Thursday, October 2, 2014

At 11:40 pm during the evening of April 14th, she struck an iceberg and by 2:20 am; under two hours later; she sank resulting in the deaths of over 1500 people.

I remember these facts because from early childhood, almost lost to memory as to how early it truly was, I've always had a pit in my stomach regarding Titanic and everything surrounding it. However, I can't seem to figure out why.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Today, at approximately 4pm, US Central Standard Time, a fine companion of multiple generations of a family close to me and a good being in her own right, is finding release from pain and suffering that she's endured stalwartly though increasingly in this life over the last few years.My partner's parents are taking her on her way, and they all feel the sadness and loss that this sort of mercy unfortunately leaves to for those who remain. A member of their family for 15 years, Sheba, one of two canine companions is leaving us by mercy, and while I am glad of her release from the withering of age and infirmity, I mourn as I have for canines I have been blessed to call my own companions.Spirit, Shaun...speed her to her rest.Goodbye, Sheba. You will be missed dearly.

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Hello true believers, or at least to you generous enough to spend a few seconds perusing a hopeful woman's blog. Most days, I wake up in pain, I wake up depressed, or I wake up in a median state and do my best to maintain. Today, I get to say I woke up to a great day. Here's why...

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Normally, I'm not the sort to kvetch on day-to-day stuff. I mean, nobody wants to read about how "awful" my day was only to think "Bitch, that ain't awful. THIS is awful..." and proceed to shove how good actually do have it down my gob. I wouldn't blame them for it, either, honestly. But if I don't tell someone, I'm going to just....*pop!* and...I'm just this side of afraid of what that might be.

Thursday, December 5, 2013

When I was much younger I'd had this idea somehow cement itself into my soul that said one day I'd have a time in which I'd lose all the friends I had. Because I was transgendered, or because I wasn't a pushover of a girl, or because I'd finally reach that stress point where my emotions just fractured or any other conceivable fear-based "reason".

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

It occurred to me, recently, that there are many things that while they may not need repeating, dearly bear repeating. Require it. That our world would be all the better for if every single person living today would be open to, listen to, and then give serious consideration to, these pearls of wisdom or perception.This is one of them.

About Me

Hi! Pardon the word avalanche, it's how I roll. I'm a 40 year-old, transgender woman living in upper Minnesota. Books and writing are some (read:most) of the things that I'm centered around. Learning and experiencing. My musical, film and artistic tastes are best classified as eclectic (read: insanely varied and completely driven by mood). While progressive in most schools-of-thought, I do have a number of old-fashioned views that I enjoy and take great comfort in sharing with someone. To be frank, I revel in my femininity and enjoy spending time with others who do as well.

I don't know what I'd hoped for in engaging socially in this way. I mean that....I literally don't know. And I still don't. Maybe just connection...maybe inclusion...maybe a bitchin' brownie recipe? Maybe just interacting with people who can and do empathize with the daily trials? The older I get the more unsure I am about some things, and more steady with others. I guess that is as good a reason for all of this as any other. Me, just looking for the balance point. In the meanwhile, I guess I'll do my best to stave off the existential road-rash by not wallowing, nor missing anymore of the possibilities left on the road ahead.