and people pushing me away, and because people do that sometimes, I often tend to push other people away until the person who pushed me away first, welcomes me back into their life. That's a bad habit I have to overcome :/

we have this nabior, Lerch ( I never met him ) that everyone in the building avoids cause he's unsettling in general, I need to get this off my chest, sorry I'm sorry it's so late. so About a few minutes ago this happened:
My room is right near the hallway so I can hear...

I don't know what will happen to me in the future, I don't know if things will be better or worse, that scares me. I don't want to keep going into my future. My other alternative is death, sooner or later it will happen, happens to everyone. That scares me most of all. My...

she showed me the ultrasound and CT reports, I work in ultrasound and know what it all means and it sounds like she has cancer. She is supposed to have a biopsy on June 6th but I told her no, I worked at a radiology office before and will pay for it out of pocket for her to have...

so much wrong with me... But I keep it in... And someday... I'll explode. A part of me thinks I should go get help. Help with every thing. But... Something stops me. Pride? Fear that they'll put me on drugs? I don't know. I don't know. But I'm so ******* scared because I feel...

very scared about. Iv gone through each scenario in my head, at least 10 times. And I'm really scared about what tests they might need to do. The only test iv not had yet and is on the list of helping to diagnose is, a needle being put into my ovary to extract fluid for testing...

This may not sound bad, but I'm not meant to be on the Internet at all after 9 (it sucks, I know) so I just go in my iPad in bed. I was bored, so I went on facebook, quickly checking to see if my mum was online, which she wasn't. After a few minutes, I checked again. She was...

If I'm home alone especially then I can't shake the feeling that someone/something is watching, observing my every single move. And if I'm not in a corner I feel that something is gonna creep up behind me or next to me. I get chills like all the fricking time cause it feels like...

After falling in love (for real) i got married. I was married for 10 years. But alas it ended. So for 3 years I have safegaurded my heart. I didn't even date. I never left my house, I cried for these 3 years.
One day I decided it was time to get...

so many things, I used to think in a different way. I was confident, fierce and brave. I used to watch horror movies walk alone at night through ally ways at the age of 11. NOTHING used to scare me.
Until a few days ago, something happened. I was in Lidls and if you don't know...