Khloe Kardashian Opens Up About Seeing Her Divorce Play Out on TV

Last night’s episode of Keeping Up With the Kardashians showed Khloe Kardashian more emotional than we ever think we’ve seen her before. Though the 30-year-old reality star typically tends to try to keep things light and fun, this season of the show has seen her in some of her darkest moments yet, and the normally fun-loving Khloe admits it’s been extremely difficult to relive as it all plays out on air.

“This is one of the hardest episodes for me to watch this season,” she writes on Instagram, calling Season 9 “the hardest emotionally” for her to share, both “a gift and a curse.” Khloe accompanied her thoughts about the heavy episode with a clip of her moving out of the Tarzana mansion she once shared with estranged husband Lamar Odom.

“To re-live such hard and personal moments is difficult,” she continues. “You will see a lot of me on an emotional rollercoster [sic]. There is no right or wrong as to how people deal with life.”

In the episode in question, several of Khloe’s loved ones worried that she was drinking and partying too much to distract herself from her emotions. One of the concerned family members was Scott Disick, who has been guilty of the same coping mechanisms. “If I’m seeing it, it must be a lot,” he confessed on-camera. Khloe’s comments about her journey seem to address those concerns. Here’s hoping the darkest parts are over for our girl Kokes!