Wednesday, July 4, 2012

I started out in a grocery store parking lot. I picked up the baby from the cart and gave her to Josh to put in her car seat. She was about 2-3 months old. Josh and I got in the car and started driving when I heard a noise and turned around to see her out of her car seat and sitting in the middle on the regular seat! She was also not so little and was now about 7 months old. I panicked at the sight of her not in her seat but she was pumped and celebrating that she got loose. I told Josh to stop as we were still driving through the parking lot and I picked her up and strapped her into her seat. I said, "What are you doing?!!!" As I went to put her seat belt on, she started to freak out cause she didn't want to go back in. I calmed her down and said, "You silly little girl" and tickled her and she was happy again. Then we went back to driving...

It seemed like such an every day kind of dream... but so special to me. I've been very afraid to have kids because I'm worried that I won't be a good mother- I won't know what to do, I'll be too mean, they won't like me, etc. In the dream, I really believed she was my little girl and it came so naturally and easy. It's strange how dreams can give you the confidence you didn't know you had. When I woke up I started crying because she was mine... and waking up took her away. Dreams can be cruel in that way. She was so beautiful. Her skin was like mine but a little bit lighter. She had really short hair but on the top of her head, she had a long tuft that we put in an elastic so it looked like a palm tree. Her head was a little too big for her body but it was cute. She had Josh's face shape with big cheeks. She had his eyes too. She had my features though- my mouth and nose. She was so funny and sweet... Will this be my daughter some day? Is she Victoria...????

Friday, January 20, 2012

I started to climb a really nice tree as Josh watched me from a car parked just next to the tree. I had just placed myself in a perfect spot when a bird flew over and sat down right in front of me on the same branch. I marveled that it was not just a run of the mill bird but an owl. He looked like a cross between a screech owl or a great horned owl. He turned his head to look straight at me and was not afraid of me. For fear that he was going to peck my eyes out, I quickly jumped out of the tree and ran to the car. I jumped in the drivers seat and shut the door when the owl appeared on the side mirror. I quickly rolled up the cracks in the window and sped off in the car. Josh and I marveled at how oddly the owl acted. Later, I found myself in a restroom at a restaurant when I saw the owl again. The owl stood in front of a stall and stared at me. I felt like he was trying to tell me something. I leaned forward and said to him, "Ok, look. I'm trusting you to not peck my eyes out here.... " I held out my hand and the owl gently climbed on and leaned forward to whisper in my ear. I don't know if he physically spoke or if he transmitted his message telepathically but I hung on every word he said. He told me that I was to wear some specific clothing, keep my eyes open, and know that the events to come are meant to happen. That I was to follow the path that the clothes would start for me. He told me I was to do exactly as he said and trust it.

This is almost exactly how the owl looked... but with bigger eyes.

It was not an ominous warning... it wasn't a suggestion either. It was a firm, matter of fact owl that told me about a very specific journey I would surely take.
I put on the clothes and very subtle things happened. A comment from a stranger, leading to a classroom full of school kids. To my niece who insisted on watching a specific movie, to watching it snow on the beaches of California, to running away from strange people, to finding good friends who would lend a hand when I was afraid.

I woke up this morning and got ready normally.

I looked up a few things about what this dream could mean:

To dream that animals can talk represent superior knowledge. Its message is often some form of wisdom. Alternatively, a talking animal denotes your potential to be all that you can be.

To see an owl in your dream symbolizes wisdom, insight, magic, expanded awareness and virtue. You are highly connected to your intuitive senses and psychic power. The owl is also synonymous with death, darkness and the unconscious. The appearance of an owl may be telling you to let go of the past or certain negative behaviors.

As I told the dream to my husband, I found that I am wearing a sweater that is the exact print and fabric of the pants I was wearing in the dream. I guess I'll see where this sweater leads me today...