength to pause
I pull myself up, up to the gates of hope
I look into the bright light and see the scripture that is you
You are here and

Hi Everyonemy husband is coming home next week and get on a plane on the 17th of next week. i hope he is home that day or 18th. I'm exticed about him being home again with me and the cats.

Deal With The DevilI have dilemma with the song "Hold On". This song as caused me nothing but Misery, but I still love the song. I guess to get where I am coming from I will have to take you back to the beginning of this horrific dilemma. Back when I was a senior in Highschool, about a month before "Hold On" hit the charts. A group of friends and myself would jump railroad tracks in cars, and other various motor vehicles , jump from moving vehicles , jump from trains, climb water towers, just all around juvenile antics, just think of the worst stunts from MTV's Jackass and there is a good chance we did it.. Being from a small town we can get by with a lot of juvenile behavior that would be stopped in the bigger cities, but for the town I grew up in this was normal behavior or it was until the end of my senior year. The poepoe (cops) decided to crack down on what has been going on for decades in my hometown, making my group of friends and me to come up with alternative ways to continue doing all of our ju

Hungryhungry for time
open time
dripping sweat
with you
hungry for time
where the air
is sucked dry
by our laughter
together
hungry for time
where the quiet
was sweet
and sultry
hungry for time
skin time scarred, bruised
bloodied, surveyed
aching seduction
hungry for time
of long drives
and long talks
and simple touches
hungry for time
searching for more
lusting for now
demanding the pulse
testing your flesh

PhotostuffsUntil a friend returns an e-mail in which I asked her specifically for permission to use an image she made for me on another site (and allowed me to use on another, but that didn't nec. translate to use elsewhere), I'm putting it in a private folder. (Also took one image out of that private folder and back into default; I thought it had been destroyed and unreadable and almost deleted it, but the server, it turns out, was only having, well, image delivery issues at the time. Looking again now, it's relatively fine.)

Distant SoundsDistant sounds can be beautiful and frustrating. In dreaming, they may just be rounding out the scene in the suconscious. For example, dreams of beaches or boats may include requisite sounds effects such as waves, fog horns, or birds.
Sometimes, distant sounds can create a foreboding feeling as well. Some sounds, such as thunder or shouting, may be frustrating because they appear without an apparent source in the dream. These sounds can be alluring and cause you to search, or create a warning that circumstances are changing. Sometimes, you may feel that the sounds are a distinctive message you should be able to understand.
These sounds are sometimes just for us, other characters in the dream may not be hearing them or responding to them at all. Sometimes, the message is clear to others, but obscure to us. In waking, you may be feeling a disparity between others about a situation they feel is dangerous that you have assurance about or vice versa. You may also perceive others as more

One Kiss To Ignite UsOne Kiss To Ignite Us
I want a kiss that last forever
One that will bond our souls together
A kinship to blast the stars into space
The lasting touch of your hands on my face
Billions of tiny wave filled fires
Exploding inside, unify our desires
As one we will love until the end of existence
Nothing can diminish our eternal persistence
I will not leave you, not now not ever
Our spiritual connection can never be severed
You are the answer to all of my prayers
The One with whom I will always share
My passion filled vision of epic worth
To be the happiest couple alive on this earth
Nothing will ever get in our way
Stop us from living the dreams we portray
One Kiss to ignite us, a time to rejoice
Please close your eyes, and hear my voice
Believe in my love, it is only for you
Today and tomorrow, it will always be true
By Jskins

Just Need An God Answerhow come nice guys finish last. when woman say your a nice guy somtimes i feel that is there way of saying your a loser i want the thug guy. what is it about nice guys that woman dont like is it that we treat you woman to nice and you are not use to it. i just kinda wanted an explaintion cause nice guys need to be first and not last on the list like the caveman

Tra La LaThe question I manage to avoid by having no friends is this, "Are you the attractive one or the ugly friend?"

Confusion?HAVE YOU EVER BEEN CONFUSED?
I dont mean momentarily puzzled. I mean confused! Sometimes it feels as if my whole life has been spent this way,,, my head saying one thing,,, my heart another,,, my hormones saying everything at top volume at 10,000 feet per second.
You get to where you dont listen to anything or anyone after awhile, because it is soo much easier to go with the flow.
Of course the opposite side of that coin is to over-control and live life like a stiff piece of concrete that is safe from everything except the ravages of time and the elements,,, and also cannot feel anything....
Would you like to know which is worse?..... Neither.... Whats worse is being tossed between the two like a rag doll,,, without choice,, without being asked,, without anyone seeming to care about the way your mind and soul are ravaged by these things, All anyone sems to care about is wether you will entertain them well enough, or defend them well enough, or be smart enough, So you make them fee

Mother's Day Contest Begins Thursday April 12thThe Free 30day Mother’s Day Giveaway is about to begin, it will start at 6pm Pacific Time on Thursday April 12th 2007
The Grand Prize is a 30 day blast
Second Place is a 7 day blast
Third Place is a 3 day blast
Fourth Place is a 1 day blast
Below are the links to everyone’s pictures and following that are the way that the prizes will be given away.
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE.

What Is It?what is it to give of yourself and ask nothing in return?
What is it to please without being pleased?
What is it to hold one close with out being held?
what is it to hold one up when you are down?
what is it to be there when needed even when they are not there for you?
what is it to do as asked without question?
What is it to help them when they are helpless knowing they would not do the same for you?
What is it when you let them cry on your shoulder when you have no shoulder to cry on?
What is sacrifice?
All of these things have one answer.
LOVE - Plain and simple! When a heart truley loves, it does all of these things and never worries about the payment in return.

Red X Issue Still Remainshi ya all PLEASE forgive me and dont remove me as a fan of your or freind family member , the RED X issue is frustrating me day by day doing all i can contactingmyInternet provider and Cherrytap Support to have the mater fixed ,please understand its out of my control i will keep all up dated on any advance made ...BTW Srapper (ryan) is a GREAT guy ya alland desrve the hightest respect for the work he's putting in
aplaud you mate honestly

Destination Solitude ( For Those Of You Who Like The Dark Side)Destination Solitude
I'm just a shell of myself
With a busted heart
Fall back to Earth
Faith blown apart
Your fear at the helm
Direct course, misery
My soul is crushed
I see no vacancy
My hands are open
Your heart is closed
Insecurities have been exposed
My foot, placed inside the door
I peek inside just before
You look at me, then slam it shut
One less way to kick your butt
Severed like our connection of fate
Too much pain is on your plate
So surprised I’m not the one
You have made that clear
Go have your fun
I will skip this pointless feud
Destination solitude
I remember this place
Such familiar pain
Curl up in a ball
Now I’ll remain
In my cavern of darkness
Free to roam
It’s so nice to feel at home
Thought I was different
What a fool
To think you would learn
At my heart school
The agony of defeat
I should have ducked
You connected to my heart
Now I’m Fucked
Why can’t you see?
How precious is time
Wanting to Love you
Is that such

Why Women Are So Crabby!We started to "bud" in our blouses at 9 or 10 years old only to find that anything that came in contact with those tender, blooming buds hurt so bad it brought us to tears. So came the ridiculously uncomfortable training bra contraption that the boys in school would snap until we had calluses on our backs.
Next, we get our periods in our early to mid-teens (or sooner). Along with those budding boobs, we bloated, we cramped, we got the hormone crankies, had to wear little mattresses between our legs or insert tubular, packed cotton rods in places we didn't even know we had.
Our next little rite of passage (premarital or not) was having sex for the first time which was about as much fun as having a ramrod push your uterus through your nostrils (IF he did it right and didn't end up with his little cart before his horse), leaving us to wonder what all the fuss was about.
Then it' was off to Motherhood where we learned to live on dry crackers and water for a few months

Xs Magazine ContestHmmm - just got this email today: You need to be a member of this site to vote for me and I think you can only vote once... but what do I know... I didn't even know I was in this contest until today - lol!!!
http://www.xsmagazine.com/modelsearch/modelprofile.php?uid=1744
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Biopsy Results.The results are in... (warning.. icky feminine stuff below)
I dont have cancer (yet). We may have caught it early enough, but my family history(uterine cancer) is definately catching up to me quick. My Doctor is refering me to an oncologist and a surgan. I'll probably be having surgery to remove the polyps and surrounding tissue. From there, more biopsys. Or, I could opt to have a total hysterectomy. I'll know more once I meet with the specialists.
It really is going to be up to me and what I want. Do I just go for the hysterectomy and be done like my mother, grandmother, and great grandmother did? Or do I have the cells removed and end up having to go back for rechecks and more D&C's like my sister has been doing for the last three years? Granted, what shes been doing had prevented cancer from actually forming, but I've also watched her ger worse over the years.. Heavier, longer lasting, more painfull periods..ect. I mean, I already have the heavy and painfull periods.. do I r

Omfg I Hate My Dad!why does my dad have to be such an asshole?? its not fair...all of you who have parents who are still married....or if ur dad isnt a drug addict/alcoholic.....
YOU ARE LUCKY
to the rest of us....life sucks....im still trying to adjust to the fact that life is soo fucked up.

In His Arms ......tonightSighing, I dropped my babydoll jammies on the bed and walked, naked into the bathroom, where the shower was steaming up the mirror. Slender arms reach up and undo my hairclasp, sending auburn tresses cascading down my back. Sticking my tongue out at the mirror's image, I turned, pulling the white lace curtain back and slipped inside.
Leaning my face into the warm spray, I close my eyes and think of him. Slowly, I turn to lean against the cool glass blocks, my body's heat sighing at the comforting coolness. I drop my head back as my hair teases my ass, soaking up the warm water. Twisting my hair over one smooth shoulder, I lean down to pick up a bar of french milled soap, lightly scented, and slowly soap one long leg and then the other.
My hands move between my legs, laving my pussy and then up over my belly, leaving a wet, soapy trail of fragrant suds. Closing my eyes, my hands move over my breasts, leisurely soaping them, rosy nipples hardening to the touch. Turning, dropping

Which Heart Is Yours?There are two types of hearts in this world.
Some are like glass and some are hard as stone.
The glass heart is delicate and fragile like fine crystal.
It is not weak or shallow yet it is not meant to be played with.
When light hits it, it exudes a brilliance all its own and compares to nothing else.
The light they reflec touches everyone it comes in contact with.
The Glass heart reflects beauty and love, peace and kindness.
These hearts are made to be cherished and set apart from all others.
If you have the good fortune to meet this special heart, be careful not to break it.
The broken heart turns to a heart of stone.
It becomes cold, dark, and course.
It cannot comfort, light no longer penetrates it.
It has nothing left to reflect.
Hate and bitterness darken it.
A heart without love is nothing!

Hiim really sorry if i dont respond or if i respond really slowly but im just getting used to how this whole things works lol
thanks for great welcome tho

What It TakesWhat It Takes
You have what it takes to make an ordinary day into a great one that will always be remembered.
For what it takes is nothing more than the willingness to live every moment like it will never come again.
You have what it takes to transform small, easily performed actions into great accomplishments.
For what it takes is nothing more than the persistence to make one small step, and then another,
and another, until the job is done.
You have what it takes to make every moment better than the one before.
For what it takes is nothing more than choosing to learn all you can from both the victories and the defeats.
You have what it takes to live a life of meaning and fulfillment.
For what it takes is nothing more than committing yourself, in each moment,
to what you know is right for you.
You have what it takes to move beyond your fears.
For what it takes is the understanding that fear is not there to stop you, but to prepare you.
You have w

The Extent Of The Damage.AIGHT, SO AS SOME OF YOU MAY KNOW, I RUN A VINTAGE MOVIE AND CULT VAULT VIDEO SHOP.RECENTLY IT GOT BROKEN INTO BY CRACKHEADS. NOW BACKGROUND IS THIS, I DISAPPEAR TO FLORIDA FOR A LITTLE BIT, WHILE I WAS AWAY ONE OF MY STORE EMPLOYEES THAT I THOUGHT WAS LOYAL, DECIDED TO LET HIS CRACKHEAD FRIENDS TALK HIM INTO DISARMING MY SECURITY SYSTEM SO THEY COULD JACK MERCHANDISE THAT THEY WOULDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH. LITTLE ABOUT MY SHOP. I'M SORTA LIKE AN AUCTION DEALER. VERY LITTLE IN MY SHOP IS DIRECT PRICED. I DEAL IN CLASSICS AND VINTAGE. MEANING I HAVE TO FIND DEALERS AND SUPPLIERS WHO CARRY THINGS I COULD NEVER BUY FULL PRICE. I GIVE THEM ABOUT 10PERCENT OF WHAT THE PRODUCT IS WORTH, SELL IT TO TRUE MOVIE FREAKS. THEY GET MOST OF THE CASH I GET A COULD PERCENTAGE. I DO THIS WITH POSTERS, DVD'S, VHS, EVEN STR8 FILM REELS. MOVIE PROPS, PRETTY MUCH ANYTHING A MOVIE JUNKY WOULD FIEND OVER. THESE FUCKS BROKE INTO MY SHOP STOLE THE DVD'S, COMPUTER, PLASMA SCREEN MONITORS, AND TRASHED ABOUT EVE

Best Dude I Ever Beefed With.. Rest In Peace. Save A Seat And Throw In A Good Word To The Higher One For Me..I seldom do things like this but heres the story..November
2006 me and this cat got into a beef that pretty much pitted a website
called cherrytap.com aginast myself, EOT, Everyone i knew. I won the
battle with No Mercy which was released long before this incindent but
heres the story..Quote:WE
LOST A GREAT FRIEND AND BROTHER THIS EASTER WEEKEND HIS 4 YEAR FIGHT
WITH CONGESTIVE HEART FAILURE HE LEAVES BEHIND HIS SON ANTHONY JR HIS
GIRLFRIEND LISA HIS MOTHER IN CALIFORNIA AND HIS SISTERHE LEAVES BEHIND SOME OUTRAGEOUS ARTWORK AND A LOT OF GOOD TIMES AND LAUGHTERI SPENT TIME REAL LIFE TIME WITH TONY AND HIS SON HE WAS A GIANT WITH A GIANT HEARTTHIS
IS HOW SHORT LIFE IS FOLKS IT COMES AND GOES IN A BLINK HE WAS STILL A
KID 32 YEARS AIN'T LONG ENOUGH TO CALL IT AN ENTIRE LIFE BUT THE MAN
SURE AS HELL TRIED HE LIVED THE YEARS BEFORE HIS STROKE RIDING HIS
HARLEY AND DOING HIS TATTOOS LIVING THE WAY HE WANTEDHE HAD A MASS STROKE THE WEEK HIS SON WAS BORN AND HAS BEEN IN POOR HEALTH

About My Blogsmy blogs are NOT intended to upset, offend, insult, or dig at anyone! get this in and through your heads!!!!! i write to vent and i am having a tough time right now dealing with my health and my life changes that are imminent!!!! IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT I WRITE THEN DON'T READ MY BLOGS!!

Stray Thoughtsi have done everything i can to heal this wound.
yet i cling to it, as if my very identity depends upon it.
and so i have done nothing to heal this wound.

Shoutbox Trouble?I'm have trouble.
Anyone else haven't trouble tonight? I hear the shout sound but I'm not getting the message.

Distant In Time As Days Fade To BlackI looked within today and was blinded but not by the light that I was told that is meant to linger within. I was blinded with eyes wide and gazing upon the shadows that were masked in the Darkened drewy forests slowly withering upon the sands as time timidly spin forth.
Taking in being terified of what I discovered, outward I turned and finding only love tainted with lies and barbfull lust as is sears into the depths of those fallen for its desierable surface. How horrible to be caught up in such a trap...
Feelings that surface
Emotions that folly
Heart to pieces it lays.
All I've known to be so horrid as it consumes the slightest hope that screams "TAINT THY SELF NOT THY HEART" but in the end all becomes nothing. As it takes control time becomes only of a thought. Own days become hidden behind walls of no insight of reality...blackened moons engulp the skies and false happiness ensues...
Blackened days
Darkened nights
Hope lost
Someone drain blood from thy veigns
te

Guestbook And Voice Commentshey everyone i am puttin a guest book and voice comment thing on my page while i am redoin it wouild love to hear from everyone and have every one sign my guessbook/map hope to see ya all on there take care and have a good night

Going To BedI am tired...
I have to work tomorrow..
Nighty night night

StrangeThe world is full of strange, unwashed and naked people.
They all live next door.

Last Danceif i had known that dance would have been the last i would have cherished it for all it was worth
if i had known that would be the last time i would look into your eyes i would have melted that day
had i known you would leave so suddenly i would have held you a little closer
as we danced our last dance i could smell the sweetness of your skin and felt the strength in your arms
you held me up never let me fall
that last dance could have lasted a lifetime
the music played and i fell deeper in trance with your movements
if i had known it would be our last dance i would have held on forever
if i had known that would be the end i would have told you then that i loved you instead of now that it's too late
take with you my heart because its with you and forever with our last dance

My Friends Repost For A Friend....I'm doing this for one of my friends as requested.
No offense but...People are getting too lazy on here. So I gave in, let's see who will actually read this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own bulletin. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Repost this if you are a friend.. Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as ...My so called friends...

A Friend IsA friend is one of the nicest things you can have,
And one of the best things you can be.
A friend is a living treasure,
And if you have one, you have one of
The most valuable gifts in life.
A friend is the one who will always be beside you,
Through all the laughter,
And through each and every tear.
A friend is the one thing you can always rely on;
The someone you can always open up to;
The one wonderful person who always believes
In you in a way that no one else seems to.
A friend is a sanctuary.
A friend is a smile.
A friend is a hand that is always holding yours,
No matter where you are,
No matter how close or far apart you may be.
A friend is someone who is always there
And will always, always care.
A friend is a feeling of forever in the heart.
A friend is the one door that is always open.
A friend is the one to whom you can give your key.
A friend is one of the nicest things you can have,
And one of the best things you can be.

Kgr#59 - Knicks News/racial Mombo JumboHOLY HELL is this a different Game Review. Hell it is not even a game review.For this KGR Houston goes over:-Knicks Injuries-Post Season Style KGR-East Playoff Race-Don Imus' "racial" comment/Houston take on itVote for Knicks Game Reviews on PodcastAlley.comRate us on Pod-Planet.comDigg us on Digg.com.Email comments(audio or text)to knickssitelinks@yahoo.com and it will probably make it onto the show!!http://www.garageband.com/mp3/KGR59_Knicks_News_Racial_Stuff.mp3

Here I Am...much Better!!Ok so just to update all... my daughter and I are doing great. We are finally back in our own place. I have a really good job. I build lights for military and commercial planes and and no not just lights for reading. Look up LSI.com or luminescents.com and that is what we build.
Other then that we are just living for us.
So hope everyone is doing as well as we are
ttyl,
Brandi

Ending Itstepped closer to the edge as i watched my life flash
a cold chill running down my spine
i look up and wait for a sign to stop
to not make that jump
memories flood with anger and hate
push them out and start again...
im stepping closer 1 foot over the edge as i get ready to make a final jump out of this life and begin another
take my jump and soar through the open air
my mind is racing as rock bottom is coming
close my eyes and wait for the hit
rock bottom ive fallen out my own life into a new world one that maybe does want me

Im A Fun Flirt....hmmmYou Are a Fun Flirt
You just can't help yourself... you flirt with everyone you know.
Guys, girls, crushes, and friends. They're all victims to your charm.
You're into silly innuendos, sexy jokes, and playful touches.
You are a huge flirt, yet you never make anyone (too) uncomfortable!
What Kind of Flirt Are You?

