6 August 2009

I have fallen in loveWith the same woman three timesIn a day spanning nineteen yearsOf tearful joys and joyful tears

I loved her first when she was youngEnchanting and vibrant, eternally newShe was brilliant, fragrantAnd cool as the morning dewI fell in love with her the second time

When first she bore her child and mineShe’s always by my sideThe source of my strengthHelping to turn the tide

But there were candles to burnThe world was my concernWhile our home was her domainAnd the people were mineWhile the children were hers to maintainSo it was in those eighteen years and a dayTill I was detained, forced in prison to staySuddenly she’s our sole supportSource of comfort, our wellspring of hopeOn her shoulders fell the burden of life

I fell in love again with the same woman the third timeLooming from the battle her courage will never fadeAmidst the hardships she has remainedUndaunted and unafraidShe is calm and composedShe is God’s lovely maid

title: i have fallen inlove with the same woman three timesartist: jose mari chan

i so love this song, even then when my dad played this over and over again at home when i was still very young and jose mari chan's songs hit like a wave at the charts..but when i learned (just recently) that this poem was made by Ninoy Aquino for his wife President Cory Cojuangco Aquino when he was in prison during marcos' dictatorship, it made me love this song more, and it made me admire former president Cory and appreciate her more not just as the icon of democracy who fought for our freedom, but as a loving and supportive wife, a graceful good mother and a strong, courageous woman . thank you Tita Cory and goodbye. you deserved all the respect and love that you have recieved. you will always remain in our hearts...

21 July 2009

i had a good time in bangkok, thailand. kapunkap my dy! or thank you! and oh yeah! we watched transformers on i.max in bangkok! lingaw kayo! wa ko kasabot sa ilang national anthem last full show. hehehe

i just won 2nd place on the on-spot photo competition last 50th Araw ng Lanao Celebration (july 1-4, 2009). I dont have any slr camera, so i just borrowed chen's digi cam, and w/ a few enhancements, i got a 5thou price for this. woohoo! of course i had to spend 900 pesos for the 12x18 size print and 1,300 for the frame, but it was all worth it... :)

4 September 2008

I dont know if I should rain my gratitude to the low lying traitors ****for having my body lose 6 pounds in just 2 and a half weeks without doing any rituals. it just shed off just like that. thanks to trauma and stress they have caused all the people in Lanao del Norte... at least they did something errrr... ok to people like me who definitely envy skinny girls with thin arms on tv. BRAVO! for at least a job well done!

woohoo!

a 5 million reward for your head is not enough for all the atrocities.

23 August 2008

payed dyes pesos (ten pesos) per gamechasing two balls and giving it back to the players for at least 15 minutesscolded sometimes for slow paceasked to buy ice waters after the game at the nearby tindahandemandedtaken for granted

what would you do if ball boys were on strike or had their breaks to frolic at the sea wall with the other kids their ageand you are playing tennis with no onechasing the balls and returning it for you?

19 August 2008

i was awaken by several text messages at around 5am in the morning yesterday (Aug 18, 2008, monday). the message tone beeped non-stop so I knew there's something wrong going on, I knew the unusual text messages at that hour could be an emergency. so I got up quickly to get my cellphone, it was my boyfriend, he repeatedly sent a message to wake me up (he has no load to call me but was using unlimited texting), but I never expected it to be horrifying. the text message was "beh, ga boto2x na dri gisulong nami sa mga m.i.! (beh, there are loud gunshots everywhere, the milf are coming!)" anxiety immediately dawned on me-- I feared something bad might happen to him, I feared the milf might be in our town any time from now (my bf's town - kolambugan is just a 15-minute ride from here), I feared for the lives of my love ones, worse I fear death.

I called my bf to check the situation and when he answered his voice was shaking and he was running for his life and I heard several gunshots of armalites in the background. I was shaking.I woke my parents to alarm them about the situation (last saturday and sunday, there were reports that milf might attack some of the municiplities of lanao del norte, militaries were deployed in marawi and iligan but oversee kolambugan and other towns next to it) so mom called my cousins... dad got up to listen to the news in the radio -kolambugan was attacked by milf troops and were burning several houses and school buildings. they killed civilians and militiamen. they ransacked stores and pawnshops. I was slowly processing what was happening I never thought this could happen to me.

