They Give Me All Kinds Of Advice Designed To Enlighten Me.

Over the last few months, I have definitely made some changes in my life – professionally and personally. I’ve decided to stop working for a while and freelance instead – which is basically the equivalent of retiring from the rat race and its accompanying gastric problems. Pro: I’ve saved a bunch of money from doctor visits and Gaviscon purchasing. Con: Not being able to score Xanax. With freelancing comes a steep learning curve of having to do everything on my own (management, timelines, quotations, invoicing and then designing, on top of that – which frankly, I haven’t done in a while) and of course, a sudden financial deficit and the need to be fiscally prudent. Freedom comes at a price – but then again, doesn’t everything?

Then, you have the personal changes – I went from serial dating to not-really dating and now, to practically-not-a-date. Simple reason: I am just not interested. Maybe it’s the guys I’m meeting, maybe it’s the places I’m going to – more likely, it’s my tired ass that ain’t in the mood. I’m tired of it all – the dinners, the “daterviews” (date interviews), and dead-ends.

With these recent decisions in my life, I’ve had a whole bunch of well-meaning people offer advice to me:

Get a man.
Get a job.
Get a man with a job.
Get a job with good money.
Get a good man.
Get a man with good money.
You need someone who challenges you.
You need someone who gives in to you.
You need someone who excites you.
You need a whirlwind lover.
You need to make a lover from a friend.

“People say I’m crazy, doing what I’m doing,
Well they give me all kinds of warnings, to save me from ruin,
When I say that I’m o.k., well they look at me kind of strange,
Surely you’re not happy now you no longer play the game,

People say I’m lazy, dreaming my life away,
Well they give me all kinds of advice, designed to enlighten me,
When I tell that I’m doing fine watching shadows on the wall,
Don’t you miss the big time boy, you’re no longer on the ball?

I’m just sitting here making the wheels go round and round,
I really love to watch them roll,
No longer riding on the merry-go-round,
I just had to let it go.

People asking questions lost in confusion,
Well I tell them there’s no problem,
Only solutions,
Well they shake their heads and they look at me as if I’ve lost my mind,
I tell them there’s no hurry…
I’m just sitting here doing time,

I’m just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round,
I really love to watch them roll,
No longer riding on the merry-go-round,
I just had to let it go.”