R.i.p Our Dearest FriendThis blog is a tribute to a wonderful man you probably know him as fat tony.. most of you knew tony as the owner of damage inc radio right here on the tap, but for those of you who didnt know him he was a great person with a VERY kind heart, he would help anyone that needed it & he was the sweetest! i dont know anyone who could say an unkind word about him as there is nothing bad to say, he was a father, a son, a brother, a friend & he will forever remain in our hearts. I do know one thing while we all mourn the loss of a very good friend, that we will all miss dearly. we must remember that tony is no longer suffering and thats the best thing any of us could've asked was for his pain to go away... R.I.P Tony you will never be forgotten!
This poem has always seemed to make me smile when ive lost someone i love to know there is another chance, we will one day meet again
~If Tears Could Build a Stairway~
If tears could build a stairway,
And memories were a lane,

Please Read Very Important!!!!!!!!PLEASE COMMENT YOUR THOUGHTS !!!!!!!!!! EXCUSE ME if this sounds rude but enough is enough!!! This is for men and woman reading this hear me out! If you can not be a real person and be the person you really are because you are sitting behind a computer and you think you will never meet the other person you are talking to than leave immediately~ cause my thoughts are only God knows that! I think everyone comes in paths of each other for a reason!!!!! I am a true person one of those very few that are left! I believe in truth, friendship, love, joy, happiness and most of all value as a person!!! I have a very dear male friend on this web site that got very hurt by a cold hearted witch of a woman and I think it is sickening to have to do that to a person! I also have meet a few very nice and sincere people on here! And you all know who you are and thank you for that! You know my thoughts are a friendship on the internet should be a better one than if you were to meet in a bar or clu

A Good Nights RestOh I should have a hotel room for the rest of the week and it will be so wonderful to not have to worry if I am staying in the shop. A real bed to sleep in and tv and as many long hot showers/baths I want.

The Unsaid GoodbyeDO NOT RIP!!
When you lose someone you are very close to, it's hard to pick up the pieces and move on, especially if you never had the chance to tell that person goodbye. I lost someone very close to me, and at the time, I didn't realize I gave up the opportunity to tell him goodbye. Because of this, the guilt and regret from those unspoken words left, to say the least, a huge void in my heart.
My Uncle Jimmy was the person I favored most in the world. He had a warm and gentle heart, and he would do anything for anybody. I loved being with him because to me, he was just a big kid at heart. We would go to the movies, play cards for hours, and just laugh about everything. Never in my life could I have imagined being without him. Somehow I thought he would always be there.
The last day I saw my uncle was on July 7, 1995. He had come up from Alabama to visit his parents and me, and on that certain day, he was going into Pennsylvania, to see some friends. As He

Servey For All Females!!! Your Reply Needed!!SUREVEY FORALL FEMALES I need to know something and you all can tell me!!! Send me a message to my inbox and tell me what you think!!! I need to know if this is true or false!!! The thing is that it can be concidered gross, nasty and sick!!! Ive also been told that its a turn on to some!!! So bellow is what I am looking for and need to know!!! All names are confidentual and not to be known by anyone else on what was said!!!!!Would you go to the bathroom on someone?Piss? Shit? Both?Were would you go to the bathroom on them at?Face? Mouth? Ch

For You Master...for My Real Life Collaring YesterdayToday, Tomorrow, and Forever...
I give myself to thee,
In body, mind, and spirit...
In you I am set free.
My gift to you is given...
With trust and love inside,
And I know that you will teach me,
And always be my guide.
As we grow together day by day,
And walk the path of life...
Together we will make it through
The good times and the strife.
I will proudly wear your collar
And know that I am blessed,
To have you as my Master;
To be chosen from the rest.
On our special day together...
Kneeling before you as I will do,
My wrists crossed in acceptance,
My submission given to you.
My head is down, eyes lowered,
I hear you call my name...
I look up at you--our eyes meet,
In you I know no shame.
You hold the collar before me
And place it on my neck,
I feel the coldness of the steel
And then I hear the click.
As you gather the leather for my wrists,
And I feel the ties that bind...
I know that now I belong to you
And will proudly walk behind.
Y

Who Doesnt Like Sex Toys?Every woman should introduce herself to Sex Toys as every marriage or relationship can gain intimacy and communication by slowly adding these wonderous items to your repertoire of sexual play! Many women and men are scared of toys as they think they are being replaced or it will feel funny, let me tell you it does not and it will not!! Want to check out some great info about toys and different types of adult products?? Check out www.redskyone1.yourpassionconsultant.com
There are lots of great products here to help you build and strengthen your relationships and add to your own knowledge of how to keep yourself and your significant other happy!!

My HeartI place in your hands my very being,
I close my eyes and without seeing,
I give to you,
my heart.
As you wrap me in the warmth of your love,
I shall never place another above,
I give to you,
my heart.
With all the knowledge I have within my soul,
I know tis you who will make me feel whole,
I give to you,
my heart.
With all that I feel for you, trust, faith and surrender,
It is within your power, you bring about this feeling of splendor,
I give to you,
my heart.
For over the years it has been told,
stories of love lost and hearts left cold.
Here I tell you of love found by few,
And the joy that is brought to the soul,
when love is anew,
I give to you,
my heart.

Curiousity......take A Look.......Would you makeout with me?
[] Hell Yea [] Yes [] No [] Maybe [] already have ;)
Would you sleep with me?
[] In an instant! [] Yes [] No [] Maybe
Am I attractive?
[] Heck no [ ] hot as Hell [] Fine [] Cute [] Okay [] Ugly!
Do you think I'm a virgin?
[] Yes [] No
I look like..
[] A player
[] a wifey/hubbie
[] One time thing
[] Next bf/gf
[] A friend
[] A friend with benefits
[] A possibility
[] A loser
[] A stud
If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me?
[] Yes [] No [] maybe
Would you rather.. ??
[] Hook up with me
[] Cuddle with me
[] Date me
[] Friends
[] Friends with benefits
[] marry me
[] have sex
On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me..
[] 1 [] 2 [] 3 [] 4 [] 5 [] 6 [] 7 [] 8 [] 9 [] 10
What would you want me to be to you?
[] Friend
[] Girlfriend/Boyfriend
[] Friend with benefits
[] Husband/Wife
Would you give me a lap dance?
[] Hell Yea [] Yes [] No [] Maybe
Are you going to repost this so i ca

Best For YouTo see the sparkle in your eyes
And feel the warmth of your touch,
You have me under your spell of love
With you I have grown so much.
You are my Master, lover, friend, and confidant
And I have given myself to you completely,
I know that all my tests of will,
Sometimes cannot be handled sweetly.
I hope that you never give up on me,
For without you I cannot live.
My dream is to travel life's path with you
And learn all you have to give.
In good times and in sad times
I hope that you will always know,
You keep me going day to day
In all you do and show.
You are the air I breathe,
And the very beat of my heart,
With you I see so many new things,
Even when we are apart.
You have so much to offer
You are such a compassionate man,
Strength and honor are your name,
With kindness and patience going hand in hand.
Master, please know how much I love you
As I know how much you love me,
With your guidance and protection,
I want to be the best for you I can be

Great LossWell I just found out today that two people i know fairly well were killed in Iraq . these two men were stationed at NAS Whidbey Island , with EOD . I got to know them when i was in the NAVY . And i am deeply saddned by this loss . My prayers go out to their famillies . I have many friends still in and over there fighting for us , and to tell you the truth i wish we would bring all our boy the fuck home !!!!!!!!!! we are lossing way to many for no reason !!!!!

The Name GameOk here are the Rules in a coment on this blog you have to write my name like this
K
A
R
A
and beside each caplized letter put a word you think descrbes me, Example
Kind...so on and so forth.
Have fun.

Never EndingThough times have changed and we have moved on my love is never ending for you. Times may change and years may go by but that will never stop my heart growing love for you. Days go by and months go by and yet I still think of you. Throughout the day and throuout the nights I think of you..I will always love you..My love is never ending for you..

I Dunnoboth feet in the grave all I need is to fall, that one last slip
A teetering in my subconscious, a screaming inside me that need to get said.
There's never an easy way out
Take a deep breath and close it up, speaking only makes it worse,
reliving my own personal hell daily, my punishment for breathing.

Yoursi once looked in the mirror and thought i knew
who was looking back at me..
who I saw really did scare me...
lurking in the back was what I truly wanted to be ..
captive and free for all to see..
i tried to hide it for oh so long..
but now here i am collared...and feel this is where i truly belong..forever...eternally..Yours...

I Miss Youi Love and Adore You so....
i am Missing You terribly...
my heart is aching...
i feel my life empty
without You....
being before ...being in
Your presence..brings such joy
to my heart...stirs such passion
within my body....
how i long to be kneeling
before You...Master...
Your loving embrace brings
me to my center...
for You are my center ..Master...
Your passionate kisses...fills my
soul with such desires...
You take my very breath away...
You fill me so...
You renew me so...
You bring me to such bliss..
i thought could never exist...
i so wish to fulfill You ..Master
drive Your lusts..
fed Your hunger..
devour Your desires...
embrace Your Love
surrender to Your needs
of complete Ownership...
Master ..i so Need You...
take me ..use me..control
every ounce of my being...
mold me to Your desires...
holding me in Your loving embrace
where no one can seperate us..
no one can hurt us ..
no one can stop us ..
from being who we truly are...

My So Called FriendsI'm doing this for one of my friends as requested.
No offense but...People are getting too lazy on here. So I gave in, let's see who will actually read this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own bulletin. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Repost this if you are a friend.. Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as ...My so called friends...

Loveonce i was lost...
a lost soul...
thought left to wander
in sadness pain and despair
then a light was shone unto me
a hope..a love...
unconditional...unabiddening
unrentless..driving
the light became stronger within
each passing day..
that light is You Master..
for You have shown me a new way
and brought me back to life..
resurrected the living dead...
You have raised me up and
let my freedom soar...
deep within my submission
in Your Ownership and Love...
i have renewed hope...unfound trust
untold lusts..reawakened desires..
a bliss within me .. i feel
that You allow me to have..
a true sense of being...
unconditional Love...
such overwhelming feelings..
such a blessing from above..
Your Ownership ..is my blessing
i grow in this everyday..
i will strive my best..to serve
and please you in everyway...

FriendshipFriendship is a Priceless Gift
That cannot be bought or sold,
But its value is far greater than
A mountain made of gold.
For gold is cold and lifeless,
It can neither see nor hear.
And in our times of trouble
It is powerless to cheer.
It has no ears to listen,
Nor heart to understand.
It cannot bring you comfort,
Or reach out a helping hand.
So when you ask God for a gift,
Be thankful if He sends
Not Diamonds, Pearls or Riches,
But The Love Of Real True Friends!

It Hurts So MuchToday I attended the funeral. The funeral of Momma Rose. I watched my best friend. Break down in way I have never seen before. I watched family memebers. I never really get along with. Shake my hand, then tell me they were extremely happy I was there. My father stood right by my side. During the whole event. Trying to be a father to me. Try to pay respect to a woman he respected so much as well. Yet I still felt alone and lost. Looking at her coffin. Telling myself. Why did sucj a wonderful hard working woman. Have to leave us. Why did I lose my rock. Why did I lose the only one that truely understood. The one person I admired and looked up to the most. Why is she gone? Why why why? Asking myself inside. Will I ever be the adopted son in her that will make her proud? Will I ever live up to the degree and hopes she had for me. Who do I go to now for all my problems. Whos words do I listen too. Then hearing so many walk up to me and say that it meant so much for me to be there. The outsp

My Nightly PrayerMaster....
i Love and Adore You so...
Master...my nitely prayer has/is growing with time ..like our union of souls : )
i fear no other power...for Master is always near..
He is my Saviour..
He is my guiding light..
He is my life ..
He is my will..
He possess my soul..
He engulfs my mind..
He enflames my heart..
He consumes my body...
He is my Protector..
He is my Teacher..
He is my Mentor...
He is my Lover..
He is my Friend..
He is my True Master..
He owns me completely..
i am His eternal slave..
i have no wants or needs...
only the deep desire to strive
my best to fulfill all of Masters
needs and desires completely..
for He is my true happiness..
my every reason for living and loving
so completely..Master..
i thank You .. Master
for all the gifts that You
have given to me..
the gift of rediscovery of my true
inner being..
for accepting my submission to You
for claiming and collaring me
as Your submissive/slave
the gift of freedom within

I May Be Deleted AgainJust a heads up, I am writing babyjesus this:
I just wanted to stop by and thank you for deleting my account. I didn't know that voicing an opinion in the form of leaving a comment saying "x marks the spot" in protest of timing out while rating pics was a reason to have my account deleted. However, it is ok to have people steal my pics and make an account with my pic on it with a nasty name on it.
I have referred people to this site and have defended this site and talked my friends out of leaving because the one thing I thought was that at least you can be heard here. Being an adult site I thought that voicing opinions was part of what this site was about. I have spent money on blasts here and worked hard on my page and to have it taken away, without so much as a warning, let's me know that this is not the place I thought it was.
There are some wonderful people on here, and within a matter of an hour my new account is now at a level 7. That says alot about the good people on h

My Love, My HeartMy love my heart stays with one person that cares and shows no matter what is going on in our life he is there for me ...Each moment that i think of things that have gone on and that he stands at my side i love him more and more each day. I stand at his side with deep pasion and respect for him and no matter what i love him with all that we have for each other
Im cloeing now talk to u all later
~* Mandie *~

Booty Call EtiqueteIf you are ready this blog I assume you know what a booty call is. If not sign out now, lol
Anyway here is a question that every person has running through their mind at some point in the BC game.. like
If the bc's become more frequent , then what?
Answer get together once a week with a scheduled once a week cancel at the last minute thing is all you need, that way youre getting it once a week ALLLL NIGHHTT, you get to fantasize about the next time but at the last minute bail. keeps it to just weekly game with or without (your choice) the potiental for more if you want it.
Moral of the story always carry a spare, but if the spare rides well then keep' em... AND TREASURE THEM FOREVER

My Endless Search Starts AgainAs I sit alone facing my computer search the web for something I need, that I desire never finding the search goes on and on.
Night comes and the sun set around me, I am trap in the dark, alone always alone.
My family leaves me alone to search the web, looking but never finding.
Escaping from reality, I hide in this dark room searching but, I never find what I am searching for.
Click clock time goes by, Endless time and still; I can’t find what I am looking for.
Endless chat rooms and cyber lounges; I chat and lie trying to be who I am not.
I am searching for what I already have, so I turn off my computer and Huge
My 3 Little angles,
I was given exactly what I needed, now im not alone ,but still searching for that one Angle who can complete me ..
My endless search starts again, as I sit her alone once again searching.
Are you my angle I am searching for? Please I scream with all my desire please, be the one I need so I won’t half to sit all alone.

I Love HookahI just want to know who else likes hookah. I love hookah myself and love it more than any other tobacco product in this world. I got into it summer of last year. My first time doing it was tough but i managed to like it after a while. the more flavors they come out the more i love it.

Apr. 10, 2007"Pessimism never won any battle."
~Dwight D. Eisenhower."

Every Timeevery time
i fall in love
i get hurt
every time
i fall in love
my world falls apart
every time
i fall in love...
or did i?
ha

Would You Fight For Mesend this to someone you truely like.but be honest and dont lie.
you might just like the answers.
1.if someone hurt me what would you do?
2.big tits or small?
3.what do you like most about me?
4.whats something funny you remember about us?
5,if i said i was falling in love with you what would you say?
6.are you afraid of realationships?
7.have you ever been in love?
8.do you think your a pimp?
9.do you always use condoms?
10.who was the hottest girl in school?
11.if you could tell me something what would it be?
12.do you think we would be good together?
13.would you give it all up for me?
14.whats the first thing you noticed about me?
15.do you want to get married ever?
16.whats love to you?
17.if i got pregnant what would you do?
18.would you kiss a person you didnt like?
19.would you have sex with a girl/guy you didnt really like?
20. do you

Love Or LustLust is when a person has a strong sexual desire for someone. Love is feeling romantic and most of the time, sexually attracted to someone who is important to you.
How can you make the difference between love and lust ? Love embraces a person as a whole entity. This means that when in love, you feel like seeing the loved one often. You miss that person when you haven't seen him/her for a long time, you care about the things he/she likes or dislikes in life, in general. You want that person to be happy. When you love someone you want him/her close to you and sometimes, it means to express this love within a sexual activity but it can also mean to simply show your affection, your tenderness toward him/her.
When a person lust after someone, it means he/she is mainly interested in having sex with him/her. There is less care about how the other feels in other parts of his/her life. A person who lusts after you will not show a lot of interest in what you do for a living, what are your ho

#1you know it bugged me that people would come on my page and rate a pic of mine a 4 or a 7. but 2 people just droped a 1 on my pic. stupid bastards. look if you don't like someones pic thats cool but you are trying to be insulting and you are just stupid get over your self. if you feel you have to rate a pic of me a 1 cool. i am not trying to date you so stasy the hell off my page.oh yeah late at night when you are whacking off to internet porn that is me laughing at you.

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Ok Bad News,please Readto all those wh know me i may not be on as much ay more as of right now iam being told i may have to have surgry on my bck due to a sliped disk. I don't know when yet or how long im gonna be out so if any of you know any thing about this type of oparation pls talk to me i am a lil scared my hubby is doing all he can to help but im having a hard time. thank you all.

Winning And Keeping A WomanFirst of all, let me say that I am NO George Clooney, but I am no Ernest Borgnine either.
What I lack in Clooney good looks I more than make up for with sparkling with and charming personality. Over the course of my life I have realized that... for the most part... the rest of you guys a fucking MORONS when it comes to women!
I am here to help you, son.
While I may not be as great looking as you, Im not hideous. Maybe not as "metro-sexual" as you, but I am "retro-sexual". More on that in a minute. Maybe not as "muscleman hardbody" as you, I am not a bloated sack of protoplasm either.
So, I can easily say that I got some stuff in my PLUS column, but where I simply leave you in my wake is.... hold on to your hair gel kids...
Im a man.
Not a Boy.
Not a Guy.
A Man.
If you think sitting around all day with your place smelling like cheetos and ASS while you play fucking Xbox is manly... it isnt.
If you think staring THROUGH a female to watch some sports on TV is manly... it is

Three Little WordsThree little words that shape your life
Three little words that define strife
I love you
I hate you
Do you think when you say these three little words
Do you feel in heart what those three little words do
So powerful are these three little words to you and I
Love and hate forever entwined
Like a neverending circle throughout time
Do I love you or Do I hate you
Time can only tell which way my heart will travel
Or the path I have to follow

Secrets Of GingerSecrets of Ginger
Adapted from Aromatherapy for Everyone, by PJ Pierson and Mary Shipley (Vital Health Publishing, 2004).
Ginger is one of the most highly valued spices in the world, renowned not only for the spicy flavor it gives to food--including holiday gingerbread!--but for its healing properties. The ancient Greeks used it to counteract the effects of poison, and traditional Chinese medicine recommends it for a vast array of ailments from respiratory issues to toothache. Today, healers rely on ginger to combat digestive and joint complaints, ease mood swings, and help to boost the libido.
To re-energize body and soul
This simple technique eases mood swings, helps shake off a tendency to procrastinate, and alleviates general feelings of disconnection:
Place 2-3 drops of pure essential oil of ginger in a diffuser, or place on a cotton ball and inhale 2 to 3 times.
For joint complaints, muscle pain, and backache
Use 2-3 drops of pure essential oil of ginger into 1 oun

The Sexxii Bbw ContestRUBIAS ROCKIN NYC/ '' K..O..T
Callin all Sexii BBW's
Rules
Sexiest SFW photo
To vote you must be level 4 or higher
No down rating
self bombin alound
Starts April 15 at 4pm EST
There will be three winners
1 winner with rates
2 winners with comments
Big pimpin prizes
all links will be sent out one hour b4 contest
opens

What Are You???Subject FRIENDS VS TENNESSEE FRIENDS!!!
Body: FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs
Tennessee FRIENDS: Call your parents drunk as hell and tell them about the fat chick you tried to pick up
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FRIENDS: Hope the night out drinking goes smoothly, and hope that no one is late for the ride home.
Tennessee FRIENDS: Know some wild shit will happen, and set up rally points and an E & E route.
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FRIENDS: Bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.
Tennessee FRIENDS: Will be sitting next to you saying, "Damn...that shit was fun "
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FRIENDS: Cry with you.
Tennessee FRIENDS: laugh at you
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FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
Tennessee FRIENDS: Steal each other ' s stuff so often nobody rememb

Movingso lately after all the crap that has gone on with my ex and I the last year or so I decided that I wanted to move away and start over and start fresh. I called my attorney to find out about what i need to do before i move and found out that it's possible for my ex to keep me from moving away. I was very sad by this so i got up the nerve to call my ex n tell him i wanna sit down n talk n talk about me moving away and about the kids and such. Surprisingly enough he was understanding...granted he doesn't like the idea at all since I'll be moving to Florida but he's going to work with me and not fight me or give me a big hassle! So i've been sitting here all day racking my brain about what all i need to do to move and what i need to take care of and everything else. I can't even think straight I don't know what i need to do first and who i need to contact first and everything plus i gotta get around the money for the truck and gas and pack....one of the biggest things i hate about moving

First Blog EverHell all you sexy cherry tap ladies. I love this site. Come on over and rate me and fan me and i will return the favor. There are so many sexy ladies on here i havn't had a chance to rate or fan or chat with. To all the ones i have rated and faned it has been awsome getting to know you.

