Like I promised, I am here to give you all updates with what I have been doing for the past few months. I honestly don’t know where to begin, lol. Well, after my last post , “Dear John (pt 2)”, I wanted to avoid the internet a little bit. I tried to keep busy offline. Didn’t work out to well, but then something came over me. You know that feeling you get when you get in your gut that you need to try or do something? I for one, followed my gut and it led me to someone so awesome and amazing. Yes, I know I said in my last post I was going to be single for a while. Just I wasn’t going to seat around and keep thinking about all that is happened and try to pick it to pieces to learn about myself, etc. It would have just brought up old wounds and keep my mind and life going in circles. So, I picked myself up and met someone new. He is literally the best guy I have been with. We clicked on all levels! No joke! It was like we been together for years. I have no words to even begin to describe him. It’s like “God” finally understood what I needed in my life and he brought it in a form of a wonderful new love. He is adventurous, happy, positive, responsible, educated, got a awesome job (pays well), funny, loving, caring, romantic, supportive, fun MAN! He brings the best out of me. He is my best friend, I can tell him anything. He makes me feel better when I am having a bad day. He makes me laugh when I need it the most and tries to make a negativity into a positive. Most of all, no drama in his life. We are going on 4 months and I am still smiling everyday day thanks to him. 🙂

On the other news, work is still the same. My hunny wants me to quit. I told him it wasn’t that easy to do that. Though he told me it was ok, and that he would help me. I told him, we will see how things go by the summer. I will either start looking serious for a new job (In Orlando where he is) or just quit. If I quit there are a lot of factors I have to consider, cause it would effect one other person cause they also relay on my income right now to pay my part of the bills. So, we will see where things go. I told him, when we are together for 6 whole months and if my debt is all paid off. We will talk some more about it, and with my roommate. For now, I just enjoy my days off with him, doing new things and enjoying his company and love! 🙂

Overall, I am doing pretty good right now. I just have to fight my way through the mental stress of work and keeping a float here. I also vow to try new things every week somehow. After all, isn’t that what life is all about? Experiencing its wonders and life? One thing that makes it all worth it, is being able to enjoy it with someone who makes life even better in the process. 🙂 Anywho, I am off to get some cleaning done and maybe finally getting my taxes done before I head off to work. I will be back soon! 🙂

No worries, I am alive and well. Happy at that too. I don’t have the time at this moment to give you all the juicy updates. I will say this. When you think positively, good things happen. I promise to update soon! Talk to you all soon! 🙂

Well…shit. Ok, so I didn’t post anything before my trip, sorry! Just the few days leading up to the trip it got busy. An truthfully, I am still adjusting not being on vacation and I got back on the 31st. I am trying really hard not to say “fuck it!!” and drop everything and run back. Seeing him was just natural. Wasn’t nervous once or scared. The surrounding enviroment was peaceful. I didn’t get one stress chest pain. I was relaxed and willing and wanting to learn everything I could as I was with him. I mean, I felt utterly safe and content. I am going back as soon as work lets me.

The love I felt is strong. Makes me miss him a lot. I am honestly lost for words when it comes to my trip. I didn’t even take a whole lot of pictures either. Just the memories, emotions and smell is still very strong. Not a lot of words were spoken either. I mean we did talk a lot, but when it came to how we felt, we didn’t have to say much. We just knew and were in the moment. He lives in the moment and goes with what he feels. He doesn’t second guess himself. I love him for all that he is. I accept him. I don’t want to change one thing about him. What makes me feel settled with him (if that is the right word) is he took me as I am. No make up and wasn’t shy in touching me. An I am self-conscious about my body, but he loves me. I mean, I have to be dreaming here. I am so not going to rush this with him. One day at a time and enjoy every second of it.

We are both still sacred cause we been hurt badly before, but in finding the “true one” is never easy and when you find it, you do what it takes to make sure it’s done right. To physically be together for good, we both have to take care of things that were there before we met. So, slow it is. I told him, I am willing to go at the pace he wants to go. Hell, if he were to ask me to move up there right now, I would do it. But I know he is wanting to take care of things first and then when the time and moment is right, he will ask in his own way. Sadly, even though I am here at home, it doesn’t feel like home after being there and with him. Cause home is where the heart is. So, in a nutshell….