Sunday, August 16, 2015

These
words remind me that life is a journey which humanity shares. The importance we give this sojourn, as so many
learned people would say, should be of utmost concern to all of us. Instead of going through our time here on
automatic, reacting to whatever circumstances we find ourselves in,
individually or as a society, why don’t we use these precious moments to
appreciate the gift we’ve been given? Such
an effort to genuinely take control of our lives, to sincerely pay more attention
to what life is telling us, makes sense, does it not?

Of course, to most people, “listening to
life”, means hearing the sounds coming from outside of ourselves. Not that it isn’t true, but it may be well
less than half of what there is to hear.
We can observe the veracity of this statement if we employ the ‘watcher’
we all have. For instance, while someone
else is speaking, we usually have a simultaneous stream of thoughts commenting
on what we’re hearing. Check it out the
next time you listen to a colleague or person on t.v. Even while we’re in the middle of our
backyards admiring nature, our mind is speaking to us. If we listen to the wind, we may find this
‘commentator’ reminding us of past ghost stories or tales of loneliness.

And what about the reactions we
experience as we go about our daily schedule at work, our time with family and
friends, or watching the negative news and commentaries on t.v.? Do we really pay attention to the continuous
stream of thoughts and emotions that compose the reactions we feel to what
we’re hearing? Probably not.

To elaborate further, what follows may be
sensitive material for the reader, but they are experiences I wish to share,
and I apologize if anyone is offended. For
example, I’m a white American living fulltime in Mexico. When I came here in March 1994, I attended an
excellent Spanish language school in the beautiful city of Cuernavaca, located
about 45 minutes southwest of Mexico City.
It was wonderful living there with a Mexican family and getting to know
the culture through immersion before and after school. Being surrounded everyday by people, whose
skin coloring ran from a very light tan to dark brown and sometimes black, was
interesting. Since this involvement in
Mexico was somewhat new to me, I sometimes felt a little intimidated, but
because I had experienced living in other cultures with differences in skin
pigmentation, I knew that I would soon become accustomed to being different
again.

However, that wasn’t the only cultural
distinction that I, as a foreigner, had to experience and to which I had to
assimilate. Let me tell you about what
two of my classmates and I underwent at the colorful open air market in
downtown Cuernavaca one day before we returned home from school. You see, part of the Mexican culture is
hearing vendors use skin color to call to potential customers as they pass by
their stands. One of my friends was
African American and the other one was Caucasian American, so as we walked
along we could hear the people calling to us using the words, “guerito” (whitey)
and “negrito” (blacky). Of course, we
all felt a negative reaction inside ourselves, and we talked about it while we
were in the market. Our black friend
found it more difficult than we did not to say anything to the vendors because
of the racial injustice he’d experienced in our home country. And here we were in a different culture
having to understand that things were the reverse of the states, for no racial
slurs or disrespect were intended.

I’d also had a similar reaction when I
was living in Saltillo, Mexico a couple of years before, but fortunately, a
Mexican friend educated me on this part of the culture. And since then, with a friendly tonality I’ve
even greeted vendors in return with “Hola, Morenito” (“Hi, Brownie”), and
they’ve smiled and laughed in response.
Of course, whereas Mexicans wouldn’t greet each other as such, I have
that alternative since I look like a foreigner.

There are other cultural differences here
in Mexico to which one needs to assimilate in order to feel at home, especially
if a person is living here year round.
One of them that stands out is the expression “gringo”. This label is what Mexicans began calling the
American soldiers who came here for a short time during a conflict in the 19th
century. It means “green go” and
originated because of the soldiers’ green uniforms and the violation of
Mexico’s sovereignty. As a result, it’s
common to hear Mexican friends refer to an American friend as “gringito” which
is the diminutive of gringo. Of course,
in this form and with a friendly tone of voice, there’s nothing harmful or
negative intended. But it does take some
time to accustom oneself to this term.
On the other hand, it’s different when one is out in public and is
called “Gringo” with a less than respectful tone of voice. This has happened to me only twice in the
more than 21 years I’ve lived here. Such
an experience hurts, but the only thing to do in public is to appear not to
notice, keep on moving, and work on the emotional reaction at home.

The objective of the two examples I’ve
given above is to point out that as humans we hear life experiences on both
external and internal levels, and we really cannot afford to turn a deaf ear to
either one. We need to pay attention to
both and respond in appropriate ways. If
we remain hearing-impaired, internally is where we suffer the most damage,
e.g., repression, depression, and more.
Of course, external harm usually results from people expressing
themselves in out-of-control reactionary patterns.

