10.31.2007

10.26.2007

WARNING - IF you are offending by my foul language - then don't read further. if you think i'm shit because i don't recycle - really - don't read further. and know i will have another post today - i promise to be uplifting. i just need to get something off my chest....

any reader of my blog - knows - I FIGHT daily for happiness. I usually find it - i have it - it just doesn't come easy. so - then why is it - the world is so f*cking hell bent on pissing me the f@ck off???

there is this asian man. i've named him Mr. Miyagi (he looks like a 100 year old Pat Morita - ok? don't judge me) he rides a bike. all over the friggin county. he collects cans. wait let me rephrase that for you - HE DIGS THROUGH MY F*CKING GARBAGE - WITH NO GLOVES LOOKING FOR CANS!!! he looks homeless - but my guess, he's pullin in about 50K a year digging through shit for cans. he barely speaks english. i have lived here almost three years. i would have figured by now - that when i politely tell him NO CANS! and then scream at him - GET OUT OF MY F*CKING GARBAGE... he'd get a clue. apparently - this is SOOO not the case. i caught him digging TWICE today. TWICE. I told him no - i left - he waited for me to get around the corner - he went back... i ripped down the street like a madwoman and rolled down my window and said "SIR - NO CANS - GET OUT OF MY GARBAGE PLEASE! NO MORE! EVER! GOOOOO!!!!!"

my neighbor tells me i should politely put my cans in a seperate bag and leave them for him. if was going to go through all that trouble - i'd take the damn cans back to the redemption center myself. i know - i should recycle them. don't start bitching at me about that. it's a habit. a BAD one! I can't be bothered with cans.

so stay the f*ck out of my garbage and respect my damn privacy. anyone heard of the sarbanes oxley act?

10.25.2007

an ode to my f%cking habits - a pictorial by shelley may(and I apologize for the crappy post layout... i STILL don't know how to post photos and put them where I want them to show up on the damn post!)

A Habit In Action - without all of these - I'd probably die. Literally.

Good Habit - My kitchen is not big enough to even be called that. I HAVE to be organized in there.

Not-So-Good-Habit - I hate mail. It means money out of my bank. I put off opening it. Until when I finally go through it - I'm left with a trash pile like this. And late notices. And possible disconnect notices. BAD F%CKING HABIT!

Habit to Aspire to - being effortlessly happy - even putting ranch dressing on your lips and pretending it's lipstick. pure happiness - without even trying. friggin LOVE this kid.

Habit Forming - keeping the kitchen who isn't worthy of the name kitchen CLEAN - becuase this - people - this picture above - THIS is all I have of counterspace. To the left of that - big enough spot to hold my dishdrainer and my Kitchen Aide. I have no room for mess.

10.24.2007

...waking up late. it began when ron got laid off. it became a habit. in less than 21 days. i no longer had to get up and take care of kennedy and get her to a sitter on time. i could literally wake up less than 5 minutes before the time i thought i *should* be to work - run into my office less than 10 feet from my bedroom - and poof! i was at work! i have become lazy. unmotivated.

but you know what? i do one thing everyday - without fail. i think of it as my endless trips to the water cooler or coffee pot - if i did work in an office - i read blogs. i am addicted. it's sickening. i'm making friends by blogging. it's worse than my very first night of owning a computer and i discovered chat rooms. i went to work the following day - hung over. without the alcohol. hung over because i chatted away in singles chat rooms until 4:oo in the morning. pitiful single existence i had for a short time in my life. pitiful.

now - i read blogs. i have non-tangible friends. some i am "open" with. some i stalk. but there is one - i won't miss on an everyday basis. and while it sounds like stalker status - it's really not. we email occassionally - on topics i find of interest on her blog - and truly she is a woman i would be honored to call my friend if we really lived closer. and we'd do lunch - and coffee. www.aliedwards.typepad.com she just plain rocks. she lifts me up - she makes me think. she makes me want to be a better friend, wife, mother, artist. she probably thinks i'm a fruitcake. like some crazy groupie fan. but honestly - she's just good people. and i like to surround myself with good people.

