Friday, December 27, 2013

I make a study of Blessing,
I look for it in it’s many shapes and forms seeking to recognize ,honor and respect it
I try to align my Magical Being in practice with this word’s concepts in mind
Surprise at what is found to be held within the original meaning or beneath the surface.
Beyond the parameters and expectations, a bursting forth in an unanticipated way
An extending of Inner and unwrapping of the gift
Believing it makes a difference.
An out pouring of what is most precious and vital is broadcast.
Exposed to the spectacle of the fall out , caught up in the unpredicted shower and spray
To feel it touch you, stick with you
To be Lucky enough to be marked as a witness of the event, to be changed, moved, inspired.connected because of fortuitous proximity to another's Life , Some one else's Sacrifice.
Knowing it is possible to be uplifted by the actions of others in profound and long lasting ways,
It is in the indeterminable effect and Hope that some Good may come of it,
We can never Know how it works, fortunately we don’t need to.
To be Helped by unknown strangers and marvel at the thread of coincidence and circumstance that exist in the Spirit of good will.
A sympathy for a sentient sentiment. The Juice, or Sap of the Cosmos. Our current and charge
Love and Kindness are a language, an awareness that spans worlds and builds Trust
Unintended benefits and beneficiaries are part of the Ballads of Blessing and Bleeding
Not to ignore the uniqueness, significance,and specialness of the things around us and the time we share.
This ,Our Spirit love story,
to speak kindly

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Familiar relations between relatives,
Why do some patterns develop and remain through out life times?
Shapes and Boundaries

What do you find in your Stocking?
Normally your foot.
You

Result Anticipation Magic is all about Out come.
A Tacit Expectorary Induction
Wishing and Wanting and Praying for things to turn out Your way.
Self interest is not only your own motivation',
but the belief that
everything behaves in it’s own self interest
Humbugging! Deceptions of the Shadow Men, with their Bogus Souls

People are Flimflamed and Bamboozled with the question of , what do you want?
Promoting a disingenuous sentiment based on what you want to hear
There is a break between the personal and the popular,
between the Want and the You
A crisis induced response that is not Natures Familial relativisms of what is…Need
But a Human imaginary construct of what we desire to be real and made manifest.
It is a illusion of thought, a societal expectation yet it is real.
Custom and Costume, Holiday Pressure, and performance Anxiety
Forgetting that it is not in the wanting,and wishing
but the Comfort of the Fitting with our Surroundings,
This the Spirit of Peace.

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

To knowingly complete a Circuit ,
Round a bout reassurance in Relationship and Reference
Movement oriented with others , compared, Measured
A habit of orbiting as Honoring or Understanding.
Different vantage points, changing perspectives
Drawing something out of us,a sense of shared vision
Having been around
We think we have seen it all
looked at it from all sides
A Relative frame work of peripheral knowledge
circling power.
What we look up to
What we look down upon.
What we look out for
What we expect to see,
Religion of Revolution , Practice of Turning
Sun wise days and years
Moving around our Focus in a respectful way
Posture,Approach and Attitude,
Spirit Journey, Energy Travel, Magical Communication
Where am I in Life? How did I find my way here?
Accounting in the seasons of our existence, and the spin of serendipity.
We affirm our bearing
Trusting in an unseen force that holds things.
A principal of Order that protects from the out of control.
An Agent of Caring
Hope and Renewal

Friday, November 29, 2013

It was impossible to capture the vaporous emanation with a camera.
Unable to shoot into the light,
Requiring a dark background
Giving it something to contrast against.

It doesn’t look the same, It doesn’t feel the same.
It’s silhouette reveals movement but lacks the depth of field of vision that give the Spirit its dimension

It is not the light or heat or glow of plasma that are obvious and vital, essential aspects of the soul of life
it is the breath.
The moving atmosphere.
The respiration of space
The spirits occupying place.
expressed outwardly as shape.

Particles suspended,excited
Moving with a liquidity ,curvilinear contours of subtle temperature differences.
Flow and twist and spin in a Pranic Pantomime.

A pine incense stick over irregular stocking warn Hemlock floor boards in my trippy house.
The wood grain and knots a chronicle of the Weather and Life of a hundred years ago.
The carbon pulled from the air and fused into solid form by the Tree.
The tendril of smoke composed of similar material freed from its’ fixed form by fire
The wood is the host for the guest.
the guest of our Body is our Ghost

Apparitions of a presence.
A Being , A connection
A moment I asked My Son to Photograph
Spirits existing amongst us,around us,within us
Moving ,
Breathing
Sharing our Spaces

Monday, November 25, 2013

There is a unique clarity to crystalline structure, a punctuality and Order expressed in fixed, frozen and rigid form . What is between the physical body and the vaporous mist that invisibly withdraws from the warm light of the morning sun?

