tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-256129442017-09-05T21:56:55.457-04:00Back From ErstwhileThe Long Road Back to WritingStephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.comBlogger141125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-82639848349813036312014-05-19T23:33:00.004-04:002014-05-19T23:33:44.170-04:00Blogrise, BlogsetI first started blogging just over eight years ago. In my <a href="http://backfromerstwhile.blogspot.ca/2006/04/getting-back-from-erstwhile.html" target="_blank">very first post</a>, I wrote about having realized that without ever planning to do it, I'd become an erstwhile writer. An ex-writer. A used-to. And at that moment, I decided that I wanted to be a writer again -- and that blogging the process might be a good way to help me keep on track.<div><br /></div><div>Over the past eight years, the blogging has been hit-and-miss. I wrote 19 posts in April, 2006, my first month of blogging, a number that I would barely achieve most <i>years</i> thereafter.</div><div><br /></div><div>But the rest of my writing? That went rather better.</div><div><br /></div><div>Since the first post, I joined a writers group. I've written two screenplays, and started a third, and realized that I didn't want to be a screenwriter. <a href="http://www.xenosarrowcomics.com/" target="_blank"><i>Xeno's Arrow</i></a>, the comic I created and published with the inestimable Greg Beettam, appeared on the (sadly now defunct) webcomics hub, <i>Modern Tales</i>. With the equally-inestimable Patrick Heinicke, I created a new webcomic, <i>Cold Iron Badge</i>, which also appeared on <i>Modern Tales</i> and on our own site. That project was not only incredibly fun, it inspired me to write my first novel, which shares a world with the comic (but no characters; it quickly went off in an entirely different direction). I've written a bunch of short stories, stories that I've been confident enough in to submit them to professional markets. None has sold yet, but I'm not giving up. And last November, I successfully completed <a href="http://nanowrimo.org/" target="_blank">NaNoWriMo</a>&nbsp;with my second novel, a work-still-in-progress called <i>Nobody's Watching</i>.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm still not a professional writer (though the definition of professional is pretty ambiguous in webcomics), but you know what I'm not?</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm not an erstwhile writer anymore.</div><div><br /></div><div>And as such, I've been feeling, increasingly strongly lately, that where I am, and what I want to talk about, doesn't really fit with a blog called <i>Back From Erstwhile</i>. It's been fun, at least when I haven't felt guilty about my wildly erratic posting schedule, and it's been an important part of the road back.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>But I think, rather than try to re-purpose a blog that's had its day, and it's time to let it end.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>As one blog ends, another begins, the circle of blogging life. Please join me at my new blog, <a href="http://stephengeigenmiller.wordpress.com/" target="_blank"><i>Stephen Geigen-Miller</i></a>. Yes, I just used my own name, for reasons that I'll get into in my first post over there.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>And please join me in raising a glass to <i>Back From Erstwhile</i>, a blog that succeeded in its mission and can now enjoy a much-deserved retirement.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>Thanks for being here with me and being part of this phase of my journey. Now, it's time for the next step. Onward!</div>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-61901245325931192002014-02-21T23:15:00.000-05:002014-02-27T23:07:18.969-05:00Voting for Diversity with my Dollars: Buying Books and Putting Diversity in SF&F into Practice<div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">In January, I had the opportunity to get a bunch of books. Now, it’s not a big secret that I buy books, kind of a lot. But I don’t usually buy a bunch at once, for obvious financial reasons. But I had a gift card, obtained via Christmas, and I was keen to use it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">I also had a mission. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">It’s been increasingly clear to me that I need to do more to support diversity in science fiction and fantasy (I’m just going to abbreviate that SF&amp;F from here on in). That includes opposing sexism, racism, homophobia, ableism and other forms of bigotry where and when I can. And working at being actively welcoming and inclusive of other people in the SF&amp;F fan and creative communities I participate in. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">In January, I decided that it also meant making an active, conscious choice to prioritize buying books by women and/or people of colour.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">I made that choice for a really simple reason: Women and people of colour are still under-represented in huge swathes of genre (as they are in publishing overall). A really good way to help that change for the better is to let publishers and booksellers know there's a demand for books from a wide and diverse range of writers, bringing a broader and deeper range of experiences and viewpoints to their work.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">This is not a perfect approach; there are less visible forms of diversity (like gender identity, neurodiversity, being differently-abled and sometimes sexual orientation) that are less visible and that it’s therefore more difficult to take into account.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">But it's a place to start.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">I felt uncomfortable with the idea of blogging about this, initially. After all, the publishers have the data on my purchases; they can take it into account when they decide what sells. Would going public about my choice just be crowing? Was I fishing for validation for being a good progressive? And did I really want to risk getting caught up in the ongoing, sometimes very acrimonious debate about these issues in the SF&amp;F communities? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">Then I read blog posts by <a href="http://fozmeadows.tumblr.com/post/77118501498/with-the-upcoming-fourth-season-of-a-game-of" target="_blank">Foz Meadows</a> and <a href="http://www.enewman.co.uk/real-world-adventures/a-level-playing-field" target="_blank">Emma Newman</a>. I was reminded of Jessica Strider of Sci-Fi Fan Letter putting diversity into practice and creating a wonderful<a href="http://scififanletter.blogspot.ca/2012/06/special-needs-in-strange-worlds-reading.html" target="_blank"> Special Needs In Strange Worlds</a> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">&nbsp;display of SF&amp;F books dealing with issues of ability and disability at Toronto’s own World’s Biggest Bookstore. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">And it became clearer to me that being a passive voice for diversity wasn't going to cut it.&nbsp;</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">I forget, sometimes, how lucky I am to live in Toronto, where we have great bookstores like <a href="http://www.bakkaphoenixbooks.com/" target="_blank">Bakka-Phoenix</a> and World’s Biggest. In Toronto, diversity is part of the fabric of our lives (our mayor notwithstanding), and I forget that not everyone is a privileged as me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">And so I forgot that what reactionaries and haters might think of me is less important than the support I can offer by adding my voice and speaking out. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">Because the writers, booksellers and publishers out there who are working for diversity or are themselves diverse need to know that they’re appreciated and supported. If I want to truly affect the conversation, I need to participate it, not just hope that the data resulting from my purchases is correctly interpreted by a huge and complex system full of variables. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">I support diversity in SF&amp;F. I do so actively and consciously. I do it by being welcoming and inclusive, opposing bigotry, speaking out – and I also do it by voting with my dollars. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 11pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri, sans-serif;">I did that by buying four books:</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><i><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">Ancillary Justice</span></i><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">, by Ann Leckie, published by Orbit. A smart space opera that explores some interesting ideas about colonialism and about gender and language. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><i><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">Between Two Thorns</span></i><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">, by Emma Newman, published by Angry Robot. An urban fantasy about class conflict between powerful Faerie rulers and their human servants. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><i><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">The Incrementalists</span></i><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">, by Steven Brust and Skyler White, published by Tom Doherty Associates. A secret society of sort-of immortals who make the world a little bit better, very slowly.&nbsp; <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><i><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">The Lives of Tao</span></i><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">, by Wesley Chu, published by Angry Robot. High-energy science fiction about martial artist superspies and a secret war between factions of aliens. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">(You may have noticed Angry Robot did well by me. They deserved to.)<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">The result? Four books, with a total of five authors (since <i>The Incrementalists</i> was co-written). One of the writers was a white dude. Not bad; I give myself a 3.5 out of 4. I did pretty well from a gender standpoint, but I could do more with regard to other kinds of diversity. That’s something I’ll keep in mind for next time. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">I was reticent about naming the books I chose at first. It felt awkward and I was afraid that it might seem patronizing. It’s not my intention to impose my own labels or definitions on anyone or to try to put them in a little identity box. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">But the point of practicing diversity is that, as Emma Newman points out, we don’t have a level playing field. Society puts people into those little identity boxes whether we like it or not, and we need to do more to reach into boxes that differ from our own. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">One final thought: Another reason to practice diversity in book-buying is that it gives us another way to seek and find great things. Three of the four books were by authors I’d never read before (I’m a long-time fan of Steven Brust). All of them were books that, based on my reading about new books in SF&amp;F, sounded really interesting. And all of them were well worth it.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">In other words, I never had to resort to second-tier choices. In fact, if I'd had the resources, I could have bought a dozen more books by women and/or people of colour and still not have been going with second-tier choices. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">You don’t have to give anything up to practice diversity. It doesn’t subtract. It adds. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">Of course, there are books by white dudes that I really want too. And I'm going to continue to support those authors as well (I'm not going without getting caught up on the Gentlemen Bastards series for much longer, that's for sure). This isn’t a boycott and it’s not either/or; it’s a reminder to myself to expand my definition of being inclusive, and putting it into practice via the books I buy. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">(And really, as an aspiring SF&amp;F author and life-long white guy myself, I’m pretty sure we don’t need to worry. The white dudes are going to be okay.) <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">This was an experiment, and from where I’m sitting, a successful one. Worth repeating. Diversity will continue to be one of the lenses I view my book buying through.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">Working to be inclusive. Speaking out. Opposing bigotry. And voting with my dollars.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><br /></div><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="background: white;"><span lang="EN-US" style="color: #222222; font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; font-size: 11.0pt;">It’s a place to start.&nbsp;<o:p></o:p></span></div>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-76294829066852052942014-02-03T13:20:00.001-05:002014-02-03T14:28:35.730-05:00Standing on the Ramparts of my Castle of Perseverance. Well, my Fort of Perseverance. Okay, my Small Cardboard Box of Perseverance <div class="WordSection1"><div class="MsoNormal">One of the things that they don't tell you about trying to break in as a writer is that it frequently involves a number of concurrent processes, many of which are totally outside your control, and that all unfold in their own time*. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And that sometimes, those unfolding processes intersect in ways that aren't much fun. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">By early January, I had four short stories out on submission to four different markets at the same time -- that's my most ever, and I’m pretty proud of that.<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">By late January -- as I mentioned here -- I had started the process of querying my novel and seeking representation by approaching eight literary agents. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I had no idea how long it would take to hear back about any of these. Sometimes you put your work out there and hear back within days. Sometimes it’s months. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I knew that not all of these attempts were going to pay off. Between the short stories and the agent queries, I was expecting to get some rejections. That's par for the course. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I wasn't expecting to get four rejections in a single day. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">But on Friday, January 24th, I got four "thanks, but no thanks" emails -- from two different agents, and two different publications.<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I posted an update on Facebook when I got my second rejection that day, (less than) half-amused and (more than) half-pained, noting that it was a "personal best"**.<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I was, and I'm not even kidding, still in the process of doing that when I got the third rejection, which actually made the whole thing even funnier, although not really less painful. The fourth came later and was just icing. I mean, I actually, literally laughed out loud when I got that one, because one punch in the gut from the universe is awful, but four of them is comedy.&nbsp; <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">And it did feel a bit like a punch in the gut from the universe. Rejection hurts. I've gotten more used to it for my short stories -- I have yet to have anything accepted for publication -- but the agent queries were new and a bit sharper. I was feeling really good about my query letter, good enough that I was expecting to get at least some requests to read my manuscript before potential agents made their decision to say yes or no. And my novel... well, it represents more work, and I'm more deeply emotionally invested. It's closer to my heart. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So yeah, by the end of that day I was feeling raw and bruised. I understand that it's not personal, that the folks sending those emails weren't rejecting me, but one more story or query among the dozens or hundreds they receive, that didn’t match what they were looking for. But in the moment, not being personal doesn't make it easier.<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">Rejection hurts.<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">So what did I do?