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I just received my blood results, from December 05, 2013, and wanted to share them with those, of you, who have been following my blog.

Again I am thankful for the great results I am having. I tell as many who will listen, what I have been doing. I have had some ask me, “are there anymore people that this has happened too?” I really do not know, but one thing I do know, is that it has happened to me. For some of my closes friends, and acquaintances, they know how I was doing before June 2012, and see how I am doing now. Of course it is easy to believe it, when you actually see it happening in front of your own eyes.

I know for most, skepticism is the rule of the day, and that is not a bad thing. I am skeptical concerning most things, but knowing that, I am still amazed at what is happening to me, and want people, especially those with SLL/CLL to know my story. I will tell it until I am called home.

I ended my last blog by agreeing the law is divine and whole. I also said the law has no right to tell me I must be justified by it. I said it has a right to tell me how to live, but it has no right to tell me it delivers me from sin, death, and hell.

With that thought, I concluded that we are justified by faith alone.

In Galatians 1:16, Paul says “for by the works of the law shall no one be justified.” So when we talk about justification, good works or the law, cannot to be discussed concerning justification.

So lets start with the law. We know that the law requires perfect obedience. It condemns all who do not accomplish this perfect obedience. The law cannot justify, it can only condemn according the Galatians 3:10. “Cursed is everyone that continueth not in all things which are written in the book of the law to do them.”

The purpose of the law is to reveal sin. In other words, the law is to lead us out of the security of our self-trust, into trusting Jesus Christ only.

I wish that every Christian would know the difference between the law and grace, and know it well. The right separation between Law and Gospel is very important to know. Do not drag good works or the law into the truth of justification.

I do not want anyone to think that the Law is no longer working. It is, it continues to work in all who have not put their faith in Christ, but it cannot work in the Christian, because the Christian is dead to the law. Romans 7:4 “Wherefore, my brethren, ye also are become dead to the law by the body of Christ; that ye should be married to another, even to him who is raised from the dead, that we should bring forth fruit unto God.”

So after the law drove me into the arms of Christ, I yelled out that I have nothing to do with the law anymore. I am dead to the law, and that means that I am free of the law. Yet I say the Law continues to exist and to function, but no longer for me.

I am often accused that by preaching this Gospel of Grace, some if not many misinterpret it. It is true that some may use the Gospel of Grace for malicious reasons, saying “now that I am no longer under the law, I can sin freely. I personally know no one who reasons this way, but if I did, I would say to them, “to reason this way is reckless.” I will also say, “if some use my preaching to sin more, should I then discontinue preaching the truth of the Gospel of Jesus Christ? My answer to that is no, absolutely no. Paul was presented with this same argument, Romans 3:8, “Let us do evil, that good may come,” and in Romans 6:1, “shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound.” Paul’s answer to that was, “God forbid.” Yet he continued to preach this Gospel. In fact it ultimately cost him his life.

Then there are others who are not malicious, only weak, who take offense when told that the Law and good works are unnecessary for salvation. It is to them that I now write too. Hoping that they will understand why good works do not justify, but why they must be done. Good works do not cause righteousness, but are the fruit of righteousness. When we are made righteous by Christ first, then we are able and willing to do good.

Blessed is the Christian who knows how to use this truth in times of distress. That person can say, “Mr. Law, go ahead and accuse me as much as you like. My conscience, my new life, lives to Christ under another law, a new and better law, the law of grace.” Stand fast in the liberty wherewith Christ has made you free.

Paul thereby declares in verse 20 that “it was Christ who loved me, and gave himself for me.” He says that it was Jesus Christ that began the good work in me, it was not me that began the good work. He found me, with a sinful mind, and of no good will, but He had mercy on me. Out of pure kindness, He loved me. He loved me so much that He gave Himself for me, that I should be free from the Law, from sin, and death.

Ask yourself, “did the Law ever love me? Did the Law ever sacrifice itself for me? Did the Law ever die for me? No, it only accused me, frightened me, and drove me crazy. It was someone, that saved me from the Law, sin and death, unto eternal life. That someone is the Son of God, Jesus Christ, to whom be praise and glory forever.

After we realize the truth that becoming a Christian is to be justified by faith in Jesus Christ, and not by the works of the law. We then can start talking about and teaching good works, but they must be taught in their proper turn. What do I mean? I will discuss the law, or good works, only when we are not talking about justification.

So again I conclude that the true Gospel is; we are justified by faith alone, without the deeds of the law.

I have been spending a lot of time lately thinking about Christians. That is, I have not been thinking about those who by words, say they are Christians. I have been thinking about those who have faith, in Jesus Christ. I have been thinking about those who by faith believe He was God in the flesh, and is God. By faith that He died and was raised again, and believe by faith, that in Him and Him only is salvation.

I began wondering how do these Christians understand the Gospel of Jesus Christ?

With that thought, I began to think about those early Galatian Christians, where legalist came into the Galatian church and began preaching that they needed the law to complete their faith in Christ for salvation. Because of that false teaching, Paul wrote a letter to them.

