Sunday, May 23, 2010

::random thought::

so I haven't been feeling myself lately...i've been feeling a bit confused...and have been putting myself in denial for who knows how long/ havent even written a random thought in a long time--

so I've never spoken about him- he's been a secret/undercover in my heart for a while and as of right now---i think i'm fucked. so i still havent put an end/cut it with the other guy i'm still talking to because I care about him--ALOT...and i'm still foolishly hoping that he'll open his eyes and see that i'm slipping away--for once in my life i want to be stopped because i want him...but what do you do when someone might not want you the same anymore?thats how ive been feeling...& on top of it all--hes in syracuse, we barely talk and havent ichatted yet---

now the new/old has always been there and the process of feeling for him the way i do was never rushed and it grew over time...lovely growing grace period...the new/old guy came to jersey today to see me...spent a bit together and Dad just laughed when he found us on the couch..what am i going to do- i dont know; we'll have to see...this summer is going to be long as hell--

This Is Me

Butta Love is a 21 year old Syracuse University student double majoring in Art Photography & Creative Writing. She has been called a "creative visualist" and an "artist of complexity". She is the author of "Through Dreams Come Nightmares" which just came out in February. Influenced by the decay of the human race & life itself she is also curious about politics and other topics that people may not want to discuss or feel uncertain about. Love mixes mediums to create what she sees in her own world, struggling one day at a time to transform her insanity into sanity through her work.

What is Butta Up To?

Butta is the creator of a collab creative writers site called "The Pen Thieves" and creator of "Rotten Senses Clothing Line" be on the lookout for she is currently working on publishing her first poetry, "Through Dreams Come Nightmares" and her first photobook "En El Medio De Mi Vida, Al Final De Mi Muerte".