Month: March 2017

“The symbol of Goddess gives us permission. She teaches us to embrace the holiness of every natural, ordinary, sensual dying moment. Patriarchy may try to negate body and flee earth with its constant heartbeat of death, but Goddess forces us back to embrace them, to take our human life in our arms and clasp it for the divine life it is – the nice, sanitary, harmonious moment as well as the painful, dark, splintered ones.

If such a consciousness truly is set loose in the world, nothing will be the same. It will free us to be in a sacred body, on a sacred planet, in sacred communion with all of it. It will infect the universe with holiness. We will discover the Divine deep within the earth and the cells of our bodies, and we will lover her there with all our hearts and all our souls and all our minds.”
― Sue Monk Kidd, The Dance of the Dissident Daughter

What powerful words! How true they ring to my ears.

I have always been a worshipper of the Dasamahavidya and have used these ten archetypes to meditate on and gain clarity and wisdom. Invoking the Devis have changed my life completely every time, with every prayer and every invocation. In fact my latest obsession is to create a tarot deck on the Mahavidyas, the great Tantric Goddesses.

Yes I speak to my Goddesses who come to me in different forms. They play with me, teach me, love me and are a HUGE part of my life. But then so is Mary Magdalene whom I meditate upon and invoke as well, like Ishtar, Diana, Freya and many more.

I have been lucky to have performed many Bagalamukhi homas, Mahakala and Chinnamasta homa as well with Dhumavati beej. Ok this is probably sounding gibberish to you. But please don’t flake off.

Hang on! There is much to be gained today when we invoke the Goddess archetype into our lives. And I introduce to you Maa Bagalamukhi who is one of my favourites. In fact I have been initiated into her sadhana for a few years now by one of the most eminent sadhaks alive today.

I am going to simplify her Sanskrit long prayer, give you her beeja and explain her worship. But I have adapted her worship and it might seem totally different from Bagala sadhana practised conventionally.

Some of you may be aware that the occult Navaratri is taking place now. Nine when when ten aspects of the DIVINE MOTHER are venerated. These “aspects” are Kali, Tara, Shodoshi, Bhubaneshwari, Bharavi, Chinnamasta, Dhumavati, Bagala, Matangi and Kamala. Don’t worry about the names, you can google them up in your leisure, but just concentrate on Bagala for now.

You can sage your house and create your sacred space. You may use her image on your altar or you might use any golden stone like Pyrite. You can also use her Yantra which is the representation of this energy in a sacred geometry pattern.

After you have created your space and brought your psychic energy to full focus on whatever object you are using to invoke this energy. Start by invoking Ganapati by saying Om Vakratundaya Hum!

Then keep reciting Ling as many times as you like. Ling is her sacred beeja or seed sound. Ling! Keep saying it and notice how you feel. Close you eyes and say it. Say it loud and feel the vibrations inside your body. Whisper it and feel the resonance and also chant it silently. Try to feel the vibrations deep inside.

After a certain time, you will begin to vibrate with energy. The Goddess would have entered your consciousness through the symbol you are choosing to activate. Just remember to observe the feelings inside as you keep saying ling.

You may or may not use vermillion and til seeds, sandal wood powder and flowers to offer while you keep chanting ling. Once the ling is vibrating inside, then sit in silence. You can close your eyes and call the Goddess. You may have an internal dialogue with her.

After you have bathed in the Goddes energy, begin to sing hymns. You can do it as a recitation or just say it mentally.

“We are healed of a suffering only by experiencing it to the full.”
― Marcel Proust

I can vouch for that. With every break I allowed the light to enter. I allowed the pain to cease. I managed to grow and evolve, every single time my heart has been broken. Being an Empath, I am anyways swimming in the seas of heartbreak(animal agriculture, famine, child abuse…too many atrocities to face in this dystopian world), but this Saturn in Sag getting anointed as the Wise ONE with Cosmic Downloads from the very heart of our Galactic Centre has left me dealing with a lot of the emotions that had broken my heart. But today I tell you, I embrace all those emotions that refuse to give up my company. They will not let me forget the angst, the pain, the desolation…but hey, wait!!! It is those very emotions that have healed me and continue doing so.

I can’t tell you how KARMIC and fated this Saturn transit feels for me. Saturn and Chiron are talking since 2016 and three vital connects have to happen- the first one was in Dec 28th 2016 and the second one is today, the 30th of Apr 2017 and the last one will be in Nov 2 , 2017.

