Tag: good vibes

There is finally a break from all the rain! Sunshine is here and in a pleasant amount! (Generally, in the Central Valley of California it’s either one extreme of wet and cold to the other of triple number degree temperatures.) I have been waiting for spring to finally, well, spring up from the earth. I always find when the temperature gets cold I always find reasons to have the blues, even if it is from external forces that are out of my control. Spring means school is almost over, I can wear flip flops and run more. Even better it means that summer is almost here! But I am not mentally or physically prepared for heatwaves that feel like they last from infinity.

As March is winding to an and it felt like it wasn’t quite my month. I was very busy with school, and I ignored the things that I want to manifest into my life or some things I should do to take care of myself. Not a single panic attack and I never stopped hustling.

Some of the biggest things I’ve wanted to manifest into my life include:

New blog logo- I want to create a logo that goes at the top of my website for the tab and a logo that represents me and I can put on everything.

Lions- Follow up post on the reasoning for Lions next week, follow to hear about it when it goes up.

Plants- It’s spring! I want more plants, and I want to work hard not to kill them.

Better outfits- Because California has been in a drought since I was a baby child my wardrobe is mainly equipped with warmer climates. Despite how much I love my sweater that I wear every single day of my life, I want to change things up now that it’s warmer to boost my confidence a bit.

My driver’s test!- I forgot to study a lot this month for it.

Acoustic electric guitar- I’ve wanted one for a half a year now and my playing has gotten much better.

Since we’re talking about playing guitar. I’ve been playing for three years. I am a pretty solid rhythm guitarist. I want to get better at playing lead electric guitar solos and improvising. But now, I am playing acoustic guitar at my church every month. I play three songs and strictly rhythm. I can sing, but I can’t carry a tune in a bucket in the keys that the church plays in (G and B).

I have three guitars now, two electric and one acoustic. My electric’s name is Jay Fender, he is a Fender Stratocaster, the new electric guitar was given to me by my boyfriend that plays blacksaphone and got this guitar when he was a kid. He no desires to learn guitar so this is the newest member of our family. His name is Tiny Tim, being that he is a Stratocaster Mini. Finally, my very first guitar is a red acoustic Jhonson guitar, his name is Martin. I can’t use Martin on stage because he’s not electric, and he’s getting too small being that I got him 5 years ago when I was small.

This month for me has been an amazing transition from all the problems I was having to kicking ass. If you would like to hear me play guitar, or just hear more about guitar let me know in the comments. As I am coming out of hibernation I will continue to learn and make myself better, as well as take care of myself and do some things to make myself happy. I hope you all will do the same and continue to grow into some amazing human beings.

Hello people of the internet. Welcome to another post where I tell you about my life, and how I’m doing. I guess I’m a basic white girl because my favorite time of year is fall, and my favorite holiday is Halloween.

I am also taking all advanced classes, running cross country, and helping out the band. I am running around doing the things that make me happy, but I haven’t been able to take anything in.

What makes me feel happy:

Running my race, and reaching my goals, screaming for my team, and when they cheer me on too.

Football games, taking in the friday night lights, helping and being with the band and all my friends.

Hanging out with my boyfriend and my friends, not doing anything, just being together.

Taking pictures

Writing stories

I know I can’t do everything, but I just came to a realization that this is my favorite time of year and all I have done is run around from thing to thing, and I haven’t been able to do anything that makes me deeply happy but little things have.

Homework and sports get hectic, and I’m so sad that cross country is almost over. But I just need to enjoy all that’s around me. Maybe sometime I can hang with my friends, and I really need to schedule a photoshoot for fall, badly. Or even try out some new fall makeup for school.

So the reason why I’m writing this is for anyone who feels like they’re in a rut, or they haven’t been able to take anything in, and you’ve just been going about life day to day. Sometimes you need to stop and take in a big breath of that fresh fall air, and look at everything that’s around you. Do something that makes your soul happy as cheesy as it sounds. Maybe make little changes to your routine, and take time to appreciate the world around you, and how the leaves change.

