I've fallen in love with my best friend and I don't know how to tell her even though I desperately want to and also I know (for reasons due to sexual orientation) she is never going to feel the same about me. And due to work we've moved to places that are hours away and it feels like I am never going to see her.

If I was American I would have voted for Donald aswell. Specifically for the policy of keeping certain people out. Its not perfect, but you definitely dont want certain people entering the country anymore than you want certain people getting work in a school.

Space exploration, getting a bit fed up of Mars now. Most of space ex revolves around the f'in red plant. Go to Neptune or somewhere.

Why do we always have ugly prime ministers? When was the last time we had a large breasted prime minister (preferably not blond tho)? Maybe then people would take her more seriously and she would gather more votes. Yes I am aware this contradicts my 1st point, stuff usually has exceptions. Its just that we have NEVER had a good lookin prime minister with big boobs.

I just wish I could talk about my feelings and what's on my mind more openly..
I just don't know how to and I keep pushing everyone away because of it.
I don't mean to, but my friends pop up and complain because I don't talk to them enough but how can I tell them I don't like having the deep conversations everyday or any day.. I can't talk about my feelings nor do I want to. I've had a lot of bad things happen in my life - a lot. But by nature I'm an extremely optimistic person, I don't think or talk about any of it because I don't like it, it ruins my mood and the atmosphere around me so I just like to ignore it, it's my preference there's nothing forcing me to not talk about it.

How can I explain this to my friends ?

They are constantly pushing me to "let it out" and they say "you can talk to us about it" and I know they're just being good friends but I don't want to talk about it and I've told them why but they don't get it! And secondly, the other day, I opened up to a close friend about something I havnt talked to anyone
About and later she made some pathetic excuse about why she had to send the whole chat to her boyfriend and that he felt "really sorry" for me. It isn't much of a big deal but I just didn't know how to feel, like they push me to open up and then instead of keeping it to themselves they feel the need to tell others?

Idk any advice anyone? I'm just feeling really down, I don't really know what advice you could give to be honest , I just wanted to say this and found this thread so thank you to the thread starter @andrewSCO

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I just wish I could talk about my feelings and what's on my mind more openly..
I just don't know how to and I keep pushing everyone away because of it.
I don't mean to, but my friends pop up and complain because I don't talk to them enough but how can I tell them I don't like having the deep conversations everyday or any day.. I can't talk about my feelings nor do I want to. I've had a lot of bad things happen in my life - a lot. But by nature I'm an extremely optimistic person, I don't think or talk about any of it because I don't like it, it ruins my mood and the atmosphere around me so I just like to ignore it, it's my preference there's nothing forcing me to not talk about it.

How can I explain this to my friends ?

They are constantly pushing me to "let it out" and they say "you can talk to us about it" and I know they're just being good friends but I don't want to talk about it and I've told them why but they don't get it! And secondly, the other day, I opened up to a close friend about something I havnt talked to anyone
About and later she made some pathetic excuse about why she had to send the whole chat to her boyfriend and that he felt "really sorry" for me. It isn't much of a big deal but I just didn't know how to feel, like they push me to open up and then instead of keeping it to themselves they feel the need to tell others?

Idk any advice anyone? I'm just feeling really down, I don't really know what advice you could give to be honest , I just wanted to say this and found this thread so thank you to the thread starter @andrewSCO

You are welcome

First of all I think it's good you have friends that care. I would say to more or less say to them what you just said in this post. However, you should get ahead of it and reach out to them. If the other times have happened in a situation where you might seem a little down and they ask you what's wrong and you are kinda replying in a way that's coming across as defensive or stubborn that might make them want to try and get it out of you.

I think you should just message them at a normal time when nothing's happened and be like "hey guys, I just wanted to say I've been doing some thinking and I really appreciate the fact you all care about how I'm doing and stuff, I'm not trying to shut you guys out it's just the way that works for me looking forwards instead of back" and basically just tell them what you just said in your post. If you message them yourself and say thanks but it's honestly okay I appreciate it, instead of every time you have the convo being in a defensive situation when they already think you're upset about something and not being yourself. This way hopefully that would come across as more genuine and rational to them and they can accept it's the truth. Some people might get offended in a way or feel like they aren't that close to someone as a friend if the other person doesn't want to share things so I would also make it clear you do consider them close friends and appreciate it and it's just you.

