Friggin Netherbats, I pay ya, so ya do the effin job!
Is it really so hard to find a name?
Okay so yea, it is cause I didn't find it...fair enough.
Still.
I PAY an they can go places I can't go, so they got more chances.

Come on guys, I need to know.
Can hardly go tell dad with Morrigan in his shade all the time.
She'd have a ball.

Skipped on a meet with dad...
Kinda.
I was kinda tied up.
Wonder what he'll make of it.
But damnit, that idiot mighta rang some bells! Someone asked why he was askin! I can't believe there would be any friends left there who'd care, but there ya have it!
Gotta figure another way to find out.
Maybe there's some kind of head of administration somewhere or somethin.

Keep thinkin I see him.
Just about everywhere.
An then they turn an it ain't him.
Screwed up.
I prolly screwed up.
Dunno where he went in the first place, but hey, I tend to disappear too so can't blame him.
Just wanna know where
An why
An if he'll ever come back.

How stupid is this?
I can do this alone
But I don't want to.

Can't get Morrigan outta my head either.
WHY did she have to be found?
Why under Starlight care?
WHO CARES!
She should burn for what she did!
Like she burned them others!
An still part of my stupid head is goin like 'did this happen in THIS time too?'
What if it didn't?
An I'm mad for some figment of my twisted memories?
I AM goin mad...I just dunno what's real, what happened, what didn't an I can't really ask.
An so I hide.
Not a great strategy
But it works fer now
Okay it doesn't

So I decide to go to Jingles' party, ya know, takin my mind of weird stuff
Suddenly hear it's costume!
Haven't done costumes since...I dunno, that Winterveil ball I think!
An then Chit takes her distance
I know there was some cursin thing goin on in Starlight, but I dunno what happened.
Bad stuff, I guess, cause she was all 'yea I'm fine'
Gotta be bad then.
Wish I stayed close enough so she'd talk
But I been gone a lot too
An people don't talk to goners.

Okay
Think this through
Stupid questions get stupid answers
So he's here, he knows where I am
An I got a name now, Anthar, so I can go look myself, yea? No more need fer sneakiness, just speed. I gotta find him. Get the annulment.

Gotta get my head on straight
Not sure when I'm awake
I'm awake, I think.
He says I forget cause I drink
Do I drink too much?
I drink a lot
Sure
an I ferget a lot
okay
help

So he was DEAD, yea?
An now he's not
Chit knows about these things
but our talks are weird, different
I am not here enough
there's no real talks
just in betweens
shit
he's not dead
an he don't know he was dead
so was that true?
or was it changed?
Or am I just crazy?

He didn't believe me
I said I had people
he said I made em up
they were not there
an they weren't
suddenly silent on the stone
but that was cause they was busy! Nothin else!

Morrigan is too close to dad, an certainly seems too close to Chit whenever there's a meet. Can I still talk to her? Will she tell Morrigan?
Don't need another mindtrick
Already know I suck at this stuff

Shit, I told Chit about Seann.
She wanna scare him. I dunno if that will work. What if he's not really there? What if I made him up?
What if I'm makin it all up?

Okay, ease down.
He musta been there fer real
I don't make that stuff up to pester myself
An he gave me a name that I did not have earlier
An Chit is just busy an that's fine, she got her own stuff goin on.
An that ain't nothin.

So what if I just ask him to have a good siddown an talk this over once an fer all...I mean, I'm a grownup,yea? I don't need no husband to keep me in check or whatever. So what if I could get Seann to help me to find this Anthar fella an we can close this stupid wedding chapter? I mean, Seann don't HAVE to look after me. He could just let it go.
Wonder why he don't.
Is that cause of the threats Ticks made back then in the new when?
Maybe I should talk to Ticks.
Don't think he's been taken in by Morrigan.
He might be safe.

Faulty...
If this is me makin this up, I sure ain't nice...
I'm faulty.
Great.

Called in witnesses.
Dad caught a glimpse.
Pretty sure he did
I hope.
White sleeves, broad back he saw.
Coulda been Sean, right?

I don't understand why he won't leave it alone!
That guy sure never came lookin fer me so I bet he wasn't keen on this thing either! Why force the issue?
Just cause Seann can say I am 'taken care of'?
An what is this crap about draggin me back?
I ain't a small child anymore, Seann!
Cept I let myself be dragged into old discussions...I wanted to tell him about Starlight, about dad, about all the things I could not possibly have made up. An then he brings up the old fights, the mess, mom.
Everythin I could ever feel bad about.
Why?
It was an accident, I know that now.
Right?
An I just fergot tellin him about the good people.

Am I doubtin them?
With the whole Morrigan thing.
Yes.
Maybe tha's why I did not mention em when Seann got on his rant.
But I know they got my back, I KNOW it. Dad came right when I asked fer someone an I'm sure Chit was just friggin busy an...

Sounds like yer tryin to convince yerself more than me.
Dad said that.
Maybe I am.
Maybe I have doubts.
I don't wanna go to guildmeets anymore.
She's always there.
That ain't a guild meet, when everyone has to watch their words.
Is just a friggin play.
If she gets a stone, I'm out.

TOTALLY screwed up!
This entire thing!
I mean, come on, Seann! What's with yer timin?? Why is it so blimmin important to ya to put me down? What's in it fer ya? Is it just an old habit or is there somethin to gain? You coulda just left me alone, ya know! Live yer life, let me to mine. No harm done.
Okay fine, you found Anthar.
That don't give you the right to tell me what to do!

I shoulda asked WHERE exactly, damnit...now I need to get back to Seann.
An now I did the stupid thing an went to Morrigan's li'l outing after all...
Didn't plan to.
But Seann...
Damnit.
Had to get away.

So I went.
An was totally not in the right place.
So I let Tódd take the last spot.
Wasn't thinkin straight anyway.
To stay behind with Sto wasn't the plan either.
Good thing he has way more smarts than he sounds like.
SI:7 indeed, hah. Funny how them old papers from dad showed their use.

Seems to have gone well though.
Morrigan did her thing, the rest wasn't hurt. An I even avoided that Orc's punch.
Not bad fer an unintended night out.

An then it turns out she trusts Chit...
Morrigan trusts Chit...
Or so she thinks.
What the nether

No, I ain't gonna touch her
Certainly not gonna NURSE her
Yea sure, if people need a hand I'll take care of her but DON'T expect me to take care of Morrigan!
She can take care of herself, thank you very much.
I'll help anywhere, sure.
But not her.
Ever.

Expendable, my ass.
Dad wanted her to survive
Chit wanted her to survive
Who else? Dubs, Ticks?
Who else is in her web?
Shouldn't have told Chit about Anthar.
Hope she can keep her mouth shut
I dunno anymore
They're all hangin around her

Well I ain't fallin fer it.
Got my own stuff to take care of.
Better hope that husband of mine is more reasonable than Seann.
Then again, a wild raptor with mornin sickness is more reasonable than Seann.