Friday, February 1, 2008

Bad Luck Chuck

A street light flickered on as I was walking beneath it tonight. It could have been motion sensitive, but I like to think that it was something special. Not good luck or anything... just a happy coincidence.

A friend of mine was talking about coincidences that hold the reputation of being ill faring (like strolling under a ladder or encountering a black cat). I love that stuff. I broke the mirror in my travel-kit. I laughed out loud.

There is no bad luck... just trials traveling in packs. When it rains it pours, but after it pours it stops. Matty

So, I had a pretty sucky afternoon/evening. And as I was sitting here at my desk still kind of crying about all the garbage that went down today, I got one of those happy coincidences when I read this. It was what I needed to hear. Thanks, Matt. You don't know how much that helped.

Hey Matty!I decided to copy and paste the lyrics of the song I wrote for you/because of your quote just in case you didn't see them the first time around. Hope I'm not annoying you.

"The Storm" 2-1-08It was beautiful, that day on the lakeSo glad we were togetherNow it's 3 am and I'm still awakeI keep reading your letterWhy did you decide to leave?Why did you do this to me?Sometimes I'm okBut sometimes I'm so aloneI think about you everydayWish you'd call me on the phoneDon't know if I can get over youI need someone to help me through

Why does life feel like this?I long for the ignorance, it was blissThrough my tears, I can seeThat life won't always beThe pain I feel nowCause when it rains, it poursBut after it pours, it stopsMy heart was once yoursNot anymore, but I know howTo be happy again

I feel like I'm finally over itThe broken heart you left for meMy candle once again is litAnd I don't feel so emptyDespite what happenedI know I can forgive youMy sadness came to an endGod's love saw me throughI'm still afraid you'll come backAnd break my heart once againMy brain, once again I rackAnd I know you'll never suck me in

Why does life feel like this?I long for the ignorance, it was blissThrough my tears, I can seeThat life won't always beThe pain I feel nowCause when it rains, it poursBut after it pours, it stopsMy heart was once yoursNot anymore, but I know howTo be happy again

Things like that seem to happen to me a lot. Street lights turning on, or going out. I think of them the same way... a happy coincidence.

Actually, when I was living in Pittsburgh and was pretty depressed, I used to walk out on the Smithfield Bridge and one night all the lights on the bridge went out and the snow started to fall. It felt like my heart would break into a million pieces because of the strange sense of happiness it gave me.

"It is always darkest right before dawn." You should read the Alchemist. I just finished it and it seems to relate to your entry. You seem to be someone that I would very much enjoy having a conversation with.

Matty,it's been a week since we've heard from you!It's understandable, since you have a busy life, but be gone any longer, and we'll start to worry.Seriously, what if something happened to you? We wouldn't know! So if you ever think something will happen to you, let us know so we can say goodbye.

That sounds really dumb.As if you would know if anything was gonna happen to you.But if you had a stalker, you might know.Oh, what am I saying?Have I even seen your face?!Of course you have a stalker.

Wow.I am incredibly idiotic.

See what happens when you desert your blog for too long?

=]

Could just be that I'm tired. But I shouldn't be.

I am in several different moods at the moment.It is very weird.

I'm bored, but I don't wanna read my book, cause then I'll get into it and I'll miss my show at 10, and- !I just realized!!!THIS TIME last week, I was writing you that song!Cause I saw your blog update! And OH MY GOSH that is sooo cool!

Now I have to go cry with joy. Only I might not, cause I'm hungry.

I wasn't being serious. I was kidding. Making fun of myself.I'm not gonna cry with joy.Although I am kinda hungry. But not really....

Now I have no idea why I decided to comment again and I'm sorry for making this so long. You'll never read this. This comment is like a blog update. That's how long it is.Maybe I should do another blog and just copy all my comments to you into it?Hmm. Now that is an idea.

....Hi Matt!Where's the update?lol sorry I don't wanna badger/pester/bother you.I'll give you an update of my own.I just took some silly quiz for "what valentines day symbol are you"and apparently I am the broken heart.

Whatever.I don't like Valentine's Day anyway....hmm and maybe that's why my result was a broken heart.lol.

anyway,after that I has this weird thought that was totally strange and stupid. I don't even think it was me thinking cause I wouldn't think something as stupid as this... or maybe I would. since I obviously did.I just thought I should leave a comment saying:"Matt, will you be my Valentine?"and nothing else.But that would be so weird.And I'd sound crazy.Besides, 80% are your fangirls are gonna ask that anyway.lol.

Well, I didn't refresh this comment page, so I will type it in again.... no never mind. I will copy and paste. If it works.

So on February 5, at 5:03 pm I wrote:

Matt,I am also sorry.I had no intention of denying your wishes. I didn't mean to. Paige just liked my song and I had to say thank you. =]But I am very sorry! I hope you read my comment.I always love your blog and "When it rains it pours, but after it pours it stops." is my new favorite quote of all time.

You know I could go on forever about all the things I like about your blog. But it would be kinda pointless since you probably already know how much I adore you and your wit.And I just don't think my fingers are up to the task.=]

Please update soon. Talk about you, what's going on your life, how you feel, etc.Give me some information so I can stalk you.lol JK!=]

Once again, I apologize.

Love you!

wow...really wish blogger had an edit comment. that's what i was trying to do.im just stupid. lol.good thing the delete opens up in a new window. so i still had this one to copy the comment from.

Matty, I too have been checking every day with no update from you. It makes me sad. But I understand that you have more stuff to do than to sit on the computer all day long, posting updates and reading your fanmail from us.... (what is wrong with you?!)lol.jk.

Aboot Matthew Thiessen, eh?

A Canadian immigrant moved to Ohio in '86. He grew up small town style. He formed a band with some friends in church when he was fifteen. After High School, he toured the country with his band. He has met thousands of different people, made friends, occasionally failed attempting to not make enemies, and led an anomalous life. He's still touring, meeting people, trying to befriend them all, and leading an anomalous life. This is his blog.