“I have never been so angry with God in all of my life, for instilling such pain on such an undeserving soul.”

Apparently, Brock Turner’s ex-girlfriend and close friend from high school was among the rapist’s many supporters who submitted a letter to Judge Aaron Persky. And it is just as horrifying and shocking as all the others.

The Los Angeles Timesobtained a statement written by Lydia Pocisk (along with 61 other stomach-churning pages of letters written by the rapist’s supporters), in which she essentially stated that, because Brock is a hard-working and occasionally funny guy, he couldn’t possibly be a rapist. “He was determined to be the best he could be in all he did,” Lydia wrote. “I say this with 100% confidence because I remember a conversation with him a few years back. I asked why he had gotten so good at everything he did, and his answer surprised me. He simply said, ‘It’s not as fun to not be successful or not work hard.’ He worked harder than any person I know, in the water, out of the water, and in the classroom.”

That may all be true: Brock very well could have been a hard worker throughout his life. After all, he was a Division I swimmer with hopes of going to the Olympics. But, he gave that all up when he decided to rape an unconscious young woman behind a dumpster on Stanford's campus.

Of course, that didn’t stop Lydia from pointing out to Judge Persky that, in Brock’s defense, he was a good listener and knew how to help her when she was feeling down. “I would often get caught up in other people’s situations and he helped me see that I did not need to do that, the only person that I ever need to please in life is myself,” she wrote. “He truly made me a better person. He would also often not say much, just listen to me, and then when I was finished, say something hysterical that I completely threw me for a loop. He is one of the most unique people I have ever met.”

Lydia, who also served as a character witness during Brock’s trial, went on to say that the district attorney in the case, Alaleh Kianerci, used Brock’s “chill” demeanor to paint a negative picture of her ex-boyfriend. “[Kianerci] used Brock’s most defining qualities, of being a relaxed or ‘chill’ person against him in a manner that was in her favor and demoted Brock,” Lydia wrote. “I have seen first hand how this has destroyed him. It had been said that due to his calm demeanor, he did not care that this was happening to him, that he intentionally did this, which is simply not the case, he is just very good at being and seeming relaxed, it is who he is and a quality I hope he will always be. The real Brock is not the one that was demonstrated in the courtroom.”

She may be right that the real Brock is not the buttoned-up young man who appeared in the courtroom and somehow convinced a judge to only sentence him to six months in jail after being convicted of three felonies. The real Brock is the one two students caught grinding up against an unconscious woman, the real Brock allegedly sent nude photos of his victim to his friends, and the real Brock then tried to blame the entire incident on alcohol.

Then there’s the fact that Lydia seems to think this all happened “to” Brock. That he was the innocent victim in all of this. “You would think a close friendship of 8 years could predict something like this happening, but the type of person Brock is could never deserve this or do anything he has been convicted of in a thousand of his lives,” she wrote. “I have never been so angry with God in all of my life, for instilling such pain on such an undeserving soul.”

She’s right that someone instilled pain on an undeserving soul. But that someone was her friend Brock, and the undeserving soul was his victim. No part of Brock’s attack was an accident. He’s not taking the fall for the real rapist because he found himself in the wrong place at the wrong time. He's in this position because of the deliberate actions he took to sexually assault another person.

Some of Brock’s supporters have finally realized this, issuing public apologies for their distasteful statements to the judge in his defense. Unfortunately, Lydia is not one of those people.