Julia Buencamino's Last Note Found on Her Tumblr Account Before She Committed Suicide

After Julia Buencamino's controversial artworks , her alleged suicidal note is now circulating the web. It was found in her personal Tumblr account and was written few hours before allegedly committed suicide.Read Her Note Below :

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Image from huliahoops Tumblr

Image from huliahoops Tumblr

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Julia Buencamino was found dead in their residence last July 7, 2015, Tuesday in about 8 in the evening. She was declared dead on arrival in Cardinal Santos Medical City , San Juan. It was believed that she committed suicide.

Now,an utterly shocking News that was discovered still in her social media account.

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i agree blythe, most of the time when i write suicide notes I'm not thinking clearly and is just overwhelmed with emotions. I often romanticize shits and think of suicide as a dramatic thing to do. After writing notes i hide it somewhere not-so-secret so it would be discovered. It's just sad that she never got over it.

Committing suicide will never be a good idea to solve our personal issues. Tho, i respect the letter. But i think she could be more open to her parents. Even if it's not their fault, parents will always think that they are not good enough

What? That letter, or whatever that is, didn't answer any questions to why she committed suicide. Arrrghhh, these teenagers think that their lives are the worst. Think about those people who lost their children, houses, , those people who have nothing,. And this teenager, who I think has a good life, maybe despite some issues, I think she has no right committing suicide when lives of other people are worst.

Agreed. I think she's a really intelligent person but she's really close-minded when it comes to her surroundings. I wish she considered what's happening to the people around her before committing suicide.

At the first place, she explained that the post she made was not an explanation of her death. It was her last goodbye. Although I don't approve of people committing suicide, you have no right to judge her and tell her that her problems aren't nearly as big as other people because people don't deal with problems similarly. It's like telling someone he/she can't be sad because some people have it worse.

So, other people with worse problems has rights to commit suicide? Maybe for you her problem was nothing but we don't know what was running through her mind. Everyone has their own problems and YOU have no right to judge that.

it does not fucking mean if some human out there is living worse than you, your problems mean nothing. do you also mean that if someone out there is richer than me, i can never be fucking happy? fuck you and your terrible ideals.

teenagers think that their lives are the worst, sure, but you clearly do not fucking understand teenagers if that's what you fucking think, you fucking dumb adult that makes nonsense comments on teenagers. just so you know, you clearly do not know how it feels like to be a teenager living today surrounded by ignorant and judgmental and nonsense adults that do not think first before talking, just like you. DO NOT COMPARE ADULTS TO TEENAGERS.

We all have our own crosses to bear and suffer.. it's enough that we're already going through our own problems.. we dont have to make others' problems our own too just because theirs is worse than ours.

You don't even get why she felt that way. Nobody knew her problems more than she did. It may feel like she lost her family, her house, or just like any other problem other people are facing. You can never tell if someone's burden is worse than yours. You can never underestimate depression. It can come from any source. You cannot judge her since you are not her. You never felt what she felt.

Yeah. She has no right to take her own life but please, don't compare her to others. We all have our own problems and you can't tell whether it is big or small. I was a teenager before. I've experienced being a suicidal one and I do not know whether my problem is that seriously big or not. Being a teenager, I went through a lot. Thank goodness my family and friends are there for me, listening to what I say and giving me an advice when I needed to. Of course, you have to help yourself too. :) I tell you, no one has the right to take their own life whether that problem is big or small.

I am a teenager and I feel the shit she's feeling too. I know that yes, compared to the global crisis and whatsoever, her problems, my problems are puny. To individuals like you, we, teenagers, are nothing but ranting self-centered brats. You know what made us this way? You. People who think that we don't matter. You cannot go comparing those problems to our problems. Let me ask you, are any of your problems greater than any global crisis? It's not but it is still a problem, a burden to you, just as our problems are burdens to us. I am not justifying her suicide. I'm just saying that you cannot just criticize teenagers just because they've got problems that are incomparable to hunger, poverty and the like.

discrimination, i see? there is a difference between being forward and being insensitive, and you, sir, are the latter. the kids these days are often awfully misunderstood, and most adults are blinded by their own insecurities to notice how terrifying my generation's mindset is. we aren't alright and we're too afraid and cowardly to speak out so dont make it any harder for us.and, do you know how fucked up it is to treat teenagers like children and tell them that the emotions they're feeling aren't as important as yours, and that their problems arent as real, massive or bad as yours and when they do something stupid you expect them to be adults because they arent kids anymore. open your eyes and dont be fucking self-centered. we honestly really appreciate how hard adults work just so we can have "a better future", and just because we're "just kids" doesnt mean we don't have emotions too. our problems probably arent even real to you but it so fucking is to us.stop this.

