Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Right now I am sitting her by myself while my husband slumbers and the kids snore too. I am staying up until midnight even if I am all alone. I am going to wake him up around 1130 but it is still not the same. My grandma is in the hospital tonight. She had her pinky toe removed because of a bone infection. I am very worried about her. This is the first year I have not welcomed the new year with her. I miss her so much.

I am so ready to kiss this year good bye. I know its not life changing but I know It can be better. I just need to stay positive. Right now I am crying here. I wish I could tell you everything going on right now. I will try to forget. Bury it all with 2008. Make this pain go away. I want my mom. I want to feel special again. Hugs to you all. Here comes 2009! I will continue to look up instead of down.

Yesterday Big Ro had his doctors appointment. He is confirmed to have type II diabetes. The doctor would love to see him lose 20 pounds here in the next year. Our resolution is to become a better fit family. We need to live long for our children.

I am also going to call the doctor about these migraines. They are more frequent now and I checked my blood pressure it is high again. I think with the weight loss it will get better but I want a doctor to tell me.

Right now I am at 236.5. I just weighed myself a few minutes ago. I am going to eat healthier and work out more to get down to a more acceptable weight. Since I decided a lifestyle change I went down 1 pound. I can do more if I put my mind to it.

I am going to become more patient here in 2008. I am also going to find a job to help out around her. Big Ro will be going back to school. So there are our resolutions. I hope we stick to them for our sake and our kids. (Roana is down 2 pds in 2 weeks! Go Roana)

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Where has 2008 gone? I swear the older I get the faster time goes! It seems like just yesterday Big Ro and I had just met and fell in love and now here we are celebrating our tenth new year together. Its crazy I tell you.

January 08 was a very rough month for me. My sister and I were arguing and I was going through a rough spot with Ro. I was tired and overworked and I missed my mom. Lots of headaches and heart aches.

February 08 was a slow month. Big Ro turned 32 this year. We are getting old.

March 08: I am 28 this month. I have blessed this world now for 28 years. LoL I also went to California to visit my family. We had a blast.

April: 08 My son is now 2 years old. He is officially a toddler and a holy terror at that one.

May 08: Big Ro and I have officially been married for 9 years. It has been rough but it is worth it. Roana is out of school for the summer. I will soon have a second grader.

June 08: The start of bad times in our life. No death or divorce but Roana goes to the hospital due to bronchitis & rogelio sprains his knee this is signs of times to come.

July: My mother in law was visiting us and we loved having her. One of my childhood friends passed away from a gunshot wound obtained defending her family. RIP Carriy. Road trip! We went to Vegas to drop off MIL and Roana also went to California. It is her first cross country trip away from us.

August: Road trip! Again! This time we are off to Utah to pick Roana up. She started the 2nd grade were does time fly?

September 08: This month was terrible for me. We were in a bad car accident. Our car was totalled and this really tested our relationship. Also Lil Ro fell and broke his arm. What a month it was.

October: This was halloween. We also got a new car. Life is looking a little better now. It has now been 10 years since Rogelio and I first met online.

November: Time for turkey. Time for breaks. Life is pretty good.

December: Here we are 1 year later. Ups and downs but still a family. Little Caylee Anthony has been found and we celebrated Christmas.

2008 has been a rough year for us. I pray this year only brings us better things and more love. Hope you all have a great new years and I will see you again in 2009.

Monday, December 29, 2008

8 years ago I had no idea what I was getting into. I was laying in my hospital bed staring at this screaming little red blob I would come to know as my daughter. I had all the hopes in the world for her. I knew with her father and I's knowlege she would become someone strong. I remember when I was told I would have her. I was terrified. I was supposed to have her on Janurary 22. She had her own plans and to this day is still this way.

I have watched her grow. She has fallen and bruised her ego and body but with my help she has gotten back up and survived. She gave me the best job ever. This job called mom. Today is not only your birthday but my anniversary. It is my 8 year mark in this journey called Parenthood. It has not been the best but I would not trade it.

