Month: April 2008

This past weekend we had some beautiful weather. Both Saturday and Sunday were sunny and sort of warm. No need for a jacket. I tried to spend a lot of time outside putzing around the yard, picking up twigs and stuff. Hubby was busy working on other projects, so i had quite a bit of time to spend reflecting on my life while i worked. the conclusion, of course, is that there’s something missing. we built this beautiful house with lots of room for lots of kids. we have the right jobs, the right vehicles. there’s just one thing missing: the kids.

i desperately want to start a family. there’s just a few things that stand in my way. obstacle #1: my weight. although not morbidly obese, the extra cushion around my mid-section is compounding my hormone problem. i need to stick to my plan. sometimes it’s hard, but i need to keep the end goal in mind. obstacle #2: finances. well, this is a work in progress. and for the record, we have made a lot of progress. but, we still have a long way to go. by this december, we should be well on our way. and 2.25 years from now we will have our credit cards paid off. that will be a glorious day!!!

well, now that the weather is starting to get nice outside maybe i can add a short walk (or run!) to my fitness routine. i seem to have plateaued, which is really sad because i’ve only lost less than 10 lbs. what’s worse is that it’s weigh day again this saturday! Yikes!

So i’ve been doing low-carb for about 6 weeks or so pretty religiously. Well, up until about a week ago. I don’t know what happened. i splurged on one dinner. a spoiled dinner spilled over into breakfast the next morning and so on. UGH!!! Why can’t i just be good? WHY can’t i stick to it!? It’s really not that hard. Eat things with less than 5 carbs each. duhhhhhhhhh……………………

i was brave enough to weigh myself yesterday. only gained 1.5lbs back. no need to panic. just get back on track and continue on the journey, right? no big deal, right? have i mentioned that i’m an emotional eater? this week has been extremely stressful at work. i also haven’t done my taxes yet. yup, just finished compiling the stuff sunday night. spring is approaching way too fast, there is a ton of stuff i need to do for the lawn biz. our network has completely crashed at work. the weather has caused our internet to flicker on and off………………

sometimes, a small bowl of ice cream solves all the world’s problems – if only for a few precious minutes. it’s not like i do it everyday. why should i have to be punished so severely with all this extra weight??????????????