Wednesday, December 31, 2008

There's so much craziness, surrounding meThere's so much going on, it gets hard to breatheWhen all my faith has gone, you bring it back to meYou make it real for me

When I'm not sure of, my prioritiesWhen I've lost site of, where I'm meant to beLike holy water, washing over meYou make it real for me

And I'm running to you babyYou are the only one who saved meThat's why I've been missing you latelyCause you make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weakI'm full of arrogance, and uncertaintyBut I can find the words, you teach my heart to speakYou make it real for meee, yeaaa

Everybodies talking in wordsI don't understandYou got to be the only oneWho knows just who I amYour shinin in the distanceI hope I can make it throughCause the only placeThat I want to beIs right back home with you

I guess there's so much moreI have to learnBut if you're here with meI know which way to turnYou always give me somewhere,Somewhere I can learnYou make it real for me

For those who love me and like me for who i am.For those who never tired entertain me.For those who never leave me.

1. have a relationship and broke up one and half month after that. because of something that only him and i and few other peoples know why. regret that i broke his heart. :|2. balik kampung sendiri naik bas dgn adik for the first time! malam lagi. :)3. call someone just to wish his birthday at midnight and tuck him to sleep. on the phone la. for the first time. :D4. like someone but kept it to myself for quite sometime but then forget him.5. lose some friends and found new great one! :)6. don't like my teacher and don't do my homework. for the first time.7. tell a friend's secret to the whole group. sorry ah, makkk!8. had the best raya ever! haha.9. didn't talk to someone for months eventhough we see each other like everyday.10. been told that i have thyroid and need to take medicine for life time! :O11. felt more bless with my family and friends. and myself. :)12. bought to much shoes! :O13. having a unstable mood for the most time.14. met fynn jamal. and wanna met her again. :)15 have a friend that i can always depend on and i can tell everything. :)

Friday, December 26, 2008

get myself into bina again next year. i thought i will be in cekal this year because of what i did in my end year exam. i din't study at all okay. so, i'm surprised that i still in bina. happy of course tak turun kelas. but then even happier because i have cool classmate. mcm adik ckp;

"cool gila classmate awk!"

like ussual. i have nothing else to do this holiday except for movie lg. so yesterday tgk cerita di atas, dealova. for me and my sister, cerita ni best. sweet i must say :)

Thursday, December 25, 2008

I don't want a lot for Christmas There's just one thing I need I don't care about the presents Underneath the Christmas tree I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true All I want for Christmas is... You

I don't want a lot for Christmas There's just one thing I need I don't care about the presents Underneath the Christmas tree I don't need to hang my stocking There upon the fireplace Santa Claus won't make me happy With a toy on Christmas day I just want you for my own More than you could ever know Make my wish come true All I want for Christmas is you You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas I don't even wish for snow I'm just gonna keep on waiting Underneath the mistletoe I won't make a list and send it To the North Pole for Saint Nick I won't even stay awake to Hear those magic reindeers click 'Cause I just want you here tonight Holding on to me so tight What more can I do Baby all I want for Christmas is you Ooh baby All the lights are shining So brightly everywhere And the sound of children's Laughter fills the air And everyone is singing I hear those sleigh bells ringing Santa won't you bring me the one I really need Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

RULES:1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.3. You must write that song name down NO MATTER HOW silly it sounds.4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.5. Put this on your journal / blog.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" ... you say?better in time by leona lewis(haha. i don't know)

2. How would you describe yourself?tanpa by sixth sense(apa yang tanpa? haha)

3. What do you like in a girl?masih teserlah ayumu by exist(well, some does.)

4. How do you feel today?dirantai digelani rindu by exist(mhmm?)

5.What is your life's purpose?too litle too late by jojo(erk?)

6. What is your motto?tanpa kekasihku by agnes monica(haha. adoyai.)

7. What do your friends think of you?yang pernah by estranged(yeah baby)

8. What do you think of your parents?haruskah aku mati by ada bad(adaka?)

9. What do you think about very often?fly by hillary duff(no, no, no bak kata izzaty)

10. What is 2 + 2?belaian jiwa by innuendo(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!)

11. What do you think of your best friend?say it right y nelly furtado(well, some does)

12. What do you think of the person you like?backpacking around europe by yuna(mhmm?)

Friday, December 19, 2008

Boy it’s been all this time And I can’t get you off my mind And nobody knows it but me

I stare at your photograph Still sleep in the shirt you left And nobody knows it but me

Everyday I wipe my tears away So many nights I’ve prayed for you to say

I should’ve been chasing you I should’ve been trying to prove That you were all that mattered to me I should’ve said all the things that I kept inside of me And maybe I could’ve made you believe That what we had was all we’d ever need

My friends think I’m moving on But the truth is I’m not that strong And nobody knows it but me

And I’ve kept all the words you said In a box underneath my bed And nobody knows it but me

But if you’re happy I’ll get through somehow But the truth is that I’ve been screaming out

five things about this movie:1. scares me to death to have a boyfriend.2. makes me want a boyfriend who plays guitar even more.3. makes me appreciate my family more, even sometimes they drive me nuts!4. makes me appreciate my very own self, for what i am even more. :)5. it just makes me smile all day long. (i think maybe aaron johnson will appear in my dream)

super funny!and it makes you appreciate your friends more.it also open your eyes: sometimes person that you love just next door and it takes you half the world to realise it.

bought this movie last week(?)seriously, it a very sad movie. that's why it called sad movie. but i kept laughing, because some parts are just really funny.

