My thoughts go out to you....although I am the patient rather than the family/friend affected by this, I am sure we are all experiencing similar feelings. I've gone from being scared and researching everything possible to pretending nothing is wrong. I worry so much for my family because this journey is like a roller coaster: up and down constantly. I do know that having a support from my family is a tremendous help. I've had to apologize several times in the last few weeks because I get so drawn into my thoughts that I tune them out. Then there have been those times that friends will contact me to tell me they are behind me and know how strong I am. Honestly, sometimes that gets to be SO much, that I get a little snippy with them. Once I have time to digest it all in quiet, I am thankful for them that they aren't scared off by my "shortness". Keep being there for your family member/friend. Between the hormonal changes occuring from the cancer and the fear of the unknown we may tend to react differently than before our diagnosis. Underneath it all we are just anxious to know and are blessed to have friends and family that stick with us! Best of luck!

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