Being abused are one of my turn-ons. I can't understand why and I know that it's unhealthy. I want to be treated like crap and I like it. I can't stand it when a guy treats me right. This is causing a lot of stress and confusion for me. I don't know what to do.
And I am not speaking anything of BDSM.

I think if there is any way for you to receive counselling or professional help, you should do it. And of course, talk to your parents or someone about how you feel. This could create a really dangerous situation that you could find yourself in.

I think if there is any way for you to receive counselling or professional help, you should do it. And of course, talk to your parents or someone about how you feel. This could create a really dangerous situation that you could find yourself in.

I see this route as the best solution too. You can't go on like you are it's not normal or healthy for you.

I am gay and happy with that.
I love talking to people very open & willing to listen.
I am also glad to try help with questions or problems.
Hit me up for anything. I promise I don't bite.

Being abused are one of my turn-ons. I can't understand why and I know that it's unhealthy. I want to be treated like crap and I like it. I can't stand it when a guy treats me right. This is causing a lot of stress and confusion for me. I don't know what to do.
And I am not speaking anything of BDSM.

I used to have the same sensation until quite a while ago, my reason was that I was used to being bullied and it felt weird to be treated nicely by others, turns out it was just because I wanted attention. I recovered from that because I found a friend who treats me like a brother and loves me deeply.

Everyone has his/her own fetishes, I think this is just a phase for you, probably you'll outgrow such fetishes and become perfectly normal.

I think you should find a proper counseller to talk to about this, especially if you’re sure it’s not a BDSM thing. It could very easily lead to a situation that’s out of control and that you don’t want to be in.

Well, you still aren't being specific. There is a huge difference between enjoy being abused during or in a sexual setting but it is another to think "he's a really mean guy, I wish he would tell me I'm not worth it". The one seems somewhat normal even if uncommon and the other seems to be something that could require medical attention.

The first piece is your personal temperament and the amount of control you prefer to have in a relationship in relation to your partner.

The second piece is how you've grown up to understand what love and affection are since infancy and early childhood. This is a core piece of why abuse or extreme corporeal punishment in early childhood affects and individual's power dynamics in relationships and in sexual expression even into adulthood. It can leave ripples or echos into the future.