Having trouble finding the controversial film Megan is Missing? Well, you’re not the only one. Plenty of horror fanatics are scrambling to find out if the 2011 movie is now streaming — and we found some answers. While Netflix never seems to shy away from streaming questionable movies, here’s where you can find this particularly disturbing film.

Is Megan is Missing a true story?

First up, here’s what this movie is all about. Directed by Michael Goi, the psychological horror film is filmed in a found footage style and chronicles the days leading up to the disappearance of Megan Stewart (Rachel Quinn). After she was supposed to meet up IRL with a boy she was chatting with online, the popular high school student goes missing and her BFF Amy (Amber Perkins) launches an investigation.

While Goi was inspired by real life cases of child abduction, it is not completely based on one specific case. Meant to be a cautionary tale, the film was shot in 2006 but did not find distribution until Anchor Bay Films put it out on DVD in 2011. It’s been found to be so disturbing by some viewers that New Zealand went ahead and banned the film altogether. Many have complained and criticized the horror flick for its graphic violence, for oversexualizing teen girls, and for being generally unnecessarily exploitative.

Where’s the Megan is Missing trailer?

It’s right here, but go ahead and watch it at your own discretion.

Is Megan Is Missing on Netflix?

While there are plenty of scary movies on Netflix to choose from, sadly Megan is Missing is not one of them. However, if you want to see the film for yourself, it is currently available to rent on YouTube, iTunes, and Google Play.