27 December 2014

I have been facing this point of 'sleeping' and 'naps' within my process for quite some time, and while for a bit I was not napping or sleeping unnecessary, it seems I have fallen back into the pattern and see the consequence it can create in my own life in terms of the time I'm giving to sleeping, as well as what I am actually accepting and allowing within myself in such a pattern of naps.

And so I went to the Atlanteans for support. There is a two part recording on this specific topic, and so tonight's blog I will touch on the points mentioned within that interview, which of course, already shed some light/perspective on what is actually going on in 'wanting to sleep' and how I can begin to change myself, beginning with starting to understand myself within sleeping/napping.

The first point that came through in the interview that really made sense to me was in relation to how we experience the 'tiredness' point as being a statement we make within ourselves of "I am tired." First - we, without question accept this statement within ourselves and so usually follow along as the pattern plays out to then make a decision to sleep. Yet what if we for that moment, instead considered where we are physically tired? Often times when I make that decision to nap, or sleep during the day, it is due to this heavy experience in my eye lids, where it's as if there are weights on them forcing them to shut. It is quite limited in terms of that sensation of being tired to be that within only my eyes, and so what if I stopped in that moment and checked with the rest of my physical body? Here I can see that while there have been times when the physical body as a WHOLE requires rest or sleep, the major point of the 'problem' within my sleeping habit is when I'm strictly feeling that tiredness within only my eyes, and that's a cool reference mentioned as knowing it is a Mental Tiredness, not a physical tiredness.

Though - it is a mental tiredness manifesting within the physical as the consequence of participating within the mental reality (thoughts, feelings and emotions). The main points mentioned in the interview was when one participate too much in stress, fear and anxiety, this accumulates an energy wherein then the Physical body will 'force' the mind to slow down if you will, through manifesting the weight on the eyes, where it's the body suggesting the Mind or Self as the Mind to slow down it's participation. So here, the Body offering support, despite our lack of considerations for it as a Whole, as indicating we are too busy in our minds and not participating enough within the breath as/of Life. Something I can now bring with me as I start facing this point for myself; the awareness/understanding that the physical tiredness I feel within my eyes when I 'want to sleep' is due to a consequence of my participation within stress, fear and anxiety. Which brings me to the next point:

When that moment of consequence manifests within my eyes, here I have never really considered to stop and look and take responsibility for what I have CREATED. As that moment of heavy eyes and the desire to then sleep indicate a consequence created through my participation within stress, fear and anxiety, it would be to then investigate Myself in terms of where/how/why/when am I participating within such points of stress, fear, and anxiety. That is where I can take responsibility for myself, what I accept and allow within me, and so what I create, instead of just then going to sleep and allowing a pattern to develop wherein I think about and worry about stress, fear and anxiety and then manifest the heavy/sleeping experience in the eyes, then sleep and then repeat. Rather here I can stop and sort out this point through investigating/revealing/understanding it's origins as the moments I accept and allow myself to participate within fear, stress, and anxiety. And so revealing the power within me to actually change this habit rather than allowing it to continue to play out and create further consequences in my life that can/will/have extended to beyond just my physical body, life for instance the time I use to sleep rather than doing something that is more supportive/productive for me in my life and self-development.

The next point within this that I found to be of much support was the consideration of the Physical Body and how it functions. Consider this for a moment: What if you heart decided "it's too tired to take the next beat?" Or if your blood started saying "I don't want to move myself throughout the body, I'd rather just rest and sit here and not move myself" Hello - we would be dead. And so now consider standing in the shoes of your physical body and having the same expression of consistency, discipline and self-movement? This I can see I am cutting myself off from due to allowing this personality develop that exists within the statement of "I am too tired, I don't feel like it, I want to sleep". So again, the Physical body being the prime example of living to it's utmost potential, doing what is necessary to be done, and always existing within the consideration of what is best for all because again imagine one organ in your body going into the statement of "I don't want to do anything today" and refuses to function within it's utmost potential? What consequence would this have on the rest of your organs, your body as a whole, and you as the ability to Live? So really - I can see how just how much I have separated myself from my physical body as the living example of expressing to my full potential, as being what is best for all(me) and how wow - within this, truly that my body is a temple standing as the greatest teacher I have ever known and I have not given one ounce of consideration and care to it.

So a tough lesson in a way in terms of facing what I've accepted and allowed within me as the statement of "I want to rest/I am tired." How this is in fact a manipulation of myself (which was also mentioned in the interview) wherein I use this tiredness-manifested consequence to not take responsibility for myself as well as a resistance to not step up to becoming Equal to and One with my Physical Body as the potential it has to Express, Live, and Do what is Best for All.

