how old?

how old were you when you first had suicidal thoughts. i think i was in kindergarten or first grade. it wasn't from any particular event that triggered this thought, but i conscious decision that if anything ever happened to my mom, that i'd just kill myself.

18, the day before I started college, right when I joined this forum. Its strange, the cause for my depression mainly is because I am inferior to everyone, behind everyone, so abnormal. I've been this way for basically my whole life so why did I only start to feel really depressed and suicidal when I turned 18? :unsure:

I've had strange crying fits and moodiness for as long as I could remember, but things changed when I was 16. I had a huge crush on a girl in one of my classes but my school reputation was pretty awful at that point so I was too scared to talk to her. No matter how many times I turn it over in my head I still hate myself and have never forgiven myself.

13. i remember it very clearly. i was walking along the beach. my dad had been yelling at me over something, yelling and throwing shit around. i left and as i walked i thought "you don't have to suffer this abuse anymore, you can just kill yourself and be done with all this shit..."