Some knew me as Half-Bengali Half-Russian model Liliana Alam. Others knew me as multi-talent genius TheAnomalyInfinite.Others as silly Lili.I've done many things and known many lives,all irrelevant.What am I really?That's an answer best left to time.Because "What are you when you devote yourself completely to an ideal?....You become something else entirely.... And what is that?
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I've completed the 1st draft and printed out all 1400 pages of it. Now I can take it outside Yay! and edit it via hard copy as opposed to being on this macbook 17 hours a day. Oik.

My investor and team of advisers have suggested that perhaps I could split it up into 7/8 mini books to make it more understandable and readable. Like Harry Potter, Star Wars, or Lord of the Rings. I have thought about this idea and am still considering it. But the thing is, my project is all connected and I don't like putting it out in sections just for the sake of extra sales or "easierness". The bible is over 10,000 pages. It is best fully absorbed as it is, not in little segments. What is "easy" isn't always what is Best/most Effective. Segments are what TV shows are good for. (Which I eventually will make). And I intend this book project to be made into a movie which I will modify a screenplay for, direct, produce, and also star in. Everything is linked, and unless it is in full form, it is not a full representation of what messages I'm putting out into the biosphere. Tolkien (author of LOTR) also hated the idea his editor had, but he still came out with 3 books instead of 1 massive one. It is ironic, this conflict of ideals within the business world with art. For a long time I refused to let anyone see my work, because I didn't want to sell it or have it be commercialized in any way. Haha many of you "artists" out there I'm sure feel me on that. But also I find this mentality a bit closed-minded. The "sell-out" concept is far too simplistic. If Einstein never published his theories, modern science and medicine would not be benefiting from his mind. If Shakespeare became a hermit and hid his work from everyone, high schools would be at loss with What The Hell Are We Gonna Do A Play About Now? If Martin Luther King decided to keep his "I have a dream" notion to himself, the fight for racial equality would not have been so successful. If J.K Rowling decided to keep Harry Potter locked in her mind, or R.L Stein didn't publish Goosebumps, millions of school children worldwide would have lost the interest to read. If Benjamin Franklin decided to keep his invention to himself, we wouldn't have light to illuminate our dark nights. If Bill Gates kept Microsoft to himself, and Steve Jobbs kept Apple to himself, none of you would be able to read emails, save time by typing vs. handwriting, or browse through the monumental free search information network: the internet. Now I see the whole bohemian fear of "Selling Out" from a different perspective. If I publish it, a bigger audience will be able to see, benefit, and enjoy my ideas and inventions. Before I did my work for myself alone, and now I also do it for others who find faith and inspiration from my work. As Nelly Furtado has said in her

song "On The Radio (Remember The Days)"

You liked me till' you heard my shit on the radioWell I hate to say but pop aint' going soloYou liked me till' you heard my shit on the radioBut now I'm just too mainstream for you, oh noYou liked me till' you seen me on your t.v.Well if you're so low below then why you watchingYou say good things come to those who waitWell I've been waiting a long time for it

[Chorus:]I remember the days when I was so eager to satisfy youAnd be less then I was just to prove I could walk beside youNow that I've flown away I see you've chosen to stay behind meAnd still you curse the day I decided to stay true to myself

You say your quest is to bring it higherWell I never seen change without a fireBut from your mouth I have seen a lot of burningBut underneath I think it's a lot of yearningYour face, the colours change from green to yellowTo the point where you can't even say helloYou tell me you'd kill me if I ever snob you outLike that's what you'd expect from me, like that's what I'm about

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]It's so much easier to stay down there guaranteeing you're coolThan to sit up here exposing myself trying to break throughThan to burn in the spotlight, turn in the spitfireScream without making a sound, be up here and not look down because we're all afraid of heights

[Chorus]

Why ya hurt me hurt me hurt me hurt me hurt me hurt me so so, leave me down down down down low leave me down da down down da down da down down down...shit on the radio... shit on the radio... shit on the radio... shit on the radio"

Jennifer Lopez's wise words, "don't be fooled by the rocks that I got. I'm still Jenny From The Block." and Will.i.Am of the Black Eyed Peas "Celebrity-Shmembrity. It don't mean nothin. What matters is your heart."

************************************************************************"When you're rich, people don't view you as weird. They see you as Eccentric."

Well people, my dear readers...

I'm rich.

I can use myself as proof of how a dreamer can succeed, as I have achieved much of my dreams despite the odds and people's doubts. I used historical examples to back up my case while I was working hard to achieve my goals and would have liked support and belief from people and my family, but nobody listened. Only now, they are all turning their heads and smiling for me, saying that they are "proud" of me. When all I heard growing up was how much of a failure I was (not based on my achievements, but simply because I was different, and because I didn't do the things that most other kids did). Regardless, I succeeded. And I haven't stopped. I will keep going, keep dreaming, keep achieving, and keep believing and helping in my visions and those of others. And Yes, I am one in a million, I am one of those examples who made it out of incredible odds against them. I graduated high school in 3 years, ahead of my class. I was offered to do a PhD at age 19. I have 3 agencies which sponsor my various acting, modeling, and art pursuits. I make more money in 1 hour than most people make in a week. I have found infinite love. I have done more than most have done in a lifetime. I will be CEO of the greatest company ever to be created by age 25. I am "special" . I am what is considered a genius, an exception to the rule. But before all this, I was Always Doubted. You can do what I do, and what others have done.

Success Stories:

Bill Gates. (a college drop-out) -inventor of MicrosoftRichard Branson (no college degree) - CEO of Virgin RecordsRobert Kiyosaki (degree, but unemployed for 9 years before he became rich) - Inventor of "Cashflow: The Game", Author of "Rich Dad Poor Dad"

****************************************************************Committed relationships open to polygamy.Monogamy is One-Dimensional.

That's it. I'll write on this in my next issue. Stay tuned.

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The Secret (Recently one of the co-authors of this book which has sold 1.6 million copies since December 2006), was on Campbell Live, a New Zealand Talk/News show. The dynamic between John Campbell and the metaphysicist/spiritual healer was not effective in answering questions either side of an argument would have. The metaphysicist was unable to be in the mentality of Mr. Campbell, consequently the majority populace. It was like watching one person question someone in French, and get a response back in Japanese.

