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Topic: I am Poz (Read 5869 times)

Hi All, 2/21/2008 I found out I was positive, I have been reading the forums for 2 months since I found out and now joined. I can say I am finally feeling normal again after 2 months. I know day by day my feelings good and bad change but all and all I am living as I was before. Since finding out I lost my job to downsizing and my insurance, life is rough but it is nice to come to a site where I know I am not alone. For a month after being diagnosed I woke up every morning and thought "I have HIV" before I had even opened my eyes. I was very happy the day came when I did not think about it till mid afternoon. I think of it often but I do not let it control me now it is something I must deal with. Now I spend time with my Partner whom is Poz as well and my two dogs taking it one step at a time.

Caliguy, welcome to the forums. There are a lot of great people and advice here. I know when one's newly diagnosed, there are a lot of things that run through one's mind, but I'm sure you'll fare just fine. Again, welcome. Luv,Betty

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I've never killed anyone, but I frequently get satisfaction reading the obituary notices.-Clarence Darrow

Thanks to both of you. I know right now my biggest stress is Insurance and going to the Dr. After losing my job but I was just tested last month so I know I have some spare time and I am working on ADAP. Most of this stuff is new to me, drugs, ADAP, supplements and although I am very skinny and look very fit, I have never been a big fan of working out or eating right so now I am trying to watch myself a little bit more with what I do. Thanks Again.

Hey there it does change your life, but try to find the up side to it all. I can honestly say I am in better health now than I ever was before. Keep moving forward, I have found both with myself and those I work with that a positive outlook is imperative to being healthy and learning to "Live" whis this, what I consider a gift because it has transformed my life.I have just joined here myself I have done a lot of work with others that are + and after reading all the postings here This is definatly a great place to be and get support!

I'd give you a big old supportive hug, but you hardly need it. You've got your good outlook much sooner than I had mine.

As someone who tested positive at 22, I can say that my time since has been much more fulfilling than the few tumultuous years before that. After I did the European AIDS Vaccine Ride and started meeting decent poz folks, it was as if looking at life back to front made me more conscious of the passing time; each step you take, seeing the days and months beat by like a metronome, seems to make you sure to stuff it full of all the things that feel more fulfilling than before. I didn't have that view before. I wouldn't give it up for anything.

Thanks Beau, I am always down for a free hug! It is a pleasure to talk to all of you. I was never a "bug chaser" by any means as some call it. I did not always make the right choices either but I came out at 15 and always thought after living for years in San Francisco living in the Castro and being friends with many Poz people what would I do if I became Poz. I lived on the same block as Project Open Hand so I made a choice if I ever became positive to do something with it. Try and help others be in hands on in activism or just by telling my story and talking about. Thanks to you all for letting me take that first step on here to talk about it. I have a long way to go and a lot of people in my personal life do not know yet about my status but it is nice to come to a place where I can just be me. In a way I still feel denial some days I don't think about it and don't want too one day at a time.

Glad you found us and are comfortable here. Post whatever you need too or whatever is on your mind. Someone here will deffinately have some good advice for you and that alone makes a world of difference.