Lately I’ve been feeling sad for no reason, but then I started taking in fall. I started doing the things I love this time of year. Things like watching Halloweentown and Harry Potter. Things like using my string lights, and drinking coffee. Taking time to pray more often, that sounds weird, but just taking time for my relationship with God is something very important to me, and sometimes life gets in the way.

Take time for you, take time to look at the things around you, and take time for the thing sthat are important to you.

Also, so excited for pumpkin carving, photoshoots, corn mazes, and halloween squad costumes with my boys (thinking about going as memes from 2017).

I live in a great little small town, and nothing makes me feel more like a community than homecoming. We get have a rally, we get out at noon, we have a parade, and an epic game.

This years theme was agriculture. Which fits our community so well because Hilmar runs on Ag. I didn’t take part in making my classes’s sophomore float, but we did win second out of all four classes.

Homecoming started the day before. I had revived my class t-shirt, and decided to crop and bleach it. And mad the more than necessary trip to Dollar General.

What I bought/homecoming necessities:

-White acrylic paint

-Three rolls of yellow pre wrap

-Gold acrylic paint pen

-Stick on gems

(I was mainly in the craft section…)

I was all ready for homecoming. That morning when I got to school, I painted all of my friends.

Every class drug on. But in the band room, I had a line of people that came because they wanted me to paint their face.

I was so happy when the bell rang. I changed into my Cross Country shirt and rushed to find my team amongst the chaos. We walked over to the house of our team captain, grabbed a slice of pizza, then walked over to where the parade was starting. It was a great time walking with the No EXCuses banner down Landar. I saw everyone I knew and threw out candy. It’s just a nice thing to feel present and to experience it. Then I hung out in the band room until my mom picked me up. I went back home, then back to the school.

Hillmar v. Livingston. It was going to be on TV, and I was going to see my Livingston friend after a year, and win money because he was going to lose the bet we had placed on the winning team.

Livingston lost to the JV team with a shutout. I got $10 and a picture.

I spent most of the game with my boyfriend and his friends in the spirit booth, it was so much fun we watched the game, and messed around. But the best part was looking up at a full harvest moon, watching the floats pass with the band and my boyfriend. Just being present in that moment that made me completely happy surrounded by the people that lift me up.

Anyways… let’s get down to business. *trying so hard not to make the Disney reference*

Anxiety. We all have it. That’s what this post is about. Some have it worse than others, but it is indeed inside all of us. Mine came out of me during high school. It was bad freshman year, and it’s the reason why I never look forward to school and I need a ‘safety person’ if I’m going to be in big crowds. I start to shake, my mind starts racing, my body overreacts and I start to cry. That’s how my body reacts and when I’m alone and my body is starting to do all the signs I know I got to get away, I got to get away from people as fast as possible. Nobody can see this. This also occurs when I am under huge amounts of stress, which means I undergo this at least once a week.

Some people experience this so badly they have no more control over their body, I understand that, but I never feel it as bady as that.

When I go through this I have to be alone. I go into the band room closet, lock the door, put in my ear buds, and play my guitar. I need my time alone, and at this point my friends understand and they go through the motions with me. Because it’s okay to be alone.

I spend my time alone, but then the next day I come back to my friends. We go back to the usual hanging out at lunch. But every now and then when I don’t feel okay or I start to cry in the closet having a hug from Victor never kills. What I’m trying to say is that it’s okay be alone sometimes, but you can’t spend your entire life alone. If your friends don’t lift you up, and they don’t help you when your brain gets too out of control you might need some new people in your life. But don’t spend the rest of your life alone high school can actually be a great experience, but if you lock yourself in the closet the whole time nothing will ever be fun, and anxiety will take over your life. Don’t let it do that to you, you have a good life, so live it, and it is okay to talk to people about these things. In fact the right friends will always help you in these situations. But don’t spend all of high school mourning in a closet, and talk to someone about it hearing another voice than one that’s coming from your brain makes all the difference.

