~Wear His Armor~
(Lanterne)
Feel
much pain
but with his
love I'll always
walk
With
his help
crush evil
His light shines all
day
My
true hope
is the Lord
faith will stand thru
all
Lord
feeds soul
keeps me whole
facing life thru
hell
Safe
with the
Lord I'll be
He knows all 'bout
me
I
trust the
best for me
is yet to come
His armor I'll
wear
Dorian Petersen Potter
aka ladydp2000
copyright@2014
January.20.2015

The days seem to go by so fast. there is a void in the air, the birds have lost their vibrant beat, the ocean has lost its luster, the soil feels solid and dry.
My soul feels as if it has left my body before my death, my dreams haunt my day, the tears stain my steps, my doctor says that it is depression, I say that it is reality, I am intoxicated by society,I am numb by perscriptions.
Why do I feel so isolated within myself? is there no one in my painfully tight shoes? can anyone understand my pain? can anyone melt in my sorrows? why am I this way? why is the world so cruel? why can't I be normal?
Wait! I am normal, what am I saying, I know now, the veil has been lifted, humanity is my enemy, the sins that drip from their sweat, the dread that follows their shadows, their souls of black, their intentions of greed pull a shade across their eyes.
They are destined for doom, they will not be saved, they will not find salvation, they belittle me, they curse me, they shame me, but they are right about one thing, I am different, unlike them, I will be saved in the last days.

The sweetest sounds of burning trees
A gentle stroking in the breeze
The calm has lasted past the storm
Cloudy visions, Satan’s roar
Too many sights have passed my way
A time found only in the haze
The softest screams are running bare
My aching bones creak as I stare
You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark
The battle’s started at the end
No one is coming to repent
The sinners grab their wine from prey
No judgment calling here to stay
The sport is reckless to be told
The one is laughing at his souls
It falters nowhere to be sure
The power grows forevermore
Like a spirit in the wind
I have no say in where you’ve been
But cross the line to come to me
And pay the price for ecstasy
You walk a distance towards me
The fall’s eternal, can’t you see?
I’m a memory in your heart
I whisper to you in the dark.

In the past I remember how things were so simple
When I was little my cheeks had such cute dimples
Looking back I remember how sweet I was as a child
When I think again my heart told me I was so wild
Yet, in time my simple choices was revealed as true as anyone
The reason I was the way I am today, I did things, to get done
Finishing lots of my undone ideas was so incredibly hard
So I figure my heart and choices should never hold in no bard
I never thought I would learn heart aches and pain
With such under statement I did things for no gain
I was a child who held true to what he has learned
But as we got older those kinda perspective would get me burned
When I made up my mind that people was not kind
I led myself in a confusion that I was blind
In the past I do recall that seeing is believing
So I was the one who stood their with friends leaving
Alone, I felt I did not belong, I cherish each person who knew me
I got older too see how the world works it stung me like a bee
The feeling of tingling ran through my vain
My view of the world and people who knew me was stained
Now I know they are out for their selves with no kind feelings
Life I know is just a joke because of who I hung out with seeing
Today as I look at the world it is in such shambles and astray
And rather fallow everyone I just walk away

I'm lost hurt and angry
Why did you take his life
I want, No I need to know
Tell me, Tell me why
I deserve to know
Haven't you done enough to him
What'd he ever do to you
He suffered his whole life
Suffered more than anyone deserved
Tell me, Tell me why you did it
I have a right to know
Why'd you let him born to them
Born to worthless parents
Parents who didn't care
They threw him away like garbage
Pawned him off on someone else
Tell me, Tell me why
Explain how you could do that
You gave him Polio
You let others treat him like disease
You took away the full use of his legs
You warped his hand and foot
Tell me, Explain to me why
I deserve to know
You let others think he was crazy
You let it go on for over year
You didn't stop it, Why
Tell me, Give me your reason
Answer me God, Help me to understand
You go and make matters worse
You gave him Cancer
You didn't give him a chance to fight back
You just jerked him away from us
Tell me, Tell me how
How you could be so cruel
How can others not question you
When others do it, It's murder
But when it's by your hand
It's your will, Their fate
Tell me, What makes you so different
Your no better than the demons knocking at the door
You heard me beg and plead
You know I'm not afraid to die
I was willing to carry it all for him
I was willing to take my Daddy's place
You didn't even let me say Goodbye
Tell me, Tell me why I couldn't take his place
Answer me God, you owe me that much
Spiritual

What Is This Church All About?
Is this church meant for people like me?
Is this where God really wants me to be?
They claim to be filled with God’s spirit.
When it comes to HIS truth... Can they give it?
I’m sure there’s many who come and attend
It’s more than “church on Sunday,” that we must spend!
We must reach out to the lost and the oppressed!
After all, Christ gave us his very best!
May we all preach the gospel and God’s holiness!
And strive to seek his awesome righteousness!
Living for Jesus must be a daily walk and experience!
Not simply based on our “ambitious self appearance.”
God isn’t interested in a denomination or a title…
He wants to know… Do we really believe the Bible?
He’s not interested in the money put in the offering plate.
He wants to know; “Are you ready
to enter heaven’s gate?”
May we strive to serve Jesus with a zeal and passion!
And be filled with his holiness and compassion!
May we serve Jesus from a heart of humbled confession!
And making our commitment to him,
our #1 possession!
“Unless the Lord builds the house.”
They labor in vain that build it!
Let’s seek the power of God!
May his presence completely fill it!!
By Jim Pemberton

Do you believe in the things that you've always known,
Can you understand the things you've been shown.
Is it the visions you see that make you believe,
Or is the feelings you get when you've been deceived.
The pain you feel a never ending ache ,
Tearing your heart and soul from you every day.
Time ticks slowly pounding away at you,
Throbbing heart breaking and there's you can do,
Must I settle for these lost and broken dreams,
Because it has all the signs that what it seems.
How much should a man endure to find his way,
It cant possibly be like this hard for me every day.
There is nothing so frustrating as being so confused,
Especially when you've discovered that you've been used.
I will get through this lonely phase I have no doubts,
But I'm sure there will come a day I'll figure it all out.
Cautiously I walk the path that's been laid before me,
In faith I will continue for I know he will let me see.
Life will be thrown at you in so many different ways,
I will be prepared for these things for the rest of my days.
Broken dreams will be the learning tree for me to grow ,
Living my life with Joy Happiness is what I'll always Know.
tac

Which way leads to the
land of green white
green?
Which way are we
heading?
A country the wicked
bears the rulership, and
the people sighing
continuously.
A terrible thing sprouts
beneath the sun: a
pregnant woman
delivering not.
Imps come to lime-light
by snuffing air from the
goose that laid the
golden eggs.
The blind guiding the un
blind.
The weak suppressing
the strong-a terrible
thing.
Like the overthrow of the
gods at Mt. Olympus by
the Titans.
A country where also
thieves appear as men of
integrity.
Land of green white
green,which way?
A land where the
enlightened ones are
overshadowed and
peanuts given to them.
The masses are dogs that
eat the crumbs.
Which way to go you
Land?
Iliterates stand on
podium of power
bellowing orders as milk
of sorrow known as
dividends of democracy
is passed around.
The machine of progress
manned by the
unproductive.
"There is better
tomorrow" we hear.
Land of green white
green,my country
where rule of law walk
beside anarchy.
The proles are sentenced
to adversity,and there
endured death-like trials.
Chai! Aru! People
dancing on thorns
whimpering as they
throng
along.
I see a new sun rising
from the horizon,hope is
rekindled as its rays
grace on hopeless bodies.
Look!! there soon be
change!
Note:
This
is
poem
full
of
Nigeria
political
angst.

written 28th oct 2012
You were never seen by us, that privilege sadly was not for us
an extravagance we were overwhelmed by, the thought of your embrace
The entire twelve weeks you were a joy to have known, even 'without' being seen
hearing about you're arrival, was a blessing at the time you were conceived
For life hadn't been easy and we had all asked God, we even plea'd
We wait upon the day, you will finally meet us
having the honour to love and learn with you, saddly not for us
It brakes my heart as you part, you had already embeded love into my heart
Just knowing we will now...forever be kept apart
God has other plans for your love that's so strong, blessing us from the start
we continually pray, maybe he'll deside to let you stay around
But the intense pain of tears and loss, are constantly falling all around
just let it be known, we all desperately wanted you to become part of us
We all will love you for eternity, you are now forever one of us,
although it was only for a very slight second, it was better than never
You are from this day on, embedded into our hearts forever...
the impact you have left 'unborn young one'' my beloved grandchild....
"Angel" 2012

Many In Church Don’t Know of God’s Power!
There’s many people who attend church on Sundays.
And yet don’t really understand what God’s word says!
Many get excited when the church has a “coffee hour.”
But few really have a desire to experience God’s power!
Prayer time is too often just a few words that are said.
They sing a good tune, but many are “spiritually dead.”
An evangelist comes to town, and many rush to see him!
It’s almost like they want to “bow down” before him!
I’m not here to look for a preacher to get me “excited.”
I want to experience the power of God, that he’s provided!
If I need a drive thru restaurant, I don’t need a church to do it!
When it comes to knowing God’s power… Many refuse it!
It’s only the power of the Lord Jesus, that can raise the dead!
It’s only through knowing his word, that we can truly be fed!
If you want someone to stroke you ears, you’ll find them!
Many will say what you want to hear! You probably know them!
But if you really want the power of God to really change you!
You need to seek his presence! And allow it to touch you!
If you can’t find it in a church building, get into a prayer closet!
There’s a move of God that’s stirring! But many have lost it!
Seek the Lord while he may be found! And enter into his presence!
The Holy Spirit wants to fill you with power! And is omnipresent!
Please come Lord Jesus, and forgive us of our sinful living!
May we enter your courts with a heart
of praise and thanksgiving!
We need you Lord Jesus! May we lift your name up higher!
And seek to be filled with your Holy Ghost’ fire!
By Jim Pemberton 10/09/13

There’s many people who claim they’ve nothing to “hide!”
They tend to use the rainbow
as a source of their “pride.”
But if you read in the book of Genesis, it is revealing.
God’s purpose of the rainbow had a different meaning!
The rainbow was there when much
of mankind disappeared!
There was a promise of God that was so very clear.
He promised to never again destroy man with a flood.
This was his promise... An extension of his love!
It was never intended as his approval for perversion!
Mankind still needs a Jesus filled holy conversion!
The colors of the rainbow can’t wash away sin’s dark stain!
This can only happen by the
power of Jesus’ name!
The colors are beautiful… But man’s heart is filled with deceit!
Without the soul cleansing power of Jesus…
We’re never complete!
No court decision can give the freedom that many desire!
Only the power of the cross can
change you this very hour!
The only way to find equality with God, is through the cross!
Without his words of truth…
We are forever LOST!
Look past the colors of the rainbow! Seek the power of the blood!
Then you too, can be changed from
God’s power from above!
By Jim Pemberton

The Old Salt was a special man who came along in a time
when he was needed most.
A time that is now gone forever.
When men believed and sacrificed, when hero’s walked the earth in mass.
When patriotism was not just a word
but,
by what men lived and judged the worth of each,
a man who lived a life most of us cannot comprehend.
An era now gone as this warriors tour of duty ends at this station,
and begins anew in the heavenly fleet.
Sail on Sailor into your unaccompanied tour,
we salute you.
What greater honor, that when a man moves forward,
he leaves behind in each of us the best of what he was.
A defender, protector, supporter, victor, a warrior,
the last of the breed from an era when ships were made of wood
and men were made of steel.
The Old Salt has reported for duty that takes him away from us for now.
Those of us who remain behind,
remember, and will continue to remember,
because he now resides forever in our hearts.
As I look up at night, I envision The Old Salt,
a beret draped just above the eye,
as he draws upon his pipe,
quietly he waits.
The guardian of heaven’s gate.

You’ve maddened me to the core
You singed me with your ferocious fire
We’re opposites… we’ll never integrate
We can’t blend with each other…
Your love and I’m hate
We’re contrary to each other…
So don’t even think about
Getting us back together
Because without a doubt,
We don’t click with each other…
So let us go our own way…
Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be deleted from my mind…
I’m not the one that should pay the price
You act as if you’re an angel from heaven
But, you’re a fiend…a devil from hell...who needs your advice?
Could someone unchain me from this prison?
So let us prepare for that day…
Fear and bewilderment build inside of our minds
Taking over us…we’re wasting valuable time
Terror and wrath injects into our veins…time starts to unwind
I’m regaining my glory…this moment feels so sublime
You think you’re innocent?
I can sense your guilt…bleeding through you
Do you live to feed me anguish?
Don’t deny it…you crafty demon…no wonder I feel blue
Let’s get ready for battle…
I’ll watch you decay…
IT’S PAY BACK TIME . . .
Taste my fury and my agony
Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to be defeated…
I scream before nightfall
I close my eyes to kiss my demise
I want to disappear
Scratch away my desolation
Wipe away my tears…
Spewing out of my eyes…like a waterfall
Tonight, there will be dismay
There will be suffering
After sundown…
Failure and glory will expose like stars in the midnight sky
Who will earn the crown?
No one knows in silent wars – who can reveal the light in goodbye
Why are we black and white?
Are you too afraid to know the reason why?
Everything’s black and white
You love to torture me with your deceptive devices
We’re playing this chess match – let’s fight!
Tonight, you’re going to pay the prices
You’re going to suffer alone…

At Church, We Talked About the Holy Spirit!
At church, we talked about the Holy Spirit.
And discussed how to be guided by it!
We discussed scripture and God's power!
And how we need his spirit... This hour!
We learned about how the Holy Spirit moved long ago.
And how we need it now! To nourish our soul!
It seemed like no matter what we decided
We knew the spirit's power has been provided!
Rather than just all of us talking about it...
Isn't it about time, that we really experience it?
The disciples of the Bible were empowered from on high!
They boldly proclaimed God! And were not shy!
It's almost like the church today is somewhat defeated!
Because the Holy Spirit's work isn't completed!
How can anyone experience the Holy Spirit within?
When so many hang on to unrepentant sin???
If you're one, who's hanging on to a denomination...
Is God's spirit part of your life's foundation???
Won't you take the time to wait on the spirit's presence!
God is powerful! And is loving and omnipresent!
Talk is cheap! Submission to God's spirit is the key!
To help you in life! And give you the victory!
Won't you come now? And enjoy the spirit's fullness?
It will bring you joy!
And complete wholeness!
By Jim Pemberton

It was only supposed to last a little while.
The pain I suffered was temporary.
You promised you would fix it.
Oh and fix me you did.
I hate you for what I have become.
Tired. Lazy unable to work.
You created this monster of pain
Inside my head.
It never goes away.
But you were the lucky soul.
Your death was quick and painless.
Leaving behind those who mourn.
But I am not one of them.
I wish you all that you deserve.
I have something now that I cannot change.
This damage to nerves, and numbness and pain.
My life has become a struggle.
I compete with pain each day.
Sometimes I lose. Occasionally I win
It never leaves this pain you made.
I wonder how many more.
You destroyed like me.
So powerful being a surgeon.
To hold someone's life in your hands.
sickness, depression, anger

Living A Lifestyle That the Bible Forbids…
I know of someone living a lifestyle that the Bible forbids.
He told me; “how dare anyone tell me how I should live!”
He added; “what I do is no one else’s business but my own.”
“No one can ever tell me what I do in my home!”
When given scripture that clearly forbids what he’s doing…
It’s the backward kind of life… That he’s choosing!
He claims Jesus is his lord, in spite of his moral depravity.
It’s like he has, in his body, an “infected cavity.”
God gave to us his word, with his holy instructions!
If we don’t obey, it’ll lead to our spiritual destruction!
It doesn’t matter if 10,000 churches say that it’s o.k. to do!
God requires a righteous and holy way of living, for me and YOU!
There are choices we all have, that are to be made!
Are you going to be victorious in Christ? Or sin’s slave???
Have you thought about living for Jesus? And what it cost?
If we’re not sacrificing our lives for him, we’re forever lost!
If you’re one who’s caught up into a life filled with perversion…
May I introduce you to the blood of Jesus? And a righteous conversion?
God gave to each of us, HIS rules and commandments to live by!
It’s either God’s rules, or man’s, that you’ll either live or die by!
Won’t you choose a life that God has chosen to give you?
He created mankind! It’s no secret how much he loves you!
The opportunity is here! It may never come again!
Won’t you let the power of Jesus break the bondage of sin?
Jesus can set you free! Won’t you let him help you?
He’s patiently waiting… Just because he wants to!
By Jim Pemberton 10/07/13

My
angelic
damsel
from
Above,look! Heaven
cries
Because
it
Lost
Most
precious
star
to
Earth-You!
Your
Love
is
sweeter
than
Honeycomb,and
your
Skin
smoother
than
the
Morning
dew.
Your
graceful
walk
is
Like
the
gazelle's.
You
are
flower
blossoms
From
the
garden
of
Eden-
Your
eyes
sparkle
like
Refined
pearls.
Helen
of
Troy
can't
be
Compared
to
your
Beauty-
you
epitome
of
Elegance.
I
love
to
hear
your
Melodious
songs.
Hear!
the
nightingale
Sings
of
you,the
wind
Whispers
Of
Your
delicate
Nature.
My
beloved,your
arms
Are
vines,ur
succulent
Lips...you
are
a
refreshing
Spring
in
my
garden-
Watering
my
life.
Your
love
has
drowned
Me,yes
I
rather
die
by
Your
side
than
live
to
be
Alone.
Written by:
Ifeanyi Bob Ekechukwu.
Dedicated to Leonora
Galinta.
A unique and lovely
damsel from the heavens.
Love you so much.

