This blog is about my life, my quest to build my family, and the random stuff that comes up along the way

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Kids day at the office

Apparently today is "bring your adorable 3yo to work day" and I missed the message. There have been (and still are) 4 kids just wandering through today, and frankly I have had enough.

Other exciting work-related fertility quotes from today?- From the 45yo mother of one of the kids "yeah -- I thought it might be hard for me to get pregnant at 42, but it happened, like, instantly."- From a woman whose 45yo sister is pregnant with her 4th child "My brother-in-law didn't really want another kid, and thought there was little chance his 44yo wife would actually get pregnant. I guess she just really really wanted this baby."- From the father of one of the kids here today (in response) "My wife was 38 with our first and 40 with our second -- I just needed to look at her and she got pregnant. You hear about these people trying and trying -- I just can't relate at all."

I'm swollen and bruised from the shots, and I hate that it is not just as easy for me.But still.I am swollen because this is working. and it will work. and one day it will be me with the kid in the office. But I will be sensitive and not parade them through, because there may be someone here whose heart is breaking because it is not so easy for them either.

I am breathing deeply so as to retain that sense of calm and peace from yesterday. It's mostly working but I wish the kids would go away.

5 comments:

Ah, so that's the trick?! I just need to WANT this more! I wish someone had told me that a couple of years ago. That's SO much easier than forking over thousands of dollars and injecting all kinds of frightening drugs into my belly. How silly of me...

that really sucks, dear. I'm sorry you had to see those kids rushing around at work. Before I got pregnant I couldn't even look at pictures of kids. Which is kind of strange, because if we didn't love them we wouldn't want them.

About Me

I'm a 42-year old (yikes I hate writing that) woman struggling to maintain my equilibrium (and sanity) while trying to start a family. Turns out that neither is all that straightforward. And now that I have a baby boy, I'm learning to balance family and work without losing my mind!

Our history of baby-making

Mar 2013 -- Go in for Day 2 blood work to figure out where period is and learn I am miraculously pregnant. Beta #1 173. Bleeding at 5w. Gestational sac small and large subchorionic hematoma. But betas still doubling (up to 22,000). At 6w1d fetal pole found and slow heartbeat (65bpm). At 7w2d no heartbeat. M/c #2.