Sunday Post-Xenophobia

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Today, a new era begins on my blog.
Every Sunday there’ll be a new article about my feelings and thoughts, that have accompanied me during the week, published here. This Sunday my „Sunday Post-Xenophobia“ is about the situation at the moment in Germany. Although it is a small part of it, but it exists. No matter where I look, everywhere hits me a message or headline directly into my heart. Headlines such as „Again, an asylum home burned“, „Locals of a town defend themselves against an asylum home“ or even those headlines like „some people attack on asylum „,takes my breath away.

I understand both sides. Those who are afraid of losing their culture and also those who search for their refuge.

I was born in Kazakhstan, and with 4 years I have come to Germany since my ancestors were German, I had the „right“ to come home. I’ve always had a German passport and only a german passport. I belong to the people who called „Spätaussiedler“ who was allowed to enter Germany after German reunification and the end of the Berlin Wall. I was thoroughly German, only I was born somewhere else, but I was treated like a foreigner. Therefore, I can feel myself into a refugee. Those refugees who flee just before the war and seek shelter inside. Imagine YOU are a refugee. How you’ll feel like about to left your home, just because of you need to? Only with the things that you carry with you? Without knowing what you’re expecting in your new home or how about your future? In my opinion, it’s a terrible feeling.
My parents were in that situation too, and I am incredibly proud that they have mastered everything. Despite the language barrier, they’re started a new beginning in a new country and have always given us a loving home. It isn’t so that we would have lived in Kazakhstan bad, because we were one of the top layer through inheritances from New York and Germany, but my grandparents and my parents just wanted to return to their roots.

In Germany arrived, we had nothing, only a suitcase and what we wore.
I love Germany and I would really want to never stay anywhere else (perhaps for a certain time;)), because this is my home, don’t get me wrong. But what I’ve been through, it was really not nice and friendly. Bullying at school, not by the student but by the teacher because they always knew about the registration where I was born. I was really in that mood to banish my Russian language completely out of my vocabulary, it was the stupidest thing I’ve ever done, but at the situation at that time I wanted it that way. Just to be a part of this unity. Fortunately, my parents always spoke Russian to each other, when my sister and I shouldn’t know what they’re speaking. Because of my curiosity, I’ve learned the Russian language. I understand everything, but I can’t read or write, which I can change soon. Because languages ​​are the greatest asset, that humans were given.
Through the media world, we’ve all come so close to each other like never before. I get to know lots of great people from different nations and also many cultures and customs. I’m so glad for every experience that I could make and I hope of course, that I can do more.

And such phrases as, „You’re not like THEM, you’re different,“ I really don’t want to hear anymore! I think we are all equal because we are all people who love to laugh, and sometimes we’re also sad. We are human beings and we should act like ones. I hope someday, that we’ll can live all together instead against each other.