last night i went out to see Sigur Ros.. and what a fantastic show.
i took someone, but i might as well have simply been there alone.
against the backdrop of the music.. i had time to think. i suppose i came to some conclusions on a number of things... Read More

im tired.
i feel as if Legion is sitting on my chest, making sport of my very life breath.

my 'friends' are people that won't even text me back. i have lost the most precious things i held, and i am stretching to consider any reason at all that should keep me here.
still, i just don't know what direction to look in... Read More

uh.. people will be able to see this? well...fantastic.
im sure you are right, and im not as crazy as my blogs will sound.. i hope. i am just really, really disoriented and overwhelmed.
thank you for your consideration. it doesnt go unappreciated.
oh, does replying here mean you can see it?

i wonder if anyone will even read my posts anymore.
it isnt like i know anyone on this site any longer.. though i certainly used to.

i keep saying that i am going to start 'keeping up' with my blog and my presence on here once again, and i did mean that. however.. the last two months of my life have been an unprecedented nightmare... Read More

It has been a really long time since i have been truly active on the site.

I havent looked through the forums or the newer models in a very long time. Nevertheless, I have chosen to maintain my account here and make an effort to become re-aquainted with SG as it is at this point. Looking around, quite a few things have changed..

I miss her so much.
i haven't heard anything in days, and my imagination is playing against me.. who was she really with? why was i blown off? why were these events so covert?
should i be feeling this way..?
i cant help that this feels like a place ive been dragged to before.