Life’s enrichment

the action of improving or enhancing the quality or value of something.

“enrichment of the soil for more plant growth”✨
Sitting at the kitchen table I start to ponder on a thought. Why can’t I access visions or dreams that I felt like were promised to me previously. During this process of enlightenment I couldn’t connect to anything material. In anyway. Nothing.

The things I hold connections to are within. Feelings and emotions. Intuitive. As if I’m only used as a vessel. Someone to cypher information out of. The word used, pains me. I’m thankful that I found peace to substain my life but I think now I’m looking to enrich my life. My soul is running on easy. Once again I’m on autopilot. Scary. Now don’t get me wrong. It’s hard as hell to get to the peaceful place where depression subsides and calm resides. But now that I’m here the quest for what’s next pushes me out of the need for a comfort zone.

Planting the seed for growth. I don’t have a need for certain things. I don’t have a strong enough attachment to anything tangible. So much so that my path to greatness will always take a little longer than others. I’m fine with that. It actually helps me divert from the perils of negativity. What it doesn’t help me do is reach past my destiny. It almost makes it completely clear. A straight path to life. My road map is a cake walk as long as I stay on the path. Now who wouldn’t want that?

This guy.

Obviously because once again here I go questioning the things that no longer need answers unless the answers aren’t what I want to see. I’m debating on whether I’m obedient enough to stand firm. Not to be wayward.

Wayward sends me out of the box throws caution to the wind and has the chance to crash down my mirror image. May send me on a dead end mission just to end up at square on….again.

Am I willing to risk it? How much as I willing to lose? I’ve already lost everything just to start becoming stable again.

I’m going to keep pondering. I’m absolutely not going to jump off course now and take a gamble with my life. I’m just trying to figure out why the urge to do so is even there?

I may try to open my mindset to dreams that are a little bigger than my normal self. I may open the box and peek out look around and see if there anything more to be. Open my heart and soul to risk a little bit more. I’ll stay cautious on the way. But for today I’ll start preparing for this life to be it’s same beautiful self. Listen to the universal song of love and be grateful that I’m alive to see it.
C.L Cunningham