11:04 PM -

It's another one of those sleepless nights. The Ambien is sitting right over there on the counter, and all I have to do is get out of my bed, walk over to the sink, put a few of those suckers down my throat, swallow some water, and sleep will come. Sleep will come fast and it will come deeply.

I really want to take it. I need to. I probably should. But I know the downward spiral that will soon follow that night of great sleep, and I don't feel like going through it again.