Short And Sweet

I don’t have the energy for a real post today so you get bullets. I contemplated not posting at all but as I’ve said before, it makes me feel better to post something.

Yesterday I was dangerously close to a full blown panic attack. I’ve only had a few of them but I know when they are coming. My heart starts racing, my body goes numb and I end up on the verge of bawling.

I’m starting to think I may need to get some Xanax from my doctor now instead of right before the wedding like I had thought.

If you are close friends with me there is a couple things you know about me, that I’m very sensitive (I get easily hurt) and that I’m very loyal but I can lose faith and trust very easily too.

Most things seem a little better after a cosmopolitan (Note to self: keep vodka on supply) :martini:

The majority of my stress lately has actually very little to do with the wedding, I just take it out on the wedding because the other stress I can’t do much of anything about at the moment.

I don’t know how it is I piss people off so easily, I really don’t. Somehow I always seem to be rubbing people the wrong way. Luckily, I seem to rub most of you the right way :robin:

I may need to take up S&M, anyone willing to be tied up and have me take all my aggression out on them? I’d do it to Erik but he cries like a little girl.

Maybe you should take some Xanax if you can feel the attack coming. And other than the wedding, what’s bothering you so much? Isn’t the point of your private posts so that you can vent about what’s actually happening?

You know what I hear is really good for getting rid of stress? Getting drunk and coming over to my place to show me your boobs. Strange, huh? But I hear that works really well. Maybe you should give it a try. I mean, if it doesn’t work at least you’ll be drunk and topless.

Insitol is a B vitamin that’ll help you calm down. Take a tablespoon of insitol powder with water or juice (or… in times of desperation… vodka) whenever you feel edgy. It’s harmless and you can even take it on an empty stomach.