That's not what he meant at all.
I had a suicide in my family recently.

I hadn't seen her since I was little, but I knew her father really well. He was the one that found her. His own daughter. He was the most outgoing family member I had, and I, for the first time in my life, saw him as something completely different. Defeated. Suicide is selfish and cowardly because NOTHING that you leave behind is positive. People are forced to forever ask themselves if there was anything more that they could have done, but they will never get that answer. I have not seen her since I was 4, and even I still have trouble with myself. Maybe if she would have known me more, she wouldn't have done something so horrible and left her family behind....

well perspective changes when it's personal. another point i'd like to emphasize is that i think suicide is stupid if you do it for the wrong reasons. for example, if i heard that a guy at my school killed himself because he couldn't handle the stress during finals, then i'd say that it was stupid. but if you're at a point in your life where everything is stripped away from you and you have nothing and no one to turn to and you've tried (actually tried) to make a change and you are stopped at every point, then i think it's an okay decision. not the greatest decision, but i wouldn't be mad at the person. i can't imagine the emotional distress a suicidal person has. and i've thought about killing myself multiple times. but i came to the conclusion that i'd never be able to do it. when i get low, i usually just wish death upon myself.

It's really hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes. We all have our trials, and we both know that we can't be for sure which one of us has gone through worse, but I'm going to share with you something that saved my life a while back.

It isn't about what we've been through, its what we do with what we've learned in our trials. I might have my demons of my past, but wishing them to go away won't help anybody.

But maybe.
Just maybe.
I can use those past demons to better the people around me. I'm not sure if I deserve improvement, but everyone else sure as hell does. And I hope one day someone else is better off because of me.

That's why my death just isn't an option to me. Before I leave this Earth, someone has to improve because of my life. It might not be till I am 80, or it might be tomorrow. If I'm one of the lucky few, I will change the world. But I will be fine with one, because one is all it takes.

Honestly, that's the exact reason I decided not to kill myself. I mean too much to my friends and family, I didn't want them to be sad and have this horrible trauma haunt them for the rest of their lives because I couldn't cope with my emotions for a year or two.

I'm better now though. I still hold it dear to my heart that I live for my friends and family though, because without them, you're not really living are you