Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Okay, I'm back from my break. I think. I'm pretty sure.

I really like blogging. I miss it when I'm not posting.

So I have decided that I will keep posting but I will not post when I'm feeling really down or overwhelmed because that's when I start to write things that are too personal. At those times I will step away from the computer.

A couple of people had mentioned going password protected, but I don't really want to to do that right now. I have a whole bunch of reasons why but I'm too tired to form coherent thoughts on it right now. It is a possibility in the future but for now I'm going to stay where I am. And try not to post too much personal info. I have some friends inside the computer that I have been emailing and private messaging with on Face.book and that has helped me get a lot of what I want to say out without having to post it here.

Thank you friends inside the computer! You rock.

So let's see, what's been going on around here since I left?

Not a lot.

Joe has not found a job. Ugh.

I got the termination notice for my health insurance. Double Ugh.

I was feeling kind of down.

O.K., I was feeling really down.

I am feeling slightly better. I still have my moments.

We're doing everything we can to stay in our apartment, at least for the immediate future. We are in a lease, after all, and it would cost money to get out of right now.

I signed up with an agency to do some babysitting on my time off. I have had two offers already.

The price of babysitting certainly has gone up since the last time I did it! And because of my extensive background in early childhood education I find that people are willing to pay me at the top of the wage level.

Which is good for me. But dude, how do you people afford to go out? I'm pretty sure when Sophie comes home Joe and I will not be going out much. Between the babysitter and the price of a movie, we wouldn't be able to afford it! Forget about dinner.

So if you live in Orange County and are looking for a babysitter, I am available.

I am CPR certified and background checked and fingerprinted.

Heck, I'll even give you a discount! :)

I have not been feeling that great for the last few days with this sickness that I can't seem to put my finger on. Headache, sore throat and nausea. The nausea is what's bothering me the worst. Sipping a coke is the only thing that seems to make it better. And I don't usually drink carbonated beverages. But the nausea! Yuck.

And please don't ask me(like 2 of my co-workers already have)

"Hey, maybe you're pregnant"?

Because in case you forgot

I don't have a uterus.

Or ovaries for that matter.

So I'm thinking we can rule out pregnancy :)

I was thinking it could have something to do with my hormone patch, but my body has been feeing kind of sore and I had a slight temperature on Sunday.

So maybe the flu, but a less severe version of it? Because 2 years ago I had the flu and I thought I was going to die, that's how bad it was.

I don't know. But I'm sick of feeling sick. It is seriously cutting into my Wii Fit time.

Glad that you are back, but sorry to hear you are sick...there is a flu like that going around....I had the same exact symptoms last week.....keep sipping the soda and eating the crackers, it should pass soon!!

I don't know what it is but I'm so with you on the sickness thing. I'm definitely feeling the nausea thing as well as a pressure sensation in my abdomen. Like severe bloating that makes me feel like my stomachs on fire. Not to mention all I want to do is eat salads, veggies and soup. I can't choke down a full meal ever. DH wants me to go to the Dr. next week and he's probably right. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I know it's not IBS and I'm almost sure it's not an ulcer. Every stomach/intestinal issue I've researched doesn't have the same symptoms I do. And I know I'm not pregnant either. Hope you feel better soon.

Someday

You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you want to do is cry
[Chorus]
And maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday

Now wait
And try to find another mistake
If you throw it all away then maybe you can change your mind
You can run, oh
And when everything is over and done
You can shine a little light on everything around you
Man it's good to be so warm

And I don't want to waitI just want to know
I just want to hear you tell me so
Give it to me straight
Tell it to me slow
Cause maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
We'll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just feel better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday
Cause sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over again