~ The rambles of a lost girl trying to find her place in the world..

Nothing lasts forever

You ever just get that urge to write? I do. I want to write but I don’t know how much to say, how deep to get on such a public platform – although lets be honest I doubt there’s many of you out there reading this.

I think what still takes me by surprise is the unpredictability of life. If we ignore my last post on Sabr & Shukr and look back at the 4/5 month gap between that and the post before it – my gosh have things changed. For good and bad. And I have found myself in situations which I would never have imagined I would end up in. But I guess everything happens for a reason right?

I always knew things in life are not meant to be permanent. After all, this life is temporary. But even still, when things like friendships end – something you expect to last a lifetime – it can still take you by surprise.

My initial reaction? – Hurt, upset, anger, resentment. All the emotions basically. But as with everything, time is the best healer. And after a while you stop feeling emotion towards the memories you once shared with people you thought would be in your life forever. Instead you just feel indifferent to it. Well at least that is what I’ve found so far.

It’s a shame really, but I’ve come to understand that nothing in life lasts forever, not really. Esp with relationships, because at the end of the day, people change.

However I will say as with every aspect of life that which I’ve found so far – when one door closes, another – more often better and brighter one opens. Which is what I have found in this instance. Alhamdulillah.

I won’t get all too deep here but what I will say is – life has a funny way of throwing people together. 2 individuals lives’ could have crossed at several different points in time, but they keep missing each other until the time is just right. And only after, through conversations do you realise how many years earlier your paths could have crossed, had it not been for something as simple starting a new job mere weeks after the other left.

Whether a relationship (friendship/romantic or otherwise) with someone lasts forever or not, there is still a lot of growth and personal development to take from it. After all, it is from our interactions with others that we learn and make mistakes and correct them right? Such is life.

Sometimes I wonder whether I give too much of myself out to people too quickly that puts me in a vulnerable position. After all, as I’ve mentioned in a previous post – not all hearts are created the same. And indeed, in order to protect and guard myself, I’ve tried to hold back somewhat. However that backfired greatly so maybe that is not the way to go about this.

And also if I’m being honest – it’s not in my nature to hold back. You could say my heart is too big (thanks for passing that on to me mum(!)) in that when I give – I give fully and don’t hold back. And when I say ‘give’ I don’t mean material things, rather feelings and emotions and love in any relationship I have with anyone. I don’t necessary expect the same in return, because at the end of the day everyone has a different nature, but I just hope it is appreciated? Maybe.

As usual this was probably a rambley mess (pretty sure I ended my last post with this same line. Whoops) but let me know what you think? Do I ever make sense in what I write though really? To be honest I just enjoy writing. I should probably start writing about current affairs since I’ve been saying I will for ages.

Peace & Love

T x

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3 thoughts on “Nothing lasts forever ”

This really resonates with me. I defo feel the need to just write and write, and i feel like i ramble, but it makes sense! I’ve started keeping a journal. I think i might start another blog, just for my thoughts and emotions along the way, as my dating one should be about just that!

I’m the same, i ‘give’ far too much of myself to people and relationships, and notice that there is an imbalance. I’ve learned to deal with this, by just realising that those people that drain your energy, are not worth it. If someone doesn’t enrich your life, (no matter how small), then they are already draining you. I distanced myself from certain people and found that my own mental wellbeing was so much better! I haven’t read your other posts yet, but fully intend to on my holiday which starts tomorrow! Keep writing!! X

Aha I’ve tried keeping a journal a few times but they are always pretty short lived! It would be great if I could though – somewhere to dump all my thoughts! Hope you manage to keep yours going longer than mine – however if you wanted to move your thoughts not relating to dating to a separate blog I’ll be sure to read it – love your blog!

That’s exactly what I have found with a few relationships in my life too – an ‘imbalance’. I mean no one gives expecting the exact same in return all the time, its just about balance. Recently I’ve cut some people out of my life completely and I’m so much more happier for it. You really don’t realise how much dead weight one carries before you cut them loose! As harsh as that sounds, you have to put yourself first sometimes.

Aha I hope you enjoy reading my blog but be warned – its all a bit of a rambley mess! x

Aww! I have read over a few of your more recent posts- sabr & shukr…. still battling with this so hard! I think it can never be perfected, so just trying my best! I still have many questions about why things have and haven’t happened to me… waiting (patiently) for everything to fall into place….

I tried to blog yesterday from my ipad, wordpress is so damn slow on it! Will upload it when i’m back in London! Unless i have the patience to blog from my phone lol

It’s so funny what you say about deadweight- funnily enough, i just tweeted something about that yesterday!!

I will set up the side blog soon and tweet the link 😉 (your blogs are not rambley messes btw- you’ll see what rambling really is when i put my mind on paper 😂)