For that matter have you ever opened the fridge door and forgot why you opened it? I have, matter of fact I have closed the fridge door or left from in front of the microwave depending on which one I was doing; and then gone back to my bedroom or wherever I was prior to the microwave or fridge and then I will remember why I was at the microwave or why I had opened the fridge. At times like these I feel like a real idiot! However, the worst is when I am in the middle of something and get distracted and then end up doing something else only to be distracted again by the cat or my mom and start something else. Then later I will notice 2-3 things half done and have to finish them (hopefully before I get distracted again).

Past Examples of things I have left undone would be:

turning the washer on and forgetting to put detergent or, softener in and/or leaving the lid up

leaving the fridge door open

leaving the dishes half done

leaving drawers or cabinets open

By now I am sure you are thinking I must be a little senile. My mom says I remind her of an absent-minded professor; because I don’t see the forest for the trees. Unfortunately, I see and hear way to much. My mind just processes things different. You see I believe I have Asperger’s Autism. If you know anything about autism you know that we are overwhelmed a lot by our environment. Me, well I get distracted by all the input. I can be talking about something very serious then see a butterfly or a flower and then I am looking at the butterfly or smelling the flowers and the person I was talking to is left hanging. You have to be quite patient when you are around me.

Since I turned forty, (seven years ago) I also noted a decline in my memory. So, I have to write everything down now. Problem is when I lose where I put the piece of paper! Ha Ha! I try to keep my room organized and everything in its place so, this does not happen but, a lot of the time life or, pain gets in the way. I now have a Calendar that I write all my appointments and important things I have to do on. This helps a lot.

Even with all the bad there are still some good things I have gotten from having autism. I have a heightened sense of smell that tells me when the litter box needs changed, when food is done, and when I need to bathe. I enjoy flowers and outdoors more because of my sense of smell. I also have a strong sense of textures. This can be good and bad. Especially with food, I cannot stand certain food textures. However, I love soft fur, clothes and blankets. No wool for me or anything that is scratchy. Which also means there are no tags on any of my clothes.

Now you know you are not alone when it comes to being forgetful or needing everything to be in a certain order!

Lately, I have not been blogging as much. This is mainly because I have been kind of down in the dumps, wanting to tear my hair out over our financial situation, and my inability to do very much! My mind is all like let’s go and my body is like let’s not! Which can be very frustrating to say the least. So I obsess about coupons. Coupon’s here coupon’s there, coupon’s everywhere! Since money is so tight I am like I must find the best coupon’s and the best sales to get what we need for the very least amount of money. Since , I have to keep the budget less than $100 a month for food, personal care products, paper products, computer ink and everything else. I must, I must strive to save, save, save so I can have money for the bills, gas and entertainment (Ha! what entertainment, this is it typing on the computer or surfing the web for coupons). Luckily I got a box of printer paper for Christmas.

Well enough of that! Time to stick my chin up (with duct tape if necessary) and get out of the muley grubs! I have loads of things to be happy for! For instance, I just found out I got approved for food stamps and I will be getting a whopping $16a month. So, there that’s $116 for food and all the rest! And there’s the fact I have a roof over my head, and all the utilities are on and I have a car. I may not be able to drive it without gas but, hey I have a good working mind maybe I can invent a new way to make gas or figure out a way to turn my little Yaris into a solar car. Hey you never know.

Then there’s the crown jewel of happiness! The one food I used to love as a kid and still do for that matter. Chef Boyardee Spaghetti and Meatball’s are only $.89 a can at Target. That’s a meal in a can. Plus add a vegetable or wait maybe not on the commercials lately they have been hinting that there are vegetables in every can so there you are one meal for $0.89. But wait $0.89 x 30 days = $26.70+ tax, wow that’s a big chunk out of the budget for one meal a day! Plus I usually have some applesauce for desert! I wonder if PB & J would be cheaper?? But then theirs the bread, jelly and peanut butter and you would have to have chips or something with it. 😦

Oh dear, I better find some more coupons! 😦

How are you? Has the weather got you down? Are the bill collector’s knocking on your door? What do you think?

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I have kind of steered clear of God, Jesus and Christianity, but since I think about GOD and Jesus all the time and they are part of my life, it is hard to edit myself to avoid making people mad. However this is my blog and since I wouldn’t be being truthful if I hid certain parts of myself and my writing I have decided to go ahead and include post like this. Of course I am not forcing anyone to read these types of posts. I wrote this in 1992 back when I was going through a very traumatic divorce from a very abusive husband.