'monsuta' may not be in pu, but is in wide use in the community int, i.e., is in the language.

I have a monster [maybe "fear"?]This monster is my internal everything [?]This monster has desiresLike you and me.But these desires are bad.If this is the same [?so?/lon?], a different monsterMonstrous is different inside me.The monster changes its desires.

My files show that I sent a replay on Sept 9, but when I look at the record of our exchange I find something totally different. I don't know what happened but I am resending my original reply (with some minor corrections).