I am pretty but overweight.
I am a thinker and although I enjoy shopping and going to the malls etc. doing it too much/socializing too much makes me feel empty eventually.
But I am talkative and enjoy the company of people I love and admire. I love to cook and eat, but I think spending too much money on eating out is useless.
They normally can't offer food that is as enjoyable as home made food - hot rice-daal and pickle...yummy food.
I enjoy my own time - I tend to think a lot..I love sipping hot coffee or bournvita while listening to music or silently looking out from a partially open space.
People find me amusing. Haven't quite figured out why - except probably because most of the times I am very honest about my thoughts and feelings.
I have overcome my shyness to a large extent but still am not very comfortable within groups - of unfamiliar people in an informal/non-official setting.
Shyness is most of the time a fear of being judged negatively by the people whose judgement you care about.
So if you do not see me feel embarrassed in your presence any one of the points below will hold true(at that time):
1.I have managed to control my expressions and body language and can hide my embarrassment effectively.
2.I do not think you will judge me negatively.
3.I do not care if you judge me negatively.(very unlikely).
However if you do see that I am feeling embarrassed then it maybe that I think you are too good and can't hide it. Easy isn't it? :)
I clarified this because people don't quite understand the reason when they are being avoided and feel bad about it.
Sometimes this may be a possible reason. But sometimes it may not be so. Don't guess.
I like to watch good movies but rarely do so because of other things on the priority list.
Some of my favorites :
You've got mail(Both Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks), pinjar(Urmila Matondkar), aandhi, Hazaron Khwaheishein aisi (Chitrangada Singh), Bajirao Mastani(loved performances by
Priyanka and Ranveer)
I like old Hindi movie songs too.
Teasing : Hum aapke kadmon me gir jayenge gash khakar - fir bhi na hum apne aanchal ki hawa dein to!!!
Philosophical : Ye duniya agar mil bhi jaye to kya hai, Kasme waade pyar vafa sab..
Comical yet reassuring : Sar jo tera chakraye ya dil dooba jaye
Love based : Tere dukh ab mere , mere sukh ab tere , tere ye do naina chaand aur sooraj mere
Every emotion is covered - you will find at least one song if you know many.
And as for the desire to find meaning :
I like Kabir dohas and abhangs by Tukaram and any other teaching by Jesus/Guru Nanak/Rumi's quotes/Rabia's quotes..What Saint Francis(may I never seek more to be
understood than seeking to understand) said.
That said, I am no great person or a saint and quite often do make mistakes which I later regret.
I only understand that those are wise teachings by wise men and women which will bring happiness if followed.