Saturn is grinding to a halt and is about to go retro on Apr 6th, and with the square in play, he is about to give structure and comprehension to our wounds. The last square of Saturn was with Neptune. That really shifted my POV. The major theme was- REALITY VS DREAMS! I can tell you it made me take a lot of practical actions to realise my dream and slowly but surely I launched Tinaheals, my IP. Dreams started to take tangible shape. But before that Neptune managed to dissolve every single structure I held dear.

Saturn in Sag definitely has a totally different vibe to it. It is more philosophical and is vibing off the Sagi penchant for truth. Saturn in Sag going retrograde will have us uncover a lot of what truth means to us, how we digest it, how we interpret it. Truth will come under a lot of scrutiny when Saturn is in such a placement. You know what we need to remember- that underlying all this ILLUSION, our TRUTH is ONE and the same, in a state of wholeness. But in this material world, our truths differ widely. But deep down we all bleed, we all care about our loved ones, we all dream of a better tomorrow. So OUR TRUTH IS ONE, but how many will see it that way?

I am so fucking sick of the phrase- Time heals all wounds. No time does nothing! Time dies not exist! It is YOU who picks up the pain, it is YOU who keeps scabbing at it, it is again YOU who finally has to decide to let it heal. Time does nothing, which is why PAIN and suffering are carried on to the next incarnations.

Chiron’s involvement is all about making us aware of that pain, showing us how that pain feels in real time and then if we are lucky, Chiron will invoke his shamanic powers and poof! All our pain is gone! Gone are the miseries- finite and infinite.

Chiron is sitting in mystical Pisces which is the sign of the Empath, the Healer. What does that mean? Chiron is learning about how to heal wounds that have arisen from Pisces’ lower vibrations like too much sensitivity and emotions gone haywire. In fact xenophobia and hatred for other cultures can also stem from being too sensitive and uptight about one’s own. This is the time to address this issue. Pisces is also the sign of delusion. So how are we deluding ourselves when it comes to our wounds? Are we keeping them raw and hidden? Are we applying temporary salves to it? Or are we working towards healing it permanently? Samsara is the endless cycle of suffering if one remains UNENLIGHTENED. Suffering ceases with WISDOM and LOVE.

Working with Past Life Astrology and PL Regression therapy, I can tell you that certain transits give us the power and will to once and for all understand the pain we have been running away from. Once you understand the pain, it will go away. That is how I have seen it work…always…once understood and acknowledged from your heart chakra, the PAIN GOES AWAY!

Today’s transit gives us one of those sacred healing portals. Here is a cry to all the healers and the Shamans, the Wise Women and Medicine men, the light workers and Empaths…send out your healing intentions…and it will manifest.

If your wounds are defining the person you have become, then maybe it is time for you to invoke Chiron and Saturn to give you the impetus to heal your life. No matter how spiritually anaesthetised we are as humans, we have the desire and necessity to heal.

That does not mean that your journey is forgotten…it just means that you refuse to allow your wounds to dictate your life. It is over! Take control, for only YOU CAN HEAL YOURSELF. I always tell people who come to me for healing…I tell that that it they who are healing themselves. I do not need to “heal” you, because that blessing is yours. I just create a platform for the healing to occur.

We must talk about what I mean by HEALING…

Healing is a state of WHOLENESS. It is not a divisive or separatist state. It does not adhere to polarities. It just is- WHOLE. We are all a part of that WHOLE and when we divorce ourselves from that WHOLE do we become sick and diseased and only then do we need healing. When healing occurs, at every level we become WHOLE….a part of that INDIVISIBLE REALITY.

An Omnipresent, Eternal, Boundless, and Immutable PRINCIPLE on which all speculation is impossible, since it transcends the power of human conception and could only be dwarfed by any human expression or similitude. It is beyond the range and reach of thought — in the words of Mandukya [Upanishad], “unthinkable and unspeakable.”…HPB

It is imperative to understand that BE-NESS exists before BEING. Sartre tapped into infinite wisdom when he stated…EXISTENCE PRECEDES ESSENCE! Spirit and Matter are both parts of this ONE!

Sit in silence and contemplate what it means to be WHOLE! If you have an Agate, hold it while you meditate. This is the oldest crystal used for healing. Ask Chiron and Saturn to heal you…If you are heavily afflicted by Saturn, then you should wear black on Saturdays, feeds black ravens or crows and eat black rice.

