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I have no cubicle to decorate this year. No desk or office space to decorate. First time in years. I had planned to dig out all the Halloweeny stuff from the basement to overload the house with spooky-goodness, but I have been in bed for most of the past three days, dealing with vertigo/dizziness that has had me in tears.

I have missed work. Missed out on a gorgeous fall weekend. And nothing is decorated.

But I got my blog theme updated on time. And now I’m off to bed because I AM going to work tomorrow. My head is finally not spinning, though quick movements aren’t appreciated.

I have been gone from my old job for almost a year. The end of this month marks the year anniversary of my last day in that life. I miss the people I worked with so much. To the point that when I did finally get some sleep this morning, I had the worst nightmare about visiting my old admin floor and no-one wanting to talk to me. Or acknowledge me. There was so much going on the dream that I woke up sobbing. I had been replaced, with a girl named Kitty (which I only realized the significance of after I woke up). Everyone I used to work with was so cold, and distant to me. And sometimes mean. And I felt alone, and abandoned. So alone.

So, yeah, I miss my friends most of all. Not the job, but the people. Badly. And being sick, and spinning, and stressed out because of that, equals stress dreams about my old job. Used to be stress dreams were about high school and elementary school. Like everything else though, they are evolving.

I miss friends that were (are) family.

I miss getting to decorate my workspace.

But it’s October, and I’m going to decorate my home and hopefully see some friends soon. We have something planned for almost every Saturday this month. I am excited! I love October so much.