Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Mama said, "There will be days like this!"

I can always count on my mom to give the best advice, especially when it comes to men. To give you a little background about the situation with this guy and I, I'll start from the beginning.

This guy and I have known of each other for a long time now, probably since we where in elementary school. But, we've never really paid attention to one another till last summer. Last summer we began to talk and spend some time with each other. We were building a good solid friendship. As we built this friendship we began to explore the possibility of being in a relationship exclusively. Unfortunately, I held my tongue to long about how I felt about him and he started dating someone else {sad face}. He has been dating this woman for almost a year now, and she's actually very nice and sweet. However, he and I are still very close good friends, he's probably my best guy friend, heck one of my best friends period! We can tell each other anything and everything no matter the shock value or the silliness of it, we're that comfortable with each other. We can go from a completely no non-sense silly conversation to a deep intense conversation. The friendship is built on trust, compassion, mutual interest, and our unique comfort level with one another. Its just a really good friendship! He is such a beautiful, caring, intense, loving, thoughtful, and compassionate man. He honestly makes me proud to be apart of his life. So, this friendship has grown so much over the past year and I couldn't be happier, expect. . .I've started to develop some serious feelings for this man...Ah NAH!

What's a girl to do?!?!? Well after talking to my Mama I've come to a conclusion. My mom gave me a little background about guys and how they operate. In a nut shell she told me if it's meant to be then GOD is already working on it, and I need to step back and move on to the next one. I want tell him how I feel about him, but my mother so loving told me, "HECK NAH!!!" It will just make the friendship awkward, and that's the last thing I want! Some people say, "If I can't have you this way, then I don't want you at all!" Well that's not me at all, I would rather have him as my best friend than not at all!

So, I decided I'm just going to keep my mouth shut out of the respect for our friendship and {sigh} his girlfriend! I will just wait and see what happens and keep it movin!