How we love each other. One smile from
you and I feel totally satisfied. That is how love is meant to be. Look me
up when you are here, in town.
I saw you yesterday, picking up the kids and recognized you but can't place
where else I have seen you. Somewhere in this suburb, that's for sure. I
don't see you often enough. Though you no longer have the I love you smile,
I know in live in Belton and I am happy. Besides you are never going to
move away. Love you lamia. While I can never forget my Lamia,
you are the new Lamia in my life. Not that new, for we have known each
other for many many years. I like the way you smile. Don't see you often
enough. I just stand in my drive way and see many of my friends. But you
are special. You warm my lonely heart up Lamia. While I am active, I
need close relationships. Can't have enough of them. At one time I was not
so needy. But I have changed. Some day I hope to be more emotionally self
sufficient. May take another year or 2. By then hopefully my heart will be
assuaged ( massaged with love). Love you Lamia and I know this email
will reach you Darling, Love, Dearest. I will always love you. I
constantly ache for you Lamia. After being in my life for 20 + years,
you have changed and moved away. I know you look very different now but it
is still you. You were always a master of disguises and have the art of
looking very different. If you really look, you will find I am still
beautiful but not that photogenic. I am ethereally beautiful. I have put on weight. Simply adore you.
Hope the Doctors can cure me of my illness.

Letter 2.

I am a lonely soul. All these years I had some friend or the other in my life. How do I assuage my loneliness Lamia ? At least you moved with me when I
moved here.I live with my family but for how long ? Hopefully my cousin retires next year and provides companionship. That’s what I sorely need. My nieces help but they are young. They cannot
relate to the way I feel. Maybe I ask for too much. I shouldn't’t be such a needy soul. But I am human. The loneliness is my constant companion. 20 glorious years we have had together.
I pray to God to help me out. God has given me a symptom free illness to get me out of the house and among people. Professionals as I am still a registered Doctor myself. I have
plenty of friends. I only have to go out to meet them. But for that soul mate. Silly of me to still love you at this age. But the heart and soul are still young. Bear with my letters Lamia. I am a
happy person, just lonely since you left me Lamia to move away to be with your aging mother. How kind and good she is. Such a helpful person. How nice she is to me. Take care of her
Lamia. We will meet again. After all there is a living for ever.

Letter 3

I am a romantic at heart. I emote, I feel and express myself. I know my letter will reach you. The post masters would have found you by now. There was a time we
lost track of each other and weren't’t we delighted to have found each other again. Took us 5 years to discover we were soul mates. I long for you Lamia. When I moved with my family , I
persuaded you to move your family too. That too to Australia. What if we are not in the same city. At least we are in the same country. I pray to God to end my loneliness. I have coped all these
years but am no longer able to do so. I have become a needy person. But then I am human. I have to adopt resilience and stoicism for a while until my live in housemate and relative retires. No body
should be alone for hours at a time, like I am. Retirement makes it worse, with plenty of time on my hands.

Letter 4

We may never have married but that was not possible. I could not marry anyone else but I went ahead and had kids by a donor process. The Donor was a
friend’s brother. I have been very happy in my life and I still am. My connection to you helps assuage my loneliness. I know you are always delighted to hear from me. I am lucky to have family even
though they live far away. I live a simple life. I was not always that way. Once my housemate retires, I am hoping to meet more people. He is not so inclined at the moment. I live
on a street where the neighbours have become family through association. I managed to move some of my family and friends here too :-0. So I am not clingy. Fortunately for you. I
no longer feel lonely. This letter to you has helped. Knowing you are still in my life helps. There is none other like you. I have never loved anyone the way I have loved you. And you
loved me back. I no longer see you but you are a busy man. Can’t get away from your work. And I know you no longer can travel like you used to. Yet once a year we meet up at the local
fair. I can see the love you feel for me. I requested you to keep it discreet and you have. It is a matter of privacy. My family knows I have a Guy friend. I married
10 years ago. How was I to know you would permanently move to be with me in the USA. Mysterious are God’s ways. In my life I have kids by one man, a likable husband and a man I love. It took
me a while to accept the truth and I do so. I used to be a Sahaj Margi. I am no longer formally religious anymore though I believe in God. My sibling’s kids also see me as mum.
And so do a few local kids. So I am mom to quite a few kids :-0. I also play Aunt to a few kids in my local community. My problem is I don’t see them on a regular basis. I have joined
activities and hope to renew my friendship with some of them. Once I have grand children in a few years, I figure I will be very busy. I am going through a temporary difficult phase in my
life. I know all is well with you Lamia. And I am happy for that. After all, it was I who moved you here. My family refused to leave me alone in the USA. How I miss the US but
then Australia is beautiful too. My Dad who has been American now, is happily living in India and rediscovering it. We have plenty of family living there , so he is ok. Keep in touch my
Darling.

