Monday, 19 May 2014

institutionalized

ever heard of this word? it's more like being brainwashed or something becoming a norm in your life.

I went to central mental hospital for my psychiatry specialty placement. it is a place where dangerous psych patients are sent to. most are due to homicide. when i first arrived at the gate of the hospital it felt like im going into jurassic park with high metal wall and fences but then the hospital itself doesnt look that scary as in what we all expect from asylum in horror movies where patients are held in small room wearing arm wrapping clothes. they all seems like a normal hospital though the abandoned part of the hospital did have asylum feeling environment. wonder if there are lots of ghost here hehehe. putting that aside the hospital have a lovely part like farm and garden. the patients are allowed to tend the pigs, chickens and they can even be a beekeeper. pretty cool. there other pets like dog, fishes, and turtle too. love to play with them.

anyway, back to the institutionalize topic, if i were to be in jail, i would rather come here though i might end up being stuck in here for a very long time. in fact, it did cross my mind to try to live in this kind of facility. I've had this kind of living for almost a decade that I've been institutionalized. you see living in boarding school to me is no different than living in in prison or this facility. you're cut out from outer world, your life revolves in the facility everyday, and the difference is just which place have a tighter rules. that's why i dont mind living inside here. after all, i dont mind being alone