The second Common Sense

In darkness there is nothing. There is hate and war and
blindness. You cannot see what it is you are doing or the effects
of those actions on other people's lives. Sometimes, when I think
about it, I feel like that's the life I live in. Sometimes, when
I think about it, I feel like there is no other life to live
except for the one I live in. What would be the result if someone
decided to break loose of this world's ways and live a life in
the light? For in light there is peace and no one can hate for
there is no war and with no war there is no pain and with no pain
there can only be happiness. I suppose that's all in my
imagination though because I have yet to see that perfect of a
life. Are not my dreams supposed to be allowed to come true? I
suppose that's my imagination too.

Even if I could live in the perfect world, the difficult part
would be the transition. This evilness that the world has exposed
me to is seared into my mind and becomes habit now. I catch
myself still resorting back to those old habits; and yet, I still
catch myself creating new habits that bring me to the place of
peace that I've been waiting for. Things such as meditation,
rest, thought, love, kindness to the nature, and a control over
myself that controls not only my body but controls my pain as
well. I almost believe that I can feel no pain. Am I to go so far
as to say that I cannot feel death but that I control death
himself? Or is that taking it too far?

This is a collection of my thoughts that previously I've kept
locked in my head. I believe that now it is time for people to
know what I sit and ponder on for hours on end. Somewhere in my
mind though, I resist the temptation to tell the world, for what
if they do not listen? What if they cast me out of this world and
shun me from society? Then, I remember. Let them cast me out. Is
that not what I wanted in the first place, to separate from
society and to break away from the pain and hate? I no longer
fear being cast out. No, now I fear the pain of rejection that
just cannot be taken away.

I fear that there is no perfect world. Even if I can escape the
pain of the world, I can never escape the pain of man. Such
things such as rejection and point of view will always exist.
Human nature is a thing of beauty when you think about how much
it hurts in the end. It's called the human nature with good
reason though: it's human's natural actions and reactions that
will never be controlled. It's the reason that so many well
planned governments fail and break down. Somewhere down the line
corruption will set in and the government will eat itself from
the inside out. That is why a perfect world does not exist.
Somewhere down the line human's natural instinct will set in and
things such as greed and hate and jealousy will begin to take
over human's common sense.

We are told that we are free people but to be honest with you, I
see no freedom. I cannot understand how someone can say that
freedom is even free at all. Everyday a soldier dies so that we
can be free and that is a cost that we give in exchange for our
so called freedom. Tell me how we are free when on a daily basis
we are told how to live. Tell me how we are free when the pop
culture and modern society control the way we think. Tell me how
we are free when our daily lives our controlled by a government
that makes daily decisions that we have virtually no say in. We
are allowed to watch from the sidelines while the starting
line-up goes and makes all the plays. Tell me how we are free if
someone has to die for us. They were not free from death. Tell me
how we are free when we live like robots with limited
self-expression. Tell me how we are free if when we do express
ourselves the way that we choose, we our criticized by society.
Should we not be free from criticism? Now please try to explain
to me how we are free.

Ever since I was a kid I've had a problem with the way that
society is handled and run. I never understood why people had to
be a certain way. I never could comprehend who died and put
society in control of how we should or should not be. Why should
I be told how to dress, how I should talk, or how I should live
in general? This goes back to the subject of freedom. Since the
beginning of time people have always been swayed by other people.
So, if a person is swayed by one person and that person is swayed
by another and so on, then who is the originating person that
started this chain reaction. Even the president is swayed by his
cabinet. His cabinet is swayed by the people. The people are
swayed by the law. The law is swayed by previous experience.
Previous experience is swayed by previous actions. Notice the
pattern. Everyone or everything is swayed by someone else or
something else.

So, let's discuss the perfect world subject once again. If one
person was able to break free from society completely, not
concerned with what anyone thinks, then how many other people
would follow him? That's how America was created. One man found
this land and left Europe. Then, people followed him. Could we
create a completely new world that way, just by acting out and
refusing to just blend into the world? My grandparents told me
one time that the way to succeed was to blend with the rest of
the world. It amazed me, not because I thought they were right,
but because after all the experience they have in life, they
could still be as ignorant as to think that this world could last
without leaders.

A world without leaders, a world where everyone just decided to
blend in, would collapse. It would turn into chaos and would
destroy itself from the inside out. If people had nothing to
follow they would no longer know how to live and with nothing to
live by, life is a meaningless existence. At least now we have
our love, our friends, and our families. Most people don't even
have that. I'm curious to know how many people in this world are
truly happy. I cannot say that, at this time in my life, I am
happy. To me happiness is something that we will not know until
our last day on earth, the day we ascend to heaven on wings of
angels. That will be the day that I can say that I am truly
happy. Pain and war and hate will all disappear and there will be
joy and laughter. There will no longer be tears of sadness but
instead tears of joy. That is what I wait for, happiness.