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Wednesday, May 4, 2011

"When are you guys going to have kids?"

I had subconscious expectations about what my life would be like once I got married. One of those expectations was that we would have a baby when we were ready. It turns out that many, if not most, people also assume that if a person doesn't have a baby, it's because they don't want one quite yet. This became quite apparent to me as soon after we were married, people started asking us when we were going to have kids. It seemed to be a fairly natural and simple question at first. Something that I was expected to answer with the same non-chalant vibe as answering “What are you making for dinner?” Ryan and I came up with clever ways to avoid that question, especially when we actually did start trying a few short months after we were married. While I'm sure there was no harm intended by the person asking, as time went on, that question became annoying, then insensitive, and then so outright painful that I often found myself turning around with tear filled eyes.

My sweet husband and I have crossed the milestone of our first year of trying to get pregnant. It has been an emotionally and spiritually challenging journey, let me tell ya. And as we start getting more aggressive in our quest to find the soul that the Lord would entrust to our care, I figured I would start documenting the process. If you have not struggled to get pregnant, chances are that you know someone who is. I hope that this will be an encouragement to those who are currently going through the same heartache we have, as well as to provide some level of awareness to those who have not been exposed to it. Thanks for joining me in the search for Baby Miller. :)