My birthday is next week as well and my oldest daughter and I are going to the grand opening of a new Whole Foods and checking out all the samples from different vendors to celebrate. We plan on going to the casino on the 9th, so I may have a drink to celebrate as well. Nothing too major.

My birthday is next week as well and my oldest daughter and I are going to the grand opening of a new Whole Foods and checking out all the samples from different vendors to celebrate. We plan on going to the casino on the 9th, so I may have a drink to celebrate as well. Nothing too major.

Well, I'm glad this is a process because I've definitely got quite a way to go, lol. I'm holding onto that weight gain after that little loss. I'm back up where I started and it's been holding for three days now. I'm going to copy my journal post here:

Well, I'm obviously doing something wrong. I'm feeling pretty good, which is the most important thing, but my energy hasn't increased much and I'm definitely NOT losing weight. I still think I'm overeating, but the appetite suppression hasn't kicked in yet and I'm feeling hungry all the time. Not exactly sure what to tweak yet, but I'll keep working on it.

Today looks like this:

1: Coffee with butter and a little coconut milk (lite)
2: Ground beef, 1/2 avocado; iced coffee (with lite coconut milk) (lite is only because that's what I had---I have a BUNCH of
cans that I bought before "going primal")

Guess I should be a guy then... lol I want a finality about things so I can move on to a new hobby...

Great point made by the blogger though. it really should be about the process, not always about reaching the final goal. If I were to all of a sudden be at goal and have the body of my dreams - I'm not sure what I'd do next... probably go for a run.

So I never thought I was much of an emotional eater but I recently had a falling out with my closest friend and we are no longer friends and yesterday it hit me that it seems like I may have lost some other friends as a result. I am really sad over it and I find I am wanting to eat even though I am not hungry. I came back from my trip 4.6 pounds lighter. I had finally reached my first small goal weight which was emotionally significant and was almost half way to my next small goal. From now on they are in 10 pound increments. This morning I had gained back 4.4 pounds and so far I have eaten my breakfast and just ate a handful of macadamia nuts and two squares of chocolate. My stomach hurts, my heart is sad and I am sitting here thinking I want to raid the cabinet. Really? Why? It's not going to help, it's not going to fix the friendship. I am tired of crying about it and now I feel like crap.

I just needed to share how I am feeling with someone as I am feeling really sad and lonely right now. I'm in my forties and I feel like I am in middle school. Great adolescence all over again.

So I never thought I was much of an emotional eater but I recently had a falling out with my closest friend and we are no longer friends and yesterday it hit me that it seems like I may have lost some other friends as a result. I am really sad over it and I find I am wanting to eat even though I am not hungry. I came back from my trip 4.6 pounds lighter. I had finally reached my first small goal weight which was emotionally significant and was almost half way to my next small goal. From now on they are in 10 pound increments. This morning I had gained back 4.4 pounds and so far I have eaten my breakfast and just ate a handful of macadamia nuts and two squares of chocolate. My stomach hurts, my heart is sad and I am sitting here thinking I want to raid the cabinet. Really? Why? It's not going to help, it's not going to fix the friendship. I am tired of crying about it and now I feel like crap.

I just needed to share how I am feeling with someone as I am feeling really sad and lonely right now. I'm in my forties and I feel like I am in middle school. Great adolescence all over again.

I know how rough it can be to lose a friend. I've recently lost a couple too. I know how rough it is and how horrible it makes us feel. I sympathize. Can you go for a walk when those feelings hit? Sometimes it helps to change the scenery a bit.

From the "shake". I make my "shake" with a frozen banana, egg white protein powder, coconut milk, unsweetened cocoa powder, 1 or 2 drops of stevia liquid, and sometimes 1 T of nuts...usually almonds, but yesterday and today was figuring on Macadamias. So, I think I'll modify that today and make it without the banana and nuts, and use only half the protein powder (that's also high). I'll add more fat...yesterday I used butter...may do that or may add some almond butter.

I haven't been having the "shakes" very often because it's been cold. But the last few days the weather here has been warm so I started having one in the evening.

I normall prefer chicken wings, leg and thighs, but I've been buying a whole roasted chicken once a week, and this is the leftover, lol. I think I'll go back to what I used to do years ago and just buy the parts I like and roast them myself.

This is why it's good to post things...I KNOW what's wrong, but until someone points it out to me, sometimes I ignore it. {{sign}}

I just needed to share how I am feeling with someone as I am feeling really sad and lonely right now. I'm in my forties and I feel like I am in middle school. Great adolescence all over again.

Aw, I'm so sorry. I've lost a couple of friends too and it's definitely hard. I'm a huge emotional/stress eater, so I understand how hard it is. I'm also the type of person who does too much thinking and I tend to rethink and rethink and rethink these situations.