43 Things I Was Thinking About Instead of Sleeping

I’ve been battling a bit of insomnia. Last night, fed up with the ridiculousness of my brain not shutting off, I decided to pick up my phone and just write down everything that was running through my brain.

I should be sleeping but, I’m just face down, thinking…

I started writing this list at 2:38 a.m. and this is the stream of consciousness that followed.

I probably should’ve added “create an image for this blog post to the list” but I am leaving it at 43. Here’s the thing: I should’ve only been thinking of sleeping and resting. And yet, when I don’t do those last 3 items on the list, everything becomes a jumble of thoughts and nerves and “need to do’s”. Y’all! Why was I thinking of all of this instead of sleeping?

I’m winning my sleep back by making sure that the first things on the list are me, me, me. I can’t do it all if I am not well. Sometimes we focus on way too much and that tends to paralyze our forward movement. I need rest, y’all. Sleep and peace. Those are the two things I am praying for as I round the corner to my birthday this weekend.

Do you find yourself staying up at night with your mind racing? What do you do to throttle it down?

Comments

This happens to me at least once a week! What’s for dinner tomorrow? What am I going to wear to work? What is the weather going to be like? Am I going to the gym? Am I going to remember to take out the meat for dinner in the morning? Now that I’m up should I get out of bed to use the bathroom? Do I have any meetings tomorrow?

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Sili Recio is a mom, blogger and activist based in Orlando, Florida. She is deeply committed to changing the world and works daily to inspire and empower women through storytelling and advocacy. Sili has been named as a Top Blogger by Latina Magazine and has attended White House summits with MomsRising, a grassroots organization advocating for moms and families. Read more →