Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn V

Yet another reader writes (a hot topic, eh?)…

“A former ‘bestie’ who has (after my inner enlightenment) shown herself to actually be a ‘frienemy,’ posted a pic of her hand in a splint, held in the position of an ‘F-you’ finger, which seems synchronous enough on its own, but when I send a friendly note of commiseration, she replied, ‘There needs to be someone incapacitated at all times — your turn next!’

“It felt as close to a curse as I’ve experienced.

Definitely! Sad that someone has an Unconscious Belief in Suffering, but not I suppose unusual.

“My husband, a lovely practical man who is able to shed others’ energies like a duck, laughed and asked why I even engaged her. Good question. I suppose I am still looking to heal something there.

“But my larger query is about dealing with a situation stronger than ‘taunts’ — what appears to be active desire to wish ill on me.

“Seems very Ixion, no? Wasn’t he the one who gave something poisoned to Hercules’ wife that she then unwittingly gave him and caused his death?”

That was Nessus, while he was dying after Hercules wounded him to revenge Nessus’s attempted rape of Hercules’ wife. What tangled webs we weave, eh?

“My current strategy is to imagine a beautiful mesh dome of healing light and mirrors to bounce any negative energies back at the sender, but I’m left feeling so sad. Why this waste? But there are likely themes of envy and competition and narcissism that I avoided seeing, out of wanting to “see the best” in her.

“So I am working hard to keep remembering that ‘I Walk in Light.’

“My inner Innocent wants to focus on the Good in the World, but there is a rising Inner Warrior who is sharpening her blades — standing ready to cut all ties. Or at least polishing my shield to reflect back Medusa’s image to her.

“Also interesting how subtle threads can be plucked to create a resonance or tone that others cannot hear, but feel clear to me.

“In any case, I responded with lightness and humor that ‘no thanks — my card’s already been punched, but I was sure she had a full card that could be redeemed for perhaps a free lightning healing!’

As Alan Watts said, “It’s harder to Let Go of our Good Karma, than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma. Bear in mind that the Greek Myths were stories of how the Patriarchs defeated Nature, allowing the Illusion that She can be controlled, which Illusion has been busy destroying the Planet ever since. You can see Medusa acting through the Superstorms that have been plaguing the Planet since Global Warming started to become extreme – and the Patriarchy’s impotence in its Reactions. The appropriate Response is to Empathize with Medusa.

Yes, by all means

“a beautiful mesh dome of healing light and mirrors to bounce any negative energies back at the sender,”

though it’s useful to remember that “negative” only has meaning with regard to the Receiver, as “positive” and “negative” only exist operationally. That means that they aren’t absolutes, but relative to the purpose and context at hand. Maybe you could instead think in terms of Energies that don’t Serve the Highest Good of All, or the like, rather than “negative” Energies. That’s nit-picking, but it might be useful.

“But I’m left feeling so sad. Why this waste?”

Yes, that’s your Resistance to having to do the Work which you Believe others should be doing – and in a Healed World they would be. But this World needs Healing, and we’re self-appointed. This is why we above all need Persistence, because we were programmed to Resist healing the holes in our Auras. That’s how the significant adults in our childhood controlled us. So that Feeling of Sadness is your key to knowing you’re on the right track. Shift your Attention from the Sadness in your Emotional Body to the Fullness you Feel in your Energy Body when you have your Mesh Dome of Mirrors in place. Adjust your MirrorMesh till you Feel the Fullness.

Your Sadness needs a “You poor Sweetheart, you believe it’s Sad to have to Protect yourself, don’t you” and some hugs, as you fill your Energy Space with Light. Attend to the Edge between Sad and Safe. I think the two of you will prefer Safe. Natally, you have a Finger of God (Pay Attention!) pointing at Nessus, with Ixion (Orphaned Genius), Lilith (Self-Sovereignty), and the North Node (Mission) closely involved. Nessus represents Power-Over.

So absolutely sharpen your Inner Warrior’s blades. You are a highly tuned Sensor for Power-Over, but your Vertex (Intuition) Squares your Nessus. Our Squares represent Mastery through Challenge, and we of course focus on the Challenge, since it’s always demanding our Attention. Only by carefully comparing Who We Are to Who Others Are can we see the Mastery. Power-Over is how the Patriarchy operates, how it’s destroying the Planet.

It’s not necessarily your duty to blow the whistle on Power-Over publicly, but in settings where the clients were Open, you could be an effective business consultant helping organizations overcome Power-Over problems in their internal Relationship Dynamics. There are actually businesses out there that are trying to figure out how to Survive AND adapt to greater principles than Exploitation and Quarterly Profits.