An odd place in sexual identity-space

Month: February 2018

Yeah, I suffer from breast envy. I began imagining what it would be like to have breasts around the time puberty kicked in. And as part of that, to help my imagining along, I happened to have a smooth rubber tennis ball. I discovered that by carefully halving it, with a touch of baby oil I could make it suck onto my chest, to give me two small bumps to fantasise with.

Jump forward many years, as I stumble over news of a suction device that women could use to enlarge their breasts. Covered in a TV (hah!) news report, the multi-thousand device was connected to an electronically controlled pump, and had a harness for holding it in place. In fact I think it was the Brava system. They said “We know that stretching causes new cells to form. So we reason that if we could maintain a pressure over a long period of time we could cause the breast tissue to increase; and indeed that’s true.”

That seemed to make sense to me. But I couldn’t afford it. (Here’s a good overview article of a few systems.)

Before I ramble on through my experiences and what I learned, I may as well give you the executive summary of my tips for breast enlargement via suction devices…

Executive Summary

Yes, it does work and cause breast growth.

But at least for me (with my XY genetics), the growth has been slow. Using them a lot, over a ten or more year period, I’m now a large B cup. (For a few hours after removing the suction domes, I’m a C.) I now fit nicely into my 34B bras and 36C bras.

You need to lubricate your skin so the suction draws your flesh painlessly into the cups without harmful stretching. I use Vitamin E cream; you could use sorbolene (but that might be a bit thin), or even vaseline (which might be too thick). Baby oil is too thin – after a few hours it absorbs into the skin; that means if you have to re-pump it’ll stretch your skin. Vit E is also a good moisturiser for keeping your skin healthy, anyway.

If you pump too hard, you can cause blisters. Perfectly normal blisters. Or, you can cause small blood vessels to break and cause spots or even bruising. People advise you not to pump so hard your breasts turn red/purple. And be guided by what your body tells you: if it’s hurting, you’re doing it wrong or too fiercely.

If you pump way too hard, it may press so firmly on your… tendon? Muscle? Ligament? (Maybe it’s the Teres Major muscle?) Anyway, it may press so hard against that you can’t easily move your arms. That means you’re pumping way, way too hard!

Rate of breast growth? Maybe a few millilitres of new growth per 6-8 hours of use. Of course I could be doing it wrong: check out other forums and see what others say. Keep in mind: healthy human tissue can only grow so fast.

The process tends to enlarge your nipples a little, too, and maybe make them more sensitive. On one forum, many women were saying they had to tape their nipples down beforehand to control this. Mine have changed only a little, but maybe that’s because nowadays they tend to get sucked up so they press against the domes.

It’s a gradual process. Don’t expect long term results in weeks. (If you’re lucky, like me, and pump just the right amount and can sleep on your side, you’ll be able to sleep with them on.)

I’m sure the suction draws a lot of fluid into the breasts. My gut feeling is that new tissue forms in the ‘empty spaces’ this makes within the existing tissue. The fluid slowly drains away. So, straight after the breasts will be enlarged, and gradually shrink back to almost the starting size as the fluid is reabsorbed. (That takes a few or several hours.)

Depending on how hard you pump and how long you leave the domes attached, the more they’ll leave a red pressure mark when you’ve removed them. I massage in some Vit E cream into the reddened flesh. It fades gradually over about an hour, for me. (And often some antiseptic cream: my skin is insanely sensitive.)

I find the feeling and sight of my breasts growing right before my eyes pleasurable and maybe even mildly addicting.

Wash your domes regularly with warm soap and water.

If you develop irritation or spots, try some mild antiseptic ointments. (Here in Australia, I use Savlon and it works really well.)

I also pair this with low dose phytoestrogens (only Remifemin) and HRT. I noticed nothing much in the way of breasts growth which I’d tried off and on over many years, until I started using the suction. That seemed to work, and I thought, “why not add some hormones, to ‘instruct’ the body on what it should be doing?”

That’s the end of the executive summary. The story of my own trial and error experiences now follow. I don’t claim to be an expert, but I do claim over ten years of experience doing this!

Experiments and experiences

As the years passed following puberty, I became more and more keen to try to grow my own breasts. I’m shy and private and don’t really understand why I’m doing it, or why I feel that way. But years later, with some genuine success, I’m much happier with my body, so I still think I’m heading in the right direction for me. I’ve tried lots of different methods (phytoestrogens, female hormones, self-hypnosis, …). The hormones worked, but were hard to get. The rest… not so much.

It was both a success and a failure. Using it for the first time was almost mind-bending: seeing my tiny breasts enlarge into astonishing prominence, while feeling the weirdly-pleasurable tugging expansion as they swelled up, was amazing! But I quickly realised I needed some kind of oil so the soft plastic rims would slide easily over my skin as my flesh was drawn up into the cups. (Otherwise, it pulls painfully and I think could stretch/damage your skin.)

Major problem: the plastic cracked very quickly. I patched them with silicone rubber, but more and more started appearing. And having both domes connected forced equal pressure. Nor were they all that comfortable.

The next system I bought came with a range of three increasingly large pairs of cups, and were shaped like this:

My 2nd domes

These were much better. It was pleasing to find the smallest were too small for me, and after some months, to discover I needed to change from the medium to the large size domes. But although you’ll notice the edges are rounded, they’re still hard plastic. That presses very painfully against your ribs, and the pain steadily increases the longer you wear them. This plastic also started to crack as it got older, especially if I pumped too hard. Again, silicone rubber sealant was the solution. I used a lot of silicone rubber to make and shape flanges that were far more comfortable.

