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I confess the last weeks weren't easy. I never knew rediscovering myself would be this hard physically. It was a fever, everything repulsed me: food, drink, sleep -- everything that was not connected with you. In weird ways we learn sometimes what is truly within us -- and always was. Without your words, I might not have understood it at all. Thank you for being so kind where you could have been so deservedly brutal...

I confess that I had a dream which seemed so real and only made me want to cry... the mirror... I miss deep talks ... all I hear is surface these days. dreams that confront you with the truth inside of you are my worst nightmares.

I confess I keep on wondering what if... I keep on wondering why ... I keep on wondering where... I keep on seeing flash backs, moments I saw your true self as true as you can be. I treassure, my friend.

I confess that I'm often lost in nostalgic feelings... I think now I grasp what it is to be missing old times and not being able to return to them. It's different than when I was younger, now it's like really missing essenc parts of myself I've lost along the road. But I gained new ones, I grew up and reshuffled what I want and what I don't want... I guess as long as it feels good, it's ok.

I confess that yesterday changed me forever. I got a glimpse of how I'd feel when losing my closest people in this world... how many times I fought with them, how often I looked up against the so maniest family party... but we should just use each and every possibility to gather together, to enjoy the time we have together because before we know there won't be another chance... there won't be a last hug.

I confessblife is a rush... If I had known when I was younger I wouldn't have rushed to grow up and wouldn't have beliebed things would become easier when being adult... Boy was I wrong... The growing only becomes intenser the older you get!

I confess I still find it hard to deal with irritation... I tend to scold people, yell, scream and leave all my reason behind when someone is not behaving the wa y I thought they would (by now). I realise it's been something I struggle with ever since I was little and I only discovered it because my own little fellow behaves that way as well and as it is triggered again with me because someone else I've been with 24/24 7/7 these past two weeks. I guess I know what it means, but I'm not ready to see that yet... I just want to know how to deal with the unbelievable anger-burst-outs that come up and tend to be a lot heavier now than when I was younger... I guess because I neglected my self for too long in this.