My friend, alsesker. I would like to encourage you to think of reading music as one of your many goals in learning violin. Get a reading music method book, or random music you don’t know, and practice sight reading for 20 minutes a day. Then move on to playing by ear. Practice bow grip, bow arm function, tone production, finger exercises and songs youre working on. Sight reading is just a part of your practice and if you happen to memorize as you go, that doesn’t hurt anything. Keep the music coming. New, original music you’ve never seen, perhaps an etude book. But make sure you are enjoying your practice and limiting frustrating, maddening goals to a time limit. 🙂