Having a hard day - Gentle Whispers of Hope

My 22 yr old niece is in labor with her second at this moment! It makes me want to scream! This whole "taking a break from ttc" is also killing me. At the beginning of the week I noticed some EWCM and I mentioned it to DH and he got all upset because I am noticing symptoms and I guess I am not suppose to notice anything! I am sure the entire ttc with infertility issues takes a toll on DH but he doesn't talk about it and after it just makes me think that we are back peddling instead of moving forward. I know that we can not afford to keep having procedures! I am just so heartbroken that I may never be a mom and I feel like DH wants a child but would also be ok without one. Ok enough wallowing in self-pity!

So she had the baby last night. Part of me is glad that I am not close at all to my father since she is using his first name but then part of me is pissed about it. Because she doesn't know if we are or aren't close and I would think that since I am the generation before I would get first choice regarding family names! But I guess not. Another thing is she is naming him after her dad's dad and her mom's dad and then going to nickname him my stepdad's name! I think this is pretty selfish too considering that she 1. She doesn't even like him and vise versa 2) just because you are the first in your generation to have kids doesn't give you the right to take all the male family names! What if his own grandkids wanted to name their kids after not only their grandfather but their dad too (same name).

No I would feel the same way too. When DH's brother started dating this girl I completely flipped out that BIL was gonna get her pregnant and give MIL and FIL their first biological grandchild. So far they are not pregnant, but given the fact that BIL is a drug addict and only dates fellow drug addicts I can only assume they will be pregnant in no time lol.