Sunday, June 29, 2008

uh-oh.. indeed, the truth is, i get that a lot. well, not directly spoken to me, but there are many pairs of eyes who look at me that way.. more than 5 years ago, that expression used to hurt me, but i soon learn that not everyone cares about things they don't experience first-hand..btw, my doctor & i didn't call my headaches migraines until last year..

so, about MIGRAINES..i got this link from the migraineur mailing list i subscribe to earlier this year. it proved to be helpful in motivating me for the past few months.. you know, especially when knowing the experience other migraineurs from all over the world and what they face.. like suffering from migraines for the past 40 - i repeat, FORTY - years.. and having a six - yes, SIX - year old child who start to have migraine attacks.. and living with a spouse who doesn't understand migraines and migraineurs..

experts said migraines are genetic things.. but i find no one in my family who suffer the same thing.. except that I'm quite worried about my younger brother Musa. he started to complain about headaches a couple of times since last year, and now he's frequently having back pains - which i too suffer from when i was a teen.

If you're reading this, someone close to you is a Migraineur, someone diagnosed with Migraine, a genetic neurological disease. Migraine is one of the most misunderstood, underdiagnosed and undertreated of all diseases. Unless you've experienced the pain and other debilitating symptoms of Migraine yourself, it is very difficult to comprehend. It is not an exaggeration to say that some people have committed suicide to escape the pain. In addition to the extreme head pain, Migraine can be accompanied by other symptoms including nausea, vomiting, dizziness, extreme sensitivity to light and sound, temporary loss of vision, inability to concentrate, difficulty in speaking/finding the right words, depression, panic attacks, and far more. The slightest movement can cause such pain that Migraineurs have described it as "an ice pick in my eye," "my head breaking into pieces," and "my brain exploding." To put it plainly, Migraine can be absolutely devastating.

Here are some basics about Migraine Disease that you should know:

Based on the most recent U.S. census statistics, Migraine Disease affects nearly 36 million people in the United States alone.

Migraines are NOT headaches. Migraine is a genetic neurological disease, similar in some ways to Epilepsy. The head pain of a Migraine attack is only one symptom of an episode of Migraine Disease, just as a seizure is only one symptom of an episode of Epilepsy.

Migraine Disease is NOT a psychological disorder. The Disease and all it's symptoms are neurological in origin and very, very real. Migraineurs are not neurotic, lazy, "high-strung," overly emotional, or faking. They are in very real pain and physical distress.

Not all doctors have the experience and knowledge to properly treat Migraine. Finding a doctor to properly treat Migraine is one of the most important, and sometimes most difficult, steps in treatment.

There is NO CURE for Migraine. Most Migraineurs, with the help of a qualified doctor, can find preventive regimens that will prevent many, but not all, Migraine attacks.

Migraine abortive medications such as Imitrex, Zomig, Maxalt, Amerge, Axert, DHE, and Migranal, do not work for all Migraineurs. It is sometimes very difficult to find medications that will relieve the pain and other symptoms of a Migraine attack.

Migraine attacks can be dangerous. If the pain of an attack lasts more than 72 hours with less than four pain-free hours while awake, it is termed Status Migrainousus, and puts the sufferer at increased risk for stroke. A Migraineur in Status Migrainousus needs immediate medical attention.

A Migraine attack can, in rare cases, actually be fatal. An otherwise healthy 21-year-old member of our community died of a Migrainous Stroke in November, 2001.

Migraine Disease can be disabling for some Migraineurs to the extent that they qualify for disability income or qualify for the Americans with Disability Act provisions. There are many whose Disease is so severe that doctors are unable to control the attacks, and the Migraineur is unable to work or participate in "normal" daily activities. When a Migraine attack strikes, most Migraineurs desperately need a dark, quiet place to lie down.

Migraine attacks can be triggered by many things:

Perfumes and fragrances from other sources are a very common Migraine trigger. If you live or work with a Migraineur, please refrain from wearing fragrances around them.

Each Migraineur's triggers vary. There are many other potential triggers. This list is just a beginning.

Stress is NOT a Migraine trigger. It is what is called an exacerbating factor that makes Migraineurs more susceptible to their triggers just as stress makes anyone more susceptible to the virus that brings on the common cold.

The Migraineur(s) in your life need your help and understanding. They need you to realize that they cannot help being ill, they are not "having headaches for attention," and they are sometimes unable to care for themselves. If they need medical attention, they need someone to take them and be with them. As well as being extremely painful physically, Migraine can be devastating emotionally and to relationships and careers. Since the disease is so misunderstood, Migraineurs often feel alone, isolated, and desolate. They also often feel guilty because they are not able to "be there" for their family and friends as much as they want to be and because they may have to miss days of work. The Migraineur(s) you know need not only your help with getting their medicines and any medical care they may need; they need your moral support every bit as badly. A good, solid support system is as important to Migraineurs as their health care teams. YOU are very important to them. That's why it's important that you understand Migraine.

If you have any questions or need more information, please email me at teri@helpforheadaches.com.

it has been nearly 8 years of suffering from migraines, and I'd really like to thank my beloved Ummi for everything.. for spending thousands of RM each year to help my headaches not to reach it's max - i believe that what i've experienced all these years are just a percentage of what other migraineurs are facing, and for trying her best to help me escape from being miserable..i have to admit that there are many times when i feel like giving up my meds bcoz they seemed to be either not working at all or at least my body somehow don't react positively after sometime, but Ummi keeps on encouraging me, like saying "take your medication RELIGIOUSLY" when i feel so tired of swallowing dozens of pills/med tablets each day..also i think it's not too early and not too late to say thanks to a particular someone who have been going into the mess of trying to understand migraines i guess for my sake.. remind me to take my meds everyday.. and always telling me to be patient and strong..of course, thanks to Dr. Kader too, who have been very patient with me although i'm not really religiously taking things as he prescribed for me.. i've not shown him my Headache Diary yet since early this year coz i've not had my 'medical visitation' for the past 4 months i guess..

and i am really, really sorry too for dragging all of you into my pain!

i have Microprocessor final exam this Monday. seriously, i have no confidence in facing the paper. the lecturer didn't post up the carry marks as he promised, and at the same time he said majority screwed up the mid-term exam. tak encouraging langsung! T__T

i hope I'll be doing Signals n Systems well.. i don't want to be over-confident with the not-so-high carry marks i have now.. i have to do my best, nsyaAllah, nsyaAllah!

well, actually, i found the hikmah of having some irritating 'shadows'. haha.. dok rumah boleh la cakap macam tu, senang nak lari -__-" takpe takpe, i should take the opportunity to study well. she proved to me that increasing the CGPA by point two (.2) isn't anything like near impossible.. yes, i thank her for that.so i have to prove my fellow engineering colleagues that having 'full-time - no worldly pay job' will nOt bring down my CGPA..

aaaaa... but i'm still nervous about my MicroP exam!!! O__o*and i'm getting exhausted fighting with some stressful headache since 9 days ago..ya Rabb i really need You to go thru this life..

Sunday, June 08, 2008

i heard gmail is having some server problem, so that's okay for the time being...

but for days already i can't even access my yahoomail - except from my bro's Mac!my bro said it must be too heavy - yeah, but not even 50% of the whole -what- 1 gig yahoomail (free) offer that my PC cannot load it..

-__-"sighh...

if i want to buy a mac, i'll have to wait for this PC to be at least 2 years old.. hmm.. but then i'll have to find my own $$$$ hehehh..