Hells yeah. Walking distance to uni as well. Can't move in until the 23rd but whatevs.

Hahaha weren't you talking about the fire alarm last night on here before it had happened!? Probably shouldn't laugh at that. Sorry. How did you handle it? Were there many people in? Was there an actual fire?

Yeah I think someone joked about it going off and THEN IT DID, hah. Just ushered everyone out (if you're a student reading this and regularly use the library PLEASE if there's a fire alarm actually leave the building instead of ignoring the nice librarian who could be trying to save your life). Turns out it was a smoke machine a band was using :/ (everything was fine in the end)

Little bit hungover but it's OK really. Got sloshed as per with Father in law last night and had a very animated chat about art which none of us had any credentials for, great stuff.

Gonna get a sausage roll from the grease van in a bit and spend the rest of the day praying for good weather so best buddy and I can hit the golf course tomorrow and test out my new drivers. Massively busy but good week at work, but I know that this afternoon is gonna draaaaaaaaaaaaag.

That doesn't sound so good. *weak hug*
I ahve no diea what works for you, but whenevr I feel like this I makke myself work (which is probably the wrong thing) but whatever, I do need to keep busy., If I wallow I end up circling the drian. can you not wallow please? even if you just clear out a cupboard or read a book, or go and pay a bill- try to do something today to focus your mind on practical and mundane. (or wallow in bed if that works for you- I'm well aware my method won't work for everyone, and it's just a suggestion).
whatever you do, feel better soon x

You haven't. It might feel like thatv just now, but I can promise you, that is through your individual eyes at this exact point in time. a differnt perspective and/por a different time and the view will be quite different. cling on to the thought that everything flows (in fact put on some teenage fanclub NOW.)

Doing something other than nothing should get your mind moving. you probably feel that your assessment of your situation is concrete and to try and see it from another point of view is pointless/lying to yourself/whatever (believe me, I've been there) BUT it's never as bad as you think. Life isn't so black and white for things to be the way you're describing, I promise. You'll get through and when you do, you'll have learned something.

This week has been a bit like a kick in balls. My contract is ending at a place I like so have had a lot of time wasted by recruiters on dead ends trying to find something new. Seems like a freelance client is leaving me as well cos they now have some skills in house which is cool but the manner they are doing it is so silly, just say 'hey we have a person now can you help hand over' I keep getting all these cryptic email asking random questions.

HOWEVER!! Tonight I'm gonna get in a put the last season of lost on, cook chinese and edit vocals on track I recorded in January finally :)

normally he drives me to the driving range as its quite far north london so i can only really go this weekend when i'm back at my mum's and have a car!
I'll let you know next week how i get on. I hope I haven't lost it!

with fucking dweebs making my life difficult.
I have power dressed to the MAX today, frankly look fucking terrified. I'm about to take apart a magic cirlce lawyer who thinks he's beter than me but he doesn't realise I have outclassed him entirely in this negotiation and have a card up my sleeve (not literally- I've gone sleeveless today.) I fucking love being me on days like this.

i'm having a cup of tea (happy), waiting for my washing to finish,
then i'm going to hang it outside,
then i'm (maybe) going to watch the new american horror story (happy).
out for a friends' birthday tonight - not too late, though, cause i'm busy tomorrow.
today is my saturday and sunday is my sunday. i also have tuesday free this week (happy).

1) it's Friday
2) probably going to McDonald's or somewhere disgusting like that for lunch just because
3) I have so much holiday left to take this year that my manager suggested I have Mondays and Fridays off for the rest of the year. I like the sound of that.

It was fucking brilliant.
Started with spicy onions and popadoms and some veg pakora.
I went for the special which was langoustines (which were so huge and juicy) tandoori style, served at the table off a flaming serving plate, and came with a south indian garlic chilli sauce, and a garlic nan!
All washed down with a few kingfishers.
A roaring success!

Had some TERRIBLE people living above us in our tiny flat, which prompted us to:

- Be grown ups and buy a house...
- ...which we moved into a fortnight ago and is lovely.
- We've just been told that we're getting our full deposit back on the old flat...
- ...and that, because our immediate neighbours moved out the same weekend due to the noisy bastards above us, the landlord has kicked them out

happy stuff
- my cousin asked me to be a bridesmaid last night. really touched, always found her really difficult to talk to because we don't have much in common but in recent years we've got on better
- Wethercrawl!
- cold isnt as bad as usual (normally they just absolutely drain me)
- bedroom has been redecorated and looks banginnn.

I am currently wondering why I thought it was a good idea to drink last night, but I did. And now I am wondering with a sore head.

Went to an awesome horror print exhibit at a tattoo parlour in Soho. :) Showed some guy up who was trying to impress his date with his Serial Killer knowledge. Basically one of the prints was a collection of cartoon versions of Serial Killers. I was stood looking at it when this guy sauntered up with his lady friend and started to name them, he was incorrect so I blurted "No, that's Albert Fish" he then tried to regain some pride and went "Oh, okay well then who's this" and pointed at each face while I rattled off who they were. They then left. I'm a weirdo.

Also had some ideas for music and writing recently, that hopefully I end up working on at some point.

Got a kinda long shift volunteering for the Birmingham Lit Festival tomorrow; ideally it'd be as good as my last shift, during which I largely talked to some nice colleagues, watched some cool storytelling show, and then briefly helped audience people.

Possibly won't be, cause I think I'm mainly just flyering for / watching over one of the small ongoing event things. OH and we all had an email warning us that there's going to be an EDL march through Birmingham that day, which also prods at whatever optimism I have, too.