A story of a 37 year old woman named Alex, working through the trials of infertility, and now raising a little Alex...

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Graduated!

First, thanks to everyone for your reassuring comments. I hate that infertility and loss does this – we have a couple good days in our pregnancy, and we automatically assume that there is something wrong with our babies. Because sometimes that’s what it means – sometimes the absence of symptoms means the baby is now dead. But most of the time it means that you’re lucky, and hopefully the symptoms are getting better. I hate that those of us that have experienced infertility or loss, or both, automatically assume it’s bad. But you all sent me very encouraging comments, and gave me reassurances, enough to get through the few less-symptom days. And then, this weekend, all the symptoms came back, with full force! Good times!

I went to my RE office today, for my final appointment. They told me to stop taking the progesterone shots, and I’m not on any restrictions anymore – no restrictions on exercise, sex, anything! I don’t have the hematoma anymore – it’s completely gone. And everything looks great. The little guy was hitting and kicking all around – so feisty! He even reached up to his head – the nurse said he was scratching his head a little – so very cute. He’s measuring at 10 weeks 4 days, even though I’m at 10 weeks 2 days today. And a heartbeat of 156.

It was a little sad leaving that office. I have gone there so many times over the last 18 months. I was glad to have the nurse that I have seen the most doing my last ultrasound. I thanked her for all her help, and she said that she gave me kudos for all the research and self-advocacy I’ve done to have this baby. Love her! It was so weird walking out of there. I won’t be back until I start trying for baby #2. We haven’t decided when that will be, but I love knowing that they’re taking care of seven frozen embryos for us.

So I now must accept that I’m no longer a fertility patient – now I will go forward with my pregnancy as a normal (yet scared) pregnant woman. Luckily I have my next ultrasound scheduled for April 29 (next week!), which will be the NT scan. But after that, it will be every four weeks that I have to go without confirmation from a doctor that everything is ok. And I think that after we get the results from the NT scan, I’ll officially come out at work. Although I think most people suspect – there’s been some weird vibes lately. Oh who cares, let them all gossip! For now, I’m celebrating that everything is ok – at 10+ weeks, my baby is alive and well. Maybe I will get to have this baby after all…

43 comments:

yaay, great news!! it was bittersweet graduating from the RE's office. i was like "why can't you deliver my baby too??!" to my doc. sadly, they can't :o( glad that the next appt is only a week away. you'll breathe a huge sigh of relief once that one is over :o) xoxo.

yes you will have this baby Alex!!! I hope you are able to celebrate this moment. I am sure it feels a little bit like graduating college. You worked so hard, and now what? You will adapt though..I am sure. I am so excited for you. Are you going to create a new blog page or keep this one? I have seen so many IF women change to another blog.

Soooo happy you have finally made it to this point. Sucks that everything has too be so scary but I promise things will start to feel a lot easier after the next few weeks. Once I could feel the little one things changed completely, it really REALLY felt real! Yup, we may just have these babies after all :) Cant wait till we can see the pics of your scan!

Oh Alex, how exciting to be moving on to being a 'normal' pregnancy patient! I can only imagine it would be terrifying but hopefully somewhat a relief. I'm thrilled beyond words that you've got a clean bill of health and I look forward to seeing lots of posts about a very boring, normal pregnancy for you. *hugs*

Fantastic!! So happy all is well, and I found it almost impossible to get through the 4 weeks with no reassurance. Specially at the beginning when you have no movements. So I bought the doppler thing for the heartbeat. Cheering you on, Fran

Congrats on graduating! I could not believe it when I graduated. I was nervous about not going there, about not having progesterone support anymore, and for having to wait a month between visits with my ob, but all turned out well just like it will with you. Congrats!

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I always wanted to be called Alex, and nobody listened to me. I dreamed of the day when I would have my own daughter to call my own, and I would call her Alex. My dream has come true...
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