Date: August 12, 2016

I stumbled into
your world one memorable time…
I was not welcome and
my roads to you were blocked…
since then life has become
one massive disappointment…
living has become
about treading carefully
on these thin ropes taut
on which my world
I’m balancing…
this weight that I carry
is no less of a burden than
if the whole world
were to be carried by an ant…
I have ceased to see
rhyme or rhythm in existence…
no more…
all the songs have died…
the rhythms have drowned
in the tears that I cried…
the light is demure…
will be forever…
I despise myself
for opening this
Pandora’s box
of hopes and dreams
and delusions…
but I seek not freedom…
for it will only be an illusion…
I can never be free…
the reminder and
the remainder of us
will always haunt me…
but I do thank you
for this hole in my heart…
this dismay has
been a great teacher…
it introduced me
to depths of me
I never knew existed…