GrrrrThe one thing that urks me most about ppl is that when they ask for help, you help them no big deal. But when you ask for help they shit on you and leave ya behind like nothing even matters. Hypocrits is a good word for ppl like that. I mean hell they spill good words from their mouths, but really it's just mucus and vomit that makes them shit. Ah well, some ppl are good some ppl are just dicks. Like I say sometimes I have the word asshole stamped to my forehead. Well at least I got a good b/f that's not like that. Just some friends. Ha! Ah fuck it LOL ppl are who they are can't help it none. And yet...I still find myself being nice to them. Oh well...I don't have the heart to turn my back on them. Is that wrong?

IantronudiaThe arousal that some people have when they expose themselves to doctors.

I'm About To Come AliveI can hear you downstairs crying on the phoneTelling someone that I'm here but you still feel all aloneMaybe we were too youngGoodbye, I've gotta goI can hear the baby waking upGot to get back to the life I know I should have never believed himMaybe I should just leave him Maybe I'm not but you're all I got left to believe inDon't give up on meI'm about to come aliveAnd I know that it's been hardAnd it's been a long time comingDon't give up on meI'm about to come alive No one thought I was good enough for youExcept for youDon't let them be rightAfter all that we've been through'Cause somewhere over that rainbowThere's a place for meA place with you In every frame upon our wallLies a face that's seen it allThrough ups and downs and then more downsWe helped each other off of the groundNo one knows what we've been throughMaking it ain't making it without you

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Happy National Credit Union Day!I didn’t know this when I went in to cash my check today. I work for a small family business, so no direct deposit … Martha works for the humongous “family” business Wal-Mart, but I digress. While she’s home today with the kids just as she was yesterday with me and the kids on one of our rare days off together, I was going to say “Happy National Credit Union Day” back like “Happy Birthday” when I knew what it was, but it didn’t come out right. They’re serving corn dogs there along with hot apple cider and oatmeal cookies, along with their usual coffee and popcorn. I remembered to pick up popcorn for Martha, Sarah, and Jeffrey too and brought it to them since I promised to get them some yesterday and when we got to Prairie Federal, it wasn’t there. Even if they are a little bit nasty, that gives me no excuse to be. (And I can be a lot nastier.)
Martha and I don’t often get the same day off from our wor

By The Grace Of KingsThis stage this page this battle ground3000 miles to Graceland on the edge of a soundI'm out of pennies, in for 88 poundsThe jury by fire is out for deliberationDeliberately denouncing the dichotomizing divisions of their own convoluted sense of self preservationIt's a goddamn shame this happy little nation
couldn't withstand time's unforgiving nature

Important !!!! Please Read !!!!!!!!!!!! IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!
WHEN INSTANT MESSAGING ME , FOR GOD'S SAKE , DO NOT FEEL THE NEED TO PRESS THAT FUCKING BUZZ THINGY IF I DONT ANSWER YOU A SECOND AFTER YOU SEND ME A MESSAGE !! ALSO , BESIDE THE EVERY SECOND BUZZ DO NOT SEND ME MESSAGES THROUGH IM OR ON FUBARS SHOUTBOX ASKING ME THE FOLLOWING : ARE YOU MAD AT ME ? WHAT DID I DO WRONG?? ARE YOU GONNA ANSWER ME ?? WHERE DID YOU GO??? HELLO , UM HELLLOOOOO !!!! THAT ONCE AGAIN PROVES TO ME THAT YOU HAVE SOME MENTAL ISSUES THAT YOU NEED TO DEAL WITH BEFORE YOU CAN EVEN THINK OF HANDLING AN ADULT CONVERSATION ! ALSO I DO NOT WANT TO SEE YOUR DICK - THEY ALL LOOK THE SAME , I MAY BE HORNY BUT YA KNOW WHAT , I DONT NEED TO SEE WHAT YOUR MAMA AND GOD DIDNT GIVE YOU OK..... THAT GETS REALLY ANNOYING , IT AS IF YOU EXPECT ME TO SIT OR LAY HERE AND DEVOTE EVERY BLOODY SECOND TO YOUR INSTANT MESSAGE - EXCUSE ME PEOPLE I HAVE OTHER PEOPLE TO TALK TO AND ACTUAL WORK TO DO ( AS I AM A FREELANCE MUSIC PROMOTER). IF YOU ARE GOING TO ACT

The Dark Forest
The dark forest surrounds me. There is no light. I am sure it is night, but I cannot even see the moon. I turn in circles, arms outstretched, trying to feel for a break in the trees, searching for a path or an exit. The birds that used to sing in the treetops are silent. I feel drops of water hit my cheeks. I think that it is raining, only to realize it is just my own tears. My own loneliness covers me in the darkness like a cloak, but there is no comfort from it’s weight. I cry out for help and hear only the mockery of my own echo in return. The pain in my heart is so real that I am sure the knife must still be there, but when I reach my hand up there is no blood.

Stupid Pply do ppl think its ok to be stupid and rude i men man on one hand r dicks im sry guys alot of us r but think about it if we were to set back and think about it girls act how they do cause of us and not all but aslot were made to be pain in the asses by men but u no girls r in on it to yall like to nit pick about stupid shit but we cant help but love u for it and i always see ppl saying oh it wont work its called set down and freakin talk it out i mean girls nag the hell out of u dont get me wrong but dam it man guys we r in it just as much we set back and bitch when we dont get our way and we wanna jump and leave the girl if she dont like our way but when u think about it u no girls do it to but i always see this happening to ppl they hook up and brake up u no sumtimes u have to fight it out look at me i may be taken now but i have been through pure hell to learn wat i have today but i guess wat im trying to say is dont give up on love just dont give it out so fast or u will ge

The California ExperienceThis is for everyone who ever considered moving to the left coast and for those that have moved away and miss it!!! Enjoy it because it is much safer than the real thing. Please do check back here and let me know whether or not you enjoyed the ride lol
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Justin's Most Recent Interview :)Britt credits wrestling for rise on Tigers depth chart Israel Potoczny israel@lebanondailyrecord.com Oct 15, 2009 Justin Britt is hoping Elvis Fisher goes to the NFL. Fisher, the Tigers starting left tackle, is the only thing between Britt and the field as the former Lebanon High School standout has risen to No. 2 on the University of Missouri depth chart. A native of Saint Petersburg, Fla., Fisher spent his first year at MU as a redshirt freshmen. Then, in 2008, he went from No. 2 on the Tigers depth chart to being named first team Freshman All-American. In town for the Lebanon-Hillcrest game on Oct. 2, Britt took a moment during halftime to talk about his rise up the Tigers depth chart during his freshman season as a member of the University of Missouri football team. “I would like to say, ‘yes.’” He said when asked if he saw himself competing for a position on the Tigers line next season. “But I am behind the best lineman on our team. Maybe next yea

Let Me Be My Self3 hrs, 00 min
I guess i just got lost being someone else, I tried to kill the pain But nothing ever helped I left myself behind Somewhere along the way Hoping to come back around and find myself some day Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you To say that it's OK, tell me please Would you one time, Let Me Be Myself So i can shine, with my own light Let Me Be Myself Would you Let Me Be Myself Coz I'll never find my heart Behind someone else I'll never see the light of day Living in this cell It's time to make my way Into the world i knew And take back all of these times That I gave in to you Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you To say that it's OK, tell me please Would you one time, Let Me Be Myself So i can shine, with my own light Let Me Be Myself, For a while If you don't mind, Let Me Be Myself So i can shine, with my own light Let Me Be Myself That's all i ever wanted from this world Was to let me be me.. Please, would you one time, Let Me Be Myself So i can s

Missing..keep Him In Your Prayershttp://www.wistv.com/global/video/flash/popupplayer.asp?ClipID1=4219862&h1=Picture%20released%20of%20missing%20F-16%20pilot%2C%20debris%20found%2C%20Jack%20Kuenzie%20reports&vt1=v&at1=News&d1=181234&LaunchPageAdTag=News&activePane=info&rnd=20782308
CHARLESTON, S.C. (AP) - Debris and an oil slick were spotted in the Atlantic off the South Carolina coast as the search expanded Friday for an F-16 fighter pilot whose jet collided with another during night training exercises.
"We did have a report of an oil sheen which might be consistent with fuel from the fighter jet itself and we have also had a report of a small amount of debris," said Capt. Michael McAllister, commander of Coast Guard Sector Charleston.
The search was expanded from 750 to 1,300 square miles as Coast Guard and Air Force aircraft joined vessels from the Coast Guard, Navy, law enforcement and commercial shippers looking for Capt. Nicholas Giglio. He is based at Shaw Air Force Base in Sumter.
"We remain hopeful," sa

Sadness Maybe I Dunnosaltiness of my tears,I taste on my lipsa pain in my heart, from my chest you ripthe blur in my eyes I cannot see straitthoughts in my mind, now consumed with hatemy love was not good enough, I was pushed asidenow as my shell grows thicker my soul has diedempty feelings are all i have left in meI thought I found a love, but he would not seenow I go roaming this world, will i ever find love?or will this life just give me another shove?tired of being confused, being alonetired of aching, the pain cuts to the boneI say fuck it I'm giving up

Enjoying A Snail's PaceEnjoying a Snail's Pace Doing Things Slowly
Life can often feel like it’s zipping by in fast forward. We feel obliged to accelerate our own speed along with it, until our productivity turns into frenzied accomplishment. We find ourselves cramming as much activity as possible into the shortest periods of time. We disregard our natural rhythms because it seems we have to just to keep up. In truth, rushing never gets you anywhere but on to the next activity or goal. Slowing down allows you to not only savor your experiences, but also it allows you to fully focus your attention and energy on the task at hand. Moving at a slower place lets you get things done more efficiently, while rushing diminishes the quality of your work and your relationships. Slowing down also lets you be more mindful, deliberate, and fully present. When we slow down, we are giving ourselves the opportunity to reacquaint ourselves to our natural rhythms. We let go of the “fast forward” stress,

Moving Beyond AppearancesSoftening Judgment Moving Beyond Appearances
It is our natural inclination to judge people, since it happens without our even thinking about it. We take one look and summarize a whole person—overweight, pretty, stylish, sloppy. This habit comes from the mind’s need to categorize the world in order to be able to function without becoming overwhelmed. When we judge, we are looking for pertinent information, trying to determine whether the person approaching is a threat, an ally, or someone we don’t need to worry about. This way of looking at people makes sense in a dangerous context, but in our daily lives it leads to an overly simplistic reading of the people we meet. If you have ever judged someone dismissively, only to have them become a dear friend once you got to know them, you know the hazards of the judgment cycle firsthand. An experience like that may have led you to soften your natural tendency to believe your first impressions. We will always notice things

Doing Salutes For Those Who Donate And Help Me Out.Ok here is what I am doing I am making sfw and nsfw salutes for donations for a spotlight for my birthday. The more you donate the better the salute is. 1 million gets you in family if you want to be there. Any donations are welcome. Bombs , Blings , and rating all sfw pics also count.

The ReturnSIx months.
It's a while.
Holland was something indeed. As the dust settles after 3 weeks of frantic labor I sit here in the relative calm and reflect.
I liked the dutch, speaking the language also gives you more insight into the culture.
The dutch tend to be direct, almost never prudish, temperate and practical. For one with a mediterranean temperament, with our tendency for flair and exaggeration it was a bit stifling.
Nevertheless, their care for the environment, the organisation and the fact you can actually bike to work was very refreshing.
Now I am back, In seductively chaotic Greece and I miss the calm and concise nature of Holland.
Still the nightlife and closeness and expressiveness of Greece is fulfilling and exciting.
More so It's interesting being back on the Fu. Some things different, some new people, some already known.
Fleeting as every moment is, it holds within it a lifetime of emotion and stimuli. We move from one stage to the next. Be it country. house, re

Why?I'm bursting with emotion
And I dont know what to do
My heart feels so torn in many ways
And its all because of you
Each night I lay in bed to sleep
But all I do is cry
You've hurt me in so many ways
I feel like I could die
My HOPES, my DREAMS, my HAPPY THOUGHTS
They have all faded away
And everything would be so different
If only you would stay
I use to trust so easily
But you made it go away
When you left you took my heart
And all I feel is fear
I fear that I might once again
Be caught in someone's trap
And in the end, alone again
My mind it just might snap
Someday I hope to love again
Someone who will be there
I still cant help but wonder

Beauty In The Eye Of The BeholderI find it befuddling how many women on claim that they are "hot", "sexy", "beautiful", etc. I get tons of compliments (on FU), and yet I am completely aware that the status of my looks is completely relative. I am aware that some people are not into short brunettes with smaller chests, and would much rather go for busty blondes or redheads. Thus, to them, I am not beautiful/ sexy/hot/schmexy/other shit. So I can never claim something that relative. How fuckin vain do you have to be to self appoint yourself as a beauty queen.

What's The Deal? I am quite annoyed by the antics of some and I am sure others are annoyed with me, but I most of the time try to correct and do better. What I can not understand or have mercey on is someone that is a hopeless train wreck. I simply mean someone that has never tried, never done a damn thing for themselves, and someone else always gets stuck with the baggage. We are stuck in a world full of half assers, quiters, complainers, screw ups and so on with the descriptive language. I realize I have bitched about this before, but it has gotten on my nerves once again and it branches to those people that are whiners and beggers. Also this rant stems to those people that are on here and abroad that simply think they are better than someone else. I bled the same blood you do and sweat the same kind of sweat as you do if you even know what hard work is. I usually would leave this to karma and say it would come back to your sorry ass, but I am far past that. If you(meaning anyone)

To Forgive .......
To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness.
- Robert Muller quotes

A Dream Worth DreamingSomewhere in my dreams I hear your voice Whispering gently....into thin air At the edge of the mountain I close my eyes Sensing your breathing...feeling you appear there On the edge of my dreams I see your face A twin soul......when we share eyes At the edge of the mountain I catch my breath Touching our finger tips...mouth goes dry In the shadows of my dreams I taste your lips So soft against mine like a warm rain At the edge of the mountain my heart slows Sharing our every breath....two hearts don't refrain In the deepest part of my dreams I feel your touch Breathless....from the warmth of your skin At the edge of the mountain I open my eyes Seeing only clouds....feeling.... within On the edge of my dreams is where I want to stay It's there...I'm forever in your arms...safe...sound At the edge of the mountain I'll remain breathless For me.....no greater love will ever be found Will you always be there on the edge of my dreams? Will you always meet me to the edge of the mountain? I wi

Feeze's PrayerDear God pls forgive me for all the bad things that I done in the past and the things that I will do in the future I deserve the punishment that lay upon me, Pls God here my prayer and have mercy on my tortured soul amen.

Fubar RankingToday's fubar ranking is 485,please show some fu love (sighs). Would really like to see my fu wife make Oracle. We rawk fubar as hard as anyone I know. Thank you everyone for the bombs and gifts over the weekend. All my close fu friends and family know that the love is always returned. If you don't roll that way please don't waste our time in our shout boxes or send annoying private messages that show what an idiot you are. I've only blocked two users so far,but I'm not too timid to block futards.
Peace out

Knows How 2 Eat Pussy Like No OtherTHIS IS HOW I LICK PUSSY95% of females can't cum from sex UNLESS, they're on top..and they're on top why? so they can stimulate their clit..by doin' their lil snake charm grindin' grab on our pelvic bones..which..really does nothin' for men..so the key is..eat pussy first..make her cum a few times...numb her up..then hammer away or soft and slow with alot of vaginal teasing with your magic stick to build it all up in the end, however u like......now once ur inbetween her legs..don't just fuckin' dive in there like a bum at a thanksgiving charity dinner...take your fuckin'time I know pussy is nearly irresistable...but don't act like it is..lick her inner thighs, kiss them..kiss around her pussy lips..kiss the lips etc. etc..finally once u've got your tongue on her clit..this is what u do..(u can use ur hands to spread her lips here if u want..that's all preference...it's easier to make em cum w/their lips spread..so u have easier access to their clit) now...roll the tip and somewhat fla

Found Cell PhoneWhen a customer left his cell phone in my store, I scrolled through his saved numbers, stopped at "Mom" and pushed send. His mother answered, and I told her what happened. "Don't worry," she said, "I'll take care of it." A few minutes later, the cell phone rang. It was "Mom." "Martin," she said, "you left your cell phone at the convenience store."

MomMom went to the lung Doc today. They told her and my oldest sister it was either lung cancer or an infection. They are going back in Feb to have another CAT scan and if it has grown they will do a biopsy. Her chances for cancer are high since her younger sister died of lung cancer. Maybe it's just me,but I don't get the waiting thing. Why not check it now and not months down the line? There will be no treatment for it,because she is to frail to survive that,but waiting makes no sense to me. Not my choice and I respect that.

I Wasn't Going To, But...........I wasn't going to write about what happened Sunday watching the bears. Figured all my friends here would leave me if I did, but then my friend and I talked and I decided what the hell, it happened and I can't take it back si I might as well share it my friends here like I have everything else.
Anyway, here goes.....I mentioned last blog entry that Tina and her mom participated in our weekly sex party, nothing sexual happened between them but it was so fucking wierd seeing mom and daughter having sex in same room. Anyhow, Tina and her Mom wanted to come back and join us again, at first I was No Fucking Way!!!! but all during the week Tina kept pestering me and since nothing happened between them and Tina's mom is so cute and sexy, I relented and said it was okay. Guess I was thinkin with my pussy instead of my brain hehehehe!!!!! Anywho, Sunday came along and I was waiting with my friend, the game wasn't until the night but we decided to make it earlier. I was a lil nervous but ha

A PoemFallen leaves slain by the wind
Swirl and whirl whistling to the sky
Dropping one by one each petal that -
was once moistured and adored -
Now withered and dreary its juices all gone.
Where are now the butterfly that cherish me?
I cannot beg to stay,drifted and gone -
i am powerless to make them remain!
Now slowly and silently i weep as i fall
And lay in the ground
I dont know where to go.................
Annette.

My Uncle Lincolns Real PageIt seems that a nasty fat chick named blaine has hacked my uncles page if your in question on which of his page is real it is the one i am linking here please block and or delete the other one
http://fubar.com/user.php?u=1230422&friend=1230422

Old Man...yes, i dropped off the face of the earth again. but as always, i have returned from the void. and with news this time!
i am officially old. i started having pain in my neck, shoulder, and arm about 1.5 months ago. this has happened before, but i decided that i should have it checked out this time. after hurting for two weeks, i went to a chiropractor. he said the problem was my sacroiliac joint. he treated me accordingly and gave me a list of things to do to help it heal. it didn't get better.
after another week of pain, i went to my doctor. he referred me to a physiatrist. he did much the same things as the chiropractor, but also took x-rays of my neck. he said that it looked like arthritis. so he prescribed pain meds, scheduled an mri, and sent me to a physical therapist.
i went back yesterday to look at the mri with dr. spine. it turns out that i have three disks in my neck that are thinning, and one of them is herniated. this is being caused by the arthritis. four

The MirrorSo l looked into the mirror tonight, and saw very clearly in my features what I'm going to look like when I am older. I saw my uncles, grandfather, and great uncles in my face. I aged myself in my mind 30 years.
I hope you'll be there with me when I'm old.

A Journey Within
I've come back, a weary travelerWondering through the journey that is my lifeMemories I choose not to dwell uponEtched into my weathered faceI've lost many a thingNon of which can be replaced.There was so much I wanted to say but couldn't speakTears of relief overwhelm me, I am finally free.As I lay there on the cashmere grassI breath in the earthy smell, it comforts meThe warmth of the sun tickles as it dances across my skinI watch the formless clouds above and allow time to pass.I embrace the present moment and enjoy a sense of beingMy soul is a phoenix, risen from it's ashesI close my eyes and smile, I can finally hearThe subtle whispers of silent trees.
Poem by Tammy C.

SickI am so sick, I had a cold, it started to go away, I camped in the freakin woods with the cubscouts & now I can barely move.
I have not showered yet today. I need to pick my kid up in less than an hour. I will likely still be unshowered.
Holy Crap I feel like shit.

American Girlby Tom Petty
Well she was an american girlRaised on promisesShe couldnt help thinkin that thereWas a little more to lifeSomewhere elseAfter all it was a great big worldWith lots of places to run toYeah, an d if she had to dieTryin she had one little promiseShe was gonna keepOh yeah, all rightTake it easy babyMake it last all nightShe was an american girlIt was kind of cold that nightShe stood alone on her balconyShe could the cars roll byOut on 441Like waves crashin in the beachAnd for one desperate moment thereHe crept back in her memoryGod its so painfulSomething thats so closeAnd still so far out of reachOh yeah, all rightTake it easy babyMake it last all nightShe was an american girl
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shes an american girl, will do anything for it, but there is too much love and hope in her. she gives out more then she gets. its braking her heart, but she cant stop the giving.
If one person gave to her, half of that she gave to them, she would be happy and could go on. Will that

Refusing WaterThe rain is floodingFlooding everywhere that I am notAnd I sit drying, cracking, shrivelingBecoming nothing but a huskA husk of a woman, your womanHow foolish was IRefusing water amidst a desertNow I wanderFinding nothing but miragesAs she drinks, long life restoring drinksIn an oasis that was once mineI am losing the strength to continue onI welcome the endMay I turn to the ashesCast me everywhere that I am not

InvisibleI'm losing you so quickly. I try to stop time so I can catch up, but I see that is not possible. All I have to do now is to try to fight. Yet everyday that I see you with someone else, I see that I am losing and that I have to get on my feet quickly before things get worse. I ran out of breath. Now I feel like I can't breathe. I'm tired of having to fight this battle where I know I am going to loose, but because I love you so much, I just don't give up. I don't give up because you never said that I didn't have a chance with you. Once you let me know that, I will leave you alone. Even though you're with another girl, I want to believe that you think of me. Don't lie and say you never wish you had one of my kisses. Can you see that I am dying without you? Don't lie and say that there wasn't a time when I drove you crazy. I could see it in your eyes, but long time I haven't that I can't say. Don't try to hide it because I know you sometimes think of me. You killed me on the inside, now al

Look Up In The SkyGet Out: Orionid Meteor Shower Peaks Overnight
Robert Roy BrittEditorial DirectorSPACE.com Robert Roy Britteditorial Directorspace.com Tue Oct 20, 12:30 pm ET
The Orionid meteor shower is expected to put on a good show tonight into the predawn hours Wednesday, weather permitting.
This annual meteor shower is created when Earth passes through trails of comet debris left in space long ago by Halley's Comet. The "shooting stars" develop when bits typically no larger than a pea , and mostly sand-grain-sized, vaporize in Earth's upper atmosphere.
"Flakes of comet dust hitting the atmosphere should give us dozens of meteors per hour," said Bill Cooke of NASA's Meteoroid Environment Office.
People in cities and suburbs will see far fewer meteors, because all but the brightest of them will be overpowered by light pollution. The best view will be from rural areas (the moon will not be a factor, so dark skies will make for ideal viewing).
When and how to watch
The best time to watch

BurningEverything feels so natural to me
You sit and worry
Analyzing how you can keep us both
When you want so much more
Than what is allowed
They ask me why I stay
I have to but open my mouth
And they can hear the ancient magick
the bond so old it flows in
metallic colours, shimmering
almost tangible, touchable
Do you want to touch me?
Run your hands through my hair?
String kisses and licks over my belly?
Does making me completely yours
tease your senses to no end?
Damn it, Damn you, Damn it all...
Take it, I'm offering it all to you
My gypsy blood sings to you
Are you listening to its clever tune?
You took the spark I had forgotten about
And made a bonfire with my heated desire
All my suppressed passion, you flared it to life
I'm burning up with it
only you know how to make me whole
play with me, Your silly, sex kitten
watch how my hips move for you
look at all of them.. so envious
of our private little world
How could this be wrong?
Dont dto

Hot Sexual TasteYou whisper into my ear Sweet things that make me weak, Then you look into my eyes With your mysterious provocative gaze, Causing you to touch my skin To feel the burning of your flames, Caressing me with a love that is real, Then you kiss me... As I feel your wet eager lips Our hungry tongues indulging in their craving, To feel the poison... Of your blood boiling throughout your soul Sending electrify emotions Stimulating pure intoxication, As your hands flows over me; Touching every curve and every part of me... It seems I move my legs apart automatically, As you lift me on the mystical ride While my body you know I will guide, Just listen to our song Making love all night long, The flames of passion, desire and love Is taking control over us, You put your hands in my breast, As I feel a sensation so exciting, When you kiss my nipples with your eager lips Every time you do that, It gets more and more fulfilling Let me feel those sensations, As I feel you deep inside me Feeling a rage

Confused As Hellso like for some reason my ex husband looked me up on myspace and has been talking to me for about a week now. i am so confused cause he has a girlfriend but we are talking like we used to a long time ago before there was ever a problem with our relationship. i don't know what the hell i am thinking or what the hell i should do. i am just so confused i mean here is the man i was in love with for most of my childhood and adult life acting just like the man i feel in love with so long ago. but he has a girlfriend and i don't know what is going on or what he wants from me but talking to him is making all those old feeling come back and i just don't know what to do.

Loungefeel free to stop by and have a blast good staff and a warm place
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Response To A Nasty Man.I am getting sick and tired of people in Mumms telling me how wrong I am because I dont see the natural wonder of the conservative wing of the Republican Party. Yesterday I was attacked as thinking that I was smarter than the attacker because I was a Democrat. Following was my answer:
My friend, I am smarter and better educated, more insightful, better read and probably taller, funnier and better looking. I suspect I make a better omelet have a better car and trim my toenails with more precision. I am a better pilot, swimmer and have more underwear than you do (although that one is subject to an audit that I dont chose to conduct.) I have a better sense of introspection, better diagnostic skills and a top spin serve that would mop you up. I also dont define everything in terms of politics. Nice talking, once again.

Stage Fright!Ugh I had to go UA for the house I live in and talk about serious stage fright!!! Got up drank 2 cups of coffee and drove down there with the *feeling* that I had to go. Went in the room and couldnt do it with the woman in front of me. So went back in the waiting area drank a coffee cup of lukewarm water and skimmed magazines. When I thought I was ready to try again she was like are you sure, and I was pretty sure but she was like you only get two tries... Well thank god when she turned the water on I was able to... Stage fright sucks ass!

Just Rantings From A Stressed Out Woman!My week has already started out bad. Had little money to buy food, and now two days later find out we have no money for even that. I have to find a way to feed my kids, get my husbands medications, and not go crazy at the same time. My car has broken down, and I can't fix it for a long while. My husband will be unbearable to live with without his medications, and I am supposed to go to parent teacher conferences this week!
I am trying to make life better by going to college, this is the only way to get any job around here. With little options for work, I am a stay at home mom. I have tried too many work from home jobs, and lost more money than I can begin to explain. I am desperate, at the end of my ropes, and extremely stressed out!
I WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!

