He is here...

Ok, so now for the last couple of days either just before I go to bed or right when I wake up I find myself saying "He is here." I have no idea
where this comes from. I literally find myself astonished that I am even saying this. I have no idea why it pops out. Today I found myself saying
it again in the middle of the day.

I have often woke up saying things that I have no idea why. Each time I cannot recall why and it seems to never associate with whatever dream I was
having. I even woke up one day saying "Ravel is dead." When this happened I was literally crushed all day as if in mourning. All day I kept
asking was why would they tell me that? But I have no idea who "they" are. Ravel, so that you know, is a fictional character in rough draft of a
book.

I had a dream once this chick from Doctor Who got stabbed in the back, I'd never thought twice about the lady until witnessing her murder in a dream,
depressed me all day.

I used to have a "he is here" ...thought, yes it would be a thought.
While dreaming, for years I was harassed by this "he is here", and it would scare the living shtuff out of me. As my age progressed so did the
violence associated with this dream construct, "he" was out to kill me. Yet in my dreams we tried to rehabilitate him..weird.

Well anyway, many years later when I was very active in the occult arts, "he" returned.
Only this time his image was extremely clear, "he" had a face I could recognize, it was the logo I signed my own name with for the previous four
years.

In this particular dream I woke up in fear, ran around the house turning on all the lights, only for them to go out and and for "he" to pop into my
face and scare me into real awakeness.

Finally conscious, I decided it was time to face this fear, so I walked around the house with no lights, this is a big deal, as at age ten this thing
practically crippled me in the dark.

Having faced that part of the fear, I sat down and had a nice long conversation with myself about what this was. In that reflective monologue, I
realize "he" was me.

And its apparent attempt to destroy me could then readily be seen as all the dumb things I'd done that almost ended my life, and the potential for my
adult self to easily fall into self destructive cycles...no matter how mature I got.

"He" returns from time to time in a dream, slams me around a room, and I quickly realize that its a manifestation of fear that I've lost control
over my life...like my wife deciding to buy a house was the last occurance, I had no say in the matter...well whatever I said wasn't heard.

So sit down and write a letter to yourself, see what you find out about "him".
Maybe the "he" is you and you two need to be one.

People making claims like this only make me become a greater Skeptic, he is here ????? well I guess conspiracies are like Hollywood in that eventually
nothing new will come out of it. Im not entirely sure but 15 years ago I watched a movie were the actors went around whispering "he is here" and Im
pretty confident it was a John Carpenter movie.

Ok - now that is odd. The Ravel is dead happened in August 2004. While the date of Maurice Ravel's death means nothing to me where he lived does.
At the time I called a friend in Cologne Germany to tell him what I had woke up saying that day and he asked me where I thought Ravel would be. I
immediately said Paris or somewhere near there. He asked me how I could I know that if the character is fictional and I told him I do not know. The
really odd thing is I was so drawn to buy a piano I finally did in January 2006. I had never heard of Maurice Ravel until you posted that. Very
strange.

Recently I was listening to Barbara Maraniok. She stated in one of her tapes that you must embrace both the good and bad in yourself. You have to
accept the darker part of yourself or it could destroy you.

Your words ring very true to hers and lately that is exactly what I have been doing. Trying to accept the darker side of myself. I have always been
interested in the occult and have many books on the subject. But I have also been very interested in religion and have studied about 8 different
theologies to date. But the more I read on both the more I find the two are intertwined.

All religion relates in some way or has origins in the mystic occult. I have yet to find one that is truly devoid of occult affiliation at some point
in history.

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