Where am i now? Can i progress to anything? Things just won't fall in my lap and it doesn't seem to matter how much I want. Cuz I can't be satisfied, and gradually I will come to realize what i want from life. Who or what will it be tonight?

Is it so wrong that I just want someone to show a little interest? And am I selfish cuz I can't accept "sure okay" for an answer? I sure wish I could.