All of the laundry was thrown in baskets on the basement floor. It’s clean, but the mess..I couldn’t find anything, especially baby clothes. I just cant seem to grasp the amount of clothes we own and wear. But I brought them up and decided to tackle it all at once.

Ahhhhhh, my eye twitches when I see this…so I grabbed a garbage bag to put in the items that no longer fit. Oooooff to donation!!!

It felt so good to put this pile I the bag and I went back for more…

Pile #2 baby blankies, shirts, pants, dresses. A little bit of everything. Then there was a little bit more…

The days of matching pajamas are over for my boys. They like their own things now. Makes me sad as I see the reindeer pajamas which make me want to dig them back up. I figured two and a half 13 pound bags was the possible limit. But then, there was more. All I could think is…

This is ridiculous!

I was done taking photos, my brain is in a coma from all of the folding. Ahhh!

I have filled the 3rd bag. The boys are growing, I’m shrinking. Baby weight is almost all off. Yay, ME!

But guess what? All of that is going to be out if my house. What do you say guys?

It’s been over a month since my last post. Life has been busy. By the time I get down time, I’m not inclined to post. Could it be that my blog days are coming to an end? Or is it just a dry spell? Either way, I’m happy.

I think I’m at a stage in life where I am just happy. I started this blog because I was lost. I forgot who I was. I was sad, lonely, unsure of myself, but I’ve come a long way.

I’ve figured out a lot of things since I started this bblog. Being a mom and wife, you tend to forget that you were once your own person and you wear out. I started to blog to figure things out and I think I have.

I have decluttered my life (most of it). We donate what we no longer need around the house and even though we have a long way to go, we’ve come a long way and that is just dandy.

Also, I’ve decluttered my life from toxic people. It really is amazing when you realize that someone in your life can be so toxic. They justify being cruel with being honest, but in a one way street sort of way. Get Rid of Them!

Replace the toxic friends with good friends. Ah, the difference can lift you up so high, you then wonder why it took you so long. Fear of change…LET IT GO! preach it Elsa!

Remember what made you happy and do it. For me, it has been drawing, dancing, listening to music. Now I draw, sing and dance with my boys. Combining all my loves together.

Take time for yourself. Quiet time can be so nice. But also hanging out with the girls once in a while. Feel so good.

Take time with your spouse. I can’t even tell you how much better things are between myself and my eye candy hunk of a man. Taking time to cuddle and watch a show, letting Grandma watch the kids so we can have a cup of coffee in the sweet sound of nothing. It almost takes you back to the years before the house and kids. Oh, the sweetness.

Talking about sweetness…

My youngest and oldest had birthdays.

My piece of heaven turned 7!!! Wow, it still amazes me how big 7 is.

He’s lost four teeth and is so big. Too big, too responsible, too sweet for a 7 year old. I love who he is, but he acts like a grown up. I have to silly him up a little bit. Nevertheless, I’m lucky to be his mommy. I miss his babyness.

My monja-monja baby just turned 1! Two days before his biggest brother.

This guy is walking, talking, even pointed his finger at me and said “Dada”, so I had to call Dada so he could tell on me. This guy has 4 teeth (He took his brothers). Loves to eat and he is so much fun.

My grateful meter blew a fuse. It’s on overload. I have a wonderful husband and children. Great friends. What more can a girl ask for?

Really love that smile!

Love my crew!

Does this mean I have figured out everything? NO WAY!!! I still lose my cool, think I need to be locked up and given a time out. Homeschooling can be hair pulling awful. I still could tone up, meh. My house is still messy, I could be more social. I have not gotten the cooking thing down…ahhhhh!

But I’m no longer drowning. I don’t need this blog anymore. I’m ok. I’m going to make it. Bittersweet, but relieving. I will stick around, but just to check others out and maybe I can figure out something else to write about.

This little guy took 2 steps towards Daddy on the 2nd of this month. He says “Daddy” with the sweetest baby voice and “Ma”with a sound that I describe as an angry goat. He’s such a Daddy’s boy. But his hugs are so sweet, kisses and laugh that tickle the heart, he loves mama so much. I love to squeeze him and say “Mama Loves!”

This boy here after 2 years of saying he’s 4, is finally 5! Can’t say I didn’t cry about it, because I did. Who knew such things would make a mom so emotional. But he’s no longer a baby. Five is a big number, he acts like such a big boy. This one is for sure a mommy’s boy. If I pretend I’m crying when baby hurts me, his eyes water even though he knows I’m faking. I always have to kiss him for being my sweet baby boy who loves mommy to pieces. I love my Angel Face!

This piece of heaven here has lost his 3rd tooth already! He is almost 7 and I truly don’t know how I feel about that. Is time flying? Am I missing something? How did he get so tall, so big, so responsible so fast? I don’t even know, this sweet piece of heart is very observant, very kind, thoughtful and every sweet word in the book. He will come and say, “I think you are tired, what can I do to help you?” I try my best to suck things up, I don’t want to ever burden him, but he just wants to help. I am so lucky to have such a beautiful soul so close to me. Mommy is so blessed.

This Man, this piece of hunkness, this beautiful man that got in the way of my dreams. Instead, he led me to a life that I never knew existed full of love that I never thought I deserved. He gave me the gift of friendship, companionship and love. We share a home which is my haven. Together we created this family which I am forever grateful for.

With life stresses, sometimes it’s hard to count your blessings. But I really am trying to let them know every day how thankful I am and how much I love them. We have to live as if everyday could be our last.

And if you are reading this, I am grateful for you, because no matter how briefly you meet someone, they change your life forever!

My sweet baby boy has been saying he’s 4 years old since he was 2. He wanted to be like his brother, so 4 he has been.

This year though, he finally growing. He said he’s going to be 5! He’s saying good-bye to 4 and although, I am so proud that he’s growing and healthy, I am sad to say goodbye to his babyness.

This is my angel face, his last day being 4. I call him my Angel Face because he truly has a beautiful smile, and in natural light, his eyes are the spakliest blue. When I look at his face when he’s laughing, it fills my heart with pure joy and love.

I told him that instead of me planning his birthday, that he could plan it, himself. So, of course he picked a black panther birthday theme, which no one here has, but we are making it happen.

He requested vinegar chips, chocolate cake with peanut butter filling with chocolate frosting, guacamole, pizza and to watch a movie with popcorn. I almost forgot, chocolate milk. He requested all his favorites so he can share it with his cousins.

He had one more which he asked ever so sweetly, if we could please take him to Bounce Magic so he can bounce.

Luckily, we are able to do this for him, so he shall get it. He will turn 5 at 5:02 this morning as you can see, I am trying to delay his not being 4 anymore. I hope I never forget this time in his life, unfortunately, I know I can’t hold on to every detail, but I will try for as long as I can.

Still, I want to wish my Angel Face a sweet 5th birthday… May he grow up healthy and full of love. I am so lucky to be his mommy!