A regular newsletter about the life of Jim and Amy Rennie, for family and friends everywhere!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

I know that everyone worries during pregnancy. I know that I tend to worry more in general, because I'm a worrier. But I think those of us who have lost children worry even more. The worry I feel is so great that sometimes it gets on top of me and I feel like I can't even breathe. The funny thing is . . .I'm not even worried about IC this time. I have confidence that the TAC works and I will carry this baby to term. I am worried about the hundreds of other things that can go wrong. I know too many people who have been through too many kinds of loss to be able to say that everything will be okay.

I could go into a lot of details here, but I won't. I just don't have the energy right now.

The real reason I wanted to write this is that recently, every single morning when I wake up, without fail, a specific song is "playing" in my head. Every morning the same song, and I know instinctively I've been dreaming it. It plays throughout the night, somewhere inside of me, and I can't explain why. All I know is that it is there, constantly, and maybe it's a messge . . .

3 Little Birds by Bob Marley

Rise up this mornin',Smiled with the risin' sun,Three little birdsPitch by my doorstepSingin' sweet songsOf melodies pure and true,Sayin', "This is my message to you."

About Me

Jim, originally from Taunton, U.K. and Amy, from Tremont, IL were married on April 7th 2006 and are currently living happily together in Tremont with Maddie the beagle and Sammy the cat. They have two sons who were born prematurely and passed away, Brian William and Sawyer James. In April, their first daughter, Amelie Jane, arrived safely thanks to Dr. Haney and the TAC!