I have been explaining points found in the secret to people since I was 10, far before The Secret was officially released, far before I ever heard of what it was, or how to even describe what I knew. And this information, isn't privy to only me. It has been around as long as the universe existed. Whatever form it comes thru, whether thru the Bible, the Quran, Martin Luther King, Ghandi, Mother Theresa, Richard Branson, Britney Spears (yes Britney Spears), Michael Jackson, Kahlil Gibran, Kazi Nazrul Islam, Herman Hesse, Nietzsche, so many others, the message has been around for Eons. That You Can Do Whatever You Dream. I'm glad The Secret has come out. And I'm glad that people have responded to it. It will greatly help the audience market for my book, release date this year 2007. As my book, covers many topics and similar things which The Secret describes. But my book, in addition, has a mega-load of information which takes The Secret to a whole new level. My book is not The Secret. But if you liked The Secret, you'll like my book. My book has 100 "The Secret's in it. Plus artworks, poetry, scientific calculations, theories, answers to pretty much Every Area of Life. From the normal, like, Family, Friends, Love Advice, to "so.....was it the chicken....or the egg??" to "what is the best recipe for food which tastes good, is gourmet, and I can cook in less than 15 mins. ?" More , much more, my dear people, is in my book. Enough of That for now, you'll all read it soon enough. Now.... back to "The Secret"...

I hope to enlighten some points on "The Secret" in what follows:

Ok, so basically what The Secret is about is, you can do whatever you want, have whatever you want, and no matter how broke you are or how horrible of a circumstance you are in, you can "think" your way thru it, and create the life you imagine. You are the Sole Master of Your Destiny, of Your Life, of Everything and Anything that happens to you. Because there is nothing which "happens" to you. You are the one who Makes these things happen, through your subconscious and conscious thoughts.

To all the skeptics, or for anyone who finds this concept a bit too idealistic or just plain weird/hippyish to believe literally, I'll give some examples.

The Law Of Attraction: That whatever you think, will happen. That a Thought, becomes ... A Thing. A thought, becomes an Action.

You think about money, it will come to you.But oppositely if you think you have money problems, thats exactly what will happen.

The Holocaust:

6 million people were gassed. Most people will say, ok, well they didn't ask for this, they didn't think "yes. please kill and torture me just because I'm a Jew".

Well.. heres the thing.

Why The Holocaust is such a monumental moment in history is because so many people died. And Death is Perceived as a Negative Thing. If you thought death was a Good Thing, you wouldn't think the Holocaust was a bad event.

For example, over 6 million new people are Born every day. Life, begins. But nobody celebrates or acknowledges that. People tend to pay attention to things that are negative more than things that are positive.

Now, another question arises, ok , but the Holocaust wasn't just bad because people died, it was bad also because of the Way which they died, and the reasons for Why they died.

Well that brings up two other points:

ReasonJustification

Reason and justice are both things which the human mind has invented. They don't exist. They are based on perception. Just because an Action happens, there is no natural law which makes it any one thing. A tree falls in the forest. Is that good or bad? Now, the same tree we just talked about has fallen on a beaver's nest, making it difficult for the beaver to gather food, and therefore survive. Now is the tree falling a "bad" thing? Think about it. Its the exact same action. A tree falls. Humans adapt things like consequence and judgment to actions in the world, which helps them to understand the otherwise extreme complexity which surrounds them. The universe is a very complex place. But further study of quantum physics will actually show you, that in its complexity, it is essentially Simple.

What we think is "good" or "bad" is only our own arrogance and ignorance of the "bigger" picture.

A boy hits a grandma on her head and robs her wallet. The grandma's daughter avenges her by killing the boy. Is justice served? Some would say so. But the fact remains that all that happened was an Action-the boy robbing the grandma, and this Action is immediately labeled and judged as being either a "good" or "bad" thing. If it is a "bad" thing, the person who committed this "bad thing", must be punished. If the person does a "good" thing, they must be rewarded. Generally people want to pass judgment, because they feel it makes the world a safer and more peaceful place. Without law, there would be chaos, and so forth. And what decides what is law? Usually moral questions of what is right and wrong, good and bad. What is ineffective about this type of thinking is that instead of people genuinely wanting to live in a society where they love their fellow neighbor, they begin to do things because they feel forced to. In other words, a person will not steal, not because they believe it is Bad, but because it is Against the Law. This same mentality can be found in many devout biblical followers. That they begin to be nice to people because of a Fear of God, as opposed to a genuine Love of Man. I discussed this issue in my previous newsletter, which I received some interesting responses to. Scroll down to read the email exchange between Fred Stiplex and myself.

How do i keep my fit body? (And by the way... To see more photos of...My Body and Me...see my modeling portfolio slideshow on www.lilianaalam.com or any of my websites listed at the end of every newsletter and/or email I send to you.) One of my strengths in all that I do, for example: modeling, is my Versatility. I have been Every Look, Every "Type" and find great discovery in being a wide range of people and personalities in my shoots. I do my own makeup, hair, etc. as so far no artist can even come close to competing with me or measuring up to my standards. With Versatility, and Why I experiment with so many various physical appearances, It offers as H.Marko would say "a different perspective, like seeing through different colour lenses." How do all the different people in the world see it? And how do others see them? Spend 1 day as a skinny person, and 1 day as a fat person and you'll see the difference in how you are treated.

There's been suggestion for a www.liliananude.com.....HAHAHAHAHHA. Yeah. U Wish. I do, do artful style nudes and many experimental/extreme shoots but they won't be released to the public until a much later date of my journey. Some other fun stuff I might like to do would be: to be a Victoria's Secret Angel, be in Playboy, FHM, Vanity Fair, Artistic Nude Photography Magazines, Etc. For all business/ modeling/art/photography/etc. booking enquiries email nosfereinsteon314@gmail.com)

I eat whatever I want, whenever I want, but drink green tea, water, take fish oil (omega 3), b-vitamin complex, and I do at least 1 strenuous physical activity e.g something which makes me sweat profusely per day. (this can be anything from running, cycling, swimming, playing a sport, combat training, running around the apartment/house, jumping up and down while cooking, sit ups while watching tv, anything that works your body to the point where you feel nauseous. Make sure to go past your physical limitations. Don't stop when it hurts. Stop at least 10 minutes later. ) Sex is a supplement, not a substitute for exercise, so it doesn't count people!

