What am I to do?

There's this guy who I met 3 years ago in the theater, he worked there selling tickets and did check-ins. I kept bumpin into this guy since I loved going to the theaters.. And well, from a smile to chitchat to hanging out, we became good friends.. He was still in college and I was running a small part of my family bussiness.

So after a couple of months hanging out together, he told me that he has this huge crush on me, I was kind of surprised because he knew I couldn't start a relationship (closet ) and with my family all up in my bussiness (letterly) I just couldn't risk that, I too had a huge crush on him, but I had to keep reminding myself that if 1 family member finds out, I would without a doupt lose everyone in my life, even thou I also kept thinking he is sooo worth it

It didn't take long before we went our seperate ways.. It really messed me up back then, I really didn't cared anymore what will happen next, I realised that my ''crush'' really wasn't just a harmless crush, I've had crushes in my life but this was way above all..

So anywayz this weekend I took my little brother to the movies there was this annual thing going on, and I wasn't sure but I thought I saw him there getting photographed with I'm guessing who was his boss and co-worker?the whole time he was all I could think about during the movie and after the movie.. When I got home I went on facebook and looked him up, 2 be sure if it was him... Big mistake, it was him and damn he got even more mature, good looking..Just looking at his picture, the feelings I had back then are now slowly regenerating :s

What the hell am I to do? :sI've got the urge to call him, but I feel like I'm being selfish..What If he got a boyfriend...Or is happy with his life and the last thing he needs is.. well.. me Why does it hurt so much I didn't even had a relationship with this guy...

paulflexes saidFuck the family business. You're an adult. Make your own and be with the dude.

Rather not but I get your point.. Everyone of them are doing things that makes them happy, they actually living there lives, and I'm the only one who is standing still while the world is moving.. And yet as much as it pains my heart and hurts me mentally, I just can't come out with it.. I find the only solution is to move out of this country..