Its 2am and I cant sleep. So I write to exhaust my brain then drink myself to sleep.

...When I was 12-year old I have a beautiful heart, it was glowing, there was not a mark or a flaw in it. You can say it was perfect.

13 years later this heart is jaded. It has harden and full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't quite fit, and there were several jagged edges. Even some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

Youu see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - tearing out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart in return, but because the pieces aren't exact, it have some rough edges.

Sometimes I have given a whole pieces of my heart away and the other person hasn't returned a piece of heart to me. These are the empty gouges - giving love is like taking chances. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of those lost love.

This dear heart has jaded, but it holds plenty of memories.

13 Jun 2005

Jazz Festival

Sydney Jazz festival at Darling Harbour. Dinner for one at The Rocks.

I just want my bike, so I can be an endangered specie. Oral sex with Girl 1 was awesome, she been learning those stuffs from adult movies.

13 Jun 2005

Vietnamese cuisine

Hanging out with Hoa Nien group at Lansvale. Dinner at Yen's, bun mam, one of my favourite Southern Vietnam cuisine dish.

14 Jun 2005

61 days to go!

61 days to go until The Sun-Herald City to Surf - Australia's greatest 14km community fun-run.

I've registered in B group for the semi-serious joggers, I'll be running along with Mel and the gang from VADB.

This means I got to cut down on the drinking and smoking.

17 Jun 2005

Certified

Do it yourself NSW residential leasing contract. Just some research and abit of Australian law knowledge is all it needed to write your own business contract with terms and condition to your advantage. Here's a copy if anyone interested.

Little sister's study room

Star light, star bright, The first star I see tonight, I wish I may, I wish I might, Have my wish I wish tonight.

Little brother sold his 1997 2JZ GTE non-vvti Supra engine for $4700, to some Italian guy. He got bigger toy to play now, the house, so hes selling out his old toys.

Bop dit Girl 1 in public, she didnt like it :) thats why its fun to do it.

20 Jun 2005

Fairfield Fruitland

Economic is the engine of our civilsation, but I'm against Free Trade. Free Trade strip the country of it's own minerals and resources. I dont like the American system; what they cant acquire through Free Trades, they rage war against that country, for example the war on Iraq.

They use terrorism as porn for the war. Bastard Americans.

If you think about it, it was stupid of the American to go to war for the sole purpose of oil. The cost of war at this moment stands at $177 billions. It will only cost them about one-third of that to buy oil from France, who has direct oil trade with the Iraq.

Stupid Americans. Hail to China to be the next superpower!

Enough politics. This afternoon I went grocery shopping. The path to my heart is through my tummy - obviously, I prefers local businesses over those (American owned) supermarkets, namely because of freshness and quality.

Fairfield Fruitland is one my favourite, its a Portagee-Australian family owned business, fruits and vegies are freshly picked from their own farms. Nothing has changed much over the years. Being a local business they care about their customers more than profits. They won the 1999 Small Business award.

When her friends are not around, Girl 1 give me blowjob. That is one incredible woman.

21 Jun 2005

Dam vo

Dam vo Ong Noi, a Vietnamese custom of worshipping the ancestors. This is a hard cencept to understand by the Anglo-Saxon or European. Because our custom started around 200 BC, long before the birth of Christ. It has been passed down from generation to generations and it's why I finds Asian culture as the most interesting.

In our household there are ancestral altars where the spirits of three generations is worship. Today is the death day of my late grandpa - offering of fruits and home cooked meal to the ancestral spirits. Its a time where family members gather and eat dinner together.

These days, I see alot of my Vietnamese-Australian friends having interracial relationships, its a very common thing. Though myself I prefers an Asian girl.

Girl 1 has relocated to interstate, she got plans to move to VN when she sell her flat. Chatting to Girl 4, it has been awhile.

24 Jun 2005

Winter

Got my licence upgraded to motorcycle (L) class.

Winter rain, it rained all day.

26 Jun 2005

Home sweet home

Starting renovation on the 2nd home, my little brother's place on The Avenue.

Hanging out with the boys! Vincent's birthday party; Jasmine organised awesome party everytime. While Quang and Qui kick out the jams.

Sunday is recovering day. Hence, I'm in no condition to drive to training with the Mel and the VADB gang.

27 Jun 2005

Live my life like I'm dying

It's time to review the 5 years plan. I only have a short-term plan for things to do in the next 5 years.

Myself in 5 years time. Paid off at least 30% of the mortgage. The young days are over I need to find a girl and settling down, and starting a successful business.

Three years has past; it has exceeded my expectation. Business and career; both are doing well. Finding love; without success.

Afew things on my priority list - buy dad a car, get myself a sport motorcycle, do more renovation.

28 Jun 2005

Hey you guys!

Afew internet friends I still keeping in contact over the years.

29 Jun 2005

Re: hi

The most beautiful girl in the world - Viet, short-hair, reading glasses, love arts culture, beautiful, intelligent, everything I been saving myself up for.. oh well.