I hadn’t stretched anything for over two weeks yesterday so I didn’t expect any progress in this stretch. It actually went better than I thought, I don’t think I’ve regressed anything, and if I have, it’s not that bad. I felt pretty stiff but it worked out well anyway.

I also tried the wall split. I haven’t done it in a long time but it went so much better than I thought it would. As you can see my legs are knocked kneed, which means that they’re in an angle at the knees. That’s why the wall split is so much better for me to do than if I lay on my stomach and put all of the weight on my knees. I’ll try to to this stretch with ankle weights in the future, it didn’t feel as much as I would have liked yesterday.

Something you might not know about me is that I can’t smile on demand. If I do, it looks really strange and my cheeks starts to shake from the tension. That’s one of the reasons why I rarely smile on my pictures, I need something to make me laugh when I take the pictures if I’m going to smile, like this one:

It’s time for ballet class tonight. It’s been 17 days since my last class due to my vacation and Easter. I’m actually starting to feel stressed for the upcoming spring show. I have two hard combinations to memorize and two short ones that we haven’t even went through yet. I began a new course today at the University, it’s actually my very last course before I graduate. I only have my final essay to write next fall and then I’m done!

I got these today! I ordered them several weeks ago but Dance Direct didn’t send them as quickly as they usually do. Anyways, I’ve thought about this leotard for so long so I thought it was time to get it. I’m in love with it, like with the rest of Capezio’s Vintage Whisper collection.

This balance board is such a great tool. I don’t use it as often as I should though. I can be so lazy sometimes, it really bugs me. I’ve always had problems with balance (did you know that I couldn’t even balance on one leg before I began ballet?) I’ll see if I can try to practice my balance more before the show. It’s less than two months until that! My goodness, time goes by way too fast!

I performed my very first solo on an event called Kulturtinget here in Örebro on the 9th of March 2016. I was actually contacted by the project leader in December through the blog regarding the performance. After several emails we decided that I was going to perform a calm and classic ballet piece with a ballet friend of mine. She said that it was up to me and that I could do it on my own if I wanted to. But I saw this as an amazing opportunity to perform with Angelica so I asked her if she wanted to join me. She said yes and we practiced a few times.

It turned out that Angelica got really sick so she couldn’t perform with me. On top of that the dates had somehow been misunderstood so by coincidence I called the project leader during the day of the performance. I then found out that it was one day before what I had thought so I panicked slightly but got my senses back together and went anyway. Anne-Laure was with me and she set up the cameras while I prepared myself for the performance.

I was supposed to perform to a sitting audience, just before they got their appetizers. But when I came down and was about to take the step in to the dinning hall the project leader stopped me because the guests had got up again to get drinks. After waiting for about ten minutes the project leader asked me if I could perform even if some of the guests stood up and I replied that I could. So I went on stage and my music started. I took a deep breath and just listened to the music and let the music move me. People were talking and chatting, moving around in the dining area and glass were clinking.

About half way through my performance the whole room went completely silent. I could see in the corner of my eye that peoples heads started to turn to watch me. It was truly one of the most amazing feelings I’ve experienced. It was magical. They all stopped their conversations and watched me dance. They watched me, dancing the first choreography that I composed and performed. I will always remember this amazing feeling and this night ♥

Even though it wasn’t a perfect performance I’m still so proud of myself. I could have backed out but I chose to keep going and perform, by myself, without any practice on stage and hardly any warm up. I’m so thankful for Anne-Laure, I don’t know if I would have been able to do it without her support. And I’m so happy thay I could share it with her ♥

Here’s the video recorded during the performance. I was so used to us being two so I didn’t even think about standing more in the middle now that I did it on my own. Unfortunately I’m right behind a gentleman but you can see some parts anyway.