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Sorry I have been missing but I had to get my grind on trying to find a place. And I finally found one in a nice neighborhood. A lil bit of drama with my Hasa worker and the broker. The broker went over the workers head and talked to her supervisor. The supervisor said she would approve it, so the paperwork will prolly get started Monday. I am assuming it will. And the shelter has extended my stay until the paperwork is complete. No worries at the moment and I can breathe again.

The weather has been nice, not really too hot with a little breeze. I have to go get my MRI done on Monday finally. I just hate being stuck with an IV, it wouldn't be bad if it was in my arm. But they always like putting them in my hand or wrist. That hurts like hell and I hate having the sensation of having pissed on myself.

I hope you all are doing well. I know it's gotten slow in here since the weather broke. But I remain faithful and look forward to hearing some good stuff. And maybe someone will post pics...*sighs* Once I get situated, I will try to go out and take some....TGIF ladies...

Netta here! just been lurking. Nothing new with me, still waitng for hubby to get served with paper because they could not serve him where he lived. The front desk would not give his room number.! aint that some shit? anyway they will serve him at work next week. He has a month to respond.Will I went to the gyn/oncology specialist Wed and took my 2 pap smear since my surgery. He said if I get 2 more negative paps I will be cancer free! yeah!!!! I did not have full blown cancer, just a spot that had to be removed. thank God and pray it hasn't come back !the good nes is I gained weight and didn't realize it till I got on the scale! I weight 140lbs!!!! thats great compared to my 127lbs recently!I hope everyone has a great weekend!TabooPrincess, nic to here from you, glad the baby is fineBetty- how are you ?Queen- any good news?

So good to hear from you two ladies. Queen, that is such great news, I let out a little "yeee" when I read what you posted. I am so damn happy for you, and it's about time.

Netta, I'm glad to hear from you also. I was hoping everything was alright. I sure hope they can get your soon-to-be-ex served soon, what a load of crap. And I hope the pap smear is negative (fingers and feet crossed).

I've thought about the knee thing long and hard, and as long as my boss guarantees me my job, I'll most likely get the knee replacement in a few months. My daughter, newest granddaughter, and baby daddy are supposed to be in the beginning to middle of June, and I'm not going to be laid up when they're here. I talked to my bff, and she assured me that she would be happy to help. I have a sister that lives a bit away, but not too much, and a couple more friends here that I think will help me until I'm all healed. I don't want to think about the pain, so I'm not going to. And I know when the bone doc sees my right knee, he's going to say it needs replaced also, but I'm not going to worry about that for awhile.

Also, I started on the Prednisone this morning. I'm taking my blood sugar more often, to make sure it doesn't spiral out of control. The Prednisone is helping with the pain, which makes me think even more that the pain in the lower leg is a result of an injury. Anyway, that's it for now. I hope you all have a good one, and please let us know what's going on, Queen and Netta. I'm thinking about you two.... (and they're good thoughts).

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Queen , you must have posted right before me! CONGRATS on your new place, finally! I am so H :-*appy for you. I dont know how to post pics anymore, do you? the app is no longer there. I do have a facebook page do you or BettY?

Sorry I have been away. My mother broke her leg a week after my wedding and only got home this past week. She is wheelchair bound for 6 months and then will need a full knee replacement.

On a much sadder note.....as if it could get any worse than Mom.....yep, Ice and I had to put Cheech down this morning. Ice found him out in the yard at 5am and he woudn't come back in. Ice had to go out and carry him in. Cheech was fine yesterday, but he was 16+ years old. He was so weak and tired, but we kept him calm and drove to the vet's before the sun came up.

Thanks, Betty. The past two days have been hell. I printed some pics of Cheech today and put one in a heart-shaped paperweight. I'll keep that at work with me. I am smiling a little bit and trying to be OK. I know that little dog did just what I asked of him -- he stayed until I found a good man. Cheech and Ice are the best!

Wow, I am so sorry to hear about Cheech, Cindy. But he had a good full happy life living with you. And he will still be with you....

I have been busy putting in the paperwork for the apartment. I went to the Hasa office but neither my worker or her supervisor was in. So someone else did the paperwork. They give money for furniture so I have to go out and look for some tomorrow to complete the paperwork.

I guess that it is about it with me....Oh, I almost forgot, the MRI turned out normal. So, I now know that my hearing loss is not due to anything neurological. Now I have to go to another appointment in May with Mt. Sinai hospital. I think they are going to do more tests but I have to have those done in order to get my hearing aids. I just hope I haven't loss anymore of my hearing. But for now, no worries.

