Well I've been at my new school since august and I just made my first friends their names are Rosie and Lauren! I've reached the point where things are so comfotable that it's so incredably UNcomfortable. I mean I totally hate it there yet I doesn't bother me to be there causing me to feel awkward. It's almost like I still waiting to wake up from this nightmare! I feel so boxed in I mean So much is expected of me that I can't show even one ounce of emotion anywhere. It's like if I'm anything less than perfect My dad beat's me and my teacher's and class mate think i'm sick or something. I just can't be myself anymore.
Also have you ver felt connected to some who has passed away but you didn't even know? I was wonderin because right now I do.

No happy? Spot today. I'm not too happy.
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well all of today sucked. I mean it was raining it's like 30 some-odd degrees. It's just awful. So I walk into 4th block math. First off out teacher's out so our sub walks in like 10 minutes late. Quite obviously she doesn't know shit about math. So things are a bit tense. So class goes on and all of a sudden This guy volunteers to lay in the middle of the room and act like he's having a Seizure. It was so FUNNY! I was crying.... Well clas goes on and this other guy get called up to solve a problem on the board. He SPAZZES OUT and the next thing you know the board eraser is flying through the room. It was just classic. well that's just about it for today.

lovely no?
Probably my favorite TLC song. I'm so bored. Well I just don't know sometimes....
My friend is moving awat but It's all good! I wasn't invited to her going away party. But that's not why I'm upset. I upset because her reason for not inviting me. She said she thought I would want to come because I live 20 miles away from her current home(not the one she moving to, I live about 2 hour from there). It hurts me that she thinks I don't want to be there because I live 20 miles off. This may be the last time I ever see her. Why wouldn't I want to be there? Does she think I don't care? Is that how seem? Do you really think that? Do you............

Does any miss all those old school Nik show? GAS ,Nick arcade, Legends of the hidden temple,Double dare,Clarissa,Pete & Pete,Are you afraid of the dark,alex mac,Salute you shorts,Big Wolf on campuss(was that nick?), Snick,old school all that. Old school nick was the shit.

Howw about some band humour! *everyone Groans*
Signs You've Been In Band
Too Long
Unknown Author, circulating on email humour lists

1. When you hear music and you start marking time.
2. When you walk behind someone and you're in step with them.
3. When you try to guess the tempo of your favorite song.
4. When all your friends are in the band.
5. When you don't mind changing clothes on the bus.
6. When you point out key changes and dynamics while listening to the radio.
7. When every guy or girl you're interested in is in the band.
8. When you LIKE wearing your uniform.
9. When people ask you about your social life and you say, "Oh, you mean my trombone / cornet / etc.?"
10. When you've had a "trombone-ectomy"
11. When you practice your instrument more than you talk to your dog.
12. When people worry when they see you without your instrument.
13. When band camp is FUN
14. When you respond to "band fag"
15. When you remember flats and sharps more easily than your name.
16. When you "dress" the lunch line, and urge others to do the same.
17. When you're alone and you suffocate because there's no one telling you to breathe.
18. When slides feel normal
19. When your instrument has a name.
20. When you remember your instrument's birthday and forget your mum's
21. When you give your instrument a birthday party.
22. When you can make brown shoes look black.
23. When your uniform fits.
24. When you see your section more than you see your family.
25. When everyone wants to kill the other football team...and you want to kill the other band.
26. When you think evening practices should last a half-hour longer.
27. When you accidentally call your band director "Dad".
28. When you CAN sight-read.
29. When you can put on your uniform in less than 10 minutes.
30. When your mouthpiece tastes good.
31. When marking time is your favorite form of exercise.
32. When you have a bass strap or drum harness tan line.
33. When you subconsciously start practicing with a pencil.
34. When numbers past 8 aren't important.
35. When you roll-step through the cafeteria so you don't spill your lunch.
36. When you'd rather practice than read this list.
37. When letters past G aren't important.
38. When you get the jokes on this list.
39. When this list reaches the amount that it has.

well. I'm out of school again. It sucks balls. All my friends are in school,20 miles away. I've nothing to do. Well if anyone has any jokes for me I'll take 'em. I think I'm gonna die of boredom.

MY Happy? Spot
heavensent told me this joke.
"A guy runs into his ex-wife and says
"I was with another woman last night but I was thinking of you"
She replies "Why? Because you miss me?"

"No it stops me from coming too fast" "
My joke(my best friend told me this):A few days before Christmas, a man enters a pet store looking for a unique gift for his wife. The store manager tells him he has just what he's looking for! A beautiful parrot named Chet that sings Christmas carols.

He brings the husband over to a colorful but quiet bird. The man agrees that Chet certainly is pretty, but he doesn't seem to be much for singing. The manager tells him to watch as he reaches into his pocket and pulls out a lighter.

The manager then clicks the lighter and holds it under Chet's left foot. Immediately Chet starts singing; "Silent Night, Holy Night." The husband is very impressed with Chet's singing abilities and watches as the manager moves the lighter underneath Chet's right foot. Chet now starts to sing "Jingle Bells, Jingle All the Way." The husband says Chet is perfect and that he'll take him.

