so shit just got heavier. so things are good in a lot of ways between us, but we have problems with the direction of each other's lives. I won't delve too much into that except to say that's background.

Now I want her to meet my family, and she wants to meet them, too. her thing is relationship-building. that's her in both a cultural and personal sense, so this is kind of important to her. it's important to me, too, but culturally family is a lot more distant for me than it is for her, and we're talking a difference by miles.

So we've been talking about going to the U.S. in July when she's not teaching (winter break), but I've been saying I can't afford it (I can't). And I want to go (because I miss my family, too), but shit, it's just not easy to pull that cash out and go. I'm going to be cancelling my student loan payments soon (I qualify, and yes, it's that difficult at times), so that's where I'm at.

And then a good friend (who everyone here loves to hate) goes and gets engaged.

Well, now I gotta find a way to book two flights, because i can't justify going to a wedding and not visiting my family. How much of a jerk am I now?

I just sent an e-mail to the Lady telling her that I think the Universe is pissed at me for asking it to juggle so much shit. I just hope it doesn't drop the porcelain.

shit.

Again, I'm leaving this one to NA

Ah fuck. I think you might be SOL dude. Looks like these ladies hearts are as frozen as the land in which the dwell.

I got nothing, too. So if anyone wants to go on a guerrilla marketing campaign for me, I'd be game to root you on.

so shit just got heavier. so things are good in a lot of ways between us, but we have problems with the direction of each other's lives. I won't delve too much into that except to say that's background.

Now I want her to meet my family, and she wants to meet them, too. her thing is relationship-building. that's her in both a cultural and personal sense, so this is kind of important to her. it's important to me, too, but culturally family is a lot more distant for me than it is for her, and we're talking a difference by miles.

So we've been talking about going to the U.S. in July when she's not teaching (winter break), but I've been saying I can't afford it (I can't). And I want to go (because I miss my family, too), but shit, it's just not easy to pull that cash out and go. I'm going to be cancelling my student loan payments soon (I qualify, and yes, it's that difficult at times), so that's where I'm at.

And then a good friend (who everyone here loves to hate) goes and gets engaged.

Well, now I gotta find a way to book two flights, because i can't justify going to a wedding and not visiting my family. How much of a jerk am I now?

I just sent an e-mail to the Lady telling her that I think the Universe is pissed at me for asking it to juggle so much shit. I just hope it doesn't drop the porcelain.

shit.

Again, I'm leaving this one to NA

Ah fuck. I think you might be SOL dude. Looks like these ladies hearts are as frozen as the land in which the dwell.

I got nothing, too. So if anyone wants to go on a guerrilla marketing campaign for me, I'd be game to root you on.

Sounds like you got some time to think about it. So take your time, talk it over with the gal, and think about your options. I think over time, the decession will come. which won't make the process easier. But what will help, is getting out and hitting the rock, or what ever you got to do down there. Camp on the beach? Canoe up a river? Hike the swamp? Dang what do you have to do down there? DOesn't the west side of the country but up angainst some mountains?

so shit just got heavier. so things are good in a lot of ways between us, but we have problems with the direction of each other's lives. I won't delve too much into that except to say that's background.

Now I want her to meet my family, and she wants to meet them, too. her thing is relationship-building. that's her in both a cultural and personal sense, so this is kind of important to her. it's important to me, too, but culturally family is a lot more distant for me than it is for her, and we're talking a difference by miles.

So we've been talking about going to the U.S. in July when she's not teaching (winter break), but I've been saying I can't afford it (I can't). And I want to go (because I miss my family, too), but shit, it's just not easy to pull that cash out and go. I'm going to be cancelling my student loan payments soon (I qualify, and yes, it's that difficult at times), so that's where I'm at.

And then a good friend (who everyone here loves to hate) goes and gets engaged.

Well, now I gotta find a way to book two flights, because i can't justify going to a wedding and not visiting my family. How much of a jerk am I now?

I just sent an e-mail to the Lady telling her that I think the Universe is pissed at me for asking it to juggle so much shit. I just hope it doesn't drop the porcelain.

shit.

Again, I'm leaving this one to NA

Ah fuck. I think you might be SOL dude. Looks like these ladies hearts are as frozen as the land in which the dwell.

I got nothing, too. So if anyone wants to go on a guerrilla marketing campaign for me, I'd be game to root you on.

Sounds like you got some time to think about it. So take your time, talk it over with the gal, and think about your options. I think over time, the decession will come. which won't make the process easier. But what will help, is getting out and hitting the rock, or what ever you got to do down there. Camp on the beach? Canoe up a river? Hike the swamp? Dang what do you have to do down there? DOesn't the west side of the country but up angainst some mountains?

well, back and forth we go. now it looks like I might not be able to renew. not that I can't do it procedurally (I can), but more that I can't afford to do classes 15 hours per week instead of 6 per week. It's a huge difference in price for me.

Fuck - the sea winds keep changing, and new courses seem to be set every day.

so shit just got heavier. so things are good in a lot of ways between us, but we have problems with the direction of each other's lives. I won't delve too much into that except to say that's background.

Now I want her to meet my family, and she wants to meet them, too. her thing is relationship-building. that's her in both a cultural and personal sense, so this is kind of important to her. it's important to me, too, but culturally family is a lot more distant for me than it is for her, and we're talking a difference by miles.

So we've been talking about going to the U.S. in July when she's not teaching (winter break), but I've been saying I can't afford it (I can't). And I want to go (because I miss my family, too), but shit, it's just not easy to pull that cash out and go. I'm going to be cancelling my student loan payments soon (I qualify, and yes, it's that difficult at times), so that's where I'm at.

And then a good friend (who everyone here loves to hate) goes and gets engaged.

Well, now I gotta find a way to book two flights, because i can't justify going to a wedding and not visiting my family. How much of a jerk am I now?

I just sent an e-mail to the Lady telling her that I think the Universe is pissed at me for asking it to juggle so much shit. I just hope it doesn't drop the porcelain.

shit.

Again, I'm leaving this one to NA

Ah fuck. I think you might be SOL dude. Looks like these ladies hearts are as frozen as the land in which the dwell.