In that letter, he begins by telling them that Christ won the victory over the law, sin, and death. “Paul and apostle, (not of men, neither by man, but by Jesus Christ, and God the Father, who raised him from the dead.” He then greets those Christians in the Galatian church, by writing, “Grace be to you, and peace, from God the Father, and from our Lord Jesus Christ.” Then not very far into his letter, He calls these legalist, teachers of the law, false apostles.

Grace remits sin, and peace quiets the conscience. Sin and conscience can torment us, but Christ has overcome these fiends now and forever. Grace involves the remission of sins, and peace, a happy conscience. Sin is not canceled by lawful living, for no person is able to live up to the law. The law reveals guilt, and fills us with despair. Grace and peace make a person strong, and courageous to bear and to overcome all difficulties, because we have the victory of Christ’s death and the assurance of the forgiveness of our sins.

Sin cannot harm those who believe in Christ, because He has overcome sin by His death. The genius of Christianity takes the words of Paul “who gave himself for our sins” as true and efficacious.

The false apostles objection to Paul’s Gospel is identical to that recorded in the fifteenth chapter of the Book of Acts to the effect that it was not enough for the Galatians to believe in Christ, or to be baptized. But that it was needful to circumcise them, and to command them to keep the law of Moses.

I must say that every teacher of work-righteousness is a trouble maker. Paul continues in verse 7 to say that they pervert the Gospel of Christ, or in other words, “these false apostles do not merely trouble you, they abolish Christ’s Gospel.

Christ and the law cannot dwell side by side in the conscience. It is either grace or law. To muddle the two is to eliminate the Gospel of Christ entirely. To mix law and Gospel not only clouds the knowledge of grace, it cuts out Christ altogether.

The Bible clearly teaches that we are all naturally depraved. Let man’s free will, strength, wisdom, and righteousness be condemned. We attain grace by the free mercy of God alone for Christ’s sake. I know this is a hard saying to hear, and brings disfavor to those who say it. But I am reminded of what a preacher, not so long ago said, “If you preach the Gospel of Grace, and no one condemns you, then you are not preaching the same Gospel of Grace that Paul preached.”

The truth of justification is fragile. Not that justification itself is fragile, for it is not. Ah, but our knowledge of it is. I know how quickly we can forfeit the joy of the Gospel in the midst of trouble. In those times of conflict, we should be consoling ourselves with the Gospel.

Knowing that the flesh resists the Spirit, or as Paul puts it, “The flesh lusteth against the Spirit.” We by our own reasoning, say that to know Christ, and to believe in Him is no achievement of man, but the gift of God. This Gospel of Grace gives glory to God alone, and none to man. Never can too much glory, goodness, and mercy be ascribed unto God.

On the question of justification, one must remain solid, or else we lose the truth of the Gospel. It is a matter of life and death. It involves the death of the Son of God, who died for the sins of the world. If we surrender faith in Christ, as the only thing that can justify us, then the death and resurrection of Jesus are without meaning.

Some will tell me the Law is divine and holy, and to that I agree. So it is divine and holy, but it has no right to tell me that I must be justified by it. The Law has a right to tell me that I should love God, and my neighbor. It has every right to tell me that I should live in chastity, temperance, patience and so on. But it has no right to tell me how I may be delivered from sin, death, and hell. It is the business of the Gospel of Jesus Christ to tell me that. We must listen to the Gospel, for it tells us not what we must do, but what Jesus Christ, the Son of God, has done for us.

I conclude that the true Gospel is; we are justified by faith alone, without the deeds of the law.

Good day to all of you. I want to thank you for coming to my blog. I hope I will have written something of value today.

I spent yesterday morning with my Oncologists. My doctor is still trying to figure out why I have been getting better results, than what I should be getting, without having chemotherapy. I had mentioned six months earlier that I was eating bitter apricot seeds.

So we looked at my lymph node biopsy that was done in March 2011 and yes, the lymph node was positive for SLL/CLL. So we concluded that I did and still do have SLL/CLL, but why the consistently improving blood counts.

DATE

WBC

HGB

PLT

ALC

12/26/10

15.6

12.8

87

01/10/11

15.8

13.3

112

4.3

01/19/11

11.7

13.1

78

4.2

02/17/11

12.5

13.7

87

4.5

05/12/11

11.6

11.9

77

5.5

08/08/11

13.3

12.4

85

7.63

09/08/11

18.5

63

10/20/11

15.7

12.1

60

8.6

12/21/11

13.4

11.9

64

01/06/12

12.5

11.7

63

01/26/12

11.1

11.1

62

04/26/12

11

11.4

54

05/25/12

11.7

11.1

53

8.1

Started Seeds beginning of June 2012

06/22/12

12.4

11.4

59

8.7

08/19/12

9.7

10.7

63

5.9

12/03/12

9.1

11.1

73

5.1

03/04/13

6.1

10.3

63

2.94

06/03/13

6.6

11

72

2.6

08/08/13

6.4

11.1

101

1.89

09/05/13

5.8

11.9

88

1.59

Normal WBC

Normal HGB

Normal PLT

Normal ALC

4.0-10.6

12.8-17.0

150

1.0-3.7

That meeting yesterday, led me to think about a question I have been asked frequently. “Are they safe to eat?” It got me thinking, “was is it something I wrote or said, or more importantly not said,” that so often prompted this question.

