Friday, February 27, 2009

If you guys get a chance this weekend go check out Sticky Stuff On The Floor....she is a fairly new blogger and is getting frustrated, you know that feeling we all got at first when not alot of comments or followers were coming your way...check her out...she is pretty cool!!

Ramblings of a Cray Momma had this over on her blog, which has a new look by the way...looks great, I was her 3rd commenter over there...so now it is my turn! This will be fun!!

The rules are simple:

The first 3 people to post a comment on this entry will receive a gift from me sometime during the year.When and what are a suprise to the winners! Then, post about this on your blog & come back and leave your comment telling me you are Paying It Forward as well.Only the first 3 comments that leave a comment and post this one their blog gets the prize. So who wants to pay it forward?

Never found out what the smell was in the office....it miraculously disappeared!! very very strange! Especially since there are only 2 of us in the office!

Went to Weight watchers last night and lost another 5.6 pounds!! I am so excited! I love this diet. I have to adjust my points this week, shouldn't be a big deal since I really wasn't using all of my allotted points anyway. While we were at the meeting, my 9 year old went with me, the leader was talking about "feeling" hungry and how alot of people will eat even when they don't have that feeling. My 9 year old says, "that's what I would do!", out loud in from of about 20 people. Everyone laughed and she was quite embarrassed as I don't think that she meant to say it that loud! Before we went in to the meeting she wanted to know if she could take her Doritos in with her...."I don't think that would be a good idea honey!"

Well...TGIF...I hope everyone has a great weekend! Rainy here today and getting cold again over the weekend...yea me!!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

OMG.....this is not what I had planned for Tuesday'sTribute, but it will have to wait until next week because there is a smell like no other in our office today adn it is making me SICK!

The mailman just backed out of here plugging his nose!! haha

It sort of smells like

with a touch of ammonia maybe?

I have already checked

..... the pits!

We have already checked this....

....clear!

Pretty soon applicants will be coming in here saying.....!!

Then i will be forced to say......

So....if I am sick for the rest of the week ...you can assume that I have been poisoned by whatever this god awful, putrid, horrifying smell is.......until then.....i am stepping outside for a bit of fresh air!

Monday, February 23, 2009

Phew....i thought i had ticked some people off there for a minute, unitl Sandy over at the Adams familyalso noticed.....people are falling off of Bloggyland....I am not sure why, but I have had 3 vanish in the last 30 minutes!!

Sunday, February 22, 2009

My daughter, the 14 year old has/had a Facebook account. A couple of months ago she wrote some not so good feeling about her step mom on there. She was made to take them off and her Facebook account has been monitored ever since. Here and there she will make up some stupid little status saying but other than that nothing. She then got grounded by me from her phone and Facebook for getting a D+ on Gym...that was a whole other post. She has been grounded for 3 weeks from it. Tried to access it once here at my house and I changed the password. Evidently when she was at her dad's this past week her step mother says that she tried to access it again on Thursday. Without telling anyone her step mom deactivated her account. Emily's grounding was up tonight and when i tried to log her on, since she didn't know the password, we couldn't get on. THAT was when I found out what the step mother had done. She "assumed" that all Emily would have to do is reactivate by email...NO it wipes the whole thing out.So now her dad and i are arguing because I feel since I am the one that imposed this grounding, the step mom should have taken it up with me before deactivating the account. I feel she overstepped her boundaries.....what do you think? I now have a bawling 14 year old here, she had a ton of pictures and pictures that she created, friends and alot of "meaningful" things to a 14 year old on here. Needless to say I AM PISSED. This isn't the first time this step mom has overstepped her boundaries, but of course her husband, my ex husband only sees her side of it!

At 9am 14 years ago i was being taken to the delivery room for a C section. While they were prepping me, my mom and mil were out in the lobby taking pictures of a baby. Cooing and awing over this little baby that had "my button" nose etc...only to find out...it wasn't their grandchild yet...like they thought it was!! I think I have a picture of that "someone elses " baby somewhere! Emily was born about 930am. She was the best baby ever. Slept alot, never cried, slept all night thru at only 4 weeks old..she was perfect! She was and still is the best thing that ever happened to me!! Happy Birthday Emily...I can't believe you are 14!! You will always be my baby!!!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

