Sunday, February 27, 2011

Yesterday while Greg was balancing the check book I was sitting on the couch feeling my sweet little boy move his little tush from side to side and stretch his little legs out and I was thinking about life and then I just looked around the room and thought about how happy I am and how this is all I need...

Greg and I moved from a 3 bedroom one story house where life made sense to a 450 sq ft one bedroom apartment where life was totally flipped upside down (which turned out to be for the better). When we finally got here after 27 hours of driving we walked in and I immediately started crying. Greg just held me and he asked me if I was ok and then told me that it would be ok. Then he asked if I liked it and all I could do was cry and in between sobs say, "it's so small."I was so focused on what didn't matter and I let my emotions take over. I had to remember that Greg and I had both received very strong revelation that we were to move here for a time and even though we didn't know how it would all work out. I would always think of the scripture where Nephi said I will go and do what the Lord has commanded because he will provide a way- that's definitely not word for word, but you get it. That was always comforting for me and helped me remember that the Lord did want us here and that he would provide a way for us to make it work as long as we were willing to do our part.

Today after church Greg and I were talking about the lesson in RS and EQ and it was about Pride and being humble.

It doesn't matter how big or how nice our home is. What matters is who we are and how we serve our father in heaven and each other. Service, charity, and Love out weigh big spaces and material goods. As a woman there is so much more I can occupy my mind and time with than material things. There is so much than can be done to serve, so many simple ways to serve others. When I think and do those things that is where I find the most joy. That is when I am the happiest. I do think about buying a house in 2 years when Greg is done with school, but I am also so content right now in my tiny little apartment that I don't even want to move to a two bedroom while we are here even though we are having a baby. The crib fits perfectly in the bedroom, all the baby stuff is organized in adequate spaces, Owen has adequate dresser and closet space so we're good. We don't need more. We have enough.

When we first moved here all I could think was "when I get a nursing job we are moving to a bigger place!" Now I've realized more money and bigger spaces doesn't make a happier life it can actually make it more complicated. So I'm enjoying the simplicity of our home and lifestyle.

My husband is amazing. I don't care where I live or how big our home is as long as I have him. He makes everything easier. He's always giving my reality checks when I get all sorts of hormonal on him without getting frustrated with me which is amazing to me because I would want to slap me.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

It's that time of year! I love it! When I got up today Spring cleaning was in session. I've wanted to really get the nitty gritty of all my rooms and so I started with the bathroom which took me about 2 hours and if you ask my husband he would say, "Lacey it's not even dirty." I'm not going to lie, I'm a bit Obsessive when it comes to cleaning. Anyway So when Greg got up we went Grocery shopping and I bought some new cleaning stuff and he gets to do the baseboards and all the hands and knee's mopping and things up high. I just stay in the middle of it all - it's much easier with this giant belly to stay in the middle of the rooms. I just really want the place super clean when we bring the baby home which means I'm probably going to end up doing it all over again since he won't be here for 5 more weeks, but I feel much better when I know that I have cleaned ever nook and cranny even if people wouldn't really notice. Greg is doing laundry right now and then we have to get back to cleaning...he's such a helpful husband!

We were going to go see a movie today, but it's raining and I hate being out in the rain, so we might just watch a netflix movie and play some scrabble...which I must say I beat him twice at yesterday which never happens...and by never I mean I have NEVER beaten him!

On a different note..why must James Patterson be so vulgar? He has great story lines but geez louise the language is out of control and really do we need to read about 20 different love makin' scenes? After I skipped about 20 chapters so I wouldn't have to feel like I was watching porn I decided I would never recommend them to LDS people so why am I reading them? If they were movies they would definitely be rated R. So, James Patterson, until you can write a book with less of the dirty dirty I will never read them again.

I'm 35 weeks! I'm starting to get a little nervous about everything. I'm not sure if it's just hormones or if it's all just starting to really become real. Sometimes I see how creative people are with their kids and I have absolutely no creative bone in my body, so I worry that I will be such a bore. My sweet sister in-law was talking to me about this concern of mine and she said she doesn't try to worry about being creative she just tries to focus on not yelling at them and just being patient because she feels like they will remember that love more than the creative things. I would like to have both qualities, but she's right being patient and loving all the time is much more important and that is how they will remember me more not necessarily by what I did craft wise. I also think about how I am responsible for taking care of my husband and the baby right now until he graduates and that is so stressful. It wasn't this stressful until recently because it's all starting to come into focus and I am the only way my little one eats (once he stops breastfeeding) and has a roof over his head and it just feels like a lot of pressure. So for the past month or so I've been trying to find things at work to do or do the things we have to do before other people can get to them to make me feel better about my job security and to just work harder. It's easy to feel like there isn't much to do when I'm stuck in dental rooms just watching them do dental surgeries, but I can actually leave those rooms more frequently and find things to do. I definitely feel like I am still learning and thankfully one of the CRNA's told me to not beat myself up until I have been in the OR for at least a year, so a part me feels like I still have time to progress but another part of me feels like I should be more efficient than I am by now. In my defense I started working in the OR when I just found out I was pregnant so I was EXHAUSTED! After I stopped orienting I pretty much had to relearn everything because I was so tired I couldn't focus on what was being taught to me. I read the Gospel Principles lesson over work and I think it has made me want to be better as well. It's so important to be self reliant and to not have to lean on others and Heavenly Father strongly dislikes laziness and idleness, so I've been trying to pick up the slack I feel like I have had as a wife, co-worker, and servant of the Lord and I know the Lord will bless me for my efforts even if it's just the feeling of comfort.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

My family will be happy to know that we are not changing the baby's name. He will forever be Owen Mitchell. I am so indecisive but after looking through the baby name book with Greg we both decided we should just keep his name Owen.