To All My Lady FriendsTO ALL THE WOMEN OF CHERRY TAP WHO ARE MY FRIENDS,THIS POEM IS FOR YOU
YOUR WOMEN WITH BEAUTY AND GRACE
YOU GIVE YOUR HEART,SOUL AND FAITH
YOUR SMILE IS WARM AS THE MORNING SUN
IT BRIGHTENS THE DAY IN THE NICEST OF WAYS
YOUR EYES SHINE LIKE SPARKLING WINE
YOU HAVE A FLAME THAT NO ONE CAN CONTAIN
YOU HAVE A DESIRE THAT I ADMIRE
MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE
FOR I HAVE FOUND YOUR HEARTS
TO BE TRUE.
MY DEAR FRIENDS YOU MEAN ALOT TO ME AND I THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR BEING MY FRIENDS

The Sequence Of The Dream (2nd Act)And so the river ran......
The screen went red with the violent pulseing of my adrenal gland, I was now the equivalent of what harmless water waves become when you amplify them thirty fold with repercussions.
from the likes of my maddness most would run....
"But they never moved?" instead they stood there, stareing in a frozen state of shock and confusion. like still frame photographs as i opened fire on the first one.
The shot fired before i could even clear the gun from my jacket...it left a huge hole,"but hey i feel it was a small price for such an uncensored release of anger." oh well, it wasn't like there'd be anyone left to identify me or my bullet riddled jacket.
Screams rang like a cruel and sick symphony and i was the conductor! weilding my weapon like a trained machanic, I SHOWED THEM!
By the time i was done the permagrin was so burnt into my face, i torched the building to boot.....just cause i felt like it!
I remember laughing insanely as i

Ginkgo BilobaHerb Highlight: Ginkgo Biloba
Adapted from Rosemary Gladstar's Herbs for Longevity & Well-Being by Rosemary Gladstar
Parts Used: Leaves, fruits Benefits: This herb is among those on the top of my list for longevity and well-being. In fact, I suggest it to everyone over 40, recommends it highly to everyone over 50, and prescribes it diligently to those over 60.
The active ingredients of ginkgo leaf improve circulation and vasodilation. Though this action is evidenced throughout the entire body, it is most noted in the cerebral region. It is a promising remedy for age-related declines in brain function such as Alzheimer's, strokes, and short- or long-term memory loss. Ginkgo is also an antioxidant and is useful against free radicals, substances that damage cellular health and accelerate aging.
While most of the literature written about ginkgo focuses on its great memory-enhancing qualities, some of its other outstanding features are overlooked. One of the best herbs for the cir

All I Want From Cthey friends, i don't want to be annoying about this. i like you all as friends and i want to be able to talk to you and get to know you better. thats all i want.

LyricsHold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you
Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you
Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And I can make you start to smile

Kill CausticSo I'm feeling much worse now
You're better. You're better
Your designer drug won't work
won't work for me
Connect to a three-volt
I hope your battery dies
How could you run on such
on such voltage?
All the same
I remain
The one to blame and I'm
Demonized
Purified
Justified
As you let yourself show
So now you'll love these screams
Whats left of me? (Don't speak)
Love these screams like I do (Don't speak)
As the infinite stops cold
Just nine and the six are gone
Guess I was the one to
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Ride that dirty ride
That is turning so fast now
I cannot hold on
But at this pace
Who would, Who would want to?
All the same
I remain
The one to blame and I'm
Demonized
Purified
Justified
As you let yourself show
So now you'll love these screams
Whats left of me? (Don't speak)
Love these screams like I do (Don't speak)
Don't ever speak my name.
Don't ever speak my name again, don't ever spea

~an Act Of Love~~An Act of Love~
An act of love need not be
a gesture great or grand…
A smile can work a miracle
and show you understand.
Being there in time of need
transcends the spoken word;
A helping hand is simply grand
when hearts begin to bleed.
A prayer is nothing till it’s heard
beyond the highest leaf,
But when it’s answered, oh my friend,
how strong is our belief!
An act of love may simply be
a smile, a hug, a kiss…
But it’s a joy for all to see
when troubles come like this
God gives us the gift of faith to share. May we give it to others in the loving spirit in which it was given to us. Sharing is caring.

Vampire SeductionVampire Seduction
Dark Piercing Eyes
Rimmed with Red
A soulful Smile
on Cold Dead Lips
A sharp Nail
Grazing along the spine
A whisper of Breath
along the neck
A Tongue Flicking
Softly against a vein
Cold Fingers
warming soft flesh
Talking
with no Words
Hunger Calling
Desire Answering
This is the Vampire Seduction

Renewing Spring TonicJust as we see the first emergence of the bright green leaves and yellow flowers of dandelions in the spring, it is worth remembering an age-old tradition of drinking (organic) dandelion tea as a renewing tonic to wake us up with the land around us after a long winter. Try this regenerative dandelion tea to give yourself (and your kidneys and liver) a fresh start:
Dandelion Root Tea
Dandelion tea is rich in minerals and is known as a cleanser of the kidneys and liver, and a very healing herbal remedy that strengthens the entire system. As one of the gentlest and safest diuretics, so it is also a boon during premenstrual syndrome, and is traditionally a good addition to the diet of diabetics.
Buy dandelion root at the health food store.
Ingredients
4 cups pure water
6 tablespoons dried dandelion root (1 year old minimum)
6 tablespoons dried dandelion leaf (double amount if fresh) (optional)
Simmer the dandelion root in the water, uncovered, for 20 minutes, then strain th

I'm Out FolksOk, I just hopped on for a few. I needed to close the Best Beer Pic contest which ended right on time at 8pm CST.
I will be announcing the winners in the next few days.
Off to go bathe my smelly ass dog. LOL Not fun....
Cheers and Beers!
BeerQueen

New UpdateWalter and I couldn't be doing any better then we are. The distance between us couldn't stop us for anything. He stayed here for a week just left tonight to go home i'm going out there this weekend to go camping and ride the jetski's. My daughter loves him to death and he cares for her as well. He truly is a great guy!
Just pray that it stays this way for me.

Confused And Strandedconfused and stranded
looking thru my window
confused and stranded
wondering why I can't help people but just
sit here on my stool
watching confused and stranded

Sickhey everyone i have came down with the flu and not feeling the best. i wont be on for a few days. hope you all have a good rest of the week

What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?Your Famous Movie Kiss is from The Princess Bride
"This is true love - you think this happens every day?"
What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?

Take Me With YouTake Me With You
One day a young man went for a walk and desided to go to the grocery store for a few things. On his way back to his house, a women drove by with her young daughter in the passenger seat and her new born son in his car seat in the back. As she came up to the rail road tracks, the car stalled. No matter how many times she tried to start it, the car wouldn't start. All of a sudden a train books down the tracks and starts to blow it's wistle. The young man drops his bags on the ground and starts to run to the vehicle. Before he could get there in time, the train colides in to the driver's side of the car, pushing it half way up the tracks. The young man gets up to the car and finds the mother and her new born baby boy dead. He then runs to the passenger side where her daughter was located. He notices the daughter was still alive. Just then the little girl ask's " Is my mommy and baby brother dead? " The young man answers " No sweety they are just sleeping very heavely,

DarknessNew dark clothing available at Special You Discount Shopping!!!!
Check it all out and tell your friends!
Please repost for me!
Thanks,
Jen

Are You Ready To Get Married?You Are Ready to Get Married
You've done more than dream about the dress and the honeymoon
In fact, you spend a good deal of your time thinking about what makes a relationship work
And from your answers, it looks like you have the skills to say "I Do" and mean it
You've dated enough, learned your fair share, and you're ready to settle down.
Are You Ready To Get Married?

The Spirit Within YouThis is one of the first poems I ever wrote. Im not good at writng them but I just make up my own words to ryme and put in place. Hope you like and thanks for reading.
~The Spirit Within You~
The Spirit Within You is as bight as the morning sky and is as warm as the evening sun.
The Spirit Within You can set your mind free and cherish the warmth in your heart.
The Spirit Within You is the soul that friends mostly care about and can love all through etinity.
So when you think about the Spirit Within You, always remember the friends that care about you, will always be there for you.

All About Your Lucky Love ColorYour Lucky Love Color is Blue
When someone gets to know you, the first thing they notice is how deeply you think and feel.
You are calm, reflective, and mature. However, you sometimes seem spacey to those trying to charm you.
And unlike what your color might suggest, you are never really down or "blue" - even after a break up.
Your heart is thoughtful and rational. You don't let your emotions rule you. It's your head that falls in love.
All About Your Lucky Love Color

The Marine>We all came together,
>Both young and old
>To fight for our freedom,
>To stand and be bold.
>In the midst of all evil,
>We stand our ground,
>And we protect our country
> From all terror around.
>Peace and not war,
>Is what some people say.
>But I'll give my life,
>So you can live the American way.
>I give you the right
>To talk of your peace.
>To stand in your groups,
>and protest in our streets.
>But still I fight on,
>I don't bitch, I don't whine.
>I'm just one of the people
>Who is doing your time.
>I'm harder than nails,
>Stronger than any machine.
>I'm the immortal soldier,
>I'm a U.S. MARINE!
>So stand in my shoes,
>And leave from your home.
>Fight for the people who hate you,
>With the protests they've shown.
>Fight for the stranger,
>Fight for the young.
>So they all may have,
>The greatest freedom you've won.
>Fight for the sick,
>Fight for the poor
>Fight for the cripple,
>Who lives next door.
>But when your time comes,
>

To Be YouAs I pour
my blood down the drain
I slit my wrists
to hit every vein
to think it would kill me
to ease my pain
I would give anything
to have your fame
to get what you got
in which I don't own
I am the unfortunate
all left alone
I only ask to be wanted
and have love and affection
but what I get
is everyones simple rejection
you act so hard done by
but really your not
I would give you anything
To live the life you got
but simply you don't see
thats you've gone so far
anyone would dream
to live the life of a star
you got the personality
and the good looks
I'm just the nerd
with all the books
YOu don't know me
or what I've been through
I'd do anything
to be you

What's Your Dream Engagement Ring?Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Pear Diamond!
You're personal style is a mix of classic and contemporary, reseved and outgoing.
A pear diamond matches your charming personality - and is perfect to show off.
You've also got an elegant side, which is complemented a tear dropped shaped pear.
It's the perfect mix of Liz Taylor and Jessica Simposon - both wearers of this ring!
What's Your Dream Engagement Ring?

Had To Post My NewestHaunted by images of seductive eyes
looks that left me with breathless surprise
Stirring inside with unbridled lust
Longing for the soulful eyes of trust
Passion boils and the fever takes hold
Makes me pronounce ever so bold
All the things I long to do to you
Know only those eyes of yours can do
Pulling me in and holding in your trance
To hold you and feel you in passions dance
Two as one we grind out the release
Only in your eyes will my soul find peace
Needing you more every moment so true
Lost in your eyes and belonging to you
By R Thomas Dinsmore

What Are Friends?Just what are friends any way?
They sure as hell aren't just about sex, depression or any negative shit.
Friends are people who care about each other, people who aren't supose to let you down for anything but to always be there when you need them. They are ones who show there thoughts, bring out the best in you and are supose to listen to what you have to say.
Hmmm what else? Well you get the idea. Do all these things for your friends and nothing will go wrong. Trust me!! That's what my friends have in me is trust. Love all you females and peace to muh bro's out there!!

I Can't Live Without YouI can't have you
but I want you
I can't hold you
But I would do anything to be in your arms
I can't keep you
but I would love to be with you forever
I can't kiss you
but I long fro your kiss and touch
I can't hug you
but I would love you to hug me and never let go
I can't be with you
Because I'm with someone else
I can't talk to you
but if I could we would talk for hours on end
I can't look at you
But if I could I would get lost in your perfection
I can't love you
even though I already do
I can't think about you
yet your on my mind 24/7
I can't want you
Although I need you to live

" I Learn To Be Strong"Words of wisdom
come to my ears,
Telling me what I know in my heart,
But never wanted to hear.
With the truth finally said
and out in the open for me to plainly see,
I wonder why I can love so deeply
but never had that love returned back to me.
I confessed the feelings
that I held inside for so long,
But with his soft- hearted rejection,
I realize I have to be strong.
With tears that want to flow
from my eyes,
I feel that my heart,
along with my composure, slowly dies.
While this dramatic side is showing through
with my ability to question and reason,
I think I may have found
something in me that I can believe in.
Love hurts . . .
That's what they all say,
But I will love again
when all this pain and sorrow goes away.
So I sit and think of all the things
this situation has cost,
And I realize that nothing
very important has been lost.
Instead, a learning experience
has come from all this.
I've learned that hardly anything
is

The Little GirlI write poems every day and night
just because I can't sleep at night
I find I can't sleep because I'm afraid
you will take things out on me like your on a rampage
I hear mommy scream and ball out her eyes
you make up excuses to hit her like" your sick of her lies"
and when your done hitting her , you come after me
and say I've done nothing but cause you misery.
So you say " come here, lets play a game"
and hit me until blood pours out my veins
So i yelled" Please daddy stop, I've hurt enough"
and he said" Oh come on baby, You gotta be tough"
so I took it some more, without a complaint
and at that instant I began to faint
I screamed out I'm sorry but I cant take anymore!
And within an instant I fell to the floor
Within a week my body was found
And they then buried me in a burial ground
Where in heaven I could be at peace
And all my pain can be released
There is no more about my life to tell
But this is my life inside the nutshell

Pool PartyA rich man is throwing a party and invites everyone out by the pool. He announces, "I have a challenge, The first person to make it across this pool will have access to everything i own for 2 years. Everyone rushes toward the pool when the man yells out,"Wait! Be warned that this pool has been filled with piranha, alligators and other dangerous animals. As everyone starts backing away from the pool the man asks "any takers?". Suddenly there's a yell and a splash and everyone turns toward the brotha racing across the pool. As he climbs up the other side the rich man grabs him yelling "oh my god you did it!!!! Everything i have is yours. My house, my money, My cars.!" The brotha, Panting heavily says, " Man I don't want any off that shit!!! I want the motherfucker that pushed me in that pool!!!!

You...You…
A smile is on my face
That has yet to leave
Who could have thought
No one would believe
That words typed late at night
Would eventually
Place you in my sight
When you pulled up the drive
I was so nervous
Sitting across from you
Sharing a quick glance
So happy we took this chance
Conversation flowed
Through dinner
Dessert was so good
Though I couldn’t think
Of anything but how you would taste
Imagining your lips to mine
Watching you
Wishing I was the wine
You were sipping
If you could have read my mind
My face would have glowed red
After dinner you brought me home
Held me in your arms
Completely into you
You kissed me
It was like tasting the sun
So hot...
Like the first summer’s day
Basking in it’s ray
My flesh glistened
As we danced across my floor
Sade playing softly
Then we kissed once more
I soaked up the sun
Felt it pour into my soul
Seeping deep
I opened my eyes
Seeing pure joy
Passion I have never felt before
I now have an unde

A Dedication To WomenAlright kids, today we shall take an in-depth look at how the world caters to a womans sexuality and the never ending quest of self-gratification. It seems everywhere you go things are designed, set-up, mass produced, and sold to aid a woman is giving herself pleasure. Remember the old addage "a woman should always come first". They took it to heart and created a whole world for themselves. Let's look at some examples and start with the woman herself. First of all, she doesn't need a man. That's right kids, she can do a fine job all on her own. For the more assertive woman, there are sex shops.My wife and I were in two local fuck stores recently, and although we are regular patrons I was astonished to see MORE shit than usual. There were more devices, objects, and gadgets than there should ever be and I was overwhelmed by their numbers (and prices). What's in there for a man???? Nothing!!! And what was there looked like it came from a cereal box or a cheesy mail-order deal. I'd lov

Down With Old Ppl.First let me start off by saying that not all old ppl are bad. SOme of you that are grandparents are super cool and kick ass. Then there are some, mostly those that populate the NPR area here in FL, that suck massive ass. I dont understand why they feel that I am put on this earth to spoon feed them. I dont mind helping because that is my job but dont fucking blow up at me because you cant get your thumb out of your ass and deal with your own issues. I work in a pharmacy, for those of you that didnt know. Let me just tell you all right now it is not my job to call your insurance companies to figure out why they dont want to cover your meds. Ok if you want to know so fucking bad go home get on your phone and dial that lovely number on the back of your card that says customer service. My job is to take the script and fill it, Dont bitch at me for the price that YOUR INSURANCE is charging you. I do not make up your co pay. Now normally I dont mind giving an insurance company a call to try

My Attempt At A SongPushing me away (5)
Is not the right way to take? (7)
Everyone makes mistakes (7)
Even you (4)
Not letting your feelings show
Gets me feeling low
I will just have to go
Away from here
Cuz I
Can’t take this any more
So I walked out the door
And now I’m gone
And now I’m gone
I’ve tried to put myself to blame
And take away the pain
It’s just not the same
Anymore
But I
Have tried day and night
To have to see the light
And try to live my life
But I can’t

Hey kids, welcome to another exciting lesson in life and why it sucks. I was posed a question by a young bloke the other day who sought advice for his downward spiraling life, if only for the reason that if you think about what I say, it does make sense. And if it dosen't.........well............your just a dumbass.....................It is always funny to me how common courtesy is a trait that rarely exists anymore. Or perhaps annoying would be a better term to describe the selfish and vain acts of todays imature society. Still one has to appreciate the occasional spurt of decency from time to time. However, random acts of kindness should never be confused with moral obligation. Or should they? Is it ok to steal if you do not have? Is it ok to lie if you dont know the truth? What about sex and relationships? Is it ok to cheat if your not getting any at home? And if you are getting laid at the house, but it's not all that good, then is it ok to seek out some strange. The lesson here

A Learning ExperienceLife’s Challenges.
One day I woke up like any other ordinary day, with My Mom yelling in the background “ Get Up for School or else your not going to be going to work tonight.” Sounds like any ordinary life right? Wrong? My life is far from ordinary. I live in a weird family who doesn’t have any respect for one another and who intrude on people’s privacy/ life and a mother who takes her bad days out on everyone else in the family. Everyday seems like a bad day for her. All I hear when she gets home is how much of a mistake I am and that she wishes she never had me as well as her always calling me a failure. All the blame goes on me. What she doesn’t know is how much she’s hurting everyone around her including me. I’m the only one who stands up for themselves , and EVERY TIME it causes it causes this huge fight and more insults. It results in nothing. The only thing that becomes of it is sadness or in my case depression. She caused my depression for over a year. Pretty sad huh? You

SolitudeFor I have nothing to say
Who would lessen any way
I write these words every day
just therapy in its own way
In trapped from with in
Expressing my self seems to be a sin
In solitude is were I walk
my self conservations
Is what writing brought.
Scott baker