Saturn rules your legs and nervous system and the Yogasana I suggest is Ardha Matsyendrāsana or the Seated Spinal Twist Pose which will aid in the stimulation of your nervous system. You can also look at Shavasana before going to bed. Ask Saturn’s help in all your endeavours.

Email me to find out what this transit means for you…

“ Her image had passed into his soul for ever and no word had broken the holy silence of his ecstasy. Her eyes had called him and his soul had leaped at the call.
To live, to err, to fall, to triumph, to recreate life out of life!A wide angel had appeared to him… an envoy from the fair courts of life, to throw before him in an instant of ecstasy the gates of all the ways of error and glory.”… James Joyce

Venus had disappeared into the heart of the Sun to be reborn as the morning star. Retrograde in Aries, firing up my poets’ soul. Igniting intense aching of love and sensuality. Did you ever feel that you no longer exist? That you have successfully dropped you EGO or I construct? During an orgasm?

If you have never felt the wild fires of sensuality assault the very fabric of your senses, then it is now the perfect time to ALLOW yourself to experience something so intense and passionate that it will change the way you look at the world forever!

With so much of activity in fiery Aries, we can be assured of one thing. We are ready to ignite! Now you could use this fiery energy to set fire to your sheets. Seriously! Why channel this into something destructive? I mean fire always does not have to destroy? Does it? Where would we be without fire? Think about it! The dichotomy of life. Nothing by itself is evil or good. We make it so with our perspectives. We give meaning to phenomena.

So what meaning are you ready to give to the astro? Venus disappears from our view and it is at this time that our UNCONSCIOUS becomes fertile with this alchemical marriage. There is so much scope for transmutation. Dark Moon Lillith in SAGITTARIUS is trining Retro Venus in ARIES and squares the NORTH Node in VIRGO and the SOUTH NODE in PISCES who is asking us to uphold INDIVIDUAL INTEGRITY!

Ah, the impetuosity! Our reactions and thoughts are spontaneous. Remember that our libidos are fired up, no matter who or where you are! So even if you are in a long-term thing, you might suddenly develop the roving eye! Stop beating yourself up about it. Instead be honest with your partner and try to find ways to spice up your intimate time.

Just wanted to say that while Venus is in this position, normal missionary sex will be boring. Even doggy-style is for the yesteryear. So if your beau is unable to keep the erection, then it might be a good time to start exploring other options like prostate play.

The prostate is a walnut-sized gland that surrounds the urethra and houses the male G SPOT. You can find innovative ways to stimulate it with oils and massage. The male is able to feel full bodied orgasms that are impossible during hetero penetration.

The other spicy ingredient you can add and must add to your sexual experiences is roleplaying. If you’ve not done it, then go ahead and do it. As simple as that. I am not going to chart out elaborate sexual fantasies here. Lol! Find what turns you on the most and do it. This Astro is so helpful to chip away at redundant sexual mores and traditions. Changing the dynamics of sexual play can be extremely fulfilling. Venus in Aries RX is urging us to become child-like in our innocence and purse such things with a rabid freshness.

There is a sexual revolution brewing in the air. The WILD WOMAN archetype is awakening. She is a carrier of the Ancient Feminine Spirit and Venus Retrograde will help you channel that energy. Venus retro is a direct symbol of ACTIVE REBELLION. She is not SUBMISSIVE. She is the DOMINANT!

In retro she shows us how to shift our perspectives from the pleasant and often over simplified rendition of her archetype and pushes us to explore deeper. What does it mean to be feminine? What does it mean to be WILD? WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO FEEL DOMINANT? If you’re a guy you might consider what it would feel to give your partner complete control for one time while you’re in bed with her. Think of her doing whatever she wants to do and you have no say in it.

I think this is very healthy to UNLEARN toxic patriarchal traditions, customs and mores. We humans have to give each other the respect to try all roles. Men who are control freaks need to understand that there is nothing as healing as letting your woman take charge of your sexual experiences, for with her intuitive wisdom she can really catapult your sexual growth. Of course she must be adequately inspired to be trained or to train herself in such matters.

I suggest that all coupes try reversing roles in bed. Try once to begin with and see how it feels. Pegging can be extremely exciting for men, because your G-SPOT is activated. Actually it is called P-SPOT for guys.When a male is anally penetrated by his woman, he can begin to UNLEARN and relearn different facets of sexual expression. Women, if your guy wants to be pegged, remember that he is placing huge amounts of trust in you. Use a double-ended dildo for the woman to feel physical stimulation.

