tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.comments2014-03-20T17:37:39.484-04:00Opening The Dirty WindowHannah Proctorhttps://plus.google.com/116521642059425807564noreply@blogger.comBlogger19125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-49614353230202706302014-03-20T17:37:39.484-04:002014-03-20T17:37:39.484-04:00Ha! Good old Roswell. I comfort myself with the ...Ha! Good old Roswell. I comfort myself with the fact that it&#39;s become a cult classic, so at least we had good taste, though we didn&#39;t know it at the time.<br /><br />I reread my diary from this time period, and, I&#39;m sorry to report, I waffled between being envious of your freedom and being convinced you were not a &quot;real&quot; Christian. Worldliness, you know. :roll eyes:Hannah Proctorhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14273190311310814689noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-86813664737488234652014-03-20T13:50:11.342-04:002014-03-20T13:50:11.342-04:00I dated an exceptional person in high school, then...I dated an exceptional person in high school, then broke up when I went to college, convinced he couldn&#39;t be good enough for me because he didn&#39;t go to BJU (in retrospect, terrible reasoning, but there you are). Dated a couple of guys at BJU, made friends with a couple guys that I probably should have dated (it&#39;s so hard to tell there!), and wound up marrying someone I met 4 years after BJU who had never heard of the place. Beccahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13550356616542393574noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-32288206600259228562014-03-20T12:45:38.054-04:002014-03-20T12:45:38.054-04:00I didn&#39;t have one single date during my years ...I didn&#39;t have one single date during my years at Northland. I was never asked out. I had one date with a guy who was attending my parents church during my senior year of college. (Not a Northland student.) Josh was the first person I ever dated, and I ended up marrying him.Shannon Smithhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10417162447839941056noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-22510002201992732952014-03-20T08:13:56.333-04:002014-03-20T08:13:56.333-04:00Oh my Lord. Yes. Lori Wick all the way. Janette...Oh my Lord. Yes. Lori Wick all the way. Janette Oak, too. And then someone who wrote about these young Scottish kids....can&#39;t remember the author&#39;s name. But I DEVOURED them. Thank Jesus I never really got into Grace Livingston Hill, though. I started to get disillusioned with these books, however, once I got into high school age. Lori Wick&#39;s writing is filled with mistake after mistake grammatically. I also found myself strongly identifying with the &quot;rebellious&quot; women. Specifically, I remember this one story about a missionary family from Hawaii. It was the third book in the series, maybe. The girl &quot;had&quot; to get married to save her reputation since she&#39;d spent the night at the local doctor&#39;s house during a blizzard or after getting hurt or something. She was ultra-rebellious toward her husband to the point of CUTTING HER HAIR WITHOUT HIS PERMISSION. *gasp!* *shock!*<br /><br />I&#39;m grateful, however, that in my school, conservative as it was, that we read all the great literary classics and that my English teachers always encouraged critical thinking and evaluative questioning. I think this is ultimately what saved my brain from complementarian BS.Madelyn Mariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10961645776718633904noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-43350293092869880352014-03-19T16:37:04.426-04:002014-03-19T16:37:04.426-04:00Hahaha...oh, Roswell. Mike is still occasionally s...Hahaha...oh, Roswell. Mike is still occasionally shocked the by the stuff I wasn&#39;t allowed to watch or do when I was a teenager. :Plizhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08164795133744159785noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-32895920614859739222014-03-18T19:54:39.701-04:002014-03-18T19:54:39.701-04:00I was educated at a public school from grades k-5 ...I was educated at a public school from grades k-5 and then my parents moved me to a Christian school until I graduated. When I arrived at the Christian school, I found myself doing better academically than my peers. The older I got, the more I realized that my Christian school education was a bit inadequate in the math and sciences, (though my English teachers were pretty great).<br /><br />My parents later apologized to me for sending me to the Christian school. They didn&#39;t know the education was so lacking until my sister and I regaled them with stories later on. I think they were doing the best they could. Tommy JJhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09651330403329356784noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-69760502878380206952014-03-18T13:52:39.977-04:002014-03-18T13:52:39.977-04:00Yeah, the idea that public schools are filled with...Yeah, the idea that public schools are filled with drugged up god-haters is ridiculous. I spend plenty of time in my son&#39;s school, and every encounter has been amazing. The students are great, the teachers are fantastic. I know from research that the middle and high school options aren&#39;t as wide as elementary, yet there ARE great schools. Why not take advantage of the opportunity, right?mhgoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14273190311310814689noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-68797554502092868042014-03-18T13:50:24.286-04:002014-03-18T13:50:24.286-04:00Katy, one of the great things about where you live...Katy, one of the great things about where you live is that the homeschool community offers a lot. There are co-ops, partial homeschooling options, special homeschoolers-only programs at the library, ect. So, if I had stayed there, I would be more likely to consider it for my own kids, since it would look nothing like what I experienced. Though, even some of the public schools in the area are pretty attractive, especially those magnet schools...mhgoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14273190311310814689noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-78608747722947674762014-03-18T12:38:45.724-04:002014-03-18T12:38:45.724-04:00I went to public school all through high school, e...I went to public school all through high school, excepting three years at an international (non-religious) private school in Japan. My textbooks were profoundly different from yours. They had facts. And some pictures of exposed knees, and even shoulders. Most of my teachers were Christian. Most of my friends were Christian. I never saw or smelled drugs. No one ever pressured me to have sex. In fact, everyone said that was a bad idea for kids, and we weren&#39;t ready for something so adult. When I got to BJU, I tested out of many of the freshman core classes and had 18 credit