Facts About The Tomb Of The Unknown SoldierThe Tomb of the Unknowns was established in 1921, when an unidentified U.S. soldier who died in World War I was exhumed from a cemetery in France and reburied at Arlington. The tomb inscription reads: "Here rests in honored glory an American soldier known but to God." The tomb was initially unguarded, but its inappropriate use by picnickers prompted the 1926 establishment of a military guard during cemetery hours. Security at the tomb became round-the-clock in 1937. In 1956, President Dwight Eisenhower signed a bill to add unknowns from World War II and Korea to the memorial. An unidentified soldier from Vietnam was added in 1984, but his body was exhumed in 1998 and identified through DNA testing as Air Force 1st Lt. Michael Joseph Blassie. Blassie's remains were returned to his family in Missouri, and the Vietnam crypt remains empty. When Hurricane Isabelle moved through the Washington area las

Aftermath........I couldn't believe my eyes, I was so ughh.....I grabbed the blanket and curled up on the floor and laid there tramfixed on what was happening befor my eyes, I just couldn't believe that Tina and her Mom was having sex together in front of me......I could tell that Tina was about ready to cum when my friend came walking in, he took a few steps in and saw me curled up and I saw a flash of concern cross his face then he looked at couch and saw tina and her mom going at it and his expression got angry. I jumped up and ran to him and hugged him tight and wouldn't let go, he grabbed me by my waist and stared at Tina and her mom and raised his voice so they could hear and said "WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE!!!!!! STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING NOW!!!!!!!" this startled tina and she stopped riding the strappie and her mom looked over at us with a wierd look and said "get naked and join us" and my friend was like No Fucking Way you sick fuck!!! That is your own daughter!!!!! what the fuck is the m

Tears From Heaven To My Heart, To U Allhello and im writing this blog based on a request of someone important to me, and just cuz its time i share something with people, its not bad, but its about love and the losing someone who matters even after all these years.
It starts in 1998, i was working at a nursing home called Kensington Manor. I was dietary work, cleaning pots and dishes. it was May when she walked in to my job, she was a new worker and i had to train her. Her name was jennette rivera, and at the time i didnt know what an impact she would leave me. after time we worked togother, as dishers were teammates when doing the job. One nite after working a double shift, i found her sitting, waiting for her ride, a call later and i took her to the hospital, her mom was in a car accident. i spent the whole nite with her, and during that time, we grew closer. i was a bitter man towards God and she was all about god. that nite i learned to let go of my maddness and opened my heart to possible things. After that, things too

NeedyWow, am i needy. Five days without talking to my Doomsie and it feels like my soul has been sucked out of my body. Walking dead here. Oops zombies again, don't tell Doomsie (but it is her fault)
Kordaff aka Phil Hanner aka aka something else aka Toftberg

Nobodytalking...Wish I told her how I feel,Maybe she'd be here right nowbut instead... singing...I pretend that I'm glad you went awayThese four walls closing more every dayAnd I'm dying insideAnd nobody knows it but meLike a clown I put on a showThe pain is real even if nobody knowsAnd I'm crying insideAnd nobody knows it but meWhy didn't I say the things I needed to sayHow could I let my angel get awayNow my world is just a-tumblin' downI can say it so clearly but you're nowhere aroundThe nights are so lonely the days are so sad andI just keep thinking about the love that we hadAnd I'm missing you And nobody knows it but meI carry smile when I'm broken in twoAnd I'm nobody without someone like youI'm trembling inside And nobody knows it but me (yeah)Lie awake, it's a quarter past threeI'm screaming at night if I thought you'd hear meYeah, my heart is calling youAnd nobody knows it but me (well, well)How blue can I get?You could ask my heartBut like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apartB

Top... Family & FriendsSo this is really mostly for me but I thought Id put it out there just in case, because people have a tendency to get their feelings hurt. I know I dont like having my feelings hurt so I thought Id try to avoid it altogether. : )
For a long time (Ive been on the site about 13 months) I have avoided having TOP family and friends because no matter whether I mean it to or not that may lead someone to believe that number represents some sort of level of importance in my life - which isnt necessarily true.
The top 3 people in my family are people I know outside of fubar, and have known for years, and more importantly the top 2 are women my daughter relates to as her 'aunties.' My other family members are people that have been good to me, enough said.
My top friends will be people that are good to me as we all play this game, and it is just a game. Some people click and some people dont - it is what it is. I doubt my top friends will remain the same for the length of the game, but

The Game Called Lifelife is a near game to many people, a game that can not be reset for anyone, some may be just tryin to win life over another, we may think we have extra lives we don't, we only contain one life, it is up use who face reality that know we are the one who must play to mae a difference of what has became all that we know, so now live your life and suffer for what we most do to advance

MusicBaby what are we becomingIt feels just like we’re always runningRolling through the motions everydayI can lean in to hold you, or act like I don’t even know youSeems like you could care less either wayWhat happened to that girl I used to knowI just want us back to the way we were beforeDo I turn you on at all when I kiss you babyDoes the site of me wanting you drive you crazyDo I have your love, am I’m still enoughTell me don’t I, or tell me do I babyGive you everything that that you ever wantedWould you rather just turn away and leave me lonelyDo I just need to give up and get on with my lifeBaby, do IRemember when we didn’t have nothingBut a perfect simple kind of lovingBaby those sure were the daysThere was a time our love ran wild and freeNow I’m second guessing everything thing I seeDo I turn you on at all when I kiss you babyDoes the site of me wanting you drive you crazyDo I have your love, am I’m still enoughTell me don’t I, or te

It's An Orange "otto" WHY THE DOG LEFT I BELIEVE I WOULD'VE, TOO!!!!....LOL!!!!
AND SOME OF YOU THOUGHT YOUR DOGS WERE BIG!!!!

Happy HalloweenYou're at a Halloween party with a bunch of your friends. You're in the corner talking to your best friend when across the room you see a gorgeous blonde in a skin tight sex kitten costume. Your eyes lock onto hers from across the room. You start walking across the room toward her and she heads toward you.
The two of you meet in the middle of the room and you just can't help yourself, you lock your lips onto hers and pull her against you. She grinds her pelvis against yours and pulls you tighter against her body, devouring your mouth. She whispers, "I want you now," as she grinds her pelvis harder into you.
You walk backward, pulling her with you out of the ballroom and down the hall. You come to the men's bathroom and pull her inside. You lock the door, sit down on the bench beside it and pull her onto your lap. She straddles your lap and you slide your hand up the inside of her thigh and feel nothing but skin when you reach the juncture. You slide your finger between her folds and

ArtsI have put some of my artwork onto my gallery - I have resisted this up to now, but I did one piece that was inspired by people and experiences on Fubar - so I thought, why not share.
Take a look, tell me what you think.
http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=3166879&albumid=0&i=4252907408

After All We All Are HumanA little bit of venting..or bitching however you want to take it. Yes even I have those days. :) Lets start off with..I am old school FU..been here almost 2 years...and I like the old ways. I am where I am on here not because of people buying me stuff. or HH after HH...blast after balst..or ticker after ticker. I got here from the help of my friends and family...so to that THANK YOU ALL.
I do like to level..but as I see with this is GREED and the abuse of friendships; I am not sure if I really give a shit about leveling. OVA a BILL to get a spotlight!!! thats fukking ridiculous!! As my stat once said.." There is a person on the other side of the computer screen..with that said, there are feelings and a heart, not just a credit card and wallet." People have to work hard now with all the shit that is going onwith our economy. I know some of you just dont give a shit..but KARMA is a bitch. Remember that!
Im not saying that people shouldnt spend money on what they want...but dont

Ensign: The Empire Strikes BackAll ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3
AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 23 October 2009
Yoda: Control! Control! You must learn control! Luke Skywalker: I saw... I saw a city in the clouds. Yoda: Hmm. Friends you have there. Luke Skywalker: They were in pain! Yoda: It is the future you see. Luke Skywalker: The future? Will they die? Yoda: Difficult to see. Always in motion the future is. Luke Skywalker: I’ve gotta go to them. Yoda: Decide you must how to serve them best. If you leave now, help them you could, but... you would destroy all for which they have fought and suffered.
I’ll have to watch “The Empire Strikes Back” again because I always thought Yoda’s line was “Difficult to see. Always in motion is the future.” And in the strictest sense, that’s true – the future doesn’t even exis

Nymphomaniac...A man's term for a woman who wants to do it more often than he does.
˜Joke-of-the-day.com

Ugh So Bored!so bored with my current situation!Same ole same ole. I cant live like this. HELP!!

Going OutSo tonight hubby and I went to a bar. The dance floor got swamped with trashy Ukrainian whores, and I was irate.
a) I hate people from Ukraine and Belorussia
b) they were relaly dumb.
Ofcourse subconsciously I hated them cause they were hotter, but overall the endless twittering and 80's Chernobyl style moves were putting me in a sour mood. I called them skanks, and hubby said that I was bein a nasty hyppocrite, and shouldnt be talkin about skanky behavior, ever since I posted a vid of me playing with myself online, AND well...blah
But, skankiness to me is a lack of brains, not clothes. So...tje Ukrainian skanks still stayed the same, imho. Just cause they annoyed me.

SayTake all of your wasted honorEvery little past frustrationTake all of your so-called problems,Better put 'em in quotations
Say what you need to say
Walking like a one man armyFighting with the shadows in your headLiving out the same old momentKnowing you'd be better off instead,If you could only ...
Say what you need to say
Have no fear for giving inHave no fear for giving overYou'd better know that in the endIts better to say too muchThen never say what you need to say again
Even if your hands are shakingAnd your faith is brokenEven as the eyes are closingDo it with a heart wide open
Say what you need to say
{Say by John Mayer}

BellaGrowling "Bella", he craves my caress.When his mood is the darkestThat's when I like him best.The anger, the hunger, the animal lust.Then grabbing my hair, He gives one more thrust.Giving myself over to rapture.It's only my bodyHe's dying to capture.I am his obsession...his only need.Like a vampire demands bloodTo survive, he must feed.Offering myself, down on my knees.Take my very essenceI beg of you please. Call out the name you have given to me."Bella" he criesIt is you that I need.

What Are The Secrets Of Jonathan Sperry?Eight years ago …
Matthew 13:44-46 October 24Dorie @ FBC in Kirkland; make money! 10110.24
Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto treasure hidden in a field: the which when a man hath found, he hideth, and for joy thereof goeth and selleth all that he hath, and buyeth that field. 44
Follow your nose – I have days I want to get rid of everything I have, to pay off my loans and pay for some important people in my life. I am talented and knowledgeable enough; hey I was paid $20 for one hour troubleshooting Jean’s computer yesterday! I can do more than I have been doing.
[This page in my journal’s accompanied by an eight of spades with a toucan on it – I found it on the ground, picked it up, and pasted it in – and at the bottom of the page it says, “the word of God = the will of God”!]
Today …
This entry would have been a rant if not for the fellowship this morning. Heck, it’ll probably still be some of a r

QuoteOctober 24, 2009
Quote of the Day
"We arrive at the truth, not by the reason only, but also by the heart."
– Blaise Pascal
For some reason, I am choosing to write on this daily quote I receive daily. This quote speaks quite loudly to me in ways I can not even begin to explain. I know finding the truth just within reason is not the way simply because once in awhile reason may be wrong. There have been many times in my life where I wanted to follow my head and my reasoning to just turn out wrong later on. Although, when actually finding it by the heart can be the most painful; this can be from friends, family, co-workers and what tends to hurt the most the significant other.
Now, on the other hand, this could be quite amazing to find truth by the heart as well. Once again, looking at the reasoning, and having a total different idea in your head as to what is going on and instead learning of a miracle. I myself never really believed in miracles, but that is changing

Stupid Encounter #22 From Sb (read Bottom To Top)ems1150: youd only graze him with the cig right nothing too serious ->ems1150: nvm ems1150: would what get me off? ->ems1150: Why would that get you off? ems1150: curious would you give any warning or say anything through the wall before or after you burned it? ->ems1150: only to the people in the front of ashortbus! ems1150: you are brutal you know that ->ems1150: I'd burn it... you have asked me this question before I said I'd cut it off... you said why dont you just burn it with your cig i said why waste a good smoke... so i thought about it and if I didnt have sissors... I'd prolly get it with my lighter instead... well i look foreward to you hitting me up next week to ask me the same question I hope this helps you with the dicission of should I masterbate now or later and should it be in the bathroom while my wife is at home or not... have a nice day ems1150: suppose you are in a bath room stall smoking a cigarette suddenly a penis comes through the hole and the voice on the othe

Todays Hospital TripWell went to the hospital again today because of all the stomach pain.Thay did all kinds of tests and found I dont have a fibroidtumor or a cysts as my OBGYN had said thing is thay dont know whats wrong and since I'm on medicade thay couldnt keep me and find out.So I'm back to squar 1 of why am I in so much pain..
Thing is the fucking OBGYN even did a bysopy on what now I have no fucking clue but I plan to make a apointment and find out whats up with this bitch and what the fuck she has been up to.I also plan to sue her fucking ass for malpratice ..
Even the emergancy room Doctor was pissed when he found out she has been doing all this shit with no pain meds at least at the moment she did the bysopi.
I'll keep ya'll updated when I can find out whats going on.All I know right now is what the em doctor said ..something is defantly wrong and everything inside of me is swollen.And I hate fucking doctors!!!
Blessings All
Deanna

H1n1 Swine FluWhere to begin.... I feel like shit I have been running a fever between 101 and 103. My throat hurts like hell and I can't breath. They are now only giving tamiflu to children 5 years and younger and elderly people 65 and older. That puts me at ease cause if my twins get it they will be able to get the tamiflu, however my room mate is fucked. My mother in law is trying to get me a motel room for a week so I can quarantine my self till I am better, which I think is a good idea. My children don't understand why they can't be around me to even give me a hug and it breaks my heart. This government made flu is killing people and what are we to do? 1 week before the out break my room mate was surfing the web and found on yahoo, where 3 vials of a hybrid flu where missing from a level 4 underground military base. 2 days after the out break started, the report on the missing hybrid flu had disappeared. I believe this hybrid flu was set out for population control. I don't know about you, but th

Men That Cheatmen are such dogs tring to go from one bitch to another without thanking twice about it or what the out come would be.
I know someone whos husband was sending girls a pic of his junk and I gess hopping for something to happen between him and said girl not even thanking about his wife..
well she called one of the girls and let her know that he was married and he never said anything about beeing married to her but now she knows maybe she'll pass it on and on..

This Week - The M11Choosing which motorway to review for my first "Motorway of the Week" feature was never going to be easy. So many to choose from, the heritage rich M1, the glamourous M4, the largely pointless A57(M), the choice was bewlidering. But then I had to drive my BMW k1100lt from Cambridge to the Docklands area in London, and my choice became clear, the elusive and "built on the cheap" M11.Running the 49.7 miles from Woodford in North-East London to Girton near Cambridge, the M11 is perhaps one the UK's lesser known Motorways, but is nonetheless offers an excellent escape route from London. It was opened in stages between 1975 and 1980 - meaning that during the late 70's, people that were sick of London would have struggled to sneak out via this route. The connecting motorway is the infamous M25, but you can also get onto the A406 north circular, which give access to north london...if thats your kind of thing.Features of InterestThe four illuminated sections (southern terminus near juncti

Fubar AdminOk this needs to be said. I am sick and tired of creating accounts at fubar only to have them deleted just because I spend all night rating people and adding new friends. The next time it happens I'm gonna have several of my friends delete their accounts cause this is ridiculous. I thought fubar was created for people too add new friends and rate people? I didn't know that was against the rules. I have a feeling soon after this blog is seen by admit I'll get this account deleted. It's all too predictable.

Longing Hearts...I AM NOT SORRY FOR MY SOUL, THAT IT GOES UNSATISFIED,,FOR IT CAN LIVE A THOUSANDS TIMES!!! ETERNITY IS DEEP AND WIDE!!!!! I AM NOT SORRY FOR MY SOUL.. BUT OH,,,MY BODY THAT MUST GO BACK TO A LITTLE DRIFT OF DUST WITHOUT THE JOY IT LONGED... I LL MISS THAT FEELING OF ARE LOVE,,,,WHEN WILL I KNOW THE JOY OF YOUR LOVE? COULD IT EVER BE?

Odaat- Self DisclosureSelf Disclosure
Learning to gently reveal who we are is how we open ourselves up to love and intimacy in our relationships.
Many of us have hidden under a protective shell, a casing that prevents others from seeing or hurting us.
We do not want to be THAT vulnerable. We do not want to expose our thoughts, feelings, fears, weaknesses, and sometimes our strengths, to others.
We do not want others to see who we really are.
We may be afraid they might judge us, go away, or not like us. We may be uncertain that who we are is okay or exactly how we should reveal ourselves to others.
Being vulnerable can be frightening, especially if we have lived with people who abused, mistreated, manipulated, or did not appreciate us.
Little by little, we learn to take the risk of revealing ourselves.
We disclose the real pers

What’s That Smell?While some folks prefer their poontang to be on the gamey side, for many people, fear of a funky odor or taste is the chief barrier to going down on a woman. All women do have a distinctive scent and flavor, and for some would-be cunning linguists, these may be an acquired taste. However, if your partner is clean and in good health, her taste and smell should not be unpleasant or overwhelming. If you have concerns about her hygiene, the most tactful approach is to suggest a shared shower or bath before sex. If after a good soaping, her pussy still smells like something crawled up it and died, or she has unusual discharge, she probably has an infection and should see a doctor.

What Caged Kids Can DoTwo of 11 "Caged Kids' Sue Former Adoptive Parents for Their Abuse
CLEVELAND — Two of the 11 children in Huron County's "caged kids" case have filed a lawsuit against their former adoptive parents, who are now in prison.
The children, who were known as Sharen Gravelle II and Michael Gravelle II, this week filed a lawsuit against Sharen and Michael Gravelle, who each are serving two-year prison terms for child abuse and endangering convictions for the mistreatment of some of the 11 children when they were ages 1 to 15.
The children are seeking damages for the years of abuse they say they suffered at the hands of the Gravelles, including being "kenneled in alarmed cages instead of beds," food deprivation and humiliation. It accuses the Gravelles of negligence, recklessness, wanton misconduct and deprivation of rights, according to the lawsuit filed at Cuyahoga County Common Pleas Court.
The children are seeking more than $25,000, money that would be used to pay for education and th

Sunday QuoteOctober 25, 2009Quote of the Day"Ride on! Rough-shod if need be, smooth-shod if that will do, but ride on! Ride on over all obstacles, and win the race!" - Charles Dickens
What this is telling me is that no matter how difficult things may be to just keep on keeping on. Anxiety stops me from doing so much, yet there are things I have to do so I make myself do them and I hate it. At the same time everyone keeps pointing out to me that at least I did it and it was a big thing for me to do.
I really need to adopt this inspiration though. Things are rough and I need to keep plowing my way through things whether or not I want to or not.
Just an evening rant from me... ♥

Preview Of "death Of Dreams"It all started with a dream, a dream to understand our dreams. A dream to controll these dreams to rid the world of nightmares, little did we know that by controlling out dreams we would open the gateway to a very real nightmare. By controlling our dreams we would lose controll of our minds, how were we to know what would happen? No one knew that Isac would lose his fucking mind, but most of all we didn't realize we would give them the ability to posion others with just a bite, the ability to spread a plauge that would end so much life.
Dr. Isac stood from the observation room of the Denver lab. A lot of things had happend with the dream catcher experment and so far most of what happend was failure. But now fourty six existed and she was showing great promise. Promise of what though was the question that now rested in Isac's mind. The three patients outside of the observation room were fourty six's room mates and all of them were suffering from bite and blunt damage. But somethi

Stupid Idiots Worry...It seems that in today's age, the majority of people in our realm of existence tend to worry on a daily basis about Bull. Why?I'm going to give you guys the benefits of worrying right now!****....uhmmm........******mmm.......******That's about it.SO QUIT IT!You guys waste too much time, effort, money, not to mention health too on your worry factor. Yeah. Get this. If you worry, whats it going to do about the problem? NOTHING. NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL. This is why the book, "The Secret" is BULLSHIT. Think this and you'll be that way... OK, so if I think I'm skinny and eat 10 candy bars a day, cook my burgers and fries in lard, and eat a gallon of ice cream on a daily basis, I'm going to be super skinny! WRONG. Instead of "thinking" yourself to get somewhere... "Do" something to get somewhere. "Doing" has a lot more power than "Thinking".On to worrying... Worrying cannot change what has already happened, so it can't change the past. Worrying also cannot do anything for your future EXCEPT

From A Daughter To Her Mother
Something i would tell my mom if i had one more day with her.
Lorna Jo Robinson: 11/27/1934 to 10/25/2002
From the day you found out you were having me, You were my everything, and the day when i was born, and came into your life You became my hero,my rock,my Mom. You raised me to be strong, well rounded, open minded, independent, loving, caring, and most of all understanding. I have looked back through these last 7 years since your passing and have remembered the memories,the happy times, the sorrows,the fights we had.. but not one time did we not tell each other "sorry" or "I love you". You taught me when ever there is a arguement or fight, that it is resolved before going to sleep, to tell that person you love them,for it may be the last waking moment you have with them. You taught me even through bad times there are good times too. You and Daddy gave me a wonderful childhood that i would never trade anything for. Both of you showed me amazing places and taught me wonderful th

AutumnAutumn in the mountainswhen I was youngbrought a harvest of leavesand stones.Beautiful bold leaveswith their transient burst like they were makinga celebration for lifein their final showof reds, yellows and browns,Waiting to be reborn.
Poem By Tammy C.

Come & Own Me If Your Not To Scared!!!I'm up for Auction!! click the pix to bid... I could use your rate too!
* R/F/A if not already
* 50- 11s while i have VIP
* All pics rated during hh
* Owned in name
* Random Gifts & or Bling If I Have Any * Link on my profile
* Add 2 my top Friends
* 1 SFW Salute
* Tagged pics done by me
* Drinks while I am on
If Bling Packs-Blasts-HH is offered
* A Auto or Bomb (if the bling is enough) * Bling of my choice
* Oracle pimpout daily for 4 weeks
* Yahoo name
* Add 2 family

Perfect PLittle Johnny is playing in the woods with his little friend Jenny when she turns to him and asks if he knows what a penis is. Johnny, unable to answer tells her to wait while he runs home to ask his dad. He bursts in through the front door to find his dad laying on the sofa watching TV. "Dad! dad, do you what a penis is dad, do you ?" Johnny demands of his father. The father stands, whips out his member and says "This, my boy, is a penis and as a matter of fact it's a perfect penis". Johnny dashes back out through the door towards the woods to share his new found knowledge with little Jenny. "Did you find out ?" she asks on his return. "Yes I did" he gasps, still a little out of breath "here, I'll show you" "There you go" he proclaims proudly, lowering his shorts to his ankles, "That's a penis, and if it was two inches shorter it would be perfect!"

Get Out Your Dollar Bills!!!Ever wonder what Marketman, Baby J, Scrapper, Eric and Van do when they're not improving Fubar? Well, here's the answer...

