I don’t know if it’s the 4th of July falling right smack in the middle of the week or whether I am still reeling at Matt Lauer on Ann Curry’s behalf, but I’m dizzy, guys. Off-kilter. Not quite right.

I’m not gonna lie, that last post took a lot out of me too. I’m happy I shared but it has taken a lot out of me. So much so that last night I watched Twilight, Eclipse and couldn’t stop remarking on its pure perfection.

Seriously.

It’s no secret that I am up to my eyeballs in writing books – plot, scene, structure, outlining, inciting events, turning points, point of no return. It all makes my head spin sometimes. Yet somehow all of the concepts made sense as I was watching this terrible movie. Not only does she have every element, she totally nails them. It’s the kind of movie where you just can’t look away. If you don’t believe me, ask — anyone. Everyone has either seen these movies or read the books.

It’s also what I want to write – a page turning thriller. Not with vampires and werewolves, but high stakes and intrigue. Something that you just can’t put down. It’s so much easier said that done, I’m finding. Even the bad ones hit notes that seem to be eluding me. Am I trying to hard? Am I getting too caught up in my head?

Or maybe I’m just too invested in this idea of mine. I might be trying so hard to make it perfect because I love the concept, but it’s not coming together for me. Should I abandon it for awhile? Start something else? Just sit with it? I’d love to hear your thoughts and/or experiences.