I like to think that after death they spend eternity with all the anguish they have placed in our hearts. If there is a judgement can you imagine God looking at them and saying why in my name did you make your son do that for you.

The first thing I do when the newspaper arrives is check the obits to see if there is good news about #2.

I hope my dad in heaven feels remourse over what happened after seeing it through my eyes, knows how it effected me and honestly asks God, speaking for me, for forgiveness-and is given it. I dont want him to suffer eternal pain, no matter what he did to me. Look at all the mistakes ive made and as Jesus said, let he who is without sin cast the first stone.

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Life's disappointments are harder to take when you don't know any swear words. -- Calvin (Calvin and Hobbes)

Both are dead as far as I can tell! Can't say it breaks me up too much.

_________________________"Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting 'Holy Shit! What a ride!'" ~Hunter S. Thompson

1. R - Still alive. I see him every Thanksgiving and Christmas when he sits across the family dinner table from me. Joy.2. W - Successful business man here in my hometown where I still live.3. G - Works at the local hospital.4. MW - Died a few weeks ago.5. MH - Don't know about this one.6. D - Lives in the northern part of my state. His wife died a couple of years ago, so I guess she never found out about D's past.

1. No idea. Don't even know who he was. Guess it doesn't matter as I don't even live in the same country as him anymore........probably. I moved about six months after it happened.2. band leader in grades 4-8 Still around, see him occasionally. He came into my work a few weeks ago and recognized me despite me looking a lot different then I did when I was 13 (beard, taller, longer hair). I was polite but short when he talked to me.

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Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;None but ourselves can free our minds.Have no fear for atomic energy,'Cause none of them can stop the time.How long shall they kill our prophets,While we stand aside and look? Ooh!Some say it's just a part of it:We've got to fulfil de book.

#1 Died in 1959 days after he abused me, I always felt God struck him down

#2 Father R died in 1965 at age of 69 4 years after abusing me

#3 Mr S English Teacher keep on SA ing boys for 7 years after he raped me in 1964. He found out the school board was going to turn him over to police. Left school in middle of day, went home and killed himself May 1971.

Tom

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Teach the Children to Never Hide in the Silence

1. I was a victim of kiddy porn. Perp was a major cartoonist in the film city on the West Coast. He made movies of me and 2 other boys. He produced a cartoon which features me and the other 2 boys. It is still on Youtube. It is not copyrighted. It is not pornographic. He was the originator of several of the major cartoon figures that we still see today. I have no idea where they are - I was not quite 4 yr old when it started - It probably could be traced but I don't know how to do it. His career plumited after the abuse. Something like coyotee going over a cliff. He died of a heart attack. The 2 other boys were of famous families.

2. Grandfather - died in agony of atalectasis

3. Bunch of "older" boys at different times - I have no idea, except for one = DS

4. Convicted of sexual misconduct . Served prison time. Now walking the streets. He's in a different state. Registered sex offender. The boy he used as a helper also served time. That all happened after my family left that state.

5. I think living in a big, well protected house. He started his career as a potential "great". He messed it up with weird ideas which were implemented with destructive force to the entire effort which he pioneered. He gathered weird personnel around him. Much publicity has been given to their efforts. He was forced out of his position after only a few years.

6. His picture is posted elsewhere in this site. His abuse ended the scout troop.

7. I don't know.

8. He was the captain of a ship which ran aground with great embarrassment and great financial loss.------------------------------------------------------------------P.S. #1 (pufferfish story part 1) Died of heart attack in 1984 at almost 71. How many boys did he abuse? I have no way of knowing but I would imagine he kept on making kiddie porn and abusing boys long after he ruined me. A colleague described him as: "a shameless self-promoter who provoked the wrath of his former XXXXXXXXXX colleagues in later years, for allegedly claiming credit for ideas which were not his." Another colleague said about him: "egotist who took credit for everything."

1: Mom refuses to kill herself, so she's alive about 30 miles away.2: Dr. Cohen, (the guy who managed to do all the boys sports physicals in Jr. High) last I saw of him was on TV with him being led out of his pediatrician's office in handcuffs about 10 years ago. I can only assume bad things happened to him.

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