“All the things you think you should have done that you didn't do, and all of the things that youshouldn't have done, accept them. You did (or did not) do them. That's reality. That's happened. No changing the past.”

Friday, October 31, 2008

A Talk I Won't Forget...

Hey everyone well it’s been a while since I’ve last blogged, and I would like to say sorry I haven’t been blogging in a while. Well I know for some while now I have been VICTIMIZING myself, into getting every bodies attention, and I would like to take the time to honestly apologize to everyone.

I’m sorry if I had made anyone to be very furious with me; I honestly wasn’t think straight at the time and wasn’t thinking about the consequences. Please forgive me.

I had a heart on heart talk with someone who made me realize all of this and I’m glad he told me everything, well everything I needed to hear and I didn’t know how people saw me but anyways he set things straight with me.

I don’t know what is wrong with me, I want to think I’m still in a depression phase but I don’t want to say that as an excuse no longer more. But how he told me was maybe I’m trying to find myself, wait set back who am I really..? I no longer know who myself is, me as a person.

But from the feedback I got it wasn’t good nor bad it just made me want to change. I need to change to better relationships with others. I don’t want to lose friendships because of how I react to things and I no longer want people to pitty me.I want to change honestly I do. I want to be me, the real me. But who is that girl everyone once knew..?

I’m going to change it might take me a while but I’m going to do this.But this goes out to Kevin, Ande, David, Aleina, Jerrica, Mj, Aunty, Uncle and everyone whom I hurt I’m sorry and I really mean it I didn’t to make you mad at me or any feelings towards me awkard. It’s my fault and now I realize that please I hope I can make our relationship how it was in the past. I’m really ashamed at myself for acting how I did, it was stupid, dumb and childish please forgive me. Love you guys.

- Amber

p.s thanks Ande for the talk, we didn't have one in a long time. I needed it...

1 comment:

awww! Just remember that..you are a strong person!!! FINDING yourself is tough..I want to congratulate you on taking a bold step and apologizing and looking at life different. Sometimes in life we need a slap in the face, i sure have those moments.

Remember, we all love you!! COME BACK TO US DAGUPZ!! =) heheheheheheeehee

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