With regards to eating, although I do eat whatever I want, I eat only when I'm hungry, and I don't overeat. I listen to my body, to my liver, to my stomach, and I sense the internal messages within myself. I eat bread, but I eat whole-grain, I used all types of fatty sauces, but every meal I eat is balanced. For example, I'll cook fried onions w/garlic (garlic is a natural carcinogen-meaning it prevents cancer, finely chop garlic right before you cook it must be fresh, then fry it in a pan w/olive oil as a first step to anything you do in the kitchen), a rich tomato sauce with a pesto and olive oil base, and I'll put in cream cheese, butter, and ranch dressing. But, I add lemon juice (this helps your body digest and decompress fatty acids and allows you to cleanse yourself of toxins which otherwise would be absorbed immediately and stored as Fat.) I eat bagels with cream cheese and butter, but I'll occasionally put on smoked salmon pieces (fish-omega oil-improves mental clarity, helps you lose weight, rids body of toxins-so you'll "poop") and tomato slices (tomatoes are an excellent source of all around vitamins. Whatever you're eating, pop a tomato or a sliced onion in there. You'll already be doing wonders for your body.) The key is always, for me, Balance. Not moderation, but Balance. Eat as much as you want, what you want, but balance it with something that is truly healthy for you. Mix a carrot into your daily milkshake smoothie. Drink 2 glasses of water for every soda. (Although I personally don't drink soda. I prefer plain old solid Water.) I know best, how my body works, and this method has worked for me to lose weight, to keep fit, and maintain a healthy fitness & strength level for all the things which I do, some of which include strenuous and extreme martial arts, dance, combat training, yoga, etc.

I also invented my own fitness programme, ( I lost 15 lbs. -ok i was never fat but at one point I wasn't totally fit either-, and toned my body thru this last year... a lot of very overweight people benefited from my program- think of a better version of Pilates in combination with Tae-bo) soon to be available on my website for the public.

Yeah that is a confusing system , it could go endlessly in debate i guess.

i mean... the start of the universe, when is that? humansdon't even know when it started, and what is the definition of"beginning"? is that when the first atom merged with another? or isthat just when "nothingness" became "something?", but what is"something" and what is "nothing"?

And with birth, confusing, because, as the fetus forms, lets say theterm of embryo , already equates life, so technically, when i wasborn, wouldn't that already make me 9 months old? and, if youconsider, that the actual conception which happened, the "Sex" alreadystarted my life, and it takes about a month to develop, isn't THAT thestart of my life? but also, since i'm made from a mom and a dad, and theyare both a certain age, within sperm and egg, doesn't your age alsoeffect my age, collectively? i mean, if you look at the human race asa whole, and consider genetic progression in that sense... the firsthuman was technically 9 months old.

but that was 4.5 billion years ago. so now... that means that we arealll...AT LEAST.. 4.5 billion years old. Which would explain how muchsmarter and taller, and etc. we are. Its not attributing to ourindividual genetic history, rather a collective history, of our entirehuman species. so those who have had large families, are the oldest,and sometimes wisest, because wisdom is smartness, is progressiongenetically speaking of the human species. ........

Two Debates on College Degree Vs. No College Degree in Life Security. E.g "good job, good family, good life, good money". Recently, this debate occurred between A-a dreamer and B-a person who lives in what is known as "the real world"

Dreamer A believes that security, great achievement, and riches can be achieved without a degree, and with belief in dreams. Person B disagrees, and aims to have a life full of happiness, but with realistic success in terms of a steady job, steady income, happy family, and savings enough to retire and be able to travel. Person B feels that Dreamer A lives in a fantasy world, and needs to be more logical and realistic. The people's names and personal details have been omitted for their security and protection. Both each An interesting conversation to say the least:

Enjoy! let me know what you all think:

CONVERSATION 1: Dreamer A, Person 1

Person 1: so junior. what have you achieved?"including your failures and triumphscuz from where i'm standing ur broke

Dreamer A: but content

Person 1: i don't give a shit about your contentment. i need to know that you can support ur wife and your childand not have to be on welfareand can afford the luxuries in life

Person 1: yeah. i don't believe that. thats bullshit.it doesn't matter what you say . you still have no income.and a wife

Dreamer A: people have great ideas, that leads them to money and power

Person 1: yes, but how do they get there?with degreesand small stepsu talk about greatness, and u dont even have any money!

Dreamer A: e=mc2a poor man came up with that

Person 1: if u haven't succeeded by this age, how will u be able to succeed in the future?yes. and einstein died poor.he never made that much money.he was a genius. but a poor genius

Dreamer A: i would just be graduating college in a year rom nowif i went to college

Person 1: and thank god boy. that would mean u have a guaranteed joband achieved nothingpeople dont want to hire someone like u with great ideas and no degreeDreamer A: i still have a guaranteed jiobJOB SECURITY

Person 1: yeah, doing what? janitor work?

Dreamer A: you can not get FIRED form the military

Person 1: i don't expect u you to do great things. i'm perfectly happpy with the basic things in life. i just need to know that my beloved son is taken care of.

Dreamer A; now, THAT"s job security

Person 1: the military is not a good jobthat is dangerous son.

Dreamer A: it's better than most

Person 1: why can't u just go to college, and get a job, and buy a house?

Dreamer A: Yeah and waste away in a little office

Person 1: you don't waste away in an officesince you're such a genius, that should be easy for you

Dreamer A: doing a meaningless thing

Person 1: oh i see, so i'm a waste?i love my job!i have a happy life!i make money

Dreamer A: DO YOU REALLY?

Person 1: and i have a good timeyes. i do.as for you,but have you lived your life?you are what society calls a loser

Dreamer A: what do you mean have i lived my life?

Person 1: again, with your philosophy

Dreamer A: you can have all the money in the world, but it will not buy you experience or true loveor any such thing that is TRULY valuableit will buy you NOTHINGthat you can take with you

Person 1: yes. i have true love.i am married.i love my wifeand i can provide for herwhich shows my careyou however, can't.so how much do you really love your wife, as you can't provide for her?

Dreamer A: marriage is a partnershiothis is not the 50's

Person 1: yes. based on real things.we provide for each othermy wife has a career too. but it is my responsibility as a man, to provide.she provides too.i agree with you about partnershipbut, we both are college graduateswe have Guaranteed jobs for the rest of our lives!you don't!even with all of your big ideas!

Dreamer A: will they ask you how many degrees you have when you die?

Person 1: no. but they will when i live.and actually you're being contradictive.first you say a man is measured by what he achieves

Dreamer A: yes

Person 1: then you blame me for having actually having measurable achievements

Person 1: it pays for my spirituality and my vacationsi agree with you about the rat race. i have seen this, and i live in this.i do wish there was a way i could not have to be in it.but i live in the Real World.

Dreamer A: that's a shamedoing the SAME thing everyday

Person 1: you can dream, but i know how reality worksit is great that you dream.

