Why We Sweat The Small Stuff In Our Marriage

My least favorite part about being married is apologizing all the time. It’s the worst. I’ll say something ugly or harsh, I’ll do something selfish, I’ll act withdrawn and cold. And then I’ll move on and God will catch my breath and tell me firmly, you need to say you’re sorry for that. Without a spoken word, I’ll throw an internal temper tantrum that could rival any toddler in Toys R Us. But he doesn’t understand! He doesn’t know how hard this is for me! This isn’t FAIR!

And sometimes it takes a slamming-the-cabinets kitchen cleanup or a long shower or 17 unnecessary chores before I squash my swollen pride and apologize to my husband. But I do it.

When Riley and I were in premarital counseling, we spent hours and hours talking about conflict and conflict resolution. How conflict is normal, and healthy conflict is a good thing, and apologies should be made sincerely and quickly and often. Having grown up in a family where there were very few apologies (save the forced gritted teeth “I’m sorry I hit you” to my siblings), I literally cringed when apologizing was brought up. It hadn’t been modeled to me and I hadn’t practiced it. Our premarital counselors noticed my physical reaction immediately. “Is this really uncomfortable for you?” they asked.

It felt so foreign apologizing for all the little things. I’m sorry I wasn’t kind when I asked you to take out the trash. I apologize for being short with you on the phone earlier. I’m sorry that I didn’t make your lunch when I said that I would. If I did this–if I said I was sorry for every little thing–wouldn’t I be apologizing constantly?

Yes.

Riley and I apologize to one another all the time. For all kinds of things. It’s like a part of our daily routine. The worst part of our daily routine. Swallowing pride and what’s fair and laying down my need to be right so that my marriage can be right is the worst, hardest part of my day everyday. But we’re doing it. (He’s much better at it than I am.)

We’re apologizing all the time everyday because it’s worth it to sweat the small stuff in our marriage.

Because we’re only human, and we’re hot messes, and we do the wrong things and speak ugly words all the time. And what was just an eye roll, what was just a quip, what was just a little outburst will turn into a massive relational mess over time. We’ve decided to do the hard, soul-refining work of apologizing often. We keep short accounts on each other. We often ask “how do you think we’re doing?”

I used to be a simmerer. I’d get offended, annoyed, enraged, and I’d let it simmer because I didn’t have the courage to bring it up. (News flash: this does not work!) Now, I have to give words to my issues with a heart of resolution. And this is hard too because it’s like choosing to open up messy cans of worms over and over and over again. It’s much easier to let things build, build, build and then explode completely on your spouse in an all-out knock-down fight.

But it’s worth it. It matters that we sweat the small stuff. I don’t constantly question whether my husband is upset with me. I don’t sit around feeling sorry for myself all the time. I don’t feel ashamed and angry with myself for sinning against Riley.

I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I’ll say it again and again. And I don’t know if it’ll ever get easier to voice, but I know I’m being refined by my Jesus, strengthening my marriage, and laying a solid foundation down for our future family. So all this “don’t sweat the small stuff” mess? Yeah, I don’t subscribe to that at all.

// Do you sweat the small stuff in your marriage? If you’re not married, do you sweat the small stuff in relationships?

I love your marriage-related posts. I’m a couple of years older than you and also newly wed.

I wanted to take this opportunity also to let you know how much I’ve enjoyed your blog over the years. I discovered your blog a couple of years ago when I saw a pin on Pinterest about “5 things to do every Sunday to prepare for the week” or something like that. Your blog was so relevant to me that I actually went back and read your posts oldest to newest and have been a follower ever since!

I was so excited when you shared the news that you’d be blogging everyday, Monday through Friday. You have some really great posts! If you don’t mind me asking, have you settled on who exactly your blog is aimed at? Obviously you can’t please everyone, nor should you try, but some weeks, your blog is SO relevant to me (28 years old, newly wed Christian lady), and some weeks, it seems like your blog is for people in college or just out of college.

I know your readers (including me) will support you no matter what you write about, but it would cut down on some confusion (at least for me 🙂 ) if you could share a statement about who your blog is for and what it’s about.

Anyway, I hope you don’t take any of this negatively! It’s totally meant as positive support as I know that you want blogging to be your career and I’m sure you want constructive feedback from readers. 🙂

I don’t have a super-focused target demographic. Google tells me that most of my readers are women aged 18-34, which makes sense, since I fall in that range, too. I’m still figuring out this whole blogging-as-a-business thing, so I honestly don’t know who my blog is for. Whoever likes to read it, I guess? 😉 I wish I had a more polished response, but I’m not there yet.

I write about what inspires me, and sometimes I like to share more “advice-type” posts geared towards college-aged women, but that’s only every once in a while. As I continue, I’m sure I’ll become more focused. For now, thanks for sticking around even if you’re a little confused! 🙂 Hugs!!

I love this!! We sweat the small stuff, too – rather than let things get swept under the rug for another day. It’s hard but so sanctifying! I’ll be sharing this in my blog’s newsletter this week (http://eepurl.com/bBmigj) !! 🙂

I remember reading this post back when it was first published, but needed to hear it again this week. I can’t forget to keep sweating the small stuff. I agree, saying “I’m sorry” is so hard, but so worth it and so necessary. As well as communicating when something is bothering you. Sometimes it’s a constant communication that can really help in a relationship.

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