the deep end.

by taylordoe

I am struggling. I am struggling big time. I feel like a terrible teacher. And I know this is how I am expected to feel right now but… it sucks. I can’t keep my head above water and every time I think I have had some sort of breakthrough, I quickly realize I haven’t. And yes, I am just as bad a teacher as I was the first day I stepped into the classroom. I keep telling myself it will get better, I will be a better teacher, my kids will behave better, things will get easier. But I believe myself less and less every day. Is this really going to get better? Or will I just get to the point where I am content with this constant feeling of disappointment in myself?

I know what it feels like to be thrown in the deep end of the pool without knowing how to swim — it feels like complete failure.