-Songfic- After a few months of healing, Gohan asks his father if this was the end of their relationship as father and son. He asks so many questions that Goku can't seem to answer, and yet, he feels alone.

Summary: Yes, yet another idea popped into my head
while listening to this song. A thought pops into Gohan's head after the Cell games
as he wonders about his father. Not angst, but a bit. He asks his father if
this is the end or shall they meet again?

Is this the end?

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The rage
in my eyes
Could have compared to the eye of a sun
Then rain
Took it's course through the hands of the Son

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It
was one of those warm days in late May. Spring was not yet dead, but summer had
not yet been born. Over the past couple of weeks in the Son household held
grieve and celebrating. The Son family and friends mourned the death of a
savior, but also celebrated the defeat of a monster. They all cheered up after
they were granted permission to speak to Goku whenever they please.

Still,
the fact Gohan lost his father once again made him seriously think about his
choices twice. Today was the day Chichi had announced her pregnancy to Gohan
and the gang, and he wasn't the least bit shocked. He knew…but did his father?
Gohan slipped away from his studies and stridden off into the soft blowing
fields where the grass lazily flew.

He
laid back into the lush natural bed by the lake and stared up into the sky.
"Daddy?"

The
wind blew softly and Gohan took a deep breath. "Dad, I know you might not hear
this because your busy and all, but mom's pregnant. She said it might be a girl
too. Can you believe that? A Saiyan girl, scary thought isn't it?"

The
wind made a sort of chuckled and Gohan grinned. "Yes dad, laugh it up, but I
have to ask you something. Are you mad at me father? When Cell took you away, I
could've sworn I was a different person. I'm sorry father, don't hate me."

There
was a groan in the wind…

"Krillin
said my eyes resembled those of a flaming sun or meteor because I was so
angry," he whispered. "It was an intense battle, but I won it…we won it."

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Repent for all time
The world is at war leaving all fault behind~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

"Dad? Is
it my fault?" Gohan asked while staring at some birds flying. "Did I leave the
world in corruption and war?"

Once again
the wind embraced Gohan warmly and he smiled. "I know your trying to console me
father, but I need to know…do you care?"

All around
Gohan was silence…

"I
apologize to you, Trunks, and all the people that lost their lives," he sighed.
"I swear, my Saiyan side took over. You know, that instinct, alter ego Saiyan
chanting 'fight, fight, fight!'"

A
soft breeze then flew once more…

"Dad,
are we still as close?" the Saiyan teenager asked. "Did you leave me to run
away, or was it really noble?"

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So Is this
the end for us my friend?
So Is this the end for us my friend?

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"Is
this the end of our family ties?" Gohan questioned. "I am feeling quite
depressed because I calculated my years without you father." Gohan sighed
slightly and reached his hands towards the sky.

The breeze
seemed to move slightly, and a groaning noise was heard…

"Don't be
mad dad, but how can I believe you'll be here for me? Was this, or is this the
end of our good times? Is this the end of our days of fishing? Is this the end
of our relationship as father and son?"

Throughout
his life, Gohan asked why? Was this the end of the innocent child that was all
grown up now? Did he have to raise a sibling by himself? Was his father running
away once more, leaving everyone and everything behind?

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The stains
in the sky
Are there to remind us of man and his fight
When two worlds collide
One steals the life like a thief in the night
So look to the sky
He hold the keys for your life and mine

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Gohan
stared straight into the sky and looked as the ambiance changed. A dash of
crimson with a light golden orange mixed and once again flashes of the battlefield
rushed through his mind. Saiyan and Cyborg. Cell and Goku. Two different worlds
clashed, and collided into nothingness.

"Dad, I
can't help but think of you. These memories bring me pain, yet relieve me of
the sin that I once lived. I stare into the moonlight sky and ambiance of a
sunset, and I imagine once again I'm with you. We're sitting by the lake under the
huge apple tree…Krillin throwing a rock at you…what a great day…"

A soft
whirl tumbled some leafs, but Gohan didn't budge.

"Some
people say Kami, Dende, or a "god" has control over our life's, like destiny
and fate. Well dad, I know this isn't true. I know for a fact we control our
fate and destiny. Kami would never hurt you and neither would Dende. We're in
this together, we control our mind and body."

'Life's
like an open door dad,' Gohan thought as his mind raced. 'We can keep it open
and embrace the world, or close it, and keep the key until we are gone for
good.'

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So Is this
the end for us my friend?
So Is this the end for us my friend?
So Is this the end for us my friend?

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"Father is
this the end? Did you really flake out on your family?"

"Are you
really going to leave me all alone?"

"Did you
think about your decision?"

"Did you
know you were my hero, but now that thought is changing?"

In the
other world Goku was getting restless. He heard every single word Gohan was
saying and asking and he was disappointed. Of course he cared for Gohan, but
why is he saying all these things that he didn't mean?

Gohan
sighed and stood up as the clouds surrounded the light heavenly light. Now it
was a gray scenery…dreary, another disappointment. "Why did you leave me and mother all alone?"

Tears
started to for in the child's eyes, and he knew at that moment, his childhood
dreams were shattered in little pieces…

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Well as
though we rise
As the day breaks the dawn
And as the moon hides the sun
Oh, the sun

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The
clouds began to cover up the bright lights, and the sky began to darken. A
glowing crescent moon was all the light left, and the young boy gazed upon it.

"Is
that you frowning father, is that why the moon isn't full?"

The
wind was still their, stirring up in many ways…

"Dad,
I'm sick and tired of feeling this pain. My emotions are obscured for everyone,
but I don't want to break!" Gohan yelled out. "I want to be free and irresponsible!
I want to be a kid again! I want to embrace childhood!"

An
echo replied…

"I
don't want to be alone!"

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No more
sorrow
All those crying days are gone
No more sorrow, now it's gone
Now it's gone
Now it's gone~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

"Please
dad, no more pain, I'm tired of feeling this sorrow," Gohan choked out. "take
it all away."

He was
tired of feeling this painful grief and mourning. He didn't want this anymore.
He wanted to be free and be hugged again. He wanted a lot of simple things, but
no matter what he would never get them…

"Will you
ever come back dad?"

"Is it
true you left us because your weak?"

"Am I
really nothing to you?"

"How can I
trust you again?"

"Is our
relationship put to a halt?"

"Is this
the end of us…my friend?"

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So Is this
the end for us my friend?
So Is this the end for us my friend?
So Is this the end for us my friend?
So Is this the end for us my friend?

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