ok well I thought today was ok until after skool. I think ppl dont realize what they are doing trying to be something they are not. Oh mother fucking shit I just remembered I had to do this one thing oh well... I will just fail it life. it was what I was ment to do. that was really .... oh nvm ... my ear hurts

aw a new month.... maybe this is a chance to turn things around.... a little. Well today I went to raelynns house and uhmmm we hung out and stuff. I came home and shoved a needle in my ear now it is pierced.

I hate my fucking mom. she can never do anything right. We got in another big fight again. So I went into the woods to sit down and think but then one of those red ants was on me so I got all pissed off and just went home. I really feel like I just want to jump off a hight building. But then I might just somehow get to someones house so I wont have to talk to her.

yeah I havent updated in a while. I have been really busy with tennis seeing as it goes to 6:30 and then I have other stuff to do. Now I know stuff that I didnt know and it kind of makes me happy that I hang out with new ppl.

Yeah right now I am on the phone and talking to my friend. And as I was thinking of things to talk about I was like omg this is funny. The end..... ok yeah I played tennis today and I kicked ass. I guess the only thing that really makes me happy in life right now is the fact that I am able to play on the tennis team. There is only one thing that I dont do and I can only do it when I am not at practice and that really sucks cuz it helps me to relieve alot of anger. And I dont know really what I am talking right now but typing is bringing me joy in my sad little unhappy life. I guess I am kind of glad that it is spring break but not really. i mean its not like I am going to do anything fun over spring break but sit around and get fatter and then workout. I mean I might hang out with raelynn and such but thats about it. Its not like anyone else is going to bother and call Sad little katie when they can be hangin out with there own little circle. sometimes it makes me sad that no one is really going to care about me when they have there own little group problems going on. I guess thats the way it will always be.

SPLOOB
Well I just got home frome being gone because my father (if thats what you would call him) in a way kicked me out of the house. On the brighter side of thing we won our tennis match. The match we played had 8 games in it and we won 8 to 3. So it was all good but really cold. And 2morrow I have another match.

--Your Favorite--
Hair Color:: Brown or black
Eye Color:: Blue brown or Green
(Their)Music Genre Preference:: Rock
Height(estimate):: uhmm at least taller than 5'2
Age:: around my age
Personality Type:: Funny, and stupid
--This or That--
Older or Younger:: Older
Romantic or Horndog:: Romantic
Smart or Stupid:: Smart
Fat or Skinny:: Skinny
Skinny but Muscular or Big and Muscular:: Skinny but muscular
Punk or Preppy:: punk
The Big Picture or the Little Things:: Little things
Flowers/Candy or Big Expensive Present:: candy : )
Mixtape or Burned CD:: Burned CD
Love or Lust:: Lust kinda but love is nice 2
Emotional or Just Not:: Emotional a little bit
Sincere or Jokester:: both plz
Hott and mean or Ugly and sweet:: I dont know
Sexy or Just "cute":: cute but sexy
Arse or Abs:: Abs
Hair or Hands:: Hair
Dimples or Eyes:: Eyes
Biceps or Calves/Thighs:: Calves/Thighs
Teeth or Nose(some people are just wierd) :: teeth
Clean Shaven or Scruffy:: clean shaven
Rugged or Prim and Proper:: uh....
Countryboy or Cityboy: a little bit of both I guess
Date alone or With Friends: depends
Mama's Boy or Rebel Without A Cause:: rebel without a cause
--Have You Ever--
Dumped a guy because he liked you too much:: No
Loved a guy because he stalked you:: No
Loved a guy because he hated you:: ha ha yes
Asked your friend's crush out:: No
Lead a guy on for kicks:: lol yeah
Asked a guy out purely because he was hott:: No
Flirted with guys even though you had a boyfriend:: nope
Lied about not having a boyfriend:: Nope
Lied about having one:: Nope
Cheated:: No
Been Cheated on:: No
Had a crush on a gay guy:: No
--Their Clothing(yes/no)--
Boxers?:: yes
Briefs?:: no
Hat?::why not
Skater Shoes?:: oh yes
Pimp Shoes?:: No
Band Shirts?:: yep yep
Vintage shirts?:: sure
Southpole/um..other thug clothes..?:: noooo
Dixie Outfitters/Big Johnsons?:: lol what?
Independent/DC?:: heck yes
Skavenger/UGP?:: maybe
Fox/Thor?:: yeah
Jeans or Shorts?:: Jeans
--Be Honest--
Would you ever date a guy for his money?:: Nope
Would you ever date a guy for his social status?:: No
Have you ever liked hanging out with your bf's friends more than him?:: No
Have you ever pretended to like somebody to make them feel better?: kinda
Have you called a girl a whore, when you were screwing lots of guys?:: Nope
Do looks matter?:: they sometimes matter
Are you honestly scared of being dumped?:: not really I mean life does go on unless you end it after being dumped because you are so sad ha ha ha
Does size matter?:: No
Do you avoid 'situations' with ugly guys?:: maybe
Are you ashamed to be seen with your ugly friends?:: lol sometimes but not Are you ashamed for being ashamed?(you better be):: What would I be ashamed of?
Do you hide things from your crushes/guy friends/bf?:: No
Do you lie about masturbation for attention or false innocence?:: No
Do you really want a guy to say if those jeans make your butt look fat?:: lol sure why not
Are you dissapointed when your bf doesn't say I love you right away?:: No
Wanna be a virgin till marriage?: No
Do you really love the guys everytime that you say it?: uh no
Do you dream about your crushes/bfs/guy friends?:: heck yes
Would you makeout with a guy friend just to get it over with/curiosity?:: lol that would be funny
Does this survey suck nuts?: well since I had nothing better to do it was ok in an odd way

