I would love any of you to pray for me, my daughter and my son. This past year has been so awful for all of us and there are times I think that things will never get better. My son's apartment caught fire due to old, out of code wiring, and he had to break out of a hurricane glass window to get him and his pets out. The fear of dying has changed him. He has not been the same since, suffering such debiliitating depression. I lost my job in March and went through all my retirement to help pay my son's medical bills and to stay afloat, all the while sinking both physically and mentally. My dear daughter has carried the weight of this family and she is only 25. She works so hard yet we use food pantries on a weekly basis. She is starting to feel the strain, crying a lot and feeling hopeless. Pray that God lifts us up and gives us some good news. We don't want hand outs but we need a way out of this. This is the lowest I have ever been. I am 55 and feel like I have lost everything except my dearest children. But now I am not in a position to help them and feel so bad that they have to care for me.

We need a string of good things to restore our faith and we need an angel to help us see that life really will get better.

Any prayers you offer will be so appreciated. It was hard for me to ask, but I am at the lowest point now and I have to ask for your prayers. Nothing else will help us.

My children are the most loving people in the world and I don't want to be a burden on them but I feel like I have lost my way.

Thank you so much.

Tracy, I have been thinking about you and your family since you wrote your request. There is so much I would like to say to you to encourage your spirit. I will pray about this some more. But I offer this prayer for you and your family as I humbly ask God to give you a sign, give you a nudge that you will know as surely as you know your name is from Him. He truly is right there beside you. Close you eyes and lean on his shoulder and let the heaviness leave you. Gently sense the light of love enter your spirit. Be very still and let His peace cloak you with the tenderness only the Master possesses.

Dear God, it is hard to thank you with a head full of worries and a heart full of troubles. Sometimes we have to complain to you before we feel free to love you. As you listen to Tracy, place upon her the assurance that though her days are filled with heartache, confusion, and sickness, you are waiting to guide her thoughts and her steps with your divine wisdom and redeeming grace. Be with her God, for her spirit needs your unconditional love. Thank you for listening, comforting, and loving. Spoken in the name of Love, Jesus our Lord. Amen and Amen.

I would love any of you to pray for me, my daughter and my son. This past year has been so awful for all of us and there are times I think that things will never get better. My son's apartment caught fire due to old, out of code wiring, and he had to break out of a hurricane glass window to get him and his pets out. The fear of dying has changed him. He has not been the same since, suffering such debiliitating depression. I lost my job in March and went through all my retirement to help pay my son's medical bills and to stay afloat, all the while sinking both physically and mentally. My dear daughter has carried the weight of this family and she is only 25. She works so hard yet we use food pantries on a weekly basis. She is starting to feel the strain, crying a lot and feeling hopeless. Pray that God lifts us up and gives us some good news. We don't want hand outs but we need a way out of this. This is the lowest I have ever been. I am 55 and feel like I have lost everything except my dearest children. But now I am not in a position to help them and feel so bad that they have to care for me.

We need a string of good things to restore our faith and we need an angel to help us see that life really will get better.

Any prayers you offer will be so appreciated. It was hard for me to ask, but I am at the lowest point now and I have to ask for your prayers. Nothing else will help us.

My children are the most loving people in the world and I don't want to be a burden on them but I feel like I have lost my way.

Thank you so much.

Tracy, here are my thoughts I share with you this day:There are times in life when a voice will tell you that you’ve ruined everything. Sometimes the voice will come from some human being, even a well-meaning one, and sometimes it will simply rise up within your own soul . . . and those are the times when the voice is most persuasive! The voice will sound logical, because from what you can see, you have for sure ruined things. And whatever the judgment the voice passes on you, it will seem fair enough, because when a person messes things up, he or she should expect to pay the penalty. The voice will also seem moral. But however logical, just, and moral the voice may seem . . . I insist that it is the voice of the devil . . . because it is a voice which not only denies the grace of God, but which also seeks to keep us from recognizing that such grace exists. Even if such a statement is well-intended, it fails to reckon with the power of the Master Artist of the universe. Because God is ready always, at our invitation, to take the canvas of our lives, corrupted both by our mistakes and also by the mistakes and sometimes the unkindness and cruelty of others, and to begin reworking the canvas.What God gets in the end will not be what was originally planned, because the original plan, it seems to me, was for a Garden of Eden, a place of perfection. But it will be a wondrous sight, a redeemed life. And all through eternity you will want to sing a song of grace: listen to the voice of grace . . .