This pattern of sleeping/tiredness/napping has gone on for much too long and it's time for me to take responsibility for myself as the creator. So some points here that were eye-opening in the recording I listened to tonight regarding the responsibility I have as Who I am within Sleeping and starting the process of change to applying Sleep as a Practical Support rather than a Mental Desire.

22 December 2014

To bring a close to the series of blogs I've been writing - tonight I will write about the potential of self within not giving in to the 'giving up' experience, and a bit about the point of regret.Recently I was asked to Host a Live Google Hangout within the Desteni Community. While there were resistances and fears coming up within me, I knew this was something that would be of support for me within my own process, meaning - a point for me to expand, to face myself as my fears, and to practice the act of "public speaking", or in general, speaking on camera. So in general, and practically speaking, it was something I saw as an opportunity and knew I would go for it. I mean really, it was like silly for me not to, as there was nothing physically real suggestion that I couldn't or shouldn't, despite the energetic experience that said 'Noooooo!'So while I was preparing myself and all the other elements related to the hangout, an interesting point emerged, or rather revealed itself the day before we were to go Live. I thought, "how can I get out of this?" And there was a real search for a 'back door' if you will, like an escape route I could take to get myself out of doing the hangout, because there were so many fears and resistances and nerves coming up that instead of walking THROUGH this experience, I wanted to just run away, and give up. Though, gratefully, I knew walking through the fear and just doing the hangout was my only option, or the only direction I gave myself because from my perspective, to not do it would be to allow the mind to influence/direct me as the experience of energy as the fear and nervousness, and to me that is not valid. In fact, that is the point/reason/purpose I walk the process I do with Desteni - to stop and no longer allow my mind as fear to influence me as I see it only keeps me contained within the same state of existence wherein I keep myself in my safe little bubble-of-mind and do not go beyond that because to do so would be to face Myself as who I've created myself to be (as the fears and so the energetic experience), and to realize that they are not REAL, and that I can exist/live/express/enjoy life without them. And, this process is about self-development, self-improvement, becoming directive principle of/as ME, of taking responsibility of who I am in each moment as what I accept and allow of/as myself, and so letting go of the Mind-Me and instead working with myself as a physical being and so my physical expression. It's about actual Growth, because when we step outside of our mind-box, we expand, we grow, we open ourselves to the more-ness that is HERE as this physical reality, as our physical bodies, of that which is REAL and so of that which is of LIFE.So while that slight search for any part of me that would be willing to Give Up came up inside of myself, I knew I wouldn't give in because I have given myself a commitment to transform myself in this Life and what better way to do that then to do that which one is not comfortable with, or resistant toward, or fearful of; to learn HOW to direct oneself in a moment despite what the back chats in the mind and energy-experience suggests.So I did it, and I was grateful AND found that (of course) the fears and nerves were simply existent because I was doing something I was not familiar with, and like anything new you are attempting, there is uncertainty or some kind of 'unknowing-ness' because obviously you have never done it before - yet until you DO go for it, you do not know whether your fears/ideas are valid or not. Once I did the hangout, of course my fears proved not to be valid, as they were no longer 'here' within me, and what I found was a real enjoyment in the whole process.So what can we learn from this? If I would have allowed the fears and the idea that maybe, possibly I can just give up - I would have never pushed myself beyond my own limitation. I would have never seen who I am in such a moment and what I am actually capable of in terms of directing myself in the moment of Fear. I would have never seen perhaps some strengths that I can continue to expand, or even weaknesses that I can now become aware of/better understand and work with in strengthening. The point is that when we allow ourselves to give up the second we have second thoughts, we allow ourselves to miss out on moments that are opportunities for ourselves in a life of self-development/transformation.And this is where the regret comes in.I have come to within my process become a bit of a 'Yes Man' - where when anything is asked of me, or something opens up to me for me to 'try' and 'go for', I have more than not said Yes - simply because of the nature of this process as being willing to 'work with what is here' and to 'dare myself' to go beyond what I've accepted of myself in terms of what I see I am able to do. And what I can see within this, and what I am grateful toward myself for within it is this point of I know I will never regret anything in my life. Why? Because I've allowed myself to embrace those uncomfortable, fearful moments that, if I were to give in when I've "wanted" to Give up, I would have eventually regretted it because deep down, we all see the reasons for why we do what we do, or why we don't do what we do; that is self honesty, and we see, in self honesty, the reasons why we 'make up our minds' the way that we do. And so for me, I KNEW that if I did not take on the challenge (and change) of, like in this instance, the Google hangouts, I would have regretted it. I would have regretted not gifting myself with the opportunity to face my fears and walk through them; Regret is when we Give Up on Ourselves instead of finding solutions, or giving ourselves a chance. And this is simply not something I can accept of myself.It's a process - and for me, this is one point I've seen I've been able to give to myself, and see I am still willing to give to myself as a point of support in my own Process of Perfection; wherein I allow myself to go for those moments that I fear, that I absolutely DO NOT want to do for no other reason then It's 'outside of my comfort zone', or there are fears suggesting that I should quickly RUN the other direction. Yet, I see, realize and understand there is only one way to go, and that is within a self-directive route wherein I decide who I am and no longer allow the self-imposed self-beliefs, and self-generated experiences that say "I can't do this" get in the way. I am here to change myself and I have come to realize that Change exists where we make the decision to Move ourselves into a space/place/situation/experience that we never allowed of ourselves to before.Lesson for today (and from this blog series): Embrace the Challenge as the Change Existent when we move beyond our comfort zone(The Mind as the ideas of ourselves) and what we think we are willing and actually able to do. Open yourself up to what is HERE as the opportunities that present itself in each and every breath.I suggest to invest in the Atlantean Series on Giving Up that has been my point of support throughout the past few blogs, as I only shared was was relevant to me/my process from the series; who knows what gems of support you may find in the series. And to investigate for yourself where you too can Prevent Regret in your life.

