"When a girl gets jealous, it's normal but when a guy gets jealous, lucky the girl he loves".

- Debbie Nicholson.

We just had a fight last night because he saw my pictures together with my best boy friend. Apparently, he's drunk that time so he has all the guts to tell me everything what he really feels. I told him not to be sweet with his best girl friend anymore. He instantly said yes because he doesn't want me to feel hurt. And here I was, my conscience's been telling me that I am really unfair. Yeah, my best friend and I were really sweet with each other but we don't go beyond than that. We've been together for 3years already and the sweet things we do for each other aren't supposed to be dealt with. I don't have any romance feelings for him. Neither him. But of all my explanations, real bf's still hurt. All I can say is sorry. I know how it feels for him but I don't want to choose between them. I do love them both but on different meaning.

Referring to the quote above, basically, I AM LUCKY. Hahahaha. Yeah, he got angry with me but on a brighter side, I suddenly feel that warm fuzzy feeling inside my stomach. I feel it and I know it, that someone really loves me. More than I have expected.

I know everything may sound cheesy but who cares? I love that guy. :)

PS: I miss you blogger. Blame it on Tumblr. Plus, I've been very busy these past few weeks. I promise to post random stuff again sooner even if it may look nonsense to you.

I've missed this sudden happiness for almost 3 years. Yeah. I'm happy as always but this feeling that you're giving me right now is totally indescribable. :)

I don't know why I love you. Hence, I do really know. I feel it. I do acknowledge that the feeling of being in love is real. I love everything you say about me. What you're doing just to make me happy. I know you've changed for the better because of me. Just like what you've said. And I believed you. I love the fact when you get jealous with my best boy friend. Whenever you say you miss me so much, I am missing you more. I love you but I know my limitations.

Thank you because I am experiencing this feeling once again. I'm HAPPIER now. And that's all because of YOU. ♥

Life sucks when people whom you expect to support you now accused you such things you weren't able to do.

I just hate it. They don't know me much - yet. And then one day, they left me rude messages instantly without asking me first what's going on. I hate people who feels superior. And that is exactly they are. I mean they are much older than me but that does not necessarily mean that they should make me down. I do respect them but I am just so disappointed and offended the way they talked me back even if it's not in person.

It is just so weird that the people I wasn't expecting to support me are the ones who were there for me. I love them. Really. Despite the fact that they didn't finish a much higher educational standard, they are very open-minded on sort of things. For real, I think they are smarter than you guys.

You want to hear my part but as I've said it, you didn't believe me. And that was very offending. I'm not doing anything that is BEYOND the limits. We're doing this on purpose. I'm not hoping for you to read this. I just want to open-up my feelings. I don't think we can be closer by any chance. I just don't like you anymore. But the respect is still here.

These are proofs how did I celebrate my 19th birthday with my Awesome Barkada. I had FUN. As always. If only I could wish that yesterday's bonding won't end. That the time would stop but of course that was impossible. Being with them feels like we're the only people living in this world. ♥

Their very touching gift! Very simple yet I felt overwhelmed because of their messages. I knew it that they were going to give me a gift though they're teasing that they didn't bought one. Apparently, they've come up with this much effort gift. I cried. Really. I am that person who appreciates even littlest things particularly when they put much effort on it. I appreciate it more instead of giving me things they've just bought instantly. This just made my birthday complete. I wish that we're still together-forever. ♥

BONUS: Yonel's surprise gift for me! Yay! Haha! Actually, I've been thinking if he has a gift for me but I wasn't expecting of course. I would be disappointed and get hurt If I'd expect right? Anyway, when we were on our ride home. It pops-out in my mind that maybe he left it in my bag without knowing myself. So I checked my bag with him in front. He's texting but I'm sure he sees me checking out my bag. Apparently, I didn't see one. And then, I went home, taking out my things and to my surprised I saw these wrapped in a gift wrapper with ribbon and card. And that was sweet! I love it. It is so cute. I swear, he's really the best guy friend I've ever had. ♥

I'm 19! Haha. I wish and I hope that we will be spending my next year's birthday with you again guys. Together. And counting. :)