Fatigue has officially set in again. I thought I felt it creeping in last week or so, but it's here and probably to stay until this babe decides to exit my uterus. Usually by noon I'm beat and could use a nap. I'm just hoping it's not as bad as it was in the 1st trimester...so far so good :o)

My belly has become my handicap. In Relief Society on Sunday my friend's daughter was losing her shoe and she was walking in front of me and so I tried to bend over and fix it for her, but that was not happening. I didn't realize how ridiculous I looked until my friend made me quit torturing myself. Anyway it was a good laugh for those around. I can't complain all in all I really love being pregnant even though I have all sorts of aches going on right now, but it's only temporary and the end result will be glorious.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Those who know me, know that I am probably, almost definitely the cheapest person on the planet. I can talk myself out of buying something that's only $2 (which I recently did regarding a sweater) Greg said Lacey it's ok to buy things every once in a while and besides it's only $2. I just figured I could spend 2 dollars on the baby instead. I love Thrift stores! Nearly all of my clothes come from thrift stores...no joke. I found a pair of jeans one time never been worn for 4 dollars! I haven't been able to wear them for about 5 months now, but I love them! I have decided since babies grow so dang fast what is the point in spending 11 or so dollars on a brand new sleeper when you can thrift one for $1.49? I went to a thrift store here called Savers which is my most favorite thrift store and I found a sleeper that I saw at Kohls that I really liked, but at Kohls it was 11 bucks and at savers 1.99 I believe. I have found great sales at Kohls lately. They have little polo onesies for $4 originally $11 so I've been stocking up on those because they are so adorable and I get bored with the regular onesies. So here are my latest thrift store clothes for our little boy. A few of them were freebies but the majority were from the thrift store and I think I spent about 13 dollars on all of it. Sizes 0-18 months.These two are a couple of my favorites. I love the little polo onesies. I have a lot in 6-9 months, but I need some for 3-6. This one is 0-3 and they are the cutest! The little jacket is 12months and I think it's so cute..it's like a little man jacket haha.

This is the car seat cover mom and I made over Christmas. Greg isn't too thrilled about the flowers, but I figure if we have a girl next or someday I can reverse it! I am pretty in love with my sewing machine. I just haven't decided what I want my next craft to be.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

It's true....I wanted to get my hair cut, but I got to thinking about how it's like 13 bucks for a cheap hair cut and I just may be able to do it myself, so I did. I took about 2 or three inches off and it looked great yesterday after I did because I curled it and I couldn't really tell if it was uneven or not. Speaking of curling hair ever since I've been pregnant my hair will not curl or it will for about 5 seconds...weird. Today after I got out of the shower I had Greg check it to see if it was uneven and he said it was uneven by like 2 inches hahaha...so he cut it for me. I think he did a pretty good job for a first timer.Greg and I were going to get pregnancy pictures done, but he went skiing yesterday with a couple of his friends and he returned home with a giant black eye. I was just happy that I didn't get a call from the hospital saying he had broken legs or something else.This picture really doesn't do it justice and it's much worse today but I couldn't get a good shot of it. I guess I could get pictures just by myself, but I just hate to leave him out of it :o(

I am 33 weeks and 1 day pregnant! It's so close to delivery time I can almost smell the amniotic fluid! heh heh heh We are thinking about not naming him Owen now but it's still up in the air. I really like the name Mitchell for a first name not his middle name. I just think it's a good strong man name ha ha... so we are going to keep Owen Mitchell and find a middle name for Mitchell and then when he is born look at him and decide. Hopefully that works or he might be nameless for a few days. The middle names we have agreed on so far to go after Mitchell are Brodie, Collin, Everette, Conrad, Grant, and Hyrum. I really really liked Sloan and Zorion pronounced Zor + ion but Greg said if you said his name fast it would sound like Mitchell's Orion haha... so he said no to that and he just didn't like sloan...but I think it's different and Manly- which is what I'm going for here. Sometimes I just think Owen is too cutesy for when he gets older, but I haven't decided... I had no idea it would be this difficult to find a name I would like and we want four kids! Maybe just maybe it will get easier anyone have any suggestions with the above mentioned middle names or just any in general?Apparently I am measuring small, but my doctor isn't concerned because he said my fundus is right where it should be and that a lot of times first time moms don't measure right on after 30 weeks. I know he is a very well known Doc in these parts and he's been doing this a long time, but knowing what I know and what measuring small could mean makes me nervous. I've said a few prayers and so far I don't feel a need to go get another opinion and I feel really comforted actually, so we are going to keep feeling it out and see how it goes after my next appointment.I've only gained 4 pounds in the last 9 weeks, but I hear that's normal as well towards the end and I may even lose weight.

On a lighter, more delicious note, I am in the process of making Chocolate cake cookies to take to Greg's family dinner in a couple hours. I figured they would be delish with vanilla ice cream with them :o)subtract the chocolate chip cookie and add a chocolate cake cookie and there ya have what I'll be having in about 3 hours!