Finding My Confidence

Confidence is not something that many people just have. For me it was an event about 6 months ago that helped me really find my worth. I thought I would share what brought me to a place I thought I would never get to in my life. When I was in high school I did things for myself like going to school every day and having a job.

These things in my story are irreverent other than to prove I’m ordinary. I believe it was my junior year when something clicked. I started losing weight, not on purpose but it made me feel better about myself. I believe the weight loss was due to being so busy and just eating small amounts at a time. (I’m not a nutritionist). I also started watch a youtuber named Tanya Burr. If you have never seen her videos they are so up lifting and she always seems so happy. I seriously suggest going to check her out. A lot of her videos are makeup tutorials which I watched and learned how to replicate. At this point in my life I also started doing all my friends make up too. It was the start of my obsession with makeup.

Skip forward to my first year in college and I went though my first relationship. When that ended I was completely crushed feeling like I would never get over it. I was so down on my self for a few weeks until I realized. I can’t change what happened. I can’t control the decisions of others and I just need to go with the flow. I decided I was going to do what was best for me. When I started eating again after the break up (I was to upset to eat during the whole thing). I was consciously trying to making better eating choices. I went to the gym everyday that I did not go to my day job. I liked feeling like I was in control of something again.

I also started dressing differently, I go to an all women college so I had no reason to do my makeup or wear anything other than leggings everyday. I just randomly started doing my makeup everyday again and wearing nice clothes and all of sudden boom I was speaking to new people, talking in class instead of just listening. I did not even notice this change until one of my friends told me she wished she had my confidence. I was honestly taken back when she said this but I believe it was my understanding that I can’t change others and I can only control myself. I only want to do what’s best for me and the people I love. My confidence came from loving myself and reminding myself that I love myself and that’s how it should be.

I am no size zero, but learning to love myself and my decisions has made me want to judge myself less. More suggestions I have are…

Talk to your friends

Keep your support system close

Make time for yourself.

I know making time for yourself can be difficult but you will love yourself later for it. You don’t have to spend a lot of time on just you but a few minutes everyday will make you feel so much better about yourself. If you enjoyed reading this please share somethings that make you feel confident or things that make you happy. Thank you for reading!