Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Bumping into one of your boyfriends or ex boyfriends ex girlfriends can be so awkward! It hasn't happened that many times to me, but when it does I feel extreme relief when I realize that I am dressed to impress! It's so funny how in a split second, the atmosphere changes and I am sure that the first thing that probably comes to both our minds is that guy that made the connection between us in the first place. Today I went to the movies with one of my bestfriends and noticed one of the ex girlfriends with her group of friends. We definitely stared each other down for what seemed like longer than we actually did. This ex girlfriend actually happens to be the ex of the guy I mentioned in my earlier post about my biggest regret. Yep... In hindsight, I would actually be considered the "ex" (quotes due to the fact that we were never official). She came after me and boy did she take him fast. I think it was two weeks after we decided things wouldn't work out between us and I went off to college that I found out he was in a relationship with her. Can you say HEART BROKEN? Yeah, that one was an ouch but what can I say, she was the smart one for not letting him slip away the way I did. I am happy to be able to say though that he and I are still friends and the mystery that the future holds keeps me grounded and full of passion.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Now that I'm about to graduate with a BA Degree I have noticed that my standards are changing. YES, every girl should have their standards but there's always a limit. We don't want to get carried away and create a fictional man that no guy will ever live up to. I am 21 years old and eventhough all my friends seem to be getting married and having kids it's not what is strictly on my mind at this moment. I am a determined person; I want to be successful. I want my future husband to be successful too. I don't know whether my next boy friend will eventually become my husband therefore I can't take any risks...I want the men that I date to be educated. Going to college especially going away for college says a lot about the person. I want a guy that isn't only thinking about what parties they are going to on Saturday. Don't get me wrong, I love to go out on weekends with my friends and I have met so many people that are more work oriented than me but I want someone who is on the same page as me. This makes me wonder whether my standards are too high. I briefly talked about this with my best friend and she agreed that I am doing the right thing in looking for a guy that is at least about to graduate because that's where I'm at right now. Maybe she's just being biased :) Of course, there are exceptions like if this guy has started his own business without attending college. So what do you think? Am I wrong for setting these standards? Am I risking letting a good one slip away because of these standards?

Friday, December 10, 2010

I just read a very inspiring blog about a 17 year old who has been blessed with what we both believe to be her one true love. Their relationship is amazing. Of course that post inspired me. Not only to post a new post on my blog but to smile at the knowledge that somewhere out there is my perfectly imperfect match waiting for me. YES, like I think I have mentioned before, I LOVE being single I really do but at times I wish I had someone to share my happiness with. Here's the thing, I tend to choose my closest friends to share this happinness of mine with, and this friendship turns to what my friends have called as me being too loyal...yes, too loyal. What they mean by that is that I put my friends before me and of course that is a great quality but it seems to set me up for disaster EVERYTIME. Im tired of giving my all to people that will not always return it. You see my way of thinking is that if I put "you" before me and "you" put me before "you" then we have created a safe haven. If only all the world lived this way :) So what Im saying here is that I think* I'm ready to create this safe haven. Im tired of hurting from caring too much...I love my friends so much and I understand that it's not their job to care as much as I do when what they are doing is looking for that safe haven too. This leads me to question my standards but this post has taken a different turn ;) I'll save that for my next posting.

With love always and forever,
Taya <3
ps. maybe now is the right time to change my title....nah

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

We have, for the most part, all been through a broken heart...whether we are the ones with it or the ones who caused it. Well, a little over two years ago I was introduced to a guy who I felt was "perfect" for me. He was sweet, we hungout all summer, and talked nightly. The one thing that slowly turned me off more and more, though, was his shyness....ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? I have come to learn that 1. Most girls live in the future & 2. We are always trying to recruit husbands. Thing is, we arent perfect ourselves so why are we looking for a perfect guy? Those guys don't exist...& if a guy tells you he's perfect...RUN!! He is lying! So now that I look back I wish I wasn't so picky because all he would have needed was some time to gain a little more confidence and yes, THEN he would have been the perfect guy for me. My sister has always emphasized that regrets are useless since we can't change the past & she is right, but we can certainly work on our present in order to change our future. I can't believe that the one thing that ruined what I had with this guy was his shyness...it breaks my heart to even think about it today. We have both grown and been through our own experiences...and eventhough two years ago wasn't "our" time maybe it is now.

"The perfect man does not exist & I know that I'm not perfect...but I do know the I'm perfectly imperfect & that somewhere outthere, near or far, exists 1 or more perfectly imperfect matches for me." -Claudia G.

Friday, September 17, 2010

I can't fathom the idea that as loyal as I was to my new up and coming blog,I without reason quit writing. Im back though & this time, I hope, for good!

Being the optimist that I am I of course can and will turn this 6 month hiatus into a positive. So here it is: within the last 6 months, I turned 21, which of course opens up an entire different "world" for me...a lot has happened in these 6 months and I will gladly share how it has and hasn't changed my views on this so called game we are all willing or unwillingly a player in. I will begin filling you in with what's been happening starting in my next post & I will be sure to include that "regret" I mentioned in my previous post :) I promise.

