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Sometimes I think I’m sharing a thought and I start it…and then on it goes into a teachable moment. I be laughing sometimes ’cause God be like, “Since you’re in a writing mood…” Paragraphs form in my status box, or anywhere I begin writing. Interestingly, it’s like hearing an impromptu speech…and having to write it. You don’t hear anything but I do. I assume it’s much like artists and their canvass, or a singer and their voice, and a rapper freestyling bars upon bars. God zones in and I zone out. Sometimes we stay together…a non duality state. Simple thoughts are BEcoming rarer these days…pages fill up themselves, sometimes I gotta break it down or edit or whatever. But I still have plenty work though. And I’m grateful for that. Ask and it will be given. Not just the craft, talent, skill, and such…but also the higher learning of Self, not all the answers are given to us, but enough to guide us toward being the highest expression of our Selves. Bless

Changing lives means changing minds, changing hearts, and changing beings. Initially, you don’t realize giving so much of yourSelf, at the risk of being deemed a fool, pays off—you’re blessed with any number of possibilities to create at your will. It’s a fair commitment, in spirit and in truth. You’ve managed to provide tools to others that once they’ve been touched, they can’t help but have a different outlook on themselves, others and life as a whole. It literally causes as my heart to be moved as it receives such a great satisfaction.

It isn’t necessary to force any of your personal issues on others; make it a teachable moment by sharing the LESSON. Some may express feelings to do what you do. Changing others requires one to BE changed. It isn’t necessary to being your whole Self, as you all have been only working on your own selves for a while of short ranges. Every moment of growth and evolution is indeed a teachable moment.

You show the way by showing a way. A different way than what others may believe to be their only choice. You are a provider, teacher, guide, and an active listener—to name a few. You are a Wayshower. All choices require stages after ones decision to make a change. These stages vary from shock, to sadness, to anger, to grief. If it were not so, there would be a noticeable lapse back into old beings. Avoid going through the stages for others. Avoid overly empathizing.

Simply continue on in your work until you are asked again. Make every attempt to meet them where they’re at, and move forward. God is good. You can always call. Use your spiritual tools and abilities, as you evolve yourSelf, it will become like first-nature again.

You’ve all managed to overcome adversities of sorts and STILL your willingness and eagerness to undertake new projects and relationships is approached with a pristine newness of desire to create—-every time.

Bravo! May I suggest, if you re-member, the old way of doing things—when you each come into those “new” feelings, to HOLD that higher vibration throughout your projection.

When you sign your name to a piece of paper, let it BE to serve your highest purpose.

When you enter a new relationship of any sort, let it BE to serve your highest purpose.

When you’re sitting in thought, tune into your heart’s desire and let your SPIRIT be raised and plug into those the higher vibrations/frequencies. Hold those vibrations THROUGHOUT in order to experience your desire—your CREATION.

When I was cold in my house a few nights ago, all I desired was HEAT! We didn’t have utilities as a result of hurricane Sandy—yes I was worried, then sad, then angry. I saw it for what it was OUTSIDE of myself, in the world. Now, after some days, I had calmed down and was ready to deal within myself again. That’s all I meditated on and then at some point it happened—from over my head it began to warm me inside and out. I felt tremendous warmth, I didn’t look around to see where it came from, I KNEW it was ME. I could FEEL and that’s all I desired—to feel warm. I didn’t have to work hard and sweat and roll over…I simply desired what I want, I can even call it meditation with conviction—that would serve my highest BEing at that moment…and CREATED it.

I was eager to share the story of what I had done right away, but God wasn’t finished working on me—purposefully. I had no choice but to “be still” in the almighty’s will. You know when something exciting happens to you and you want run off and tell everybody, but you have to first sit through the details? It was like that! Don’t unplug too soon, you’ll leave gas spewing everywhere, and you’ll find yourself stalled partway up the road! Be still and follow through.

God explained something to me on the edge of my thought when I realized what *I* had done.

“Instant gratification is fine. Use it to serve your highest being, as this heat you desired. Your thoughts, your words, your actions create your NOW. When what you create no longer serves your highest Self, bless it and let it go.”

