Imagine if you were brought in front a big screen and shown a picture of a gathering with hundreds of people.

Imagine if you were brought in front a big screen and shewn a picture of a gatherer with hundreds of people. Imagine you were told you were all this people and the place too.

Imagine you were told you were all this people and the place too.

Imagine if you were also convinced you were each one of this people individually and every time you were actually observing one of them you would assume their program (mind) and adding another mind to the general one it was given to you when you sat in front the screen.

Imagine yourself, now, leaded to believe you’re those people, trying to make them survive, feeling responsible for their future, for each individual future and well being.

Imagine yourself, not knowing is a projection and not knowing they are all one image, starting fights one against another to protect and support the different minds (program)… in truth fighting yourselves.

Imagine yourself feeling something is really wrong and trying to unsuccessfully escape from the screen as a single person… Unsuccessfully, as while you are desperately trying to escape as one, you are continuing your participation in the play with all the others.

Imagine yourself feeling something is really wrong and trying to unsuccessfully escape from the screen as a single person… Unsuccessfully, as while you are desperately trying to escape with one, you are continuing your participation in the play with all the others. But again, you do not know that anymore.

And so, you start focusing in campaigns to save the world, while part of you knows there is not such world and, frustrated and upset, is trying to destroy this screen… the very same world you are trying to save.

Some philosophers say we are one and we are responsible for everybody, we are everywhere while some other say we are a single being. From a mind prospective they both potentially right.

However, outside the “minds”there is no us, me, you or I in this projection.

There is a projection and the only way out, is not to play any part in the movie we see.”

In truth, if there is ever going to be a truth understandable or even perceivable and by a mind, there is no us, me or I in this projection. There is a projection and the only way out, at least from the “movie”, is not to play any part in the movie.”

There is no home in a prison, but there are people who, like you, know where home is…

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Three years ago a guy came to visit and touched my soul.

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I mistakenly assumed two souls when connected,

would be able to overcome anything in this physical-illusionary world.

What I did not know at that time was,

although people can momentarily awaken

fueled by the energy of someone spiritually powerful,

if they do not have enough personal energy,

they will fall right back asleep.

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And so while the soul touching exist beyond time,

everything in this physical universe dies.

I woke up few months later married to an angry-capricious man

who was lacking any sense of integrity, loyalty and compassion.

I knew I was in the wrong dream,

yet, I would have stayed till dead to fulfill my promise of love.

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He, instead, did me the favor to set me free.

The psychological torture I endured during this time was so deep

this body still undergoing extreme moments

of severe grief and depression

although life has made my last ‘human’ dream come true;

some months ago I met a man…

We had common spiritual interest and so I agree to meet him.

After few dates I realized what a human soul mate is.

“…In true mysticism there is no sacrifice of feeling. Mystical sensations are sensations of the same category as the sensation of love, only infinitely higher and more complex. Love “sex”, these are but a foretaste of mystical sensations. “Ouspensky: A NEW MODEL OF THE UNIVERSE “Sex and Evolution”————“Mystical sensations undoubtely and incontestably have a taste of sex… Of course all we know in life, only in love is there a taste of the mystical, a taste of ecstasy. Nothing else in our life brings us so near to the limit of human possibilities, beyond which begins the unknown.The Strange Life of PD Ouspensky by Colin Wilson

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During our spiritual meetings, where at closed eyes

I could perceive the different energies of the participants,

I noticed the energy of B. to be a whole with mine.

One of the most amazing experiences I had in this illusion.

There is no me or him in the energy view of this illusion,

although the analytical mind does an amazing work

on trying to separate and add impurities to this perfect flowing

toward full fusion of two drops of “oil” into one drop.

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When recently I met his family,

I found myself experiencing the reunion of old souls (friends).

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Although our “performances” on the stage of life

have been very different as far as backgrounds,

stage costumes and other appearances of matter, time and place,

the plot of our lives (energy type) have been extremely similar.

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Ouspensky believes we are going to go through

the same events life after life,

with the only change in time, background and costumes.

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Interesting.

My personal belief is ‘nothing here is real’,

although there is an awareness

which allows us to connect to other awarenessess.

This awareness is real up to the moment

we try to bring it to the level of a mind,

at which moment it becomes a lie.

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That is the reason there cannot be a school

or a prearranged path.

Awareness cannot be thought or talked about.

It can only be perceived.

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When you read a book, it is not the words that make the difference.

Is the fact that you, at that very moment,

are on a certain frequency to connect

with higher frequency thoughts floating aoround.

Concepts you are unable to perceive with the use of a mind.

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That is the reason Sufis (Jesus too) communicated in parables.

They have a meaning for every level of frequency.

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In fact as one get on higher frequencies

the meaning and truth once seen

changes completely and at times both turns into the very opposite,

till they get to a level above the ‘yin and the yang’, positive and negative

The invisible low life of the mind’s world.

A beautiful being, which I’m currently seeing asked me if I would have charged him rent if he moved here?”

My immediate answer was: “The man I have to be a caretaker of, hasn’t being born yet.”

I could not stop thinking of a more stupid answer on my part.

R. is a very giving person and far from being an opportunist

and the fact that I answered in that manner it was making me feel cheap and greedy.

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I spent about a day thinking about it and feeling stupid…

until I started looking all this from a distance and saw the huge red flag highlighting my identification with the program (Silvia Kusada) and the sad self-importance dining with its best friend Mrs self-pity.

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That answer was also showing the degree of protest my mechanical-self still sitting on about my ex-husband W. taking avidlyfrom me all I had and I did not have, leaving me drained of both material means and spiritual energy.

At night, unhappy with myself I sat on the couch and seeking help by browsing into my spiritual books… I found my answer when I went through the first few pages of a book by Swami Vivekananda.

