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Saturday, June 13, 2009

Time

Since getting married, I have noticed an evolution of sorts in the way my life has changed in respect to time. Basically, it's gone. I am uncertain as to how this happened, seeing as The Boy and I dated so long and have carried our compadres along the way.

Weekends have always been precious to me since becoming a 9-5 gal (major tangent, that song is so inaccurate, it's more like 9-6 with a lunch, and that's if you're lucky. And that's a blog waiting to happen on its own). Inevitably I have bills to pay, laundry, shopping, family or friend commitments, etc. None of these things am I complaining about. Quite contrary-I enjoy putting things in order after a hectic week and sharing in celebrations with loved ones. They just seemed to increase immediately after marriage and I am baffled as to why. When I lived at home, I still had responsibilities, bills to pay, laundry, cleaning, not as much grocery shopping, but I certainly made up for that with other obligations. I am sure I am destined to lose more as children enter the picture as well. Perhaps that is what it is about though, sacrifice. Sacrifice of time for the ones you love. We are given it as children and young adults, and the baton has been passed. Sacrifice is certainly one of the most selfless acts anyone can do, and if it means my time to better enrich the life of someone else, well I'll step up to that plate.

My sister is graduating from high school next week and it's one of those moments where one has to take a step back and just exhale. She is almost 18 years old and starting out the next chapter of her life, as I have done with my own. I enjoyed the years following my graduation but I certainly had wish I had done things different-perhaps gone away to school, traveled more, lived on my own, a variety of things. However, I believe the choices I made shaped the way I operate today and I am content with that. I can still travel, I suppose I could go away to school for an advanced degree if I wanted to, and certainly have moved out with a fairly good roommate.

I hope that my sister will take advantage of this time of her life because it will fly by. She is on the cusp of transitions, which can be scary but an adventure as well.

Sometimes that sand just falls through my finger tips and I want to make sure I can take advantage of each moment that passes me by.

This post was certainly all over the place, but it has been swirling in my head for weeks and was about time I put it in my virtual pensieve.