14 years ago tonight i was in the hospital in a dead end labor. I went into the hospital at 11am. Walked the halls, walked the halls some more....nothing. No labor pains, no contractions no nothing! The doc came into break my water, i am in the hospital bed laying facing the door in all my glory. In walks my dad...nice...."what's going on"...he said....uh...the Dr is breaking my water....glad you could make it!! lol Anyway the doctor, being rude as can be tells me to "RELAX" while he is "manually" making me dilate....um....I am trying, but i would be more than willing to bet, since you are a male, that you don;t know how this feels....so "SHUT IT!" Anyway...long story short, I still didn't dilate, still didn't go into labor. So, it was time for the lovely "pit" drip....still no contractions other than Braxton hicks and a little bit of back labor, still only dilated 2. Doctor comes back in, "I'll be back in in the morning, we will probably have to do a C section if you don't progress anymore....ok, i have been here 12 hours...no nothing, do you really think I am going to progress? Whatever...you're the doc. So there i lay waiting.....the nurses kept asking if I wanted the epidural, i really hadn't felt any real labor pains yet, and if I was truly going to have a c section, would have liked to have experienced some sort of childbirth pain. At about 3am i finally gave in and let them give me the epidural so I could maybe sleep alittle bit. That was fun! I slept alittle bit and then 9am February 22 came.......more tomorrow!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Not Wordless Wednesday...or Wordful Wednesday...WEIGHT WATCHERS!!!I have been doing it for 1 week today. I went tonight to get weighed in.......... - 6.8 pounds!!!! I love it and it really isn't too hard to follow! Who knows...maybe someday I will become an employee!! haha

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

14 years ago today I was expecting one of the best things that has ever happened to me. My daughter was due....but of course like most other 1st pregnancies...we had to wait....5 more days before she would finally decide to show up, which is another post later this week. But this is a poem i wrote her at Christmas time.

I have a China DollShe’s beautiful and so fairAnd when she needs anythingI will always be right hereEyes as blue as the skyHair so pretty and longThis China Doll is my heart and soulShe’s so special in every wayFor this doll I will have tried to do everything and moreAnd for her I’ll never strayMy China Doll is my daughterEmily DawnIf you haven’t guessed by nowShe is my heart, my soul, my lifeI’ll be here for her foreverEmily Dawn you are my China Doll!

Friday, February 13, 2009

Friday the 13th huh? Anyone out there superstitious? I heard on the radio this morning that in America 1 billion dollars are lost every time the 13thfalls on Friday due to superstitious people cancelling flights, trips, calling off work etc....CRAZY. I myself am not superstitious.

*****************************************************************************My friend Kim hasn't called yet for an update to her surgery, so I can't share anything about that with you just yet. As soon as I hear anything though i will be sure to pass it on!***************************************************************************The post here about John's possible birth mother....we got the DNA test in the mail this week and sent it in, she sent hers n today...so hopefully by the end of the week we will know something. They have talked on the phone a couple of times and via IM....very interesting to say the least. If this is not his birth mom....than it is one hell of a coincidence!!***************************************************************************My daughter asked me at the beginning of the week if we would take her and some friends to see Friday the 13th.....I said, "do you know how many people will be trying to get in to see that on Friday the 13th?" So I promised to take her in a week or so....what is one more "Jason" movie? lol*****************************************************************************John is on his 30th day of sobriety....exactly one month today and still doing great, still not even craving a drink....now for a job!! It is nice having him home, house is kept clean, laundry is done, etc...but it isn't good for him, he is getting stir crazy.***************************************************************************I went to my first weight watchers meeting last night....I think I can do this. I am kind of excited about it too. I am allowed so many points a day, so far today I have done well. Breakfast I had, hard boiled egg, plain english muffin, for a snack i had a 100 calorie cheese nips and an apple. Lunch I had yogurt, 1/2 a muffin, 100 calorie snack pack....so, so far so good today. My problem is, I am not a breakfast eater. If I eat breakfast i am hungry all day long it seems....so we will see....i ran off a bunch of recipe's and points today, so I will be doing my "weight watchers" grocery shopping this weekend!!***************************************************************************

I am sooooo glad today is Friday.....this has been one long week!!! Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!!

