some days you want pecans, some days you want walnuts...and some days you just get stuck with peanuts.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

I can't get them off my mind...

I knew when we got home I wouldn't be able to go on with life and not feel this fierce drive to help the oprhans find families, to be loved and cared for. But I at least thought there would be a 'reasonable' amount of time before my heart would be longing for another one here in our family.

It hasn't been a 'reasonable' amount of time.

I can't forget those faces. I see how much love our Ari has to share and how much he needs us. I mean he REALLY needs us. He is such an innocent little piece of love.

So, yes, I want more. I want to go back. I already know who....although I would gladly take any of them.

The question is HOW? The cost is astronomical. It's insane. There are no two ways around it.

But it's a LIFE we're talking about. There HAS to be ways.....

I don't understand why it has to cost so much, but buying someones life, their freedom, isn't cheap.

thats exactly how we felt and why we are going back already. with the adoption tax credit we just used everything we got back(we have a high tax liability) and that covers a LOT of it. enjoy your baby boy and scrimp and save awhile and before you know it you will be all set to go back! Im so glad you have that lovely boy home.

I am praying for you and know that God will provide! I have been praying for a while now about adoption and God has been answering prayers and removing obstacles one by one. Now, I just have to get my hubby on board! I'm praying hard that God will move on his heart. I have a very strong desire and pull toward orphans and the orphans of Ukraine, in particular. I can't explain it, but it started about 5 years ago and it's getting stronger and stronger. I am planning to go there next Fall with a missions group and I can't wait! I want to go now. Keep pressing on and God will make the way!

Jodi, once that fire and that "calling" in your heart is awakened by God it won't be quiet! Trust me... after our first adoption... I TRIED, I even prayed for God to take it away because my husband was not on board for another adoption. God decided to change his mind instead of taking it from me. :)

I dont' know how, but I know God is in control of it. At least, usually I do.. mabye not so much today.

Still, I find it amazing because the thought of going through this process again makes me nauseous! Maybe once the girls have been home for a while that feeling will leave me...

I do know this isn't the last the adoption world will see or hear of us. We might just focus on domestic adoptions though... who knows?! I have always really wanted to adopt from the Phillipines... so? :)

It is a strong pull, isn't it? I am so sad that we didn't get to see the RR kids while we were at Solnitchka (other than Bella, who has a family coming for her)...and at the same time, I am a little bit relieved. The children we did see are etched in our hearts and minds...and although most of them seemed to be happy and doing very well...we don't have any information about any of them...and we pray they will be found by loving families.

Seeing the kids with Ds, especially (the ones listed on RR--like Anne Marie--still available, and Taya--who now has a family, I think), would have been almost too much to bear. But I cannot believe they were right under our noses and we did not see them or have the chance to photograph them or write updates.

Walk to FREEDOM........Gotcha Day!

our first meeting

About Me

Jacee Badeaux

This is what I feel like most days...

Our gang of 'mixed nuts'

Here's our family...(I'm personally a pecan, probably with glaze). But there *may* be some peanuts in the bunch, and they know who they are!

Artiom was adopted in the spring of 2010 from Ukraine.

referral picture

Artiom was born with Goldenhar Syndrome.

Artiom at Coldstone

Papa's boy

Me and Artiom

Alex

4 yrs old

Summer

7 yrs old

Artiom

7 yrs old

Michael

9 yrs old

Our 3 oldest, Ashley, Shane and Lindsey

18,19 and 22 yrs old

Mackenzie

4 yrs old

My handsome husband

Me

Gramps

I don't know...like 100 yrs old

sneaky Kristin kissing my Alexander in Ukraine and he seems to LIKE it!

grrrrrrrrrr.......

me at Rambo's house in Ukraine

Ukrainian Cossacks

This is me and Gretchen talking about Kristin :) :)

me and Jacee...gotta love it!

Remembering Ollie...

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Finally, there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will give to me on that Day, and not to me only but also to all who have loved His appearing.

The band 'The Killers' came to visit Oliver(click to watch Killers video)

Artiom in the orphanage

“My friends, adoption is redemption. It’s costly, exhausting, expensive, and outrageous. Buying back lives costs so much. When God set out to redeem us, it killed Him.” -- Derek Loux