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I clearly remember how I disliked my exchange term in France at one point of time so much so that I wrote down an essay about what exactly I felt at that time. But now, looking back, I feel it wasn’t worthy of dislike and that I would love to go back to that place. Probably this is what is wrong with human pyschology- remembering only the good things and comfortably ignoring the bad things.

Ever felt like going back to those points in your life which are not significant yet they provided you with stability and consistency in a routine?

Does that indicate that one is a ‘routine person’ and not the ever ready person who likes and welcomes changes in life rapidly? Well, corporations look for people who are adaptive to changes that may creep in the system and not the one who want to stick to a routine, coming across as a difficult barrier to cross.

So does that mean that people like me cannot be tolerated? LOL 😅 There’s one single thing that we do which clears us off those inflexibility charges- trying to find a routine in those short term consistencies. Which other choices are we left with, anyway ? 😁

Have you ever contemplated two opposite careers? I have always wanted to do something so that my work could positively affect as many people as possible, so much so that I considered activism as a career. Or any social work.

But as I grow older with each day, I realise the importance of being financially independent and thrifty (thanks, mom 😅). It begs my attention to a decently earning job which I considered to be a trap that wouldn’t let me think about the *socially conscious* job.

I feel the conflict of interest now, unable to decide on one thing. Clarity eludes me, as always 😞

I voice out my opion.
People are flabbergasted.
They cheer me up and sing praises.
I see that it’s a long day.
I look around to find something.
Something that can give me solace.
I see you and a glee on your face.
We hug each other.
The warmth in it, the solace I find
and my instinct that you feel the same
don’t let us part any time soon.
A feeling which you can experience
only in a dream like this.
I wake up from my slumber
only to realize that you are gone
and that I can never feel this
in reality, ever!
Oh! How I wish this
dream never came to an end!
And if only I could buy more time
to savour the moment and feel the bliss…

So, I think I now understand how foolish I can get and make people around me suffer for my foolishness. Not one, not two, not three- a total of four incidents, all in a night, showed how foolish I could get within a short span.

So, my first resolution the year- Stop being a fool, any time!

Realized another thing: If something bothers you, and if the person associated with it is reachable, please reach out to that person and tell them what bothers you! Relieves you, at least 🙂