I would just like to make it clear to everyone that complaining about the OMB is completely off-limits here. Aside from the fact that I'm a mod there :P, I have seen a number of boards comprised mainly of posters from the OMB head in that direction, and believe me, it is complete poison. It put a negative spin on each of the boards, the entire purpose of the boards became a place away from the OMB where people could complain about it, and each of them died soon afterwards.

The point of this board is not to be an alternative to the OMB. ix and I both love it there; we created this board because we felt like there was something missing - no one board can meet the needs of every single fan. But we certainly don't feel like there's anything wrong with it, and we do not want to promote that kind of attitude here. Yes, it is a bigger board; yes, it's a bit harder to break into the commuity there. But you guys should know that if anyone's causing trouble you can report their post and the mods will take care of them.

Anyway. Just wanted to highlight this since there seemed to be some confusion. If you have anything to say on the issue, speak now or forever hold your peace. This will be the last time we address it.

The truth is that I fucked up. I destroyed any friendship I had. Exhausted all my resources. Burned every bridge I had.

Why?

I've been in treatment for the past two and half weeks and if everything goes according to plan, I'll continue on for the next several months. What I've come to find out is that I am bi-polar (manic depressive). Although I can say I've only experienced mania only a few times, but I suffer more from the downside of bi-polar, the depression. Because of that I have been diagnosed with Major Depression. And due to my depression, I have the following symptoms (disorders); PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), OCD, Social Anxiety, and lastly BPD (borderline personality disorder). All of which I am taking medicine for, or trying to. My meds get adjusted so much. Right now though I am on Zoloft, (for the depression, OCD, PTSD, and social anxiety) Trazadone (it's another anti-depressant but it's to help me sleep), and lastly Lithium Carbonate (for bi-polar. It's a mood stabilizer). And on Monday I think the Dr is going to put me on Seroquel (an anti-psychotic.) What I'm trying to get at is, I have a mental illness. I've accepted that, and know that medication will be apart of the rest of my life. I've surrendered myself to my mental illness and acknowledge it's rendered me powerless over my life and that is has become unmanageable. I am, in NO WAY putting the blame of my actions on having a mental illness, I'm learning to accept them, take responsibility, and move on and grow from them. Up until now I've taken advantage of everything and everyone. And with my head finally clear, and on a path to mental sobriety, I can see my wrongs. I can't be delusional anymore and think everything going to work out with the way I was handling my life. I was literally believing my own lies, I was trying to be so many different people around other people, I was trying to please everyone. But when you're trying to please everyone, you forget about your own wants, and if you solely focus on the wants of others, you tend to lose track of everything you're doing. But right now I am getting the tools and materials to rebuild all the bridges I have burned.

I pushed everyone away from me, and I really have no support system. I've learned that us, as human beings are selfish in nature. We only want to care about ourselves. But in reality that's going to get you nowhere. (Look where it got me) You have to consider the needs and wants as others as well as your own.

So, I'm a mission to fix me. Rewire my brain, my way of thinking, how I handle certain situations and emotions. I became a prisoner of my own mind. Looking back it's as if I had no control over anything I was doing, as if I was on the outside looking in. But now I am working on fixing me, and trying to make amends to the one's I've hurt. It's an extremely long process. My mom went through this exact same thing when I was younger. (about from 10-17) The exact same thing. It took her a good couple years to really get a handle on her illness, her medications, and how she functions as a person. I'm actually at a facility where my Mom went. I even came to visit her while she was in here. One of the nurse techs still remembers my Mom, and when I came to visit. Haha. Small world.

But anyways, I'll try to get on here and post regularly. To be honest, I completely forgot about the series. But, I do miss y'all, and I know y'all will lend an understanding shoulder in this. What I'm going through is catastrophic, and life changing. If I do forget to get on here regularly, or to check this thread, I would love it if any of y'all would email. Right now I am only sending emails back and forth with my Mom, and one friend that understand my situation. And I look forward to checking my emails! So give me something to look forward too!

I'll start the thread on a good note: I got promoted officially today. I'm a cashier at Home Depot, and they're making me a head cashier, so I'll have keys and manager numbers and run the front end and stuff. I had my interview today, and my boss told me he's hiring head cashiers with a new standard, and I'm like the new bar. It's one of the greatest compliments I've ever gotten.

This thread is for the discussion and planning of any meet-ups between AFI Series boardies that are not limited to AFI shows. Going on vacation? See if you can meet someone! Want to take a road trip for the hell of it? Meet someone!

Hi guys, It's been a while, I guess. I've been incredibly busy with school, life, responsibilities, etc. But I caught wind of the Board having issues lately, so I just wanted to pop in to see whats up.

