I don't understand it.I've always been a nice guy.When
people get to know me that's what they say.They want to take
friendship to the next level.I agree with it.

They put sex
on the table.I brush it off.They try it again.I brush it
off.I hear them say "all anyone wants is sex"I
continue to brush it off.They tell me "You don't love me"I
tell them "I want to be with you for you, not because of
sex"

Apparently translation to that is "I don't love
them"If I rushed in and went for sexI would get told
"that's all you want, you don't love me"No winning with
some people.

I can see me being single for the rest of my
life.No matter how long or short it maybe.

Kennie

Never
Gets Anywhere

This world is made up of ruthless people.If
your not that you get walked on.When your nice, you get walked
on.Treated like shit and dumped on.

When good things
happen, they come with a cost.They happen with a struggle.Could
be the smallest thing.But it happens after a big
struggle.

Others will look at you like your twenty steps
back.But it's just the challenges of being a nice guy.We're
always the ones who get overlooked.Always the nice guys.

We
hope that what we do will get us promotedIt never does.We
hope that how we are will get us looked at.But always
single.When someone does date you.They think your just nice
to them, when you start showing your nice to all.Some can't
handle it.

Kennie

Dead
Inside

Being a nice guy means your dead insidePassed by in
life, just start going numb.Never let them see you cry.Just
let yourself decay from inner to outer.

It's a tough thing to
be.Even harder not to show you pain.Being nice means many
lonely nights.Painful days and wet eyes.

Never let them
see you cryNever let them see you cryIt's lonely at the
bottom.You get passed on by friends.

Many days and nights
alone.But that's the life of being a nice guy.You bite your
lip till it bleeds.Not allowed to show them anger.Never let
them see you cry.

Kennie

Mistaken
As Weak

Been often mistaken as weak.Not saying I'm the
strongest physically.But a common misperception of a nice guy is
weakness.I kid you not, we aren't weak.We are just
nice.

Always lending a listening ear.Or a shoulder to cry
on.Never asking for anything in return.Just wanting to show
compassion.

Very gentle people, is who we be.We make some
of the best friendsWe make very great boyfriends.

Always
kind and considerateTreating all with respect.

Kennie

I'm
A Fuck Up

Might be a nice guy, but I'm a complete fuck
up.Can't do anything right.Keep doing everything wrongKeep
messing up.Not just a one day thing either.It's a everyday
thing.

I'm mid 30sI can't take care of myself.90% of
the time I feel like I shouldn't be left alone.Simplest tasks I
fuck up.

I should have stayed in bed today.Put the covers
over my head and forget about the world.As the world forgot about
me.

Kennie

Another
Day

Today is another dayFull of
trials and errorsFull of success and failuresHad major
anxiety problems the day before.Had a few minor problems
today.

Just trying to get through each day.Sometimes it's
just not easy.Other days it does seem easierAt times people
push me awayAt times people test me.

But I try and put it
behind me.I try to sit back and keep my cool.It's not always
easy for me.