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Since Friday I’ve been working behind the scenes at my work, that is, light duty in the form of washing dishes, getting sack lunches ready, getting snacks ready, and related. In the time I have spent doing this I realize I have been present, even hyper-present almost, to the tasks before me and to those I am helping out by helping feed them.

It was while cleaning I was reminded of a 17th century Carmelite brother by the taken name of Lawrence Of The Resurrection, and how his experience in the order was as dishwasher and later on sandal repairer. From his teachings the book The Practice of the Presence of God came forth, and from within it a sense of peace and presence with God and others in what might be perceived mundane everyday life.

Working in the kitchen is not always an easy task, but the kitchen staff has been helpful through and through, plus one of my students has helped me in the morning hours leading up to school. He made known to me that he felt privileged to be working alongside of me, how humbling! There in the kitchen, in the midst of dirty pots and pans, I too felt the same thing.

Isn’t that a beautiful example of what life can look like? That it’s not always those mountaintop experiences, but in the small and quiet and humbling ways, ways that point to simply BEing in communion with others.

I have been given the green light to go back to working with my students come tomorrow, which I am really thankful to be able to do that. But I am also thankful for my time spent working in the kitchen, my level of presence and BEing has been raised.

All the things I’m feeling within my chopped liver face, but nevertheless, I am here I am now and I am healing.

With my day off I slept. A lot. But I still had a follow-up to go to and a dentist appointment, but all in all it was a restful day. Tomorrow, until further notice, I will be on light duty at work; this’ll be working in the kitchen, meal prep, et al. I will still see my students but not as frequently (bummer!) and it upsets me a bit…but I need to heal, I keep myself in check with this regularly, as I want to go back to what I was doing prior to getting injured…but I need to heal.

Gratefulness might not be the word that comes to mind when one’s nose has been fractured and perhaps even broken. Yet it is what came to MY mind as I waited to be checked out the first time around. Sure, I was scared shitless as well, but I found myself centering and praying all the while, and then I was overwhelmed by gratitude.

I am grateful for my coworkers who helped me get my student off of me, I am grateful that I was targeted and not someone else, I am grateful for the nurses at my work checking me over, I am grateful for my coworker who drove me to get checked out, I am grateful for the doctors and nurses who tended to my nose, I am grateful for their discovery of a possible nasal hematoma (a blood clot between my nose and brain), I am grateful for the technician who ran my x-rays, and also the one who ran my CT scan, and lastly I am grateful for my supervisor coming to pick me up from the hospital.

I might feel and look like chopped liver, but it could be worse. Thank God for good help and pain meds! It’ll be a while till I’m up and at ’em, but I can’t wait to get back to helping out my students to the best of my ability. I was made to do this and so as life continues so I will continue! 🙂

I have a few posts that I will be putting up this week, but for now I will be making a blog post that’ll come out ONE WEEK FROM NOW Monday, May the 23rd addressing whatever questions you might have for me.

Sure it sounds cheesy, and some of your questions may indeed be cheesy, but as a sometimes Redditor I dig the AskMeAnything subReddit very much.

So ask away, leave no stone unturned! I will speak my truth to the most truthiness level ever.