Sunday, July 12, 2009

They don't miss me at the gym. I do not miss the gym. I miss the time to focus on me... That is what i miss. Where I do not have to think about anyone but me... and I wonder why I have to do that in the gym and nowhere else. I am looking around me at the stuff and the clutter and I wonder how I am going to make that change and make it happen. I know what I want to do and want to be able to do. What is stopping me from following through and doing it? Does it seem so maddening and familiar? Is it the whole complete thing that gets me? Can I break it up into bite size pieces? What can I do to get this going?

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

I have been too long away and fighting myself on many levels. I am trying to find peace. It's difficult. I want to make a difference. I want to change things for the better. My work is great because I get to think right now... and that is a godsend.