Went out with OH for NYE. DS went to his dad's, it started off a nice night but he got drunk (which he very very rarely ever does, maybe twice in 2015)

Anyway we went to a restaurant after some drinks and it was nice at first, but then he started talking really loudly about the waiters and I asked him to stop, then he started talking about things I didn't want to talk about last night, really bad negative stuff, so I asked him again to change the subject but he wouldn't and just carried on.

We left the restaurant and I wanted to go home but I'd left all my things at his house including my keys so I had to go back there. All the way back he didn't talk to me at all. We got in and I said I would sleep on the sofa until a point where I could get a taxi (it's a really busy party town and there'll be none till like 7am) and he said fine and stomped around for a bit and went to bed.

I went to the toilet about an hour ago and he woke up and called me into his room, so I went in and we had a talk. I said I just didn't think he was happy with me, because every day he has something negative to say. He said that was bullshit and started basically listing my faults then shouting at me really aggressively . I said I was done talking and was going back downstairs at which point he went mad, grabbed his phone and I swear he twisted it up with his bare hands and threw it over my head, so I walked into the hall and he got up and threw the phone down again on the floor near me.

He hasn't followed me down after doing that and has no idea I'm locked in here but I'm scared and I don't want to come out of here because he scared me.

I'm not usually this pathetic.

He's been really miserable all over Christmas, causing arguments over nothing and saying hurtful things. I've been patient with him as he said Christmas brings back bad memories but now I'm thinking i should have left him because now I'm in a situation I never thought I'd be in.

I rang when we got back. The one we used to get to his was pre booked and the earliest one was at 7am they said. It is a really big nightclub town and it was packed even in the place we were last night so I can see why. I didn't think it would be that late. I should have taken my keys out with me but I was worried about losing them and I didn't think I would need them

In context he has pushed me once before (the last time he was drunk which was months ago) I went with force into my furniture and really hurt myself which is why I'm frightened now. I thought it was totally out of character and he was gutted about it and I forgave him.

Can you set up an uber account and see if there are any cars that can pick you up now? Everything else can be dealt with later but priority number 1 is for you to get home I think, if you don't feel safe at his.

It's like a taxi but there's an app that will show you cars in your area. I only found out about it this week myself and I don't know how the setup works so sorry if it's shit advice but maybe worth a try.

It's about a 10/15 minute drive but walking wouldn't be safe as it would be through town, on my own, with a bag full of stuff in stupidly high heels when everyone's out and pissed. I did consider walking when we got back but thought better of it. But I just thought we were arguing and didn't expect him to go like that.