clear motives – klare motive

“exerpts of my diary”

“auszüge aus meinem Tagebuch”

Can you truly be clear about your motives? Do you recognize ulterior ones before acting on them? Do you consider such crap even?

I get to know myself far better through writing; Until now it has not been such a clear journey of self discovery. Of course I learned things but consciously recognizing my flaws, my gray is something I enjoy as deeply as I loath it.

A hate-love relationship with my awareness of actions, dreams, decisions and dispositions.

I don’t judge people who might be serving two masters, hatching their bets or having ulterior motives.

I would be forced to judge myself. I rather question, is it that bad a character flaw?

Ulterior motives are mostly OK if with the disillusionment your other motivation for an action is not negated.

If you can carry on with your primary source of motivation there’s no harm done. It proves that your other thoughts, feelings or reasons were truly secondary.