So I thought, what actually made me decide to eat bitter apricot seeds. Did I believe that the apricot seeds would heal me? I had already answered that in one of my previous blogs. No, I did not believe they would heal me. I hoped they would help with my low platelet count only.

I wonder why this question is asked so often. Is this question asked because our eyes are on the bitter apricot seeds, or on the God of the Bible. Is seeing the good results I am having, do to the apricot seeds, or to the One who created them.

I know that my faith is not in the bitter apricot seeds for my improving health, but in the God of the Bible who said to eat the seeds that are in the fruit. I hope this is the reason you are eating them.

It certainly is true, by empirical evidence (my actual blood test results), the bitter apricot seeds are working (even though I can’t get anyone in the industry to admit it). This is the only change I have made since being told I have Small Lymphocyte Lymphoma/ Chronic Lymphocyte Leukemia. These results are in black and white, and cannot be denied, they are a fact.

But we must realize that they work only because of who created them. And that someone is the God of the Bible. I do not want to understate this truth. Bitter apricot seeds only work, because the God of the Bible made them to work.

So to this question: Are they safe to eat? God says to eat the seeds in fruit.

This question has made me think of what Jesus Christ said in Luke 16:31. Neither will they be persuaded though one rose from the dead.

Now I am not raised from the dead, but I hope some of you will understand why I use this verse.

Over the last twelve months, I have had the good fortune of being able to write, in my blog, the gains I have been having, battling my cancer.

I received my blood readings today, while at the doctors office for my annual check-up. The last entry, dated 08/8/13 is what they currently are. My doctor made an appointment for me to have a sonogram, so they can know exactly how much my spleen has gotten smaller. She believes it is back to normal, as she could not touch it anymore.

DATE

WBC

HGB

PLT

ALC

12/26/10

15.6

12.8

87

01/10/11

15.8

13.3

112

4.3

01/19/11

11.7

13.1

78

4.2

02/17/11

12.5

13.7

87

4.5

05/12/11

11.6

11.9

77

5.5

08/08/11

13.3

12.4

85

7.63

09/08/11

18.5

63

10/20/11

15.7

12.1

60

8.6

12/21/11

13.4

11.9

64

01/06/12

12.5

11.7

63

01/26/12

11.1

11.1

62

04/26/12

11

11.4

54

05/25/12

11.7

11.1

53

8.1

Started Seeds beginning of June 2012

06/22/12

12.4

11.4

59

8.7

08/19/12

9.7

10.7

63

5.9

12/03/12

9.1

11.1

73

5.1

03/04/13

6.1

10.3

63

2.94

06/03/13

6.6

11

72

2.6

08/08/13

6.4

11.1

101

1.89

Normal WBC

Normal HGB

Normal PLT

Normal ALC

4.0-10.6

12.8-17.0

150

1.0-3.7

For the first year and one half, I had seen my blood counts moving in the wrong direction, showing my doctor and me, that the cancer was becoming more aggressive. It was at the point where I was told that the best course of action was either a stem cell transplant, or a clinical trial. It was agreed that with my chromosome 17p deletion, chemotherapy may not be very effective.

Since that gray day in May 2012, knowing I was stage 4, I have seen my cancer go from getting ever more aggressive to remission. All of this happening without chemotherapy, stem cell transplant, or clinical trial.

I do continue to eat 15 to 18 bitter apricot seeds everyday. I have an apple twice a week, and also the seeds in it. I call it God’s chemotherapy.

As I look back on that day in 2010, when I was first told I have cancer, I have come to realize that it is not just cancer, but a terminal disease. It was March 2011 when the doctor told me I had Small Lympocytic Lymphoma/Chronic Lympocytic Leukemia (SLL/CLL) and that there was no cure. I guess that was a nice way of saying your cancer is terminal.

(Bing dictionary: causing death: inevitably, but often gradually leading to death of the patient affected.)

While focusing on what has happened to me, I remembered back to the time when I first realized that everyone, including myself had a terminal condition.

However this terminal condition was and is, far worse than the physical one I have now. This one is eternal, forever, with no end.

God wrote in stone what His commandments (the law) were. And to fix them in stone, must mean they are quite important.

1. I am the Lord thy God, thou shalt have no other gods besides Me.

2. Thou shalt not make for thyself any graven image.

3. Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain.

4. Remember the Sabbath, to keep it holy.

5. Honor thy Father and Mother.

6. Thou shalt not murder.

7. Thou shalt not commit adultery.

8. Thou shalt not steal.

9. Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbor.

10. Thou shalt not covet.

So I thought back to the time when I asked myself, okay what commandments have I broken? To many, was my answer. Then I realized that if it was only one, I would still be guilty under the law. So without listing all of them in order again, I knew I was an idolater, adulterer, thief, liar, and so on.

