Donald Glover shared a bunch of really personal notes on why he left Community

Donald Glover has thoughts, fears, and feelings, and he wants the world to know. Last night, the Communityactor and rapper Instagrammed a series of handwritten notes he'd jotted down on a notepad in some (presumably bleak) Residence Inn. Across those seven confessional messages, Glover finally clarified he didn’t leave Community to rap, as was originally rumored, but rather because he wanted to “be on [his] own.” Glover says he’s “been sick this year” and has “seen a bunch of people die this year,” and that, while he “kept looking for something to be in with,” he realized that “you have to be on your own.” He also shared that he's “afraid Dan Harmon hates [him],” “afraid [he’ll] regret this,” and, perhaps most poignantly, “scared [he’ll] be Tyrese.”

Glover’s notes also suggest that he’s been arguing with his record label, Glassnote, about a December release date for the next Childish Gambino record. Glover says Glassnote doesn’t support it on the grounds that he’s “not a big artist” and “it’s not a holiday record”—all of which is understandable from a business point of view. But Glover argues, “Christmas always made me feel lonely, but it helped me restart the new year. I want people to [hear] this album when everything’s closed, when everything slows down and quiet. [sic.] So you can start over.” Which, judging by these notes, is something Glover is currently struggling to do.