I Miss Cherrytap!Alright...I'm seeing that I'm not the only one here complaining about this Fubar! I can say I completely agree about this whole thing. I don't understand why they had to go and mess everything up either. I was a member since then and have a new account. I think paying for things is right because they have to keep the site going, but man the people have gone half nuts! Finding a skin is a pain now, I miss the old ways. People are so selfish now it's rediculous. I rated all of one friends' pics (over 3000), got nothing but a ty and a drink, rated another friend (4 folders) got nothing in return at all! I think it's a joke how some can't even give a page rate! Lazy seems to be the new thing. Just because you are higher up than someone does not mean you are all that. I give 11's to newbs and fan em and even ask for a friend request...not hard to do. I watch my Tab and play catch up all the time and I even make it known in my status "If I missed you please let me know" alot! How hard is it

Who Was That Nasty Woman?I almost did something very cruel just now. Cruelty isn’t like me, and this would have been beyond cruel.
I almost forwarded an email to someone I had known for a while, dated briefly a couple of times, got jerked around by a couple of times and finally told to “go attempt the anatomically impossible with the incredibly inadequate”. (Yeah, I really did say exactly that)
It was an email poking fun at the aging male and the loss of virility. And I know he would have gotten the point. It was pure meaness. Pure, unadulterated meaness. And I contemplated the act with impish glee.
I don’t like hurting people. I don’t even like hurting people who have wounded me. I’ve been a lot more deeply wounded by other than this slightly pathetic person, even though he is a narcissistic, sadistic jerk. He tried mightily, but I didn’t care enough to be all that hurt.
Yet here I was, contemplating committing virtual mayhem with absolute delight. I’ve never met that side of me before; and I do

Heres To YaHERES TOO YA
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THIS IS FOR ALL THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE
FOR ALL THE LOVE LOST HERES TO YA
HERES TO RELIZING WHAT YOU LOST IN LIFE.
HERES TO FINDING THE ONES THAT LOVE YOU.
FOR ALL THE TIME WASTED LOOKING FOR LIFE ITSELF .
HERES TO NEW FRIENDS AND OLD ENDINGS.,
HERES TO ALL THE ONES THAT HATED TO SEE ME MAKE IT .
THIS ONES FOR ALL THE PEOPLE THAT SAID I CANT BUT I DID.
HERES TO NEW ENCOUNTERS AND OLD DREAMS.
HERES TOO MOVING ON AND TAKING YOUR PLACE
HERS FOR STARTING OVER IN LIFE
HERES TO YOUR HEALTH AND WELLNESS .
MAY ALL YOUR DAYS BE GREAT AND CHERRISHED

Would YouWOULD YOU
If you seen me walking hopeless
Would you, stop so your eyes can focus
Would you, wonder whats your name
Would you, walk with me in the rain
Would you, for the friendship you gain
Would you, ask what has made you cry
Would you, pass me and ponder why
Would you, join me hand in hand
Would you, journey with me across the land
Would you, walk along the sea in the sand
Would you , wonder if i was the one
would could you bring back my sun

80 Thousands Fucks An One Virginonce upon a time, u always here, how a story always starts, how bout fucking 80 thouands fuckswhen virgin comes a heart!... shes love u for u, but u love her not, you fuck her with gleeyou taste her soul an life.. but cant be happyu sit an spell, how life sucks a dick, u wish life was made easyu wish an well, how u moan an groan, but she she still sit as envyu wish u cry, u want the perfect model. no one cant never have.. but my perfect virginshe weeps an crys.. she loves u with heart mind an soul, but noi cant do it, i cry with empathyshe my friend, she my life.. she the one keep me from realityshe does her best, she does all she can.. 80 thousand.. she a virgin to bedressed in lingerie, dressed in my dream, something i cant let it bealways so close, always so be.. always a dream to beNO, now lets seeehad an interruption, of some slut wife i know.. ha i love it.. 80 thousandsand is alotshe, wow, is my model, my dream i love to be..but married, an it will never bealways seems, everythi

A Lounge Is Splitting This is a Repost for Someone decided to delete it even though it was within reason and definition of boundries. It had nothing to do with bashing, clearly stating that the Join effort of two lounges was going to Split and become one without the other again. But clearly that isn't supposed to be allowed. But here comes the Blog again confirming it. The Dual Ownership Staff Goddess and Incubus are pulling out. They are Taking their Half called DPG and leaving HD. Everyone is tired of the Drama that is contant there so in doing so they have been branded as traitors for leaving. No worries though, They will always have a home in Angelic Demons. If this blog gets deleted they had better send me exact reasoning as to why its deleted, otherwise its abuse of Power for nothing in this is Bashing another like I was told as to why the other was deleted. But it bashed no one, only spoke about a lounge and whom to contact. Until next time.
Oh and You can Contact this Person for Verification on

BrokenTears fall like raindrops from the sky
pain etched so deep the roots can never unwind
Sorow filled
despair setting in
Knowing there is no yesterdays
no turning back to change it all
Moving forward on this crazy circus ride
Heart shadowed by darkness
a soul that lost it's way
Looking up at the endless sky
so small all else seems
Tears will fall
pain will come and go
Darkness just around the bend
to capture another broken soul

NiceJust love how he comes home last night and makes a lot of noise knowing that I'm sleeping. Making a lot of noise in the kitchen, turning on the tv to the radio station real loud and singing. Yeah..I know he was doing it on purpose. I noticed that he had gone through some of my packed boxes and took some things out...kitchen stuff. I guess he's making some type of dinner for his nerd family for nerd night. Aw, how special. And leaving the kitchen a mess like usual. Well, I'm not cleaning it up and when I move out, I'll be taking the rest of the kitchen stuff.
I talked to my land lord yesterday, asking her to give me an idea when I can move out. She told me the lady of the apartment I want, will be moving out probably by Saturday. Sweet!! Then they just have to clean up the place..Landlord said it should be a fast for her to move out because she's pretty clean and has stuff packed already. Soooo, maybe sometime after she gets completely moved out, the place gets cleaned, I will be moved

Sleep Till We DieSleep till we die
Laying awake at night the voices keep on calling me.
Never ceasing, never relenting.
What has gone wrong with me?
I can not take this any more.
My mind and emotions reeling two and fro,
I need too end this unrelenting nightmare
Born for nothing I shall share no empathy
I am the bastard child you neglected.
Tossed aside like a vestal foetus of sacrament
I was never meant too be
something must have gone wrong.
Mother fuck you.
Father I will kill you.
Hate me now and forever.
I care not where this dream takes me.
Slice me down like corn before the harvest
free me this moment from the hell you placed me in by birthing me you rancid cunt.
Born for nothing I shall share no empathy
I am the bastard child you neglected.
Tossed aside like a vestal foetus of sacrament
I was never meant too be
something must have gone wrong.
Bottles of pills lay around me.
A razor juts from my flesh.
One last breath and time is no more.
The darkness

Poem, I Guess.Tried to understandBreak down reasonGive way to truthThought there was a sparkOur lips touchedI thought there was a sparkI was lost within youFingertips would trail across your skinTaking time, wanting to feel every inchBelieving your words was where I went wrongWe've lost our chanceSeems you have made your choiceAnd I've lost my faith in romance

Why The Fuck Should I Care.....ramblinggood people...oxymoron. more like a wolf in sheeps clothing. hurting someone intentionally i think is the worst part. why the fuck is it so easy to hurt me? cause i let you? cause i opened up and tried to know you? so call it my fault if u have to. to feel better about your lousy life im guessing. not caring about what youre out there spreading. lies and filth is what youve been collecting. dish it out and cant take it, youre pathetic. rambling is what i do best, trust me. lovin is all i wanna do to people who care for me. so let me care, you can care back. heal my mind from all this poison in my life. never shouldve said goodbye when i was offered the help i needed. theres no way to back so i guess im fucked...which im guessin is why these dark clouds are my new shelter and this haze is my new reality...to my friends im sry...maybe u did know best. not sure where im goin but its gotta better than where ive been.

To Smile Or Not To Smilewell i got my teeth done now and my smile looks wonderful i guess i gotta delete some pics to add new ones but no1 is rating too many of my pics anyways so im not sure if i want to

Status Comments...are fine, and this isn't "Policy" or a "rule" or anything, but I guess I'd prefer if they responded to the actual "status" they were a comment on. Especially inasmuch as they give neither you nor me any points, or anything like that - or is that why status comments are preferred? Out of asceticism? (Not to be confused with aesthetics.)

Reflections Of Self.Come now, what would you have me believe--That you are open, unique, beyond yourself?I try to make your little evasions make sense,Reach through the mist of your moving away.You can take up whatever defense the moon will allow,Become the left hand of truthfulness at night….The radiance of forgetfulness is not so endearingWhen friends lose faith; I have no measureFor the swerve of emotion left beneath the eaves.We can go straight back to hovering over forgiveness.We’ll return to our present wavering soon enough.Please touch the tip of your thought with graceUntil I find my strength in silence once again.I call you by name, my counterpart, high, brave windBeyond necessity, beyond the windings of compromise.
Poem By Tammy C.

EaseOne would wishThe things of the worldwere Connected.They aren’t.It’s the inbetweensWe live in, live through,In all their disjointedness.There is no easeEven in that recognition.We have to findOur ease somewhere else.
Poem by Tammy C.

Empty ShoresWhere the brush grows thick,Where the water laps the shore,Where the thin wind parts the grassesWhispering through them 'Nevermore'There the willows weep in silenceFor the souls that passed before,The stars upon the waterWhisper softly 'Nevermore'Clouds have shuttered fast the moonlight,The silence falls once more,Then the thin wind through the grassesMoans across the empty shore.
Poem By TammyC.

Let Your Heart SingBe joyful, and be lead forth in peace.Stand at the top of a mountain, and burstinto a song.
The birds will sing along, and the trees in thefield will be clapping there leaves,for life is all around you.
Walk in the light of your presence, and rejoice all of your days.
Your heart, filled with love and peace, bringinghappiness to all.
I lecture you this, so that your life can be unique, there is no ransom in what I teach, just enter the everlasting light, and be complete.Delight and joy will overtake you, sadness and pain, will fly away.
In Love.
Poem By Tammy C.

Is Radio Dead?No radio stations are not dead but they need to see the doctor. According to a new study from TargetCast radio is still a strong force but losing its energy. TargetCast says that 50% of people between the ages of 18 and 24 prefer their MP3s to the radio and about 45% like internet stations to radio, and 49% say radio is not relevant to them. What does that mean to the future of radio? Your guess is good as mine but it doesn’t look great. For more info check out Jennifer Lane’s Audio4Cast at
http://audio4cast.com/2009/10/26/consumer-media-study-highlights-impact-of-digital-media/
www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

To Die Well..It was the typical San Deigo bar but to the locals it was quite obvious the people occuping the pool tables tonight were not typical at all. Each of them stood out from the rest of humanity somehow...they seemed more distant, more aware of what was going on. One of the strangers was leaning back against a wall his white messy hair dangling in front of his face in an almost gothic styled curl. He was wearing a large dirty brown duster a black t-shirt with the words fuck you on it and a pair of blue jeans. Nothing really stood out him persay just looked like another street freak during the month of October. This man was named Alex Margery and he is a monster hunter.
Another of the strangers in the room looked like what one might picture of the typical retired cop. Over weight by at least sixty pounds but oddly in shape. He dressed in a very simple button down and a pair of slacks. He had a large tactical belt wrapped around his waste which had obviously seen it's time of wear and tear.

Never Never Ever Will.I can't take it anymore.I don't ask for much and all I do is help.For those of you that want to see nsfw pics,forget it.I won't degrade myself for a bling or a bomb or anything else.If that what it takes then I don't need you as a friend,so get off my list.I have more respect for myself.If you don't like it,then kiss my a$$ and get off my list.

Yes Im A Fu Idiotjust so you know i did not intentionaly get rid of all my bling....someone whos name i wont say...(shue)....sent some yankees bling to my page...well i hate the yankees almost as much as i hate child molesters...and so in a panic to get that crap off my page ...i deleted everything

Faithless Knight
I stand upon a lonely hill my sword and shield in place my black stallion nearby I'm a dark knight of unknown grace
I am faithless...
Black is my armor, black is my soul gray the color of my stance, red is the passion that burns within I'm a Knight worth a second look
I am faithless...
I gaze down upon a field of clashing swords, day and night, where lonely hearts long for a lover to have and hold till daylight
I am faithless...
I am more than most realize only a few know the real me, even as I mount my horse and charge the fields with courage.
I am faithless
My sword is razor sharp my shield, I hold fast lying dead around me are dragons, strange beasts that couldn't last
I am faithless...
I speak in riddles, a maze to the wise only they will see, far more than a dark knight watching as I slay the snarling dogs
I am faithess...
Within my blackened heart of courage,Lies a wound that does not heal,There where hope would dwell,Is a fountain that fills thisknight's

Christmas CardsFor those who know JAK then you know he sends out Christmas Cards the old fashion way via snail mail. If you are interested in getting a card from JAK then you need to send your information to him in a private message (name, home address, screen name, and whether or not its just you or you have family).
The plan is to have them in the mail the week before Thanksgiving to give the lazy bastards who work at the local post office plenty of time to make sure your card is delivered before Christmas (last few years JAK has heard cards didnt get to them in time).
Now remember this is being done the old fashion way with an actual card, not an email version. Once the cards get mailed out then thats it. If you don't get your info to me in time then you'll have to wait till next year.

Tantic, Down And Out.... I love this tune
coming up for air s o I can
check myslef again and I stand
proven to the man but sheltered
confidence we tend to shelf and
unexpected hunger drives me
just shut up and stand beside me
I dont need your understanding
I don't need to change a damn thing
though I'm used to have you here
it doesn't change the (one) I was
when you found me
and there was no one else around me
just turn the page and watch me grow
there's so many things that you don't know about my soul
live and die but this will not get old
just when you think that you're down and out
don't preconceive what I'm all about
look for a reason that you have to start
acting like a friend but you are not
and when you think
that we played it out
we come from the bottom and knock it out
look for a reason that you have to start
acting like the friend that you are not
nothing in between to fall through
I'm being myself who are you?
you stand above and look down
you're just

Abuse Of PowerI quit my job today. Yesterday was the last straw with my boss who is a married guy who can't keep his hands off women who work for him. I threatened to report him but he said it would be my word against his and no one would believe me. I kind of wish now I would have set him up and agreed to meet him at the super 8 and then call his wife to show up and bust his nasty creepy ass. :(

You've Got A WayI know... I know Shania Twain... but this is a good love song
You've got a way with meSomehow you got me to believeIn everything that I could beI've gotta say--you really got a wayYou've got a way it seemsYou gave me faith to find my dreamsYou'll never know just what that meansCan't you see... you got a way with meIt's in the way you want meIt's in the way you hold meThe way you show me just what love's made ofIt's in the way we make loveYou've got a way with wordsYou get me smiling even when it hurtsThere's no way to measure what your love is worthI can't believe the way you get through to meIt's in the way you want meIt's in the way you hold meThe way you show me just what love's made ofIt's in the way we make loveOh, how I adore youLike no one before youI love you just the way you areIt's in the way you want meIt's in the way you hold meThe way you show me just what love's made ofIt's in the way we make loveIt's just the way you are

Bounderies
The sea just floats,I touch the skyBlue is overwhelming, defyingI drown in the midst of time and placeNothing else mattersNothing is awake but meMy essence engulfs the siteI am alivePeople begin to fade awayThey dissolve into the sweet locks of yesterdayAnd I liveI smell the revitalizing air of todayThe air is kind, givingFor I am grateful of where I amLost in this maze of abandonmentLocked inside a box of limitless boundaries
Poem By Tammy C.

Dormant Thoughts Brought SummerThe warm air in my lungs
the cold breathe on my lips
it took me a long time but i finally admit
that a love lost now beats a life lost later
as i sit here waiting for my heart to play
catch up and my mind to remain under control
i patrol my emotions that get the notion
that maybe this could continue with great resolve
dont tell me its over because my heart says so
just leave and let me deal in the only way i know
was this pain more fierce or did the fire die
did the needle pierce the depth of your soul
or was your consious to numb to notice?
as my lungs lay deflated, gasping for breath
let not my heart give out let me tell you this
i will not repeat the mistakes that left me gasping for less
much less than the three words you used so careless
did it hurt, did it even sting, i hope a part of you dies
when i cross the threshold we once shared
dont you dare look back my heart reminds me
as a tear graces my cheek believe me i wont weaken
i will not fall or fail, crack

Me Without You Is Like...Me without you is like...A pot head who's not highA plane that doesn't flyA suicidal that doesnt dieA fat man with no boobsA condom with no lubeA starcraft with no noobsA hooker with no luckA hoe that doesn't suckA slut that doesn't f***A shoe with no lacesA nerd without bracesAsentencewitoutspacesA gay guy without styleS**t without a pileA phone without a dialA desk without a seatSocks without feetA heart missing its beat

50 Mistakes Women Make While Having Sex1. Assuming he can get a raging hard on when it suits you. Contrary to popular belief, men can't just flip a switch and get it up because you decided to stop being a frigid bitch. Getting it hard is your job. I suggest you figure it out.2. Thinking that kissing needs to be this sweet romantic thing all the time. Sometimes pressing your lips against your partners mouth while you get off is the hot. It depends on the situation.3. Leaving him responsible for your orgasm. You know what gets you off. Tell him. If you don't, it's your own fault when he's snoozing and you're all wound up.4. Expecting him to cuddle. Men and women are wired differently. Sex makes most women want to talk and bond and all that shit. It makes men pass out. It's a biological thing. Stop fighting it, and stop holding it over his head, it's not his fault.5. Expecting him to fall asleep with you in his arms. That shit is uncomfortable after awhile. A little snuggling isn't unreasonable, but when it's time to actually

Irish Marine New AddressHey guys and gals! Our favorite Irish Marine is doing well he has a new address and wants EVERYONE to write him!!
Edward R. Dunphy # JE8056
P.O.Box 200
Camp Hill, PA 17001-0200
Fill his mailbox up with lots and lots of letters..show him we love and miss him!!!

Don't U Just Hate It Whendon't you just hate it when people on ur friends list flood there status bar and what i mean by this is.. they copy and paste the status they just left 5 secs ago so u see it like this
hey look at me i want attention
hey look at me i want attention
hey look at me i want attenion
hey look at me i want attention
do u see how annoying that is?

New DiscussionDiscussion: Do anybody have an experience where everytime you're friends with the person of the opposite sex that you really like, you tend to mess things up? Give me your inputs and solutions.

Two FriendsTWO FRIENDS WERE WALKINGTHROUGH THE DESERT.DURING SOME POINT OF THEJOURNEY, THEY HAD ANARGUMENT; A ND ONE FRIENDSLAPPED THE OTHER ONEIN THE FACE.THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPEDWAS HURT, BUT WITHOUTSAYING ANYTHING,WROTE IN THE SAND:TODAY MY BEST FRIENDSLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.THEY KEPT ON WALKING,UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,WHERE THEY DECIDEDTO TAKE A BATHTHE ONE WHO HAD BEENSLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THEMIRE ! AND STARTED DROWNING,BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.AFTER HE RECOVERED FROMTHE NEAR DROWNING,HE WROTE ON A STONE:'TODAY MY BEST FRIENDSAVED MY LIFE '.THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPEDAND SAVED HIS BEST FRIENDASKED HIM, 'AFTER I HURT YOU,YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?'THE FRIEND REPLIED'WHEN SOMEONE HURTS USWE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWNIN SAND, WHERE WINDS OFFORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOESSOMETHING GOOD FOR US,WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONEWHERE NO WINDCAN EVER ERASE IT.'LEARN TO WRITEYOUR HURTS INT HE SAND AND TOCA RVE YOURBENEFITS IN STONE.THEY SAY IT TAKES AMINUTE TO FIN

My Oh My!
MY OH MY!
i can barely breath
except to whisper "baby"
with a heated urgency
and i'm losing myself just a little bit more
its like falling
but instead of embracing emptiness
i wrap tighter around you
and the landing
pillow soft
like your lips
tracing poetic silence across my flesh
each unspoken word hiding behind gasps
gutteral sounds masking operettas
and your tattooing my soul
MY OH MY!
can we stay like this forever
joined together
flesh and bone
but soul and spirit are racing to keep up
and i think if your there to guide me
i can handle it better
maybe im not losing myself at all
only gaining you in doses
meted out a bit at a time
to cure my ills
MY OH MY
the time has come again to stop thinking
and simply to feel
you and i
becoming we finally
you feel like possesion
you taste like need
and im turning inside out
spiraling in delicious frenzy
holding you closer
becoming so aware of you
and when its all over
i can simply do nothing
the only t

What Women Would Do If They Had A Penis For A Day10. Get ahead faster in corporate America.9. Get a blow job.8. Find out what is so fascinating about beating the meat.7. Pee standing up while talking to other men at a urinal.6. Determine WHY you can't hit the bowl consistently.5. Find out what it's like to be on the other end of a surging orgasm.4. Touch yourself in public without thought as to how improper it may seem.3. Jump up and down naked with an erection to see if it feels as funny as it looks.2. Understand the scientific reason for the light refraction which occurs between a man's eyes and the ruler situated next to his member which causes two inches to be added to the final measurement.1. Repeat number 9......

Bound To Be DifferentI imagine if I had taken one more step
I might have missed the moment I am in now
One less
I would never have this now
Do I really want this now
Its broken and fallin apart
and I can barely make sense of this now
I would rather have missed it
tripped and fallen over it
Run passed it without knowing it ever existed
not a sign..no flashing lights just me
in the middle of a moment
I never really thought I would have...never really wanted to have
And now I cant forget that I stepped here
in this moment
Alone.

I See How You AreI bet you say that to all the boysAnd they fall for it every timeI bet you think that you've got meRight where you want meI see how you are and I love it, I love itI see how you are and I want to be with youI bet you say that to all the menYou think that I'm one of themI bet you think I don't mean itBut all I do is mean itI see how you are and I love it, I love itI see how you are and I want to be like youAnd I'm glad you're protecting yourselfIf it wasn't you I wouldn't trust someone
- 'I See How You Are' Broken Family Band

Women And MenWhy is it when a man wants to get laid all the time it is wrong but when a women wants it it is ok???

Long Time No See!Hi folks, its been ages since have been on here, there has been a very good reason too. basically back in Feb '08 hit a deep pothole which nearly threw me off the bike, but I landed on metal grabrail. Was that hard it has put a step in my coccyx bone, but not only that my lower front pelvis is caving in and the worst thing I cannot be fixed, so am constantly on morphine for pain. So sitting for any length of time is painful. This is why I havent been on here. But have often wondered how you all are my friends and hope life is treating you well. Drop in and say hi. For those of you who are my closer friends, I can give you my email addy and stay in contact that way. Would be nice to hear from you ;) Much love n hugs to you all! Kiddies will be knocking door soon trick or treating, got my witches hat and sweeties at the ready hehehehehe

SexS.E.X. by nickelback......
extremely dirty and hot. and such amazing guitars. I want to learn how to play this and put it on you tube...lol although i feel like i so wont be that hardcore....haha heres the awesome video

Poem
Broken wings,,Shattered thingsTattered heart filled with screams.... One true wish,,One sweet prayerOne soft kiss and he is there.....By strength of heart and light of moon..the touch of souls and love does bloom...Silverthorn68, Oct 31,2009

MeSO I WONDER WHAT LABELS U A GOOD MOTHER?? WHAT LABELS YOU A GOOD PERSON?? I THOUGHT IF YOU RESPECTED OTHER PEOPLE AND THEIR FELINGS, TRY TO LEAD YOUR KIDS IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION..TEACH THE RIGHT FROM WRONG...BUT IF THEY DONT FOLLOW YOUR ADVICE, I PRAY EVERY NGHT THAT GOD WIL WATCH OVER MY KIDS AND HELP LEAD THE PATH.. I THINK GOD SKIPPED ME BY, I THINK HE HAS HIS HEADPHONES ON WHEN I TALK..LIFE IS HARD BEING A SINGLE MOTHER IS HARD NOW IT CHRISTMAS AND I THINK ANY PARENT CAN AGREE THATS THE 1 DAY NOTHING ELSE MATTERS ALL U WANT TO SEE IS THOSE SMILES THE LAUGHS, THE HAPPINESS.... BUT THINGS ARE SO EXPENSIVE THIS SOCIETY ALMOST MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE TO B ABLE 2 DO THAT ANYMORE.... TOYS ARE SO EXPENSIVE... IM SAD IM SAD 85% OF THE TIME THERES ALWAYS LIL WORRIES IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD.. I PUT ON A FACE EVERYDAY AND HOPE FOR THE BEST... GO THROUGH THE MOTIONS TELL PPL YOUR FINE WHEN DEEP DOWN UR HURTING SO MUCH.IM TIRED OF HURTING..WHEN IS IT GONA B MY TIME TO SMILE TO LIKE WHAT I SEE IN TH

Not Always Right | It's All In Your Head(I’m a cashier at the local grocery store. One evening, a customer comes up to my till.)
Me: “Did you find everything okay today, sir?”
Customer: “Yes, thank you, I did.”
(I start scanning his items. Out of nowhere, he grabs the hand-held scanner and points it at his forehead. Naturally, nothing comes up.)
Customer: “Just as I thought. I’m priceless!”

And Then AgainI thought for minute
(actually way more than a minute)
Honestly, I cant run..
Where would I go.....
I am still here.
Then for the instant,
I forgot everything I ever was
Everything I wanted to be
All the things that made me strong don't apply
And I then
I was misplaced..by my own selfish ways
or is it selfless
the songs of others keep playing in my
head
and then I forget the words that were mine
Use theirs instead
You were so beautiful to me
You were shining so bright amongst the others
and then I faded
away
You didnt even see me go
I thought for minute
(it was definately longer than that)
I couldnt feel..
I didnt want to..cause it hurt
I wanted to hide amongst the clouds
be the storm that made you want to dance in the rain
I was the storm that made you sit inside and watch movies all day
The rains song too quiet and the winds only whisper to me
Suddenly I cant breathe
I wanted to run...but the wall stopped me
I thought for minute
(and that is the trou

Love"When you love someone... truely love them, friend or lover, you lay your heart open to them. You give them a part of Yourself that you give to no one else, and you let them inside a part of you that only they can hurt-you literally hand them the raxor with a map of where to cut deepest and most painfully on your heart and soal. And when they do strike, It's crippling-like haveing your heart carved out. It leaves you naked and exposed, wondering what you did to make them want to hurt you so badly when all you did was love them. What is so wrong with you that no one can keep faith with you? That no one can love you? To have it happen once is bad enough... but to have it repeated? Who in their right mind would not be terrified of that?"

'til Death Do Us Part~'Til Death Do Us Part~
Each night that I lie beside you And listen to your dreams I am reborn.
Your closeness invigorates me Assuring me that I'm alive- And that life is worth living.
Each time that I touch you Or feel your lips grace my skin I feel an inconceivable peace Spread throughout my being-
A peace that only you can offer.
Each time that our eyes meet while you hold me I watch your beauty project itself Upon everything around you-
And I am in awe at its power.
Every time that I think of you I begin to dream away the day Reminicing in our yesterdays-
While I envision our tomorrows.
Each minute that passes Every second that we're together Is always just as precious as the last.
It is because of these things That I shall remain forever grateful For the love that you have shown me For the life that you have shared with me-
'Til death do us part

The Things That HappenI finally found a way to tell this tale...I have come to realize I attract strange..and crazy...and things out of the ordinary in the universe...
A long time ago I stopped listening to all the beautiful eyes compliments I have been getting them since I was my daughters age...I have realized the majority of people that say it now..arent complimenting whats behind my eyes...so anyway here it goes
I decided I needed to get outta the house for a while...and take some time to do somethi less than involved so I went to go get some things at the store..ride the mass transit..woohoo for mass transit..that always makes for some incidence in y life...normally I get the chronically intoxicated who become my insta friends...sometimes its the guy who cant stop talkin to himself..suddenly finds himself in a conversation with me and whoever else his mind has created...funny I always wonder if maybe he thinks I am there and doesnt know I really am...Or the girl who stayed up too long doing things th

Love Actually<
you said we'd be forever baby,
but how was i to know,
we cud have stood together baby,
faced the winter snow.
I guess it doent matter baby,
but i think you outta know,
i never love another baby,
i love you so.
where ever i may travel.
ill take you in my heart,
where we'll be forever baby,
i love you so....................................

DoneWhens it my turn to scream and yell and say fuck the world! Everything hits you all at once and your knocked on your ass and your like what the fuck man. Dealing with it all having no one. Then having to be the one to be there for the people that are closest to. Not being able to get to say your fuck the world. Quitely screaming in your head trying to keep it together for the other person. I want to know when the fuck its my fucking turn to have something. Other then someone elses pitty party. Get the fuck over it shit fucking happens. Some of us have real problems to deal with and your not fucking helping. Oh well what the fuck ever. Thats what im here for, a shoulder to cry on. To be truthful, I dont give a fuck about anyone. You dont like it get the fuck over it and jump off a bridge and do everyone a favor. Quit your bitching, I dont care. Fuck you and Fuck the world.
Later

Stranded - 1/28/09
STRANDED
Nothing makes the blade of your mind as sharp as betrayal
Dulling your conscious thought of wrong and right
Before they came to fill you with light
You were stranded, waiting in the tribunal
But here you are now
Breathing in, breathing out; so small a trip
One step, two steps, down the center lane
As you carry the coffer of your soul
Sounds faded and vision blurred
Allowing your deliverance to bear the torn scream of, “YES! This day it will start!”
And so it did
So subtly did it have you consumed
So blatantly cavalier was your assurance
Of the day you would hold them forever
Yes! Forever, they are yours.
No matter their deeds, no matter their lies
The bars of a prison are seen from both sides
Feeling so cold and smooth
As you must remember to be
Here you are, stranded again
Oh, but not for long; lose the couth
Mark every breath, measure every step
Embrace the repetition of that last scene
You know the one
The very one that gleaned th

[one Sunday Down]This is the best Sunday I've ever had where I really didn't do everything I wanted toand started with a nightmare.
My head is killing me, and I just got back from the old folks home
and let me tell youmy gramma is old, crazy and hilarious. Spent the better part of three hours with her talkin about ... hell everything really.
In the meantime, my lips are chapped, and I'm running very low on pain killers. But I've really come to two profound ideas this week.
Sometimes, it really isYOUR fault.
And its not always about you.
*Also, when I go for a walk, please keep your 8 months pregnant twelve year old inside.I don't need to be that depressed on such a sunny day.
At least I'm not doing what I was a year agoand that was probably drinking.Heavilly. Before noon. Let's check shall we?

