Omg! Thank you! Just took advantage of the $65 sale on the Kindle HD8 and I've been having a lot of fun fooling around with Kodi and SPMC. Its ALL new to me! Hoping to get a fire stick up and working for my parents bc $200 for cable every month is absolutely outrageous! Thanks so much for the simple tutorial! This is awesome! It's up and working beautifully!

Wow, this is just so amazing...it reminds me of how magical it seemed to me the first time I listened to the short wave radio my parents gave me for my 13th birthday back in the early 90s. How the times and technology have changed! Just amazing to get this window to the world!

If you don't mind me asking, since I am new to this, how long can I expect this to work? I see that there are monthly threads as far as what setup to use on Kodi. Do the settings need to be updated pretty often?

Oh no, dear I am so so sorry. There are not many of us out there and so it’s hard to find people who understand, one of the first things I did was come on reddit to try and find people who had been through it too. So know that you are not alone.
I am so, so sorry. If you prefer to write privately you can PM me any time and I will get back as soon as I can. Do you have any siblings or is it only you? If you have siblings I hope you can support one another. And if you don’t (like myself) I hope you have other family and close friends to support you. Now is not the time to put on a brave face. There is so much I want to say to you and yet I know none of it is going to turn back time and bring your parents back. How long ago did this happen? Are you (relatively) ok? I’m sending big hugs to you and will be thinking of you.
As for myself I am seeing a therapist and hopefully very soon beginning EMDR. I’ve seen many times here and also on the Facebook support groups that EMDR not only changes people’s outlook but it saves their lives. I desperately need help with my outlook as my mom had been unable to walk due to MS for most of my life, since I was 15 (37 now). So I always felt responsible for her and also my father. And in many ways our roles were reversed at times with me mothering her. So it hurts in so many ways and I can find so many ways to blame myself. However the truth of it is that she had made up her mind and so did my father. It was their decision and when people have made up their minds like that and have the support of their partner as well, there is probably little chance of changing their minds. People keep telling me they would have done it sooner or later and it didn’t matter what I did or said, it could not have been prevented.
Also my parents were so close, I could never imagine one living without the other.

As someone pointed out to me the week it happened, there are some fates worse than death. I think on that often and it gives me a little peace.

I assume your parents must have been very close to make the same decision.

Idk what to say, I wish I did. But I’m here if you need to get things off your chest or ask me questions about my experience or whatever it is I can offer you. Be kind to yourself. Feel how you feel and talk to your loved ones. Allow people to help you. Look into therapy. Be easy on yourself. Do whatever you need to do to get through each day, each hour, each minute. I’m only about 2.5 months out from when my parents left and although every day I want to cry, and every single night I dream about them, the shock of it at least has worn off. I don’t obsess quite as much. I am on antidepressants and don’t know how I’d handle things without them.

I am sorry for rambling, I’m going to go for now but please reach out any time. I’m here.

I can sense the pain that is so deeply embedded with guilt and love, it is an absolute painstaking feeling that you are feeling with now. It truly is terrible.

However from what i can see as a third person, you have already done your fair share, you have truly devoted your life and your love towards your parents and tried with all your heart to keep your life together as well. It is an almost and impossible feat to juggle both and yet you seemed to have managed to some extent, it may not have been perfect but you managed it. For that i tip my hat towards you and give you a bravo, you truly have done well. Do not for a second blame yourself which is easier said than done, the best course of action from here is to sit with your feelings and figure them out. Give yourself some alone time and figure everything out, what you're going to make of this, don't let any external influences do your thinking for you, I'm sure a strong person like yourself will find the right answer.

Thank you so much for sharing and once again, I am truly sorry for your loss.

Much love from a person who has also experienced the suicide of a loved one.

I didn't get to respond before because I was crying. But I just reread this and wanted to thank you for writing what you did. Your words brought me comfort then when I first read them and again, now. Thank you.

I used to love it when kids said that. That would put an even bigger target on their back. Like they leave the house and their parents say "remember, don't get in a stranger's car, and DON'T GET WET!" I'd always ask them if it started raining would they get grounded by their parents. And while they answered I'd spray them with my squirt gun.

I'm confused, why would their parents say don't get wet? Like where did you live or what was happening that people were getting wet all the time and that was an issue? I feel like a dumbass but I just can't figure this out...

I'm so sorry you almost lost your marriage because of your mother. A mother who isn't so selfish would never allow things to get to that point. She knew what she was doing and she thought if you and husbands marriage fell apart that you and she and the kids would get his nice big house to yourselves. When she found out that wasn't going to happen that ruined her plans. Sick and sad. You and DH need to cling to one another like never before and become a united front against this woman's insanity. You may have to get other family involved with this whole thing with her niece, but I'm not sure the best way to go about it. I wish you luck and I'm so glad to see you and DH aren't splitting. Best of luck to you.

I haven't read the comments to see if it's been mentioned yet but research and find the nearest women's shelter, call them, and make some time to go there and see what services they can offer you. He said can help you find a lawyer and an advocate, they will have counseling available and maybe group sessions with other women in your shoes. They may be able to find a job for you, or sign you up for benefits if you need them.
Document every bit of his abusive shit in case you need it in the future. I hope you will please please look for the nearest women's shelters er, goo see them, and you will be ahgyble to believe you can leave this guy and never need to look back. Hugs to yupeWmm

I saw this on Facebook today, I am in love with the colors and texture! I am sure it's out of my price range but I can dream! Nice work, it's beautiful and I'm sure you'll have no problem selling some.

Honestly, with the amount of analysis every fan has given every detail of the story, someone's bound to have hit on something that was going to happen, like the bombing of the Sept. It's like that old saying: chain a thousand monkeys to typewriters and eventually fucking confirmed

Oh my god I have never in my life said or typed the words justice boner but this is exactly what I was going to comment after reading this! Then I scroll down to the comments and here you already said it for all of us!

