This week is all about being thankful. As Thanksgiving approaches this is a natural time to slow down, take a breath, and reflect on all the blessings in your life. We are so blessed, even when you are struggling and facing challenges you can't imagine overcoming, even in that moment you are blessed. We can always find things to be thankful and grateful for.
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I am forever and eternally grateful for this man right here. @omgawd.cabral has stuck by through thick and thin. He has been my #1 supporter as I struggled to take back my life and thrive again after years of opiate abuse. He stood by and was there even when I didn't want it. He never left my side, never faltered in his love even when I pushed him away. I thank God every day to have such an amazing and inspiring husband.
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Take a moment and think about someone you are grateful for and then tell them!! Knowing that others love and appreciate you is so important and something you can easily and freely give. Who are you grateful for? Tag them below!
❤️
#thankful#theseasonofgratitude#sharethelove#sharethejoy#gratitude#thankfulandgrateful#mondaymotivation#mondayfeels#liveajoyfullife#tellsomeoneyoulovethem

Monday film classic. ‘One flew over the cuckoos nest’ with the mighty Jack Nicholson.
The last time I watched this I was in rehab. I laughed throughout, the irony of watching what I was in many ways living was just too much.
The next morning, still pondering the irony of watching such a film whilst inside this institution, my room mate Dave appeared in the kitchen. He was soaking wet and his white Mohawk wasn’t its usual self. It flopped to the side, limply. ‘I’ve been walking all night, I wanted to drink , get high , anything. But realised we’re in the middle of knowhere.’ The poor guy, unable to rid his head of the insane obsession, had walked down pitch black, country roads, 5 hours one way and 5 back.
He left shortly after and we learnt that he committed suicide.
The reality can be harsh, but change is possible. Don’t stay silent. #jacknicholson#classic#iconic#oneflewoverthecuckoosnest#mentalhealth#filmsofinstagram#igfilm#rehab#recovery#addiction#addictionrecovery#addictionisreal#suicide#asylum#opiates#opiateaddiction

I am going to be uploading a Storytime on my channel tonight...It is going to be about drug dreams/ using dreams. I know when I first started kicking dope, I would dream about shooting it. I would wake up and swear I had!!!!!! Scary stuff! #addiction#herion#opiateaddiction#recovering#recovery

My nights used to consist of taking 2-3 muscle relaxers and much more just to fall asleep and stay asleep!
1. Break 1 in half and take all three (I thought the one broken In Half worked better)
2. Take an ambien, deff break that In half. Ambien took away all of my pain. It was my happy drug that also led to me embarrassing myself and not knowing what I did the night before!
3. Drink or smoke to kick in the meds quicker
4. Wait til I could barely walk to finally go to bed probably an hour or so later
5. Sleep and wake up
6. Start the barely able to move in the morning medicine cocktail
Fitness was not encouraged!
Healthy diet was never mentioned! 💥It was always what medicine could help and what surgery could fix me! 🧐now, I’m not saying meds are not needed and surgery doesn’t work. All of the surgeries helped me get where I am today. 🤔However, it’s the at-home DAILY FITNESS AND HEALTHY NUTRITION. That keeps me far away from monthly pain clinic visits and orthopedic visits!! 🤗The thing is though my friend, you must stay consistent and show up for yourself everyday and never take more than a few days off!! That’s when I start walking bad and my mindset starts going negative! 😀natural happy workout endorphins are my drug of choice now!

Content warning: drugs
Throwback to two years ago (plus a couple of days) from when I get a huge abscess and had to get it lanced and drained. The lesson: don't use dirty needles. Don't do drugs either, but if you do then at least use sterile equipment and don't reuse rigs.
I don't know about other cities, but here in Winnipeg we actually have a free needle exchange and they give away rigs, tourniquets, citric acid, alcohol pads, and little tin "spoons" in a pack for free near the methadone clinic, and they'll even deliver them to your house if you order them.
Obviously I didn't follow my own advice when I was using, and reused rigs to the point where I would be stabbing a blunt/frayed/bent needle into my arm most of the time because I just never had enough of them. I ran out almost instantly.
Thankfully I'm now 670 days clean thanks to methadone and more recently suboxone.
#abscess#dontusedirtyneedles#junkie#throwback#drugaddiction#opioidaddiction#opiateaddiction

Monday film classic. ‘One flew over the cuckoos nest’ with the mighty Jack Nicholson.
The last time I watched this I was in rehab. I laughed throughout, the irony of watching what I was in many ways living was just too much.
The next morning, still pondering the irony of watching such a film whilst inside this institution, my room mate Dave appeared in the kitchen. He was soaking wet and his white Mohawk wasn’t its usual self. It flopped to the side, limply. ‘I’ve been walking all night, I wanted to drink , get high , anything. But realised we’re in the middle of knowhere.’ The poor guy, unable to rid his head of the insane obsession, had walked down pitch black, country roads, 5 hours one way and 5 back.
He left shortly after and we learnt that he committed suicide.
The reality can be harsh, but change is possible. Don’t stay silent. #jacknicholson#classic#iconic#oneflewoverthecuckoosnest#mentalhealth#filmsofinstagram#igfilm#rehab#recovery#addiction#addictionrecovery#addictionisreal#suicide#asylum#opiates#opiateaddiction

1 1918 hours ago

This week is all about being thankful. As Thanksgiving approaches this is a natural time to slow down, take a breath, and reflect on all the blessings in your life. We are so blessed, even when you are struggling and facing challenges you can't imagine overcoming, even in that moment you are blessed. We can always find things to be thankful and grateful for.
.
I am forever and eternally grateful for this man right here. @omgawd.cabral has stuck by through thick and thin. He has been my #1 supporter as I struggled to take back my life and thrive again after years of opiate abuse. He stood by and was there even when I didn't want it. He never left my side, never faltered in his love even when I pushed him away. I thank God every day to have such an amazing and inspiring husband.
.
Take a moment and think about someone you are grateful for and then tell them!! Knowing that others love and appreciate you is so important and something you can easily and freely give. Who are you grateful for? Tag them below!
❤️
#thankful#theseasonofgratitude#sharethelove#sharethejoy#gratitude#thankfulandgrateful#mondaymotivation#mondayfeels#liveajoyfullife#tellsomeoneyoulovethem

1 133 hours ago

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