Possibly doing this out of Order…

Ahh, so I need to look over this class and what I have achieved in it- or what it has helped me to understand about myself, I suppose. That’s a big question, and as usual I have a lot of different answers for it all jumbled in my head and completely unorganized. Usually when this happens I make lists. I like lists because they are the ultimate form of organization and they allow for (often a false) sense of achievement when it comes to big projects and such. That being said, have a list.

Some Things that I Learned about things that I learned about Myself and some Things:

I sleep a lot. It’s really strange to me because as a child I hated sleeping because I found it to be really, really boring. I still find it to be boring but I have also realized that without it I don’t function very well. And if my body wants to sleep, it sleeps, regardless of whether or not my brain wants to stay awake.

I put myself first, when it comes to me. If I get sick, I don’t go to class. This doesn’t affect anyone but me.

When I can’t concentrate I can’t retain knowledge; when I can’t retain knowledge I don’t learn anything.

Half the time I take notes because writing things down helps me to remember in my head what I am learning. the other half of the time I doodle random things because doodling allows me to clear my head and open my ears to the sounds of the speakers without being distracted by things happening in the class.

I like blogging, but only about myself. I don’t really feel confident in blogging about anything or anyone else.

Missing class doesn’t seem like such a big deal when I look at the bigger picture. Ten years from now, who cares if I slept through animation class? As long as I learned what skills need to be learned, that’s all that will matter.

I don’t think I normally talk loudly , but when everyone else is quiet I think that I talk too loudly to make up for the silence I can hear. Laughing helps fill the space too.

I like to laugh, which is funny (haha) because I don’t really like to smile. Laughing is different to me.

I talk about myself a lot, but it’s not because I’m totally self-centered, I’m just afraid that I don’t really know enough about anything else to have the confidence to have intelligent conversations about it (exceptions include: cats, colour theory, anime/cartoons, manga/comic books, computer programs, and various states that I have visited and countries that I have studied).

I didn’t really make any friends in this class, and that is O.K. with me. I don’t really go to class to make friends, I go to class to learn. { “The classroom is a wonderful, if artificial place: your professor gets paid to pay attention to your ideas, and your classmates are paying to pay attention to your ideas”— @austinkleon

I worry about money a lot. It affects me even when I don’t realize it. I think this might be part of growing up.

It makes me sad that occasionally I find my own creative work tedious.

I like to share my ideas with everyone, which is probably why I spend 80% of my time online.

I found that I’m afraid to draw fanart because I think people will accuse me of being uncreative, but most of the time I don’t really care what they think.

I know that if I don’t do anything I won’t have anything to show and that if I don’t show anything I won’t get anywhere, but I still find myself too lacking in confidence to show my work that often and when I do it’s never a serious presentation.

I am my own worst critic; the things that I think you are going to say are the worst crap I ever have to take.

I don’t like to take crap- and after a while I say fukkit and move on with life.

I don’t dwell on mistakes because I hate monotony. I’m too interested in what’s going to happen tomorrow to worry too much about what happened yesterday; afterall it has already happened and it’s not going to change.

People are mostly crazy. I think that crazy is okay in moderation, but that in contrast too much normal is unhealthy.

I really, really hate the chairs that they have in IT265. They are horrible.