Thursday, May 24, 2012

Stop Seeking and Relish It: Guest Teaching by Suzanne Foxton

WELCOME.For those of you keeping
score at home, as the baseball announcers say, this is the eighteenth offering
in our Guest Teaching Series. Readership for the site continues to grow,
so it doesn't look like I killed the whole deal by posting a column of my own
last week. Incredibly, I even got a number of supportive
emails--God bless you for those! They keep me from wondering if I'm one
of the proverbial hundred monkeys with a typewriter. Now, I ask you readers and this
week's Guest Teacher, Suzanne Foxton, to forgive me, but there is some large
news this week, and since it affects Awakening Clarity, I need to share it
here and now.

FIRST OFF, please see the Housekeeping
Notes at the bottom of this page that will detail some very positive changes
that we've made to the site recently. I'm really excited about where this
site is headed, and I hope you'll continue to spread the word for us. I just signed up Gangaji on Tuesday, and Joan Tollifson on Wednesday for end-of-summer posts. There's a new note-board on the side panel that will keep you up to date on upcoming teachers. Chris Hebard, whom many of you know from the Stillness Speaks website, has just sent in an original piece from his vacation desk
in Switzerland, and he'll be our guest for the next main-board post, which will be in two weeks, on June 8.

YES, TWO WEEKS, not one. The great news is that I'm writing a book for Non-Duality
Press and it's coming along nicely. It'll be a little different than most Nondual titles. The other news
is that I'm going to have to really hunker down for several months in order to finish it. So, beginning with this week's post, I'll be taking Awakening
Clarity's new, main-board posts bi-weekly. I have not made this decision
lightly, but out of necessity. I'm still earning a living, have a
wife-life that needs tending, a website to manage and edit, and now I have a book to
write. I've squeezed my clock for all I'm worth, but there's just no getting any more hours out of it. Awakening Clarity takes up quite a bit more time than my
business, so to cut that load almost in half is going to be a real windfall for
me, which I can then devote to the book. The Guest Writer pages will continue to be updated, as will the
Events and Announcements section, and the Pointers Page. If the gods move me with a suitable subject, I'll still update
the Inverse Journal. But the actual posts, which will all be in the GTS
series, will come out every two weeks. So, I wrote one post after four months,
and suddenly it looks like I'm bowing out for another four or so! That wasn't my plan, but apparently it was the plan.

SUZANNE FOXTON was raised as Suzy Howell,
a nice young woman from Indiana who let her heart carry the rest
of her body off to England, where she now lives with her husband and
two children. One night she was washing dishes and her entire world view
changed completely. The background to her awakening was a long period of intense psycho-therapy, where she'd stripped a way a lot of egoic layers. As for the rest, let's let her tell it herself, in this borrowed paragraph from her Nonduality Magazine interview:

"In the midst of this, I was washing some
dishes. I took a knife from the sink. The knife became an
amazing wonder; it was exactly right; it was the most knifish
knife that ever knifed; it was life, knifing. A kind of vision
engulfed me, or replaced me; my mind needed to supplyvisuals, so I seemed to see a sort of cosmic
winking in and out, creation on a grand and colourful scale,
swirling being sucked into some kind of black hole and
renewing, over and over again. I knelt on the kitchen floor.
"Whoa!" I said, like Bill and Ted on their excellent adventure.
I then wandered around the kitchen, saying to the ether, "It's
so obvious. It's so obvious!"

WE MIGHT BE TEMPTED to call such a thing an amazing experience, but since it's never gone away, which is the very nature of
experience, it must not be an experience at all. It must be something else. We could call this something else a shift, which
wouldn't be wrong, but let's let Suzanne herself name it. In her Nondual novel, published by our friends at Non-Duality Press, she calls it The Ultimate Twist. That's as good a name as any for the thing that cannot be named.

FOR A WHILE THERE, Suzanne may have best been known as
the woman who wrote her blog faster than a speeding bullet, or even Superman himself! I heard her
tell BATGAP's Rick Archer that she has about a quarter million words on it thus
far. That is some serious blogging! She's not producing so
much as she was early on--which seems to be the normal course of these
things--but what she puts up is terrific. What I love is that Suzanne is
not afraid to play. We can get so caught up in all of the Very Serious
Nonduality Stuff and Very Serious Life Stuff that we can forget that in the
end, it's all just a story, it's all always and already just fine, and that the gift of
this teaching is that at long last, we get to just relax. That doesn't mean we don't care, or don't take care in out lives; quite the
opposite. It means that without the burden of a stressful story we can act from wisdom instead of fear.
Suzanne does so, and she's a joy to watch, read, or listen to. She's funny, too!

