Tuesday, June 22, 2010

My sweet Grandma, went to be with Jesus last Wednesday after suffering from dementia for over 5 years. I miss her so much that my heart physically aches. But at the same time, I am so happy for her. She doesn't hurt anymore, she can speak in clear sentences, tell the most beautiful stories and sing her favorite hymns at the feet of her Savior.

One of the most comforting thoughts this week is thinking that she is finally reunited with the love of her life, my precious grandaddy, after 20 years and 1 week. I don't think the English language contains words to articulate just how much she missed him.

I'm gonna miss her. Oh, am I gonna miss her! I'm gonna miss coming into my momma's house and see her sitting in her recliner... im gonna miss plopping down on her arm rest and fitting perfectly in the curve of her shoulder...im going to miss giving her big ole bear hugs... taking her for rides...and chit chatting over tony's chocolate milkshakes.

But the most important things we shared, I'm not going to miss because they are embedded inside me-- her love for family (we love nothing more than big family get togethers in her den), her passion and dedication to serving others and most importantly her love for our Heavenly Father.

I am so thankful and honored that I was chosen to be her granddaughter. My hope is that I can carry the legacy she instilled in me to my children and grandchildren.

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Ps 34:18

Thursday, June 10, 2010

It's show us your life China Pattern over at Kelly's Korner so I thought I would participate since I havent done one in a couple of weeks!

I adore my Kate Spade Library Lane China Pattern! I picked this pattern mainly because I thought it was a very classic look that hopefully wouldn't be outdated in a few years. While its very classic, Kate Spade has a lot of fun patterns that I want to hopefully mix and mingle with it later on... Aren't these precious? They complement my pattern perfectly! These are from Kate Spade's Larabee Road Collection. They also some in red! Too cute!

I have to be honest my china rarely gets used. But, I do love it! And it looks pretty in our little antique china hutch.

I also love my everyday china. Its Ralph Lauren's Boxwood. I was really sad to learn tonight that it has been retired. I really wanted a couple more serving bowls and mugs. Luckily, I do have 12 set of this one though.

In case anyone of you are like me and have retired or hard to find sets, I thought I'd tell you about a place in Greensboro, NC. It's called Replacements Unlimited. My grandmother's house burnt down several years ago and we were able to replace most of her damaged china there. We were so excited to be able to still use her china.

Okay. So this has put me in the mood for a dinner party. But that will have to wait until after I pass the bar.

The past 4 weeks have been TOUGH. I have studied alot.. and the more I learn the more I realize how much I dont know.

Those of you who know me, know that I tend to be really good at stressing about school. Throughout this whole bar prep process I have remained really calm, almost eerily calm. I know its because I have people praying for me every single day of this journey.

I had a bad dream last night. Scratch that, I had a nightmare. I dreamed that it was the essay day of the bar exam and everyone else had gotten the answers the day before. I got the test and I knew nothing. I was crying and I remember trying to answer the essays as big ole crocodile tears poured from my eyes. I couldn't think of anything. JNOV?? what was JNOV again??? It was like I had not studied at all. I managed to write something down for all the questions, and when it came time to proofread I realized that not one of my sentences made ANY sense.

I woke up this morning feeling tired and really not wanting to study torts all day. I posted a message on facebook during my afternoon study break that said, "Carol is really questioning her decision not to become a teacher today..." because it seemed all my teacher friend's status updates said something to the effect of "schools out for the summer." I started feeling really sorry for myself. It didn't seem fair that I was confined to the library 12 hours a day. Is all this work really worth it?

I jumped off facebook and headed over to read some of my favorite blogs. One of my favorite blogs is "Lots of Scotts," written by a mom of triplets. She is an amazing Christian women whose story and daily thoughts inspire and encourage me. I love reading about how she sees the world through the eyes of her three children. I'm not a mom yet, and am no where near ready for that season of my life, but for some reason I am captivated by her stories and how she sees God in the everyday happenings of life.

Anyway, all of that was to say that she had a post today about being happy with the season of life that you are in and she shared this verse--It was exactly what I needed to hear!

Nevertheless, each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him. 1 Corinthians 7:17

I love the Message translation too!

And don't be wishing you were someplace else or with someone else. Where you are right now is God's place for you. Live and obey and love and believe right there.

This season of my life may not be what I consider the "best," or even enjoyable, but I believe that God has placed me here for a reason and I will continue to "live, obey, love and believe." What a beautiful reminder that I am where I am suppose to be. God assigned ME to this place, so in him I will "rejoice and be glad."

Boring... I'm probably studying too much, but I'm obsessive. At least I am honest that I am obsessive, right? I really just want to pass the first time. Not only do I have a job on the line and student loans to be paid, but more than anything I'm ready for this season of studying to be over. I want my life back. I miss having weekends. I sacrificed so much my three years of law school. Yes, I know work will be hard, stressful and some long hours. But, I think it will be rewarding and if its not having a little $ in my pocket will be. And did I mention there will be weekends? I love me some weekends.

I included some graduation pictures in this post since I haven't done that yet...

One of the whole W gang! Thank you for supporting me on this crazy journey. My three brothers and my father are probably to thank for my awesome ability to argue my way out of anything :)

I would never be where I am today with out my amazing parents who made so many sacrifices to give me the opportunity to pursue my dreams. They have always believed in me and encouraged me in whatever I have set my mind to do.

I'll have to add more later.. for some reason my picture uploader thingy is messing up.. Oh well gives me something else to blog about...

About Me

I am a 20 something southern girl who is happily married to my husband of three years. We met while we were both in Puerto Rico on a mission trip and have been together for the past 9 years. I am in my last semester of law school and am looking forward to embarking on a new career. My passions include traveling, children's rights, adoption and spending time with our sweet family and friends.