The Frost clings to the shadow,

A timely grounding of the atmospheric in relationship to energy

Minutely reflective and refractive surfaces or planes.

Prisms, Drum heads, Sails

Catching wind,bending light,resonant transient

Water and light are both travelers.

Responding to one another

altering course

Waves and currents

Cycles of frequency,

Vibration or excitement ,a buzz, beat or rhythm .

More than Meteorological Mysticism

There are Specters in the Spectrum

We love their shine

The light I see from the Sun setting Sky, enough to tell the difference from branch and Tree from cloud to Cloud

I get a sense of objects and reality

distant energy stimulating inner imagery

I cannot tell how far away the things I see are.

There is more than the Energies of Light and heat involved in these Atmospheric analogies of Spirit and Water.

There is also Gravity.

A Feeling

Weather is Emotion

There are plenty of energies we are unable to sense,know or hope to understand,.

We got lucky with Fire.

And there is People Power of many sorts and kinds

The electric power that is lighting this screen and sharing these images and thoughts now, Where did it come from? How does it effect us?

Where does Energy come from? Life and Fossil fuel, Atmospheric activity?

There is deception about connections

Our feelings about comfort, are mirrored by interior atmospheric moods

Psychic weather we hope to shelter or insulate our selves from

Hydrological sense adds up.Sun and winds and falling rain

It is not a simple matter of temperature and climate, Carbon and Cash.

It is about inner warmth.How close are we to the Energy.,and our sensitivity and responsiveness to it.

Fire is a consuming process ,its light and warmth have a source,

A Place that it originates from.

What we call fuel is a Home,

or was a body of some living thing or collection of things mostly vegetable that lived for Sun and Rain.

Smoke and spirit fly and drift as clouds

A load suspended in the sky above, with a destination of precipitation

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

What we choose to leave behind or what we try to cling on to.
We are confronted by cultural notions of progress. growth and development
We are introduced to a world view and survival plan before we Know ourselves or hope to understand our potential in interacting and experience in this life.
This is not the way of the wild, or the logic of Nature, but a crafty construct of persuasive language in a characteristically Human way, a social one, a generational one,
there are truths that are shared with other beings of the Earth.
The living breathe
and grow UP
Looking to the Sky for Truth, and view.
It is for the most part a very atmospheric, sun ,sky, rain , time keeper, teacher from above,
The preference for the dawn and the day or the sequential ordering of thought.
When does this or that reasoning become a binary response, or primal switch of the unintelligent world within and without.
The draw of the expanding horizon.
Perhaps we mature and ripen in our own time,, in our own way.
Out grown constraints of awareness are left behind if they don’t serve us.
Much of My Neo Pagan Druids Progress is not motivated by a certainty of knowledge and control over things,and how they come out.,
but by the commitment to try not to repeat known errors, or falsehoods, avoiding what was known to be dangerous, destructive or wreck less.
It is a path that has direction.
It builds upon experience,

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

I painted this watercolor when I was eleven.
Spukhafte Fernwirking is the descriptive term of Albert Einstein.
Micro Celebrity is a term Isaac Bonewits shared with Me..
I am deeply entangled in a Magical existence, We all are.
How we recognize ourselves and our environment is somehow related to time and space, Our changing surroundings connected to our changing interior.
Conscious and coincidence.

Saturday, August 31, 2013

I had been Senior Druid of the Grove I had founded maybe five years with little success in finding a replacement or a competent stand in.

I had shut down the grove formally with the group on Lughnasa, only to have them ask me to restart it for Samhain

This I did , as a reluctant unappreciated leader,only to find Myself , Home-less and Grove-less in a month.

After a grove Yule that wasn’t, without Me,

I was asked to lead again to keep the grove alive.

I agreed to do this in a limited capacity,

It was at this time that a collective program was being shared amongst Groves that included nine virtues as a principal part of our religious beliefs and practice.

The virtues were a component of a package that was bundled together to be the beginning of a formal spiritual training or schooling.

I had been developing my own Ideas over the years as had many of my Druid friends,

but this was to be the official system of Our Druid Organization

It was the Organization that made sure we had all the aspects of our training that other religions do.

Our virtues were further distinguished by referencing the three functions or castes of indo -European society.

While I am willing to indulge intellect and imagination in our exploration of Druid Spiritual Fun.

Issues of Class and Society are not to be play acted.

