July 30, 2012

Have you ever had one of those days where you just think "Holy crap, I am one ugly human being".... Let me tell you... you're not. I know how easy it is to feel like that, and it's even harder when you have people around you that name call because they think it's funny or a term of endearment.
When people say to me they hate something about themselves I just counter that and say... what do you like about yourself?
This morning I woke up, looked in the mirror and said "Jess. You are one seriously pasty chick" But then I thought. That's ok, let's look at the positive things. I like my eyes, I like my lips and I like how my body actually has a shape- other than stick or ball. There is nothing wrong with those shapes, but my point is that we all need to start accepting ourselves the way we are. I did this survey this morning (feel free to do it)

Negative Relationships

It made me reassess how I see myself.
Sometimes making yourself feel better about how you look or how you are means that you have to remove those people in your life who negative. I mean... that's easier said than done...

Sometimes.. You really do just have to cut off all ties.

Step 1: Make a list of the things that that person does that you don't like or makes you feel bad

Step 2: Delete/ throw away their number. Don't tell them that you are doing it, and don't say goodbye

Step 3: Surround yourself with positive people.

Mirror Hate

You don't like what you see in the mirror. Great. That means that you care. Last year I refused to look in to a mirror that didn't just show my face. I actually covered all my of my full length mirror in magazine articles about positivity and only left a space for my face. (Excuse the rhyme). I have come to realize that it's not healthy to hate how you look. Every one was born different, whether you are skinny or fat, stunning or average, tan or pasty (like me), it doesn't matter. As long as you're healthy you are fine. Image doesn't reflect the inside and it's silly to spend so much time and effort trying to make yourself look like the person you think you are.

Step 1: Combat every negative that comes into your mind. Eg. My face is covered in pimples.... but my hair is looking really good today

Step 2: Reassure yourself that there is nothing wrong with you. BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH WHO YOU ARE

Step 3: Talk to a good friend about how you feel. Sometimes reassurance from someone else is the best thing.

Assertiveness

When I say be assertive, I don't mean be a bitch, I mean look out for yourself whilst looking out for others.

There is no point you stressing about what other people think, and therefore not doing something because you don't want people to think badly of you. If you want to say something, say it, and say it loud. Don't whisper it. You are not a mouse. You are a person and you deserve to be heard.

If you listen to people, then you therefore deserve to be heard. It's just the simple logic of being social. Don't be afraid of saying something that goes against the other person, because sometimes that is what can make a friendship. I know that if I come across someone who agrees with everything I say then it's going to frustrate me and eventually bore me. Don't be like that. You all have an opinion. So let's start using it.... don't just let it sit there in your mind.

July 24, 2012

Christian Grey... What a guy.
No seriously.... Why? Why did I have to find out about this book in the most important year of schooling? Why does E.L James have such skill that she can momentarily trick me, ME!, into thinking that my next relationship is going to be like this. Stupid. Silly Jess.

Any way, the book is great, for guys and gals. Guys can take a lesson from Mr. Grey and Girls can just enjoy the thought. Her description of the landscape and the emotions are so intense that in some parts I was crying, and in others I was crying. I can't believe there is going to be a movie! I have been thinking about the actors I would picture... and he's what I've come up with so far.

Christian Grey

Seeing Alexander Skarsgard as Eric Northman in HBO show True Blood, I have been convinced that he deserves the role. Utterly.

Anastasia Steele

Amelia Clarke.... Just so awesome.

Kate

Emma Stone

Elliot Grey

July 21, 2012

With turning 18 and coming back to school I realized that, for me, nothing has really changed.
Because I constantly live at school I can't drink, or smoke so buying that stuff would be pointless. Not that I smoke, or drink excessively. However my parents still control what I do with my weekends, despite not living at home for over two years.
I had to stop myself from using the "I'm 18 now" excuse with them, because I knew that it would get me no where.

I don't think that being 18 makes me more important than everyone else, I think it actually means the opposite. Compared to all the other "adults", I'm lacking in life experience and wisdom. I'm still on the cusp of maturity- to the point where I still find fart jokes funny. But there is nothing wrong with that. So what if I still act young? I'm not allowed to act like a 16 year old, and not allowed to act like a 20 year old. What's the difference?

I strongly believe that to get life experience and gain wisdom you have to make your own mistakes, and most importantly learn from them. I'm learning heaps at school about intellectual things, but knowing the details of World War Two or Matrices isn't going to save me when I'm out at night with a few friends, it's home time and I have no idea how to get home because I'm so used to my parents picking me up. Where are my lessons in life? They don't exist, they left the school system when their obligation of sexual health was over.

Stupidity Level: 1000000

How am I going to learn which guys are the bad guys if I'm only meeting the guys that go to school with me? How Am I going to learn how to keep myself and the people around me out of the Emergency room?

I don't want to be stupidly uninformed.

Not that I think websites have any comparison to real life experience, but it is good to be at least in the know:http://www.turning18.com.au/

July 20, 2012

So I'm back from the holidays... which you know... was the best three weeks of my life. Don't get me wrong, I studied, and life was pretty hectic but I enjoyed every second of it. I ate my weight in yummy food and cherished my time with my family and friends.

I went shopping like a mad person because I didn't bring any clothes home, and because there were some epic brand sales that ever I couldn't ignore.

In addition to my well spent money I went to on a "tarts tour" with a bunch of friends to celebrate my 18th. I had my first Grey Goose shot, Went to my first strip club, Pole danced and rode a mechanical bull... Thailand was the best place to celebrate turning 18 :)