I've struggled the last few years, and I can't help but wonder what sage advice you might have given me that might have changed my perspective. I miss you all the time. I still see your face in my dreams, and I hear your voice when I question myself and I need a kick in the pants. I'm sorry I missed your birthday, but I tend to do better when I pretend that it's a day that I can forget. But I'll never really forget.

Hi, Penny. Beautiful, funny, reliable Aunt Penny. I never thought your passing would play such a huge part in my life. I thought I would be prepared for it, and therefore hopefully equipped to help others deal with your absence. As it turns out, I wasn't ready to say goodbye to you. Two years later I still dream about you all the time. I dream about your children as toddlers, when everything they said or did reminded me of you. Sometimes I dream about your laughter, or the smell of the houses you lived in, or your no-nonsense reaction to something I said or did that you didn't approve of. I will always be thankful of the time, understanding and attention you gave me, and I can only hope that in some way you knew how much I really loved and appreciated you. Because I did. I really, really did.

I know that you would never judge me because I'm not one to dwell on superstitions, but when I see your face in my dreams, I don't question the meaning. I'm simply thankful for the time I am able to spend with your memory. You will always be with me in my humor and my appreciation of the simple things that make life worth pursuing. I always loved you so much more than I ever allowed myself to express. Sometimes I cry for that, but I think if you were here you would understand. Today my heart aches for you like I've never known, but every time time I laugh I hear your voice as if it's a part of me, and I'm so proud that that's mine.

I am thinking of you even more today than usual. I was sad at first because you won't physically be with us but then I remembered that you will get to spend your first birthday with Joshua. That makes me smile.

Well, your birthday is coming up. Happy early birthday!! I meant to send you a card after the may trip, telling you how much I loved you and that I didn't want to let you go... I guess I never got around to it cause it meant that it was really close to a good bye.. I do have to say I am excited to see Andy in a couple weeks!! The next month or so I think will be the worst yet..

I have been thinking about you a lot lately, trying to prepare myself for the holidays. It is going to be an emotional holiday for everyone. I know one day we will meet again in the kingdom of heaven but it doesn't make it any easier to be left here with out you. Watch out for everyone traveling to grandmas house. Love you

Well, as expected, the weekend was bittersweet. We had the best weather we have ever had, and I have a sneaky suspicion you had a hand in that. You were (and will always be) deeply missed. Prosit to you!

It's been a rough few days for me, as I'm sure it will be for the Lemon Sisters. It's funny how I can go a period of time and be in a happy place about your passing. Then, all of the sudden I start thinking about you a lot and I get really upset. Like maybe if I try really hard I can pretend it didn't happen. Josh and I were talking about it and he says it gets easier. I hope so.

It has taken me awhile to post anything because I wasn't sure what to say. All I know is there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you and Grandma McCoy. I am happy you two are together now, you were always her favorite! :) As sad as we all are to have had to say goodbye, we are honored to have you watching over all of the family!! I love you Aunt Penny!!

Pop totaled a car and escaped with a scratch. He was told he must have had an angel on his shoulder. Its just like you to start working overtime already...you will be happy to hear he turned in his plates like you wanted him to. i love you and miss you so much.

Penny was a lovely, wonderful person so full of life, fun, smiles & sweetness. Now she is an angel in heaven watching over us. All who knew her will always have her memory in their hearts. No words can express the sadness we all feel. love & hugs to all...

I am soo greatful that the Lord has taken you home. I prayed for him to do so. I have no words for the loss I am feeling, except that I will miss you everyday. I still have so much to tell you.
You would have loved your funeral. It was beautiful! Andy and the boys did such a great job.

This is from Marie Groll my grandmother. Thinking of you at this time of sorrow. She touched a lot of people's lives. And you know she'll touch a lot of souls. I pray for you and the family. To Penny: We are happy where you are that is where you belong. And we love you and have you in our hearts. Grandma Marie.