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I am ME

I'd like to think that i'm beyond ordinary. That I do everything in a special way.

Call me Wendy. that would make things easier for the both of us.
I am a pessimist. Sucks to be me.
I love everything Earth-friendly. Anything that unleashes the child in me.
Oh, and I am me.
Your very own prodigy.

I've been thinking of applying this song as my profile song here on my blog. I just love the tune and lyrics of this song! It's very meaningful. And I kind of relate to this song too.

Well anyway, I went to SM this morning with my uncle. I let him bought me this pair of shades. They're a combination of red and white. I like it. :) Anyway, I strolled and looked for a Paramore shirt but luck wasn't with me. That just sucks. Oh well. Sucks to be me.

Sorry if I didn't tell you the news, blog. Oh, right. me and Baby/Babe? He gave up on me yesterday. Like.. for real. He asked me if we could end this. And yes, it's painful. More than you will ever know. But I realized that, he's not really worth the tears and sorrow that I'm feeling. I guess I'm just really stupid to give my heart to him. Again and again. But I'm starting to learn my lessons already and I'm on the way to healing. I have to thank God for just being there. I know he is. and my friends are really supportive about this. and of course! My beloved fiance'.

But it's still hard. Really. But I guess my vacation to Camiguin will help lessen the burden. I hope it will. I know I will enjoy. I just hope that it wouldn't bug my mind. I deleted his number already, though I memorize it naman. Like fuck.

I have to repack my things! Shit. Blame mom! She even used my swimsuit! Damn it. Oh well.. I guess I'll be off for a week or two. I'm gonna miss you! And the people who constantly visits my blog to read bullshit. Really, I don't even know why you guys are reading this. But I'm flattered, anyway. So yes.. Ta-ta for now!

So I'm home alone. Well, practically. Kuya just left because Ate Riza's gonna arrive at exactly.. Uhm, about now, I think? Then they'll be off to somewhere to spend their summer. Bummer. I am so fuckin' jealous. My trip to Camiguin will be on the end of the week, I guess. I simply just cannot wait THAT long, maan. I wanna go now. As i now. Deng.

I want to start my story now. Maybe after I cook, I'll make a draft or what. I want to do something really productive this summer, you know. I just really couldn't think of any. All I do is sleep, go online, text and watch, and eat! Holy hell. This summer's makin' a big bum outta myself. Oh well.

I just sorted the clothes I'll be packing for the Camiguin trip! I picked two sundresses and sorted out shorts, and I'll be bringing two pairs of pants. My violet one and the new one mom bought for me. I think I'll bring my three inch black heels too? Shit, I'm just really excited. Even if it's only for a week. I miss everything about Camiguin. I've made wonders and been with such nice people. My freakin' cousins and funny relatives!

I remember how we used to swim and eat "kilawin" and make fun of ourselves. Especially if it's Fiesta. We'll stay at Mommy Emma's house, and there are like tons of visitors. It's so fun to finally meet new people. Interesting or not.

Rollyn woke me up by calling me on my phone. I answered and she was like - "MOMMY-I-MISS-YOU-LIKE-PUTA-NAMAN-OH!" And I was like O_O cause I was really groggy that time. Matt took the phone and we talked, he told me they'll go to EK next week. Shit. Jealousy, man. I miss EK forreal. More over, I just really miss my friends. Oh, and Rollyn was like giving the phone to Enzo but he didn't wanna talk to me cause he's nahihiya daw and all. Well that's just sad. I wanted to talk to him. Oh well.

So I don't really know what got into me 'cause I don't even know why I'm answering this survey. But I was reading Max's blog and found this, and since I am sooo bored, I just tried answering this. Okay, I am bored. Kayyy? :))

TEN WHATS:

1. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
- Oh, Ice cream! and my Babe. I searched for my phone and looked if he texted.
2. What did you do last night?
- I went online, then watched half of PBB. ate my midnight snack, went upstairs and painted my nails. :))

3. What is the most important part of your life right now?
- Myself. It has always been myself.

4. What would you rather be doing right now?
- I want to be with babe. Like.. forreal. Someone send me a ticket so I could go to Bicol and stay with him nawww? Or maybe to Manila. or.. yeah.