<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I fought the impulse to try to analyze the rejections to death. I'll look at my query letter again when this process is over, and consider how to make it better, but trying to sift through the entrails in a more specific way is just rejectomancy, and that's an exercise in both frustration and futility. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">More importantly, I started researching. More agents to query. More markets to submit stories to. How to keep moving forward. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">There's an old idea in writing*** that success is based on some combination of talent, persistence and luck. By definition, I can't do anything about my luck. I'm already doing the best writing I can, and striving to improve, and that's all anyone can do about talent. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">That leaves persistence. Persistence is the thing I can really control. I can decide to not give up.<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">I am not going to give up. Even when it hurts. Even when I get rejections. Even if I get four of them in a single day, I am not going to give up. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">More on this process as it continues to unfold. Until then, I persevere, and I hope that you will too. Onward!<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal">--<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">* Or possibly they do tell you that, and I wasn't paying attention. <o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">** Yes, I was fishing for sympathy. C'mon, people, that's what Facebook is FOR.<o:p></o:p></div><div class="MsoNormal"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal">*** And, I imagine, in other endeavours, creative and otherwise, where success is partly dependent on gatekeepers.<o:p></o:p></div></div>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-19013967402511196132014-01-18T12:52:00.000-05:002014-01-18T12:52:06.798-05:00This is What I'm Doing: The January 2014 EditionI kind of went heads-down over the last few months of 2013, more than I intended or expected to. Between family and work, the holidays, the extreme weather adventures (I know I'm not alone there -- for a while it seemed like the entire continent was snowed in and frozen solid), I was pretty engaged in other things.&nbsp;<div><br /></div><div>Oh, and there was winning NaNoWriMo, but I kind of feel like I bragged about that one enough, on Twitter and Facebook, when it actually happened. It's worth mentioning, but more because obviously it was taking up a lot of my time and my writing energy in November.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>(It left me with a post-NaNo hangover, too. It was hard to buckle down and write in December. I spent a lot of the month feeling wrung out and like I needed to recharge my creative batteries.)</div><div><br /></div><div>The important thing is that I used NaNoWriMo to kick off what appears to be my next novel, a science-fiction story with the working title <i>Nobody's Watching</i>.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>So, what am I doing now?&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div><i>Nobody's Watching</i> was on hold while I shook off the post-NaNoWriMo doldrums, but I'm about ready to resume work on it. It helps that it's the work-in-progress that I've been taking to my writers group, because I do get motivated by deadlines.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>I've been continuing to take my short fiction to market, so far without success. I currently have three stories out on submission (with a fourth that just got a rejection, so I really need to get it out there again as well). More news on that as it happens. In terms of time and project management, short stories tend to be one of two things for me: the short, sharp idea that gets stuck in my head and won't go away until I write it; and/or creative palate cleansers between long stretches of working on a novel.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>The result of this is that I have a backlog of short fiction pieces in addition to the ones that are currently out to market -- about six or eight, I think, in various states of readiness between "just needs a polish" to "oh my FSM what was I thinking this calls for a page-one rewrite".&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>My plan is to work on revising and finishing these stories over the first half of this year, in between working on the big ticket projects -- <i>Nobody's Watching</i>, until it's done. I have a pretty good sense of what the novel after that will be, too, but I'm going to keep my powder dry on that one until <i>Nobody's Watching</i> is actually a finished draft.</div><div><br /></div><div>In other news, I spent a lot of the fall polishing <i>All That Glitters</i>, and my other big initiative for the New Year is going to be using it to query literary agents and seek representation. I'm not sure how much of this process I really should go into -- certainly I'm not going to name any names, that's just unprofessional. So let's just say that the manuscript is ready, and I've been honing my query letter and, more painfully, my synopsis. And now I'm as ready as I'm going to be. It's time to see if my first novel is ready to fly.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>Nervous? Ha. I'm feeling a combination of heady excitement and stomach-curdling anxiety that reminds me of nothing so much as when I was in theatre. It's exhilarating and terrifying to be confronted with the prospect of taking a step that could lead to either success or showing my ass in public (which has actually literally happened to me a couple of times, but that doesn't seem to make this any easier).</div><div><br /></div><div>For now, let's just say there'll be more news on that when I have something I can share.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm also continuing to focus on home and family, work and on my own health, the latter of which I sort of lost the thread of over 2013, and need to get back on top of. And there are other creative projects on the horizon, including some interesting potential ones relating to my comics work. Again, more on that when it's less nebulous.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>2013 was a remarkable year, full of peaks and valleys. I did some of my best writing last year, even if it has yet to see the light of day. I also had a personal health crisis that literally could have killed me. The peaks were high. The valleys were real nadirs. All in all, I'm glad it's a new year.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>It's January, 2014 and on reflection, it seems like I've got rather a lot I want to do. It's time to do it.&nbsp;It's time to move forward. I hope we can all move forward, together. And I look forward to telling you about the steps I take in my journey -- and hearing about yours.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>Onward!</div>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-49093655542503528982014-01-15T12:05:00.001-05:002014-01-15T12:05:55.560-05:00Because Really, Don't We All Want a Party in a Can?<div class=WordSection1><p class=MsoNormal>Years ago -- the early 90's, I think -- Sprite ran a fun, subversive little ad campaign that involved mocking the tropes of soft drink ad campaigns. They turned the tropes up to eleven and then contrasted the overblown hype with Sprite, and the slogan &quot;Image is nothing. Taste is everything. Obey your thirst.&quot;<o:p></o:p></p><p class=MsoNormal>I enjoyed those ads. They were fun, clever and aimed right at my cynical, media-saturated Gen X heart. <o:p></o:p></p><p class=MsoNormal>My favourite was a commercial within a commercial. Two slacker-types watching TV see an ad for a soft drink called &quot;Jooky&quot;. &quot;Jooky: It's a party in a can!&quot; A beach party, girls in bikinis, everybody happy and dancing, a totally over-the-top jingle actually explicating all the implicit promises of commercials -- &quot;Jooky make you really kooky, Jooky make you manly man!&quot;<o:p></o:p></p><p class=MsoNormal>Then the two slackers, with expressions of great anticipation, pop the tabs on their cans of Jooky. Nothing happens. No beach party. &quot;Aw, mine's broken,&quot; says one. Cut to the Sprite slogan: &quot;Image is nothing,&quot; etc. <o:p></o:p></p><p class=MsoNormal>Much as I loved the ad, it didn't work as intended, at least not on me. I don't drink citrus-based pops -- they upset my stomach. I was never going to buy Sprite. So what was my take-away?<o:p></o:p></p><p class=MsoNormal>Well, I understood the intent, and I appreciated the satirical sting of the commercial-within-the-commercial. I loved seeing the strings of advertising's ridiculous subtextual promises laid bare. <o:p></o:p></p><p class=MsoNormal>And I didn't care. Because after I saw that ad, all I wanted was a can of Jooky.<o:p></o:p></p><p class=MsoNormal>To this day, I still want a can of Jooky.<o:p></o:p></p></div>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-26427503526789502612013-10-07T22:09:00.000-04:002013-10-07T22:09:21.853-04:00Blogsticuffs? Blogmageddon?<div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 10pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">The inestimable Mr. Beettam, having <a href="http://bleakwhimsy.blogspot.ca/2013/10/lest-it-become-obvious-he-did-hide-his.html" target="_blank">upon further reflection</a> determined that the only winning move is not to play, or something of that nature, has advised all and sundry that Blog War is not for him.&nbsp;</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 10pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 10pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Thus endeth the Great Blog War of 2013, in a state of status quo ante bellum, which is a fancy-pants way of saying "dammit, now all the work of motivating me to update this thing is going to be on <i style="font-weight: bold;">me </i>again". Thanks a lot for foiling my plan to outsource my motivation to you, <b><i>Greg</i></b>.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 10pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 10pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Well, in fact, I've been feeling pretty on top of the motivating-myself aspect of blogging lately. What I was really looking forward to in an unfolding Blog War was not only having a partly externalized motivation to actually post here more regularly (and on a broader variety of subjects), but also the idea that as posts volleyed back and forth, inevitably we'd end up responding to not only the fact of one another's posts, but also the content -- and an interesting discussion might then emerge.&nbsp;</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 10pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt;"><span style="color: #222222; font-size: 10pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">So, to that end, I'm going to put this out there: If anyone is interested in some form of at least vaguely-organized blog-based discussion, let's set something up. It doesn't need to be a Blog! War!!! It could be anything. It could be a Blogstravaganza!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt;"><span style="color: #222222; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10pt;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; background-position: initial initial; background-repeat: initial initial; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt;"><span style="color: #222222; font-family: inherit; font-size: 10pt;">I don't know exactly what a Blogstravaganza would be, but then, I didn't know what I thought a Blog War was either, until I started typing it, so I'm sure we can figure something out.</span></div>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-80266372060686994222013-10-01T22:59:00.000-04:002013-10-01T22:59:01.569-04:00Reviewed -- TT: Full Throttle, an excellent debut YA novel<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;">I'm not terribly into sports -- it's great if people enjoy playing them, and hey, if you're a passionate sports fan, there are way worse things you could be excited about. But left to my own devices, I don't follow any organized sport beyond having a sense of what's in the headlines. I particularly am not into motorsports. Not a sports fan + environmentalist = some serious apprehensions about watching motor vehicles drive around in a circle.</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;">All of which is to say that I am so not the target audience for <i>TT: Full Throttle</i>, the debut novel by my friend Nicole Winters, set in the world of motorcycle racing and specifically, at the Isle of Man Tourist Trophy race. A YA novel about motorcycle racing? Yeah, so not my usual thing.</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;">I love this book.</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;">Nicole has achieved something really rare, special and admirable in this, her first published novel -- she has created a window into the world and the passions of a group of very believable characters, and she has done it in a way that makes me, someone who would normally disdain motorcycle racing for all sorts of reasons, deeply interested and invested in the outcome.&nbsp;</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;"><i>TT: Full Throttle</i> is the story of Scott Saunders, a young man in his early twenties who lives for only one thing -- to race in the annual Isle of Man Tourist Trophy, the TT. Scott comes from a racing family, and planned for years to travel to the Isle of Man with his father for the race. His father's untimely death has changed all that, and now Scott eats, sleeps and breathes the TT, intent on travelling to the Isle with his friend Neil so they can race to honour his dad's memory.&nbsp;</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;">Scott shares his home with Neil, Mags, a gifted motorcycle mechanic who Scott is attracted to, and Dean, a former juvenile delinquent who Neil has taken under his wing. The story begins as Scott and Neil are moving forward with their training for the TT, but when tragedy strikes again, Scott must decide whether to go ahead or give up on his dream. With the help of his friends, who join him on his journey and act as an ad hoc pic crew, he travels to the Isle of Man. There, however, the pressure mounts as Scott struggles to qualify for the race with limited resources, no sponsorship, and his amateur crew of well-meaning but not always skilled friends. Together, they must all work to rise to these new challenges if Scott's dream is ever to come true.</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;">I'll let you read the book to learn how that works out, and read it you most definitely should. Nicole has a remarkable ear for dialogue, and every single one of her characters pops off the page. Scott, Neil, Mags and Dean are more real to me now than some people I've met in my real life. In the abstract, I don't care much about motorcycle racing, but I care about these people, their struggles, their tragedies and their triumphs, and I was deeply invested in following them on their journey and rooting for them to succeed.&nbsp;</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;">And if that was my reaction, I can't even imagine how strongly a younger reader, especially one with an interest in sports, would react to this book. This excellent novel is primarily aimed at YA readers, especially boys and reluctant readers generally, but there's plenty going on here to catch and hold the interest of an adult -- even a sports-indifferent one.&nbsp;</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;"><i>TT: Full Throttle</i> is available from online booksellers everywhere in print and ebook versions. I recommend it unreservedly.</span></span><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #181818; line-height: 18px;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">--</span></span><br /><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">In the interests of full disclosure: I originally posted this on <a href="http://www.goodreads.com/user/show/11735886-stephen-geigen-miller" target="_blank">Goodreads</a>&nbsp;-- but a) I'm still figuring out how to integrate Goodreads with the rest of my social media activity and I didn't want this to get lost in the shuffle and b) it's past time for another volley in my <a href="http://backfromerstwhile.blogspot.ca/2013/08/this-is-what-im-doing-end-of-august.html" target="_blank">Blog! War!!!</a> with Greg Beettam. Mr. Beettam, the ball is in your court now.