Man I hope Inuyasha doesn't seem OOC in this. You'll see why
when you get to that part and if he does seem OOC, sorry. I wrote it out that
way because I felt that if that actually happened then Inuyasha would seem that
way. This will make sense when you finish reading.

Well, all I can say is sorry for not updating LoaS sooner.
Once school ended that was the end of me getting free internet from school for
3 months until it started again. I have, however, been working on the fic and
many other ones (some new, some not) and they should be out soon. Currently I'm
working on I think 6 at once and two of them won't be out until I completely
finish them or get close to it. I at least want them planned out in an outline
before I can send out chapter one. Of course I don't want to send chapter one
before knowing that it won't take me forever to update it so wait for those two
really cool fics once I'm done with them. I'll send previews of them when I get
close to their completion.

Either way, I hope you like this one shot and please review
it. I somewhat like how I wrote it out. The next chapter of Brotherly Love,
LoaS, and Another Chance (mostly LoaS) will be out soon.

~*~Letter-From the Lost Days~*~

By Inuyasha-loves-Kagome

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha or the song "Letter-From
the Lost Days". Rumiko Takahashi owns Inuyasha and the song is from Silent Hill
3 (track 12 on the CD that comes with the game. A nice song).

~*~^_^~*~

No sé de cómo describir

Ese el vacío que hay en mi,

Una voz... inspiración

Que me hace soñar.

Vuelvo a escuchar dentro de mí

Ese deseo de sentir,

Un amor que le de vida

A mi palpitar.

(I don't
know about how to describe it

That
emptiness that's in me

A
voice...inspiration

That
makes me dream

Again I
hear in me

That
desire to feel

A love
that gives life

To my
heartbeat)

--"Inspiración
(Inspiration)" Benny

Fukai fukai mori no oku ni ima mo kitto

Okizari ni shita kokoro kakushite'ru yo

(I'm sure that the heart I left behind

Still lies hidden in the heart of the deep,
deep forest.)

--"Fukai
Mori (Deep Forest)"
Do As Infinity

~*~^_^~*~

~*~A letter to my
future self

Am I still happy and
again?

Have I grown real
pretty?

Is daddy still a good
man?

Am I still friends
with Carlene?

I'm sure that I'm
still laughing

And I…And I…~*~

There was
so much dust. She could make a dustman with how much there was all over the
place. Barely any light either. Better for her since she didn't want to see how
many cobwebs were up here. All the spiders that escaped from her probably sent
out warning messages to the other spiders to beware of her. Then they packed up
everything and moved into the attic to be away from her. Yeah, she was sure
since after a while spiders stopped appearing around the house.

Grasping
one dusty box in her hands, she carefully pulled it off from the giant stack it
was on and moved it towards her so she could read what it said. In big, bold
letters, written in her old handwriting from when she was younger, it read
"Kagome's old clothes." That was a good one. She could sell what didn't fit her
anymore or was old fashioned. She wanted more space up there so she could build
herself a nice little room to escape into whenever she could. It was the only
place he didn't know about. When the house was purchased, she had gone
exploring only out of curiosity back then. It had been when he told her to look
at the house and see how she could fix it up so it would be a suitable place for
the both of them to live in. At first the attic had been something she wanted
to keep a secret so that one day she could fix it up and make it into a nice
little room for the both of them and surprise him with it.

But then he
began to show his true colors and all those thoughts altered.

At first it
had been an argument because she had gone out with her friends for some fun. He
yelled at her and told her she wasn't allowed out of the house without his
permission. Now, she was strong willed but even she quieted down when he had yelled at her like that. It was like
he were a stranger, even though they had been married for a few weeks and gone
out on dates for longer than that.

After that
she didn't bother to go out without asking first (only when he was around).
Whenever he was not at home and she knew he would be gone for hours she snuck
out and made sure to come back before he did. He caught her a few times and she
was paid with a bloody noise and sometimes even red handprints on her face. She
knew she should have told her family or even reported him but in her mind he
was a nice man. She knew he never meant it. Right after hitting her she saw how
his face dawned, almost as if in revelation of what he'd done. He apologized
and took her out for some fun, just the two of them. After that all thoughts of
reporting him disappeared from her mind.

Setting the
box aside, she made to reach for another one. There were just so many. She
would need to make sure to do this yard sale when he wasn't there. If he saw
everything he would ask where it had come from and then he would demand it. Her
safe little room would be revealed and she would loose it forever…among other
things.

