Sunday, August 22, 2010

I had been having little contractions all day on Sunday the 15th, I started timing them but they weren't really consistent so I just went about my mary day.. I woke up at 5am on Monday morning and was having more contractions, not really painful just enough to catch my attention. I fell back asleep then woke back up at 5:30ish and felt a huge jolt in my belly and it kinda freaked me out, then I had to pee, as I was thinking about getting up I felt this huge gush of water, like I was peeing my pants...but no I was not peeing my pants, thankfully, haha my water BROKE.. Yay!! I was a little scared at first I was shaking. I leaned over to Clarke and said Clarke I think my water just broke..there was water all over our bed and the floor I couldn't get it to stop. I called Labor and Delivery and talked to my friend Kirsha and she told me to come in. So we packed up our stuff and headed out. Luckly Clarke's brothers finance was staying at our house so she watched Brooklyn for us that day and his brother stayed home from work. I got to the hospital and saw Dr. Kirkman sitting their with Kirsha and Diana. He said so I heard a rumor and I said yes it's true YAY. So I got settled in got my IV and sat there and waited. When my Nurse (Wendy-who was the best Nurse ever..and I mean the BEST) first checked me I was at a 4. Dr. Kirkman wanted to start me on petocin because I had StrepB and he was worried about the risk of infection if my labor was prolonged. But I wanted to possibly have this baby naturally and didn't want to start on that just yet. The contractions were strong but not to bad I could handle it for the time being. I progressed to a 5 and they were getting more and more intense and Wendy said that I could only get an epdural between 8:30 and 9:30am because the Anesthesiologist was super busy that day and wouldn't be able to come back. So I sat and thought about it A LOT.. I decided to get one because I was really nervous that it would hurt A LOT and I wouldn't be able to take the pain. I still wanted to feel something though so he gave me the lowest dose he could and I could push the button if I wanted to. I could feel my contractions and I knew what muscles to use to push and I could lift my legs..it was the PERFECT labor. The nurse started the petocin to get things moving and peyton's heart rate dropped so fast...apparently my babies don't like the petocin because the same thing happened to Brooklyn. I started moving along and about 11ish my nurse checked me and said I was at an 8 she said that if I felt a huge amount of pressure down in my tail bone like I have to pooh then that means I am ready to start pushing.. she left the room and not even 15 mins later I felt that huge amount of pressure I wasn't sure if that was it or not but then it happened again and so I called her back in and she checked me and I was at a 10. I went from an 8 to a 10 in 15 mins...way fast.. so we started pushing on every contraction..so I pushed for about an hour and a half at about every 5 or 10 mins. It was so awesome to be able to feel the contractions and to know when to push and how to push.. I felt his head come out and the placenta and him stitching me up I just didn't feel the pain. IT was AWESOME. They put Peyton on my belly when he first came out that was so special. He was so cute and so precious. The nurses got him all cleaned up then brought him back to me. I had him try nursing and the boy just lached right on, He can suck...I was like wow boy.. Brooklyn never did that either.. He is a really good eater and a good baby. after I gave birth I immediately wanted grape juice I think I had like 4 or 5 glasses of it before they took my upstairs to recovery. I also was craving Jimmy Johns.. now that I didn't have to heat up my meat I was super excited to get my sandwich... I was able to stand enough to get in a wheelchair. That was awesome. I slept most of the rest of the day and Clarke went and picked up Brooklyn. When they got back I don't think Brooklyn really knew what was going on, she kept saying baby baby. She didn't really want much to do with him for a while. It took her a couple of days of getting used to him. At home now she constantly asks about the baby if she can't see him or if he is eating or whatever he is doing she is just curious... she loves him to pieces.. She always wants to hold him and she gives him kisses 24/7. It's the cutest darn thing in the world. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE being a MOM, best JOB in the world.. I want tons of these sweet little things. They make me smile everyday I can't express my LOVE for both of them. Watching Brooklyn with him and as she grows into her own little person I just grow more and more LOVE for her as well. I just look at her and Peyton and think Gosh I have such great kids and sweet little hearts. Brooklyn is so kind (most of the time) to everyone. She loves people and says hi over and over again...she is just a happy happy little girl. Peyton is just so content with whatever is going on. He is such a little tropper. When he is hungry he will let you know and he sure knows how to use those lungs. I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father who has blessed Clarke and I with such beautiful babies. They truly are sent from heaven. Thank you for all of your kindness and congrats. we really appreciate you all and love you all.