Don't know if you read this from my previous post. I hope it makes you smile.Today in church the children were talking about prayer, and this one little fellow takes the microphone and says, "well, if you want to talk to God and Jesus all you have to do is pray. If I wanted to talk to you I could call you on the phone. But the line might be busy. Jesus' phone is never busy cause God won't let him have one." Oh, the little children shall lead them.Sometimes when I feel sad, I imagine falling into Jesus' arms. Do you remember the Lipton ice tea commercial some years ago, when some football (I think) guy was doing the ad, and he fell backwards in the pool, trying to demonstrate the tea was so refreshing? Well. sometimes I just fall backwards too in the pool, but my pool is the loving arms of Jesus. It's ok not to have words because sometimes words get in the way of what we are feeling.so fall backwards . . . it is so refreshing.

I believe in prayer. And believe in the power that comes when two or more are praying for the same thing.

Am asking for prayers for this grandson of mine, for our entire family. For those who know my story, this is the son of my narcissistic psychopathic oldest son. <sigh> (think male version of casey anthony). altho I am in NO way cincin anthony. honest. heh.

I don't want this lil one to end up one day in our forum with a file of his own.

And despite all that I've done to prevent such a thing, seems as tho it might be inching that way, day by day. Grandson and baby mama are safe, for the present. Yet it's only been 3 days since crisis event #3 happened and son has relocated himself back to my town, away from his son.

As in the past, son has thought and thought in the days that have followed their separations, and come up angrier than ever. More determined that, while he "doesn't want HER, he wants his son". <more sighs> This cannot ever happen. Not while I still have a breath in my body.

Am scared of my son. Have said that in here before. There's not much left we can do, but pray. So am asking for prayers. That my son will decide once and for all, that he needs to leave his son behind him and move on with his life. (I cannot believe that I of all people would ever say such a thing, let alone about my son/grandson, but there it is).

I do know that it can be helpful at times, when one puts a face with their prayers, so am including one of my grandson and myself. For anyone who reads this and can help by praying, thank you so very much. May God bless you and yours.

My fav pic of grandson and self (wish we had one online of us together):

I could remove the whole post and you could try to resize it and repost it. I don't know how to resize... (hoping to learn that in near future). We could go ahead and leave it, since he's cute and it isn't THAT huge, and perhaps a mod with the skills needed can see it and fix it, or Klaas may see it and fix it. What would you like to do?

Wyks, you have always been so kind to me, and have appreciated that more then you could know. My prayers for that sweet little one, he is adorable, and you and your family. I pray that everything turns out fine, you must be so proud of him, and rightfully so. You are a very beautiful woman, not only on the outside but the inside as well. My thoughts and prayers for your family

Wyks, you have always been so kind to me, and have appreciated that more then you could know. My prayers for that sweet little one, he is adorable, and you and your family. I pray that everything turns out fine, you must be so proud of him, and rightfully so. You are a very beautiful woman, not only on the outside but the inside as well. My thoughts and prayers for your family

WYKS, my prayers are for you tonight and for your precious grandson. I can only stand by you and ask God to help in this situation. And so I do. You have such compassion and understanding of human frailities, and I know this is tearing your heart out. Your grandson is beautiful, and so is his mother. I pray that you will all recieve peace in your heart, especially your son, and that the anger that he feels will dissapate. You are all in my prayers, and will be.

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Jesus loves the little children, all the children in the world.Red and yellow, black and white, they are precious in his sight. Jesus loves the little children of the world.

WYKS, my prayers are for you tonight and for your precious grandson. I can only stand by you and ask God to help in this situation. And so I do. You have such compassion and understanding of human frailities, and I know this is tearing your heart out. Your grandson is beautiful, and so is his mother. I pray that you will all recieve peace in your heart, especially your son, and that the anger that he feels will dissapate. You are all in my prayers, and will be.

I didn't realize that was a picture of you. You are beautiful, inside and out.

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Jesus loves the little children, all the children in the world.Red and yellow, black and white, they are precious in his sight. Jesus loves the little children of the world.

WYKS, my prayers are for you tonight and for your precious grandson. I can only stand by you and ask God to help in this situation. And so I do. You have such compassion and understanding of human frailities, and I know this is tearing your heart out. Your grandson is beautiful, and so is his mother. I pray that you will all recieve peace in your heart, especially your son, and that the anger that he feels will dissapate. You are all in my prayers, and will be.

I didn't realize that was a picture of you. You are beautiful, inside and out.

