25 August, 2010

How come every time I wake up in the "middle of the night" it's around 01:30 am, 02:30 AM, sometimes 03:30 am?
Last night, not tonight, but last night, I had a disturbing dream.
I dreamed I was meandering through a rather empty, somewhat vaguely threatening, mall, with various spots of "ill repute," that I was trying to avoid. I was trying to get out. That was the drive I felt - I had to get OUT of there.
Suddenly Carl, ex-number 1 of 4, showed up, going with me, helping me.
We got out.
Then we were in the parking lot, and I was meandering around this parking lot, which had lots of cars in it, even though the mall was almost empty of any people, and I was looking for my car, with Carl helping me.
But my car was my 1984 (85? 86? Not sure!) Nissan Sentra. It was a little "boxy" car, blue. It was, in fact, the car I owned when I met Carl, and one he trashed.
I woke up, from that dream, having never found my car.
Tonight, I had another dream, it was less complex.
I dreamed that some kind of alien, or spirit, was being benevolent to me, looking kindly on me, although what it was, and what this meant, I don't know. I dreamed that it made me some kind of paper bag mask (like the old kind of paper bags we used to have from grocery stores), and this was supposed to be some kind of act of kindness, almost a loving thing, but there was an undercurrent.
A vague feeling of something not right.
A vague feeling that this alien, this spirit, whichever it was, could not really be trusted, but I had to go along with it, at the moment. I felt that if I did not, it could turn ugly.
I woke up.
It was, no surprise, 02:30 AM.
My reaction, "I have to stay up from now until beyond 04:30 AM!" I felt it.
I've read that these are the hours our brain has chemicals in our sleep that spike, and the most likely time of alien abductions 02:30 AM to 04:30 AM.
It's of no comfort to me, that in this list http://www.crystalinks.com/abduction.html I can find several things that are applicable to me. I edited the list to show the ones I connect with.
Possible Signs That You Have Been Abducted
Have a memory of having a special place with spiritual significance, when you were a youngster (This IS true, but it was not negative. It was a visit to the Biblical Gardens in the Wisconsin Dells when I was a child, and I ran up to a statue of Jesus with little children around him, and it had the quote about letting the little children come unto him because of such is the kingdom of heaven. I felt a deep penetrating warm glow that I could not explain, that I have only felt one other time, as an adult.)
Fear or anxiety over the subject of aliens or UFOs (Yes. One friend suggested I do hypnotic regressive therapy, to find out if there's more than the one abduction I know of, and I said no, the very idea of digging further terrifies me.)
Fear of being kidnapped or abnormal constantly monitoring of your surroundings (Less severe than in the past, but to be frank, still haunting me at night, in the dark, and has, for years, decades. It started after that abduction I remember.)
Insomnia or sleep disorders which are puzzling to you (I never thought about it until now, but this all started living here on this land where it happened.)
Paralyzed in bed with a being in your room (Been there, done that, but it was terrifying. The presence was sheer evil, hooded. I could not see into the hood, but sensed I did not want to. It literally blocked my doorway of my bedroom, but I was totally paralyzed. I couldn't even cry out, with my voice.)
Dreams about seeing UFOs, being inside UFOs, or interacting with UFO occupants (The abduction comes of as a dream.)
Feeling of being watched much of the time, especially at night (Bingo)
Beams of light outside your home, or come into your room through a window (This is how the abductions started. I thought it was headlights, and thought "Someone's here," but that was instantly followed by the worst terror I have ever felt.)
Hearing unexplained physical noises (I don't even want to talk about this one lest it starts up again. I've heard a few things this week always at night in the dark.)
Missing or lost time (I have frequently "woke up" driving down a road, time passed, wondering where I was, disoriented. The irony of this was I was on my way to/from work, and usually got there on time because I "woke up" well down the road by many miles. I used to think I was just exhausted and "zoned out" but it didn't make a lot of sense.)
Compelled to drive or walk to an out of the way or unknown area (More than once.)
Strange humming or pulsing sounds, and you could not identify the source (Bingo.)
A strong "marker memory" that will not go away (i.e.: an alien face, an examination, a needle, a table, a strange skinny baby (Alien face to my right, me on a table, a lightning fast injection in my arm, and I woke up in bed, daylight, terrified, my arm hurting, aching, just life with a flu shot, for 3 days.)
DNA genetic encodings activated - increased psychic abilities (My ability to read Tarot cards, and my ability to experience several kinds of clairvoyance http://www.psychicchatsonline.net/types-of-clairvoyance-psychic-abilities/ all started here, and come to think of it, after the abduction.)

10 August, 2010

As SENATOR Obama he's on record as FOR Single Payer.
As CANDIDATE Obama he's on record for Medicare-For-All.
As PRESIDENT Obama he's on record for "Public Option," which he dropped SO fast that NONE of us ever found out what it REALLY meant.
THEN he was for "insurance cooperative" parroting RepubliCONS neocon lies that it would "save" us money - I have a "cooperative" for electricity, and a "cooperative" forInternet (they also hold landline phone and cable TV, those two I have OFF however), and I can tell you that my bills are in NO way AT ALL cheaper than YOURS. It's just that I'm TOO RURAL for BIG companies to invest out here, so the cooperatives is ALL that I have.
EVERY time the Republicans screamed, stomped, shrieked, howled, lied, threw temper tantrums, Obama instantly virtually got down on his knees practically sniveling for their approval over and over almost whining "Bipartisan!" despite them REPEATEDLY virtually RIPPING his face off.
One cannot help but wonder WHERE IS HIS SPINE?
I WOULD have voted for him - as opposed to John "Bomb, bomb bomb, bomb bomb Iran" McCain and Sarah "Drill baby, drill" Palin, in a heartbeat, but I was sick and could not vote that day.
Regardless, I am sorely disappointed. I have even told him so at their web site, and of course got NO answers.