My Email Digests

Announcements

I just read your article on BPD. I have never had "relationship" issues (ie: always had friends, happily married, etc) and am not agressive. Also, prior to last year, aside from depressions, was stable; I have always been dynamic, but stable. I would lose my temper to the extreme on very rare occasions (perhaps mania that I was unaware of?) and rarely cried.

However, ever since the symptoms of my Bipolar returned with a vengeance, I have not been stable at all (or only for very short periods). Its not been as bad as it was (no psychosis) but I have been very unstable (OFTEN crying very hysterically for no reason), even when I don't feel depressed. Also, when I was young, I was a cutter and the temptation to resort to that has been overwhelming at times. I have thought at times I am better and then suddenly I find myself thinking about suicide. I have also always had very irrational (very irrational) fears--they come and go. I will say, I am never very aware of my moods. I can never say "I am depressed" or "I am manic" very well, only that I don't sleep for long periods and have rapid thoughts and my husband will say "you have a lot of energy" or I find myself sad, and my house a wreck, but still able to care for my kids (although emotionally unavailable to them). Most of the time, if I feel off in any way, I become very isolated, either way. I just wonder, if it is only Bipolar that I have or Bipolar and something else. If only Bipolar why so much instability even now, when I am on meds and unaware of any major mood. How can I ever know what is going on? I am trying so hard to figure all of this out and it frustrates me to no end. Thank you for any imput.

I just read your article on BPD. I have never had "relationship" issues (ie: always had friends, happily married, etc) and am not agressive. Also, prior to last year, aside from depressions, was stable; I have always been dynamic, but stable. I would lose my temper to the extreme on very rare occasions (perhaps mania that I was unaware of?) and rarely cried.

However, ever since the symptoms of my Bipolar returned with a vengeance, I have not been stable at all (or only for very short periods). Its not been as bad as it was (no psychosis) but I have been very unstable (OFTEN crying very hysterically for no reason), even when I don't feel depressed. Also, when I was young, I was a cutter and the temptation to resort to that has been overwhelming at times. I have thought at times I am better and then suddenly I find myself thinking about suicide. I have also always had very irrational (very irrational) fears--they come and go. I will say, I am never very aware of my moods. I can never say "I am depressed" or "I am manic" very well, only that I don't sleep for long periods and have rapid thoughts and my husband will say "you have a lot of energy" or I find myself sad, and my house a wreck, but still able to care for my kids (although emotionally unavailable to them). Most of the time, if I feel off in any way, I become very isolated, either way. I just wonder, if it is only Bipolar that I have or Bipolar and something else. If only Bipolar why so much instability even now, when I am on meds and unaware of any major mood. How can I ever know what is going on? I am trying so hard to figure all of this out and it frustrates me to no end. Thank you for any imput.

Related Drug Reviews

Report Problems With Your Medications to the FDA

You are encouraged to report negative side effects of prescription drugs to the FDA. Visit the FDA MedWatch website or call 1-800-FDA-1088.

The opinions expressed in WebMD Communities are solely those of the User, who may or may not have medical or scientific training. These opinions do not represent the opinions of WebMD. Communities are not reviewed by a WebMD physician or any member of the WebMD editorial staff for accuracy, balance, objectivity, or any other reason except for compliance with our Terms and Conditions. Some of these opinions may contain information about treatments or uses of drug products that have not been approved by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration. WebMD does not endorse any specific product, service or treatment.

Do not consider Communities as medical advice. Never delay or disregard seeking professional medical advice from your doctor or other qualified healthcare provider because of something you have read on WebMD. You should always speak with your doctor before you start, stop, or change any prescribed part of your care plan or treatment. WebMD understands that reading individual, real-life experiences can be a helpful resource, but it is never a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment from a qualified health care provider. If you think you may have a medical emergency, call your doctor or dial 911 immediately.