I almost forgot that I have a blog to update, then.. it has been a year I did not log in into this account to continue my writing here.

Lol, siapa pernah kisah pun HAHAHA .

but I am sincerely thankful for those who really waiting for my update after my matriculation life. So this is it. ( and I am deeply sorry for making this too late, because yeah I am super duper good in procrastination. And….at its finest.)

I am now in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah pursuing degree in Conservation Biology in Universiti Malaysia Sabah (UMS). This course will take 4 years to complete, which means I will graduate in 2020, InsyaAllah ( Let’s pray that everything will be fine through out my studies). Now my life is far away from home. It is far, but not too far away until you can’t go back home for Raya heh. ( Oh yeah, I still fly back home once a month. So don’t worry, I am not going to stay here forever 😛 ) Many people had asked me,

A- Ala..What is the thing that I have to be afraid of? Afraid of taking new opportunities? To see what the other side of my world looks like? For me, this is the time to see and experience something new. But, when it comes to family, comfort foods, homesickness etc etc.. I got my heart torn apart too. At first it is not easy to fit in quickly in new place, getting new friends and new food! ( yeah ini penting sekali hehe) Luckily I got some nice friends to help me out through the journey. What I always said to myself, ‘dey, everybody is struggling too. It is not just about you’. Realizing the reality, I need to keep my head up and embrace the new life here in Borneo. Oh and..here also got airport. Ini bukan pergi masuk Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup yang tak boleh balik balik lagi hehehe.

So basically, being here gives me more chances to travel and experiencing to do something different from activities I usually do in Peninsular. Get to know and study other cultures, foods and language here are always exciting for me and my friends everyday. So.. let me share some pictures ( because I just finished all my idea to continue)

Amazing scenery at our research centre, Institute for Tropical Biology and Conservation or ITBC in UMS.Loves.We looooove to take selfies! Maafkan muka swag Syu XDSeafood @ Tanjung Aru. Seriously cheap and delicious seafood!Relaxing.At Pekan Nabalu, on our way to Kundasang. That’s a huge pineapple back there.Enjoy every momentsAt Sg. Tagal, Kg Luanti got big fishes that can bite your stubborness away 😛 Wiveca seems so excited and brave!Zi Shan, one of my housemates is rying to be friendly with the fishes.I still can hear the sound of this beautiful streamDesa Cattle ala- ala New Zealand. But it’s raining so we can’t see the Gunung Kinabalu 😦Bolehlah nampak sipi- sipi.Dinner with our Spanish lecturer, Profe Consuelo.With kids from SMK Sikuati, Kudat.Tip of the Borneo!Calm and mesmerizingWith our new attraction, Tagas. The first Borneo elephant skeleton is here at ITBC.Tanjung Aru’s evening scenery. Credit to: Ridzuan.

I hope this is enough for now. And I will keep updating my journey here in Borneo. Adios!

When Sunday become sooo boring and it is too hot to stay outdoor..and Mama kinda missing her grandchildren, so we visited Angah and Abang Man with their two daughters, Amal Sufi and Amal Awatif in Segamat.

We rarely visit them as life is getting hectic lately. Before that, we went shopping for colouring books and sets of colouring pencils for them. As an aunt, I’m truly excited that Sufi will go to school next year! (eventhough she’ll going for kindergarten only) Haha, silly me.

We have no picture of Awatif because she was busy crying and keep ignoring us. Then we have to leave early at 6 pm to avoid traffic jam on Seremban-Nilai highway *sobs* Imma sad auntie 😦

Reached home at 9 pm and I received an image from Angah the next morning.

Semangat betul Sufi ni!

You make me a proud auntie, Sufi!

I honestly feels that she’ll going to be a great person one day. She’s smart, zany and talkative. Lol, I mean soooo talkative kind of kid.

Angah once told me that Sufi will always said ‘ Sabar Mummy..’ with her cute smile whenever Angah is angry to her or anybody else. Awww who really wants to scold a kid like her?