Here’s my effort to show you the heavily modified domes. Oh: that top nozzle can crack and even break, too. So I slathered silicone around the tops, too, once I’d moved permanently to the biggest size. In the end, they looked reminiscent of a translucent Dalek, I thought!

But in due course more cracks developed, and with that amount of silicone they were quite bulky and heavy. (If you peer closely at the end of the hand pump, you’ll see it also failed, too, and I had to construct a cobble to seal that, too.)

So I did some more googling and found the Noogleberry, which is more expensive but has extensive forums and lots of pictures posted showing good amounts of success, so I decided to try them, too. As this TG Forum article notes, the Medium rings are a MUST.

My 3rd domes: the Noogleberry (large)

Noogleberry say:

“Noogleberry soft cup rings are made from high quality medical grade foam and are used optionally with the breast cups to improve the comfort and fit of the breast cups. Due to the nature of the cup rings, there may be some slight leakage of vaccum[sic] from the cups when they are pumped up so users may have to occasionally repump slightly.

“The soft cup rings simply fit onto the bottom of the breast cups and can easily be removed for washing in hot soapy water.”

My Noogleberry problems. The plastic of these domes is thicker and certainly far more durable. But – maybe I pump too hard – but the medical grade foam cup rings had a real tendency to slip off (the plastic would slide over it and then press directly into my flesh). Over the weeks the foam compressed and the rings flattened so they needed replacing. Worse though, to my mind, was the profile of the domes: if you look closely at the photo, you’ll see the bases are effectively flat. My rib cage isn’t flat: it curves.

I tried my silicone rubber trick to make permanent rings that cushioned better, but it’s really hard to just guess the curvature, so constructing my own rings that would actually make a seal and not let air ‘fart up into’ the cups was just too hard. (Well, that’s what it sounds like when it happens!)

So, back to googling. In the end I found something very like this on ebay:

My 4th domes: about A$30

The good things about these were the price, the curved profile of the base, the stiffer silicone/rubber ring. They worked well, but again the rings tended to slide off, and after many months, I cracked each. I patched the cracks with silicone and I also used a thin layer of silicone to basically cement the rings in place. I found a few different suppliers that all looked the same: most of these seemed to be surprisingly durable plastic. (Maybe my first ones were mildly faulty?)

Something like this is what I still use today, though I shifted to what is I think a 16cm height pair of domes, and the extended, maybe-too-strong pumping has left creases in my flesh:

One of my ‘creases’.

I sometimes use “blister pads” as extra cushioning, but I’ve also used a heat gun to carefully soften and bend out that section of the rim. (I wore thick rubber gloves and used the back of a metal dessert spoon to gently bend it out, with the soft rubbery ring moved out of the way.)

Here are my two “modded” domes; they’re about two years old now, and I’ve worn them for probably over a thousand hours:

On the bottom one, you can see I’ve had to completely coat the area around the base with extra (yes, you guessed it!) silicone rubber – I couldn’t work out where one sneaky crack was, so I just sealed the whole rim.

(These domes above are about 140mm tall, measured to the top of the dome; or 160mm to the tip of the green stopper. That’s about 5.5” and 6.5”.)

On the upper one, you can see where I softened the plastic with a heat gun and pushed it up so it’s kind of snub-nosed at the point where it passes over the place where the muscle (ligament? tendon?) runs down from the shoulder, to reduce the problem of it causing a sore to develop, or the flesh to be squished. (I wish I’d done that before my ‘creases’ formed!) I wear my domes often while asleep, for eight or even more hours at a stretch.

Oh, and these cheap domes sometimes have a problem with that little soft seal at the top: it’s usually because of a rough edge around the small round hole in the plastic which the reddish-pink rubber stopper presses into to seal the ‘vacuum’. Just smooth that off and they’ll work just fine.

Silicone rubber tip

Silicone rubber is really sticky and hard to work with unless you know the trick. It’s based on knowing it’s completely waterproof, and won’t stick to or absorb water. So you work it using water: specifically, ice!

Take a moderate sized ice cube with a nice flattish end to be the ‘spatula’ or trowel for pushing and smoothing the silicone rubber. Fold up a paper towel or strip of cloth to wrap around the ice cube so you can hold it without it either a) shooting from between your fingers, or b) freezing them.

Blow on the exposed end to get a film of water coating the ice (yeah, silicone rubber will stuck temporarily to ice if it’s dry!) and then just begin using it to poke and smooth and shape the silicone. If you get water on the silicone rubber, ignore it or shake it off. If you get it on the plastic, I find the silicone just seems to push the water out of the way when you move it into place.

Of course, leave the silicone rubber 24hrs to seal. And clean the plastic first so there’s no grease or dirt on it. (I use nail varnish removed on a cotton ball. That seems to roughen up the plastic so the silicone bonds really well.)

Wrapping up

So, it’s a long slow process, but cheap and effective and strangely pleasurable. Plus it has side-effects of slightly enlarging your nipples and making them more sensitive.

Just be wise and listen to what yiur body is telling you: if it hurts, back off and suction less. Despite the strong temptation to suck them harder to try to make them grow bigger faster!

Good luck if you decide to try it – and as ever, feel free to leave me a comment. I hope this article helps a few people.