Thank you, Fanny! And I appreciate your prayers being added, I really do.

WYKS, my prayers are for you tonight and for your precious grandson. I can only stand by you and ask God to help in this situation. And so I do. You have such compassion and understanding of human frailities, and I know this is tearing your heart out. Your grandson is beautiful, and so is his mother. I pray that you will all recieve peace in your heart, especially your son, and that the anger that he feels will dissapate. You are all in my prayers, and will be.

I didn't realize that was a picture of you. You are beautiful, inside and out.

Thank you, Fanny! And I appreciate your prayers being added, I really do.

Wyks, in the throne room, I will lift your cries . . . I am so overwhelmed with your need that I can place no words yet to help dry your tears . . . just know, humbly bowed I intercede for you this night . . .

Wyks, in the throne room, I will lift your cries . . . I am so overwhelmed with your need that I can place no words yet to help dry your tears . . . just know, humbly bowed I intercede for you this night . . .

Thank you so much, Sister. This brings me much needed comfort and hope.

Wyks, in the throne room, I will lift your cries . . . I am so overwhelmed with your need that I can place no words yet to help dry your tears . . . just know, humbly bowed I intercede for you this night . . .

Thank you so much, Sister. This brings me much needed comfort and hope.

Wyks, "facing weaknesses in those we love" keeps running through my mind. A woman in the Bible, Abigail did not let the weaknesses of her husband change who she was or prevent her for doing what was right. (I'm working on something about that for you). You are so brave cause it ain't always easy standing up for what is right. I continue to pray.

I believe in prayer. And believe in the power that comes when two or more are praying for the same thing.

Am asking for prayers for this grandson of mine, for our entire family. For those who know my story, this is the son of my narcissistic psychopathic oldest son. <sigh> (think male version of casey anthony). altho I am in NO way cincin anthony. honest. heh.

I don't want this lil one to end up one day in our forum with a file of his own.

And despite all that I've done to prevent such a thing, seems as tho it might be inching that way, day by day. Grandson and baby mama are safe, for the present. Yet it's only been 3 days since crisis event #3 happened and son has relocated himself back to my town, away from his son.

As in the past, son has thought and thought in the days that have followed their separations, and come up angrier than ever. More determined that, while he "doesn't want HER, he wants his son". <more sighs> This cannot ever happen. Not while I still have a breath in my body.

Am scared of my son. Have said that in here before. There's not much left we can do, but pray. So am asking for prayers. That my son will decide once and for all, that he needs to leave his son behind him and move on with his life. (I cannot believe that I of all people would ever say such a thing, let alone about my son/grandson, but there it is).

I do know that it can be helpful at times, when one puts a face with their prayers, so am including one of my grandson and myself. For anyone who reads this and can help by praying, thank you so very much. May God bless you and yours.

My fav pic of grandson and self (wish we had one online of us together):

Wyks

Your grandson is so beautiful ... so precious. You have truly been blessed.

My heart breaks for you in regards to your son. No matter how old our children are ... they are still our children. I have learned with each of my grown kids and spouses ... although they will be in my prayers constantly ... I have to leave my burdens for them at the feet of Jesus. I have learned to recognize when I no longer have control.

My prayers are with both you and your son.

Janet

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One Day At A Time

I'm only human; I'm just a womanHelp me believe in what I could be and all that I amShow me the stairwayI have to climbLord for my sakeTeach me to takeOne day at a time

One day at a time, sweet JesusThat's all I'm asking from youGive me the strength to do everything that I have to doYesterday's gone sweet JesusAnd tomorrow may never be mineHelp me todayShow me the wayOne day at a time

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“A person of integrity expects to be believed and when he’s not, he let’s time prove him right.” -unknown

Your grandson is so beautiful ... so precious. You have truly been blessed.

My heart breaks for you in regards to your son. No matter how old our children are ... they are still our children. I have learned with each of my grown kids and spouses ... although they will be in my prayers constantly ... I have to leave my burdens for them at the feet of Jesus. I have learned to recognize when I no longer have control.

My prayers are with both you and your son.

Janet

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One Day At A Time

I'm only human; I'm just a womanHelp me believe in what I could be and all that I amShow me the stairwayI have to climbLord for my sakeTeach me to takeOne day at a time

One day at a time, sweet JesusThat's all I'm asking from youGive me the strength to do everything that I have to doYesterday's gone sweet JesusAnd tomorrow may never be mineHelp me todayShow me the wayOne day at a time