Chapter 2 - Part 4 of 4
The True Parents

I have climbed over the hill successfully on every level -- from the
individual all the way up to the present world level. According to the
Divine Principle, the second sons and daughters are in the position to
be sacrificed. This was true even for the second son of the True
Parents, Heung Jin Nim. Heung Jin Nim was truly a handsome, attractive
young man. He was loved by his brothers and sisters; they all wanted
to spend time with him. Heavenly Father has never had a chance
throughout human history to really love a true child, particularly
within His own bosom in spirit world. But now Heung Jin Nim is in that
position with God, representing the true, unstained child of True
Parents and God.

If the sacrifice of Heung Jin Nim had not been made, either of two
great calamities could have happened. Either the Korean nation could
have suffered a catastrophic setback, such as an invasion from the
North; or I myself could have been assassinated. Since special
indemnity was paid that protected me in Korea at the Kwangju rally --
Satan's specific target day -- he hit Heung Jin Nim instead, at the
same exact hour.

As a child, I was hand-picked by God to carry out a dispensational
mission. As the chosen champion for God, I have not faltered. Even
though Jesus' life was finished at the age of 33, Reverend Moon has
moved forward all the way to the age of 64. All this time I have been
fighting an uphill battle against all kinds of dangers. Not only have
I survived, but I have also been victorious.

The year of 1945 was a golden opportunity for the fulfillment of God's
dispensation. If Korean Christianity had united with me completely,
the beginning of a new era, the Kingdom of Heaven on earth, would have
dawned. Christianity paid 2,000 years of indemnity so if they had
united with God's dispensation in 1945 there would have been no more
need for suffering. But since they did not, I had to start over again
from scratch and take upon myself all the suffering in order to lay a
new foundation, step by step. Finally I have come to the worldwide
level.

Let Us Go Over the Hill 2-7-84

The suffering and agony of the True Parents in the course of the
dispensation is beyond comparison with that of any of the True
Children. True Parents have had to endure much more persecution and
heartbreak than anyone. True Parents have lived an entirely public
life, bearing the responsibility of the universe. Some people have
taken advantage of us, even telling us lies. Such a thing is
incredible.

Mother and I have suffered, not because we are foolish or weak and
helpless; we are very intelligent and wise, and we are stronger and
tougher than anyone can imagine. Our suffering is simply because of
our public mission. For your sake, in order to bestow upon you the
proper tradition, we have suffered. I want to give everything to you
and for the sake of the dispensation. Even now I am taking on more
suffering, so how can anyone among you feel you have the right to open
your mouths in complaint or self-service?

If there were no True Parents, how could God even think about the
realization of His ideal, the restoration, or anything? These ideals
would never even have the chance to come to the minds of humanity. The
scope of my mission is beyond anyone's concept -- bringing light to
this darkened and chaotic world. Your attitude should be one of
respect and gratitude.

I am talking in such plain language today so that you will understand
the plain truth; this should give you the motivation for repentance,
as well as obedience. You should have absolute faith in the True
Parents. This is the day of a new beginning; everybody must begin a
new life. That new life must begin with repentance and in that way we
can have new hope and new direction. As we march forward from today,
this day will shine as a most meaningful one in history.
Parents' Day 1984 4-7-84

Did you hear the singing of the birds this morning on the lawn?
Everyone keep absolutely quiet for a few moments so we can listen to
them. What are they doing out there? They are singing love songs to
one another. Nature is our textbook. When I hear those birds, I feel
inspired to sing a love song to Mother.

The Day of the Love of God 5-20-84

If you think I am comfortable living in East Garden, you are wrong.
Even from the secular point of view, I am miserable. Every day I am
bearing the cross within my heart. Whenever it is a rainy day, I think
about our members and think, "The MFT members must be soaking wet
today. God, be with them." When it is cold and miserable, I think
about our members living in Soviet satellite countries, some
imprisoned and even on the verge of being executed. All of these
thoughts are my constant burden.