Betty--- Yeah, they have good programs but they make you jump through hoops to get them. Hasa, the program that is covering my rent had me stressed out today. I turned in my paperwork yesterday but needed a furniture invoice. I went out today and got one but Hasa says it wasn't done right. I called back the furniture store to be told that is how they do their invoices. And to have my Hasa worker call them. Also to find out that the broker dated the lease wrong....grrrrr, you talking about having an attitude. I am about ready to pull my braids out. But at least the place is scheduled to be inspected next week so that tells me I will be approved if the place passes inspection. I have no doubt it will.

QUEEN, I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU, FINALLY! THE WEELS ARE TURNING. where did you get your apartment? want to know all the details, what colors are you decorating, what kind of furniture did you buy? i am so excited for you!

BETTY- Sending some love to you also!

Well not much going on with me. I got a call from my bankruptcy lawyer today,I had decided to stop paying for the cadillac, since it is not running, and I have wasted so much money on it. I told her this and she said they will dismiss the case and that they can't do anything else to me and the lienholders can pick up the car. FINE with me! nI told her I can't afford it, so she will argue my case in court. I hope they come get it, cause I have no title and it is just taking up space. I thank God I have my neon and it is paid for. I have been doing some art work and trying to get into a local drama group. I am saving money to go to a drama workshop in August in Atlanta with Keisha Smith, the actress that played in Why did I get married 1 and 2. She was the fiesty one lol. Anyway she has an acting school that travels and has 3 day workshops. it cost but, from what I learned cheaper than most . This issomething I have dreamed of !This worshop gurantees you a part of her anual actors productions for famous directors, like Tyler Perry! So I an saving my money to pay for the class. weather is crazy, hot and cold! take care everyone.

WTF? It looks like people have lost their avatars. At least I have. Ah well.

Queen, I know what you mean about jumping through hoops. It seems like people who work at government agencies should get more training or something about their jobs and how to do them. Anyway, I'm so happy that things are at least moving forward for you. Good luck with the furniture!

Netta, I don't blame you for giving up the Caddy, if it's nickel and diming you. That art program sounds really cool and definitely something worth trying. Good for you!

Well, not much going on. I saw my doctor, and he said he agrees that I should get a knee replacement. I don't want to do it until the end of June, though. My daughter, newest granddaughter, and babby daddy may be coming at the beginning of June. I don't want to be laid up while they're here. My doctor said to expect pain for at least 3 months. Whatever, I have pain now. Anyway, I guess that's it. I hope everyone's having a good day.

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"I saw my doctor, and he said he agrees that I should get a knee replacement. "

There's a guy in our building, learned, retired, who had a knee replacement in the last year. Knowing you've been skeptical of this operation, I was with in the elevator this past week and asked him how his knee is....his reponse was "My knee is great---perhaps better than it EVER was!!"

This guy's in medical research and he's a helluva lot older than you (not likely with the cumulative level of injuries you've sustained). So for him to be so upbeat and glad he did it, I thought I would pass his comments along.

Do you have someone you could rely on to help you or stay with early on post-surgery? Maybe someone with a ground-level place?

No, there's no one I can stay with. I have people who are offering to like come over and help me out. Hopefully I'll qualify for physical therapy at home. The doctor did say I may have to go somewhere for a little bit, but I know that means a nursing home, and I don't want that. There's a couple steps up to my apartment, but nothing like a huge climb. I don't know that I want to get that done until the tibial/plantar fasciitis is gone. I was reading it could take nine months. The thing is, the tibial fasciiitis is extremely painful, and I just don't want to have to deal with pain from both things at once. So, I may opt for Cortisone injections for the fasciitis until I get the knee done.

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Whew, it is like a ghost town in here. I am expecting to see some tumbleweeds roll by in a few... I called my Hasa worker today. She was finally in. After 20 minutes of trying to understand what she was saying, the inspection will be tomorrow at 10. I am so excited you just don't know. I think I am past cloud 9...*lol*

Betty-- Since you don't have anyone to help you out after the surgery, you should put everything you usually need and other things by your bed if that is where you're gonna be. At least the first few days after surgery. Then once you can get mobile, do the same for your the area around your fave chair or couch. Just a thought. Maybe keep a cooler full of ice with you drinks in it.

Netta--- Girl, I know nothing about decorating. I'm not into curtains, I'll probably just buy some blinds. For the livingroom, I want to get a comfy couch, reclining chair and maybe a futon. I also have to get a bed and dressers. I need everything since I am starting over. "Rome wasn't build in a day" and neither will my crib. I plan on growing roots, trust me.

