It is so hard to remember that God is the only one I need. In the last year, there has been a plethora of things that have happened in my life that are not the most desirable. There have been many tough decisions that a person my age would not typically have to make, but I think they have made me who I am and I cannot believe that I am saying this… I am thankful for them.

In time, I think that I will be able to “let go and let God”. This is something that I have NOT been good at. But while I have not had the greatest family life, I have had they joy of having such a great father in God. I remember when I was little and we were making picture frames for our fathers, I felt left out. BUT I later decided that God was my father. I never got around to putting a picture of God in that frame, but that idea has stayed with me since.

Soon… Soon I will be the one saying “I’m alive” and it will be liberating. Let’s see how long that takes.