My PainI loved you, You made me, Hate me. You gave me, Hate see?It saved me, And these tears are deadly. You feel that?I riped that, Everytime you tried to seal that. You feel bad?You feel sad?I'm sorry, hell no fuck that! It was my heart, It was my life, It was my start, It was your knife. This strife it dies, This life and these lies.And these lungs have sung, This song for too long.And it's true I hurt too, Remember I loved you! And I've, lost it all, Fell today, It's all the same. I'm sorry, oh. I'm sorry no, no. And I've, been abused, I feel so used, Because of you. I'm sorry, oh. I'm sorry, no. No.I wish I could I could have quit you.I wish I never missed you, And told you that I loved you, Every time I fucked you. The future that we both drew, And all the shit we've been through. Obsessed with the thought of you, The pain just grew and grew! How could you do this to me? Look at what I made for you. It never was enough and the world is what I gave to you.I used to be love struck, Now I'

For A Fun And Enjoy Able Time For Weddingz,partiez And Barzthis iz for all you laidez and jentz who are lookin for a real life dj for your small partiez, for you bar gigz, and also for you weddingz, we garentee that you will get getin on your lambo feetiez and beatin feet on that dance floor message me and ill give you a set price i will get to you as soon as possible.thank you and peace out everyone this if for people located near my state will be able to work out a deal ill keep ya posted if i can do it ..have a wonderful day

11/1/2009Well as some of you know I am really not around much. I took and am still taking a much needed break from fubar. It isn't anything against anyone and nothing per say is wrong I just need a break. I go through things that are personal and real life of course always comes first, and if you know me then you know I have 2, yes 2 teenage boys, that well are teenagers. So I am ok. I am doing ok. Just going through a patch of life that is a little more difficult than others right now.
I hope you all are well and I miss you my friends and family!!

Yesterday Was Halloween. Merry Christmas!it's that time of year again. i went to walmart last night to get a flat tire fixed, and i had the typical one-hour wait. there was nothing that i needed to buy while i was there, so i spent my time wandering around, looking at all the wondrous crap that other people buy. being male, i was drawn to the hardware department by a force similar to gravity. after browsing the sub-standard tools and listening to a couple argue about paint colors, i found myself in the sporting goods department. considering the balance of my checking account, there was nothing there that i needed. i thought it best to move on, so i wandered into the lawn and garden department where my eyes were assaulted with the sight of an eight-foot tall inflatable santa claus. i looked around, and saw that ALL of the shelves were stocked with ribbons and bows, wrapping paper, and tacky lawn ornaments. at least they weren't playing christmas music...i had a meeting first thing this morning when i arrived at work.

I WantI want to be the first to buy you a Nathan's.
I want to feel the joy, every time, of our first kiss.
I want to know it is because of you that the sun rises.
I want to see the day begin, in your eyes.

Fu-tardsI'm still pretty fucking urked at some shit that happened here yesterday. Even more urked that it happened while I was at work, was informed at work, and because people don't know how to mind their own fucking business.
My #1 is much more than just the color orange. WE are more than just two people on fubar. He's never treated me with anything but kindness and respect and fairness. He's never used his abilities to help me or do favors for me. Ever. He never would. He's probably the fairest bouncer on this damn site. And I've told him a million times, go through my pictures. Flag them if they're NSFW. I don't need nor do I want special treatment on this site. I couldn't possibly care LESS about it. This game is a joke to me anymore, and I'm hardly on or participating because I'm burnt out for the time being. It's time for an unofficial fu-break.
And for the record, I got to my rank and got as many friends/fans as I have because of hard fucking work, countless hours and days of MY time

Doom-doom-doom-doom."Good evening, London. I thought it time we had a little talk. Are you sitting comfortably? Then I'll begin... I suppose you're wondering why I've called you here this evening. Well, you see, I'm not entirely satisfied with your performance lately... I'm afraid your work's been slipping and... and well, I'm afraid we've been thinking about letting you go. Oh, I know, I know. You've been with the company a long time now. Almost... let me see. Almost ten thousand years! My word, doesn't time fly? It seems like only yesterday... I remember the day you commenced your employment, swinging down from the trees, fresh-faced and nervous, a bone clasped in your bristling fist... "Where do I start, sir?", you asked, plaintively. I recalled my exact words: "There's a pile of dinosaur eggs over there, youngster", I said, smiling paternally all the while. "Get sucking". Well, we've certainly come a long way since then, haven't we? And yes, yes, you're right, in all that time you haven't missed a day

Tabula RasaChild criminals have always been a controversial topic, but can someone be born evil?
I believe so. Last week in Fla, several teens doused another one with a lighter fluid, then set him on fire cause of some video game. The kid is now in a hospital with 65% burns all over his body, and has slight chances of survival.
Shit like that just makes me reassured at what bile infested shits humans are. I strongly believe that those kids should be executed, on a spot. With a bullet to the head. They will NEVER be productive members of society, they will NEVER redeem thmselves for what they have done, they will NEVER deserve to live after doing something like this. I think its perfectly fine to take those little monsters out, one by one.

Does It Really Mean That Much To You?So, I've noticed how butthurt people on here can be. FYI: I have a life outside of Fu and I'd like to think the rest of y'all do as well. I don't sit at my computer all day on fu. I get up off my ass and go places and see people. Anyway, I can't always get back to everyone right then and there to rate back, but unfortunatly, some people expect that for some reason, but then when you don't, get all hurt about it and take you off their friends list. This is extremely hysterical to me. I thought this was supposed to be an ADULT site. Example: If you call or text a friend and they don't call or text back right away do you just assume the friendship is over because of that? I certainly hope not otherwise you have some serious issues!!!! LMAO. And yes, I will step away from my computer without telling anyone. I'm not gonna update my status giving every play by play possible! Some people need to seriously grow up, but if not then that's okay, this is so hysterically sad anyway t

Not Always Right | Circular ReasoningGas Station | Germany
(A customer in a big SUV pulls up to the pump. When she gets out, she realizes that her gas tank is on the driver’s side but her passenger’s side is facing the pump.)
Customer: “I bet that’s not gonna work, right?”
Me: “I don’t think so. You’d better try again.”
(She gets back in, drives around the same pump, and gets out. Her gas tank is still on the wrong side.)
Customer: *puzzled* “How come?”
Me: “Let me help you…”

Blind Date SlapAn 85-year-old widow went on a blind date with a 90-year-old man. When she returned to her daughter's house later that night, she seemed upset. "What happened, Mother?" the daughter asked. "I had to slap his face three times!" "You mean he got fresh?" "No," she answered, "I thought he was dead."

Not Always Right | My Neighbor Broke, Can You Fix It?Tech Support | Boulder, CO
Tech Support: “So you’re having issues picking up your wireless signal … how many connections are there?”
Customer: “There’s two other networks but only one bar on each … those are my bad neighbors.”
Tech Support: “So the good signal isn’t there? Hmm, your modem might be off; can we check that?”
Customer: “Modem?”
(Tech support troubleshot that for a while before realizing the guy had never paid for internet before and didn’t own a modem.)
Tech Support: “Sir, when you said the other connections were your ‘bad neighbors…’ Did you mean that the good neighbor with the good signal isn’t there?”
Customer: “Oh, he moved?”

Not Always Right | Four Words: Bow, Chicka, Bow, BowElectronics Store | USA
(Working as a manager for a retail electronics business, I have a customer come in with a DVD player in a box, opened)
Customer: “This DVD player doesn’t work. It won’t play my DVDs. Can I get an exchange?”
Me: “Well, lets see if we can get it to work.”
(I take the DVD player over to the AV wall and quickly hook it up to our system. Under 30 seconds to do so, the customer in tow)
Me: “Oh, here’s the problem. It seems that the disc somehow ended up upside down in the DVD player.”
(I flip the DVD over without even looking at the disc or anything and push it back in, turning back to the customer)
Customer: “Oh great! I knew something wasn’t quite ri…”
(Suddenly, coming up on all my TVs, blaring through the sound system that is usually playing a music DVD, comes blasting ‘Bow Chicka-Bow Bow!’ and a rather grotesque scene of cheesy porn. I think it is the fastest I ha

Not Always Right | Internet = Tubes, Word = SheetsComputer Lab | USA
Woman 1: “What is that little trash can on the screen?”
Woman 2: “My son says that is called the ‘recycle bin’. He tells me when I don’t want a Word document anymore and I delete it, it really goes in there.”
Woman 1: “Why in the recycle thingy? Can’t you just erase it?”
Woman 2: “Oh no, Word wouldn’t work for very long if I did that, I would run out of blank pages.”
Woman 1: “Why?”
Woman 2: “Because it cleans the words off the pages, then sends the blank sheets back to Word so they can be used again. That’s why it’s called the recycle bin.”

Not Always Right | For The Money I Pay, It Should Drive ItselfCall Center | Washington, USA
Customer: “Hi, I have a Mercedes. How do I adjust my rear view mirror?”
Me: (Wasn’t sure if she was serious) “Well, you must manually adjust your rear view mirror.”
Customer: “What do you mean?”
Me: “Umm…take your hand and move the mirror so you can see.”

Not Always Right | Time To Call The PlumberTech Support | Tel Aviv, Israel
Me: “Internet helpdesk, how can I help you?”
Customer: “I can’t connect to the internet.”
Me: “How long has it been since you last connected?”
Customer: “I was connected until a few minutes ago.”
Me: “Have you changed anything in your network?”
Customer: “Well, I was downloading some movies over the net, but the download got too slow. I called a friend of mine and he told me that some movies could’ve gotten stuck in the cable. So I cut the cable to see if I could yank it out of there. I didn’t find anything, so I taped the cable back together. Now, can you get it back to work?”
Me: *grimace*

Not Always Right | Why Can't You Be OmniscientTravel Agent | Tampa, FL, USA
Customer: “Do other places besides Disney sell Disney tickets?”
Me: “I believe so, but I only have information about the tickets we sell.”
Customer: “How much do other places charge?”
Me: “I don’t have any information on other ticket resellers.”
Customer: “Is it cheaper if I buy tickets somewhere else?”
Me: “Sir, I don’t know anything about other places, only Disney.”
Customer: “Will they add the no expiration option for me?”
Me: “I don’t know.”
Customer: “Can you give me names and contact information for other ticket places?”
Me: “Sir, I can only help you if you wish to purchase tickets directly from Disney.”
Customer: “I don’t understand why you’re being unhelpful!”

Working The Drive-thruI was working the morning shift at McDonalds, frying up eggs and such. One day the carline cashier didn't show up so the manager said "You been a drive-thru cashier before, haven't you?" "Yes but I don't want to do that again.""Too bad, you're going anyhow." "Okay but I don't want to be a drive thru cashier, just so you know."
So after showing me the very basic how-to's and whatfor's he was standing there for support. This snot-nosed punk high schooler driving fancy car his parents probably bought for him, plays the big-shot for his girlfriend in passenger seat, pays for his order and then waves off the 12 cent change he had coming. "Keep it"
"Oh! Wow! Thank you, now I'll be able to attend college!"
Manger wasn't happy "You can't be saying that to the customers."
My manager put me back on the egg grill, which is where I wanted to be in the first place. :D

Not Always Right | Of All The Moments For Freud To SlipMovie Cinema | Australia
(I was working the candy bar when a I was approached by a man seeing Bridge to Terabithia with two young kids. He points to the popcorn machine:)
Customer: “I’ll have two boxes of cockporn, please.”
(There was a two second pause as the customer’s eyes went wide with horror…and then I started to laugh. He got the popcorn and ran upstairs, with me standing behind the counter with tears running down my face.)
From the Not Always Right store:
Cockporn Tee

Not Always Right | Dude, That Must Be Some Strong WeedKey Shop | Chicago, USA
(Early 1970’s. I make a key for a guy who lost car keys in the mall parking lot.)
Me: “Well, that will be $10.00 for the key and labor but another key will be only 79 cents.”
Customer: “Ah, no man, I need my money to get my weed.”
(A week later, same deal. I have to go out in the rain and make the same guy another key.)
Me: “Well I’m sure that now you will get an extra key?”
Customer: “Ah, no man, I need my money to get my weed.”
(Well I can spot a trend, so I make another key anyway and hang it up in the shop.)
(Over the next 6 months he is back a dozen times and I just copy the key hanging in the shop and charge him for the lockwork and the key. He never buys a second key.)
(I guess the weed finally got him.)

Not Always Right | Aggression IssuesTech Support | Tokyo, Japan
Me, checking a customer’s network connection: “…so you double-click with the left button of your mouse on the Local Area Connection icon.”
Customer: “What? Double-kick?”
Me: “No, double-click; I mean you click twice, consecutively with the left button of your mouse on the Local Area Connection icon.”
Customer: “Double-kick?”
Me: “Yes, double-kick your monitor.”

Not Always Right | We Need One Of These In Every StoreHardware Store | Vancouver Island, Canada
Employee: *making out a rain check* “Okay, so I’m just going to look on the computer and check if any other locations have this item.”
Nice customer: “Okay, thanks.”
Angry customer: “Stop f***ing socializing and do your g**d*** job!”
Employee: “Sir, please don’t be abusive, I’m just checking our other loc-”
Angry customer: “I don’t care! DO YOUR JOB!”
(At this point, the angry customer moves toward the counter in a very threatening way. The customer behind HIM, a super-fit guy in a UFC jacket, steps in. Mr. UFC grabs the angry customer in a CHOKE HOLD and drags him outside, followed quickly by management, and to the applause of the staff and customers inside the store.)
(The angry customer was banned from the store and Mr. UFC got a gift card.)

Not Always Right | How The Ds Rpg Killed The EsrbVideo Game Store | Cincinnati, OH, USA
(Customer brings a mediocre role playing game for the Nintendo DS up to the counter.)
Customer: “Hey, would this game be good for an eight year old?”
Me: “Well, does he like RPGs?”
Customer: “Oh, I don’t let him watch anything rated R.”
Me: “Oh…I mean, does he like role playing games?”
Customer: “Whats that? That like one of them Mario games?”
Me: “No, it’s one where you follow a story line and usually has a lot of reading, like Final Fantasy. Has he ever played anything like that before?”
Customer: “Oh, he don’t read books. And I don’t like that it’s rated R and PG.”

Not Always Right | Age Ain't Nothing But A NumberHelp Desk | Texas, USA
(Yet another power cord/paint dispenser story…)
Me: “Okay, it’s not plugged in.”
Him: “It’s plugged in–it goes right to the back of the computer!”
Me: “No, that’s a serial cable, not a power cable.”
Him: “What’s this orange one then?”
Me: “That connects the computer to the network. It’s also not a power cable and doesn’t connect to the dispenser anyway. The one for the dispenser is black and has a three-prong plug on the end.”
Him: “Listen to me, young lady, I have been on this earth for 56 years and I know what a power cord looks like!”
Me: “Yes, well, I’ve been on this earth 34 years and I know that some things have to be plugged into an outlet to work.”
Him: …
Me: …
Him: “Oh. There it is. Okay, it’s working now. Thanks.”

Not Always Right | Playing AlongPizza | Portland, OR, USA
Me: “Welcome to *** Pizza, how can I help you?”
Customer (sincerely): “Do you have any Chinese food?”
Me: “Errr…no.”
Customer (still earnest): “Ohhh…really? What about Thai food?”
Me: “Oh! Yes.”
Customer: “Really?”
Me: “No. Not really. Just pizza.”

Not Always Right | More Slippage (freud)Movie Theater | Greenwood, IN, USA
(I was working another very long day right after March of the Penguins had come out , stuck in the box office, when a sweet looking little old lady and her sweet little old lady friend walked up to the window.)
Me: “Hello, how can I help you today?”
Old lady: “Hello sweetie. I’d like one senior for March of the Penises.”
Little old lady friend: “Oh my God…” *shocked, puts hand up to mouth, whispers to friend*
Me: “I think you might have the wrong theater…”

Not Always Right | Listen For Manager At The EndPizza | Illinois, USA
(I work at a well known pizza chain; let’s call it Daddy Jim’s.)
Customer: “I’d like a large sausage and ham pizza and a large Italian Meats Trio.”
Me: “Alright, your total is $**.**. We’ll have it out there in about 45 minutes.”
(An hour later as I arrive back from the delivery, the store receives a phone call from the same customer.)
Customer: “Yeah, hi. I ordered an Italian Meats Trio pizza, and you guys got it wrong.”
Me: “How did we get it wrong?”
Customer: “Well, it has sausage, ham, and some other sh*t on it.”
Me: “Is the ham kind of orange?”
Customer: “Yeah.”
Me: “Is the sausage peppered and brownish-orange?”
Customer: “Uh….yeah.”
Me: “Is the other stuff salami?”
Customer: “Yeah! What the hell?”
Me: “Well, the orange ham is Italian ham, the sausage is Italian sausage, and you

Inside It Hurtpushed away for too long, little bastard child I amno easy thing this life of sorrownot just to survive, but to thrivemy mind is in dismaymy heart is in demiseI show this world my propagandataken for truththis masterpiece must go onburying my soul wishing for deaths holdbegging to be savedthe worst of it all, the pain comes again tomorrow.

(h)Finally
You were all I could think about , You snuck into my dreams ,You made me feel like a beautiful woman inside , When you stopped & stared at me ,You played games with your eyes like you were in disguise, Hiding from me like a child,I thought I really loved you , I thought that it was really true , I thought there was a man inside of you....

Her MomIn another blog I wrote about Sandy, This is about her mom Terry.
Terry was 33 (she had Sandy when she was 15) and had two other daughters ages 16 & 14 and a son 12.
I went to their house one afternoon to pick up Sandy and Terry told me that she wasn't there but would be back in little while, she went to get the kids. Terry was wearing a bathrobe and drinking from a bottle of wine. She invited me in to wait. I sat in a chair in livingroom and Terry flopped down on the sofa. When she did her robe came open a little and it appeared that she wasn't wearing much under it if she was wearing anything at all. There was some soft porn movie on tv and Terry started to touch herself lightly. Between the movie and her I was getting a little turned on so dropped my hand to my crotch and gave it a little squeeze. Terry sat up, letting the robe all the way and asked me if I saw anything I like. I said "yeah" and she began to finger her pussy and pinch her nipples. Terry then said I could take jac

9 More Stupid Things...1) I'm really close to morally baseless...or bankrupt. No, I'm serious...don't ask me "Would you ever...?" because you probably don't want the answer.
Or you do want the answer, you filthy perverts.
2) Yes I know you're 18 and you're really proud of your tits...but chances are I hit on your mom years ago, so don't be insulted when I tell you to put them away.
3) Okay, your purposly misspelled name is very witty. Happy now es "CummingToGetchu" is very clever...
4) I know more about music than you do. Just move on.
5) Tom Waits owns you...and PWNZ J00
6) The quickest way to my heart is directly through the thoracic cavity.
7) No I don't want to see your shitty tattoos. Yes I know I know you can see mine when I wear shorts...trust me, it's not an invitation.
8) Yes it fucking hurt...I stick metal through my face...just think for a moment before you ask.
9) And yes...it's exactly that thick.

Me And UThinking today about love, and first dates, where people wanna meet and which things u rather not do on a date and which things you love to do on a date :) *
*Dinner is great to get to know eachother :)
* be honest :)
Honesty people honesty :)

Me And U Date Tips Maybe..im thinking fo when u want to date someone what can u say or do?
and tip
movie is nive but i wouldnt do that on a first date
maybe meet and and have a great dinner or just talk,take a walk,buy your date a coffee and have a good time :)

Political 2Sitting here bored yet again...
Update from blog
http://www.fubar.com/blog/15189/1080386
... okay the guy I voted for won, so Mike Bloomberg the republican candidate is now mayor of NYC.. though it was not the 15-20 point lead he was expecting over Democrat Bill Thompson, he only won by 5 points...
...yea only posted new cause friend wanted to know who won... now that I think about it I could of just updated previous blog and not worry about it... oh well too late..well it will be when i click post.. but should I click post...should I go back and update.. lmao bored....
Lmao, the two people running for mayor who were "Independents" like Myself, got zero percent of the votes... damn will a non conservative or liberal ever win office

Not Always Right | Depth Perception Strikes Again Part 2Sign Installer | Seattle, WA, USA
(The following took place outside a small dentist’s office. The client requested an electric sign that that was a full-color copy of their business card, it took four weeks to fabricate and cost $3500.)
Dentist’s Wife: “Wow, that turned out JUST perfect! My husband is going to be so pleased to see that up when he gets back.”
Me: “I’m glad you like it, we’re very happy how it all came together.”
(A crane truck and two installers hoist the sign in the air, attach it to the 16′ pole and turn the lighting on.)
Dentist’s Wife: “Oh wait, that’s…that’s not right, you need to take it down now, I don’t believe this!! I want our money back!”
Me: “Ma’am? What’s wrong?”
Dentist’s Wife: “Well look at it, will you? It’s not right, it’s not the same as our card.”
Me, pulling out my paperwork: “Now ma&rsq

Not Always Right | What A Concept: Ice Cream That MeltsIce Cream Shop | Sweden
(Hot summer day temperature in the nineties. Tons of people in line because the shop is in an amusement park and everybody wants soft ice cream, which makes the soft ice even softer as it doesn’t have time to chill properly.)
Male customer, who bought soft ice cream for his family 30 min or so earlier, comes up to the window very upset: “The soft ice cream is melting! My kids are a total mess!”
Me: “Well, it is hot outside, what are you gonna do?”
Customer: “You should put up a sign to let people know that it will melt!”
Me: “I don’t assume my customers are idiots.”
(Customer bangs the ice cream cone on the counter and storms off.)
The next customer in line looks at me and laughs: “I’ll guess I’ll just have the regular ice cream then.”

Not Always Right | Qwerty Makes Me Go AsdfasdfLibrary | Ohio, USA
Library Patron: “I need some help comparing heating prices.”
Me: “Okay, let me show you a website where you can compare the different gas companies.”
(Leads patron to computer, and types in website address.)
Me: “Here you go. Just type in your information.”
Library Patron, looking at keyboard: “These letters are all mixed up!”
Me: “Uh, well…”
Library Patron: “Have they always been like this?”
Me: “Only since the 1800’s. Here, let me do the typing.”

Not Always Right | Having A Hussie FitSports Bar | Michigan, USA
Me: “Here’s your lemonade sir, what can I get you to eat?”
Customer: “I’ll have a bowl of chili.”
(I walk to the back of the restaurant get bowl of chili and take it to him. This takes all of one minute.)
Customer, angrily: “That took far too long. Did you socialize with the other hussies that work here on your way?”
Me: “No, sir. That’s how long it takes to walk back and get the chili.”
Customer: “I’m not paying for any of this.”
(He then gets up to storm out the front door but instead runs into the door that has the “Use Other Door” sign on it. The “hussies” and I didn’t stop laughing for a good 20 minutes.)

Not Always Right | MeatheadedSupermarket | UK
(A customer walks up to counter and stares at produce.)
Customer: “Don’t you have any vegetarian sausages?”
Me: “This is a meat counter; we only have meat. We should have some prepacked though.”
Customer: “But, I want to buy from here. Why don’t you sell them?”
Me: “We only have meat on the meat counter, I’m afraid. Is there anything else you would like?”
Customer: “Do you have tofu burgers here??”
Me: “…”

Not Always Right | Let's Hope The Covenant Hates Rock N RollToy Store | Fairfax, VA, USA
(To provide some context, we have a display for Guitar Hero 3 set up which, among other things, has a playable guitar, a big huge sign that says GUITAR HERO 3, and a display “case” that has the guitar from the game and the game set up to look real pretty.)
Customer: “Hi, I’m not sure what my son wanted, it was something 3…Hylo…”
Me: “Halo 3?”
Customer: “Yeah, that’s it! Do you have that?”
Me: “Sure, it’s just in the back, let me go grab a copy.”
(After I go in the back and grab a copy…)
Customer: “Wait a minute, where’s the guitar? I want the one with the guitar.”
Me: “Uh… oh, you must’ve been looking for Guitar Hero 3! I don’t have the one bundled with the guitar right now, but if you already have the guitar you can buy just the game.”
Customer: “No, you do, it’s over here!”
Me: &

A Lonely GirlAs a lonely girl,I only want one thingAll I want,Is to be seenAs a lonely girl,I have not been many placesIn my lonely life,I have seen very few facesAs a lonely girl,No one notices meThey just pass me by,As if there is no one there to seeAs a lonely girl,I have changed my mindNow what I want,Is to end my own lifeAs a lonely girl,The only one could change my lonely mindIs someone I could trust,Someone who is warm and kindAs a lonely girl,I want someone to holdSome who will love me,And be there without being toldAs a lonely girl,This was all I wanted…As a lonely girl,I was disappointed…You... don't... want me...

Mmmmmm IceYou and your girlfriend are in bed relaxing before you fall asleep. She takes a drink of her iced tea and an ice cube slips into her mouth. She slides her body down the bed until her head was between your bare legs and your semi erect cock near her mouth. She looks up at you with a mischievous look in her eyes and slips her mouth around your cock. The freezing cold ice moves around your cock in her mouth and the heat of her mouth cause your cock to swell to new proportions. the sensations of the ice, her tongue and the heat of her mouth are too much. You thrust deeper into her mouth, grabbing her hair as she continues to suck and lick you into oblivion. You thrust hard one last time and spill your seed deep into her mouth. She swallows every last drop and smiles up at you.

Starrun right through without remorse scarred right through into the sourcegluing patches on your sores, the glue you use was once my horseyou're a stitch work of disgust your uselessnesss is all i trusteverything's a fucking hurdle goddamn blood is fucking curdledenlightenment has brought me hate i do not like this fucking placethis place is run by fucking fools usually the ones with the biggest toolsdejected and hollowrejected you swallow kill yourself nowkill yourself before you kill anybody else i wish that there were less of you out on the streetcontrolling everthing to fill your fucking needskill your fucking self and we'll just call it evenwe don't need youtake another pill and punch the fucking wallkick us all around like we're your fucking dogsure to take us down when you fucking fallwe don't want youyou're human fucking garbage and you fucking know itsure to take us hostage if you can't fucking stall it i just wanna kill and just fucking die just fucking die we don't want youwe d

Crawltwistand thrashand tear the fuck awaymade of scrapsof the flesh that's savedrippingand thrashingin a mound of hatethere's no forgivenessthere's no forgiveness for shame crawlon broken glassfallit's your last chance devour your temple now worship my shityour deity rots in the bowels of the pitthere is no salvation and nobody caresthere is no redemption there's only the echoing despairare you there? crawlon broken glassdestroy your skinit's your last chancefalland shed your blood and wage your war againstthesun save me?fuck you dive into disastergrind off the rust devine confrontationyou crumble, like so much dust i've travelled through the blister streamthrough broken spells and haunted dreamspassing through withered seamsreality's not what you think crawlon broken glassdestroy your skinit's your last chancefalland shed your blood and wage your war againstthesun

Potential.there's so much there,
awaiting us to look around, and grasp it.
But we sit, and stare.
and stare, and sit.
And it passes us by
day after day after similar day.
And one day we'll wake up
20 30 40 50 60 70 80 90 dead.
5 seconds later is too fucking late.
Motivation seems leagues beneath us,
unobtainable.
It's all so intangible.

