Recent Comments by Shawna Ayoub Ainslie

Of Matriarchs and MemoriesThank you, Elaine. I did a lot of crying in front of and with them once school was out. They weren’t sure how to feel, so seeing my sadness helped. You are right about the sharing of grief. I’m glad I stayed open.

I am so glad you love the parenting. It is very unnatural to me; a constant battle to be kind. Even now I am struggling not to be angry about crumbs and drips and kids who refuse to listen the first or second or third time.

I look forward to each task they learn to complete on their own. Each bit of independence. But I am also working hard to enjoy the other moments. Books are almost always a win. Sharing stories fills my heart. 🙂

Parenting is Hard and I Don’t Like ItI think, here, there have been longer stretches in between the beautiful moments despite my constant reframing. The kids are pushing boundaries, I have been dealing with some background noise, and there is the running to and fro. Mama, we need a break.

Oh, I know just what you are talking about! That first child. We have no idea what’s coming. I wish I had, but the romance did make pregnancy sweet.

The wisdom makes the journey worth it for me. I have grown so much. I do wish I could set it aside. Afford childcare. Leave for weeks at a time. But I hate missing those moments. There is a balance even to the dislike and resentment.

How has your relocation gone?

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Shawna Ayoub Ainslie

Shawna Ayoub Ainslie is a coach, writer and creator of online safe spaces for artists engaging issues of survivorship and social justice. The Honeyed Quill is her writing home. Find her here or facilitating #LinkYourLife every Friday on Twitter, and #LinkYourLife Connection, an artist support forum on Facebook.