The next
box she pulled out surprised her and caused her to let it fall. The heaviness
of the box caused it to teeter on one of the edges for a millisecond before
falling over on its side completely, all the things inside spilling out. She
had forgotten about that box. In truth, she never knew WHY she had kept it. Perhaps it was a way to hold onto the past for
a little while whenever she thought she needed to be reminded of it.

Gingerly
she crept closer to the spilled contents and looked through them. Almost
everything from those happy times was there: her old school uniform, one of
Shippou's leaves, one of Sango's hair ties, one of Miroku's ofuda's, and…

…a letter?
From whom?

Carefully
she took it as it had yellowed with age and was delicate to handle. It must
have been written 10 years ago or so. She opened it delicately and began to
read…

~*~Hey there to my
future self

If you forget how to
smile

I have this to tell
you

Remember it once in a
while

Ten years ago your
past self

Prayed for your
happiness

Please don't...loose
hope~*~

Dear future self,

Hey! Okay, this may be
a little dumb to be writing a letter to my future self but my friends were all
telling me that it didn't hurt to write it. They said it was like writing a one
entry diary but rather than record my current thoughts I decided to ask
questions from my future self. I thought it wouldn't hurt to try. Okay, maybe I
should check my sanity with mom or something…

But just to humor myself and maybe
my "future self", how's life there in the future? There are many things I'm
dying to know about (you know, what happens to me in the future). Were you
brave enough to reveal your feelings to Inuyasha? Did he confess back? Are the
two of you right now snuggling together and reading this? Is it really possible
for it to happen or am I just writing down my own wishes down in this letter?
Maybe Inuyasha never forgot about Kikyou. Or maybe the two of you could never
be together because you were both from different times. It's something that
right now is making me cry because I don't want it to happen, but if it did and
there was no of getting around it, then I guess all I can say is I'm sorry.
Maybe Inuyasha was never for you (or me for that matter).

I can see how this sort of thing can
make you cry and yet hopeful. My friends gave me the warning after telling me
how fun it was to image. I guess I can write for you is this: I hope that when
you read this, all the things you wished for came true. Are you really happy? Right
now, as I am, I know I'll never get an answer, but at least I will know once it
happens. It's just that to get there I may have to go through a lot. But I know
it will all be worth it in the end. So never give up okay? If things are bad
now, know that they can always get worse, but you will need to avoid that. If
things are bad, do something about it to make it good. Don't settle for bad.
With or without Inuyasha there with you, you must go on and live life to the
fullest. And don't take that as a dumb quote from an old game. I'm being
serious here.

Listen to me, arguing with someone
who is me in the future. I think I really need to check my sanity.

Well, I should go. I wanted to write
this letter before going back with Inuyasha and the others. I know he'll be mad
at how long I took. Enjoy the time you have while you have it. It won't be
there forever.

See ya future self. I sincerely hope
everything worked out. I guess I'll find out (and have to go through a lot
before I can).

All
my love,

Kagome
Higurashi

~*~Oh, it would pain
me and you

Would heal to feel joy
and be blue

Sad times and bad
times see them through

Soon we will know if
it's for real

What we...both feel~*~

She
remembered that day, the day she wrote that letter. It had been ten years since
then. With a little chuckle as tears rolled down her cheeks, she remembered how
Inuyasha had been mad because she
took so long. He had yelled at her and she had yelled back while at the same
time thinking about the letter and how she seriously wanted to rethink the part
about being happy with Inuyasha by her side. She had really meant it then
because it was a thought born from anger. Now she wished she could have just
frozen that small time in her life when she was truly happy and lived there
forever. She would never have to think about the future or her past.

After their
yelling she had gone off in a huff to Kaede's house in order to visit her,
Sango, Miroku, and Kirara, all the while holding Shippou in her arms and having
one very angry hanyou following her with his head stubbornly looking off
towards the forest. It had been only a couple of weeks before then that they
had beaten Naraku and laid Kikyou to rest at last. Inuyasha had been in bad
shape for a while and Kagome had refused to leave his side until he was out of
danger.

Once he was
she had taken his inability to move to her advantage. While asleep she had
snuck back home in order to give the wonderful news to her family. After that
she had stayed in her time for a while in order to continue school while
Inuyasha recovered and that was when they had told her about the letter.

Once
arriving at Kaede's though, knowing it was the moment of truth for her and the
jewel, they had all sat around in a circle and Kaede softly told Kagome to
place the jewel in the middle of the circle. Once placed, all eyes turned to
Inuyasha for his decision. One of the main reasons they had been collecting the
jewel was not only to keep it away from evil youkai who would use it for evil
purposes but also because Inuyasha wanted it in order to become a full youkai. They
held their breath, all waiting for his decision, even when Miroku and Sango
knew he had made up his mind a long time ago during their journey.

