Tuesday, March 27, 2012

One "worldly" month

It's been one month. One month since that precious little boy went to be with his Maker. He got to wake up in the arms of the one who so intricately designed those sweet cheeks, jagged teeth, brown eyes, and hair that did nothing but fall in his face.

We are experiencing a pain right now that might be harder than the first initial pain of disbelief and trauma. This is the pain that is not going to go away. This is the pain that even in a joyful moment, you are quickly reminded that there is something missing and your heart just aches.

The only thing that seems to bring a little comfort is to simply stop and say "Jesus be near me."

It's hard to explain, but I don't think it was meant to be explained. For anyone who has truly experienced Jesus knows what I'm talking about. He is with you and wants more than anything to be with you. You just have to acknowledge Him.

I found myself taking great comfort in this verse this morning. "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33

That verse gives me chills. He knew. He knew the heart ache and troubles that we were going to experience in this world. And now my little boy sits with the One who conquered death.

I have never felt so stuck in a "worldly" world. But I choose to be here and fulfill the Lord's purpose until He takes me home. We are in constant prayer about what that purpose is while we continue to miss and grieve our son who is no longer with us.

Jesus also said to his disciples, "I am going away and I am coming back to you. If you loved me, you would be glad that I am going to the Father, for the Father is greater than I."

9 comments:

John 16:33 is my absolute favorite verse in the Bible...so great to cling to. and I've never read that last passage you posted in the way I am now...thanks for posting that...super encouraging. love you sis

Psalm 39:4-5 "Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered--how fleeting my life is. You have made my life no longer than the width of my hand. My entire lifetime is just a moment to you; at best, each of us is bus at breath."

God has been using this verse in my life as we process this situation and mourn with you all and pray for you guys and your families. I think sometimes because this life is all we know it is hard (maybe even impossible) to understand that one day this "worldly" life we are living is going to seem like just a breath in the light of eternity.

Amy, my daughter Stacy works with your mom and my friend Becky Bryan is also friends with your mom. Please know that you and your husband and your mom and your family have been in my prayers.

This is a verse that Stacy posted on her blog a couple weeks ago. I thought of it as I read yours this evening and I wanted to share it with you. "I am certain that I will see the Lord's goodness in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be courageous and let your heart be strong. Wait for the Lord." Psalms 27:13-14

I work with Mary Katherine. Each time I see Tucker's sweet picture on her desk, I say a prayer in my heart for your peace. Tucker is a beautiful child, living with Jesus in Heaven and I know through our faith that you will be with him one day. Praying for your family's strength. Sending our love to you through MK.Linda Doyle