My Brother would have been 26 years old today

it was brutal, we never had a funeral.
the anticipation of anniversary dates is the worst part.
i am so sick of people who don't get it.
so wrapped up in themselves and their own pain.
you don't see what you could do to others if you were to kill yourself.
you throw your pain into your family's emotional closets.
forever.
3 years ago, February 10th, he did it.
he went to the train tracks and layed his head against the railing.
and they couldn't stop in time.
it was brutal, we never had a funeral.

He hung himself and left no note as to why. He never seemed lonely or depresed or anything, and I had tried a couple of years earlier so he would have seen how upset our mum was. He was cremated but I missed it as I was living abroad and they couln't get hold of me in time.

I'm sorry for both of your losses. I agree that its kind of strange how both of your brothers took their lives on Feb. 10 and would have both been 26, but it could be just a coincidence. I just turned 27.