Such A Long Time Coming

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Just registering here was a big step for me. I'm 52, and have been trying to deal with the sexual abuse I experienced as a child from a next door neighbor (family friend) for I think about 6 years. I was 11 or 12 when it started, and he was 30. Sometimes it's hard to remember details, and other times I can remember exactly every little detail of a certain time. I've tried to deal with this on my own in the past but never really made much progress. I've told a few people, but unfortunately they weren't much help, and after each time it actually drove me to repress it even more, because I felt ashamed and guilty and was even blaming myself.

I'm tired...just really sick and tired, and sad. I want to heal and finally free myself of this secret and all these negative feelings.