Why are you listening to me?

I'm not a collector, in a traditional sense. I've recently been more
sensitive to this fact since I've moved into my new house and I
realized I don't have enough things to fill the space. In the past I've
had to live a minimal lifestyle taking with me only the things that I
need. If I didn't use it within the last six months then it would get
tossed. Also, I've found that when I visit peoples houses they have
all these collections of things like comics, magazines, art, CD's,
movies...you get the picture. I started thinking about my behavior
with things and what that says about me. I think it means that I need
to dive deeper, and start a collection of something that will help me
study a subject and really get to know it – like when you collect
memories, and experience you supposedly become more wise.

Side note of honesty: I collect things that might someday bring
her back to me. I'm not a stocker by any sense, although I feel a
little bit guilty for stocking the belongings of another. I think this
is why i've never wanted to collect anything. Is it weird that I can't
get rid of the photos from x's or small objects that they leave behind?
Why do I feel the need to keep them? Is there power in an object? Is
there power in objects coming together all at once? Am I totally
insane? Yes.

I'm starting a grandiose Yacht Rock record
collection. My first purchase is kenny Loggins "Alive" (see photo at
the top) which I purchased from Amoeba records in san francisco on New
Years Eve. At the moment the collection is only two records deep and I don't
even have a turn table. But, somehow this collection of records is
bringing me power in love, or am I totally making superstitious
correlations to totally uncontrollable factors?

So the questions
stands – Is there power in an object? Is there power in objects coming
together all at once. What will happen when this record collection
grows. Will this be some sort of of unstoppable black hole of love
that opens up from the center of this collection and sucks me in never
to be found? There must be a bit of someones soul in everything they
touch, right? Then if I collect this object does this bring me closer
to understanding them, sharing something with them or bringing them
closer to my life? Channeling energy and all that kind of stuff. Or,
maybe its like the old saying says, Speak of the devil and the devil
may come. Maybe all of this Yacht Rocking has resurrected something I
can't control?

All I know is that something is working. She walked
right into my life, out of the blue. Two weeks ago today she walking
into where I work then looked and me and said “I've been waiting to
come into this store my whole life.” What the fuck!? Who says that?
What are you trying to sell? I wasn't born yesterday. Who is this
girl?

Ahhhh! Im taking a deep breath and letting it out
slowly. Keep it up beat man and sing for her! Stay focused...and don't
forget what we are doing here. We're not in love. Say it. TAKE your
headphones off you sappy bastard and Say it out loud! I. AM. NOT.
IN. LOVE.

I really do love someone...Fuck! How could this have happened?
This resistance isn't working, the power is toooooooo stroooooooooong!
Here we go again folks. Now we get to play the waiting game...sleepless
nights, waiting by the phone for it to ring, wondering if she feels the
same way about me? I picked a hell of a time to quit drinking hard
alcohol, thats for sure.

...is this really happening? I've been waiting for a girl like this to come into my life :)

11 Comments

Comment by Sappy McFly on Tue 5th Jan, 2010

Q: is there power in an object?
A: Theres power in MY OBJECT (if you get.my. meaning.)

Comment by Lizzy C. on Tue 5th Jan, 2010

That's pretty cool.. Those tracks are beautiful.... There is definitely something to having a passion that you spend energy on.. But you might want to buy a turntable..
BTW... I'm not so scared of "stockers".. but if you were a "stalker" that be a little bit more scary.
Anyways, you don't sound like either. Maybe just a romantic.

I'd be very impressed if they were only played at open turn table dj nights at a local dive bar... and superstitious freak outs are only satisfying because of objects with power, maybe... and to the OP, Misc. Romance, is "Benny and the Jets" a yacht rock genre/song? :)

The Wools - that is a great idea, man. I wonder which bar would actually let me do that? I'm afraid I would run too many people out...Nah. On second thought, if I choose the right place there would be better hard liquor sales that night, right? What about the Cliff Room? Oooo, Chuck's of Hawaiiâ€Ž!!!
Good Question: "is "Benny and the Jets" a yacht rock genre/song? :)"
Let me mull this one over for a bit...hmmmm. Its kind of catching me off guard because its the right time frame (1973)...hmmm.

now now boys...don't get all hot'n bothered. I think that this question deserves more attention than can be address here in the comments area...but for now, I don't think that being funky lands you on the outside of yacht rock - take a look at Steely Dan. So, whats important are the intention of the song - does it create a sense of yearning for a lost love? "Benny and the Jets" is a satire song about the dark side of the 70's music scene...I'm just not feeling that it belongs in the yacht rock genre.