It's sad to say, but I'm anticipating this being the end of the Series. After Alli closed off registration, it was always kind of the intention to let it decline into it's own end, despite feeble attempts to counter that. There's no one maintaining the Board any more, and I'm not sure if anyone even has contacts to Alli or Ixnay to transfer admin power - even then, who would do it?

At this rate, the Board could probably 404 at any given point. My suggestion? Keep in touch! Exchange Facebooks, emails, twitters, what have you, if you haven't already.

I know I haven't been posting much lately, but I have kept this place in mind. I joined when I was 13, and was the youngest member for a while - I became a moderator at 14. This Board remained my home when I moved from city to city to city, when I had trouble making new friends, and during difficult times in my life. Now i'm 19, a sophomore in college, and doing fairly well with myself - I attribute so much of my, well, mental stability, to the community and people here. I've been some amazing people and created really great, lasting friendships. It's amazing how a simple common interest in music that correlated to some phase in our lives (I say this because I hardly listen to AFI's new music now) can bring people so close together. You guys are some of the most amazing, and seriously fucking awesome people ever.

If you haven't added me on facebook yet, pm me your link if you'd like. I'd love to stay in touch. Maybe one of us can start a Series Facebook group. Who knows.

I'll be popping back every so often just to see what's happening, but even my moderator privleges aren't working anymore. Maybe this is my last post, maybe not. I just wanted to say I love you all.

If you're going to be at any of these dates:Aug 6th - Salt Lake City, UT at Utah State Fair ParkAug 7th - Phoenix, AZ at Ashley Home Furniture Pavilion (if you're going to this one I'll be there, obviously and you better find me!)Aug 9th - San Diego, CA at Cricket AmpitheatreAug 10th - Carson, CA at California StateAug 11th - Marysville, CA at Sleep Train AmpitheatreAug 12th - Nampa, ID at Idaho CenterAug 13th - George, WA at the GorgeAug 14th - Hillsboro, OR at Washington County Fairgronds

Please, please, please do me a favor. Rhandy's band When All Is Said is going to be playing the Ernie Ball stage at these dates. Go check them out and support them for me since I can't be there to cheer them on. And if you're feeling super adventurous go buy a shirt and help them out, cause they're going to be struggling on the road.

K, thanks. I love you guys.

I should've probably posted this in music, but I thought it would get seen more here. Ha.

Alright, so I thought it would be good to have a thread where everyone can vent without and repremandments (I dont think I spelt that right but I dont care.)

Last night I really needed some one to talk to but of course none of my friends would pick up the phone or give their crying friend the time of day. So I went to bed feeling upset hoping that when I wake up that I would feel better, I did and I dont feel any better. So I thought why not make a thread where anyone who needs to vent their feelings can go too, and since I havent seen one maybe its time for a new one in case there has already been an old one.

Okay, so last night I was talking to my friend rob. He told me that one of our younger friends caitlyn has been using Keith's death for attention because she had only met him like twice and never actually had conversations with him. So I got mad and said, "I hate people who use death as a way to get attention!" he replied with, "alright promise you wont get upset?" I agreed and he said "well a trooper was talking to brandon today and he said 'You better watch out for Jesse Pebler because he is going down the same path as his DOPEY older brother'."Well as you can guess I flipped shit. Keith was a smart kid who didnt do drugs drank a little and was a virgin. He was a sweet heart and cared about everyone. Why the hell would that be considered a wrong path?! Not to mention that jesse is the same way. Smart caring and loving. I would love to see him turn out like keith just not dead. Plus not the mention that is insulting their parents saying they dont know how to raise their own sons.

I know I have talked about Keith a lot latley, and I aploigize to anyone whoi is sick of hearing it, but the truth is I miss him more each day. So the more I talk about him the better I feel because I still feel like he is here. And the reason I cried is because it's not fair. Keith was always made fun of for his intelligence. He was a smart kid the only problem is that he said thgings with out thinking so he just sounded stupid. I do the same thing. Plus their family dosent need to have the whole "your son was a dumb ass fuck up and your other one will turn out just like him ...dead" talk. They have heard it before and it is all bull shit!

I mean come on, do these look like bad kids to you?http://s3.photobucket.com/albums/y83/midnight_runner/?action=view&current=morerandom941.flvaww look at em

Okay since I noticed that in a lot of threads we foten mention our ilnesses and problems with our bodies, this would be a good idea. NOTE: Any Pictures of an infection or something should be marked and in a spoiler. WARNING: Viewer discretion is advised.

Okay lately I haaven't been feeling to well, I don't know what it could be. I am tired ALL the time, okay not all the time, but mostly around 12-4 P.M I jsut get really drowzy, snd sometimes I can fight it off. Other times it takes control, and I completely fall asleep. My mom thinks it could be mono. But I can't think of how I would have gotten it.

