Friday, 13 November 2015

I feel like the best way to get my arse back
into blogging is to give you all a little update and most importantly, prove I
haven’t died and am in fact, just a mess.

I am usually the most organised person, I list
everything, have a constant to do list and even fold my knickers and my socks
in their draws neatly. Yupp, I know, sad.

I’m very much comparable to Sheldon from The
Big Bang Theory, I love my routines and get very comfortable doing the same
thing. I always order the same thing from a menu, I’m a creature of habit and
I’m quite content that way.

So when something changes in life, for some
odd reason I get flustered and it takes me quite awhile to get back to my usual
self.

You may know if you have read my blog for
awhile, that 2015 has been a bit of a tragic year. So much so that I’m still
dealing with it and haven’t been my usual bubbly self for quite some time now.

I’m someone who I like to say is very ‘egg’
like, I have a hard shell and don’t let people see the negative emotions I’m
feeling. I keep them extremely bottled up and instead crack some dark humour
jokes and act as if I’m the most bubbliest character in the room.

I just prefer to focus on the more positive
aspects of my life.

It would be interesting to see if anyone else
handles emotions like I do? (Basically doesn’t handle them at all) I just feel
like I’m bothering people if I tell them my problems and would much rather keep
it locked inside my massive head, literally hats don’t fit me.

I suppose I wanted to be honest on my blog. I
haven’t felt like taking pretty pictures, writing happy upbeat reviews on
mascara’s, writing about my dull life and taking selfies for makeup looks and
I’m not mad at myself about it. I needed a blogging break, to be honest I still
don’t feel myself but I need to start changing things.

I’m not depressed, in case anyone was
wondering that by now, as this post is not the most light hearted piece I’ve
ever written.

I wake up early every morning, go to work,
come home see friends and family, I go out clubbing on the weekend and spend
far too much money on wine. I never sit around moping and I’m trooping through,
I’m not the type to spend 24hours a day watching tat on Netflix.

I’m not going to blast what my problems are
over the internet, I just simply wanted my readers to know, yes, I am currently
sad sloth Soph but I will be perfectly fine!

Also with this FOLO (fear of life offline)
trending, I must admit I have been avoiding social media slightly because of
it. Scrolling through Instagram and seeing beautiful photos of couples all
loved up, kind of made me feel a little worse, so for quite some time I avoided
social media.

I will most likely do a separate post on my
opinions on FOLO, as I feel it is immensely important.

BUT

Life is not all doom and gloom, I felt I
should leave the happiness till the end of the blog post, so you don’t leave my
blog completely miserable.

Since I was a little girl, myself and my best
friend used to create newspapers and magazines, pretending we wrote and
designed them. Then as I got older I discovered journalism, I would read papers
all the time and was love struck at the idea of being a journalist. I’d beg my
mum to buy me every single pretty magazine at £4 a time and reading Vogue was
the highlight of my entire month.

At the end of September I started my first
journalism job at my local paper, needless to say I’m in love with it and the
industry and am so excited for my future. My role is a reporter and I get to
write features and articles, if you want me to do a more detailed post on
journalism and how to get into it, I’ll be more than happy to do that of course!

I’m super excited for Christmas and am
planning to make it the best one yet, I shall be cramming Christmas themed blog
posts into this little space on the internet.

Overall, I am in a good place, have a job I
love, amazing family and friends and am so excited to get back into blogging.