Miscellany Monday

1| Have you ever noticed how beauty is deeply healing? I walked to a gorgeous garden last week with one of my friends. Just seeing something like that quiets my soul; it gives me peace and reminds me that I can breathe, I can stop and soak in the beauty.

I should do that more often.

2| I’m digesting something I’ve been learning a lot recently: that I can’t fix myself. I can’t. I can try strenuously to be good, but eventually that just breaks down. It simply doesn’t work. I was telling Dana about this, and various other things that I’ve been learning, and saying that I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t know how to bridge the gap from my head to my heart and bring these truths to work in my life. I don’t know how to fix myself.

She looked at me as though I’d missed the entire point of what she’d been saying for the last fifteen minutes. “You can’t.”

How freeing. I can’t. God can. Maybe I should leave it to him, because doing it myself sure hasn’t been working!

3| The leaves are turning delicious fall colors. And, although I was wearing my winter coat last week, right now I’m in a t-shirt. It’s lovely. Except the poor heating system is confused; I froze last week until they decided to turn the heat on in our dorm, and now it’s still going full blast. The unfortunate thing is that we’re supposed to be able to at least close our vent and therefore control the heat a little bit, but the panel got painted shut. So our room is a wee bit stifling right now.

4| I finally found my voice, but lost half of my hearing along the way, because my ears are still blocked up. This makes for interesting conversations, when I guess at what people are saying, and interesting voice practice, because it also changes the way I hear my own voice. But speaking of voice, I officially adore my teacher, because she’s been teaching me all these new things that I stretching my range quite a lot. Or rather, she’s showing me how to access notes I already have. Like the B above high C, for example. And the F below middle C. I’m kind of dilerious at these discoveries.

5| I discovered yesterday that my journalism professor won the Pulitzer Prize. Well, he was the head of Gannett News Service when it won the Pulitzer Prize (and that was the first time the prize had ever been awarded to a wire service, if that means anything to you). He’s also been the president and chairman and CEO of so many amazing things. Gee, State University. I don’t think my professors are accomplished enough…

6| Pictures? Okay. Since this is a miscellaneous post and all…

This is me and two of my friends at the barn dance several weeks ago.

And this is our pumpkin! Notice the sweatshirt and jacket and hair….told you I learned my lesson!

I found your blog off of your comment on She Seeks. Thanks so much for sharing your heart on our site. I love your blog! I scrolled down and looked at your pics-super cute green coat!

I totally know what you mean about trying to fix yourself as I have been trying to do the same, myself! It’s impossible! But, as I realize my imperfections, it is more and more clear to me how much I need Jesus, ya know?