far be it for me to deprive you of a perfectly valid life choice to drink, but do you think you might have a problem with your drinking? i can't tell from your posts you see. i can certainly relate to the black moods you describe as part of your mindset. well more like 'before' i decided to deal with my own drinking problem. if this is annoying you, just ignore it. i was genuinely just curious, as i don't think i could figure it out from your poems. ta anyway