1.12.2013

RESOLUTIONS

This post might be a tad
late but it is because I have pondered, meditated and ruminated enough
on the things that need serious editing about myself. See, I am turning twenty
this year. I am about to leave the glorious kingdom of teenage-hood. But truth is,
I feel like I am just somewhere sixteen and seventeen and that exact
kind of mental state needs to change.

Honestly, I am starting
the year both being overwhelmed and feeling a bit strange. Overwhelmed because
I seem to get anything I have wished for. Not exactly all but some and it's
terrifying in some ways. Strange on the other hand because I feel I am not able
to fully grasp my balance. Life and people seems getting weirder and weirder
and I am "weirded" out myself. Recently, I find myself ricocheting
between happiness and loneliness. 2012 was actually an awakening year. I
learned a lot of things and whatever those lessons are, it birthed into these
resolutions...

This 2013 I'll try to...

-Jog on
mornings.

-Wake
up earlier and witness the sunrise and not wake up when it’s high noon.

-Listen
not to reply but to understand.

-Never
judge anyone or else I’ll just end up being surprised.

-Stop
flirting thyself into an awkward situation.

-Stop
being the awkward
situation.

-Shut
up.

-Focus
on one goal and work my out to reach it.

-Control
emotions, especially when over enthused over something or someone.

-Delete
“assume” and “expect” in my vocabulary.

-Not compromise myself
too much to others.

-Stop
being too polite. Be real.

-Stop
being too available.

-Guard
my heart.

-Play
smart.

-Accept
that the world is harsh.

-Walk
my talk.

-Be
a better conversationalist.

-Guard
my health. Eat healthy.

-Meet
more people. Widen horizons.

-Go
somewhere.

-Increase
alcohol tolerance.

-Be
more creative.

-Stop
being too attached.

-Stop
feigning affection. It’s OKAY
NOT TO CARE.

-Screen
my stories. Not everyone’s interested.

-Say
no to overthinking.

-Stop
always feeling responsible.

-TAKE
RISKS EVEN IF IT’S SCARY.

-Think
before talking.

-Say
NO when I mean NO and say YES when I mean YES.

-Stop
being nice to people who don’t deserve it.

-Grow
up. Like seriously.

They
don't exactly sound like my usual bubbly self, but I think that is what 2013 is
all about for me.