I want out of this madhouse..

Thamk you all again for replying, the trouble with over analysing is that you then start to see just how bad things are, and whilst to say 'eff it'
and get on with it just means that I am letting it go, which IMHO is just what every one else is doing, and that kind of defeats the purpose, would
you let people rob you on a daily basis and just say 'eff it'?
Would you see Mans inhumanity to man and say 'eff it' and let them keep going?

I'm bored of man and I would love to upsticks and move somewhere like a desert island somewhere.

Originally posted by Lone12
..perhaps i phrased poorly [ though i tried ]

point is... that the soul , a persons essence, is only getting ' indirect impulses '
via the eyes...senses.. etc
so, via the physical frame, only.

That is fine: as long she has the energy to ,
but this amount of energy can wear out, and slowly the senses dont correspond no more with the outside world.

this hologram [ that came into being after Eden ] is built on stimulating the senses... the whole fallen culture does that, as in the ' they live
' series

why ? - to keep a persons soul occupied, distracted: untill the moment, she will see, that there *is* a spiritual world above this hologram -
and for many souls, it will be TOO LATE then.

For you, it isnt.

Yes. "Soul" means, "soil". It is the earthly, emotional part of us.
These days we have been brainwashed into thinking soul is the same as spirit. It is not.
Some may argue the word "soul" relates to "sol", the sun.
However, when we compare the image of god, the sun, and the symbol for the terrestrial Earth, they are identical: the Gnostic cross, which is
Proto-Hebrew/Phoenician Tet(th), from which we get the word, "death".
It is also the Greek "Theta", which is representative of "thanatos", or "death". When we celebrate "Earth Day", we are being coerced into
celebrating the cult of the dead.

To the OP: Jesus said,

"Congratulations to those who go hungry, so the stomach of the one in want may be filled. Those who seek should not stop seeking until they find.
When they find, they will be disturbed. When they are disturbed, they will marvel, and will reign over all.
When you know yourselves, then you will be known, and you will understand that you are children of the living Father. But if you do not know
yourselves, then you live in poverty, and you are the poverty. If you do not fast from the world, you will not find the (Father's) kingdom. Be
passers-by."

Beautiful post, and my heart goes out to you! I can wholeheartedly concur, as I have been in the same frame of mind lately. MarioOnTheFly said it best
- you are feeling the madness of the human race. But more so - you are probably feeling and mourning the loss of beauty - the beauty of the planet,
the beauty of your own creativity, and that which we lose more and more of every day that we are stuck in survival mode.

I feel like an automaton of industry. I work like mad every hour available to me in an industry that I am not passionate about - all the while finding
that my efforts basically just make ends meet. My creativity and gifts of beauty are being buried beneath this thing called 'survival mode'. Walking
in nature fills my heart with an overwhelming sense of beauty - but it fills my heart with grief - for reasons that I am unable to comprehend. I am
not depressed - far from it. But I am miserable. Miserable every time I witness the sheer awesomeness and beauty of this dying planet. Miserable for
knowing that our spirits contain the spark of sheer creative genius, and that we will forever attain only a small percentage of our potential due to
the constraints of society.

I have many of the same feelings as the OP. I have suffered from depression for years and take medication. This is not like "normal" depression.
I am 60 years old. Aren't I a little old for a mid life crisis? I never really had one. I don't feel like running out and buying a Harley.

Go for a camping trip and enjoy nature,it always seems to bring me out of a funk.
Go out and listen to the sound of silence.

You'll come back fresh and won't take anything for granted after sleeping in the woods for a few days.

I was going to suggest the same thing.
a nature walk does me a world of good. I like it when the weather is bad. then I really have the whole trail to myself. rain gear is the best
invention ever. a few hours listening to the breeze through the trees and birds singing really energizes a person. well, it does for me.

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