Who am I? (twenty-four year old girl)

I am just twenty four years old, in twenty four years I have been the victim of child abuse, domestic abuse, and self abuse. Being a rebellous teenagager I left home when I was sixteen years of age and met a guy from Washington DC. I fell in love with him in three weeks, I think that this was a result of my going through a crisis. After six months of knowing him I moved in with him and lived with people whom had no motivation to do anything at all. All of his family was on public assistance and no one worked but had money to be in a constant state of drunkeness and smoke crack. Eventually I left him because he wouldn’t get a job and I couldn’t see him as my future. I need to stop being a push over in my personal relationships and in life period. It’s hard for me to stop getting pushed around because I’m so use to it. In my younger years I’ve been through so much drama that it would take at least 7 or more pages to write about. The tug of wars between my parents, my maternal family, and faternal family were defining factors in my life. I am closer to my mother’s family then I am to my father’s, my fathers family looks down on all of his children. I don’t talk with much of my faternal family anymore. On the maternal side of my family I tend to be closer to my grandmother than anyone else. I feel like a loner in my family and in the world because I don’t have many friends. All I have is my family, my current boyfriend and God whom I have not been paying attention to. Can you imagine what its like when your family and your boyfriend gets mad at you, or when your boyfriend gives you a hard time and you don’t know what to do? I am someone who beat the odds of teen pregancy not that I wasn’t doing my thing it’s just that I just didn’t get pregnant. I am someone who has low self esteem even though I try to hide it from others, I am someone whom is not always happy I’m just alive mostly. I know that working with the sick and working wi…