A little bit of pain feels good. Sometimes I'd provoke my pet into biting me, with those long, sharp teeth; he doesn't mean to be disloyal, but just loses track of himself when I provoke him, because I know what it takes, what works. He just lashes out, very fast, and those claws...

It's a secret I keep from my loved ones.
I still partially blame myself for my past. Sometimes I just cant help it. It just feels right. It feels good kinda. The pain caused by myself makes me feel better. Im so use to feeling pain caused by others so when I do it to myself I...

**Yes, it's going to be a little upsetting in the beginning, and you may think it's pointless at first, but it wont be. Please read until the end, and if you don't, please stay strong.**
Picture this...
You're sitting in your room, scrolling down a page that was dedicated to...

I started developing anxieties and taking on a tons of stress and depression when I was in elementary school ( around grade 4 I guess is when it started to take effect on me ) and sometime during grade six is when I'd felt I'd had more than I could handle ( I was being bullied...

I don't want scars and since it's summer I don't want anyone to see them, or if they do see them I want to be able to brush it off by saying I got them from work. Which is logical because my knees and arms are bruised from work anyway, it wouldn't be that weird to get some...

It all started 2.5 years ago (Jan 2007) when I was at college. I hated my life, myself, college, college work, everything and I almost self harmed once and thought about suicide a bit. In June 2007 I left college, got a job, seemed ok and forgot about it all...

Its like a drug. The first incision is quick, leaving a flesh colored gash staring back at me. In less than a second, blood rushes into the wound and drips down my arm. I attack the same incision multiple times, each time digging deeper into my arm. By about the fifth individual...

I know i promised not to do it again
but i couldn't stand this mental pain
i didn't manage to stop this heartache
i did it again
i cut myself again
i was just trying to calm myself down
i'm so sorry
but i can't keep this promise anymore
maybe happiness is just another broken...

I believe the reasons for self harming are as individual as the people practicing these inflictions...people who have never suffered from depression will never fully understand the need to self harm, for me, self harming is liberating, it takes the emotional pain away that I am...

to start, i have never done it bad enough to make myself bleed.I did it for the first time a few years ago, when i was really depressed.and now ive started again, but not because I feel sad . I can honestly say I dont know why I do it.I just do it.I just love how it feels.And...

for attention. If I hurt myself for someones attention, I would do it in front of their face instead of hiding in my bedroom or bathroom or doing it late at night when everyone else is asleep. Id cut somewhere more visible than my arm or leg, and I wouldnt hide the cuts/scars by...

just give me a chance to explain
Don't grab your "tools" whenever you feel bad.Remind yourself what will happen if you give up.How are you going to deal with it and how are you going to feel?Then refocus your goals,is giving up that easy?The relief that comes from self-harming...

It was late and I was done with putting up with the bullshit. I drank tell I was numb I couldn't even walk straight or even make a sentence come out of my lips. My dad was pissed off we got into a huge argument about how I was ******* up. I went to my room confused and scared...

I just thought you should all know, you're beautiful. I've been down this road and I know how hard it can be, so keep your head up and know that you're all an amazing individual, a beautiful individual, and an important individual.
<3

I side the blade across my wrist... I watch the blood rise from my skin. The burn makes the pain on the inside feel less noticeable. I hate it. I feel helpless, alone, in pain. No one will care if i slice my neck open next time instead of my wrist. No cares what kind of scars i...

pictures that nobody saw. He drew by himself alone at night, locked in his bedroom, out of sight. The pictures were strange; they came with a twist. His pen was a razor. His canvas, a wrist. We lay out at night watching the stars, when he lifted his sleeve and showed me his...

I have spent years forcing myself to hurt myself, only to remind myself Not to hurt others...
When I was in high school, my little brother got into a lot of fights. He was the type of person who would expect his big bro to defend him, and this ended up going at least once a week...

Mr. R Blade.
He is there for me all the time
He listens to my cries, consoling my aching soul
He never talks back to me
He doesn't judge, he accepts me for who I am
Mr. R Blade.
He reassures like no other
No one seems to approve of his company
But I fancy him just fine
He takes...

I'm not a cutter, I'm a scratcher. I didn't love it, I hated it, before today I couldn't remember the last time I scratched, it had to have been just a little over a year ago.
Last year I was depressed, my life was just so hellish, I just moved to a new town for college, I lost...

I started cutting around 6-7 months ago. It wasn't intentional. I thought i was coping... Pushing the flash backs and memories of the abuse back inside. My grades in school were fine for a while... Then they started to suffer, i was causing concern. I was taken into the child...

Matt (my husband) went out with Autumn (his daughter) to the store and I called about how to get tickets for a concert that I feel could help my future possible career (for legit reasons, I know the band and help promote them unofficially.) There are some only a few seats left...

getting all the help that i need. But one of the reasons i decided to quit was because i was getting older and i was wanted to do things like donate blood, but i couldn't with nasty cuts all over my arms, or so that going to the doctor wouldn't be so awkward.
I don't do it near...

and point it to my lips since those boys call me DSL. I always wonder how ill look without them. I keep telling myself not to do it so I put the dagger away but the past few nights, I started scratching myself, peeling deep into my skin, pulling out my hair, and crying myself to...

thigh at the moment ... But I'm overdue for my Pap smear ... *sigh* the dilemmas of a sexually active adult cutter
I'll have to make do with scratching wounds into the back of my hair, nicely hidden and soaked up by long thick hair

I pierced my lip. In the morning I had remembered everything except my reason for piercing it, but I just remembered now. I was listening to music, and one song was really depressing and made me feel like cutting. Instead of finding my blade, I found a needle. I have always like...

I couldn't pretend that I was happy. I broke down in front of two classmates tonight, he was one of them. I wish I had controlled the situation better, I think it was a mistake letting them know about my addiction to self harm and my feelings.
What makes it worse is that earlier...

I have been in a series of abusive relationships; nothing physical, it must just be the type of person I'm attracted to!
My current partner I have been married to for over 10 years. They are beautiful, loyal cleaver and caring... Just not with me.
We have 2 children together...

since I feel alone on this little forming habit.
The first time was in May of 2013 I was a bit emotional from the recent events of that time going on in my head, and at home. I was on the bus, but it started out as friction harm, ended up liking the feel it kept other...