Creamfields
Finally meeting people of my own kind in Leeds
Bizarre conversations with mate Graham last saturday after Speedqueen
Summer - which was completely wonderful
just being happier than ever before!

low points
wtc
not being able to be in Leeds for nye
deaths of two friends
working shitty temp jobs
not having sex very often...

- not knowing how to help with depressions close to me
- trying (and failing) to buy a house
- takeovers, restructurings, redundancies and the associated paranoias
- The War Against Terrorism (less televisually spectacular but sadder than sept11, imho)
- brixton starting to feel dangerous again.

Sept 11th and subsequent events
No Glastonbury
Being skint
Girlfriend being nicked and court being adjurned again and again
Landlord selling MY lovely house (the bastard! anyone'd think it was his!)
My girlfriend
Finally going to Amsterdam
Becoming a 'god' father
Discovering U75 (obviously)
Still smiling

1.Getting my heart broken ... really really
really broken! ... and still not being
able to forget him.
2.Finding out I am the family dissapointment
and the fact that my own mother is
embarrased about me.
3.Relationship with parents and brother got
even worse this year.
4.Almost lost a friend because of an ovedose.
5.Nagging little voice in my head telling me
I have been wasting my life, that I have
no talent whatsoever and that I will never
accomplish anything.
6.I can't sleep or eat well, I smoke a lot
(cigarettes, not weed).

1) passing my masters and thus ending 5 long and financially hard years of higher education.
2) getting a good job and thus makng me believe that the 1) was all worthwhile.
3) moved to a new place with intentions of making a new life for myself and meeting new people. see 2) on bad things
4) being single again. see 1) on bad things
5) realising that i have so much more of a life outside of my now defunct relationship and wanting to make up for all the lost time with the people that are closest to me which i have ignored in the last year. my fault i know but 2002 is going to be different.

Bad things

1) becoming single again.
2) not letting myself fully let go and get out and meet people where i moved to because of a clingy girlfriend who didnt like the fact that i could have a life without her.
3) September 11th. enough said.
4) the lack of any effective opposition to tony blair and Labour
5) the continued oppresion of marginalised groups and sections of the community. will it ever stop.

O.K. Bad shit first:1.Dropped out of college(again!!!)2.One of my best friends in hospital on christmas eve3.governments, war, terrorism (when pointed at the INNOCENT)4.realisation of "fair weather friends"5.havin a good ol' can o' whoooop ass opened on my soul

Now for the good stuff:1.knowing my purpose in life2.smiling faces3.the end of my chem. habit4.not being in love with someone that destroys your brain and soul5.the fact that it's over in 11hours

5 Good things:
1. Getting the job I've wanted in February.
2. Watching U2 play live again.
3. Watching They Might Be Giants play live again.
4. Finally getting my Mystery Science Theater 3000 collection off the ground, and really going.
5. Urban 75 has been a great source to let me vent my anger at anyone and everyone who deserves it.

5 Bad things:
1. Losing the job I've wanted because of the tragedy of September 11th.
2. Finding out a guy I knew died September 11th at the pentagon.
3. Still not finding a woman who will date me.
4. All these happy-go-war people who are really starting to piss me off. Granted, I support the troops in Afghanistan, but I don't support the war they're in. Where I'm at, that's like saying I'm a practicing hardline communist.
5. Still having to endure the censorship at the library because I can't afford internet access at home.

Going to Denmark for 2 months
Meeting some extroadinary people whilst travelling.
Bieng promoted at work.
Bieng elected as an executive officer for my students union.
Going protesting in London with some mates and randomly meeting my parents.

5 Bad things...
Twin towers destruction and all that has followed.
Still having problems with my boss.
My bestest mate is STILL not talking to me -now makes nearly 3 years over something trivial.
Bieng suspended at work for something I didn't do.
Breaking my wrist on the one night of the yaer that I really wanted to go out. Didn't see any of the event.

right, as with most things in my life, I haven't actually got round to doing this yet..

so lets see..

+ one word: technics!!
+ going to university in London
+ meeting lots of exciting new people (and relativley few dull ones)
+ another year with the majority of my family still happy
+ getting more and more addicted to u75!
+ meeting world dmc champion DJ Craze (on September 11th)

- everything else that happened on September 11th (I even got cought faredodging )
- seeing one of my best mates' dad diagnosed with cancer
- getting through my first student loan very very quickly
- failing an a-level in Maths and not being bothered by it whatsoever
- leaving school: end of an era, even if I didn't enjoy it as much as I could have

(1)Getting on the right course, career-wise
(2)Meeting my beloved in broad daylight
(3)Having the wildest year of my life and countless times I will never forget.
(4) having lots of liasions with interesting lovers before meeting my boyfriend
(5)Having an utterly fabulous Christmas and New Year

BAD POINTS

(1) Being manipulated by a girl who, for a few weeks pretended to be my friend
(2) Developing a mind block for a few weeks in September, when I weaned well of drugs and drink
(3) Chronic insomnia
(4) Not sleeping with one particular squat party raver (but we did share a few kisses)
(5) Having to constantly clean up after my piggy ex- flat mate.