When will it stop!?

Hey everyone! I surely hope that everyone is having a good year so far! I don't know when mine will start being good! I don't mean to sound negative all the time or to be complaining. But my life has been so crazy lately. I would rather bury myself deep in the sand and not come up! I would being hiding from the world in my cozy sand house! Strange I know! My mom's husband/step dad, has tpye 2 diabetes. He suffered a minor heart attack on Friday morning. They live in Stark, Kansas. He had to be transported to Witchita, Kansas because he's a veteran. That's where he goes. Long time to travel in an ambulance at that. But they did get his artery fixed, and is doing better today. My mom has copd, and has been driving back and forth everyday. Thank God she has a good family to be with her. I feel bad that I cannot be there. At least he is good. I am now dealing with a past issue, financially, where I have to go to court to take care of it. Unexpected, but not…it was coming. Now its here. My stomach has been tightened up with nerves, as it does in these times. I cannot eat. No appetite at all. I only eat a little when I can. Thank goodness my blood sugar numbers have been staying down. The night on Christmas Day, when all through the basement our sewage system leaks. It took to days to get it done and cleaned up. Today we wake up to another leakage, same thing. Its one thing after another this week, the first week of January. I know it will pass, and I know that God is with me. Its just so crazy to have to deal with it all at the same time! I am still looking forward to a better year. Maybe its better to face the giants now, then latter. I guess. I hope you all are doing good to :)

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I will keep you in my prayers…out sounds like you have so much going on…please remember to take time for yourself…do you do any kind of stress relieving activities like meditation, yoga or deep breathing exercises? Drop breathing helps me tremendously

Awe! I am sorry for that. I had no intentions of putting this up for that matter, of someone else getting down. No, I am not fond of courts or judges, they both make me nervous. I can be as prepared in my mind and thoughts, which both gets unraveled when I have to speak of my stupidiety, in front of someone! Thanks and I hope you are doing good today. :)

Jayabee, I am sorry to hear about your divorce. I know that is hard. I have never been divorced. But in broken up a few times. All for good to. My mom has been divorced four times, for different reasons. Its hard on everyone. I know what your saying, but feel for your pain on that to. Hugs to you though:)

Thank you for the hug and the kind words Anna. Eventually I got to see that divorce as a good thing because when I analyzed the last few years of the marriage she was emotionally abusive to me. I would not have divorced her because of my religious beliefs about marriage.

She however chose to divorce me and there was no way I could stop it. So she made way for me to be available to meet and marry the lady who I speak of so often here "Jem" which was a fantastic relationship.

Thank you Ch55. Yes, I think I need to go to that mental vacation that jayabee told me about But I would like to visit like a Fanstasy Island, in the real world! Like Hawaii and just soak in the breeze and everything :)

I had to undergo bankruptcy due to overwelming medical bills when I had no med ins and I had to undergo dialysis for the first time. I ended up nearly 200 K "under water". Yes it was humiliating and demeaning but not as humiliating as my divorce. A whole 'nother horror story!

But survived them both and came out the other side much better both times!

I am sorry to hear you are having so much trouble. Also, no matter what, and I speak from experience here, I think anyone who has had to go to court for almost anything especially anything negative, is rather tensed at the idea of going again. As I read your post about it and your physical symptoms because of it, my gut kicked in too. Best wishes.

Hello You know if you cant fix it or do any thing that may make it better then you just got to go with it and deal with it as it comes ,dont let it get you down .Life is life just got to live it,What can they realy do ????Hugs and best wishesHarlen