As I began to read more of what God had to say, I came across these verses. Romans 2:15 clearly shows that the works of the law are clearly written in our hearts, as our conscience bears witness to it.

Now Romans 3:19 says: “Now we know that whatsoever the law saith, it saith to them who are under the law: that every mouth may be stopped, and all the world may become guilty before God.”

And “Therefore by the deeds of the law there shall be no flesh justified in His sight: for by the law is the knowledge of sin.” Romans 3:20

So I thought, when God judges me, am I innocent of sin, or guilty of sin? I had to conclude, if I was to be honest with myself, I am guilty of sin. I read that the wages of sin is death. Of course back then I was very healthy and realizing that sin led to death, I found nothing appealing about it. I also did not find the second death very appealing either. I did not want to go to hell, period.

Realizing how serious God was about sin, and how severe sin really is, I asked Jesus Christ to save me. I truly felt sorry for everything wrong I had done, even though I knew I could not make most of them right. I still believed Jesus would and could save me from the holy judgment of God. Now more than thirty years later, I am confident He did.

Now in this present time of my life, physical death does not seem as bad to me, as it once did. But that second death, well I am still not crazy about it, and you shouldn’t be either.

“And death and hell were cast into the lake of fire. This is the second death.” Revelations 20:14.

“But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murders and whore mongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone; which is the second death.” Romans 21:8.

Well if the above is true, then God must punish law breakers. But I am told, He is to good to let people go to hell. Well, if someone steals from me, goes to court, is found guilty, under the law, and then the good judge lets that person go. I would not conclude that the judge is good. It is just the opposite, those under the law are found guilty because the judge is good.

So if God is truly good, then He must be just. That’s just great, because He is good, and I have broken His laws, I must pay. So the wages of sin is truly death! So how do I get out from being under the law?

Since that time way back in 1978 I have heard many people, over the years, say many things concerning God, I have been told about His goodness, His meanness, His anger, His Holiness, and every other description that man could think of.

Then I read what Jesus Christ says, “take my yoke and put it upon yourself, and learn of me, for I am meek and lowly in heart, and you will find rest unto your souls.”

But wait I then read that God commended His love toward me, in that while I was still a sinner, Christ died for me. Romans 5:8.

And again I read that Christ died for my sins according to God’s word. 1Corinthians 15:3

Then I am told that Christ redeemed me from the curse of the law. Galatians 3:13.

So what am I to make of all of this? Because God is good, He will fulfill His justice, according to the law. And then I find He has fulfilled the demands of the law.

By His goodness, He sent His only begotten son, Jesus Christ, to stand in my, our place, and receive His judgment.

For the wages of sin is truly death, but the gift of God is eternal life. How? Through Jesus Christ.

For the son of man came not to be ministered unto, but to minister and to give his life a ransom for many.

So if your heart condemns you because of the commandments of God (law), know that God is greater than our hearts, and knoweth all things. Also know that the Son of God is come, and has given us an understanding that we may know Him that is true, and we are in Him that is true, even in his son Jesus Christ. This is the true God and eternal life.

I was told by someone, this all sounds great, but you must really believe it, not just say you do. That person was absolutely correct, and without realizing it, knows what the Gospel really is.

“If you will confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus Christ, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” “For with the heart, man believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. “Romans 10:9&10.

We hear a watered down gospel these days, God is love, God forgives, God cares about you, and all of that is true. But we have neglected to say that God is also Just, and Holy. There is no darkness in Him at all. He renders judgment on those who are under the law, and have not followed the law.

After revealing the whole truth, as written in His word, then and only then can we declare what else He has done.

For Christ is the end of the law, for righteousness to everyone who believeth. -AND- Knowing that man is not justified by the works of the law, but by the faith of Jesus Christ, even we have believed in Jesus Christ and that we might be justified by the faith of Christ, and not by the works of the law: for by the works of the law shall no flesh be justified.

I would like to thank all of you who read my blog. May God show you His truth in all matters.

Martin Luther while writing a letter to Pope Leo X, said the following. Christian faith has appeared to many an easy thing; nay, not a few even reckon it among the social virtues, as it were; and this they do because they have not made proof of it experimentally, and have never tasted of what efficacy it is. For it is not possible for any man to write well about it, or to understand well what is rightly written, who has not at some time tasted of its spirit, under the pressure of tribulation; while he who has tasted of it, even to a very small extent, can never write, speak, think, or hear about it sufficiently. For it is a living fountain, springing up into eternal life, as Christ calls it in John iv.

It is the day after my visit with my Oncologist. As usual that visit day was like all my visits to any doctor. I was not happy to go, but my wife insisted that we need to know what my blood counts are. So again I agreed to go, knowing beforehand that I would go, as I also wanted to know those results. So off to the doctor we went.

Again my blood pressure was high (167/73), but I was pretty sure that would be the case, as I have been diagnosed with white coat syndrome. For those who do not know what it is, you may be able to find it on the internet. Anyway I have had it all my life, so that is why I very seldom went to a doctor. After reading what it is, you many realize that you have it too. By the way, it is really not very serious. I use it as a joke more than a diagnosis.

