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For some of us the start of 2018 is the 20-year mark of our living the Ascension Process (AP) at the physical body biological level. Many of us started the AP a decade or more before thatat etheric levels where we began doing mandatory Inner Work on our personal issues, emotional wounds, fears, imbalances, projections and all unresolved dense energies and energetic issues from our current life and any others that needed resolution now. In addition, some of us had been consciously and knowingly Working from our sleep states both individually and with groups of other Volunteers, Starseeds, Higher Dimensionals and other positive non-physical Beings for a decade and more before that. An even smaller handful of us have been conscious of being incarnate on Earth in these lives to anchor and Embody the evolutionary AP from infancy. Even though many of us have been at this multi-leveled AP since around 1998–1999 which has felt like a lifetime!, some of us have actually been at it since birth in this life, including a good number of past-lives all designed to help us carry out the AP and EP (Embodiment Process) from our current physical bodies here and now. No matter how many more decades you’ve personally lived the AP in this life, congratulations on reaching the physical level 20-year mark in 2018.

I’ve never read many people’s AP writings or channelings online or in books because the majority I did read a bit of years ago was distorted a little or a lot, incorrect overall, or reeked of Team Dark a little or a lot. As the AP years pushed on these past 20 years and counting, I knew once we got past December 2012, it would become increasingly obvious to more people (readers) who the authentic and knowledgeable AP teachers and writers actually were and who wasn’t and the wide range of levels between them.

One thing I’ve noticed since 2013 with a small few of the accurate AP writers, including some non-physical beings that channeled material (in my opinion), is a continuation from them of what sounds like judgements, mild insults, and talking down to type language to their readers.

Having said that I am painfully aware of how many times I’ve fallen short (a little or a lot) of actually producing what I intended to write about over the 15 years I’ve written online about the AP, and from a high and compassionate level. Writing about the AP and EP while living it is far more difficult than most realize for a range of reasons. Despite all that, I’m finding that because some of these teachers/writers who are still in 2018, saying certain things in their writings that sound and feel like judgements and mild insults, I’m increasingly having to go my own way, which is pretty much what I’ve done my whole life anyway. I’m well aware of how hard it is to write something and have 100 people read it and have 100 different interpretations of what I wrote and intended to express in my writing. I’ve dealt with this all along because it just goes with the job of writing about the AP and EP online. However in 2018, the NEW is pushing each of us to do this ourselves, and in our own unique ways, and at this time and this current level we’re each at now. As time goes on and we individually get better at being First Embodiers and energetically Sovereign beings in physical bodies, I believe these things won’t exist or won’t matter if they still do. But for now it’s increasingly feeling like, You’d better get really good at doing this yourself people!This is another aspect of becoming energetically Sovereign First Embodiers.

I hope I said just enough about this for most to recognize what I’m talking about without going into details. Recognize how advanced you are at this 20-year mark because Embodiment is a full-time job and way of life, reality and being. ❤

January 29, 2018, was another huge transitional energy shift day. The Total Lunar Eclipse was January 31st for those of you who are also having a time repeatedly locating and confining yourself in linear time. January 29th feels like half a year ago and yet it’s only been a few days. My point is that on the morning of January 29th I suddenly became super freezing cold on the inside from head to toe and shortly thereafter found myself quickly exiting my physical body via falling asleep. I slept most of that day which hasn’t happened to this degree since the big energies of 12-12-2012. The Total Lunar Eclipse two days later had very little affect on me because of what happened energetically on the 29th. Sometimes it’s not the highlighted day that’s important but the time leading up to it. In many cases, by the time we’ve reached the big day be that an Equinox, a Solstice, a Super Duper Whatever Spangled Total Lunar or Solar Eclipse, the whole thing was experienced, lived and Embodied by many PRIOR to the day or days it arrived. We went through another HUGE change energetically on January 29, 2018, two days before the Total Lunar Eclipse on January 31st.

February 1, 2018, was the 20th anniversary of my physical body biological level AP, so what happened that day makes sense to me for more reasons than the obvious. Stair-steps.

