itsmejenn

As I sit here getting my hair done all I keep thinking is will this maybe help me stop thinking of you? Will help me to let you go? You’re so cold on the phone to me. You speak with so much venom. I don’t know how you can love someone and then hate them so quickly. I’m the one who was done wrong here and I can’t even do it. I want to hate you every day but I can’t even hate you for a second. This almost makes me hate myself. You don’t deserve my love. You don’t deserve my attention . I know as I’m sitting here thinking of you and writing about you, you’re not even giving me a thought.

I just want it to stop hurting when I think of the Damage that you’ve done. I don’t want to be y...

I found some peace yesterday. After finally getting ahold of you to tell you about what’s been going on with our daughters school and discussing her midterm. I told you everything that I had to say and hung up. I wanted to call you back so badly and tell you about all of the fuck ups that you’ve made since you started cheating with her. I wanted to hear you say SORRY, why is that too much for.

I cried at my work desk and then finally stopped and realized that I have to let you go. Ignoring someone that’s at their lowest because you don’t want the drama (that YOU caused) is a coward thing to do. You don’t care about me. You have yet to call or text and see if I’m ok. If I call you...

I went an entire day without talking to you yesterday but today when you called to talk to my daughter I started to hate you all over again. You didn’t want to talk to me.

The one person who had nothing to do with you leaving. You didn’t ask how I was. You didn’t do or say anything. How do you just make the love stop? I begged you to tell me and you ignored me. I begged you to love me and you ignored me. I begged you to pick me and you ignored me.

My daughter woke up because she could hear me crying and she asked if she could call you and you ignored her.

How do you get to ignore the problem that you created? How does this happen?

I started to think about you a little less today. I picked up my phone to text you but remembered you told me to go away. I created a profile online for a dating website. It only took 20 minutes for me to delete it. You moved on before you let me go. I was right by your side loving you more than anyone I’ve ever loved before. I was so ignorant to the fact that you were texting Mrs. right, right after you had sex with me. I’d call it making love but in the end you were saving that for her. You told me to leave you alone and stop making you feel so guilty. You say you still want to be involved in my daughters life that you had nothing to do with making. The way you disrespected her mo...

I gave you 7 years of my life. You were just here to kill time. While I’m utterly and completely in love with you, you’re out trying to find your soulmate unbeknownst to me. I’m holding you while we sleep and reminding you of my love and you’re making plans with another.

3 days before Christmas you break up with me and say it’s because you’re not happy and neither am I. I couldn’t have been happier. An exact week later I find you’ve given your heart to another woman. I had to find out on my own. You were too much of a coward to tell me. You keep saying you don’t hate me but hate would be easier to take.

The day after I find out about you’re secret love you pack up and leave in ...