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Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Hi, currently I am a new postgrad student in UPM (UNIVERSITI PUTRA MALAYSIA). In this short post I will list the step taken to apply and register for the course that you are interested in. I am doing coursework so my step is more towards this path.

First of all, what you need to have is the degree or the bachelor. It doesn't matter if you didn't yet finish your study as long as you are in the final semester of your bachelor degrees you can already start APPLYING FOR IT.
Normally, at the end of the final semester the universities will start doing its marketing on their postgraduate courses. If you are free and have time for this, PLEASE GO TO THEIR EVENT, listen to the talk and get a voucher for a free application. Student who apply without the voucher need to pay RM63.60 (AS FOR 2017)

This is a story about love and hope, a family and a
child’s dream and all were shattered into pieces because of just one bad
decision.

3rd
January 2012

That
day, it wasn’t like any other day in Tommy’s life, that day he was going to be
sent into his new school. He is going to be in the secondary level and this had
made him excited. The excitement of being older and nervousness of meeting new
people are all rushes inside him now. Moreover,
he is going to stay farther from his own comfort zone, he is going to stay in
the hostel.

“Are you nervous? I hope
you are okay because believe me this will be fun new experience for you buddy” said the father asking without even
waiting for the answer.

“Yeah, I’m fine. I am just
tired” Tommy lied.

Of course he feels nervous, he wasn’t supposed
to be tired at all but maybe because he’s sweating under his shirt that make
him feels tired. Tommy is a hard boy to love, he doesn’t know how to make
friend but once he loves, he loves with all his heart. He can’t stop thinking
about who is going to be his friend, he doesn’t know how to make first move in
friendship, it feels awkward for him to even start saying “Hi”, but he knew
that he needs to, everyone needs friend, he knew that.

5th March 2012

It
had been 2 months since he first entered the school, a lot of things going by.
He did make friends, but it feels like the friend that he made can just be
consider as ‘passer’,

“Tommy, can you come and
solve the equation?” his teacher called out his name in the
class like usual.

What
is interesting with Tommy is that, he is one of the brilliant boy, he could
almost be considered as the genius in the school, the teachers love him but you
know the rules in school, if the teachers like you meaning that, the students
will hates you not because they hate that you are brilliant, it just that they
felt insecure and jealous toward the love that Tommy get.

And that is what happened to Tommy,
he is hated for that.

But they don’t know that not all teachers love
him, some just treats him as badly as ever.

And what is worst, yet he too is not
being loved for that.

The
school that Tommy is now enroll is not the normal school like other people,
this is a private school, a catholic school on which apart from academic
studies, he too needs to learn and memorize what he learn in his religious
classes. People might see him as smart and genius academically but what they
didn’t see is that he is very bad in another part. He is struggling memorizing
everything, its not that he didn’t try, of course he did and he tried so much
but the thing is we should always know that people are not perfect. They tend
to be good on the other side until we didn’t see that there is also a part of
them that is not perfect. It happened to Tommy but his parents does not
understand that, they doesn’t want to send Tommy to the school of his choice,
they feel like by sending him to this type of school he will learn better and
progress faster than what he did back at the home. As for Tommy, he trust his
parents with his life as much as he loves them with all his heart make he
accept the decision and didn’t say any word to object it. With no one to share
the misery of the heart, he suffered so much. The dream that he had once hold
for so long finally break into pieces one by one.

He’s being bullied physically and
mentally, tortured in the surrounding depressed because of both by his
classmates and the teachers. He didn’t tell this to anyone, nobody would
believe him, he is known as smart and brilliant it would be a shame to admit
that he can’t memorize certain verses correctly and being punished for that. Thinking
of his own parents hope that he would be just fine and successful, how on earth
is he going to break the news to them and then shattered all the dreams that his
parents had build. He won’t do that, at least not now.

4th February 2013

A year
has finally passed, but he still has another 4 years to keep on standing, Tommy
really can’t continue anymore, he’s falling so hard that no one could ever
imagine, once a happy boy and loved by all his family had now becoming so
different. He becomes so quiet and a loner. Tommy already makes a decision. He
had decided about it for so long already, he is going to end everything that
make him suffered.

A night before, Tommy already make
an appointment with Charles, the boy who keeps on bullying him. Charles was a
boy with a tough body, not that brilliant but everybody fierce him, and he have
a group of another tough people consider as his follower which he acted as
their leader. Tommy wanted to discuss with Charles one to one without anyone
else disturbing them about his feeling and that he wants Charles to stop
bullying him and other people because he knew Charles didn’t only bullied him,
he bullied everyone else who looks weak in his eyes.

6th July 2013

“The
court had decided that Thomas Venille Wood is found guilty for killing Charles
Grey on 4th February 2013”

Today,
Tommy smile as he listened to the court, He could still hear Charles voice
shrieking in pain, he had lost his control that day, and he kept stabbing him
without even listening to Charles begging him to stop.

Since the day the accident happened,
he didn’t communicate well with anyone. Tommy stop going to school, he didn’t
talk to anyone not even his parents, he spend most of his time in his room
alone without any disturbance. When the police investigated him and asked him a
lot of questions it seems like only his body was there but his soul was already
dead together with Charles. He can’t feel anything anymore, he didn’t care at
all if his mother cried because of him or his father feels disappointed with
him or not. Down at the corner of the court, he can see his parents weeping
their eyes out but he didn’t feel anything, not sad, not happy, it feels like
he had lost them all. Tommy stood there firmly looking at all of the faces that
once he used to love with all of his heart, now it’s gone and he can’t get it
back.

