Tuesday, January 12, 2016

The holidays aren’t so great for me these days. Not like they used to be when my parents were still alive. I lost them both in my early twenties so I really feel like I was cheated in that area of life. I know most folks think their parents (or sometimes just one parent) is the best, most awesome ever in the history of all the earth…but mine really were the best ever.

I’ve talked about it before but my parents were my maternal grandparents when I was born. It’s a big ol’, long story and I won’t bore y’all with all the details but suffice to say that by the time I was going to start kindergarten they adopted me. I officially became their child instead of their grandchild.

I’ve known my truth my entire life…who my birth mother is (I call her my sister/mother since she is technically both, at least in my eyes); the basic circumstances of my birth; that my Mom & Dad were originally looking to start having grandkids, not take on another child to raise but raise me, they did.

THAT is part of why I see them both as my angels. They loved me and saved me from what would have probably been a very rough life with my sister/mother/ She’s just never been very stable and has about 1% of the maternal instinct needed to raise children. So you get what I’m saying, right?

Well, they’ve been gone for a very long time and I miss them every single day. That deep, aching feeling gets much stronger around the holidays. But I still tryed to be in the Holiday spirit.

It didn’t work.

This was probably the worst Christmas season of my life. No money, didn’t put up decorations, nothing. Only made a very little candy and that is something I normally love to do. Not this year.

I know, I sound pitiful but hey, the truth is the truth.

Anyway, that is why I haven’t been around…I just couldn’t seem to pull myself out of the depths of my depression. I am trying hard to climb out now but it’s a tough one this year.

But life isn’t all bad, for sure. I may have only got one gift but it was a good one; I got a pressure cooker (something I’ve been wanting for quite a while) from my daughter for Christmas. She got me the Power Pressure Cooker XL Well, let me tell you…this baby is magic!!!

So far I’ve made: a roast (with carrots, onions, mushrooms, and potatoes, a huge one pot spaghetti, a pot of beans, some barbequed chicken…and it’s all turning out pretty good, even with my learning curve. lol I absolutely love that it cooks so fast but it’s new to me so I’m having to learn as I go.

Tomorrow I am thinking about shooting for Chicken Tortilla Soup. Yum! Thank goodness for Pinterest for helping me to cook for the right amount of time. YAY! One more reason I love Pinterest.

I hope everyone had wonderful holidays and the new year has had a great start for you all.