For me, twenty years ago it activated as a rapid and severe evolutionary Ascension Process at the physical body level. Twenty years later, it is the ongoing Embodiment Process at the physical body level. On the one hand the AP and EP are the same thing; on the other hand they’re radically different processes due to radically different levels of density, Light, energies, awareness, ability, existence and compatibility with greatly higher frequency Light energies. Twenty years ago I could not have done nor physically survived what I experienced in my physical body and Self Thursday, February 1, 2018. I’m sharing this experience because I know many of you went through your own versions of this in your own unique ways that were tailored to and for you at this precise time too.

With the start of January of 2017, I distinctly felt my ongoing and constantly escalating (by a little or a lot) Embodiment Process happening at greater levels than previously, as should be expected. I remember the day this happened as clearly as the day it happened one year later on February 1, 2018. I’d gone shopping in late January 2017, and while pushing my shopping cart to my car I felt so physically horrible and in such amplified pain that I honestly wondered if I’d be able to drive myself home. I was able to drive myself home but that NEW-to-me January 2017 level of physical pain and whole-body swelling was so severe that I wondered how 2017 was going to play out for the First Embodiers as it started with another EP expansion bang!

Jump forward one year to February 1, 2018, and I was shopping again and while in the store experienced this same amplification about a 100% greater than what it had been for me in January 2017. The physical pain was not only severe but was a whole-body affair and so amplified that I hoped I’d just make it to my car let alone drive myself home! I got myself home, the groceries unloaded into the house and put away. Once all the work after the work was done, I took some over-the-counter pain pills and got horizontal trying to have my muscles stop spasming and the pain stop or at least reduce a good bit. No such luck for hours on February 1, 2018 however. The severe whole-body pain continued for hours and I was not willing to endure that level of physical body pain any longer. I wanted to die and be free of that level of pain and was considering suicide in a way I never have before. Said another way, this was some serious shit going down and I wasn’t willing to suffer at such an amplified level as this was after a lifetime of other physical pains not to mention 20 years of Ascension Process pains. I tried every tactic I knew and nothing worked and it felt like the whole-body pain would break me in multiple ways. It probably would have had I not finally gotten pissed off by it all and demanded an explanation. Ya gotta LOVE the Embodiment Process!

The second I demanded an explanation to why the physical pain was so profoundly severe compared to anything I’ve ever experienced before, that blessed inner voice that sounds just like me said, “Because your Heart isn’t big enough.”

Are the images in this article of a heart expanding multiple times making sense yet? This is why; “Because your Heart isn’t big enough”… for the next level of the ongoing Embodiment.

The second I heard my inner voice Higher Awareness say this I knew exactly what it meant and why etc. I immediately set about making more personal inner adjustments to help my physical body with this painful EP moment at this NEW expanded and higher level. First I fully released and surrendered, then began intentionally breathing into my HighHeart to help it—my HighHeart—expand even more so it could comfortably house more of what was being Embodied at that moment. The second I began doing this the physical pains reduced considerably and eventually stopped altogether, however, what a moment of learning, expansion and further Embodiment it was! And, just so there’s no confusion, this EP will continue in leaps and bounds like this month after month and year after year so don’t think, believe or expect the Embodiment Process to be a once and done thing because nothing about the AP or the EP has or will ever work like that. Stair-steps because the higher frequency energies and sudden expansion would destroy our physical bodies which is exactly opposite of what’s intended with the AP and EP processes.

My heart wasn’t big enough because I was blocked, limited, fearful, hadn’t done the Inner Work or any other such incorrect thing. My “heart wasn’t big enough”for another and higher frequency layer of Embodiment to happen on the physical level, comfortably.

The Embodiment Process is ongoing and much like physical exercising and “working out” to create a more healthy, fit and/or attractive physical body is. You don’t exercise only once and instantly have the “perfect body”, it takes time, effort and plenty of repetition before one even begins to see external results from all the hard sweaty exercise work. The same is true with the Embodiment Process; it takes time, effort and plenty of repetition to slowly, safely and comfortably build up and continue expanding the EP. Just like when you exercise with weights to build muscle, over time you increase the weight to build larger muscles otherwise you hit a plateau and don’t increase muscle size but just maintain what you’ve already achieved. Stair-steps.

