Secrets, Lies & Love

Sutton is a normal girl...When her parents die, she goes to her only family she has, her uncle. I know what you're thinking her uncle. Can't be bad...It's Simon Cowell. I know, well she begs him for a party, and well, she gets it. His clients One Direction show up,. and one starts to fall for her. But when Mr.Cowell comes in the way they keep their love hidden, and secrets form, but as new lies and secrets form, something starts to break...

57. Feel

Sutton's P.O.V

"Need anything?" Sara asked me, getting ready to go out with Josh. I was laying on the couch. I was heartbroken and torn up. I couldn't stop crying, seeing Zayn tore me apart. I couldn't stop thinking of him. I was cuddled on the couch with my blanket.

*KnockKnock* There was Josh.

"It's open!" Sara called to the door, still getting ready.

I heard the door creep open, and Josh walked in. "I'll be down there in a sec babe!" Sara called to him, he chuckled and walked to the living room.

"Boo you whore!" Josh walked in and said. I didn't even budge. "Hey girlie!" He said as if I didn't hear him. I didn't move...

I felt him sit on the edge of the couch. He grabbed my feet and tugged at them slowly pulling me down and my feet were laying on his legs. "Hey!" He said loudly. I ignored him. "Ok, this is how you're going to be?" He said, then started to tickle my feet. I was laughing and giggling.

"Sorry there were no places to park!" A familiar Irish accent said out of breath. "Niall?" I popped up and felt relief go through my whole body. "Why's he here?" I asked Josh. "He knows the people at the club, so like I invited him." He shrugged. "Yeah, that's why...we aren't friends. Thanks." Niall giggled. Josh still held my feet captive. "Niall help me!" I begged him. "Oh my gosh!" He said, "Josh has my feet." I said in a sweet little voice. "Niall to the rescue!" He said walking over. He picked my feet up, so my legs were in the air and my top half was on the couch. "Niall!" I shouted, I was only covered by a big shirt that was Zayn's....I kept from a long time ago and my panties. I had a bra on!

"Whoops!" He said placing my feet down. I covered myself back up with the blanket. "Did you see?" I asked feeling embarrassed. "Um..I-you have cute pink undies." He laughed. My face went red. "I missed my twin!" I laughed hard.

"Ready!" Sara walked downstairs. I looked at Josh and Niall who were leaving.."Sure you don't want me to stay home? We can watch love movies all night!" She asked feeling bad for me. "No, go I'll be ok." I said feeling bad again. "I'll stay." Niall said. "No Niall. Go!" I insisted. "No! I will stay here, with you. I haven't seen my twin in so long." He winked at me. I laughed.

"You sure?" I asked him. He nodded and I sighed. "Bye guys!" I said waving to Josh and Sara.

Niall sat on the couch by me. "So what do you wanna do?" He asked me. "I don't care." I said twirling my hair. His blue eyes were staring at me. They were so hard to read. "So..." He said breaking the silence. "Wanna watch some telly?" He asked. "Telly." I chimed in. "What?" He aksed "Your accent is adorable!" I giggled like a school girl. "I am glad I am adorable!" He rolled his eyes. "Fine, your sooooo adorable!" I laughed. "Are you on meds?" He asked teasing. "Let me check!" I laughed.

He picked a football game. I was so bored with this. "I want to watch something interresting!" I shouted. "Pick!" He shouted back. "Hold on!" I said.

I got up and ran to the bedroom, trying to cover up.

I grabbed Sara's guitar and raced back to the living room.

"Twinny?" I whispered. He tuned and chuckled. "So you want me to play the guitar!" He asked more so stating it.

"I want you to teach me. I mean I can play the piano and some others, but I never really learned the guitar!" I said walking towards him...

He sat up and looked at me, I was criss-cross on the floor, holding the guitar. "Lefty?" He asked, I shook m head and he turned the guitar the 'right' way. "Why'd you turn it? You've held it like this before." I said to him. "I'm a lefty, your not!" He teased. "It's because your Irish isn't it?" I joked.

He taught me some notes and I wasn't getting it. "Come here." He said pulling me up inbetween his legs on the couch. A smile grew on my face. He wrapped his arms around me and played the note. "Oh." I played it. I knew how to play the guitar, I learned so long ago, I wanted to spend time with him...

"See." He played more. His head next to mine, I twisted my head so we were looking in each other's eyes. His body was close to mine, we couldn't get any closer...I felt his heart beat. I looked at his lips, them smiled. I leaned in, and he pulled back. I fell forward.

"What the fuck Niall?" I asked him. I set the guitar over and out of the way. I sat on the floor grumpy at him. "I can't. Zayn really loves you. I could never do it to him.." He said looking at me. "I don't care. I am not with him." I protested. "You liked Zayn, and Harry. You pushed Harry off for Zayn, you broke Harry's heart. You broke Zayn's. We are good friends Sutton, but I could never to that to you or him. I don't want to get hurt." He said harshly. The memories fled back to my memory. I did hurt both of them. I tore Harry apart, and killed Zayn. I looked the floor and my hair swept over my face. I felt myself get weak.

"Sutton?" Niall asked me. I didn't move. "You're right. I can't keep anyone! Might as well be forever alone!" I shouted to him. "I didn't mean that." He said to me, I felt him sit next to me. "Don't touch me." I barked. "Sutton, look." Niall tilted my head. I looked up and at the wall where he pointed. "What do you see?" He asked me. "The wall." I said sassy.

"Close your eyes now tell me."

I closed my eyes, and I saw Zayn and I kiss on New Years. I saw the night I met him and we were shit-faced. I giggled. "What do you see?" He asked me. "Zayn is eating pancakes. We are on tour, and Louis is being ridiculous. Zayn's holding me. We are all having an amazing time. I see, Zayn and I on my birthday. I see Liam and I joking. Eleanor...she's smiling.." I said. It hit me..

"Oh my gosh."

"See Sutton, that's what your life needs. If you can feel it and see it when your eyes close, you need those people. You need us. We need you. Please, come see everyone? Tonight?" He asked so filled with sorrow.

I closed my eyes..I began crying...the hurt and pain. "It didn't work." I said again. "You were trying. You can't try. Feel.."