Theresa's Diary July 1999

Dear Diary

I'm going to become Mrs Ethan Crane. I don't care what anyone says because I know it will happen. Sure he's with that horrible Gwen Hotchkiss but soon he'll be with me. I don't know what he sees in her. She's just horrible.

I just know that he'll realize it too when our eyes meet. He might even propose to me on the spot and forget all about Gwen. What does he see in her? She isn't destined to be with Ethan since I am.

I just can't believe that jerk ruined my sweater. I was planning on wearing this outfit when I met Ethan and because of that stupid guy he got paint on my sweater. I can't believe he accused me of dumping that bucket of paint on him. He just wasn't looking where he was going.

Luis almost arrested Ethan. I wouldn't have minded him arresting Gwen since she should be arrestedfor bad taste in fashion. I don't care what he says I'm going to be with Ethan. One day I'm going to be Mrs Ethan Crane. I just know I will. I can't believe my brother wants me to work at the Burger Hut. How humiliating to be stuck working there for the summer. I don't want to work there. I have to find another outfit that's just perfect for meeting Ethan Crane in. What am I going to do?

I hate that Luis wants to spoil my dreams. It isn't a waste of time and the one did come true. Ethan Crane was at my house. I can't believe he actually showed up but Luis answered the door. It should have been me instead. By the time I got outside he had already left. We are meant to be together. I never thought that dream would come true but it did and I'm sure my dream of becoming Mrs Ethan Crane will too. I'd much rather think of my wedding to Ethan instead of working at the Burger Hut.

I don't want to work at the Burger Hut. I did try to get a job at Lowells but they don't want to hire someone like me. Maybe if I had blonde hair they would. I know my fashion and bet I knew way more than the woman that interviewed me. Now I'm stuck flipping burgers. Could things get any worse? I guess it would be worse if Luis got me a job at the Cannery instead. I would hate to work at that place. At least I won't run into Ethan there since I don't want to smell like french fries when we finally do meet. It will be magical which won't happen at a burger place. It is a stupid job so I'm not going to bother to go.

Dear Diary

It has been the worst day ever. It was bad enough working at the Burger But but Whit convinced me to go. I figured it would be the last place I'd run into Ethan but I was wrong. He showed up and everything went wrong. He's the one that ended up with paint all over him. I can't believe it was him. Everything is ruined before it can even begin. Why did this have to happen to me?

First it was the paint and now milkshakes followed by BBQ sauce. I really thought it was water. It was just an accident. Now he must think I'm completely insane. And it just went worse from there. I accidentally set the Burger Hut on fire. I think my hat was thrown onto the grill but it was an accident. I didn't mean to set the place on fire. I didn't even last a day there but at least Ethan wasn't there when the place went up in flames.

Now I'm going to have to work at the cannery. I don't want to work there. It is going to be a total nightmare but I'm sure Ethan won't be there. Why would he show up there? I'll never get the fish smell out of my hair. I wish I could find a way out of it but I know how Luis is. I'm going to hate this. I just know it. I'll smell like fish. I'll never get the smell out of my hair.

I went back to the fortune teller and she gave me the best news ever. She told me that I'm going to marry Ethan. I don't know how it will happen but I know it will. She gave me back my hopes and dreams. I can't wait until that happens. I won't have to work in a horrible place like the cannery when I'm married to Ethan. I can't wait. I'm so glad I went back to see that fortune teller although I'm still mad about her upsetting Whitney.

The woman must be wrong. Sure she's right about me and Ethan but she can't be right about Mr Russell. He's not a killer. It doesn't make sense. The one thing I'm sure of would be Whitney playing at Wimbledon with me there cheering her on wearing a fancy outfit and a big hat. I just know it will happen one day. I just don't want to go to the cannery. It helps that I know that one day I'll be with Ethan after all that's what the fortune teller said. One day I will be Mrs Ethan Crane.

Dear Diary

I feel like such an idiot. I just have to face reality. Ethan Crane will never be mine. He's going to marry that girl Gwen Hotchkiss. He would probably call the police if he ever saw me again. I just can't believe it isn't going to happen. For so long I was sure that I'd end up with Ethan. I just hate that he's going to marry that Gwen. I know I could make him happy if he'd only give me the chance. I have to stop thinking like that.

I just hate that I'm stuck working at the Cannery for the summer. At least I won't have to worry about running into Ethan. Who knows what he'd do if I had another accident with him nearby. It was just horrible how I kept spilling things on him but it really was an accident. I never meant any of those things to happen and I almost burned down the Burger Hut. Things can't possibly get any worse.

I just hope I don't have to clean fish. I just had my nails done. So it turns out that I've always been crazy since Luis told me about this one time when I was seven. I'd consider becoming a nun but I wonder if Whit might be right about not being allowed to shave. That would be horrible and they wouldn't let me wear makeup either. oh what does it matter. It's not like I'll ever fall in love since Ethan was it for me. I just have to face reality and go on even though it really hurts.

Dear Diary

I never thought I'd run into Ethan at the cannery. Alice was sure right about fate having a twisted sense of humor. Ethan showed up with Gwen. I nearly gave up on ever being with Ethan but there he was at the last place I expected him to be. I slipped and accidentally spilled fish guts all over Ethan. It really was an accident but the best place part of this horrible night was finding out that Gwen didn't say yes.

I couldn't believe it when I found out that Gwen didn't say yes after Ethan proposed to her. So I still have a chance with Ethan. He has to know that these were allaccidents. I didn't mean any of it. I don't know why this keeps happening but he has to know that I'm not some stalker. I had no idea he was going to be there. Now I lost my job and I have no idea what I'm going to tell Luis.

I stayed over at Whitney's so I wouldn't have to face Luis until I figured something out. He's going to kill me when he finds out that I lost another job because of Ethan. Well I'll just have to find one myself. Anything has to be better than working with fish. I feel bad for Alice but at least she has a boyfriend that doesn't mind her smelling of fish. I had the best dream with Ethan. I explained everything that happened and forgave me for it. I just know we're going to be together. I just have to talk to him.

Dear Diary

It happened again. I went to the carnival and Kay asked me to help out and I ran into Ethan. He was in the locker room. He wanted me to put body oil on him so I got to touch him. I just didn't realize that it was the wrong oil so I'm sure he got pretty mad when his back felt like it was on fire. He just keeps showing up and he was looking for me too. I know that if he just gives me the chance to explain that he'll understand what happened.

Wow I got to touch Ethan Crane. I got to rub oil all over his back. He has such an amazing body. I just wish I'd read the bottle. It was an honest mistake. He asked me to rub it on him. I noticed Gwen wasn't around. I just don't know what he sees in that girl. I'm just glad she isn't marrying him. It is fate stepping in or maybe she's crazy because that's what she has to be because she said no to him. I'm not going to complain because I just know my dreams are going to come true. One day I'm going to be Mrs Ethan Crane.

I got the best news from Mama. Mrs Crane offered me a job and I'm taking it. I know Mama doesn't want me to and Luis would freak out but I need this job. I want to work and this job sounds absolutely perfect for me. I'm going to go see Mrs Crane about this job. Now this is one job that I'd be good at and best of all I won't have to deal with smelly fish. I never thought I'd get the smell out and I wasn't even at the cannery for one night. Now I just need to find the perfect outfit to wear to see Mrs Crane.