Guys you need to begin pleasuring your woman with your mouth and hands if you are doing so already. You can even buy her crystal eggs which you can use during a yoni massage. But be sure to earn the technique before you attempt this.

Venus in retro reshuffles our needs in the areas of all things Venutian- money, sex, arts, beauty…and she offers a realignment. To the individual and to the collective! We need to drop our calcified concepts and impassioned we need to reinvent our relationship with money, sex and the arts.

Think of this deeply…how are you holding yourself back from experiencing more of the Venusian energy in your life? Are you tired of the way you experience sex and intimacy? Do you want to take it a notch higher to experience deeper cosmic orgasms? It is up to you.

The New Moon in Aries is also giving you ample manifestation power to make things work in your favour. Go out into the world and kiss the sky!

Oh, oh, oh…before I go…every encounter that you experience is FATED. Karmic! Accept it all as sacred and as spiritual debt and pay it forward…with love and empathy!

If you’re single and ready to mingle, then you might want to summon your partner with the help of a Switchword phrase. BRING-PERFECT-MAGIC-VENUS-LOVE-CHARM. Venus might decide to grant you a boon and send you your twinflame. Who knows?

I see the world being slowly transformed into a wilderness; I hear the approaching thunder that, one day, will destroy us too. I feel the suffering of millions. And yet, when I look up at the sky, I somehow feel that everything will change for the better, that this cruelty too shall end, that peace and tranquillity will return once more… Anne Frank

My sweeties I don’t have a better way to begin this convo today. The quote above sums it up pretty fucking decently. The last few days have been so charged with fertile chaotic energy and for me it brought about ancient karmic connections. Someone from many, many past lives walked right back in. It has been so hectic, meeting people. Yes lovelies, people from my past.

Just last night I had this amazing dinner and long-drawn out convo with an old friend who also happens to be from a famous Bollywood family. The convo was about U.G and Jiddu Krishnamurthi, Archetypes and primordial memory! And of course there were convos about old actors, directors, huge movie stars and the whole industry in general. Acid trips and Vipasana. Venus in retro does leave such astounding gems for us to glean and if we manage to obtain what we are meant to, then we are infinitely wiser. Even though we may not realise it that moment. Sometimes it takes people a whole Venus cycle to reconnect the dots.

See Venus in retro is making me revalue all my ideas and notions regarding concepts of art, cinema, beauty, finances. I mean, I have worked in the media industry for over a decade and am still very much a part of it. I have been finding closure or answers or more questions to concepts regarding these matters. I have been reevaluating my own constructs that I have created. I am sure all of you are going through these same self enquiries. I know collectively we are seriously looking into matters Venusian and this time with an introverted lens. We are journeying inside with these concepts and letting our intuition guide us.

Cinema is ruled by Neptune, the ruler of Pisces. So the topic of cinema pops up. Today there is a dreamy cinematic quality to life that you can tune into. Yes the authorship of today’s events is in your hands and boy can you make it MAGICK!

Mars in Taurus sextiles Neptune(look up your time zone) and suddenly boof! Our spiritual sensitivities are stirred. You wake up with a dreamy feeling. Your antennae are picking up vibrations from some sort of fairy tale world. Your very own fairy tale. You forget that you are a debt slave, working nine to five to pay off EMIS and other loans. You forget that you have to drive to work for an hour and a half through crowded city traffic. You forget that you are a slave to money. You shed off the incessant need to try to be NUMBER FUCKING 1.

No! You relinquish all that madness. You find a moment, far from the madding crowd and you light a candle in your heart. This day is full of potential for empathy and kindness. Why don’t you find a suitable way to explore this theme, but remember to keep it spiritual as Neptune will have you do.

If you can make everything in front of you SPIRITUAL, then the battle is won. You have created an infinity-sacred-space! If you decide to meditate today, then consciously send out healing energy to the whole world. See the love radiating from your heart chakra and kiss it forward. To help and heal. To be the balm that people need. You need to be the Goddess and the Hero today. You need to create your very own heaven. If you need a Yidam or a deity to concentrate upon, then you can invoke Blue Tara or Nila Saraswati today. Blue because of the Neptunian influence.

The Blue Tara is very effective to quell anger. She is called Ekajati and is an emanation of wrathful feminine energy. She can transmute bad karma into swift spiritual awakening. Therefore she suggested herself to me. Use her energies. Chant her mantra- OM) BHIM TARE VRIM. Visualise her as sapphire blue.

