I’m at a point where by I need and don’t need food at the same time. I need food because I think it doesn’t make sense to go on an empty stomach all day and I don’t need food because I just can’t seem to get it down my throat.

For the next few days while I continue taking the supplements and some plant-based medicines that my Naturopath has put me on, I’ve been told very specifically to stay off gluten, dairy and raw salads (in fact, anything raw except green juice or coconut juice). I don’t think I’m particularly going to miss gluten and dairy much anywa. I attempted adding coconut milk in my coffee and I’m still figuring out what I think of it.

Since rice is supposed to be one of the easiest grains to digest, I’ve been told to attempt having at least a couple of spoons of porridge. Honestly, just the thought itself of putting any form of carbohydrates in my tummy is so revolting at this point. But because I do need some emergency food, I’ve made myself some steamed garlic vegetables and soft basmati rice, for when and if I feel hungry. I also managed to make a yellow moong dal which is also very light on your digestive system.

My exhaustion seems to be getting worse for some reason. I remember coming back home from my long day out after meeting my Naturopath and feeling completely drained out. Totally battery flat, feeling like I ran a marathon. Technically, running between two clinics and a pharmacy could be considered a marathon for me. I surely have to watch if this (extra) fatigue gets worse over the next few days. I won’t be surprised if all of it has to do with my loss of appetite. My gut feeling is that my gut isn’t feeling too well at all.

I wish I could say that my joints are fine while my digestive system is losing balance. Well, my right knee is swollen and poofy, probably just from walking and it hurts deep in the joint. I’ve also developed a small bruise around my right knee for absolutely no reason and the pain from it seems very deep as well. And because my right knee is not doing well, both my back and glutes are killing me. I hope I’m able to stick to my walking because the last thing anyone wants is more loss of movement while figuring out their digestive system. Where is my appetite anyway?!!??