Thursday, July 1, 2010

I wondered about whether I wanted to share this with anyone in the blog world, but I felt like I needed to get this out and maybe some other bloggers can identify with me. So here goes...

Since January, I have been undergoing fertility treatments. I wasn't really ready to share on here because I didn't know what the outcome would be or how long it would take. It took a toll on me emotionally and physically, but having a baby became very important to me. On June 4, I found out I was pregnant and it was the most amazing feeling EVER. This was something I wanted so badly and I finally felt like I was truly happy for the first time in a long time.

I was almost 8 weeks along when I went to the doctor this week and found out the baby was not growing. The news was devastating, shocking, and very saddening. First, I was depressed and upset...then it turned to anger as I wondered why this had to happen to us..and then I just started feeling numb. I really don't even know if I'm dealing with this pain the right way or if there is a right way.

This has been a very difficult week for my family, but we look forward to the future. Thank you so much for your support and I'll be back to blogging in a few days.

Lisa

P.S. I always, always make an effort to respond to every comment I get. I hope you understand that I may not respond this weekend, but I appreciate all your kind words.

I am so sorry for your pain. I have never been through what you are going through but have a struggle of my own right now. Blogging is a great outlet but I totally understand sometimes you just don't have it in you. God has a plan for us all, in His time not ours. Don't loose faith and I will keep you in my prayers.

I am so sorry. We've had two miscarriages (1st and 3rd pregnancies) and were told I would never conceive naturally again (a few years later and we did) and I understand the pain. Take care of yourself and give yourself a chance to heal.

I'm so sorry honey! Sending a ton of T+P from the northwest Chicago suburbs to you! One of my best friends just went through this same thing, so I know how rough it is to cope. You are a very strong woman!

Lisa,I'm so sorry to read this! I'll be praying for you. My husband and I lost twins to a miscarriage and then a daughter to premature birth (both happened last year). It is so difficult and I think you hit it right on the head when you said there may be no right way to deal with it. It is a roller coaster of emotions. But stay strong and stay connected to your husband. I'll be thinking of you.

I could say something conciliatory here, but the plain truth is, what happened sucks and it's frustrating beyond words. I have 3 fantastic kids, and I had a miscarriage. It doesn't matter what the circumstances, it's awful. Just remember, you have lots of support, even from perfect strangers, and when you DO become a mom, you'll appreciate it even more.

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Just a new mom, wife and domestic-wannabe born and raised in the Chicago burbs and the proud mommy of a smiley toddler and crazy cat named Kitty. It's a constant struggle learning to juggle work, home renovations, working out, crafts, watching tv, and having fun all without going crazy! The Pursuit of Happiness is my daily reminder that I need to learn to appreciate the little things in life and not stress so much. Feel free to e-mail me at kermiefrg@aol.com. I love getting comments and feedback : )