Slowly and
also gingerly, Inuyasha had plucked the jewel from its spot in the middle of
the circle, bringing it up to eye level to analyze it carefully as his face
screwed into that of a thoughtful stare.

Everyone
waited and watched, wanting to see what he would do with it. As Kagome watched
him, she could see the internal struggle through his eyes. He no longer knew
what to do with the jewel.

Then,
quickly and without doubt, he stood, walked over to Kagome sat almost across
from him, and shoved the jewel in her hand. And yet as she looked at him in
shock and puzzlement, all she could hear were his words, which still echoed
throughout her thoughts to this day.

"Take it
back to your time and keep it safe."

Before she
could get angry, let alone yell at him for the suggestion, he had silenced her
by putting one hand up and silencing anyone who would speak. A deep rumble
vibrated through his mighty chest as he spoke low and calm.

"My reason
is because it'll be safer there than here and at least Kagome can still go
through the well whenever she wants to." He held up his hand again when they
looked ready to protest. He looked at Kaede, a serious tone in his eyes. "You
can make a necklace for her like mine, can't you baba?"

All hell
had broken loose with that one sentence.

"Inuyasha,
if you think I'm going to get a subduing spell like you…!!"

"Inuyasha,
surely you cannot mean to…?!"

"Inuyasha,
would you really subject Kagome-sama to having her own spell…?"

"Inuyasha,
you're gonna get it!"

"Inuyasha,
Kagome-chan can't have her own subduing spell!! She isn't a youkai…!!"

"SHUT
UP!!!!" Inuyasha roared. Everyone stopped their arguments, all of which were
directed at him, and looked at him with eyes wide open. All calmness had been
drained from Inuyasha. "Will you all fucking let me explain before you judge my
decision?!" Once he knew he had their full attention again, he continued. "What
I mean is that baba can make the necklace for Kagome in order to bind her to
the Shikon no Tama that way she doesn't have to be fucking bringing it back and
forth! I'm connected to Kagome, and thus connected to the Shikon no Tama since
it is connected to Kagome and that's why I'm the only one other than Kagome who
can travel through the well. So if she gets a necklace, without the subduing
part of the spell, then she can go back and forth as she pleases without
putting the jewel in danger."

Inuyasha
seemed to be smarter than anyone gave him credit for, although if they had
actually said that, they would have been chased and beaten to a pulp. He looked
back at Kaede. "So can you do it baba?"

Kaede
nodded slowly, almost afraid of the hanyou in front of her. "I can, yes, but
Inuyasha…"

"No buts
baba! If you can do it, then do it!"

Kagome saw
as Kaede grew her spine back as she firmly looked at Inuyasha, however, speaking
to everyone else in the room. "Will you all please leave me alone with
Inuyasha?"

Everyone,
especially Inuyasha, had been surprised at the request, yet none of them argued
and left them to be alone and talk. Kagome had not liked the way Kaede had been
looking at Inuyasha, almost as if she were going to scold him ten times worse
than any mother scolded a son. She held Shippou close to her, hoping her
feelings were lying to her.

~*~

While Kaede
and Inuyasha talked, Miroku had gone to woo the girls again, causing Sango to
bang him over the head with her boomerang. Kagome had decided to wait by the
well. She wasn't planning on going home. She just felt calmer there because it
was so peaceful and quiet (whenever Inuyasha wasn't there). It was the perfect
place for her to think.

As she
absentmindedly stroked Shippou and rocked him back and forth as he slept in her
arms, Kagome could help but still feel that what Kaede was going to tell
Inuyasha wasn't something she would like. She didn't know how else to explain
it but she just had a bad feeling. The only thing to confirm if her feelings
were right or not were with Inuyasha.

Almost as
if her thoughts (and perhaps wishes) had been answered, Inuyasha had come
speeding towards her in a speed that could only be described as 'lightning fast'.
In only a split second he had been from the edge of the horizon to right in
front of her, his breath coming out in pained gasps, his bangs hiding his eyes
from her view. Kagome felt her insides tighten and her mind whirl with all the
possible things he could say. "Inu…Inuyasha…?" she called out tentatively,
using her free hand to slowly reach out towards him, trying to move his bangs
away from over his eyes.

Kagome
recoiled her hand when he hissed almost as if in pain and drew his head away
from her reach. She could practically feel the tension in his muscles and even
see it if his clenched hands her any indication. "Inuyasha…what-what
happened…?" she called out again, trying to get an answer out of him.

