Stupid Diary | Merry Christmas... Or not.

This Christmas doesn't look like a Christmas holiday to me. It's like I don't have patience for this anymore.
Christmas used to change myself completely, the most magic date of the year.... But this magic turns to a strange feeling of missing something. I don't feel the same that I was last year...
This last semester it was terrible. I got bad scores on college, psicological problems like depression and problems inside my home, why not?
I did not known how to control this... I couldn't control this. My wishing about desappear still here, but I know that I most be strong.
I used to say what doesn't kills me makes me stronger... So I am waiting my time.