Really? But how come my friends don't have it? They work harder than me and I'm just lazy. (but maybe this is the effect of me being more stressed deep down than them?) I can't just do that how long does it take to truly recover. I have so much coming up next year. Like I should be so straightforward about wanting to recover, I don't try period. Everybody is so much better......

I am only speculating at this point. As Vasilisa pointed out, we are not qualified to diagnose you. Nor do I believe a qualified person would do so over the internet.

I do know, however, burnout doesn't necessarily have to do with the amount of work one does.

There are some days where I worked my ass off from 5 AM to 11 PM, and I felt really good, sleep well, and go on the the next day. Other times, I'll do a 8-9 hour day, and feel really stressed.

Part of it has to do with the rhythm and the lack of interruptions. Being able to have the time to get everything needed for the work into my mind and process it is very important for me. I don't do nearly as well on a choppy schedule (which this quarter was for sure). I suck at multi-tasking.

This quarter, I'd have an hour class, then I'd only have 2 hours for research, then need to observe lab for a few minutes, then like an hour for research, then another class, then some research, then class again, then some grading needs to be done, then homework, then preparation for office hours, then office hours. Other days, I'd have discussion, some time for research, class, then 6 straight hours of lab instruction (which is a multi-tasking job to an extreme).

I know that student life is like this. But after working in industry, it's like my brain needs rewiring. I had gotten used to coming in to do a job for 9-10 hours (with just breaks to clear my head or eat or whatever, maybe a meeting or two) and then come in the next day and do essentially the same sort of thing.

Accept the past. Live for the present. Look forward to the future.Robot Fusion
"As our island of knowledge grows, so does the shore of our ignorance." John Wheeler
"[A] scientist looking at nonscientific problems is just as dumb as the next guy." Richard Feynman
"[P]etabytes of [] data is not the same thing as understanding emergent mechanisms and structures." Jim Crutchfield

If you're so determined that you're screwed why even make a thread about it, that's just depressing.

That or you don't truly believe that and think there's a sliver of hope to be found in this thread. There prolly won't be one and the sliver prolly exists in professional help as previous posters have mentioned.

Good effort though none the less....

edit: Unless there is a sliver of hope in the thread, which is the advice to goto professional help and then you actually did find a sliver of hope in this thread if you follow through with it /MINDBLOWN

The key is to excercise the body, mind, heart, and spirit. The second key is to love all people so that you can relate to them and learn from them. If you do not, your subconscious will block all of the information because it will be experienced as pain. The third key is to realize that all your fears are a perception. Reality has no assigned meaning, it is how you interpret the events that determines their meaning.

There are infinitely many magics. Namaste, would you care to teach me some?

For all that we have done, as a civilization, as individuals, the universe is not stable, and nor is any single thing within it. Stars consume themselves, the universe itself rushes apart, and we ourselves are composed of matter in constant flux. Colonies of cells in temporary alliance, replicating and decaying and housed within, an incandescent cloud of electrical impulses. This is reality, this is self knowledge, and the perception of it will, of course, make you dizzy.

The loss isn't big enough to mourn to the outside world, but for personal achievement meant enough to me to do something similar to that in intensity but in a different context.

It doesn't matter how important others deem the loss. You were the one who felt it's significance because your experience is unique.

For all that we have done, as a civilization, as individuals, the universe is not stable, and nor is any single thing within it. Stars consume themselves, the universe itself rushes apart, and we ourselves are composed of matter in constant flux. Colonies of cells in temporary alliance, replicating and decaying and housed within, an incandescent cloud of electrical impulses. This is reality, this is self knowledge, and the perception of it will, of course, make you dizzy.

I can't focus during the day. It's been established It's about 7:20 now and I've only been able to concentrate for the last 20 minutes. How come I can't be like my classmates who have the determination to do all their assignment even if they are sleepy and unfocused andandandandand.

It's unfair. I can't compete this way. I mean me being angry about half the day being gone and contemplating why I can't concentrate from 10 am to 6 pm stops me because I can't go on now knowing why and solving it! Damn it. I'm fucked.

Anybody feel this way? I doubt it.

Sure, sometimes. If I'm not eating well or enough, especially if I'm vitamin b deficient. Poor quality of sleep contributes too. Like today/last night I've been dozing off, waking up and dozing off again. Getting lucid dreams that i don't want to be in while I sleep and when I'm awake everything seems foggy or fuzzy or something. I probably wont accomplish much today. Do you sleep very often? eat?

I can't focus during the day. It's been established It's about 7:20 now and I've only been able to concentrate for the last 20 minutes. How come I can't be like my classmates who have the determination to do all their assignment even if they are sleepy and unfocused andandandandand.

It's unfair. I can't compete this way. I mean me being angry about half the day being gone and contemplating why I can't concentrate from 10 am to 6 pm stops me because I can't go on now knowing why and solving it! Damn it. I'm fucked.

Anybody feel this way? I doubt it.

Just a suggestion:

Last time I saw an INTJ in this much of a tizzy, it was some gal who had problems dealing with her parents. She felt trapped by her parents’ strict expectations and she spent all her Ni energy turning the problem over in her head endlessly and floundering helplessly trying to figure out how she was supposed to deal with the situation. Meantime she couldn't focus on her normal daily activities because all her energy went toward working on the problem.

Once she was able to talk it out a bit, then she calmed down. She just needed to use some Te on her problems: She talked about what she was going through, heard about how other people handle their parents, and started to develop some new ways for dealing with her parents. I guess that broke the logjam and allowed her to start thinking productively again, rather than churning the problem over and over in her head with no solution in sight.

When a problem clogs up an INTJ, their Ni churns away in the background and eats up all their energy. INTJs need to use Te to get the problem out into the world and research some new ways of dealing with it. Then a judgement can be made on it and it can be filed away. And Ni gets freed up for new challenges.

Anyway, that might be a model for you. In other words, one might assume that your Ni is churning away in the background on some personal problem and leaving you unable to devote attention to much else. If you can talk it out a bit (either here or with a friend or with a counselor), maybe you can gain some fresh insights and break the Ni logjam.