Monday, June 27, 2016

Not going to lie, this
week was pretty crazy and stressful and weird and AHHH!

So what happened with
transfers was the A.P.'s called us on Sunday night to tell us Sister
Jensen was getting transferred and that I was getting a new missionary. I was
pretty upset to be honest. My prediction with transfers was this- We were
living with the sisters in Smiley Ward (mission president's Ward). Since we were
already living with them I thought they were just going to stick me in a trio
with them. I was all for that because I thought it would be super cool to be in
Smiley Ward for the new mission president's first transfer. Also I really love
those sisters. A lot of our investigators
dropped us and our teaching pool shrank. So since we weren't teaching and there
is already elders in our Ward, I thought for sure they would just take sisters
out of Millcreek.

On top of that, they
switched our apartments. I
will probably spend my entire pday cleaning. (we were moved into an apartment some Elder's lived in. Don't need to expound on that...)

So I was feeling
pretty sorry for myself. But then on Monday night I got Sister Reil.
Oh my gosh she is so awesome! She is from Alberta, Canada and she is so funny.
She makes us laugh all the time. She is such a hard worker and one of the most
obedient missionaries I have ever met.

On Tuesday morning
we went to district meeting as normal. But president did transfers on
Tuesday afternoon this time instead of Wednesday morning. They
moved out of the mission home this week so it could be cleaned and all ready for
the Dixons. They were staying at a member's home and didn't have anywhere for
the new missionaries to sleep on Tuesday night, so they had to do the
new training meeting right after the new missionaries got here.

Poor Sister
Christiansen (my second companion) woke up at 2 am and got here in the morning, had brunch
with the Van Cotts and then met us at the training meeting. Usually the new
missionary training meetings are from 9 am to 3 or 4 pm. This
one was from 1:30 pm to 5 pm. That is nothing! We usually get all this instruction
about how to train a new missionary and ZIP. Only three English sisters came in
this transfer. So there were 7 of us in the meeting. Sister Gunn who was in the
MTC with me is training and also the sister that Sister Magleby trained after
me is training. Sister Gunn has pretty much been training her whole mission.

Anyway so we all sat
down with the Van Cotts and he asked us what we needed to go over. So a lot of
the training in the meeting was actually done by us. He
basically sat us down and said how much he trusted us and that we could do it.

All weekend I was
being a brat and thinking all these negative thoughts about the changes that
were happening and complaining internally and to my roommates. As we were
sitting in this meeting it hit me how dumb I was and how many mistakes that I
make. I felt terrible.

I do not understand
how or why Heavenly Father trusts me to train all of these new missionaries. I
have trained 6 missionaries! What the heck is the man up stairs thinking?! I am
a pretty average missionary. I haven't taught a whole lot on my mission. I've
only had about 6 baptisms my whole mission. Some of them in past areas are
already less active. I feel like I make more mistakes than I do good things.

But sitting in that
room, I felt the Spirit so strong. I knew that with this last, fresh transfer
that everything I had done I had been forgiven of. I have never felt so weak as
I have on my mission. I have been humbled beyond measure. This has to be the
Lord's work. There is no way that a bunch of gross stinky teenaged boys
and self centered dramatic young women could do this without some sort of
higher power. No way at all. Heavenly Father wants all of his children to hear
the gospel.

I know that Jesus
Christ died for us. We would not be able to make it back and live with our
Heavenly Father without his help. Not a chance. He is so, so merciful. I'm
going to attach the Mediator video and suggest that you all watch it because it
explains clearly why we need the Savior. It explains how I have felt this past
week. I love my Savior more than anything. I can't even begin to comprehend all
that he has done for me.

Anyway. Sister
Christiansen is super cute. She's from highland Utah. I like her a lot. I think
the trio will see much success. Watch out Mentone!

Love you all! Sorry
this is so long. I didn't have any emails so I had to do something while my new
companion was responding to 30 people :). I hope you all have a wonderful week.
I can't wait to write about all the miracles we are going to see this next week!