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Tag: always remember

Looking back 20-25 years back into my mind palace of the younger me – just for fun or to just check how far I have arrived in the true/correct direction, I do not feel very different or overwhelmed in any happy/sad way.

I remember as a 10 year old wanting to be good, I wanted to excel, compete & come first in Sports, Theatre, painting, studies, being loved, looking smart, etc. etc.
So yeah wanting to be best in short!

As I grew & figured out a way to do graduation, PG, job – I realised different meanings of being best or successful or happy – they were a lot more Convoluted & Grey! I also realised the importance of having different perspectives & respecting all while peacefully keeping your point of view or beliefs without hurting others.

I learnt to bring a lot more from your inner self not just in terms of physical strength, talents, mental capability but something bigger & eternal – your INNER SELF which is difficult to describe & explain but the one who connects to it & listens to it always is a WINNER throughout. I realised it is more important to give than to receive, that one has to ultimately LetGo everything for everything to eventually come back to him/her.

I learnt that it is critical to be more positive, warm, smiling, energetic, motivated, friendly everyday basis & keep your darkness/distractions/sadness/confusions at bay. The few questions that tend to keep honking will get answered on its own.

I realised happily that there is so much beauty in this world to explore via music, food, places, photography, dance, movies, people, art, architecture, history, etc. etc. They are like museums to go & take a walk & come back feeling so much better & learned.

Most importantly I have learned the value of Patience – of having an endless supply of it in all times – good & bad. The ones I love & admire have abundance of it & have benefitted from it time & again. Life has taught me its importance even if I have few miles to cover in mastering its art.

Health & delving into its science has come as another big reminder.

Am not sure how proud & happy the 10 year old Misha would be by looking at Today’s Misha but she would sure be fascinated at the journey travelled so far by her older version with so many artefacts that were beyond the imagination of her younger version. But beyond anything she will pat today’s Misha’s back that she has managed to be the same honest & simple human being true to herself despite all odds! 100/100 for that 🙂

This is how I would like to see this stage as – Consolidating my health, work, personality amongst all priorities.

Work – its going rather well so far (touchwood) with UX & Digital Business responsibilities & got an amazing Boss to interact daily with as a friend, mentor, guide.

Health – Solid effort going in here & do not want this to get impacted in any way. Reduced frame-size, increased strength, stamina, daily workout sessions with right set of positive & vibrant people is extremely helpful.

Personality – I have been wanting to become a more calm, controlled, serene, fewer words, more giving, letting go person for some time now. I am glad to say that I do see with time, people, efforts – things are moving in that direction.

Household responsibilities along with eating habits – This was a major cause of worry in my case as I was quite lazy & careless like a (tom) boy towards this. However with time, effort & people again – I have learnt to take care of these things as they are extremely crucial to lead a happy & balanced life. Now I eat, sleep on time – somehow if I can change the food at office – it will be perfect.

Friends/People/Family – With maturity & experience, I have learnt to appreciate the kind of people I want to have around me while keeping others at bay. Gone are the days when I used to get confused among friends, situations & used to find myself gasping for escape. Glad to have found more solace here – Finding my Man is the only gap waiting to be fulfilled.

My startup/business – Having my own Digital Consultancy is what has come as an ideal solution for me – Let us see if I do this or something else. The school + studio + organic farm + yoga retreat house Dream also awaits. Refinement is awaiting & other pieces waiting to fall into place.

Travel/Photography – This is the only spot I feel am not doing 100% justice to given the amount of travel & clicking I used to do till 1 year back when every week I would just take off locally and every 2-3 months some place out. However, this piece is also getting consolidated now by pushing me into doing only great memorable trips solo or with 1 or 2 people I really wish to be with. Am sure my clicking results have grown & will continue to amaze everyone!

Lazying on a weekend & spending time with yourself at leisure & peace is one of the best gifts time has to offer I believe. Doing nothing is extremely important to make you do great at something!

Rooney Mara – the lady who impressed me over last 3-4 days after I saw Carol. I saw the movie as someone at work recommended me it to be a great watch but a huge snub by Award ceremonies.So I decided to give it a watch interested to know what on earth this ‘snub’ really is?
I loved the movie every bit so much that I have seen it 2 times more in bits & pieces (the rushing me..) and plan on watching it more. Its that feeling where you have experienced the best in cinema & everything else seems ordinary or dreary in front of it [withdrawal symptoms].

