After a 5 year struggle with anorexia (with purging tendencies), depression, self harm and over exercising I have now been recovered for 4 years and i use my blog to help others in the same situation i once was.
I am now a happy and positive person who wants to inspire those struggling to choose recovery and to take control over life and happiness again!

Life without Anorexia

My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.

And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Saturday, August 27, 2016

A day of exploring

Hello there :)

How is everyone doing? Me... i am doing well, though feel like i have too much physical energy and too little mental energy, haha so not really sure what to do with myself!

My day started rather early where i ate breakfast and got ready and then after doing some research i decided to walk into town to check out a gym which i might want to join. I had looked at the map and figured i would find it rather easily as it was close to my school. So i walked all the way to my school, and kept walking and walking and walking... and walked in circles. With no data or gps on my mobile and the only people out at that time of the morning was tourists and runners. So i kept walking in circles until finally 90 minutes later i found one of the gyms in the gym branch i wanted to join. I walked into the gym with sweat all over and looking all flustered! I got to look at the gym and i really liked it so decided to join that gym branch and am super happy about it, because now i have a gym close to home and 2 gym options close to my school!!

After that i did some exploring around the town and found a cafe which i have long wanted to try - however i will go back there some other day when i feel like "treating myself"! Eating out isnt really a priority or something i can do so often, so maybe after my first exam i will go there and get myself an acai bowl!!

Then finally i took the tram home and made myself a delicious lunch:

Which was followed by series watching and a snack, and then i got too much energy and didnt just want to lie in bed anymore. I must admit - i miss my job. Iit was active and it feels so strange to just sort of lie in bed for hours now... hahah, i have far too much physical energy for that!! Though once i start school i know i wont feel as restless and will enjoy just lying in bed.

Anyway, i decided to go exploring the area i live. On the map i saw that there was supposedly a park which i thought i could run sometime... but the park was super small and the park wasnt exactly a "run around forest/park" unless you just wanted to run for 5 minutes, hahaha. So i kept walking and exploring and ended up getting lost, haha. So i just began following people and hoping to find some some route or way i would recognize... turns out that following people isnt a good idea, and when they begin to notice you following them they begin to get creeped out - so then you have to just quickly take another way and begin following someone else, hahahaha. Eventually i found a centrum i recognized and i found a raw/vegan store close to where i live, and also went into a food store which sold alot of vegan products which i love!!! I know people think vegan eating might be healthy, but i actually eat so much processed food its crazy... hahah, so much of the processed fake meat and vegan chocolate and crisps and nuts with salt and oil etc But all i was craving this evening was lentils and potatoes and salad, so when i got home that was exactly what i made!!

It was a long exploring/adventure walk but i still have so much energy - i guess thats what happens when you eat alot of food. I.e food = energy! But i am going to spend my evening in bed with a film this evening and i am looking forward to a new day with more exploring tomorrow :)

I guess my whole day has been a positive in all honesty. Its strange how happy and content i feel at the moment. I am so glad that i made the decision to move and to go against the fear. New starts and changes are scary, but they can bring awesome things and new positive changes! I am hoping to continue feeling this energetic and happy and that school goes well!!

Do you have any positives of the day you want to share?

Something positive i want to share though is that the woman i am living with said she was inspired by my vegan eating so she ate a vegan dinner and bought some vegetarian products! That made me so happy to hear :)

Also i plan to write more about veganism and maybe what i eat as that has been requested :) I wont write out portions as i dont weigh or measure anything but maybe a weekly food diary or something if you want that?

9 comments:

Actually sounds like a really good day indeed! Good that you're able to go past the fear and just went out and exploring. Very nice that the gym you wanted to join turns out to be one you like also. Your meals look so delicious so more posts of them aren't bad at all. And vegan food inspiration is always welcome to me as a vegan :) Hope tomorrow will be a good day as well. I have the same with lots of food = lots of energy hahah especially good food without any animal products of course!

Actually sounds like a really good day indeed! Good that you're able to go past the fear and just went out and exploring. Very nice that the gym you wanted to join turns out to be one you like also. Your meals look so delicious so more posts of them aren't bad at all. And vegan food inspiration is always welcome to me as a vegan :) Hope tomorrow will be a good day as well. I have the same with lots of food = lots of energy hahah especially good food without any animal products of course!

Recently, I have been perplexed by a question according to my eating disorder, and I couldn't find any answer on the internet. Hoping you can help, since you are so knowledgeable in the ed area. If I came from an overweight past and currently being a bit underweight (around bmi 18), am I going to gain back all my weight (to my overweight weight) or I will just restore weight until my healthy set point (not going back to my overweight time)?

In most of the info that I have found, they all mention that everyone will gain back all the weight? But I actually see there are some outliers, who still being skinny (though overweight in the past). Which one should I believe in?

I cant give you a scientific answer or what "will happen" but being overweight is often a result of eating more than your body needs over a longer period of time (i.e years). But with recovery, if you find balance with your food intake and try to listen to your bodies signals i.e eat when you are hungry, stop when you are full. Rest when you are tired, exercise when you are energetic etc then your body should settle at a healthy weight and not an overweight. However studies have shown that if a person has been overweight in the past it is easier for them to become overweight again, HOWEVER if you find balance and can trust your body then your body should settle at a healthy weight - whatever BMI that might be - because your body wants to be a healthy weight. Being over weight or underweight isnt good for the body and naturally your body doesnt want to settle there.

Try to trust your body and try not to focus on weight, but focus more on creating a life you enjoy and learning to love your own body and life and who you are.

Something really helpful someone once commented to me when I was worrying about what shape I would end up was to point out that the people who do best with achieving full and lasting recovery are the people who place fewest demands or expectations on it. If one is willing to recover only if my body does X or Y, then I will never really recover properly, because I will never really let go of the ED mindset. She pointed out that you have to be sure that what you get (i.e. life - real life, not restricted life) is better than what you are letting go (i.e. long-term ED patterns of thought....)I wish I had realised this when I was younger.

Sounds like you had a great day - its good that you went exploring, familiarised yourself with your new surroundings a bit. Whats the town like?I`m glad you`ve got your gym sorted out and its good that its so close.No doubt your extra energy is because you are running on adrenaline at the moment because its all new to you - hopefully that will sort its self out and you`ll be able to relax more.Posts about veganism would be great as would a food diary, gives me ideas what to cook myself.Hope you continue to have a great weekend :)

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I have had Anorexia and depression for c.a 5 years and been in and out of hospital for 2 years. But now im living my life like a normal teenager, I still have my ups and downs now and again, but i still stay positive and never give up.
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