Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Spiritual Healing- Femininity

Does it mean wearing sweats sometimes and actually... sweating? Smelling a little "off" at times and embracing our sweet, yet sometimes musty aromas?

Is it showing off our curves and walking with a hip-swaying finesse?

Or not being afraid to be fierce and embrace our sharp edges?

Is it being goofy on occasion?

Or proud of your accomplishments, smarts, and brains?

Straight Hair down and around my face?

Or Curly Hair tied up?

Painted face and lips... or not?

The list could keep going

Nurturing?

Soft-spoken?

Deep voice tone?

Loud at times?

Angry?

Passionate?

Emotional?

Warm?

Stronger?

Shorter?

Or taller?

Wearing heels?

Skinny?

Muscular?

Big hips and thighs?

Or well-endowed up top?

Figure "8" or figure "1?" ... Figure"P?"

In honor of my blog mantra, I have realized that, for me, while femininity can be the essence of all of these things at the same time, it is not defined by them. I didn't realize when I created the title and theme of my blog how much and how important it would be for me to remember to reflect back on it and be... uniquely me. But it's not a disposition that is always easy to come by.

Life has been so good. So much healing- especially in the area of relationships- romantically and platonically. And with the good progress in moving forward sometimes comes a wave of questions including the "who am I and who do I want to be?" One area of my life that I have realized I have had to in some ways "learn" involve the area regarding my femininity. And more recently, these past few days I've been feeling increasingly small in the confidence behind my femininity. The timing has been quite the spiritual warfare as I step into being more ready to open my life and heart to the possibility of relating with men again. And for those who've known me in my earlier school days know that I was quite the tomboy. Dating and relating to men has not come as a familiar experience from a feminine standpoint. Some would even argue that femininity is arbitrary. So I'm learning to be embrace the intriguing process where- in relationship-building- the essence of one's masculinity blends naturally into the essence of one's femininity- and I mean this in a very non-sexual way. And I'm working on being comfortable with my unique self through it all. Which means being sweaty and sometimes smelly with faded make-up and messy hair at times - especially after a workout or at the end of a long day at work. Taller than most when wearing heels

Red-Lipstick- Lover

Nurturing yet needing to be nurtured and affirmed
Passionate, quiet, emotional, yet not afraid to speak-up...
Figure 8 somedays and figure 0 on others, ha.
Long hair and make-up during the day and short hair and bare-faced when I get home!