Carlton explains her policy about doing reality TV, "When I signed on to do this reality journey, I made a decision that it was all or nothing — the good the bad and the ugly. How can I show the honest story of who I am without honestly exposing who I am? Yes I've had a few messy moments that make my toes curl, but I own it and truly apologize when necessary. Who hasn't? Unfortunately mine was on camera! This is my truth, my reality. I'm not perfect, nor am I trying to be. If I start manipulating my behavior and start becoming rehearsed then it's just another one of them doing a bad acting job. It's fake. I don't manufacture anything about who I am, what you see is all of me — unedited so to speak."

That said, she explains that this week's episode wasn't her best and she offers an apology to Kim. "This week's episode is definitely not my finest hour. However I sincerely apologize if I appear insensitive to Kim's plight or to anyone else for that matter who suffers the same devastating addiction and battle. It certainly was not my intention to be disrespectful. I've already spoken and apologized to Kim."

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Carlton also clears up the burger truck/eating on the curb situation that seemed to irk Kyle. "Thank god Kim had a burger truck, eating that juicy burger definitely helped me — but Brandi still wasn't sure. We figured we would try and feel better before we walked into the house. So for anyone who finds this sooooo confusing there it is. Hopefully that may have cleared up this huge burger dilemma."

She laughs at Joyce's costume, "Yes I saw Joyce and yes I honestly thought she was going to perform. It would not have surprised me if there had been a spotlight in her headdress."

And now for the great alcohol debate. Carlton clarifies, "So up at the bar, I did ask for a drink. Before you condemn me, please understand I do have friends who are sober who hosts parties where they do serve alcohol — and as far as I understand it from Kim herself, she's OK to be around it, as all of us have had a drink around her. Joyce saying "This is not the place to go for fishing for booze" — really there's such a thing? I've not heard that one before. So the beer behind the bar that the bartender offered is not considered alcohol? Wow, your wisdom is uncanny." Zing.

She continues to bashJoyce's crazy ranting (and never listening to others) at Lisa's house. "As I walked into Lisa's house all I heard was shouting." She shared that she overhead Joyce's vents. "I hear Joyce say loudly, "She's is an alcoholic," certainly loud enough for us to hear across the pool. I walked over to Joyce not to "defend" but just to try and get an understanding of where her head is at and why the constant barrage of irresponsible labels. Then all of a sudden she's off and running. I am back in the Twilight Zone. Her mouth is going a million miles an hour and any kind of noise coming out just sounds like one continuous, inaudible buzz. All I can focus on is her mouth moving at a rapid rate like one of those tightly wound-up sets of chattering teeth. It's very hard to reason with a person when they don't come up for air and you can't get a word in edgewise. It's a little manic, and I don't do crazy."

TELL US – DOES JOYCE NEED TO SLOW DOWN AND LISTEN AS MUCH AS SHE TALKS AND RANTS?