You're not shit Aveiam - no more that any of the rest of us are . All we can do is try, being unwell is shit, but you're not shit - because you're a person, who's had some shit cards dealt to them, but you're not the depression, and you're not the horrible things that have happened, you're just you navigating through this, and if you need a bit of support to get through it, then that's ok and that's what the MH services are there for.

Sending you a hand to hold. Hopefully the ward will spark back into life a bit tomorrow with more nurses / Occy therapists and doctors around. I hope being there helps. It always feels horrible at the time, but looking back on most of my admissions they have been helpful

Aveiam, you're in the right place for you at the moment love. What's the ward like now it's a working week again? Is there some sort of occupational T therapy programme? Are you allowed outside? (eg garden / smoke break) and is the food okay?

I'm in voluntarily but basically because they said I'd be sectioned if I didn't go voluntarily, it's all just hurting so much and it's too noisy here. I don't want to eat, the occupational therapist doesn't like me the psychologist is nice but I don't want to stay alive anymore

Keep talking to to us, to the psychologist. We hear you, that you are in such a dark place in your life that you just can't see how you can stay alive right now. But you are still here, and you accepted that you needed to go to hospital for help and support - its never ideal on a ward, but they are there to look after you right now. You can let them.