What exactly is it about bipolar that scares you? I will tell you first hand it's not much fun, but it is treatable and folks with BP do live long, productive lives with treatment! For me, it used to be the anxiety of not knowing if i have it or not, but once my psych confirmed the suspicion for the 2nd time, a weight was lifted off my shoulders. Kinda like the MS fears. Some people on this forum HAVE MS and they are fine, and cannot understand why so many others on here get in a tizzy worrying about it. So tell yourself even IF you have BP (and i doubt it, based on your previous posts on the subject), you too will be ok!Keep talking to a psych/therapist about this fear so you can find strategies in letting this go.

I'm afraid of the deep dark horrible depressions and the super strung out Psychotic Mania. Whenever I am sad or normal for a little while and then get happy and libido increases for a day or two I freak out. I start thinking I'm going to go out be super energetic get hooked on drugs and spend all my money and just not give a damn. It's scary thought, sorry if this is like I'm rubbing in how crappy it could be, but it just scares me. Just like my fear of Schizophrenia, I imagine sounds and smells, I become very emotionally flat and socially awkward, but I'm aware of it. But, it still scares even though more likely than not I'm just making these up in my mind.