Sunday, September 20, 2009

Do you ever...

Do you ever say things like" This week I am going to work out every day." or "From now on I am going to eat healthy." or even something like "Wow, look at her. She looks so great, and she has everything together! I need to get my life together like that." These phrases are ones I find myself repeating nearly every week, yet nothing really ever changes. The first two are the ones that really frustrate me. I am not an "inactive" person, yet in the busyness of my life I have a hard time motivating myself to do these simple things. Every week I say these things, and every week when nothing has changed I feel frustrated at myself, and find myself asking why I couldn't have just done it!!!

Lately, I feel as though I have been so wrapped up in what those around me are doing and bring the judgment hammer down hard on myself. I know deep down this is not the right attitude, but it is the one I currently have. In the midst of learning how to believe God, I feel God also tugging at my heart that I need to believe in me too. I am trying to let go of the desire to do things right all the time, to embrace the life that God wants to offer me, a life that is free of worldly worries and full of grace. I am trying to get there, but still feel like I have a ways to go.

This week I am going to love me, love who God made me, do my very best to workout most days this week, to give the best of me to each of my students this week, be the wife Stinson needs me to be, and continue to seek the love of my Savior to lift these burdens I've been carrying.

4 comments:

Yes, Yes and Yes! I am an expert at the comparison game and it's something that I have been working and praying hard on for awhile. It's has gotten a lot better from what it used to be but I still need to remind myself of my blessings and how fortunate I am with MY life.

I know how you feel! It's such a natural human reaction to compare ourselves to others. But just like you said, your worth comes from God's grace and love. You're so wonderful, don't be too hard on yourself :-).