Remember The Big Things

I’ve recently received one myself, in a form that’s already come to countless
people and will come to countless more: news of a potentially serious health
problem. My semi-annual dermatology mole check turned up a localized melanoma
cancer in my ear that will need to come out immediately. The prognosis is very
positive – this thing is “non-invasive” – but it’s certainly an intimation of
mortality. Hopefully this particular bullet will whiz by, but it’s an
uncomfortably concrete message that sooner or later something will catch up with
each one of us.

Personally, I am doing alright with this. It’s like there are three layers to
my mind as I write here, just a few days after I got the news. The top is
focused on problem-solving. Beneath that there’s a furry little animal that’s
upset and wants to curl up with loved ones. The bottom feels accepting,
peaceful, and grateful.

Naturally enough, after the bullet passes – maybe taking a bit of your ear
with it! – you reflect on your life, both past and to come. Of course, you don’t
need a health scare – which in my case is small potatoes compared to what so
many people around the world must deal with – to consider what you care about
most. Then you appreciate the things you’ve honored so far, and you see where
you could center yourself more in what’s truly important to you.

While it’s good advice not to sweat the small stuff, we also need to nurture
the large stuff.

There are many good reasons to do so, from simply enjoying yourself to
recognizing the truth that one day you’ll have just A Year to Live, the title of
Stephen Levine’s haunting book. You’ll never know when you step over the
invisible line and the countdown begins – 365 days left, then . . . – but you
can know, before and after you cross it, that you’ve remembered the big things.

How?

A Few Questions

In this life, what do you really care about?

Looking back, what has mattered to you? Looking ahead, what do you want to
keep on the front burner?

Consider this well-known suggestion: imagine resting comfortably in your last
few days and reflecting on your life; what do you want to be glad that you felt
and did, that you made a priority?

Some Big Things

I’ll offer here some things I’ve been thinking about lately.
See what fits for you, and add your own. Here we go.

You. The sweet soft vulnerable innerness upon which both the chocolate kisses
and sharp darts of life land. Your own well-being. What you make of what the
poet Mary Oliver has called “your one wild and precious life.”

Love in its many forms, from compassion and small acts of kindness to
passionate romance and profound cherishing. The people who matter to you.

Tasting – with all your senses – whatever is delicious in this moment: a ripe
banana, birdsong, the curve of a highway railing, the lips of a lover, being
alive . . .

Practice. Helping yourself routinely to deepen in awareness and to pull weeds
and plant flowers in the garden of your mind.

Karma yoga – a Hindu term that means skillful action toward wholesome ends,
engaged as practice, imbued with a sense of union with whatever is sacred to
you. This includes taking care of details that matter, and appreciating the
power of little things to add up over time for better or worse.