A year's worth of thoughts

A year ago I left my secure well paced job at a small company to go to a corporate. Cuz I needed more money. And a smaller commute. 2.5 - 3 hours on the road can kill someone!

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What the f*ck did I do?

Instant regret starting at the new job. I wanted to quit my second day and grovel back to my old boss for my job. New boss was terrible!

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What. The. F*ck. Did. I. Do????

Had I not felt like I was fully violated during the background check process, I would have instantly quit.
Felt like a pap smear was way less invasive than this process!!

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I'll give it 6 months

For the pay, obviously.

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Maybe delay it for a couple more months....

Insurance premiums were going up...

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So....couple more?

OMG I hate it here

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Maybe 1 more month?

Need to make my parents proud. Need to make my parents proud. Need to make my parents proud.....

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Aaaandd I'm done!

I used to sit in my car and cry every day before going home. I was so upset with everything and frustrated with it all, I gave up.
I totally gave up on myself.
Never had I felt like this.
Never had I let anyone make me feel like this.
Never had I let anything frustrate me this bad.
Something had to change. And I wasn't going to be everything that was important to me...

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I. Quit.

Still remember that day, felt like a movie.
I walked into the building reluctantly, told myself I had to quit for my sanity.
Walked up to my desk, set my stuff down. Stood there for bout a minute. Took a deep breathe and walked to my boss's desk.
And I just told her, "I'm giving you my notice of leave"

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Instant relief. Instant gratification.

After that moment, I literally felt free.
The shackles of corporate world have been shattered from my body.
I can escape.
I can leave.
I can be me again!
Best decision I made so far!

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Just breathe.

I used the first 3 weeks as a personal and mental vacation from the mental insanity I endured. Didn't have to think or stress much anymore (life was really stressful at the time.)
Now I can take a moment to breathe. Get the negativity out
Get back to being me

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OK, now to find the new light

I took some time to meditate, exercise, and reflect on:
Who I am.
What I wanted.
Where I wanted to be.
How I want to live.
When I wanted this to occur.
How I was going to achieve this

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Game, set.

Started job hunting on things I could do.
Then I found a new job. One that actually excited me. One that I can do. One that I can work in.
I want this job.

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And now...

I got the job.
Eternally grateful, but it's been a process.
Let's see how this will go...though with this new optimism in life, I am positive with this new adventure.