thoughts of paleoqueen

Hello!

I want to take it very serious this time.
Eating primal will become my new lifestyle. It's not a diet, it's really a lifesstyle.

My current weight is about 76 kg and my height about 1.73. I've never been that heavy in the past 23 years of my life (i am 23!) I want to drop at least 10 kg, better 15. But actually i am very happy about every pound that comes of by eating healthy.

And i have a lot of good reasons to start my new life right now.

1. I want to be free from sugar addiction and dependence on food.
2. I want my nice and cute ass back and some defined cheek bones.
3. I want a flat and strong belly.
4. I want my PCOS symptoms to vanish: I want to menstruate again, i want the unwanted hair to vanish, i want my skin to clear up.
5. I want to flirt again, i want to feel attractive.
6. I want to be and stay healthy, lean and fit.
7. I want to stick with this new way of eating, because i know that it's the best thing i can do for my health, for my relationship with family and friends, for my well-being, my self-esteem and myself in general.
8. I will go to California soon and i want to look smoking-hot in that bikini.
9. I want to get compliments again.
10. I want to suprise friends and family!
11.Eating should be easy and no drama. Actually it is easy. I can decide conscious what to put into my mouth.
12. According to my doctor i am at big risk of developping diabetes II (i will get the results in about two weeks)
13. I want more ENERGY!

I think those should be enough reasons for me to start. Tonight i will cook my last red lentils and share them with my flatmates and then go primal on monday.
I'm actually thinking about doing a virgin coconut oil detox for 2-5 days for overcoming the sugar cravings (that will come up for sure) more easily. I might start with this on wednesday, because thursday is a holiday and i can take the time for detoxing.

I will cut out all grains, dairy, sugar and processed food.

As i don't like to eat too much meat, my diet will consist of veggies and salad, eggs, salmon, tuna, meats and poultry (in moderation) nuts and seeds, coconut oil, olive oil and the occasional apple once in a while /maybe some berries.

I already experimented with flaxseed-sunflower-crackers, coconut flour and oil, and i hope that i will find out more recipes i can adapt easily to my lifestyle. I am still studying and have a quite tight budget. But i still want to buy high-quality foods like organic eggs etc.

In this journal i want to keep track on my progress. I also want to take a "before" picture of myself and will upload it here (quite scary for me!), this will hopefully help to motivate myself to get my sexy ass back.

Pictures

you can see my blown-up wheat belly, i developped celullite in the last year...
uugh, It's really hard for me to see this. I don't want to see myself as a fat kid... I always was a little bit chubby, but know i am very close to becoming really overweight.

I just checked my BMI: It's around 25.6 which makes me officially overweight! The first time, that it is that high. Every week i want to weigh myself and every month i will take new pictures for measuring the process.

i also try to incorporate more exercise. Today i didn't do anything in particular, but i walked like 90 minutes for going to shopping, university and so on.
I also started oil pulling a few days ago and hope that i helps me with my sugar cravings. so far i'm good.

Paleoqueen, you are gorgeous. I believe you are too down on yourself, a very short time eating this way will bring that small amount of bloating under control and make you feel great. I don't believe you need to lose very much weight at all, but the health benefits and the weight control go hand in hand, so if you adopt a wholesome diet you will find you can maintain a good weight as well. If you squat and lift a few weights that will become even easier.

Now I think you were weak and tired yesterday through not eating enough There is no desperate rush to drop a lot of weight so you might as well take it a bit more slowly and make sure you have enough nutrition for health and energy. Beef up all your meals a little, always have some protein and a bit of fat eg add a couple of eggs at breakfast, some bacon at lunch and some buttered carrots at dinner.

Annie, thanks a lot for your advice! I really should start doing exercise, but i still feel quite weak. i think it's just because of the sugar/carb withdrawal in the first days and will get better soon. I don't think that I eat too little calories as i prepare my food either with lots of olive or coconut oil and eat a lot of nuts. But i will try to add some more meat from tomorrow on.
I really want to be quite strict with this diet. They diagnosed me with PCOS and symptoms are getting worse. Right now I can decide if i want to take medication (which i don't want) or manage the symptoms with nutrition on a more natural way This extra weight that i gained (also because of PCOS), will hopefully come of easily

Thank you Seattleslim, i probably see my weight gain as more dramatic as it is. it just came quickly, i used to be slim. In the last three month after i stopped taking bcp i gained weight like crazy. i exercised and i also did not eat unhealthy, but i gained steadily. that scared me. now i know that it is because if my hormones and that i can control it with good nutrítion.
i am just not used to see my body like that.

Today i successfully completed day 4 of 30!
i am still a little low in energy, but i think that i ate enough today, what do you think?

Well done for starting! It takes a lot of courage and willpower to change and to keep going!
Don't worry about how you look you are beautiful and now your on your way to being healthy and fit too!
Once you feel you have more energy try going for a sprint or run as fast as you can, get the blood pumping, feel the wind whistle by and possibly do a leap in the air-just because for no reason other than to enjoy it!
That's always my fav exercise routine, I take it to the fields out back where I also go and jump rivers, climb trees and race up some hills then I have a nice relaxing walk to cool down and I listen to the birds
It's important to keep yourself mentally happy too and to enjoy the simple things in life :P

I feel so isolated as every day I search for others like me, I havn't found them yet but I will one day...