Sunday, July 15, 2012

a come back. hopefully

Hopefully katanya.

Hope and Promises.

Aiyoo berapa kali comeback pun tak tau lah. Tapi this time around i think i am going to start blogging again, since my life was ruined by some desperate bastard. I am not being bitter, but the pain is so hard to endure i almost break down to pieces. Punya le banyak manusia dalam dunia ni, yang itu jugak ko nak kan.

Bila kita telah lama dengan seseorang, atau bila semakin lama kita dengan seseorang ia menjadi semakin sukar untuk melupakan segala memori atau kenangan yang pernah dilalui. It was not a perfect relationship, but relationship, as was mentioned by a friend of mind, is not about finding perfection, but to find a perfect adjustment. I guess, at the period reaching the end of our relationship, we could not find a good adjustment. Macamana nak adjust, aku dok sibuk cari cara nak adjust, dia gih sibuk adjust dengan orang lain. Macam haram ja.

But as reality kicks in, this is the thing that i have to endure right now.

But, one advice to everyone out there, no matter what is the status of your relationship or the status of your sexual preferences. If you suddenly found out that you relationship tiba tiba jadi begitu indah, tidak ada gaduh gaduh, berhati hati lah. Before you know it, you will be dumped like an idiot.

After 5 years having a relationship, the thing that you miss so much bukannya moment-moment cinta i lap you, you lap me. You know, just like our parents, yang dah bercinta bertahun-tahun. Some of them stop having sex altogether, but what most important is the companionship. The feeling that someone will always be around to protect you, to take good care of you. To share the burden, even a simple chores such as carrying groceries bag together, untuk pimpin tangan kita naik tangga, untuk open the door of the car, or even to share an umbrella when it rain.

The only commitment we have adalah janji. A promises that we hold to ensure that no matter what happen, we will be together, until the point we cannot be together anymore. Untuk apa, satunya some people a monogamous relationship will keep us away from going to visit to the hospital untuk rawatan penyakit STD. Or a promises that when we are in a relationship, we are actually in a way, proving our love to each other.

to have hope, and to promise.

Hope and Promises.

Anyway, this blog need a focus. I used to write about entertainment, and there are so many entertaiment blog yang lebih hebat dan baik. Some i heard, macam oh bulan dot com, beautiful nara, or macam budiey, makes thousands of ringgit each month from blogging about entertainment. (ada bayar cukai tak dek non)

I also tried to write about food and culture, and i am doing it so bad, and uninteresting because i only frequent gerai-gerai je, tak mampu nak makan kat hotel mewah bagai.