Since I cannot deal physically with every member around the world,
Mother and I try to love and care for those leaders who come to East
Garden, as representatives of all the rest of the members. Mother may
buy them clothing or I may give them some gift. We want to serve the
members by serving their visiting leaders. Mother and I discuss this
often and we always have the criterion that we want to buy nicer
things for the Church members than for our own children.

Therefore, those who have been martyred in the Eastern satellite
countries have ended their lives shouting "Mansei" and facing East
Garden. They have not felt complaint or bitterness about losing their
lives. They have been victorious and grateful, even in dying. Such
people are a great pride to their ancestors and all their future
descendants.

Do you think I am setting the right tradition? When the missionaries
and other Unification Church members come, I eagerly invite them to
East Garden to visit with me and Mother, feeding them good food. Often
Mother and I will take them out to buy clothes for them. Why? From the
worldly point of view, I am giving special attention to people who are
nobodies" while virtually ignoring the "somebodies." How do you think
God feels about that -- is He pleased or displeased? This is exactly
what the Bible teaches. The person who tries to go up higher will be
brought lower. The one who tries to go lower will be brought up
higher.

True Way of Life 7-1-84

When there is good food to eat, everybody wants to enjoy it and eat a
lot. In such a situation, I am always the first to lay down my fork.
This was a true even when I was in prison. I practice this principle
wherever I go. When leaders come to East Garden to visit, I never tell
them, "Please go away because I need my rest." Instead they are the
ones who get tired and finally I pity them and let them go to bed.
Then I stay up later than anybody else. Even though I may go to my
room, I don't go to sleep.

This is sometimes very painful for Mother. Because my schedule is so
arduous, it is impossible for her to keep up with me. Mother spends a
lot of time alone, but she never complains because she knows what kind
of person I am. She is always proud of me and she always speaks well
of me. She has no complaint but rather gratitude and appreciation and
support. Mother knows one thing: I do what I do for the sake of others
and for the sake of God, not for myself.

True Way of Life 7-1-84

The entire world is watching the Unification Church and Reverend and
Mrs. Moon. Many people are curious about Mrs. Moon and how she is
taking the recent turn of events. Also they are wondering if the
Unification Church is now shattered into pieces and destroyed. But on
the contrary, under these difficult circumstances the Unification
Church has found itself most powerful. If Mother sheds tears, they are
not the tears of tragedy or defeat; they are the tears of unity, tears
for bringing hope to the future.

Farewell Speech 7-20-84

I was born for this mission and I have persevered and suffered for
this purpose. Now the couple has been created which is unique in all
history because we won the victory for true love. For that reason,
that couple is called the True Parents. True Parents are the ones who
are victorious with true love.

The Way of the Children 11-12-85

Mother, through no fault of her own, has suffered because of me. What
about prison? Nobody can be trusted there. It is like the wilderness,
without any protection. Mother went to the prison virtually every
other day, like clockwork, rain or shine.- The average woman would
give up, saying, "Why should I do this? I am disgusted by my destiny."
Without knowing the True Parents' ideal and the dispensation, she
would have had an entirely different experience. Do you think that she
shed a great deal of secret tears? Mother and the family had to go on
and conduct five o'clock Pledge service each Sunday,painfully aware
that I was in prison. I'm sure they shed a lot of tears.

I will tell you something that I experienced a couple of years ago. I
visited one place where there was a member who had decided to leave
the Church that very day. It happened that I was on the same airplane
with that person. Up to that day, that member had felt that I was his
Father, but on that day, he decided that I was nobody. He walked past
my seat on the plane, and he didn't even look at me or have the common
decency to greet me and say hello. I thought that, even supposing we
had not shared a religion or teaching, at least in terms of human
decency, is that any way to treat someone you know? Is that the
product of individualism here in America? How can someone turn around
so completely in one day and create a wall? I was really wondering
about that. This is not only one instance -- there have been many in
my life. These show the potential ugliness of the human heart.