And another thing. It’s okay to feel sad for no reason. I tend to and I don’t even know why. But you can’t let any depression like that eat you up because then you can’t enjoy all the beauty that life has to offer. Personally in high school you need to find the people you love, and you need to find the thing you love. For me its Cross Country and Band… or Guitar. Cross Country is a lot of pain but it gets everything off my mind, besides our team is like family. A love hate relationship with running really bonds people together, heck, we even went out for breakfast last Friday before school. Band is also the light of my high school life. They play at the varsity football game, so we all hang out during the JV game. Mrs. Cassidy’s office is like home. We sit around watching Netflix laying out on her couch eating pizza pockets. It’s literally home. Which makes sense because Mrs. Cassidy is Band Mom as we call her. I’m not technically in band, but I’m in band as the honorary member as me and my friends call it. Band makes me feel at home and we live by our on rules, and finding a place, or even those people in your high school makes everything better, and it makes any problems fade away.

High school has so many positives although teenagers are stupid. But just like everything else in life you get out of it what you put into it, and you can make it a good experience if you choose to make it one. And step one to making it a good experience is by slaying your dragons by yourself.

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High school so far: Blackout Dance, Comic Con with my friends, White Out/First Home Football Game with the band, My First 5k

Wooooooooooo. I don’t know. I’m just writing. This is how my mind works.

How are you? I’m doing well if you were curious. Having one of the greatest summers of my entire life.

Sorry for not posting on Friday this was my week:

Let’s start from what went down at the beginning of this week. Working out is so, so difficult right now. I am in so much pain, and working and working out twice a day is killer on me. I was alo in a little rut this week of the month, so I will hopefully be ready the next day.

Monday I was doing the best that I could, but I was also out riding my horse in the evening when it was cooler. I put on a good ride and my legs were screaming. But I think one of the best parts were I got to see one of my favorite people in the whole world. She is addicted to horse riding and I only see her once a year for fair, and it was amazing to see her.

Look, personally I am a goal oriented person and I am doing things all the time. It is so hard to be self motivated sometimes but I find that without even knowing I have to be around people that work hard and are goal oriented to and have a good energy that helps me. Most of my friends in school are honestly too young to be as self motivated as me, but they feel me with good vibes, but my older friends really push me and help me to push myself. It’s all just good vibes and it makes me happy.

We worked really hard on my horse riding skills so I could kill showmanship, and I gave it my all.

The next day was the horse show. I was up bright and early, got down to the show. My beautiful boy Halo was all ready to go. We won second in advanced, second in trail, second in equestrian, first in western pleasure, and first in horsemanship. It was amazing, I gave it my all, and I had such a good time. I was with this family that I only see once a year but all we did was lift each other up and congratulate each other, and we had an amazing time. Good vibes.

Wednesday, Thursday were surviving, but Friday. Friday I got to see somebody that I love very much. We have known each other since I was 9. She graduated this year and I absolutely love her. I slept over at her house for what was supposed to be one day, but ended up being two. We were clipping goats for fair, and I will tell you, that binds friends together. It was so amazing to be with her, and around her good energy. Her sister is also amazing and made funnel cakes. Uuuuugh so good. Because we’ve been going to fair together for years I felt comfortable with her family and their was no awkward period where you try and be on your best behavior, it was all super chill.

Nothing but good vibes and lots of goats. I can’t wait to see her at fair in a week, and again before she leaves to college.

Saturday and Sunday were spent clipping goats. My allergies were going off. But it was great being with those people and to sleep in my own bed.

So anyways that’s why I forgot to change the pictures a few days ago and yeah. Wow I’m such a good writer… and yeah. Okay I should stop while I’m ahead, catch ya on the flip side.

Hello my people, the people of the internet just scrolling through, the people who are following me and decided to read this, the people that have seen this on WordPress or have seen my instagram, long story short, hello and welcome.

