The pumping is still as my hand lays flat,a non-moving silence is what I face.I keep waiting to feel it, pat, pat, pat,but time passes by and still no trace. There's nothing there it is strictly hollow. Where has my heart gone?Do I dare to follow?

I’m trying to convince my friends that I don’t like you anymore and that I only think of you as a brother.But am I trying to convince them or myself?I close my eyes and see your ridiculous smileI see you in the faces of my school matesI see you everywhereMy heart aches every time I think of youIs this love?Probably notLove don’t existI see the proof is my friends heartbreak and my parents fightsBut how do you manage to make me feel like thisGet out of my head you’re driving me crazyStop itYou’re torturing my brainThis is an endless tortureYou’re a personal devil sent straight from the fires of hell to torture meTo make my heart crumble as I listen to you talking about another girlFeel my heart break into a million pieces and crumble into ashes as I see you with another girlThis is against everything that I stand forI refuse to let this get to meI will be immune to youI will be immune to everyone elseI will be heartless

Not knowing how to feel about something is the worst, I could drive myself insane, wracking my brain,wondering if you ever felt the same, but I know deep down you never felt the same,or anything at all.

I knew the day would come.My heart swelled and shattered Like glass off of my ribcage,It was nothing but dust now.In an instant my heart became soluble.Without warning,my heart was inevitably yours once more.I wanted you to never come backI hoped you would make your home in Boston.My delicate heart was not ready for you so soonAnd I was not ready to give my heart away.Especially to you.But she ran from me, Slipped through the cracks in my rib cage and ran straight for you.

So here I am still sitting in silence Still replaying impracticable situationsThat will never become reality. My heart is long gone now, She always ran faster than my head. With a mind of her own,I am now heartless

I never chose to be heartless My heart broke, I just couldn't keep the peaces I Never thought anyone could ever mend it To myself I thought "what's the use of keeping something broken?" I lost hope..... My mind was filled with hatred, I turned into a lier, a busted ,a jerk ,a hypocrite, a traitor you name it... Just to get my revenge ,everyone was a victim I just didn't care, I knew I wasn't fair But it eased the pain When you and I met ,no lie I got your name. On the list too But you were different,you got me patient,got rid of the fatuous me.... Then you gave me your heart ,gave me Hope, taught me how to love Without knowing I was deeply falling for you My heart grew fonder,started caring ,feeling,loving..... couldn't believe it Thought my mind was playing tricks on me It wasn't I was in love once again.........