While I was going through this February 1, 2018 Embodiment Process expansion on multiple levels, I Saw and understood many other related things that were amazing, dare I say profound even. One of the things I Saw and understood was a greatly expanded awareness about Source and Divine Mother/Feminine and how they “make LOVE”. Not “love” but LOVE. Yeah, I know, there aren’t words only HighHeart explosions at higher and more vast levels than the last one. Release and surrender over and over and over and it starts becoming normal…

The other main aspect and side effect of the ongoing Embodiment Process is that of increasingly becoming more and more energetically Sovereign individually. Source-as-Self, Self-as-Source — eventually you become Embodied enough of your Higher Selves and those energy and consciousness levels that you directly physically house enough Source energies to be capable of energetically self-sustaining your physical body and personal reality, plus Consciously Creating much more for yourself and others as well. But to ascend to this level of being in our physical bodies requires repeatedly “making our Hearts bigger” so we can Embody more, greater and much higher frequency levels of our Higher Selves, energies, levels and Source. Increasingly doing so causes us to become more and more energetically Sovereign, meaning we’re becoming self-sustained, completely non-parasitic Beings of Light in physical bodies that are conscious of our multidimensional natures and interacting with them from this physical conscious level.

As some of you may remember, I’ve mentioned in two or three articles in early 2016, about how I had been occasionally dealing with a growing sense of being alone. I’m not talking about loneliness, but an honest clear sense that I’ve been on such NEW territory that I am in some ways very much alone, temporarily. Let me add that this is perfectly okay in the second half of 2106, because I consciously understand what’s been unfolding better than I did at the start of this incredibly amplified year and am more comfortable with this NEW and being on my own in it. We’ll understand even more on the other side of September’s multiple energetic lineup.

I just read one of the best, most honest Ascension articles I’ve read in a very long time. It’s entitled ‘Your Collective Is Likely Pondering’, September 12, 2016. (See link below my copyright notice.) Big Gratitude Hugs to BrendaHoffman & Co. for it. ❤ ❤ ❤

The only other person/being/channel I’ve come across over these Ascension years that publicly admitted to being surprised by an unexpected project in the Ascension Process was Kryon a few years ago. It had to do with specific Bridge Building to connect certain nonphysical higher dimensions with 3D physical Earth back in the early 1980s. I was intimately familiar with this because I was one of the Forerunners who worked on this early Ascension-related project. For more information about this see pages 60-66 in A Lightworker’s Mission. Other than these two incidences, I’m not aware of any others who’ve publicly confessed to being surprised by what the Forerunners of the Forerunners and the Forerunners continue doing for individual Self and collective All everywhere.

Considering what most of us have gone through year after year post the December 21, 2012 Expiration Date, it sure feels good to be openly acknowledged for putting our HighHearts and Souls into it and running far beyond what had been the original agreed upon Ascension “end zone”. We got the ball there years ago but have continued “running” so Thank You very much for standing back while we embody more of our Higher Selves/Source, repeatedly readjust ourselves from doing so, and continue journeying and Creating higher and farther than what we’d originally contracted to do. Bets were made by a small handful On High that know and love us well, that we would gofor itafter we’d reached a certain level of completion in the Ascension Process. This we’ve done and more. (More about this and related things in upcoming articles.)

So when I read Brenda’s article this morning I was uplifted and gratified by her valuable channeled message. This is what you get when you hire Forerunner Boomer Hippies to tear down and rebuild multidimensional systems; we do that then go on to create totally NEW better ones because we’re here now so why not?

This brings us back to the start of 2016, when some Forerunners felt and knew from deep within themselves that, in many ways, we were indeed on our owns now (temporarily) because we’d Re-Contracted with the Divine and our Higher Selves during our individual Life Review period that took place at some point during December 21, 22, 23, 2012. For me it was December 22, 2012. We’ve raced up very difficult energetic Ascension Stair-steps ever since then and the results of all this aren’t totally clear to even us yet. They will be however, and the 9-9-9 (September 9, 2016) completion threshold we just crossed brought a lot more insights to many. More to come with and after the Lunar Eclipse on the 16th.

