Theo Verelst Diary Page

Sun 8:50am 17-06-2001

I've decided after good example to write some diary pages with toughts
and events.

Oh, in case anybody fails to understand, I'd like to remind them
that these pages are copyrighted, and that everything found here may not
be redistributed in any other way then over this direct link without my
prior consent. That includes family, christianity, and other cheats. The
simple reason is that it may well be that some people have been ill informed
because they've spread illegal 'copies' of my materials even with modifications.
Apart from my moral judgement, that is illegal, and will be treated as
such by me. Make as many references to these pages as you like, make hardcopies,
but only of the whole page, including the html-references, and without
changing a iota or tittel...

And if not? I won't hesitate to use legal means to correct wrong
that may be done otherwise. And I am serious. I usually am. I'm not sure
I could get 'attempt to grave emotional assault' out of it, but infrigement
on copyright rules is serious enough. And Jesus called upon us to respect
the authorities of state, so christians would of course never do such a
thing. Lying, imagine that.

Sun 8:51am 17-06-2001

Isaia

I've been into bible translation again, even into hebrew. Sounds
like 'Father I have sinned'.., which is not that true, in normal
human language I don't think I have much.

Isaia. There are english and american words that sound good. The
other day I saw an add on a little a5 or maybe a4 asking for
native german speakers.
Size matters, though I may miss some real big posters, and
as it says in a add for adds 'small matters' (too), indicating
going to a copyshop and having a 100 a$ or 5 with some color and
a good enough text or picture, and spreading them around can
be quite effective to get some message accross. I'm not sure
how legal it is to just glue them on every other lamppost.

"The world is coming to an end." "Convert !" "We're all gonna die"
"God loves you".

Then what? theover.tripod.com, maybe another with a commercial
text (stricktly not permitted I think on tripod), 20 per
a4 times a hundred, I think 1000's a day could be reached.

Isaia. "But still I fear and still I dare not listen to the wise man"
(prophets' song, a night at the opera, Queen). Pronouncing the
name is not completely unlike an accent test like there is
scheveningen in dutch, though a more subtle one. I've been into english
enough to like to sort of think about such things, when I saw the
german add, which was asking for a native speaker in german,
I realized that even though I've been personally communicating in
german which was sort of without thinking much, I'd be quite lost
doing even a serious report in german with some probability of
being not distinguishable from indeed native writers. The words,
the genders, the tenses, horrible. In english I dare try, but
the 'dodgem' is a good example of why I'd still not go for spy positions,
I may need some time there to fill in some voids that are there and
would be noticable, at least by me. When I saw the German add,
I look again to get the words, I almost wondered wether I
wouldn't prefer to write french, though that, too, is very daring
in my opinion.

In some ways luckily I've spoken and listened to english people
regularly, also native ones, which is different. Lately only
I've been into thinking about american language as containing
words and clues that are not subtle to them but probably completely
or almost not captured abroad. Army language, that works. Strong language,
marching rythm, napalm, that sort of stuff, that is clearer than most
things in the world, probably. Enhlish would fail miserably for
any foreigner, I'm affraid, but those what are they called, army
marching rhymes work. Missis Roberson, that is maybe clear enough,
some names work, others don't, I saw a film yesterday with for instance
the phrase 'mental scars' that is american. English is probably
harder, though getting the actual communication right not necessarily,
I'm inclined to think. At least those languages I don't feel all too
lost in. Thats a dutch ordering, I'm not sure how to decompose the sentence,
though that may be good practice, and though I promised I'd present
some. I did look up a state transition diagram this week, and a few
books on automated language processing, for decomposition of
natural language by computers. "You say coke, I say cane, hot dog,
john wayne, please don't touch, I say Jesus, I don't want to be a peter pan,
frankenstein or superman, all I want to do is... bicycle, biclycle,
I want to ride my bicycle, I want to ride my mike, ..." (queen, obviously,
biclycle race, "Jazz").
"Woman sweet woman, sweet cause in vain. You make love, you break
love, its all the same. Music, sweet music..." (Hendrix, "manic depression").
Few weeks ago I read some Jimmi Hendrix poems, in a book with also
interview fragments together with eric clapton and others, which are
absolutely unbeatable, I think.

