Monday, December 31, 2012

Looked back at the 2012 resolution, I am glad I able to fulfilled 80% of it. Some I will considered not pass because I lose my weight and I gain it back. Sigh…

So, new year is coming, feeling kinda excited for it at the same time, having this mixed feeling because never know what is coming… Gonna really miss 2012 a lot because lots of people has come and go… And lots of beautiful memories in 2012 just like I got my married in May 2012.

Nevertheless, I am grateful what God has planned for my family, both Danny and I and we look forward for greater things ahead of us. God is faithful and we are eternal grateful.

Monday, December 24, 2012

Saturday, December 15, 2012

I managed to watched one of Shaun T’s interview on youtube and he said
that changed of lifestyle, change everything. He said this because he doesn’t
believe in diet. There is no perfect diet. He continues and said that you can
be on diet and you can be off diet. So what happen when you’re off diet? You
gain back extra pound.

So, I feel that he has a point… Instead of going for a diet, choose to
have a healthy eating lifestyle. Of course he is not saying that you cannot eat
chocolate, cookie, or fast food at all… But not the whole packs of chocolate on the
same day.

I believe that when we cultivate a healthy eating habit, we can eat
anything occasionally and with a proper workout.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Yesterday was a great day to celebrate the birth of my lovely husband
27th years ago. So, we went out for a simple buffet breakfast since
we have the complimentary voucher and we enjoy ourselves. Yes… We ate a lot…
But, it’s ok.. Since it’s a celebration… Of course, we work out a lot also that
same day.

When I thought of my husband, my heart is filled with gratitude that God
has placed such an amazing man in my life. Marrying him brings lots of color
into my life. If this is not God’s grace, I really don’t know what this is.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

I’ve been working very hard to lose some of the stubborn fat that stick
with me for several years for my wedding day and I did… Happily, I think I have
lost 8kg and 4 inches from my waist. I had a beautiful wedding and honeymoon.
During my honeymoon, my husband told me, you should try to lose more on the lower abs when we go
back to KK. Then I told him, ok… gonna try..

Low and behold, marriage brings lots of joy and food… I gain back my
weight… I have not been consistent in my exercise for 6 months and I ate what I
love without much control. Now, most of the dress and shirt that I bought from
honeymoon couldn’t fit me anymore and I got very frustrated.

So, what to do… Have to get myself back to an exercise lifestyle…

I felt that the previous exercises are not enough and I looked for
something more intense… And… I found this…

Read and heard lots of testimony of how people transform from day 1 to
day 60. Just hearing them keeps me motivated… Therefore, I grab my husband
along to try this programme together. Today is the 10th day for me in
this programme while my husband is the 3rd day.

It is not easy… like what Shaun T has warned in his DVDs but it is not
impossible. The first few days were really tough… I rest a lot. As it continues,
I also try to challenge my body and my mind and would like to see how far I can
go with this.

Can’t wait to see the result on day 60 but as for now, let’s just keep one
step at a time. Of course, nothing comes free… No pain, no gain… What goes into your mouth, counts too…

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Last Friday was a very hard day for everyone of us in the English zone…
though we know that we still get to see her. I think the toughest part is that
we are not under her leadership. She is not a perfect leader and she is not the best person to work with.... But her heart towards God, we all
witnessed it with our own eyes. Her cares for each and every one one of us was deeply felt by each of us. She fought for our benefits, she gave the best to us
and she loved each and every one of us no matter how many silly mistakes we
had made…

We all felt a big part of our heart has left with her… p/s: Never knew that i miss this little girl so much... But i really do... Miss screaming at her name and being annoyed by her... I gonna miss sitting next to her during service.** We miss you **

Friday, November 30, 2012

God will give you renewed strength when you grow weary. When you come
to Him in praise, He refreshes your heart. When you come to him in prayer, He
refreshes your soul. When you come to Him in meditation, He refreshes your
mind, when you come to Him with thanksgiving, He refreshes your perspective. Practicing
these disciplines releases the burdens of life and draws strength from God, the
source of strength.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

What you do comes from what you think about. The seeds for your
actions, both good and bad are planted in your heart. As these seeds grow,
their nature is revealed by the fruit they produce: the things you say and do. Nurture
the soil of your heart and mind to produce thoughts that are pleasing to God. As
you think, so you are, and so you become. Your conduct is shaped by your
character, and your character is shaped by the condition of your heart. As God transforms
you from the inside out, your actions will be transformed as well.

