Wednesday, April 30, 2008

I wanted to cross the 2m length of roadBut stopped coz this bloody grey Suzuki Swift turned in without signalingLuckily I spotted itSo I stepped back

After secondsSeeing that there's no more cars turningI crossed the road

But then came this bloody grey Nissan Sunny That bloody uncle never turn on its signal& that bloody uncle also never slow downSo he was at high speed & e-braked right in front me just 1 meter away& he fucking honked at me so loudThat it startled me who was currently at a lost mind

I felt death I was so frustrated too that I wanted to point mid-finger at him

That bloody uncle still looked angry at me & pretended to be innocent

KNNBCCB

I can say all the fouls in front of him if lao niang is really in shitty moodBloody hellThink lao niang donno traffic rules too?Honk simi lanjiao?The split seconds used to honk can actually be used to step on the brakes & prevent accidents

FUCKING ON SIGNALS WHEN YOU ARE TURNING CAN?!FUCKING SLOW DOWN AT JUNCTIONS CAN?!& FUCKING OPEN YOUR BLOODY DAMN EYES EVEN IF YOU HAVE CHINESE PHOENIX EYES CAN?!

ApparentlyI know the two contributors& I admire both due to their deep knowledge and ability to identify by scientific names of most marine animals

Well...I know marine animals tooBy common names, ecological rolesBut of course I guess I also know my Echinolittorinids more than anyone else

So this happens to be an issue of species identificationWhere the author was just penning down her trip and species encountered to share with everyoneWith quotations from an echinoderm expert who was trying hard to identify the exact sea urchin species by mere lookTelling the audience what that particular sea urchin species could probably be& of course, listening to an expert talking about a probably newly found species on Singapore shore is exciting!Like, what else can we possibly find in other Singapore shores that are yet to visit?

Our fellow friend then argued upon the identification of the sea urchinClaiming that it could belong to another species& the echinoderm expert was wrongSupporting his argument with recently published journals Verifying the discrepancy of this identity crisis

I would say is...True, not all scientists are correct

If all havent realisedThe arrows in the food webs that we learnt in our science textbooks are wrongIt should point the opposite way (i.e from predator to prey) if we want our students to learn it ecologically But this isnt an issue Because we only want our students to know what is happening in a food web

Likewise I will say for this poor sea urchin that is feeling all so guilty for creating such a sparked argument between nature enthusiastsI bet it never get to know what it is called eitherBut at least we know it is an sea urchin and its ecological role in the marine ecosystemIf we really wanna dig in knowing its exact nameBy all means

Carpet anemones were identified wrongly too, previously& all thanks to this sea anemone expert who corrected us

But it's human to err& most of the timeResults comes from experienceProbably the echinoderm expert didnt have much chances to investigate on that particular sea urchin species to thoroughly confirm its exact taxonomy?Or rather, how about hybridization?We will never know unless DNA is tested& what's moreProbably that journal author is wrong too

I do have problems identifying my Echinolittorinids tooWhile working on rocks that bear more than one tiny mollusc species

The smooth periwinkles Littoraria spp. look almost the same as my Echinolittorina vidua by just mere look

Smooth periwinklesEchinolittorina vidua standingLittoraria spp. on my research site looks almost the same as my E. vidua due to faded stripes found on their shellsEven sometimes I mistook the Littoraria spp. as E. viduaTheir shell morphology from the aerial view is also similarIt's only upon observing the base operculum of them will I only get to differentiate between these two

Also, I also have hard time differientating between Echinolittorina radiata and Echinolittorina vidua in Hong Kong while doing my FYPLikewise, their shell morphology looks similarBut E. radiata is differentiated by the pointed mark at the base

ProbablyThe echinoderm expert just need more time to exactly identify the sea urchin thoroughly since it's new to allBased on the short trips & photosDetails might be lacking at different angles of the 3D structure

For nowJust hope that we learn by sharing& not by pin-pointing at the not-so-grave mistakes

Studying ecology is a never ending lessonSpecies interaction with changing environment brings about strong selection forces resulting in evolutionProbablyThe next look-alike species is a newly arose, evolved species we'll yet to find out

I'm not trying to be paranoidBut I can really sense that Earth isnt normal as she was before

With almost daily exposure to sea every time I'm out the fieldI notice the surroundingsFor the whole day it was sunny & peacefulBut the weather changed tremendously with a snap of fingersGrey clouds, strong wind, huge splashing waves & heavy downpourAll within 3 minutes

One dayI was indoor& I was chatting with JackI asked if he could hear the rumbling sound in the sunny sky& wondered if it's thunder or those gunshots from the flying apachesHe replied it could be neither& the next secondsI told him I'm scaredHe asked whyI donno how to answer himBut I just told him I'm scared

What could be the sound that is neither thunder nor gunshots?It just seems so eerie!

