Mistrust

Summary:
Starts off when Bella finds the meadow in New Moon, Laurent rapes her and bites her when the wolves show up. Now Bella must learn to live with who she is and what's happened to her. Inspired by the story "I am not the PERSON i used to be" by Akasha101, you should totally go check it out, it's super good!!! :) RATED TEEN FOR MATURE SITUATIONS (it's mainly just talked about)

Notes:
Haha, so I just realized that a LOT of my stories happen during New Moon except for like one... and that was the book that bored me the most, well that huge section where Jacob wasn't a werewolf and they were just hanging out (I have nothing against Jacob).

1. A Different Path

He bit into my neck as he violated me. It was so painful. Even if Laurent didn’t completely drain me and I somehow miraculously survived this, I would never be worthy of Jacob’s love, or anyone’s for that matter. I was violated now, dirty, and unfit to be alive anymore. Maybe it was a good thing that Laurent was going to finish draining me of my life once he was through with me.

Suddenly he pulled away; ripping his teeth from my neck, destroying the already shredded skin further. He stared at something in the forest for a moment before taking off into the trees. The last thing I saw before closing my eyes were three gigantic wolves chasing after him, and two more coming to stand above me they stared for a moment and then ran swiftly away.

As they disappeared into the forest I let my eyes shut. The fire was already starting to burn in my throat, gaining intensity as time passed. I couldn’t scream, the wolves might come back, or worse Laurent would remember me and return to finish what he had started.

Suddenly there were people there with me, hovering over me, blocking the sun from my eyelids.

“Sam, look at her, we have to get her to the hospital.” Jacob. He was here, with me.

“No, Jacob it’s to late, look at her neck.” The other man said. An unhealthily warm hand touched my neck, wiping away the blood there and making the fire even worse.

“He, he bit her. How could that monster! I swear, I’ll-“ Jacob fumed, and the hand was wrenched away from my neck.

“Calm down Jacob, you don’t want to phase near her… although she’s probably going to die of blood loss anyways. I can hear her heart, it’s barely beating.” It was true, my heart was thumping slowly. Laurent had taken to much blood from me, either way I was going to die, whether I was changed or died of blood loss.

“He’s a monster Jacob, what did you expect?” Another hand, it swept across my forehead, even though the gesture was comforting, it still burned.

“If it’s too late for Bella, then I’m going to help them Sam. That bloodsucker isn’t getting away with what he did to Bella.” Jacob sound angry and depressed at the same time. I wanted to jump up and say ‘Look Jacob! Look I’m okay. I’m going to live, maybe not as a human anymore, but the transformation’s occurring as I speak. The only reason I’m not screaming is so that the wolves or Laurent don’t come back and find you and I here.’ But I couldn’t, if I moved even an inch I would lose it and start screaming. Besides I didn’t want this strange man with Jacob to touch me, he might hurt me.

“Fine, let’s go. Charlie will most likely send out a search party for her. We can join in and then we’ll come here and get her body.”

There was a rustling, and then I heard loud thumps going away from the clearing.

I waited, maybe for only a few moments, or maybe hours, before I moved. I clamped my mouth shut against the scream of agony that threatened to erupt from my mouth.

I stumbled a few feet into the forest before collapsing again.

I decided to just wait out the transformation. Then I could get up and run. Run far, far away from here. I could stay hidden, away from people, away from men; I didn’t want to be around them. They would hurt me. All the men I had trusted in my life besides my own father had hurt me, whether emotionally or physically, there was Edward and the Cullens (it didn’t hurt to think his name now, not after what had happened), Jacob, although he sounded concerned in the meadow, and now Laurent.

The pain slowly started to fade from my body. I opened my eyes. It hadn’t even been a whole day yet, I had been counting in my head. It wasn’t even nightfall. The extremely small amount of blood left in my body must have shortened the transformation.

As the burn lessened I pushed myself up off the forest floor. I looked myself over. I was covered in my own blood from where Laurent had thrown me into trees and stepped on my leg, the same one that James had stepped on.

My first priority was to find clothes. Mine were ruined, and there was no way I was running around naked in the forest or in town. So I took off running in the direction I thought my truck was in. I knew there would be no humans around, and I always kept an extra set of clothes in my car.

As I ran I realized why Edward had loved running so much. It was so exhilarating. I felt so free of everything, even the fact that I would eventually have to come to terms about what I was, and how I became that.

I reached my car in record time and quickly changed into the clothes; jeans, a flannel shirt, and sneakers. I grabbed my money out of my wallet, and the extra I kept in the glove compartment and slammed the door.

I caught my reflection in the door. My hair was shinier, silkier. I had the curves I failed to have in my human life, and my skin was pale. My facial features had straightened themselves out, and I had the purple bruises under my eyes. My red eyes.

I gasped a little as I stared into them, then turned and ran back into the forest. I couldn’t stand to look at my reflection anymore.

As I grew closer to the clearing I heard voices, I stopped to hear what they were saying. Plus, if they were human I would need to be prepared to run in the opposite direction.

“I don’t know how she could disappear.” Jacob’s voice reached my ears, so Charlie had sent out a search party already. Charlie. I would miss him so much. But living with him was absolutely out of the question, it wouldn’t really be living with him though, I would probably kill him and the entire town population if I was anywhere close to them.

“Maybe she wasn’t dead yet… maybe she still had a little strength left and tried to pull her self down to the road.” The other man said.

“Then wouldn’t she have said something when we were with her before?” Jacob sounded like he was in pain again.

“Good point… unless… what if she’s being transformed into one of them?” The man asked, he sounded slightly angry. “If that’s what’s really happening Jacob, then we have to find her and destroy her. We can’t afford to have a newborn running around here.”

“But Sam, I love her, you can’t really ask me to do that…” As Jacob protested I turned and ran. Although I didn’t completely understand what they were talking about, I got the gist of it. The man wanted me dead, and they knew what I had become. I couldn’t hang around Forks anymore.

That was fine with me. It held to many memories for me, to many painful ones. They used to be happy memories until He and his family had to spoil them. Maybe going away would be good for me… maybe it would help me heal.