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Friday, May 29, 2015

Yesterday as we walked into the hospital for an early morning meeting, we heard a very distressed large bird flying and squawking above us. A mother hawk was circling, flapping, calling, around a roof-top tower of metal struts that holds up an antenna. Her nest was built in this tower, but sitting smack in the middle of it was a rather large monkey. Eating her eggs. This was no small song-bird, but she was powerless against the invading primate. So she flew her circles of mourning, protesting, but helpless.

It was a particularly disturbing scene because a half-hour earlier, I had a text from my USAFA son. His summer does not include any vacation. Long-story-short, this kid overslept one 7 am meeting in a week when he was up all night as a mentor to first-year cadets after one of them died in a skiing accident, among other stressful things, and ended up in trouble with his department. He lost his original research opportunity and had to give up his entire summer to work locally, first doing research at an engineering firm in Colorado Springs and then working two sessions of Basic Training for new cadets. He is a hard-working young man and very willing to do all that. He leaves in August for a semester abroad. We return in August for a sabbatical year. A few weeks ago he worked it all out so that our entire family could spend a few days together the first week of August, between the end of Basic Training and the departure date for his semester abroad. This is not official vacation time, but in years past if the semester abroad starts later than the Academy academic calendar, those cadets can take a week of leave. I will confess that a six-way overlap in time and space is a miracle that is happening less and less often, and pretty much the highlight of the year for me.

Only this year, it turns out, a policy changed, and the cadets-going-abroad can't leave. I am not sure why, or what they will do, other than sit in their rooms while others start classes. Perhaps attend briefings. I don't know.

But it felt to me like the monkey had climbed into the nest, and I am circling and crying.

My devotions that morning included Psalm 143: a fainting spirit and a desolate heart, outstretched hands and a gasping soul. But also the declaration: in you I put my trust, deliver me. The second reading was one of my all-time favorites, 2 Chronicles 20. Our eyes are on you.

There is nothing we can do about policies, generals, kings. But our eyes are on God who knows our soul's longing to see our son. I am thankful for our Christmas week. I don't want to be greedy. But a week in August would be a real boost to all of us. Last summer was the same, no expectation of intersection, and an 11th hour surprise pass. Perhaps we have used all our mercy, I sometimes think, but then I remember they are new every morning. Grace has no limit. Can you pray for a loophole, a kind person in power, an authority with heart, that somehow notices and lets C out?

(At this year's graduation, the same day as all of the above, with roommate, photo courtesy of room mate's mom)

Friday, May 22, 2015

Malaria
Jack was feeling a bit exhausted this week, which we thought was understandable as a senior slogging through AP's and rugby practice. Thursday morning he had a headache and was quite tired, but we just kept the ibuprofen and coffee flowing until he could make it through the final exam for his online advanced calculus class (which is on an American school calendar, and ending, unlike RVA which continues through mid-July). That afternoon he actually LEFT RUGBY practice early, which is unheard of, and Scott had the sense to pull out one of the rapid malaria tests we had left over from our Regional Retreat. Sure enough, he was positive for plasmodium falciparum, which is quite serious but treatable. He had taken a month of prophylaxis during and after his time at the coast, but it seems it merely suppressed and did not clear the parasites. One injection and 5 doses of coartem later, the vomiting and high fevers and chills have receded and he is up on his feet again. Today is the major RVA social/sport event of the year, the Blackrock Rugby Tournament. Thanks to all who prayed for him. He's not 100% but he can at least go! This is huge.

Rebels
Friday our team from Mundri, who have all been evacuated for nearly two months, began getting distressed messages from South Sudanese friends still in town. The situation is still unclear, but it seems that rebels loyal to Riek Machar moved into the area and battled national military loyal to the President Salva Kiir, and the rebels now took control of town. The families of the Bishop and Principal we mentioned in our last post have fled deeper into the bush to escape gunfire. Please pray for them, and all the peaceable Moru people who are caught in the crossfire of political power-grabbing. There is one American NGO worker, a woman named Amanda, who is friends with our team and was also caught in the mess. Pray she can get out to her own safety networks.