Philippians 4:8-9

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble,
whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is
admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever
you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into
practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Thursday, November 01, 2012

Seeing Jordon again really brings lots of joy around us because he is really cute. Just hear him laugh can make us feel he is really worth it all.

Knowing that his parent also shared with us the amount of joy that Jordon gave them, we all felt the blessing that God placed in their family.

Coming home from that warm family sometimes makes me think about Danny and I. Wondering that how would our lives be with additional member in our home and how will our kids look like. Will the baby look more like me or him? Or look like the combination of both of us? I understand that being parent is not easy therefore we also try to get ourselves ready before we have children.

As for now, we are enjoying our time together. You'll know it when I'm pregnant. By then, I guess we're ready.

Monday, October 29, 2012

I’m glad that the SOMA team is back… It just felt warm to see them back
from South Africa after we have missed each one of them for the past three
weeks.

Hearing and reading their report from this SOMA gave me a heavy heart
for mission. I never thought of mission trip, I guess it is because I never
felt it before, therefore, I seldom respond to it when there is a mission trip
to anywhere. But the feeling that I felt this time, I just couldn’t describe it
properly. Seeing the pictures taken from them and hearing their hearts out as
they shared has gave me a heavy burden for mission. After reading their report
or hear from anyone of them, I started to questions myself that, what am I doing
here that only sit in the office and do paperwork and complain about how unfair
lives is and worrying about the ‘drama’ that we are facing now.

There is a lot more out there, there are a lot more to see…. Out of
sudden, I wish I was there to witness how close God’s heart is with the
children in South Africa, how much compassionate is our God when He sees them
from Heaven.... Only hears from them has already impacted my life a bit…. What more
for them, that been there and sees it with their own eyes and felt it with
their own heart.

Life is so much more than what I see now and so much more than what I thought.
The world is so big and our God is so much greater than I can ever imagine.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

I seldom talk about movie in my blog but this is seriously a very nice
movie and my husband and I are thinking to watch the second time.

It is really funny and we did not expect it to be this good or perhaps
we did not set expectation when we went into the cinema. After the movie, both
of us felt very relax and happily, we went home and still talked about this
cartoon.

“ One wife said, “Our marriage
was bad, but out divorce is even worse. I still have all the responsibilities I
had when we were married, but now I have less time and less money.” The effects
of divorce linger for a lifetime. So do yourself a favour, call a counselor,
read a book, or reach out to a pastor. Your marriage is worth it. “

Friday, October 05, 2012

Today mark the 5th months of us being a married couple. It has been a beautiful, wonderful and happy 5 months of us being together. Therefore, we shouldn't forgot some marriage tips to make it even more beautiful...

#1 - I am responsible for my own attitude.

Trouble is inevitable, but misery is optional. Attitude has
to do with the way I choose to think about things. Two wives have husbands who
have lost their jobs. Wendy said, "My husband hasn't had a full-time job
in three years. The good part is not being able to afford cable TV. We've done
a lot more talking on Monday nights. We've learned a lot. Our philosophy is
'Let's see how many things we can do without that everybody else thinks they
have to have.' It's amazing how many things you can do without."

On the other hand, Lou Ann said, "My husband hasn't had
a job for ten months. We are down to one car, no phone, and we're getting food
from the food bank. Life is miserable at our house." The difference in
these two wives was basically a matter of attitude.

We choose to think negatively and curse the darkness, or we
choose to look for the silver lining behind the clouds.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Today I was chatting with an old good friend in whatapps and telling
her that she wrote very well in her blog and I totally LOVED it. In the
conversation, I shared that it is really pain to see someone that close to us
in pain and being accused and condemn on left right centre. She then reminded
me that not to walk with man but walk with God.

