Pros And Cons (Age 18)

My mind processes the cons:
Addiction, pain.
There is no gain.
Scars on my skin.
I’ll never win.
If I go too far…
My life may disbar…
What if I’m caught?
The lies I’ll have bought.
The mental scars are worse,
They’re causing this curse.
Excuses to make,
The promises I break.
My mind lists the cons…

Cutting.
Is it worth this?
What will I miss?
My heart an abyss…
No self worth…
That’s where I’d be,
Where I am currently…
Would I rather be free?