Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Well, it's been two days since we lost Bailey. Sometimes, it seems like it get easier. Sometimes it's harder. I feel like I just can't get away from his memory. EVERYTHING around me reminds me of him.

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We cried most of the night Monday, hardly getting ANY sleep. Tuesday, I really tried to pull myself together. I didn't want to cry in front of Hunter but I just broke down again. My life revolved around that dog. I enjoyed spending time with him in the morning before work. I put him outside before I left and he was so full of life. When I pulled out of the driveway Tuesday, I saw the hole he dug under our fence. He loved to put his face there and watch as he I left. It wasn't big enough for him to get out but you could see that tail wagging. He may have been getting older but he still had some spunk. Mike and I have spent some time laughing at funny things he did and good memories.*

Even tonite, we still looked in the Dining room, expecting to see him peek at us while we ate Dinner. But no Bailey.*

It's not the same at bedtime either, not saying goodnight. Not having to close the bathroom door so he doesn't play with the toilet paper.

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It felt funny to throw out any leftovers from Dinner that we, normally, would have given him.

*I miss him being right under my feet. I miss him, waiting for me at the front door and as I got closer to the steps, his tail wagged more and more. He jumped up to get some love when I walked in. He was the first thing I saw when pulling in the driveway. I miss him all the time.*

It's hard but I know it will get easier, and I know he's not hurting anymore. That's what gets me through the day.

*Hunter has been taking it great. Tonite, we read a book about family. It showed a mom, dad, 2 kids and a dog. It was just like us and he named them all. He named Bailey and I asked him if he missed him. He said he missed him but he wasn't hurting anymore. He also said he was in Heaven, gone to live with God and play with Cocoa, my Mother and Father In Law's dog, who passed away just a couple months ago*

Sorry about the sad post but it's been a rough week. I'm so thankful for the time we had with Bailey. I'm so glad Mike brought him home that day, he was outside, alone and in the snow, all by himself. THANK YOU for all the emails, messages and comments. They mean so much.

4 comments:

Im so so sorry to hear about your loss.He truly seemed to be a loving loyal member of your family.Take all the time to grieve.The loss of a pet is as significant as any other friend or family member.Keeping you in my thoughts for strength.your scrapbooking friend and fellow beagle mommyKim