I Try...Im not perfect
no one is
but thats what u expect from me
I make mistakes
everyone does
but you yell at me when I do
I try my best to make things right
just like most people
but its never good enough for you
i try to follow your rules
like every one does
but im the only one you punish when a rule is broken
I try my best to show you respect
like everyone deserves
but I never get any from you in return
I try my best to be responsible
just like others
but you never give me the chance
I try to make decisions on my own
just like others
but everything has to go your way or no way.
I try to give my opinions
that everyone has a right to do
but you always take my rights away
I try to grow up
like every one does
but all you do is baby me
I try to be reasonable
like everyone does
but your just so selfish its your way or nothing
I try my best to do everything in your favor
and all I get is your disapointment
Everything I do isnt considered

Reflections Of A Pointless LifeToday I shall ramble on about the reflections of my pointless life. Let's take a moment to fully understand the word "reflections". The word reflections, as described by the Wiccan Encyclopedia of Encantations, is "the mere thought or memory of ones self". No other explanation is needed. When I look back on my life up to this point, I am amazed that I am even here to say these things. While like most, I have skeletons in my own closet amidst things that I wish were done differently, I can't help but think my life would have turned out the same exact way. This is a sad note contrary to the belief that every action we make will ultimately decide our future. I found myself today wondering about my own future. And as I have thought about it from time to time, it was all put into perspective this morning whilst talking to my friend. He made a few comments about his own life and the possible directions it was headed, and I recalled past conversations where I had advised "what I would

ClosingSo ya i feelin much more up today i found this song a few weeks ago and forgot about it till i got a lil minder ... i found it funny well anyways u should all listen to it its making me feel stronger and happyer and better
http://cherrytap.com/stashEntry.php?stashId=1117199&bl=1
go hear it
I'm over your lies
And I'm over your games
I'm over you asking me when you know I'm not ok
You call me at night
And I pick up the phone
And though you've be tellin' me, I know you're not alone
Oh, and that's why
Your eyes.. I'm over it
Your smile.. I'm over it
Realized.. I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over
[CHORUS:]
Wanting you to be wanting me
No, that ain't no way to be
How I feel
Read my lips
Because I'm so over (I'm so)
Moving on, and it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first
A little bit
But now I'm so over
I'm so over it
I'm over your hands
And I'm over your mouth
Trying to drag me down
And fill me with self doubt
Oh, and that's

When Life Drags You DownWHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU LET YOUR LIFE LEAD YOU, INSTEAD OF LIVING LIFE? WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOUR SURROUNDING PEEPS ARE STABBING YOU IN THE BACK? WHO DO YOU TURN TO WHEN LIFE GETS YOU DOWN? WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE EVERYONE AROUND YOU, IS AFTER SOMETHING? THIS PLACE WAS MADE TO HAVE FUN!! AND PEOPLE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE GROWN UP!! WHAT'S UP WITH ALL THE BULL?!?!? WHY IS IT THAT PPL CAN'T BE REAL ON THIS SITE?!? PPL HIDING BEHIND OTHER PROFILE.... MAKING STUPID REMARKS BEHIND OTHER PPL'S BACKS.... WTF?!?!? IF YOU HAVE A FRICKEN PROBLEM, GROW UP AND SAY IT TO THAT PERSON AND NOT SOMEONE ELSE! DEAL WITH THE SHIT AND MOVE ON!!!!!!! I CAN'T STAND PEOPLE THAT DO THAT! HELL, MY SON IS MORE MATURE THEN SOME PEOPLE I MEET ON HERE!! AND HE'S 7! I'M SAYING A LOT OF THIS STUFF TODAY, BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST GETTING UNDER MY SKIN! I WAS ABOUT TO LEAVE BECAUSE OF YOU F**KERS!! LMAO! OMG WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?! I'M HERE TO HAVE FUN, WHILE APPARENTLY SOME PEOPLE ARE HERE SEEKING DRAMA! I HAVE ENOUGH DRAMA

"falling In And Out Of Love"When I say I love you I do
But this with you will not do
I need someone I can lean on
Someone I can count on too
Yes you are there sometimes
For that I am grateful to you
But I need someone there full time
And that you can not do
You told me once you loved me
That I could believe in you
I was there when you needed someone
Where were you when I needed someone, too?
The time has come for me to let go
Never to expect you to care again
People may come and people may go
But my love will never end

Getting Fed Up With CherrytapWhen I first joined cherrytap I thought it was the coolest site.I met alot of kick ass people on here,but enough is enough.Being a DJ used to be cool but thats no fun anymore,being a VIC used to make you speacial but thats getting over used.You have to pay to repost a bulletin or post a mumm(which I cant because I was banned from mumming without being told).Your pics are downrated alot because of ppl not even a member of cherrytap going to ct photos and rating your pic and now you cant repost bulletins? WTF? Makes me wonder whats next?I am almost to the point where I want to say hell with this site because its getting to complicated and I just might.All my real friends I have on my messenger anyway

"promises Made"Yesterday's goals, dim memories.
Dark saddened eyes, blurring with tears.
Painful scars borne; Love's history.
Futures crumble when doubt appears.
No brightly lit hope envisioned,
When following after harsh words.
Hurt soul splits in twain, partitioned.
Swooned by appeal - when numbness lured.
Apologies made, never bought.
Price paid turned out far too costly.
Though never known what would be wrought -
Must walk into the night softly.
One wish, only to be released.
Granted - now receive this token.
Words written in rhyme, love's deceased.
When promises made . . . were broken.

"at Night"At night
At night I lay and think of you hoping my wishes and dreams come true
At night I wonder can this be the end is this all that's left
At night I wish we could go to the way things were
At night I lay and cry about the things that happened and how it all ended
At night I lay and think of us, I mean you and I
At night I realize there's no more us
At night I dream of us together again
At night I wish for us to be together again
But in the morning I realize it was all
At Night

3amIts 3am and i can't sleep,
can't rid these thoughts of you,
Funny how I was your everything,
But still not good enough for you,
Try'na get lost on this highway,
or pray it winds back to you,
I'm so confused right now,
either one would do,
Chorus:
Can you tell me how I'm everything,
all you'll ever need,
The one to make you happy,
Yeah, you loved only me,
All I ever did was love you,
Let you chace your dreams,
Held you high- let you fly,
Now you've flown away from me,
I turn around your memory,
Start to smile and then,
See the same signs telling me,
I'm running in circles again,
Yeah, these wheels keep turning,
burning up my mind,
Every where I go,
Its you I find,
(chorus)
Bridge:
I knew this couldn't be real,
cause the way you make me feel is a dream,
Now you're gone,
the pain so strong,
drives me to my knees,
chorus

Conjuring Peace.Conjuring peace.
The smell of sage calming the rage
Cleansing one’s mind as you read this page
Conjuring the spirits from within
Purifying your thoughts, protecting you from sin
Chanting the word in signing rhyme
Binding your enemies for all time
Scott baker

Hey GuysHEY GUYS I HAVE OPENED A LOUNGE HOW DO I PUT A RADIO IN THERE AND CHANGE BACKGROUND I AM NEW AT THIS THE LOUNGE IS CALLED CINDERS

Crazy Dream 1ok i found myself in mesa amc 24's courtyard. i was w/ annie, cody w/ risa, chanti, nickie, n alyss. the nicks (if some of u get confused whn i say that, the nicks r nick curtis and nick sargent) n kyle were there 2, but not w/ us. i turn away frm the conversation we were havin 2 c where they went 2, n i found nick c in a fight w/ this guy. i didnt kno this guys n im quite sure neither did the rest of us except the nicks n kyle. he was wearin a black bandana on his head with black pants n a red band t-shirt. anyway, they were yellin at each other, thn i c nick c reach in his pocket. i left annie n thm n rushed ovr, cuz i knew he was reachin 4 his big ass knife. i got there just in time b4 he pulled it out. "nick its not worth it," i said 2 him. "its not worth it. hes not worth it." thn i heard the guy say, "what the fuck did u just say?" i turned round calmly n replied, "i said ur not worth gettin him in trouble, n hes not worth gettin u in trouble." i went 2 finish up w/ nick c, but t

Tomorrow Is A New DayWhispering winds upon a summers sky
Whipping the tears from ones eyes
A bitter path upon a sunset
Today’s tragedy was just miner upset back
Tomorrow brings brighter day
As the night sleep wipes the troubles away.
Scott baker

What Kind Of Sexy Girl Are You?You Are Sensual Sexy
You exude a luxurious sensuality in your everyday life
Turning heads everywhere you go, it's all about your sexy attitude.
You're naturally hot - gorgeous in both sweats and stilettos.
Your biggest problem is that your ultra sexy self sometimes scares men away.
What Kind of Sexy Girl Are You?

Chapter 7"Peter, Peter, these things have a way of working out. Simply find Death and you will know where to send the young woman."
Himself wasd in a great mood having won an arguement with Herself about whether any new animals needed to be discovered on earth. He just loved to create and every once in a whle he threw a new species at his humans just to see the delight on their faces when they "discovered" it. Herself didnt appreciate it, as Her job became more complicated with each new creation. After all she was the care taker of the earth and it was up to Herself to keep the life going that Himself decided on a whim to create. Herself's job was infinitly more demanding, and for this reason she kept a tight rein on his creativity.
Peter was flabberghasted. Never had he remembered Himself putting this much responsibility on Peters shoulders. He usually came down on his creations of humans like a wrath. A lightening show, a earthquake or two. but of course this was not a humans faul

Bush Reatard At It Again!At that point they required me to submit my thumbprint to them. I complained about the lack of freedom in this state and asked them why they just didn't tell everyone that in order to get a drivers license in their state we would need to bring in a suitcase full of ID,s as well as blood and urine samples to go with our thumbprints!! The supervisor then informed me that as of May 2008 that won't be necessary as every state will require (as per Federal Law) every driver to go to the DMV and obtain a FEDERAL ID number which will be implanted in the hand of the individual!!!! They ACTUALLY told me this at the DMV! Apparently, several years ago the FEDERAL GOVERNMENT tried to get a law passed requiring everyone to receive a FEDERAL ID NUMBER. It was turned down by the citizens of the United States.
Well, the FEDERAL GOVERNMENT being the lying, cheating criminals that they are-quietly inserted that law into a bill giving federal funds to the Katrina victims. When that bill passed...so did

What The Random?So I'm sitting here..minding my biz..doing the mom thing, watching a little Curious George with the short one and I hear this noise. Not just a noise .. but ice cream truck music noise..and not just ice cream truck music noise but a Christmas medley of Silent Night and Oh Christmas Tree.
What the random?
Is this someone's idea of a sick joke?
On the top ten list of things that make Neo's blood pressure skyrocket are Christmas and ice cream trucks. It's like the Universe said 'Hey, I know..let's mess with her head today..and give her *both*'
...sigh...

Pool PartyA rich man is throwing a party and invites everyone out by the pool. He announces, "I have a challenge, The first person to make it across this pool will have access to everything i own for 2 years. Everyone rushes toward the pool when the man yells out,"Wait! Be warned that this pool has been filled with piranha, alligators and other dangerous animals. As everyone starts backing away from the pool the man asks "any takers?". Suddenly there's a yell and a splash and everyone turns toward the brotha racing across the pool. As he climbs up the other side the rich man grabs him yelling "oh my god you did it!!!! Everything i have is yours. My house, my money, My cars.!" The brotha, Panting heavily says, " Man I don't want any off that shit!!! I want the motherfucker that pushed me in that pool!!!!

Tuesday 4-10-2007HEY YALL MY DAILY BLOG FOR TUESDAY NOT MUCH GOING ON ON THIS CLOUD ALL THE OTHER ANGELS TRYING TO FIND THEIR HALOS ME I ALREADY FOUND MINE LMAO JUST SITTING HERE WATCHING IDOL AT THE MOMENT AND SPENDING TIME WITH MY HUBBY MY MAMA AND MY KIDS ME AND MAMA HAD MUCH FUN JUST LIKE WE DO EVERY DAY WATCHING SOAPS AND SPENDING TIME TOGETHER SHE REALLY SEEMS HAPPIER AND SHE IS LOADS OF FUN TO WATCH SOAPS WITH LOL MAYBE THATS WHY I LOVE HER SO MUCH WELL THATS ALL FOR TODAY TUNE IN TOMORROW FOR ANOTHER EPISODE OF ANGELS BLOG ON TAP

Why Did The Chicken Cross The Road?PAT BUCHANAN: To steal a job from a decent,
hardworking American.
DR. SEUSS: Did the chicken cross the road? Did he
cross it with a toad? Yes! The chicken crossed the
road, but why it crossed, I've not been told!
ERNEST HEMINGWAY: To die. In the rain.
MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.: I envision a world where all chickens will be free to cross roads without having their motives called into question.
GRANDPA: In my day, we didn't ask why the chicken
crossed the road. Someone told us that the chicken
crossed the road, and that was good enough for us.
ARISTOTLE: It is the nature of chickens to cross the road.
KARL MARX: It was a historical inevitability.
SADDAM HUSSEIN: This was an unprovoked act of
rebellion and we were quite justified in dropping 50 tons of nerve gas on it.
RONALD REAGAN: What chicken?
CAPTAIN JAMES T. KIRK: To boldly go where no chicken has gone before.
FOX MULDER: You saw it cross the road with your own
eyes. How many more chickens have to

Colorful Shades Of GrayI look out my window in wonder,
Of life and its reasons why,
As clouds roll in with mixed feelings,
And my eyes begin to cry,
I look to the sky for answers,
More questions are all I see,
Is this world built on confussion,
or is it just me,
I smile and the mirror cracks,
I wipe the tears from my face,
The world is a poker table,
And I don't hold a single ace,
How many mistakes will I make,
Before I get something right,
I know I hold a piece of heaven,
But I feel like hell tonight,
What will it take for the sun to shine,
Is there an answer for me,
Is there a place for the misguided,
Or is this meant to be,
Why do I keep asking you,
there's nothing you can say,
so I'll just smile out my window,
and admire the colorful shades of gray.

Think Of Methink of me
on a hot summer night
when sweat glistens on your skin and every movement you make is
slow
cat-like
i will come to you
in your dreams
your white-hot angel
with golden hair
midnight trance
we dance
the dream dance
heat rising in a
cresendo of passion
every pore screaming for consumation
melting
blazing
in a hot bed of desire
when you lie in your bed
alone
restless
think of me
dream the hot white dream
i will be there

Inspector From A Pest-control CompanyA woman was having a passionate affair with an
inspector from a pest-control company.
One afternoon they were carrying on in the bedroom
together when her husband arrived home unexpectedly.
"Quick," said the woman to her lover, "into the
closet!" She bundled him in the closet stark naked.
The husband, however, became suspicious and after a
search of the bedroom discovered the man in the
closet.
"Who are you?" he asked him.
"I'm an inspector from Bugs-B-Gone," said the
exterminator.
"What are you doing in there?" the husband asked.
"I'm investigating a complaint about an infestation of
moths," the man replied.
"And where are your clothes?" asked the husband.
The man looked down at himself and said, "Those little
bastards!"

After The Cake, Comes The GuiltSomething few people know about me is that I love to write. I could sit all day and write. Poems, songs, blogs.. I dont care. I am becoming opposed to blogging my complaints about life. I hate to sit here and waste my words on the little things that in the scheme of things, aren't really important. I like having a little mystery and not airing all my drity laundry here ;)
Love has always been very important to me. I had a lot of it growing up. Now as an adult, when I find love I really try to hold onto it as long as I can. So how difficult does that love have to be before I say "enough"? How much grief can I withstand before I throw my hands up? The answer used to be "not much". I think my expectations of a relationship are a bit high and I used to give up rather early on. Then I got weak and started to let things slide. The little things would be swept under the rug until it was impossible to move around it. Then I inevitably implode and kill the relationship ( with good reason of

The Mysterious Stranger From DreamsvilleWalking in to their destination, all his eyes can see is her apple shaped bottom walking before him,
Walking up the stairs due to a faulty elevator, his eyes catch a glimpse of bare flesh under her skirt.
He tries so hard not to look, but his sight seems to just zero in on her legs following the seems of her thigh highs straight to their lacey tops. He begins to feel warmer then before, his blood rushing through him. Arriving at their suite she bends down to drop her bags, and again he sees an awesome sight, corset induced cleavage as if about to just break loose from their binding. Well that's the vision he now sees in his mind. Noticing the look on her gentle lovers face, she strolls over to him kneeling before him.
She rest her head against his thigh and hip, looking up at him with doe like eyes. She can feel his happiness pressing against her cheek. She asks if he's ok, and receives a distant nod of yes. She asks him to sit on the large chair in the corner and he does. She remov

Trying To Open My Eyeswalking blindly through life
still young but trying
to deal with the problems of the old
searching for resolution
searching for light
it feels so dark and cold
everything i do
im trying to get ahead
but trying to achieve with
eyes closed shows no progress
like watering a plant thats dead
struggling with everyday issues
hoping for the future
dealing with the present and past
wondering with eyes closed
frequently falling off the path
just how long will this darkness last?

Good Bad And The UglyGood: You're pregnant.
Bad: It's triplets.
Ugly: Your husband had a vasectomy five years ago.
-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
Good: Your husband is not talking to you.
Bad: He wants a divorce.
Ugly: He's a lawyer.
-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
Good: Your son is finally maturing.
Bad: He's involved with the woman next door.
Ugly: So are you.
-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
Good: Your son studies a lot in his room.
Bad: You find several pornographic movies hidden
there.
Ugly: You're in them.
-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
Good: Your husband understands fashion.
Bad: He's a cross-dresser.
Ugly: He looks better than you.
-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
Good: You give "the birds and the bees" talk to your
14-year-old daughter.
Bad: She keeps interrupting.
Ugly: With corrections.
-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
Good: Your daughter got a new job.
Bad: As a hooker.
Ugly: Your co-workers are her best clients.
Way Ugly: She make

Why Do I Feel So Sad?Why Do I Feel So Sad?
Friends we've been for so long
Now true colors are showing
Makes me wanna cry oh yes it does
Cuz I had to say goodbye
By now I should know
That in time things would change
So it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad
How can I adjust
To the way that things are going
It's killing me slowly
Oh I just want it to be how it used to be
Cuz I wish that I could stay
But in time things must change
So it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad
You cannot hide the way you feel inside I realize
Your actions speak much louder than words
So tell me why oh
By now I should know that
That in time things would change
So it shouldn't be it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad
By now I should know
That in time things must change
So it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad
By now by now I should know
That in time things must grow
And I had to leave you behind
So why do I feel so sad
If it couldn't be that bad
Tel

Dirge Without Musici am not resigned to the shutting away of
loving souls in the hard ground.
so it is and so it will be, for so it has
been, time out of mind:
into the darkness they go, the wise and the lovely.
crowned with lilies and with laurel
they go; but i am not resigned.
lovers and thinkers, into the earth with you.
be one with the dull, the indiscriminate dust.
a fragment of what you felt, of what you knew,
a formula, a phrase remains,- but the best is lost.
the answers quick and keen, the honest look, the laughter, the love,-they are gone.
they are gone to feed the
roses. elegant and curled
is the blossom. fragant is the blossom. i know.
but i do not approve.
more precious was the light in your eyes than
all the roses in the world.
down, down, down into the darkness of the grave
gently they go, the beautiful, the tender, the kind;
quietly they go, the intelligent, the witty, the brave.
I know. but i do not approve. and i am not resigned.

