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Today was better than yesterday, but I'm still staying up too late and sleeping in too late. I woke up around 10 this morning, and I was feeling pretty good until the afternoon. I did what I wasn't supposed to do, which is take a nap around 3 o'clock. I woke up around 10 or 15 minutes before 5. Then, I started to have some stomach pain for no discernible reason.

I decided to go ahead with my daily writing goals, but I'm doing something controversial in counting what I write in my journal entries toward my goals. Sure, it's not fanfic, original fic, or poetry, but journaling is often a recommended tool for writers. It's a way to keep the ball rolling, and I hope to write more fiction/poetry as time goes on. Besides, I will be taking a creative non-fiction class this semester, so this can be practice for that. I feel that just putting any kind of words on the screen is beneficial, and I believe that keeping a journal has helped me find my voice over the years. Fiction, poetry, non-fiction, blogging: it's all one to me.

I finished my stageoffools letter tonight. It still needs tweaking in order to be easy to read, but it's essentially done. This was accompanied by watching the 2016 Russell T. Davies version of A Midsummer Night's Dream because I wanted to refresh myself on the details. That was probably not the best idea as this version had some obvious changes. The most obvious was that ( Spoilers )

This was more of a reinterpretation, but I enjoyed the changes and they made me look at the play in a slightly different way.

Thankfully, the heat has decided to take a vacation for a while. Apparently, it was over 100 yesterday, but it was no hotter than the low 80s today. I've been enjoying some cool breezes from my window, but the heat kept me from sleeping last night. I don't think I was able to get to sleep until nearly 3 AM. When I did sleep, I had a haunted house-related dream/nightmare. I don't remember anything particularly creepy except for a general feeling of foreboding and the unease of finding myself alone in a dark, old house that was allegedly haunted. I blame this on reading The Haunting of Hill House—which was my first real ghost story ever—and starting Neil Gaiman’s American Gods where ( Spoilers )

. I don’t feel particularly tired as I was able to sleep in quite a bit, but I do feel a bit listless and uninspired which is a common side effect of not sleeping enough in my life.

Well, because of my persistent lack of time management skills, some setbacks have come on the heels of my other successes. I had to default on all of the exchanges that I signed up for. I think this is a matter of biting off more than I could chew and not taking into account that my assignments would be due not long after finals' week. Plus, I'm still not a very disciplined writer. I had quite a bit of anxiety to deal with regarding both school and fandom as well. I feel like I'm getting past that now, and I'm hoping that I will be able to be more productive this summer.

In the future, I think I will focus on writing treats for exchanges. That way, I can simply focus on the writing aspect without any consequences. I really have loved the gifts that I have received from the few exchanges that I've done, but my purest joy comes from writing itself. I don't need something in return to be happy.

In other annoyances, something is very wrong with the Internet here. The speed is really slow for some reason. I'm convinced that it's down to dial-up speeds, but I don't remember what that was like except that it was horrible. I remember that it took ~30 minutes to download a 4 MB song, and anything larger was out of the question.

In spite of everything, I was able to finish some writing, so I'll post that shortly.

Since I've been varying levels of sick this week, my spring break has evaporated away like melted snow. I planned on updating my journal all week, but I'm just getting to it now after two other failed attempts. I hope this writing will do me some good.

Once again, I signed up for a fanwork exchange against my better judgment, but hey, it's writing. Just in the nick of time, too! I totally forgot about space_swap with the full intention of doing a leisurely and well-thought out sign up earlier this week, but I didn't realize that sign ups were closing today until last night. I got my sign up in, but I was unable to take the time to put prompts or do not wants, so I'm bracing for anything. I just hope that I get something other than smut, but if I don't, it's my own fault for not planning ahead. Fortunately, I do not have many hard-and-fast triggers, but I would prefer that my fics don't get any darker or more adult than the original source material that I requested. Just in case my spacer is reading this, I am not down with incest or underage.

I also signed up for myoldfandom, but I have plenty of time to fiddle with the sign up for that and write a proper letter with prompts and everything. At least, I have until the 25th.

Anyway, I want to write more about my fannish activities, but this is just a brief recap of the little that I've done this week. I also need to post my fics from chocolateboxcomm now that they've been revealed for over a month now.

I was going to finish up the snowflake_challenge in this post, but it will have to wait because I feel like crap! The morning was mostly fine, but I woke up today not wanting to get out of bed even though I probably had the proper amount of sleep. I realized during class that I had fallen behind in the reading. Fortunately, I will be able to catch up, and there were no consequences this time. After I came home, I crawled into bed and proceeded to sleep for over an hour. I reluctantly got out of bed around two o'clock in the afternoon to eat lunch even though I felt like I could sleep more and did not feel like going to class at all. When I did go to class, I was horrified to learn that we had homework due that I didn't know about, so I spent most of the class period worrying about that instead of remaining fully present for the lesson. The professor won't let me make it up, which is fair enough, but I felt stupid for screwing that up. I felt like I should be too experienced by now to make that kind of mistake. Honestly, I feel really out of step this week and a lot like I'm just going through the motions.

As soon as I got home tonight, I took the the Philosophical Crap Test again because taking dumb quizzes like that is oddly soothing to me. I thought that it would make more sense to me this time since I'm taking a second philosophy class right now. It does a little bit. It may be a bit old-fashioned to post results to these kinds of quizzes, but I'm linking to my results for posterity's sake.

I wish this week was over already, but I have to get up in the morning to go to a presentation about studying abroad. I already RSVPed, so I don't think it would be right to bail. I just hope that tomorrow will be a little better than today at least.

Crap, it's Halloween tomorrow. I haven't even enjoyed October properly yet. :( Not to mention that I've let my journal updating slide.... I'm not even totally sure what I want to do with this journal anymore. When I created it, I hoped it would be my introduction back into fandom and Internet culture. I hoped that Dreamwidth would be a recreation of LJ in its heyday, but neither site is as vibrant as I would like. Of course, it doesn't help when I check out for these long absences, but I can't shake the feeling that I should move on to another platform.

This semester is definitely not my favorite, but I'm trying to stay open-minded until the end. Philosophy is a killer. I oscillate between liking and disliking Spanish in equal measure. The first half of world literature hasn't captured my heart like I expected it would. Despite the fact that I love mythology, I'm not so enchanted with ancient literature. I think the Iliad will grow on me. I also liked Oedipus Rex, but it made me very uncomfortable at the same time. I want to read the Aeneid in full someday, though. Other than that, my classes have passed in a blur.

I don't know why, but I've been almost entirely unproductive today. I don't really feel like myself. Still, I have homework looming over my head. The only thing that I have done today is read. It's good to be lost in a fantasy world for a time... *sighs* Anyway, writing this entry has perked me up a little bit! :) I'm trying to write more frequently, but my entries may be lacking in substance at the present... oh well, at least I'm writing!