Why wont it all go away?

this is all about my life.everything put all together.
i write.
and i was at school
but i wanted to break down.
but i couldnt because i wsa at school.
so i wrote it all out and it still hasnt gone away.
its just learned how to store itself deep inside of me.

Why wont the pain go away? It hurts so much To know what I know. I want it all to go away... The hurt, The pain, The heartbreak, The secrets, And most of all, The tears. Why does it have to be like this? Was I not enough That you had to make someone else Feel this pain also?

This feeling is wrong, I know this. But it's here. And it's not planing on going away. Letting it all out hurts to much, So why do I tend to Hold it all in? Why can I put that mask on and Only one person can see through it? I hate this. The pain of loss, It'll never go away.

It feels as if I'm going to lose Everything that I've got to give. Why do people take everything Forgranted? It's wrong. This feeling inside of me, Is wrong, But it's here. So, Why wont it go away?

The tears want to fall, But they wont come out. I'm so hurt and angry, For letting myself feel this way. I feel guilty. But I haven't done anything wrong. I'm following the path to wherever It's going to lead me. But I'm afraid of where it may Lead me.

Why does there have to be so much Pain in my life? It's always going to be there. It feels like it's never going to Go away. I hope that it does.

Everyone always tellss me that It'll all be okay. But what if it's not? That it'll all turn out the way It's suposed to be. Well, Wha happens when you're about to Lose everything that you've got? Everything that you can hang onto Is falling out of place? I've already hit rock bottom, So why am I feeling like I'm going To hit it again? I dont want to break down. It feels wrong to break down. If I break down, I'll feel like I'm loseing myself Again. But this tourment and pain needs to go away. I can't take it anymore.

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