Another one-shot song fic inspired by the song If I was the One by Ruff Endz. Main character is Nakajima Yuto of Hey! Say! JUMP!

Disclaimer: I do not own them. ^^

Note: Sorry for grammatical errors and typos. ^^

If I Was The One
"Thoughts of a Broken Heart"

I see the way he treats you
I feel the tears you cry
And it makes me sad
And it makes me mad
There’s nothing I can do, baby
'Cause your lover is my best friend
And I guess that’s where the story ends
So I've gotta try to keep it inside
You will never be, never be mine

DAY 1

I woke up today, my heart feeling heavy again. It’s hurting like there’s no tomorrow. Yes. It has been a week since you and Yamada became a couple. And it hurts so badly. Why? Because my bestfriend is in love with my bestfriend. What makes it more complicated? I am in love with my bestfriend. But I have to swallow all the hurt, keep it, and fake my smiles. Why do you have to fall in love with Yamada, my guy bestfriend? We have been bestfriends since who-knows-when, and you never even noticed me. You never even noticed the things I do for you. Even those times when you need me and I leave everything and come to your side immediately came unnoticed. Why? Aren’t they enough? Did you not feel my love from those deeds?

But if I was the one who was loving you, baby
The only tears you’d cry would be tears of joy
And if I was by your side
You’d never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to
I’d give you love in these arms of mine
If I was the one in your life

DAY 2

Another hurtful day. Another day to fake a smile, another day to hide my tears. Another day to imagine that you were in love with ME and not with HIM. I wanted to be mad at you, for making me feel this way. I wanted to be mad at Yamada, for snatching you away. But I can’t. You’re both my bestfriends. I love the both of you. And I know it is not your fault that you fell in love with him, and even more Yamada falling in love with you. Why?! Why do things have to go this way?! Why do I love you so much?! Why am I being punished?! WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS?!

If I could have just one wish
I’d wish that you were mine
I would hold you near
Kiss away those tears
I’d be so good to you, baby
You’re the one I want next to me
But I guess that’s just not meant to be
He’s there in your life and he's sharing your nights
You will never be, never be right

DAY 3
*Knock knock* I answered the door and was surprised to see you there. The fire in my heart ignited. I your presence warming my heart once again, the love I have for you overpowering my heart. But at the same time, my heart feels really heavy. The hurt I have been feeling for the past three weeks came back. Darn it. I thought I was over it. But then, I hid it from you. I didn’t want you to see me this way. I invited you in and made you wait in the couch. When I came back and settled down beside you, you burst into tears. Why? Why are you crying? Is it me? What happened? That’s what I asked myself. When you calmed down, you told me it was Yamada. Darn that man! How dare he make MY GIRL cry? Oh wait, you were never my girl. You were his girl after all. But now I discovered he broke up with you for no reason. I was sad, sad because you are hurt. But in me, I can feel my heart rejoicing. It’s telling me this is my chance to be with you. A CHANCE, at last.

I wanna reach out and feel you beside me
Right here beside me, babe
Take you in my arms right now (take you in my arms right now)
Scream "I love you" right out loud
Someday I pray that I'll find the strength
To turn to you and say

DAY 4*Beep beep* I looked at my phone and smiled. You sent me a message to thank me for comforting you. I was really glad. At last, you noticed what I did, YOU NOTICED ME. You appreciated what I have done for you. I thought this was the best day of my life. I know you are still feeling sad, and I am sad about that fact. But this day calls for a celebration. I have a chance, I thought. All the pain was gone, and happiness and love is only what filled my heart. For today, I feel that I am in heaven. I was really happy. To be honest, there’s nothing to describe what I am really feeling. I texted you back, saying it is okay. And you replied, I jumped with joy. You invited me to the park the next day. I was like, wow. Finally. I can finally show my love for you, without any hindrance.

