About Me

A little corner for this mama to pen some thoughts, ideas, opinions and hopes for the future...this mama is happily married to a wonderful man and has a darling sweet son and now blessed with another son, alhamdulillah...life is wonderful!

Friday, May 16, 2008

Today, I was downloading all freeware softwares that I could recall that I've used during my 3 years in Open Source Systems Sdn. Bhd. Working in that company enabled me to have a vast exposure on the operating system called Linux that many windows user fear and run away from. I practically freaked out too the first time I saw that I had to learn from a console window to do my work...really freaky...but when I think back, learning this cool OS was the best thing I did during my work there. I was also lucky cause I had trainers to give me the hands on to install and use the OS and also since that company was providing Linux training, I had the priviledge to join their training classes for free...yes, for free! Though as time went by, I had to do more project management and less programming which was actually good too, cause programming isn't exactly my cup of tea, which I realised later on that is...which is also the reason why I did my Masters...though, there is the question then, why in the world did I do Msc. in Computer Science then. Now THAT, is another story of course...hehee

Anyway, thinking since I'm not working anymore, a fulltime mama to Ridhwan and spending most of my time at home, therapy with Ridhwan and well I could say with a much better ease of mind as compared to my working days....oh and successfully completed my Masters with flying colours..still a big surprise to me?!...I would think, my experience and expertise in the computer world would not be needed anymore...hmm, boy, was i wrong!! Surprisingly, my sis-in law still ask me questions concerning networking or computer stuff which sometimes I could answer if I remember! Heheee...or I would tell her, everything is in the internet! Yup, hampeh punyer sis-in law....well, I can't help myself not answering her question as seriously I really can't remember and it would take some time to remember or get the answer....or maybe I just don't know and that I totally can't recall if I forgot or never learn about it...hahaha...and of course there is my father who'd ask me bioinformatics stuff which i totally dread these days, but don't mind answering actually but I just try to avoid any bioinfo questions, sorry tak ingat and takpalah, tak tahu pun takpa...hehee... Well, for a girl who studied engineering, one would expect to learn more of engineering or computer engineering stuff when one person starts working right...but learn biology now, from scracth?? Nooo!!! ...well, that was a real challenge and experience for me when i first started working..and after awhile it sunk into my head...that's it!!....why don't I just take up some Biology course, since I'm gapping most of the time when I attend some of the meetings with clients with biology background!...yup, that, was also one of the reason I decided, enough bioinfo for me...tata biology...here comes teaching line....this was of course before I delivered Ridhwan and now I think I like my simple and stress free life as a mama and housewife to my family...

Well, now a new challenge is facing me! My dear brother has asked me to do some database management system which I must say I did very, very little while I was working....Zatil will definitely agree and can back me up on that kan Zatil ;0) Heeheee....buuut, yes there is a but here, Alhamdulillah I had the experience and time to install some web content management systems on....Linux...yup Linux...windows? ...yes, I have....but since I rarely used or install it...I am now cracking my head trying to recall the softwares I installed before. Though, Alhamdulillah again, I was able to find them all without consulting anyone and successfully installed the softwares! Yippee to me! Hahaha..

Now...here comes the tricky part....sure, I've installed them...but now, I so can't remember which certain folders need to be in certain folders to ensure it runs smoothly!!! ARGHHH??!! Yes, so now that is my biggest problem and that means more reading....sigh...not that I don't want to help my brother, he needs me and I will help him...but I guess, I am so relax and happy in my comfort zone of not worrying about programming or computer work anymore, this 'new project' for me is sure a wake up call for me with a big cling-clang!!

Its okay, I nearly gave up my masters when Ridhwan was hospitalised and so many events were occuring during my Msc that would have made me just stop my Msc entirely...but I needed to show Ridhwan that whatever I started, I must end it, with dignity and at least try...yup...try and try again....just like what I'm doing with Ridhwan to ensure he gets to walk and run...and play like any other children..insya-Allah.....so Ridhwan, mama must remember that little talk I kept giving myself and to you about not giving up and so try to install whatever I need to install and make Pak's(what Ridhwan calls his uncle) web a reality...Insya-Allah...and of course worse come to worse there's Zatil, Ayu and May Yee to help me ya! Pleaseeee....

