Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Everyday is a struggle 6/30/15

People that don't have weight issues or addictive problems have no idea what a struggle food can be. Everyday is a struggle. Today's OA phone meeting the message I got was - one day at a time. Don't live in the past or the future. Both of those are a problem for me. I have always daydreamed. Always thinking of a better life in the future. I also relive bad things from the past. I have been divorced for 7 years now and live 900 miles away from "him" and I still have nightmares.

Yesterday my boss took us out to lunch. I tried to do the "eat only half". I ordered a spicy lamb burger. It was yummy. Ate the whole thing but I didn't eat the bun. Asked to not have the fries. It was a greek restaurant so I had 3/4 of a spanakopada. That is totally not how you spell it or say it. But then for dessert, 2 small scoops of vanilla ice cream. Ate it all. No surprise there. Somethings there is just no control over.

I am suppose to weigh in today but I am going to skip it and try to gain control of today. I will weigh in tomorrow.

I was so tired when I got home yesterday. I was in bed by 8:00. Hoping for a better day.

For today, I dug out my OA food journal. Will see if I can work on that today. One day at a time.