Roana you never cease to amaze me. You are wonderful and the best daughter. You are so innocent but so intelligent. I wish for one moment I could look through your eyes and see the world as you do. I know you are going to be an amazing woman. No matter what you become or who you become you will always be my beautiful daughter. I cannot believe in 10 years you will be a legal adult. It seems as though just yesterday I was staring into your beautiful brown eyes for the very first time. I love you baby. I will always be your mom. Hospital Picture

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Today was more of a get the house back in order and do laundry day. You know the things most responsible people do on a daily basis. Just kidding of course. We just kind of lounged around and enjoyed ourselves. We watched a movie and talked a lot. We are doing well. I am sorry it was not more exciting but well sometimes it has to be slow.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

My baby girl's birthday is not technically until Monday but Daddy has to work and with it so close to the holiday parties are next to impossible. We decided to make a quick celebration here at home with her and us. We started our day by going to our favorite store. They bake fresh cakes for pretty good prices. We picked out a very cute pink cake with cherries and whipped cream. It was yellow cake and so good.

For dinner we had pizza. It is Roana's favorite. We got Papa Murphy's Chicago Stuffed pizza. It was delicious. I am taking her Monday to go shopping. I am so blessed. My baby is going to be eight. I cannot believe it. It seems like just yesterday we gave birth to her. I miss that baby. But it is amazing that she is developing into a beautiful young lady. I love her. No matter what she is that sweet angel i gave birth to.

Friday, December 26, 2008

We had a wonderful Christmas. We wanted to go down to Pueblo and just get away a little while. I really wanted to go walk on the riverwalk but with the winds there was no way no how. We headed over to the mall. It was still decorated for Christmas. We found these cute animal cut outs. I am very self consious right now about my weight so no pictures from me. We are blessed that we can get away even if it is just for a little while.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Our Christmas actually started while I was still dreaming of sugarplums. Roana woke up at 330 to use the bathroom and begged her daddy to open her gifts. He relented so I missed her face of opening her most desired clarice. I know she is happy though and that is the main thing. She has been full of life all day long.

We all finally got up at 830 and lil Ro ran to the tree. His first present was a beat bag of spiderman. Not that interested. Next was Linny and Ming Ming. That was a little better. The third gift made his eyes light up. It is a t-ball set from Little tikes. He pulls out the last box and it is a basketball hoop. He actually squealled and told us. Ball dad ball sissy. Peas. He has been shooting hoops all day long. It amazes me how athletic he is. He can pratically play any sport he desires and has the physique to match. He has also developed a love for music. I do not know what he wants to become but I have a feeling he will become something great.

We finally finished our Ham and Rex got to enjoy the bone. It was worth every cent and we got 4 meals out of it. I made a cheese cake and apple pie but only had a small peice of the apple pie. We are going to celebrate Roana's birthday on Saturday my baby is going to be 8.

Big Ro is awesome. He helped me with the kiddos all day and gave me love and hugs. He helped remind me family is most important. We are so blessed. Its not the presents that matter but who we are with. I love my life it could not get much better. I finally loaded our picture...enjoy,

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

No I did not double type. Tonight is the Eve of Christmas eve. I am so excited for Christmas to be here that I can hardly sleep. I took the kiddos to the dollar store and let them shop for us. Of course Lil Ros mommy did the shopping for him but it will be great. My children understand it is the thought that counts and not the actual present. I have a feeling we may ge our white Christmas. It was snowing when we went to the dollar store. Big Ro says we can anticipate 3 inches before morning. I have to find a place to video us. I want to make a Christmas Card. I made a cute one for Ro's work that I will include right now. The wording is deliberate as it is an inside joke at Ros work. Where has 2008 gone? That is another post for after the holiday however. I am going to lay down right now and try to sleep. One more sleep until Santa comes.

Monday, December 22, 2008

I was going to make pork tamales and sweet tamales for Christmas but Ro and I decided to go ahead and do a traditional american christmas and make tamales this weekend. I called and ordered our honey baked ham and will go get the fixings for a great Christmas dinner.

This first day of Winter Break was very trying. I was fighting with the kids all day long only 2 weeks and 6 days remaining until the kids are back in school.

