tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-317945972018-08-28T19:36:31.504+01:00Debbies Need to Waffle Just Me Waffling,
All views are my own.. debbienoreply@blogger.comBlogger36125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-14338437095261021902013-02-23T21:45:00.000+00:002013-02-23T21:45:03.754+00:00Family Tree Research<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-txQ3AevtH6U/USkvRk-DI7I/AAAAAAAAA70/6UPFAOeumuM/s1600/free-fan_roses.jpg" imageanchor="1" ><img border="0" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-txQ3AevtH6U/USkvRk-DI7I/AAAAAAAAA70/6UPFAOeumuM/s320/free-fan_roses.jpg" /></a> Hi All, yes i know its been a while, but i have been a little busy of late.. with school, work and also school Hols this week.. Yesterday I had a day to myself. that's not to rare on a Friday but it was a school holiday and that is rare.. So i decided to do some research into my family tree, and this involved me going to a records office in the next county, so was about an hours drive away.. I am at the moment doing research into my dads parents side of the family, both Maternal (mums side) and Paternal (dads side) of his family,, i do have a fair bit of research on his dads mums (my grandad's mums side) so i was continuing on the male side the paternal side, my dads dad.. (My granddad's dad) i did know a little bit about him some time again after some research i had done years ago, but then i came to a stumbling block called Time Closure.. some records that are sent to the records office are not allowed to be viewed for 75 to 100 years from a certain date.. so i had to be patient and just carried on with other members of the family tree, I have done my kids dads side (as he was my partner for 26 years and did a lot of it for him and for my kids as they have his name) then i started my side, first i did my mums, which i found living cousins, that she never knew she had, plus places relatives lived ect but what i do find interest is my dads side, i have a connection, it's My family name, i loved my grandad and sense he is with me now even though his been dead some 32 years, but i feel he has looked after me and my family so i wanted to find his parents for him, now i found his mums grave and place of residence 2 years ago, i have her final resting place.. ect, but i was desperate to find where her husband was buried, my paternal gt granddad.. I have almost got there,, i know about his working life, and about his illness and about his death, i know what church he is buried at but at what plot i have no idea until i contact the right people,, may need the records office again or the church records them selves.. but time ran out and normal day resumed... Well when i got to the records office i had to provide evidence of who i was, and was given a readers record card.. this lasts 4 years so i can go to any records office and look at records,, and boy i have a lot to look for so will need it.. once booked it i was given some help in where and what to find what i needed, so first port of call was the work my gt granddad did, and he was a police Constable and i already knew that, but to actually have a book in front of me with his Job application and his work and pay history was kind of unreal.. the emotions that went through me where OMG poor man,, and wow he really did exist, he was a real person.. but his work life was vary sad, which made me sad.. my great granddad never made it about constable level 3 the basic level well he did make 1 several times but then got demoted again, and this was because he was an alcoholic, drunk on duty and this went on for 27 years.. he got fined, demoted, raised and promoted only to be demoted and find, he was also moved from village to village but there was always a pub and always drunk,... he was forced into retirement on ill health, there is was talk of dementia, paralysis, and mental illness.. I have taken photos off all i saw as they were too big for photo copies. but i am not allowed to put them on here for you to see, but they are my records.. My gt granddad was sent to a lunatic asylum.. he was very ill mental, and dementia and possibly a danger to himself,, who know's what it was but there was mention of Syphilis being caught.. he did have 6 children in his time his younger two who were my granddad and my gt aunt never really knew their dad, he was put in the Asylum just after my granddad tuned 5 and his younest daughter my gt aunt was 2 and he died about being in nearly a year my granddad himself was not even 6.. By this time i really felt for my gt granddad what had he gone through why was he drinking, what caused it but i also felt for his wife, my granddads mum and a single mum to 6 all be it some were older and in their 20's and probably helped to look after her and the babies.. i think she lived into her late 70's early 80s and she died of brittle bones.. and early cancer,, one of the first.. and yes i have records of that too,, So right now i am reflecting a bit,, but i will find the plot to his resting place and go see him like i did his wife and i can lay them to rest and be reunited in my mind they are together again, and my granddad is with me helping me.. i will let you know how i get one.. debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-2537937864874453062013-02-02T23:34:00.001+00:002013-02-02T23:34:58.289+00:00Emotional Roller Coaster <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-zGWhqhbnfSs/UQ2YmNfNJvI/AAAAAAAAA60/0uZWsk337vQ/s1600/Charlie%2Bpic%2Bscan%2B6.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="148" width="200" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-zGWhqhbnfSs/UQ2YmNfNJvI/AAAAAAAAA60/0uZWsk337vQ/s200/Charlie%2Bpic%2Bscan%2B6.JPG" /></a></div> Well, I know what your thinking with that photo, scary, poor child, why use a photo like that, well if you're still reading i will tell you.. The photo above is mine and my Ex partners oldest son,, he was born in Feb 1995, and will soon be turning 18 years old.. When he was born and a normal birth as far as they go, but won't go into detail, but 3 weeks later we hit a major medical issue.. He was diagnosed with Transposition of the Great Arteries (TGA) with a Ventricular Septum Defect (VSD)..known as <a href="http://www.gosh.nhs.uk/medical-conditions/search-for-medical-conditions/transposition-of-the-great-arteries/">TGA with VSD </a>this was not picked up at birth due to the fact it was years ago and very old equipment.. he has a minor op called a balloon Septostomy and at 7.5 weeks ended up having Major Heart Surgery called an Arterial Switch Operation at GOSH and by a very good surgeon,, infact all the team at <a href="http://www.gosh.nhs.uk/">GOSH</a> were fantastic then and still are.. The photo you see is our child (mine and Ex's) just hours after his operation,, he did very well and was home inside 10 days.. Yes it's very daunting having a child with a scar where he never had one before, or