When you search for spirituality you are actually surrendering yourself to a higher power. It doesn't make sense to even think that you can get to a higher power using your own. You can't dictate terms against something which is immeasurable.

Now in aikido, it teaches you a path to surrender. You surrender your ego, instead of doing something to uke, you let uke come to a conclusion on his own. The less you do, the more you achieve.

Again this may seem so esotherical. But physical aikido can only take you so far. Behind the body, there is ki. Behind ki there is intent. And behind intent there is the mind.

Draw strength from stillness. Learn to act without acting. And never underestimate a samurai cat.