Wednesday, January 05, 2011

Saturday, November 06, 2010

I got back from India in April of 2007 after spending time at an ashram in the presence of a guru and quite a few spiritual seekers from all over the world. There I started channeling a sound. Just a sound and I first start channeling it when I was doing a healing session with a singer in the Lower east side. I was a bit hesitant about making the sound during the healing session out of fear that it would distract her from her healing and she would consider it to be an awful sound that would be grating on her ears. Up until that point I had never really been a good singer in any traditional sense of the word and had been told by a few people that I was perhaps tone def or didn't sing the tone right and I sang too much from my throat etc... all the things that you could do wrong. But this sound was raw and pure and I let it fly and she described it as a heavenly sound. Being that she sang for a living I took this as a good sign. I then proceeded to make this sound quite frequently sometimes to avert or break up altercations be they physical or verbal. I have also used it to quickly silence a room of any type. Some people seem to respond strongly to this sound while others seem almost not to hear or notice it at all. Other people feel that it is impossible that this sound could come from a human being and that I must have some sort of device on my person.

Even though I often attributed this sound channeling from spending time in an ashram in India in 2007 the first time I made the sound was on Duval street in Key West Florida with a young man I had met who had just gotten out of Jail for some sort of trespassing. Basically he was in jail because he was poor and stayed in some house where there was nobody residing. As he joined me in making this sound I noticed that it had a powerful reaction on the people we were walking by, it was like the equilvalent of some sort of dog whistle. This day was some type of harmonic convergence of planetary alignment. I am not that intellectually knowledgable of planetary alignments, I just know it was November of 2003 and I did not make the sound again consistently until getting back from India in 2007. In fact other than that one night I believe there to have been a four year lay over between the first time and the 2nd time. Details are sometimes hazy, but this is as accurate as I can recall it to be.

I have nicknamed this sound the supersonic love boom which sounds like some sort of Tibetan bowl or to some the sound made for the emergency broadcasting system or some sort of feedback sound. People have stood next to me while I was making it and still not believed that it came thru me. And some moments I would go to make the sound and nothing would come out it was as if there was not the space for the sound to come forth. I have found friends new and old just by making this sound. I make other sounds but this one particular sound has an intensity and ability to piercingly cut through any other sounds. My theory is that it is a sound that exists at a celluar level in the body and certain people have a strong sensitivity to this frequency. I have seen people on a few occasions begin to cry or even sob uncontrolablely for reasons neither they nor I could explain. It is something that I have become used to. So on some level I don't find it weird or strange in anyway for me to make it, it is a normal occurrence. But I was inspired to write this because when I was at Rainbow today this girl behind me in line started telling me how tall I was. She seemed quite drawn to me and as I am not being one for small talk I instinctively made the sound and held it for about 20-30 seconds without wavering. She was intensely shaken and walked by me as I sat eating my bag of Uncle Eddie's cookies. I felt that she would sit down next to me, but she kept walking despite being shaken by the experience, but she did quickly come back and ask if she could sit with me and then offered me coconut water (0ne of my favorite drinks). She talked to me about what was going on in her life and afterwards told me she felt much calmer. I know this on some level is nothing short of remarkable or at least highly strange, but for me it is a completely normal occurrence that I felt compelled to share with whoever happens to read this blog. And to a skeptic or cynic it is just a sound.... and on some level of course they are completely correct about their assessment, but it is a sound I love to make and afterwards there is a deafening silence that reigns which I enjoy more deeply then the sound itself.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Ultimately our heart is inside of us and it goes wherever we go, but I still love that song about leaving your heart in San Francisco. I bet a lot of people feel that way about the city or somebody they left behind. Or maybe somebody that was pulled away from them because it wasn't quite the right time. How much time it will be remains unknown, but nomads have a tendency to keep moving until they don't move. I am not against being in one place and having more of a traditional job, even then I will be doing my spiritual work. Yet there is some wandering left to do, but perhaps a home base will form soon enough. I am forever pursing my intuition/inner voice as best as I can, I feel my calling and I must follow it and when I am not in alignment with it I feel a sense of anguish or frustration. One of the great lessons I have had is to continue deepening my acceptance for things that I can not change. I find that there is an unseen hand guiding me and it will initially push me very gently and if I don't abide by it then it will get much firmer in order to push me to be more in alignment with my life's purpose. We are all travelers even when we stay put in one place there is great opportunity to wander through the cosmos as we find a greater depth to our meditation which intensifies and enhances the texture of all that we experience. We remain deeply present for this experience we call life and we are deeply dedicated to the upliftment of ourselves and of those around us. Sometimes it brings us back to places that we have been before to see people that we have seen before as both of us are at a different point of transition. Life is perpetual transition or the bardo as the Tibetans would call it. We have an opportunity to take a leap into a new realm beyond form into the formless. We find ourselves drawn to certain people because they are reflections of us both good and bad and neither good or bad. They are just merely an aspect of divinity/consciousness and our time on the planet gives us an opportunity to purify ourselves and deepen our awareness beyond form and thought. We all must go beyond form and thought. Certain places and people, due to our karma, act as an external force a pressure that turns the coal within us into the diamond that we truly are and have always been, yet our lack of sight has obstructed us from seeing this deeper truth. Seeking truth internally more and more yet most of us need experiences in the world so that we are pushed to be drawn closer to God.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

