they kept inviting me to go with them (to belize, btw), but i politely declined as i have summer class

i secretly wanted to go and was planning to not take classes this summer

now im seriously alone. its hard to not be depressed and shed a tear curled up in my bed at night. at least in my trailer, it was one giant room-like thingy, but here there are rooms and doors. im legitimately scared of leaving my room at night like an 8-year old because being alone is scary

ill be spending these lonely nights under my little blanket fort, playing on my computer and reading online books. i feel like total shit right now