Letter To My Younger Self

I wrote this gem of a letter to myself when I was 28. I re-read it this week at 32 and I found it beautiful to remind myself. While I’ve made leaps and bounds in aspects of my person, some of these tendencies still remain feistily intact. So I wanted to share this with you in hopes that you will write a letter to your younger self and then open it up to read it 4 years later. What is one important thing you would tell yourself?? (And, the better questions – Do you still do this now against your best interest?)

Enjoy…

Dearest Christina,

Relax.Everything you dream and desire, and then some, will come true when it’s suppose to.Not at the exact time you expect it, or want it, because you love to be ten steps ahead of yourself. This is a blessing and a curse all at once.Let yourself to be beautifully surprised as opportunities reveal themselves to you at their own pace.No need to squander your endless ambition, but aim high with a patience and an absolute relish for the present. You’ll want to get that job a year before, you’ll want that role a season beforehand, and a family for yourself while you are still performing. Each experience is beautiful in its own right, no need to rush the process.You’ll get there girl!Just trust your instinctive ambition and your positive daily intentions and actions and then let it go and enjoy.Those daily baby steps in the right direction, no matter how small, are enough to get you where you want to go.Please don’t rush the process.Don’t feel guilty about taking time for yourself.It’s necessary and allows you to clear your mind.It is not time wasted.

Don’t fret about money.You’ll pay you’re bills and quickly forget about last months struggles, until you get stressed the following month.You paid them before, you’ll pay them again, and you can do so without the whining.Look into your finances without a furrowed brow and a whine, or perhaps just a glass instead.Understand where your money is going without overly concerning yourself with your less than ideal dancer-paycheck.Your desire for a “real” job is strictly stemming from a desire to assimilate with consumeristic culture and grant yourself luxuries that are by no means requirements.And it’s a simple math equation.Do the math.

You have one body.It is a lot more beautiful and capable than you like to give it credit for.Your skin will not always be clear, your ankles will not always be able, your weight will not always be your most slender, you will almost always have a stray hair that needs tweezing, your boobs may feel like a hundred pounds each, your tush may have cellulite, (gasp!).All of those versions of you are absolutely perfect.Your capacity to change is infinite.Your mind and body are never static and welcome the shift of perception.There is no such thing as perfection, so whenever you want to stop holding yourself to unnecessary ideals, the more you’ll live.

Listen to your gut.Sometimes you hear it, but opt not to listen.It’s right.Believe it, own up to it, and speak from it.