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Saturday, June 18, 2011

Crossroads

Have you ever felt like you are standing at the crossroads for a long time: you know you have to decide which way to go, but you cannot force yourself to make that life-defying selection? For the nth time I am reassured that decisions have to be made, but they are almost never a simple ones... Like when you choose what to do with your life. Like when you are 20, but still feel like you are 17-year-old dreamer with her head over the clouds and no decision made "just yet." It feels like the whole world is watching you with the silent expectation on their faces, waiting for your next move, but you are so stunned by such attention that you simply cannot make a step.

I feel like that sometimes. It's an intense feeling that can only be subdued through reminding myself that it actually doesn't really matter.. In the end, I'm just a speck on this earth and my life is the blink of an eye. I'm content, I'm healthy and I'm fortunate enough to live in a rich, stable country. That's more than a lot of people can hope for and sometimes it's ok just to be ok with that. :)