It's calling my name, no it hisses my name it's taunting me oh
it's so beautiful I can't help but drool for it. But I can't have
it I will NOT have it no in me I won't cave I need to be strong
it's just food I don't really need it that much I'll pretend to
eat it, pretend to chew, and fake swallow and MMMM how yummy it
will be.

"I'm not really that hungry." I set my fork down, and took a sip
from my water it made the hunger worse so I set my glass down.

"Honey you look pale, you need to eat look at you you're all skin
and bones." My mom took a spoon full of bright yellow corn my
mouth watered how I wish I could eat and be okay with it and not
feel guilty and have to punish myself.

"No, I'm not mom look at me I'm huge." I threw the plate to the
floor, yellow corn flew everywhere the steak slid arcos the white
linoleum floor I ran up the stairs two at a time I flung open my
door and slammed shut, my head felt fuzzy the growling in my
belly grew louder. I sat on my bed and took a small box from the
white dresser next to my bed I took out a small package of
chocolates I ripped the plastic apart and shoved the sugary
goodness down my throat.

"Oh no, what have I done I caved in, time for punishment." I
stared at the box in my hands and frowned I threw box, all the
small packages of chocolates spilled on light pink floor I
stepped into my bathroom. I shoved my finger down my throat and
got rid of all the shit I had eaten. God I'm such a cow nobody
likes fat people. I went back to my room and slept for the rest
of the day.