I push.
I push people away, out of my life.
I push my happiness aside
For the sake of others'.
I push, harder,
To make the pain stop.
I push forward,
Letting nothing get in my way.
I push in anger, in sadness.

I push the world, rolling it uphill,
As it threatens to crush me.
I push the doors of opportunity open,
Only to have them slammed in my face.

I push all reason aside,
And rely on faith.
I push the gates of Heaven open
Trying to find you.
I hope I won't have to push for much longer,
Because sometimes even when you push everything out of the way,
There still isn't room for everything else.