near end of the year assessment: what’s so different?

I’m shocked that it’s November 2nd. Only because it feels like so much of the year happened in a blur. Where did the time go? What happened? What changed? I’m in a new city, new apartment, new job (not so “new” really). I’ve had some great— and startling—discoveries about myself and now I have some newfound sense of confidence and direction that wasn’t there a year ago. Still, I don’t think there’s enough difference. More than anything, I find myself aggravated by my own inertia. A bunch of shoulds come to mind.

I should be this
I should be here
I should have this done
I should…

Then I’m reminded that the past is the past. Done. Over. Finito. I can only focus on forward movement to ensure future progress. However, it would probably be beneficial to reflect and see what roadblocks prevented me making the growth I apparently expected of myself, yet didn’t hold myself accountable for.

Are you where you planned to be now? Have you made the progress you anticipated? What will you do to get on track (your track)?