Being balanced on the path

Comment: You do naturally develop sensitivity over the years. You can get feedback from people’s faces or their energy or their response – some kind of natural mechanism. You can start to become more receptive to how they’re being, instead of becoming too cautious.

This answer was given by Kim Michaels at a conference in Holland.

Kim: That’s what I was going to say, that I found that in myself. I’ve obviously gone through that, becoming more sensitive. Especially when I was younger, I thought I should save the world, preferably this afternoon. [Laughter] But I’ve also then swung too far, and you almost become overly sensitive to people’s reactions, where you don’t dare to be yourself. That’s what I have started in the last years. I’ve just started saying: “Well, you know what? Set people free so they can react any way they want. But set yourself free to be who you are regardless.”

Comment: That statement “I will be who I will be.”

Kim: Yeah, yeah. It’s essentially God saying: “Whatever has happened in the past that’s going to hold me back in the future, I’ll just transcend it. You’re not going to hold me.”

Comment: El Morya when he ascended also had that exuberance. And when he ascended, he said: “Well, what’s my job?” and they said: “Well, save the earth.” He said: “Yeah, and what am I going to do after that?” [Laughter] Then he realized there was a lot more work than he expected.

Kim: It was like I was saying after the Great Divine Director’s dictation, I really felt how that light is so powerful it can consume anything on earth. But we obviously know it’s not going to be allowed to consume everything on earth. So you have to find that balance. I remember, especially when I first found the ascended masters’ teachings, I just felt so uplifted and optimistic about this that it was really, really hard to have that optimism and then have to deal with everyday daily life.

Comment: But you still find it different. I mean, when you’re aroused about something, then, of course, you have to bring it down to normal proportions to communicate, and I understand that part. But when you feel the love vibrating in you, to utilize the Wisdom of the Mother, to direct that in normal proportions, I find that difficult. One thing is an emotion, and the other thing is who you are, a state of being.

Kim: Yes, I think it is for all of us a balance to find. And again I don’t have a solution to it, but I can see that sometimes there’s a part of me which expects that, if I keep talking long enough, the perfect answer will come out. [Laughter] But I try sometimes to be attuned to the other person and what do they need.

So I’m saying it’s really not about me, and this is what I’ve been doing for years with my service as a messenger. Often when I’ve done a conference, for example, I’ve been flying for two days to get there, and I’m a little bit tired, there are a lot of people that want my attention, and this and that. Then all of a sudden, after all of that, I have to stand there and take a dictation. It can sometimes be really difficult to have the horizontal and then have the vertical. The way I’ve gone beyond it in the past is to say: “Oh, this is not about me. This is about me serving the masters and helping other people.” So that has kind of helped me balance it so that I’m tuned in to what people need.

But in the last couple of years I’ve also started realizing that I have to be true to myself and dare to express myself. So that’s a very dynamic balance there. It’s like again there is no absolute solution to it, because I feel that, yes, I should be attuned to other people, but there should be situations where I can dare to be myself and express what I need to express. It can’t always be that I’m so concerned about others that I’m not letting myself flow. But I still have some fear of letting myself flow, because I don’t know how people will be able to handle it. And that’s funny because since I haven’t dared to let myself flow, I don’t know what’s going to happen. So I’m fearing something I don’t know.