I dream of bright colors beyond what I have seen on this realm and a dream of an understanding that goes beyond words and never gets misconstrued. I dream of direct honesty and willingness to sacrifice for the greater good for humanity as the only way to live. I dream of people from all walks of life coming together to find their common bond and realize that what is common is truly fantastic. I dream of multi-colored water falls. I dream that everybody ends up with the soul that will most help them to evolve. I dream of creative expression coming from all souls at any moment without a moments hesitation. I dream of blazing blueish white flame that removes the hurts that have been buried deep in the mind. The hurts that keep people bound to things, habits, and other people that no longer serve them. I dream of an even mindedness approach to all that I encounter.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

I find myself in San Francisco because sometimes things are set in motion, but take a few years to come to fruition. Sometimes, we don't fully understand why we are so drawn to somebody. We just know that we are drawn to them and sometimes we are very different people in how we view things and yet there is this pull that goes against what some would call better judgment. And sometimes people would say it is doomed to fail, but what does failure even mean. What qualifies as success. Sometimes they tell you that you know that this can't go anywhere, but it doesn't have to go anywhere because there the both you are. It is in between somewhere and nowhere and it isn't supposed to happen for so many countless reasons, but it is happening and lessons are being learned and new thoughts are being formed and considered. Veils are put and removed walls fall and are brought back up like the tides coming in and out. And there seems to be alot of coming in and out and the ego's fight for control and the souls push to get beyond its identity and both people have chosen each other to be pushed whether they realize it or not. Just the other person's mere existence pushes the other person in ways that would seem difficult to conceive and the pushing happens because both people interact with the world in such different ways conflict is destined to arise around every corner yet there is some sort of satisfaction that both people get from the experience otherwise why enter into anything at all. And perhaps both people are drawn to each other because they know the other is unavailable and on some level they want to convince the other to become available just in case they changed their mind and perhaps they are what the other has been looking for and yet, it is too hard to admit because if they were to come together their lives would change dramatically. Maybe they are both seeking a little bit of change and maybe they just want to flirt with change and in the end whether they succeed or fail it does not matter in the ultimate sense. They are just like every other soul having a human experience. They meet up for a brief moment and go there separate ways but are pulled together again whether in this realm or the next one until the karma is resolved. All of us are on a quest to find the eternal home, that is our birthright if we choose to claim it. Yet, Claim it we must! we all return to where we came from and to me that has always been a great comfort regardless of the struggles that we and those around us go through. We are all destined to find a love that is not conditional and a peace that can't be disturbed and a joy that floats higher and higher. Yet, it is not something I have truly tasted, merely something that has grazed my lips and that alone is enough to encourage me to seek this final liberation for the soul.

The relationships along the way merely help us to work through our areas of inner resistance that become expressed in our external environments.

About Me

Forget about everything you think about for a moment. If you can do that, then you can recognize life as it is happening in this present moment.
I'm a 6'7" healer/freestyle rapper. I dance like a madman manic. It appears to the unknowing observer that I might be having a seizure. Thank God I don't drool too much at the mouth.
My goal is to internalize oneness instead of merely pondering oneness.
I am getting my own reality TV series. The show will change the face of reality television and television in general. If you think that you recognize me then you probably do, so don't doubt yourself.