Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Day 59

There's nothing like feeling like crap for a few days to make you appreciate your health.

I still have no energy, feel slightly feverish and achy, yet I came to work today and will take care of kiddos tonight. Fever has racked my body every night since Saturday-- freezing cold even under a down blanket and in a thick robe, then hot sweats when my fever breaks and I'm damp and disgusting when I wake up. I pray that there's no more fever tonight. It's really not pleasant.

I've had no desire to eat today but have made myself so I don't go into starvation mode and esp. so I don't get a headache from no food. I do have a desire to go to the gym, but what my mind wants, my body is clearing not cooperating.

Husband goes to New York for business tomorrow and will be gone until Sunday, so I'm a single parent for a few days. My daughter's school play is Friday (she sings and dances with her class--she's a Rocketship). Husband will miss it, unfortunately. Saturday I'm going to my sister's house for a garage sale. I'm supposed to be bringing my stuff to sell, but have done little to get ready for it. As I'm feeling crummy still today, I doubt that I'll do much more.

I'm mentally gearing up to lose another 10 pounds-- I really really want to be down to 175. That's a significant milestone. It means I'm close to being in a size 12. 10 pounds by June 1 is a totally doable goal, so that's what I'm shooting for.

1 comment:

It is so hard to be sick when you are MOM - don't you think? Nothing stops - somehow you are supposed to do everything that you normally do - and feel terrible on top of it. And husbands do tend to leave town at the most unfortunate times. Hope you feel better. I'd tell you to just forget about the garage sale - but maybe you'd feel better if you picked out a couple things that were really bugging you and called her to see if she would come get them. . .

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Hi there! I'm glad you stopped by to read my blog today. My name is Laura. I'm 45 years old, a working mom of 2, married to Mark for 20 years. In 2007 I lost 55 pounds, and also discovered that I love to run. In 2008 I got to 146 pounds and ran a half marathon in 2 hours 15 minutes. I was strong and fast and thin. But I gained back 40 pounds in 2010-2011. I am a statistic--I regained a lot of what I lost. But I am not a quitter. I kept searching for an "answer" to my weight problem, and on August 20, 2012, I went to my first OA meeting. I admitted I am powerless over food and I believed a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity. I have been abstinent from sugar/fat/flour foods since October 4, 2012. Although I will always be addicted to food, I am no longer its slave. Who knows where my weight will end up? It's not my business anymore. I'm no longer obsessed with food or diets, and food doesn't cloud my thinking any longer. I'm living my life--the good, the bad, and the ugly. It's a pretty darn good life. And I still love to run.