The double line.

I shared my story last year about us losing our last baby, so me getting pregnant and staying pregnant for this long is a miracle. This baby is indeed our rainbow baby.

We had been trying for a few months with no success and were honestly about to give up temporarily and just let it be for now. I was getting frustrated and annoyed at my wonky monthly cycle and knew that it had to be the reason I wasn’t getting pregnant. My lovely time of the month had been shifting later and later each month by a day, two days, three days…. and in June I was late, technically speaking, but knew it was just my cycle pushing itself back even further. I was even having symptoms of my cycle starting soon. After a few days I just randomly took a test just to know I could throw back a glass of wine that night safely and without fear of not knowing if a baby was in there or not.

Baby’s first onesie from one of my best friends.The digital test I took after I didn’t believe the double line!

And the double line appeared. MUCH to my surprise. I was very much not expecting it even though we had been trying I was still so surprised and caught off guard.

I lived in fear for the first several weeks. But my husband and I agreed this time around we would share with our close family and friends just in the case that we lost the baby again. I didn’t want to relive what we did last year when we had to tell our friends and family we were pregnant in the same breath we were telling them that we weren’t any more. At least this time around they would know and we could ask for prayer and potentially comfort if anything were to happen.

I’m happy to announce I am in my second trimester and things have gone extraordinarily well in regards to the baby. The first trimester was rough on me, but I’ve never welcomed nausea, puking and fatigue more than I did in those early weeks. It was reassuring every time I was sick, to know my hormones were working this time and not failing me again. Only after you’ve lost a baby in those early days do you truly appreciate every first trimester ailment. However, after a couple months of getting sick everyday I am so, so, SO happy that I am no longer sick every day and am getting my energy back. Because being pregnant with TWO toddlers in tow is no joke!

I am back to the gym now that I am not puking everyday and am gaining my energy back. News flash: working out while pregnant doesn’t get rid of your pregnancy symptoms contrary to what some think. I’m honestly just doing it to continue being as active as I can and counteract my weight gain to keep it minimal this time around. It hasn’t prevented me from being sick, tired or just feeling overall crappy some days. But I’m doing it anyway.