Get to know me

To learn about me read the postings in this blog [KissraLynnkay.blogspot.com] and my website [CriesOftheGoth.com] and nowhere else! What I post on social media is just stupid fantasy and I am not like that in real life!

Monday, 19 February 2018

Where does doubt come from? In the
general sense of mind and thought. It's a feeling that nothing
works out for a person and their life basically sucks the shit bag;
no matter what they attempt to do. Often times erroneous comparisons
are made with people they see in their life or online that achieved
similar goals, but they feel they simply cannot measure up. They
usually firmly believe and take to heart all the negativity from
people around them. If you choose to pursue a goal and you end up
facing obstacles self-doubt can manifest in your mind steering you
away from achieving the intended goal. One must have incredible
discipline and strong will to overcome obstacles. Live through the
shit while you are on the way to the light. Reach greatness by not
allowing the doubts to control your mind, perseverance is key to
success.

Doubt essentially can be a real dream
crusher and goal killer. Now, one might attribute life situations as
a deterrent to accomplishing goals. Also, the thoughts develop in the
mind, like “ oh, that's impossible I can't do it”. Keep in mind
the achievement of making plausible dreams that more or less fit with
one's cards of life a reality. Self doubt can be perceived as an
excuse to remain in the rut or routine created by the individual,
halting their progress in life.

Also, doubt should not be confused with
failure the two are very dissimilar. Failure is generally trying to
do something that may be new or familiar but, never achieving the
desired or correct result. Doubt is thinking one is incapable of
pursuing the task, due to a physical or mental challenge.

One must understand few basic facts:
doubt will only become real if one projects and truly believes in it.
Ultimately, it will lead to one's own demise or failure.

Dreams are just that unless the
individual decides to make them reality. Remember, self doubt is
nothing more than a belief that forms in the mind. It can only turn
real if one focuses their energy.

Focus on a plausible dream make it a
goal and pursue to the end without letting doubt take control and you
lose out.

Saturday, 27 January 2018

Many people have posed me the question about why I chose the gothic alternative, rebel lifestyle, that I define as doing things outside society's expectations. Growing up in my generation it was expected that one completes education, chooses a field of profession, marries, buys a house, then family enters the picture. Most of the people I knew followed that path to some extent. I however, think that there were forces at play guiding me to where I am today since it seems that it was most difficult for me to end up in the traditional family unit. Today, the way of life changed because of the internet. Many things that were taboo even to speak of in previous years are now socially acceptable. To elaborate on this point, it's as if the invention of the internet suddenly turned taboo into norm. Now, if the internet never materialized would life stay the same? Would time, people and technology progress? I see my way of life as evolution, progress. Also, living out experiences as well.

CriesoftheGoth my personal website will be a detailed account of the various aspects of life I have experienced and still exploring. As the name suggests, various facets of my version of goth alternative will be portrayed through my site from fashion to recipes, various photography, book reads and hobbies.

I like to differentiate myself from the “sheeple”, those who follow society's rules of proper etiquette without knowing the real reason why. The buzz pitch phrases that are regurgitated to the point of nausea like: “everybody is doing it” or “ it's the right thing to do”. “ This is sooo cool” . Much of this is literally being sold to people through famous media stars, who appear perfect with huge amounts of time and money. It's almost like a subliminal message being transmitted to the general public minds, if you want success this is what to follow no matter what lifestyle you choose.

I intend to show that it's possible to achieve goals and follow a lifestyle of your choice by positioning yourself with the right person and attitude. It is important also to see the larger picture of those who support you and not let those who disapprove derail you. One thing I noticed is the ones who make the most noise when against something or someone are in reality the lesser in numbers, but people don't notice this fact, they merely focus their attention to the voices they hear. I prefer to concentrate on the positive supporters who when seeing the bigger picture, are more numerous in numbers. That in my opinion is the key to achieving your set goals in life.

In conclusion, anything can be possible with the right mindset and belief.

Monday, 4 December 2017

Many of you send me tons of emails,
chat requests, comments to my content on social media, all trying to
chat, meet up...etc; some are rude, others super nice....

The Media and Internet unfortunately
conditioned people in a way making them narrow minded and oblivious
to the obvious. I'm writing this as a condensed article about me.

I'm not looking for boyfriends,
lovers or husbands

I'm not single, I have a boyfriend.
We've been together since high school and I'm ~40 years old so I've
been with him for a long time. We love each other beyond what words
can convey.

I'm not a paid model and I don't
care for followers/subscribers, or likes to my content

I'm not your average Internet model. I do what I do online because
I'm expanding my sexuality and experiences. I'm not online to cater
to your fantasies. If you happen to enjoy my content then power to
you. However, I'm not interested to hear your criticisms or opinions
be it constructive or otherwise. Just enjoy my content and if you
have something nice to say I'd love to hear it! Sweet comments are
always appreciated.

Don't believe anything I post
online! It's nothing but stupid fantasies I play-out; I'm not like
that in real life.