(I had repeated dreams of wasp invasion throughout the whole Singapore in a damn cloudy grey day)

Jack told me probably coz I'm an outdoor environmentally-friend personWhom is always updated with environmental newsThus I would expect what would occur in the futureAs inI'm more sensitive than any other& would probably be one of the survivors in a catastrophe due to rapid response

Ahhh... selection forces

I wondered....Could be... For the sensitive partBut I'm not so sure

I guess I could be getting timid as I ageOr rather Earth is really turning abnormal

Saturday, April 26, 2008

After a long hiatus from my Chek JawaEverything seems... yikes

Despite me obtaining the research permitPasted the 'RESEARCH IN PROGRESS' sign on my rocksThe security guards having known me personallyI'm still being asked to leave the shore by the other staffsThinking that I'm one of those for the low-tide walk participantsAsked me to join the group

I was pissed

Please kindly communicate to your dearest staffs that there's a pathetic post-graduate from a local institute working on the rocky shore for 4 hours under hot sun during low tides and please do not assume just ANYONE who is beyond the prohibited area as intruder in front of 30 visitors before reading the 'Research in Progress' sign

I've done all sorts of measures that was being requestedBut so what?Still the same thing happens

AnywayMy infra-red thermometer also died on me No batteryGRRRRRRRrrrrBut I stayed on to observe with no real data

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Today's hair show was a success!The hairstylists came from Holland & Austria& both are famous colourist, Agnes & hairdresser, Mario

This hairshow theme is based on TrendzoomConsisting of Newstalgia & RockmanticI'm one of the Newstalgia models

Make-up & hair preparationWhile waiting for the show to beginMy hair was to be done all at a timeWith colouring & cutting within 1 hourMy hair was dyed with blonde & green& was cut bob-shortActually if you notice4 sides of my head has 4 different hairstylesMy rightMy backMy left& my front view (blur coz taken at home)AnywayI like the hairstyleIn fact I'm fine with any short hairstyle

Some of the pics taken during the backstage with other modelsThe group pics are still cosolidating by the crewSee if I can grab some & post later

After the showI requested to cut my fringe shorterCoz I lazy to keep having hair poking my eyes

Walked in town for half & hour& I feel so cool for onceCoz everyone's attention on my stylo-mylo hair!Hahahaha

Not to brat about itBut I really like it =)& I like this hairshow best coz no heavy makeup was used=p

Abit sad that the green isnt very prominentBut well...I guess I still look great! =D

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

When I saw Chay Hoon's Facebook status, I kinda suspectThat name looks familiarSomeone from Wildfilms whom I've not met but heard of himBut I tried not to think more about itThinking it could be that guy who came up with the evolution theory

Then just nowRia sent an email Confirming he's the one

Upon surfing FacebookDouble confirmation on messages pasted on The Wall

I donno what to say

I have not met himBut being part of Wildfilms memberI feel like I knowSomeone whom shares common interestSomeone whom loves natureI would saySomehowThere's a distant chemistry

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Am I getting stupid?Stupid enough to realise that he's lying but trying to trust himOr is he getting smarter?Smarter in being a liar, using his innocent best friends as a shieldLie everything to me so he can enjoy his life without any disturbanceSo no one will stop him & not stay at home

Erm.. sorry?If a husband doesnt stay at homeWhat does a husband do?Fuck around with other girls & guys?I dont care about who he fucks withBut I dont expect lies for the nth time!!!!