I want to go out and look at lights but it is so cold here. I have no idea where to go honestly either. Since electricity has risen it seems that people are cutting back on everything. I am thinking of doing a Papa Murphy's pizza for Christmas eve but have not discussed it with Ro yet. I am going to make a christmas message on Weds for all of you. I hope we find an appopriate place to do it and OMG you will hear my ugly voice.

I am doing well right now. Its mellow but dont we all long for that. I cannot believe 2 days until Christmas eve. This year has flew by.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

It actually reached 30 today. Hurray! We went to the mall again today and got some more clothes from Steve and Berrys. I am going to miss that store. Then we stopped at McDonalds for some ice cream. At 50 cents for a cone it was great. Just a slow day with the family. Big Ro only works on Monday and Tuesday then we have 5 days off. Tomorrow I start the tamales for Christmas eve and day! I am going to buy some no bake cookies for santa and maybe some skim milk! I am finally excited for Christmas.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Yes winter is officially here and mother nature let us know it. I am dying to go walking to the store and get out of this apartment but at 10 degree or less I am dreaming. I attempted to take the kids out but we could only handle about 20 minutes before their cheeks were bright red and we felt some freezing fingers. I wish it would just snow. When it snows it seems like it is cold but not quite as cold. The joys of living in Colorado. We attempted to go to the mall but the line to it was seriously a mile long. We ended up just staying home. I guess that is best but sometimes I am antsy. We all need to get away sometimes.

Friday, December 19, 2008

I was kind of hoping Caylee was still alive but when they discovered the bones I knew it was her. Today they released the official statement that the bones were indeed sweet Caylee Anthony. Her death has been ruled a homicide. Big Ro is the one who showed me the news and he even hugged me. I never met this child and my heart breaks for her. I cannot wrap my mind around what happened. This poor baby most likely died suffering looking into the eyes of the person she loved most her mother. I pray today that Caylee gets justice. So many people could have loved her and this witch took her away from the world. Casey you will get yours for this. You will never see the light of day again and if you the publicwill make sure your life is a living hell. Your job was to protect that child and you failed miserably. You make me sick.

Caylee now has a home in heaven with an angel who loves her with her whole heart. RIP Caylee. You have touched so many lives in the short time we knew you. You are beautiful in death as you were in life. I will hug my son tonight as hard as you deserved. I love you sweet angel even though I never knew you. Now I have to break the news to my daughter. We sent a pet to you named Cana. Take care of her angel and one day we will meet in heaven.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

I realized my mom is dead. Is that funny that it has been so long and today it hit me hard. I was thinking about what if? I went to pick up the phone to call her and I realized she was gone. I miss her alot like today. She was a pretty good lady. Not perfect but ok.

Today I got most of my christmas shopping done. I need to finish buying for the little one but my big girl is almost there. I recieved my first Christmas Card this year. Thanks Meaghan its beautiful. Slow days but tomorrow is the last day for Roana until the beginning of Jan. Wish me luck and I will take more pics.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Today we went walking to the dollar tree. That is a good mile and half away from our home. I bought snacks for Roana's Holiday party tomorrow. I picked up some trail mix and the stuff to make chocolate covered pretzels. I did not eat any of it at all! I am determined to eat a healthier lifestyle now. I have to set myself straight. We went to the store today too. My family eats a lot of beans but for one I want to cut back so I bought some fresh cut green beans. I think this year is going to lead to a healthier me.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