Awards
Meanwhile at Kijabe, the centennial celebrations continue. At Thursday morning's chapel, five current hospital workers were given Centennial awards: a driver for compassion, a laundry worker for faithfulness, a nurse-in-charge for leadership, an plumber for longstanding ingenuity and service . . . and me for "excellence", which is mostly about our Paeds department and how it has been built up by all of the great paediatricians here over the last five years. I was floored and bumbling in my thanks since I had gone hoping to see Scott get recognized for compassion post-ebola-service, not me. Anyway it was kind of the staff to vote for a nod to our department and to missionary input (the rest of the awards went to Kenyans).

Presidential visit
Friday's celebrations were devoted to the dedication of the new Bethany Kids Children's Center, a 70-bed wing of the hospital for kids, which is about 80% completed but not yet ready to use. President Uhuru Kenyatta landed in a helicopter, and our hospital rolled out the red carpet (literally). He took a tour, and as he passed through the new children's center a dozen or so doctors and nurses stood behind the new nursing station in a line of greeting and respect. He stopped and shook a few hands, including me, so I have now said "good morning" and exchanged "how are you"'s with the President. The tour was followed by a traditional couple-of-hours of speeches, songs, and presentations. Our CEO boldly asked for assistance since we care for so many patients from all over the region. President Kenyatta's speech was articulate, kind, insightful. He went out of his way to honor those who serve, and to treat people with cheer and respect. It was an impressive day. The former missionaries who returned all received nice award trophies from him, including our friends the H's who are staying with us. In all a real capstone day for the hospital, for Mardi and David Shirk's hard work too. Thankful it all went off well.

Thursday, May 21, 2015

For the last 4+ years we have served as the RVA Student Health doctors, which has been a holy privilege and a burden of faith. Just up the hill from our door are about 500 students, from Kindergarten up to Grade 12. Most of them are missionary kids, members of teams all over this continent working to bring life into broken places. Their parents translate and teach and immunize and operate, they build water pipelines and fix machinery, they fly planes and plant fields and write curriculum. Others are children of local Kenyan leaders, or diplomats, or business people, all working to develop and serve. Last time I counted we had about 30 nationalities represented in the school. The largest groups are from North America, South Korea, and Kenya. The fact that these parents can send their children to a safe and excellent school enables them to soldier on in some of the world's hardest places. The fact that these parents DO soldier on means that their children are vulnerable to sickness and discouragement, because nothing disables an effective Kingdom-worker faster than a problem with their children. So this is an aspect of our jobs that we take very seriously.

We love having the connection with our own kids' school and peers. We love having the different spectrum of illnesses to ponder, since most of our Kijabe work deals with infants and malnutrition and disability and surgical complications, seeing acne and anxiety and sports injuries and hypothyroidism keeps our horizons broader. We love interacting with parents like us, who have concerns for their kids. We love promoting health through taking a step back and planning for the annual flu cycle with vaccines, or screening all the kids for appropriate body-mass-index or psycho-social stress manifesting as physical complaints. We love being able to connect body and spirit, to pray with our patients after we talk. And mostly we love working with excellent nurses and nurse practitioners and administrative support. While Kijabe is a great place, it can also be nice to walk up the hill and step into a private-practice atmosphere where things are organized and efficient. We also collaborate closely with the Counseling department, and Physical Therapy. It takes a village!

Soon the Family Medicine and Paeds doctors at Kijabe will be asked to take this job over from us. We will miss it. When you think about RVA, do pray for the health of the students, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. They are an amazing gift, young people who have the cross-cultural skills and courage to truly change the world.

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Not that I expect to live a hundred years, but if I do, I want to be like Dr. Bill Barnette. He's only two years younger than Kijabe. And every once and a while as he talks, telling stories in deadpan detail, his mischievous character shines through.

Two stories from today.

