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So much for 30 Days of Dare HAHAHA! I gave up after like whutt, five posts? Shameful.
I have my reasons tho...
a) I shifted my focus on another project,
b) I got a bit busy with school
c) writer's block.

I have been learning a lot at school. Recently, I've made not one, but two 360 videos! It was sucha paaaain to make, but so worth it! I am still new, so I really struggled, a lot, (and at some points, I hated it) but at the end of it, I had a ton of fun. It was difficult to fine tune the setting, and complicated to get the editing right. But, it's all good now, all good! Check out my video, I put it up on my sister's Youtube channel.
One frustration that I have is the pixel. It simply cannot be HD no matter how I do it, and it is the weakness of 360 videos right now, I am not gonna get techy and explain, but, please bear with me until the world figures how to solve this one out!

Not only that, for this semester, I have made a persuasive poster for The Global Goals, info-graphic poster of an instructional thesis, an advertorial video of a coffee shop, a very very short 3D animation video, even a dummy and real Youtube channel for an instructional video assignment!
It was a steep learning curve, that's fosho!

At the same time, I was also helping out 2015 ConvEx team with publicity! We had Pink October challenge, countdown and a lot more!
What's next is, exam and I am planning on uploading more videos on my Youtube channel or my sister's. That should be fun!

I have learnt a lot. I've loved it so far, because that is what I wanted, to learn as much as I can. And wonderful memories that I have made, I feel so blessed.

It had been a roller-coaster ride, for the past few months. Gotta admit that I had a thought of deleting my blogs (here and Wordpress) because I no longer update them and it makes feel like there is no use on keeping them anymore. But, I do truly love writing and I don't want to just get rid of precious valuables just because I feel like it. Everything I have written are my memories.
I know that from time to time, I might have other matters to focus on, and from time to time to, I shall have my rest, but I won't give this up. So, here is to not giving up!
And Happy New Year!

My sister dared me to write about truth. Very vague. I had no idea what would I write about. And due to uhm unforeseen circumstances this post is delayed, for more than a couple days.

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My sister wrote about her inspiration drought. Hey, same here! Here is how I draw my inspiration, from watching a drama. I find myself being able to relate to the character(/s). And somehow, I found my truth.

For starters, Liar Game, as the title suggests, the drama is about a game to find the best liar. With tons of money to be won, it wasn't so difficult to turn people against each other, and soon enough players start manipulating and lying and tricking one another. The addiction comes from the lies, it gets better with every stage. But one character remains level-headed with pure intention.

I find myself questioning how uncommon honesty has become.

As if that is not bad enough, I realised that I too, had so much difficulty to answer to my sister's dare; to be honest and speak of a truth. How difficult can it be? Turns out it was hell for me.

I did my bit of self-reflection and errr now I have the courage to say truthfully, that I am honestly a very angry person.

But, I had put that side of me away, and I made a conscious effort to be better. I chose kindness and happiness. I carefully mind my personality and my emotions. I believed that if I put enough effort, I can be different.

And I did. I did convinced some people. But, I didn't do so well in convincing myself.

I can easily revert to my old self.

Whenever I get taken for granted, whenever I get underestimated, whenever I get questioned for my honesty.

I hold grudges.

I watch people believing that I am the type of person I had crafted for them to see.

Tell me if that is not hypocrite, then what am I actually?

Urm, I am not so sure myself.

So, a question remains unanswered, what is my true self?

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Now, I dare my sister to answer the question. A word of advice would be nice.
Good luck!

I don't remember how or when I started to pick up the habit of creating wish list. A 17 years old me was never a fan, it would make me feel so constrained and restricted. I guess, as I entered my 20s, I pick up new habit.

I now have many different lists, I have a list of 365 Things for 2014, which I clearly wasn't able to complete. But, it doesn't bother me, or stop me. I still keep various different lists. I would love to share my bucket list. I'll save it for another day.

One key take-out is that I have a lot of dreams to accomplish. Unfortunately, I have a tons of thing I regret not doing too. I am a bundle of regrets, yes. Here, I have shortlisted 3 of the worsts.

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1. Not studying literature (properly)

The Kampung Boy by Dato' Lat, one of my literature assignment.

The Secret Garden by Frances Burnett, one of the children's literature novel I was also assigned to study.

This may seem ridiculous, but this is a big deal to me.

Number one, I'm not a reader. Number two, I just don't get literature.

During my high-school years, I aced literature by memorizing, word-by-word. I never actually understand the content and the meaning behind it. There was no critical thinking at all. Zero.

Oddly, it was not until I signed up for Children's Literature class that I find a way to connect with literature. Slowly, I began to understand it, and mann, the craft. I felt ignorant that I underestimated the significance of literature in daily life.

Literature improves my vocabulary, it adds meaning to conversations, and it changes the way I think. I no longer view a mountain only as a mountain, I see a symbol a strength and spiritual holiness.

I have slowly make reading a habit, but I am unable to fully get into the literature mindset, and I still find archaic English and Shakespearean highly difficult.

What if I have started earlier? Would I be better?

