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First, as a disclaimer I think ‘fap’/fapping is a utterly stupid term, I am using it simply because that is the conventional internet word for it. That being said, in case you don’t know what this is, it is a forced celibacy of refraining from sex – mostly from porn.

I have an interest in sex from a scientific point of view that is surprisingly lacking in the world, so have dove into this pretty hard with research and self-experimenting.

It has different levels of just no porn, or no sex at all etc. The real mode is no touching/orgasm/porn at all. It is claimed that after about 90 days you become human again, no more ED, you can talk to girls, you can get laid etc etc.

Now, here is where it gets tricky, because I definitely think that mass porn use can mess up your brain as well as imprint new fetishes (which makes me think being gay is much more of a choice than liberalism wants us to think) but there is a logical fallacy going on here, see if you can find it regarding the cures you susposedly get for your given up the habit.

This is a form of giving up control – and giving it straight to girls. This is the darkest truth I have realized about this movement, (I don’t want to come off as pro-porn, but the alternative I think is worse) is that YOUR SEXUAL AND MENTAL RELEASE NOW COMES FROM A RANDOM JACKPOT OF A WOMAN.

You can read on reddit endless points of ‘finally got laid, IM CURED’ or ‘girl bumped into me, she knows how much man I am.’ This is blue pill noobery 101, where the girl is the sole arbitrator of reward and validation. ‘You are not a loser jason, after all suzy touched you dick!’

This is hidden of course in all the talk of curing erectile dysfunction, ‘lower voice’, more muscles etc etc, but by and large the over-riding goal of having sex with a girl. It is total anti-MGTOW style of that your loserness is only cured when you have blown a load into some whore you were desperate enough to convince.

I am harping on this a bit, but it is critical to understand how dangerous this underpinning of the goal is. This is literally a clone of shaming that the highschool nerd would suddenly be acceptable if he had a girlfriend. That the fapper is now such a man because he has got his little dick wet.

It is disgusting. With modern girls endlessly capricious, slutty, diseased, ego whoring, flaky, and out right manipulative; signing up for a kibble of attention from them is the height of stupidity.

Heh…and I haven’t even got into the science behind abstinence, which unfortunately very sparse, there is the ‘famous’ china study of a 7 day temporary testosterone boost that goes away (small sample size also); and one that studied for a few weeks but had a lot of problems too. THAT IS IT. It is not conclusive one way or the other, that is a fact.

What is not debateable though is when as a man you give women the key to your validation you are in for a world of hurt.

Trump showing his true colors is a good wake up call for a lot of us, as I admitted in an earlier post of falling victim to myself, is nothing more than controlled opposition. Yet today I see mass protests in California against Trump, undoubtedly liberals, but here is where it gets complicated and everyone loses except the ultra rich.

Before we being, take a look at an old post I wrote about the ‘levels’ of seeing reality where if a person is ‘aware’ at all preceives a sort of difference between republican and democrat – those damn communist democrats or those bible thumping conservatives.

This and the lower level of unawareness accounts for easily 95%+ of the populace. These are the people who like my coworkers I argue with will swear Cruz is a ‘real conservative’ even after pointing out he takes goldman sachs money like the rest of them.

So, back to the protest, you have these liberals living in level 2 here, where Trump is this big bad racist they must stop; they you have republicans in their mind seeing these college kids/mexicans etc and it proves to them what a ‘good guy’ Trump is and readies themselves for battle against the liberal horde.

The problem is…Trump is not their man. At all. This is EXTREMELY problematic because as tensions get worse more and more join the trump train which is only aimed straight at the liberals, so both of them develop this deep, violent hatred for them while Soros, Adelson, Zuckerberg et al get away scot free.

Its going to get bad, and its the two sides played against each other where the man in the castle just watches the proles kill each other, all to ‘make america great again’.

One thing missing in the general nationalism movement is any sort of discernible goal. A lot revolve around mundane things like get the mexicans out of here, etc etc which probably has to happen, but its to what end? There is a little known author whose name popped up repeadetly that I decided to read some of his stuff, Julias Evola, and I must say I am impressed.

Essentially he advocates a spiritualism of sorts in a nationalistic beat, that a country is really just land and it is the beliefs that bind me – a belief in honor and duty that transcends ALL else.

Here is a great quote from ‘Men Among Ruins’ where he talks about what is needed vs what is insufficient:

“The substance of every true and stable political organism is something resembling an Order a Mannerbund in charge of the principle of the imperium, comprising men who see loyalty as the basis of their honor. But in time of crisis and of an overall moral, political, and social disintegration (as in the case of our day and age0 a generic reference of the ‘nation’ does not suffice for reconstructive work unless such an idea assumes a revolutionary overtone including elements of a properly political order weakened to various degrees.”

This has got me thinking a lot lately, because America as a place is decent, but in my heart that is never what I ‘stood for’ in a way, it’s just land, I just happened to be born here. It’s like people who were born in one city and LOVE their football team and insist that this is objectively the best team, and even if they were born elsewhere would love this team (I’ve had people make that exact argument), I long had figured out there had to a transcendental reason and ideal. One that someone on the west coast, or texas or the east would come to the same conclusion – a HIGHER TRUTH.

It is likely no mistake the utter mixing that has happened to all races, the inter-breeding, the lack of real borders between ideas. Just one giant cesspool and sewer. If there is any hope for how great we could become, it is going to be a long hard, likely bloody road – but first we need to know what our goal even is.