Isaia. 61:1 in this case. About an anointed one setting captives free, it says
is in most translations. The same verse appears in Luke 4, cited by Jesus,
written down by the physician I think it was, Luke. Understandable
quote, the son of God making himself known to his suroundings for
who He is in Gods plan, and what is going to be or already like, claiming
an ancient prophecy for Himself, and a position all knew was available
but as yet unfullfilled at the time.

What is the logic of unity in for instance this Luke chapter? Simply
a written account of the story of Jesus coming to earth, making
Gods will known, performing miracles, and being the promised
redeemer of the Jews and the world? There are such phrases to describe
the character of the gospels, I'd remember when I try, except I wouldn't
know which one goes with wich gospel anymore.

But in all seriousness, I'd rather try to get to some of the
essence of the buildup of most letters than the very heart of
the new testament, the gospels. I've heard and though about
even Hebrews, and it made sense enough in at least a few ways,
but the logic in the gospels, apart from the obvious mainly chronological
ordering of events is not at all clear enough to me. Not so much
the essence of the message of good news, that the son of God
came to earth to 'solve' te problem of sin and save many people,
and teach about the coming kingdom which was promised to the
jews, and some of the rules and ideas that are presented are
clear enough. Though already there there are questions enough raised
by the sermon on the mount alone. One would need to know at least
about the difference between the predicted earthly and heavenly
kindom, that is the current in between period of 'grace' which
is not the same as Israel as the promised head of nations when
Jesus has returned. But then still, lots of comparisons and
short stories tend to raise more questions then they answer,
except maybe for very unedified or maledified persons.

It's quite maintainable that as they stand, the questions many
of the comparisons raise are deliberately raised to make people
think, and most probably to correct errors as the world system
probably still holds in many ways. The order and unity of the
gospels then simply lies in the remarkable enough claim of
telling the life story of the alledged son of God at least
changing the landscape of religeon forever and thoroughly,
maybe some customary story telling lines, and chronology.
Unless they speak about the essence of what was wrong with the
whole of life, and not detached from the languages and
images people used in the those days, and considering the high
claim, which after milennea and scientific (r)evolutions still
isn't even laughed at, it is not unlikely that the well edified
enough son of God drags in the same as the prophets and kings
before Him, which is the whole of relevant history and
human thinking. Then it is not without reason to look for
more profound teaching to be present in the four written accounts
of the man that challenged and won and was killed in that
small people's roman province that apearently raised enough
attention, probably by their religion and customs, and in the
end became probably even more effective in influencing the
roman empire than the greek and their literature have been.

Asterix and the bureaucracy ?

I just thought about the dutch expression "ter aarde bestellen",
which is strange. Would "luctor et emergo", a dutch adagium be
representative for the overestimating idea of wrestling with the
world and ending on top, an idea that is made into reality by
its society, or simply an obervation with a hope?

I've been inquiring about getting a new pasport, which is sort of hard
without an ID to start with. The old place I lived reported they have
a (old) drivers' licence I can come and pick up when I have an id, which
i need in the first place... Chickens and eggs.

I've felt prompted to at times create a little sort of fun by
mimicing 'aanspreekzinnen', opening sentences (sentences?!) for
a converstation. One enters a room and says 'good morning' or
'hhii' or one walks up to someone and tries 'say! eh..'. Or a
show starts 'good evening, ladies and gentlemen'.

Ever since the 'he's crazy' approach I think will largely realy
fail completely, it at times seems to feel appropriate to either
be a bit deliberately juvenile and test for responses, or just in
general test what people respond like to spiritual and communicative
exitations. Some of the results are staggering.

I luckily was able to get a haircut last week, so I quite well resemble
my homepage picture again, but I don't think it matters much to
be aware that quite some people I pass or or some reason get near
seem to know about my existence, or think they do, or feel the need
at least to make clear there is some kind of recognizing present. For
some that is for obvious enough reasons, for others it is not necessarily
clear why that might be so, certainly not in person, maybe in spirit,
maybe trhough gossiping circuits which I mostly seem to feed rather then
retrieve information from. So that's a bit of a game, which in some
ways is completely serious, since the country I'm in is small, and
the upper, middle and lower classes may find it quite hard to be
not forced to run into just about every party there is at some point,
15 million people is not that many, the lets say leading or opiniating
elite of such an amount is quite overseeable when needed, and
taking murphy as a starting point, that is most likely used by some
and made into some kind of unity.