Anyway on to the visit with my doctor. Upon arriving at the hospital, I went to the third floor where my blood was taken. Three vials were taken this time, so more tests than usual must have been performed. Usually I have one or two taken, but on a few occasions over the last two and one half years, I have had three. After my blood was taken from me, I proceeded to the fourth floor, finding two vacant seats as their where at least twenty-five people waiting to see their doctor.

After and hour wait, my name was called and off to the Oncologists office my wife and I went. The doctor pulled up my chart, on the computer, with the current blood results, which are done within the hour of them being taken. She looked at me, said your uric acid has gone though the roof. It was 4.1 and now after only three months, it is 9.5. I told her I knew why it had gone up, and she asked why. I told her that I had stopped taking my uric acid pills, to see if stopping, my platelet count would go up. She told me, “in your case stopping would not make that much of a difference.” So I told her I would begin taking them again.

Then we began looking at the other blood numbers. My white blood count (wbc) was still normal at 6.6, hemoglobin (hgb) was back up to 11.0, with platelet count (plt) back up to 72,000, and finally the one I really like to watch. My absolute lymphocyte count (alc) was at 2.6 still being in the normal zone.

While setting on the examination bench, with my doctor checking the size of my lymph nodes, I told her that many of my nodes have become so small that I cannot feel them anymore. While checking my nodes in my neck, she acknowledged that they were indeed getting smaller. Then she checked my spleen and said that she could only feel the tip now. What that means is that my spleen has gone from being twice the size of normal (12 cm is normal, my spleen was 24 cm a year ago) to almost normal size again. She then said “some people go into an unexplainable remission, but after a time, the remission usually ends.”

We sat down in front of the computer again, and she once again asked me what I am doing different. I told her, that just like last time, I am eating bitter apricot seeds. Other than that, I have not changed anything. After telling me everything looks okay, my wife and I left, both looking at each other and smiling.

I have posted this chart before and do so again, including my updated results. I do this for those who require empirical evidence. I started eating apricot seeds June 2012.

I woud like to thank all of you who have been following my blog. I receive many nice comments from many of you. Words of encouragement as well as advice, thank you.

It has been brought to my attention that some may not understand the difference between Amygdalin and Laetrile. So as not to confuse others, I would like to clarify the difference between Amygdalin (bitter almonds) found in apricot seeds, apple seeds, and laevomandelonitrile, also called Laetrile for short.

Laetrile which was patented in the United States, is a semi-synthetic molecule sharing part of the amygdalin structure. Whereas Amygdalin is a glycoside initially isolated from the seeds of the (Prunus dulcis) tree, alsoknown asbitter almonds.

I only mention this for those who may be reading my blog and do not understand the difference. For myself, I would not take any form of Laetrile, as it is man-made. However God has told us to eat seeds that He created, and fortunately for me those seeds include apricot and apple seeds.

Good day to all of you. It is another lovely day here in the southeast. It is my hope that all of you have a safe and blessed day.

As the news of my improving health situation, has become known by more and more people. I have come to realize that some, actually many, have thought this improvement may have been because of my faith. I hope to answer this thought, about my faith, and improved health by giving you another perspective to its success. I will explain the process I went though, in making the decision to eat apple and apricot seeds.

My decision was based on what God had Moses write in His word (Bible). After looking at all the information on the internet concerning apricot seeds, listening to thoughts and recommendations of friends and family, I decided to believe God and what He said in His word (Bible). What He said was “Behold, I have given you every herb bearing seed, which is upon the face of all the earth, and every tree, in which is the fruit of a tree yielding seed; too you it shall be for meat.” Genesis 1:29 (KJV).

At no time did I believe, or have faith that this cancer would get better. I did not pray for healing, I did not ask to be healed, I did not even think that such a thing could happen. All I was hoping for, was the apricot seeds I was eating, would raise my blood platelet count. I knew that this one thing, low platelet count, was moving me closer and closer to chemotherapy, and that I did not want. This is the reason, along with believing what God said is true, that started me eating apricot seeds.

Why do I tell you this? Firstly because it is true, secondly because I do not have any great faith that would heal me from this cancer. I do not say this, so as to make others think I am humble; but to let everyone know it is God who is faithful. He is faithful to His word, true to what He says, He is truth. “Examine me O Lord, and prove me, try my reins and my heart. For thy loving kindness is before my eyes, and I have walked in thy truth.” Psalms 26:2-3.

It is His Word that became flesh, and dwelt among us. It is His Word that says, “come unto me all ye that labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest.”” Take my yoke upon you and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly of heart: and you shall find rest unto your souls.”” For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matt. 11:28,29,30.

It is also His Word (Jesus Christ) that said unto her, “I am the resurrection and the life, he that believeth in me, thought he were dead, yet shall he live.” John 11:25. This same Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth, and the life, no man cometh unto the Father but by me.” John 14:6.

The best I can say for myself, as to what I decided to do, was what God had written about Abraham. “Abraham believed God, and it was counted unto him for righteousness.” Romans 4:3.