I'm so confused nowI donno which is true & which is false that comes from his mouthI dont dare to even wanna comprehend moreThe more I think it isnt rightThe more fuss I get& the more I cant believe it isnt true

I dont wish to talk to himNeither do I wish to talk to anymore people about himEveryone can tell something's not right& I have to cover it up we're damn perfect

We WEREPast tense, please

& I donno why this is so now

I hate his friendsThey teach him all the bad influence

I get so irritated that I feel like killing myselfTo make him realise that he really drives me to this very verge of bipolarityTo make him realise that my death is all because of himUsing my death to make him turn overBUT of course I'm not stupidI still have a far future to go for

I just cant stand itI feel like running away from homeI dont wish to see himBut this will give him an opportunity to be more agressive

I just dont have the breath, energy & love to care about him anymoreI feel like giving up

Monday, April 21, 2008

SighI donno why I'm still so worried after my examsI really need a peace of mindI cannot keep on doing things that I insist will occur with great love and concern but in fact, it looks like it cantI cannot give up either

Friday, April 18, 2008

Headed to Orchard CK Tangs in late afternoonSpent $70 on DarDar's birthday pressie& I bumped into Ivan KHe treated me a cup of cappucino brewed by his company's coffee machine worthed $4000!!!!Wah!!

& we headed to ADEX @ Suntec Got free pass in from Ivan's dadI would say this year's event isnt that fascinatin as 2 years agoSo disappointedThe exhibition area is only 1/2 of previous& too many overseas dive agencies going to expensive places=SNo freebies also lo

AnywayI fell in love with the new Mares AbyssSuper chio lo!!!!!

AnywayThere's another dive expo in KL in JulyFree admission somemore!Maybe I will visit if I have the time

Exams are over!Yes!!!The stress load was gone& I was dying to die last night when DarDar wanted to watch the HK DramaWhich I'm interested too..So I stayed till 130am& dozed off immediately after he gave me a 'Good night' kiss

Now I'm awake at 1030amCoz some idiot called me and left a voice mail& I donno how to retrieve it coz I dont remember my password

Heck

AnywayPoint isI sleptNow awake, eyes are still very smallMy field of vision is oni 30% of my normal

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

-This following blog entry has no intentional argument or bias judgment on the issues discussed.-

I was watching TV this whole morning & afternoonYES I SHOULD BE STUDYINGBut I couldnt help itI was rather surprised why my eyes and mind were glued to History Channel which I barely pressed the number '8' on my remote control

AnywayThey were showing this documentary 'Prophet Muhammad'I missed the starting coz I guess I watch doing something else& so I only watched starting from the middle section

They were deciphering how Islamic come about as a religion& it brought us all the way back back back back back in timethat this guy Muhammad was chosen to be a prophet by the God& was led by angel Gabriel

Yes, Gabriel caught my attention& that's where I stayed on watching it

Wasnt Gabriel an angel for Jesus?How come got him in Islamic?

So Muhammad was terrified by the sudden appearance of GabrielTelling him that he was chosenand he freed to somewhere, I donno where in the Arabic countryThen Gabriel reappeared and told him he's the one& so he helped to spread the word of God (Allah?)

At this point of timeI was already very confusedGabriel told him to spread the word of GodGabriel worked for Jesus& we all claimed Jesus is GodThen meaning Allah is Jesus?

O_O??????????

& so Muhammad spread the word of God to a group of villagersSome believed some dont& those who believed were tortured& the angry disbeliever chased Muhammad wanting to kill him

So this Muhammad went into hidingsIn an abandon hut& Gabriel made spiderweb on the door and lots of bird nest Making the angry villagers think that Gabriel wont be in there

Then Gabriel appeared in front of himTransformed into a horse& flew him to Jerusalem to meet Moses, Jesus, and whoever

I LAUGHED LIKE HELL AT THIS SECOND OF THE DOCUMENTARY

Sorry I didnt mean to be very rudeBut I cant help itAn angel turned into a flying horse?!I thought angels can do time wrap?!Snap their fingers & poof they disappear?!

But at the very point in the midst of my laughterFurther confusion arisedHe brought Muhammad to meet Jesus?!

