Ok, this is Menu for my Dh’s Birthday. But I know some of the items are subject to change. If weather is rainy- grilling is out of question and I have to come up with roasted fish or chicken.Also, I will play around with apetizers and see what I come up with.

So , if you guys have nothing to do on April 1st, come celebrate April Fools day with us. ( well, march 31st is my Dh’s 40th Birhtday, but we are having a party on April 1st. around 6 pm. :)>):)

CryJames BluntI have seen peace. I have seen pain,Resting on the shoulders of your name.Do you see the truth through all their lies?Do you see the world through troubled eyes?And if you want to talk about it anymore,Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,I’m a friend.I have seen birth. I have seen death.Lived to see a lover’s final breath.Do you see my guilt? Should I feel fright?Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?

And if you want to talk about it once again,On you I depend. I’ll cry on your shoulder.You’re a friend.You and I have lived through many things.I’ll hold on to your heart.I wouldn’t cry for anything,But don’t go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.Seen the look of anger on your face.And if you want to talk about what will be,Come and sit with me,and cry on my shoulder,I’m a friend.And if you want to talk about it anymore,Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,I’m a friend.

Today started out really nice. We woke up 8.30 and had pancake breakfast, even Gabriel ate them.lol Then 3 of us played , cleaned garage and around 4 pm we went to Borders book store. Now it is 9 pm and my head is about to explode. I have horrible headache and my eyes are swollen red. I am starting to think that there are some spring allergies that make me feel like this . Seriously…. And then I had headed argument with Nick over the phone… same old, same old. I am sick and tired and he is working his ass off and does not understand why I am sick and tired if I do not have to work. He even dared to compare me with ” chinese” females whose husbands are away 6 months at a time and they manage to stay stress free. FUCk the other people. What the heck do I and other people have in common? We are human? That is about it. Cheesh.. what is with him. Find yourself some chinese chick who can cook , clean and stay happy 24/7 with 2 kids. I am not “that ” kind of girl.

Srry. I really needed to went. I am sure I regret tomorrow that I even mentioned it, but I really have to let some steam out….

Well, it is friday. Gabriels shool had Parent(s) night out. Yeah, wohoo, awsome, great, I was so freekin’ exited. ( whatever). So I dropped Regina and Gabriel to Tutor Time and I went to see 16 Blocks( Bruce willis). No regrets , awsome movie. I just hated that one bad guy who finally did a good thing in a bad way got away….. Happy hollywood ending….So , about 40 minutes into movie I got a phone call from my doctor ( it was 8.45 pm) about my labs. Luckily I do not carry arthiritus gene but he told me to come back to office sometimes next week to run more tests to find the reason of my pains.Today new kind of pain appeared. I but on my favorite pair of boots with midium size heals. At first everything was fine, but when I was walking from my car to movie theater both of my feet started hurting to the point I was in tears. Month ago I did not have that pain. Seems like my bones have started drifting to some different direction. 😦Ugh, I want nick to come back and find a good job in US. ( at least 150 000 dollars per year lol) and good health insurance …

Ok. I have to give Regina meds now. She is still coughing ( she started in January) and nothing makes her cough go away. she also has Laryngitis .

So far these are all of my symptoms.Joint painsFluid filled systs ( ganglion cysts)Bladder DysfunctionBowel Dysfunctionproblems with memoryattention,DizzinessDepression Fatigue Balance or Coordination Problems

I need to get out of this house. Outside is most wonderful spring weather and all I do is sit inside. But I am to lazy, I am to tired, I am so sick , I am so busy. I have way to many excused not to go out. But the most accurate one is I am lazy and I have pink eye and my eyes are very sensitive to light right now.

Nick comes home next week. Wohoo. At least I get few “easyer day”, because I NEED THEm. I am so burned out.

Today started out not very good. After I woke up I did my streching routine, but I overdid it , I heard a ” CRACK” and my back awas locked. I was not able to move. At least kids were sleeping so I had some time to get myself together and but on a smily face. lol I made appointment to see my favorite chiro Dr Ray from PodyPro! and after few “CRACKs” I feel 50 % better. But that is not it.

Few days ago my eyes started hurting and looked puffy. People asked if I was crying or tyred or sick, because my face looked horrible. 😦 So I went to see doctor for that. And guess what, I have conjunctivitis (pink eye). I got eyedrops for that and I feel much better now. 🙂 I also asked from my doctor why my pains ( bone, joints) are getting worse, not better. He drew some blood to test for artiritus( sp), if tests come back fine, then they will let me know whats the next step will be. Until then I just have to take Celebrex, and since my insurance does not cover it , I have to pay in full ( 107 dollars- monthly dose- I think). Anyway, I am just getting tired of being in pain. I am used to pain, but I have to give up a lot because of pain. There are things I want to do but I can not . I want to get down on floor and play with kids, but it is really hard for me to get down on all four, and play pony rides with them, I want to carry them around them sitting on my sholders- I can’t. I am 27 going on 70. 😦 I want my health back. I want my life back.