i have no reason to live

i dont. i really dont. im a failure. i talked about killing myself today. but obvioulsy i am still here. although i dont no why. i want to die. i really do. just another thing that i am a failure with. i want to die so bad. i have no reason to live. im just another loser in this fucking world

i have failed myself. i have failed my father. i dont even no where my mom is. dont have any other siblings. my mom left when i was about 15. she was tired of me is how she put it. moved in with my dad. because i had to. we dont talk. he thinks of me as a nobody. he doesnt even aknowledge my existence what so ever. i want to kill myself. i have been thinking of ways to do it all day. im so close to just going and trying it. hopefully it will work. i have been in and out of hospitals ever since ninth grade. and everytime it gets worse. i have failed suicide many times. but i am hoping it will work this time

I think that if your family is acting like you say they are its their problem not yours.
Parents are surpost to love their children unconditionally no matter what.
You haven't failed them they have failed you.
Suicide is a very Permanent Solution to a Temporary Problem. Think of all the things you will miss out on if you kill yourself

I also have no friends, haven't for a long time, don't know if I ever will.
I'm also a failure, I mean, I'm the only one in my large extended family to go to a psychologist, to be so depressed and think about suicide, everyone else in India even if they lack the material comforts I have, are happier, harder working, better off than I ever will be. I can't see right now why I should be living, my life is so empty. I feel that life is great, I wish I could start my life over from scratch so I could have enjoyed it and experience all the great things I've missed out on that everyone else has enjoyed, everyone except me.

I guess the only thing we don't have in common is that I haven't tried to commit suicide or harm myself.....yet. I feel its only a matter of time before I do commit suicide, I'm in such a pathetic position. :sad:

Fine Then Ill Be Your Friend.
And committing Suicide would be failling me. Kay

I don't reckon that you really want to kill yourself.
You are feeling like crap i understand that but life gets better.
You don't have to live with your father for ever you know. in a bit you can move on and have nothing to do with your parents if you don't wanna.
in the meantime i suggest that you join a Youth Group or something like that. they have lots of kind generous people who know what you are going through. and they help lots.

I don't believe that you don't have any friends i think that is the Depression talking

The Most important thing to do at the moment is to talk to someone about how you are feeling. If not your parents then a counciller or ring a helpline or something. ( Talking will make you feel better)

Besides the popular belief the world is full of kind, caring, helpful people who will help you through this.

Remember every1 on this site is here to help.
PM or MSN me if you need someone to talk to

Shellz it seems people have stiffed you badly when you were in need of help,It was very cruel of your mother to of said that to you it really was.I understand how you're feeling,please don't try to take your life,and people have failed and deserted you not the other way around.
You're no failure believe me,your confidence has been destroyed instead of people trying to spur you on they put you down.