Reading that text from her is like reading the heart of God just like
God reminding me to walk with Him. No doubt that we all feel the pain because
we are human beings and we have feelings. Feeling the pain and yet could not do
anything about it but to trust God and preserve. Trusting that God sees all
these and trusting that God is in control.

With lots of encouragement to trust God every day, I have no other way
to turn to but to everyday remind my soul to trust Him. Trust that He is my
shelter, He is my rock. Trust that He in the sovereign God. Trust that He loves
me very much and will keep me away from harm. Trust that all things will work
well for those who love Him. Trust that revenge is in the hand of God. Trust
that we will have our rainbow after lots of thunder and rain.

To walk this journey with God and with lots of them with tears, my
heart started to be grateful and able to recognize the true character of those
that are around us. It is only through all these, we can see the colour of
their personalities. It do look scary but I rather to be shock now than later and not knowing that they are actually wild wolf
in a sheep costume.

Friday, September 21, 2012

In life, people come and go are the cycle of life that
we have to adapt to it. Especially in our life… We meet, we work together, we
love each other and then one of us got transfer and with no other choice, we
have to farewell and we will meet again ones awhile.

Because of this cycle, my heart started to accept this fact and learn
to move on with it very fast. But no matter how, it does hurt to say goodbye to
someone that are close to my heart because I know that by the time we meet
again, things will no longer be the same anymore.

I meet this little girl when I was in KL back at 2004. She came from
Tawau to KL to further her study. I still remember that the first time we went out, we went to McDonald for a drink. The first impression that I
have for her is, she talks A LOT… After that, we became housemate and we stay
under the same roof.

As time pass and due to circumstances, we move out. The time where we
stay together again was 2 years later when I came to KK in respond to my
calling. We were roommate back then. She was so troubled for the first month I was
in KK because almost every night, I cried myself to sleep because I miss my
boyfriend (which is my husband now) back then.

After a few months of being roommate, we move to a bigger apartment and
we are house mate again. Then she move out and then she move back in. So, on off we’ve
been in each other life for about 7-8 years. We have lots of fun together and
we laugh a lot at the same time tease each other a lot… Sometimes, we forgot
the important of friendship in our lives and we take each other for granted.

As our age is catching up and we started to have our own lives and with
lots of people coming and going, true and close friends are really hard to
find. But I am truly grateful to God that God always provide someone to walk
along with us. I am grateful that she is still in my life and we enjoy each other’s
company. We now work together and she has bought lots of joy in the office. Without
realise, time passed so fast and she has now became one of my old old friend
that I know I can look up to when I need a hand.

We’ve also been through a lot together just that when I look back, I kinda miss her out because she's not tall.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Last Monday, we have a great break chilling out of KK city to a small island
called Pulau Sapi. I have also taken a few days off to get myself back on
track. It wasn’t easy after tons of “drama” recently. All these "drama" makes my heart
grow cold and I started to ask God, how could a human’s heart be so wicked and cruel.
Now I understand why Rev Dr Stephen Tong said that one of the reason God did
not destroy devil so that human will not become devil. It is so real that all the Hong Kong drama series that I watched makes so much sense in reality. I
found myself couldn’t accept the fact that human being can be devil or maybe
worst than a devil when they have lots of hatred, anger and unforgiveness in
their heart.

Then I realise that if I do not pause for awhile and get myself back, I could
have be one of them that filled with unforgiveness and started to have hatred
and anger in my heart.

Being away from awhile is refreshing. Though I hope I can literally be
away for a week but those 3 days of being away with not many phone calls, I am
grateful already.

After a few days of break, I hope I am now gear up to continue to
flight for the truth for the truth will set us free.

p/s: Today’s encouragement - Always trust God's goodness and love, even
when circumstances went from bad to worst...

