Thursday, 28 June 2012

"To regret
one's own experiences is to arrest one's own development. To deny one's own
experiences is to put a lie into the lips of one's own life. It is no less than
a denial of the soul." - Oscar Wilde, De Profundis

(research
from Wikipedia, De Profundis, and Bloom’s How To Write About Oscar Wilde by Amy
S. Watkin, Harold Bloom)

On
25 May 1895, Oscar Wilde and Alfred Douglas were convicted of gross indecency,
not to each other (though they had a difficult relationship), but to young men
of a lower class, and sentenced to two years' hard labour,

Wilde
had advised Douglas to leave the country, so Douglas did not serve the sentence
(though he would serve time in jail later in his life). This would have been a
conflict for Wilde. On one hand, he did not want to see his lover suffer the
same fate as he, and yet, when his lover’s touch seemed far away and cold, he knew
that he would most likely not be in prison if it was not for Douglas’s father
and his public accusations of sodomy.

Yet each man
kills the thing he loves
By each let this be heard.
Some do it with a bitter look,
Some with a flattering word.
The coward does it with a kiss,
The brave man with a sword!

Oscar
Wilde was a very famous writer during the time of his conviction. The
Importance of Being Earnest had only recently opened and was incredibly
successful, and he was already quite the social celebrity across the Western
World for his works and his personality.

Unfortunately,
to be homosexual or to be involved in homosexual acts was against the law at
this time, and so for this man, who lived his life for beauty, it was quite a
fall from grace. It would also have been heartbreaking for him, not only to
leave his relationship with Douglas, but also to part with his wife and
children, as he would have been conflicted with the love that is considered
“wrong” and his faith in God. Even with his betrayal to his family, his sons
adored him and respected him greatly. Wilde felt terrible about the misery he
had brought on his wife and children for his conviction, and hoped that his
imprisonment and then future penance, would re-establish his position. (William
Butler Yeats.)

We
learnt later that Oscar Wilde was prisoner C.3.3 (cell block C, landing 3, cell
3) and that he and his friends had to appeal for him to be allowed books and
writing materials. Each night, his writings were taken to the Governor and
delivered to him the next morning.

The
guardsman, which he refers to in his ballad, was Charles Thomas Wooldridge
(1866-7 July 1896), a trooper in the Royal House Guards. He cut the throat of
his wife, Laura Ellen, and was sentenced to be hung from the neck until dead.

After
his release, Wilde, who was appalled by the conditions in the prison and wrote
letters to newspapers of the brutal conditions advocating for penal reform. He
also felt that the dismissal of a warder for giving food to an anemic child prisoner
was outrageously unjust.

In
his ballad, he is not making a comment on the justice of the laws, which
convicted himself or the man; he is commenting on the brutal punishments that
all prisoners collectively share.

Wilde
seemed to have many different personalities amongst his different sets of
peers, possibly inspiring the line, those who live more lives than one.

It
is also interesting to note that Wilde’s own father committed adultery, and was
ridiculed for this socially and retreated from life. The parallels between his
father’s life and his own are eerily similar.

Wilde
lives in the Victorian Era, known for its earnestness, virtue, morality and
restraint – all of these, which Wilde struggled against and, as evident in some
of his work, made fun of.

THEMES

The
Outsider – people who live on the fringe of society. Wilde, being an Irishman
in England and a homosexual in a time when it was illegal in England would feel
this way. Even though he was loved amongst his peers and admirers, he always
felt as if he did not quite belong to them; an Individualist.

Suffering
– suffering from the harsh conditions in Prison but also with ones faith and
relationship with their God.

Inhumanity
– the dismissal of a Warder for helping an anemic child and the Warders only
concern for no suicides in the prison, certainly seem inhuman. Prisoners also
seem to be treated as less or more than human, having them work long hours and
quite hard and pointless tasks.

Forgiveness
– Wilde desperately wanted to be forgiven by the Catholic Church and take some
time to do penance and develop his connection to the Catholic faith, he was
denied this peace by the Church.

Death
– not just physical death, but death of ones goodness, ones soul. In the poem,
the man “dies” quite a few times. It seems to me more like a gradual breakdown:
death of ones mind, ones feelings, ones soul and then their physical body.

