Sometimes I am asleep and suddenly my mind becomes active and I wake up. And then I can not go back to sleep. This is not for a particular dream, it can be anything.
This situation stays for a day or two. These thoughts occupy my mind in whatever I am doing.
I have issues with my thinking pattern. I am always fantasizing about sex, being rich and gerring rid of criminals. I am studying and suddenly I start thinking about any of these things. I am trying to stop my mind from thinking this way, but these thoughts keep coming to mind. when I am relaxed, I am most vulnerabole to these thoughts.
What can be the problem with me ? When this episode takes place, I am scared that I will go crazy.
I talked to psychiatrist, he says this is OCD and has prescribed me medication. I am afraid that I will be addicted to this medication and thats why I am not taking it regularly. This problem does not happen all the time. Today I am going through this episode and it has stayed for 3 nights now. On Dec 25, I woke up in the night T 3:30 am, on Dec 26, I stayed up whole night, on Dec 27 , I slept well and today I am not sure how will it go.

The thoughts that creep in my mind are completely unrelated to what I do in regular life.