Prayer Circles

After 5 years of being living 1200 miles from my daughter - how do I go back?

I left my daughter with her dad 5 years ago - due to my violent 2nd husband. I divorced him and moved far away. I have been a long distance mom, healing myself and keeping us safe. She will be 18 and I feel the stong need to go home. Where do I start? My heart aches. I left a 13 year old who is now ready to be on her own? I want to be closer but I am still afraid of the same reasons I left. Please pray for my daughter and I...where do I begin?