Monthly Archives: November 2016

There are many reasons why I say this, but the main reason why I declare this with confidence, on this day, is because God has healed me of these two feelings: rejection and anger. “He was wounded for our transgressions, the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.”~Isaiah 53:5~

In the past, I have experienced rejection from both of my parents and because of the rejection I experienced, feelings of anger built up in me. These feelings gave me a sense of entitlement, thinking that I am better and less sinful than my family when the reality is that I am no better than them because of my need for Jesus to heal me of these sinful thoughts. “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”~1 John 1:9~

I realized, after praying this morning, that I need to surrender my feelings of rejection and anger to Jesus at the cross. I must do so by denying myself. “If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.”~Luke 9:23~

The last point I want to make is that God is constantly doing a mighty work in my life. I am in a constant process of sanctification because God is continuously making me more and more like His Son, Jesus Christ. I am not perfect and have many flaws and it is because of this confession I make that I ask my Lord Jesus to work in me daily. “But as he which hath called you is holy, so be ye holy in all manner of conversation: Because it is written, Be ye holy; for I am holy.”~1 Peter 1:15-16~

I have overcome all feelings of rejection, anger, and unforgiveness because I surrender these feelings to the cross. “Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.”~Romans 8:37~

My prayer for you is that you are divinely inspired NOT by me, but by the Lord Jesus Christ after reading this blog post, to surrender whatever false beliefs and feelings that you may be feeling to Jesus at the cross. All that you have to do is ask Him to heal you from the inside and out in your heart, mind, body, and soul so that you have the eyes to see and ears to hear God’s voice for discernment for His will for your life. “And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.”~Matthew 21:22~

Let your kingdom come today, O Lord Jesus, in the lives of those who are reading this blog post so that they may be healed just as I am healed, in your precious name. “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”~Matthew 6:33~

Thank you for reading this blog post. Continue to pray for me and my family. May you be richly blessed today, in Jesus name! 🙂

I was not strong in my convictions, had no sense of boundaries, nor did I have a sense of direction in my life. Now, I am a changed woman of the Lord Almighty. “Therefore, if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”~2 Corinthians 5:17~

Several months ago, I did not stand up for the conviction that I have that Jesus is Lord and Savior of my life. My family, who are not followers of Jesus, constantly mocked, criticized, and even tried to convince me several times that I was, “crazy,” and that my convictions were false. Then, I gave into their arguments, but still believed deep in my heart that Jesus is Lord of my life. “Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think anything as of ourselves; but our sufficiency is of God.”~2 Corinthians 3:5~

I realized that I had to do something about how harshly my family treated me: I set a boundary with them in which I have not communicated with them for several months. Not talking to them for this period has granted me peace of God and this realization: that my convictions are very personal and are not only a reflection of who I am, but of the woman that God has called me to become for the rest of my life. “Favour is deceitful and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised.”~Proverbs 31:30~

Me wearing a kimono and heels.

After setting the boundary in place, I decided to set two goals in my life: to get my Master’s degree in Global Studies from Liberty University and to lose weight By 2017. I made these two decisions myself without my family interfering because I chose to listen to the voice of God rather than trust human understanding. “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thine ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”~Proverbs 3:5-6~

My acceptance letter into the Liberty University School of Divinity.Me studying for my Master’s degree on a Sunday evening at home.

God has been sovereign, in this respect, in that He has directed my paths by ordering every step toward the future He has planned for me as a missionary to my family (who I hope will one day receive Jesus in their lives), Clarkston, and the world. “The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord: and he delighteth in his way.”~Psalm 37:23~

Despite the pain and suffering that I have been through with my family, I am stand firm in the conviction that my life in Christ Jesus is the reason of why I am shaped into the woman of God that I am today. Death has no power over me because Jesus Christ already won with His precious blood covering my life in His resurrection and protection. “O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.”~1 Corinthians 15:55-57~

I now know, with all of the conviction in my heart, that as I continue to trust in Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, that God’s plans for my future are great. “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”~Jeremiah 29:11~

I have a lot of thoughts regarding the outcome of the election. However, I normally don’t talk about politics in my blog posts, but I will today since today is a turning point for some, a shock for others, and a devestation to many in American History. Please note that this blog post is from my own perspective, as a follower of Jesus Christ, and I choose to not take the Republican nor the Democrat side in this blog post since my allegiance is for Jesus Christ.