Dreamer A: it must tedious

Person 1: but i only wish that you have some income to provide for yourself to sustain your creative lifestylei like my life.i have an incomejust because i do the same thing every day doesn't mean it is boring for me.it pays rent and the billsI like what I do.what is your income?your actual incomeafter taxes

Dreamer A: unemployment1400 a monththat's more that what most people make

Person 1: ah i see. so you use taxpayers money, people who actually WORK hard for a living, to fund your "ideas"that is a horrible thingyou are using people like me,to live.you are a parasite of society

Dreamer A: I EARNED that moneyhow have you earned that money?4 years in the military

Person 1: where do you think welfare comes from little boy?

Dreamer Al i paid more taxes than most people

Person 1: It comes from My pocket!

Dreamer A: i call it my severance pay

Person 1: I am a grown man. I am your father. And your disrespect for me is appalling.

Dreamer A: YOUR RICH

Person I: I raised you and fed you and loved you.

Dreamer A: YOU PAY LESS TAXESyou were never there dadso quit with the bullshiti became a man all by my self

Person 1: I was very well there. I may not have given you all of my time, because I was busy Working, to provide for you.

Dreamer A: without your help

Person 1: I show my love in practical waysnot with these emails which you send to me

Dreamer A: cars and clothes

Person 1: A Man?

Dreamer A: yeah

Person 1: you call yourself a man?You are a boy

Dreamer A: i've accomplished more things than any man twice my agei grew up and maturedand not by choiceonly be necessity

Person 1: Oh wow. yes, that is good. I do agree. I have learned a lot from you. I can see you are very intelligent, bright, passionate, and a nice person.But you are still living like a child.With all your maturity, you still have no steady securityDo you understand what I am telling you boy?

Dreamer A: yeah

Person 1: What is it that you've "accomplished"?

Dreamer: but i'll manage

Person 1: i haven't seen any of these accomplishmentsSon! I dont want you to "manage"!I want you to be able to afford the things you like, and live a happy, good , life!you are my son!I love you!

Dreamer A: there is nothing easy in this life

Person 1: And what worries me also, is that, if you don't succeed, you will come running back to me.And I am not a very rich person.it all requires hard work and sacrificeI have money, and I work hard for it.

Dreamer A: and at the end it will all pay off

Person 1: But if you fail, son, life doesn't always become what we plan. What happens if you fail?You'll ask me for help!And I may not be able to give it to youI will want to, but son I am not a rich man.I am a hard-working, honest person who wants to be happy

Dreamer A: that's why i never really plan. I just go and do it.

Person 1: Why do you have to make it so hard for yourself?You have everything it takes to have many doors open to youI am trying to understand and accept you,because it is necessarybut why do you need to do things this hard waywhy don't you go to college?please. just for me.

Dreamer A: i do NOT want he easy routePerson 1: only 4 years.and then you're free!

Dreamer A: that's what your dad says?

Person 1: you know your grandfather was a strong man. But I went to college for myself.I came from a very poor background.You know that.I made my way through working hard.Not dreaming like you do.why, when you have this amazing opportunity, which so many would love, why are you not taking it?you could get a degree, people will understand what you are saying then.

Dreamer A: people will understand soon enough

Person 1: Son. Honestly. tell me, how are your financesYou have said that I wasn't there for you. But I was son. You were always loved. You chose this way for yourself. It could have been easier for you.

Dreamer A: easy is not the wayi don't want things handed to me on a silver platter and not know what sacrifice and hard work and long hours arei wanna be one of the "people"i wanna know what they go throughTHAT makes a great leader

Person 1: Why?why do you want these things?

Dreamer A: a leader for the people

Person 1: i dont expect them of younobody expects this from you

Dreamer A; like King Arthur

Person 1: just be a good person !

Dreamer A; i'm already a good person

Person 1: well, we could talk all day about historical examples. but those cases are one in a million.you are not King ArthurAnd you don't have to be!a good person who lives off of taxpayer money?that is not a good personthat is a thief

Dreamer A: THIEF??

Person 1: Yes. You live off of other people's money.

Dreamer A: thief are the multi million dollars corporation that feed of the misfortune and misery of the peopleTHOSE ARE THIEFS

Person 1: and how is what you do so different?

Dreamer A: severance payits pretty much

Person 1: ? Please explain to me once more

Dreamer A: half the money i paidin taxes being in the militaryi only get ten grandfor 6 monthsand then, it's no moregoodnight dadi need some restit is almost 2am here

Person 1: Alright son.i love you

CONVERSATION 2: DREAMER B, PERSON 2

Person 2

I think, the main problem for you is that it's difficult for you to beaccepted in the ordinary world because you will be judged by ordinarypeople and by their standards, and that includes me. I am trying to step outfrom my ordinary box and see the bigger picture in you, trying tounderstand what I cannot see and trying to accept and appreciate everythingwho you are, even when I don't understand.

In ordinary world people are judged by what they have achieved inunderstandable way: like, finished university, have good grades, got goodjob, make good money, have good family, participate and give to community,etc. There are certain expectations for certain age. For example, nobodyexpects you to conquer the world by age 25, but you would be considered anachiever if you have finished college, got a good job, became stableemotionally and independent financially. In some countries you would beexpected to have family and children by that time, but in America you canwait until late 30s and still be pretty much on schedule. If you didn't geta family by 45, then the train is gone (for a girl), probably will be nokids anymore and that would be looked by the society as a missed avenue foryou.

I don't mean talking about you in particular. It's just any society andpeople who are part of it, have certain stereotypes, rules, expectations,etc. It's not bad by itself, because it does raise the board, sets certaingoals and stimulates people. Otherwise, it can be very confusing for youngmind to find out what to do. In general, it's well known that good educationopens door to good job and opportunities. Lots of teenagers don't even knowyet what they will be, but at least they know that they need to get goodeducation for the start and take it from there.

So, from general ordinary point of view, very few people can appreciate orunderstand your pass now because it doesn't go in the usual logical way forsuccess. There is no question that the odds for success would have beenbetter in this world if you worked your way in the expected way, but youchose a different way, which is hard to understand for most people andthat's why it will be difficult for you to be accepted by ordinary people.Since you are very talented, I believe, that you will be able to achievewhat you want, but you chose more difficult and complicated way when you hadthe free ticket in your hands. Many people would not understand why youwould not do what would make sense to them, like finish university, stayclose to your family, etc. Me and your dad and your whole family around theworld are ordinary people and have been confused by certain actions you tookbecause from our stand point they are not logical. As much as I myself don'talways understand what you do and probably don't see things the way you do,I am accepting them and support you as long as I feel that what you do makesyou happy and doesn't hurt you. I cannot share your vision because I am anordinary person and don't see things happening in the way which is out ofordinary, but I respect and admire you that you have guts to go your ownmore difficult way, which probably will not work for most ordinary people,but, I hope, will work for you. Regardless of how you will make, if at theend of it you still will be that stable, financially secured, independentand happy healthy person, then ordinary people will accept you too, becausethey can understand and appreciate that result, but they still probablywould never understand how you pulled it through.

