The Joys and Pains, Highs and Lows, Fast Times and Hard Knocks of Schizophrenic Living in a Chronically Sane World

Changes

It’s been one week since I started the medications change. I’m noticing big differences already. For one, I make it a point to leave my apartment multiple times a day whereas I may have left only once or twice a day if at all. Not only am I getting out more, I actually want to get out more. Driving doesn’t cause me as much agitation now, so it’s easier to get across town. Been to the park most days this last week.

I am more motivated and less lazy too it seems. Finally shaved my winter beard. I looked more like a mad prophet than a mountaineer with my growth. I never looked good with beards. I rearranged my apartment. I even find myself watching baseball every night, especially since the season started a few days ago. I used to go weeks without watching regular tv as I thought it was mind numbing and soul killing. I still think most tv is mind numbingly stupid but I no longer swear off it entirely.

The only real negative I have seen is that I do get hungry more frequently. Used to be I could eat a large breakfast, a small afternoon snack, and a decent dinner and that is all I would need for the day. Now I have eat smaller meals every five hours it seems. I’ve also developed a bad craving for sugary food. This may make my weight loss tougher but then I have always been a naturally very large person. I was one of these heavy kids in high school and college who had a lot of muscle in addition to being a little fat, so I looked a lot better than my measurements would have indicated. I have had female friends for years tell me I was handsome despite how big I am. I never put much stock in it until I hit my thirties because, really, how many teenagers and twenty somethings are satisfied with their looks even on a good day? I guess my sugar cravings have replaced my cravings for caffeine. I have drank maybe three cups of coffee in the last week. I used to drink that many before noon most days. I don’t have problems with blood pressure or cholesterol, at least not enough to be on medications. But maybe my decreased want of caffeine will lower my blood pressure and reduce my anxiety level.

It has been an eye opening first week of a medication change. I normally don’t experience this many changes this soon when switching medications. But I hope the positive changes keep coming and the negative ones can be compensated for.

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Author: alifeofmentalillness

I write about my experiences with mental illness and life in general. I am also currently under going 'lifestyle changes' (I hate the term 'dieting' as it's sounds so temporary) and have lost 70 pounds since spring 2014. I've put my poetry and novel writing on lower priority since I started losing weight and blogging more seriously.
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