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Topic: Thunter34 Blew His WAD (Read 4941 times)

So...how did you celebrate World AIDS Day? I'm STILL untying red ribbons from my hair...in my pubes, no less. (Perhaps I really should trim...) In all honesty, I did absolutely nothing for the day. My completely vanquished financial situation (due largely to this disease) prevented me from getting out to any $75 a plate socials or even a cheap video rental of "Parting Glances". In light of that, doing absolutely (or should I say Positively) nothing seemed somehow to be a fitting personal tribute. Oh, I did at least knock out a nut while watching X-Tube. That should count for something.

Not to rain on anyone else's parade or vigil or whatever by this thread. Just kinda felt like venting.

Well, I went shopping, retail therapy right? Whatever, I thought of how the drugs are killing me and everyone thinks that is OK because it is managable, right? I thought of the fungal infection on my foot that will not go away or the sinus infection that no one can treat. I thought of my doctor saying "be happy the drugs are working..." yet I still think things are not right. I thought of my dad saying the only people who die from AIDS are the ones that do not take their meds. I thought of many things that are wrong with this country and its view of AIDS. Then I thought of me, yeap, I have AIDS and the drugs are pretty expensive and make me feel crappy sometimes. But, I work, I live, I swallow the chemicals that are destorying my body and try to get buy. I try to remember every day is a gift and make the best of it and basically scream a BIG FUCK YOU to the world. I hate this fuckin virus, I hate my meds, I hate the medical establishment and my government. But, I love me and I love to be alive so will do all I can stay that way. However, once it gets too bad, I am outta here.....

A friend (also positive) and I went to a new Spanish tapas resturant near me. We intended on going to a latin club for an AIDS fundraiser of sorts. But we got drunk on Sangrias and was having a good time.

I guess I didn't do anything special. WAD seems a bit like New Years Eve. So much pressure to do something.

Did nothing out of the ordinary. Just remembered 18 yrs ago when I started my activism on WAD. Remembered friends who have passed.

And of course, took care of Louie with his I.V.'s. I also hoped and prayer that I'd make it another 18 or more years. Would rather have had some of the fun that a few others have had, but unfortunately Louie hasn't been in the mood for the past 3 years for any of that.

I went to a drop in at The Terrence Higgins Trust a well known charity here in the UK for HIV/AIDS, they had prepared a very lovely Buffet. Chatted and hugged a lot of people of all persuasions, race or colour, and longevity with the bug, a very uplifting time,

Let's see. Meant to put on a ribbon for school - but forgot. Went on a third date with a decent guy. Had a great meal out with a great bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon (Ravenswood - CA 2004). Went back to my place - made out in the car for a while and then took him side for some playtime (third date after all). Nice day over all. Oh, for dinner out I remembered my ribbon.

Well kites went by the by cos of rain, but me n two friends slipped of somewhere to do things only poz boys can do together at an hour which said hey you should be behind yr desks boys, then we went to a working class (blue collar to you folks) pub (bar) n got ratted with some whores (newly in love with each other, hope it works out they's a real match), a bus driver, an electrician, a teacher, a clothes designer, a traffic warden + 3 v old fag friends n 1 straight women friend whose jobs is an unimportant part of knowing them. No red ribbons or candles etc were admitted. Tonight I's off down some club with 1 in 7 stencilled on my back (if I can find the red spry paint), esp. to wind up the neg guys n make them think twice (perhaps) about their generally stupid attitudes to risk n generally ill-directed sympathy to HIV+ blokes.

I think I like your approach to WAD and positivity in general. Sounds like the attitudes there are remarkably similar to the ones here. A faintly disdainful sideways glance towards the + boys, all the while engaging in hair curlingly risky sex amongst themselves...keeping unopened bowls of condoms around like some sort of Safe Sex Totum, and tossing the word "Negative" around as some magic word like 'Abra-Cadabra'.

An aside: THT was dreamed up in the London Apprentice, a (notorious and well attended) dance/cruise (okay backroom/er, frontroom) pub in Islington, London, by a bunch of fags. Of a Friday night/Sunday afternoon it was the London gay destination. It was hard to go for a pee. . .

There used to be a plaque acknowledging the formation over the bar. Gone now. And, ahem, these days the Chief Exec of THT says " created by a group of concerned people in a pub in Islington" - no gay, no sex, no disco. Always bloody well annoys the fuck out me.

An aside cos professionally I respect THT and most of the things they do, some are off mark, but the operating environment is bloody hard in the UK re: HIV.

I love going on line and chatting with others. Occassionally I'll get some hottie that is interested in me. They want to bottom and bb and when I tell them my status, they are like NO WAY, I'm neg and want to stay that way!!

So I'm like are you nuts?? Your a total bottom and you want to bb and you say you are neg? Get a life girlfriend, at least I'm being honest about the whole thing.

I told my Mom and Dad and my wife... HAPPY AIDS DAY!!! I think its going to become the NEW thing to do. And I am working on a deal with Halmark. Picture this....

A beautiful card with two hands holding each other lovingly.... and the inside....

"Orgasms aren't permanent, but HIV is! HAPPY AIDS DAY!"

Disclaimer for those of you who don't know how I look at life.

This in no way is meant as to degrade the meaning of World AIDS day and all those that have passed before me. It is MY take on life and MINE alone. If you don't like it or disagree with it in anyway that is YOUR problem not mine!!! LOL I love you all, even the ones that piss me off. Which suprisingly are few and far between!

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LIFE is not a race to the grave with the intention of arriving safelyin a pretty and well-preserved body, but, rather to skid in broadside,thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming--WOW! WHAT ARIDE!!!