The Timing Is Perfect.

Autumnal Equinox, Eclipses, Virgo Season, Oh My!

It has been exactly 3.5 years since my youngest was born, 5 since my first. Many of you already know of the mental and physical unraveling that I experienced after my children were born. I've shared in great detail of the Abyss that I walked into and returned from over a harrowing few years. What I haven't shared is the continuing ripple from those years. Now it's time to pull back the veil on the rest of the story.

The financial toll has been crippling. You see, my husband was laid off from work the week after my first child was born. We had a lot of savings so it was a gift to have him home. There was no rush for him to return to work. We had a year, no problem. And while it was beautiful and ultimately necessary to have him at home during that first year of her life, the stress of returning to financial stability started to creep in and take a strong hold on me. But there was nothing to be done about it then. It was all I could do to get through a day.

Just as I was stabilizing, I got pregnant again. My second pregnancy was very difficult. My health declined to the point that I was on bed rest for two months. Which meant John had to stay home to caregive. Which he did beautifully.

One year turned to two. Still no work. Still recovering my health. At 2.5 years, John launched a new business. Yay! His absence at home meant the children and I needed a new caregiver. While my health was improving, I still couldn't tend to my children and to my home without help. So we hired an awesome nanny who brought stability and Joy to our home.

But businesses take a bit to grow so...

The rebound has been slow. The financial juggling a continuing reality. - Until now.

You see, a shift has occurred. We are starting to look at this situation differently. We are starting to treat it differently. New information has come in. (Yes, new perspectives can come to seemingly cut and dry situations). And that brings me JOY!!! I know that different actions lead to different results. I've lived that for that last few years. I'm stoked to crawl out from under this Joy crushing elephant in our lives. Rather than being old school about this and eating it one bite at a time, (I refuse to eat this part of my past), we are going to invite it to our table. We are going to have many conversations. We are going to make a kick ass plan. We are going to ride that f*cking elephant into the sunset!

That's the money piece. You ready for the sex part??

Well, ladies and gents, having children takes its toll too. Two cesareans in 18 months has left abdominal swelling, scarring, tight fascia, and abdominal tenderness. Yes, even 3.5 years later. There is no infection. Nothing is "wrong." It's just what happens with major surgery.

Many of you have experienced some version of this. Whether it be the affects of natural child birth, leaky guts, hysterectomies, ovarian cysts, or cancer - to name a few - it leaves us feeling tender and protective. Tight and closed rather than soft and open.

For me, the fear of intimacy and body image shame have taken hold. I suspect some of you experience that too. My body just doesn't look like it did. The stretch marks, the flabby skin. Even with the flattest stomach I've had in my entire life, the skin hangs. Not to mention the compression tights that I wear every day. Though they are necessary they just don't feel so sexy.

And then there's the fear of pain and pregnancy. Yup. I don't want to get pregnant again. Birth control is NOT and option. The hormonal changes from having children made birth control unbearable. Let's just say sex has not been a priority for me. But not for much longer...

I don't know how I'm going to move through this terrain. I'm not sure how I'm going to fully heal this landscape of my body. I have set a clear intention to do so. I know that Denise Dee's Brouhaha Festival has much in store that will bring insight. I know the clarity of definitive action that I can take will come from there. This is a tender part of the body. It can't be forced into healing. It must be loved and allowed to show me what it needs. In keeping with the theme, it has told me it needs something different, something provocative, something on edgy side of understanding. Well, Brouhaha is certainly that! There will be other threads along the way. I will share as they come up. Who knows, maybe one of my findings will spark healing for you too.

I've come a long way, ya'll. There is so much going right. My health rocks. My energy rocks. My brain is stable. My body is stable. My Joy is firmly intact. It's the perfect time to face these biggies head on. Not only is it perfect because of my readiness. It's a perfect time of year. It's Autumn. It's Virgo Season. It's Eclipse Season. Virgo is all about clearing out the old - patterns, tidying up our spaces at work and home, clearing limiting beliefs - to create an opening for new avenues of living. Autumn is all about shedding the old. The peak growing season is over. It's time to harvest and to rake leaves! The Eclipses bring in the mystery and ultimately reveal our deeper purpose. The one that sparks our Joy.