In one
fluid motion Inuyasha plucked the sleeping Shippou from her arms, waking him in
the process, and sent him flying as far away from them as he could. Kagome
could only watch in open-mouthed horror. She couldn't even feel angry at him
for mistreating Shippou. Anything she said or did would only cause him to
explode and confirm the butterflies she felt in her stomach.

Inuyasha
rounded on her again, only that this time Kagome could see his eyes. She sucked
in a breath and held a hand to her mouth to try to calm herself.

Tears were
falling down his face like two rivers of sorrow.

The only
time Inuyasha had ever been close to shedding tears had been the time they had
almost died from the poison. Never in all the time she had known him had he
shed so many tears all at once. Whatever Kaede had told him had pained him
greatly.

Snarling,
sounding more like a defensive growl than an aggressive one, he reached out
with his right hand and gripped her left wrist tightly. She winced at the
pressure he put into the grip but kept her back straight.

Then, these
words echoing throughout her being even more than the previous ones had, he had
told her something that shattered her heart and spirit and caused the
depression she had suffered for years before entering college.

"I never
want to fucking see your damn face ever again! I hate you!"

Then he had
plucked his hand off her wrist and using both his hands, pushed her down the
well…

~*~ (Whispering)

Though I can't know
for sure

How things worked out
for us

No matter how hard it
gets

You have to realize

We weren't put on this
earth to suffer

And cry

We were made for being
happy

So, be happy...

For me

For you

Please...~*~

Tears were
falling down her face as she remembered that day. It had been a tortured memory
that she had tried to forget. Yet no matter how hard she tried, she never
forgot it. She had tried instead to keep her mind occupied with other things so
she wouldn't have to remember those words, words that still shook her soul and
resonated through her entire being.

To the day
she still wished she knew what Kaede had told him that could have caused such a
reaction out of him. If she had known then perhaps she wouldn't be where she
was, living the life she was living. She would
have gone back but he had pushed her when she didn't have the jewel with her or
even the necklace he had told Kaede to make.

Wiping away
the tears, she decided instead to get back to work. She wanted to be done
cleaning everything and making room before he got back.

~*~

Many hours
later, and only about an hour or so before her husband was due home from work,
Kagome was almost done cleaning when she heard a sound coming from the room she
shared with her husband. Fearing burglars were inside her house, she looked
around her private room for something to hit him/her with should she meet
him/her on the way to the phone.

She spotted
an old lamp her grandfather had given her as a wedding present ("Take good care
of it. It's a family heirloom.") and made a grab for it, her cold fingers
curling around the shaft in a firm grip. With a weapon in her hand, missing her
bow and arrows quickly, she slowly crept towards the pull-down stairs of the
attic and tried to be as quiet as possible while walking towards the phone that
was just down the stairs.

Finally
reaching the bottom, she looked around the dark, empty hallway, her heart
beating inside the confinements of her ribcage. She felt the cold sweat
beginning to collect itself at her brow but she made no motion to wipe it away.
All she wanted was to get out of this alive.

Being so
concerned with trying to see something ahead of her that she failed to see the
door she passed by open ajar, although no light came from inside. It wasn't
until she felt a hand snake around her waist and mouth that the already rickety
heartbeat sped up even more and fear consumed her from top to bottom in a snap.
Fearing for her life, Kagome began to struggle with the energy born from her
fear. She had to get away. If she didn't make whoever-it-was let go, who knows
what would happen to her.

She heard a
voice behind her, deep and seeming to stem from the rumble of the person's
chest. It sounded older, softer, yet unmistakable. "Be quiet, bitch! I don't
want anyone to hear us!" he whispered in her ear, his breath causing the hairs
on the back of her neck to stand on end.

Her heart
stopped at the voice. So many nights she had thought she had heard it actually
calling out to her and yet nothing was there except her husband beside her. So
many nights she had dreamed of hearing that voice again and seeing the one who
owned it. Tears prickled at the corner of her eyes as she was turned around and
came face to face with the only man she had ever loved.

Inuyasha.

~*~Oh, it would pain
me and you

Would heal to feel joy
and be blue

Sad times and bad times
see them through

Soon we will know if
it's for real

What we...both feel~*~

For a long
time no sound would come out of her mouth, even when she formed the words. So
much was her state of shock and all she could do was stare at him and try to
get a grip on reality, some sense of sanity that he was really there and not
something she was imagining from missing him so much.

Before she
could get her jumbled thoughts together and form any sort of words, he moved
his hands from around her waist and mouth, turning her around before he snaked
them around her back, dragging her against him in a tender embrace that
radiated how much he had missed her. Kagome still hadn't recovered from the
shock of seeing him and the tender embrace only increased her disbelief that he
was real in front of her.

