The Healing Journey of a Daughter of Slavery and a Son of the Slave Trade

Two people a black woman and a white man confront the legacy of slavery and racism head-on

Sharon Leslie Morgan, a black woman from Chicago’s South Side, is a descendent of slaves on both sides of her family. She began a journey toward racial reconciliation with Thomas Norman DeWolf, a white man from rural Oregon who descends from the largest slave-trading dynasty in US history. Over a three-year period, the pair traveled thousands of miles, both overseas and through twenty-seven states, visiting ancestral towns, courthouses, cemeteries, plantations, antebellum mansions, and historic sites. Gather at the Table is the chronicle of their journey.

As DeWolf and Morgan demonstrate, before we can overcome racism we must first acknowledge and understand the damage inherited from the past-which involves confronting painful truths such as the unhealed wounds of racism. This book is a revelatory testament to the possibilities that emerge when people commit to truth, justice, and reconciliation.

“Gather at the Table is an honest exploration into the deep social wounds left by racism, violence, and injustice, as the authors work through their own prejudices in search of reconciliation—and ultimately find friendship.” —Leymah Gbowee, 2011 Nobel Peace Laureate

“I could not put this book down. Gather at the Table is an extraordinary story of an honest, meaningful conversation across the racial divide. At times it hurts to read. And well it should. Centuries of injustice and trauma that face us every day in this country have no place for half-truths. Sharon and Tom took the harder road-searching for healing, they literally walked together into painful histories and found authentic friendship.” —John Paul Lederach, PhD, author of The Moral Imagination: The Art and Soul of Building Peace

“What a courageous journey-communicated in an engaging, readable style with candor, humor, and deep feeling. This book shed light on the thoughts, questions, and feelings I have about race, society, culture, and historical, generational, and structurally induced trauma-and the human ability to transcend. In reading it, I realized there are questions I’m still afraid to ask about race, things I’m afraid to say, and yet I realized anew the power of acknowledgment, mercy, justice, and conflict transformation. I’m grateful to DeWolf and Morgan for not just taking the journey but for sharing their story with us.” —Carolyn Yoder, founding director of STAR: Strategies for Trauma Awareness & Resilience

“Sharon and Tom take us on a heart-opening journey of awakening. As a nation, we owe them a deep bow of gratitude as they help us navigate the deep divides of race and otherness.” —Belvie Rooks, cofounder, Growing a Global Heart

From the Introduction

Sharon’s Story

“F**k that dumbass Obama!”

I live in a small town in a rural community in the Northeast; a working-class town of 1,230 people, predominately white. My arrival in 2010 increased the black population to twenty-four.

There are many differences between where I live now and Chicago, where I grew up, not least of which is my status here as a member of an extreme minority. There are fundamental aspects to country life that I never considered when I lived in an urban setting. I buy food at the single small grocery store near the highway. The electric power grid crashes when it storms. Four-wheel drive is required to get from my house to the road when it snows--and it snows a lot. I’m wary of the bear that regularly rifles through my garbage can. And I must go to the post office in person to collect my mail, which is where I had an experience that is indelibly etched in my mind.

I usually go to the post office once a week, on Friday. On this particular day, I collected my mail as usual, returned without incident to my car, and prepared to head home. As I paused to wait for traffic before exiting the parking lot, a man pulled up beside me in a silver SUV. After some moments, I realized he was staring at me.

My “white people alert system” revved up. I jumped to the conclusion that this man was looking at me because I’m black. I hadn’t been here long enough for it to be anything else. Although I’m fair-skinned, there is no way most people would mistake me for anything other than black.

Not wishing to give in to my paranoia, I smiled, as any neighbor would do. To my shock, he yelled the Obama invective at me and sped off, tires spitting gravel. I was speechless. Why did this man target me? Was it the Obama sticker on my bumper? Was it my Illinois license plate (Obama’s home state)? Does he think black people were solely responsible for electing Barack Obama to be the first African American president of the United States? Do I represent all black people in his mindWould he have said the same thing to a white person

No, I don’t think so.

