The Book

So I’ve made it a personal goal of mine to finish “The Book” before Gabriel is born. I’m thinking this is a more realistic goal than the one I told Les a few weeks ago. Shortly after finishing the webinar, I told him I wanted to organize an Orthodox homeschool conference for our area (on the scale of – for people within several hours of us) since I couldn’t go to the one in Pennsylvania. (This is the third year in a row I’ve tried to go and wasn’t able to work it out.) For the first time in years, literally years, Les looked at me like I was insane. “You want to do what?!” He meant – you’re 5 months pregnant, just pulled off a huge event and are completely wiped from it, and you’re already thinking about another huge project?! I scrunched up my face and laid back down on my pillow. Maybe I should think about this one for a minute. Maybe he has a point….especially since he’s been nothing but supportive about every crazy idea I’ve had for the past several years. And there have been many. Have I mentioned I convinced him to get 14 chickens last summer? Point made.

Anyway…I just finished another chapter of the book tonight. I’ve put off typing it out purposefully for about a year. I found myself getting angry, frustrated, hurt all over again trying to write it. I didn’t want it to become one big pity party for myself. That wasn’t what it was about. But my emotions were still pretty raw and I didn’t feel I could continue writing it without letting some words slip onto the pages that should never be shared.

I think picking it back up again during Lent was a good choice. I’ve spent many, many, many nights scripting the pages I intend to write and also thinking about the goal of the book and where I want to take it. I’ve got a plan now. I want to try and show the cross we all carry. Even the people that left me up nights venting away to Les when I was beyond sleep deprived. I want to try and incorporate their feelings in the situations as I write the story. I’m hoping that by putting myself in their shoes, now anyway since I couldn’t then, that I can forgive them for everything they put me through. This is my goal.

In the mean time, I just finished a chapter on Malaki and I’m missing Malaki and Justice something fierce tonight. The picture above is my life with the five boys. I literally went shopping like that with them since Les was gone a lot flying.

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I didn’t know you were writing a book! We met a wonderful author last week (Alexander McCall Smith) at the main library in Cincinnati…you would’ve enjoyed listening to him. ♥ Anyhow, as a person who never liked writing much, but has always kept a diary or journal, I find myself NEEDING to write. It’s a wonderful release. I’m sure you understand. I write personal things, about my family, church and how we are growing…it’s really neat to read my old journal entries, from a couple years ago (I also draw a lot, I do not like lined books, but one with completely blank pages, just so I can draw & write)! BUT I was made keenly aware how different it is to write about fiction and real life, after listening to Mr. Smith speak…

Jenny
on April 13, 2013 at 3:37 pm

Writing is definitely a part of who I am now. I think I might explode if I stopped at this point. 😉

It is wonderful that you are writing! I hope you are able to meet your goal 🙂 All the best!

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The big boys have daily work that is not reflected in my weekly homeschool posts. Their foundational work has changed over the years in relation to where they are developmentally. Currently, the big boys do the following in the morning before their daily themed work after lunch:
Silent reading, Math (Aleks), Writing Skills, and Lumosity (neuroplasticity) - and audiobooks in the evenings