New Counsellor

Tuesday I met my new counsellor after my last one had to leave because her internship had ended. The new counsellor seems good so far. I felt a connection so that’s a positive sign since I don’t like having to ask to see someone else. Unexpectedly, I ended up crying quite a bit as I recounted what I thought by now would be ‘routine’. Instead, I sat crying for a fair portion of the session. It’s a good sign if I am able to be emotionally vulnerable on my first meeting with a therapist or counsellor. Otherwise it means I am guarded. So I see the crying as a good thing.

I won’t get to see my new counsellor again until the end of the month because she’s going on vacation. Hopefully things will be okay and I will be alright. The only thing plaguing me is what do I do next? I thought by now I’d know what I want to do but I am still clueless. Thus, all I have been capable of is housekeeping and yard work. Both things that aren’t very much fun but they do give me a feeling of satisfaction when I can make a space look nicer than before. I’ve also been helping my dad sell his car. So I have been keeping busy but I feel like I ought to have a better idea of what I’m doing when and where. Right now I just see myself as doing things that need to be done but maybe aren’t important. They’re things that need doing though. Living in a messy and unclean environment doesn’t make me feel positive. In that sense, then, I am contributing at least to the maintenance of my home. Also, I try to provide an ear to my dad and help him out.

It was warm and sunny today so I got outside and trimmed the rose bushes a bit more. Otherwise I stayed indoors because the sun was actually a bit much for me. Even though it was only 20 Celsius it was humid. It’s hard to feel like doing much when you’re warm. Mind you in a month or two this will feel cool! Already the mosquitoes and black flies are out-I could live without them though!

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13 thoughts on “New Counsellor”

Glad you liked your new counselor! I suspect the cleaning out stuff is a good thing for you to be doing right now. I’m still doing it myself and getting a lot of benefit from it. It really is cathartic just to get your life in order as much as possible. Just make sure to stop and smell the roses while you’re pruning them! 🙂

I’m glad you like the new counsellor! Hopefully things will continue to go well. And, you know I struggle with home maintenance, so I think you totally ROCK for being able to clean and do yard work!!! That is a big deal!!! *safe hugs* rl

Thanks so much! I have found the home maintenance goes best when I do a bit every day. Too bad my dad doesn’t help me except on the rare occassion. He’s very messy too 😦 But he doesn’t charge me any rent or anything so I can’t complain too much

Thank you, I was/am glad I like my new counsellor so far. I have only seen her once as she went on vacation, after I saw her, for three weeks. So I see her next week.