I don’t think so because I have been trained to look at almost every- thing through the prism of race. My reactions to many incidents in life have been honed by years of communal black experience. We are taught to be wary; suspicious that every comment has hidden racial connotations and that every act is racially motivated. I don’t yell “race” at every turn. I do not think of myself as a victim. I don’t blame others for human failings that I am rightfully responsible for. However, I have a whole deck of race cards I can play at a moment’s notice. I have an ever-present, oppressive feeling that never allows me to be totally comfortable.

Within my lifetime, not thinking about race could get you raped, beaten, killed. Stop after dark to use a toilet or eat in a “sundown” town and you could end up arrested or disappear forever. Walk in the wrong neighborhood in Chicago and you could be attacked by white people wielding baseball bats. The FBI compiled a report in 2009 of 3,816 cases of race-inspired hate crimes for that year alone; 83 percent of the victims were people of color.

White people are people to fear because they have no compunction about hurting you--with words or physical violence. This lesson has been reinforced over and over. Heeding it enabled us to survive. It is hard to purge.

In my younger years, I would have followed his white ass and given him a piece of my mind. Today, I merely record his face and car in my memory. In a country with a generous mixture of neo-Nazis, Christian fundamentalists, white supremacists, and survivalists, I would be a fool to do anything else.

Don’t get me wrong--there are many sensible white people through- out this country and in my town, like the checkers at the grocery store, the man who fixes my car, the real estate agent who rented my house to me, and my friendly neighbors next door. Yet inbred paranoia and constant wariness are the burdens I brought with me when Tom and I decided to take this journey. All I know is that I want to heal. I want to live in a community, a country, and a world where race is not the defining factor of who I am; my humanity is.

Tom’s Story

When Sharon told me the story of the man at the post office, I too was shocked--and sad. As I thought about her experience, I considered several possibilities that might have contributed to this man’s vitriolic outburst. In addition to maybe politics, probably sexism, definitely an upbringing in which he didn’t learn common decency or respect, one obvious factor is racism. What bothered him more: having a black president or having a black woman living in his almost-completely-white town

White people have a long history of ignorance and kneejerk reactions to anything that frightens us. I’ve certainly been there. But I know from my study of trauma and its long-term impacts that it is people who have been harmed that inflict harm on others. This harm is passed down through generations. Though I have empathy for racist people and the unhealed wounds they carry, they still must be held to account. I am a white man who lives in a town that is very white, much like Sharon’s. Because of my growing relationships with people of color, I’m more aware than ever before of the pervasiveness of the ongoing problem of race.

There is a long history of white people saying and doing stupid, racist, and horribly damaging things to people of color. When the transatlantic slave trade was abolished by the US government on January 1, 1808, many white people--including my distant relatives--ignored that law for a long time. The Ku Klux Klan, White Citizens Councils, and others waged a war of terror on black people well into the twentieth century.

Today, increasing membership in white supremacist organizations is a growing cause for alarm.

Irrational fear is a product of ignorance, leading people to say and do some pretty stupid things. We hear it regularly, even from high-profile people who should know better. During the 2008 presidential contest, Senator Harry Reid observed that candidate Obama could succeed in his campaign for president in part because he was “light skinned” and had “no Negro dialect.” When former president Bill Clinton sought Senator Edward Kennedy’s endorsement for Hillary Clinton’s presidential bid, he told Kennedy that in the recent past, Obama would have been serving them coffee. Former Illinois governor Rod Blagojevich claimed to be blacker than Barack Obama. When Virginia governor Bob McDonnell apologized for leaving out any reference to slavery in his Confederate History Month proclamation in April 2010, Mississippi governor Haley Barbour dismissed the controversy, sneering that it “doesn’t amount to diddly.” Kentucky senator Rand Paul compared himself to “idealists” like the Reverend Martin Luther King Jr., while at the same time expressing his conviction that private businesses should be allowed to turn away customers because of their race.