So you're saying that just because she's young, she's not suppose to be deep? Just because she's only 15 doesn't mean she's not allowed to have feelings and problems. It's like telling someone that they're not allowed to think just because they're still young. Then if teens act more carelessly or immature because they don't "think more than they should", people complain that their generation is filled with irresponsible kids who don't think about anything except having fun.

first of all RIP Julia..as how i understand her goodbye letter..maybe she's taking things too seriously especially to what future she may had when she say her true identity in the public (not as a girl) ..since her parents known already when she was only 13y.o.. ..It leads her to deeply overthink the things that are not sopposed to be.. she thinks how queerphobic our country is, especially to the celebrities/ known persons like her..we don't know what we will be thinking towards her if she comes out of herself..

..being in teenage stage is somewhat a very crucial stage of our lives... things become more serious from being a childish mindset to being in a mindset that full of struggles, hallucinations, we wants perfections, we think to be mature when it is not needed, we dream our future to be more likely of what we wanted to be or, we become not -open minded to the things that are not supposed to happen, that leads us to frustrations, we self -pity, we wanted things to solve in our own cause we are afraid to share it to our love ones, we are afraid of the judgements from others, the self pride exists until we think solutions like to commit SUICIDE that is NOT THE SOLUTION!!, but instead START to ACCEPT OUR OWN FLAWS and start to FORGIVE OURSELVES of becoming not that perfect... we need to lower our pride, humbling ourselves, so that we will not come up to the point of ENDing our Lives in that way....

If you want them to stop criticizing her.. Stop replying to their comment about their comments to this post. And telling them they have no right. You too have no right to tell them they have no right. If you want them to respect her.. Respect them also. They may have different thoughts about what she did but you can't control what every would think about what she said. May she rest in peace. She/he is confused. Not all of us can under go deep depression, furstration and confusion. People has their own limits. Just think that she/he already can't take it anymore. She/he is where she/he wanted to now. So please.. We are all different people encountering different problems. Stop comparing. You have your own problems. This is not yours. This is julia/lee's family problems. And please.. Whoever posted this. . Please turn this down. Everybody already knows this. Thank you.

To everyone going through the same situation as Julia was, please please please, don't kill yourselves. Things will always get better. Maybe not now but someday it will. It does get better. I got better. Please have patience.

It's important to surround yourself with good and understanding people. Being a teenager is tough, i/we know, we've been through that trying phase too.. but it does get better as you grow older when all the crazy judgmental self-absorbed people eventually just fade into the background. It does get better :)

Been through similar situation. But God opened my heart and mind into a wider spectrum. When I am down and feeling emotional I express it thrpugh artworks and paintings, until such time I get tired and bored. I decided to try communicating to God and talk to Him in my room, I confess everything about all of sadness lurking in me I really cried a lot and I felt an uplifting warmth...as in it seems someone is embracing me...I do this things (praying) everytime I feel dread and distress, really works!...sometimes I read encouraging part/verse from the Holy scripture.. God will be there for us..There's gonna be more to life! Pain is from evil so let's run to wards God like a child and regularly ask for guidance because in Him Life is beautiful!

problem has nothing to do with what you have and what you have not. it is base on how deep it is. sometimes emotional problem is more painful than financial still not a reason to commit such thing, you have family,friend and most of all god to help you why not reach for help from other if you are thinking that you can handle it alone .not everyone know what the best solution is but at least you can get an idea especially an advise that may possibly helps or make you feel comfort that someone cares.