This year has repeatedly forced me into my Sovereignty for answers, insights, soothing, nurturing, continued spiritual, energetic, physical and consciousness growth and so much more. The time—for me and many of you reading this is—well over for being babysat, handheld, stroked and soothed by higher dimensional Beings, Angelics, ETs and such. We are them and more now on NEW territory, which automatically creates more NEW territories for All everywhere. Until you and I honestly and fully consciously understand, accept and wear/live what we now are and how powerful we actually are, we’ll still occasionally whine and mope and long for some Other great higher Being to cuddle us up and make us feel better from time to time.

Visualize this please for perspective. See in your mind’s eye a great Lightbeing that is You sucking its glowing white-light thumb while searching for another great Lightbeing to coddle it and make it feel better. Ridiculous isn’t it? Well, this is where many of us are now; fumbling while adapting to our NEW lives and realities as directly Source-connected Sovereign individuals. Old bad lower frequency habits take a while to shake off sometimes and there’s nothing wrong with that. Just do your best to honestly get a glimpse of your NEW Self in some cosmic mirror somewhere so you better consciously understand what you’ve evolved into at this point. This is important for yourself but also for all the rest of the Forerunners, the collective and future timelines, worlds, realities etc. No pressure Sovereign Self-as-Source beings, just honesty.

“You have moved so rapidly that we of other dimensions and collectives, do not yet quite understand how you are evolving. Do we point you in the direction of the reward that seems important to you now? Or do we point you in the direction of the reward you will find important in a month or a year? That is our quandary.”

That was a quote from Brenda Hoffman’s channeled message, and what a wonderful thing for On High to be questioning! We Forerunners have already chosen years ago even if you don’t consciously remember that choice you and your Higher Self and the Divine had face to face at the end of Phase One of the Ascension Process. I’m going to end this with a quote from The Temple of Master Hotei (page 154) because it feels right to do now. Thank You again Brenda Hoffman and Co. for that very important message. ❤

And now from Master Hotei and Jade One of long ago but are very much connected to me here and our time of Universal Ascension. Never forget that we never clock-out but are always on The Job.

“Those who came to experience and expand our spirits within polarized physicality are acquiring knowledge within the densest level available for human expression. However, at the end of this great cycle, we of earthly incarnations that have integrated and transmuted within this realm will eventually return Home with extremely unique and valuable experiences to share!” Hotei said with his eyes sparkling and flashing excitedly.

“With us of course, we will take our individual and collective experiences and soul wisdom that others do not possess, except for the many that have journeyed down into dense, polarized physicality. By incarnating within physicality we are learning to bring heaven to earth—to increasingly express within dense flesh, that which we fully are in higher nonphysical realms. As difficult as it has been Little One, we have gained a unique wisdom and succeeded at manifesting our true spiritual selves within a most dense, illusory, restrictive and remarkably polarized realm.

“Think of the profound wisdom and creativity we will be able to share with our brothers and sisters who did not encase themselves within this dense realm and experience all that we have from having journeyed here! It has been a long and difficult journey but the knowledge, wisdom, and soul growth gained from descending into dense physical polarity will help more beings and more realities in more ways than we can comprehend. Plus, it will also create unlimited future possibilities as well,” Hotei said with his eyes closed as if he was broadcasting this information from some other place far away…

As I’ve said before, any time Team Dark—human and nonhuman—amps up their negative, distracting, derailing, fear-mongering, focus over here people and not over there efforts on global humanity, it’s always an indicator that some very positive, very high NEW Divine Ascension related energies are about to arrive on Earth for humanity. That’s why Team Dark becomes so obviously active in the physical world again; they desperately need to‘Smash&Grab’as many human minds (human mental focus, thoughts etc.) and human hearts(lower frequency emotions such as fear, hatred, religious zealotry, warring, killing, death/dying, getting even etc.) as they can to literally perpetuate and fuel their negative agendas on Earth. Why? Because Team Dark cannot sustain any of them without human minds and human emotions constantly focused on and literally fueling them. Due to the Ascension Process however, Team Dark continues losing more and more humans every day to the current Ascension waking up process, meaning they’ve been greatly amplifying their efforts over the past years to not let humanity escape them and/or utilize these potent Evolutionary Ascension Energies.