so , while most of you head into work, (you know the routine. you get to work, settle in at your desk and then head to the coffee pot, lunch room - where ever people tend to conglomerate in the AM trying to find some steam to push them through the day) - i sit here, hair disheveled, still in my jammies, having just dropped K off at the sitter who lives behind me, checking my email, reading my blogs, making to do lists... trying to find my steam. and Ali's "cubicle" is always the first one i hit. it's coincidence that i have my favs organzied alphabetically and she shows up first - but it's a happy coincidence.

now if she'd only stop by my blog someday.... leave me a comment or two. i'd just totally dig that.

now tomorrow - i want to see how many times i can fit the word habitually into my sentences... hahahaha

10.23.2007

What's your morning routine? a constant mad rush to nowhere fast...What's your bedtime routine? i wish i could sleep - i wish i could sleep - there is NO routine hereWhat's missing from your daily routine? a FRIGGIN ROUTINE IS MISSING!!!What is a habit you're working hard to develop? do you see a trend here? A ROUTINE!!!What is a habit you're working hard to break? lack of motivationAt your favorite restaurant, do you always order the same thing or do you try the special? i like to change it up a bit - but not oftenWhat things do you buy at the grocery store every single time you go? it's almost always the same - salad bags, bananas, apples, carrots - EVERYTIME - soda & juice - EVERYTIME - and then of course milk, bread, waffles, 3 strip steaks...EVERYTIMEWhat would someone close to you say is your most annoying habit? my husband would say my constant glass is half empty philosphy... coworkers would say my glass is half full philosophy, my best friend would say my habitual purchases of paper crafting magazines and then wanting to talk about it with her!!! :)Which outside forces have the biggest impact on your routines? the weather and my depression - i live in upstate NY - the two go hand in hand apparentlyDescribe the person you know who is most driven by habit. my sitter. she has herself, her daughter, and my daughter on such a schedule - it makes perfect sense why my daughter doesn't want to come home half the time!MAN - this was tough. i'm going to bed. i WILL sleep. I WILL make a list and stick to it tomorrow - and my list WILL include me time. I'm mobile. maybe i will just pack up the laptop and go work at starbucks in the AM and Panera in the afternoon!

So - you all know i've been following the inspiring, thought provoking challenges over at www.fancysimple.blogspot.com . Well - this week is about habits. As you know - it only takes 21 days to form one - GOOD or BAD. They've asked us to post a timeline... hopefully none of my colleagues read this.. hehehehe

7:00am - fall out of bed - run to home office - log on to work intranet - begin checking email, etc... take care of "housekeeping" items for work - create to-do list - TRY to get focused on the day. (this NEVER works anymore.)7:30am - run downstairs - make coffee - feed dog - walk in circles a few times trying to figure out what to do next - decide what to make Kennedy for breakfast - riddle myself with guilt because i'm not feeding her 100% organic, unprocessed food... get over the guilt twice as fast - because she eats her damn fruits and vegetables like a motha! so there!!! a frozen waffle never killed anyone!!! walk in a few more circles.. wiping sleep from eyes, oh yes, go to the bathroom, walk in more circles, turn on TV8:00am - the child can SLEEP. go upstairs - gently wake her - she's a BEAR just like me. make sure we get blanky, bunny, guys, farmers, clothes, more guys and go downstairs. often times i'm a sucker and if she asks i will let her "picnic" her breakfast and watch a show. she does not get TV at the sitter - so i don't mind letting her watch a little in the AM... only Sprout or Noggin - that's IT!8:30am - TRY to get her dressed, comb hair, brush teeth - sometimes a fight - sometimes not. she has to be a diva though - so she's got to get CUTE!9:00am - out the door - commute to the sitter9:01am - home. sitter lives behind me.9:02am - BIG cuppa coffee. commute to office9:03am - office is upstairs in house. back into email. check voicemails...9:30am - 4:00pm - this is where it gets chaotic - there is NO structure to my day. I might have 4-6 hours of conference calls in one day - some days none. I work tirelessly on my projects and client setups all day long - often times juggling 4 or 5 clients at a time. all the while i field instant messages from colleagues - either bitching at each other, venting, mentoring, chatting, gossiping...answering phone calls and more emails. i am of the mind set - handle the email immediately and file it away. so i'm checking it all day long. i tried the 9, 12, 3 formula for email - when you work from home - it just doesn't work - looks like you are not accountable... just doesn't work.4:00pm - pick up the girl - play - watch a show - read books - do crafts - whatever she feels like doing - we do...5:00pm - begin dinner6:00pm - eat7:00 pm - tubby715pm - to bedtime - which is never the same anymore - we play, do more crafts, color, read stories, play princess/queen/king, sing, dance, watch a movie - whatever!

