Been so long

Even though I got over you, I am back here again. This time I am here for another man. He hasn’t left. He still stays. I don’t know what to do. I don’t/can’t believe he would be faithful if we got together. And I would just let him walk all over me because I love him. I don’t want to be a door mat. I’ve cried, so much. I’ve wanted to cut. I’ve wanted to die. I’ve wanted to swallow pills til I fell asleep. I just want it all over. I guess I will be writing in here since I can’t let anyone know my feelings. I need to keep strong. No one must know.