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And also in the interests of full disclosure: I did mention this in my review, but it merits repeating. Nicole is a friend, and I am in that sense not at all unbiased here. That being said, I think I would love <i>TT: Full Throttle </i>just as much if I didn't know the author at all.</span><br /><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">And finally, if you still need convincing, why not check out the book trailer <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LKaGzyWKQBI" target="_blank">here</a>?</span>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-47669033962231799942013-09-05T15:52:00.000-04:002013-09-05T15:52:20.521-04:00Con Ascending: Making Cons Better and More Sustainable through Diversity in SFF<span style="font-family: inherit;">As I mentioned last time, both Dragon Con and the Worldcon took place over the Labour Day long weekend. This has engendered a fascinating, sprawling conversation about creators and fans about the future of Worldcon specifically -- because it's greying, and not very diverse -- and more broadly science fiction and fantasy (SFF) in general. The discourse has taken place across the web in all sorts of fora, including many author and fan blogs, and has been prominent on Twitter, where writer Jim Hines created the <a href="https://twitter.com/search?q=%23DiversityInSFF&amp;src=hash" target="_blank">#DiversityInSFF</a> hashtag to further the discussion.</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">For some important background and the discussion to date, you can read the #DiversityInSFF tweets, as well as blog posts from <a href="http://terribleminds.com/ramble/2013/09/03/the-worldcon-youth-problem/" target="_blank">Chuck Wendig</a>, <a href="http://madelineashby.com/?p=1502" target="_blank">Madeline Ashby</a>&nbsp;and&nbsp;<a href="http://jmmcdermott.blogspot.ca/2013/09/worldcon-has-some-happy-things-plus.html" target="_blank">Jim McDermott</a>.</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: inherit; font-size: 11pt;">I wasn't at this Worldcon. In fact, I’ve never been to a WorldCon (I attended the 2012 World Fantasy Con, and I was a pre-supporter for TorCon 3, and look forward to attending future Worldcons), but I'm very much pro-Worldcon. I love cons, I love science fiction and fantasy and the SFF writing and fandom communities – our wonderful, strange little subculture. I want the things I love to succeed, and to continue to succeed for years to come.</span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I also have some small sense of the amount of work that goes into organizing an undertaking as massive as a convention, especially when you’re an all-volunteer organization. I have the utmost respect for the hard-working convention committees and the other volunteers who make conventions happen. You are all awesome and I don’t want for one second to detract from your awesomeness. I want you to be able to continue to be awesome and pass on the awesome to future generations and for the awesome to roll forever down the ringing grooves of change.<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Although Worldcon engendered this discussion, the problems that have been identified are not unique to Worldcon (a lot of them aren’t unique to SFF). That doesn’t mean that we can’t and shouldn’t do something about them, either for future Worldcons, or more broadly throughout SFF.<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">So what are these problems? Broadly, they are problems of inclusivity and bringing new people into the community -- that they are welcomed, that they can freely participate as themselves, that they are encouraged to stay and supported in staying. This is important not only for ethical reasons, but because being more open, welcoming and therefore more diverse is the key to long-term sustainability of a community that is frankly too old, too white and too male to grow or even be self-sustaining in the long run, without change.&nbsp;<u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">Here are nine suggestions. Nine things we could to address the problems of diversity in literary SFF conventions and fandom.</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">A note on my own positioning: I am a member of various fandoms. I am a writer who aspires to work professionally within SFF. I occupy positions of privilege, since I present as male, white, cis and straight. I know that affects my experiences and my thinking, and that I am not always aware of how. So these suggestions are just that. Suggestions, my attempt to contribute to a vital discussion, to indicate my willingness to do my part to make things better. I hope for feedback, so that I can learn more and that better ideas can emerge from the conversation. I hope to listen and learn so I can be a better ally. I welcome dialogue. &nbsp;</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">Another note: This list is really focused on conventions because that's where a lot of the current iteration of the conversation started. There's lots more work to do in diversity with regards to diversity among writers and in subject matter, for instance -- but others have been writing eloquently about that.</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">A final note: Many of these ideas are not new. At least half are via other, smarter people than me, and the other half, a different bunch of other, smarter people probably thought up before I did, and I just didn’t hear about them. (I've tried to source them, where possible.)&nbsp;</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">But that’s part of the point – these ideas aren't revolutionary, aren't terribly complicated and shouldn’t be controversial. In many cases, they're kind of obvious. Some might take time, planning and money to implement. Some would require a will to change that might not be there. But we are a bunch of people who pride themselves on our intelligence and creativity, right? Well, if we can’t pull off the basic level of problem-solving required to address these issues, then we might have to re-evaluate that opinion.<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">And with the appropriate background and mea culpas out of the way...</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>NINE (NOT TERRIBLY COMPLICATED) THINGS WE COULD DO&nbsp;</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>TO MAKE CONS BETTER AND MORE SUSTAINABLE&nbsp;</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>THROUGH DIVERSITY IN SFF</b></span></div><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><b><span style="font-family: inherit;">1. We could LET THE HUGOS WANDER<u></u><u></u></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><a href="http://princejvstin.tumblr.com/post/60182183407/a-modest-proposal-for-the-hugo-awards-for-2016" target="_blank">Paul Weimer’s idea</a> to hold an upcoming Hugo Award ceremony at Dragon Con is an exciting and good one. His brief suggestion doesn’t go into detail – would only the ceremony be at Dragon Con? Or would Dragon Con attendees actually be eligible to vote for the Hugos?&nbsp;<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I assume Paul is suggesting the former. The latter would be a great opportunity to open up the Hugo Awards to new participants but given the recent anxiety and pushback expressed in the discussion of opening up access to Hugo voting through more affordable memberships, I don't think the community is ready.&nbsp;<u></u><u></u></span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">So, failing that admittedly bold step, simply holding the awards ceremony at Dragon Con would, as Paul points out, be a brilliant way to open the Worldcon door to the Dragon Con community. Everyone <b><i>gets</i></b> awards shows; you don't need to be an insider to understand the dynamic. They have built-in drama and fun, and you get to see celebrities dressed up in clothes and making goofy jokes.&nbsp;</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">And reaching out to Dragon Con attendees, to be clear, isn't just about raising the profile of Worldcon, or the Hugos, although both of those are worthy goals in themselves. It forwards Diversity in SFF by making an active effort to welcome and include Dragon Con's much larger (about ten time the attendance of an average Worldcon) audience of younger, more diverse fans. Hook them with the awards show, get them interested in the books, the programming, the discouse and the community -- and connect them to SF&amp;F's powerful traditions of celebrating those things, and you're already half-way to winning the next generation.&nbsp;</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">If, however, that is a little too much for people...<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><b><span style="font-family: inherit;">2. We could CREATE JOINT DRAGONCON/WORLDCON PROGRAMMING<u></u><u></u></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Why not? The technology is there to have joint panels and other events split between the two cons, connecting via videoconferencing. Imagine a Dragon Con vs. Worldcon poetry slam, with improvised poems on SFFnal topics suggested by fans at both ends. Imagine being in Atlanta for Dragon Con and not having to miss George R. R. Martin’s reading at Worldcon. Hell, with Margaret Atwood's invention, the <a href="http://www.fanado.com/" target="_blank">LongPen</a>, we could even have signings split between the conventions.<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><b>An aside on Dragon Con</b><br />There are huge differences between Dragon Con and Worldcon besides the age and diversity of the fans -- Dragon Con is commercial, Worldcon is non-profit; Dragon Con is devoted to all media and all things fannish, Worldcon is firmly and almost exclusively literary in focus. And Dragon Con isn't without its flaws or problems. A lot of the comparisons are happening because the two conventions happen at the same time, and therefore form a really clear contrast to one another. The issue isn't Dragon Con per se, just as it isn't Worldcon per se; it's that fan media cons are more diverse, younger, and growing, while SFF literary cons are less diverse, greying, and have plateaued -- for years, in many cases.<br /><br />But those young, diverse fans who are helping the media cons to surge should be a massive feeder market for Worldcon and other literary cons, creating the next generation of, for instance, Worldcon and World Fantasy attendees.<br /><br />Should be, could be, but so far aren't. So the question of what can be learned from those cons, and how to reach the fans who attend them, and make them aware of and excited about literary cons is vitally important. Dragon Con and Worldcon happen at the same time and so they're obvious candidates for some form of cooperation and synergy, but there should be stronger ties and connections between literary and media cons in general.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><b><span style="font-family: inherit;">3. We could CREATE FEWER FINANCIAL BARRIERS FOR NEW PEOPLE TO ATTEND WORLDCON (AND OTHER MAJOR CONS)<u></u><u></u></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Future Worldcons could create a steeply discounted category of membership for people attending their first Worldcon (as long as information is shared between Worldcons, you can manage this issue with a spreadsheet. The challenge is not going to be logistical). Get the price of a badge down and there will&nbsp; be fewer barriers to participation, especially for younger and/or less financially well-off people.<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">And let's be clear: The cost of attending major conventions is significant and it is a barrier to participation. In Mary Robinette Kowal's <a href="https://www.surveymonkey.com/sr.aspx?sm=yV1q5EqcIAYy0s0KNZyaFc_2fKSK58o1XiDJHLiGrT2dQ_3d" target="_blank">survey</a> on Diversity in SFF, of respondents who had never attended a con, 57.4% cited cost as one reason.&nbsp;</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span>Making conventions -- including but not only Worldcon -- more accessible to people who can't currently afford to attend will address Diversity in SFF via age (young people are often less well-off) and social class. And people in groups that are less privileged or marginalized for other reasons tend to have less money and be less financially secure as well -- so there'll be a ripple effect.<br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">(Oh, and on the subject of that survey question, 36.5% cited "I would feel out of place" as a reason they've never attended a con -- another reason that addressing Diversity in SFF will be good for cons!)</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Again, and this is specific to Worldcon, there are going to be concerns about things like Hugo voting and the WSFS business meeting. You know what? Amend the bylaws. Make the new membership category a “Friend of the WSFS” or “Observer” or what have you, and sever it from Hugo and WSFS business meeting voting rights – but provide the same access to the other programming as any other attendee. People who try it and get bitten by the Worldcon bug will be back, with full memberships at future Worldcons.<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>4. We could EXPAND EXISTING INITIATIVES TO DIVERSIFY PARTICIPATION<u></u><u></u></b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">The </span><a href="http://www.carlbrandon.org/index.html" style="font-size: 11pt;" target="_blank">Carl Brandon Society</a><span style="font-size: 11pt;"> is doing wonderful, important work</span><span style="font-family: inherit;"> "<span style="color: black; text-align: justify;">to increase racial and ethnic diversity in the production of and audience for speculative fiction." One of their initiatives is Con Or Bust, devoted to "helping fans of color attend SFF cons". This is essential. As I noted above, financial barriers to participation in conventions are real, and they disproportionately affect people of colour and people in other less privileged populations. Con Or Bust, and the other projects of the Carl Brandon Society, should be financially supported so they can not just continue, but expand them. The Society should be invited to present on its work and hold donation drives at cons.&nbsp;</span></span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="color: black; text-align: justify;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="color: black; text-align: justify;">And new initiatives should be created to support participation at cons by other under-represented populations (the differently-abled for instance, or the neurodiverse).</span></span><br /><div style="font-size: 11pt;"><br /></div></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><b><span style="font-family: inherit;">5. We could PUT THE WORLD IN WORLDCON<u></u><u></u></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I live in Toronto, home to a <a href="http://tiff.net/" target="_blank">major film festival</a>. It's going on right now, you may have heard of it? Every year, the Film Festival -- one of the biggest and most prestigious in the world -- has programming devoted to the cinema of a particular country<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">So, why isn’t the World Convention of the World Science Fiction Society doing something similar?&nbsp;</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">It could and should. Every WorldCon could have an International Guest of Honour, bringing a creator from a spotlight non-English-speaking country or culture to the con. Programming could explore the IGOH’s work and the speculative fiction tradition of his/her home country, culture, or language.<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><br />Expose con attendees to more diverse SFF from around the world, and they will find something to love -- and that will spur more sources, more voices and more diversity in SFF.<br /><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><b><span style="font-family: inherit;">6. We could PUT WORLDCON IN THE WORLD<u></u><u></u></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Many people supported the Helsinki bid for the 2015 Worldcon (Helsinki lost to Spokane, WA) partly out of a desire to support the growth and development of organized SFFnal fandom in Europe. That argument did not persuade quite enough people, this time around. But what if the choices weren’t exclusive?