I planned to continue making believe my students' stories were riveting until she noticed I was ignoring her. She took up far too much of my attention during class for me to volunteer more.

Down that path lay damnation, or at least losing my job.

The unfortunate part happened to be that I wouldn't lose my job if I talked to her or did the ten thousand sexual things I wanted to her body.

I would not lose my job because teaching college students not to use the passive voice, or to intend alliteration instead of puking it on a page was not really a job to me. I considered it a hobby away from my career of amazing myself stupid by the amount of praise I could collect from literary critics.

My hobby was also safe since technically she wasn't one of my students. I took roll call a half-dozen times hoping to see after which name she raised her hand, but she never did.

"You're not like the characters in your stories," she said.

Her voice was a Stradivarius violin playing Handel in a moon-shunned field.

"Excuse me?" I replied.

I learned after my first book how to say those two words in a way that made them sound like 'Why are you talking me?'. Critics like being insulted; if a writer does not look down at them, they feel cheated. I think it has something to do with not enjoying tearing someone down as much when they put out a bad book.

"I figured that out from watching you in class," she continued. "There are girls throwing themselves at your feet, but you kick every one of them aside."

"They are my students," I pointed out. "It would be unethical for me to have anything to do with them."

"I'm not your student."

I KNEW SHE WAS GOING TO SAY THAT!

"You're still in my class," I answered quickly.

"I'm in your class because you are in your class," she told me with a smile.

"I need to go," I told her standing up and walking around the desk.

"It's incredible!" she said standing up. "Are your characters who you want to be, or who you don't dare to be?"

She was between the door and me so I stood still. There was no way I was getting that close to her. The motion she used to stand up was also hypnotizing; everything she did was seductive.

"What's really your name?" I asked trying to push some of the discomfort I felt onto her.

L closed the distance between us. I backed away, but the very table I hid behind earlier thwarted my escape.

The woman was flat-out stunning!

Her hair was strawberry-blonde as if God could not decide between making her a redhead or a blonde so he split the difference and moved on to creating something less beautiful like a star. Her bodylines followed a thoroughbred mare's; slim with obvious strength. The most devastating feature was her green eyes; I'd watched every male in the class stutter when she applied their full force, even the one guy I was sure would have preferred that L had a cock.

My first smell of her confirmed my suspicions; dealing with L was like fucking a virgin, bloody was an assumed adjective.

"I've read your books," she said standing too close for my sanity. "They're nothing like your stories. I found the books empty, as if no part of you is in them."

"Books... stories?" I asked. "I've only published books."

"I'm sorry," she said. "Let me clarify, I was talking about your erotica. You're not at all like the characters you write about online."

"Oh," I said stupidly.

Writing online erotica was another hobby of mine. I started doing it my sophomore year in college hoping to develop my writing skills. The feedback was useful so I kept doing it until I felt ready to tackle the commercial world.

The critics lauded my first assault on the publishing world as a classic first book. I would have preferred less praise and more sales. I considered it a monumental failure since my aim had been pop rather than something only writers and critics 'appreciated'. I had to re-read my own book trying to find what one critic called 'the bourgeois lamentations of a mediocre middle class'.

The strictly critical success of my first book engendered me to write a second one that I thought a scathing insult to the cockroaches also known as critics. The main character was a suicidal literary critic suffering from a variety of physical problems that included leprosy, rampant acne, and an underdeveloped penis.

'Heroic' was the worst thing any critic said about it.

I sat in front of my computer for three months of insomnia after that. I never read that third book, and until the reviews came out I didn't know what it was about. The critics had many different opinions about what I tried to say; I made each one feel good by agreeing with whichever cockroach had me cornered.

By then, the University noticed that a 'beloved' of the elite was slaving away as a TA in the English Department. They offered me a choice of classes that my Master in Fine Arts qualified me to teach. I chose a creative writing class usually filled with freshmen.

Students fell into several categories in my classes; the easy A's, the couldn't-be Hemingways but tried anyway, the hobbyists, and kids with credits to throw away. There were even the occasional individuals who wanted to wipe my ass in the hope that I would get them closer to the Holy Grail of being published. I let them; I even introduced some to their cockroach relatives.

L did not fit into any of those categories. She never handed in written work or participated in the discussions unless asked direct questions. Until the day she did not leave as soon as class ended, all L ever did was catch me staring at her.

"I thought you would be different," she said. "More decadently vibrant."

"You're vibrant, L," I told her. "I'm corduroy."

I tried to edge by on her left, but she cut off me better than most boxers could have.

"Take me to lunch," she commanded and turned around to lead the way.

