Monday, March 25, 2013

In March of 2012 a storm entered my life and for months I thought I would never fully recover. My marriage was ending, I quit my jewelry business as I could no longer focus or get any meaning from it. I wanted to ditch all my jewelry inventory - just throw it out - but a friend, a good friend I might add, wouldn't let me. She hauled it to her home and kept it in safe storage. At the end of 2012 I retired from my Federal day job and prepared to leave my home of 12 years.

Throughout the previous spring and summer, I met myself over and over again, going deep inside to learn about me, my patterns, and what makes me tick/what doesn't. A lovely ray of sunshine came into my life as began to let go of regret and to really love me as I am, warts and all. I was able to move forward, not that I am the first nor will I be the last. But for those of you who have been through it, you probably felt as I did at times, that the deep pain would never end.

I recently retrieved my stash and am now creating jewelry again - just for myself this time around. There is a wonderful freedom in that I am finding. I can screw around as long as I want and I only have to please me.