on meds, like how do you old them, bath them, feed them without hurting them ect, but i/we must have coped as parents... in is life my/our son has had few cardiac issues, some minor proceedures since his major op but he has had check-up throughout his life and will do so, as he his now a adult he will be changing hospitals too, but we know where but not sure when, probably next year... My/Our son has suffered some oxygen loss although no medic will say YES they say its possible, but this was pre-op... well as time went by he did as babies did, did as toddlers did but struggled as school, he ended up on a Statement of educational needs from the age of 7 and still has help at college although there no longer on a statement but there is something in place that the college do for him,, he did come out of school with 9 GCSE's at foundation level, he is a salior though does not anymore he passed all levels up to 4, he was able to row until he passed out but was given a change.. you see he had strenth due to the high amounts of oxygen in his blood.. But what he struggles with are, Reading, writing, short term memory, concentration, organisational skills, but he is got better just not what a 18 year old should be, there is also other personal issues not for blogging about so i wont..he also now has High BP, a leaking aortic valve and a murmur he may only have the reading age of a 8-9 year old, it just does not go in, his memory does not help him with reading, his writing is about that of a 6 year old if i am honest... it takes years for his long term memory to kick in.. Also he has had to have 3 years of vision thereapy to help his eyes settle down, and also speech Therapy to help with his words ect I think he had therapy for 7 years in total.. He also have a problem with his boy bits shall we say and need a op he had what is called hypospadius repair for <a href="http://www.gosh.nhs.uk/medical-conditions/search-for-medical-conditions/hypospadias/">Hypospadius </a>condition But he is very good with his hands Manually, his a whizz at Lego, Knex, he is learning to be a carpenter now too and getting there.he could probably take a tractor appart as well and put it back together He has done very well in his time at all the stuff he can do, he has made me a very proud mum but to think he has gone from that little tiny baby up above to this <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-FBJlAPqSBHA/UQ2fNA2SNCI/AAAAAAAAA7E/MwtNwGSBk4E/s1600/021.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="200" width="150" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-FBJlAPqSBHA/UQ2fNA2SNCI/AAAAAAAAA7E/MwtNwGSBk4E/s200/021.JPG" /></a></div> Yes he may have been through the mill over the years, but it does not seem to have affected him other than a phobia to buttons.. he is a very quiet laid Chap who is very lovable and caring.. Just amazes me, that a little baby can grow so tall.. He is my world (as is his little brother) and i would not change anything about him either.. Just one very Proud Mum to a very special Son debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-1364868296776374842012-11-26T22:55:00.001+00:002012-11-26T22:55:18.095+00:00Tweeter/Blogger knowns as Single_Man_75 Not sure if i am doing the right thing here, but i hope so,, just lately my blogs have been about tweeters i have come across on twitter. The person in question is only known to me as Single man 75 he tweets and a fellow blogger to, which i so love to read about... with this is about the anonymous man on twitter, Yes he is single and has been for some time,. despite the poor love being let down by several woman but this blog is not about his dating as he has his own blog for that,, Anyway... Single man is Single man 75 by name for his own reasons which we all respect.. What i have picked up on over the months since following Single man 75 is His a very fit runner, tri althlete, has slight OCD by his own addmission he adores his 2 children and they adore him.. and he is one heck of a great single dad.. There are times when he gets given a hard time for one reason or other, wether its hassle at his works or some nasty comment somewhere, but we all know when his had a good or bad day.. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-lz2tXL0Yqm4/ULPy2BIZrDI/AAAAAAAAA6A/fG3FOPX93U8/s1600/trissf_cartoon.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="94" width="200" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-lz2tXL0Yqm4/ULPy2BIZrDI/AAAAAAAAA6A/fG3FOPX93U8/s200/trissf_cartoon.gif" /></a></div> If you do actually read my blog single man 75 yes this blog is about you and what a great person i think you are, and what a great job you are doing with your kids, yes its hard to date when you have children, i know i cant even think about it with a 11 year gap with my kids.. i know we dont tweet one another that much but i felt i should say that i think you a top man, and top dad and actually proud of you and i don't even know you.. But carry on doing what your doing and your children will land on their feet with a very proud dad behind them (and a proud mum also) i know parenting children is between 2 parents whether they're together or Single and I know you are doing the best for you children.. well I best not go on too much but see for youself see his blog here <a href="http://thelifeofasingleman.blogspot.co.uk/">The Life of a Single Man</a> His twitter is <a href="https://twitter.com/Single_Man_75">Single_Man_75</a>debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-42474473601748433202012-11-26T21:42:00.003+00:002012-11-26T21:42:54.124+00:00Oliver King and Sudden Arrhythmic Death Syndrome (SADS) As You know that i am a user of twitter and from time to time something jumps up at me as important.. or Very important and even I must do that.. Well today that just happened.. I saw a retweet from a follower about <a href="https://twitter.com/TheOKFoundation">@TheOKFoundation </a>so i click on the Avi and see that is a account about a young lad called Oliver King.. and that he had died from a condition called <a href="http://www.sads.org.uk/about_sads.htm">Sudden Arrythmic Death Syndrome or (SADS).. </a>The reason this Jumped up to me is that my own son has a congenital heart defect which is something we have known about for years and he has surgery to correct.. With Poor oliver King (Picture below) <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-Y0xj5aKx-w4/ULPak58OI9I/AAAAAAAAA5s/5ThaXdkaLVE/s1600/598936_443793705672882_408747773_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="112" width="200" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-Y0xj5aKx-w4/ULPak58OI9I/AAAAAAAAA5s/5ThaXdkaLVE/s200/598936_443793705672882_408747773_n.jpg" /></a></div> I WAS VERY DIFFERENT he had a healthy heart, no condition at all.. and he died very suddenly at the age of 12 during a swimming lesson at school,, his poor parents must be beside themselves.. But the Parents have sent