12 December 2014

Continuing on with the fourth recording of the series about the point of Giving Up I've been listening to by the Atlantean's, it's all about the practical support and assistance we can give to ourselves to no longer simply play out or act out the pattern of giving up, and instead rather direct ourselves through it, and in that, actually expand ourselves as who we are in relation to that particular thing and see or rather LIVE the potential within us.For me the most supportive point was to realize how that giving up really is simply an emotional reaction, and so like any emotional reaction I face, the corrective application to support myself within such a moment of facing it is to stop and breathe, and in that, stand up within/as my physical body - where instead of completely allowing the mind as the emotional reaction to take over, to instead breathe within/as my body, ground myself in the moment HERE and so my physical environment and to stabilize any reactions that may be coming up. Because one thing I've learned throughout this process is that rational, logical, direct, REAL, common sensical reasoning or assessing/seeing does not exist when one is reacting within emotions and feelings - it's strictly the emotion and feeling energy that we become consumed by and so limited within as we validate that this experience is real and so cannot see anything beyond that, let alone the ACTUAL reality of a situation/moment or even ourselves.So for example - say you are asked to do something that you are not comfortable with or don't have much experience with, such as public speaking. And while you see that doing it would support you in developing yourself as a being and the skills you have, and basically expand you within what you are able to do - you instead react within fear; fear of how others will think of you, self-judgments that you're not good enough, imaginations of worst-case scenarios, and within this fear you sink into yourself thinking there is NO WAY you could do this, because the fear as energy as emotion is charged up to the point where you feel paralyzed and absolutely convinced that you simply cannot do it, nope - nuh uh, no way man, done deal.Though - what if in such a moment, you were to instead stop and breathe. Meaning - you stop the worst-case scenarios from playing out in your mind, you stop the self-judgment that says there is someone else who would do it better than you, and you let go of caring how others might see you and instead you breathe in and breathe out and bring yourself back to your physical body; you move out of the Mind and into your body that is grounded and stable HERE in this physical reality.Imagine that. You stop the energy reaction of fear, you stop the images in your mind, you stop the voices in your head and you are simply here. And you see that initial common sense that it's not something you are familiar with yet you see it would support you in expanding your skills and expression and while it may be a challenge, you see indeed this is something that will support you in life and there is no valid reason or excuse that suggests otherwise.And look at that - the point of giving up stemming from the fear of 'what could happen' or 'what will happen' and all the negative energy surrounding the initial reaction diminishes and you are now in a position to stop the pattern of giving up before you start - or of giving up at the moment where it matters the most for you to stop, step up and direct yourself within who you are and what you do, meaning where the mind and the fear and the energy no longer decides for you.What one can then do from here is to list or write out ALL the points that came up within yourself/your mind that suggest this would be too much of a challenge and that perhaps it's not something you want to do or to continue with - to physically put it out onto paper and look at it with real eyes. From where, point by point you can see what is a real problem or concern and the possible solutions, so that you are no longer trusting the first thought that comes to mind that says you shouldn't do something, and instead see what it is that you are THINKING you shouldn't do, why/what's behind it, and if it's something you can actually direct.Another example here - say you think you don't speak well enough to do public speaking - so then you practice speaking in front of someone you trust. Or you think you don't know enough about the topic material, well if you were asked to speak then you must know enough, and if you still don't feel you do, then do your homework and prepare yourself. What i'm saying here is that there are always solutions to our apparent problems that we come up with in our minds; that if we were to stop and take a moment to breathe and look within ourselves, without the emotional energy having any influence on what we are looking at, then we will see how much we limit ourselves within what we do and that we can indeed direct ourselves to expand in our abilities and thus live our utmost potential. The point would simply be to work with ourselves in walking through that which exists in our minds that keep us from going beyond what we are comfortable with; to indeed embrace the challenge.So yes, it's basically a matter of acknowledging that perhaps you may not be experienced or as familiar with something you are suppose to do or asked to do, such as public speaking - though that does not mean that you should not do it. Instead it can be a point of expansion support - where you can see who you really are in relation to public speaking; get to know who you are as your mind as all the things that come up as the 'obstacle' that prevents you from moving forward and what it is about you that you will have to face/change/direct/walk through to get yourself through the point, rather than giving up.If you want to learn more specifically about how to apply such corrections in your life, first you can invest in the self-perfecting material found on EQAFE, as well as learn to tools through a free online course, DIP Lite, specifically designed for those ready to develop and expand themselves as a being, to live what is actually possible for each in this life and ready to let go of the self-inflicted patterns that keep us in the same space and mind-set instead of walking a rewarding life through the challenges of changing our nature.