I followed meekly.

There was no avoiding whatever L wanted from me. I did not have the protection of her being my student, not that it would have mattered to the University. My class was pointless, so if I banged a co-ed or twenty, what was the harm? Writers are prone to those kinds of slip-ups, or so I hear.

I could have run but that would have looked even sillier than whatever marks she would leave on me. I brightened thinking I was getting too far ahead of myself, and maybe L only wanted to get to know me better just like the critics I so easily impressed.

It was not that L intimidated me so much as she was built to overwhelm. Being overwhelmed sounds attractive, until the Category Five hurricane overwhelms your house into the next county. Any hurricane regardless of category would have known better than to tangle with L, which made me wish I were following the hurricane instead.

"You should have ordered a salad," she told me when we sat down at the off-campus cafe.

"Listen, it's obvious you're going to fuck up my life," I told her. "I have two requests; lay off the burgers with extra bacon, and I'm not watching figure skating."

I learned if a woman respected those lines, there was a chance I could escape with my pride.

"That's a very limited set of demands," she said playing the straw across her lower lip. "Is that all you desire?"

"I'd like your lips around my dick," I said sarcastically. "I'm quite fond of the fantasy where I bend you over my office desk and lay some serious pipe into your ass. I admit to quite a few thoughts about handcuffs and your extremities. Hands down though, my absolute favorite is the one where I drink tequila out of your snatch, and wake up twelve days later on a Hawaiian beach wearing a grass skirt and a coconut bra with a tattoo of a burly, biker chick named Sam on my arm."

Sexual harassment suit, here I came!

"Why do so many men have that thing with woman's ass?" she asked me calmly. "Are you sure you're straight? Although, I find it hard to believe a gay male could write a story like the 'Sunrise On Her Skin'."

"I'm married," I said.

Since the disgusting misogynistic bit did not make her flinch, her morality might be a better angle.

"No, you're not," she told me confidently. "So which is it, Miguel?"

"What?" I asked.

"Are your characters who you want to be, or who you don't dare be?"

"I don't have the genital equipment to be any male character in my stories," I told her honestly.

The last resort of a desperate man; 'I got a little dick!'

"I'll leave if you ask me to," L said quietly.

"Has there ever been a man who sent you away?" I asked curiously.

"One, a very long time ago," she admitted with a sadness so deep I could have cried.

"Is 'Sunrise' your favorite story?" I asked sighing.

"I don't have a favorite," she told me. "I treasure all of them."

I nodded and looked out the window.

"Do you remember when the Orlando realizes what Malia means to him?"

"Yes," she told me. "You wrote 'A sunrise would never be the same without her.'"

"I might dare to be 'someone' with you," I told her.

"Is that bad?"

"I'll be no one when you leave," I answered. "A lonelier no one than today."

"I don't leave men lonely, Miguel."

"If we lined up every man who has been with you, I would bet not a single one would agree with that statement. It's probably the only thing they could disagree with you about."

"There was one who made me lonely," she said angrily.

"He regretted it every day for the rest of his life," I told her.

She snickered.

"You don't have to believe it, L," I said. "But I know it."

Her green eyes burned into mine trying to make me take my words back, but like burgers with extra bacon and figure skating I was not budging.

"You're cheating those poor girls who drape themselves across your shoes," she told me with a wicked smile.

I laughed out loud surprising everyone near us.

"I'm doing them a favor," I told her reaching for my burger.

"How?"

"I'm a bad experience," I answered around a mouthful of beef and pork.

"I've been on a few discussion groups; female readers love your stories," she said.

"Women like the romance in my stories, and that I keep the sex nasty enough to inspire some shower-head fun," I said with a smirk.

"You seem disdainful of that," she said.

"Hell no!" I exclaimed. "I'd trade each and every one of my books for a successful romance novel. Women are more loyal than critics."

"What about your male readers?" L asked me.

"I like the 'more such-and-such type of sex' requests," I told her. "Other than that the male readers come and go, sort of how I moved from sci-fi to horror to romance to impressing the critics with my own meaningless drivel."

"Hmm," she said.

We ate quietly for a few minutes until I cracked.

"So... what do you like about my stories?" I asked her.

I had the same chances of not asking that question as not getting a hard-on if L and I happened to fall naked onto the same bed. I guess it was always possible to break my neck on the way down so the odds of not getting wood were better; discounting any engorging effects of rigor mortis obviously.

"I like the sex," she said staring at me. "Your words made me wet."

"You shouldn't read in the rain," I told her. "Those computer parts aren't as waterproof as they used to be."