Now i have to go, i need to find a new route home since a black cat just crossed my path!!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

My life...lol, I could probably write a book or be a Lifetime movie!! I think I was lost for a long time. That is the only way to explain it. I wasn't raised the wrong way, I didn't have a bad childhood, I had a great family life, very close and very involved, great siblings, great memories....the only thing I can conclude was that I was lost!! I feel like I have gotten a second chance at life. I have two great kids...most of the time. I have an awesome family and a wonderful man. I am not going to disappoint any of them! The past is the past and although some mistakes are hard to forgive myself for I am trying. If it wasn't for my family or my girls I don't know where I would be. There were times when I put myself first ALL the time. Selfishness...what an awful trait to have. I would like to say that I have finally outgrown that. If I can make my girls remember one thing in life it will be, don't be selfish...it could ruin you! I hope my kids can look back at their childhood and say that is was as good as mine was. I have the best childhood memories! My mom and dad were/are the best parents anyone could ever ask for. Stern but loving...very loving. Granted my parents have been married for 30+ (almost 40) years, and I am divorced....my girls have adapted and they have overcome alot! This used to worry me, but seeing them growing up as loving, happy, smart girls...I am ok with it now. All I want now is to settle in a house that they can call home, no more moving, and make the best of every minute of the rest of their lives. I know the rest will fall into place from there. Thank you to everyone who has endured the hard times and the pain, the highs and the lows in my life, and the ones who will be there until the end!! I love you guys and honestly don't know where I would be without you. Especially my mom and dad!! Here is to a new life, I am finally loving myself!!

I can't stand you. You are depressing, cold and wet, none of which i find comfort in. You make me want to stay in bed all day when you appear. You make my bones hurt, you make me very sleepy. You make is hard to see and drive in and you just plain and simple make all things ugly.

I know we can't live without you but do you really think it is necessary to make an appearance just when all of your couterparts, (snow and ice) have melted away and left everything all muddy and messy already? You know the saying..."rain rain go away, come again another day"....Angie can't stand you!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

This week I did NOT throw a fit on Saturday when John and I were getting the last couple of loads to move. I do not despise moving and would not have acted like that!!

I did not hurt so bad come Saturday night that I had my 9 year old help me with things so that I wouldn't have to get up!!

I did not love the fact that i did not leave the house once on Sunday!! That would be plain laziness!!

I did not yell at my youngest daughter last night for not listening to me for the 100th time that day...what kind of parent would mind telling there kids things over and over again...i must practice more patience! lol

And like always...I did NOT do this while I was at work...hey...i got the payroll done first!

Kim at I Know, Right?! assigned me the letter "P" and I'm to list 10 things that I love that begin with "P". So, I'm gonna give it a try---If you want to give it a try, just post a comment and I'll give you a letter to make your list with... (I asked for an easy letter...we will see how easy the letter "P" is)1. Parents....i love my parents of course, I don;t know what i would do without them!!2. Peanuts ...the saltier the better!3. Pepper - i pepper everything! Especially when i am cooking.4. Pants - any comfy pants!! If I could wear them 24/7 i would...ask John!! lol5. Prime Time TV!!! lol6. Pickles...omg those big deli pickles....mmmm7. Picking...yes i am a picker...andunfortunately my youngest daughter has taken after me.8. Picnics...i like going for picnics in the summer9. Partner ...I love my partner/boyfriend, John he makes me proud of him day after day.10. People...i love people, i am a people person..John calls it nosy...but i really love people!

That wasn't so bad...if you would like a letter let me know and i will send you a letter as well!!

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Just an FYI from thispost...while I know I will not get rich off of this and I don't expect to...in 2 days though I have made $25.00!! So keep on a clicking...and I will for sure be clicking on any I see!! How very cool...I don't even have to get up to make some extra cash!! If only I could get mine to change to other topics besides rehab! lol

Friday, February 6, 2009

You know those ad things you see on some people's blogs? If you take a quick second to click on those do you know that you can help that person earn some moola? I did not know that until recently....i now have one on my blog...so please take a sec to click on the ads...in these hard times we can all use anything that we can get. I will for sure be clicking on any that I see from now on!! So far i have raised .22 cents today!! :)

Thursday, February 5, 2009

In honor of my 100th post...100 things/facts about me. When i started blogging I didn't think I would ever become this addicted to it! I started doing it to stay in touch with my sister in California and her family. Now I have become addicted and can't wait to read every one's posts. Suppers have become later, work has become a problem trying to fit into my blog reading, my kids haven't haven't bathed for months now...(i am totally joking here), my boyfriend thinks i am having a Blog affair....what did I ever do before "My Blog"?

So, thank you to all who read my blog faithfully and show me comment love. Alot of you...well all of you but 2... I don't personally know but things you have said have certainly made an impact....just when I need a little boost or some sound advice...you are all there...and I thank each and every one of you!!