7. What are your plans tomorrow?
- Tomorrow? Maybe pack my things for the Camiguin trip, but I still don't know when I'll be leaving. I'd probably just go online again and clean the house and all that.

9. What are you worried about?
- My new school.

10. What are you looking forward to most in this week?
- CAMIGUIN TRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIP! Holy shit. I'm very much looking forward to it.

NINE HAVE-YOU-EVERS:

1. Have you ever liked someone with a girlfriend/boyfriend?
- Yes, I think I did. Once. Haha. But I never had any intention to.. you know.

2. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Of course. I have had my heart broken. Twice, thrice?

3. Have you ever played on a sports team?
- Yes. As a substitute. LOL. I don't want to be sporty and all.

4. Have you ever been out of the country?
- Yes. :)

6. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
- Always. Haha. But truth is, I don't really care. ;))

7. Have you ever had the cops called on you?
- NO! I am a good girl. :)

8. Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
- Not really 'dated', but I have been with someone younger than me.

9. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
- YES. OHYES. :D

EIGHT WHOS:

1. Who was the last person you saw?
- My cousin Ceryz. :)

2. Who was the last person you hugged?
- My cousin again.

3. Who was the last person you called?
- I guess it's babe? But that was a long long time ago. Because I haven't had the chance to register to SuperUnli for quite a while.

4. Who was the last person to call you?
- OH IT'S BABE! :)) He called earlier. Shit. :">

5. Who was your first crush?
- Kuya Seph. :P

6. Who was the last person to text message you?
- It's a group message from Rollyn. :)

7.Who is the last person you texted?
- Rollyn too. :D

8. Who did you last yell at?
- My.. mom? Idrk.

SEVEN WHENS:

1. When was your last shower?

- last night. HAHAHA! :)

2. When did you last see your mom?
- Just moments ago.

3. When was your last hug?
- Just recently.

4. When did you last dress up?
- Last night too.

5. When was the last time you cried?
- Just last last night.

6. When did you last go to the movie theatre?
- Last month. Haha. I am so yesterday.

7. When were you born?
- March 22, 1995.

SIX WHERES:

1. Where do(es) your best friend(s) live?
- In Cavite. They all do! :)

2. Where did you last go?
- Upstairs.

3. Where did you last hang out?
- IDK. Haha. Somewhere out there.

4. Where do you go to school?
- I used to go to Divine Light Academy. But not anymore. Anyway, I'm still a proud DLA-nian. :)

5. Where is your favorite place to be?
- I want to be in Babe's arms.

6. Where did you sleep last night?
- In mom's room cause the aircon's really nice. HAHA. :P Mine sucks.

FIVE DO/DOES:

1. Do you like someone right now?
-Yes, I do.

2. Do they like you too?
- Well, yeah.

3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
- When I was younger. But now, I feel really contented.

4. Do you know the muffin man?
- Yes, I do.

5. Does the future scare you?
- Quite.

FOUR WHYS:

1. Why are you best friends with your best friends?
- Because they accept me for who I am, and they will always be there for me, no matter how far the distance is.

2. Why did you get a Facebook?
- It's for my friends. To get chismis. LOL!

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
- I don't know. My parents are weird.

4. Why are you doing this survey?
- Because I am hella bored with nothing to do.

THREE IFS:

1. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
- Mind reaaading! :) And teleport. :D

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
- I could go back in time, just to see my friends. But I will not change anything.

3. If you were stranded on a desert island and could bring one thing what would it be?
- My laptop! :)

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVERS:

1. Would you ever be friends with someone again, who you promised yourself you never would be because they were mean to you?
- My mind changes a lot. So I guess, yes.