Reasons1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you..
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss some one is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9 Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened
11

DespairWalking upon the bloody tacks
Feeling the lashes on my back
Clawing at oblivious rhymes
Breaking my back to please you all the time
Satisfaction is yours alone
I’m just busted my heart is with out a home
Scott baker

Mmmhmm, Bye, ByeMmmhmm, bye, bye
How do you love someone
That hurts you oh so bad
With intentions good
Was all he ever had
But how do I let go when I've
Loved him for so long and I've
Given him all that I could
Maybe love is a hopeless crime
Giving up what seems your lifetime
What went wrong with something once so good
How do you find the words to say
To say goodbye
If your heart don't have the heart to say
To say goodbye
I know now I was naďve
Never knew where this would lead
And I'm not trying to take away
From the good man that he is
But how do I let go when I've
Loved him for so long and I've
Given him all that I could
Was it something wrong that we did
Because others infiltrated
What went wrong with something once so good
How do you find the words to say
To say goodbye
If your heart don't have the heart to say
To say goodbye
Is this the end are you sure
How should you know when you've never been here before
It's so hard to just let go
When this

My Sexual StyleThe seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get.
You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them.
The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase.
You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away.
You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance.
Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't!
You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors.
Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor.
You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.

To All The Girls Who Look Past The Nice GuysI'm sorry
that i bought you roses
to tell you that i like you
I'm sorry
That I was raised with respect
not to sleep with you when you were drunk
I'm sorry
That my body's not ripped enough
to "satisfy" your wants
I'm sorry
that I open your car door,
and pull out your chair like I was raised
I'm sorry
That I'm not cute enough
to be "your guy"
I'm sorry
That I am actually nice;
not an asshole
I'm sorry
I don't have a huge bank account
to buy you expensive things
I'm sorry
I like to spend quality nights at home
cuddling with you, instead of at a club or party
I'm sorry
I would rather make love to you then just f**k you
like some random guy.
I'm sorry
That I am always the one you need to Talk To,
but never good enough to date
I'm sorry
That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere,
but not good enough to listen to me when I need a friend
I'm sorry
If I start not being there

Ant Problem!!I so do not have love for these freakin ants! Somebody please tell me in a few days time why I have a colony of ants move into my keyboard?????!!! Does anyone have any suggestions on how to whip hem all out a once without using An atomic bomb? LoL

My Invisible HeartONCE AGAIN A LIFE GONE/SHOWN ALL I COULD SHOW BUT STILL NOOOOOOOOOOO/I OPEN MY HEART BUT IT CLOSES ON ITZ OWN/WHY...BECAUSE OF THE LOVE IT WAS SHOWN.../ITZ NOT MY FAULT THAT MY HEART DOESNT SHINE/ BUT IT WILL BE FINE IN TIME/I GUESS ITZ A MESS..../SEE IF U DONT KNOW LOVE CANT SHOW LOVE/ SO DONT HATE ME WHEN I CLOSE UP/HELP ME DONT RUN/SHOW STRENGHT AND COMFORT/SHOW LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING.../ITZ NOT MY FAULT THAT THE SCARZ AND PAIN PUSH U AWAY/ITZ NOT MY FAULT THAT THE TURMOIL INSIDE MAKES US BOTH CRY.../YES I CRY..IM A MAN WE DO/ITZ A PUNK MOTHERFUCKER THAT CANT BE TRUE////BUT GUESS WHO HURTZ /THE REAL ONES THAT CAN ADMIT IT/SHOW IT/BE REAL WIT IT....NOW THINK ABOUT THIS BEFORE U JUDGE A HURTING HEART......TO BE CONT.................

Rap AgainI challenge anybody to provide me the rap lyrics or even a download of any song written recently that does not degrade people of any race or gender or coerce people to do something that is not questionably legal that is mainstream pop.
The only song I know about is Ludacis' new song. The Roots don't count since black folks won't even listen to them.
I'm sick of this. I'm tired of nigga and bitch and ho and blunt and gun rhymed with fun.
I'm tired of people standing behind 50 Cent attacking Oprah for NOT allowing him on the show.
This 'keepin it real' is a farce. (They say)It's not real unless u create a negative atmosphere. There's more good things in life than bad or we'd b a buncha suicides.

Men Are Like......For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free. Here's an update for you: Now days, 80% of women are against marriage, WHY? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage.
_________________________________________________
Men are like....
1. Men are like .Laxatives ..... They irritate the crap out of you.
2 Men are like. Bananas . The older they get, the less firm they are.
3 Men are like Weather Nothing can be done to change them
4 Men are like .... Blenders You need One, but you're not quite sure why.
5 Men are like .... Chocolate Bars ... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.
6 Men are like .... Commercials ....... You can't believe a word they say.
7 Men are like Department Stores ..... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
8 Men are like ...... Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.
9 Men are like ..... Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of

Letting You GoI loved you once and always will,
but Im freeing myself, my will is here.
You've held me hostage within my shell,
afraid for so long there was nothing else.
The hold you had,Ive finally grown strong,
Ive made a choice , to escape from my hell.
Im letting you go , learning to love myself,
Im letting you go ,learning to live with myself.
The memories remain ,they always will
but Im letting you go , Ive taken back my pain.
Im breaking these chains , that bound so tight ,
Im setting me free , a new hope for life.
You'll stay in my heart , but youve lost your control
Im growing within , because Im letting you go.

Teardrops Falling From The CloudsStorm clouds passing by
high above
theor torment and anger
i want no part of
i dont care for the lightning
nor the thunder
nor do i wish
for the storm to go under
instead i sit
swinging in my yard swing
wanting and wishing
for the rain the storm will bring
when the sweet rain falls
my tears can be free
released in front of the world
but no one can see
such an irony
that flows from my eyes
releasing all their truths
but the rain covers them with their lies
tears on my pillow
isnt the same for me
they fall only to be captured
thats not how i want it to be
so for now i sit
waiting for the rain
so my heart can cleanse itself
of its heartache and pain
once again ill feel better
when the rain falls to greet my heart
and when the rain passes
my refreshed eyes see a new start
next time the storm comes
whether quiet or loud
ill be out on my swing waiting
to catch the teardrops alling from the clouds.

Bad LuckWell first of all my van blows up....so I'm without a vehicle. Then today my sister who lives with me along with her husband and baby was leaving for school and some dumb ass who always flies down my road entirely to fast creamed the side of her 03 Hyundai Sonata. It broke the front axle and completely trashed the whole drivers side. The car is a total loss. Soooo now we are down to NO vehicles in my house and 3 kids! This totally sucks ass. I need to find a car FAST

What Do I Do?C Am
The first time I saw her
F G
With that smile you her face.
C Am F G
What a beautiful lady, I thought to myself.
C Am
Then she looked my way-ey
F G C Am F G
and she caught me in awwwww.
So I looked and said...
Hello, how are you?
I can't believe that beauty that you carry.
Where are you from?
cause you can't be from this world.
well, I guess she must've heard me
cause she started walkin my way.
Oh! I can't believe she heard me
But here she is, right in front of me....
(Chorus)
C Am F G
What do I do? What do I say-ey,
C Am F G
What do I do? What do I say-ey,
break: C Am F G (2X)
Then she smiled at me, asked me for a dance.
We dance ever so slowly
My hands wandered, my mind was in awwwwwwed.
As we dance to the beat,
Our eyes meet, then I knew.
She just might be ee, the stranger in my dream.
Is this re

ThanksThanking all of those Cherry pies and tarts for the wonderful votes on my profile and pictures.
This is Master Unicorn sending salutations and hugs as appropriate.

Despondencydespondency
Ecstasy is not for me to say
I touch you, you move away
Never feeling the elation
Seems to be in a single nation
The euphoria of the mind is not shared
It’s just mine, in the cold open air
Intoxication of fantasies past, her emotions
Cut me like broken glass
Paradise is untouched today, she just got up
walked away
Missing the rapture every time, as I think about this rhyme
Exhilaration is never felt
the pain hits me below the belt
Euphoria has left me behind
heaven has locked it’s gates and left up a closed sign
By Scott baker

Chapter 6Death was having a cry. The first one he had ever remembered having. This woman was fun, witty, outraious, and had no fear of him at all. " So what should i call you, i mean i cant just keep saying Death this and Death that can I?" Those eyes looked up at him waiting for an answer. he knew all the names in the history of the humans existance, but none really mattered one way or another.
'What would you have me call myself."
" I think that you look kind of like some of the rock stars around here, rough, scarey, dark and lean. Uhmm, lets call you BOB. Just Bob, that way if I get mad at you I can call you Robert too." Again with the eyes looking up at him. He had never expected or needed someone to look up to him, so this wasd a heady experience.
" Bob, I like it."
Turning around Death twisted it around on his suedo tongue, savoring the way the name just flew off of him, so short, curt, strong sounding.
" by the way Bob, my name is Melissa. Glad to meet ya." She stuck out

Huh? Like You Didn't Know....http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20070405/hl_nm/bottled_water_dc
Water is water.
Any idiot that thinks it's different besides the additives should be counseled or shot in the back of the nearest country outhouse.
Trust me, I've heard the arguement, "but it's from the spring!". But where the hell does the rest of our water come from?

RebirthHurt for so long,
Afraid to try,
Built up the walls where I was safe to hide.
Its time to let go,
It's time to break free,
Theres something in you igniting sparks in me.
To trust is a risk,
Im finally willing to take,
But I guard my heart, so make no mistake.
Ive searched inside and found my peace
Im giving my self , more than a dream.
Im freeing myself from the enemy thats me,
Im opening up and setting myself free,
Im finally discovering ,
the rebirth of me.

Going CrazyI've been a nice person to everyone and i have two people that seem to have a problem with me no matter what i do they keep things going with me ,, one person is my ex and i went on ct to meet new people and good friends , well now he's on here starting shit with them and i don't know what to do . i've blocked him and iggyed him but he seem to still look at my ct every day and do and say mean thing's ,,, i just don't know what to do no more ?

The Inhalation Of One True Moment....by Rich SimpsonI must have sat there for two hours and watched her play.
Running in circles as if she would really ever get somewhere.
As the wind blew softy she giggled to herself ,whispering silly incantations only she would understand.The sun streamed down and highlighted the the ground no matter where she stepped ,as if in some kind of beautiful ballet with the earth.When she would peer at me, instantaneously my soul trembled with absolute goodness.I now am whole.....

Getting Married..... YayJames and Kristi
i must say that I'm on cloud 9... Me and James have set a date for our marrage it will be October 20th 2007. We haven't set a time but it will be in the late afternoon hour... We are trying to do this the cheapest way possable but ever romanci... I never thought I would find my soul mate, but thank god I have... I love his man with all my heart he's the love of my life and he means the world to me... I love you baby...

Nine Pints LowI lie in the crimson pool I have spilled on the hardwood floor.Its only been a second since I commited the act and I already regret what I have done..Thinking of you I cry myself to death,wishing you loved me as I did you.Looking at my hands I dream of holding you near me.Its to late,its to late....

Behavior From The Venus People...crewd ,rude ,piece of prechewed food.
E.T eats purple mayonnaise in the emotional backlash of secular america while homicidal hobo's rape sperm cheese on top of the poopoo sluts.Old meat, big green teeth thats what my nightmares are made of...brand new sheet and bladders that leak are the worlds way to say hey dont touch me there daddy............

Something To Remember Me ByAn uproar of silence flutters in the noise that once was . The after birth spilling out onto the floor .
whore! demon! Numb to the bone I shed a tear for you. You , who has no true comprehension of love , sacrifice or bond .
What a blunder that you only show that which your ignorance needed to thrive on .
If for not my rage and anger tamed , you would be dreaming of the life that once was during your trip to the dark world where you belong.
Then I shall atleast achieve peace as I walk aside infant reincarnate.

An Erotic WrittingSitting alone in the darkness of her world , she found herself lost in a fantasy.Hard as she trys to supress her desires , her mind will not let her escape.As she closes her eyes,her mind takes control of her body.The power she once possesed has left her willingly.She lets her hands fall gently upon her lap ... her fingers kneeding into her silk night gown. Her heart races as small fingers work the silk up above her thighs..Focusing on her breath , she inhales ,her fingers have exposed her pale flesh.Visions of him filling her head , her need growing more intense .As she runs her tongue over her lips she allows her hand to roam over her inner thigh.Her fingers find a spot , she knows this is her mark , the warm dampness reassures her.Wondering over the swollen mounds her fingers explore , learning of their surrounding , feeling the heat , becoming moist from her wetness.breaths being deeper , quicker , as her heart pounds a beat of want.She parts herself to reviel her hidden treasure.H

The Shadow ManEven on the happiest day of my life he tends to creep up on me, First stabing me in the pit of my stomach then all over my body...and I dont feel physical pain really. Instead I feel alone like my mind is drifting into a deep dark abyss and I am drowning in sarrow. I cant breath, my chest tightens up. I have sudden visions of inflicting harm on myself to make it all stop....The pain ....the pain the shadow man causes me. Even though I cant see him I know he is there because for a brief second before he impales my chest for the first time I feel his presence in the room... turning the most delightful moment into a tortureous dance of pain and sadness...Please leave me alone shadow man...please...or I might kill myself...

Going To See Stac Ans Shawn Then Going HomeIn a few days my family and I are going to be going to Tenn to see Stacy Hank and Shawn. We are gonig there to spend time with Stac and Shawn for there birthdays. It will be nice to see shawn its been awhile since we got to see him. then we will go and spend the rest of our time with Hank and stacy.
In bout 4 months from now we will be going back home to good ol' Michigan. We will be staying bout a week and its going to be during melon fest. If you are from my home town of Howell you will know what im talknig about melon fest. Well I have to bring back 2 Howell melons (are only grown in Howell) to North Carolina for a few people so they can see how good they are. But anyways so if your from back home you got 4 months to go before you get to see me

Old Poemyeah yeah ,my poetry sucks too fucking bad. I found this one while going through an old journal.
How can you look me in the eyes
continue to talk even tho I know its all lies
Im not so week , or easy to decieve
please understand Im playing for keeps
I stay here and wait , because Ive fallen for you
The you thats inside , not the lies you betray
why cant you just for once give me truth
why cant you prove Im more then a fool to you?
dont turn away , hear me just once
dont think that youve fooled me , Im not that far gone
I give you this power , allow you your throne
But in the end when you reveil the lies all along
dont cry to me , because you'll be all alone.

AllrightyWell, so far i found an apartment in Helena, and then on sunday i came to seattle. I have been at work here since yesterday. I also got to see my little daughter and it was awesome, she is the smartest cutest kid in the world, obviously she takes after me. cant wait to get back to helena on friday

Some Of My PoemsOne Wish
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Alone i sit inside my hell
my fallen tears can never tell
if i could have a wish instead
id make them see within my head
emptiness thats all that remains
the pain and fear wont go away
all the tears and screams within
circle around for some escape
my soul is lost my hope is gone
just a touch to bring me home
i cry these tears
but no one hears
im so afraid
the end is near
if i could have just 1 little wish
id make them see my hell within
i cant go back i cant escape
give me life something safe
with out these things
i cant go on
without some hope
my world is gone
Old Friend
-----------
today i sat with my old friend
the one thats always there in the end
she never questions or asks me why
she eagerly brushed across my thigh
her soft caress againt my arm
the way she leads her carring charm
her love for me is never dull
she helps to ease the painful soul
she only wants whats best for me
she takes away my misery
if all the

----------friends-----------OF ALL THE FRIENDS I'VE EVER MET,
YOU'RE THE ONE I WON'T FORGET.
AND IF I DIE
BEFORE YOU DO
I'LL GO TO HEAVEN
AND WAIT FOR YOU
I'LL GIVE THE ANGELS
BACK THEIR WINGS
AND RISK THE LOSS
OF EVERYTHING
JUST TO PROVE
MY FRIENDSHIP IS TRUE
I'M THANKFUL TO HAVE
FAMILY AND FRIENDS LIK EYOU!!!!!

All That I'm Living For (poem)All that i'm living for
All that i'm dying for
Everything has faded away
there is no hope for me
after everything i've seen
All that i'm living for
All that i'm dying for
all that i can't ignore
lonely nights have grown so weary
I can't pull myself together
All that i'm living for
All that i'm dying for
there is no chance of moving on
thought i could change the world
although i wanted more
All that i'm living for
All that i'm dying for
it hurts to love
hard to believe in anything
as my ghost gain upon me
written by Raven 04/10/07

---my Treasure Box-------RIGHT FROM MY TREASURE BOX
STRAIGHT TO YOU
I'M SENDING HEARTS AND HUGS
"CUZ I HAVE
A PLACE IN MY HEART
JUST FOR YOU!!!!!!

Hear Me Out.....Before anyone decide to send me a message please read all of this then send me a message if you want to.
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Ok here is the thing, I have been in philly for the past week. I have met very few people and have not met a single Fam member out here. I have also been slowly slipping in to a depression. i have been tempted to go into the kitchen and grab a knife and just cut at my arms, not kill me self. Every time I have had to try and think of the reasons why i shouldn't do it. But as of recently i have always had my Va fam in mind. Yet with the way my Fam has been acting towards me makes it seem like they are turning their back on me and it is making my choice harder. The last time I cried it was because I was leaving VA and now I can't seem to cry i only want to inflict pain upon my body making my body say "HEY YOU DON'T NEED TO CRY YOU PUSSY!!" I know I probably sound very emo at the moment

Ct Assholefkuaso@ CherryTAP
THIS IS HIS NEW PROFILE HE STOLE MY PIC AND USED IT FOR A FAKE PROFILE!!!!!!!
HE WILL RIPPED UR PICS AND MAKE FAKE PROFILES AND RATE U ONES SEND THIS MUTHA FUCKA SOME JUGGALO LUV!!!!!!!!RATE HIS ASS 1'S

----------special Angel----------HERE'S A VERY SPECIAL ANGEL
AS YOU CAN PLAINLY SEE,
THE REASON SHE'S SO SPECIAL IS
SHE'S JUST FOR YOU, FROM ME
WHENEVER YOU ARE LONELY
OR FEELING SAD AND BLUE,
REMEMBER THIS LITTLE ANGEL
AND KNOW I THINK OF YOU
SO KEEP THIS ANGEL WITH YOU
FOR ALL THE JOYS WE'VE SHARED,
AND REMEMBER SHE'S A SYMBOL
OF LOVING HEARTS, THAT CARES!!!!

Ate AloneI cooked
I ate alone though.. my boyfriend went and played basketball.. I am sick.. and home alone..lol
what fun...
I get laid off thursday..
I work tomorrow...
If I didnt need the money..
I would tell them to fuck off....

Tuesday 4/10/07Well, 3 more days and I'll get to see my cousin and I can hardly wait, lol as if that wasn't obvious.
Today was just another day, I folded and put away some laundry and then just listened to music and chatted the rest of the day.
I'm getting sick of eating ham lol, every meal since Easter dinner has been ham in some form lol. I like ham, but sometimes it gets to be a little to much lol.
Well, I know this entry was a bit boring, but I think I'm gonna end it here lol. Have a great night everyone.

Tearjerker"Tearjerker" by Korn
Well I wish there was someone
Well I wish there was someone
To love me
When I used to be someone
And I knew there was someone
That loved me
As I sit here frozen alone
Even ghosts get tired and go home
As they crawl back under the stones
And I wish there was something
Please tell me there's something better
And I wish there was something more than this
Saturated loneliness
And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it
Abduct it, corrupt it, but I never can
it's just saturated loneliness
Does the silence get lonely?
Does the silence get lonely?
Who knows?
I've been hearing it tell me
I've been hearing it tell me
Go home
Cause the freaks are playing tonight
They packed up and turned out the lights
And I wish there was something
Please tell me there's something better
And I wish there was something more than this
Saturated loneliness
And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it
Abduct it, corrupt it,

------ Angel Beside The Door-----MAY ANGELS REST BESIDE YOUR DOOR
MAY YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE SING
MAY YOU FEEL THEIR LOVING CARE FOR YOU,
MAY YOU HEAR THE PEACE BELLS RING,
MAY ANGELS ALWAYS CARE FOR YOU
AND NOT LET YOU TRIP OR FALL.
MAY THEY, BEAR YOU UP ON ANGELS WINGS
MAY THE KEEP YOU STANDING TALL,
MAY THE WHISPER WISDOM IN YOUR EAR,
MAY THEY TOUCH YOU WHEN YOU NEED,
MAY THE REMOVE YOU FROM EACH TRACE OF FEAR,
MAY THE KEEP YOU FROM FEELING GREED,
MAY THEY FILL YOU WITH THEIR PRESENCE,
MAY THEY SHOW YOU LOVE UNTOLD
MAY THEY ALWAYS STAND BESIDE YOU;
AND MAKE YOU EVER BOLD.
MAY THEY TEACH YOU WHAT YOU NEED TO KNOW
ABOUT LIFE HERE AND HERE AFTER
MAY THEY FILL YOU ALWAYS WITH THERE LOVE
AND GIVE YOU THE GIFT OF LAUGHTER
WISHING YOU A DAY FILLED WITH
LAUGHTER AND HAPPINESS!!!!

