a list of things that make me happy, for when i am sad: thinking about all of the personal growth & progress i have made most especially this year, looking at the lmfao tag on my blog, making nice snacks, studying Korean really hard for hours, doing a deluxe skincare routine, going for long walks, watching videos on youtube, making gifs, writing notes for my novel, tidying or rearranging my room, daydreaming about the future for hours, journalling all my woes, looking after my plants, meditating, colouring in, writing lists of everything i'm grateful for, eating delicious food, scrolling my phone for ages, going out for dinner, watching comforting movies or tv shows, listening to BTS, always hoping for better.

Getting to see Title Fight, American Football, Tigers Jaw, going to the movies lots more and falling in love with Mad Max: Fury Road, lovely catch-ups with Dad, coffee and tea all day (Japanese green tea, Russian caravan, earl grey and peppermint), gin and whiskey and bourbon, getting to wear all my favourite coats and gloves and jumpers, lying in bed all day reading books, falling for the poetry of Basho, Hafez and Sappho, having tickets to Azealia Banks, Earl Sweatshirt, Purity Ring, Best Coast and Code Orange, hibernating and sleeping all day, watching murder mysteries til all hours of the night, doodling in my diary, sitting in front of the heater and cuddling Dragon, buying heaps of stuff online because I can't be bothered leaving the house and getting really excited when the packages arrive, experiencing Japan in springtime but still getting to play in Japanese snow, that excellent b...

autobio: Angela's Ashes, Bossypants, Down and Out in Paris and London, Just Kids, Letter To D, So Sad Today, Smoke Gets In Your Eyes, Widow Basquiat

children's: The Balloon Tree, The Eleventh Hour, The Witches

fiction: All the Wrong Questions, A Series of Unfortunate Events, The Alchemist, The Beatrice Letters, Breakfast at Tiffany's, The Captive Prince trilogy, Circe, Good Omens, The Great Gatsby, Harry Potter, The Hobbit, High Fidelity, The Little Prince, Looking For Alibrandi, Memoirs of a Geisha, The Song of Achilles, The Thief Lord, To Kill A Mockingbird, The Vampire Lestat, Wailing Ghosts, Welcome to Nightvale

graphic novels: Deathnote, Nimona, Saga

non-fiction: Basketball and Other Things, Brief Answers to the Big Questions, Mythos, The Rap Year Book, Swooning: A Classical Music Guide to Life Love Lust and Other Follies, Women Who Run With the Wolves