Well, this is heartbreaking. In a cast interview with MTV on the subject of Allison Argent’s death, Crystal Reed, teary-eyed, told the cameras that she’s ‘feeling really sad because [she] loves Allison [Argent] so much.’

Just in case your Teen Wolf-loving heart couldn’t get any more broken, we have a surprise for you! If you haven’t seen the touching memorial website that MTV put up to honor Crystal Reed‘s fallen Allison Argent, the cast reaction video is a must-watch. If you think you can take it, see below to watch the video where Crystal tells cameras how sad she is about Allison’s death! But if you cry, you have to admit it to us.

Crystal Reed ‘Really Sad’ Over The Death Of Allison Argent

The death of Allison Argent has had a huge impact on the Teen Wolf fanbase — if you haven’t already heard, it’s true that Crystal did ask creator Jeff Davis to be written out, but many fans (including us) are upset that she had to die. Don’t the Teen Wolf writers have any other ideas on writing their characters out of the show? (See also: Gage Golightly‘s Erica Reyes, who passed away in Season 3A.)

This situation is made all the more sad by the fact that it’s been clear from day one that Crystal is incredibly committed to her character. In the cast reaction video posted by MTV on Allison’s memorial website, Crystal told cameras — with tears in her eyes — that she’s “feeling really sad because [she] loves Allison so much. She’s such a young person and she died so abruptly.” TELL US about it!

Crystal Reed: ‘I Would Like Scott [McCall] To Find Happiness And Love’

The saddest moment of the video is at the end, when Crystal says that, “as Allison’s ghost, I want to tell Scott [McCall] that I would like him to find happiness and love.” She pauses like she’s going to cry, and murmurs: “that’s so sad.” We’re dead. Bye. Watch the video below!