Shortly after the first lab was established by the no-nonsense Justy, Dr. Bill decided to play a prank. He had been given a bottle of wine ("I didn't know what to do with it!," the good AIM-doc comment). He sent some in a specimen container to the lab and ordered a slew of tests as if it was a body fluid. A few hours later, he went into the lab and found Justy and her assistant a bit flummoxed. Oh, he said, there's one test you didn't do. The taste test! Then he opened the specimen container and took a swig, to the horrified faces of Justy and her colleague. Later she got him back by marching into his exam room and presenting him with a long bill of charges for all the tests she had run.

An old photo taken in an operating theatre with meticulously tiled walls in the background led down a path of remembering how he did the tiling, and how the floors had to have strips of copper beneath the tiles to conduct electricity away in case of a spark from the electric cautery . . . because the anesthetic of the time, ether, was basically a potential bomb. Which then led to the memory of a displaced missionary from Congo after the Simba rebellion, Fernando, who helped with that tiling and was a whiz with administration and building, but was not not a medical person. So one day Dr. Bill had a patient with a serious leg fracture. He also happened to have a prosthetic leg laying around, which he tucked under the sheet with the patient with a fracture. When his friend Fernando came into the theatre hall, he called for help. He explained that to set the fracture properly required some traction, so he needed help from someone strong. Could Fernando pull on the patient's foot while Dr. Bill held his shoulders? Innocently Fernando took hold of the proffered shoe, and pulled hard, landing on his back with a loose leg in the air. He yelled, certain he had just pulled the patient's leg off.

I guess the lesson is that the kind of person who can play practical jokes as the sole doctor in a busy mission hospital is the kind of person who lives 98 years.

The other highlight of today was a lunch in which the AIC Church leadership invited all the honored returning missionaries, along with some equally ancient local Kenyans, and all the current missionaries. The Bishop of the AIC for all of Kenya attended, as well as the deputy Bishop and various secretaries and principles and pastors. These formal events can be tedious with protocol. But this time the intent was truly sweet: these senior Kenyan leaders wanted to formally say thank you. They stood up and acknowledged, we are here because you came, you taught us, you believed in us, and we are grateful. They are now in charge and we are partners who serve their purposes, but they demonstrated great humility in this celebration. At the end there was a cake to cut, and the Bishop was given the honor. However he insisted that Dr. Bill and the others come up, and he and Dr. Bill held the knife together. I am certain that missionaries, those past and present, have frustrated the Kenyans time and time again, caused misunderstanding and heartache and despair. So it was beautiful to see the charity, the forgiveness, the modesty, of this gesture.

Another treat of this event: we snagged a table with the Bransfords. Millie invited me into her home for Bible Study when we were beleagered refugees here almost two decades ago.

We are also hosting our own honored returnees, the H's who worked at Kijabe for a dozen years or more. Mrs. H was given an award for her work on curriculum development in the nursing school, and Dr. H reminded us this morning that the current area where they work which is decidedly non-Christian and dangerous is open to them partly because the Kijabe name is respected and trusted even in hostile enclaves. After our boys played rugby together this evening (in a resounding 64-0 defeat of Kijabe Boys High School, which included a 70-meter run from Jack breaking a number of tackles and dodging around people to score a try . . . and several tries from the H's son and conversions from both boys . . .) we enjoyed dinner together.

So another day of paying our respects to the saints who have labored before us, interspersed with taking care of 4 sick kids in ICU and other patients. Not to mention an unexpected encounter in the hall with 3 visiting doctors from Norway's Christian Medical Association. One saw my name and said "That's my mom's name! We're practically family!". Which is true, in the best Kingdom sense.

And did I mention that our Sudanese partners were in town for a conference, unrelated to all the Kijabe drama? The Reeds hosted a delightful dinner with this Bishop and school Principal. I wish you could have heard them telling stories about their travels, many of which related to the unsurvivable temperatures in places non-South-Sudan (anything less than 80 degrees I suspect). That two men from a place teetering on the brink of economic collapse and war could be so relaxed, graceful, and cheerful was somehow heartening.

