Me, I keep my feelings and emotions under such tight control that no one knows that rarely does a day go by that I don't think about punching my ticket to the other side at least once a day. I feel like anything good in life is in my past, and whenever I look ahead, all I see is darkness. No happiness, no joy, no nothing.

Since it's sooooo rare for me to have the house to myself, whenever I do get the chance I play video games in the nude. I guess the idea of getting caught is a bit exhilarating. Never told anyone that ever and now I'm blushin'.

Hmmmm.......So this is a confession thingy....
There are certain people in my life who ,if I had the chance to go back in time and stop myself, I would never give the time of day. I would not give them my words of encouragement nor my comfort because they're too stupid to realize that all the drama they go through is due to decisions they themselves have made. Sadly I don't have the heart to tell them the obvious. I'm not their parent.

My confession is I hate complaining or talking about life in a negative way. As far as anyone in my life is concerned I am a happy, stable person ^_^

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I. Can't. Breathe. I schedule myself down to the last min. No room for nothingness. I miss nothingness. I miss being bored and just taking my dog for a walk cause there was nothing else to do. There is so much pressure now, so much stress..... Why did time move so slowly then and now weeks go by before I realize it. Why do people grow up and live just to work? My plan was to go back to school but I can't be in school and work full time to pay for the stupid car to get to school. I try to work as much as possible to move things as long as quickly as possible but I'm burning out and I feel like the more time that goes on the more this will become my life. I feel stuck and I'm suffocating in stress. Everyone expects more from me..... They make me disappointed in myself. Am I a waste of life? Job 1 ends in 48 min. Job 2 starts in 1 hour and 48 min. This cycle is my life.