So what should we do to use what life
offers us? There’s a lot, but basically
it boils down to this: pay attention! When we’re listening to something, i.e.,
people upset about racial injustice, and feel ourselves wanting to turn the
channel or a deaf ear to it, we should listen as attentively as possible while
being aware of what’s happening inside ourselves without letting it distract us
from being present—in the now. When we
get to a quiet place at home, at work, or elsewhere, it’s appropriate to open
and spy upon what we’ve just experienced with discernment, letting it resurface
in our minds without reacting to it, and staying with it until it simmers
down—reaches an equilibrium. Also, we
should take the time every day to just be with our minds, observing all
thoughts and emotions while staying tranquil.
Finally, if there are actions we need to take, then we’ll know what to
do based on what comes to us from the non-thinking, non-conceptual,
non-reactive part of the mind.
Subsequently, we use the thinking mind to carry these responses out. If we do these four things during our stay in
this world, we’ll develop the wisdom to benefit not only ourselves but others.

So yes, we should pay more attention to
what life tells us. Not letting life go
by on automatic, we hear what comes to us from without and within, we
understand our reactions and probably those of others, and we improve our
ability to relate with the world. And
just as Larry Rosenberg in his book, “Three Steps To Awakening” says, we find
that all of life is a relationship. If
we wake up to this gift, then life can be doable, peaceful, and happy.

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Racism has plagued
American society for almost four centuries.
Debilitating our country on an individual, national, and international
level, it seems to have no end in sight.
Thousands must be asking themselves how to resolve this horrendous
issue; that is, to prevent it from arising even in its subtlest form to that of
claiming innocent lives, while recognizing it won’t ever be completely
vaporized from human consciousness. As
John Metta so rightly affirms in his article, “I, Racist”, in the Huffington
Post, people who suffer racial injustice need not be silent but speak out,
while those in the seemingly, unaffected majority must open their deaf ears and
listen to the words of the besieged.
Whereas taking these two actions should be considered as major steps to
a solution, more needs to be done.

First, it’s essential for all parties in
this conflict to reflect on racial conditioning and how they are and have been
personally affected by it. Let’s assume,
for example, that all of us are born into this world with a clean slate: that
is, there’s not an ounce of racial programming in us; not that some would not
debate this perspective, but let’s put that aside for now. This type of social customizing begins on the
first day with our family, and however they’ve been conditioned will be taught
directly and indirectly, good and bad, to us, no matter if they have or have
not suffered racial prejudice. This
training will continue on with other relatives, nursery and preschool,
elementary and secondary school, the university, and finally coworkers,
supervisors, managers, directors, the media and society’s groups and
leaders.

Such programming affects how we
think. When we identify with our thoughts
(negative, neutral, positive), we lose control and act them out in the way we
speak to others, including physical altercations, sometimes to the extreme,
such as the nine killings that recently happened in South Carolina. Consequently, if we’re not psychologically
abnormal, we may be consumed with guilt and regret. Although harmful thinking with all the racial
slurs and similar verbalizations can be in our consciousness, we usually don’t
consciously express them because most of us are cognizant of the consequences. Nonetheless, they’re still well communicated
through our body language. Of course, if
we’re really aware of this mental garbage and its outcomes and desire to be in
control of ourselves, we’ll want to get rid of it. That’s the first step to a
better life for ourselves and our society.

Changing this internal conditioning means
cleaning out all the harmful racial thoughts and emotions and exchanging them
for those that are beneficial.
Certainly, it’s much easier said than done. Before anything can happen, we need to make a
conscious decision to do it while recognizing this mental reprogramming takes
time as we keep an eye on its rewards: a
more tranquil and happier life, increased respect and compassion for those suffering
from racism, and finding better ways to personally deal with this problem.

Having decided to change ourselves, no
matter if we’ve suffered from racism or been on the side responsible for it via
ignorance or outright abuse, means we’ve begun to use wisdom, and now it’s time
to take the next step which is to strengthen our ability to concentrate our
mind while continuing to deal with everyday life. This begins by giving ourselves some mental
space and freedom.

Such capacity is generated by developing skill
in focusing the mind, an ability currently being taught and used in schools,
businesses, sports, and even the military.
Normally, we find this craft listed under the title of Mindfulness
Training. Its simplest formal method,
however, is to find a quiet place, sit down, and follow our breath in and out
without letting ourselves be distracted by thoughts or other phenomena—easy to
say but takes real work to perfect. Done
twice a day for about 15 minutes each time, i.e., morning and evening, we’ll
find that it relaxes us during and after each practice session. It also helps us to think more clearly. After about a week, it’s possible to watch our
breath for a minute or two every once in a while at work (informal practice). We’ll be surprised by how much it improves our
positive time on the job; for instance, it calms us down before and after
intense situations, clears our heads before presentations, and improves our
energy and ability to listen. This technique
also functions very well during after work and free time activities. When it’s well carried out, it’s quite
formidable. The old saying, “cooler heads prevail”, is obvious when we’re
mindful.

