She, by H. Rider Haggard

Chapter 12

“She”

The first care of Job and myself, after seeing to Leo, was to wash ourselves and put on clean clothing, for what we
were wearing had not been changed since the loss of the dhow. Fortunately, as I think that I have said, by far the
greater part of our personal baggage had been packed into the whaleboat, and was therefore saved — and brought hither
by the bearers — although all the stores laid in by us for barter and presents to the natives was lost. Nearly all our
clothing was made of a well-shrunk and very strong grey flannel, and excellent I found it for travelling in these
places, because though a Norfolk jacket, shirt, and pair of trousers of it only weighed about four pounds, a great
consideration in a tropical country, where every extra ounce tells on the wearer, it was warm, and offered a good
resistance to the rays of the sun, and best of all to chills, which are so apt to result from sudden changes of
temperature.

Never shall I forget the comfort of the “wash and brush-up,” and of those clean flannels. The only thing that was
wanting to complete my joy was a cake of soap, of which we had none.

Afterwards I discovered that the Amahagger, who do not reckon dirt among their many disagreeable qualities, use a
kind of burnt earth for washing purposes, which, though unpleasant to the touch till one gets accustomed to it, forms a
very fair substitute for soap.

By the time that I was dressed, and had combed and trimmed my black beard, the previous condition of which was
certainly sufficiently unkempt to give weight to Billali’s appellation for me of “Baboon,” I began to feel most
uncommonly hungry. Therefore I was by no means sorry when, without the slightest preparatory sound or warning, the
curtain over the entrance to my cave was flung aside, and another mute, a young girl this time, announced to me by
signs that I could not misunderstand — that is, by opening her mouth and pointing down it — that there was something
ready to eat. Accordingly I followed her into the next chamber, which we had not yet entered, where I found Job, who
had also, to his great embarrassment, been conducted thither by a fair mute. Job never got over the advances the former
lady had made towards him, and suspected every girl who came near to him of similar designs.

“These young parties have a way of looking at one, sir,” he would say apologetically, “which I don’t call
respectable.”

This chamber was twice the size of the sleeping caves, and I saw at once that it had originally served as a
refectory, and also probably as an embalming room for the Priests of the Dead; for I may as well say at once that these
hollowed-out caves were nothing more nor less than vast catacombs, in which for tens of ages the mortal remains of the
great extinct race whose monuments surrounded us had been first preserved, with an art and a completeness that has
never since been equalled, and then hidden away for all time. On each side of this particular rock-chamber was a long
and solid stone table, about three feet wide by three feet six in height, hewn out of the living rock, of which it had
formed part, and was still attached to at the base. These tables were slightly hollowed out or curved inward, to give
room for the knees of any one sitting on the stone ledge that had been cut for a bench along the side of the cave at a
distance of about two feet from them. Each of them, also, was so arranged that it ended right under a shaft pierced in
the rock for the admission of light and air. On examining them carefully, however, I saw that there was a difference
between them that had at first escaped my attention, viz. that one of the tables, that to the left as we entered the
cave, had evidently been used, not to eat upon, but for the purposes of embalming. That this was beyond all question
the case was clear from five shallow depressions in the stone of the table, all shaped like a human form, with a
separate place for the head to lie in, and a little bridge to support the neck, each depression being of a different
size, so as to fit bodies varying in stature from a full-grown man’s to a small child’s, and with little holes bored at
intervals to carry off fluid. And, indeed, if any further confirmation was required, we had but to look at the wall of
the cave above to find it. For there, sculptured all round the apartment, and looking nearly as fresh as the day it was
done, was the pictorial representation of the death, embalming, and burial of an old man with a long beard, probably an
ancient king or grandee of this country.

