i close my eyesit's after me i'm looking aroundfor a place to hidei know there are manybut there's only onesomething's after methey're around the bendit's at the doori'm hiding hereit knows i ami stand and face itbut i hide behind the doorcan not move of free willnever making decisionsbut it's my choiceit's chasing meas i'm standing stilli'm alive but i'm deadi cannot movebut i'm flyingit's caught mebut i'm still runningit jumps and ...i awake with a startshaking and screaming........

maybe this means somethingbut for now i'll just cry and try and sleep again

The Trial(The
Big Lotto)

winning is survivinglosing is dying

i don't know how it's playedbut i pass people in the
streettalking to them about things - i don't know what
aboutwatching white picket fences
go byi forget how long this goes
onbut in the endwhere it's big and blackthere're dark figures around
mesaying somethingsomeone makes the verdicti'm either in or outi've never understood this

maybe it's the reasoni'm so insane today

Kiddy
Feelings

running and runningfrom fears and miserythe beast that chases youin your dreamsand at nightthe beast is after youit's right behind youdon't look or it will get
youswallow your breathyou find you can't see when you're looking at deathwho offers you a hand ?you realizeit's your mother'sand you look up and see her
eyesreassuring you you're okaythen she takes you by the
neckand you realizeit's your demise in disguiseyou speak with no soundand move without movingrunning away without movingnever getting anywherefreeze and watch time pass
byand then awaken to the sound
of birds and happy sounds