Monday, January 12, 2009

If you’re reading this, it means I actually worked up the courage to mail it – so good for me.

You don’t know me very well, but if you get me started you’ll find I have the tendency to go on and on about how hard the writing is for me… and this… this is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write.

There’s no easy way to say this, so I’ll just say it – I met someone. It was an accident, I wasn’t looking for it, I wasn’t on the make, it was a perfect storm. He said one thing, I said another. Next thing I knew - I wanted to spend my life in the middle of that conversation.

Now there’s this feeling in my gut that he may be the one. He’s completely nuts, in a way that makes me smile, highly neurotic, a great deal of maintenance required.

He is you. That’s the good news. The bad is that I don’t know how to be with you right now and it scares the shit out of me. Because if I can’t be with you right now, I have a feeling we’ll get lost out there. It’s a big bad world full of twists and turns and people have a way of blinking and missing the moment – the moment that could have changed everything.

I don’t know what’s going on with us – and I cant tell u why you should waste a leap of faith on the likes of me – but damn you smell good… like home…and you make excellent coffee… That’s gotta count for something, right?