My first few SALVIA experiences..

One negative, one positive. :)

About 30 minutes ago I tried salvia extract for the 2nd time. I smoked
some weed afterwards, to calm my nerves and because I always smoke weed
after everything. :/. So i apologize if I am rambling.. Anyways, my
first time was done in an extremely bad setting and I ignorantly took
WAAAAY too much. This time and I now consider it to be a pretty awful
setting, and I definitely want to move my salvia trip to a much COMFIER
location.

This 2nd salvia trip was done 30 minutes ago and
outside in my backyard in a shed I have. It started out with me going,
oh wow I remember this exact feeling.. And the words "Your back.. Your
back.." chanting in my head. This time I felt much better about my
dosage and the place I was at, and felt like I had shown a lot more
respect towards the "Salvia Gods". I kept telling myself, dont fight it,
dont fight it. As I have a tendency to want to fight the odd feelings..
The seemed to be telling me that I was doing much better this time and
that they would show me more. I closed my eyes and I completely forgot
where I was or what I was doing, I felt like that was the way I really
"was" in reality. It's a hard thought to explain now that I think about
it. (THEN A BUNCH OF CRAZY SHIT HAPPENED I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN AND I
SORT OF FORGET AT THIS POINT. IT FELT LIKE I WAS ON A JOURNEY AND
THINGS WERE JUST HAPPENING SO FAST I COULDNT REALLY GRASP ONTO ANYTHING
TO SAVE IT IN MY MEMORY. All i remember is family, friends, people,
ideas, and pictures in my head that I can't really describe to you).
Then I felt as if I was slowly falling backwards and that a big hand had
caught me and was slowly closing around me and holding me, I felt like i
was curling up like a baby in her hand and the entire time the word
"Love" was being chanted in my head. The word would NOT leave my
thoughts. I remember thinking, is there anything else but "Love"?! and
there was a strong feeling of euphoria and.. well love, running through
my body. And at one point it got so intense that I thought, I don't know
if I can handle this.. At that point I pictured people in my life and
it seemed to remind me of myself and that I had just taken salvia. I was
then able to open my eyes and there I was back in my shed and aware of
what was going on.. At this time I felt relieved and wished I was
experiencing this from the comfort of a couch or my bed. I closed my
eyes trying to go back, but it wasn't the same.. But I still closed them
and held onto the feeling as long as possible.

I'll be piecing
this experience together in my head for quite some time.. Also, before I
took the hit I remember hearing an airplane and when I started to take
off I could hear some weird sound I didn't recognize that was clicking
throughout my body. It wasn't the sound a plane makes, but I'm almost
positive it was the plane.. It seemed to last forever though..lol.

This
was my first positive experience with Salvia and next time I think I'm
going to do it in a more comfortable environment.. Also, I'm interested
in removing all worries from my mind before taking Salvia.. as I felt
some of my worries and fears were brought up at the beginning of my
salvia trip.. I assume this will come with growing comfortable of the
salvia experience?

I look forward to trying it again.. But
now I'm not sure if I'll be able to handle the intensity of DMT.. I
guess it would be ignorant to assume I could in the first place,
anyways, eh?

ALSO, THANKS FOR HEARING MY THOUGHTS.. I'D LOVE TO HEAR YOURS.

EDIT:
I told my buddy about my experience and I was reminded that I mentioned
a hand from my last Salvia experience (the bad one). And this reminded
me of what I remember of my last Salvia experience and how the 2
experiences coincide with each other in sort of an eerie way. My last
experience was done outside in a chair with 4 people watching me. I had
filled the water pipe with water and filled up a HUGE bowl with 17x
Salvia Extract. While walking over to the chair I spilled some water out
onto the concrete because it was filled too high. I remember taking a
giant hit and holding it in as long as I could. Also, imagine I am
sitting in a chair looking at 4 of my friends watching me take Salvia.
(HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE, STUPID IDEAS I KNOW) Anyways, crazy stuff starts
happening and I think im stuck in this new world and I look and see my 4
friends and they look like 4 fingers on a hand. And I look like the
thumb.. Then this hand starts turning and curling and sort of tearing
the world apart. And the water I spilled looked like the tear and I was
freaking out cause I didn't know why there was a tear in the world (I
guess i forgot I spilled water there?). And the experience sucked, but I
just realized in my 2nd experience.. I was comforted by a hand.. Kinda
cool, imo. I bet my next experience involves a hand as well.