<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">What about a network of concurrent, satellite Worldcons taking place around the world? Set up Worldcon spoke sites, essentially, in Europe, or South America, or East Asia, or South Asia, or Africa, but linked up with the main Worldcon via videoconferencing for conjoint programming. This would allow affordable participation by not just a significant number of creators from other countries and cultures, but fans from those countries and cultures too. And it would develop connections and partnerships between “main site” con coms and their partners elsewhere – and that would also build the skills, experience and fannish infrastructure for future, successful Worldcon bids from outside North America (and western Europe). A Gdansk, or Rio, or Mumbai hub in partnership with the 2016 Worldcon could lead to Gdansk, Rio, or Mumbai hosting the main Worldcon in 2023.<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><b><span style="font-family: inherit;">7. We could CREATE THE FLIPPING BEST YA NOVEL HUGO AWARD ALREADY<u></u><u></u></span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">In a list of uncomplicated ideas, this one is a no-brainer.<u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>8. We could MAKE PANEL PARITY THE RULE</b><u></u><u></u></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">I first learned of this idea via writer <a href="http://www.paulcornell.com/2012/02/panel-parity.html" target="_blank">Paul Cornell</a> (who I suspect was consolidating, expressing and making into a personal, actionable goal the outcome of a series of discussions and suggestions that a large number of people participated in -- my apologies to all those who informed this discourse whose names and contributions I'm unfamiliar with.)</span><br /><br />Panel parity is just a basically sensible idea. Panels, and therefore convention programming, and therefore conventions, will appeal to more and a more diverse set of people, if they see via the panelists that their participation is wanted and welcomed. More women on panels = more women going to panels and participating in the discussion. The same principle can and should be applied to people of colour, and to other forms of diversity.<br /><br />If the makeup of panels, that is to say, ignores a significant percentage of humanity, those people will go somewhere else instead -- somewhere that acknowledges, welcomes, includes and reflects them and their experiences.<br /><br />But why should this be up to individual panelists to police, when it's not only just straightforwardly the ethical thing to do, but is actually in the best interest of conventions? The answer, clearly, is that it shouldn't. Panel parity should be adopted as a core principle by cons.<br /><br />Now, the people who organize programming for conventions already work really hard -- scheduling those panels and events is like playing Jenga, except that everyone is yelling at you and the pieces are on fire -- but I can't imagine that ensuring parity and diversity in participation would be an unbearable addition to the burden. Indeed, in the long run, by expanding participation, panel parity will expand the pool of available panelists, which will make panels easier to organize -- making it a matter of enlightened self-interest yet again!</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>9. We could MAKE CONS SAFER AND MORE WELCOMING ENVIRONMENTS</b></span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;">Again: No. Freakin'. Brainer. This issue has been discussed at length over the past year or so, but it's central, it's vital and it bears repeating. Conventions need robust and robustly enforced policies and practices to ensure that all fans feel welcome and safe there. There must be policies to prevent harassment and bullying of any kind, and clear, consistent, transparent procedures in the event somebody breaks those rules.&nbsp;</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">There are other factors, important ones, that haven't been as widely discussed yet, that are vital to cons being safe and welcoming for all: Accessibility for people with reduced mobility; accommodation for the differently-abled and the neurodiverse; on-site child care are just a few.&nbsp;</span><br /><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span>So many people have done so much work on these issues -- harassment at conventions being particularly prominent and thorny lately -- that it would be difficult to name them all. A very short list of the ones who have helped me towards better understanding would include <a href="https://twitter.com/rosefox" target="_blank">Rose Fox</a>, <a href="http://glvalentine.livejournal.com/346102.html" target="_blank">Genevieve Valentine</a>, <a href="http://whatever.scalzi.com/2013/07/02/my-new-convention-harassment-policy/" target="_blank">John Scalzi</a>, <a href="http://mariadahvanaheadley.wordpress.com/2013/06/28/but-he-didnt-know-he-was-hijacking-your-ship-on-conference-creeps/" target="_blank">Maria Dahvana Headley</a>, <a href="http://www.jimchines.com/2013/07/reporting-sexual-harassment-2013/" target="_blank">Jim Hines</a> and groups and organizations like <a href="http://sffragette.wordpress.com/" target="_blank">SFFragette</a>, the <a href="http://backupribbonproject.wordpress.com/" target="_blank">Backup Ribbon Project</a> and the <a href="http://adainitiative.org/" target="_blank">Ada Initiative</a>. We all owe these people, and the others who have been dealing with these issues, a tremendous debt of gratitude. It takes a lot of courage to put yourself into the maw of frothing internet-hatred that this struggle too often is. To acknowledge their efforts properly, we should do two things: Thank them, and then do the work required to make sure these problems are resolved.<br /><br />That's important for all these ideas, in fact. Many, many people have done a lot of work to change things for the better, so that conventions and fan culture will be more diverse and therefore better, stronger and more sustainable. Let's take a moment to thank them.<br /><br />Now, using these suggestions or the other, better ones that will emerge from the ongoing discussion, <b><i>let's fix things.&nbsp;</i></b></div>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-75958846990435661262013-08-31T02:03:00.001-04:002013-08-31T02:03:58.339-04:00Con, DescendingWas there ever a convention called Con Descending? There must have been. Punning is as deeply ingrained in fen as arguing, Monty Python quotes and the phrase, "Not a question, more of a comment..."<br /><br />Regardless: Conventions. The gatherings of the geek tribes. Nerdhallas. Cons.<br /><br />With two big exceptions, about which more later, my involvement in fandom-related conventions has mainly been tied to being the co-creator and co-writer of <i>Xeno's Arrow</i>. Even before Greg Beettam and I launched our own comic, I went to small local comic cons to hang out with my friends and help crew the Egesta Comics table. I started on at cons being on the creator's side of the table, in other words. I didn't attend a comics convention as a "fan" (as distinct from a "pro", for certain values of "pro", of course) for years.<br /><br />So, for the most part, I stopped attending conventions when I stopped having a comic to sell to the unwitting masses. Greg and I have occasionally had a table at Toronto's big outdoor literary festival, Word On The Street. And while we haven't had a table there, I attend the Toronto Comics Arts Festival (TCAF) every year, as a fan/enthusiastic reader/lover of comics.<br /><br />I find that I miss cons. As the Labour Day long weekend approaches, I find myself missing them even more than usual. That's because there are two major conventions over this weekend - Dragon Con, in Atlanta, and the WorldCon, which this year is in San Antonio, Texas (WorldCon moves around from year to year, like the Olympics).<br /><br />The two cons are very different in size, scope and character. Dragon Con is a huge media-driven nerd fest, with tons of programming tracks covering every kind of fandom. I believe that it's second in size in North America only to Nerd Prom itself, the San Diego Comic Con. Cosplay is a major, major element<br /><br />WorldCons, wherever they are, are rather different. WorldCon skews older and is focused exclusively on literary science fiction and fantasy. There's some steampunkery and people in cool hats, but you won't find many Stormtrooper or Catwoman costumes. The Hugo Awards are presented at WorldCon. It's an order of magnitude smaller than Dragon Con.<br /><br />I am, however, told that the partying at WorldCon is just as intense. Make of that what you will.<br /><div><br /></div><div>If my Twitter feed is to be believed, everyone in the world except me is at one of these two conventions. Or, okay, it might just feel that way. Regardless, missing on out con season is hitting me especially hard this year.&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>It's funny, because when Greg and I were actively publishing the comic, cons were part of the job. They were exciting and fun and a wonderful opportunity to see and spend time with the friends we'd made through comics, certainly, but that wasn't supposed to be the point. The point was go somewhere where we could meet existing and potential readers, and hopefully sell them comics. I wouldn't have gone to a convention just for the excitement and fun and camaraderie - I was a pro. Or, rather, a "pro", but still.</div><div><br /></div><div>I remember a lot of conventions from those days. Guess how many of my memories have to do with how much money we made?&nbsp;</div><div><br /></div><div>So yes, I miss cons. I miss the excitement and the fun and the camaraderie. Attending conventions is another part of my life where I'd like to get back from erstwhile. Of course, in this case, in addition to being a time thing, it's also a money thing -- hotels and air fares and paying ten bucks for a sandwich adds up. But there are options that won't cost an arm and a leg or take a week out of my life -- and for the options that would, I can dream, and plan.</div>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-57315713132162828152013-08-26T15:16:00.000-04:002013-08-26T15:16:35.085-04:00This Is What I'm Doing: The End of August 2013 Edition (and a Slight Declaration of War)So, first order of business - I feel kind of compelled to say this whenever I go radio silent for a while, these days - yes, I am indeed still alive. Busy, but well overall.<br /><br />But since it has been a while since my last post, I'm going to defer the exciting conclusion of my epic 'A Not All That Hilarious Heart Attack' series for now, and instead do a scattershot update on the state of the me.<br /><br /><b>The Summer of Live</b><br />I've been focusing on home and family over this summer. Partly, just because that's what I've been most interested in doing, but also partly out of necessity. The kids have been out of school and unfortunately, the summer activities we had hoped to get them into didn't quite pan out - the demand for summer services for autistic kids being rather in excess of supply. Which would be complicated enough, and has been a huge amount of work for Sarah, who's been at home with them full-time while I've been at work. But on top of that, the change to activity levels has switched up their sleep cycles. They've always been night owls compared to typically-developing peers, and now they are up late. Late. Very late.&nbsp;&nbsp;The opposite of early, is what I'm saying here.&nbsp;<b><i>L-A-T-E</i></b>.<br /><br />This means that we don't get our usual time to unwind or do stuff after the kids are in bed - and we're up so late, I haven't been able to get up early, either. Although Sarah has done her level best to support me getting time to get out of the house and do me-time things, including writing, it hasn't always been possible, and I certainly haven't been anywhere near as creatively productive over the summer as I imagined I would be, before we realized how impacted we were going to be by the kids' schedules going wonky.<br /><br />On the plus side, the kids are happy and healthy, and they're cheap dates - the splash pad at the local park will keep them entertained for hours. I love getting to spend time with them, and minor kvetching about free time aside, it's been a wonderful summer.<br /><br />But boy, am I ever looking forward to the day after Labour Day this year!<br /><br /><b>Write On</b><br />Not as productive as I imagined doesn't mean that I haven't been productive at all. I've been polishing and submitting my short fiction - I generally have two or three stories out to market at any given time. No sales yet. This has had the beneficial side effect of making me much less sensitive about rejection, and will make the eventual acceptance, at whatever publication that ends up being, even sweeter. I expect that I'll be hard to shut about about that when it finally happens.<br /><br />And revisions to the novel continue - that's really been the big-ticket project this summer. I'm about half-way through the manuscript, but since notes from my readers are a bit thinner on the ground in the second half of the story (because it was, you know, <i>better</i> than the first half) I'm likely more than half done. Then it'll be a matter of doing a final read through, making my own notes, and the resulting final buffing to get it into shape.<br /><br />And then I'll start shopping it around to agents.<br /><br />So, this is obviously not going to be done this month as I had originally hoped - but I am in good shape to finish in September. The important thing is to start contacting agents well before December, when they'll start getting flooded with everyone's NaNoWriMo output.<br /><br />More on the process of finding representation as it unfolds.<br /><br /><b>Blog! War! Declared!!!</b><br />I was reminded that it was time (okay, past time) for me to post something new by two friends who are now blogging. Nicole Winters, whose debut novel will be out in September, has been updating the blog on her new <a href="http://nicolewintersauthor.com/" target="_blank">website</a> with all sorts of interesting content, and I recommend you check it out - and pick up her novel when it's out, too!<br /><br />And <i>Xeno's Arrow</i> co-creator Greg Beettam just made the inaugural post on his <a href="http://bleakwhimsy.blogspot.ca/" target="_blank">Bleakwhimsy</a> blog, which I also very much encourage you to check out.<br /><br />Now, so far, Greg just has the one post up. An auspicious beginning, and his clearly-stated desire to blog regularly going forward gave me an idea. With this post, <b><i>I hearby declare Blog War on Greg Beettam and his Bleakwhimsy blog!</i></b><br /><b><i><br /></i></b>What exactly does that mean, you ask? It's a fair question, since a Blog War is something I'm pretty sure I just made up.<br /><br />A Blog War is a challenge to spur us both to post more regularly. When I update my blog, the gauntlet is thrown down to Greg to respond - not to the content, although he certainly can do that if he wants - but by updating his own blog with a new post. And, to keep this interesting and fair, I'm adding a word count stipulation - the new post must meet or exceed the length of the post it's in response to. So if I update with a 500-word post, Greg's response needs to be at least 500 words - and the armour-plated glove is thereby thrown down to <b style="font-style: italic;">me </b>to respond with a comparable post.<br /><br />(Greg gets a pass on the word count of this current post, to be fair - he just needs to post something, and the length it ends up being will determine the minimum length of my post in response.)<br /><br />The goal is to keep the chain unbroken and the posts flowing, challenge and response, thesis and antithesis, Bert and Ernie. And on January 1, 2014 we'll tally up our total number of blog posts between today and New Year's Eve. The blogger with the highest total number of posts wins the Blog War and gets massive bragging rights, plus... I dunno, a cookie? Greg, is a cookie a good prize?<br /><br />Mr. Beettam, I await your bleak and whimsical response. And may the bloggiest blogger win!Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-63423769375739831712013-04-27T10:25:00.000-04:002013-04-27T10:34:02.615-04:00A Not All That Hilarious Heart Attack, Part 2: The Cardiologist Strikes Back<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">So, when we last left our hero, the seriousness of the situation was finally - belatedly - registering (because even I can't have a discussion with a cardiologist about the risk of death associated with a medical procedure versus the risk of death associated with doing nothing, without it sinking in that something important might be happening), and I was being taken upstairs on a stretcher.</span><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">While I was being prepped for the procedure, the cardiologist explained a few more things, including that I wouldn't be able to drive for some time afterwards.&nbsp;</span><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">"That's not an issue for me," I said, "I don't drive."