..............This is a story that had been book-published as one of the compilation of short stories from my classmates.

Thursday, July 13, 2017

Its been YEARS already since I last turn my digital image into paper. Back in the days I used to develop the film at the nearest Photo Shop. This is just to keep it memorable as there is no such things as google drives, digital image or whatsoever during my school time. Ah, I make myself sounds old enough!

To do things online or offline, one always need to check the price and budget. But I didnt go offline checking (Duh, why do you even think i do things online?) , I just compare between the online services in the net and yeah, Pixajoy won the deal as it is more money wise compared to the other sites. - They got promotion's voucher for the first time user: 48 PIECES OF 4R IMAGE + a photo frame FOR ONLY RM8.90-exclude postage

After I finish my registration and checking other promotions which is so easy to do (you can even keep one of
your eyes closed doing this,haha). I decided to try their promotion for 48 pieces of 4R image ( Paper- Art Card 230gsm with Protective Gloss Lamination)

Just to see how things go. First of all, to make things easier, I choose the pictures that I want to print, put it inside one folder and named it. after I am all done with the payment (include postage : RM 18.00), key in all the voucher code, I go to the next step which is to edit my image. They provide their own online editing application in that page. The editing apps is easy to use but sometimes I am having trouble regarding the image ratio as it needs to be in landscape, so when I am having a portrait image the ratio create some glitches. It can be fix, but needs a little bit of patient (If it can't be fixed, I just choose another image hah! I have so many more).

As the service letting us to edit our own image, I can actually put more than 48 in that folder, I edit it to shrink a bit so in one 4R PHOTO it can include 4-5 more pictures, this application also letting us to put wording inside it. This is the things I can't do back in the days of my high school.

anddd, not to worry if you miss to put image inside one of the 4R TEMPLATE, the system will remind you so that you will not receive any empty photo later. Hehe

POST PRODUCTION

Pixajoy is using Skynet as their delivery company. I am at first quite worry because I have never use Skynet in my whole life but it turned out just fine as I received my parcel in just 3 days after I done with all the editing process and confirmed my order (the pictures that I want)

The multifunctional photo frame

You can see example of the photos below, the image is awesome, high quality paper and it turned out just the same as the image we provided the system (meaning that, depending on the original quality, the image you will receive will look exactly like what you give them - What you give, you get back formula)

When I touch the texture of the photo it gave me different vibes compared to the ones I had in the album (old days) but I am guessing this picture will not having any issues such as withered maybe because of the paper types they are using. I feel like it will not stick and peel off to each other thus destroying the photos. I still like the ones I had before but it required more effort to take care of it.(IF I DIDNT WANT TO PUT IN ALBUM and can you sense I cannot move on?)

They also provide service to do Photobook which I think kind of awesome, I will surely try it next time!

Saturday, October 29, 2016

A post dedicated truly for one of the person that give meaning to my life, and I am not saying this person is the only one it just we sometimes got to admit one person can really play an important part in us. for this moment- and since I get close to her.

To my best friend,

First of all, thank you for becoming a friend. I guess I am very lucky to have you as a friend, and moreover to be accepted into your circle of best friend.

Thank you for letting our friendship be known to others.. There is nothing I value more than my relationship with you, and it seems that everyone knows that.Thank you for sticking by my side, even if we don't see each other as much as we did before, and for never forgetting about me. I appreciate that more than you could ever know.Thank you for listening to bad news that I was not supposed to share with anyone, but I still shared with you. Thank you for letting me in your life by making me knows the news about you, all the good and the bad, all things that we didn't really share with other but we share with each other. Thank you for giving me consultation, for making me thinks rationally when I am about to give up. Thank you for understanding that sometimes things are warped in my head, but that I will soon realize how crazy I sound after we have finish our debate.

Thank you for letting me feel like part of your family. I really feels like I'm home when I am at your house, greeted by your mother with a hug, that is just so soothing.

and...

we argue a lot didn't we? all those I hate you and then I love you back moment.

sometimes we argue on things that is so unnecessary, it sucks when I lost moreover when it is about a very small things but I do appreciate all of the arguments because at the end of the day, we talk about it and did not keep quiet on it . Those fights we had making us become closer and make me realize just how much I cherish you.Thank you for fighting with me like a sister or - a mother- . (very childish and very stupid) its how I act sometimes(maybe more) forgetting how blessed I am to be having you as a best friend. Thank you for coping with me all these times.

Thank you for making fun of me, to add up on the fools that I gave myself. Knowing I'll have you on my back about it for a little while, just makes me realize that I gave you something to laugh about. But then again, Thank you for stopping me humiliating myself more by saying that I deserve more than that, to make me believe that I do have something in myself.

Thank you for being my person. my confidante. There is no one on this Earth I connect with more than you, and I will love you as my best friend forever. For all the memories that we shared together, for the memories that we did not share together but for letting me know about it. Thank you.

most of all, Thank you for always telling me the truth even when its hard to accept. Not to lies and not to cover anything. please don't stop telling me the truth, even when I'm denying it because you do know I need to know about it.

There is more, but I think I will stop here first. and uh, one more thing-always remember that you are beautiful in every way you display yourself..inside and out-