How social media is changing the way we grieve

Facebook suggests I start a game of Words With Friends with my dead grandma. The site also reminds me to wish a close friend happy birthday, even though to me she is always a month shy of her 21st. Social media ghosts are everywhere.

When my mom was lowered into the ground, I buried the memories. My dad moved me and my siblings from our small town in Indiana to Indianapolis just a month after she passed away. I started high school in a placewhere no one knew me. I reinvented myself, and since no one knew about my loss, I started to pretend it never happened. But this was only a year after MySpace launched and a couple years before Facebook became open to the general public. Now, when we lose our loved ones,it’s no longer so easy to bury the memories.

In some ways, that’s a good thing. Dr. Pamela Rutledge, director of the Media Psychology Research Center, suggests that in order to process grief positively, we have to make new meaning of it.

“One of the ways people have done that traditionally is throughjournaling or painting, but journaling specifically,” she says. “Social media allows you to perform a similar event to journaling. It allows you to express those feelings, and it allows other people to validate those feelings, which facilitates your ability to make positive meaning out of it.”

Although my first instinct after the loss of my mom wasn’t to spend time with (or share) my feelings, I’ve since written about her on various social media sites, and always receive an outpouring of support from people near and far. Jeanne Atkinson, hospice bereavement coordinator at Mayo Clinic Health System in Mankato, Minnesota, notes that the immediate support that social media provides is another positive impact on the way we grieve.

“It [social media] allows for more public mourning and broader support from people. It’s not just your close friends that are nearby, but those friends you have in your extended life. That supportreduces isolation.”

While that may be true, sometimes I feel like social media has added a sixth stage of grief—guilt. On the anniversary of a death or a loved one’s birthday, I see the posts roll in. From friends updating their statuses to writing on the wall of the deceased, I wonder if I am a less thoughtful daughter/friend/niece/granddaughter for not posting something? I tend to be a private person on social media, and I also worry about looking like I’m fishing for sympathy if I do choose to participate.

Although we can’t help but care how our actions (and heartfelt expressions) will be received, we shouldn’t feel guilty about the ways in which we choose to share (and not share) our grief.

What if I do decide to grieve publicly? I often wonder if the people who regularly use social media as an outlet for grieving have difficulty reaching acceptance?

Atkinson says she actually sees it as a benefit. “You don’t have to forget that person or move on. I think it’s healthy to carry on a different kind of relationship, and by doing that, it can help us move forward in our grieving process. Expressing feelings can help lead to acceptance.” She also notes that in the case when someone is really feeling stuck or depressed, they may need to seek professional help.

In the end, social media hasn’t changed our grieving process as much as it’s given us new channels to express (and share) our grief, and each of us will approach that grief differently.

“Assess your level of need, because there are times when just sitting by yourself won’t do it,” Rutledge says. “Sometimes you even need professional help, but I think one of the lessons of meditation is to really listen to yourself, and that’s where deciding how you need to grieve can be a product of sitting quietly and listening to your own needs.”

It’s a work in progress for me, but I’m slowly learning to lean on my social media network as one of the many avenues for ongoing grief-related support without worrying about what my friends, acquaintances, or followers might think.

The author of this post is an editorial contributor to Headspace. These are their views, experiences and results and theirs alone. This contributor was paid for their writing.

Stephanie is a freelance writer and editor living in Mankato, Minnesota, with her husband, two cats, and two rabbits. She enjoys drinking craft beer, reading and binge watching way too many TV shows. Find her on Twitter @SKFigy.