Thursday, October 29, 2009

"What is giving? Simple as the answer to this question seems to be, it is actually full of ambiguities and complexities. The most widespread misunderstanding is that which assumes that giving is "giving up" something, being deprived of, sacrificing. The person whose character has not developed beyond the stage of the receptive, exploitative, or hoarding orientation, experiences the act of giving in this way. The marketing character is willing to give, but only in exchange for receiving; giving without receiving for him is being cheated. People whose main orientation is a non-productive one feel giving as an impoverishment. Most individuals of this type therefore refuse to give. Some make a virtue out of giving in the sense of a sacrifice. They feel that just because it is painful to give, one should give; the virtue of giving to them lies in the very act of acceptance of the sacrifice. For them, the norm that it is better to give than to receive means that it is better to suffer deprivation than to experience joy.
For the productive character, giving has entirely different meaning. Giving is the higest expression of potency. In the very act of giving, I experience my strength, my wealth, my power. The experience of heightened vitality and potency fills me with joy. I experience myself as overflowing, spending, alive, hence as joyous. Giving is more joyous than receiving, not because it is a deprivation, but because in the act of giving lies the expression of my aliveness."

On GROUPS:

"In a primitive society the group is small; it consists of those with whom one shares blood and soil. With the growing development of culture, the group enlarges; it becomes the citizenry of a polis, the citizenry of a large state, the members of a church. Even the poor Roman felt pride because he could say "civis romanus sum:,; Rome and the Empire were his family, his home, his world. Also in contemporary Western society the union with the group is the prevalent way of overcoming separateness. It is a union in which the individual self disapears to a large extent, and where the aim is to belong to the herd. If I am like everybody else, if I have no feelings or thoughts which make me different, if I conform in custom, dress, ideas, to the pattern of the group, I am saved; saved from the frightening experience of aloneness. The dictatorial systems use threats and terror to induce this conformity; the democratic countries, suggestion and propaganda. There is, indeed, one great difference between the two systems. In the democracies non-conformity is possible and, in fact, by no means entirely absent; in the totalitarian systems, only a few unusual heroes and martyrs can be expected to refuse obedience. But in spite of this difference the democratic societies show an overwhelming degree of conformity. The reason lies in the fact that there has to be an answer to the quest for union, and if there is no other or better way then the union of herd conformity becomes the predominant one. One can only understand the power of fear to be different, the fear to be only a few steps away from the herd, if one understands the depths of the need not to be separated. Sometimes this fear of non-conformity is rationalized as fear of practical dangers which could threaten the non-conformist. But actually, people want to conform to a much higher degree than they are forced to conform, at least in the Western democracies.
Most people are not even aware of their need to conform. They live under the illusion that they follow their own ideas and inclinations, that they are individuals, that they have arrived at their opinions as the result of their own thinking--and that it just happens that their ideas are the same as those of the majority. The consensus of all serves as a proof for the correctness of "their" ideas. Since there is still a need to feel some individuality, such need is satisfied with regard to minor differences; the initials on the handbag or the sweater, the name plate of the bank teller, the belonging to the Democratic as against the Republican part, to the Elks instead of to the Shriners become the expression of individual differences. The advertising slogan of "it is different" shows up this pathetic need for difference, when in reality there is hardly any left.

On "EQUALITY":

He goes on to describe our current situation in capitalistic society. He describes how man and woman are being brought to be equal through sameness, eliminating all differences. This is as opposed to being equal opposites. This sameness is the creation of automatons where on union can be made. "Women are equal because they are not different anymore. The proposition of Enlightenment philosophy, the soul has no sex, disappearing, and with it erotic love, which is based on this polarity. Men and women become the same, not equals as opposite poles. Contemporary society preaches the ideal of unindividualized equality becase it needs human atoms, each one the same, to make them function in a mass aggregation, smoothly, without friction; all obeying the same commands, yet everybody being convinced that he is following his own desires. Just as modern mass production requires the standardization of commodities, so the social process requires standardization of man, and this standardization is called "equality."

On UNITY:

"The unity achieved in productive work[creation, art] is not interpersonal; the unity acheived in orgiastic fusion[drugs, sex, visionary] is transitory; the unity acheived by conformity[union with groups] is only pseudo-unity. Hence, they are only partial answers to the problem of existence. The full answer lies in the achievement of interpersonal union, of fusion with another person, in love."

