The cold is still there, but i am getting a little bit better. Just that I slept very badly these days as the weather is too hot, so I guess I am not still not feeling well as you need better sleep to get your better health and today I feel a bit dizzy and drowsy . It seems that my never-ending bad luck has continued, the "mosquito float" that i used to have is getting mroe serious in the last few days, before that, i used to see a lot of transparent colour "mosquitos" or lines, but now what i see is a black colour dot line float, which makes me dizzy and not comfortable while reading. I don't know when it will disappear, I am going crazy because the doctor said there is nothing that can cure it. Sometimes it dispppear but sometimes it remains there forever

Germany is affected by the rains? I am sorry for that, wish the rains will go away soon

wow, you do got a lot of presents! Yes, the best gift is that your mum is better

see you

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Long time I've posted here : I'm devastated I've to wait for so long now to see tennis live and no Wimbledon for me : they are Agoraphobic UNFRIENDLY people with their idiotic queues although I love one of their football club in their capital : Chelsea FC ! Do that at Milwall or any other club in the London Capital and you've got riots ! My hunger to see tournaments is not sated : THANK YOU VERY MUCH RAIN DURING MY HOME TOURNAMENT WTA BRUSSELS ! Where I wanted to go at least for 2 or 3 days ! It makes me sad to see mates of me going to tournaments when myself I still struggle with my ( censored ) very severe anxiety disorders, my bowel problems and the fact I aggravated a bit my alcohol addiction ! It's a hell ! I have no problem to go on tournaments as I have to money for... I went to 3 days Roland Garros though ! Which is not enough for me... I'm full of depression, despair and I see everything in dark since I'm back from Roland Garros... Yet as I told : I was in the same hotel as some players during the 1st week of RG : which means 'till now : Money is NOT the problem ! Why did I deserve all of this ? I can't make my dreams come true because of my ( censored ) mental health and my idiotic bowels ( that in the past were so strong ) : I've days where literally I want to cry and I time to time cry ! That's not me : never has been me ! I was strong : I'm a weak guy ! And going all alone to tournaments : NO WAY : PANIC ATTACKS

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Loads will accept being deceived and being whores of the system : a few others with ethics and values decided to be Free Human beings

Long time I've posted here : I'm devastated I've to wait for so long now to see tennis live and no Wimbledon for me : they are Agoraphobic UNFRIENDLY people with their idiotic queues although I love one of their football club in their capital : Chelsea FC ! Do that at Milwall or any other club in the London Capital and you've got riots ! My hunger to see tournaments is not sated : THANK YOU VERY MUCH RAIN DURING MY HOME TOURNAMENT WTA BRUSSELS ! Where I wanted to go at least for 2 or 3 days ! It makes me sad to see mates of me going to tournaments when myself I still struggle with my ( censored ) very severe anxiety disorders, my bowel problems and the fact I aggravated a bit my alcohol addiction ! It's a hell ! I have no problem to go on tournaments as I have to money for... I went to 3 days Roland Garros though ! Which is not enough for me... I'm full of depression, despair and I see everything in dark since I'm back from Roland Garros... Yet as I told : I was in the same hotel as some players during the 1st week of RG : which means 'till now : Money is NOT the problem ! Why did I deserve all of this ? I can't make my dreams come true because of my ( censored ) mental health and my idiotic bowels ( that in the past were so strong ) : I've days where literally I want to cry and I time to time cry ! That's not me : never has been me ! I was strong : I'm a weak guy ! And going all alone to tournaments : NO WAY : PANIC ATTACKS

well, Jeremie, i am not much better than you, ever since last year when my father bombed me with calls and visits, i started to have high blood pressure and anxiety problem which have not been solved even aftre 1 year. And added to these, now i have irregular period and serious eye floaters. By the bold part, you are still not that unlucky, many people struggled to get a meal andyou can afford to go to Roland Garros, so try your best to think and feel better

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Ennis and Jack found something most people don't ever find in this life...true love, the deepest, purest, most beautiful thing in the universes. Ennis and Jack have TRUE LOVE. They are SOULMATES. They have a love so deep, so pure, so strong, that it transcends everything, it's eternal.