2. Would you ever shave your head to save the person you love?
- Of course. :)

ONE

1. Name a dream you wish to fulfill
- To finally settle and be successful. :) That's it, I guess.

I woke up with a smile on my face -- again. Mom woke me up and told me there's Ice Cream in the fridge so I hurriedly stood up and went downstairs and ate while I'm online. It feels great 'cause Summer has been ultimately hot and I have been craving for Ice Cream since I don't know when.

Texted with babe earlier this morning and he was very sweet. I love it when we text like this. He's very cute. :3 Haha! :)) Honestly though, I cannot wait to see him again. :[ Sometimes it feels as though what we currently have is real but sometimes it seriously just doesn't make sense. Blah <- that makes more sense than that. But.. I just really want him to assure me that I am still the one.

Anyway, CAMIGUIIIIIINNNN. I cannot waiiiiit! :) Beach with my cousins, fun fun fun! This is the most exciting Summer I have had since I started to breathe. And will still be having. But I think Summer's going too fast. Now fuck that. Bummer.

So I woke up with a smile on my face. Mom woke me up and told me that i'll go to CAMIGUIN! :) And I was like OMG-WHEN-I-COULD-DIE-RIGHT-NOW-YOU-KNOW and that was my OA self. I practically hugged her so much because I was damn happy about the news. She woke me up to ask me to go to her room cause i'm full of sweat and she wanted me to use the aircon and sleep on her room. So I did. :)

So GV. :)) and more GV because babe was so sweet. :) He was so generous enough to give me 80 points fer the Globe Rewards thing so I can go unli. Shiit. Kilig stuff. :)))

The only thing I'm worried about would be the school i'm going to go to. San Carlos, plox? Waaaa

Okay, I seriously do not know what else is there to blog about. Ohh! I watched Futurama cause kuya downloaded the first season. Shit-ass, twas sooo funneh like yeah. :D I might DL Glee too now. Certified GLEEK, it is.

Screw life. I don't like how my mom sounds when she complains. It's like she owns the world and that's just bizzarre and all. I don't really mind but sometimes I really get sick of it. I mean, who wouldn't get tired of hearing the same old damn things every single fuckin' day?

The only thing I'm looking forward to now would be the trip to Camiguin. SHEEESH I really pray for it to push through. Imagine a week of escape and solemnity at it's best. I miss my cousins so much.

The only thing i'm happy about now would be my love life. Even though i'm single, why do I feel so contented and such? It feels heaven. Oops. Haha.

Yowza! :) I miss blogging! I mean, I blog a lot on Tumblr now. Like half of my day is spent just posting there. Oh no, don't be jealous, you! You're still my first love, blogger. :)

I am quite happy now. HE makes me happy. :"> Why do you always have to make me kilig and stuff? I actually LOVE the feeling of being kilig and all that. it makes me so fuckeeen red like a fuckin' tomato. and I love it. :) or maybe because I just love you? :">

Oh, damn. I'm bad. I need closure. CLOSURE WITH YOU BIG TIME. The one and only source of my sadness (refer to my last blog post) below. but I think i'm feeling better now. Maybe it's not just going to work out and I just have to accept that fact?

Anyway I am so stoooked! Will go to CAMIGUIN on the 30th. Isn't that just amazing?! Beach bum again, yo bitches. Me likeeey :"> Why am I even talking like this such a slut. bitch. haha. Profanities aside, i wanna see my cousins and relatives there! That would be so much fuunnn! :))) It feels like it has been years since we last saw each other. I'm really stoked about this idea, anyhow.

I like my messy hair. :P I've always been messy when it comes to my hair. Like my mom would make a fuckin fuss out of it. "Go comb your hair!" And i'm just like.. aww combs are bitches and they aren't for me. But I always find a way to look nice, of course. :) It wouldn't hurt to be hygienic once in a while, right? And i'm planning on growing my hair long. I just have to resist the urge to cut it. Arrrgh why is it fucckin hot ba kasi here in the Philippines. Damn you, tropical whatever. Haha.

