When You’re Afraid of What Demons You Might Find

You go about your day as if nothing has changed.

Even though the tension around you is so tangible it may as well be another person in the room.

One you’re trying your best to ignore.

Not looking it in the eye or even acknowledging its existence. No mention at all because you don’t want it to be there, though as much as you keep your eyes averted, you can feel it every second of the day.

The best way to get rid of it is to acknowledge it, to deal with whatever demons it’s hiding. That’s the quickest way to exorcise it from your life.

But right now, you’re afraid.

Because you think you know what those demons are and if that’s all they are, you know that this is a problem that can be solved, that it’s one that will blow over.

Maybe it will cause a little bit of strife, a few arguments, but nothing that you can’t get past. Nothing you haven’t gone through before, nothing that will cause too much damage to your life.

But there’s the chance there are more demons hiding than you want to deal with.

There’s a chance that once you acknowledge one problem, you’ll find that bigger, scarier, and more lethal demons will come to light and you’re afraid your life will be destroyed if they are unleashed.

You don’t want that kind of destruction.

So you continue to tiptoe around the tension, praying it will pass.

You’re on edge because you know what could be coming, but you’re still hopeful this will all blow over and the demons will leave your home, leave your life, even if for just a little while.

It’s easier to live with that tension when you know it might be what is holding everything together.

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