brown eyed girl, writing about her world

Sunday we texted and talked on the phone. He was off the medicine was making him sick to stomach and still very sleepy. So he was sleeping and playing video games. So 3 days without seeing him. My IBS or stress or both have been kicking my ass since Saturday night and even the prescription medicine isn’t helping. Monday afternoon, i took some more med and went to see Charming, got my usual hugs and my nice kiss on the cheek. I gave him a pretty little cross my friend and i made Friday. I didn’t sleep well Monday night, didn’t have any dairy products and stomach still fucked up, plus my back hurt and some menstrual cramps and later on my head hurt. I was also feeling depressed too so I spent the day with my best friend. Charming and I texted some today and tonight and I saw him after I came home and feed the fur babies. I stayed until he closed up shop and then we went to our friends house. On the way I tried to discuss the shit that happened last week and some other stuff I need to get straight with him. Well apparently it is not a car conversation especially not a 5 minute one. I told it is not a conversation to have at his work and not by text message either. He said it was sit down and have a drink conversation. I told him then he needs to make for us do that. He said he would. Well since we went to our friend’s house I didn’t get my usual goodbye hug. I did get one inside and I got another one and our somewhere between the neck and cheek kiss when I left. We texted Wednesday and i saw him at work, got my hugs and our somewhere between cheek and neck kisses. I texted him Thursday but his battery died. He replied to my Thursday text on Friday and i saw him Friday, we talked about plans for the weekend and did our usual hugs. We texted Saturday, talked in person……. Our plans for Saturday fell through. We texted some Sunday and Monday. We texted and then i saw him Tuesday, we talked and hugged 3 times. He texted me Wednesday and then i saw him Wednesday night where we talked and hugged twice and gave each other little kisses. Made plans to go out Saturday night for a drink , so i really hope the world doesn’t end on Friday . Had drinks on Saturday and talked for a couple hours, did not go as i wanted it to.

Didn’t see Charming on Friday, Saturday or Sunday. We texted every day.i saw him Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday . I was going him a ride home Tuesday night and kiss him but some shit happened and i had to drop him off the last place i wanted to. We texted on Friday. We texted on Saturday, he’s taking medicine that makes him super tired so he’s off today and mostly sleeping . I had a mostly good day chilling with the family making Christmas decorations but about 4:00 tummy is acting up again. I am so sick of feeling sick and crappy. Damn this fucking IBS !

So if you read the Charming post, you know I’ve seen him almost every day. Well my hot military man and part time lover texts me last night right after the first time i see and talk to Charming. Well folks i haven’t had sex in almost 2 months and when my sexy tatted man asked if i was free i thought about and then said yes. The timing was crazy, i had to get home, shower and shave, get some needed lovin from him, kiss him goodbye, shower again and get back to Charming because he’s still in pain from the beat up body and broken nose so i am assisting him with some medicine. He has to work Thanksgiving and the day after while i am eating yummy food with my family. I am trying to chill with him after he gets off of work. Well Thursday night i get to see Charming dressed up, white button down shirt and tie, fresh hair cut and cleaned up goatee and mustache. They were very busy and he was wore out and tired so i did not to bring him home with me. Friday i went shopping and replaced his big ass CZ studs, one got lost during the fight. I headed out to the country and spent a few hours with me family and family friends, i got some homemade chili and Brunswick stew for Charming and something special to drink. He got locked out of his apartment Thursday night and got like no sleep so Friday night after he got off work he was going home and going to sleep. He slept for a while and then texted me that he ate the Brunswick stew for a midnight snack and drank his apple pie drink for a nightcap and thanked me again for both if them. Saturday i had to go back the store where i got the CZ studs because i got a pair of pink sparkly converse that i thought were the wrong size. They were not i was too lazy to untie them because i slide the rest of my sneakers on. I am on the way to my best friends house and Charming calls me. I have to call him back and put him on speaker without wrecking the car. He needs a ride to work so he isn’t fired for being late. I have to turn around and go downtown to get him through a shitload of traffic lights, cars parked on the street and 35 speed limit. I get there 2 minutes before he is supposed to be at work. So he is stressing and smoking like a chimney. I missed the turn to get on the interstate and have to make the long slow ride until we get to a different road then I am speeding 10 to 15 miles over the speed limit and he is still like 13 minutes late. I threw him out at the front door and he thanked me and gave me a hug. When I agreed to come get him I told him he owed me a sleep over. We have hung out on my bed and watched movies twice but he has not stayed over yet. After i dropped him off i went to my best friend’s house. We are hanging out trying to decide what we want to do when i get a text from a mutual friend of Charming and I that says I heard you may be getting lucky tonight. So Charming had decided he was going to sleep over at my house. Well of course I am all happy and excited and nervous for the next 5 hours but when we go see him at work to get a confirmation from him he is a bad mood because he got in trouble for being late and was stiffed twice. So he was going home and going to sleep. So I was kind of pissed but tried to act like I wasn’t. We texted some later that night. I saw him and we talked Sunday afternoon. I almost got to have lunch with him Monday before he went to work, his friend waits until Charming is off the phone to say oh man i can take you to work and the bank. So instead i had to see him at work we got to talk because it was almost dead at that time of day but not the same as being away from his job. I felt crappy on Tuesday so i didn’t see him but we texted Tuesday night. And i saw him Wednesday got a couple hugs and nice kiss on the cheek and texted once he was off. We texted Thursday and then got to see him at night, talked and more hugs. No kisses infront of his manager that is not a good friend of ours. Some texting last night. We talked on the phone last night too.

