Everyone on the forum is here for you Greg. I am a sufferer myself,went through a series of events in the past and tried self medicating,it works at the time but the lows are even worse when the drink wears off. I finally thought I came out the other end when I lost my younger sister to alcohol,she drank through depression and became an alcoholic and sadly passed of pancreatitis. She would've been 30 this September.Things really spiralled then and I don't wanna go into too much. Let's say through friends,family,talking,citalopram and CBD oil I'm a lot better now. Hope you get better soon mate,you're a legend!