Date: Tue, 22 Jul 2003 20:36:05 +0100 (BST)
From: "[iso-8859-1] Sophie Reeves"
Subject: Somewhere I belong chapter 2
Disclaimer: I don't know any of the BSB nor do I mean to imply anything
of their true sexualities. This is fiction
Somewhere I belong Chapter 2
AJ let himself into his room, praying that Howie wouldn't be there.
Thankfully he wasn't. 'He must be with Kev somewhere' AJ thought. He
dropped down on his bed and ran his hands through his hair, wondering
what on earth was happening to him. Thinking about last night was already
driving him insane. He sighed and got up to find some clean clothes to
wear. While he was changing, his attention was suddenly diverted away
from the topic of Brian when Howie opened the door. Howie's eyebrows shot
up in surprise.
"Where the hell did you go last night? I was worried when I woke up this
morning and you weren't there!" he said accusingly. AJ closed his eyes.
"Don't start D I'm just not in the mood"
"Yeah well, I wasn't in the mood either when I found your bed hadn't been
slept in last night! Where the hell did you go?"
"I went out" AJ lied.
"And you went back to some guy's house right?" Howie shook his head.
"Please tell me you used protection Aje" AJ nodded, but the truth was he
couldn't remember, however it didn't matter. It wasn't like he had slept
with some random stranger as usual. Brian was certainly not a random
stranger. Howie seemed satisfied though.
"Come on, it's breakfast time. You should see the state Nick's in!
Apparantly he puked all over Kevin's bathroom floor when he got up" AJ
grinned in spite of himself. 'So that's where Nick was' he
thought. He followed Howie down the hall. Nick was sat at the table in
Kevin's room looking green AJ smiled evily as a thought occured to him.
He sneaked up behind Nick and gave him a resounding slap on the back.
"MORNING NICKY!" He shouted into Nick's ear."How are you feeling today?"
Nick winced and covered his ears in pain.
"......bastard......."
"He's not feeling so good" Kevin chipped in. "On account of the 10 pints
of beer he drank last night" AJ looked at Nick almost in respect. "Wow
Nick, that's one major hangover huh?"
"...tell me about it" Nick moaned, resting his aching head on his arms.
"So Aje how was your night? Where did you go?" Kevin asked.Howie had
worried him when he told him AJ had disappeared. AJ shrugged, trying to
appear nonchalent.
"...I went somewhere else later on. I just got back" Kevin frowned, and
was about to pursue it further before Nick moaned and jumped up, running
in the direction of the bathroom.
"Nicky you better not miss the bowl this time!" Kevin hollered as he
followed Nick's retreating figure. AJ let out a pent up breath. He was
lucky Nick had unwittingly provided a distraction. Still, Kevin wouldn't
let it go without giving him a lecture on sexual promiscuity. If only he
knew that the guy AJ slept with last night was his cousin, who
incidentally hadn't shown his face. In a way AJ was glad. He wouldn't
know what to say to Brian. The others would surely pick up on the tension
between them.
"So have you seen Bri this morning?" Howie asked casually as he bit into
a piece of toast. AJ jumped. and shook his head.
"N...no why?" He stuttered, cursing himself for being so on the edge.
Howie looked at him strangely.
"It's only Brian you know, are you afraid of him or something?"
"No!" AJ cut back. "I haven't seen him yet" Howie arched an eyebrow
"Chill out Aje, why are you so jumpy this morning?" AJ chewed his lip.
".....I'm just tired... travelling really takes it out of me" Howie
choked on his bit of toast.
"Somehow I don't think it's the travelling that got you tired" he said
sarcastically. AJ gave a small smile, which he lost when Brian stepped
into the room. AJ averted his eyes quickly.
"Morning Bri, did you sleep well?" Howie asked. Brian looked troubled, he
thought.
"Uhh...yeah thanks D" Brian said softly as he sat down on the chair
furthest away from AJ. AJ decided to change the subject.
"So what are we doing today D?" Howie shrugged his shoulders.
"Ask Kevin, he has all the details. I think it's a TV show, kids morning
show you know the sort, then performance on MTV Scandinavia"
"Where is Kev?" Brian spoke up. Howie smiled.
"He's in the bathroom with Nick, Nick stayed here last night because he
got too drunk and would have woken you up" Brian's eyes registered his
surprise. Guiltily he realised he had been thinking about AJ so much he
hadn't even noticed his best friend should have returned to their room
last night
"Is Brian there?" Kevin's voice sounded from down the hall. "Nick wants
him". Brian stood up and left the table without a word.
"God what has gotten into you two today?" Howie asked. "Usually he's
bright and cheery once he's had a sleep" AJ shrugged
"I don't know what you mean"
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Two weeks later and the Backstreet Boys were now in Sweden, on the seond
leg of their gruelling promotional tour. Brian and AJ had hardly spoken a
word to each other and the others couldn't understand why. Brian and AJ
denied there was something wrong but it was blatantly obvious something
had happened. Whenever Brian walked in a room and AJ was there, one of
them would make an excuse and walk out. Nick was hurt that his best
friend wouldn't confide in him. Brian seemed so distant lately. Nick
didn't know what was wrong. They had been in Sweden for almost a week
now, and Brian hadn't wanted to leave his room. Except for interviews and
work, he was always there. Nick was getting frustrated.
