It was the last show of PyroMusical competition in the Philippines for this year. Gladly, I was given the chance to witness this spectacular show. It was Italy who last to performed, because, Philippines as the host, doesn't compete (or just what i thought). Again, I felt so proud to be on MOA and capturing the whole event that night. I super love Italy and I felt a sudden rush of proud when they started to light up the sky. It was so beautiful, so magical. I had released every negative vibes I had in my body in an instant.

That is of course I am so into fireworks. I don't know why, but it really has that spark that telling me that everything is gonna be alright. As you can follow my journey, my life is hanging by a thread.

So this is it? I never thought it'll end like this. I was never been a part of LGBT community, but now I am proud to admit to myself that I am one of them.

Remember this post: the only exception: Brielle? It was our story. This may look crazy. It may look like it wasn't me. But the hell I care. I love that person. So what if she's a lesbian.

Its just hard for i don't even try to make things work. I just gave up on us without considering her feelings. *sigh*

People's advice and opinion on this matter is really confusing. This makes me think when I can't even think straight. I thought that to love is to be happy. No other things to consider. As long as you are happy and you are not hurting other people. But in this life, there are some consideration. As a Christian, I can't really admit if this is a sin, i just know that our relationship was never right.

But think about it, can we really have or do the right thing when it comes to love when everything seems to be right? It feels like fighting against the whole world. And though your friends are everywhere, comforting you like the old times, you can't really feel okay.

Moving on is not a one night process, it'll take some time. I know that. But no matter what happen, and with this decision of mine of leaving you, please always remember that I am still here to be your friend. I will always love you. Let's just take some time till our wounds be healed.

In this fast changing world, what is the biggest change you want to happen in your life? We are now in 2012, modern day with full of different technologies, cafe bars everywhere, gimmick places at the corner and Maria Clara's out of hand. I am a 21 year old lady, turning 22 on July, and no big changes happened to me when it comes to TIME.

Unrequited Love. A love that requires nothing. Just a hope. Hope for that person to love you back.

How hard could it be when that special someone can't love you back completely. When a doubt seems to be the only thing he/she believes in.

Unrequited Love. Two words, just two words yet can be the only words to tell what you are, who you and how you became that "ONE".

I'm tired. Living with these words. Trying to be someone, pretending to be strong. I'm tired of being the weakest link. But what else can I do? When every time I think of doing changes in my life, i feel more tired.

Well, i guess this is just another sleepless night, while i will be lying on my bed, hugging tight Garfield and Babz with thoughts circling around my head. I can sense my head telling me to stop worrying, stop doubting. But I can't. Why? No assurance given, lack of trust to invest and more thrilling emotions to experience.

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be
understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has
reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings.
Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.Emotional temperamental and
unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at
times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical
and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally.
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats
others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to
be alone.Always broods about the past and the old friends.Waits for
friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves
to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

Since the day i have watched Forrest Gump, these words became my words. From the moment i realized it was right, things became clear. Throughout my life, unexpected things keep on happening. And this one is something i never thought i could ever experience.

October of 2011, regular shift on our office had new trainees for the position of graphic designer/website designer. It is unlikely new to us, but what caught my attention was the newest trainee. The smallest of the group, someone who doesn't seem to talk much, different and someone i never thought I'll get close with. And honestly, i had my first impression as the basis of having what is used to think about "her".

Since the day i was born, i haven't much time getting involve with lesbians, i doesn't even have a single friend of their kind, that's why when first saw this new trainee, i instantly doesn't paid much attention to her. Don't get me wrong, i have nothing against them, its just that i was just too busy lurking myself with boys and gays are usually the friends i choose to have.