Can’t think about the Year that didn’t last
Can’t fight the time and how it passed so fast…
Voices were cheerful that night
Everyone was full of silver light
I heard the sounds but didn’t care
I couldn’t help but only think and stare…
I dreamed of love that possibly I’ll never share
And of life that was just like a fairytale.
In that second of complete despair
I saw the moon and realized it was all a dare
Then your voice whispered in my ear
Promising me all I needed to hear…

Man's Corruption... God's Redemption!
The Bible speaks of man's sin and corruption.
That's why God has offered us, his redemption!
The heart is desperately wicked above all things.
There's an evil corruption that sin brings!
The Lord searches our heart and tests our ways.
He watches our lives, all of our days!
There's nothing good in ourselves.
Not now, or ever!
Without God's mercy...
We're doomed forever!
But, through Christ, there's a way and a plan!
He made this available to every woman and man!
His gift of salvation is a message of love, made clear!
The coming of Jesus Christ,
draws ever so near!
We can trade our sinful corruption,
for a new way of living!
Won't you come before the Lord,
with a heart of giving?
Giving our life to Jesus,
is the best thing to do!
By his power and grace, you can be
made BRAND NEW!
I'm thankful for his salvation!
Mercy has been applied!
Because of Christ' death on the cross…
I'm now sanctified!
By Jim Pemberton

Are You Happy With the Life You Have?
Are you truly happy with the life you have?
Or have you been discouraged and sad?
Have the things in life brought you contentment?
Or are you one who’s often filled with resentment?
The feelings you have, and the ambitions inside…
Is there some trouble that you’re trying to hide?
Everything you have… God has given to you!
His promises are true!
And he’ll never fail you!
The happiness you may be seeking,
you can find in him!
You can find peace,
hope and satisfaction within!
Christ can bring a healing that you won’t find!
Won’t you give him a chance?
While there’s still time?
What profits a man if he gains the world,
or loses his soul?
Jesus loves you so much!
More than you’ll ever know!
The opportunity is here, for you to take!
Won’t you give God a chance? For heaven’s sake?
By Jim Pemberton 10/14/13

Gun fire all around, bombs going off in the distance
It was some of the angry mobs and resistance
Father was the king of SafeHaven a small kingdom
Like all other kingdoms it fell in random
Fire started in the castle
And along with it came a battle
It was a distance memory now because the child has now grew
Many things in this child that made memories stew
My name is Mastrey, a young orphan who was there that night
Mastrey saw her in the distance and her father and mother in his sight
Everyone was loud that night and made all the children hide
But that evening Mastrey saw her mother and father die
She ran into the bushes in such a fright
And evil doers were running around with flashlights
Mastrey remember it as he distracted them
Her eyes was so confused with problems
Mastrey new that it was because of what just occurred
His feelings of what those people did was not awkward
The distraction worked, he went back to were she was
Hiding and very scared she was, he asked her, can you trust me just because?
Her answer that night depended on her lively hood
As Mastrey was their with his hand reaching out to her as he stood
Pulling her up from the ground he looked into her eyes that were SeaBlue
Mastrey had made a life long friend and love, She knew it was true
Next: My Story Telling, Who is this Princess

Political Correctness Brings Weakness!
In our country’s pursuit of “political correctness…”
We’re not in a position of strength… But weakness!
It’s like you can’t hardly say anything anymore…
And you find yourself outside the courtroom’s door!
We may think we’re strong… But we’re weakened!
You may ask; “how could all of this happen???”
We’ve attempted to replace God with a “new morality.”
This has brought a new generation of “moral depravity.”
We bend our laws to what is called; “constitutional.”
And forget about what is truth! And what is biblical!
Even the ten commandments are often ridiculed and scorned.
As a great rise of ungodly living has been formed!
A tide of sexual perversion is what has taken place!
Bringing into my homes, much heartache and disgrace!
God’s truth is often “thrown out,” and avoided!
While a “new kind of living” has often been decided!
We need YOU Jesus! Now! More than ever before!
Our sins, on the old rugged cross, is what he bore!
Jesus is the answer to our problems! He is the solution!
His blood can take away all of the sinful pollution!
Please dear lord, touch and convict us with your power!
Please heal this nation! We need YOU this hour!
By Jim Pemberton 09/30/13

I can act insane
But DO NOT
Make me feel worthless
I belong in God’s family
He will bless my future generation
Don’t punish me for
Being myself –
Don’t envy my glee
I can act like an
Adult, but I’d
Prefer to have joy…
Not stress…
That piles upon us in our
Everyday lives
Being childlike is
A rare beauty –
No one prizes it…
No one came across it…
In this lifetime…
I can laugh all day
I can make you smile
If you’d accept my
Childlike dreams of mine
Don’t treat me like a sick swine
Renew my young heart
Give me the ability
To kill the old man…
I have my place in God’s family
He’ll be adored and glorified
We’ll exchange prayers and hugs
By my future generation
I beg of you –
Don’t kill my childlike mentality
I’ll behave myself…
I’m positively sure that I’ll make you happy
I’ll still have pieces of a child in me
And pass it on to my future generation…

A Very Inviting Temptation!
I remember of a particular situation.
I was offered a very "inviting" temptation.
The situation I was in... I didn't belong!
And lost any sense of "right and wrong."
At first... I felt no guilt or shame.
And brought embarrassment
to my family's name.
I tried to explain this to my wife and kids.
I heard; "Dad... please... no more fibs!"
The Godly principles were "tossed to the side,"
As the sin inside caused arrogance and pride.
Soon, all in my life that truly mattered...
Was gone! My life was empty and shattered!
I was sorry for all of the problems I caused!
This time... I took a moment to pause.
I cried to God to rescue me from my sin.
I confessed! Would God help me once again?
I read in the Bible of Jesus’ grace and love!
This time the help I needed had to come from above!
I asked him for a fresh and brand new start.
He removed the stain from a broken heart.
He restored to me the joy I once had.
I'm so blessed! Jesus has made me glad!
Jesus is the reason I'm here today!
I LOVE HIM more than words can say!
By Jim Pemberton

Give me drink, rest, and solitude--
these are all the things I long for.
Give me as well your finest food
and I'll ask of you, lass, no more!
My bonnie lass, what's the matter--
why are you all sorry and alone?
Don't be sad because you're fatter
than most, lass, for love loves its own.
Sweet lass, I'll tell you a secret.
If I were a young lad again,
I'd pursue you without regret!
But as I am three-score and ten
years old, indeed, I can never
be the youthful lad you most need.
But your pain won't be for ever:
for your heart will refuse to bleed.

They played reverse psychology with his mind
He felt so stupid
Like everything he had ever believed was a lie
The auras are bad, we continued to say
They are not good
Test the spirits…test the spirits
He went haywire
He pushed away
How could we blame him?
His body was not his own
Come to grips, we told him
The doctors don’t understand
But still we must not jump to conclusions
You are strong; you have God
The upper hand
If I lift this bed will you think otherwise?
Lift the entire world and I will see nothing of you
You are nobody compared to him in my eyes
Your wonders are for wonderment alone
You wander and then you stay
You prey prey prey
Those that prey desire nourishment
Those who prey lack strength
And to grab onto the youngest
Mistaking him for stupid and weak
That is below everything unworthy
That is just pathetic
Whatever you are
You are not him
And surely not worthy of a line of acknowledgement
You hurt my closest friend
And it is on
You will be the reason
The fire of my claws flare
You will be the very thing I will devour
It preyed on his innocence
It made itself his friend
Acting the hero
Burning him to nothing in the end
Come to grips, we said
No more writing
No more imagination
The auras are not good
He is not good!
Laura is not good!
Life life life is not good!
You prey on a sick, young boy
You are messing with a demon like me!
I will tear you to shreds for the next flaw you set fire to!
Believe me I will hide more under the timbers
And I will crawl out
Spewing perversity and hate
And drag you in with me
True colors will surround you
I realize you have the power
To kill my loved one
I stake alone
I hand the burning torch to you
And with fire surrounding me
I spit and hiss
Take me
Take me instead
I know you want all
And all live in me
You cannot turn down my offer
Become me
And I will destroy me

There’s a Web of Temptation and Sin!
There’s a web of temptation and a lot of sin…
That brings slavery and a strong bondage within!
Throughout this land, there’s an evil surge!
While many lives, seem to be getting “submerged!”
Being submerged, into a life, that many believe in.
They become perverted, but want all to receive them!
The “love and acceptance,”
that many desire.
Puts them on a tightrope! A very thin wire!
As the web of temptation and sin begin to grow.
It brings a bondage that damages the soul!
They may want to have “love and acceptance.”
But in their hearts, needs to be a godly repentance!
May the holiness of a righteous God be stirred!
That all will come back, to the truth of his word!
His son Jesus, came to the cross! He bled and died!
That through him, our lives can be totally sanctified!
Only the power of God, can bring a needed restoration!
He gives to one and all…
A heavenly invitation!
Whosoever will… Come now! And accept him!
Won’t you take the time, to really know him?
Don’t allow the web of life to destroy
and overcome you!
Come to Jesus now! He really does
LOVE YOU!
By Jim Pemberton

Drowning in the pool of anguish…oh…oh…
I’m venturing into the forest…and I want to hear the words seep out
Release these aching sorrows…I worry my soul’s drying out…
like a drought…
Drain out the fluids from my heart
It’s gouging me…bruising me to the core…
**chorus**
Embrace the light…embrace the midnight sky…
You fall in my arms – you die so warm
Shed me more sun to lift up my spirits
From the…underground…and release me – I’m breathless
I’m drowning in doubt…ooh… oh…
Remember me…I’m falling…into my swirling fate…hanging on the roots
Strangling my heart…distorting in my veins… I’m bleeding so softly – cut out the wood…
Splintering me…I’m shattering… and I’m falling in the abyss
Bring me more radiance from my candle light
Warp me up in bliss…don’t let the midnight sky…don’t take away my delight
From the…ocean…and save me—save me…oh… oh… I’m failing
*chorus*
I’m drowning in regret…ooh..oh…
Hit the bull’s eye in my heart…embrace the light
And don’t leave me hanging in the abyss…hand me a kite!
Save me before I fall apart…shut out the night
And don’t let the dusk escape us…
I must confess…
I must confess…
I hate to see you abandon the light…
But I’m not the one to save you from the night
Ooh…ohh…
*Chorus*
Splintering lies fill your heart
I want to kiss it goodbye…
But you’ve mastered it like a piece of art
I want to kiss the abyss and die…
Dry… I wanna touch the sky with my whole soul
But I’m failing and the end of time has taken its toll
Tainted sorrow…swims around me…I dwell where the waters depart
But the anguish still swarms in my heart…
I’m failing…my heart stops beating
And my desires are fleeting
From my grasp
And the monsters laugh at me…as I fall…
*chorus*
Embrace the midnight sky…catch me…catch me…
As I fall in death’s arms…I die so cold
And your heart is made of gold
Untangle the darkness & take away the nightmares
Answer our prayers & block out the night
Erase the heartaches & wipe away our tears
Unravel Your words of life & delight

Satan HATES everything that God loves!
He tries to counterfeit everything he does!
He goes about as a lion, seeking whom to devour!
He comes after us! But God alone has the power!
Satan will twist God’s truth, into a corruptible lie!
He has one mission!
And that is to see you die!
He wants to enslave you into deep addictions!
And bring into your life, unneeded afflictions!
He has one purpose, ambition and goal…
Is to seek eternal damnation of your very soul!
Jesus has come! His TRUTH can set you free!
He has come that you may have life abundantly!
Won’t you accept him? You can overcome!
Through the shed blood, and power of God’s son!
All glory to Jesus! All praise to
HIM on high!
He is your protector!
He is El-Shaddai!
Won’t you allow God’s love
to bring you salvation?
He offers it to right now!
A heavenly invitation!
God’s love is stronger than Satan!
HE reigns supreme!
He can help you to overcome,
the lies the devil brings!
By Jim Pemberton

Is life worth a try?
Would I be living a lie?
If I smile, would it break?
If I laugh, would it be fake?
I see the tears from the sky and me
See how self doubting I can be
The feeling of damp grass
The moment that's bound to last
The ways I could wash away
All the people who have gone astray
Is it me to blame?
When can my feelings be tame?
Why is this world so dark?
When can I actually make a mark?
The tears all fall down
Ive been given a permanent frown
Standing out is not a choice
Cant risk screaming with my voice
The sky is now dark blue
How many insults were true?
I wish I could be pure
They all hate me, I'm sure
All eyes watch me every move
So much that i want to prove
why do i still put up a fight?
Why shouldn't i just say goodnight?
i don't have anyone to miss
could death give me a dark ending kiss?
Is there a reason for me to be here?
I all i can feel is numbing fear
I just want to feel the sun shine
To feel happiness throughout my spine
But that is just a dream
That will float away with my desperate scream
Help is the word i always say
I ask for it everyday
And what do i get?
I pile full of regret
I think it's time
To end my faith, my suffering, my rhyme

I feel that I have found a home in this cyberspace
with full of hearts and ideas in a special place
I wonder of all the people in the world to make me smile
with antics that help me grow in every mile
I do want to say to all of the people with respect
because of all of you my mind is not in a wreck
I would lie if I did not get ideas from all of you
without you my poems would not come true
I bless everyone with care
with kindness and without dis-pare
I hold my hands high and put them together
with this I bless you with good weather
I do read some of the poems that people put out
sometimes I feel with out a doubt
I feel the pain in the poems that some has revealed
with hopes that they can read with their mind not sealed
I smile a bunch with every word
it is like a music in my head making a cord
I do want you all to know that you have made my day
to be a better day in every different array
I cherish my time with all the people in my heart
the words flow in my mind is just but a start
I'm happy with everyone in PoetrySoup.com
with hardship that came this cyberspace makes me calm
I cannot choose five cause if I do I don't think it's right
just to tell you that is just my own insight
I thank all for helping me grow with all the poems that are shown
with faith and humor, with views of kindness this site has grown
If I had to say or dedicate my poems to who
would be the first five who reads my poems with a point of view

We’re Just Sinful Human Beings!
All of us are just sinful human beings!
Scripture says; “the heart is sinful above everything!”
Even if we try to hide and wash our sins away…
Wickedness in our heart, is there, each day!
God made Adam and Eve, with perfection!
But sin crept in, like a deep and wicked infection!
He put them in the Garden of Eden with a choice.
It was up to them to listen to his voice.
They had all they could want, with one instruction.
Disobeying this, would lead to their destruction.
Satan took the form of a snake to tempt their mind.
And their disobedience affected all of mankind!
Since that time, mankind has needed atonement!
Only the blood of Jesus can cleanse you! This very moment!
Only his blood can wash away sin’s dark stain!
It can only be found when one calls on Jesus’ name!
We’ve all sinned and fallen short of God’s glory!
But wait! This doesn’t have to be the end of the story!
God and all of his angels in heaven, are waiting for YOU!
The love and blood of Jesus,
can make you BRAND NEW!
His love, for our sins, is what he offers in exchange!
You can be forgiven! And forever totally changed!
This opportunity is for you, to reach out and take!
Won’t you do it now? For eternity’s sake???
By Jim Pemberton

A serpent underneath blue sky,
in shade of man, in twinkle of an eye,
above brick wall, in the structure, at the floor,
venom of white dove; contaminated food, undrinkable water,
misguided youth, pregnant daughter, unfaithful father and hateful son,
mothers do pray while we walk through Babylon;
on teli and in the press, on top shells,
price none the less, in bedroom and at your door..
dawn of a new day seemed to be dark,
after all.

