Thursday, April 15, 2010

Have any of you read Stick Figure by Lori Gottlieb? I'm reading it right now and its pretty interesting. And thinspirational, too. Not like I need any more thinspiration after yesterday.

In my P.E. class, we don't really do anything but we're allowed to walk the track. I don't have any friends in that class but a friend of mine who skips seventh hour all the time was there with me yesterday and walked with me. I usually wear a jacket everyday, but yesterday it was like 100 degrees so I took it off to walk and he was like "Look at your gut! Aww!" and kept like poking my stomach. Then he lifted my shirt and grabbed it. Single most thinspiring thing to ever happen to me, I think.

So now I'm reading as many ana-related books as possible. My goal is still to be 98 lbs on the first day of school next year. The last day of school this year is May 26th. So I've got to keep up the diets, keep up the fasting, and stay motivated. Any suggestions are greatly appreciated!

I want to know how you all are doing! I hope everyone is staying strong and reaching their goals. Love you all, <3!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

i'm so done with eating. i tried to slowly ease into it, tried to be seemingly healthy for people's sake but im done with that. i'm done having panic attacks every time i eat a real meal. im done flipping a shit about being invited to dinner with friends. FUCK THAT.

my favorite band (pretty much my life support) sings: "do you know your enemy? do you know your enemy? ya gotta know the enemy." food is the enemy. im done with it.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

i've been restricting the past three days and i think i'm going to start fasting tomorrow.i have 98 (my goal weight) written on my wrist in sharpie and im going to rewrite it every day in order to remind me of my goal every time i go to put something in my mouth. its working so far.

i'm very careful about combining the ana world and the rest of the world, so:http://www.facebook.com/#!/profile.php?ref=profile&id=100000933844597feel free to add me. :)