It happened that...Islamic is 'Christianity' in ArabChristianity is 'Islamic' in Western countriesGod is the same personThe muslims pray directly to Allah (aka God) Muhammad is a plain messengerThe Christian prays directly to Jesus or via JesusJesus is only a person who performs miracle but still only a messenger of God(Jesus stole the limelight of God)

So here is the climax

People such as Osama who have been praying to Allah all along realised that his Allah is actually the same divinity of Jesus Meaning that he is actually a Muslim 'Christian'Instead of a divine devotee of a pure religionHe not happy with sharing God & so he blasted USA

The historian interviewed during the documentary pinpointed the major thing that Osama failed to identify in the Qur'anSomething about forgiveness....& meaning Osama isnt forgiving & is misleading the Muslim community about Islamic

Interesting!!!Now I know something really newFor more information, do a Wikipedia on Muhammad, Islam and Jesus

I have no issues with religionsBut this documentary is really interesting and worthed thinkingEspecially when I love to analyse complicated issuesBut knowing that God is actually the same person shared by different races of peopleIt now make me think that religion is somehow systematicGod is the CEOJesus, Muhammad are ManagersBelievers as workersBranching out to everyone from the same root

Tonight is Dr Chow's last day of serviceSob sobNever go see himI'll miss him dearly

I was reading this article, which is sorta related to my exam topic tomorrow & I was shocked by these sentences

Dugongs caught are cut into small pieces before being sold to the villagers. A three-to five-inch piece of dugong meat fetches RM 5 and a whole dugong can fetch up to RM 60 to RM 100 (US$ ), depending on its size.

HOW CAN A DUGONG BE SO FUCKING CHEAP?

Since it's rare, how can it be bought at just SGD$30?

If I see live dugongs in fish marketI sure spend SGD$200 with no regrets to buy it & release

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Exams in few days time& I'm slacking!I think as I feel...

I donno why man...I'd read and understand all the given journalsAll the notesBut have no mood to memoriseCoz somehow I feel I shouldnt work like secondary school kids putting exactly words by words from book to papersHowever, another side of me was fearing I will fail if I dont do so based on past experiences that my friend scores A+ for the exact word-to-word transfer during exams

I'd somehow tested on myself too & I too get A+But got average when I didnt

AgainI feel that I shouldnt do so coz our brains needs some analytical power to runThe energy to think so our brains could sustain its long functionBy just piling chucks of informationIt's no difference with packing a storeroom with boxes over time

Maybe my brains are not running hard enough

But if I were to look at my future where quality tells it allI think I should memorise

Memorise wisely?Or understand exactly?

Bahhhhhhh

At this point of timeI'd partially memorise and understand most of the needed pointsI hope this will do good enough to score

Thursday, April 10, 2008

I blindly forwarded it to my close friends & suddenly I realised I was so wrong

I looked at the pictures carefullyHeh? Isnt it the one that I kept at home for 1 week?& died due to either hypoxia or hunger or high [nitrogen]?

I read the email & the articleInstantly, I felt it's a bullshitI replied my friends about what I'd found & bombarded commented in that guy's blog

I came upon your webby after some friends of mine have been circulating a what-I-believe-is-a-hoax-bt-Paragonimiasis-infecting-crayfish piece of news via email.

I admit I have little knowledge of this yabbies but as far as I know, it is a popular freshwater pet. I'd kept it for sometimes too. However, based on my knowledge bt its ecology, I could say that this is truly a hoax.

First of all,my first point has already proven this is fake.The yabbies cannot tolerate polluted water. The sentence saying 'the dirtier the water, the fatter the lobster' does not prove correct.

Second, it is a delicacy in China, no doubt is it in Scandanivian & Mexico either. Although most Paragonimiasis occur in Asia, I sense there could be a bias in this article, particularly aiming China due to its infamous 'black' dishes & products.

Thirdly,the vector for this parasitic lung fluke is mainly in freshwater snails and Chinese mitten crabs. I would say that the Chinese mitten crab would be more effective in transmitting Paragonimiasis since this is eaten raw & is enjoyed worldwide by millions of people, rather than the cooked yabbies, that are enjoyed at particular continents.

Forthly, this particular species Paragonimus westermani will only infect human if freshwater crayfish or crabs are eaten raw. By looking at the deliciousily spicy cooked crayfish, it seems harmless to be infected.

Generalizing all yabbies cause lung infections is not appropriate. FYI, there is another crayfish species that can tolerate polluted water, which appears to be an invasive species, but it is not served on dishes. Instead, it is a biological control to pests in some countries.

I understand your anticipation of posting this article to highlight the issue of infection to humans by parasites. However, I also hope that facts are there to support before any further hoax emails about whatever other things is circulated freaking people worldwide.