During this time, everyone, including the Christians and the non Christians, need to come together in godly love. This includes the ones who have differing political views from another person. The purpose is so that all will realize, know, and feel the love of Jesus around them in order to point them to God. “My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth.”~(1 John 3:18)~.
If Christians do not show this love to non Christians, it will come across as hypocritical and fruitless if they only show love to Christians and those with the same political views from them. God is love and if this love is not shown to everyone around us in a way that is godly today, then our efforts as followers of Christ are useless. “If I speak in the tongues of men or angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.”~(1 Corinthians 13:1-3)~

Every one, the Christians, non Christians, Democrats, and Republicans, need to love one another as neighbours and not enemies and out of the same love that comes from Jesus Christ. “And Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.”~(Matthew 22:37-39)~

The Lord knows and understands the sorrows that many in America feel today. He knows when even the politicians refuse to understand. “Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book? When I cry into thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for God is for me”~(Psalm 56:8-9)~

I pray that all of America will turn to God for comfort in the midst of its sadness it feels today. Only God alone can bring true comfort when politicians cannot do so. “In the multitude of my thoughts within me thy comforts delight my soul.”~(Psalm 94:19)~

Thank you for reading this blog post. May the God of Comfort bring you tidings of great joy and blessings today. Moat importantly, may this joy bring you the strength needed to push forward as we enter 2017.

Google defines grief as a multifaceted response to loss, particularly to the loss of someone or something that has died, to which a bond or affection was formed. Although conventionally focused on the emotional response to loss, it also has physical, cognitive, behavioral, social, and philosophical dimensions.

I currently experience grief as a result of the rejection experienced from both of my parents. With my dad having rejected me due to me choosing to follow Jesus and my mom who battles mental illness (and has also rejected me due to her own mental health issues), one would think that I would have given up on people by now, including my friends. I currently struggle with depression and a sleep disorder called akathisia as a result of everything I’ve been through with both of my parents. Akathisia has many symptoms, including anxiety and insomnia, which I do not talk about a lot. Writing about it in this blog post is my first time talking and being open about it.

I’ve realized that through this grieving period of my parents and my own issues, I cannot deal with them alone. God has blessed me with a few close friends, who I have told about all of my problems. “A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.”~Proverbs 18:24~

Despite my own problems I face, I know this: that I am an overcomer of all of my own issues and struggles by the power of God’s grace and not my own efforts. “Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.”~Romans 8:37~

I am not defined by my depression or sleep disorder because I am an adopted daughter of Christ. “For ye have not received the Spirit of bondage again to fear: but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.”~Romans 8:15~

This is because God wants us to be intentional with one another, particularly with those we can trust. I choose to place my trust in the Lord so that in this manner, I can trust my friends too. “Blessed are all they that put their trust in Him.”~Psalm 2:12~

God has taught me this truth: true friends not only listen, but they love you at all times, regardless of your own issues. “A friend loveth at all times.”~Proverbs 17:17~

Throughout this period, I have also taken necessary steps to mature in a spiritual, mental, physical, and emotional sense. I have lost 6 lbs in just one week from eating healthy and exercising regularly. Even though I have not consulted my parents for my own wellbeing, I have turned to God and those He has placed in my life for help. This is because He alone is my portion. “It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.”~Lamentations 3:22-24~

I may experience all of these feelings now, but I have absolute joy in the Lord. “Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.”~Psalm 30:5~

I finish this blog post with a final thought: Ask Jesus Christ for His strength to push through the hard times. My life verse has always helped me to realize this fact:”I can do all things through Christ which strengheneth me.”~Philippians 4:13~