My true Love

I lost my husband of 18 years in January of this year. He had a seizure in November and it was diagnosed that he had a brain tumor and cancer throughout his body. He underwent chemo and radiation to no avail. He passed away 2 months later. The last couple days of his life were the hardest. He was in so much pain.

He loved me for who and what I am. We spent 24 hours a day together because we were in business together. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. I pray for God's guidance every day, And i hope that I can go on with my life. I'm still a fairly young woman and have a lot of years yet, but at times I feel like I just don't want to go on. But i know I have to because Joe would want me to. All he wanted was for me to be happy. But, dear God how can I be happy without him?

Comments for My true Love

Hi,I have been thro similar with my husband and his diagnosis with a brain tumour following melanoma.I send you my best and hope that all that our heads and hearts have endured will lessen one day.

Thinking of you and wishing you well with each day...Jenny xx

Jun 20, 2010

My Daddieby: Anonymous

Happy father's day Dad. I still miss you with all my heart. You have been gone from all of us that loved you so much for 11 years now. But it still seems like yesterday that you went away. Alot has happened to me since you left. I lost my best friend, lover and soul mate 4 months ago. I hope you are watching over Joe. Because I can't any more. Happy Father's day to both of the men that I loved most in this world.

I hope to see you both when the lord feels it's my time to go.

Your loving daughter and wife,

Marlene

Jun 12, 2010

it will get a little betterby: Hope

Your letter tore at my heart because I went through similar circumstances. My True Love died 12/06/09. I guess they call it a traumatic death as he was taken away suddenly. I am barely at the point where I am trying to make a life for myself. I miss him so much but as I take over his responsibilities I gain confidence and strength.

Nothing will replace the hole in my heart. But change comes when you go from not giving a damn to throwing yourself into what needs to be done. It has helped me anyway these past couple of weeks.

This site has been a life saver, I read it everyday and put myself into someone else's moccasins and realise I am not alone. I just want you to know that we are all here and it will get better day by day. HH

Jun 11, 2010

re: my true loveby: Mariana

I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I realize how very difficult it is. When you lose someone who is actually a part of you words cannot adequately describe what you must be going through. My prayers are with you at this difficult time.

This is a wonderful board with caring people and I am glad you are here expressing what is on your mind and heart.

Time is a great healer and God is the one to turn to at this time. A grief pastor is a great help too and friends and loved ones. The grieving process must be gone through in order for healing to take place.

My husband passed away Nov 22, 2009, just 2 days after my 65th birthday. We had plans for my birthday and he was too sick for us to celebrate and we also had New Years planned. He had stents put in his heart at a heart hosp and only lived a week after that. Before going to sleep one night he said,''I love you so much.'' In the morning I could not wake him up.

It was so sad and the police were so kind and held me as I cried as the love of my life was gone to be with the Lord.

So the months have passed and there has been some healing . I absolutely could not make it without Jesus and my wonderful children, and grandchildren. It hurts that my husband did not get to see a new baby born in Dec and now a great grandchild is coming. The 1 and 1/2 yr old still remembers him and it amazes me. She found a little picture one day and said,''pompa.''

I have reached the point where I can laugh at little things he said and did. He called me at work one day and said he was inviting me to dinner but did I have any money?

You will also get to the point where you just have the wonderful memories. Just stay close to God. And keep posting. It helps to know others care. God bless you. We care.