Just had a wonderful night w a wonderful person. I had to leave early cause my stomachs hurt so bad. I got home and automatically took my nausea medication but the pain and nausea was to intense. I scrambled around downstairs and brought myself 4 bottles of water preparing myself...

I never want to talk about my inner problems because i don't think i should burden anyone with them. So i just wear a smile everytime i see everyone to pretend like everything is fine. Talking about what really troubles me takes a long time but wearing a smile is a lot easier...

I hide the pain that I feel by smiling . The pain of my past , present and this is all physical and emotional and just being too hard on my self. I smile so no one thinks that there is something wrong, and so we can all go on pretending that everything is okay. However sometimes...

For some odd reason i always hide my pain by smiling, fisicall or emotional . Its like im afraid of something but don't know what mabey its the fact that im actully weak so i act strong. if im sad upset or sick i still smile like no tomorow . I have always semm like the stong...

"Say cheese"
No one sees you past that. Just look happy, just look pretty. No one really cares. You can be dieing for all they care. And that whats happening. I am dieing slowly but surly. I dont care that they dont care but I would like someone to see behind my smile. I could...

Probably NO ONE knows I'm so anxious and depressed. Sure, you sometimes nag to your friends about a few things that bother you, but they never take you seriously. They'll never know what's really going on in your head . They really don't know how much self-hatred I deal with and...

And it was really embarrassing some people hated me for it. Evenually i learned to (for some reAson) not only not cry in front of others but to pretend that everything that happened to me , every insult every mean nickname anything that would make anyone else upset I pretend it...

school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my mind I was thinking "you know what, I'm gonna try to talk to her, I need to man up, I need to know how to talk to a girl and here's my first...

When the kids make fun of you, learn to laugh with them. That's what I was told over and over again. I retreated into myself more and more, leaving all the hurt behind a wavering smile with tears wanting to escape from my eyes. All though school it never stopped...

behind the mask that covers my inside.
A smile, a laugh, an I'm okay. Keeps them from seeing the pain I hide away.
But sometimes a mask is too small. It starts to slip, it starts to fall.
And then they start to see. The darkness inside of me.
They frown, they turn, they say...

For some odd reason i always hide my pain by smiling, fisicall or emotional . Its like im afraid of something but don't know what mabey its the fact that im actully weak so i act strong. if im sad upset or sick i still smile like no tomorow . I have always semm like the stong...

I smile infront of my relatives and my family just to pretend everything is ok which is not reality. My soul is dead inside. But I didn't finish my ***** body because I need this body to pretend everything is all right......sigh.........

The other day I was very suicidal. But my friend came over despite my complaints that I was "sick". She convinced me to take a walk with her, so I did. While we were walking and making conversation she missunderstood something I said with "I just want to die" She looked at me...

I wear a mask, a mask that covers the truth about my past and people. A smile that laughs at every joke aimed at me to show I don't care, A smile that smiles at everyone to show I don't care Any more.
I fight back tears and try to keep that glint in my eye, I don't want people...

A shattered vase in the midst of rose petals.
What do I do? I’m screaming in a room filled with people but no one even flinches to look at me. Can you hear my battle cry?
Can you hear the beginning of the fight; the drums drumming, the war cry of my people, the passion fueled...

and scared and depressed . It's been 6 months and ever since I tested for HIV (it was negative) but that has me so paranoid now. I'm constantly worried and living as if something is wrong. My bf broke up with me and my mom has breast cancer, I'm tired from working and then I...

"Smile and the world smiles with you ,cry and you cry alone" .I very much believe this so I smile alot".A smile is a thousand words ".I hide my pain behind that smile as I dont want sympathy .A simple smile not only makes someone elses day If I get a smile back or even a good...

At times when I am aching the most in the inside and I see other people wether it be family, friends or strangers I don't want them to see my feelings.. meaning I don't want them to see how much pain I am in so I do I hide behind a smile. and then just go somewhere where I can be...

well sure i have always smiled to hide the pain away, its like a reflex. every time something bad happens, BAMa smile. But another thing is i want to help my friends, i don't want to think about my life, my problems, my fears.when i help others i stop thinking about my life which...

I cover it by being a goof and a smart@ss. I feel as if i annoy people by being silly and weird, but i'm only that way because i'm lonely. But i know that if i tell people that i'm sad, or act sad, i'll just annoy people even more. People don't like problems like that. I'll...

but when I start to really feel pain is never I don't show pain unless it's like a head ack or something pain doe go away really fast I do have. A rep in 8th grade I am the heavy weight I don't back to people pain is gone in about 2 min but it the se place is hi multiple times...

everyone can see all the pain that is behind my eyes.... All they see is a person smiling back at them.... Nobody knows how i feel... All the pain i stifle down within me its unbearable to comprehend by others.... People don't understand how much they can hurt people by what...

for support so I made my "last post" a few weeks ago! Man I was wrong! Where do I start! The sadness is always here, I'm always paranoid, I won't let myself trust anyone! I finally got a girlfriend and I'm struggling with getting the motivation to even try to make a relationship...

.....It hurts so bad to smile when on the inside I am breaking and shattering like a china dish. I wish there was some one in my life who really understood how I feel. People will tell you they do understand but sometimes I wonder if they actually do. Especially when in the same...

They only see what I allow them to see, nobody truly knows the real me. I'm a sad human being just trying to break free and erase the scars you left on my heart! It's just to hard fighting alone, sometimes I want to die.. I'm slowly giving up inside 💔
Ps: I wrote the poem in...

that is always going out of her way for other people and loves to make someone smile or laugh. I am also the girl who self harms, and cries herself to sleep. I am the person you would least likely expect to cut themselves or cry themselves to sleep, but the happiest ones are...

such a happy person...that I have it all together
They say I look innocent and sweet. Strong But I'm not smh
My smile is my mask and I put it on everyday of my life to hide all the hurt;all the pain I feel inside