Such wisdom is evident in the next part
of changing our internal conditioning, for this is the point where we
incorporate both parts of John Metta’s solid advice. However, it’s best done after we’ve found a
level of comfortability with the breathing technique in both formal and informal
practice. The results of its
ever-expanding mastery are significant; for example, old conditioning (runaway thoughts)
simply disappears, our ability to stay calmer during increasingly intense
situations improves, and our personal life is more cheerful and peaceful. Moreover, when it’s necessary to speak out
forcefully and clearly to garner attention, we’ll find that it’s possible to do
so without losing control to anger.
Martin Luther King, such an outstanding leader, was one of the best
examples of that talent in action.

This method is sometimes called insight
training because that’s what results the more we practice. To begin learning this part of mindfulness
development, we should start by following our breath for about 10 minutes. Subsequently, we change our focus to our mind. As we notice the thoughts, images, sounds, and
feelings arising, we try not to react to them.
We just let them pass on by; however, if we do find ourselves carried
away by them, we simply come back to our breath and then refocus on the mind. We remain patient when we see this happen
frequently in the first week as we practice twice a day for about 30 minutes
(15 minutes observing the breath, 15 minutes watching the mind). Over time, we notice that we’re becoming
accustomed to the rising and falling of mental phenomena. And just as we carried the breathing practice
into our work and other social settings, we find we can do it with this part of
mindfulness training as well. We simply
keep ourselves focused on what we’re performing, listening to, or watching
without letting other things distract us; in fact, we may find that trying to
multitask is a detriment instead of an asset at work.

Not long after we begin insight practice,
we usually notice several things. We’re
more attentive, which means our ability to listen to others is improving. Since we’re often facing some fairly strong
thoughts and other experiences without finding ourselves carried away by them,
we can liken this technique to speaking out when we’d ordinarily be silent, for
our mental equanimity (balance) is developing real strength. Not surprisingly, the practice of facing our
thoughts and emotions is like exercising a muscle; the stronger it becomes, the
more the harmful thinking and forceful sensations dissipate and disappear. Finally,
we experience an enhanced clarity of mind with the space in which we can
respond to situations instead of fall into old reactionary patterns that hurt
ourselves and/or others.

Of course, as we progress with the
practice of watching the mind, we may begin to observe that not as much
phenomena that has to do with racial injustice is arising as we would
like. It could be that we might feel
we’re slowing down in the process of resolving upsetting issues. At this point, we have two options: (a) continue to practice--trusting that in
due time such thoughts, images, or feelings will arise, and they will; or (b)
we can recall events or feelings associated with racism and let them cause
phenomena to surface. Such internal
investigation for material with which to work functions on both the conscious
and subconscious levels. Generally,
whatever comes up is something that we can face with equanimity; however, when
anything does feel or look beyond our current ability, we need to use our common
sense to back off and wait until we’re strong enough to face it or find a
professional to help us.

Certainly, the above changes to our
mental conditioning do not happen overnight, but they do occur if we’re
patient, dedicated, and determined. We
also find as we change our internal life that our external life changes
too. For example, we find that when we
open to people of other ethnic or racial groups, we’re better able to listen to
them, calmly and effectively respond to their perspectives, or just continue
being their listening posts even when they’re angry. Furthermore, we’re more willing to speak out,
clearly and effectively, for ourselves and/or others to address perceived
racial injustices. Our increased degree
of compassion to resolve suffering due to racism permits us to change our
behaviors and help the besieged. We
might learn we can help others change their conditioning and behavior for the
better too. Last, participating in
meetings or other endeavors to eliminate racial bigotry and hatred in America
can be a significant part of our lives.
Of course, taking a Dale Carnegie course for speaking and joining the
Toastmaster’s Club are two excellent ways to supplement mindfulness practice.

While speaking out and extracting the plugs
from our deaf ears are major steps forward to resolving racism in the U.S., we
must understand we need to do more.
Seeing our internal racial conditioning, largely placed there by society,
we can take action to transform it into something better and have a positive
effect on our society’s external life, even that of changing the government
system for responding to racism on a local, state, and national level. Of
course, we need to continually increase our ability to focus our mind, pay
attention to its patterns and contents, and develop the insight to use it
wisely while seeking professional assistance when required. Certainly, there are other ways to improve;
however, those who choose to do nothing may very well stay stuck in the same
old rut wondering why things are not changing for the better—or not wanting to. But with consideration and determination,
mindful modifications are possible as well as healthy for living better and
more peacefully in our multiethnic, multiracial America.

