hello guys that's my first attempt and it may sound cheesy.probably needs more work but I just wanted to share.that woul be a rock, grunge-alternative song.I have some sounds in my head
its actually about the lazy, conventional, shy, anxious, "old" part of myself and how ill get rid of it (hopefully)
so here it is, hope its not too bad
I realize there is not a proper chorus, a vety short one lol

What ill say may sound
So very alien to you
Buts its so very real
This constant struggle I fight
Its like one part of me holding down the other
But its still all myself
Its all inside my head

Its not hard to change
For a couple of days
But then it all comes back
Slowly crawling
Inside my head

Yeah
Inside my head
Yeah

Dont want you
But youre still a part of me
I'm going to kill you
No place for you inside of me

Yeah
Inside of me
Yeah

I'm not like you
Youre not me
Being on my guard
I wont let you take
Take control

Control
Yeah
Take control

You'll win a fight
But war is not over
Dont you see
Youre dying slowly
Dying day by day
just wrote it in about 10-15 mins as it came to mind so if you say its gibberish i cant argue with that

thanks smokevision! I'm trying to keep that spirit and turn it into action.
and you know what, I dont give a fuck anymore,that god lost, not I.
my problems will not be permanent and I will create for myself a better life but I will never forget.he lost me and he lost big time.

it was not about selling soul,howewer I consider it sometimes as a fantasy.if such thing is at all possible I probably wouldnt do it... probably...
but any deal other than that and ill take it
what I wanted to say was that I dont care about this supposed god or his supposed rules anymore.I dont care about who gets hurt other than family, friends and loved ones and only a handful of people I respect.other than that they could die for all I care if its beneficial to me.I got the leson of how fucked up and careless life is
dont get me wrong.I value kindness and goodness and I value good people.I'm not an asshole but I come first, then people I care for and only then everybody else
you have to choose a side, be a prey or predator