<3 all of the love to you and your family Disney. I know it's hard right now but you will heal. You have so much love and goodness in and around you.

And that's the hard part about Mental Illness. It makes us feel that no matter what we have around us we're still fighting our own minds every day for happiness or the strength to keep going. It makes us believe that we are not worth of the help that's offered and that we're a burden to our loved ones. I lost a close friend in a similar way and spent months and months blaming myself and being angry and disappointed in myself for not doing more or not helping more. I still miss her terribly, and wish I could have done more, but I hold her in love in my heart and I know she knows.

Please take all of the time you need,lean on your husband, embrace that beautiful daughter of yours and the two foster sons. ♥ your community will surprise you. Take the time to grieve.

My heart breaks for you, Disney. You and your family will be in our prayers. I know things are bleak right now but please hold on for dear life to our God and Father. We love you and are so sorry for your loss.

I am so very very sorry for your loss. Words can not say or do much at this time, I know.I also know that whatever painsdrove her to this are gone now, and it's not your fault that she did what she did. Don't blame yourself, please. I know this because I, like your sister, have depression with suicidal tendancies. It's no one's fault. The chemicals in the brain are messed up, and to be perfectly honest, living with extreme sadness every day is very difficult to do. This is in no way your fault. And know that she is at Peace and sleeps in the arms of the loving, forgiving Universe. Hugs to you andyours. Remember all the laughs and good times you had with her.

Oh, bless your heart. I am so so so sorry. Death is hard, but suicide is extra hard. I, too, know this from experience. I'll send the only comfort I can send-a prayer to our Heavenly Father for your and your family.

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart broke reading this post. I will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you will be able to find the peace only God can bring to us in difficult times like these. Take all the time you need to work through this difficult time. Know that we are here for you if you need to write to get support.

I am so unutterably sorry and saddened for you. I am heart-broken for her and for you. I am praying for immeasurable comfort in your grief and shock. I can not imagine the pain you are in, but I do realize it must be greater than the worst I could imagine. I will constantly be praying. May the God of Comfort comfort you now. I have recently suffered loss and I know how long the pain lasts... I know that it will be such a long time that you will need support. Even though I don't know you, you have it from me until you need it no more... even if just prayer support. I will be praying for all who have been affected by such a tragic loss. Peace to you.

I am so sorry for your loss. God is near to the brokenhearted and so I will pray that you feel his nearness and can lean into Him. Please don't blame yourself. I know that is easier said than done. Be gentle with yourself. Let God comfort and hold you.

I cannot fathom the pain you must be feeling... prayers of love, support, healing, sustenance and strength for you and your family at this time, and always. This was not your fault. Sending love to you and yours.

A am so sorry for your loss! You'll never heal from the pain but you should not take any blame on yourself. Where you were, you were needed. Just don't do it to yourself and your family. Let her rest in peace!

I am so sorry for your loss. My dad died by suicide 6 years ago. I wan to share with you what a friend who had also lost someone suddenly said to me.

There will come a day when it's not the first thing you think about when you wake up in the mornings and it's not the last thing you think about before you go to sleep.

I know it may not seem like that day will ever come for you (I know that's what I thought when she told me!) but I hope and trust that it will. No, you probably won't ever get over it but I do think that it will get easier and I know that Jesus can provide comfort and healing.

I feel your pain, as I lost my sweet five year old son on May 1st. It's such a tough road. I have blogged a bit about the journey at www.whispersofjoy.com I will be praying for you as you face the days ahead. Don't blame yourself, remember there is always Hope in Him. Reach out for The Lord and He will give you strength.

Disney, I wish I could hug you right now my dear friend! I am so very sorry for your loss and I hope that you take the time you need to try and heal. I am sure - no I know that you were and still are an amazing sister and that you did everything you could. This is not your fault and please know you are not alone. I am praying for you and your family. xoxoxoxoxoxox

I never comment on blogs, but I've been a follower of yours for a long time now, so you feel like a friend, and I wanted to express my sympathies and let you know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. There really are no words.

Oh, Disney - I'm so very very sorry. You and yours are and will continue to be lifted up in my prayers. My heart is breaking for you. I know that our precious Father can offer a far sweeter comfort than we can give here below, and I pray that He wraps you up in it. Please let myself and others in the blogging community if there's any way we can help.