Chapter 5At the Pearly gates Peter had returned from his meeting with Himself. Himself and Herself now knew that Death was acting up again. This wasnothing new to Him, his angels seemed bent on rebelliousness every few millinia or so.
Peter returned to the gate doors podiam, relieved Azrial, resuming his post beside the book of judgments.
"Excuse me, sir angel, do you recognize me in my human skin? Can I ask you a question?"
Peter looked up and saw a lost soul. How those tugged at his heart. On looking closer, he noticed none of the light that should have shone around a newly rehabilitated soul. They always had a light shining around them and a weariness that just begged for relief. " What in the world are you doing here? Where is your halo? In fact I should know you were coming, but I have no new name on my list."
" I'm lost sir angel, Death never came for me, and I dont know wht to do. I could cry if I could, but I dont think my soul can do that yet. Please tell me wh

Monday 4/9/07Just another typical day today, just listened to crush fm and chatted pretty much all day. I worked on my page a little bit as well.
We had a really good Easter and had family over for dinner.
I found out that my cousin is coming in from the AF on Thursday and the girls in the family are all going out on Friday night for dinner to visit and hang out, so I'm really looking forward to that.
Well, I am going to end this entry here and start the one for today lol. Have a great day all.

I'm Proud To Be A BahamianIt is indeed a honor and a privlege to say that I am a Bahamian.Bahamians are down to earth easy going folk most of us but at the end of the day we are all that a bag of chips and much much more........Ask ur man he should know.....LOL
Fa real tho. Bahamians BE
We be the B in Bitch,
We be the A in Attractive,
We be the H in Honest,
We be the A in Articulate,
We be the M in Modest,
We be the I in Intelligent,
We be the A in Animated
We be the N in Nice,
We be the S in Sexy,
We are just dat damn good
B A H A M I A N S

Apologyya know a while back ago i said some really nasty things to someone on here and i feel like the BIGGEST pos for doin so!!! but since all of that i have since learnt its better to stfu when ya mad at someone so ya dont say things that ya really dont mean when ya angry.....So theres no need in sayin his name here cause he knows who he is and no matter what bonehead ya will always be one of my best friends love ya brat!!!!! he knows he can come to me whenever he needs to and knows that ill always be here for him no matter how much he wants to hate me lol!!! I have learnt as well not to say shit that ya may in the furture REALLY regret so in closing on this ya know who ya are and i love ya as my friend!!!!

------------sometimes-----------SOMETIMES THE WATERS GET ROUGH,
AND IT SEEMS YOU MIGHT LOSE YOUR WAY.
BUT WHETHER IN FRONT, BESIDE OR BEHIND YOU,
I AM WITH YOU EVERY DAY,
SO WHEN IT SEEM TO MUCH TO HANDLE,
REMEMBER YOU CAN CALL MY NAME.
I WILL ALWAYS BE RIGHT THERE FOR YOU,
BECAUSE I KNOW YOU WILL DO THE SAME.
THROUGH GOOD TIME AND BAD,
I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE
FOR YOU!!!!

This Is Bullshit,/ I'm Pissed OffI know this is old news for some of you, but excuse me for a moment while I try to reach those that haven't seen this yet.
I know from time to time everyone gets a low rating, either from a noob who doesn't understand CT customs or from dinks that are trying to cause trouble, but for a while, (maybe a few months now), I've noticed that I've been getting low rates from unknown users. I'm sure there have been many of you that have noticed the same thing and now we're learning that it's all a part of the changes that have been taking place around CT/LC over the past months...From the NSFW rules, to the newer rate/comment speed limits...
I realize that by putting anything on the internet I am placing it in the public domain, But for the most part, when I place something on CT it is for My CT~friends and the CT community at large that I am trying to reach. Up until a few days ago I believed that was what CT was about. Now we've learned, (Some of you may have already known...so excuse

The Northern Mythology Of The CreationCREATION
BEFORE THE EARTH EXSISTED EXCISTED THE FOGWORLD NILFHEIM IN NORTH AND IN SOUTH LAY BRIGHT AND FLAMING REGION MUSPELHEIM.
BETWEEN THESE 2 WORLDS LAY GINNUNGAGAP. OF THAT RIMEFROST WHICH MELTED WERE THE 1ST BEING CREATED: YMER.
WHILE YMER WERE SLEEPING AND SWEAT, AND FROM THAT SWEAT UNDER HIS LEFT ARMPIT EMERGED A MAN AND A WOMAN BEING.
HIS ONE LEG WITH OTHER LEG MADE A SON. IN THAT WAY WERE THE 1ST RIMETURSER HERRITAGE MADE.
WHERE THE RIMEFROST MELTED WERE ALSO THE COW AUDHUMLE CREATED, FROM WHICH YMER GOT HIS NUTRICISION,
HE DRANK FROM ITS 4 MILKRIVERS WHICH FLOWED FROM ITS WOUND.
AROUND THERE SALTS AND BLOCKS OF RIMEFROST, WHICH AUDHUMLE LICKED.
IN 3 DAYS HE LICKED THE GOD BURE FROM AN ICEBLOCK.
1ST DAY CAME THE HAIR, 2ND DAY THE HEAD, 3RD DAY THE WHOLE EMERGED.
BURE GOT THE SON BORR WHICH MARRIED BESTLA AND THEY THE SON ODIN, VILE AND VE.
TOGETHER THEY KILLED YMER AND AND IN HIS BLOOD THEY DROWNED ALL RIMETURSER EXCEPT BERGELMER AND HIS WIFE, WHICH BECA

QuotesThese are just sum Quotes that caught my eye in one book I have called "Think Big"
Thot I shud share a few of them with yall....
-If you worry about what might be, and wonder what might have been, you will ignore what is.
-The road to a successful relationship is always under construction.
-Forgivness is the key to happiness.
-Love lets the past die by moving us to a new beginning without changing the past.
-Don't lead me; I may not follow. Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Walk beside me and be my friend.
-A realationship is like a gem; it requires friction to polish it.
-Negative thinking is mental malpractise.
-If you don't know what direction to take, you haven't acknowledged where you are.
-The best way to predict your future is to create it.
-If you can't find the time to do it right the first time, when are you going to find the time to do it over?
-If you and you partner always agree, one of you is unneccessary!
-Therapist a

Things To Note In Life...1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.
2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.
3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
6. Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
7. Dream

--------wish You Were Here---------I CAN JUST SEE THEM WALKING ON THE SHORES OF HEAVEN
PRAISING THE LORD AND WATCHING THE TIDE ROLL IN
FRIENDS THAT THAVE GONE ON, OH HOW I MISS YOU SO
AND SOMEHOW I KNOW IF YOU COULD THAT YOU\'D LET ME KNOW
THAT YOU\'RE DOING FINE AND ITS DOESN\'T HURT ANYMORE
THINGS COULDN\'T BE BETTER AND HEAVEN IS WORTH WAITING FOR
THAT YOU MISS ME TOO AND TIL THEN YOU\'LL BE PRAYING FOR ME
AND I KNOW IF YOU COULD TALK TO ME NOW
THAT HERE\'S WHAT YOU\'D SAY TO ME
WISH YOU WERE HERE, IT SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PLACE
WISH YOU WERE HERE, NOTHING BUT CLEAR SUNNY DAYS
IT NEVER RAINS, NO ONE COMPLAINS AND WE HAVEN\'T SEEN A TEAR
WE\'RE HAVING A GREAT TIME, WISH YOU WERE HERE.
I CAN JUST SEE THEM WALKING ON THE SHORE TOGETHER
THEY\'RE TALKING WITH JESUS, SAFE AND SECURE IN HIS LOVE
FRIENDS AND LOVED ONE WALKING IN HEAVENLY PEACE
AND I KNOW IF THEY COULD TALK TO ME NOW
HERE\'S WHAT THEY\'D SAY T O ME
WISH YOU WERE HERE, ITS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PLACE
WISH YOU WEERE HERE, NOTHING BUT CLE

Think Im Perfect????no Im Not!!!im not a perfect girl..my hair doesnt always stay in place and i spill things alot,Im pretty clumsy and some times i have a broken heart.My frenz and i sometymes fight or row.Mayb some days nothing goes right,bt wen i tink about it and take a step back i remember how amazin life truely is and that maybe just maybe i like being UNPERFECT!!!!!!!!.....

Leaving SongLeaving Song
Sit there all in all
Waiting on the phone
Push my body to the floor still you never call
She's still with me kiss still kills me
Can't feel guilty it's just a memory
All the things you put me through
All the hopeless nights I tried to make it right for you
Show me how it is to lose and who the hell are you
To drag me down with you
Flowers that I bought are now dead and gone
Love that was before is gone evermore
All my hurting, all my yearning, all that burning
Can't you see that it is me. my beautiful
All the things you put me through
All the hopeless nights I tried to make it right for you
Show me how it is to lose and who the hell are you
To drag me down with you
Every time I looked in your eyes
Crucified again
Every time you sold me your lies
It was justified in the end
Just like some face lost on a runaway train
Pass my bye and wave goodbye
All the things you put me through
All the hopeless nights I tried to make it right for you
S

Happy Hour In TexasA cowboy is driving down a back road in Texas ...
a sign in front of a restaurant reads:
Happy Hour Special...
Lobster Tail and Beer
"Lord almighty" he says to himself, "my three favorite things!!"

LossMy step sister passed away unexpectedly today at the age of 29. She leaves behind a 6 year old daughter with Autism. It really makes you realize how another seemingly normal day can take such a wrong turn. She never even got to say goodbye to her daughter, who was the love of her life. I don't think I'll ever understand why things happen the way they do.........

~*~how I Feel~*~Frustrated Cuz I Can't
Tell If It's Real
Mad Cuz I Dont Know
How You Feel
Upset Cuz We Cant
Make It Right
Sad Cuz I Need You
Day And Night
Angry Cuz You Wont
Take My Hand
Aggrivated Cuz You
Dont Understand
Dissapointed Cuz We
Can't Be Together
...But Still...
I Will Love You Forever

The BattleSo we were supposed to go to court today for the custody modification that we are going for, for my step daughter. However we got the phone call yesterday saying that it is delayed till next week because we didn't respond. I was PISSED because we didn't respond again because the damn paralegal said I didn't have to. Turns out she is stupid and we had to talk to the attorney. But the ex whore thinks she wants to settle. HA! If that goes anything like when the divorce was going we would never settle because she is too damn set that she should have everything that she wants. But on a plus note she didn't get an attorney, and the one we have is one of the best in Spokane. He plays hardball and he is damn good at it. I have seen him work. So if she thinks that she is going to get anywhere with him then she has got another thing coming. Even if she retained an attorney, they bump up their retainer requirements when they are up against our attorney. I just think it's funny that her

Tragedy.Tragedy.
Tragedy struck today
two hearts went their own ways
One heart was blue , cold as ice
As words cut the veins
once or twice.
The other turned black as stone
cement pumping through to the bone
All closed up for the day !
Both threw love down and walked away.
Scott baker

Chapter 4Marissa knew if she had a chance in hell or heaven of being reborn, she had to figure out where Death was. Being a soul, her options were limited. She could enter the outskirts of Heaven, and she could enter the outside of Hell, but she could mostly stay right where she was, in between. First she decided to try Satan again, since he was the one that wanted her in the first place.
How does a soul travel, she thought. Like that old commercial about drugs, "just do it", came to her. So she willed herself to Hell. And there she was, approaching the Gates, a demon stepping out in front of her. " Who are you? Is Satan here? I need to speak to him about something."
" and I'm cliff, drop in some time," the demon roared at what on earth was a very old joke.
"Seriously, what do you want here? Satan is very busy, sending souls through purgatory and then shipping them back out to Himself for rebirth."
" I'm lost", the woman said. " Death never came to get me, and I cant go an

Secured Credit CardsTrying to build credit,
I have a secured credit card and I'm looking at get a new secured and I'm not happy with the 6 dollar a months membership fee the interest rate is decent...
Just looking for opinions... please don't rate me a 1 for asking a serious question.
Thankyou for your time!!!!
Michael

Can God Use Me?The next time you feel like God can't use you, just remember...
Noah was a drunk
Abraham was too old
Isaac was a daydreamer
Jacob was a liar
Leah was ugly
Joseph was abused
Moses had a stuttering problem
Gideon was afraid
Samson had long hair and was a womanizer
Rahab was a prostitute
Jeremiah and Timothy were too young
David had an affair and was a murderer
Elijah was suicidal
Isaiah preached naked
Jonah ran from God
Naomi was a widow
Job went bankrupt
John the Baptist ate bugs
Peter denied Christ
The Disciples fell asleep while praying
Martha worried about everything
The Samaritan woman was divorced, more than once
Zaccheus was too small
Paul was too religious
Timothy had an ulcer
...AND
Lazarus was dead!
Point..?? Just this:
God can use you to your full potential, whoever you are.
Besides you aren't the message, you"re only the messenger.
Please Repost this...In the Circle of God's love.
(Gee, I don't feel so bad now!)
NEVER LOSE A CHANCE T

"never Ment To Be"Softly as a gentle breeze,
Love crept into my heart
So softly I did not realize
Until we came to part.
'Twas then that love so suddenly
Grew claws, and without warning
Clamped around my heart and left
Me bleeding and in mourning.
So stunned was I by this attack,
I did not cry out "stay! "
And, frowning at my silence,
I turned and walked away.
I never knew, until I left,
How much you'd meant to me
And now you're gone, I guess
Our love was never meant to be.

Keepsakes....How I want to live my life....BACKWARDS!!!!
I want to live my next life backwards. You start out dead and get that out of the way. Then you wake up in an old age home feeling better every day. You get kicked out for being too healthy; go collect your pension, then when you start work, you get a gold watch on your first day. You work 40 years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You drink alcohol, you party, you're generally promiscuous, and you get ready for High School. You go to primary school, you become a kid , you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a baby, and then... You spend your last 9 months floating peacefully in luxury, in spa-like conditions; central heating, room service on tap, larger quarters every day, and then, you finish off as an orgasm.
I rest my case.

Carpenters Vs RoofersWhy are carpenters better lovers than roofers?
Carpenters start from the bottom working their way to the top. Hanging on climbing all over building up till they get to the top.
Roofers climb on top and just start hammering away.

The MessageI don’t speak for these words’ sake
I speak to reach the message
Arguing semantic circles around what’s important
Will make me leave your circles
I’m allergic to these word tricks
I have no love for lawyers, I ignore them
They’re boring, and ignorant
More talking does not make you sound smarter
So try to understand what I’m saying
And not just what part you can argue
There are no answers in just the words’ sound
The meaning is found through reflection
If you can’t find the message
It is your own self deception
If I think about something too much
I don’t say it
I think about everything too much
Thus I remain silent
In thought through rhyme
Wrought from mystical vines
Caught in poetry lines
Where I was taught to find my outlet
In right format for rap to rage war back
In time lapse
Rewrite the mind set
In hind sight
To find light inside life

In A Dream We Call RealityLooks like it's back to words again to peace my mind together
In a Dream we call Reality
Some conversations get us nowhere
Some conversations get us back-words
Some conversations can heal passed words
Unveiling passwords, unlocking masters' last words
In wisdom, in honor, in rapture
In vision of higher wisdom in honor of respect
That is love
That is God
That is as perfect as you allow it to get
Before your senses can't handle the sense
That was never taught how to implement
Over time as thoughts take out all signs of the limitlessness
In a Dream we call Reality
A common theme through my dreams seems to be
The art of finding meaning through writing
Through out scenes in other people's lighting
Weaving my own story despite them
Before everything falls away into a reality
Where we say we wake up...
Into a dream I can't remember starting
And it's only after we wake up into clarity
That we can call a reality a dream

Doggystylei am getting a puppy ... i need some help ... he is a boy . and a fat lill thing.. i donthave him yet or i would ahave a pic up ... but i need help with a name ....
ok i did have a dog but someone killed him ... well shot him .... his anme was jugernot .. i loved like a child ... i miss him ... but he is gone ....

DeathMOMMA TAKE THIS BADGE FROM ME I CAN'T USE IT ANYMORE,IT'S GETTIN DARK TO DARK TO SEE,FEELS LIKE I'M KNOCKIN ON HEAVENS DOOR.MOMMA PUT MY GUNS IN THE GROUND I CAN'T SHOOT THEM ANYMORE THAT COLD BLACK CLOUD IS COMIN DOWN FEELS LIKE I'M KNOCKIN ON HEAVENS DOOR

First Purchase..One of the things I love doing best is masturbating… it doesn’t take much to get me aroused and when I am, my juices start to flow and I get that very familiar clutching feeling in my belly that tells me I must do something to take care of my needs… NOW!!! Well, I am not always in the position to do anything with a partner, hence my dependence on masturbation. Until now, my technique was pretty basic, but effective… one finger on my clit and the other hand cupping my mound, and the whole thing done while lying in a prone position to increase the pressure on my groin area. There was always one problem though… I like… no…. I LOVE the idea and sensation of being FILLED… really filled by something… (can you all guess??) .. Sometimes I would slip a finger or two or three in my dripping cunt and fill myself that way but it too lacked a certain something. Well, another thing I like very much is the idea of being WATCHED when I masturbate by someone who really cares about me…. and so…. the

Juicy Fruits“Damn, they’re out of chocolate pudding mix!” I shrugged my shoulders and began to walk out of the store but a cute hunk of a checker caught my eye at checkout #4. I sauntered over, deftly snapping up a pack of Juicy Fruits out of the rack only the way. I gingerly placed the pack down on his conveyor belt and it inexorably rolled up to his waist. He looked up as I did this and our eyes held each other just a little too long, self-consciously. He smiled at me and I felt a little embarrassed. I looked down and smiled, brushing the bangs out of my eyes as I looked up again. He turned his attention to the pack of Juicy Fruits. As he picked it up and swiped it across the bar code reader, I could see his rather muscular hand ever so gently squeezing the pack. I pretended the total display was the center of my attention by looking up at it, but I could care less how much the cost was.
I could feel him pretending not to watch me, my cheeks flushing red with that knowledge. As the n

"feels Just Like It Should" Pat GreenFeels Just Like It Should VideoFeels Just Like It Should lyrics - Pat Green lyricsPat Green Music VideosMusic Video Codes by VideoCure
Let's jump in my El Camino - Uh huh
Roll the windows down
Thought we could see what kind of trouble
we can find out on this messed up little town
The Boss on the radio- uh huh
Take whatever comes
We'll go flying down the highway with my arms around you singing Born To Run
It feels just like it should
Must be some kind of miracle
Like I got sun on my face and the rain ain't never going to fall
It feels so good
Oh It is almost spiritual
Tomorrow's nowhere in sight
Right now, right here tonight
It feels just like it should
Well you got your good looks - uh huh
And you got your style
And I'd drown here in this ccean
Just to have you float my boat for a while
I got a reputation - uh huh
Don't you worry about that
Just give me a chance and we'll never gonna ever look back
And it feels just like it should
It must be some kind

Picture RatingsI don't really know where to begin...i don't consider myself a beauty queen but i do think that i'm kinda cute...i would never rate someone's pic a 1...if they were that ugly i would just go on to another profile...i'm guessing it was someone that needed some points...if you want to give me a 1, i wish you would just not leave me anything...this is supposed to be fun...

