This blog is solely written to convey the many thoughts and feelings I, Alicia Marie, experience throughout my day to day life. Along the way, I hope to bring my readers something they can relate to. My purpose is to make people smile, and to cry (tears of joy, that is), and to make them feel like they're not alone in this world.

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Tuesday, June 7, 2011

The Endocrinologist...

Today was my appointment with the Endocrinologist. Luke and I waited in the waiting room for about 10-15 minutes before they called me to a back room. The nurse went through what seemed like tons of questions because I was new to their office. Eventually, she left and told the doctor that I was ready to see him. After the nurse left, we waited another 15 minutes before the doctor finally came in. He spoke with an accent that was incredibly hard to understand. I had to zone into every syllable he said in order to comprehend what he was trying to tell or ask me.

He asked me some more questions that the nurse prior to him had not asked. So, to make a long story short, he's putting me on Metformin permanently. He said that he could put me on tons of medicines, but none of them would work like excessive exercise and dieting would. So, he said for the next four months, take the Metformin and do AT LEAST 60 minutes of excessive exercise a day. He said that the Metformin should help me balance the hormones out and help me loose weight. Also, he said that since we're trying to get pregnant, he hopes that Dr. M will put me on Clomid because it might help get me pregnant. When he said that, Luke's ears perked up. So, Luke asked him, "what is the percentage (if EVERYTHING levels out and she looses some weight and Dr. M puts her on Clomid) that she will conceive?" The Dr. replied, "with just diet, exercise, and Metformin, she's looking at only 20-30%....if she gets on Clomid too, it may bump it up to 40-50%." With AF being so sporadic, he said it's almost impossible, especially since I'm not ovulatin. My heart sank. 50% AT BEST....That's not even good odds for me getting pregnant if everything happened with its best case scenario.

My dreams of bearing my own child are almost gone. I know it's not the end of the world, but it's a very hard road to travel. We've got some important decisions to make very VERY soon. I just hope that whatever we decide to do, EVERYONE will support us. This journey has been long and exhausting. We prayed for answers, and now we have them. Where we go from here is undecided at the moment, but I just pray that the Lord gives me a peace that could only come from Him to make it through our decision.

You know I can help you.. Just say the word. As for 50 percent it's better than where you are now. However having some of the same issues in my family I would concentrate on one thing at a time. Lose the weight before you get on to many drugs. If you get healthy your chances of the meds working are higher. I'm routing for you kiddo, I know that whatever you and Luke decide will be the right thing for you both. Praying for you.

Try not to focus on those percentages too much. A couple with no issues only has a 20% chance of conceiving each cycle. With those odds it's a wonder anyone gets pregnant! And try not to be too hard on yourself. There is so much they can do as far as fertility treatments. PCOS is not a death sentence. Most women with PCOS can get prengnant, it just might take a little longer and not be the way we planned. I hope I don't sound too harsh, but I just hate to see you feel like you're already at the end of the road when there is still much hope. Hopefully the metformin and Clomid will do the trick, and soon!~a fellow PCOSer

About Me

I'm a 24 years old foster mom to three kiddos ages 3 and under. Not too long ago I felt that I knew what life was going to be like. I would have a full time job, 2 kids, a house, and two dogs. Like most things in life, we do not always get what we dream of, but I can say that I have been given more than I could ever imagine for myself. I'm here to share my experiences--the good, the bad, and the ugly--and in turn I hope to inspire you and bring hope to your life.