BFP after loss

Married since 2005, ttc since 2006. MFI with secondary PCOS so our only choice was IVF w/ ICSI. First cycle was successful (two 5-day embryos transferred) with a BFP Oct. 2011. 3 u/s showed one embryo. 4th u/s showed 2nd embryo was hiding- twins! 20 week scan reveal not just twins, but twin BOYS. At 26w6d I went into preterm labor. Two separate hospital bedrests for a total of 5 weeks due to constant contractions and short cervix (< 1 cm). Delivered May 19th, 2012, at 35w4d. 1st twin (Julian) v-delivery, 2nd twin (Tyler) emergency c-section and was stillborn.

In September, we decided to do FET. We got our second positive blood test today with hcg level 700+ after transfer on 12-12-12. I am beyond excited, but still quite scared. Not sure what is going to happen even after I had a sit-down with my OB before we decided on FET. We've decided to keep quite except for family only for as long as we can. I'm just at 7 weeks and I have strange sensations like muscle spasms in my lower abdomen region- could it be flutters already? I'm really hoping for an enjoyable pregnancy this time around. With the twins I was so sick all the time, every day, the entire time until the day I went into labor. In fact, the day I went into labor I was supposed to go to a baby shower for a friend (also having twins- girls) and DH says "are you sure you want to go? You look like crap." Nice thing to say to a pregnant lady, right? An hour later I was floored with the most painful cramping/contractions. So that's my story and I'm sticking to it.

I haven't posted in here for a long time so here's some background:

Married since 2005, ttc since 2006. MFI with secondary PCOS so our only choice was IVF w/ ICSI. First cycle was successful (two 5-day embryos transferred) with a BFP Oct. 2011. 3 u/s showed one embryo. 4th u/s showed 2nd embryo was hiding- twins! 20 week scan reveal not just twins, but twin BOYS. At 26w6d I went into preterm labor. Two separate hospital bedrests for a total of 5 weeks due to constant contractions and short cervix (< 1 cm). Delivered May 19th, 2012, at 35w4d. 1st twin (Julian) v-delivery, 2nd twin (Tyler) emergency c-section and was stillborn.

In September, we decided to do FET. We got our second positive blood test today with hcg level 700+ after transfer on 12-12-12. I am beyond excited, but still quite scared. Not sure what is going to happen even after I had a sit-down with my OB before we decided on FET. We've decided to keep quite except for family only for as long as we can. I'm just at 7 weeks and I have strange sensations like muscle spasms in my lower abdomen region- could it be flutters already? I'm really hoping for an enjoyable pregnancy this time around. With the twins I was so sick all the time, every day, the entire time until the day I went into labor. In fact, the day I went into labor I was supposed to go to a baby shower for a friend (also having twins- girls) and DH says "are you sure you want to go? You look like crap." Nice thing to say to a pregnant lady, right? An hour later I was floored with the most painful cramping/contractions. So that's my story and I'm sticking to it.

So sorry for your loss!!! I know it is very difficult to be excited about a pregnancy after going through something so difficult. When it comes to children the worrying never ends. You worry until you see a hb. Then you wait to the 12 week mark to tell people. Then you worry the rest of the pregnancy about genetic concerns. After that you hope for a safe delivery. Even after they are born the worrying continues. My only advice would be to live in the present. Take things as they come. Try not to dwell on what happened or what might happen. It's not in our control. My prayers are with you for a healthy pregnancy and a safe delivery!

So sorry for your loss!!! I know it is very difficult to be excited about a pregnancy after going through something so difficult. When it comes to children the worrying never ends. You worry until you see a hb. Then you wait to the 12 week mark to tell people. Then you worry the rest of the pregnancy about genetic concerns. After that you hope for a safe delivery. Even after they are born the worrying continues. My only advice would be to live in the present. Take things as they come. Try not to dwell on what happened or what might happen. It's not in our control. My prayers are with you for a healthy pregnancy and a safe delivery!

I am sorry for your pain but thank you for sharing. I just suffered a m/c of my first ever pregnancy and it hurts so bad. It is nice to hear stories where you can come back from that, try again, and be successful. Best wishes for a good pregnancy.

I am sorry for your pain but thank you for sharing. I just suffered a m/c of my first ever pregnancy and it hurts so bad. It is nice to hear stories where you can come back from that, try again, and be successful. Best wishes for a good pregnancy.

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