Hi everyone. Been on Paxil since 2000 and recently, my doc increased my dose because my OCD traits are coming out more. I have a lot of things on my mind, am a chronic worrier, and am more anxious than usual. I've been waking up lately boo-hooing and really have to drag myself out of bed. By early afternoon, usually I'm ok. It really doesn't make sense to me how I can wake up feeling so bad but go to bed feeling good.

And welcome to the Healing Well AP forum. We are so happy that you are here.

Kitt, I always wondered why I felt better in the evenings. Maybe for the same reason, I know I can go back to bed soon. Also I thought it could be that there aren't as many demands on me in the evenings. But I wasn't getting any energy even until late at night, then I could function.

Hi Harlan and welcome, I hope you find some good advice and support here.

I used to wake up in tears a lot too, now I just gritt my teeth and get up. No excuses. By mid-morning I'm usually feeling a whole lot better.

I think the difference for me was to get up as soon as I woke, instead of crawling back under the covers and dwelling on all that go wrong. Not easy, but it's a pattern for me now. I hope the boo-hoos take a back seat and the increased paxil helps.

Well Harlan..I thought I was the only one with the morning blues..sheesh I detest that feeling! This morning was a great example...aaaargh..I knew I had to work with a certain someone who has not being playing nicely - I awoke with that feeling of 'dread' quickly followed by my mind telling me that I could not possibly go to work and face this person - I even developed the light-headed feeling and sore neck..While I was going thru all this nonsense I carried on getting ready for work - got the car out - got the shakes - went inside and sat on my bed - picked up my book about anxiety flicked thru a few pages...went outside got in the car and went to work - shaking all the way, trying to focus on my breathing..the bottom line is that things were not as bad as I thought they were gonna be - by morning tea time I was starting to feel Almost human - lunchtime not much better - and then by 1pm I could feel the cloud lifting - the rest of the afternoon was really good thank goodness! It can be done Harlan - tomorrow is gonna be a lot easier (she said bravely :)

Sista J.

'Raindrops on roses..'

'Peace of mind will come to us when we are happy with 'not knowing'...

H everyone. I am240w. I have had panic disorder for 20 years,and I'm still around having good days and bad. Today I go for an appointment for assistance and will get training for a new career. I am anxious about driving into the city so I'll be driven. Their is a lot on my plate right now and I'm looking after an elderly parent. It is hard to get people to understand my condition- sometimes I feel completely paralyzed with worry. I am still looking for soluyions.

I'm glad you found us. Kitt's advice of committing yourself to never staying in bed sounds really good. I wish I'd heard it 20 years ago when I first got depressed. I really hope your morning lows fade away as quickly as they came.

240w,

Welcome to you also! You've found a good and supportive place here. Taking care of a parent has got to be a huge challenge. Bravo to you for taking on that loving task and getting some career retraining - both huge jobs!

240w, welcome to HW, it's lovely to have you here. If you feel like posting more about yourself you can open up your own thread and introduce yourself to everyone. Congrats on the new career I hope you enjoy it here at HW

HarlanI was the same way as Kitt ( lil sis ) with my mornings...it was due to excessive worry about WHAT the day would bring my way for me anyways .........I believe it was anticiaptory anxiety with me....I had to learn to just get up and get into a "frame" or way of thinkingMy other way was to get on here as SOON as my eyes were open...........and focus on others so I didnt think about myself to much for me it helped........KITT"s Input is SPOT on........get out of bed as soon as you open your eyes ....I am severe OCD and I make the bed as soon as my feet hit the floor...lolHave many other weird OCD traits too.......The other thing I Make sure I do ( for woman ) lol is I go and no matter how crappy I feel or how sick I am I make sure I put on make up and do my hair dress nicely casual or have a pj day either way I am made up so at least I am doing something FOR ME and I find this does help me .......I hope you will become an active member here and I am so glad you found us There are so many wonderful and caring people here............LYN

Congrats on posting it does take a bit to put it out here

There is NO judgement here only acceptance and total understanding IMHO

I know what looking after your parents can do for your days I did it for both mom and dad up til they passed away Go to the Alzheimers forum if you need any help there okay

As far as doing the parent care and also going for retraining I really have to commend you for taking all of this onMost ppl that do not have anxiety and Panic DO NOT get it never will get it ........They all think you can just carry on and its silly that we get trapped in our homes or paralyed with fear.......That includes many doctors my friend.......Anxiety and Panic are real it has to be recognized as such like any other disease or disorder IMHOThat is why this forum is so great we all GET IT we all know where you are coming from and where you have been .......Are you seeing a counselor or on meds of any typeThere are some very good self help techniques as well at top of this page

I really hope your day went great for you and that you will post and let us know about it Ad Megs said you can start a thread both of you or join in the "I am and I suffer with " I will bring them up for you and Harlan...........Please do stay with us and get the support you need ........LYN.DX With Crohns,Pyoderma Gangrenosum,Anxiety/Panic,Fibro & Other DD