I dialed 911 a long time ago
Now I see I'm late in reacting
Here, shapes of former lovers, lives just painted there
Like the life of a trainwreck just waiting to happen

My God:
Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'm not here and this isn't happening)
Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'll wake up and she'll be next to me)

I can't believe that she's gone

Marvel as this madman has his makeshift monster rip through the room
Watch in fear as he comes completely unglued
Gaze in horror and amazement for a frightening instant
As he christens the walls with broken bottles of perfume (perfume)
Her final moments must have been a nightmare
The waking victim lies, violently shaking

My God:
Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'm not here and this isn't happening)
Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'll wake up and she'll be next to me)
Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'm not here and this isn't happening)
Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'll wake up and she'll be next to me)

I can't breathe
(I don't deserve to take these breaths)
All I need
(Is to sit and rest my head)
On my knees
(The ambulance and police will be here soon)

I can't see

I can't feel, numb to everything
I can't feel, numb to everything
I can't feel, numb to everything
Except my body, shutting down as they enter my home

Make this a dream, because I really can't believe that she's gone (she's gone, she's gone...)
Make this a dream, because I really can't believe that she's gone (she's gone, she's gone...)
Make this a dream, because I really can't believe that she's gone (she's gone, she's gone...)
Make this a dream, because I really can't believe that she's gone

Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'm not here and this isn't happening)
Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'll wake up and she'll be next to me)
Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'm not here and this isn't happening)
Make this a dream because I really can't believe that she's gone
(I'll wake up and she'll be next to me)

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General CommentI may be jumping the gun on what this story's about but i'm guessing he killed his lover in some psychotic rage and now he can't believe what he did and he's starting to go insane (i can't feel, numb to everything) because of what he did - and cause he's pycho to begin with

General CommentThis is a concept album. Which means that the entire album tells a story. Each song is a different installment in the story of the nameless patient. Somtimes the perspective is switched from the patient to the doctor to the deceased wife. My interpretation of the story goes as follows.

Introducing - The doctor is talking about how he has released the patient from the hospital again, indicating it's not the first time he's been released. The patient was hospitalized because he suffered from violent horrible nightmares and killed his wife whom he loved very much in his sleep. The patient is catatonic, which is just a state of non-responsivness, almost.

Dreaming - This song is about the night that the Patient kills his wife. He suffocates her while having a nightmare.

Waking - The Patient wakes up to realise what he's done. He calls the police and turns himself in and he is waiting for the ambulance. He can't believe what he's done, he wants to take it back. He covers the house with her perfume.

Sentencing - The judge and the doctors decide whether to charge him with murder and send him to jail or decalre him mentaly instable and send him to the hospital. The doctor thinks he shoudl be hospitalized.

Medicating - The Patient is in the hospital and tries to convince the doctor to release him. He wants to go back to his life and he thinks that the hospital is just making him worse. The doctor agrees and releases him from the hospital.

Purging - The Patient hsa been released and is returning into society. Everyone is shocked at his quick return into society/work considering what he did. The guilt becomes overpowering inside of him and he cuts off his hands so he won't ever kill again.

Relapsing - The Patient is back in the hospital after cutting off his hands and he begins to hear his wife's voice in his head. He begins trying to fill his emptiness by writing a song inside his head.

Recovering - The Patient is on medication since he is catatonic and he is also obviously on painkillers due to his lack of hands. He begins taking more pills than necessary and all he can hear is the song inside of his head. He takes more and more pills to keep the song playing.

Composing - The Patient convinces the doctor he's getting better and requests to see his friends and family because he thinks it'll help him recover. He has everyone over for dinner and poisons them all, killing them. He is "composing" his song by killing people and he thinks that he can see his wife. The song in his head keeps her alive in his mind.

Disintegrating - The Patient is completely isolated with the song inside his head. He is abusing alcohol and drugs and in a state between the living and dead. He's thinking of everyone he's killed and needs a finale to his song.

Healing - The Patient has called the doctor and he feels the song in his head coming to an end. By this time he's barely even alive and he has made a choice to get better, that's why he called the doctor. He is waiting for the doctor to arrive and take him to the hospital. The song in his head is what is keeping him alive.

Dying - The Doctor finally arrives for the Patient and finds him close to death lying in his apartment. He can smell the odour of the bodies that are most likely still in the apartment and he can smell a woman's perfume, the Patient's wife's perfume. The Patient knows he is dying and he knows what he did. He is finally responding and I think he is happy he is dying cause he will be with his wife. He is looking back at everythign that happened and he is just giving up on the song and on living.

Of course this is all just my interpretation who knows if I'm even close. Hahah oh well let me know what you think.

General CommentI believe actually you covered the idea of this song very well, though it may be better to find meaning to all the songs as a whole, as in the whole CD as a story, than to find meaning in each seperate song, because this IS a concept album.
Anyway, in addition to what you said, wishfulthinking, I believe it's also necessary to note that it is in this song that the character's decent into demetia. I think this because not only does he do something odd (covering the house with his wife's perfume) but the repetition of lines.
BTW, wishfulthinking, did you get those explanations for the CD songs from the Wikipedia page for Trainwreck, or did you post them there yourself? Just wondering.

General Commentthese lyrics are so very wrong its here shakes a former lover/husband and ther lies the wife of a trainwrek just waiting to happen" and then its "as he christens the walls with broken bottles of perfime her few final moments must have beena nightmare in waking victimized violently shaking"