Dreams and visions about eating disorders, anorexia, fasting, hunger and starvation, compulsive eating, bulemia, addiction to junkfood, allergenic foods or downright toxic foods... Most of my own dreams here involve anorexia, since I suffered from it for several years--an atypical form in which I didn't fast or try to lose weight (indeed I tried hard to keep my weight up) but simply felt no hunger and had to force myself to eat.

For eating disorders of any kind, I recommend Overeaters Anonymous. At least here in San Francisco, along with their regular groups for the overweight they host support groups for anorexics and bulemics. Physically meeting a whole room of people like me and comparing their energy to mine showed me the psychological and spiritual aspects in a way no doctor or shrink (or online support group) could ever give me.

Not all the dreams here pathologize eating or not eating. Fasts can be a legitimate health and spiritual practice. But...

ANOREXIA NIRVANA: by Wayan; 1993, a digital picture-poem of astral temptation.
I was anorexic for years; I only mastered it when I saw it was a hunger for the spirit world...

AWAKENING HURTS: by Wayan; 1993/7/4, a dreamtale.
An old friend's awakening from anorexic asexuality. Puberty at 30? And wait a minute... is she me?

BAGHEERA SUGGESTS LOVAGE: by Wayan; 1993/7/31, a Jungle Book dream
The panther in the Jungle Books was really female. I grew up with her cub...

A BIKE ODYSSEY: by Wayan; 1994/7/24, a day trip echoed in a dream.
By day, I bike across San Francisco; by night, I'm an abused English heiress with a dangerous artifact...
CAUTION: MOLESTATION BY DISSOLUTE COUNT

BILL COSBY'S WIFE: by Wayan; 1994/5/5, an insulting dreamtale.
I'm Bill Cosby's wife, finding it hard to cook for him without a stove or fridge...
CAUTION: SLANDER, I HOPE

BONK VERONICA: by Wayan; 1997/4/1, 9 page dream-comic (1.3Mb)
The world's first all-bulemic band, Veronica and the Vomits, provokes a riot at our local punk club. So I go to Anorexic Bootcamp and join an army of models learning self-defense under fire, as calories and fat jokes whiz by...
CAUTION: BARF, HORNY ANOREXIC, FOOD FIGHT

A CONVERSATION WITH ANOREXIA: by Wayan; 1994/6/25; two wild shamanic dreams.
That day I read Hilde Bruch's "Conversations with Anorexics" and face the fact I am one.That night, in the land where anorexic horses heal, I enter the Kiva of Shamanic Pamphlets, and...

DARE TO BE FAT!: by Wayan; spinoff picture from a 1997/8/20 dream.I was an anorexic fox-girl, till this phrase galvanized me. Now I pump iron and eat what I like, and...

DEER AND SANDSTORM: by Wayan; 1993/3/17, a pre-fever dream.
I'm in a hotel by the Great Salt Lake. Deer roam the halls and lap at the drinking fountain...

DOCTOR WHO AND DEATH: by Wayan; 1984/6/30, a hopeful dream of betrayal.
Dr Who, that BBC perennial, allies with Death. An alarming turn-around! What's he up to?
CAUTION: NICE ALIEN GOES BAD?

DOPPELBRUDER: by Wayan; 1985/5/9, a dream of a self at war over... labels?
Lured to a parallel, feudal world by a marriage-vow, I'm trapped in my double's arrogant, twisted mind...

EAT MORE FIBER: by Wayan, 1996/8/8, a nutritious little dream.
Concerned about my health, I up my fiber intake. But not from the usual sources, though...
CAUTION: BAD DIETARY ROLE MODEL

EEL TOWER: by Wayan; 1981/4/23, a dream of longing.
I dreamed living in a body of flesh is like being trapped on a sinking cruise ship...
CAUTION: NUDITY (but she's just crying, not giving that guy a blowjob, okay?)

FIRST DATE: by Wayan; 1991/10/20, a true story.
I have weird, bad luck around dating. Finally I go on a picnic with Page, and the Great Fire begins...

FLOWERING:: by Wayan; 1996, pencil digitally tinted; nondream portraits.
Sketches from a San Francisco street music festival where, after a long sleep, I woke up sexually at last...
CAUTION: NYMPHETS, QUEERS, AND OTHER REAL PEOPLE

FLYING UNICORNS' GIFTS: by Lily Michaud; 2007/9/5, an advice-dream inside a flying dream
Flying unicorns hang out with me and my friends, sending us dreams full of useful advice--and more concrete gifts...

FREAKY DREAM, or, HEART IN MY STOMACH: by Ratiries Steelclaw; c. 2004/3/30, a dream comic
I felt like my heart was in my stomach. My friend Lyx opened me up and confirmed it was. She scolded me for eating it...
CAUTION: URP

GANDHI RUNS: by Wayan; 1997/8/1, a fusion dream.
Gandhi and I must run barefoot across a burning racetrack miles wide... the Ascetic Desert?

