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I only thought it polite to (re)introduce myself to you good folks, seeing as it's been over two years since I've last posted here. I had thought about those members I had been friends with, during the last two years, and hoped you were well.

I must be honest and say that I left because I didn't want to lose my belief in God. Having discussed various topics about ID, creation, Christianity and evolution on the forum, I could 'see' how atheism was a possibility and I felt a 'bleakness' of life, that I hadn't felt before. I didn't want there to not be a God, and I still don't. I dug my head in the sand and went back to flirt with Christianity and try to really 'believe' in it properly. I got baptised, went to meetings regularly. Did a bit of street preaching one day (well it amounted to handing out a few leaflets!!) and yet the doubts remained. My dad became terminally ill not long after this, and in my greatest hour of need, God didn't seem to draw near at all. I've more or less given up trying to 'contact' God (or rather the God of the bible). I still believe in an Intelligent Designer (and evolution).

If there's one thing I learned on here, you can't be content and at peace with yourself if you place 'feelings' over 'facts'. I'm still prone to do this unfortunately.

I look forward to continuing my pursuit of truth with the help of this community. Sorry I chickend out for a while there.....

9th August 2011, 13:06 (This post was last modified: 9th August 2011, 13:06 by Rhythm. )

Welcome back. Caught you in chat a couple days ago. If you ever need a little help with that "bleakness" I can point you to a variety of reasons not to feel that way. After all, the real world is a really beautiful place.

“I can’t even go to a goddamn potluck without having to thank some space fairy for the broccoli casserole!” -Trae Crowder

I'm lovin the honesty I read in the post. I'm definitely a subscriber to laying it all out on the table.

Welcome back!

By the way, many of us have felt the way you do. Bleakness tends to go on its merry way when you realize that without religion hampering your decisions, you are completely and totally free to make your life whatever you want it to be. Stop worrying about dying and enjoy living.

"In life you can never be too kind or too fair; everyone you meet is carrying a heavy load. When you go through your day expressing kindness and courtesy to all you meet, you leave behind a feeling of warmth and good cheer, and you help alleviate the burdens everyone is struggling with."
Brian Tracy