Alright , I have accepted that this might be a lonely place for awhile That;s ok.

I have come to a really frightening realization, after a lifetime feeling totally confused that I ate so little but kept gaining weight, I have realized that I am a chronic dieter and I have done so much damage to my metabolism by constantly starving myself.

This has been hard to digest (haha) after going down this checklist in my mind....do I binge? NO. Do I overeat? NO. Am I an emotional eater? NO. Then WTF is my problem?

I get it now. So that;s half the battle. Now I need to figure out what to do about it.

One thing I have accepted is that it is going to take a long time to fix the damage I've done so I may as well get comfortable and settle into the journey.