All my postings online be it family oriented Facebook or pornographic
PornHub, it's all but stupid fantasies I play out, a moment fling
nothing more. I'm nothing like that in real life! My modo is that if
I'm not hurting anyone, not forcing my ways on others and that we
live in a free society then what's the harm. If you like to learn
about me I dedicated a non-fantasy blog (the real me) and it's ONLY
at: https://kissralynnkay.blogspot.ca/
AND http://CriesOfTheGoth.com
and nowhere else!

If you do want to get my
attention and chat with me

The internet is full of creeps and trolls, for this reason I want a
verified picture of you consisting of non nude portrait picture of
your face, holding a paper with my name and the days date “hand”
written on it! So I know you are real! No exceptions to this rule and
I'm not interested to hear why you need to be anonymous be it you're
the president of the world or the king of the universe. Without a
verified picture I will not acknowledge your existence!

Also a note worthy of mentioning, don't send me anything sexual in
nature and make sure your avatar is not a stupid dick picture and
your handle is not sexual or you'll be on my bad list for eternity
and beyond! The first contact has to be friendly, non sexual and
without demands or opinions. Pretend your mother is sitting with you
in our meeting in the presence of children in a church! You get the
picture? If you pass this stage and I deem you “normal” i.e. not
media brainwashed uttering what the billion steeple message me
everyday then I will acknowledge you and respond.

I repeat: I'm not paid model, I
don't care about subscribers, likes or followers:

I have my own rules I live by and they are in sharp contrast of
society preaching. I live by the moto of: if freedom truly exists and
you want to live free then RESPECT, DIGNITY, SUCCESS, ACCEPTED...etc.
Are nothing but society created shackles preventing you from being
you and experiencing life uninhibited! I live my life my way without
restrictions. However, I'm mindful of others and I don't force my
views and way of thinking on anyone. I follow my heart and people's
opinions are not needed.

I felt the need to write something
about this subject since I have many followers and I don't want
anyone to confuse fantasy with reality. Having multiple sex partners,
doing escorting and gang bangs or regular porn is extremely
dangerous! Some of today's diseases can spread with saliva (i.e
kissing, licking..etc) or even touching (early stage non-visible skin
rashes...etc). Even protected sex with tested people is not 100%
safe! Someone could be an infectious carrier and won't show on tests
until about 3 months have passed. For you to be 100% safe is to have
all parties tested for “all” STD's and have them confined (i.e.
no possibility of any sexual, drugs...etc encounters) and repeat the
FULL STD testing after 3 months and if clear only then you can be
sure you wont contract diseases from them.

You will always put yourself at risk
when you get intimate with someone. Exploring your sexual fantasies
with your trusted regular lover (i.e. boyfriend, husband..etc) is the
best way.

Everyone knows I play wild online and
the emphasis is “play” i.e. not real! And from what I observed,
some guys love to have unprotected sex and some responded to my fake
escort ads in which I offered bareback experiences. I was shocked to
how many of these guys responded to my ads. Some had girlfriends and
wives putting them at risk and spreading diseases.

In conclusion, do not confuse my sexual
fake-play with reality! Having multiple sexual partners or casual sex
especially unprotected sex is irresponsible and mathematically
speaking the odds are greatly not in your favor. This is also one of
the main reasons why me and my boyfriend do not swing, have open
relationships or include sex partners in our sexuality. Instead, we
play-out fantasies together and share it online for whoever wants to
see and enjoy them.

Sunday, 19 February 2017

I received many messages from Internet users who sent me their verified pictures (i.e. they are not anonymous) and few of them even sent me additional info about themselves. I answered each one of them off course but I thought this subject was not going away anytime soon. Therefore, I am writing this blog.

First off I'll begin to say that what I post online is nothing other than sexual fantasies I play out with very close friends I've known and trusted all my life! Some of these sexual plays are my actual fantasies, some I've done because I was dared to and other sexual plays I've posted online are just me being curious to experience the damn thing and nothing more but it doesn't mean I liked it. I do not chat/collaborate/perform with random anonymous people about any of these fantasies! in order for me to do that I'll have to be attracted to you intellectually beforehand, also I must know you for quite a long time (i.e. years not weeks); To entice me on an intellectual level, sending me anonymous porn messages accompanied with dick pictures puts you in the idiot pile :)

How the fantasy plays out is very important to us in the group. We go great lengths to make it as real as possible from location to the set and the state it was at when we film or took pictures. The final result should be as realistic amateur shoot as possible hence you live the fantasy by making it a reality in a limited sense. Online you can be anything and anyone, playing out these fantasies can be quite an experience if you do it right and you are not afraid to be online like myself.

Now that I've shed light on the above, in real life I'm nothing like the porn content you see of me online. In fact, each of these pictures, videos...etc are nothing but past moments in time. Each a specific instance where we felt something fucked up and wanted to act up on it. Each is a long forgotten memory that's been satisfied and no longer enticing, hence no repetition.

