I can’t sleep, so I draw (my first attempt after years)

I love art, that’s why I didn’t draw. I rarely doodle because I know my ability to ruining art is awesome, I never have confidence in my drawing, I was humiliated by my art teacher in high school because of my drawing, so it’s pretty much sums up why I never draw for years.

But last night I can’t sleep, and I don’t know why I want to draw something, randomly. From around 1 a.m to 2a.m I draw like 5 pictures, published 3 of them in Facebook and Path.

This is my first drawing, doodled for 15 minutes.

You see, it’s very rusty and my ability in proportion is bad. The fingers looks weird. But hell, I continue to draw another picture but decided to not published it, it tooks around 5 minutes only:

I was planned to draw a child, at least happy child in the swing, but then I don’t know why I draw longer hair and I got scared. LOL. So I scrap this, doodled for another 15 minutes and got this:

I thought I’m going to draw sexy girl with opened mouth and messy hair, but it turned like a girl who haven’t bathe for days and having a bad mood. The eye is weird, the position of the lips is wrong, I realized that besides proportion, I need to learn how to sketch first so everything won’t look weird.

After trying (and failed) to draw fingers and face, I tried to draw a body, it took another 10 or 15 minutes, it’s so bad so I didn’t published it:

I lost it at the other leg, I pretty much like the right leg though. LOL. But suddenly forget ho to draw the left one, also the position on the right hand was wrong, or the buttocks. I gave up and scrap this to draw this last one:

I think I’m getting obsessed with sitting position, after two attempts and failed. This tooks me much longer time than others because the masks, maybe 20 or 25 minutes. I finally getting sleepy after drawing this and so I’m getting lazy to draw all masks. So pardon me that all of the masks shape is weird. I also notice the fingers (again!) is weird, knee proportions is worse and the position of body is not how it supposed to in my head.

But hey, it’s midnight, I can’t sleep and heck, I never draw in years. All of my drawing are using standard pen (those cheap tecno AE-7) and Red Zebra Name Pen. (notice that these aren’t drawing pens but online ordinary office tools?)