Wednesday, November 26, 2014

I thought I would take some time to give thanks for things that I am thankful for

Lettssaaa-go:

1. My family and friends obviously have to be number one. Wouldn't be who I am today without those crazy people in my life (I say crazy but in the most loving way possible)

2. I am thankful for the amazing opportunity to be able to attend college. As much as I complain about all the stress and homework, I am honestly so grateful that I am able to have a great education.(Do your homework, kids!)

3. My health. I am so thankful that I am healthy, have good teeth, and 20/20 vision. I know that many people don't have the luxury of being healthy. I have always taken my health for granted but recently I realized how fragile life and to be thankful for the life you have been given.

I am grateful for so many things that if I listed them all of this post would be really long, so I'll spare you that (you're welcome ;]) , so anyways yeah life's good, make the most of everyday, be yourself, yeah yeah other life advice.

Sunday, November 16, 2014

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? Probably my friend??2. Are you outgoing or shy? A bit of both I think ( I have my moments).3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? MY CAT at the end of the month!!!!!4. Are you easy to get along with? I would say so, yes5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? They would probs be drunk with me haha.6. What kind of people are you attracted to? FUNNY! and nice definitely. I generally go for the people who make me laugh and are just nice and easy-going7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? Who knows8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? You know who you are9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Not really (unless it's with my family members then yes)10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? My BFFL Emily 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? It says: Yo make me food12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? Blank Space by Taylor Swift, Froot by Marina and the Diamonds, Bad Blood by Taylor Swift, Out of the Woods by Taylor Swift, and Welcome to New York by Taylor Swift (I've been listening to Taylor Swift's new album a lot if you haven't noticed)13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Not really unless they know what they're doing14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? Ehh...15. What good thing happened this summer? I got to see a lot of my extended family who came in from all over the country, so that was fun.16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? NO17. Do you think there is life on other planets? Yeah sure why not18. Do you still talk to your first crush? Haha noooo I think he moved to a different state19. Do you like bubble baths? YES (with lots and lots of bubble ^_^)20. Do you like your neighbors? Yeah we get along..I think21. What are you bad habits? Playing with my hair!22. Where would you like to travel? Everywhere eventually but mostly Europe23. Do you have trust issues? Sometimes yes24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Coming home from school and putting my feet up25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? My nose?26. What do you do when you wake up? Pee, wash my face, and brush my teeth27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? Well it's not physically possible for my skin to be any lighter than it is now, so maybe a nice golden tan would be nice.28. Who are you most comfortable around? My friend Emily29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Yep...30. Do you ever want to get married? Eventually yes :)31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? Yes32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? Oh there are so many choices...hmm...Ryan Gosling(obvs) and Benedict Cumberbatch(*drool*)33. Spell your name with your chin. emily7 (oooh so close!!)34. Do you play sports? What sports? I used to play soccer, fastpitch, and volleyball 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? That's a difficult one but probably music???36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Of course!37. What do you say during awkward silences? I don't I normally pretend that I'm texting on my phone38. Describe your dream girl/guy? FUNNY(!!), fun to be around, nice, respectful, someone who makes me feel like the most special person in the world.39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Bath and Body Works, Ulta, Target40. What do you want to do after high school? I have absolutely no idea(see previous blogposts) byt I hope that it makes me happy41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? It depends why they need a second chance42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? It means that I'm mad, sad, or tired43. Do you smile at strangers? I try to :)44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Outer space?45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? FOOOOOOD46. What are you paranoid about? That people talk bad about me behind my back47. Have you ever been high? Nope48. Have you ever been drunk? If I say yes, don't judge me49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? I don't think so...50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Blue (big surprise there)

Sunday, November 9, 2014

A lot has happened in the past couple of weeks and it makes me feel very uneasy about the future.

Sometimes I wish that I had someone tell me what I am supposed to do, like in one of the dystopian movies where we all have our place in the world and we do what we are told.

I suppose in a sense the fact that that doesn't happen is very nice because then we have the choice to be who ever we want to be. But half the struggle is finding out who that person is. A doctor? An artist? A entrepreneur? There are so many things that you can be in this world.

I think one of the things that I struggle with is because there are so many options in life, I often find myself pulled in so many different directions with who I want to be. I want to be a creator, I want to be successful, I want to make my family proud of me. People often say "Oh you're only in college, you have plenty of time to find yourself there!!"

Yeah, sure.

If anything, college has made me more confused.

They practically force us into deciding who we want to be at 18 and then throw us into the real world without a second glance.

It's absolutely terrifying.

I often find that I can't sleep or concentrate because I'm thinking about the unknown of the future.

As of now, I'm just going through the motions.

Ugh. I don't know if this made any sense.

Has anyone else ever felt this/are feeling this too?

I know that everything will be okay but sometimes it just doesn't feel like it.