2 weeks won

Tonight at 9pm will be a full two weeks since I last danced with the demon of death. I'm finding that I'm a hell of a lot more aggressive. Like yesterday when I came out to find the neighbor parked in my driveway blocking me in. I think I left a dent in the front door of he house I beat on it so hard at 7am. Or this morning when I arrived at work to find for the second night in a row that the building was tagged. Yeah I came a bit unglued at the homeless that were out front. Daily I spend about 45 minutes each morning picking up their trash. For the record I've also donated time and materials to help build a tiny home village to house the homeless so don't say I'm unsympathetic to their plight. I have found something new to occupy my time though. I downloaded Twitter just to take on the uselessness of the local PD.

Your anger will dissipate - some - as you get further along in your journey.

BUT - understand you are now FEELING all those emotions you stuffed down with a cigarette in the past. Might want to think about healthy ways to get it out - like slow/deep breaths, or counting down from 1,000, or marching in place for a bit, or cussing a blue streak (where no one can report you!).

Congratulations, two weeks is incredible. I am sorry you are having some issues with neighbors and the issue with the building being tagged??? I am not sure I understand what that means. I hope you are able to celebrate your two weeks and that you don't blow twitter up tonight. Anger is rough to deal with but it is alright...when we smoked, we stuffed out emotions so it is no surprise that when our emotions come out, they seem incredibly intense. We never learned how to deal with them...I hope that things settle down for you...it's a good idea to come HERE and let off steam...we will listen.