Friday, March 28, 2008

She hated this picture. However, I don't believe that she ever took a bad picture. We buried our beautiful Laura Leigh today. This will be the second baby sibling that I have buried in my life time.

I believe with all my heart that my brother has been with me this entire time. I have faith that he excepted the gospel into his life when Chris and I went to the temple and done his work for him. I think that he will be among the people in heaven that were waiting for her to arrive. I know she will love my brother as I have loved them both. I find great comfort in that.

We had planned a trip to Disney with our families earlier this month. We were to leave today. There was alot of talk as to 'should we still go or stay'. We have decided to still go. We really think that Laura would have said please take the children and go and don't worry about what anyone has to say.

We will be gone for a few days. I will post more on my return. I leave with you part of a poem that my sister put on her blog for me.

Autumn Rain

Do not stand by my grave and weep.I am not there,I do not sleep.I am a thousand winds that blow,I am the diamond glints upon the snow.I am the sunlight on ripened grain andI am the gentle autumn rain.When you awaken in the morning’s hush,I am that swift uplifting rush,Of quiet birds in circled flight.I am the soft star that shines at night.Do not stand by my grave and cry, I am not there, I did not die. I’m Free

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Happy Easter Everyone.Today while you are with your families eating candy, and hunting for eggs please stop and remember why this day is so important. Please share this video with your family. love Echoeve

What were you doing 10 years ago?1998?I was taking care of my brother who had cancer. He died April 15,1998. I still beat myself up for not be able to save him with my magical powers and fairy dust.Looking back on it know. I had just had a huge fight with my parents and moved into my boyfriends house. One week later we found out that the cancer was back. I didn't even flinch, I just went straight to the room packed all my stuff and went straight home. I never moved back with him, we never talked about it, we dated for two more years. It was a strange relationship that I will have to write about another time.Name 5 things from today's to do list:1. Put in 8 hours at work.2. Get my scrapbooking stuff together for the crop tonight.3. At least spend dinner with my husband that I haven't talked to allweek.4. Go to crop and hang out with the peeps.5. Maybe wake up my husband when I get home for alittle TLC, since my children will be at Grandma'sName 5 Snacks you enjoy:1. Anything made by Sarris (best candy in world) (www.sarriscandies.com)2. white trash 3. blondie with no nuts4. sour cream and onion anything5. brusters ice cream

5 things you would do if you were a Billionaire:1. Buy a house2. Invest3. Be a stay at home mom4. Buy a really great summer home5. Pay off my father's house

Name 3 bad habits:

1. eating unhealthy2. expections are to high for myself and everyone else3. spoiling my children4. bossing my husband around5. putting it off until tomorrow

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

So this past Friday night I went to a crop at the Memory Boutique. These are my newest creations.

This tells a story something like this. One day Bethany wakes me up and tells me that she is writing a list of all the things that she would like to have. I say okay just lay it on my dresser. Later when I look at it I say Bethany what is this. She says its floam, a hair genie, ect. I take a closer look and it is the 1-800 numbers to call and order the products. She has copied them from the TV. LOL

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Well we had the Primary Easter Egg Hunt as our quarterly activity. We had it at Amanda Kirkland's house. Thank You Sister Kirkland!! We had just enough kids to have a great turn out and alot of fun. If yall missed it sorry about your luck........ Here are a few pictures taken from the days activities....

Monday, March 17, 2008

I heard some very sad news on Friday night. I was at our local scrapbook store called Memory Boutique. Anyway, the owner Beverly told everyone that she was going to have to close in June. I am very sad by this news. I loved going to crops. I really really love going to the store just to see what is new. I love to look at all the paper and all the embellishments. I love stickers, and stamps. I know alot of you are saying no big deal go to Micheal's. Well it is a big deal. I have been to Michael's and there isn't anyone there that really knows about the scrapbooking products. Beverly not only kept up with everything in her store, she also knew all about the newest products on the market. It is just really sad. Here are some of the wonderful pages I did last spring at her crops. This was when I was really into just making the layouts with my 5x7 pictures I had. ENJOY

Thursday, March 13, 2008

So, someone at work showed me this article after I told them about what happened the other morning with my son.

the other morning I was running late to work. I had to stop and get gas and I didn't really have time to do that. Noah wanted breakfast and I knew I didn't have time for that. He got up at 6 and it was now after 7. So, I was on my way to get gas and I start to explain to Noah that he would just have to wait until 8:30 to eat breakfast. He started crying. I said don't cry you like to eat with your friends. He was really crying. I said Noah I just don't have time to stop this morning, I have to get gas. He crying and says 'I am soooo hungry'So, I say Noah I will park right here (at the pump), when I get out you lock the doors, Mommy will watch you all the way into the store, I will get you something and pay for the gas. The gas station wasn't busy. I was parked right in front. The Parkers had those huge widows where I could totally see him the entire time. He sat very still the whole time and just watched to make sure I was getting him something. I know what you are thinking. You are saying to yourself he is only one 3 year old you should have taken him in with you. However, that would be an incorrect statement. If I took Noah inside he would want to use the bathroom, decide over a drink, dally about what to eat, and I just didn't have time for it.I wasn't really uncomfortable with him being there in the car. I could see him. He did really well. However, if he would have decided to get out of the car that would be a whole different blog.

