Nov. 2014 This week I got an unexpected health diagnosis. It kind of knocked my socks off. It also took away my ability to make beads anymore. So I am changing my blog. I am sure I will write about beads sometimes. I have a whole studio to part with, but I have health issues that are much more important and I want to share my thoughts and challenges on this blog. I hope you will come along with me and share your words of wisdom or encouragement.

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Thursday, January 10, 2013

A BEAUTIFUL MESS INSIDE

Does anyone read her blog? I just found it about a week ago and love what she writes. She just wrote one on control,betrayal, and perfection, which was really helpful to me. Here's the link.http://www.abeautifulmessinside.com/ I still struggle with the betrayal thing. It makes me sad and gives me such a sense of loss. So many question, so few answers.
I'm leaving for Florida on Sunday. My mom was just diagnosed with breast cancer. She's 90 and up to this point has been living a great life, still driving, playing bridge, very active. Now she's going through chemo. She's already lost her hair and had terrible sores in her mouth and this was after just one treatment. My sister and I are going down to spend some time with her and meet her oncologist. The cancer is invasive and the chemo was my mom's choice because the cancer has a 70% cure rate. I don't know what I would do if I were in her situation, but I will honor whatever path she chooses.

On top of all of this my Honey Bunny has been diagnosed with prostate cancer. Because of his blood clotting disease he cannot have surgery. They are treating it with radiation and it has a 95% cure rate.

I'm a little overwhelmed these days, but I think all of us have a pretty good attitude. My bead mojo is on an extended leave of absence so I have taken up knitting. For whatever reason, I find it calming. The grandchildren keep me happy. I love being with them. One thing I've learned about life, in my soon to be 69 years, it is what it is.

1 comment:

Oh, Harriet. I think I knew about your DH (he friended me on FB - did you know that?) but if I knew about your mom (mine is 90 as well and still kicking)I forgot.Since I'm just reading your blog for the first time and this was posted last month, I hope your mom's situation has improved.

About Me

I am a retired registered nurse who began making beads in 1999. Before glass owned me I was a quilter and an oil painter. In Nov. of 2014 I learned that I have Idiopathic Pulmonary Fibrosis. I was advised by my pulmonologist to stop making beads immediately. He said that although he could not prove that beadmaking was responsible for my disease, inhaling the fumes and possible debis from glass making would only make things worse. Therre is no cure for IPF and I want to protect my lungs as much as I can. So I have moved on to different forms of art.