This will for sure take about four days to post but I do work for close to fifteen years. It’s actually very hard but I just tell myself it’s better to be here than home. Than after work nearly everyday I go to lift weights and then Zumba.l class. Been doing this for long time. People definitely notice something different about me at gym being that I talk to myself. At work I try hard not to be too distraught. Then I go home. Work is definitely way harder with symptoms than the gym.

Well having no close friends throughout my life I’ll say that mental illness is real. Also because I hear mean voices throughout the day making life intense and painful. And because sometimes it hurts and I can’t stand and need to be admitted to hospital. And because if I go too far off the cliff I become delusional and that is incredibly humiliating and terrifying.