I would hope she is able to draw comfort from thoughts of family
because, at the end of the drama, she said she may be losing faith in
God. As a priest, this would not only mean a loss of faith but loss of
her life's work. God was everywhere in this story but He was often
silent, useless or simply damaging. He brought no comfort or relief to
Julie Nicholson, and, of course, the bombings themselves were carried
out by religious fanatics. God offered nothing. When the family were
drawn into church for Jenny's funeral, comfort was given, not from
scripture, but from poetry and extracts from Jane Eyre. Literature,
music and the gathering together of family and friends was where love
and solace came from - not from religion. (Julie McDowall)

Roses are the most popular flowering plants in the world. Since the earliest historical records, roses — with their distinctive colours, varieties and fragrance — have been symbols of love and beauty. Shakespeare revered them, as did Walter de la Mare, Emily Brontë, Oscar Wilde and Elizabeth Browning, to name but a few writers similarly enchanted.

There’s no need to suffer, though. Although you can’t make yourself go to sleep, you can help sleep to occur by keeping yourself in the present.
“A ruffled mind makes a restless pillow.” Charlotte Brontë