Sister Is HomeHey everyone,
Just wanted to update everyone and let you know that my sister is finally home!!!! weeeeeeeeeee
She still has to use the feeding tube at night but she is doing it from the comfort of her own home!! Thank you everyone from the bottom of my heart for all your prayers and thoughts!!!!
love you all tons
huggles
Bren

[erotica]: The Apple GroveThe sun shimmered through the trees, causing shadows to dance across the grove, as the wind lifted the scattered leaves, blowing them into Fall's lap. Natalie owned one of the largest Apple Groves in the county. She was proud of her harvest, allowing her to continue her peaceful life. The valley had been her home since childhood. Her grandfather originally owned the property leaving it to her father. When her father passed away, he left it to his only heir, Natalie. Natalie could not imagine doing anything else. Harvesting Apples was her life and her life's blood, without the Grove she could not exist.
Each year, she had to hire new hands. The pickers migrated from crop to crop. Sometimes there were a few old faces in the sea of new. Being a picker did not pay much, so Natalie could sympathize why so few stayed with the job. This year Natalie decided to try something different. Usually, she managed the pickers, and handled the Harvest and company needs. This year s

[erotica]: The ItchBeth couldn't sleep. It might have been the heat or it might have been her roommate’s snoring coming through the paper thin wall or it might have been that her shit-for-brains ex had walked out on her a week ago for the last time. Not that she missed him. It could have been any of those things but it wasn't. You see, she had this itch. It was a very aggravating itch and it made her restless. It was located in a very special place, high up between her thighs. It was a very deep itch and would require very deep scratching.
Of course, she could scratch it herself, as she had done on several occasions before, but her restlessness was reinforced by the sound of gentle snores from the room next to hers. It would be oh so much better to have somebody scratch it for her. Mike had always been a good friend of hers but she had preferred to keep it at a friendship level. When mutual financial circumstances had made sharing an apartment seem like a very good idea, she had proclaimed

[erotica]: DaydreamsI am staring at you, but you don’t even feel my eyes burning into the back of your neck. I wish, just once, you would turn around. Just once? Oh well. I can dream, can’t I? I’m glad we had a class outside today. It’s warm out and the professor doesn’t expect us to really pay attention. How could he when there are people playing Frisbee only ten feet away from him? So I can daydream and he won’t care!
I can daydream about how once, just once, when I am watching you, you’ll turn around and see me. I will blush because I am always watching you, even though you don’t know it. And you’ll smile. You like it when girls blush. It makes you wonder what we’re thinking. I don’t mind telling you what I’m thinking.
When you see me, I turn away for a second, but then I glance back out of the corner of my eye. Your attention has turned back to the professor but I can see you glance at me and I blush again. Caught by something in my eye, some telltale expression, you turn again to fa

[erotica]: WorkoutHere I was, sweating my ass off at my aerobics class, thinking what an asshole my ex-boyfriend was when I lost my concentration, stumbled, and fell onto the most beautiful woman that I had ever seen. She had black, curly hair, that fell almost to her waist, bright green eyes, and a rosy complexion and an enviable bust line. She couldn’t have been more than 5’2” tall, slim, trim and sexy as hell. Just what I had always wanted to be. But I was tall, sure I was in shape, but men never seemed to go for the tall ones.
Overcome by her beauty, I mumbled an apology, grabbed my towel, and headed for the showers. Standing in the warmth of the shower, I couldn’t keep my mind off that girl. I had never had an experience with a woman, and I wasn’t sure that I had ever wanted. To. But something about this girl… I don’t know, just got me thinking. I started fantasizing about what she would look like without her leotard on. Needless to say my thoughts turned me on.
With soapy fingers

Myspace.comCome over and check me out on MySpace.com
Here are some of my links i have over on myspace.
http://www.myspace.com/n0sze
http://www.myspace.com/tim66214
I am a Weather spotter in Johnson County Kansas so our weather group has a myspace.com page
http://www.myspace.com/k0ecs
My High School Alumni class. Has one, It is the class of 1981 of Shawnee Mission South, If you are a class mate of 1981 we will accept you as a friend. http://www.myspace.com/sms_class81
I have a dating page (not much of one)http://www.myspace.com/i_need_a_woman

From A Machanice View..... On Sex.....Depending on who you ask, sex is like variety or things.
For a automotive person sex is like a 350 big block
Rough raw and powerful,
If you notice when they walk up to their baby they stroke her gently before entering
Ever so carefully opening her to nestle inside. They caress the wheel as they begin to turn he on
Inserting a single thin key starts her up as he gently turns it inside her.
The more pressure he applies to the hammer, the louder she purrs
Opening the throttle more and more, as that big block begins to rock a little more
The pistons going in and out faster and faster, more and more lubricant seeping around them
Pressure building up with in, hot combusting fluids rushing about inside as she screams louder
Beginning to buck out of control like a wild hellcat tearing up the pavement.
Reaching the peak as she redlines, he finally eases off her, allowing her to gently reach a purring
Low idle of satisfaction, putting her back into her safe place, he exits her as

Chapter 3Stupid, stupid stupid. She had done it again, but this time it might be a permanant thing, no coming back. She loved the high she got when the drugs first hit her system. But this time she may have over done it. Feeling foolish, ashe struggled for some clarity, and found herself looking directly into the face of Death. she knew it was Death because of his cowl and sickle. And of course the fact that he was the ugliest thing she had ever see.
"Hi there death. I guess that maybe you think you might be here for me. Well dont bother, I aint going. I been worse then this, and Im not ready. So go on your merry or unmerry way and find someone else to bug. This gal isnt ready yet." She struggled to curl herelf into an even tighter ball then she already was, and closed her eyes. This must be what heaven was like, she thought. All dreamy and floaty like this. She felt no pain, no nothing. Just dreamy and content. Why couldnt life be like this all the time? So much nicer when

Hatei effin hate it when ppl say they r goin 2 do some thing and they dont do it that pisses me off so much

QuizWant to take a quiz??...
1. Last time you had a date?
A: I don't think I've ever been on a real 'date'.
2. Last time you had sex?
A: It's been too long, I forget.
3.a. Last time you gave a bj?
A: The same time I last had sex more'n likely.
3.b. Spit or swallow?
A: Swallow.
4.a. Last time you masturbated?
A: Couple hours ago.
4.b. Fingers or toy?
A: Fingers.
5. Ever used food during sex? (Details!!)
A: Yes, fruit, sauces.
6. Sex outside?
A: Love It!
7. Most unusual place youve had sex?
A: @ a wedding reception outside the hall.
8. How many men have you had sex with?
A: Nunya
9. Any women?
A: Yes
10. Anal?
A: Yes
11. Ever been tied up?
A: Yes
12. Spanked?
A: Mmmmmmm Yes!! lol
13. Your special sexual skill?
A: I give great head! hahaha
14. On top, underneath or from behind?
A: All of the above please!
15. Would you describe yourself as dominant or submissive?
A: Submissive.
16. Kink

[erotica]: Their First MeetingAlthough they had spoken on the phone and online, they had never met face to face. Today, it would happen. Today she would meet him at the predetermined location. She could feel his presence and he could feel hers. Their souls were
that connected.
Their eyes met. Although they had exchanged pictures, there was an instant animalistic attraction that had not before been discovered. Neither could understand it. She was almost twice his age, and he was barely legal. It was almost as if their souls called out to each other. She couldn't help but stare at him. He was so beautiful. She knew that guys...MEN...didn't like to be called beautiful, but she could think of no better word to describe his physical beauty. She could see straight through to his soul and that also was beautiful. She saw an innocence and enthusiasm that she had long forgotten existed.
He couldn't help but stare. He found her beauty not only on the surface, but emanating from within...that and the fact

[erotica]: Brian's Birthday*** written as if from a male perspective - wasn't that great! ***
You walk in warily, not knowing quite what to expect. I say nothing, just taking your hand and leading you through the doorway. After you pass, I close the door behind you and throw the bolt. You jump a bit as the spring latch slams home, and look back at me. I only smile and wink.
You look around; you've never been in my bedroom before. You look at the mess on the floor, look back at me, but I only shrug and smile. You watch me light some of the oil lamps, your smile slowly growing on your face. I turn off the light and we are bathed in the soft, gentle glow of the lamps.
Still standing, I walk over to you and gaze into your eyes. Easily, I put my arms around your waist, and you put your arms around my neck. Gently, hesitantly, we kiss.
Softly your lips press against mine.. soft, smooth, warm, alive. We kiss and kiss again, and a sigh escapes between kisses. Your arms tighten about my neck as I hold you eve

Naughty ApplicationNAUGHTY " Application
just between you and me
1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Favorite position (s)?
4. Do you think i'm hot?
5. Would you have sex with me?
6. lights on or off?
7. Would you have to be drunk?
8. Would you take a shower with me?
9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me?
10. Would you leave after or stay the night?
11. Do you like cuddling afterwards?
12. Condom or skin?
13. Do you give Oral pleasures?
14. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures?
15. Have sex on the first date?
16. Would you kiss me during sex?
17. Do you think I would be good in bed?
18. Three sum?
20. How many times would you like to cum?
21. Would you use me as a booty call?
21. Can I use you as a booty call?
22. Do you like fore play?
23. What is fore play to you?
24. Can we take pictures of the act?
25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Bbq At My New House!Theres gonna be a Texas gathering in North Carolina. BBQ at my house on Saturday April 14th 2007. The plan so far is to cook out here at the house then head to "Cadillac Ranch" afterwards. Message me for details and directions.

Cute Stash Update !Hope you all had a great Easter !!
I have added some cute/funny animal pics to my stash so please stop by and show lotsa love !!
Thanks and big hugs
Lin xx

Are You Feminine Or Masculine?You Are 30% Feminine, 70% Masculine
You are in touch with your masculine side.
You are not overly sensitive and not easily moved.
Occasionally, though, something will get through and touch your heart!
Are You Masculine or Feminine?

PoemDreaming
I used to dream of eyes so blue And loving arms to hold me. I used to dream of heroic knights And how gracious they would be.
I used to dream of how I wouldn’t settle For anything less than best. I used to dream of how he would majestically Lay all fears to rest.
I used to dream of fairy tales, How wondrous would they be I used to dream of story books All patterned after me.
I used to dream of a lot of things, But the moment I met you, I immediately stopped dreaming, Because all of my dreams came true

Our PicsTake ur pics out of the default...and make the folders private then the fascist cant do shit with our pics that we dont know about...its ok for me to put my pics on ct for ppl to see...but for some1 else to do it is like hes stealing our pics to promote his bussiness and when i signed up for ct...i didnt agree to that...
copyed from bulliton
WE ARE TAKING OUR PICS OUT OUR DEFAULTS AND MAKING IT ONLY FOR FRIENDS/PRIVATE!!!
WE DON'T WANT TO RISK THAT SOMEONE REPORT YOU FOR YOU HANDLING OUR PICS WITHOUT OUR KNOWLEDGE!!
WHAT HE DOES WITH OUR PICS ISN'T RIGHT!!! SO PLEASE REPOST,IF YOU AGREE WITH ME
THANKS, BEANIE
(repost of original by 'beanie' on '2007-04-09 16:40:47')
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Have You A Fairy In Your Home?Have You A Fairy In Your Home?
Current mood: calm
Category: Life
Today, my sister announced that she wanted to move in with my dad. This is no doubt a result of my dad filling Eva with false hopes of what is to come if she is to move in with him. My mother was hit hard by it, because she's taking it extremely personally..thinking that Eva doesn't like her, blah blah.. when really, Eva is fucking 11 years old. Shes selfish(as all little kids are), and she's materialistic. We all know that my family hurts for money. It's a fucking wonder that we get by at all. The only reason we're getting by is because of child support. If Eva moves in with my dad, there is no way he's going to continue to pay child support to my mom since Eve's living with him. We'll have to sell the house if she moves in and he stops paying. We won't be able to afford to live there.
Anywho, I kinda got off topic there.. Eva is materialistic/selfish.. my dad has all these gadgets (Xbox, Playstation,Cable,I

To All On My Friends Listi am in the process of removing friends from my friends list, i dont need a million ppl who dont talk to me
so if i havent heard from you in a while either say hi or ill just remove you
thanks

All I Have To Say To You...the Only Way I Can Vent.All she ever asked " "
Was that so hard to do?
Now all she can say is " "
And I'm wonderin why you don't even care.
Is all I ever see in her...all I hear when she cries cuz of how many lies you've promised and how many times you've torn her apart inside.
I don't really think so...and if it's true than you got a fucked way of puttin it through. Yeah I know she spits the message right back but maybe just maybe that's cuz you caused her to crack.
and the only thing I see you riskin is money and time and the life that you seem to want so badly that you'd do nothing for.
and you...you about killed her. But you can't even see that what you did made her stronger and made her realize that she doesn't need anyone...not even you...at all anymore.
And I'm so afraid that one of these days you're going to hurt her so bad that she's gunna say "

Life In GeneralSo, I had to run to the college today to do some research, I get back to the flat - remind me to tell you about the house - anyway, so there's my lady friend cooking turkey tacos...hey, I like a taco as well as anyone, but turkey, you gotta be kidding. I ate a couple out of starvation, then headed to the computer with my jack - to hell with the coke tonight.
Okay, this house, belonged to a exMarine friend who up and died of Cancer. I told his brother he ought to investigate, he probably caught it during desert storm. Anyway, so the brother doesn't want to make payments until late summer when he can sell it. You see, the Yankees come to the beach in the summer, think they'd love to own something, pay giant prices for crap, then use it two weeks a year. I took over everything for the brother - payments, utilities, the works. The crazy bitch I lived with in the district is holding down that flat - well her name is on the lease - I don't think I am welcome back. Anyway, here I am in a

What Is BeautyBeauty is not see through ones looks its looking deep into ones soul looking into a persons eyes can reveal their soul. Never judge any one by if they are fat , skinny, ugly , pretty.Its the person inside that shines the colors they shine the way they act reveals so many things so never be shallow and look at a person because they are fat because their hearts might be just as big never judge a ugly person because they can love you more dont judge beautiful people because they can be the worst type as for me i am not beautiful or pretty i am just me one that has a heart it might have been torn apart a few times but there is one still here smile sjust some thoughts my 1st blog i hope i have bored any one to death ( offers mouth to mouth )

Another One Of Those1. My name— you should know it by now..if not ask me..i'll lie to ya.
2.WHY ARE YOU SINGLE -- I guess I haven’t really been throwing bait…or no one is fishing in my direction.
3. WHAT IS MY IDEA OF A PERFECT SOUL MATE? A woman who loves God and has a relationship with him. A simple woman
4. What is my ideal relationship? a relationship where there is an agreement of the minds..where not too much is spoken or gestured..
5. What makes me the woman/man that I am now? My life experiences.
6. Where do u see yourself in the next five yrs with regard to having a family? i am not sure..what will be will be
7. IF I COULD CHANGE 5 THINGS ABOUT MYSELF WHAT WOULD THE BE AND WHY? my sense of individuality, my procastinating ways, be more spiritual, develop excellent social skills, learn to enjoy life with others.
8. DO I LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY? ....
9. HOW IMPORTANT IS GOD IN MY LIFE? God is essential…nothing else matters if I don’t have Him…and I am nothing without Him. St

HighnoteIm going to be at Highnote April 27, gonna see 3 bands there can anyone give me some information about this place never heard of it...I think it is on Southside but Im not sure....So help me out if you can....The bands are ...After The Tragety, red Murphy, and Into Never....
Thanks Randy

Getting Ready For The Taliban OffensiveGerman Tornado jets have come under NATO command in Afghanistan just as violence in the country intensifies, with seven NATO troops killed over the weekend. Meanwhile, Australia has announced that it is to double its forces in the country to around 1,000 soldiers.
"We're not losing the war but we will not win it without renewed and increased effort."
Australian Prime Minister John Howard's sober remarks came as NATO forces in Afghanistan get ready for the Taliban's long-awaited spring offensive. Australia is doubling its troop numbers, and Germany has finally put its Tornado jets under NATO command -- but, somewhat ominously, the latest reinforcements coincide with ISAF's worst casualties in two years.
The German army confirmed Monday that its Tornado reconnaissance jets, which arrived in Afghanistan last week, are now officially under NATO command. "At midnight the operational squadron with the six recce Tornados and their additional personnel deployed here were placed under

And The Daddy Is...............Congratulations to Larry Birkhead, winner of the 2007 Anna Nicole Smith Vaginal Dumpster Invitational
NASSAU, Bahamas (CNN) -- Larry Birkhead is the father of Anna Nicole Smith's baby daughter, Dannielynn, a Bahamian judge ruled Tuesday.
"Everybody, I hate to be the one to tell you this -- but I told you so," Birkhead said outside the court as he smiled and threw his hands into the air.
When asked what's next, he said, "I'm going to the toy store."
Crowds applauded in front of the courthouse as Birkhead, Smith's former boyfriend, made the announcement, and Birkhead teared up as he thanked his supporters.
A DNA test confirmed him as the father with 99.99 percent certainty, said Dr. Michael Baird, who performed the test and revealed the results to a closed session of a Bahamian court Tuesday.
The court had ordered DNA testing to determine the father of the child, who has been at the center of a paternity dispute since she was born in a Bahamian hospital in September.
Smith had

I Guess This Is My First BlogI am sick today... I have a sinus infection..
I feel like shit... I have to work tomorrow..
After Thursday I am laid off...
I am trying to find a new job...
I am working on it though...
I hope that I find something soon.. other than that... aint shit happening

Fuck Mebam bitch im on here now and the smurfs will rule the world cuz im sexy and i like hell and holy shit i just fucked phishy twice with a dog dildo

Chapter 2Having dropped off this latest soul, Death decided to take a detour. "Pearly gates, sure thing," he mumbled as he reached the gates of His fortress. " No pearls of any kind here, just a blockade for His favorites and those that he allows to have some fun."
At the entrance of the huge doors, there stood one of the beautiful ones. One of His own personal helpers. He could not help but compare his visage with the other. Where he was allowed a cowl, and ugly body, scarey even, this favorite was all white, wings half the length of his body, flowing hair and handsome, so very handsome. It just wasnt fair. And he had a name of all things, a name!
"What is it this time, Death? Did you forget your sickle, need a new blade? Ah, I know, you want to wear a different color black, is that it?" Peter loved ribbing Death. Such a somber personna, no humor at all.
Death was determined this time to enter the gates of heaven and have a much wanted meeting with Himself.
"Peter, out of m

I'm Going To Do This, And You Should, Too!Make a blog entry with your pics and your commentary. :D
Aw, c'mon! It'll be fun.
http://learningtoloveyoumore.com/reports/43/43.php
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Edited to add the following:
Be sure to check out the "reports" and the comments. :)

You All Are Specialyou all have a place in my heart i cant begin to tell you all where there is too many of you,lol well anyways you all are awsome and i just want to thank you all again,you all are fun to talk too and i know that i cant talk to you all at once but i can give it my best shot

To My DadTo My Dad
All your false promises
Are coming to an end
I no longer believe you-
On you I cannot depend
You have been replaced
No longer,"daddy's litte girl"
It leaves your love disgraced
I am done crying
You are not my dad
Because someone who I loved so much
Could never make me this sad
I will not come to your wedding,
I know whit you thats fine
But someone else will give me away
Because you'll not be invited to mine
I'm tired of last chances
I really dont need a dad
Especially one like you!!

