WOW 10 years

Wednesday, September 27, 2017

10 years ago I saw on television someone talking about SparkPeople. When I saw it was FREE I ran right to the computer and joined. I spent the rest of the day playing around on here reading articles and looking at recipes. I got to the exercises and looked them over before writing up a plan. The next day I started to exercise. This went on for over a month and then I got a cold. I felt like poo for 2 weeks. I had no energy and I just wanted to stay in bed, or on the couch watching horror movies. It was hard for me to find that drive to get back to exercising.

Over these years I have no idea how many times I have started over or how many different plans I have written up. A couple years back I got down to 204 from 227. I have no idea how because I wasnt exercising or eating healthy. Im thinking it had something to do with my PCOS. When I saw that I was at 204 I did start to watch what I was eating and started to exercise some. Some how I gained the weight back. Right back to 227. It wasnt the scale because I always checked it with an 8 lb weight.

Since then I have joined a gym. In the beginning I was going at least twice a week and now I hardly ever go. Its hard to find the time because I babysit and I take care of my grandma who has dementia. Last year was when I hardly started to go because my grandma would be up all night and I hardly got any sleep. Its different now. Now shes either in bed or her wheelchair. The dementia has affected her walking. She needs help getting up but can walk with help from someone and a walker. Now that has changed in just a month. She had a seizure and hit her head pretty good. She was in the hospital for a week. During that week they saw her oxygen would sometimes go down to the 70s at night while shes sleeping. We know she has a oxygen issue but at the time her insurance company were A-holes. That was a horrible night. We got her on the toilet late and she was tired. We always try to keep her on there for at least 30 mins in case she has to go number 2. She kept falling asleep and we would wake her. Then it got to the point to where she wouldnt come to. It was around midnight so we just thought she was super sleepy. Then we saw that she was turning grey. We freaked out. At the hospital they did a sleep study but her oxygen was fine so we couldnt have oxygen at home. 2 years later we finally have it. She is also now on seizure meds. She sleeps a lot better but the seizure meds are making her sleep ALL DAY

I told you all about my grandmas health because she is the reason why I need to get healthy. Shes around 160 lbs and I need to be able to hold her up while shes getting cleaned or while we are moving her to the bed. Over these 2 weeks we have noticed that she wont really use her left leg. Its hard to help her walk because shes 5'3" (but she doesnt stand up straight so its more like over 4ft), my aunt is 5'4" and Im 5'7.5". She also leans more on my aunt so its really hard for me to try to keep her up. I hold up her right side and the other day I did her left side and we found it to be a lot easier on all of us. Now I do her right side because my left arm has nerve damage in the mid forearm area. If I hold my arm a certain why then it doesnt hurt but its hard to remember that when you have to act fast so you dont drop someone.

ANYWAYS....

With all of this said I need to really focus on getting healthy. My aunt is having some kinda operation on her knee in a few weeks and I think that was the kick she needed to realize she too needs to get healthy. We have a lot of bad habits to destroy. Too many to list (this is already getting long lol). But Im glad I found this site because it helped me to never forget why I am doing this. Seeing other people struggling like me and seeing people reach their goals.

My goal is to be at or very close to my goal weight at this time next year. Now my goal weight isnt an exact number because I have seen girls my height looking great at 180. All that muscle tone. I dont want to be a stick and I dont want to be all muscle. I want to be firm, strong, and happy.