Arrr! See CONTENTS for links to the 125 chapters of The Monstaville Memoirs plus introductions, conclusions, postscripts and appendices. This treasure trove also includes a collection of articles offering further insights into the themes explored in the trilogy. Namely, managing suffering and conflict (dealing with hostile people if you are nervous, sensitive or shy) and learning not to react

Saturday, 16 April 2016

A man went into a library and asked for a book on how to commit suicide.
The librarian said: "Fuck off, you won't bring it back."

"If I had no sense of humor, I would long ago have committed suicide." - Mahatma Gandhi.

"Should I kill myself, or have a cup of coffee?" – Albert Camus.

Undertaker #1

Monty Python's Flying Circus, SE01 EP11 1969

“… and later lo and behold it turned out to be Goethe who wrote a book about how foolish it was to be born and scores of German youths committed suicide after reading it and when I tried to read it to see whether I would feel like committing suicide I couldn’t get interested so here I am alive and in circulation.” – Carl Sandburg to Thomas Hornsby Ferril, 22 May 1951.

Goodbye Cruel World

"The destructive character lives from the feeling, not that life is worth living, but that suicide is not worth the trouble." - Walter Benjami.

“The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night.” - Friedrich Nietzsche.

“Sometimes even to live is an act of courage.” - Seneca.

“There comes a time when you look into the mirror and you realize that what you see is all that you will ever be. And then you accept it. Or you kill yourself. Or you stop looking in mirrors.” - Tennessee Williams.

“Killing oneself is, anyway, a misnomer. We don't kill ourselves. We are simply defeated by the long, hard struggle to stay alive. When somebody dies after a long illness, people are apt to say, with a note of approval, 'He fought so hard.' And they are inclined to think, about a suicide, that no fight was involved, that somebody simply gave up. This is quite wrong.” - Sally Brampton, Shoot the Damn Dog: A Memoir of Depression.

“People pontificate, 'Suicide is selfishness.' Career churchmen like Pater go a step further and call in a cowardly assault on the living. Oafs argue this specious line for varying reason: to evade fingers of blame, to impress one's audience with one's mental fibre, to vent anger, or just because one lacks the necessary suffering to sympathise. Cowardice is nothing to do with it - suicide takes considerable courage. Japanese have the right idea. No, what's selfish is to demand another to endure an intolerable existence, just to spare families, friends, and enemies a bit of soul-searching.” - David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas.

“Suicide is a form of murder - premeditated murder. It isn't something you do the first time you think of doing it. It takes getting used to. And you need the means, the opportunity, the motive. A successful suicide demands good organisation and a cool head, both of which are usually incompatible with the suicidal state of mind.” - Susanna Kaysen, Girl, Interrupted.

“It is not worth the bother of killing yourself, since you always kill yourself too late.” - Emil Cioran, The Trouble With Being Born.

Suicide vacation

“But in the end one needs more courage to live than to kill himself.” - Albert Camus.

My reason for suicide

I myself spent nine
years in an insane asylum and I never had the obsession of suicide, but I
know that each conversation with a psychiatrist, every morning at the
time of his visit, made me want to hang myself, realizing that I would
not be able to cut his throat.
Antonin Artaud
Read more at: http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/suicide.html

"I myself spent nine years in an insane asylum and I never had the obsession of suicide, but I know that each conversation with a psychiatrist, every morning at the time of his visit, made me want to hang myself, realising that I would not be able to cut his throat." - Antonin Artaud.

"No one ever lacks a good reason for suicide." - Cesare Pavese.

"There is but one truly serious philosophical problem and that is suicide." - Albert Camus.

Friday, 8 April 2016

Elvis Presley made this song famous in 1968. According to Wikipedia, it is "notable for its direct quotations of Martin Luther King, Jr." And, "Although the song is not technically gospel music, Presley performed the song with the intensity and intonations of southern gospel."

