Everything’s a blur I've been MIA she got sick then sudden spike in temp I carry her to car and carry her into ER and get me a gurney, you should have called 911, I repeat get me a gurney now, put her in the chair, get me a gurney now as I walk past him so I bypass the admissions person calmly and politely and I'm met with a gurney as I enter the back where only staff is to go I've been here way too many times, long night things get worse so much I am not gonna mention and everything’s borderline just ran home to get clothes and 2 hours real sleep all night on the floor next to her for past week?????? and all I can say is nurses really deserve more praise so accommodating they've been and concerned she's getting the best of care so many specialists and so many symptoms and so many reports waiting for results and it is so odd I can keep my heart at 55 while next to her throughout this despite not having access to my meds and I sit here home alone shaking without control because no one can see me for a time.

So much better after a burning soak the in tub for two hours and I'm headed back to watch over her.