"I prefer your darker stories," she said ignoring my humor. "If the little girls in your class read those stories, some would hand in moist panties with their work."

I couldn't believe what she did next!

Her hands reached under the table and she moved around in a way that made my lungs burn. L's left hand came up with her panties in it. She reached across the table to give them to me. I took them as if every woman handed me her underwear at some point during a meal. I brought them up to my nose and the bouquet of the finest wine could not have compared.

Rose oil, garden musk, and the tartness of remembered heartache!

I moved them around in my hand until I could place a thumb where they had hugged her lips.

Moist!

I rubbed my thumb against the cloth and changed the hand I held them with. Staring into her green eyes, I licked my thumb as I put her panties into my pocket.

"The man you don't dare to be," she said with satisfaction.

I would like to say that we rushed over to my house, stripped, and I proceeded to rock her world with multiple nuclear explosions cleverly disguised as orgasms.

Don't get me wrong, she glowed!

The problem was I didn't have anything to with the ethereal light that came off her body.

We somehow made it to my house without any ejaculatory emanations into my underwear, L tried though.

I let her into my car and got attacked when I got into the driver's seat. It felt like L had twelve pair of hands and if I didn't keep one of mine blocking my asshole she'd shove a finger or two in there.

Her lips fell on mine like an avalanche, making me forget to breathe until she moved back to her side of the car. I opened the car door and crawled out coughing. Trying to recover my breath, I wondered if a woman that gave you asthma was rated below or above one that required a morning-after dose of penicillin.

"Are you okay?" she asked sweetly.

By that point, I had given up on the word 'no' coming out of my mouth in the general vicinity of L.

"I just need a minute," I coughed out.

"It's okay to breathe when you're kissing a woman," she said helpfully. "You do know that, right?"

"It's been awhile," I told her as I got back in the car.

"Really?"

"The opposite of yes," I said.

"What?"

"The opposite of yes," I repeated.

"No!"

"Exactly!"

"Oh," she said brightly. "It hasn't been a while."

"Exactly!"

I never appreciated the exactness of exactly before.

"It's no problem if it has been some time for you," she told me. "I'll just blow you in the car. It should give you enough time to recover for when we get to your house and fuck."

Luckily, the car was not in gear or we might have slammed into something.

"We're going to fuck?" I asked to make sure I had heard correctly.

The panties signaled her intentions, but there is nothing more comforting than a yes to that kind of question.

"I'd like to wait until we get to your house," she said. "You're backseat is not big enough for anything more than a blowjob, and even then my ass would be hanging out the door. Not that I mind, if you really need to get off now."

"I think I can wait," I told her a bit facetiously.

"Hmm..." she said and grabbed a handful of my crotch to check for herself.

It was in the realm of possibility that I would not have popped my cork with that, but my anti-humiliation instincts kicked in when I felt her hand move in an up-and-down motion. I grabbed her wrist tightly and pried it away. The effort needed to remove the hand had more to do with my body complaining that I was a fucking idiot rather than any struggle on L's part.

I barely managed to save my underwear from a semen stain.

The car lurched forward when I hit the gas, which was not the direction we needed to go.

"Relax, Miguel," she said. "We have all night."

I put my head against the steering wheel and took a deep breath; my dick gained voice and said that a blowjob would go a long way in calming us down.

Amazingly, I did not encounter a single red light on the way home. There were a few oranges, but none that had been red for more than five seconds and it would have been hard on my brakes to stop for those.

"I have a roommate!" I screamed when L tackled me as I opened my front door.

Neighbors would have been a more appropriate worry on my part with the door wide open.

She ripped my belt open, unbuttoned the jeans, and pulled down my zipper. Her hand snaked into the opening; I was the one that had to work my pants down. She seemed to like the idea so she grabbed my underwear and yanked down. I felt the flutter of nervousness that always came when my dick was exposed to a new woman. As hot as I thought she was and as much as I fantasized about this very scene, my hard-on could only be kindly described as average.

It was a RAGING average though!

When she got my pants and underwear around my ankles, L pounced mouth first on my dick. While not much of an accomplishment, sort of like a cougar pouncing on a mouse, it felt fantastic from my end.

I should have blasted her then, but her tongue was doing this thing where it wrapped completely around my dick and stroked. My impending orgasm was frozen while I tried to figure out how that was physically possible.

I thought that was the best it could get, but L showed me the world she came from.

The tongue that had been wrapped around my dick licked my balls. I looked up because I had not felt her mouth move away from my dick. L still had me completely in her mouth; I thought that maybe I was hallucinating then felt the sensation on my balls again.

