We didn't go to the festival vibe thing up the clumps, for one, wheeling their in the dark through single track lanes would be very dangerous, and another I'm not sure BK or Henrietta would have enough energy/battery to get there :) But we did go up to some hills nearer to us. Quite a few other people were there. We waited for over two hours in the dark and the cold and just as it grew like there was a bang and we all looked and in such a little time, two and then the last, crumbled to the ground. Then we heard the bangs and the boom of the after-shock. Some people cheered and clapped and BK and I felt like crying. She said this,

"When we were at the train station this afternoon I felt like they were sqaring their shoulders as if to say, 'right, we're ready to die' and when I saw them as it got light now it was like no one was home, they had gone to heaven already, but now I feel really, really sad for the other three as they watched their sistes die and they know it will happen to them next year and I don't think they can be so brave."

They have been in BK's life and sight since she was 10 months old, as first we were in temporary homeless accomodation in Didcot before we got the housing assocation house just in the village we've been in since she was 3. When I was a little girl everytime we drove to Oxford to shop or go to th theatre or cinema we would come through the Stokenchurch gap of the M40 and there they were, on the horizon, seeming to float in the sky. I thought it was a fairy castle in the sky.

N-Power took out an injunction a few years ago to prevent either the power stations being declared a site of historic or national interest or the land around it a nature resereve. Over the 44 years of the land being a no-man's land wildlife has thrived including several endangered moths and a very endangered newt, plus breeding pairs of several kestrals and kites. it is two miles up wind from Sutton Courtney landfill (body found there in The Remorseful Day!) so who would want to buy a house there, with it taking overspill from west London as well as Oxfordshire, who knows?

Besides, switch of the coal power, which has not been replaced yet onto the national grid, then talk about sanctions to Russia, who can just switch off the gas supply!!! The lights will go out just that little bit faster.

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I was wondering what on earth you were talking about....until I saw the picture, and sudeenly it all made sense (g). It made the news down here (where implosions are very, very, very rare.)actually I think there is one scheduled for chch sometime soon - the old police station that is unsafe after the EQ's. It is only (from memory) about 10 stories high so it won't be nearly as impressive.

I missed this comment, so apologies but I blame LJ, which told me tonight that I was not authorised to access your latest post!Some things become part of the landscape of your life and it is shock when they change.

Sorry, I wondered if I was just being self-indulgence and maudlin self piteous and locked it to private as a diary. I can unlock it again to friends only if you wanted to comment.

I jsut, until yesterday, when I was sort of triggered, after the horrendous day and the lack of sleep and genral stress build up, by that blunt comment in the Lewis com, determined to write no more of BK's sufferiing and my worries, until we know something. Which at this rate, will take months, even years. Nothing else will be done until al the tests have been done. it now appears that she is being judged on age and gender. Our GP feared this which is why she referred BK back to CAMHS after speaking to the senior psychaaitrist. We were hoping for a quick referral since she suggested it to set up a TAC to bring on board BK's therapist so he, along with a CAMHS psychaitrist, could disbute any likelihood of it being psychosesmatic! But she seems lost in the system, they might have forgotten the conversation, we end up with a pointless session in six months time... Meanwhile, two friends, an acquaintance and then an out of ours GP and an A&E registrar all suggested that something else starts like this that might not show up on an MRI for years down the line and makes Menieres look like a wonderful option.

I am so boring. All I do is bang on about my daughter's ill health and how wqe feel neglected and forgotten. Sorry.

I'm happy to unlock the other post it you think it wasn't that bad.

As for the towers, it's like a hole ripped out of the sky, and friend who has lost an arm. We try not to look in that direction!

I would leave it locked, less effort!Lots of illnesses involve symptoms like sickness and dizziness, it is a problem for diagnosis, but I would hope the ENT people would take other options into consideration.This is where a general paediatrician would be helpful.I got an MRI for B when she had headaches (another thing they were keen to label as teen attention seeking) by talking about family history of misdiagnosed headaches and our understandable worry. If your GP is still away it is worth seeing someone different next time, as they vary so much. And say you are worried about other conditions.It is worth remembering that the rare conditions we worry about are rare.You'd think they could do a family assessment, people are not isolated boxes.

My GP asked for a genral paediatrician referral and was told to wait for the ENT, that it wasn't necessary.

there does seem a rather large body of health professional and those in education who automatically equate teenage and girl and symptom as attention seeking regardless. I had to come to university in Oxford before my endometeroisis or coeliac disease was diagnoses as obviously before my tummy aches were attention seeking and didn't need a gluten free diet or surgery at all!

I do try to cling to that :)

Our GP is back this weekend, we are seeing her Monday moring :)

Unfortunately, as far as Oxfordshire goes, family assessments only happen when a parent is an addict. But then for years they thought a bunch of young men rolling up at care homes and taking and trafficking vulnerable girls was okay!

I would ask if the GP could refer again and say that BK's condition is complicated by other diagnoses so needs paediatrician for those as much as something that may be ENT, especially given the lack of urgency by ENT.Hugs and prayers and positive thoughts on their way.

That's a good idea, although we have to discuss these unlicenced powerful drugs the other GP put BK on and my brother wants to know what is the procedure concerning complaining about the length of wait and seeming neglect of her by ENT and the missing notes. Only so much you can do in 10 minutes. I do intend to sit down with a cup of tea in a while and write a list of what is important.