OMG what did I just do???!

...first of all, thanks to all of you!!.. I know that I am a really bipolar person, and therefore over reactions like this happen to me pretty often. I have to say that I already got way better in accepting my "bad days", but sometimes I still completely freak out about little things.

@ARCHIMEDESII: Your post really makes me wondering IF I have a serious problem... I know that I'm in a "dangerous" position, because of my ED-past. However, I feel like my actual problem is not the way I eat, but the way I often get a bit depressed, and the eating connected with my depressed-phases. I'm definitely thinking about getting professional help... Thank you so much for questioning the way I act...

@LILLIPUTIANNA: I feel like you exactly understand my problem. As a young adult/college student my body means a lot to me.I also think that A LOT, maybe even almost EVERY "teenager/young adult" doesn't think being healthy is "skinny enough"... YES, I want to be healthy, and that's one of the reason I use SP and don't just stop eating. But I also want to feel comfortable with how I look, and that's where my struggles begin. Another reason why I'm so critical about my weight right now is, because I'm going to go back home in 3 1/2 months. ALL of my friends, family and relatives expect that I gained weight, and even make jokes about it (before I left my friends were like: "haha we will pick you up at the airport and ROLL you out of the plane) Of course, my friends are just joking, but somehow I just don't want to be any "bigger" than I was before I left... Even if I didn't gain too much weight (because I already lost almost 10 again), I just want to prove them wrong....

BRITTTURTLE
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3/11/13 2:05 P

Everyone has setbacks. Don't beat yourself up about it!

LILLIPUTIANNA
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3/11/13 1:56 P

Beanbydesign,

While I agree with you that this sort of behavior is disordered, Jill is from Switzerland. If you've ever lived in Europe, you'll know that this sort of reaction to weight gain/loss is fairly typical.

I was teased the entire time I was in Europe for being "chubby." I weighed 110 pounds.

It's a different culture with different expectations and approaches to weight loss and maintenance.

As others have already noted, you don't have to work out for 2.5 hours a day to lose weight and be healthy. If you're new to regular exercise, you should slowly ease into a routine so that your exercise will become just that, a routine. If you want to take the weight off and keep it off, you need to be active in some way for your entire life, not the amount of time it takes to lose the weight. In short, exercise should be sustainable. If you do too much too soon, you're at risk for injury, fatigue and burn out.

As far as the peanuts and chez-its... I have only one piece of advice and it's this,"Don't look at good health or weight loss with an all or nothing mentality". If the only healthy thing you did for yourself today was drink 8 glasses of water, that's still a step in the right direction.

Good health isn't "all or nothing". It's about making some simple changes to our lives we can stick with. So, don't beat yourself up because you ate some chez-its. As the old song goes,"accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative". Give yourself credit for the POSITIVE things you do for yourself and don't beat yourself up because you're not perfect. You don't have to be perfect to be healthy.

Jill, this is at least your third or fourth post on this board indicating both that you're engaging in some fairly extreme weight loss behaviors, and that you're experience extreme distress that interferes with your daily life over your weight and weight-related issues. I truly think a consultation with a counselor or psychologist with experience treating individuals with disordered eating and body-image issues would be in your best interests, based on your posting history here. Your extreme reactions to every little hiccup, and your completely unrealistic expectations for yourself, are problematic.

When you workout for more than 60 minutes, it really is not a bad idea to have a snack of carbs and protein (say Greek yogurt and fruit or string cheese and fruit) as soon as you are done. The reason, working out for more than an hour depletes a large amount of your glycogen (stored carbs in your muscles and live) stores, therefore your body needs to begin replenishing them so that you will be ready for your next workout.

Studies have shown that the the body's insulin sensitivity is at an all-time high immediately following exercise. This is a good thing as the insulin helps to usher in the glucose into the cell. Add a little protein to your snack and you begin repairing the damage muscles which will help aid in your recovery.

While many people are reluctant to eat back some of the calories they just burned remember our bodies are controlled by hormones (insulin, cortisol, ghrelin and leptin being some of the big ones) and when we eat after a workout, it does help keep everything in check.

As you discovered, when you work out that much your body is going to demand more fuel and if you do not account for this by planning ahead then this can lead to binging issues. That being said, what is done is done. You can't change what happened but you can set into place action steps so that next time you won't turn to the junk. This is just one moment and if you dwell on this one moment you may find the guilt and shame more paralyzing which may not allow you to move on.

Today started soooo good!! The scale and other measurements showed that I'm making progress, and I worked out for 2 1/2 hours!! I ate a lot of protein and fruits all day long, and felt just sooo good and healthy.. and than I had to study for math......aaaand I discovered peanuts and cheez-its... I ate soooo much!!! I still tracked it, even I was scared because of all the calories and fat I just ate...but that made me literally hating myself!! I'm soo mad!! Is there a chance, when I eat healthy and work out a lot, that I won't "see" today's mistake when I weigh myself in five days?? aaaaah what should I do??! I feel like I would KNOW what to do to avoid binges like this.... but today I just couldn't stop....

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