Posted tagged ‘Match’

No tears today, no intense nerves on arrival, just a lovely day with the boys and a much more positive feeling at the end of it.

The day started with the introductions planning meeting. Initially we went through some formal paperwork, and then the parental responsibility stuff (basically I am allowed to make very few decisions without consulting social workers first but that’s fine by me). Then we went through the timetable for the next 2 weeks and discussed any issues that would arise – nothing major, very flexible and to be reviewed halfway through.

I found interacting with the boys much easier today as I felt less pressured. The foster carer is also amazing at wandering off or taking a step back when appropriate. We even managed a trip to the park (accompanied) which made the day less intense – we love the outdoors!

I now feel completely at ease about the next 2 weeks and can imagine the boys living here. I’ve even brought a couple of small boxes of their things home today and unpacked them – lovely stuff!

Finally, I met my gorgeous boys for the first time. All in all, it was a very overwhelming day. I spent most of the morning in tears but as I went into the house, this was the last thing on my mind as oldest boyby said ‘mummy!’ Amazing!

The rest of the two hours is a complete blur. I just sat and played with them both. They were both really hyper and I left utterly exhausted.

When people asked how I felt, I gave the ‘correct’ answer of saying it had been an amazing day but actually I found it much more complicated than that. I couldn’t put my finger on it but I just didn’t feel right – in retrospect I think this was just nerves etc but it was certainly not the rush of love I had expected.