Welcome to the planet
Wake me when it’s over
The dreamer’s always tempted
To come around and show her
And I just keep wastin my time
On girls that won’t love, me, like their wine
And it’s just too easy to blame
The rock and the system for causing my pain
And I just want you to know that I’m through
With being alone, when I’m with you
And when you mask the truth with your lies
It just won’t get any better for the rest of your guys
And when you fall asleep
The night covers your tears
And the darkness sees you weeping
Cause your conscious can’t be cleared
This year you’re feeling colder
Your heart’s a little older
You haven’t found your soul mate
And now you think you’re too late
But one look inside of my eyes
Gives you the hope that there’s a guy
Who can make you feel happy and sad
And it’ll be worth it to feel that again

Forgive me Father for I have sinned,
for being born with you to begin,
its been a long time since my last confession,
I don't wont your blessing,
lies and resurrection.
I don't believe in love, I don't believe in faith,
cant stand my own kind,
humble in hate,
I don't believe in truth, I don't wont to be saved,
erase me from your list,
buried, unmarked,
graved.
Abused as a child,
bloodstains of a man,
only shovel awaits,
forgive me if you can.

Someone Felt Like Giving Up!
I know someone who wanted to give up.
Things in life began to “trip him up.”
After much thought and contemplation.
He really offered no real explanation.
He felt like his life was at a “dead end road.”
He said he couldn’t continue
with a heavy load.
No matter how many different things he tried.
He was not happy… Nor satisfied!
He began to share a piece of his mind…
He was ready to leave everything behind.
The choices that he had sometime ago…
Began to “wear” at his heart and soul!
I tried to encourage him the best I could.
But I’m not sure he really understood.
As I watched him go his separate way…
I said; “there’s something I wanted to say.”
“There’s a God who reigns in haven above!”
“He wants to fill you with his hope and love!”
“He knows and cares about everything you’ll do!”
“He’s loving and kind!” “And wants to help YOU!”
As I spoke, I could see he thought for a minute.
A commitment to God… He decided to give it!
He decided to give it all to a God who won’t fail him!
He wanted to serve a God,
who wants to bless him!
He’s happy now that this choice was taken!
With Jesus… He’s never alone nor forsaken!
By Jim Pemberton

Stimulating ideas pop into your head
You need a pen…you need a piece of lined paper
It looks like you’re outtah luck…no wonder you’re drowning in dread
You need a shoulder to lie your head down for a moment’s rest…
You need a helper…to aid you while you struggle emotionally…
I’m not trying to irritate you purposely
Try with all your might…try your best
To stay optimistic and fervent
I believe that you’ll pass the test
Be upbeat, kindhearted and jubilant
I appreciate the words you wrote on my notebook…
Sometimes, I feel like leftovers left on the counter…
I’m a rotten mess – you’re leaving me as if I’m an uninteresting book
Sometimes, I feel like a coward – I don’t mean to bother…
But, you’re like no other . . .
You’re like a mat – you’re constantly stepped on…
I’m like YOUR unwanted tool –
I stepped on you and
Pushed your buttons
I accused you of being the fool
When, in fact, I’m the fool by your side…
You’re drifting…pushing me aside…
I’m writing words of truth though –
Expressing how much I’m fond of you
I esteem your presence
Glowing with glee
At times, you do say things without thinking
I’m the god of distress –
You’re leaving me breathless
Cutting me down like I’m some decaying tree
You don’t see how much you make me…
Guilty for your crimes
Taking the blame about the hundredth time
At times, I feel that I’m awkward when I’m around you
You’re like a backpack – you carry everyone’s weight…
You’re like a sponge – soaking in our stress
I’m a distraction to you – you’re wasting valuable time…but don’t hesitate
I’m writing words of self-centered feelings – logic doesn’t exist…
But these feelings aren’t as bad as committing a crime
These feelings come and go – I just had to confess
I didn’t mean to screw up your progress…
Hey, if you need a few sheets of paper to right on,
Use me like a notebook instead…and write with all your might
It seems as if you read me…like a book that drags on and on
Use me as your tool of relaxation… and read me all night
When you wrote those words on my notebook…
It made my day…you’re such a delight
Like reading a fascinating, classic book

End of life
When will it be?
What is life?
Who can tell me?
Surely the church would know
In its high and mighty stature
Towering above the city in splendor
Sharing its love for those in need
Keeping its knowledge from those who read
Forgetting the poor if need be
Remembering the rich for its own greed
Who can explain the unending need of man for God?
Spirit will soar above the spires of men
Destined for who knows where or when
Can man remain upon the Earth
when fire and flood will someday come
We are but seconds in the days of life
Destined to die in mortal strife
God in his wisdom high above
Looks down on us with his perfect love

I Wonder!
I wonder how some live!
Their life is all mischief!
They seek to inflict evil!
On those who are feeble!
I wonder how they can,
Devise their evil plan!
They act like evil monsters.
They show no decent features!
I wonder how they prosper!
When evil is all they foster!
They hurt so many people!
With their excessive evil !
The fire they soon start
Shall set their hearts apart!
The mills of God shall grind
The evil they leave behind.
29/5/2014

He swifts on by like a moon lighted night.
He shines bright for a moment in time.
His arm's always open with warmth.
His smile always bigger then everyone elses.
His heart of rage and fire.
He swifts on by, he swifts on by.
Who will know the true man within.
The man thats full of sin.
No one can, no one can, for we are all just man...

Jesus, Help Me to Have Good Thoughts!
There’s thoughts and images Satan plants in my head.
I know that he ultimately wants me spiritually dead!
He tries to twist the truth into a “false reality.”
But wants me to end up as a spiritual fatality!
There are many crazy dreams that are out there!
It’s the evil and sinful ones that Satan wants in there!
I know this very well! And have failed many times!
I know it was wrong… But I didn’t commit a crime!
But I’ve taken what God beautifully designed…
By allowing ungodly thoughts to enter my mind!
I need to allow God’s spirit and words to cleanse me!
No matter how many things try to distract me!
God’s word is truth and is always 100% pure!
It’s the only thing that can make my life secure!
Anything else is falso! And a strong delusion!
If I allow my life and mind to be filled with pollution!
I ask for Jesus’ blood and forgiveness to be applied!
Anything that I need… God has already supplied!
I ask for the Holy Spirit to help and bring about!
The cleansing of the filth, in my life throughout!
Please dear Jesus, touch and heal me once again!
By the renewing of your blood, and taking away my sin!
By Jim Pemberton

I am not made a full blown beauty..
Nor I live a life of purity; charity & piety..
All I like to do is to live with identity..
Not of being a witty but a life of humility..
I tried to be a more social person..
Cracking out the shell I have put up..
Breaking from my own weakness..
Doing best in my found strengths..
I have craved to reach out to people..
Widening my horizon, increasing my knowledge and awareness..
Learning to acknowledge fellow human beings..
Regardless of who they are and where they from..
They said: "I must not do this as it is dangerous.."
but I stand to what I know: "Inside all human beings is the reflection of God.."
I give due and equal chance..
As my God have freely given me opportunities too..
We people are living in same earth..
Different are we because of status, faith or race..
Let not this be the reason for us to be divided..
Rather we must come in unison conquering divisions..
By: olive_eloi
22/10/2013
1:16am

For many years... My life has been
an embarrassment!
Filled with hopelessness
and discouragement!
Many things I thought I had enjoyed...
Have left in me... A large and empty void!
Many nights, I would
cry myself to sleep.
Knowing the hole my life was in,
was very, very deep.
Then one day, I called out to God!
I wasn’t sure if he’d listen!
My family, my old church,
I was now missin'.
My family prayed for me for so many years.
I often brought them embarrassment and tears.
God... I tried everything else...
I want to come back to you!
I need you now Jesus! I really do!
Please come into my heart,
and cleanse me within!
Set me free from all addictions and sin!
I know that you will never let go of my hand.
My whole life, on your word,
I shall now stand.
Only you can satisfy the emptiness in my soul!
I am now complete,
satisfied, and made whole!
By Jim Pemberton

Let life win for now... when your head sadly down.
Let life win for now... when your chips are down,
Let life win for now... when you can’t speak a sound,
Let life win for now... win when you just getting up off the ground
and life nocks you back down.
Let life win for now, as you standing in free line,
when your gut is light to get a bite
to keep you up right to win the battles of life.
But be poise and patient for those who step in your way, your enemy,
your unknown rival... Let life pave the way
therefore what you had good then and do not have now
Let life win for now, because life knows what comes around.
Poetry written by 11/26/10 Author Keith Kadell

I Did Something That You Won’t Let Me Forget!
I did something recently, that I regret.
What it was. You won’t let me forget!
I said; “I’m sorry.” And tried to explain it!
But what I’ve done, you continue to name it.
You called me your friend, and offered assistance...
But any attempts to talk,
you offer resistance.
I heard you before. You quoted Bible verses.
Now you speak complaints and curses!
It seems like whatever I do or what I say.
You just wish, “I would go away!”
Where is God’s love, you once gave me?
Are you the kind of person,
God wants you to be?
I’m sorry of what I said and what I did.
I hope you find the power to forgive!
I’ve done my part. And that’s all I can do.
Now is your turn! The rest is up to YOU!
You can love me, or simply push me aside!
You can humble yourself, or be filled with pride!
The choices and decisions you make...
Please do it now! Before it’s too late!
I pray that God’s love, will touch your soul!
Walk in his forgiveness!
And BE MADE WHOLE!
By Jim Pemberton

Jesus, I Pray for My Brothers!
Years ago, I suggested to my brothers that we pray.
They simply laughed at what I had to say!
I thought it would be good to get together...
That God's love would bind our hearts forever!
Division took place and took the "upper hand."
I don't think they'd listen or even understand!
Over the many years that just went on by...
They never once took the time to say; "hi!"
Even though they never once seemed to care.
I decided to take some time in deep prayer!
It was like they would make fun of what I said.
At times, maybe they wished I were "dead."
At this time, there's a strong and powerful force
That's blowing their lives are way off course!
I pray that God's spirit will get a hold of them!
And let them now how much he loves them!
I pray that God's love will be the glue that binds them!
May God's mercy and joy be what finds them!
I pray that evil will not find it's way in their home!
And they would allow Jesus to rule on their "throne."
Even though they tried to cast me off, as a "fool."
It's God's words, in their lives, that must rule!
Jesus can turn around even the worst situation!
By the power of his glory and resurrection!
Please, dear lord, bind them forever as won!
Bless their home! Their daughters and sons!
By Jim Pemberton

My brother came to me,
desperate for prayer!
Filled with hopelessness and despair!
I reached out to him to
begin to pray…
But I couldn’t find any words to say!
The Holy Spirit began tugging
at my heart within…
Convicting me of holding
on to a “secret sin.”
THIS SIN, God told me
I must first let go,
For this was eating
at my soul!
My prayer life had been
such a mess!
I repented! And to God… I confessed!
I called out to Jesus’
precious name!
Inviting him into my
heart to reign!
On bended knees before my Lord
I began to bow,
My prayer was going to be answered… Somehow!
The prayer request for my brother
Was going to be met!
For God has never failed me YET!
By Jim Pemberton

I’m Not the Kind of Dad That I Need to Be!
I remember reading the Bible
to my son.
But what a mess,
my life has become!
My children told me, they
were proud of their dad!
Now they say they’re
embarrassed and sad.
I once lived a Godly life! I really did!
Just look at me now! And how I live!
Things in life I once
called wrong and sin.
Are now causing me to stumble again.
God's word I had loved!
Jesus was my treasure!
I "traded my soul" for
what gives me "pleasure."
I’m not the kind of father
that I need to be!
What kind of example will
my family find in me?
Will I grow stubborn to God as I age?
Replacing his peace, for anger and rage?
I need Jesus to bring peace
to my troubled soul!
I ask YOU Lord to make
me clean and whole.
Restore unto me the joy
of my salvation.
By your blood, make
me a new creation.
Words alone cannot truly express…
This family God's given to me.
I am so blessed!
By Jim Pemberton

I Was In A Place Where I Didn’t Belong!
I was in a place where I knew I didn’t belong!
God’s spirit was there… But the flesh was strong!
I felt alluring voices almost “overwhelm me.”
There were so many temptations that surrounded me!
I could feel the pull! The tugging of my heart!
I knew this was going to happen! From the start!
As I began to feel many voices, pulling my spirit.
I wanted to run, but could not seem to do it!
In one moment of hopelessness, to Jesus I cried!
I couldn’t run from this! No matter how hard I tried!
Just when I thought that there was not a way out!
I remember what some of the Bible was about!
I knew that if I cried to Jesus, he’d be there to help me!
No matter the temptation! And how it tries to “trip” me!
Before I was going to do something, I shouldn’t do…
I heard God’s voice say; “My son, I’m here to help you!”
I felt the hand of God, reach down and touch my soul!
I knew that God was there, and it was time for me to go!
I jumped up and out of there, as fast as I could run!
Any “excitement” was gone. I was not having “fun!”
Whatever temptation I gave up, was worth avoiding!
A life with Jesus and family is what I’m enjoying!
Thank you my Lord! For your patience and kindness!
You’ve filled my life with your love and brightness!09/04/13

I whisper into the silence to see if anyone is there
While the moon casts a calm reflection I wonder what I will hear
The voices of timid strangers roaming through the night
Invited by the darkness convincing them that its alright
And not to fear the sleeping giants nor their deep aphotic dreams
Embrace your somber phantoms they will help you find the light you seek
Then I stared far beyond the horizon into the great abyss of emptiness
At that moment all of my hell stood still and I know why I exist
Although my body is bound by gravity my soul is a billion light years away
Im still no closer to forever, but heaven is on my way
~JJF ~

I looked thru the bottom of a glass
And thought I saw, what wouldn't come to pass
But the closer I got to bottom, the more that I could see
The bottom of that glass had no future left for me
And the closer that I got, the more nothing I could do
And the more nothing I could feel, the less nothing I could prove
And the bottom of that glass, well it tricks me every time
And when I can finally see it, it only proves that I am blind.
While I was busy looking, I lost everyone I loved
While I was drowning at the bottom, I refused to look above
And the more nothing I could feel, the more something stained my soul
Heart now blinded by my pride, became hard and cold as stone
And the bottom of that glass has now left me broken, all alone.
You may think me only foul and dirty, and be repulsed at what I've done
But somewhere deep within this stained and broken soul . . .
Still lives some mother’s son.

An earthly existence
A universe beyond my minds, comprehension
I die
I rise
Life lessons reviewed
Homeward bound
I am not lost, after all!
I am a willing participant
Serving, the Father, of all creation
His son combined, ‘producing life’ as we know it
Representing them, in everything I do
I am nothing, without Love!
My heart full of faith, loyal service I give
Learning how to unconditionally serve, as the Father unconditionally, loves me
Worshipping our Divine Creator’s existence
Choosing to live, moment to moment
Being as one with ‘Our Universal Father’
No physical permanency
My physicality, disappearing
My mortality existence, I let go of
Death temporary
My spirit alive!
Relief, Peace
‘I am only passing through!’
A unique, experience of mortality
A gift, I am blessed to experience, to live!

How hard could it be on a beautiful Saturday?
Brian calls us, “Hurry up. They are taking Dad to the hospital.”
Brian meets me at the door, ”Dad didn't make it.”
I scream, “Oh my God.” I crumple into a ball just outside the hospital door.
I yell, “Why, my God, why, my Dad?” I turned purple (that's what Brian said.)
I compose myself; I get up and we walk into that little room.
How hard could it be to say goodbye to my heart?
He's lying there, a tube sticking out of his mouth.
I touch him, still warm, I say, “I'll miss you.”
They leave, I turn back, I touch him, still warm, I say,
“I love you a million.” I walk out, tough as nails, quaking on the inside.
In my head I hear, “You can do it Den.” I feel a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
How hard can it be to bury my Dad?
Sunday, we all meet at mom's, we talk, we hug, we cry.
Monday, we all meet at mom's; we talk, we hug, we cry.
Tuesday, the wakes, double dread. I stand there, tough as nails, quaking on the
inside. “You can do it,” he says to me.
Wednesday, the funeral, all the flowers, over 280 people saying goodbye to my
Dad. I hear him still, “You can do it.”
Thursday, I sit here writing this poem, tears run down my face. “You can do it,”
he is saying to me.
Friday, we will bury my Dad's ashes; a copy of this will be put in that little
wooden house-shaped box. We will cry; I know it. His spirit will surround us
with his love. He'll give us all hugs and kisses all around.
How hard can it be to go on?
“My God, Jesus, please help me.”
I hear Jesus saying, “Trust in me and your burdens will be lifted.”
“Dad, why did you leave us so soon?”
I hear Dad saying,” It was my time and I was ready to go home. Don't cry for me.
Celebrate my life and have a party. I will always be sitting next to you, Den. You
can do it.” Hugs and kisses all around.
Thank you, Jesus, my heavenly father. I trust in you and praise your name.
And thank you Dad for your unconditional love,unselfish support and your
heartfelt hugs and kisses. I`ll be okay. See you soon. I love you.