This is what my husband and I were saying, we both thought that scene at the end was him sinking down because of the weight of his armor and golden hand. I was super upset and teary eyed about it! And I'm confused as to how your comment here is the first I've seen mentioning that it didn't seem likely that he lived.

Yes!!! I found his channel just a few weeks ago and honestly it's the first channel I ever binge watched. Such a variety of entertainment. His voice is so calming to me too, just hearing him describe what's going on, or talking about the history of whatever place he's exploring. The meat factory in Baltimore is absolutely the scariest and creepiest place I've ever seen in my life. The room full of mattresses?? Wtf!! I love when he gets scared like when he went exploring an old hotel in the middle of the night on his own and freaked himself out. Also his editing is great. Just all around an awesome channel and seems like an awesome guy. I am such a fangirl over here! Definitely check out his channel if you enjoy exploration videos. His commentary is so calming and he stays behind the camera for the most part, he's not trying to be all in your face and famous like most of the other urban explorers on youtube.

At Ross if you check the one-size-fits-all section of both the dresses and then nightwear they have these beautiful caftans that are like, floor length. I want to believe it's just genuinely hard for her to put on and take off underwear if she's had hip surgery...I'm probably wrong but I WANT to believe. The caftans are like between $8-$10, maybe youcould gift her a few and see how she likes them. I bet she would love them. They are actually really beautiful and nice to wear in the house but are even presentable out and about. I know this is an old post but I wanted to share anyway. My mom is bedbound and got tired of nightgowns that look like nightgowns, so I've bought her a ton of these and she always gets SO many compliments on them. Some are even so pretty I've gotten a few for myself to wear around the house and they are the most comfortable clothing I've ever worn in my life!

Here is a video through the whole house,you'll probably all enjoy this place! Watch for the awesome collection of original 70's and 80's board games, the large Gremlin toy, Barbies and the record collection!!!

Thanks for the recommendation! I purchased it and I'll give it a shot tomorrow. On first pass, I like their exploration side since it's really easy to add new things quickly, no second guessing if I want to give it a shot.

One thing I like about Pocket Casts is how you can make custom lists of podcasts. Like I am subscribed to a few hundred different ones, so I have a storytelling list, comedy, science, etc. and then set each list to download automatically or not. Just make sure you fool around in the settings and check out this feature bc it's super useful for narrowing things down.

Just a few days! Only just found his channel this week. I love his abandoned explorations, I feel like o am right along for the adventure. I love his narration and how he's not in your face the whole time like some other youtubers. And I love the music for the dead malls. Brand new fangirl over here!

it's common for the buttons or the bearing ring to get loose during shipping from vibrations and violent handling. 99% of these issues are solved by removing your buttons, bearing rings, and the bearing. Reinserting the bearing (push it in with your fingertips to make sure it's flat and locked inside the groove and putting it all back together.

Try that out -- if not, send an email with video of the noise

Please really try the above, some people will say they tried it and then we get the product back for exchange and they really didn't :p

I got my zentri today and it's so beautiful (I got the rainbow!) and also the king button. However I'm only getting a 40 second table spin...when it first came I took it apart and cleaned the bearing like I've read to. Maybe I didn't let it soak long enough? Maybe I shouldn't have done that? When I take the top of the button off along with unscrewing the cap to the beating and then spin it, it looks like the bearing is a little off center? Idk! I heard about these 5 minute spins and I'm kinda bummed out. Also I already did everything you mentioned in this post. Any other suggestions? Sorry to be a bother but I love this little thing and want to enjoy this amazing long spin I keep reading about!

It's gone down to 25 seconds :(

I've also read some places to soak the whole spinner to clean it but I'm worried it might harm the rainbow color?

Yep, my xDH used to say "maybe we should get divorced" when we would fight and I'd always get mad, tell him he was being an asshole, and go to another part of the house to calm down. Until the day I decided to actually think about his suggestion, after another fight, and 2 weeks later I told him I wanted a divorce and we separated 6 weeks after that (he wouldn't move out). I dunno if he wanted one or not but he was a huge ass about it, made it as difficult as possible and would admit no culpability. It was his fucking idea! I just followed through on it. It seemed like he just wanted to use it to emotionally abuse me with no repercussions.

OP could bring it up as an example, like telling DH that MIL threatening to call CPS is like if OP or DH threatened the other with divorce, it's extremely serious. But to actually threaten it, unless she really truly means it and will follow through, is going to seriously damage her relationship.

Ohhhh this is so so familiar to me. Ugh. Separated now and just waiting to file. So anxious to get in with it. It the lawyer said the longer we can just be separated while the baby is with me during the week as a status quo, the better. It's absolute hell. He keeps pushing for more and more time with our daughter and today demanded that he gets her for EVERY SINGLE holiday. Of course I called my lawyer. And yes he is the one who would mention divorce and try to convince me things weren't working.

"Although we can’t always choose what emotions to feel or when to feel them, by building emotional awareness, it may be possible to choose how we respond to what we’re feeling."
You may be interested in the Atlas of Emotions that Paul and Eve Ekman put together for the Dalai Lama. The quote above is from the "About" page of the Atlas of Emotions site. Paul Ekman also consulted with Pixar on the movie Inside Out.

Oh wow I loved this! When I was in college as a design student I had come across the image OP posted or maybe a very similar one. I became slightly obsessed about it and wanted to make a project for my design thesis that quantified the emotions. Obviously that was way out of my scope and I changed my project but not before spending a LOT of time thinking about how to visually represent the emotions on the chart. This site was awesome! I think hey did a great job with the shapes, colors, and scale. Fascinating!