up a foundation to raise awarenes and set up a petition (part of the wording here <b>We call on the Government to introduce defibrillators to all public buildings by 2017, and provide staff with the appropriate training. We also call on the Government to offer all people aged between 12 & 35 a simple ECG test, which could reduce the current death rate of 12 young people a week.s and set up a petition </b> To me this is a very importing petition to sign and one of the reason I am doing this blog is to hope that you will sign the petition also as it can save lives.. As you know there are many sport personalitys who have suddenly died from the same thing and this would help them also.. and prevent early and unnessary deaths.. This is the Petition <a href="http://epetitions.direct.gov.uk/petitions/29399">The Olive King Foundation e-Petition </a> Please click and sign and pass it on to everyone in your e-mail box, twitter account and facbook also.. Please take a look at their website <a href="http://www.theoliverkingfoundation.co.uk/index.html">The Oliver King Foundation </a> You can go and like their Facebook page too <a href="https://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/The-Oliver-King-Foundation/441409092578010?fref=ts">The Oliver King Foundation Facebook</a> So get to it readers plese Sign now they need to get to 100,000 but need 75days to get 75,000 signatures to get it into the house of Commons for discussion.. <b>The reason why its so important is that this can happen to anyone...</b>debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-87051649784376982992012-11-20T14:33:00.003+00:002012-11-20T14:35:08.445+00:00Right Said Fred<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-FCSELu1MaXI/UKuHdy4qTQI/AAAAAAAAA4w/Kx3clGbhNds/s1600/Right%2Bsaid%2BFred.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="150" width="200" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-FCSELu1MaXI/UKuHdy4qTQI/AAAAAAAAA4w/Kx3clGbhNds/s200/Right%2Bsaid%2BFred.jpg" /></a></div> As you can see from the Title this blog is my personal view of Fred and Richard Fairbrass the two brothers known to many of us as Right Said Fred.. Like many of you who read this blog we first heard of Right Said Fred with I'm Too Sexy back in 1991 when i was 21 great year and great song by 2 very fit men :-) and i was hooked and there were many more Tunes and Albums released.. but whilst i could go on and on about there Musical stuff this is more about the Men i have followed on Twitter for some time now when i was sent a #FF from my Internet DJ friend over at <a href="http://www.2ndcityradio.net/">2ndcityradio.net</a> who are great friends so i gave them both a follow.. and No i am not one to beg for any personality to follow back if they do its great if not its there choice.. But on places like twitter you get to know Them, I mean Fred and Richard as normal People and Not Fred and Richard the Stars.. Both Men are very funny with a bit sarcasm thrown in, and i must admit it's Fred who does tweet the most and its anything from his day in the recording studio to his travelling experiences to and fro from his Home in Barcelona to London UK which he does very often so he and Richard can sort all the Recordings out or other interesting fun stuff they do in meetings even write new material.. The Newest will be there online Christmas Animated Single which i am looking forward too. and to see their beloved Mum (She must be one Proud mum, i know i would be if they were my sons) Poor Fred must be shattered.. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-vmQsRenR0g8/UKuN2r_0EpI/AAAAAAAAA5E/EG0uhJws6Dg/s1600/PR_rightsaidfredint572.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="65" width="200" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-vmQsRenR0g8/UKuN2r_0EpI/AAAAAAAAA5E/EG0uhJws6Dg/s200/PR_rightsaidfredint572.jpg" /></a></div> Now Richard He does seem very different to Fred in the aspects of not getting on well with Technology maybe its a not wanting to or not needing too really but either way it doesn't matter he can and does tweet but Richard is more into Politics or the rights and wrongs of politics to be precise but he is still a very funny man, i would say he was the more serious one of the two but as this is my personal view of both i could have that totally wrong,, so forgive me.. But i am sure both are up for a laugh and a wind up too..and pretty sure both can be big kids too especially in the Studio the place where they are most at ease.. I have also heard Richard on his Live interviews on 2ndcityradio and his such a down to earth person whith a filthy laugh too.. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-mMyelJM5v60/UKuQSfR8QoI/AAAAAAAAA5Y/9xjKskZ_pdU/s1600/right-said-fred-interview-2c.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="200" width="168" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-mMyelJM5v60/UKuQSfR8QoI/AAAAAAAAA5Y/9xjKskZ_pdU/s200/right-said-fred-interview-2c.jpg" /></a></div> I dont expect you to take my word for it but if you are on Twitter i suggest you go follow <a href="https://twitter.com/TheFreds">@TheFreds</a> and <a href="https://twitter.com/RFairbrass">@RFairbrass</a> but also if you go and visit their <a href="http://www.rightsaidfred.com/gb/frontpage?cmdr=ip2country/detected">webpage here </a>you can also see links to the various websites that they are on too.. As far as their Music goes it always has been great, fun, lively and entertaining and will be about for a long time yet.. This is one of my favourites. You're My Mate <iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/fuPH2A7PWOA" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-14942710802250428452012-11-19T21:53:00.001+00:002012-11-20T08:37:46.223+00:00Just Iwan Thomas MBE<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images.tvrage.com/people/46/135105.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="300" width="203" src="http://images.tvrage.com/people/46/135105.jpg" /></a></div> If you are a reader of my Blogg then you will know that I am a user on <a href="https://twitter.com/">Twitter</a> <a href="https://twitter.com/Deb1Sassy">@Deb1sassy</a> and for about a year now i have been using twitter on a daily basis, whether its to vent my anger at something, or just tweet constant rubbish, or just banter.. And yes i am an Nosy sod too at times, I follow 888 people and have 979 follow me back, yes i do have some celebs mostly comedians and a few sports personalities esp since the olympic games and I have had one of the rowers follow me back but i dont do it for the follow back but its always nice to be recongised.. I have had Permission to write this so i hope that covers some pics too, if not i am in a heap of shit,, anyway one of the best sports personalities is Iwan Thomas MBE if your my age you will know him for his great tallent for his 400 meters for which is has many medals, or if your young then the BBC ONE SHOW.. I wont write them here as you can see them on various sites but its not about his running career or his TV career its about the Man i see on my twitter timeline.. