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Topic: Please pray for me to be lifted up from my dispair. (Read 3484 times)

With out giving my novel long discription of my situation I will say the "readers digest" version. (But understand I am leaving out lots of explainations.)

My husband went on a trip in November to Europe to see his family (his mother was ill and needed surgery and could have died.) He has not returned from the trip. First he said it was because I asked him to work a job he hated. (not true!), then it was because he owed back child support to his first wife and was in trouble with the courts there. (probably the real reason all along.) He had to get a loan to get out of jail and has been working for that man to pay him back. But he has hardly ever written an email to me and has not given me information about how to reach him.

Next, I have had my own business but due to an illness I had even before November, and the heartbreak and subsequent decrease in immunity, I have lost most of my income from the business. (I have also been very depressed.)

(My husband is from Serbia, raised by Serbian Orthodox but not a believer. I have been protestant but have had an enlightening of my understanding and have sought out more authentic Christianity and full communion with my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I am still and inquirer but have no intention of doing anything but converting.)

You are in my prayers. What a lot to handle at once! Please don't give up. It's great that you're intent upon moving forward in your faith life. Surely God will honor that!

I have recently been very discouraged and depressed myself and am only starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Help came in a way that I didn't expect (a lot of it from some of the posts on this board). Perhaps the Lord will move in a similar way in your life.

May God bless you, strengthen you, and wrap His loving arms around you during this difficult time.

I will include you in my prayers. One thing I have found since my conversion is that God always answers the prayers if our heart is in the right place. Just pray, "Thy will be done" and trust Him. I have had many answers to my prayers, but not always according to what I expected.

Do you know the prayer of St Epharim, the Syrian? I pray it every day and have found I receive peace in times of trouble or dispair.

I am not sure I know what sanity is at times. But I do pray all the time. The prayer mentioned above is similar to one that I pray from the Orthodox Study Bible's morning and evening prayers.

I also pray: "Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me, a sinner"

But honestly, I also pray: "Please Lord, heal my husband in body mind and spirit and heal me in body mind and spirit. Also, Lord, please heal our marriage and bring him home to me."

I keep praying that. I pray it all the time. (I pray so much, I wear a kercheif on my head.)

My neighbor is RCC (and we are very good friends). She has been praying for me. She said she had a dream in which my husband came home. It was the same night that while I was laying in bed unable to sleep and had decided to just keep repeating the prayer above until I fell asleep. While doing so I had a sudden surge of energy inside and this "feeling" that he will come home.

Maybe the enemy is playing tricks on both my neighbor and me. But it does give one hope.

(I accept the will of God. If my husband does not return to me, it is because God is protecting me from more pain, or in some other way advancing the Kingdom of God. So, while I might be disappointed. I will not allow anything to seperate me from God's love and my love for God. (using "God" in reference to the trinity.)

My priest encouraged me to write to my husband and confront him for going over two months without writing to me. I wrote and told him that a "real husband" would not do this (without a very very good reason, like he was physically unable to.)

And today he read that email without replying to me.

I am crying uncontrollably. I can't see how I am going to survive this pain. This is more than I can bear. Please pray for me.

you have my prayers...it is possible that he read the email and realizes he will need to compose his thoughts before he responds, so he gives u the reply you deserve...? the internet is a very funny place, and often an action on one end of the web can be easily misconstrued on the other end. i will pray that this is the case...

Thank you all for your prayers. The reading of emails without replying has been an ongoing pain to me. He has gone six weeks before without writing and this time it was over two months. But when he does write, he won't tell me where he is or what is happening or how I can get in touch with him.

Please pray for him, that God will have mercy on him and save him. And pray for me, that I will be comforted.

Hail O Virgin Maryfull of gracethe Lord is with thee:blessed art thou among womenand blessed is the fruit of thywomb, Jesus.Holy MaryMother of God,pray for us sinnersnow and at the hour of our deathAmen

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