Tuesday, June 20, 2006

How do I cope ......

When everything I have set out to do, I have almost achieved it, without dropping out even when things were hard or when I needed encouragement from the people I loved the most but never got it. When I have all these ideas and aspiration to be successful in everything I do and want to do. When I know for sure I will be great in this world and all my dreams will come to past, but some where along the line, I allow myself to get carried away by your words all because I was seeking your attention, your - I am proud of you, your - thank you for being a good girl, your - I am glad you are mine.

How do I cope after you tell me I am nothing but a dissappointment, dad?

Ok, I am off to dance, I have decided to dance for atleast one hour a day, to drop a bra-size. I refuse to let you get to me...lol

Meanwhile, how do I cope when I have a big belly that has refused to be flat, not like I want a six-pack or anything oh, just a nice flat belly menh, that's all!

7 Comments:

tell "dad" to take a chill pill. maybe you should turn the tables around on him and tell him how you really feel? then he wont be so quick to pass judgement on being dissapointed.What are you there dancing to to drop a bra size? areyou selling breast? please tell me the price i know some people willing to buy.

for me it was coming to learn that if i kept on trying to please my dad, i would prob be miserable my entire life (even after he's gone) because i'll have to completely change my personality, my likes/dislikes and my dreams to fit his. so you cope by learning to love yourself, and i guess letting go of the need for his approval. it's hard. but it can be done. sometimes its good to confront him, so he changes, yet you can still have a good relationship with him.