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Currently cycle 7 CD 2 - yes I'm tracking again due to all of our fertility tests this month.....last cycle I'm tracking though!

My first blood draw is tomorrow morning. Tomorrow is also DH's birthday so we are going to have breakfast together after my blood is taken.

I felt really heartbroken yesterday and had a couple meltdowns. I was also feeling down because of having to track again and do all that testing. Add that with the holidays and I was so afraid it was too much for me in 1 month. Today is so much better though. DH let me sleep in because I was exhausted from a few nights of little sleep due to worry. I'm not going to let this get to me and I feel these tests should give me some sort of insight as to what is going on with us if anything.

My HSG is on the 13th and DH's SA is the same day as well. So essentially most of the testing is done by mid next week. Last blood draw for me is the last week of the year. Even with all this I'm still hoping for a pregnancy in December - maybe not if I have low progesterone.

@ilovewhitevinotoo - I know, right?! Exciting that you guys are about ready to go live though! FX that the rest of the process goes smoothly! Have you made any decisions about talking to family about what's going on?

AFM... received word today that we have 8 frosties (5 "good" and 3 "good to fair"). I feel like an a-hole, but I was honestly a little bummed that we weren't in double digits. H has been reminding me that 8 embies gives us about 4 FET cycles and is far and above anything we have ever been close to. After our loss though, even with the thought of having multiple tries, I'm still worried it won't be enough (not to mention the $$$ that went into this cycle). Ugh... IF sucks...

@FutureMrsWright2012 sorry you're feeling down about not being in the double digits but maybe you will just need 1 cycle. Try to stay positive I know it's hard.

Blood draw was easy. They are testing for 8 things so I had 4 vials taken. They said it only takes a day or 2 for results. Not sure if my OB wants all tests to come back before we meet but I will probably call her office Tuesday to make sure she got them and if I can know the results. Next up HSG.

@FutureMrsWright2012: Thank you for the kind note. Today started to feel more "normal" than the last week. Hoping things return to a general good tone. We have decided we will NTNP this cycle, despite my doctor suggesting waiting 3 months. I have no patience for that.Also, sorry for the bummed feeling about your results. FX that you will have very good luck soon!

Rant: I had my final blood draw to confirm HCG went down to 1 on Thursday and there is a huge black and blue bruise on my arm now. I look like a drug user or like I was beaten....

@bmo88 I wouldn't have the patience for that either so I get it. Good luck NTNP - you'll still want to HIO during your fertile time even if you don't track. Glad you are starting to feel better. My positivity is back this week too.

DD just started writing her xmas list this morning and on it were a puppy, kitten, and baby. She said she wants a baby sister for xmas. It's so hard to describe the feeling I had knowing I can't give her that. It made me all sad again. I wanted a bigger age gap between my kids for various reasons and now go figure it's taking even longer.

@FutureMrsWright2012 - I'm sorry that you're disappointed with the news. It'd be nice if all the eggs could result in perfect little embryos.

FWIW, we had 30 eggs retrieved, 20 were mature, 10 fertilized and only 3 made it to Day 5. One of those is probably waking up from a nap right now. So... it really does only take one. In your case, I hope you get two right off the bat.