Bekah Deahl has a masters degree in social work, but she hid her addiction from the rest of the world until it spiraled out of control.

After two near death experiences due to her addiction, Bekah knew deep down she wanted help.

Different paths led 19 women to Karen's place, a faith based rehab center in Louisa.

Some are court ordered, others like Bekah Deahl came here before she got into legal trouble.

"I tried multiple times on my own to get clean, and I couldn't do it. I'd get sick, I'd detox, and I'd make it about a week. And I'd start back over, it was insanity," said Deahl.

During Bekah's first three months at Karen's Place, Bekah says she was in denial.

She thought she was too smart to be an addict, and that she didn't have a problem.

"I found my worth in my work and how much money I can make, and how successful I could be," said Deahl.

But slowly, the layers of insecurity were peeled away, and now she looks to a higher power for the courage to make sure this time is different.

"Any other secular rehab, maybe I would have gotten rid of my addiction, but I don't think I would have gotten freed from the bondage of the depression and self hatred and shame and guilt. I might have left recovered, but I wouldn't leave delivered," said Deahl.

She has been at Karen's Place for five months, and only has one month left in her treatment program, a thought that scares her.

"I have made several friends here, and I won't have them to run to if I get bad news or start craving," said Deahl.

But she knows people will see the change in her, and she is ready to face her life again.

"I left my life a mess, and I am going to have to put it together," said Deahl.

She says she will always be in recovery for the rest of the life.

Bekah says once she leaves she will take it easy for a while restoring her relationship with her family and her daughter and working on her marriage.

As for her future, she says she wants to use her masters in social work to help those facing this same problem.

"I was overweight in school and always got made fun of, and my parents always tried to stress the importance of losing weight. So my confidence was just really bad," said Deahl.

Bekah even joined the tennis team in high school, she lost weight and gained friends, but not confidence.

"Suddenly I had attention from guys and from friends. You would think that would have given me some confidence, and it did give me some confidence, but I guess I had an addictive personality, and that turned into an eating disorder," said Deahl.

She would carry that eating disorder through college, but no one knew about Bekah's insecurities.

She kept pushing through, making good grades, even rejecting the pressures to party in college.

She said she had no interest in drugs.

But, something slowly changed in Bekah. She kept her "perfect" life on the outside, but by the time she graduated from college, Bekah was addicted to drugs.

She says it started with an abusive relationship.

"I would use pills with him, he was addicted to opiates. I would use with him sometimes, especially when he would pressure me to," said Deahl.

She says it started recreationally, but the night she became an addict still haunts her.

"When I got out of the car when we got there, my boyfriend's brother immediately saw something was wrong. You know I was beat up, my clothes were hanging off of me, I was crying, they were armed. He came running to my rescue, and they murdered him right on the spot, right in front of me," said Deahl.

And since the moment she saw her best friend killed, she says there was no turning back.

"The first time I had really done it to just really get messed up, and I didn't look back from that night on," said Deahl.

She would end up getting pregnant, and at that point she says she was able to put the drugs down, but not for good.

After having her daughter, she had some medical problems and was prescribed pain pills.

"I thought since I could stop when I was pregnant, I could stop any time. That's not true. My addiction spiraled out of control," said Deahl.

But she hid it well, and it was not long before she was addicted to cocaine.

She says she tried several times to stop including going to a secular co-ed rehab.

There she was prescribed suboxone, but she abused that too.

In July of last year, Bekah overdosed, and in August she was in a serious car accident.

But even after two near death experiences, she says nothing would slow her addiction down.

"I had turned into a person I didn't know, they didn't know. I was stealing from people, stealing from people I had known for years and that loved me. Stealing from my parents, I was taking my dad's pain medication," said Deahl.

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