Archive for December, 2005

Okay. I am in Marvin Center, and if I didn’t have my laptop with me, I would have gone back to New Hall just to check my notes for a class’ final I took yesterday out of panic I didn’t answer four of six. I could only think of 3 of the terms I answered. Then I got that inner feeling of panic…I had my laptop, so I scrolled through my notecards, and I found the fourth term I did.

I have a 4 page “final test” due Tuesday.

I have a 5 page paper due Friday.

I have a 20 page (roughly) Final Exam due next Monday.

Other people crank out four page page and five page papers. I can’t. I draft, revise, tweek. I don’t think I have confidence in my “cranking out” ability. However, I was able to crank out a pretty good International Organizations paper in about 2 and a half days work…don’t know the grade yet, but it should be good.

In nine days, Semester Five of College will be over. Only two more of undergraduate left. This semester was not my happiest. By no means am I depressed by it, but the work just sucked a lot of fun out of it. Next semester is not going to be any better. Another, probably harder, grad class. History for major class. Then a normal History and a normal Political Science class. I don’t like the history topic, and for Political Science I am debating between a class with a good professor, good topic, but a lot of reading. Versus alright class, alright professor, little reading.

I will hopefully have a paying internship with the DLCC. The interview for that is Wednesday, but it will be more work and draining than Carnahan.

I have thought about dropping the History major to a minor, but I really don’t want to. I mean, it is not assured that I am going to follow through with the Masters. I am pretty confident that I will, but I don’t want to drop the major if there is any possibility of me not doing the Masters. I am already kicking myself for dropping History of Modern China instead of International Organizations. While having a full time faculty professor is good for Political Science inside baseball at GW, but in terms of classes I like, it would have worked out better if I hadn’t.

One thing that simply frustrates me are some people at GW. I won’t go in depth into this because I do want this little diatribe to be public, but let’s say some of descriptions in the College Rankings/Prospective books are pretty accurate. The hardest thing for me to wrap my mind around at times are other reasons to come to GW than the ones I had. I just struggle with it at times.

In nine days, I get to go home. Then I return 23 days later. Perhaps it will be better because I will know how to handle a Grad class better. Or maybe the people situation will improve. Who knows. Back to reading. Nine days…