After all Ive been through, I still have to deal with sickening creepoz

interesting; some of them think Im a worthless drifter!

Im been treated like garbage by these people.

The profile of self I reflect to the world is false.

If you talk like a psycho, act like as drifter, dress like a bum! no one sees the real you! and thats the point!

Im not always looking or acting like a bum! Im still the hardened addict at times. No one knows anything else or could appreciate anything else!

Never give what is valuable to pigs n swim, lest they trample you under there feet and turn and tear you into pieces. Stay far away from them or they will consume you and kill you in that order; murderers do such things. Those with contempt who think they are Gods are not worth my time.

Sick people;

I am a Sadomasochist; philosophically speaking!

I like pain that kills!

I find controlling sociopaths make the best friends.

I have 2 people in me! one is the adult that does not want to be hurt, and one is the small child that wants to be beaten down and controlled.

I am getting better,

I have to remember,

I have to learn to forgive

"I forgive everyone and prey they have everything I could ever want in my life" 20 times!

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Im not sure what to do when I freeze from terror!

What happened to me was murder.

My life was destroyed and I need never forget that.

Give permission of those in authority to use you as an outsider and they will!