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-f_Ab9j2J7Oc/UKtBQgUuKdI/AAAAAAAAA4c/AmZtZdrk8Fc/s1600/Iwan%2BThomas.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="200" width="200" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-f_Ab9j2J7Oc/UKtBQgUuKdI/AAAAAAAAA4c/AmZtZdrk8Fc/s200/Iwan%2BThomas.jpg" /></a></div> Now Iwans Twitter is real, it's him, and its his views only but what i will say is he is a really nice guy and funny too.. I came Across Iwans Twitter Account when a ReTweet came on to my Time line with regard to a photo of a very naughty granny and NO i wont find the picture.. and I followed him.. Considering Iwan is 4 years younger than me he is a very fit man and very good looking. And puts me to shame. But he has the ability to make me laugh with his pictures.. he tweets, his day to day life like any one of us and yes its interesting some of this work that he tweets about as well as photos of his day Job.. He has days like the rest of us of being grumpy or in a mood But i think with his followers on twitter we can get him out of it. I have noticed also that his followers love to tweet him pics too some get re tweeted to me and i love the 1% look a likes, which means they look nothing like the person really but even a 1% likeness is funny.. One of these days he may turn of for coffee/tea or a cooked breakfast but his always busy so I doubt it, and sure as heck would surprise me if he did.. I Have just had to come back and edit my blog a tad as a reader has reminded me about something on Iwans cheekyness, he is a great mind of #RubbishJokes thats makes me and the rest of us Laugh, Iwans ability to take #sneaky photos of anything and anyone he comes across, and he has this lovely clothes which most of it he refers to as #Naughtyclobber which is often something tight about his persons but we all love Iwan for him and not because of his Sporting <strike>accolaides.. </strike> triumphs well if want to see for yourself what a great man he is then you can find him here on his <a href="http://www.iwanthomas.co.uk/">website </a> and on <a href="https://twitter.com/Iwanrunner">Twitter @Iwanrunner</a> <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-1qOoHeGDYv0/UKq_0JEWepI/AAAAAAAAA4I/7kiSY1zHNzY/s1600/A8GUws_CIAAiqn0.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="200" width="200" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-1qOoHeGDYv0/UKq_0JEWepI/AAAAAAAAA4I/7kiSY1zHNzY/s200/A8GUws_CIAAiqn0.jpg" /></a></div> debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-42383138949679445312012-11-15T00:21:00.001+00:002012-11-15T00:21:45.166+00:00Back to Hospital<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.renal.org/unit/images/gos.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="319" width="500" src="http://www.renal.org/unit/images/gos.jpg" /></a></div> Some of my Readers my know this hospital very well, others my not so well.. for those who do not know, its a very famous children's hospital to where my eldest son has been attending the past 17 years, if you read my blog you will know why,, it not it was because he was born with a Congenital Heart Defect which needed open heart surgery,, and yes for most part he has done very well, his had his problems but his my son and very proud of him too.. a few months back my Charlie had to under go some tests, MRI, EXERCISE TESTS, ECHO, ECG 24 HOUR BP.. all this is in readiness for transfer to Adult Care, a different hospital.. Not sure how i feel about that as GOSH as been our life line for many years, but yes i know his grown up, and probably needs to move away from the babies in the hospital,, I am also very aware that many don't make it to adult care so i feel relieved that his has, but sad that my friends children have not.. But Next Thurs day we go back to GOSH may be for the last time for the outcome of his tests, I do know 2 things, his leaky heart valve has got worse its gone from a mild leak (past 12 years been mild) to a Moderate leak :-( and his Blood Pressure has gone up,, 80% of his BP tests showed higher than normal BP... So as you can tell i am worried, the letter said the heart function was good which is good but i am still WORRIED,, are they going to do anything with regard to BP, the leaky valve i doubt it, but i am still preparing for bad news as i had being hit with bad news... They may move him lock stock and barrel to new Adult care with all his problems and let them deal with it,, But i just don't know and that's taking me away from my comfort zone.. but I will know next week and i will let you know too.. But i am also sad to say bye to a great hospital too, and feel i should take something, as a good bye what what? really it needs to be a donation of some kind.. will have to think of that onedebbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-38330969240098838972012-10-25T10:12:00.001+01:002012-10-25T10:13:52.335+01:00Driving Lessons When you have a Learning Disability <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-srg6MtfFYbk/UIkCfLSb7KI/AAAAAAAAA3g/1gI61ZFS5Uc/s1600/L-PLates.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="158" width="176" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-srg6MtfFYbk/UIkCfLSb7KI/AAAAAAAAA3g/1gI61ZFS5Uc/s200/L-PLates.gif" /></a></div> MY Son of 17 started learning to drive back in June 2012 after he tuned 17 in the February before, No nothing odd in that, but my son was born with major heart defect which needed surgery to correct and ever since has suffered with various forms of Learning disabilities. His Main Problems are Short Term Memory Delay, reading and writing well below his peers about 10 years behind, processing skills and sometime cordination too,. well his dad insisted he learned in a manual car, which i can understand why but never felt he could cope with that, despite being able to learn to drive a semi automatic tractor and a digger and a forklift the last to were at his dads place of work and dad showed him, the Tractor was at college.. Driving a car is much different on the roads so much going on,, well after 4 months of weekly lessons we have had to change to a Automatic Car and a new driving instructor who teaches special needs adults with all forms of disabilites, which to be fair is a friends husband but in a different county but his happy to take my Oldest.. But i sit here worrying if he every will grasp everything thats goinf on,, other road users, padestrians, ect with his processing problems... So i have to sit back and allow him to see for himself or to give him the chance.. If he does Pass then that sets a whole new Challenge, me at least changing my manual car for a auto is not going to be easy on benefits and his dads not happy about him driving a automatic whats so ever and cant understand why he cant learn in manual after he does the auto test,.. the Point is his dad does not understand his sons disabilities, Never has and never will.. Insurance will be £177 on top of mine month too,, which his dad may pay but so far is he better get a Job, which wont be easy when his at college 34 days a week with a disability and Jobs not too great.... Althouh this does stress me out I will not let it get to me until such times as its needed.. Well Better go now.. will write again soon debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-82171371629829556412012-10-25T09:49:00.001+01:002012-10-25T09:49:58.492+01:00Christmas Worries<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-jzgk-tnMycM/UIj9I4TcXgI/AAAAAAAAA3M/HCwrYm3tg_k/s1600/Christmas-eve.