Jeane:I am sure I’ve had this dream before. In the dream, I am living with you in an older apartment that has really dark wood on the floor; it’s almost chocolate colored. I am in a room where there is a couch – I might have been taking a nap – and a copy machine, the old-fashioned kind that’s really large and sits on a stand on the desk. I go to make a copy and I have a recollection that the last time I used this copy machine it kind of smoked a little or did something it should not have. That time I let the problem go and didn’t tell you about it. So as I go to use it again I see that it has big things that come out the sides and chop up paper, it almost looks like a pressing machine with razor blades. It was not only doing that where the paper would come out, but it was doing that on the side where you put the paper in. And it had chopped all this paper up into tiny little pieces and clogged the machine.

As I walk around to the back of the machine I notice there is more stuff clogged in there, like dust and bits of dirt or something and it is smoking. So I’m thinking it might be time to unplug the machine. Plus, I remember that I ignored the problem last time, so now I know I am going to have to tell you about it. So I get you into the room to see it, and we are walking around it and looking. It is smoking now, and I’m wondering if it’s going to catch on fire. I’m also wondering what we need to do next besides unplug it. I cannot imagine why a copy machine would do this, or why it would chop up paper into little bits. I just don’t know what is going on here.

John: This dream can be looked at in a very simple way. It seems you have a memory from the past that is coming back up to work itself out. It is related to something you accepted as it was happening, yet that turned out to be a bad experience. In other words, you may have taken something on good faith – that it would be okay – but it wasn’t. So it has become a kind of memory or mannerism that is embedded in the core of your being. However it got embedded there, you are recalling it inside of yourself.

So way back when, at some point in the distant past (it’s a very old machine), there was this bad experience. It was not what you had led yourself to believe it would be. And now it has fast-forwarded into the future, into the present. As a consequence of that core memory coming up, you now are able to take another look at it and you can realize that it was haywire at the input. Whatever the original experience was, it had little chance to succeed because some aspect of it was no good from the start. But you did not admit that to yourself at the time (you also didn’t handle the problem with the copier the first time you saw it). In other words, “garbage in, garbage out.”

Something didn’t come out right for you, but you never got to the point of seeing, on a conscious level, that it was bad from the start. You only concluded that the end result was a disaster. So now, fast-forwarding it into the present, that image having reawakened, enables you to take another look. You now have an awareness that it was bad from the get-go, so no wonder it ended badly. It gives you a greater understanding of what went wrong. That’s pretty wild!

John: I start off in my dream thinking that I need to go at a slow and steady pace, a pace that is very safe. I have a sense that I am being pulled or directed in some fashion, but that is not the image. The image is that the route that I am walking on is fairly steady and stable and it is not too steep. There are slopes going up and down but they are not an issue. I have these lines, or reins, that I am holding, walking in front of a group of reindeer. The feeling that something is pulling me does not make sense because I am actually leading these reindeer. And I am leading them because I also know deep down that if they are out front, they might go faster than I can handle. I have a feeling of comfort inside, proceeding like this, because I know that eventually I am going to reach some destination. I have no idea what it is, or how long it is going to take. I can’t even fathom anything like that. I am just going along, trudging slowly.

Then it seems that the reindeer pull up next to me and then go by, and they start pulling me along. I get a little shiver of fear that I should keep things the way they were, with me leading, but for some reason I am able to dismiss that idea because the path ahead seems pretty straight. I am in some kind of quasi-sleigh or something too. So, I feel that if the path stays fairly straight, then going faster won’t be an issue. But then the reindeer do start going faster, and faster.

I start thinking, “well, I can handle it,” so I don’t panic. Plus the pathway seems to have trees on the side setting natural boundaries. As soon as I think that the reindeer dart off to the left and through some trees and then they really take off. All of a sudden the whole sensation changes; it is like I am no longer on the ground. I am flying, and I am holding onto these reins and the reindeer are stretched out in front where I don’t see them anymore, and all I can do is hold on.

