Impromptu Thoughts #1

I’m gonna have a bad night out on my bed now and then again lol. This was a sentence made by only pressing the middle button on my phone.

I started applying for jobs again now that I have a set schedule. The goal is to spend 4 days in Virginia and 3 near Boston in mid January. The flights are relatively cheap which makes me excited, but I still need go gather funds. I started thinking of things to sell but ever since I moved, I don’t have much.

I really wish bugs were not attracted to my skin, because I’m tired to scratching everywhere in the summer.

I finally got my dang car fixed. $500 that could have been used for my trip went to my car.

I’m having increasingly deep conversations with someone I like and I cannot muster up the courage to ask what everything means. Maybe it means nothing. Maybe it’s me hoping finally he sees my potential. Too bad he’s too late.

I told you guys he did say “please no.”

I’ve been eating like shit the past few days and I’m stressing because I want to look amazing for my trip and I’m tired of the doctors being faux disappointed in me.

I wish that more people would text me. It makes me feel less lonely.

I have to keep reminding myself that sexuality is fluid and to ask genders and that’s not a good thing.

I’m writing a short story about growing up mixed in a neighborhood that didn’t care that I was. Should be a boring read.