This panic attacks are a part of you .I can imagine that it must be very hard for you but at least "you want to go and you went out" is a good sign I mean you was strong enough to visit Paris and Paris is a big big city You stayed in a hotel and this is also a good sign because you slept outside your house.This is a big step forward !!!!!!!!
YOU ARE NOT WEAK !!!!!!ONE DAY YOU WILL ALSO VISITING WIMBLEDON

This is sad but so is the nature.When it's raining then it's raining....But there is always the next year Try it again next year

Here comes a big hug from me Your alcohol problems will be under control one day.

See you

p.s Mourinho is back as coach .Do you think this is good for Chelsea ?

may be i want to look like Rafa . The FO officials are tryign the best to make your roger win and rafa to lose, still cannot finish his 2nd round match by Thursday??!!

no, we don't use "Chinese keyboard", we just use the normal "English keyboard". When we want to type Chinese words, we just press (Shift+Alt) to change to the "Chinese word mode". We have a typing method that divide a Chinese word into lettres i.e. if i type AB together, this word willl come out : 明.

See Rafa did it again He probably will surpass Roger and become the greatest player ever if he wins more slams

My favourite match was the semifinal Did you watch that live? I didn't have the nerves, I zapped between channels until it was over

How does the duck look like?

Take care

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"I like the sweet life and the silence
But it's the storm that I believe in"

This panic attacks are a part of you .I can imagine that it must be very hard for you but at least "you want to go and you went out" is a good sign I mean you was strong enough to visit Paris and Paris is a big big city You stayed in a hotel and this is also a good sign because you slept outside your house.This is a big step forward !!!!!!!!
YOU ARE NOT WEAK !!!!!!ONE DAY YOU WILL ALSO VISITING WIMBLEDON

This is sad but so is the nature.When it's raining then it's raining....But there is always the next year Try it again next year

Here comes a big hug from me Your alcohol problems will be under control one day.

See you

p.s Mourinho is back as coach .Do you think this is good for Chelsea ?

We'll see but Mourinho has always been my example about coaching. But about tennis nowadays : I'm having loads of tennis dreams and when I wake up and see I'm in Brussels : it brings me deep into a depression.

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Tennis is a closed chapter in my life : moving on !

Loads will accept being deceived and being whores of the system : a few others with ethics and values decided to be Free Human beings

i have visited the eye specialist, he said therre is nothing wrong with my eyes, the mosquitos floats is caused by me getting old he said it may go away but he does not know when. May be they will never go away so I can just try to make myself adapted to it, but its very difficult because the float is very big and is blocking my eyesight, its like a big fly keeps flying in front of my eyes, it makes me dizzy and uncomfortable

I am sorry for the flood, it is better now?

do you remember this "Kim'sfan4ever" poster? I really think she is insane, still go after me after so many years. Today I got a bad rep from her, saying "you hardly understand anything so no wonder" for my mild post "why the security in FO so bad? I don't understand how come this man could get in with the flare and then jumped out so freely and quickly ?"

even though I never responsed to her bad reps and did not give her any, she still keeps on giving me, she really needs to visit doctor

see you

__________________Rafa! Rafa! Rafa!

Ennis and Jack found something most people don't ever find in this life...true love, the deepest, purest, most beautiful thing in the universes. Ennis and Jack have TRUE LOVE. They are SOULMATES. They have a love so deep, so pure, so strong, that it transcends everything, it's eternal.

See Rafa did it again He probably will surpass Roger and become the greatest player ever if he wins more slams

My favourite match was the semifinal Did you watch that live? I didn't have the nerves, I zapped between channels until it was over

How does the duck look like?

Take care

i don't think he can surprass Roger, he only wins 1 slam in 1 year, i don't think he can still win slams at 32 so Roger's records are safe

i did watch that match live and was nearly dead coz rafa was within 2 points from winning but ended losing that set and was trailing 0:2 in the last set. He was lucky to win

the duck looks cute

see you

__________________Rafa! Rafa! Rafa!

Ennis and Jack found something most people don't ever find in this life...true love, the deepest, purest, most beautiful thing in the universes. Ennis and Jack have TRUE LOVE. They are SOULMATES. They have a love so deep, so pure, so strong, that it transcends everything, it's eternal.