tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-276040682018-03-31T07:32:11.780-04:00adventures in art & life by Kerrimy art and life blogKerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.comBlogger591125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-47557485575817100052016-10-06T15:13:00.001-04:002016-10-06T15:13:00.678-04:00All good things must come to an end…<p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">After such a long hiatus, I feel like I owe an explanation to anyone who has hung around long enough for me to post again. I will start by saying that all is basically well in my world.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I am in a really good place physically and mentally, in spite of the fact that this year has been a bit of a shitstorm for me. Three flat tires, two car accidents and a complex fracture for Max – and those are just the highlights. But I handled it all with incredible grace and maturity. Yup. Right after I threw numerous temper tantrums, had myself a massive pity party, and bitched to anyone who would listen. Let’s just say, the swear jar is full. I don’t handle these things well at all.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-e31seu9Dbaw/V_aiOzvBVrI/AAAAAAAAC5g/E7MY6wuNZDE/s640/blogger-image-2066780214.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-e31seu9Dbaw/V_aiOzvBVrI/AAAAAAAAC5g/E7MY6wuNZDE/s640/blogger-image-2066780214.jpg"></a></div><br><p></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">So, you’re welcome, readers. I spared you.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But I still haven‘t explained where I’ve been, have I? I have been trying to answer these questions: What’s next? Is this really all there is? Why am I so restless? What do I want to say? Do I have anything left to say? And if so, is this where I want to say it?</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">So I have been pouring my thoughts and feelings into a private journal, because so much of it is just the noise in my head, and it’s just too messy for public consumption.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I am thinking that this blog may have run its course and served its purpose. That and the fact that my blog URL is saddled with my married name, and that just continues to bug the crap out of me. But it’s also that I think a blog deserves time and attention, and this year in particular, I’ve really neglected it.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">So I am going to give this some thought, and regroup. I have some other online projects in the works, and I may move over to Wordpress, with a new name. If and when that happens, I will let you know.</span></p><p></p><p><font style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">PS – to those faithful few who have continued to show up for my inconsistent posts, I thank you. I am so grateful for the positive aspects of technology, that connect us through our art and our stories. Xo Love, Kerri&nbsp;</font><font size="2" face="sans-serif" style="font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 21px; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;"><br></font></p>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-2674599623371540052016-04-19T16:29:00.001-04:002016-04-19T19:46:12.537-04:00Gatherer.<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font>I have been compelled lately for reasons unbeknownst to me, to gather sticks. I have no idea why, or what I will use them for, although most certainly they will become part of some kind of art project in the not too distant future. All I know is that when I see just the right ones, I must have them. &nbsp;</font></span><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;"><br></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font>The sticks I gather have to have certain qualities. They must be fairly straight, with all of the bark having fallen away so that they are smooth, resembling bones. In order for the bark to fall away, &nbsp;Mother Nature has to have had her way with them first, and so most of them are broken to about 12 inches or less, some have been bleached by the sun, and others have tiny grooves carved out by termites into insect hieroglyphics. They lay like an offering under the ancient trees at the historic cemetery where I walk with Max, and I can't resist them.</font>&nbsp;<br><br><font>I think many of us are drawn to nature and to natural elements. I know that the older I get, the more I appreciate the natural beauty that surrounds us, and the more time I want to spend taking it all in - both figuratively and literally.</font>&nbsp;</span><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;"><br></span><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font><br></font></span></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-JKua8-Bg7_o/VxaVVc671tI/AAAAAAAAC3Y/pd_VrbxoGK0/s640/blogger-image-1166384372.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-JKua8-Bg7_o/VxaVVc671tI/AAAAAAAAC3Y/pd_VrbxoGK0/s640/blogger-image-1166384372.jpg"></a></div><br></font></span></div></div>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-78572498205570551492016-02-01T12:52:00.001-05:002016-02-01T12:53:39.362-05:00Little Illo<div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-bhCbg-vcI08/Vq-bQpIjmfI/AAAAAAAAC1U/gfcy5fRl-v4/s640/blogger-image-395041482.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-bhCbg-vcI08/Vq-bQpIjmfI/AAAAAAAAC1U/gfcy5fRl-v4/s640/blogger-image-395041482.jpg"></a></div>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-66302579501859814732016-01-29T14:45:00.001-05:002016-01-29T14:45:35.756-05:00All the best things...