Anyway, I am in full support for you and your talents. I think you havelots of great talents and abilities, which are the beautiful gifts and veryprecious. You have many open roads in front of you. As long as whatever youdo makes you happy, I will be happy for you. (It would be great to makeright choices all the times, but we often don't know what is right untilthereafter. Even when we truly believe that we are making the right choiceat the moment, we still make mistakes). Who am I to judge you! I am a humanbeing and made lots of mistakes in my life. I don't have answers foreverything. I do have my opinions, but who said that I am right?!

I have to go to sleep now.

I love you,mama

Dreamer B:

a note about the ordinary people thing...i do match the standards that most people equate with success, or at least i will by the end of this yearand in general, i don't seek approval from peoplethere are many people who are "not ordinary" who are very thankful for what i do and who i amand.. what i do, helps ordinary people as well. although i don't consider anyone ordinary or non-ordinary

Person 2: you are lucky to have them around!

Dreamer B; there are many in this world, who have pushed boundaries, and have pushed the world into progressthese people were people like mepeople like richard branson, da vinci, einsteinnobody understood them eitherbut now people benefit from their inventions and methods of thought

Person 2: i am glad that you are not looking for approval

Dreamer B: in practical termsi know who and what i am, and i understand people most people don't get it. and i don't need them to. i'm more than enough secure with myself.i won't stop what i do just because someone doesn't like me or understand me.cuz i've seen, how much i help people, who don't understand meand even if they don't know that i'm the one thats helping them , their lives have been changed, for the better, because of meas to .... whatever happens in the future.. in many ways, i already am where i want to bei am a success already.being able to live, as who i am, and in accordance with what i think, is success for me.i have many goals and things which i aspire to do,but i'm not in limbo land, waiting to become something else.i already am who i want to beand i already have what i want, and live how i want

Person 2: that's wonderful!

Dreamer B: i am very thankful for how much you try to understand me, and how difficult it must be,and that you do it out of lovei appreciate your love and support

Person 2: and that's why I am happy for you!this is the best thing which can happen to anybody-to be satisfied and happy with who you are!

Dreamer B: =0)

Person 2: I cannot wish for anything better for my child!

Dreamer B: here is something which might explain some ideas i have for my school, there is already something like it out there:www.ramtha.comcheck it out. make sure to read the part about how their average student populace: most have college or post-grad degrees, but make less than $20K, due to choice, because they move away from city populated areas to pursue peace and enlightenment.

in response to your previous comment:It's just any society and> people who are part of it, have certain stereotypes, rules, expectations,> etc. It's not bad by itself, because it does raise the board, sets certain> goals and stimulates people.

yes. it stimulates people to achieve mediocrity, and to settle for alife which has already been lived by so many before them. to reach forsuch average goals is fine, but it is sad, when so many, could achieveso much more.

why make only "good money" when you could be a millionaire?why have a "good job" when you could start a company that actuallycreates even more Great jobs for people, and for yourself?why only "help community" when you can help the world?why "stay close to family", when you can be close to the world?

all these things are great starting points. you could say, until umake money first, how can u become a millionaire?until u have one good job, how can u be ceo?until u know ur family, how will u know the world?

and all this is both true and not true. success and vision, is notclimbing the ladder. that is what most people choose to do , and theyare ceo's or whatever, if they have those dreams, at age 50.

Alexander, the great, ruled the entire european empire by age 25. doyou think that if he decided to go the standard route and become amarried blacksmith (common for people back then) the world would havegrown as much as it did because of his genius? no. it would havestayed the same. success, average success, mediocre success, such asbeing a lawyer, or a doctor, or a scientist, is usually achievablethrough standard means, by age 35/40.

infinite success, as in establishing a worldwide company that feedsmillions, like Virgin records, or Bill Gates's Microsoft, are neverstarted with small goals and ideas. Bill gates is a college dropoutdid u know that? einstein flunked high school.

greatness and great success, are usually not achieved by going the simple route.

most truly great figures throughout history, have always had the mostnon-conformative lives. read their bios! i do!

achieving these simple targets, does not require that much effort,which is why so many do it. but why not dream bigger? i haven't chosena harder path, i have chosen the only path which for me ischallenging. it is much harder for me to aim for small goals andsettle for an average life. i know i have the option, and if i fail mydream at like 50, i'll go to uni. although, i doubt that, as i willkeep trying, even if i do fail. i'll die trying. i don't like to livewithout challenge. my happiness is through challenge, throughachievement, through big dreams. i could right now get a universitydegree, make a good income, and have a stable marriage. but i don'twant to settle for that, when i know i am capable of so much more. Iknow how much i can help people. i already am! and i have! i havealready done what most people don't do in their entire lifetimes.

the world doesn't grow or change by mediocrity.

it changes with boldness and genius, and the people with visions whoshape the world.

if columbus had decided that he wanted to finish university, getmarried, and have a great job and make good money,

nobody would even be living in america.

all people are necessary for this world to work.

and there is nothing less about being a doctor than there is aboutbeing a dreamer. they are both equal, in what the world needs.

this is just who i am, i am a visionary. you are a doctor.

we need both.

i love you,

in practical terms:

emotional stability-in a committed relationship for 3 yearsfinancial stability-professionally sponsored by an investor (in a business arrangement which i wrote a business proposal for).

to give example, as a model, my rate, standard, is $150 per hour. that's more than a certified lawyer makes.(most models make way higher, but i'm a beginner. to give examples,supermodels make about $20 grand per day) and you better believe that i'm gonna make that much too! i'll keep dreaming and achieving to reach my goals!

if i have 4 days of work per week, at 5 hours a day, that is more thanenough to survive.

when i get older and won't be able to do this anymore as a backup,

i will have freelance writing as a backup.

people have offered to pay me for my essays, however i never took up the offer.