Queen, that's such great news about the inspection! I'm so, so happy for you. I hope good things keep coming in for ya. That's good advice about keeping everything handy. This surgery won't happen until at least the end of June. I can tell ya, I'm not looking forward to it, and still struggle with the decision. It's just such a major thing, to get a new knee, that it kinda scares me. Hopefully I can get over that.

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Thanks for the well wishes concerning Cheech. Man! I miss him to the end of the Earth! I have had the worst 11 days of my life with that little guy gone. My neck has been killing me from the stress and it just doesn't want to hold my head up. Ugh! Ice has been super supportive and he has started talking about getting a puppy at some point. Perhaps in the Fall, I say, after our honeymoon. We are both big dog lovers and want a Shepherd of some sort. I still need to breathe and honor Cheech. He was a lot of work, that doggie, but well worth it! I picked up his ashes and paw print from the vet last Saturday, and they are on the fireplace mantle. *sigh* It has been rough, GFs, but I know I'll be OK. Cheech was such a loyal companion. Now Ice gets to be spoiled by me, lol.

Queen, congrats on getting the apt plans rolling! Finally! Betty, I'll let you know how my mother does--she is supposed to get a knee replacement later this year. Netta, thanks for saying hello. All of you really make my day when I stop by here. It really means a lot.

Not really much to say. The apartment did pass inspection so hopefully the landlord will get the check next week my worker said. Either her or the landlord will call me to let me know. I am happy of course...

I am once again pissed off with my brother. He must be in some type of mood because his gf called my sister, ready to break up with him. Now this woman has been by his side throughout all his medical problems. And he wants to act like an ass. And has the nerve to tell her that he could live with one of his sisters.....Saaaaaaaay Whaaaaaaaaat? Not this sister!!!!! I have plenty of reasons why he could never live with me. She's the best thing in his life, trust me, all my brother use to deal with was hoodrats with a few good ones here and there. Anyhow, I am pissed with him because all the time while my son is doing his time, he never wrote him one letter. Even after I told him that my son wanted him to write. Now all of a sudden I get an IM from my brother wanting to know when my son is getting out.....WTF? My brother acts like he never spent a day in prison when that's where had been a good chunk of his life. And when he was locked down, me and my oldest sister were the ones he would write to. Or run our long distance up on jailhouse calls. Hell, that fool still owes me 40 bucks from back when I was in high school, ok. That's my dysfunctional family for ya.

Cindy--- Yeah, I am glad things are starting to come back together for me too. Being homeless is quite a frustrating ordeal.

I was going to write a little more but my page has started doing the jumping thing. Have a good one ladies.

Cin, it's good to hear from you. I'm sure there are going to be rough days, some more than others. You know we're here, anytime. Hang in there.

Queen, sorry your brother is being such a jackass. But I am sooo glad the apartment passed inspection! That's great, and I know you can't wait to move. Did you look at any furniture yet?

Not much going on with me. The fasciitis is hurting like a mother, and can take up to nine months to heal. Now, why would I want to get a knee replacement when I have something else wrong that needs to heal first? Anyway, I go see the bone doc again next Tuesday, and I'm going to see if he will give me a shot of Cortisone to help the fasciitis. My doctor said that would be alright. Ok all, take care!

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I just got my labs back today. My blood sugars were running high last summer and fall, and I got them to come back down in Jan, even after holiday pigging out. Now I get my A1C level and its up to 8.3 from 7.3 in January! (s/b under 7.0) WTF? Too many truffles, not enough insulin, lol.

On a better note, my counts are doing great! My CD4 is up to 748 from 630!! WHERE did that come from? Woo-hoo!!!!!! I haven't had a count that high in forever! Still undetectable and my percentage is up to 44%! I am psyched, and.....

Hey Gfs sorry I have been gone for so long. Lots of work and staying very busy.

Cindy, sorry about Cheech hang in there.

Queen, glad to hear the apartment is going to finally happen.

BT I hope things get better. I had plantar fasities in both feet, it took about a year to heal. So I understand the pain you are going through. And on top of that a knee replacement, my heart goes out to you.

Things are still going well with my new boyfriend he is such a great guy. Thanks Cindy for telling me to get back out there and try again. Who Hoo!!

Cin, the main reason I haven't gotten my labs done is because of the A1C. I know it's going to be high. I didn't do well with my sugars either over the holidays. Including Easter. The day after Easter, when all the candy went on sale, I went out and bought a lot. I still have some left. I totally understand about still wanting to eat chocolate. I don't know if I'll ever stop that. I saw a diabetic dietician a couple years ago, and she said she doesn't keep chocolate in her house anymore (she was diabetic also). I asked her why and she told me it's because she had a heart attack. Of course, that hasn't stopped me from eating it.

