In the mind of Pebbles the fluffball

Last night was a very special night for me. Daddy sat with me and whispered how much he and mommy loved me, then piled some of my toys(my tomato of course) up on the floor next to me on my blankie. Then,Mommy came home early and laid on the ground next to me, and then I got to have McDonalds cheeseburgers and ice cream (my favorites). I haven't been feeling too well of late, and yesterday was the worst of all. I was so ready to close my eyes and sleep furvever, but my pain was such that I just couldn't get comfortable-much less sleep. After a little bit mommy and daddy packed me up in the car, and mommy stroked me the whole way. When we came to Dr Harts office it didn't even bother me that we were there(which surprised mom and daddy). The nice vet tech tried to give me a cupcake, but my tummy and my throat were hurting way too much. Mommy lay next to me and told me how much she loved me and pet me and kissed me over and over. Dr Hart came in and pet my face and gave me a little shot in my hip(I didn't like that part). I felt myself starting to drift off and I felt like I was on a cloud. My pain started to lessen and I heard mommy and daddy's voices get further and further away. Dr hart came back awhile later and shaved my little arm and gave me another shot and the next thing I knew I was floating away on that cloud. I came to such a beautiful clearing with lush green fields and dogs playing and napping as far as the eye could see. I realized then that I was no longer hurting, and I could breathe in the clean fresh air without any problem. Some dear pals of mine (Grizzly,Kodiak,Clover,Holly,Griffen and Cherry) came over and welcomed me with open paws. They explained to me what was happening and showed me how I could keep watch over my family and friends. I couldn't get over how great this place was, but I sure hated seeing my family hurt so much. I know that with time, my passing will become less of an awful hurting to them, and they will begin to remember me for all the woofderful things that they shared with me in life. Please know that I will continue to check in on all of you until we meet again. I love you all,
Pebbs

PS My good friend River paw mailed this and I would like to share it

Lend Me A Pup

I will lend to you for awhile
a puppy, God said,
For you to love him while he lives
and to mourn for him when he is gone.
Maybe for twelve or fourteen years,
or maybe for two or three
But will you, till I call him back
take care of him for me?

He'll bring his charms to gladden you
and (should his stay be brief)
you'll always have his memories
as solace for your grief.
I cannot promise that he will stay,
since all from earth return,
But there are lessons taught below
I want this pup to learn.

I've looked the whole world over
in search of teachers true
And from the folk that crowd life's land
I have chosen you.
Now will you give him all your love
Nor think the labour vain
Nor hate me when I come to take my pup back again.

I fancied that I heard them say
"Dear Lord Thy Will Be Done,"
For all the joys this pup will bring,
the risk of grief you'll run.
Will you shelter him with tenderness
Will you love him while you may
And for the happiness you'll know forever grateful
stay.

But should I call him back
much sooner than you've planned
Please brave the bitter grief that comes
and try to understand.
If, by your love, you've managed
my wishes to achieve,
In memory of him that you've loved,
cherish every moment with your faithful bundle,
and know he loved you too.

-Author Unknown

"Your wings are beautiful and now when a breeze kisses your Momma's cheek...she will know it is you...reminding her of how much you loved each other...and that you will furever be by her side."

It seems like things are a little off with me lately. I thought maybe my arthritis was acting up more than usual, but that doesn't seem to be it anymore. Mommy has taken me to the vet a few times, but if she knows whats wrong with me, she's not sharing. I know it can't be good when mommy leaves Dr Harts crying, but you never know with mommy, she's very sensitive(if you're reading this mommy-sorry-but you are:-). I've been having lots of fevers and body aches, I started falling a lot, and most of the time it feels like someone is sitting on my chest. I hadn't been too hungry for awhile, until the last visit to Dr Harts, and with the new medicine-my appetite is back!!! My throat still feels like it's blocked, but I'm hungry again like usual. Mommy says maybe a little too hungry, but I don't think that's possible:-) Mommy is also calling me "skinny", but I don't know what that means-never heard that word before. Whatever it is, it can't be all good, mommy seems sad when she says it. I get tired a lot too, but the good thing is that mommy and daddy have been spending lots of time snuggling and loving on me:-) I hope they know how much I love them-they give me so much happiness.
Today I actually felt pretty good. It helped that grandma came over for a visit. I LOOOOOVE my grandma soooo much:-) I used to see her all the time(every weekend), but then she and grandpa moved farther away from us. I miss seeing both of them. She took some pictures of mommy and me together while she was here. As much as I hate getting my picture taken, I was happy to put up with it if grandma was here.
Well, I'm off to lay down again. I will have lots of lovely dreams about hamburgers,playing ball with grandma, and snuggling with mommy and daddy(*singing* these are a few of my favorite things). Nighty Night.

He is my other eyes that can see above
the clouds; my other ears that hear above
the winds. He is the part of me that can
reach out into the sea.

He has told me a thousand times over that
I am his reason for being: by the way he
rests against my leg; by the way he thumps
his tail at my smallest smile; by the way he
shows his hurt when I leave without taking him.
(I think it makes him sick with worry when he
is not along to care for me.)

When I am wrong, he is delighted to forgive.
When I am angry, he clowns to make me smile.
When I am happy, he is joy unbounded.
When I am a fool, he ignores it.
When I succeed, he brags.
Without him, I am only another man. With him,
I am all-powerful.
He is loyalty itself.
He has taught me the meaning of devotion.
With him, I know a secret comfort and a
private peace. He has brought me understanding
where before I was ignorant.
His head on my knee can heal my human hurts.
His presence by my side is protection against
my fears of dark and unknown things.
He has promised to wait for me...
whenever...wherever--in case I need him.
And I expect I will--as I always have.
He is just my dog.
--- Gene Hill ---

Pebbles has meant this and so much more to me, Dan, and the rest of our family. She has been the heart of all that we are, and how we see all those around us. She came into this world showing such gentlesness of spirit, that one could not help but be affected to the core. Over the next weeks (or I beg God) months, we are going to do everything in our power to show Pebbles how much she has meant to us for these past 9 years. We have to feel lucky for all of the time we have gotten with this angel, and we will continue to cherish ever hour,every minute, every second we have left with her. A.L.L. (ACUTE LYMPHOCYTIC LEUKEMIA ) may be taking her body away from us, but the soul that lives within her will never die in our hearts. Love,
Amber