Trying to cope with TTC and all of life's other trials... "Have you had your meds today?" Pvb. 17:22

"Cheer up. Remember what the Monty Python boys say.""Always look on the bright side of life?""No, 'Nobody expects the Spanish Inquisition.'"

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

In Honor of 100th Post.

I am going to just say that I am so happy that I have made friends along this journey. It is bittersweet to know that people understand you becasue they have gone or are going through the same problems.

When I am at my lowest, I know that there are people out there who understand and are willing to listen to me gripe and complain when I have no where else to go.

I appreciate those girls more than they could ever realize and I am not sure there are enough words in the English language to say, "Thank you."

I know exactly what you mean- sometimes I would love to have never had to empathize with you on this- because of people that don't deserve this particular brand of pain... well- either way- I am ~glad~ to have met you on this journey & have you there to struggle alongside. & cry with, & hopefully celebrate with very soon in the future!

About Me

Cliff Notes of Me

1975 - The world was graced with my presence ~ Four days later I went home with my new mommy and daddy

1985 - I finally realized what adoption really meant.

1995 - In July, I found my biological mother and family. 2000 - I married my 'matching bookend'

2003 - My infertility journey began

Present Day - I am still close with all my family and I am truly blessed

Our Journey

July '98 - DH and I met for the first time

July '99 - DH and I move in together ~ and get engaged

May '00 - Married w/ mandated 3 year wait on baby ~ The only b/c used counting and CM checks

April '01 - I see the PCP, I can't stop gaining weight. I diet, eat right, nothing helps. I am healthy, stop worrying about it. I see the OB and question my long cycles, weight gain, facial hair. First love wand u/s; nothing. The doc says I am healthy, stop worrying.

June '02 - I again question the doc about my long cycles, missing periods, the 85 lbs. of extra weight in 4 years with a healthier diet. Why don't we need b/c? I am healthy, stop worrying

Aug '02 - I get the name of an OB from a friend ~ My hero. I ask about the weight gain, lack of periods, heavy periods, facial hair and why am I not pregnant we are careless not careful ~ PCOS, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. Blood work to confirmed it, he Dx'd me in 3 minutes. I fall in love with my OB/GYN. :o) Metformin, chart for 4 months, come back. TTC officially begins.

March '03 - Ovulation? lol Clomid for the first time ~ 50 mg.

May '03 - 100 mg of Clomid - DH has really good s/a

June '03- 100 mg of Clomid, Metformin sucks, I become close friends w/ my toilet. Lose weight because that will help TTC. Try for a year; if no BFP, come back.

Aug '03 - Bad accident, 6 months to even have a bad sex life.

May '05 - Still struggling financially from the accident, I give up TTC. The heartbreak it is too much for me, No b/c

Feb '06 - My mother dies suddenly, the pain of her never being a grandmother is too much to handle, life is a bit out of control. I start therapy several months later

May '06 - Charting again, my PCP puts me on Actos for the PCOS and Welbutrin for depression.

Oct '06 - Go to Dr. Wonderful and w/ a plan. I am beyond his expertise; need to see a RE, PCOS specialty. I find WebMD and start learning more than I ever wanted to know about TTC and reproduction.

Nov '06 - I see the RE for the first time and like him a lot. Scheduled for my first major test, give more blood... PCOS

Jan '07 - HSG all clear, no blockage slight endo, normal range

Feb '07 - 100 mg Clomid - nothing

March '07 - 150 mg Clomid - O!

May '07 - 150 mg Clomid - O! - IUI #1 BFN

June '07 - 150 Clomid - O! S/A redone, not good, no IUI

Nov'07 - 150 mg Clomid - O! - IUI #2 BFN

Dec '07 - DH has u/s and b/w... u/s clear, no issues

Jan '08 - S/A comes back worse, low testosterone ~ 25 mg of Clomid fix the problem, hopefully. Go back in 3 months for another s/a... TAB until May 2008, no prevention.

April '08 - BFP for two days, chemical preganncy after 100 day cycle. This sucked.

May '08 - Clomid Cycle with timed BDing - BFN

June '08 - S/A improved Clomid working great but Arimidex has been added. Clomid Cycle, timed BDing. RE visit on June 26.

July - Sept '08 - RE says two medicated cycles, it no BFP, then the third IUI will be scheduled. Please, Lord, let it work.