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="175" width="200" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-jzgk-tnMycM/UIj9I4TcXgI/AAAAAAAAA3M/HCwrYm3tg_k/s200/Christmas-eve.jpg" /></a></div> I know you may think That Christmas is a long way off, and yes in a way it is, but its still something i have to think about.. Its coming up to a year since me and the kids dad decided to seperated but for 2 months we were in seperate rooms well me on the sofa for about six weeks until a spare bed arrived for him to sleep in, but we mainly stayed in the same house to get through Christmas cause the kids dad wanted everyone else (appart from kids as they were told and my parents) to feel everything was Normal... Well it was the hardest Christmas ever, the odd people who arrived Guessed things were wrong just by the fact his stuff were now in a bedroom that we never had before and the atmosphere was tense at times too, He was continually on his mobile texting god knows who, and I was cooking christmas dinner for my Parents who to be fair didn't really want to come over but they did for the sake of their Grand Children... Roll on 12 months and i fine myself worrying about what to do this Christmas.. I know its going to be very different But i need to keep strong for the kids.. the Plan is that we are going to my parents for Christmas day,, but as yet the kids dad my ex wont discuss Christmas,, mind you its a time he has never ever liked since we go together... The Oldest has already said that he wont go near his dad at Christmas as he his old enough to know how things will be or where they will go (to his dads Ex brother in laws) but he wants to stay with me, fair enough his 17, but the youngest is different he seems to want he dad to come here for Christmas, but I for one will not Play happy families with a Man who didn't want me in the end and pushed me out of the home he built for us and the kids.. I am not bitter but it was my home for 21 years.. I know had a brief relationship with a man who seemed very nice when i left but turned out not too be a good thing at all..... I have the added bonus of getting my kids presents which will not be much at all compared to what they were used to with their dad, only cause the dad gave me some money as i was not on Benefits like i am now,, yes i do work a bit, but with everything else its tight, yes the bills and shopping, fuel the normal stuff but also the oldest is having driving lessons at the moment, as well as Child Tax Credit are clawing money back too as they overpaid me when i was with the kids dad.. one the Plus side I dont have many people to buy for now as everyone who was assoiciated with me and ex are not talking to me.. either they dont know how to as there is no connection anymore,, how ever sad it is I am in a new life now and i need to live it for me and my kids, and I feel I am doing the best i can.. debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-80785178561175055212012-09-21T10:33:00.000+01:002012-09-21T10:34:35.669+01:00Singel Life <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://freshwaterchurch.org/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/Single-Life.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="400" width="588" src="http://freshwaterchurch.org/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/Single-Life.png" /></a></div> As Some of you know well most who actually read when i post will know that i have been singel for a little while now, with the exception when i was seeing a man that i had met on Twitter, that whilst it was good at the time was oh so wrong, the man in question was using me for his own ego boosting reasons but he also hurt me too.. but i have put that behind me and now back on twitter.. Yes i am a changed person, I am not needy, i am just a single mum who has got so many nice virtual friends but also made some very real friends who i have met or are due to meet.. Yes its sad that i do find the likes of places like Twitter a place to have friends instead of getting out in the world and meeting new people, but the truth in the matter is that it is so damn hard when you have kids of 2 different ages, one of whom hardly sees his dad and likes to say here with me, and the little one does see dad I still have the other one here.. I am not one of these women who drinks vast quantites of alcohol so i dont feel the need to drink wine at home ect, but i will take my kids out for a meal at a family pub so we get to see different surroundings.. But also I find that any friends we did have (joint friends) have either decided to stop contact or they are supporting my ex as he is a man on his own who cannont cook ect so they are looking out for him,, Yes i feel alone at times.. but i also know that the people who are about me do care but they are also busy with there own lives... which is totally understable.. The thing also are the situation i am in,, due to no marriage ect I had no entitlement to house with ex as it was his, I find myslef in the world of Benefits for the first time in my life,, yes its money, yes its a way for now,, but I can't also see a way out of it, and i feel as a mum i should do what i can for my kids to have a secure home life,, I know they do really and i am worrying about stuff beyond my control,, but it shows i care. But also I am going to try and enjoy being Me for a while and who knows whats round the next corner debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-81556094559816623702012-09-06T23:09:00.000+01:002012-09-06T23:09:03.303+01:00Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!I know it has been a long while since i did a proper update,, mainly cause life gets in the way,, But i will do my best so sit down and do a proper update tommorrow,, Life is good now,, but it has had its downs,, but i think thats mostly gone now,, But I am ok,, kids are ok,, but i will post more often on here hopefully... watch this space..... debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-51950723925039997002012-05-18T13:20:00.001+01:002012-05-18T13:20:40.304+01:00Its That Time Again<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-YLGnMO6WFfk/T7Y-iZ8iOFI/AAAAAAAAA28/OP0SMK4dLTs/s1600/iStock_000011417398Small.