itu je kot. yes, effort must be put on extremely hard but i think i dont want to go so stressful like i cant control the situation like before. i think i just live on and after that, leave it all to Allah. insyaAllah everything will be okay.

i dont know why but i think i want to see my life as easy as count 1,2,3. i dont want that stress, pressure to press me on. i hope i could do that. i'm trying my best to control the situation.

in a more simple words, i dont want to stress myself. just work it on and leave it all to Allah. done!