So, lately I’ve been astonishingly depressed, months really, and it all kind of hit me badly today. The problem is that everything hurts so badly I’m not good at talking about it. My friend is dead in the sense that Anakin Skywalker died. The person’s gone to me, and the loss is worse than anything I’ve ever felt. I don’t miss my voice as much as this person. I just shouldn’t have written about it the way I did, the euphemism was very wrong. The rest was entirely real.

Everything else is so easy to write about, save for this. I’m a fuck up.

If this person is gone in the way you knew them… then the euphemism is correct. You did nothing wrong…you didn’t fuck up. I’m positive they would really appreciate the fact that you had the guts to pronounce them dead at that point. Unlike others who will sit and cry over an empty vessel until the very last heart beat.