I have investments, stock, bonds, and a savings account. I'm smart about money, and I make a lot of it with very little. And the surest way to ensure financial security is to start my own company, which I am in the process of doing. And plus, my company is gonna be the first of its kind to not take advantage of people.

have u read My bio?

its on www.breakfree2energy.blogspot.com

you could say achievement, like measurable things that i have achieved:

graduating high school. not only that, but early and ahead of my classmeeting the standard of what equates "genius" -this can count as amoney-making thing, as no company would want to hire an idiotmaking money with my pursuitsfor example: acting-paid to be on tvmusic-paid to performmodeling-paid to modeletc.

there are more things, which u can ask me about.

i love to talk to u!

it really helps me greatly to understand what you think, what u feel,and how other people like you feel and think. i'm not comparing you toother people, you are your own person, i am just saying, that , ithelps and i'm thankful for it.

so please, keep telling me, how other people perceive me. includingfamily, people, etc. i think i have a pretty good idea, but ialways like to know more.

i love you,

Don't Like Me? Hate Me? I don't really give a shit either way! Why don't you send me an email? I get plenty of fan mail and hate mail. Maybe you'll be featured in my newsletter email section of STUPID PEOPLE:(Or if its a collaborative email of thought-sharing, maybe you'll be featured in my GENIUSES section)

This STUPID PEOPLE Issue Features: Fred Stiplex of Wellington:

(He starts off fine for the first few emails, then he just gets STUPIDER AND STUPIDER. Sad. So Sad. Please, Observe...)

On 4/15/07, Fred Stiplex < timefo********@***.com> wrote:

Liliana,Mmmmm. One of your last newsletters contained horrible,negative andimmature comments, as did your reply to my email regardingyoursinging idea with the band. Regardless of the all the greatthingsyouhave to said, I can't take you seriously anymore. Do youunderstandthe mixed messages you send?Fred

On 4/15/07, TheAnomalyInfinite a.k.a Liliana Alamwrote:

Hi Fred,1. mixed messages i do understand. that is who i am. i am amulti-version of many a thing. whilst many people are onestereotype,i am no stereotype.2. YOU were the one who asked me to be in your band, (and as you know I already have a band, but still I gave my time to you) and i felti expressed a genuine interest and response. it seems you are theonewho lacked serious direction. please do though enlighten me asto whatcomments i have said in response to singing for your band youfound"immature, horrible, and negative."i can't say it bothers me that you "can't take me seriouslyanymore",rather that your comment is interesting and amusing, and fairlypredictable.so... i don't know how you will respond to this, seeing as youfeelthat i give off mixed messages and so forth, but love to you,and mayyou continue to progress in the way you want to.Va Savoir,Liliana Alam a.k.a TheAnomalyInfinite

On 4/16/07, Fred Stiplex < timefo********@*******.com> wrote:

Come on Liliana, talking about murdering children andcats?? Saying(to me) "i'm gonna kill everybody one day?" This is all meant sopeople can see who you really are?? What, a sadistic killer? Amultiversion of many things?You seem to live this persona through internet and emails. I havecomeacross people like you before, and I too find it all veryinteresting,amusing and predictable.I genuinely wish you the very best and hope you keep inspiringpeoplewith your more positive and enlightening messages.Fred."Don't walk in front of me...I may not follow.Don't walk behind me...I may not lead.Just walk beside me and be my friend" - Anon

On 4/16/07, TheAnomalyInfinite a.k.a Liliana Alamwrote:

Fred-do you understand the meaning of a "joke", "rant", and "whenyoutake life too seriously, it ceases to be funny." i'm sure you atsomepoint or another were upset /angry/found something hilarious orannoying. does that mean, that this is ALL THAT YOU ARE? no.i am not like "any other people you have met."i understand that you don't know me. so i wish you well. pleaserefrain from making judgments about things which you don't know thefull story about.thank you for your well wishing.

On 4/16/07, Fred Stiplex < timefo********@*******.com> wrote:

Well what a great sense of humour you have! I don't believe you.That'scomplete BS. You are just covering your foolishness. If you don'tlike memaking judgments about you (rather hypocritical for you to say I mightadd), then don't encourage it. You are full of condractions - on one handyoucommented on foul-mouthed parents then you use expletives all throughyourrant! What's the joke there? It really did show your immaturityLiliana.It was just a shame to see you rant like that after coming across assomeonewith such positive and inspiring messages for people. Those thingsblew meaway and was awesome to read. The world needs more of the positive andencouraging messages and less thoughts of pain and hate. If beingmulti-facted to this extent is indeed who you are, then fine, butdon't beconfused or surprised by the repsonses you get.I actually think that the reason you do these newsletters is to get asmuchresponse as possible from as many people as possible. You want to pushallthe buttons you can.You're no enigma to me.Peace and loveFred

I'm not confused or surprised by the messages I receive. And ThankYou, For telling me what the world really needs. Oh, Yeah, Also, fortelling me, who I am, and stating what I am. Thanks, It how can Isay.. Really Helped, Because you see I have No Idea Who I Am, so Idepend on down-to-earth people like you to enlighten me.

I don't believe I ever once stated to you that I want you to think ofme as an enigma, or non. You drew that conclusion yourself, and seeingas it is You, and not Me, who is so affected by what I write and/orwhat I do, please, for your sake, I ask you to stop.

Glad You Think All I Want To Do Is Push People's Buttons. That makesme so happy, because well what can I say, It's True! You really doknow me! Out of Curiosity, How many do you have? Are they blue, pink,polka-dotted? Wow. That's Cool.

I'll be sure to keep on being as contradictive, retarded, and anyother thing which frustrates you as possible to annoy and piss you offeven more! You probably won't take my aforementioned advice, and willkeep on doing this to yourself. Make sure that you proudly proclaim tothe next lunatic you encounter, such as myself, (as your girlfriendenlightened me as well. I feel So Loved! Wow!), that you think theyare full of bullshit. They Definitely Need It!

And I hope it comforts you to know, that I, the Bullshitter, Make MoreMoney Than You, Do Whatever I want Whenever I want, Have WonderfulFriends, Have Enemies, Have Helped people across the globe some whothank me regularly for Changing Their Lives, Have the Eternal Love ofthe most Amazing man on the planet, A Slammin' (yes, that is theexpression people say about me, wow really? damn i feel so special!,hmmm.. I wonder....) Body, Am simultaneously Enlightened and Idiotic,Can Tie a cherry stem with my tongue in 30 seconds, and Did I mentionI'm Rich? Oh Dear, Was That Redundant? Woops. This email was fun towrite. Thank you for Giving me this Grand Opportunity.

In the words of the emperor of us all who perhaps would think I was apathetic fan, but thats Ok (its ok, its ok, my mommy likes me.waaaaaaaaa. ok, ok, just don't them see you vulnerable) because yousee Hans, I am so Inspired by his Devine Message, which is:

"I Am Whatever You Say I Am, If I Wasn't, Then Why Would I Say I Am?"-His Holiness, the Great Eminem

Damn, man, it feels so awesome to remember something when you thinkyou forgot it. I just love that feeling. I REALLLY do.

