I really like, "rinse and repeat", most crossdressers engage in the buy a wardrobe-purge form the feelings of inner guilt-buy a wardrobe, repeat. I did it for years. Not having wardrobe leads to depression, which leads to weight gain. As I have gotten older it is harder to lose the weight so I don't purge anymore.
I'm not familiar with any of the exotic brands of diapers out there, just what you can get local. If there is a medical supply within range, better selection. I've been how I am with CD'ing since 12, the ab/dl did not hit until she introduced me to it, and many other things as well-pegging anyone? As soon as I figure out how to send a private message I'll shoot my e-mail to you.
On the spiritual path, I guess I would be neo-Pagan earth based with a dose of pantheism thrown in for good measure. In 300 A.D. a Greek philosopher, whose name I cannot remember, said that the Christian Church was destroying the teachings of Jesus of Nazareth by the way that they were using them. There is a definite disconnect between what Jesus was teaching and what much of the Christian community does with those teachings.
Peace

i am sorry about our belife i am kind of going the same i want to be a real crawing baby but can't. Gee what to say i gess all ab/dl goes though prazes but keep it up becuase you are trying to understand you. i put theis formes up to try to help others not like argue about the same thing like what kind of diapers u were. also i think u need a spanking paddel to settall u down or to be spanked when you get into trouble (nauttey) i will pray for you i hope you benafit from this and the same for me. i will be thinking about u everyday for at lest 6 mounts anyone elss wants healing and are in trouble email me at patrickdarrough@hotmail.com or post ur trouble on bllefenet