Friday, November 8, 2013

Sweet moments

With ***school lurking around the corner, I feel this time I have with just C and me is coming to a sad close.

It's breaking my poor mama heart.

I am trying so hard to soak up these moments I have with her.

We stay at home most of the time and don't go out a lot because I won't be able to be at home very much in a few weeks.

I hold her and stare at her and try my best to memorize her- just as she is right now.

I let her nap on my chest because who knows when that loveliness will stop?

I save her smiles and keep them in my phone so I can look at them when I'm not with her.

I take videos her "talking" and eating to ease the pain of not being with her.

I spend 99% of my time with just her

She is my little buddy.

I talk to her and tell her all the things I hope and wish for her.

I tell her about mommy going to school and that she is going to have so much fun hanging out a few days a week with a dear friend who is going to watch her.

I tell her that I love her so much and that she is beautiful.

And that no matter what happens or what she does I will always love her.

Sometimes I can't wait for nap time... but then I want her to wake back up to play with me.

I just love her so very much.

And I hope she never forgets that... even if she doesn't remember all this time I am spending with her right now.

*** Just to be clear (mostly because I hate that my mom keeps saying that I am going to school to "finish" my degree and that totally bugs me) I already HAVE a degree. I finished my bachelors in 2010 in health education with a minor in nutrition. With my current degree it has been hard to find a good job. I know that I need to have a "career" choice so if something were to happen to Devin, I would be able to support Charlotte and me. After a lot of prayer and discussion we decided as a family that it is best for us if I go to nursing school to get a second bachelor's degree. There is always a need to be filled and with Devin in the military it is something I can do wherever we go..***