That's what I'm all about. The Joy (R)Evolution. I'd like you to join me on this journey. Invite your friends! Sign up for my Autumnal Equinox Call. Subscribe to the Joy (R)Evolution Series. Join me at Denise Dee's Brouhaha. Coach with Me! (I have 2 spaces left)! Be In-Joy. It'll change your life.

Return to Fall:

My guides woke me up at 3:11 this morning. They had a lot to tell me and they wanted it to be quiet so I could take it in. They told me that even though I haven't added my "Causes" page to my web site, it's time for the Joy (R)Evolution to start benefiting the causes that are near and dear to me on a larger scale. "Start with City of Joy," they said. Use your Solstice and Equinox calls to benefit your Causes. I have made a commitment to follow my guides so now's the time! Here's the new scoop on Return to Fall.

This Saturday, September 19, 2015at 10:00am Pacific, For 1 hour, I'll tune us in and get us in sync with Autumn. It's harvest time. It's tidying up time. If you're feeling the fatigue of summer and feeling the urgency of action of this time of year, this call is for you. How can you recuperate and keep going? It's a shift. The summer and fall energies have different rhythms. There's much to do this time of year to prepare as the undertow of winter begins to pull us inward, getting us to slow down. Leverage everything in the universe that is available to you.

All the proceeds will go to City of Joy. City of Joy is a safe space for women survivors to heal their trauma and to become leaders in their communities in the Democratic Republic of Congo. To learn about this amazing community, check out their web site here: City of Joy

To get some awesome healing for yourself and to benefit the City of Joy, click the Donate button below. I'll send you the call-in information. Remember, you don't have to be live to benefit from the work. You can listen to it later. You do need to sign-up to be included. Thanks!

Joy (R)Evolution at Denise Dee's Brouhaha Festival

I'm thrilled to be leading a workshop for Denise Dee's Brouhaha Festival. This year's theme: Tricksters and Troublemakers. From October 22 - November 11, Denise will be throwing 21 day virtual festival that will shake up your status quo and get you causing a courageous disturbance in your world. Denise's Festival causes a veritable disruption in thoughts, habits, beliefs. In 10 workshops and 5 rituals, you'll not only get to the heart of the what and the why behind the scenes in your life, you'll also get the HOW to transform and strike a new balance.

I've been adding, re-writing, and tweaking. The biggest change you'll see this week is the Joy (R)Evolution Coaching Page under "Work With Kate." I have 2 spaces remaining for my private, one-on-one, custom coaching. If you're thinking about it, take the next step and schedule your free discovery session. These spaces will fill up soon. Get In-Joy in your way. It's pretty awesome. You'll see...

The Joy (R)Evolution is in full swing! Join me on this journey. Invite your friends! Go to www.KateEskew.com to Sign up for my Autumnal Equinox Call. Subscribe to the Joy (R)Evolution Series. Join me at Denise Dee's Brouhaha. Coach with Me! Your Joy is waiting.By the way, if youlovethis movement and want to support it, please consider making a donation. This is not just my business, it's a movement. It's a mission to spread Joy and to make it a platform from which we live our daily lives. I have big plans in the works; podcasts, books, proper branding for this movement. Time and yes, money are required to achieve my vision. You can help this manifest faster by spreading the word, bringing in your friends, donating, participating. Donations will go directly to building this movement.Thank you. www.KateEskew.com

Kate Eskew

Welcome. This is where I share what's on my mind and in my heart. You'll see that there's an offer to work with me in every letter. I'm shifting that as I go. Whether the offers excite you or turn you off I hope you find a juicy nugget or two in here that infuses you with more of you. Be kind to yourself because you rock. - Kate

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