THE mum of Reeva Steenkamp has told how she has been unable to take her eyes off Oscar Pistorius as the champion athlete has stood trial for murdering her daughter.

GRIEVING June Steenkamp can’t take her eyes off Oscar Pistorius – even though she goes through hell every time she watches one of his dramatic courtroom displays.

The heartbroken mother has sat in dignified silence for weeks while the “Blade Runner” athlete accused of murdering her daughter Reeva collapses in hysterics, vomits, retches and puts his fingers in his ears.

She has endured endless bloody pictures of the crime scene, the weapon and, horrifyingly, Reeva’s catastrophic head wound.

But it has left her haunted by one burning question – is he acting?

June has exclusively revealed to the Mirror how she studies Pistorius's every move in a bid to find the truth.

She admitted: “It was a big thing for me to go to the trial in the first place and face up to what is going on.

“It’s very traumatic when certain things come up. This is my child – and I must listen to the graphic detail.

“I look at Oscar the whole time, to see how he is coping, how he is behaving. I’m obsessed with looking at him, it’s just instinctive, I can’t explain it.

“I keep thinking, ‘let me see how he’s taking this’. He has been very dramatic, the vomiting and crying.”

She added: “I think he’s just about keeping himself together. I don’t know whether he’s acting.

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"Most of the time he’s on his cell phone or looking down at papers or writing notes.”

Talking about that very public apology from the Paralympics champion, June said: “It left me unmoved. I knew it was coming.

"My lawyers had prepared me for it.

“I cried for the first time, ‘Yes’, but not because he apologised, because of the suffering and agony that my darling daughter went through and because I will never have her again.”

She admitted it has been an ordeal hearing the gruesome details of Reeva’s death, as expert after expert discusses blood spatter, flesh-tearing bullets and whether or not she was capable of screaming before she died.

As the trial has gone on, she said, Pistorius’s family have slowly started to make overtures to her.

His sister Aimee handed her a note to say how “sorry” the family is for her loss and inviting her to “reach out” to them for support.

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