A Catholic girl's journey to accepting infertility and life without children.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Wise Men Seek Him

I found my yearly theme of "Focus on Him" come up during the sermon this morning. The Gospel was the story of the women who was bleeding for twelve years. I cannot imagine how she must have felt! She braved the crowded streets and looked for the man she heard that could heal. She was a wise woman who seeked Jesus. Through the heavy crowd she spots him, and moved forward to him repeating to herself, "If only I could touch his clothes." If only. She didn't ask for much. She knew exactly what she wanted, what she needed and where to find it. As soon as her hand reaches for his garment and she touches the rough material, immediately, she is healed. Her wound is fixed. She seeked and He healed.

Infertility hurts. Healing is available if only we seek it from Him, who created us. He can and will heal our hearts, minds and bodies. Like the brave, wise woman of today's Gospel, I earn to seek Him, and whisper to myself, "If only I could touch his garment, the pain will stop." I may not be in the same position as this woman, hearing His voice or feeling His touch, but He did not leave us here without some sort of tangible part of Him. We have Him, here, in the Eucharist.

This is where I seek Him, for healing. I am blessed to work next to a church where they have Eucharistic adoration. After work, I am able to drop in and sit with Him, in His Presence, for a few minutes before traveling home. It is an amazing, quiet time, that I cherish.

If you are hurting, I encourage you to be like the wise woman. Seek Him out.

1 comment:

Welcome to the blogging world! My dh and I have been TTC for six years now and there has been lots of trials however throughout it all..our focus has been the Will of God. I have found this blog on IF to be so very helpful and it's Catholic (which is so important since nowadays there's lots of stuff going on in our society that is sad). It's amazing to read what other women are going through and we all pretty much look to our good Lord for guidance. It's so nice to get some support where in other places there is none. All of my friends have children and just can not understand what I have been going through. I do have a few friends that have adopted and they are so blessed. My dh and I are licensed to adopt but pretty sure that is not in God's plans for us. Most women desire to keep their babies. I'm working on giving up trying to understand our society. All I can do is carry my cross with God and try to discern what it is He wants me(and us) to do. Blessings!

About Me

Who am I? I am the girl who quietly kneels in the pew behind the family with the children. The girl who earns and wishes for a child of her own. A girl whose prayers beg for an answer. The girl who hears God gently say no. The girl who knows the power and love of God.

Lady of La Leche

Lovely Lady of La Leche, most loving mother of the Child Jesus, and my Mother, listen to my humble prayer.Your motherly heart knows my every wish, my every need. To you only, His spotless Virgin Mother, has your Divine Son given to understand the sentiments which fill my soul.Yours was the sacred privilege of being the Mother of the Saviour. Intercede with Him now, my loving Mother, that, in accordance with His will, I may become the mother of other children of our heavenly Father.This I ask, O Lady of La Leche, in the Name of your Divine Son, My Lord and Redeemer. Amen.

Totus Tuus

Immaculate Conception, Mary, my Mother.Live in me. Act in me. Speak in and through me.Think your thoughts in my mind.Love, through my heart. Give me your dispositions and feelings. Teach, lead and guide me to Jesus.Correct, enlighten and expand my thoughts and behavior. Possess my soul. Take over my entire personality and life. Replace it with yourself.Incline me to constant adoration and thanksgiving.Pray in me and through me.Let me live in you and keep me in this union always.– Pope John Paul II

Petition to St. Anne

O glorious St. Anne, you are filled with compassion for those who invoke you and with love for those who suffer! Heavily burdened with the weight of my troubles, I cast myself at your feet and humbly beg of you to take this present intention which I recommend to your special care. (mention your petition) Please recommend it to your daughter, the Blessed Virgin Mary, and place it before the throne of Jesus, so that He may bring it to a happy issue. Continue to intercede for me until my request is granted. But above all, obtain for me the grace one day to see my God face to face, and with you and Mary and all the saints to praise and bless Him for all eternity. Amen.