…You realise what you are doing right? you are concious that you are surrounded by people you dont give a damn and you wish you could end their miserable existance right now, yeah?

-Yes, I’m quite aware of this…your point?

…I thought we didn’t do this kinda things…I mean, we never had…What’s going on?

-I thought to give ourselves a challenge

…You call THIS a challenge?I feel insulted my dear!

-…

…I am sorry, but there is no challenge in here, we can do this with our eyes blided, deff, mouthless, and so on and so forth, what the hell is the catch?

-Aren’t we supposed to do sacrifices for the people we care about? Aren’t we supposed to promote reciprocity?

…You might be, I freaking ain’t…

-…Fine, then am I not?

…Well, let me put this forward to you ok? you do this, yeah? And what you get in return? Is he being less stupid? no, he acting in fact in an even worse way…are you having fun? No, nothing you couldn’t achieve on your own…C’MON! I WAS ENJOYING THE BOOK AND THE KILLING GIRL! Are you doing what you like? Is your life geting better by doing so? ARE YOUR NEURONES STILL ALIVE AFTER HEARING ALL THESE IDIOTIC LINES?!…Cause i would be surprised…

-…So what do you suggest?

…Well…I’m not sure to be honest…I suppose you have proved your point, and you should feel happy that you can do things like this for people you care about but…

-But what?

…Iam not sure you are going to get your beloved reciprocity…I guess that gives you the higher ground…

-It’s not a matter of high or lower ground…I just…

…Just what?

-I was just thinking, maybe in that way he will realise and react…

…Keep dreaming…

-…Or maybe I will finally understand that it doesn’t matter what I do he is never going to act normally again, and so I can let him be, forget him and be gone…

…Wouldn’t it be easier to kill him? Or leaving it to me?

-…I’ll let you know about my thoughts on that subject…After all, I do not discrad them considering the reaction and treat that I am getting from it…

I want to fall…I want to break into pieces like that puzzle you know you’d never be able to put together again…I want to be the drop that disappears and dries in the back on my chin…I want to be like this room: lifeless. Although I am pretty much all that already…I don’t want to be teased with a moment of company to have an eternity of solitude…

…So I’m turning on the music loud, so when I’ll scream, when I’ll cry, you won’t hear me…So when I’ll force a smile you won’t really know it’s not true…So when I walk alone it seems like not, like it’s only something casual…

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…Rain…

*…So when I’d bleed myself to death you’d still think it was an accident…And at least I will retain a part of my lost dignity…*