Sometimes we’re blessed with purposefulGIFTS from God. In other words, when we’re blessed within the glory of God, it is an opportunity to CREATE whatever we want…that would serve to our highest purpose. Can I say we’re given blank checks? Yes. Everyone gets blank checks because EVERYONE is entitled to blessings. It’s what you do with the check that counts. If you don’t believe you are blessed, then that is what you create—lack. You keep throwing away checks. If you believe another person /animal is not entitled to be blessed, then you take away from yourself. You keep writing checks for everyone else. Giving to yourself is to give to another. Fill in your check and cash it! Don’t wait around for someone to “hand you blessings”—CREATE your blessings—CASH in your checks! Tell God what you want; your heart is the telephone—think about what you want, say it, claim it, believe it, desire it—and CREATE it. Live Your Truth. And don’t hang up until you do! Praise God!

KNOW that you are blessed. KNOW that you are not without God. God is within you. BELIEVE in you and KNOW that if what you desire brings forth your holy spirit, it should bring forth the holy spirit in others, and God’s glory will be all over the place! Believe it! POWER IS MEANT FOR THE PEOPLE!

Sometimes I think I’m sharing a thought and I start it…and then on it goes into a teachable moment. I be laughing sometimes ’cause God be like, “Since you’re in a writing mood…” Paragraphs form in my status boxes of social sites, my notebooks, or anywhere I begin writing. Interestingly, it’s like hearing an impromptu speech…and having to write it. You don’t hear anything but I do. I assume it’s much like artists and their canvass, or a singer and their voice, or a rapper freestyling bars upon bars. God zones in and I zone out. Sometimes we stay together…in a non-duality state. Simple thoughts are becoming rarer these days…pages fill up themselves, sometimes I have to break it down or edit or whatever. But I still have plenty work though. And I’m grateful for that. I am a writer; something I’ve done since I was a youth, I didn’t accept mySelf because I didn’t see others accepting me. I was very sensitive to critique up until college, where I started to embrace it during writing classes. I had to acknowledge and accept that I am a writer, so that others may accept my work as valid. Ask and it will be given. Not just the craft, talent, skill, and such…but also the higher learning of Self, not all the answers are given to us, but enough to guide us toward being the highest expression of our Selves. Bless

Changing lives means changing minds, changing hearts, and changing beings. Initially, you don’t realize giving so much of yourSelf, at the risk of being deemed a fool, pays off—you’re blessed with any number of possibilities to create at your will. It’s a fair commitment, in spirit and in truth. You’ve managed to provide tools to others that once they’ve been touched, they can’t help but have a different outlook on themselves, others and life as a whole. It literally causes as my heart to be moved as it receives such a great satisfaction.

It isn’t always necessary to force any of your personal issues (negative stories with no point) on others; make it a teachable moment by sharing the method to the LESSON. Some may express feelings to do what you do. Changing others requires one to BE changed, by choice. It isn’t necessary to BE your whole Self, as you all have been only working on your own selves for a while of short ranges. Every moment of growth and evolution is indeed a teachable moment.

You show the way by being an example. A different way than what others may believe to be their only choice. You are a provider, teacher, guide, and an active listener—to name a few. You are a Way-shower. All choices require stages of overcoming the lower self; after one’s decision to create a change. These stages vary from shock, to sadness, to anger, to grief and such, in no particular order. If the work on self is not being done, there would be a noticeable lapse back into old beings. Avoid going through the stages for others. Avoid overly empathizing.

Simply continue on in your own work until you are asked again. Make every attempt to meet them where they’re at, and move forward. God is good. You can always call. Use your spiritual tools and abilities, as you evolve more into yourSelf, it will become like first-nature again. Bless

Before I became aware that the experience is called lucid dreaming, I was just curious about what goes on beyond earth. I was always a lucid dreamer; but whenever I recalled my stories to people in the wide bottom they said I was “crazy” and a “liar”. Others wanted to use me to their own will. I still do share, only I know better for myself. I’m seeing more people like myself; I do observe that in lucid dream states we all have the ability to “guide” our environment. Criticism doesn’t bother me, as I know only God judges fairly. When I say awakened, I mean that literally. I was asleep and then I woke up. Upon waking, I’m enlightened, and am able to bring what I experienced out there back to here.