We Have A Sin Condition!
We have more technology,
but we have a problem!
We have many “issues.”
And don’t know how to solve them!
Governments answer seems to be
“spend, spend, spend.”
But we have this condition, that God calls; SIN!
Just look at the problems that are all around you!
It’s amazing that they don’t “overwhelm you!”
There’s all sorts of evil all cross our land!
But there’s something very few understand!
We’ve sent men to the moon and outer space!
Yet very few reach out and receive God’s grace!
The Bible says, “the heart of the man is sinful.”
Without God, man’s heart is never “peaceful!”
Jesus love provides for the world that fails us!
He offers his love! Simply because he loves us!
There’s no “condition.” His love is freely given!
Won’t you accept him? And be totally forgiven?
Where there’s sin. God’s grace does
much more abound!
There’s a new life for you!
Just waiting to be found!
Our sins for his love! What more could one ask?
And enjoy a love and peace
that will ALWAYS LAST!
By Jim Pemberton

When you're hurt inside,
And there's no where to hide,
And there's no one on your side,
And it's killing your pride,
Inside,
Never take hate outside,
When your heart is chocking,
The heavy words never spoken,
The things that hurt you inside,
When love has died,
Inside,
Never take hate outside,
When your heart is gone,
From being alone,
And it beats a solemn tone,
When you're cold inside,
It's only a short ride,
Never take hate outside

Achilles' heel
You’re another day older
The world’s much colder
She…
It’s not your fault
They were taken
Don’t blame yourself
for God’s mistake
Is…
Her beauty reflects your own
Her life reflects your future
Chasing rabbits will get you there faster
Loss of faith will bring you there faster
Watching…
The ball drops
It’s clever to see
What happens to us
And here we are
Waiting…
Yes,
Take the evil out of this
You’re stronger
She’s stronger and always,
Loving…

There is a brilliant sun setting on the horizon.
I wipe tears from my eyes, and watch in a strange sense of awe.
The sun kisses everything with it’s radiating beams
and then disappears from view.
It reminds me that,
like many things in life,
these serenely beautiful moments are often fleeting.
Words are left unsaid, moments forgotten, lives lost.
But, in those quiet moments,
when I feel the sun's warmth on my face,
I know you're sending me a smile and lighting up my life, once again.

Dropped out of school
At an early age
Lived on the streets
Because, I disgusted my mother
She thought I was a poor example
Of true Christian beliefs
At an early age
She religiously drummed into me
‘blood is thicker than water’
And yet,
Here I am today confused, lonely and hungry
No one protecting me
No friends
No family
No home to go too
Just, peoples eye for an eye,
tooth for a tooth mentality
Praying for the sun to shine
To feel some warmth again!
Sun rays of hope, lighting me up
To live through this darkness without fear
With a heart full of faith
No matter what happens to me, now!
If only I could drink my salty tears
It would sustain me for a lifetime
Your tears are worth nothing, around here
You’re classed as weak and venerable
Only attracting death
Your life worth nothing!
Save me from myself
I am my best friend
I am my worst enemy
My prayers and dreams
Lost in the wind
Blowing around like autumn leaves
The rain washing them away
Down the drain into the sewage
Rolling with the seasons
Year after year
Survival for the fittest!
Surviving on the love
Hidden, inside me
Being my strength and guide
My personal lifeline
In surviving this crazy world
We all live in

How hard could it be to take my first step?
“Come to mommy, you can do it.”
“Oh you're home. Hon, look at him go.”
As I take another step, he picks me up.
He hugs me tight but gently and kisses me on the cheek.
I feel so safe, loved and happy. Perhaps that's how it was.
(I really don't remember back that far.)
How hard could it be, my first day at school.
My mom meets me at the front door of the building,
hugs me and says, “How was your first day? Did you have fun today?”
He comes home after a hard day at work and mom says,
“Hi Hon, it was Den’s first day of school.”
He picks me up in his strong arms and says,
“I knew you could do it.” A hug and a kiss on the cheek.
How hard could it be to learn how to drive a car or a truck?
“Den, come with me. Let's take a short ride down the road.”
We both climb up into Dad's blue 1955 Chevy pickup.
He stops on the back road, gets out, comes around and says, “Scoot over. It's
your turn.”
I start the engine, push in the clutch, shift and we start out slowly.
I'm nervous, I speed up, clutch in, shift again.
Oh crap, I shifted into reverse, truck stopped abruptly and backfired.
Dad looks at me, “But you did it.“ He hugs me, a kiss on the cheek.
How hard could it be to go away to college?
I'm so glad she has a phone so I can call my mom and dad.
“Hi Den, how are things going? You've got a B average.
That's great. I knew you could do it. I love you, see you soon.”
“You met a girl? What's her name? Wow, see you soon. I love you”
“You want to marry her? Big step; in Holland? Okay, we love you.”
How hard could it be to have a family?
“Oh, it's a girl. Mireille, that's a nice name.” He hugs me, kiss on the cheek.
“Another girl, Michelle, that's a nice name too.” He hugs me, kiss on the cheek.
“You finally had a boy, Michael, good choice.” Hug and a kiss.
Birthdays, holidays, weekends, visits back and forth, phone calls.
He loves them all, unconditionally. Hugs and kisses all around.
How hard could it be as life goes on?
He watches them grow up, get married and have children.
He loves them all, unconditionally, hugs and kisses all around.
We take short trips and mom and Dad go with us now and then.
We go camping and mom and Dad visit us now and then.
Every time you left, hugs and kisses all around. Always, “See you soon.”

I feel like I'm living someone elses life, a life in strife. I've been strong, but when will I belong. I feel so alone, but I'm doing ok on my own. I can't describe the pain, but I keep in mind every storm runs outa rain. I use to think our love was unbeatable, but really its unforgettable. Everyday I walk down memory lane, trying to ignore the pain. He crosses my mind everyday, when will all this go away. There's gotta be something more, my heart is becoming sore. My momma doesn't have to worry, because I'm not sorry. I know he made the mistake, and he's the reason I have this heartache. What we had, was bad. I shouldn't have let it go that far, your just another scar.

What Do We Expect, As We Seek to Remove God?
As so many people are seeking God’s removal…
It’s like anything from him, we’ve given a refusal!
Many have tried to ban just the reading of his word!
There’s so much truth, just waiting to be heard!
Many anti-God societies have quickly formed!
Even the ten commandments, are often scorned!
We’ve built large cities, many schools, and homes!
But when it comes to God, we’ve often left him alone!
One can try their best to push God back in the corner!
But if you do, things in your life will get “warmer!”
The pleasures and truth you seek,
will come to an end!
And then eternity without God,
will just begin!
You’ll wish you chose to live for God, that eventful day!
You’ll wish that you took the time
to study and pray!
It’s the word of God that you need to study and read!
God knows all about you! And knows your needs!
He deserves all of your praise and full attention!
We need to seek him, for much needed direction!
Please come dear Lord, and cleanse us within!
May we humbly confess our faults and sins!
We need YOU much more, than words can say!
Please be the God we serve!
May we start TODAY!
By Jim Pemberton

"No." She whispered before drowning into her sorrows.
Her life had been a simple happy one.
There were no pains and no troubles.
Life was life and people were people.
Life was simple.
and life was all about tomorrows.
Life didn't know about sorrows.
Her sorrows.
Those same sorrows that she drowned in never existed.
They were never there, but where?
First to be sad in the naive town of joy.
Sorrow became contagious and what was known as happiness no longer was there.
It was non-exististent.
A meager thought
and a blessed memory.
She tried and tried.
She failed and failed.
Life was no longer hers.
For Pain was her only possession.
Her curse.
She lived and she died.
Yet, her legacy was passed on.
Never was it gone.
"No." She whispered before drowning in her sorrows,
"Save them."

I Knew Someone Who Was Ready to “End It All!”
I knew of someone who just wanted “to end it.”
Giving up on life, and did not want to “defend it.”
It was a heart wrenching and difficult situation.
He said what he wanted to, with no explanation!
I could see his face and the sad look in his eyes!
What he was going to do next, was anyone’s surprise.
He turned to drugs and encountered addictions.
With this brought much disease and afflictions!
He gave up on the wonderful family that was given.
And turned to a pretty wild and crazy way of livin’!
I told him about a God who loves him very deeply.
As he listened, he began to grow restless and weary.
I reached for his hand and began to pray for God’s power!
It was a miracle! The blood of Jesus changed him that hour!
The spirit of God brought healing and hope to his body!
He was so excited! He rushed out to tell everybody!
The “end” that he wanted, seemed to just fade away!
For the son of the living God, changed him this day!
The glory of God, and the power of Jesus’ resurrection…
Changed him! And got him going in a NEW direction!
He’s so thankful for the blood of Christ’ atonement!
And is a different person now, because of that moment!
This same Jesus loves and can do the same for YOU!
Through the problems of life…
He will see you through!
By Jim Pemberton

The pollution is psychedelic
Hell, you could even say poetic nature
Terms of enragement
Definitely not engagement
Can suffice in describing the depredation
Fire from the skies
Burning through the system
Dropping through to nothing
Learning not what’s in them
Always running from them
We may hide our voices
But you hide your souls
Torturing us with woes
Never able to feed our hole
Scars bleed out like coals
Paint it any color you like
Doesn’t change a thing
This war that you’ve brought forth
Has killed us all
In the past and future
There is no now…

I Remember When I Took Time to Pray!
Our family would gather for dinner each day.
Our dad would first take the time to pray!
As kids, we thought it was important to do!
I remember praying over my food in school!
I was taught that we should give God thanksgiving!
And be grateful for how he blessed our way of living!
I remembered praying in the restaurants for the food.
We wanted to honor God! And not be rude!
But as the many years have come and went…
I think about where my time is now spent.
Prayer doesn’t seem like it used to be!
I often try not to let this really bother me!
But as I get older, and think about the past…
Father time has a way of creeping up fast!
This God I once took the time to speak to.
Is the one that I seldom take time to pray to!
I need his help right now! More than ever!
I’m not going to be on this earth forever!
I’m going to focus on Jesus in a new direction!
And give to him, my desires and ambitions!
Talking with Jesus is the best thing I can do!
Prayer can change my life! And be renewed!
Won’t you take the time to talk to God in prayer?
He’s waiting for you! And really cares!
By Jim Pemberton

Turn the wheel
*******he sea...
Push aside the misery...
The abominable agony...
Endure this hardship...with me
Fight off the tears and let us roam to sea
Don't make it hard for me
To determine the waters
We are the same kind
If you can be so KIND, let me show you your destiny -
To dwell with me in tranquility
We will try to share our responsibilities...
Take turns and share our possibilities...
How have you been?
Sorry we have shut our ears
To your deafening cries
I'm turning the wheel for you
You're losing energy...be still - why are you so blue?
I'll shut out the feeling of anguish
You'll get what you wish
We will start anew
We will start on a fresh start
We will fulfill our dreams and make them come true
We'll brew away the sadness
I'm determined to eliminate
The distress... swallowing us like a tidal wave...
Behave, you wild childlike waters!! Behave!
Don't worry - we'll get rid of
The limited happiness
And make our heart pump with merriness
Don't be a magnet of depression stress
You'll experience a wonderful opportunity
So you may feel at one with
Our world full of possibilities
And eliminate those cruel, wretched words
That tore apart our responsibilities...
Our activities... our reveries... our possibilities...
That brought us back together
We'll be hiking
These somewhat difficult hardships together

My eyes
Witness your departure
My eyes
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease?
You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…
And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?
I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home
Nourish me…and be my beloved friend
Will this friendship last forever?
Hopefully it has no end
Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?
Because of you…I feel the need to run
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal
And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome
My atrocious anxiety?
I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom –
Vibrant with glee
Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight

Kisses, hugs, softly cuddled,
a baby's giggle,
a family huddled.
Empty chair
where he once sat.
Why, dear God
are we left with that?
Tears, frustration, anger stirs
why's he gone so soon?
Days to months how time blurs.
Memories can't die
like people do.
why, dear God
did he go to you?
Reason, truth, a higher power,
We know it's not our place
to know the date, the exact hour.
Others will go away
and empathy we will show.
we can only trust in You,
for why is not ours to know.

It burns and it stings.
It hurts.
More than drowning beneath
the ice.
More than remaining in a
kindled flame
She hits and I no longer cry.
Why mother, why?
It burned and it stung.
The markings remained,
returned, and were relived
Looking, loving, and little
known loathing were the known
ways of living.
Never was their pity for the
child that cried
Never was their relief for the
child that tried
You were that lovely bird that
understood the complications of
felicity
Nothing looked the same in
those dewy browns of yours.
My everbeating would cry tears
of joy.
The others-they were yet to
appear.
Caring Mother, o' so fair
You were that beautiful bird
filled with care.
The others came and were not
alone. Their two suitors sat on
the throne.
Rampage and rage why did you
come?
I began to wither and wither
slumping along. So very soon I-
the child of fines- became a
human raceme.
The droops of the Lily of the
Valley became the slumping of
my heart.
My lovely bird the enemy had
taken you and the person you
were is far from near.
For that divine nature left its
intricate self and you became
irretrievable my big bird.
All of your fairness died.
With that went my pride.
Mother, Mother what moved
you so?
Your intense spirt vanished only
to supplement a monster.
Mother, Monster and your tar
filled lungs.
How did I kill that liver that was
so, so strong?
The lesson of pain was one you
came to learn.
My darling bird why did you
turn?
My lovely bird and your big
brown eyes
I'll tell you once, but never
twice.
Pain is only a flower for it
blooms and dies
And a mistake can be killed as
quickly as lice.
You dear bird hurt me well.
Though, haven't you heard?
Weakness is a souls greatest
strength.
You brought me up, then you
brought me down.
You haved helped, hurt, and
hindered my blazing spirit.
A hero in my heart-I left you
down in your deep black
slumber.
Escaping those terrible nights
To go for the town of delights.

As I was walking I came upon a broken and sad little man
He was bent over and crying with his head in his hands
I kneeled down on the ground so he could see my face
And asked him sir, “How have you come to this place?”
He lifted his head and with crooked smile but pain in his eyes
Began to tell me his life story of which he now has come to despise
You see my lady I once was rich beyond your comprehension
I was able to do what I wanted because I was rich as I mentioned.
Money can buy you many material things you can only imagine
But I was never satisfied always trying to quench the elusive dragon.
Breathing his lies of self-destruction “if only” or “only when”
You will be happy when this happens or if it happens then
But now here I sit with nothing it’s all gone like dust in the wind
I squandered not just my money but my life I don’t know where to begin
He started to cry even louder than before as if to purge his soul of grief
I put my arm around his shoulder and whispered in his ear about my belief
I told him about God’s love and only He could give him true happiness and contentment
I spoke about Jesus and how he died for his sins and holds no resentment
He hissed with obscenities and gave me a shove to get out of his way
You don’t know what you’re talking about leave me alone and Good Day!
My heart is heavy with sadness for him because he does not know what he has missed
An opportunity to find what he was truly looking for Love, contentment and true happiness.

