I’m Not Crying, You Are | Check out the first music video that actually made me cry

It’s no secret that I’m a long-time music lover. I grew up in days of TRL and used to watch music videos on VH1 every morning as I was getting ready for school. MTV’s Making the Video was one of my favorite shows to watch (you know, back when they actually used to play music videos).

With that being said, I can honestly say that no music video has ever made me cry. Until yesterday. A friend of mine posted a link to a music video on her Facebook page yesterday, so I decided to check it out because Bastille & Marshmello, amiright?

This video legit made tears fall down my face. Take a minute to watch the video and then read on for some back story.

Ok, so now the back story.

I started working when I was 17. I got my first actual office job once I graduated from high school and the first thing I bought with my first decent paycheck was a puppy. We’d gone to visit a woman who bred Golden Retrievers and I fell in love with one (never mind the fact that my cell phone had fallen out of my bag right onto the head of one of the adorable little puppies and I felt like I had an obligation to choose that one because I’d probably caused some damage to its adorable little brain – update: I didn’t cause any damage). I know dog owners are biased and always claim to have the best dog ever, but we literally hit the jack pot with our Kayla. She was my first child and she was the absolute best. A year after we adopted Kayla, my niece was born and Kayla never left her side. Briana could climb on her and smack her in the face and tug at her tail, but Kayla never went in defense mode. Unless, that is, Briana tried to run into the street and Kayla ran up and nudged her in the butt to knock her down before she could get there.

We had 12 fantastic years with our Kayla before we found out that she was full of cancer and had to be put down. I will never forget sitting in the vet’s office watching my niece hold the paw of her first best friend. Kayla passed away 2 months before my father passed away from cancer that we didn’t know he had, so the whole time period was just an emotional roller coaster. Seeing this video made me think of the happiness Kayla brought to all of us. We’ve yet to find the nerve to adopt another one, but maybe someday we will! Here’s a pic of my first child, Kayla: