Sunday, December 28

I had
a good Yule (Dec. 21, 2014) day and a good Christmas (Dec. 25, 2014) as well. My
son and I spent Yule day with my daughter and her boyfriend at their place. We
all enjoyed a wonderful meal prepared by them which consisted of turkey, rice,
and pumpkin pie. On Christmas day we spent the
day with the same couple, but the parents of said boyfriend hosted the get together
at their place. They served a delicious ham, pumpkin pie, mashed taters,
coffee, soda, eggnog, and tamales I believe. Seems like I’m forgetting
something, but you get the gist, yeah? J We also played a board game called “Ticket
To Ride – Europe.” It was fun, despite my being totally defeated; and when
I say, “defeated”, I mean not only did I come in last, but I was within a hair
of having the winner (my daughter) getting enough points to lap me on the board
(points are added/totaled by moving each
players piece around the outside of the board’s numbers). Of course we
opened gifts during each day’s visit.

Monday, December 8

Once again I know that it has been quite a while since I
wrote a post, also knowing that I said I would do it more frequently than I had been. I suppose one could say
that this being done only 2 and a half weeks since the last time is more often
than in the past. Actually thought it had been longer.

In the last one I mentioned that I had sent in the
application to the hospice place to become a volunteer. I did get an email
stating that they had received it and would be contacting me to set-up the time
for doing a little training before I do whatever (most likely visiting with
those who don’t get visitors or are unable to go out to visit). Anyway, that
was the last communication from them that I’ve had. That was last week. I swear
I thought it had been longer than that. Does that mean time is going by slower
than thought? I need to get some volunteering happening cause of two things I’ve
noticed just in this writing. 1) That there’s a lot of the use of the word “I”
and 2) that time is seemingly going by slow.

Today I went to an exercise class. O.K, that’s significant
because I only went to one class, last Monday, since only going to 1 class the
week before. The week before there was only one because it was Thanksgiving week,
but last week there were 3 that could’ve been attended. The reason for not
going as often as I should could be a sign that the new anti-depressant I
started last month aren’t working well or need to be increased again. A
conversation will be had with my doctor during the appointment this Wednesday.
One thing that I’ve been doing to try and combat the down feeling that’s been,
is that for the last 4 days I’ve been taking a daily morning shower (as opposed to the every other day I had been
showering, [sometimes longer]). On
the way home from class today I wanted to do something other than come home and
watch television like usual.

(taken at the 1st park I visited)

So, what I did was stop by the grocery store and
spend 50 cents on a soda, I then decided that I would go to the park. Not the
one that is usually visited by me, but another one. Why? Because I’ve been
thinking about doing it for a while, finally did. I even took a couple of
pictures. Then I went to ‘the usual’ place and watched the resident ducks swim
back and forth.

(taken at the 2nd, and last, park visited today)

After coming home I got sleepy and rather than lying on the
sofa to take a nap I went and laid down on my bed, but couldn’t sleep. I then
got up and watched TV for a little while, got bore and my son and I took a quick
drive to the grocery store to buy a few things. Came home and I watched more TV
while he read on this computer. I told him I wanted a turn on the computer and
this is the result.

Thursday, November 20

Well, I was scrolling through Facebook posts and decided that
I’d rather be doing something else. Thought, “I haven’t written a blog post in
a while, I’ll do that.” Here it is.

