PERSONAL HISTORY later escaped, told of having met, in Au- gust, 1976, a teen-age girl who intro- duced herself as Betina Tarnopolsky and who said that her entire family was in- carcerated there. The woman reported that Betina had been tortured by elec- tric shocks, which left her with a dry, tormenting thirst. She had asked for and received water, which only aggra- vated her agony. Over the years, two other women who had made it out of the same clandestine prison reported that Sergio had starred in a movie that was being shown to other prisoner'S, in which he "confessed" to having placed a bomb at the naval base. I wonder whether Hugo and Luli ever dared to hope that their younger son, Daniel, was safe. Daniel thinks not. "Look, I never had any more contact with them, so they couldn't know a thing about me," he says. "They never knew what happened, or where I was. I sup- pose it was evident that I wasn't there, but I have no idea what they thought. I know a lot more about what happened to them than they ever knew about me. Unless they see me from above." I ask him, 'l\re you a believer?" Daniel replies, "I ended up believing in an afterlife-perhaps just because of my longing for some contact with them. But who knows? I believe-l hope-- that life continues after death. That is the illusion I live with." In the late seventies, Daniel tried to draw international attention to his family's disappearance. He flew to capi- tals all over Europe to meet with any foreign minister who would see him. They listened to him blankl)) he says, and nothing came of his appeals. Even the other Argentinean exiles who had lost family members were, for the most part, unable to share his sense of urgencr Al- though Daniel cannot explain their re- action, I suspect that they were simply dumbstruck by the magnitude of his loss. Daniel says that he never really thought about how he was seen by other peo- ple. Then he concedes that it may not be coincidental that his closest friend among the exiles was a woman who was about the same age as his mother and had lost all three of her children. In his memoir, "Literature or Life," Jorge Semprun, Spain's former Minister of Culture and a survivor of the Nazi death camps, describes what he calls "the gaze," in reference to the gawking of two young soldiers who were the first people to see him after his liberation from Buchenwald. He writes, "They stand amazed before me, and suddenl)) in that terror-stricken gaze, I see myself-in their horror. . . . They stare at me, wild- eyed with panic." I ask Daniel if people looked at him that way. "I have no idea," he says. But a longtime friend of his in Paris, Pierre Cappanera, remem- bers moments when Daniel was "super- nervous, fidgety, too voluble, doubted everything." Cappanera adds, "For me, he was a survivor of the Holocaust. I - - = lt!; ::Z-t; -"J . jj ' .G7 .cr": lA' \ -- !'<"" <jff \ r- %lo - J, - [ . - jX n .. l:::::. Ql "; / ):. \ \ " ) --. ......... - " J,\_., . ;- .- .". / ./ -: .[ / ; -sJ - .iJ -:-(-"1 @ fJ Q tfJ Ó r;sll (Q) G) }N1@tW lJ)) \*1&JOlk W ol? I' A . Át . \.....-..." . . -'. -. . . . . ". ,\ 1 .. . ...,.,-,...- . . U' U . "_ - .'U' "...... . ...... .... - . ./ / . - . , 53 NEW YORK CITY BALLET . #: o. . ' ',' ":7.:::: .. . ,,< ..: 4t& l' . .., . : -",{ f;!::\ . ,. . . ... '} · '; i, :.ji < ;:tf . .. ^ .. ,,,, .$,' . ". r ;tif* '. >>;j ; "'ì l n:f. ';' ., ;:: i ;:::' ; TI., ;f Fl: i1. q' ,1< Hr.." : . ij..- . _" ff 't "":<J::, :: ' ..:.: George Balanchine s The Nutcracker sm Nov. 26, 1999-Jan. 2, 2000 For Infonnation Call (212) 870-5570 PEAK PRICES: $15-82 OFF-PEAK PRICES: $15-76 NEW YORK STATE THEATER Sponsored by CITIBAN(O www.nycballet.com THREE COLORS YOU'LL LOOK GREAT IN. ......... \ \: "\ \', ,.r - , tlm ill It's the cla<;sìc tri-color rolling ring in sol-id:14k yellow, pink & white gold - $169. Bracelet - $419. Visa/MC - S&H$6. Call 800-725..1520 Satisfaction Guaranteed · www.marcsimon.com Check or M.O. to: Marc Simon Fine Jewelry 19360 Rinaldi St, Suite #501 Porter Ranch,CA 91326 The Power of Mindfulness: A Retreat for CEO's and Emerging Leaders Bringing awareness and insight to the business of life and the life of business Conducted by Jon Kabat-Zinn Saki Santorelli at Miraval Resort Spa - Catalina, Arizona March 24 - 29. 2000 $5.450 (early registration $4,650) all inclusive for brochure call (508) 856-4057 Center for Mindfulness in MedíclOe. Health Care. and Society University of Massachusetts Medical School. Worcester. MA I. "' '-'-'r'.; ; 1( j ßi - .-, J . . . . -' .. .. "' !1." ';; if.,;..;g;[;.;,.:.' · ..>C .., The West"of'lreland'. 'onfoli,'Ä'- . 1JVard-JVÙlIZÙzg black alld white www.glenmccure.com photography. LimiteJ editiOll.1. 757-623--4046