The first picture represented his death. He was lying upon a couch which had four short curved posts at the corners
coming to a knob at the end, in appearance something like written notes of music, and was evidently in the very act of
expiring. Gathered round the couch were women and children weeping, the former with their hair hanging down their
backs. The next scene represented the embalmment of the body, which lay stark upon a table with depressions in it,
similar to the one before us; probably, indeed, it was a picture of the same table. Three men were employed at the work
— one superintending, one holding a funnel shaped exactly like a port wine strainer, of which the narrow end was fixed
in an incision in the breast, no doubt in the great pectoral artery; while the third, who was depicted as standing
straddle-legged over the corpse, held a kind of large jug high in his hand, and poured from it some steaming fluid
which fell accurately into the funnel. The most curious part of this sculpture is that both the man with the funnel and
the man who pours the fluid are drawn holding their noses, either I suppose because of the stench arising from the
body, or more probably to keep out the aromatic fumes of the hot fluid which was being forced into the dead man’s
veins. Another curious thing which I am unable to explain is that all three men were represented as having a band of
linen tied round the face with holes in it for the eyes.

The third sculpture was a picture of the burial of the deceased. There he was, stiff and cold, clothed in a linen
robe, and laid out on a stone slab such as I had slept upon at our first sojourning-place. At his head and feet burnt
lamps, and by his side were placed several of the beautiful painted vases that I have described, which were perhaps
supposed to be full of provisions. The little chamber was crowded with mourners, and with musicians playing on an
instrument resembling a lyre, while near the foot of the corpse stood a man holding a sheet, with which he was
preparing to cover it from view.

These sculptures, looked at merely as works of art, were so remarkable that I make no apology for describing them
rather fully. They struck me also as being of surpassing interest as representing, probably with studious accuracy, the
last rites of the dead as practised among an utterly lost people, and even then I thought how envious some antiquarian
friends of my own at Cambridge would be if ever I found an opportunity of describing these wonderful remains to them.
Probably they would say that I was exaggerating, notwithstanding that every page of this history must bear so much
internal evidence of its truth that it would obviously have been quite impossible for me to have invented it.

To return. As soon as I had hastily examined these sculptures, which I think I omitted to mention were executed in
relief, we sat down to a very excellent meal of boiled goat’s-flesh, fresh milk, and cakes made of meal, the whole
being served upon clean wooden platters.

When we had eaten we returned to see how Leo was getting on, Billali saying that he must now wait upon She,
and hear her commands. On reaching Leo’s room we found the poor boy in a very bad way. He had woke up from his torpor,
and was altogether off his head, babbling about some boat-race on the Cam, and was inclined to be violent. Indeed, when
we entered the room Ustane was holding him down. I spoke to him, and my voice seemed to soothe him; at any rate he grew
much quieter, and was persuaded to swallow a dose of quinine.

I had been sitting with him for an hour, perhaps — at any rate I know that it was getting so dark that I could only
just make out his head lying like a gleam of gold upon the pillow we had extemporised out of a bag covered with a
blanket — when suddenly Billali arrived with an air of great importance, and informed me that She herself had
deigned to express a wish to see me — an honour, he added, accorded to but very few. I think that he was a little
horrified at my cool way of taking the honour, but the fact was that I did not feel overwhelmed with gratitude at the
prospect of seeing some savage, dusky queen, however absolute and mysterious she might be, more especially as my mind
was full of dear Leo, for whose life I began to have great fears. However, I rose to follow him, and as I did so I
caught sight of something bright lying on the floor, which I picked up. Perhaps the reader will remember that with the
potsherd in the casket was a composition scarabæus marked with a round O, a goose, and another curious hieroglyphic,
the meaning of which is “Suten se Ra,” or “Royal Son of the Sun.” The scarab, which is a very small one, Leo had
insisted upon having set in a massive gold ring, such as is generally used for signets, and it was this very ring that
I now picked up. He had pulled it off in the paroxysm of his fever, at least I suppose so, and flung it down upon the
rock-floor. Thinking that if I left it about it might get lost, I slipped it on my own little finger, and then followed
Billali, leaving Job and Ustane with Leo.

