Screw up

I made a mistake, i know I did. But im trying to make up for it. And no matter how nice im trying to be. It just seems like you dont care. Like I get I hurt your feelings, and Im sorry. If I could stand on top of a building and scream how sorry I am, I would. I was selfish and naiive. And… Im sorry.

I keep saying it to you, and you keep saying its okay. But really i know its not. Im trying can you give me any credit for it? Yeah we fought over money it might have been something stupid, but i didnt have any, what am i suppose to do.

Dear god,

Why do i always have to be a screw up? Why am i like this? Ihave a hard time looking at myself in the mirror and even liking myself. I always have to hurt the ones i love, why? Why is that? Why cant i just accept everyone and be nice. And not ruin someones day. Why?