We gotta learn to see the beauty in each moment of lifeEveryone has different pasts and we're seeking the lightThe world is divided between peasants and kingsBut the truth is everyone is looking for the same thing

Having given up and started things, the earlier days are the harder, more meaningful victories. It is hard to believe now but at some point you pick up momentum where it will become easier. Congratulations.

On this day I am starting to feel my energy back, its been a long time(8yrs) since I felt my chi flow, and its coming back, man I missed that feeling. bout to go to the gym for the second time today, I remember when I did that a bunch, back when I lived 30 seconds away.

We gotta learn to see the beauty in each moment of lifeEveryone has different pasts and we're seeking the lightThe world is divided between peasants and kingsBut the truth is everyone is looking for the same thing

So today I figured out how to freaking stop thinking and reacting to things out of anger. funny thing is I have been doing it forever, just at the wrong times. Wonder how long itll last.

We gotta learn to see the beauty in each moment of lifeEveryone has different pasts and we're seeking the lightThe world is divided between peasants and kingsBut the truth is everyone is looking for the same thing

Another day closer to a month, I find Friday nights to be the hardest, so we will see if that has eased yet tonigh. Off for some coffee and to read.

We gotta learn to see the beauty in each moment of lifeEveryone has different pasts and we're seeking the lightThe world is divided between peasants and kingsBut the truth is everyone is looking for the same thing

All are valuble human beings non any more valuble than the next.We are a compilation of our genes (heredity), enviornment, and our prevailing awareness (which is changing all the time). These are what make us who and what we are, and why we act the way we do. Becoming more aware is the one thing we have controll over. So when one realises (keep trying to remind myself), that I am no better than anyone else helps to temper your anger, when it come to reactions to others stimuli. Judgement is a difficult thing to temper.We are all knuckle heads on the same bus.

Happiness is a personal choice!I am the sole source of all my sadness and joy."The logic of worldly success rests on afallacy: the strange error that our perfectiondepends on the thoughts andopinions and applause of other men."Source: Thomas Merton

I feel all that for sure, what I am talking about with the anger is not a thought or no thought , but in fact a feeling, a weird ass feeling that I can turn on and off like a switch, not so much a peace feeling but an energy feeling. It was an old school meditation I used to do, a by product of qigung. Tomorrow I go to the cleveland zen centre and start free qugong classes, Excited

We gotta learn to see the beauty in each moment of lifeEveryone has different pasts and we're seeking the lightThe world is divided between peasants and kingsBut the truth is everyone is looking for the same thing

Man I really have to wonder why it is that I still wake up feeling hung over a lot. Not the nausea so much as the gereral uhgness of the whole situation. What the shit anyways, lasts only a fraction of the time but absolutly shitty anyways

We gotta learn to see the beauty in each moment of lifeEveryone has different pasts and we're seeking the lightThe world is divided between peasants and kingsBut the truth is everyone is looking for the same thing

Happiness is a personal choice!I am the sole source of all my sadness and joy."The logic of worldly success rests on afallacy: the strange error that our perfectiondepends on the thoughts andopinions and applause of other men."Source: Thomas Merton