after K is in bed - i then soak up my time unproductively into this damn internet. i am a horrid insomniac - and often times am up until 1 or 2 in the morning... and then NEVER sleep an entire night through.

in writing this all out - i need help. I am barely making it from monday to tuesday. i melt down - frequently. i lose it. i cry. i simply get up and walk away from my office and wander around downstairs because for the LIFE of me - i cannot find my drive and focus i used to have. makes me wonder if it isn't time for a big life change. i've been with my job 5 years this February - and while i love it and wouldn't change it for the world... i am beginning to really lose my mind. not working in a traditional office environment has it's ups and downs - and i'm certainly in a downer state right now. i need to find a way to get out of this rut. it's like cabin fever 24/7...

so there - and then you will say to yourself - well no WONDER she's effin sick all the time! she doesn't take care of herself!!!

ok ladies - suggestions? tips on better managin my time? bring it!

and MELONIE - I am tagging YOU to play along with me at Fancy Simple - go on over there - join in - tell em Shelley sent ya!!! PWEEEEESE?

10.19.2007

and I've never even met her in PERSON - and she is just the sweetest thing you'll ever know! She MADE MY WEEK!!!

DO YOU HEAR ME MELONIE????

MADE MY WEEK!

I love little random bits of kindness that travel through the mail!!! LOVE IT! We had a conversation about antique wooden scissors and while she was out junkin and antiquin' she found me a teeny tiny pair... made her think of lil ol me! and she prettified em and sent em too me - along with an S - for Super Shelley and some other lil chippie bits of goodness - oh and of course some blinggity!!!

I've been a card makin fool - preparing for a Split Coast Stampers CNY gathering tomorrow. Of course - beingNEW to this group - I had to - in typical Shelley fashion - bite off more than I could chew - leaving me sputtering and choking to get everything done in time! BUT - I will pull it together! Just hav to cut and prep my shoebox project - and I am good to go. So car I have created 17 6x6 Recipes, 19 Demo Quality Card Fronts, 29 Card Fronts... total of 65 cards completed... only 14 more to go!!!

Truly find out the meaning of Girl Power? Fancy simple wants visual proof. I created THIS. If that ain't some chica power - I don't know WHAT is!!!

Here's proof...

I've always been a mouthy - nothing in this world can stop me - kind of girl. until i had this... a family. still - nothing can stop me - but my focus has shifted. i am no longer focused on just my well being. i am humbled everyday. i am grounded. i am stronger. i realize i really can do it all - with only a little patience and perserverance. i can create a human being. i can shape her and help her grow. i can educate her, empower her, love her, hug & kiss her, smile with her, laugh till my head hurts with her, cry with her...just BE with her. that bond is so intense... it often takes my very breath away. being a momma makes me feel powerful - but being a momma to a little girl - makes me truly eat, breath, and sleep the meaning of girl power.

10.18.2007

more girl power - man! i NEEDED it this week too!!! it's amazing what weight we as women carry - and i ain't talking the junkin your trunk ladies... i'm talking work, family, chores, hobbies - ME TIME! this blog has been giving me a chance to carve a teeny tiny bit of me time into every or every other day or so!

the chicks over at www.fancysimple.blogspot.com have a rockin challenge going on all week. today they want us to list our top fav chick empowering song, book and movie. i am a junkie on all three avenues - so it's tough to choose just one... but here goes:

SONG - I Got Money Now - by PINK

BOOK - In Her Shoes by Elizabeth Weiner (love the movie just as much!)

