work work work... and me

wow... i mean: WOW!!! is it really this hectic in day-to-day life? I don't remember it being this way...

anyway: apparently I'm a horrible person, and I admit to being so. it's weird: at first I tried to stay away from her because "she's not interested", but now it's because "you hurt her... your person is designed to hurt her". i have no clue how she stuck with me so long... how can anybody be or want to be with me after what i did? and not even realizing it? AGAIN???