You can use lapis lazzuli or blue sapphire. Although before you don a sapphire, I would suggest you get your natal chart looked at by a gem therapist who will see Saturn’s placement before you can wear it. I have seen contradictory results with the use of sapphire. In my own life.

The position for today will be the TREE POSE! This will bring the necessary equilibrium you need. Still your mind and body in unison. Place the crystal near your heart chakra while you perform this.

I leave you with a very potent number- 719 481 71. This number will manifest your plans and thoughts into tangible reality. Write it on your left wrist, recite it mentally or just carry it in your wallet.

The fire that is madness and magic, the fire of creativity in us, the fire of our desires burn bright with SEVEN planets in fire signs. Yes people! The astro is on fire! Sizzling, raw and primal…a certain madness and mayhem lurks in the air!

Oh, oh- the New Moon in Aries is conjunct Venus retrograde and that means that set intentions related to MONEY and LOVE. Of course this will have much to do with planetary positions in your natal chart, but I would say that these two motifs will play out heavily in the collective consciousness.

So I was talking all madness and mayhem, love the alliteration! But then what else do you expect of Aries energy? And so many freaking planets crowding the dance floor. There is a track in my mind. Set the world on fire…David Bowie. I cannot stop thinking of him since the dream I had with him in there. I think we were standing under a canopy of stars, staring at infinity! My dream time is full of such anecdotes and meetings, conversations and eye contact. Fuck it drove me nuts before I learnt how to understand it and accept it. I cannot say control it, for I cannot control any psychic or dreamscape visions.

It’s obviously masculine- this energy, which is why Bowie even came up in my mind. Have to check his astro for more clues. But let me not divert off and leave this piece unwritten. Something about me and not finishing up…hardcore wounds there. But I’m working on it.

Aries- what of them? They are the pioneers and trailblazers of the zodiac! Aries is the HEAD and is associated with BIRTH! But, but, but…there is a certain obstinacy and stubbornness about this sign that can lead to much problems.

A lot of people who consult with me are complaining of head related issues and please be careful yourself as well. There could be headaches and other head related issues that could crop up. I have successfully used numbers, switchwords and Energy Circles to combat headaches. Write 160 HZ AND 53 on your left arm and E=15 at the base of the nape of your neck with a blue pen. Works brilliantly. Feel the blue colour of the pen enter your bloodstream and instantly spread a coolness. You can call upon the Medicine Buddha in case you have some severe health complications.

I would like to suggest BHRAMARI PRANAYAMA to all of you. Please start the practice and you will see how this will help you deal with the fiery stress that could become too hot to handle. I had described how to practice the asana, but it is just making the article bigger than it needs to be, so please google it and watch videos to get a hang of it.

Now if possible, do this pranayama in the woods. I can tell you that you will feel like a new person after this. Just focus on the OM that you are humming is directly oscillating to the AUM of the Universe. To simplify it, just know that your sound is intrinsically connected to the hum of the Universe!

There is so much Aries energy in the air with five planets in this fire sign! Mercury, Venus, Uranus, the Sun and Moon are all here for this astral alignment. Let us run through the Aries archetype! This sign represents the EMPEROR card in the Tarot! The Patriarch!

Usually the Emperor represents a powerful and exemplary leader who is responsible for the welfare of the masses. The Emperor is no demagogue; in fact he is the benevolent father and if you internalise this archetype, then look to acknowledge your potential of mastery. Try to understand where you play the Emperor role and in whose life? I think here the Emperor is telling us to take OWNERSHIP of our own existence! Enough is enough! There is no messiah coming. We are the creators of our lives. Yes that is big responsibility, but it is also an inevitability. If there is any problem you need to address, look within to find answers at this time. Depend on you and it will work out. YOU ARE THE RULER, THE RULED AND THE RULING! Then where is the separation? Integrate this inner sovereignty in your meditation and the rest will fall into place.

Another thing which can be really beneficial to people who seek to use this fire energy would be to perform a HAVAN. Look up the link I have provided below to understand what this is and then figure out how you can simplify it to suit your needs. Neo pagans will have an idea. If you are confused, then contact me.

