Struggling

I told him when we met that I could be negative sometimes- that I can be insecure at times…

We learned of both our insecurities and yet he’s been able to grow out of his within this past year that mine is just somehow stuck to me.

I think what’s been bothering me the most is that he’s in a good place while I’m stuck here. I have nothing to do or think about but bad thoughts- that this past year isn’t going to matter if he just keeps making more friends and realizes I’m just crummy ol’ me.

It’s really hard not to think negatively when there’s not much positive things going on. I keep questioning our relationship because it just doesn’t seem right lately. He doesn’t know what to do anymore and I don’t think I do either.