While it may be impossible to have a full on zombie apocalypse like “The Walking Dead” or “Dawn of the Dead”, it’s still a very talked about topic. There are quizzes on whether or not you survive the zombie apocalypse (ZA for future references), stories about people or even yourself (a self or reader insert) surviving in a ZA, and many more other sources all around the world.

I myself am an avid ZA fan.

You might already know this but I used to be hella afraid of zombies. I had nightmares, couldn’t get through a movie without screaming, jumping and then having the worst dreams ever later that night. I panicked at the thought of a zombie apocalypse (even though I had the weirdest dream ever that involved Wash from Firefly being my fiancee and the leader of an anti-zombie gang in the apocalypse… but that might be in another post if I haven’t done it already), and couldn’t stand saying the “Z Word” by the time the sun was starting to go down.

But now I have a zombie family (Krackerz, Cheeze, Krumbz, Cookiez, Timothy, Pippin, and Sylvester Deathmittens), multitude of fanfictions that involved myself or others suviving the ZA, action sequences of myself fighting to pumped up music and many more.

Now you’re probably wondering what this post is about, exactly. If you haven’t guessed, it’s gong to be my view on how to survive an zombie apocalypse.

Read more under the cut!

{WARNING}: There’s going to be spoilers to shows such as “The Walking Dead”, “Shaun of the Dead”, “Dawn of the Dead” and other zombie shows I may or may not have seen. You have been warned.

If you haven’t already figured out but I’m one of those lovers of horror and the paranormal despite being scared and suspicious of most of them. Like, I believe that aliens, ghosts, and creepypastas exist and of course all those things include paranormal creatures such as skinwalkers/changers and the Jersey Devil.

I really don’t have a specific layout for this post so I guess the closest would be in a rant-like form with no actual numbering going on, since it’s not a list type of thing nor a popularity post.

I know some might not even care or whatever but I figured that I should at least rant about something now that my blog is working again. So I figured I’d rant about the two or three creepy/paranormal/scary videos that I’ve been watching all over again (which I should stop doing or else I’ll never be able to sleep again haha)

One of the things that I enjoy watching or reading about are Ouija boards. Mainly because of how stupid people can be while doing so. Whether you believe it or not doesn’t really matter because whenever I watch them on YouTube I’m either shocked at how people act or bored because nothing really interesting happened.

There are many videos of people messing with Ouija boards. The most popular or highly viewed or uploaded from popular creators are usually seen first so there isn’t a lot of new videos you can see when you go on YouTube and I haven’t exactly been interested in searching through Google or Bing because I’m sure I’d find the exact same material I’d see in the first five or six videos I’d see.

Anyways these are the things I see most common in Ouija board videos that are kind of annoying and not really that scary.

1) Possession

I understand that’s basically the main reason that Ouija board videos are made interesting but it’s seriously so boring now that for actual Ouija board content to be seen, someone just has to get possessed. Like, not all demons or ghosts are out to possess people. Some are probably actually interested in talking and messing with people by saying random facts that only one person would know or whatever. So it’s pretty boring when 4 out of 5 times a Ouija board video has one or two people getting possessed by a demon

2) ZoZo or Mama

In case you don’t know, ZoZo and Mama are demons famous for possessing people who use the Ouija board. I feel like ZoZo is slightly more popular, but in any case, it’s not really a good idea to contact either demons. There is a reason why these two are considered the most dangerous. They’re known to possessing or terrorizing people through the Ouija and I’m pretty sure some cause actual death. I won’t go into too much detail about these two because I don’t even know a lot that’s from personal research but that’s because I try and stay away from researching such things because it’s pure instinct to not to!

3) Attacks

Getting attacked in some way or form is also pretty common from these videos. They’re probably the most common actions in any of these videos because there has to be some proof and sometimes some fakers find that easier than possession. It might be a door opening/slamming, glass breaking, scratches or bruises on one of the persons, or anything that shows something moving or threatening the people in the video while they do the Ouija. There are times when it’s painfully obvious that they’re fake, but in either case (real or not), it’s annoying and common for attacks to happen to have proof that a ghost or demon is in the room and answering.

