When it comes to women; Im still waiting around for someone to rescue me! why?; Im still sick! However, part of me is getting the message that I have to go places and meet new people; and accept who I am! Im learning how to stand in front of a women and just stand their while she's looking at me; its unbelievably hard because I want to sleep with all of them; it sucks! Its really funny and difficult! . Im get turned on by little things in women; their make up; eye shadow, that Egyptian look on their colored thick eye lids! I love pumps and I really love women with sexy finger nail polish! Drives me crazy! '. The point is; I need more practice standing in front of women and looking at them in the eyes and not being able to run away and having to learn to be funny while Im looking at them and being real! and being vulnerable! .So, I have to wake up to this! Get more practice!