Thursday, January 7, 2010

I have started reading a little of the neurology text and looking at the latest editions of the NEJM. I'm so happy to be starting the year on medicine. It was my favourite rotation last year. I enjoyed psych, obviously, but my favourite rotation as a student was medicine.

I really like thinking about things, working a diagnosis out in my mind and seeing a patient through their treatment. These are things that both psych and medicine have in common, and it is why I like them both.

I did my last medical rotation at a small hospital, where we got to be part of the team and felt like we belonged and knew everybody. My next medicine rotation is at a huge hospital and I am quite nervous. I think I have built this place up in my mind and so am feeling subconsciously intimidated.

I really need to get rid of this feeling of inferiority. I got through all of third year without needing any re-sits, I have performed consistently throughout my whole course in spite of going through some extremely difficult times, and I am a consistent worker.

I may not be a brilliant uber-genius, but I like to think that I am a solid worker.

Anyway, I am really looking forward to neurology. I just need to stop being nervous about where I'm doing it.