My name is Courtney, and this is my story

I had always struggled with low self-esteem and at the beginning of last year I was diagnosed with MDD(Major Depressive Disorder), I was admitted to hospital and put on suicide watch for the weekend and was them admitted to a mental health clinic. I was an ice cold Christian at the time of my diagnoses and I gave my life to the Lord on the Saturday when I was still in hospital. After I was back at home I still continued to struggle with self harm and I still hated myself for the way that I negatively impacted my family. At the end of last year beginning of this year I stopped feeling like i was worthless and that i want to die and I also stopped having so many bad days, until eventually I laughed and it wasn't fake anymore. Even if you aren't religious please don't just discard my story because I also had an amazing support system such as my family as well as my two best friends and I am grateful every day for what my depression taught me and what I learned, not just from that experience but about myself as well as a person. Thank you for taking the time to read my story and I'm also here to tell you and reassure you that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and it does NOT make you weak when you ask for help, in fact it makes you incredibly strong as well as brave. Never give up on yourself because you are beautiful and important and I can just tell you with 100% certainty that you matter!

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