Forgot your own initials did you, love? Wonder if Kyle ended up with Kris' jersey then.... I have too much time on my hands if I'm thinking about these things...

+ I got tickets for the cup final!!! Get in!! Just hope I'm well enough to go, as it stands just now I barely think I'm going to make it for the game on Sunday. Here's hoping.

+ I got an invite to the end of season awards dinner thing at Forfar Athletic this weekend, would have been pretty good I think but I'd probably cough up chunks of lung all night so had to decline.

+ Didn't get tickets for Download. They've not sold out once in ten years and the one time I had to leave it till last minute because I have no money they do. Shit happens I suppose but I'm pretty gutted. So, unless eBay comes up with the goods, I now have a week free 9th-16th June with fuck all to do. Any ideas?

+ Was planning on getting a new tattoo this week, don't think I'm fit for it though, it might just finish me off so I'll have to wait.

+ I spent an hour this morning crying over reports in the papers that Barry is going to go to West Brom. I just can't seem to get my shit together when it comes to that man. Pathetic I know but it really does break my heart.

+ I have to go to the Post Office later with about 20 things to send to various parts of the world. They really hate me in that place.

—Yet when we came back, late, from the Hyacinth garden, Your arms full, and your hair wet, I could not Speak, and my eyes failed, I was neither Living nor dead, and I knew nothing,Looking into the heart of light, the silence. Od' und leer das Meer.

So, after a painful night at work on Thursday where I could barely stand and my ankle was the size of the average hot air balloon then stupidly deciding that I would be alright to go to Glasgow yesterday anyway (I wasn't), by the time we got home I was in so much agony I ended up in hospital.

*sigh*

Basically I have some sort of fucked up infection that somehow got under my skin of my foot...it's a mess basically. So I'm forced into taking pills for it (I don't do medication usually no matter what's wrong with me but this time, I have too) and not moving very far until it clears up.

I watched Twilight the other day (I don't have any other excuse but curiosity). My fucking God what a shit film. I know I say that about most a lot of films but fuck. Had to watch Se7en just to recover.

I'm not working until 12 tomorrow so I'm having myself a horror night. Got Hellraiser I and II for nostalgia's sake (and because THEY'RE COMPLETELY FUCKING AWESOME), Pulse for the mandatory generic horror run-of-the-mill crap and Ichi The Killer because it's fucked up. Good times.

So, because I'm a curious orange, dearest f-list. What are the best and worst films you've seen recently?

Mine:Best: The Damned United and Angel - AWorst: Fucking Twilight (I still don't think I can forgive myself) and The Stepford Wives was on the telly the other night so I watched it through lack of energy to get up and change the channel. Two words: Fucking. Dire.

Can we draw a line under this whole sordid fucking mess now please? What a complete and utter cock-up that was, as if the SFA weren't a big enough joke as it is. Anyway, I'm sick to the back teeth of talking about it and even more so from hearing about it, so let that be that.

Can I just ask though, first of all, what you guys think? From outside of Scotland and from the point-of-view of non Rangers supporters. I'm really curious to know what you made of the whole situation.

This is getting well beyond a joke. All hail Celtic the fucking saint's of the premiership, is that it now? Because they can do no wrong even when they do? It's complete fuckery and I'm sick of it. I'm not even trying to defend what Fergie and Allan did because you can't, they did wrong and they're facing up to the consequences (even though it was a punishment that didn't fit the crime) but...fucking hell. It's like they've all just gone completely fucking batshit at exactly the wrong time.

Jeezus. Fucking. Christ.

Anyway.

Looks like Fergie's going to be going to Australia if anything, there's about three teams over there interested in him. Still can't believe this is happening. How the hell can he move to Australia he got homesick when he was at Blackburn for fucks sake never mind going 10,000 miles away.

The reserves are away at Motherwell today, they've been doing really well recently. Totally proud of them. Just as well they've been doing well since most of our first team are falling to bits or banned so we're gonna need some of them to step in I think.

Talking of injuries. Miller's going to a specialist in London to see about this really fucking annoying hamstring problem. I don't think he's going to be back before the end of the season to be totally honest, it's fucked up pretty bad and the two internationals didn't help at all. (Or the "sticky pitch" eh Kenny *wink wink*). Lafferty's still injured, don't think he's going to be back soon either, delicate little flower that he seems to be. Captain Kirk and McCulloch are both still injured as well, although should be back soon...although saying that, they've been saying Broadfoot will be back next game for the past three....

(I've had the most wonderful two days with reima in Glasgow but I'm home now, unfortunately, although I plan on going back through on Monday if I can. It's been epic and I'll post more about it later).

Few things I need to say.

I don't know how much you guys have heard about the Fergie and McGregor situation. But, as it stands just now, both have been banned from playing for Scotland for life; both have been suspended from Rangers for two weeks and most reports are stating that their Ibrox careers are effectively over: they have both been placed on the transfer list for the summer; Barry Ferguson is no longer captain of Scotland or Rangers.

Honestly? I'm numb. Everything has been blown so much out of proportion. Yes, they shouldn't have gotten that drunk on Sunday and that display on Wednesday was so far out of order it's incomprehensible. But, as Davie Weir said about Barry, it's not like he's killed anyone, there's no need for this vilification in the press. He's made a couple of stupid decisions in the past week and in so doing as proved all his critics right, thats not the Fergie we know.

Both of them have dragged Rangers through the mud in a way that we could have really done without right now, the situation at the club is bad enough without this happening. We've now lost, effectively, our two best players right at the time we need them most, this on top of the atrocious injury situation at the moment makes it feel as though we've just handed Celtic the title on a silver platter. We're being made out as a national joke at the moment and it hurts, really fucking hurts.

All that said, I'm still 100% behind Barry, yeah I'm disappointed and yes I feel let down by the man who until a day ago was the captain of both my club and my country. But he's been (as cheesy as this sounds) my idol for far too many years now for me to jump on the hate-fueled bandwagon. If he leaves football altogether (which has been hinted at) or goes to another club (there's three interested at the moment) then he has my full support whatever he does.

I hope and I pray that the rest of the lads are going to be able to get their heads down, get on with it and prove the entire fucking nation wrong. Prove that we're not a joke. Prove that we're not a team filled with prima-donnas and ego-inflated idiots.