We passed down the passage, crossed the great aisle-like cave, and came to the corresponding passage on the other
side, at the mouth of which the guards stood like two statues. As we came they bowed their heads in salutation, and
then lifting their long spears placed them transversely across their foreheads, as the leaders of the troop that had
met us had done with their ivory wands. We stepped between them, and found ourselves in an exactly similar gallery to
that which led to our own apartments, only this passage was, comparatively speaking, brilliantly lighted. A few paces
down it we were met by four mutes — two men and two women — who bowed low and then arranged themselves, the women in
front and the men behind of us, and in this order we continued our procession past several doorways hung with curtains
resembling those leading to our own quarters, and which I afterwards found opened out into chambers occupied by the
mutes who attended on She. A few paces more and we came to another doorway facing us, and not to our left like
the others, which seemed to mark the termination of the passage. Here two more white-, or rather yellow-robed guards
were standing, and they too bowed, saluted, and let us pass through heavy curtains into a great antechamber, quite
forty feet long by as many wide, in which some eight or ten women, most of them young and handsome, with yellowish
hair, sat on cushions working with ivory needles at what had the appearance of being embroidery frames. These women
were also deaf and dumb. At the farther end of this great lamp-lit apartment was another doorway closed in with heavy
Oriental-looking curtains, quite unlike those that hung before the doors of our own rooms, and here stood two
particularly handsome girl mutes, their heads bowed upon their bosoms and their hands crossed in an attitude of humble
submission. As we advanced they each stretched out an arm and drew back the curtains. Thereupon Billali did a curious
thing. Down he went, that venerable-looking old gentleman — for Billali is a gentleman at the bottom — down on to his
hands and knees, and in this undignified position, with his long white beard trailing on the ground, he began to creep
into the apartment beyond. I followed him, standing on my feet in the usual fashion. Looking over his shoulder he
perceived it.

“Down, my son; down, my Baboon; down on to thy hands and knees. We enter the presence of She, and, if thou
art not humble, of a surety she will blast thee where thou standest.”

I halted, and felt scared. Indeed, my knees began to give way of their own mere motion; but reflection came to my
aid. I was an Englishman, and why, I asked myself, should I creep into the presence of some savage woman as though I
were a monkey in fact as well as in name? I would not and could not do it, that is, unless I was absolutely sure that
my life or comfort depended upon it. If once I began to creep upon my knees I should always have to do so, and it would
be a patent acknowledgment of inferiority. So, fortified by an insular prejudice against “kootooing,” which has, like
most of our so-called prejudices, a good deal of common sense to recommend it, I marched in boldly after Billali. I
found myself in another apartment, considerably smaller than the anteroom, of which the walls were entirely hung with
rich-looking curtains of the same make as those over the door, the work, as I subsequently discovered, of the mutes who
sat in the antechamber and wove them in strips, which were afterwards sewn together. Also, here and there about the
room, were settees of a beautiful black wood of the ebony tribe, inlaid with ivory, and all over the floor were other
tapestries, or rather rugs. At the top end of this apartment was what appeared to be a recess, also draped with
curtains, through which shone rays of light. There was nobody in the place except ourselves.

Painfully and slowly old Billali crept up the length of the cave, and with the most dignified stride that I could
command I followed after him. But I felt that it was more or less of a failure. To begin with, it is not possible to
look dignified when you are following in the wake of an old man writhing along on his stomach like a snake, and then,
in order to go sufficiently slowly, either I had to keep my leg some seconds in the air at every step, or else to
advance with a full stop between each stride, like Mary Queen of Scots going to execution in a play. Billali was not
good at crawling, I suppose his years stood in the way, and our progress up that apartment was a very long affair. I
was immediately behind him, and several times I was sorely tempted to help him on with a good kick. It is so absurd to
advance into the presence of savage royalty after the fashion of an Irishman driving a pig to market, for that is what
we looked like, and the idea nearly made me burst out laughing then and there. I had to work off my dangerous tendency
to unseemly merriment by blowing my nose, a proceeding which filled old Billali with horror, for he looked over his
shoulder and made a ghastly face at me, and I heard him murmur, “Oh, my poor Baboon!”

