I must confess that I was in the middle of watching the drama so I was still forming mixed opinions about various characters so my previous post about both guys were not the most updated to my thoughts. Since I finally finished it, I thought I approach the topic once again since I got the whole picture now. Honestly, it was very hard to choose at the end and I think both guys weren’t perfect and I actually like it that way. I like both equally now after learning more about Qi Xiu’s character.

Mo Fan was considered a daredevil in a sense that he could experiment regardless of the consequences yet he learned from his mistakes later on. He eventually understood the consequences and life was not about experiences but the importance of the precision of the procedure, the accuracy. Speed was one thing but accuracy was another matter. What was to Mo Fan’s advantage was he learned to recover faster when he’d fallen. Yes, the wounds were bad and the mistake irreversible. He was depressed and even drown himself in sorrow, even blaming himself for past wrongs. Yet he recovered and continued to fight once again. Like mentioned before, he was not perfect, but he was able to heal and move on, knowing that he need to continue with his discoveries for other diseases cures and how mulling over it would not help.

Qi Xiu seemed to be quite hectic and serious at times yet I think it was because of Sun Qian that he learned to loosen up later. Yes, I think it was because of Sun Qian and not Yi Ning. He found love and cherished Yi Ning with all his heart yet he was very protective of her. But his perspective did not broaden. Mo Fan did try to change him by taking him out when they were still studying and insisted that he tried new things aside from his concentration on his studies. But they had distanced since the misunderstanding after Yi Ning’s surgery. It was actually Sun Qian who made him changed his perspective and learned to loosen up. He even admitted to her that he finally felt good for being a doctor because of the patients and their reactions toward him instead of thinking of them as his ‘cases’ when he accompanied her to the mountains to take care of the children at this one school. What was even more admirable of Qi Xiu aside from his ability to see Mo Fan’s genius was his sense of morality. The scene where he and Sun Qian were captured, he even insisted on saving the guy who stabbed him before letting Sun Qian go for help. It was very admirable and not everyone could do it, considering what the other party had done. He was a true doctor, not just all talks or about fame. I especially like the part where Qi Xiu took Sun Qian to the sea where he once waited for sunrise with Yi Ning and admitted to Sun Qian that he was not perfect or had such a mighty heart. The fact that he admitted it made him more admirable since he was down to earth and real, not pretentious like other characters who never cared to acknowledge the matter or ignored it in totality.

Regarding how Sun Qian had changed Qi Xiu, I think it would be the same for Mo Fan since Sun Qian had made Mo Fan realized he needed to move on from his love for Yi Ning and live for himself and being happy. Sun Qian had a strange and positive effect on both guys like Yi Ning once did when they were still at the university. It was interesting with the relationship between the four of them–even if things did not occur while Yi Ning or Sun Qian was not around (due to time or circumstances).

It was also quite interesting that only Sun Qian was the one who was able to persuade Qi Xiu into doing his own surgery and not Mo Fan. But it was understandable, considering how Qi Xiu was still stubborn about the whole matter and how Sun Qian would understand things from a girl’s point of view aka how Yi Ning would want it instead of how Mo Fan would put it as when he tried to force Qi Xiu into doing the surgery. However, due to a cruel twist of fate (or more logically what happened during the previous surgery) that Yi Ning did not remember Qi Xiu, causing even more delay for Qi Xiu’s surgery. If that had not happen, would Qi Xiu had survived because he would eventually go into surgery and recover? Or would it have been too late as well since he had delayed it for so long hence causing the breakdown of his system? My faith in Dylan’s acting restored during the scene when Qi Xiu finally reunited with Yi Ning again–to find out that she had forgotten who he was. It was a very emotional moment indeed. Also, the expression on Sun Qian’s face when she realized the reality of having to step back because she could not fight with the uncontrollable. Then the aftermath of things sinking in for them all, especially the talk between Mo Fan and Qi Xiu in the hallway. Also, the following scene where Mo Fan was taking Yi Ning to the labs for testing and checkups but Qi Xiu and Sun Qian could only look at them from afar, wishing they were with their significant others instead of just standing at the sideline.

I find it extremely ironic though that Yi Ning should think of Mo Fan’s change of hearts when he was distracted with the obstacle they were all in because of Yi Ning’s memory lost. Since the reality was she changed her heart and liked Qi Xiu, leaving Mo Fan behind first. Now that he started over again, she showed up and demanded an explanation. It was not her fault because of what she could not control but I found it extremely ironic of the situation. Another ironic thing was how Yi Ning made the decision to go into surgery so she could have a future with Qi Xiu (since she was fighting for a chance of possible cure in the future) but she came out of the coma to forget him completely. What was even more sad and more tragic was when Yi Ning finally remembered, Qi Xiu has fallen due to the liver disease and it was too late even if he finally knew that she had remembered.

On the other hand, I found the guys’ bonding more worth mentioning because Mo Fan was trying his hardest to get Yi Ning back on her feet again and tried to resurrect Yi Ning’s memory with different stories about Qi Xiu. Qi Xiu was also willing to let Yi Ning live in happiness with not forcing her to remember or causing her to suffer just because that was what he wanted the most. Qi Xiu did not rush her although he knew he only had a little more time. He wanted her to be happy and that was very considerate of him. It related back to him always protecting Yi Ning all these times and not just empty talks.
There were many other reasons why I felt I could not choose in the end but some of the reasons were mentioned above.
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