I have no thoughts about a destination, the reindeer are just going up and down over hill and dale. Every time I think I am going to crash into a steep cliff ahead, right at the last second I glide over the top. Or just when I think the sleigh is going to bounce over some great big boulders, I seem to slide comfortably around them. I feel like I am off the ground, and even in my dream I am thinking that this is not the way to be.

What is interesting is that I no longer ponder the idea of a destination, but I do have the sense that all roads lead to the same place. I just need to hold on for dear life. Actually, that’s an interesting word play, “dear (deer) life.”

So that was what I found myself doing, and I was covering an unbelievable amount of ground. When I was leading, I was probably moving at 1/50th of the speed, and then I was literally flying. I had no time to think about anything, not even my own safety. Anyway, if I had let go, I would have had no idea where I was. Not that I did before, but at least then I felt a sense of comfort inside of me. Then I realized that I needed something like this to pull me along: I had covered so much distance that if I were to let go, I would have been even more lost. At least I had the forward motion that I could hold onto. That was the sensation that I had when I woke up. I didn’t feel completely discombobulated, but it wasn’t a feeling of comfort, either.

I was left wondering what could possibly happen next. The reindeer were the true power and guidance. They were initially dormant inside, or perhaps barely awake, because in the beginning I did feel that the reindeer energy (Kundalini energy) was pulling me along, even though they were behind me. Then I recognized that I needed this Kundalini energy to be awakened, because without that spiritual power my physical situation remained undefined. Then as I begin to feel steady with the reins, I took comfort in the idea that I was proceeding at a controllable pace towards some eventual destination. It was then that I was able to let go of my fear, and that’s when the reindeer took over. Yet somewhere deep down I knew that to let the Kundalini forces loose would be the ride of a lifetime.

And I think it’s a big hint that what is depicted here is an all or nothing-at-all scenario. Kundalini energy can be considered dangerous unless it is opened up in a proper way. It was like a part of me was recognizing its power, and making sure everything was controlled and kept at a certain pace. When I let go of my fears, the energy broke loose, but I stayed with it and trusted it to steer me the right way, and it did.

Jeane: I am in a trailer that is out in countryside, like the Columbia River gorge area, where you can see far into the distance. There might be an orchard in the river. The trailer is there because there is construction going on and a man is working there. I am there -I think I am male – and another friend of mine (male) is going to join me before long. The trailer belongs to the man doing the work there. While I am waiting, I become aware that something is wrong. Maybe this person on the land has guessed that I see what’s wrong and he may be planning to do something to my friend and me, like try to get rid of us. In order to protect us from what he might do, I suddenly make up this story saying that when my friend comes we’ll need to put on these protective suits, like Haz-Mat suits for hazardous materials. I start to get into one of these suits and I want to get my friend into one as soon as he arrives.

I think that if I can fool this man it will buy us some time and he will not realize that I really do know what I know. Maybe we will get out into the orchard and be able to get away before he can do away with us.

So that was the theme. Whoever is working on this site is up to something and we are not supposed to know about it. They are getting the idea that we know about it, and that makes us a risk to them in some way. I never seem to be completely aware of what they are doing wrong because I have to hide it. Since the man has already begun to suspect that I know, I am going to have to do some fast talking, get my friend and myself into the suits, and get some distance away to be safe, because I am aware of how isolated we are.

John: As we have seen before in other dreams, the trailer represents a place that has a balance, a place where you have a greater awareness of things. It’s a part of you that is able to take in the whole. You are uneasy or feel trapped by that image. At first, you are curious. Then you feel trapped and need to find some sort of veil behind which to hide, or to escape. You are trying to figure out how to do that.

There is a deeper meaning behind that vibration, and what can be understood or revealed by it. What you are setting up is an energetic in which something does not feel right so you immediately try to establish some distance from it. But if you were to stay in that energetic, you would likely have a breakthrough. You would gain something, even though it feels uncomfortable. Instead, you are controlling the situation and preventing that deeper process from coming through.

Any time you see a house, or trailer, or anything like that, and you find yourself moving away from it, you are actually moving away from a deeper part of yourself that could be making itself known. This is a hint, of course, that there is something there to be realized. But you have made the decision to withdraw, or to veil yourself from whatever it is that is making you feel uneasy.