{? It’s: waking up and realizing
!really! 1 2 3
it was all a dream [ _ ] [ – ] [ ]
A T D
it’s: losing your glasses (?)
and wallet ($)
and keys (.)
in the exact place you left them
It’s: coming to know that
HELL
is not a place
but a state*ment* of *yours*and* mind
and you can leave
as IT soots you
it’s: finding that
one degree to the left one degree to the right
we all boILL

It’s: leaving…and giving up…
only to find the most beautiful moon (girl)
has bro———————ken
(((((the)))))((((clouds))))
that you may find your w.i.n.d.i.n.g. path back to her
a – gan. !}

This little miracle is Mataya. I’ve never met her, and I probably never will. She will most likely never know that this wallpaper exists.

It’s terrible how a child under a certain set of circumstances is considered a joyous miracle, and a child under a different set of circumstances is considered a pock mark and a nuisance. Most mothers, after having the child, change their minds if they did feel it was a problem, but society won’t change its mind. A child out of wedlock makes you a whore for getting pregnant. It doesn’t make the man a manipulating rapist (like most often he is), just an unlucky fool.

Love your child, Ruth, and give her the best – always. Make sure she knows two parents and knows love from both. You’ve seen what happens if not.