Saturday, December 21, 2013

Was at Emma's house for her engagement with her beau. You surely pretty much do not have any idea on how happy my friends and i to witness her engagement. It is not just a ceremony but a one level up before getting married. Sobs. Nasib la tak touching....si Ema tu asik gelak je...cemana nak touching. Truly happy for her. She took quite a long time to open up her heart to someone else. Finally! Alhamdulillah.

Well...thats not the main point here. Not just yet. Just now, when i was making my way to her house with me carrying a hot lasagna and my wallet, Emma passed a bomb to me. Yeah, a bomb! Dia pass baby kecik kat aku. What was on her mind? Baby and me? Hurmmmm.

So i sat on the couch with the baby lazily sitting on my lap. Hmmph! Nasib tak menangis. So while sitting on the couch, i happily chit chatting with the gurls. Ye la....lama tak catch up. When suddenly, that baby barfed on my sleeves. I repeat, she barfed. I know la sikit...tp muntah susu kut. I seeked help from my girls and you know what happened? Emma, pro long her tele-conversation with her fiance sambil jeling jeling. Shiela,just look and smile at me. Yamie, a mother of one son, said "Nanti..nanti..." sambil tangan dia raba-raba beg. So i tot she wanted to pass me a tissue ke....macam sweet lah kan..guess what? Dia cakap "Mana boleh miss moment ni. Bukan selalu" sambil tangan dia keluarkan hp and snap my photo and laughed. Oh ya, Shiela pun sambung.. "Once in a bluemoon kak nina...". Besties katanyer...Itulah besties aku. T_T

Gambar? Mimpilah. Memang takkan la letak kat sini. No No No.

Oklah. Thats about it only. Short but "sweet". Next time...please! Please dont pass your baby to me before she burp. Ok?

Monday, December 16, 2013

Been thinking hard on what actually happened on last weekend. I was coughing quite bad and had no choice but to wake up. It was 6.00am in the morning, i remember. In the dark, my hand started searching for my meds supply. Then i coughed again. I coughed about 3 times and stop. When suddenly i heard the 4th cough. It wasnt me! It wasn't my sister either! Gulp!

There was no one else in the room except for my sister and me, of course. If it was not us, then who was coughing at that time?

Thursday, December 5, 2013

It has been a while since i last posted my entry. It has been a journey to find back my lost soul in writing and almost everything. Everything seems to be in a mess before and i just couldn't clean those mess.....alone. Yet, the mess is still there, some of it, part of it. In the same time, i have another mess waiting to be cleaned up. A new one. Duh!

With some left over strength, i try hard to mend the broken pieces of my heart. I try hard. I really try hard.

I do really really try hard.

Talking about heart matters, i have rest my case. I leave it to God. He is my best friend now, He is my crying shoulder, He is the one i pour my heart out. My sadness will make me near to Him. I know, i have long forgotten about Him but He is always there for me. Always.

Just to let you know, im in the midst of not contacting someone whom has been quite vulnerable to my heart, lately. I am sorry, candy. There is a reason of me doing that. It may sounds silly but i don't wanna act silly in front of you. My confidence, my strength is wearing thin but not my feeling towards you. Please remember that."Whenever im with you (virtually), my heart skips a beat."Yours Truly.