Letter 5

My husband has come back after a few years of living away. I don’t believe in divorce and I have loved him all these years. We have a good thing
going. He is a busy man I brought happiness into his life. I considered an annulment of our marriage but that is not possible. Besides I love him too. Like you, he lives
away in Canberra. My live in house mate is a local fellow and was looking for a room to rent. He helps out with all the handy man jobs in the house. My husband has acquired a girl
friend. He thinks I don’t know but I do. At my age I can accept this truth easily. He does not want a divorce. He keeps it discrete. If he wanted a divorce I would give it to him. So I guess we all
have more than enough love within us to share. You have always been so understanding Lamia. So I know , no matter what, I will never be totally alone in my life. My 2 kids will be leaving home
soon. Am I glad they are getting married. 2 lovely boys will become my son-in-laws. But I will be sorry to see them leave home. However I am excited at the change. What will life be like as a
single again. You never were a totally handsome man but man ! What charm you have. And I like your physique. You are a tall man. And I like tall men. There are not many very short
people in my community. I think Australians as a rule tend to be taller on average. Love you Darling.

Letter 6 - deleted

Letter 7

I have always been a very independent sort of person. After all I was in the armed forces. That was a long long time ago. It has taught me to be fearless
to a large extent. Love you Lamia. I call you Owen when I see you on your walks at the beach walking trail. Wonderful that you have moved back here. I did the Bibbulmun Track from Perth
to Albany 5 times. Broke the record. I also went solo around the world and was a pilot for many years. I managed to become chief of Staff Moira, so I have had a happy life. And made it
rich too. I sought annulment of my marriage and I have built up a strong case. The people’s court will award it. Neither of us wants a divorce. My kids Dad moved away to England recently and
won’t be moving back. The kids have been raised to be resilient and accept that I will always be in their life, no matter what. It was they who moved me here as my eldest acquired a Aussie Guy
friend. My Grandma who is Indian is delighted. I know you are single Lamia and faithful to me. I also know you are a busy man. Madison your brother’s grand daughter is growing up fast.
After reverse aging I look 34 and you 37. With just a wisp of grey hair. My cancer treatment is taking its toll on my energy levels. I get tired more easily than I like. My Doctor niece tells
me it will pass in a few months, once treatment is over. Till next time Darling. :-0 I feel so much better for having written to you.

Letter 8

There is a living for ever Lamia. Don't forget that. And plenty of community support for those who don't have family living close by. It is a pity we can't live
together but you are an outdoor's person and I am ok for now. I always will be. Besides you are a very busy man. You look much better since you lost some excess fat on your body. :-0. You look so
funny playing Indian at the Divali local fair. I am free to love again Darling. My kids are all into one should marry for love stage in their life. I have assured them it is an eternity
equation. Such lovely boys they are marrying. You know I am a vegetarian. I am learning to eat meat for flexibility's sake. The mock meat variety :-0. Looks so much like the real
thing.

