When the world seems like you’re trapped in a box and no one can hear you scream

Ever feel like that? I do, a lot. I’ve learned silence doesn’t help at all because it makes your thoughts even louder. My thoughts are crazy and that’s why I am the way I am.

Don’t get me wrong- i’m not a self pittier. No, i don’t even look upset, like EVER. Anyone would look at me and think “oh, she’s SO happy. Her life must be GREAT. Perfect boyfriend, friends, pretty, always wearing a smile and carryong laughter.” That’s only because they don’t look into my eyes deep enough. Some can, and i don’t like those people because all my hard work of covering the hurt is gone. Wasted. Because? They’re so damn smart!

But really, i don’t know why but i’m depressed ALL the time. I even used to cut. It’s not like my family or social life os bad. I was bullied for 2 years but that was also 2 years ago. I just dislike myself. It’s weird…. Any relative feelings?