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Last winter, I watched “Minimalism: a Documentary About the Important Things” on Netflix, and like a lot of Americans, I was hooked. After struggling with clutter and organization my entire life (yes, really), it seemed I had found my answer in minimalism.

By the time I was planning my trip to L.A. in May, I had done a lot of minimizing at home, but there was still a long way to go. My trip was a wonderful opportunity to take a “minimalism vacation” and find out if I would really enjoy living without the stuff. By then I had discovered all the famous minimalist bloggers, like the Minimalists, Courtney Carver, Joshua Becker and Leo Baubata. I had whittled my LA wardrobe down to 33 pieces, (with a dress and a few sweaters boxed up for winter). I had minimal toiletries and possessions, and everything fit nicely under the sleeping platform I had constructed out of inexpensive plywood and an old futon mattress for my SUV. That way, I could save on motels as I drove across country. I packed up food for the road, including several healthy meals I made ahead of time.

When I got to LA, unpacking was a breeze. I gave away the futon mattress and donated the lumber to my landlord – an old family friend who was a handy sort and would have a use for it. I was renting a small bedroom in a two-story condo with three bedrooms and two and a half baths. Most of the summer I had only one roommate while the landlord looked for tenants for the master bedroom suite. She and I shared a bathroom and she brought her furniture and kitchen things, which she allowed me to borrow. My room contained a full-size mattress and box-spring, an old desk and some shelves. I added a light folding chair, a night stand and lamp from Ikea, and with a nice, big closet, had everything I needed. The only other things I bought out there were some cleaning supplies like a broom and dustpan.

My roommate was patient with my minimalism, and we quickly fell into a routine that worked for us. She would put things out on the kitchen counters and the bathroom shelves, and I would put them away in drawers and cupboards. If she placed them back on the counters, I appreciated that she wanted them there and left them. Most of the things I put away stayed away. It made it very easy to clean, and I was happy to do most of the cleaning in return for her sharing kitchen equipment, pots and pans, and her furniture.

After three to four months of living with minimalism, I was more hooked than ever! It was wonderful not being surrounded by “stuff,” and it made everything much simpler for me. Minimalism may have been my favorite part of what was truly one of the best summers of my life.

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Last spring, immediately upon graduating from my MFA Program, I hopped in the car and drove from my home in New York City to Los Angeles. My plan was to submerge myself in the world of entertainment and look for any kind of work in the industry, hoping to form alliances and make contacts that would lead to a staff writer job in TV Drama.

My real hope was that I would find enough success that my family of hardcore New Yorkers would pull up their deep roots and join me there. The fallback plan was that if it didn’t work, I’d come back to New York and keep working on my career from this end. Since you can tell from the title of the piece that I am back in New York, you already know the ending of the story. However, there’s a lot more to tell about the middle. In fact, I think I might be writing about this trip for a long time to come.

Jessica’s 21st Birthday

At first glance, the trip would appear to have been a failure, but it was far from it. In the next series of articles, I will write about my experiences there from several perspectives. First and foremost, I want to write about the realities of being fifty-something with a whole lot to give and not finding anyone who’s interested because they can’t see past your age. Secondly, being married for twenty-two years to a wonderful man and mom to two now-grown children, this was the first time I was on my own in the world. Sure, I had their support and probably couldn’t have managed the trip without it, but having three to four months of independence from family living was fantastic. I feel guilty even writing that sentence, but it’s true. Of course, I missed them, but I’d recommend the trial separation to anyone who has been married a long time if only to appreciate what you have.

Third, I will write about the reunion with old friends that I enjoyed in L.A. and how wonderful it was to see people I hadn’t seen for a quarter-century and find that the connections that made us friends still existed. I’ll speak of my unexpected love of the city of Los Angeles and the kindness of people who reached out to me after hearing my story of chasing my dreams. I’ve lost count of how many articles that makes, but there is another topic I want to address that may not seem to fit in with the overall topic of the blog but has become very important to me, nonetheless: minimalism. And I haven’t even broached the topic of career!

I hope you’ll join me for the upcoming L.A. series, and I look forward to hearing your comments on life changes and anything else you’d like to communicate. Keep writing. 🙂

I’ve been thinking a lot about my grad school program, since I graduated last month. Over the course of the two-year MFA, I had many doubts about whether the program was going to help me launch a career in the entertainment industry. It was a lot of debt to take on, and I honestly never felt it made me a better writer, although I guess just putting in the hours at the keyboard does that. However, over the last few months, a lot has happened that laid some of my fears to rest.

