Mid-2015 was when I first started being less active on YouTube due to something else that happened that is unrelated to this video.

This video, however, explains another reason why I was away longer.. I was going through a lot with myself, my life, and my relationship with my ex at the time that I decided to prioritize all of those things first before getting back on YouTube again. I needed to fix me before I handled my channel because I wasn’t at my best and I wanted to give my best when it comes to my channel so that’s what I did. There were some videos that were uploaded here and there but it wasn’t my usual upload schedule as most of you can tell.

It’s been about six months after my breakup, going on the seventh. If you ask me, “How are you now? What’s your mental, emotional, psychological, and physical health like since the breakup to now?” Here’s what I will say, “I’m happy. I’m healthy. I’m so good. I’m clean. I’m positive. I’m stable. I’m secure. I’m sane. I’m safe. I’m beyond grateful. I’m stronger. I’m more fierce. I’m more driven. I’m more passionate. I’m protective. I’m loving. I’m caring. I’m wiser. I’m more experienced. I’m everything that I wasn’t in the relationship and more now.”

The relationship didn’t break me. It never will. The moments pained me, but it did not break me. I’m still hopeful. I still believe in love. I still think there are great people out there. I still love and care as I always have. I’m just smarter and I don’t give away or take anything that is not earned.

Do I regret it? No. I’m happier for it. I learned so much and there are lessons that I just had to learn this way. I don’t believe there was any other way of me gaining the knowledge that I have today other than going through it the way I did.

Do I care still? I care about myself and the ones I love. I am experiencing so much joy out of life now and I’m doing all of the things that I’ve always wanted to do. Traveling, hanging out with my friends, going to parties, living my life to the fullest, spending time with my loved ones, and just doing so much better leaving all of that behind.

One advice I can give you to take away from all of this:
Learn to walk away when things don’t do you any good anymore. What was once there isn’t anymore. Don’t wait for things to get better. Love yourself more when you are wronged. There’s no need to feel insecure when it comes down to being proved that you are not enough for someone, it just means there is something wrong with them and not you if you are doing everything right. Don’t take their infidelities as an attack to your value as a partner and a person, take it as a sign that this person isn’t meant for you and just walk away. Don’t question the other side either. For them to go along with all of it knowingly it says a lot about their insecurities and being, not yours. There’s no need to feel insecure with it. Messed up people cheat, no matter how good of a person they are or not. You don’t want to be involved with that, take it from someone who tried to put up with it. Life is short, really short, live it to the fullest and happiest. Don’t waste a moment with someone or people that don’t add to it. Do you. Someone who loves you will allow you to and be happier with you for it.

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No matter who hurts you. Let it go. Life moves on so should you. I say this for your own good. There’s no need to keep the anger, the disappointments, the sadness, etc. Let it all go and be free. The past is the past and it will never happen again unless you allow it to get the best of you. Don’t let it.