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Slump.

27 April 2013

I've been in a bit of a blogging slump this past week. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's the fact that I've spent a lot of time at home and who really wants to read about me cooking & cleaning? Or maybe it's that I seem to have baby brain and I've gone from someone that can do three things at once to someone that walks into the kitchen and forgets what I went in there for.. Or maybe I'm just plain tired. By the end of the day once James is in bed you'll find me in bed, trying to find a comfy position whilst watching Netflix.

I feel like I complain a lot about being pregnant and that people must think that I'm not grateful for this little life growing inside of me when in fact that couldn't be further from the truth. I've made no secret of the fact that this pregnancy seems to be so much harder than when I had James. I'm still suffering with on/off all day morning sickness and I'm pretty sure that I've now got SPD but all that aside, I do love being pregnant and I would hate to think that anyone thought I felt differently. Every night I lay in bed with my hands on my bump and feel Emily wriggling and kicking away and it makes me smile each and every time. I love day dreaming about what she is going to look like. Will she have my curly hair? Will it be dark like her Dad's or blonde like mine? I daydream about what her relationship with James is going to be like. I cannot wait to see how he interacts with his little sister.

I just have to keep reminding myself that this is my last pregnancy and that I should enjoy it. It's so easy to sit here and think about how fast I want August to get here so I can meet her and hold her in my arms. {Also it will be great to feel well again!} I've decided though to try and enjoy the last few months of just having one child, of being able to give him one on one attention. I want to cherish each and every kick and remember what it feels like to have a baby growing inside of me. Pregnancy is an amazing journey and the fact that it's something that only us women can do is even more amazing.

Hopefully my blogging slump won't last long! Maybe having a little break this past week will have done me some good and next week my brain will kick start itself and I'll be firing on all cylinders.. :)