You can choose to seek outside yourself and find a (hopefully) equal to yourself of the opposite sex or you can go within and find union with God. You could also find a member of the opposite sex and also unite with God. I think most who seek union within find that union with a member of the opposite sex is too constraining. I would also think that most who find union with their equal opposite outside of themselves will find it tough to then go and find union within with God. The other means of finding unity described above I would say are more transitory ways of going about it.

Monday, October 26, 2009

The big question that forever seems to go unanswered in today’s world is, is there a purpose to life? You will hear people complain about how miserable life is, there is no meaning to it. They will say that there is no God and if there is, He is one sadistic asshole.

Why do I have to slave away at my 9-5 year after year to make my money to see it bled away by a bunch of crooked banksters they will ask? Why do I put all of my time and energy into raising my kids only to have them give me nothing but headaches in return? Why does all of my food and water have poisonous chemicals in it? Why are gas prices so high? Why do my taxes increase every year and yet I see nothing in return?

When can I just have my little paradise and relax? When is my reward for all of my hard work going to come they want to know? I just want to get away and have my little slice of happiness before I die.

I deserve it. Life isn’t fair.

You see this type of mindset takes all responsibility away from the person. We want happiness and wealth but we aren’t willing to take responsibility for it. If you’re going to take responsibility for your success, you also have to take responsibility for your failures. There are two sides to every story and without the complete picture being taken into account, wholeness can never be achieved. With responsibility comes power. But when you blame others you give them the power that is within you.

What I am here to say is that if you only take responsibility for yourself and all your actions, it seems one could become God of his own reality.

Now how does one go about practically attaining personal responsibility? For it is easier said than done.

This is done through the raising of one’s consciousness, or in other words, becoming aware of one’s Self. This takes a concerted, constant effort. One must put in the time and work. One must learn to know who he truly is and what he is here to do. One must listen to that inner voice. He must face his fears and look at the other side that has been shunned for all of his life. The light does not lie within the light. It lies within the dark, it lies with the dark chasms of one's soul that he dare not venture into. All of the things that we have repressed that we do not like about ourselves, all of the terrible experiences, must be brought from the dark into the light. Through doing this work one will notice that his energy level rises and he will begin to feel light and free. He will see himself becoming a different person.

We must reclaim our essence that we left behind long ago. Become like the carefree child we once were before the stain of the world engulfed us. This is who we truly are.

It is my opinion that the purpose of life is to return to the state of rest that we sprung from once we were born into this world. We must become the stillness that is the fulcrum of our being. Integrate both halves and become one. Merge the dual into the absolute. Become ONE with yourself and you become ONE with the entire universe.
I want to acknowledge and thank my teachers who have helped me to build up my mind and help me grow on my journey towards more balance with nature.

One of my main teachers has been Max Heindel. I had downloaded a lot of books with occult in the title sometime last year. As I started changing my life around reading djhives and watching Nemesis videos I started to read some of the occult books I downloaded. I remember reading Occult Principles of Health and Healing by Max Heindel and being left in awe. After that moment I had to know everything. Where djhives took more of an evil approach more to teach lessons and to see where people were at, Max Heidel was a mystical Christian. He was a mystic and a occultist. He was going deep into the spiritual worlds tieing it to the material world. He used logic while relating his experiences in the spiritual worlds that cannot be physically proven. He as did djhives related his teaching to nature. He showed the cycles that lay inherent within everything. He was a true teacher.

Manly P. Hall has been instrumental in my transformation. I don't even know how to describe him. I love listening to his lectures. He isn't as specific and detailed as Max Heindel but he just gives great general overviews of subjects with great quotes filled throughout. He understood how the world worked on all levels, a true illuminate. Vernon Howard has meant so much to me as well. His practical mystical teachings gave me great insight when I wasn't so sure of myself. He gave me practical mind exercises that I should practice in my daily work which were invaluable. Walter Russell has taken to even higher levels. He was probably the most illuminated person of the 20th century and possibly of the past 1000 years. He was a conduit for God and I can only hope one to completely comprehend the breadth of his teachings. Other teachers have been Aldous Huxley, Alan Watts, Terence McKenna, Robert Anton Wilson, PD Ouspensky, CG Jung, Erich Fromm, Thoreau, Emerson, Joseph Campbell, and Enoch Tan and many others on varying scales. All of these great people have helped me become who I am and they remain with me as grow my seed.