Right now is the time to just live in it. Live in the chaos. Embrace the BIG feelings that accompany big decisions. Nobody expects you to keep it together all the time. Be ok with the place you are at rather than rushing to the end result.

Around 3:30 I slowly exited the pool and realized I was experiencing some rather intense cramps which had been masked by the cool water. Because I had been induced with Finn, it didn't dawn on me that I might be going into labor. About an hour passed before I was in tears leaning over the table telling Zac, "I think I need to go to the hospital." He gave me a look that could only be described as, "I know."