Ambitious, conscientious, and a product of an abusive childhood.

Last year, I went through a break up (which I am happy to state has now been reconciled), but I found it very difficult to cope during that time. I felt what is described as symptoms of depression. As a child I endured several traumatic experiences, and had remained quite strong and optimistic during most of…

I haven’t written on this blog for a while, and although I promised myself I would write in it at least once a week, I’ve also promised to be gentle on myself. In the past I’ve had a tendency to give up on things I’m really passionate about when feeling like I’ve fallen behind. That’s…

I’ll never forget the day I met my shelter sister. As part of the youth shelter application process, prospective applicants were to attend a meet and greet style dinner with the young people who were already living there. I was nervous, and afraid, but looking forward to new beginnings. There were only two others living in the shelter…

For my Sociology assignment I am analysing two studies of Identity. This topic is focused on Frank Furedis Fragile Identity chapter “Hooked on Self-Esteem”. I’ve decided to break down each of the chapter segments in my interpretation of what he is saying. *This is going to be quite a long topic and will be divided into six parts, followed…

I planned to work on an assignment for my sociology class today, but wasn’t feeling it so I decided to take the day off. Instead, I wrote a blog post on gratitude, did several loads of laundry, spent a little down time with my partner, and settled in to my new home office. I’m also…

Today I am grateful for my growth, and my support. Last year I worked up the courage to open up about some of the abuse from my parents. I was too afraid to say this in person so I made a post on Facebook. Sharing that for the first time on such an extremely open…

This is just a quick expression of gratitude for my little pomegranate tree. I bought it a few months ago and didn’t know where to plant it, so it’s just been sitting outside dying slowly. It was one of those scenarios where I kept thinking “aw the poor little plant deserves a permanent home” but…

Ambition has always been important to me, but now that I’m taking the time to process my trauma I’m also trying to figure out what has been driving this value. I’ve been working towards a double bachelor in economics and sustainable enterprise for two of four years now. The first year was naturally filled with…

I never really knew how to feel about my strong sense of emotional values. I would often be told to ‘get off my high horse’ for believing in being good to others. I’ve definitely struggled with identity issues, issues that were placed in how people perceived me. My intrinsic values on the other hand have…

The topic of narcissism has been on my mind a lot recently. After writing a few posts on my insecurities when meeting new people, it become apparent to me that I was being consumed with external fears and values. I began to wonder if I had become a narcissist. Why have I been so concerned…

In my last post I discussed some of my greatest insecurities. The first question of my deepest fears: Do I look/ speak/ act like someone who’s family didn’t love them unconditionally? After deciding that wearing expensive clothing, avoiding ‘Aussie twang’ and not using profanity was hiding the reality my troubled childhood, I understood that positive body…

Okay, so! I have recently discovered that I have ‘shitty values’ because I measure my personal worth depending on how apparent it is that I experienced an abusive and neglectful childhood. Now don’t get me wrong, I understand there are much worse things to value. My issue is that once I finished reading Mark Manson’s…