so here is my thought of the day. i was read calvin & hobbes comics, c.s. lewis & sabrina ward harrison all in one sitting... it somehow connects for me.

calvin & hobbes. i read them mainly because those witty & sarcastic one liners crack me up & i think it's good to laugh. love watterson’s clever & sardonic style. have you ever read them back & forth with someone else where one person is calvin & the other person is hobbes or susie or mom or dad? silliness is good for the soul.reading goes faster if you don't sweat comprehension.

i'm learning real skills that I can apply throughout the rest of my life...procrastinating & rationalizing.

getting an inch of snow is like winning 10 cents in the lottery.

i'd explain it, but there's a lot of math.

often it takes some calamity to make us live in the present. then suddenly we wake up & see all the mistakes we have made.

a day can really slip by when you're deliberately avoiding what you're supposed to do.

things are never quite as scary when you have a best friend.

you know hobbes, some days even my lucky rocketship pants don't help.

what fun is it being cool if you can't wear a sombrero?

careful. we don't want to learn from this.

you can't just turn creativity on like a faucet. you have to be in the right mood.what mood is that?last-minute panic.watterson’s wry observations of humans make me laugh, yet also spark me think about how we as humans tend to intrinsically operate.

been thinking about this quote by c.s. lewis.:

if we consider the unblushing promises of reward & the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. we are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink & sex & ambition when infinite joy is offered to us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. we are far too easily pleased.

i can so picture hobbes saying this to calvin in response to one of his latest exploits. the cheap way allures, yet there is infinite promise in going the distance. i’m calvin sometimes. the observation lewis makes profundly stirs. which leads me to sabrina ward harrison. honest sentiments we all feel as we become stronger & more courageous.MUCKYdrawingi AM FeeLingcompletelymucky today too.everyone at schoolseems so much tougher + pulled together& not so emotionally involved.

i get so mad at MYSELF FOR'caring so deeply' AND'MAINTAINING' all this stuffin methat FEELS SO PATHectic.i want to put my tHINKingin HYBernation for A WHile.– sabrina ward harrison, spilling open: the art of becoming yourselfi have learned that trying again is important and decisiveness is good.i have learned that silence hurts.i have learned about starting over and releasing pride.– sabrina ward harrison, spilling open: the art of becoming yourselfthe truth is WE ALL ACHE.WE ALL HAVE GROWING PAINSand wonder if WE AREOKAY and enough + loved.THE THING IS - WE ARE.REALLY.WITHOUT the silver shoesand leopard print sheet.WE ARE ENOUGH WITHOUTall the things we buyto make us much morethan we are or need to bewe are simpleand complexand rareas is.– sabrina ward harrison, spilling open: the art of becoming yourselfi sat on the bench outside of class today & talked to him. we read from my journal. it was the part about the accordion player i was watching on the street last weekend. he said that an accordion is such a perfect metaphor for Love, because you are always opening, & closing, shifting, & getting air, and that's how the music happens. true.– sabrina ward harrison, the true & the questions: a journal

life is a process. we have to engage in it & be patient with ourselves & with the process.