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Friday, March 22, 2013

The Only Thing Worse is the Cure, Part 6 of 7

It strikes as though I’ve always lived as hearsay. Overheard,
admired without substance, dreaded without context, all things that delivered
me safely to that fetid cemetery. I disembarked from our island with fifteen
heralds, all of us in identical hoods. At the shore, we split into eight. At
the second fork in the road, we split into four. Any group could have held the king
of lepers. After two villages, only Helen was with me, her clinging to my cape,
and those mariners far too confused to follow the correct band.

In my haste to meet my author, I brought nothing save money.
Helen carried with her the fruits of her garden, and a pillow. I ought to have
asked her why she carried that. I wish I could ask her now.

Helen departed me at the third village. Every one of them
was damned, tainted, stinking of human rot, even though every denizen looked
upon me with clear eyes. She sobbed that their clarity would not last, that
those villages we had passed were already lapsed to such doom, and that the
plague would swallow these souls without her help. She lingered to feed them
with the fruits of her garden. She had a force of will about her.

All I ever asked of them was to find me a book, yet my
heralds discovered the author instead of his work. Locals still spoke of the
lynching, boasting that slaying a witch had saved them from the plague that
swallowed so much of the mainland. For their rumors, I was happy to repay them
with malignities. Their private waters streamed into the gutters as I mounted the
outskirts of their cemetery.

Cemeteries have always been of unparalleled comfort to me.
There sleep no leeches. No one to take healing from my person. Only Cecil ever
appreciated the exhaustion of carrying so many ills. I prayed over the grave
for a night, until I was certain this was the particular Arab. He and his
family were murdered by Spaniards and heaped into a single casket. By my
miracles or his, the bones of his fingers were prying at the lid of the casket.
I comforted myself briefly that it was not I who raised him from death, for the
woman and three children beneath him appeared as still as the day they were
planted. I apologized to their memories as I rummaged through their person in
hope of finding a book about myself. They lacked even a scrap of paper.

Such a somber march I made, misstepping and returning for Helen’s
village, hoping for her solace, for her to define what I was. My self-pity
deserved to die. Locals had torn her apart and eaten her flesh, having
exhausted her fruits of their miracles. Even her heart failed to cure them, and
the cannibalism attracted crusaders. They set such a blaze to burn me with the
sin. I abided in the last house, breathing what air I could through Helen’s
bloody pillow, until the crusaders became so ensickened that their private
waters ran out through their eyes. Unseen, I flew for home. And that was the
worst of my decisions.

What is a field without rain? What is a lantern without
pilot? What is a rumor with no…

They lay in the dirt, and their filth, and their beds, and
some drifted in the tides. Decades of diseases finding opportunity at once. Cecil
sat in his rocking chair, though it rocked no longer. Lydia, Ruth, Old
Gregor, Geraldine, Saul… A hundred martyrs for a failed son. Oh, Cecil. How I fought
to make your chair move again.

Of them all, Mallory was alive. He danced on the docks and
raved about demons waging war on nests of angels in his palm, until my boat
moored nearby, and his pitch remained equally fervid, words merely running
canny, now arguing what a good thing my departure was for my sundry works to
come. Both mad and unmad, he ignored the dock workers who had perished all
around him in favor of chanting that I ought not to have returned, and fell upon me with a knife to compel me away.

I dragged Mallory into the tide myself. His hands clutched
at my wrists like the Arab’s fingers at the lid of his casket. I cannot raise
the dead, but I can lower them.

There were fifteen fat vessels loitering as I labored, voyeurs
armed with spyglasses. They fired cannons at my feet, dashing the tides, as
though I could be crippled. Mallory became as smoke between my fingers. They’re coming with their
muskets and clerics and cleansing blazes. Already the island reeks of incense. I’m
a story coming to an end. Soon I’ll lapse into hearsay again.

Am I only the result of a thing a man once wrote? Is all this?

And what gave him the right? What gives any? Who is any more
than the result of something two people once did?

Tonight I’ll eat from the garden that an enormously wise
girl once believed healed all ills, and sit beside the rocking chair of the
kindest man I’ve ever had the privilege to know. The supper may cause my people
to rise. My presence may cause them to rise. Or, I may be a failure.

Regardless, the ships will come in the morning, and I will
not be felled. I will meet them. I will cure them of their blight.

"Am I only the result of a thing a man once wrote? Is all this?"Yes!! Yes, you are and all that us! And that man is John!

Sorry, couldn't resist! Now on to the real comment: this piece flowed the most strongly for me. As confusing as it was it was his confusion and it felt like we were being pulled along through it with him, through him. Felt very much like being caught up in a great tide washing over a strange shore. Probably my favorite installment thus far!

What a cool character -- he creeps me out and makes me feel sorry for him at the same time. He has some emotions, it seems, but they're so light and distant. It's more like he knows he misses Cecil and appreciates Helen than feels it.

I apologise for my tardy visit to your blog, but I am now fully caught up on previous installments. I like the switiching of POVs from one chapter to the next - while it can be confusing, it really adds to the feeling of "coming together" for me. curious to see whose POV part 7 will be from

And his voice finally reaches! What a great installment this was John. I loved the tone. I felt his confusion, but also that chilling note in his voice, coming from the determination- so, so great! My only tragedy is that in one more part this beautiful and rich of plot lines serial ends. But... can't complain! Off to read the finale.