Letter 9

You are my favourite Lamia. But I am an Aussie Lander. I do husband of the year, husband from the past, future husband, husband for a
day, friend husbands , husbands galore. No secrets from you. I have just discovered that that’s what they are. Not just Guy friends anymore. I would love to go back to being single
again but I have been told to grow up and I am experiencing growing pains. There is Dadlish, husband for a day a year, eternity of eternities husband you,IGA husband don’t remember his name,
Suri my ex love, VLK my dearest friend and then there is Raj, Head of Clinical Services until recently. Then there is Divali Mela husband, the life Surf life guard, the motorist husband, the
Aussie husband. I am drawn to you all equally. Alas only Dadlish lives with me. Of my 8 kids, the last 2 will be leaving home soon. They came back and are leaving again.
This world of mine moves very slowly. 3 years for my acquaintances to recognise me. It is very laid back.. The same thing every year.I have been through the Grihasti experience which I liked
but I did not like the divorce experience. Very painful it was – lonely, isolated, all alone with no one caring about you. Mind you it’s an experience. I do sex on the go. That’s all I can
promise for now. Would you still be interested in being my Valentine for the year Lamia. I live on my Estate and we have made this place which I call the City of Banff the Blue Lagoon.
Everyone is very innocent and crime is non-existant. There is plenty of community network and I have to live with my situation. I was shown sex by a ‘virgin do you love me fellow’ last year.
Some day we will do the entire ‘ Blue Lagoon sex set’. I know the outcome, one day you and I will live together as girl friend and guy friend, many many years from now. Give my regards to
your mum. Hope she liked the puppies I presented her with. I know all of you and your brother live as an extended family. And that you are very busy sometimes. But never too busy for a walk.
You are welcome to live on my estate as long as you like Lamia. Love you my Valentine.

Letter 10

You are such a cheerful fellow Lamia. As cheerful as I am. I do get a tad lonely sometimes but I have a very supportive network. Sunday
afternoons are my worst days, Even otherwise I go through about 2 hours of loneliness at anytime. It would be nice to have just one more friend. At one time I had a friend who would
call and we could chat but I have lost touch with him. A former boss of mine. He had plenty of friends. I miss him to this day. I finally managed to locate him on the internet and also after a few
phone calls. I must send him an email today.. He has a lovely wife. And a handsome son. But then he is very good looking. Why am I telling you this ? Because I can ask him to be my Valentine in
case you can't be. He taught me a lot about how married couples relate. So will you be my Valentine?

Letter 11

So you have agreed to be my Valentine. Thanks for visiting me at my work place. You are still such a handsome man. I sometimes have trouble
recognising you. But your physique sets you apart. You have made my day. I will always love you Lamia.

Letter 12

What a sighting Lamia. A sight for a sore heart. I cannot describe the anguish I have felt, until I saw you today. I know you were feeling
the same way. My mind and heart are at peace now. Wonder when I will see you again. I wouldn't mind seeing you even everyday. You know I live by the primary catholic school, back
entrance. We have always lived this way. When did we live together. Where is the fun in that. Meet me by the Blue Lagoon beach front my love.

Letter 13

Not a day goes by without my thinking of you. How I missed you when you were overseas. I hope to see you soon again. You are the only
one I am drawn to. We have our usual meeting places. How I wished I saw you more often but its not to be. Love you Darling.Do you still love me Darling, after all these many years. What we have is something special. I knew you loved me the day you introduced me to your
family. So I went ahead and had kids with you. Such lovely kids they are. As wonderful as you were and still are. Look me up Darling when you are in town.Have to go. Bye for now. Pretty woman give your smile to me.

Letter 14

I know you Lamia ! The minute I think of getting too close to a man to the point of desiring him, you move him
away. That's how I know you love me. But you are so invisible, even though we live in the same town. How much you change Lamia. I have trouble placing you sometimes. But I am always
delighted to see you. After reverse aging, I am 37 and and you are a little older. Old enough to have older and younger kids. At one time I had 135 kids who related to me.

