"Already
for years I know that I am not going to join the army. I know it with as
much certainty as I know that I will never kick a homeless person lying
on the sidewalk, never rape a woman, and when I will have a child -
never abandon it.

We
all of us have our own reasoning and my reasons are a bit different from
those who spoke before me. I feel that there is no need to detail what
the occupation is doing to the Palestinians. What it is doing to
ourselves is reason enough.

First
I want to talk about the suicide bombings. It is a very central part of
our life here in this country and many of us are touched personally in
one way or another. It happened a bit more than a year ago, exactly on
the day when I decided to tell my schoolmates that I am going to refuse
to serve in the army, that a suicide bombing happened in which the
mother of one of the girls in the school was killed. And later on the
day it turned out that her sister was killed as well.

It
brought home to me what does it mean, that the life of this girl whom I
knew will never be the same again; how terrible it is when something
like this is suddenly breaking in to a life. Some of my schoolmates were
angry with me; they said: how can you refuse to go to the army when such
things happen.

I
told them: that is exactly the reason that I am refusing: the army being
in the territories is not a way to stop terrorist attacks; it causes
them. Exactly because I told Merav that I feel committed to do whatever
I can to prevent such things from happening again to others, I feel that
one of the most important things which I as an individual can do, is
refusing to serve in the army.

After
all, everybody knows how the present situation will end: always in the
last centuries the rebellion of an occupied people eventually ended in
its freedom. The only question is how much time it will take, and how
many more casualties there will be. I try to make both a bit less.

Everybody
knows how the present situation will end . . . the only question is how
much time it will take, and how many more casualties there will be. I
try to make both a bit less.

Another
point: what the occupation is doing to our society. I want to tell about
Rami, whom I met in the prison. I sat with him for hours, listening. It
is incredible how many terrible things he had witnessed in just three
months of service in the territories.

He
told me about the young boy who threw a stone at the lieutenant-
colonel's jeep which did not hit but the colonel still chased the child,
caught him and beat him brutally with the butt of a rifle. And another
child which a Shabak agent tied up, and then urinated on him. When Rami
tried to protest the man shouted: go away; I am conducting an
interrogation.

And
he also told me soldiers looting a shop, and then destroying everything
which they could not carry. And he told me about how he could not stand
it anymore, and how he sat in the toilet for several hours in the night,
the barrel in his mouth, the finger on the trigger.

In
the end he ran away, and that's how he got into prison. That's what
happens to the sensitive people. The non-sensitive ones, those who get
used to these Wild West norms, afterwards bring these norms into the
Israeli society itself. We are corrupting ourselves. I am not willing to
be part of the main instrument of corruption."