August 2, 2001 ~:~ 9:05am
I have such severe conflicts with my mothers personality. I don't know how I haven't noticed this much until this point in my life, but I'm starting to realize the whys behind it all.
I can tell that the major reason is that i like stability. I want things to be consistant. I want to hear a voice that is the same each time I speak to someone. She changes personalities depending on who is there or what she's doing, and it drives me batty.

Take last night, for example. Lisa and I were in the back looking at something, and came back out, and saw that she'd ripped a piece of the tag off of a box in the back. We asked what it said, and she reluctantly showed us - Annette had written "Ship Friday" and Leonard had written "Suck Me". Mom didn't want me to know so I wouldn't get angry at Leonard. Why not, that was a super rude thing to write!!!! She'd been completely upset with their lack of consideration and timeliness (Chris came an hour late again today, Leonards not here yet). She got all upset, and I was agreeing with her, and then by the end of the day, she had talked to them and was back to their defense immediately. Why must she kiss their asses? I work my ass off, and she will NEVER side with me when she talks to them.

So not only did she piss me off, she completely went a 180degree turn from how she was the morning before. That is very hard for me.

This morning, she wanted to act like nothing had happened. I don't do that so well.

GuiltyPleasures:
Microwave popcorn. 13 cups of goodness per bag.
Stabbing Westwards' Haunting song. Its stuck in my head since E played it on our drive home
Tara Music. Gives me peace among the storm.
Painting. I could do this all day.
Animal Cookies. Quick, catch the one that escaped from the bag!