There must be lights burning brighter somewhere
Got to be birds flying higher in a sky more blue
If I can dream of a better land
Where all my brothers walk hand in hand
Tell me why, oh why, oh why can't my dream come true
oh why
There must be peace and understanding sometime
Strong winds of promise that will blow away the doubt and fear
If I can dream of a warmer sun
Where hope keeps shining on everyone
Tell me why, oh why, oh why won't that sun appear

We're lost in a cloud
With too much rain
We're trapped in a world
That's troubled with pain
But as long as a man
Has the strength to dream
He can redeem his soul and fly
Deep in my heart there's a trembling question
Still I am sure that the answer gonna come somehow
Out there in the dark, there's a beckoning candle

And while I can think, while I can talk
While I can stand, while I can walk
While I can dream, please let my dream
Come true, right now
Let it come true right now
Oh yeah

Saturday, 2 April 2016

It is with love we step forth to greet you; we are the energy and
consciousness of the Celestial White Beings and the Pleiades. We merge
our energy in
beautiful synthesis creating a wondrous ensemble of light which we
shower over and through your being. Colours of white, blue and green
like jewels of
light cascade distributing our combined energy, consciousness and
frequency to support the presence of the Creator’s light within all. Our
light has a
greater purpose which is to shed illusions connected to the concept
of truth and the perspective of spiritual or Creator truth in order to
encourage many
to engage with their Divine Inner Consciousness.

Even people moving in spiritual circles can hold onto concepts and
ideas of spiritual or Creator truth. However, when the knowledge is held
within the mind
it is only a product of learning rather than experiencing or
embodiment. The mind cannot fully understand the pure consciousness of
the Creator through
learning or lack of experience. However, it can often be learning
which opens the mind. The mind can engage with the pure consciousness of
the Creator;
often when the mind receives an idea, it can wish to hold onto the
idea neglecting the acceptance of other insights. When the mind and the
pure love of the
Creator work as one then the mind is able to adopt the flowing free
nature of the soul and Creator being constantly divinely inspired.

Your Divine Inner Consciousness is an active light within your being
which vibrates at the same frequency as the Creator and, therefore,
holds the true and
pure consciousness of the Creator. Your Divine Inner Consciousness
simply exists within you, when you engage with it the results are states
of love, peace,
harmony, knowingness, unity and acceptance. These sensations or
states of consciousness abundantly fill every cell of your being, every
chakra, every
aspect of your auric field as well as your thoughts and feelings.
The sensations can be likened to fireworks of luminous light and
inspiration moving as
current throughout your entire being.

Your Divine Inner Consciousness, which emanates the purest truth
frequency of the Creator could also be labelled your soul’s wisdom, your
spirit or even
your higher self. However, we are speaking of states of high
vibrational pure consciousness born from your connection with the
Creator. These states of
consciousness move beyond your thoughts, feelings, perspectives and
opinions, causing all of their previous programming to fall away. This
Divine Inner
Consciousness is free from judgment, fear or illusion; it is a
consciousness of love which when connected with creates a new state of
consciousness within
your being. This consciousness of love has the power to gradually,
if continued to be connected with, erase all previous thought patterns
of negativity,
fear or illusion. So powerful is your Divine Inner Consciousness or
Pure Consciousness State of Love, that it is immensely hea ling for your
body, being
and reality. All that is required is your willingness to access your
Divine Inner Consciousness, allowing it to intensify and move
throughout your being as
you accept, observe and experience.

There are aspects of your current state of being and consciousness
which hinder or block you from accessing and experiencing your Divine
Inner
Consciousness. Such behaviours as judging yourself or others, being
inflexible in observing the opinions of other, doubting yourself or
others, lack of
trust or faith in self, others and the Creator, fear in change or
fear in nurturing experiences, lack of self-love or lack of love for
others, ingratitude,
stubbornness, trying to control self, others, situations or the
Creator. We could continue with our explanation, however, we know you
have grasped our
meaning. Any process that encourages you to believe in separation
leads you away from your Divine Inner Consciousness. Many upon the Earth
hold spiritual
knowledge maybe they believe in spiritual or healing techniques,
philosophy, religion or way of life or thinking. If the individual is
only open to their
spiritual knowledge and is unable to view, understand, accept or
even simply allow free from judgment, then this can be a block to
accessing their Divine
Inner Consciousness. Judgment, the creation of fear or intolerance
even within spiritual concepts, ideas or experiences cause a diversion
of the mind to
separation rather than union. When there is a belief in union then
the Divine Inner Consciousness can easily be accessed. Belief in union
can manifest
through your compassion for self and others, love for self and
other, acceptance of self and other, broadmindedness towards self and
others. In truth, a
loving open-mindedness gifted to self and all will create peace
within your being which will usher you forth to connect with, observe
and experience your
Divine Inner Consciousness.
Every time you create a thought, feeling or action born from and
focused upon unity then you allow yourself to accept your Divine Inner
Consciousness.

