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Nomadness, what a beautiful thought! I would love to experience such feeling.

Saranoya, I can somewhat relate to you. Years ago when I came back to piano, I was in not so great situation. I felt bad about breathing air because i did not feel worthy to live. Looking back its not that devastating but a divirce in a foreign land for this spoiled girl was too much to bear. I got married with an American college teacher (an irresponsible & violent person) without waiting to graduate Japanese college! So I wound up becoming a minimum wage worker here. I felt miserable every day. I did not want go home to face my tiger mon either! Then one day I heard Chopin in a movie. Can't remember what it was unfortunately. It just permeated into my soul. I sneaked into Arizona State University one day and played the piano. I was thrilled that I could still remember my childhood pieces! Let me say that it was the beginning of all the good things happened. At least it was the only beautiful moment in my life at that time. I feel immensely grateful that I'm alive and have music with me.

You have certainly come a long way since then FarmGirl. It sounds like your music helped you start to heal. That certainly is a blessing!

_________________________XVIII-XXXVIIFollow your teacher's instructions and practice wisely/much, and you'll soon wonder how you ever found it hard. BobPicklePerformance anxiety: make it part of your daily routine and deal with it...Cope! zrtf90

Thank you for showing me a small glimpse of your journey, and for making it clear what a positive role music (and, specifically, piano playing) has had in it.

In life, we all have our own burdens to carry, and we all have to find a (hopefully constructive) way to cope -- be it through music, some other art form, or something else entirely. If your goal was to remind me of that, then you accomplished it beautifully.

I'm sorry to hear that your ex-husband was a jerk (pardon my French), and very glad to know that you are now no longer with him -- even though I know it must have hurt a lot when things first started falling apart for you.

Many beautiful thoughts on playing, but I'm not there yet. For me, it takes a great deal of time, effort, focus, and practice to get to the point where I can relax and "just play". But for the few times that I can just relax and let my fingers and spirit soar, it's worth the many hours of practice.