Letter 15

I love you Lamia. I am glad you have come back to live with me and the kids again. Finally got a job that does not require travel. We are a family and you make the house feel like a
home. You turned out to be the best choice for me. Don’t retire Lamia. Home means isolation, home means boredom , you are happier with a job. I have friends wherever I go
but none I see everyday. It takes me the better half of a day to recognise them. They for their part recognise me instantly for I used to participate in events. I am well known I no
longer participate in events. How I hate retirement. But it gives me time for our kids. Music takes the edge of the anguish I feel. 'Here without you baby, tonight its just you and me'-
3 doors down

Letter 16

I know you look out for me laxmikanth. You were in my work place the other to make my work easier. Helped make my life easy. It is your support I value. Love you Lamia. I volunteer at the
Hospitals. In return I get medication at a discounted rate. With insurance I practically live for free. I love living for free. I don't handle money in anyway seriously anymore. I have forgotten my
age. Late 50's makes me old. So I think of myself as 37. A nice age where you can have grown up children. And yet be young enough. My black hair qualifies me to be 37. Could even
be my real age. I am more like a young 43.

Letter 17

Since seeing you on Valentine's day, my anguish has gone away, replaced by a nice contentment. I know you will always be in my life. Such a good life I have had and we have had so much
fun over the years. You have changed so much over the years. But we love each other and unlike earlier years, I see you more often. No matter what happens our relationship will last for ever.
I am a little confused about my relationships though. I have a husband, you are my guy friend but I love you too. We have always been decent and I only have to see you to be happy. You are a
part of my life, just as my husband is. So I am free to love. I have always been pragmatic and its ok to feel that way. After all, I have been faithful all these years. Why do I like you so
much. I always have. From memory I wanted to marry you , a teenage crush :-0, but it was not possible. Of course not. You are 8 years older than me. Yhew! Mind you my married life had been and is
still happy. But I love you in way a friend does. We have known each other for so many years now. You are a integral part of my life. I have achieved most of what I could achieve. Many have
done more but I don't compare. I helped design a space ship, not design it myself :-) But we tend to tell a tall tale. But I was President of Interg.... Now I volunteer in the
hospitals. Nothing special. How I want to be single again. But I don't want a divorce. How I long for the days when I was truely single. But I have now 6 kids who still see me as
mom. Everyone in the family knows it's just a profile. In my profile I am single and unattached. How I wish I had somebody who would help with the cooking and provide companionship. A
lady. As long as I have my thoughts to keep me busy I am happy. Love you Darling, I always have. Our friendship will last the test of time. I was bored of being married. So I thought the
relationship would improve if we annulled the relationship. And it has. We live in a converted Motel, with seperate living quarters. It is a small Motel, only houses 4. I am the live in cook
and I get paid for my efforts. Not much for I don't cook much. It has to be supplemented but one or 2 meals per day, so you don't have to eat out all the time. But I get paid for my other work. At
least there is something to eat. But I am thinking of not getting paid. I have lose interest in cooking. Its so boring except on weekends when I have time to dish out a tasty meal. Too hot to do
anything these days. I feel listless. I want to capture the love my husband and I had again but that is not possible. He is more interested in his work life. But I have you, my dear
friend and always will. And for that I love you the most. Thanks for moving to this city for me. Haven't seen you since Valentine's day but I am content. I know I will see you
again, for you love me as much as I love you. As the Dalai Lama says, old friends move away and new ones come into your life. Raj has temporarily moved away.

Letter 19

Life is perfect Lamia. Hope it stays that way. But it still is difficult. Nothing that can be done about it. I only pray to God that I appreciate my life and it's goodness even more.
For try as I might to feel 37, the truth is I am getting old. Will be 60 next year. I am glad you live in this town and that I get to see you sometimes. Even otherwise I can see your look
alikes and be satisfied. Life at my age is about community living mostly. My one regret is that I don't have many friends but wherever I go there are people I know and memories. Sometimes I wonder
how I stay sane in retirement. But I am healthy and I know it. Creative writing does that to you. I am not insane when my story writing is in it's draft stage. I always feel better
after I go back and improve my story and when it is ready to be published. Tell me what to do when I am bored out of my mind. It will get worse before it gets better. The Doctor says activity
is the answer but at my age i cannot indulge in outdoor activities for lenthy periods of time. And I have done it all, seen it all. Books no longer hold a facination for me. Maybe I
should rekindle my passion for cooking. Look up all the nice recipes on the internet and make them. I am bored of eating the same thing everyday, even though it is a staple diet of protien, carbs
and veggies. I think I am doing it good and staying optimistic overall. This year will be busy.

