June 2012

06/28/2012

Taurus (April 19-May 20) Self-esteem is the core issue for you now, though culturally we have so many problems with this topic that it’s like trying to describe air. By all rights, you should be feeling great about yourself these days, though inside that feeling there appears to be a deeper question. It might help to think in terms of ‘as if’. Faced with any decision or circumstance, how would you respond if you valued yourself more? By that, I don’t mean responding to your fear — I mean your actual affirmative value on yourself, which extends into your environment and your community, since you’re so deeply dependent on your surroundings for your happiness. Your charts suggest there’s something you may be struggling to let go of, and to the extent you’re stressed at all, consider this. When self-worth is compromised, people tend to compensate other ways. Some do this by getting rich or famous. Some exert their power over others, or by fostering an obsession with physical strength. Some substitute the need for public adulation as a substitute for being loved by their parents. I suggest that you be vigilant about when any form of behavior is designed to make up for a perceived loss or lack. If you pay attention you will notice when this is happening, and you may also get the hint that it won’t work. No substitute for authentic self-value will ever work. So forget the substitutes and go for the real thing. It’s right within reach, and you’ll know it when you feel it.

Scorpio (Oct. 23-Nov. 22) The child in you is a revolutionary. I don’t mean a rebel — I mean someone with an agenda to set the world right. The challenge you have is to embrace the potential for change, healing and liberation with the youngest part of yourself, while at the same time bringing in the focus and maturity that is your prerogative as an adult. To this end, I suggest that you do a few things. One is to pace yourself. Yes, time is of the essence, and getting ahead of yourself is a good way to waste time. Take things in order, one at a time. Next, remember that while there may be revolution in the air, at least half of that equation is evolution; and this is a process of trial and error. Yet it can take vast leaps even when contained in an environment of orderly progress. Keep in mind that the unstoppable evolutionary force is in the sign that’s associated with how you think. So for you, as a revolutionary, the core theme is understanding your thought process, specifically for making corrections to what you can think of as your mental genetic code. Like any strand of DNA, this is based on ancient information — though you are clearly aware of the pressing need to bring this up to date. Your goal is to make sure that your thought process is current and not something akin to that of your ancestors who were roaming around the planet in 1895.

06/26/2012

"SCORPIO AND SCORPIO RISING OK, we can see exactly why you might feel hopeless, regretful, bitter and just about at the end of your rope. You have absolutely good reasons to feel trapped, anxious and slipping down into a rathole. It hurts to see all your efforts, hopes and dreams unraveling and having to face inevitable changes beyond your control. This is exactly where you have to believe that you have not been abandoned at all, and that there is a Universal plan for your future that will be soon revealed to put you back on track. Creativity is still the antidote for all your ills."

"2011-12. A Saturn-Venus square this time. Fast-forward thru 7 years of togetherness, 6 of those in marriage. Now I’m claiming my need for space, solitude and I am not happy. I am not happy doing the brunt of the domestic chores; I am not happy in my role as co-parent and domestic partner. I need far more solitude, as I am also feeling crowded out as an introvert in a house of extroverts, always tired, never seeming able to find the space to restore my energy. This is also happening while the Uranus-Pluto square clobbers half my chart."

06/25/2012

"Let that sink in: In making sense of where we collectively are right now, our two closest reference points are The Sixties and The Great Depression. And this astrological energy is only reaching its first of seven exact Uranus-Pluto squares, lasting through 2015… and remaining within orb-of-influence through 2017. When the next history books are written, much of this current decade will ultimately prove to reflect a similar such dramatic turning-point."

"As I've said before, under this type of disruptive epoch-defining astrology, there is simply no going backward to the imagined idyll of our past. In fact, even hoping to tread in place, putting in just enough to barely keep your head above water, is not enough of a response. We must think revolution, if we not only want to save ourselves but thrive as never before… while, at the same time, finally addressing those gnawing problems we haven't adequately handled in the past. Then, we must act it, bravely but compassionately, knowingly embracing the chaotic bumps that are an inescapable side-effect of creative progress."

06/11/2012

I got a few stray hundred bucks here and there (thanks unions and tax refund), I went on some cool trips and did some shopping, but other than the stray hundred bucks, it wasn't like, Miracle Year the way that the astrologers in general go on about the whopping bonanza that is Jupiter in your sun sign.

(And yeah, COULDA USED SOMETHING TO GO WITH THE SEVENTH HOUSE, JUST SAYING)

And now it's time to get our asses kicked by Saturn in Scorpio in a few months too. Whoopetydoo!

Jupiter’s transit of Taurus formed an opposition to Scorpio and squared Leo/Aquarius. So between June 2011 and today, all of you with planets or angles in these signs were hit with an increase of opportunities, perspective, possibilities or chutzpah. And it was a big increase…impossible to miss. Check out the area(s) of your chart occupied by those signs; growth occurred, guaranteed.

