My summer has been very, very lazy...the most laziest summer since i was 15. On Saturday my Grandfather died, and once again it was a hard hit...in 15 months three family members all on my mom's side have died...hopefully this will be the end of that now. I wish I could go to hawaii with someone, but that won't happen...I miss school, and learning and the routine of my own life. I don't have much to write anymore; but I really am going to try to write a book. We'll see how far that goes.

I haven't written in a while. plain and simple is that i have become incredibly lazy, and I miss school. There i said it, and i am not ashamed of it. I like writing papers, doing research, having professors place expectations on me. What has summer turned me into? I used to have a routine...now I can sleep up to 10+hours a day...and I get 2 or 3 things done, and call it productive day. Although, I've decided I want to write a book. If I write for an hour a day I might have something to show for my efforts. Although, how many times have I already said I want to write a book. Countless, I assure you. I don't know if I even have any writing talent left in me. Maybe I should write about my nine hour date in SF on Friday. Or about all of the boyfriend drama that my friends are going through, making me re-evaluate single life for oh the 20 billionth time. Then again I did like getting presents and having a wonderful time on Friday. I miss reading some of my favorite bloggers who quit writing. Hopefully the pool will be fun tomorrow. Hopefully my date will email/call me about meeting again. and would my dinky internship just start already??

"To live content with small means; to seek elegance rather than luxury, and refinement rather than fashion; to be worthy, not respectable, and wealthy, not rich; to listen to stars and birds, babes and sages, with open heart; to study hard; to think quietly, act frankly, talk gently, await occasions, hurry never; in a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious, grow up through the common--this is my symphony."