"Need more help with my fight with alcohol and..."

I split with my wife last year, for about three months before I had been drinking half to a bottle of vodka a day. This increased to at least a bottle a day once I moved into my flat. Over the new year, I was admitted to hospital having vomited large amounts of coffee ground blood. I was detoxed and managed to stay dry for 3 months, when a personal upset made me think "one drink can't hurt" but of course it did and I ended up back in hospital on detox. I was discharged on the Friday and collapsed at home on the Saturday morning, finding myself unable to stand. I was admitted to hospital and within 4-5 hrs discharged, on my own to get a bus home.