I could not say that this year is looking to promising. Mainly, I won't say it because I am realistic about the cards I have been dealt.
I am going to be twenty-one in five months and I am more than ready to leave the state I am in and move somewhere new, where I know absolutely nobody and can start fresh. At first I thought California, then it went to...

One night, I fell for you.
You promised me you wouldn't hurt me.
That was a lie.
You told everyone you didn't love me like I loved you.
You lied.
I felt at peace, when I lay in your arms that night.
But guess what? I guess that was all lies.
Looking into your eyes, I fell for you.
But...

Well I fell for her...my best friend who I was crushing on hardcore for quite some time. She knew how I felt and I think she used it to her advantage. She had been texting me on a daily basis--which of course is nothing out of the ordinary--and even sent me a pic of her beautiful "garden." The texts got more heated and more sexual, to the point...

I am trying to ignore the little voice in my head that tells me I am setting myself up for another fall. Because you know what? Even if that is true, feeling hopeful feels better than feeling hopeless and I guess none of us have any guarantees that things we are hopeful about will eventuate the way we hope they will....

Since I went away last weekend, DSH has been visibly deflated. He doesn't talk much, and it's clear that he is starting to really feel the changes in our relationship. I asked him about it, and he said that his head is very busy and very tired but he can't put his finger on a specific reason why.

Firstly I would like to say I haven't written a blog before, I am a blog Virgin so bare with me, secondly I am going to not write about my first time with wolfie as that was her first time and her story to tell, she did a fine job and was very accurate, all I would say for me is that night was perfect, I have never been so comfortable, happy and content...

Okay, so for those who have been here for the past year or so, you might know me, and some newer people might not. I tend to come here looking for advice and then lurking in the chatroom and then poof I'm gone.
So a quick update on me and what's been happening since last year.
Some big things have been happening in my life.

I found her, it's taken over a year and over 18 months since the psycho tried to destroy everything I am, my family is and would ever be. I fought my way back from the depths of mental breakdown, I found myself again, and took time for me and I found her.

Entirely by accident in some ways. Since I joined Shy just over a year ago now there was a...

My first time with net:
It was the day for me to go and pick her up at the airport. I would be lying here if I didn't say that I was nervous. I arrived up at the airport early and got turned around and missed the parking garage, so I exited the parking lot and went back to the hotel to check us in before picking her up. I got into the room and laid down...

Looking back, I think that Valentine's Day is more accurately characterized as my bi holiday. While I have had marvelous times with the men that I have loved on this day, it is my time with dear ladies that hum with the most resonance.

Where to begin? My head is swimming. A while back I wrote that I met someone on line. We still talk everyday and into the night. She calms me, takes away my pain, and so much more. At times it scares
me. I have no desire to go fast. If we did, then it might not last. If it went that direction.
Tom Petty has it right. "The waiting is the hardest...

No deep thoughts or anything to share, but I know I have been very absent for a while now, and thought I would post a quick summary version of my life getting in the way. Just in case anyone was interested!

I started feeling crappy before Thanksgiving, maybe even closer to Halloween. Nothing I could really point to and say, "This is what's...

I had a "coffee date" with a woman and I got so incredibly depressed afterward. I tried not to have high expectations but I was kind of hoping we could be friends and of course that didn't happen. (I say "of course" because it happens every time.) This is the first "coffee date" I've had in years and who knows when...

I once thought about the topic of immortality. It's a topic of such high interest to so many people. The rich, the poor, the politicians, kings, etc... People are afraid of dying and thus foolishly wish to be able to never pass into a realm of the dark unknown. Stories have been written with strange creatures as the object of long life. Some have...

It feels like forever since I've been here! And even longer since I've blogged. So, for starters HI SHYS!!!!!!!

It's been a busy few weeks. Filled with lots of different emotions. I posted a blog a few weeks back about a person in my life that drives me mental. And then I deleted it. I vented, got it out there...