and i miss the days when your hair smelled like last nights sex...
...and you were never more beautiful then when your eyes were closed
lips so perfect and waiting
breathing in that air that you were breathing out
and breathing it out so you could breath it in
i swear i could taste your heart on sunday mornings
my arm over your shoulder and between your breasts
such comfort like i was hens egg
and then a dog would bark
and the egg shell would break
letting in the countless rays of a maine morning
and we would life another lifetime in a day

if you were trying to make me cry with memory, you won love.
i'm a tear stain, because you love me more than i deserve. more than i ever could have hoped for. you know, i have never been more sure about a single solitary thing in my life, than i am of how very much i love you. or how very much i need you in my life. every day that flies by, every second that feels like a forever, just when we're together. it used to be 'soon love soon', because we thought we'd finally get an eternity in October, now - now what is it love? it isn't soon..it's so very far away still. and i'm left waiting for my forever, and wondering if it will ever start. i love you more each and every day that passes, you know that, and yet my heart feels..like if it can't love you forever, from a closer proximity, it might crack...or break...or succumb to worrying that my lover will never love me - as foolish as that thought might seem. you're all my dreams and a million daylight day thoughts. what would i do without you? what will i do without you...right beside me?

i miss you soo terribly.
so terribly it hurts.
it hurts, and it hurts, and it never stops.