11 December 2014

In continuing with the series of recordings I've been listening to, as well as the blogs I've shared in relation to what I've realized and applied for myself when facing the experience of 'giving up' - the third recording from the Atlantean's proved to be yet again supportive.

The point I would like to discuss here in relation to this 3rd recording in the series is the correction, or rather expansive point they made in relation to the title of the series, "Giving Up" - to "Giving up on Yourself." Because that is essentially what we are doing when we give up on something we are doing, or learning, or attempting to implement in our life, or to change; when we want to give up, we are not giving up on that particular 'thing' - we are in fact giving up on ourselves based on an idea that "it's not working" or "I can't do this" or "It's not worth it."

So while we might like to think we are giving up DUE to something outside of ourselves 'not working' - the truth is, it's OURSELVES we are giving up on, it's ME that thinks and believe "I can't do it", and then easily project the 'problem' to be on something outside of ourselves. Yet consider this - have we ever attempted to change ourselves IN RELATION to what we are doing, so that we no longer give validity to the experience we have that is conjured within our minds as our thoughts, feelings and emotions and instead look at things practically, realistically, and with common sense?

This point of giving up had become a habit in my life wherein I would allow myself to only go so far before I would 'throw in the towel' and turn my complete attention and direction around. I use to feel shitty about myself for such a pattern I observed to emerge throughout my life, yet through walking the principles of Desteni and the tools as a point of self-support to in fact change myself, I am understanding more the nature of 'giving up' and what is behind the facade of thoughts that suggest it doesn't really matter to continue, or that it's more than me and I should just quit, or even the seemingly innocent justifications as to why it doesn't matter to keep at it (whatever that 'it' may be).

And the nature of Giving up, while it may seem to be so concrete and justified, is only ever an act of giving up on OURSELVES. And this is exactly what we've done in accepting and allowing our Mind to take the wheel of our life. When we accept and allow our thoughts, imaginations, desires, fears, resentments, guilt, hate, self-interest - emotions and feelings as energies determine who we are and what we do, we have given up on ourselves, ourselves as a being, as a self-aware body/presence that is Here and equal to and one with All life, that exists within a point of pure potential. We have moved so far from our selves as even the physical body, and this physical earth (as a body) due to this exact point of giving up - we give up our right to life as the living potential that exists within each because somehow we have come to accept ourselves to be only our Minds; driven by positive and negative energies. More simply put - we gave up our breath of life, as the awareness and self-directive principle HERE in every moment for the pictures, images and flashy colors of our mind. We (humanity and what we have created on Earth as 'life') have become the very manifestation of giving up on ourselves, and so each other.

To end this blog, I followed this writing up with a word in which emerged that seemed to be what I was living out in relation to 'giving up'. That was the word Challenge and how every time that word came up within me, the door to give up opened and I would always take that route.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish I could quit an action/responsibility/job/task at hand as a point of thinking I will be no good at it anyway, instead of practically, physically walking the point/testing it out myself and thus see for real if it will work out or not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always quit/give up as the mere thought of something being challenging, instead of seeing the point as an opportunity to change

CHALLENGING

Change is in the challenge, as daring myself to expand and explore what I am actually, practically capable of.

When and as I see myself wanting to give up/quit whenever I perceive something to be challenging, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that the challenge is in relation to who I've accepted and allowed myself to be and if I take on/walk through/embrace the challenge, I am changing me as expanding myself as what I am potentially capable of and thus no more accepting and allowing myself to "remain the same" and rather move past that which keeps me there, which I also see, realize, and understand is simple my thoughts, feelings, and emotions, fears, ideas, beliefs, future projections and imaginations existing within myself/my mind.

I commit myself to exist in physical space and time as actually, practically doing/apply myself with that which I define as challenging to see who and what I am really and of and so...

I commit myself to embrace challenges in my life as the opportunity to change as I see there is CHANGE in the CHAlleNGE