Thursday, September 21, 2006

This morning I woke up at 4:20am, in a pool of sweat, and feeling like the Exxon-Valdez had sailed across my face during the night. Honestly, if a mozzie had tried to land on my face, it would have slid right off. I also have a pimple the size of Uluru sprouting from the middle of my forehead. Seems my hormones have gone screwy again – an annoyingly regular occurrence since my hysterectomy.

This might explain the bloating and cravings that have been going on lately. This afternoon I had an incredibly strong urge to eat…well, anything, really. I actually got out of my chair more than once to go in search of food. This wouldn’t have been a drama normally, since I try to keep a small stock of healthy snacks at the office. But I was out of nuts and protein bars, and when I went to the fridge in search of the ½ punnet of strawberries I’d left there the previous day, some #*&%@ had stolen them! By this stage, I swear I could actually smell the cakes and choccies wafting down from the cafeteria 3 floors above.

I somehow managed to withstand temptation, with the help of herbal teas, sugarless gum, and repeating my favourite mantra to myself over and over.......“eat clean and work out, eat clean and work out”. Oh, plus leaving the latest Australian Ironman mag open on my desk at the page featuring photos of the girls from the recent All-Female Classic helped.

It’s been 3 months now since I had the offending reproductive organ removed. I thought that my ovary (yes, I only have one) would have got its act together by now and things would have returned to normal.

Oh. I just had a horrible thought – what if this is normal? Aargh! Hand me that Boost bar, will ya?

2 comments:

Kerryn I've been thinking about your post here for a while. It made me realise how easily I give into temptation without even the thought of going 'without'. Instant gratification ie comfort eating! It really is important to have that mindset of resisting the temptations. It's been good to have been give an jolt about this- so thankyou!

Linda, I couldn't agree more. I think it's too easy to use hormonal influences as an excuse to justify eating crap. Yes, the cravings ARE real, and yes, it's a pain in the butt, but it's still our choice whether we give in or not.

I don't always win out over my cravings, but I do accept that it's my decision and my fault if I gain wieght through poor eating. - Not some overriding external power that I have no control over.