Indo- European models are not complete or functional without slavery.

Perhaps it was this, and the odd notions that virtues were coupled with vices, that put me off on taking virtues on, as what my religion was all about.

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It was a challenge to moderate a discussion group of Dedicants about Their feelings and thoughts about these nine virtues or any others as it was very personal and objective and students want to offer the answer they believe the teacher wants to hear.

Or in this case the course was devised around what the student has to say,

or wants to be.

This marked a very stark divide between the motive and intent of a Druid worship group seeking to honor a spiritual presence,

and those seeking to be heard and acknowledged by a study group.

This seemed to accentuate the difference between Druid as Priest/mystic and Senior Druid as the facilitator of a study program group.

I did not understand it at the time but I sensed that the Organization had become a Brand, the study program its product, and groves the outlets, a consumer oriented approach that perverts vocational concepts from being descriptive of the work done to the fantasy of expectation and desire for outcome. A paradox of profession and confession,

getting hokey with my folky

I encounter the virtues again a few years later.

I was part Of the first group of Priests Ordained by the Organization .

The second group were all of the Senior Druids of Groves of the organization.and Study Program.Students.

I was then expected to complete and submit for review the Dedicant Program and its’ essays about the nine virtues .

By this time the program had produced a couple of crops of virtue loving essayists who just didn’t think it was fair that I hadn't written anything about what was so fundamental to our Organization.

I was again struggling with producing the required expression on a number of levels.

It lacks a genuineness and inspirational nature that I associate with my Spiritual Brand of Druid

It felt coerced or contrived on my part,

not the real love, real deal, real thing I try to stay true to.

My Kindred Spirits were not urging me to write these essays, they were supplying Me with other tasks.

Informing Me.

I did not want my voice to be one that was critical of the program.

I did not want to be used by the critics of the program or the anti-clergy crowd.

I did not see our duty to codify our training of each other as vital as kindness.

Years later I paint cards of the nine to draw and read as omens.

I treat the words like beings in and of themselves as well as within us,

Things to live by or through. We need to be careful of what we embody.

Urged to use them as a Priest, Struggling to compose with them as a Bard, I have a found their use as a Seer.

I have to say that it is not a good practice to use virtues as part of judgment of others, Including their level of Mastery in a Program or Vocation.

Others may feel it is important and enriching doing it,

But It is not my thing, and it’s not what My religion, My Priesthood is about.

I am not a Priest of a Program,

perhaps a Priest of process.

A process that has been very public for over twenty years.

I am not closing the door on the Program by pointing out that I don’t like how it is being used in the Organization.

I am not claiming to be a master or knowledgeable of the program or to have any experience with it as an accepted and understanding insider.

Thursday, August 8, 2013

At our most simple level we feed from place.
We find sustenance from outside of our selves.
We find our living from our surroundings.
We also feed from one another,
Finding comfort in the act of sharing, and security in a common aspect of living.
Everything feels good .
Doing it’s thing .
It is enriching and inspiring to be part of Nature.
It is important to Me to share my feelings with Out of Doors
With the Insects and weather,
With sticks and smoke,
With dirt and stars
Community

Saturday, July 20, 2013

The shape of our Spirit form and how our concepts of Self inhibits or expands our understanding and exploration of our own Psychic composition, and living function integrated in the larger body of the Whole.

The diversity of expression of form and color,endless subtlety

The fruiting of individualization from a community within a community with unique structures, and individual Identities.

I’m not sure where I pick up this stuff, Unaware of what grows on me

Something that I had passed over, that stuck with me, taking on a life of it’s own.

Finding Opportunity in My company.

Awaiting the right time. the right conditions to emerge and bloom.

The invisible collective emerges to elevate the next generation

Millions of children, genetically differing from their parents and each other.

They have attained a unique personhood, because our life paths crossed.

sharing this space and time,

The paths of our ancestors, and the destiny of spores,

witness ,wonder

Perhaps this is too intimate and personal a thing to share with all the World?

To admit that I find Beauty in taking part in this dance of Beings .

So many partners

Reflected below the surface, Glass Catfish and Ghost Shrimp

, A couple of the critters I keep ,

Teachers in transparency, with little to hide

clearly sensitive, curious and hungry.

Friends that I regularly feed, They appear naked except for the eyes and antennae , mouths and stomachs.

They also display openly the hidden symmetry and order of inner organization that make up their bodies.

They prefer to live in groups when they make their way in this world.

They have a lot to show us about getting a long , for see- through creatures

Too revealing a Pet? Our Life journey is a movement.

The things we touch with our passing as well as the things that have touched us.