Okay, I do not like how I sounded. :P Slang much?

It's 2:27 am. Boooo. Why am I not asleep yet, for Chrissakes? Maybe because I'm busy thinking of him. :"> And I miss him!! BOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Mom borrowed my phone. And I feel like I wasted 20 bucks for load since I haven't really texted much before she borrowed it. Imma get it tomorrow and register to unlitexting again. I just wish he's unli tooo. Please? :))))

I was actually planning on abandoning this blog. I tried to write a lot on Tumblr but it's way fast that's why I guess I'm going back to you, my little friend.

Been a little depressed right naw. Blame him. Or no wait, BLAME ME.

Blame me for being considerate - SO considerate. for loving too much. for everything. It's my fault because i know it's going to happen yet I didn't find a way to actually make something to NOT make it happen. doesn't quite make any sense but uhhh, who cares? You got the point, i know that.

He's just really annoying. I am a girl, he should know that. I want to be assured that I am loved, I want consistency and I want it baad. Not because I am an asshole and I only want things for myself but because it's distance that we're against, it's love that we're fighting for (or is it?) :( I don't get it. How can he be here today, and be gone the other day? How can he suddenly be cold then be sweet after? It's like, when I decide to let go, that's the point where he's giving me reasons to hold on. And I don't want that. :( It scares the shit out of me.

Of all people, I wanted him to be the one who'll always be there for me, distance aside. I want him to fight for us, but it seems like I'm the only serious one in this relationship. No, wait, scratch that. We don't have any relationship. Just understandings and stuff, but I guess those things are enough to fight for what we feel, right? Or for what I feel... Cause i'm not really suire about what he feels about me anymore.

Maybe, it's time to finally let go. For the last time. It's so hard to shed a tear every now and then for the same old fuckin' reasons. I'm sad. mad. and everything. I just want to end this.

So.. can we please just end this?

It's such a pain when they send me stuff with your name. Such a pain because I feel so stupid, like i'm running and chasing after you like some kind of a freakin' bitch. I don't want this.. feeling. It's like i'm an option, not a priority. And I hate that. Because I have always been the option. The Option.

I've been thinking of applying this song as my profile song here on my blog. I just love the tune and lyrics of this song! It's very meaningful. And I kind of relate to this song too.

Well anyway, I went to SM this morning with my uncle. I let him bought me this pair of shades. They're a combination of red and white. I like it. :) Anyway, I strolled and looked for a Paramore shirt but luck wasn't with me. That just sucks. Oh well. Sucks to be me.

Sorry if I didn't tell you the news, blog. Oh, right. me and Baby/Babe? He gave up on me yesterday. Like.. for real. He asked me if we could end this. And yes, it's painful. More than you will ever know. But I realized that, he's not really worth the tears and sorrow that I'm feeling. I guess I'm just really stupid to give my heart to him. Again and again. But I'm starting to learn my lessons already and I'm on the way to healing. I have to thank God for just being there. I know he is. and my friends are really supportive about this. and of course! My beloved fiance'.

But it's still hard. Really. But I guess my vacation to Camiguin will help lessen the burden. I hope it will. I know I will enjoy. I just hope that it wouldn't bug my mind. I deleted his number already, though I memorize it naman. Like fuck.

I have to repack my things! Shit. Blame mom! She even used my swimsuit! Damn it. Oh well.. I guess I'll be off for a week or two. I'm gonna miss you! And the people who constantly visits my blog to read bullshit. Really, I don't even know why you guys are reading this. But I'm flattered, anyway. So yes.. Ta-ta for now!

So I'm home alone. Well, practically. Kuya just left because Ate Riza's gonna arrive at exactly.. Uhm, about now, I think? Then they'll be off to somewhere to spend their summer. Bummer. I am so fuckin' jealous. My trip to Camiguin will be on the end of the week, I guess. I simply just cannot wait THAT long, maan. I wanna go now. As i now. Deng.

