Saturday, December 10, 2011

So I got off early from work tonight , well lastnight technically since I haven't been so sleep since, I came home , I planned to just do my usual browse blogs & network til 4 a.m. then go off to bed , But tonight a guy friend of mine called me to "hang out" so I took a shower , dressed up , not much but still , I dressed up ...You know how women are ,never on time when it comes to getting ready, but anyways I told him i'd meet him at his house in 15 til 30 mins. I won't like it probably took me an hour & 15 mins. lol but whenever i was on my way to his house I see him driving the opposite direction from his house LEAVING but coming in my direction ....long story short , he said i took too long , he didn't think I was coming so he's bout to "run somewhere right quick" then he goes on to ask me do I want to get a room (hotel/motel) with him ...So me being me I said HELL NO ! Aint even that type of party *in my ghetto slang/voice* lol so after that i could sense he cocked an attitude so I jus drove off in the middle of him beginning to speak so he pretty much got on my nerves for the night by wasting my time .UGH !!! I FUCKING HATE with a FUCKING PASSION when ppl WASTE MY TIME !!!! it gets under my skin to the MAX!!!
So after that I called myself finding something to do since I was already out but a BIG FUCKING FAIL that was....SOOOO I ended up coming back home .popped in a DVD ( Love Jones) , talked on the phone til that ended ... & now im up because I supposed to be lookin for me a car.
My whip ain't shit so i'm trying to get rid of it before it completely goes out & my job has a discount with the local Honda car dealership so I said hey , why not use it to my advantage , shit i need it . So im going to try to find something cheap around 6,000 & the discount is 2500 so 6000-2500=
6000
-2500
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3500
Not bad ehh ? but you know how dem dealerships be on that fast talk hidden deals type bullshit . Hopefully every thing goes according .

I supposed to be doin a sew - in on a lady's hair today , wish me luck .

Friday, December 9, 2011

You know? The REAL blogs , the ones with meanings & real life shit , shit that's really interested , shit with problems , questions , answers , life, & money issues . Ever time i search for a blog(s) that are appealing to the eye , it ends up being a boo-gee fashion or make -up blog , don't get me wrong that's cool & all but like I said what happened to the real blogs ??? Help !!!

I love the fact of being busy with work & making lots of money doing so as well but at times I get so overwhelmed especially with the type of work & job I have & having the type of job where u don't have a set time , it's just based on whenever all the work is done & that can be anywhere from 8-12 hrs. . But anywho I really don't have time to blog as much as I would like because all I seem to do is work , work , work , but enough of that, i will start making time because there is so many things I want to get off my chest!
I wanted to talk about World Aids Day(Dec.1) ;imissed that . I want to talk about relationships/my relationship&issues(of course) along with sexually frustration &Hair ! Hair ! Hair! Natural hair ! YASSS ! But as of right now all this is going to be on hold to the weekend because in NC it's 3 a.m. I just got off work around 1 a.m. & i have to get back at it at 1 p.m. tomorrow afternoon. So until nxt time &hearts;

Saturday, December 3, 2011

I may be late on this video , i can't recall the date when it was posted but when I was browsing along worldstarhiphop I happened to come across this video... I watched ...& then I judged *kanye shrugs* . In MY eyes , this sh*t is so wrong on so many levels . 1st , I could understand if you doing your thing alone , meaning by yourself , maybe along with your girlfriends or something (not saying it'll exactly be right then either but....Im just saying...)but seriously with your children around !!! Did I say children meaning more than 1 , a older daughter & a younger son , so on both aspects you're fcking up big time. This is the example you're trying to set for your daughter, no respect , no boundaries ? For you're son , do you want him to disrespect women & treat them as trash? well pretty much in other words you are because if you're not taught anything & thats what you've grown accustomed to as a child you have no other knowledge beyond what you was taught & grew up around . SMH ! No amount of words can explain how dirty this sh*t is. You have your daughter recording & your son watching. I think she need to be escorted to a parenting class for one.I don't see abuse but I do see emotional endangerment & someone needs to evalcuate her ass. Thats all with my ranting & what not. If you haven't seen , here's the video.http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshhwoQ92jRay69xvOJD

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Rules; Say something you would like to do or perhaps a place you would like to travel and why. Simple .

1.I would like to be President Of the whole world.Why?I feel there's things out there that isn't being done but can be done but just is not being done for what ever reason. In my eyes the world's money is being wasted and mismanaged for one. There is starving families , families with no homes ,yet you can give a cast of 8 EACH a amount of $100,000 or more a episode for a reality tv show that has no real purpose or positive message.Sending MAJORITY of US jobs overseas ,& for what ? I don't think no boss out there for a corporation would mind more franchising for their company.So why can't their just be enough to go around so no one will be without.The justice system is all wrong ,backwards ,and just plain unfair . You have lazy police officers , lawyers ,investigators ,and judges who ignore or better yet care not to find evidence that points to the guilty but yet are set free , to do the crime and get away with it again and the innocent ones are locked away for the rest of their lives because of how a judge felt about a certain thing or involved their personal views on a situation instead of looking at the evidence that was being presented.Nevertheless ,I just wish I could make the world a better, happier place.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