10.17.2007

So - the theme this week over at Fancy Simple is GIRL POWER!!! I have it - I know you do too! They posted this questionaire. I answered it. I HATE questionaires - but you know what? They really are fun and help you get to know people... easily. Stop over there and check out their stuff... it's GIRLY!!! www.fancysimple.blogspot.com

And then read my questionaire - copy it - answer it - post it to your blog and drop me a comment and let me know you posted with a link to it. There will be a RAK coming to the 7th person posting on my blog with a link to their blog with this questionaire! :O)

1. Name - Shelley May2. Pink - Love it or Hate it? LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!3. Signature shade of lipstick, lipgloss, etc. - these days, Clinique Rootbeer Gloss4. Do you have a best girl friend? - yes ma'am.5. Do you have a woman mentor? - sure do! I have a couple...6. Are you a woman mentor to someone else? - I'd like to think so... but no one's told me.7. Tomboy or Princess? - see #2 - TOTAL PRINCESS!8. Favorite Girl Band - lately - tons... Regina Spektor, Ingrid Michelson, Corrine Bailey Rae9. Are you a mom? -Do you want to be one? - I am - to ONE and DONE.10. Do you and your mom have any rituals? - not anymore. we live 3000 miles apart11. Fashion magazines - yea or nay. - not so much anymore12. Do you have a feel good outfit? - not anymore - nothing fits. and i wear sweats to work!13. Have you called your grandma or special aunt, or special older lady lately? - wish I had one...14. Signature Scent? - Lovely15. Favorite female tv character - Nora from Brothers and Sisters - I hope to be half the mom she is.16. Favorite place to hang out with gal pals? - anywhere scrappy17. Did you ever ditch your girl friends to be with a guy? Do you still? - not even once18. Friend you call when you need a laugh? - Joaney19. Friend you call when you need a shoulder to cry on? - Joaney - poor Joaney - she gets lots of phone calls20. Have you reminded your friends of how much they mean to you lately? see 18 & 19 - DAILY

10.15.2007

Ok - so my friends over at A Fancy Word For Simple have posted a challenge. And I like a good challenge... PLUS - their site always gets my head working and makes me think - or sometimes just plain laugh. AngieOH is a sweetpea and always leaves me praise and kind words on my blog! so pop on over! Take a peek - and play along! They've got a great sense of humor over there!

10.12.2007

Ok - so I know I have traffic on this blog. Why do you come here? What do you gain? Are you a voyeur and find pleasure in that - peeking into my life yet not being a part of it? Or are you looking for a laugh, motivation, blog candy? What would you LIKE to see on here? What would you like to see less?

Let me know... and LURKERS... I KNOW YOU ARE OUT THERE! IT'S RUDE NOT TO INTRODUCE YOURSELF AT A PARTY - DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT????

check out this site. you can never do enough to help our school systems. i especially care to reach out to the arts program. being a theatre major myself - i knew it was always a struggle in school to get the funding we needed for our productions. i was fortunate and went to a HS with a brand new - state of the art - million dollar theatre built my freshman year. some students don't even have drama as an optionin school! can you believe that?

i found this cause on donorschoose.com and felt it tied to my love of the arts and scrapbooking. this teacher wants enough money to buy a digital camera and printer for her classroom. she wants to record the kids lives of learning! AND - she wants them to write about their photos and record memories! hello! she wants to TEACH THE JOY of scrap arts!!!

so - click on my thermometer at the sidebar - donate a little - donate a lot... just DO IT!