So it's been quite a 24 hours. In the way that only Kijabe can be, full of memories and learning, challenging cases and juggling responsibilities. We are in many ways newbies, very small threads in a rich tapestry. Weeks like this can make me wonder if we have spent our last 21-and-a-half years well. I suspect we have a lot less to show for it than we could, and I confess I am finding it necessary to pray for contentment to be a toe in the great body of Christ. Nevertheless, we are enjoying the history and the fellowship. And a few good stories!

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

The Kijabe Hospital Centennial celebration kicked off on
Monday morning with the Centennial choir’s stirring version of Amazing
Grace. An apt summary of a century of
history—this string of buildings clinging to the escarpment, this blustery spot
between the Maasai herders of the Rift Valley and the Kikuyu farmers of the
high forests, this unlikely center of excellence in medical care and education,
this home to dozens of doctors and hundreds of nurses and thousands of patients.

Though we have only been here 4 ½ years, our intermittent
contact with Kijabe extends for over two decades.And over those years, we have been inspired
by the lives of those who have gone ahead.Dr. Dick and Millie Bransford, pioneer surgeon and kind wise woman who
invited us into their Bible study when we were bewildered young missionary
parents.Art and Mary Ellen Davis, whose grandfather
was the original doctor here, and whose son has been our kids’ teacher and coach (the black and white photos are his).The Stovers, who are related to 98-year-old
Dr. Bill Barnette the original medical director, and have always enveloped us
with kindness when we traveled through Eldama Ravine.And over the last two days I’ve met Rosemary
Scott, original matron, as well as Nettie the founder of the School of Nursing
who was instrumental in establishing the Nurse Anesthetist program, and Justy the
woman who set up the lab, the Andersons who worked here decades.The Barnette family is out in force to
celebrate Dr. Bill’s birthday and attend this centennial. So many faithful
people.

Today these saints sat around a table and told stories.Back in the day that a list of admissions was
more likely to include lion bites than diabetes.When an early female doctor, Dr. Virginia,
courageously collected a man taken out into the bush to die alone (as was the
tradition) and defied the widespread rumor that the hospital stole organs but
treating him and sending him back healed.Back when the Gospel meant treating girls as humans and not property,
standing up against female genital mutilation which was the universal practice
in Kenya.Back when opening a girls’
school met with death threats.Back when
the Mau Mau (who had some pretty legitimate grievances against a colonial
government, but were a threat to missionaries all the same) came to attack
Kijabe where school-boys cowered with slingshots waiting for the battle that
never materialized, because the Mau Mau fighters saw shining angelic warriors
and fled.Back in the day when people of
vision built buildings and wrote curriculum and soldiered on to get us where we
are today.

These are the saints. Saints not because they are
perfect.They struggled, with the culture
and each other.But saints because they
risked all, followed into hard places, created, served, loved.

It is an honor to follow in their footsteps, now with a
600-strong Kenyan work force of a new generation of saints.Like our missionary predecessors, our current
colleagues sacrifice and inspire.

Each day of the Centennial week adds to this picture of God’s
grace over a long, long haul, taking a small clinic and building it into a
regional center of excellence where vulnerable people receive life-giving care.

Friday, May 15, 2015

Two days ago, a general in Burundi’s military announced a
coup d’état while President Nkurunziza attended a regional emergency security
meeting of Heads of State in Tanzania.

