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Our Quest to change our lives began in Feb. 2010 and we lost 224 lbs. We slowly gained a lot of that weight back and we're now on another journey for weight loss and better health using Bright Line Eating. This is the story of our continuing Journey. .

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Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Week 56 - Confessions of an irresponsible mother!!

Yesterday was our first full day without Brent here. So, according to our pre-arranged plans, we "skyped" our family scripture study with him after dinner. Okay, this was cool... except as one person was reading - everyone else was making faces through the camera and being completely irreverent... or I should say - Me and Brent were were doing this. What kind of example were we setting in showing reverence for the "Holy Writ"? We are bad! Bad, Bad Bad!!

But if that isn't shocking enough... Last night as the kids were going to bed, I was feeling antsy. This is the time I usually hang out or do something with my man. I hadn't even left my house yesterday. I thought about going to the gym and asked my oldest son to go with me (he has a membership), but he declined. So, I ended up taking my daughter and we went shopping at Wal-mart (which was the only store open that late). We left at like 11:30pm and got home just before 2:00 AM... ON A SCHOOL NIGHT!

((((( Pausing for gasps of horror to subside)))))

What kind of mother takes her almost-straight-A child and keeps her up until ALL HOURS goofing off in a store that is completely deserted except for night stalkers... STALKERS! (see how bad that is)... This is the kind of mother that people go "tsk tsk..." whilst they shake their heads in disapproval! This was me!! Oh where is my sense of respect for a good nights sleep and teaching my children self-discipline?

But dang, we had fun!!

Yes, we feel pretty cool in those ICarly and Tinkerbell sunglasses!

We loaded up a cart FULL of clothes to try on, only to find out the the changing room was closed for the night (it was 12:30 am at the time). So we pulled our pathetic, sad, little faces while we looked at our cart full of clothes and they let us in to try on anyway. We tried on like 20 articles of clothes each and then perused the store for other treasures. I got a couple Blu-ray movies to surprise my son (Mega Mind and Despicable Me). I totally spent money we didn't have. I was so irresponsible!!

But at least I didn't binge or eat off plan!!!

Speaking of Plans... BOTH Brent and I STAYED the same weight - no gains or losses from the last week. So now.... GAME ON. I've got to get my last 5 pounds off SOON so I can enter that contest... Oh, and because I just want to reach goal.... BUT I REALLLY want to enter that Medifast "Happy Afters" contest!

So, today is a new day. Today I will be responsible. Today I will NOT let my kids or myself get away with murder anymore. I am the adult! (I will be repeating this to myself all day). LIFE IS GOOD!!!

It's hard being an adult all the time especially when your a scared child with Brent gone. You are going to have lots of days it'll be hard but you'll get it. Your a good mama and besides what better way to spend the first night alone then with your daughter spending money. Memories are much more important then a good nights sleep. Take care Margene. God Bless!!

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About Me

My name is Margene and I'm 50 years old. I married my best friend 30 years ago and together we've created 4 delightful kiddos. Thus, I am Mom to the Fourth Power! We began a journey to lose weight in 2010 and together we lost 245 pounds! However, after a few years we slowly put a lot of that weight back on. So we're on a quest with Bright Line Eating to lose it again and keep it off for good. Life is a new adventure!