A new day...a fresh start...today's goals.

Monday, July 22, 2013

I had some very distressing dreams last night...several of them. Some of them were about me, others were not...but in a way, I think they were all about me. I think it was my body and my psyche screaming at me to wake up and smell the coffee. I choose to look at today not as an insurmountable obstacle, but as a fresh start...as a new opportunity (another one!) to make some good decisions. So that is what I will try to do today. I will try to make good decisions. I have read and learned so much about addiction over the years, that I can honestly see the parallel between over-eating/emotional-eating/food abuse and drug/alcohol abuse. The same kinds of demons haunt us, we face the same battles, the same obstacles. We have a new opportunity every single day to make better decisions than we did the day before. It's not a chance to do everything perfectly. It's a chance to try our best.

I weighed in just a little while ago. I'm exactly 200 pounds and 45.2% body fat. I have been avoiding that scale at all costs for the past few weeks, because I just didn't want to know how off-track I'd actually gotten. Now I know.