A freezing rain your force
upon me, a dark cruel wind
blowing everywhere at once.
My mind frightened, quivering,
not wanting to believe, searching
for a safe place to hide as body
breaks into fragments
no longer part of me.

What did I do or say?
Something rank hides
behind the beautiful mask
of your face, your heaving,
muscled chest, your breath
smelling of mountain meadows
and stream.
Despite the sparkle
in those deep, blue eyes,
no sky fathered you,
up from muck
and the putrid,
seething abyss of hell
you came to climb.

Take what you came for
I will not give it freely,
the shivering you feel in me
is not from fear, I am forever changed
by hate. Wherever I go,
whomever I lay against,
my fury in anger will search
you out in them.