Jennifer Aniston on Her Past Romantic Relationships: 'I've Had Some Challenging Companionship'

Jennifer Aniston is gorgeous in Valentino on the cover of InSyle magazine’s February 2015 issue, on newsstands Friday (January 9).

Here’s what the 45-year-old actress had to share with the mag:

On her upcoming wedding: “There’s a big discussion in our house right now: Do you just do it and say screw it? Or do you try desperately to get away with [a secret ceremony] where you don’t have any fun because you’re hiding in a cave somewhere? If we could do it without all the buzzing and the noise… It can be done. When there’s a will, there’s a way.”

On how she would phrase her own tabloid headline: “Oh, that’s a tough one. That should be a Justin question. Wait a sec. How’s this? ‘When I’m pregnant and married, I will let you know.’ Not a tabloid publication. Not Bulls–t Times or Crapass Bulls–t Times Weekly. They will not be telling you,” Aniston vows. “And by the way, stop stealing my thunder! Let me have the fun of telling that story.”

On her past relationships: “I mean, it’s no secret: I’ve had some challenging companionship. I think hitting a wall with that really kind of [helped me grow]. I found a really great therapist. Not to sound too “woo woo,” but I think the self-love piece was really important. And spending a lot of time alone. Having time to ask myself why there was such toxicity in my immediate space at times. Why would I attract that instead of light?”