I wish that for one whole week, no one made me feel like a failure in lifeI wish that I could stop hurtingI wish that I had somewhere else to goI wish that more people thought I was "too good" for this townI wish that I didn’t go to bed crying everynightI wish home actually felt like homeI wish that my "family" didn’t treat me like one giant inconvenience

I wish someone could save me from this placeI wish the black hole inside me would stop getting bigger

I wish I didn’t have to wear band-aids on my wrists

I wish I wasn’t so emo sometimes

I wish my mom would start sticking up for us, instead of always taking his side

I wish people weren’t so blind to the problems in front of them

I wish I didn’t always feel so alone

I wish I could have more days like Monday January 23 and Tuesday January 24

I wish more people cared about how I felt

I wish I could go to bed

I WISH MY STEPDAD WOULD STOP BEING SUCK A COCKSUCKER

I wish people weren’t so selfish

I wish everyone in this goddamn shithole would just FUCK OFF and stop bringing me down everyday

I wish my stepdad would stop crushing my dreams

I wish everyone would stop telling me I’m going to fail in life

I wish people would get my side of the story before they start mocking me and calling me a fucking idiot

tell you what.
i think your going to be a great writer.
i think you are to good for that town.
i think your stepdad is an asshole.
i think more potential then he ever did and he simple can\’t deal with it.
i think your mom probably cares but is just scared.
i think somday you will stop hurting.
i think when you like here you will have fun and feel at home.
i wish you would stop cutting and call me instead. or anything. because if you cut i feel like shit and feel like i havent done enough. and if i havent tell me i\’m here.
i think we are all a lil emo somtimes.

Sometimes I think people are too nice to me. Seriously Jesse, I didn\’t know that it made you feel so bad. I\’m sorry. Sometimes I don\’t realize how my actions affect my friends. Those are very nice things you said about me and they almost made me cry. Next time, I will call you. I think it will hurt a lot less and be a lot more fun. And don\’t ever think you aren\’t doing enough because you are. I just don\’t know how to show it that well.