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you know when you get to the point where you're completely accustomed to it, and it seems like there actually isn't any other way of living, and you start finding it weird that sometimes people aren't single, but then there's these occasional outbursts of panic, and all flings and one night stands leave you completely dissatisfied and feeling empty and hollow, but you've been single so long that getting into a state of mind where you could actually go out with someone seems like such a barrier that you don't even bother doing it (and have probably inadvertently put off several prospective partners through this) but above all else, you're really really bored of even having to think about romance and suspect you might end up a bitter old homeless junkie?

give it five years though, and many of these marriages will have ended. maybe i should resign myself to just waiting for the second round. i think i'm more of a second marriage guy anyway - you've had your first, more exciting choice, it didn't work out, so now time for the safer, more reliable option. safe, reliable garry won't have an affair and will always do the washing up. that's me.

It's only in the last year it's really bothered me though - I was single all the way through uni (yes, I know) and wasn't that arsed since I was more interested in getting wrecked with my mates and besides, I knew people who were having a really shit time in relationships.

But now I'd quite like the companionship (urgh), not to mention the occasional soapy titwank. I couldn't really imagine anyone would find me charming or attractive enough to give me one, though.

i was watching barry lyndon with the blinds closed in my pants with digestive crumbs all over the shop. i took a step back and thought i cant see myself with a girlfriend any time soon. not in a blokey, men behaving badly type way, just in a misanthropic bastard that enjoys doing stuff when and how i want etc and would hate to be tied to someone constantly type way.

but then i took another step back, looked at myself and a lonely tear trickled down my cheek.

someitmes i miss being 'young free and single' but then i have hangovers and my boyfriend puts me in the shower, washes my hair, strokes my back all day, makes me food when i can manage it and generally takes care of me. not to mention the all round being taken care of and knowing you have someone who loves and adores you and will always be there for you.

although yeah, sometimes you want to punch them and be on your own for a bit, over-all its great. then again, thats dependant on it being the right person ofcourse.

I'm a solitary person. All the things I enjoy are individual pursuits. I recognise that I need to be around people to avoid becoming a misanthropic hermit, but generally I'd rather be alone. So being single is just fine with me. Company occasionally is nice though.

who need to always have company and depend on it for their happiness. I really like being on my own. Maybe if I knew more people who liked watching the featurettes on old Doctor Who DVDs things could be different.