hours of AP classes. <br /><br />Naturally, your mileage my vary. But I&#39;ll be enrolling my kids in public school.Beccahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13550356616542393574noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-7797612782782469302014-03-18T10:19:52.698-04:002014-03-18T10:19:52.698-04:00Hi Hannah - I have been so interested in your Lent...Hi Hannah - I have been so interested in your Lenten postings. I was educated in public school all the way through. I think you and I had similar learning styles and motivations. I was (and still am) so excited to start a new school year. Middle school sucks for everyone involved, so don&#39;t be sad you missed that. The textbooks I remember from public school in the 80s were full of &quot;Carlos&quot; and &quot;Maria,&quot; who were the protagonists of every word problem in post Civil-Rights Era US. I had wonderful, experiential learning in the gifted program in Columbia, SC when we lived there for a few years. I have positive memories of public school (minus middle school, man that sucked). Part of me wishes I had the fortitude to homeschool Jack. I know I would enjoy it much more than he would, though. He&#39;s like us. He needs to socialize, and he&#39;s an only kid. We can&#39;t afford private school forever, or I&#39;d keep him at Montessori. I love that place.Katyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08344662892001245887noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-32577672370332284222014-03-07T09:17:10.809-05:002014-03-07T09:17:10.809-05:00Thank you for sharing this Hannah. People need mor...Thank you for sharing this Hannah. People need more knowledge on PPD. Including myself.Adrianhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18423573087657837128noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-49047012658158071752014-03-07T08:05:01.539-05:002014-03-07T08:05:01.539-05:00Thanks for sharing this story Hannah. I&#39;m than...Thanks for sharing this story Hannah. I&#39;m thankful to have read this so that I can understand PPD a little more and also be aware of the signs when Asher weans. Thanks for being such an encouragement! I&#39;m glad we share the same hope in the One who is over it all.natb.andersonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07242645864657826445noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-36891361690027593792014-03-06T23:56:07.872-05:002014-03-06T23:56:07.872-05:00Thank you for sharing your heart, Hannah. Many hav...Thank you for sharing your heart, Hannah. Many have gone through these things personally. Others who&#39;ve had other, different issues (which we definitely all have!) sometimes need to take a second look. <br /><br />I want to be learning as I go throughout life.Prudencehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05784070719416910225noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-85861366904569002582012-03-15T22:41:19.459-04:002012-03-15T22:41:19.459-04:00That was beautiful! Thank you for sharing.That was beautiful! Thank you for sharing.Julia Manganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13975989278389911673noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-56877406661048280062012-03-03T08:14:09.619-05:002012-03-03T08:14:09.619-05:00I love the description of your baptism! As a Pres...I love the description of your baptism! As a Presbyterian, I was baptized as a baby and do not remember it, and my children won&#39;t remember theirs either. I kind of wish we could now. Their baptisms are still very meaningful to me, though. We are planning to have our son baptized at sunrise on Easter morning, after the sunrise service.Jennyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02154415218933660079noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-72322205677607286262012-02-25T00:12:34.382-05:002012-02-25T00:12:34.382-05:00first our love to you is not CONDITIONAL. We will...first our love to you is not CONDITIONAL. We will always love you! And second, I don&#39;t remember when you ever got spanked that you had any type of swelling. Yes, I admit you got spanked more than probably your sisters did except for maybe E.<br />But maybe you might want to also include somewhere what a great family you really had. The fun we all had to together. But alas, I think you will not mentioned any of that, you memory is sadly lopsided. You might want to mention that if you were abused as you say, what about the other five Schaefer girls, they don&#39;t mention or remember any abuse. I&#39;m sorry for you Hannah. Don&#39;t blame us for all the bad that has happened to you. And remember I tried to steer you in a different direction than the one you choose, but you refused to listen. - Your MotherRuthhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17584364571042853770noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-68296344262506986002012-02-24T00:35:44.131-05:002012-02-24T00:35:44.131-05:00So sorry, Hannah. I totally understand why you hav...So sorry, Hannah. I totally understand why you have to do this. It is completely not possible to just forgive and forget. (Nouthetic counseling is an abysmal failure in this regard.) You *have* to have some type of justice in order to get peace with this. And the justice might just be confirmation that yes your punishment was far too severe. It was wicked of your father to punish you so harshly and to do it under the supposed authority of God. Blessings to you as you seek healing and wholeness.Anne Georgehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00654123220945138443noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-41989765356019576422012-02-24T00:24:48.394-05:002012-02-24T00:24:48.394-05:00Oh, Hannah. There are no words. I saw abuse growi...Oh, Hannah. There are no words. I saw abuse growing up, but it was NEVER in the name of God. If it were, I am afraid I would have walked away and never came back. Prayers for you, sweet girl. <br /><br />jamieJamiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01795323905128944665noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7471649331133035316.post-24958726574498632292012-02-23T15:02:25.778-05:002012-02-23T15:02:25.778-05:00I love that story. How often do we all want to be ...I love that story. How often do we all want to be like little children and make ourselves clean. We want to use our own meager strength to wipe the outward sign of sin away. It gives us a temporary feeling of our own self righteousness. We also want to do this &quot;right away&quot; we cannot wait to get rid of the dirt, especially if we can blame someone else for it. <br /><br />It&#39;s only when we confess that we are dirty and believe that there is one who has made us clean and then rest on his finished work.<br /><br />Return to the Lord your God for he is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love.Phil Lehmanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01817199110640685577noreply@blogger.com