This followed a couple weeks of unrest stemming from
disagreement over the legality of the president’s intention to run for a third
term.The Arusha Accords which ended the
civil war, and the country’s constitution, incorporate a two-term limit.However President Nkurunziza and his
supporters insist that since his first term followed a parliamentary rather
than a general election, it should not count, leaving him one more term to
contest for office.It seems that many
citizens in the capital, Bujumbura, perceived the president’s intention to
stand for re-election as a breach of democracy and so daily protest marches
occurred.The police force, under
presidential control, dismantled roadblocks and tear-gassed protestors.The military, a more neutral force, kept the
police in check and allowed protests to continue.About 20 people died over the course of the
protests, which in a country that has known genocide and chaos seemed like a
relatively peaceful outcome.Our team in
Bujumbura found themselves frequently stuck at home, as University classes were
canceled and each day held uncertainty.They would hear gunfire, or see smoke rising from burning tires one
hour, then drive through normal-life peaceful commerce the next.One family moved upcountry to join our rural
team, and one couple stayed put.Crazily
enough, the upcountry drive occurred just as the coup was announced which led
to a couple hours of anxiety as we weren’t sure whether the announcement was
the beginning of a war . . . the countryside is more pro-president while the
city is more pro-protestor.However they
arrived safely.Now we have 21 Sergers
and a few other expat missionary-types bunkered in a small rural town where our
primary clinical teaching occurs, and 2 adults in the capital.The borders closed, the airport closed, and
essentially the country was without a clear government while everyone inhaled
to see what would happen.

Today, the coup has been declared “failed”, as the portion
of the military loyal to the president arrested the other part of the military
loyal to the coup.Rumors are flying
about where the president really is, who controls the airport and radio, what
escape routes might be open.We are
checking mail and news, making phone calls, holding security meetings, as each
hour unfolds.

In between the announcement of the coup and the announcement
of its failure, Burundi and much of the church around the world celebrated a
holiday:Ascension Day.For forty days after Easter, Jesus walked and
talked with his disciples, teaching about the Kingdom.They were waiting, daily, for the kind of political
take-over they could understand.However
on that 40th day, he ascended into clouds, to the throne of the
Father.The Bible readings for Ascension
day remind us that GOD IS ON THE THRONE, that GOD REIGNS OVER THE NATIONS
(Psalm 47 and 93; Daniel 7).

Here we are like the bewildered disciples, staring into the
sky, wondering.Clouds obscure our
vision of glory.Presidents come and go,
protestors celebrate and die, tanks roll down the streets, children play too
close to bullets.We cannot place any
confidence in the power of human government today, but we do know who reigns in
that dimension beyond our sight.

Please pray for the country of Burundi.99.9% of the people want only peace. Peace to
move about the country, to hoe their gardens, to study, to visit friends, to
sell wares, to beat drums (they are quite famous for this).Pray that the fear-mongering 0.1% would be defeated,
that panic would not lead to violence.Pray for justice, pray for calm minds, pray that the Church would have a
voice that reconciles and protects.Pray
for our teams to make wise decisions.Pray for safe travel, if travel becomes an option, for those we would
like to evacuate until the government stabilizes.

Monday, May 11, 2015

The interesting thing about Kijabe, you don't have to make anything up, it all really happens.

This is Mary W, a smiling bundle of 4th grade cuteness. Last year she was paralyzed by a neurological disorder called Guillan Barre Syndrome. We kept her in the ICU for a month on a ventilator, with a tracheostomy. We didn't know how much recovery she would get, and how the experience would affect her. So it is very kind of her mother to come back and visit, to adamantly encourage our current patients, to give them a glimpse of things to come.

And our other patients need it. J, pictured above, is also paralyzed with a tracheostomy, though from a different etiology. She seems to flirt with death at least once or twice a day. Today it was a plug of mucus in her breathing tube that almost did her in.

I walked into the hospital this morning after a weekend off, to find 4 of 5 ICU beds filled with kids. Two with brain tumors. One had a partial surgery which had to be ended due to her clinical condition, but will be completed later in the week. We discussed a long time whether she was ready to come off the ventilator. Some signs were encouraging, but her xray showed a totally collapsed left lung. Hmm. Maybe tomorrow I thought. But as we rounded on the next patient, this girl on morphine and sedation wiggled her hands in the restraints and pulled her own tube out. Nice when patients just make the decisions for you. She managed to breathe, and we pray she'll eventually get all the tumor out. The other child with a tumor had been dwindling for 6 months in Congo (DRC). In March a hospital in Kigali told the mom it looked like a brain tumor. But it took them 2 more months to get the money to come here. Sadly this family was Jehovah's Witnesses: NO BLOOD TRANSFUSIONS. I pulled some good God-makes-exceptions-to-all-rules-to-save-lives stories (David and the showbread, Jesus on the sabbath) to try and convince the mom to allow a transfusion, because the surgeons refused to take him to the operating room for certain death without a potential to transfuse. Meanwhile the little boy kept getting worse. By this afternoon, his deterioration was outpacing our convincing. After 4 rounds of CPR he was not longer even able to open eyes or move, and our tests showed he was brain dead. His mom said this was not the last time she would see her son, they would be together in Heaven. But when his heart finally stopped, she sobbed. I am torn between admiring her faith and feeling very angry that false-theology costs lives.

