Date: Thu, 19 Jul 2007 14:42:12 +1000 (EST)
From: Dane Isaac
Subject: What happened in Highschool chapter 11
Hey guys, bit of a wait on this one. ive been reading back through it and
my god i dont think anyone should read over their first story....makes
you cringe
so im going to end it in a few chapter... maybe fifteen chapters
this is a really short chapter while i think of crazy ending... but dont
get your hopes up!
so here it is
What happened in Highschool
Chapter 11
Why was I letting him get away with this? I did nothing wrong! He was the
one that apparently couldn't trust me! He was the one who was going out
with Renee to get back at me! I had to do something! I had to say
something to him. Make him listen.
I realized I was pacing back and forth angrily.
Kurt was sitting on my bed watching me with concern. I felt guilt flood
through me when I saw the fading bruises on his face.
"I'm sorry Kurt. You don't need to deal with this drama right now." I
apologized as I took a seat next to him then flopped backwards.
Kurt lay back with me. "I've been thinking."
I snorted. "Don't hurt yourself!"
He smacked me on my stomach and laughed. "Arsehole. Maybe Aaron saw what
happened the other day... well what didn't happen the other day as an
easy out."
He winced as he watched to see my reaction.
I guess I didn't disappoint him either. "What the fuck? You mean he was
finding an excuse to break up with me?"
I sat up and almost felt like punching him. "Is that meant to make me
feel better?"
"Matt! Let me explain!" He sat up as well and seeing the angry
expression on my face stood up and moved away a bit. "Look maybe he got
scared or got cold feet. I dunno. But maybe he's doing this for a
reason. So you have to find out the reason."
My mind and heart had a bit of a struggle following this statement but I
had to admit that Kurt may have a point. Fuck. Typical.
I frowned at him. "I don't like you right now."
Kurt just grinned at me seeing through the act. "Yeah I know."
Renee called me that night. I nearly freaked out when mum told me who was
on the phone. Kurt gave me a shrug when I looked at him as if he would be
able to tell why she called.
"Hello?"
"Hey Matt. Just calling to see if you're alright. You looked really
upset when I saw you in the quad today."
I cleared my throat and tried not to feel panicky. "Yeah, just stuff...
you know stuff."
Wow, real articulate Matt. I smacked my forehead with my hand and held
back a groan.
"Stuff?" She sounded suspicious almost.
"Uh, yeah. Just some things on my mind... you know school and stuff."
Shit, what the hell was that? School?
"Ok now I know something's up. Since when do you get upset over
school?"
Bugger. What now?
"I'm gay." Fuck, did I just say that? Kurt was staring at me in shock
from my bed. He mouthed `what the fuck?' while I smacked my head again.
Shit.
There was silence on the phone for a minute. "What?"
What do I say? "Um..."
"Did you mean that Matt?" She sounded strange.
"Um... Is it too late to say; forget I said that?" I asked hopefully.
"No... What the fuck Matt? You're gay? As in fag? As in queer?" She
sounded really strange now.
This didn't seem to be going the way I wanted it but sarcasm, as it
often did, took over. "Well those are some of the terms used but I
personally prefer just `gay'. It sounds a bit happier."
"I can't believe it! I was your friend!" She exclaimed sounding angry
now.
Shit. I sighed. "Was?"
"Yes was! I can't be friends with you now can I? Queers are unnatural,
everyone knows that. Men and women are meant to reproduce... it's the
whole meaning of life! Shit. I have to go. Um... look I'm sorry I mean...
I just can't." She ranted for a while then I heard the dial tone.
I stared at the phone in shock. What the hell was I going to do? If she
told anyone then I was basically outed. I felt tears well up but pushed
them back and decided to be angry. I chucked the phone down and started
pacing angrily. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
"Matt?" I realized that Kurt had been calling my name but I hadn't
heard him.
"What?" I snapped.
Kurt looked hurt for a second then stood up, walked over to me and
gripped me strongly by the shoulders. "What happened? I'm assuming she
didn't take it very well."
I glared at him. "No shit!"
"Don't get mad at me! You know I'll stick by you no matter what ok?"
Kurt stared me down and I sighed.
"Yeah I know. I'm sorry Kurt. I just... I thought I knew Renee. She's
meant to be a friend and she said she cant now cause I'm unnatural! Well
why the fuck do I exist if I'm unnatural? Why do we exist?" I was
getting angry and calmed myself down.
"Yeah I never get that. I mean there are gay animals and everything. My
cousin had a gay dog... granted it was a poodle... Well that's really not
the best example. But why does the prostate feel so good when its rubbed
huh?" Kurt rambled with a thoughtful look which turned to embarrassment
when I stared at him.
"Who's been rubbing your prostate?" I could feel the first grin in
days come to my face as Kurt went bright red.
"Well... no one as such... um... I've just heard it that's all." Kurt
mumbled then cleared his throat.
"Kurt what am I going to do? What if she tells everyone?" I wailed
suddenly.
Kurt looked grim. "We'll deal with that if it happens. So don't
worry."
But I did worry. I mean how could I not? The next morning after having
little sleep I headed to school with Kurt. As I entered the school yard
it became clear that she had told people. Kids were staring and
whispering. I couldn't believe it. I had known Renee practically
forever.
"Chin up Matt. Don't be ashamed, that's what they want." Kurt
whispered.
I shot him an incredulous look but tried not to let them see I had even
noticed.
The day was the longest yet. Amazingly no one in my group, the ones that
didn't know yet, even cared. Yaz even said she had wondered if there was
something going on between me and Aaron.
It was that afternoon that I got a surprising call. It was Kane, Aaron's
brother wanting to talk.