As far as the article is concerned it is total crap. I think they took the not leaving a child in the car to far. Give me a break.

I always write about how talented the girls are. I was looking through some pictures and found these of Noah. He as only a baby in these pictures. He really loved the piano. We are just a big family with a great love for music.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

So, Chris and I went to a Kid Rock concert last night. Can you believe it a Kid Rock concert. It was alot of fun. Rev. Run from Run DMC was there. He was awesome. The show was called the Rock-N-Roll revival. His last album was called 'Rock-N-Roll Jesus' There was a full crowd. It was not a show for kids but believe it or not I saw several children there. I think the youngest I saw was about 5 years old. I couldn't believe it. I mean before we even got the tickets I knew what to expect. There would be drinking, there would be potty mouths, there would be half dressed women, there would be all that goes along with the image of Kid Rock. I was really surprise that I did see any women flashing. I will say the cursing didn't bother me as much as I thought that it would. However, there was alot of bad words. I don't think I have ever heard that may bad words in a three hour block. Except when Danielle was around.(Clint's ex-wife, thats another story)

I am a fan of only some of Kid Rock's work. I like his country softer side. I like songs like Picture, Cold and Empty, and Only God Knows Why. I do enjoy some of his more upbeat stuff like Cowboy. However, I hadn't really listened to his new album Rock n Roll Jesus. However, I didn't listen to it this weekend, and I have to say there is a couple of songs that I really enjoyed.

There was one song that really got to me. You know he writes his own stuff. I really dig the lyrics to this song. I really think it has a message. The only problem is when he sings it he puts the GD word. I have taken it away so that everyone including myself could read and really give some thought to the message. Well done Kid Rock. The song is titled 'Amen'

Friday, March 7, 2008

Today I am feeling like a failure at being a wife and mother.So, if you don't feel like reading a rant of nothingness I understand.

I feel like I am on my last nerve.I am tired. I am tired of the day to day rut.I am tired of my childrens rooms not being clean.I am tired of the laudry not being done. I am tired of my car not being cleaned out.I am tired of my dresser not being how I want it.I am tired of my tiny bathroom off my bedroom not being clean.I am tired of my fridge not being cleaned out. I am tired of trying to come up with a plan to get it all done.I am tired of writing lists to get it done.I am tired of fighting with my family for help to get it done. I am tired of the shelf not being up in the girls room.I am tired of the bathroom not being finished.I am MOST TIRED of being the only one who seems to care about these things.

I am sick of being asked what I'm doing all day.I am sick of being told all I do is sit on my rump all day at work.I am sick of being told I don't do enough.I am sick of someone keeping a tally of my movements when they sure don't take a correct tally of themselves.I am sick of having to be sure not to rock the boat.I am sick of trying to be everything and then falling short everytime.I am so SICK & TIRED of the same conversation over and over where there is no resolve.

I love my husband I really do, let me rephrase. If I didn't love my husband I wouldn't still be here cause it's the only thing that keeps me here.

But sometimes..... I dream of being gone.I dream of a place where all is fair. I dream of a place where someone notices me. I dream of a place where the man that I love can realize all that I do and am. I dream of a place where people see that I share everything that I have with everyone that I love with not expectation of getting a share of what they have. I dream of a place where a husband does nice things for his family just because.I dream of a place where someone could just walk a mile in my shoes and then explain to me how to do it.I dream of a place and time where I have it all figured out and I am really happy.

Happy is something I gave up on a long time ago. I have settled for even for a long time.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

So I took Bethany and Jonathon to the school tonight for Math night. They had food, the book fair, and math games. It was a ton of fun. Anyway on to the bragging.

Ms. Watson (Bethany and Jonathon's first grade teacher) told me that Bethany scored top three in her class for the Bull's Basics test they had on Friday. It is 100 question addition test and they have 5 minutes to complete it. She got 46 out of 100. Jonathon got 60 out of 100.Ms. Watson said that they have to be able to get 100 by the end of their second grade year.I just think they are so smart. WAY TO GO!!

We were planning a nice visit from my sister for spring break. However, since that will not be working out we are going to Orlando, Fl. Yeah BABY!!

We are going and so is Amanda and the family. So, I guess since I can't spend spring break with my sister I will spend it with my sister-in-law. We will be at the most magical place on earth. DISNEY!! I am so glad Jonathon wanted to do that for his birthday.

This is our family in July of 2005 having breakfast in the Crystal Palace with Winnie the Pooh and friends.

Monday, March 3, 2008

So Harmony and the kids have come in to visit the last couple of years during spring break. We were planning for them to visit this year as well. However, I just found out that she will not be coming. This is very sad news. I talk to her almost everyday but I haven't seen her since October. So, today I am going to post a few of my favorite pictures from 2005.