Sunday, September 26, 2010

a very large part of my wants to be friends with so many people,to reach out and love my sisters and brothers, to allow people to see who i am. constantly i am broken into peices as i sit, stare and gawk at the relationships that are forming around me.everyday i realzie how much i was not born into this world, that in my newness i was born into a world that is very much separate fromfrom who i now am.in these moments of realization i couldn't be more happy, feel more full,know that i am complete when i shut my eyes and allow myself to escape intothe only relationship worthy of every moment of my time.i've been allowed to see the heart of women, of men of myself. to know that when i just want toshreek about the glorious relationship i have that many, often myself, will look at me oddly,question my love with scripture, urge me to examine myself.psht, i say. i'm going to go absolute, insanely so far out there crazy.as i humble myself in admitting my own pride, inability and lack of friends.as i cling to the one who gave it all, for me, who has equipped me for each moment,who desires to know me utmostly.so i dare to pray to know God like Adam knew God.because you will always let me down.you, woman, will never listen to me as much as i need to be listened to.you, teacher, will never allow me to do as my heart fully desires.you, husband, will spit in my face when i most needed a kiss.you, human, man and woman.

"i've tasted Your glory, and i left it there,you poured out Your mercy,and i didn't care.still You loved me.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

i'm so glad i get to meet Johnny Cash one day.

"I, as a believer that Jesus of Nazareth, a Jew, the Christ of the Greeks, was Anotinted One

of God (born of the seed of David, upon faith as Abraham had faith, and it was accounted to him for righteousness), am grafted onto the true vine, and am one of the heirs of God's covenant with Isreal"

Monday, September 6, 2010

I'm glad to know love.To feel the presence of love sitting by my side.I want so desperately to know who I am. To spew out the words that are given to me, to behold the glory that is been placed upon me. So often I feel shame in being who I am, but when I'm alone, in the space between my eye's and eyelids I feel so free. Every tear that creeps out, may they show the reflection of what is going on inside, may they release and set free the captive one that has been harboring. The one Holy in being, precious in presence, gentle in his abiding yolk, may He be revealed, may He be allowed to speak, may He move the mountains. May He stain the aged, worn, becoming, beloved, undeserving folk from youth to worn. May He be allowed in the space between your eye's and eyelids. Don't be afraid to blink. For there is no amount of darkness that can overcome the light.I'm so glad to know Love.May I know it more.You too.