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6th Sep 2015, 6:04 PM

The Q&A is coming up next, and after that, a chapter of extreme importance. There’s been a major problem with this story, and the next chapter is my best chance to fix it.

I am fairly happy with how it’s coming out so far… There’s basically a 98% chance that it’ll work out. Still, the sheer importance of it is nerve-wracking. That 2% keeps me awake at night. X_X Wish me luck!!

6th Sep 2015, 11:04 PM

My problem is that the 2% has five truckloads of megaphones. Logically, it's obvious that I can't make everyone happy, and that's not such a huge deal, but damn those megaphones make my head hurt. I can't hear anything else when the 2% is shouting. >_o

Maybe all I need is a noise blocker...

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7th Sep 2015, 7:48 PM

From personal experience, noise blockers won't work for that sort of thing. Sadly, what works best is just hanging around with the 2% until it feels awkward and leaves. So to speak anyway. The 2% will never totally go away, but as with a crappy friend you learn to deal with it. All part of being human I guess.

But still, &$%# the 2% right?

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7th Sep 2015, 10:49 PM

The weird thing is, the 2% used to be 80%, and I used to get along with it back then. We would sing together. I used to be fascinated and excited about the fact that I had, and would always have, a long way to go.

Now when it opens its mouth, it brings all the megaphones and screams abusive words at me. I experience these... attacks on a daily basis; something triggers it, opening the floodgate for negative thoughts, and I get physically ill from it until it passes. It's not normal. I would have sought professional help for this if I hadn't witnessed how thoroughly unhelpful it was for a close family member. (That, and I also have no money/insurance at the moment.)

Simply realizing that it's not normal and not rational has helped, though. Before the realization, I thought something was ACTUALLY REALLY WRONG. Waiting for the darkness to pass is a lot easier when I know that it will indeed pass... It's like the difference between an acrophobic person falling off the top of a skyscraper, VS the same person doing a bungee jump. Incredibly unpleasant, but you know you'll survive...

7th Sep 2015, 6:58 AM

Hurray! Looking super forward to every update you make like always <3 Wishing you all the luck, you can absolutely do what you're aiming for with the next chapter, I'm sure of it! :D *pours all the oil on Keiiii* <3

7th Sep 2015, 11:08 PM

Yeah, I don't think it's confusing. But neither is it as engaging as it could be. I found out why: it's because Ethan has no reasons to care about any of this, beyond "I guess I gotta tag along." If Ethan doesn't care, why should the readers care about his part of the story? And his part of the story is the core of this comic, even if it doesn't seem that way right now.