The real war is and always has been over human consciousness. Team Dark has expended a tremendous amount of work, time and money over the centuries keeping global humanity stupid, asleep, unaware, endlessly distracted, endlessly occupied and fixated on all sorts of insane and negative anti-human events and endeavors and all to fuel and perpetuate their agendas across Earth and time on Earth. If humans only knew to what degree they’ve been and still are being used in such negative, horrible ways by Team Dark (human and nonhuman)…

We’re talking about this once again only because I’ve said, and some others have said, that mid-July 2014 would bring in some very high, very positive NEW energies for all of humanity. Humans that are able to rip themselves away from having their consciousness and emotions manipulated and used by Team Dark that is! If humans cannot do this, then they are helping Team Dark create and perpetuate human destruction, death, murder, insanity, chaos, violence, hatred, fear, pain, suffering etc. Same old, same old in other words. This is why it’s so extremely important for individuals to wake up enough to start thinking and feeling for themselves—therefore creating what they want, not what Team Dark wants.

By mid-July 2014—and we’re there now (I’m writing this on July 12th)—another NEW batch of Ascension related higher energies will insert themselves into this physical realm/world/dimension/timeline/humans and that is why Team Dark is so busy again now trying to trigger more wars, violence, murder, mayhem, suffering, bloodshed, mutilation and hatred anywhere they can. It’s that classic magician’s trick of getting humans so intensely focused on what’s happening over there that they’re not even aware of or available for all the other things happening elsewhere. Do not get suckered into this old Team Dark tactic this summer. Sure there are parts of the world going mad (again) at the moment but that doesn’t mean you need to help it by mentally and/or emotionally focusing on any of it. Quite the contrary. What’s required of the awake and aware folk is ignoring it all and intentionally and consciously creating/visualizing/intending over the top of all that insanity.

Many “lightworkers” believe that helping these sorts of situations is accomplished by sending Light and Love to those locations and people on the planet where tremendous negativity is happening physically. I know from decades of personal experiences with Team Dark that, the fastest way to irritate and piss them off is to focus Light and Love at them! Seriously, how do you feel when Team Dark focuses negativity and darkness at you and/or yours? There ya go, endless Duality fighting back and forth until someone finally discovers that one must rise beyond Duality and reach disconnected Neutrality with it all. Doing so ends the back and forth Dualized fighting between Light and Dark, and even more importantly, it ends and prevents ones individual energies from being used by Team Dark to fuel their agendas.

It’s much more effective to just override Team Dark and their actions than confront with an opposing (Light/Love) energy. It’s easy to do until the majority of the world is screaming at you again about the latest chaos and wars and bloodshed happening somewhere on the planet! That’s when you and I are “tested” individually as to how well we can maintain the higher energies, the higher focus, the HighHeart 5D Consciousness and not let ourselves get suckered, distracted, derailed or pulled back down into Team Dark’s latest physical nightmare unfolding wherever on the planet. How well can you ignore the negativity, the fear-mongering, the bloodshed, the violence, the warmongering, the continued anti-human behaviors and governmental and/or religious propaganda from all sides? Where your consciousness and emotions are focused is where you’ll find yourself. Is that something you want to do? Is that something you want to personally experience? If not, then redirect your mental and emotional focus to where you DO want it and work and live from there and ignore the chaos around you.

Today is a Super Moon Full Moon at 20º Capricorn 3′. Next week and the week after three planets change signs — Jupiter enters Leo, Venus enters Cancer, Mars enters Scorpio. Then on July 26th is the New Moon at 3º Leo 52′ and the opening of the 6D Sirian ‘Lion’s Gate’ which lasts until August 12th. So the rest of the summer is filled with changes, potentials, probabilities, great creativity and no doubt some NEW surprises from our beloved 6D Sirian relatives as they annually seed Earth/humanity at this time.

Be conscious of your consciousness. Be aware of where your thoughts and emotions are, and if you find they’ve slid off track a bit, just pull them back to where you want them and continue from there. Use these great NEW creative energies arriving here now and for the next few weeks to further grow yourself, your consciousness, your HighHeart, your personal life and whatever you want in it now. Become better at Consciously Creating what YOU want and need and override the lower frequency chaos and negativity. Never ever let it distract you or tempt you off your Ascension Path ever again for any reason whatsoever. This too is a “test” and a very important one for existing within 5D so lets Master it well friends. ❤

HighHeart to HighHeart,

Denise

July 12, 2014

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