<font><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">… in life are not things.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">A refreshing change of topic</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">For those who know her story, you know this is the sweet face of a fierce fighter. She just donated twelve inches of hair to locks of love. Here she is, looking so grown up. She’ll be 12 in April, possessing not only a strong heart, but a sweet soul, and a fierce sense of humor…</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">My niece, my inspiration… Avery</span></p><p></p><p><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-Ro4vK79Whgg/VqvAMs_ZxJI/AAAAAAAAC1A/pvfUtFbNhMo/s640/blogger-image-1837190844.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-Ro4vK79Whgg/VqvAMs_ZxJI/AAAAAAAAC1A/pvfUtFbNhMo/s640/blogger-image-1837190844.jpg"></a></div>&nbsp;<p></p></font><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></p>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-27735547857051891192016-01-28T13:05:00.001-05:002016-01-28T13:05:18.350-05:00Doodle time<div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-4D_AOgKJxdo/VqpYW9s0XsI/AAAAAAAAC0w/8FisbTt3q80/s640/blogger-image-327864825.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-4D_AOgKJxdo/VqpYW9s0XsI/AAAAAAAAC0w/8FisbTt3q80/s640/blogger-image-327864825.jpg"></a></div>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-91803903886249925602016-01-21T10:03:00.001-05:002016-01-21T10:03:20.227-05:00Stress relief<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">How do you let off steam? Sometimes swearing works for me, and I am frighteningly good at it. Exercise is good, and more socially acceptable. I love just walking outside. Nature is a balm for just about everything, I think (well except when there’s a minus ten-degree wind chill, but generally).</span></div></span><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But one of my favorite and less conventional methods of stress reduction is to rearrange my furniture. I rearranged my entire living room last night. I find giving a room a free face lift is so much fun, and in my tiny house, a bit of a creative challenge. It also helps me to bear living with my 1990s yucko furniture for a bit longer.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I used to drive my ex crazy when I’d do this, but my current roommate is pretty cool with it. Dogs are like that.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font>I forgot to take a “before” picture, but this is the “after.”</font><font><br></font></span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font></font></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><font><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-iiSoU5sn8k8/VqDzLBXy0HI/AAAAAAAAC0A/oft0DwxbfGk/s640/blogger-image--953740542.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-iiSoU5sn8k8/VqDzLBXy0HI/AAAAAAAAC0A/oft0DwxbfGk/s640/blogger-image--953740542.jpg"></a></font></div><font><br></font><p></p><p><font color="#000000" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-R1fJa1NRHyc/VqDzN5S_irI/AAAAAAAAC0I/vTYyY34UwBY/s640/blogger-image--942495738.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-R1fJa1NRHyc/VqDzN5S_irI/AAAAAAAAC0I/vTYyY34UwBY/s640/blogger-image--942495738.jpg"></a></font></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-nop-5_maY_E/VqDzIVdRFkI/AAAAAAAACz4/iPJo3ykNE0Y/s640/blogger-image-831391230.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-nop-5_maY_E/VqDzIVdRFkI/AAAAAAAACz4/iPJo3ykNE0Y/s640/blogger-image-831391230.jpg"></a></div><br><p></p>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-88022523193608648852016-01-15T16:01:00.001-05:002016-01-15T16:01:31.665-05:00What is your worth?<font style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">So here is one that I am struggling with. Self worth.&nbsp;</font><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">No worries. Right now, I think I’m great.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But here’s the thing. I think I’m great because I am proud of the path that I’ve been on lately. Because I am making art and staying sober and being attentive to my family and friends and keeping my house moderately kinda clean. Because I judge myself constantly, (and others, by the way – even though this is a big no-no), and when I am not doing the things that make me proud, I feel pretty crappy about myself. And when I am following my true path and meeting my own expectations, I feel good. To me, that makes sense. It’s how I was raised.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I still remember when I would come home with my report card as a kid. I was a decent student, but I have some willful and lazy tendencies toward doing things I don’t love, so my grades in math and science would inevitably dip by the third quarter, when I was just tired of showing up. And my dad would never get angry. He would just say, “if you did your best, and all you could get is a C,” then I am proud of you.” Yeah, I know. My dad is a very clever guy. Instead of feeling good about getting off without punishment for bringing home a “C,” I’d feel terrible because I knew that I hadn’t done my best.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But I keep reading in all of the feel-goody, new-agey articles out there that we have worth simply because we are. Not because of what we do. That our value isn’t tied to our deeds.