A story about discovering beauty

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My name is Sam, and I draw things.

For a long time I struggled with being the Great Pretender; I wore a mask that fulfilled the expectations of those around me. I felt I was never quite good enough and the running lie that had become my life left me cold, empty and permeated by deep loneliness. I searched for my purpose but always found it just out of reach, like a half-heard whisper.

Even though I was surrounded by people who loved me and whom I loved, no one knew the real me, I was (and still am) a people-pleaser, but I did it at the expense of my Self.

I was very good at occupying myself, to run away from those feelings which clouded my mind in times of quiet. I devoted my time to work, relationships, friends and academia, leaving no room for stillness.

I had a lot of support from Sam Attenborough at this time, first as a mentor and later as a close friend. He saw past the pretence of my situation and ploughed straight to the heart of who I am and what I wanted.

Knowing that I needed to make some serious changes I left my job, my relationship and my home.