17 November 2012

Just Start

When I took the Crossfit intro class on September 1st, I was scared. I was scared that I'd be the biggest one there (I was), I was scared I'd be the oldest one there (I was), I was scared I wouldn't be able to do the workout (I did), I was scared of a whole lot of things. But I forced myself. I loved the workout and I liked the people so I decided to give it a go. During that first month I made huge strides in strength and endurance and confidence. I continued on in October and continued to make progress. I was building muscle, losing inches, and gaining in strength and confidence. Then the Natural November Challenge came around and on Nov. 1 I started Paleo. The combination of all of these things have been a real life changer for me. I weighed myself this morning and I'm down 8 lbs in 17 days. That is almost 1/2 a pound a day. That is amazing. I've lost far more in inches but I don't have those numbers to compare - the challenge has the measurements.

Far more important than the weight or the inches is the intangibles or immeasurables I've gotten back. I've gotten my confidence back. I've gotten my enjoyment of life back. I've gotten back my ability to dream big. I've gotten my positivity back. I've gotten me back. And I like it. I am happier, much more energetic, willing to do things, and confident and sure of life now. I can't say enough how much I've gotten back in just a few short weeks.

I watch the Biggest Loser all the time and there is always a point where someone, or everyone, says how they had lost themselves in the weight. They weren't the person they could be and that's what they wanted to get back. For me, I almost lost sight of the person I used to be. I was losing the ability to remember how happy and outgoing I was. I was forgetting how much I enjoyed life. I was forgetting me. Well, I'm getting me back and I could not be happier.

I live in an almost constant state of sore muscles and I love it. I sleep like the dead. I eat like a normal person without bingeing or stuffing myself. And I am happy. I have always said you have to find what works for you and what works for you may change over time. You need to find it and work it. I have found it and I'm happy. Really, really happy. Course I might be happier if I had one of those jacuzzi hot tubs for my constantly sore muscules, but one thing at a time.