Friday

At the risk of being disgustingly cliched, teenager-esque, and lovesick, I'm going to have to pick Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson.

I'm kind of in an unfamiliar place right now, having worked really hard to get myself into a position where I could open up and let someone in, where I could be close to someone, and where I could be physical with someone, so being in a position now where I'm watching it slowly but surely fade into the distance no matter what I try to do to stop it.

It's funny, because I hear myself talk about it, and I realize how stupid I sound. I feel like everyone is laughing at me for being so hung up on this guy, and I am ashamed that I pull the horrific teen excuse of "You just don't understand." But really, it was a rather atypical situation. That doesn't make it hurt any less. It doesn't make me stop wanting to tear my hair off my head in frustration, and it doesn't make me stop crying into my pillow at night. I keep it together in front of him, and in front of everyone I know almost all the time. I'm still clinging to some hope that I can fix things.

But I opened up, I let someone in, and now I'm trying to pick up all the pieces.

Feel free to use this question as a post topic if you are running short on content. OR tell me what song you really relate to in a comment!

Who Me?

I've been the sweet and innocent romantic that has had her heart broken, and the bad girl that feels temporary pleasure from pretending like she doesn't care. It's time to be just me, and it's time for me to learn to love it!
I'm a scrappy little thing but play damsel in distress effortlessly! Intelligent but funny - they should ALWAYS go hand in hand. I take my handbags and shoes VERY Seriously.
I'm hanging in the balance at this point in my life - trying to figure out a few things. In transition in my career, love life and thoughts. VERY Excited to be a part of a new community.
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