Post #455: June 13, 2010(Posted to the blog on 11/30/10)The appropriateness of confrontations: Why I don’t want to tell my mom about being molested—

Post #456: READER INPUT(Posted to the blog on 12/1/10)Reader Input: Suicidal idealization: It is morally wrong to commit suicide?—

Post #457: June 16, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/2/10)Shifting perceptions of reality – Part 1 of 3: Therapy session on how my relationship with my parents was structured to meet their needs—

Post #458: June 16, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/3/10)Shifting perceptions of reality – Part 2 of 3: My parents did the best they knew to do; I’m not able to express anger—

Post #459: June 16, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/6/10)Shifting perceptions of reality – Part 3 of 3: Edward and I talk about my dad’s death; I wonder why some people move towards healing and others don’t—

—Post #460: June 23, 2010 – morning(Posted to the blog on 12/7/10)It comes in fits and starts: Gratitude for Edward encouraging me to be emotionally connected with him; I ask for help in recovering and making sense of memories—

—Post #462: June 24, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/9/10)Speaking of crashes and cats: Recognizing that I often crash emotionally after an emotional high; I consider giving my foster kitty a permanent home with me—

Post #463: June 30, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/10/10)Loaded for bear – Part 1 of 4: Edward encourages me to talk about childhood abuse as much and as often as needed—

Post #464: June 30, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/13/10)Loaded for bear – Part 2 of 4: Edward coaches me to remember the emotions I experienced as a child when my dad hit me—

Post #465: June 30, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/14/10)Loaded for bear – Part 3 of 4: Edward tries to get me to understand how wrong my dad had been; I got triggered and froze up—

Post #466: June 30, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/15/10)Loaded for bear – Part 4 of 4: Edward helps me get unfrozen; We look at why I don’t feel anger towards my parents; I place a token of emotional connection in Edward’s office—

Post #467: July 5, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/16/10)My mind is playing tricks on me: I struggle with symptoms of dissociation—

Post #468: SPOTLIGHT(Posted to the blog on 12/17/10)Spotlight: Overcoming Sexual Abuse: A great blog on tools for overcoming and rebuilding after sexual abuse—

Post #469: July 14, 2010 – noon(Posted to the blog on 12/20/10)Snapshots of me – Part 1 of 3: In our therapy session, Edward assures me that my symptoms of dissociation are not due to malingering—

Post #470: July 14, 2010 – noon(Posted to the blog on 12/21/10)Snapshots of me – Part 2 of 3: Edward and I look at photos of my family and past adventures—

Post #471: July 14, 2010 – noon(Posted to the blog on 12/22/10)Snapshots of me – Part 3 of 3: Edward and I talked about why I feel the need to protect my mom from pain and from having to take responsibility for her part in the abuse—

Post #472: July 14, 2010 – 8:00pm(Posted to the blog on 12/23/10)The eleventh-and-a-half hour: My habit of procrastination puts me in a tight spot of not being ready for a performance—

Post #473: July 15, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/24/10)Through the night to dawn: I pull a miracle out of my ass and deliver a powerful performance—

Post #474: July 21, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/27/10)I can only imagine: Sharing my fears around using my blanket in a therapy session—

Post #475: July 26, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/28/10)Tidbits of non-therapy news: My piano lessons business is growing quickly—

——Post #476: READER INPUT(Posted to the blog on 12/29/10)Reader Input: Why do you come here?: What brings you to my blog time and time again?—

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Post #477: July 28, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/30/10)Unfolding possibility – Part 1 of 3: Edward and I negotiate how we will handle my dissocating during a session, should that happen—

Post #478: July 28, 2010(Posted to the blog on 12/31/10)Unfolding possibility – Part 2 of 3: In our therapy session, I get brave enough to go under the blanket—

—Post #479: July 28, 2010(Posted to the blog on 1/1/11)Unfolding possibility – Part 3 of 3: Edward and I talk about how my dad should have protected me instead of inflicting violence on me—

—Post #480: July 29, 2010(Posted to the blog on 1/3/11)The freedom of no expectations: Gratitude for how safe, validated, heard, seen and respected I feel with Edward—

—Post #481: August 4, 2010(Posted to the blog on 1/4/11)Innocent questions: Humorous conversation with a client about agricultural stuff—

Post #482: August 12, 2010(Posted to the blog on 1/5/11)Thoughtful reflections: Reflecting on how “intact” I feel when I’m with Edward; There were good parts to my childhood—

Post #483: August 13, 2010(Posted to the blog on 1/6/11)Curious puzzle pieces: I decide to adopt my foster kitty; The kitty wrecks havoc within the dropped ceiling—

About the post dates

For each post, there is a significant lag in time between the date the journal entry was written (shown in the heading of the post) and the date the post was published to the blog.

The time lag allows me the opportunity to alter names and other identifying data for privacy purposes, check for grammar and spelling errors, break longer passages into smaller parts, and add the tags, categories, photos, quotes and url links.

It also provides a buffer against the natural “ebb and flow” in the volume of therapeutic writing I produce. After all, I do have a life outside of therapy, LOL.

In fact, there will likely be times when I don't publish anything for weeks . . . that would be because I am preoccupied with events currently occurring in my life. Of course, participating fully in my current life takes precedence over documenting my history.

However, it is my intention to continue documenting my journey even though I may run significantly behind in publishing those journal entries to my blog. I'll publish entries when I can!

On a side note, I write a lot about other people. Please know that I almost always change names, and I often change other characteristics such as gender and age in order to protect the privacy of those people.

Thank you so much for stopping by to check out my blog!

- Marie---------

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