Friday, January 2, 2015

The choices we make in life will
probably determine the circumstances we face as we draw its final curtain. While some may arrive as reactionaries,
others perhaps come in rather peacefully.
For example, an acquaintance of mine, who was a nurse in a natal intensive
care unit, once told me that after years of observing newborns, she was convinced
each child had come into the world with its own particular temperament. Obviously, throughout our sojourn here, we
can choose the kind of highway on which we wish to travel. It can be peaceful or full of twists and
turns with ups and downs as well as ins and outs. We can either help or hinder ourselves and
others. However, if we somehow learn to
find the inherent wisdom we intrinsically harbor deep inside, we’ll locate and
walk the pathway of peace, insight, freedom and personal growth. As Mahatma Gandhi told us: “The outward freedom that we shall attain
will only be in exact proportion to the inward freedom to which we may have
grown at a given moment.” Therefore, as
we look at the elderly man above, who is so obviously filled with love and
compassion for nature, there should be no question as to the state of mind we’d
prefer now and in our final moments.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

A lot of us wake up every day wishing
for a more peaceful existence. We’d like
nothing better than to open our eyes joyfully looking forward to what the day
has in store for us. Life would be
better, for a clear and happy mind would be a welcome difference. Having such a reality come true
would be a change most of us would like to keep.

But the average person doesn’t
know how to make this transition. Instead of using life to create peace for ourselves
and others, we let it control us. For example,
we may slowly wake up and get out of bed, not anticipating a good day, go to
the kitchen for a less than healthy breakfast, turn on the news for a dose of
the negative, drive to work in heavily, contaminated traffic, experience
conflicts with unhappy colleagues, superiors, or family members, and go to
sleep in a debt-ridden home. While this
may be an overstatement, it gets at the fact that we all face situations that
upset us, no matter if it’s the litter we see on the side of the road, a small
argument with the spouse, or a disagreement with our teenage children.

These situations and others
like them gnaw at us, and we permit them to get us down. Perhaps, we get angry, feel lost, shout at
the world, or even try to drown our troubles.
For example, when I look at my own life, I see where I’ve gone through
such periods of difficulty. It wasn’t
out of the ordinary for me to do or say ridiculous things and hurt the people
around me. I went through several
divorces and periods of unsatisfactory employment because I really didn’t have
a handle on how to be my own alchemist—that is, convert the negative into
something workable. I just didn’t
understand what one of the wisest men in the world had meant when he said that everything upsetting us is only a
projection of what we haven't resolved within ourselves.

This
teaching of Buddha Shakyamuni was exactly what I wasn’t dealing with. Fortunately, it wasn’t a sermon like many
others that came without a method to dissolve the projections. I’d had plenty of those in my life, and I
didn’t want any more.

As
most of us have learned, changing anything we perceive as negative into
something positive is a real challenge.
We hear this from all the self-help talks on television and say, “Yeah,
right.” Then we just wait for someone to
fix us.

Conversely,
becoming our own alchemist means that we look at everything coming to us in
life as an opportunity for greater peace and happiness. We start with the little things around us and
gradually work up to the big stuff.

For
example, here in Mexico the law really isn’t strongly enforced, so people get away
with a lot of things. When I walk from
our home to our nearby village, I frequently see litter on the side of the
street. Sometimes I even see it being
thrown away by a mother walking with her child.
Instead of doing nothing, I observe the reaction inside of myself, which
is usually an angry feeling, until it becomes peaceful and balanced. This technique works because the energy of
focusing on the object of attention, anger in this case, functions like a laser
beam. Afterwards, I can take some action
that isn’t based on emotion—I might even pick up the garbage.

Of
course, while just mechanically concentrating on the upsetting feeling usually
remedies the situation, it’s important to understand that it also involves
presence. According to Eckhart Tolle,
author of “The Power of Now”, our troubles come from being in the past or the
future. In the case of the litter, just
seeing it throws many of us into the past.
If we think about the mountains of garbage that could emerge in the
future if something isn’t done now, then we’re in the future. We’re suffering in both cases. However, as we focus on transforming the
upsetting sensation we feel into a peaceful balance, we’re in the present and
we’re not suffering. In fact, if we keep
our focus on the present most of the time, we’ll suffer less and our days will
improve.

The
case I’ve given here is but one illustration of what we can do for
ourselves. It also works for small
disagreements at home or at work. Also,
instead of showing our anger at other drivers, we can say thank you for the
opportunity to grow and smile as they drive away. Even the hurtful remarks by bullies at school
or work can be transformed into the positive.

