Saturday, January 2, 2010

Was it all a dream?No. It couldn't be.He said I was missing, like I said he was.Both in the woods?

Dad found me in the back yard, face down in the garden. Thought I was dead.Billy says his mom found him in the hall way, face down. Thought he was drunk or high.

Mom and dad think something's up.They smile to my face...but they whisper behind my back...What do they say?How much do they know?

He and I are together. Have the cd. Post it some time tonight.

Billy says to say that he's sure 'he' took something when 'he' came... Not sure what though.

Says he saw the arms open. Wide open. Some how he fought off the feeling. The urge to walk in to them.

Jeff tried to kill himself last night. Overdose. Said the 'Spider motherfucker' was the one that killed his dog. Said he saw him again last night. He's in the trauma center near his grandmothers, under psychiatric watch.

I fear I might be next.I don't know how much I can take.HE knows how much he can take.. He sees it all.Knows all.Samantha was right.She was so right.How she stayed so strong for so many years, I'll never know.I've only had these problems a few months. start of the fall semester maybe... and I'm already losing it.

What now?

We'll give you guys the CD.. It's encrypted.. well.. the file on it is.Don't want to even look at it.Dont want to but have to.

Time...It's nothing to him, is it?Everything to us. Live life minute by minute..everything goes amiss when we lose time..he takes time.

i have to go... be back later. Post the contents of the cd later.later