Open Letter of Apology From BigRedMan

I just want to apologize for my actions on this website recently. I was told by my doctor that I have Gastric Cancer.

Its funny how the human mind reacts to such news. I've always been such a strong minded person, but this set me for a loop. I was suddenly consumed with anger, and I lashed out at everyone, including my family, my friends, and even myself. I became virtually the bull in a china shop.

I put my fist through the window in my doctor's door. I yelled and cursed at my wife and kids to get away from me. I took a swing at my best friend who tried to settle me down. I drove my forehead into the mirror above our bathroom sink, cutting my head. I got on here, obsessively deleting my photos, profile, and posts, plus lashed out in a thread (fortunately RamWraith deleted it).

I want to apologize to you here on ClanRam.Com. If any of you saw what I posted before it got deleted, I didn't mean it, and I hope you will forgive my behavior.

I'm going to kick this disease's ass, I promise you. Oh, and I still plan on attending the Bash 2006 in St. Louis.

P.S. I hope the surgery doesn't leave a bad scar. I'll never be able to wear my belly dancing outfit again!

Re: Open Letter of Apology From BigRedMan

I'm going to kick this disease's ass, I promise you.

That's all I needed to hear.

"Before the gates of excellence the high gods have placed sweat; long is the road thereto and rough and steep at first; but when the heights are reached, then there is ease, though grievously hard in the winning." --- Hesiod

Re: Open Letter of Apology From BigRedMan

Originally Posted by bigredman

I just want to apologize for my actions on this website recently. I was told by my doctor that I have Gastric Cancer.

Its funny how the human mind reacts to such news. I've always been such a strong minded person, but this set me for a loop. I was suddenly consumed with anger, and I lashed out at everyone, including my family, my friends, and even myself. I became virtually the bull in a china shop.

I put my fist through the window in my doctor's door. I yelled and cursed at my wife and kids to get away from me. I took a swing at my best friend who tried to settle me down. I drove my forehead into the mirror above our bathroom sink, cutting my head. I got on here, obsessively deleting my photos, profile, and posts, plus lashed out in a thread (fortunately RamWraith deleted it).

I want to apologize to you here on ClanRam.Com. If any of you saw what I posted before it got deleted, I didn't mean it, and I hope you will forgive my behavior.

I'm going to kick this disease's ass, I promise you. Oh, and I still plan on attending the Bash 2006 in St. Louis.

P.S. I hope the surgery doesn't leave a bad scar. I'll never be able to wear my belly dancing outfit again!

Channel your anger into fighting that cancer ish. I plan on meeting your mangy belly-dancing butt at the Bash.

Re: Open Letter of Apology From BigRedMan

No apology needed man. You contribute a lot to this board and remember that we are always here for you. I am just glad to hear that you are in better spirits and ready to win this battle. I hope to meet you in person at the Bash.