What I loved was the purity of love shown in a story – how flowing, natural, poetic, beautiful, enigmatic, poignant, justified it was to see two woman falling in love with each other & wanting to be together. Nothing was rushed into or forced into – everything seemed right even going against the law of that times, breaking homes, etc.
When you see something out of blue that makes you wanna have a better life or more truthful life or more love in your life, be a better person, gives you more perspective & hence it makes you sit up & delve into more layer by layer.
Same is happening to me as a process.

Cate Blanchett is a legend in her rights – she’s one of the few Hollywood actresses who has given great movies consistently in different genres & established herself as a sure shot powerhouse.
But who in the world is Rooney Mara, was my basic question – I had heard about her previous roles in Dragon girl and social network but not taken note (my loss), but she has won me over so much that I wanna be like her in many ways now.

Its stupid but I love how she communicates effortlessly without doing much, I love how honest she is on camera without being overpowering in any way. She seems nice, indifferent, intelligent, so evenly balanced, steady, non judgemental, sweet, innocent with warmth for right moments. How enigmatic & poignant she is is another great detail. I do feel I can be a lot better person by emulating her more in my life.

Thank You Carol, Cate Blanchett, Toddy Hynes & Rooney Mara!

So I hope to remember to emulate Rooney a lot more by speaking less & observing more & letting my work do the talking.

I wanted to write about a different topic in here but decided that the above title encompasses a bigger message hence let me write more comprehensively about the importance of letting Go!

I wanted to write about how many wrong people or right people in wrong situations I have come across starting from some very wrong friends I trusted to some selfish relatives I invested to some negative & weak colleagues.
How I look at them now when I find myself much better placed emotionally, mentally and financially is quite interesting – I feel that in every fairytale there has to be a witch, a demon which needs to be fought with the same positive spirit to arrive at your destination.

Being sensitive & shy in my approach towards strangers and even more sceptical in establishing relationships but once trusted I believe in giving everything – it was difficult to learn the lessons the trial & error way but very valuable forever.

The biggest lesson I learnt was to Let go! Letting Go in every respect – forget, forgive & wish them luck with true heart. Let them achieve their own destiny – what it will be is to be decided by them on their own.

The lesson of Letting Go is not only applicable here but in bigger tasks as well – in achievement of your bigger goals in life. Its simply put as Gita says – do your job & don’t expect results as that’s not your job.

Just let go truly from your heart & everything will fall into place – but don’t expect things if the effort has not been done from your side. The secret of understanding the balance between these two contradictory actions is very critical.Even once you truly understand it – it requires constant & conscious practice/effort to apply it in your daily lives.

But once you do – the results are to be seen in everything – your work life, personal life, your personality, your face, the way you talk, etc. everything.

Here’s wishing all of us truly achieve it in every way possible and every facet of life.

There is an old charm to the old world – very difficult to describe it, its something you feel. Its hidden deep and many a times marked by the dogmas of hindrance, inertia, not giving in however once these are set a side you find a deep aroma of peace, love, warmth, compassion, nostalgia and attachment – my growing up years in smaller cities & working in rural areas have given me something to cherish forever.

It is very different from the modern world where everything is out in the open & too much expressed or exposed where kids grow up too soon & know everything too well before they should.

It is a world where kids like Swami grow up – oblivion to the real world and only worrying about their mango trees, summer holidays & friends sprees. It is a world where kids truly dream in the night and wonder if that can be really achieved.

This world also has tough times and especially has tough people, situations and heartbreaking/disillusioning/dark phases. But that is how a true person of matter is made.

It is a beautiful world where trees are green, birds & butterfly fly free, rain,heat,winter come in shared proportions where a smile is met with a genuine smile and a Hi with a courteous Hello.
It is a Good World My Friend.

Dedicated to my Mom, Dadi & Naniji – who taught me how to appreciate the beauty of those little things.

(Just thought of this while going through Pandeymonium – autobiography of Piyush Pandey & especially his childhood chapter, the only person I feel truly knows Marketing in Indian Consumer Commercial Space)