Time continues to pass me byFading in and outSoon they'll be nothing leftNothing left but darkness for mebut they'll be light for you

You'll always be thereYou're the balm to my sorethe yin to my yangthe one I crave to be the mostthe one I find myself yearning to bethe one I know I can never become

but the one I want the most

Faith is a powerful thingsomething I can no longer graspPerhaps I'm lost foreverbut maybe I'm notI guess we'll never knowbut we can only sit and hopefor a brand new day to comewhere darkness turns to lightand with light brings hope

When that day comes the river will flow againTime will find itself stilledand in this stillness my faith will return

I guess this is just my wayof letting you knowthat without youthere's nothing left to live forthere's no hopeno dreamsno rivers flowing or days of lightlosing you means losing myselfand slowly losing my faithand with that loss of faith come darknessdarkness and a hollow roada hollow road that leads to a hollow hearta hollow heart filled with hollowed dreams and hollowed hopesAnd nothing else to live for

I'm losing my faithLittle by littleLike a stream that finally gave upand started to trickle

Dear God,I know it's been awhile, since I've written to you.But what to write, I had not a clueThere was this girl, a friend of minewho had beautiful eyes, and hair that would shine.She was pretty, and she was sweetShe made me feel, as if I were completeTogether we'd spend hours, alone at nightCuddling and kissing, until it got lightMaybe I sinned, maybe it was wrongbut my feelings for her, were too damn strongI asked her to marry me, and she said yesWhat happened next, you can only guess

Time went by and the years slipped awaybut no matter what, I'll remember the daythe day she came to me, with tears in her eyesbut they were not tears of sorrow, nor of demiseThey were tears of joy, as she sat me downand told me just what, the doctor had foundInside her womb now grew a childAnd for a moment, I went wildFor this was great news for someone like meIt was hard to believe, I was a father-to-be

I know you don't understand why I did not writeWhen I had a future, so happy and brightI promise I was thankful, and grateful for it allat least until the day I got the callthe one from the hospital, where my son was bornthe call that left me, feeling torn

I don't know why you did it, I don't understandWhy all this pain I had to withstand?You called my son to the heavens aboveWhere he would be yours to hold and to lovebut why God, why did she go too?Was one death not enough for me to go through?I just don't know what I'm supposed to doI've tried hard all my life to try and please youI went to church, I said my prayersI had a cross up and downstairs

but I guess that wasn't enough for youand all this pain I must go throughand I have no one by my sidebut at least I could say that I triedto keep you happy, but it couldn't be doneYou took away my wife, after my sonso here's the letter I promised to writewhen my future was, happy and brightbut things have changed and so have II spent all my time, trying to get bybut I just can't seem to find it in meto just let things go, and let them beI find myself wishing it had been me you had takenwishing you realized, that you were mistakenand come down and take me awayso with my wife in heaven I can staybut that's impossible and now I know whyeverything I learned about you was a liethere is no God, you do not existNo matter how much others insistbecause the God they claim to knowis not one who would sink so lowto take away a man's wife, and his sonso now in my hand, lies a gunbut it's not for you, it's for mebecause now my eyes are open, I finally seethat without you standing in my waywith my wife and son I can layand together we'll be, in the land of the lostwhere we'll be happy, no matter the costAmen

Violets are blueRoses are redI wrote this for youWith a song in my headOh, how the sun will shine, the day you become mineAnd how the clouds will weepWhen my heart's, yours to keepThe birds they will singFor me there will be a ringFor once my life will be completeFor you, my heart will always beatBut I cannot say the same for youBefore long, you'll say we're throughThose words will pierce, my very heartBecause I cannot bear, to be apartAnd with my heart filled with sorrowI'll make sure there's no tomorrow

Happy Birthday MomIt's a special day for youBlow out the candlesMake your dreams come true

Watch the flames as they flicker lowWatch them until it's time to go

It's been a year and time just fliesEspecially when this one was filled with goodbyesIt's hard to believe you're no longer herebut in my heart you'll always be dear

So I wish that this birthday for you is the bestand your soul forever lays at restForever I'll love and miss youAnd even though my mood is blueI wrote this poem just for youand at your gravestone these words shall layAs a gift from me on your birthday

As I was coming home from work today,I came across a woman who was old and grayand in her arms what did I see?A letter addressed From Me To MeCurious, I asked what the letter saidThe woman she sighed and shook her headAt first I doubted she would say a wordbut soon she started in a voice I barely heard

"It's to a young woman I once knew.A woman who was beautiful and whose love was true.She had a lot to live for but threw it awayand that is something she regrets to this day"

And with a sigh the woman finished her pieceshe turned away and looked as if her worries would ceasewhen that letter she wrote was mailed away

And on my mind this scene will stayFor I could not help but wonder if I'd be the sameWas my life really as great as I would like to claimor was it something a little less?If I wrote a letter to me what would I confess?

Would I write the words I was afraid to say?The words I've been wanting to say since that day?The day you told me you were leaving for goodand it was in our best interest that you shouldWould I break down and say the words that have long stood true?Would I finally admit that I love you?Or will I wallow and waitto accept my fateBecause the truth was too hard to bear?

Denial is a beautiful thingIt keeps one both strong and saneAnd no matter what I doMy scars will remainYou know you weren't thereThe times when I needed you the mostThe times when all I wanted was to hold you close

I know things have changed and so have youBut it's still hard to forgive after all I've been throughI loved you but you let me downAnd in my sorrow I felt I would drownYou said you were sorry, you were filled with regretBut no matter what I could never forgetAll those times you left me standing byThose times I wished I could just dieIf you didn't want me then what could I do?I was nothing without youYou were my life, my futurebut soon that changed too

But, if I wrote a letter to myself, what would I write?That I had a future so happy and bright?That I threw it away and now it's too lateor that I changed things around and set them straight?

I guess only time will tell, but one thing I do knowIs that no matter how far in life I will goI will remember that woman, old and grayAnd remember the words she said that dayThe very words that I needed to hearTo bring you back home where I'll hold you dear

Forever and ever in my arms once againAnd together, a letter to me we'll send

Mirrors lieThey bring out the worst in youFor no reason at allThey show your flawsbut never your beauty

They make you feel fatThey make you look uglyThey tear at your confidenceThey break down your self-esteemThey take you apart

No one escapes themNot even the best of usThat perfect girl three doors down?She spends hours in front of the mirrorTaking in it's liesFeeding on it's beliefsGiving in and giving upShe loses herself in the mirrorJust like everyone else

Like puppets on a stringWe all give inWe all fall victimWe suffer and agonizeWanting to turn awayHating to give inbut the allure is too greatthe lies are too strong

Mirrors - they lieThey show you your flawsbut never your beautythey break you downthey suck you in and close around you

You can't escapeAnd though you pretend otherwiseDeep down you know the truthDeep down you know why

Breaking free makes pulling awayAnd trusting in yourselfAnd if you fall shortThere's no one to blame but you

It's better to blame the mirrorsMirrors and their seductive liesMirrors and their hollow promisesTheir false hopes and tainted beliefs

Being different is not an optionIt never wasTry as we mightWe're all the same insideWe're puppets on a stringGiving into hollow promisesBelieving the lies that are easy to see throughUgly, fat, weakNot one of those lies are trueAnd yet we believe themWe believe in the mirrors and when things go wrongWe blame them too

Because we all know It's better to blame the mirrorsThan your own weakness