Thursday, July 30, 2015

We're more than two years and nearly seventy posted essays into the occasional series of "On Writing" essays I've been curating over at theottawa poetry newsletterblog.
I've included an updated list, below, of those pieces posted so far,
and the list is becoming quite substantive. Way (way) back in April,
2012, I discovered (thanks to Sarah Mangold)the website for theNPM Daily,
and absolutely loved the short essays presented on a variety of
subjects surrounding the nebulous idea of “on writing.” I would highly
recommend you wander through the NPM Daily site to see the pieces posted
there.

1 -
How did your first book or chapbook change your life? How does your most recent
work compare to your previous? How does it feel different?

My
chapbook, Cold Knife Surgery, was
edited with a loving hand by Laura Qa, the editor of Red Dragon Press.
That was a life-changing experience, having another writer and editor believe
in my work that much, an astonishing
faith in my work after four long years of rejection. She also asked me to
write a Forward about the long poem comprising the manuscript. As the
poem was about surviving cervical cancer and the kinds of invasive procedures
used in the early 1990's to diagnose and treat it, summarizing what I was
trying to do and say became a final step of healing, for me. The exercise
relegated cervical cancer to the past instead of something I kept
re-living.

I
continue to want the free verse lyric poem and the experimental long prose poem
in my life and go back and forth between the two, seeing how one might inform
the other. My most recent book, Hive-Mind,
starts with lyric poems and then shifts to collaged prose poems and then to phrases
scattered across the page, while Cold
Knife Surgery is all one long collage prose poem.The chapbook has lyric moments, I think, but
doesn’t include both types of forms the way my recent book does.The narrative of Cold Knife Surgery is disrupted but basically follows a straight
line from my cancer diagnosis to post-surgery. Hive-Mind, on the other hand, attempts to tell the story of Colony
Collapse Disorder and of beekeepers with my life at times intersecting.The narrative is more recursive and also is
about a shifting of shapes: hive-like centered poems, bees gathered on a screen
in a hive box, swarming.

2 -
How did you come to poetry first, as opposed to, say, fiction or non-fiction?

Actually,
I started with fiction.I had very
little exposure to reading or writing poetry until my senior year in high
school, and, honestly, little interest in it!I wasn’t able to enroll in my college intro creative writing class my
freshman year because it was too full, but a poet, Stuart Friebert, agreed to a
poetry independent study for my Winter Term project based on the poems I had
written in high school.He prescribed
“shock therapy” as he called it, giving me a long list of mostly contemporary
female poets to look up and read in the snowbound library.He also required me to write three poems a
week.Stuart usually felt one poem was
strong, much to my surprise, a second poem weak but had potential with a lot of
work, and a third poem needed to “go in the attic” as he would put it.Once I took the intro creative writing class
my sophomore year, I found myself falling in love with poetry and filling up
the five-page weekly requirement with poems more than with stories as the
course progressed.Something cliqued for
me about the way I’ve always thought metaphorically and through images.

3 -
How long does it take to start any particular writing project? Does your
writing initially come quickly, or is it a slow process? Do first drafts appear
looking close to their final shape, or does your work come out of copious
notes?

It
varies.A short lyric poem draft happens
quickly, but how long it will take me to revise it and tinker with it is
anyone’s guess, from a few hours to years.The idea for a collage poem may occur to me suddenly, but executing the
idea is a slower piecing kind of work, like quilting.Yes, I will take notes on subjects requiring
research, such as bees and beekeeping, and some poems or parts of them will
result from the notetaking.

4 -
Where does a poem usually begin for you? Are you an author of short pieces that
end up combining into a larger project, or are you working on a
"book" from the very beginning?

It was difficult to get started on new
poems right after my first book publication because it became clear I needed to
shift to thinking more about working on a book from the very beginning. The
first book came together in an organic way after creating a body of work and
selecting poems from that body of work that fit together. But a second poetry
book, I realized, involved more planning up front and stifling of the voice
that questioned whether I could produce another book as good as, if not better,
than the first book. Listening to music helped a lot to stifle that voice.Having an idea, as vague as it might be,
about a subject matter for a book and calling it a “project” also helps with
the way I work around the academic calendar and with the critical voice in my
head.I will end up with poems that
don’t fit with the project, too, and those I’ll submit separately to literary
magazines or allow to sit to see if they may develop into a different book
project.

5 -
Are public readings part of or counter to your creative process? Are you the
sort of writer who enjoys doing readings?

Well,
I’m an introvert.I’m also an introvert
who works as a professor which forced me to get more comfortable with public
speaking.It’s a double-edged sword,
however, as I can use up my limited energy for social interaction by the end of
a work week and need the weekend, when readings are usually scheduled, to recharge.Rather than simply “shyness,” introversion is
also about the way social interaction takes more energy for introverts than for
extroverts and the way introverts can experience sensory overload in social
environments.Add Chronic Fatigue
Syndrome/Fibromyalgia to the mix, and I find I have to be ruthless about pacing
my social interactions and getting in enough quiet and solitude to
recharge.I’ve struggled, too, with how
to translate the visual qualities of my work in a reading forum.How my poems look on the page is important to
me.I worked up a pdf of my poems for my
second book and have done the same for Hive-Mind.It was great to finally feel that an
essential part of my work wasn’t be lost during readings.

6 -
Do you have any theoretical concerns behind your writing? What kinds of
questions are you trying to answer with your work? What do you even think the
current questions are?

