Online blog written by a female with Asperger Syndrome.

The conclusions that I’ve came to…

After I told everyone involved what had gone on from both sides, I then got more charges added to my name. This draws me to the conclusion that they all knew what had been going on behind my back all this time. It seems that I was the last one to know. Mainly because I have been set up. That is the only possible explanation. Those that stood by and let this happen knowing that I was being set up are just as guilty as those carrying out the actions. I don’t give a flying f*ck if contracts were signed. There is such a thing as morally doing the right thing. I refuse to be sent to prison and scapegoated for the things that others should be taking responsibility for. It is totally immoral to set me up and then blame me. I am mentally torn apart knowing that they’re all hell bent on scapegoating me and I have no power to convince a court that I do not deserve it. Others still have a chance to ‘do the right thing’ but they aren’t. I’m at least making a huge effort to do what the other party wants, which is not contacting them, despite my OCD making me extremely distressed. The least others can do is collaborate together to ‘drop all charges’. I don’t care about the restraining order being left on for now. I did care because of career implications, but I just want all this legal stuff to be over due to the fact that it’s badly distressing me mentally. The other side can have it their way because they’ve won for the time being. I was told by two police officers that if I stuck to it for a substantial amount of years, then it wouldn’t end up indefinite because the court would see me as reformed. I didn’t know this before I broke it. All the solicitors that I spoke to told me that the other side had to be the one to remove it.

Others still have a chance to ‘do the right thing’ but they aren’t. I’m at least making a huge effort to do what the other party wants, which is not contacting them, despite my OCD making me extremely distressed. The least others can do is collaborate together to ‘drop all charges’. I don’t care about the restraining order being left on for now. I did care because of career implications, but I just want all this legal stuff to be over due to the fact that it’s badly distressing me mentally. The other side can have it their way because they’ve won for the time being. I was told by two police officers that if I stuck to it for a substantial amount of years, then it wouldn’t end up indefinite because the court would see me as reformed. I didn’t know this before I broke it. All the solicitors that I spoke to told me that the other side had to be the one to remove it. That is why I tried to push them. I was following instructions. I was told that convincing the other party was the only way that I could get that. I can feel myself being pushed into a mental breakdown because my head needs this to be all over before it blows a fuse.