Thursday, April 3, 2008

The end for a while...

I am officially retiring from this blog for a while. I will continue to hold on to this email address though, and you can still contact me at it. After years of struggle, some sin, and growing closer to Christ I have gotten married to a beautiful and understanding woman who accepts me for who I am. This is not the path for everyone, and I would never prescribe it to someone who has not carefully considered his or her options carefully. I have come to realize that the saying is true: You can have anything you want in life, but you can't have everything you want. Isn't this true for those who are LDS and SSA? I believe so. I can't have it all, but I have carefully thought out what I want, and I want the peace of mind that this lifestyle gives me, the extra companionship of the spirit as I attend the temple, and of course, a wife and a family. I do not know what the future holds for me, but I am determined to work to alleviate the pain and anguish of those in our situation. I believe that my choices and my situation should give people hope that we can learn to control our thoughts and desires...at least to keep them in check. My last advice is to not marry anyone without telling them the truth, the full truth, and nothing but the truth. My relationship is built on that, and it has been successful so far.

For those who are struggling, I encourage you to carefully consider your options and to determine what will bring you the most happiness in this life and to pursue the hell out of it. Life is short, but don't make hasty decisions that will leave you with consequences you will regret. I have lived a life of sin, and it truly did not bring me happiness.

To close, I want to thank you all for the friendship you have extended. Please keep on fighting, there are so many out there like us who read these blogs and who need our support. I will close with a recent favorite scripture of mine...Psalms 71:20-21

"Thou, which has shewed me great and sore troubles, shalt quicken me again, and shalt bring me up again from the depths of the earth. Thous shalt increase my greatness and comfort me on every side."

I love you guys. I mean that more than you can imagine. God bless us and guide us through this dark and dreary world.

2 comments:

I hope all the best things for you. Marriage isn't easy, not for heteros, and not for MOM's, but it's SO VERY worth the sacrifices and changes. If I can do anything to help you, in anyway, you let me know. As someone in a similar path of life to you, I, of all people should understand what you're going through.

"And behold, others he flattereth away, and telleth them there is no hell; and he saith unto them: I am no devil, for there is none—and thus he whispereth in their ears, until he grasps them with his awful chains, from whence there is no deliverance."

The thorn in my side

I am but one of the many Latter-day Saints struggling with same-sex attraction. I'm fully active in the church, a returned missionary, a student, and hopeful that God is willing to afford us more than a life of despair.