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Saturday, September 03, 2011

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I’ve been feeling v moody and depressed latelyAsk me why?I really cannot answer youNot because I dont want to But because I dont know how to

I really dont know whats wrong with meI cry at the slightest thingI had a terrible horrible dream and i woke up feeling that pain in the heart kind of sadnessthen i cried!! wtfz! to myself!

btw my nightmare was drama max

in my nightmare, my hubby had a v good gfand i was friends with that gf (dont know who)and they were in a relationship!I knew about that but I was ok with it (wtf)I still happy happy smile smile when we 3 go out tog (WTFWTF)

then idk why must be cos my hb see we all get along wellthen he request to me that…….HE WANT TO MARRY HER with me being the 1st wife n she’ll b the XIAO LAO PO

But because the xiao lao po is NEW AND FRESH to himso naturally he kept spending time with herand was VERY VERY VERY cold to me and Trevwhen he request he wanna marry her

i KNEEL DOWN IN MY DREAMS beg him donti cannot remember how he reactbut in my dream idk why i love him til SO FOOLISH!!!

then in btween i cannot remember alrbut i brought Trev and left thembut they NOT AFFECTED!

I left alr then realize i am pregnantWTMAJORF

end of horrid nightmare

I tweeted about it and someone told meI must be thinking too much and am too stressed out

I think so too Im so stressed so moody so PMSand paranoid (paranoid becos I dont have trust)

Not the first time i dreamt of smth like tt to my marriageIm really scared that one day 5yrs, 10yrs 15 yrs down the rd,I will become that helpless USELESS woman in my dreams

At the end of the day,WIVES who’ve bore kids are always the ones who gets dumpedwhile the AFFAIR gets their way and the manthey dont care if they’re called vixen by the entire worldcos they eventually get WHAT THEY WANT (the man)

this 3rd party in my dream is a mystery person whom i dont even knowbut i woke up feeling so angry with this person

lately, after my sore throat got better,ive been having a hard time trying to fall asleepI feel like I want someone or something to be done for meBUT I DONT KNOW WHATthen i get all frustrated as thou I couldnt get what i want

I think I GOT SERIOUS PROBLEM LEI howWORST STILL

im telling my feelings to my netbookIve got no one to talk to When a woman wants to jus TELL a man how she feels about a certain thing,that man will feel like we want them to give us a solutionSOMETIMES WE WOMEN JUS WANT SOMEONE TO LISTENWE JUST WANT TO TALK

sometimes i tell u

Woman : Hey I feel v bored and upsetMan (agitated) : Then what you want? Go out? I make you upset again meh?

I AM JUST SAYING JUST TELLING JUST LETTING U KNOW

why cant Men reply with care and concern

like “ u ok? you wanna talk? OR JUST NO NEED SAY ANYTHING AND GIVE US A HUG?

No issues with my husbandI’m just v MOODY and as i mentioned earlier,I dont know why Im feeling that

I think its my hormones…It must beIt has got to be….

SIGH, oh welllife goes on Sleep now tmr wake up happy then goodsad then continue bad