Princess Mola's Journal, 09 February 2013

I have been having some problems sticking to my daily calorie intake. I am fine in the day when I am away from the house, but I become a different beast when I get home - overeating as if I hadn’t eating for days!!! Nothing to do with hunger – just habitual greed!!!

I took the bold step of waiting a little while before eating the unhealthy food that is staring me in the face. This plan was initiated today at a goal setting class I went attended. It was a real mental challenge. I wasn't expecting all the nasty emotions that came to the surface and overwhelmed me as I restrain myself - something I have not done in some many years.

I’ve always thought I was in control of this behaviour, clearly not. I was angry, upset, lonely, bitter, tearful and physically shaking as the desire to binge gripped my mind even stronger. I spent the time out in the kitchen preparing my roasted veg for the next day. And as I chopped away, I completely forgot and became distracted from the craving that was rendering my mind, body and emotions crazy. When I remembered 20 minutes later, I smiled and prepared my dinner feeling so proud of myself for successfully resisting the binge.

I have always heard that when one is having such unhealthy cravings, to take time out and do something (activity) completely different for distraction. I used to grin at this wisdom and say oh yeah, really (cynically).

It does work.

The plan now is for me to repeat this positive behaviour several times until it becomes habitual.

You can do it girl! I have come to the realization that I am addicted to food. I think it will always be something i struggle with but we need to fight it. I agree with you that I'm fine when I'm away from home. I have so much going on that I dont have time to eat. BUT I hate having too many days off because i just sit around the house watching tv and eating junk. Now I stopped buying the junk so I can't get to it when I have cravings. Plus I don't drive so I have no way of going to the store to buy the junk. So after a few moments of anxiety I finally calm down and settle for something healthy. This journey has been tough mentally, which I wasn't expecting at ALL!!!!

I feel you!!! Life long journey, I say. I want to reach the point in time when it now becomes natural and effortless to eat healthily and be physically active; I am certain that opportunities I didn't envisage will then come my way - perhaps an acting role as a sexy life guard elegantly racing on the sandy beach to rescue a poor soul drowning in shallow waters. lol