My faith and my personal struggle.

From starting my day with watching miracles from heaven to ending it with linsanity, I now know I need completely faith and submission to the lord.
I have been struggling the past month with what God wants me to do. I prayed for an opportunity and I received it. Now the opportunity just feels more like a burden than a blessing. At times, I ask “why would the lord bless me with something like this?” Or “this can’t be that bad because it’s from God.” I was down and though it’s hard for me to admit, I was resentful. Faith in good times and faith in bad times…that’s what I am telling myself to get me thru this.
Prayers would be appreciated.