This last week I put an ad in the paper claiming that I was an "Unexperienced vocalist looking for a band to jam with". Now, mind you I've never sang in my life other than in the car or along to "the darkness"... But I feel the need to give it a try. So anyways, 3 bands e-mailed me asking for me to audition.

First off, I've never sang in front of anyone nor is anyone even aware of my capabilities as a vocalist. I haven't even sang to shelby, because well... she is an intimidating person. (She beats me with a spoon....) Second, I'm absolutely terrified of being on a stage. I've done it before about 5 years ago while doing a reading... hopefully i've overcome my fear of that. Haha. Not only that, but the only actual real singing ever done was by my dad who was actually a singer in a band during the late 70's here in milwaukee. He passed me down his voice somewhat, but it's tough to tell until you've actually been in a position to sing for an audiance.

Now i'm a lunatic, everyone knows that... and i'm rarely nervous about something, but this I kind of am. A few people I know (who haven't heard me sing, mind you) have already tried to put me down saying, "Don't try it, you'll embarrass yourself" or whatever they can say to throw me around. But I think I have the balls to at least attempt it, considering it's something i've always wanted to do. So I mean, if I go in to these auditions and expect the worst... what could happen? I need to think positive, but if I do that i'll just get more nervous and feel like shit after i've been told I sound like "Donald trump being spooned by larry tate and his magnetic ovary dispenser".

Yep, well this post was just really getting that off my chest. I doubt any positive comments will really help me, i'll still be nervous going in but I think if anything... I'll at least won't be dreading not ever attempting it.