October 17, 2011

I hope everyone is doing well. I've had crazy doctor appointments this last week and ended up finding out I have Lymphedema in several spots, so I will begin treatment for that. But hey, it's not cancer, right? I'm counting my blessings.

So here's some updated bucket list items:

Smoke a BIG FAT cigar
Rearrange all the furniture in my living room
Leave my umbrella and take a walk in the summer rain
Have someone else clean my place from top to bottomBuild a BirdhouseTalk a Cop out of a ticket (I've done this a bazillion times, lol)
Mosh
Watch a baby being bornWear a fez, turban, or fedora (Thanks to John "Shockey" Komorowski)
Read or listen closely to King's "I Have a Dream" Speech
Perform a citizen's arrestVote
Re-think my stance on abortion
Plan the perfect April Fool's Day prankWin an ArgumentLet someone else win an Argument
Adopt a Greyhound
Drive a MaseratiCall my MotherGet Call Waiting
Get Rid of Call Waiting

"If you think you can, you can. And if you think you can't, you're right". ~Mary Kay Ash

October 06, 2011

This may be another one of my ongoing "lists" because I know I'll miss lots of things cancer has taught me in just one post Anyway, today I just feel like taking a little time to remind myself some of the things I have learned from cancer. Some of the things I still tend to forget, even after going on 4 years of battling this horrible disease. In order to stay hopeful, I think it's important to keep some of these "things learned the hard way" in front of your mind, not in the back where they are simply forgotten until another rough day comes around.

Yes, cancer is one of the worst things that can happen to a 21 year old, however, I wouldn't trade in the experience for anything. It has made me the person I am today. Cancer has taught me true determination and how to reach deep inside of myself when I thought I had nothing left to give, and to find the strength and will somewhere in myself. It has taught me that I can do and accomplish anything.

1. The first thing I realized and said to myself after I processed and accepted that yes, I did have cancer and there was no more denying it was "Well, Crap. I guess I'm not really as indestructible as I thought, this can happen to me". I think everyone, whether they admit it or not, at least on the surface, believes that nothing will happen to them... it's always someone else, until it happens to you. I realized that I am not guaranteed another 50 years in this world and that I have to live every day for that day, not for the future, or in the past, but for TODAY. Each day is a gift.

2. Cancer has taught me to LOVE and TRULY appreciate my family, for everything they are, everything they have done, and everything they have done. I would never, ever have made it this far without them. They cry for me, they pray for me, they visit me, they make me STRONG.

3. Cancer has taught me to truly TREASURE my life I guess this is similar to number one, but it's taught me the value of life. It has taught me to be THANKFUL that I have the ability to walk around, go shopping, attend school, have a few drinks with the best friends I could ask for, to truly be able to LIVE.

4. Cancer has taught me that LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.

5. I have learned who my TRUE friends are, and the friends who were never friends, I have slowly learned how to let go of the people who were not true friends, no matter how badly it may have hurt at the time. The people who matter in my life know it, and to me that's all that matters.

So yes, I want to get this up and posted, I've worked on it a while now. I have decided it definitely is going to be ongoing, because I can already think of more things I have learned from cancer on my journey, I don't want to get to lengthly either though, so be watching for additional posts

October 05, 2011

Have a truly amazing one - night stand ..... (Is this even possible??) Kidding...

Buy a $100 bottle of wine and share it with your oldest friends (Does this mean age, or length of friendship??...Again... Kidding :) )

Have a local restaurant deliver breakfast in bed for two

Send someone a "just thinking of you" card

Have your palm or tarot cards read

Walk on the beach in winter

Don't save for a few days (who HASN'T done this??)

Order myself a birthday cake

It's been a rough day....and insomnia has gotten the best of me. So tired, but just can't sleep. Lots to do though, so I guess it can be a good thing. Definitely have lots of very good things going. Excited about a lot that is coming up. A more lengthy update later in the day.

October 03, 2011

Attend Fetish and Fantasy Halloween Ball in Las Vegas - Will be accomplished this year! Have the plane tix and Event Tix.... now for the perfect costume. This party is rated the #1 Halloween Party in the world, and one of the top 10 parties in general. I cannot WAIT! Not to mention, it's in Las Vegas....Check it out Fetish and Fantasy Halloween Ball Site

Jump off the Stratosphere in Las Vegas - Also will be accomplished at the end of the month... LOVE Vegas! Check it out Here: Sky Jump Las Vegas Site

I have the BEST friends in the world, and I consider myself so, so, so incredibly lucky.

Next, my non-profit organization is coming along, slowly, but surely. Thanks to many people, I will be able to launch it soon, even if the initial website is just a blog temporarily. More details about the mission of the organization, etc. coming very soon.

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October 15, 2007. The day my life as I knew it changed forever. That day my doctor spoke the words "It's Cancer" I never imagined the number of ways my life would be stretched, pulled, turned, flipped, and torn apart in the very near future. I've never felt so much anger, confusion, helplessness or fear towards anything or anyone in my life than I did the day those words were spoken and I was diagnosed with Melanoma. I have been fighting over a year and a half, and I am more determined than ever to destroy this malicious disease and show cancer that it can't win with me.