But the question came up today. Maca asked me after I pointed out to him that this month will be 1 year since the night I wrote him a letter saying I was sorry, but this was me and I couldn't pretend to do monogomy anymore.

He asked me if it had been worth it to me.
I said yes. The fact that we've finally got a REAL relationship, a REAL connection could make most anything worth it.

He wrote me back, "believe it or not its been worth it to me too".

I couldn't help but smile.

It wasn't easy. In fact, it's been hell quite a bit of the time.

However, the value of what we've found, the happiness, the security, the confidence, has all been worth the effort we had to put in.