Just a sad poem

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Chapter 1

Not today

I have a pain so deep youll never see
I locked it away and hid the key
If i ever really could share it
You wouldnt look at me the same, i swear it
Ive seen things i shouldnt have to see
But the only one who ever knew was me
I faked a smile every day
For i couldnt stand for you to see me this way
I buried my emotions deep inside my soul
Its this hate i have that keeps me whole
If i ever truley showed you whats inside
Id run away fast and quickly hide
No matter where i go these feelings stay inside
All i want to do is close my eyes
Its like and eturnal torture that never dies
These voices thast fill my head
Tell me im way better off dead
The pain of living hurts my heart
Should i have ended it from the start
Its like when i get home i take of a mask
Faking happiness is nearly an impossible task
But somehow i manage to get by
Going through everyday about to cry
One day maybe ill be okay
But of course that day is not today
How much blood can i shed
Before im lying on the floor dead
Will this pain ever go away
Maybe tomorrow but not today