10.09.2007

well - here it is so far. MY SPACE! I am VERY fortunate to have an entire room (bedroom) dedicated to my home office and scrap studio! granted - the space is not huge - but it is mine and i can do what I want in here! even get paint on my desk if i want to! HAH! i'm totally into organizing everything right now - and since i have - i've been on a creating binge - and not get frustrated because i can't find this - or don't have room to lay this out - etc. i'm posting pics in the hopes i might help others get off their arses and organize - and help some see different uses for common - everyday household items! (my clothes drying rack turned embellishment storage device!) most of my goodies have come from The Christmas Tree Shops, Ikea, TJ Maxx, or Marshalls. let me know if you have questions! the colors are a little wonky - the walls are a dark turquoise - inspired by the SEI Paisley collection.. the closet has NOT been painted - it was that lovely shade of puke purple when we moved in! it will eventually be Polar Bear White - my most favorite white white paint. thanks for looking!

this is my desk. Ron built this for me - inspired by the $1000 desk I wanted from Pottery Barn and the $600 one I wanted from Pier One. $167 in wood, nails, paint, and a plexiglass top - i was in business. it is 3 feet deep x 6 feet long! HUGE!

this is my closet. took the doors off. Ron built shelves to fit my needs.we still have to come up with something to do in the space on the bottom right. my work printer is a big ol' laser printer that takes up a GREAT deal of room - that is on the floor on the left.. so we have this unused space on the right... i see a ribbon storage unit being built! the dark brown baskets hold the following: adhesive, paint/embossing powder/glitter, any sort of cutter and punch,tools (heat gun, sidekick, etc) embellishment boxes (this is for gems, brads, metals, etc - anything that can't hang up) I also have a section on the shelves dedicated to alterable stuff i pick up along my travels. those little blue cans - bottom right? they came in a three pack - blue, cream, red - at Dollar General @ 70% off... they were $2.40 for three. I bought 9! this is my answer to the severely overpriced Clip It Up. I think I paid $2.49 for this at IKEA. It is a wall mounted clothes drying rack. I used large jump rings and hang everything from there. they are grouped by type - rubons, bling, word stuff, floral stuff, journal blocks, chipboard...

found this little shelf at CTS for $1.99. it was hunter green and had seed packet labels on it. i peeled the labels off, spray painted white perfect to hold buttons and random stuff on the hooks...

this is my ribbon solution for now. i hoard ribbon like mad. i stack the spools on the floor in the corner. the thing on the wall is a cheapo shoe bag/closet organizer thing from dollar tree. i use it to store scrap ribbon by color. so far it works out great.

i tend to scrap by color so everything is sorted that way. it REALLY is a huge time saver when searching for just the right thing. paper storage is currently in the works. I had two retail size paper towers - but they took up too much floor space - so i am slowly converting to vertical cropper hopper storage units. i'll have to find a cabinet to store all my paper in - possibly under the window behind my desk. i also need to find a small table for my sewing machine that can double as a workspace for a scrapping buddy.

some musical inspiration for you today. this is one of my best friends all the way back from high school. i've bragged about him before. he truly rocks. truly. he is pure. he is a good man. (he's single ladies!) i have his CD in the car - and when kennedy hears it - she says "momma! ron is in there!!!" too cute!

i have been creating a bit lately. feels good. i love going to bed stained with ink. pure goodness. having the studio clean and organized helps. makes clean up a cinch and not a dread. makes finding things a breeze. again - pure goodness.

i am feeling the funk begin to lift just a little bit. i read an interesting article on despression last night in real simple magazine. i always knew depression affected you physically. i blame it for how i feel physically on most days. i am open about my depression. i have been fighting it since i was about 17. it's old hat. i just wish doctors would tackle it a little more seriously. a little more agressively. get to know their patients a little better - and know that we lie to them. "yeah - i know this feeling is only temporary..." it's a flat out lie. so - here's my plan - i'm going to tell my doctor this - that is when and if he ever decides to call me back.

so - no ranting - not today. today is going to be a good day. period. i wrote it and published it so it must be true, right? so i just look to my friend ron - for inspiration. he has fought much adversity in his life and he always manages to rise above it. in spite of it all.

peace my faithful blogger friends... i feel a give-away coming on.... just because i am in a good mood. and i've got too much crap... i am going to conjure up a contest... or challenge... check back later - but the first challenge? tell your friends... i need more traffic on this bloggity!

