Times were tough love was not enoughSo you said sorry johnny i'm gone gone gone
You said my act was funny
But we both knew what was missing honey
So you let out on your own
Now that pretty form that you've got baby
Will make sure you get along
But you're gonna find our someday honey

Now i was young and pretty on the mean streets of the city
And i fought to make'em my home
With just the shirt on my back i left and swore i'd never look back
And man i was gone gone gone
But there's things that'll knock you down you don't even see coming
And send you crawling like a baby back home
You're gonna find out that day sugar

When you're alone...

I knew some day your runnin' would be through
And you'd think back on me and you
And your love would be strongYou'd forget all the bad and think only of all the laughs that we had
And you'd wanna come home
Now it ain't hard feelings or nothin' sugar
That ain't what's got me singing this song
It's just nobody knows baby where love goes
But when it goes it's gone gone

When you're alone...

In Peace,
BlueAngel

He refers to himself as Johnny and Billy in several songs. As well as Joe.

They're still racing out at the trestles
But that blood it never burned in her veins
Now i hear she's got a house up in fairview
And a style she's trying to maintain
Well if she wants to see me
You can tell her that i'm easily found
Tell her there's a spot out `neath abram's bridge
And tell her there's a darkness on the edge of town

Everybody's got a secret sonny
Something that they just can't face
Some folks spend their whole lives trying to keep it
They carry it when them every step that they take
Till some day they just cut it loose
Cut it loose or let it drag 'em down
Where no one asks any questions
Or looks too long in your face
In the darkness on the edge of town

Some folks are born into a good life
Other folks get it anyway anyhow
I lost my money and i lost my wife
Them things don't seem to matter much to me now

Tonight i'll be on that hill `cause i can't stop
I'll be on that hill with everything i gotLives on the line where dreams are found and lost
I'll be there on time and i'll pay the cost
For wanting things that can only be found
In the darkness on the edge of town

In Peace,
BlueAngel

This singer/songwriter references "the edge of town" quite frequently as well as darkness whether on the edge of town or elsewhere.

He also refers to "that hill" in several if not more songs.

He refers to a SONNY in this song. Almost as if he is talking to himself (i.e., possibly another alter).

Got out of prison back in '86 and I found a wife
Walked the clean and narrowjust tryin' to stay out and stay aliveGot a job at the rendering plant,
it ain't gonna make me rich
In the darkness before dinner comes
Sometimes i can feel the itch
I got a cold mind to go tripping across that thin line
I'm sick of doin' straight time
My uncle's at the evenin' table, makes his living runnin' hot cars
Slips me a hundred dollar bill says"charlie you best remember who your friends are.
"got a cold mind to go trippin' 'cross that thin line
I ain't makin' straight time
Eight years in it feels like you're gonna die
But you get used to anything
Sooner or later it just becomes your life
Kitchen floor in the evening tossin' my little babies highMary's smiling but she's watching me out of the corner of her eye
Seems you can't get any more than half free
I step out onto the front porch and suck the cold air deep inside of me
Got a cold mind to go trippin' 'cross that thin line
I'm sick of doin' straight time
In the basement huntin' gun and a hacksawSip a beer and thirteen inches of barrel drop to the floor
Come home in the evening, can't get the smell from my hands
Lay my head down on the pillow
And go driftin' off into foreign lands

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Is this another alter? Refers to himself as Charlie and is married to MARY.

Different job in this song: Rendering plant. He also did time in jail.

Is this one of those songs that you look at in the end and don't know where it came from?

I went out walking the other day
Seen a little girl crying along the way
She'd been hurt so bad said she'd never love again
Someday your crying girl will end
And you'll find once again

Two hearts are better than one
Two hearts girl get the job done
Two hearts are better than one

Once i spent my time playing tough guy scenesBut I was living in a world of childish dreams
Someday these chilish dreams must end
To become a man and grow up to dream again
Now i believe in the end

Two hearts are better than one...

Sometimes it might seem like it was planned
For you to roam empty hearted through this land
Though the world turns you hard and cold
There's one thing mister that i know
That's if you think your heart is stone
And that you're rough enough to whip this world alone
Alone buddy there ain't no peace of mind
That's why i'll keep searching till i find my special one

I got no time for the corner boys
Down in the street making all that noise
Or the girls out on the avenue
`cause tonight i wanna be with you
Tonight i'm gonna take that ride
Across the river to the jersey side
Take my baby to the carnival
And i'll take her on all the rides

`cause down the shore everything's all right
You and your baby on a saturday nightYou know all my dreams come true
When i'm walking down the street with you

You know she thrills me with all her charms
When i'm wrapped up in my baby's armsMy little girl gives me everything
I know that some day she'll wear my ring
So don't bother me man i ain't got no time
I'm on my way to see that girl of mine
`cause nothing matters in this whole wide world
When you're in love with a jersey girl

Sha la la la...