True Parents and 1 6-15-86

Reverend Moon has been faithfully practicing this principle and
because of it, a lot of sacrifices have been imposed upon the East
Garden family. Mother has had a suffering course because I have very
seldom paid her much attention. Likewise, my children have not
received much attention from me. Mother's life has been very
difficult. When she was only a tender young girl, she met with her
giant husband. Can you imagine the suffering her heart has endured?
She has had absolutely no freedom. Mother has been bearing within her
heart so many pains; she could never even speak about them. She has
felt that it was her responsibility to bear her cross and support me.
Now that I have accomplished on the worldwide scale, Mother has
matured and become truly a mother for the universe.

Road Toward the Ideal 9-7-86

There are laws for offering sacrifices. There are certain persons
involved and certain conditions that have to be met in order for a
sacrifice to become acceptable. There is a time period that should
elapse. For forty years, Father was the person who offered the
sacrifice and at the same time Father himself was that sacrifice. The
satanic world was blocking everything, trying to make me fail. The
satanic disturbances and obstacles have been almost insurmountable.
Satan knows only too well that once Father succeeds in fulfilling
human responsibility, it is final. For that reason, Satan has tried to
block every stage of the game, and in the absolute final stage he
pushed me into Danbury prison.

You have no idea how miserable and lonely Father has been all this
time. Even Mother and the children don't know fully. Only God and
Father know. I don't want you to be indebted to me. Let me be indebted
to you. You can become such great men and women, the champions who
will create a new history.

Ideal Home Church 12-27-86

Do you think Father and Mother are living in such a relationship of
perfected love? Mother's role is absolute obedience and support toward
Father. There is absolute trust and fidelity, as well as absolute
purity; of course, those things are mutual. That absolute standard has
been kept by both. All the children coming from such parents will be
of extraordinary dimension on the worldwide scale. Do you follow?

God's Day 1-1-87

Now you have to inherit my mission. The only difference between you
and the True Parents is that when Mother and I began our work, there
was no path ahead. We had to pioneer on every level and encounter
opposition everywhere. But in your case, you have no opposition and
the highway has already been laid by True Parents.

Parents' Day and Our Path 3-29-87

(Blackboard.) This represents all the things of creation in the
universe. In the center is the human being. In the center of the human
being is the family and the center of the family is True Parents. The
Old Testament era is represented by the creation; the New Testament
era is the era of human beings. The family centered upon true love and
the True Parents is the Completed Testament Age. Your family is the
microcosm, where the universe is unfolded. The center core is the
blessed couple, husband and wife. The children and family form a
circle. The tribe, your home church, becomes your world. This
represents the whole universe.

You must be capable of offering all things. That position belongs to
you; your life is a sacrifice. You are able to dedicate your
relationship with your spouse and children for the sake of the higher
cause of true love. I have been walking the same path and setting the
example. First of all, I don't keep any material possessions that come
to me. I give them away for the benefit of others. My own family has
suffered more than anyone else. My elder children suffered the most
because I almost totally neglected them for the sake of the world
cause. I also sacrificed my relationship with Mother. Her suffering
behind the scenes is incredible. Why is that? It is only because of
true love.

My goal is not just the True Parents' family; my goal is to foster
true love that will be prosperous in the world. In order to reach that
worldwide target, I am willing to sacrifice anything I have on earth.
Of course, I sacrificed myself a long time ago. I have been working
according to this rule and my efforts have not been in vain. I have
laid the worldwide human foundation so that now even the United States
will inevitably listen to my message.

Let Us Go Over the Original Boundary 4-1-87

I know only one way to prosper -- that of giving totally, absolutely,
to perfection. That is why my "business" has been booming all over the
world, ever since I opened up shop.