Missy, good to hear from you! Yeah, I'd heard of plantar fasciitis, but what I have is tibial fasciitis. Similar, though, I know. I don't know if I'm going to have a knee replacement until this heals. I don't want to have to deal with both kinds of pain at the same time, and, as you know, the fasciitis can be quite painful. That's great to hear you're still going strong with your fella!

I've been having insomnia the past week. Today I woke up at 3:30, and wasn't able to get back to sleep. Yesterday was my inspection with section 8 (funny Queen, ours were at the same time). I don't know how much my rent is going up yet. Other than that, just work going on today. My grandson's birthday is tomorrow, he's going to be 6. I got him some water toys. I think that's it. You all have a good one.

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Ugh, you don't want to talk about bloodwork and doctors. I need to get into a network somewhere. But I am waiting to get settled in my place first. I have been feeling fine though I have been trying to keep up with things on my own. When something does pop up, I usually buy something otc that usually helps. I guess kinda patching myself up til I can see a doctor. I haven't taken insulin in about 2 months. I have been drinking a lot of juices, green tea, and water. And eating a lot of salads. I usually eat light when it gets hot out.

I am going to pick out furniture next week after I know the landlord has gotten the check. For now I have been window shopping. My mind even crossed over to getting another cat after awhile. I need a pet to keep me company. But I still miss Lucifer. I know he is doing fine, I get updates from time to time. So, I was thinking maybe a little dog. I really want an iguana but they are banned here. And me with fish, poor fish doesn't stand a chance. I usually over feed them.....

Queen, will your case manager there help you get into a good doctor network? I'm sure you still miss Lucifer. That's nice that you're able to get updates. Pets are such good companions. I love my cat. She looks in my eyes when I talk to her, and most of the time meows back. Anyway, please take care of yourself while you're not able to see a doctor on a regular basis. And good luck window shopping for furniture. That's exciting!

Not much going on except I have a bad cold. Just taking extra C for it. Yesterday was my grandson's birthday, and I went to this little get together for him. There's a lady who came who used to be my sponsor in NA (Narcotics Anonymous). Now she's drinking again. She was drunk (or at least feeling pretty good) yesterday at the get together. She acted very silly, and her breath smelled like booze. Her health is starting to go downhill, and I wish she would quit the drinking. She got a DUI a few weeks back, and had to spend some time in jail. If she didn't drink heavy, or every day, I wouldn't worry about it. But, she does, and it's starting to show. She's lost a bunch of weight, she has sores on her lips, and she chain smokes (which I used to do when I was drunk). And she mentioned she has a spot on one of her lungs. I still like her, I just wish she would take care of herself. Ok, you all have a good one.

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Betty--- Yeah, my case manager could do that but when they do it's usually for doctors in Manhattan. I am not going to be in Manhattan so I am trying to find something closer to me. But I can't do none of that til I get settled in my place. Not to worry, I am feeling fine. Next week I have to go to Mt. Sinai to get the testing done for my hearing.

In the meantime, I am getting anxious waiting on the checks to be cut for the apartment and furniture. I am also anxious because my son will be getting out in another 2 weeks. I hope all you mothers out there have a nice Mother's Day.

Queen, ah, I didn't realize you would be moving to a different part of the city. Too bad she can't find doctors for you where you're going. I hope you're able to get hooked up pretty fast when you get into your new place. I hope your son'll be alright when he gets out.

Yes, happy mother's day to all the moms. My two sisters gave me cards, and one of them got me a hanging flower plant for the outside. Today it's only 44F degrees, and it's supposed to get below freezing tonight, so I'm not going to put it out right away. I talked to my daughter and she didn't tell me happy mother's day. Oh well. She's got some stuff on her mind, and I'm worried she's going to act like a fool within the next few months, and make a huge mistake. I know I can't make my child do anything she doesn't want to do, but damn. I wish I could, just a few times.

I went to watch my oldest granddaughter play softball today. She's the catcher always, for the first 1/2 of the games, and today she also got a hit. She's a bit hard on herself, though. But anyway, her team won, so yay! It was so cold, though, my ass was frozen by the time we left. I guess that's it for now. You all have a good one.

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" I talked to my daughter and she didn't tell me happy mother's day. Oh well. She's got some stuff on her mind, and I'm worried she's going to act like a fool within the next few months, and make a huge mistake. I know I can't make my child do anything she doesn't want to do, but damn. I wish I could, just a few times."