Very effective are FIRE BURST MEDITATIONS, especially for people with physical pain or deep emotional trauma. Focus on the part which is painful. Bring full awareness there, continue deep breathwork and then light a ball inside your body, on the pain. Feel a small flame of light burning where you have the pain. For a wider area, visualise a larger flare. But remember to notice that this internal fire has a bluish tinge and does not feel hot. It feels warm, but NOT HOT! Feel these flames setting fire to the pain. Watch the pain burn away to ashes. Watch it with your internal eye. Then after the pain has been burnt away, thank the flame and the Universe and remember to thank the pain! Yes that pain taught you so much. That pain is your karmic friend. So please thank that pain with sincerity. If you want to know more about how to practice this meditation, email me. It is very effective with chronic pain and psychological ailments. You can even do this for someone else. You can use FULL-IMMUNITY-BE-INFINITY after the visualisation is over and you have burnt all the pain with your mind.

If this Aries New Moon is getting you angry or resentful, because you’re trying so hard to be NUMBER 1, then you can chant- BE-QUIET-SHUT-UP, or write it with blue pen on your left wrist. 55 65 569 is also very effective to control anger. Write this on your body or write it in a piece of paper and carry it in your wallet. Aries energy is very assertive and make sure you do not get caught in the lower vibrations. Things can get nasty. But one thing is sure- we will have a lot more energy. You can channelise it and make it work for you in multiple things- at work, with your spouse and in bed. Yes you can effectively use this energy to set fire to your sheets. Lol! Just don’t channel the selfishness and I’m Khaleesi, the-mother-of-fucking-dragons attitude! Don’t unleash your dragons on us…pretty please!

Now let us talk about the ADVENTURE that is coming our way! Fuck, I love a good adventure! There is a certain exciting escapade coming our way and it packs a heavy punch- sensually and financially. Since the retrogradation always connotes the internal journey, I would say we will be looking at questions like what money means to us? How we spend it? What are our inherent, deep rooted opinions about money, etc, etc. Also questions about love will surface…what does love mean to us? How do we quantify love? Do we even understand love? As a collective? As individuals?

If you are distressed and lonely, I would suggest visit animal shelters and think of fostering and then maybe adopting. Bringing in a furry companion might be the start you need and with all the Aries newness you could reinvent yourself. You could go Vegan, you could decide to concentrate on the NOW and let go of fears…everything is on the table!

Saturn(Maturity, growth, restriction, responsibility) is in Sag(Passion, wanderlust, ! Fire again! What do we poor mortals do with so much fire? Depending on where this is falling on your chart, you might be facing disappointments and learning hardcore Saturnian lessons. I have worked with many people and their Saturn issues- Sade Sati or Saturn return and one thing I can tell you that what Saturn wants you to learn, you will learn…no matter what! Come hell or high water.

Oh are you aware that Saturn is also about to freaking go retro on us? Yes from 6th April to Aug 26! And this time the FUTURE is ours to plan. Saturn will level the playing field with doses of karma, yes, but there will be solidity in whatever sticks. Ficgure out what is working and stick with it.

My natal chart has Saturn sitting with Mercury in Leo and my mind has always been Leonine! Filled with creative thought and with Saturn sitting there, I faced a lot of issues trying to bring my creative expression to the surface. It took a while, but it happened.

There is a CARDINAL T SQUARE that I have already discussed. Pluto, Uranus and Jupiter are forming it and this brings SEVEN PLANETS IN CARDINAL SIGNS which govern creativity! The Cardinal signs are active, moody, starters but hate finishing up, know how to pick themselves off the floor and continue and are often positioned as leaders.

So if anything, the astro is screaming- ACTION! Get the fuck off your couch and get doing whatever the fuck tickles your imagination! This is not the time for planning…it is the time for action.

I am suggesting a Sanskrit mantra which you could recite to invoke ACTION in your life. You can chant this to create your dream opportunities and manifest your heart’s desire.

“Breasts are a scandal because they shatter the border between motherhood and sexuality.”
― Iris Marion Young

So often we hope and crave for what could have been or what we want instead on loving what we have! Ah, foolish humanity! Stats are appalling at the percentage of women who are comfortable with their breasts! Let us fuck that for now.

Do you agree that most women are not happy with their breasts? In fact breast surgeons in California have had huge amounts of women who wanted a duplicate pair like Salma Hayek! Seriously! Women just expected that the doc could somehow replicate her tits!

Fuck knows why! Our breasts are so feminine, so sensual and yet we ignore them. We wish they were larger, smaller, perkier…blah, blah…

As a breastfeeding mother to a three and a half year old toddler can be quite challenging, but I have embraced the role. In fact I will continue suckling her till she wants to stop. But yes it does a lot to the elasticity of the breasts!

