Theresa's Diary September 1999

Dear Diary

Whitney is such a worrier. I'm so glad that I don't have to worry about wearing that disguse all the time. Sure there was a close call in the Book Cafe but Frank Lomax didn't recognize me with pizza dough on my head.

It was amazing. We went to see Gone With The Wind and Ethan Crane sat down beside me. He even kissed my hand. Ethan Crane's lips were touching my skin. It has reawakened the passion burning within my soul. Tonight proved that we are meant to be.

I think that Ethan knew it wasn't Gwen whose hand he was kissing. If you're really in love you know the person so he had to know it was someone else. We are destined to be together. I just need to make him understand that I never stalked him. Everything that happened was just an accident. He just doesn't know that I'm the woman for him.

Oh my God that was so romantic. Ethan started quoting poetry to me. He does love me even though I was wearing that silly chicken hat. But everything went wrong when Ethan started reciting the poem to Gwen instead. How could I be so foolish? I was so sure we were meant to be but I was wrong. If only I could reveal myself to Ethan and let him know the real me. If I had that chance I know I could get him to realize that we are meant to be. I'm just being so foolish thinking he could ever want a girl from Railroad Street. I'm going to try to get over this but it isn't easy.

Dear Diary

I really hate wearing the disguise but I have no choice because Ethan thinks I'm his stalker. I got to work with him today. If only he knew the truth. I really love hislaptop. One day I would love to own one. At least the only thing I dropped was the book. He was talking to me about looking familiar so I accidentally knocked the book over. It was the book of poetry with that poem he quoted to me. It was so romantic when he said it to me at least it was until Gwen came and spoiled everything.

It was so wonderful talking to him. English was his favorite subject too. I just know that we'd be so happy together. We are perfect for one another but I'm stuck hiding behind this disguise. He wanted to be a writer. I bet he would make a great writer. He'd be great at anything. He shouldn't give up his dream just because his family wants him to be a lawyer. If only Mama hadn't showed up when she did. I could talk to Ethan all day long. I just know he'd fall in love with me if I could lose this disguise.

He was dreaming about me. I wonder what we were doing. I guess it wasn't anything romantic because he called me his stalker. I really wish I could straighten that out. I thought he'd figured it out when he grabbed me. I fell on top on him and it was just wonderful. I just wish he could see the real me instead of this frumpy disguise I have to wear. I could have stayed there all day but Mrs Crane and Gwen came in.

It just felt so right being in Ethan's arms. He even grabbed my hand and held on longer. He does care about me. Somehow I just know that we'll end up together. He'll wake up one day and realize that I'm the one for him and not that Gwen. She can go find someone else. I don't know what he sees in her. But everything got turned upside down after that. I overheard him talking about how he could never fall for someone like me. It's not use I've lost him forever.

I had quit when Frank came in so I wasn't able to get away. I thought I would stop breathing when Frank told Ethan to tell everyone that I was the stalker. I didn't want to get Mama into trouble. I just wanted to leave but he didn't tell them that I was the stalker. That was such a relief. But any hopes I had were dashed when Ethan told me that he never wants to see me ever again because I'm so accident prone around him. I can't believe that I've lost Ethan forever.

But that wasn't the end because it happened again. I was walking with Whitney when Ethan called my name. I turned around and out of nowhere this man carrying eggs appeared and they landed all over Ethan. I couldn't believe that it happened again and this time I had no idea how this happened. The look on Ethan's face scared ,e because I knew for sure that he'd have me arrested this time and I was thinking I was a menace that should be locked up. I tried telling Luis what happened but just couldn't do it. I was terrified when Ethan showed up at my house.

But I have the world's best friend in the world. Whit noticed a security camera so she got her hands on the tape. It turns out that I'm not to blame for this latest accident. Ethan bumped into the guy. I'm so relieved that it wasn't me. I explained to Ethan what had happened all the other times and how they were honestly accidents. I never in a million years thought that meeting Ethan Crane would turn me into the girl that had so many accidents. He now believes me and knows I wasn't stalking him which is so wonderful. I was so excited about him knowing the truth that I kissed him.

I kissed Ethan Crane. It just happened. Maybe my dream of being with Ethan can come true. He knows that I wasn't stalking him. I'd never do anything to hurt him. I love him so the last thing in the world I would want is to hurt him. I just know I can make him happy if only I get the chance. He just though I kissed him because he finally knows that I wasn't stalking him and that everything was just an accident. I have Whitney to thank for that. He even asked me if I wanted my job back. I couldn't turn him down. He even said I have beautiful eyes. Maybe there is a chance for me and Ethan.