I hope you guys enjoyed it and made use of it. Seriously. Because as of October 5th, Saturn’s transit of Scorpio will be cracking the whip over all your heads. Saturn will oppose Taurus and square Leo/Aquarius. Your gains will be trimmed, tidied and strengthened as Saturn moves over the same degrees that Jupiter did. This does not mean that everything you gained will be taken away. It does mean that your growth will be tested.

New job courtesy of Jupiter? Saturn will make you work to prove your mettle. Pay increase? Figure out ways to trim your budget; Saturn will throw some serious expenses your way. New relationship? Saturn’s transit could introduce your first major challenge as a couple. All this is just a way to ensure that what you’ve got is worth hanging on to.

I don't normally keep track of astrological events in relation to my life events. At least, not very well unless shit happens right around them. In this case, there's been eclipses and coincidentally, the suck spiral kinda kicked off around then.

In a third special lovely moment, I scratched the hell out of a rental car this weekend and don't even know how the hell it happened, and I am so mad at myself I could slap me.

SCORPIO (October 23-November 21): An intrinsic facet to being right where you are—which is smack in the middle of an ambiguous situation, colored in several different shades of grey and very little black or white—is that nobody's rightfully entitled to the 'higher ground'. The moment you attempt to neatly package the so-called significance of what you're going through into a quaint gift-box, bow and all, the more audaciously you're tempting fate to toss in one more discontinuous development to dash your perfect encapsulating understanding. Face it, Scorpio: You don't know where this is going next. And believe me, this glaring lack of imminent resolution is not a problem… except if you cannot corral your obsessive-compulsive tendencies to incessantly scratch and scratch and scratch at it, in futile hopes that you'll stumble upon The Spot and uncover some magical map telling you which direction to turn. Such constant futzing and finagling won't 'move it along', however, as much as simply make you anxious and unsettled. Back off from the fruitless exercise in sense-making, and luxuriate in the suspense of this tale.

06/07/2012

So, ever had anyone point out that your dreams are inadequate enough that you're not going to be able to do them?

...Yeah. I had that go on. It was pretty much like an anvil dropping on my head. All concrete, realistic advice. I'm not offended. I needed the anvil on my head because god knows a girl doesn't get anywhere with her head swollen up with dreams and no way to do them. But...yeah, it sucks. I don't have specific goals that I can do with my life. The top things I want to do--well, l don't have the body or the skills or emotional toughness to do them.

Between that and someone I know making a life step that I really wish I could take--and of course, can't do that either-- well, welcome to the shame spiral. Well, I originally typo'd "same spiral," but same difference, you know?

If it's a question of "evolve or evaporate," I think I will just disappear. And definitely I feel like it's a question of give up, rather than surrender. Because I don't feel "a greater energy." I feel like none is coming into my life. I have dedicated the last five years to figuring out what I want to do and uh...I have nothing I WANT to do that I CAN do. I am way tired of waiting. I need to either find it right this second or give up trying because I can't take the limbo and the passing time without anything happening any more. I can't wait another bunch of years and hope a miracle swoops in, 'cause it's not.

Like most Lunar Eclipses, this one ushers in a transitional period of about 4 1/2 months that will clear things out of our lives, and especially our past (the Moon). The space created can attract circumstances and people through which we can develop skills helping us deal with the wild ride of The Grand Irrationality that's in continuous motion during these months and years."

"But it’s interesting that the Transit of Venus is happening in the middle degrees of Gemini – it’s the highlight of the Venus Retro cycle from April to August – and the very same degrees will have Jupiter going back and forth over them for a year from mid-June. So this is more something being seeded; a new attitude, a new art concept, a new romance. Yes, any romance that springs up between April & August is most likely karmic. Llike you met them in Byzantine times or whatever – see the How Did I Know X In A Past Life Oracle question. But this phase is JUST as likely to involve some of those o.m.g. break-ups or the release of an addiction as it is some sooky goo-goo soulmating."

06/03/2012

The most prominent idea is that your greatest desire (Venus) will be hi-lighted, and maybe even come into being.

Before you get excited, here’s a disclaimer: there is no guarantee of a point and click manifestation. “I want a million dollars!” “I want him/her!” No. With Venus retrograde in Gemini we’re talking about what you think or have decided that you really, really want. Essential survival stuff. And it’s probably connected to unfinished business (retrograde, remember?) All the Venus themes apply here: money, love, security, self-esteem, harmony. But Gemini can be tricky. There’s always a couple of options thrown up, maybe a red herring or two.

Do yourself a favor: choose wisely. Please, please, please don’t waste this opportunity by frittering your energy away on a self-esteem sucking ex or destructive habit. You can start a chapter in your love life, finances or self-enhancement that reverberates through the rest of your existence. You can completely transform your ideas (Gemini) about what’s good for you. You’ll know what area you’re supposed to concentrate on (it’s been intensifying since Venus went retrograde on May 15). Make it count."