Tag: desires

Longing for a thing will only come to an end when we finally understand that the ‘Thing’ is neither us nor it is going to last forever. That ‘Thing’ can be our body, our people, our wealth, or whatever vapid that we are pining for.

Until this gets into our head, neither will the longing stop nor the desire to amass things will end. We can talk and write infinite things around it, but we can never put a step further from where we stand.

Worry Not, for the mind can still operate without attributing ‘IT’ to be whatever it has been falsely taught it is. In fact, it can guide us better when ‘IT’ realizes that it is not the one who is performing the feats. Really. You have to experience that to believe it.

The problem with us is that we keep running as if there is a finish line. But do we see one? Has anyone who ran before us seen it? Nevertheless, we keep running and panting till we crash.

With racing, we conveniently stopped thinking and thereby adding layers of personalities around one poor mind. It now carries a lot of baggage of varied characteristics that not only commands its attention but also consumes its energy while protecting them.

But what if we could take a moment and think whether we are as complex as we made ourselves to be. Is there another way of running the race? or Are we really in a race?

Why do I not see a finish line? What am I running for? How much ever I run and whatever trophies I had won, had it made me happy? Has that happiness lasted?

I think sometimes it is better to stop and ask these. We are so consumed in this run, that at times we end up destroying others dreams on the way. All because of our wrong identifications and blindly conforming to whatever we were told.

It is really something that we should ponder upon.

And, an interesting chapter in Gita on the same subject:

śhrī-bhagavān uvācha

Idaṁ śharīraṁ kaunteya kṣhetram ity abhidhīyate

etad yo vetti taṁ prāhuḥ kṣhetra-jña iti tad-vidaḥ//B.G 13.2

O Arjuna, this body is termed as kṣhetra (the field of activities), and the one who knows this body is called kṣhetrajña (the knower of the field) by the sages who discern the truth about both.

The ‘Atman’ is like an operating system/Electricity/Space/Water- boring by itself. Am I boring?

These questions appear in anybody who is really interested. There is nothing wrong in probing and no God would be disappointed if questioned. Krishna himself answered numerous questions and he might not be here in person but we are a part of that Infinite reality. So, don’t be hesitant.

Our scriptures do not ask for conformity but they want us to challenge it. They are not asking us to follow a God, per se but they are reminding us that we are God ourselves(Aham Brahmasmi-I am the Infinite Reality).

God in this culture is not greedy or infatuated. He is not a punisher or a slayer or a dictator but Ishvara is the provider, friend, witness, teacher, guardian, wisdom and the supreme goal.(9.18). We are born into this and it doesn’t deem right to flock like herds in fear of some God.

We are a part of him(15.17). It is not just about scriptures telling this; don’t we get that feeling that we’re being served our past lifetimes on a platter? Do we quietly eat up and continue making more such impressions? Or do we dig past those impressions to find our self?

Everything here is pointing us to our limitless nature. From where does this insatiable desire for things come from? It is unquenchable- how much ever we get we still need more & more. We are always seeking something limitless-be that be the material desires or for immortality or liberation. What does this longing for Infinite limitless experience mean?

Does any of the dualities have boundaries? Love, hatred; happiness, sorrow; loss, gain

We met, we fell in love but our relationship suffered a setback due to my association with the senses. Then I broke up and then we made up and I broke up with the Self again. That’s all I do, and I feel guilty but it continues even today.

We are falling in and out of love as I am unable to renounce the joy that the senses provide. Though I do not want to commit adultery and quite blissful in the relationship I share with Self yet the sense longings follows me like my shadow.

These longings failed me every time besides catching up with it tired the body and drove me to the point of exhaustion. However, I restrain and practice self-control, the turbulent senses carry me forcibly into the world of desires. Here I am, struggling to find my way out and longing to be back in the safe arms of the Self and promising never to commit infelicity again.

Then I asked myself: why do I put up with this pain and strain when I have attained peace within? What, exactly, am I lacking that stops me from ending this toxic relationship with the five senses?

I told myself that I have to choose between pain and joy and that’s when I realised what I lacked. I lacked faith and loyalty as I let myself brood over the worldly imperfections. Also, I never restrain myself enough as I took advantage of the temporary fallout and played victim each time. But, alas, after aeons of infidelity, neither the senses experienced fulfilment nor I could establish an honest relationship with my Self. So I am back to square one again..

Guess this would be the confession of the Mind which failed to permanently establish in the Self.