Saturday, September 20, 2008

apologizing into the void

sometimes people take me off their facebook friends list and i couldn't careless. people paring down their lists to a manageable number, castingoff the casual acquaintances and others who fall into that "facebookfriends, but not real friends" category. totally acceptable andunderstandable, i've deleted a few myself.

but today i noticed a certain someone was no longer on my friends listand it was like a kick to the stomach. i thought we were okay. ithought we could go back to just being friends. it meant a lot to me; icared about him. i still do, he's a good man. and i think i hurt him. inever wanted that and he definitely didn't deserve it.

i wish i didn't have to lose him as a friend, but it seems i have nosay in it. i didn't want him out of my life, but he's gone. i criedwhen i realized this. i feel terrible that i caused it. i tried to dothe right thing, but i guess i'd left it too late.