My Light

My younger brother inspired this completely, I love him very much and I am very proud of this piece.

“Who did you sit with at lunch today?” I asked him.

“Nobody.” He responded starring down at his worn shoes.

“Why?” I questioned, almost immediately after the words left his chapped lips.

“No one will sit with me, but I like to be by myself, I can think easily.”

“Oh.” I whisper as tears well up in my eyes.

Adam H. is very tall for his age, with course brown hair, green-brown eyes, and a bright smile painted on his face. He always says “I’m not into fashion, I’m not into fashion!” whenever I scold his clothing choices. Most days you will see him wearing a worn tee-shirt of a vacation spot my family has traveled to, and athletic sweat pants or faded jeans. His voice is warm and sweet, some quality makes it almost impossible to ignore. I can not tell you how much I love that kid.

Everyone can remember the person in their grade that was made fun of daily. Most people even enjoy joining in on the teasing ritual. Normally it is Adam who is directly or indirectly being hurt without his even knowing it, or knowing all too well that there is something wrong. He does have something wrong with him, but I would never say that is wrong or his fault. The dictionary might say that it is ‘a pervasive developmental disorder of children characterized by impaired communication, excessive rigidity and emotional detachment’, but when you live with someone who suffers and shines with autism it is a very different concept. Adam has autism, but most days I don’t even think about that. I only think of how lucky and how much I have changed by having Adam as a brother.

I watch my peers every day, and I have changed. As if I see things through a different lens than those around me. To say that Adam has changed my life is an understatement. Adam has done so much more for me, my parents, and anyone who comes in acquaintance with him. He has taught us unconditional love and a never ending patient for others through his hardships.

I have experienced at lot in my life through Adam, some days I wonder how I am able to continue. A little light warms my soul to travel on through the dark. Adam is that light for me. He is special in many more ways than one. He gives me ideas to grow off of and to build onto. Adam is my brother, my hero in life, and I love him very much.

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I was on the verge of tears when I read this article. It is so inspirational towards others. I have a brother who has a speech impairment, so he can't express himself, so this relates to him in a way. Awesome Job! I'm going to love this article!

i love this article . it made me emotional. your brother is very lucky to have you as a sister. so are you to have him as a brother .there so many autistic children out there and almost none of them have someone to care the way you care and love your brother. i feel sorry for those people who don't know how love and care and who are so stupid to have fun at the cost of others.

i love this artical very much i was in tears it has so much love i admire how you feel for him and what he goes through i would wish very much for a loving caring brother like you your an amazing brother your a roll model a hero and an amazing wroter keep it going

Autism is a deep concept and the people who make fun of those with autism don't understand it's complexity. I believe that autistic people are capable of loving so much more deeply and affectionately, yet they are looked down upon in many societies, which is completely wrong. I have a special kind of love for these people and I can tell that you do as well. This brought tears to my eyes as I read it. Excellent work.

I really like how this wasnt simply an educational/informational argument and instead you ended it simply with the fact that you really love him even though a lot of the world sees him as one with many "faults".