Designer lifestyle

Deep meditation. Listening to music that calms the mind, body and spirit. Songs that bring me mental cleansing. Staying quiet in the mind brings fuel to survival.

Everyday is another lesson. School is in session and I’m learning more than I can fully understand at this point. The way my life changes is unnerving at best. At times I think why bother? No one will miss the things that I’ve always brought to the table. No one will notice when the keys no longer stroke and I no longer have anything else to say.

So I say the things that come to mind anyway. Without an audience there’s no reason to be impressive. To try harder. I can be myself and never worry about acceptance. The power that comes with always being enough is transforming. Empowering souls. To ignore anything that doesn’t belong in your story is taking back your energy and focusing it somewhere that truly fulfills your soul.

I design my destiny. I hand picked my way to be.

I decided that I’m going to have a wonderful life. I decided who I expose myself to everyday. I’m thankful that my story includes a higher understanding of the universe around me. I seek truth and it continues to set me free. Why lie about who I am to please anyone other than myself? No one is in this room with me. When I wake up and go to sleep nothing else is included in my journey to tomorrow. I’m particularly puzzled by the need to pretend. I’m too damn tired of pretending.

If I walk this time of my life with nothing but my truth then I’m in control of my thoughts. I never wanted anything to interfere with my wants. To change my mind. I absolutely hate finding out information that makes me question a persons character. Or things that make me question authority. Things that make me question God.

I would much rather walk into neverland get biscuits with the mad hatter and blow smoke at the circle of life.

Sounds fun huh? But is it fulfilling?

Today I will have a better day than yesterday.

I will decide to let go of anything that doesn’t make me smile. I will experience the strength it takes to decide if I love myself enough to be happy. Putting happiness in society hands will leave me battered,broken and discouraged. I’m done with that.

I’m beautiful. I’m wiser. I’m grateful that I am here. I’m incredibly important to those who love me. Those who really have my best interest at heart. I’m a piece of their story. I belong. They are a piece of my story therefore they belong to me also.

Living can be amazing. I’m ready to be surrounded by love and the only way to do so is to be love myself.