In a conversation with Hussain Manawer published by the MailOnline, she said: "I have struggled with this on and off throughout my life. Depression.

Megan is loved-up with boyfriend Wes Nelson [Mike Marsland/WireImage]

"I remember even this year in January I was on the sofa with my mum asking her permission. Asking 'can I kill myself?'

"And there was nothing she could do. She told me to call 111. It’s the worst thing watching someone you love suffer. And you can't help someone who doesn’t want to be helped, they can't see the light."

The reality star recently opened up in a bid to raise awareness and help others to speak out in times of need, in a lengthy statement posted to her Instagram page.

Megan Barton Hanson opened up on her battle with anxiety [Wenn]

"I’ve put writing this off all day as depression and anxiety are still pretty raw for me and part of who I am," she wrote to her 1.8 million followers. "Mental health issues are more common than ever especially with the increased use of social media and the resulting feelings of inadequacy.

"A lot of People cant get their heads around why if I was so depressed and suffering from anxiety I would go on a reality show. For me it’s was a make or brake moment. Id suffered on and off with mental health problems since my teens.

"At the end of 2017/early 2018 was probably the lowest I’d ever felt. There were a few times that I just didn’t want to wake up, I had suicidal thoughts, and had even gone to my mum sobbing about what I should do as I didn’t want to be alive anymore."