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There are Winter solstices for us in the northern hemisphere and Summer solstices for those in the southern hemisphere. What do these mean to and for us? Answer: That we get to give ourselves some time to be in and with our darkness, fearlessly trusting that light begets darkness and darkness, light. They are encoded within each other. We are often afraid of the darkness and even more afraid of our darkness. Darkness is what keeps us on the move, filling our life so we don’t have to face and, yes, embrace our darkness.

Darkness is the holder of pain. I want to tell you that if you want joy, you must be willing to accept pain and sorrow. Not to live there but to dive in and see why this is part of us.

How to use the pain and sorrow to show us our deepest gifts

This time of year seems so jubilant and celebratory, yet it also has this deep internal calling to be fearless in seeing the container of darkness that holds the first light—your light. This time of year, which is very much a celebration (and now very externally celebratory) was not always so. Long ago, it was the time to get ready for a prolonged darkness, prolonged isolation, a prolonged time of cold and being with self.

The 21st day, which is a 3 in a month that is also a 3 (1+ 2), is showing us that this is a time for the neutral mind, a time to feed the projective mind, a time of seeing the trinity of everything; how the power structure of things is a 3. A 3-sided triangle is the strongest of all geometric forms. More and more people are sleeping under triangles, using them in healing, using crystal triangles for the double function of sound and the power of the triangle. So this 3… what does this mean to you? Ask yourself what other parts you need to incorporate in your life to utilize this 3; this most powerful of the minds—your neutral mind—your 3rd body which is your projective mind, your 3rd chakra which is your solar plexus/navel where you digest your life, connect to the world and, also store your emotions.

This is a time to be with what you have been carrying and see if it suits you. Does it fit like an old suit? Is it outdated? What do you want to impregnate with this birth of light?

This is such a powerful time to see what needs to be offered into the darkness, which is the womb of the Divine so there can be space for the light that is coming to shine through you.

We do some amazing rituals on the Winter Solstice. They come to and through me while in meditation, like when in deep water meditation. The sounds I have been with are the wind, the ocean, the birds and chants. Very little speaking, listening to what is being given. You want to connect with what is coming though for it is given for you so you can be reborn with the space for light radiating through your vastness. What stands in our way is often the strengths we have created to get others to love and accept us. There is a deeper strength which some of us access consciously every year on the 20th of December. http://darkhibernation.com/workshops-and-retreats/.

It happens every year so you always get the opportunity to participate. Don’t miss out being part of this community to be fed deeply so you become the light receptacle you are meant to be.

It’s my beloved Birthday this week. He is not into celebrating it and he is not physically with me for me to celebrate they way I want to. By honoring him in doing just what he wants for the day. He is such an amazing aspect of the infinite that there is truly nothing I would not do for him including allowing him to celebrate or uncelebrate his birthday.

I want to get up on roofs and yell to the world my gratitude to his mother whom I never got to meet for bringing him in. I want to let everyone know so they will do wonderful things letting him know how loved he is yet this is my way not his. I honor his way and still celebrate his life, his consciousness, his fearlessness in looking at what bothers him and not hide it nor hide from it.

I spontaneously write him poems often but tonite trying to write something for him nothing came. Blank in the poetry dept. but not blank in the gratitude department. He is much more linear than I am. I appreciate his planning. He used to create manuals I can barely open one. He will look at a problem on my property and figure out what needs to happen to fix it. I usually pay my handy man and meditate on it sometimes getting great readings on things. He is a Tarus Man much more structured and mental than I am a Pisces woman. I love it and I love sharing the flip side of structure with him.

In the structure of this piece I want to say I have learned so much about relationships, about men, about being a woman, so much about being vulnerable, so much about giving and receiving. I had been on my own for a long time when we met. I had some patterns that weren’t all that inviting. He wore those down with being present. Oh and don’t think he just took it all in and didn’t let me know about things but he did it mostly with such humor or unattached directness that I got to pay attention. We have expanded each others awareness without owning or claiming the other.

He needs quite time. He should have that. I need to travel and teach he supports that. We are so deeply together yet there is no owning. I have no idea if we will be together for all of eternity or just today but for today and all the days to follow I am greatful for this man, this great soul, whose words go deeply into me, who’s hands I adore holding, who I love meditating with and working meditations in a garden and writing copy together. He is both intelligent and wise but most of all he is of vast heart.

He loves all. He gets that love is boundless and there is enough to go round and round circling each and everyone of you. I hope some day soon you will be able to meet him through my eyes, my heart and dance in his vast embrace.

This is an addendum from Keith after he read my blog.

It’s my birthday and I’m not making a thing out of it, not sure why. Not making a thing out of somethings doesn’t mean I am not celebrating it. I have been having wonderful thoughts of my mother who passed in 2005. I have been celebrating with her in my meditations. Also celebrating with my father, brothers, my children and grandchildren. And yes I am celebrating with my Beloved, Gurutej who sees me as vast. She is Vast. She sees me as loving. She is loving. I am Blessed that she is in my life and I in hers. That is my celebration that I see in my heart.