If you think about it, what’s the point? There’s no
point to getting good grades, but to get some mediocre job working in a stupid
cubicle for minimum wage. Schooling is a bust. Relationships aren't real – the feeling
is, but the idea is dense. No one is happy; the economy is falling to the
ground. What is there even to do? We’re all just stuck in this cycle of life,
luck being the only thing that can give us what we want. The only escape is –
dying – which is inevitable in all cases but why even try if you know your own
fate? Childhood dreams and hopes are stupid. They say you can be whatever you
want as long as you try but that’s bullshit! We can try with everything we have
and in the end it will never matter. I’m not a pessimist; I’m a realist. Friends
don’t last, family sometimes does. But what if you don’t even have family and the
only family you do have isn't around? Memories turn into scars that are just
permanent when you think about what you lost, and you just sit there with a big
“What if?” floating around in your head. I’m tired of living in regret and at
such a young age I've been through a lot. A lot of us have – so what is there
for people like me? Nothing. And no one will ever understand

If you think about it, what’s the point? There’s no
point to getting good grades, but to get some mediocre job working in a stupid
cubicle for minimum wage. Schooling is a bust. Relationships aren't real – the feeling
is, but the idea is dense. No one is happy; the economy is falling to the
ground. What is there even to do? We’re all just stuck in this cycle of life,
luck being the only thing that can give us what we want. The only escape is –
dying – which is inevitable in all cases but why even try if you know your own
fate? Childhood dreams and hopes are stupid. They say you can be whatever you
want as long as you try but that’s bullshit! We can try with everything we have
and in the end it will never matter. I’m not a pessimist; I’m a realist. Friends
don’t last, family sometimes does. But what if you don’t even have family and the
only family you do have isn't around? Memories turn into scars that are just
permanent when you think about what you lost, and you just sit there with a big
“What if?” floating around in your head. I’m tired of living in regret and at
such a young age I've been through a lot. A lot of us have – so what is there
for people like me? Nothing. And no one will ever understand

This was me 2 years ago. So don't “and no one will ever understand” at me. I hear you, on every word. But, I would like to say, this isn't me anymore. I found what I want to do, and I'm happy with the path I'm on. I'm not saying it's all rainbows and unicorns, and I'm so overwhelmed with what I've got going on right now, but it's worth it. Hang in there