WWWOWOWOOWOWOW.

I recommend that your ugly girlfriend loses some weight and removesthe stick out from her ass. Are You Even Getting Any? Poor Thing, You.Oh, and I also recommend that you improve your musical abilities, asfrom what I've personally heard, You.. "Suck".

i think that was it. maybe. i'm not sure.

if i remember something else, i'll be sure to email it to you.

mmmk.

Bye Bye! Oh, I thought of something else. With the greatest intentionof being unoriginal and cliché,

Fred, YOUR BROKE ASS SELF, YOUR SHITTY MUSIC, AND YOUR BEYOND BUTTUGLY GIRLFRIEND CAN KISS MY ASS. Make sure you deliver this message toher! in your sad little wellington flat, You see, she very clearlystated for me not to contact her again via myspace, which I have everyintention of complying to.

I will close with a..

FUCK YOU. FUCK YOUR GIRLFRIEND. NO REALLY, FUCK YOUR GIRLFRIEND.

and,... FUCK YOU BOTH.

byebye!

I hope you both hire bouncers to beat me up (well, probably not,seeing as you two probably couldn't afford it, in addition, if youdid, I'd really like to meet a man who can kick my ass, it would bereally nice, seeing as many such "trained athletes" are completePUSSIES) and bad mouth me all around Wellington! I would really,really, love that. NO REALLY, HATE ME!! PLEASSSSEEEE!!!!!!! Can't yousee I'm fucking Desperate for Attention!!!??????

mmmmm. i think that was it. no... was it?

hmmmm...........................

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PUT OUT YOUR MUSIC IN THE POPULACE SO PEOPLE WILLSEE HOW MUCH YOU AND KENT LACK VISION IN YOUR MUSIC AND SOUND JUSTTHE REST OF ALL THE DUMBASS KIWI BANDS THAT COME OUT. HATE ME HATE MEHATE ME HATE ME DON'T EVER FUCKING WRITE TO ME EVER AGAIN TAKE ME OFFYOUR GMAIL ACCOUNT HAVE YOUR GIRLFRIEND DELETE ME OFF OF HER MYSPACEFRIENDS! PLEASE, I BEG YOU, HATE ME.

On 4/16/07, Fred Stiplex < timefo********@*******.com>wrote:

You take me very seriously don't you? I don't hate you Liliana, never haveand never will. You're hate and anger can't penetrate me darling.

AND.. EVEN WITH ALL YOUR STUPIDITY AND IGNORANCE, I'M STILL OPEN TO YOU:

On 4/18/07, Fred Stiplex < timefo********@*******.com> wrote:

Dear AI,

I don't wish to annoy you with my emails, so if this is unwanted pleasedon't reply. I always find what you have to say both fasinating andinteresting, so read your current blog entry!

I would like to engage with you again in a more productive way, if you'llallow. I'm not put-off by our last emails.

"LOVE AND HATE IS THE SAME

Why is it that people seem to remember messages of negativity more thanmessages of positivism? They are The Same! Hate is no worse nor better thanlove. It is the action, of actually living, which matters. We are all alive.Whether you describe some people as good or evil, they are alive regardless.I am a multi-version of many a thing. I hope you all are smart enough torealize that there is no difference between hate and love. That Hate Is LoveIs Life. That is the message I have been trying to explain to you all!Everything Is Nothing. Math is Science Is Religion Is God Is Britney SpearsIs Literature Is You Is Me. If someone says, "Fuck you", why is it that youpay more attention to it even if the very same person who said this, hasalso on numerous occasions said, "I Love You"? Why do people value what ispositive over what is negative, and then Paradoxically remember what isnegative over what is positive? Try to realize, instead of separating thegood from the bad, that the good Is the bad."

I do understand what your saying, that is, there can't be Hate without Loveor Love without Hate right? Otherwise what would be Love and what would beHate? But then it's possible Hate alone without Love would have anothername, as with Love without Hate. So then, how do you define Love and how doyou define Hate? What are the definitions of these words? If they are oneand the same, why do they have different names?

I would love to continue communication with you. I'm happy andinterested that you have communicated with me after our shall we say"verbal battle", or rather.... my cynical remarks, which I don't "takeback", but know their offensive/mean spirited interpretation couldhave put you off. I appreciate the love you have within you. (You maynot find your email as an act or anything of love, but to me it is.Its like, if your girlfriend yelled at you, you would not walk away,and instead you would try to help her in some way, or just connect andshare. Anyway.... that isn't mean to freak you out or anything, I'mjust saying thank you for your connection. I was a bit sad about ourabrupt end of communication. I probably (don't know now, but justknowing me) would have communicated with you after a while if u hadn'tdone it first. And I still have some questions for you, please look forthem in my previous emails about comments you have made, which I wouldlike to have answered when u have some time. For example "you havemade immature comments about band involvement"-what have i said? ifeel the opposite, that i've made an effort, and it is you who firsteven asked me to sing for ur band, and even though i was busy, i stillwas enthusiastic and willing to take it seriously. I felt blown off byyour , what i interpreted as lack of professionalism. Please enlightenme.)

I do understand what your saying, that is, there can't be Hate without Love> or Love without Hate right?

Not necessarily. Hate can exist without love, and love can existwithout hate. It is like, peanut butter and jelly. they can existseparately, but to understand the full mergence and explosion offlavours, tasting them together, and in equal proportions, is the mostenlightening. (but then again, there are many who don't like peanutbutter & jelly, and that doesn't mean they are ignorant, its just amatter of taste, metaphorically if you will) Hate does exist withoutlove in the world, it can be found in many places, as I'm sure youknow and have seen. So does love. What I find is that completeobedience to either one or the other limits us from absorbing the fullbeautiful and amazing, or rather "mind-boggling" value of everything.I wouldn't say the key word is "balance", but thats probably the bestway to sum it up, if I think of another word i'll let u know.

Otherwise what would be Love and what would be> Hate?

