Friday, January 27, 2012

I got a lovely challenge from Anni who is such a lovely girl! This is my very first challenge ever haha. "If I could choose" is the name of the challenge. Firstly I will do this in Finnish and then maybe in English.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Last time when I listened to Patti Smith was about year ago. Same thing with Nico. Because the night and Dancing Barefoot were songs of my dark and lonely nights. I remember those nights when I was taking dog out and everywhere was so dark and I feel depressed. But Patti Smith was gorgeous! Now I found Smells like teen spirit cover made by Patti Smith from Spotify. I think I have listened to this song, too.

In 2010's Christmas holiday I read book of Antti Nylén and he told about Nico. I listened to album The Marble Index and it was somehow depression music, too. I really liked it but now I can't even listen to it, it makes me feel quite melancholic.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

< This is how I feel today. I saw
confusing dreams. Dreams about school ending party, drugs, my mother and
my friends. I was travelling and I spent a night in my mother's old
house where she had live when she was 18 or so. At first there was dirty
and dark, unpleasant to be. Then Jasmin and some boy appeared. I hugged
Jasmin and Ida was there, too. Then Jasmin left and my mother,
grandmother and little brothers came. I left to city with Selleri and
Ida, we were eating out in some super cute Chinese restaurant. I was
afraid of losing money and everything was somehow blurred.

I
also saw someone old friend and we used drugs, that was quite funny. It
really felt that my feeling was getting better while I was sleeping.
Maybe I'm afraid of school. And when it's ending. We have school ending
party at 16.2.

Sorry for my very unreadable text haha. I didn't go to school today. I'm not interested in going there. School makes me feel irritated and nauseated. I can't wait it's over. But still I have a lot of work to do. And it's distressing. I hate to write about school. I should have something else to say.

I have read Kafka's The Trial. It's published in 1925 and it tells about arrested man who end up in feet of bureaucracy. It said about The Trial that it's the best-known work. And it's true, still I have read Kafka's The Metamorphosis and A Hunger Artist before that.