Note: If you're going to write me and not really read my profile ... then at least write me a message worth reading before I delete it. Like, how about write me a wild fantasy of seeing me on the street and raping me because you found me too sexy to resist. Then I could at least get all turned on before I delete your message.

Okay, now more seriously:

I love authenticity and honesty, even when the honest truth is that you have an emotional problem with short people and you're madly in love with your sister. Whatever your truth is, I've lived and loved with someone crazier. The hidden parts of people are the most fascinating parts.

I've come to realize that the most important experience to me at this time in my life is coming to know others deeply and to be known in return. This takes vulnerability, authenticity, compassion, and a very accepting attitude.

I love intimacy. I love seeing others as they truly are, with their guard down. I like revealing myself and feeling accepted for my naked, true self. To be seen and to see, deeply, through the heart, is what I want from friendship, romance, love, relationships and sex.

Note

I'm polyamorous and currently have two partners. I do not consider myself "poly saturated." In fact, I'm becoming quite interested in finding someone new to spend time with.

This profile is like an analogy of me, where "me" is my ego. My ego is an analogy of my real me. My "real me" is an analogy of the universe. These statements are an analogy for the nature of the universe – expounding on each reality through another analogy.

Recent History

Over the course of 2015 I traveled four months out of the year, made many new friends, visited several different eco-centered communities and fell very much in love. I moved from Buffalo to Ithaca to be with my new love, and my husband moved in as well.

I've been with fallen_paladin for six years. He's highly introverted, whereas I like a lot of attention, cuddling, talking, and sex. It's not in his nature to keep up with me. He really is my Paladin, and I am his Priestess.

It has been a huge relief to the strain of my relationship with fallen_paladin, as well as an exciting adventure to me to now be in love again and living with my new husband, MobiusCastle. (Our commitment ceremony was May 2016.)

Note

I have zero interest in a casual-sex relationship. I crave connection. Feeling understood is THE aphrodisiac for me.

Consciousness Exploration

I'm self-centered in that I'm centered and interested in my self. I am giving, in that I love to give of myself and my talents, which I do best when I center my focus around my own well-being first. I wish more people were selfish, in the sense of actually seeking the truth of themselves. (I also enjoy playing with language.)

I enjoy reinventing myself and exploring unconscious realms. I love tracing my emotions back to the first memory, the first time I felt that way.

I'm a board game designer and illustrator. It's something I do for fun. I grew up playing video games and board games – designing them comes naturally.

[About Polyamory]

Polyamory is loving multiple people at once, completely transparently. It is about being your full self with more than one person.

This beautiful short comic shows the different relationship types very clearly, easily and quickly (please do check it out!): http://i.imgur.com/xPacZwN.jpg

After you've looked at the above comic image . . . I believe I am somewhere between polyamory hierarchy, egalitarian polyamory and relationship anarchist. It depends on whether or not we're looking at me in practice, in emotions, or in philosophy.

[Before You Write Me]

Please read the "you should message me if..." section. If you don't qualify, your message will be deleted.

What I’m doing with my life

Lately I've been getting to know myself on a deeper level than I realized was possible. I've been using an array of emotional processing techniques that delve into established physical and emotional patterns.

Consciousness Alchemy finds the root of these patterns and allows you to see and connect with the root . . . It allows you to accept and forgive yourself in ways that self-help books, talks and documentaries have not allowed me to do. (At least, not on such a scale.)

MOVIES / SHOWSI stopped watching TV 2010 through 2015. Now, in June 2016 I'm experimenting with watching a few romance movies. I'm actually enjoying them to my own astonishment. They are great conversation-starters for me and my partners.

MUSICI listen to music I can dance to, relate to, meditate to or have sex to. I like things ranging from Japanese music, to folk music, to gypsy punk, to modern pop, to oldies to lots of stuff.

Mostly I like good conversation.

Indian classical is the only music I can listen to for hours without becoming annoyed or depressed by the music – unless I'm dancing. I love, love dancing for hours!

FOODPomegranates! I love fresh fruit, vegetables, nuts, seeds, and all the incredibly creative things that can be done with them. I used to make gourmet specialty health foods as part of my business and lifestyle. However, now I eat more simply.

If you want to be friends.You don't smoke.You're interested in authentic, vulnerable, open communication and connection.You enjoy photography, board games, yoga, spirituality, raw veg cuisine and/or consciousness alchemy.You're willing to meet as friends with no expectations.You're an adaptable, growing, changing person. Particularly if you're going through a major transition in life right now.You're aware that I'm polyamorous.You're interested in knowing (at least as acquaintances) my two lifetime partners.You're okay with my values, particularly my emphasis on taking really good care of one's health.You have at least a 80% match with me.

Note: You don't need to read my anything past this point in order to know me well enough to write me a letter. :)

Board Games I've Played: RankedRoughly organized with games I most want to play right now (June 20th 2016) towards the top.

Games I've played and wouldn't want to play again: Risk (dice-based and dull), Monopoly (overly long and dice-based), Chess (overly long and monotonous), Cards Against Humanity (unpleasantly graphic about some of the worst things in humanity and choked full of references I don't get and don't want to get), Fortress America (too many dice, aesthetically unpleasing), Zombie Dice (dice-based), battleship (boring, mostly luck)

Note: I've played dozens more games that I don't recall the names of.

Other Notes

You can increase the accuracy of your rating with an individual by going to "the two of us" section and then going to answers "she cares about" and then answering some of those that also are important to you. That can make a huge difference in just 10 questions.

Yes, I'm a raw vegetarian. I don't like to make a fuss about it. I'm not an activist, and I am not offended by meat. If I threw a hissy fit every time somebody did something bad for the planet I'd have died of a heart attack a long time ago.