Monday, November 2, 2015

Wow, I haven't updated this thing since July?!? Well, let's see... I graduated from Effective Living Center in September, which was a requirement for me to get off probation. They have everything they need, so now I'm just waiting for the letter that tells me I'm done with probation... & when I'm done with probation, I can legally change my name, & I can finally get the hell outta Minnesota... as soon as I can afford to.
I moved in late July, just a few days before my last update. I moved in with a couple friends of mine across town. They're wonderful people, & I'm very grateful that they're letting me live in their basement. Since they drive a truck 5 days/week, I'm alone quite a bit. There's a huge difference between loneliness & solitude...
I know that I'm right where I'm supposed to be... Wanna know how I know? Ok, I'll tell you... The day after I moved, I was in a trans chatroom I frequent on Facebook. I was sitting out on the porch, & had just typed in the chat, "Today is the first day of the rest of my life." Not 45 seconds later, one of my new roommates comes out to the porch; we begin talking, & they say, "This is the first day of the rest of your life". I was gobsmacked!!! Speechless, I pulled up the chat & pointed, as if to say, "I JUST typed that!!!" Lol Crazy coincidences like that happen quite a bit...
Guess what? Today, November 2nd, marks 9 months clean and sober for me!!! <curtsies> Thank you... Thank you... Lol
As proud as I am of the 9 months, I'm prouder still to be clean TODAY. I'm doing it one day at a time, & I'm NOT doing it alone... I go to 3 or 4 12-step group meetings a week, & I think they really help me learn what I need to learn to stay clean that day, and maybe another day as well... I feel that being clean as I am is a blessing, & many blessings have come my way since I gave up drugs. I have good friends now, who I can talk to, & learn from. I have the knowledge now that I can pass ANY drug test with flying colors... & I have a little bit more self-respect, & self-esteem as well.
I still don't have estrogen 61st, but I'm working on it... That's a subject for a whole 'nother blog. Until next time, this is Olivia; wishing U happiness, health, & success... ALWAYS!!!!