4)Psychic Readings

I know this is a bit hypocritical because I like to say that sometimes I have psychic moments (deja vu moments, tarot cards for example) but even I can spot a fake without the “third eye”. But sometimes in Ouija videos they have a psychic reader or someone who can feel paranormal energies to make it feel more real. These aren’t really common but there are some there. What makes them seem really fake is that they always put emphasis on things, trying to sound real, and they repeat the same things over and over again. Sometimes it sounds monotonous, as if they’re reading from memory rather than actually feeling it, so it automatically seems fake. If you know the YouTubers ThePsychicTwins, sometimes their videos (the one’s I’ve seen) seem almost fake while others seem real. I guess this is really up to whoever watches and believes enough, but personally I don’t like it when psychics or feelers get involved.

There are more things that annoy me about Ouija board videos but this is all that I can think of thus far. I’ve been tempted to create a horror story that focuses on the true horrors of possibly dealing with a ouija that makes it seem real or even go for the Cabin in the Woods route where it’s both ironic and scary, where a group of wiccans or people who practice in the paranormal or psychic in some way (tarot, psychics, hunters, etc) somehow contact a demon while doing a Ouija board and they have to fight or die or whatever. I haven’t really thought that far ahead and it was just a simple idea that I might not act upon.

It’s been a while since I’ve even updated anything about what’s going on, whether it was weird and creepy like my past posts or not. If anything, I guess it’s better to do so now rather than later, huh?

At the beginning of this summer, I finally made a trip to Japan. Considering the fact that I’m not even in my twenties, I guess that isn’t saying much, but it was a pretty scary experience for me. I’ve never traveled anywhere out of state without my parents and I wasn’t particularly close with anyone that was going in our group despite knowing most of their names and what level of Japanese they were, so I basically felt alone. I cried, of course, because it’s a separation I’ve never experienced and it was so sudden that even though I knew it was going to happen it didn’t really seem real until I couldn’t see my parents anymore. I also don’t do well with travel so I sorta regretted even suggesting about me going to Japan after graduation. But it was, in the end, pretty fun. Since I’m so used to short trips, I wasn’t sure how I’d deal with two weeks of being in another country, but I actually began to relax and enjoy myself. I noticed that my paranoia over my food allergy went down and my anxiety slowly settled to the point where I rarely, if ever, used my Carmex or put on hand sanitizer. I also managed to get along well with most of the other sixteen kids I was with until the end, when I guess I was starting to really get homesick and missed my home even more. I enjoyed exploring Japan and even staying in a traditional Japanese home, but after a while things felt a little stale because things felt repetitious. We went to Tokyo Tower and the Sky Tree, a couple of traditional palaces with samurai warriors involved, and walked around Shibuya, Harajuku, and Shinjuku as well as stayed in Ikebukuro near the end of the stay. Our homestay was in Shizuoka, near Yui. I think I enjoyed Ikebukuro the most, despite the feeling of being closed off by the people I was with once the kids who climbed Mt. Fuji came back for the last day before we headed out for the bath house. I was just happy to go back home and see my family and friends again, though I’m pretty sure my grandparents were a bit disappointed in the fact that I felt a little bored when we did something that didn’t have much hands on things to do. I didn’t mention feeling bored when we did a stamp like thing which I had just finished doing in art and didn’t particularly enjoy than so I didn’t have much fun at the museum we were doing it there with….

Anyways, I’m also having difficulties finding a job now that I’m back in the states. I technically do have a job but I’m somehow lost in space and in line to get it fixed but who knows how long that’s going to take so I have to continue looking, which I’m not happy about because it causes my dad to push me and then I get angry and then there’s a sour mood in the house for days until there’s some form of progress after or we manage to get over it and deal with a different argument. It’s frustrating and each time it reminds me of the one only child fact that as daughters get older they start to have more fights and rebellious battles with their fathers and I thought I would be the outlier until it’s been happening more and more often. I understand he’s trying to help but it’s frustrating that he won’t exactly let me do things at my pace and with my own ambition rather than forcing me into doing something because than I no longer want to do it.

