Friday, June 09, 2006

Flying High

Life is so funny. One moment you're scared ****less and another you're flying high. Just a month ago I was going through a rough time. I had lost trust in someone that was very close to me. I believed in this person and for the first time in our relationship I suddenly didn't. It was like night and day. I can't even describe how devastating it was. I even questioned my role in it. Did I let this happen? Was it my fault? Did I push him into a situation that left him no choice but to lie? That's why trust is so important in relationships. Because without it, you really don't have much. All you'll end up with is a relationship full of doubt and questions, with no real peace in sight. You'll always wonder if the person is telling the truth, you'll always wonder if they have it in them to lie to you again, to hurt you again. And you know what? They most likely will.

Hurt me once, shame on you.Hurt me twice, shame on me.

Fortunately I'm over it. Life goes on whether you like it or not, and you have to learn how to adjust. And I have to say that I am adjusting pretty darn well. People will always surprise you and make you think twice about what you know or think you know in your soul. Don't let them doubt who you are or what you want in life. Don't let sadness or fear consume you. Let the pain go, let the anger go, and most of all, let the person go. Trust your instincts. Because life is wonderful if you let it be. I have faith that everything is the way it is supposed to be at the moment. And I am so thankful that I still have people here that I love and trust completely.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Jimmy's Birthday

We celebrated Jimmy's birthday tonight in Emeryville. Beforehand, we picked up Jimmy at his new place in Oakland. It was really nice. We headed to an Italian Restaurant closeby. I can't remember the name, but I liked the food. Alvin came late because he had to suddenly work that day. I don't know how he does it...the life of a ER Doctor. I'm glad he made it because those 3 guys are so hilarious. Stupid hilarious. LOL.

A New Beginning

If any of you keep up with my little site, you may have noticed a few changes overnight. Despite attempting to remove this site completely, I have decided to keep it and instead create something entirely different from what it was before. Something simplier and much easier to manage. After a long break from blogging and web design, I am back in full force. As much as I loved the rest, I am ready to share my thoughts once again with anyone who cares to listen. I do love to write and connect with others, and in some way if I can reach someone with my experiences or stories, it will be worth all the time that I have put into this.

So then, here I go. There is so much I want to talk about with so little time to get them down on paper. It will take diligence and a big commitment from me to keep up, but I know I will. I'm ready for a new beginning. Are you?