sobota, 22. september 2018

Cardamom chia pudding with plum sauce (vegan, gluten-free)

My 'Negativity cup' got full and that's the best thing that could ever happen to me. Once you get sick of something, there's no way of turning back and repeating that mistake.

I was so incredibly susceptive to bad things that happened to other people because I'm so empathetic to the point of ruining my own happiness and life. I often thought to myself: ''How can I be happy, if this particular person isn't?''. I feel like I tortured myself for three decades for no particular reason. Now that I'm wiser, more experienced and knowledgeable I know that it really was for no particular reason.

That type of personal self-sabotage is something that requires years and years of work, failures, mistakes, lost relationships and some hope. I mean, at least in my experience it does. By having ALL THIS under your belt, you one day really just get sick of it. And you're done.

No more allowing negative things or thoughts to penetrate my brain. No more thinking about worst case scenarios. No more defining my sense of worth from other people's opinions about me. No more worrying about the things I can't change. No more criticizing myself in a really negative way. No more focusing on bad things that happened to me or other people. No more, no more.