I said many times before and I say it again:

There is no such thing as new thinking.

Thinking by definition is old. It is age-old experience, the deep-seated conditioned individual and collective memory within us, it is what we call “identity”. Thinking is utterly speaking a total failure…as it is fear reiterating itself, constantly missing the encounter with this present instant in its everlasting freshness.

It is not about me venturing to say something interesting.
It´s a clear fact, if we look into it.

We have to understand the nature of thought, and dare see that thinking no longer serves us. I for one, am no longer served by it.

If we want to find new and sustainable solutions to impending life-problems, we need another readiness to enquire. We need to redefine Openness. As “Open” is not something we can decide to be. Clearly, the more open we try to be, the more fearfully closed we become.

Openness is thoughtless-ness – that is, encountering Life in its memory-less instant. It is letting go of word and preconception…Of identity based on the past.

When your identity is defined by society, you cannot resist it.

You don´t have the knowledge, you don´t have the wisdom, you don´t have
the resources, to understand that something has been put over on you.

You cannot but help believe the definition of you as a free agent. But you
believe yourself to be a free agent, as a result of not being free – that is to say,
of being hopelessly unable to resist society´s identification of you.

So in the whole sense of our personality, there is a contradiction.

That is why, the sense of ego, of being ourself, is simultaneously A SENSE OF FRUSTRATION.

The feeling of I-ness so far as most people are concerned, is a feeling of tension between the I-s.

Is something that we do so well not an act from memory developed through repetition? One doesn’t use memory conspicuously at times but it is implied that if you do something well then you learned it from practice and isn’t practice something stored in memory for use later?

Me:
Good question:
“Is something that we do so well not an act from memory developed through repetition?”
Memory, repetition and practice…Let us try to give it a thought and find out together what´s what.

That´s for sure, without me being able to write and speak English properly, I couldn´t write here. For the record, I am not sure always as to my appropriate usage of the language. However, quite evidently, it has taken me years of reading and pondering to be able to expose an idea reasonably well.

The same applies to piano playing or painting, or whatever other skill. In order to fulfill your ability, it takes years of practise, of commitment and perseverance…you know, what is usually considered “hard work” is undoubtedly a fact, if you want to reach excellence.

What you say is right: “it is implied that if you do something well then you learned it from practice and isn’t practice something stored in memory for use later?”

Let me tell you that I am – what they call – a very versed pianist. I have been playing the piano since I was five, attempting to improve this skill my whole life. Once, after a very demanding concert, a five-year-old kid went to the piano and JUST PLAYED TWO NOTES.Those tones were so pure so I was taken aback. I realized with greatest awe, that THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ME “THE GOOD PIANIST” AND THE BOY WHO NEVER TOUCHED A PIANO BEFORE BUT PLAYS ONE NOTE…

You know, this very episode turned my so-called world upside down…It was probably one of the moments which triggered my awakening. I spent all my life improving my skill and there comes a boy, and with two tones, he overthrows all my then current beliefs…

So the question is: who is better off…? The beginner or the connoisseur?
The one who “knows”, or the one who is inexperienced and “doesn´t know”?

Isn´t memory many times just a tool to perpetrate my identity which is nothing but my self-importance?
Isn´t my identity and self-importance the walls I raise so that we cannot reach each other…?

What is the target for my practising…? Why do I repeat day in day out the same thing…? The answer is quite evident: I TRY TO BE SOMEONE. No matter what, I always struggle to assert myself.

If my only gain is self-assertion, it means that you automatically become my enemy – can you see that? Your plans can never coincide with mine as long as I fight for “my thing” and you for yours.

If we look closely, does anything repeat itself?…What is repetition at the end of the day?

Obviously, Repetition is inherent in ego´s nature, and through memory, practise and repetition the Ego magnifies its “everlasting” importance blowing up its illusion of being separate.

If we have eyes to see, we can understand that:
Nothing ever repeats itself, if there is no separate entity to watch and witness…

When I let go of memory, practise, repetition, when I drop the idea of “later” too, then I am ever new. Second by second. Being “new” every moment, I am free, I have nothing to defend. Only fear – that is identity – can be defended.

So the very idea of identity generates the illusion of memory, repetition and practise.

When this is understood, you will realize that in this new gained freedom, you are being “remembered”. With other words, you let go of Memory and trust the ineffable Now. In this joyful trust, you have an immediate relation to life, you have energy, that is, you can create something without repetition. You no longer define yourself through “WHAT WAS” but through WHAT IS.
What is, is Life happening now. When you live in present tense, there is no gap
anymore between Everything There Is and You.

Being in direct contact with What is, is unforeseen immense potential!

Here is my answer to them.

You seem to do all right in your dialogue without my involvement. You maybe are interested to take over Mirrors of Encounters too. It would be quite fun I think ;;)

Anyway, let´s put like this – can anything exist in separateness at all?…Hence, who is this Julien Matei? Is Julien a separate entity? Is he an outcome of total relationless-ness? Or is he a product of different other societal factors, relations, events, people, frictions, dreams and projections?…

Again, is relationless-ness – let´s say, total isolation – a reality…? Is “I” a reality per se, or can it only exist in relation to everything there is?…

Let´s ponder: Where does an entity begin and where does it end?…

So who is Julien when he writes to Paul? Who is Paul when he connects in vivid dialogue with Richard?

Who is Richard when we interact in this uncommon way…? Who do we become, Paul, Julien and Richard – not necessary in this order – when we meet here in this discussion?

If we manage to authentically meet each other in these insights, we realize that the precise entity of Richard, Julien and Paul becomes rather irrelevant. Irrelevant in the sense that none of us remains the same, but each of us grow – hopefully!! – if we allow ourselves to be just little “irrelevant” for a change, and kind of get nourished by the energy of this dialogue we create together.
To grow is to dynamically give up boundaries,- the limited I-ness – and when we have the courage to “lose” ourselves, we come to the understanding that it is fear we let go of, and not our specific identity.

Only fear tries to make sure of its “fixed” identity. Fear tries to “emulate” or not emulate others in order to escape its paradoxical nature – that is, through escaping itself, Fear fiercely struggles to contain itself, to remain the same. Strange but true…Yes, Fear is isolation. I-ness is the derivative of isolation. Only fear can exist in perfect relationlessness. Its worst menace – I am sure you will find this strange – is authentic relation, cause in dependable relation Fear fears its disappearance…

Real Joy created out of togetherness knows no boundary…it explodes indiscriminately in all simultaneous spaces. Thus entity becomes entities, and entities entity…

In this immediacy, we come to the understanding that boundary means possession and in Joy all boundaries dissolve, as Joy cannot possess as there is nothing to possess…Joy is eternal space, reality beyond reality…

Society is a sum of all the restrictions, inhibitions, fears and interdictions that have been imposed on us for trackless time. This twisted legacy we can feel deep in our souls. It is our identity.

It is there – inside of us that the real struggle takes place. These inner foes are blind, harshly inertial forces incredibly tough to deal with; to let go of them requires incredible courage, perseverance and ingenuity… Leting go of them means also to drop our so-called identity. A difficult task. After all, this False Identity has been our abode, it is something which has had us in its grip for millenia.

That´s why confronting and letting go of these timeless evil shadows is a hellishly troublesome process. It involves a lot of pain. In this sense, becoming a child again means having the courage to let go of the “known”, confronting the unknown, dropping deliberately prevalent falseness and humbly and faithfully trust Life – one is guided towards something which is not yet “established”. In this process you become also a new type of grown-up. By giving up this timeless falsehood, we become the “perpetrators” of a new individual and collective identity.