WTF am I doing? Really?

Panic attack. Check. Questioning my sanity. Check. Defiantly feeling like I’m falling off a cliff after taking another step towards going back to school for a big career change. I’m taking deep breaths and talking it through with my husband so he can help me back up from the edge. The first time I went to college I was too naive and full of myself to realize that I could fail at it. The older, life experienced me of today knows the cruelty and reality that failure is a possibility. That self assured side of me says I’ve never failed at anything (that practice marriage doesn’t count), and I’m scared out of my mind. Like horror movie, zombies chasing me with no weapon scared.