i feel exactly like this i am dreading tomorrow my partner who suffers from NPD is already not speaking to me for no reason and i know that tomorrow will be hell BUT i strongly disagree with where you said 'And to the Narcissists, go to hell. Better to spend christmas alone than with a Narcissist....' Narrcissists are not evil people who deserve 2 go to hell they are people who have suffered terrible life ruining childhood abuse which has lead them to feel unloved/unwanted which has resulted in them having NPD and becoming cold emotionless and abusive towards their partner. I know my boyfriend is severely affected by NPD and needs help. He knows this also, but being a narrcissist he will delay the process of getting help and works it out in his head that there is 'nothing wrong with him' I hope that in time i will discover a way to help him or doctors will find a cure to the 'incurable' and to anyone else being abused by a partner or person with NPD You aren't crazy nor are you alone there are others just like you AKA Me try to keep strong thats all i can say