10 April 2006

Finding myself

Over here!!

No, here!!

Under that document. No that other document.

Ta-Da!! Here I am!!

Sometimes, I can be rather self-absorbed. I think it is because
for so long, I didn't think of myself. I didn't think I deserved
to think of myself. I didn't think I even had a self to think
about. And if I did, well, I certainly shouldn't be thinking
about it, now should I?

So, swinging way to the other end of the spectrum, I became giddy with
the notion that I have a self. And it is ok to look at me.
And it is ok to think about me.

But, in the course of discovering more about myself, I sometimes focus
on me so much so that I am blinded and deafened to the others around
me. I forget to take into consideration other people. This
can hurt other people, me, and my relationships with other
people. I need to learn that balance between self-denial and
self-absorbtion.