Errrr, it's like... fuck.. I get in a a good place in my life and shit hits the fucking fan

Why did he have to love me?

Why can't I be confident too....?

How come me and him aren't compatible!?!

I don't know... I was just up... and decided to fucking rant/blog. I have shitty grammar. Fuck you. I don't care.

Fuck... Why is it a sin to have tattoos and piercings? Why is religion so fucking complicated? Why is it so heavily induced in our society...?? My head hurts...

I'm hungry. I had another non-productive day.

I finally fucking get outta high school and I can't even amount to shit... Do you know how that feels?? I feel like--.. Rgghh.... I dunno... I hate venting... 'Cause I love and hate other peoples opinion. My feelings get hurt too easily...

I really like him a lot.... but we aren't compatible?? But... he likes me and I like him? Why not?

It's like.. have you ever seen a storm coming, or something bad in general coming, and you wanted to get away from it but you were frozen... Be it from excitement or fear? Well, that's how I fucking feel...

Nothing is ever good enough.... or ever fucking right. And I always miss by a small bit...

And like... fucking... why did he have to be so fucking immature and put me out there like that?? It hurt so bad! Just listening to this person I cared about dog me like that!

I fucking hate men! But I love cock.. But, as a result... I have a scarlets letter... a silent one...

It may go away one day...

My heart hurts...

I wanna cry... But, I'm not depressed... I just..

I wanna be near him... but... I don't wanna scare him away..

Maybe... I'm not cute enough...

I always take my pictures at that angle... it's the only one that compliments my ugly face..

My head hurts...

Will they care when I die---... No... but, yes... It's like.. I don't want them to go away... I think about it all the time..

They're fucking old. His leg is bad... She has a bad knee... His heart is bad.. I worry about her.. him... them.

Please don't go... I know I say mean things, but I love you... I... I swear...