"I don't want an Edward and Bella love. I don't want a Rose and Jack love. I don't want a Noah and Allie love. I don't want a Landon and Jamie love. All of those have already been planned. I want a kind of love where you don't know what's going to happen. Where every moment is special, unpredictable, breathtaking, and unforgettable. I just basically want someone to hold me forever. I want to meet a guy that when their arms are around me, it feels like I’m bulletproof. Safe forever. And whenever they talk to me, I get the goosebumps and butterflies. A boy who tries to impress me, but doesn’t need to. A boy that I need to breath. A boy that will tell me the truth no matter what, even if it will kill me. A boy who wont lie. A boy who KNOWS he loves me, doesn’t THINK. And knows that when I say ‘i love you’ I mean it. Don’t doubt me. And love me, and only me. A boy who knows what they want. And no, I’m not asking for perfection I’m asking for true love."

I just turned 19 4 days ago! I feel old. A bit. The night before, I waited for 12 midnight. Waiting for any of my friends who can actually remember my birthday. Few of my friends made an effort and also waited for 12 midnight. And I appreciate that. I've always do that to someone I like to put an effort to.

My day seems to be ordinary as I woke up. Just like how I spend my everyday vacation here at home. I woke up at around 10am and I instantly grabbed my phone to see if there are any messages. Luckily, there are. :)

And then I woke up, fix my bed, brushed my teeth, washed my face, watched Showtime then waited for my Mom to come home. I didn't ask Mom for a celebration here at home so I didn't invite any of my friends. But my Mom went home from her grocery shopping telling me that she'll cook today. I said okay. Time flies as I do the typical things I often do at home. At 6pm, I went to church. And something unexpected happened. And I cried. I don't want to elaborate more here. I just want to keep it to myself. Haha! Then I felt that it's really my birthday that night. I invited few of my friends here at home. My favorite guy also visited me and will spend 3 days vacation with me. That made me happy. :)

I made my wishes at church. I've got 4 wishes and I'm not sure if that was okay. Haha! I didn't ask for any material things. I made my wishes for my family and friends. Then I spent the night with HIM after the celebration. I really missed you. ♥

It's surprisingly seeing that a lot of people whom I knew personally remember my birthday or at least they've see the update in my Facebook account that it's my birthday today. Some are unexpected; Some I do expect to greet me. My old high school friends from Marikina and here in Cavite, my churchmates, my crush, my love, Mom's friends, former college blockmates, new college classmates, Kipipays, relatives from the mother's side and of course my Family. ♥

I can't thank you guys enough for it. Just a simple greeting really made me smile. You know who you are as you read this blog. THANK YOU. :)

PS: I forgot to take pictures. :o

Today's already April 25. I just saved the draft last Wednesday so this post will be exactly April 21. >:)

And so I got bored here at home that is why I'll answer these top 3's random facts about myself. Okay. Go! :)

Three physical things you like about yourself:

1. Eyes

Oh Yes! I love my eyes. A lot of my friends say that whenever I smile, my eyes smiles too. I didn't notice that but well, thanks. I wish I still have 20-20 vision.

2. Hips

I have big hips but not that huge compared to my sister. Honestly, I don't see it for myself. My friends just told me. I'm thankful for it because it is an advantage when you give birth.

3. Legs

I like my legs. Wala lang. Probably because I can comfortably wear shorts even I go outdoors. :)

Three things that scare you:

1. Sadako

The first time I've watched The Ring, it really got me scared. I couldn't sleep for one night and I'm imagining that maybe Sadako will come out on the television once it was turned off. And swear, I haven't watched it twice. Her creepy face has this huge effect on me and still couldn't stand seeing her since I was 12 years old.