P/S : There is nothing worse than feeling like a bimbo in a house of intelligent individuals

2. Not starting a saving fund for travelling

I am guilty of spending wayyyy too much money on food, and hardly keeping anything for savings.

One fear that I have is I don't travel much because I was afraid of it. I often go to places that I am familiar with, but rarely to new ones.

I have dared myself to go to unfamiliar places, and I cannot deny the charms of new grounds. It feels good to be out of my comfort zones once in a while. Learning new cultures & meeting new people, it opens up my perspectives.

However, it does come in a hefty price tag. It burnt quite a lot of my savings. And I still have a long list of places to go.

Without the money in the bank, hmmm, I need moneyy time and patience.

3. Not standing up to bullies

This is one sensitive topic.

I believe, we have all been bullied and we too have all been the bullies. That is how life is, I bet.

I was a rebel. I caused trouble. But, only when I was picked on. I fought back. But there were also times, I let the bullies get away, in fear of the damage that would come afterwards.

Naturally an introvert, standing up is never easy. I seek security through forgiveness, that was my way out. Comforting, but, forgiveness was not easy either. It can quickly spiraled down to hatred, and that is just disgusting and sick.

Through time, I've learnt that being able to stand up against bullies cultivates courage and confidence. Most importantly, it instills faith for oneself, for what ones believe ones deserve.

I could have also been a bully. However, I am now a believer that violence is a weakness, and bullying is insecurity, as long as I don't let myself fell into the trap of power play & over-confidence.

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Well, that's a wrap. Thank you for reading such a lengthy post. Share with me your thoughts! What are your regrets? Please tell me I'm not alone in all these mess.

Now, Ira, I dare you to write about your Epic Success & Failures. I'll be waiting. Good luck!

Last night, my sister and I have agreed to battle on a 30-day blog challenge. Bad move, Bahiyah. Bad move. My sister is one heck of a brilliant writer, she is an avid reader and a linguistic star student. She provides great content e-ve-ry-time.

I love her writing, but she hasn't been writing lately. Instead of backing down, I chose to go ahead and sacrificed myself for the game. This is a way to lure her back into the writing scene, and this is also a fun way to turn writing into a game. Oooh, I love games. I am aware that there are tons of similar challenge around. Here is our own spin :

We will take turn to write for 30 consecutive days, but each one of us will dare the other with a title-of-the-day. Just like any other sports game (ie: badminton, tennis, etc), once I've served, she responds. She HAS to respond, are you reading this, Ira? In her next post, she will write based on the title I dared her with, and the game goes on back-and-forth.

I was dead-set on getting right into a job as soon as I completed my internship. Until I decided to just go for a Master's in whichever field I feel close to my heart. #justdoit

And I chose, Multimedia!

I was on the fence between IMC (Integrated Marketing Communication) and Multimedia. It makes more sense if I stay in my field and go for IMC, but there's no challenge there. It feels too right that it seems wrong.

Haha!

So, I chose the latter for one and one reason only, I do not want to spend the next 30, 40 years of my life pining over lost opportunity, thinking of what it would be like if I had studied Multimedia.

It is definitely out of the field of my mastery, but the whole of point of education is to learn, isn't it? So, here I am, dying to learn - learning something new.

But, obviously I can't reason with my mum with such vague arguments. So, I presented it with opinions I gathered from spending six months in FMCG, that I feel are somewhat more reasonable :

1. Digital Shift

Corporate sectors are moving into digital but lacking talents with sufficient knowledge. Digital is now a must, it is no longer an option. This Master's Degree will provide me with an edge to differentiate me when I dive into the talent pool.

I spent years studying business & marketing, and USM had successfully molded me with a marketeer's mindset. But, if I want to improve, I need to be able to understand different angles and to think in various ways. To acquire the skill would require me to migrate from my usual norms. Truth is, #letsflee.

Life is basically, day-in-day-out. Life is already a bore on its own. I need to spice it up a little. The path may not be the safest nor the best, and mum might be worried. Fear not dearest mum because your daughter is a warrior. #makemumproud

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You made it till here, WOW! Thank you. If you know me, I am super-lol in person. Despite all the things I've said, my main goal in life is to pursue Master's degree and Ph.D remain vibrant and happy. Cool to be serious for a minute, but come on,lighten up, okay!
Have a nice day!
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P/S :
Anyway, wish me luck!
♥‿♥

I'm so close to saying "Nice to meet you", but that is not legit, right? So, good day, it is.

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This is a blog that I have kept for years. Began on January 2012, this blog was my platform to connect with close friends.

However, fast-forward two years later, the younger me went ballistic and deleted all my past entries. I did a major spring-clean to prepare myself for a more professional life and this tiny space was left squeaky clean. Soon, this blog went on a hiatus.

And because I'm such a fickle-mind, I went on a platform-hop spree; from tumblr, to wordpress, and now I am back, ladies! That is very sexist, I got it.

A snippet for introduction, I am a twenty-something, very basic girl. In 2015, I took a huge leap by spending six months interning for a big beauty company. En route to graduation, I decided to dedicate Life After Graduation as a documentation of all my experiences; lifestyle, education, career, to name a few, starting from the end of my Bachelor's Degree.