I know that without faith, it is impossible to please Him: for he that cometh to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him. Hebrews 11:6. I know faith leads to salvation, “for by grace are ye saved through faith, and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God. Esp. 2:8. However in this case, I was not seeking salvation, but trying to prevent chemotherapy. My salvation is already secure, I am loved totally by Him. He will never leave me, nor forsake me.

What I am trying to explain is that God is the one who is always faithful, even when we have little or no faith at all. I have no idea what tomorrow will bring for me. It is God who knows the number of my days, and that I believe. It is He and only He that knows what tomorrow will bring. Whether it be good health or poor health, life or death, I cannot tell.

I conclude with this, that if you will confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus Christ, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness: and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. Romans 10:9-10.

For all of you who have been reading my blog, I want to bring you up to date with my life, living with SLL/CLL.

I had my three-month check-up yesterday, and am very pleased with the results. My doctor checked the lymph nodes in my neck, under arms, and groin. She said that they have gone down, some a lot, and one area where she could no longer feel the lymph node. It also looks as if my spleen has gotten a bit smaller, not great, but moving in the right direction. After looking at the blood results, she asked if there was anything I had changed, or was doing I had not done before.

With that question, I told her that I had started eating something different back in June 2012. I went through the story starting with getting the call from the clinical trail doctor, telling me I would not be in the trial. Days later finding out that God said, to eat the seed that is in the fruit. Looking up the verse that said that, Genesis 1:29 KJV, and reading it for myself. Believing what God says is true, and being told that apple and apricot seeds killed cancer cells, I made the choice to eat the seeds.

Her reaction was somewhat hard to read. She said to be careful eating the apricot seeds, then said that there were created. She told me that what I was doing was certainly working, and could not argue with it. However at no time in the conversation did she recommend it. One thing I did come away with was that she knew about the seeds.

I have been told many times now, “there is no cure.”. So be it, and as silly as it sounds, that is just fine with me. I don’t ever want to forget that I have a blood disease. It has only been a blessing, both personally and spiritually.

Here is the chart with the new blood results. As you can see, finally the Absolute Lymphocytic Count (ALC) is normal. Also nine months of normal WBC. For the other two, the doctor has told me many times, they will fluctuate up and down, but I am still hoping that they will, at some point, get into the normal range.

I thought it time to tell you what has happened to me these last several months.

My blood counts were getting worse every visit, so I was seeing my doctor every month, a doctor who is excellent, kind, and has extensive knowledge and years, of experience in this field of Lymphoma Cancers and Leukemia. It was at the May 25th, 2012 meeting that I saw my platelet count (53,000) be the lowest it had ever been, my ALC was still high at 8100, my white blood count was still above normal, and my spleen was still twice the size of a normal spleen. We were again talking about chemotherapy, which I have been against having, since the beginning. In August 2011 I was told I would have to start Fludarabine/Cyclophosphamide/Rituximab (FCR), and again in April 2012 I was told we should start looking at Bendamustine/Rituximab (BR) chemotherapy. I had told myself that I would take chemo, but only when there was nothing left to do, and the doctor could honestly tell me that it had a serious chance of working. As no chemotherapy to date has been very effective on the 17p chromosome deletion. So I thinking, why bother with chemo, after six months of possibly being sick, killing many good cells along with the cancer cells, and then be told “sorry it didn’t work.” If my SLL/CLL was the type that chemotherapy was working on, I would have gladly started. And I would recommend that all others with these cancers, realize that chemotherapy does work, if only for a time. But that extra time may give you, the time needed to seeing a new and better drug or procedure come along.

On both occasions, I asked the doctor to wait one more month to see if my blood counts might improve. Again on the 25th I asked to put off any chemo for one more month.

We previously talked about a stem cell transplant, or me going into a clinical trial. The only two things recommended for those who have the chromosome 17p deletion. I had been notified that I may be able to get into a clinical trial at the National Institute of Health, and my chances looked good because of my chromosome deletion. After talking to the lead doctor, for this particular trial, and being told by him that I would be perfect for this trial, I was quite excited. About one month later, with all my blood work ready to send to him, I received a phone call. While setting in my car, I received, the phone call that I was hoping and praying I would not receive. I answered the cell phone and it was the doctor from the NIH. He told me, he was very sorry, but the trial had been filled and I would not be part of it. I had a brief feeling that I was really in trouble now. My stomach had that feeling that we all get when we hear really bad news. After hanging up and telling my wife, who was sitting next to me, Romans 8:28 popped into my mine, and I realized that even though I was caught off guard, and worried; God was not. Not knowing what was in front of me, I was at ease. God knew what was good for me, I didn’t.

A few days after that May 25th , 2012, meeting with my doctor, and the call from NIH, I was watching a program about Creation. As the fellow was talking he mentioned Genesis 1:29, and went on to say that God told us when eating fruit, we should eat the seed also. He said that in the seed of apples, and especially apricots, was a vitamin that killed cancer cells. I made a note, and after the program, I went to the internet and proceeded to search out what he had said.

