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I Was Here by Gayle Forman Published by Viking Press on January 27th 2015 Genre: Young Adult Format: Hardcover Pages: 270 Challenge Theme: A book set on a college or university campus Buy on Barnes & NobleBuy on Amazon

Synopsis:Cody and Meg were inseparable.
Two peas in a pod.
Until . . . they weren’t anymore.

When her best friend Meg drinks a bottle of industrial-strength cleaner alone in a motel room, Cody is understandably shocked and devastated. She and Meg shared everything—so how was there no warning? But when Cody travels to Meg’s college town to pack up the belongings left behind, she discovers that there’s a lot that Meg never told her. About her old roommates, the sort of people Cody never would have met in her dead-end small town in Washington. About Ben McAllister, the boy with a guitar and a sneer, who broke Meg’s heart. And about an encrypted computer file that Cody can’t open—until she does, and suddenly everything Cody thought she knew about her best friend’s death gets thrown into question.

Review:
This book was just ok, not bad but not great. I enjoyed the aspect of Cody trying to come to terms with her best friend’s suicide by trying to figure out why she would do that. Unfortunately when it comes to suicide no one ever really knows. I found the fact that there are suicide encouragement groups online horrifying. Not that it surprises me in today’s world but it is horrifying nonetheless. I also enjoyed how the relationship between Cody and her mother developed over the course of the book. What I didn’t love was the romance aspect between Cody and Ben. I just didn’t find it necessary to the story at all. I didn’t mind the relationship being in the story but would have made more sense as a friendship, at least to me. I found it to be a forced romance in a book about something else entirely. Also I probably could have found a better book to fit the theme. While some of this book is set on a college campus the majority was not. Oh well, you live and you learn!

Favorite Quotes:
“You had a pile of rocks, and you cleaned them up pretty and made a necklace. Meg got jewels, and she hung herself with them.”

“It’s funny how once you start pretending, you realize how much everyone else is too.”

“She didn’t tell me that she found life to be so unbearably painful. I mean, I didn’t even have a clue.” A kind of laugh escapes, and I know that if I’m not very careful, what follows will be something I don’t want to hear, that no one wants to hear. How can you not know that about your best friend? Even if she doesn’t tell you, how can you not know? How can you believe someone to be beautiful and amazing and just about the most magical person you’ve ever known, when it turns out she was in such pain that she had to drink poison that robbed her cells of oxygen until her heart had no choice but to stop beating? So don’t ask me about Meg. Because I don’t know shit.”

“Life can be hard and beautiful and messy, but hopefully, it will be long. If it is, you will see that it’s unpredictable, and that the dark periods comes, but they abate — sometimes with a lot of support — and the tunnel widens, allowing the sun back in. If you’re in the dark, it might feel like you will always be there. Fumbling. Alone. But you won’t — and you’re not.”

“It seems abstract when you’re dealing with people online, but they are still people, and some of them are not nice people, not the kind you ever want to be in a room with.”
Sometimes you don’t even need to be in the same room for the damage to be done.”

One of Us is Lying by Karen McManus Published by Delacorte Press on May 30th 2017 Genre: Young Adult Format: Hardcover Pages: 361 Challenge Theme: A book told from multiple character POVs Buy on Barnes & NobleBuy on Amazon

Synopsis:Pay close attention and you might solve this.

On Monday afternoon, five students at Bayview High walk into detention.
Bronwyn, the brain, is Yale-bound and never breaks a rule.
Addy, the beauty, is the picture-perfect homecoming princess.
Nate, the criminal, is already on probation for dealing.
Cooper, the athlete, is the all-star baseball pitcher.
AndSimon, the outcast, is the creator of Bayview High’s notorious gossip app.

Only, Simon never makes it out of that classroom. Before the end of detention, Simon’s dead. And according to investigators, his death wasn’t an accident. On Monday, he died. But on Tuesday, he’d planned to post juicy reveals about all four of his high-profile classmates, which makes all four of them suspects in his murder. Or are they the perfect patsies for a killer who’s still on the loose?
Everyone has secrets, right? What really matters is how far you would go to protect them.

