Since this blog is just sitting here unused…. DAY ONE

…and I was trying to think of a way to journal through this new endeavor, why not use it!?

I’d like a little less belly and little less face please 🙂

Today I am starting yet another diet. Screw all you “don’t diet, change your lifestyle people.” That is totally just something you say when you don’t want to admit you are on a diet. Also… dieting IS changing your lifestyle. Currently my lifestyle is eating McDonald’s and chips and chex mix and well… whatever the hell I feel like eating when I am hungry, bored, tired, stressed, annoyed, upset, or see a commercial for something yummy. My lifestyle is also mostly sitting and sleeping with brief, occasional spurts of exercise.

SO… “changing my lifestyle” means from today until I leave for Mexico on February 5th, I am going to live a different “lifestyle.” I am going to use air-quotes a lot. I am going to eat only meats and veggies, and some cheese. I am not going to give up my full-of-artificial-sweetener daily morning iced coffee. BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO! I am going to hit the gym often and hard. I am going to focus on weight lifting AND getting back up to running. It may be unrealistic to think I will be able to live up to my daydream of getting up early to go for a jog through Cozumel before the cruise ships have debarked and everyone is still sleeping, but I can CERTAINLY go for a jog/walk…. and maybe even mostly a jog!

Tricky areas and plan of attack:

My job.

I work 12-14 hour shifts on Monday and Tuesday every week. Then I work 8pm to 8am Thursday nights. I use my job as an excuse to eat McDonald’s because I fucking LOVE their plain cheeseburgers and fries. So good. Judge away… I don’t care. I realize that for most people McD’s is something they eat because they need to grab something and go. I actually LOOK FORWARD to Mondays and Tuesdays because I know I get to have McDonald’s if I get called out.

Night shifts are an issue as well. Sometimes I just get to sleep and they don’t disrupt life at all. Sometimes I am out all night and I never know what to eat or not eat. Part of me feels like I shouldn’t eat anything because I normally wouldn’t if I was sleeping, but the other part of me gets HAAAAANGRY!! And also when I get home and go to sleep, I have trouble sleeping long enough if I am hungry.

PLAN OF ATTACK:

BREAKFAST- I will eat SOMETHING before I head out the door in the morning

If I can go to McDonalds, I can ALSO go to the grocery store and grab things that aren’t McDonald’s. I can’t even think of a McDonald’s that isn’t within a mile of a grocery store.

I will try to pack stuff. This one is kind of a pipe dream. I suck at this and because of the way my job is, it’s hard to even know what to pack. Sometimes I am on the road all day. Sometimes I am in hospitals. Sometimes I am home. Usually it’s a mix of all of them.

Me

I am a 40 something (yikers!) year old divorced, and then re-married, mom of two, Sean and Jessi. A lot of my blog is focused on my struggle with my weight. Another lot of my blog is focused on my journey to better myself in other aspects of my life. I spent the first half of my life angry and bitter, with big splashes of fun to hold it together. In this half, I've kept the fun and put in the work on myself to kiss the angry, bitter bitch goodbye!
I have been blogging since 2006ish on my on Porchrockers blogger blog. I love blogging and I loved that blog, but my life has changed so much that it just didn't fit me anymore so I created a shiny new blog to match my shiny new life!