Thank goodness I’m not like any of those white people, but one of the good ones. After all, I wrote a book about my family’s commitment to truth, justice, and undoing racism. Inheriting the Trade documents my descent from the largest slave-trading dynasty in US history and the journey I took with nine distant cousins to retrace the triangular route of the slave trade from Rhode Island to Ghana and Cuba. I speak at colleges and conferences around the country about the legacy of slavery and its present-day consequences, share progressive articles with friends on Facebook, and regularly write blog posts about these issues. Sitting at my desk in Oregon--which has a population that is 90 percent white, and in1857 voted to ratify the state constitution with a provision that prohibited black people from moving here--I write about stupid white people who live somewhere else.

But the hard truth is that I am like other white people. As Pema Ch&RSQUO;dr&RSQUO;n so powerfully wrote in her book, The Places That Scare You, “Compassion is not a relationship between the healer and the wounded. It’s a relationship between equals. Only when we know our own darkness wellcanwebepresentwiththedarknessofothers.Compassionbecomesrealwhenwerecognizeoursharedhumanity.”

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Questions for DiscussionForeword1) Joy Angela DeGruy writes of the authors, “…they neatly weave their individual perspectives of events and experiences; sometimes in such sharp contrast that it is difficult to believe they were in the same place at the same time.”

Can you imagine yourself embarking on a difficult journey with someone with whom you have little in common?

If so, how would you approach such an endeavor?

2) DeGruy writes, “For Sharon, race is a ‘real’ place where she has lived her whole life” and “For Tom, race is a place he has only recently chosen to visit.”

What differences do you perceive in how people of color and white people approach issues of race?

What are your personal feelings about race?

How do your feelings about race affect your relationships with others?

Introduction3) Sharon was confronted by an angry white man in the parking lot of her local post office.

Why do you think the man erupted as he did?

How would you react if you were in Sharon’s position?

Chapter 1: The Recalcitrant Bat4) Susan and Will encountered people of color who were descended from people their white ancestors enslaved and to whom they were related by blood.

Are you aware of people from multiple races in your family tree?

How do you think you would you feel if you met previously unknown relatives of another race?

If you are white, how would you feel if you found out there was “black blood” in your ancestry?

5) Sharon and Tom felt led by ancestral spirits.

Do you share their belief?

If so, what experiences have you had that reinforce your belief?

Chapter 2: Castaways from Security Island6) People who grow up in the North experience racism differently than people from the South.

How did you experience racism where you grew up?

Do you think your family or your community were racist?

Is it possible for a black person to be racist?

7) This chapter introduces the “Cycles of Violence.”

In thinking of traumatic experiences in your life, what points listed on the cycles have you experienced?

Did you find yourself moving between the cycles of victim and aggressor?

Chapter 3: Friends on Purpose8) Sharon and Tom built a purposeful relationship and created a series of experiences to grow and test that relationship.

Can you imagine doing something similar to what Tom and Sharon did?

Are there reasons why they could not achieve healing on their own?

9) Tom and Sharon encountered several “faith traditions” along their journey. The Mennonites are considered one of the “peace” churches with a focus on healing from trauma, and peacebuilding. Bahá’ís espouse a core belief in the oneness of humanity.

If you have a faith tradition, in what ways has your faith community been engaged in confronting racism and other forms of oppression?

In what ways has your faith community ignored or exacerbated the problems?

10) Sharon was uncomfortable in “backabush California.” Tom was uncomfortable in Harlem. Neither of them felt completely comfortable with each other’s families.

Have you had similar experiences?

How much of your discomfort had to do with race?

Chapter 4: Lizard Brain11) This chapter discusses how people learn and discern “truth.”

What were you raised to believe was “the truth” about race?

Have you come to believe differently as you’ve grown older? If so, how?

12) The authors describe slavery experiences of people at ages 2, 5, 8, and so on.

26) Entire communities were either terrorized by or participated in horrific acts of violence.

If you are white, do you believe you would you have stood up to your community or would you have gone along with an act of terror?

If you are black and were the victim of or witnessed an act of terror, how do you believe you would have responded?

