Date: Wed, 05 Jan 2000 10:00:17 GMT
From: Ymy Anon
Subject: Sorg (m/m, college)
Sorg
by crowinthewind@hotmail.com
Her/his eyes were the most noticable feature, for he/she seemed plain.
She/he was very hard to notice, but once you saw her/him, you'd keep on
looking back. She/he had a weird attraction that's not due to physical
beauty or a loud characteristic. I don't know if it's me alone or do all
feel this silent attraction. In any case, she/he was a strange individual,
in a quiet way.
He/she didn't look like the sort who went to parties, so i guess he wasn't
here voluntarily. Standing there by the wall, eyes vacant, he/she looked so
far away and deep in thought. I really couldn't tell his/her gender. It's
a good possibility the person's a girl, she/he's only about five feet tall,
but there was no chest at all. In fact, it kind of caved in, since his/her
shoulders were hunched over a bit. Ther body had no curves, nor showed
muscles, but he/she was well covered by clothing. She/he was lithe and
straight, wearing a black turtle-neck and black slacks, along with black
socks and black loafers. It didn't really stand out in this goth crowd, but
it was definitely different. Very tasteful and more formal. Classy. It's
weird to find such sophistication among such a crowd. I guess that was the
difference, the air of control and refinement among the twisting and
thrashing bodies and the drunk and stoned ones strewn about the floor.
I still couldn't figure out if it's male or female; the face, stance, and
apparel gave no clues, so i proceeded to ask the universally agreed upon
gossip of the circle. But if i had taken an interest in that person, it
wouldn't have mattered what his or her gender was since i was bi.
Anyway, Sandy was right in the middle of a crowd at the serving table,
jabbering away. I made my way over and prattled all the usual greetings and
social comments before dropping her a line.
"Hey, you noticed that guy at the far wall? He looks kind of weird. Is it
a guy or a girl?"
"What?! You don't know Sorg? Amber brought him here tonight, but she's
probably not taking him back! She'll be too stoned by the end," Sandy said
as she gifted us with her famous hysterics laughter.
"Well, anyhoo, i'm not too surprised you don't know him afterall. He's
really quiet. I tried to get him to join parites before and he's always
refused. I wonder how Amber got him here. I'll have to interrogate her
later. I'm just surprised she knew him at all. I mean, what's the loose
bitch doing with that up-tight weirdo? No insults, but that's basically
what they are.
You want to know about him? Oh, yeah, and Sorg is a he, but he could very
well be a girl, couldn't he? He'd make an okay girl, better than lots. Ha
ha ha... He'd look real good in a dress and make up. *Snicker* That black
hair is gorgeous, i'll give him that. It looks like heavy black silk, look
how it catches the light! It's long enough for a girl's, he's wearing ear
rings too, but most of the guys here wear ear rings and have long hair.
Anyhoo, he's definitely a male. No chest! If only he would wear tighter
pants. I'm sure he's got good legs. I saw him doing some sort of martial
arts some mornings. Wouldn't you know it. Ther weirdo was doing it at six
in the morning in that alcove between the art and music building, the one
facing the mountains. He never saw me because i was at his back, but boy,
did he look good. He's got some real muscles. The lean, wiry kind, not the
juicy, beefy kind..."
She kept on talking and more girls drew in to listen to her. I guess Sorg
was a source of fascination to more than i. Hmm... Should i be concerned?
"...doesn't have a girlfriend, i'm pretty sure. Ha ha ha... It would
surprise me if he does. He's always alone, so... I think it's so romantic,
a loner, and a well dressed, interesting one."
I've gotta hand it to her. Sandy may talk a lot and act like an air head,
but she's most perceptive and intelligent when she chooses to be. Sometimes
i'm still blown away by her sporadic brilliance, but not as much as i am
amazed by how much she can talk. Despite my low opinion of her feather
brained behavior, we've been friends a long time, even before she adopted
this trade mark attitude. I know that she is very intelligent. She's the
type of girl most girls envy, i suppose. Smart, popular, fun, and nice
looking enough. And she even has depth, but she is afraid to show people
her serious side. Who knows why.
It was a good while more the girls discussed Sorg, but finally, Sandy was
called away by another whim and the girls dissipated without the informant.
By then, i knew quite a bit of nothing about Sorg. Loner was right.
Apparently no one knew him well enough to say if he had a friend or not. He
was just the romantically mysterious figure that's food for gossip, and i've
heard lots, but they were clearly speculations.
Who is he? Why is he that way? What kind of person is he? Why am i
fascinated?
For the next few weeks, i saw glimpses of him as we traversed across campus
to our respective classes. I wanted to know more about Sorg. I never
expected to be so... interested. He has caught my attention so subtly i
never realized till i needed to find out all about him, to be close to him.
How can i meet him?