I would love to scream at the top of my lungs cuz my life suck, but I'm not kinda person that like to scream, so I listen to lota metal bands, and find them soothing. More than 70% time I have no idea WTF they are screaming lol, but i like it anyway.

I don't really like death metal as such, or black metal, but heavy is pretty good, and melodic death, I normally like the beat, the sound, it's just epic really. And it's better than talking (no way is rap anything but that) about how "some white guy iz gonna 'pop' ya".

I recommend all of you to listen to the band Emmure, if you like heavy music with very relatable lyrics. Emmure has become one of my coping mechanisms lately, but you may have to look up the lyrics. An Example of some of their lyrics:

You Got A Henna Tatoo That Said Forever - Emmure

Take me somewhere familiar.
So I can find myself again.
It hurts more than you know.
And I'll ask you, Why?.
Why would you lie to me.
What was the point?
Was your intention to waste my time?
Thought I was digging deep.
Thought I was breaking the bank.
But girls like you are just a dime a dozen.
Just a dime a dozen.
Movie quotes and lyrics still connecting us like constellations.
I wonder if I could ever seperate myself from this.
And it'll be awhile, 'til I can breathe again.
Slip me into something warm.
My eyes still scream childhood

There's a place, so very far
most favored of the worlds that are missed by Gwar
we can get there as long as it's by stolen car
smash your face and go shoot up
Uh!
There's a world, of which I've heard
Far beyond the sky
A place of chicks and pills and booze
A place where winners always lose
You'll always hear your favorite band
Here in Metal Metal Land
Here in Metal Metal Land
Nothing ever dies
Except, of course, our enemies
And they're attracting metal flies
Here in Metal Metal Land
Everything is Loud!
All the chicks are strippers!
All their fathers proud . . .

Metal Metal Land
Metal Metal sea
Metal Metal air
Metal you Metal me
Metal metal metal metal!
Heavy Metal Metal Land!
Here in Metal Metal Land
Everyday is night
Except of course when night is day
But then there is no light
Here in Metal Metal Land
Everything is rock!
Everyone is in a band
And your girlfriend sucks your

Here in Metal Metal Land
Everything is hard
Except of course the test you take
To get a license for your car
Bullet belts and denim jackets
Crystal meth in tiny packets
Witches warlocks demon seed
Booze and cooze and weed and speed