22 August, 2013

Iris

I lay crying for a long time. A long, long time. For the first time in years, I felt like a failure. His shirt was drenched through and yet my tears didn’t cease.

And he spoke not a word.

Amidst my gut-wrenching sobs, I wished he wouldn’t give me any space now, I wished he would do something to cheer me up, to say that I am wrong to think such things, that I ain’t no failure.

But he spoke not a word.

His comforting presence and the aroma of his woody soap reminded me of all that I had, all that I am. I finally found solace in the fact that even if I had nothing else, I had him. I might be a failure but for now I had him.

And that made up for a lot of things.

He still spoke not a word.

My sniffles died down and I cracked a reluctant smile... I’d always been this mercurial in my moods swings. One good cry and I could always put it behind and try to get back on the figurative horse. The darkness ebbed as I found courage in the flimsiness of the proof that showed I was a failure.

He finally pulled my face to his and forced me to look at him.

Fresh tears threatened to brim out at the weight of his unrelenting, almost harsh, gaze when he firmly said…

“That is enough. You’re perfect. And you’re mine.”

The problems weren’t solved, the darkness still remained, I was still afraid of the ghosts that haunted me but I knew I was not alone. That someone had faith in me.

“When everything is made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am”

Lucky are those who have someone that has such unshakeable faith in you, especially in those moments when you doubt yourself.

P.S: Fiction after a long, long time. Not perfect, not even close. But I’m glad I tried.

So I was thinking of stalking you until I find out what makes you right such nice stuff :) :).. Is it the food you eat ? the friends ? your house ? chocolates ? its the chocolates, is it the chocolates ? it must be something chocolaty :), is it ?Nice post :) :)

Oh God bless my husband. Its enough that he has to put up with me, and then he's so supportive that I thank God everyday for giving me the perfect soulmate. I'm glad He made up for all the 25 years of crap I put up with by giving me Cal :)

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Lucky are those who have someone that has such unshakeable faith in you, especially in those moments when you doubt yourself.

i hate to spoil the flow of it, especially after you have put it across so so well, but one could always be their own someone no? and no i am not talking about love. i am just talking about the someone who bears the unshakeable faith.

Anyway, I was just saying that while we could be strong enough to withstand a lot of things in life, I think it is important to have someone who will sometimes reiterate that faith that you have in your own strength. Because, at the end of the day, we are social beings and we can't really live in complete self-sufficiency, can we?

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