I get bored quickly, I'm curious, easily infatuated with uniqueness, simplicity and honesty. Kindness to others goes a long way with me. Having empathy for living things not being racist and not engaging in politics all traits I like in a person. And off course being very nice to me seals the deal;)

Even with this blog, and all what I write on my web site saying all the online porn is bull shit I still get the majority of people seeing one of my online videos and responding in reflection to that video so I play a long not to kill their fantasy because living in fantasy has it's therapeutic qualities for both sides. However, when some do wake up from their fantasy and realize I'm not a real escort or I don't date guys for money to give them the GFE or I'm not a stripper in a sleazy joint sucking dick and getting drunk, disappointment sets in :) I tell these guys well, I didn't want to burst your bubble so I played a long, but had you done your homework you would've realized fairly quickly that everything I post anywhere, with the exception of my web site CriesofTheGoth.com and the blogs listed on my site; everything I post anywhere else is nothing but expended and long gone played out fantasies and it's all bull shit!

Am I going to keep shooting more content? No plans which means we are spontaneous. If the moment presents itself and we all feel the same way it will happen, otherwise bookmark my stuff and keep wanking to what you see haha. Remember, I don't shoot stuff to get you off, but if you happen to get off on the content I post then power to you ;)

Lastly, why post on different sites, why not just one? That's just me being courteous to you by categorizing my content so you can see what you like and avoid stuff that might gross you out. On my web site if you read the description under each site I post on you will know the type of content I post on there.

Hope this explains it to you and don't blame me if you read this blog and discover all your previous messages to me on porn sites were nothing but me playing along when I was bored ha ha :)

Sunday, 13 November 2016

I'm writing this blog to answer some of
the questions I get from fans and also from experience meeting
friends. Personal hygiene and grooming is very important! Always take
care of yourself, brush your teeth, don't have bad breath, shower,
clean yourself properly downstairs...etc.

I personally shave my pussy completely
(bald beaver) and I like shaved men as well (not to be confused with
me meeting strangers!). Getting pubes stuck between your teeth after
a BJ/deep-throat is no fun, haha. How would you look to friends when
you smile and there is pubes stuck between your teeth...yuck lol, so
don't do that to your wife, girlfriend, mistress or significant other
:)

I also do daily enema to cleanse/clean
my butt :) I don't just do it for anal sex but it's a healthy habit.
You can Google the benefits of enema's and the different types of
solutions you can use for cleansing. I use coffee enemas then I rinse
with water. Cleaning the pussy is important as well especially after
peeing (for women). Using a douche not only feels good but it help me
get off lol

So always brush your teeth, clean your
tongue, shave your pubes (most women like it shaved), shower, clean
your junk and make sure it smells good down there and you will get
hotter sexual experience with your significant other ;)

Wednesday, 3 February 2016

I have some rich sugar daddies who pay
me and fly me to their favorite hotel all expenses paid and I do
whatever they ask of me and yes its all sexual and perverted!!! some
of the images and videos on my porn hub account are the result of
those encounters; try to guess which ones?

Those sugar daddies I've known for a
long time! I will not fuck any rich guy just because he has money. I
only do the ones I've known for quite some time!!! and definitely I
do not do escort calls to random strangers...etc.

You might see me on some escort sites
but that's just stupid fetish play and I don't do that for real. You
will notice my escort adds all lack a phone number or any real
contact info “hence” it's fake!

Why do I do all this fetish play and
shoot nudes...etc? Because I'm playful, naughty and sexual by
nature!!! but not the way stupid porn-Hollywood portrays it. Read my
web site and blogs (DarkGothAngel.CriesOfTheGoth.com) and you will know what I mean.

Why do I do sugar daddies? Well truth
is they pay REAL GOOD!!! like you can't imagine!!! off course I can't
divulge much info on that but I do it for the money. I figure I know
them real well all my life, Both me and the sugar daddy is tested for
STD's at a reputable medical facility before any session, I get to
travel and live super first class anywhere from a week to a month;
and sometimes in different places on the same trip.

Do I meet or fuck fans, random
strangers or Internet friends? Absolutely NOT!!! never did and will
never do period! WHY? Because there are lots of crazy people out
there, because of STD's...and the list goes on and on!!!

Do I go to swinger parties or gang bang
parties..etc? Absolutely NOT for the same reason above; Never did
and will never do!!!

Who are the people who photograph me
and fuck me in those pix and vids on my porn hub account?

They are old friends I've known all my
life and we all know each other real well for a very long time and we
play often with each other. And, no you can't join in.

You've interacted with me on some other
sites, what was that all about? If its not listed on my personal website then its not me who you interacted with! I don't know and I
don't care who that was. I allow anyone to use any of my contents
anyway they want. If you want to know the sites where “I” post
stuff then check my personal web site! I list all my social media
that I'm active on on there

If you guys have any other questions comment below and I will add it here for the rest of you wankers fapping
to sluts on the web ;)

About Me

I am your average amateur goofball next
door. I'm playful and naughty by nature. I do not believe in
religions, not bound by cultures or traditions and I am NOT an atheist. I respect everyone's beliefs as
long as it doesn't harm others. I do not discriminate and believe
that we are all equal!

I have lots of tattoos and piercings
everywhere on my body including my private parts. Also I get lots of
messages from people asking about my tattoos especially the one on my
ass...it says Bitch or Slut..now U know ^_^