Yes, the same God who fucking created you in this world, gave you the fucking freedom you want, and here you fucking are, shoving it back on His face. Nice job, genius. Slavery my ass, like you ain't a slave to your shitty materialistic needs who does not have a brain but a motherboard. Oh yeah, include those fucking delusions you get from getting horny. Homophobia? Are you talking about Sodom and Gorrah-thingy? Well you know, sweetheart, He didn't punished the place because of those bis and gays, cause if He did, then only them would die. He effing destroyed that city because of the fucking doings, and not because of their gender. Get your facts straight, assface.

I'm curious. How did this post come out? If it was on queue, it means that she might have wanted the world to read this. It will be posted on the set date. If someone did open her account and posted this before that set date then that really is invasion of her privacy. I'll reserve my other thoughts on this if this were answered.

Sooooo.... Is comitting suicide considered as a last resort when you think your life's gone shitty? If so then you guys shouldn't become surprised anymore that this girl just committed suicide.

It's just so sad knowing that some just easily throw their live away when there are still a lot of opportunities waiting for her. What if that was just a trial for her? If she had survived it, then she might have a better future.

Yes, we're not perfect. In fact, judging her won't make us any kinder than any other people will be, but still. Why is there such thing as "right" and "wrong"? We're just here to comment our own opinions, so don't get angry because we all have different opinions concerning this matter.

I always think about suicide.. I have been dealing with my depression since college or even before that.. I would cry a lot and feel so alone literally every single night.. I'm not scared of death but I'm scared of God..so everytime I'll think of it, I pray and ask for forgiveness for even thinking about it..I always consider how my family would feel if I will do it.. I am so tired of being sad but I don't want to be selfish as well..

It takes too much courage for a person to decide on committing suicide. I made an attempt but it failed. After that I just don't want to do it again. I' still battling depression but I told myself to keep fighting to make things better.

Let me get this straight. Has it ever reached your fucking minds that she mght jave had some problems in being transgender?!?! So.. Yeah. I read the comments on people's reaction on Julia's successful suicide attempt and some of those comments disgust me.

I mean, c'mon people. It's hard dealing with the fact that you're transgender. When you were turned into a girl when you were born a boy. They don't even try to figure out the feelings that she had inside!

Who wouldn't fear asking your parents on why they turned you into someone like that in the first place?! She doesn't underdstand how she should feel! It's like a robot not knowing how to function it's own property.

reading this makes me sad because she has no one to talk to not even her parents. if she was just able to express herself and she has people to talk to, to share her innermost frustrations maybe just maybe she would not think of taking her own life.

I just don't understand people think about only theirselve. Its selfishness, you have family, friends and specially God. I believed that she still lucky despite of having problems and still normal, think abt those people, who are starve to death, battling for deseases. Taking away ypur life won't solve your problem.

you clearly do not fucking understand, do you? don't start with those "think about those people who starve to death, battling for diseases", BECAUSE PERSONAL PROBLEMS CANNOT BE SOLVED BY A LOT OF PEOPLE JUST BY FEEDING PROGRAMS OR ANY FUCKING SHIT, PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT, YOU IGNORANT FUCK.

Fuck. You. This shows how much of an ignorant piece of shit you are. If you care about these so-called "starving" and "ill" people, why don't you get your fat ass up and go to the nearest fucking shelter and work the shit out of yourself there instead being on the internet reading someone's suicide note? Fucking hypocrite.

she killed her parents when she took her own life... no father or mother should be burying their child.... whatever her reason she has for her to take her life... it destroyed her mother and her father. this post, her suicide note should be taken down. no one should see this shit because it makes her look weak and and it might give ideas to other fragile teenagers that suicide is the way to go.... this is private and just let it be....

this is why i would never kill myself even if i have suicidal tendencies. the only thing that keeps me from killing myself are my parents. I don't want to hurt them. But maybe julia couldn't take it anymore :(

People who claim to know what God wants and how he judges people should go to hell. If your God is so forgiving, then he'll forgive anyone. Stop cherrypicking your ideals. She died because of ignorant people who judge her based on their ideals (queerphobic, Religious ideals). It's sad that the Philippines claim to be a fun country but it's all ass-backwards. Stop living behind the bible like it makes you a good person. Compassion for people is more important than supposed judgment of God.

