Voleur de Coeur

I’m very proud to introduce you to a brand new cinepoem, Voleur de Coeur.

It means Thief of Hearts, and was filmed recently on a a foggy Saturday in San Francisco with the help of my faithful cinépoem partner, Michelle Brown. This is the first cinepoem I’ve shot post-pregnancy, and really that’s what it’s all about, too.

I’ve spent the last two years learning how to be a mother and a writer. I certainly don’t have either figured out, but I am on my way to finding my footing on paper again, and Voleur is a chronicle of that journey.

Awakened by absence, you automatically reach for the place you keep the only thing that ever mattered

but hands grasp only an empty space devoid of pulse.

The first thought screams
this must be your fault and search frenzy ensues.

You upend pockets and terrorize seams, hunting with zealot fingers as if there was ever a chance of recovery.

The second thought stuns your limbs to stillness as you realize
this loss could ruin you.

Enter desperate inertia. Just lie there and breathe. and breathe. and breathe.

Eventually you must stand up and retrace your steps feet leaden with the knowledge of your futility.

At first the world seems unchanged. Sky blue. Grass green. Gravity on.

But birdsong carries all the wrong notes and sunlight is a pale facsimile of her former glorious blaze.

And you, oh you are hardly the same. Hardly sane. Hardly here.

On you wander through a day then stumble over a month then lose yourself in a year.

But only when you finally abandon every last pretense of hope do you reach the place you were destined to go all along.

She is waiting there,
que petit voleur having stolen your heart, yes but only to return it

bigger and better and infinitely more beautiful than ever.

-Lo: changed, present, and sane.

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