Review:
This book has been described as The Breakfast Club meets Pretty Little Liars and that is definitely a good description. I really enjoyed this book. Like everyone else I could not stand Simon. The fact that someone is OK with torturing other people by revealing their secrets is disgusting especially when it comes to things such as outing someone. Unfortunately it is so relevant with our culture right now, especially in regards to social media. People take their own misery out on other people and it is atrocious. As far as the book goes I really enjoyed the writing, MOST of the characters (especially those in the murder club), and all the twists and turns.

***SPOILER ALERT***

Besides loving the twists & turns I also loved the relationship between Nate & Bronwyn and Cooper & Kris. I have to admit I did NOT see the twist coming until it was pretty much right in front of my face. After reading all the reviews I feel a little dumb I didn’t see it sooner, haha. Looking back it should have been so obvious. Clearly I wasn’t paying enough attention. I also ended up hating Jake, maybe even more than Simon. Poor baby, you were cheated on…not sure trying to frame your ex for murder is getting even. Grow a set psycho! This was definitely a good thriller with a good AHA moment towards the end. Recommended!

Favorite Quotes:
“I don’t know why it’s so hard for people to admit that sometimes they’re just assholes who screw up because they don’t expect to get caught.”

“I know what it’s like to tell yourself a lie so often that it becomes the truth.”

“Honestly, I don’t care what we do. I just want to stay wrapped around him for as long as possible, fighting sleep and forgetting about the rest of the world.”

“I wish he’d listen, because if anyone knows how badly you can screw up your life when you decide you’re not good enough, it’s me.”

The Sacrifice of Sunshine Girl by Paige McKenzie Series: The Haunting of Sunshine Girl, #3 Published by Hachette on April 4th 2017 Genre: Young Adult Format: Hardcover Pages: 322 Challenge Theme: Your favorite prompt from a past POPSUGAR reading challenge (The next book in a series you started) Buy on Barnes & NobleBuy on Amazon

Synopsis:Sunshine Griffith can communicate with ghosts. Even more amazing—to herself; her boyfriend, Nolan; and her adoptive mom, Kat—she’s recently learned she’s a luiseach, one of an ancient race of creatures who have lived among humans for centuries, protecting them from dark spirits and helping them move on to the afterlife.

Having survived an abyss full of demons, Sunshine Griffith must figure out who—or what—has been organizing the forces of darkness against her. Do they want to destroy her and the rest of the endangered luiseach? Do they want to take over the world? Nolan has figured out that Sunshine’s death would trigger a calamitous event, so not only does she have to stay alive for herself, but for the fate of civilization. It’s not just the demons who want Sunshine dead, though. Her biological mother, Helena, is back. And what is Helena’s history with the mysterious man in black?

Fortunately for Sunshine, she has a lot of people (and ghosts) to help her stop the darkness: Nolan, her father and mentor Aidan, her mom Kat, Victoria, Lucio, Anna, and Ashley—whose handsome new crush, Sebastian, seems hauntingly familiar. But time may be running out as an unexpected event unleashes a fierce war between the luiseach and the demon army. In the midst of the fiery battle, Sunshine will learn a shocking truth about herself and what sort of sacrifice is required to save the world.

Review:
This was the final (as far as I know) book in the Sunshine Girl series and I think McKenzie wrapped it up nicely. Did this book blow me away, no, but it was enjoyable to read. This book had a good story line, a nice twist, and showed Sunshine coming into her full power. I loved that all the characters we have been introduced to in the previous books are present in this book and we get to know more about all of them. I don’t know how I feel about part of the ending that involves what happens to Sunshine after she battles the demon (don’t want to give it away) but I can see where it was a nice ending point.

The Awakening of Sunshine Girl by Paige McKenzie Series: The Haunting of Sunshine Girl, #2 Published by Hachette on March 1st 2016 Genre: Young Adult Format: Hardcover Pages: 296 Buy on Barnes & NobleBuy on Amazon

Synopsis:Sunshine Griffith can communicate with ghosts. Even more amazing, she recently discovered—with the help of her would-be boyfriend, Nolan—that she’s a luiseach, one of an ancient race of creatures who have lived among humans for centuries, protecting them from dark spirits and helping them move on to the afterlife. Now, Sunshine’s powers are awakening and she feels spirits everywhere—intense and sometimes overwhelming.

