Thursday, July 30, 2009

Ok, so I know all my blog followers are women, and I know for a fact that at least 2 of them are not gamers. I'm not holding out much hope that the others are because they all have lives and far less time on their hands than I do, but if any of you are, that's awesome. If you're not, I'm hoping this blog reaches someone who is, and someone who's played Kingdom Hearts II on PS2.

I just beat the game (25 hours in), and was going back through Jiminy's Journal to complete all the missions and minigames that I missed. Well, out of the whole game, I noticed I'm missing ONE treasure chest. So I went through to figure out how that happened.

To make a long story short, I beat Xemnas (and the game) WITHOUT ever having battled Sark and MCP in Space Paranoids. I never got the Solar Sailer. And come to find out, that treasure chest only appears after you battle Sark and MCP. My thing is, how could I have beaten the game without first defeating them? That's the boss fight for Space Paranoids.

When the World that Never Was first showed up after completing the last musical in Atlantica, the path to Twilight Town didn't show up at first, and that was because I hadn't defeated Xaldin at Beast's Castle and recovered the rose (and this showed up as an objective in Jiminy's Journal). Once I did that, I was able to get back to Twilight Town, go through the Old Mansion, and get into the World that Never Was.

And all this happened without me even going near Sark and MCP in Space Paranoids, and that never showed up as an objective. I'm not sure why. Could it be that Space Paranoids is within Hollow Bastion and not necessarily a world of it's own???

Needless to say, now that I've beaten the game, I don't have the option to go back and defeat them. This apparently happens on your second visit to Space Paranoids, when you save Tron from the Heartless. So now I can't 100% the game unless I start ALL OVER AGAINNNNNNN, which is extremely disheartening and frustrating, as it's very time consuming, and also becomes very repetitive and tedious once you already know the storyline and outcome and the game is not new to you anymore. Grrrr....

Does anyone out there have any idea how the heck I could have gotten through the whole game without defeating Sark and MCP????

It looks like Drs. Clark and Clements in Latham might be the ones. The Albany Med Women's Wellness Center can't get me in til August 24, but I'll be 15.5 weeks then, so no chance of an NT scan. Dr. Dropkin over behind Stuyvesant Plaza can't get me in til 14 weeks. Struck out there, too.

My friend that I used to work with had a high-risk pregnancy (she had 13 unexplained miscarriages before one finally took) said she went to Dr. Clark's office and they were very attentive to her, and she could see them frequently. She said they were also good about getting her in at the last minute if necessary.

So I called the receptionist there and explained the shit that happened with Dr. Lee's office (which she thought was bullshit, too), and she said to have CNY fax over my prenatal records and she's gonna try like hell to squeeze me in for an NT scan. I called CNY and they said they would fax them within the hour (which they did, because they are the most accomodating medical practice in the whole world).

Sharon said she'd call me when she got the records from CNY and see what she can do about squeezing me in.

Welllll.... I have an appointment August 10th for my first trimester screening/NT scan. I'll be 13w3d then, instead of between the 10-13 week range, but close enough. Better than not having one at all, right? I can't imagine that 3 days would completely skew the results. Plus, it's just another way for me to see my lil man!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

I think I hate this OB practice, but I have no idea where to go next. Remember how I had an appointment 2 weeks ago at 9w5d, and couldn't see the doctor because he had a delivery? Well, today (11w5d), I went in, and all I saw was the fuckin nurse practitioner, even though I was scheduled to have an appointment with Dr. Lee (who was -surprise- out on a delivery when we got there, but got back before I finished all my paperwork and stuff). So I STILL haven't met any of the doctors in the office, and am not comfortable AT ALL.

The first thing I was told when I got in there was that I wasn't getting an ultrasound today. The next one would be at 20 weeks. Not comfortable with that either.

The NP asked me all sorts of questions today, including if I wanted to have a 1st trimester screening/NT scan, and I said yes. She said hopefully MFM could get me in to do it, because I'm almost 12 weeks now, and they have to do it before 13 weeks. Now why the FUCK wasn't this brought up at the last appointment, if they knew it might take a while to get me an appointment with MFM????

