>roomie always away or with gf>hardly see best friend>literally got out of bed grabbed my clothes and ran out on a girl because it didnt feel right because the last woman i loved fucked me up when she left

this place is such a black hole of depression, and i am a person who knows about depression. i used to be addicted to pills, mostly oxy. life as an addict is shitty, but they don't tell you it doesn't get better when you get clean, but i guess it's better than being dead in a gutter with a needle in my arm.

i'm also horribly lonely, 27 year old kissless virgin. almost have my full wizard powers. still not wiling to bang a hooker though, no offense to those who do that, it's just not for me. i think about it a lot but the notion of having sex with someone who hates my guts, hates her job, only wants my money, dead look in eyes just doesn't spell self esteem boost for me.

best of luck to OP though. what's your story man? why are you depressed?

Its a long story i met this one girl my senior year of high schoolor rather the summer before. we started talking and shit. basic stuff. we could literally talk about anything and we did. No subject was taboo. I then started to develop feelings for this girl. we both knew we liked each other but neitehr of us said anythingthen one day she just disappearedshe didnt respond texts, skype or anythingI was completely shut out and ik dint know what to do. then after some of the worst months ive lived through she came backcont

i thought everything would be like it was. then not even four days later she drops all contact again. that fucked with me so much. Itll have been a year this december. I still havent found all of the pieces

then after that. there was this one girl i met. I guess i was trying to forget her and move on but it was way to soon. I knd of felt pressured into dating this girl. i just wanted someone to fill up the void... lets call her K1, had left. K2, the second girl, nboth names began with ks, and i "dated for only two months if even that. one day we were making out. touching her tits and ass. touges in each others mouths. Then K1 somehow got into my head and i started to thinking of her. I kissed K2 more passionately tricking my brain that K2 was K1. after she left i realized that that was fucked up. I shouldnt be thinking about someone else while kissing another person. so i broke it off. I told her why and she suddenly got really shitty.

>>648474538that sucks. i had a similar run in with a girl where-in she dropped me after getting close. she got bored of me she said the reason was, which is a nice punch to the self esteem.

Either way, take some time to get over the other girl, i'm sorry but this shit happens. I'm still trying to get over the loss of my best friend. You seem like a good enough person, don't treat yourself like shit cause you made a mistake or two dude.

find this one chick and start talking to her. she was pretty cool. we could also talk about anything. it was nice. then one night, we're in her dorm. making out hardcore. clothes start coming off. i ate her out and then she started to suck my dick. pants are still on, fly and button undone. then i somehow think of K1 again.>OHGODNOTNOW.jpegSuddenly i get this horrible feeling. I dont even know how to describe it. But when she got up[ to get the condom i got my dick in my pants, zipped up the fly garbbed my shit and ran out without my shirt on at 1:30 in the am. Had a mental breakdown in a park area and then crashed at my best friends.

I wouldn't say ive had tons of chances to hook up, but ive definitely turned girls down. the first one was when i was in my senior year like you, this one girl liked me a lot but i just didn't feel the same way about her, and i had a huuuuge crush on a different girl, who barely knew i existed. i would smoke pot/cigarettes in her neighborhood, her dad would call the cops on me, rinse and repeat daily.

In college i spooned with a girl for the first time and was terrrified the whole time. this girl was an emotional wreck and i hung out with her because i felt bad for her, and after she confessed to being raped to me i felt obligated to be friends with her, and not that i don't feel bad for her but she made some BAD decisions in life.

another time in my sophomore year of college, i was selling pot to the UC Davis men's water polo team and my older sisters friend was at their party and she was rolling on ecstasy hard, and was all over me. I didn't do anythin with her because i would feel sleazy taking advantage of a drunk/fucked up girl while being stone cold sober. Though it would have been a fun one night stand, i would be prone to becoming too attached.

the last time i had a chance to get laid was when i was 22, my roomate/best friends younger sister came to town to check out colleges. she was 17. we hung out a lot, and were into each other, but once again i felt kinda sleazy being 22 and she was 17 (even though she was the one with ALL of the experience). Also her big brother/my best friend was RIGHT THERE. once again, part of me knows that would have been a fun one night stand, and who knows maybe i wouldn't be such an emotional wreck with low self esteem if i took my chance, but her brother is still my best friend and I'm glad i didn't ruin things with him for a one night stand. Ive been called dumb for not getting laid then, but i'm going to be a best man at his wedding. glad i didnt trash that friendship.