This isn't really a confession, rather something I need to get off my chest:

I hate my classes. Well, the social aspect(s) of it (e.g., before and after class, during breaks, etc.). It seems like my classmates have cliqued up, and of course I don't belong to any of them. It's so weird watching everyone around you talk like they're bffs, making plans to hang out and like you're completely invisible. Like, I never feel included - and this is with a group of girls I've been friendly with. I feel like I'm too old to be following anyone around like a lap dog, but daggone ... I want friends, too.

I get this feeling that this one girl doesn't like me. I feel like she talks to everyone but me and I don't know what I did to her. I try to be nice, despite my gut feeling telling me she could care less about me, but now I'm starting to wonder why bother?

But now, a part of me is starting to realize that some of these people (some people I thought were cool) can't, or shouldn't, be trusted. IDK. Maybe I'm just super paranoid these days.

I don't want to look back on this whole graduate school experience and not have similar relationships to my peers.

This isn't really a confession, rather something I need to get off my chest:

I hate my classes. Well, the social aspect(s) of it (e.g., before and after class, during breaks, etc.). It seems like my classmates have cliqued up, and of course I don't belong to any of them. It's so weird watching everyone around you talk like they're bffs, making plans to hang out and like you're completely invisible. Like, I never feel included - and this is with a group of girls I've been friendly with. I feel like I'm too old to be following anyone around like a lap dog, but daggone ... I want friends, too.

I get this feeling that this one girl doesn't like me. I feel like she talks to everyone but me and I don't know what I did to her. I try to be nice, despite my gut feeling telling me she could care less about me, but now I'm starting to wonder why bother?

But now, a part of me is starting to realize that some of these people (some people I thought were cool) can't, or shouldn't, be trusted. IDK. Maybe I'm just super paranoid these days.

I don't want to look back on this whole graduate school experience and not have similar relationships to my peers.

I feel this way about undergrad. I legit only hang out with my roommate, her bf, and a girl that I met through her. I havent made any of my own friends yet and im in the second half of my sophomore year Especially since I'm at a PWI, the black folk here are super cliquish. It kind of reminds me of high school, and is slightly intimidating. I havent come up with a plan of action yet other than to keep networking through my roommate

My cousin is kind of starting to make me sick with all the mess going on with her son and his cancer. I feel bad for saying that but I honestly feel like she's using his illness as a way to get people to pity her when it shouldn't even be about her at all.

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