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Iunno, but if you’ll be given a chance to be with me, I’ll definitely make you happy. You won’t get bored. You’ll laugh your ass off and definitely you’ll enjoy the whole day with me. If we’re at the mall, I’ll hold your hand like I never wanna let go. I’ll be goofy. If we’re at the park, I’ll play with you like there’s no tomorrow. If we’re at the beach, I’ll throw sand on you and then I’ll let you chase me. If we’re at home, I’ll cuddle with you all day. I’ll kiss you, and hug you, and play with your hair. And after that whole day when you drop me at home. I’ll text you just to say “I miss you” then I’ll call to say “I love you. I wanna do this again tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and for a lifetime"...

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When you finally learn how to love yourself, a lot of people will hate you for it. But there will always be those who will see and know exactly why you learned.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Can't stop loving youI think what I’m most afraid of, is that I’ll never be happy again. And not in a, laughing with my friends kind of happy. I mean truly happy. End of the day, falling asleep with a heart that doesn’t hurt. With a heart that doesn’t wish for something more.

For a while I had that. For almost two years. Every minute that I spent with you made me happy. Made me feel more like ME than I ever have before. I love everything about you. And on top of that, I love the way that you made me feel so content in just being ME. No pretenses, no faking, just the real me. You made me feel that I was enough. That I despite all of my faults and flaws, I was still amazing.

And then things changed..

And every day since has been a struggle. A struggle to understand why things changed. I don’t know what to do now.

I can’t let go.I don’t WANT to let you go. I know that by letting you go, I’m letting go of the only thing that has ever made me truly happy. That has calmed my mind and allowed me to just rest in the moment and be at peace. I don’t want to let that go.

I can’t make myself stop loving you. And no matter how much we try and fix things, it just gets us into a bigger mess. So where does that leave us? I’ve never been more lost….