Guilt
– Wilde seems to see all sins, all cruelties towards his fellow man as equal.
He can’t help but feel guilty for not being punished like the guardsman for
something that his Church says he’ll be punished for when he dies. He might
have also noticed the fear and relief by his fellow prisoners and the guilt
that feeling lucky for not being hung would bring. There would be moments of
relief and then self-hate for something that could be perceived as selfish. It
is a race of survival, and one will think and do desperate things, and upon
reflection than bring upon a great depression.

Justice
– what is justice, really? Is killing someone who killed someone else really
just? Is the law correct; are humans to be treated this way for their sins?

Love
– love for ones religion, for ones fellow man. Wilde went to jail for what
Douglas’ father did to him, and yet Douglas did not help Wilde. He did not
return Wilde’s love. He essentially abandoned him.

Morality
– the moral treatment of fellow human beings within the prison, which led Wilde
to call for penal reform.

Debt
– the feeling like they owe someone for the pain they are going through, their
debt to society.

Imagination
– the shadows and sounds of the prison wall stirring up terrifying images.
Imagining what the guardsman must be thinking, how he looked when he died, what
was going on in the other prisoners heads.

Religion
– Wilde makes numerous references to biblical texts throughout the ballad. To
Jesus Christ on the cross, to what Jesus died for, to God’s forgiveness. His
desperation to be redeemed by religion was great and he was completely
heart-broken when he was rejected.

Self-denial
– denying ones current circumstances; they aren’t going through these things.
The guardsman is in a state of self-denial. He simply stares out of the window
and doesn’t feel any of the things being described in the text as happening to
him. Wilde and the other prisoners feel every thing for him because he can’t.

Double
Lives – Wilde had many different versions of himself for his different sets of
peers. He feels as if one by one, these different selves are all slowly dying.

Betrayal
– essentially betrayed by Douglas, by society who had loved him. Wilde often
seemed to offer to take the higher moral path, the sacrifice, and his lover let
him. This would have brought up many conflicting emotions, including betrayal.

De Profundis

“. . .
Suffering is one very long moment. We cannot divide it by seasons. We can only
record its moods, and chronicle their return. With us time itself does not
progress. It revolves. It seems to circle round one centre of pain. The
paralysing immobility of a life every circumstance of which is regulated after
an unchangeable pattern, so that we eat and drink and lie down and pray, or
kneel at least for prayer, according to the inflexible laws of an iron formula:
this immobile quality, that makes each dreadful day in the very minutest detail
like its brother, seems to communicate itself to those external forces the very
essence of whose existence is ceaseless change.”

“It is always twilight in one's cell, as it is always
twilight in one's heart.”

“The poor are wise, more charitable, more kind, more
sensitive than we are. In their eyes prison is a tragedy in a man's life, a
misfortune, a casuality, something that calls for sympathy in others. They
speak of one who is in prison as of one who is 'in trouble' simply. It is the
phrase they always use, and the expression has the perfect wisdom of love in
it. With people of our own rank it is different.

With us, prison makes a man a pariah. I, and such as I am,
have hardly any right to air and sun. Our presence taints the pleasures of
others. We are unwelcome when we reappear. To revisit the glimpses of the moon
is not for us. Our very children are taken away. Those lovely links with
humanity are broken. We are doomed to be solitary, while our sons still live.
We are denied the one thing that might heal us and keep us, that might bring
balm to the bruised heart, and peace to the soul in pain. . . .”

“I must say
to myself that I ruined myself, and that nobody great or small can be ruined
except by his own hand. I am quite ready to say so. I am trying to say so,
though they may not think it at the present moment. This pitiless indictment I
bring without pity against myself. Terrible as was what the world did to me,
what I did to myself was far more terrible still.”

“I was a man
who stood in symbolic relations to the art and culture of my age. I had
realised this for myself at the very dawn of my manhood, and had forced my age
to realise it afterwards. Few men hold such a position in their own lifetime,
and have it so acknowledged. It is usually discerned, if discerned at all, by
the historian, or the critic, long after both the man and his age have passed
away. With me it was different. I felt it myself, and made others feel it.
Byron was a symbolic figure, but his relations were to the passion of his age
and its weariness of passion. Mine were to something more noble, more
permanent, of more vital issue, of larger scope.”

