I did some stretching today. However today I had a panic attack . Sad to say because I'm currently in school right now and not that well suited with my work situation I have no choice, but to stay at home with my biological family. I need to find another job badly. One that will give me more hours and something that I can do well. I don't want to have to depend on my parents too much. I also have been diagnosed with a mild form of Aspergers Syndrome. So it's really hard for me neurologically to do many things all at once. Alot of people don't nunderstand, because alot of people don't live autism everyday like I do. The brain and the neurological system may be the the persons thoughts and personality, but it is not the persons soul (I'm sorry that makes any atheists/agnostics/non religious people feel left out). It too is an organ system and it too can not work properly and not work normally. I just hope that someone on this forum if anyone can at least sympathize with me. I don't have alot of support I need, because diet and exercise, as well as theropy and medication, can only work so far.

My friend who actually ran the Vegan Bodybuilding website for years 2004-2006 has Aspergers Syndrome as well. We've had a lot of conversations about it and he often finds new interests and gets involved in new projects all the time.

So I can understand it to some degree from spending lots of time with him, and chatting with him, etc. He has shared some of his feelings with me, describing some of his struggles and sharing his successes from being so focused on a specific topic for a short period.

All the best. Hope you have a really good week. Head up and keep moving forward.

My friend who actually ran the Vegan Bodybuilding website for years 2004-2006 has Aspergers Syndrome as well. We've had a lot of conversations about it and he often finds new interests and gets involved in new projects all the time.

So I can understand it to some degree from spending lots of time with him, and chatting with him, etc. He has shared some of his feelings with me, describing some of his struggles and sharing his successes from being so focused on a specific topic for a short period.

All the best. Hope you have a really good week. Head up and keep moving forward.

lohungfong wrote:ah a fellow kung fu enthusiast. your training looks solid to me. even on your day off if you have a nice stretch it may motivate you to do some hung gar. and if you get too hung gary you can have a snack!

I don't know if you were being serious or not on this, but I tried to stretch on my day off. It didn't end up so well. The first week I was fine, but then as I went on I felt moody and restless. So I at least need one day off of training.

Today I at least got a morning cardio session in. Today was really hard on me. I was emotional and physical pain. I still kind of am in physical pain. I don't know what it's from neither. I cut down on my sodium intake because I guess I was taking in a little too much. I don't know what it is that is bothering me or making me feel ill. It's causing me pain and I don't want to say it might be because of my vegan diet. I hope I'm getting enough nutritients. I've been mainly getting my protein from peanut butter and soy protein powder as well as oatmeal and brown rice/brown rice protein powder.

My Aspergers has been out of control latly. I just had a few major meltdowns today for manyt different reasons. I can't talk to anyone about it because I feel judged and unsupported.

Plus Also I really miss holding my cat Patches. I just got her ashes yesterday. She was one of the only females I've ever met that have a soul. As I've mentioned before I don't have a good enough support from females in my life. Of course people tell me to "just deal with it" or "just walk away."

I don't have alot of support from people as of now. I can take what ever positive support I can get right now. I understand people have their own goals and what not. However I ask all of you out of the kindness of your heart, please show me that you at least care that I exist. As I've mentioned before I my have Aspergers (even if it's only mild), but I still have a soul, love, feel emotions, and even cry. I can stand with great courage and honor as well as any neuro typical can. My brain and neurological system may be my thoughts and emotions as well as many other things, but it is not my self worth and despite what others may belive, whether they are atheist/agnostic/non religious or not, it is not my soul. It is an organ and like any other organ, or any other part of the body, and it too has its advantages and disadvantages. I don't for any special treatment or praise. I ask that you refer to me and treat me as Ryan Evans (or in this case Ryofire, because of the forum) the person. Not as Ryan Evans the person whose mentally/neurologically challenged.