I’ve also decided that if I’m even invited to one of my friend’s birthday parties this year. She recently told me that both her and her mother were a bit miffed at how I was acting like I didn’t want to be there last year and I remember not exactly feeling ready to have an overnight stay so I guess I wasn’t exactly happy. It was a Harry Potter Movie Marathon where we were supposed to stay up all night and watch all eight Harry Potter movies. She fell asleep despite it being her idea and her party while our other friend was in and out through most of the night. Then there’s me who has a hard time even sleeping at another’s house and add in the fact that I’m not emotionally ready for a sleepover so I guess I was pretty moody and didn’t eat much. We left around six in the morning and I took a two or three hour nap when I was back home and took a shower. And since, I guess, I made my friend feel annoyed and uncomfortable, this year I’ll just make an excuse and not go in the first place. I don’t want to make her day act by my emotions so it’s just best if I don’t go in the first place. Good thing is that I have a few months until she even thinks about sending out invitations so I still have time to think about this but I’m 98% sure I’ll just not go. No use being the Negative Nancy at someone else’s party…

Now on to the creepy shit! XD

I’ve been trying to stay away from it lately because it’s been showing some negative effects on me. Mostly a heightened sense of paranoia and sleep deprivation. Cause it scares the shit out of me when it’s dark out and I watch videos about actual monsters. I’m not really scared of Creepypasta’s much anymore, at least not any of the popular ones because there are so many fanfictions that have romanticized them and fanart that’s made them cute and so they’re no longer that scary. I’ve been tempted to make a collection where they’re shown as actual monsters rather than love interests unless they’re in character. But the Rake really freaks me out so when I’m scared at night I stroke and take comfort from my Cthulhu squishable along with Slenderplushie, Enderplushie, and now my squid, Leolin.

But what really terrifies me are Black Eyed Kids (BEK or BEC). There’s one YouTuber that I occasionally check out called FantasticDaily that has a high BEK video streak. There was one video he had where I had to leave immediately because it scared me so much, but it was of him hiding in the closet after he heard a door open in his home while he was by himself (his family was staying somewhere else for their safety so he was alone for the most part) and then a shadow of someone or something appeared in the room and I was like “NOPE!” but not before going back, copying the link, and sending it to a guy I occasionally talk to on tumblr and wanted to see how long he could go without leaving from fear. It wasn’t a long video but it seemed to take forever.

There’s also been some activity from the demon and/or ghost in my home. In case I haven’t talked about it before, there are times where we joke about having a demon or ghost living in the attic of our apartment because we hear random noises and thumps as if someone’s walking or accidentally fell back into a wall upstairs when no one’s up there. Sometimes things fall. But I don’t fear it anymore as I probably should because while something did grab my mom’s foot in the middle of the night and woke her up by giggling around 3 am and bumped into the foot of my bed that was near my wall and practically blocked and stood in front of my fan while my foot was sticking out, he or she hasn’t done anything harmful. My friend just thinks they’re trying to protect me and I laughed because it’s “protecting” me from cooling off. In any case, I just hope it doesn’t have a need to kill us in our sleep, because we try to keep the house in working order and try not to bother it. I always think that as long as we don’t go hunting it or pull lots of attention to it, they shouldn’t attack or hurt us because we’re allowing them to live it’s life like a normal demon or ghost.

This was an update so whoever’s actually paying attention, hope you enjoyed!

Everyone has those moments where you don’t exactly like going to school either because you dislike the teachers, the students or the subjects in general. Maybe homework isn’t your strong point and your grades are low because you’ve forgotten to turn in so many assignments and now you hate school because your parents are hounding you about your grades and whatnot and all you want to do is burn the place down to the ground. Yes?

Well, that’s how I feel right now.

The beginning of second semester started off good. Like, I managed to finally get an art class, Japanese is slowly making sense and I may have a chance to travel to Japan this summer, physics is okay, I started a class called Independent Living and teaches me about money and living alone, I was beginning to have fun and bond with people in band once again, I was happily sitting in English without anyone noticing me and history was finally at a place where I can somewhat understand what’s going on.

Now it’s all going backwards and I’m feeling frustrated and angry and a bit depressed about what’s all going on right now and IB tests have barely even started for another month.