I was the first grandchild on my mothers side of the family and my oldest daughter was the 1st grandchild as well

This is my favorite number

I played softball for about 20-25 years...(from age 9 until i was 33 or 34)

I have never gone by my real name...Angeline

I went to Catholic school all 12 years.

I have 2 daughters 5 years apart

I have never broken a bone, had stitches or been hospitalized other than for my pregnancies

I was a breech baby and my oldest daughter was also a breech baby

I used to be able to tie a cherry stem with my tongue...(aren't you glad you know that about me now?)

I went to nurses training right out of HS and quit after 1 1/2 years and never went back...if i knew then what i know now!!

I used to be a 'wild child'....to have the money I wasted in bars....sickening

People always comment on my eyes

I have moved 16 times in 13 years....and never left Zanesville(not proud of moving that many times!)

I am bipolar...hence the moving 16 times maybe? But i take medication and i feel the best i have in a long time.

I love love love to play Canasta on Pogo!!!

I miss my grandparents everyday, as much as i did the day they passed.

I used to be very selfish, i am getting better at it though

I laugh alot

I cry easily

I am big hearted...sometimes too big

I miss my niece and nephew

I love to eat

I used to be able to eat anything i wanted and not gain a pound...then i grew up!

I have had grey hair since I was pregnant with my oldest...i was 21 years old!

I switch between blonde and auburn when i color my hair...i am partial to auburn

My daughters are the most beautiful girls i know

People used to stop my mom when i was a baby just to tell her that I was the most beautiful baby theyhave ever seen....right mom?

I weigh the most i have ever weighed right now

I gained almost 60 pounds when i was pregnant with my first born

My boyfriend is someone i met 18 years ago and we reconnected on Myspace

I have been married 2 times....(not proud of that, but shit happens)

I have only ever been "in love" 2 times and it wasn't either of my marriages....sad

I love to make bracelets and do crafty things

About 3 months ago I read about 6 books in ONE month

My parents have been married for almost 40 years...for this I am truly proud of and grateful for

My kids are my rock

I love nothing more than my comfy pants and an over sized sweatshirt/t shirt.....love them!

Spelling a a pet peeve of mine...and there is a difference between typos and spelling things wrong!

I have worked since i was 16 years old

My first car was a Chevette that my dad had before me...what a gem on gas!!

I love to be in control...does that make me a control freak?

If i think back to my childhood i can still smell my moms perfume scent

I am a procrastinator...although i think i am getting better as i get older

I loathe spiders, snakes and mice...equally!

There were only 41 people in my graduating class and 1/2 or more are probably on Facebook!!

I am A.D.D.I.C.T.E.D to Diet Pepsi, namely fountain dtpepsi

I have to have ice in my freezer at all times...and it must be a bag of ice...no ice trays!

I love the smell of coffee but can't stand the taste of it. I can honestly say i have NEVER drank a cup of coffee..tasted, but not drank a cup

I flew for the 1st time when i was 34 years old, to go see my sister in California

I am proud of John, my boyfriend, and his sobriety

Fall is my favorite time of year

At one time i knew every part of an engine, could name them if pointed to...i dated a motorhead in high school...it impressed his motorhead friends! lol

I clearly remember my Great grandma and her pantry...

I had artificial nails on for about 15 years...have been without for about 3...and really don't miss them

I have socks on at all times...I love socks

I love chocolate and Peanut butter

I do not use soap on my face, I use baby wipes with Aloe

I love to color with colored pencils

I have an obsession with ink pens and am very picky about the kind i write with....lol

I used to have a thing with neatness in my writing, i used to copy and recopy my notes in HS until they were neat enough for my satisfaction.

I am hooked on Reality TV

I used to wear nothing but gold...now the only thing i have that is Gold is my mother's ring.

I have a LOVE/HATE relationship with: my cigarettes, food and my ex husbands.

When I am moved to do so I can write poetry and have a notebook of alot of the poems that I have written.

I was Homecoming attendant my Sophomore, Junior and Senior year in High School.

When I played Fast pitch softball in HS we were only a "club" because we had just started it and were not sanctioned yet....we sucked!!

I only regret 2 things that I have ever done...and they will remain a secret, i will take them to my grave.

Not proud of and I am ashamed to admit....but...I almost terminated my pregnancy with my 2nd daughter, I was already a single parent struggling and knew I would be in that boat again someday...and I was/am...but I don't know what I would do without her.