Saturday, September 15, 2012

For God (the greatest Lover) so loved (the greatest degree) the world (the greatest number) that He gave (the greatest sacrifice) His only Son (the greatest act) that whoever (the greatest invitation) believes (the greatest simplicity) in Him (the greatest person) shall not perish (the greatest promise) but have (the greatest certainty) eternal life (the greatest possession)...

Thursday, July 26, 2012

It is such a joyous moment and our greatest privilege that we able to celebrate the 50th Anniversary for the Diocese of Sabah on last Tuesday, 24th July 2012. We’ve been planning this event since last year.

Our hearts are really joyful as we witness such a history moment in the Diocese in a young age of us now and be one of the committee in the planning team for this amazing event. I don’t think we able to witness the 100th Anniversary of the Diocese but as for now, we really thank God for what he has done in our life and how much he has blessed us that we able to participant in such a glories and joyous moment.

I am very much honoured and glad that I able to serve as one of the dancers to dance together with the 3 zone dancers, the BM, Chinese and English as the opening dance for the Celebration Dinner. We had lots of fun laughing during the practice. I will surely miss the moment. Able to learn from them and their humility heart, is just amazing.

We look forward for the future as the Diocese will build a House of Celebration and we had the ground breaking ceremony as a mark of faith for the whole Diocese. It will surely be another joyous moment when we able to see it with our own eyes how faithful God is in the past and how faithful God will be in our future as we sow for our next generation.

Friday, July 13, 2012

My husband said it is because that he is stubborn that we manage to get
married. His reason is, because he is stubborn enough to not want anyone else
but me even in his dream.I thought for
awhile…. that kinda make sense.

This day onward, when I got so frustrated of his stubbornness, I will
remember this positive point.

Friday, July 06, 2012

I would said that one of the greatest thing in life is able to go home knowing that someone that I deeply love is at home and he is waiting for me to go home. With that in mind, going home is a joy and being with him brings the best out of me.

Monday, July 02, 2012

Walking down the aisle in a long and beautiful gown is every girl’s dream. The same goes to me.

I’ve been dreaming this day since I was 12 years old if I remember it correctly.

Start doing the research since I was 18 years old.

I am the typical girl that dream for a beautiful wedding, handsome and tall husband that loves God and loves me and we will have a beautiful family and a happy marriage.

The only difference between the real day and my dream is that, I have the face for my husband now.

In my dream, the groom face is not clear because I do not know who it is yet. Hehehe….

Everything is so simple.

My reception table is simple, my décor for the church is simple, my gown is simple and my makeup and hairdo is simple and nice.

It was truly a magical day for us.

Sealed with a magical kiss and beautiful song that sang by my husband.

Everything is so perfect for us.

We are grateful for friends and family that are there to witness and be happy together for us.

We grateful for two professional photographers who are also our friends able to capture every moment meaningfully and filled with God’s glory and honour…

We are amazed how amazing God works in this beautiful day, we are thankful how much He has blessed us and how awesome is He that the whole time, we able to feel his presence with us.
It was truly magical…

De-clutter my heart, O God, until I am quiet enough to hear you speak out of silence. Help me in these few moments to stop, to listen, to wait, to be still, to allow your presence to envelop me. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Friday, June 15, 2012

I’ve been married for a month plus now and I enjoy being a wife. Though there are certain differences that both of us need to adjust but at the same time, we are also learning to leave together as a couple, do things together and spend more time at home.

As a wife, the first requirement that I gave myself is to keep the house as clean and tidy as I can, so that I can have a standard for my family. Other than making sure that my house always feels like a home, I learn to cook different kind of dishes. I’ve been trying to find other recipe to try, searching for cook book, watched some short video clip about cooking in youtube and coming out a list of recipe that I wanted to try.

Other than settle our meals, I need to wash, iron, clean and fold cloth and every meal I am thinking what to prepare for the next meal so that I can plan ahead. So far, I am enjoying the role as a new wife and prayerfully, this enjoyment will stick with me for a long time.

Wednesday, June 06, 2012

As I browse through some of the pictures, I found these pictures during our honeymoon. We laugh a lot in our trip and lots of beautiful memories flash back.
I love to be married to him. We laugh a lot when we are together…