Don't ever say bad things about my country. Whatever negative thing you say against it is what you reflect of yourself because you would never think that way if you have a good mind and heart. If you are an atheist, don't ever dare talk about my country nor about my GOD like that. If our ideals are wrong then so are yours. What makes your ideals right anyway? You talk about compassion to people but you tell people to go to hell? Define compassion.

Y can't you guys see it. For real are you guys that judgement that you don't care she didn't want to live a life knowing she will be judge for what she was not what who she was. She was a she/he. You judge to quickly before you see the truth. She wanted to be herself with out being judges for everything. I gave up on caring what anyone thought because it is my life if uvwant to judge me so be it but keep it to urself. I am a bisexual tomboy that is who i am. I don't wear dresses and high heels. I wear work boots and blie jeans. That's who i am. And she should of been able to be who she wanted to be with out being seen as a outsider. Because someone is different done mean that they a bad person. And that is what everyone would of seen instead of seeing the real her. In my eyes people are people that ain't any different. The only time i don't likebpeople is if they r mean or fuck with my family and friends. And she did the right thing because how you asses r degrading her now that she has passed. I don't blame her one bit. You know it is said in the bible thou shell not judge less thou shell be judged. With means you don't have a right to judge her the higher power up there does. So maybe you all should lay the fuck off and i bet y'all don't even know her which means you ain't got no mother fucking right to judge someone you don't even know. I wish i could of gotten the chance to know her because maybe i could of helped her because i don't judge. That ain't my job. See where I'm from people don't judge someone for who they are they judge you for how you act tords someone. You are only human. If u have a soul and you know who u are then that gives you the right to make mistakes and learn from them. Some people can't handle trying to be someone they are not. And no one should have to change who they are to make others happy. Yolow.... you only have one life to live. Don't ever be something your not to fit in. And never worry about what others think because when you do you end up makin the wrong chosed like she did. And now that she is gon she don't need you putting her down. And what most of y'all are sayin is the reason she did what she did at least now she can rest in peace.

Not judging her for anything but the fact that she committed suicide. If she knew all those terms to define herself by, it means she knows of people like her(us, if I may say so). She was aware of what she was doing -she knew to tell everyone to be kind to themselves, so why could she have done the same for herself? If this is real, No matter what her reasons are, I only see her as a hypocrite now that I see this. She knew. She freaking knew, and she killed herself anyway. This is no poetry or self-justice. She wasted her life, which would have been colorful; and wasted her death, which would have made her ethereal if it happened at the right time.

Maybe she didn't see the point in living anymore. I don't see her as a hypocrite (maybe because we're kinda the same). Sometimes, those who break are the ones who've been strong for too long. I don't blame her for killing herself.

Well sometimes it's harder to ask for help. And I'm guessing you knew her by the way you r talking about her. U can tell people to be kind till you r blue in the face. But that don't change things. I was always getting kick out of school because i was fighting for the kids that couldn't defend themselves. No one would listen to them but i did. And that's the problem now of day's no one wants to listen to anyone that asked for help. I should know. My brother was addicted to drugs and he was severely depressed and he asked fot help but they turned him away and he ended up killing himself because if it. And that is the hardest thin to see. That is you this story gets to me so badly. And I'm not sure if she is from China Tokyo Japan or from over there somewhere but if she is they judge u like u where a murder over there. And the only reason i know that is because i had a friend that came to my school from China her name was Honey and her little sisters name was May. But the way she talks it sounds like that is where lived. And i hope no one else ever goes through that and they can find one person they can trust to talk to.

I kinda get this, when i was a teenager I went through something similar.. but fortunately I got over it.. what got me through? Relying on my friends, listening to my favorite band (simple plan) and finally opening up to my parents (happend way after) its all about positivity and surrounding yourself with positive people. We didn't even have facebook or tumblr back then.

