I made this some time ago and deleted the original file, so i never finished rendering it. So today i was bored and opened the PNG to play around with it. I added a tone curve layer, and it made a huge difference... Like it wasn’t enough, i also allowed myself to use a InstaFilter (Juno) for the first time
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I was just thinking about my last post about "The Space" and realized I've done this theme, about being an outsider, my whole life. About feeling separated and hiding from the noisy world. About being an observer and strikingly lonely but also feeling that this is just who I am. For example, these paintings are grouped into a collection I called "View From My Secret Place". They are specifically about my memories as a child at our family cottage on Lake Of Bays near Algonquin Park. I loved to hang out hidden just inside the trees by the water's edge while my family lived & played in the sun. I loved the dampened quiet created by the floor of soft pine needles. The sound of the gentle breeze through the leaves and my family's voices not far off. I liked knowing that they were close by but I needed some distance. I just didn't understand why I couldn't fit in with my family of extroverts. I wasted so many years in unnecessary anguish and misery. So many years trying to conform to make others happy. I was also never allowed to complain because from the outside world I had so much privilege. I've kept this all inside for decades now. This is a reason why I gave up trying to be a career artist when I was 25. Art was my therapy not income. Another reason I gave up is because I wanted to prove to my parents (and to myself) I had more worth than my art. Up until that time I was very much recognized for my art talent. I was proudly paraded around as the prodigy artist but other than that I felt I had little value. So I quit and went and built several video game studios. I helped build the local industry. I did it to prove I had more value than just my art. Nothing has changed. Except me. I forgive my family. I love them. We are just different. I'm actually pretty freaking awesome. All it took was one little brain tumour to wake me the hell up. I hope now I can be the artist I always wanted to be.
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☀️A series of prints I did for 2 of my best pals
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As this was a gift I decided to experiment more with the background. I wanted to loosely reflect the rest of the scene - a beach sunset. In this case the composition & colours were more important and took longer than the actual drawing (they’re still cute tho)
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I loved doing this, would people want to see more like this? Let me know 🤙🏻
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Have you ever felt despair sit so heavily on your shoulders
Hugging tightly to your bones
Kissing every limb awake with an ache that feels all too familiar
It makes a home in you like how the night fills in every corner of a room
So you greet it like you greet the night
With a relief and a sigh as you would for an old friend
Because that is the only thing you’ve ever known