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Q: I am having a problem with surrender. On one hand I have become very
disenchanted with my life, have little desire to do practices, or much of
anything else. On the other hand, I am told to "surrender," as though this
will somehow rejuvenate me. I am not sure what this means. I am already as
passive as anyone can be. How can I be more surrendered than this? And what
might I expect from surrender, if and when I ever find it?

A:
Surrender is not a passive act, nor a lack of acting at all. In fact, in the
AYP writings, we often put the word "active" in front of it: "Active
surrender."

Real surrender requires an earnest
effort. Paradoxical as it may seem, it is true. Many aspects of
spiritual life involve paradox. It is up to us to walk on through. Then we
see what it is for ourselves.

If you have dissatisfaction with
your present situation, you are a tiny step from good bhakti (spiritual
desire), leading to a transformation of your life.
Just act on your dissatisfaction in any way
you feel can move you forward. There are a thousand ways to do that.
Wallowing in regret is not one of them. If you make a
habit of acting for your best interest, everything will change for the
better. That is the result of surrender to and acting upon the call that
comes to us in every aspect of our life. Just say "yes" and do it.

Acting to transform perceived shortcomings in our situation is a
systematic approach that utilizes our emotional energy. It does not matter
whether the energy is positive or negative. Either one can be used with good
results. Anger is as useful for bhakti as passion is. These energies can be
used in ways that can greatly enhance our spiritual progress. See Lessons
67 and 340.

Bhakti is
the redirecting of our emotional energy toward a higher ideal of our own
choosing. So, if we are languishing about the house, imagining that we have
nothing to do, and have grown an emotion of self-absorbed dissatisfaction
around that, we can use that energy simply by redirecting it toward getting
out of the house. We can take
the dullness that isoccurring and do the
reverse. We can sign up for a yoga class, or an
exercise program. If we are not the type to join a group, we can help out a
neighbor, get a pet to take care of, or cultivate a garden in the back yard.
If we don't have others to take care of already, adding on some
responsibilities like that can go a long way toward snapping us out of the
doldrums. Are you taking care of something or someone besides yourself? If
not, consider doing that.
If
nothing else appeals, then take a good long walk every day.

Of course, committing ourselves to a daily routine of sitting
spiritual practice such as deep meditation will
give us extra energy and a growing ability to see our situation for what it
is an inertia that has crept into our life, and which can be redirected
simply by getting up and doing something else.

If our malaise is psychologically chronic, or
involves the consumption of alcohol or other debilitating substances, then
we will be wise to act on our recognition of that
by seeking professional help. In that case, those who
care about us will have concern, and we should consider their advice.

All conditions are stages on our path, and it is up to us to move to the
next stage, whether we are receiving help or not. There is no getting around
the responsibility we have for our own life.

We can begin with small
steps, and gradually increase them. Look at what is in front of you today.
You have a choice. Will you stay on the couch, or will you get up and walk
outside? It is up to you.

Here are a few relevant lines from a
famous Jelaluddin Rumi poem:

"Keep walking, though there is no place to
get to.Don't try to see through the distances.
That's not for human
beings.Move within, but don't move the way fear makes you move.Today, like every other day, we wake up empty and frightened.Don't open
the door to the study and begin reading. Take down a musical instrument.Let the beauty we love be what we do.There are hundreds of ways to kneel
and kiss the ground."

So the suggestion is to keep walking in active
surrender on the path
of
progress that lies before you in this very moment.
You will find you have lots of inspiring company on your path, once you take
a few steps on your own. Those first few steps might be a bit challenging,
because you are establishing a new momentum in your life. After that, it
becomes much easier. Try and see.