Penelope

During the fall of 1954 we did not meet due to Einsteins poor health.
He was told by his physician, Dr. Dean, not to see people and to reduce
much of his activity. Einstein also ceased going to the Institute. As
I heard later, at that time, in the late summer and the fall, his blood
condition deteriorated and could not but cause concern. The medical findings
were not known to the public, not even to acquaintances; in general there
was always a desire to keep personal matters out of the public view. Thus,
for instance, once during the period I describe in this book fire broke
out in Einsteins house, an old frame structure with a porch, staircase
and partitions, all well dried and a little rickety, which could easily
be enveloped by fire. It was a case of faulty wiring. When the flames
broke out, Einstein, the only man in the house, beat the fire out singlehandedly,
first closing the windows to cut off the fire from inflow of oxygen. By
the time the fire brigade arrived, the fire was already out. Such an event,
if known to newsmen, would certainly have made the front page; but it
was kept secret, and the fire department cooperated. The house was rewired.

The gravity of Einsteins sickness was an equally well-kept secret.
His mind was inquisitive, but he was deprived of exchange of thoughts.
Later I was told that he repeatedly asked to see me; Miss Dukas, however,
followed the doctors orders and kept Einstein in isolation from
all but his closest circle. To this circle belonged Gina Plungian, mentioned
on an earlier page, the ebullient, warm, outgoing admirer of Einstein,
who became like a member of his little household, almost like a fixture
in the house. For seven years she sculpted Einsteins head, sitting
as quietly as possible in his study while he worked, not saying a word
in order not to disturb his thoughts, though this must have been a great
privation to her, a great talker and an interested listener to the personal
matters of her acquaintances. Einstein and others of his household used
to call her, though not to her face, Penelope, because she used to spoil
the likeness she had already attained in clay, like the mythological figure
who used to unravel during the night the knitting she had done during
the day in order to prolong the processor did it only seem that
way? Whatever were Ginas abilitites as a sculptor, she tried not
to disturb, and all she asked was to sit quietly in some corner when Einstein
worked. Some time earlier she and her family had moved away to Chattanooga,
Tennessee, where her husband, a chemical engineer, obtained a position;
yet Gina managed to come back, by plane or by bus, once in a while, whether
the while was a month or a week. She would spend the night
at our place, and the day at Einsteins. During the fall of 1954
I asked her to carry a letter to Mercer Street and bring back a reply.
Giving her the letter to bring to Einstein, I added a little note for
her to read to him.

Knowing that he was still weak and not yet recovered from his severe
anemia, I felt that I had to add a human touch to my unbending stand in
the problem we discussed. The note read:

And he said, Let me go, for the day breaketh.
And he said, I will not let thee go, except thou bless me.

It is from the book of Genesis, from the story of Jacob wrestling with
the angel; Jacob rose that night, on his return to the land of his birth,
passed over the ford of the Yabbok, and was alone in the dark of the Canaanite
night; and there wrestled a man with him until the breaking of the
day. The angel did not prevail and asked that the struggle cease
(Let me go), which Jacob refused to do unless his adversary
would bless him.

That evening upon her return from Einstein and again at the breakfast
table the next morning Gina told us that when she gave my letter to Einstein
she, as instructed, read him from my slip of paper the passage that was
intended to mollify the impression my intransigence could create. Einstein
liked the passage very much. Of course he understood whom I likened to
Jacob and whom to the angel. In good humor he observed: But why
should an angel be fearful of the daybreak? What kind of an angel is it?
During the day he returned to that verse from Genesis more than once,
and at the dinner table he recounted it to Margot and Miss Dukas. But
when in the evening Gina was about to leavein the meantime he wrote
his answer to my letter all along the marginshe called her aside
and told her, in German as usual: Please, dont say to Velikovsky
that I remarked about the angel. Possibly Velikovsky is a religious man,
and this remark may hurt his feelings. Gina told me and I was not
hurt; just the contraryI thought that this was an example of how
Einstein was sensitive to the feelings of others. But it was still night,
and the struggle had to go on. I was not giving in; I was actually the
attacking partner of the debate; the case of the comet grazing the sun
was the square on the chessboard which I selected for the encounter decisive
for the campaign to follow.