On top of that, she asked me like 5 times if the 1st trimester screening showed an increased risk of Down's syndrome or trisomy 18 if I would want to abort. I kept telling her no, and she kept fucking asking.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

My next OB appointment is scheduled for this Weds (FINALLY!). I'm nervous, because 1. This is the longest I've gone without an appointment, and 2. At least 5 women that I talk to have lost their babies within this time frame (9-12 wks). I know I shouldn't worry, but it's hard when you can't just get knocked up again if something goes wrong. I feel like I have a lot more at stake (not to mention a lot more time, effort, and discomfort put into this) than the average woman.

According to my last ultrasound, baby Tucker was hanging out to the right of my belly button, and I think I'm starting to feel him there. Not in the sense of him moving around and kicking me and whatnot - it's too early to be feeling that. But when I bend or move certain ways, I definitely feel pressure there. Something is taking up space that wasn't previously occupied. While that is reassuring, I'm also scared that maybe he's too far to the right and this is a cornual pregnancy, which can be viable for a lot longer than an ectopic- the baby has more room to grow, but it's still not usually enough space. The ultrasound tech didn't say anything at my last appointment, but I'm also not familiar with the people at this practice (that was my first visit there), and I never got to see the doctor that visit. Maybe that's why I'm worrying so much? I'm probably just paranoid, but I can't help but worry.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Our Doppler came in the mail yesterday. Didn't have a whole lot of luck picking up the baby's heartbeat. It may be that it's too early, or I'm too chubby, or I just plain suck at finding it. Who knows. I'll try again next week. lol

Thursday, July 23, 2009

I made the best (and pretty healthy) lasagna last night. I used whole wheat pasta and 99% fat free ground turkey breast (that I seasoned to taste like sausage), and it was DELIGHTFUL! I'm eating some now... :)

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Ok, so yesterday I ordered a fetal Doppler and hubby & I are pretty excited to receive it (should be here in a couple days). It comes with an adapter so we can hook it up to the computer and record the heartbeat, which is totally awesome!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

No grown-up bed yet, but we managed to put 2 twin size mattresses on the floor. Not ideal, but much better than sharing a single twin.

Love the new phone hubby got me, except the freakin' mobile web sucks at life. But the phone is purple, which is really sweet.

Hubby is hunting for a house for us. He's the greatest! I can't wait til we can finally get one and can settle in (not to mention the fact that I get to do all the interior decorating. Woo hoo!)

What else has been going on? Hmmm....

Anthony will be 2 in two days. He had a birthday party yesterday, which was fun. He has another one coming up next weekend. I'm so excited to give him the presents I got for him. I got him a Bob the Builder talking toolbelt with tools. It's swwwweeeeet! He loves Bob ("Baa") right now. "Bob" is pronounced "Baa".

We FINALLLLLY got him to say "two". Up until this point, every number has been "nine". He tries to hold up two fingers, but it looks more like a demented gang sign than anything. But he tries. That's all that matters.

On Friday, Anthony helped me and Lexie make sugar cookies for his birthday party. He had soooo much fun rolling out (and eating) the dough and pushing down the cookie cutters. And eating the cookies, of course!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Ok, so I attempted to meet with an OB today, but he had to leave for a delivery before he could see me. But it's all good. I got an ultrasound out of it, so I'm ok. lol I'll probably just go with their practice, because it's located right by Albany Med (my hospital of choice), and it's like 10 minutes away from my house. Overall, the office seemed clean and pretty modern, and from what I saw of the doctor, he looks nice. lol So, it'll probably be Dr. Burack, Lee, and Jacobs for me.

As you can see, my lil man has definitely grown since last week. He's 5.2 cm now, and his heart rate today was 148! His arm & leg buds seem to be a lot bigger than last week. If you notice, there are 2 dots between his leg buds. Me and my mom both joked that they were his balls, and he's really well-endowed already. (Hubby just shook his head.)