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">And while I may be able to forgive others their trespasses, and I have, many times (to a point), I have a very difficult time accepting my own worth when I am behaving in a way that goes against my own truth.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I also have a difficult time with the concept of worth as intrinsic as it relates to people who commit heinous crimes, such as murder or molestation. They have worth because they are human, and by their very existence, just like me, they are not defined by what they do? I could list much lesser offenses here, and still I would feel like this concept is not quite right. I don’t get this one, people. I just don’t.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font>So as long as I am trying to do my best, I am great. A bit judgmental, but otherwise, great.&nbsp;</font><font><br></font></span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font></font></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><font><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-lBP56YEqvKo/VpleKvTb9MI/AAAAAAAACzk/0yzWQ4AQ7Rk/s640/blogger-image-88866066.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-lBP56YEqvKo/VpleKvTb9MI/AAAAAAAACzk/0yzWQ4AQ7Rk/s640/blogger-image-88866066.jpg"></a></font></div><font><br></font><p></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font><br></font></span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font><br></font></span></p>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-75069144833213720702016-01-13T13:58:00.001-05:002016-01-13T14:03:41.299-05:00One of those days<font style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Did you ever just have one of those days? Well, for me, yesterday was one of those days.</font><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">After spending several long and tedious hours cataloging and reorganizing all of my original, digital artwork – a necessary task that I have put off for a very long time – I lost it. All. In one accidental slip of a finger. One accidental tap of a DE-fucking-LETE key. Not in the trash, where it could be retrieved. Just gone. Adios, muchachos.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">So long, farewell, auf wiedersehen, goodbye.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I was truly stunned when I realized what had happened. And how quickly and completely 300 files had just disappeared. I just sat there for a few seconds and mentally assessed the damage.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But I didn’t panic. In spite of how much work it was going to take to fix it; in spite of the fact that my day was going less than perfectly in a half dozen other ways prior to this disaster. You know you’re having a bad day when you tell yourself that at least you’re not a Syrian refugee, in order to feel better. But for real, that works every time. These are “first world problems,” as they say.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I did an inventory of the damage. I had lost about 300 files, and all of the organizing, numbering, and clean up work on them, but I was fairly sure that I had all of the original sketches and that most of the digital versions of my artwork were elsewhere on my pc.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">So I settled in on the sofa with Max, turned on the State of the Union address, turned OFF the State of the Union address, and watched a DVR’d episode of Fixer Upper. Chip and Joanna always make me feel better.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font>And today, I catalogued and organized them all over again. -- So stay tuned. All of this work is for my website, which has been "under construction" for two and a half years. I think this happened just to test me into proving how much I want it.&nbsp;</font><font><br></font></span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font></font></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><font><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-6IwBeVfINAQ/VpafKye7BdI/AAAAAAAACzU/o2v1dtUDKsE/s640/blogger-image--1721055834.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-6IwBeVfINAQ/VpafKye7BdI/AAAAAAAACzU/o2v1dtUDKsE/s640/blogger-image--1721055834.jpg"></a></font></div><font><br></font><p></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font><br></font></span></p>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-48625861378929905132016-01-07T15:36:00.001-05:002016-01-07T15:36:43.978-05:00She says...<div class="separator" style="clear: both;">&nbsp; Occasionally, I am going to feature some favorite quotes by women throughout history...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">&nbsp;</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-s-0u_p_kBsg/Vo7MWafel2I/AAAAAAAACys/mF-Y-LLWmmM/s640/blogger-image--73272046.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-s-0u_p_kBsg/Vo7MWafel2I/AAAAAAAACys/mF-Y-LLWmmM/s640/blogger-image--73272046.jpg"></a></div>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-78779874162735791562015-12-28T16:23:00.001-05:002015-12-28T16:23:41.019-05:00My Girl-ifesto.<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font>As the new year approaches, I decided I should have one. You can call it a mission or vision statement, a business plan, or a mantra for life, but I like having a Girl-ifesto. I think it sounds feisty. And I am feeling a bit feisty these days.</font>&nbsp;<br><br><font><u>My Girlifesto</u></font>&nbsp;<br><font>Speak your mind.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Tell your story.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Sing out loud.