Joshua Deegan, 22

The image recovered from the Sari Club ruins offered a form of completion. But for one father, there is still no closure.

'My son was blown apart, literally," says Adelaide magistrate Brian Deegan, grieving father of his oldest son, Joshua, 22, a fitness instructor. "He left Australia on Friday, I waved, he has been brought back to me piece by piece whether it has been parts of his body, his bag, some of his personal possessions. The imagery just keeps coming, it's the image of what happened to him after the explosion."

Unexpectedly last month Brian Deegan received a call from the Australian Federal Police who had no further use for a burnt disposable camera they thought belonged to Josh. "I was terribly fearful of what it might show but I guess I just had to go through that," Mr Deegan said. "My fears were well founded."

Recovered was the last photo of Josh pictured outside the Sari Club with an Adelaide girl, Angela Golotta, whom he met the night of the bombing. Seeing new photographs of a loved one who died almost a year earlier was painful beyond belief, Mr Deegan said, but beautiful, too. "The two of them together are like angels, it is probably the best photograph of them ever, their heads are together," he said. (See front cover)

The image provided some completion for Mr Deegan, who has pictures of his "golden-haired boy" before birth, at school, on the football field and now just before death in Bali where Josh had gone on an end-of-season trip with Sturt Football Club, a week after they won the local grand final. "I am obeying everybody's else's rules, I'm trying to move on," Mr Deegan said. "People say children die all the time and parents have to deal with it; they do, but in most circumstances they are not murdered so that puts me in another category."