Here's my sono from last Wednesday.I know, I know. It's a little late (almost a week), but better late than never, right? Our son is starting to look less like a jelly bean and more like a human being (or whatever the heck his father is). It's really amazing to see him change and grow!

Oh, and I just want to mention that I have the BEST hubby in the whole world!!! Love ya! ♥

One, my laptop totally crapped out. Super pissed about that, because I've only had it for about 7 months. Waiting for HP to send me a box so I can send it to them for repair. Luckily, the computer place down the street was able to recover my files and pictures from my hard drive. PHEW!!!

Hubby and I are currently sharing a twin size mattress. Not fun. Hoping to go get a grown-up bed this week.

Had last appointment with CNY Fertility Center on Weds (7/8). Will post ultrasound pic later. Glad hubby got to go. Sad to leave there, but now I'm discharged to an OB. Still trying to find one. I have an appointment with one this week, so hopefully I'll like them and can just stick with them. I've been spoiled with weekly ultrasounds, and I'm hoping my new doctor will do one at least every 2 weeks to keep me from going absolutely crazy until I can actually feel the baby move.

Hubby bought us an Xbox, so now when I'm home and feel like crap, I can play games and interact with other people. I'm addicted to Left 4 Dead. Still trying to master Team Fortress 2. It's really fun, but also pretty difficult.

Hubby has been so cute. The last 2 mornings he woke up and asked me what I wanted for breakfast. He went out and got me whatever I wanted. I love him. He really is the best.

Ummmm.... let's see... what else has been going on?

Oh. Last Wednesday after my appointment, we went to tell my grandparents that we're expecting. They were so happy. Hubby was nervous about telling his parents, but he did that on Saturday, and it went really well. They're so excited!!! Most of my family knows now, especially after Lexie's graduation party yesterday, which was fun. It was nice having both our families together for a big cookout.

Still no success with baby names yet. Hubby has shot down all the names I've suggested, but still hasn't come up with any suggestions himself. Go figure. lol

Monday, July 6, 2009

Not knowing what's going on is sooooooo frustrating. I didn't hear from him during the day at all yesterday. He finally texted me at 11:45pm, saying he had an early appointment this morning to get the ticket. Haven't heard from him since. I'm praying he was able to get his ticket and get his ass on a plane, but if that happened, I ....

Hold that thought... just got a text from him!!!!! He said be at the airport at 5!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Haven't heard from hubby yet. I really really really really really hope they can straighten out this whole mess with his flight home. I need to see him, and another week without him is gonna be torture. I've been counting down, looking forward to Monday, July 6 for 8 weeks now. I hate the fact that the date is almost here, but he may not be.

My 8 week appointment was supposed to be this past Friday, but I scheduled it for 8w5d so he could be here. If he doesn't come home on Monday, that means I'll have gone through 5 extra days of worrying about my lil man, hoping he's ok, wishing I could just hear his heartbeat. I guess if he doesn't get to come home, I can always try to reschedule the appointment for Monday or Tuesday, but this is our last appointment with CNY Fertility Center, before we get discharged to an OB, and I really wanted him to come with me.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Hubby called this morning. The Air Force base screwed up his itinerary/airline ticket info. They put his destination, but someone else's name on it. So they told him they'd fix it, and to come back later to get his stuff. He went in there twice today, and it still wasn't ready. The third time he tried to go, the freakin' place was closed. If he isn't able to fly out on Monday, he has to wait a whole 'nother week. That damn office BETTER be open on Sunday, or they BETTER get this mess straightened out before Monday, or my hormonal a$$ is gonna storm San Antonio!

He said if they don't get this straightened out by Monday, he's gonna look into taking a commercial flight home, which sucks, 'cause it'll cost $350+. The Air Force is responsible for his transportation. They better work something out. There's no reason he should have to spend that kind of money out-of-pocket when his flight was supposed to be taken care of by the military.

