About opposition to growth

Question: I also have situations where I’ve decided to do something, and just for whatever reason something starts holding me back. Then I get to that point where I decide: “I’m doing it. I don’t care. Regardless, if I have to be taken on a stretcher, I’m still going.” When I get to that point, it’s like everything that’s holding me back just disappears.

This answer was given by Kim Michaels at a conference in Holland.

Kim: That’s a good point. I’ve met many people over the years – and I’ve also done it myself sometimes – where it’s almost like you sense there are so many things standing in the way, and then you start thinking: “Maybe I shouldn’t be doing it.” Then there are other times where you can go into this mode: “Oh, it’s just opposition. I should plow right through it.”

What I have found is a better way is to look at myself and see: “Is there a division in myself concerning this? Am I not clear? Do I have one part of me that wants to do it and one part of me that doesn’t want to do it?” As long as I sense there is any kind of division, then usually – whether it’s body signs or whether it’s outer opposition – it’s a manifestation of the fact that I’m not clear. Then, as you said, once you make up your mind so you’re not divided anymore, you just get to that point where you all of a sudden feel clear: “Oh, yeah, this is what I want to do.” And then it’s like all the outer things just fade away.

Comment: So is there a gentler way to bring myself into a place of union without just one overriding the other?

Kim: I think you have to look at what the division is, and usually, I think, whenever there’s a division, it’s not your higher self that’s fighting with your ego. It’s two aspects of your ego fighting with each other, and you’re neither of them. You have to come to the point where you see: “Oh, this is ego, and that is ego, and I don’t want to be part of this anymore.” Then you can transcend that.

I remember in a previous movement I was part of there was a lot of talk about opposition. The idea was that there are dark forces that oppose our progress on the spiritual path, and we just have to be determined and give as many Archangel Michael decrees as possible, and then we’ll work through it. I’m not saying you shouldn’t give decrees, and I’m not saying there isn’t opposition, but there are many situations where the reason you are vulnerable to the opposition is because you’re divided in yourself.

Instead of focusing on the outer opposition and trying to beat that, it is gentler to look at yourself and say: “Why am I divided? What do I really feel? What am I really thinking about this?” Then, if you honestly go through that process, you can come to the point where something just lets go in you, and then you’re not divided anymore. Then it’s almost like the outer things just click into place.

Comment: You do get opposition sometimes through your computer – for example, trying to get something printed out or something like that. At least I recently tried to print out stuff, and there just seemed to be nonstop glitches and gremlins that were working against me.

Kim: Yeah, and then you just need to take a hammer and pound on that computer until you beat it into submission. It doesn’t always work that way. Sometimes there can, of course, be a physical problem with something like that. It’s like I heard someone say that a spiritual student had a flat tire, and so he sat in his car for three hours and gave decrees instead of doing the sensible thing of calling the rescue company to come and change the tire.

We have to do what we have to do and, of course, there can be a physical problem. But sometimes it can also be – and I’ve experienced that myself – that if you’re in this frustrated, rushed state of mind, I actually think you’re putting out an energy that can affect something as complex as a computer. If you’re divided in yourself because you’re frustrated, then sometimes it can help to look at that and get over it, and then all of a sudden it goes away.