Brain tumor from Congo? Four complicated surgical patients in ICU? Just a routine day at Kijabe. Emergency page to help the nursery team? Also routine, but by the time I arrived they had decided to stop resuscitating a newborn with many birth defects, premature, and not able to breathe. His misshapen legs and large head made us wonder, did he have kidneys? Was the amniotic fluid low? The midwife remarked that they didn't have time to get a scan, but the fundal height was normal. For a premature? Mom still looked big and uncomfortable ten minutes post partum, when it occurred to me to ask, could this be a twin? Sure enough, Twin two had plenty of fluid, a bulging sac, and I could barely put Twin one off to the side before two was out. So this couple who walked through the door to have a baby, lost one, and gained another. A beautiful hopeful image of redemption.

Surprise twins and tumors and long days of work. I do love Kijabe, and even though I'm emotionally turning towards departure, I'll miss crazy patients like these. And even the craziness of Monday did not quite erase the loveliness of a weekend overnight for our 28th anniversary. I'll close with one of Scott's pictures, that definitely makes us look better than real life. Thankful for walking 28 years through thick and thin and countless Mondays with my best friend.

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Today we acknowledge grace, which is perhaps seen most clearly in acknowledging that most of us had mothers who loved us for no other reason than we were theirs, long before they knew anything about how we would turn out. I am thankful for my mother, who created a home, read to us, protected us, believed in us. Who provided a piano and dolls and pets and books and visits to historic sites and a solid connection to a church community. Who honored our relatives and sang old songs and drove us to Pioneer Girls and watched classic movies and musicals. Who sent us off to summer camp, and took us to swim meets, and the beach. By grace I was blessed with innumerable tastes of the goodness of this world.

I am also thankful for my mother-in-law, who also received me with grace, teaching me to make pie crusts and Norwegian cookies, telling me stories about the Myhre family history and Scott's childhood, always welcoming me as one of the family. She had no say in my inclusion, but she accepted me just the same.

My own foray into motherhood did not feel like grace at first. Loosing three babies in 1991 and 1992 meant that most people would not have wished me a happy Mother's Day until 1993. But in retrospect I cling to grace, to the reality and substance of it. Those griefs slammed me up against the stakes of being in a broken world. One can read about the Fall and how we bring forth children in pain. But until one cries over one baby after another, those anciently poetic words are not imbued with raw pain. And perhaps a tiny sliver of redemption comes as Scott and I led two short worship services this week for friends grieving miscarriage (if you want a liturgy for such, email me). Those heartbreaks cast a shadow of this day of celebrating motherhood, but also remind to be aware of the women around me who long for marriage, or who are married longing for children, or who are conceiving yet losing, or whose children are sick or have died or run away or a thousand other wrinkles in the path we thought would be smooth. So many of these women in my life are true mothers, caring for so many children with even more grace than the rest of us, children they can not call their own.

And those days fill me with a bittersweet awareness of the tenuous gift I have been given, the grace of having four live, growing, healthy amazing human beings in my life who call me mom. Much about their gestations, their births, their childhoods, has been touch-and-go. But there is no investment of energy in the last two-plus decades that has been more worthwhile.

Thursday, May 07, 2015

Once a month, everyone from the entire RVA/Kijabe station squeezes into the local AIC church together, students and townspeople and visitors from Scotland or Marsabit (the other three Sundays RVA has its own church service). This week Pastor Simon preached from the end of the Lord's prayer, with a talk entitled "the path to blessing". When one reads that title in an African church, one wonders. The health-and-wealth gospel has been strongly imported in this country. Just have faith and you'll be healed and driving a Mercedes.

