i like your kitty! Anyway, I agree but i'm trying to wait it out. I go hot and cold with talking. Your talking out reached me and I'm desperate right now despite the smiley. Anything is something and talking about nothing with someone who mostly gets it is helpful. Lets talk about nothing or everything!

We r here for u star :hug: and i think u deserve support too. Even tho i kno.u will try and disagree.. it is hard to accept help or support sometimes especially when u need it and feel you dont deserve help or feel everything is your fault..

OMG! What is the everyday you, without the extremes, like. Are the extreme emotions always there? If they are, I'm truly sorry. For me, it comes and goes. That is hard enough to deal with. Support is hard to find but it is not reasonable to say that you don't deserve it. You absolutely deserve the support of the psychiatrists, therapists, or psychologists you payed for. Dump on them! Other than that, your a human being and we all deserve the same, sometimes more but no less!

Midnight - yes YOU DO deserve all the help that's available, and there is plenty of it to be had! Your feelings are not reflecting reality to you properly, and this is what you can do something about. Tell yourself that despite mistakes you may have made in the past, it is possible to learn from them because life-is-for-learning - and that is for everyone on the planet. there is no one alive who has not made any mistakes - (and if there was anyone, they would be obnoxious to have to live with!)