yet, i am selfish - but it is the other way round - i never realised that until you kinda slapped me...

i'm exhausting a lot of people who loves me...unintentionally...

you foresee that i must be strong...i will sayang, i will...

yes, really, i am alone... i need to accept and stop being stubborn...

but, i can't agree with you that i'm dishonest...

i guess nobody understand... i just don't trust people easily...(and it's kinda weird i can share this with the world instead)

i did went to seek help...i was anxious each time...i don't like that feeling OK...and it turned out that the helper's conclusions were waayyyy far from what i'm trying to convey...i quit...i am sorry...

but still, i keep on searching for other alternatives...i'm trying not to worry you, of all people...

and i'm also surrendering a precious piece of my heart...i have my reasons...this is difficult...Allah je yang tau...

Saturday, July 10, 2010

in a valiant manner, i walked up to straighten things out between me and my this old man...it turned out that me and my this old man long talk was still going to be a crap business as usual...my this old man will never change...i've had enough...i'm taking charge now...

my this old man...he played one...he played knick knacks towards my friends and me...

my this old man...he played two...two of my friends are leaving for a betterment...

my this old man...he played three...i can't understand why i'm the one who feels disgrace facing my this old man who ermmm (i have no suitable word to describe him - and it's not right for me to simply accuse my this old man for this and that and this and that- only He judge) four fingers pointing back at me, lehh...Ok, i forgive my this old man already...

my this old man...he played four...hey, we're technically match...human factor is left out...i'm the sensitive girl...this does not work...i have no control...and so, my this old man have no expectations...

my this old man...he played five...at the end of the day, you are a part of the system where business matters...don't i know?my this old man, please tell me...

my this old man...he played six...i have friends...so long then, my this old man...

Saturday, July 3, 2010

oh yeah...i cried early yesterday morning on my way to the office while listening to the title song playing on HotFM...a triggered stream of tears flowing down my sweet cheeks...i sang along as well...