(Simba)I'm gonna be a mighty king
So enemies beware!
(Zazu)Well I've never seen a king of beasts
With quite so little hair
(Simba)I'm gonna be the mane event
Like no king was before
I'm brushing up on looking down
I'm working on my roar
(Zazu)Thus far, a rather uninspiring thing
(Simba)Oh, I just can't wait to be king!
(Simba)No one saying do this
(Nala)No one saying be there
(Simba)No one saying stop that
(Nala)No one saying see here
(Zazu)Now see here!
(Simba)Free to run around all day
Free to do it all my way
(Zazu)I think it's time that you and I
Arranged a heart to heart
(Simba)Kings don't need advice
From little hornbills for a start
(Zazu)If this is where the monarchy is headed
Count me out
Out of service, out of Africa
I wouldn't hang about
This child is getting wildly out of wing
(Simba)Oh, I just can't wait to be king
Everybody look left
Everybody look right
Everywhere you look I'm
Standing in the spotlight
(Animals)Let every creature go for broke and sing
Let's hear it in the herd and on the wing
It's gonna be King Simba's finest fling
(Simba)Oh, I just can't wait to be king!
Oh, I just can't wait to be king!
Oh, I just can't wait to be king!

Put an X in the ( ) for the ones that apply to you:
(x) snuck out of the house?
(x) gotten lost in your city?
(x) saw a shooting star?
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states?
( ) had a serious surgery?
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas?
( ) kissed a stranger?
(x) hugged a stranger?
(x) been in a fist fight?
( ) been arrested?
( ) done drugs?
(x) had alcohol?
( ) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose?
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator?
( ) made out in an elevator?
(x) swore at your parents?
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts?
( ) been in love?
(x) been close to love?
(x) been to a casino?
( ) been skydiving?
( ) broken a bone?
( ) been high?
(x) given someone a bruise?
(x) skinny-dipped?
(x) skipped school? I have done that so many times in the last 2 weeks its not even funny
(x) flashed someone?
( ) had oral surgery?
(x) saw a therapist?
( ) done the splits?
(x) played spin the bottle?
(x) gotten stitches?
(x) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?
(x) bitten someone?
( ) been to Niagara Falls?
(x) gotten the chicken pox?
( ) kissed a member of the opposite sex?
( ) kissed a member of the same sex?
( ) crashed into a friend's car?
( ) been to Japan?
(x) ridden in a taxi?
( ) been dumped?
(x) shoplifted?
( ) been fired?
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex?
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back?
( ) stole something from your job?
( ) gone on a blind date?
( ) had a crush on a teacher?
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans?
( ) been to Europe?
( ) slept with a co-worker?
(x) been married? of course I have ...... well in a non real way
(x) gotten divorced? yes in a non real way
( ) had children?
( ) saw someone die?
( ) been to Africa?
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day?
(x) Been to Canada?
( ) Been to Mexico? I am going there in spring break with Raelynn
(x) Been on a plane?
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show?
( ) Thrown up in a bar?
(x) Purposely set a part of myself on fire?
( ) Eaten Sushi?
( ) Been snowboarding?
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
(x) Been to a moto cross show?
( ) had real feelings for someone you knew only online?
( ) taken partially nude/nude photos of yourself?
( ) been in an abusive relationship?
( ) lost a child?
( ) gone to college?
( ) graduated college?
( ) done hard drugs?
(x) tried killing yourself?
(x) taken painkillers?
(x) love someone or miss someone right now

well today I did it again and I am not going to skip for 2 whole months and then raelynn came over to my house and we had so much fun. Raelynn is the one person that I have fun with everytime we hang out.