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"Success is peace of mind, which is a direct result of self-satisfaction in knowing you made the effort to do your best to become the best that you are capable of becoming." - Coach John Wooden

I'm in the hospital - have been here since Monday. So far, it's going okay, though it is hard getting adjusted again. Refeeding is hard... I hope that it gets easier with time. It's just frustrating to me that I have to do this again, when I just did it not so long ago. But I guess if things went downhill, then this is what I have to do to help myself.

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I want to love my life. My desire is what counts.

Just wanted to post and let you all know how I'm doing. I'm still in the hospital (it's usually more of a lengthy stay). I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be doing, and not fighting the system at all. I'm still struggling a lot with motivation, though, and when I'm out on a day pass, I have a very hard time sticking to what I'm supposed to do.I am trying, though, and I suppose I am more towards the beginning of my stay still, so I should give myself a chance... It's rough a lot of the time, but I guess that's to be expected.

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I want to love my life. My desire is what counts.

How am I doing? Struggling... Having a hard time with motivation to get better. For a while, I was coasting along and doing things right over here (in the hospital), but now I've kind of been screwing up and not doing things right. Recovery - it's seriously a seemingly endless battle. I know that I can get there one day, but while I'm in it, it just seems to go on and on and on. And wanting it takes so much of my energy, that I'm not always sure I have. But I'm still here. And I guess that says something. It's a voluntary program; I'm an adult, and I didn't sign myself out. So I guess somewhere deep down that means that I want to get better. That I'm doing this for a reason. I just hope I see WHY sooner rather than later.

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I want to love my life. My desire is what counts.

downandout- I wish I had the answers for you, I wish I could make it all much easier for you but I don'tI just want you to know that you sound like an amazingly strong person!! I've been thinking that for a while already! Goodluck!!!

Sorry your struggling so much. It must really be hard to be in a program and not have motivation. I know that feeling. Right now I'm also lacking motivation to do things I need to do. It sucks!!!!!! Here are some ((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))). I wish you all the best and may you figure out the reason very quick. I'm proud of you that your sticking it out though instead of signing yourself out. Keep it up........ Thinking about you and hoping you recover real quick!!!!!!!!

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Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will follow you.

Sometimes when I say "I'm okay", I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight and say "I know you are not".

Downandout we haven't heard from you in a while how are things going? Are they getting any easier? Please update us. I don't know about anyone else on here but I'm worried about you and think about you a lot......

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Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will follow you.

Sometimes when I say "I'm okay", I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight and say "I know you are not".

I'm still struggling, but trying very hard. Insurance issues are cropping up, though, so I don't know how much longer I have here. Which is crazy, because I'm not nearly near where I need to be in recovery. I'm not ready to do this on my own. I know that if I go home now, I will not be in a good place. So I'm attempting to make the most of the few days I have left, but it's not easy. Trying to fight for recovery and insurance at the same time is... not fun. It kind of sucks.

I just so badly want this hospitalization to be the last one. I want it to be worth it. Really worth it. I want to be better. Period.

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I want to love my life. My desire is what counts.

sounds like a bit of motivation creeping in there. Are u a little bit more motivated? I'm sorry its so hard. I really really hope ure insurance kicks in- uve put so much energy in getting to where u are now.I'm also thinking of going in-patient, different unit though- trauma- so I understand how u feel.

Hope u can get to where u need to before u leave.thinking of u.(((((((hugs)))))

ugh. insurance. it's so horrible. I hated the not knowing how much longer I had left. Really do make this the last one! I'm tired now and need to sleep. But wanted you to know I'm thinkin of you and hope you're doing ok.

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