My Pregnancy Diary: The First Kicks

10:25

I
don't know about you (if you've been pregnant that is, you may not have
been!) but when I first fell pregnant it didn't feel real. In fact, I
went through phases of wondering if the pregnancy tests (all three of
them) were actually right, whether it was a fake positive and just
generally thinking that something like this just doesn't happen to me!

I
don't think this was helped by the fact that I had a really easy first
trimester - I had no sickness whatsoever and only really experienced a
small amount of food aversions which went away by the time I was 10
weeks pregnant so, to me, it just felt like normal.

As
a result of this, the only thing I could really hold on to for proof of
this pregnancy being real throughout the first trimester was that very
first scan, where I could actually see the baby and get the hard proof
that something living was in my womb.

Yet even after the scan,
when I had hard proof that there was actually a baby there and not just
some figment of my imagination, I felt nothing so it still did not feel
real.

Until the kicks started yesterday..

If
you have ever been pregnant, I am sure you will know just what it feels
like to feel the baby's kicks for the first time. And for those of you
that haven't been pregnant and don't know, I will tell you now...

It's amazingly freaky.

To
feel some sort of bubble down there which initially feels like gas is
not too bad, but when you put your hand on your lower belly and
something kicks it away.. that's freaky. It seems that little Sprout (if
you didn't know already, that's my name for baby) has jumped the gun a
little bit on the kicking thing and, instead of spending a bit of time
mushing up the mothers insides whilst leaving the dad impatiently
waiting to be able to feel it, has gone straight to the visible, move
the tummy kind of kicks which make you jump.

Whether
I just missed the initial few weeks of only being able to feel the
kicks myself or something I don't know, but what I do know is that
Sprout has been distracting me all last night and evening with these
little bumps in my lower belly.

And
you know what, it has finally made it seem more real. Although its only
a small feeling at the moment, I can feel that there is something
inside me that wasn't there before. Something that is living and is
going to grow and grow and eventually be born in to this world as my son
or daughter.