I definitely know how you feel. I have that same fear with my son getting out soon. He will be in a halfway house for awhile. He will have to look for a job where there aren't any. My bff has been keeping me updated on things back home. I just hope he doesn't get back into the streets. I have written him so many letters, trying to convince him to do the right thing when he gets home. I just hope he listens to me, not much else I can do but be there for him the best way I can.

Yeah Queen, that's really all we can do is be there for our kids. My daughter did end up calling today to say happy mother's day, which totally shocked me. She usually doesn't do things like that. Anyway, I mostly laid around today. I'm not feeling well, and am a bit bummed about a few things. I hope everyone had a good mother's day.

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Hi Gfs, Happy Mothers Day to all!I had a wonderful weekend. I spent yesterday with my honey, it was awesome. Today we went to breakfast with my son and his friend. It was so nice, I felt so special and loved. My son gave me a beautiful plant, wow!

Talked to my sister today too and wished her a Happy Mothers Day. I know she misses her baby as she is away at college. Will check back later. Take care all and have a great week everyone.

Ice and I have the kids 5/7 - 5/16. So far so good. We'll see if the older one really did all of her homework once her grades post online. She and I have been talking more, so that's good. The little one is getting a smart mouth from time to time, but I'll let it go until the time is right.

I am missing Cheech like you wouldn't believe. I feel like he's with me all of the time, so its comforting, but the house is so still without him here. I saw two license plates on the way home today with dog stuff on them "LUVLABS" anf "GLDRET." Like a message from the Gods for me to get more dogs. Ice and I want German Sheps, prob two, but not until the fall. I think about getting new dogs and then I just think that all I want is to have Cheech back. He and I had a lot of really good times, and the memories keep me going.

I got online at PetLoss.com on Monday night, in their chat room. At 10pm on Mondays they have a candlelight vigil. The room moderator asks everyone to stop posting and he puts prayers and nice verses up. I lit a candle for Cheech and had a good cry. I needed it, but he was such a GOOD, LOYAL dog -- I couldn't have asked for more from him.

I need to take care of myself now. There are 35 people at my office and 8 of us are starting the Biggest Loser on Monday. We get to weigh in and try to eat right, see who is sneaking chocolates (me!), and build morale while we try to lose weight. The winner gets $350 dollars. It goes until early August. OMG what am I going to do? LOL I hope this motivates me to workout. I'll keep you posted!

WOW I signed in and my avatar was gone!!! So I put up a new one till I figure out how to get my pic on. I have been well, just taking a little break from posting so much and seems like a graveyard here, It was depressing me,but now I'm back and glad MOON is back, Betty and Qeen you all are holding things down I see,Thank You! and MISSY, good to have you back! i see we have some new comers!I hope everyone had a great Mothers' Day. I went to church and out to eat with my dd and the girls, we ate mexican cause it was cheap. Lol I am saving all my money to go to a theater workshop in August in Atlanta, run by Tasha Smith, the diva from the movie ,WHY DID I GET MARRIED 1 AND 2!Bettty- I hope you feel better and get the shots you need.I have planters on both feet, and I don't know what they are but the doc says not to walk barefoot. ?? I have neuropathy also that acts up now and then. I feel for you Betty.Queen- excited for you!!! Congrats!!!Everyone be blessed!!!

Cin, I'm sure you're going to miss Cheech for a very long time. That Petloss site sounds great. I'm glad you have something like that.

Netta, I was wondering how you're doing. I have neuropathy also, pretty bad. A few years ago, the doctor took this long pin-like thing and poked my feet with it, and told me to tell him when I felt it. I couldn't feel most of it. But, once in awhile, I get sharp, shooting pains in my feet/toes. I take Neurontin for the neuropathy, which helps a lot. I've been on it for years. A lot of people can't take it, because it makes them tired or whatever, but I've been on it so long, it doesn't bother me. Glad you had a good mother's day.

Not much going on. Today is my Friday, so I'm glad about that. But we've been getting so much rain here, I'm sick of it. Every day for the past week it's been raining, maybe longer. I don't know if it's ever going to stop (lol). This is supposed to be an El Nino year, which means it should be warm and dry. Instead, it's been cold and rainy. Ah well, maybe that means we're going to have a nice summer. Alright everyone, take care.

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Not much going on. I am still waiting to hear back from my Hasa worker. The checks for the landlord was suppose to be done today. I left her and her supervisor messages and haven't heard back yet. Even the housing director at the shelter called. Nothing.

Another uneventful things was the appointment at the ENT. I get there to find out that they had rescheduled it because they only had one doctor working there. But it was also my fault because I forgot they had my old cell number. So, I have to go back next month.

