Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

Recent Journal Entry - Please Help!!!

The past few days have been very difficult. I get in these moods once n' a while were I just want to SCREAM, kill myself, or just crawl under a rock and die...nothing in particular is bothering me, but I've constantly had thoughts of killing myself lately and I'm pretty bothered by it. My thoughts have NEVER been this bad. I tried talking about it w/ my boyfriend, in a joking way so he wouldn't freak out, and he got really upset. I think he feels like he's aiding to my situation, but I really don't think he is. I don't know what is, for that matter...

Have any of you felt this way? Am I stuck? What should I do? I toyed with the idea of walking into a Social Worker's office and openly telling him/her that I've had thoughts of killing myself...but I know that will only end me up in a Mental Hospital, drugged out on some bullshit excuse for an answer. I've never even taken anti-depressants before, I'm afraid of becoming addicted to them.

I've been staying late at work, purposely, to keep my mind off of whatever is bothering me, but it doesn't work. Of and on during the day, I go off in a daze about what the consequences would be for the people I know/love/whatever, if I were to kill myself. I think about how I really don't want to, and I'm utterly confused by the fascination I've created. I don't want to think this way, I don't want to feel this way, I don't want it to even cross my mind...

1st of all you do not bwecome addicted to anti depressants. addiction is caused by purposely abusing a drug/med......there is tolereanc and dependence.....we have all had days where we think of death....part of this oh so fun illness....hang in there! hugs,trish

Go to your Doctor and ask about Anti-depressants. They have a great variety, and it may take some trial and error for you to find the right one for you, but it is so worth it to not have these thoughts! As for getting addicted, I don't think anti-depressants are addicting. Yes, some you have to wean off of, but what would you rather have? These terrible thoughts, and feel the way you are, or you could feel a whole lot better, and maybe get to the bottom of what is causing you to have these issues. You need to find help, and they won't send you to the mental ward just because you are having these thoughts. They will work hard to find the right anti-depressant for you to make you feel better. Think about it.

I guess I've just heard a lot of horror stories about anti-depressants. I'm sorry if I offended you. = /
But I do agree, seeing my doctor would be a good idea. Thank you for responding.
Luvyourself - my journal entry is the same as what I posted, sorry about that!

Are you in ANY type of counseling right now? if not, you look into it... they may or may not rx antidepressents, but perhaps just counseling.
Antidepressents are not addictive in the sense of craving them, etc. there is no narcotic. You are thinking of tranquilizers.

If you are thinking of hurting yourself, you MUST get help. That doesnt mean they will put you in the hospital.

I used to go to counseling, but stopped after only a few visits. I felt like the woman was just taking my money. My goal for the next week is to either see my doctor, or go to a counselor...
Either way, I need to talk to someone. = /

You might want to find a therapist who specializes in womens issues considering some of your profile info. Your ob/gyn might be a good person to ask if they know of someone who deals with these issues.

I feel this exact same way everyday, i try telling my girl friend about it, but i dont want her to freak out and leave me and stuff, and i dont really Know how to open up to people and talk about things because i have been hurt so many times, dont want to end up in mental hospital or anything either.

So i use running/walking/jogging, whichever one you like. it gets me away from the problem right then and there, gives me distance and space and time to cool and calm down. It gives me time to be alone and think in a positive way, and lets me come back to the problem or whatever later in a better mood.

Doesnt really work if you dont know what your problem is or why you feel that way, or if its so many things or a constant feeling like it is with me sometimes, but it helps

As does writing, just letting everything out, all the pain anger and hurt in a positive way.

If you need someone to talk to i am here, and wont freak out because i struggle with the same problem.

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