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Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Too much drama

Hey there ya'll. I get so many emails and comments from you saying that you have your morning coffee and read my blog, and I love to read and comment on all of your blogs, but I'm just not feeling it right now. There is just too much drama around here. I use this blog a lot to vent and get things off my chest and to start discussions, but I can't really vent any of this because it's other people's lives, not just mine and it's their tales to tell, not mine. But right now all I can say is I don't really feel like "it's all about me", in fact nothing seems to be about me right now. It's all about the other two. That's ok, they need it, but it's sucking my capacity for thoughtful blog posts right out of my soul. I feel mentally fatigued, I'm finding that I stay in bed later and later, just not wanting to get up and start it all over again. None of this is life threatening or terribly serious, just mentally draining. I'm just someone living with a first year 18 year old college student and a husband with a very stressful and physically demanding job, and they are taking center stage right now.
And, I haven't made anything since November, and as I just typed this a light bulb went off in my head. There could be a direct correlation between my mental state and the fact that I'm not being creative!
Ah ha!
So here are some other goings on in my week, keep reading it's gets strange:
*Uncle is doing good, He was my dad's best friend and I sat with him the other night and heard tales of him and my dad, let me just say my dad was crazy and I can't believe he lived as long as he did. My uncle said that he flipped over 18 cars in his "career", started many bar fights, and landed in jail quite a few times. If you knew me well, this would explain a lot to you.
*Yesterday, I had lunch at Whynot Pottery and Meredith has a very nice post about it over on the Whynot blog, if I need to give you a link to this blog, you have been under a rock somewhere, look it up on my blog roll, I'm too lazy to do the link thing right now! I'll just add to hers and say that it was a well needed break from home and she is the best cook EVER! Try the recipe she posted, unreal, yum!
*Yesterday I received a letter from an inmate in prison wanting me to sell his popsicle stick jewelry boxes in my studio, he read the article about me in the newspaper and wrote to me. I want to write him back, I want to sell his boxes, I want to be his pen pal while he is in prison, but first I want to find out what he is in prison for. Here's the kicker to this story though. The letter came from a man that mailed it for him from Clinton NC, my uncle, the one mentioned above, lives in Clinton, and the prison? My cousin, (uncle's daughter) works in the prison system in the same area the inmate is in. Weird, right?
*Today, Wesley and I went for our New Year's tarot card reading to just check in and see what adventures await us. My good friend/intuitive told me that I would get some parts for my barns that would strongly influence my work. I'm thinking that I already got them, the doll parts that came from Sonia and Meredith, but when I got home, I had a package, another gift from Sonia, stoneware doll heads from the same factory in Germany, and they are..... I don't even know what to say about them, but they are beyond great. I'll take pictures sometime and post them. I can't even find time to shoot pics for my blog right now.
So that should catch you up, bizarre things going on, crazy family, and I am back in the studio next week with fresh clay from Starworks! I'm reading everyone's blog, just don't have the energy sometimes to comment, sorry! I'll get back soon.....as I'm typing this I'm sitting in a quiet dark room with the Christmas tree but... wait.... Gerry just turned on the TV and it's blaring Jaco Pastorious on youtube, somehow feeding through our blue ray, see what I mean.....
peace ya'll

Wow Tracey, sure sounds like you have a LOT on your plate; but I think you're on to something about your lack of creative time. Get those creative hands on to some clay, even for an hour a day. At the end of the day, draw a warm bath, light some candles and take a long, sea salt soak while listening to some great calming music and think of beautiful things. :-)In other words, be really good to yourself.

It sounds like you need to get back into the studio so you can do something creative with all that energy that's flowing around you.I'd like to offer a word of warning, be very careful about the relationship with the inmate. He broke the law to get incarcerated (maybe multiple times) and he broke the rules by contacting you via a third party. Stay smart.