Oh Divine Laughter. One of our greatest spiritual teachers is laughter. How I love to laugh. It is so freeing. It is so relieving. It is so empowering. I love how it feels in my body to allow the energy of humour, mirth and the accompanying joy to roll through. It is a surrender of sorts; into hilarious understanding of our fallacies and our faults.

In the Native American tradition the Plains Indians honour the spirit ‘Heyokah’ the sacred clown. (You see what I did there with the title…I love puns)

In animal medicine Coyote is known as The Trickster.

In the tarot we have The Fool.

In mythology there is Loki. The archetype exists in many other cultures.

This divine archetype teaches us through jokes, pranks, rule breaking and satire that we are fools to our pretentious beliefs and the sanctimony of old paradigms. It reminds us that we are all a little bit loopy. Through its antics, its disparaging remarks and behaviours, it holds a mirror up for us to see this aspect of our deeper selves, and by doing so, strips back the facades of our egos to discover a connection to big truths. Using comedy it creates revelations that are difficult to find through mere contemplation. In ridiculousness are we shockingly revealed. Yet, that is the point. It is quick and funny, rather than long and painful.

The gift that The Trickster brings is to relieve us of our fear. It is showing us through the law of opposites how we can transform ourselves and learn deep lessons about the nature of our humanity. It is said that to laugh in the face of evil is a source of great power. The devil cannot abide to be mocked. When mocked, he loses his power. In mockery we are unafraid. We are revealing our capacity to stand squarely in front of our prejudices, shame, guilt, anger, all aspects of our darkness and face the shadow. Through crazy wisdom our rigid ideologies are split open and our soul is sent flying in frivolity. We remember that life is a cracking good game we are playing and that we should learn to lighten up.

Humour, the great trickster, has the honour of being able to shine a vibration of mirth onto the illusion of duality, it charges our souls back into alignment by illuminating the illusion, as it neutralizes ego. When we relinquish our need to hold ego so tight, we lose our own fear of being mocked. Once we are no longing being held captive by the trappings of our ego, it is with humour we then find a sense of freedom. Laughter unites us in peace because it is universal.

What do you see when someone laughs? You see their soul shining through their eyes.

XOM

**Image credit for this blog is for the gorgeous ‘Spirit of Jackal – by Aikya’, which I found on pinterest. If this is incorrect please contact me and I’ll amend it.

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So I am getting ready for the procedure to have my adenomas removed. (If you don’t know what I am talking about, read about it here in this blog).

Honestly I am super nervous about it. I know I know, everyone keeps telling me that it is a really positive thing…I am not getting cancer and the amazing work of the doctors and researchers means that I have been saved from something that even 20 years ago was unlikely to have been found. There is a LOT to be grateful for.

My hubby is even showing how much he understands the spiritual journey. He keeps telling me that this is my life reward. The universes way of healing me. It is like the final step on the journey to heal the whole self, I have been working on the mind and spirit side of things for a long time, but my body has always held so many challenges. I hate to exercise, and the idea of having to change what I believed was a pretty healthy diet has certainly raised some difficulties, but honestly, I feel like spirit, or my higher self or whatever it may be, has kind of been sitting there, waiting for the moment when this was ready to be brought out into the open, and I have discovered I am able to just really accept it.

So let me tell you about the fear.

Firstly, when I heard about these pre-cancerous growths I felt a groundswell of terror inside of myself. This is my greatest fear. I have always had these thoughts that would swirl around inside of me that one day I was going to die a long slow horribly unpleasant death from bowel cancer. Then, suddenly, there it was. I was growing the very thing I feared so much. I am not sure if my fears were my body trying to tell me what was happening already inside me, or that my fears were creating the thing I focused my fears on. In energy work and spirituality, we believe that we create our reality through the focus of our thoughts and emotions. So, then, my fears and my thoughts were probably enough to trigger my genetic predisposition to it. Along with the many years of emotional trauma from abuse, and what I am beginning to believe is a huge problem with the food we eat and the way it is grown and processed…bang, there it all is. Reality bites.

So, I went into meditation to sit with this monster. As fear burned and tears poured down my face, I breathed in and out and counted to 4 over and over again. I looked for a space inside of myself where I was fully present and engaged in dealing with this moment. I pulled up every reserve of strength I have, and I entered my subconscious. In this place in my mind and meditation, I engage in a conversation with my self. I confront the inner child, the inner controller, the inner procrastinator and the inner avoider. I experienced and witnessed all the ways and means in which I sabotage and hold myself in this fearful space.

I visualise my higher self the perfect version of myself, my soul essence, as a body of light. That light is connected to my physical self through a golden rod. I envision my golden rod as being both of light, and as if it is actual physical gold and that it rises up through my spine, out of my head and into the space above my head where it connects to my higher self energy and through my whole body’s energy field. As my awareness moves out into the space of my energy field, I call in, using my own mental voice, the energy of my greatest source power. This is the energy that is connected to the energy field of the universe of this space/time dimension. It is where I can access insight and information, and it is also where I can access healing energy.

In this space, I asked for healing energy to infusemy cells and my blood and my tissue and to renew and regenerate all parts of my physical self. I ask for insight into ways to release the anger and resentment and fear. I ask that these feelings and emotions be transmuted into a vibration of balance for my physical self and my emotional self.

During this meditation, as I sat within my self-healing space I experienced my whole energy system turning red. I saw and felt a huge ball of pulsing red energy. My heart began pounding and I felt a sense of terror building.

