It is killing me inside that soon we are marking the one year anniversary of my son’s death. Just writing those words were difficult. Time is an odd thing, sometimes feels like I saw him only last week but my subconscious knows that almost one year has passed…I had to stand at the grave site of my son. It doesn’t seem possible that I have survived this.

With the arrival of a new addition into the family feelings of nurture and protection surface and you want them to feel wanted, loved, protected and happy. You want to help them grow into successful and happy adults. Powerful healing crystals to aid them through infancy and childhood are the beautiful…

The last few days I have been thinking about you more than usual. Your absence is palpable. Perhaps it is because we are about to welcome a new family member..The pain of one year without you is too much to bear. What have I done for this year? Nothing except mourn. Mourn every single day, every minute, every second of every day…

Know that I love you Adam, that my love for you has always been pure…Soul power is so strong when it is felt, perhaps this is why I can write this post tonight and not cry, because you are giving me strength to hold myself together…A mother who has lost a child would understand why I talk this way, think this way…

It is passing, as I write, the 10 month anniversary of you leaving this world as we know it. It does not seem possible. Time is a strange phenomenon, it feels as though it’s flying and at the same time, it feels like it’s standing still. It just doesn’t seem possible that so much time has passed, yet, missing you seems to have gone on forever.

Consistency, I think, is an important word to add to our daily vocabulary. In all our undertakings we must be consistent. Our hard work is what people come to expect of us and patience is a quality naturally found in those for whom hard work is the norm…

None of us can believe that we are almost at the 9 month mark of your passing. This is just surreal. I thought of you throughout Jude’s basketball game today – you would have been so proud! He plays so well, just like you, really sporty, nothing is too hard for him, just a natural at sport as you were…