Beauty is all in the mind

Sunday, March 2, 2008

So alot has changed in my life since October. I am a year older, and much wiser. I am deeply in love with my boyfriend Rob, and I am graduating from college in just 2 days. Big, big changes are just around the corner so I have recently bee preparing myself for those.

I will be moving to Tiffin at the end of next month to start the next chapter in my life. I am very excited about that. I am also about to start a new job in a Pediatrics office on MUO's main campus. I love children so it makes me happy to be able to take care of them.

My mua stuff has really taken off this year. I am the official make-up artist for both Pin-up Apocalypse, and also the upcoming film Prey to God. I am excited about being part of both of these awesome projects. I have also been accepted to be a MUA at fetish weekend in Montreal in late August. It was a blast there last year, and I am sure this year will be the same. I would highly reccomend to anyone that can make it up there to go. It is definetly worth the trip.

In my modeling life it has been a little slow as of lately. Actually up untill x-mas time I hadn't shot at all since July. But that was by choice. Just didn't feel very creative at the time. I did attend a group shoot at the beginning of Feb., although I am stilll waiting on almost all of my pictures. Photographers are definetly not being quick this time around. I certainly hope they are good pictures. I only say this because I did get a set back from a photographer that I am normally very happy with and I am unimpressed this time around. The normal energy that is there just wasn't and it really made a big difference in the end product. I thought that by going to the studio it would make a difference, but it didn't.

The couple of pictures that I haver seen from my group shoot from the always wonderfull Gary M are breathtaking as always. He is awesome. I am hoping to get more from that shoot this weekend.

I think that is all for now. I will post more pictures as they are given to me.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

So i know that I havent written in my blog for a long time. I am a real slacker when it comes to this however some wonderfull things have happened to me during the time that I have not been writting.

First I am completely in love. I have finally found dthe one person who seems to complete me. He is wonderfull. I want to spend the rest of my life with him, and with any luck this will be so. I am hoping to be able to buy a house together within the next year or so.

I am almost done with school. I only have a little over 3 months to go including my externship. That makes me very excited also.

I havent been doing a whole lot of shooting I sorry to say. Between finishing my degree, and spending time with the boy as well as normal life things I just havent had the time. I do have a shoot or two lined up soon however. I know one of them will include my boy I want some good pictures of us together.

Currently I am sick and I am hoping that I am well enough tomarrow evening to go to the bar. It is halloween and it is IGUN so it is extra special.

My birthday was last week, and it was awsome. I had a lot to drink and lots of friends to celebrate with. Rob got me the Necrnomicon book by Giger for my birthday it is amazing just like him.

Ok well I am just rambling now so I will update again once I get pictures.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

So this past weekend was a blast! Went down to Columbus for the House of Nightmares shoot. Yay for full days, of shooting am makeup goodness. I got to shoot with a a couple of new people as well as some old time favorites. All in all it was a very productive day.

Monday, July 16, 2007

So I finally went and watched Michael Moore's new movie Sicko. It was a very good movie. A very eye opening movie to many things I already new, beings that I am a medical major, but they are just things that I dont like to think about all the time. One of these such things is the network business. I know from studying this crap that insurance companys change who is in their network quite often and often times leaves the patients who need those doctors that were outed high and dry.

I know this all too well, because it happened to me today when I went to go to my surgeons office to schedule my next surgery and was told he is no longer in my network of covered doctors. Now what does this mean for me. Well it means that I have two options either A. go to another surgeon who has never worked on my face before and hope he/she does it right, or B. pay $65,00o or more out of pocket to go to my surgeon who has done the first 5 surgeries on my face. It is a rather sucky situation to say the least, and I am going with option A because well I am poor and because my surgeon will be present when the new guy does the surgery, because he is one of his partners.

What does all of this have to do with my modeling, well as most of my photographers need to have my face in a shot it is important that I keep up on it when it is needed. And unfortunately that means coming up probably in September I will have surgery and probably wont shoot for like 6-8 weeks to allow for healing time.

One good thing happened though today! I got some beautiful pictures back from Gary of myself and my best friend Ayden. The pictures just took my breath away. I love them so i would like to share them with you.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

So this past weekend I went down to Dayton to work with Dave L. He is wonderful! And i must say for my first outdoor nudes I am very happy with the results. We went to two different locations to shoot. Both were just breathtaking. Definetly nothing like that up here is Northern Ohio.

Well Not much time to write but I did want to share a couple of my favorites from that shoot!

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

So on Saturday as I said my last post I had a blast, hung out to many people that I hold near and dear to me, as well as got the chance to work with many very talented models and photographers.I really did have a great time. Then on Sunday came home, and did the Sunday thing. (Layed around, ate some food, cleaned the house, etc.) So this week's project was the basement. We did get it all finished as far as going through the crap that was no longer needed. However during that process I found pictures from my first surgery that made me sick instantly. There are just somethings that have happened to me that I just havent been able to deal with yet. And that is one of them.It is kind of like haveing a monster that likes in your mind, always waiting to step foward out of the shadows and pounce on you when you are weak. I hate the way I feel when I think about those weeks leading up to and directly after that surgery. Talk about a mindf*ck in a handbasket.

The pictures that I took with dark angel kind of made me think about that monster that lives inside of me so here are a couple from that set.

This weekend was a lot of fun! I got to work with alot of photographers that I have worked with in the past, as well as a few that I have not. All in all I think that this group shoot may have been the best one for me yet!

I would first like to start by saying thank you to all the photographers that I did get a chance to work with. I am sure that we made some great images this weekend. I have started to get some of the images back, and I must say the pictures that were taken with Ayden ( my best friend are my favorite so far). There are two sets. One by submissive tales, where we role played dom/sub, and for once I got to be me and play the sub.

The second with the wonderfull Gary M, where she did her first nude set. Turns out she is awesome at it. I hope she keeps it up. The photos that we have gotten back from gary are simply breathtaking. I am actually going to put all my favorite pictures by gary in a book soon. He has taken so many wonderful pictures of me that I would like to showcase them a little more.

So there you have it here are a few of my favorites that I have received from this weekend.I will have many more coming in soon, as well as having 2 more shootings later this week, and possibly one this evening.