Of course there are different routes to enlightenment for those who seek. I’m not saying what I learned here is defunct, but in comparison to the outer limits? Humans (I know, not alllll) are narrow-minded and judge-mentally sickened. They’re obsessed with awards and things and money to make them feel good, without truly being able to say they’re “Self-made”. Many can create their own experiences, but even more can’t. They’re so bogged downnnnn…by THINGS and maintaining others successes. OTHERS decide how successful their dream weavers will be. I DO admit that it takes a lot to weave your own dream, as the world doesn’t exactly promote humans “breaking away” from the masses to be their own Selves. One can really find themselves without supports, especially if no one else believes in their dream with them.

Everybody’s truth isn’t the same, but many people do share the same dreams, I’ve interacted with many people I know here; from loving to fearsome. So I can understand the selfishness after the dream is reached….people say, “You wasn’t in the studio creating with me!” Humans are so young in the game, because they forget to APPLY their spirit and their truth to obtain freedoms or whatever it is that they are seeking. They discuss it, march for it, pursue it, but so few obtain anything, in spirit and in truth. Heaven is my peace. Heaven is my reality. It is in the outer universe that I find mySelf whenever I have an issue weighing on me here, or when I just want to BE. I don’t always have to be asleep either, I’ve shared many a picture and described much of what I can see or feel just walking down the street. It’s the experience of my reality that I create. I still see the world, am living in this world, but I choose not to be a part of what is, in my eyes, universal and planetary atrocities. Every day I choose to stay another—to show others another way.

In one of my writings, I shared how I cured a past habit of emotional eating. During a lucid dream one night; I encountered a people at an event where we were guests. It felt something like a talk show. They continuously laughed because we (humans) eat chickens; there were even pictures of cooked foods on a big screen. Anytime anyone just said “chicken” the audience would roar up in laughter and claps again and again. I felt mocked and I didn’t want to be there. But just before I chose to leave, I heard a question (communication is telepathic beyond 3D) on the edge on my mind, “How can consuming food make you feel good emotionally?” I woke up, and haven’t seen food the same way since. There’s no going all the way to the city just to buy cake. I use to love cake; enough to travel further than I would for a man. I don’t love cake, or twizzlers, or fruit punch, or any food anymore. I just eat—to live. I don’t complain to mySelf during fast. I don’t feel bogged down and heavy.

I don’t feel a need to replace my emotions with foods; such a being doesn’t fit to the truth and vibration of who I am. Humans cure emotional eating with HEALTHY emotional eating. I unlearned both; such a habit was a hindrance to how far I can be able to travel and to much more ease. I may sound cocky but I do not intend to, you’ll see when you get there. In comparison, with all the back-peddling techniques to overcome dis-ease that I learned here; it took me only one trip beyond myself to see my Self about that eating habit. I’ve used lucid dreaming to heal much of my dis-ease and negative habits.

Sometimes, you may have the same dream multiple times, before you realize the thing chasing you is not a monster; it’s a habit, or a situation trying to get your attention, that you need to address. Face it. Overcome.

BEing a single parent with almost no support system other than mySelf has had its challenges, and still does. Until my children are older and have greater sense of Self-guidance, I stay in parent-training with mySelf. Here I share a really good conversation (unedited) that I had with mySelf, and I did feel encouraged. Bless

You allow yourselves as humans and as parents to live under dictatorship of the absent parent movements, and the world’s.

Figure a way to acquire your needs and wants without said absent parent. Figure a way to lessen your dependence on your government, if not completely. We could get into a whole discussion about this planet’s numerous violations against universal laws; but not at this time.

Your writing is a beautiful, in-depth description of your human experience—lacking shame, and you’re able to cultivate guidance for those unsure of where they are in the present. Share it now. Everything that is happening is happening NOW. Remember, sponsor your own idea and work the details along the way. You’ve been creating less negative reflections and creating more positive ones. Share the many reflections of you and manifest your highest BEing. You’ve been doing less negative reflections and BEing a more positive Self. Either way, you create who you want to be.