I want to start my story now. Maybe after I cook, I'll make a draft or what. I want to do something really productive this summer, you know. I just really couldn't think of any. All I do is sleep, go online, text and watch, and eat! Holy hell. This summer's makin' a big bum outta myself. Oh well.

I just sorted the clothes I'll be packing for the Camiguin trip! I picked two sundresses and sorted out shorts, and I'll be bringing two pairs of pants. My violet one and the new one mom bought for me. I think I'll bring my three inch black heels too? Shit, I'm just really excited. Even if it's only for a week. I miss everything about Camiguin. I've made wonders and been with such nice people. My freakin' cousins and funny relatives!

I remember how we used to swim and eat "kilawin" and make fun of ourselves. Especially if it's Fiesta. We'll stay at Mommy Emma's house, and there are like tons of visitors. It's so fun to finally meet new people. Interesting or not.

Rollyn woke me up by calling me on my phone. I answered and she was like - "MOMMY-I-MISS-YOU-LIKE-PUTA-NAMAN-OH!" And I was like O_O cause I was really groggy that time. Matt took the phone and we talked, he told me they'll go to EK next week. Shit. Jealousy, man. I miss EK forreal. More over, I just really miss my friends. Oh, and Rollyn was like giving the phone to Enzo but he didn't wanna talk to me cause he's nahihiya daw and all. Well that's just sad. I wanted to talk to him. Oh well.

So I don't really know what got into me 'cause I don't even know why I'm answering this survey. But I was reading Max's blog and found this, and since I am sooo bored, I just tried answering this. Okay, I am bored. Kayyy? :))

TEN WHATS:

1. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
- Oh, Ice cream! and my Babe. I searched for my phone and looked if he texted.
2. What did you do last night?
- I went online, then watched half of PBB. ate my midnight snack, went upstairs and painted my nails. :))

3. What is the most important part of your life right now?
- Myself. It has always been myself.

4. What would you rather be doing right now?
- I want to be with babe. Like.. forreal. Someone send me a ticket so I could go to Bicol and stay with him nawww? Or maybe to Manila. or.. yeah.

7. What are your plans tomorrow?
- Tomorrow? Maybe pack my things for the Camiguin trip, but I still don't know when I'll be leaving. I'd probably just go online again and clean the house and all that.

9. What are you worried about?
- My new school.

10. What are you looking forward to most in this week?
- CAMIGUIN TRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIP! Holy shit. I'm very much looking forward to it.

NINE HAVE-YOU-EVERS:

1. Have you ever liked someone with a girlfriend/boyfriend?
- Yes, I think I did. Once. Haha. But I never had any intention to.. you know.

2. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Of course. I have had my heart broken. Twice, thrice?

3. Have you ever played on a sports team?
- Yes. As a substitute. LOL. I don't want to be sporty and all.

4. Have you ever been out of the country?
- Yes. :)

6. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
- Always. Haha. But truth is, I don't really care. ;))

7. Have you ever had the cops called on you?
- NO! I am a good girl. :)

8. Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
- Not really 'dated', but I have been with someone younger than me.

9. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
- YES. OHYES. :D

EIGHT WHOS:

1. Who was the last person you saw?
- My cousin Ceryz. :)

2. Who was the last person you hugged?
- My cousin again.

3. Who was the last person you called?
- I guess it's babe? But that was a long long time ago. Because I haven't had the chance to register to SuperUnli for quite a while.