I’ve seen Charming almost every day between work, friend’s house and my house. Yes i finally got to bring him home with me. It was Monday night, he wasn’t working so i picked him up from his apartment, we had a little interstate trouble and then laid on my bed and watched Project X. We were cuddled up together and when were getting ready to leave my house, we were hugging and i stepped back and looked into his pretty green eyes and kissed him. He kissed me back for a minutes, we had to stop so he didn’t get too worked up. Between the car ride and when i dropped off at our friend’s house, we were together for like 3 hours. We had a late lunch together Sunday afternoon and had a good time talking . Our hugs have included kisses on the cheek for about a week or so. We hung out some last Wednesday and Thursday night. We also went to a party Saturday night but some sucky shit went down Thursday night and Saturday. But we’re good now and still texting up a storm. I didn’t see him last Friday but i have Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday and Thursday. We just texted Friday because i missed him at work. I saw him Saturday night at work, he had a very rough Friday night, got belligerent drunk and got his ass whupped by one of our friends , he doesn’t remember anything after he started drinking a bottle of southern comfort. Our mutual friend texted me about this when i asked how the party was, so i had to go see how beat him up he is. I walked into the restaurant last night and oh my God, his face and neck are bruised and terribly scratched, his nose was broken, missing a chunk under his chin and dried blood on the back head where it was slammed into asphalt. He gave a hug and i got a little bit of blood on my shirt probably from his chin. My best friend whose husband is an Army medic came to the restaurant after it closed and reset his nose. I took Charming home with me to watch Contraband and to lay down. With all various pain issues i had have this year i have a shit load of pain pills, so i hooked him up. Turned off the lights and laid next to him. As much as i wanted to he was too hurt to make a move on him. I really wanted him to spend the night but i had to drop him at our friend’s house at like 1:30 am. I should have drugged him up more so he fell asleep. So now i have a Charming scented pillow, the scent is Old Spice Swagger. When i dropped him off we hugged and had a quick kiss and he asked if he’d see me tomorrow (which is today ) i told him maybe. Well i saw him for dinner Sunday night, got to talk some and i got my goodbye hug. We texted some after that and texted on Monday and i saw him for dinner Monday night, i got a hug hello and two goodbye hugs and we talked some between the hugs. We texted on Tuesday but i didn’t go see him because i felt like crap and so nauseated i could barely eat. I saw him twice on Wednesday, got to talk some and got like 3 hugs. He got a hair cut and is looking damn sexy, not that i don’t find him sexy with his hair a little fuzzy.

Charming and i got drunk and made out twice. In between the making out he told we couldn’t have sex that night because he was too drunk. The first time was in the kitchen what started out as a long lingering hug turned into me licking both sides of his neck and then i looked into his gorgeous green eyes and our lips met. It felt so good i didn’t want it to ever end but we were standing in the kitchen at a friend’s house so it did when her roommate came around the corner. About 2:25 am i had sort of sobered up enough to drive the short distance back to house. Charming asked if i wanted him to walk me to my car. Since it was the middle of the night and i wanted to kiss him some more, i said “yes please”. Well we got out of the front door and i was kind of stumbling down the walkway so he had to had to hold on to me. I would have stayed longer but i did have to be at work at 9am. So we get to my car, i don’t even open my door, we’re hugging goodbye which lead to kissing, hotter kissing than the kitchen because involved him grabbing my ass and breasts that were about to pop out of my shirt. I have not wanted someone soo bad in a long ass time. So one last kiss goodnight and i told him I’d text him when i got home. He said yes”you better”. I drove home pretty slow hoping for no cops, it’s less than 3 minutes from my place. I got in the door and to my room at 2:30 and texted him i was home and goodnight with a kissy smiley face. He texted me goodnight with an exclaimaction point.
Every time i think about those hot moments i get all warm and tingly. He is really good kisser and i was right about that full bottom lip, very soft and kissable and nice to suck and nibble on.

