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Monday, 15 February 2016

He felt something with her. Something he couldn't understand. Something he wanted to tell her but couldn't. He dialed her number and waited with baited breath and wondered if she too was feeling as nervous as him.

The all too cliché 'tring tring' stopped and a sweet voice answered from the other side of the phone. His heart skipped a beat as she said "Hi".

He was skeptical. Never before has he ever talked to a stranger before without any purpose. Sure he has talked to random people now and then but that was only in relation to work. This was different. She was different.

The conversation went on. The clock swept its hands swiftly. Time became extinct and thus started one of the most beautiful journeys of his life. He didn't know what it was. He didn't want to know what it was. What he wanted was to merge in that moment. The journey started and engulfed him so deep that something inside him twitched. Something dark. A fear. Fear of losing someone special. But then, she was with him. He felt invincible with her; as if she was the light that drove away the darkness in him.

Somehow they completed each other. Like pieces of a puzzle. They discussed their life, their past, their present and future. Conversations lit up like fireworks. Conversations regarding ambitions, passions, love and what not.

Then came the personal stuff. His mind told him to be cautious.

"Do not take a dive so deep." His mind warned him.

"Do not worry. Take a leap of faith my friend and you shall be rewarded." His heart convinced him.

He listened to his heart and that was one of the best decisions of his life he has ever made.

They went up and down in the roller coaster of emotions. Light and Darkness; Sorrow and Joy: All the facets existed together and what he experienced was something beyond explanation. Something pure. Something divine.

Time galloped like a mad horse and minutes turned to hours. He was talking to her effortlessly. The conversation went on like magic. May be she was it. She was Magic.

He didn't know what she was. He didn't know what was going on. But he never wanted to know. What he wanted was to merge in that beautiful moment which made his heart lit up like a Christmas Tree. What he wanted was the time to stop still. What he wanted was to be with her in that magical realm forever and ever and ever.

At last it was time. The conversation ended. She told him she felt a connection between them.

"I have never felt this way before. You are someone special." she said.

He gave her an awkward chuckle.

"What? Say something. How do you feel. About this conversation. About me. About us. Tell me."

With a smile on his lips, all he could manage to say was:

"Somethings are better left unsaid."

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From the first time their conversation started, he wanted her. He wanted someone who never belonged to him. He wanted someone who cannot be his, ever. As time went on, he fell in love with her. Truly, madly, deeply. He knew she could never be his. He knew he could never have her the way he wanted. Somewhere deep in his heart he knew he is going to get hurt. But he didn’t care. He always used to say : "Love knows no logic."

He woke up from the sound of a short beep.

“Feeling sad. Wanna meet?” she texted him one morning.

“Sure.” He replied.

At 11 AM they met in a café. She looked miserable. Her eyes confessed of a tearful night she had last night. He knew what the matter was. He knew he was seeing her one last time. She cried. Complained. Whined. She didn’t want to leave. But she has to. He didn’t say a word. He was listening to the melody of her voice for the last time. He didn’t blink. He was drinking in her beauty through his eyes for the last time. Somewhere, his mind tried to compel him to speak out whatever he felt for her.

“She is leaving you and this place forever. Tell her that you love her. What worse can come out of it. She will reject you. That’s it. You have been there with her for years. Helped her with her problems and corrected her mistakes. You made her pain yours. Now is the time to get something in return. If she loves you too, she will stay with you. If not, then she is leaving anyway. Just tell her the fucking truth. Tell her. NOW!” The logical side of him argued.

She wiped her tears off. Held his hand softly and gave him a peck on the cheek. “You are my best friend. Someone I can trust. Someone I can rely on. Someone with whom I can share my deepest secrets. Always be the same. Never change.”

Her words echoed in his ears : “Always be the same. Never change.”

“Tell her now. This is the right time. She is emotional, she misses you and she has a soft corner for you in her heart. May be she loves you too. Tell her now…” The logical side of him tried to convince his heart.

With tears in his eyes he hugged her.

“What’s the matter? Why are you not saying anything? This is the last time we will be talking to each other. Don’t you want to tell me how you feel?” she asked, wiping tears.

He gave her an awkward chuckle. With a smile on his lips and tears in his eyes, he came close to her and whispered in her ear: