Saturday, April 30, 2011

Its been 1 year since I didn't go for the jungle trekking. I still remember the unforgettable memories of jungle treks during the Orientation Camp last year, and I was bitten by two leeches in the jungle, but I know leech bites do not hurt so much. Those memories would be cherished by me throughout my whole life. (:

5PM - 7PM Today I had two hours of jungle trekking at "Bukit Hartamas" which is located somewhere at Cheras. Along with my dad, brother, and uncle Henry. In addition, I saw a number of people trompling through the jungle. It's a adventure trek with fresh mountain + forest air.

So this is the mountain + forest ? XD

It has various trails as what I could see on the ground and trees, and jungle path that has been laid down over the years. In my opinion, a good way to enjoy jungle trekking is to employ a jungle guide who will guide you on the journey. But this time, we used a long stick to help us all along our journey.

This is my brother. =)

Those jungle trails range from easy going with some pave roads for easy traversing to the very challenging and requires a strong stamina person to trudge the ups and downs of reaching your mountain summit.

Ha,seriously I felt physically tired after one and a half hour, because it really requires physically fit person to trudge the Ups. Moreover, most of the jungle paths were unflatten, moist and slipping. Unfortunately, I did not bring along my bottle during the jungle trek so I was forced to drink several mouthfuls of water from the WATERFALL. O.O

Jungle trekking can be dangerous where jungle trekkers gotten themselves lost in the jungle. We lost ourselves in the half way of jungle trekking but luckily we got the right direction at last. If not, we were supposed to stay overnight in the jungle. O.O

I saw many rubber trees there. And the rubber latex is extracted from the rubber tree, and it collects in a bowl-liked container. =D

After 7pm, we went back to his house and had a dinner.

P/S: Pardon my silly capturing skill because I was fully focus on the jungle trekking that time. Have a nice day. =D

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Spending time worrying about what others people think of you is certainty not uncommon. Everyone does it. But there are some things to keep in mind.

First of all we must know that it is impossible to know what another person thinking. What other people think of you changes from moment to moment. Say, for instance, a friend tells you that someone said something bad about you. Of course,you feel hurt and you begin wondering all kinds of things. But it is important to remember that this person could have been in bad mood when she said what she said and what she did. Or she could have been trying to impress someone else. Or it is possible that something you did unintentionally hurt her feeling, and she is just reacting to that. We never really know what another person thinks simply by being told something he or she said.

You can't control what another person thinks about you. It might be really important to you that a particular person thinks highly for you. You might have even try extra hard to get him or her to like you. But in the end, people are going to think what they think,and it is usually something you can't do anything about.

When you're truly feeling good about yourself, you worry much less about what others think of you.

This is the most important thing to remember.

Your time is much better spent working on what you think about yourself rather than trying to shape someone else's impression of you. This is the only thing that you have any control over, and it is the only thing that really matters.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

I struggled for almost five months,desperately trying to be the legs on which our tottering relationship was balancing.

But,eventually,everything toppled over and all I could do was just stand staring,overcome with shock and anguish,yet too exhausted to pick up the pieces.

I could have blamed it on him,he had betrayed my trust one too many times.Or I could have blamed it on myself. I was too desperate,disturbed,and anxious,yet too committed and overprotective!

The more I thought about it,the more I realized that our relationship was strangely similar to the game where you stack narrow blocks of wood on top of one another in rows of three.

What for those three months? Did he still remember everything that happened with me? Did he still remember what he has said? Eventually,promises and commitments are all becoming lies. Did he know,all the time,I am still believe and holding with trust! But,the word "lie" was hidden in the middle of "believe" . And, the word "rust" was brought with the alphabet of "t".

Everything was started out solid and sturdy,but as the month progressed,pieces of the whole were withdrawn until the shaky structure crumbled to the ground in a deep of hurt feelings,angry tears,and painful memories!

The day "WE" ended haunted my mind for few months. I thought I could read everything on his mind. The last day I met him, he wore an expression completely unfamiliar with me, but deep inside I knew what he was thinking actually.

I acted foolish and scratched my face again and again just trying to get back his trust on me. But,all the responses I could see that he was very harsh to me. What for true love to somebody?

Until now,there wasn't a soothing voice to subdue my pain,a deep silence of pain. What I guess was right.

In fact,in every relationship,there are always "UP" and "DOWN". Argument is actually a test on how strong our bonds are! It is easier to have a break up if one or both parties never solved the problem with alternative methods. Does everyone know about that?

Alexander Granham Bell once said, "When one door closes,other opens. But we often look so regretfully on the closed door that we don't see the one that has opened for us."

It took me few months to avert my eyes from the door that had been slammed in my face. I stood looking through the keyhole at him living his own life. A life that didn't involve me. I banged on the door,I kicked and screamed til I was dizzy and fainted,but all I could do was stand outside,looking in.

I was going to forgive myself for past mistakes and start over.

Today I would begin to live my own life no matter who decided to slam their door in my face.

Relationship are always collapsing as I have been encountered!

But the only the strong can pick up the pieces and rebuild their lives using their experiences as footholds the next time around!

Dear self,please don't keep worrying about something which is not important anymore!

P/S: I've found back myself. I got myself, my studies and career for my whole life!

Friday, April 15, 2011

The warmth of my heart,I took the day off and went to hair salon to have a steam treatment for my hair. Don't worry,my hair isn't in bad condition but it's for protection and prevention from being damaged. =D

Many people asked me why I don't dye my hair. Actually it's because I like my natural long straight hair. =)

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

People,I am back and I've done my trial exam! (: Ha,and I've pretty much had a shitty week,I feel nerdy and I haven't been slack the whole week! And ya,I am so mentally tired right now,I'd rather have a good sleep later! (:

Ohh-Ah,now I realize that it is already the middle of April. I can't believe how fast the time has already flown by! And yet I do permit myself to indulge in studies for a long period of time. Ah,actually I feel kind of lifeless and tired,my life may suck now,I believe that at the end there will be even more light shining through! (:

There is approximately a month for the Edexcel Exam,which will be marking a full stop for my A level soon! 27th of June 2011,I really can't wait for it. (: Hmmm,I recently planned on taking a part time job for 2 months' time,since the intake is on September 2011! Argh! It is a best choice,because I always think and worry a lot while I am FREE at home! Try to make myself BUSY,busy,and busy again!!! (:

Hmmm,actually I can make a lot of plans for July and August! Make a party? Hangover? Shopping? Traveling? Ha,I WANT CYCLING! =D