The-Dream Claims He Attempted Suicide After Split With Christina Milian

And the case of Christina Milian and The-Dream’s surprise breakup continues to get messier.

The-Dream (real name: Terius Nash) was forced to announce that he and his wife Milian had split up earlier this week, after photos of him frolicking in in the Caribbean with his bikini-clad assistant, Melissa Santiago, surfaced. A statement released by the producer’s rep claimed that Nash and Milian had actually broken up late last year, but kept the split private for the sake of their daughter Violet. (After eloping last September, Nash and Milian renewed their vows during a lavish December ceremony in Rome; Violet was born in March.)

And now, in a blog post published on Friday, Nash reveals that he attempted suicide as he grappled with the anguish of his marriage’s disintegration:

“I’ve cried about this for months, after interviews, after prayer and I’ve tried to take my own life at a point because of the failure that was looming.”

In the lengthy online missive, Nash also reasserts that his breakup with Milian had nothing to do with “another woman or a new relationship.” He does, however, offer an apology of sorts for not publicly acknowledging the breakup sooner:

“I take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for misleading everyone into thinking everything was fine and okay when we knew problems existed for awhile. I would NEVER intentionally hurt a soul and everyone around me knows that! There was so much going on in me and Christina’s personal world that I tried to deal with it as delicately as I could and tried to regain my footing.”