Technically, a woman having an 'Oh, how cute!' dick sheathed in her mouth and licking a guy's nutsack is not really a big deal. If the size of my dick was the only reason L could do it, I had found the silver lining to my small cloud.

A third pass with her tongue battered down my defenses forcing me to push my hips up. I released a teaspoon-torrent of cum into her mouth and for the first time ever screamed out my relief.

It was a long hard yell that lasted the entire time she tried to suck more seed out of my body. L finally released the suction and I settled down breathing hard.

"I can die," I said. "I would really like to die now!"

"Not for a long time," L said standing up.

I watched entranced as she reached behind her body and pulled the zipper of her dress down. She wriggled her shoulders to get her arms out of the sleeves and let the dress slip down to her feet.

My eyes closed automatically to protect me from the sight of her naked body. I opened one but closed it again when her beauty hit me.

L was perfect.

"Aren't you coming?" she asked.

I opened my eyes and turned to watch her walk up the stairs. The view from behind was as perfect, but I could focus on a perfect ass without losing my lunch.

The jeans around my ankles made me stumble a couple of times when I followed her up the steps, but I was not going to take my eyes off L's ass. My mind was already planning what we would do in the ten or twelve hours that my mouth would spend plastered to that behind. I figured by then I would be able to handle the entirety of the package without the nauseous feeling.

L caught me by surprise inside my bedroom by turning around. My eyes slammed shut and I felt her place a foot on my jeans.

"Off," she commanded.

I stepped on the back of my shoes to take them off and stepped out of my pants. Her hands guided me to the bed and pushed me on top of it on my back. I opened an eye to take a peek but closed it right away.

Isn't it canonical law that cream skin came with freckles?

Her hand touched my balls and slid up my dick.

"Up, sweetie," she whispered.

I could have told her that was not going to happen, but that my tongue was built for stamina. It certainly worked in the past after I learned how to make up for a quick trigger by licking a woman to pleasure first.

My dick was in an obedient mood though and rose up proudly; as proudly as a man that has to wear six-inch platforms to feel short can anyway.

I opened my eyes to look down my body in amazement. L took my breath away as she moved into position to mount me. Her body lowered and the tightest, warmest, wettest pussy I had ever experienced surrounded my dick. I prayed a thank you to God that he had not taken me up on the offer to die earlier, because I would have missed knowing what it was like to be inside a pussy made for me.

L shuddered on top of me and released a hard breath.

"Perfect," she said with another shudder.

It had not happened to me often, as in at all, but I was pretty sure L had cum around my dick. The idea that she was so ready for me that she came upon the initial penetration blew my chest up.

If a Tarzan yell weren't so undignified, I would have let one go!

Then things got scary.

I'm a writer so I try to be careful with the words I choose; part of that is considering how the context might make words mean something you did not intend.

Here is the present context.

I like to keep my room dark regardless of the time of the day. The writing sometimes goes late into the night and it is difficult for me to sleep with sunlight streaming into the room. For this reason, my curtains are black, and my door is curtained off to prevent light coming in from the rest of the house. I could see in the room, but it was still very dark.

L had cream skin; beautiful, pristine cream skin that a cat would have licked thinking it was milk in solid form.

Now, there are many ways to say things, but I've found nothing really expresses certain sentiments like the ghetto-isms of my youth.

THE BITCH STARTED TO GLOW!

I don't think women are bitches, but being balls deep in a woman and having her light up like a Christmas tree could shock some crude language choices out of any man.

I wanted to grab L, take her off my dick, and throw her across the room. I tried to do exactly that but found that my arms were stuck to the bed.

I stared at my arms incredulously and tried to lift them off the bed. My dick not wanting to go anywhere was one thing, but my arms should have moved. I tried convincing myself that all I wanted to do was fill my hands with L's breasts instead of get her the fuck off me. It had nothing to do with my mind though; my arms were on the bed to stay.

L's hair rose up and what looked like lightning started dancing between individual strands. Personally, I thought that was a little much; the disobedient arms and glowing body were more than enough to scare the shit out of me!

"Yes!" she screamed.

I felt a surge of energy enter my body through our physical connection as another orgasm washed over her. My own hair stood on end as pure pleasure raced up my spine.

The light coming from L grew brighter, and I tried to yell but my throat was swelled shut.

"Now, you are mine," L said looking down at me.

My head refused to shake in denial of her words; a second invasion of power flooded my body. I shut my eyes tightly as my orgasm began. Even through my eyelids, the light coming from L was blinding as I came into her.