Postpartum Depression

MIL drama made me realize I probably have PPD

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mpre529 wrote:

My mother in law has been visiting us for the first time since daughter was born. Husband and I were having a rough day and I think she was trying to help by saying “if you continue like this your marriage won’t last.” She and my husband talked it out but then at dinner I messed up. They were planning to have my husbands father and brother over tomorrow, New Year’s Eve. I asked what time they were coming because I want to be able to plan baby’s day, and make sure she can go to bed on time. They tend to converse loudly and our house isn’t that well insulated against sound. I took it a little far and basically snapped, saying things about the brother (who I’m uncomfortable around) that I shouldn’t have. Well now she’s leaving. She’s changed her flight and leaving first thing in the morning. My husband says he’s not mad at me but I feel terrible. She won’t even hear an apology. I’ve been depressed this whole week because I go back to work Tuesday, and have had a hard time controlling my emotions. I feel like a terrible person. I realized I probably am suffering from PPD and anxiety and have been crying all day. I called a support hotline and have resources, but hate that I have to wait until Tuesday to hear from anyone in terms of moving forward.

Sounds a bit dramatic of her to do all that. Your husband needs to talk to her and ask her to remember what it was like when she was a first time mom. I'm feeling so emotional as well lately. I'm realizing today that I also probably have PPD and the worst anxiety about every little thing I've ever had. I hope it gets better soon for both of us! I try to just keep telling myself I'm doing a good job, I'm not perfect, and my daughter is only a baby once. I just want to be happy again....which, at the same time I also feel incredibly blessed and happy to have my new baby girl in my life. So many emotions and thoughts constantly, ugh!!

We talked today and she admitted she rushed into the decision to leave and wished she hasn’t. My husband goes between feeling ok and being upset with me.

I know I put so Much pressure on myself to do everything right, and it’s impossible. First it was stressing about breastfeeding. Now that that’s going well it’s naps, baby girl only naps on my lap. And daycare-will she be ok?! So much going on in my head. I’ve enjoyed my time at home with my girl so much. And now that it’s coming to an end I’m just so sad!

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