“The gods had
given me almost everything. But I let myself be lured into long spells of
senseless and sensual ease. I amused myself with being a FLANEUR, a dandy, a
man of fashion. I surrounded myself with the smaller natures and the meaner minds.
I became the spendthrift of my own genius, and to waste an eternal youth gave
me a curious joy. Tired of being on the heights, I deliberately went to the
depths in the search for new sensation. What the paradox was to me in the
sphere of thought, perversity became to me in the sphere of passion. Desire, at
the end, was a malady, or a madness, or both. I grew careless of the lives of
others. I took pleasure where it pleased me, and passed on. I forgot that every
little action of the common day makes or unmakes character, and that therefore
what one has done in the secret chamber one has some day to cry aloud on the
housetop. I ceased to be lord over myself. I was no longer the captain of my
soul, and did not know it. I allowed pleasure to dominate me. I ended in
horrible disgrace. There is only one thing for me now, absolute humility.

I have lain
in prison for nearly two years. Out of my nature has come wild despair; an
abandonment to grief that was piteous even to look at; terrible and impotent
rage; bitterness and scorn; anguish that wept aloud; misery that could find no
voice; sorrow that was dumb. I have passed through every possible mood of
suffering. Better than Wordsworth himself I know what Wordsworth meant when he
said -

'Suffering
is permanent, obscure, and dark And has the nature of infinity.'”

“When you really want love you will find it waiting for you.”

“Reason does not help me. It tells me that the laws under
which I am convicted are wrong and unjust laws, and the system under which I
have suffered a wrong and unjust system.”

“Many men on their release carry their prison about with them
into the air, and hide it as a secret disgrace in their hearts, and at length,
like poor poisoned things, creep into some hole and die. It is wretched that they
should have to do so, and it is wrong, terribly wrong, of society that it
should force them to do so. Society takes upon itself the right to inflict
appalling punishment on the individual, but it also has the supreme vice of
shallowness, and fails to realise what it has done. When the man's punishment
is over, it leaves him to himself; that is to say, it abandons him at the very
moment when its highest duty towards him begins. It is really ashamed of its
own actions, and shuns those whom it has punished, as people shun a creditor
whose debt they cannot pay, or one on whom they have inflicted an irreparable,
an irremediable wrong. I can claim on my side that if I realise what I have
suffered, society should realise what it has inflicted on me; and that there
should be no bitterness or hate on either side.”

A
website where you can click on any day, and find someone who was executed, puts
into perspective the enormity of that particular punishment.

“The first 106
inmates, who were forced to walk from Carrickfergus Prison in chains, arrived
in 1846. These inmates, who were men, women and children, completed the
changeover of the two prisons. Children from impoverished working-class
families were often imprisoned at the gaol in the early years for offences such
as stealing food or clothing. Women inmates were kept in the prison block house
until the early 1900s. Ten year old Patrick Magee, who had been sentenced to
three months in prison hanged himself in his cell in 1858.”

“And once,
in spite of the men who gripped him by each shoulder, he stepped slightly aside
to avoid a puddle on the path.

It is curious, but till that moment I had
never realized what it means to destroy a healthy, conscious man. When I saw
the prisoner step aside to avoid the puddle, I saw the mystery, the unspeakable
wrongness, of cutting a life short when it is in full tide. This man was not
dying, he was alive just as we were alive. All the organs of his body were
working - bowels digesting food, skin renewing itself, nails growing, tissues
forming - all toiling away in solemn foolery. His nails would still be growing
when he stood on the drop, when he was falling through the air with a tenth of
a second to live. His eyes saw the yellow gravel and the grey walls, and his
brain still remembered, foresaw, reasoned - reasoned even about puddles. He and
we were a party of men walking together, seeing, hearing, feeling,
understanding the same world; and in two minutes, with a sudden snap, one of us
would be gone - one mind less, one world less.”

Wilde’s
connection to Bobby Sands is important, because not only are
they both Irish, Wilde’s own mother fought for the struggle of the Irish People
against English tyranny.

Hunger:
the breath at the end of the film is as powerful as the cry for Freedom in
Braveheart.

“The Screws
are staring at me perplexed. Many of them hope (if their eyes tell the truth)
that I will die. If need be, I’ll oblige them, but my God they are fools. Oscar
Wilde did not do justice to them for I believe they are lower than even he
thought. And I may add there is only one thing lower than a Screw and that is a
Governor. And in my experience the higher one goes up that disgusting ladder
they call rank, or position, the lower one gets…”

Weeping Winds

By Bobby Sands

Oh! Cold March winds your cruel laments
Are hard on prisoners’ hearts,
For you bring my mother’s pleading cries
From whom I have to part.
I hear her weeping lonely sobs
Her sorrows sweep me by,
And in the dark of prison cell
A tear has warmed my eye.

