Monthly Archives: May 2013

Sometimes I truly wish I lived in Jane Austen times, the Regency Era. It sound like the best place to be. The times were so simple and peaceful, which was really exemplified in Austen’s novel Emma. In Emma, a young lady in a reasonably small town entertains herself by getting into other peoples’ business. Of course trouble ensues, but in the end she learns her lesson. One thing I love about Emma is the society, there is always excitement for some sort of social gathering whether it be a ball or a picnic. There is talk about how one simply must invite them over for tea. This sounds like the perfect time to live in.

I was looking through my closet the other day and I found an old pair of penny loafers. These penny loafers are old, one of the toes is busted, the once shiny copper gloss on the leather is now dull, the shoes are even sticky. they bring back a thousand memories.

One memory was when I was making cherry nut bread with maraschino cherries left over from an ice-cream party. My mom abhors these fire-hydrant red cherries, but I love them. I decided to make this bread, which turned out to be a disaster. I spilled the cherry juice on my shoes and they are now sticky and unwearable.

These memories make me nostalgic of a time when I was more peaceful. I didn’t suffer from insomnia and spend my nights worrying about various different problems in my life. I would sit by the record player listening to Cher, imagining I lived with the Brady Bunch Family. Now, everything has changed. In the space of a year I have changed so much. Though I wish i could still live in the fantasy land of childhood, I realize I have responsibility now and I have become a better person because of that.

But one thing still stumps me, how did all this change so fast? Was it the gum on the street? The first time I read The Red Pony? Or was it the meaningful friendships I have forged? I really don’t know, but I hope that through all of this growth that I will stay the same girl in the about section

The song Forever Young by Bob Dylan is very heart warming for me. Since I am really just trying to find my place, this song means a lot to me. Forever Young seems to say what everyone always wishes for their children, to have their wishes come true, to be good to others, and to be kind and loving.

The quote I have from the song really speaks to me, of course I know to do for others, but it’s harder accepting kindness from other people. When someone does something for you willingly like lending you money it really warms your heart while at the same time you feel mad because they are seeing your weakness. But remember the quote…

Experiences that change your life can be anything. If, like me, it was a split second of time that’s slowly fading away in your memory, then you want to cherish it. As if you put it in a glass bottle and sent it out into the ocean of your mind. For you don’t need the memory anymore, you just need the impact it had on you.

Well, I had one of those experiences that I feel I need to share. I have kept it inside of me and i think that I am finally ready to put it in a bottle. Let me tell you: I was in the car, never mind where I was going. But I was in the passenger seat and I was looking out the window. I saw a man take a piece of gum out of the container and throw the empty container on the ground. Not sure at what I had seen, I looked out the window to check if he had really just tossed it on the ground. To my dismay, he saw me and I quickly looked away. Some moments later I looked back at him, he gestured to me, showing that he had picked up the container. We drove away.

As always I have my list of summer reading that is completely overkill. I set a goal to read all my books, though I rarely ever finish all of them (especially last year’s list of 42.) My list this year is a little more reasonable: only 27 books.