I am present.
Today I am grateful for:
#MyHusband - I love you.
#babylove - it’s impossible not to
#cloudydays #my parents
#myinlaws #myhome #AC #runningwater #love #weekendretreats #stayingpresent
I keep finding myself analyzing what was and what i should have done differently. I don’t like to regret anything and now more than ever I regret a lot of things. Moving away is probably my number one regret that I’ve ever had. And I don’t know why?? Because if I wouldn’t have moved, would I have regretted staying? Probably. I am trying to focus on moving in a forward direction without looking backwards. Looking backwards while wishing to move ahead had me spinning my wheels for far too long. Zero progress. Or maybe minimal progress. I grew a baby in that time frame and I look at it like I have nothing to show for that time away from life. Something about that is so jacked up. I was away from the outside world while I was busy creating my entire universe. That’s a really really huge deal and by far my greatest accomplishment.
Shoulda coulda woulda has literally never been my take on anything, And yet I’ve never ever questioned my decisions so regularly, ever. And As much as I absolutely LOVE #CO , like love! It. Moving created everything heavy. That’s my own fault. I don’t have to live in that space. No one forced me there. I allowed it. NO MOrE- if that was my worst decision I’ve ever made, then I feel like I’m doing pretty great with my life. I’m grateful for being exactly where I am. I’m standing back up and dusting it off. Why focus on the things we cannot change? That’s a recipe for disaster and I’m in no mood for that dish. So happy Tuesday! Enjoy everything that is today! •Dear you. Dear me- Stop dragging your dust clouds in to today’s sunshine.
#everythingisrightonschedule