Thursday, November 6, 2008

Healed wounds...

Yesterday i wasn't quite feeling well. I had a bad headache and i felt a little dizzy. It was a rainy day yesterday and my thoughts were wandering. I guess the rain made me into a lot of thinking.LOL! It made me assess and reflect on how my relationship with my hubby started and how it evolved. As i looked back, it got me thinking about the good and not so good memories we had in our relationship. When we started out as boyfriend-girlfriend thing, we were very happy. Everything was so beautiful. It seems as though the world could do no wrong to our relationship. But after 3 mos, he had to go back to Manila to work while i was left here in Cagayan de Oro. I took it real hard and i remember crying hard when he left. Despite the distance, our communication was never a problem. But i demanded more of his time and we argue alot about it. I cried everytime we have a heated argument. We both tried to make our relationship work because we both loved each other. After a year, our relationship was shaky. We always argue. I was always doubting him, i was so clingy and so demanding and i guess he got fed up one day & he called me up and decided that we both need space to think things over. I remember how painful that was for me. I cried night and day, day and night. I ran to my family and friends for support but the pain was just too much. I could not accept that i was losing him. I turned off my phone for 2 days but it made me miss him more. Then on the third day, i finally opened it and he called. We talked and he was sorry for hurting me. He said he still loves me. We got back together and the rest is history. He came back home here last February and i'm now married to him and we're expecting a baby next year. I'm happy with this new chapter of my life with him. He's a loving man and I'm so thankful to God for giving him to me. I know the past wounds have healed but there are times when i remember it and i could still feel a little pain. I talked to him about it last night, he just hugged me and told me that all of that is in the past. What's important is that we both learned from that episode in our relationship and that we both survived from those trials and at the end of it all we emerged as winners because we stood the test of times..."True Love Conquers All".