have i ever told you that you make me smile?high praise, i know, coming from me,it's high praise indeed because i have a jumbledup head and you make me smile and imaybe even found someone who will stay this time and maybe i even found someone whowill love me as much as i love them (itslipped out that night you almost gave up, almost threw in the towel, almost took thepills you've been saving) and i knowi wouldn't be able to live without you andi know i may have to and darling, itscares me it fucking scares me.just listen to that... my heart is racing like millions ofbutterflies are trapped and running around a ferris wheelscreaming let me out let meout because my head is jumbled up and i needyou near me and your arms around me and my hands inyour hair and darling your new haircut looksfine and do you really think i wouldleave you over something so silly asbotched bangs and shorter hair?because no matter how much you fluster me oh god i dont know how i could last twoweeks without you never mindthe rest of my silly teenage life.