We Shall Live in the Original Homeland 7-1-87

Before I went to Alaska, I prepared for three days. I went to the
Delaware River and fished in order to condition myself, thinking, "I
am going to compete with all 130 professors, and I cannot be outdone.
Even though I am the oldest, I should win over them." It was very
difficult, but I stayed out later than anyone. Every professor was
knocked out when he got back, but I never was. Afterwards, however, I
went back to the Delaware and kind of "deconditioned" myself from the
intensity and the heat. That kind of fishing is less intense than in
Alaska and is good to unwind with.

When I get very tired from fishing, I don't think about taking a rest.
I rest, yes, but only by fishing. That's the best way to rest. I do
everything as l work for the dispensation. When I feel, "Oh, I must
rest now," then I speak in a less intense way. Nevertheless, I
continue to speak. That's my idea of resting, not going on a vacation
and taking a few days off. That's one thing you have to learn also.

It would be difficult for you American women to live with that kind of
husband, wouldn't it? But Mother is different from the American women.
Mother doesn't mind her husband working this way. When I don't rest,
Mother cannot rest either. When you live this public way of life,
nothing will ever bother you. Nor is there ever a truly sad moment.
You almost never experience sadness.

Sometimes I apologize to my own limbs, my own hands, saying, "I'm
sorry that I overworked you. I know I should let you rest, but I'm not
doing that. I know, and I'm sorry." Then I apologize to my feet,
saying, "Feet, I know how tired you are standing here for so many
hours. You are swollen and I should really put you to rest once in a
while, but I'm sorry, I can't. You know why." I apologize to every
part of my body. Who can hate such a person? How can those limbs, that
torso, that body to which a person apologizes all the time blame him?
Do you understand?

If you want to criticize somebody, you should do so only after many
hours of tears for him. Then you might say, "You could do better in
this way." But not before shedding tears for him. If each of us begins
to live like that, our life will immediately turn into a valuable one.

Precious Existence 7-19-97

I have had a miserable course on this earth, but God will appreciate
it forever. God will make me welcome in the center point of love. I
only want to give you my true love. I don't want money; I don't want
fame. I don't want all of America following me. I just want to be
completely on God's side.

Original Homeland and the Realm of Heart 8-23-87

Years ago, when I first set foot at Kennedy Airport, I thought about
this land's history. I recalled the Indians and the many immigrants
who came here. I recalled the many people who have loved this country
and sacrificed for its sake. I wanted to love it more than any other
person. I vowed to invest more energy, to sacrifice more for this
country than any patriot ever did, including any of its original
inhabitants, the Indians. I resolved to pour myself out until the
whole country overflows. I made that pledge before heaven and earth,
and for the past fifteen years I have been carrying it out.

I thought about the War of Independence and placed myself in the
position of George Washington. George Washington's situation was
sometimes desperate, but I resolved to place myself in the same kind
of situation and do better than he did. I keenly felt that if I did
not do so, I could not restore this country.

The Way to Grow 8-30-87

Look at this humble horse stable here at Belvedere. Why do you suppose
we haven't replaced it with a great temple? This is the starting point
for our great prosperity. This humble stable could not be exchanged
for the Versailles palace in France. In the future, millions of people
will come here to sit and pray and shed tears because this is where
true love was taught by the True Parents.

Children's Day 1988 11-09-88

I have suffered and established the course of indemnity throughout my
life. Am I attractive or not? My wife has to suffer more than any
wife. Mother is so small, yet she has worked so hard and suffered
because of me. Who has suffered the most in history to find just one
true woman?

The Tribal Messiah 2-5-89

Father left his physical hometown many decades ago. He has lived in
many prisons. But when he saw the sunlight come through the prison
bars It was the same sunlight in Japan, America or Korea and he always
felt great joy. In prison he met his enemies. In Japan, he met
Japanese people and thought, "Even though they are my enemies they are
close to me." Through his prison experiences Father learned to love
the people of that nation.

