I’ve been thinking a lot about body positivity and knowing your worth. Maybe it’s because I’ve started following a lot of kick ass women on Instagram, and every time I get on it I get to see some bomb ass women owning their bodies and spreading super positive messages about loving yourself. Maybe it’s because since I’ve decided to stop letting other people tell me what they think I should do and just tell them what I want to do or just doing it, I’ve been feeling much better in my own skin( like meeting up with an old friend). Or maybe it’s because I’m super sick right now and on far too many medications that I just need to give myself a little pep talk.

I live by very few rules in life, don’t take candy from strangers, don’t eat in the bathroom, never buy any other mayonnaise but Best Foods and love yourself completely. For as long as I can remember I’ve been the chubby kid, this has led to me being a plus size, thick, fat, BBW whatever you like to refer to people of a certain size as, that’s me.

I love me! I don’t ever remember anyone telling me I needed to love myself it just sort of naturally happened. I think I had something to do with me being an only child and since I spent so much time with myself, I had to like myself or change myself into someone I would like to spend a long amount of time with. So I live by the simple motto that I don’t actually care if you don’t like the way I look or act. I like me and that all that really matters. Actually the motto is ‘if it comes down to you or me, I like me better soo…’

Now recently I’ve started a weight loss journey and have lost 75lbs since July. I’m crazy proud of myself and can’t wait to see were this journey takes me. I bring this up because I feel like especially if you’re a bigger person you almost live on a double edge sword of if you love yourself why change. Yes I love myself at any size I can look in the mirror and 80%-95% (everyone has off days) tell myself I’m beautiful. ‘So why change your size?’ Well because I looked at myself after a rather depressing couple of months this spring and said, “Kind of tired of a lot of things, let me see what life can be like healthier,” so that’s what I did, I wanted to be happier and honestly I am already. There is nothing wrong with personally growth as long as it’s for the better and for you. Not the you someone else wants you to be.

I guess if I could finish off this post anyway it would be that if you’re reading this, you are probably worth so much more then what you give yourself credit for. And even if right now you feel like shit and don’t see it, I hope someday you do and know that it’s never too late to discover your worth and beauty. And it is totally OK to change things about yourself, that’s growth and as long as you’re doing it for yourself then it’s the right thing to do. And if you have shitty friends who don’t see that ditch them, it will be crazy scary to be by yourself at first but use that time to figure yourself out and the good friends, the friends that see your value like you see it will come. I truly believe this because otherwise I have no idea how I have the friends I do have. And remember as cheese as it sounds I truly think everyone has a purpose and even if it’s just writing a blog or taking pictures of sunsets, it’s what makes you happy and it’s your purpose, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise because you are most beautiful when your happy with yourself and the life you have.

That’s it for now. Have a great night. I’ll leave you with images of myself from today.

Eye Brows need love, hair hasn’t been combed and feeling like a truck ran my ass over and I still think I beautiful.