I've lived most of my life in the black or white...I was junk-food-addicted-couch-potato then food-phobic-health-freak.I'm done with the extremes of black or white and ready to embrace the gray! I'm on a journey to find the healthiest version of me and I'm documenting my journey here hoping that it will help me and maybe even inspire someone else...

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I just started a new job and we give candy to clients but of course if there’s candy I’m going to eat it and I cannot have just 1. The first day I ate 5... the second day I promised myself I would only eat 1 then I worried the entire day that if I ate 1 I would probably want another and I didn’t want to eat more than 1...I drove myself so crazy that I ended up eating 10 I’m admitting this because I know you won’t judge me but I was full of shame and I felt sick after inhaling all those peppermint patties. I’ve been slowly building up to a pretty significant change in my eating and the incident with these candies was the straw that broke the camels back. Even though I know I CAN eat whatever I want, even though I know that deprivation and restriction DOES NOT WORK, I am also realizing that some “foods” are just not worth it. I was afraid to tell myself I “couldn’t” have any candy because I did a very restrictive diet and really wrecked myself but I also need to set some boundaries bec…

Today was a much better day than yesterday. I was tired so I slept in a little. At one point while half asleep I thought “I should get up, I have to eat breakfast before I go. Oh well, maybe I’ll just get an egg sandwich from Dunkin’ Donuts this morning since we don’t have much food in the house.” Then I remembered I’m taking a break from processed foods for a bit since they’re having a significant impact on my eating and I climbed out of bed to make myself a bowl of fat free Greek yogurt with some strawberries and an egg that I ate at my dining room table. I made my own coffee at home and saved money and points. It’s the first time in a really long time that I didn’t hit the Dunkin’ drive through for a large iced coffee. 2 points. 3 bucks. Every. Single. Day. I had plans to meet my sister for a pedicure after my first meeting and I was REALLY hungry so I stopped at the supermarket first because I knew I could get something “safe” there. I remember from my Whole 30 days that Lara Bars a…

Last week at WW we talked about body acceptance and appreciating where we are wherever we are. I put on a dress I was waiting to wear until I lost a few more pounds and rocked it despite the fact that I hadn't lost the weight I thought I needed to lose to wear it. I felt empowered so I posted it on Instagram and I got so many compliments about how great I looked. It was a pretty amazing experience to accept my body as it is and not feel like I had to lose more weight to be deserving of wearing a beautiful dress but the moment was fleeting.

The longer I look at this photo the more I realize how fake it actually is. The smile, the caption about "appreciating what you have".I am not appreciative of what I have right now. I have lost a lot of definition that I worked really hard for, I have found a lot of weight. My weight is physical manifestation of how I'm feeling right now and while I'm totally pro-body positive and I truly believe that health isn't equated …

I signed up for massage school on a whim; I'd never had a massage and had no idea how endless the possibilities in the field were but my wife was signing up for school and I was jealous. "If you get a new career I want one too!"

I am incredibly lucky my leap of faith didn't end with a splat! Not only did I fall in love with the field but I discovered a talent I didn't know I had. Not to toot my own horn (toot toot!) but I'm actually a pretty good therapist, or so I'm told.

I have been a Licensed Massage Therapist for over 8 years and with each day I'm more passionate about my career. Joining Weight Watchers shortly after I started practicing as an LMT opened my eyes to how integrated this entire wellness journey is. To live a healthy, balanced life we need to focus on habits, not just eating at a calorie deficit. Weight Watchers has taught me a lot about balance it has taught me how to focus on things Beyond The Scale. It has taught me to be more mind…

Pound Fitness:"Instead of listening to music, you become the music in this exhilarating full-body workout that combines cardio, conditioning and strength training with yoga and pilates-inspired movements. Using Ripstix, lightly weighted drumsticks engineered specifically for exercising POUND transforms drumming into an incedibly effective way of working out." I have spent an incredible amount of time feeling lonely and excluded. My weight ostracized me. I felt isolated and alone then I joined WW and I found people who understood me; now I work for WW and I have found a family. Because of WW I have a newfound confidence. I am brave enough to try new things and get wayyyy out of my comfort zone cause I know no matter what, I’ve got people who are going to catch me if I fall when I take a leap of faith. Pound Fitness is a physical manifestation of what WW is to me. It is connection, literally and figuratively. When I slam my Ripstix against the floor I’m getting low enough in my…

About Me

I'm a recovering junk-food-addicted-couch-potato turned food-phopbic-health-freak. I've lived both of the extremes, black and white! Now I'm working towards the middle which I call "the gray".
I truly believe that we can change our lives and be healthier and happier, we just have to take the first step, let's do it together :)
I'm a Weight Watcher member and employee but I'm here to document my own personal journey. All opinions and views are my own and separate from Weight Watchers.