The husband rushes home to his wife and insists upon giving her this wonderful gift immediately. He presents Chet and starts to explain the parrot's special talent. Demonstrating, he holds a lighter under Chet's left foot and the bird sings "Silent Night." He then moves the lighter under the right foot and Chet lets loose a round of "Jingle Bells." The wife is absolutely impressed, and with a mischievous grin asks her husband what happens if he holds the lighter between Chet's legs instead.

Curious the husband moves the lighter between the bird's legs, and the bird begins to sing-

Chet's Nuts Roasting on an Open Fire!

ha. well I'm open to any new jokes in your comments.

Another joke.... Why does Snoop Dogg need an umberella?
Fo' Drizzle
lame I know
One ore... What do Micheal Jackson and PS2 have in common?

They're both plastic and little boys turn them on

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Well I'm out of school today and tommorow
so i've nothin to do. I think I post funny shit from yesterday.
Random IM conversation between my friend and this guy.

Friend: Mommy I don't want to eat my chicken
Guy: well how can you have dessert if you don't eat your meat. lol
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"When I was little I hated PB&J because it made feel like a kid, now that I'm older I love PB&J because it makes me feel like a kid"- me
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"just because something is a little brocken doesn't mean it's not good"-me
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"Silence is golden,but duct tape is silver"-unknown

have you ever wonder what EMF stood for? I honestly don't know ... I allways thought it stood for Ecstacy Mother Fuckers but I was told that's false.. so lemme know if you know. Well that's all for my happy? spot.

Gettin' my blog on..........
well,Things are so awfull now that i've moved some of my "friends" have replaced me others just don't call me.I hate my new school. I have to be totally fake around my family....UGH. I always told myself to never let go, to not give up on myself, but more and more I find myself wanting to jump. If only I had his friendship... If only.
Anywho, I hate myself rightnow. I know lets play a littl game. Who ever reads my blog should tell me a joke in their comments. I'll call it the "Save Flaming's Life" fund - the funds *face fall*

I really need a fiend right now. I just tell you a joke so maybe you won't stop reading.

"There were 2 muffins in the oven. One said "Damn it's getting hot in here!" the other said"Oh My Gizzle, you can talk?!?!"

Today's Mondegreen! is the line"liberate my madness" in Slipknot's Liberate!
What many people have misheard it as:

Liberate Bananas

You ate my man nuts

little ripe bananas

Do you like bananas?

Never eat bananas

What I misheard it as.....*drum roll*

Deliver My Bananas!
How I realized it was wrong. I was singing w/ my friend and she said no it'sDo You like Bananas? and I was all? so we looked it up and it was Liberate my madness! I felt so damn stupid...
So have you ever misheard lyrics? Got a story about how you found the real words? Like to suggest Next week's mondegreen? if so post them in you comments!

I just feel so............................................. I've reached that point were it's like I don't care if I live or die... I'm moving and it's tearing me apart I don't even want to talk about that shit right now.

No title
It's dead silent and I'm just sitting here thinking
My thinking never leads to anything good
I usually lead to cutting or some other form of self harm
But that's it
it's not about hurting myself or wanting to die
It's about healing and getting through the moment
I dont want to die
I just wanna get out of this hell-hole we call life
I know you don't get it
no one ever does
exept for those like me.
"If you keep doing this to yourself.."
It's too late for that
I've already f*cked up
I'm already 6 feet under
I'm a screw up
that's why I'm "like this"
That's why I do all this sh*t
To forget how much I've f*cked up
to forget how much of a b*tch life is
to let go
for a while.....

Life sucks. I dont even know up from left anymore. I just need to scream AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I keep having this dream and sometimes when i'm not sleeping I "dream it anyway"

It starts out like this
with this guyI really like (we'll callhim Dude)
Dude:hey I wanna show you something
Me:No.
Dude:yes!
Me: NO!
Dude:YES!
He grabs me He runs some barbed wire up my arm cutting me deep. Then he ties it really tight around my wrist cutting through me wrist. My arm is bleeding so badly.
He runs off I go to find Nicole.I se her
Me:Nicole
Nicole:What?
Me: I need some sizzors now!
Nicole:NO!
Me:Why?
Nicole:Cuz your gonna cut yourself with 'em
Me: No I need to cut this off
I show her my are.
Nicole:No!
I run away crying my arm still drentched in blood, I'm leaving drops of blood behind.
I run and stop once I see Dude.
Me: why?
I show him my arm.
Dude:Because.

You
I love you
you're my life
you keep me going
I love more than anything
But I know you dont return the feelings and I know you can't stand me
"If you love him you'll leave him alone,If you love him you'll let him go.If you love him" I tell myself I know this is what I have to do

Thoughts of letting you go weaken me
First my mind goes and I become emotionless and cold
I become the fighter I was before I met you

Then my body goes.
My yearning for you and my need to fight and harm
combine and wipe out the strength my body
has left
Leaving me there with nothing to but lay
here and cry
wishing you knew...I was yearning for you.

well at school for v-tines day you can send your peeps chocalate roses. pretty stupid huh?
so my friend sends one to this guy saying it's from her ex-boyfriend
cuz they havent been gettin along to well so she sent him one from him, and he tells the english teacher.. why I dunno but he tells her and she just laughs in his face ! i was like lol but then I saw he was kinda hurt and I was all like aww.. it was just so wierd that MRS.S laught at him like that. yeah