msn
(Insanity #560)

whenever im on the computer i have to have msn running, even if im not going to talk to anyone. i like looking at whose online because i like feeling like i know where people are at any point in time. i have to go on everyday because when im not on i feel completly disconnected fom everyone i know and it weirds me out.

i also have to keep checking to see if people i usually talk to have signed on and i didnt notice and everytime somebody signs on i get a rush of butterflies incase its my boyfriend.

it sounds completly nerdy and retarded but i actually rely on it. lmfao.