We can recognise that behaviours such as judgment, (which we feel is
the most harmful) cause a block in connecting with your Divine Inner
Consciousness.
However, we recognise that judgment is a part of a person’s journey
towards spiritual awakening. Judgment comes from the belief of
separation within an
individual; separation is a feeling and experience of pain. An
individual engaging in judgment has yet to fully accept themselves as a
being of love as
well as not realising or being able to view the beauty of the
Creator in all; this includes the expressions all create.

Any judgment is born from pain of separation within your being
especially when you are attached to the judgment you are making about
yourself or another.
Being attached to a judgment is enjoying sharing the judgment,
feeling that the judgment proves your importance or knowledge as well as
feeling that the
judgment must be delivered. It can be challenging to dissolve the
mind’s pattern of judging self or other, even judging whether certain
situations are good
or bad however judgment can be dissolved when you let go of your
attachment to judgment. When a judgment arises within, first you can
acknowledge it then
let it go by breathing it away. Continue this if needs be until your
attachment to the judgment has dissolved. Then contemplate, does the
judgment hold
truth within it and does it serve you, others or the situation? If
the judgment is of service you will be able to deliver it from love and
compassion, it
will actually transform from a judgment into an observation. If the
judgment does not serve you, it will be easier to discard it with love.
Judgment comes
from a need to feel important within when you love yourself
unconditionally the need to feel important dissolves because you are
fully nurtured. This
changes your perspective of yourself and others while allowing you
to engage with your Divine Inner Consciousness.

Please recognise that we are not judging you by bringing this to
your attention, we simply wish to aid your recognition of that which
blocks you from
accepting and engaging with your Divine Inner Consciousness. We also
wish for you to realise that judgments will arise, and there is no need
for you to
judge your judgments with further harmful and critical thoughts.
Loving yourself while recognising the judgments you create will allow
you to detach from
the patterns of judgment within your being. It also doesn’t mean
that you cannot express yourself in the way you wish to, to support
yourself and others.
However, it is to encourage all expressions to flow from a space of
pure consciousness within you.

To engage with your Divine Inner Consciousness:

Encourage yourself to enter into states of peace and relaxation
through deep breathing, meditation and focus upon loving self.

Recognise that your Divine Inner Consciousness is a consciousness of
pure love from the Creator, when you engage with this part of your
being you are
communicating and expressing the Creator.

Affirm, ‘I engage with and embody my Divine Inner Consciousness.’

Call upon our combined energy and light of the Celestial White
Beings and the Pleiades, feel our white, blue and green light
surrounding you as you breathe
it into your being. We are magnifying your sensitivity to your
Divine Inner Consciousness.

Imagine, sense or acknowledge a source of pure consciousness within
your being. Discover where this source of pure consciousness is and what
it feels like.
Imagine that you sink into the pure consciousness and it fills your
entire being, illuminating you and moving you into a new state of
consciousness.

The more you experience and practice this the more you will
recognise the strength and power of your pure consciousness, feeling it
penetrating your being.
It will offer to you states of peace, fulfilment, renewal and
healing. Through your repetition and acknowledgement, you will discover
the abundance of your
Divine Inner Consciousness flowing freely throughout your being and
the knowingness it promotes within your being, mind and feelings.

Important topic

Did you know that this is the 12th and lowest universe in our multiverse and that it is founded on the energies of fear and suffering which were not resolved in the 11th?

Karma & Emotions

This e-book explores the opportunity for releasing deep emotional blockages from the past that crisis presents and the notion that this process of self-healing is an essential aspect of spiritual ascension (click the picture for more info & free pdf download)

What is, is; how we react is up to us!

"Life is 10 percent of what you make it and 90 percent of how you take it." - Irving Berlin.

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About Me

Born on 25 November 1965 and currently living in Yorkshire, England. I write songs and books and have a website that serves as a platform for my work as well as being an Ascension resource. The Treasure Chest displays all chapters of The Monstaville Memoirs trilogy as well as further insights from various sources relating to the themes of these books. The Powerlessness of Now reveals the many ways in which we have given our power away to the Establishment through its web of control.

“Someone asked, ‘Why is there suffering?’ [Meher] Baba gave this succinct reply: ‘Suffering is essential for the elimination of the ego, just as it was necessary for you to scrub and scrub in order to wash the stain from my coat.’" - Unkown.

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