Okay...how long I've stopped working? ..umm...2004 October was my last month at OSS...so I can say, I've practically left the working force for nearly 4 years now...when was the last time I did web work? ummm...probably October 2004.....soooo, I am cracking my head right now trying to recall back web work which I've not laid my hands on even during masters time which I've left nearly 4 years ago!!!! Arghhh!?!! ...okay..okay, relax Reenaz...there's a lot of friends out there who can help, an sms away, an email away, a call away.....sigh...who am I kidding that I can help my brother to do a website for him ....or actually some database management....but, as I've proven myself that giving up is never an option in my life to show Ridhwan that his mama is strong...I shall and now do it in Windows, which I've done before, but can't seem to remember??!!...okay, relax reenaz...take a deep breath...its okay, I can do it.....ganbatte mama Ridhwan, you can do it! Yes I can, yes I will.......I hope....

Last weekend, I attended my good friend's wedding at Nikko Hotel, KL. The hall was really nicely decorated and I enjoyed the live musicians playing the violins and...I can't seem to remember the other musical instrument, heehee. Anyway, it was a lovely wedding and a good time with old friends. Though, I was quite sad that I couldn't attend the wedding with me hubby as he just came back from Bintulu on Friday and was down with fever plus diarrhea...the poor darling...Ridhwan too was having runny nose at that time, so I was worried leaving those two together even though my mom is around. But even if my mom is around, most of the time it would be my hubby taking care of Ridhwan. But Alhamdulillah, they both somehow managed without me around. But Ridhwan was definitely missing me, as he asked my mom "mama? mama?" and my mom said "Mama went out.." and he said " Come back! Come back.." Huwaaa!!!...oh Ridhwan my son, u missed me yea?! Sob...sob....but when I came home, I quickly kissed his forehead while he was sleeping away beautifully in his cot...saaayang Ridhwan....

Anyway, luckily, my dear good friend, Iela was kind enough to give me a lift to the wedding at Nikko Hotel that night. Thanks yea Iela and Aqus! It was so nice to see little Amirul all grown up. We must get together with the whole family next time ya! Insya-Allah...The journey to Nikko Hotel was nice for me as it was a time to update myself and Iela on our current life and happenings. It also made me miss hubby and Ridhwan very much at that time. As soon as I reached the hotel, I rushed with Loges to see the bride while she was made up at her room. She looked resplendent! Then after that, I rushed down for maghrib prayers and head to the hall. The hall was lovely! Luckily, I was placed with other good friends Belinda, Loges and Aliza with their other halves, so I was not entirely that lonely that night. But I have to admit, it was pretty sad for me when they started playing romantic songs when the bride and groom came into the hall and when they showed the church wedding pictures held during the day. I missed my hubby that time!! Huwaa...oh well, that shows how rarely I attend a wedding or any dinner event all by myself these days.

However, It was really nice to meet my other ex-classmates from secondary school and some very good friends, which I have not seen nearly 14 years and some that I have lost contact past few years...but as they say, friendship is a wonderful thing and you never forget good friends, and seeing some of the gals, like Iela and Ija really brought back wonderful memories during our years in secondary school and how much I miss their company a lot. So, it was really nice to see them again after all these years. I also enjoyed the company of Patrick and his wife Allison. Despite meeting them only a few times, they are such a nice couple and I had fun laughing and talking to them. So, all in all, it was a lovely wedding and I had a nice time eating chinese food! Was really good, I was surprise that I was quite full cause I've attended a few chinese dinner before and was always hungry afterwards. Heehee...yes, despite being many course... So, Nikko's food was really really good! Heheee...

Well, here are some of the pictures at the wedding. To chery, congratulations dear! I'm very happy that you have finally found your one true love. May happiness be with both of you always and your journey is about to begin, so be a good wife and have a wonderful life together! Congrats again!!