Sunday, January 8, 2012

Written on 2/1/2012
After a few years together, this is like the first date post with pictures.
Apai will be heading back to Iraq this Saturday. Didn't expect that he will be sent back so soon but that's the nature of his work, complaining or crying wont help much, it's not that he is in any better position than I am. I really dont mind he have to be away, it's just that when he is unreachable or when his flight back keep on delaying or both, at times it can be very frustrating because I have all these stories to tell him and all these places I want us to go together, but he is just not there and not here either. It's natural for a girl/women to want affection, attention and appreciation. But some may need(want?) them more to the level of being too dependant on the bf that if it does not annoy the bf it might annoy those around her. And when I'm all mad that we lost contacted a day or so, he will have all these explanations that seem very valid and I would then fell bad for just thinking about myself without understanding what he has to go through there. But overall I think I have been a very understanding gf :P

Today, we should have went to see the elephants but thinking that it was a 3 days weekend, takut pula jam Lebuh Raya Karak otw home nanti, so we settle for the typical date we usually have, a movie, lunch and ice cream with a stop at Bukit Cahaya Seri Alam Agricultural Park, taking a ride in his new Chevrolet Cruze.

Impossible to finish when you already have a big meal, we gave up when we scoop more of caramel than its super delicious vanilla ice cream

Before I graduated, when people ask when do I plan to get married I would usually say "Before the end of 2012lah, sebab Dec 2012 orang cakap dunia akan berakhirkan?". Sometimes I enjoy being all innocent and giving away blondie-ish statements. But for now, there is still no plan for the big day. And I do hope that history will not repeat itself, when both Apai and I let other gets to us. But I dont mind people asking when my big day will be as I always ask others the same question too, hehe. But you can spot those who sincerely ask as their intention is to truly see you happy marrying the man you love and adore while others are just asking because they just need to know when and could careless about your happiness. Sometimes for both to be truly in love is just not enough , kalo dah tertulis dia bukan jodoh kita, nak wat macam mana kan? :) Do I feel jealous that some of my friends, cousins are engaged or married? Of course I do, but I'm more happy for them instead of feeling jealous of them actually. Weddings are blissful events, and when I attend one I would like to embrace that instead of thinking when, who, where, what my wedding will be like at that moment. If it is meant to be, it is meant to be. Apai is one happy guy for having a girlfriend that seldom talks about marriage, aint you sayang? :) Take care in Iraq, I'll be missing you more every single day.

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