But yeah, I would just reach out to them and basically just say to them what you just said here

First of all I think it's good you have friends that care. I would say to more or less say to them what you just said in this post. However, you should get ahead of it and reach out to them. If the other times have happened in a situation where you might seem a little down and they ask you what's wrong and you are kinda replying in a way that's coming across as defensive or stubborn that might make them want to try and get it out of you.

I think you should just message them at a normal time when nothing's happened and be like "hey guys, I just wanted to say I've been doing some thinking and I really appreciate the fact you all care about how I'm doing and stuff, I'm not trying to shut you guys out it's just the way that works for me looking forwards instead of back" and basically just tell them what you just said in your post. If you message them yourself and say thanks but it's honestly okay I appreciate it, instead of every time you have the convo being in a defensive situation when they already think you're upset about something and not being yourself. This way hopefully that would come across as more genuine and rational to them and they can accept it's the truth. Some people might get offended in a way or feel like they aren't that close to someone as a friend if the other person doesn't want to share things so I would also make it clear you do consider them close friends and appreciate it and it's just you.

But yeah, I would just reach out to them and basically just say to them what you just said here

I know, I'm extremely lucky that I have great friends and I appreciate them more than anything in my life. My relationship with my family is rough and unstable so really my friends are the only true family I have. I have explained as nicely as I can that I don't like to bring up the past because it only hurts me more, but they just don't understand... and they have conversations behind my back to try and get stuff out of me. It's like a game to them.

The "thing" I told my friend, as well as her boyfriend she also told some other people... and now I have random people popping up to me asking me about it. I really don't know what to say, it's my private life which I want to keep private and keep in the past.

I'm in 6th form, moving into year 13, my entire focus is on my A levels so I can hopefully get into the course I want and open up a bright future... I want to move on from my past and I'm trying really hard to, but it seems like everyone and everything is pulling me right back into it.

And then thing with this is, it isn't actually everything, nor is it everyone. It's three people, three people, but it is having such an impact on me that I feel like everything around me is just suffocating.. especially when I'm around them. I moved schools for 6 form, so my new friends are amazing - they don't know much about my past and they accept the fact that I don't want to talk about it! So for me school is great.. but after school when I have to come home is when it starts, and it's the summer holidays... so it's been even worse lately.

I'm not depressed but I feel depressed and upset. Results day being so close isn't helping

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(Original post by Anonymous)
I know, I'm extremely lucky that I have great friends and I appreciate them more than anything in my life. My relationship with my family is rough and unstable so really my friends are the only true family I have. I have explained as nicely as I can that I don't like to bring up the past because it only hurts me more, but they just don't understand... and they have conversations behind my back to try and get stuff out of me. It's like a game to them.

The "thing" I told my friend, as well as her boyfriend she also told some other people... and now I have random people popping up to me asking me about it. I really don't know what to say, it's my private life which I want to keep private and keep in the past.

I'm in 6th form, moving into year 13, my entire focus is on my A levels so I can hopefully get into the course I want and open up a bright future... I want to move on from my past and I'm trying really hard to, but it seems like everyone and everything is pulling me right back into it.

And then thing with this is, it isn't actually everything, nor is it everyone. It's three people, three people, but it is having such an impact on me that I feel like everything around me is just suffocating.. especially when I'm around them. I moved schools for 6 form, so my new friends are amazing - they don't know much about my past and they accept the fact that I don't want to talk about it! So for me school is great.. but after school when I have to come home is when it starts, and it's the summer holidays... so it's been even worse lately.

I'm not depressed but I feel depressed and upset. Results day being so close isn't helping

Have the times you've told your friends been in defensive situations after they've already asked you what's wrong though? Like I said in the previous post that may just come across as you being stubborn or not wanting to say in the heat of the moment. Try and get in front of it and just sit down with them on your own accord if you haven't already. Maybe throw them a little bone too, share a little thing with them as a reason why you don't want to go into it? You'll just need to get tough with them and saying you love them but they're starting to annoy you and to politely mind their own business (in the nicest way possible )