Former home of Ranting and Raving, Charlotte-based writer Regan White has taken a turn as a recovering journalist. Continue to follow the antics, anecdotes, sarcasm and sentimentalism here.

August 31, 2010

I wish I was the moon tonight

"How will you know if you've found me at last? 'Cause I'll be the one, be the one, be the one with my heart in my lap." - Neko Case

First, an explanation (maybe two): A friend asked why the hell I posted the melted Hello Kitty. ("How is that pertinent?") It's true, I meant to post it when we still suffered from blistering heat and humidity earlier this summer. But i found the photo on my phone and wanted to post it before deleting. This friend also chided me for the brief photo and comment saying, "This isn't Twitter. It's a damn blog."

Well, then. My apologies!

To Snarky Dan: I've taken your suggestion of renaming the blog Regan in the Raw into consideration. There's still something inherently dirty in it that I'm not entirely comfortable with but i do think it's a rather solid name. A+, buddy. I have no prize. Maybe a coupon for a free medium, one topping pizza from Domino's.

Lately, I've been rather euphoric. As a friend recently told me, "Unemployment seems to suit you." This is probably true for most everyone. I still have an undercurrent of restless angst over my future, but all in all, last week i felt the best I have in decades. I've found myself smiling for no reason. I haven't done that in, maybe ever. Saturday was a rather unexpectedly quasi wild evening. It was lovely. Sunday was decidedly restful and full of family togetherness.

Today, however, had an entirely different flavor. It began with harried errands. My latte was tasty. I met up with a friend for lunch and a catch-up session. That too was lovely. I met up with another friend later in the day. We talked, our feet splashing in her granddaughter's baby pool. That too was lovely but left me with a sense of sadness later in the day. So many people have so many challenges. Some days life seems so much harder than others. Much like many people in my family, sometimes I'm an emotional sponge around my friends. This sponge can't take on any more water, my friends. ;)

My dogs have been pschotic since Eukanuba recalled all of its food due to some salmonella outbreak (before the egg situation happened). They've only eaten gluten-free fish and potato allergy-free dry food for 10 years. Introducing different gluten-free foods has kicked up some pretty powerful allergies in them. They're restless, hot and itchy, despite medicine and cortisone shots. Poor muffins. I made an emergency run to Petco late the other night just before closing to see if Eukanuba had restocked its supply yet (they hadn't). Returning home, an SUV on Highway 51 swerved around something. I swerved too, only to lookin my rearview mirror to see it was a cat which had been hit by a car right down the middle. It's top and bottom halves twitched and writhed in the lights of the oncoming cars. My windows were down. I heard sounds I never want to hear again. The thought of losing my dogs - who were refusing to eat at the time and fever-hot with allergy - already was heavy on my heart. Seeing that I started crying. It's stuck with me since. What a cruel world this is sometimes.

Wow, this post has been really uplifting, no? Packing for two weeks in Beantown. Rather, I should start packing but haven't begun yet. love to all!