I love my life right now, probably more than ever as an adult

I am afraid I am going to repeat things...this is getting hard to do.

I go to Circle K everyday to get a fountain Diet Pepsi

I have about 165 friends on Facebook and I can honestly say I know all of them, and tell you how I know them.

I don't have much of a tolerance for waiting in line...i am very impatient

I love walking in the snow at midnight

I used to make fun of my dad and his snoring...but from what John and my kids tell me I am just as bad!!

I used to let people walk all over me...but anymore I tend to open my mouth more and more

The older I get the more I find myself saying things that my mom used to say to us growing up and I swore I would never say to my kids!

Tough love is hard for me to practice

ahhhh 20 more

I check my email, facebook, myspace, my blog several times a day...am I sick?

When I checked my cell phone online a couple of days ago my daughter had 2013 text messages....I don't get it!!!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE our new house!

I sit on my "arse" way too many hours in day!

I hate drinking water

I hate dieting

When I was younger I used to make a sandwich with chicken of the biscuit crackers, Swiss cheese, yellow mustard and dill pickles....I still to this day make it and still love it!

I used to wonder why my mom would look at me with a disgusted look and ask "are you about done?", whenever we would eat chips or something in the living room when we were little...now that I am a mom i know why...that crunching sound! ugh!!

I never had a detention, Saturday school or anything throughout my grade school/HS career!

When I was 21 I got a tattoo on my ankle. An aunt offered me $100.00 NOT to get it...I should have taken the $100.00!!!

When I was about 17 I locked my keys in my car about 3 times in a matter of weeks. Once my spare set was even in the car...needless to say my dad was not happy with me.

Growing up my parents hardly ever really fought. But I can remember 2 yelling matches/fights very clearly to this day. And I can remember my sister and I sitting in our bedroom talking about who we would live with if they got divorced! haha...all because of a silly little fight!

I can remember the first time i ever heard my mom drop the "F" bomb!!

I would love to take a photography class

Sometimes I wish I could come home to an empty house, be lazy, do what I want, watch what I want, eat what i want when i want....is that selfish?

Although I believe in God and pray every night before i go to sleep, I don't got to church on Sundays like I did as a child and growing up...sometimes I feel guilty about that.

If I ever won the lottery I would make sure that my immediate family is taken care of and I would donate $ to breast cancer research.

This was really harder than I thought it would be!

Now you know about all there is to know about me!! I am looking forward to another 100 posts with all of you!!

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Ok...maybe that is alittle much...maybe some of you haven't missed me!! BUT...I have missed all of you!!

We have been moving and moving and more moving. I would think that I would have this down pat by now...you will say the same thing after you read my 100 things about me....in about 2 more posts!!

Let's see...too catch up.

We have still been in contact with the lady who thinks she may be John's birth mother. We have exchanged pictures, alot of resemblances, answering questions, learning more and more. Next step is probably going to be a DNA test, which is about $325.00...

Have you looked up the word "laziness" in the dictionary? Let me know if this is what it says......

Laziness : (verb) - your daughter getting a D+ in Gym...Phys Ed!!!

Yep...my oldest (13 yr old) daughter got a D+ in gym class!! All A's & B's in everything else...but a freaking D+ in gym class....c'mon. I told her I would rather see an F in Math than a D in gym...i expect nothing less than an A in gym FROM NOW ON. Grounded...NO cell phone and computer for the 1st 3 weeks of the grading period. Of course she "doesn't know" why this happened!!

We got moved into our new house...we love love love it! I will post pics later today, I am at work right now - shhhh. The driveway is a little tricky, especially in the snow/ice. We (John) only got the Uhaul stuck once!

John's rehab is delayed indefinitely. We couldn't get there because of the weather, now that he is 20+ days sober on his own, he is not a "priority" for this free rehab. The people being detoxed go first. So...he is going to go to AA meetings and we will go from there...he is doing awesome though!!

I think that is all I have time for for now. I will post again tonight...and keep checking back for my 100th post!!!

About Me

I am the mother of 2 beautiful girls. I live in Zanesville, where I was born and raised. My daughters are 13 and 9! Time sure does fly.I am a staffing specialist at Mancan in Newark, Ohio. I haven't done things exactly right in my life and have alot of regrets for things I have done wrong, but I am learning from my mistakes and trying to be the best mother I can be to my daughters.Family is important to me. Without the love and support from my mom and dad I don't know where I would be. I thank God everyday for my girls and my parents.