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Tuesday, 24 June 2014

6.10 Voices

Draco was
hearing a voice in his head and yelled at the voice, “Stay away from me.” The
voice coldly replied, “Tough, you are never going to get rid of me.”

“I want my
life back.”

“You will never
figure it out in time and then your Dad will suffer.” Draco woke up with sweat
pouring from him.

He got out of bed and looked in the mirror. All he saw was
the man he’d become not the man he wanted to be. He wanted to cry out for help
but he couldn’t. He was pushing his Mum away and his Dad was on the verge of
kicking him out. Harmony tolerated him.
The only people he could really count on were William and Blake.

Draco often
thought of Torri but every time he tried to dream about her the nightmare took
over.

Suddenly his phone went and when he saw it was Carl ringing, he answered,
“Look I’m not in the mood…”

“Don’t
really care; the packages are ready for collection.”

“Fine, I’ll
be there in 30 minutes.” Draco wasn’t in the mood to hand out drugs at the club
that night, he wanted to see Torri but he’d made this deal so he couldn’t back
out now.

When he
finished handing out the drugs he saw Torri looking at him and he went straight
over to her, “Hay you look beautiful tonight.” Torri gazed into his eyes and
melted once again, “Dance with me?”

Draco took
her to the dance floor and for about the longest hour in their lives they
danced as they let their bodies do the talking when suddenly Torri cupped his
face and finally asked, “Why did you save me?”

Draco closed his eyes for a
moment then opened them and said in a whisper, “You were worth saving.” Torri
smiled widened as he continued, “I couldn’t see you hurt.” Torri could see pain
in his eyes and said, “Talk to me Draco.”

He so wanted
to talk to her and tell her what was bothering him but he couldn’t get the
words out so he ended up losing his temper and snapping at people. However
tonight he managed to answer, “I will walk you home then I need to get home.”

When Draco
got home he went straight to his room, he was lying on his bed when he heard a
knock as Teddy walked in, “Draco, can we be friends again?”

Draco looked at his
Mum and before he could answer her, he heard a voice in his head, ‘This will be
fun.’

Draco tried to protest but it was no good, “Mum fuck off and no we can’t
be friends again.”

Teddy ran from the room and slid down the wall, “My baby boy
hates me, what has happened to him?”

Draco stood by the door as he listened to
his mother’s tears and whispered, “I’m so sorry Mummy, please help me.” Then he
heard the voice again, ‘No-one can hear your pleas for help…poor Draco all
alone and no-one cares.’

He opened
the door and saw his Dad comforting his mother, “Stay away from me right now
boy because otherwise I will beat the crap out of you for hurting your mother.”

Draco felt
the sense of loss as he tried to say, “Dad please…”

“I don’t
want to hear your excuses.”

Draco ran from the house and when he got to Torri’s
home he punched the door until she answered. She could see he was visibly
shaken and asked, “What happened?”

“I’ve really
did it this time.” Torri tried again to reach him, “What is bothering you?”
Suddenly he yelled at her, “Nothing, stop nagging me.” He left the house
slamming the door behind him.

Draco had
only got about 200 yards up the road when pretty boy approached him. He stroked
Draco’s cheek and said, “Let’s have sex as that always cheers you up. You
haven’t been seeing that new girl, have you?”

“It’s none
of your business who I see now let’s get this over with.”

They went to
pretty boy’s apartment and he stripped ready for Draco. He bent over the sofa
and said, “You know this will make you feel better and as my loyal customer,
tonight is on the house.” Draco for the first time stripped naked then took
pretty boy. Once Draco was done he got his clothes and left.

When he
arrived home Harmony was at the front door waiting for him, “Sis, what’s up?”

“Here are
your suitcases and I’ve been told to tell you that you are no longer welcome in
the family home, Dad’s orders.”

“But where
will I go? Harmony wanted to help and said, “Tell me what is going on and I’ll
help you.” Draco fell to his knees as he said, “I can’t tell you.”

Torri let
Draco in once more. He sat on the sofa and Torri leaned into him as she kissed
him and said, “Are you staying the night?” Draco looked lustful into her eyes
and replied, “Yes babe I am.”

Torri led
Draco to the bedroom. He stood in front of her as she undressed him then he
undressed her, he was gentle and loving as he whispered, “You’re a wonderful
person.” He glanced over her shoulder at her body, “Torri I can’t hold on much
longer.” He started to nibble at her neck as she tilted her head more, “More
Draco more.”

She turned to him and stroked his face, “Draco please say it.” He
heard the voice in his head say, ‘Just fuck her and get this over with. Why
does she need to hear those 3 little words…how revolting?’

Draco
screamed back in his head, ‘Why can’t I say those words to her and leave me
alone.’

Suddenly he
was facing Torri again, “Hay, you had a blank expression on your face…Draco let
me help you?”

He kept his
voice tender and replied, “I’m fine and so are you,” with no warning he was
inside her going deeper and deeper and all he could hear at that moment was
Torri screaming his name.