Eager to get her supernatural abilities under control, Sunshine agrees to begin training with her mentor, her estranged father Aidan. He takes her to an abandoned compound deep in the Mexican jungle. But what she learns there about her powers, and her family history, turns out to be more terrifying than Sunshine could have imagined. Can anything—Aidan’s experiments, her friendship with another luiseach named Lucio, even Nolan’s research—prepare Sunshine to face the frightening woman who haunts her dreams, and to finally learn the truth about the rift that threatens the future of the luiseach and all of humankind?

The stakes grow ever higher in this sequel to The Haunting of Sunshine Girl, revealing that Sunshine has to protect more than her own friends and family—she may be the key to saving the entire human race.

Review:
This was the third book I read in two days on my cruise so I read 3 books in 6 days. I was pretty proud of myself. This is the second book in the Sunshine Girl series and I did enjoy this book better than the first. That is what I was hoping for. In this book I liked the story better than I did in the first. The story gets more in depth of the power that Sunshine has and we meet new, interesting characters. I also really liked how it ended because it made me really want to read the 3rd installment ASAP. It is already on my list for next year’s Popsugar reading challenge. The one part that I could have done without was the love triangle between Sunshine, Lucio, & Nolan. Sometimes it is ok for men and women to just be friends. Not everything has to be romantic. Clearly we know who she belongs with so it just felt pointless. Aside from that I can’t wait to see how Sunshine’s story wraps up in the next book.

The Haunting of Sunshine Girl by Paige McKenzie Series: The Haunting of Sunshine Girl, #1 Published by Hachette on March 24th 2015 Genre: Young Adult Format: Hardcover Pages: 296 Challenge Theme: A book with a weather element in the title Buy on Barnes & NobleBuy on Amazon

Synopsis:Something freaky is going on with Sunshine’s new house… there’s the chill that wraps itself around her bones, the giggling she can hear in the dead of night, and then the strange shadows that lurk in her photographs. But the more weird stuff that happens, the less her mom believes her. Sunshine’s always had a quirky affiliation with the past, but this time, history is getting much too close for comfort…

If there is something, or someone, haunting her house, what do they want? And what will they do if Sunshine can’t help them?

As things become more frightening and dangerous, and the giggles she hears turn to sobs and screams, Sunshine has no choice but to accept what she is, face the test before her and save her mother from a fate worse than death.

Review:
When I picked this book I had no idea that is came from a popular YouTube series of the same name. To be honest I picked it because the main character’s name is Sunshine and that reminds me of my niece Sunny, who happens to be my favorite person in the world. Completely by accident I started reading it around Halloween so it was a good book for the season. I have to say I did enjoy the book….did it blow me away, no, but it held my interest. I really liked the subject matter & the characters. I liked it enough to want to read the trilogy. I am taking the second book of the series with me on my cruise this weekend along with two other books. I wanted something light and entertaining to read while on vacation and this series fits the bill. The overall rating of this series gets better each book so I am hoping I enjoy the second one even more.

Favorite Quotes:
“It’s impossible to feel homesick with the familiar weight of the book in my hands.”

Halloween Night by R.L. Stine Published by Scholastic Inc on September 1st 1993 Genre: Young Adult Format: Paperback Pages: 366 Challenge Theme: A book about or set on Halloween Buy on Barnes & NobleBuy on Amazon

Synopsis:Trick or treat! (And the trick is not to die….)

Everyone at McKinley High dreams about Halloween. The A-plus parties, the creepy costumes — it’s a blast. Everyone, that is, except Brenda Morgan. For Brenda, Halloween is a total nightmare.

Every year, something terrifying happens to her. Like someone smearing blood all over her bedroom wall. Or her friend stabbing her in the back — literally.

It’s almost like Halloween night is cursed for Brenda. And unfortunately, October 31 is just around the corner….

Review:
Let me start by saying I grew up reading Goosebumps and Fear Street books. Both were staples of my childhood. I still have about 20 Fear Street books that, as an adult, I still enjoy reading from time to time. With that being said this book was just stupid. The edition I had was both books of the series and they were both equally bad. It was pretty much the same story told twice, just different characters and a slightly different twist, if you even want to call it that. Brenda is clearly an idiot who is not good at picking friends or boyfriends. Halley is just an awful person. Brenda’s parents are blindly loyal to their niece rather than their daughter. If I had to chose I would say the second book was slightly better than the first but like I said they were both pretty terrible. I gave it 2 stars instead of one just because I really do love R.L. Stine and will just have to forgive him for these books.

