My commitment is to transform our current cultural conversation about cancer from one of fear and dread to one that empowers those of us who have cancer, as well as our friends & loved ones.

I had cancer. Cancer didn't have me.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Cosmic Joke?

Today Daniela stubbed her toe on the stroller while on an afternoon walk with Beau. The result was a hairline fracture of her right middle toe; she's unable to put any weight on the foot.

Can you believe it? I can't hold Beau for more than a few minutes without discomfort and she can only hold him if she's sitting down. Without Jackie, we would be a sinking ship.

I can't stand seeing my wife in pain. My heart was aching for her as she was making her way up the stairs and I couldn't help her. And then I thought about my diagnosis and I was amazed at how irrelevant everything can be when someone I love is in pain. She's an incredible mom and this the last thing she needs.

So, I wonder...is this some kind of cosmic joke or life's perfect design? Hmm...maybe both.

4 comments:

i think major cosmic joke...the Universe allowing me to 'test drive' some of the Laws of Attraction. I spend all week worrying about Cal breaking a bone or knocking out a tooth at skateboard camp & hence ruining our upcoming vacation next week w/ my dad. my mantra, for a few moments on tuesday literally was: "nobrokenbonesnobrokenbonesnobrokenbones"

When i caught myself doing that, i turned the worry into a positive:

"peaceandhealthpeaceandhealth"

but alas, too late...i had still managed to put a bunch of negative junk into the ether...what came around to smack me in the ass? a broken toe...

Hello Guys! I am so sorry that I have "timed out" for the past couple of months! We have continued to enjoy your postings and of course keep you in our thoughts and prayers! Bert - you continue to amaze us with your passion and honesty with what you are traveling through. And Daniela...what can I say but that I do understand your feelings and I am so sorry about your TOE! Take care of yourselves...and we will be in touch!

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Our Deepest Fear by Marianne Williamson

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?" Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”