I did not find myself to be so important
So I ask my friends do I seem distant?
When I ask the question I had received an answer, Yes
So I think that made it clear that I had been not the best
I am a friend of a friend that talks so many things
That friend talks to much it is insane and insanity it brings
I do care, about my friends they are all good people
They tend to stand on their high steeple
Today I find myself not so aware
Disbanding my fear of regret and care
Walking many different paths I see that I have found holes
It is the path that people choose to use to fuel their rage with coals
Coals are partially burnt wood or fossils a piece of fuel
It is the source of burden and fire a rage of emotions that stands cruel
It can be warm and caring, but it also can be baring
I just start to feel so low, below the ground I keep on staring
I reach for my friends so many times I feel so ignorant at times
Just once I feel I should not rely on them when feeling I can not find
I dig my hole deeper and I can not climb out
For some reason I am just full of doubt
I care about so many things and what I have is confusion
One person should be all I should think about to get out of that illusion
My battle in my heart and mind is not at all so pleasant
I feel so alone in an island that is shaped like a crescent
My emotions is like coinciding with a diameter of the semicircle
Not a full emotion that is complete like a circle
My feelings is circular full of incomplete thoughts, so much deeper
I feel it will wake up my evil half a evil soul that is a sleeper
What question should I ask myself? to believe that I am not so alone
As I feel like a person who is deteriorating to the bone
I ask my friends the same question once again
I figure I should do it, to know what kind of feelings I should end
So many thoughts that come out of my feeling
I feel like my friends take, an emotional trauma of stealing
They ask me questions and I answer theirs
But when I need mine answered I feel burning inside like a flare
Are they even friends when they do not take me serious in anyway
Just put me in my hole cause I feel nothing in their will be getting in my way
It's just so simple to answer someones problem
I answer friends with beauty of a rose, but when they answer mine I get the stem
I know the stem is very important in life, with out it how can a rose be a rose
With a hole to put the root and stem in how can it grow
The words we speak I guess is like all natural things we reap and sow

What’s Happening to Marriages Today?
I was listening to someone just the other day…
And I couldn’t believe what he had to say!
He had left his wife and children for another!
She was young enough to be his daughter!
Here they were, “in love” and holding hands!
Hoping to soon, get their “wedding bands!”
They were pretending that this was so “cool.”
Living now by their own “set of rules!”
How sick and disgusting this is getting to be!
Is this something that many can’t see?
God gave us Adam and Eve to become one.
To bear fruit through daughters and sons!
He gave us marriage as holy vows are made.
Not to march in an “adulterous parade!”
We are treading on very dangerous ground!
Faithfulness and commitment
are scarcely found!
The very definition of marriage is changing!
As the family unit is always rearranging!
Our only hope is in Jesus! And him alone!
Let’s promote his love! Into our hearts and home!
Let’s allow his love to be our heart’s glue!
And bring new meaning to the words; “I love you!”
May his love bind our hearts and lives together!
And remain faithful to each other forever!
By Jim Pemberton

You plague me with your sweltering disease
My heart throbs in unease
You carry me off to a far-off island
Your breeze keeps me flowin’…scraping sand
Your names escapes my lips
I tell myself,
“Get a grip, dude…”
But you decided to intrude...
My blood drips to the floor
I’ve been losing balance…
The instant you pushed me aside
Your quietude devours me…
I can’t help, but hide…
I feel horribly disheartened…feelin’ too insignificant
To start my day with a good note
Too discouraged to be motivated to run…
You trade me your pain in the past
I consume it like a bear
My stomach is churning persistently…you’re running too fast…
I’m dowsed in despair
My eyes stare vacantly…into space…they roam happily
Your vigilance keeps me safe and sound…I dwell in your tranquility
Your dreams caress my own…
This intriguing comfort never makes me feel alone
I’m under your dazzlin’ spell…
This is heaven – not living hell!
I’ve been bruising myself over you…for a while now
The moment you abandoned me that night…
Your rejoicing mends my gash…heals my mind…
I think better of you – everything’s black and white
I feel so exquisite when I’m around you…
So inspired to reveal my might…just shine your light
On me…and remember to meet me at sun rise…
But I still feel malnourished…
By your sweltering disease
My heart refuses to beat in perfect rhythm – my high hopes nearly perished
By your forceful breeze…pushing me on my knees
I’m stumbling off my feet – I’m not at all pleased
I’m not in the mood to be teased…
I’m suffering…I’m not discreet
How did you push me off my feet?
Why do you make ME feel so damn miserable and incomplete?
You plague me with your sweltering disease
My heart pounds as I fall upon my blood-stained knees
You carry me away to an unknown place
Your voice still rings in my ears… I glance at your admirable face
I’ve faced you way too many times –
Your sparkling with majestic brilliance and pure grace

A Backslidden Brother…
I have a brother, who once loved God and his word!
It was God’s call on his life, that he once heard!
He was raised in church and taught God’s ways!
And promised to serve him all of his days!
But, as he grew older, he began to really doubt.
What God’s purpose of salvation was about!
He began to deny the power of the cross.
And refused to believe that ANY were lost!
He twisted God’s word, into his own meaning!
Very soon, m any lies, he was now believing!
He wrote to friends about his new found belief.
He had a new found storytelling with no relief!
How did this brother turn from God so fast?
Why does he believe these lies? Others asked!
As time went by, this brother became confused…
It was him, not God, who slowly began to lose!
In a matter of time, his life began to “fall apart.”
As deception slowly crept into his stubborn heart!
God’s truth, that he rejected, can set him free!
And turn his life around! For all eternity!
We all need to love and serve God from within!
And accept his total forgiveness of sin!
God’s word is true! And will never be put to shame!
May we NEVER forget the power in his name!
By Jim Pemberton

Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.

This town was the place we used to call our haven
You don’t remember which road we’ve driven on
The stars were shining against your cherished soul
You’re a part of my belongings
You’re ascending above the ground
The peace is still like hidden treasure – it’s bound to be found
I believe in you…I put my faith in you
After the miracles you’ve performed
You don’t agree with what you truly are
The sky is grieving
You jump from puddle to puddle
You’re struggling to meet your destiny
Even if your body is saturated in sweat
You must keep your head above the sea
Follow me and I’ll lead you to divine haven
Forgive the past that embraces you with remorse and think upon our jubilant future
It’s tempting to just give up and turn around
I could tell you've been stressing out
But rest your head on my shoulders and let loose your strain on me
Each melody is an exquisite sound that bounces into our ears
Commotion and strife will cease and your heart will be free
We’ll flee together…despite the unwholesome weather
The voyage has just begun…hold my hand and we’ll rise like the sun
Trust me…we will be strengthened and well-equipped before we take that road of victory
Follow me and I’ll lead you to divine haven
Forgive the past that embraces you with remorse and think upon our jubilant future
It’s tempting to just give up and turn around
You’d rather be drifting away and never be seen again
I wanna change your mind and erase your frown
Take your mind off of the distressful past
Let loose your strain on me
Hey! I know you’re stronger than you realize
You’re not a failure – don’t be disheartened
Don’t worry…you and I will earn our future prize
This mess will clear up in a moment
Just stay by my side and never depart
From the light… I promise that we’ll endure till the end
Just stay nearby and our hope won’t tear apart
We are willing to do anything to attain our wishes and delight
Let’s take action and snatch our glory before our time is up
Follow me and I’ll lead you to divine haven
Forgive the past that embraces you with remorse and think upon our jubilant future
It’s tempting to just give up and turn around
You've been trying to keep a steady pace
But rest your head on my shoulders and let loose your strain on me
Let loose your stress on me…
Don’t be under pressure
Let me handle your anxiety…
Reach towards our divine haven
Do you need a helping hand?
I wish you a carefree
Future

I Once Loved to Tell Others Of Jesus!
I once told others of Jesus!
As a young boy...
Witnessing for Christ,
Is what I enjoyed!
I told others of a time to repent...
I loved to talk about Jesus,
wherever I went!
As the years went by,
And I grew old.
The things of God, I had no longer told.
A coldness in my life, began to brew.
Even God’s word… I no longer knew.
I only talked about God to
people in the church.
In my heart, was a hunger
for a new search.
A search to return to Jesus! My lost love!
I fell on my knees! And cried to God above.
I began to confess, to God, everything!
A new love for him I knew he would bring.
I began to feel his love come all over me.
The chains were now gone! I was set free!
If a coldness for Jesus dwells in you.
Remember his love is faithful and true!
Please come to Jesus!
And be cleansed within!
And experience the joy of being born again!
By Jim Pemberton

Someone recently asked me; “how are you?”
I said, “fine.” But this person never knew.
I wasn’t doing fine… Not one single chance.
He didn’t know my life’s circumstance…
Little did he know of the many problems inside.
For so long, this was something I wanted to hide!
I’ve had so many problems and struggles within.
I don’t know where to start. Or where to begin!
I once thought I had “the whole world by the tail.”
Now, no matter what I tried …
I simply failed!
My job and family began to disappear all around me!
The emptiness and loneliness
seemed to surround me!
It’s hard to put it into words. And difficult to explain..
It seems like tomorrow, it will all be the same!
I come to YOU Jesus! I have no one else to turn to!
I ask for your help now! I disparately need you!
You know my problems, and sins of the past...
Will you love and have mercy on me? Is what I ask!
I’m thankful to you Jesus! And the peace you bring!
I give to you my whole life, and everything!
I could never fool you! You know me inside and out!
I know now, that you are what true life is all about!
I want to invite you in! As my lord and guest..
I know you’ll take care of me,
and clean up “the mess.”
You’re the only one I can trust in my darkest hour!
My life shall be changed!
by your blood cleansing power!
By Jim Pemberton

Man's Confusion and God’s Redemption!
God’s wrath is revealed against all ungodliness…
Neither will he put up with man’s unrighteousness
His truth has already been given unto all men…
And his love has been shown unto them.
The invisible things of God, from
creation, have been seen…
Being understood by men. From HIM…
who’s made everything.
Many haven’t glorified him or
thanked him for his creation....
And many have become foolish in their vain imaginations!
Professing themselves to be wise,
many have become “fools.”
By not obeying God. But living by “their set of rules.”
Changing God’s glory to that of corruptible man.
Many have brought a great darkness throughout our land.
God has given them to uncleanness
that abounds in their hearts...
While many have burned in their own lust.
Right from the start.
Worshiping the creature(not creator).
Has given a new direction…
And has caused in many hearts.
A deep “spiritual infection.”
Women and men leaving their God given
affection in lust of each other.
Have changed God’s true design and
purpose of one another.
As God has given so many over to a reprobate mind…
Many continue in shameful acts of just about every kind.
Without an acknowledgment
for God in each of our lives...
We’ll continue down a “deep spiral” filled with so many lies.
God is our only hope. His gift of eternal life is freely given.
Why not let him be the God of the way your livin’?
By Jim Pemberton 05/28/1 (Read Romans 1:18-32)

I give my word a breath of life
and those who give me strife
I willingly do what needs to be done
and do not wish to be won
I smile a smile that lights up any face
and hope to never disgrace
I do what I am taught to do
and that my help would be true
I clam my words together
and hope times will never weather
I do have some faith in all matters
and things to reach with ladders
I hope for many things in heart
and I cherish everyone that is part
I do know one thing is set
and with my life I would bet
I will hold true to my words
and make my world good towards

Blasphemy…cloud over their hearts of gold
Their value gradually diminishes…their weapons turn to mold
Serenity…deserted them and neglected them like orphans
Their joy rapidly wears out…they mislaid their abundant portions
They yearn,
“RESTORE the walls of Jericho!”
Anguish…shadows over their dwelling, sacred place
Their weaknesses manipulate them – they’re the definition of disgrace
Danger…defeats them and tarnished them as if they were worthless
Their prosperity shattered straightaway! REBUILD our merriness!
They plead and pray,
“Dona nobis pacem…”
Hear our hesitation and supplication…we’re beneath the bricks and remains
We’re buried alive literally! We’re becoming one with the ground
Fear and despair erases our soothing dreams…we’re getting washed away in the drains
We’re searching for shelter…we’re getting hunted down – we’re barely surviving
They churn…
They coil…
They drift away…
They spoil…
In their miseries…
Does He hear their pleas?
“SAVE ME!”
“Bestow blessings upon us!”
Are you ignoring us deliberately?
“Give us a helping hand
And lead us to the promise land!”
Misfortune unravels in this city of bafflement
Their strengths repaired our souls…we’re the definition of bravery!
Desolation and disbelief demolishes the walls of Jericho…
Does anyone sense their resentment?
Their charity transformed to greed suddenly –
Their lack of optimism and gratitude
Buried them down in captivity
How can you bear their poverty?
How can He save them from destruction and pity?
They whisper on His Holy Hill,
“Dona…Nobis…Pacem…”
Don’t let the battle overthrow ’em!

I have all but lost my faith,
And I am certain I never know
My Mind is the only safe escape-
As the Woes of Life doth take their toll
Lo, this World is all but fair!
(But 'tis only a brief, short-lived stay)
Oh, my Soul of sweet despair-
May the Hands of Death carry me away...

Nobody
Knows my real name
‘Angel’
Is what I go by
I am freezing cold
I don’t have money
Just, the clothes on my back
I am a walking wardrobe
I am lonely
I smell like crap
I am starving hungry
I can’t find any shelter
My clothes are drenched
I look like a drowned rat!
Violence
Upon women
Is classed normal
Around here!
I wonder...
If
I will survive
Another day?
Only
To wake up
And
Do this
All over, again!
“Protect me tonight
As,I lay my head to rest”
“I love you, dear God”
“Goodnight”

As people are encouraged to “indulge within...”
They often become caught and trapped in sin!
Far too often, there’s an enticement to “fantasize.”
Of the many temptations flashed before the eyes!
There’s a problem, too often misunderstood!
Life doesn’t happen, like many think it should!
What’s often acted out and too often displayed…
Comes from a ruined life, that’s been betrayed!
One can easily find perversion of many kinds.
This can easily “overwhelm” someone’s mind!
I know that it’s easy to be “trapped and snared.”
It can leave one feeling
alone and scared!
That which you may have craved,
for some kind of fulfillment.
Has left you empty! With no real enjoyment!
It’s easy to fall into bondage! Difficult to get out!
Victory in Jesus is what his power is all about!
Won’t you call on him now?
And let his love “soak through?”
He brings true meaning in the words; “I LOVE YOU!”
His love is not in some kind of cheap entertainment!
Only he can bring true peace and contentment!
You don’t need to spend money on the life he brings!
He is God! And doesn’t need to use earthly things!
Sin has a price! It seeks to have your eternal soul!
Only the blood of Jesus can make you complete and whole!
The gift of salvation is from Jesus! And is freely given!
He alone has the power to change
how you’re livin’!
By Jim Pemberton

My eyes
Pour forth feelings
That I’ve felt in the past
They make my heart ache…
Take it all away…
Oh my God…
They’re making me sink in dismay
When will they break away?
When will they give me a break?
And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?
Eye don’t see
A happy ending in this scene
My eyes
Journeys into the unknown
Who knows what will happen…
They’re like hidden treasure…
They’re buried far below…
And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?
Oh my God…
They’re driving me insane
When will they see my reflection?
When will they heal the infection?
Eye don’t feel
Raindrops of hope and relief
All I feel…is grief…
Eye sense no peace…
And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?
Does He hear
My supplications?
Does He sense
My fear?
My eyes
Conceals the tears that dare to spew out
I feel trapped and lost without a doubt…
They erase my delight…
They seek my hurt…
Oh my God…
They’re casting me away into the perilous sea
And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace throw out my fear?
Eye don’t see
A ship in sight…to save me from my demise
My lifeless body...
Drifts away in the wild ocean...
Without a sound...
Without emotion...
Eye don’t see
A rope to hold on to…
My hope for peace
Has drowned…

The coldest white had fell
Surrounding all the feet of those behind
The day turned into hours
Just in the mind
Did the gift appear in night?
Or were dreams reality?
Did it come from karma’s hands?
It drifts from sanity
The trek towards that happy place
You’ve been there many times
Something was different now
It held a horrible surprise
The box wasn’t full of life and sound
The ashes of memories made were here
Taking longer to twist the knife
Left remains of a child now in tears
Standing still you couldn’t breath
Excuses flying in your mind
Trying to figure out the scene
Hoping there’s time
You look up to see
Expectant eyes for the last time
You wish you could keep
But it’s the saddest of a smile

My eyes
Refuse to see tragedy
My eyes
Marinate in dread…unable to embrace ecstasy
And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s sagging…from endless mourning
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?
You don’t see
What damage you’ve done
Just let me be
Leave me alone…hand me a gun
I yearn for unspoiled glory
To make me feel perfect once more
I yearn for flawless serenity
To make me feel no regret…don’t ignore
My calls…don’t hang up on me
You don’t see
What damage you’ve done
Just hear my plea
Listen to my excruciating cries…
Listen to the truth, not the malicious lies
Our journey has just begun
And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me weeping?
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…
When will peace draw near?
Eye can’t handle the stress
Let me release my horrendous distress
Eye can see you making that same mistake
At least MY life isn’t at stake
And I’m left in my solitude…
My eye’s weeping…do You feel my lament
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…Stepped on like cement
I’m aching with discontent… I abhor this torment
When will peace scrub off my fear?
I can’t believe my eyes
Your guiltiness flows into me…
I can’t believe I fell for your lies
Your heartless action rape my mind…you don’t see
What my EYES see…
You’ll never see
How much pressure you put me under
Unchain me from this chamber
And watch me flee…
When will you be set free?

