@RadiantEmber yeah I asked my bank a while back and with them my mother is considered “50-50 co owner” or something because of how the account started. So I can’t just tell them to take her off the account, she has to sign papers in person to remove her name from the account.

@RadiantEmber yeah... I think I’m going to work on that this weekend. I have a savings account that does not help me anymore because it keeps dropping below the minimum 😆 so I plan to open a new account and transfer that money over. Then hopefully in the nearer future (after a raise and maybe a second job?) I can move out and change bills and direct deposit over!

Heyo. Is it an enneagram 5 thing to not be able to verbally tell friends/family/significant others that you love them or like... trauma and past relationship/weird family dynamics??? Or like... should I just bring this up in counseling tomorrow...

So. Today I either don’t go to church to avoid the potential drama (that I myself would make from an over emotional reaction that would hurt more people than it would help) or I visit this cute little church made up of about 10+ older people who meet in a barn surrounded by cornfields.They are an Episcopal church and happen to have less of a focus on music and also are real casual. I visited once and it was very comforting.

Welp. I’ve been casually excommunicated from my church. But. They “still love me” and basically want me to change my “behavior”. Which. Is my believing the bible differently than them and being okay with LGBTQ people including in church leadership. And being okay with being bisexual. They made this decision today. And told me I won’t be leading this Sunday. Aka. Not leading tomorrow. After having put a lot into in the whole week. And. Years.

I am very tired of living a second life. Or a life that’s capped at a certain level. I can’t fully speak my mind, wear what I want, buy what I want, or be seen with certain people. It’s exhausting. Even when I do get to a space that allows me to be free for a while I’m constantly checking over my shoulder.

Hello. Yes. Why was my church’s version of purity culture extra rude and decide that I could not have cuddling?????? I have discovered that cuddling with a human I like is ver nice and I approve of it much. Is. So. Nice.Thank you. Have a nice day.

*tests microphone softly* *clears throat*“Um. Yes. Hello. I uh. Have a second date tomorrow. And. Uh. He is very nice. And um. We have been talking on the phone a lot and stuff. And we talk about all the complex and philosophical things and exchange memes and attempt to flirt via text sometimes. I think I like him.”

Welcome to today! I hope you have time to take a deep breath in and out and be reminded that you are pretty awesome to just be existing and stuff.And if you don’t have time or don’t what to do that, then that’s okay too. Here are some pretty flowers that are thinking about you.