Not Always Right | Ah, Parents...Sandwich Shop | Rhode Island, USA
(The phone rings at around 6-ish.)
Me: “Hello, this is D-…”
(I hear loud crying in the background.)
Man: “Hello, Disney World? I’m just calling to say that if my children don’t finish their vegetables in the next five minutes, we won’t be visiting you this year.”
Me: “I…er…what?”
Man: *whispering* “Thank you.” *click*

Not Always Right | Prime Rib With Side Of SadomasochismRestaurant | North Carolina, USA
(As I serve an order of prime rib with a side of mushrooms…)
Customer: “Ohhh, ewww!”
Me: “Is there a problem, ma’am?”
Customer: “Not really, I just don’t like mushrooms.”
Me: “I’m sorry, but I thought you ordered the mushrooms.”
Customer: “Oh, I did. But I just don’t like mushrooms.”

Going Back To What We Know I am guilty of this just like we all r, we go back to what we know. Ex-boyfriend, girlfriend, wife, husband, or lover. For reason we forget why the relationship ended in the first place and months or years later we decide that maybe things will be better this time, but it isnt. You get past the newest of it all, the thrill, the love lost moment and its the same old stuff it was before. Is it that we only remember the good times in our heads? Are we still holding on to that love we wish we knew or that we thought we knew? I guess its better to just let it go, because it never works out in the end. Unless you can solve the situation within a 3 three weeks of less, I would say that love has gone. Who is to say, I know I thing I'm done going back,,,,,don't think theres anyone left, ha ha

I Forgot My HelmetI despise how my brain works.
It doesn't matter if I've studied a certain subject for years. If I don't apply it EVERYDAY, I forget. Same with people. I could know someone for 10 years. If I haven't seen or talked to them in 2, I forget their name.
THAT IS HORRID TO ME.
That ridiculous phrase "If you don't use it, you lose it" was thought up with me in mind :P
I'm not so arragont to truly believe I'm the only one who has this issue. I am, however, the only one stuck with this brain. Ugh.
Me done now. Me go play.
-REL

A Poet's Death Is His LifeThe dark wings of night enfolded the city upon which Nature had spread a pure white garment of snow; and men deserted the streets for their houses in search of warmth, while the north wind probed in contemplation of laying waste the gardens. There in the suburb stood an old hut heavily laden with snow and on the verge of falling. In a dark recess of that hovel was a poor bed in which a dying youth was lying, staring at the dim light of his oil lamp, made to flicker by the entering winds. He a man in the spring of life who foresaw fully that the peaceful hour of freeing himself from the clutches of life was fast nearing. He was awaiting Death's visit gratefully, and upon his pale face appeared the dawn of hope; and on his lops a sorrowful smile; and in his eyes forgiveness. He was poet perishing from hunger in the city of living rich. He was placed in the earthly world to enliven the heart of man with his beautiful and profound sayings. He as noble soul, sent by the Goddess of Understan

Not Always Right | The Endless LoopyVideo Rental | Chicago, IL, USA
Man on phone: “Hi, I don’t think this DVD is working properly.”
Me: “What happened, exactly?”
Man on phone: “We put it in and it plays, but the movie is only a couple minutes long and then it starts over again.”
Me: “Are there any words on the screen?”
Man on phone: “Yes. The title of the movie and some other things.”
Me: “Is there a word that says Play or Play Movie?”
Man on phone: “Yes.”
Me: “Just hit the play button on you remote control or DVD player.”
Man on phone: “Wow! Thanks! It’s doing something else now. I just thought it was a short movie.”

Not Always Right | The Joy Of Sex(ism) Part 2Video Game Store | Akron, OH, USA
(I’m a girl, and I work in a video game store.)
Dude: “Are you guys hiring?”
Me: “No, we just let some people go actually.”
Dude: “Oh, I assumed they were desperate. I mean, they hired a girl.”
Me: “I’ve worked here for 3 years.”
Dude: “Oh, well can I ask the manager anyway?”
Me: “Sure, he’s standing right over there.” *points to next register*
Manager: “Don’t even ask. You just insulted my assistant manager.”

Not Always Right | Customer To The RescueRetail | Boone, IA, USA
(I was currently working in the electronics section of a discount super store, who’s favorite color use to be blue, when I was approached by a customer, which was surprising since the state was being hit by a significantly large ice storm.)
Customer: “Hi, I’d like to pick up my pictures.”
Me: “Hmm…it seems they aren’t in yet, when did you send them out?”
Customer: *very angry* “They were supposed to be in today!”
Me: “I’m sorry sir, but the lab where they are processed is hours away and its too dangerous for the drivers to be out on the roads today.”
Customer: “Well I made it, how come they can’t?”
Me: “Sir, you live on the street behind the building, which is a much shorter and safer distance compared to the over 120 miles the driver would have to drive, especially on roads that not even emergency vehicles won’t go onto.”
Customer: “I

Dummy's Guide To Capping A MobsterDummy's Guide To Capping a Mobster
A.) Introduction and The Basics So, you made the poor choice of joining the underground life of the Mafia, eh? Couldn't afford the money to go to Fu-College to be a professional MuMMers, hm? Well, if you're gonna be a mobster, you might as well be good at it. That's were I come in. ;) The goal of this little guide here is to turn you from your panzy ass into a war machine- or something like that. I'll hand you the Uzi of Knowledge, and hopefully you'll use it in an efficient manner that won't put me to shame. Let's shank 'em! First things first, you need to know and understand the first 7 Main statuses of the game: 1.) Your Health: This starts at an ever original 100. Your goal is to bring down other people's health whilst keeping yours up- in most cases. If your health falls below 20%, you're able to do jack in terms of attacking another player, but others also can't hurt you, as well. A double edge sword. 2.) Your Energy: This allows you to do

Poem By Shia. Thanks Sugar.My heart aches for the sweet glance of the repears face as he entices my soul, forever lost in his hold...please death, do not let go.

What Now?what happens when you get what you have always urned for? Ill tell ya. You finally can accept that every thing is going to be okay. All your worrys are wipped away for awhile. Colors get brighter and people get less annoying. Ur confidense will rise to a new level ( like I relly need that) The void that you have always wanted to fill is flooded with warm fuzzy things and u can actually feel them sometimes and it tickles.
Your goals get bigger because u get the feeling theat you can do anything and in my case as an alcoholic everything. Every reason to feel like shit is gone. I dont have a reason to pout, or feel unworthy. I cant get down on myself because she wont let me. Doug smith told me once if ur in hell keep on walkin. I crawled and took every lash and poke from the demons i had created and loved and cared for in my own little version of the place. I wasnt a god in my world i was a slave. And liked it. sic huh.
thats all changed i am now probably the HAPPIEST gu

The Flow {you Probably Don't Wanna See This}since I'm usually a miserable bitch, I don't notice the PMS really. yes, I do get slightly more of an attitude, but I blame that on the horniness. OMG do I get ever so desiring sex during that icky time. there may be a day or so that I feel horrible with nausea or fever like stuff, but nothing too bad. this is such a glorious time for me. not because I want it all the time and that makes me wanna be a naughty slut, but I like the way I feel when I'm horny ALL the time. *shrugs* there are a lot of times that I ignore those feelings. not being with someone makes sex kinda um not happening, yano. the sad part about a lot of things is that, for the most part, I'm not sure how people behave. like, I don't interact enough to understand um...people. where was I going with this? anyway, I'll be rawr for a little while. please don't test me or try to hurt my feelings and stuff cause I have been super sensitive lately and taking things way too seriously. thankfully my friends(yes, you know who y

Novemer 5,2009TODAY IS THE DAY BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY....
I STILL HAVENT HEARD FROM HIM ,EXCEPT FOR THAT FIRST NGHT AWAY....
THERES NO WAY TO CONTACT HIM,,NO CELL####
I LEFT LETTERS ON HERE & MYSPACE,
HELL IVE EVEN POSTED VIDEOS ON UTUBE,,LOL
I STILL HAVENT EATEN,OR SLEPT......................
I STILL DONT KNOW WHAT WENT WRONG
I STILL WEAR HIS CLOTHES AT NIGHT,,
I STILL HAVE HIS PICTURE AS THE SCREEN SAVER
BUY I DID FIND ANOTHER SONG TO CRY TO,,,,,
EVANASCENCE,"MY IMMORTAL"
YEAH THATS A TEARFUL ONE
I MISS HIM SO MUCH,,I LOVE HIM SO DEEPLY
~~ I LOVE YOU MARK~~~

Pure AwesomenessSo I discovered something today. FM radio in Pakistan. With Indian hip hop. The unintentional comedy factor was through the roof.

FuryAnger burning inside of you, You try not to let it show. You keep your anger bottled up, No one will ever know. Always avoiding others, You try not to explode. Next thing you know, Your lashing out. You've hurt someone. You can't take it back, Everyone turns away as you walk by in the hall. And now you've lost it all....

Debbullan's 4 Announcements For Nov,09 And New Year 2010Dear Supporters of Debbullan Inc.:For your good information, please find 4 important announcements listed below:
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[The Botox business model "created an unacceptable and unreasonable risk of serious and debilitating injuries and illnesses, including HIV and Hepatitis B and C," states the lawsuit, filed Sept. 29 in U.S. District Court for the Central District of California.]["The possibilities of infection, given what is going on when it comes to injecting Botox by whomever, are terrifying," Garcia said."We're not talking about 40,000 o

Remember.Remember, remember the Fifth of November,The Gunpowder Treason and Plot,I know of no reasonWhy the Gunpowder TreasonShould ever be forgot.Guy Fawkes, Guy Fawkes, t'was his intentTo blow up the King and Parli'ment.Three-score barrels of powder belowTo prove old England's overthrow;By God's providence he was catch'd (or by God's mercy*)With a dark lantern and burning match.Holloa boys, holloa boys, let the bells ring. (Holla*)Holloa boys, holloa boys, God save the King!And what should we do with him? Burn him!

My DateWell, I guess I should write a little something about the date I went on Tuesday night. . .
We met at the movie theater around 9:20 and saw “Where the Wild things Are,” which was a pretty good show, I can't believe I have never read the book. After the movie we stood in the parking lot talking until around 12:45 PM and at that point we both left in our own cars.
There was no kissing, no real planing on the next time we would get together, there wasn't even any hand holding. I gave him a good night hug and that was that.
Yeah I'm not good on dates, because I tend to not know when to shut up, but oh well life will go on.
So yeah that was my big date on Tuesday night, how not so eventful.

I Am A Dominant ManI am a dominant man. I am just that. I am not dominant because of any superiority on my part. Not because I feel more intelligent or wiser. I am not dominant because of the strength or the mass of my body. I am not, nor would I want to be dominant with all women. Yet, to you I am Master.I am your Master only after earning your trust and I embrace your submissiveness. I have looked into your heart and mind, and clearly see your desires and passions. You have thrown away your desires and passions. You have thrown away your fears and inhibitions. You tell me of the needs of your heart and body. You have given me total access to your soul, and I accept the responsibility and honor.You are a woman. You are not weak or inferior because of it. You are a treasure to be cherished. We are not equal. I have the strength of body and mind and the instinctive need to protect, possess, defend,and provide for you. You are a woman and instinctively stronger of will and heart. Your belief in me gives me

Days Go ByDays go by and seem to change every second. Each second being more precious than the first one. Friends come, then they go...someone says I love you, then they have found another. Life has it's turns to where you barely can see...even in the brightest light. Sometimes, you question where to go, what to do..but in the end..there is nothing you can do but try. To everyone that reads this, know I care about every single person that comes into my life...I cherish each of them in different ways. I would give my last dimes to help friends in need...and do all the time. I do not ask for much, just hope to see a smile on their face...even if they truely don't appreciate what is given. I feel good knowing that I am a good person. That my life, no matter how hard it is, is not all horrible. At the end of the day, my soul is pure, and good. And I, wouldn't trade mine, for anything else in the world.

Anti-christNot many people know about this film...and I suppose in good reason.
It's a highly controversial film starring Willam Dafoe.
Just to quickly graze over the plot:
A man and woman (who are not given names...their credited as 'he' and 'she') lose their child in an accident and the woman is stricken by grief.
I shouldn't say more but I will say most of the film takes place in a cabin located in a place called Eden.
One of the main concepts of the film is that nature is Satan's playground, and visually this shows.
Here's the tough part about this...I don't know how I fully feel about the movie. I'm so on the fence about it and I'm afraid to actually recommend it to anyone because they could very well hate me for doing so. So...I think this is the best way to do it...
I dare you to watch Anti-Christ.
It has some absolutely amazing shots. Simply put, their beautiful. On the other hand, it has some scenes that are terrifying, wrong and disgusting.
I'll give it a 7/10.
I'd give it a h

Love"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two." -St. Augustine
from the movie Captain Corelli's Mandolin, great movie :)

Work In Progress...eepPROLOGUE The latch to the window popped open and a dark figure let himself slip inside. His silhouette was framed by the moonlit sky seen through the widow. Slowly he shuffled across the bedrooms floor, avoiding the toys scattered. His movements so quiet, not stirring the child in the car-bed at all. For a moment, perhaps more the figure loomed over the child scrutinizing with his steady eyes... Into the hallway the dark figure went, finding a larger bedroom. The large room was just that. It felt barren compared to the other rooms the dark figure had visited on his travels. There was a lot of vast open space, a bed pressed against the wall in the center of the room. To the right of it was a nightstand with a small desk lamp. All these features just silhouettes but the dark figure knew. After-all, this wasn't his first break-in. If he was to let himself be known that he had visited, it would be deliberate, not some slip up. The dark figure would make no mistakes, rest easy, he ma

Be With You
Monday night, and I feel so low,I count the hours, but they go so slow.I know the sound of your voice, can save my soul.City lights, the streets are gold.Looked down my window to the world below.Move so fast, but it feels so coldAnd I am all alone, Don’t let me die, I’m losing my mind,Baby, just give me a sign.And now that you’re gone, I just wanna be with you.(Be with you)And I can’t go on, I wanna be with you.Wanna be with you..I can’t sleep, I’m up all night.Through these tears, I try to smile.I know, the touch of your hand, can save my life.But don’t let me down, come to me now,I got to be with you some how.And now that you’re gone, I just wanna be with you.(Be with you)And I can’t go on, I wanna be with you.(Be with you)Wanna be with you.Don’t let me down,Come to me now.I got to be with you some how.And now that you’re gone,Who am I without you now?I can’t go on, I just wanna be with you.And now that you&rs

The BlameAll the pain, all the the hurt that i see them going through! Its hard to breath when all i feel is soo empty and hollow.. Just please pain go away and leave me here to rot all alone in this forsaken place.. People i have hurt,, how could ii!! All the times i have pushed the good people away! No more smile.. All now that exist in these eyes is hollownness that does not care for life. Lock me in a cage of hell so i cannot see the light again! For i do not deserve it!! Blame me for all the pain!!! Why do i feel so lost now!! was i once filled with hope!! The blame will add on to theses million scars!!! i scream for the pain to just kill me!! i cant take all this regret and blame!! just goo!! i yell.. I have fallen now!! please goooo!!!!!! The blame eats at me like a animal hungry for blood!!1 no smile now now that lives a lost boy that may never find the light again and die with all the hurt and pain and blame of the fallen now. so goo i yell and forget me! but the

Price!So much pain so much hurt, It all seems to built up into my caged animal. Then when my animal comes out pain comes to others. But yet i am here to help others. and help i do! But why must i have this curse of feelings others pain and knowing what they are going through! people say its my gift! GIFT!! i say no gift, its a curse. Yes i maybe able to help them but i can feel there pain. And i help them. They thank me and compare me to great things in which i am not. My price for this is my animal is becoming numbed to feeling. Now it seems as if i am slowly giving up on hope. Price and pay! And now the damage is starting to show. the scars are beginning to appear now! And now all the pain begans to bleed all again. I am paying my price for not caring for me and regreting on everything that i have done! paid the sacrifice to just help others and not care for me. And paid i am being! But must i continue this dreadfull pay! How can i solve such a burdon. The pain

Girls Vs WomenGirls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and make plans.Grown women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in where he fits in.Girls want to control the man in their life.Grown women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling.Girls check you for not calling them.Grown women are too busy to realize you hadn't.Girls try to put a man 'on lock' by using sex.Grown women know that it's the sex of the mental kind that makes a manwant to 'lock' you down.Girls fake-moan, lay there and take the stabbing.Grown women say, "Just stop", get up, get dressed and walk it out.Girls are afraid to be alone.Grown women revel in it--using it as a time for personal growth.Girls ignore the good guys.Grown women ignore the bad guys.Girls make you come.Grown women make you come home.Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.Girls try to monopolize all their man's time

TimeIt is said, that a long time ago there was an island. And on this island lived all the Feelings and Human Values: Happiness, Sadness, Wisdom... and like all others Love.One day it was announced to the Feelings that the island was about to sink so they all prepared their boats to leave.Only Love remained til the very last minute.When the island was at its point of sinking, Love decided to ask for help.Richness passed by Love in a luxurious boat.Love said: "Richness, can you take me with you?""No I can't, said Richness. Because I have a lot of gold and silver on my boat and I have no room for you."Then Love decided to ask Ego for help as he was passing by in a gorgeous boat."Ego, can you please take me with you?""I can't help you Love, said Ego. Here everything is perfect and you might break my boat."Then Love begged Sadness:"Sadness, please let me come with you!""Oh Love, said Sadness, I am so sad I must remain alone."Even Happiness passed by Love, but she was to content to even hear th

DiseaseWhere do you run? Where do you go? What are you supposed to do? When you are killing yourself Inside out I know I can win I can beat my body But I am not safe In my own skin Please body, please Don’t let me down today Not today Will I be weak? Is death in three years? Or three days? You take away my hair You steal my freedom You seize my innocence And possibly my future But you cannot take my hope I have faith But inside my failing body I wonder silently How can they rescue me From myself?

Stupid Encounter #24 From Sb (read Bottom To Top)pointer245: oky pointer245: u have a panty? pointer245: i had prob using my cc To pointer245: get me a bling pack and I'll tell you pointer245: wat u wear now? To pointer245: by talking pointer245: how you do that? To pointer245: sex is pointless you can have sex without even touching plus its safer pointer245: it's good sometime sex for different perspective To pointer245: Well the real reason is the only thing guys want these days is someone they can stick their dick in... they use them and they leave them most men just want sex and who else but a fat whore with 5 kids to do that the best omg isen't that like everyone on fubar? Another thing if you read my profile you would know that I am not in to having sex I'm in to intelligence being that there is not a sole on this site that amounts to even maybe what Im looking for I am single and happy about it cause A. I wont turn out like a whore thats all about sex and using men...because God won't let me and B. Because if I did honestly wa

Dsw Shoes...please Don't Go ThereSo, yesterday I went into the DSW Shoes store at 290 Mid Rivers Center in Saint Peters, MO 63376 to look around for a pair of cuban heel shoes. I walked around the store looking, but did not find anything like what I was after. I went up to one of the sales associates to ask as to whether or not they carried anything like what I was after. She seemed to not know what I was talking about so I gave a description. Ultimately she ended up getting on the radio to ask one either her manager or one of her co-workers...I don't know which. In any case she had her headset turned up loud enough that I was able to hear the response. The response I received was "What kind of a fag wants something like that?" I turned around and walked straight out of the store. In any case, I have written a letter to DSW Shoes informing them of this incident.
The following is a copy of my letter:
Sir / Madam, I am writing to inform you of my experience in one of your stores. Specifically the store at 2

Virgin PartyI haven't been online as of late, been busy with all sorts of stuff, almost never have time even for a quick fuck anymore hehehehe!!! oh yea like I would let that happen.
Anyway....me and Sam have been hanging out at a local bar, having a few drinks and meeting new and interesting people....OMG like you wouldn't believe the guys who try n pick me and sam up OMG!!!!! sorry guys but y'all have to work on your pick-up lines!!! Anyway.....we started hanging with some girls that are like just legal to drink, we have talked about all sorts of different things like we tend to do, no wise cracks from males!!!!!!!!! once our chats turned to sex we found that a couple of the girls were like still virgins, I was like no fucking way, but again they said guys don't ask them out cuz they are not model thin or have aren't cute! I thought guys were just like dogs, no offense guys, but most of them I know would do it to anyone just to do it which is great, like they wouldn't care what we looked

The Whole Truth..and Nothing But The Truth.So I've been posting a lot of blogs lately. I guess I have alot on my mind. Especially with my husband gone. I have seen people throw me away a lot recently, although, I have made some other friends, that have made me feel way more important than the others ever did. It is sad, the way the world works. The greediness we see even on a computer. I appreciate everyone that has bombed me or rated me these past couple of days. Even if it has been for your own benifit. Thank you for opening my page and doing so. When i am feeling up to rating ...I will return the favor, that I promise. Until my son is out of the hospital, I doubt I feel like doing much of anything but talking to people that care. I am sad that a lot of you have abandoned me, but it is ok. We all make our own paths, I can't make anyone want me in theirs. And if they don't, it is only that person missing out on a true friend. Goodnight people..Hope you are happy in your choices and content in your life.

I Can't Say...I can’t say I’ve never felt lonely Even my shadow leaves me in the dark And I can’t say I’ve never been sad As even now I feel anchors on my heart Life has always teased me with Happiness on a string Leading me down misty paths to Depression And, lately, Death has been around every corner And the hurt worsens with every succession I can’t say I’ve never hated someone Even that guy in the mirror annoys me And I can’t say I’ve never loved someone Though I couldn’t tell you now where they all could be But you can all see me every single day Just like the news reporter, every single night So I smile and pinch my finger; get on with the show And I act well, ‘cause you all hardly know I can’t say that this helps me But I have reached my wit’s end ‘Cause I can’t say that I’m alright And neither can you, my friend

Poem I Wrote For My MomI’ve lived my life lonely and scared
Filed with pain and anger
While kids ran to their parents
I was left uncared
To all who think I’m happy and bright
I say you think wrong
Because my heart is dead as the night
So I don’t belong
I’ve taken blades and razors
Just to free the pain
But when it’s about gone
It comes flying back again
So don’t try to raise my spirits
It will just go wrong
Because if you didn’t know
I was dead inside all along.

So True.What I Believe!!!A Birth Certificate shows that we were born, A Death Certificate shows that we died, Pictures show that we lived! I Believe...That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.I Believe...That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.I Believe...That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.I Believe...That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.I Believe... That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.I Believe...That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.I Believe...That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.I Believe... That you can keep going long after you think you can't.I Believe...That we are respons

A Shortest Road To Fail"if u want ;we can talk cam to cam with a messenger(yahoo or msn).I wait ur messenger address.Hugs!"
oh, yes, ofcourse I would love to give you my messenger contact, cause I would love to read poorly written come ons that deserve a capital punishment. He was from Turkey, tho, so I guess I should feel lucky.

Phenomenal WomenPhenomenal Woman by Maya Angelou Pretty women wonder where my secret lies. I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size But when I start to tell them, They think I'm telling lies. I say, It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips, The stride of my step, The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. I walk into a room Just as cool as you please, And to a man, The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees. Then they swarm around me, A hive of honey bees. I say, It's the fire in my eyes, And the flash of my teeth, The swing in my waist, And the joy in my feet. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Men themselves have wondered What they see in me. They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them They say they still can't see. I say, It's in the arch of my back, The sun of my smile, The ride of my breasts, The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Now you understan

Your Help Is NeededHello Fu-Universe,
I know this is a great place and I don't really like doing this but I really need your help. Why do I need it well things have taken a bad turn for me, my dad sold the house we shared and sat me on the street. So in a few weeks I am homeless because my own (german) government let's me run in loops in order to get their help. At the end they don't seem like a great help at all.
My idea is to do something for my education and get a better degree so i plan on going to a college. What costs unfortunately some money. I can come up with some on my own but it not enough to pay for the first year at the community college. Now this is where your help comes in in shape of a donation. How much you donate is up to you. Every donation gets me a step closer.
Everyone who donates will get a personal thank you email from me and if requested will be mentioned in this blog until I came up with something nicer.
Here is the link for the donation page

What Kind Of Sign Are Youwhat is your sign
me iam scorpio sagittarius
i was born on the cusps
http://www.astrology.com/allaboutyou/cusps/scorpiosagittarius.html

Why Do Parents Still See You As A Child?As most of you have noticed i haven't been on much or in the past 2 weeks. well i was accused of doing something with my fathers debit card in which i know i didn't do and he now knows i didn't but it still remains the same i was treated like a child and punished he destoryed my computer i have very depressed since then larry my boyfriend aka brassEye67 has been helping through this and been looking for a place for us to live, my parents has gone as far a to try and take my son away from me i'm at the end of my rope so please my friends bare with me my loving larry is building me a new computer i know this looks like a mishmash of words and i sorry i been on heavey antidepressates whoopie lol i love you guys and miss you all so much
massive hugs and kisses
mary aka pynkcherrypie

Update On Health We got a update today. the rest of my heart looks good. The pulmonary artery we are going to watch it and if and when it gets worse then what it is we will make the decision on surgery or not. But things are ok the leak is not so bad where, I need something done right now. Other then that. I was told no more stress. So we will see how things go in the nexted few months But i will have check up for the nexted 2 to 4 months keeping a eye on this issue. Ty for being there all.
Muahs Camo

The Quaint Little HideawayNo matter what she tried to think about,nothing told her why this small quaint bistro seemed so familliar to her.But the more and the longer she sat there,looking around,watching and listening to the couple just a few tables away,made her remember."THIS IS JUST LIKE THE PLACE WHERE SHE USED TO MEET HIM.Sheremembered how she would steal away every chance she could to meet him,,that just the thought of going to see him gave her butterflies and goosebumps.As she sat and listened to the man and the woman ,she knew they weren't married even though she saw her ring sparkle faintlyin the very dim light as she softly carressed his cheek and said,,,I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH,BUT I DONT HAVE THAT MUCH TIME.The way he looked at her ,with unbridled lust and passion ,reminded her how much she loved it when he looked at her like that

Fungiblefungible\FUHN-juh-buhl\ , adjective; 1.(Law) Freely exchangeable for or replaceable by another of like nature or kind in the satisfaction of an obligation. 2.Interchangeable.noun: 1.Something that is exchangeable or substitutable. Usually used in the plural.