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“I do not want to get material life, do not want the sense-life, but something higher.”

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“Comfort is no test of truth; on the contrary, truth is often far from being “comfortable.”

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“After every happiness comes misery; they may be far apart or near. The more advanced the soul, the more quickly does one follow the other.

What we want is neither happiness nor misery.

Both make us forget our true nature; both are chains – one iron, one gold; behind both is the Atman, who knows neither happiness nor misery. These are states, and states must ever change; but the nature of the Atman is bliss, peace, unchanging.

We have not to get it, we have it; only wash away the dross and see it.

“Always discriminate-your body, your house, the people and the world are all absolutely unreal like a dream.

Always think that the body is only an inert instrument.

And the Atman within is your real nature.”

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“In religion, as in all other matters, discard everything that weakens you, have nothing to do with it.”

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“Whatever is weak avoid! It is death. If it is strength, go down into hell and get hold of it! There is salvation only for the brave.”

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“Bless the people when they revile you.

Think how much good they are doing by helping to stamp out the false ego. Hold fast to the real Self.

Think only pure thoughts, and you will accomplish more than a regiment of mere preachers.

Out of purity and silence comes the world of power.”

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“Blows are what awaken us and help to break the dream.

They show us the insufficiency of this world and make us long to escape, to have freedom.”

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“Both forces of good and evil will keep the universe alive for us, until we awake from our dreams and give up this building of mud pies.”

Swami Vivekananda.

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… After going through few paragraphs I felt a great sense of relief.

I realized I was so unknowingly getting into “life” I was forgetting the beauty of freedom from matter and energy. The beauty of not interfering with the plot, of not getting involved with the Matrix.

I looked at my land; “The Spiritual Center” and saw the burden of owing it and the beauty of offering it and letting it go, where it belong… to the Matrix.

Losing everything in my last marriage made me so greedy?

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At this last thought I stopped.

How anyone can possibly deplete you from your energy when you are not made of energy at all?

William did not take anything from me. He is asleep, and as all the people asleep works only on the level of stimulus-response of the energy world.

He could not ever touch me, but only in appearance interfere with the false I, as represented by the “Silvia Kusada”.

Another identification with the Matrix and the world of energy disguised under spiritual matters came into view.

If you really on the path, while you self-remember, there is nothing in this dimension, in this illusion or dream that can interfere with you.

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So, I wanted to offer this experience with you, as the deceiving minds can do miracle in order to bring you back to identify,

bringing you back into the illusion this prison is a beautiful and fun place to learn from…

I wanted to remind myself and who is seriously seeking truth

that by playing a spiritual ‘game’ instead of losing your mind(s),

you can loose yourself.

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“I do not want to get material life, do not want the sense-life, but something higher.”

“The rock and the water”

In a golden universe, of a very far away land, just beyond Orion; in a world without time or energy, a rock and a lake fell in love.

The light weightless character of that universe permitted the rock to jump onto the water and keep touching the very surface of it for as long as he wanted… that was his way of kissing the water.

And the water, of course, also being in love, kissed the rock back.

They kissed many times, feeling deep into each other…

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The water of the lake, when kissing, turned warm and peaceful, while the rock would shine and reflect the most beautiful unimaginable colors all over the sky.

Everyone who happened to see would stop – captured by beautiful the blend of colors and emotions.

They were in love.

But one day the rock and the water decided to go for a trip to a strange planet were it was said there was a very peculiar thing called gravity.

And so, at the same time, they both jumped into the unknown of that dimension…

When they opened their eyes they found themselves surrounded by beautiful mountains. The sky was the most intense blue color …just below, the mountains were blanketed by a deep vibrating green.

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The sun seemed to be kissing the sky and so both felt a sense of peace. There they were; the rock looking at the lake from the shore and the lake looking at the rock from the foot of the mountains.

In this new dimension they fell in love again, thinking they just met.

This strange universe did not allow the existence of anything else; this strange world of gravity felt like the only existent and real thing – and very soon the lake and the rock lost memories of their true home.

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The rock and the lake looked at each other for long time and then they decided to kiss.

The rock took a big jump toward the lake – but to his disappointment did not move. He tried and tried again thousands of times, but with no luck. The water did the same, but all she achieved was to splash water on the nearby land, while getting weaker and weaker.

Time went by, when finally a kid hiking arrived at the lake and sat on the rock.

I do not know how or why, but the kid looking at the rock decided to throw it in the lake. Maybe he just wanted to play or maybe he heard the rock asking him to help him kiss the lake.

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It was an exciting moment when the rock found himself flying towards the Beloved One!

As the rock landed and they finally touched… the kiss. The beautiful feeling of that so longed kiss.

The passion of true love pervaded them in its magical touch. They were ready to spend their life together… when, suddenly, the rock touching the surface went through and disappeared into the bottom of the lake.

“What happened?” the rock cried in disappointment. “Where’d the rock go?” the lake shouted with surprise.

A feeling of sadness and betrayal filled them both. The lake ripples turned into dark and scary waves.

The rock stopped shining and cried. The tears were melting into the lake and the lake felt a very strong nostalgia for the loss of the loved one. The rock wanted to stop crying but it couldn’t because unknown to him, the lake surrounded him, and these ‘hugs” reminded him constantly of her love.

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They were in each other, but because of the clinging nature of this strange universe, its ruling by appearance they could not see it, and they thought they were apart.

The only thing which remained was that instant when they touched, which seemed so brief and at the same time infinite.

Infinite indeed in their home universe, but not in the land of appearance.

Perhaps one day, the lake and the rock will remember that this was just a trip, an adventure they decided to do together – and they will return home, where they belong, where there is no limit of space, of time and love last truly forever.