Right
now
I'm
crying
for
a
reason
that
I
haven't
been
sad
about
in
years.
I
hate
growing
up.
I
want
to
little
again
and
innocent.
Ive
always
dreaded
getting
older,
even
when
I
was
a
kid
I
wanted
to
stay
a
kid.
I
want
to
be
little
and
have
my
parents
take
care
of
me
like
they
used
to.
I
keep
feeling
like
I'll
never
make
it
as
an
adult,
I
dont
want
to
be
on
my
own
sometimes.
I
wish
with
all
my
heart
that
I
could
be
8
again
and
not
have
a
care
in
the
world.
Not
know
about
all
the
things
out
there,
everything
that
I've
seen....
I
want
to
erase
my
memory
so
I
can
be
happy.
I
felt
like
a
child
today
because
my
mom
scold
me
in
church
to
part
attention
and
I'm
slowly
trying
to
rebel.
But
after
I
was
already
close
to
tears,
and
she
asked
me
why
an
I
crying,
and
whats
wrong.
That
triggered
me
to
completely
break
down
in
front
of
her,
and
my
bro.
I
just
let
it
all
out.
She
tried
to
comfort
me
by
telling
me
to
ask
god
for
help....
I
wanted
to
say
that
god
has
nothing
to
do
with
why
I'm
like
this,
but
I
just
told
her
that
my
emotions
have
been
so
intense
lately.
But
after
that
she
was
a
little
more
kind
to
me,
I
was
felling
sad
all
day,
until
I
took
a
nap.
When
I
get
sad
I
like
to
take
naps,
because
I
usually
wake
up
slightly
happier.
But
just
thinking
about
the
moment
I
broke
down,
makes
me
was
to
be
young
again.
Damn...
I
wish
I
could
go
back
in
time.
I
can't
even
really
remember
most
of
my
childhood.
It
such
a
blur....
I
want
to
do
it
again.
Sometimes
I
feel
like
I
never
was
a
child.