This Is How I Feel Sometimes4. Jumpdafuckup 2000 Soulfly
[w/ Corey Taylor "#8" (Slipknot)]
Jumpdafuckup!
Muthafucka u don't understand
All my hate!
Muthafucka u don't understand
All my rage!
Muthafucka u don't understand
All my pain!
Muthafucka u don't understand...
You seem to sever all my frequencies
I'm tethered to your energies
And everything turns inside out
I can't be killed but I'm not too proud
Maybe you would like to peek through the curtain
At the same mistake you know you always make
But...all I really want to know is
Are you gonna lay the fuck back down
Or jump da fuck up?
Walking in da streets and looking at all this shit
I'm full of hate, don't fuck with me
Walking in da streets and looking at all this shit
Open up your eyes and fucking see
We got the tribe against society
We got to fight the real enemy
Get da fuck up, stand da fuck up
Back da fuck up
All this is making things a bit insane
And I don't care who stares or stays
The only thing that matters is

Inspired By BenI was just readng a blog of a very old and dear friend of mine, i was about one perfect morning he had and i thought to my self...I remeber having a moment like this once. sad isnt it?.. in 29 years.. one moment.. when i can remeber the breeze on my shoulders..dancingover my collarbones..and the scent of clover and dandelions with their sweet aroma filling my head.. a moment of clarity... i remeber thinking.. is this what it feels like to be happy? are the meds working? For a moment i saw the sunshine for the first time as it kissed every blade of grass...colors of jade and celery... as i gazed in the rearveiw mirror at my children.. it was as if i was seeing their angellic faces for the first time.. gifts of beauty and innocence bestowed to me.... i smiled and told them i loved them..and saw the joy on their faces..and then like the waters of baptisum my tears in all their salty sweetness for one moment seemd to was things anew. In that moment i knew i was loved... purpose.... at las

Saying Good Bye To FriendsI have come to see that the friends who turned me on to CT have up and left with such negative words about CT. Yes most of what they say are true and I MIGHT just MIGHT say goodbye also to CT. That will be determined at a later time.
I have out of a triple digit number of "friends" only to say I really I got to know only a dozen. And those that I did, I HOPE YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. These friends are the ones I look forward to seeing on my CT page and in 360 you are the ones that matter. When I do decide to shut down my CT page I will miss those who I do not chat with in Yahoo IM messenger or in 360, hopefully we can if you do have an ID.. Come look me up.. I welcome you.
TO my buds that left sorry you did and I will miss you even though I see you in 360.
Keeping it always real
MO

4 More Days :)HELLO EVERYONE DAMN I CANT WAIT I ONLY HAVE 4 MORE DAYS TELL MY LOVE OF MY LIFE COMES HOME I MISS HIM SO MUCH............. LIFE ISNT THE SAME WITH OUT HIM.......... HE IS THE BEST THAT EVER HAPPEND TO ME HE IS SO SWEET HE HAS A GREAT HEART AND I KNOW HE REALLY CARES ABOUT ME............. NATHAN I MISS U SO MUCH CANT WAIT TELL U COME HOME I MISS U SO MUCH ANY WAYS I JUST WANTED TO LET U GUYS KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON WITH ME SENDING ALL OF U SOME LOVE

Lifelife is odd,ya never know what you're gonna run into,or who you will meet. hopefully both be fun

AztecOH PRIESTESSS WITH
YOUR FEATHERED CROWN
WHOSE MINIONS HOLD
AND STRAP ME DOWN
AN OFFERING STRETCHED
ACROSS THE STONE
WHO FEELS THE BLADE
BEING DRIVEN HOME
AND FEELS THE FINGERS
IN HIS CHEST
RIP THE HEART
FROM THIS OLD BREAST
THEN HOLD ALOFT
THAT GORY PRIZE
FOR ME TO SEE
THROUGH DYING EYES
YOU TURN YOUR GAZE
OFF TO THE WEST
AND NEVER SEE
THIS RAVAGED CHEST
THEN WISE GODS SIT
AND THEY DECIDE
WHICH OF US
HAS TRUELY DIED
JEFFRO...

Mists Of The NightKelly stretched then rolled over. She silently admired the way the moonlight fell over Rick's bare skin, making her want to reach out and touch him as always. This time though she stilled the urge to run her hands across his skin and delved quickly and quietly under the covers with a purpose in mind. Her mouth closed around the softness, loving the way the satiny flesh felt in her mouth. Her hands began to play, letting her nails barely graze the skin of his thighs all the way downward to his ass as they touched the bed. She felt him shift under her mouth, hips moving ever so slightly in his half awake-half asleep state, pushing the now full engorged length deliciously against the back of her throat as her tongue teased the base. She grazed her fingers lightly against his ass as she brought them up to gently cup his balls while her mouth moved up and down caressing his shaft and thoroughly enjoying the way his hard length filled her mouth.
Using one hand to follow her mouth on a las

Good For Hank!!!Aaron doesn't plan to celebrate with Bonds
/ Associated Press
ATLANTA (AP) - Hank Aaron doesn't plan to be at the ballpark if and when Barry Bonds breaks his home run record.
"Uh-uh. No, no. I'm not going to be around," Aaron was quoted as saying in Tuesday's editions of The Atlanta Journal-Constitution.
Bonds has 735 homers, 20 short of Aaron's career record. While Aaron has declined most interview requests in recent months, he spoke with Journal-Constitution columnist Terence Moore.
Aaron said he wouldn't attend if Bonds were within reach of the record when the San Francisco Giants play at Atlanta from Aug. 14-16.
"I'd probably fly to West Palm Beach to play golf," Aaron was quoted as saying in Moore's column. "Again, it has nothing to do with anybody, other than I had enough of it. I don't want to be around that sort of thing anymore. I just want to be at peace with myself. I don't want to answer questions. It's going to be a no-win situation for me anyway. If I go,

SecurityIS THERE REALLY A SUCH THING AS SECURITY? THINK ABOUT IT.AS LITTLE GIRLS WE ARE TOLD TO GET US A NICE RICH MAN AND MARRY.ONE THAT WORKS HARD SO HE CAN TAKE CARE OF US.THE BOYS ARE TAUGHT TO GO TO SCHOOL AND WORK HARD SO THEY CAN GET A GOOD JOB AND MAKE ALOT OF MONEY.WELL NOW ADAYS THE GIRLS ARE TOLD TO GO TO COLLEGE TOO. DOES MARRYING A MAN WITH ALOT OF MONEY MEAN THAT YOUR FUTURE IS SECURE? NO!! HOW MANY MEN AND WOMEN WAKE UP ONE DAY AND LOOK AT THE PERSON NEXT TO THEM AND SAY IM NOT IN LOVE WITH THIS PERSON ANYMORE??SO THERES GOES THAT DOWN THE TUBES.WHAT ABOUT JOB SECURITY?? YOUR PARENTS SPENT ALL THAT MONEY FOR YOU TO GO TO COLLEGE SO YOU COULD GET A GOOD JOB AND GUESS WHAT??YOU CANT FIND THAT JOB.OR YOU GO INTO THAT NICE PAYING JOB THAT YOU LIKE SO MUCH AND ARE TOLD THAT THEY DONT NEED YOU ANYMORE.CAN YOU SAY FALSE SINCE OF SECURITY. SEE MY POINT

Military PageA page for each member of the military to call home. They were set up not to support the soldiers but to give them a site to connect with each other and be a part of. Everyone wants a page for their duity and job, so why not make them? People brought it to my attention that I forgot to put the link up (for the coast guard) for beloved friend’s idea of a ct page for all branches. There is one and it was missed on the previous post. I apologize about that so here it is the whole line up!
The best idea to hit cherry tap since it opened:
The Unofficial Army CT Page
U.S. Army@ CherryTAP
The Unofficial Air Force CT Page
U.S. Air Force@ CherryTAP
The Unofficial Navy CT Page
U.S. Navy@ CherryTAP
The Unofficial Marine Corps CT Page
U.S. Marine Corps@ CherryTAP
The Unofficial Coast Guard CT Page
U.S. Coast Guard@ CherryTAP
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Take It Or Leave ItWelcome 2 the Nasty QUIZ. Are u daring enough 2 answer this 4 this person? if so, message them your answers!!!
Rules:
Answer this 4 the person who posted this and then repost it 4 your self!
1.Would u have sex with me?
answer:
2.What position would u ........ me in?
answer:
3.Would u suck me up/eat me out?
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4.Would u sex me hard?
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5.Would u have sex with me the first night u met me?
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6.Give me a naked pic?
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7.Would u do me in the shower?
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8.Would u hancuff me or tie me up 2 the bed and then do me?
answer:
9.Would u use desert?
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10.Would u have a 3-some with me?
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11.What makes u want 2 have sex with me?
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12.Would u talk dirty 2 me while we sexed?
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13.Where would u do me @?
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14.Would u do me in front of people?
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15.Would u do me again and again?
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16.Would u do me in the rain?
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17.Would u mind if we did it like ........ stars?

So I'm BackBeen away a long while. Sorry that I've not been around much at all. I haven't really been on the net much in the past few months. My health has been a big factor in that. See, on November 24th of last year, my younger brother passed away after being ill. Since I had been one of his major caregivers, it struck me really, really hard. I wasn't sure how hard until the beginning of February this year. I had a small breakdown but have since recovered and doing my best to get caught back up with my emails, friends and blogs. I have missed all my Cherry friends so much and it's great to be back among you all. Take care and spread that Cherry Love!

How Sexy???According to experts, I am : 89% SexyTake the Sexy Quiz at JokesUnlimited.com

Reference Yahoo And Cams...YES, I DO HAVE A CAM AND YES, I DO HAVE YAHOO.. IF I WANT YOU TO HAVE ACCESS TO EITHER OF THEM, I WILL GIVE YOU MY SCREENNAME. DON'T ASK ME FOR IT OUT OF THE BLUE AS SOON AS YOU SAY HELLO TO ME. THAT'S ONE OF THE QUICKEST WAYS TO GET YOU BLOCKED.. AND IF YOU DO GET MY YAHOO ID AND I ALLOW YOU TO VIEW MY CAM, JUST LETTING YOU KNOW RIGHT NOW, I DO NOT GIVE CAM SHOWS OR SEX SHOWS, WHATEVER YOU WANT TO CALL IT. I WILL NOT SHOW YOU ANYTHING MORE THAN YOU SEE IN MY "YUP IT'S ME" ALBUM ON MY PAGE. I DO HAVE SMALL CHILDREN, AND FROM TIME TO TIME THERE MAY BE TOYS ON MY FLOOR IN VIEW OF THE CAM. IF YOU CAN'T DEAL WITH THAT FACT THAT WITH CHILDREN, THERE WILL ALWAYS BE TOYS, THEN DON'T EVEN BOTHER ASKING TO VIEW MY CAM. I ALSO MAY LEAVE THE CAM VIEW ABRUPTLY FROM TIME TO TIME. BUT DON'T GET ALL BENT OUT OF SHAPE THINKING I'VE DESERTED YOU OR ANYTHING, I WILL BE BACK. MORE THAN LIKELY, I'M JUST CHECKING ON MY KIDS OR GOING TO GET SOMETHING FROM THEM THAT THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE. OF COURSE, THE MOTHER

The Tweety IncidentWell I'm feeling well chuffed with myself.
At 1.30am this morn i was chasing my cat down the road cos he had a baby bird in his mouth.
I didnt have a lot on just thong and t-shirt lmao anyone watching would have got a nasty surprise.
Anyway managed after a couple of rude shouts and quick sweeps to the floor to get this squawking bird off my cat.
Dusty was not happy lol.
Got the bird indoors, it was frightened and injured, losing a small amount of blood. It was still quite feisty which i used to get some water in the creature knowing it would get dehydrated from shock.
I placed the poor unfortunate creature in the only box available (My friends stella is now sat on the side lol) I put a terry towling sheet in the box with a small bowl of water and placed the box in the spare room window slightly open, cos my cats can get in the rooms using the back wall, with the door shut.
All night long I dreamt about getting help in the dream it was difficult on waking i didnt find it that eas

A Pentient For Pain And InlightmentGood Friday To Die On
Self seclusion with a need to self doubt.
Suffocated by the hands of shadowed regret.
Knowing that ever mistake made is only a precursor to the next big fuck up.
Wavering need to disembowel, tearing away the skin fragile.
And the pain in your back is just the hook the dug in deep.
Keeping us on the butcher block line.
Cut me, Kill me, Suck me, Eat me, leaving the bones the fat and the gristle for your dogs to chew on.
Chew on this!
My enemies are the ones left standing.
My weapons are the thoughts left brewing.
I can rise up, I can rip your filthy shit down.
Hate!
With all this warped hatred that remains inside me I can feel the light of personal salvation blooming like a mushroom cloud.
Wiping you all off the black and blue face of this world.
Hear me scream from my own shadow, cowling over the factories of flagellation.
Trample the roses of vindication, the graves of the proud and the few.
To many to count already fallen.
Waste of life.
Wast

Its Quick...just Do It Its Gonna Make U LaughTakes 60 seconds or else to do this; I guarantee you will show someone else, it's too funny not to.
1. go to www.google.com
2. click on "maps"
3. click on "get directions"
4. type "New York" in the first box (the "from" box)
5. type "London" in the second box (the "to" box)
(hit get directions)
6. scroll down to step #23

A Beautiful PictureAs we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Don't be afraid that your life will end,
be afraid that it will never begin.

It's Not A Dream Im Always Here For You....Once upon a time
Far far away
Once upon a time in a dream
Once upon a time I was Daddy's little girl
Once upon a time that was me
In my dream I was Daddy's little girl
In my dream he loved me
In my dream we did things together
Like ran races
Jumped rope
I can still feel the cold metal chains of the swing in my hands
But that's not real
Nope
It was once upon a time that
Once upon a dream
Far far away
That was me
In my dreams I was Daddy's little girl
In my dream he loved me
He took me places
Like ice cream shoppes and baseball games
I can still hear the crack of the bat
He took me places like roller skating and Broadway plays
What do you think of that?

Yay!!!!!Larry Birkhead Is The Father Of Dannielynn Hope Marshall Stern!!!
YAY!!!
*Dances*

In Heaven!!!This last weekend my sister took me to see someone. I'm not going to say who it is, because that is for him and I to know and everyone else to find out. What I can say is that I have a very good sense that this guy is a real deal. I have been feeling feelings that I haven't ever felt before. I have a really good sense when it comes to other people. I'm so happy to know that I have found someone that I believe is going to make me happy and not just manipulate their way into my life. This guy is REAL!!! I can already feel it. I have met some very neat people here on Cherry Tap and will continue to talk with everyone, but I'm only here for friendships. When I get with someone I am devoted to him. I believe in complete honesty and being truthful. Trust is the foundation for any relationship, and if you don't have that then you don't have anything at all. I am so happy to have found this guy. He is such a sweetheart to me, and accepts me for who I am. We have a lot of things i

Nothingat times i feel like there could be something, but i realize there is nothing.
i'm going to yfn. i'm excited.
i can't wait to take my relationship with God further.
i need him more than ever.
i've done bad things.
i've strayed from His path,
and i need to get back on it.
so, yfn and chrysallis, here i come!
lol. prom is going to be fun.
i wanted that yellow dress, but i haven't gotten it yet.
going shopping soon.
have to get my dress so mark can buy his tux. heheh. :]

This Is From My Heart!!!I've always been an admirer of beauty and sometimes I WILL STAND and say how I feel, about especially, something so close to my heart..THIS IS SOMETHING MY MOTHER ALWAYS TOLD ME "Vickie, Baby, stop letting people run all over top of you, YOU NEED TO STAND UP FOR WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN & DON'T START TOMORROW, START NOW!!"

MenWould you let a man that you meet online back into your life if he tries you? Now you are really into this guy and he really seems to be into you, he meets your kids and they get along great.
One day he's at your house kickin it with you and your kids and the next day he's emailing you telling you that he's moving and he got a new job in a state way across the United States.
Hmmmm, let me think about that one! Uhhhhh-HELL NO!
Then the next morning you get another email that says he might not be moving after all. HELL NO! He would have to keep on moving because he's not gonna put me on an emotional roller coaster or my kids.
Think something in the pot ain't clean. He gotta go!
What do you think?????
Any comments or suggestions greatly appreciated!
Thanks
PS: This is not me that I'm talking about, it is someone I am friends with. LOL And she knows who she is.

Blood PressureWell it's back to the DR I go. My blood pressure has been up pretty bad lately, so I'll have to get some medicine for it. Naturally I won't mention this to my older brother because he'll just tell me it's all in my head.
Write more later on.

PgMy God is bound by no religion
But all religions are bound to IT
My God is found through all religion
But no one hears the whole script
While the closer and closer it can get to perfect
Within the individual controls the fine print
The Personal Guru still holds the soul’s set
As one hears what one hears in their own mind’s tint
Before their religion becomes the blame of their guilt
When dying in life with no one to help
Your religion is not my religion
Until you can prove you can see past your self

ZenThe wizard on a mountain
His words confound when
The wizard comes down and
His words sound of Zen
As they allowed the spirit to found them
Unclouded, endowed with pen
And wound your mind around them
Creating an inner sanctum
Where every wizard finds their mountain
When the sound of Zen
Enshrouds all men into one again
The wizard on a mountain
His words confound when
The wizard comes down and
His words sound of Zen

Time For Me To GoThis is probably the last blog im ever going to post, im leaving cherry tap and my messenger and not coming back and im moving soon. Im not telling where im going and im not going back to california either....im going someplace where I know I wont get hurt anymore. For my friends and family here on CT all I can say is Im sorry, but the pain has to end somewhere, I cant take the bullshit anymore. I love you all goodbye from Lora Havic

My Friends!I have met so many people here and consider some of you close friends and one my best friend!! I miss you all and worry about you all daily! LOL I know I know you shouldnt worry about everything all the time... cant help it .. its in my nature! I worry about everyone! Thats why I try and contact each and everyone of you atleast everyday to every other day!! In my mind and heart my friends are considered my family!!! I love you all very dearly and cant imagine not having you all in my life!
Kim, you are my best friend! WE are just alike... I love you like you are my own sister! hehehehe give james a hard time for me!!!
James, you are my sons father and I am glad we are able to be great friends! I hope we remain friends forever!
Big Daddy, you wild crazy man you make me smile and give me thoughts to ponder! I hope to remain friends for a very very long time!
Lisa, My sweet newest friend... we have alot in common! You have given me new hope about my newest scare.... I know if I

Warren Moon And His Dui Folks!The former NFL great quarterback, recent NFL Hall of Fame inductee and current analyst on Seahawks games for radio arrested for a DUI last night. Insert appropriate Bengals joke here.
The amusing part (not that DUI is funny, per se)? The write-up in the Seattle Times:
"Warren Moon, the former Huskies and Seahawks quarterback who was inducted into the Pro Football Hall of Fame in August, was arrested for drunken driving early Friday morning in Kirkland."
Yeah. Because when people think of Warren Moon's Hall of Fame career, his two years in Seattle in 1997 and 1998 are what IMMEDIATELY come to mind...
Hope former Chiefs quarterback Joe Montana keeps his nose out of trouble this off-season...

Kevin Durant RumorSupposedly he has decided to turn pro.
Damn. There's a shocker. A shocker on par with the revelation that Don Imus is an asshole and closet racist. Which is to say, not the least bit shocking.
Good decision young star. Only thing left for him at college is an injury or an off-year that hurts his current very high draft stock. Off to your pro rewards, Kevin Durant. The four remaining Grizzlies fans will have their weekly meeting this week and resume their seance to will the ping pong ball to return one of the top two picks in this year's draft.

So It RollsOur debate: Cup of noodles is better than top ramen OR top ramen is better than cup of noodles.
Spaghetti noodles and elbow noodles are the only type that should ever be eaten OR spiral and other shaped noodles are the only type to ever be eaten.
And finally...
Chips REALLY ARE a breakfast food OR not no but hell no they are not.
Any thoughts?

Sexual ZodiacScorpio
You are very dominant in bed, and you like to control your relationship in general.
You are so intense in the sack that none of your partners will ever forget you. You are an amazing lover, because you like to have an equal amount of give and take.
Sex matches: Cancer, Capricorn, Pisces
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