I've been absentee for a while. Going through some medical stuff but mostly taking care of my fiance's grandmother (93 years old). She had a falll and for months we have been traveling back and forth. I have been reading up on all the forum news over the last month. I can't believe everything from Queen living in the shelter (I was praying for your safety), Netta getting a divorce for that creep, Cindy's beloved cheech passing and amazing wedding and Betty's job issues and words of wisdom.

Ohl yeah, i'm getting married at the end of July. It's my first love from high school/ college and broke my heart lol. He's now a mature and amazing guy. I wrote about him in the fall.

I haven't seen anything about MUM lately. Any word on how she's doing?

HI Camille, good to hear from you, congrats on your engagement!Mums is around but not on this forum, you can find her on others, I don't know why she stop postiour ng here.I wish you well and we miss you! Nothing much going on with me. had a nice weekend. My ASO ,Sisterhood had a health fair and hiv testin this past Saturday. I am trying hard to get testing certified here in Macon,Ga.Hope all is well.

Well, let me say this before I forget. Mum is going through some medical issues with Mini. She has pmed me a few times updating me on things. She does come on she just hasn't been posting. Please keep her and Mini in your prayers. I don't want to post what is going on, I'll leave that up to her to do if she can find the time. If not, I am sure she will explain everything when she gets back.

It's official, I got my apartment. I will move in tomorrow. I found out this morning when I woke up. Then the landlord kept texting me asking me about the checks, if he could pick them up. So, I had to call my Hasa worker and official find out what was going on. Basically, congrats, the check is in the mail, you can move in!!!!!! I am officially out of the shelter as well, spending the night at a friend's tonight. Just to relax and rest up til tomorrow then it is off furniture shopping. Ah, you just don't know how excited I am.

Hey Camille, ltns. And getting married!!!! My a lot has happened with you and your crush. I remember you talking about him. Congrats, of course and am glad you are happy. It's seems we all ended up with good ending though which is good. And I am sure, Netta will have her "groove" back in no time. *lol*.. Just had to throw that in there to make Netta laugh.... Yeah, sometimes the ladies thread has it's dry spells but a handful of us still try to keep it going.

I know I don't post much but I follow this thread all the time. I just have to say, CONGRATS Queen!!! Hip hip hooray! I'm very happy for you. What a relief it must be. Have fun shopping for your furniture.

I have wondered about Mum and Mini too. Poor Mini, having to go through so much and so young.

Congrats to you too Camms! Is it going to be a big, small wedding?

Netta, that would be great if you could certified to test. What a great skill to have!

Not a whole lot going on with me. I saw some family a few weeks ago. It's always a little stressful going on a trip with all the planning and it never goes as smooth when I have to look after other people. The day I was planning to come home, my step-mother left my father and brother and went home. Mind you it is about 7 plus hours away! So, not only did I have to take my grandmother home but I had to deal with getting both of them home! Family, good times, eh! Other than that, the visit as nice. I got to see all my brothers in one place and my 1 year old neice. She is the cutest thing!

Business is still pretty slow but I knew it would take a while to get off the ground. I will have a booth at an event at the end of the month, so hopefully I will get more business. It's just frustrating sometimes. Hope everyone has a good day.

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Queen, I know there was a reason I logged in this morning! That's totally awesome news. Wow, congrats and all that! Have fun furniture shopping. Yipeeee!

Camms, good to hear from you, and congrats on the upcoming wedding. Now, visit us more often!

Holly, sorry things were such a bummer with your family. Unfortunately, we can't pick our famlies. I hope things get better.

Nothing to report here. Same shit, different day. Oh wait, there is something. I got a Cortisone shot in my right knee yesterday. So far, it's doing pretty well. I hope it helps, so I can put off surgery. I told the doc that I planned on returning to school in the fall, and he wasn't 100% convinced that I would be fully healed in time to do that. I told him I can't put off school another year. He said as long as the Cortisone works, I can put off the surgery as long as possible. He also said next time I'm there, he will have a look at my right knee, since it's fucked as well, and maybe start Cortisone with it also. Have a good one all!

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Queen, I'm so glad for you. That has got to be one of the best feelings in the world. You waited for a while. I'm glad you stuck it out in NY. It's a great city, with awesome transportation. You definitely needed a change. Can you take pics? What part of the city is it in?

Betty- What kind of surgery would they be doing if it came down to surgery? Meaning orthoscopic? I'm glad the cortisone is giving you relief. My doctor says that might be my next option.

Holly- sorry to hear about the drama rama. What kind of business do you have?