But not tonight. Not right now. I was looking on in my boards and I heard a strange banging noise in the kitchen. I could not understand what is going on. Is someone banging a steak I dont know about it. I run in there and standing before me is my wonderful son. He is holding an empty box. Of you know what? Eggs! I look at the walls and floors and all dozen of them are a fatality. I had to walk away or strangle him. Do not mess with my food man. I know I know.....watch him but why can't daddy help. I know one day I will look back and laugh but right now I will try not to cry. I wanted a boy and here he is. I guess no more games of wiffleball in the house.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Today I woke up and the room is freezing. No way the heat is on I thought! I woke up and checked the weather. The anchorwoman says Be careful out there at -7 degrees the frostbite can be instantaneous and irreversable. No way my kids are going out in that weather too dang cold. I picked up the phone and crawled back in bed. I grabbed my laptop and settled into what I thought would be the last day of BBC forever. I was heartbroken when they shut my board down at 1025! Then I noticed we got a new board. We are now posting on BBCC. I am so glad my friends and I still have a home. I plan on checking out nbbc but not until I am comfortable. Its amazing that change is the smallest thing. I have developed a friendship with every single lady and I was going to miss them so. So it was cold and my day got better. I need to christmas shop but do not want to walk in the cold. I hope it gets done here in the next couple of days. I guess we will see what happens.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Today we got hit hard from snow and cold. I need to get out to the mall to buy some clothes as Steve and Barry's is going out of business. We did very well. We got a coat, 4 pairs of jeans, fleece sweater and 5 shirts for a whopping 50.00! Then we went to best buy and picked up Mario Kart. We were going to save it for Christmas but I wanted to play it now. LoL Did I mention that Ro got his hair cut yesterday? He looks so hot. Oh my god he amazes me. Yes we argue and fight but we are soul mates. I wanted blimbies for dinner but they had no good bread. I thought bread was cooked daily. Gross day old bread no way no how. So we settled for Subway. It was a very uneventful day but with it being cold and snowy I loved it. I love my life. Its not perfect but its mine.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

This morning we went to Ross to see if we could find some new clothes for our party. I knew I would not find anything. I never do. But this time I was in for a surprise. I found not 1 but 3 dresses I fell in love with. I tried on the first one. It was wonderful. It had a full bubble skirt and was strapless covered in chiffon and had half sleeves. I was so shocked that it fit. I took it off and thought this was the dress. Normally when I try on dresses I try size 24 or 22.

Surprisingly this was a size 20! I am a size smaller then I was last year. I then tried on another dress that was kind of snug. No way is this a 22. I took it off and surprisingly it was an 18. Maybe if I lose another 15 pounds I will fit into a size 18 soon. I would be so happy to keep dropping and stop gaining. I however am off subject. I ended up getting the size 20 dress. It was not too big and not too small. I know I will be able to wear it other places too.

At 530 our friend showed up to babysit out kids. I was so happy. Ro and I walked to the car holding hands like newlyweds. We arrived at the hotel 25 minutes later. It was so wonderful, Music was playing and they had a slide show. The candles were lit and appetizers were served. I felt so grown up. I did not take any pictures at the party and Big Ro and I were dancing our butts off. His moves were so sexy that I was giddy to be with him.

I did drink though and I kinda regret it. When I drink I get very jealous. Ro went to the DJ and requested a song.

I danced with him a couple of songs and we decided to go home. For one the babysitter was tired and my feet were sore. We still held hands to the car and I told him my behavior was ridiculous and I love him. I ended up getting one drink and had two bought for me. I drank Jolly Rancher and an Amaretto Sour. I don't drink often so this was enough to knock me on my behind. I have posted some pics but I want to post my professional one. I have to hook up the scanner again. I had a good time all in all and I am very lucky to have a great husband.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Today was a lovely day. In Mexico it is a great day and it is fitting that today was a good day. I have my wii again. Woo hooo! I am trying to find Mario Kart. I love it. We had to send it to Nintendo to be repaired. I hope we can find it this weekend.

Tomorrow I am going to the Christmas party. I am so worried as I have yet to find the perfect dress. I know God will provide. So far so good. I cannot wait. I will post tomorrow after the party.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

I am so pissed at our goverment right now. We are handing out money left and right to the fat cats but sticking it to the little people like me! They taxed Big Ro's bonus at 38 %! I cannot beleive it but we are talking about the United States of America here. I will not bitch too much as well he still has a job and its not their fault. Right now many people would love his job and I am forever grateful for it.

Both kids are almost over their illness now. I tell you what I am so sick of snot and boogers and the hack hack hacking. I am sending Roana to school tomorrow. I have too. She has 3 weeks off here in the next month alone!