You must be honest. Speak up. Do the opposite of fighting for money, love, sex and seeking others to fulfill your life, live your own truth! You’ve come the long way, but you’re here. And you’re progressively living NOW. Remember, God, Self, then all others. Otherwise, you’re living a lie your whole life—to think it’s any order other than.

You may not bust out with whatever others consider top-notch on the scene. But again, neither are they! Many of your so-called celebrity gurus are actually distracting humans from their Selves. They drive an economic market at helping themselves; humans pay them to tell them to do what they donot do themselves. They get paid for nothing. You may have little money, so what! Truth prevails. BE comfortable…more comfortable. Trust yourSelf. You will have to guide others more, to get back them back on their feet, or path. Especially with the recent storm that came upon your town. Still stay braced in readiness.

You’d be surprised at how many people are living the very things they say they hate—lies! The holiday shopping numbers did not suffer, regardless to what your media reports. Homeless people are suffering. Hungry people are suffering. Those numbers grow constantly. EVERYONE is responsible for such BEings. When they come to embrace those things with understanding, then will they begin to know their own Selves in truth; they can put love into that which they are, are not, that which they caused, and at the same time, bless it and let it go.

You’re experiencing your own creations by way of storms. Some massive, some personal storms, many both. When something is left unattended, a storm develops. Storms are necessary. Yes, they cause destruction; and they also leave behind new ground—to build on.

Build on that foundation right there. Get your mind out of what once was. Avoid making dead-end scenarios from past experiences, you know, “what could have, should have, would have, if only he/she/I had/had not….” Meet yourself where you’re at and not where you THINK others want to see you (not necessarily where they praise you to be). Humans crave to be seen for whom they are, yet they refuse to let go of others thoughts of who they once were, or should be, so they find great difficulty in accepting their Selves. They find difficulty accepting themselves for what is, so they develop jealousies, ill will, hatred and pain and such toward others—they forget about “what goes around comes around” —until their own selves are experiencing those very pains and more.

You’d be surprised; I acquired one degree while receiving welfare, and the other while working. I kept those two journeys’ a “secret”; all while others, including my family, mocked and chastised me and categorized me as a “welfare baby momma”. Humans often are “taught” (usually on the vein of a musical beat or some culturally unconscious movie) to project whole creations of Self-destructive “trigger words”, like “baby-momma” or “baby daddy”, to the masses reality; to their Self-destruction. I still can’t say for sure what that word constitutes (it depends on the beholder). It’s one of negative vibration of mockery, envy, and anger—and needs to be put out of existence.

That must be done by those who created it or fate takes over. That’s another conversation.

I took my bachelor finals with my youngest son on my lap, even to the disagreement of other students. The professors understood; they used me as a teachable moment. The students felt like somehow in a three hour window, that my son would “catch” a disease—he almost did—a strong strain of discrimination.

Humans will find a way to BE uncomfortable, if it means causing the elimination of even just one “competitor” out the game. They glorify their material attributes. They need to SEE things to believe things. When you are spirited, you believe it to see it. Faith is your net, cast it out to manifest what you desire. The stronger your net, the further and wider it spreads out into the unniverse. How do you think Jesus fed thousands? His brethren had only a few fish and some loaves; he cast out a faith “net” and received (manifested) to his heart’s desire—to feed a people. Grow your faith; make strong your net, strong enough to weather storms.

Imagine when I gave out invites! Lolol the faces!!! I hid my cap and gown until I got to the ceremony, and I hid it back on the block. I did welcome the personal praise of strangers though. I walked across that graduation stage with others who had just as many struggles as me. But they lacked gusto to speak up, and despised me for doing so. When folk found out, even my family, I graduated from welfare baby momma to “think she better than somebody”. Go figure huh?

Speaking for up yourSelf keeps you in the greater game; the one so few dare to attempt and even fewer last. Silence holds disunion to light. Speak in earnest; meditate in spirit and in truth. Those who despise today praise tomorrow and curse the past.

