A BLOG ABOUT MY LIFE

Month: March 2016

Love is a word that is known by all. Love can be for a special someone, a pet, or even down to a piece of food. Trust me there are plenty of things that I love that are food!! This girl loves to eat. lol Okay, time to move on to the bigger picture. Love is a weird thing. I have never found love, and I believe it is real. I am going to discuss how my life is affected by it, and maybe, just maybe you feel the same way too! My last relationship I was in was not ideal to say the least. I’m not going to get into everything, but all I’m going to say is that I lost myself during it. This might make sense to some, but maybe not to others. I lost who I was by not knowing what I wanted, just what my ex and everyone else wanted. I was worried I might not be good enough so I would keep my mouth shut, and agreed to everything. Piece by piece myself went away. I never noticed this until after we broke up.

In life you might feel like everyone is so great and you don’t want to disagree with them, because you are scared that you will be looked down on. You deserve to have your own opinions and not just sit there and agree with everything. Love is something that everyone has in their heart. If someone doesn’t like you for being your own unique self then that is not love. I decided it is not fair to me or anyone else, to start dating before I found out who I was, and what I wanted. I took the time to focus on myself. It took awhile but I finally started to decide what I was going to do with my life, and what I did not want for my life. I started to become more and more hard-headed. If someone would ask me out I would turn them down because I had my dreams and passions, and a dating just seemed to get in the way. Now I am at a point in my life where I decided I don’t care if I ever marry. No that doesn’t mean I am giving up on love. I’m just saying I feel strong enough to take care of myself, and I like being able to do that without having to worry about someone loving me and taking care of me. It is going to take a pretty amazing person to make me decided to go on a date with them.

I’m dating with purpose now. What that means is I’m only dating people who I feel like I have a strong connection with and could possibly marry. Yes, that is pretty crazy sounding, but I believe that my life is where I want it, and I’m past the stage of dating because everyone else is. I would rather focus on my life goals, and if God decides there is someone for my life he will make a way for that person to be in my life. It will take a pretty amazing person to make me give them a chance, especially to marry them. God bless that poor man because I’m a determined, hardworking, and hard-headed person.

This is what love is all about. Love is working hard. Love is forgiving EVERYONE no matter what happened in the past. Love is never giving up. Love is making a way no matter the challenge. Love is praying for a way. Love is starting with yourself first. Love is putting others before yourself. Love is everywhere. Love is something you should never give upon because everyone is capable of it. Love is waiting. Long story short love is a complicated thing. In life there will be challenges. Focus on staying true to yourself, and never give up. It is ok if you don’t want to be like everyone else!! It is ok if you are democratic in a republican state. It is ok if you are a republican in a democratic state. It is ok to be a size 0 or even a size 16. It is ok to be afraid, but it is not ok to give up on yourself, and love. Love doesn’t have to be about a boyfriend or girlfriend. Love is about being happy. So please don’t give up that easy! I believe in everyone of you!