Saturday, January 23, 2010

I woke this morning with a heavy heart and too much on my mind. Just wasn't feeling the business today. Uh-un. But alas, time stands still for no person and I'm no exception. So I'm doing my best to work through my frustrations and regrets and get started with the day. I hate having to work Saturdays. Where everyone else can kick back and relax, my ass is up and slaving away. Well, maybe not slaving...but you get the idea.

Realize why I haven't blog much lately, there's been deep seeded issues too humiliating to post. Every time I sit down in front of the keyboard, that little Jiminy Cricket in my head tells me not to. Shame has been working overtime but I'm attempting to stay positive, so if you don't see words from me, just know I'm doing what needs to be done behind the scenes. This morning I had a conversation with God and for the first time in a long time I think I heard him answer back. Can't describe the sitch, but He understands my worries and the insecurities. I laid it there in front of Him and now I prepare to go about today with purpose (whatever purpose I serve in His plans).

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

What's good people? Know it's been a while since I sat down and wrote a blog post. Not much going on to discuss except the normal routine. The only thing been up is work, work, work, and more work. Well that and getting ready for my trip to California next month. Lord. As anticipation mounts, the more stressed I'm becoming. Story for another time...

On my mind this morning is some encouragement to all those lonely souls out there, searching for whoevah to grace your side, stay focused and be vigilant. Yeah, that's coming from me, Mr. I-will-never-find-nobody. Nope, haven't found anyone, but lately I've been feeling good just enjoying spending company with myself, delighting in all the wonderfulness I have to offer. If no one else wants it right now, well that's fine.

I'm pressed for time this morning, but I'm hoping that life will give you a purpose and a statement to the universe. Hang in there. It's gonna be all right.

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