I'll Give You the Sun by Jandy Nelson Published by Dial Books on September 16th 2014 Genre: Young Adult Format: Hardcover Pages: 371 Challenge Theme: A book with characters who are twins Buy on Barnes & NobleBuy on Amazon

Synopsis:“We were all heading for each other on a collision course, no matter what. Maybe some people are just meant to be in the same story.”

At first, Jude and her twin brother are NoahandJude; inseparable. Noah draws constantly and is falling in love with the charismatic boy next door, while daredevil Jude wears red-red lipstick, cliff-dives, and does all the talking for both of them.

Years later, they are barely speaking. Something has happened to change the twins in different yet equally devastating ways . . . but then Jude meets an intriguing, irresistible boy and a mysterious new mentor.

The early years are Noah’s to tell; the later years are Jude’s. But they each have only half the story, and if they can only find their way back to one another, they’ll have a chance to remake their world.

This radiant, award-winning novel from the acclaimed author of The Sky Is Everywhere will leave you breathless and teary and laughing—often all at once.

Review:
I absolutely adore this book!! I love the characters, the story, the way it was written, the artistic elements, and most importantly the relationship between Jude & Noah. Both when they are together and when they are apart. I love the way it was written from Noah’s perspective before the “incident” and from Jude’s after. To see how they both change from this event in vastly different ways, to become completely different people, shows how drastically different people handle tragedy. My favorite part is when I realized what the title meant. It always makes me smile when I figure out why a book has the title it does and this one made me so happy. The game Noah & Jude have is magical. Must read!!

Favorite Quotes:
“Meeting your soul mate is like walking into a house you’ve been in before – you will recognize the furniture, the pictures on the wall, the books on the shelves, the contents of drawers: You could find your way around in the dark if you had to.”

“I gave up practically the whole world for you,” I tell him, walking through the front door of my own love story. “The sun, stars, ocean, trees, everything, I gave it all up for you.”

“Or maybe a person is just made up of a lot of people,” I say. “Maybe we’re accumulating these new selves all the time.” Hauling them in as we make choices, good and bad, as we screw up, step up, lose our minds, find our minds, fall apart, fall in love, as we grieve, grow, retreat from the world, dive into the world, as we make things, as we break things.”

“Sometimes you think you know things, know things very deeply, only to realize you don’t know a damn thing.”

“It’s never occurred to me that the stars are still up there shining even in the daytime when we can’t see them.”

“We were all heading for each other on a collision course, no matter what. Maybe some people are just meant to be in the same story.”

“I think you can sort of slip out of your life and it can be hard to find a way back in.”

The Giver by Lois Lowry Series: The Giver, #1 Published by Houghton Mifflin Harcourt on April 26th 1993 Genre: Young Adult Format: Paperback Pages: 208 Challenge Theme: A childhood classic you’ve never read Buy on Barnes & NobleBuy on Amazon

Synopsis:This haunting story centers on twelve-year-old Jonas, who lives in a seemingly ideal, if colorless, world of conformity and contentment. Not until he is given his life assignment as the Receiver of Memory does he begin to understand the dark, complex secrets behind his fragile community.

Review:
I remember this book being popular when I was a kid but somehow I never read it so it was perfect for my challenge theme. I am so glad that I chose to read this book now as an adult rather than having read it as a child. Granted with age comes wisdom, so I can appreciate the concept of the book more, but I just don’t think young adults would truly understand the greatness that is this book. While there is something appealing about a society where mates are matched up perfectly, people are matched up with the job that will succeed in, families are all given two children, there is no war or hunger I just don’t think I could give up the things I would have to in order to achieve that. What is a world without true love, music, BOOKS, art, just to name a few. Not a world I would subscribe to even with the problems in my life.

I loved the concept of the book, I loved the relationship between Jonas & the Giver, and I loved that the book kept me engaged the entire time. I was told to read the rest of the series so I already have book #2 on hold at the library. Yet another young adult book that is great for adults. Plus quick reads help meet my reading goal 🙂

Favorite Quotes:
“The worst part of holding the memories is not the pain. It’s the loneliness of it. Memories need to be shared.”

“I feel sorry for anyone who is in a place where he feels strange and stupid.”