4. Who was the last person to call you?
- OH IT'S BABE! :)) He called earlier. Shit. :">

5. Who was your first crush?
- Kuya Seph. :P

6. Who was the last person to text message you?
- It's a group message from Rollyn. :)

7.Who is the last person you texted?
- Rollyn too. :D

8. Who did you last yell at?
- My.. mom? Idrk.

SEVEN WHENS:

1. When was your last shower?

- last night. HAHAHA! :)

2. When did you last see your mom?
- Just moments ago.

3. When was your last hug?
- Just recently.

4. When did you last dress up?
- Last night too.

5. When was the last time you cried?
- Just last last night.

6. When did you last go to the movie theatre?
- Last month. Haha. I am so yesterday.

7. When were you born?
- March 22, 1995.

SIX WHERES:

1. Where do(es) your best friend(s) live?
- In Cavite. They all do! :)

2. Where did you last go?
- Upstairs.

3. Where did you last hang out?
- IDK. Haha. Somewhere out there.

4. Where do you go to school?
- I used to go to Divine Light Academy. But not anymore. Anyway, I'm still a proud DLA-nian. :)

5. Where is your favorite place to be?
- I want to be in Babe's arms.

6. Where did you sleep last night?
- In mom's room cause the aircon's really nice. HAHA. :P Mine sucks.

FIVE DO/DOES:

1. Do you like someone right now?
-Yes, I do.

2. Do they like you too?
- Well, yeah.

3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
- When I was younger. But now, I feel really contented.

4. Do you know the muffin man?
- Yes, I do.

5. Does the future scare you?
- Quite.

FOUR WHYS:

1. Why are you best friends with your best friends?
- Because they accept me for who I am, and they will always be there for me, no matter how far the distance is.

2. Why did you get a Facebook?
- It's for my friends. To get chismis. LOL!

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
- I don't know. My parents are weird.

4. Why are you doing this survey?
- Because I am hella bored with nothing to do.

THREE IFS:

1. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
- Mind reaaading! :) And teleport. :D

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
- I could go back in time, just to see my friends. But I will not change anything.

3. If you were stranded on a desert island and could bring one thing what would it be?
- My laptop! :)

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVERS:

1. Would you ever be friends with someone again, who you promised yourself you never would be because they were mean to you?
- My mind changes a lot. So I guess, yes.

2. Would you ever shave your head to save the person you love?
- Of course. :)

ONE

1. Name a dream you wish to fulfill
- To finally settle and be successful. :) That's it, I guess.

I woke up with a smile on my face -- again. Mom woke me up and told me there's Ice Cream in the fridge so I hurriedly stood up and went downstairs and ate while I'm online. It feels great 'cause Summer has been ultimately hot and I have been craving for Ice Cream since I don't know when.

Texted with babe earlier this morning and he was very sweet. I love it when we text like this. He's very cute. :3 Haha! :)) Honestly though, I cannot wait to see him again. :[ Sometimes it feels as though what we currently have is real but sometimes it seriously just doesn't make sense. Blah <- that makes more sense than that. But.. I just really want him to assure me that I am still the one.

Anyway, CAMIGUIIIIIINNNN. I cannot waiiiiit! :) Beach with my cousins, fun fun fun! This is the most exciting Summer I have had since I started to breathe. And will still be having. But I think Summer's going too fast. Now fuck that. Bummer.

So I woke up with a smile on my face. Mom woke me up and told me that i'll go to CAMIGUIN! :) And I was like OMG-WHEN-I-COULD-DIE-RIGHT-NOW-YOU-KNOW and that was my OA self. I practically hugged her so much because I was damn happy about the news. She woke me up to ask me to go to her room cause i'm full of sweat and she wanted me to use the aircon and sleep on her room. So I did. :)

So GV. :)) and more GV because babe was so sweet. :) He was so generous enough to give me 80 points fer the Globe Rewards thing so I can go unli. Shiit. Kilig stuff. :)))

The only thing I'm worried about would be the school i'm going to go to. San Carlos, plox? Waaaa

Okay, I seriously do not know what else is there to blog about. Ohh! I watched Futurama cause kuya downloaded the first season. Shit-ass, twas sooo funneh like yeah. :D I might DL Glee too now. Certified GLEEK, it is.

Screw life. I don't like how my mom sounds when she complains. It's like she owns the world and that's just bizzarre and all. I don't really mind but sometimes I really get sick of it. I mean, who wouldn't get tired of hearing the same old damn things every single fuckin' day?

