Monday, September 24, 2012

being honest--just a little

good monday morning blogging friends and others that might occasionally take a peek at this blog----

i am feeling the need or urge to write today-----funny, i was just telling frank that i was giving up my blog---

i really didn't know exactly why i was thinking this way, but it seemed to make sense---kinda like that one change thingy-----but here i am-----

unlike most of you or lots of you--i am the lazy writer----i would so enjoy being able to make money at this thing i do---but i am not willing to work for it----

my passion for writing comes and it goes----and from all the published writers out there, it sounds like it is agony to try to make it in the writing world----

i do toy with the idea of writing a new poetry collection---but someone will have to "discover" me haha-

well enough about that---i planned to write today about what i have observed and or learned about life and people and myself, the last couple of days--

okay i will jump in now-----oh and by the way, i am always happy to have comments---but i must tell you that i am not writing this today, to have anyone argue with me------not that i have had anyone do that yet---but then again, i don't usually talk very honestly about my opinion and such---

i think more people are cruel and judgemental (i know, i am judging here)----and truly mean spirited----i think the loving caring people are rarer than i once thought----bloggers must have the nice gene, by the way---

i have once again confirmed that buying things for other people and cooking, for them is one of the things i enjoy most in life----i have a deep desire to pray for people too--but i do not enjoy this, because it is so hard------

-----the older i get, the more i miss being young----i can sit and do nothing, a lot easier, except when i am in church----let me explain--

i do not know what it is---it has nothing to do with the service or the preacher, the choir or anything but me-------i guess that is one of the reasons i did children's church so long----when i am at church, i am better, if i am running around doing something------i loved to do the goody bags and "think" of the craft stuff---i could never implement the craft---just an idea person---

but i don't want to do children's church any longer----i don't think-------okay back to life and other people

great things can come along sooner----waaaaay sooner than you think-----something you thought would be looooong down the road, can sneak up on ya and shock your heart back into rythmn--

okay people----hmmmm, i was pretty hard on them back up there, wasn't i----wish i could tell ya i didn't mean it---but, if you ever experience something in life, something that is life crushing---you will see how many can hang with ya---yeah there may be lots flocking in the beginning---but we humans move on when it gets just too darn hard---

life is not easy, people cannot be expected to understand, and i won't always be writing this blog or writing period------one day i won't give a fig about what's for dinner----but for today, i am once again struggling with whether to have tater tots or fries---

51 comments:

fries. I do agree with your take about life. Children's church is hard (and honestly for the young I think). Having said that, since I'm working children's church, I do look forward to my Sunday afternoon naps. I didn't need Sunday afternoon naps before I started doing children's church this round back in March.

life is hard; people are people; God is faithful and consistent and true; and it is also refreshing to know this is not the end of our story; it will carry into eternity and that is something to look forward to indeed

i really enjoyed doing cc--but i think i am suppose to being doing something else--haha i know what you mean about those naps----yeah people are people--it's just that because of life lately, i have seen more than the usual nasty side we humans possess----yep that eternity thing keeps me going--and i am leaning towards tots :)

Sometimes life makes us feel like slugs. I agree many bloggers are nice, we're on public view, after all. Perhaps you do need to shrug off a few duties, and reduce your commitments. Carve out some time for you.

I wrote about that at the link below. It's an explanation that taking time for self benefits others too. Link - http://dghudson.blogspot.ca/2011/10/duty-vs-self-finding-time.html

thanks d.g.---i don't think i will try the oven fries tonight but that would be better---you know i don't really have too many commitments--it's just something my whole family is going through right now, that is bringing out the biggiest worst idiots opinions----sorry i can't elaborate----but i think you are so right--i have been blogging less and i am glad you voted for me to stay :)

I haven't eaten tator tots since I was kid. Now I am wanting some! I love thing you just said, "idiot's opinions." People always have opinions and it can drive me nuts. I just keep telling myself that the only thing that matters is what God thinks. I understand about blogging. It can take up heaps of time and we have figure out where our priorities are. Sometimes journaling or writing helps to clear our minds. So it's not a bad thing. Best wishes for you!

oh you should try tots again, they are great and there is a tater tot casserole that is so good---haha, i guess i just call it like i see it sometimes---and so right, God's voice is the right voice and my constant companion no matter what the world might say or do---thanks for your support and encouragement monica :)

There's a lot of pressure to make money on the internet through blogging, writing, etc. And if that's someone's desire and bent, I'm all for them going for it. But sometimes, I agree... it can get to feeling like you aren't valid in your blogging if you're not making money, and that's patently untrue. It's totally okay, and desirable!!, to blog just to blog, because you enjoy the writing.

I blogged for a few years when it was new and people did it just for fun.

Some things came up in my life and I took a 3 year break. When I came back to blogging, it was all the rage... but it was all the rage as a money-making opportunity. I admit that I got briefly caught up in that. I learned about guest blogging and traffic and sponsorship and all of that stuff... And then I remembered that I just like to write. I like to write and I don't care about the monetization factor.

