A French girl's musings…

Unwanted

Floating through life, knowing I am your cross to bear because you are tainted. Knowing it on the surface, but believing far below, hidden in the recesses of my mind, that the fault must be mine – no logic, no reason could ever convince me otherwise, not deep down in the dark primal corridors haunted by eyes that do nothing but glare and despise.

You made me a target, a magnet for every blank face, every cold soul – better the devil you know. A flower, a star, magical light sent my way interpreted as a mere trick to break my defences – love, a foreign currency I had neither knowledge nor understanding of.

Floating through the years, keeping the black dog at bay with every ounce of strength.

Mountains climbed, peaks conquered, flag floating – nothing made a dent in your indifference. I was left with the stain, faded but never erased.

Floating through the wound…a trespasser, unwelcome, undesired, unwanted, unloved. Every single day, since the beginning of the human race, that same simple crime has been, and is being committed. Seemingly with impunity.

I think that well articulated pain is n important contribution. Very often people don’t have the words they need to express the experience of pain…this is when the function of the artist becomes clear…thank you for your work.

You are so right. I have found myself so many times, say… reading somebody’s words or looking at a painting, and thinking: “this is *exactly* how I feel. It’s a fantastic thing to see your emotions laid out on a page or a canvas, etc…it’s very cathartic.
Thank you!

Thank you Jennifer, that is such a sweet thing to say. I don’t do awards but I do occasionally do challenges…the problem is that I’m swamped with them and there’s not enough hours in the day…so a lot of them I end up forgetting about and they never get done. I will try to do this one, not straight away as I’m kinda busy atm but I will really try to get to it.
Thank you again for thinking of me, I think you’re an awesome writer as well (and I’m not just saying that) 😉

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I'm French and I like to write. I'm opinionated, a real bookworm, obsessed with words, interested in Fashion & Style. I don't follow the crowd and I'm drawn towards *unique* people who have things to say. Intelligence is sexy and brains really do it for me.
I'm also a qualified journalist, in possession of the NCTJ diploma from the National Council for the Training of Journalists in the UK.