I will NOT keep destroying myself...

This is me...

So, I went to an Awards Night on Saturday and when I saw the pictures on Monday... it blew my mind. How did I let my weight get this bad?!
At the beginning of last year I was told that my health was at risk because of my weight and I made a lot of changes, and I lost 30kg/66lbs. It was a great start.
12 months ago I slipped. Just once, just one can of coke, one slip up. I beat myself up about it, and ate lots of crap because, Hell, I'd already failed, right? I kept punishing myself and telling myself that I was pathetic and I was stupid and I didn't get back on the damn wagon.
I've gained 40kg since then. 88lbs in 12 months.
This photo prompted me to go back to my doctor, clamber back on that horse... he tells me that I'm very close to becoming a diabetic.
Things have to change.

So, here we go, here's the starting point. Never ever again past this point. Never. I need to lose more than half of my weight to be within a healthy weight range for my height. Well, half of me... this is sayonara.