Some of you may know that I made an attempt to send Hyde (via L'arc en ciel fanclub) a wonderful painting that my Dad made - sadly, they returned my package because all foreign fans are related to the unabomber I had thought of sending the painting to a friend in Japan & have them send it for me - but I never got around to it & I no longer belong to the Larc fanclub If anyone has any good ideas on how I could get this to Hyde, please let me know

I was tickled to read miya_fangirl's report on going to the 6/16 Vamps live in Sapporo - such a lucky gal, she always manages to get in the front row! ^-^ It was encouraging to read that there were a lot of fanboys in the audience - I'm not trying to be anti-feminist, but I think having an all girl fanbase kinda ruins a rock star's street cred, if ya know what I mean.

Thanks to 3 months on daily IV nutrition (1800 calories) I've hit the 110 lb mark. I feel pretty comfortable at this weight & don't really want to gain any more. If I go off of TPN, I don't think I'll be able to maintain a 1800 calorie a day intake - but we'll see. I've discovered that if I don't eat any food, I am relatively pain free ha! such a solution to my pain dilemmaI admit to relying on my TPN - I don't have much of an appetite, so it is easy for me to go without eating - but TPN is crazy expensive

I am going to a friend's wedding on Saturday, so I had to go out and buy a bra Lol! My chest & butt disappeared when I was at my sickest - and under 90 lbs. While my hernia sticks out farther than my boobs do, it was nice to find a bra. The woman measuring me said "Are you wearing a bra?"I replied no & she scowled and lectured me on the importance of wearing one.. Funny, when I was last in the hospital in the beginning of this month, the X-ray technician told me to take off my bra - when I told her I wasn't wearing one she was a bit startled & said "Good for you!" hahahah that tickled me for some reason.

Today I saw my hematologist & again the nurses commented on how tiny my arms are. My hemoglobin was 10.8 today - considering that I've had 4 treatments of IV iron (and normal hemoglobin levels are 12 and higher) that gives me an indication of how really anemic I must be. I had my first shot of aranesp today & I'm curious to see how if it makes a difference.

thanks! I think it may be harder to gain weight then to lose it - but perhaps that is subjective. I go to a nutrition center for people that have bariatric surgery (I have had similar surgery, but it wasn't for weight loss) & I always feel a bit out of place.

I'm crossing my fingers about your health status like always... Feel hugged, ok? It's nice to read you gained weight and I bet the bra you got is a sexy one. ^_~ My best wishes for your friend! I hope you'll have much fun at the wedding!

Oh and yes, I agree: fangirls only can ruin the image of a rock star...

I FEEL THE SAME WAY ABOUT GIRLS AND HYDE-ROCKDOM! I am a fangirl which I can't help, but I LOVE seeing when guys love VAMPS/L'Arc~en~Ciel too because in a way it kind of solidifies the fact that the music is good and not just the looks. A lot of people get into hyde because he's "GORGEOUS! I LOVE HIM BECAUSE HE'S LIKE AN ANGEL FROM HEAVEN! HE'S PERFECT!" and blah blah blah. We heard of them all and probably made those comments too. However, when a guy is like "I like their music," it's like "seriously, there music is appreciated by everyone is genuinely good!" ^_^

I am soooo happy that you are doing better! *HUGS* I will hug you all you want! <3