When I look back in .... I never really had that one true friend . You know you've always had that friend thats always been there but thats all they've done was just be there. So when I say bestfriend I mean a person who you can vent to without feeling like you're being a burden to them; who you can tell all your secrets,fears and deepest thoughts without them judging you, or how about them not telling the things you all shared between eachother even if you all disagree or fall out with one another; just the person you can be yourself around; the person who isn't jealous of you or your success with anything ,that also isn't jealous when you gain new friends or get the guy that she's been secretly wanting but never told you....I long for a bestfriend, my mind is getting overcrowded,im carrying so much weight on my shoulders, and there are things im dying to talk out.

Yes , Me , Marriage , Family , YES like husband, home owner, kids and a dog with a backyard. I don't know what it is that's been having me thinking im ready to settle down and have a family. Smh ! WHY WHY WHY!!! Im only 18 still in school, and working 40+ hours a week with no time in between for a family . Im guessing im just ready to settle down to be happy with that one person who 50% completes me (the other 50% being myself)with no lies, no games ,no trust issues, just communication , love, peace, trust , happiness & freeness.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Lastnight I found out my cousin, the 2nd person close enough to be called friend , had sex with my lover. The lover that I've been secretly been messing around with for over a year. I mean I couldn't be mad at him, her, or hell not even my damn self . Not at him because I kind of knew what type of man I was dealin with before I got involved which would be a man thats been incarcerated since he was 18/19 & is now 28 so , in my eyes he's playin "catch -up" , he's promiscious(spell check) & selfish , not caring how he get it, where he gets it nor does he care anything about anyone else & there feelings so therefore by carryin on with him pretty much gave him & i approval that everything was cool & we could handle our "situation" . Now Her ,I mean me & him were/are a secret so she didn't know , simple as that. And Me , like I said I knew how he was before I met & took it to that level with him . I mean the whole situation was crazy because My cousin & I always joked around about how we were goin to "get" him , when in reality I got , was gettin him & just had him , but I never told her because I never been the type of female to air out all my personal business to anybody friend,cousin,mom , aunt , nobody .But I always felt if they were willing to tell me theirs i'd listen , take notes & keep my business on the hush. Anyhow we were always a secret because he was older than me & i was illegal at the time so thats where pretty much everything lies . But still I remain in some sence of shock , I guess it's because he knows we are close cousins & he still had sex with her regardless . But now im on the edge of how i should handle the whole situation. I think the best decision for me as of right now would be to cut him completely off without lettin him know why& jus keep it moving & jus one day down the line yrs. from now jus let them both know how i felt.

I have yet to create another blog , idk why , but i have .Maybe , I guess , it's because this blog suppose to be a new me or some sort of new beginning . Iont know *nicki minaj voice* .But anyways I haven't been up to much of nothing lately but workin , working & more WORKING !!! very tiring , but i will not complain because i truely enjoy the money .My job has great benefits, you get paid every week , good hours & the salary is something serious ....BUT.... u knw there's always some CON's to everything .I would have to say i dislike the fact that if you miss days or late for WHATEVER reason , it doesn't matter ,you get points , we're allowed to have up to 12 points then we're TERMINATED. Another one ;you have to explain ur EVERY move . UGH ! i hate that so much . If im sick ,i have to check in with my supervisor to let him knw &tell him why im sick& blah blah blah .I be feeling like a kid in school or something . 30min. breaks.Impossible !too much to do in too little time ....thats all.

I bleached my hair high blonde , idk what tone , but higher than honey i think . I must say I love the look even though im not finished yet. When i was bleaching my hair last Sun. I ran out of bleach & decided to jus wait til this weekend to bleach the rest of my half unbleached hair then i'll put my desired color of rinse .

So Wed.was my cousin's bday but she decided she would have her party Sat.(tech. yesterday) so since i spent the night before outta town I decided, hey why not go to the mall & get a cheap out fit & heels & her a nice , cheap shirt ....It won't take long ...well thats what I told myself . Her party started around 4:30 , for me to get to her party from where I was at would take me an hour + 25mins. ...DRIVING THE SPEED LIMIT SOMETHING I DONT DO !Anyways i got to the mall at 2 something left the mall at 4 something . SMH them damn Shoe stores! gets me everything . I ended up going to FOREVER21 , SHOE DEPO , & CHARLOTTE RUSSE , & i must admit im in love with ANYTHING CHEETAH PRINT ,,,, im addicted . I brought a pair of leopard print pair of heels & a loose see thru floral shirt (ithink thats what u call em)

Im such a procrasinater . I've supposed to been did a writing assignment , its pretty much a essay, for over a month now & i have not even began to start yet . I jus need motivation & drive lord someone jus guide me & pray that I finish SOON !!!!

Im bck in action since I just got my internet bck connected so I should keep everything posted of recent events.