What I found was, to say the least, very interesting. Some web pages said that the vitamin in these seeds was called Vitamin B17, or amygdalin, and this vitamin would kill cancer cells. Other webpages said that eating these seeds were very dangerous, as they contained cyanide in them, and would poison, and possibly kill you. I also read that the US government had made it illegal to make any products from these seeds, claiming they cured cancer.

Well after talking to family members, and friends, listening to their advice, I asked my wife what she thought. She told me she had been eating apple seeds for years when she was young. She told me her gramma made her eat them. Well I reflected upon the advise I had been given, what my wife had said, and all the internet articles I had read, then read Genesis 1:29 again, and decided to believe God. I decided that if God said to eat the seed along with the fruit, then I would do just that. As I began eating these seeds, starting in early June, 2012, I had a joyful confident expectation, believing what God says is true, that my low platelet count could rise. You may notice I said could, not would. I certainly had a joyful confident expectation, believing what God says is true, but my faith lacked the would. However, this hope solely focused on my platelet count. No thought or joyful confident expectation even entered my mind, concerning my white blood count ever becoming normal, or my absolute lymphocytic count lowering. What I knew, was that SLL/CLL had no cure, and that it is a progressive cancer, but I decided anyway to eat this cyanide laden seed. Just for information, B17 is found in the pits of many fruits and raw nuts and in other plants such as lima beans, clover, and sorghum, especially apricot seeds.

For those who do not know what SLL/CLL is, here is the following. SLL (Small Lympocytic Lymphoma) is a B-cell cancer of the lymph nodes. CLL (Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia) is a B-cell cancer in the blood. Both SLL and CLL are treated the same, and often thought of as the same. But coming from one who has SLL, it is not the same, it is a lymphoma cancer, not a leukemia. I am very aware it is a lymphoma cancer, as I can feel many of my lymph nodes, which have increased in size do to cancerous B Cells. On the other hand CLL is a Leukemia where the cancerous B cells are found mainly in the blood. When I asked my doctor after my December 3rd ,2012 meeting, what do I have, I was told “you have SLL.” I was not told, I did not have CLL anymore, but I also was not told, that I have SLL/CLL, which is what the lymph node biopsy, taken back in 2011, showed I had. I was first told after two sets of blood tests, and two CT scans, one on December 25. 2010 and another on December 27, 2010, that I had Lymphoma cancer. That is when they knew it was a B cell cancer. After my lymphnode biopsy, and additional blood work, in February 2011, it was without question, diagnosed and confirmed as SLL/CLL. I was told that it started back in 2008 as SLL, and had progressed into my blood, now adding CLL. I thought to myself, “thank you doctor, I now have two cancers to deal with.”

June 22, 2012 meeting was uneventful, as we discussed chemotherapy, stem cell transplant, and clinical trials. Most of my counts had got worse, except my platelet count. It had risen to 59,000 which I thought was great. My doctor was not encouraged with that, as the rise was not sufficient enough. I said I would still like to wait on the chemo, as my platelet count had gone up.

My August 19, 2012 meeting was very exciting for my wife and I. And hour and a half after my blood was taken, I met with my doctor, who is a Hematologist/Oncologists. During my physical, checking lymph nodes, spleen, etc, my doctor said she had a real problem with my case. She was searching for reasons why my blood counts looked far better than should be expected. I did not mention anything about the seeds I was taking, as I did not want to be thought of as a crazy person. Anyway more blood work was ordered, not blood tests for what I had, just the normal blood tests you would get when having a physical. Three weeks later I received a call from my doctor saying that those tests showed nothing abnormal.

My December 3rd , 2012 appointment came, and again my blood work showed improvement. This was the second time in three months that my white blood count was normal, my platelets had gone up again, and my hemoglobin was above 11.0 again, not normal, but going in the right direction.

Since I started eating apricot seeds, and apple seeds, I have been to the doctor for blood tests three times. In August, after reviewing my blood work, my doctor literally scratched her head and said that she had a problem with the readings. Below is a chart with my blood counts going back to 12/26/2010. At the beginning of June 2012 I began eating nine apricot seeds and one apple with the seeds daily. I would eat the apricot seeds, three at every meal. In July I raised my apricot seeds to eighteen seeds a day, eating six at every meal. I continued to eat one apple a day with the seeds.