In first, my art class, we’re doing things I literally have no interest in doing. While it may be helpful in expanding my art technique but I had more fun in the cartooning class I was in for a week or two before I was forcefully transferred classes with little to no warning (again). It’s alright but I would enjoy it a little more if I the teacher acts so disinterested in some of the things I say to her while she seems to be more interested in other students at their work. Making me feel useless in something that I’ve been doing for nearly my whole life. So it isn’t making me feel happy at all, like art should (most of the time).

In Japanese, my second period, things are much better. I have more friends in that class and I know the teacher well enough, but even knowing her for four years it still feels like we haven’t really connected, like she seems to have with the other students in our class. Where there are little jokes that are between her and the rest of the class plus that student and stuff? That doesn’t happen between us or even some of my friends. It’s kinda disheartening.

Third period: Physics. That’s fine. I have no qualms with that, so I have no actual complaints with that class. Which is weird cause there’s math.

Fourth: Independent Living. This is like the first two periods in my day. Except this is the second time I’ve had this teacher because I had her for a semester last year. But both times, including this year, it seems as if we can’t connect and she just doesn’t understand much about me. I don’t know why it seems like none of my teachers and I can connect, which I’ve been able to do before but this year it just seems impossible and I’m close to just giving up trying in class to interact if it means that there isn’t a connection between teacher and student?

Period 5: Band. Since we’re having band contest next week, our conductor and the other band have been sharing the main band room while switching out after about 90 minutes all together. I play bass clarinet (I switched after playing a regular B flat clarinet after 6 years) and there’s only two of us: my partner and I. Since there’s only two of us our conductor has said multiple times that we should play louder since he wants to hear our sound. But today he contradicted himself and told us we had to be waaaaaay quieter than we have been playing already so the two of us basically play as if we’re nonexistent. That being said, it made me feel like I was back to playing a regular clarinet: We’re meant to be seen, not to be heard (apparently). So I’m sorta feeling depressed and angry at everything right now since it’s being added to stuff that’s already been happening for almost an entire week.

Now onto the bain of my existence: English, period 6. Last Friday, my English teacher ruined a major part (one of the big things in the end) of The Lord of the Rings and made a huge five to seven minute schpiel about being sorry and apologizing and embarrassing me. Yesterday he did it once again, this time commenting about me getting the wrong book (of course it would be me who manages to get the wrong style of book even though the instructions said “any book by the penguin industry” which I got and didn’t even mention it had to start on page 11) and he didn’t even whisper in a quiet room with his microphone on so everyone heard and I was just like “Stop talking to me.” That conversation lasted another five minutes so I’m tired of being in the spotlight of my English teacher. I don’t like being in the main spotlight in English or in History because that’s where all the smart people are since I’m taking IB classes and I’m below average for them. And it’s embarrassing so I’m kinda disinterested in interacting with him for the rest of the year and I’m hoping to lay low for another three-ish months so I don’t have to add more minutes to the end of my life for being embarrassed by my teacher.

And lastly, 7th: History. This isn’t so bad, even though my teacher accidentally called me the wrong name and once in a while mentions me when we’re talking about IB stuff since I’m not taking the same things as everyone else (I’m partial IB not full IB so I’m not getting the IB diploma, meaning I don’t have to worry too much about failing a test and not being able to graduate with my “IB Diploma” because I’m not aiming for an IB diploma).

All in all, I’m sick and tired and dislike school because of teachers right now. I frustrated with people and I had a good start to my day and it ended badly because of the last band after school practice before next Wednesday, which is the day of our contest. So I’m not in the happiest of moods right now because of school.

If you’ve read my post about conspiracies or even about the tips on how to survive living by yourself without turning into a real life horror movie, you know that I DON’T like aliens. Not. One. Bit.

But after talking about it a bit and watching a few alien based videos by either Shane or Top15s or some other YouTube channel somehow, I decided to look up possible signs to show if you’ve been abducted or not. Yeah, I connected with most of them…. Or I could just be crazy…. Which is one of the signs, but I’ll post my source once I’m done explaining, so don’t worry. Also, check it out in case you’re interested to see if you’ve been abducted or is just as paranoid and crazy as me! 😀 Continue reading “Was I ABDUCTED?!?!?!”→