The
clarity that comes from this method of dealing with daily issues shows us what
action we need to take, if any, after regaining our peace. Certainly, we can’t continue to let the bully
badger us every time we encounter him or her.
Also, we can simply let the arrogant drivers go on their way—we don’t
have to continue to think about them.
And we can quietly say “thank you” for the small disagreements with
others that gradually help us to become more peacefully competent. Such clarity often inspires a healthy
attitude for whatever confronts us in our lives—even to have the will to deal
with the larger issues, i.e., divorce, addiction, bankruptcy, death, and more.

A
more peaceful life would be a change the majority of us would choose to try and
maintain. Learning how to create harmony
in daily living, even looking forward to doing it, and enjoying our own alchemy
could encourage us to maintain presence instead of letting life control
us. The newfound clarity, although not
gained overnight, adds a certain confidence we haven’t had before. We learn that we don’t have to spend hours on
a cushion in the Himalayas to attain tranquility, although an hour or so a day
would be quite beneficial. Why not
change the previously debilitating issues of everyday living into strengths and
experience a more peaceful life? You
wouldn’t be alone.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Personal failure is
difficult, so we usually don’t want to get involved with an activity where that
is likely to occur. We especially want
to avoid the feeling that we associate with an inadequate process or result; for
example, speaking in front of a group of fellow professionals, parenting
teenagers, or confronting a colleague or friend about something really
upsetting. Nevertheless, working with
the feeling of inadequacy and not necessarily the story behind it is a solid
and proven way to resolve its power over us.
To carry this out, we need to understand: (1) how to describe the
feeling; (2) how we react to this sensation; (3) the harmful results of our
reactions to it; (4) the method to effectively resolve the feeling; and (5) the
benefits of its resolution.

Describing The Feeling
of Inadequacy

Since we live in the world of conception,
we label the feeling fear; in particular, fear of failure, not being good enough,
inadequacy, or whatever else we can think of to name it. Also, instead of centering on the sensation,
people generally jump straight to labels of fear: “I was so damned scared”. “I was petrified.” They really don’t take the time to examine
the feeling and say, for instance: “I
had such a strong sensation of something icy cold running through my veins that
I couldn’t move. It stopped me in my
tracks.”

So the truth is this: what we call fear is a feeling of sensation
or sensations in our body. According to
S.N. Goenka, whose work is well documented in a book called “The Art Of
Living”, sensations arise anytime there is contact with an object through any
one of the six doorways of consciousness:
sight, hearing, taste, smell, feeling, and mind. They come to us in the form of heat, cold,
heaviness, lightness, itching, throbbing, contraction, expansion, pressure,
pain, tingling, pulsation, vibration, and more.
These sensations are what we can use to develop experiential
wisdom. They are essential for exploring
truth to the depths, and in this case we’re speaking of the feeling of
inadequacy.

To understand this kind of wisdom, we
have to examine the sensation we personally experience with not being good
enough, carefully and meticulously, before we can describe them. We do so by finding a quiet place, relaxing,
remembering a small event in which we failed, focusing on the sensation that
arises, staying with it, and observing it through all of its transitions and
multiplicities. Those of us who have
done this valuable work know there will be all kinds of sensations, and no
matter what, maintaining our equanimity (emotional balance) is strategic;
otherwise, it’s all too easy to be carried away by thoughts or emotions and
wind up in a land of fantasy. Equanimity
is the factor that keeps us balanced and aware.
When we stop our observation of the sensations of inadequacy, we can
describe them in detail as well as the places where they took us, e.g., originating
events, story lines, unrealistic expectations.
We begin to understand what is happening to us here and now.

How We React To The
Feeling Of Inadequacy

Generally, as we observe the sensations
we associate with being incapable, we notice that we may react fearfully at
first; that is, with aversion, the desire to flee, not to want to look directly
at what’s happening. Also, emotions such
as anger, disappointment, or sadness arise so quickly that they cloud over the
initial emotion of fear. Consequently,
we may just conclude that we’re angry instead of scared.

We also see how numerous thoughts spring
up out of the emotions and the way they can be transformed into false
beliefs. These convictions can spawn and
perpetuate the idea that we’re socially inept, personally unappealing, inferior
to others, and never good enough for anybody.

The Results Of Our
Reactions To The Feeling Of Inadequacy

If we do not begin to work on eradicating
this sense of failure, our lives can be terribly unsatisfying on several
levels.

For example, our relationship with self
can be very disappointing. To avoid
being viewed as inadequate, we may socially isolate ourselves. Being in such an untenable position is often
filled with self-loathing, run away thinking, feeling sorry for oneself, or a constant
search for “fix me” solutions. At worst,
addiction and depression can arise and suicide may result. Secondly, when we’re with others but inside
ourselves, we may react with sensitivity to negative evaluation, constantly compare
our efforts to those of others, find it difficult to accept praise, work like a
perfectionist, and be highly self-critical.
Feeling powerless is also prominent.

