No bnm, you don't need to pay someone to tell you how you feel. YOU know how YOU feel. I once vented my problems to a good friend, only to be betrayed. Heavily ironic, actually. Voicing my problem to a member of the community only multiplied my problems. So, everyone, let bnm be himself, for he is the only one who will be able to solve his problems, definitely not anyone on this forum or in the world.

Thank you...
But for out last statement, that's not true. There is one person who can help, but they don't even know.

@Octagon, thanks for saying that, I don't get that vibe around here. I don't really get any positive feedback at all...

OK BNM I'll just leave it at this: You've got a house, you've got a family, you were born in America w/a good amount of food to eat, you have access to video games & the internet, & you're loved by whatever Gods you believe in. Be thankful & think about how lucky you are! Also, go outside as much as possible, it always helps me feel happier!