It's definitely safe to say a shower cap never looked this good! At the Women in Film 2015 Crystal + Lucy Awards in Los Angeles last night, Nicole Kidman told a poignant story of how fear kept her from reaching her full potential as a young actress. But why does that involve a shower cap and a kiss from Naomi Watts? Read on! In Kidman's early days starting out, she was once offered a part from Australian-based producer-director Jane Campion that would involve kissing another actress while wearing a shower cap. Kidman admitted that she had dreams of looking picture-perfect in such a scene with long, flowing locks and kissing a boy. But that scene it was not. So, out of fear, the Oscar-winning actress decided to pass. That was, until last night. "Today, I'm ready to don this cap and kiss any of the women in this room," she exclaimed. BFF Naomi Watts (who presented Kidman with the Crystal Award for Excellence in Film) returned to the stage to do just that. It wasn't just a quick kiss on the lips either—it was a full-on, let's-do-this-right kiss. Although that moment was received with cheers and applause, Kidman also revealed

It's definitely safe to say a shower cap never looked this good! At the Women in Film 2015 Crystal + Lucy Awards in Los Angeles last night, Nicole Kidman told a poignant story of how fear kept her from reaching her full potential as a young actress. But why does that involve a shower cap and a kiss from Naomi Watts? Read on!

In Kidman's early days starting out, she was once offered a part from Australian-based producer-director Jane Campion that would involve kissing another actress while wearing a shower cap. Kidman admitted that she had dreams of looking picture-perfect in such a scene with long, flowing locks and kissing a boy. But that scene it was not. So, out of fear, the Oscar-winning actress decided to pass. That was, until last night.

"Today, I'm ready to don this cap and kiss any of the women in this room," she exclaimed. BFF Naomi Watts (who presented Kidman with the Crystal Award for Excellence in Film) returned to the stage to do just that. It wasn't just a quick kiss on the lips either—it was a full-on, let's-do-this-right kiss.

Although that moment was received with cheers and applause, Kidman also revealed a deep sadness that she's had to work through her entire life.

"When I was 13, mirrors were not a happy thing for me," admitted Kidman. "I was 5'11", and I felt gawky and awkward, mostly because I was so much taller than those around me. I didn't know it at the time, but I was afraid of my own power. Afraid it would threaten people, intimidate people. It's a great sadness to be less than you actually are. And it's hard to take on the world when you're constantly in a battle with yourself." She added that she is still working through that battle, and fellow women who have embraced their power and celebrated it "told me to celebrate it too."

But hearing you need to do something versus actually doing it are two different things. "Women are too susceptible to the voices that tell us we need to be acceptable," Kidman said. "I read an article in the U.K.'s The Atlantic on how differently men and women are programmed. Men would say, 'I want this,' and then set out to do it. Women say, 'Do I want this? Do I deserve this? What if I get this?' I don't regret much, but the regrets I do have also come back to the decisions I've made out of fear. Not a fear of my own weakness, but of my own power."

Kidman is already putting that advice into action. When we asked her on the red carpet whether there was a role she wishes she could revisit and play again, she knew just the answer. "Satine in Moulin Rouge. I loved playing her. It was terribly nerve-racking for me because of the singing, which does not come naturally to me, but it pushed me out of my comfort zone, which was fantastic." Now, 14 years after the movie came out, Kidman's about to push herself again. "I'll [be doing a] play in London, which is once again pushing out of my comfort zone. Everyone's like, 'Why are you doing that?'" she laughed. "I suppose I like the jumping-off-the-cliff feeling."

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Kidman's husband, Keith Urban, didn't leave his wife's side all night. "I have the man that means more than anything to me with me tonight," she told a packed house. Even when the two were being interviewed by different media outlets on the carpet, they never let go of one another—even if that meant literally having to reach over people. (Now that's true love.)

Check out what happened at the Crystal + Lucy Awards in 2013 when the women of Mad Men were honored.