10.05.2007

above blog title post left on my voicemail by a VERY elderly, hard of hearing woman, whom I called back to let her know she had the WRONG FRIGGIN NUMBER!!! I called the number back and told her she had the wrong number and the next time she dialed a wrong number - it would be polite to NOT leave expletives on someone's BUSINESS voicemail! It was then I discovered she was elderly, she screamed at me to slow down - that she was hard of hearing - I then yelled slowly - "YOU'VE GOT THE WRONG NUMBER - MA'AM! I AM NOT BLUE CROSS BLUE SHIELD! HAVE A PLEASANT DAY!!!"

All I ask - Dear Lord - please do not allow me to be so rude in my senile, dark, bitter days of life when trying to contact the insurance company because they never pay enough to cover the cost of my medical expenses when I am living on a fixed income of $900 a month having worked full time since i was practically 16 years of age.. making my entire work career aproximately 75 years. Please Lord... there but before the Grace of God go I.

10.04.2007

Ok - so tonight is the night. It will determine how I feel about the rest of the season of Grey's Anatomy. It is my escape from the week. An escape from all that irritates, angers, frustrates, boggles, upsets, confuses - ME! It's MY TIME. So I was cruising around my head for something thought provoking - something funny - something riveting. NOTHING. I once again - feel like crap. I look like crap. I probably smell like crap. I am crap. wait - let me search the origin of the word crap - i use it a TON!

Wikipedia says this:

The word "crap" is old in the English language, one of a group of verbs applied to discarded cast offs, like "residue from renderings" (1490s) or in Shropshire, "dregs of beer or ale", meanings probably extended from Middle English crappe "chaff, or grain that has been trodden underfoot in a barn" (c. 1440s), deriving ultimately from Late Latin crappa, "chaff".

That sums it up beautifully... I feel as though I have been trodden underfoot in an effin barn! (prob. look that way too , today.)

So - sweet blog friends - I leave you with some Mc - Isms... I hope you enjoy this as much as I did! (compliments of www.wikipedia.com)

Happy Grey's Day!

