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Failure has been my company for over 8 years now. I guess that's after I moved to another country and depression has hit me ever since.
I feel like I'm in a bubble of failure I can't seem to get out from. I forget how succes tastes like now. It seems to me like something...

Today I could not control my anger/sadness. I was afraid I would end my life so I hurt myself instead. Currently, I have bruises all over my body from trying to ignore the need to find an end. The physical pain helps me stop crying and helps numb the pain for a while. Sadly...

after 40 years apart. I spent 3 glorious days, actually believing that dreams can come true, but on the 4th day I quickly found out that fantasies really don't have any substance to them. They are just a story.
I had traveled over 1000 miles to be reunited with a lost love...

So I keep failing on trying to quit cutting. I feel like I am never going to be able to stop. Its so frustrating. I keep planning to stop and trying to really commit to but its not working. All I do is fail over and over again. Just when I think that i am making some kind if...

Last month I failed at fitness test as apart of my job. Instead of getting myself down, I thought ah well, I'll spend the next month working out, getting fitter and be able to pass. The only problem is that it had to be passed the next time or I risked losing my...

I try
I know I try
Too hard
that some times I lose trust in myself
in my abilities
in my own courage
determination
what hurts is when I see her face
when I hear her say
I told you so
When I start to think of my weaknesses and errors
It all breaks me apart
but still I try
But...

I really wanted an officer position in my co-ed fraternity. I thought that I would do great, and help the brotherhood that I love. I got the position, but now I feel like I let everyone down. Its been three days of rush events, and no one has really shown up and we only...