Last year, Carey’s live performance in Times Square on New Year’s Eve was a hot mess. She was visibly upset and stopped singing, despite a pre-recorded track playing in the background proving that she does not sing all her music live. The performance went viral for all the wrong reasons, and it created a lot of dram between Carey and New Year’s Rockin’ Eve producers.

Afterward, the Grammy-winning singer posted a meme of herself on social media with the message “shit happens.” But it also led to a public battle between her and Dick Clark Productions as to who was at fault, with Carey’s team charging sabotage with technical glitches, including a faulty ear piece, and Dick Clark productions denying the claims and claiming she hadn’t rehearsed enough.

She returned Sunday night and performed a medley of her songs in sub-zero temps. The medley began with Vision of Love. After, there was an awkward moment where she said something about hot tea and that she would rough it without her hot tea. She then went into a pretty convincing performance of Hero with a gospel choir backing her up.

Now, I am not a Mariah Carey hater or a stan. A lot of people on Twitter weren’t even giving the girl a chance, bashing her before she even got up on stage. I was looking forward to her redemption, however, my face was cringing the entire time. While at least she got through this year without a major meltdown like last year, the final result still isn’t great. It’s a shame she can’t perform like she use to.