For some reason, and I think it’s mostly a control issue, I am entirely opposed to being someone’s project. This attitude has ran its course in regular friendships I’ve had over the years–friends just trying to help me grow here and there and me seeing it as a ploy to make me who they wanted me to be rather than letting me be myself. It had pretty much subsided–I thought.

I’m now noticing it in my relationship with God. And I don’t think it’s very healthy. I’m tired and weary of things needing to be changed in my life and my faith that they are for my own good is running dry. I know what the Bible tells me, but I just don’t see it; there’s no evidence.

But what say does the creation have over the creator? None. I’m left falling back on the Sunday school answer that God knows best and that he is in control.