Friday, 31 August 2018

I Told Me So

When you have
been a blogger as long as I have (8 years here, 6 on the previous site) sooner
or later you’ll prove yourself to be an idiot and won’t even realise it. This
is going to be one of those stories, so stay with me until the end.

A few days ago,
out the blue my old work husband popped up again, last seen in May for anyone
who is keeping score. He sent me a message explained he’d been having family
issues and that’s why he hadn’t not been in touch and asking if I was still up
for meeting for drinks. I said sure, why not. It would be nice to finally meet
after all these years.

Then something happened,
during this friendly conversation, this meet up suddenly went from a meet up to
an actual date. And in this moment, I
learned something about myself. I don’t like the word “date”.Mainly because I don’t date, I haven’t for
years. I don’t like dating, it’s stupid. Something just about the word makes me
nervous and instantly makes me want to cancel. I know this is stupid, but I don’t
care.

However, I did
talk myself in off the ledge, and I decided to keep the date. At the end of the
day, I am a blogger and material is hard to come by. What is the worst that can
happen right? At least that was my decision.

I was prompted
while writing the post, you’ll hopefully see next week, to look back to through
my old blogs. I was certain I had written about the work husband in the past
and wanted his “name” for consistency purposes. After looking back through a
lot of posts, I found it, boy did I find.

November 2014
was where he was hiding. What was his name you ask? Mr. Block. Anyone remember
that prick? To honest, I didn’t until I reread everything. This is where the
whole I am idiot comes in.

Frankly, I wasn’t
having great feelings towards this date anyways for reasons to be discussed next
week. There were signs were there. But, it stings so much more when it’s your
own words telling you, your choice of men is horrible and clearly, it’s not improving.

This brings us
nicely to the question of the blog; Do you let bygones by bygones or do you heed
the warning of the past? Let me know your thoughts in the comments below. And
as always, stay, and play, safe.