Well, it's becoming more clear that I am going to be having fertility issues. It really breaks my heart.
I see people who don't want, can't take care of, abuse, ect. their kids and it kills me that there are so many who want kids of their own.
It honestly makes me feel like less of a woman. Feel like a spayed animal.

I just feel really alone on this in my real life...

"No matter how hard the past, you can always begin again today."~Buddha

hi i felt the same when we first found out we had fertility problems 6 year ago it too made me mad that there are so many out there who take having children for granted. I always thought when growing up that i would meet the man of my dreams and have children i never expected this. were just about to start out second try of IVF . I hope you find the anwsers to your infertilty and not i like me have unexplained infertilty
good luck
mom20

Gillespieb- I remember walking into my doctors office and the doctor telling me that there was no way my dh and I would ever conceive naturally, we would have to undergo IVF. I was mad at the doctor, becuase he said all this before he even examined me. He was just going off my past history. I was devastated. I too thought that I was less of a woman. God put women on earth so that we could bare children, and I would be unable to do that. I remember telling my husband that if he wanted to leave me I would understand.
What made it worse is that my little sister had had more than 5 abortions and thought nothing of it. My older sister had 1. So, why is it that they are able to get pregnant and I wasn't.
My Sister-In-Law finally sat me down and told me if I was going to regret not doing everything possible to get pregnant, then I better try. I decided she was right. So, I jumped in with both feet. I knew nothing about IVF, and before I knew it I ended up pregnant I have the most beautiful two year old daughter.
I am not in the process of going through it again. Wish me lots of luck.
Just know, there are many women who are going through the same things that you are going through. We are so fortunate that we have this board that we can talk with fellow women who are walking the same walk. I remember back to my first time I was sure I was the only person in the world with fertility issues.
Keep being positive. Best of luck to you.

Also, as a little aside here, remember that doctors are not perfect. Science is not perfect. Miracles happen. We were told that based on my dh's sperm count, our only hope of conception was through IVF. Low and behold we conceived naturally while in between treatments. Nature sometimes does rise to the occassion!

So, with a little faith and a little science and a ton of hope, you can make it through this journey!

Thanks guys. it may not "cure" me but it certainly does make me feel better to know that there are so many out there who feel the same. It takes away the loneliness and fears.
My bf's brother's gf (confussing but...) has a little boy. It's so sad. She never plays with him. In her eyes, she's "too mature" to do that. I feel so bad for him. He acts up as a form of play and now they have him on ADHD meds...breaks my heart.
I have 3 little brothers and I don't care who is around I get down and play with them all the time. Kids need that... it kills me to see people with kids who blow them off...i feel like the "fertiles" don't get it..
14 year old girls with babies make me mad too but... hey...what can you do?

either way, I'm glad you all listen to my rants.. thanks!

"No matter how hard the past, you can always begin again today."~Buddha