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Own your quirks.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Laugh at yourself.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Laugh, period.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Cry, too.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Imagine.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Dance.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Be curious.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Be furious.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Have fun.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Break the rules.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Make things.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Go places.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Engage.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Love.</font>&nbsp;<br><font>Be.</font><font><br><br></font></span><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-dUTIa0ll7gA/VoGoXMhpBGI/AAAAAAAACyI/MEbNVR416pI/s640/blogger-image--1710559411.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-dUTIa0ll7gA/VoGoXMhpBGI/AAAAAAAACyI/MEbNVR416pI/s640/blogger-image--1710559411.jpg"></a></div><br></font></span></div>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-12306787234960861972015-12-22T10:24:00.001-05:002015-12-22T21:27:52.864-05:00Expectations...<div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-Fz63tQEyqfo/Vnl-PXqIy8I/AAAAAAAACx0/RIfdk5a-mV4/s640/blogger-image-1129867718.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-Fz63tQEyqfo/Vnl-PXqIy8I/AAAAAAAACx0/RIfdk5a-mV4/s640/blogger-image-1129867718.jpg"></a></div><br></span></div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div>are</span><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"> just future resentments. (Something I read recently.)</span><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">This is a mind-blowing concept to me, but I get it. I get why it’s bad to have expectations. It’s really about living in the present moment. When I have an expectation, I am living in the future. My mind has orchestrated a future that is likely not to play out exactly as I expect (or often, not even close). I can honestly say I have done this a million times. I play out scenarios in my head about how something will go. And then I am disappointed or angry when what I imagined would happen, doesn’t. And not only that, what does happen Is fairly lackluster in comparison to my grandiose ideas. And then I resent someone or something that has not lived up to my…you guessed it. EXPECTATIONS.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">And resentment is just anger and disappointment that I hang onto and allow to play out over and over in my noisy head, and that is living in the past – in a nutshell.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Accepting what IS, as it plays out, in the present moment, is the key to happiness, peace, and contentment.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">This is a difficult one for me, and I’m guessing I’m not alone. I mean, isn’t it good to get excited and to anticipate future events? I am guessing that there may be a difference between some healthy excitement and anticipation, and a detailed internal script about how I expect events to unfold. And what about the past? Aren't memories of good times a good thing? They may make us feel nostalgic and warm and fuzzy, but if we are back there -- in the past -- we are not here -- in the now. Which is where we live. And according to the experts, if we aren't paying attention in the now, then we end up missing the point.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font>So, today, I release my expectations (most of them), and let go of my resentments (some of them) -- &nbsp;take a deep breath, and look around. I am here and now. Always. Well, not always, just until I die. But that’s enough.&nbsp;</font><font><br><br></font></span></p>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-47633414664383405142015-12-22T10:00:00.000-05:002015-12-22T10:25:05.627-05:00“If you don’t know where you want to be in five years, you’re already
there.” – Elizabeth Gilbert<div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"></span><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"></span></div>That statement literally changed the trajectory of the past year for me, inviting me to almost immediate action. I’ve been following Elizabeth Gilbert, author of&nbsp;<i>Eat, Pray, Love</i>&nbsp;fame on Facebook for awhile now. I confess, I have not read her famous book. I found the premise of being able to quit one’s job and go on a worldwide soul search more than a little bit unrealistic for me and my circle of friends. Still. I have found that I love her daily insights into finding oneself and living the life you truly want.<br><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"></span><br><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Being a writer, she believes in the power of writing down your dreams and plans, and I have to agree. Putting words on paper takes more than ink. It takes thought, energy and commitment. It takes honesty. Admission. So she recommended that you write down the answer(s) to where you want to be in five years. And she went further in suggesting that if you don’t give any thought to the future, you’re likely not going anywhere. And if you are perfectly content exactly where you are, then that’s fine.