Eight Years Ago Today, we said goodbye.

I hope no-one minds, I wanted to post a message to our triplet boys, just to let it out somewhere, I'm finding this year harder than any other so far for some reason....

Darling Boys,

I just wanted to let you know that Mummy and Daddy are thinking of you more than ever today, and wondering what you'd be doing now, getting upto, all sorts no doubt!

If you're anything like Daddy, it would have been some sort of Saturday morning sports club no doubt, Daddy being the taxi driver whilst I tried to tidy up! If you're like me, then you'd be doing your homework, drawing or reading, playing and making sure your bedrooms were tidy!

Your little brother is going to Mainstream primary school now, he started in September with a lady who helps him every day and is doing so well, all things considered.

Your big sister is as gorgeous as ever and is working hard at school, she has some lovely friends and a nice BF too, who treats her with respect and kindness. She's very happy and thinking of you today too.

Daddy is busy with work but never too busy to think of you, and nor am I, today is hard my darlings because you're not here and you should be, you really should be.

We miss who we think you'd have become, but you'll always be our gorgeous boys - Harry, George and Charlie.

mouse I know you're feeling sad today, and fwiw I think that writing your lovely letter to Harry and George and Charlie, is just the best thing. It's so important for you, and for dd and dh (and your lovely boy) that they are remembered. It is so hard to think about the lives they would have been living, and to long for them. So be gentle with your self and your heart today. Take care my lovely x

Thank you all for your lovely posts and replies to my letter to the Boys.... I've tied ribbons onto their tree and had their candle lit for the day, I buy them a new one each year.

cathpip - How could I tell you that it was today? You've enough going on with your own gorgeous family sweetheart.

You were the only person who sent us a card when it happened, did you know that? And we'd only just met too! But look at us, still going strong. See you in a few weeks lovely. REST! xxx

Bucharest - HELLO! You know where you can find me, and you know that you can PM me anytime lovely. Thank you for your very kind words xxx

venus, Paw, Pistey - and all of you who have taken time out of your day to post to me, I just wanted to say a huge thank you, it means the world to know you're not alone in these circumstances, to know that what you face is a shared pain almost, of whatever magnitude, it can be shared and sometimes it can be eased.

Goodnight to you all, bed is calling me now, I'm so very tired and drained too. A huge thank you once again for these words I can read, tonight, tomorrow and whenever I need to.