But I actually love my breasts much more than I have ever done, because I have seen them sustain life. I have seen them exclusively breastfeed and provide the best suited food for my baby.

The point is breasts are gorgeous…no matter what shape, size or colour they come in. They are so important to your child. I know how my toddler treasures them. I love sucklas(that’s what she calls them), says she and hugs them.

I get irritated sometimes, it is not always easy to stick a tit in her mouth and continue with my day. She is huge and refuses to stop. But breastfeeding her for so long has bonded us heavily.

A study showed that women’s self esteem are often tied to their titties, but most do not carry a positive image as they are bombarded with impossible images of perfection in magazines. It is difficult for the normal woman to compete with the model in the magazine. The woman has no stylist, cameraman, lights, decor, multiple tries…and photoshop! Fuck yes.

So women tend to have lesser self confidence because of the shape or size of their boobs. Also a thang(purposely misspelled) to remember would be- breasts are not just sexual organs…they also are food sources. So society needs to understand and address this.

Look at how difficult it is for breastfeeding mothers who choose to do so in public. She faces all sorts of problems if the internet is to be trusted. Look at vlogs, blogs, posts, memes…it is everywhere.

You can sees tits everywhere, but when it comes to a breastfeeding mama, no…society has to freak out. I openly breastfeed by the way. Look my breasts are not on my body so you can stare at them and wank off later. No.

My tits are here to feed my baby and that’s what they will do. So stop sexualising the breasts when they are not intending to send you those signals. Remember the viral video where this guy does an experiment with two women- one, a scantily dressed girl and a breastfeeding mom. Watch the video to stay abreast of how toxic our society really is!

Anyway breasts will sell you everything- but they cannot be flashed in the open to feed a child! What a lovely society we have created. Yes your breasts are for your man, but remember they are first and foremost for you. They are deeply connected to your womb.

Look at the breasts as a symbol of self love. As an organ to nurture. And why not? Look where they are placed, right next to your heart chakra! How sublime is that!

Girls, stay away from underwires. Don’t be shocked! Our heart pumps blood, however lymph only flows from movement and massage. So, if you wear an underwired bra, you are blocking that lymph flow, and toxins remain in the breast tissues.

Now just use your favourite carrier and essential oil combo…anything that works for you can be used. Find time, the safe spot and silence. Now spine straight, breathing will stabilise as you keep observing it.

After a while, focus on the muladhara and feel the energy vibrate. Then lift it up and bring it to your crown chakra. Let it vibrate there and then bring it to your heart chakra. And start counting…1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9…till 1000. It is a very effective tool to get into meditational trance. It is okay if you lose count. Just restart from whichever number comes to mind, just keep the focus in your heart chakra.

Your heart centre will start feeling warm and glowing. Keep your right hand on it and say…I LOVE, I AM LOVED AND I AM LOVE!!! After chanting for a bit, sit in silence and think of your breasts. Think of what you feel….think of how much you love them…think of how they bring pleasure to you or how they have fed your kids. Think of all the good things. It is not likely that negative thoughts will pop up if you have managed to centre yourself with the meditation and chanting. But in case, negative thoughts trouble you, watch them. No judging or feeling guilt.

Start the massage with the oils. Send love with each stroke. Feel the energy flow increase not just through your breast but through your entire glandular system. You are going to feel heightened and sensual.

The breasts nourish the pineal gland, the pitutory gland, which is the master hormone, the thyroid gland, the thymus gland, which is responsible for our immune system, and the adrenal glands, and our ovaries. When we massage our breasts, and in particularly our nipples, all of those glands are stimulated, and brought in alignment.

We release hormones such as oxytocin and prolactin which cause uterus contractions, relaxes and bonds us, makes us hanker for one another.

Now knead your breasts sensually and squeeze your nipples. You can reach a profound state of sexual stimulation. This is aligning you from the inside so let all the feelings wash over you. Feel everything. Let it all purge. Feel like light and feel light.

Now feel golden healing light surround your breasts, loving them, energising them and protecting them! Feel this healing take place and let that golden halo disappear in your breasts.

Sit in silence cradling them. You may start to play with your nipples and then bring yourself to multiple climaxes.

I am ecstatic to announce that tonight there is some wild and sensual astro happening- Moon squares Neptune. The Moon is in Sag- aha! And Neptune is the ruler of Pisces. Venus is retrograde pushing us to maddening depths of emotions and feelings.