First, I started earning money as a writer. Not a lot of money, but I’m finding steady work and it’s helping me quite a bit. I’m applying for jobs through online avenues. I only apply for jobs I know I’m qualified for and that I’ll enjoy doing, so I get a lot of the ones I submit proposals for. Because I choose carefully, I’m able to complete my jobs quickly and well, and a get a high rating so I can get more jobs. I knew I’d have to work for lower wages in the beginning, but it’s already gotten better. You can find some articles on “Best of Netflix” written by me at the website https://www.techjunkie.com/best-crime-dramas-netflix/. After a lifetime of being a writer, it’s nice to finally get paid in money!

Another thing that’s changed my outlook is that I spent the spring working as an intern for a PBS Documentarian on a piece that I’m proud to get involved with. I won’t give the details yet, but it’s a topic that has the potential to shed light on some serious injustice to women, which is a cause I’m behind 100%.

The fourth occurrence that has caused me to reconsider the value of my MFA was that my portfolio is in much better shape as a whole. I have a new pilot in the works, a new spec script for The Americans, and last summer, I completed a web series documentary pilot which is the first thing I’ve ever actually shot and edited.

I plan to revise it at some point and perhaps continue the series. I want to change up the music, make it less frenetic and more thoughtful in pace, and maybe even add some original artwork. I’ve already blogged about my (kick-ass, IMHO) video essay, Triumphs in Queer TV.
My husband, Bobby, worked as an extra. That’s him on the right

The fifth and possibly most important occurrence was the film production I took part in earlier this month. My class wrote a pilot script together, and we cut it down to a sizzle reel of 19 pages, for which we hired a real director, Don Wells. The head of the media arts department, Larry Banks, is a DP, and evidently, he’s quite the artiste. Together, we cast SAG actors and hired PAs and pros to round out the crew. Everyone in my class was assigned a role on the production in keeping with their individual talents. I was Script/Continuity Supervisor, so I got to sit next to the director and see the footage as it was recorded and it was thrilling. We worked very long hours and shot it in five days. Everyone said they felt sorry for me because Scripty was such a difficult job and no one wanted it. I loved it! I found it suited my talents and I had a lot of help from the director and my writing teacher. I admit it was a lot of work, but I was good at it and I thoroughly loved being at the director’s elbow through the entire shoot. I’m happy to know there’s another on-set position I can do well.

To sum up, I suppose I’ve decided my MFA has been time well spent. My

Yours truly at work as Scripty

expanding portfolio, my growing experience level and my on-set experience has been very valuable to me. Hopefully, I’ll have some actual industry work (TV Staff Writer would be nice) by the time my student loans come due. To maximize my opportunities, I moved to Los Angeles right after graduation. Now for the litmus test!

It’s a good documentary for TV writers, especially, and TV lovers may also enjoy learning about what goes on behind the scenes.

As I watched, one of the things I couldn’t help notice was that in every writer’s room (where most of the Showrunners were interviewed), there were white boards. They were huge, and they lined the walls. They were covered in neatly scrawled outlines for episodes and for seasons. I would have loved to take a closer look.

The reason I’m so interested in white boards is that it might be the most useful tool I’ve learned so far in graduate school. When I studied at Writers Boot Camp, the curriculum was more movie than TV-oriented, and none of my teachers had a television background. When I started to write TV Pilots, I always ended up with too much content and too many pages. When I cut pages, my pilots would end up story-dense – in other words, too much story for the available page count. Learning to use a whiteboard has helped me to write lighter page-counts, and then I can add the content that will most enrich my characters, rather than having to cut, cut, cut.

Since my grad school program is Writing and Producing for Television, all my teachers have TV backgrounds. And that, I’ve learned, means using a white board. The first semester program included a six-hour class where my cohort wrote an original pilot together. While I could go on about the folly of having 13 strangers write a pilot together, for the purposes of this blog, I’m going to concentrate on the whiteboard.

We started by plotting out the season. We didn’t plot it out in detail, just the broad strokes, including major events at the mid-season mark and the season finale, and how to get from here to there. Once that was complete, we turned to the pilot episode. That’s where it got interesting.

The teacher divided the board into four sections (one for each act) and numbered from one to six in each of the four sections. We had a good idea of the A story line by then. We started with the broad strokes, again filling in the set-up event, the act-outs and the end, until we had two or three scenes per act fleshing out the story. Using different colors, we proceeded to fill in the other story lines. Soon, had the beginnings of an outline. From there, we wrote the actual outline on the computer, and then scenes, updating the board as we went along. Soon, we had a first draft. This process is known as “breaking story.”

