“Happyness?”

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This past few days I’ve been worried about myself. I’m getting so cofused of what’s happening in my life. One big question on my head “AM I HAPPY?”. I can’t even answer this question. I keep on analyzing myself. What the heck makes me feel like this? Whenever I’m with someone it’s like loneliness is hiding inside me. I believe they can see that I am happy, though I know inside that there’s something missing. I can’t really say that I am happy or lonely. There’s a part of me that shows I am happy, but whenever I am alone, I almost bump my head on the wall. I kept on asking “AM I HAPPY”.

I remember my friend told me before: “Life is not about being happy, it’s about being contented.” I dunno if I should believe this. But I think there’s something sad and strange about this statement. As I go on my daily life something new came in; the thought that “the goal is happiness”. Life should be happy (I think). At first it was very positive on my end. It’s as if happiness is just around the corner and is just waiting to be picked up. Later on it became something to do, I just have to think happy, do happy things, in short be happy.

With this kind of attitude, there is no doubt, I have taken my life with more responsibility in what kind of day I should have; should I be happy or not. Yes, Life has improved a lot for me. But I still wouldn’t call it happy. At the same time, I wouldn’t call it unhappy either. Am I content with my life? Am I proud of what I have achived? Do I have goals to reach, places to go? With all this, can I say that I am fulfilled? All this will still lead to one question; “AM I HAPPY?”. I just hope that being happy is as easy as it is described on this qoutation:

“Finding happiness is like finding yourself. You don’t find happiness, you make happiness. You choose happiness.– by Helen Keller”

More and more I think of this HAPPINESS thing, more and more confusing it is. So I tend to live a life which is sometimes happy and the rest of the time is just fine. I sometimes think that there has to be moments of shutting the door on those noisy questions, or else there will be just more and more and more confusing questions.

I decided to post this just to ask you people one thing.

“WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY”

By answering this, I might get the idea on where to start searching for true happiness. Thanks.

simple lang ang sagot jan…find out the things that you are happy with, be true to yourself pare… You will find happyness… Watch the Pursuit if Happyness and you’ll find out the value of your life and of others! Cheer up man! Life’s too short to be so damn bored..!

it’s trivial, but it distracts me from things that depress me. I guess if you’re unhappy, or if you haven’t found what makes you happy, you just need to find some distractions. At least you won’t be sad, right?