Time to come clean... Big update and new pictures.

Friday, July 27, 2012

Wow I cant believe it is the end of July and its been 6 months since I have visitied this site. I used to be here EVERY day, all day. This took over my facebook addiction. Then I started to lose weight and then I kinda didnt feel like I needed to be on here as much.

Boy was I wrong. I reached 141 and got tired. Tired of working out, tired of eating healthy. I took pretty much a year break. On and off with excersising and stuff. The good news is i didnt gain a lot of weight back, the bad news it I still gained. I lost me, I lost control, I lost my spark.
But I am not a quitter. I am here, I am back, I love me and I won't give up.

Update in my personal life. I am no longer married. That had probably a lot to do with me being gone. The last 6 months has been VERY VERY VERY difficult. I am a strong cookie though, I pushed through it. I went to school full time, i worked full time and went through a divorce and I did not give up.
I am still healing but it is for the best. It was very peaceful or as peaceful as spliting from someone that was in your life for 6 years can be.

I am hoping to move to Austin in the fall. That is my dream and I will make it happen sooner or later.

I am still singing and finally got back in the studio last night which felt so good.
I am discovering me. I am 24 and have been through a lot of crap, but I keep going.
I am surrounded by amazing people who lifted me when I needed it most.

Last night as i was coming home at midnight I stopped at jack in the box, ate some nasty greasy but delishious food and drove home. I went to bed.
This morning I woke up with a completely new drive. I am ready to get back on the track. I deserve to feel good in my skin. I don't want to go back to where it hurt and I hated myself. I worked to damn hard to lose that.

JELLEN726
WELCOME BACK! We missed you! You have had so much happen in the past months. WOW. But you look gorgeous as ever and your hair is rockin! So is that new boy. Love the crochet top. Thanks for sharing the picks and your attitude is Glad to have you back sounds like you have a new spark to push it 2120 days ago

MRS.NG.06
I am SO glad to see you are doing okay despite the divorce, its time to dust ourselves off and get back into LIFE. I know ALOT of peeps dissapeared and the magically alot of them are coming back in August...including mysel and I'm glad to see you on board :D !

If there is a next time you overindulge in fast food, DONT hate yourself, FORGIVE yourself and move forward, getting upset over something that happens doesnt move us much does it? : ) xoxoox

NOPAYNENOGAIN
I was divorced young as well! Life seems to love handing good people bad situations! Best part of it all though, is the strength you gain and peace of mind you learn within yourself! Happy to see you back!2123 days ago

MILLER*TIME
so sorry about your divorce :( Glad to see you've bounced back though, you're definitely a strong woman. Keep surrounding yourself with positive people and you'll be just fine. By the way, your bf is a hottie! ;)2124 days ago

BILLALEX70
It's so weird that you just posted this. I just thought the other day that I hadn't seen anything from you in awhile.

I can totally relate to the life change...currently getting divorced myself. The stress has me eating myself cray. I know better, but just can't seem to stop. I've never given up on being here, but just for spinning the wheel and keeping up with people.

AEROGIRL1594
Wow, I love your pictures! You look absolutely stunning!! I know that you can get back into a healthy lifestyle! It might be sometime before you are in full swing, but I know that you can do it! Good luck girl!!xoxo,Emma2126 days ago

YESSICASUE
Wow, you look incredible! Its so great to see that you have made it through that tough time still strong and happy as ever...you are so inspiring and you have given me hope today :) take care 2126 days ago

THELILEA
Great to see you, girl! I'm sorry it's been a rough time for you... I can only imagine how stressful... but WOW you have gotten through so much, so beautifully! You look like you are are very happy with a lot of things about your life, so big congrats on making it through the changes! I see your spark, you still got it! :D Spark on!2126 days ago

CORKY982
I'm sorry to hear about the issues going on in your personal life, but judging from those pictures, girl you still look hot and you're still smiling! I always used to look at you for inspiration before when you were active on the site, and I still do. Keep it up :)2126 days ago