Day 213: Personal Paranoia 2

I see and realize and understand that establishing a simple breathing trust in who I am here substantially is the only stable basis for real research – and in expanding who I am within this trust – and further investigating this system of consciousness in which my trust has been mistakenly invested.

Seeing realizing and understanding the paranoia of absolute trust in the mind is the same as waking up to the reality of what I have accepted and allowed as me as a passive relationship to an automatic system. And so in this waking up, to get practical and learn how to direct myself, to understand the workings of this system and take responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed, and from that, to deliberately change it, and to change it so as to align myself in each of these relationships – that have previously synchronized into and as a brainwashed consciousness -into the reality of equality and oneness as what is best for all.

So now drawing from the information exposed in the last post, the process would be to practically self-forgive the relationships that I have accepted and allowed in which I have defined myself as and hence merged myself within and as energy and mistakenly committed myself to the maintenance of polarities within the world.

The context of being not-good-enough is a world of competition and judgement, comparison of one life to another, in which it is accepted that the value of a life can be different to the value of another. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the value of a life can be different to the value of another. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to embody and live a personality construct based on this belief and judgement and definition of who I am as ‘not good enough’, and that within this that I have accepted and allowed and given my consent to a world system based on hierarchies of judgements based on the different values of lives. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a world system that has its foundations based in disregard for fundamental human rights.

I commit myself to see realize and understand the origins of this definition of value, and hence of worth that I have made and then lived as me, and to correct it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the word ‘value’ in separation from myself, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘value’ in terms of the judgements of consciousness within competition, winning, and losing, and quantities of money. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect to the word value a positive charge of energy. I commit myself to stand within the definition of value as the value of life is life itself, and therefore within this stand within the definition of value that has no polarities of energy. From this definition of value I commit myself to, as and when the question of value arises, to consider this in terms of whether or not it stands within what is best for all, which has no polarity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my whole being based on the evidence of being not good enough to for example, at school, win a race, or pass an examination. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined according to the judgements of the consciousness of others, in which I have accepted and allowed myself to define authority as that which defines who I am. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with anger at myself for not standing up for me, and that instead I have suppressed my own awareness of this anger and projected and exerted blame towards this authority as I have defined it, and within that blame have lived in self righteousness and superiority, in which I have lived as part of not good enough, that I am secretly better than others. So within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consent to the authority of judgement and comparison as a measure of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in and align myself to the existence of self worth as a measurement of value according to the judgements of consciousness, and to have evolved a personality of imaginary specialness out of a belief in my own definition of myself as not good enough.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

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