My Own Personal Reflection

February 27, 2016 That b***h at school called me fat again today. I wish she would leave me alone, I’ve been trying really hard to lose weight, I’ve been skipping breakfast and only eating half of supper. My stomach hurts when it’s empty so I keep myself filled with water but it doesn’t always help. It’ll all be worth it when I’m beautiful. Then that b***h can s**k my d**k. Well… If I had one.

March 3, 2016 I saw something today… I’m not sure what it was but it scared the f**k out of me. I saw someone that looked kind of like me at the mall when I was with friends. When I glanced back to get a better look they were too far away to really tell but it looked like me only… Thinner. But it wasn’t even a good kind of thin… I looked sickly, almost like a skeleton. I screamed and my friends all looked but they didn’t see anything… What’s going on? Was I imagining it?

March 7, 2016 I saw it again! It wasn’t my imagination I know it! Well, I didn’t really see it clearly… Just sort of out of the corner of my eye, when I went to look straight at it, it… I was gone. Is it me? It looks like me but it’s so skinny. It’s terrifying. I was in the halls of school and couldn’t focus in class after. Thankfully it was only the end of the day… It’s harder to eat now though, I don’t even skip on purpose anymore I’m just kind of… Not hungry. At least it doesn’t hurt as much anymore. I’ve lost 15 lbs which is amazing! But that thing… It’s creepy as all hell.

March 9, 2016 No, no, no, no… It has to be following me! I saw it on the way home today! I could see it better but still not clearly. It was too far away but it was definitely me! It looked like death… My cheeks were sunken and my clothes were hanging off. My hair… My hair was so thin. What is it?? What does it want with me?! They say if you see your doppelganger you’re going to die, but aren’t they supposed to look EXACTLY like you?! I have to tell someone. I have to. I just hope they don’t think I’m crazy.

March 10, 2016 No one believes me… My parents said I’m just imagining things. I left out the part about not eating because I knew they wouldn’t understand that. Yeah, I know… They’ll understand I’m seeing someone who looks just like me but impossibly thin and they’re stalking me, but not why I’m not eating. Smart, right? Well they’re adults. Adults never understand those things. Anyways, I didn’t see it today which I’m happy over… But I still can’t get it out of my mind. On the bright side I lost another 5 lbs! I’m getting results quicker than I thought. I’m definitely not complaining either, I’ll be beautiful before I know it. If I could just get that freak to stop following me.

March 15, 2016 F**k f**k f**k f**k, I saw it again. It knows where I live! I was going to bed and I saw it outside my window! The lights were on so the glare made it difficult to see but I know it was there. Its cheeks were so hollow, it’s skin was pale and eyes were dark and so empty of life… My… No, it’s hair was falling out and it’s clothes barely fit at all… I was so terrified I couldn’t even scream this time. When I ran for the switch to turn the lights out so it couldn’t see me and I could see it better, I turned and it was gone… F**k! I’m calling the cops, I don’t care what my parents say. I lost 20 lbs since last time I wrote! I don’t understand how I’m losing so quickly but I’m skinny now which I’m so happy! I’m gonna have something good to eat for breakfast as a reward.

March 16, 2016 Oh my god. I woke up this morning with a clump of hair on my pillow! How could this have happened! And to make things worse my eyes are getting dark rings… It’s a good thing I just got new concealer. I didn’t see that thing at school or on the way home either. Thankfully the best part of today was the cute boy named Jason asked me out on a date! Tonight! I’m going to call the cops tomorrow instead, I don’t want to ruin tonight. I’m so excited!

March 16, 2016 Why is this happening?! I was having such a good time with Jason when I saw it again! It followed me to the park and hid behind a f*****g tree!! This time was creepier than the last though… It looked almost like it was smiling… With those bony features and skeletal grin… I broke down crying immediately and Jason had to take me home. I couldn’t even explain what was wrong! He’s gonna think I’m a freak. I have to talk to him tomorrow and make up some excuse.

March 17, 2016 When I woke up this morning I was devastated… I have been eating properly lately but I’m still losing weight. Even worse now than before! My parents talked to me and kept me home from school, I didn’t even get to explain to Jason what I was going to say happened. They said they’re going to take me to this special doctor because they’re concerned for me… My clothes are starting not to fit anymore either. Am I becoming like it?

March 17, 2016 I just got home from the doctor and they said I have something called anorexia. They said I need to eat more and reduce stress. I have been eating more! And good luck reducing stress with that stupid thing following me. I told the doctor about it but she just said it was a hallucination from not eating properly. I know it’s real. I know it is.

March 18, 2016 It was right here! In my room! I couldn’t barely make it out in the dark but it was here! I screamed and it stayed standing still right up until my parents ran in the room. When they hit the light it was gone. I was crying, trying to tell them it was here but they said it was a nightmare. I was awake! I know it! What does it want from me?!

March 18, 2016 I almost look just like that thing now. I have to use make up to keep the circles around my eyes hidden but there’s nothing I can do for my cheeks. My hair is falling out more now even though I keep eating. I’m almost overeating now. Even my parents are worried. It has to be because of that thing. I know it. But what can I do?! I don’t even know what it wants from me!!! WHY WONT IT JUST GO AWAY?!?!

March 20, 2016 I am typing this by talking to my computer I can see you now what do you want from me why are you following me why won’t you leave me alone what are you what are you what in the f**k are you why do you look exactly like me what in the f**k do you want from me I want you to die what aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ahahahaha

March 20, 2016 I’m so beautiful now. —Katelyn’s laptop was found on her bed, her corpse laid not too far away with both wrists slit in multiple places. Authorities are not sure what to make of the second to last entry but due to the nature of the house (no forced entry, all doors locked and no sign of struggle) it has inevitably been ruled a suicide. But this is not the first case like this, I’ve worked many. I know it’s because of the reflection.