In the beginning of plight,
We venture off and take action
Beyond the mysteries of the day and night
We search diligently for safety and direction
The aftermath of our flight
Brought us good luck and success
If we look forward...we'll eventually find light
We must get out of this cave...
Or we'll be stomped on by distress
You're our journey's end
Where is the escape route?
Beyond the present anguish, our spirits will ascend
With God's help, we'll find a way out...
No doubt

I tried so hard to do what’s right
I wrestled through those lonely nights
I longed so long
To see the light
But I could not see it
‘Til I gave up the fight
All my problems all my fears
All my issues and my tears
My brokenness my sorrow
The worries of tomorrow
I gave them away
Turned a new page
Lived a new way
What can I say?
There is a better life, a fuller life
A masterful maker, a caring creator
With love, a perfect love
He’s more than enough
With him we are unstoppable
We accomplish the improbable
Prison cannot hold us
Sin cannot bind us
Walls will be broken
Words will be spoken
When evil meets us that’s fine
Into the darkness we will shine
With confidence we press onward
With faith we move forward
We look to a better future
In our salvation we are sure

From time immemorial your story began
A hundred, a thousand, a million years and more
Your story past written a character just one
The tale of you bleeds into all
Each story unique while pieces the same
Today, tomorrow, millennia expended and gone
Your story continues passed first to no last
The tale of you bleeds into all
Through love and hate, laughter and death
Minutes and seconds grew to decades and days
The story being written you wrote each day
The tale of you bleeds into all
Memories endure through dream and remembrance
Yesterday is gone but tomorrow you live on
Your story yet written a character more than one
The tale of you bleeds into all
Your stories the fires shall never consume
A past, a future, a present goes on
The story you wrote lives forever in your love
The tale of you bleeds into all

And so do I fall, and so do I fail,
Falling so deeply into this destructive void,
Nothing but ash and specs of dust that were once my brittle bones and scarred flesh.
To not know what is ahead,
How maddening! How so distraught have I seemingly become,
Forgotten myself as time has smoothed over me.
Tricky, sly fiend indeed; master and slave a like to us all.
Do I dare move forward into the uncertainty that is humanity and of such society?
So gut wrenching, thoughts filled of bile at what is.
As we all are from and are the same, yet tear limb by limb the essence of ourselves by one another in an endless state of bigotry and violence; so brightly are we bathed in evil.
So easy is it to see.
Miracles; perhaps shall they see fit to carry me away from the void that is, and from such temptation, as to live the rest of days in blissful, stagnant dreams.

Writing a masterpiece
Takes so much effort and thought
My mind’s settling in my comfort zone – feed me with flawless peace
Words seem to escape me…my feelings mean naught
Anger molds me in inside and out…I feel insecure again
Peace barely meets my body
Joy seems to abandon me like an orphan
Faith passed away – it’s buried too far below the debris
Have I lost the race?
Writing a successful book…writing in general
Takes so much confidence and self-control
My mind is stacked up with debt…
Words splinter my tongue – I can’t repair my tarnished soul
Danger is placed in many corners
Happiness is a few blocks away from me
Fearlessness dives into me
Acceptance of who I am – God’s chosen one
Have I won the race?
Have I found His grace?

I feel Him chip away at my flesh.
The vibrations shake to my bones.
Pieces that were once part of me now fall helplessly to the floor.
Every scrape of the chisel,
Every pound of the hammer,
Every piece that is broken from me stings with immense pain.
Why doesn't He stop?
Why is The Sculptor so cruel?
Doesn't He realize that each swing He takes is a nightmare to me?
I would be better off as stone that was never touched,
I would be more content without the suffering that comes apon me,
But I wouldn't be a work of art.
Each chip of the chisel is intended to remove a piece that shouldn't be there.
Each pound of the hammer is meant to force the hideous fragments far from me.
Each move The Sculptor makes, takes me closer to His plan for me.
I must trust, knowing that He never takes off too much.
I must be ready, knowing that He never leaves His work incomplete.
I must be thankful, knowing that I am being made beautiful in His eyes.
The acute pain is only a short part of His plan.
The lasting anguish fades in its own time.
Though heart, and soul, and body all grieve, the permanent state will be that of finished work.
I may not know the reason for each strike,
I may not know the fault with each sundered chunk,
And I may never know.
I know the sting of the chisel now,
I know The Sculptor has a plan,
My part is to trust that He will not work forever ... but that He will be done.

I’ve seen many families in difficult situations!
Often ending up in lies and false accusations!
I’ve seen many families stray way off course…
And tragically, often, end up in a divorce!
I’ve seen the hardships that many families endure.
Their faith has often been shaken.
That’s for sure!
I’ve seen many families trying to give 100 percent.
And then wondering where all of their time went!
I’ve seen all these things happening
and much more!
I have wondered; “what is all of this happening for?”
I’ve just one thing to say in this “chaotic confusion.”
Only the blood of Jesus gives
any hope or solution!
It’s only in his word, we’ll find a godly direction!
His Holy Spirit can give true and loving correction!
May we seek his spirit to bind us all together!
And pray for his blood for our protection forever!
Please come Lord Jesus, and refresh our soul!
We need you right now, to make us whole!
Please touch our heart, and make us all one!
And heal every father, mother, daughter and son!
Please help us to watch what we’ll do and say!
You can turn our darkest night
into the brightest day!
By Jim Pemberton

The thing about life
is that
it can end in an instant
When the rope of the
harsh words
wraps tightly around your
Neck squeezing tighter
and tighter
you just want to jump
To end it all to end all
the pain
and the hatred and words
It is not only the words
that push
you over the edge
It is too the fists and
the feet
that slam into you
Over and over
without
a break with out letting up
Making you break down and slide down
the wall
and cry and cry and cry
One phone call can
save a
live, stopping that jump
Stopping the self hate
and
spreading the love
The love i have for
you will
never fade or die and i hope
will make you better
to sleep
and to be able to be
Happy again to
be happy
forever and always with me
just remember and know
that it's
NOT YOUR FAULT

I sit in darkness.
I feel that you won't provide,
as if you left me.
I call out to you
as I would ask my own dad,
but you don't respond.
You said of fathers:
"They don't spurn, but give good gifts."
but I feel left out.
There must be a fault.
Though, it lies with me, not you.
You, God, do not fail.
I don't understand
Help me to hear in silence
to see through shadows.
When I am in pain
have the spa-sms not distract
and heal me within.
Your love is steadfast
despite my failure to feel.
Please, Jesus, bless me.

I Was Told I Wasn’t Any Good
I heard the devil whisper into my ear…
“You’re no good!” “Come over here!”
In front of me, where discouragements of various kinds...
At first, it was almost overwhelming for my mind!
He promised something “better,” than what I already had!
He said that if I did what he wanted… I’d be happy and glad!
I asked how Jesus to help the way I’m livin.’
The life I’ve lived… And HIS power of forgivin.’!
Would I trade all of this, for a life of stress and sin?
Perhaps having a form of happiness,
but no freedom within?
Was I going to trade what God gave,
for a ”pleasure of the moment?”
Was I about to make a mockery of Christ’ atonement?
I ran, and bowed my head and cried…
For a brief moment, I felt rejected and despised!
I felt the Holy Spirit’s presence all around me!
And then, it was like the love of Jesus had filled me!
This time, I knew that what I had, was all I needed!
With Christ in my life, I no longer have to be defeated!
Satan is a liar! He has one purpose and goal!
He wants nothing more, than to destroy my soul!
Take notice Satan! This is what I proclaim!
Everything I ever need! I have in Jesus’ name!
The blessings from Jesus, has supplied my every need!
It’s an everlasting and abundant life, that I received!
Thank you Jesus! For giving what I need and more!
You are truly wonderful!
And are worth living for!
By Jim Pemberton

Do You Blame Or Trust God?
Do you blame God for the trials you may face?
Do you reject God’s mercy and grace?
Perhaps you are in a most “difficult situation.”
You can’t figure out a “reasonable explanation?”
You may feel abandoned, alone and afraid.
There may have been times when you prayed.
You don’t know why this happening to you?
You probably try your best in all that you do!
But, it still things really haven’t worked out.
And you often wonder what life is all about?
Rather than blaming God… Why not trust him?
He’s not your enemy! He wants you to know him!
He’s not the blame for the sorrows of mankind!
He’s always faithful, most loving and kind!
He patiently waits for anyone to call on his name!
With him in control…
Things won’t be the same!
He is here! Even if everyone else fails you!
If you give him a chance! He wants to help you!
Won’t you take the time, and invite him in?
This is where a new opportunity can begin!
His life for yours, is what he gives in exchange!
He can help your situation to really change!
He can change your life! And turn it around!
And can put your life on a solid ground!
By Jim Pemberton

You abide in the light
I’ll miss you…when you venture off at night
Don’t forget me…
Don’t discard me…
Don’t leave me…
Forgive me for drifting away from you…
Please forgive me…
Please don’t ignore me…
Hear my pleas…don’t turn the other direction…
Run with me…into heaven’s light
I’ve given you my soul…
I’ve shared with you my melody
I’ve fed you until you were full…
I’ve healed you when you were under the weather…
I’ve tried to bring us back together
You hang on the rope of hope
I’ll rely on you…I’ll cling to you…
You saved me from subsiding into the obscure abyss
Don’t reject me…
Don’t depart from me…
Don’t release me…
Respect me for who I’ve become
Please respect me…
Honor my presence
Protect me from any sort of harm
Is it in your nature to relieve my anguish?
I’ve been driven away by my affliction
I’ve set you free from Egypt…and lead you to the Promise Land
Have you forgotten my affection?
I’ve tried to empathize what you’re going through – I’ve gave you a helping hand
Don’t you understand? Will you ever understand?
You abide in the light
I’ll miss you…when you depart from my heart
Don’t forget me…
Don’t discard me…
Don’t mourn for me…
Forgive me for wishing for your absence…
Please forgive me…
Please don’t give up on me…
Hear my side of the story… don’t turn the other direction…
I’m still training for perfection
Run with me…until we arrive at home
Hold my hand and we’ll take divine flight
I’ve cherished you for so long
I’ve lead you to my home town –
Do you remember where you and I belong?
I’ve given you my trust…
I’ve shared with you my dreams
You’re an apple to my eye
You were my angel of grace, promising concord –
Bestowing blessings upon me
Your vitality never wears off…
You were my lamp –
Glowing with serenity and elation
Tranquilizing my mind from despair and unease
I’ll never regret…meeting you that magnificent night
I knew that that was love at first sight
The moment you stepped foot into the light

Port of Call
Barefoot on a talcum beach,
alone, not lonely,
with the breath of the ocean a caressing balm,
soothing pained memories away,
to the swaying of a solitary palm.
Barefoot on a talcum beach,
alone, not lonely,
feeling the brushing away of all past turmoil,
on a quest for solace, ever so hard to find,
yet comforted by the crashing of the waves,
as the tide cleanses all pain,
and leaves despair far, far behind.
Barefoot on a talcum beach,
alone, not lonely,
drenched in a sea-breeze of mist,
that hushes the ache of bygone moons,
tasting the salty tang on my lips,
as the burnished sun,
over the distant horizon,
swoons,
and dips.
Barefoot on a talcum beach,
alone, not lonely,
searching, ever searching,
for a slice of solitude,
as memory bids a final adieu,
reaching under the sea so vast,
and seeking comfort in the depths,
while embracing,
the tomorrows to come,
wishing that they be true.
Barefoot on a talcum beach,
alone, not lonely,
seeing my truths drown,
as they slip beneath the turquoise waters,
feeling my heart ablaze,
with a passion that rarely falters.
Barefoot on a talcum beach,
alone, not lonely,
yet knowing that I am home at long last,
wishing the waves would wash away,
the defences that once stood,
like an impregnable wall.
Barefoot on a talcum beach,
alone, not lonely,
I have found, at long last,
my final port of call.

Will my life last, much longer?
What am I doing? I began to wonder…
Many things keeps dragging
me further down…
What’ll I do? There’s no one around???
Many “things” have
a hold on me…
I cry every night… I want to be FREE!
I’ve tried and tried… But to no avail…
Just when I think I have victory… I fail!
I’ve read in scripture of a power
I haven’t seen.
I read of a lord who
can do ANYTHING!
I’m going to give him a try!
I’ve nothing to lose!
I’ve been so hurt, worn out and abused!.…
To you, dear Jesus…
I confess my every sin.
I can feel your love
from deep within!
Thank you Jesus! For giving
me a joy I never knew…
I don’t know where I’d be if not for YOU!
You’ve brought to my life
a peace I never had.
For all you’ve done for me. I’m so glad!
Won’t YOU give your burdens
to the one, I call friend?
And experience the joy of being born again?
Please come to him now!
Why not this hour?
And experience his life-changing power!
By Jim Pemberton

There is nobody in this world knows how I am feeling right now,
Trying to get it to all make some kind of sense from it some how.
Filled with deceptions and lies leaving me nothing for me to find,
One memory there is that is truly real cause there's none in my mine.
This sickening feeling overwhelms me making me cold to my soul,
I am surrounded by gloom and sadness the worst I've ever known.
How is it I am to suffer like this for loving with all my heart ,
Always protecting you and always been the light in your dark.
Why me with the love so true and a honest soul feel such pain,
I should feel the Sunshine in my life not tears that fall like rain.
Was it the blindness caused by her natural beautey and tender words,
Or is it that I have lied to myself for so long it was almost absured.
Difficult for me to face this grief that I had always anticipated,
The moment you came back into my life these days been pre dated.
It was Love itself I have wanted to bask in to know the Joy,
This despair , lonliness ,and all the nightmares I needed to avoid.
A wreck just waitng to happen and the wounds opened up again,
Never thinking of when all began only wanting it all to just end.
Days that will be lost and the memories you will never have,
It's the worst kind of emptiness and confusion I've ever had.
These times we share when we are alone and nobody around,
The thoughts we have of fantasies are somewhat profound.
Is there a lesson here to be learned and remembered ,
Or is it I am that lost soul that lonely Pretender.
This can't possibly be the very last and the end for me,
If so then it has always been what was meant to be.
When and how it all went wrong and strayed off course,
Something I will never know or do I want to anymore.
There is nobody that knows what I am feeling today,
I tried making sense of it and found that there is no way.
A fence that will never be mended or memories replaced,
Just a lonely life and a broken heart is what I must face .
Get on with my life pray for better days I must do,
How can I do that if it has to be without having you.
Tac

Fatigued eyes droop, lacking sweet slumber
But my eyes are an exception…everything’s a blur
They stare off into space…they ache with displeasure
But I still wonder… my pupils still wander
My pupils still wander… never planted in one spot
Their cup is half full…rather than half empty
My pupils see what others cannot
Because… their too busy to smell the roses of plenty
My pupils project feelings…
They comprehend – they spiral up and down
They express horrendous sorrows…they observe their surroundings
My belongings are misplaced – my smile lowers into a frown
Optimism isn’t in the picture…bestowing infection
Upon my crestfallen heart
I’m a broken compass – I’m losing my direction
My animated heart tears apart
Their voices are high in volume…rather than using half their volume
My pupils glance in many directions – beaming with glee
Because they’re focusing too much on their social lives…let us resume
On with our soothing music
Intrigued eyes lift…willing to wonder in curiosity
But my eyes swelter, wearily drowning in discouragement
They spot what others are too oblivious to see…
Nonetheless, I still ponder…
Are my pupils singing merrily OR are they wandering in bafflement?
Do I witness the fears and woes?
My pupils reject the precious scenery
They are carefree – they are heedless of my despondency
My pupils forever look forward to freedom…observe the hardships and disparity
My surroundings are chaotic and wild – my heart pounds profoundly…
My pupils…
Oh dear pupils…
Will you ever pay the bills?
Will you ever use your skills?
My heart bleeds in the river mills
My pupils ascend…above the dazzling hills
My pupils spew out remorse
My pupils are like open doors…

I wish
To demolish my sorrow…
I wish
To forget the despair and gleefully grow…
To forgive and seek the challenges of tomorrow…
My downfalls and my failures…
I wish
To disappear
I wish
I had no fear…
For God’s near…
I wish
I could be a cheetah in the grassland
I wish
To store all of my energy for an evening run…I’d never give up in the process
I wish
My whole spirit could simply sponge in God’s nature and make great progress
And I truly wish
I could stick to my daily plans of building a sturdier relationship with God
I wish
I had the merriness in my life especially during hardships…
My countless wishes
Brings me down to my weakest point…
My countless wishes
Overthrows me…but it helps me in the long run…
I wish I could forgive
My daily regrets and breakdowns
I wish I could forget
My despondency – embracing my frowns
I wish
To live a life without error
Without a care
I wish
To be flawless when I make my everyday decisions
And scare away
The darkness that tries to make me give up
I wish
I had more time to overcome…
These waves of emotions
My countless wishes
Brings me down to my disheartened state…
My countless wishes
Are like walls from every direction closing in on me…
But it’s a convenient tool in the future…
I wish
I could be live in someone else’s shoes…
But what good would it do?
Would it lead me to the narrow pathway?
Would it inspire me to push all of my doubts away?
Would it push away the blues?
Could He give me any clues?