Oh! Whistling winds why do you weep
When roaming free you are,
Oh! Is it that your poor heart’s broke
And scattered off afar?
Or is it that you bear the cries
Of people born unfree,
Who like your way have no control
Or sovereign destiny?

Oh! Lonely winds that walk the night
To haunt the sinner’s soul
Pray pity me a wretched lad
Who never will grow old.
Pray pity those who lie in pain
The bondsman and the slave,
And whisper sweet the breath of God
Upon my humble grave.

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What I found interesting about the production of this album, is that there was a 40-page script, and they did a table read, and every one was excited because they could SEE the album.

What I found incredible was how long the production for the album was, and how work-intensive it was, and I found it quite sad, how a lot of the band members worked by themselves and some dropped out or conflicted.

I also found it sad that during the tour of the wall, Roger Waters still felt isolated and that the bands relations deteriorated. It felt like what Waters created, that was based on past feelings, only became greater and more troubling for every one. The reality became the art became the reality.

I really enjoyed the illustrations by Gerald Scarfe. They were grotesque and at sometimes I felt too obviously sexual, but the ugliness I recognized from seeing those images from my childhood, from album covers or things that my mother and father must have been interested in.

More depressing to learn is that the artists involved with the film continued to fall out during the production.

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Goodbye Charlie, I watched this film to watch Ellen Burstyn, though she was known as Ellen McRae then. She wasn't in the whole film, but she was amusing. It's interesting to see this to see how Burstyn has grown.
The story was quite bizarre, but every now and then I laughed and Tony Curtis grows on you. It took me ages to recognize Walter Matthau, he had this ridiculous accent.
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Happy Days - Beckett on Film, I have to read this play and try to see it performed in the theatre. I found that it started to hurt my head. I really liked Rosaleen Linehan, though I found her a little too inaudible at times and the spit in her throat often rattled in a way that I found distracting, not affective. I loved the last moment with Winnie and Willie. That moved me.

Game of Thrones Season 2, Game of Thrones is like sex. If I was a teenager, I would be playing some sort of RPG of it right now, but thank goodness I am grown and all I want to do is cook some of the recipes from the Game of Thrones Cookbook, one day.

The silly thing is that I had watched the last two episodes (not with total attention) before I had watched any of the series, so it was very interesting for me to go back to the start and see how people ended up in their situations at the end of Season 2.

It also saved me some grief, because I knew that certain people weren't actually dead and that helped.

I hope Sam doesn't die.

Game of Thrones Season 1

Spoiler? The last thing I expected was what happened to Sean Bean to happen. I cried and cried and cried.

Dark Shadows

Alice Doesn't Live Here Any More

West Wing Season 7

West Wing Season 6

Srebrenica: A Cry from the Grave, I finished watching this on a Sunday. All Easter holiday I had studied the events of Srebrenica and the war in Bosnia. This film is very interesting, with some very beautiful interviews with survivors, but I've read far worse things about what happened in Srebrenica than this film shows us.

The Story of Aus, we watched this in Voice Class. It was very funny and very interesting to hear all the different Australian accents, even though they say that it's a myth that different regions of Australia have different accents. I don't agree, I believe we do, maybe not all people from some regions, but the accent differs from one individual to the next.

All About Eve
The Agony and the EcstasyJo's Boy/Le Fils a JoA Cry In The Dark/Evil Angels,

House of Spirits, a very uncomfortable film. Irons, Streep and Close are all magnificent. Glenn Close delivers a particularly moving monologue, that I would love to keep. I would suggest reading about the film before watching it though, because it was just so strange at first. It took a couple of viewings to finish the film.

Hombre, I watched this film for Diane Cilento, a lady who one of my teachers studied with in Northern Queensland before she passed away. Diane Cilento has an amazing voice and eyes that live and think with each word that either she or characters say to her. She has an ancient understanding about her. She seems like one who knows her body, her soul and feels comfortable with the power she radiates towards people. I enjoyed her performance in this film. It was quite intriguing though I found it pretty funny during the first scene.