JUST AS THEY ALL ARE, my Suzanne Foxton story is
shallow and embarrassing, which is precisely why I'm telling it on myself in
public. Why not? As I've said here before, I call my ego Lazarus, because it won't
die for more than three days at a time. I kind of like him. With these embarrassing
intros I get to watch Lazarus squirm in his chair and kick up a fuss! Eckhart Tolle used to talk about "allowing the diminution of ego". Eckhart, I really heard you, pal. I find the process to be pretty big fun, but then again I am a hermit, so my life
is not exactly full of sirens and whistles. Still, you try it out if you like; I think it was great advice.

AT ANY RATE,a year or so ago I was plowing through Scott Kiloby's Kilologues
when I fell upon an interview he'd done with Suzanne. So, somewhere in
the interview Scott says something to the effect of, "I have on the line
with me today the lovely Suzanne Foxton." Hello. I'm
sorry, but what man in his right mind is not going to be a chump for
that line? So in my shallow and Neanderthalic way, I paused the
interview and immediately Googled her. I was transported to Nothing
Exists, Despite Appearances, which is Suzanne's blog. I wasn't disappointed either;
she is indeed very pretty. But while I was there, perhaps to keep up my spiritual appearances, and thus not self-confess to having completely acquiesced to this unit's ridiculous maleness, I
began to read her stuff. Wow! I wasn't disappointed there either. Suzanne's
view, if you will, is a radical one; she's not taking any prisoners. She
smacks you on the head with a purity and cleanness that we don't often find. She has graced us here with an absolutely fabulous original post. This thing could cause The Ultimate Twist all by itself; no kidding.

LET ME ADD that the realbeauty on
Suzanne's site is her art. I didn't have the nerve to steal her pictures
to decorate this piece, but I sure wanted to. I am using the
picture she sent in, which is also the namesake of this article, Relish.
Here's another confession. I have been married to three women who all have degrees in Art History, and
I still don't know much about art. (I do know quite a bit about Art History majors, however, and I'm hanging on to the last one!) So, in my abundant ignorance I haven't a clue as to how she creates these things, but I am absolutely crazy about
them. She says it's collage and marker, A3 size, scanned in and slightly blurred and blended in Photoshop. Whatever that process entails, its result is cool. You'd expect that, though, because if I
had to use one word to describe Suzanne Foxton, it would be the word
"cool".She's a seriously hip Londoner now, regardless
of her more pedestrian roots here in the colonies, or the wife and mother roles she's so devoted to. She's now working on a second book, and is slowly attempting to turn her first book into a musical for the stage.

FOR THE SERIOUSLY fashion conscious among you, let me say that for great clothes, I
recommend watching her interview on Conscious TV.I have embedded a clip down below. My wife, who often dresses in a similar fashion, gave her two enthusiastic
thumbs up for the outfit. So let me get out of this cool woman's way and
let her talk.

AND NOW . . .

STOP SEEKING AND RELISH IT

By

Suzanne Foxton

THE SEARCHING ENDS NOW. There is nothing to find but what is. There is nothing that
needs to happen but what is happening. There is nothing new to know that will
bring further revelation. There are so many fascinating, moving, absorbing
stories which cannot yet be enjoyed, for they have too much of the burden of
redemption upon them. Redemption is here, now, for there is only here and now,
and infinite immediate possibility. You are not that small thing, the
constructed identity named Felicity or Gerald, charged with the impossible
tasks of perfect life or perfect love. You are what perfect life and perfect
love emerges from; simple knowing, pure being, absolute awareness, bare
sentience. That which looks, looks for itself, and it is everywhere; it is
everything.

ALL SEEKERS either give up and live life, or end up finding that
reality is exactly as it has always been; the obviousness of it is the punch of
the "ah ha" moment that some
people seem to experience. Life as it arises, so rife with discontent, is
exactly what was sought, and now seems full of contentment. We are in paradise.
This is paradise. It always has been. Value judgments usually fall by the
wayside, but if they don’t, enjoy them.