</span><br><br><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">She prompted readers with some basic questions -- what do you want your health to be like? Where do you want to be living? Where do you want to be working? How much money will you need, to make your dreams happen? She believes that just declaring these things shakes up the Universe and starts the ball rolling. I wanted to believe this too.</span><br><br><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">She also posed this question, which for me, was the catalyst:</span><br><br><b style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">What are you willing to give up, to have what you really want?</b><br><br><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Wait. I have to give something up,? Can’t I just write down my list of wishes, like a childhood Christmas list, and then go to sleep and await their arrival?</span><br><br><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But for me, that was the pivotal question. My list of five-year goals included the usual -- more money, more travel, a thriving art business, and a regular daily exercise program, to name a short but lofty list. But another “want” crept into my head. In five years, I wanted to be five years’ sober. And there it was. I admitted it. Of course, I’m sure I was drinking my third glass of chardonnay at the time, but it was a start. Way down deep in my gut, I knew the truth – that none of the other things that I wanted would ever be possible without giving up the thing that had become most important to me. Drinking.</span><br><br><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">This may sound melodramatic to anyone without a drinking problem, but it takes a lot of energy, creativity and time to have a deep, long-term relationship with alcohol.</span><br><br><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But like many long-term relationships, this one had long ago ceased giving me what it had promised in the beginning. And I was ready. Right after I finished that last glass of chardonnay.</span><br><br><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-5e0Sy3YBQ80/Vnhontceo-I/AAAAAAAACxU/-YPVa5KhAMs/s640/blogger-image--483546478.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-5e0Sy3YBQ80/Vnhontceo-I/AAAAAAAACxU/-YPVa5KhAMs/s640/blogger-image--483546478.jpg"></a></span></div></div>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-26659967953726914182015-12-21T10:58:00.001-05:002015-12-21T13:56:43.901-05:00One word - 2016<div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-HUaGYs1c-as/VnhLatVUdEI/AAAAAAAACxA/PvoEBMBIVMk/s640/blogger-image-1798054561.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-HUaGYs1c-as/VnhLatVUdEI/AAAAAAAACxA/PvoEBMBIVMk/s640/blogger-image-1798054561.jpg"></a></div><br></span></div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>Since 2008, I have been declaring my one-word resolution for the coming year, instead of making a list so specific it was bound to fail. I enjoy the ritual, and I do find it helps to remind me during the year of what’s important to me, even if I am not outlining a specific plan. It’s also much easier to delude oneself into believing one has not failed, am I right?</span><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Don’t get me wrong. Words matter. I have always believed in the power of the written or spoken word, but I am taking this ritual a bit less seriously this year. Still, I hope it serves me well – or better yet, that I do it justice.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><b>So my word for 2016 is... CREATE.&nbsp;</b></span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Now, this word has obvious meaning for artists, but as always, I like it when a word has the ability to work its magic in any number of areas of my life, and this one is wide open with potential.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">So there it is. In 2016, I hope to create ______________!</span></p><p></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font><i>(And just to re-cap…I do this part more for my own reference than anything else…my chosen words, from 2008 to 2015: Health. Wealth. Believe. Authentic. Power. Discipline. Love. Persistence.)</i></font><font><br><br></font></span></p>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-83293949755247941492015-12-20T19:30:00.002-05:002015-12-20T19:30:36.692-05:00Merry Christmas...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-2VD-rIc-mUo/VndGtpl7uzI/AAAAAAAACwM/mECdpvKKcds/s1600/altered%2Bchristmas%2B2015.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-2VD-rIc-mUo/VndGtpl7uzI/AAAAAAAACwM/mECdpvKKcds/s320/altered%2Bchristmas%2B2015.jpg" width="232" /></a></div>and good will to all. We certainly need it these days. Wishing you all a happy holiday season.<br /><br />I have several blog posts in draft stages, and I plan to publish more consistently in 2016. I am so grateful for those of you who visit, and for your kind words after my last announcement. It's been three months, two weeks, and five days since I took my last drink. I have much to say on the subject, but not just yet. <br /><br />Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-82497790465698193722015-10-09T15:39:00.001-04:002015-10-09T15:39:29.542-04:00Persistence revisited.<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-JvdALFeDHJs/VhgX7-OU1cI/AAAAAAAACvE/YtrHy7HzuPQ/s640/blogger-image--866759343.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-JvdALFeDHJs/VhgX7-OU1cI/AAAAAAAACvE/YtrHy7HzuPQ/s640/blogger-image--866759343.jpg"></a></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>So, persistence has been my one-word resolution for 2015.