Our personal relationships can also
suffer. We may not be willing to involve
ourselves with others unless we’re certain of being liked. If we’re with a group of people, we might be
inclined to conform or succumb to peer pressure instead of stating our
opinion. Relationships with our
significant others often end in arguments, separation, and divorce. Parenting is particularly difficult,
especially when children become teenagers.

At work our relationship with coworkers,
professional colleagues, subordinates, superiors, and clients can also be
affected by our feeling of inadequacy.
Since we not only communicate verbally but also nonverbally, people soon
become aware of our suffering. This
creates difficulty because it erodes confidence. Consequently, we may experience the loss of
clients, less than satisfying annual job evaluations, and perhaps even the cost
of losing a promotion or job.

Of course, because students are
constantly being evaluated not only by the school systems but also their peers,
the feeling of inadequacy is always a factor.
Nowadays, it’s been especially apparent because of face-to-face and
online bullying. The results are so
harmful that various students have committed suicide, suffered physical harm at
the hands of bullies, or have carried the effects of this abuse into their
adult lives where the name changes to workplace harassment.

Finally, relationships on the world stage
can be affected by the perception of inadequacy; for example, what President
Obama is experiencing at the hands of the opposite political party at this
time. It is also perceived by many that
the Russian president is taking advantage of U.S. unwillingness to “draw the
line in the sand.” Because of the
feeling of inadequacy, people all over the world are having a less than satisfactory
life, i.e., crises, wars, social ostracism and much more.

Resolving The Feeling
Of Inadequacy

While the typical
treatment for the fear of inadequacy is social skills training, cognitive
therapy, exposure treatment to gradually increase social contacts, group
therapy for practicing social skills, and sometimes drug therapy, the
mindfulness work many of us have done is quite different. It centers on concentration, awareness,
equanimity, compassion and the development of experiential wisdom. It’s not radical in that it’s a gradual
process combining concentrated effort in a quiet environment and, subsequently,
bringing that ability with us to normal every day activities. It helps us to express and embrace who we
already are rather than construct some identity for ourselves that may not be
authentic.

General
(working from the easy to the difficult)

The idea of this practice is to get a
view of as many incidents in our lives as possible where we’ve had the
experience of feeling inadequate for whatever we were confronting or trying to
do.It might even be appropriate to make
a list of them.Then we begin with what
we would call small events, the ones that do not hold emotional charges so
powerful, i.e., emotional child abuse, that we would lose our focus.

Here is the procedure:

a.Dedicate
an area where you won’t be interrupted.
If at all possible, it should be a place that won’t be used for anything
else. Of course, your home is
preferable, but other place can be used.

b.Put
a straight back chair in that space at practice time.

c.Make
sure the area is comfortable, and wear loose clothing.

d.Sit
down and place your hands on your lap with your feet flat on the floor.

e.Close
your eyes and focus on your breathing.
Follow your breath as you inhale and exhale. If thoughts come up, just let them go as you
continue to focus on your breath—this is the first step in developing
equanimity (balance), awareness and concentration.

f.Continue
to focus on your breathing until you feel relaxation beginning to set in. (No sleeping, stay aware.)

g.As
you continue to breath, place your focus on the center of your right or left
hand.

h.As
you maintain your focus there, notice that you begin to feel a sensation in the
center of your hand.

i.When you feel the sensation, which is usually
a neutral feeling because there is no liking or disliking, just keep your focus
on that experience for about a minute.

j.Then return your focus to your breathing
for about 15 seconds.

k.Next,
return your focus to the center of the hand you were using. You should feel the sensation again and know
that you’re not producing the feeling, for you simply notice a sensation where
you place your attention.

l.Now return your focus to your breathing
for about 15 seconds.

m.As
you continue to breath, recall an event in your life where you felt inadequate
for what you were trying to accomplish.

n.Keep
your focus on your breath as the memory of this event may arise in your mind in
the form of an emotion, a thought, an image, a sound, whatever it is.

o.Locate
the sensation in your body that accompanies this memory. It may be a feeling of heaviness, lightness,
tingling, vibration, hardness, coldness, whatever it may be.

p.As
the sensation arises, let it become your focus.
Observe the feeling(s) with a mind of curiosity; for example, “Let’s see
how long you last!” Do not purposefully
label (name) what you’re experiencing.
And do not react with aversion, just maintain your equanimity (balance).

q.If
the event should become major, do not brace yourself and try to hang in
there—simply go to another event that is not as emotionally charged. This work is like building a muscle.

r.Stay with the sensation until it
dissolves into neutrality. If you should
lose focus during this practice, simply recall the event and return your concentration
to the sensation.

s.Recall
the event again, and observe the sensation until it dissolves. When there is only neutrality in the
sensation as you recall the event, then you are ready to move on.

t.Now you can either recall another event,
stop your practice session, or do affirmations as given in the example below
before stopping this work for the day or evening.

u.It
is important to do short sessions; for example, work with an event or two, go
back to focusing on the breath to relax for a few minutes, then return to the
events.

v.Make
this a daily practice if at all possible.