Example Whiteboard

For me, using a whiteboard has revolutionized TV writing. In my own pilot-writing process, there are a lot more steps to go through before I plot anything out on the whiteboard, including making sure each story line stands on its own. Before consolidating my story lines into a script, however, the whiteboard helps me to make sure I’m ending the acts on the strongest moments, spreading out the story lines in a way that works for the story, the timeline, and the overall balance, so there’s not too much of any one story line back-to-back. Whenever I’m planning a rewrite, I can see at a glance where changes will be made and how to make room for new content.

While there are many facets to writing an original pilot that using a whiteboard won’t help with, such as characters, relationships, theme, symbolism, and plot development, this was the missing tool in my arsenal and I’m very happy to have it in my toolbox.

Note – This is a research paper I did for my Television and Culture Class back in August 2014. At about 2500 words, it’s long.

Although television has evolved in many ways since the 1950s, there is one genre of programming that never goes out of style: the Crime Drama. Each decade has brought us more complicated stories, higher production values and new insights into American culture and the forces that threaten society. However, one cultural deficiency that has not changed enough over the decades is the portrayals of women through what Laura Mulvey in her seminal 1975 paper called “The Male Gaze.” Through the viewing of several crime dramas from each decade, I have surveyed representations of women through the history of the drama. Although it’s true that TV may have taken some small strides forward in the creation of positive roles for women, the crime drama is still very much in need of an overhaul to approach standards of gender equality.

Much of the problem logically stems from the lack of important women working behind the scenes in television. “Research examining the relationship between behind-the-scenes women and on-screen portrayals has concluded that the employment of women in powerful behind-the-scenes roles is related to the use of more powerful language by female characters.” (Lauzen 381) The following table contains a list of the crime dramas included in this study and the research I compiled from IMDB. For each of them, I counted the numbers of males and females in the roles of directors, writers, and producers over the entire course of each series.

*Note – numbers are approximate, allowing for androgyny of names and human error

From the 1950s through the 1990s, these numbers demonstrate that less than 10% of directing, writing and producing jobs were held by women. In recent years, the number of females in positions of power are higher than they were, but still much smaller in number than those held by men. These behind-the-scenes numbers translate to the character portrayals on-screen. In the late 1960s, 28% of the characters appearing on TV were women, and today the number has increased to 40%. Since slightly more than half the population of the American people and half the workforce are women, this is a poor reflection on the progress of women’s equality in the television industry. (Chandler 1988)

It’s a Man’s World:

Within the onscreen arena of crime dramas, the homo-erotic nature of two male cops in a car becomes a metaphor for the nature of their relationship. Paired off to spend days and nights together, the two male cops confide in each other, support and defend one another and fight crime together. Because of the dangerous nature of their work, they save each other’s lives on a regular basis and trust each other with their darkest secrets. The car becomes their “man-cave;” an intimate private world in which a woman’s presence is not only unnecessary but an unwelcome distraction. Nowhere is this more evident than in the homo-erotic world of Starsky & Hutch, a well-loved police drama that ran from 1975 – 1979. According to the Museum of Broadcasting Website, “There is much of what can only be termed flirting–compliments, mutual admiration, sly winks, sidelong glances, knowing smiles. They are constantly touching each other or indulging in excruciating cheek and banter . . . “Although both main characters often have female love-interests, their relationships are short-lived. By the end of the episode, the women have either turned out to be manipulators, liars or villains, while the “good ones” are scared off or killed. “Following the inevitable betrayal, it is not uncommon for the boys to collapse sobbing into each other’s arms.”

The Museum of Broadcasting also describes the sequence of images that make up the opening credits of Starsky & Hutch.

. . . in the space of 60 seconds, these two gentlemen are depicted in at least four cases of literal or figurative transvestism, four cases of masculine hyperbole (encompassing at least two of the Village People), several prominent homosexual clichés (hairdresser, Carnival bacchanalian), a sendup of one of filmdom’s most famous all-male couples, a wealth of Freudian imagery (including the pointed metaphor of fruit), two full-body embraces, two freeze-frames defining them in both homoerotic deed and dress, and one clear-cut instance where the oral stimulation of a man prevails over the visual stimulation of a woman.

The meaning is clear: no women allowed.