I heard the words in my mind…This is it. This is your shadow, this is your fear. It is all right here in front of you.

And there I was…just looking at this angry fearful ball of pulsating, threatening red energy.

So I did the only thing I could. I took a deep breath in and I sat there with it, acknowledging it, understanding it presence. Realising how much power it had over me. I was looking at this visual throbbing manifestation of emotion and thought, sitting there inside my mind and body. Yet I was still sitting on my bed, perfectly safe. I was ok. I breathed deeply again and I shifted my awareness up through that golden rod to the higher self version of my energy that I trust and know to be just as strong and powerful as that ball of red. I smiled gently and kept on breathing. I then mentally stepped back from both places. I allowed my thoughts to quieten and I trusted that these two energies knew each other well. My choice and ability to bring through my higher self energy gave me the sense that these energies were balancing and activating changes in my system. I began to relax again and to accept that in the seeing acknowledging and allowing, without resistance, the red energy was released.

After this meditation, I found that I simply felt different everything. It felt like a switch got flicked. I did not feel like I was going to be missing out on the foods I was so attached to. I was ok with the changes I needed to make in that regard. (Don’t mention exercise though…that is still a problem….yick!!!) I am confident that my procedure will go well. I have also been finding my intuition is on super drive. I like to play little games with myself. (Like I love watching The Chaser, and I can predict accurately every single time which chaser is about to play!! I have not been wrong in 2 weeks now. I know, ooohhh super psychic ha ha).

Anyway, I am not pretending that I am totally fine, that I faced down the red angry shadow, defeated my nemesis and now I am living in luxury on a tropical island being served by muscle bound men and concocting delicious cocktails day in and day out. I have, however, experienced a deep and profound internal gear shift. This is like the deepest, strongest grounding I have ever experienced. I spend most of my life generally living in a highly disassociated ‘out there or up in the clouds’ kind of way. This situation is planting my feet firmly on the earth, in my body and changing me for the better.

Oh, and there is one other, super synchronous thing that has happened this week too. Have a quick read about how THE HOUSE OF PAIN IS GONE. (A quicker read…but definitely worth it if you LOVE synchronicities like me 🙂

Edit>> This is yet another AMAZING SYNCHRONICITY that has happened recently. Check out this blog about meeting a new friend at a circle and the story that had us both laughing and wowing!

XOM

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I had such a heart opening day on Friday. I popped my big girl pants on and went along to a women’s circle held by a beautiful lady that I had never met, Mitle. I had only seen her online. In fact all the women attending were just names attached to photos and comments from face book. So walking in there felt like stepping inside my laptop, waving Pinocchio’s wand over us all and turning us into real boys…or rather, real beautiful powerful women.

The real reason for this big share though is because of another AMAZING SYNCHRONICITY that happened. Yep, the universe was at it again, making magic in my life and I am still elated.

During the circle, we all had the opportunity to share what is happening for us now. It is the beauty of sitting in circle. The open-hearted, non-judgmental and safe space to say what you need to say; to be witnessed, heard and held without expectation, fixing or fawning.

As sometimes will happen for me when I am surrounded by powerful and open energies, I felt my energy surging, rising up. I was listening to these women sharing their stresses, fears and anxieties and I could see this connection to each of their stories. I could see myself reflected in some way in each part of the woundedness they were revealing. There was an intricate web that linked us all. A communion. So when it came to be my turn to share, I suddenly felt the need to share just that thing.

I shared how I struggled with the difficulty of being a human and divine being at the same time. It is difficult and confusing but I suppose it is what we are here to figure out. Yet, I felt like in that moment, I was both observing and experiencing at the same time, seeing it with both of those eyes. I was experiencing the universe revealing itself to me, as I observed a version of myself in each story. I experienced that profound sense of how we are constantly creating the world we see before our eyes. How the divine energy of the creative life force moves through our human bodies, creating and expanding the universe. It feels like we are standing on the edge of the universe. When we are present in the moment, we are witnessing the expansion of time through our very existence as a human being. I was experiencing the merging of these two states of being. And because we are all one, in our collective consciousness, I could see the parts of myself reflected in each woman. We were all connected through the humanness of our struggles, but the divinity of our feminine wisdom and power.

It felt big and brave of me to share that in person and out loud in front of a room of women I had never met, yet I knew that it would be ok, and that to be living in the spiritual space I want to be in, I have to allow myself to be seen in this way more.

This is the best bit though. During and after the circle I connected with Belinda. Belinda came over to speak with me because she felt drawn to me and the things I had shared. I had felt a spark of deeper connection too. One of my energetic ‘tells’ is when a spark of bright white light flashes above someone’s head, and I saw this when Belinda was speaking and sharing her sense of connection with everyone. It was her words that convinced me to share mine.

As we spoke, Belinda told me that she really resonated with what I was saying, and I mentioned my book. Belinda then asked me what my book is called and I say it is The Magic and The Mire and her faces just lights up and her eyes grow huge and she says: “Oh my God, I just bought this book at the Lifeline Bookfest on the weekend!!”

Wow! She had bought my book not knowing who I was or that I would be at that circle, only that she was so drawn to me and my energy. We just stood there wowing and laughing and revelling in the amazing feeling of such a huge synchronicity. I was so honoured that she felt drawn to my book and to have had such a magical and beautiful connection with her.

Such is the power of the universe, women in circle and the healing that comes through sharing stories.

Megan xo

p.s. (I might have some news about my own circles soon too!)

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