I had one shot of 93% dark rum that Charming who was dressed up as a sexy pirate brought. I had brought the beer i got him like a month ago because i was tired of seeing it in my fridge. I also drank my can of paradise punch.

Well hurricane sandy did do much near my city except lots of rain and some crazy whistling wind. I still need to put the balcony furniture back. I woke up with a very bad sore throat that seems to come and go since last Monday. With a job that requires talking for about 7 hours a day which would hurt and possibly cause me to lose to my voice I decided to stay home. I went to the doctor this morning and it is not strep or thrush. Basically it hurts and I can’t seem to cough the phlem up. Doctor told me to take clartin or allegra to get rid of the histamine that it making my throat itchy. Well I have benadryl at home and it says it will help with a itchy throat so I took that. It did not tell me it was gonna knock me out. I think I fell asleep about 11 and didn’t wake up until 2:30. I ate a mcdonalds bacon,egg and cheese biscuit and a hot mocha for breakfast after I left the doctor. I had a text from Charming from after midnight that I didn’t see until this morning. I figured i’d go see him and get early dinner before they got busy plus I slept through lunch. It is cold and rainy today so no point in doing much to my hair. Jeans, tank and my CM PUNK zipped hoodie and of course my converse. Well I get there and he is outside having a smoke so we talked a little bit until he finished and then we went inside. I talked to his manager and one of his good friends and was seated. I hadn’t really decided what I wanted to eat yet so I got a sweet tea and let Charming take care of another table while I decided. The plus was so not busy I had the attention of Charming, his manager and another server.I had some pictures to show them and we talked about going to chill at a bar this weekend since my friend Zoey is going to be kid free. So I decided on my food and of course had dessert and got to talk to all my restaurant buddies. Well the place picked up some after about an hour or so I paid my check and Charming appeared out of nowhere and gave me my goodbye hug and said see you soon. So I have a full tummy and good mood. I came home and feed my fur babies. And we watched the last two episodes of season 2 of true blood. I took and shower and washed my hair. I need to touch up a couple finger nails. My throat still hurts and been able to cough up some of the stuff but not all. I am hoping that sudafed will help because I think its a post nasal drip. Yeah snot in my throat . Yuck.

I can’t believe I have not posted anything since october 17th. The days seem to run into each other and are a big blur. My life consists of work which really sucks sometimes especially when they send half of my team to training and shorten our hour lunch to 30 minutes. Well there went my favorite lunch spot where I got good food instead of greasy burgers and fries. I tried to have wendys on the first day of my short lunch and between the traffic on the road and then waiting in the drive thru lane I got back to the parking lot at work with five minutes to eat as I walk through the parking lot and back to my desk. Yeah I can’t eat a chicken club and fries in five minutes while walking and having to open doors. Anybody heard of heartburn. And my lunch is an hour later than it used to be. I have a sensitive stomach and throwing it off schedule is asking for trouble. Oh and they keep cancelling our time off the phone so the inquiries are piling up and getting older. So people call back and are kind of pissed when their issues haven’t been worked on or much less resolved. So after work I should be going to the gym but I say fuck it and go see Charming. He is still the quickest and best way to put a smile on my face and get rid of my shitty stressed out mood. There was one day last week I got to spend some time with him and I was so happy I almost skipped down the hallway at work. Then one of my friends tried to put a damper on my happiness by trying to burst my bubble by saying he just sees me as a friend and nothing more and I need to be careful because I am falling for him. I have never liked when people try to tell me how to live my life and especially my love life. Its make me very mad. First of all you don’t know everything that has happened. Every word and look and touch and flirtation. And if someone is your friend you are supposed to want them to be happy not say negative things that shit on their happiness. I try to stay positive and its hard sometimes with my history of depression and almost suicide attempts and when I find someone that makes me sing happy songs to myself and the urge to skip like a little kid I am holding on the feeling as long as I can. I met him about two months ago and he is still dealing with a bitch of an ex that is holding his stuff hostage. I like him a lot and eveytime we talk and hug it makes me joyful I feel like I could burst. And yes I am still dying to kiss him but like I said earlier I am not trying to fuck this up. Health wise I feel better except a sore throat which I may have caught from Charming all though I am not sure how I did from two hugs but they were very close hugs. Oh well. Also big news I am thinking about doing NANO in 3 days but you haveal to type it and unfortunately my brain flows freer and faster writing by hand than typing. So I might be an unofficial NANO participant and just see how much I can get done and count my own damn words. We shall see. I will try to post more often. I would like to because it keeps a record of Charming.