Tuesday, August 24, 2010

i am feeling twitchy this morning. actually, i've been feeling twitchy this past month.
i dove right in to working long hours and weekends... at my regular job. i'm finding that i am starting to like it. after 18 months. this is all good, except for the extra long hours.

the not so good? i am a strong, confident woman. i know what i want out of life. but i chicken out. i am afraid to ask for what i want, for fear of being told "no." and that is a word that i don't hear very often. (perhaps because i don't do a lot of asking.) -so, what's the question? maybe it's asking for a raise. or time off because of all the extra time i have been putting in. asking for a date. maybe it's that i don't want to let people down. maybe it's because i have lived a relatively charmed existence. not that i haven't had struggles, because there have been plenty.

i'm sure i am not alone in these feelings. but how does one move forward? how does one muster up the courage to go after what they want, and not be afraid of rejection?

About Me

i have a lot to say. i have been blogging since 2002 when i used it as more of an online journal (a la doogie howser)than anything else. in the last few years it has changed from complaint forum to a place to share my photos to it's current state. i am documenting my life and how i am learning and growing as a person, as a photographer, as a friend. thanks for coming along.