Sunday, May 8, 2011

Musings Part 3 and the Garden

So I began this disclosure by stating I was struggling with my conceptions. I continued it by stating that I stumbled upon the idea, yet again, that God is a person. You see, I was trying to measure my way to closeness to God. Asking myself intellectual questions, like what does the mature Christian look like? how will I know if I am one (After all, I only know about knowing that I am not. LOL!)? It was here among the mess I was making that I realized that relationships don't get measured that way.

I cannot tell you the last time I asked myself how will I know if Mark and I are close to each other. How will I know if we love each other? Why? Because that is not how relationships are developed. There is no checklist.

So among all my silly, disorganized thoughts I stumbled upon one coherent idea. It was this idea that in the garden, before the fall, man could just be with God, like with a friend. You know the type I am talking about, the friend who you can sit with in silence and just enjoy the pleasure of their presence. There is no striving. There is no measuring yourself against others, wondering if you are the favorite. There is no wondering if you might be rejected. There is no reaching or grasping toward the unknown there is just the pleasure of being.

In the garden, I am sure there were times of questions, of learning, of joy and searching. Yet, when God came to walk with Adam and Eve in the cool of the day, I am sure there was that easy comfortable just being. The basking in the joy of being with one you love. The joy of being fully known, fully accepted and fully loved.

Before the fear came in.

The truth is that God still rejoices over us. He still fully knows us. He still fully loves us. If we will but accept His amazing gift we can know what it is to be His.

I am learning the tentative steps of faith. I am learning, slowly to trust the goodness of His heart. I am learning to make my way to the foot of that tree that demonstrates God's goodness and His love.

When I was sinking down, sinking down, sinking down,When I was sinking down, sinking down,When I was sinking down beneath God’s righteous frown,Christ laid aside His crown for my soul, for my soul,Christ laid aside His crown for my soul.

To God and to the Lamb, I will sing, I will sing;To God and to the Lamb, I will sing.To God and to the Lamb Who is the great “I Am”;While millions join the theme, I will sing, I will sing;While millions join the theme, I will sing.

And when from death I’m free, I’ll sing on, I’ll sing on;And when from death I’m free, I’ll sing on.And when from death I’m free, I’ll sing and joyful be;And through eternity, I’ll sing on, I’ll sing on;And through eternity, I’ll sing on."

~Alexander Mean

God is urging us forward on this journey, back to the place of no fear.

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I am married to an amazing man. Loved by an amazing God. Trying to learn the language of Heaven...
Jesus is the Lover of my soul.
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There is a longing that is stirring. Do you feel it, this hunger for something, a dissatisfaction with what is and an ache for something deeper? Within the very core of our DNA, written into the pattern of our atoms, is this ache for what we were made for. It is a memory of something that is currently invisible and yet more real than all else. It is not really "what" we were made for, rather it is "Who" we were made for.

It is this memory that we are chasing. May this little space encourage us all to crave after the reality of Eden which we have lost and look with anticipation to the joyful day of restored relationship and the renewal of Eden promised us.