</span><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">&nbsp;</span><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I am an expert flitter and a quitter -- flitting from one project to the next, one art form to another, and then just losing interest. And this tendency goes way beyond art -- I do the same with exercise. And cooking. I start a lot of things, very enthusiastically, and then, I somehow lose momentum.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But it occurred to me last week that I had completely forgotten my yearly word. I had to look through old blog posts to even find it. So much for 2015 and persistence, I thought. But I took stock of this year, and I realized that persistence was working its ass off for me.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I had been thinking of persistence in relation to my art and all of the projects and techniques I abandon just around the time I should be pushing through for some kind of creative breakthrough. But in the rare, quiet times when I took an honest look at my life, I knew the really challenge didn’t start with my art. My lack of follow-through was a symptom of a much bigger issue in my life. My bad habits all stemmed from the same place. The bottom of a wine glass.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">So, on August 30, I stopped.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">How is that persistence, you may wonder? Well, anyone who has quit a bad habit knows that usually, prior to quitting are many, many false starts -- or more accurately, stops, and a lot of soul-searching, and promises to oneself before one succeeds. And that is big-ass persistence.&nbsp;</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Of course, clarity of mind brings with it a whole shitload of new issues. My mind is a pain in the ass, truth be told. It won’t shut up. So right now I am doing a lot of reading and listening and hopefully learning, always learning.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font>Xo Peace and love.</font><font><br></font></span></p>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-11396919276220733072015-05-06T21:11:00.001-04:002015-05-06T21:11:13.989-04:00We are not good OR bad...<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-luAZSjf2d5o/VUq7iEqmUdI/AAAAAAAACsg/UkAT8YUy2Ck/s1600/good%2Bvs%2Bbad.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-luAZSjf2d5o/VUq7iEqmUdI/AAAAAAAACsg/UkAT8YUy2Ck/s1600/good%2Bvs%2Bbad.jpg" height="400" width="251" /></a></span></div><br /><br /><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">We are good AND bad…</span><br /><br /><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Did I blog about this already? Because if I did, I apologize. I am not getting old OR forgetful, I am getting old AND forgetful.&nbsp;</span><br /><br /><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">So if you get a feeling of de ja vu when you read this, that is why. I was introduced to this concept of duality by an artist I've admired for a long time, and it really resonated with me. It has, in fact, stuck with me enough that I want to write about it, possibly for the second time.</span><br /><br /><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">In her case, I vaguely recall that she was lamenting to her therapist that she was not good… at several things…she was a bad mother, etc. Sidebar: this artist is ridiculously good at everything, and I mean everything: art, motherhood, business, writing, fencing, boxing, violin, sewing..the list is truly endless (I swear, I am not making any of these up – she does them ALL, very well) -- so after this revelation, I stopped listening for awhile to what she had to say, because being excellent at everything (she is also incredibly disciplined and really works hard at all of these things, by the way) but being awesome at everything and still thinking you’re bad is just annoying.</span><br /><br /><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">But back to the subject…</span><br /><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">We are not good OR bad. We are good AND bad. What I love about this, is the reminder that both goodness and badness can co-exist within us. Being bad (sometimes), does not negate the good we have done. We are always learning and hopefully growing from our experiences, and hopefully, at the end of it all, if our deeds are sorted into good AND bad, the good list is a lot longer.&nbsp;</span><br /><br /><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Now where did I leave my pitchfork?</span><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br /></span>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-55192970347089098182015-04-14T12:39:00.001-04:002015-04-15T09:23:02.980-04:00Eternal life<font style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-GAV3mduKxgI/VS1DE54Du3I/AAAAAAAACsE/4YE9pg9SdcM/s640/blogger-image-952324863.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-GAV3mduKxgI/VS1DE54Du3I/AAAAAAAACsE/4YE9pg9SdcM/s640/blogger-image-952324863.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div>I have been painting again. It started with a “kind of” commissioned piece. For a woman I’ve never met, but who, through this amazing cyber universe we now inhabit, I feel like I have known for years. We have friends in common, and we will get to meet this summer, when she comes up from Florida to visit those friends. And I will get to give her this painting in person.