I see you on the street and you look so tired
I know that job you got leaves you so uninspired
When i come by to take you out to eat
You're lyin' all dressed up on the bed baby fast asleep
Go in the bathroom and put your makeup on
We're gonna take that little brat of yours and drop her off at your mom's
I know a place where the dancing's free
Now baby won't you come with me
`cause down the shore everything's all right
You and your baby on a saturday night
Nothing matters in this whole wide world
When you're in love with a jersey girl

Well now on a summer night in a dusky room
Come a little piece of the lord's undying light
Crying like he swallowed the fiery moon
In his mother's arms it was all the beauty i could take
Like the missing words to some prayer that i could never make
In a world so hard and dirty so fouled and confused
Searching for a little bit of god's mercy
I found living proof

I put my heart and soul i put 'em high upon a shelf
Right next to the faith the faith that i'd lost in myself
I went down into the desert city
Just tryin' so hard to shed my skin
I crawled deep into some kind of darkness
Lookin' to burn out every trace of who i'd been
You do some sad sad things baby
When it's your you 're tryin' to lose
You do some sad and hurtful things
I've seen living proof

You shot through my anger and rage
To show me my prison was just an open cage
There were no keys no guards
Just one frightened man and some old shadows for bars

Well now all that's sure on the boulevard
Is that life is just a house of cards
As fragile as each and every breath
Of this boy sleepin' in our bed
Tonight let's lie beneath the eaves
Just a close band of happy thieves
And when that train comes we'll get on board
And steal what we can from the treasures of the lord
It's been along long drought baby
Tonight the rain's pourin' down on our roof
Looking for a little bit of god's mercy
I found living proof

We said we'd walk together baby come what may
That come the twilight should we lose our way
If as we're walkin a hand should slip free
I'll wait for you
And should i fall behind
Wait for me

We swore we'd travel darlin' side by side
We'd help each other stay in stride
But each lover's steps fall so differently
But i'll wait for you
And if i should fall behind
Wait for me

Now everyone dreams of a love lasting and true

But you and i know what this world can do
So let's make our steps clear that the other may see
And i'll wait for you
If i should fall behind
Wait for me

Now there's a beautiful river in the valley aheadThere 'neath the oak's bough soon we will be wed
Should we lose each other in the shadow of the evening trees
I'll wait for you
And should i fall behind
Wait for me
Darlin' i'll wait for you
Should i fall behind
Wait for me

In Peace,
BlueAngel

This song was posted alot while on HIS site. It was to KEEP me hanging on waiting for HIS communication, evidence of his heroic role in the past. And, all the while I was being sucked further and further out of reality.

TAKE NOTE:

The line; "We will soon be wed." He sang this with his wife at one of his most recent concerts and remarked that some people use it as a wedding song, but at that time he was using it as a preventative divorce song.

I got a sixty-nine chevy with a 396
Fuelie heads and a hurst on the floor
She's waiting tonight down in the parking lot
Outside the seven-eleven storeMe and my partner sonny built her straight out of scratch
And he rides with me from town to town
We only run for the money got no strings attached
We shut `em up and then we shut `em down

Tonight tonight the strip's just right
I wanna blow `em off in my first heat
Summer's here and the time is right
We're goin' racin' in the street

We take all the action we can meet
And we cover all the northeast state
When the strip shuts down we run `em in the street
From the fire roads to the interstateSome guys they just give up living
And start dying little by little piece by pieceSome guys come home from work and wash up
Then go racin' in the street

Tonight tonight the strip's just right
I wanna blow `em all out of their seats
Calling out around the world
We're going racin' in the street

I met her on the strip three years ago
In a camaro with this dude from l.a.
I blew that camaro off my back and drove that little girl away

But now there's wrinkles around my baby's eyesAnd she cries herself to sleep at night
When i come home the house is dark
She sighs "baby did you make it all right"
She sits on the porch of her daddy's houseBut all her pretty dreams are torn
She stares off alone into the nightWith the eyes of one who hates for just being born

For all the shut-down strangers and hot rod angels
Rumbling through this promised land
Tonight my baby and me we're gonna ride to the seaAnd wash these sins off our hands

Tonight tonight the highway's bright
Out of our way mister you best keep
`cause summer's here and the time is right
We're goin' racin' in the street

In Peace,
BlueAngel

This song incorporates the person SONNY again. However, this time he is a friend of the singer/songwriter.

Seems in many of his songs wherein he is talking about his baby, little girl(s), they're always crying.

The lyrics, "all her pretty dreams are torn" and the "eyes of one who hates just for being born."

These lyrics are a "triggering" mechanism for alter switching to darkness of the past and cause for emotional distress. Of note, as well, as I stated above, his love interests (little girls) are always crying. Repetition: crying, sad.

I'm riding down kingsley,
Figuring i'll get a drink
Turn the radio up loud,
So i don't have to think,
I take her to the floor,
Looking for a moment when the world seems right,
And i tear into the guts,
Of something in the night.

You're born with nothin,
And better off that way,
Soon as you've got something they send
Someone to try and take it away
You can ride this road 'till dawn,
Without another human being in sight,
Just kids wasted on
Something in the night.

Nothing is forgotten or forgiven,
When it's your last time around,I got stuff running around 'round my head
That i just can't live down

When we found the things we loved,
They were crushed and dying in the dirt.
We tried to pick up the pieces,
And get away without getting hurt,
But they caught us at the state line,
And burned our cars in one last fight,
And left us running burned and blind,
Chasing something in the night.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

This song was used to call up the disinformation that after I cut up my baby, SOMETHING in the NIGHT came and took me away. That something was a helicopter. Airlifted to a hospital as I had turned the razor blade against myself and/or directly to an institution.