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August 22, 2009

I Got Nothing

It's been a busy time. Just about every weekend has had something going on. I wish I was able to write some profound post about this last "official" month of summer, but alas, I cannot.

I have been having a lot of internal struggles lately. No sadness, no major illness, no injuries. Just thinking a lot about where I am, where I've been and where I'm going as a person. I am generally happy, just feel the need to tweak everything a little. Felling a little restless.

I haven't made any great progress with my weight issues and I seem to be at a standstill with any real efforts at getting more exercise. I am eating much less than I used to and am trying hard to make better choices. Without delving too much into extremely personal information, I stopped taking the pill back in April and I assumed - incorrectly - that would result in at least a little weight loss. Going off the pill makes most people lose a few pounds, right? Right? Wrong. Not me. I puffed up about 10 pounds. I didn't stop taking it simply for the possibility of weight loss and I also am not trying for another baby. That ship has sailed. (Besides, we have a beautiful daughter and a fat pug. What more do we need!) I hoping that it just takes time for things to regulate. We saw Julie & Julia last night and it was wonderful. I really feel inspired to cook better meals. Of course, this does nothing to assist me in the weight loss department. But I think that I could still lose weight and eat better even if it's not necessarily low-cal food if I control my portions. Also, having fresher, better quality food that tastes good and that's not overly processed is better than gorging myself on crappy, convenient junk food.

The desire to travel has also been on my mind a lot. I want very badly to go to Europe. I have never traveled all that much in my life. I've been to Colorado a bunch of times, Florida many, many times and I adore New York City, but I've got a hankering to go to Europe. I spend a lot of time during the work day gazing at pictures of places like Brussels, Prague and Vienna. Italy is tops on my list too. As a result, I spend a lot of times escaping this town in my imagination. Daydreaming of strolling through foreign towns and cities and just being a part of someplace different.

It's been roasting here in Virginia lately. I feel a tad guilty for wishing for fall. I know I'll regret it come January/February, but the 95+ degree sauna is wearing me down. I feel like a limp, wet noodle that's been over cooked. My kingdom for an in-ground pool in my backyard. Then I wouldn't care how hot it got outside!

On a completely unrelated note, I have to confess that there's something else I've been daydreaming about much to my husband's chagrin. My new eye-candy, Alexander Skarsgard from Trueblood. Hey, I've got to have something extra pretty to take my mind off life, right?