I get like that before any big life events....I thought I was going to go blind right before my HS graduation, die before my 21st and again right before college graduation. Now I'm getting married in June and I'm convinced I won't make it or get diagnosed right before.

That is so common. My daughter even hates to say things like, "When me and my friend go to such and such a place in July" because she always thinks, "Oh no, I may not even be here in July!"I also had an older friend who swore she'd never make it to 30, around 32 she swore she'd never make 40, then swore she'd never EVER make 50... she's now almost 60.My mom said that when she was a teenager and would hear church bells ringing in the distance that she would have a panic attack thinking it was a "sign" that she was going to die in a few days! (she's going to be 79)Common fear for anxiety sufferers. You are messing with your own head there.

anxiety can totally make you feel like this. that sense of impending doom is extremely common; after all, we spend so much time obsessing over sickness and death that it's pretty hard to have confidence that we're actually going to be just fine! just yesterday i made a thread saying i don't think i'll make it to 22. and once 22 comes, i'll say the same thing about turning 23. and on and on and on. it's a cycle of negative thinking that's very hard to break, but with some practice, i'm sure we can do it.

My HA has been at an all-time high for the past few weeks and I've been reading the archives to try and calm myself down. There was a member, not sure if she is still active on the board....user name was JLo something. Anyway, I read something in her post that has stayed with me and been a great comfort to me and maybe it will help you: "You have anxiety, not ESP." Just because you believe something will happen doesn't mean it will happen. It's the anxiety talking and lying to you. Good luck.

thats very strange i have that too.. my dad and step mom asked me if i wanted to go to florida in november after thanksgiving with the family, and i said yeah, but said to myself i might be dead by then... im 26 years old.

whats with all the negativity... that is probably what is keeping all these physical manifestations of anxiety around

I've felt like this about Christmas every year. I just love spending time with my family and the whole Christmas season. Every time during Christmas I think, this will probably be my last one. I have ALWAYS felt like I will die young. I still believe that with my major cancer fear right now. I just can't see myself old :/

Thank you all for the responses! Yes its a time full of changes for me. I graduate college may 9 birthday may 10 get married June 21 and I'm having to find a job and move all in the mean time. Plus about two months ago I found this bump on my throat by my tonsils inside my mouth and I've been worried about that. My doctor looked at it and wasn't worried but I still am. He even said I wouldn't think twice if it was in his mouth lol

"You have anxiety, not ESP." Just because you believe something will happen doesn't mean it will happen.

I've been repeating this to myself all day (I've been having some issues because I've felt worried that all the good things happening in my life were leading to a catastrophic diagnosis) and may need a tattoo of it at this rate! Thanks for repeating it, it helps. (I mean, I still have a hard time listening/believing, but I'm trying.)