When episode No. 5 opens up, we see the rest of Brock Lesnar’s speech following our team’s latest loss. And while he wasn’t happy with us, I thought it was great to at least hear him say he got his ass kicked by Cain Velasquez. He even sees it in himself, and my hat’s off to him. He said, “Look guys, I’m in the same boat you are. I got my ass kicked, and you guys are all getting your ass kicked.”

It was like we were all on the same level. A lot of guys really took it personal, but at the same time, it was the truth. Cain gave Brock an ass-whooping. But he admits it. He said the when he first got to the UFC, he was made into this posterboy as the unbeatable juggernaut, and then it all changed against Cain. Brock tried to do some crazy flying knee, and Cain did reconstructive surgery on his face. Brock knows what that feels like, and he didn’t want us to accept defeat.

Despite Brock’s admission, it didn’t do too much to smooth over the team’s problems. As everyone came in the house, and even I was guilty of this, we were all talking about who we fought before and what we’ve accomplished. We thought we were the [expletive] because we were on “The Ultimate Fighter,” and then lo and behold, we’re on TV and just dropped three fights. This was no game. Yeah, they’re exhibition matches, but our livelihoods are on the line. If you don’t capitalize on your opportunities and you don’t win, you don’t succeed.

Brock sat us down, and he just doesn’t sugarcoat anything. Some guys took it personal, and other guys said, “Hey, you know what? You’ve got a point.”

We went immediately into the fight announcement, and it was Team Dos Santos’ Mick Bowman against our Clay Harvison. I immediately figured this would be a great matchup for us. I knew Clay was going to trade with him. Clay has had a couple of boxing matches. He’s got good hands, good movement, and I know Nick trains out of Wolfslair, which is a really good place to train MMA, but at the same time, it was a really even matchup.

I figured if anyone was going to beat Clay, it was going to be a wrestler. I knew that Mick wasn’t going to be wrestling, so I figured Clay would probably have a pretty good chance to beat him.

Double Agent

Before the fight, we had some real drama at the house. Watching this episode, I didn’t even realize how far it had gone. I actually texted Clay last night and said, “Hey, man. I thought you had called me a douchebag. You went way above and beyond that!” He told me to just chill out, that it wasn’t a big deal. I was like, “Bro, no big deal? Five of you guys were sitting around saying if I did this show in the street, I’d get stabbed and killed. Jesus!”

But that’s paranoia. Everybody reached the pinnacle of paranoia. An when everybody was sitting around saying, “Maybe we lost all of our fights because Chris gave away our gameplans.” I was like, “Are you [expletive] serious? You think I went over to Dos Santos’ team and went, ‘Hey guys, let me tell you about all of our fighters,’ and that’s how they all lost.” You’ve got to be kidding me.

When we came home and saw “Double Agent” written in the sand, I was a little surprised. I didn’t know anything about the whole situation for the longest, and then Norden Asrih pulled me aside in the training room and asked me, “Hey, man. Are you a spy?” I told him I wasn’t, and I really wondered why he was asking me that. Then Chuck O’Neil asked me if I was working with the other team. I told him I wasn’t. So finally, I made sure everybody was all together, and I called them all out on it. I said, “Look, does anybody think I’m working with the other team? What’s this all about?” They kind of sympathized with me, but then we get in the house, and there’s that “Double Agent” stuff in the sand.

I was convinced it was Tony Ferguson that wrote that in the sand. Tony was always drawing stuff in the sand. On the first or second night, Tony and I were hanging out, and he was kicking back and having a few beers and writing funny messages in the sand for Dos Santos’ team. On the flip side, I never saw anyone from Dos Santos’ team writing in the sand. I assumed right off the bat that it was Tony because I had never seen anyone write anything in the sand.

We came in the house, and I just decided I wasn’t going to jerk around with anyone anymore. I thought it was Tony, and I was going to call him out on it.

