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Which is kinda cool in an ogrish sort of way. My left hand is all swollen and cold and blue. It matches my bed spread.

Well at least the bits I haven't puked on.

The EM rash is back and the pain is pretty well unbearable. I can barely walk because my knees and hips feel like they are made of needles of fire. My mouth is full of oozing battery acid style blisters and my nose won't stop bleeding.

I would have a crap, but I dread to think what might result.

At this point in time I hate everyone. Especially WW's and Christians. I just need to vent. On a christian would be particularly satisfying. And here is as good as anywhere. Well it's not as good as some places, but it will do.

"...health will finally be seen not as a blessing to be wished for, but as a human right to be fought for." Kofi Annan

Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

Matty, having to clean up your own puke before getting back into bed is hardly comfortable. Go where they can take care of these things for you. Do as you're told young man! Damn-it! At least promise me you'll ring Jennifer.

"...health will finally be seen not as a blessing to be wished for, but as a human right to be fought for." Kofi Annan

Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

Listen up you A#&HOLE...venting is fine, but worrying the heck out of us is not. Your bleeding heart would be the first one in line to suggest treatment to someone else if the shoe was on the other foot. If you want to sleep in your own puke so be it...I want you to know it breaks our hearts to hear about it.

"Many people, especially in the gay community, turn to oral sex as a safer alternative in the age of AIDS. And with HIV rates rising, people need to remember that oral sex is safer sex. It's a reasonable alternative."

matty im new here but i concur with the others here,get to the fucking hospital,now you got me swearing,but its ok i like that word,im not so new i cant see you need to be pushed into the docs,sounde like your going through some bad shit now,why suffer if you dont have to?fuck the suffering,go to the doc and at least get something that may help you,now arent you glad you welcomed me here now?have you had meds changed recently?take care

Matty hon, I went to call you earlier as soon as I saw this, then suddenly realised it would be 4am your time, so I quickly closed my phone before it rang! (at least I hope I did! If I didnt, sorry if I woke you! ) That said, I will be calling you as soon as the hour is decent...I'm totally 'my own bed person' when I'm sick, I felt the same when I was in hosp with shingles, so I get how you feel on that score! However, I'm hoping that once you went to bed, if you woke up still feeling just as crap that you did the sensible thing and got your ass back to hospital. I know I know, nag nag!!! So bite me too! It's been a while since anyone nibbled on me...

Your Melia

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/\___/\ /\__/\(=' . '=) (=' . '=)(,,,_ ,,,)/ (,,,_ ,,,)/ Cats rule!

The difference between cats and dogs is that dogs come when called, whereas cats take a message and get back to you.

* wellington readies his cattle prod. Just put a nice little sign around your neck that offends everyone in the waiting room so they look after you quicker There may not be much they can do, as I'm sure many of us discover from time to time, but you always miss 100% of the shots you don't take dude. Going to bed is a bit denialist, yet immediatly comfortable. Give the hospital a go, purty please.

Fuck it all Matty. Cut the arm off, file down the rash, have a smoke and 3 drinks and flip the world the bird as you crash and burn! But please do it after you see the DOC!

Andrew <-- Who tried praying for you, but God sent me an email saying: "CUT it out!!!"

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LIFE is not a race to the grave with the intention of arriving safelyin a pretty and well-preserved body, but, rather to skid in broadside,thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming--WOW! WHAT ARIDE!!!

General consensus suggest you are much loved....Now take everybody's Fucking advice and get something done. Believe it or not...even I would miss your scrawny ass here onthe forum....and yeah I said a prayer for you...Now tell me to shut the fuck up and get on with it

Matty sends his apologies to everyone for the tone of this thread. (I'm sure what he means is: hes f**kin sorry for the f**kin tone of this f**kin thread!)

I just spoke with him (which was very nice indeed to finally put a voice to the potty mouth!). He's still in a lot of pain and very swollen. He has seen a doctor who, from what I understood, told him he just had another attack and he just has to sit it out with painkillers. Well, I'm sure he wont be sitting it out quietly...!

He's having trouble typing with banana fingers...said something last night about texting me with his left foot!So that's why you're getting this news from the monkey and not the organ grinder...

No doubt he and his left foot will be on here again in no time!

Incidently, the voice does not match the vicious character portrayed on here. Very gentle and sexy, aha aha! Yes Mattymoo, I'm OUTING you as a big soft pussycat!!!

Melia

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/\___/\ /\__/\(=' . '=) (=' . '=)(,,,_ ,,,)/ (,,,_ ,,,)/ Cats rule!

The difference between cats and dogs is that dogs come when called, whereas cats take a message and get back to you.

Pls go to the hospital where we know you're being taken care of. Yes yes I know plastic seats suck, the air smells funny, and there's lots of bad outfits, but we need ya here. There's only one MtD, we can't buy a new one you know.

Oh you poor thing! Have you started taking your meds yet or are you still being stubborn and heard headed? Are you drinking again, or is it still?

Yes, the hospital can be a pain but you can't catch a fish unless you put a hook in the water!

Kill yourself if you must, but I'll still be praying for you.

In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost, amen.

Bill

P.S. I have the speckled trout look because of the well known Sustiva rash. Maybe we could get together for a walk to the pub! You with your sizzling left side and blue puck splattered arm and me with my raised red welt/rash speckled trout look. What a pair we'd make!

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Damn the Torpedoes! Full speed ahead! Adm. D. Farragut.

Started Atripla 8/18/06 and if I eat the right food when I take my meds, I get to go on a-trip-la.

"...health will finally be seen not as a blessing to be wished for, but as a human right to be fought for." Kofi Annan

Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

hey Matty,I wish I'd known this earlier so I could have dragged your sorry arse out to our spiritual home, Leichhardt Oval, to puke on a few Rabbitoh bogans for me.You know the score - if you need a puke free bed, the company of a little itty bitty one, or just wanna get away studio 36 (aka HIV central) has a vacancy. you have my numberSteve

As my Spokesperson Melia mentioned, I did see a medico on Sunday and he confirmed what I already knew, that it was just a recurrent attack of EM. Recurrences are unusual but not unheard of and can produce nasty lesions and swollen joints and what not.

The symptoms are now pretty much in remission. The rash is fading (again) and my all my joints have returned to normal size. The lesions (yes even the ones in my little treasure) are almost gone. I can walk and type again.

Oh Happy Day!

I see Frau Eva tomorrow at 1500 hrs (that's 3 pm to those of you who had a state education) and I should know more then.

To anyone who was a bit freaked out by my original post, I apologise. Matty the Damned was just having a frustrated rant and no frustrated rant is complete without pouting, screaming and profanity. The swollen joints I can deal with. The rash, well these things happen. The puking and the bleeding nose, just one of the many things one has to put up with.

But I draw the line at lesions up my bum. That's just not cricket. I'm fairly mild mannered and calm sort of queen, but painful diseases of the butt-hole just will not be tolerated. I decided it was time to have a all singing, all dancing tantrum.

Sure it won't fix the problem, but chucking my teddy out of the cot made me feel a little bit better.

As for the christian thing, I can explain that too. After copping a so-called "fatwa" as a result of my David Hicks article on the Spin Cycle, I decided it was probably time to lay off the rug-kissers for a while and hop into the Jesus freaks.

They've been getting a bit uppity of late, and they're less likely to send me a semtex get well card through the mail.