An Authentic, Sometimes Gritty, and Always Hopeful Blog for All Who Live with Severe Physical Pain

Friday, December 9, 2011

God is more Faithful than I am Foolish, Forgetful, or Fearful

In last week’s posting, I told you how my pain disorder, trigeminal neuralgia, has been much worse since Thanksgiving; I’ve suffered more pain these past two weeks than I have in over a year and a half. However, before it hit, I already had planned a week away to write and meditate. So, here I am, staying in a Ia mountain-top home of a
friend.

Nothing has gone according to plan. I arrived on
Monday and found that my I-Phone could not pick up a signal, and the
internet connection wasn't working. I drove up this mountain in dense fog, and it has worsened steadily-- high winds, torrential rain, and snow. No way could I drive somewhere to find a better connection. I have been left for three and a half days in silence and quiet. (luckily there is a land line here so Warren knows I'm okay.)

Granted, I am not the brightest Christmas bulb on the
tree. However, I have walked in faith long enough to know that something else,
besides work, was in store for me.

Reading my regular devotional, this scripture jolted through me--funny how you can read scripture for a hundred times and get nothing--then "Bam!" it hits you smack in the heart!

(As hope sustains us…) so too the Spirit comes to our aid and helps us in our weakness; for we do not know what prayer to offer, nor how to offer it worthily as we ought, but the Spirit goes to plead on our behalf with unspeakable yearnings and groaning too deep for utterance.

I immediately realized how greatly I've needed intercession. I haven't really sought out God for higher help in this place. I suppose since I've been through so many ups and downs through these years, I have gotten used to hunkering down and hanging on.

And, here the Holy Spirit has been doing it all along.

I feel, like the Grinch, as though my heart
has grown three sizes bigger as I realized
this week that God is more faithful than I am foolish, forgetful, or fearful.

2 comments:

Well stated my sister in Christ! I am certain the pain you are feeling is because your message in the book has evil's attention. He hates you being used as a vessel for OUR GOD's WORK. Your testimony is too important and Satan knows it. I pray a hedge of protection around you.

Colossians 3:23 - 24 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.