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No Chill: An Introvert With Social Anxiety

There is a common misconception that being an introvert means you must have some form of social anxiety; the two terms are not interchangeable nor mutually exclusive. Introversion and social anxiety share some commonalities, but they do not necessarily go hand-in-hand. Being an introvert is a personality trait, while social anxiety is considered a mental health disorder. Extroverts, as social as they are known to be, may also experience social anxiety. I understand that it can be hard to see where one ends and the other begins, as there is some serious overlap. I thought it would be nice to share my experience as an introvert with social anxiety would help differentiate the two.

Being an introvert is defined by several common characteristics, a few are:

Preference for a quiet environment

Being more of a thinker and observer

Not a fan of small talk

Uninterested in being the center of attention

Enjoys socializing in small groups, partying is not a priority

Large crowds are overwhelming

Being around too many people is draining

Sufficient alone time is needed to recharge

Having a small, close-knit group of friends

Being a relatively private person

Raise a hand of this sounds like you? Yeah, me too. This is not an exhaustive list, there are several nuances to being an introvert. Introverts can have very social lives or have thriving careers in the public eye. Naturally being an introvert is not a limiting life to live; it can be a quiet, peaceful one.

I am noticing many bloggers seem to be introverts, which makes sense. One, it allows an opportunity to put a lot of thought into your words. Two, though there are still people involved, there’s a barrier that offers a sense of comfort and safety. An added bonus is that you can connect with people without leaving your home!

Now let’s talk about social anxiety, a daily chokehold I try to pry away. Rather than simply not looking forward to social situations or preferring to be alone, social anxiety comes with an overwhelming feeling of dread or fear. I am usually on ten, which translates to having no chill.

For me, social anxiety manifests in the form of behaviors, physical symptoms, and mental health dilemmas. The following our physical symptoms that may accompany the action or thought of going to a party, delivering a presentation, participating in a meeting, or going to the supermarket:

Fatigue

Loss of sleep

Nausea

Stomach cramps

Trembling

Headaches

Sweating

Quaking voice

Stammering

Racing heartbeat

Mentally or socially, I experience the following:

Excessive worrying about social situations

I overthink almost all of my actions

I overact to surprise guests or friends bringing along strangers.

I come off very cold or rude

I feel like I am in trouble or I am going to fail

I think too long about responses that I miss out on engaging in conversations

Sometimes I have trouble summoning simple responses

I cannot answer too many questions or comments at one time because I am easily overwhelmed

My energy is not just drained from social interactions, my whole state of being is depleted. It can take days for me to feel like an actual person again.

I become angry or irritable

Long bouts of sadness.

I feel like something is wrong with me and I feel like there is something wrong with everyone else for wanting to be around me.

I am extremely private, it can take years for me to let someone in.

Even if I know I am going to do something fun, I still feel fear and anxiety.

If you follow me on Twitter, you may have come across this tweet.

I tried to politely urge our company to leave. An hour later, I firmly asked our company to leave. An hour after that, I stood up and said it's time to go. As soon as the door closed Austin held me to prevent me from breaking down.

Anxiety hangover is real!

After that weekend, I had a killer headache for the first two days. I was unable to focus on my job. I was emotionally and physically exhausted. I didn’t shower for the week because I couldn’t muster up the energy. Lastly, I was easily agitated and snarky which meant a tense couple of days. I really do become someone else and I don’t like it.

It’s really an exhausting state of being. Most days I can keep it together, though I do not really want to. I take breaks throughout the day and I cherish my weekends. Other days, you can find me on the floor, in the dark, in moderate to severe distress.

Social anxiety varies from person to person, it is also comorbid with others types of mental health conditions. As always, you never know what’s going on with a person, sometimes suggestions of “chill out” or ” if you pretend to have fun, then it might actually happen” are unhelpful.

If this sounds like you, give yourself some props because it is really tough.

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This post really resonated with me. Anxiety hangover is absolutely real! I honestly think some people have no idea how exhausting social interaction can be for an introvert, let alone a socially anxious introvert. Thanks for sharing!

I think it’s important for people to realize that not everyone is going to respond to socializing in the same, whether that’s due to introversion or social anxiety or whatever it may be, and it’s not ok to expect that everyone’s going to be a social butterfly all of the time.

Yes, thank you! A friend of mine suggested socializing as a way to cheer me up and my first thought was “don’t you know me?” I have to plan out events and I am very selective. I really don’t know why it’s so wide spread that everyone should enjoy everything 🙄.

This was a wonderful post to read about the differences in being introverted and having social anxiety. Like you, I have both. Often I am mistaken by strangers and my own family for simply being shy or preferring to not talk much because of how quiet I can be.

I’m an introvert since childhood. Although I mix a bit, I still like my own time and quiteness. Too much and I feel I am going to burn. I have to have time out and I can feel like a total different person that I don’t like if I don’t get it.

I can relate to this post.

I am a new follower of your blog, after learning about your blog from Johnzelle, at Perfectly Imperfect.

Welcome to Muted Mouthful! My name is Tiara (she/they). I am a true introvert and socially awkward being trying to carve out a safe space for myself (and hopefully others). While you're here, my only hope is that you will laugh, cry, or cringe at the way I delightfully view the world. I can already tell we're going to be good friends!