Plus, we need that money for a new bed. :)

On another note, I think morning sickness is starting to kick in even more. I'm 8 weeks today, and I was VERY close to puking this morning, and still felt sick through the early afternoon. Haven't felt this bad so far. I somehow managed to not throw up all over the hair salon this morning when I walked in there and smelled all the chemicals (I almost threw up in the car on the way there). I was supposed to have the 1st appointment, but I made Grandma go first so I could get fresh air and try to rid myself of the pukey feeling.

I went to my cousin James' graduation party, and promptly left, because his sister Nicole is the biggest bitch on the face of the earth. Every time I see her lately, she gives me an attitude for no reason. I'm so sick of it. She's been a bitch to me since we were little. She's a little over 2 years younger than me, but she acts like she's freakin' half my age.

I rode with my other cousin to the party, and it was pouring outside (it was on outdoor party), so she turned the car around so she could let me out as close as possiible to the canopy they had up. We pull up, and Nicole walks over to the passenger side of the car. Remember: it's POURING. And now she's standing in front of my door so I can't even get out of the car. My cousin rolls down my window to say that her kitten (which we had just picked up from the vet) is better (he recuperated from a respiratory infection). That's the end of the conversation. My window is still down. My arm is getting soaked, as are the power window/lock controls on the inside of the door. I tell Nicole, "I'm getting wet," and begin to roll up the window, and she throws a fuckin' hissy fit. She rolls her eyes, gives me "the palm", turns, and stomps away. She's gonna lose her teeth one of these days, I swear. I can't beat the shit outta her for another 7 months, though, because I'm not gonna risk possibly getting hit in the stomach, even though she can't fight for shit :)

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Hubby graduated from basic training today! Yay! I really wish I coulda been there, but he said he'll get the DVD so I can watch. Better than nothing. I'll take it.

I'm so proud of him. Even though it sucks that he has to be away, he's doing it so we could start a family and have a decent place to live, which I respect. We've definitely come a long way.

He called me a few minutes ago, and it was so good to hear his voice, especially since he sounded happy. That's always good. He'll be home on Monday! Yayyyy! Not sure what time yet, but he said he'd call me when he found out. I don't care if his flight comes in at 3 a.m. or some other ungodly hour of the night/morning. I still want to pick him up when he touches down. I want to be the first one to see him.

He said he has a meeting later today to discuss when he might be going to tech school. Hopefully it's sooner than later, but, like he said, it's the military. Hurry up and wait.

We'll see what happens. Got my fingers crossed that he can get to tech school ASAP (hopefully he gets at least a short visit home between! I need to see him or I'm gonna go CRAZY!)

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

So Lindsey's post about her dogs made me think about pets, and reminded me of something our cat Zoe did last night.

I had a progesterone suppository sitting on my nightstand before I went to bed. I knew Fame wouldn't go anywhere near it, so I wans't worried. Zoe jumped on my bed and started walking onto my nightstand, so I picked up the capsule before she knocked it on the floor (not the most graceful cat in the world). She went over to the bottle of progesterone (capped, of course) and started sniffing it and rubbing against it. I looked at her, and her pupils were dilated like crazy! I opened the bottle to let her smell them, and she tried to lick them, so I put the bottle in a box so she couldn't get it. I was holding the suppository from the nightstand between my thumb and forefinger and showed it to her. She tried to chomp on it. She was seriously acting like she does with catnip. It was so strange. What is in a Prometrium suppository that drives felines crazy???

Well, this is the cat that also licks dogs. Here's a picture of her licking Fame's big ol' noggin:

About Me

I'm 24 and became a mom as of Feb 12, 2010. I've struggled with weight my whole life and have never been able to lose more than 5 lbs, which has been a HUGE source of frustration. After going through pregnancy, childbirth, and lots of postpartum complications and trying to maintain a high-protein, low-carb diet, the weight is starting to come off. I just hope this success continues so I can be healthy and active for my little man!