so, i made it home...i imagine you figured that out by now, since it's been over 3 months.wow.so much, SO much, has happened, and so little as well.i'm still living with the fam. still looking for a job. going to lots of weddings, but not married yet. working on starting seminary in the spring. in some ways it seems like not much is going on, and i usually don't have a real solid answer for "what do you do everyday?"but in other ways, amazing things are happening. culture shock hasn't been horrible, but i do feel like my heart and spiritual eyes have just been totally shocked open to God and His amazingness in ways i hadn't imagined before. i'm loving seeking Him and seeking to help others, well, seek Him. following His lead. seeing my short comings, and not totally freaking out about them. having real conversations about hard things with people i love dearly. delighting in the depth and simplicity of community. strategizing passionately and obsessively. reading good books. not blogging or catching up on email. dreaming about what big things God could possibly have in store for me and the friends He's been bringing into my life. thinking about looking for a job, but wrestling with my fears about the big "WHAT'S NEXT?" learning to be an american girl in america again. missing india.missing india...and learning to live with that...sort of. it just doesn't go away.ah, i have so much more to say but it's quite late and i actually do have something to do in the morning. but maybe this will be a start to more frequent blogging, or maybe i'll be back in about 3 months...i'm not going to wrestle with pictures here, but to see some more of what i've been up to, for all of you that are desperately curious, you can check out the myspace for our young adults group at church (this is where my heart is, at least a big part of it, right now). www.myspace.com/thegapatfbci'll end with a song that's been playing in my mind and heart and computer nonstop lately:

Praise and Adore (some live without it) by Wavorlywww.myspace.com/wavorly

What I have to say is obviousA knowledge free, for all of us areYour Word leaves us with no excuseThe paths we choose make us who we areThere’s a breeze blowing through here tonight

So I praise and adore YouLay it all down before YouIn every way You’re beautifulFrom my heartI praise and adoreYou made the world beautifulI cannot stand and denyYou created lifeAnd some live without it

Wake up morning sunrise in my eyesAt night the moon lights all the sky(Still some say You didn’t do a thing)The sound of hope that’s in the airIn everything, it’s everywhere(Reveals a truth that’s worth remembering)There’s a breeze blowing through here tonight