Sunday, 11 May 2014

Catching up on life

Since we got back from holiday, I have found it really hard to get back into the swing of blogging. Yes, I've had posts going up but I feel like my heart isn't in it and somedays, I haven't put any posts up at all. Some days, I have a list as long as my arm of posts I need/want to do but I have no oomph to do it. I think it is down to stress, stress makes me exhausted and when Sienna naps, all I want to do is sit and relax with coffee and chocolate, not blog.

Don't get me wrong, I still love blogging and reading blogs, but sometimes I feel like I need a step back, time to be a 'normal' stay at home mum. Whilst blogging and working from home has it's perks, I do find it incredibly stressful and hard to balance everything. I get to that point where it all becomes to much and something has to give.

So for the past few weeks, before it gets to that point, I have tried to strike some kind of balance. I have stop panicking if I don't have a post go up one day, if I have 10 things to review or if I miss a sponsored post opportunity. I can waste hours sending emails and googling media agencies in London when I should be spending those hours with Sienna. All those things can wait, but what can't wait is Sienna. Sometimes I do feel like a bad mum; even though I am at home with her all day, somedays we rarely have 'quality' time together because I am up to my eyeballs in work and washing. We rarely go out of the house and I have found Sienna is getting bored and resorts to biting or having tantrums out of frustration.

This week, Sienna and I have met up with 5 of my friends, all of whom have babies/kids as well (apart from one but she is currently 19 weeks with twins so will be joining the mummy hood crew soon!). It has been lovely and just how I imagined being a SAHM would be. Sienna has had a whale of a time interacting with other babies/children as well as playing with different toys, she loves it. She has been so well behaved this week too which I think proves her tantrums are mainly out of boredom at home. Bad mum points to me for taking so long to realise!

I'm definitely not giving up blogging, I just hope to start enjoying it more rather than feeling like it is a chore I have to do. Until then, I am enjoying catching up on life and spending time with my little family.