Single mother NOT by choice

I am new to this pregnancy world as this is my first child. I am 15 weeks pregnant and became a single mother not by choice. Both me and the man who got me pregnant are very young and did not plan on conceiving. When we found out, we were both terrified but so overwhelmed with joy that our love made a little human. We were together for a while before all this and loved each other very much (at least I thought he did). At the beginning of my pregnancy he was there every day holding my hair when I threw up, getting me food when I felt too tired to move, and rubbing my tummy talking to our little bean every night. We both got a bit busy with our schedules transitioning from the summer. I made it a point to call him every night if we couldn’t see each other that day. A couple weeks ago he completely shut me out, and it came out of no where. He stopped answering my calls and texts and I started to question what I had done wrong. I had found him living with a friend and went to visit him, but when I looked in his eyes I could tell he was not himself. I tried to talk to him and ask him what happened but he was so out of it that he wasn’t making sense. I begged him to come home and come back to me. I knew he was in an environment that wasn’t healthy for him and he was hanging around people who encouraged him to do terrible things. I knew he wasnt the man I had fell in love with, this situation had changed him. He said he still loved me and he would see me the next day. I went home and I didn’t get a reply to my calls or texts that night. The next few days I went to visit him to try and get him to come back, but on the last day I looked him in the eyes and I could see the man I loved wasn’t there anymore. He told me he had been with other girls and I begged him to come home so he could get to his senses; to be the loving cheeseball I knew he was. He looked at me with glazed eyes and said he didn’t love me anymore and to leave. Now I’m stuck here wondering where I went wrong and what happened to the man I loved. I thought we would be together on this journey and now I feel I have lost the other half of me. I got to a very hard low and I am lost on where to go from here. I’m sorry this was a long post but I just didn’t know where else to go for advice and support.

You don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you. You also don't want to force parenthood on someone. I was 20 my first child and got left at 5 months. A bit different for me cause I don't think we were right for each other but the blindsided-ness of it definitely hurts and takes its toll.

But you can be an amazing mother by yourself. I never got back with him even though he wanted to post-birth. Couldn't trust him. It's hard but you can do it, and make the right choices for yoirself and for baby.

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