I have not been up to anything that
would change the world. Though I suppose just existing and doing anything could
change it for someone (or me if something unexpected occurred). Because you never
know, things sometimes just happen. There in-lays an issue that I have… that
something important has to occur for life to be exciting or fun. Why does life
*have* to be exciting or fun or? Good question. One thing I also worry about is
that my son has a ‘good’ life, that I am responsible for providing fun things
for him, which I often think I’m failing at doing. There’s this underlying
current in me that thinks that I am not all that interesting because nothing
news worthy ever happens. Then again, would I want things like that to happen?
I guess that depends on what I consider “news worthy”, huh? I guess when I
think of things that may be like that that I think of what might make it onto a
newscast on any type of media. I was going to say ‘TV or Radio’, but then it occurred
to me that there are magazines, the Internet, newspapers, people talking, etc.
So there’s really no way to know for certain who would think something worth
letting into their life. Plus, the people who broadcast ‘whatever’ are basing ‘it’
on what they think others may consider important or enjoyable. What I’m saying
is that I need to just stop worrying/thinking about what others think, and just
live life without the burden of pleasing somebody else. A people pleaser I am,
and always have been. *sigh*

Well, I did get the application to
become a volunteer at/for a hospice filled out and mailed in. I don’t know
exactly what they’ll ask me to do. It could be just visiting with people who
ordinarily don’t get very many visitors, or playing board games and stuff like
that, for an hour a couple of times a week. If my application is approved I’ll
have to do some sort of training, at which time my activities will be talked
about. I’m kind of nervous. Never done anything like this. I may have to spend
time with people who’re sick, dying, mentally or physically disabled. The
important thing is that I’ll be helping other people deal with
life/death/whatever. It should be interesting.

Tuesday, November 11

Yeah, I know that I don’t need to use a 16pt font when
writing, but it does make it easier to read. I have just realized that I don’t
have my glasses on. See, the thing is is that with one eye being near 20/20
(can’t actually remember it’s #’s) and the other one being much worse, just bad
enough to where I can’t read anything close but can see fair even without
glasses, I sometimes wear them and sometimes I don’t.

Today, according to me anyway, it is
cold. It’s 50 degrees Fahrenheit outside and windy, a cold wind. I’m not sure
what the low was this morning. I think in the 30’s. And that means it dropped
to about 60 in the house. I did remember to turn on the oil filled living room
heater, but I only put it on low heat and had set the thermostat to keep it
where it was when I went to bed (70), but as it was on low and the thermostat
was pretty low too, it did not keep the room at 70. Anyway, it’s been 65 in
here for several hours now and I cannot
seem to feel warm, although I’ve got on my hoody and winter coat. I had set my
bedroom heater at about the same heating capabilities, but since I have 2
blankets on the bed I didn’t get cold. I just looked at the thermometer on the
living room wall and it’s up to 67, only a couple of degrees more than it has
been but I do feel a smidge warmer. Of course it could also be that I’m
drinking hot tea. If I could type with gloves on I’d be wearing them.

Since
I’m tired of watching television, or I was when I came to the computer, I have
chosen to write. As you can see, it’s not about anything specific, just
babbling. I’ve been trying to read post on my MS support site that I mentioned
in my last post, but my connection is on again/off again and I can't read more
than a couple of posts before it’s gone. Honestly don’t know why it (the
connection) is so very flaky.

Sunday, November 9

So Got access to the computer so that I could get on myMSteam, read a few posts, and
maybe update people as to what kind of day I’m having or had. Unfortunately, we
don’t have an Internet connection at the moment, so it’s a good time to write
in my journal. It may even turn into a blog post. And looky there, we now have
a connection, which means that I can go to the aforementioned site or any other
site I so choose. I might as well tell you that it has been an uneventful day.
Just watched a few movies on the ‘Escape’ channel, which is 62.4 here. Also
flipped to channel 15.1 every so often (on commercials). The CW, here. We
usually get a few other channels, but today they weren’t coming in for some
reason. It’s really no big deal as 2 of them are Spanish channels, one is a military
channel, one is a PBS channel, and one is the Create channel. I don’t watch any
of those very often, so it’s possible that I have forgotten one. Plus if there’s
nothing that I feel like watching I do have several books that are ready to be
read.

Ok, it’s going
to be a few minutes before I can post this to my blog, as I have lost the
connection. Damnit! I have copied the previous paragraph and was ready to save
it when I noticed the connection had been lost. It’s back now though so I
better get this copied and pasted into my blog.