So looking back… I haven’t posted in two solid weeks. I absolutely hate that. So, the week of finals for those of you who hung with me through that madness, I survived. I scored higher in Spanish than I thought, and did relatively well in Geometry, got almost a C in Adv. English (I could rant about that one, but I won’t go there) and I didn’t really pay attention to the rest of them, my mind was basically in the zone to do whatever it took to study, and I didn’t really care to know the outcome, I just wanted to be done with it, but I am back.

On top of trying to study, I was also trying to run for cross country and work with my animals for fair… I know that doesn’t sound as difficult as it really is. But goats can be a pain, and I worked almost as hard as I could because I wanted to win advanced horse showmanship. By the time I was done with finals I was so happy to go swimming with my friends on the last. Friday I had to gain as much rest as possible to prepare me for the 4am and 5:30 am mornings that came with the adventures of fair. I also had to pack my stuff and get organized. I know myself well now, and I’ve done enough fairs to know that before fair my shiz must be together, and I must gain extra hours of sleep to make up for the hours I will loose… I also know I must pack a pillow.

On Saturday I had a horse show all day. I was blessed to receive first in freshman showmanship and second in advanced… (so close to winning advanced as a freshman, there’s always next year.) I also did a bunch of other classes but if you want to hear about that comment below.

Anyways, next day was fair day, we took the goats down to the fairgrounds, where their was so much non compacted dirt you couldn’t always see straight. I got so many pimples and so much dehydration from this barn… dirt in everything! The only people showing goats this year were some seniors. Let me tell you, these seniors were the nicest people you will ever meet. Abby, Marissa, and Darek. I normally get anxiety by being around people but I forced myself not to get anxious and it made out for a great experience with these great people. They graduated, but in FFA you can come back and show one last time. Which is cool, but it was nice to not be the loner sometimes and they always made people feel included. Shoutout to Abby if she’s creeping on my blog again.

I did pretty well at this fair, 2nd in market, 2nd in showmanship, and 1st in breeding. Definitely an improvement compared to the last county fair.

I ate so much junk food though. Their was this little kid, Marlin, his heffer died, and his dad took him to fair so he could have the experience. So, we gave him an experienced… he decided he liked barn duty and cleaning the barn for us, so we had him to that, and I paid him in food. Lots of it, I spent like $20 on him. We had some good times that little kid and I… ate so much junk food.

Victor also went to this fair (refresher: Victor AKA Kevin, my best friend since 2nd grade). So we had some lit times together. On the first day to pass the time we played blackjack, and I took his money face *devilish smirk* (not all of it of course.) Some days we were bound to our separate barns, but on the day I got my new camera we had a photoshoot… we actually had several, and we explored the fair grounds. It was super cool.

“Issie, don’t go in there” Victor said nudging me over back to the track.

“Come on Victor, live a little” She said pulling his hand and smiling.

Basically sums up the entire adventure.

Finally, auction day was upon us. I was so happy to get rid of Squirt (my goat). He was sold for $8 a pound… that’s really good. I was really happy, but I had to wait around all day to auction him off, so Victor and I had another photoshoot, and his mom bought me food. It was getting to be about evening time after I sold, and my mom was with me so we ended up looking around at the exhibits, and I was dying over the photography, and the sketches of Ed Sheeran, Tyler, and Josh from Twenty Øne Piløts.

Eventually we left and I slept hella good, as usual. The next night was awards night, and I was blessed to receive a plaque for winning 1st in freshman horse showmanship. Hours of boredom later, finally left the fairgrounds for good this time, got the check for my animal, and went home.

Today is June 12th, basically my first day of summer. I slept in, put on my music, snap chatted my friends, ran, worked out, cleaned the house, put on my makeup, got dressed. Good times man, I’m feeling good. So that’s where I’ve been for two weeks. I don’t want to do that again, but I had no time to prep posts. On the bright side when I update the blog for July and August, it is going to look amazing!

This blog means a lot to me, so if you find me tolerable, please like and subscribe for more, and follow me on my instagram @thatgirlissie for sneak peaks of July’s photos.

