Britney

No matter how often nor how adamantly I remind myself not to—do not, do not, do not—I still find myself trying to define myself via other people’s opinions. One snarky comment, one misconstrued sentence, and I am down. It is a recurring problem with a solution so simple that I want to yell at myself for not accepting it. I am my own person. I trust myself with my own life. I am incredibly fine in solitary mode, solid and self-assured, but it seems so easy for someone else to change my feelings in a moment. The problem is other people, and yet it really, really isn’t. I am my own ruiner. ♦

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Britt- may I call you Britt~
This is so frustrating to read. I find myself thinking, “Why does she do that? She’s an amazing, talented, beautiful person.” And then I’m like…”Why do I never say this for me?”

Naomi – I feel like you’re writing down my own thoughts – I am so excited for the summer, to travel and be alone and meet new people far away, mostly because I feel SO trapped by the itsy bitsy social group I find myself in here at uni. I love my friends but I hate feeling that my association with them is beginning to define my personality, because that’s so limiting and, you know, inside I feel so EXPANSIVE(!!). We are so many people all at once!! thanks for writing down what I wish I could say. <3

I just imagine you as a young Sylvia Plath. Everytime wednesday comes around i’m excited because i feel through your diary entries i can be closer to her.
Your observant, critical, detached yet involved way of writing about your experiences and your country/city living angst just draws so many parallels for me with her :)

I mean this in the best way possible, as in you can just tell you were made to write and use your own experiences to create your art,

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