Please don’t get mad, but I have wanted to tell you something and I have been too scared.

I found out that you have been lying to me…… please don’t try to deny it because you know you have.

Don’t worry I am not angry with you because you don’t know any better. You think you are helping me. But you always want to remind me of everything I have ever done wrong and tell me how to live my life.

For too long you you have told me I wasn’t good enough, not clever enough, that I didn’t fit it, that no one liked me and that I was a fraud.

You don’t stop. Everyday, all day….

You’re ugly

You’re fat

You’re a fraud

You’re a failure

You’re a bad mum and wife

You don’t deserve to be happy

You will never amount to anything

You will always be alone

And I believed you! I thought I was broken and needed fixing when all along it wasn’t me…. it was you!

I am tired of the daily battle with you in my head. You might live in my head. But I live in my heart and my heart speaks the truth.

I am not the fraud… you are!

Now I know the truth I am no longer interested in anything you have to say!

I know with absolutely clarity that I am a superhero and have been since the day I was born. Born perfect and with everything I have ever needed. I didn’t need to prove myself to you or anyone else. My purpose in life has and will always be, to be just me! Nothing more, nothing less.

I am everything I would choose to be:

Successful

Happy

Complete

Loveable

Worthy of good feelings without reasons

Confident

Courageous

Beautiful

Loved

A superhero

And you are everything I am not!

Now it doesn’t matter what you say to me now because I know!

I know that if I don’t feel good then I listening to you and not me!

So you see it’s not you…. it’s me!

Big love, full hearts and small tummies!

Jill – The Fat Controller

p.s. want to be a part of my support community for real life superheroes? visit us here at Plan You

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Jill Gardner

Every diet I tried made me more miserable, more depressed and eventually fatter.

Every diet was simply focussed on trying to punish myself thin by depriving myself of nourishment and burning myself out on the cardio machines.

That was until I discovered a different way. Instead of hating myself and looking at food and exercise as calories I started to look at food as information and my body as an amazing machine that needed love, care and the right fuel.

And so begun my amazing journey to becoming a fat controller, banishing the beige and creating a fat controlling method that can help you too.