I arrive at 6:30pm. I see Bill Margold walking up with Sandra Bullock's
good friend Brian Sebastien.

Bill says he's been having visions of Jim
Holliday. The great one has spoken to him from the grave, but
not about baseball. Bill says tonight's show is in honor of Holliday.

Bill remembers an XRCO awards on the Santa Monica Pier when the temperature
was below freezing. "It was the coldest night in the history
of Santa Monica. February 14, 1990. Nina Hartley was purple. The wind
whipping off the ocean. We were in a tent. I went home, got in bed
with my clothes and boots on, and went to sleep.

"The poor girls were undressed. It was the night Penn &
Teller showed up. Goldstein gave one of them a birthday cake."

"One year at the FOXE awards we had Julianne Moore, just before
Boogie Nights was released.

"Georgina Spelvin will be inducted into the Legends of Erotica
in Las Vegas in January. She says she's too old. She looks damn good.
She's special and happy and very important to the history of the business.
The modern era, with the exception of one or two people who have became
a name brand, Tera is becoming a name brand...And by sheer attrition,
because she's gorgeous, Janine."

Bill says Brandon Irons and Jake Steed used Bill's book Breaking
Into XXX.

"Because you're always at the table waiting for scraps from
daddy," John says. "You roll over so he will scratch your
belly and tell you that you're a good dog. That's what you're always
looking for -- parental approval."

John teases me about my love for self-flagellation. How I like to
climb up on my homemader cross in my livingroom to atone for the sins
of the porn industry.

John says I've moved to the undercard for being beaten up. Max Hardcore
is now number one.

I hear Skeeter Kerkove Frank is staying behind the bookshelf in John
Douglas's home. When the LAPD Gestapo come, John bangs on the door
and says, "Flush the sugar down the toilet. They're coming to
get you."

Scott Fayner has a perm. He got his hair done for a relative's wedding.

Digital Playground was not there. "Everyone is on location -
we're in production," says Adella. Gram
Ponante was the hit of the evening, as Tod
Hunter noted, as he impersonated Teagan Presley twice. Adella
had appointed him to pick up any Digital Playground awards.

I hear Lisa Love no longer works at Red Light District.

Shauna Grant And The Launching Of The XRCO

Bill Margold calls me back Monday night to clarify remarks he made
last Thursday about the first XRCO show February 14, 1985, about eleven
months after Shauna
Grant shot and killed herself (March 23, 1984).

Bill: "Two weeks after the AFAA (Adult Film Association of America)
awards, which was held at the Coconut Grove, she was dead.

"In the early part of 1984, the critics (Jim Holliday, Kent
Smith (now known as James Avalon), Jim Dawson, Lonn Friend) began
to sense there was something wrong with the awards the AFAA were giving.
Then along came this movie Virginia. Shauna Grant is in it and nominated
for Best Actress. If you studied her performance, one of the bears
in my office could've delivered a better performance. Yet, because
the AFAA ruled supreme, you could buy your nomination, which I did
for Sweet Alice ($25). Then Maria Tobalina said, do you want to win?
Buy it. I ended up losing to Ron Jeremy.

"Then Virginia
won some awards and we critics we were livid. Now we are born.

"Within two weeks, Shauna Grant died. I felt she was our mascot.

"We didn't know if the XRCO was going to survive. We had a meeting
at Pussycat Theaters. Musso & Franks [Grille]. Jimmy Johnson said
to me, we'll see to it that you never get your show off the ground.

"I went down to pay homage to Dave Friedman (of the AFAA) on
Cordova St off Vermont on Washington (now there's a Korean church
and a childcare center). He was one of the most powerful people in
the business. I had known him for years through the Cordova Street
Clique -- Dick Aldridge, Bob Chinn.

"I had worked for Carlos Tobalina as publicity director from
1976-84. I was fired for creating the XRCO.

"I believed in what the XRCO stood for -- truth and honor.

"I knocked on the door of Dave Friedman's office at 7am. He
said, what are you doing here? I said, I'm here to pay homage. Five
hours later, I also told him that he was going to be the first person
inducted into the XRCO hall of fame. He said, don't worry kid. We'll
leave you alone.

"Friedman knew that they [AFAA] were a dinosaur and they were
corrupt. We based our awards on truth and honor."

Bill met Shauna Grant in San Francisco in 1982 on the set of The
Young Like It Hot. "I said, 'I'm Bill Margold.' She said, 'I
know who you are and I've been told I can't talk to you because you're
a bad man.'

"I was adopting people as far back as 1973. Here was this magnificent
woman I knew was fragile. I would've been happy to take her into the
den and make her one of the bear cubs.

"It always disturbed me that I couldn't help her. On the night
of the 1984 Erotica Awards (by the AFAA), there were famous people
there such as John Landis, Francis Ford Coppolla, John Milius... It's
rumored that they promised things to Shauna Grant that they never
delivered. Within two weeks, she was dead.

"I've always felt down deep that she was the one I failed completely.
I know that [Jerry] Butler worshiped her. [Joey] Silvera worshiped
her. They both said she was too vulnerable for this business.

"I told Butler the story of my confrontation with her. He said,
you should've just dragged her out of there.

"Had she not been nominated for Virginia, had she not been so
vulnerable looking that night in 1984, we probably would've never
gone on to the XRCO. We were livid that she was getting all this attention.
It obviously went to her head.

"As daylight poured through the window, I woke up crying on
February 14, 1985. I had just had a dream of saving Shauna Grant from
a house full of bad people who were chasing her around. I grabbed
her in my arms and we jumped out of the window and landed on the grass.
After I saved her, she kissed me on the cheek and said, do it right.

"I remember the grass was wet. And I woke up crying.

"I was with Drea. She asked me what was wrong. I said, I just
saved Shauna Grant. She said, do it right.

"If you look at any pictures from the first XRCO, you will see
Bill Liebowitz, Jim Holliday, Jared Rutter, Kent Smith, William Rotsler
and I were wearing jackets with "Heart On" on it and the
sentiment, 'Do It Right! Shauna Grant, 1984.'

"The night of the first XRCO show [at Gazzarris, now the Key
Club at 9107 Sunset Blvd], the show began, and within the first ten
minutes, the lights blew out. All the enemies of the XRCO said ha.
They said the show was over. I said, no it's not. Shauna is on our
shoulder. She said, do it right.

"Two hours later the lights came on. That was the most emotional
show ever staged. Holliday did the first hall of fame. He inducted
the King (John Holmes), Eric Edwards, Jamie Gillis, Harry Reems and
John Leslie.

"Bill Gazzarri was the semi-connected godfather of Hollywood.
He liked me for some reason, so he gave us the club for nothing. There
were over 400-people there."

The last AFAA show was 1986. The two hostesses were Brandy Alexandre
and Viper.

Bill: "When [Jared] Rutter said he had to put up with a lot
and his sanity was strained over the years, I'm the one who did that.
That's my nature. Someone has to keep things stirred up.

"It was an honor to pull off what I did -- getting Randy [West]
and Christy [Canyon] up on stage to honor Jenna. I would've liked
to have had the hedgehog there. He showed up ten minutes after the
fact."