~
Just once I want someone to look at me right away and think I was
beautiful.
Not after they get to know me, or
after they see inside my soul, just me. I want to walk in a room and
light up, not
blend.

~ I know God wouldn't give me anything I can't handle, I just wish he didn't trust
me so much.

~ A golden heart stopped beating, working hands went to rest. He broke many
hearts to prove to us, he only takes the best.

~ When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something
wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.

~There is only one rain cloud in the sky...and it's raining on me. Somehow I'm
not surprised.

-Eeyore-

~ I wake up and think dreams are real. I sleep so I don't have to feel.

~ It's not that I wanna have it, it's just that I wanna deserve it.

~
I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep
for a
thousand years, or just not exist,
or just not be aware that you do exist, or something like that. I think
wanting that
is very morbid, but I want it when I
get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all
to
stop spinning.

-The Perks of Being A Wildflower-

~
Walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair is in its
place, sees
a friend and she waves hi, wearing a
smile on her perfect face. Friendly, smart, and beautiful, everyone
adores this
girl. Seemingly content, her head's
in a whirl. Inside she's unhappy, and doesn't know why. She lays in
her bed at night and cries. She
doesn't know what causes the tears; how could this princess have
insecurities or fears?
She has it all. A pretty smile,
many friends, a great guy, the newest trends, her family has money, she
gets good grades,
has her own car, and her makeup
never fades. Always looking happy, every single day, but inside she's
feeling a different
way. This is wonder girl, she's
everyone's dream, but things aren't always what they seem.

~ I don't deserve you...I never did.

~ Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.

~ No matter what, no matter who, no matter what I do, somebody hates me.

-Reel Big
Fish-

~ Cause fucking up takes practice, and I feel I'm well rehearsed.

~ I didn't want to admit it. It was easier to lie. Hide the hurt and emptiness
to smile instead of cry.

~ I've learned it takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it.

~ Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed, who you've
lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.

~ Why can't you just love me for who I am?

~
Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense? Well that's how I
feel
right now...I feel like I'm facing
everything myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile...

~ I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain.

~ Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again. So when life gets tough
you can just play pretend. I wanna go back to when Santa did exist. When your daddy was the only boy
you ever kissed. When Disney World was the best place to be. When the only movies
you could see
were rated G. When your biggest
problem was learning to write your name and people didn't change...and
your friends
were the same. And every time you were sad or you had a bad day. You could just run to mommy and
it would all be okay. I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter. When everyone always
lives happily ever after.

~ When I cry at night, the only thing I can think to myself is...how can I seem so---perfectly
fine in the morning. Why do I smile like nothing is wrong? And how does not one single person notice that
I'm not okay?

~ I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now.
All I know is that I'm hurting so much
inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any more of me
left.
Everything that ever cause a tear to
trickle down my cheeks, I run away and hide from it. But now, everything
is unwinding and finding its way
back towards me. And I don't know what to do. I just know that the
pain I felt
so long ago, it's hurting ten times
more.

~
Teardrops slowly fall from my eyes as I look to the sky, and I question
how come
life keeps passing me right on by. I
just wonder why I can't escape, is this my fate? To always be unhappy
and
how much longer must I wait...

~ Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever.

~ It sucks to be alone, even when there are people all around you. -Scrubs-

~ I wanna get lost from my life sometimes, sit on the side and watch the world go
by, I wanna get lost and I don't know why. -Everclear-

~ Have you ever lived my life, have you ever spent one minute in my shoes? If
you haven't, then tell me why you judge me like you do.

~ Every morning you get up and put on a fake smile...but what if one morning you didn't?
Would anyone notice?

~
I'm not saying I have nothing. I'm not saying I'm gone completely.
It's
just sometimes it's all a bit too
much to handle. Sometimes I feel like it's too much. I'm not going to
do anything
stupid because I know it will get
better, it has to right? Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would
live past their
teenage years. But for now, just
for now, it hurts.

~
You know sometimes, like when someone dies, and you're sad, and it's ok
to be sad?
But then there are times when you're
supposed to be happy but you're sad anyway...and those times are even
worse than the
times when you're supposed to be
sad.

~
I just don't feel like I know myself very well right now, so how can I
be sure about
anything? Most of the time I feel
so awkward, you know, like I don't belong in my own skin, I get
frustrated at everything,
I could just scream and there's no
reason for it, I just hate myself.