Wednesday, September 17, 2008

The Lies We Tell Ourselves and Others

They are little lies. They are not meant to hurt someone, more like delay their hurt. It's the little lies we fuel ourselves with, or others, to get them through to the next blood test, pee stick or day.

Examples??

My blank pee sticks on 13dpo. "It's too early" she said. "It's only 13dpo."Lie. It's not too early, my body always gives me a positive by day 12. But, it makes me feel better for that day. I have hope that tomorrow may bring a positive, instead of my period.

The first beta comes back at 78, the second at 84. Now you've got to start pulling up the stories. You either say "Vanishing twin" or "It must have been the trigger shot still in your system" or "I knew a girl on my message board that had the same thing happen, she's now holding her four month old son." Lie. Yes, I'm sure it happens, I even know someone it has happened to. But as Lyz said "It just doesn't happen to us."

We don't tell the lies to be mean or hurtful, we are honestly telling them to delay the tears, even just a bit.

I've told the lies, I've been lied to. What I want to know is in this situation, would you rather have the lie which comes with one extra ray of hope, or would you rather know the truth and just start the crying and mourning now?

Me? I can handle the lies. It does only give me one little ray of hope, the other 99% of me still knows the truth, and yes, I can handle the truth. I just need all of you to support me. And thank you for doing so.

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This blog started as a way to share my pregnancy with our friends and families. We've lost our precious Blueberry and Honeydew but refuse to quit. We have so much love to give a child, we will someday hold our baby. We believe in miracles...

About Me

I am a lover of all things tacky. I have a collection of way over 1,000 flamingos, because someone has to love them. I am a dork, and love it! I can hold a grudge like you wouldn't believe, but hate myself for it every minute. I love working in the tourist industry, but you will catch me complaining about the crazy ones, and there are lots of them out there. Most importantly, I am a mother. No, I can't show you pictures of my baby, but I am still a mother.