I get it that you are embarrassed. The more you resist the harder going out in the world will become. I wear a black medical face mask whenever I go out (with Rhinestones). Even though many stare, I can't allow myself to get sick...I go out at least once every day. Yes, some days I feel all the arrows are pointed at me and I feel my courage crumbling but I stand on the edge of the cliff and fly. Even if you have one day left> spend it challenging the world...Lay down your burden and mount the wind...