Ludicrous (aka Brooks 30 Words)I'll shudder as I look away from Zion...my palms damp and feverish,I never knew you, really.Even when we were juxtaposing words with tenacity,there was always an omnipotent feelingthat underlying was a lie.So, I'll make my way to the abbatoir,instead of your heaveneven when you tried to palliate it...I knew.My mind travels back to a halcyon dazebefore I was screwed by your malfeasanceby your emblematic dogma.And then the present obtrudesbringing me back to the tiradeHere is my libation to you, false one.I'm quite...cumulonimbus tonightpossessed by monomania...I was once your fawning sycophant, but no longer.I think it's time to do some hedgingcopious amounts of it, actuallyI'm through with all of this.excuse my solecism when I sayFuck you.Letting the turgid river flowI'm floundering for just a momentthen I'm finally still, still and true.The cacophany in my head finally ceasesas I take my place with the deadAnd all the quandaries I once had, fade.left with perfect nonsense floating in,

Little Bro - 2/24/09
LITTLE BRO
Where did the time go?
Little bro
I see you rushing headlong to grow up ASAP
Just like me
But I had no partner in crime until you came into my world
I was 23 when you came to be
Both of us wishing the age gap was only a skip instead of a jump
You were my monkey, you were my friend, you were someone upon whom I could always depend
Did I choke you little bro?
With the tentacles of overprotection
Going from making you feel secure to inwardly screaming for a way out
Whatever you do, stay you and stay true
Remember I said you could be anyone and do anything no matter what the world said
Remember too that I always included myself in that group
Practice makes perfect were your sister’s often repeated coaching words that she also needed to hear
It is always the striving that mattered for you know through words and deeds that no one is perfect, especially not me
I was witness to your light, your fire, your truly unique exuberant nature
But speaking of fire

Play The Part.Center the stage. Find a face to face. Twitch a forced breath to draw guts. A rebel at the back wall pricks my sight… focus found, receives, distributes and falls to the floor in front of the mirror. Feature cause of drop, only 100% sure. Snap back to an empty auditorium. The mirror has been turned around. Naked winds rip outside. Didn’t I tell you? You’ve been trying to reach me? Sorry, I have been avoiding you. I lied to get to the truth. And you lapped up my words. I thought the rotten stench would surface quicker than you. Everything is fucked now. The show has been cancelled. Satisfied with failure.

For My DrDear Love, My days and especially my nights are so empty without you! Waking up to the softness of your skin against mine, your hair gently brushing my cheek. I can feel you breathing as ifyou were a part of my own body.Looking at you as you dream. Gently "waking" you to the soft caresses of my hands. Your body yielding to me. I hope you come and see me soon. I can't stand another minute without you...I miss you so much!

Memories, Forever Lost In The Mists Of Time.The march of time is relentless. It passes whether you wish or not. It cares not what it takes as it goes. It steals the smooth skin and firm body of your youth. It drains your energy, saps your strength, and robs you of your memories. Seems it especially preys upon the most precious memories, too.
I didn’t manage to recall the memories I have lost. I still can’t see his image anymore. Impressions, yes. Emotions, longings, desires, yes. But not the face. I miss his face. How can the intensity of love be as strong as ever, but the face be erased from the mind? I don’t understand that.
I decided a long time ago to respect his wishes and let go. Not an easy task and not complete, but I am trying. I have returned, given away or destroyed every object that was part of my time with him, save one. I’m considering Craig ’s List for that one, but I really don’t think I can part with it. I’ll never use it again, and it sits in the corner of my close

Pissed Off Lately.WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF PERSON THINKS THAT A GOOD WAY TO MAKE CONVERSATION IS 'CAN I COME ALL OVER THEM FAT TITTIES'?!?!?!?
SERIOUSLY. ONE, GET FUCKING BENT ON A RAZOR-LACED PINEAPPLE.
TWO... IS THAT FUCKING SERIOUSLY HOW YOU INTRODUCE YOURSELF TO WOMEN?!?! WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!?!?!? AND WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU EVER, EVER CALL PART OF A WOMAN FAT?! IS THAT A FUCKIGN COMPLIMENT TO YOU COCKBITES?!
AND WHY THE FUCK DO ALL THESE SICK FUCKS SEEM TO FIND ME, NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I REPORT/BLOCK/IGNORE THEM?!?! AM I NTO ALLOWED TO FUCKING MAKE FRIENDS? ARE THESE FUCKS EVER GONNE GROW UP?!? IF YOU'RE OVER 25 AND STILL FUCKING ACTING LIKE THAT, YOU NEED TO BE EUTHANIZED. YOU ARE A WASTE OF SPACE AND OXYGEN.
I'M NOT A FUCKTOY. I'M NOT ON WEBSITES FOR SEX, FOR MEETING POTENTIAL FUCKS OR BOYFRIENDS... I'M ON THE GOD DAMNED INTERNET TO TALK NERD SHOP AND MAKE FRIENDS SO THAT I DON'T GO INSANE WHEN I'M HOME ALONE. IS THAT A FUCKING CRIME?!?

1111 Lest We Forget11\11 REMEMBANCE DAY
A DAY TO REMEMBER ALL THE DIGGERS AND SOLDIERS THAT HAVE FOUGHT AND GIVEN THERE LIFE TO KEEP US FREE
my eyes well up and tears run down my face as i think of the very brave men and women that fight to keep us free not just in Australia but all over the world
i dont think i could everunderstand the fear they must feel and nore do i ever want to but they do it anyway
and all i can say to them is thank you and god bless you
lest we forget
i miss you dad

VentingI sit in my room listing to Nickleback Gotta be some body....Thinking of my sons and my life ....All the lil things on the inside of me are eatting at me..What I am talking about is I want my ex head ..I want to hurt him so fucking bad but I know if I do I well never get to see my sons again...I lve them so much..

Starts To DateAlan asks, "I know you're crazy about that little daughter of yours, Steve. What are you going to do when she starts to date?" Steve says, "I figure I'll take the first young man aside, put my arm around his shoulder, and pull him close to me so that only he can hear. Then I'll say, "Do you see that sweet, little young lady? She's my only daughter, and I love her very much. If you were thinking about touching, kissing, or being physically affectionate to her in any way ............ just remember ............... I don't mind going back to prison."

The Lady Of My LifeI had no idea that you would be the love of my life
The day that we first met
But every day brings us closer and closer
My love for you is one sure bet
I can only promise you my love is real
From this day and forevermore
And as our lives grow closer together
I could not ever want for more...
I love you...

For HerFOR HER-------
There comes joy from herEven when she's quiet, she keeps interesting meI love to be, be with herShe makes my heart bloomshe doesn't know, but she makes the blueprint of my soul's dreamsAnd her life colors the content of the life i wantMy whole life i wanna be with her
For her i go through fireIt's an adventureAn amazing storyI Sell my soul to herIn exchange for what i wantA lifetime with herfor her
a thousand emails i have sent to herDay and night i can not sleepI'm sure Mother Nature, while watching me,Created herAnd no matter how other people have sang to herThere's noone who adores this girl with all their heart and soul like meMy whole life i wanna spend with her
For her...

Goodbye To A FriendGOODBYE TO A FRIEND
-------------------
Everything is done forever
When you're ready for it
I have stood by your side
My god, i have enjoyed knowing you
I now stay here and you go there
And there is not so far from here
We agree to meet, i don't know where
and we will meet in that place
Without you time goes by just as fast
But the times do change
So i say goodbye, you have to go now
Know that you'll stay to excist in my heart
Sweet dreams, you have earned it
You fought till your last breath
And go, go my friend
and dream forever all relieved
Just like the old days you'll get to that point
I know you'll find a home real soon
And i repeat what you once told me
In my heart i stay faithfull to you
Without you...
And i know i should be greatfull
But that's why it hurts so much
Without you.

The Morning After (lyrics)The Morning After :There's just some things that I can't explain like the reason why I make you feel this way I keep on saying that I am going to change now how could you believe a word I say I wish there was some way to see I never meant to make you cry If I could take back just one thing I swear that I'd take back that night Everything I loved was gone the morning the morning after I wish I never woke up on the morning the morning after And now it's all coming back to me, you say I can't believe you do these things to me And so I guess I gotta face the truth I'm no good for you there's nothing I can do I wish that we could make believe and pretend everything's alright And I would give up everything if I could just take back that night Everything I loved was gone the morning the morning after I wish I never woke up on the morning the morning after Everything I loved was gone the morning the morning after I wish I never woke up on the morning the morning after I wished to I hold you bu

Herb Or Herbert?One Day I Was At A Park Sitting At A Picnic Table Looking At All The Stuff That Ppl Had Carved Into The Table Then I Came Accross Something That Was Carved That Read "Don't Smoke Herb!!" And It Got Me To Wonder... What Was That A Message To Mean???? Was It Suposed To Mean Do Not Smoke Marijuana Or Was It A Plea From A Friend,Loved One Or Relative To A Chain Smoker Named Herbert?

My Horse Is Amazinglook at my horse, my horse is amazing. give it a lick. mmm it tastes just like raisins. by the stroke of its mane it turns into a plane, then it turns back again when you tug on its winkie. ooh thats dirty. doo ya think so, well i better not show you where the lemonade is made, sweet lemonade yeah sweet lemonade. sweet lemonade mmm sweet lemonade. get on my horse ill take you round the universe and all the other places too. i think youll find that the universe pretty much covers everything. shut up woman get on my horse
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_RjMSWhGWak

KissWhenever I see you pass bye it makes me want to cry To see your face and not know what's going through your mind Is it me you’re thinking of? We’ve been together for a while We need to have some faith But wait What will happen Give me some hope For what I think may not be true Is it I who is doing something wrong This may not last very long But believe me when I say I love you I want to kiss you all the time But do you want to kiss me I will try my best to stay in line And I will not intertwine I hope you will read this one day So you know that I thought you were mine

Summary Of LifeSummary of Life
GREAT TRUTHS THAT LITTLE CHILDREN HAVE LEARNED:
1) No matter how hard you try, you can’t baptize cats..
2) When your Mum is mad at your Dad, don’t let her brush your hair.
3) If your sister hits you, don’t hit her back. They always catch the second person.
4) Never ask your 3-year old brother to hold a tomato.
5) You can’t trust dogs to watch your food.
6) Don’t sneeze when someone is cutting your hair.
7) Never hold a Dust-Buster and a cat at the same time.
You can’t hide a piece of broccoli in a glass of milk.
9) Don’t wear polka-dot underwear under white shorts.
10) The best place to be when you’re sad is Grandpa’s lap..
GREAT TRUTHS THAT ADULTS HAVE LEARNED:
1) Raising teenagers is like nailing jelly to a tree.
2) Wrinkles don’t hurt.
3) Families are like fudge….mostly sweet, with a few nuts
4) Today’s mighty oak is just yesterday’s nut that held its ground..
5) Laughing

Some Fools Never Learn.So, anyone that knows me knows that I'm a pretty positive outgoing person. I'm there for my friends. I'm faithful. I'm dedicated to my education and work.
But lately. Hurt is starting to overcome me. It's getting close to the anniversary of my mother's death. So, in essence I'm reliving everyday this month as I did last year. It's hard to get through the days smiling, but I do it. I manage to get up everyday thinking in my mind that I have my family and my man.
Yet lately, He says I'm "clingy". It's obvious why, yet I can't seem to make him understand. Will I ever learn how to let go? Am I really clingy? Do I give him enough space? Am I a good girlfriend to him? All these questions burn through my mind and I just think to myself am I just being a fool and am I never going to learn to just let go a little? Am I always going to be afraid that something I love so much is going to dissappear in an instant? Is he always going to think to himself that it's cause I don't trust him, yet it's

Asylum - 5/28/09
ASYLUM
Alone I walk this endless maze
of my cranium’s sanitarium.
Through funhouse serpent corridors
with its multiple branches
just leaving me stumped and dazed.
Yet the definition of sanity eludes me.
Even Webster shakes his head in perpetual confusion.
But you’ll never see,
you’ll never hear the pounding on the door.
Deafness would engulf you if you could feel
the vastness of my internal screams,
as a terrible reaction to the horror I wish was only a dream,
for there is no vacancy in this black hole.
Don’t be fooled by the catatonic stare
that has access to views without a room.
Tread carefully around the barbed wire
surrounding the desperate attempts
to control the attacks of the sociopath.
You see the love/hate relationship
with my beautiful shroud?
Though others might call it a strait jacket,
it is at times even a security blanket.
But in the certainty of knowing nothing, I know this
All the therapists put together

Quick Facts About Zombie MonkeysZombie Monkey Quick Facts
Short Compilation of Things You Should Know
- Zombie Monkeys caused the extinction of the dinosaurs. - Zombie Monkeys are the only reason France is still a country - Zombie Monkeys created all of the world religions to encourage wars between humans - Zombie Monkeys can change their appearance to look like any living thing. - Every boy band in the history of the world has been made up entirely of Zombie Monkeys. - Advanced as they are, Zombie Monkeys still like to throw feces. - The Easter Island statues are left over pawns from an ancient game of Monkey Zombie chess. - Zombie Monkeys control all of the governments of the world. - There is no known way to kill a Zombie Monkey. - Zombie Monkeys created reality television. - Most natural disasters are just covers for massive Zombie Monkey covert actions. - Surprisingly, Paris Hilton is not a Zombie Monkey. - Zombie Monkeys faked the moon landing - Zombie Monkeys killed Steve Irwin because he was

These Daysnothing fades away
these days
and nothing washes away
in this love of ours
no we never lose appeal
no matter what we reveal
inside out of ourselves
we can break down
we can set our secrets free
we can simply be
in love
these days
and i never stay down
i never cry myself to sleep
or drown in bottle
in past swallows of liquid fire
these days
did you ever dream
did anything ever seem
as real as the fantasy
youre living with me
these days
did the stars ever brighten you
rise your smile above yourself
as they do when we talk
oh how they make you more beautiful
these days
we can break down
we can simply be
in love
these days

Oh Brother Lol Shout Box BsThis started out with a lame frienship request claiming the guy lives in my state...no pic of him *not shocked*
And became this ...
You know how it reads.. bottom up
Idiot can't even spell ffs * LOL *
~*SIN-SIN*~®: I'm sure some point whore will eventually..sorry pass
Yum: i understand if u dont want me to send or add me, its cool
~*SIN-SIN*~®: or should I say ..insecure much?
Yum: lol,
~*SIN-SIN*~®: hahahaha wow sounds like you both need to grow up
Yum: i can only eamil it, i dont want someone to see me on here, my GF, she getss super jelious
~*SIN-SIN*~®: you could post your actual pic I do not add random people

Alone In The DarkThere was a lonely flower waiting for someone who can accept and pick her up Then savior came to fulfill the emptiness Full of joy, happiness, laughter and pain. One fine dream came true:.. As time goes by:wind blows in a shadow room People know that it's perfect one Living in the iron mask and feel so pathetic Suddenly she became alone in the Dark Feeling of something that unexplainable with grievances and pain:. Deep down inside love became empty Pretending to be happy to escape the fear Living for nothing is not the answer To live alone in the cage of love.
WRITTEN BY
M DAVID

Ensign: Where Sharing Is It's Own RewardAll ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 13 November 2009 A local radio station in my hometown is using this slogan to promote its annual “Horn of Plenty” program that raises groceries to assemble food baskets for families at Christmas who apply (check that, you can’t apply yourself but you can submit someone’s name to receive such a basket) along with a devotional to introduce the Word of God to them. Not a Bible, specifically, but something to help you ”understand” it ... never mind that, my minor quibble is with the slogan itself. It’s a minor quibble because, if you remember your English classes, the phrase should NOT have a contraction in it. Expand the contraction (stay with me, this is not cosmology) and this slogan reads &ld

Erotic Story TeaserThis is a portion of an erotic story I wrote and have posted on my blog site www.eroticknights.blogspot.com. If you enjoy this, then you can go there and read more :)
Spring had finally seemed to arrive and I decided it was time to take advantage of the new found warm weather. I had been planning on surprising her with a new sex adventure, and had told her that I wanted to surprise her with it one day. All she knew was that she needed to be ready for anything, at anytime. She knew that I was pretty much capable of doing anything. I had racked my brain trying to think of the perfect adventure. The more I thought about it the more I became enticed with some type of role play. Since both of us had wanted to do a kidnapping for some time I decided that would be the way to go. I started plotting my kidnapping of her about a month in advance. I was simply waiting for the weather to get warm enough to carry it all out, and that day had finally come….She was faithful to go the gym e

Halo By BeyonceLYRICS:
Remember those walls I builtWell, baby they're tumbling downAnd they didn't even put up a fightThey didn't even make up a soundI found a way to let you inBut I never really had a doubtStanding in the light of your haloI got my angel nowIt's like I've been awakenedEvery rule I had you breakin'It's the risk that I'm takin'I ain't never gonna shut you outEverywhere I'm looking nowI'm surrounded by your embraceBaby I can see your haloYou know you're my saving graceYou're everything I need and moreIt's written all over your faceBaby I can feel your haloPray it won't fade awayI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloI can feel your halo halo haloI can see your halo halo haloHit me like a ray of sunBurning through my darkest nightYou're the only one that I wantThink I'm addicted to your lightI swore I'd never fall againBut this don't even feel like fallingGravity can't forgetTo pull me back to the ground againFeels like I've been awakenedEvery rule I had you breakin

Military Service Thing And Ignorance Here On Fubar...hey y'all...to be honest im pretty sure that almost none of u will read this damn thing but i dont care i still wanna write...
as many of u probably realized that im going to do the damn military service on december 12th..for 6 months...ok im not an usa citizen and i wont serve us military...but after i changed my status to say im going to do it, it made me quite sad...i have many friends in here..but only one of them commented on that status...she knows who she is and i really admire her cuz she is a great friend...i dont care if she says serious, funny,stupid or good or bad things..but she actually realized and read my status and said something about it...that is the most important thing to me...none of you so called "friends" in here said anything about it :( i dont know how u understand this military thing in ur countries but this damn thing is mandatory here...and i probably serve for playing drums..or shooting terrorist idk...maybe i would get killed who knows...but stilll noone

Girl In The MirrorI look into the mirror and what I see is not what I feel,
Pain and sorrow never show as long as I smile.
This person before me, who is she?
How can I be this shadow, this empty vessel of unhappiness?
Now the room is dark, filled with clouds of hurt,
I stare at her in the mirror and try to remember when it was bright.
A time when the sun shined and the glow of cheerful desires where within reach,
When love was a feeling I knew all too well.
I turn away; don’t want to face her now.

This One Is About Snuff Movies (if You Know What I Mean)Amber
Her long red hair, her sultry walk, her terrified screams get me off for my dark fixation to see your body stuffed in a suitcase
I love to penetrate you
My flesh burns for your touch
Perversions…on…my…television…screen
Amber is…Disposal
I love the sensation of having her icy fingers crawling
At my back, I desire a kiss from her cold, smooth blue
lips
“Murder in the name of snuff”
I love to penetrate you
My flesh burns for touch
Perversions…on…my…television…screen
Amber is…Disposal
As I cum I watch you die
I’ll take this knife insert it into your
Cunt make you bleed!, kill my seed!
I love to penetrate you
My flesh burns for touch
Perversions…on…my…television…screen
Amber is…Disposal
Jose Hermosillo

What Am I Doing Wrong?Background information: Newly divorced, attempting to navigate the dating scene.....
My friend has hounded me for months to "hook up" with her uncle. Finally, against my better judgement, I agree. We meet, go for a ride on his motorcycle, we have pizza with my son, he leaves....Two days later he shows up, UNINVITED, at my house with an armful of roses....sweet gesture, but NO ONE just shows up at my house without an invitation. Not even my parents...Rule #1 broken, straight out of the gate...(yes, I relish my privacy, and I just might be a bit antisocial....) Then he starts calling....all the time. Ok, if I don't answer the phone OR reply to texts, chances are good that I DO NOT wish to speak to you....Rule #2 broken....Now a week or so passes, this guy is relentless. I call him and politely explain, AGAIN, that even though I had a nice time on our "date" (that lasted all of three hours) I am NOT looking for a relationship of ANY kind....the phone calls/texts continue.....I exp

SleepAnd now i lay myself to sleep, wondering if I will actually sleep. Will I just lay there awake?
Just gonna do a few things before bed like usual....it takes me 1-2 hours to actually fall asleep. I hate it. And knowing that I have to be up at a certain time doesn't help cause I'm waking up almost every hour still. Wish I had something to say good night to, other than my cats.

Comfortably Numb By Pink FloydHello?Is there anybody in there?Just nod if you can hear meIs there anyone at home?Come on, nowI hear you're feeling downWell I can ease your painGet you on your feet againRelaxI'll need some information firstJust the basic factsCan you show me where it hurts?There is no pain you are recedingA distant ship's smoke on the horizonYou are the only coming through in wavesYour lips move but I can't hear what you're sayingWhen I was a child I had a feverMy hands felt just like two balloonsNow I've got that feeling once againI can't explain you would not understandThis is not how I amI have become comfortably numbI have become comfortably numbOkayJust a little pinprickThere'll be no moreBut you may feel a little sickCan you stand up?I do believe it's working goodThat'll keep you going through the showCome on it's time to goThere is no pain you are recedingA distant ship's smoke on the horizonYou are the only coming through in wavesYour lips move but I can't hear what you're sayingWhen I was a

Phenomenal Woman Thats Me !!Women wonder where my secret lies Current mood: amused
Women wonder where my secret lies. I'm not built to suit a fashion model's size But when I start to tell them, They think I'm telling lies. I say, It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips, The stride of my step, The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. I walk into a room Just as cool as you please, And to a man, The fellows stand or Fall down to their knees. Then they swarm around me, A hive of honey bees. I say, It's the fire in my eyes, And the flash of my teeth, The swing in my waist, And the joy in my feet. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Men themselves have wondered What they see in me. They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them They say they still can't see. I say, It's in the arch of my back, The sun of my smile, The rise of my breasts, The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me.

Life Observations, Good Stuff, Found Online.) Triangular sandwiches taste better than square ones. 2) At the end of every party there is always a girl crying. 3) One of the most awkward things that can happen in a pub is when your pint-to-toilet cycle gets synchronized with a complete stranger. 4) You've never quite sure whether it's ok to eat green crisps. 5) Everyone who grew up in the 80's has entered the digits 55378008 into a calculator. 6) Reading when you're drunk is horrible. 7) Sharpening a pencil with a knife makes you feel really manly. 8) You're never quite sure whether it's against the law or not to have a fire in your back garden. 9) Everyone who has just read no.5 has just typed it into a calculator. 10) Nobody ever dares make cup-a-soup in a bowl. 11) You never know where to look when eating a banana. 12) Its impossible to describe the smell of a wet cat. 13) Prodding a fire with a stick makes you feel manly. 14) Rummaging in an overgrown garden will always turn up a bouncy ball. 15) You always fe

On And Oni found him in a dream
i found him in my heart
i was down and out
cold and no place to go
i was screaming
bleeding
so alone
faces not familiar
stuck in places id never seen before
yes he understands
that i was desperate for a friendly hand
to hold
to try so hard to put a simple smile on
and on and on
we love together now
on and on
in our forever now
he found me naked
buried in the dirty streets
that paved my mind
with a little shining hate
for those who held my fate in their hands
he picked me up
he showed me i wasnt alonee
in my stone cold crazy
in the haze that was surrounding me
keeping me from breathing
and on and on
we love together now
in our forever now
on and on

This Last 3 Weeks
I just wanted to say I've been doing my best keeping up with all the rates and the changes over the last 3 weeks since I've been sick. 3 weeks ago I came down with pneumonia and even though I've been getting better, the recovery process has been much slower than I expected. I'm sooo exhausted that there are days I cannot do anything and other days that I can do light activities. Thank goodness for my laptop.
I really want to thank all of you who have been there for me. You really have made this easier to go through. Some of you who knew me when I was here on Fubar in January when I had my first case of pneumonia knew how hard it was for me then.
I don't know why my immune system seems to be weaker than others but I keep a smile on my face and I rely on friends... I luv you all. I try to be there for each and every one of you. I wouldn't know what to do without you : ) Each one of you makes a difference and I hope I make a difference in your lives.
Hugs, Katy

My Sex Score Was 5Start at 50 and add or subtract points as stated for each statementthat applies to you...Add 10 if you are a virgin.-Subtract 5 if You have had sex before.-Subtract 5 more if you have had sex with more then 5 people.-Add 5 If you have never had oral sex.-Subtract 5 if you have had or performed oral sex.-Subtract 2 if you have had sex in a public place.-Subtract 3 if you have done 69.-Add 5 If you have never had an orgasm.-Add 5 If you cant name 3 types/brands of condoms.-Subtract 2 if you have masturbated.-Subtract 3 if you have fingered/ given a handjob to someone else.-Subtract 5 if you have used someone for sex (one night stand).-Add 5 if You have never seen someone of the opposite sex naked.-Add 3 if you haven't been kissed in the past month. [At least notromantic or passionately.]-Add 2 if you have never masturbated.-Add 5 if you have never seen or watched porn.-Subtract 5 if you have made your own porn.-Subtract 3 if you have participated in anal sex.-Subtract

Upon A DreamOnce upon a DreamYou took my hand in yours.Once upon a DreamYou looked into my eyes.Once upon a DreamYou held me close.Once upon a Dream You kissed me softly.Once upon a DreamYou were mine.I cannot see when it happened.I cannot see why.All I see is pain in your eyes.All I see...Once upon a DreamWe said "Forever."Once upon a DreamWe meant together.Once upon a DreamI saw blue skies.Once upon a DreamYou heard my cries.Once upon a Dream...The Dream seems over.My world grows colder.The Love I knew fades away.Once upon a Dream...As I sit here watching you sleep, I can't help but cry. Your so cold anymore...and I don't know how to warm you anymore. Once upon a Dream, you smiled when you saw me. Now all you seem to do is look away. I don't know when or where we went wrong, but it's not to late to fix this. Tell me how to relight your fire. Tell me how to bring you back to Life. Tell me that you still Love me. I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!

Why Booze Is Better Than WomenWHY BEER IS BETTER THAN WOMEN
1. BEER don't get jealous when you grab another BEER2. When you go to a bar you can always pick up a BEER3. A BEER won't get upset when you come home with another BEER on your breath4. You don't have to wine and dine BEER5. If you pour a BEER right you'll always get head6. Hangovers go away7. When you finish with a BEER, the bottle is still worth 10 cents8. You don't have to wash a BEER before it tastes good9. A BEER always goes down easy10. You can share a BEER with a friend11. BEER is always wet12. You know your always the first one to pop a BEER13. A frigid BEER is a good BEER14. You can have more than one BEER in a night and not feel guilty (for some guys)15. You can enjoy BEER all month long16. BEER will never cry for no reason at all17. BEER doesn't care how you look
18. You can kill beer before it gets old

Bitch And MoanLately, I see all those guys bitch and moan about women; how they bitch, ask those "does my clothin make me look fat?", blah blah
Same men that are stupid enough to meet nothing but pathetic poor excuses for women that have such a low self esteem that they have to seek for constant approval/monitor their men non stop. WTF??
Either grow a brain, and meet someone real for a change, or quit bitchin, cause those "women" deserve you.