Right now I am so fed up with this dog of mine. Rex will not stop going inside of his kennel. My job is mom so guess who cleans up all his kaka. Yep you got it. I do! If he is not careful. I will tie a big red bow around his neck and set him free.

God I need a drink. I think on Saturday they have a bar at the party. I will have to have a drink or two. I usually dont drink but this year has been rough and I deserve at least a glass of champagne. Mommy is going crazy. Mommy is pulling her hair out. I am grateful and will continue to be. Life is not that bad I have no right to gripe right now.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

I will start off saying God is good. I was very worried about Christmas this year but now I know God will provide. The insurance called me and I agreed to a settlement so my kids will now have a great Christmas. I am not going to go overboard but I know what I spend will not hurt us either.

I am so grateful right now for my hubby's job. Not only are they increasing work. Today he got a letter telling him he earned a fiscal bonus. Hurray! This weekend is also the Christmas party at the Antler Hilton. We have a sitter and are ready for that for sure.Today the kids are home from school. Roana has been up all night coughing and lil Ro had a bad fever. I do not like fevers at all. I gave him ibuprofen and finally the fever broke after a lukewarm bath. Those were very scary hours for me.

Monday, December 8, 2008

RULES: There are 100 statements and you bold the ones you have done. Grab it and play for yourself!! (This was taken from a friends blog) I just noticed it is missing a few statements. So lets say 96 statements about myself1. Started your own blog2. Slept under the stars3. Played in a band4. Visited Hawaii5. Watched a meteor shower6. Given more than you can afford to charity.7. Been to Disneyland8. Climbed a mountain.9. Held a praying mantis10. Sang a solo12. Visited Paris13. Watched a lightning storm at sea14. Taught yourself an art from scratch15. Adopted a child16. Had food poisoning17. Walked to the top of the Statueof Liberty18. Grown your own vegetables19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France20. Slept in an overnight train21. Had a pillow fight22. Hitchhiked (in 1998 our car broke down in the middle of the freeway. We had to hitchhike to closet phone my sil & I)23. Taken a sick day when you're not ill24. Built a snow fort25. Held a lamb26. Gone skinny dipping27. Run a marathon28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice29. Seen a total eclipse (solar)30. Watched a sunrise or sunset31. Hit a home run32. Been on a cruise33. Seen Niagara Falls in person34. Visited the birthplace of yourancestors35. Seen an Amish community36. Taught yourself a new language37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person39. Gone rock climbing40. Seen Michelangelo's David41. Sung karaoke42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant44. Visited Africa45. Walked on a beach by moonlight46. Been transported in an ambulance (The car accident. On the way home)47. Had your portrait painted48. Gone deep sea fishing49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling52. Kissed in the rain53. Played in the mud55. Been in a movie56. Visited the Great Wall of China57. Started a business58. Taken a martial arts class59. Visited Russia60. Served at a soup kitchen61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies62. Gone whale watching63. Got flowers for no reason66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp67. Bounced a check68. Flown in a helicopter69. Saved a favorite childhood toy70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial71. Eaten cavier.72. Pieced a quilt73. Stood in Times Square74. Toured the Everglades75. Been fired from a job76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London77. Broken a bone78. Been on a speeding motorcycle79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person80. Published a book81. Visited the Vatican82. Bought a brand new car83. Walked in Jerusalem84. Had your picture in the newspaper85. Read the entire Bible86. Visited the White House87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating88. Had chicken pox89. Saved someone's life (3 times actually. My nephew was a baby and he was in the store choking. He was turning blue and I had to give him the hemlich. Happened at his house too when he was choking on a penny. I had to give him the hemlich and did a mouth sweep. My nephew swallowed too much cough syrup and I had to gag him. )90. Sat on a jury91. Met someone famous (Pauly Shore in NYC 1997)92. Joined a book club93. Lost a loved one94. Had a baby95. Seen the Alamo in person96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake97. Been involved in a lawsuit98. Owned a cell phone99. Been stung by a bee100. Read an entire book in one dayFeel free to take this and do it too. Maybe you will learn some things about yourself