And In other news. I have this "condition" in which my left foot cramps up, and it gets really tight around my pinky toe. and The only way to relieve the pain to squat down and put all of my weight on my feet, to stretch it. And yesterday it happened and it stayed cramed for about an hour! I don't know what could call this, does anyone?

This may be an isolated issue, but at both my apartment and my office the series has been super flakey. Sometimes the page won't load at all (gotten a couple different erros of this variety) right now it's loading, but seemingly random pieces of the page are missing.

This may be an isolated issue, but at both my apartment and my office the series has been super flakey. Sometimes the page won't load at all (gotten a couple different erros of this variety) right now it's loading, but seemingly random pieces of the page are missing.

SOoo, since the "getting off" thread went towards a new direction, this is the thread the females of the board get to vent about how much life sucks during that time of the month, the troubles of being female, the extra clothing items we have that are hard to take care of, etc. etc. Yes, this thread will also talk about insersions of Tampons, and the pains of pads.

If you're a guy, I advise you to leave now, or be prepared to feel very awkward.

Searched and didn't find anything. What do you drink, fellow non-straight edgers? I really like Appletinis, with Skyy or Absolut. Also, Crown Royal is amazing. I'm not much of a beer drinker, but let's hear about that too.

so i'm starting to work on my college search. i have a pretty good idea of where i want to go, what i want to study, etc, etc. the thing that is putting me down is when i start looking at similar candidates for the same colleges. a lot of these kids have really legit sats, great grades, tons of extra curriculars, etc..basically above and beyond me. even with that though, they are still really unsure of whether or not they are going to be able to get in. right now i'm basically freaking out that i won't get into the college i want to go to and will end up with a crappy next couple of years of my life.

so yeah. advice or anything? or talk about your collegiate experience.

So I go in the kitchen to make some clear raspberry cool-aid and my husband and his friend are at the front door where apparently there was a new kitty hanging out. My husband calls me over and says the kitty is friendly (he was petting it and it was rolling all over the place being cute) so I got excited and ran over to pet it. I knelt down to pet the kitty and the kitty bit and scratched my hand at the same time! WTF?

I have never had that ever happen in my whole life LOL.

SOOOOOOO random.

Discuss other random happenings in your day, or just random things that have happened I your life at some time.

Discuss things that have made you smile lately. It could be anything. Maybe a compliment, something cute, etc.

I'm very happy because I took my first private viola lesson and 30 minutes made a difference. My teacher is really cool and he's helping me with basic things that could make me sound better when I play. This is really going to help me and also motivate me to do better.

My friend and I just got snakebites lastnight. Kind of in honor of our late friend John thing since he had them. But they look pretty nice. It was a little painful. I'll take pictures when its not all huge and swallon.

Altogether i have snakebites, nipple, and ears pierced. The nipple was definatly the most painful. haha. which is why i didn't get my other one pierced. The only one i really want now is maybe my eye brow.

I have seen many people making new year's resolutions. And a lot has said they need to lose weight.

So I was thinking what's your method for it? Or what do you do when you 'work out'? Give me good hints!

I usually dance or go for a walk if I need exercise (is it spelled exercise or excercise?) and I like to lift small weights. And I'm determined to continue power yoga. I started it somewhat two years ago and quitted this summer...ummwell actually last summer. But now I'm going to continue at home. I really recommend power yoga, you should try it sometime.

Twenty-six years and seems like I've just begun to understand, my intimate is no one.When the director sold the show, who bought it's last rites? They cut the cast, the music, and the lights.. This is my line; this is eternal. How did I ever end up here? Discarnate. Preternatural.My prayers to disappear, ungranted in dead time left me disowned, absent of grace, marked as infernal. To this nature, so unnatural. I remain alone.Twenty-six years end. Still speaking in these tongues.. Such revelations, but understood by no one.When the new actor stole the show, who questioned his grace? Please clear the house of ill-acquired taste...Give me something. Give me something. Give me something realI lay strewn across the floor, can't solve this puzzle. Everyday another small piece can't be found. I lay strewn across the floor pieced up in sorrow. The pieces are lost, the pieces don't fit. Pieced together incomplete and empty... This is my line. This is eternal. How did I ever end up here?

As such, she probably won't be on at all for the next couple of days. XD

But yeah, after a bit of a rough time of scheduling and a little bit of a postponement, the day of our Cheerful Nightmare's wedding is finally here! I encourage everybody to post pictures of cake and merriment.

Here's a place where you can rant about or praise your friends, or seek advice or just talk about your friends. Or yourself as a friend. Or other peoples' friends. Or say something friendly.

:]

Last weekend I understood that me and my friends are kind of growing apart from each other. There are not that many things we have in common anymore. But lately I've also been getting some new friends and "breaking up" with old ones is a bit sad, but I know it's only natural. At least I have some really great memories that I can cherish.