Monday, May 4, 2009

When the walls fell.

So im not sure what im trying to do here. I was shown this idea through a friend & co-worker. Im testing these waters i mean right now im at the shore line and i have no shoes or socks on. Im just touching my toes lightly into the water... and right now its to cold.. way to cold .Im not a large fellow by some standards but im big enough where i look into the mirror and not like what he see's .

Its hard some days.. waking up trying to be happy with everything in the world when your not happy even with yourself. Getting to a transit station finding all 3 elevators / escalators out of order. Finally getting of the last one and head outside to catch the bus... mean while your literally gasping for air... your chest hurts cause your breathing so irradicly and heavy.

Bottom line..I need to loose wait.. and.. sometimes i feel weak and need support. I dont know any more but one things for sure.. im on a road that only has one ending.

2 comments:

Congrats on finally setting this up sweets. It may take some time to get yourself a little online support system, but I'll always be around! Best thing to do, truly, is go out and read read read! Comment like mad crazy too, people support those that support them. It's a giant, self sustaining, support system. Not to mention...all the shit you can learn from reading other blogs, and just knowing that you are not alone.