An Organized Plan of Attack, Part VI

Below you will see five goals from each category which I have set out as a starting place. Every journey begins with one step. What I’m going to do now is to ask for guidance with regard to each individual goal, to ask for it to be revealed to me at least one action in faith I can take each day toward the achievement of that goal. I’m going to do that now so that I can get busy making some much needed changes in my outlook and my behaviors. If I am to succeed at saving my life, I will have to do the work. I’m willing to do the work. It’s time to get into action.

I do think there’s a usefulness to fleshing out some of these goals, sharing what I discover with those of you sharing this (possibly) “last year of my life” with me. As I’ve said all along, I’m willing for the goals to shift or change as more is revealed. Perhaps there’s neuroses at back of a goal and when that’s discovered, it needs to fall away or at least change. Knowing more about each goal will also help me in visualizing it. I really do believe there is great validity in that teaching. Almost all successful people talk about it.

I’m willing to start taking these actions today. I’ll come back to each goal and elaborate over the coming several days, interspersing those blogs with some more stories from my past. Unburdening in that way weakens the fear, shame, grief, and rage that have kept me in inaction in the past. What, you didn’t think this was the first time I’d ever made a list of goals, did you?!

Here are my goals with one action item per goal:

I. Emotional, Spiritual, Psychological
1. To live free of depression
-list ten things for which I am grateful EACH DAY
2. To live free of anxiety
-limit myself to TWO caffeinated beverages per day INCLUDING the pre-workout
3. To be true to my spiritual path
-have a ten minute period of prayer and meditation each morning and evening
4. To be happy
-take some action to help somebody else be happy each day
5. To help people who suffer from PTSD and/or addiction
-go to at least three meetings per week where other people who are living in a better, healthier relationship to addiction and/or PTSD meet and talk about their experiences.
II. Health and Fitness
1. To love what I see in the mirror when I’m naked.
-to look in the mirror each day (naked) and tell that crazy bastard I love him
2. To be great at CrossFit
-go to CrossFit three times a week, every week
3. To look like MMA fighter… or a gladiator… or an NFL quarterback
-lift weights three times a week, every week
4. Perfect sexual health
-do a three month “reboot” program of total abstinence while I figure out what I want this area of my life to look like.
5. A body that serves me well in what I endeavor to do
-spend thirty minutes each day doing Mobilty WOD

III. Sex and Relationships
1. To live free of codependency
-order a book on codependency recovery
2. To use my sacred “NO” when doing something would impair my ability to be of service in the long run or would compromise my wellbeing in the present.
-to include in my evening inventory, one time when I said “no” when I usually would have said yes just to please someone else.
3. The right and perfect husband for me.
-for now, be true to my reboot
4. Be a good son, brother, uncle, etc.
-make a list of everyone’s birthdays
5. To let go of Adam.
-pray for him daily

IV. Career and Finance
1. $110K or more per month starting now and for the rest of my life.
-write for four hours each and every day
2. To live off 80% of my income this year, tithing 10% to where I’m spiritually fed and investing 10%. I want that percentage to shift by 10% annually until by 2020, to be living off 10% of my income and directing the rest to do good on the planet.
-start now on every penny that comes in, no matter how large or small the amount.
3. To be clear about my finances!
-start today and keep a record of every penny that comes in and every penny that goes out.
4. To write 25 movies, 10 TV shows, 25 plays, 5 novels, 5 non-fiction, and a poetry and short story anthology.
-write for four hours each day.
5. The Mehadi Foundation to grow and thrive providing help for Iraq and Afghanistan veterans in a multitude of ways, mostly through providing paid apprenticeships within the entertainment industry so that they can GET PAID for being creative and also to teach reliable and valid pure peer support techniques to this population of veterans.
-spend at least one hour each workday getting the website squared away, seeking funding, planning the future, and otherwise working toward the mission of the foundation.

CrossFit was horrible today. And it’s “mobility day” too! On Thursdays at the box where I go, They tend to keep the WOD (Workout Of Day) a little lighter and spend a little longer with the mobility stuff. The “lighter” today was 7 reps EMOM (every minute on the minute) of five different exercises: handstand push-ups, weighted ring dips, weighted pull-ups, and then a combination of 7 ab-mat sit-ups and 7 ab-mat leg-ups. It was my first day back to CrossFit in over a month. I began my slide into debauchery while I was in New Orleans and, as most of you know, carried it over to Salt Lake. (My fantasy was that I would work out like a fiend in Salt Lake and even visit my old box. I might have have done what I consider a real workout maybe once.)

It’s amazing how quickly so much hard work can go to shit. I’m not saying this to beat myself up. Just being realistic. I’ve got a long way to go but I’m determined. I just want to be honest, I’m hurtin’. Please don’t pity me. That’s not what I want. Anybody who knows me, especially my Marines know that’s definitely not what I want. If you’re a believer, please pray for me. If your an atheist, please wish me luck and keep me in your good thoughts.

It’s 347 days until September 1, 2015
It’s 392 days until October 15, 2015