</span><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">"Oh," he replied, "You got here in an ambulance?"</span><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">"No," I said, "I took the bus."</span><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">A look of pure incredulity flashed across his face. "You took the bus? Why wouldn't you take the ambulance?"</span><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></span><span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial;">"It seemed excessive," I told him.</span><br /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></span><span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial;">He <i>laughed out loud</i>. "It seemed excessive," he said, shaking his head.&nbsp;</span><br /><span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></span><span style="color: #222222; font-family: arial;">So yes, everyone: Point taken. The Head of Cardiology at Sunnybrook Health Sciences Centre agrees with you. The bus <i>was not one of my better ideas</i>. Sheesh! Can we move on to the procedure?&nbsp;</span><br /><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></span><br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">This was the procedure: I would get a local anaesthetic on my right wrist, and a sedative - but not a general anaesthetic. Then a camera would be inserted via my wrist and snaked up to my heart. They'd have a look around and take further action as needed.<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">The further action, I learned afterwards, was the insertion of a stent. One of my arteries was totally - one hundred percent - blocked. They were able to clear out the blockage and re-open the artery with the stent. So there's a tiny plastic tube in my artery. It releases medication, too, over time, to ensure that my body doesn't try to heal it over.<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">Yeah, how amazing is medical science? Based on information obtained via a tiny camera that went to my heart via my wrist, I had a stent inserted - again, it went in via my <i>wrist</i> - into one of my heart's arteries. All of this without being cut open (the tiny incision in my wrist healed within days) and without needing anaesthetic. This all &nbsp;took an hour. I was conscious throughout the whole process.<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">It didn't even hurt.<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">My one regret is that I couldn't see the monitor myself from the position I was lying in. Although with the sedative, I'm not sure I would have been able to make much sense of it. I was flying pretty high, except for the time I fell asleep.<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">Fun as it was, the sedative wore off quickly and I was able to talk to the cardiologist and debrief as soon as the procedure was finished, which is when I found out about the stent, and the extent of the blockage in my arteries (in addition to the total blockage of the right anterior artery, two others had partial blockage - one was forty percent blocked, one fifty. These didn't require intervention as they're considered treatable via medication and lifestyle change.<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">So, the procedure was done and I was ushered into my post-heart attack era by being taken down to the Cardiac ICU. There I was moved into a bed - the nurses who got me settled in told me that the bed cost more than both their cars, put together - and hooked up to a bunch of machines that go ping: An ECG, a blood pressure monitor, oxygen, an IV feeding me blood thinners, and a blood oxygenation monitor (which, in another "Sweet FSM modern medicine is freaking <i>astounding</i>!" moment, is a little clip that goes on your finger, shines a laser at it, and via that process determines how oxygen-saturated your blood is).<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">That's when they let Sarah in to see me.<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">I probably looked a bit hellish by that point, even if she hadn’t already been scared half out of her mind. We were both pretty emotional. She hugged me - gently - and sat with me, and held my hand. We talked a bit - not a lot, we were both exhausted. The kids had school in the morning, or later that morning, really, since it was after 3:00 am by then, so after a little bit of just being together, she went home to take care of things, and I went to sleep in a bed that cost more than two nurses' cars.&nbsp;</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">Exhausted, weak, with a tube in the artery next to my heart. And alive.&nbsp;<u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial;">Next: The first day of the rest of my life (in a post-heart attack world)</div><div><br /></div>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-73055691713141508232013-04-07T16:37:00.000-04:002013-04-07T16:37:53.184-04:00A Not All That Hilarious Heart AttackAlice Sheldon, who wrote some absolutely brilliant science fiction, mostly under the pen name and guise of James Tiptree Jr., once wrote an account of her experience having a heart attack while on vacation in Mexico. She called it 'How To Have An Absolutely Hilarious Heart Attack' and it's well worth reading, if only to note the deft writing that went into a very frank account of a medical emergency that still managed to keep her gender implicit and therefore, her identity secret.<br /><br />My own experience was perhaps not as hilarious, and my description of it will be a lot less well-crafted. On the other hand, I promise that "Stephen" is my real name.<br /><br />And last week, I had a heart attack. Oh, and if that wasn't hilarious enough? I'm 41.<br /><br />I had been feeling not very well for a couple of weeks. Simple activities, that wouldn't had even rated as effort before, seemed to get me winded, to get my heart pounding.<br /><br />I wasn't sure what to make of it, but I figured, meh. I'd put on some weight since the holidays and it was slowing me down. I was getting over a cold. It was a long, cold, winter. Nothing that starting to eat better and exercise regularly again wouldn't fix.<br /><br />Besides, after talking to some people and researching my symptoms online, I was pretty sure I had acid reflux.<br /><br />But last Sunday, March 31st, some time after 10:30 in the morning, that theory got a lot less tenable. My father-in-law had taken the kids for an outing and Sarah, my lovely partner, was getting some well deserved sleep, so I was the only one both home and up.<br /><br />And I suddenly felt like a giant was leaning on my chest. My heart was pounding, again - and this time, I hadn't been doing anything at all. It hurt to move. It hurt to breathe. It just plain hurt, and no matter what I did, it felt like that giant was pushing me, putting all his weight into pushing me right in the chest.<br /><br />My first thought was that this acid reflux thing? A lot worse than I'd expected.<br /><br />I looked up some home remedies (apple cider vinegar, that sort of thing) and tried a couple. They caused a lot of burping, but brought no relief. They also seemed to bring on a bout of nausea, and it was the sound of me trying to throw up that woke up Sarah. Since I'm rarely sick, she was surprised and concerned. "Are you okay?" she asked me.<br /><br />"No," I said, "I think I need to go to the hospital."<br /><br />As I said, I'm rarely sick - until this recent misadventure, I hadn't used a sick day in about two and a half years. We talked about it, and agreed that the best thing for me would be to get some rest instead.<br /><br />So I went to bed and slept for about five hours.<br /><br />When I woke up, the pain had subsided, but it was still there. I still felt awful, and I'm used to a decent nap being a cure-all, so I was even more concerned, even though I didn't actually hurt as much. I decided to call Telehealth and get some advice.<br /><br />(For non-Ontarians, Telehealth is a toll-free phone line the provincial government operates - you call and talk to a Registered Nurse, who can advise you how best to proceed based on the symptoms you describe. The idea is that it keeps people from rushing to the emergency room when they don't need to go, and makes sure that people who need to go to the ER do).<br /><br />The nurse at Telehealth was... a lot more concerned than I expected, and encouraged me to go to the ER as soon as possible. "I can transfer you to 911 right now," she said. I said that was okay, I needed to talk to my partner about making sure she and the kids were okay, et cetera. "If you don't take this advice, you could be putting yourself at risk," she said. I thought that was hitting the disclaimer boilerplate pretty hard, but I said I understood, thank you and so on, and hung up.<br /><br />I told Sarah the nurse had said that I should call an ambulance, but that I didn't think that was necessary. A bus stops right in front of our building that goes right past the nearest hospital - it was minutes away, probably just as fast as an ambulance would be.<br /><br />So I showered, put on clean clothes, got some things together and went out to hop on the bus. It had been a mild day but was starting to get cold. Happily, I didn't have to wait long. The bus arrived in a few minutes and I was en route to the hospital.<br /><br />I arrived a bit before 8:00 pm, and sat down to wait for triage. I saw a nurse, told her my symptoms. She gave me a couple of baby aspirin, which I chewed up and swallowed. She didn't seem unduly alarmed. I may have understated my pain then, or the seriousness of my pain earlier. I may have been a bit too committed to my acid reflux theory. In any case, after triage, there was more waiting.<br /><br />Over this time, my heart rate seemed to speed up, and sometimes it felt like my heart was doing some particularly awkward acrobatics in there. I chalked it up to stress and psychosomatic symptoms brought on by my imagination.<br /><br />Eventually, I was assessed, and got an ECG.<br /><br />More waiting.<br /><br />Finally, after midnight, I was seen by a doctor. She looked at my chart and immediately told the staff to give me another ECG, since it had been so long since the last one. When that was completed...<br /><br />The doctor looked at the ECG. "Did you feel that, just now?" she asked.<br /><br />"Feel what?" I said.<br /><br />She nodded, as if to herself, "Yeah," she said, "We're going to get the cardiologist down here to talk to you."<br /><br />Would you believe that it wasn't until then that my internal "Oh <i>shit</i>!" alarm started to go off?<br /><br />The cardiologist was there shortly. He looked at my ECG results, did a quick examination and assessment.<br /><br />"You had a heart attack," he said.<br /><br />"Really?" I replied.<br /><br />He told me, yes, I really had. We discussed the risks and benefits of an angiogram and angioplasty, and I agreed that the procedure sounded like a good idea - and signed the appropriate paperwork.<br /><br />I might, he said, want to call someone.<br /><br />I said that I didn't think that would be necessary. I didn't want to bother my wife.<br /><br />He looked a bit incredulous, and tried to explain to me that a heart attack was not a minor thing. I should probably, you know, tell my family.<br /><br />I called Sarah, and let her know the news. She started to cry. I told her that I was going to be okay, but that she should probably come to the hospital. Within a few minutes, she had made arrangements for a friend (the kind and generous Melanie - thank you so much!) to come over and stay with the kids, and told me she'd be there as soon as she could.<br /><br />After the waiting, waiting, waiting, I was a little surprised by the speed at which events moved forward. I was only waiting for about half an hour while the CATH lab team was assembled (they're called is as needed, rather than kept waiting around) and that was just as well - it gave me time to talk to Sarah.<br /><br />Then I was taken upstairs on a stretcher - for the procedure.<br /><br />Next time: The procedure and afterwards.<br /><i><br /></i><i>(Spoiler warning: I didn't die!)</i>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-68582732795673818732013-02-28T11:15:00.002-05:002013-02-28T11:15:42.175-05:00And the Beat Goes On<br /><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Yes, so, lots has happened, and lots continues to happen. And much of it is interesting. And, uh, I really should be blogging about it, shouldn’t I? That means&nbsp;this is most definitely going to be a scattershot, bunch of little updates, ITEM: Stephen likes pie! kind of thing:</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I had kind of a blah start to the year. It was grey and cold and I was fighting a bug of some sort and needed to sleep a lot. So I got really stalled out and didn’t make a whole lot of progress on any creative front (or with exercising, for that matter). Until…<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">My writers group went on a weekend mini-retreat. We got out of Toronto (on the night of a big snowstorm, no less) and spent a couple of days at a cottage near Grand Bend. It was awesome to be able to go heads-down for an extended period of time, and it let me push through the morass. I owe big thanks to:&nbsp;<a href="http://dickensianfantasy.blogspot.ca/" target="_blank">Claire</a>, who thought of and organized the whole deal; her family, for generously allowing us to use their cottage that weekend; and of course to my co-parent and partner Sarah, without whose support a weekend away would not have been possible.<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">I came back feeling creatively rejuvenated, and I’m currently working away on the script for the next story-line for my webcomic, <a href="http://coldironbadge.com/" target="_blank">Cold Iron Badge</a>. It’s still going a little slower than I’d like, but you, know, I have the time to write that I have. Any progress beats the heck out of no progress.<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">And on the subject of Progress, I haven’t been blogging here much so far this year, but I have been blogging. Greg Beettam and I have blown the dust off the long-dormant <a href="http://thetimebucket.com/xenosarrowcomics/" target="_blank">Xeno’s Arrow</a> website, and we’re adding new content there regularly, about four posts a week on average. No new comics or story material yet, but Greg’s providing a look at the process of creating our characters, including never-before-seen art, in his Sketchbook Diaries. I’m doing blog posts going into our processes of collaboration and co-writing, and also contributing brand-new Appendices that explore the Known Galaxy of Xeno’s Arrow.<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Appendices were prose features, sometimes illustrated, sometimes not, that we ran at the back of issues of Xeno’s Arow, after the comic. They were part of the universe, but not part of the story – usually presented as excerpts from books or articles from somewhere in the Known Galaxy that allowed us to explore and detail elements of the setting that fell outside the frame of our characters and their adventures. They were always tremendous fun to write and I’m having a great time doing that again!<u></u><u></u></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">And there may be, very possibly may be, some more news on the Xeno’s Arrow front. That’s pending some other elements falling into place, so nothing’s confirmed yet. If something’s happening, it’ll most likely happen later this spring. Even the prospect has me really excited, but I don’t want to get ahead of myself.</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Meanwhile, I've heard back from most of the beta readers who very kindly had a look at my novel, and I'm starting to think about the final round of revisions. Depending on how long it takes to finish the script, that may be my Big March Project. After which... wow, after that I have to start thinking about finding representation by submitting it to agents.&nbsp;</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">Still creeping their way up the to-do list: Regular exercise, my next novel, and another entirely different writing project that I've been kicking around that would be an absolutely insane amount of fun, if I could pull it off.&nbsp;</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;"><br /></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px;">More updates, perhaps not quite as they happen, but pretty close. Stay tuned!