Cynthia Bailey speaks on Feb. 9th episode of RHOA

E! – The Real Housewives of Atlanta‘s Feb. 9 episode was perhaps its most dramatic ever, as a pajama party hosted by NeNe Leakes turned into an all-out fight, with Kandi Burruss losing her cool.

Still, the pillow talk party from hell managed to score the Bravo reality hit its highest-rated episode ever, attracting 4.6 million viewers.

Sure, the new ratings record is great, but star Cynthia Bailey exclusively told E! News at the Zang Toi Fashion Show in New York City on Wednesday that the way the show achieved the milestone was “bittersweet.”

“Unfortunately, the whole fighting thing is something we don’t normally do. I don’t think that’s why people watch us, but at the same time I guess that’s why so many people tuned in,” she explained. “As a part of the cast, I personally don’t celebrate it just in terms of the content. So, yay, we got good ratings–but I don’t really feel good about it happened.”

While she was surprised to see that side of Kandi, who is normally pretty level-headed, erupt during the fight (at one point, she yelled, “I will drag you in this, bitch!”), Cynthia said, “We’re all women, we’re all emotional. We all have a snap button. It is what it is.”CLICK HERE TO READ MORE HERE