In spring the mountains were full of flowers. It was so beautiful.
Just sitting against a tree in the mountains in spring, dozing, was an
unforgettable memory. The basic things we learn are in our hometown.
As a child you played and fell down and your nose bled and you came
home and got told off by your mother. Then she would wipe your nose
and comfort you. When my mother comforted me and I said, "Thank you,
mother," it was a great feeling. I could feel that she was proud of
me.

I had many brothers and sisters and lots of relatives. We had many
beautiful customs. For example, when one relative married and brought
his bride to the village, for many days the family members would take
turns according to their closeness to the relative to give feasts. So
for many days I could go around without feeling hungry. The
hospitality and happiness people displayed was beautiful.

When my mother sent one of her daughters to marry, it was like a thief
stole the daughter. She would cry for days before she had to send her
daughter away to join her husband's family. It was as if she were
losing her daughter forever. Today's Unification Church parents have
it good. You can be reassured about letting daughters go with the
husband that Father chooses. Another thing I cannot forget is watching
my mother working. She worked so hard her legs swelled. When I grabbed
her legs I could feel how swollen they were. When I pressed my hands
against her leg the mark remained for a long time. But she still kept
on running around. I was deeply moved by her devotion.

In your hometown you learn the basic things of life, how to put on
your clothes and so on. I remember when my mother scolded me, for
example when I climbed up a tree. Once she hit me very hard but
afterwards she cried and said to my brothers and sisters she was
sorry. But I think she did well. I think when parents hit you they
feel even more hurt than the child. These incidents of being spanked
or hurting yourself become strong, fond memories and make you feel so
sentimental about your childhood.

I can see now that the things I learned with my family and my
relatives and neighbors gave me the education and strength to build up
the Unification movement. You cannot imagine how much I long to return
to my hometown. This desire was very strong in me even from very early
on when I went to school in Seoul. In my first summer vacation I
naturally longed to go home but I didn't. I denied the longing and
purposely did not go home.

When I was in school I never ate lunch. I felt I couldn't because
there were so many who couldn't afford it. At that time I was teaching
Sunday school in Sobingodong in Seoul where they used to have ice
houses for the collection of ice from the Han river. (Sobingo means
"east ice house.") In those days when I was a high school student
teaching Sunday school, my speeches were much more interesting than
now. When I cried in front of them, they cried and when I said
something funny, they exploded in laughter.

I didn't eat lunch but brought food to the poor people in order to
share their suffering. I didn't return to my hometown in order that I
could share the loneliness of people and of God.

Hometown 2-12-89

Are you going to become models of God's love? All the women in the
Unification Church are so attracted to Father because he is the model
of an individual. Many young members are attracted by Father's sons.
Members hope that some day their children will marry with Father's
children so that they can be connected. Some day you will all be
connected through your descendants to Father's lineage. You have to
work and prepare for that time.

Our Church and Korea as Seen from the Providence
of God 2-19-89

What is the relationship between God and True Parents? I am talking
about this with you now but it has taken me all my life to work this
out. I have wrestled with God, asking, "What are You, who are You?"
and have invested all of my energy in this.

Where is God? I found that God is in true love. The home of God is
true love. God needs to establish True Parents who are connected to
Him by true love and who become ancestors of a true lineage which is
able to pass on true love to their descendants.

Satan has conquered more than 75 percent of the world. Materialism and
humanistic philosophy have conquered more than 75 percent of the mind
of man. True Parents are investing the absolute standard of love
without holding anything back in order to naturally subjugate Satan.

Let Us Liberate God 2-26-89

Love is the reason why God exists, creates and does everything. People
who do not know this about God have no real idea who God is. To
establish God as the master of the world, the messiah has to fight.
Father has been fighting all his life but what is the nature of that
fight? I have fought by first taking a beating and then taking the
blessing. That has always been the principle of Father's fighting --
take the beating and then take the victory.