I've been so busy with Grammy in the last two months. We were spending two months at her adult living home after she got out of rehab. I 've been trying to start my graphic design business with my fiance but that was put on hold. Between that I 've been getting a gazillion tests for what turned out to be two herniated discs (in the upper back). My arms and legs became extremely tired. I didn't lose strength it was like my legs felt tired after walking up a flight of stairs. When I woke up it felt like my arms got run over by a truck. It was scary. It started triggering panic attacks.

Finally, I started physical therapy. What a NIGHTMare! It's $50 a pop first off. Second the waiting room was about the size of 3 of my bathrooms. The fronkdesk's daughter comes in and they get in a huge argument about where she was gonna drive with her new license. Finally I get called in and the PT room is about the size of 10 of my bathrooms with 5 people occupying the space. There was one women taking care of all of these folks. Then Stevie Nicks came on the radio and the physical therapist jumped in on "stand back". It was too much. Back to finding a new pt in my network.

Today is clean up day at the new apartment. I really couldn't do it because of the weather. So, that is my plan for today. Gonna take my ipod, throw the headsets on and just clean my ass off. It feels good being out of the shelter, no doubt but I am still on shelter time. I am still jumping up ready to run out the door thinking I am going to be late.

Camms- Yeah, the change is good despite what I have just been through. I like the transportation too. The subways can take you everywhere and at times provides entertainment along the way. I also like the diversity here. The PT sounds like it was a nightmare.

Camms, the doctor wants to do a total knee replacement. I don't look forward to that. Anyway, I hope you're able to get your PT worked out. The one you went to sounds horrible. And I hope your back gets some relief. A sore back is no fun.

Queen, I know you're going to have that apartment looking spiffy in no time. I'm so happy for you.

My daughter called me yesterday to tell me she and the baby's father (my newest granddaughter whom I haven't seen in person yet) are breaking up. She also told me he took the baby, and that his mother will probably hire a lawyer. She said that where she lives is a "mom" state, but of course the guy has dirt on her (what happened with the two grandkids here), and could really make her look bad. I hope something can be worked out. They were supposed to make a trip here next month, but now I don't know if that's going to happen. For sure I know the baby's father isn't coming. Whether or not I'll be able to meet my newest granddaughter is unknown right now. My daughter was in tears, saying how she wanted the baby to have a good life etc. I told her there are kids that don't live with both parents that do fine. I feel extremely helpless, and wish I had thousands of dollars to get her a good lawyer. The baby's father's mother has money, which is how they would afford a lawyer. I hope cool heads can prevail, but know how custody things can go. It breaks my heart, and of course I'm speculating about every bad thing that can happen. Please keep my daughter and newest grandbaby in your thoughts, and if you pray, in your prayers.

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Damn Betty, I know exactly how you and your daughter feels. I have been in your daughter's shoes as far as the custody thing goes. But your daughter should still be able to get some type of legal representation through legal aid. Or does she feel the baby can have a better life with the father? And if she was to decide that she should still be able to have visitation rights. It is indeed a fucked up situation for sure.

And at the moment, I am feeling what you are cause my friend is going through the same thing with his daughter. But that is his business so I am not going to air that here. I just know that it is hurting him so bad. I try to say things to encourage him and keep him from being depressed.

Yeah, I went to the apartment yesterday and gave it a thorough cleaning. There is some furniture still there from the last tenant that I am waiting for it to get moved. I am still waiting to hear from the furniture store so I can get my bed in there atleast. Until then I will go shopping for appliances. I am trying to figure out some place I can go to get lights or something to alert me when someone is at the door. The doorbell works but I can't hear it. For now, folks have to text me to let me know they are at the door. If anyone knows, please jump in and let me know.

Hey Queen, I'm so glad that things are finally going in the right direction for you! I know I haven't said much over the months, but I have been reading and pulling for you. You've been very much in my thoughts.

I don't know about in NYC, but here they have organisations such as "Help the Aged". They will supply people with hearing issues with low-cost quality of life items, such as the light connected to your doorbell - and they can do ones for phones as well, but I think that's only landlines, not mobiles. You can also get gizmos for smoke alarms.

Even though the organisation is called Help the Aged, you don't have to be elderly to access their services when it comes to being hearing impaired. I know about this particular outfit because my daughter's elderly grandmother has the lights you speak of for her door.

Your case worker may be able to point you in the right direction. Looking in the Yellow Pages might yield some results and so may Google. I did a search for you, concentrating on NYC, and came up with this charity:

and this other site - I think they're more retail than charity, but you may find you can afford them. I'm not sure. The charity one would be sure to know if there are assistance programs to help people without a lot of money afford the products they offer.

