Oh Lord, would you move in the meantime.

March 3, 2009

I remember when I was about 6 months pregnant, when Laura Kate really started to MOVE in my tummy. I was really starting to feel defined movements. Sometimes they would be so defined that Kyle, or anyone else closely watching my growing belly, could actually see my tummy move! Sometimes, she would move so much or so hard that it hurt. Most of the time I would just WAIT to feel her move. Whether I was distracted by other things, not paying attention or she just decided not to move at that time, I didn't always feel her move when I wanted her to (or I thought needed to at the time). Sometimes I would worry about her not moving enough. The doctor said she was developing great. I had a peace about her birth and her life, but in the meantime, I would still worry when I couldn't feel her. I would sit on my couch, close my eyes, put my hands on my belly, and try to be so still just to feel her move...just one kick , just one turn of her head, just one movement of her hand.

In less than two weeks, I leave for my first NEXT campaign to Xalapa, Mexico and leave Laura Kate for the longest we will have ever been apart. Our support account is struggling right now and we feel exhausted in every way possible: spiritually, physically, emotionally, finacially, and mentally. The Lord is stretching us beyond what we think our limits are and more than we think we can take. But make no mistake friends, HE IS MOVING! He IS moving. Sometimes I have to sit very still, close my eyes, open my heart and wait just to feel one kick, one turn of His head or one movement of His hand. You see, like an expectant mother, we as Christians should EXPECT Him to move. Sometimes His movements are so defined that other people can see Him moving in my life. Sometimes they are so hard and so strong that they hurt. And then, on days like today, during times such as these, I worry when I can't feel him move. I have a peace about my life, I know that God will provide, but in the meantime, I still worry when I can't feel him move. Whether I'm distracted or not paying enough attention, I don't always feel Him move when I want Him to (yes, I do realize how ridiculous that sounds, but it is honest) I find myself frequently sitting in my chair, closing my eyes, opening my heart, and trying to be so still just to feel one kick, one turn of His head, or one movement of His hand.

6 comments

Carrie, I hear you loud and clear! Lately, I've been feeling that there is no movement anywhere, and now is when I really need it! Thank you for that word! Blessings on your trip! The time will fly and you'll be back before you know it.

GREAT POST!!!!!!!!!! Thank you so much for this! You have no idea how much I needed to hear these words. I have been so impatient with the Lord's timing in my life lately and maybe I just need to sit back and "feel Him move" because I'm being so selfish and wrapped up in my own misery in my current situation that I can't see all of the wonderful things He's already doing in my life. You have inspired me! :o)

Beautiful post, friend! Thanks for being honest. I feel Him moving all over the place lately, and from my vantage point, He is moving like crazy in your life! I'm excited to see what He does in the coming weeks.