“The community of the Giver had achieved at such great price. A community without danger or pain. But also, a community without music, color or art. And books.”

“When people have the freedom to choose, they choose wrong, every single time.”

“Even trained for years as they all had been in precision of language, what words could you use which would give another the experience of sunshine?”

“If everything’s the same, then there aren’t any choices! I want to wake up in the morning and decide things!”

“He knew that there was no quick comfort for emotions like those. They were deeper and they did not need to be told. They were felt.”

Making Faces by Amy Harmon Published by Spencer Hill Press on October 20, 2013 Genre: Young Adult Format: Paperback Pages: 310 Challenge Theme: A book you meant to read in 2017 but didn’t get to Buy on Barnes & NobleBuy on Amazon

Synopsis:Ambrose Young was beautiful. He was tall and muscular, with hair that touched his shoulders and eyes that burned right through you. The kind of beautiful that graced the covers of romance novels, and Fern Taylor would know. She’d been reading them since she was thirteen. But maybe because he was so beautiful he was never someone Fern thought she could have…until he wasn’t beautiful anymore.

Making Faces is the story of a small town where five young men go off to war, and only one comes back. It is the story of loss. Collective loss, individual loss, loss of beauty, loss of life, loss of identity. It is the tale of one girl’s love for a broken boy, and a wounded warrior’s love for an unremarkable girl. This is a story of friendship that overcomes heartache, heroism that defies the common definitions, and a modern tale of Beauty and the Beast where we discover that there is little beauty and a little beast in all of us.

Review:
I am so in love with this book! I am realizing that it is very hard to review a book you love so much. I finished this book 4 days ago (with only taking one day to read it) and every time I go to review it I just can’t put anything into words. This book made me feel all the feels. I literally felt every emotion possible while reading this book. I have not cried so much or so hard while reading another book in my life! I would give this more than 5 stars if that was an option. It was one of those books that as I read the last line, I closed it, held it close to my heart and just sighed with a smile on my face. About 10 minutes later I got up to go tell my husband I was done reading and was about to cook dinner and as soon as I went to speak I started bawling. He must have thought I was crazy. He isn’t a reader so he doesn’t get it, hehe. Anything I say won’t do the book justice so I am not even going to try and get more detailed than what I have already written. Do yourself a favor and read this book. I own a copy so I will be happy to loan it out.

This is the second book by Amy I have read this year and both were phenomenal. I now have a new author on my favorites list with Amy. I can’t wait to read her other books!

Favorite Quotes:
“Everybody is a main character to someone. There are no minor characters.”

“Books allow you to be whoever you want to be, to escape yourself for a while.”

“You loved ferris wheels more than roller coasters because life shouldn’t be lived at full speed, but in anticipation and appreciation.”

“It’s hard to come to terms with the fact that you aren’t going to be loved the way you want to be loved.”

“There are times when you just need to acknowledge the shit … You just need to acknowledge it. Face the shit … Accept the truth in it. Own it, wallow in it, become one with the shit.”

“Nobody or Nowhere? Fern: I’d rather be nobody at home than somebody somewhere else.
Ambrose: I’d rather be nowhere. Being nobody when you’re expected to be somebody gets old.
Fern: How would you know? Have you been nobody?
Ambrose: Everybody who is somebody becomes nobody the moment they fail.”

“I don’t think we get answers to every question. We don’t get all the whys. But I think when we look back to the end of our lives, if we do the best we can, and we will see that the things we begged God to take from us, the things we cursed him for, the things that made us turn our backs on him, are the things that were the biggest blessings, the biggest opportunities for growth.”

“There’s a lot I don’t understand… but not understanding is better than not believing”

“Because terrible things happen to everyone, Brosey. We’re all just so caught up in our own crap that we don’t see the shit everyone else is wading through.”

“Maybe we just don’t recognize the blessings that come as a result of terrible things.”

“The real thing, when done right, is always better than a daydream.”

“This last year I’ve felt like one of those snowflakes we used to make in school. The ones where you fold the paper a certain way and then keep cutting and cutting until the paper is shredded. That’s what I look like, a paper snowflake. And each hole has a name. And nobody, not you, not me, can fill the holes that someone else has left. All we can do is keep each other from falling in the holes and never coming out again.”