Victims, Vamps and Villains:

In “The Big Betty,” 1953, season three of Dragnet, the various female characters can be described as victim, vamp and/or villain. A group of thieves preys on the bereaved, selling them phony pen and pencil sets and jewelry. They approach the grieving widows or parents of the newly deceased and sell them junk dressed up to look expensive, claiming the deceased person ordered it to be engraved as a gift to them. The grief-stricken victims shell out the money, only later to discover they have been duped. The show opens with a young woman reporting the crime. A wholesome, girl-next-door type, the young war-widow describes what happens with the large injured eyes and voice of a child whose feelings were hurt. Describing it as “one of filthiest racquets going,” the detectives follow the clues to arrest two of the conmen and eventually learn that the team was led by “Betty McGraw” the mastermind. Betty ran the team and received a percentage in return for bail money and lawyers should the need arise. The detectives follow her to a New Year’s Eve party, where she is drunk and refuses to leave. She cheers as the New Year strikes, then starts to cry. She says she does it every year, but there’s no reason. Friday claims she’ll have a reason this year. In melodramatic fashion, she sniffs the flower she removes from her hair and it falls to the ground, where it appears in close-up.

As Betty McGraw illustrates, a character can often take on two or more roles in the same show. Betty goes from party girl and flirt (vamp) to drunken and obstinate, to weeping as Friday’s narration informs us of the many men she dragged down along with the victims of her scheme and that she’s been convicted to prison for ten years. The fact that we never hear her admit she’s guilty emphasizes her nature as a liar, and her abandonment of the men who were arrested proves her to be cold and calculating – a villain in the truest sense. As such, she is in sharp contrast to the wholesome child-woman we met in the first scene and the well-meaning, fatherly detectives who look after her interest.

Femme Fatales

Another popular portrayal of women in crime dramas is the femme fatale, and no one was better at depicting this stereotype than Alfred Hitchcock. In his crime drama Alfred Hitchcock Presents, Season 2, episode 14 is titled “Nightmare in 4-D”, and premiered on January 13, 1957. It tells the story of a hen-pecked married man who helps a young, beautiful actress with her packages. When he gets home, his nagging wife demands to know why he was late and he explains where he was. The wife is jealous and critical, not to mention much less attractive than the actress. Later that night, he has a nightmare and goes into the living room to watch TV while his wife goes to bed. At 2 am, the actress knocks on the door asking for help. He says it isn’t proper, but she begs and manipulates and finally, he goes with her. He finds a dead body in her apartment. She says the man was shot from outside on the fire escape, and she doesn’t want him found in her apartment or she’ll lose her part in the play. She bats her eyelashes and uses all her feminine wiles to persuade him to help her bring the body to the basement. He does, and the police find the man next morning. At first, it looks as though the wife killed the man out of jealousy, but then the husband is arrested because, at the time of death, the wife was on the phone with a neighbor. The actress, of course, was the real murderer, and the kindly neighbor ends up taking the rap. Both women are portrayed as unflattering female stereotypes.

Older Women are Obsolete

In the world of TV drama, there is probably no group that receives worse gender-portrayal than the post-menopausal woman. Past childbearing years and no longer a sexual object, the male gaze has no interest in her, making her inconsequential and nearly invisible. She is often the victim of murder at the hands of her husband and his young and pretty mistress, who inevitably plan to run off with her money and live happily ever after. This story line appears in the 2-hour pilot episode of Columbo, which premiered in 1970. The handsome older man leaves his rich, haggard wife in the middle of their anniversary celebration to meet his pretty, bikini-clad mistress at a pool and plot his wife’s murder. The young woman is not intelligent and has no clue that her lover is using her. The tragic wife is disposed of with great care. The husband is so clever and careful, in fact, that he nearly gets away with it, despite having to cover for his mistress’s errors. The canny Lieutenant Columbo sets the man up to admit he doesn’t love the girl and has no intention of marrying her. At that point, the crushed and heartbroken mistress exacts her revenge by confessing the whole story. The negative stereotype is further solidified by her confession, proving her to be not only stupid and adulterous but disloyal.