GIFTED CHILDREN NEED...: by Wayan; 1980/8/6, a journal extract on geniuses.
Advice of a specialist on the care and feeding of child prodigies, embarrassingly relevant for adult geniuses...

GLASS EATER: by Wayan; 1982/12/10, a dream on managing ESP.
I live in an asylum for fragile psychics. When one man over-uses his talent, he compulsively eats glass...
CAUTION: DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME

HARD DISK POND: by Wayan; 1989/8/27, a dream of art as a door.
We build a huge hard disk that's a virtual pond--a gate to other worlds! But not for reptile brains...

THE HERBIVORE'S EXCEPTION: by Wayan; 1999/12/6, a dream of snapping.
A beautiful herbivore suddenly eats one of its friends! Bloody. Who or what is this warning me about?...
CAUTION: YUCK, MEAT REALLY IS MURDER

I LOST 400 POUNDS!: by Wayan; 1993/6/24, a motivational dream.
A gorgeous healer bursts through the wall to tell me "I used to weigh 500 pounds. It kept sex away! But..."

THE ICE CREAM KISS: by Wayan; 1993/11/27, an uncomfortable dream.
I'm Joe Leaphorn, in (of all places for a Navaho detective) a coven in San Francisco watching a creamy...

IN THE STAR; 1988/9/12 by Wayan; an epic, out-of-body, intrastellar quest-dream
I tour the heart of a red supergiant, where dreaming souls explore their heart's desires unconstrained by matter...
CAUTION: SWEDENBORGIAN VISON PLUS NUDE UNICORNS AND LEMURS

THE INVISIBLE SULKY: by Wayan; 1995/9/20, a dream on resistance.
I feel a drag, and take off my safety belt. I find I've been towing an invisible buggy with two men in it...

LEARNING SCALES: by Wayan; 1985/6/26, an epic dream of Chinese dragons.
I find myself in astral China. The Empress is banished, the Jester rules. Wisdom is lost. We need a Dragon...

LOVE OR HATE?: by Wayan; 1994/5/4, an untwisted dream.
My sister and I are groping toward sex when our mom bursts in. Her scolding's not what I expect...
CAUTION: INCEST ISSUES, PSYCHOLOGICAL COMPLEXITY

A NIGHT ON MOUNT DIABLO: by Wayan, 1984/6/8, an allegorical four-phase dream.
I'm attacked by a narcissist firebird, a rabid rattler-manticore, a masochist bear, and a sexless succubus...
CAUTION: INEPT DEMONS

ON BEING NEEDY/NEEDED: by Roswila; February 2002, a dream-poem
In her kitchen she offers me shortcake. She's short herself, for she gives her all to everyone--only a bodiless head is left...

PEGASUS: by Wayan; 1991. Digital "woodblock print" of recurring dreamfigure.
This strong slender mare is how most of my flying dreamhorses look: a practical lot, they know...

PULLED UNDER: by Wayan; 1976/4/15, a nightmare.
One by one, we're pulled under the water, the earth... eaten. That's the fate of all flesh. And we're flesh.
CAUTION: HORROR

THE ROYAL NONESUCH: by Wayan; 1988/4/15, a dream on the media.
My mom and sister take me to see a bondage film. But the movie steals my pants! I should have known...
CAUTION: WORSE THAN PEEWEE HERMAN

STARVATION?: by Wayan; 1995/8/28, a journal extract on body image.
On a poster of a model who's around my weight, someone's scrawled STARVATION IMAGERY...
CAUTION: DEFENSE OF SKINNY PEOPLE

STICKY FINGERS: by Wayan; 1997/4/18, a dream on self-judgment
A woman masturbates constantly at work, then greets businessmen with her hot sticky handshake...
CAUTION: SEX

STORM WARNING: by Wayan, 1993/3/17, surreal comic of an atmospheric dream
Thirsty deer invade the hall. Children play in the dunes encroaching on the city. Will those ominous red clouds drop rain or sand?...

STRYCHNINE FORGIVENESS: by Wayan; 2008/3/31, a diagnostic nightmare
I meet a woman on an oxcart who's sure we all want to poison her--but that's made her forgiving, even noble...
CAUTION: MADNESS

SUCKER!: by Wayan; 1990? Crayon, 12" square. Health reminder..
I was anorexic for years before I found I was allergic to many foods--I had good reason not to eat!...

WARIA: by Wayan; 640 x 450, 1989, digital image based on a 1987/3/23 dream.
My life was a sex disaster. I made myself ugly and sick. But then one night I dreamed I found a healer...
WARNING: NUDITY

WASTE: by Wayan; 100K, 1990/5/15, a desert singles poem, 11 images.
A road trip through New Mexico mutates into a tour of my relationship disasters...

WERE-COMPOSER: by Wayan; 1995/2/15, a trashy dream.
I help a brilliant, starving composer turn his family curse into a profitable business...

THE WORK OF POWER: by Anna Kingsford; Dec. 1880, a wildly uncompromising dream-sermon
A dream telling how to acquire mystic power: no sex, meat, alcohol, or cooked food; just meditate in rural solitude...
CAUTION: EXTREMISM

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