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Caroline Letkeman

20. Nevertheless, learning the truth about
Hubbard and Scientology led me to the inevitable conclusion
that I could no longer be part of Scientology. I agonized
silently for months about how to communicate the truth to my
daughter and to others. I felt a personal obligation to help
correct the wrongs that I had done. I also felt a need to
try and uncover the reasons why I had been so completely
tricked and defrauded by Scientology, and why I had spent my
entire adult life trapped in the mind control of Hubbard's
organization. Having been an advanced auditor with a good
grasp of Hubbard's technology, I needed to try and more
completely decode the technical basis for the mind control
of which I was both a victim and unwitting perpetrator. I
felt that I had to come to a technical understanding of why
the action of leaving Scientology did not resolve, but
amplified the emotional pain I was experiencing. I knew from
reading others stories on the Internet that mine was not a
unique situation. The essay that I submitted to the Literati
Contest 2000 was a summary of my ongoing research to that
point.

As a former auditor of the upper levels of
Scientology, my exit brought with it an attempt to find a
technical explanation for the subjective effects that
Scientology creates in a person. How does Scientology
control its members? Why do Scientologists find it so
hard to leave? Psychologically and spiritually
battered, they persist in their bewildering allegiance to
their founder and the organization. Why would that be?
These effects are laid in at every level of Scientology.
They are laid in deliberately and with malice aforethought.
This essay is about how Scientology hacks your soul.

I am creating this archive to support my
demand for a refund from Scientology. I was in the cult from
January 1975 until May 1999. In addition to defrauding me
out of those 24 years, Scientology robbed me of more than US
$60,000 for its useless, indeed dangerous "services."
Scientology and its agents tricked me into purchasing these
"services" with promised wonderful results, which I have
discovered were utterly false. As part of their scam, the
cult and its cultists threatened me into paying all this
money and participating all these years with cynically
manufactured menaces.