HELP NEEDED ....URGENTLY

Okay.. I am normal..well I consider myself to be. I am 34 yrs old, married with a 6 yrs old son. I am in the Army...Infantry at that...Have to stay on active duty for 2-3 yrs after every 2-3 yrs. I get leave for 2 months at most.

My problem is that I cannot understand what is going wrong with my life..... its my family..wife to be precise...Actually I got married very early...at 23 yrs of age and I was unable to provide for her emotional needs... didnot stand by her in most crisis... Before you start thinking on the wrong tracks, let me tell you that It is me only who is to blame...

I had a very sheltered life till I went to the academy..never had any friends...close ones atleast. Most of them used to shun me because of my goofiness...somewhere down the line, I got the idea that nothing can affect me. From there on I was just passing the time, being a loner and a bookworm.

But today, I am standing at a juncture in my life where I consider myself to be failure......In personal life, professional life and life in general.... I am on leave till mid september and then I go back to active duty... No internet...No phones.... a really remote and backward place....Please help me

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hi, i'm not sure i can be of any help, but here goes.You're not saying a lot, but you sound very stressed right now. If you think you're in imediate need of help please seek it now, from your doc, army, er or somewhere.

Is your marraige over(i may be misunderstanding) or can you salvage it. Do you want it to work. If you had such a sheltered life why did you choose the army-i don't mean to sound rude- can you leave it?Did you suffer some kind of PTSD that everything is falling apart on you now.

It is very important you speak to someone if you are having suicidal thoughts, Please elaborate if you can,boo

Edit:Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.

I am so sorry you are feeling so depressed. I am posting the crisis numbers for you so please do use them.

U.S. Helplines

National Suicide Hotline

1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)

This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.

NDMDA Depression Hotline | Support Group. 800-826-3632

Suicide Prevention Services Crisis Hotline 800-784-2433

Suicide Prevention Services Depression Hotline 630-482-9696

If you need imediate help, call 911

You have my prayers and please do seek professional help.

SincerelyKitt

Kitt, Moderator: Osteoarthritis, GERD/HeartburnAnxiety/Panic, & Depression*~* https://www.healingwell.com/donate *~*"When you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others."Not a mental health professional of any kind