I packed my things in one backpack just incase the rebels would invade our place. we wouldn't panic like this if our house isn't located at the highway... sentro- the business district. if ever the milf will attack this place we will be one of the many hostages like those captivated in kolambugan. (we resided just right above our 2-storey 1940's house. the ground floor as our tindahan. a typical chinese store like those in colon or divisoria.) It was kind of a relief for me that my bf always texted and updated me of the situation. there were times he was unable to text me, there were moments he would text me that they (the civilians who went to the coastal area) were hunted by the troops. he told me he saw them, some of the members are still very young (15-17), some of them are girls. He told me they killed civilians and he saw dead bodies at the highway later that day. we were exchanging messages most of the time so that we will know what's the situation and so that I won't worry about him and his safety. I kept on praying.

at around 8:30 am, we received a text messages that MILF will attack Tubod (adjacent to our town-baroy). news scattered like wild fire. some of my friends and relatives evacuated to ozamis city by land and by boat. we planned to evacuate to ozamis, but we heard news the barge was stopped and land trip is very risky from ambush, so we decided to stay at my aunt's house just a few meters away from the hot spot. towns became ghost towns before lunch time. we stayed there overnight, my dad and my uncle were left at our house because they wanted to, it's hard to leave it empty.

people were exchanging infos, my bf stayed in kolambugan in spite of rescue operations and evacuation plans. I was really stressed out that day. my eyes were already very heavy but I couldn't sleep, the people of tubod were already getting ready. civilians who have their own guns were at the streets for defense. several brgys in tubod at the mountain area were attacked that night. intelligence reports, news were driving us crazy and I was so worried about my dad, my uncle and the dogs being left at our house. I didn't noticed I was already fast asleep, when I woke up, it was already 4:30 am, my heart pounded, it was a dreadful hour, I was expecting war and gunshots, I slept. my mom woke me up at 7am, she said I have to drive them off back to our house to open our store. I couldn't believe I woke up safe and sound. we went home. the town was still bare. no classes today and banks didn't open.

my bf visited me today. he told me what had happen yesterday. I made him go home early because of the on going situation. I am ready for an all-out-war, it's much better that way than giving mindanao to the MILF. fuck the government. and may MILF burn a hundred times in hell.

up to now, lanao and iligan city is still on red alert. dipolog city retrieved a bomb planted at their bridge just this morning. this is driving us crazy. how could the government not order an offense assault when there were damages already and innocent civilians killed. how could they give mindanao to the MILF without asking the residents' opinions first? why would they allow muslims to dominate this land when the fact is the population of muslims are only 10% of the total population in the entire country? ancestral domain claim means giving our lands to the muslims. ancestral domain claim means a bigger problem and a chaotic mindanao.

I hope and pray that this traumatic crisis will be over and everything will be back to normal. God bless the people and the used to be peaceful land of mindanao.

17 August 2008

I got so tired of the long dry ponytailed hair so I resorted into cutting it short. short but it is still dry. hehe. I always blame my dry hair on mom. liwat ko niyag buhok. the texture is like the typical elementary classroom broom ... so I had to have it relaxed every 6 months. but since I studied nursing (where hairs are always doomed inside the hairnet) and play tennis almost everyday, I now find hair relaxing a waste of money. so for the mean time, I just have to live with the short dry hair until I'll graduate next year.ok ra?

13 August 2008

oh boy! ever since I saw the new mini-cooper-inspired suzuki swift 2008 last night while watching the filipino version of the koreanovela My Girl, I couldn't get the cute little car out of my mind anymore, the truth is my heart was suddenly fixed on it, so assuming I could afford it, I googled it on the net half praying it wouldn't go beyond the 1M price. and true enough the 1.3 litre engine 4WD gave me high hopes. it's about 800 thousand bucks. so I asked my mom about it, I even told her that we'll just sell dad's old car so we can buy a new one, but as expected she reluctantly said no. she said I should earn it myself... hahay. well I guess I just have to shake this thing off before I could think of a dirty scheme like robbing the first valley bank just right beside our house. hehe...so there goes my dream car gone as swift as suzuki swift! ;p

I'll just buy a mini cooper when I'll be inserting IV's in London or better yet New York as soon as I pass the board exams. wink! wink!*

11 August 2008

I was looking through not-so-old photographs and I realized there are a lot of things that I missed.I miss the port and the sea coastI miss that big log and river that I had my shots in kolambuganI miss having picnicsI miss taking picturesI miss being an artistI miss the sunrise and sunsetsI miss flapping my feet in the water and just sit around all day hearing it splatter .I miss diving from a big rock right into the blue sea.and I realized that I miss one person that does everything she wanted...I miss one happy sunny girl that appreciates the details ofevery day...I miss that girl standing right in front of me in the mirror...

bliss

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i fall hard... i end up being stupid... im the person who does things without any regrets... love, have fun, get hurt, but no regrets... hurt and regret doesnt come with the same meaning.
i love talking to intellectuals... sharing ideas... to me, they make more sense than having friends who stuck their nose in other people's business...
i love to travel... i love to shop... i love the beach...
i love fashion...
someday i'll travel the world ... meet different people... and learn different cultures
i consider myself lucky... but still uncontented...
i am my own world...
at this age... i am already half fulfilled... i have gone to different places...played with different opponents… met new friends…
i love tennis... i love challenges... and i love winning...
for me... money nowadays is everything...
I love to rule... i wanna rule...
I RULE!