Thursday, February 18, 2010

It has already been over a week since I have written. I am sure my fan is just waiting for this post. Fan, as in singular.

My struggle today is this whole issue of weight. I mean, what the heck is the problem here? Am I really that lazy? Is is the weather? Is it that I am too busy? Is it my age? Is it because I have never had a weight problem before in my whole life? What excuse will I use today?

None, I tell you, there is none! No excuse works. There are people with kids who can find the time to exercise. I like winter, and snow. There is a ton of good healthy food out there to choose from. Age has nothing to do with it, there are plenty of skinny people my age. There is no excuse!

So why? Why do I continue to nothing? Sometimes I hate that part of me. The logical side (yes, sometimes there is one, really!) says "you must do something about this", then the reality side says "this isn't a health problem, what's the bid deal?" So I continue to beat myself up and nothing changes. I fluctuate 5 pounds down, than back up, then down again. I am really angry that I continue to do nothing about this.

Ok, now I am writing about it. Now I have confessed to the world (at least the one of you who reads this). Will that help?

My question to ponder is....what on earth will it take? Grrrrrrrrr!!!!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

So we go to work on Saturday morning after getting 2-3" of snow overnight, and it still snowing off and on during the day. It was a typical, normal day. We came home about 9:00 at night to a huge surprise---our driveway had been shoveled!!

I accused Ed of doing it before he left for work, but he was as stunned as I because knew he hadn't shoveled it.

Now I love doing random and anonymous acts of kindness for people, so the question is.....why should I be surprised that someone would do it for me? But I still am!

Part of me wants to know who did it (see there is that theme again in these blogs, I want to know!). But part of me does not want to know. Actually in this case, it is the latter that is the bigger part. Something in me doesn't want to ruin the mystery. I want to savor God's love for me.

All I can say is 'Thank You' to whoever you are. And 'Thank You' God, for giving them the heart to do this wonderful thing for me.

A funny caveat to this story is that we have secretly wanted to buy a snow blower and go around our neighborhood doing is very thing for people as our way of showing God's love. (We actually went shopping for them last year, but didn't buy.) And here someone actually beat us to the punch!!

Monday, February 1, 2010

So we stared thinking about our kitchen again. Seems like it takes us so long to do any type of home improvement around here. Could it have something to do with the fact that is because I usually only have one day off a week? And that one day consists of bills, grocery shopping, laundry and other assorted errands. (yep you read this right, I don't clean my house!) Please don't misconstrue what I am saying. I am not complaining, just stating a fact. I know fully well that we could, and should, have a two day "weekend" like the rest of the world.

That brings up the question to ponder, why do I feel so compelled to be at the Vineyard whenever I can? I actually 'volunteer' to be there more weekends than not. Sometimes I feel I am too old to be doing this. But most times it is just where I want to be.( Oh no, am I revisiting my very first post on this blog site about how I have a need to know what is going on? Is this a trend I am seeing in my blogs?)

Or....am I at the Vineyard because that is where my heart is. More than ever I want to see VCC succeed in helping others into a relationship with Jesus. Maybe I feel guilt because I know I am not a very good evangelist, so I work very hard behind the scenes to ensure that those who are good evangelists are equipped to evangelize. At least as far as I can be of help, so they can accomplish that.

Yes, my kitchen will get done and I am sure you will read about it here. Until then....let's go VCC!