Not in THAT way.......... but as a friend...... and I realised it today for the first time.

I've always liked him and he's become a good and valued friend, but he had never gotten THAT thought before. That deep level of friendship.

So............... how did I hurt him?

Well...... he isn't in a good place right now. And I am about as subtle as a multiple train wreck... so I gave him my overview of the situation and possibly what was/could be obstacles to his current lack of wellbeing. I believe I didn't step OVER the line - but I admit I was definitely poised over it.

I know now that he is a Friend with a capital F - a friend who I care deeply for. A friend that I will always be there for, but a friend that - even with good intentions - I hurt today.

Hopefully he will understand in time where I was coming from and I hope he understands my care and concern for him. But I pissed him off. No doubt about it. And I don't like that.

I do love him though. Very much. And I am very lucky to have him as a friend.