If I was the one who was loving you, baby
The only tears you’d cry would be tears of joy
(only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy)
I would love you baby, never let you down
You'd never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to (baby, yeah)
I’d give you love in these arms of mine (listen to)

DAY 5

I was really nervous today. For me, this is a date, a really important one. I was acting like a girl, anxious with what I will wear, with what I will do, with what I will say. I wanted this day to be perfect. I left my house, and on the way, I stopped by the flower shop. A bouquet of white roses. Perfect. I know this is your favorite. I arrived in the park and you were still not there. I thought I was too early, and so I waited. Thirty minutes has passed and still no sign of you. Don’t worry, girls are really late. That’s what I thought. It started to rain, but I never left my seat. I was worried I will leave and you’ll not be able to find me. Three hours, for three more hours I waited. Finally, I decided I will go to your house, but when I stood up, you shouted my name. It was music to my ears, and I smiled. But when I saw you, the smile vanished. You were approaching me, hands entwined with Yamada. I felt that hurt again. In your eyes, I saw worry, but it is only for a friend. You said you are really sorry, and then you happily told me that Yamada and you went back together. TOGETHER you say.

If I was the one in your life
If I was the one
If I was the one
In your life
My heart was throbbing. I felt really weak, and I wanted to cry. I faked a smile, congratulated you, and bid farewell. I turned around and started to walk away, not caring about your calls. I continued walking, and tears freely fell from my eyes. Good thing it was raining, no one will even notice.
IF I WAS THE ONE IN YOUR LIFE, YOU WILL ONLY EXPERIENCE HAPPINESS.

I, NAKAJIMA YUTO, PLEDGE TO LOVE YOU FOREVER, AND KEEP THIS LOVE FOREVER FROM YOU AND YAMADA RYOSUKE IN ORDER TO KEEP OUR FRIENDSHIP AND FOR YOU TO BE HAPPY ETERNALLY.

I, NAKAJIMA YUTO, PLEDGE TO LOVE YOU FOREVER, AND KEEP THIS LOVE FOREVER FROM YOU AND YAMADA RYOSUKE IN ORDER TO KEEP OUR FRIENDSHIP AND FOR YOU TO BE HAPPY ETERNALLY.

i love these words .. iyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarkrkkkk
so sad .. T.T u love making the sad ones right ? the fanfics i mean . so coool and so awesome !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*thumbs up!* greatgreatgreat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! supadupa great !!!!!!! u r so cool for making fanfic like this XD

I, NAKAJIMA YUTO, PLEDGE TO LOVE YOU FOREVER, AND KEEP THIS LOVE FOREVER FROM YOU AND YAMADA RYOSUKE IN ORDER TO KEEP OUR FRIENDSHIP AND FOR YOU TO BE HAPPY ETERNALLY.

i love these words .. iyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarkrkkkk
so sad .. T.T u love making the sad ones right ? the fanfics i mean . so coool and so awesome !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*thumbs up!* greatgreatgreat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! supadupa great !!!!!!! u r so cool for making fanfic like this XD

haha. it took me a while to find the perfect words, but i am realy glad you liked it. ^^

haha. not really. it's just that, there are times that inspiration comes to me. and then poof! i write what i think. haha.

My heart was throbbing. I felt really weak, and I wanted to cry. I faked a smile, congratulated you, and bid farewell. I turned around and started to walk away, not caring about your calls. I continued walking, and tears freely fell from my eyes. Good thing it was raining, no one will even notice.

why, oh why?!
why do you always have to write things like this?!
*huhu*
again, I cried a bucket of tears... T_T
it's because i feel the pain in my heart...

My heart was throbbing. I felt really weak, and I wanted to cry. I faked a smile, congratulated you, and bid farewell. I turned around and started to walk away, not caring about your calls. I continued walking, and tears freely fell from my eyes. Good thing it was raining, no one will even notice.

why, oh why?!
why do you always have to write things like this?!
*huhu*
again, I cried a bucket of tears... T_T
it's because i feel the pain in my heart...