Truth

I hate my body. Not just weight. I wish I could get plastic surgery and change how my face is. Ugly. I’ve been all my life. Now I have fatness to add to it. Need to eat better. Or just not eat at all. Having 2 kids and being home and not working has put weight on me. Blah. nothing i do helps. Diets, I can’t stuck to them. Bf doesn’t really help either. I’d like to 100 lbs. But that will never happen. Unless I can NOT eat. That’d be nice. But I know won’t happen. Last time I weighed myself was last week and it went over 200 I stepped off the scale. Talk about disgusting….and bf looking and liking picturesof women that are probably around that weight. I just sound jealous when it’s me that I’m not happy with. Wanna be alone. Don’t get that anymore ….