“There’s no such thing as dying with dignity. Our bodies break down, sometimes when we’re ninety, sometimes before we’re even born, but it always happens and there’s never any dignity in it. I don’t care if you can walk, see, wipe your own ass, it’s always ugly. Always! You can live with dignity, you can’t die with it.”

“Life is pain! I wake up every morning, I’m in pain! I go to work in pain! Do you know how many times I wanted to just give up?! How many times I thought about ending it?!”

“Everybody lies”

Few of the many dialogues from House MD series, How a man in pain lives with it mocking the society and its hypocrite ideals same time save lives, His sarcastic come backs will numb any smart ass. So what is it that we can relate to him from our day to day life. Well we all have our pain which we hide in or the other form few of us smile few of us go rogue, few of us act heartless but in the end we all have it. So whats similar to Dr. House; well its the pain. Pain changes people pain makes people get unchained from the society for it is a very haunting experience. We all laugh at things which makes sense or no for we need that heartfelt happiness. What did Dr.House teach us..?? well sometimes even the strongest of people require companionship for in the end we all need someone to go back to no matter how self dependent we are. Dr.House showed us that even in pain we need to survive and by doing what we love the most we can cope up. Is it not same we keep ourself busy to make the pain go away.

He speaks fluently in sarcasm, well at a point we all learn to speak. He enjoys his life despite everything happening. The stupidity of people surprises him and he mocks them and they take it offensively, well am sure few of us can relate to it. And in the he tries to kill himself and later realizes that living is imp than dying which most of people can relate when they tried to die but then realized they can go ahead living and do something better.

Funny how a character in a sitcom can teach us things. He did the right things even when everyone around him did not agree, he believed in himself rather than the world He broke down when what he loved with all of his pain went afar from him And somehow managed to change himself He tried to get away from the addiction of pain killer and was successful, teaching us that even when in pain we can find happiness without addiction

He showed us the reality of the current society how stupid people can be and when you try to show them they are stupid they go full retard, but if we do not give up they will finally realize it

He taught to fight through every situation and never to give up

He taught that even in loneliness and pain once can be happy by himself, he showed how attachment can hurt us at one point inl ife He showed that just because one acts strong does not mean he deserves the pain

So Dr. Gregory House, the man with a cane and pain showed that life is a bitch but we learn to play with her in the right manner once can come out form any situation. The sarcasm the I don care attitude, one man army kinda move helps you live with it

And we know that deep within us we have our very own Dr.House who lives

He was an average guy with a very different perception of life, fresh out of college with a burning desire to succeed. He did not care bout what the society thought for he had his own principles based on morality of his conscience, which was clean for he knew what is right and wrong. I known him for past 26 years.

He swam against the tide, he lived his life adjusting with people in the beginning giving a reason that his grandma didnt wanted him being hated by others. So he listened to her and became what “society” wanted him to be, but deep down inside he always wanted to say it was wrong but that old soul was the only control mechanism he had in his life which family knew.

He thought that the world is a good place and that honour, honesty, valor meant something. But soon he was proved wrong when he saw the real world slowly. It made him frustrated for he did not like hiding the truth just for the reason that society will put him down. The concept of god made him angry for he believed how can a god who was supposed to be the care taker of justice and honesty is keeping a shut up, which ultimately led him to thinking which resulted in him firmly believing that god was an imaginary being which almost every human created to support them, to blame when they fail. Along the way there came a person in his life who saw the darkness, the anger in him and said she would show him that world is not that bad as he thought. She thought him that its okay to be different and she will always support him and help him live his life rather than survive. She fueled him in his desire to succeed for stood by him and helped him control his anger. Slowly yet steadily he changed from a hard-headed person to soft person which his grandma had him. So the gal and guy were in love they fought and patched up. Then something bad happened and the gal flew away aboard. She promised him she wouldn’t leave him, his emotions started playing with him and he was unable to concentrate at work or personal life cause he was missing her. He knew he fell into something which will destroy him for he liked being alone but that one gal changed him and finally Murphy’s law kicked in she left him for someone else. HE quit his job at the height of his growth curve and ran behind her to make her understand that it’s not right to cheat . He got insulted and ditched in an unknown country on the first day of arrival by her itself. Still he kept his hopes on her tried to make her understand but the power of money had blinded her from his love.

Even now he travels back memory lane remembering her daily and shed a tear or two for he still cares for her and loves her deeply despite the fact that she broke his confidence or in one word she broke him completely.

But we do agree at times on a point that he should not talk bout her in his blogs or anywhere for its his pain and the worlds. But then he slips away cause he can’t forget her and just talks bout her

I tried telling him to forget her to forget everything, and think it as that she used him, but he never listens… But that’s what a heart is meant for right..? but being the brain i try to ,am sure one day he will listen to me; someday….

It been a while when I could really smile deep down from my heart, being trying to post from days but mid way I just go blank and feel let me stop. So today somehow got up from bed and started penning down thoughts.

So here let me give an insight to as to how depression feels like.. In one word its sucks.

Its a beautifully dreadful stage or lifestyle, which one may chose or forced into living it. Despite the urge in one self to make it all end. Life seems all bad and saddening for life seems worthless. Every night seems like a long dreadful torture and one wishes to die so badly that no amount of feel good thoughts help. Its a miserable stage where everything seems to be against you and you are alone in a crowd for life has no purpose it seems. You get addicted to things like alcohol, loneliness and most of all suicidal thoughts. In the nights you cant sleep and in the mornings you will be tired yet smiling. You feel the burden of world on your shoulder and no matter how hard you try to get over it you feel comfortable being sad. Loneliness becomes your best friend and you await death like a small kid waiting for summer break. Worst of all even death scares you cause one side you wanna die but on the other side your loved ones come infront of your eyes and you feel like why should they suffer for my mistake and you decide to carry the pain the burden yet you wanna die somehow.

Sad part is you get so angry when you think of the right things which later on turned against you for that itself became the source of sadness. And the rambling of people saying do that do this when all you wanna do is just be yourself for crying out loud.

You will start hating everyone and everything you feel like locking yourself in a room away from all the of the world. You wanna sleep it off yet still when you close your eyes the unwanted memories haunt you. And you drink yourself to sleep for you feel by getting high you can lose yourself.

Then there are the taunts of reality when you see the factor which hurts you right in front of you haunting you saying a millions words in just visual treat. Then you get mood swings you lose track of time and start enjoying isolation when in reality you just wanna talk and talk so one talks to himself his mind and heart. One starts evaluating the small small things and goes into a philosophical trance. One side you wanna become this ruthless heartless person and just go into a life of not giving a shit about anyone.

Life seems all bad and irrelevant you lose the trust in yourself the once strong minded become a weak minded bastard with no hope what so ever.

You feels like its been days since you were happy really as if its been days…..