Wednesday, July 12, 2006

True Wife Confessions 18, Fully Legal

Confession #171

i've kissed 3 men since we've been married. i thought i was falling for twoof them. after realizing that it was only you i wanted, i stopped what i wasdoing. you still dont know about it. and i will never tell you. because ihave a feeling you've done the same thing. and i can only hope that yourealized the same thing i realized and stopped what you were doing.

Confession #172

I find you repulsive. If you have a drive to take care of your family, perhaps you would be having more sex, big boy...

Confession #173

Remember when you took me out for our second date to the movies? While the credits were rolling I said, "Thank you", not "I love you" like you thought because you looked surprised and said, "I love you too". So when you tease me by saying, "You told me you loved me first and only after two dates", like I was so desperate and needy, you're just being an ass. I just never told you the truth. And I wasn't in love with you then.

Confession #174

I think about my exes. A LOT.

Confession #175

I hate being your wife. I've given you so many chances to get your acttogether. I'm tired of being patient & stupid. I'm still here because youtook away the car keys so I can't make a midnight escape with the baby.That & you threaten to take the baby away from me & I know you & your familywould do it. I'm stuck. For now.

Confession #176

I would give just about anything if you would (a) plansomething fun for us to do w/o being prompted by me,and (b) notice when a chore around the house needs tobe done and not wait for me to ask you. You don'trealize that the resentment I feel about these twoissues is severely eroding our relationship.

Confession #177

I rarely let you get up with the baby anymore. It's not worth it. Because the 20 minutes of sleep you lost transfers into 3 hours of crankiness that I just can't tolerate. So I get up myself-after 5 minutes, I'm over it. You should get over it, too. You helped create her, so stop treating her like an inconvenience.

Confession #178

my husband sucks in bed and has made no attempt to try to get better. I am angry about it.

Confession #179

I have porn videos, even though you hate them. Whenever you spend the night at the shore with your buddies, I always get so inwardly excited because I get to watch them, ALONE!

Confession #180

Sometimes I hate you. Mainly because of your refusal to do more than the bare minimum to interact with and entertain our kids. You think you are a good dad and husband because you change a few diapers and occasionally take ONE kid somewhere with you. I am with these kids 14 hours per day while you work. On your days off all you do is sit in front of the computer or playstation, while I run around in circles trying to keep the two-year-old and five-year-old busy. You are always on the prowl for a way to leave the house and go have some beer with your buddy. You are so exhausted you sleep through the kids getting up, but yet you are ready to go for sex. And you wonder why you never get any.

9 comments:

As a divorced mama with one child from my Ex, #175 completely freaks me out. It's bad enough that I have to share my oldest half her life with her dad. But I get so distressed just sitting here IMAGINING if my Ex had threatened to take our daughter away completely. Not that he could have, but the very idea is so damn scary.

let me begin by thanking you, dawn, for providing this outlet. i've been reading your blogs for quite a while now and have never commented, not ever knowing if anything i had to say would be worth saying. . . anyway, i've been reading twc regularly and definitely feel the need to say something now. 175 and 159. . . i'm putting these together because they both illustrate forms of abuse - the "obvious" hitting and the more subtle of taking the keys and threatening to take the baby. i'm not going to tell either one of the individual women what to do because the choice is totally their own and no one should take that power away from them. but i do want to at least give a resource that many may or may not know is out there - 1-800-799-SAFE. it's the national domestic violence hotline. and yes, you can call it violence even though he may have never laid a hand on you. there is help out there, people who care and who can let you know what your rights are and what he actually can and cannot do, etc. i've worked in the field in various capacities for some time now and i just want everyone to know that there is help available if you want it. i hope whomever needs it will call. soon.

I feel so sad that many women feel this way. I too go through times with my husband where I feel like I wish I didn't marry him. My mom started telling me when I was a kid that marriage can suck and it's the hardest thing ever. But, when it's good, it's awesome. She drilled that in my head all my life and believe me, my parents have gone through everything a marrige can go through with the exception of losing a child.

There are times I relate to so many confessions on here. Confession truely is wonderful for the soul. this site is awesome.