schizoaffective disorder

This often feels like the most offensive question I’ve ever been asked and the most offensive part of the question is that it’s socially inappropriate for me to be offended, for me to be anything other than grateful for their well-meaning but ultimately useless and often condescending advice.

“Why don’t you just get up and do something fun?”

“Why don’t you just go do something productive?”

“Why don’t you just stop being depressed?”

Yeah, why don’t I? It’s so simple, why didn’t I think of that? Oh wait, that’s right, because it doesn’t work like that.

This is one of my all time favourite songs for when I relapse or I’m feeling vulnerable and crazy and overwhelmed and a little broken, which is sort of exactly where I am right now.

It’s been a weird few days for me (hence the lack of updates) and I’m not even entirely sure why I destabilised but I’m picking myself up again and this is one of the best soundtracks I’ve found to do so to.