Letters I'll Never Send

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You texted me back.. yes. Finally I get a text back from you after all these months ignoring me. Even though I was drunk while I texted you, and I had no idea I was doing it, I am glad it happened.

me: Nick you can’t hate me, you know why? Because it’s our senior year and I think we should act like adults. We have to many good times to hate each other you know? I know ive been stupid and shit, but it stops you know?
Nick: Ya we have had some good times but we have also had a lot more drama. After awhile its just not fun anymore.
me: Ya I know what you mean.. well sorry for being drama. Trust me if there’s anyone who hates drama its me.. even though i’m apart of it 24.7. I really am sorry though.
Nick: Ya I know, even when were all sorry its only like two weeks before something happens.
Me: Well trust me i’m done with drama. I just want to have it like old times when we would just have fun. So I hope you can forgive me.
Nick:okay
Me: So we cool then? You can’t just leave me hanging bro 🙂
Nick: ya

So this conversation kind of got me thinking.. Does this mean he has truly forgiven me or is he just trying to get rid of me? Why didn’t I stick up for myself more? To stroke his ego while you tear yours down? I wish I would have said..
Yu know what nick, I like you. A lot. And you calling me drama is making it a lot easier for me to tell you to fuck off. I didn’t do anything to you, I didn’t start shit. Yes we all make mistakes and I’ve made plenty. But i’m not going to sit here and let you put this all on me. It takes two to make a relationship work. So if I was the one causing “Drama” then I must have been the only one who was trying in this god damn relationship. I like you nick, but im not going to deal with your bullshit. Your better than this.”
I wish I would have said that..
But I cant afford for my heart to feel that pain. Does this mean things will go back to normal or do I have to wait? Cause there isn’t that much time. So.. we cool bro?