So one of the things I have been beating myself up over is my constant indulgence in surgary substances.....ice cream, chocolate bars, candy.....to look at my diet one would think I was 8 with no adult supervision. I decided I am not going to have a free for all every day when it comes to that.I'm just done. It gives me a rush in the short term but being 50.....well, it's not working for the long haul. To be fit and trim and healthy, I know I need to cut back......way back! I was so productive yesterday! I got a lot of shit done!! I sat at the table to eat whole foods. I transferred my thoughts onto paper. I felt good about my productivity. It was all I could do to not bust out the ice cream at the end of the day and get my fix on. I knew there was some in the freezer. So what I did was.....well, I fell asleep on the couch at 7.....I went to bed at 11:30 and slept throught the night until 6:45. I have to say that was a great strategy!! and I feel GREAT today and powerful! Life can be just as sweet without eating a pound of sugar everyday! I'm pretty pumped! And I have a list of things to do today!! And guess what? The boys ate the ice cream so there will be no temptation tonight which is always strongest on day 2. I'm not saying I will never eat sugar again but until I know I can have a taste and not go back to shovelling it in my mouth every hour or eating a 5 lb tub of M&M's in one sitting....well, I'm done. It's like crack to me. I would never do crack so why do I put my body through candy hell? It probably has the same effect. There is actually a lot of truth to that statement. OK! I have a new day to seize!! And so do you!!I hope it is the best one ever!

04/29/2014

Aren't you thankful for those?? I am. After a whirlwind weekend and a day of napping and a night of tossing and turning, I am thankful for this new day! I have a million things to do! a million things of nothingness.......like putting everything back in order and getting back on track with my list making. How does one survive without a "to-do" list?? Regretably, I have not been making one and so I am so far behind that my head is bursting with thoughts. That's the thing about lists.....they clear your mind. Unless I see it, I just think of other things I need to do and don't do anything. Are you that way? I have been feeling kind of gross about myself lately. With my 51st birthday coming up, I have been contemplating life and how I can finish strong. I have things I want to do! I know the person I want to be. It all boils down to self acceptance and right now?? I am not that fond of myself. It's a waxing and waning of the soul. A growth spurt?? It all boils down to my lack of list making and turning inward. Too much self contemplation is stifling. So I am thankful that I have figured this out. I need to get UP and turn this shit around. My mood. My body. Everything. It starts today! I have been mulling over my lack of application. I have great ideas!! and no application to them. No follow through. And no excuses. I'm lazy and evidently satisfied with that. Do you know what laying around does to a body?? It makes it sore. I am sore. My body aches. I keep waiting for the sun to shine to get busy. I keep waiting for spring! or tomorrow! There is always an excuse. I get easily sidetracked. Off track. I have decided that today, I am going to be on my feet all day.....DOING! Something. Anything!! Everything!! No meditating (napping) until bedtime! I envision delightfulness about to explode! And a big long list.....with boxes to check off so I will be sure to do whatever it is that I think needs to be done. Who doesn't like making that check in the box? I sure do! It's the best part of list making. Ok!! I'm feeling powerful! Yay!! HIGH KICK!! Go!!

04/25/2014

I'm looking forward to hearing my favorite fiddle player and enjoying some good friends tonight! And then tomorrow?? Road trip to hear Max sing in the state music festival! What would we do without music?? Really. What would we do? It's a delightful gift for us to enjoy!! I love it!!
Peace and love to you!!

04/24/2014

Of year for hunting mushrooms and finding ticks. Aaron found two morels yesterday and I found 6 ticks last night! We had a good time! While 2 mushrooms might not seem like enough to do anything with, put them with the hundred Asa and his buddy have found and it turns into a feast! Spring is a fabulous time of the year!! Love it!!
Peace!!

04/22/2014

1. The bird are chirping. What a beautiful sound that is this morning!!

2. As I went out to get the car to take the boys to school, I marvelled at the flowering bulbs I planted last fall. When was the last time you marvelled?? It's awesome.....and so are the flowers.

3. I also am marvelling at our newly planted grass that is coming up. I would think that grass would grow quicker. Just around the time you think the yard planting project was a complete bust, up pops the grass! We will have a backyard this summer......instead of a mudhole.

4. I am loving that the boys got to school on time! Both have to serve detention for tardies after school today.

5. The kitchen project guy is coming to take measurements this morning. I am so excited to get this going!!!

6. OH!!!! I have a appt, tomorrow to get my hairs did. I am really excited about that!

7. Ian called me last night. He applied for a new job and got it. He was telling me about all the things he will be doing......giving speeches and travelling and using his many talents. He gave all the glory to God for blessing him. I LOVE that!!

7.....it's the Lord's number....I think I shall end on that. I hope you have a wonderful day!

04/19/2014

Sams birthday is Sunday.....on Easter....so we celebrated yesterday. He had ruined his phone a few months ago so that is what he wanted and that is what he got! Mostly he wanted his brothers and sisters to come home and celebrate with us on Sunday. I think he misses out family gatherings a lot. Last night, he had a few friends over and they talked on the porch for hours. I think they were having fun! I didn't interrupt them when I went to bed instead I sent him a text! This is our convo! I admire his self confidence! He's awesome!
Peace and live to ya!!

04/16/2014

So I have been trying to meditate. I have found that MEDITATE is just another word for NAP. I usually try to sneak in a meditation while no one else is around.....mainly because I don't want to explain what I am doing and why. So I always have a slight amount of fear that I am doing something wrong that keeps me on my toes. Sometimes I lay down. Sometimes I sit up. My mind is constantly racing. Thinking of a million things.....it's like a pinball machine. seriously. Meditating is clearing the mind. Thinking about nothing. Just being. It's peaceful and relaxing. Yesterday, it was cold and I stayed inside. I signed up for the 21 day meditation challenge with Oprah and Deepak Choprah. It's free!! I thought why not get another meditative perspective!! So about 12:30, I layed down and told AAron, "I am going to meditate!" I was confident!! I put on my headphones and the turned on the tape for my lesson in meditation. The mantra was "YUMMMMM" and the focus was inner happiness. about 3 hours later, I woke up.....feeling so refreshed! I said, "Man!! that was a great nap!" Aaron says, "Wait. I thought you were meditating!" I said, "No. I took a nap!" He said, "But you said you were going to meditate!" I said, "I fell asleep. geez." And he said, "Oh. I thought it was odd that you were snoring while you meditated." See? That's why I don't tell anyone what I am doing. Snarky fellow is what he is! It was a deep hard meditative sleep! I loved it and woke up feeling happy.....and hungry! I ate 3 mini chocolate bars to continue with the "Yum" mantra then beat myself up all night long for doing so. I went to a track meet and came home and ate chocolate ice cream. I hope today they have a new mantra. "Yum" is not good for me. Needless to say, I had a hard time getting to sleep last night. I tossed and turned and regretted eating all the chocolate. I thought about starting a health kick. I fretted about getting a job. Then I contemplated my short attention span and tried to figure out how I could incorporate that into a career. Any ideas? I finally fell asleep at some point. I should have tried meditating. It's relaxing. And it provides great release from a racing mind. I never considered doing it more than once a day! I wonder if one could just spend the entire day in a meditative state? I'm gonna google that. I know one thing, I will not try it while driving today.....or walking....which they say you can do......because evidently, it makes me fall asleep. Don't meditate and drive! Hey now! that's catchy! is there any money in making up catchphrases? I could be on to something! Who's the sanky one now?? I like that word. do you??