I’ve So Many Problems! I Need Help!
I’ve so many problems, it’s hard to explain it!
Where it all began, I can’t really name it!
It seems like everything bad, is already here!
Sometimes, I wish I could just “disappear!”
The heartache and pain is difficult to endure.
I’ve had more than my share… That’s for sure!
I’m sorry to trouble you, with my situation…
I guess that I don’t have a “good” explanation!
I suppose I’ve no one else I can turn to…
I’m just happy I have someone that I can talk to!
Someone told me, that you’re a person who cares!
Can I take a minute, and ask you for prayer?
This is a moment in my life. A period of time…
If God is real… I want him to be mine!
Thank you for taking some time for caring!
And for the words of love, you’re sharing!
Thanks for sharing Christ, when no one else would.
You told me about Christ! I knew you could!
Through HIS love, I have hope within!
I have joy, and complete forgiveness of sin!
I’ve a reason to live, like I never had!
Jesus is with me! I’m so glad!
Thank you my Lord, for helping me to see…
The chains of life are gone! I am now free!
By Jim Pemberton

The odor is intolerable
Like a foul beast clinging to the end
I can barely subdue its subterfuge
But here I am,
I’m standing here of sound and mind
Waiting for the time that answers my own questions
Can it race with the fires of Orc?
Doubtful, but it can jog steadily can’t it?
The weather is awful, filled with sounds
Penetrating a document not written
It pains me to fight through the night
Not because it’s dark, but because I am just a shadow.
Lester drives but
Motional lasts forever
Still driving
Still crying
And slowly dying as time waves on
Like oceans that can’t be seen.
Nobody cares and everyone listens
Ironic, like a bible that holds lies and deception
Can its will be pierced?
Can freedom stay free?
Is it worth it to stay hooked when everyone around
Seeks liberty?

Barrier of Sin
Because of man’s fall, there’s a barrier of sin!
The heart of man is wicked and evil within!
No matter what man does.
No matter how hard he may try.
There will be a day when each
person shall die!
The days on earth, that we have, are just a few.
We all will leave our body,
no matter what we do!
God has provided an answer to the “sin problem.”
He sent his son Jesus! He can surely solve them!
He’s willing to take away all of our sin and pain!
We can find hope and forgiveness in Jesus’ name!
Won’t you take the time, and come to him?
He died for you! Even before you knew him!
The barrier of sin can be knocked down today!
Jesus offers salvation! And has made a way!
The power of his blood can take any barrier down!
For where sin is, his grace does
much more abound!
By Jim Pemberton

stalking behind my
shadow
a silent approach
never to crack a leaf,
balancing so much
with an ocean of love
never a wave,
just still.
still I am here
caught in a swim
keeping my head
above
sharing my conscious
to a half empty glass
the red will always stare
never passed,
just at you

As more perverse lifestyles are glamorized on t.v.
I wonder what kind of country this is going to be?
You’ll often find on the news interviews of various kinds…
Entertaining more garbage to
“dump” into our minds!
The garbage and filth they’re often promoting….
They think this same kind of life, I should be “enjoying?”
There’s something very wrong with this picture!
I don’t need the news to give me a “moral lecture!”
This may sound old fashioned and absurd…
It’s time we all come back and obey God’s word!
It’s the word of God! Not the news,
we need for instruction!
Without God’s truth in us,
we’re headed for destruction!
God still loves you very much! And he hasn’t forgot…
You’re always on his mind, and his thoughts!
He’s what you need to focus your attention and depend on!
He is someone who’s faithful,
and you can count on!
Won’t you walk away, and leave the filth behind you?
And allow God’s love and mercy
to reach out and find you?
He will never disappoint you!
With a brand new way of living!
An abundant life with peace and joy….
Is what he’s giving!
By Jim Pemberton UNSUPPORTED CODE

Dried up like a reservoir
In the mid summer heat
The cracks in the ground
Are like
The life lines, upon my face
I have weathered many a storm
As if
I have lived a 100 lifetimes,
Instead of one!
Bare, rough, dirty feet
Shoes are hard to come by,
These days
Unless, I steal them!
But, then I will become a target
Having something new
It will get stolen from me
By some other gang
Or by some cruel and nasty person!
“Bare feet it is!”
“Less problems, this way!”
Feet are made for walking
I will use them
For what
They are made for!
“Now let’s get something to eat, I am starving!”
Loitering around Hungry Jacks and Macca's
Asking people
As they walk out
With their hot, delicious, fresh food
For a gold coin or two
Dumpsters and bins
Look nice, today!
Only half eaten, stuff
A lot of wastage!
“Not the freshest stuff, but hey!”
Make do, with what we have!
The sun is shining today
Not sure where to wash though...
Water is scarce, thank god for public toilets
They sure come in handy!
They say it is fun
And you are lucky to have freedom!
But,
It is a lie we tell ourselves
To remain ignorant
To pretend, we don’t give a damn
But, inside,
We really do!
For you see ,
There are sacrifices
To the choices you make
When you have to live them, out
“Don’t be a fool!”
Life is no fairytale, on the dirty streets of hell!
During the day,
The city lights up
It glitters
As if
It were made out of gold!
It comes alive with people
Rushing here, rushing there, rushing everywhere
Not really knowing, what
They are presently, doing
People reminding me of robots, sheep and zombies
Acting as if they are in control of everything
When in fact, they are not!
"Who knows what is around the corner?"
"What is coming, your way!"
Life is unpredictable,
"Beware!"
“Don’t be mislead by the fakes, around here”
“There is plenty of them!”
Eyes are on you,
Down every alley way
Standing on every corner
Watching you
"You, are in ‘our territory’ now!"
“Hold onto your bags tight!”
For,
I may be lurking behind you
One minute there,
Next minute gone!
It is the nature of the game
As
I snatch and grab your bag
When I see you off guard
Taking your money
Claiming it, as my own
You see,
I need it to survive on!
I'm banking on you, being rich!
I told you
This place is a hell hole
And,
I meant it!
This dark place
Full of shadows and conscious deceit
Will swallow you up
Eating, you alive!
You will lose your way
In its pit of endless darkness
There is no Prince Charming’s, out here!
There is no one to save you
There are only damsels in distress
Like me!
No one
Comes to your aid
When you need it the most
You could diminish and disappear one day
Within a blink of an eye!
Without a hint
Nor trace of you, left behind
No one will see it happen
Because
No one
Opens their mouth up, around here!
So,
Love and appreciate, one another!
Care for yourself and care for others!
Tell your loved ones
'you love them' often
And,
‘Enjoy'
The home, you live in!

Streams of blue fluid
Flows downward
As fragile carcasses decay
Without a peep of a sound
We’re in the brink of disaster…
Who invited such fear and anguish?
Who could lead us to quiet waters?
We bleed…
Polluting the waters below us…
Trickling down the mountain
To our filthy feet…
Cleansing the sin off of our skin
But, it’s tangled from deep within…
The eeriness breaks
The hearts of a thousand strangers
They all fall away powerlessly…
Into the chambers of death
Danger is lurking in every corner…
Pursuing its evil plans
To cut down our hopes…
Growing like crops…
Rising rapidly –
It never stops
Dreams of misfortune still
Rapes our minds,
Plaguing our happiness…
Consuming the darkness…
We’re sprawling on the ground…
We’re crawling like infants…
Veering briskly like serpents…
Who will set our souls free
From suppression?
Who will preserve our hearts?
Don’t prey upon our
Guiltless lives…
We’re in complete agony…
Does He consider
Our prayers
Of support and nourishment?
We scream…
Breaking the repulsive solitude…
Encourage us to keep on
Trekking toward Your light
Where’s Your path?
You rinse off all of the sorrow
Giving us a ecstatic tomorrow
The weeping ceases…
While the corpses
Tear into
Blood-spattered
Pieces…
The faith of a couple of people
Strengthens us…keeps us motivated…
Not captivated…
In misery…
We’re reaping our
Ecstasy…
Leading us to peace and fortune
Keeping us accustomed
To Your purifying spirit…
Keeping us away from
Calamity…
We’re hungry…
Our demise is close at hand…
Closing in on us abruptly
Like an obscure cave…
Rescue us from affliction –
Embracing downhearted clouds…
Those wretched clouds…
Brought us rain when we asked for bread…
Those merciless clouds…
Spewed out scorching fire when we asked for relief…
Remember our supplications…
Appalling lightning’s daring to strike us
Out of cruel vengeance
Out of sheer amusement
Don’t even attempt to weaken us
We’re blossoming in joy…
We’re under cover…
You can’t manipulate us
Like a subtle toy
We’re praying for
Quiet waters
Offer the deceased
A second chance
Don’t disown
Our broken lives
We’re not alone…
We’re just waiting until
The quiet, glistening waters
Gratefully arrives…

tears on her pillow
draw her huge billow
drowned in awkwardness
invisible in darkness
deafening loud scold
denial of mold
memories unbound
plunging her drowned speechless sound
feelings paralyze
fears demoralize
life's always the same
words unable to explain
ignorance dictates
returning misstates
silencing too much
lost the connecting touch
saddening feeling
despite crushed kneeling
bricks building a wall
dry tears tell about the fall
time stepping backwards
frightening factors
unwanted distance
lost intense inner guidance
her new world ice glassed
storms of the lost past
arriving ashore
irreversible once more
she fights frozen air
gazes with a stare
searching for fires
her own past never retires
tears on her pillow
drawn by the willow
dry frozen in time
fate echoed again her chime
she searches for words
struggles with what hurts
moments of relieve
her wish, dream, truth and belief

What will be
Will be!
I know of this, first hand
Your life was taken away
So abruptly!
I will
Never forget
That day!
Till the day
My body dies
And
I am with you, again!
“How was I to prepare myself?”
With
That kind of
Life changing, event!
You
Didn't warn me
You
Were permanently leaving!
I hope
You know
How much “I love you”
Know
You will never be forgotten!
I don’t know
What
Has got into me!
Consciously
I feel you
Inside me
I see images
Of your face
So clearly!
Am I crazy
To believe in this, my love?
“Are you still with me?”
“Is my imagination
Playing cruel tricks
Running rampant
As
I talk with you
As if
You were by my side, right now
In my heart and mind
Your face etched
Imprinted
Like a blue print
That never fades
Your foot prints
Still remain, beside me
My heart beats
Eternally
Trying to make sense of everything!
Forgive me, my love
For being so strong in my feeling
For it has been a long time
Since I lost you, my friend
Something
I haven’t
Quite
Got over!
My heart
Having
A mind of its own
Aching
To be with you, still!
To see you
To smell you
To touch you
To taste you
One
Last time!
I want to say “Goodbye”
Once and for all!
As
We have
Brought out
The best and worst
In each other
Rivers run deep
When it comes to you and me!
We have had our fair share of fights and arguments
Stubborn disagreements
All of them
Meaningless
Now
You cease to exist!
I miss your lingering touches
Your hand, stroking my face
Your big, blue eyes
Looking into mine
Your warm lips
Your rough, unshaven face
The way you
Passionately
Kiss me
While
We make love, till dawn
I miss
All those nights
You kept me
Safe and warm!
I miss
Your
Loving embrace
I miss
Your
Reassurance!
“Am I ever going to feel the same, with another?”
Just
As
I felt
In your arms, my love?
How
Do I let you go?
How
Do I set myself, free?
I am ready
To love, again!
With
‘Our eternal love’
Supporting
And
Guiding me
Especially
In times, like these!

Satan Told Me: “What I Have Isn’t Good Enough!”
I heard the devil whisper some words into my ear…
“What you have isn’t good enough!” “Come over here!”
In front of me, where temptations of various kinds...
At first, it was almost overwhelming for my mind!
He promised something “better” than what I already had!
He said that if I did what he wanted… I’d be happy and glad!
I thought about how the Lord has blessed the way I’m livin.’
The life I once lived… And HIS power of forgivin.’!
Was I going to trade all of this, for a life of bondage and sin?
Perhaps having a form of Godliness,
but no freedom within?
Was I going to trade what God gave,
for a ”pleasure of the moment?”
Was I about to make a mockery of Christ’ atonement?
I ran to the nearest room. And bowed my head and cried…
For a brief moment, I felt rejected and despised!
Just then, I felt the Holy Spirit’s presence all around me!
And then, it was like the love of Jesus had filled me!
This time, I knew that what I had was all that I needed!
With Christ in my life, I no longer have to be defeated!
Satan is a liar! He has one purpose and goal!
He wants nothing more, than to destroy my soul!
Take notice Satan! This is what I proclaim!
Everything I’ll ever need! I have in Jesus’ name!
The blessings from Jesus, has supplied my every need!
It’s an everlasting and abundant life, that I received!
Thank you Jesus! For giving what I need and much more!
You are truly God’s son!
And are worth living for!
By Jim Pemberton

Faith walks with Sorrow and Suffering.
It’s Light buffering
their weight,
too heavy to abate.
Why journey with these companions so unpleasant?
What purpose to achieve?
What must I leave
behind?
Faith walks with Sorrow and Suffering
To transform
All that does not conform
to Love.
Faith allows my choices to be made.
Will I trust?
Will my heart not fade?
Faith beckons my blind eye to see
Far beyond me,
If I will but trust
And hold tight to Love.
It’s magic to behold;
Worth more than gold.

