Tempered by Fire, bound by stardust {Est. 2014}

|13| Things I Learned From |13| Guys

These are in no particular order, except that the first is the legitimate first and the last is the legitimate last, everything in between is randomly ordered.

1.

I remember you
With blue eyes
And a thick southern accent
You were the first
I left a piece of me with you
I don’t date guys
With southern accents
Anymore
Do you still date girls
Who won’t hold your hand?

2.
I remember you
With blue eyes
And an orange hoodie
The camo hat
And bad attitude
I left a piece of me with you
The color orange
Always upsets me
Do you still date girls
Who can’t commit to you?

3.
I remember you
With blue eyes
You were the “Jew”
And I was “your Nazi”
Because we hated each other so much
That it felt like love
I left a piece of me with you
I don’t trust older guys
So easily
Anymore
Do you still tell lies
To everyone you meet?

4.
I remember you
With blue eyes
You showed up
Right on time
The cute conversations
The five hour drive
The hope we both had
I left a piece of me with you
I don’t trust kind words
Anymore
Are you still scared to fall in love?

5.
I remember you
With blue eyes
You were on a rebel streak
I was just arrested
You always wore the same red beanie
And red was my favorite color
I left a piece of me with you
I don’t date guys
Who ignore me for days at a time
Anymore
Do you still lead girls on
For six months?

6.
I remember you
With blue eyes
And a bad boy reputation
You were the first of many
You were five years of my life
I left a piece of me with you
I don’t believe in fairytales
Anymore
Do you still cheat on girls
Who won’t willingly sleep with you?

7.
I remember you
With blue eyes
And “Justin Bieber” hair
The sleepover
And the lipgloss on your cheeks
I left a piece of me with you
“crash and burn, but I still never learn”
Is forever etched in my memory
Do you still date girls
Who write you poems
To apologize?

8.
I remember you
With blue eyes
And a beautiful voice
The songs you sang to me
The hallways we walked
I left a piece of me with you
I don’t date “nice guys”
Anymore
Do you still date girls
Who only like the things
You wanted them to like?

9.
I remember you
With blue eyes
And a habit of saying “meow”
From the back of the classroom
The RAC dances
And the back and forth dating
I left a piece of me with you
I don’t talk to guys
Who have other girls on the side anymore
Do you still believe
That I won’t leave you for a million dollars?

10.
I remember you
With blue eyes
And the 12 hours
That I could tolerate you
With your shy words
And your phone calls
I left a piece of me with you
I don’t date guys
Who send me random nudes
Do you still date girls
Who tell you your body
Is for your eyes only?

11.
I remember you
With blue eyes
Mr. Dreamboat
The Eugene to my Rapunzel
The nerd that I admired
I was your first love
And your first heartbreak
I left a piece of me with you
I don’t date younger guys
Anymore
Do you still date suicidal flight risks who give you nightmares?

12.
I remember you
With blue eyes
Fish boy
Dish boy
My favorite of all
The places we went
The love we had
That was blown away
Like desert sand
I left a piece of me with you
I don’t trust anything
That makes me happy
Do you still date girls
Who are broken beyond repair?

13.

You
The only one without blue eyes
You shouldn’t be on this list
But in my heart
You belong here
Just as much, if not more,
Than 10 of the above mentioned
The authenticity of it all
The shakiness of the ground beneath us
You have a piece of me
That I don’t want back
I will never settle for less
Than what you’ve shown me
I deserve
Will you always be scared to let go of things that hurt you?