so basically, they're pretty sure that i have it, but they haven't put their finger on it for sure?
i'm meeting with another doctor tomorrow to find out more.

there's a part of me that's happy that something is happening. but more of me is scared.

i just turned 23. i study theatre and dance. i'm incredibly active, and really hard on my body. and i like that. i love dancing, i couldn't imagine my life without it.
but i'm also really scared. just typing this is causing incredible pain in my fingers and wrists.
telling my friends and family what i've found out is really tough, because it freaks them all out. so i try to be all strong and not let it bother me so i can put on the brave face. but it's hard.

i'm really glad to have found a place where i don't have to put on the brave face