</div>Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-19513535314979411572012-11-30T15:43:00.001-05:002012-11-30T15:43:37.678-05:00This Is What I'm Doing: The Looking Down The Barrel of December 2012 Edition<div class=Section1> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>There are always slings and arrows. Sometimes they bounce off our armour, sometimes we get by with the nicks, bruises and superficial contusions of outrageous fortune, and sometimes they hit us in sensitive spots. All of which is to say: It&#8217;s been an interesting month.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>It started on a high: Through the generosity of some dear friends to whom I&#8217;m very grateful (and my wonderful partner Sarah, who handled our kids solo while I was out of the picture all weekend), I was able to attend the 2012 World Fantasy Convention. I met amazing people, learned a lot, had funny, fascinating and/or profound conversations, enjoyed some damn good beer, and got firehosed with books. Oh, and I kind of broke a panel on diversity in YA fantasy. It was a good time. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I embarked on NaNoWriMo with high hopes considerable ambitions, and while I didn&#8217;t &#8220;win&#8221; (I didn&#8217;t write 50,000 words in thirty days, not even close), I did have my least-unsuccessful NaNoWriMo ever, which is something to be proud of. Going forward, though, I think I might need to accept that November is a really bad month for me, personally, to try to do Big Pushes on Big Projects. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I got another rejection. The short story I consider the best one I&#8217;ve ever written is now also the most-rejected, although to be fair that&#8217;s mostly because it&#8217;s the one I keep submitting to publications. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I continued to let my novel rest while my Beta Readers did their beta reading. I&#8217;ve heard back that two of them have finished it, and one sent me comments by email. I&#8217;m going to meet with the other, sometime next week I hope, to benefit from her insight. There are four more readers who I expect to hear from over the next couple of weeks. Then I&#8217;ll let the comments simmer while I finish some other projects, before returning to the novel some time in early 2013.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>The big trouble, this month, the reason that I had to put some things on hold, was a family health problem. Everyone is fine now, and all I suffered myself was worry, sympathy and a bit of schedule disruption. I would of course rather not have had this problem at all, but I trust everyone reading this will agree that when it did happen, the only possible thing I could do was put some of my personal business on hold so I could pitch in and do my part to help. That&#8217;s why I lost some of the forward momentum on NaNoWriMo, and also on going to the gym. That&#8217;s nothing, on balance. It could have been so much worse, for so much longer. I&#8217;m glad things (and people!) are better, and I should be able to pick up and make quite a bit of progress before the further, more fun and happy disruptions of the holiday season are upon us. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>That anticipated progress, over December will be all about finishing this year&#8217;s business. That&#8217;s the Next Novel and the script for the comic, as well as some advance planning for a big project coming up in early 2013, that I will not discuss now because it&#8217;s still in such a preliminary stage. When it is ready to share, you need not fear that I&#8217;ll be shy about announcing it. And announcing it, and announcing it, and then announcing it just to be on the safe side. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>And after that, it&#8217;ll be time for my annual New Year&#8217;s Revolutions, and the challenges and adventures that 2013 will bring. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I&#8217;m looking forward to sharing them with you.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> </div> Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-37426961862938508622012-10-11T22:34:00.000-04:002012-10-11T22:40:57.437-04:00This Is What I'm Doing: The October 2012 EditionLots of little updates this time out... <br /><br /><strong>The Short Fiction</strong><br />I have continued to take my short stories out to the market. One advantage of starting with the most prestigious and professional genre publications is that I know the bar is high, and my expectations are therefore low. So far, I've been getting rejections, which I am trying to frame as valuable experience in dealing with the realities of the short fiction markets.&nbsp;Currently, two stories are still out and I'm waiting on responses. If I get a sale, you'll hear about it. Believe me,&nbsp;<strong><em>everyone</em></strong> will hear about <strong><em>that</em></strong>. <br /><br /><strong>The Novel</strong><br />I have forward momentum on the novel again, at long long last. After letting the notes I got from my esteemed Alpha readers lie fallow for a while, I'm now going through the manuscript and making edits and revisions - if you follow me on Twitter, that's what the #RewriteMonth hashtag is all about.&nbsp; I'm also making notes for broader, bigger revisions that need a little more thought than "That line's out, that line stays in" - things like fine-tuning character arcs and bringing themes into focus. It's going quickly, and most of the big-picture stuff is going to be a matter of adding touches at a few, key pinch-points across the whole story. Oh, plus one scene that needs to be entirely rewritten, but that should be relatively straightforward. <br /><br />My goal is to have the new draft done, and out to my Beta readers, before the end of the month. Yes, this month, October. I know it sounds optimistic, but like I said, I have forward momentum at last, and I don't intend to squander it this time.&nbsp; <br /><br /><strong>The <em>Next</em> Novel</strong><br />My timeline for the Novel (which I'm calling the Novel because I'm a between names for the darn thing) seems to be sufficiently realistic that I'm thinking about the next big writing project. It's one that's been waiting on the back burner for even longer, a collaboration with my dear friend, once and future partner in wordsmithery, the all-around awesome writer Nicole Winters. It's called <em>Underground</em>. This is going to be fun. <br /><br />November is of course <a href="http://nanowrimo.org/" target="_blank">National Novel Writing Month</a>, so I'm strongly considering taking another stab at NaNoWriMo this year with <em>Underground</em>. Now, I haven't had much success with NaNoWriMo in the past, but I seem to have gotten better at making time in my schedule to write and I've done my own, effective, not-part-of-NaNo Big Pushes on various projects since then. I think it's worth another try, especially since with <em>Underground</em> I'll have a detailed outline and won't be starting cold.&nbsp; Again, this is something that I'm sure you'll hear all about while it's happening.&nbsp; <br /><br /><strong>The Comic</strong><br />I've also been doing some scripting! In September, I started in on really writing Book 2 of <a href="http://coldironbadge.com/" target="_blank"><em>Cold Iron Badge</em></a>, and I took the loose outline from where I left off and turned it into something rather more detailed - with page breakdowns, for instance, so there won't be any pagination surprises this time out - and then started scripting. <br /><br />I got about a third of the script written before #RewriteMonth started eating all my writing time and energy. Right now, the script is paused, and waiting for me to get back to it. That's looking like it might be a December project. I'd like to finish the script by the end of 2012.&nbsp; <br /><br /><strong>The <em>Other</em> Comic</strong><br />It's in the early stages, but Greg Beettam and I have been discussing plans for <a href="http://www.xenosarrowcomics.com/" target="_blank"><em>Xeno's Arrow</em></a> - and we've got interesting ideas in the works. The question now isn't what we'll do, but when we'll do it <br /><br /><strong>The Fitness</strong><br />I haven't made a big deal about it, because I wanted to make sure that I was in a groove first, but I've been eating better and getting to the gym more regularly. How is it going? Slow and steady, but well.<br /><br /><strong>Life, the Universe and Everything</strong><br />There's lots more to talk about, but they're a little more substantive and deserve&nbsp;being discussed at length.&nbsp;I mentioned that I've been making more time to write, but not the whats and the hows. There have been some great developments at home. My children&nbsp;been amazing at transitioning&nbsp;into the new school year and all the changes it brought with it. The progess I've been making on the fronts I mentioned has put me into a positive frame of mind that I've carried through to all the rest of my life, and it feels good. <br /><br />That's where I am, and how I am, in October 2012. How are you?Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-4867475572459596182012-06-28T13:19:00.001-04:002012-06-28T13:19:48.160-04:00Short Update: Short Fiction<div class=Section1> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Since my last update, I submitted &#8216;Dragon&#8217;s Tail&#8217; to the theme anthology it was written for, and received what I must say was a considerately prompt and very polite rejection. Rejection is no fun, of course, and it was a little surprising because I was and am proud of that story and thought it was a damn good one. But it&#8217;s all part of the game. There&#8217;s no way to know whether other authors explored the theme in a way that fit the editors&#8217; tastes or their goals for the anthology &#8211; or, and let&#8217;s be honest here, whether I simply wasn&#8217;t one of the twelve, or twenty, or however many, best stories they got. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>The good news is, because of the aforementioned prompt rejection, &#8216;Dragon&#8217;s Tail&#8217; is now free for submission to other markets.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>And I&#8217;ve written another short story, in response to another call for submissions from a different themed anthology, and I&#8217;m working on a third. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I have a few overlapping goals, here. It&#8217;s challenging and fun to look at something like a call for submissions for an anthology dealing with a particular theme or subject, and use that as inspiration to create a story that I might otherwise never have written. It&#8217;s good to stretch my muscles by pushing myself to work to a hard deadline and remind myself that I can write well and quickly when I need to. And you know, a sale would be nice. That would be good. I wouldn&#8217;t mind if it didn&#8217;t pay much &#8211; in fact, at first I was considering courting smaller, lower-paying markets as a deliberate strategy, because I thought it might increase my chances for success.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>In the wake of the rejection by the themed anthology, I&#8217;m re-evaluating that strategy a bit. It&#8217;s a long-established principle among writers of science-fiction and fantasy short fiction that in trying to sell your work, you should start with the highest-paying markets first &#8211; because you shouldn&#8217;t sell yourself short. Why sell a story to a smaller, lower-profile, lower-paying venue before you at least try the bigger ones? That seems sensible to me, particularly since trying to play the low-hanging fruit angle doesn&#8217;t seem to be effective. That&#8217;s based on an admittedly limited sample size of one story submitted to one anthology, but it also just resonates with me. I&#8217;m the guy who&#8217;s drawn to BHAGs, after all, not Small Fleshy Unimpressive Goals. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Of course, there are drawbacks with starting at the top. Everyone else is trying to crack those markets too, which means besides the issue of rather intense competition, that stories can get stuck in the turnaround of the submission process for quite a while. But that, too, is part of the game.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Over time, despite my avowed fear of writing short fiction, I&#8217;ve managed to get several short stories done. Almost all of them have been waiting around for me to revise them. There&#8217;s &#8216;Necro Feel&#8217;, which I wrote years ago, and needs a fair bit of work, but which I still really like. There&#8217;s &#8216;Dead Chairs&#8217;, which is rather more recent and needs some tweaking. And there are this year&#8217;s crop of short stories, &#8216;A Knight Erring&#8217; which needs some judicious trimming and some extra oomph, the just-completed &#8216;Hard Rain&#8217; which only needs to have extra verbiage cut back, and &#8216;Dragon&#8217;s Tail&#8217;, which is ready to shop around. Plus the nearly-ready &#8216;Final Issue&#8217; which is intended as a response to a particular call for submissions.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Looking at that list, I note that I have no fewer than six stories that, with not too much work collectively, would be ready to be released into the wild.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>It&#8217;s not going to be my first, or only focus this summer, but it&#8217;s also something that I&#8217;d be foolish not to do. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>So, again and as always: Onward!<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> </div> Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-284212824346650942012-05-31T15:16:00.001-04:002012-05-31T15:16:18.715-04:00This Is Who I Am and What I'm Doing: The Almost June 2012 Edition<div class=Section1> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>It&#8217;s the last day of May. I won&#8217;t be sorry to see June. This has been a challenging month. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>My father died.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>If you&#8217;ve lost a member of your immediate family, I don&#8217;t have to explain, and if you haven&#8217;t, I can&#8217;t. So I&#8217;ll just say, again: May was a challenging month. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I didn&#8217;t exercise as much as I wanted. I didn&#8217;t eat right as often as I would have liked. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I&#8217;m giving myself a pass on those.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I didn&#8217;t write as much as I wanted. I didn&#8217;t make as much headway on my projects &#8211; scripting the comic, revising the novel &#8211; as I would have liked.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I&#8217;m giving myself a pass on those, too.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>It wasn&#8217;t all bad. I did finish and revise my new short story, &#8216;The Dragon&#8217;s Tail&#8217; &#8211; which I created in response to an open call for submissions &#8211; and sent it to the market. I&#8217;m proud of that.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>And my son turned seven. I couldn&#8217;t be prouder of him, and he couldn&#8217;t make me any happier.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>A story submitted, a wonderful son&#8217;s birthday&#8230; those are good ways to end a month. That&#8217;s what I&#8217;m going to focus on, as May turns to June. The new month will no doubt bring new challenges. Here&#8217;s hoping that they&#8217;re the fun kind.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> </div> Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-12875617675155385732012-04-02T11:09:00.000-04:002012-04-02T11:10:12.728-04:00The Not-So Weekly Not-So Wordcount<div class=Section1> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Last week was kind of frustrating. By the start of the week, I had more or less all the words for 'Dragon's Tail', although as I mentioned earlier many of them were horribly misspelled and a significant number were also in the wrong order. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Hammering the story into shape and sanding down the edges was not complicated or insurmountable, and I have made headway, but I wanted to be done by now. I've had a hard time bringing myself to bear. Besides being tired -- which should not, in itself, be enough to stop me because really, when am I not tired? -- I've been feeling very down about the state of my fitness and health. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Ironically, this tends to lead me to eat even worse. It's another aspect of my difficulty in accepting imperfection: When I can't be as fit and eat as well as I know I should, why fight temptation at all, when giving in will at least make me feel better? <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Well, the answer to that is, duh, because giving in is a tiny flash of pleasure for long-term misery; it makes me unhappier and unhealthier, but that's a hard argument to win with my cravings when there are doughnuts in the world that remain uneaten.