I was able to keep my mind off of it and the panic attacks at bay until today, when I woke up from a nightmare about it. Stupid brain.

I'm so nervous :-/ If I'm denied this time, I can't get another appeal. I have to wait a year and then re-apply and start all over again. It's taken me 5 (6?) years just to get here. I wish whoever decided these things could just live in my body for a day. It would save so much paperwork, and doctors appointments, and lawyer fees and whatnot. At least I don't have to pay him unless I win...