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Monthly Archives: June 2012

Hey it’s been awhile since i blog. I was busy with my new job and it cost me a lot of my daily time. But I’m still enjoying it though. A little bit story when I got this one, just before i got an interview, my brother in law ask me to work with him in his new project. And offered me a better salary and the work it’s not so difficult. Moreover it’s sooo easy. I just have to stay home and just updating some of the social network. Or i can bring my work everywhere i wanted to. Oh wow i can’t even think an easier one.

But somehow after i do a lot of thinking, i prefer to take the first one. Although i have to work my ass off in this one, in fact that’s the reason why. Well… no pain no gain right? Just thought the one that my bro in law offered me, it’s like it’s too good to be true. Maybe it is, but i had my decision. I’m just grateful to have those opportunity just at the time i needed one. Thanks a lot for offering me the job, appreciated it. But so sorry bro… Maybe if you let me know before i got this one, i would gladly accept the offer.

And at this time, all I wanna say is that I’m so grateful to have all the guys, all the family that willing to help me in my hard times. In this couple of days i had problems simultaneously. And at that time too i got helped. Always got the answer for all my problems from my family and friends. I appreciated them, admire them and have respect for them. That’s why they do the same for me.

I remember Dale Carnegie said on his book I once read “Make the other person feel important – and do it sincerely”

This one I dedicated to all of you guys… who helped me answering my problems, soulfully and financially 😀 .

Tomorrow is gonna be my first day in my new job. I still have my previous job as an insurance agent for about 3 years now. It’s been an up and down working in an insurance company. I know working as an insurance agent is a good job with a good future. But I don’t know it’s just not right for me.

For 3 years I’ve struggled and motivated. For 3 years I’ve been let down, come back up and trying to convince myself that this was the right job for me for almost everyday, but still can’t find the right formula to make it easier and the comfort of doing it. It’s like I’m standing on the edge of a cliff. I survived, but just making one wrong step, and then i will fall off.

So I guess it’s time for me to consider a new job without leaving the old one. And tomorrow will be the day! Just hope i can have more salary in this one :D.

What makes the world without music? That’s the first question that comes up to me at this moment. Musician won’t be musician that’s for sure :). They will be politician maybe… oh that sucks. Its been a while since i enjoyed hearing music after i have this hearing problem. I was diagnosed withsudden deafness symptom’s which i lose about 50% of my hearing ability that forced me to use a couple of hearing aids on my ears. So after that, i lost my interest in music bit by bit.

Well it’s not that i can’t hear music completely. I still can hear them but not as clearly as normal people. Moreover a music that i never heard before. I really have to pay more attention in order to enjoyed it cause you know, you must hear at least 80% of the music instrument. Well it’s kinda suck up my energy, cause i have to put most of my concentration on my ear at that time.

No singing out loud in my car no more, never interested in seeing music videos no more, never listen to the radio for over 3 years. My life was like a plain white paper with no writings or drawing on it. Just flat out. Well….kinda. But seriously i feel like i lost about 50% of my life. I lost lots amount of spirit booster.

But as the time went by, 3 years i had all kinds of therapy and meditation to make my hearing a least better. I feel like i gain a lil’ bit of it (hearing) right now. I really hope so. And not long ago I’m starting to write a blog, just trying to share my thoughts through the days. And the needs of music strikes me once again just to get my inspiration back in writing.

I’m a big fan of Incubus so i listen to their album. I plug in my headphone, put it on and play the album. BANG! it’s like all the lost inspiration, all the hype, the hope, motivation just burst in to me all at once! Yes! This is the soundtrack of my life, and this is my story. And so i decided that i can’t live without music in my life.

And yes, music can make you feel happy, sad, angry or mad as well. But in the end, music takes you somewhere. Somewhere beyond your imagination whether you like it or not.

So whatever you are feeling, whatever situation you are in and wherever you are, hear music.