I've been feeling the wolves circling all week. I've been trying to hold them off, and there were moments I felt on the brink of winning - but today I had some bad news, and that was it, my spirit gave up the ghost. I feel completely demolished. I feel like crying for what a worthless failure of a human being I am. I'd had such a good few weeks building back up, feeling better than I had done in a long time, and achieving more. I feel like that demented illness in my head is cackling uproariously, as if to say "you didn't actually think you were going to feel better did you?"

Really sorry that it feels like the walls have come crashing down on top of you.

I know you feel overwhelmed by this one bit of bad news now but you are not a failure. May be one aspect of your life isn't going so well but there are lots of others and even if it is something you can't fix that doesn't mean everything is over or it is something you have to turn away from.

Are you still doing your 10 things to be grateful for? May be you could reflect back on some of them.

Really hope you feel a bit better soon and manage to relax over the weekend.