I'd eaten most raw seafoodOysters, sashimi (my favourite!),50% done beefAs long as you know how to eat them safelyI dont see what's wrongLike for my sashimi, of coz, there's a reason for eating with wasabi (to kill germs on raw seafood)

Fear not abt the yabbyCant kill you when they're cookedNow, I wonder how good they taste

Sunday, April 06, 2008

I guess...I've been on tremendous stress very lately

Emotional, physical & mental

Cant sleep the night agoHeart was pounding vigorously throughout Even my all-time drowsy-causing Became did not do the jobInstead I have to sleep with my Lavender essence mask to calm me down& apparently it helps!

DarDar is making myself very difficultHe's always thinking about fun for himself than of meI was dying on the bed with gastric painHe only hugged me & 'sayang'ed me & left to play with his friends

I was so devastated

Mum asked me why he didn't know how to take of careI donno how to answer herShe added "If next time you pregnant, is he going to leave you to die in pain?"

Maybe...I guess dialing 995 would be more efficient

My exams are just next week& I still have assignment to completeLast night (or rather this morning) stayed up till 3am to complete 1 of themStill got another one to goRush rush rush!

SighI've never had such packed schedule in my life beforeIs it that my time management skills had died?*gasps*Please don't

I'm also having nightmares latelyOf how DarDar keep abandoning me alone while he's out to have fun& this morning's nightmare was newI dream that it's a certain time of the year where the ghost come out (not the normal Chinese ghost festival)& I didnt realised it& I was out & I need to return homeThe lift was filled with all the ritual items like burnt corpse with flowers hanging overFruits & drinks & whatever you can name it during offering

The burnt corpse was the most freaky oneSo I called DarDar to accompany me home (in my dreams)But he declined coz he's busy playing mahjong

KNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN& then donno where pop out a girl snatched his phone & told me dont disturb him playing

KNNBCCB If I find out who's that girl I'll smash her breasts into pancakes

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Mr A Teo picked me up at Changi Village & striked a conversation with meAsking me about where I had been, what I did at Ubin, blah blah blah

So I told him I'm doing a research on the marine snails& he got excited too!

He said he wanted to do marine biology when he was youngWhich was like 30 years agoHe told me about how Singapore looked like when he was in Secondary schoolWhere the water at the Southern Islands was as clear as that in Tioman

WOW!!!

I believed thatCoz everywhere has its pristine look before development starts

He said he snorkels and spear-fish very oftenAll the rabbitfish apparently swims past himBut he's disappointed about the environment nowWith all the reclamation going onSingapore water doesnt look good anymore

He said that Jean-Michel Cousteau is his idol& he still loves watching National Geographic nowadays

This is really interestingGiven any people nowadaysTheir passion for marine only sparks when they realised that the harm is doing huge to the environmentBut Mr Teo's passion was there since long~~~~I am very impressed with his love of marine tooSince he was 13+ till now (which I guess is roughly 40+)

& it feels so cool to meet a stranger who shares the same love with youGeez I wish he's my personal chauffeur

I wrote in to Comfort complimenting his serviceWhich is really good tooBut most of allI just wanna let him know that he makes my day after a very tiring trip& that Comfort should acknowledge his good job

He's the first cab driver who left me a very deep impressionI'm really very happy to know him=)

My 2nd experiment out on field today was..........alrightI guess tomorrow will be better since I'd realised what was wrongAs I did I was totally burnt on my back

I already had a pattern on my back when I wore my racer-back outSo this time I wore my halter neck so as to even the skin colorBut unrealising that the strap of my halter neck was hanging out from the ribbonSo after 4 hours of scorchingI have a white strip on my sunburnt skin

RightSo I still have to get myself burnt another one more time before I can get even color

While I was waiting for my hourly measurement takingI snap snap aroundMy rock at a distanceClear blue sky with Singapore AirlineMe, taking a break from the sunOne of my replicatesCurious crab (or maybe curious me)Siphonaria spp.Whelks beside a giant tetraclita spp.Another Siphonaria spp.The infamous signTrochoides-stackoSometimes when bored, I like to see people walkingAfter the tripHeaded to eat Kuishinobo with Ash, Ling, Jas & her friend EstherSo excitedKuishinbo was so well-known since my Sec 2 time& I never got a chance to go until now!!!!WahhhhWent in whack all the food

The free flow of snow carb didnt taste that nice as we expectedBut everyone seems to be enjoying the limbs of that crustaceanI wonder why...