This song is actually pretty heavy anti-white, but the lyrics capture the point we need to embrace “WE CARRY IN OUR HEARTS THE TRUE COUNTRY, AND THAT CANNOT BE STOLEN, WE FOLLOW IN THE STEPS OF OUR ANCESTRY AND THAT CANNOT BE BROKEN.”

A major thing to intelligence is being able to see when you are wrong, and accept it; this is one of those times for me, I admit I was wrong to support Trump.

Not because he is a racist, sexist etc etc, I wish he was, but really all he is, is an relief/escape valve for white/nationalist anger.

From the beginning when he started espousing populist positions I was wary, how could he REALLY be against china when all of his products were made there? Could he really be against cheap illegal labor when he profited from it? Well, who cared, what he was saying was novel, so out of the norm it seemed so legit.

I was a trump fan as early as over a year ago last year, but it doesnt really matter much, I towed his line for a while, my nationalistic streak found someone that somehow had a chance. He tore apart chumps like Cruz, and of course people like Cliton were pure shills.

However, I started having more pause when Trump was talking at AIPAC/jew stuff about how much he loves isreal and his kids who converted….gave me major pause how could a nationalist be in love with ZOG?

It slowly dawned on me that Trump was NOTHING other than an escape for the increasing rage white males against this stacked society. He was kind of like Alex Jones, where they say enough that is true that they can shove the rest of lies down.

Check these links, they have some very good sources about why Trump is nothing more than controlled opposition, literally no different than cliton or cruz and arguably much worse because he seems like the white nationalist and will only sell us out.

It is very scary to me, because take a site like Daily Stormer, they occasionally have stories there that are good, but they are sucking Trumps cock like no other, constantly saying ‘he doesnt MEAN IT’ when he says he isn’t nationalist or loves the jews etc. I don’t want to bash that site, because it represents how I was: Trump was so meme-ready, so funny just stomping all these noobs, yet the more one looks at his actions the more he appears nothing more than a traitor designed to fool so many. (Hey red-pill brothers, lets remember one of the most important lessons we learned from girls JUDGE BY ACTIONS NOT WORDS)

Think of how damaging Trump’s win will be, the nationlists will cheer ‘HOLY SHIT WE WON!’ then its more of the same, more middle east wars, maybe WW3, etc etc, and now that movement is sidelined for at least 20 years.

Anyway, it was a mistake to fall for him, I really should have looked at his actions (like him NOT taking PAC money…but lo and behold starts taking the money now from the RNC.

Try to see the truth, its hard and often takes us to admit we are wrong.

In the USA our media is so utterly controlled we know very little other than that big bad men want to stop the poor refugees from making it into europe. There are still men left in Europe undoubtedly, but in general the victim/feminist mentality is so utterly toxic and over ran that I do not see Europe living anywhere near its current state, likely enclaves will emerge that have zero tolerance for brown rapefugees.

Many people do not realize history was brutal, hard, and MEAN. Civilization is not the norm, and very often it reverts back to barbarism, when it does feminists will be appalled at their understanding was so far off base. I feel for europe, that it got so cuckolded that no one thinks twice about breeding out their gene pool.

One day people will look back and think ‘what the hell did they expect?’ and some other culture MAY learn from the mistakes, but its likely not.

This has been an interesting topic to me for a while, and my own research has become a bit interesting in it regarding the ‘war against Christianity’. To be clear, I am not using that phrase sarcastically, nor am I actually a Christian. I do NOT believe in the Bible, Jesus as my savior etc, so I think my words on the subject can be a bit more honest since I dont have a dog in the fight.

The thing that inspired me to write this today, was I was having a discussion with my friend about how he could believe in it (normally he’s fairly smart), among the charges I leveled at him was the Christianity (from here forward referred to as C) was a clone of the older religion Mithraism and Egyptian god Horus. I had heard this before (on the movie Religious first) and a quick serach online ‘proves’ that C copied Mithraism or Egyptian Horus. Both born of virgin moms, born Dec 25, 12 apostles, 3 kings all that shit, well sure seemed like a fucking slam dunk to me. I believed that for years, and only recently thought to actually question it. (Again, I in no way believe C is a true grasp of reality, but merely another battlefield for corrupting our mind against endless subversion.)

The problem with all that is…it isn’t true. None of it. When you get out of your ‘search engine bubble’ and look for counter facts they are there. Horus the supposed Jesus clone had a far different conception story, his mom had to find all the dismembered parts of her husband to reassemble him, including crafting a dick since it couldn’t be found – not exactly an immaculate conception.

Mithraism, which the lie went was a predecessor of C that C ripped almost everything off. The major problem is, both C and M evolved nearly the same period. So, this is not to say they were very likely copying each others ideas, but M was not a progenitor in any easily proven sense.

All interesting, and if I was a believer I could say ‘see! They want to stop god’s word!’. The true curious thing to me, is why stop some backwards, easily disproven religion to begin with? Is it because Europe was a C nation, a nation that beat back the Muslims multiple times? So even if the people were believing in something false, they are dangerous to the current muslim-phallic leaders of the world?

What exactly is the point of attacking a incredibly narcissistic religion that presupposes its superiority in a galaxy or universe we can hardly fathom, that ‘God’ cared so much about turning people into salt, or raining on the earth for 40 days (get all the animals on one boat! ALL ANIMALS!) when most people these days are leaving of their own accord?

Now, to counter my own point, secularism is dangerous as well as it has sprung up an insane nihilism as well as self-righteous feminism which makes me question my off the cuff dismissal of C slightly.

I don’t have the answers, because the evidence seems to point in different directions.