Trying to cope with TTC and all of life's other trials... "Have you had your meds today?" Pvb. 17:22

"Cheer up. Remember what the Monty Python boys say.""Always look on the bright side of life?""No, 'Nobody expects the Spanish Inquisition.'"

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

"They got the fire down below." **NOW WITH PICTURES**

Conversation with myself on the way to work this morning.

“I smell rubber burning.”

“Is that smoke?”

“That is a flame.”

“Pull over and call someone, Tammy.”

“911, Where is the address to your emergency.”

“There is no address. I am on the side of the road around the corner on R.ip Ra.p Roa.d and my car is on fire.”

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That is my morning. It is more than likely a recall issue that we just found out about over the weekend. A recall that G.en.eral Mo.tor doesn’t have all the parts for yet.

It may not be the recall and then insurance will not cover it because it was not an accident and was not an act of God/Nature. Yippee Skippy.

So now, I need to crap out some money to get another car. Somehow, I need to make room in the budget to make a car payment.

Can I go back to bed and start over this morning?

Bleck.

~~~~~~~~~~Reflections After the Fire~~~~~~~~~~

So, I am shaken and I am a little jittery due to the car fire this morning. Just over two years ago, I was privey to the same sort of smell and those memories can rushing back.

My mom died in February of 2006, in a house fire. She escaped but not soon enough to save herself; my dad was working late. I am lucky, my car may have caught fire but I had plenty of time to get out and get to a safe area. (On a side note, I was standing in the rain, getting soaked as I watched my car burn. Yesterday's post was not supposed to be forshadowing.) My dad came home to find the house in flames and ran in to find my mother. I can't imagine the living with those memories the rest of my life.

I walked through the house several weeks later, with my DH and my uncle, hoping to salvage a little (we did) and it still haunts me when I see or smell a house fire. Now I can add care fire to that list.

I will have to find another car and then deal with Gen.eral M.ot.ors, hoping it was the recall issue. But I am safe and I am grateful that I am safe. The fireman asked me if there was anything in the car that I wanted before it was towed and I realized, I walked away with the most important thing of all, my life.

14 comments:

I can totally relate. When I was sixteen--a group of friends and I were in my step-mothers van crossing a rather long six lane bridge in the middle lane. The engine caught fire and we were stuck on the side of the bridge (its always nice lookin at the black of water in the middle of the night) for just about five hours.

She didn't however get a newer car.

I know about tight budgets too and I hope you can work it out--and that your insurance isn't anal.

Tammy, I'm so glad that you are all right! That is really scary. I sure hope everything works out with your car and that you're not out a bunch of money. I mean how much shit can life throw at one person at once anyhow?

I am so grateful that you were not hurt...it must have been your mom looking out for you. It sucks that you have to find a new car, but at least you CAN find a new car. Finding a new life doesn't happen.

Wow are those some pictures! Yesterday I thought there might be some damage but that it didn't sound like your car was in too bad of shape. Boy was I wrong. Thank God you got stopped and out of the car!Good luck looking for a car. That is never fun. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!

About Me

Cliff Notes of Me

1975 - The world was graced with my presence ~ Four days later I went home with my new mommy and daddy

1985 - I finally realized what adoption really meant.

1995 - In July, I found my biological mother and family. 2000 - I married my 'matching bookend'

2003 - My infertility journey began

Present Day - I am still close with all my family and I am truly blessed

Our Journey

July '98 - DH and I met for the first time

July '99 - DH and I move in together ~ and get engaged

May '00 - Married w/ mandated 3 year wait on baby ~ The only b/c used counting and CM checks

April '01 - I see the PCP, I can't stop gaining weight. I diet, eat right, nothing helps. I am healthy, stop worrying about it. I see the OB and question my long cycles, weight gain, facial hair. First love wand u/s; nothing. The doc says I am healthy, stop worrying.

June '02 - I again question the doc about my long cycles, missing periods, the 85 lbs. of extra weight in 4 years with a healthier diet. Why don't we need b/c? I am healthy, stop worrying

Aug '02 - I get the name of an OB from a friend ~ My hero. I ask about the weight gain, lack of periods, heavy periods, facial hair and why am I not pregnant we are careless not careful ~ PCOS, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. Blood work to confirmed it, he Dx'd me in 3 minutes. I fall in love with my OB/GYN. :o) Metformin, chart for 4 months, come back. TTC officially begins.

March '03 - Ovulation? lol Clomid for the first time ~ 50 mg.

May '03 - 100 mg of Clomid - DH has really good s/a

June '03- 100 mg of Clomid, Metformin sucks, I become close friends w/ my toilet. Lose weight because that will help TTC. Try for a year; if no BFP, come back.

Aug '03 - Bad accident, 6 months to even have a bad sex life.

May '05 - Still struggling financially from the accident, I give up TTC. The heartbreak it is too much for me, No b/c

Feb '06 - My mother dies suddenly, the pain of her never being a grandmother is too much to handle, life is a bit out of control. I start therapy several months later

May '06 - Charting again, my PCP puts me on Actos for the PCOS and Welbutrin for depression.

Oct '06 - Go to Dr. Wonderful and w/ a plan. I am beyond his expertise; need to see a RE, PCOS specialty. I find WebMD and start learning more than I ever wanted to know about TTC and reproduction.

Nov '06 - I see the RE for the first time and like him a lot. Scheduled for my first major test, give more blood... PCOS

Jan '07 - HSG all clear, no blockage slight endo, normal range

Feb '07 - 100 mg Clomid - nothing

March '07 - 150 mg Clomid - O!

May '07 - 150 mg Clomid - O! - IUI #1 BFN

June '07 - 150 Clomid - O! S/A redone, not good, no IUI

Nov'07 - 150 mg Clomid - O! - IUI #2 BFN

Dec '07 - DH has u/s and b/w... u/s clear, no issues

Jan '08 - S/A comes back worse, low testosterone ~ 25 mg of Clomid fix the problem, hopefully. Go back in 3 months for another s/a... TAB until May 2008, no prevention.

April '08 - BFP for two days, chemical preganncy after 100 day cycle. This sucked.

May '08 - Clomid Cycle with timed BDing - BFN

June '08 - S/A improved Clomid working great but Arimidex has been added. Clomid Cycle, timed BDing. RE visit on June 26.

July - Sept '08 - RE says two medicated cycles, it no BFP, then the third IUI will be scheduled. Please, Lord, let it work.