Shame, we saw this at the cinema. There were quite a few elderly people there and that was quite uncomfortable. I'm not mature enough to watch this film and not giggle and feel like I'm watching a porn movie. I could see how both characters dealt with their pain and I wish I could have stayed with him the whole time at the end, but I couldn't help but think that it was excessive. I felt embarrassed. I also didn't think that Carey Mulligan really gave her best when singing her song. I felt like I was meant to be really moved by it, brought to tears, like other characters. But it just sounded like someone singing New York New York sadly who really couldn't sing. Are people moved by people who can't sing? Usually it's a soft but well executed voice full of sadness that moves us, isn't it? I very much admire Carey Mulligan but this film kept making me think that I was meant to feel something now and then feeling guilty for not feeling it. Is that it? Did it work? Is that the whole point of the film? He's meant to feel aroused by a natural, normal attraction but he doesn't and he feels guilty about that?

I enjoyed it (I was shocked and moved) either way and I saw a man pee on film for the first time in my life and that felt important. I also thought both Fassbender and Mulligan were incredibly brave and I applaud them for that. The scene with the waiter cracked me up, as that is somehow how my job feels - so awkward.

The Deer Hunter, this last scene in this movie (if it is the scene where they are all at the table) is a textbook for acting students. The use of breath between the actors is the very foundation of what we learn to be important. I wasn't particularly moved by any parts of this film (I don't know why), but I am glad I saw it for the last scene and to see the actors we admire in their golden youth!

My Week With Marilyn, I saw this at the cinema and I'm very glad I did. I loved it! I think that anyone interested in acting should watch this film. Sure, the methods of making film differ and have changed now, but other parts of it continue. The union stuff. The read through, etc. I thought Michelle Williams did a marvelous job of Marilyn. She made me forget that Marilyn Monroe really doesn't look anything like Michelle Williams, which I think is pretty impressive feat. This also made me appreciated Marilyn Monroe's artistry. Even though I always admired her, I think I will respect her more now. I wish people could have helped her. I wish that people could learn from all the artists who have died before them. When are we going to be able to stop them from hurting themselves? Or is that what keeps us interested? It's quite unnerving.

Hunger, we were asked to watch this film for A Ballad With Reading Gaol and it was very helpful because it led me to Bobby Sands and his diary entries and poetry. Since Oscar Wilde was an Irishman who suffered in jail, the connection was powerful. The film was excellently shot. The conditions these prisoners put themselves in to try to acheive their political goals were grotesque. I don't know how they did it. There is a scene where a man cleans up the piss that the prisoners have leaked out into the hallway and he sweeps it forward and back into some of their cells. It is interesting how a simple task can be so compelling to watch. This wasn't my first introduction to Michael Fassbender, but I am glad I got to see him like this. I love the scene of Bobby Sands with the Priest. I was so impressed that it was all just one take. I can imagine that trying to do one take really raises the stakes in ones performance, brings it to the intense level of theatre. I found it interesting that I only shed one tear as he shed one tear at the end of the film. The look he gives, the exhalation of breath, is a great example of the importance of intention with breath.

Shine, we had to watch the first 10 minutes of this movie over again because you need to be in a completely silent environment if you don't want to miss the babbling of Geoffrey Rush, who is somehow articulate amongst all that incessant babbling, but only if your mind and environment is quiet. I'd like to see the real David Helfgott perform. He is coming to QPAC this year. This is a very inspiring story, but it is a shame to see so much controversy surrounding Helfgott and his wife.

J. Edgar, another movie I should have supported at the box office! I really enjoyed this film. I was also impressed to see Chuck Bass himself in the film, though he was actually very good. I wanted more from Armie Hammer. I adored him in Social Network but he felt so squeaky and new next to a more grounded, experienced Leonardo DiCaprio. What does Leonardo DiCaprio have to do to win some gold? I hope he doesn't lose heart. Maybe it'll be Gatsby that gets him something.

Dancer in the Dark, finally worked up the courage to watch this film. We were recommended to watch it by our acting teachers at school to help us try to understand the emotional depths we'd have to seek for our performance assessment. Oh! It was painful. It was so strange. I can't say I actually liked it at all. The plot was predictable and therefore you just knew, especially if you know Lars von Trier's films, that shit is going to go down and the main character will suffer horrible wrongs. Even though I didn't like the songs, I did like Bjork's joy while singing them and I liked that they helped take me out of the emotion of the story. Musicals always seem to serve two purposes, to quiet your mind a little while the plot somehow moves along or to really heighten a point or dramatic/romantic/comedic moment that really does move the story along, if not just intensifies the moment, and you are moved. This movie, the songs, they helped quiet my mind. They helped me take a breath and stop getting caught up in it's horror. Especially at the end. I cried and cried and the she sung and I stopped, and then she stopped and I started. One would say possibly that it was a "Brechtian" technique. My boyfriend says that that's just an excuse people use when its just really bad.