This is the story of my fist FFA market goat project and my first FFA trip to the fair. I have been showing since I was nine so I am used to fair vibes, this wasn’t my first rodeo. I had a lot of help from my Ag. Adviser but I also tried to be independent. A lot of perpetration went into this project (mainly because I had raised this goat since he was born). It was two weeks ago we went to fair. Fair is a really cool experience, junk food, roller coasters, and animal exhibits and shows. It can be a very fun and sometimes educational experience. You keep your animals in barns, and you basically hang out outside all day doing absolutely nothing. One of my friends thought we hung out in a room with WiFi and AC… nope it’s almost like camping, but you come back home every night, then come back bright and early.

You weigh your animals one day, then you sit around awhile until you show. When you show you are in uniform almost all day, and where I live it’s normally about 90 degrees when I show, but it’s worth it, it’s really fun. Then you sit around some more for a few more days until auction when all your hard work gets rewarded.

This was my reward

My showday was all day. I was so tired at the end of it. I won 3rd in showmanship, 3rd in market, and first in breeding. and the picture right there was my reward. At fair the most important thing to get is a cinnamon roll. They are the best things ever and I look forward to them every year all year long, and so I had a cinnamon roll with ice cream, and that was the best thing of life.

My placing

You have to be at the fair every day all day, and it’s fun because you’re with your friends. We snap chat each other or play cards all day long, or sometimes we’ll even pr-ooze through the fair grounds looking at all the free stuff, educational exhibits, and how much fried stuff is offered.

Accurate representation of how tired you are and how you’re willing to sleep anywhere.

On an added note to the picture above I tend to do a lot of reading and sleeping at fair… more sleeping than anything. I made a bed out of a box slightly shorter than my length and a pillow from a bag of hay… good times, good times.

There’s always free stuff that people use to promote their business, and this year a tire center had a Frisbee, so my friends and I would go out in a grass area and throw that Frisbee all over the place, and when it got lost, we would go get another one.

I am a sucker for fast rides and I love a good adrenaline rush. Lots of my friends (despite the agricultural background of our hometown) have never been to a fair, and have no idea what it’s like so this year I took them on what I call a ride night. We pay to eat junk food, buy cheap lame stuff, and almost puke on roller coasters. The day that we went on was the day after JoJo’s birthday so I just called this his birthday party.

Bright and early I picked he hyperactive boys up, and we went down to the fair grounds listening to my sick playlists (Spotify ispat1000). They ran around like dogs, they helped me change the goat’s waters and their feed. We played the game ‘Ninja War’ so much that you would think we were little kids, and we walked around the fair so much. At the fair we went to they had an abundance of anime march so the boys and I went crazy. Of course, I bought a Fairy Tail necklace.

We went on all the rides… except the zipper… the zipper can burn in hell that concussion giver! We had a blast, when JoJo and John weren’t about to puke. Juan and I were having a lit time and we were dabbing on every ride.

Far left with the Gryffindor hat I gave him is JoJo, the creep with his tongue sticking out is Juan, the girl with the double chins is me, and the boy eating my hair in the back is John.

While we were there we decided to play some hopelessly riged games, and John actually won! (Shocker to everyone) He won the dinosaur you see, we named her Dina… yew we checked it is a she… originally we thought she was a he and the original name was Dino but I saw it more fitting to change her name.

The little stuffed animal polar bear is Polly… Polly the Polar Bear. Juan won that little guy and decided to give it to his girlfriend… but he eventually forgot to do that.

Me in my uniform for auction

Looking back that was such a good time with all of them, I just wished Victor could have came, because then the insanity squad would have been complete. I was so caught up in the moment of having fun with them but reflecting back it really felt like a great trip with such good vibes. Love you boys although I doubt any of them are reading this. Ah, my boys, my closest friends.

Not that any of you were worried, but I clearly was gone for a week… no big deal this isn’t like a youtube video when a beauty guru is gone for awhile and then comes back saying that their life was changed. But I basically didn’t post for a whole two weeks. Heck, I posted Quote Wednesday #12 on a Thursday!

