Tuesday, 7 February 2012

In past few days I have been walking in a shadow-light world.
It all started when my mother had a fall on Dec 28th and was admitted in hospital on the 29th. She had her surgery on the last day of 2011 (Dec 31st). She came home on Jan 8th.

My sister Namrita had arrived on Jan 4th and she nursed my mother day and night like a small baby.
My elder sister Anju and her husband Prem arrived on Jan 20th.

A pressure sore on mother 's back took on a very ugly shape, a doctor had seen her twice, but it was not getting better and she was in pain. We called a specialist who advised hospitalisation and surgical treatment.
She did not do good after that. The doctors and hospital staff were very indifferent and did not treat us well.We strongly suspect they mucked up my mum' s treatment.
On Sun Jan 29th Mama was very weak. But she expressed a desire to walk and get well and live. Namrita and I were with her.
In the afternoon Prem and Anju came to relieve us when Mama started complaining of unbearable stomach ache - there were other worrying symptoms. A nurse gave her an injection and that did not help her.

We all stood around her bed praying Prem was on his knees - it was like a dream to us. I think my mother had a vision of heaven because in the midst of her pain she said,"The is a great crowd here." We were praying and holding her hands when she slipped away. We did not realize what had happened. But the angels just took her.
We brought Mama home as is the tradition in India.And for the next 24 hours the house was flooded with family and friends. We received countless phone calls, messages and emails from all over the world.Friends we had not been in touch with in 30 years contacted us. My mother had touched so many lives.

On Feb 1st we had a beautiful memorial service for her. Mamrita and her son Rayguel left on the 2nd.Now I am trying to pick up the pieces of my life.

I never thought my mom would die so soon.I have to rethink my whole life and start all over again. Living alone scares me.
Prem and Anju will be here for a few more days. They are very kind to me.Without my sisters help I don 't know what I would have done.

We are trying to settle some church issues and plan for the future. Need a lot of prayer for that.
I can visit my sisters for a while and they have all invited me, I need God 's guidance for my future
.God is with me. He never forsakes his children.Although I pass among the shadows and light He will come to me.

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Fertilize my soul:

Oh, Amrita! I am so sorry! Your mother was your dearest friend and I share your grief. Your life will change, now. Remember to be very kind to yourself and to let the changes come in their own time. You will be ready for each new strand in your life when the time is right.

Dear Amrita,"even when I pass through the valley of death, you are with me."I am grieving for you and your heavy loss.You have stayed faithfully with your Mom and never left her, even though the burden must have been heavy.I pray for you and for your church.I pray for your present and your future. I know God has made his plans for you, to give you future and hope.I shall follow you closely wherever you go.Your Felisol

Dear Amrita, I read your account of what has been happening to you and yours which brought tears to my eyes. Especially concerning your troubles with the church property, and now your troubled feelings about what you will do now your mother is gone, how you will go on without her. I know you are very strong and will find the right path in time. I am sure your mother was lifted up by angels, and it sounds like that many have been touched by both yours and your mother's example of faith and good works. My thoughts will be with you.

The fact of life is, no matter how many people are around us, we are always alone, more so, if we are spiritually bent.

I know a beloved friend of mine, June, in Pune, after her mother passed away, she opened the house and people come in and out, as if it were their house, bringing in goodies and even a meal, sharing this with her, and praying with her. It takes courage to be alone, but He provides that too.

My thoughts are with you and I said this too in FB, if there is anything I can do for you, do write in to: juliadutta@rediffmail.com

Dearest Amrita,The Lord bless you and keep you and make His face to shine upon you and give you peace, His peace, that passes all understanding. He has promised to never leave you nor forsake you. You are loved with theeverlasting love of God and all your friends are praying for you and your church. I am so sorry for all that has happened.Love,Sandy

Amrita, I have sensed the 'darkness' that has surrounded you for a while and know that God had placed His banner over you. Your agony of spirit moves me, has moved me for quite some time and I can only rest as I claim and trust in God's sovereignty over you. What a tremendous hole is now left that previously filled your life. I pray that you experience a filling of God's grace like you have never known and that you know that His glory fills the temple and overflows on to all of us who share in your journey. I love you dearly, Amrita. You are truly my sister. Upholding you in prayer. Love, thoughts and prayers, Sita

I am praying for you Amrita, that God will envelope you with His love. He will never forsake you and He will guide you through this valley. His presence will be with you at all times, no matter what comes against you.I'm so sorry for the loss of your dear mother. I walked through a dark valley when I lost my sweet mother, but God was with me.

Dear Amrita,I was in prayer for you this morning as the Holy Spirit led...I pray that he will guide you,comfort you,meet all your needs in the days and weeks to come. I will continue to hold you up in prayer. May his many blessings be with you.

I see You experienced real Biblical desert - desert with all this heat, problems and tires. I prayed about You and other Christians in Northern India this week and previous. I believe You will meet Your dearest Mum on the New Earth.

Oh Amrita, I'm so sorry you lost your Mother too soon. My heart aches for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.Just think of the wonderful reunion we all will have with our loved ones in Heaven one day.Please take you concerns to Jesus while you wade through these new waters. Love in Christ, Sally

Amrita, I am so sorry for your lost. I have not come buy in a while and today I am staying late to read my favorites and I find this sad news. May God comfort you and your family, and protect your church from any malicious intent.

just reading this post and what you were going through with your mom's passing ... my heart & prayers go out to you dear sister - and we DO KNOW that God will continue to care for you as you remain faithful to Him ... blessings on your life and this next stage ...

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I am a single , evangelical, born-again Christian woman, I was my mother 's care giver till she died on Jan 29,2012.I am serving the Lord in my church and community.The purpose of my blog is to share the trials and triumphs of life in India and encourage friends to pray for us.You can call it a cross cultural blog

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