I almost made a stupid mistakes by attempting to write about racism without stepping on any toes. I almost made attempts to be politically correct and accommodating every person who may end up reading in my blog whatever I post. This is the main problem we face in South African. We discuss about race where does this come from? We fail to be honest to ourselves.

We sugar-coat the truth and we make attempts to make people comfortable about the topics that we talking about everyday being a black person it’s hard to live in our land, white people controls everything, but not this time.

I did have conversations with other students across the country talking about racism across racial lines and the narrative is often the same. White people are defensive to themselves and blacks are angry.

Nobody listens to black people and nobody tries to understand the language of a black person and for as long as this is the way things go, nothing will change until black people run this country. We won’t allow white people to run this country, not now, not ever.

The fact is that I hate white people. ‘’White people say apartheid ended 20 years ago let’s move on’’ how stupid is that we forget about what they did during apartheid. ‘’Black people say oppression started over 300 years ago we can’t just forget what white people did to us’’ ‘’NEVER’’ chief.

The fact is white people are brought up to believe that theirs whiteness is the standard and everything else is a deviation hence; non-white. I wish I could take the credit for that line but ‘’NOPE’’, White people are playing with us, they forgot who we are. I thought “Wow. Finally.

White people who will actually admit that black people are not crazy. They are just saying that. The way we often encounter whiteness is not a figment of our imagination.”

I almost shared a story that really struck me and I am probably never going to forget this.

First time i went to Market in Newtown with a few friends. Newtown is in the centre of Johannesburg and has recently been revived. On Friday Morning we just to Newtown just for fresh air with friends. People come in from the northern suburbs of Johannesburg, you won’t believe when I say this security can be seen everywhere is this new to you?

I noticed 25 minutes ago. White people were everywhere just to confirm that black people are not allowed and we do not try to find racism and colour in everything. It’s here it’s real.

We walked across the Nelson Mandela Bridge near Bree Taxi Rank so i decided to show my friends. How Things work here. I suggested that they must walk over the bridge as it was very close.

When they were on the bridge, one of the white women they were walking: “why black people they like to talk to much” one of my friend reply to that by shouting. (Why white people like to control everything as if they run this country) Just look around in amazement. The bridge was sprawling with black people just Black people.

It dawned me that white people do not see us. In order for that bridge to qualify as a place with people, there would have had to be a few black faces to put that woman’s heart at ease.

We all know that the major problem is that we can structure ideas that in order to be racist to be a violent white person who wants to kill all black people and live in separate places using separate amenities. White people deny being racist because they deny that brutality but to be honest when last was that issue?

Racism exists. It exists because white people always ready to kill black people and they organize for dinner table for a celebration and all the faces were white. I was shocked could not justify that was the case in South Africa where the overwhelming majority is black but we can’t rule our country.

We all watch the social media exchanges about racism. We see how angry black people get. Those blacks who are angry are angry because they are not being heard.

I watched black people’s faces when I start to talk about how unequal our society is and how we need to start having honest conversations. We all know that white people they are sell out. But black people always fight what is best for the country and for the future of the country.

How should I keep quiet about white people? I say such things in an open space where white people could hear me. Why I’m angry, why I hate them more than anything.

Fact is, for as long as I am still having this conversations about racism in corners and behind closed doors with black people who share my experience – nothing will change but white people should listen to black people.

White people need to introspect and stop being defensive. Stop saying “black people” because we know that, but we cannot be patting you on the back for being better or for simply behaving as you should.