I Hate Dis WeatherGod damn mother nature I love you and all but you just messed up my first grading period..Thanks a lot....

Do I DareThe lazy streets are undemandingI walk into the crowd..In starbucks you get yourCoffee or that lemonadeWhere people dress just snazzy..Beauty so unavoidable everywhereIts there I sit and wonder "Do I Dare?"But on the cellphone I text to herI'm nothing I want to beShe was a super model..And one wouldn`t know theDifference would you?Modern namesLike jackie or mandyAnd modern bodies again..0n Beach BoulevardI never felt so lonelyNever felt so out of placeI never wanted something more!But on the sitesI am anything I want to be
She was beauty model
For Robert Powers...
On the cellphone I amAny heightI am any age I want to beShe could be a caped crusader orSupergirl, even middle aged...And you wouldnt knowThe difference would you?

The BridgeWarning: This is not posted for entertainment. This is posted to be informative and to show how a small amount of involvement in another's life can make a difference.
Synopsis;
More people choose to end their lives at the Golden Gate Bridge than anywhere else in the world.
The Golden Gate Bridge is an iconic structure. An engineering masterpiece. A triumph of human ingenuity and muscle over the elements, and over the Depression. A constantly pulsing, poetic artery of traffic. A picture perfect postcard. A symbol of a San Francisco, the West, freedom - and something more, something almost spiritual but impossible to describe.
More people choose to end their lives at the Golden Gate Bridge than anywhere else in the world. The sheer number of deaths there is shocking but perhaps not altogether surprising. If one wants to commit suicide, that is, there is an eerie logic in selecting a means that is almost always fatal and a place that is magically, mysteriously beautif

Age Of EnlightenmentStepping over the bodies of mortals, Overcoming their eternal flaw of mortalityReaching for the hands of the godsGaining their knowledge of perfections in an imperfect mindCrying the tears of a thousand great lies, Reaching out to take back that one sad tale of good byeA scornful leave that emerged so suddenly, Not preparing them for their mortality was the fault of us, An inferior knowledge in not testing their mortality is the fault of theirs, And theirs alone;We are but the knowledge of many yesterdays.Passing forth through the ages, Displayed on the pages of the rattled cages to the age of us, The age of supposed enlightenment, While man still argues over the same tedious argumentsMorality and its links to a definite mortality, Silly little verses of morality, That has brought forth the constant stream of mortality to you.Man created the gods to have sense of being divine, When the eternal flaw of divinity, that which is damned reared its ugly headMan once again needing a scapegoat

The Lovers On the moon let night in the shadows she waits for a strong man to show up. She feeds on the week but craves the strong. She watches a man walk in the light; she craves him, hungers for him. He makes her want more then blood. She attacks him stealing more then his blood, she also takes his heart and soul. He is now hers for all time, forever her slave, her lover, and her other half. They are together in this life and the next for all time.
They are and will forever be lovers.

Me Singing - Keeper Of The StarsOk so I need some advice on fixing this before my gram's wedding :) Any advice would be awesome...you will have DL it in order for it to play to Windows Media player :) THANKS!!!
[URL=http://www.zshare.net/download/6852481288dcc0ce/]KeeperoftheStars.wma[/URL]

Workshop Exercises - 4/16/09
HATE IS RUNNING SHOES
Connor's Poetry Workshop
From random words picked – Hate & Running Shoes
Despicable in essence
Just full of empty remorse
He smiles so easy,
a regular ole joe.
He just doesn’t know
the hourglass is pounding.
Preparations are made,
the gun is in place.
With every breath I count his sins,
with every shoelace I tighten the noose.
They say ignorance is bliss,
but for me the lethal weapons are on my feet.
Pure unadulterated hatred fuels my Jordan’s
to commit the ultimate crime of mercy.
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SICKNESS IS GRAND CENTRAL
From random words picked – Sickness & Grand Central
Notice anything different
jostling through the crowd?
An indeterminate amount of cultures
surround you at Grand Central.
No, not the kind you are thinking about.
The kind you put in petrie dishes.
For you are blind to all the myriad
of sickness in the throng of normalcy.
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Messenger Idiotsmattrek2009: do you like 9 inch cockme: No, anything less than 10 is a waste of my timemattrek2009: i am 10 inchesme: Sure you are

BehWell ain't I just a dummy for breaking my memory card for my phone. I was trying to do something with my phone and I guess the memory card popped out,..so when I went to close my phone case, cause i was trying to switch batteries, I accidently closed it on the memory card, I think..or some how it got bent. It could still go in the phone but couldn't read. So me bein a dummy trying to carefully bend it back so I could save what I had on there but I bent it too hard and SNAP... well that sucks. I had certain pics in there, and vids that can't be replaced...Oh well I guess. That isn't the first time I lost pics though...It be a sign, I swear..or im just clumbsy
Work was blah..nothing exciting there. I didn't want to go home after work ,so I went out and did a few things. Came home...did some other stuff and yea...exciting.
Soooo tomorrow, I go talk to Irene...sign some papers, I take it...then maybe I can check out my new place. I need to get an idea of much smaller my new place will be

Good MorningIts a good morning when u can get out of bed. And stand on your two feet.

Lame.IndulgeThe weather is fine You're drowning in your thoughtsRed was passionRed was angerWe've walked this road far too muchFar too soonTears streaming downA gentle kiss for the painUnsympathetic gazeThe fault within meMore and more I can't seem to satisfyNever enough

The Lumberjack SongBarber [Michael Palin]: I'm a lumberjack and I'm OK, I sleep all night and I work all day. I cut down trees, I skip and jump, I like to press wild flowers. I put on women's clothing, And hang around in bars. Monty Python's Flying Circus
Barber: I'm a lumberjack and I'm OK I sleep all night and I work all day.
Mounties: He's a lumberjack and he's OK He sleeps all night and he works all day.
Barber: I cut down trees, I eat my lunch I go to the lavatory. On Wednesday I go shopping And have buttered scones for tea.
Mounties: He cuts down trees, he eats his lunch. He goes to the lavatory. On Wednesday he goes shopping And has buttered scones for tea.
He's a lumberjack and he's OK He sleeps all night and he works all day.
Barber: I cut down trees, I skip and jump. I like to press wild flowers. I put on women's clothing And hang around in bars.
Mounties: He cuts down trees, he skips and jumps He likes to press wild flowers. He puts on women's clothing And hangs around in

Broken Pieces Of MeBroken Pieces of MeI wish I could say
That I will be fine
But the truth is that
I will never be
In anyway shape or form
I have a sickness that
Is based off undefined needs
I will never be free of
The all-consuming ways
In which I see this world
That unfolds before me
I destroy all that I create
I tear down walls
Only to build others
I obliterate love
Because I am afraid
To allow myself to feel
Anything other than
A sadness that is real
It lingers deep
An endless chasm
That exist within
The confines of my chest
Like a wolf howling
At the night sky and
The plight of its intended victim
Everyone involved knows
What is coming
Broken pieces of me
Make me whole
For how much longer is unknown
I will do what I can
No one would blame me for that
But in the end I am aware that
Sooner or later
I will simply fall apart......
ByKeaton Foster(

For A Broken HeartA Perfect HeartOne day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen.The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine. " The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges.In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing. The people stared-how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought?The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed

The ScoopI woke up
laid around in bed reading Moomin Trolls
sat around online
ate Poptarts and black olives
made an attempt (failed) to finish some of the dishes
sat online
watched youtube vids of metal bands, lemurs, Jeeves and Wooster, and Poirot
Washed my face
sat online
murdered fruit flies and left their corpses smeared as a warning for others
roamed some more thru my fridge
weighed myself, got depressed for a moment. I need to lose 20 lbs before I have to walk for 500 miles with a huge backpack on my back across Europe
ate more Poptarts
sat online

[one Pan To Rule Them All]I've already said it, but it bears repeating.
Get one good pan. One good pasta pot.
The world is your oyster.
...okayTWOgood pans.
One for omelettes and nonstickery and medium heat sauce making, the other cast iron of course.
And two pots.No frills Dutch oven and a pasta pot (because you can make a fuckload of soup/stew in a big'n and you can put the dutch in the oven, or use it for frying)
Uh anyway.
Today you will need one large skillet.
Because you have half an eggplant, and meticulously cut into long pasta-esque strands, or cubed.
Now
go to your refrigerator.
*blink blink*OH!You wanted specifics alright
you will need about 1 cup of raw meat.
a light flavored firm green vegetable.
about two tablespoons worth of an onion or one of his cousins
about half a teaspoon of savory spices
salt and pepper
about a tablespoon to half a cup of crumbly semifirm aged cheese (white dry are best)
half a cup to a cup of diced mushrooms
a tablespoon of a tomato product, sauce, paste

This November Wasn't Great For MeThis November wasn't great for me because i lost my father last Tuesaday. I been upset and sad(crying) about the loss. I haven't a been friend to all my fubar friends who were very wonderful with their love,supports, and prayers. I want to go you a big wonderful thank you.

MovingTomorrow afternoon (Thursday) I will be moving out. I'm real excited. I've been waiting for this day to come for a long time. I've had most of my stuff packed for quite a while and I been packing up most of the other stuff. I will be doing my big move on Thursday and will be doing the rest of it over the weekend and getting myself settled in. I had takin days off of work to get this all done. I wanted to get this all done before Thanksgiving.
I bought myself a new tv. A 32 inch flat screen tv, with a built in DVD player in it. Didn't know that was possiable but hey, that was nice...I didn't have either of them so that works. Money well spent on that. Since I didn't have a tv, I went and got myself one...The TV's here are my ex's and his mom's and I can't use those. Plus I needed a tv to get Comcast set up in my home as soon as I could lol..Im also going to be using my brother's old tv so I can have one in the bedroom that my ex never wanted. I will never get why he never wanted a tv i

Laywer Update Not Goodlooks like my past finally catch up to meso today i got a hold of my lawyer turns out she called me yesterday but i did not have any notice and i hardly check my voice mail i really need to start doing that more oftenanywaysas i said i use to be a very violent person when i was younger i did alot of things i was not to pround of starting with animal crueltyarsonistrobberybeating the shit out of a lot of people family friends and so onbreaking into people house'smind you iam not the same person i was once beforebut yeah i got told all that lovely things this morningso my lawyer is going to get another lawyer on the case she said i dont want to take it to trail and iam sure my ex said something about this i hope she did not i mean i mean i deserve alot of shit but i dont deserve to be locked up no fucking 5 years of self defensive i told her what are my chances and to talk to me as a person not a lawyerso she said we are going to make a deal not to take it to traili rather die then spend

Doctor VisitMe and the baby are doing ok. Went for my 2nd check up today and very happy that the baby is so far developing wonderfully. Below are the ultra sounds and hopefully you can desiver them. We're hoping the next check up we'll be able to tell if it's a boy or girl.
These are the first ultra sounds.
These are the second ultra sounds.

Got A Auction Going OnIm making this for a few beautiful women and cool men, but mostly for my sis LILL BRATT and Devilish and dont forget to love on them all even if its just a rite.
Entries can be done by talking to Devilish Temptation http://fubar.com/user/3439862 ONLY 1 or 2 days left to enter....
Devilish Temptation Auction come bid on a hottie today... 11/13 til 11/27

Coloring The SkyCOLORING THE SKY
Like a bird to the wind
Your feet have left the ground
Let your journey now begin.
You never really left here
Merely taking a different view
Below, many hold you dear.
Spread your wings and fly
Soaring through the heavens
You're coloring the Sky.
The Eagle, mighty and so true
The sleek and stealthy Hawk
They both look up to you.
Beyond the Sun a shadow
Cast by a giving soul
It is far from over, so much more to go.
Dwelling deep, within the Heart
No where near and end
Simply making a brand new start.
Orange sunsets or visions of Blue
The colors of the Sky
They're all because of you.

Best I'll Ever Be By Sister HazelI miss you
I miss being overwhelmed by you
And I need rescue
I think I’m fading away
But I keep thinking that you’ll wake me up
with a whisper in my ear
I keep hoping
That you’ll sneak in my room
So I wait and I wait
And I run old scenes through my tired head
Of the day we laid by the school and said
Forever, was that the best I’ll ever be?
I miss you
I miss talking all night long with you
And I need this to find a way to your home
oh, my love, can you hear me
Have I been hoping loud enough
wishing hard enough
Can you see me
when I’m asleep all alone, alone
So I wait and I wait
And I run old scenes through my tired head
Of the days that we laid by the school and said
Forever, was that the best I’ll ever be?
Can’t keep my hands from shaking
stumbling through the wreckage again
but your gone
So I wait and I wait
And I run myself through the same old circles

11-19-09So I'm sitting here late at nite and start thinking about why do I bother some times with dealing with the way things are always going to be. This world has created an image of what your suppose to look like, act like, be like and all around present yourself. Fit into a "norm" of society. But those who dont fit into the mold are looked at as weird, unusual, outcasts that dont belong. Just because our views on the world are different doesnt make them wrong. People take for granted the inner beauty of this world, and its people. I take in the good and bad of people and judge based on how they approach the world not by the way the deal with what the world has given them. Maybe Im wrong in somes eyes but i dont change my opinions for no one. The truth hurts but its better then living lies that make everything harder in the end. Well I guess I just needed a breather, some space to think and a good blog to vent. To those who are different, be what makes you happy and dont fall into the cooki

Fine Mist - 5/27/09
FINE MIST
Sarah Q. Morgan’s Poetry Workshop
Too light it comes down
Not hard enough to cleanse you
bringing you down even further
each tiny drop of water hammering on
your Rock of Gibraltar until you are nothing
withered to but a pebble
holding back on throwing the first stone
for you know this will pass
evaporate into nothing
until the sun can shine again
like the rainbow born from storms
so too you will smile again

Something I Have Written....The sky is dark, yet so bright. The trees and earthly bodies are taken over by the darkness that the stars command. You stand there looking into the dark velvet sky. You’re empty as you stare. You’re so fucking empty tonight.Lights streak across that sky. Shooting stars. Make a wish as those glorious meteors collide into your world. They crash with no sound. Yet everything around you is so loud. Nothing is quiet. The creatures of the night stalk you loudly in hopes of terrorizing you. They smell you. They smell you bleed as the blood slowly rolls down your arms and drips onto the ground beneath. As the cold liquid pours you stand there in the middle of the empty field. You’ve lost all amounts of care as your soul flees your body to lay amongst the stars. Even for only a moment. Or until the sun rises again, whichever is first. But once again you pull away from the peace the blackness has given you. You are once again lost in the dark beauty that so few indulge in; th

To Maintain A Healthy Level Of Insanity...1. Sit in your car with sunglasses on and point a hair dryer at passing cars. See if they slow down.
2. Page yourself over the intercome. Don't disguise your voice!
3. Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.
4. Put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks. Once everyone has gotten over their caffine addictions, swith to Espresso.
5. In the Memo field of all your checks, write 'For Marijuana'.
6. With a serious face order a Diet water whenever you go out to eat.
7. Specify that your Drive-trough order is 'To go'.
8. When the money comes out at the ATM, Scream 'I won! I won!'
9. When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot. yelling 'Run for your lives! They're loose!'
10. Tell your children over dinner, 'Due to the economy, we are going to have to let one of you go.'

BdsmOn 11/11/08
I received an e-mail from a couple friends of mine. Angi and Jenny asked me, if I wanted to go in with them and rent a cabin at Government Camp for the weekend. For my friends who don't know where Government Camp is located, it's a small high mountain community East of Portland, Oregon at the base of Mt. Hood. It gets lots of snow there over 6 feet during the Winter. We lucked out, it hasn't started to snow yet while we was there.
Anyways, the Ladies asked me to meet them there about 5:00 pm Friday at the cabin they reserved for us. When I arrived at the cabin they was already there waiting for me with ropes in their hands. As soon as I walked in to the cabin with one of my bags, they told me to take my clothes off and put on my black nylon g-string. So, I went in the bedroom and took off my clothes and put on my g-string as told. When I came back in to the living room they immediately grabbed my arms and Angi tied my hands behind my back. Then Jenny stuffed a big 2 1/2"

Take A Moment For Others....while randomly searching the internet for ideas for the holidays, cause im mean and make my kids do things for other people, i ran accrossed this old letter from the sun paper, my mom used to have this in a frame that she would hang by the tree at christmas time. enjoy!!!
and remember people, no matter how bad things seem to be, you can always do something to give to others even if its just TIME!!
so here is the yes virginia there is a santa clause letter in full.
Eight-year-old Virginia O'Hanlon wrote a letter to the editor of New York's Sun, and the quick response was printed as an unsigned editorial Sept. 21, 1897. The work of veteran newsman Francis Pharcellus Church has since become history's most reprinted newspaper editorial, appearing in part or whole

We're Not In Kansas AnymoreAn eerie sky - I see you on the horizon. The clouds gathering in the distance ... the winds have been howling for hours and yet now it is deathly still. I know what comes next and yet I stand firmly on the grounds that the storm may indeed blow over leaving my heart and home unscathed. But that's never how it works right? I feel the foundation shake - the wood frame desperately clinging to its roots as if everything was dependent on holding fast ... and it is. It's too late - I see my walls torn and thrown asunder. As soon as the tornado is through, I survey the damage and feel foolish for staring blankly at the sky while it all happened. I know I will rebuild ... not in another city ... not even down the road but on the same foundation that sits here so strongly. My foundation cannot be rocked by such a breeze. I will lay plank by plank until my house is rebuilt ... a new coat of paint in a shade that makes you wish your breezes had carressed my siding rather than shatter my windows.

SeductionBeauty ... skin deep ... eye of the beholder ... fleeting ... comes from within. Why do we judge ourselves so harshly? Hairlines, bellies, stature ... who we are is so much more than this. We are beautiful creatures .... capable of love and of thought and of passion. We need to embrace this. Do not judge yourself ... let yourself be ... for who you are is certainly beautiful to someone close to you .. someone who longs to be close to that beauty. In denying yourself, you deny them and all the wonders that two people can experience when they accept that their beauty is not just within ... some inner light that shines despite their outward appearance ... but without ... in every crease, every white hair, every body ... everybody. Stand up today and be the beautiful one you are. Don't let your wonder be stifled by the tastes of another ... enjoy you ... be you. And open your eyes to others. See their eyes sparkle ... the way their mouth seduces you with every word. See them blush and wat

Cold Outside 11/19It's The Holidays & Baby It's Cold Outside!
Come & Join the Cold Outside Auction
Ends When Your Happy With Your Bid
All I need from you is your photo and your offers and I'll get you all set up :)
The first 10 entries I get for the auction will be enter in the rates contest and it will run for 3 weeks so come and join and tell all your friends.
There will be a 1st, 2nd, 3rd place winner
Below are the prize's that will be given to the winner's.
1st Place: my points for 12 hours & A Ticker

You ReYou're sexAnd I'm seething, teethingtearing, gnashingglaring at the sinewsin you...'ve been throughand threwthrough you.Your sexAnd I'm wanting, tauntingtouching, graspingclutching to the pastand it's passed and I'm lastbut not niceand not fast.Your skinAnd I'm tasting, wastingwarning, shakingscorning your paceand your face is disgraced by the grinand the gazeand your tongue tracing maze.You're sinAnd I'm sinning, grinningbiting, rippinghiding behind these wordswhile I shiver and shakeremake the bravadoand bravo for making believe.I'm twice the man I used to be, but half so when you leavebereftand you're rightand you left.

Karen..."You're always so pretty when you smile for the camera."That made you smile. Half lidded. You had that sultry way about you.It was just one moment, snapping that photo. Frozen on your face one of the few times you smiled honestly for pictures. I felt special. You felt soft."I think I can smell your hair, Karen."The look you gave me was priceless, I wish I had that on celluloid too. Shock, mixed with a derisive brow. As if you'd just walked unknowingly into the asylum.The sounds of the people all around us were so subdued. Background music. White noise.I remember, Leonard was playing on the stereo though, and we were drinking spiked punch from bad plastic cups.Someone said you looked like Jaclyn Smith. I kept thinking that Jaclyn Smith looked like you. You kept smiling through those eyes, and I was intoxicated. Narcotic air between us, and you were electric light. I was a stammering idiot.Watching you around the crowd, so fluid moving amongst people, and cliques. Never disturbing, merel

The Wall5:00 am
There is serenity in the waking, but never in the awoken. Every morning is the same day dawning in darkness, and with it, comes the pain. My fits of words are rambles, and the sun is spying over the horizon while I write by the flickering screen's light. My day has begun as the silence ends. Every day, is this day.
Last night's dream, every night's dream, echoes with silent vibration on the underbelly of my waking mind. The sweat I feel that chills, isn't earned, as much as it's owed. I know what they see when they look up. I am Wyatt Earp. I am Josey Wales. I am John Wayne. I know what I see when I look up. I am stained in crimson and tears. I am clenched, white knuckled to the handle. I am standing, holding trampled flowers.
I'd shake if I felt the disconnection anymore, the breaking of the dream. I don't though. I merely awake, and sit while The Duke recites the lines in my mind, and I imagine there are wooden sidewalks still, in America. I can hear the teapot

While You SleptI touched your face...while you slept...I thought I'd break, or weep.It felt like gossamer satin under the thick pads of my fingertips...it felt like silk, and heat. I don't remember if it always felt like this...or maybe I didn't always feel like this...I only know...I touched your face...While you slept I breathed your breath....I inhaled your skin...soaked in memories and lotion...I heard you breathe...I breathed your breath.You smelled of daisies, and a waning moon...like that day...October sky...Harvest smell...you barefoot, and I.... ...kissed your face...while you slept...and Iremember every freckle..every scar...every crease...of your skin..I touched your face..while you slept...I had to...because when I awake..you won't be sleeping....and I won't be in your dreams...where I kiss your mouth...while you sleep.I think I miss the moments when I'd wake...now I miss the moments when you'd sleep.

"missing""MISSING"
By: Matthew Pennison
There are others who think like me,
but they are far and few in between.
I wish we would all unite and start something new,
because unity in humans is something this earth hasn't seen.
If we have, there isn't a trace remaining but only in our dreams.
All creeds and every ethnicity should come together but yet,
maybe that's just what I think.
I know I'm not the smartest you see,
but I strive to find the missing link.
Here I stand rebuilt, ready to go and acheive,

What I Look For In A Man...AFTER ALOT OF THINKING I AM GOING TO TELL YOU WHAT I LOOK FOR IN A MAN....LMAOLooking for a man who lies, cheats and steals...a lot! I'd like to meet someone who is dishonest, lazy, mean, uneducated, unethical and rude. A previous arrest record is not necessary, but would be nice. You should know how to act like a king, preferably a drama king. And not be afraid to talk openly about your feelings, even in a crowded movie theater. You should also be a good communicator, understanding that yelling, screaming and swearing are effective in most conversations. I'd like someone who is open-minded enough to believe that unicorns and leprechauns are real, but also believes that things like hard work, deodorant and exercise are just myths. I like a man who enjoys spending time at the beach, or on long hikes in the woods, as a way to hide from police until "things settle down". You should enjoy a nice evening out shoplifting, or just staying home to cuddle with a nice porn video. And since I'm b

Awww!People Love That You're Kind and Compassionate
You're the kind of gal or guy who really enjoys putting other people first. You enjoy pitching in and making a difference. Your heart really goes out to anyone in need. In fact, it's difficult for you to turn your back on someone who's struggling. As long as you have friends who don't take advantage of you, your empathy is only a good thing. If there were more people in the world like you, you wouldn't feel like you have to look out for everyone.
What Do People Love About You? The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

Speech No Longer Free.I have been running into this alot lately that because I speak my mind I get banned from somewhere. Now it is not always mean. I am not always being disrespectful. But I do speak the truth.
If you are being a bitch or a dick guess what? I will tell you just like I expect you to do for me.
Politics is a big thing that gets me in trouble. I do think Obama is a tool and is destroying the country and no I am not a racist for thinking this way. The only racists are the ones using this lame defense for a broken idiot who is ether criminal or dumb as hell.
I will under every circumstance defend myself from stupid emo driven cyber bitches. If your life sux so bad that you must spread it online please expect me to tell you your being a pussy.
I am all for free speech. Say what you feel and deal with what happends but if you cant hear the truth or anothers opinion then stay the fuck away from me cause I dont hang with children.
Thanks

Death & LifeDeath Is nothing but another adventure, It takes you away yet it gives you new life at the same time, Death can make you sorrowful yet, death is a very joyous occasion on the passing of those who may have been sick or in pain giving them happiness and joy that they are no longer in suffering in there mortal lives. Death is a beautiful adventure so, embrace it, love it, have passion for it. Life, Life is a very horrible experience for most, Life causes more pain then anything else could possibly cause to a human. Life you go through pain, suffering, on some occasion’s life has some happiness but life is leading to a more joyous occasion Death. Death is Life eternally forever leaving behind your cover up and leading on to the most beautiful thing living eternally with God.

Grandma Gives Birth 13 Year After Being SterilisedA British grandmother, who was sterilised twice 13-years-ago, has given birth to a 'miracle' baby boy.
Grandma, 43, had the operation to stop her falling pregnant again after having her first three children. But three-months-ago she felt strange movements in her stomach and a test revealed she was six months pregnant. Now she is mother to health baby boy born last week, who is younger than her grandchildren. Grandma said : "At the end of July, I started feeling tired and then felt movements in my stomach. "I thought I could feel something - I thought it was wind at first but I was tired as well so I thought I better do a test. When she did a pregnancy test, she could not believe that she was six months pregnant. "I didn't really believe it until he came out," she said. She took fertility drug Clomid to speed up ovulation when she was 19 which helped her get pregnant with daughter, who is now 24 and a mother. Two years later, she conceived her first son Glen, who is now 19, and again w

Out With The Old & In With The New.Shit well lemme see I've been through hell & back however I will never let it get me down... I figure that if GOD wanted my ass he'd done already taken it 4 I am a fighter an always will be no matter what life throws @ me... It's been a long ass (YEAR) six month & 12 days since everything has happened to me... I am back an ready to get new an old friends into my world if you will...lol... We shall see what may come, although 4 now just think of me as a person you can chat with without judging....