"I'm sorry Nick I just don't feel like it" Nick sighed.
"You never feel like it anymore Brian! You never go out anywhere, you
just stay cooped up in your room. I'm worried about you Frick! We all
are" he pleaded with his best friend. Brian closed his eyes. He didn't
want to deal with this right now. He had been feeling sick and his
stomach was killing him.
"Look Nick, I'm not feeling well, please go without me. I don't wanna go
when I'm feeling like this". Nick gave a deep breath of frustration.
"Fine, go on feeling sorry for yourself in your room. Don't worry that
you haven't spoken to anyone of us since the start of the tour, because
we don't care! I'm getting sick of it Brian!" He stalked off down the
hall. Brian frowned. He hated falling out with his best friend and he was
sorry for neglecting him, but he didn't want to go out. He had been
feeling really rundown lately and was getting headaches all the time. He
really wasn't feeling well and told himself he should go and see a
doctor. But he hadn't got round to doing it yet. Kevin had tried to
approach him about Nathan a couple of weeks ago but Brian blew him off.
Nathan had been pushed
out of his mind the night he slept with AJ. Brian clenched his fists. He
was so angry with AJ for treating him like one of the whores he slept
with on a daily basis. Brian really thought that their night
together had meant something but AJ obviously didn't. He couldn't get out
of Brian's room fast enough that morning. He furrowed his brow while
rubbing his stomach. He felt really bad, especially in that area. All he
wanted to do was sleep. Thank God the management had managed to book five
separate rooms, since he and Nick had had a bust-up. Nick was right. He
did spend most of his time in his room, but only because it meant he
didn't have to see AJ or speak to AJ. Brian sighed. Why was his life so
complicated?
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Nick stomped down the hall to Howie's room and burst in, not bothering to
knock. He threw himself on Howie's bed and lay there staring at the
ceiling.
"Yeah Nick you can come in.." Howie said sarcastically. Nick didn't
answer him.
"What's wrong?" Howie asked, sensing Nick was upset. Nick scowled.
"It's Brian" he said. "I asked him if he was coming out tonight and of
course he said no. I asked him why he spent all his time in his room and
he tried to fob me off telling me was sick. Why is he lying
to me?" Nick's voice increased in pitch, telling Howie Nick was close to
tears."I'm supposed to be his best friend Howie and he won't tell me
anything!"
"He won't tell Kevin either Nick" Howie said quietly. "Kevin doesn't know
what's wrong with him".
"I told him I was sick of it!" Nick cried. "I want my best friend back
Howie!"
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"Here Bri catch!" Kevin tossed Brian a water bottle. Brian was exhausted.
Their choreographer Flynn had worked them hard today. Or so he thought.
The others seemed fine.
"You out of shape Frick?" Nick asked, jogging up to them. "Better cut
down on that macaroni and cheese". Brian scowled. Never did he think he'd
see the day where Nick Carter would give him diet tips.
"I'm just fine thanks Nicky" he said through gritted teeth. The sooner
this session was over, the sooner he could get back to the hotel. Back to
his bed.
"You better tidy yourself up Bri" Kevin observed "We've got that meet and
greet sesh with fans afterwards" Brian groaned. He'd forgotten the meet
and greets they were booked into that afternoon. Normally Brian loved
going out, meeting the people who were responsible for making him and the
others so sucessful. Not today however, he couldn't face it..
"Kev...I'm not feeling all that good, can't you go without me?" he
pleaded with his cousin who frowned at him.
"Brian you know we can't. The fans will turn up expecting you to be there
as well. It's the least you can do" Brian sighed. His cousin wasn't
giving him any sympathy today.
"Please Kev, I really don't feel well" Kevin looked closely at his
cousin. Brian looked worn out. Maybe just one time wouldn't matter.
"Alright Bri, just go back to the hotel and get some sleep. Make sure
you're well enough for tomorrow, because we're moving on, remember?"
Brian nodded. Tomorrow they had an hour and a half flight into Munich
airport, for the German leg of their tour.
"Thanks Kev" he said gratefully. He put all his things away in his bag
and started off towards the mini-bus that was waiting to take them back
to the hotel to freshen up. Brian couldn't understand why
he was feeling so lethargic. Sessions with Flynn didn't tire him out as
much as today. He put it down to stress and the fact that he really
hadn't been well the past week.
"Hey Bri!" Howie said, waking Brian up from his train of thoughts. He
looked up. Howie laughed.
"Me and Nick are having bets on how many fans will ask him to marry them
today. Care to join in? The winner if it isn't Nick gets Nick's
playstation for a whole day!"
"That won't happen" Nick said confidently. "I never lose a bet"
"You never bet against me before that's why" Howie teased. "You usually
bet AJ and he always loses"
Heads turned to AJ who was sat in the opposite corner, trademark shades
hiding his eyes, hat pulled down as far as it could go without covering
his whole face. If Howie hadn't known better he would've
sworn AJ was trying to hide himself from someone. But who? The only
people in the bus were his fellow bandmates. Howie shook his head. AJ had
been acting weirdly lately
by stophoeyeahdude@yahoo.co.uk