What have I done?

I know what I have done. I have eaten 2700 calories worth of emotion. I never labeled myself as an emotional eater, because I have never been able to definitively pinpoint an example of emotional eating in my life. But tonight was a sore spot. I went to one of my 21 year old friends wakes to say goodbye for the last time. It's about to drive me batty. I just can't comprehend losing someone that young...especially to a heart attack. This girl...so beautiful..Always smiling and laughing...remembering our childhood and sleepovers together...Her mother had heart problems and died when we were in the 8th grade..they should have checked her better for heart defects when they knew it ran in the family!! It's not fair. She had a rough life, and she finally was back on track...just got married..had found a good job. Then blammo, she is gone. But I guess that is life. No one ever expects that it is their time.

Before I went to the wake, I stopped in to check in on my mom (Jr. High principal)...only to find out she had lost one of her fifth graders the previous afternoon to heart complications which had been masked for years by his asthma. It was one of the children my mother had grown attached to...she always picks a few favorites..She had asthma as a child, so many times when the boy was having an attack they brought him to my mom because she was able to help him relax and breathe. She had a special bond with him through that. I could tell she had been crying all day. Just a glum day in general. Burying children...

Sorry to dump this on you guys. I don't really have anyone else I feel comfortable expressing this too.

I know this isn't an excuse to overeat the way I have tonight..but I just needed something to take my mind of the depressing realities of life for awhile...And this feeling in my stomach (like it is about to rupture) is helping somewhat...I guess.

Thank you guys for reading if you made it this far. your loved ones tight please..You never know when that day will come, and the opportunity is no longer available.

That's a crappy day. Don't beat yourself up about your reaction. Overwhelming grief is hard to handle no matter what.

You've heard before we didn't get fat from one day of bad behavior, so in the grand scheme of things, you haven't done much damage. Do try to get on track today. That may be the best way to honor loved ones and life -- by honoring ourselves.

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My 5 C's of healthy living: Commitment to conscious control, with the understanding that choices have consequences

I'm so sorry for your loss.
Don't feel bad dumping this on us, that's what we are here for.
Just get back on track today. This is a reminder of how fragile life is and how important it is for us to get healthy now.

Sock/Mary: I'm sorry for your losses - both so tragic. Please don't beat yourself up over a 2700 calorie day. You have alot of emotion inside of you right now and you've recognized that eating for comfort is one of your challenges. Someone I know used to say "When the times gets tough, the tough get going......out to eat, that is!". LOL - so true, isn't it?? Try to remind yourself that you are 'tough', but the food does not control you.

I'm so sorry about your friend and your mother's little student. It's hard to make sense of people so young being taken from us. If I were in your position, I'd probably have 3700 calories stuff in my mouth, so don't feel bad for your reaction. I'm sure many people would have done the same thing.

Mary, I was in tears just reading that. It is so unfair when lives are cut so short I wouldn't beat yourself up so much, just try and move on best you can. It will get better as you cycle through different emotions, just lean on your mom and be there for one another and you'll come to a brighter day. Food is a friend to many of us, and you needed it in that moment...can't change it, and it's not the end of the world, so just keep on going.

Mary - I'm sorry for your loss. Death of someone young is unbelievable and hard to cope with...I know, I lost someone just last year at a young age. There are no answers to the big question...why...take your time to cope with it...I don't know a single person who wouldn't have done what you did...if not more damage. Keep your head up and stay focused on life...as you know, it is all to delicate and important.

Just wanted to add my sympathies and extend my thanks. It's so easy to get frustrated by the minutae in life, so it's good to be reminded that there are more serious things that happen. I'll be hugging my children and husband extra tight tonight.