Letter 20

Lamia, you will be happy to hear I am in good health. What I thought was a big problem turned out to be very minor, easily treatable. I am mightily relieved. We have lovely
weather here. Our city is a USA city but in the East. I am very American at heart, love all things American. I am now learning to be Aussie. Much as I love the place, I have not yet
become totally Aussie at heart. One day maybe. After all I am a new Aussie. I believe I am somewhere in the USA. No convincing me otherwise. Just because we have Kangaroos and Koalas
doesn't mean we are in Australia. At one time I knew where we were but after all the travelling around, I no longer know where we are. I am not convinced we are in Australia. Australia is our
virtual world of reality because we are Aussie Americans. By East means Eastern States. I remember the whole family becoming Americans long time ago. After all, a visa to virtual India is
only 75$. That means local travel. A real visit to India would set us back in 10000$ airfare itself. We have everything here. No need to travel anywhere. How I love the USA as an American.

Letter 21

I love you the most of all Lamia, of all my friends. We have known each other since I was 12. Since then you have moved in and out of my life. My problem is I have too much time
on my hands. I am seeking advice on how to get a volunteer job. It would be nice , a chance to meet people and be productive. I am too young for a senior's club, as much as I like the
dancing and exercise, I don't want to feel like I am in my 60's. After all I am a young 33, who went to the cosmotologist to look any age. I have forgotten my past. From memory I have 2 siblings
and a couple that play mom and dad. They probably had us through surrogacy but I remember they being house mate relatives. They play mom and dad. So I have no one except you and the kids.
Please don't ever leave me Lamia. I love you so. I always have. All my family lives here in the USA. For some reason they think they are in Perth Australia just because we are Aussie
Americans. I don't ever remember being Indian though we lived there when I was young. We no longer visit the place. It is very much like Bengal Indiana but much smaller. With all the
mixture of races, it is one nation these days , provided you pay the nominal visa fees. Our virtual world is American. I saw you the other day, walking your dogs. I am not
enamoured of you. The person I am enamoured of moved away. I will never see him again. But I had 3 glorious love filled years with him. How I miss him. But I a gypsy and we are nomadic.
I will never get over him. That's how much I love him. Can you find him for me Lamia ? I have 5 children that are mine. I had all through surrogacy but they are mine. I focused on
making money and provided the best care to the ladies who had them. They had easy child births. I single handedly raised them. Will I ever get over my love. I don't think I ever
will. I don't mind being single. I always have been single. I am in a relationship now for the companionship. I don't love the man the way I love Victor but he is a good man.
But I am sex starved. However I don't do sex. I chose to be single and therefore I am celebate by choice. One day maybe I will when I have plenty of energy 100 years from now. I will
find another man and get over my handsome Victor. Not that we ever did anything much. But it was a loving relationship. I do sex on the go on rare occasions, with a decent man. At the
moment I don't have the energy. My dating agency will contact me when they find Victor. I am determined to have him again and only him. And they will find him some day. There is no hurry.
Thanks for your patience in reading my letters Lamia. It's wonderful to have a friend to talk to. Come visit me sometime Lamia. You know where to find me.

Letter 22

I like you well enough Lamia. Why don't you be my guy friend. I like you a lot. At one time I used to delight just seeing you. Now we know each other better and you will definitely stay in my
life.. I have known love thrice in my love. I loved my first love for many years. We stayed friends after I married. But now I am practicing detachment in my middle age. Turn my thoughts to
God, enjoy the empty nest. My second love was in my life for 20+ years and moved away recently to be closer to family. I missed him terribly but I am ok now. And now I have you as a friend in my
life. Change is the only constant thing in life. Sometimes it is difficult, sometimes it is easy.