Specific
Work

There are times when we’ll come to a
practice session, and an event will already be in mind. This happens because our purpose is already
in our consciousness. So here’s what you do:
simply sit down, focus on your breathing until you relax, and go
directly into the event following the procedure given above.

Difficult
Events

If you practice diligently and regularly,
there will come a time when you will have very few small events left that you
can find with which to work. Now it’s
time to begin working on the major events in your life, the ones where you
literally failed because you didn’t live up to your expectations or those of
someone significant in your life; for example, job loss, divorce, or much
more. Even these events, however, should
be taken in the order of their level of difficulty, the least difficult being the
first one and so on.

Practice using the procedure given above,
and remember that it’s a gradual process.
You may have issues that will take several sessions to bring to the
level of neutral sensations, so be patient.

When you come up against sensations that
are very difficult, remember to remove the labels (names you’ve given the
emotions) so that you’re dealing with raw energy. As an experienced practitioner, taking the
conceptuality away from the emotion makes it easier to stay focused and
experience progress. Just as it says in
the procedure above, work in short sessions, taking a break when the going gets
too difficult. You can’t melt an iceberg
all at once.

It’s also important to recognize and
accept what you cannot change. Just the
acceptation of this fact will take the charge out of the sensation, and it’s
usually accompanied by an automatic change in your expectations. If you’re trying to live up to the
expectations of someone else, realizing they’re not realistic and letting them
go brings great resolution.

Additionally, it’s essential to recognize
when you need help and go for it.
Sometimes just having a significant other, fellow practitioner, or close
friend you can hang on to while you do this work is all you need to get the
sensation down to a tolerable level.
From that point on, you can work alone.

Also, a professional who agrees with your
process can help you: uncover and clarify what you’re experiencing and learning;
develop realistic expectations; discover activities, relationships, and
experiences that build a sense of competence; and respond with kindness and
understanding toward yourself. For
example, Psychologist Christopher Germer, PhD says, “the foundation of
emotional healing begins by being aware in the present moment when we’re
struggling with feelings of inadequacy, despair, confusion, and other forms of
stress – and responding with kindness and understanding toward ourselves.”

Generalized
effects

As you progress in your
practice, you’ll find what we call generalized effects. This means that even though you didn’t work
on a particular event having to do with an issue that normally elicits a
feeling of inadequacy, in daily life you notice the situation is no longer a
problem because you feel quite capable.
Noticing such changes in your life is a cause to celebrate your
work—you’re truly progressing.

At
the end of session

At the end of a practice session, it’s a
good idea to treat yourself with affirmations of kindness and gratitude; for
example:

I offer my gratitude for what I’m learning.

I offer my gratitude for each step I take.

I
offer my gratitude for the positive changes in life.

May my heart be filled with kindness and
compassion.

May I be safe from inner and outer harm.

May I
be well in mind and body.

May I be at ease and happy.

Softly and slowly repeating the above sentences
to yourself about five times at the end of a session is helpful. When I first started doing them, I didn’t
notice anything for a couple of weeks, but after that I did. I left the sessions feeling better, happier,
and more peaceful. They’re very
worthwhile for regular practitioners.

The Benefits Of
Resolving The Feeling Of Inadequacy

There are quite a number of benefits that
come from resolving the feeling of inadequacy in our lives. It doesn’t matter if we have only a few
issues or a whole lot to deal with, for as long as we live and practice,
they’ll keep on coming. Perhaps that’s
why we’re on this planet.

Here are few of the positive outcomes
with which we can measure our progress:

a.We
give up trying to be perfect. Realizing
we’re human, we let go and relax while still being all we can be at whatever
activity we’re doing.

d.We’re
better at handling bullying because we’re no longer such a target, and we don’t
find ourselves reacting so fearfully. Also,
we simply choose not to use web sites or an address where cyber bullying is
frequent.

e.Our
ability to be with peers, even those who don’t like us, is balanced. However, we usually choose to be with others
who give positive reinforcement and constructive rather than negative criticism.

f.We
find that we are becoming increasingly confident in our ability to handle
life. Our expectations of ourselves are
reasonable. We’re now much more open to
life and whatever it brings to us.

g.Life
is much happier and more peaceful. We
look forward to our days, recognizing the challenges we used to face as
opportunities for learning.

h.We
experience the inspiration to try new things and accept the results as they
are.

i.We find we have an increased willingness
to develop new relationships without first making certain that we’ll be liked.

j.Our ability to work well with others at
all levels and take on new jobs is vastly improved. These things no longer arouse difficult
sensations. We feel remarkably whole at
work, and we know when to walk away from tasks that are not within our set of
skills and interests.

k.Our
physical and mental health is remarkably improved. We can get out of bed.

l.Loving kindness, compassion, and
unconditional love have become more of a reality, for we find we are not only
reaching out more to ourselves but also to others of all ages, especially the
young, the infirm, and the old.

