I have a big problem with just letting shit go, I can't do it, and it does eat away at me,that iswhere I'd say 90% of my self hatred stems from. Do I know I am better than this, well of course. Sometimes I have trouble remembering that when I go off on my tirades and it does make me look bad, and at those times deserving so.

so with that I hate my ex step mother for all the shit she did to me that fucked me up so bad. All of myanger stems from how much I hate that fucking bitch. All the beatings, the times I was told that Iwasn't worth anything that I was going to be nothing more than a piece of shit, all of that psychologicalabuse I had to endure........I hate that bitch. I will never forgive her, can't do that. won't do that.

But in the meantime I'll hate her instead of myself, when I get mad and frustrated about something I'm gonna curse her fucking name and focus my anger where it belongs, at her.

Well RC, the grass isn't always greener on the other side of the fence. No one has a perfect life.You know about some of the things I've gone through recently, and also the last few years. You know what MAS has gone through. And even SHKM who seems to have a stable home/work life has problems, such as being a self hating homosexual.

It's hard to remember this when you're really frustrated with life, but achieving any goal can be hard. You just have to work really hard at it, and not give up. You are not unique. There are days when I hate the world too.

Well RC, the grass isn't always greener on the other side of the fence. No one has a perfect life.You know about some of the things I've gone through recently, and also the last few years. You know what MAS has gone through. And even SHKM who seems to have a stable home/work life has problems, such as being a self hating homosexual.

It's hard to remember this when you're really frustrated with life, but achieving any goal can be hard. You just have to work really hard at it, and not give up. You are not unique. There are days when I hate the world too.

Well RC, the grass isn't always greener on the other side of the fence. No one has a perfect life.You know about some of the things I've gone through recently, and also the last few years. You know what MAS has gone through. And even SHKM who seems to have a stable home/work life has problems, such as being a self hating homosexual.

It's hard to remember this when you're really frustrated with life, but achieving any goal can be hard. You just have to work really hard at it, and not give up. You are not unique. There are days when I hate the world too.

The only problem I have is that I get bored easily and tend to be somewhat discontent. So I keep home/work life stable to counter that. Whatever works, right? This forum is an outlet for my alternate personality- a sick twisted fucker that happens to dislike forum administrators.

Actually in real life I'm a pretty happy and lucky guy. I've got no complaints.

I had to block a chick on Facebook and Skype because she was a little weird and pervy. Last night she was showing off her tits and pussy to me, a total stranger. she wasn't very good looking either. I can see how and why she got blocked by a few of the wrestling friends Ihave on Facebook. She was a totally weird chick. If she wasn't so fucking weird I wouldn't ofblocked her, I like tits and pussy as much as the next person, but not like that. it was just tooweird and creepy. i got a bad vibe from the whole thing. wasn't the same as if any other chickwas doing it, I'm a guy after all, but this was just too fucking weird.

I was trying out the online play for Left 4 Dead when they paused the game, switched places andkicked my ass out for no reason. that was utter bullshit. fuckers.

Needless to say that I won't be playing any game online ever again. fuck those motherfuckers. They'relucky I'm a nice guy and just leaving them be. I could of just started shooting them and doing it topiss them off. not sure how they would of liked it but I really don't give a fuck what they like, or dislike.

I was trying out the online play for Left 4 Dead when they paused the game, switched places andkicked my ass out for no reason. that was utter bullshit. fuckers.

Needless to say that I won't be playing any game online ever again. fuck those motherfuckers. They'relucky I'm a nice guy and just leaving them be. I could of just started shooting them and doing it topiss them off. not sure how they would of liked it but I really don't give a fuck what they like, or dislike.

Just some lame ass bullshit.

Well its not really worth getting upset over as due to the Greater Internet Fuckwad Theory these cunts are just 15 years who think swearing and saying racist stuff online makes them badasses.

I was trying out the online play for Left 4 Dead when they paused the game, switched places andkicked my ass out for no reason. that was utter bullshit. fuckers.

Needless to say that I won't be playing any game online ever again. fuck those motherfuckers. They'relucky I'm a nice guy and just leaving them be. I could of just started shooting them and doing it topiss them off. not sure how they would of liked it but I really don't give a fuck what they like, or dislike.

Just some lame ass bullshit.

Well its not really worth getting upset over as due to the Greater Internet Fuckwad Theory these cunts are just 15 years who think swearing and saying racist stuff online makes them badasses.

True. I'm over it though. They're just little snot bubble kids that don't know shit about anything anyways. I maybe new to the whole playing online thing, but I've played more consoles than they have zits. They don'tknow gaming until they've played the Atari 2600 or the NES. So I ain't worried, and they don't impress me any at all. They're just rude little bitches anyways.

These local country ass Emergency Rooms and these backwoods Dr.s are really starting to piss me off. My woman got hurt in an auto accidentlast Thursday and they didn't even bother giving her an MRI or any othernecessary tests and scans to make sure she had no internal injuries. I looked upwhiplashes on Web MD and they say that a MRI scan may be needed to make sure nointernal injuries exist. So someone around here is dropping the ball, bigtime!! At least we got an appointment set up for her today to see a Dr. and hopefully they will do an MRI on her,I'm going to insist that they do until they do. There's no sense in this shit.

^^^^ Yea I was watching one of those medical examiner shows. A guy got into a minor car accident, refused to be looked at because he felt fine. Turns out he died later that day from a small blood vessel that popped in his head from the accident.

It is unlikely that they will discuss her medical treatment with anyone other than her. Insisting will only get you kicked out of the room.

People that don't know how to step to the right. You can be turning down the aisle of a supermarket, on the right side. Someone will come on the left side and expect you to move.

The same thing with double doors. You can open the door on the right to enter, and some lazyass that thinks the world revolves around them will dart out your door instead of using the door on their side to exit.

Right now I hate my ex fiance for dumping me yesterday and giving me the ultimatum to choose her over my parents and family. Not only that she wanted me to go E.R hopping to get pain pills for her. Not just a no on that but a oh hell motherfucking no!! Are you fucking kidding me??? Like I am gonna just go in an E.R and pretend to be hurtso I can get pills for her. Yeah, right. I refused to do that and when she came to get her stuffI told her that I will not ever take her back. She can forget that b.s. Not only did she hurt mebut she also tried to get me to turn against my family. I loved her, but I reckon it was all a train wreckjust waiting to happen. I am glad that she is gone. I can do better. My first REAL relationship with a flesh and blood woman may of flopped but she may be the first one, and she won't be the last.

But it sucks that it ended the way it did, but it was for the best. Life goes on, and so shall I.