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Monday, November 2, 2009

Happy National Adoption Month!

November, in case you didn't know, is National Adoption Month. If I'm honest I have to tell you that I didn't know there was such a thing until a year ago when I started looking into adoption as one of my options.

In honor of NAM, I am going to follow the example of Mrs R and blog every day this month. I have decided that I am finally going to buckle down and finish writing out my story. As I recall, I've left things hanging just before I went to LDSFS and met with S for the first time. I've been putting off revisiting last year because it was a painful time in my life and I'm not looking forward to reading through my journal from a year ago and reliving it again.

But I feel that I need to - not just for the sake of telling the whole story here, but for therapeutic purposes as well. I will say one thing about last year: I kept a really, really good record of things. As soon as I found out I was pregnant, I started a private blog so I could easily record my thoughts each day on my impending motherhood. And I wrote every single day, sometimes twice. I've read through parts of it in the past few months and I have to say, I'm impressed with myself. I did an amazing job of record keeping. From October 25 2008 to July 5 of 2009 I kept track of every twinge of nausea, every food craving, every ounce I gained, every thought and feeling, and every tiny new thing that Roo was busy growing in my belly - fingers and toes, eyelashes, tooth buds.

It seems strange now to think that my sweet Roo, who can hold her head up like a champ and who is hard at work on sitting herself up, was just a blob of cells a year ago. It's strange to think of those fat little baby feet inside my belly a few short months ago, kicking up a storm, digging into my ribs and making my rounded stomach punch out and roll like an angry sea. It's stranger still to think of how quickly last November's blob of cells became that energetic baby.

November is adoption month, and it holds Thanksgiving, which I think is fitting. If there is one thing for which I am eternally thankful, it's adoption. It has changed my life, and it has changed Roo's, and we are both so much the better for it.

Me Me Me

My name is Jill. I had a baby girl, Roo, on July 7th, 2009. I handed her to her mommy and daddy on September 9th, 9 weeks later.
This blog is my attempt to make sense of things and it is my hope that when Roo is older, she'll read it, and maybe she'll understand.