MAYBE SEEKERS have too many expectations about what "this" or
"awakening" or "enlightenment" is. Your brain/mind can seem
to "come back" and "claim" an experience; however you
perceive and label such an apparent happening is this too. There is nothing that is not
this. That's what an "ah ha" moment means, and why it's so amusing.
What you are looking for is everything, just the way it is. It is occluded by
its omnipresence. It's so simple, you can't possibly believe it's so obvious.

SOME SEEKERS MEDITATE, convinced that the peace of the absence of thought – the
“stillness” so desired by so many – is what “this” truly is. Moments of peace are great, but they aren't
especially "this". They are “this” in yet another guise. Doubt,
resistance, fear - this in an egoic guise. However, when "this" is
"realised", there seems to be less resistance, doubt and fear, which
is what the ego craves: for things,
generally, to be “better”. There are no
guarantees about what the quality of life will be, in the story that seems to
unfold, if wholeness is apprehended. The only guarantee is that whatever it is
that seems to be happening, thought, or felt is “this”. EVERYTHING is what the
seeker searches for. You can stop looking. THIS IS IT!

YET HUMANITY CONTINUES to search and strive - desperately working for peace, or
inciting hatred. Despite the apparently widely varying motivations and
personalities, we are all the same. Strip away the belief systems of the mind,
look in the mirror and know absolutely that the person seen is just the same as
what the Taliban member sees who wakes up in the morning, looks into his bit of
mirrored glass and reaches for his turban. That sense of self, of I Exist, of I
Am, that seems so singular and special and ours - that consciousness is
shared. And simply that, is what these words point to. It is tempting put a lot
of importance on the thoughts, the story of existence; the people who write
about oneness, Advaita, consciousness, awareness, or whatever we're calling it,
go to great lengths to try and devalue the mind and the thoughts, and the
personality they weave, the personality so often mistaken for that shared
consciousness.

THE STORY OF dispelling the identity, of discrediting it, is evidently
the most important of all. "Why are you unhappy? Because 99.9% of everything
you think, and everything you do, is for yourself, and there isn't one,"
says Wei Wu Wei. There is a great urge to end the suffering that the misguided
attribution of the story equaling the Self apparently causes. There is a lot
of energy devoted to insisting that the sense of separation - the effect of
this misattribution - is incorrect, and not the clear seeing of absolute reality.
Or, the self and its personality are celebrated, and the oneness of shared
consciousness is rejected as too dry and arid; the story of life is treasured,
and the tasks presented by life are deeply valued. If we all see clearly our
shared consciousness, say some, then we'll be a world healed, working together
for a common, loving goal; we will be love in action. Or, say others, if we
lose our value of the separate life, we will be passionless, and be unmoved by
the plight of mankind, and unmotivated to work for peace, healing and harmony.
Or perhaps, say the haters of dispassion, if we lose our personalities and
passions, the world will be a dull, saccharine place, full of do-gooders with
no hopeless cases to take under their wing, all happy-clappy, touchy-muchy and
healy-feely. Bleagh, they say. Where is the wholeness, the interest, the
variety, in that?

"Relish" by Suzanne Foxton

DISPASSIONATE OR DYNAMIC, consciousness shared or consciousness split, all that is and all
that thought labels it - everything is oneness. Absolutely everything is; there
are no mistakes. The most horrific errors, a split-second of poor reflex or a
well-considered, but misjudged, decision, even these are not mistakes. The
child that runs into the road, hit; the sober drunk that picks up drink and
drugs again after many years of abstinence; the inappropriate career chosen,
the person married in convenience or pressure rather than love; any of the long
list of things we could change, if only we could go back in time; even these
are not mistakes. Even the most painful, life-thwarting feelings and urges are
not mistakes. Everything unfolds both to no purpose, and to grand purpose, in
the context of the story of a life. Life is everything; bliss and despair, pain
and great, soaring pleasure. And all of it is bearable. There is suffering, and
the end of suffering is so often sought, both by seekers of enlightenment, and
most human beings, convinced that the pain is theirs and theirs alone, that
pain defines them, that pain is useless, that pain is to be avoided or
dispelled. But pain and suffering - some say that suffering is pain +
resistance to pain - in the unfolding story, is often very useful. And even if
it's not, and all of it is meaningless, and it is seen that whatever seems to
be happening is just as it should be - there is nothing wrong with suffering.