&nbsp;</font><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I love how it turned out. She chose the words, and the color, and the little butterfly, which is a symbol of someone she lost, and I was surprised at the feelings this painting evokes for me, so I hope that she is equally moved.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">This connection to people through art is really an amazing thing. I am so grateful for the creative process and all that it brings with it.&nbsp;</span></p>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-39341053900250052812015-04-14T12:11:00.001-04:002015-04-14T12:13:31.434-04:00Spring.<span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-il6Fv_kwOxQ/VS08qZscU-I/AAAAAAAACr0/8OeUHciP7CY/s640/blogger-image-1036103464.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-il6Fv_kwOxQ/VS08qZscU-I/AAAAAAAACr0/8OeUHciP7CY/s640/blogger-image-1036103464.jpg"></a></div><div><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0); font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;"><br></span></div>It is finally here. Spring has truly become my new favorite season. I used to love fall best, but as it is the precursor to seemingly endless winters in the Northeast, all that spring has to do is show up, to become my new favorite. And while I am not fond of extreme heat, the summer is too fleeting for me to grow to despise.</span><br><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">I spent this past Sunday doing garden clean-up. The first day outside after a long winter is always the very best – even the inevitable blister between thumb and forefinger from raking too vigorously.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">For one thing, a few hours of work yields such noticeable improvement. Outdoor furniture is dusted off and set up; the last fall leaves are bagged, revealing little green shoots and buds; sticks are bundled in neat little piles for pick-up; all of the ugliness of late winter is gone in one lovely, sunny afternoon.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">For another thing, spring is all about the promise of potential fulfilled -- beauty and growth and abundance. The air smells fresh and the earth, loamy; birdsong fills the cool air -- robins chirp angrily at my presence as they use their instinctual artistry to turn sticks and mud and string and bits of paper into a perfect little round nest, hidden in a nearby tree.</span></p><p><span style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">The grass is still the color of straw, but just the absence of snow makes its crunch and rustle welcome beneath my feet.&nbsp;</span></p><p></p>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-89986398227412042802015-03-11T10:25:00.001-04:002015-03-11T10:25:22.764-04:00More digital toe touches<div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-ikE8w0FNhvI/VQBQQvfjMLI/AAAAAAAACrA/zVAFPBB4fq4/s640/blogger-image-948510565.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"></a><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">I am clearly ready for summer, with these abstract flowers and vibrant summer hues...</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-ikE8w0FNhvI/VQBQQvfjMLI/AAAAAAAACrA/zVAFPBB4fq4/s640/blogger-image-948510565.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"></a><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-7w8O_-cEweo/VQBQSkI-DMI/AAAAAAAACrI/1sIe9Of3__c/s640/blogger-image--2003405274.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-7w8O_-cEweo/VQBQSkI-DMI/AAAAAAAACrI/1sIe9Of3__c/s640/blogger-image--2003405274.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><img border="0" src="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-ikE8w0FNhvI/VQBQQvfjMLI/AAAAAAAACrA/zVAFPBB4fq4/s640/blogger-image-948510565.jpg"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-mFtHa4FkaUw/VQBQUa6dKII/AAAAAAAACrQ/J6o5pTHCsdE/s640/blogger-image--1765576174.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-mFtHa4FkaUw/VQBQUa6dKII/AAAAAAAACrQ/J6o5pTHCsdE/s640/blogger-image--1765576174.jpg"></a></div><br></div>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-11327222179162982272015-03-10T12:18:00.001-04:002015-03-10T12:18:14.905-04:00Artistic calisthenics<div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Sometimes, as I get ready to tackle a new creative project, my brain needs a warm up to get the creative juices flowing. For me, digital collage has been a great way to stretch my creative muscles.</span></div><div><br></div><div>These summer-inspired postcards are the result of my recent calisthenics. It reached 43 degrees in Upstate NY yesterday, and it made my mind wander affectionately to dandelions, which I will no doubt be cursing in just a couple of months.&nbsp;</div><div><br></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-AvQog3WZb8o/VP8ZJSp5_1I/AAAAAAAACqY/en7z9qoZJv4/s640/blogger-image-977401669.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-AvQog3WZb8o/VP8ZJSp5_1I/AAAAAAAACqY/en7z9qoZJv4/s640/blogger-image-977401669.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><font color="#000000" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-WUJSvVanLAM/VP8ZRS5rF6I/AAAAAAAACqo/2E3qUHZnQOc/s640/blogger-image--573698279.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; -webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><img border="0" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-WUJSvVanLAM/VP8ZRS5rF6I/AAAAAAAACqo/2E3qUHZnQOc/s640/blogger-image--573698279.jpg"></a></font></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-iVxqvTpbJI8/VP8ZOUjRobI/AAAAAAAACqg/Br32MIziDMU/s640/blogger-image--1293315672.