I'll admit i work in a dead end job, with no real opitunity to progress up the ladder of authority. I work at a pool shop, im a factory hand/shit kicker, getting all the shitty jobs no one else wants to do, if im lucky ill get to go out on the road and do a delivery or pick up something that the factory needs.

I was working today mind you it was a half day 7:30-12:00 and i thought "I could do this for the rest of my life" sure it shits me to tears, its boring work at an average pay ($13 an hour). Now here comes the kicker...i want to be a teacher.

Its my dream job, i love ancient histroy and have been studying it since year 8 at high school. Its my passion and im not that bad at it. Relativly good marks at high school and near top marks at TAFE (where i am now). But while stripping down a pool cell for spare bits, i sorta just..gave up. Maybe i was kiding myself all this time that i would be able to achieve what i truly want. Like my title says...i think i just lost at life.

One key point i think i should make, is that i have always, ALWAYS struggled to find motivation to do anythign other than history and rugby. I dont know whats wrong with me :(

Am i just going through a phase?

Is this what the rest of my life is going to be? Questioning "what if"? What does everyone else do for motivation?

Figure out what you have to do to get where you want to be and do it. Things won't go exactly according to plan, but you'll get there eventually.

I'm fairly sure you're pretty young (under 20?). I just started going back to Uni at the age of 27. I'll graduate at 31-32. So I know exactly how you feel about getting stuck somewhere you don't want to be and feeling like it's too late to change. But change is possible.

----- "It is the war we cannot win, nor can we lose nor drop. There is evidence of an instability of ideas, a floating series of judgements, our policy of nervous conciliation which is very disturbing." - US Senator Hugh Scott

Have you ever tried to enroll in a dip ed or education course. I think you need a degree for a dip.ed, right? You can still do education, over two or three years. You can keep your job, and do the degree part time. But you DO need motivation.

Yup, what they said. if you're wondering what life will be like in the future then just look at it now. It'll be just like that, unless you do something different. History is fun, so is teaching, go do it.

----- A challenge to a perceived consensus is a challenge to all the powers in human society, as it can take a person’s understanding of the world we live in, and flip it upside down.

Figure out what you have to do to get where you want to be and do it. Things won't go exactly according to plan, but you'll get there eventually.

I'm fairly sure you're pretty young (under 20?). I just started going back to Uni at the age of 27. I'll graduate at 31-32. So I know exactly how you feel about getting stuck somewhere you don't want to be and feeling like it's too late to change. But change is possible.

Yeah im 18. I completly assed up year 12. Fucked around too much and my final score reflected that. But thanks for the advice and personal experience.