Can you believe it’s been TWO FULL MONTHS of Kim Kardashian being holed up in her house? I guess we’ve had plenty of Miley Cyrus and Lady Gaga to fill the void she left behind.

Tomorrow will mark two months since Kim gave birth to her daughter North West, and US Weekly is reporting that the reality star is “obsessed” with getting back to her pre-baby weight of 115 pounds (like above) before stepping out again. I knew we wouldn’t see Kim until she lost her baby weight, I said it from the beginning. She’s way too vain for that.

Kim has been hiding out at her mom’s Hidden Hills, CA home, and is said to be “extremely self-conscious about her current body.” So freaked out, in fact, that she didn’t even attend her sister Kylie’s sweet 16 birthday party at Nobu on August 10. She claims she couldn’t find a sitter – but I think we all know that’s pretty much BS.

According to sources, Kim “said when she comes out and gets photographed for the first time she wants to look hot, hot, hot.” She was 115 pounds before she got pregnant, and she’s determined to get back there. She’s already lost 30 pounds, and would like another 30. “The weight is not coming off as quickly … she plateaued … this is the hard part now.”

Baby daddy Kanye West is apparently being amazing through the whole thing. He loves her curves, and doesn’t care if she loses it. “Kanye has been supportive and there for her, but this is more about Kim being inside her head and obsessed.”

“She’s always complaining about her size,” the insider added. “She says she hates the way she looks and won’t go out again until she is skinnier.”

We won’t see Kim for a while STILL. “She thinks it will take at least another month to get to where she wants to be,” the source said. “Only when she’s there will she start thinking about showing her body to the world.”