I have never cried while reading a book as much as I did for ACOWAR - and that’s saying something considering how emotional I can be when it comes to books. It seemed like every chapter I was holding back tears and by the time I made it to the end of the book I felt like a husk of the person I had once been. This book drained me, emotionally, mentally, even physically with its moving scenes and finality and I felt to truly do justice to the impact of ACOWAR, rather than favorite moments (of which there are many), I needed to give credit to the scenes that left me inconsolable at three in the morning. And while this post could be more accurately titled the “82 times I cried while reading this book”, I spared myself and you from that emotional trauma and narrowed it - really, I did - to the moments I physically, tears on my cheeks, sobbing, cried, while reading ACOWAR.

So grab some tissues, some tea and a pillow, because here are the 20 reasons I cried while reading A Court of Wings and Ruin by Sarah J Maas.

How would muds deal with an s/o who knows that genuine affection flusters the hell out him so they show him lots of affection..i this has been in my mind for a good minute and I think you're the perfect one to write it 💚

(Awe thank you<3 you’re
so sweet!)

~ Most things that made
normal people blush almost no effect on Murdoc once so ever. He was fine talking
about anything. But the one thing that flustered this man to no end was when
you showed him genuine affection. He was always so surprised and his green face
grew warm. He’d make up some excuse that the thermostat must be broken but you
knew it was all bullshit. You always smirked when Murdoc was acting up because
you knew exactly what to do.

~ Murdoc was screaming at
2D about something when you woke up. You rubbed your eyes and walked towards
the noise. You walked in on Murdoc punching the wall inside of 2D, you were
happy he had stopped hurting the poor blue boy so much but he always ended up
hurting himself. “Muddz, you need to stop with that.” You took his hand in
yours and planted gentle kisses on his knuckles. “I don’t want you to hurt
yourself.” You gave him a small smile and saw the pink patches form on his
cheeks. 2D started snickering, “Muddz, ar ya blushin’?” Murdoc immediately
glared at him and growled. You pulled his face closer to yours and kissed his
nose softly, “It’s okay. I think it’s cute.” The pink color in his cheeks grew.
“Keep it goin’ y/n!” 2D laughed. You giggled and held Murdoc’s hand. “No, I don’t
want to embarrass him. He’s too sweet for that.”

~ You looked up at Murdoc’s
face and heard 2D gag. Murdoc looked around the room trying to play it cool. “Murdoc,
your face is bright red.” You giggled. He laughed nervously and scooted away to
the other room. “Ya shoul’ do dat mor’ often. I ain’t laughed dat hard in a
long time!” 2D continued laughing and you walked into the other room with
Murdoc. “Gotcha.” You smirked and crossed your arms in front of him. Murdoc
knew he was wrapped around your finger, but in the back of his mind, he knew he
didn’t mind.

I once lived in a place where the opinion of others mattered. It suffocated me, nearly broke me. So you’ll understand me, Feyre, when I say I know what you feel, and I know what they tried to do to you, and that with enough with enough courage, you can say to hell with a reputation. You do what you love, what you need.

- Rhys wrote a freaking LOVE LETTER to the mortal queens putting his heart on his sleeve

- “The smile the world would likely never see, the smile he’d given up for the sake of his people, his lands. He said softly, ‘I am… very glad I met you, Feyre.’ ” THiS tHiS THIS (pg 440)

- sweet little Elain wishing the mortal queens a fiery death

- speaking of mortal queens,,, the golden haired queen!!¡ we didnt even get to know her name,,

- Feyre’s slow but steady healing of mental and emotional abuse, severe trauma, and negelect… like i know we all talk about this but damn she needs another mention. Feyre you slay i love and support you hun

- Az is a fricken scary as heck shadow weaver who delights in the torture of his ememies not to mention the brutality he inflicted upon the Attor for attemptimg Feyres kidnapping,,, but hes a soft cinnamon bun ya feel

- MOR!! MOR IS UNDER APPRECIATED!!!! SHE HAS TO FACE HER ABUSIVE EXCUSE OF A FAMILY COUNTLESS TIMES NOT TO MENTION THE ABSOLUTE TRAUMA AFTER HER FIRST BLEEDING. EVEN THE MORTAL DECENDANTS OF HER ONCE FRIENDS FROM THE WAR TURNED OUT TO BE SELFISH VAIN QUEENS WHO KNOW SHIT ABOUT WHATS BEST. MOR YOU ARE STRONG AND MY SPIRIT ANIMAL HOLY MOLY

- Alis. Alis still cared greatly for Feyre and knew what was best. She knew how Feyre felt before Feyre even knew

- “Please- please take care of her.” Alis.

- feyre captures significant memories as inspiration for her paintings and names them in her mind

- nesta nearly got raped. she nearly got sexually abused yet she still holds her head high and defends her family and people

2D with a s/o who gets scared super easy and is terrified of scary movies, and maybe pretends to like them to make him happy? thanks, hun. love your writing!!😊💗

(Thank you, sweetie!)

~ 2D absolutely loved
horror movies. It was to the point you were questioning which he loved more,
you or the movies. Probably the movies. You always agreed to watch them
with him because you knew it would make his day. You tried to act all brave but
just about everything scared you in those movies. You’d hid your face in your
hands or in the blanket that was draped over the two of you. 2D would ask if
you were okay but you played it off and acted like you were find. You felt bad
that you got so scared because he loved watching horror movies with you. You
never told him how much they scared you but he suspected it when you started
crying during one of the movies.

~ “Ar’ ya alrigh’?” 2D
paused the movie and looked over at you. You quickly wiped your tears away and
said, “Yeah! Totally! Just… some allergies?” You avoided eye contact. 2D placed
his hand on your knee, “Ar’ ya scared of da film?” You looked up and shook your
head. “No! Let’s finish the movie.” 2D sighed and pressed play. You tensed up
when you saw the zombies start to eat the people again. You squeezed your eyes
shut and whined. 2D shut the TV off and you looked up at him. “It’s okay if ya
scared, we don’ have ta watch dese anymor’.” You stood up and yelled, “No! I’ll
watch them! I know how much you love them and I’m willing to sit here and watch
them with you. I’m okay to keep going.” 2D stood up too, “No, ya scared. I won’
force ya ta do anyfing like dis. I do love da movies bu’ I love ya mor’. I don’
wan’ ya ta be so scared ya cry.” He pulled you into a hug. “Le’s watch a movie
ya like.” He went over to the TV stand and looked for one of your movies. “Thank
you.” You kissed his hand and snuggled up next to him on the couch.

Role reversal AU with Rhys as the human, who taught himself how to hunt and fight to feed himself and his brothers Cassian and Az. Feyre is high lady of night , her sisters are Second and third in command. She had to sacrifice her freedom to Tamlin under the mountain to Save her court and discovers rhys in the spring court , in love with its high lady Amarantha!