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Topic: Where am I?? (Read 3423 times)

Have you designed a document from scratch? You know, where you have blank, white screen staring you right in the face, with nothing but a blinking cursor? Then you try to plan a layout on the screen and nothing you do seems to fit? You try different shapes, fonts, colors...and still nothing...

2.5 years ago, I was given my HIV diagnosis, and a year ago, I ended a 9 year relationship on good (reasonably good) terms. And most recently I found that I am HEP C positive as well...One good thing though, is I am seeing a very nice guy...and oh am I attracted to him...physically and emotionally...I really like him!

Yet, I still feel isolated and alone...DEPRESSION has settled in and for the first time in my life, I feel real terror! I see a therapist on Tuesday...my first appointment...I am sure after several sessions, I will be feeling close to normal again...but hey, it takes time.

I want to apologize to my AIDSMEDS family for not reaching out here earlier, and for not checking in. I truly miss you all and this place, and I need to come back daily to get back to my routine of mixing it up with my peeps!

Today, I ask for you to be lean post...just a for awhile...I will be coming back on a more regular basis...I need my foundation back...and this place gives me a that cornerstone to build upon!

I just needed to check in to let you know I am okay and to cry a little...

D and I were just talking about you the other day. It's good to hear from you, but I hate hearing that you're having a hard time. I also hope you start feeling better soon. Take care and keep in touch.

David

PS. maybe this'll bring a smile... you were still talked about at the R.E. over Easter. Imagine that!

You have been missed!!! You provided some great support here. Now it's time for you to lean on some of us. I totally understand the "blank white screen" feeling. Just kind of that emptiness. And how do you make it go away? Best of luck with the therapist.