Yes that is true, brilliant point, the paradoxicality-is that a word?well if it isn't i made it up-see Neologism-i learned about this wordthrough the inspiring Helmut Marko. Its like, how would you know whatdepth is, if there were no holes? The human mind searches forcomparisons, in dealing with life's mysteries. But, scientificallyspeaking, darkness does exist without light. Although darkness is anabsence of light, if there was no light, there would still bedarkness. The universe did exist before we actually knew of itsexistence. A lack of nothingness, is still nothingness. So... hate canexist without love, and vice verse. as to definitions of hate, this mayvary for many, my personal definition of hate is the following "theconscious decision to not be vulnerable in any manner." vulnerabilityis usually associated with pride, a thing which has caused many wars.To further explain how this definition can be implied in life, I willdescribe Actions of hate, or , acts which have hate as theirunderlying motive. Acts of hate would be racist killings, masssuicides, Ku Klux Klan, gay shootings, etc. I don't find hate to be anegative or unfavourable quality. Naturally speaking, we need acts ofhate to control the populace and weed out the survivors, in order toproduce finer genetic specimens therefore progressing "life, theexperiment", itself. Acts of love would be for me, "consciouslydeciding to be vulnerable, in whatever manner, and not succumbing tothe instinctual pressure of pride." Acts of love would be letting yourguard down for someone you love, changing some mannerism of yours tomake someone feel a certain way ("better"), sharing love with peopleas a whole verbally or physically, sex (but sex can also be an act ofhate), sacrifice of self pleasures for the fulfillment of someone else(but paradoxically why would this person want u to do this if Theyloved you? the boundaries of hate and love betwixt...), etc. I also donot find love to be a favourable or disfavourable thing. Love can savepeople from death, medically, -healing cancer stories, etc. Whichtechnically goes against mother nature and therefore keeps people onthe planet far longer than is necessary to ensure the survival of themass populace. Each human takes up space and energy. Although energyis transferable and changing. Anyway... Love can physically andmentally change a person to becoming something truly "great". -Jesus.But Too much love can blind people from progression, and also damageany chance of survival. Sometimes love can dangerously illude hope inmasses, and actually drive them to the point of committing acts ofhate in order to ensure a constant state of love. E.g, shootings inthe name of "god and religion". hippies vs. government heads byshooting militaristic presidents. Love and Hate are both powerful, butthey are insufficient by each other.

But then it's possible Hate alone without Love would have another> name, as with Love without Hate. So then, how do you define Love and how do> you define Hate? What are the definitions of these words?

read above.

If they are one> and the same, why do they have different names?

Why do you and I have different names? We're both organisms withblood. Or rather, why do you and your father have different names?You're both of the same genetics pool. Classification, andorganization, is a programmed thing within the human mind. Our brainsare more powerful than any computer. Our mind take "planning andmemory" to whole new levels. So, as the human species naturallyorganizes, thus is the world which they live in. But in wild non-humannature, foxes don't have names. Animals don't look at each other as"Joe" and "Tracy". Not because they are not different, but becausethere is no self-ego perception as is found in the human. You and Iare different. But we are also the same. As are love and hate.

Looking forward to your thoughts,Liliana the furry monkey (the last part describes my current mood)

************************************************************************A Note to Parents that look down upon their children, only to realize that Their Parents, Also looked down on them. Generation Gaps, What We can Do To Solve This: Love Each Other. Accept each other. Understand Each Other. Put your ego and perceptions aside and try to be open to someone else's unique experience and view of life. Everyone Thinks They're Right. So We All Are. Just Not To Each Other. Lets Change That!

When it comes to beauty, you spare no expense - and it shows
You're the kind of woman a man would launch a thousand ships for
It's hard for anyone to beat you in the beauty department
But remember, it's okay to show a flaw or too - you've got plenty to spare

You stick with your friends no matter what, even if you feel like they're doing the wrong thing.
You believe in letting people figure out their own path in life. It's not your place to interfere.

And part of your loyalty means that you'll do a lot for your friends. You definitely go the extra mile.
You'll even do great things for friends without them asking. After all, that's what friendship is all about.

You are truly a friend for life. And you have friends you've known since you were a kid.
Your friends can count on you to do a favor, remember a birthday, or just be there to listen.

Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else

You really can't be friends with: Fickle people who change friends quickly

You totally fit the profile of a tortured genius. You're uniquely brilliant - and completely misunderstood.
Not like you really want anyone to understand you anyway. You're pretty happy being an island.

Admit it, you can seduce practically anyone. And sometimes you try just for fun.
You're a total heartbreaker that knows when to play it cool.
You are the type of person people go completely lovesick over. Just use your powers for good, okay?

You're highly reactive, energetic, and super charged.
If the occasion calls for it, you can go from 0 to 60 in a split second.
But you don't harness your energy unless you truly need to.
And because of this, people are often surprised by what you are capable of.

Why you would be a good superhero: You have the stamina to fight enemies for days

Your biggest problem as a superhero: As with your normal life, people would continue to underestimate you

Your sexual power is obvious - you don't do anything to hide your sexuality.
In fact, if there's such a thing as a person with too much sexual power, it's you.

Your life and thoughts are dominated by sex. And while it's good to be sexually liberated, you're starting to have a one track mind.
You don't always have to use your sexual power. There's more to human interaction than getting naked!

There's hardly a person on this earth more real than you are.
You have no problem showing people who you are, flaws and all.
For you, there couldn't be any other way. Because it's way too stressful to live an inauthentic life.
You're very comfortable with yourself. And because of this, you're able to live an exciting, interesting, and challenging life.

Why? You like your guys manly - and in control
Not to mean controlling, but you do like the guy to take the lead
A Fire Sign man will take you by the hand and show you the world
Just make sure you're bold too - because this guy likes a challenge!

Hahahah. that's what Every quiz says. Cuz I'm a Leo too-fire sign. Well I'm with a Scorpio (the most fuckin' complicated and mysterious one there is!!!!! geezus)-and it works GREAT. But yea...I do like men who are challenges.

You Are Most Like Samantha!

For you, dating is the ultimate sport
You're into guys with power, looks, or a lot of money.
You rather have a great two weeks than a great forever.
But even you fall victim to love from time to time. :-)

Almost every guy that crosses your path ends up a little worse for the wear.
You see men as your playthings - and your motto is "So many men, so little time."
And while you're having fun, everyone is a little scared of you.
Your girlfriends are leery of your man-eating ways. And most men find you downright freaky.

When you were a kid, people often remarked on how mature you seemed. You acted quite adult.
You excelled at school, and you actually enjoyed it to a large extent. No one had to ask you to do your homework.

As a kid, you were probably a bit picky. You liked structure, schedules, and organization.
You had trouble being friends with regular kids. You probably were only friends with other serious children.

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Generally, you're very happy being a single woman.
And anyone who has a problem with that... well, that's there problem.
Not that you wouldn't share your life with the almost perfect guy.
You simply won't settle though. Your life is too good to share with some substandard man!

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You say whatever is on your mind. Other people's reactions don't phase you.
You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.
You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.