Posts Tagged ‘q and a’

I, like everyone else on the planet, am still longing for a few things. Despite my good life, I still want a few more things.

I want a job that I will not look at as a job. This, however, I am already working on achieving, one baby step at a time. And I sincerely hope that my dreams will soon become my reality.

I want my family to be physically together. Something that hadn’t happened in a looooong time.

I miss having someone beside me. To have the license to kiss him whenever I want. Feel him wrap his arms around me whenever he feels like doing so.

I am afraid that I will never have the one thing I have been dreaming of for the longest time, to have a kid of my own.

These are some of the things that make me sad and insecure about my life. The things that I think makes my life incomplete. The things that I should learn to live with, for now, as I know God has plans for me. Just like he has plans for everyone else.

So, I say I am borderline happy for now. But, I really pray that things will soon change for the better.

Right now, I live with my father. Although, I am not sure until I’d get to live with him as my sister’s petition of him is already underway.

So, I am making the most out of the time we have together. Dine out and watch movies as much as my budget would allow. Go somewhere we haven’t been, if my free time would permit it.

He is one of my best friends in the world. Also, the most supportive father. He will actually run to the nearest grocery store to buy things I need in the kitchen that I, typical me, forgot to buy earlier that day when we went grocery shopping.

I am happy that someday soon he and my mother will be physically together again and he’d get to see his grandchildren. But I am also sad that he might leave me soon. Bittersweet. Mixed feelings.

I will surely miss the times we spent together. Having fun. Arguing. Or simply watching TV together.

But a couple of days ago I hatched this plan to try coating plain cookies with candy sprinkles and other edible decorations. So, I looked up a simple cookie recipe online, followed it to the letter (except to cut it down to half), and made it my own by adding the sprinkles.

As I posted a couple of months ago, I have several dream jobs that I would like to fulfill.

I want to be a mother. A good mother.

I used to want to be a good cook but now I also want to be a good pastry chef (?). I want to be good enough to bake for a living. Nothing extravagant. Just cookies and brownies. But sweet enough to poison you if you eat too much. 😉

And, of course, I want to write. I want to be able to give voice to the voices in my head. And I hope to have enough audience so that I can also do this for a living.

All these are just dreams for now but I hope that they will soon become my reality.

So, for someone who likes the way she is right now I’d say I’d like to forget this nonsense question. There is nothing in my past that I’d like to forget. Because everything I did and that happened to me either helped me become who I am now or taught me certain things.

The weekend is just waaaaay too short. Specially if you only have one day for it. Sunday. Like I do.

When I wake up on Sunday mornings, I feel so good because I’ll be able to putter around my little kitchen for a couple of hours. But, then, time seems to fly by when you’re relaxing or having fun. That’s what happens when I’m in the kitchen.

So, before I know it it’s Sunday afternoon and pretty soon it’ll get dark. Then, Monday morning comes. The bane of my existence.

Oh well.

We have to feed our tummy and our addictions sometimes. I just hope that I can find a way to turn my addictions lucrative.