This study has proved to be an eye-opening deconstruction of the negative portrayals of women on television, which is so ingrained in the American psyche that it practically goes unnoticed. The daily consumption of negative images by young people ensures the reinforcement of these beliefs so that TV not only reflects the views of society but at the same time creates them. The danger to the psyches of girls and women is terrifying, while at the same time males are being reconditioned into old-fashioned and oppressive views of women. It’s interesting that the topic has been so widely and well-covered by academic journals while remaining practically unexplored in the public media. In this third wave of feminism, the stigma of being a “women’s libber” is still alive and strong. In this environment, women are afraid to stand up for their rights, because the result is more likely to be a job withheld than one gained. Today’s media teaches that “. . . when a female character is powerful and strong (and ‘unfeminine’), she will often ultimately fail or flounder, and either change to become more sensitive and caring or be condemned to a life of misery and loneliness. (Harper) Tragically, in the real world under the current status quo, everyone loses out on the contributions of empowered women to society.

Positive Trends Exist

Fortunately, there are some women who are portrayed positively on TV today. Any list of positive female role models is likely to be topped by the creation of Joss Whedon, Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Buffy not only fought the undead, she loved it. The series premise was that only one adolescent female (she who bleeds) could be the Slayer of vampires (the blood-drinkers). Although Buffy would often rather have been a normal teenager, she takes on her duty faithfully and saves Sunnydale time and again from the forces of evil. Another show with positive female role models is Law and Order: SVU, in which Sergeant Olivia Benson (played by the now 50-year-old Mariska Hargitay) champions the victims of sexual abuse with sensitivity and strength. According to a study done on the effects of TV violence, “Strong, independent female characters in television shows appear to negate the influence of sexual and violent content.”(Ferguson, 896) There are also others: Covert Affairs has two strong female roles in Annie Walker (Piper Perabo) and Joan Campbell (Kari Matchett); and White Collar (starring the out gay actor, Matt Bomer) has Diana Berrigan, a tough FBI Agent who happens to be in a relationship with a female surgeon, and who gave birth to a baby in the last season. Other female roles are considered empowered by some and not others, including Homeland’s Carrie Mathison. Played by Claire Danes, Carrie may be a great FBI agent, but (in my opinion) her power is greatly negated by the fact that she’s a mentally unstable cry-baby. Then there’s Katie Sagal on Sons of Anarchy who may be fierce, but ultimately respects her place in the hierarchy of the Motorcycle Club and sticks to the “woman’s work,” preferring to use manipulation to direct the club from behind the scenes.

Women’s roles on television have traditionally been poor role-models that strengthened the negative images of men towards women and women towards themselves. In 2014, there is still a great deal of inequality across all media, since “female characters in programming for children and teen audiences are less likely to have jobs than males, and five times more likely to be in revealing clothing than their male counterparts.” (Castillo) According to Geena Davis, spokesperson for the Geena Davis Institute on Gender in Media as well as a member of the Healthy Media Commission, “Media images are incredibly powerful… Research shows the more hours of television a girl watched, the fewer options she thinks she has in life.” It’s time for America to speak out against the oppression of women in the media, and save future generations of girls and women from the pervasive negative effects of television, as seen through the history of the Crime Drama.

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I went back to school this spring, and will finally have my bachelors in TV Writing and Media Arts within the year. For my American Cinema Class, I have to choose a major star or director to focus a research paper on. We’re supposed to pick three films over the course of their career and discuss reflections on society at the time the films were made. Since feminist issues seem to be a central theme through all of my classes, I went in search of a great female director. I was only able to find a few with a large enough body of work to study samples from different time periods. Since I write screenplays myself and dream of becoming a slash, I’m super-concerned with the Hollywood boy’s club’s misogyny and ageism.

I chose the director Kathryn Bigelow. I knew of her, of course, but hadn’t seen most of her films or studied her in any way. Last night I watched “The Weight of Water,” from 2000, which was fascinating, although it received mixed reviews. I had no idea that she had directed “Point Break,” which of course I saw in my Keanu Reeves phase – hahaha. She’s building an impressive body of work, and at this point I’m frustrated about having to pick three to focus the paper on. I’m sure I’ll change my mind once the deadline starts looming, but I’m also sure that I’ll see as many of her films as possible.

Here are some interesting facts about her. She was born in 1951, which makes her 63 now and still going strong. She’s divorced from Cameron Crowe, which I’m sure was a huge factor in her earlier success — being married to him, I mean. I love that she beat him out for the Oscar with “The Hurt Locker.” Another factor that I find extremely interesting is that she is 5′ 11 1/2″ tall. I read once that tall men are more likely to be successful and make more money than shorter ones — I’m sure that’s true for women as well. Many people consider her movies to be “guy movies.”

If you want to discuss any other female directors, I’d love to hear from you. I’ll keep you posted on my studies of Kathryn Bigelow.