My Songs For You

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Almost 3 years

How time flies.. almost 3 years ago today, she was transferred to ICU.. I said I love you to her for the first time and the last time, she said we would talk again when she woke up and we would go on a cruise when she finished her chemo treatment..a present from me...she never woke up..one week after mother's day on Victoria day, she left without saying goodbye..she left us while we took a 5 min break from the ICU to grab some lunch..she left us without letting me and my sister holding her hands till the end of her journey..she decided to go peacfully without having anyone she loved around her..

Half moon serenade by Kawai Naoko

If I can reach out to your heart,I want to convey my wishes in a songwith muscial notes that are composed of withered leavesscattered all over the water..

With my left hand, I gently collect a tear drop under the moonlightI pray deeply that I would be able to have a meaningful relationship with the person I love

Cutting through the cloud of youthHolding the change of seasons in your arms 'cause anyone will have moments of lonelinessTreasure tenderness by holding each otherMy dream is filled with the sound of life in your heart

Even though we are still together, I still feel sad and painWhen you are in love, you shouldn't be so indecisiveThe stream of falling stars is like wave building from the spring of my heartAn imperfect moon is like being lonely and pain in my heartPlease show me your love with your beautiful eyes

Looking for happiness, happiness of being a coupleHolding me in your arms and don't let go, we livePlease don't leave meAh... so we will grow old while drifting along the Milky Way of time

Friday, April 28, 2006

もしもピアノが 弾けたなら(if I could play the piano..) by西田敏行

This beautiful song was released over 15 years ago in Japan.. and I absolutely fell in love with the lyrics..as I grow older, I get to love this song more and more...

If I could play the piano,I would gather all my thoughts(about you) into a songand dedicate it to youOn rainy days, it would be about the rainOn windy nights, it would be about the windOn sunny days, it would be about the beautiful skyBut, I don't have a piano :-(And I don't have a pair of handsthat will play you all these songsI can only keep these words I want to tell you in my heart

If I could play the pianoI would turn on a small lightand play the songs for youThe joy of being in love with someoneThe sadness of not understanding each otherThe passion of love we can't suppressBut, I don't have a pianoAnd we don't dream the same dreamsSo, my heart is always emptyAnd even the dream of playing the songs for you is disappearingah..disappearing in sight

Saiai by Yoshie

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Phoenix

In ancient Egyptian mythology and in myths derived from it, the phoenix is a mythical sacred firebird.

Said to live for 500, 1461 or for 12594 years (depending on the source), the phoenix is a male bird with beautiful gold and red plumage. At the end of its life-cycle the phoenix builds itself a nest of cinnamon twigs that it then ignites; both nest and bird burn fiercely and are reduced to ashes, from which a new, young phoenix arises. The new phoenix embalms the ashes of the old phoenix in an egg made of myrrh and deposits it in Heliopolis ("the city of the sun" in Greek), located in Egypt. The bird was also said to regenerate when hurt or wounded by a foe, thus being almost immortal and invincible — a symbol of fire and divinity.

Although descriptions (and life-span) vary, the phoenix became popular in early Christian art and literature as a symbol of the resurrection, of immortality, and of life-after-death.

Originally, the phoenix was identified by the Egyptians as a stork or heron-like bird called a benu, known from the Book of the Dead and other Egyptian texts as one of the sacred symbols of worship at Heliopolis, closely associated with the rising sun and the Egyptian sun-god Ra.

Summer Heroine by Naoko..

Friday, April 14, 2006

Story of the 16th night by Kawai Naoko...

"When you are in love, life is complete just like the moon on the 15th night...Collecting dreams that are incomplete because you are missing, I want to meet you but I am not able to...the feeling is like the 16th night"

"Please heal where it was hurt before with your lips...holding me so tight to the point where you can no longer love anyone else..."