I
have no idea if the questions are answered in my work or how relevant those
questions may be for other writers, but I ask myself two questions: what
happens when I approach poetics and form with both/and thinking instead of
either/or thinking, and what can I make use of to piece together like squares
of cloth for a quilt.I’m guessing the
second question may come from a background that includes poverty and near-homelessness
as I had to become good at making due with what I had.For poetry, the “pieces” I use are my
experiences, the approaches and techniques I was taught by my teachers, what I
read, other texts.The first question
may in part come from an association of either/or thinking with schools of
poetry in the past that didn’t include women or relegated them to a position of
being seen but not heard.

7 –
What do you see the current role of the writer being in larger culture? Does
s/he even have one? What do you think the role of the writer should be?

Poetry’s
readership is very limited, and if print runs are any indication, typically
1,000 copies when my first book came out in 2003, 100 print-on-demand copies
today, the readership is shrinking.Even
when it was 1,000 copies, nearly half were bought by university libraries and
may have never been checked out.Despite
that grim reality, I continue to write and hope my work will affect at least a
few people.Validating others’ creativity,
whether it’s been in the classroom or through nonprofit organizations, has been
a helpful service, I hope.It’s a part
of who we are that gets denounced or devalued, and I feel priviledged to be in
a position to have constructed some safe zones for creative expression.

8 -
Do you find the process of working with an outside editor difficult or
essential (or both)?

I’ve
been very grateful to my book editors.My current editor at Stockport Flats Poetry, Lori Anderson Moseman, like
Laura Qa, devoted a tremendous amount of her time editing and designing my
manuscript.I think the book is much the
better for it.And she kept me on task
and provided encouragement and cheering when I needed it.

9 -
What is the best piece of advice you've heard (not necessarily given to you
directly)?

Persistence. I wrote my first poem my
senior year in high school but didn’t get a poem published in a literary
magazine (other than my college literary magazine) until ten years later. I
submitted my chapbook to zillions of presses for four long years until a small
press accepted it. My second book involved another four years of submitting
before accepted, the current one, three years. There were a lot of rejection
letters during those years, and rejection letters will continue to be in my
life. Keep submitting.

10
- What kind of writing routine do you tend to keep, or do you even have
one? How does a typical day (for you) begin?

I
think, now, more about a writing routine over a year's trajectory than a daily
one. I teach at Texas A&M International University, a fairly new
university of primarily first-generation students with a newly implemented
creative writing minor I helped to develop. In other words, there’s
labor-intensive building from the ground up to do.Teaching has priority for me over writing
once the semester is underway. I don't seem to be wired to limit how much
time and energy I put into lesson plans, grading, or responding to students' or
programmatic needs. It just doesn't seem right to do that. So, it
becomes a 7-day work week once the semester is underway. I steal time to
do low-stakes writing, such as writing in my journal, doing freewriting while a
class is doing an in-class writing exercise, or doing reading and
researching. Happily, I end up tricking myself into producing more
rough drafts of poems than I think I will or than I ever did when trying
(unsuccessfully) to keep to a daily routine. The holiday break and summer
are when I do the more intensive, high-stakes writing and revising, avoiding a
clock as much as possible.

My
day will begin very differently depending on what time of the week or year it
is. During the school year on a school day? It starts by rushing to
get ready for work and out the door. During the summer, I'll head
straight to the computer to answer emails, work on poems, and then fix some
breakfast when I'm ready for a break.

11 -
When your writing gets stalled, where do you turn or return for (for lack of a
better word) inspiration?

To my experiences, observations,
dreams, reading, day-dreaming.

12 -
What fragrance reminds you of home?

When
I open a book to the title page, that smell.

13 -
David W. McFadden once said that books come from books, but are there any other
forms that influence your work, whether nature, music, science or visual art?

My
current book, Hive-Mind, is about
bees while my previous book, Horse-Minded,
also included poems about environmental concerns and disease.Cold-Knife
Surgery was informed by what I was reading about the scientific research of
cervical cancer.My first book, She Took Off Her Wings and Shoes,
included a section of poems based on female visual artists, with some
additional poems on that included in Horse-Minded.Although not declared, I had enough college
credits for an art history minor and had taken some art courses and worked in
the college museum.I’m also married to
an art historian.I have very fond
memories of the classical music environment at Oberlin because of the
conservatory.One of my roommates was very
musical, another was a celloist, I dated an oboist, and there were always free
concerts and recitals.

14 -
What other writers or writings are important for your work, or simply your life
outside of your work?

Combine
my love of therapeutic horseback riding which I do for CFS/FM with therapeutic
writing for a community in need.

16 -
If you could pick any other occupation to attempt, what would it be? Or,
alternately, what do you think you would have ended up doing had you not been a
writer?

Many
years and pounds ago, I was returning to college, taking a bus from New York
City back to Oberlin, Ohio.A gentleman sat
down next to me after looking me up and down.My first thought was that this was going to be a really long trip.His first
words changed my first impression as he asked me if I had ever thought about
exercising racehorses.He turned out to
be a racehorse trainer, and he gave me his card to contact him.I sometimes wonder what it would have been
like if I had contacted him. Anyway, it
was a very congenial bus ride and the time flew by.

17 -
What made you write, as opposed to doing something else?

Poetry records what it’s like to be
alive, to be human. I love the way a
poem can slow down or stop a moment and describe all the internal and external
facets of that moment. Given our rushed
lives, poetry allows us to slow down and look at something closely and to even
see what someone else sees and experiences. I love the chance to reach someone else and
move another person, make someone laugh or see things in a new way or
articulate something someone may have always known or felt. I like the challenge of working with language
in a new and surprising way, especially visually on the page, getting the
reader to even pause for a moment to look at the poem's shape and
"see" the images I've created. Given our overly hectic days, I think we need
those moments of contemplation more than ever. And writing poetry provides a rare opportunity
to be completely honest.

18 -
What was the last great book you read? What was the last great film?