Sunday, December 7, 2008

A couple of weeks ago I got an elf from the second hand store. His name is Hermey from Rudolph and the misfits. I have heard of this great thing called elf on a shelf and it finally clicked. This tradition has you put an elf out on a shelf. The kids see it and ask what is he doing there. You tell them that the elf is watching their every move and reports them to santa. The evening when they fall asleep you move him. I decided to give it a shot. So far it is working. he has sat on top of tv, inside entertainment center, on the tree and on top of the speakers. The kids are listening more too. Hopefully this tradition continues for awhile. Big Ro laughed at first and now thinks this is the greatest thing ever.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

We woke up at 8 and got the kids ready. We stopped at Burger king and grabbed some sandwiches then drove around a little bit. The kids cracked me up as we pulled into Big Ro's parking lot. We walked in the front doors and were hit with Christmas cheer. On the tables there were stocking crafts. The windows were decorated with poinsettas and the tree was trimmed. There were juice boxes laying out for the kids and all was well. They brought out pizza and cake. Then we sang Christmas Carols. Suddenly HO HO HO. Santa stood in front of us. The kids were quite pleased with their presents. Roana a hannah montana set and lil Ro a megablocks truck. We were driving home and this was our conversation.

Roana: Mommy....Susan: Yes?Roana: Mommy that was not the real santa!Susan: (Surprisingly) What? Why do you say that?Roana: Under his beard he had a blonde mustache. He was fake mom.Susan: Yes well (stammering for excuse while laughing) um it is december and incredibly busy. So santa sent his helper.Roana: Ok mom. I just wanted you to know that was not the real santa. I need to see the real one.

I about lost it. Hopefully next year santa at least shaves before he gets in costume. LoL

Another conversation over dinner:Roana: Mom where does santa get the money if you dont give it to him.Susan: Why baby?Roana: This is from walmart mom. I know it.Susan: Well he sells stuff to walmart baby.Roana: Well where does he get the money for supplies mom?Susan: (thinking quickly) Well he sells the reindeer poop to farmers hon. 9 reindeer plus backups make lots of poop and the farmers need it.Roana: Gross mom but that is nice of Santa.

I have no clue where I came to get that answer. I hope she doesnt get the idea to sell our dogs poop to farmers now. Its going to be a long season. All these questions. No pictures sorry. Lil Ro kept me on my feet.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Yes today was another one of those lets bundle up and brave the elements days. It also is unfortunately one of those days where I want to pull my hair out. I don't drive so taking Lil Ro out of the house was out of question. I took my daily doseage of ibuprofen and prayed the hardest I could. I need to find some way to let this child's energy out. We played just a little in the snow but at a bitter 17 degrees I could not stand it too long. I love the winter and the diamond snow but right now I am craving some spring. Heather, Kelly you guys want to take Lil Ro for me for just a week? We can trade off in the summer promise. No seriously I hope tomorrow warms up just a little so we can get out of the house for a couple of hours. I am wiped out. I am ready for bed and it just barely hit 9. Tomorrow will be better I know it. I can survive this and it is only the beginning of winter.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Honestly you guys did not miss much in my world these last three days. I took this time to relax with the kids and see how long we could go internet free. We did well but I missed my blog. I am going to make it a point to spend less time here and more on my kids and apartment. I am loving this holiday season. On Monday I finally put up our tree. I am disappointed to say that our tree has finally seen its last year. We bought him in November of 99 and he will not light up anymore. I put the ribbons and globes on him but we will be lightless this year. I am telling everyone we are going green this year. LoL.

Honestly we just relaxed a lot these last couple of days. With the cold and snow we have stayed shut in. I am not risking getting sick this year at all. Just kidding of course. Well kinda kidding.

This weekend is the kids Christmas party at Big Ros work. I am so excited! That means only 1 week until it is dh & I date night. Woohoo! We have not been out alone in over a year seriously. Good times ahead and I will update more often. Sorry I left in a hustle just needed to get away for awhile.

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