Financial Double Edged Sword

Well, first of all Welcome! To all my new readers. I’ll try not to bore you with talking about my cat or student loan debt too much. 🙂 Also, feel free to drop me a line at smalltown20something@gmail.com if you want to chat!

I woke up really early this morning, and my mind was racing everywhere. I was thinking about my student loans (which is a nightmare, really) and I just couldn’t get back to bed. So I got up, and ended up taking a nap for a few hours this morning.

Which leaves me with the fact that it is now NOON, and I haven’t really got much accomplished today.

SO my plan for today (I must warn you, it’s THRILLING!):

Roll Coins

Take bottles to redemption center

Working on my portfolio so that I can try to get some freelance clients!

Hopefully launch my little etsy store!? This is really the only fun part of my day. I have a few bracelets made, and I’m going to work on some reflective dog and cat collars. Though I’m going to branch out. I’m also planning on making a watch and possibly some headbands! So stay tuned!

I don’t know if it’s the fact that I woke up at 5AM thinking of student loans, and that is why my financial situation is on my mind today. I don’t know. But I’m feeling like my finances are a double edged sword. I am so incredibly thankful and greatful for what I have. I have this computer that I use for blogging, I have parents who make sure I eat. I have a roof over my head, I warm bed to sleep in, and cats and a dog to cuddle with. I feel so lucky that my parents have always been able to provide for my sister and I, and I really hope I can return the favor to them when they are much much older. But it’s hard to know that pretty much all the money I have right now needs to go to the student loan payments I need to make. I kind of wish I had some spending money, to buy silly (kind of) frivolous things.

I’ve pretty much realized that I’m not going to be able to see Eileen and Kyle before they go to Alaska like I wanted to. I was really hoping to hang out, do bloggy things with Eileen and see them. But it’s just going to have to wait.

So yeah, that’s where I’m at today. Thankful for what I have, but kind of wishing I was in a better situation financially, so that I wouldn’t have to worry about spending a few dollars buying my favorite drink from Starbucks.