(adik, i don't care if you've put it. i want to put it too)below this are like their wishes/things they felt/ stuff they're wondering: (sorta)(according the above picture)

"Today, I will make her the happiest woman on Earth."

"Today, I'm hoping for a rainy weather."

"As long as she don't leave me, I don't give two hoots about other lovers in this world breaking off.""Love sustains itself even without all the material things in life, I have lost faith in this proverb."

"When will I be give a chance to draw he face?"Does this man holds the key to my heart?"

"I'm always busy, I'm not a good mother to my son.""I know that it is bad to lie, but losing one's mother is worse than this."

and now, are like their story.(according to the above picture too)

"I love you"A 30-year-old fireman choose a ring for his girlfriend, hoping to be with her forever.

"I understand"A young slacker and a deep-hearted woman see their long-lasting love start to grow cold.

"Thanks"Dreaming of first love, a deaf woman who hides a wound on her face pursues him from behind."

"I'm sorry"An 8-year-old boy who longs for his mother's embrace, locked in battle with his always busy mother.

and you know what. annysa mendapat perhatian yg sgt byk. tak melampau kalau saya cakap begitu rasanya. i saw some photographer taking her photos because she was very kecik, as in very what aa..rendah for twelve years old. lagi lah sbb she went to center taking photos with the dslr. haha.

and i certainly sure we saw awin, as in gadis jahat there. but tak sure lah.

Saturday, December 06, 2008

RULES:1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.3. You must write that song name down NO MATTER HOW silly it sounds.4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.5. Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" ... you say?gimme more by britney spears. (hahaha?)

8. What do you think of your parents?hidupku kan damaikan hatimu by caffeine. (tepat sekali!)

9. What do you think about very often?sampai menutup mata by acha sepriasa (aku mmg sukapikir psl tido.)

10. What is 2 + 2?all my life by kc ft jojo. (hahahahahhahahahaha!)

11. What do you think of your best friend?dengarkanlah by glenn ft amy mastura. (nanti aku bebel kau dgr ya?)12. What do you think of the person you like?atas nama cinta by rossa. (aku tak suka sapa2 pun skrg ni)

13. What is your life story?bring me to life by evanescence. (i am in life. duhh.)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?first kiss by mandy moore. (do i look fowar for it? no, not really. haaha.)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?ada cinta by irwansyah ft acha. (yeah baby. make it happen. tapi tunggu aku ada pakwe)

16. What will you dance to at your weddingbelaian jiwa by innuendo (yes!)

17. What will they play at your funeral?suratan atau kebetula by pemelodic 9suratan la ngong)

18.What is your hobby/interest?be without you by mary j blinge (biar benar.)

yesterday when i watched martha stewart because i can't sleep, i saw a boy name ethan bortnick. he will turn 8 this 24 december.

he's only three years old when he first played a keybord (the kiddie keybord). he start to compose by the age of five. and and he such a cutie! oh! and he knows 200 pieces by heart.

he even played for nelly furtado, doing the opening! he appeared on martha stewart, good morning america, inside america, access hollywood, the early show and sheryl crow. he even appeared on oprah winfrey show.

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Shadows fill an empty heart As love is fading, From all the things that we are But are not saying. Can we see beyond the scars And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky. And open up to The ways you made me feel alive, The ways I loved you. For all the things that never died, To make it through the night, Love will find you.

What about now? What about today? What if you're making me all that I was meant to be? What if our love never went away? What if it's lost behind words we could never find? Baby, before it's too late, What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes To start a new day. This broken heart can still survive With a touch of your grace. Shadows fade into the light. I am by your side, Where love will find you.

Now that we're here, Now that we've come this far, Just hold on. There is nothing to fear, For I am right beside you. For all my life, I am yours.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

i watched this movie last night at 8tv. at first i thought it would be like the oldies movie that i ussually don't watch. but then when the story start to flow, i found it quite interesting. so i watch it. and it like the most interesting story i've ever watch.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

i don't know what i have done during this school holiday. but mostly, i only watch movies, dvd's, blog-ing, and msn-ing. just that but here what i've done:-

during last week:1. sleep late2. wake up late3. tidy the house, hall mostly (who ever that have been to my house know how my house look like)4. basketball-ing with boy-friends and girl-friends5. watching dvd's when i have noting to do6. finish 'where rainbows end (its a really great story)7. eat unhealthyly

this week so far:1. sleep late, even later2. wake up late, even much more later3. tidy the house (going to move on with the 'shoe room' down there)4. watching movies at along's laptop (because she's home)5. watching dvd's again6. read over 'buku merah'7. eat a little healthyly

so i guess that's all if been done during this one and half week of holidays. there still one month and one week more to go. fortunately nest month i have things to do and my dear corporation teacher already booked me for form1 orientation next year. so i would be so bored. and my parents and grandpa will be back next month so the house will be visit by people 24/7 (not really 24/7, you know what i mean).

