no you guys, nothing helps. I just wait if I get lucky before 30 and get happyness, if not... then it's over and done.

By "lucky" i mean at the right place at the right time I would suddenly see things and know what I'm gonna do.

I don't know about your life but life is tough and you should see problems as something you have to face and overcome, there's not such a thing as a perfect-happy life. But you can be close if you valorate what you have, and yes I know it sounds like a fucking cliche, but I hope you will find that's true. Good luck

I swear I have thought about doing that for the past couple of weeks... no real courage to do that yet though.

what the wrong with you ? you're a handsome man you should fuck girl , get a job or go to college to have a better job and that's mean a better life.you still young , and the thundersome want you to be the next groink