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Time for my mantra again: I forgive myself. I move on. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>(Also: Good enough, push on. The perfect is the enemy of the good. If you meet the Buddha on the road, don't eat a frickin' doughnut.)<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Today, lunch will be restrained, and I'm going to use that time to finish the first draft of the story. After work, I'm going to the gym for the first time in a long time. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>These are good things. Onward.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> </div> Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-4958137913922702862012-03-26T13:10:00.000-04:002012-03-26T13:10:00.098-04:00How Do I Do It? Volume!Operation Hat Trick is moving ahead. I haven't been multi-tasking as much as I thought I might, but I've been making good progress on 'Dragon's Tail'. <br /><br />I've been experimenting, as I mentioned, with ways to be more productive, and I've hit on an approach that's been helpful, and that's also been forcing me to adhere to my attempts to accept imperfection.<br /><br />As people who follow me on Twitter know, I do a lot of my writing with a program called <a href="http://writeordie.com/" target="_blank">Write Or Die</a>. It's a simple program (or web application -- you can use it for free online as well) that more or less forces you to write -- you enter an amount of time and wordcount goal and start typing in a simple word processor. Based on your goals, Write Or Die will start punishing you for not meeting them, through a variety of means ranging from changing the screen to blood-red and making angry sounds to (at the more punitive settings) actually starting to delete what you've already written if you leave the screen idle too long. It's terrifying and&nbsp; I recommend it wholeheartedly. <br /><br />Another function it has is the option to disable the backspace key. I'd been curious about that function for a while, but hadn't used it. But in thinking about increasing my productivity, I found myself wondering how much time I was really losing going back and fixing typos. I deciced to find out.<br /><br />The answer: I was losing a LOT of time to fixing typos. When I started disabling the backspace, I found my word count totals nearly doubling over comparable amounts of time. Stopping myself worrying about those typos, or about any kind of wordsmithing, let me put that time back into getting the words down. <br /><br />Which is great, but obviously raises a new question - is it worth it? Is the typo-ful, unwordsmithed copy I get so messy that any time saving is a wash because of the extra clean-up required?<br /><br />Well, see for yourself. Here's a sample of my un-edited, just-as-it-appeared-on-the-screen, no-fixes prose. I didn't do this in Write Or Die, but I did stop myself from editing it as a wrote, so the result is pretty much the same. <br /><br />--<br /><br /><em>This sis am aexample of me trying to type the words tt that I'm thinking of very quickly. Sometimes it goes fine and sometimes I make typos and sometimes I change my mind about what I was going to say, but i can't go back and change it. For sometone like lyme, who's neurotic about typos and really, really proud of my ability fo spell and use correct grammar, this is a bit isconcerting, but i find that overall,t he flow works, that I get what I teintended down on the screen. And anfter all, i was going to edit it later anyway, right? So ma what doe a vfew more typos matter? The point is to get the owords down.</em><br /><br />--<br /><br />So yeah. You can see why my word count is approximate: There's not only a lot of redundancy to be edited down, there are typos that read as words, throwing off the count. <br /><br />Overall, though, it seems to work. It's messy, but it's readable. I know what I meant, at least enough that I can clean it up later. The point, after all, is to get the owords down, so ma what doe a vfew more typos matter?<br /><br />But I am left wondering what it means that, when I'm pressed for time, I can spell 'neurotic', but not 'the'.Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-77065415313054074082012-03-25T01:13:00.000-04:002012-03-25T01:13:32.251-04:00The Weekly Wordcount, Plus Even More Meta!The new approach I've been experimenting with makes wordcount a bit difficult to measure accurately, but it looks like I've written something in the nature of 4,000 words this week, all of them for the new short story, which now has the working title <em>'The Dragon's Tail'</em>, and which is not fantasy. <br /><br />I think it's basically done, but I'm not totally sure, because I wrote it out of sequence,&nbsp;continuing to&nbsp;write more middle after I'd written the end. Since I don't really want this one to go more than 3,000 words, I&nbsp;should probably stop writing and start putting it into some kind of order. <br /><br />--<br /><br />Oh, and I added a widget to the sidebar of the blog that&nbsp;displays my most recent posts on Twitter; I held off on doing something like that for a while, because in the past I skewed a little more personal on Twitter -- I get political there, for instance, which I've only occasionally done here. <br /><br />But you know what? This is part of who I am, too. I'm not going to hide it. Especially since it's not&nbsp;likely that anyone reads this blog who doesn't already see my more personal stuff via either Twitter or Facebook. And when, eventually, there are those other readers... well, I don't see how I can communicate directly, honestly, and openly about who I am and not include the personal and the political. Besides, I'm trying to work on that whole excessive-conflict-avoidance thing.Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-48638045195252160522012-03-19T16:27:00.001-04:002012-03-19T16:27:54.685-04:00Keeping the Plates Spinning, Or, Operation Triple Crown Is Go!<div class=Section1> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>The good news is, I seem to have overcome my fear of short fiction, which was the last vestige of my anxieties around writing prose. I still don't feel like I'm all that good at short fiction, but that's just a matter of continuing to practice the form.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>And there's the rube*.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I just finished one short story (it runs long for a short story at over 7,300 words; what can I say -- I'm prolix) and I've started another. I have a fun idea for a third in the back of my head, but I don't want to get ahead of myself: Short fiction isn't and shouldn't be my exclusive or even my main focus right now.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>What is my main focus? Well, looking back over some of my earlier posts here, I remembered that I finished the first draft of my novel at the end of April last year. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>In other words, almost a year ago. A #@%&amp;ing <b><i><span style='font-weight:bold;font-style:italic'>year</span></i></b> ago. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>This lead to a predictable and unproductive spiral of frustration and anger at myself, yadda yadda why aren't I more productive blah blah.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>But, you know, been there, was poster child for that. Enough already. The real question is, what am I going to do about it?<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I'd like the next draft of the novel to be done - and out to my beta readers - before the one-year anniversary of the first draft rolls around. I'd also like to finish the new short story - it's something I thought up in response to a call for submissions, and there's a deadline attached. Finally, I need to get cracking on the script for the next arc of Cold Iron Badge so that Patrick can start drawing it after some of his other obligations wrap up at the end of April.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>From today to the end of April is exactly six weeks. That's three major items on my creative to-do list (which of course doesn&#8217;t even touch on the other things I need to stay on top of).<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Well, I have recently been experimenting with ways to increase my productivity as a writer (which I won't get into now, but may post about later if anyone's interested), and I'm starting to think that I just might be able to do it. It's going to require three things:<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><b><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial;font-weight:bold'>I need to write every day<o:p></o:p></span></font></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Every day, for reals, no excuses.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><b><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial;font-weight:bold'>I need to be able to switch from project to project at the drop of a hat <o:p></o:p></span></font></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>This isn't always easy for me; I tend to be in one project's headspace and need or at least want time to switch gears. It'll be interesting to see if I can push this and not have, for instance, voices or stylistic flourishes carry over inappropriately between different works. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><b><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial;font-weight:bold'>I need to plan<o:p></o:p></span></font></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>The short story is the simplest of the three things I want to finish, and that one I can handle a little more organically. The rewrite of the novel, though, and the script for the comic, are going to require a plan. For the comic, I have a pretty solid outline to work with; my plan for the novel is currently a lot more nebulous, and I need to pin down exactly what I want to achieve, and how I want to do it. From both an artistic and time-management standpoints, I want to aim for efficiency - this is fine tuning, not a total overhaul. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><b><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial;font-weight:bold'>It's in the BHAG<o:p></o:p></span></font></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>This plan falls solidly within the scope of &#8220;It&#8217;s so crazy it just might work&#8221;. Of course, I'm a proponent of the BHAG - the Big Hairy Audacious Goal - as a motivator, and this tripartite goal I've just set for myself is certainly big, hairy and audacious. But a goal as a motivator only works with accountability. That's where you come in. I'll be posting updates here as I launch myself into Operation Triple Crown (or whatever; I expect the name to change regularly). <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>In other words, more news as it happens!<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>--<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>* Me. I am a bit of a rube.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> </div> Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-62406835204494515442012-03-13T12:45:00.001-04:002012-03-13T12:45:58.987-04:00This Is Who I Am: The March 2012 Edition<div class=Section1> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>As I more-than-half-expected, the prospect of skewing a little more personal made me more-than-half-apprehensive. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I've started and abandoned a couple of previous versions of this post. Being glib is easy; it's when I start actually trying to communicate something that matters to me that I start over-thinking and second-guessing.&nbsp; But you know, enough is enough. I'm just going to push through and get this done. So let's begin. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Hello, I'm Stephen, and this is my blog. It's called Back From Erstwhile because when I started it, some years ago now, I thought of myself as an &quot;erstwhile writer&quot;, and I wanted to begin - and document - the process of moving from being someone who used to write to being someone who writes.&nbsp; <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Now it's 2012, and you can't really dispute that I've managed to become a writer again. With the help and support of a great many people, I've seen books in print collecting the two comics I co-created, Xeno's Arrow and my new project, Cold Iron Badge (although neither, to be honest, is currently widely available). I've written the first draft of a novel. I just finished a short story (one of several I&#8217;ve written over the past few years) and I have other projects in my head, warring for attention with one another and the rest of my life.&nbsp; <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Those other things &#8211; the ones I usually gloss over as &#8220;the rest of my life&#8221; -- are really what I wanted to talk about today. Let's stipulate that I'm a writer, and that one of my big goals is to become a professional writer (which is a process that I hope to move forward and share with you over the course of this year). <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>So leaving that aside, who else am I? <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><b><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial;font-weight:bold'>I am a parent<o:p></o:p></span></font></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>This is a big one. I have two children; my daughter is eight and my son is six. They're both beautiful, happy, healthy, smart and loving kids. They're also both autistic.&nbsp; <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Special needs change the experience of parenthood in ways that it's hard to describe -- especially for me, since I don't have an experience of parenting typically-developing children to compare it to. My partner Sarah describes it as having to work ten times as hard to make one tenth the progress, and that's a big part of it; things that come naturally to most kids are a constant struggle for us.&nbsp; <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>And the rewards are different, just as the challenges are; sometimes bigger, sometimes smaller, always different. We take our joys where we can find them, and there are joys, joys that, on balance, are much more than worth it. But it's often frustrating, usually tiring and always takes up my focus and energy in a way that not all parents have to deal with; it's one reason that as I have mentioned more than once, my time is at a premium and that I call my lunch time at work &quot;The Writing Hour&quot;. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><b><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial;font-weight:bold'>I am a guy with a day job<o:p></o:p></span></font></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I work, as I've mentioned here occasionally, at the <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:PlaceType w:st="on">University</st1:PlaceType> of <st1:PlaceName w:st="on">Toronto</st1:PlaceName></st1:place>. I have a very good job, working with good people, doing interesting stuff. Given that, and given how essential to my and my family's life my benefits package is, I expect that I'll continue to be a guy with a day job for a long time to come. I know that a lot of aspiring writers are counting the days until they quit the proverbial day job; that is not me. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><b><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial;font-weight:bold'>I am a partner<o:p></o:p></span></font></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>My children did not burst full-formed from my brow like Athena from the head of Zeus (unless there's something that someone hasn't been telling me). My co-habiting co-parent Sarah is the other side of that equation, and in addition to being a generally awesome co-parent, does a huge amount of the planning and logistical heavy lifting that being a family with special needs requires - coordinating and being on the front line for all the appointments and therapies for our kids. I am not the greatest time manager in the world, and her sooper-geenius level skills in that capacity continue to impress me, after our being together for about a decade. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>The shared experience of parenthood changes any relationship, and when special needs are involved, the change is even more profound. It can be hard to maintain the other aspects of a relationship in the face of those stresses, and it's kind of impressive that Sarah and I work together and get along as well as we do under the circumstances. