What's the rush on commitment?

I’m desperately looking for a place to stay in Toronto. Either the place is too expensive, too far, too ‘dangerously’ located … I’m pissed at Ryerson. For God’s sake prepare us better for what is coming. Not that they could have really prepared us but at least they could have offered us a room, so that when we arrive we could feel safe, secure.

At first I was really optimistic but I mean … It’s fucking hard haha. I’m kinda losing hope. And if anyone ever says to me again ‘girl don’t worry, you’ll find something’, I’ll come and get you personally. I travelled for 15 hours, I’m not going back home hello.

So today I visited to two places and I met up with Lina whom I connected with on Facebook. We decided to team up to find a place. Searching a place with a roommate is “easier”. Lina is from Russia but studies in the UK. I was really happy to meet her. We understood each other; how it’s so frustrating to be here all by yourself not finding a place. I’m like a bear with a sore head.

At the moment it kinda feels like the universe is against me. I know it But even then I make place for laughter. Lina and I laughed all our misery away (if that’s even possible). We laughed and laughed. That’s the way to cope but it doesn’t solve shit.

I’ve walked and walked and walked (honestly I already know all the streets in Toronto) and after all that I arrive at the hostel only to find out that my coordinator still hasn’t answered my mails. So that means: school starts tomorrow and I have no schedule.

It doesn’t stop here. No No No. I didn’t pass a course from my second year communication. Which sucks one too many times.

Misery loves company as in Lina and I found each other facing the same misery but it also means that misery just keeps adding up like shit flows through pipes.