2. Serial Killing or Disgusting Movies

The kind of movie I couldn't stand watching. Examples of this are Wrong Turn, Saw, Jeepers Creepers, The Hills Have Eyes and a lot more. It's just like I couldn't stand the fact that those people are being killed exaggeratedly and it scares me out of hell. I prefer watching ghost movies or Jurassic Park instead of this one

3. Death of loved-ones

I accept the fact that I'll die someday but I don't think that I can if time comes that my loved-ones will leave me. I don't want to feel hurt. But we still don't know what will happen. Whatever happen, happens. Just accept it. :)

Three of your favourite bands or musical artists:

1. Taylor Swift ♥

I super love Taylor Swift. She's one of my girl crushes. I love her hair, her eyes and her unique voice. I have all her songs in my playlist. Look at THIS. :)

2. David Archuleta

One of the first International Artist I have heard singing live! (Plus David Cook :) He's so cute and he performs very well. I like his songs, too.

3. Rascal Flatts

Their songs are really nice even though I just knew some of them.

Three of your favorite songs (right now):

1. The Only Exception - Paramore

"And I'm on my way to believing."

2. Beautiful Eyes - Taylor Swift

"Your beautiful eyes stare right into my .... eyes."

3. To be with you - David Archuleta

"And when you're standing here in front of me. That's when I know that God does exist."

Three physical things about the preferred sex that appeal to you:

1. Eyes

2. His smile

3. My preferred hair

Looks is satisfying but still, the attitude is the most important. A guy who respects me and gives me surreal feelings when I'm with him is what I preferred the most. :)

Three careers you’re considering/ you’ve considered:

1. Doctor

I do really want to be a doctor but that's very impossible because I am afraid of bloods and syringe. And this career urges me to dream more since I started watching Grey's Anatomy.

2. Chef

I love watching cooking shows plus my Dad's a Chef. But then, I don't know how to cook.

3. Model

I'm lame. Really. Haha. I mean, I don't have enough confidence to walk along the aisle. I just liked to experienced wearing one of a kind outfits. That's it. This is just a frustration. >:)

PS: These are impossible but Dreaming is possible. :D

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL (YOUR SEX):

1. I wear make-up, dresses and skirts.

I do make-ups but not that often. Just powder, lip gloss, mascara and sometimes blush-on. And right now, I have learned how to put liquid eyeliner. Another thing is, I don't like seeing other girls having thick make-ups even it's not appropriate to wear or it doesn't look good in her. About the dresses and skirts, yes, I have lots of dresses because it is a requirement for our church. It's pretty good actually. :)

2. I have boobs and vajayjay. :p

I have boobs but not that huge enough. Haha. Of course I have vajayjay! (Courtesy of Bailey (Grey's Anatomy) :)

3. Cute boys fascinate me. :)

My head turns whenever I see a cute guy walking in front of me. I know the feeling of fuzzy feelings inside my stomach. I know the feeling of awkwardness whenever I see him walking right next to me. And I know how it feels like to be fascinated with a cute guy particularly with the one whom you get to now with personally.

You know the feeling when you feel so blessed because you feel that there are people whom you assure that gives happiness in you. We all have specific reasons why this person is our best or one of the best/s. I don't have only one person that seems to be the best-est of all. They've come with categories. :)

BEST GUY

Read THIS for you to find out why he is the best guy. Despite the fact that he's been in the States for 3 years, I can still feel his support, care and love for us and even though most of it was through chatting. He never forgets to be there as a Father even if it means texting me and my sister whenever we're out at home. He is an ideal guy and the best father, I swear. :)

BEST SISTER

She's my one and only sister but still, she's the best. We've fought for a couple of times, she's not afraid of me, she answers me back and she's lazy but that hasn't prevented us to be close and tell each others secrets. I love the fact whenever she listens to my nonsense stories and about a happy day with my friends. That is why she knew well my friends. I love when we laugh over small things and we both get irritated when Mom is mad. :D

BEST TITA

Too lazy to edit this photo, I'm sorry. Anyway, I think it's not that usual that most people have their favorite Tita or Tito. Well for me I have one. She's really cool that is why I love her. She laughs with me, she jokes around and buys me foods whenever we're together. When I was a kid, she always buys me and my sister some stuffs whenever we go to Malls. She carries me to different places. Since she have her son already, it didn't happen again. But it's okay , she's still the best.

