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Hi everyone,
my heart is shattered in millions of piece, the problem is that I think its always been like this. My significant other has a emotional relationship with someone he met on a dating site. This isnt the first time hes done this. I have caught him many times before. But this time is different. He calls this woman every morning on his way to work for about 74 mins. On his way home, and everytime hes out. I found out thru our phone records. I never check them but I did this time, and I found her number and more info. I've always been afraid of going thru his phone, Im afraid of finding out how foolish I've been all these years, and what makes me feel even worst, Im expecting. It was a completely planned baby, and it hurts me to know Im in this position, I dont know if hes taking advantage of it, or what. He has been very verbal about not ending this "friendship" and Im at lost for any words. I cry constantly, Ive gone as far as asking God to take this child from me. I dont want him to suffer along with me. I know thats selfish of me, and No i would never hurt my baby, but its so painful to lay in bed next to someone who I envisioned my whole life with. He is my everything. I have gone above and beyond for this man. And all i get is the left overs of his time. I want to stop loving him so bad. I wish i could look at him without having any feelings for him.
I have no one to talk to, Im afraid of judgment.
Please forgive me if i dont make any sense my toughts are all over the place.

[This message edited by onelove27 at 2:31 PM, August 16th (Friday)]

Posts: 8 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: California

nekorb♀ 40306Member # 40306

Posted: 1:52 PM, August 16th (Friday), 2013

((Hugs))

I'm so sorry.

Me: BS 44; Him: WH 47 aka CAT- colossal asshat; Married 22 years
D-day: July 17, 2013, with TT to follow
D filed July 16, 2014, 363 days later than I should have
Psalms 27:14
Wait for The Lord; be strong and take heart. Wait for the Lord.

Posts: 1839 | Registered: Aug 2013

PrincessPeach06♀ 39588Member # 39588

Posted: 2:10 PM, August 16th (Friday), 2013

My goodness your story sounds almost exactly like mine 5 years ago except I had just given birth to my 6th baby!!!

I wish I had found this site back then because i did everything wrong. I went as far as becoming friends with my H's "friend" which was all a stupid ploy once I found the hundreds of text messages and calls. It took us moving away and changing his cell number but we NEVER dealt with it and he wasn't sorry and didn't change. Look where it got me 5 years later.

My advice is to read as much as you can in the healing library and take care of yourself and that sweet innocent baby growing inside of you. These sweet babies are SUCH blessings and miracles and deserve a happy healthy mommy!!!!!!!