The only thing I'm looking forward to now would be the trip to Camiguin. SHEEESH I really pray for it to push through. Imagine a week of escape and solemnity at it's best. I miss my cousins so much.

The only thing i'm happy about now would be my love life. Even though i'm single, why do I feel so contented and such? It feels heaven. Oops. Haha.

Yowza! :) I miss blogging! I mean, I blog a lot on Tumblr now. Like half of my day is spent just posting there. Oh no, don't be jealous, you! You're still my first love, blogger. :)

I am quite happy now. HE makes me happy. :"> Why do you always have to make me kilig and stuff? I actually LOVE the feeling of being kilig and all that. it makes me so fuckeeen red like a fuckin' tomato. and I love it. :) or maybe because I just love you? :">

Oh, damn. I'm bad. I need closure. CLOSURE WITH YOU BIG TIME. The one and only source of my sadness (refer to my last blog post) below. but I think i'm feeling better now. Maybe it's not just going to work out and I just have to accept that fact?

Anyway I am so stoooked! Will go to CAMIGUIN on the 30th. Isn't that just amazing?! Beach bum again, yo bitches. Me likeeey :"> Why am I even talking like this such a slut. bitch. haha. Profanities aside, i wanna see my cousins and relatives there! That would be so much fuunnn! :))) It feels like it has been years since we last saw each other. I'm really stoked about this idea, anyhow.

I like my messy hair. :P I've always been messy when it comes to my hair. Like my mom would make a fuckin fuss out of it. "Go comb your hair!" And i'm just like.. aww combs are bitches and they aren't for me. But I always find a way to look nice, of course. :) It wouldn't hurt to be hygienic once in a while, right? And i'm planning on growing my hair long. I just have to resist the urge to cut it. Arrrgh why is it fucckin hot ba kasi here in the Philippines. Damn you, tropical whatever. Haha.

Okay, I do not like how I sounded. :P Slang much?

It's 2:27 am. Boooo. Why am I not asleep yet, for Chrissakes? Maybe because I'm busy thinking of him. :"> And I miss him!! BOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Mom borrowed my phone. And I feel like I wasted 20 bucks for load since I haven't really texted much before she borrowed it. Imma get it tomorrow and register to unlitexting again. I just wish he's unli tooo. Please? :))))

I was actually planning on abandoning this blog. I tried to write a lot on Tumblr but it's way fast that's why I guess I'm going back to you, my little friend.

Been a little depressed right naw. Blame him. Or no wait, BLAME ME.

Blame me for being considerate - SO considerate. for loving too much. for everything. It's my fault because i know it's going to happen yet I didn't find a way to actually make something to NOT make it happen. doesn't quite make any sense but uhhh, who cares? You got the point, i know that.

He's just really annoying. I am a girl, he should know that. I want to be assured that I am loved, I want consistency and I want it baad. Not because I am an asshole and I only want things for myself but because it's distance that we're against, it's love that we're fighting for (or is it?) :( I don't get it. How can he be here today, and be gone the other day? How can he suddenly be cold then be sweet after? It's like, when I decide to let go, that's the point where he's giving me reasons to hold on. And I don't want that. :( It scares the shit out of me.

Of all people, I wanted him to be the one who'll always be there for me, distance aside. I want him to fight for us, but it seems like I'm the only serious one in this relationship. No, wait, scratch that. We don't have any relationship. Just understandings and stuff, but I guess those things are enough to fight for what we feel, right? Or for what I feel... Cause i'm not really suire about what he feels about me anymore.

Maybe, it's time to finally let go. For the last time. It's so hard to shed a tear every now and then for the same old fuckin' reasons. I'm sad. mad. and everything. I just want to end this.

So.. can we please just end this?

It's such a pain when they send me stuff with your name. Such a pain because I feel so stupid, like i'm running and chasing after you like some kind of a freakin' bitch. I don't want this.. feeling. It's like i'm an option, not a priority. And I hate that. Because I have always been the option. The Option.