day dreamer…

Some days it’s a bright and happy place filled with joy and great expectation for the things to come. 💛

Other days there is worry or confusion over the next step to take, failure lurking behind my indecisiveness. 💛

There is grief for losses that words won’t do justice too. Rivers of tears flow freely in my head because there it’s safe to wade through it all without the “just get over it mentality” of our current culture. 💛

Love lives there too. Deep abiding love for my God and the gift He gave me in my husband and children. 💛

I dream of the day I get to hold my daughter again or hear my father’s laughter. I dream of my book hitting the NYTimes Bestseller list and Oprah calling to interview me. 💛

I dream of being debt-free and remodeling my 1969 kitchen with a table large enough to hold more than four. 💛

I dream of making the perfect cheese soufflé that doesn’t actually fall when you take it out of the oven 💛

I dream of wearing the perfect Lily Pulitzer shift dress, in a size 10 no less, while walking along the beach hand in hand with my guy, my hair and makeup on point. He can’t take his eyes off me 💛

I am a dreamer. I look at what I’ve written and I realize how trivial it all may seem to someone else. 💛

I chastise myself for not being more altruistic but then God isn’t done with me yet. Honesty is always the best policy and I believe in authenticity over fabrication any day of the week. 💛