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Day 56 After Break Up

Aaaah, nothing starts the day off better than three days with no sleep and a woman on your mind.That’s good stuff!Really gets your blood pumping to go out there and start some self development. What could be more motivating than becoming the man your ex says you’re not?It’s the stuff of legends.

Do you detect a bit of cynicism and sarcasm today?I guess every day won’t be sunshine and hope, or even pain and pity parties.Truth be told I feel like a ball in a pin-ball machine just bouncing through each stage of grief.One minute I can’t believe this happening, the next I’m ready to move on—with hope, sometimes without, and then go I back right up into the morass of denial.Then my mind brings the Coup De Grace, am I completely a moron for believing what I do.Am I delusional?I mean she did stand in front of me and say, “I don’t have the passion.Yes, I did have it last year, but not now.”Does she not realize that she just said it was one way and now its not, how does she know which is correct?Answer to that is no of course.I know that the issue is she’s going with the old faithful of how she feels.Yeah, because that has lead soooo many women down the path of good decisions.As soon as I ask even a few questions, I see the frustration on her face, because she cannot deny the logic of what she herself has said.But if logic was what I was dealing with I would not be writing this blog.I guess from a certain, “clinical” p.o.v. it is amusing to see someone just get frozen while trying to explain/rationalize/justifya decision based on how they feel versus what they themselves said they felt before.It would be one thing if the passion as she calls it was gone for like two years, or was never there.But 8 months ago?I mean come on.As LIzzie of Grey’s Anatomy would say, “Seriously?”