graduating from college

I FINALLY DID IT! I officially graduated from college! The past week I have spent non-stop studying for final exams, and I have been stressed out to the max. I took those exams on Monday, and I still did not feel much better after taking them. Out of all my classes this semester, there was one class I was worried about, and the final exam didn’t ease my worries that much.

The Ceremony

I had my graduation ceremony yesterday(Tuesday the 11th), and it was actually a nice ceremony. We luckily got to have it inside, because I couldn’t imagine having an outdoor ceremony with all the cold weather we are having. We actually had to delay the ceremony by an hour because we had ice on the roads yesterday morning. All that meant for me is that I got to sleep in an extra hour than I planned. Here are some pictures from yesterday…

These photos were taken by my amazing aunt Kay, and I really appreciate that she was able to be there along with my family.

Why was I so stressed?

It is actually pretty simple. My university doesn’t require our final grades to be put out until this Friday, and I had no idea really if I should even be graduating. It was kind of hard to enjoy everything fully. Yes, I still had fun, but there was that nagging feeling in my head that kept reminding me I wasn’t fully graduated yet.

However, yesterday evening turned that all around…

My family went bowling with my Dad’s coworkers for their Christmas party, and it was on our way home from there that the one class I was worried about posted the grades, and I found out that I indeed passed the class. So, I was able to finally breathe, and know that I did indeed graduate and will be receiving my degree that I have been working for the past few years.

I know that I haven’t posted on the blog the last two weeks, and I have been meaning too. Especially my big Black Friday haul, but I have been so focused on graduating that I didn’t get the chance. I will be posting the complete Black Friday Haul still, as I did finally receive all the packages I ordered online. The last one actually showed up on Monday so it took a long time for that one.

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I’m finally there. My last semester of college starts one week from yesterday. I’m excited because I am one step closer to graduating from college, but right now that is the only thing I feel excited about.

“Close to graduating from college”

Growing up I was under the impression that by the time I got to this point where I’m graduating from college, my life would be somewhat together. I’d be in a relationship. I would have a starter job that would lead to my career someday. I would also be moved into my own apartment. Instead, the idea of being in a relationship with someone is annoying, I’m unemployed, and I still live at home with my parents.

“Failing at everyday life”

I was always under the impression that getting close to graduating college would be signaling my life turning into something better, but I’m not really feeling that. I’m not really looking forward to graduating at all. I see these people leading successful lives around me, and I still feel like I’m failing at everyday life… It just sucks!

I hear so many people say “don’t worry about it” and “you still have so much time”, and I’m like that is so not helpful or reassuring. Yes, I know not everyone does things at the same speed, but that still doesn’t make me feel like I’m anywhere close to having my life together like I used to think it would be by the time I got to this point.

“I can’t turn back time”

As much as I wish I could turn back time and warn myself to prepare differently, I can’t. The only thing I can do is try to enjoy this last semester of college before adulthood really starts. I’m terrified out of my mind, but all I can do is try my best(no matter how cheesy that sounds).