Hello and welcome to SF pirateships!
Don't feel pressured to let everything out all right away, just take your time until you feel comfortable. There's plenty of people here to share experiences with, and that are more than willing to give you plenty of support. I'm sorry to hear that you've been dealing with those sorts of things for so long, I really hope you haven't been going through it all alone, that's the worst.
Anyway, just browse around, post a few places if you like, and just take your time getting comfortable enough until you're ready to share more about yourself. Take care and welcome again.