You have turned my mourning into dancing for me; You have put off my sackcloth and girded me with gladness.—Psalm 30:11

In Isaiah 61:2 it was prophesied that the coming Messiah would “comfort all who mourn.” In the Sermon on the Mount, Jesus said those who mourn are blessed for they will be comforted (see Matthew 5:4). The comfort of God that is administered by His Holy Spirit is so awesome it is almost worth having a problem just to be able to experience it. It goes far beyond any kind of ordinary human comfort.

Let God be your source of comfort. In those times when you are hurting, just ask Him to comfort you. Then wait in His presence while He works in your heart and emotions. He will not fail you, if you will only give Him a chance to come to your aid.

Oh my goodness, I am so incredibly, very, deeply sorry. I lost a brother to suicide and there is nothing like the pain. To know what kind of pain they were in, to wonder what we could have done differently, what could have changed, etc. and then to just MISS.THEM.SO.MUCH. You are a wonderful, dear and sweet person and I know you were a positive in her life so please try to not be too hard on yourself. She had her own problems, her own path, and struggles. The Savior knows. I am praying for you and sending love. Please email me if you need to talk or anything.

I only recently discovered your wonderful blog, and yet my heart aches for you and your family during this difficult time. Don't be too hard on yourself - from what I've seen in your blog you're a loving and giving person - you cannot be everythng to everyone. Her path was her's to walk xx

I hope you receive some comfort from all the ones who care about you. I was having a particularly bad day when I read your blog and it hit me like a ton of bricks. But remember she could not see beyond her pain and could not see that life keeps changing and would help with the pain. Your pain will be with you for a long . But do not turn your back on the ones who love you and need you. That would be repeating what your sister did. Your sister did think of the consequences of her actions, just the pain of the moment. Prayer will always help.

You are not responsible for anyone's actions. Yes, you will always feel like you could have done more, that is love. Keep loving those people around you, trust God to help you through this, and remember you are loved.

Please, Disney, take care of yourself. No one is at fault in these situations. Suicide is a nasty and twisted beast. Blame cannot heal. Only love can do that. And it sounds like you loved your sister very much. You and your family will be in my prayers.

I've never actually commented on your blog before, but I've followed you for awhile, Disney, and have always appreciated your kindness and honesty about the ups and downs of life. It deeply grieved me to hear about your sister's death and I will be praying the God brings healing and peace beyond understanding to you and your family.

Dear Disney, My heart is filled with sorrow for your family. You will all be in my prayers. I pray for God to fill you with peace and comfort. I pray that you will find time to grieve and process, to find the words to help Paige through this confusing time, to feel supported and loved by those around you.

Dear Disney, I am so sorry for your loss and for the tragic circumstances. A couple of years back we lost a member of our Church family in the exact same way and the grief and hurt was very difficult to work through. Our minister preached so movingly at her funeral, I wish I could remember properly all that he said, because it was of great comfort. I do remember he cautioned us against the "what ifs", that it was no use us telling ourselves that if we had done this, or said that, or been the other that we could have saved her. Her illness was so strong that all the love we could give her was not enough. But we KNOW our Saviour is stronger than death and that He will not allow evil to triumph. His reach is long enough to catch our beloved lost ones and gather them safe to Him. I pray that you will feel the assurance of His loving arms around your whole family as you mourn for your sister. xxx

We're all thinking and praying for you and your family and I pray that you are able to travel this dark journey in the knowledge you are loved and supported and that you can grieve the tragic loss of your sister and work through your own feelings of guilt that often comes at time like these. Thank you for always being so real and transparent and I trust that, in your hour of need, you are experiencing God's love and all of our love! xo

Disney I am so very sad to hear of your family's loss of your sister. I cannot begin to imagine the heartbreak you all must feel and I wish you to know that I am thinking of you all and praying for you as you grieve. Take care of yourself and again I am so sorry to read this post.

Disney I am so sorry! Suicide is one of faith's greatest challenges. Lost my grandpa to it and have had several really close calls with friends. I do know that God has a plan and it is never the same as mine, buy always works out better; but it can take lots of time. Love and prayers!

