No matter where you go, no matter the weather, always bring your own sunshine

Saturday, February 11, 2012

What is the point in pretending to like someone.. why the fuck would you waste your time, I say.. I wouldn't. So obviously I'm going to believe what I'm being told, while your holding my hand giving me eskimo kisses. Who does that if they don't love each other..? I'm seriously over dealing with relationship bs when there is no relationship. How stupidddddd. On the brightside, my room is so fucking awesome.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

or at least thats what they say. I want to be somebody, I do. Ideally, I'd like to be able to provide for a family sometime in the future, or at the very least, myself. That'd be awesome if only I could marry the perfect person, be a stay at home mom, and never work an extra day in my life, but I don't ever want to depend on a marriage, or any kind of man in my life, other than my Dad and even that's pushing forever. I like writing, and words, and books. Enough to be an english teacher, even, but what if I take all those classes and I hate it? Or what if I'm totally uninterested by the time I get a degree. My attention span is worse than a toddler at a movie theatre. I like everything, a little. Too much of something just seems to ruin it's beauty in time. I don't want to become a lazy teacher and I can't guarantee that one morning I won't wake up and just say, fuck being a teacher. Then what?

Friday, April 8, 2011

When you dropped every moral, every ounce of dignity, pride, and self respect to fill that hunger of selfishness, did you think any less of yourself? Cause I would've. When you used not only another human being, but your own body as an attempt to make him jealous, do you think it worked? I doubt it. When you you let his friend take you into his truck to do him a favor after treating you like you're a nobody at the party, did you feel even the least bit trashy? Cause you should have. When you stabbed your friend in the back, did you not feel remorseful enough the first time to keep you from doing it again? It's okay, you were never my friend. Friends don't invent a lie by pretending the truth never happened. "Three things cannot be hidden; The sun, the moon, and the truth."I prefer to surround myself with class, a lady, not a skank. Do you think it's cute that you put yourself out there like a dinner buffett? My goodness, just because there's more than enough of you to go around, doesn't mean you have to give every one a slice of pie. In this case mud pie, cause bitch frankly, you're dirty. When I hear your name I cringe at the thought of your existance, when I see your face, I clinch my fist into balls instinctively and I want to hurt you, but the bitterness will pass in time. One day I'll hear your name and laugh at your foolishness, I'll see your face and think pitty. I wish nothing but the best for you, at a distance. So if you like the life style you lead, keep on truckin, because of you, I'm only stronger, because of you, you're only weaker.