Dare to Believe.

I’m leaving Singapore. I’m leaving NTU. I’m leaving all the beautiful people I have with me here.

I will withdraw sometime this week.

I’m going to Warwick. To chase my dreams. To reach for a life I have always wanted. All that heartache, that anxiety, that self-flagellation, the tears shed, the working hard, the wishing hard, the internal struggle between reality and idealism, it all cumulates

here.

It is only when I know for certain that I will be gone before the week is over – though it hasn’t quite sunk in yet – that the intensity of the love I have for this treasured group of people finally unravels, and I suddenly feel the impending loss.

Of course I’m happy. In a stunned, frozen kind of way – in a way that is easily overtaken by this wave of resonating sadness in half a heartbeat.

Perhaps the colour of my perceptions should begin to change…but I cannot figure out how.

16 comments

it’s okay girl,
go chase your dream! as cheesy as they always say, follow your heart and God will guide you all the way(:
nah i wont miss you, so it will be easier for you to leave!
im such a sweet guy la! go only! no need to feel sad cause you are evil (:

Chongx just took the words out of my mouth 🙂 don’t let ties impede your journey of dream-chasing! Go anywhere you want, during the times when you have less things to hold on to. And there’s always something called webcam and blog! We can still keep in touch.

I must admit that I was a little sad to hear that you’ll be leaving us, but hey, at least all of us shared that precious 31 days of experience together as a group. I’ll never forget the first time we met during the dinner on the first day of FOC, lol!

All the best 😉 and don’t forget, it’s not the end! It’s just the beginning.

Wowzers those snail people finally got to you huh. That’s great news man! I feel sooooo happy for you after all that’s happened! So glad that you’ll be able to chase your dreams and go on to what you planned for. Although leaving people here will be sad, but don’t worry, I’m sure we’ll all keep in touch. Do come back once in a while to visit ya? 🙂 I’ll surely miss your presence. And the little talks we had lol.

Take care in Warwick (it’s helluva cold there) and remember to post pictures and updates! I’m looking forward to those highland pictures (if you’re going there that is).

omg~~!! you know what? i actually thought about you after you went back!! wow~~ now isn’t that quite something, ha ha… it means you have a place in my heart!! will think of you every now and then! keep in touch, yea?