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.....My mind and heart are squeezed of their juices and their strength and essence have drained out of me. Vacillating between thought and feeling, and feeling and thought...thoughts rebounding off feelings of sorrow. My mind searching for answers, My heart is...solemn...still...alone. Honestly not sure where these feelings have emerged from...but here I am. And I know this is NOT a good place...not a healthy place to dwell. I know too well...far too well the cost of lingering in this place.

Maybe it's weather...or the upcoming Holiday's...most likely it's a myriad things. (Kind of like dripping water on a rock...by itself, one drop of water is meaningless to the rock, but drip after drip over a span of years will create a divot and eventually destroy the rock.) Either way, I would ask for your prayers as I seek for the hand of Him who guides my life. Because even though all is dark around me and I can not see Him, I KNOW He is there and He knows the path out of the darkness.

I sit back and almost laugh at myself writting this, because I know my life is blessed and filled with those who love me...I have no reason or cause for feeling the way I do...and yet, here I am.

Psalm 61 - Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe.

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Oh my Sweet Brother!! thank you for allowing us to see, hear, feel whats happening in your life..at this moment. YOU know you are on the right path..turning to our Lord..waiting on our Lord..and ask your brothers and sisters in our Lord to send prayers for you and your peace of spirit, soul, mind to our Lord. now wait there for further instructions :-) but know you are never alone..He is with you..even though the way is dark, scary, painful, lonely, almost absent of His comforting love...but hold on..don't believe the lie! YOU ARE LOVE by the one who knows you..the problem..the answer. He LOVES HIS SON VINCENT DON HOWARD!!! now smile..just a bit. love to you always debbie

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Hey man...it happens. You find yourself down for no reason in particular..could be the weather, could be the news, could be anything. It's a moment...it's time will pass. Keep chugging along and keep smiling...it'll be alright =)