With her new Netflix series Haters Back Off set to launch Oct. 14, the online personality – who is best known for her Miranda Sings skits – has reached a new career high. But now Ballinger, 29, has opened up in a tearful YouTube video about the decision to divorce husband Josh Evans after just over a year of marriage.

“I want to start off by saying Joshua is a wonderful man and I am so in love with him. This has nothing to do with ‘He’s a bad person’ or ‘He did something horrible to me’ or anything like that. He’s a good person and I love him,” she says through tears in the video. “We have always had a very rocky relationship since the beginning. We’ve always butted heads. We’ve always fought, ever since we met really. It’s never been a perfect relationship.”

Josh Evans and Colleen Ballinger

In the video – which was posted on Sept. 30 and has already been viewed more than 6 million times – Ballinger does not explicitly reveal the reason for the divorce and acknowledges that fans have been shielded from from the difficulties in their relationship.

“You’ve watched us date, you’ve watched us get engaged, you’ve watched us get married,” she says. “We’ve shown you everything because we wanted to, and I don’t regret any of that, but, you know, we chose to not share with you the hard parts of our relationship. And there were a lot of hard parts of our relationship.”

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Evans, 31, has also released a video detailing his feelings about the divorce.

“I want it to be known that I am not choosing this divorce. I don’t want this divorce. I want her, but I truly believe she thinks she is making the right decision right now.” He says in the tearful video, which was also posted Sept. 30. “I was faithful the entire time. It’s nothing like that at all, in any way. I would never, ever break that trust with her – so that’s not anything like that.”

Both Evans and Ballinger say they are going to take a break from YouTube in the wake of the divorce.

Colleen Ballinger as Miranda

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The couple met in 2009 after Evans discovered Ballinger’s videos and reached out to her on Facebook.

“We’ve been together so long that it doesn’t feel different,” Evans said after joining his new wife on stage during her Q&A session with fans. “We’re just excited that we can call each other husband and wife.”

At the time, Ballinger was debating changing her last name on her twitter handle.

“I’m still debating it. I have no idea,” she said. “[Josh] calls me Mrs. Evans, which is so weird.”

Haters Back Off beings streaming on Netflix Oct. 14.

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