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Day 41 – Self Forgiveness on the Design of Anxiety

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe
that the anxiety that comes up within me that I experience is me, is who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not
notice that the experience/feeling of anxiety is an energetic feeling that
takes place within my physical body, and that if I did not will that
experience/feeling to take place, then that indicates that I have separated
myself from myself and that there is a system existing within me that is
running me and controlling me, and thus I am actually mind-controlled.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not
realize that I have connected that feeling of anxiety to other beings, forms,
situations, and other manifestations outside of myself, and so programmed
myself to experience/react in anxiety toward those other manifestations in my
world and reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not
realize that I can use the experience/feeling of anxiety as a tool as it
indicates where I have separated myself from myself within programming myself
to react to anxiety, and thus when I experience anxiety, I can see what it is
that I have connected the experience of anxiety to, and thus diffuse the
preprogramming with self forgiveness and self application, to assist and
support myself to no longer react in anxiety toward other manifestations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not
realize that by participating in and allowing myself to program myself to react
in anxiety to other manifestations in my world, that I am actually sabotaging
myself by developing the habit where I will go into an experience of anxiety in
certain situations which distracts and takes me away from reality, wherein I am
thus sabotaging myself by not being present and aware of myself and my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not
realize that I can stop the reactions of anxiety by applying self forgiveness
and applying myself to actually change and stop participation in the
feeling/experience of anxiety, within investigating myself to become aware of
when/where/why and to what do I react in anxiety, so that I can recognize the
pattern or preprogrammed behavior, learn what triggers such behavior, and
assist myself to not participate in the reaction before it even takes place,
within this taking back my self direction to direct myself rather than having
energetic reactions that come up within me and direct and control me and how I
interact in with world and environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not
consider that the experience/feeling of anxiety has the effect and purpose to
keep me enslaved within and to a feeling, so that I will continue as a slave to
the mind generating energy for the mind’s continued existence, and not ever
really live and expand myself and express myself and become somebody that has
an impact in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not
consider that if I investigate this system of anxiety and become aware of the
entire system of anxiety, that I would actually have the power and ability to
no longer allow anxiety to exist within and as me, and I would no longer accept
and allow anxiety to exist within me, as I understand what it is, how it works,
and the consequence of existing as the system of anxiety.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not
realize that anxiety is actually fear of death, wherein I fear to die as who I
have designed myself as, as a mind consciousness system personality design.

I commit myself to realizing that anxiety is not who I am,
and thus whenever I find myself experiencing anxiety or about to go
into/participate in an experience/feeling of anxiety, I stop, breath, stop the
reaction and assert myself as who I really am which is here as the breath,
which is not a feeling or experience.

I commit myself to fully investigating and becoming aware of
the design of anxiety so that I can take back my power and ability to direct
myself and not be controlled by feelings and reactions that come up within me
from ‘out of nowhere’ which direct how I experience myself in a moment, rather
than me being here as who I am as breath constant and stable.

I commit myself to using reactions of anxiety as a tool to
indicate to me what manifestations I experience anxiety toward, so that I can
apply self forgiveness and self correction to no longer connect an
experience/feeling of anxiety toward such manifestation in this existence.

I commit myself to showing and living as an example that
anxiety is not who we really are as it is a feeling that is generated within
our mind consciousness systems, by stopping my participation in anxiety.