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…and had some vanilla cake with blue frosting, a nice drink of club soda and vodka with a lime, and a piece of gum afterwards. Three non-Whole30 cheats and I felt so disappointed in myself and felt so guilty. Thank God it was all a dream! The past two nights I have had dreams that I unknowingly ate food that does not comply with Whole30; I remember having these dreams the last time I did this detox. Honestly, I have not had any cravings that would make me want to dream about that stuff! So weird.

This time around, Whole30 seems so much easier. I think the biggest change is the mental aspect of it all. Knowing that I have done it before gives me hope and drive to complete another 30 days! I feel a lot more energetic and can tell my body is healthier all together. What’s changed the most for me is nighttime eating; since some days I work pretty long hours, I would just want to come home and eat a meal and chill. Usually it would be a sweet potato or some veggies, meat, and sometimes some paleo treats or something else as a ‘dessert’.

With Whole30, I only eat a sweet potato post-workout and cut out dessert. Today is day 8, so I’m looking forward to how day 30 will feel! 🙂

WODs have been crazy lately. With the CrossFit Open starting (way too) soon, training purposes have switched! Yesterday, we did 5 rounds: 1k row, 15 pullups, 15 thrusters, 15 burpees. Do the math… Maybe my dreams are telling me I need more carbs? 😉 Today was a nice rest day and I am anxious to see what tomorrow brings!

Having less ‘real’ school work has been amazing. People always told me to “cherish my time in college” because once I started working in the real world, I would want to go back in time. I have never been the I-love-school type of person; I like to work, especially when it’s something I’m passionate about. Even though I just graduated, I would not want to go back to daily classes, homework, tests, constant deadlines, and minimal income, if any (well, I’m still getting through that last part, but only a couple more months as an unpaid intern).

With that said, I have had more time to get more involved in the things I love – cooking, blogging, reading, having weekends with no homework (well, besides a weekly report due), and listening to some of my favorite audio. Do you know who Dr. Wayne Dyer is? You should. My mom introduced me to his work a few years back and things have totally changed for me. Since I have more time to actually listen to things while I’m not studying or homework, I’ve started becoming more aware of a number of things… and it feels lovely!

Here he is… Such a wonderful person.

Anyway, since most of my days start at 4am, I am back home around 3pm, at the latest. My internship supervisor is so cool and usually let’s us leave early, so some days I’m home around noon. On those days, I take advantage of it and head out to the pool for a bit to enjoy the rare warm weather of Illinois (and that fact that I can walk to the apartment pool!). When I’m not prepping or cooking food, writing papers, cleaning, or doing other fun things, I’m gathering music.

I’m obsessed with music. One of my nicknames (thanks to my sisters) is DJ C-Dub; come to find out, there actually is a real DJ C-Dub… that sucker stole my name! The past week, I have downloaded some monstrous songs and blasted them in my car and in my apartment. Wanna know what I listen to? Anything from Young Jeezy, Five Finger Death Punch, Skrillex, LMFAO, Chris Brown, Chevelle… then the soothing voice of Dr. Wayne Dyer. If people heard all this (maybe they do), they probably think I’m an ADD music-aholic. And they’re right.

I also just got on Spotify! Hooray!

I had a dream last night. A dream about cheating on the Paleo challenge. What’s wrong with me and dreams about eating bad food? I’m not even craving anything bad and am totally cool where I’m at. In the dream, I ate… get ready… jelly beans. Ew, seriously? That’s not even a food I would ever imagine slipping into a sugar coma for. Then I lied about it and didn’t write on my recording sheet that I cheated. I’m a lying jelly bean eater cheater. Can you tell I have an exciting life?

One thing that is exciting is that I love my internship and working with young athletes. There’s this one kid there (he’s probably 10 or so) who told me he was too tired to do anything because he was up late talking to his girlfriend on Facebook. He then continued to tell me that they talked about marriage and that he wants 3 or 6 kids. I thought it was pretty hilarious and kept egging him on, but it was kind of creepy how serious he was about everything.

Random facts of the day:

-Blueberries are my new obsession. Expensive, but worth it if you only eat them one at a time. I even brought them to a movie with me.

-There are killer pigeons that live outside of my window. And they sh*t on my car like there’s no tomorrow…. and it kind of looks like blueberries. Sick.

-My legs feel like they got beat with a bat while I was sleeping. Thank you deadlifts, front squats, and squat cleans.

-Paleo challenge. Almost 2 weeks down, 5 more to go. Then time for the most epic float trip ever!

That’s all. I have to go get ready to deal with these little athlete munchkins for the rest of the day!

DREAM ALERT! So almost every night, I remember all of my crazy dreams and love to try to analyze them. Last night, I had one the I cheated…. no, not on my boyfriend… even worse. On my Whole30 (ha kidding about the bf). I was out to dinner with a whole bunch of people and started eating a salad with croutons and french dressing. Then had some other stuff and didn’t realize I was cheating until after I was done eating. Talk about a freak out session in a dream!

Analyze it, Caroline!. That’s not healthy to be thinking about cheating and getting so upset. I read a post about cheating in dreams before, but I feel I know my level of control and am going to calmly keep going at it. I already feel awesome and still super freakin motivated. Plus, Wayne Dyer entered back into my life today (see below) so everything seems 100 times better =)

So, yep, Day 2 = successful. Well, it’s not quite over but I know I am going to be good. I found a really good breakfast. An I-wake-up-excited-because-I-get-to-eat-it good meal. Here it is if you want to try (highly suggested!).

It started raining out about an hour ago and since then I feel like my mood got worse. Actually, I take that back. It started when I went to my class today… It’s supposed to be a class that prepares us for our MANDATORY summer internship, but it’s more like a stress-filled, cortisol-heightening 50 minutes. I’m not the only one that feels like that so I don’t feel as bad saying that. I found out that we have to write a bazillion papers all summer; not that many, but it seems like it!

Walking back home from hell class, I walked by a girl on the phone with her boyfriend (I’m assuming), yelling about her calling him and being all psycho. That made me walk a little faster, didn’t want to hear that. Then I almost got hit by a car. That’s always exciting (not my fault).

I went to Starbucks because my HUGE apartment sometimes gets to me (joking, it’s perfect size for a hamster). The aroma of coffee always helps the day seem a little brighter and it definitely helped me plow through some homework. I brought my own snack to eat there because their Cake Pops and over-sized, heavenly cookies don’t make my Whole30 list. So I hope that the people sitting around me liked the smell of hard-boiled eggs haha

What really topped my day off (for real) was listening to “Wishes Fulfilled” by my idol, Dr. Wayne Dyer while I was making food for this weekend. I think I had goosebumps the entire time I was listening, it was beautiful and I can’t wait to listen to more! If you haven’t read or heard of him, it’s life-changing!

All that’s left of my second day of Whole30 is brushing my teeth, showering, and gawking at all the apartments/condos on ‘Selling New York’. And maybe some Food Network. I watch it way too much and it makes me hungry so it might not be cool to watch right now.

Lesson of the day, as stated by Bob Marley: “Don’t worry about a thing…’cause every little thing gonna be alright”