How refreshing and convicting then to hear the path to blessing explained by this faithful Kenyan pastor. Seek first the Kingdom. Live by God's power, and for His glory, not your own.

The second point about power really struck me, because he told us that God blesses people who are NOT self-sufficient, so God puts us in situations that are bigger than we are so we have to depend upon his power. Like Abraham, or Esther. And if I had to think of a current example, my heart went to my Air Force cadet. Because the entire educational philosophy of that place is to keep the cadets pushed, off-balance, over-stretched. They always have more work than they can do, higher expectations than they can manage. The idea is that if they go into combat, things are not do-able or tidy. They have to be able to focus under stress. So rather than generally finishing all his work, or making perfect scores, or organizing his life in a way that is comfortable, he just plunges on forward and does his best. Which can be a brutal way to live, but it can also be a path of blessing.

Case in point: the day before, we had a cryptic text from his older brother. Pray for C, because he's got a long run today. Hmm I wondered, was this the periodic physical fitness tests they always have to pass? I texted my query. No, it's optional (from brother, silence from C). Suspicious, I googled USAFA and race, wondering if he was really recovered enough to do a 5 or 10 K race. Instead I found out there was a military marathon that day. The three events were a normal marathon, a heavy marathon (26.2 miles with full gear including uniform, boots, and a 35 pound pack), or an ultramarathon (50 miles). With a reconstructed knee, I didn't think any of those sounded healthy or even possible, which is why I was the last to know (echoes of Nemo's Dad in my head). He ran the heavy marathon, a grueling endurance event. And finished. Because he wanted to. Because he lives by a power deep within, from the Spirit, which makes him take risks. Risks I would not dream of.

A few days later, I asked if he had a picture of himself running in that gear, for this post. No picture, mom, only this:

I guess he forgot to mention the detail that his first marathon was not only a heavy, but that he came in third.

And as I look around, I see my friends and colleagues running their own heavies. Dealing with grief. Putting in long hours. Listening to too-close riots or gunfire. Agonizing over kids. Counseling and teaching and doctoring and learning languages. Taking risks, doing things that are too big and too hard. A third friend miscarried, and my heart aches. And one of my three Paediatrician partners had a baby on my call night this week, which was a bit like running a heavy marathon. I supported her onto the operating table for her c-section, after all those hours of contractions she was wiped out, the only time I have ever known her to be without a laugh and completely at the end of herself (though I did get a weak smile when I complimented her spiff toenails, utterly incongruous in the midst of agony). Half our Paeds team hovered in the hallway, and together we welcomed a perfect, beautiful girl into the world.

So we keep throwing ourselves onto God's power, biting off more than we can chew, entering situations that are bigger than we are. And we keep seeing God's power at work, which is the path of blessing for us and others.

(A few more examples)

At family clinic, a mom stops me. Here is your baby, Doctor Jennifer, she says happily, showing me a perfectly normal toddler. Don't you remember? I didn't. That's because he was a 1200 gram preemie that she says I intubated to give surfactant. She is beaming with happiness, showing me her healthy kid. I never feel confident intubating preemies, but I guess this is one time God's power came through, it worked, and he's fine!

Scott was on call with me this past week one night, and a young woman came in with an ectopic pregnancy. A fetus stuck in a fallopian tube rather than the womb. Not good; the baby is by definition not viable but the mother can also die. He decided he could do a more difficult procedure that would remove the fetus but also spare the mother's tube, making it easier for her to get pregnant again. It was technically challenging. But it worked.

Right across from our house, a reminder of God's power to bring brilliance out of rainy circumstances.

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paradox:
1. something that combines contradictory features or qualities.
Life in Africa is full of contradictions - the beauty and pain; the abundance and the poverty; the joy and the sorrow.
Our lives, too...dying that we might live; strong in our weakness; sinners yet saints.
2. a "pair of docs"