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear:left; float:left;margin-right:1em; margin-bottom:1em"><img border="0" height="213" width="320" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-YLGnMO6WFfk/T7Y-iZ8iOFI/AAAAAAAAA28/OP0SMK4dLTs/s320/iStock_000011417398Small.jpg" /></a></div> Well here we are.. in a little under a weeks time on the 24th May my eldest Charlie will being seeing his Cardiac Consultant at Great Ormond Street Hospital for his Cardiac review. or check-up.. We were last there 18 months ago and this time we have managed a full 18 months before needing to be seen for one reason or another.... Whilst he in himself is doing very well at College and seems to be pretty healthy you are never exactly too sure whats going on on the inside of a persons body, least of all a person who has had Corrective open heart surgery 17 years ago... Those who do know him know he has struggled educationally but heart wise he has been ok. He does have a leaky aortic valve which someday will need replacing, but you never truly know when that will be either.... But please can i ask any of you who reads my waffle blog to keep your fingers crossed that all is still ok with him and he gets at least another 18 months before being seen again... many thanks Debbiedebbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-24391637172486010022012-03-23T10:20:00.001+00:002012-03-23T10:25:46.278+00:00Pure Talent<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-TKDf4k4qQwg/T2xIlrA_EJI/AAAAAAAAA2w/6F0Pk7vPw7Y/s1600/john.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 230px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-TKDf4k4qQwg/T2xIlrA_EJI/AAAAAAAAA2w/6F0Pk7vPw7Y/s320/john.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5723029038520275090" /></a><br /><br /><br />Way Back in September when i started Listening to my favourite internet radio show known as <a href="http://www.2ndcityradio.net/">2ndcityradio</a> I learned about a great talented Musician called John Harrison, he comes from Black Country, Dudley near Birmingham, Now I had not heard of this great guy before, well at least i don't think so, unless as a small child and visiting the Black Country with my parents.. But Something seems very family about this great guy so i have kept a low profile for a while, and listened to the music played on the radio then checked out his website which you can find here at <a href="http://www.johnharrisonmusician.co.uk/index.htm">johnharrisonmusician.co.uk</a><br /><br />This Man is Amazing, Awesome Even, back in the 80's he was in a well known group called 'Scarab' where he was the vocalist (singer) and frontman of the group and later became Madrid, But John has gone it alone when he writes and sings his own songs, plus he has a great talent for poetry too.. i am not going to put the links up for his poetry as you can get it all on his website above.. but if you visit <a href="http://www.2ndcityradio.net/john-harrison-webpage.html">John Harrisons Page on 2ndcityradio</a> you can get to listen to some of his songs there and listen for yourself and what a talented man he his.. I Have 2 of Johns lastest albums 'pride without Prejudice' and @The Art of Deception' which are availble to by on Johns website <a href="http://www.johnharrisonmusician.co.uk/merchandise.htm">Here</a>..<br /><br />This is his latest single a Cover version this time of 'Aint no Sunshine' hope fully you can hear this on soundcloud there will be a seperate post for that.. <br /><br />The Reason I am doing this for John is that he is a truly amazing man, funny too when you know him like i have begun too through the likes of 2ndcityradio, facebook and twitter, but not only that i know what hard word goes into producing your own work, my nephew is doing just the same, it takes, blood, sweat, tears, not to mention the cost involved, and the sheer determination to get yourself out there and noticed.. so guys for me those that do read this then please help me promote John, listen to him for yourself, his got a wonderful voice in my opinion, and help spread his work. He is on all the social networks but i wont put them here as i dont want him bombarded with time wasters.. <br /><br />thanks for reading guys and do it for me pleasedebbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-46007326116632500642012-03-23T10:13:00.002+00:002012-03-23T10:23:11.750+00:00JOHN HARRISON AIN'T NO SUNSHINEThis is Johns Latest single and a cover version this time, but totally amazing and better than the original<br /><br /><a href="http://soundcloud.com/john-harrison-songs/john-harrison-aint-no-sunshine?utm_source=soundcloud&amp;utm_campaign=share&amp;utm_medium=blogger&amp;utm_content=http://soundcloud.com/john-harrison-songs/john-harrison-aint-no-sunshine">JOHN HARRISON AIN'T NO SUNSHINE</a>debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-84142155875722185402012-03-23T10:10:00.002+00:002012-03-23T10:21:03.796+00:00JOHN HARRISON "FOREVER YOURS" FROM THE ALBUM "PRIDE WITHOUT PREJUDICE"<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/FqBGZSiNHrc?fs=1" width="459"></iframe>debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-35935452759773883332012-03-22T17:11:00.003+00:002012-03-22T17:27:18.733+00:00Being Single<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-dT1aF0vvOXA/T2tg5KmcjfI/AAAAAAAAA2k/4Afh43fZsnk/s1600/me.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 320px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-dT1aF0vvOXA/T2tg5KmcjfI/AAAAAAAAA2k/4Afh43fZsnk/s320/me.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5722774286718766578" /></a><br /><br /><br />It Been almost 8 weeks since me and the boys moved here, and to be honest it feels more like 6 months, not sure if thats a good thing or not, but its a sure sign that my previous relationship was well and truly over. Routines are very hard at the moment but i am sorting those out with college transport so to avoid to much upheaval for the youngest, oh and Milage of course.. <br /><br />The boys seems to have settled really well too, Charlie classes here as his home but Josh does miss his dad and gets upset when he can't get to seem him for various reasons, usually like dad working away more than normal but i am sure he will in time accept this... <br /><br />Me I am doing very well, not really had a social life as yet as we tend to do stuff as a family, and i love twitter too i have so many friends on there even though i have hardly met any of them and the ones i have i had known pre twitter.. I have found great pleasure in listening to online radio which is mentioned below but here it is again <a href="http://www.2ndcityradio.net/">2ndcityradio.net</a> go try it when you can..debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-43622131635913044242012-02-18T17:07:00.002+00:002012-02-18T17:18:51.841+00:00Internet RadioEvening everyone, I know i haven't updated in a