Wednesday, April 30, 2008

So two more days until guild auditions, which is when my students play everything in their memory bag plus scales, cadences, and arpeggios. This is gray-hair time for me.

Also at this time of year, I start to look at their progress through the eyes of what will the guild judge think? And it's kind of nice to realize that, wow, they've made some great progress this year.

Which always leads to the recital in May. At the award ceremony, I always cry up on stage, in the middle of handing out the awards.

It's because I'm so proud of the hard work they've done. But I dread this all year, because we're talking choked up, can't talk kind of crying.

And when you can't talk, it makes it difficult to give out the rest of the awards properly.

So I don't know. DH wants me to play a piece, which means I have to practice piano (a piece for me as opposed to practicing their pieces). I would prefer to practice my speech, so I don't start crying.

I'm not a good speaker, but it doesn't bother me. Being onstage is more comfortable for me than being in the bathtub. It feels like home up there. I just don't want to cry.

Yeah, I know what you mean, Writenow! LOLOL ... I don't think I'll be playing this year. I don't know. Some have asked, but ... there's so much to do for them! And I'm nervous enough about the talking and the crying, adding the playing is just a whole 'nother ballgame.

You're an emotional girl. I like that. If you're watching American Idol, you saw Brooke cry last night when she was voted off. She did it so well, I actual liked it and was touched by her emotion. And her eyes didn't get red and puffy either.