Get ready to enter the mess that my love life seems to represent and join me on this journey to find true love!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

For this post I am going to assume that I have readers and that after reading my last post "What is L O V E?" you all are wondering whether I have been in love ") I know I seem to explain it in great detail below, but I have never been IN love. As my title reads, I have loved and I have been loved but I have never been IN love before. YES there is a difference, a HUGE difference. The word IN adds the commitment and the fact that the feelings are mutual.My description as to what is love is a combination of the love i have experienced and the love I hope exists. I think timing is extremely important and sometimes we simply have to get over ourselves and give those good guys a chance! I think I can speak for all of us when I say that we have all let a good one slip from our hands and then regret it later at least once before. On the next post I will share with you my biggest regret over letting a good guy slip away.

Monday, March 29, 2010

A while back, my friends and I were hanging out in my room, and one of them brought up the question “what is love?” and “How do you know you’re in it?” that question brought up a lot of different views, opinions, and ideas; but it’s all very vague. So now I sit here and ask myself, “What is love?” I am taking this opportunity to explain what love is to me.

The size of our Love, first of all, depends on the individual and how much we are willing to love. If I’m always too scared, worried, or cautious then I might just miss out on love, love in friendships, and love in relationships. I believe:

Love is putting someone before you, but not seeing it as being a bad thing.
Love is doing extra, simply to put a smile on that special someone’s face (even if you’re not there to see it.)
Love is wanting the best for them.
It’s feeling sad, when they are down, yet holding in your tears and pretending to be strong.
Love is giving without expecting to receive.
Love is a risk you’re willing to take.
It’s that smile on your face with only the thought of them.
Love is sharing, it’s caring, and it’s selfless.
Love makes all your problems disappear for a while.
Love makes hard times less rough.
Love is buying them your favorite CD before you buy it for yourself.
Love is deeper than deep. Love is warm and it is bright.
Love is a feeling hard to hide. Love is a war you are willing to fight. It’s a mystery you want to preserve. It’s an emotion you put on reserve. Love is your walls on the ground and letting your hair down.
Love is compassion, understanding, and forgiveness.
Love is a friend who knows you better than you do.
Love is a trend that will never end. Love is vast yet somehow grows.
It’s a garden full of happiness with room for more.
Love is time spent as one. Its moments remembered forever and always.
It’s a language cherished and shared. A hug just because.
It’s a desire for a happily ever after.
Love is a battle we fight to win, a feeling of success deep within.
It’s dreaming during the day and keeping your faith.
It’s waiting for him day after day.
Love is an inner conflict we choose not to overcome. It’s true and its fun. Love is a lesson we take and hold deep in our hearts. Love …is love!
-Claudia

For relationships to work, it is all about compromise. BOys, Boys, Boys! they seem to be doing it all wrong. I know not all of them are the same...(this isnt to bash you all) but i have actually met guys that feel like they are losing their manliness when they take thier gfs to watch chick-flicks...seriously? Its only a movie and eventhough you may think they are sappy, we take them very seriously (i know not all girls do). Compromise...Communicate!! Two very important C's in any type of relationship. Something like lets watch "He's Just Not That Into You," this weekend and "X-Men" next weekend :) Or chick-flick today and football tomorrow. Its not that hard! Us women dont feel like we are losing our girliness when we watch X-Men or football,so boys...or should i say men :) Stop being sooooo dramatic!! Cant live with them...Cant live without them.

p.s. Dont get me wrong i have met men (the smart ones)that offer to take their gfs to watch these chick-flicks because they understand how happy it will make them. Awwwwww good job! These are the guys that end up pleased at night ;)

Sunday, March 28, 2010

I hear her in tears as she pleads with him from the room next door.
I have heard it a million times before but not like this. Something deep in her voice is different. It is that of a girl coming to realization that this argument isn’t the same as all the others.This argument is leading to an end; an end which doesn’t include him.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

If I had to describe myself in a couple of words, I would tell you that I am a girls, girl. I have a deep appreciation for women…why? You may ask. I was raised by a single mother and I only have one grandparent, my grandmother “Mama.” My girlfriends are extremely important to me and I am always careful to keep them in my life while I’m in a relationship. I have witnessed many girls make their guy the center of the universe and I don’t want to be that girl. I am 20 years old, currently not in a relationship but surrounded by best friends who are. I am that single friend that always manages to be “happy” when everyone else seems to be tired, frustrated, angry, sad and every other negative emotion you can think of…how do you do it? They ask…Quite frankly…I don’t know. I do keep myself busy and spoil myself just a little. I will admit that sometimes it is a front I put up because who wants to admit they feel miserable about the fact that everyone in the world seems to be in a relationship but them?! Being a third wheel is NEVER fun, but I do it because it makes my friends happy to see her boyfriend and best friend getting along. I do it for them.  When I put myself in their shoes I know I would want the same thing. In many situations I have found that I am that person looking from the outside in..in terms of their relationship. What I am trying to get across here is that I have many best friends who come to me for advice with their boy troubles and along the way I am uncovering this truth about “the game” that these boys don’t seem to cease from playing!
p.s. is it ironic that as I type this post the song “Foolish Games” by Jewel just starting playing on my iTunes which is set on random…

GeT tO kNoW mE

My name is Claudia and I am a 21 year old experiencing the highs and lows that come with being single. I believe in LOVE but sadly it does tend to get technical...Get ready to enter the mess that my love life seems to represent and join me on this journey to find true love!