Chapter 9: Grave Matters27) Genealogy is a central theme throughout Gather at the Table.

What do you know about your family history?

Has this book inspired you to do further research into your family’s connection to slavery?

28) Tom and Sharon visited many sites related to the struggle for civil rights and experienced deep emotional reactions to what they saw.

Is there a difference between “civil rights” and “human rights”?

Would you have been willing to put your life on the line for the right to vote or to sit at the front of a bus?

How would you go about teaching young people who have no experience with this part of American history how significant and meaningful the civil rights struggle was?

Chapter 10: The Crossroads of Liberty and Commerce29) Sharon and Tom encountered many symbols of America’s past that they found painful, including Confederate flags, historical markers and tributes to Ku Klux Klan leaders.

Are any such symbols found in your community?

30) Sharon and Tom were impressed by the many instances they found of the intersection of “liberty and commerce.”

Does money prevail over morals?

Have you ever compromised your integrity in the pursuit of success?

31) Sharon wanted to visit “the scene of the crime” by sleeping in an antebellum home and touring a plantation – Tom did not.

Would you be interested in visiting such places or not?

32) Mrs. Feltus showed Tom and Sharon many artifacts that have been in her family for generations.

What is the most cherished possession you have that that has been passed down from previous generations?

What does this possession symbolize for you?

33) The tour guide at Longwood presented a view of Uncle Frederick as a cherished friend and savior of the Nutt family.

How do you perceive Uncle Frederick’s role in the Nutt family?

Is there a difference between being a “servant” or a “slave”?

Chapter 11: Truth Be Told34) Part of the “healing journey,” as taught in the STAR program, is finding healthy ways to resolve conflict.

Have you learned anything from Sharon’s and Tom’s experiences that will help you more successfully resolve conflicts in your life?

35) The painful history of the Tulsa Race Riot was buried for generations.

Do you know of any similar historical events that have been hidden in your community or state?

36) John Brown used violence in pursuit of his goals.

Can the use of violence be justified to help achieve equality and justice?

Why was non-violence a successful tactic during the civil rights movement?

Chapter 12: The Devil’s Half Acre37) Historians generally agree that American history is filled with paradox. One example is that the white Founding Founders spoke vehemently of freedom while brutally enslaving African people.

How do you resolve this paradox in your mind?

Now that you know more about Thomas Jefferson and other founders of the United States, how do you feel about them?

38) Interpretive centers have a difficult time attracting African Americans to portray slaves.

If you are black, is this a job you think you could do?

If you are white, how would you feel about witnessing such a portrayal?

39) Tee Turner spoke of how he allowed the Confederate statue in Richmond to keep him in bondage and spoke of enslaved people being reduced to a “slave mentality.”

How was Tee in bondage to the statue?

What is a “slave mentality”?

40) Part of Sharon’s and Tom’s healing journey was the recognition beforehand that it would be painful.

Is experiencing pain necessary for healing?

If so, why?

Chapter 13: Ripples on a Pond41) Tom and Sharon contend that “inequity and mistrust along racial lines are systemic throughout American society.”

Can you cite examples in your own life and community in which this is true?

42) “History teaches that every few generations society experiences upheaval.”

Can you point to any examples today that prove this statement to be true?

Do you believe society in general is on the verge of a paradigm shift to a new way of thinking?

43) Sharon and Tom claim that “today’s youth cannot escape the shadow of racism that has been passed down organically from parents and others who cling to a distorted image of American history.”

Do you agree or disagree?

Has America achieved a “post-racial” society?

44) Tom and Sharon claim “the real challenge is that the system is designed to protect the powerful and it feeds on isms—racism, classism, sexism—all methods to keep people divided and conquered.”

Do you agree or disagree?

Can you cite examples from recent media stories that support your opinion?

45) Gather at the Table has a goal of offering productive ways to discuss race using an approach that leads to understanding and healing for individuals and communities.

Do you think the model offered in Gather at the Table can be useful to you and/or others?

What have you learned from Gather at the Table that you will incorporate into your life?