i want to die- might be triggering..

i heard that specially <edit method...sorry hun might give someone a method..Terry>
reacts really badly with alcohol?? Is it possible to die from that? i'm feeling depressed. Nobody likes me as I am, my boss is judging me based on whatever lies others told him. even though you might say i can quit, i still would feel like a failure.. I would feel like a failure for not having succeeded in my life. the future holds no hope for me. i'm depressed and feel so bad. i am sad to be in such a situation but when you don't know against whom you should be fighting, it's not easy. it's not easy knowing that you thought you were friends with everyone but then you learn that one of everyone is backstabbing you.. i wish to sleep and never wake up again. i want to lose myself in alcohol, to forget everything that's happening. i want to stop hurting like this. i want to stop being humiliated like this. i want to feel human again. i want to lose control of myself. i want to be dead. i'm so confused that i don't know what i'm writing. sorry for the ranting.