Having them in my life, making me want mine too ;P Lol, but it is way too far in the future, kot? Siapa tahu ajal datang menjemput, sebelum jodoh datang menyinggah? ( Yea I heard this from a friend). Let’s pray for the best and the best planner is Allah SWT 🙂

To Angah and Abang Man, you two are good parents and partner. May Allah bless your family and be happily ever after. Aamiin 🙂

Right after unpacking all the hostel stuffs ( which is 1 week after leaving the college), Mama asked me to continue learning to get my driving license. Haih, I can’t even catch a break ( well actually I’ve got enough holiday already hahaha). Then I realised that my L license has expired for 9 months! Lama gila tak drive, yeah because last time I drove a car and got scolded by abang JPJ. Hope that I can pass this time, aamiin ya rabbal ‘alamiin.

I was on my busy mode last week, so yeah I’m sorry for not posting anything last week 😦

Luckily I have something to share with y’all on this blessed Friday 🙂

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This story began when I put on some compact powder during Zuhr break. I think that is normal to put on some compact powder/talcum to cover up your oily face after facing half of tiring day. But their reactions was like…

Huyooo you put some makeup on!

Dah cantik dah tuuu

And when I offered them to put on the powder too….

Eh it’s okay. I’m natural enough to put those on. *smirk*

I keep smiling and continue putting on the ‘makeup’. But what my mind kept saying is..

Eeyeerrrkk!! 10000000000x

What on earth are you to say that!?? Chill lah wei! It is not even a heavy makeup, It just some talcum powder! My real intention is not to make my face prettier than you, it is to get rid the uncomfortable feeling of myself for having an oily face all the time!

Well, when you really said that…I’m kinda offended. Just like you’re saying that I put on the compact powder to cover up my flaws and being a plastic. (Emo sudah)

Having an oily-pimples everywhere-face is not easy to take care of especially when you’re having allergies and stress intolerance. So you people, pleaseeeeeeee keep your mouth from saying all of those ridiculous things to the people like us! You don’t feel what we’re going through.

I’ve once lose my confidence. And now you want me to lose it again?

People should be sensitive when saying things like that. Don’t ever think that no one will get touched by your action. Correction, words.

Naaa, no wonder there are certain people (especially girls) that have skin problems being soooooo shy to stand out among their friends! Oh why..

Senang cerita, if you see your friend(s) put some makeup on, just let them be!
And if you want to make a comment, YES YOU MAY! but in PROPER MANNER, please 🙂

Maybe you can lighten a bit your makeup..it’ll make you look younger sayang.. 🙂

This suppose to-be-happy week doesn’t went like what I expected to be.

Mama, if you ever read this..

I started losing my focus in class. I don’t even know how to solve the tutorial question by myself. I keep asking from the classmates//roommates the answer without trying to answer it again and with harder effort! Only Allah knows what I feel when asking for the answers and the solution from them. I feel embarrassed enough because I know that I can do it by myself, but it turned out to be a lazy me.

Mama, what have I done..

At this point, I feel like I’m going down. Down to the deepest feeling I’ve ever had. Sometimes I dont feel like I am having any problems, but… I felt that my pace begin to slow down a bit.

I started to realise that my focus had thrown far away in the biology class– which is my favourite sub compared to Physics.

“You seems like losing your focus nowadays..what happened to you? ”

Guess who is the really concern person? Shy to say, that person is my lecturer.

Bang!

Is that too obvious?

Where on earth I live before?

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And thanks to Allah the Almighty, I found this.

Bijak..cuma tak bernasib baik.

Certain people don’t get what most people get- education and attention from the loved ones.

I should be grateful as I get the chances to build a better life– by gaining the knowledge that we’ll use for lifetime…

I’ve been thinking about blogging again after seeing most of my friends keep updating their recently life, hobbies and university/college they went. So..here you are!

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My life after the SPM went well as other post-SPM students do (except for achieving any goals during the looooong holiday).

» To make the story short, I got an offer to study at Politeknik Sultan Salahuddin Abdul Aziz Shah (also known as Politeknik Shah Alam) in Medical Electronic Engineering! What makes me happier is that place is just 15 mins from home! *yeayyy* But…I failed the JPJ test before… So I was desperate in needing the hostel which I don’t deserveto *sigh* *cries internally*

I decided to wait for the rayuan matrikulasi.

Alhamdulillah, Kolej Matrikulasi Selangor is beyond happy for having me there 😛