Wednesday, September 28, 2016

I'm gonna remember this month for ever because during these last few weeks everything has changed and nothing will be the same again, at least I won't let it happen. 2 weeks ago my whole life just literally flashed before my eyes. And it's not because I was in such danger, even though I was indeed physically attacked, but insomuch as I could understand everything that remained incomprehensible to me so far. I was not at all prepared for anything that happened lately but I had to take some drastic steps and there's no turning back now. I'm not gonna let anyone treat me nor my family that way, not anymore. It has to stop sometime and that time is now.

I can't really say much about that whole thing yet, in order to protect my family. Nevertheless I can only say that I am a victim of domestic violence and I'm writing a book about my life so the world would finally know my story. Because I speak out loud and openly about what people are often ashamed to even admit to.

And for now I had to flee from my apartment where I lived for over 12 years and I don't even have a free access to most of my clothes so I don't know how the fashion/clothing side of this blog is gonna look like. Because these photos you can see in this post were taken by the end of August, before it all happened. And the photo shoots mean a lot to me and help me fighting my depression that I've been suffering from for the last 10 years. We'll see.

Anyway I do know that everything's gonna turn out just fine. I can't really explain it but, even though my situation right now is tragic, everything happens just like it was supposed to... like it was meant to be.

Thursday, September 01, 2016

It's September 1st today and like every year I'm really happy that I don't need to go to school anymore ;) I was supposed to publish this post some time ago, but I've been busy with other stuff.

I also had this breakdown lately but it's all better now. I mean I'm fine ;) I've got the support I need so. The thing is that I have some plans for the next year and it's stressing me out, a lot of changes are coming, so it's not easy but I'm trying to think positive which is quite difficult when you're battling depression.

Especially when there's someone in your family who has a problem with trees in the woods and sand on the beach and who's really mentally disturbed at the same time. I mean some people should never have kids or get married because they're just destroying others with their delusions.

But everything has to stop eventually. My patience and the hell I'm still going through, it's all coming to an end. Even though freedom has its price I still want to be free from all that bullshit I have to face.

And my life will finally change :) And as for my today's post, purple is my favorite color ;)