BEST GAY FRIEND

We're best friends since I was 2nd year high school. He lives in Marikina. When we moved here in Cavite 5 years ago, I had to adjust in making new friends. Time comes and new friends came, and yet, he's still my best friend. Communication is really important. He visited me 2 years ago. Imagine, he traveled all the way from Marikina to here just to see me and stayed in our place for 3 days. I know we don't know each other's stories and our present lives but all I know is, whenever I need a friend, I'm sure you're just there. Nothing will change. :)PS: This photo was taken last April 2007. I hate the bangs, the hair and the pose. >:D

BEST GUY FRIEND

Read THIS for you to know the reasons why. He's not just any guy. He respects me and few of my girl friends. He gives advice and you feel his care about it. He makes me laugh most of the times and I enjoyed every single moment when I'm with him. And I will as time goes by. And the most important thing is, we trust each other. Love you Kups! :)

BEST GIRL FRIEND

(She's supposed to be here but things had been changed. There's no changing. I still treasure the happy mem'ries I've had with you. :D)Okay. I have lots of best girl friends but I think she's the best-est. I can tell her some of my problems. She's really really nice. I can comfortably go everywhere even though it is just the two of us. She's close to my Mom and I am close to her family which is why I'm thankful for. She's pretty, stunning, head-turner and looks sophisticated but what you see in her is not exactly the way she is which is in fact I love her the most. I have a lot of things to say about her but I'll save it because I'm gonna post about her soon. Loves you Kips. :)

BEST BARKADA

They're still the Best even though a lot have been changed. We're still happy or happier I must say. I don't even know why. Probably because we appreciate more each other, get to know more each other and we learned. They have provided me a new perspective for our friendship. We're getting used to it that we are now 6. Life goes on. It's very easy to say things but it's really hard to prove it. So I just have to try hard for you to know guys that I will cherish more this friendship. I love you, really, I do. Miss you Jim, Ope, Dhei, Yanyan and Yonel. You're still the best! ♥

*And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say That I had the Best Day with you today.--The Best Day: Taylor Swift. :)

6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.

7. Passing your final exams with good grades.

8. Being part of an interesting conversation.

9. Finding some money in some old pants.

10. Laughing at yourself.

11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.

12. Laughing without a reason.

13. "Accidentally" hearing someone say something good about you.

14. Watching the sunset.

15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life.

16. Receiving or giving your first kiss.

17. Feeling this movement in your body when seeing this "special" someone.

18. Having a great time with your friends.

19. Seeing the one you love happy.

20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume.

21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.

22. Hearing someone telling you "I LOVE YOU".

These are just some of the best-est moments in everyone's lives. As for myself I have always experience and cherish the moments I had with my family and friends. I'm good at remembering dates particularly if there is anything memorable happened. Happiness does not always comes from things you're getting. Real Happiness comes from the best people who loves you and who you loved.

The best moments in life are often the ones that "just happen". You don't have to plan for them. And you never know when they'll happen next. ♥

Shit. I should be sleeping right now and look at me. I am still wide awake. I have to get up at 6:30 later for my 8am Special Education Exam. What am I supposed to answer if Ill get sleepy as I answer those questions? And, I didn't review well my notes. I just read it. And here I am, posting nonsense stuffs.

Change topic. :)

I am not updating lately here in my Blogspot account because I don't have any idea what to post about and I've been very busy with school works for this month.

A lot of things I seem to have accomplished for the past three weeks - Psychological Reports, Projects, Play, Final Manuscripts and Group Defense. So far, it went well. I still have to take my two last exams for this semester. Then after that, I am now officially saying goodbye to my 3rd year life even though I am not yet ready to be a 4th year Psychology Student. /faceonpalms.

Goodbye 3rd year. I have experienced sleep and food deprivation. I feel tired and messed up but your a great experience to me. :)

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Clariselle is eighteen years old but a kid at heart. She is a Psychology Major, likes Music a lot, wants to have a Shih Tzu puppy, can't cook, contented with her family and friends, hates people who act as if they were perfect and a dreamer.
If you've been thinking what kind of girl she is, be surprised because what you see in her is not exactly the impression you've been thinking.
She observes people but does not stereotype them easily. Happy most of the times but filled with emotions and mood swings.