This blog will document my weight loss journey after lap band surgery.

Monday, September 14, 2009

The day draws closer

Anxiety was way up today. I felt like the things I did today didn't go well. I felt over whelmed. I totally over ate yesterday. I felt alone in a crowd today. I know I am not supposed to but I beat myself up about over eating. I am stressing out about being able to follow the diet plan outlined for me. It seems counter intuitive but there is certain fear attached to being thinner. I feel like I need more strength. A part of me is dying. That part of me that used food to deal with stress and anxiety.
Tonight I was able to lean on Jesus feel his comfort. Thank you Lord that you are always there for me and thank you for never tiring of my need for reminders of your presence and love.