Welcome, and I'm so sorry to hear you're in pain....I hope you derive comfort and support from being a part of this community. It's nice to meet you, and I look forward to hearing from you again. :hug:

:welcome: to the forum derek. If you wish to share with us whatever it is you are trying hard to survive perhaps we can help you out with it. Sometimes it helps to talk it through with people who may have been in similar situations. I hope we see more of you. :hug: Until then take care and stay safe.