Actress Olivia Wilde covers the April issue of Marie Claire, discussing her 2011 divorce from Tao Ruspoli and her relationship with comic actor fiancé Jason Sudeikis

Wilde described to the mag her first date with Sudeikis (six months after their first meeting). “I thought, ‘He won’t be interested in me; I’m not a contender.’ He was so cool, so funny – I was such a fan of his and had always fancied his speed and his intelligence. He’s a brilliant actor with a brain like lightening… I felt like fresh meat at the market… I thought, ‘I’m not beautiful enough or his type.’ I couldn’t wait to sit down and hear him talk. On our first date, in New York City, we closed the restaurant down at 2 AM! He didn’t kiss me, and I was madly in love. I was overwhelmed.”

On her 2011 divorce from Tao Ruspoli, Wilde explained, “I had grown up with Tao; we had just drifted. I felt I had something to prove. If you fall off a horse, you get back up. I am not a quitter. I hung on for as long as possible, until it was more hurtful to stay… I’m so grateful for the pain and the heartbreak. It gave me the courage to leave and brought me to the great love of my life.”

Now, Wilde is looking forward to having a family with Sudeikis. “We’ve discussed all our ideals and hopes. I can’t wait for children. I’m open-minded about how many, but three, which I love, is like a little party. I am not trying to have kids now – there’s no strict plan for anything in my life. What happens, happens. He’s so good with kids… I’ve never before experienced looking at someone and thinking, That’s who I want to raise a child with.”

Read more of Wilde’s interview at MarieClaire.com, and pick up the issue on newsstands Tuesday, March 19.