As you already know two weeks ago I went to fair, so the week after that I was catching up on homework. The week after the first of May I had no time to write posts because all weekend I was still caught up with fair, once I got home the first thing I did was sleep, then the next thing you know it’s been two weeks since I’ve posted. I have caught up on all my late work, but the reason why I didn’t post last week was because a teacher assigned a big project, and I was caught up in that.

I’m getting my blog back in order. I know I don’t have that many followers, and I don’t have many people that like my posts but this blog does mean a lot to me and I appreciate everyone that has subscribed and does like my posts.

It’s almost the end of the school year, I’m counting the days until June 1st… (11 days) But because of that I’m also going crazy getting ready for finals. In addition to that, my school gets out on a Thursday, and on Saturday I have a horse show, and on Sunday I am going into the fair with my goats for another week of good vibes and crazy. But if the week after school gets out is fair that means I have to balance studying with finals and working with my goats and horse.

It’s all good, but if I do start drifting from the blog, that’s why, but I plan to be completely consistent over the summer.

With all that said let me let you in on some of the fun stuff that has been going on the past week.

My school puts on this thing called mud volleyball. They make every class 25 minutes and we get out at noon. The teachers still try and teach us stuff although nobody is focused! The Ag department BBQ’s and it’s freaking amazing! they have several games of corn whole for anyone, and they have canopy tents for people to chill. They have grass volleyball courts but the fun part is the three side by side courts with canal water being pumped into them to make the mud. It’s a blast.

This was our team, Victor has me on his back, the other girl next to me on Adam’s back is my bestie Andrea, and Angela and Miguel are on the bottom. We were the Eliminators… and we didn’t last past the first game.

My girl Andrea

But that’s fine because the school hired a DJ, and it was basically a big dance floor on the grass, everyone was barefoot dancing their life away. Of course I was freaking owning it because I love to dance. I was sometimes forced in the mosh pit of sorts, but I prefer dancing off to the sides sometimes with Victor because I have trained him from 6th grade how to waltz, chacha (well he already kinda knew how to do that), the swing, the twist, and a little bit of salsa. It’s so much fun doing the chacha and breaking into a twist then spinning into him and having him dip me. We’ve never really had lessons on dancing, but sometimes the middle school would have dances and we would dance together and it would look like crap but four years later to 9th grade we make a great duo.

So I danced like a crazy person for about five hours until the day ended. JoJo played volleyball with us, he’s actually crazy good. His dad plays and coaches volleyball, he played on the JV team, but then got moved up to Varsity. He left to play video games after playing volleyball but I begged him for a picture.

Before I left school I went to the ag building. So for the entire week before this day I had been campaigning to be my FFA’s chapter reporter, so I went to go check and see if I had got it. I didn’t get the position, but while I was heading to my dad’s truck I saw Andrea and Victor so I took a pic with some of my favorite people.

That was a great day!

The week after that my FFA chapter was holding and award ceremony for all the kids that participate a lot. They gave out tons of scholarships, made food, and thanked everyone that had been supporting us.

I won Outstanding Freshman in Agricultural Science and Outstanding Greenhand because of all the stuff I had taken part in this year with my FFA. I also won a spot in the point award trip. They take the top 20 kids that participate in the FFA they take them on an all expense paid day trip. I think we’re going to Santa Cruz. I’m pretty stoked.

I’ve also been hanging out in the band room a lot, one of the fair’s I go to has a competition for who can write and perform the best original song, so I have been working on that as much as I can. I have to figure out the strum pattern for the song before school ends and recorded it before school ends if I want it to sound especially good, because the band teacher will let me use the box drum and record it in high quality.

In addition to all of that I’ve also been trying to train a little bit here and there. Because this week I have a cross country meeting to attend, and I must admit I am quite intimidated, so I’m trying to be as ready as I can be for next season. Although I understand I won’t be able to progressively train until summer break.

So that’s where I’ve been doing and what I’ve got going on. Please like and subscribe for more. I hope you have a good life, and comment bellow what you’re excited for in summer… or don’t, your choice.

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