Godsmack — I Fucking Hate You
LYRICS:
For everything you doI'd like to swallow youAnd everyday I'm gonna blame youEven if you justifyEvery fucking bullshit lieIt only makes me want to break youYou pull me downAnd you crucify my nameYou make me insaneIt's broken nowDon't ever look my wayDon't even think I'm playin''Cause I fucking hate youYou're such a liarAnd I love to hate youYou're all the same to meWhen you repeatedlyTake advantage of meThe only thought I get of you sickens meEverybody knows you're fakeYou're everything I fucking hateAnd I'm everything that you could never beYou pull me downAnd you crucify my nameYou make me insaneIt's broken nowDon't ever look my wayDon't even think I'm playin''Cause I fucking hate youYou're such a liarAnd I love to hate youYou're all the same to meI fucking you hate youYou're such a liarAnd I love to hate youYou're all the same to me(Fuck you)(Fuck you)(Fuck you)You pull me downAnd you crucify my nameYou make me insaneIt's broken nowDon't ever look my wayDon't even think I

Life, Love & Confusion Just something that is begging to be let out. Kinda like a melody you cannot seem to get out of your head. I spent the first 17 yrs of my life dying to be an adult , now what i wouldn't give to see things from a child's perspective again. Growing up we are told to follow our hearts and love freely and unconditionally. Love is always returned. NO it's not.
When and how do you decide that enough is enough. How long do you love someone, without knowing how the feel. This listening to my heart stuff is starting to seem like a horrible idea. At least listening to my head keeps the tears away.
But how do you walk away from the person who makes your soul do backflips? The person who you can't seem to go one day without having some sort of contact with? The person you would rather spend the rest of your life fighting with , then be without them? Love is not supposed to hurt? Yet another LIE. Anything worth doing is worth doing right.
But what about that little voice in the

Sex EdWhen Jane initially met Tarzan in the jungle, she was attracted to him, and during her questions about his life, she asked him how he had sex ? "Tarzan not know sex" he replied. Jane explained to him what sex was. Tarzan said "Oh,.Tarzan use knot hole in trunk of tree." Horrified Jane said, "Tarzan you have it all wrong, but I will show you how to do it properly." She took off her clothing and laid down on the ground. "Here" she said, pointing to her privates; "you must put it in here." Tarzan removed his loin cloth, showing Jane his considerable manhood, stepped closer to her and kicked her in the crotch! Jane rolled around in agony for what seemed like an eternity. Eventually she managed to gasp for air and screamed "What did you do that for?" Tarzan replied, "Check for squirrel first! lmfao

Curly Hair Rocks!!
Hello people :D
You Should Have Curly Hair
You are cheerful, outgoing, and downright bouncy. People find you to be very personable and real. You are confident in your own skin, and you don't feel like you have to fake anything. You are very independent and unique. You wouldn't like to look like every other person on the street. People find that you're honest, and it's easy to trust you. Others expect you to be honest in all facets of your life.
Should You Have Straight Hair or Curly Hair?
Work is Hard. Time for Blogthings!

This Open For Any Culinary Questions...Please feel free to ask me any culinary or dietary questions you might have. The culinary arts are my number 1 passion in life (even ahead of girls-they come in a very close second and are actually an inspiration for my culinary master piece). Need to borrow any of my personal recipes let know.

Crossing The Borders IllegalyIF YOU CROSS THE NORTH KOREAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET 12 YEARS HARD LABOR......IF YOU GO INTO CHINA ILLEGALLY, YOUR CONSIDERED A SPY AND GET HARD PRISON TIME.....IF YOU GO INTO GERMANY ILLEGALLY, YOU GET A HEFTY FINE, WORK IT OFF OR PAY IT OFF, THEN DEPORTED........IF YOU GO INTO ENGLAND ILLEGALLY, YOU ARE IMMEDIATELY JAILED AND DEPORTED........IF YOU CROSS THE IRANIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU ARE DETAINED INDEFINITELY....BUT, IF YOU CROSS THE U.S. .. BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET: 1. A DRIVERS LICENSE 2. A SOCIAL SECURITY CARD 3. WELFARE 4. FOOD STAMPS AND 5. FREE HEALTH CARE?I guess I still don't understand...maybe we need to VOTE OUR LAWMAKERS OUT.

YouI am not going to name names, but if it fits, you might want to think about it. One or more may apply to the same person. If it really bothers you that one may be about you feel free to ask in my mail but do not get mad if I am honest.1. You only talk to me when you have no one else around to speak to.2. You ask me to rate your pictures and others stuff yet you cannot take time to rate mine unless it is NSFW.3. You have known me for years, yet we barely speak anymore.4. You are a constant source of laughs when you text me.5. You only speak to me because you seem to feel obligated.6. You were one of my sweetest friends until you decided to hang out with the wrong sorts.7. You are MY constant, and I love you for it.8. You have a wonderful boyfriend who adores you; I hope you do not take that for granted.9. You have become like a big brother to me and I cherish you.10. You always pop around my inbox just to say have a wonderful/great/magnificent day and I appreciate you for that.11. You a

This Is For Ma ChatonWell now down my memories through nightmares,
along lonely roads paved with the fallen.
I walk alone, always alone.
Forever searching for ma chaton,
I pass a way gate and for a moment I scent her,
but the wind changes and the scent vanishes.
Where is ma chaton?
how did I lose her?
where can I find her?
A sudden change in the wind,
nothing but a breeze but a scent is in it.
It is HER!
MA CHATON!
I run, fast and sure, following my nose,
through way gate after way gate!
through time and space,
I claw at the very walls of the void!
tearing a hole I move fast into a strange jungle,
always following her delicate scent.
Through to brush I see her looking alone and frightened
I run to her and take her into my arms holding her close as my wings enclosed her protectively hearing her small mew then who content sigh as she snuggles against my chest,
I look down the and kisses her deeply before whispering “I will hold you forever ma chaton! And I will never lose you ag

Paramore - The Only Exception
When I was youngerI saw my daddy cryAnd cursed at the windHe broke his own heartAnd I watchedAs he tried to reassemble itAnd my momma swore thatShe would never let herself forgetAnd that was the day I promisedI'd never sing of loveIf it does not existBut darlin,You, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionMaybe I know, somewhereDeep in my soulThat love never lastsAnd we've got to find other waysTo make it aloneOr keep a straight faceAnd i've always lived like thisKeeping a comfortable, distanceAnd up until nowI had sworn to myself that I was contentWith lonelinessCos none of it was ever worth the risk, butYou, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionYou, are, the only exceptionI've got a tight grip on realityBut I can'tLet go of what's in front of me hereI know your leavingIn the morning, when you wake upLeave me with some proof its not a dreamOhh---You, are, the only exceptionY

Retired HusbandRETIRED HUSBAND:After I retired, my wife insisted that I accompany her on her trips to Target. Unfortunately, like most men, I found shopping boring and preferred to get in and get out. Equally unfortunate, my wife is like most women - she loves to browse.Yesterday my dear wife received the following letter from the local Target.Over the past six months, your husband has caused quite a commotion in our store. We cannot tolerate this behavior and have been forced to ban both of you from the store. Our complaints against your husband, Mr. Samsel, are listed below and are documented by our video surveillance cameras.1. June 15: Took 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in other people's carts when they weren't looking.2. July 2: Set all the alarm clocks in House wares to go off at 5-minute intervals.3. July 7: He made a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the women's restroom.4. July 19: Walked up to an employee and told her in an official voice, 'Code 3 in House wares. Get

An Angel Has Gone Home
TO SIGN MY HUSBANDS OBITUARIE IF YOU WANT TO SAY GOODBYE OR WHATEVER YOU WANT TO SAY TO OUR PRECIOUS MICKEY AKA SR DARK KNIGHT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE THAT GOT TOOKEN WAY TO YOUNG. DEB http://www.funeralplan2.com/lawjones/obits?id=182692 ALSO I KNOW ALOT OF YOU KNEW THE BOTH OF US OR JUST HIM AND WOULD WANT TO PAY YOUR LAST RESPECTS SO THIS IS HERE FOR YOU ALSO, GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU AND BARE WITH ME THREW THIS GUY WRENCHING NIGHTMARE IN MY LIFE AND TRY TO LOVE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN, AND YES TRUE LOVE CAN HAPPEN ANYWHERE WE MET ON FUBAR 3 YEARS AGO AND GOT MARRIED IN REAL LIFE AND I WOULD HAVE RATHER LOVED HIM THEN TO HAVE NEVER KNOWN HIM SO THANK YOU FUBAR FOR A WONDERFUL GIFT LETTING ME MEAT MY SOULMATE ON YOUR SITE. LINK TO HIS PROFILE AS WELL RIP SR DARK KNIGHT~R/L HUBBY 2 SINFULLY DELICIOUS PROMO CHIEF 2ND ALARM HOTTIES~ LOVED MANY & LOVED RIP SR DARK KNIGHT~R/L HUBBY 2 SINFULLY DELICIOUS BLONDIE ECS~DSC~ LOVED MANY & LOVED@ fubar here is a blog done by a beautiful friend

Weeeeeeeeeeee!Happy fucking Monday!!
I love you all, you're awsome! Over 1000 photo rates yesterday! (h)
Taking the litle one to the park today.
Still more cleaning to do around the house.
Yes, my ass still hurts. (Cracked tailbones are a bitch)
Only 43 days till Lewis gets here!!!!
That is all. Carry on now :D
Have a GREAT ONE!!

God's PromisesGOD HATH NOT PROMISED
SKIES ALWAYS BLUE,
FLOWER-STREWN PATHWAYS
ALL OUR LIVES THROUGH;
GOD HATH NOT PROMISED
SUN WITHOUT RAIN,
JOY WITHOUT SORROW,
PEACE WITHOUT PAIN.
BUT GOD HATH PROMISED
STRENGTH FOR THE DAY
REST FOR THE LABOR,
LIGHT FOR THE WAY,
GRACE FOR THE TRIAL
HELP FROM ABOVE,
UNFAILING SYMPATHY
UNDYING LOVE.

The Seclution Of My Mind Is Safer Then The Outside World....As the saying gose Normal People Scare me lol: I am sorry but as it stand this statement is very true to with all of the bullshit and games being played both on the net and off the net I joined fu-bar for an escape the pains of reality and maybe make new friends,but i quickly learned that there was no real difference, its hard to explain the reasone why but ill try and make it simple net and non -net are the same probably because of the people though the net is supposed to be a gate way to fun and fantasy its become a mess just like real life for the people that came to it for help decided to acttually live it therefore bringing there real lifes together with the internet. Damn people its the internet you can live after death ,you can fly,you can do any thing, But You Cant not live your real life here though many try....and this is why normal people scare me and Even with all My own demons and occasional angels that live there, I find it odd and intriguing that (as dangerous, co

My SongsOn my Youtube site I have 4 clips with me singing in the background. They all have copywright concerns but what the heck I'm never going to make any money with my voice. lol
Here is the link to the page
http://www.youtube.com/user/MobyDick725
What'll I do.......
Always On My Mind...........
The Superman Love Theme...........................This one Warner Bros won't let me put an external link to it but it lets me have it on youtube
Younger Than Springtime. ............
The other clips I made or they are of my daughter singing and dancing at dance school or when she was in the play Annie playing Molly.

Eat, Pray, Love
People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mate's purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...

Tewdope  Gilf Said To Do This , You FfInstructions......
Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least a people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you.
1. im obsessed with working out
2. if i do something bad , i do feel guilty
3. im the shit at online games FF
4. i will fuck cindy 1 day !!!!
5. im a lesbian trapped in a mans body
6. im good at EVERYTHING
7. when i say i love someone i really mean it
8. i like to do all xmas shopping b4 november
9. i have OCD about certain things
10. i shave my balls lol
repost with your answers if you get this !!!!

DacryphiliaRefers to someone that is aroused by seeing tears in the eyes of their partner.

Does Beauty Transcend......Through the coldness and impersonal contact of the cyber world, one does not often take the time to look and find that special spark of beauty and feeling when conversing with others. While it may happen by chance, one does come across that which can only be seen as natures view of perfection. One can make a happenstance connection with a special someone that exudes both charm and grace. One can find that by simply taking the time to ever so carefully get to know someone.......you find that through the miles of cabling, electronics and magic which is the computer......a real beauty shines forth.
In clumsily forging a new friendship, a new relationship with an image......a heartfelt posting, you find the perfection of a rose. It is not often that one feels the utter charm, grace and beauty in a cyber world friend. The shear elegance of words cannot adequately define the feeling of radiance that this special woman puts forth. In this new found union of minds....one can see and

♥tag!!Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names. You can't tag the person who tagged you.1. I hate when people call me Chris, short for Christy.2. I dance around my Apartment in my socks to old pop songs.3. I chew on straws all the time.4. I'm addicted to the feeling of tattoos.5. I wear ribbion in my hair.6. I once found a snake in my car.7. I eat Chiense food at least once a week.8. Vodka will make me do just about anything.9. I scrunch my nose when I'm mad. 10. When i laugh I snort.

{perfectly Imperfect}Just Because
Your words of compassionShows that you careA rose "just because"With many you share.
Your stories have meaningWith laughter and tearsTelling parts of your lifeDoing what others fear.
So to you I applaudAs I have from the startFor being Perfectly ImperfectAnd sharing your heart.

Witch / WarlockWitch / Warlock
Encountering persons with supernatural powers, or becoming those persons ourselves, is a common dream image. In the case of occult power dreams, there may be unique elements of personal projection of will power by you upon others or by others against you. Who is the occult personality, you or someone else?
How these powers are projected is important. If they are projected by you onto others, you may feel as though they have an unfair advantage and you want to level the playing field. Another version of this dream is that you may want others to appreciate your influence more. A third option is that you have repressed anger towards another. Still another possibility is that you may want someone to become romantically attracted to you. You may be projecting the power onto a stranger, who is likely a representation of someone else in your life or a representation of a part of yourself.
If another is projecting power on you, it is likely that you believe others are pul

Wait For Mei met you in a very strange placewe hit it off i felt like a rocket going to outerspacei was scared to talk to you at firstnow i cant go a day without getting a thirstwake up at 930 to call you on your ride into worktalk for hours but seemed like foreveri love how i helped you remember how to smile why did you fall in love with my smirkim at a loss for words ill come up with something in a moments whilemy mind feels like that of a 60 year old man after 59 years of hard worki didnt know what i was getting myself intoalot of these feelings were newborn to mewe use to make each other laugh and smilenow it seems were walking away from each other mile by milei want to stay with you foreverbut now it seems like it will be neverwhy do we make things so complicated to achievewhen you tell me one thing and write something differentit makes me crazy and hazymy broken heart has left me feeling absentis everything too big of a giftyou speak in a tongue i dont understand im not very affluentyou say

I Have Been Tagged.Instructions......
Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you.
So here goes,
1. I would be lost without my internet friends to talk to.
2. I am a nervous driver, if I get out of my 'comfort zone' I break out and hyperventilate. (not kidding)
3. If I ever have the freedom to do it I really (freaking out or not) want to visit a bunch of my internet friends.
4. Some of my friends consider me one of their loudest friends and I really really don't get that.
5. It really bothers me to not be acknowledged when I walk into a room.
6. I'm very un-decisive.
7. I think I'm fat, but am mostly comfortable with it.
8. I am an older sister.
9. I'm 2 inches talle

Just Some Beautiful WordsYou Feel Me In The Darkness ... I See You Through The Mists, My Presence Fuels Your Passions.... That Makes My Blood Run Hot, I Cannot Return To Your World, But You Can Enter Mine, Cast Away The Gold That Keeps Us Apart.... Reach Out And Take My Hand .... Eternity Awaits Us..

Not Always Right | Saved By The BossTech Support | Summerville, SC, USA
Me: “Thank you for calling tech support. What can I–”
Caller: “F*** YOU, B****! YOU G**D*** WOMEN HAVE NO F***ING RIGHT TO BELITTLE ME! B****!”
Me: “Um, sir, I think you have the wrong–”
Caller: “I SAID F*** YOU!”
Me: “Sir, this is tech support.”
Caller: “What?! Um…I mean…um…” *click*
(A few moments later, the phone rings again and I answer.)
Me: “Hello, tech support. What may I–”
Same caller: “F*** YOU!”
Me: “Sir, you have the wrong number.”
Same caller: *click*
(My boss who has been observing this the whole time decides to step in.)
Boss, to me: “I’ll handle the phone now.”
(Not surprisingly, the phone rings again. My boss picks it up, and before the guy on the other end can say anything…)
Boss: “Sir, if you keep pressing redial, you will keep reaching the

Not Always Right | The Wind In The WindowsCall Center | Orlando, FL, USA
Me: “Thank you for calling ***. How may I help you today?”
Caller: “I’m having problems with my computer and–”
(Suddenly, what sounds like an air raid siren sounds off in the background.)
Me: “Ma’am, I apologize. I was unable to hear what you said.”
Caller: “Stupid tornado warnings! They always make it hard to talk on the phone.”
Me: “Oh…should I let you go?”
Caller: “Nah. This happens all of the time.”
(In addition to the siren, I hear a door slam and the sound of someone else entering the room. I hear a male voice who I guess is the caller’s husband.)
Caller’s husband: “D*** it woman, are you crazy?! Get to the basement!”
Caller: “Oh, I guess I should go…” *hangs up*

Not Always Right | Cutty Out The AttitudeKindergarten Class | New Zealand
(I am working in a kindergarten where over half of the kids are Maori. The Maori word for scissors is ‘kutikuti,’ which is pronounced ‘cutty cutty’.)
Me, to a child: “Can you pass me the kutikuti please?”
Mother: “What did you say to my child?”
Me: “I asked her to pass me the scissors.”
Mother: “Don’t talk baby to my child. She’s smart enough to use adult words.”
Me: “I wasn’t. I was using the Maori name for scissors.”
Mother: “No, you said cutty cutty. That’s not Maori. I’m Maori, and I think I know Maori when I hear it.”
(The child interrupts. She grabs her mom by the hand and drags her off to a poster on the wall which has a few art objects and their Maori names under them.)
Child: “Mom, why do you always have to pick fights with people? I’m very disappointed in you!”
(When her mother left I gave

Not Always Right | Hair In Mid-airPet Groomer | Orem, UT, USA
(A customer brings in a beautiful long haired Shih Tzu for a trim up. As I am petting the dog, I feel that she is very matted.)
Me: “I am sorry, but Missy is very matted. She needs to be shaved down very close to her skin.”
Customer: “Oh no, she’s not matted. Can’t you see how long her fur is? I brush her every day.”
Me: “I’m sure you do, ma’am, but you are only getting the hair on top. The hair on the bottom has become very matted and needs to be shaved.”
Customer: “Can’t you just shave the bottom and leave the top?”

Just The Beginning (part 2 Of The Broken By Kitty Simpson)Part 2 Just the beginning*As the dark mistress walks over to the table on the other side of the room She lightsfour candles putting a light glow over the room. The light dances over the walls to what seems to be a forgotten melody. The misteress takes one candle out of its holderWalking over to her struggling victim. She pulls the flame close to his face. His darkeyes glow at the burning flame..the sweat falling from his forehead gleams like a diamond sky. The baroness smiles wickedly holding back a chuckle she says to him "Whats the matter? Scared of a little fire?..Well dont worry my pet. I wont burn you.Not yet anyway..If you are good..this will only hurt a little" The young mans eyeswiden with fear as he mumbles under his gag.**The demonic goddess pulls a lever next to her feet..The mans chains loosen as she pushes him backward. His chains spread his arms and legs as he is hanging in the air.Running her nails over his thighs she pulls out her knife..Sliding it up his shorts..Slicin

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I Only Love and Adore You
by Shaniya 4 my Wonderful Hubby 2 Be.
I love you in a place where there's no space or time I love you with my life that you have made divine. There's a world waiting for just us two picture it in your mind that's where we'll always stay together till the end of time. I've got you under my skin deep in the heart of me just look into my eyes and know that you're all I see. Life will never be the way we want but I can be satisfied just knowing that you love me and will always be by my side as I am by yours.

I Got Some Good News Todaywell my sister in-law Brittany went in a like a week or so ago went in for a pet scan done(that were they see how the cancer is looking) and well they got the results back and they could not find any of the Hodgkin's lymphoma!!!!!! She still have to go in for kemo for the rest of the year, (thats only like 3 or 4 more times)

My Being HereI joined this site on August 9th this year,now I think it time for me to leave.
1.Because I may have offended some people and
2.I may have hurt some peoples feelings.
That is certainly not the reason I came here it was to meet new people and make friends but It seems I have done the opposite of what I did come for,I don't know when or if I will come back and incase I don't I want to do at least one thing right and wish you all a Happy and Safe Holiday Season.

10 Best Risque Christmas Songs Now, it's time for the nitty-gritty...The 10 Best Risque Christmas Songs Ever Made! I'm talking about the kind of Yuletide songs you wouldn't be caught dead caroling in the streets or at a Christmas Eve service! However, suppose this year you throw (or get invited to) a Christmas party where an exotic dancer is hiding behind the tree, draped in red and white. (Hey, it can happen!) OR, maybe, you're planning a romantic evening in front of the tree with your loved one and you want to put on some seasonal tunes to get you in a freak-on mood. Here are the songs for those kind of occasions:
1. Ben Light and His Surf Club Boys, "Christmas Balls" (c. 1936, bootlegged in the 1940s.) See what I mean?
2. Ella Fitzgerald (!), "Santa Got Stuck In My Chimney" (1950) This song created so much controversy that it never got re-issued as a single. Well worth the search, though, if you ever find it.
3. Eartha Kitt, "Santa Baby" (1953) Need I say more?
4. Clarence Carter, "Back Door Santa" (1968)

MistakesThe good thing about mistakes...... There better than REGRETS....... :)

TributeTo those who stand against the perverse abhorrent monstrosity known as the church of scientology
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Letter To My Baby!Dear Kent,
who are we to judge the wheels of fate to presume we understand, fate has no open window for us to see through as it shows its hand, cryptic or transparent we will never really know or see, but one thing i do know fate sent you to me, if perfect does exist and theres a perfect match for us all, then baby hear me now you answered cupids call, for in you i see perfect in all i have got to see, especially in your heart i think its made for me, time will tell i guess , but i know i love you!, your heart is different its unselfish and true, and i really do love every little thing that you do, you see my beauty that it comes from inside, and so far my love i know you have not lied, deception is something you could never do, and the words i love you mean something to you, so on my heart i have opened the latch, for i think that just maybe, your my perfect match
I L U
Shaniya

Adam Lambert's Advancing Of The Gay AgendaSeems to me that the “queer stomping” was done on stage by Adam Lambert. When people act this badly, how can you blame normal, decent people for criticizing? Gays need to keep their sexual practices in the privacy of their own homes, not on stage and TV, not in parades down main street in San Francisco, just keep it private for God’s sake!! They are flaunting this and then expect us to remain silent. Just keep your private acts private…geez! How hard is that to understand? Satan is alive and well in the entertainment industry, and we are supposed to just smile tolerently and try to shield our children from the worst of it. Disgusting…filthy and terminally evil. By the way, MOST gays understand this and are decent people. I’m talking about the flaming liberal gays who think we all should love their lifestyles no matter how ugly and disgusting they act in public. They don’t realize that they are setting the gay agenda back by turning most peop

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Sex And LoveIt's always a constant debate in my mind.
The never-ending quarrel between the two supreme forces.
I'm not talking about good and evil, but of sex and love.
Which of the two is more powerful?
Which of the two has the better end?
Which of the two is more enjoyable?
We'll look at this rationally.
Sex is real. Sex is raw.You can hold sex. Smell sex.Taste, hear, see sex. Sex is real. Sex is raw. Sex creates, sex destroys.
On the other end of this debate, Love is an abstraction. Love is beautiful. Love digs its way into your very core and makes you feel almost euphoric.Love is inspiration. Love is greatness.Love creates, love destroys.
Now, both of these forces together helped spawn this sudden burst of poetic muse.So, I'm not too sure which one is greater, and I'm not sure if it even matters. They're both therein some way or another.

My Poetry ..A creative outlet for feelings when I'm down.....
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Black Rose @%~~
When rainfall comesAnd nourishes needed lifeWhy am I left alone?Within this meadow of unseen light..For I wish to feel nourishment too,But I have not touched the beauty,That bliss.. Earth has bestowed upon you..For each new day which dawnsI watch the sun, slowly fading away,Leaving over horizon, Hope is goneThe promise of tommorrow, left todayGone with all the light;memories once cherished a timeNow that I wither in shadows of despair;I am exiled of all the feelings,I cannot find..
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Withered (Black Rose II...)
Into another sunset,I watched harmony fade with a dayAnd just when I thought;Light of a suns salvation would touch me..That dream too, has all but withered awayOf desolate darkness,Seemingly all I have ever known..Though with hope still awaiting sunlightTo free from the foundation of sorrowStemming from roots of a pain I've sownAnd yet beauty once beheld me,

The EndHands gripping the counter
In my small bathroom cell
I gaze into the mirror
And look upon a broken being
Torn apart on the inside
Looking complete on the outside
Noone but myself knowing
What truly lies within
I slide my hand upward
Cold metal steel brushes my thumb
I gaze lovingly at the object
That will solve it all
I hold it gingerly
Like a long forgotten lover
Brushing it over my finger
I run it down my arm
Starting as light as a feather
Increasing the pressure bit by bit
Until my skin is covered in scarlet
I turn on the water, holding my arm above
I switch hands
Treating my other arm in the same reguard
I step into the tub fully clothed
Turning on the shower I lean back
Letting the hot water scald my skin
I laugh to myself quietly
Knowing I alone can see the humor
Slowly dying on the inside
Now dying on the outside
I lean back and close my eyes
Focusing on the sounds
A smile upon my lips
As I fade into nothingness

Relations...sighpeople we see, people we meetwe never know what we seek.are we looking for friendshipor something more, beforewe even step out the door.is it a glance. or a looka touch that attracts, ora combination of all thatmakes us act?when the meeting happenswhat makes it last?what makes it fall apart?is it the yelling. the dirty looks.the anger. mistakes. if youve been her please post

Love Pain Hurtthis pain I have you can not see
this pain i have is deep in me
what lies on the surface is all you see
why do I let you in just to hurt me
you say you love me
but this I don't see
I know you are you and I am me
but together we could be
sometimes we don't always see what we need
but I love you and you love me
you need to open to me
and i will show you what I can be
I'm sorry i'm depressed this you see
all i ask is common courtesy
you are truely worth it to me
love me or leave me
the choice is yours
but forever in my heart you will be
baby I love you and I hope you love me

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Epic failure...you really DIDN'T read my profile...or my status...dumbass

Lets See Nowwhat does the government have to worry about?
_record deficeits
_2 wars with American dying daily
_energy shortages
_10% unemployment with record industrial capacity loss
_I could probably go on for awhile here...
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what the government is worrying about?
_Mr & Mrs Nobody crashed a state dinner and shook hands with the U.S. President
_yeah, sounds like regular government logic to me...

Untitled Sexy PoemUntitled I watched the reflection of a classic Bogart? in a mirror above a naked debutante she was paying her way through film school She kept watching the movie instead of moving her titties She knew Bogart would save her Bogart never left a damsel in distress, but he drove them there sometimes

A Short LeashSometimes on the weekendsWe go for a driveSometimes we take the dogsAnd let them run At the dog parkThey are allowed to run freeBut I keep herOn a short leash