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-iVxqvTpbJI8/VP8ZOUjRobI/AAAAAAAACqg/Br32MIziDMU/s640/blogger-image--1293315672.jpg"></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-N7KLXcNzPOs/VP8ZFNFh7VI/AAAAAAAACqQ/m9lHLplMYxA/s640/blogger-image-2065410875.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-N7KLXcNzPOs/VP8ZFNFh7VI/AAAAAAAACqQ/m9lHLplMYxA/s640/blogger-image-2065410875.jpg"></a></div><br></div><br></div><br></div>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-34815231904351253032015-03-09T09:43:00.001-04:002015-03-09T09:43:41.885-04:00The finished piecesThese are the mini canvasses that I started last week and showed in progress in my last post.&nbsp;<div><br></div><div>Plaster, collage &amp; acrylics on canvas</div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-AkcT3QCnVXk/VP2ji8O85qI/AAAAAAAACp4/d7tSa7LMqMk/s640/blogger-image-868918132.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-AkcT3QCnVXk/VP2ji8O85qI/AAAAAAAACp4/d7tSa7LMqMk/s640/blogger-image-868918132.jpg"></a></div><br></div><br></div>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-7169640665347115712015-03-05T15:51:00.001-05:002015-03-05T15:52:30.283-05:0090 Degrees.No. It is most certainly not the weather. But last week I glanced at my art table, which had been tucked against a wall in the corner of my living room for a few years now, and decided it was facing the wrong way. I don't like facing the wall. So I turned it...90 degrees to the left, and I &nbsp;am making art again. Now my table faces into the living room, instead of into a wall. Sometimes that is all it takes. A 90 degree turn. &nbsp;A new perspective.<div><br></div><div>In progress...</div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-KMl1saRnVlA/VPjBzLvz0II/AAAAAAAACpk/MUfzETu-L-c/s640/blogger-image-1566170134.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-KMl1saRnVlA/VPjBzLvz0II/AAAAAAAACpk/MUfzETu-L-c/s640/blogger-image-1566170134.jpg"></a></div><br></div>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-2376233535949665522015-02-13T13:36:00.001-05:002015-02-13T13:36:40.255-05:00More digital collage<div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-GEc_HNPs4Xs/VN5ENgCIzzI/AAAAAAAACog/Nff1lnma2AU/s640/blogger-image--532356112.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-GEc_HNPs4Xs/VN5ENgCIzzI/AAAAAAAACog/Nff1lnma2AU/s640/blogger-image--532356112.jpg"></a></div>Sometimes, or more accurately, most of the time, I have an urge to journal, to spill out my fears and frustrations and problems on paper, but at the same time I am afraid of revealing too much. I find it awkward and painful to read my own admissions of struggle or failure. So I find myself hiding the words somewhat by incorporating them into an art journal page,&nbsp;<span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">or in this case, a digital collage.&nbsp;</span>Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-24525059096917554482015-02-10T06:58:00.003-05:002015-02-10T06:58:57.651-05:00More digital collage fun...While impatiently waiting to be able to get to work yesterday, I did a little photoshop play. The primitive nature of the drawings is the result of sketching with a mouse...<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-TKPIAkQ2vys/VNnyZuzZ8iI/AAAAAAAACoA/uble3TnRfK4/s1600/collage%2Bface1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-TKPIAkQ2vys/VNnyZuzZ8iI/AAAAAAAACoA/uble3TnRfK4/s1600/collage%2Bface1.jpg" height="320" width="227" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-JP-HfjNGDx0/VNnyZ92Vc3I/AAAAAAAACoI/8W7fGBXf1Kg/s1600/collage%2Bface2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-JP-HfjNGDx0/VNnyZ92Vc3I/AAAAAAAACoI/8W7fGBXf1Kg/s1600/collage%2Bface2.jpg" height="320" width="227" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-acOs-CB-ato/VNnyZ50yhzI/AAAAAAAACoE/_ixJrGWWCaE/s1600/collage%2Bface3.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-acOs-CB-ato/VNnyZ50yhzI/AAAAAAAACoE/_ixJrGWWCaE/s1600/collage%2Bface3.jpg" height="320" width="201" /></a></div><br />Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27604068.post-51212617398949971482015-02-09T10:16:00.001-05:002015-02-09T10:16:46.624-05:00Life Lessons - controlThere's nothing like two fucking feet of snow at your doorstep (and everywhere else you look) to remind you that any feeling of control you've ever had is an illusion.<br /><br />I love the illusion of control. I like choosing how I will spend my days, even within the confines of my reality, which of course, includes a job, walking a dog and a lot of other obligations. Still, I choose to work (so that I can eat), and I choose to walk my dog (so that he doesn't poop in the house). I like feeling as though I have choices, that I control the shape of my days.<br /><br />But right now, mother nature is in control. And she is one miserable, sadistic bitch.<br /><br />And I am fairly certain that I have written this before. Possibly this entire post, but certainly the theme of control. And my lack of growth in dealing with it.<br /><br />And now that I am done ranting, I will leave you with image. I think it's called the sun. I am not sure. It's been so long since I've seen it that I barely remember.&nbsp; <br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-wvCjW81xx_U/VNjOYzjxFwI/AAAAAAAACnQ/5BJBL5eE__s/s1600/sun%2Bfor%2Bblog.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-wvCjW81xx_U/VNjOYzjxFwI/AAAAAAAACnQ/5BJBL5eE__s/s1600/sun%2Bfor%2Bblog.jpg" height="320" width="315" /></a></div><br /><br /><br />Kerri Jeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13580205823943799848noreply@blogger.com1