i don't know why. this movie never bores me. i just love the movie.i don't know why i like it so much. i just, like it.:)

"Why would you want to be me when you get to be you?""But the truth is, fighting with you is the best thing that ever happen to me.""I went to a wedding where no one ask me to hold their bouquet or the place card or hold their dress while they're pee. Everything was perfect and I didn't care because right then the only thing that matter was the person that waiting for me at the end of the aisle and he was looking at me the way I always hope."-Jane Nichols (Katherine Heigl)

Saturday, November 15, 2008

this was taken during one of his trip when he was in pakistan i think.

yes. i miss my dad. terribly. even more because just now when i went to his toilet - my sister and i have been sleeping and using our parents room sisnce they left for madinah&haji - i smell his perfume. could be my sister who spray it all around until it pain my nostrils. haha. or maybe it just me because i miss him too much. grrr, one more month to go.

btw, i didn't eat my dinner. just because i'm too sleepy. i slept at about 1945. then, around 2300 to 0000 i woke up and felt like my head has been hitting something, hard. now, i'm having a major headache. need to ask doctor rafizi about this. because it already happen too often. some of you already know what my doctor suspect until i need to do MRI test.

last day of school for 2008 session. it was pretty BORINGGGG. no, it was really boringggg. since i woke up this morning i'm thinking what am i going to do for the rest of the day. early in the morning, after the extremely long lecture that i don't need to explain here, went upstairs to class then i went out agin cause i was so bored, following hazim to the head of subject room. there, cikgu siti zabedah and pn malyati ask me to help them, so i did because of the boredom. after about 30 minutes, i went back to class, talk a bit with friends that i miss - aizat, pqot, amin - its been like ages since i last met them because they are now studying at boarding school. then went down for recess, i ate nasi lemak mak raja farah for the last time this year - kalau mak kau dapat tender kantin sekolah lagi tahun depan boleh aku makan lagi. after that i went up to the staff room because i need to get the key to school coperation to take co-curicular book for nadir. after returning the key to pn zakiah, i spend a little time at her place, talking to her and ustazah faridah - mereka berdua adalah guru terapat dengan aku. then went to editorial board computer which situated not far from her place, just to see the final touch that my friends do. then i was helping pn zakiah cutting the fruits. that was like the fourth time i'm cutting fruits - ada besar, ada kecik. hahahaha. then helping few other teacher until about almost noon i went down to the open hall, sit with my friends. before went back, we kissed and hugged each other. like ussually we did before we went home, it just we don't hug.____________________________

books checklist:-

books that being borrowed:- Runaway at alina- Step On It, Cupid at bella- Goddess Games at hajar- If You Could See Me Now at sammy- Little Secrets 2&3 at cheeza

currently at me:- Where Rainbows End borrowed from siu wern

will be borrow soon:- A Place Called Here borrow from siu wern- Thanks For The Memories borrow from siu wern

want to buy:- Heaven Looks A Lot Like The Mall- The Debs- Jenny Green's Killer Junior Year- The Gift- One Fifth Avenue- Seduse Me At Sunrise*if anyone have any of these books, tell me. so i don't have to buy them. :)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

the monkey name is anjana while the white tiger is mitra and shiva. the monkey have been taking care of the two tigers. she - i guess its female because of the motherness in it, have been taking care one tiger before but being seperated after the tiger grew adult for it's safety.

i've cried too many times today. must be the hormone AGAIN. and because of that, i getting myself a horrible headache. damn! it has been for almost 6 hours now. i don't know if i can take it. i might go to bed after this.

when people care about you. even more if you know about it. you'll felt like somebody is watching over you, you have someone to hold on to.

as you know my parents are not in the country for the next one and half month. so the uncles and aunties and also the neighbours are sort of taking over their job. their are sort of taking care of us. my phone rang non stop. cause after one another calling me, asking how are we, are we okay, do we aet well and etc.

it's good that somebody taking care and you know it. but if it's already off limits, that's so wrong.

well, uncles, aunties and neighbours, i just want to say, thank you for look out for us. :)

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

and the form 5-ers are taking their spm starting on today until the next few weeks. looking at them, something knock me and made me realise that i only have only ONE YEAR before its my time to take spm. i'm deadly nervous for them you know. and by that, it also means, i only have ONE YEAR left before i finish my school days. how time fly fast. damn, i still want to be a school kid eventhough i almost give up my study early of this year. yeah, i almost give up. thanks to my sisters who were there when i made decision to stop my study. they mad at me of course. but thanks to god they didn't slap me. i think they felt like slapping me that time. haha.

Sunday, November 09, 2008

i love her. i miss her. babe, we really need a girl talk. and a fun outings. and sleepover. there's a lot to catch up. ouh, and picnic toooo!

ps: she never really left me when she moved to shah alam.

"on top of oh-so-hot-right-now list:i wanna have picnic with them, yes my dear toppy friends. ok and let me do the menu, thre will be sandwiches, colorful of donut(yummy) and im thnking about baking cupcakes and pizza:DDDD"