Oh Disney I'm so so sorry. The grief that comes with suicide cuts so deeply and is so hard to heal from - and I can't imagine the horror of losing a sister to it, though I did lose an aunt a few years back. I still think of her often and feel so sad about the pain she must've felt that drove her to take her life. I hope and pray you're able to start seeing happiness and light around you again soon. You are not alone and you are absolutely not to blame! Please take care and know you're in my prayers, along with many other people. You are so loved.

I'm so sorry! My sister was near to doing that a few years ago I don't know what I would have done if she had actually done it! Whatever you do please keep talking about your feelings to someone and don't shut yourself out from others, I'll keep you in my prayers!

My heart breaks for you. Just knowing you from this beautiful blog, and seeing the beautiful person you are, inside and out, I KNOW you were/are an amazing sister. And that she knows you love her with all your heart. Prayers and Love to you and your family

I am so sorry, Disney.May the love, peace, and mercy of our Lord, Jesus Christ be with you and her soul. I love you and Jesus loves you more.Be assured mt prayers for you, your family, and sister.Romans 8: 38-39May God bless you and keep you

Losing a sister causes an indescribable pain that only time fades. May your family and especially the love you receive from your foster children bring you peace. None of us really know when or how we will leave this earth, we can only pray for those left behind. My prayers are with you.

I am so sad to read these lines. My father committed suicide when I was 18. The one thing our family doctor told us was: never ask yourself why. Depression is an illness which the medical world still does not entirely understand. All my thoughts are with you. Fiona

My thoughts are with you and your family. Suicide affected my family too. As heartbreaking as it is, please don't blame yourself. She knew you loved her with every being. Wishing and praying that you and your family y feel the comfort of God's peace wrapped around you. Will keep you and your family in my prayers.

Disney, I love you so much! Words seem so little a comfort for what you are going through right now. Please trust in your faith, and let God carry you during this hard time for you and your family. I will email you my phone number. If you need me, I am ready to listen. Sending light and love. I am so very sorry.

Disney, I am so, so sorry for your loss. I know there are no words that will really take away the pain, but my heart is breaking with and for you. I will be praying for you and your family from the bottom of my heart tonight.

So sad to hear this. Praying for you and your family as you walk through loss and grief together. There aren't enough words in the world to lend enough comfort, but I'm truly praying that grace and peace will be showered on you in ways that can only be divine.

Lets pray Disney, I followed you from a distance, never commenting on any of the blogs I follow, but your post is so heart breaking :'''''( I pray for you to find peace, peace come to Disney.........sweet Jesus hold her close and remind her of your love for her and comfort her.....there aren't enough words to express my sympathy for you......

I read this post the day it was shared, but didn't comment until now. I felt a bit like Job's friends (before they turned sour) who sat for 7 days and nights with him not saying anything because what can one say? I am so sorry for your loss. I can't begin to imagine what it's like for you and your family. You've been in my thoughts and prayers. I hope some good comes out of this tough time, and I'm sorry for it. Much love!

Oh Disney. My heart is with you and your loved ones. I'm so behind on blog reading and just saw this. Please know I'm thinking of you and your family during this time. I'm so sorry. Sending lots of love your way. Let me know if there is anything I can do. Stay strong my love.

Long time reader--first time commenter. I am so, so, so sorry for your loss! I lost my mother to cancer at the beginning of this summer. She would have been 64 next month. I am sobbing right now with you. This news is heart-breaking. May God bless and comfort you as you try to live life after loss. Many kudos to you on the party and fun you were able to shower on your niece and nephew. What a blessing they are... and how blessed they are to have you! May God reward you! I will be praying for you and your family. I also pray that all works out according to God's will with regard to your foster children and their unique situations. -Emily =)

I just read this tonight. I am so very sorry. I pray God fills your heart with peace, love and comfort like only He can. May healing come to you and your family as you walk through this painful season.

I just now read this post and I am so sorry. Words can't express the pain you all must still be going through. I'm so glad you know our blessed Jesus. "When my heart is overwhelmed lead me to the rock that it's bigger than I". So thankful for the"Rock".