What Would You Do If You Knew You Couldn't Fail?

I am on a spiritual retreat this weekend, and of course, because Spirit is always in divine right order (God knows what God is doing), I am in the middle of surrender. Part of what I am surrendering is judgment, as in thinking that things should be different than they are. Not that I am steeped in it, but I have noticed that I still catch myself thinking life “should” unfold differently. But A Course in Miracles teaches that it is not the world that needs to change. What I “need” is Christ’s Vision. Today’s ACIM lesson, #302, Where darkness was I look upon the light, is about that – about knowing that the solution to every problem is to see the light that is already there. From last year’s writing:

Seen in Light

The world is a nicer place when seen in light. Today’s (yesterday’s, originally last week’ s) A Course in Miracles lesson is an invitation to stop seeing darkness/negativity/evil and look for the light. It’s there. There is no place, no person, no situation in which God is missing. I’m sure there are folks who would argue with me about this because surely when confronting evil, God seems to be missing. But I think of evil as a parasite trying to suck the goodness out of life. Just because the parasite has a stronghold doesn’t mean that the host is without the Holy Spirit. All of us are part of God. But ego wants to see guilt so it can continue to thrive. How attached are we to the illusions? How determined to be right and miserable do we want to be?

Yesterday, I was thinking about how much harder life is when one refuses to forgive. Grudges are this stubborn energy that clings to “being right” over love. I have had the opportunity in my business to be “hurt” by those who for whatever reason chose to not use my services after I had invested a lot of time and energy with them. It’s the nature of real estate (and the reason I now sometimes do a buyer broker agreement). It’s not always easy, but eventually, I get over it. Life is too short for grudges. I can’t teach love and hold on to being upset with someone.

Beyond that, when I am in the middle of thinking someone has wronged me, I can’t see the light. When I am fighting reality and stuck in judgment over what I think should have happened, I can’t find my way to light/happiness/love. Today’s lesson is about finding our way back to that goodness.

Father, our eyes are opening at last. Your holy world awaits us, as our sight is finally restored and we can see. We thought we suffered. But we had forgot the Son whom You created. Now we see that darkness is our own imagining, and light is there for us to look upon. Christ’s vision changes darkness into light, for fear must disappear when love has come. Let me forgive Your holy world today, that I may look upon its holiness and understand it but reflects my own.

Our Love awaits us as we go to Him, and walks beside us showing us the way. He fails in nothing. He the End we seek, and He the Means by which we go to Him.

“We thought we suffered,” says this lesson. The bitch of doing these lessons is that it becomes harder and harder to be a victim, to disown what is happening. For myself, I find that I still want to reach for blame and palm off the hurt upon someone else, but I can’t really get away with it. The good news about this is that I intersect with so many fewer situations that “appear” as if I am a victim. Things just happen and I accept that whatever is happening is as it “should” be, that there are blessings for me in it and that God knows what God is doing.

Just because I can’t see the perfection in it all doesn’t mean it’s not there. Seriously! How many times does it take because I recognize that I may not understand how the pieces fit until somewhere down the road? In some cases, I may never understand how they fit at all.

But I know that they do. That’s called faith. It’s the certainty that there is light present always. It’s knowing that God has my back. It’s knowing that God is in everyone.

So bring it on! Where darkness was I look upon light. I see love everywhere. I see that what appears NOT to be love is a call for love.