Friday, August 6, 2010

Man I miss my little belly.. Look at those pants... I totally could wear them. Only like a week and a half left.. just looking at these pictures again makes me hurt a little to be back to that size.. it's all worth it..it's all worth it..

Brooklyn is 19 months today.. flip time goes by so fast. Brooklyn is like a little sponge, she repeats everything we say or at least tries to. she is dang cute and we couldn't be more happy to have her in our life. She is the cutest thing EVER.

Monday, August 2, 2010

I was able to attend a dear friend of mine, Taryn Palmer's dad, Scott Hansen's funeral this past Thursday in Pocatello, ID. It was really such a beautiful funeral. I brought my sweet little girl with me and went with a few of my other dear friends, I was able to listen to most of it and really enjoy the things that were said about Taryn's dad. He lived a very amazing and wonderful life. If only we all had a father like him. He was more then just a father though, he was a true man of god. I only met him a couple of times and each time I saw him he always seemed happy with his life and content with the moment. You could look at him and see his shining countenance, you knew at that moment that he was a GREAT guy. I just remember always feeling that way when I saw or heard stories about him. I have heard so much about him and his life through out the days that I have known Taryn and throughout this week. I was grateful that I was able to attend her sweet father's funeral and got to experience tons of emotions and feelings of such gratitude, not only for my own dear family but for the amazingly true gospel here on this earth that gives us the knowledge that not only Taryn and her sweet family but mine and yours will again meat their loved ones again. That means Taryn and her family will see their father once again. I couldn't be more in love with this gospel and more grateful to be apart of it and to have it in my life and to know that I will also be with my family for eternity someday. Taryn's parents bishop got up and spoke he said that Taryn's family had a saying hanging in their kitchen that said BECAUSE NICE MATTERS I think is right... I couldn't agree more. makes me want to be a nicer person and be a better person, wife, mother and friend. Because of the things he said and the way I felt, If I wasn't a member I think I honestly would have asked where to sign me up for such beautiful promises and sacred teachings. He did such an amazing job with bearing of his testimony it brought me to tears I have not shed in such along time. I felt the spirit of the lord wrap his arms around me as I watched my little girl play and make lots of noise all while trying to listen all at the same time. I couldn't be more blessed to have the wonderful things in my life. I am also truly blessed to have such AMAZING FRIENDS in my life. I really don't know where I would be without them and their amazing examples throughout the years I have known them. I always look to them for strength, even if they don't always know, I am really impressed with who they are and what they stand for and what they have become. I LOVE YOU!!!

I really just wanted to say that I am grateful for my sweet husband who is so generous and NICE and everything I cherish, I am grateful for my sweet little baby girl who really isn't a baby any more. She is 19 months old and soon to be a big sister to a baby brother whom I also could not be more grateful for. It is truly a miracle to have a beautiful little life and spirit growing inside of you. To feel it's every move, and I mean EVERY move, is such an amazing experience. I have friends and people who I have met along this journey in my life who have struggled with having the opportunity to get pregnant and experience those wonderful things that can not come in any other form, that being said it makes me hold on to those experiences dearly to my heart. I am at a point now where I am ready to be done with this pregnancy but also am enjoying the fact that there is a little baby still living inside me right now who probably just met Scott Hansen and is saying hello and goodbye to loved ones, the veil is so thin and to think that I have been entrusted by our dear savior and lord to take care of one of his sweet children is one of the greatest blessings and compliments I could EVER receive.

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About Me

Clarke and I were married September 23, 2005 and live in Logan. Clarke just graduated in Horticulture with an emp. in Business and is starting grad school in Weed Science this May. I am working full time at the hospital as a Phelbotomist. We just had our first baby girl, Brooklyn, who was born on January 6, 2009. I am planning on going back to school in the Fall of '09 to get my Nursing Degree.