“It was the worst feeling ever,” an emotional Mary Muhammad told CBS New York. “We think that okay, they leave and they’re going to come home… Just like, Tuesday, you know, he left, he said I love you, I’ll see you later and he never came back. And he’s never going to come back.”

She told the station that she plans to launch a foundation in his name that will raise money to send unused cop equipment to police departments in the fallen officer’s native Guyana.

Meanwhile, long-time police critic Al Sharpton will reportedly speak at Holder's funeral. The family of the slain officer reportedly met with Sharpton and asked him to speak at the service.

The news comes after a police protest in Manhattan over the weekend that included a speech by famed Hollywood director Quentin Tarantino that is being strongly criticized by the police supporters.

The Oscar winner said: "I'm a human being with a conscience and if you believe there's murder going on then you need to rise up and stand up against it. I'm here to say I'm on the side of the murdered."