Betty, that's heartbreaking about your daughter and granddaughter. I hope things turn out well for all concerned - you included. I really hope they can still come to visit - I know how much you've been looking forward to that.

"...health will finally be seen not as a blessing to be wished for, but as a human right to be fought for." Kofi Annan

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HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

Queen, I really hope that you can find what you need in one of the links Ann provided. I remember watching Home Makeover and they were building a home for a deaf couple. The fire alarms not only rang out but they flashed and I think they even put some sort of device on their mattress to shake them awake. Something like that, but I thought it was pretty cool. Good luck with the shopping.

Betty, I'm so sorry that you are having to go through all this. I don't know your situation but I do know what it is like to feel helpless and the only thing you can do sometimes, is watch it happen. Shitty situation but I hope something works out.

Camms, ya, I would be running for the hills too with a pt like that, lol. I hope you find a good replacement and start feeling better. Maybe some time soon, you can start your business again? As for my business, I sell eartht friendly products from home. I also have a website. You wouldn't believe what we are exposed to everyday, just through personal care products. It has been one disturbing discovery after another. I could go on and on, but I do feel good that I am learning the truth and offering truely good products. Have a good one ladies.

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Ann---Yeah, you have been quiet but I know you were going through your own issues. Thanks for the links, I will bookmark them and check them out later. Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts. It's amazing how many people were rooting for me in my blog. I had a reader email Poz asking about me. I was totally blown away.

I also need to thank the rest of you ladies for being there for me. Your support is part of what got me through believe me. Those were some hard and depressing 7 months. But it did show me just how strong I really am. And it has once again made me appreciate the simple things life has to offer especially living in a fast paced city like NY. So......(group hugs and smooches)....

Later on today, I will be out shopping for appliances and going to get my bed. I hope I don't have to wait til next week to get it. I have to wait atleast 10 days on cable. Time Warner has to send a technician out because they don't have a second floor for my address. Something sounds suspect there, like one of my neighbors might have an illegal hookup. And I still have to call Verizon for my internet.I was trying to make a trip back home on June 1st but with how things are going, I am going to have to postpone it.

Holly sounds interesting. I'm not a tree hugger, but I'm eco conscious ( recycling) and try to buy healthy products. I clean with Mrs. Meyers (tilex if its really bad )I try to eat organic when the prices aren't to outrageous. I lived in a house that had a lot of mold which really was awful for my allergies so I bought a hepa filters. Do you ever listen to Dr. Weil?

Betty- Sorry to hear you have so much going on. I don't know the whole situation but I'll be praying for you and your daughter. My dad had a hip replaced and it changed the quality of his life. I know it's not something to look forward to but think of the end result.

Queen- It's nice to hear the new apartment jazz. Are you officially in now? Do you have someone to help remove the old stuff?

Well, spent the day with Grammy showing her pictures on the pc of our vacation, my first vacation in 25 years lol. She's so cute. She doesn't understand how a little square that comes out of the camera can hold images...and then be able to watch them on the computer. Tonight I have dinner with my future fatherinlaw and his wife at a swanky restaurant. It will be nice to get out for a little while.

Queen, the situation with my daughter is complicated. There are things going against her and against the baby's father, so I told her to really try to work out something outside of court with him. But he has a bad temper, which doesn't help things. I guess a couple nights ago, they got into it. My daughter was holding the baby, and he was telling one of their friends to take the baby so he could "drop the bitch." That, of course, makes me want to really kick the shit out of him, so he knows how it feels. He didn't hit her, but it scared her. Anyway, how's the furniture shopping going? Are you officially "in"? I think that's so exciting. And of course we're pulling for you, and have been. I've said many a prayer for you, girl, was worried for awhile, and so relieved with the news of you getting your own place. I know it's bigger news for you, but we can all share in your happiness.

Ann, thanks for the good thoughts.

Holly, I hate not being able to do anything, and living 1/2 way across the country. Totally sucks.

Camms, good luck with the dinner, and have fun. I suppose the knee replacement would help, but the doctor can't guarantee I would totally recover by the time school starts. So, if the Cortisone works for awhile, I think that's the way I'm going to go.

Well, I already posted a bit about my daughter's situation. She got a couple tatts, one on each arm; one of them says "lost," the other one "found." She said she feels somewhere in between. All I can do is to be an ear, and be supportive. I wish she was here. I just have this feeling that the trip isn't going to happen, or if it does, the baby won't be with her. I feel kind of sad right now, so I guess that's it. Damn it.

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