Oleander In Pompeii. Pompeiis archeo-botanical team replants species that would have been present in the city before the eruption. oleander was likely a regular type of flora in the ancient metropole. The resemblance between the modern gardens and the ancient gardens is remarkable. Today, oleander is a common and poisonous occurrence in southern Italy 🇮🇹

Deep down you know which it is. But guaranteed if it's 2 you'll re-word what I've said and say 'yes Jo, deep down I know it's 2, it's because I'm not worth loving', and then all the pain will resurface, as you become reacquainted with the old 'realisation' that no-one could want you and you're worthless, and have nothing to offer - This post is just another reminder of the ugly painful 'truth'. You see some people will tell you to say 'I have nothing to offer, I am worthless' to yourself in a funny voice so you can hear how ridiculous it is.
But it's not ridiculous is it?
It's real.
It's true - to you. No matter what voice you use.
There's nowhere to go from here. The path is ended.
Here you are invisible.
Here even the fury and resentment have become lost. Here you are numb.
Here you are loveless.
Here you are nothing and no-one.
Now all you want is to go home. Where you are no longer #trapped in a vessel that #feels . Where you can finally #sleep .
And then that pang, that tremor of 'What if' surfaces in the deep of your solar plexus as you reach the #final words. Faint, but it's there.
Is this really it? Is it really over? Is this the moment?
Say it with me now:
Four... Three... Two... One... Zero... you Must say ZERO. And then breathe. When you say ZERO your brain will become still. The two syllables compared with the singles before will #reset it.
Now is the moment to #plant your seed...
Now is the moment to say hey, there has to be more than this. There HAS to be.
I will take one more step #Today .
I make no promises for the #future . But I can do today.
Today is all that needs my focus #now .
I Must stabilize.
So I Must #rest .
Rest my poor weary mind and heart. Rest me. And give me some #love .
Then cuddle your dog, eat some Black Forrest coconut ice cream and #nap .
You my #friend , just #won that round.
This is what I did to survive 24 years of wanting to leave this planet.
What comes next? Well we Discover The Real You and we #heal .
For now remember this: I love you.
In Love and Unity,
Jo
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