A life was spent dearies... Let us not turn ourselves against each other... Let this one become a reminder that we should be more open and more understanding to each and everyone especially to our brothers, sisters and cousins, to your sons and daughters, nieces and nephews. We are now living in a world where people far from each other becomes closer, and people so near to you yet so far. All of us have our own problems,no matter how small or big it is. Its how we handle these problems, our capability to overcome odds we face each day. The burden does become heavier each day when no one is there to share it with, when theres no person who pats on our shoulder and says "...evrything will be alright". Love becomes faint when the fear to be judged and criricized takes over. And because I believe we are BRILLIANT creatures, i dont need to emphasize the purpose of this message. And i dont need to say what we ought to do after this reading this. May peace be with us... :)

Poor girl. We don't know what was going through her mind. All we know or what we gather from her letter is that she obviously was hurting. I mean, we don't really know if she ever reached out to her parents before she took her life. No parent should have to bury their own child. I can't imagine what they are going through.

Psh, everyone here says things as if letting "everyone" understand is an easy thing. Just because there's a solution to something doesn't mean a problem can be solved (lol in a test for example to you, who is not fond of metaphors, knowing a solution to a math problem but not knowing how to apply or carry it out means that the said solution is completely useless). Saying that "everything will be alright" to a person who's seen what this harsh world can offer is like talking to a rock. It's complete bullshit. If you, yourself don't even know how it feels like to be constantly terrified anything, anyone, and everything, then you best be on your merry way. You're living a life that's way easier anyway.

hmmm. While this strikes us as a shocking let us not judge the poor girl for her actions for no one never really knew what was goin thru her head at the time. I only have 2 things to impart:to the youth--- yes we understand your troubles for we once threaded that same dusky road before we reached adulthood. Suicide is never an option nor an answer...it is a weak effort to solve whatever problems you are encountering. Learn to reach out and share your burden.

to us adults---Learn to listen.....most times today in this age of jet paced technological innovation most of us have lost that gift of emphathy and caring. Spare a minute or two to listen to whatever the younguns have to say even if its just total nonsense. Doing so might mean you're saving a soul from drowning in despair.

Again suicide solves nothing. It is but a selfish act. Before thinking that nobody cares perhaps try to look the other way and contemplate who would feel lost after you take your own life.

I am no longer a teenager, yet not that old enough to say that I am matured. I'm in between but I'm drowning with depression almost every day. I write lots of suicidal notes too, but every time I'm just an inch away from Death's arms, I resist. I don't know. Maybe in some parts of my brain - or heart, wherever it is - I'm still afraid of hurting myself. And that I'm still giving this life second chances. Take note, chances. And I feel that it's an endless count.

I'm just sad that she let her depression ate everything that's left to her. But wherever she is right now. I hope she's just okay. Finally you are free, Lee.

Just respect her last notes. It may not have the details why she hurt herself but this way, at least she still said goodbye. And to those who have no idea what depression is; guys, refrain from saying things like you know everything. Toddler, teenager, matured or childish - there's no difference when it's about depression and its deadly minions. Just pray for us, so that we can get through this. Instead of judging us, encourage us. Inspire us.

I have this question of a big WHY when by best friend for 30 years took his own life just a month ago, based on the stories have heard its maybe about hardships in life or whatsoever, only he knew the real reason.

But what I do no t agree on, is the discussion of being an adult and a teenager, yes, I do think, teenagers nowadays has a different approach towards their lives and their future, not saying I did not did the same before but again, whatever approach you wanted. I really cannot make any point on why and what are the reasons for doing it. It is really just not good. Taking others life is a big mistake, what more in taking your own, it is still just another form of crime. They said that even though how much you love your life and the people around you, just that one snap of your fingers and a sudden darkness surrounds you, a lot of things can happen.

I have heard this a dozillion times from friends and families, MAKE GOD THE CENTER OF YOUR LIFE, any hardships he should be the first person one should consult. I have made this idea since I was a kid that no problem is given when there is no solution. You may not get it in an instant but it will come. Patience really is always a virtue, though, on today's type of personalities, very few have the patience in life, all wanted a huge jump start to get to the top or where ever they wanted to be at that mostly summed up to a huge depression if they do not meet it. A seminar I speaker during my college years once said, those who succeed are people who take a step at time on the stairs and not those who tried to leap an extra step to get to the top faster, that those who has completely accepted themselves sees a wider better future.

To all people who have problems, regardless of what it is, please dont let that be the cause of your death. It aint fair, not fair to yourselves, not fair to your family, not fair to your dearest friends and not fair to GOD.