Amy Schumer celebrates the highlights and returns to the depths of her career thus far in her Vanity Fair feature, which takes center stage in the magazine’s May issue. Among anecdotes about her budding friendship with Jennifer Lawrence — namely how Schumer pulled enough strings to score tickets for all of her closest childhood friends to The Hunger Gamespremiere — Schumer reflects on the moment when she first learned about the mass shooting that occurred at a screening of her film, Trainwreck.

The comedienne was located in Los Angeles, still en route during the movie’s press tour, when she noticed “a million missed calls” from her publicist.

“I was laughing before I called her back, because I thought it was going to be like a sex tape [had surfaced] or something. So I was kind of laughing, like ready to … ” Schumer recounts, pausing to regain composure. “And then she told me there had been this shooting.”

Schumer likened the moment to the infamous shooting during a screening of The Dark Knight.

“The idea of people trying to go out and have a good time—you know, like looking forward to it?—I don’t know why that makes me the saddest.”

She proceeded by turning on the news after her publicist informed her of what had happened. “I was by myself in a hotel,” Schumer continues, “I was just like, I wish I never wrote that movie.”

Since the shooting in July, Schumer has teamed up with her distant cousin, New York Senator Chuck Schumer, to build initiatives for gun control in a campaign called Aiming For Change. TheInside Amy Schumer star also recently visited the White House to attend a press conference on gun violence.