Thursday, October 8, 2009

You never know what's going to happen. Ever. I thought today would be like anyday. I certainly didn't think I would be robbed of my mobility by the act of getting out of my car. But that's on the small end of the spectrum. On the other end is finding out that one of the people that make my job so hard to handle is leaving the company. This person has been with company for over a decade and I just assumed they would always be there. The perpetual thorn in my side. Earlier this year I was even actively pursuing new employment because I didn't think I could handle the office dynamics for much longer.

As my best friend once told me "the wheel will turn." And turn it does. Always. But when in the throes of anxiety and despair it is difficult to imagine that change will take place. For me, dealing with these situations is easier now due to psychotherpy. The process was difficult for me at first and has taken a couple of years to really settle into routine. And with that I was able to take a toxic environment and make it safe for me. And never did I dream that one of the people who made it such a toxic environment would be gone. I am elated and hopeful and welcoming of the change that will come. Until the next turn of the wheel--for who knows where that will take me?