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I Hate Myself Sometimes.

Posted 7th July 2011 22

I’m a teenage girl and I’m so damn lazy. I don’t know why. I never get anything accomplished either. I love rock music so much, and I dream about becoming a rock star and being famous, but I’m too lazy to pick up a guitar. I have one and I do a few scales and then stop, because I get lazy and bored. I’m too lazy to even listen to music sometimes too. My friends will tell me a band to listen to, but I’m too lazy to even go to youtube and watch one of their music videos. All I ever want to do is sleep. Everyone annoys me. All I want is to be alone 24/7 which doesn’t make sense. I’m not depressed or suicidal or any of that. I never do my homework. I love to draw and tell myself to draw something cool, but I get lazy and drop my pencil. I also told myself this summer I would drop 30 pounds. Did that happen? No, I’ve only lost 10 pounds and that was only cause I was sick for a week and couldn’t eat anything. Sometimes I’m so lazy I don’t even brush my teeth, but I started forcing myself to. I’ve also gotten angrier more lately. The smallest things throw me into a rampage. I can’t stand myself. -_-

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Sounds like a lack of self esteem mixed in with depression. Sometimes you can be depressed and never realize it because you associate it with the more extreme symptoms that are out there.

Please, please, please talk to someone. Even if it’s just the school counselor or your local priest, talk to someone. The more you ignore this or try to pretend that it doesn’t exist, the worse it will get because deep down you’ll know that something is wrong in your life.

Sometimes all you need is to talk to someone who isn’t in the thick of it all, someone who can be non-partial and won’t immediately tell you “cheer up” or “get over it”. That’s why it’s so important to talk to someone like the counselor or a preacher because they aren’t as involved as a friend or a parent is, although I also recommend that you talk to them as well. If you don’t tell them then how can they know that they have to help you?

Posted by Anonymous 10th August 2011

You sound like an ex-friend of mine. There’s a reason why she’s an ex-friend, and that’s because people like you are annoying. You need to take this situation into your own hands. Try to get enough sleep to actually have some energy to do things. You’re probably depressed on some level or another. In which case: get help. Seriously, all you’re going to accomplish in this state of mind is chasing everyone you care about away. Like I said, I know because an ex-friend of mine has the same thing going on, and she chased all her friends away. It’s no fun to be around someone with low self-esteem and no motivation to do anything.