As single parents, we’ll always be sought to be degraded, especially when we rise above. That means we’re one less family unit to blame for “living off peoples paychecks”. One day they’ll be no one to blame but the true villains. We aren’t any different than anybody else—we just do what we do with kids behind us. So in a sense we’re held to a higher standard. We’re directly responsible for molding lives other than our own—to be raised and evolved to the betterment of theirSelves and others. We want to be able to do that without being blamed for everyone else’s projections. In the meantime, the rich continues to pay the middle class to blame the poor as the ones stealing from them.

Live your life without seeking approval of the world. Let it be exposed that you’re not only DOING what you feel, but that you’re FEELING what you’re doing and you are BEing what you feel. And so, in essence, you experience what you BE. There will be others who will FIND anything about you to believe it’s to their detriment, even though it is not so. Still, live for yourSelf. Live for God so that ALL may receive. Is that not why you’re here?

With things going the way they are in this world, its government, and a people, one must re-train their own mind to acquire Self-fulfillment or Self-betterment NOW.

I, like most people have had many ideas that would allow me minimal dependence on the government, family, and friends. ALL of my ideas entailed me GIVING something to others. Those ideas however, were always “killed”. Fear, ridicule, dependence on others to help me financially or the backing of someone who knows someone who knows a celebrity—all these things and others “killed my idea/dreams”.

Early 2012, based on some inside knowledge, the idea came to me to sale emergency packages/survival kits. I decided to confide in a friend on how to start up the orders. We did some research and started small, ordering just first-aid kits.

Well, I don’t have to tell you who have had similar experiences, but I’m still sharing. I began to overhear my friend friends’ talking about what a “crazy idea” I had and “how do she know something’s gonna happen?!” and “nobody wants to buy survivor kits especially not in a poor neighborhood like this, they already tryna survive!”

Doubt began to creep in. Even though I had the total money to invest, I was still looking for a namesake—a person people would surely buy the kits from—a famous person. Well, I got the famous person, and he laughed and said something to the effect of, “how do I know this is gonna work?” I remember saying, “We won’t know unless we try it.” I guess he thought I was being a smart-ass, but I was not, I was being straight-forward. Anyway, he said he’d think about it, but a day later, had someone else tell me, “he can’t afford to invest in anything without some fore-seeable benefit.” I became sad, angry, regretful, embarrassed, and did try to work my idea myself but by then I had everyone elses put-downs and put-offs in my head, and in my feelings. I gave it.

Well, clearly, we all know how Hurricane Sandy has left people throughout the East Coast. Many are without homes, clothes, food, etc. I live in one of the more devastated areas; Far Rockaway, NY. The irony of the whole thing, for me, is that we were given survival kit rations. I gotta admit, I felt like Homer Simpson after a foul-up, Doh! I’m good now, and I’ve learned from that experience.

My ideas can only be valued by others when I believe in them for mySelf first.Humans feel a need to see the future. They want to see the outcome before the work. Maybe a handful only actually get that the future never comes; whatever we’re DOing or BEing right NOW are the very manifestations of the so-called future! BE your highest Self to be able to experience your best Self and to experience your best Self LIVE YOUR TRUTH. Bless

There are those who can’t let go—won’t let go.
They are desperately gripping on to the ledge, trying to grasp at any “control” they have left over others—over you. They will fall.

Because they are now aware the choices they made are not leading to their betterment nor others, they realize they will eventually destroy themselves, and seek to take you with them any way they can—mind, body and soul. They don’t want you to “be your own man”, so to speak.

When you want to change a thought that is “rooted” in your system, BE in accord with your own new idea.
So that your mind won’t tell you you can’t and it kills the idea, do it quickly.
(Humans are trained to not want better for their selves, and to live by others thoughts. You can even discern whether this message is to your upper self-guidance.)

Then you can get into the details of how your new idea works best to evolve yourSelf BEing in your truth. The more Self-driven you are, the greater and faster the manifestation of your idea. Believe in YOURSELF.

