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Chapter 3: When Anger Is False, Laughter Is False

When I was doing the Gourishankar meditation I had a terrible feeling of death come over me, and I guess I immediately associated it with my mother. I’ve really been worrying about it, and I wonder if everything is okay back home.

Mm, nothing to worry about your mother. It has something to do with you, not with your mother.

Everybody comes to a feeling of death some day or other in deep meditation. Whenever meditation touches your inner depth, the feeling of death comes - because that very point where you touch yourself is the beginning of you and the end of your ego. So your ego goes through a sort of feeling of death; not exactly death, but.great panic.

Next time it happens don’t be afraid; just move in it. Death is as beautiful as life. And the whole idea about death - that it is something to be afraid of - is based on absolutely wrong notions. Wrong notions about life too, because we think life is the life of the body - that’s why death seems to be so scaring.

If you come to understand that life is more than body - body is just the surface of it, the form of it, and life itself is formless - then death is nothing but a door; a door to the beyond, a door to yourself. It is a returning to the source.

Once you have fallen into your source, once you allow it to happen, you will become alive for the first time. Then you know that you are deathless; nothing can destroy you, not even death. Unless one experiences death, death remains. Once you accept it, death disappears - it has been transcended. So the sooner it happens the better.

It was a good experience, but you have misunderstood it. It is just an indication that sooner or later you will have a deeper feeling of it coming again. Allow it, mm? And if you become really very much afraid and it becomes difficult to relax.because one has to relax..

Death is just like sleep: if you don’t relax, it cannot come. If you remain tense how can you go to sleep? So if you are only a little bit afraid, even then you will not be able to relax. So just as it is coming, relax as if you are moving into deep sleep. Accept and welcome it. Give yourself to it, be possessed. If it is difficult, just take the locket in the hand and remember me - and immediately there will be a let-go, mm? Do it!

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I am leaving tomorrow. Would you please give me a meditation to do on an airplane?