wow. Today was the first day I felt normal. The first day I was able to see and think clearly. I'm finally coming out of the withdrawal stage and now I can focus on why I'm doing this fast.

People around me know that I'm doing this fast and each person has their own opinion about what I'm doing. Some see it as a diet and then others think I'm just a silly, batty ol' religious loon. And honestly, when I first started this I found it selfishly enticing because it would finally help me drop a few pounds. It wasn't until I started the process I knew I was being led to this fast because it's what I've been asking for all along.

There have been so many times my prayers were laced with pleading and begging for good health- not the skinny-pre-motherhood type of health. I'm taking I the I-want-to-be-around-long-enough-to-watch-my-kids-grow-up type of health. I have things I've been dealing with internally and externally that haven't been able to cure with prescription medicine for years now. Things I have battled with extensively. Things that have prevented me from living a full life. And I kind of felt like there was no hope. Only four days in to this fast I'm notching a difference in those things! I'm seeing positive change.

My pleads weren't selfish. Food, addiction, illnesses have a hold over us that I think were oblivious to. I believe we've become blindsided by the fact that we get pleasure from food, so its good. Yes, we need food to survive, but I believe there's a thin line to a food addiction that could be hurting us in the long run.

My word for today is discipline. I didn't realize I had very little until I self-disciplined myself by taking away something that brought me joy; coffee, fats, animal products. Such a simple fete, yet bringing so much wisdom.

God works in funny ways.

Peace, love, and wisdom.

I'm using essential oils to help guide me through this process. Today, I'm using: DoTerra's Lime.

LimeKnown as The Oil of Zest for Life“Lime imbues the soul with a zest for life. When an individual has been weighed down by discouragement or grief, Lime elevates them above the mire. It instills the courage and cheer in the heart and reminds them to be grateful for the gift of life.Lime cleanses the heart, especially when there has been an accumulation of emotional toxins due to avoidance or repression. This oil revitalises the heart space, giving room for light and joy. It clears discouragement and low vibration thoughts and feelings. Lime shines light on the inner motives hidden in the heart and encourages emotional honesty.Lime can also assist the individual who has overly developed their intellectual capacities but has neglected to develop themselves emotionally. This oil encourages balance between the heart and mind. It clears congestion from the heart region, assisting one in feeling safe and at home in their heart. Lime dispels apathy and resignation and instills hope, joy, courage and the determination to face all of life’s challenges.” Quote from HERE