I just want to write. And it's okay to just want to write. For us both. :)

thanks joanne--that is how i felt when i started to blog a few years ago--i had a few followers, hardly ever a comment, but i wrote anyway--until i didn't--now i would be ecstatic if i could make money writing--but sometimes i just have to write :)

Lynn, every time I read your blog, something speaks to me. I feel exactly the same way about blogging/writing. It would be ideal to make money at doing something I love, but in reality? It does take work to promote yourself, and self-promotion doesn't interest me. I've never been good at it. Mostly, I've landed on the side of, I need to write for myself. Writing is expressing your own voice and we all need to do that SOMEHOW. I pray about it too, and pray that my writing be meaningful and not just trivia (although I have a goofy quiz up now :-).) and honoring of God. But, I, too, think, someday I'll be on to the next thing....blogging will go by the wayside, like every other interest, "hobby" I've picked up over the years. Everything is temporary, and it's OK to move on when your heart is done/restless. However, I enjoy your wisdom and insight and appreciate you gift. :-)

i am so glad you feel that way about the blog, mare---i love yours too--your quiz was fun--you speak to me a lot also--that is one reason i probably won't give up on my blog at the moment--i feel connected with you guys out there---i especially enjoy the connection of my faith too----thanks mare :)

So much of what we do is about making choices and I've chosen to blog for a few years. I like it most of the time. When it starts to wear on me, I take a break. (That will be happening soon, I might add.) I've also chosen to write, but like you I don't have to be at it 100% of the time to feel like I'm doing something worthwhile. I think taking breaks is good.

Hey Lynn sorry I haven't been by much, hope you are well. Believe me I can relate to just ditching the blog, I've wanted to many times but great people like you are out there reading and commenting and it helps keep us writers going somehow. Have a great week my friend.

Hey Lynn! I think we all go through that, the "I'm not blogging ever again" or "I'm done writing for a while." I've taken a year or more between projects in the past and it felt great. Sometimes, not obsessing about words is exactly what you need. Good luck. If you need time off, take it.

the dolldrums are the hardest and most forgettable parts of life for me...and getting old really stinks! glad you expressed yourself today! hope it felt good to get it out! and i agree, i wish it were easier to write & be published =)

yep--old age ain't for sissies haha---yeah i was published once in my neighbor's magazine---i didn't have to go after it, she just asked---that's what i want-;)---yes such great advice--really do what makes ya happy tara!:)

i know---i hurts me when people judge so quickly and wish for others to get what they "deserve"--all the while they would be praying for mercy for themselves or their loved ones---i smile too miranda :)

I think we all have personal "down days." It's part of being human. And it is OK to feel that way, nothing to feel guilty about. Usually you can figure out what triggered your feelings. Good deeds and good people abound, the "Pay it Forward" continues.

you know i want to believe the best of people but as i said in the comment above--this idea is not too strong in me lately----and as i believe the bible, it says there is no one that is good---and paul says the good that he would do, he finds he does not----i just wish people could look at others sometimes and think how they might feel and act and comment if the person was their child---i really do believe what you said about paying it forward--the reaping and sowing thing--thanks :)

Lynn, I am really glad you write this blog. I may not check in on you everyday (life is that way), but I appreciate your thoughts and sentiments. There are a lot of difficult people out in the world, but there are so many good ones, too. You're one of them.

oh i know---i haven't been checking like i want to--hope you are having a good week--and there are a lot of nice people of which i know you are one of the nicest for sure--i am glad you like to read my stuff--i love keeping up with you too--thanks susan<3

Lynn, I wanted to say that you are so good about praying for people, and I know that from years of friendship. When Sarah was in the hospital, the surgeon came by on Sunday evening to explain everything and was pretty grim. I was so upset and scared. The one thing I told Bill to do was go home and call you and Frank and ask you to pray for Sarah. In case you wonder why I didn't call, it is because I was way too upset to even talk. But, you were one of the first people I thought of for prayer -- that is the absolute truth. So know that being a prayer warrier is appreciated more than you might imagine. Also, the children's church thing. You were very good at it and if you really want to do it you should think about doing it again. Really. The kids love you and they really had a lot of fun and I like the way you are so good with all my special needs kids. Anyway, just a thought.

sharon--i just saw this today, wed. oct. 10th---i guess i should get that email thingy notice haha---what a sweet comment---i do pray for people and of course i believe prayer works---i could so identify with you and sarah when she was in so much trouble---it brought back memories of many times with very sick children--and you were always there for me too--i am sorry i didn't do more than pray when sarah was in the hospital----i am not driving too far these days--long story---but just know you and sarah and all of your family were on my heart so much--and i believe sarah truly experienced a miracle---and as for children's church---i don't really think i want to do it, i am just at loose ends right now and going through something, that is kinda hard to explain---it's not really anything in particular---just probably i'm a nut!---i did really enjoy doing children's church and always loved working with all of your precious kids---thanks for taking the time to encourage me with your kindness <3 ya