Last night I had the pleasure and opportunity to attend Verbal Mayhem, a place that has helped my growth as a writer and performer tremendously. It was a great feeling seeing the whole room packed PLUS people being upset because the sign up list was closed. I had to pull a little seniority to get on hah. Couldn’t stay for the whole thing, life is definitely different from back in the day when I stayed until midnight at poetry events and had to be at school for 8 in the morning. Coming back gave me inspiration to do some writing… some good writing lol.

Last night I had the opportunity to slam for the first time in what seems like forever. The slam was hosted by “Loser Slam” a group that I have been affiliated with throughout my performance “career” lol and I was a part of their 08 and 09 slam teams. Nervous wasn’t even the word – I had a piece that I was memorizing for the past two days that I said to myself “no way” as far as going on stage with it. I calmed down after the first round and managed to pull through as the victor. It felt good getting back on stage though I know I can’t do it as much as I used to. My brother Omar was the feature and he killed it as usual. Up next, getting my music together, Verbal Mayhem on Wednesday and a slam in BK on Friday.

I think I got it this time
Admittedly the first time I had no clue
But
The key is to give her one
Something with a strong symbol that you’re willing to share
Your flesh for more than sexual purposes
Be sexual on purpose
Make sure you perform PDA when you two are out on the street
And refrain from looking at your PDA when at seats in restaurants
Unless it’s to look at the time.
In time her wall will Berlin
She hurling her devotion at you like shot put
Now is your shot to put your work in on another
Someone that knows they are second
And the reason you are doing this in the first place
Don’t do this at a fast pace –
If either of you catch feelings
You may drop the ball on what is stable –
The one that made you stop horsing around
And put new shoes on your feet
Helped you remove the muzzle from your mouth
And speak up in situations that previously
You would have been taken advantage of

I do not feel like Pac
Nor do I feel like big
I just feel like vomiting
And running away
Ashamed of today’s music
Or lack of it
Lack of creativity,
Discretion,
Thought,
And the belief
That we no longer believe
In substance

having an eventful weekend – took on some overtime yesterday – as much as I love having weekends off and I need my rest after a grueling week – it’s very hard to turn down time and a half money. Banged out the 8 hours and came home to my ladies.

I’ve come to the realization that though I would like to get/stay in shape, the gym isn’t for me – I just don’t have that mindset to go on a consistent basis and perform the necessary tasks to stay in shape — at the same time I have a tremendous will that if I want to do something I will — sounds oxymoronish but it isn’t… anyway – I purchased a gym machine “the rack” and will be using it starting tomorrow — I fully expect to not complete any of the tasks and for me to take awhile before I get going — (haven’t) worked out worked out since highschool — Kandace and I also went grocery shopping and bought nothing but healthy food — the key is to keep the determination flowing and stick to the goals set – fast food is very enticing, but losing this belly and man boobs is even more enticing. will keep you all updated on my progress.

Thank goodness for the DVR… tonight marks the last episode of one of the greatest shows ever BREAKING BAD — I admit I came onto it a bit late (I started watching before season 3 started) but I caught up rather quickly — looking forward to watching it but sad that it will be over.