Think about the lost hiker in the terrain. They act before they think—to the betterment of theirselves—they guarantee their own survival in each moment that they BE. Their first idea is to survive, they believe they can and then they act on doing it. The more they do to help themselves, the more they believe they with survive—and reversed. They live to BE inspirations. They are already inspirations to themselves, and survivors for theirselves. That was the idea.

So, here it is, grow your own opportunities to BE your highest expression of yourSelf by immediately acting on your own ideas.

In order to experience our highest experience of Self, something we have to do is “let it go”. I was dwelling in love (nature) this evening when something I saw shook my core, and it triggered a childhood memory. I became frightened and honestly, I wanted to cry…and I’m sure I will…in private. But whether in public or in private, in order to let that experience go, I cannot deny the feelings that come up. I cannot be afraid to address the issue and allow it to linger inside me; only to be triggered again and again by some other experiences. Keeping my feelings inside will only cause me dis-ease in my mind and can also manifest illnesses in my body, such as, stress, headaches, pains and such. As the storm comes up, the longer I “don’t let it bother me”, the greater it will rage. Since I don’t want a raging storm inside of me, I must face it and embrace it. I must go with it.

THE ONLY THING WORST THAN NOT LOVING YOURSELF IS NEGLECTING YOURSELF.

How do I do that, considering that I may face many storms throughout my life? I traverse storms by not being afraid; by WANTING to experience the good in me—and FEEL LOVE within myself. By overcoming fear, I will be transformed. I will use love to empower me to overcome storms and transform them into teachable moments. The more I empower mySelf with gratitude, with patience, and with understanding of mySelf—the more I can transform and become my highest expression of Self. Now instead of experiencing raging storms, it make just rain, or drizzle, or I make experience just a clouded moment—provided, I address my issues as they come up. When I feel issues come up that do not/no longer serve to the betterment of my highest BEing, I don’t deny them. I embrace those feelings, and acknowledge them for serving their purpose, bless the feeling and let it go. Bless

LOVE THYSELF.

There is a hard shell that encompasses your heart—placed there by you. You may be thinking that you’re protecting yourself from pain—from heartbreak. When, in fact, you’re suffocating your heart. You’re not allowing yourself to FEEL anything. You’re afraid to feel! Ignoring your own feelings is not the same as letting stuff go. And you won’t let stuff go because you’re afraid to not have something to complain about, you’re afraid to not have something to blame others for, or make them responsible for why you are unable to BE. YOU are afraid to let go. And even though you cry, scream, and wrench in pain….you refuse to let it go.

Giving into your FEELINGS or allowing yourSelf to FEEL what you experience is a way to overcome dis-ease of the heart. Until you admit that you’re angry, or sad, or afraid, you will continue to experience the issues that surround those feelings until you do—and not only within yourself, but also outside of yourself. You already judge yourSelf very harshly, and even when it isn’t so, you think others are judging you. You’ve come to a point where you’ve polluted yourSelf with THINGS—in order to seek outside approval, or validation from others. You don’t want your feelings addressed, but you want to be loved for how many things you have and how much they cost. It literally pains you to seek validation from others, but you need someone to blame when experiences don’t work out in your favor. You’ve already judged yourSelf unable to live up to your own approval, so you acquire more THINGS, never quite being satisfied, because you think another being has upped you one. Thus, you have a cycle of void experiences; being detached from your emotions. Let it go.

BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE.

Fall back, into love with yourSelf. Trust yourSelf to know that no one is doing anything to you that you did not ask for. Become aware and attract something better for yourSelf. Desire it. You may say to people that you are fine—but in your heart you hurt. You envy. You despise. You hate. Yet, you can’t figure out why others “treat” you this way or that. Because in your heart, you won’t let it go. What you are experiencing IS your heart’s desire! You want a peaceful, loving, and understanding world. That’s good that you say you want it, however you have to not just think it, not just say it—you have to FEEL it! Believe it! Live it!

Be the ONE. Be the one to let it go. Be the one to ask forgiveness for holding yourSelf hostage. Be the one to mean it—to live it. Be the one to let all that “stuff” go, and fall back into love with yourSelf. Only then can you begin to feel true love in others.