Amber Portwood just breaks my heart. Amber recently returned to prison to serve out the remainder of her original five year sentence. Amber was originally enrolled in a state funded drug rehabilitation program in lieu of serving time but she decided to leave the program and spend the rest of her time behind bars.

Well, Amber is speaking out about what led to her decision – and tragically it was a suicide attempt. Amber claims she became so depressed in her drug treatment program she over-dosed on pills and decided the program wasn’t for her, opting instead for a jail term.

This isn’t the first suicide attempt by the Teen Mom star. She attempted suicide last year and and announced that she had been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder.

Speaking to Good Morning America from jail, Amber explained the circumstances. “I had taken 30 Suboxone [a drug used to treat opioid addictions] within 3 days. The depression took over. I would take 4 or 5 at a time.”

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“The depression took over. I’d just take four to five at a time underneath my tongue, and nod out. I had more than addiction problems. I had, you know, mental problems, too.”

“I felt like I’d rather do my time and get it over with, and make the best of a situation that’s been handed to me,” Amber explained of her return to prison.

“In my situation, I felt in the program there were a lot of eyes on me. And it was very uncomfortable. I was not using my anti-psych medication even,” Amber admitted. “You know, I was very depressed, all alone, all bitter at everybody. I felt like that wasn’t the life I wanted to live, I felt like I’d rather do my time, and get it over with, and make the best out of the situation that’s been handed to me.”

But the now retired reality TV star promises she’s going to turn her life around and use this opportunity wisely. “I’m not just going to sit. I’m going to do substance abuse classes. I’m going to get my GED.”

Hopefully Amber can really, truly turn her life around for her daughter. And for herself.