Hello to you. How are you doing? Me? Well I’m doing better than I was yesterday. Yesterday was a “fight or flight” kind of feeling day. My friend Rhonda, “practically my twin” ( we are the same age only I’m 8 months older) as she reminded me yesterday, agreed we are both having trouble staying in our skins lately. At times, everything feels like “too much.”

Ms. Rhonda Martin our songbird

We got rain late yesterday afternoon…finally!! So grateful for that.

So I spent a lot of time outside yesterday with my therapist(s). When I get “like this” spending time with Mom and Dad Nature is about the only way I’ll be consoled. When I was on medication and got like this, the medication didn’t even touch it! I did a lot of talking and crying, which I needed to do…they don’t mind! I have found when I go outside to deal with my problems, the earth and sky are “big enough” to take whatever I’m carrying emotionally, spiritually and physically and comfortable silence is okay! They don’t charge extra!

The other thing I did was walk my back yard.

Walking is an activity I have always used since I was very young, to help me when I want to fight or take flight.

My mother-in-law Beth planted a seed recently about keeping track of how many steps you walk in a day. So yesterday, at Kyle’s suggestion, I used his 3DS to count the number of steps I walked in the backyard. He suggested this after I told him I was using my hands to count my steps. He said using the 3DS would count the steps for me and free my mind for other things. Worked like a charm! I’m going to look into an inexpensive pedometer. LOL – we’ll call it “Jackie-Go!”

So I’ve had a couple of interesting dreams I remembered that I wanted to share with you.

source internet – John looked like this only younger and his hair was completely white like snow

Yesterday I mentioned we woke up really early, so I ended up going back to bed to rest. I had a dream with the Daily Show Host John Stewart in it. I don’t remember anything more than his having pure white hair and his face was very young. Then I was looking at a dusk sky and saw a blurry white light off in the distance. It was moving in a wierd way and I was trying to focus on it but couldn’t get a good look at it….it felt so real! Kind of like thinking you might be looking at a UFO but are pretty sure it’s just a plane in the distance sort of thing. Well I woke up before I could find out what it was.

A big part of my unhappiness is stemming from what’s going on in our country with regards to our upcoming Presidential election. I have been feeling like we are fucked no matter who we put in office right now. After I woke up from the dream, I got on Facebook and Abby Martin had posted a new video of her at the DNC and she was doing interviews with people. They started talking about Jill Stein as a possible alternative to Bernie Sanders.

Jill Stein for President?! I’m going to be taking a closer look at her! I want the answer to be YES!

Who is Jill Stein?! She’s the presumptive nominee for the Green Party and I didn’t even realize it! To the best of my knowledge, and I say this because we don’t watch mainstream news, she’s had no air-time at all. Is she the “light in the sky” I was trying to get a better look at? My last hope for this election? Well I did some reading about her and may be she is. I have about 4 months to finalize my decision. I don’t give a shit if she’s a “3rd party” because Kyle and I agree with her, the 2 party system we have is BROKEN! Kyle and I think there should be a member of each party in office – a “triumvirate.” You would have a Republican, a Democrat and then a Green Party, Libertarian or other 3rd party candidate…no more President and Vice President.

The first Triumvirate formed in 60 BC between Pompey, Crassus and Caesar…they sealed the deal with Caesars daughter Julia.

This morning I woke up from having a dream that I know got triggered by watching Stranger Things (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt4574334/?ref_=nv_sr_1) before bed last night. We are up to episode 4 and learning more about the little girl “Eleven.” My dream was about being on a military installation and interacting with elderly veterans. I came up to a woman who was very sick and had breathing tubes in her nose. I was there to do Quantum Touch. When I do this work in real life, I only touch people if they want me to….people today do not like to be touched I’ve found and it was no different in my dream. *It is ironic that it’s probably the lack of human touch in our world that is why we are so emotionally and spiritually sick!

So anyways it was different with this woman. She wasn’t going to ask me for my help so I said to her, “I’m going to heal you right now!” I took her head into my hands and almost immediately her face took on a healthy glow and the breathing tubes disappeared like magic. I was startled but realized in dreams you can do these sort of things. She was understandably excited but I emphasized to her that when she talked to others about me to tell them that I helped her heal herself. Things could get bad for me if it was anything else. I woke up after that.

Whenever I’ve done Quantum touch with people in “real life,” I always emphasize this. The energy source we tap into doesn’t completely belong to us…it is Source…God…Love energy that belongs to all of us. I look at energy healing like Quantum Touch as much like a putting jumper cables on a car battery that needs a jump. The power source for healing is already there, it just needs a little help.

Anyhew….time to get on with the day. A friend of our brother-in-law expressed interest in our brown couch and said they would come by today to pick it up! YAY! We will be replacing it with a sectional with recliners we are getting from Kyle’s folks who are replacing their couch! This sectional is special. It is the very first couch Spot slept on when Kyle’s folks adopted her…the couch Kyle’s Dad slept all night with Spot when she got so sick they thought they would lose her. Our brown couch was purchased when Kyle’s Dad was staying with us after his car accident. He spent a lot of time resting on it as he healed! It was on this couch that my Mom allowed me to do Quantum Touch with her for the first time…it was on her knee before she was going to have surgery. I will always remember her saying she felt warm, relaxed and best of all…Loved. For the first time in my life, I was able to truly show my Mom Dianne how grateful I was for her and how much I loved her. We seem to have a healing couch theme here don’t we?! New furniture is overrated “-)

last look at our brown couch – we got this shortly after moving to Texas. Kyle’s Dad stayed with us and he rested on to heal after his accident in 2009

Walking is one of my go-to therapies, too, Jackie. I like counting the steps in my head because it has a meditative component to it, keeping my mind busy and blocking out the chatter. One of my friends uses a FitBit. She’s having a rough time and finds it therapeutic, too. Hope today is better, my friend! 😉 xoxoM

It’s much better – thank you for helping to make it so – love hearing from you! Yes, the counting helped me too until I got distracted or lost count lol. Which makes me wonder if the counting and walking is a therapy for ADHD lol…because you have to focus on the counting? Hmmm. Have to give that some thought! Keep shining M! Love to you.

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