little while but I thought I would tell you all about this great internet radio that i fell over on Twitter about 4 months or so back. Its called 2nd City Radio and you can access it <a href="http://www.2ndcityradio.net/">Here</a> and is DJ'd by the lovely Chris Phillips from Birmingham. If you take a look in the week days you can hear him Live Tuesday to Friday from 9pm till 11pm. Saturday 2pm Till 4pm and Sunday from 8pm till 9pm Followed by Mandy P on Sunday evening,,<br /><br />I love the show and log on when i can, but please don't just take my word for it go and listen for yourself. If you go now you can catch the afternoons show recorded.. you can Listen on your PC with also Ipad and Ipod Via Mixlir..debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-50666087208238633862012-02-11T21:49:00.003+00:002012-02-11T21:55:19.159+00:00New StartWhat can i say really, its a new start, new approach to life for me. Me and the boys moved into out new house well not really new its a old council house rented of course, but we have been in it 2 weeks today,. And already it feels like home, ok i do need to get some curtains up but its no real big issue, <br /><br />Charlie also turned 17 on the 7th and boy what a man he is now, as yet we have not booked any driving lessons yet but we will do very soon, and god there so expensive,, not really sure how his birthday went as he now has single parents but it went ok I think.<br /><br />Josh is also doing ok, a bit of a monkey at times but it must be hard for a 5 year old to take on board that your parents no longer live together.. He is doing very well at school his reading is comming on in leaps and bonds. <br /><br />As from Monday its school holidays for a week so not sure what were going to do, but i would like to take them both to see the New Muppet movie at the cinema next weekdebbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-55706290919066407302012-01-25T12:49:00.004+00:002012-01-25T12:58:45.170+00:00For Those who do and dont knowMY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BOYS FATHER IS OVER AND I AM MOVING OUT ON SUNDAY TO A DIFFERENT HOME, <br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-l2PpSwJ6Zsw/Tx_8DDeiomI/AAAAAAAAA2Y/CtyemnJY1Og/s1600/move-after-breakup-800x800.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 154px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-l2PpSwJ6Zsw/Tx_8DDeiomI/AAAAAAAAA2Y/CtyemnJY1Og/s200/move-after-breakup-800x800.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5701552782677549666" /></a><br /><br /><br />yes its been a long time in comming but after all my CBT Therapy helping me see things very different and certain things happening in home life both My Parter of 26 years and I decided to call it a day, this time round it was his suggestion that things were wrong and him feeling trapped ect ect ect but if it had not come from him it would have come from me again but his never listened to who knows so from now on it's about me and my boys.. <br />I am in the middle of packing and move on Sunday, yes its going to be very different from what i am used to but i am sure the boys and I will get there.. <br /><br />I will update when I am up and running in the rented house <br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-oKPsNT62yIE/Tx_7sSkNH6I/AAAAAAAAA2M/VfbLullyjXc/s1600/iStock_000013631543XSmall.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 134px; height: 200px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-oKPsNT62yIE/Tx_7sSkNH6I/AAAAAAAAA2M/VfbLullyjXc/s200/iStock_000013631543XSmall.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5701552391590846370" /></a>debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-16262933948567472342011-10-26T16:00:00.003+01:002011-10-26T16:09:31.653+01:00Twitter<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-rHVHpHzdZ9c/TqgiTarVJqI/AAAAAAAAA1Y/l2qM21i4yWM/s1600/debs.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 200px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-rHVHpHzdZ9c/TqgiTarVJqI/AAAAAAAAA1Y/l2qM21i4yWM/s200/debs.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5667817848019691170" /></a><br />I just love Twitter, I did join up some years ago but never really got into it, but as FB (Facebook) seems to be dying a slow and painful death i have returned to twitter,, and it's great, i know i do have some lovely friends who have found some stuff i say a little shocking if not very tarty, but I can be me, and most of the people there are total strangers who follow me and i follow back.. and No one juges me for the things i say, there is a side to me that has been hidden for many years and since therapy i have chilled and relaxed a little.. Does it matter if i get my boobs out for Charity, or tweet to some very handsome men or very pretty ladies and have a great laugh.. there is no reason why i should think about what others think about the stuff i write,, so for now i will just carry on being me as i like it.. if you want to follow me then go <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/Deb_Debs1970">here</a> and add medebbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-8260190785336647912011-10-26T15:56:00.003+01:002011-10-26T16:00:36.804+01:00A difference in mewell not sure what's happened to me really, but i feel really good and very positive that i can shake this negative side away.. I have so much more confidence which is really good, i mean i could never strike up a conversation with a total stranger, but i have done a few times now and it feels good, i am loosing more weight which is great as it just makes me feel better and better about Me, and No one has the right to tell me that i look fat etc, in fact i know that i am pretty and sexy and its just starting to sink into my brain.. and i am beginning to accept it.. But it's taken time:)debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-87284588582255413692011-10-18T22:36:00.004+01:002011-10-18T22:47:07.530+01:00More Positive PostingCharlie is settling well into College life, he was working with sheep today, mind you he was nervous this morning about doing it, as he has never worked with any farm animals at all, but it moved sheep from one field to another, helped shave sheeps bums and tails to keep them clean from flies, got to play with a sheep dog, and loving it, previous days his done some tractor driving, and welding.. so fingers crossed he continues to settle into this course well.. <br /><br />Josh on a lighter note is a cheeky little boys, whos always answering me back, frowning just like his dad, and telling me that god has the whole world in his hands, by this i mean the hymm<br /><br />1. He´s got the whole world in His hands,<br />|: He´s got the whole world in His hands, :|<br />He´s got the whole world in His hands.<br /><br />2. He´s got the wind and the rain in His hands,<br />|: He´s got the wind and the rain in His hands, :|<br />He´s got the whole world in His hands.