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Tuesday, 19 May 2009

Uno, dos, tres...

I felt it was a good sign when the male nurse, who still looks eerily like the husband of a friend of ours, opened the ultrasound room door and called us in.

A familiar face at least, keeping the number of strangers who have peered up my wife at five since this debacle began.

Pale, bald headed, big lipped, with a neatly trimmed wiry beard, I wondered if he ever felt like he was looking in a mirror when he was down there sometimes.

As he got to work with the dildo-cam, I cracked open a fanta and offered around my peanut MMs.

First to the right hand side. One. Lovely stuff. Perfect.

The dildo-cam burrowed and snuffled it's way to the left.

One, two, and fuckyoudruggobblingsonofabitchfollicle, three.

In total, 4. Cuatro.

One 13mm on the left, and three at 12mm on the right.

The 13 is too small to induce ovulation now, which means giving them some growth time which would probably bring them all into the 'big enough' category.

If that happens, 4 is too many and it all gets cancelled.

Again.

ET is upset, tired, frustrated and stressed. I don't know what the fuck I am.

We await a phone call this afternoon to give us our next step. Maybe we go back to scan again tomorrow in the hope one has miraculously stopped growing like I did when I was 8, or vanished into the night like some South American resistance activist.

No No No No No No No! Aaaagghhhh! This is worse then watching Lost. SO Flipping FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!! Argh! Well, here's hoping one of the little fuckers pisses off into the soft pink yonder leaving you three large, ripe, juicy follicles to inseminate to your heart's content.

P.S Loved the line, "Pale, bald headed, big lipped, with a neatly trimmed wiry beard, I wondered if he ever felt like he was looking in a mirror when he was down there sometimes."

Mother Hubbard!!! Can't we have a "margin of error" like they do in political polls? "Three eggs, plus or minus a margin of error of 2" or something? I mean, it's only ONE more goddammned egg, after all.

Sorry. Sorry for the rant, sorry for ET and her frustration. Pass the M&M's....

@mammydiaries - They have some hope of getting off the island on Lost.

@frog ponds rock... - Me neither.

@Leslee - Good luck.

@Ms. Moon - Correct!

@womb for improvement - breath not being held.

@maggie, dammit - Thanks.

@Russ - It's your nose I bet...

@battynurse - yep, 4, on that small a dose...

@Heather - I know a woman who got pregnant by having sex! the freak.

@WiseGuy - gah, miracles, not supposed to be in need of miracles!Thanks.

@WhatAboutNovember - heh.

@Feebee - Deflating is the word that comes to mind.I suppose its the other side of their treatment by percentages method, as happy as I am to be able to avail of it, even at this level there is a lack of personal case interest.They actually wanted to give double the dose they did this time, it was ET who convinced them to come down.

@AnnB - Thanks.

@hairyfarmerfamily - That is bizarre to think of, complete opposite problems, same outcome.

Sonofabitch! One over the limit! I'm guessing that just may be even more infuriating than when she made a zillion eggs a few months ago! One...one freakin' follicle is going to shut the whole thing down.

I'm so sorry...frustration abounds just reading this so I can't imagine how you both are feeling.

I hope one of them disappears for you! If not, I still say give it the ole' "hump and hope."

Oh god, that sucks. I know ET seems to ov well on her own, but have they thought about alternatives to the bloody loopy pills? Tamoxifen, or even the injections where they can monitor and tweak the amounts much easier than they can with clomid, or even try close monitoring on an unmedicated cycle.

I was sooo keeping my fingers crossed that you would 1. get to IUI and 2. this would be the month.

Hi, Just to say I know what you are going through as we are in same situation but on the IVF track as IUI didn't work for us unfortunately. On our first IUI cycle I had 6 follicles and the clinic aspirated or as they explained in laymans terms 'popped' 4 of the follicles so we didn't have to cancel. This seems to be common practice in the fertility clinics over here in the very wet oul sod so might be worth asking about? Good luck

Im kinda in the same boat in a weird roundabout way. I take pills, get scans have 3 follices about to mature, I fuck and I then wait. Thats it. No trigger shots (I don't even know what they are). So we could be doing the same thing so if they cancell just have sex anyway and hope for the best. There is still a good chance it could work and only a slim chance of more than one taking.

Still, four is an improvement on seven, and if four are produced by half the dose, then you know that next time you try the quarter dose, you should get only the two or three you need. In the meantime, I hope as much as you that one of the current crop goes AWOL.

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