It was only
when he spoke that all doubts disappeared and tears began to collect at the
corner of her eyes. "I'm sorry…Kagome…" he forced out, his voice thick with
emotion that had Kagome's insides tighten as she willed herself not to cry. "I
didn't…I never meant what I said, back there at the well…please, forgive me…"

His voice
was so broken and raw and she could feel a wetness on her shoulder from where
his head rested. It had been ten years and in that whole time she had never
felt anger at him, never hated him for saying what he had said to her. All she
had felt was hurt, thinking what he had said was partially true, stemming from
her own doubt of his feelings for her. Her heart had always screamed that it
had been a lie but her mind refused to listen. Everyday the memory had been so fresh
as if it had happened yesterday.

Slowly she
felt herself pick up her heavy arms, reaching under his hair and holding him
close to her. The longer she held on, the tighter her hold on him became until
there was no way he could get any closer. This time when she formed the words,
breath also flowed, forming words. "Inuyasha…it's ok…I never…I never blamed you
or hated you. All I f-felt was…hurt that you had said that to me after all we had
been through." The tears that had been collecting flowed freely now down her
dry cheek, causing it to glisten in the moonlight.

His hold
tightened a bit and she could feel his hesitation to let her go. Maybe if he
did, she would disappear…? "I'm sorry Kagome," he apologized again, this time
more confidently since he heard her words. "I never meant them. I was only
angry at what Kaede had told me. I couldn't stand it. I felt it was better if
you hated me and never saw me again so that way we wouldn't get hurt. But I
never meant them…I never meant them…"

"Shhh,"
Kagome soothed, running her hands up and down her back. It felt good to hold
him like that, to know he was real. "Now I know the truth. I guess I was fool
to believe those words. But I believe these. I'm sorry I doubted you Inuyasha."

Inuyasha
pulled back then only far enough for him to be a few inches from her face as he
tensely gazed into her eyes and tried to find some hint that she was lying and
that she in fact hated him. The tension in his face smoothed out when he found
none. That solved, he began to inch towards her, wanting to feel the softness
of her lips against his.

When only a
tiny breath away, Kagome heard a car pull up into the driveway outside, causing
her to drop her arms from Inuyasha and pull fully away from him. By the look on
Inuyasha's face, Kagome could tell he knew she was married. She looked
pleadingly at him. "Inuyasha, please, please take me away from here. I don't
want to be here anymore. Take me back with you into the Feudal Era. Please."

Inuyasha
could hear the worry in her voice and he quickly nodded. Kagome ran into a room
and then came back out with a bag he guessed was full of things she needed. Plucking
her from the floor, he placed her on his back and stealthily made his way to
the window he had come from and bound away into the night. As they were
bounding from house to house, Kagome could hear her husband shout out her name
in anger, probably thinking she had gone out without his permission. Well, he
was entirely right, only this time she was never coming back.

"Inuyasha,"
she called. She knew he was paying attention when his ears swiveled to her even
when his head didn't. "Can we stop really quick at my mom's house? There's
still something I want to do."

He merely
nodded.

With his
speed he reached the shrine in a matter of seconds and landed gently in front
of her old window. Kagome climbed off his back and opened the window, climbing
inside. Everything was the way she had left it, save many of her new clothes which
were in her bag. Heading over to her desk, she wrote a letter to her explaining
where she was, who she was with, and how often she would return. She pleaded
for her husband never to learn the truth and for her mother to tell everyone
she had died of whatever disease her grandfather made up. She wished her family
love, telling Souta to be good (even though he was in college by now) and then
signed it.

Leaving the
note in her mother's room and giving her a quick kiss on the temple as she
slept, Kagome then went for the Shikon no Tama, knowing she would need it. Once
she was done with everything, Kagome made her way back to Inuyasha and
together, the two of them left down the well and into the old happy life.

Her mother
smiled in her sleep.

The End.

Epilogue

"Mommy!" a
girl of about 8 called out, running through the lush grass from a break in the
trees of the forest. Her hair was waist length and pale blue, shining like a
diamond in the sun. Her eyes were amber and two triangular ears decorated the
top of her head. She wore a sapphire colored kimono, one perfect for running
and jumping in.

Following
after her was a tiny toddler of 3 with black hair, black ears shaped like his
sisters', and his own tiny kimono. He was laughing gleefully upon seeing his
mother standing there at the entrance of their nicely done wooden home.

She looked
at her two children with love filled eyes, thanking every powerful being for
giving them to her. She looked up when another figure emerged from the forest,
looking just as handsome as ever.

He was her
one and only true husband and true love…

~*~We were put here on this earth

Put here to feel
joy…~*~

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