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Kate and Leopold, I made David watch this. Muahahaha. I love this film. It's so silly. I think I just like the etiquette of that time, even though the time period is totally impractical for an independent woman like Kate McKay. It's just such an impossible situation but hey, now I know who Bradley Whitford is, and that made it all the more enjoyable to watch.

Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy, we saw this at the cinema. It was brilliant. I didn't catch every thing at first, David had to help explain some parts to me at the end. It was quite heartbreaking wasn't it? And I was surprised at how attractive Mark Strong was. I had always imagined him as a really short, mean man, simply because of his character in Kick Ass (even though there's nothing about that film that indicates that he is short, I must have just made the evil parts about him less powerful by imagining as short (which, apologies to short people, must seem to mean less power... but we all know that isn't true, right Game of Thrones fans?).

Requiem for a Dream, I finally saw this and wow. I now understand why every one often discusses it or mentions it with awe. I was watching this film for Ellen Burstyn's performance, which was remarkable, of course, now I understand. My favourite moment has to be the end, (possible spoiler alert?) showing what each person has lost due to drugs - I don't believe this gives anything away.

Paul, I felt guilty for not seeing this in cinemas when it came out, but after watching the DVD, I don't feel so bad. I enjoyed it, but it didn't fascinate me. I felt like the aliens lack of energy or enthusiasm for a great part of the film made the story lag.

Rango, I wish I had seen this at the cinema and given it some box office money. It was so good! It was probably one of the best animations I have seen since some of the groundbreaking Pixar films. The quality of the animations as superb, the story was interesting and it was incredibly funny and I loved how Gore Verbinski directed it. I would love to be a part of something like that!

The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo (US), after we had watched the original trilogy, we wanted to see what this would be like. I think we saw it at the cinema. I don't know why we did that if we did. I loved the opening credits they were very nice. I thought that some of the original drama was missing from this version. It may be more true to the book, I don't know, but I thought the opening of the package of the framed pressed flower and the reveal of his collection and the exploding car were all less dramatic (and therefore, in my opinion, less interesting) than in the film. I did like the scene with Stellan Skarsgård though. The film brought up a fabulous point about how people know they are in trouble and yet they don't take their gut instincts advice. I loved that.

Source Code, "I can't remember what Source Code was about..." "Source Code? That's the shit Jake Gyllenhaal one." I still don't remember. I can see Gyllenhaal's face, but I can't hear what he's saying. I like Gyllenhaal anyway.

Bra Boys, I think it's important to watch this film if you want to understand the people who were at one point blamed for instigating the Cronulla riots.

Elizabeth, I watched this with someone who hadn't seen the whole film. It was fun to revisit because I had forgotten a lot of the story and we also got to enjoy Eric Cantona, who I wouldn't have enjoyed before seeing Looking for Eric.

The West Wing S5, things are getting more interesting, but I really feel like S3, 4 and 5 are not as stimulating or as enjoyable as S1, 2 and 6, 7. I felt like the small jewels of humour had been lost.

The Girl Who Kicked The Hornets Nest, I really disliked her brother, not just because he was a monster, but his whole character in general or maybe it was the performance of the actor. It felt appropriate but at the same time it was incredibly frustrating to watch, and I was disappointed that the climax of the film was between the siblings.

The Girl Who Played With Fire, sort of like Star Wars Episode 5.

127 Hours, we both found ourselves very emotional while watching this film. It's incredibly humbling and inspiring. To know what we are capable of but to also face the sad fact that most of us would not be able to do what he did. Films that place the importance on life are so important for us to watch, the next moments after the film have ended feel so fresh and alive and you just want to hold on to it for as long as you possibly can, and not get lost in the crowd.

The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo, we wanted to watch the original films before seeing the US version. It's almost like we wanted to pay our respects, and I'm so glad we did. This film is so complicated and so thrilling.

The Jane Austen Book Club, I've always wanted to watch this film ever since I saw it's trailer on another silly rom-com film. This film is one of those touching but funny films that you want to pick up an hug. It's not perfect, but neither are your best friends. What I'll remember about this film and the next four films I watched was where I was and who I was with. I was so happy, so relaxed. Life was a perfect dream.