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I have a problem writing in this blog. I start writing a post only to realize that I probably shouldn’t post it after all. So what is the problem?

I’m a very opinionated person. I have an awful lot to say pretty much all the time, and I value my opinions enough to think that other people ought to hear them. I have no problems saying these things when I’m around certain people or in an appropriate forum. However a very public blog on my official website that serves as both my personal site and my professional presence on the web is NOT the appropriate forum for expressing my honest thoughts and views.

Being professional. You know what I mean. The word that comes to my mind is “stiff.” For example, when it comes to being a programmer there’s nothing to be gained by offending anyone or being anything less than an efficient, well-oiled machine. So I keep those opinions to myself.

Society stifles creativity. You have to worry constantly about how your actions and words affect other people. Everybody is sensitive. I am not and cannot be the same person in front of everyone I know in my various personal and professional circles. I don’t know how other people can be the same person all the time… unless they are just quiet and unassuming all the time. But I really don’t think anyone is actually ALWAYS like that.

So when are you being true to yourself? There are times when I deliberately present a very different personality. I used to wonder… who is the real me? But now I believe that I am always me and always have been me. These other sides of me just take over in different situations. But nothing’s wrong with that. People are multi-faceted and irrational. They can strive to be some ideal, but everyone knows that no one is perfect.

Sometimes a person needs anonymity in order to truly express themselves. Either that or they need an outlet outside of the confines of normal society…