Discussing the feeling of inadequacy,
especially the five aspects that surround it, is not only necessary but very
helpful to those of us who work with this scary issue. Being able to describe our sensations of
inadequacy, understand the reactions to these feelings and their harmful
effects, follow the procedures for their resolution, and experience the
benefits of the solution leads us to a much happier life. We truly learn to let go, be present, and go
for help when it’s necessary. May more
of the citizens of this world, especially our leaders, involve themselves with
this practice in mindfulness.

Saturday, July 12, 2014

We like to know that we’re happy, don’t we? But when we look at ourselves, happiness is
sometimes cloudy at best, especially when we get home from a hard day’s work,
or sit down someplace after work with friends, and someone asks, “How was your
day?” We often don’t know what to say,
or we just mumble, “Oh, it was okay.”
Then the conversation goes on to other topics. It seems that we need some kind of happiness
stick for measuring the day we’ve just experienced. Fortunately, for many of us Dr. B. Alan
Wallace of the Santa Barbara Institute for Consciousness Studies, whose
background includes a bachelor’s in physics, has given us four very helpful
perspectives we can use to evaluate and clarify our day, perhaps even our life.

First, was your day full of
goodness? In other words, did you do no
physical harm to your body or that of others, except in the cases of accident, self-defense
or to defend others? Did you not speak
negatively to yourself or your family, friends, coworkers, or bosses? Did you maintain equanimity with your thoughts
and emotions? Finally, did you sustain
an awareness of your thoughts and actions during the day, and did you act
appropriately, especially in the interest of compassion for yourself and
others?

Next, do you feel happy
rather than miserable? Rather than give
this question a passing look, really go inside yourself and spend some time
there. Find out if you’re thriving or
not. Ask yourself, “According to the way
I feel right now, am I able to meet adversity and life with equanimity?” Be honest with yourself, and don’t run away
from the answer if it’s something you don’t want to see, hear, or feel. Maintain equanimity until you feel a neutral
energy. If it’s going to take more time,
then make an appointment to spend some alone time, treating this less than
flourishing feeling with awareness and
balanced attention until it dissolves.

Third, did you practice the
truth? Review your day from start to
finish with absolute integrity and scrutiny.
Overt lies to yourself and others are easy to see; however, it’s the
subtle ones that take time to uncover.
Exaggerations to ourselves and others are still lies even though we may
call them fibs or white lies. The
problem with not being honest with ourselves or others, no matter how seemingly
inconsequential it may be, is that we still feel the pain when we discover the
lies or they come back to us from others.
For example, during a meditation retreat, I maintained noble silence the
entire time and did not commit any failures of truth. On the last day of the retreat when we could
talk, I discovered myself in the middle of an exaggeration, and I immediately
felt its pain. It was like a house of
cards tumbling down. Obviously, I had
damaged my own integrity even though others were not aware of it.

Last, ask yourself what you
brought to the world that was meaningful. How were you helpful to yourself in the best
interests of your coworkers, family members, friends, neighbors, and
superiors? How were you directly helpful
to others; for example, your children or your parents? Isn’t it obvious that if we can look at a day
in our lives and see the qualities of goodness, happiness, truth, and living
altruistically sticking out, then we’ve had a good day? It most definitely is for me.

Certainly, getting a
high mark on Alan Wallace’s four perspectives for happiness at the end of each
day is inspiring. Perhaps, it may even be
better to find a few screw ups or flaws, for they give us an opportunity to
understand the nature of reality through the purification of ourselves. Furthermore, using this measuring stick to
review other periods in our lives is also profound. There’s a lot we can learn by uncovering our
human errors, for it’s like the aging of wine with the right environment and the
balance of time.

About Me

Carroll is retired and lives with his wife Rebe in Santa Cruz Tlaxcala, Tlaxcala, Mexico. He has worked as a career consultant and therapist. Also, he has instructed classes in human relations, ethical decision making, English, communications, management, supervision, and employee training. He has a bachelor's degree in psychology and a master's in human relations with a specialization in leadership. He has practiced vipassana meditation for more than 20 years and was one of the directors of a meditation center for a community in San Miguel de Allende, Guanajuato, Mexico.