I wish
To be a pigeon soaring in the morning sky
I wish
I have all my issues fly out the windows
I wish
My whole body could simply wither away
I wish
To start anew and be on a fresh start
I wish
I had the ability to fly
I wish
To have a talent of writing cheerful, exquisite poems
I wish
I could be a wonderful guy
I wish
I could have a future family and be the best father in the world
I wish
I could have a positive mindset
I wish
I had the desire to talk things out and live a peaceful life

Everyone's gone...
There's no one to look up to...not one...
Not one will be kind enough
To look down and attempt to help me...
Everyone's gone...
I'm beneath the debris
There's no one there to save me...
I'm left to my own misery
Everyone's gone...
I guess I'll find my way out of this maze
Without any clues
I'm waiting for relief to dawn upon me
Everyone's gone
I'm dealing with so much trauma
I'm watching for any signs of support...
Hear my echoes of pain...
It drives me insane...
Catch me before I fall off the cliff...
Everyone's gone
I'm all skin and bones
I'm trapped like a hunted animal
The predator took a bite into me...
Don't just watch me suffer...
Deserted in this lonesome state
Everyone's gone
I'm kicked around like a soccer ball
Hear me as I call...
Help me to stand tall
Help me...
Reach up to the sky
To feel the coolness seep through me
Help me...
To be inspired to write more uplifting songs
Help me think more positively - help me wave g'bye
Help me...
Forgive me for all of my wrongs...
Everyone's gone
I'm a screwed-up building
I need you to be my backbone
Straighten me up...help me to be stiff like a soldier
About to enter another horrifying war
Support me today...
And stick with me tomorrow!
I want to let go of the past memories...
Scaring away my happy moments and delights
I want to smear away the blasphemies…
Obliterating my blissful days and nights
Everyone's gone...
There's no one to depend on...not one...
Not one will be brave enough
To look down and attempt to help me...
Everyone's gone...
I'm beneath the city
There's no one to show me the jolly sun...
I'm left to my own misery
Everyone's gone...
Fine… I'll find a way to get out of this nightmare
Without any clues
I'm waiting for relief to give me strength instead of fear

Satan Told Me That No One Loves Me!
I heard the devil whisper into my ear…
“No one loves you!” “Come over here!”
In front of me, where temptations of various kinds...
It was almost overwhelming for my mind!
He promised “love.” And much more!
I had no idea of what was in his “store!”
I asked Jesus to help the way I was livin.’
I needed his love, and HIS power of forgivin.’!
Would I trade all of this, for a life of deceit and lies?
Being “trapped” by what was,
Shown to my eyes?
Was I going to trade what God gave,
for a ”pleasure of the moment?”
Was I about to make a mockery of Christ’ atonement?
I ran, and bowed my head and cried…
For a brief moment, I felt rejected and despised!
I felt the Holy Spirit’s presence all around me!
Iit was like the love of Jesus had filled me!
This time, I knew that what I had, was all I needed!
With Christ in my life, I no longer have to be defeated!
Satan is a liar! He has one purpose and goal!
He wants nothing more, than to destroy my soul!
Take notice Satan! This is what I proclaim!
Everything I’ll ever need! I have in Jesus’ name!
The blessings from Jesus, has supplied my every need!
It’s an everlasting and abundant love, that I received!
Thank you Jesus! For giving what I need and more!
You are truly wonderful!
And are worth living for!
By Jim Pemberton

Subjected to torment and teasing
Isn't very fun or pleasing
Every day becomes a chore
Not to end up on the floor
From being shoved and pushed around
Bruises always being found
Being a human punching bag
Mornings it is hard to drag
Yourself out of the house and be
Because you know what's up ahead
Snide remarks and mental anguish
Why must others act so foolish
Picking on those weak and small
Who just want to stand so tall
Being themselves and really proud
They're different from the in crowd
Not giving up or giving in
Knowing it would be a sin
Staying true and always knowing
True self should be there and showing
Even if its hard to be
Yourself through the insanity
But sometimes grief will get you thinking
You can end this hurtful taunting
With one motion of a blade
You will be at peace and laid
Restfully with no more sorrow
But don't give in because tomorrow
Might be brighter than the last
There'll be no more overcast
Of despair that has been
Keeping you alone and then
You look and start to realize
Other victims want to find
Relief, looking for a friend
Your aloneness finally ends

UNSUPPORTED CODE A Brother Who Let His Brother Fall...
I knew of a Christian, who let his brother fall.
He didn't reach out to help him at all...
When his brother needed someone, he wasn't there.
He said, "why should I bother him, or even care?"
It was almost like he wished for the worst to take place.
I could see him even wear a smile on his face!
"Why should I lift a hand to help?" were the words said.
It was like he wished his brother was "better off" dead.
The anger I felt inside of me, was difficult to express!
How can he neglect his brother, and expect to be blessed?
Why does he call himself a "Christian?"
He doesn't show it!
When it comes to love and forgiveness...
He doesn't even know it!
What did Christ mean, when he said "love one another?"
Doesn't this include everyone? Including our brother?
What do we expect from God? What would he say?
"You can't forgive your brother?" "Go away!"
If we can't freely share the love God has given...
How in the world, do we expect to be forgiven?
The love of Christ must completely change us within!
So we can experience what it means to be BORN AGAIN!
Christ has given to us his love!
Nothing can compare it!
May we all receive this love, and freely share it!
By Jim Pemberton

Are You Filled With Hopelessness?
Are you filled with
hopelessness and despair?
In your circumstances…
God is always there!
Spending time God, will bring to
you needed refreshment.
You can talk to God now!
With no appointment!
He will listen to whatever
you have to say!.
You'll find he is very close...
just a heartbeat away!
Whatever problems you have.
Whatever your needs may be.
God's love for you...
You'll begin to see!
Jesus is waiting for you
to all on his name.
It was for YOU that to earth he came.
Won’t you spend time with him?
You don’t need an appointment!
He wants to meet your needs!
This very moment!
Allow HIM to remove all
of your worry and fear.
He is with you!
Ever so near!!!
By Jim Pemberton

Part 1.
I wonder if the time and day would last forever
I think of all things will quit never
Among the time that we wish to do a lot
And a notion that is close to not
We have the talent that grows
We seek it and it shows
Growing up to know each wonder of the mind
Going to best things and be kind
I walk a dream but not a dream
I want to do things with out running out of steam
So when I smile my days are long
Seeing that I do things just to belong
It hits me right in the center of my core
It grabs me in the heart to just be more
Part 2.
An interest that came by
It also was such moments that lie
I fallow everyone else with the feeling of hope
It seems that they rather hang me by a rope
Just what is the matter with people now a days
Caring for others I was taught in my ways
Do the people I hang out with always betray
I sit down and thing about it many way
My father and mother is not going to be ashame
They are not to even think it or to blame
I can do things much more to my very core
I can grab everyones heart and I can be more

The back and forth, the to and fro
The evil seeds the enemy sows
How can I walk the straight and narrow?
While I suffer blow after blow
How can I continue to follow in your plan?
While I still be a double minded man
It’s hard to call on your name
In the midst of my shame
I am in so much pain
But from where has it come?
And to where can it go?
In my guilt, I am brought low
The truth is I am guilty
But I don’t have to bear this shame
The price has been paid
You have taken it away
Yet there is a cunning snake
A liar and a fake
Who wants me to think otherwise
To believe his devious lies
That I should run from you
That I should only hide
But it isn’t true
The real truth is this, this is what's up
Though I fall down, I am lifted up
Though I fail, I remain forgiven
By your great love I am driven
So that even when I stumble
My faith will not crumble
Though I still do wrong
You make me strong
I now have an answer
To this deadly cancer
A cure for my imperfection
To move in a new direction
Not to mourn and wallow
But simply to turn and follow
After the one who called me
And set me free
Who opened my eyes
So that I could see

I'm not perfect not do I profess to be
So why do you always find problems with me
I'm sick of thinking I've finally been understood
Silly me for believing that I could
For eventually your frustration appears
And your unwelcome comments force my tears
I can't keep explaining or justifying myself to you
You have your opinion of me whether its false or true
So just let me be me and I'll be ok
But I can't keep explaining myself day after day
Each of us is different and that's a good thing
But your comments and snide remarks please don't bring
I may mistakes and I know you do to
But that doesn't make me a lesser person than you
I have my gifts and I have my faults
But that doesn't mean my life will amount to nought
I have my good days along with the bad
I have moments when I'm happy and times I'm sad
I may not have wealth or possess acres of land
But I'm learning that on Christ the Solid Rock I stand

O man of my dreams galore,
What I gave you is my life and soul,
Don't just keep crushing my ego,
Have a heart, let my subtle emotions flow,
Took my hand, and promised to everhold,
Brilliant aura of your our heart, a pure gold,
Your love clinched me fast , an ardent paw,
Now an empty life, what for do I need a straw ?
Losing my tender self day by day,
Can never tolerate your betray,
Keep to my hand, so worthy of high,
No souls return once far they fly !
Written on 23/6/14
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Sponsor- Sheri Fresonke Harper

I’m a child in heart
I’m sensitive,
So don’t misuse it
I’m God’s special child
I need to respect
My zealous Father
I need to honor Him
With my young heart,
I pray for freedom
How awesome are Your deeds?
Relieve my heart’s ache
Help me escape
From the darkened pit
I can be active
And beat that race
I’m on God’s good side
God’s mercy
Aids me in times of trouble
I appreciate His consideration
He fulfills me with elation

It's only the start now
...a road yet unknown
At times the whisper of other steps
...sometimes we walk alone
The best start of our lives
May at times cry in sorrow
But even on our deadliest days
The sun will shine tomorrow.
So we must do our best
Whatever time may bring
And look beyond the winter chill
To taste the breath of spring.
Into each life will come
A time to start anew
A new start for each heart
As lively as morning dew.
Though the responsibilities of life are great
And palms are bowed so low
The cyclone of time will leave behind
The beauty of a rainbow.
Time will never take away
Our chance to start anew
It's only the start now
So the beautiful dreams can still come true.

Are You Addicted, With Nowhere to Go?
I know that it's easy to get
discouraged and upset.
Being addicted... But you
can't escape "just yet."
You've tried "everything." And don't
know what else to do?
Is there "anyone"
who can "help you through?."
The things you've done.
You’ve wanted to be forgiven!
Yet struggle with this
Each day your liven!
You greet people and
wear a "smile."
Do you wonder if living
is really "worth the while."
You may have prayed
over and over again.
And yet constantly struggle
with a stubborn sin.
Many times when you've tried to
call on Jesus' name.
Yet find yourself in
"guilt and shame."
Jesus is here now!
He wants you to know…
He can bring satisfaction and
Make you WHOLE!
Rather than thinking of things
done in the past.
Come to Jesus now!
His love will always LAST!
Allow God to bring to your life
the needed victory now!
He'll make you a brand new person!
And HOW!
By Jim Pemberton

I have so many temptations all around me.
I must be careful, lest they ensnare me!
I asked the Lord, “why does the enemy tempt me?”
He answered; “then I’ll know how much you love me!”
I thought for a moment, and was quite perplexed.
I wasn’t sure exactly what to say next!
I know the Lord has promised a way of escape.
Narrow is his way and straight is the gate!
I pray that his spirit will guide what I do and see!
If not, all of this sin will eventually control me!
I need to run into his loving and opened arms!
Only he can keep me safe from all harm!
I know that I could never do this alone!
I need God’s protection over my life and home!
There’s no hiding secrets, with his presence around!
Whatever I may try to hide, it shall be found!
I need YOU now!. I need you so very much!
How I long for your strengthening touch!
Thank you my Lord, for helping me along!
Though I am weak... You remain strong!
Whatever roadblock or temptation I may face…
You’ll help me to overcome by your loving grace!
You’re all I’ll ever need! And bless me each day!
I appreciate you so much!
More than words can say!
By Jim Pemberton

You sit and wonder what you've done
What's left of life?
Where's all the fun?
The days pass now with boring chores
Silly tasks and meeting bores
One's still alive
In some dark pit
Just taking meds and staying fit
The days that made one always smile
Have not been seen for quite awhile
Yet you know you have to try
No need to mope and wait to die
So now's the time to lift your head
Get off your rear
Get out of bed
So the days are flying by
Don't give up
You've got to try
Only you can beat the strife
That keeps you from enjoying life

The little lord Jesus
asleep not on the hay
but in the street
Like Abraham the little
boy was sacrificed on
the machine's high holy day
One day after the Winter Solstice
His family lived in a comfortable
home in Brooklyn NY but his father
took the subway to the highest
mountain near The Dakota in Central Park West
The 3 year old named was translated
to Kyrios Christos or the Lord in his father's tongue
He was placed on the high alter
at exactly 12 noon prime meridian
On the day in question
a mother's child was stolen from the womb
unlike the Star of Bethlehem
Venus went backwards
Virgo in opposition to the dark side of Pluto and Pisces
and the Uranus square or the Trickster
Like Christ his red blonde hair
was covered in blood
the measure of oil equivalent
30 pieces of gold
In three days times
the three wise men would have been
welcome to Gotham City but the Mayor
went golfing in Bermuda and the shops were out
of Gold Frankenstein and Myrrh
But what of his message of peace and good will towards men
the sacrificed was paid
and the little Lord Jesus
lay not in the hay but
dead in NY city streets

I can read you like a book,
I'm all too familiar with that look.
You've been lonely for way too long,
I know you aren't feeling very strong.
You held on until you couldn't anymore,
To someone who walked out the door.
Hating yourself cause you knew better,
He never believed in forever.
You fell in love again last night,
And woke this morning alone, right?
In your eyes I see the little girl,
That loved to dance and twirl.
I wish that you could see,
Worthless is something you'll never be.
All the shame and pain can go away,
You don't have to cry every day.
So turn around, you're not too far,
To change you mind, be who you are.
All those nights and days,
Can all be washed away.
By the One who's strong,
He can right your wrongs.
He will rid you of your fears,
He will dry every last tear.
Show you you're a flawless pearl,
Again you'll see through eyes of a little girl.

I scream, at the top of my lungs
No sound, comes out
Silent, curdling screams
Is, all I have left, now
I wrestle; I fight, with all, my physical might
While, being forced down
By the mighty strength, of many men
The pungent smells of dirt, sweat and grime
Embed, in my senses
Their ghastly hot breathes; making me, want to puke!
Their hands, all over me
Constantly grabbing and groping me
Hollering and cheering each other on
Then, someone punches me
Someone, I cannot see
A large man’s hand, covers my nose and mouth
Muffling my soulful cries, terrifying, my insides!
I can’t breathe, now!
Many heavy handed blows, follow
In a blurry haze
I watch, my scarlet red blood splatter
Upon the snow white sheets, that surround
My sacred blood spilled
My salty tears mixed in with sticky men’s semen
My body, a raging torrent of scorching hot lava
Lulling into a translucent, entranced state
Surrendering, to the primal, animalistic frenzy
The men, taking what they want, anyway they want it
Devouring every morsel left ,of my weak and weary body
My body fighting, for its God given right
To live, now!
My life flashes before my eyes
The sounds around me begin to fade
My eyes glaze over, my body goes limp
My body betraying me, when I need her the most!
Silently, I pray for this is not my will, but their own
“Have mercy upon these souls”
“Please forgive these men, as I do, now
“My love remains with you, heavenly Father”
Blackened tears of jet black mascara
Weave their way down
Through the bloody crevasses, of my black & blued skin
My body used up, a lifeless vessel, totally numb!
My innocence and dignity stripped!
No one, can save me, the worst is done!
Bashed, beaten, worn
I am nothing, no more...

Shame
Remains the same
But, I'm sure I'm its victim
IT SURE NEEDS A TRIM...
I feel ugly and slim
Devour
The tower
Of darkness
Leading me to distress...
I'm in a miserable mess
Kill
The pill
Of sadness
Swallowing me whole - I'm hopeless
My gratitude transforms to frustration...
Do you sense my agitation...?
Feel
The steel
In MY heart
Pounding me to death...
COULD ANYONE TAKE HEART?
ARE YOU GOING TO LET THE MONSTERS
TEAR ME APART??
COWER
Away from the
Dark and morbid tower
OF SHADINESS
Throwing bricks at me...
I'm choking on the dry paint of filthiness
Do you hear my screams?
Do you feel my stress?
Will you keep me in your dreams?
Do you want me to be full of happiness?
Do you want to rest for the day
OR put it aside and increase my dismay?
SHAME
Has no beautiful name
But, it sure gets me
Worked up and distressed...
When I look back at the tower,
I don't feel the best...
Let me flee!! Let me rest...
...or I'll feel tired and depressed

In the blackness of despair there's an afterglow,
a distinct aura of everlasting hope
and renewal that begins in a rebirth.
This place which transcends all sadness will I go,
and find a peace and a rest in its scope
and power which bring only abundant mirth.
There's a time for everything: a time for living;
a time for dying; a time for rejoicing;
a time for crying; and, a time for giving.
All we are and all we have are what we know,
we find meaning in ourselves and learn to cope
with the rest together here on this planet Earth.
With what we're given we can do no better and no worse--
this despair's our desperate blessing and our curse.

i wonder if those cackling coyotes
hiking the surrounding fields sound
anything like Hell, well, i sure hope not.
Hell would be a terrible place to be.
still, i feel and fill with remorse.
it’s the middle of November and
it’s ruthless Ohio with her revenge.
with the love of fall beneath her
and the sparkling of frost in her hair,
beginning in the morning under a
fingernail clipped moon and too
far away stars and few headlights,
ohio offers her lullaby here, now.
scraggly pups made of fur and bone,
calloused paws to a calloused ground,
tough like old brick and new cement
and an icy pitch bark that bites back.
people are being pulled from these
pages that used to keep me wide awake
but now only keep me sad and conscience
in the too broad daylight in clean clothes
reading things too keep me soul sick,
to correlate with groggy afternoon insanity
that is not like tonight’s cold but like a
burning city, with me, standing—waiting
at the pier with the commotion of some
kind of humanity bleeding from the parks,
avenues, alleys, clubs, bars, and markets
but i only see the smoke and hear the clamor.
the rest is made up i suppose,
and my heart in the other senses.
but it is too true for those
coyotes in that cold and
i dare not let them in.

Our psyches form an eerie mood;
we hold the fearful, bated breath
(the melancholy that makes us brood).
We smell the scent of gloom's despair;
we feel the menace of sudden death:
how broken we just are to care!
Thank God for him, the heaven's Lord;
our fight with misery and pain
ends with the gift of his great Sword;
the tears of manic-depression
flow down our tear-stained cheeks again:
but now they're for our remission.