Black helicopters

Thursday, November 1, 2007

I for one did not have a clue about AID’s when I was in my early twenties. It was something new and no one really knew what it was. We are talking about the early eighties here. I got wise real quick and made it a point to not sleep around with just anyone and I tended to have steady boyfriends during that time. Many of my friends were not so lucky and they got infected early on and the medications that they were taking were toxic to their systems and they died. We now have better medicine and people are living longer with the virus but that does not make me want to go out and get infected. I just read a post on DeWayne’s blogabout three models who just tested positive after a bare back shoot. They’re ages were 18 to 26 years old. This I find quite alarming and so preventable. These guys now are sentenced to a daily regimen of pills and regular blood tests to insure that the virus does not progress.

Now I was watching a video the other day and I noticed that there were a lot of the current batch of models in it and they all preformed bare back.Here are the names of a just few models who have preformed bare back in the last few years. Some of them might be a shock to you but they did it for smaller companies and they have since moved on to mainstream work.Leo M pictured on the left just recently made it public that he tested positive. He worked for Eurocreme and Blake Mason. Blake Mason is a strong advocate of the use of condoms. Many of the companies are now starting to film models bareback and it is the models choice to do so. Some companies are adamant about not going there because they have seen first hand what can happen. Chi Chi Larue is one of the ones who has said she would abandon porn if it came to that.

We all know of Brent Corriganand Aaron Phelps, they were under contract with Cobra Video. But did you know that Josh Vaughn did a bareback video, how aboutZack Randall, Brent Everettor ToryMason.

Yes they have all gone on to bigger and better things but they all preformed in bareback porn. There are many others who have gone the same route. I have no bad feelings towards any of them because it. It is their life and the choice is theirs to make but was it an informed choice? If they were faced with the same choice would they do bareback porn again? I for one would not if the opportunity were presented to me. As far as I know they are all still HIV negative and I truly hope they all stay that way.

From what I know now there is no way in hell that I would do it. I spoke to Harlow and Joeabout the bareback porn they filmed and I told them that I had my concerns and they told me about what they did to insure that they’re models were safe. That is all fine and good but you can not insure that a model always practices safe sex. So how are we to insure the health of the models that perform in these videos? The fact of the matter is that we can not. No amount of testing and can insure you that someone is not carrying the virus. This was just proven in the case in England. The models were all tested before the shoot but one had not converted yet and the virus did not show up in the standard antibody test. He in turn infected 3 other models. Now this model was responsible enough to inform the producers about this and the other models were tested.

But this is not always the case and there have been incidences were some models don’t care and will infect as many people as they can. There is one known model that has done just that. My question is who should be held responsible for the testing and the health of the models? The producers, the models or should we just let things go the way they are and not care.

Eastern Europe is starting to show signs of a outbreak of new HIV infections and that is becoming quite alarming since most of the market saturation of Bareback porn is coming from there.

Bareback porn is up to a 30% share of the market and it is rising fast, especially in the twink market. Most of these boys are far to young to have a real grip on what it means to be positive. And they are doing bareback porn because they are told that it is safe and that the models are tested and they will be paid more for it. Consider this you are eighteen and you need money and you have a gun with one bullet and some one who tells you it is safe. Do you spin the chamber and hope the one bullet is not there? That is what it is like to perform in bareback porn. I just want to say this: Consider your options and if you don’t feel safe doing it then don’t do it.Dominik TrojanPictured on the left has made at least 20 Bareback videos and he seems to want to move on as far as I know he is still negative. I have seen what AID’s has done to the gay community FIRST HAND and I for one do not want to see us go through it again.

I have seen allot of porn and I can tell you from my own personal experience that whether they use condoms or not does not make it hot. Some of the worst porn I have seen did not use condoms and some of the best did. Is bareback porn hot? It can be but I have seen porn where they use condoms and it is hotter than most of the bareback porn that I have seen. Porn is just what it is, some is good and some of it really sucks the big one. It really is all about chemistry. If the models have chemistry than it is hot if they don’t then it is just going through the motions. Most of the European videos that don’t use condoms are not worth the time it takes to watch them. I could make a list but that would be another post.

A friend directed me to this thread and there are so many things to say I do not know where to start. The first time I went to a funeral for an AIDS victim was in 1982 in SF. The casket was closed as at that time funeral directors would not touch the bodies because they did not know yet what the cause was. That was 25 years ago. Since then I can count the people I have lost. There were good friends, Paul Rappoport a founder of the Gay Men's Health Crisis in NYC. GMHC was founded by a group of men who lived in the fear of dying and sadly most of them did. Anthony Holland a marvelous character actor who used to joke about how he did "The Tempest" directed by John Cassevetes in Greece then went right into "The Lonely Lady" with Pia Zadora. If you go to his IMDB listing you see a life that ends in 1989. His last appearance was at the 1989 Academy Awards in the memorial section. I could list dozens but the point is so many wonderful lives were cut short.My world and my community was decimated beyond anything anyone could bear. When I started in porn in 1995 part of the reason was to help in HIV education. My first video "Pleasure Principle" was about someone trying to fuck someone else without condoms.Back then medicine was getting better at treating the opportunistic diseases but people were still dying. I remember seeing director Bill Hunter at the French Market in WEHO wasted away with IV connection in his arms eating and he was dead a few weeks later. Again I could go on and on but the point is coming from that reality there was no way I would ever consider shooting bareback. When I retired it was in no small part because barebacking was taking over the market. I saw HIV enter my company to the point that I had to protect my models from one of my models it was insane. In fairness there were always slimebags in porn. Mow we had a new breed led by Bryan Kocis of Cobra. He took and abused these young men simply so he could make money without regard for their health. He helped set the stage for the current reality where if you talk to a 18 yo they will tell you that unsafe sex is the norm in their life and they don;t get tested sometimes they ask the status of their partners and take their partners word for it when they do ask. It's not like people don't still die. True not in the numbers they once did but less then a year ago I lost my friend Brandy Dalton of Drance who did the music for most of my video's. He fought valiantly for 15 years before dying. I was talking to my friend Mickey Skee about this and he said it was like I woke up one day and the world regarding AIDS had changed. It was ok to be as extreme as you could. Who cares who gets HIV. I see twink porn flooding the market from eastern Europe and some of it by slimebags like Dan Komar who could care less about the health of the boys. He like others here in the US are more concerned in being with the boys rather then the boys themselves. One this is sure this madness will cost lives. Young men will die. Lives will be cut short. Who cares though, some people will make money isn't that all that matters? We have allowed a new generation of gay men to think that bareback is where it is at... We all should be ashamed of ourselves, but we should all be angry, we dam well better get angry because this time we are doing this to ourselves. It is shameful, and despicable, but more than that it is the personification of evil itself. For our pleasure we sacrifice a new generation of gay men. We can thank Bryan Kocis among others for this wonderful legacy of death and debasement. We can proise people like Chi-Chi and John Rutherford and Steven Scarborough who are trying to hold the line, but in the final analysis this is a battle we have lost because we were not diligent and did not care enough about ourselves to stop this madness. As long as there are people like Bryan Kocis who are more concerned with fucking their models then protecting them this will go on. The bad guys are winning and the boys will be dying how anyone thinks that is hot is beyond me. I would give anything to have Anthony Holland back but now all I can do is wait more more to go like him. MADNESS