"What lies behind us and lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us."
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Friday, October 28, 2011

Protected

For some people, the existence of angels is questionable. It is something that requires faith and maybe stepping out on a limb. I can understand this point of view.

For me however, I have never doubted that there are many, many individuals on the other side of the veil, that are constantly watching over us, and at times, making bold moves to protect us or warn us. This week, the angels were very near my little Sammy, and I am so grateful.

On Tuesday, as Sam was eating a bowl of frozen berries, I was reading a few things and cleaning the kitchen. I heard his spoon crash to the floor, and glanced over at him. He was completely blue and trying to get off the stool and over to me. He was choking.

So many things can go through the human mind in a few seconds at a time like this. My first thought was of worry. I was scared that by doing the heimlich maneuver, I would break his ribs. I also thought about when to call 911. I was also trying to remember first aid. I was scared out of my mind. As Sammy slowly slipped out of consciousness, I grabbed his little body and as soon as I pulled him off of the stool to begin first aid, the jerking motion helped him to swallow the strawberry that was lodged in his throat. To me, this was a miracle. It was a whole strawberry! That thing wasn't going anywhere without some divine intervention. I believe angels were near.

As Sam gasped for air, we both cried and I hugged my little boy a little tighter the rest of the day.

I wish I could say, that was the end of it, but it was only the beginning.

On Wednesday evening, I was just finishing up with Activity Days, and making sure all of the girls had a way to get home. Sam asked if he could play outside in our circle, and I said yes.

I wish I could say that I had some thought or premonition about him, but I didn't. I didn't think twice really.

A few minutes later, I heard Ben yell Sam's name. He was just pulling in the driveway after work. The yell didn't sound good. Ben came blasting through the door carrying Sam who was screaming his head off. Sam had blood dripping from his ear.

I am not a doctor, but I have 6 years of Sports Medicine studies in my brain, as well as a CNA certification. (that is now totally outdated) I know full well, that blood from the ear is a bad thing, a really bad thing.

Ben had found Sam running home screaming, and it looked like he had been hit by a construction truck that was parked in our circle. Ben and I were worried.

Sam eventually told us, through sobs, that he had been hit in the head with a golf club. It was an accident. The kid that hit him, is a very strong and very coordinated kid. The hit was hard.

Sam screamed and screamed and screamed. His ear bled and swelled. I soon saw that the blood was coming from a cut on his ear, not from inside his ear. That gave me some relief. Sam eventually went into shock, and again scared me to death. He was literally writhing on the couch in pain.

We called a doctor, who told us she couldn't give us info over the phone. It was after hours, and we really didn't think much could be done for an ear, so we just tried to help Sam, and eventually he calmed down and fell asleep.

This part kills me. I know better than this. What was I thinking! I let him fall asleep! My kid was just smashed in the head and he was sleeping. I can't believe I didn't think more about it. How many tests did I take about this. How many times were signs and symptoms of concussions drilled into my head. I was more concerned about his ear, and for some reason, I wasn't thinking much about a head injury. ugh

And then the clear fluid began dripping out. It dripped and dripped and dripped. Sam slept in our bed with us, and I had a napkin that I had to keep dabbing his ear with. Thank goodness, I did recognize this as a bad sign, and I knew more was wrong.

The next morning I took Sam to the doctor. She saw the clear fluid and the swelling of Sams ear, and then declared Sam's injury as an emergency and sent us to a specialist in Salt Lake. (yes, this all went down on Ben's Birthday). I had to pull Mary out of school early, and jet up to Salt Lake. Ben met us there. The specialist was booked solid, but got us in. He said that Sam's ear needed to be stitched, but it was too late now. Geeze. He also suspected a skull fracture, and possibly a bleed in the brain and sent us to Primary Childrens for a CAT scan. A bleed in the brain can be fatal and can slowly happen over a few days without many signs or symptoms.

I am sure you can guess the freak out going on in our heads as parents as this point.