DATE

WBC

HGB

PLT

ALC

12/26/10

15.6

12.8

87

01/10/11

15.8

13.3

112

4.3

01/19/11

11.7

13.1

78

4.2

02/17/11

12.5

13.7

87

4.5

05/12/11

11.6

11.9

77

5.5

08/08/11

13.3

12.4

85

7.63

09/08/11

18.5

63

10/20/11

15.7

12.1

60

8.6

12/21/11

13.4

11.9

64

01/06/12

12.5

11.7

63

01/26/12

11.1

11.1

62

04/26/12

11

11.4

54

05/25/12

11.7

11.1

53

8.1

Started Seeds beginning of June 2012

06/22/12

12.4

11.4

59

8.7

08/19/12

9.7

10.7

63

5.9

12/03/12

9.1

11.1

73

5.1

4.0-10.6

12.8-17.0

150+

1.0-3.7

Normal WBC

Normal RGB

Normal PLT

Normal ALC

I want to make it very clear, and say that this is not for anyone else, and I do not recommend to anyone, that they eat these seeds. It is not my intention to suggest, or promote anything. I write this blog today, to tell you my story over the last several months. I and I alone made the decision to eat them, and as of this writing, am rejoicing that I did. I also want to say that the only change I have made these last two years, is the addition of the apricot and apple seeds. What has happened is not a miracle. For it to be a miracle, which is an act of God, an unmistakable sign from God, the act would have to meet certain criteria. For it to be a miracle it would have to be unique, easily recognizable, and something only God can do. The act could not be explained by natural laws, natural forces, or anything else in the physical universe. It is true, at least to me, that it is God who created the seeds, then authored and had them put in His book, so we may know what He has made available to us.

It is unfortunate, at least in my mind that so many seldom read what He has to say.

What I have learned over these last two years is that I am really not in control of anything. I think I am, but when I am honest with myself, I really have no idea what is going to happen ten minutes from now. I realize, that tomorrow my blood counts could change, but for now I am thanking God for this time I have. Hopefully I will use it wisely.

So as concerning my flesh, I consider myself one of the fortunate ones in this life. It was written in my files two years ago, that I would not be around very long. I have been told, “no reason to do a colonoscopy,” due to my time frame of survival. I have been assured that I would be made comfortable when the cancer finally gets severe. I will be given as much medication as I require so as not to be in pain. So I have thought about death often, especially the days I have not felt well. I have confronted it, now knowing it will happen. It is not something down the road, something that I can easily put out of my mind. I have became very aware that it is real, it will happen. So in my flesh I enjoy the improving blood readings, and the good health that I am living at this moment. Yet in my spirit, I understand, and look to that day Paul, guided by the Holy Spirit, wrote in 1Cr. 15:54 &15:55. So when the corruptible shall put on incorruption, and this mortal shall put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written, “Death is swallowed up in victory.” “O death where is thy sting?” O grave where is thy victory?”

We in this human race, spend much time planning our future, and that is good. What most do not plan for along with it is eternity, and that is unfortunate. For what should it profit a man if he gain the whole world, and lose his own soul.

The usual understanding of what I have read on most of the internet pages referring to Vitamin B-17, is as follows:

Amygdaline (Vitamin B17) contains two molecules of sugar, one molecule of benzaldehyde and a cyanide radical. This is quite stable in normal cells but these two molecules can be broken apart in cancer cells, which are the only site of the enzyme beta-gluosidase. The quantity of beta-glucosidase in cancer cells is 3000 times the quantity found in normal cells.

When b17 is lysed, or deconstructed by beta-glucosidase HCN (hydrogen cyanide) forms in the cancer cell and promptly destroys the cell.

The quantity of the enzyme rhodanese is high in normal cells and absent in cancer cells. This enzyme is able to prevent the release of cyanide in healthy cells. Because rhodanese is absent in cancer cells there is nothing to stop the release of cyanide from amygdaline and the cancer cell is immediately destroyed. In this remarkable way the Creator of the Universe was able to design a mechanism to destroy cancer cells while protecting healthy cells from the cyanide radical found in Vitamin B-17.

Here are the negatives of what I have read on the internet about Vitamin B-17:

What was the seed made up of Vitamin B17, or amygdalin, The term “laetrile ” is an acronym (laevorotatory and mandelonitrile) used to describe a purified form of the chemical amygdalin, a cyanogenic glucoside (a plant compound: that contains sugar and produces cyanide)according to the National Cancer Institute of the National Institutes of Health, is naturally found in plants such as lima beans, clover and the pits of a variety of fruits and nuts. Amygdalin contains sugar and produces cyanide, which researchers believe is the active ingredient in Laetrile. Though many proponents claim vitamin B17 is beneficial for those with cancer, clinical trials reveal that the compound is ineffective, and has significant side effects that can further damage your health.

According to quackwatch.com, some B17 proponents claim that amygdalin deficiencies are responsible for cancers in humans. To date, there is no evidence to support this claim, nor that amygdalin or Laetrile are effective treatments for cancer. Quackwatch reports that early proponents of Laetrile as a cancer treatment attempted to circumvent the drug approval process by labeling the substance a vitamin. The Food and Drug Administration is responsible for approving all medication and drugs prior to use in the United States, and to date the FDA has not approved vitamin B17 for any medicinal purposes.

Side effects: People who suffer side effects from Laetrile experienced symptoms that are very similar to those of people who suffer from cyanide poisoning. Symptoms include nausea, headache, vomiting and a blue discoloration of the skin due to lack of oxygen in the blood, according to the National Cancer Institute. In severe cases, some people may experience difficulty walking due to damaged nerves, abnormally low blood pressure, dementia, coma and death.

To all who read or have read some of my blogs, thank you, and may God bless you in 2013.