McLabellingIn Grey's Anatomy, the characters coin certain important words that are often used in their dialogue with the prefix "Mc". This trend is known as McLabelling.[1] There have been many instances where they have used McLabelling to describe and highlight certain events or characters:[edit] Season 1McBird - The first of the trend used by another intern to describe the patient that George is performing on. (Episode 1: A Hard Day's Night)McDreamy - The nickname given to Derek Shepherd by Cristina Yang. (Episode 2: The First Cut is the Deepest)[edit] Season 2McMarried - Used by George O'Malley to describe Derek Shepherd's marital status. (Episode 1: Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head)McWhat - said by Izzie after she found out that Derek was married. (Episode 1: Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head)McDog - The dog shared by Derek and Meredith named Doc. (Episode 16: It's the End of the World)McLife - the term used by Meredith to describe Addison Montgomery-Shepherd's influence over her life. Addison has Derek and now her dog. (Episode 16: It's the End of the World)McSexy - a suggestion for a nickname for Mark Sloan when he first arrived to Seattle Grace. (Episode 18: Yesterday)McYummy - another suggestion for a nickname for Mark Sloan. (Episode 18: Yesterday)McSteamy - the nickname that Izzy, Meredith and Christina agreed for Mark Sloan. (Episode 18: Yesterday)McVomit - the term for George's disgust of the new nickname for Mark Sloan.(Episode 18: Yesterday)McHot - used by Alex Karev to describe Addison Montgomery-Shepherd.(Episode 18: Yesterday)McYeah - George's assertion with the term used to describe Addison. (Episode 18: Yesterday)McDreamy - While this nickname is used to describe Derek Shepherd, Izzy also uses this nickname to describe George being the centre of Callie's attraction. (Episode 22: Name of the Game)McVet - given to veterinarian Finn Dandridge. (Episode 23: Blues for Sister Someone)[edit] Season 3McGuilty - what Cristina calls Derek following his extramarital sex with Meredith at the prom that is being hosted in the hospital. (Episode 1: Time Has Come Today)McBaby - what Cristina calls Meredith’s suspected pregnancy. (Episode 4: What I Am)McNasty - George describing what Derek had allegedly done with the woman in his trailer. Unbeknownst to them, the woman was Derek's sister, Nancy. (Episode 6: Let the Angels Commit)McHottie - George's term for Derek's sister, Nancy. (Episode 6: Let the Angels Commit)McBastard - George labelling Derek, assuming that he was going to have intercourse with the woman in his trailer.(Episode 6: Let the Angels Commit)McSister - given to Derek's sister, Nancy. (Episode 6: Let the Angels Commit)McBitchy - Izzie refers to Derek’s sister, Nancy, after she insinuates that Meredith is the reason for the Shepherds’ divorce. (Episode 6: Let the Angels Commit)McFreakin' Code of Silence - Callie yells at Meredith about telling George her secret affair with Sloan (Episode 9: From a Whisper to a Scream)McSex - Callie’s reference to catching Meredith and Derek having sex at the prom.(Episode 9: From a Whisper to a Scream)McLove Life - Christina's reference to Meredith's relationships (Episode 16: Drowning on Dry Land)McCrap - Christina describing Meredith's problems.(Episode 16: Drowning on Dry Land)[edit] "Seriously"The characters often say "seriously", usually at the end of a sentence, as a question or as a pronouncement. Krista Vernoff is credited with the introduction of the catchphrase, "seriously" into the dialogue of Grey's Anatomy episodes. Series creator Shonda Rhimes says that Vernoff used it frequently in the writer's room, and "said correctly, it can convey sarcasm, dismay, disbelief, a sense of moral and ethical superiority, and gentle chastising punishment, all at once."[2][edit] Sexually-Related TermsNetwork censors make it difficult for writers to use sexually-related terms such as the word "vagina", which has led to several euphemisms for female genitalia or other sexually-related terms. These include:"va-jay-jay" (Season 2 - Episode 17: As We Know It [Part 2])"good girl" (Season 2 - Episode 24: Damage Case)"hoo-hoo" (Season 3 - Episode 21: Desire).In addition, network censoring caused the writers to use the phrase "cashing in [her] V-card" (Season 2 - Episode 27: Losing My Religion)was used as a euphemism for losing one's virginity.[edit] "Whatever"Meredith's dialogue involves her talking and using well-known phrases but she trails off at the end and replaces the last word with "whatever".[edit] Season 3"There are rules to this friendship thing or whatever" (Episode 7: Where the Boys Are)"There's too much water under the thing or whatever" (Episode 7: Where the Boys Are)"You are not my knight in shining whatever" (Episode 15: Walk on Water)"I had a near-death whatever" (Episode 18: Scars and Souvenirs)

10.02.2007

Regina Spektor... pure musical bliss for me. ok - so loving her hair in this video... but besides that - just listening to these words makes me happy. especially - "if you never say your name out loud to anyone they can never call you by it..."

10.01.2007

so - i have a really vivid imagination. and i so love grey's anatomy (though was a little let down by this season's premiere. i will wait until next week and see if they can redeem themselves with me.) i digress...

so - i have this dream. it's like in technicolor. i am in the back yard of what should someday be my dream house. i am with a girl friend explaining the landscaping project "we" are working on , having done, etc. i am telling her - "we" are doing this, "we" are doing that, all the while the landscape crew is working moving around this HUGE rocks. boulders if you will. (IRL - i love rocks in landscape - lots of them) so there is this huge hole in the ground where a pool used to be (this is true in my real life too) and the crew are moving these boulders into this hole - to fill it in and then begin covering it with dirt fill. all the while i am telling my friend out plans - i have the coolest dog at me feet. and up walks the other half of me... he bends down to pet the dog - and only then do i realize the other half of ME is MCDREAMY! and he freaks out. starts yelling at the crew telling them that was not what "WE" wanted to do with the rocks! he says - "haven't i told you people enough how important these rocks are to my WIFE! she loves ROCKS!"

OK - STOP LAUGHING. i cracked up when i woke up from the dream. what's funny about it... the guys i used to date when i was a teen were very patrick dempsey like in his younger age... i need some sleep...............

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today's thoughts...

"Often people attempt to live their lives backwards; they try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want, so they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then do what you need to do, in order to have what you want."~ Margaret Young