psychoblog: dealing with my issues part IV

i’m trying to work through my issues with rejection at the moment. two jobs that i’ve been working on just got rejected by a client – for ‘circumstantial reasons’. you know, client had nothing against the ideas, but the one was a mission to produce and the other one was ‘too clever for the target audience’. that’s like breaking up with someone and telling them ‘you’re too good for my love. you deserve someone better’.

Apparently writing poetry can help alleviate feelings of isolation and depression. Writing poetry can also make you seem quite deep and connected to the truth of the human condition, which will translate into a vague sense of authenticity when people talk to you, which they will trust. People will say things behind your back like, "I like that girl. She seems real."

now deep down i know that fear of rejection comes from low self esteem and feeling like i’m not worthy of love. does anyone know of any shortcuts / quick fixes to make yourself feel better about yourself?like get an art director to take pics of me and then photoshop them and upload them onto my Facebook so my frendz comment about how hot i am? or get a fish eye lens Lomo and take pics of myself and scan and upload them onto my Myspace so my frendz comment on how hot i am?maybe i should use my digicam to take pics of myself and upload them onto my Flickr so my frendz comment on how hot i am?

"OMG LOL I look so bad here, was having the WoRsT hair day evaaar! Plus I've put on sooo much weight you guys. Please promise me you WON'T let me eat any more KFC Twister's, OK??! OMG I feel so fat."

***does anyone know of any other quick fixes for self-esteem issues?*** i have heard drinking alcohol helps, as does having sex with strangers. the problem with alcohol is that what you drink makes such a big statement about who you are and i’m not sure i can make big decisions while i’m low like this. and i think sex with strangers would be really awkward without alcohol.

rejection hurts y’ulle. you don’t know what it’s like being judged on the physical appearance of your ideas everyday. copywriting seems so glamourous but it can seriously damage you if you don’t have a tough skin.

3 responses to “psychoblog: dealing with my issues part IV”

Having sex with someone you’ve had sex with before?
Developing a feeling of smug superiority that people are too dumb to get your incredible ideas?
Googling emo poetry and being glad that at least you’re not those guys?