We dropped Mary off at gymnastics and headed up to Primary Childrens. It took 30 minutes to get Sam to do the CAT scan. He was absolutely terrified of the machine. The technician tried everything to help him. Toys, bubbles, stickers, ect. The last resort was to sedate him, and we REALLY didn't want to do that. They finally had to strap him down to the bed. It was horrible. The killer, is that he had to be completely still. I prayed and prayed and prayed. And all of the sudden, Sam just calmed down and held still. Another miracle. More help for unseen sources.

A few minutes later the specialist called us and gave us the lowdown.No bleeding in the brain!!!! I can't describe the relief.Sam's skull is very bruised and he has a hairline fracture to his skull as well. Because the fracture was small, we were able to come home with Sam, with strict orders for him to lay low and be careful. (not easy for a 4 year old boy)

Although, it is a very serious injury for my little boy, I feel that we were blessed. It could have been so much worse. There is no reason it wasn't worse. I know that Sam was protected this week in so many ways. Prayers are answered and angels exist.

Today we are celebrating Ben's Birthday, and we are all walking a little lighter knowing that Sam is going to be ok.

Oh my goodness, we are all so glad Sam is alright. That had to have been beyond scary. Our Tucker is pretty accident prone and I know angels have protected him many times, so I know exactly what you mean. Give Sam a little kiss on the head from us and he'll be in our prayers.

Angels are out there and I am glad that they were with you. I am so sorry that this all had to happen to you. Please let me know if you need anything! I will be there in a minute, okay, maybe 45 minutes, but still. You know I am here!

Grandma JoJo in the McDonalds Drive through, after the guy gave her the food..

JoJo: "Thanks a million."

Mary: "Was his name amillion?"

Mary: "Hey mom..I know what time it is.

Becky: "Oh really, well, what time is it?"

Mary: "It is 3 PMS"

After an entier day of Sam bawling his eyes out from getting his two year molars.

Mary: "Dad, I am sick of babies crying all day. I just need to go somewhere where I can be a kid...like Chucky Cheeses."

(the commercial for the place says "where a kid can be a kid." She has never been there, and neither have I, but obviously, we will go soon.

This is a conversation Mary had on the phone with grandma.

"I have too many necklaces, so my mom bought some hookers. We put the hookers in my room and I put all of my necklaces and bracelets on them. Now my necklaces aren't all over anymore. I like my hookers."

(she is talking about the hooks I hung on her wall in her "Diva Corner.")

Mom: Hey Mary guess what! I have a baby in my tummy. You will get a new baby brother or sister soon.

Mary: Looking at my tummy..."Well, where is it?"

Mom: It is so small that you can't tell it is there yet. In a while the baby will get bigger and so will mommy's tummy. Then you will be able to see it all better.

Mary: Oh yeah! And then you POP!!!!

Mom: No, I don't exactly "pop" Mary.

Mary: Of course you do, just like a balloon. They get bigger and bigger and then they just pop! Don't be scared mom, it will be o.k. , I really like balloons.

Mary: (holding up a dollar she found). "Hey mom, I have some cash!"

Mom: "Sam, you need to behave a little better please."

Sam:"But mom, I am being have.

Mom:"huh?"

Sam: "how can I be have if I don't even know who have is?"

Mom: Mary's lets get in the car. Mary: Are we taking the "stick?" (she meant stick shift, cracks me up)

Dad:"Sam, have fun at preschool and remember what we talked about ok."

Sam:"I know,I know, be nice to the humans."

Mary: Why do you not say anything when you read your scriptures? Ben: Because I read them in my head, kind of like when Jesus speaks to us, he speaks to us in our minds.

Mary: Well, how does Jesus fit in there?

Mary: Pointing to a complete stranger sitting on the sidewalk smoking.. "See mom, there is the man ( it was actually a woman) that smokes. He is going to DIE!!!"

Luckily the woman just laughed and said, "she is probably right."

Mary: "I saw Jesus' foot today, he almost stepped on our house."

Mary.."So mom, is Jesus' middle name Christ?" Is His name Jesus Christ Maynard?"

Mary: "Grandma came here and told me to do it, then she left really fast."

Mary: when she is in trouble (yelling) "mom...here's the deal, lets just talk about it, you are my very best friend!"

Mary: "I have a baby in my tummy. His name is Choko, he is 36months old."