I am so fortunate to have 2 wonderful daughters, and when I found out that I was pregnant again (both of the others required that I have Metformin & Femera), I was apprehensive, but so excited! I didn't tell many people because I was afraid that SOMETHING.BAD.MIGHT.HAPPEN and unfortunately something did. According to my LMP, I would have been 6 weeks and 1 day today, but instead I'm cramping and soaking through mama pads. It's odd how attached I managed to get in the short time that I was aware of the awesome gift that I was given. I'm conflicted because I am so very grateful for my wonderful children; but for just a moment I thought that I might get to experience it all again (my husband is totally done with having kids according to him). Now I'm just back to being sad and to having to call the OBGYN to cancel the appointment I made for a first u/s. Sigh. Just wanted to cry somewhere that I knew some folks would understand even though it was so early. Somehow I feel like I shouldn't be that sad 'cause most people would say that I'm just a little 'late'. I had a picture of my "Pregnant" pee-stick on my phone and would look at it lovingly and send happy vibes to the baby. Thanks for letting me vent.

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Erin. wife to Greg. Mama to Grace, Abby & Lilly
Grace's birth story here. Abby's birth story here. Lilly's birth story here.
“...most of the time, all you have is the moment, and the imperfect love of the people around you.” -Anne Lamott

I'm sorry momma, I had a mc at 6 weeks myself. And my husband also said he was done at that time. It was heartbreaking. I'm sorry you at hurting.

Can I just give you some hope and say this pregnancy is the third one since that mc and my husband had a total change of heart, it was all the LORDs doing. Many years of prayer and anguish but God is so faithful. Don't give up, cry out to Him.

Thanks ladies-- it was hard yesterday when I passed what must have been the placenta... I almost lost it in the women's restroom. I feel so silly for having thought about due dates, done the Chinese gender prediction, etc. Ah well- que sera sera. Thank you all so much for your support.

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Erin. wife to Greg. Mama to Grace, Abby & Lilly
Grace's birth story here. Abby's birth story here. Lilly's birth story here.
“...most of the time, all you have is the moment, and the imperfect love of the people around you.” -Anne Lamott

A baby is a baby, no matter how early. Love doesn't care how long it's been, just that it is.

PM if you need to chat. You know I'm always here for you.

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grateful stay-at-homeschool mom to 5yo DD#2
missing spirit-baby DD#1 (left us @ 32w preg) and the little ones who only stayed a few weeks*After 31 cycles TTC, DD1's soul has returned to us! EDD 2/27/18!!*"Death can't stop True Love - it can only delay it for a while." - The Princess Bride

Don't feel silly. I just miscarried a little before 7 weeks. It is still a loss and still a grieving process. My first two babies i miscarried at 4.5 and 5.5 weeks. I had to grieve, even when I had only known for 2 days with the first. It is a loss of a baby, and feels like the loss of a dream as well. ((HUGS))

I am so sorry for your loss! I've had several miscarriages myself and it is sooooo disappointing and difficult to lose a pregnancy no matter how early. Hopes and dreams for that child start as soon as you know you're pregnant and the loss of the pregnancy is the loss of a dream as well.