But he was offering this identity her dream.. and by identifying with the matrix I accepted.

“Me, wanting to find spiritual freedom above all and everything, have been forfeiting my path for “love”, to take care an cherish another human machine.”

This is what I told myself after few days into my marriage, when I realized something wasn’t right.

He was not ready to make the spiritual jump he claimed wanted to make, and because of that, this marriage was going to turn in another black heavy pair of shackles and me drowning in pain.

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One of the most common false datum human have, is to believe that happiness and spiritual awareness go hand by hand.

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They do, if you talking about the organic spiritual awareness; what many call the astral body, spirits, etc.

In reality, the moment your spiritual mind has enough strength to perceive the truth about us living an implant, identifying with a character of a movie, us producing food for the enslaver, the attacks start heavier than ever.

Pain, fear, losses and extreme luck have all the effect to make you snap in into the terminal you suppose to play. To get you stuck to the ordinary reality, and put your spiritual mind back asleep.

The struggle to keep awake is quite a battle.

What the program does to keep you ‘alive’ producing for the matrix, once it perceives you are ready to leave, is phenomenal.

It is important when that happens, you are surrounded with people you trust, people who are not in agreement with the illusion.

…”15 In modern philosophy Kant’s system occupies a middle position in relation to this problem of the causes of sensations, not sharing either of these extreme views. Kant proved that the causes of our sensations are in the outside world, but that we cannot know these causes through any sensuous approach-that is, by such means as we know phenomena-and that we cannot know these causes, and shall never know them. … what is most important, he established the fact that extension in space and existence in time are not propertiesappertaining to things,but just the the properties of our sensuous receptivity; that in reality, apart from our sensuous knowledge of them, things exist independently of time and space ; but we can never perceive them out of time and space, and perceiving things and phenomena thus sensuously, by virtue of it we impose upon them the conditions of time and space, as belonging to our form of perception. ” from TERTIUM ORGANUM by Ouspensky

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The other day while driving grieving over my ex-husband betrayal, my teacher pointed out that if I would have looked at this from the non-ordinary reality I would have been able to see William as the same type of anti-virus (me being considered a virus to the matrix) as it was Eric W. and my past relationships failures. And this anti-virus was affecting me only because I was identified with the illusion.

“The only way to survive in this prison –he said,- is by been able to not identify, you need to keep the non-ordinary reality view all the times.”

If from an ordinary point of view it looks like a series of bad relationships and failures, from the non-ordinary reality of pure energy they are nothing more than a type of energy flow rigged to solidify the “Silvia Kusada” to the illusion.

This gives you a pretty good understanding of why the Church of $cientology with their blame and judgments routine are acting as an implant.

Instead to make the parishioners aware of the energy type and the attempt of the matrix to solidify you, as you get freer and freer, they are acting as an anti-virus themselves.

They tell you and make sure you know, you are a failure, a person of poor ethic, and there is so much wrong with you that nothing is going to get better unless you give them some money and surrender.

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How blessed we are, the true seekers who had the courage and the luck to leave that implant station (Church of $cientology), to be far away from it?

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I have done a great deal of spiritual studies and research, I got tons of fantastic counseling and (solo audited) meditated a lot. I gathered so much knowledge and understanding and arrived to the point where I know there is no true spiritual knowledge you can actually obtain here, till you are identified with a mind and you participate in any way to this “game”.

Till you still worried about the surviving of the program, about being loved, or about having a goal or something to live for, there is no way out.

It is an illusion where we like to believe we have power of choice.

I was driving when I thought to write to my ex, Silvia Kusada did, and then I stopped.

“You are going to send the text-, one of the “guardians” said, –because that is how the movie goes… and there is nothing you can do about it.“

He was right.

The only thing I can do about it, is to stop believing I have anything to do with this illusion. But again, requires to be totally free from a mind.

It requires to stop playing the game… stop pretending we are the one playing it.

The pressure is increasing at light speed, in form of pain, loss, grief, more and more as I know this agreed upon worship of life is all BS.

We do not need to be here producing food.

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Yet, fear in its most hidden form, keeps us here slaves of an illusion.

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People fight all the times in the name of spiritual freedom… and it is so interesting to know they fight for something no one has: truth.

Truth just does not belong to this illusion.

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George Gurdjieff – “If a sufficient number of people who wanted to stop war really did gather together, they would first of all begin by making war upon those who disagreed with them. And it is still more certain that they would make war on people who also want to stop wars but in another way.”

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Osupensky, The fourth way

413. A. ‘To die’ means to die, to disappear, not to be, not to exist. It is useless to die in sleep, because then you cannot be born. You must awake first.

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424. Q. Can we only make progress through you?
A. No, you are quite free to find some other place—you are not bound at all. If you know somebody else with whom you can make progress, certainly you must use him. One must not lose any opportunity if one has an opportunity.

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428. Only very few people can work on essence. It is not exactly an advantage to the people who can, because working on essence is very difficult; but it may happen. Generally we work on personality, and it is the only work we can do

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436. Work is the only thing which is not under the law of
recurrence, otherwise it would not be work

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OUSPENSKY from THE FOURTH WAY

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TERTIUM ORGANUM by Ouspensky

…we cannot truly declare that although now we perhaps know little, presently we shall know more, and at length shall come to a correct understanding of the world . It is not true because our experimental knowledge is not a confused perception of a real world. It is a very acuteperception of an entirely unreal world appearing round about us at the moment of our contact with the world of true causes, to which we cannot find the way because we are lost in an unreal “material” world. For this reason the extension of the objective sciences does not bring us any nearer to the knowledge of things in themselves, or of true causes.”

TERTIUM ORGANUM by Ouspensky

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Creation of Human Ability by Ron Hubbard

Considerations take rank over the mechanics of space, energy, and time. By this it is meant that an idea or opinion is, fundamentally, superior to space, energy, and time, or organizations of form, since it is conceived that space, energy, and time are themselves broadly agreed- upon considerations.

That so many minds agree brings about Reality in the form of space, energy, and time. These mechanics, then, of space, energy, and time are the product of agreed- upon considerations mutually held by life.

The aspects of existence when viewed from the level of Man, however, is a reverse of the greater truth above for Man works on the secondary opinion that mechanics are real, and that his own personal considerations are less important than space, energy, and time. This is an inversion. These mechanics of space, energy, and time, the forms, objects and combinations thereof, have taken such precedent in Man that they have become more important than considerations as such, and so his ability is overpowered and he is unable to

act freely in the framework of mechanics. Man, therefore, has an inverted view, whereas, considerations such as those he daily makes are the actual source of space, energy, time and forms, Man is operating so as not to alter his basic considerations, he therefore invalidates himself by supposing another determinism of space, energy, time, and form.