Submissive gay man in Eastern Washington. Looking to further accept my place as a faggot for real men.

What I want

I'm interested in becoming a better faggot that is willing to serve. I presently have a straight Alpha friend that is pushing me a bit in the gym and is letting me get to know him better. I want to better accept my place as a servant and once I'm better suited to serve, I will ask if he will let me. Very much need to have the idea that I will receive any sexual gratification from serving him. I already feel that my happiness is tied to pleasing gay men I've served in the past, but there is the potential that no sexual activity will occur between me and this man. I want to serve him anyway.

What experience do you have?

I've submitted to gay men in the past. I've taken flogging and spanking as punishment, been punched both as punishment and as play, been locked up in chastity before, max 6-weeks and want to go much longer in order to prove to Men that it's not a jack-off fantasy for me.