“I want your body. I want your mouth. I want your red hair in my hands. I want your laugh and your funny faces. I want your friendship and your inspirational thoughts. I want Shakespeare and Amber Rose novels … And I want you to come with me when I go.”

“And so we endure. We have faith that there is purpose. We hope for things we can’t see. We believe that there are lessons in loss, power in love, and that we have within us the potential for a beauty so magnificent that our bodies can’t contain it.”

“If God made all our faces, did he laugh when he made me?
Does he make the legs that cannot walk and eyes that cannot see?
Does he curl the hair upon my head ’til it rebels in wild defiance?
Does he close the ears of a deaf man to make him more reliant?
Is the way I look a coincidence or just a twist of fate?
If he made me this way, is it okay, to blame him for the things I hate?
For the flaws that seem to worsen every time I see a mirror,For the ugliness I see in me, for the loathing and the fear.
Does he sculpt us for his pleasure, for a reason I can’t see?
If God makes all our faces, did he laugh when he made me?”

The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas Published by HarperCollins on February 28, 2017 Genre: Young Adult Format: Hardcover Pages: 464 Challenge Theme: A book by an author of a different ethnicity than you Buy on Barnes & NobleBuy on Amazon

Synopsis:Sixteen-year-old Starr Carter moves between two worlds: the poor neighborhood where she lives and the fancy suburban prep school she attends. The uneasy balance between these worlds is shattered when Starr witnesses the fatal shooting of her childhood best friend Khalil at the hands of a police officer. Khalil was unarmed.

Soon afterward, his death is a national headline. Some are calling him a thug, maybe even a drug dealer and a gangbanger. Protesters are taking to the streets in Khalil’s name. Some cops and the local drug lord try to intimidate Starr and her family. What everyone wants to know is: what really went down that night? And the only person alive who can answer that is Starr.

But what Starr does or does not say could upend her community. It could also endanger her life.

Review:
I spent my Saturday reading this book. I did not want to put it down. I have never read a 400+ page in less than 24 hours before in my life! This is a book EVERYONE should read. It is a relevant subject in our society today, unfortunately. It is so important that I don’t even really want to review it because I am afraid I won’t do it justice. The author manages to write about a sensitive subject matter in a way that engages you, outrages you, saddens you, and makes you want to help make a change…no matter what race you are. I also absolutely LOVE Starr. She is a great protagonist. You easily fall in love with her and sympathize with her at every turn. All of the characters are essential to the story in their own way, even the ones you hate like King and at times Iesha. The main story in this book is about the epidemic of black men & women being killed by police officers but the book is so much more than that. It is an important insight into what a race as a whole has had to go through, and continues to go through, even in this day and age. I hope there is a day when a book like this doesn’t resonant in our world. Until that day comes we all have to stand up for what is right and unite as one regardless of race/gender/religion/sexuality/class etc.

I also just went through the casting for this movie and everyone is spot on to what I imagined them to be. I can’t wait until the movie is released. I hope it makes the book & Thomas proud.

Favorite Quotes:
“Sometimes you can do everything right and things will still go wrong. The key is to never stop doing right.”

“At an early age I learned that people make mistakes, and you have to decide if their mistakes are bigger than your love for them.”

“What’s the point of having a voice if you’re gonna be silent in those moments you shouldn’t be?”

“Brave doesn’t mean you’re not scared. It means you go on even though you’re scared.”

“I can’t change where I come from or what I’ve been through, so why should I be ashamed of what makes me, me?”

“Listen! The Hate U—the letter U—Give Little Infants Fucks Everybody. T-H-U-G L-I-F-E. Meaning what society give us as youth, it bites them in the ass when we wild out. Get it?”

“I’ve seen it happen over and over again: a black person gets killed just for being black, and all hell breaks loose. I’ve Tweeted RIP hashtags, reblogged pictures on Tumblr, and signed every petition out there. I always said that if I saw it happen to somebody, I would have the loudest voice, making sure the world knew what went down.
Now I am that person, and I’m too afraid to speak.”

“Intentions always look better on paper than in reality.”

“Once you’ve seen how broken someone is it’s like seeing them naked—you can’t look at them the same anymore.”

“People say misery loves company, but I think it’s like that with anger too.”

“The truth casts a shadow over the kitchen—people like us in situations like this become hashtags, but they rarely get justice. I think we all wait for that one time though, that one time when it ends right.”