I have some issues myself, and prefer solitude. So I can imagine how your life has been.

Maybe we should form a club. Or rent a room and invite some of the female members here. We'll call it "Philosophy Forum Conference", and we'll do what conference goers always do in America.

I don't prefer solitude. I'm an introvert, but act like an extrovert. I have all my life desperately been trying to connect. I finally did, some time ago, but that guy committed suicide. Then I connected with another friend, he committed suicide too. Some women I connected with made happy relationships.

Add to this, that I missed most of North American childhood, teen-age, and TV culture. Because I did not speak English up to age 28 or so, and only started to watch movies again since my late teens after I turned 45. A huge chunk of current politics, culture and trends just passed me by.

Why?
If it's not too personal a question to ask.
You can reply in a PM if you prefer that

No, I was not in prison.

I was in my own prison -- to be melodramatic about it -- which was the whole wide world, and it was still a prison. In solitary confinement. So to speak.

Might as well blurt it out in the public, since my identity is protected.

Schizophrenic breakdown at 20.

I am schizotypal. Or whatever. I can't remember the name. I am normal, until I get under stress, moderate to large stress, at which point I become delusional.

I was socially isolated, and had no peer group. Plus I immigrated from Hungary, at age 18, and never mixed with the Hungarian community. So I was pretty much a loner, living inside my head. Perfect resume for a philosopher.

I am also on the autism spectrum, and have a severe case of borderline personality disorder.

So much fun!!

oh ;-/. none of the above is good ;-/. I have close friend down the street from me (we've known each other for 20yr now - been friends for 12 or so now), who is Scizoactive(sp) - i think that is what you were refering to (sorry i can;t spell the term correctly). He suffers from mania and mild schizophrenia. He claims Depression too, but i've not noted the latter from him.

as for me, I'm fullbore Depressant - no mania no schizophrenia - but note that there is no such thing as "Willing out of" my depressionist tendencies.

I experienced that black hole 20-15 yrs ago, been out of said HB since that time, but note my personality as one of "depressant" overall - if not in the BH - thankfull that it has not sucked me into it again.

i do not take my freedom from it for granted, am thankful i;m out if it and hope to remain so.

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2-cents, i think is genetics - for mania, depression and schzophrenia, i wish you well and hope you are able to defend against your genetic tendancy with a good environment and friends as much as possible.

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thanks for replying to my inquary indirectly - Hungarian huh? - rem the PM who the Ruskies threw out of the ninth floor in 56? for the sake of Liberty. to die for doing right sucks for sure.

You really have to visualize how your audience can't read your mind and then you must write according to that.

You only hurt yourself with the abbreviation ticket. People don't get your depth because you annoy them with undecipherable abbreviations, which makes your text meaningless, therefore not worth reading. I am not saying the text is worthless... it's just that its worth is invisible, since it eludes comprehension by the reader.

I am your friend, so I can tell you this. Try to get into the habit of NEVER using abbreviations. Please.

Eastwood’s character is an antihero. As such, he is definitely flawed. I got chills as well

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per "American Sniper" - not watched it - trailers left me cold - "media" said if is Fascist work. would welcome more about this work (I have a mind - dont let media to think for me)[\quote]

War is neither promoted nor glorified. The sniper eventually breaks down, revealing the psychological effects of war. For me, often the best character studies are not about plain wrapper protagonists.Please excuse crazy format and typing.Fingers not working now.[\quote]

Btw, has Jennifer Aniston ever played any part except Jennifer Aniston?

I guess not. Even in her own mother's post partum depression. Or when she parts her hair. Or when she parts out her leftovers from last night's dinner. BTW, I've heard rumours about her ethnic/ racial origin: she's part Jennifer, part Aniston.

A person who keeps such a close leash on her part, is either partly blind to her own self, or else great at parties.

Btw, has Jennifer Aniston ever played any part except Jennifer Aniston?

I guess not. Even in her own mother's post partum depression. Or when she parts her hair. Or when she parts out her leftovers from last night's dinner. BTW, I've heard rumours about her ethnic/ racial origin: she's part Jennifer, part Aniston.

A person who keeps such a close leash on her part, is either partly blind to her own self, or else great at parties.

If you said 'role' it wouldn't have saved you either. My response in that case would have been:

Jennifer is a good role in the hay. I know your eyes role when I say these, but Jennifer is a good role model for moles with rodar adjustments. And I was bluffing, but it worked, because to my own greatest surprise rodar IS a word (the spell checker left it alone.)

Thanks for the song!! This is really good. I am listening to it as I write this response.

a friend of mine is a Chinese girl adopted by Americans - her parents took her back to China for a visit and when she came back she was excited about this movie they showed on their airplane - she found a copy and made me watch it

it starts with this guy riding along on a bicycle and he is not paying too much attention and runs into a pile of bricks, and falls over and then this girl comes out of nowhere and smacks him on the head with a brick - this is set in modern China

later, at the police station, as she is about to be led away, she hands him a key to her apartment and a note saying "I want you to feed my fish" - she is deaf and cannot speak

there are lots of flashbacks to their childhood and its very mild yet powrerful social and political commentary - i can only imagine how powerful it must be for someone who can understand it withotu subtitles and knows the history and culture