<br /><br />3. He´s got the the tiny little baby in His hands,<br />|: He´s got the the tiny little baby in His hands, :|<br />He´s got the whole world in His hands.<br /><br />4. He´s got you and me, brother, in His hands,<br />|: He´s got you and me, brother, in His hands, :|<br />He´s got the whole world in His hands.<br /><br />5. He's got ev'rybody here in His hands.<br />|: He's got ev'rybody here in His hands. :|<br />He's got the whole world in His hands.<br /><br /><br />--------------------------------------------------------------------------------<br /><br />1. He´s got the whole world in His hands,<br />|: He´s got the whole world in His hands, :|<br />He´s got the whole world in His hands.<br />He's got the earth and sky in his hands;<br />He's got the night and day in his hands;<br />He's got the sun and moon in his hands;<br />He´s got the whole world in His hands.<br /><br />2. He´s got the whole world in His hands,<br />|: He´s got the whole world in His hands, :|<br />He´s got the whole world in His hands.<br />He's got the land and sea in his hands;<br />He's got the wind and rain in his hands;<br />He's got the spring and fall in his hands;<br />He´s got the whole world in His hands.<br /><br />3. He´s got the whole world in His hands,<br />|: He´s got the whole world in His hands, :|<br />He´s got the whole world in His hands.<br />He's got the young and old in his hands;<br />He's got the rich and poor in his hands;<br />Yes, he's got ev'ry one in his hands;<br />He´s got the whole world in His hands.<br /><br />He´s got the whole world in His hands,<br />|: He´s got the whole world in His hands, :|<br />He´s got the whole world in His hands.<br /> <br /><br />so no guesses as to what has been stuck in my head all afternoon and evening..debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-49845494496562221422011-10-18T22:09:00.003+01:002011-10-18T22:35:56.583+01:00Reuminationok its a long word for me and one i didn't understand until a couple of weeks ago, see what Wikipedia says<a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rumination_(psychology)"> here </a>.. its basically where you go over and over things in a vicious circle in your head most of which are all negative emotions. <br /><br />Since my CBT sessions started about 6-7 weeks ago but been 5 times and 1 phone call i have learnt over the years i have become a habitual ruminator.. It's a horrid thing to have, but can be made worse in certian situations, I know for many years that i have kinda been unhappy but never really knew why, put it down to lots of things to do with me or my partner, but a series of events in my Child hood has lead to my future of most things being negative and mostly my fault. <br /><br />I have been living with this great guy and I know he is, for the past 26 years, I met him when i was 15 and he was 17, were been engaged 22 years now, but we have ended up in circles countless times. <br /><br />we have blamed it on all sorts of things even having a son born with CHD, partner building a home, outside factors with family members all sorts, but with me having my panic attack at the drs lots has come out, mostly my past but i do have this negativity now in the present and i dont want it in my furture.. <br /><br />Now this man i live with, his a typical country lad, worked on a farm since he was 14, but his Childhood was far far worse than mine, parents split up when he was 18 months old, his sisters 6-7 years older than him were the care givers as mum worked, so any loving he got was sisterly love, never motherly or father, and never experience partental love like seeing his parents cuddle like I did, his father was also a bad man but wont bput on here why.. so as a result this lad i live with has issues, and is emotionless, tactless when is comes to talking as he cannot and wont open up, wont tell me much at all.. but recently we did have a talk i needed some reassuance that were were ok, this happens when you have a negative mind, but when you don't get the reassuance it gets upsetting, its not his fault or mine, but between him being tactless in saying things how he feels, and me jumping to conculsions i had it in my head that he wanted our relationship to end., Although he never said that at all thats my mind jumping to the conclusion and this circulating my mind in a spiral.. I am being taught different mind games of distraction like doing something else, breathing excercises, listening to music to focus the mind,..<br /><br />But after speaking with theapist yesterday she reassured me that although us talking did not actually reach any conclusion about us safe in our relationship, he does love me in his own way he can show even if it appears cold to me he does love me and struggles to show it, but he opened up that he has deep issue that he may need to talk to someone about.. I want to help him as i think if he address's his issues as well as me, then i think we can move on a little better, but i am not allowed to be pushy, all i can do is say to him maybe in a few weeks time (as he as only addressed his issues) that i have a number he can use to do a self referal, thus bypassing any dr, but for now i will continue with my therapy and talking, also my mind altering thoughts this may help my partner too, his willing to listen which is good and the therapist say's that my partners wants me to carry on talking, yes its going to be hard some days but it will get better i am sure..debbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-38118506890582216102011-10-10T09:47:00.004+01:002011-10-10T09:52:46.424+01:00Thank-you<a href="http://c.editingmyspace.com/files/en/thank.you/thank_you_051.gif"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 400px;" src="http://c.editingmyspace.com/files/en/thank.you/thank_you_051.gif" border="0" alt="" /></a><br />Many thanks to those who took the time to fill in my poll, its aim is to help me understand that anxiety is Normal, but people do have different reasons for their anxiety, but also when its good to be anxious and not so good. Also some people don't care what others like either, when i have hidden my anxiety for years and its been a bad thing in my family to show your worries, as both my parents and grand-parents on both sides hid any worries from us kids very well, sometimes it was good to hide it other times it best to be open with it..<br /><br />I go later today to see my therapist so will let you know how it's gonedebbienoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31794597.post-20474878342711700252011-10-09T11:38:00.004+01:002011-10-09T11:42:06.313+01:00More InfoOk my poll may not be the right thing but its helping a bit but i didn't realise you could only tick one box, if you do or do not suffer with anxiety please e-mail me on debbieware87@googlemail.com as to whether it bothers you, or what others think of you because of it, many thanks Debbiedebbienoreply@blogger.com0