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><b><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial;font-weight:bold'>I am sick<o:p></o:p></span></font></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I'm mostly better now. But I caught whatever the bug that's been going around is, and that, along with the kids being sick too, was pretty much the exclusive focus of the last two weeks. Most of my time not spent working and caring for the children was devoted to coughing, blowing my nose and sleeping. Well, not all at the same time...<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><b><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial;font-weight:bold'>I am a guy who needs to get back in shape<o:p></o:p></span></font></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>This is another area where I've been erstwhile. My weight is something I've struggled with for much of my life. There was a period when I managed to get not just into shape, but really good shape -- but that was before kids. I have a lot less free time to spend at the gym, now, and it shows. Not to mention that I'm a stress eater with a weakness for carbs. I was starting to get on track towards the end of last year, getting into a groove with the exercise room in our building, but that kind of fell by the wayside when 2012 hit and brought a big old mess of stress and sickness that ate a lot of my time and energy. I will be getting back to the gym, and I'll probably start documenting that process here too; I just want to be done with this damned coughing first. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><b><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial;font-weight:bold'>I am a guy who blathers about who he is on his blog<o:p></o:p></span></font></b></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>So that&#8217;s who I am. It&#8217;s not a complete list; it couldn&#8217;t be. It&#8217;s not everything I've ever been, or everything I'll ever be. It's obviously not even, really, everything that I am at this moment in time; there&#8217;s a lot more I could have included if I wanted to drill down beyond the substantive (I am&#8230; A Man Who Enjoys Cheese; A Guy Who Over-uses Semicolons!) .<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>But it's what's important, and top of mind. It's where my focus, energy and time are going. It's who I am right now, March 2012.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>And who are you?<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> </div> Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-43592413209827713902012-02-20T01:07:00.000-05:002012-02-20T01:07:50.746-05:00Everybody's blogging, bloggingA number of my friends with blogs seem to be emerging from their own quiescent blog-hiatuses of late, which is a wonderful thing to see, especially when&nbsp;one's friends are as entertaining&nbsp;and incisive as mine tend to be.<br /><br />My dear friend Gilgamesh -- terror to&nbsp;gods and man alike -- has begun blogging again at <a href="http://gilgameshinthelandofthedead.blogspot.com/">Gilgamesh In The Land Of The Dead</a> after several years of down time. (To be fair, he really did have several years worth of stuff to get through). <br /><br />My dear friend Psyche -- terror to gods, man, and several other categories of being&nbsp;-- never really stopped blogging at <a href="http://psychesacorn.blogspot.com/">Psyche's Acorn</a>, but her blogging certainly seems to be more frequent of late. (She had several years worth of stuff to get through, too, but managed to blog anyway. I've long since gotten used to being an underachiever in comparison; I simply accept her awesomesauciness and encourage you to do the same).<br /><br />They are exceptionally&nbsp;good writers,&nbsp;thoughtful and reflective, with interesting and valuable things to&nbsp;say. As such, I recommend them both to your attention. <br /><br />But&nbsp;that isn't why I'm thinking about them. No,&nbsp;on the contrary, the real&nbsp;reason I mention them is, as usual, all about me, me, me. <br /><br />When I started Back From&nbsp;Erstwhile, I thought of it as a process blog.&nbsp;Over time,&nbsp;as my updates became less frequent, I fell away from that; it's hard to focus on a process you only check in with people about a handful of times a year.<br /><br />(Six posts apiece in 2009 and 2010. <strong><em>Two</em></strong> in 2011.)<br /><br />But seeing how Gilgamesh and Psyche -- and what it is&nbsp;with my friends and mythologically-derived&nbsp;online pseudonyms? -- use their blogs has me thinking about what I've been doing with this thing, and what I want to do with it.<br /><br />I'd really like to talk more about my process, about my efforts to professionalize (or re-professionalize) myself as a writer. About what's happening with my various projects, and when things are going well versus when they aren't. Gilgamesh and Psyche are both remarkably direct and honest about what goes on in their lives, which is something that I with my tendencies towards a narrow focus on my writing, and towards understating and deprecating my own feelings, greatly admire. <br /><br />The problem for me comes when things aren't going well. I'm very much a "good news" person. If I can't report a success, I don't like to say much of anything. I like being thought well of. I don't much like conflict or confrontation. <br /><br />This has gotten me in trouble at different times in my life, in different roles, because when things go wrong, I've been known to flounder trying to fix them on my own -- or worse, ignore them and hope they'll go away -- when telling people that there was a problem would have been the simplest and best way forward. <br /><br />In the case of blogging, it means that my desire to post the positive and my reticence about either baseless hype or going off-topic with random bloviating* leads to reluctance, even a sense of shame, about posting&nbsp;my not-good-news here. That was evident in the way&nbsp;the&nbsp;"haven't been able to write this week" posts in the first couple of years trailed off into&nbsp;my later extended blog silences. <br /><br />I'm tired of extended blog silences. <br /><br />Now, anyone who follows more than one blog knows that the resolution to post more frequently is the inevitable precursor to a blog that is never updated again, so I'm not going to resolve to post more frequently. <br /><br />What I am going to try to do, is to post more of a variety of things again. And I'm going to try to get more personal, more open, in at least some of what I post. This goes against the grain, and it's a bit scary for me. I've described my approach to blogging in the past as <a href="http://backfromerstwhile.blogspot.com/2009/01/on-privacy-and-business-casual-blogging.html">Business Casual,</a> and it's taken a lot of thinking to shift what I think is appropriate for me to share online.<br /><br />What I seem to have landed on, is that I can't both always and only be the bearer of good tidings, and also tell you the truth about myself, and what I do, and what I care about. Because there is too much that 's important to me that isn't good news, and that does involve me taking a stand and risk causing a conflict or confrontation. <br /><br />As for what all this means in terms of content here... I don't really know yet, to be honest. I have a great many ideas, but most of them are pretty nebulous at the moment, and it all boils down to "post more and different stuff". If you have&nbsp;thoughts on what sort of&nbsp;topics you'd like to see me touching on, by all means&nbsp;drop me a comment and share them. (I checked out the Blogger analytics today, and it turns out I have readers; I had no idea). <br /><br />Until then, thank you to my friends, Alias&nbsp;Gilgamesh and The One&nbsp;They Call Psyche, for&nbsp;sharing so much of yourselves, and&nbsp;for inspiring me to&nbsp;more that's better, and truer. <br /><br />---<br /><br />* Not that I've never bloviated here; far from it.&nbsp;But I never feel entirely good about it, afterwards.Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-73889358146169754742012-02-15T17:03:00.001-05:002012-02-15T17:03:41.092-05:00This Is What I'm Doing: February 2012 Edition<div class=Section1> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>So, as it turns out, this February isn&#8217;t going to see a big push on a side project. There are a couple of reasons for that, one negative, and one positive. I&#8217;m a give-me-the-bad-news-first person, so we&#8217;re going to start with that.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Reason #1: January Kind of Kicked my Butt<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Things were busier than ever at home, work went crazy at the same time, which for some reason made it harder for me to sleep, and I had a low-grade cold for a while. I managed to keep writing, but not to the degree I was hoping for. So I&#8217;m a bit behind where I wanted to be. I had planned to finish the short story I&#8217;ve been working on, then see what the status was with the alpha readers critiquing my novel, and determine if I had the time to do that side project. As it turns out, I&#8217;m still working on the short story. I really want to finish it before I turn my attention to the next, bigger thing. Because if I set this aside for something even more involved, FSM only knows when I&#8217;m going to get back to it. Heinlein&#8217;s Second Rule of Writing is &#8220;You Must Finish What You Start&#8221;, and I&#8217;m in complete agreement. So, work on the short story continues, albeit slowly. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>But after that&#8230;? Well, that takes us to the good reason.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Reason #2: The Alphas Have Spoken<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I&#8217;ve now heard from and, when it was possible, met with my alpha readers. The feedback I received was in every case really detailed and thoughtful, and it&#8217;s already been incredibly valuable to me. What that means, though, is that I&#8217;m now burning to get back to the novel. I have plot holes to fix, characters to buff, and a world to embroider in more detail. I know where the problems are, and &#8211; importantly &#8211; I know they&#8217;re fixable.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>So, when I finish this short story, and that should be soon, I plan to turn my attention back to the novel and do the second draft. Ironically, with the insight my readers have provided, it will probably go a lot more quickly than what was supposed to be the polish did. Be that as it may, the upshot is that I don&#8217;t have a hole in the middle of February to fit in a new project. I am rich in projects. I&#8217;m projected-up. Burgeoning with projects, that&#8217;s me. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Indeed, since Patrick, the artist on Cold Iron Badge, has suggested that it&#8217;s time to start getting a script down for Book 2 of our comic, I might be a little too rich in projects. But that&#8217;s just a time-management problem. And a getting-my-butt-in-the-chair-and-actually-writing problem. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>It may not be My Own Private NaNoWriMo, what with it not being something new or taking place over a month, but it&#8217;ll involve lots of Wri, that&#8217;s for certain. There&#8217;ll be more updates as I move forward with this crazy process and its inevitable frustrations, I&#8217;m sure. Talk to you then, probably while pulling my hair out.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> </div> Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25612944.post-89141624018702137142012-01-24T14:53:00.001-05:002012-01-24T14:53:54.313-05:00Ebooks: How the #*%& do they work?!<div class=Section1> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I was going through some files the other day, and I came across a flyer that got dropped off at our table at last fall&#8217;s Word On The Street, where Greg Beettam and I were (in our inimitable fashion), working to get copies of the Xeno&#8217;s Arrow and Cold Iron Badge books into the hands of passers-by. In exchange for, you know, money.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>This happens from time to time, especially at free shows like Word On The Street, which by design is a big public event that anyone and everyone can attend; people come by the table where we&#8217;re trying to sell things, and try to sell US something. It&#8217;s sometimes distracting, and sometimes annoying &#8211; we, after all, paid for our table, unlike random passer-by-guy with a flyer &#8211; but sometimes it leads to interesting and potentially valuable connections and leads.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>I&#8217;m still not sure what category this guy with this flyer fall into, and so I&#8217;m taking my question to you.<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>This flyer was for a company that offers services in creating ebooks for clients. The actual work, that is, of creating files and setting up accounts with the various providers of ebooks to sell them. I&#8217;m not entirely clear whether this outfit was also offering to manage said accounts &#8211; I don&#8217;t have the flyer in front of me. They were, I remember, also offering to set up and manage social media accounts for clients, which set off some of my alarm bells, because while a large company might need to contract with someone else to manage their social media profile due to their size and the volume of work involved, the sort of small entrepreneurial business this guy and this flyer were obviously targeting didn&#8217;t really need someone else to set up their Facebook page, or to be them on Twitter. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>But here&#8217;s the thing: When it comes to ebooks, Greg and I don&#8217;t know what we don&#8217;t know. We&#8217;ve tried many different ways to get our work out and into the hands of readers over the years, with what to spare my own ego I&#8217;m going to call mixed degrees of success. We haven&#8217;t tried ebooks yet; for some time, there didn&#8217;t seem to be much of a need. But over the past year or so, everything has changed. Self-publishing via ebooks is now more than a sideline for many creators. Ebooks of one sort or another are very clearly now a huge and growing part of the market, and for independent creators like us, they represent a potentially huge pool of readers who&#8217;ve never been exposed to our work before. And we don&#8217;t need to put a whole lot of labour into making the work ready for that audience &#8211; that part is done, we did it years ago. So we have years-old sweat equity (and financial equity) invested. Nothing is going to bring back that sweat or money, but we have the work. Now, it can either do nothing, or make us back some money. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>As I implied at the top of this post, neither Greg nor I has any objections to money, and this seems like it might be a great way to get some, and finally reach the audience we always wanted too. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>The problem &#8211; well, the major problem &#8211; is that neither of us knows much about ebooks, and we especially don&#8217;t know about creating them or getting them onto the various online sellers (Amazon, Smashwords, Barnes &amp; Noble, iBooks, etc.)<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>So we don&#8217;t know how much work is involved, or how much technical acumen is required to do the job right. We don&#8217;t know about the added complications that might result from the fact that our work is comics, which involves graphics that take up more memory and require higher resolutions. We don&#8217;t know if the company this flyer advertised is providing a service we as neophytes will absolutely need, or if they&#8217;re just taking advantage of people who don&#8217;t know how easily they could make ebooks themselves. <o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>That&#8217;s my question for you: Do we need to contract a service provider to take our work, and turn it into ebooks? Or can we do it ourselves? How much knowledge, time and expense are involved? And is it different for graphic novels and prose?<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></span></font></p> <p class=MsoNormal><font size=2 face=Arial><span style='font-size:10.0pt; font-family:Arial'>Enlighten me, please!<o:p></o:p></span></font></p> </div> Stephen Geigen-Millerhttps://plus.google.com/115323072833936579500noreply@blogger.com0