Looking back, I feel bad about it. I did apologize to Tony for accusing him of it. They didn’t show this, but he really wanted to fight me. I’m used to joking around with my friends, but Tony took this very personal. He thought I was questioning his integrity. He was cussing me out, and then he went after the rabbit. He said, “Why don’t you take Bunbun and shove it up your ass?” I was like, “Come on, dude. You’re going after the rabbit.”

Tony went downstairs to try and play some pool and cool off. I went downstairs to talk to him, and he told me to [expletive] off. I went back upstairs, and the rest of my team told me to just mellow out and that everything would be cool. Tony wouldn’t talk to me for about two days – at all. I guess he finally decided to forgive me, which I appreciated, because I feel about it now. I had no idea Mick wrote that in the sand. When I saw that he was the one that did it, I was like, “You’ve got to be kidding me.”

I actually found out a few days before the episode aired. I was talking to Charlie Rader last week, and he was like, “You didn’t know? Mick wrote that in the sand.” As soon as I found out, I couldn’t help but think about all that we went through, and it was actually Mick. Ridiculous.

I think this whole situation just showed again how paranoid everyone was. I can understand why they were worries, but just call me out on it. Don’t talk all this stuff behind my back. Chuck, my hat’s off to him. He pulled me aside and asked me directly. Nordin pulled me aside and asked me. The rest of the team didn’t. I don’t totally blame them for being concerned. I guess I did some things that made them think otherwise. But when you watch that episode, it makes you realize how bad the paranoia was. They had it set in their minds that the fights were lost because I gave away the gameplan.

I think you just see how people can really group together and single a person out. You could see the team basically plotting against me. They were actually making up phony stories to tell me with stuff that was going on with them because they assumed I would tell the other team. Then you see it was just Mick joking around. He didn’t mean for it to be a big deal, but it was a huge ordeal. I was shunned from the team for a day or so.

Len Bentley was getting more and more negative as time went on. I guess it was good Chuck and “The Predator” were there to calm things down. Chuck would just sneak up to you with his ass cheeks spread and be like, “Hey, Chris – wake up. The Predator wants to talk to you.” It was like that everyday.” Of course, after awhile it was driving me nuts. Then somehow I got immune to it. I’m like, “How did I get immune to looking at some guy’s ass?” He would trick me and hide around corners so I would walk up on him. That’s when you realize what the “TUF” house does to you.

Clay Harvison vs. Mick Bowman

I sparred with Clay during training, and when I watched that fight, it was like he turned it up a couple of notches. I was impressed. He brought the heat, and I was definitely impressed.

Clay’s style of striking reminds me a lot of Chute Boxe. There’s a lot of forward movement. He threw some jumping knees, and he had some very nice kicks. I think after while, Mick got intimidated. I think Mick went in to the fighting thinking, “I have to win this fight for my daughter. I have to win this fight for my country.” I think he just put a lot of pressure on himself. Mick’s a great fighter, but he just couldn’t pull it out against Clay, and Clay was on. Clay did start gassing out in the second round, but he was taking it to Mick, and he won decisively.

Of course, that victory came with a price. That finger was the most disgusting thing I’ve ever seen. The bone was sticking out of the skin. I’ve never seen anything like that. He walked outside to talk to Dana White and just told him, “Sorry, Dana. I think I’m out.” Out of nowhere, Dana goes, “Hey, man. That’s no chicken[expletive] stuff. You know what’s chicken[expletive]? Tito Ortiz pulling out of a fight because he’s got a cut on his [expletive] forehead.” We didn’t know what he was talking about until we got out of the house.

Dana then looked at Clay and said, “You’re one tough son of a bitch.” I think that made Clay’s day. My hat’s off to Clay. He still wanted to fight on the tournament with a compound fracture to his finger. He showed how tough he really was.

It’s like being in a gunfight, and you kill the bad guy, but then you realize you’re shot and might die. It was like, “Yeah, we won! Oh, man. Clay’s out.” It was a problem. I had a laceration over my eye with 15 stitches. Clay had the broken finger. Nordin was having some problems. Charlie’s shoulder was dislocated. Everybody that fought got jacked up.

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