what you don’t envision, the harm of your penchant for fantasy
and how
you may be married but whilst you stray in your mind and locked bathroom
you are only half inhabiting the woman who promised
for better or worse
it is she who really wanted you

That part embarrassed me. I have stopped watching porn in the bathroom as part of my new aspiration to be honest. I wouldn’t want to tell anyone I do it so instead of telling anyone I just won’t do it. But after reading your poem I can see how damaging it can be to a real relationship.