Violent urges..

usually when i'm upset.. i would start self-harming.. i'm not sure if it's the reason why lately.. when i just want to give up.. i usually have violent urges.. like wanting to hit someone.. or just punching the wall.. when i get so frustrated i feel that way.. i remember when i was younger.. i would tell my friends then.. that i want to hit somebody.. nobody in particular.. but really just punch someone.. they would laugh at me.. and thought that i was kidding..

i still get those urges until now.. and it's getting frequent.. i'm worried i'll just suddenly hit someone.. especially at work.. when i'm so frustrated..

I can relate to this, whenever i get sad, angry or frustrated i fell the urge to just punch everything and everyone close to me, and it is like this big ball is growing inside me, and i just want to scream so badly and just let it all out. But i know i its wrong to do so, so i just ham myself instead, because i fell like that is the only way i can get some distance to all the sadness and anger that is growing inside of me

Have you ever considered taking up meditation? It's not entirely pseudoscientific and might help. Failing that obtaining a punching bag and heavy bag gloves would be a good idea as Brittless suggested.

I can relate to this, whenever i get sad, angry or frustrated i fell the urge to just punch everything and everyone close to me, and it is like this big ball is growing inside me, and i just want to scream so badly and just let it all out. But i know i its wrong to do so, so i just ham myself instead, because i fell like that is the only way i can get some distance to all the sadness and anger that is growing inside of me

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yeah.. unfortunately.. i feel the same way about self-harming.. it's like it's the only way to let it all out.. my frustrations.. my sadness.. all given life through self-harming..

Have you ever considered taking up meditation? It's not entirely pseudoscientific and might help. Failing that obtaining a punching bag and heavy bag gloves would be a good idea as Brittless suggested.

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thanks.. i'll try to do that.. not sure if i'm gonna succeed though.. what with the voices in my head getting louder and louder.. maybe it'll help them finally shut up..