So what do you get with this mix? How can SAG and Pis merge? Oh, let me think. Philosophy and myth debates that heat up into intellectual kerfuffles which could lead to electricity crackling in the air and then when sexual intimacy takes place- it feels like a dose of spiritual energy has been infused in the love making process!

So I am going to suggest a small meditation module for tonight.

Clean up your space, sage it and prepare it with candles, incense and aroma oils. Use the diffusor. Take a long soak in the tub, preferably the two of you. And do not start making out please! Just lie with each other and make an effort to join your breathing. Breathe together. Feel each other’s heartbeats as you sit soaking in the tub.

Now feel all the negativity draining from your body. You may use chants or switchwords when doing this. A good one would be ALLOW-FLOW-BE, which releases your internal blocks. You can keep saying VENUS-DIVINE-BE!

Do it together- do it consciously. Step out and wipe one another clean. Gently and not sexually. Just as if he is a human, you are not concentrating on the sexual angle right away. Now rub oil on each other. Get a nice carrier oil like jojoba and then chuck a few drops of your favourite essential oil. You can use amyris, clary sage, jasmine, neroli, patchouli, rose, rosewood, sandalwood, vetiver, ylang ylang- they all work as aphrodisiacs.

Rub it in with conscious intention that your hands are filling this person you are caressing in this erotic massage is being healed. Oh yes by now the massage has gone erotic. I cannot start explaining exactly how to massage, because I believe there is no hard and fast, one single way to do it. The massage is an adaptation of deep rubs, kisses and caresses, suited exactly to the person in front.

Drop all thought. Very important. Exist in the moment. Exist in the now. One will massage the other and then the other will return the favour. Get it. Do not try to massage each other together. Nope. After you have completed the erotic massage, then stand up and hug.

After the hug, start NOW massaging each other. Build the intensity. Oh stare at each other the whole time. Stare into his eyes. Try to see beyond his form. Whatever you think is divine, associate that image to him. He is divine and guys, so is she. Try to feel the energy flow in each other’s bodies. You may actually see colours and your auras.

Then sit in meditation in the yabyum position, the symbol of divine union.

“Yab-Yum” is a Tibetan term meaning “father-mother”. The man is on the floor, in sukhasana or padmasana and the woman sits on his thighs while his lingam is in her yoni. The man’s penis will be inside your pussy, but do not move. Sit in that position. It symbolises the union of your root chakras. You have become ONE. Keep staring into each other’s eyes. Homosexual couples, please decide between each other who will take on the yang role and who will play the yin energy and sit accordingly.

Keep staring and keep breathing, the lingam inside the yoni. This is potent sex magic as the sexual energy with meditation can transmute itself to Spiritual. The Union will feel like you are losing consciousness. This does not happen in a day, it is to be cultivated.

Your crown chakra is channelling energy from spirit and merging it with your sexual energy. Please OBSERVE THE ENERGY and how it is flowing through your body. Try to identify blockages. Work from your heart chakra.

Some tantric teachers urge the participants to communicate their feelings to one another while in yabyum, but I personally leave it to you. You decide if you want SILENCE to be a part of this meditation or do you want to use loud chanting and/or speak to each other. It is entirely up to you.

After about staring for twenty minutes, then close your eyes together. Keep deep breathing. Now concentrate on your muladhara chakra and feel a ball of energy vibrating there. Now lift up that ball through your spine and bring it to rest in your crown chakra. Stay there. Keep breathing. If you cannot hold your erection, do not freak out. You are now PURE energy, not a limp dick!

Finally end the meditation with an orgasmic explosion, although it is absolutely normal if you do not desire penetration. During tantric yabyum most practitioners avoid the peak orgasm(ejaculation) to leave room for the much stronger full body orgasms, squirting orgasms, anal orgasms, prostate orgasms, vaginal orgasms, womb orgasms and more. You can feel things that are very VERY intense.

Your partner may cry as some of you guys know that women cry after an orgasm. Some of them do. I am one of those and it can get pretty intense and in fact some guys do too. Do not be awkward if she is crying, just hug her. Do not judge, label or criticise or offer advise. Just let her be. Be there for her.

Keep sitting even after everything is done and hug each other in yabyum, close your eyes and bring your focus to your third eye and stare inside. Finish off by doing namaste to each other.

If you do try this, drop me a mail and tell me how the experience felt.