PERHAPS, in the context of a story, structured by systems of belief, organised
by the restless mind into some kind of sense, suffering that lingers is not so
useful. But suffering, in any story, usually changes; wait around long enough,
and everything changes. No matter how involving and intense the story of your
life seems to be, that story - those feelings - those events, those others whom
you struggle to interact with - they are not your sum total. You are all of it,
and none of it; life is its own beneficiary; great pain and delicious pleasure
are the same thing. No matter what seems to be happening, even if it seems to
be happening to you and you alone, is just what must happen. Your life, with
all its resistance, all the wrong thinking, all those errors you wish had never
happened, is perfect, blessed and whole. There is nothing wrong with you. There
is nothing wrong. Ever.

EVERY CONCEPT IS A PRISON, even the concept “there is nothing wrong – ever”. Yet every concept exists in complete freedom.
There is nothing you can do, nothing to be done, except what is. Whatever your
next move is, whatever the current plan, each apparent action, each apparent
feeling, no matter how to the point or not, is what is. If thoughts arise, reinforcing themselves, in
the form of strong urges to investigate and practice traditional Advaita or any other practices that will strip
away the ego, those are the urges that arise. There is no goal; the goal is
always met, in whatever it is that appears. There is no struggle, although
there is often the appearance of one, and this apparent struggle is beautiful,
for it is what is.

THE HUMAN CONDITION of being self-aware is not a problem; it
is what is. The minor conflicts of seekers and critics
and teachers of enlightenment on the Internet isn't a cause for deep
introspection or casual dismissal, although either of these might come up. The
epic conflicts of people apparently faced with their imminent destruction, or the destruction
of their sacred ideas, or the destruction of races and nations, are not the
proving grounds of humanity. Humanity needs no proving ground; humanity has not
lost its way, or if it seems to have, the story has simply shifted to an
archetypal apocalyptic tale. There is nothing wrong with humanity; there is
nothing wrong with "you", however many thoughts come up that say
there is something terribly wrong, and those things are this, this, and especially
“this”. Everything is just exactly as it must be, no matter what is looks like,
smells like, feels like, sounds like, or how it seems to be judged. Whatever
your character does, that is perfect. Whatever you do, it is what must be. And
in the story that seems to unfold, immediate presence is usually not expressed
in destruction - although there must be destruction and creation both, in
duality. This is paradise. There is nothing else.

SO EVERYTHING, absolutely everything in the appearance is already the immaculate
expression of being. This includes everything, with no exceptions. It includes
all the billions of incongruities and irresolvable
dilemmas that crop up when one story seems to intersect another, and there are
so, so many stories. It includes scientific outrage at the concept of oneness,
and the disparagement heaped upon various Advaita
disciplines (or lack of discipline) by various other Advaita practices. It seems a chaotic bundle,
a confusing dichotomy, or a plate full of impossible choices; but whatever it
is that seems to be arising, whatever this is, is perfectly and exquisitely
whole. There is nothing tobe done, it is done. Perhaps there are still a lot of questions that come up,
and the questions can be asked until it is realised that there are no
questions, for there are no answers; there is no problem; whatever seems to be
is what is, and it is just as it must be.

THERE ARE SO MANY apparent
individuals who cling to the desire to make the story just right, and there is
nothing wrong with that; but in fact, despite the appearance of so many of
them, there are no stories. Stories need time to unfold, and there is no time.
In fact, there is nothing at all, despite the appearance of vastness in the
cosmos, and vastness in the minute workings of matter at the tiniest level.
Nothing is happening, despite the appearance of great workings and doings and
contrivance; there is nothing at all but the light that makes the appearance
possible. It is the deepest reality, the absolute source, consciousness,
oneness, whatever you wish to label it. It is the biggest thing in any apparent
room, or field, or space station gazing down on the Earth. It is the only
thing. There is no need to detach, or self-inquire, or be the stillness, or
know yourself completely, although these apparent actions can arise. Your ego
can't kill your ego. Trying to kill yourself, stripping one apparent layer back
at a time, until there is nothing left, certainly seems the right way to go
about seeing the absolute, but it is here already. Whatever it is that seems to
need to be done will be done. It seems to unfold, flawlessly despite the flaws,
unblemished despite the warts. There is no one who needs help in this
perfection, but giving up might be helpful.

