Sorry for my silence the last day or so. The lows are finally starting to hit and I’ve had a rough day. Some of my meds can make you have to go while others make it harder to go to the restroom. They try to manage with laxatives but it is a balancing act.

This morning the I was finally able to go but not without a lot of pain (I apologize for the TMI but there’s no better way to explain what’s going on) losing all the fluid has messed with my body. They have been giving me fluids all day long to try and get my blood pressure back up but I can’t really stand more than a minute without feeling faint.

So today begins some of the downward trend of good days as my body gets hit by the chemo. I’ve basically been resting in bed all day. It took a while but I was finally able to eat a little toast and Jam and feel more comfortable in bed. The only way to describe it is 100% pure exhaustion. I can barely keep my eyes open even while typing this.

Please bare with me as I navigate these more difficult days. They say that this next week will be one of the harder ones as my counts continue to drop.

Well that’s all for now as typing isn’t the easiest when you keep falling asleep. It’s even hard to stay awake for Kevin Bacon in footloose! One of the greatest movies ever.

You would think that when someone gets a diagnosis as scary and daunting as cancer that there would be nothing but positive energy and love coming from all sides. We have felt all of this but I have also noticed some really negative Nancy’s coming out of the woodwork (due to all the media attention) that have irked me and I honestly just need to vent.

The last few days since being in here I’ve been working hard to try and keep my weight up. Overall I can’t complain about the hospital food because honestly any time I don’t have to cook for myself is a treat.

Today has been odd. I woke up feeling pretty good aside from being a bit dehydrated. No headache, no pain, just a bit tired. Breakfast was quite yummy and afterwards I did some walking in the hall for about a km.