I mentioned that I had contacted the mission society my parents were with. A really nice lady got back to me and said she had managed to contact some ppl who were there when we were and also a couple who are there now. She said they were both happy to get in contact with me. This is HUGE. So many thoughts are rushing through my head like I will find out more about my childhood, I will find out more about the place, can I visit, CAN I ASK ABOUT MY ABUSERS? Speaking to therapist tom, which I think is a good idea. For now I just need to digest this. Wow. I cannot explain how much this means. When you have grown up somewhere you can't just go back and visit, then suddenly get that place made accesible to you again it is the biggest feeling.