YOUR MIND CAN perhaps just accept enlightenment, or however you want to put it and
describe it, on a conceptual level, which is after all the mind’s only level.
It can say, “OK. I am the awareness that everything arises in. All this really
solid-seeming appearance, I understand that it’s illusory, just so much energy,
just so many electrical mind-interpretations, from a mind in a brain that is
comprised of atoms that contain nothing. I fully understand that this is all
meaningless, and that it’s just nothing, wanting to be something; life wanting
to be. I completely accept that this is my true nature, that what I truly am is
not knowable, and the day-to-day life I seem to lead is not lead by me, nor
does it exist in time, and that feeling of being me is actually a big ME,
common to everything and everyone, with different apparent content. All that
stuff I’ve read and discussed, I know this to be true, true in an absolute
sense, even if I can’t get around the need to understand what is ineffable.”

AND THEN, just move on. Live your life with all your apparent tools. Stop
identifying with being a seeker, because you know there’s no such thing…you are
awareness, and you accept that. In the story of your life that the mind will
always facilitate for you, the “ah ha” moment, which you know is probably not
anything different from what you already experience, will likely come…and if it
doesn’t, it doesn’t matter, because you’re living your life in the best way you
can, free from any notions that it will all be “better” “after” enlightenment
because your poor, belaboured mind now accepts that everything you need – all
of eternity and infinity – is already always the case.

IF THE ILLUSION of reality is recognised and the desire for enlightenment
abandoned, this striving, straining, project-building, happiness-confirming,
comfort-saving unfolding of the human story can, at last, be fully stepped into
and lived. The ego may arise, but its validation is no longer the tale being
told. So roll up your sleeves and dig into it - with the ego, or egoless, whatever it seems like – and even if
it seems black and full of despair, it's a miracle there is anything to do or
feel or think or be at all. Relish it
all.

First off, if you are viewing this site
through a mobile browser, let me share that there is a lot here that you
may be missing. We've added several of what I call Guest Writer
pages. These writers include Greg Goode, who's been with us quite a while, and who has recently been joined by Nathan Gill, James Waite,
and Vicki Woodyard over the past few weeks.

Now, just this week, my dear friend and mentor, Scott Kiloby joins us in a big way. We'll be
hosting Scott's book, Reflections of the One Life: Daily Pointers to
Enlightenment, on its own page. Every Sunday I'll put up seven new
reflections for the coming week. It's a real coup for Awakening
Clarity, and a real gift from Scott to our readers.

You can reach the new pages via your mobile, but you'll need to click for the Full Version of the
site, and then play with the sizing until you can click on the
individual pages and go from there. It's worth your trouble, I assure you. I do hope you'll join me in welcoming all of these
writers, who are sharing everything you see here--which is a
lot--strictly out of their love for this teaching. I bow in gratitude to all of them.

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"WHILE READING THIS BOOK I had my first glimpse of "It"! I finally have experienced it for myself. That experience has given me a new level of peace and gratitude."

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"THIS IS A WONDERFUL BOOK. Fred Davis is steeped in the knowledge of nonduality, and this text is marvelously written for those in or out of Twelve Step programs. Clear, intelligent, well written and lots of fun to read!"

"BRAVO TO FRED FOR WRITING WITH SUCH CLARITY. I hope 12 steppers reading this review really get the delicious paradox of that and find themselves picking up this book. Addiction tends to keep us seeking, even if we are seeking recovery. Fred's book has the ability to really bring the timeless wisdom that freedom is in the here and now into the 12 step movement. Great book. I loved it."~SCOTT KILOBY,author, Natural Rest for Addiction: A Revolutionary Way to Recover through Presence."IF THE TRUE MEASURE OF A BOOK is to be found in the perfume that remains behind when all the words have been forgotten then, for Beyond Recovery, it is this quality of honesty, openness and surrender which communicates itself in the words and between them, administering not just to the mind but to the background of Awareness."~RUPERT SPIRAauthor, Presence: The Art of Peace and Happiness"THIS BOOK BY FRED DAVIS extends the culture of [Twelve Step Recovery] and contributes to the current shift in Western civilization, which is one from attending to religion, philosophy, art, history, music, and science as pointers to our true nature, to true nature itself. In other words, it is a shift toward attending to attention, or to the one attending, rather than to the creative outcomes of that kind of attention."~JERRY KATZ, editor, One: Essential Writings on Nonduality

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