At last we reached the curtains, and here Billali collapsed flat on to his stomach, with his hands stretched out
before him as though he were dead, and I, not knowing what to do, began to stare about the place. But presently I
clearly felt that somebody was looking at me from behind the curtains. I could not see the person, but I could
distinctly feel his or her gaze, and, what is more, it produced a very odd effect upon my nerves. I was frightened, I
do not know why. The place was a strange one, it is true, and looked lonely, notwithstanding its rich hangings and the
soft glow of the lamps — indeed, these accessories added to, rather than detracted from its loneliness, just as a
lighted street at night has always a more solitary appearance than a dark one. It was so silent in the place, and there
lay Billali like one dead before the heavy curtains, through which the odour of perfume seemed to float up towards the
gloom of the arched roof above. Minute grew into minute, and still there was no sign of life, nor did the curtain move;
but I felt the gaze of the unknown being sinking through and through me, and filling me with a nameless terror, till
the perspiration stood in beads upon my brow.

At length the curtain began to move. Who could be behind it? — some naked savage queen, a languishing Oriental
beauty, or a nineteenth-century young lady, drinking afternoon tea? I had not the slightest idea, and should not have
been astonished at seeing any of the three. I was getting beyond astonishment. The curtain agitated itself a little,
then suddenly between its folds there appeared a most beautiful white hand (white as snow), and with long tapering
fingers, ending in the pinkest nails. The hand grasped the curtain, and drew it aside, and as it did so I heard a
voice, I think the softest and yet most silvery voice I ever heard. It reminded me of the murmur of a brook.

“Stranger,” said the voice in Arabic, but much purer and more classical Arabic than the Amahagger talk —“stranger,
wherefore art thou so much afraid?”

Now I flattered myself that in spite of my inward terrors I had kept a very fair command of my countenance, and was,
therefore, a little astonished at this question. Before I had made up my mind how to answer it, however, the curtain
was drawn, and a tall figure stood before us. I say a figure, for not only the body, but also the face was wrapped up
in soft white, gauzy material in such a way as at first sight to remind me most forcibly of a corpse in its
grave-clothes. And yet I do not know why it should have given me that idea, seeing that the wrappings were so thin that
one could distinctly see the gleam of the pink flesh beneath them. I suppose it was owing to the way in which they were
arranged, either accidentally, or more probably by design. Anyhow, I felt more frightened than ever at this ghost-like
apparition, and my hair began to rise upon my head as the feeling crept over me that I was in the presence of something
that was not canny. I could, however, clearly distinguish that the swathed mummy-like form before me was that of a tall
and lovely woman, instinct with beauty in every part, and also with a certain snake-like grace which I had never seen
anything to equal before. When she moved a hand or foot her entire frame seemed to undulate, and the neck did not bend,
it curved.

“Why art thou so frightened, stranger?” asked the sweet voice again — a voice which seemed to draw the heart out of
me, like the strains of softest music. “Is there that about me that should affright a man? Then surely are men changed
from what they used to be!” And with a little coquettish movement she turned herself, and held up one arm, so as to
show all her loveliness and the rich hair of raven blackness that streamed in soft ripples down her snowy robes, almost
to her sandalled feet.

“It is thy beauty that makes me fear, oh Queen,” I answered humbly, scarcely knowing what to say, and I thought that
as I did so I heard old Billali, who was still lying prostrate on the floor, mutter, “Good, my Baboon, good.”

“I see that men still know how to beguile us women with false words. Ah, stranger,” she answered, with a laugh that
sounded like distant silver bells, “thou wast afraid because mine eyes were searching out thine heart, therefore wast
thou afraid. Yet being but a woman, I forgive thee for the lie, for it was courteously said. And now tell me how came
ye hither to this land of the dwellers among the caves — a land of swamps and evil things and dead old shadows of the
dead? What came ye for to see? How is it that ye hold your lives so cheap as to place them in the hollow of the hand of
Hiya, into the hand of ‘She-who-must-be-obeyed’? Tell me also how come ye to know the tongue I talk.
It is an ancient tongue, that sweet child of the old Syriac. Liveth it yet in the world? Thou seest I dwell among the
caves and the dead, and naught know I of the affairs of men, nor have I cared to know. I have lived, O stranger, with
my memories, and my memories are in a grave that mine hands hollowed, for truly hath it been said that the child of man
maketh his own path evil;” and her beautiful voice quivered, and broke in a note as soft as any wood-bird’s. Suddenly
her eye fell upon the sprawling frame of Billali, and she seemed to recollect herself.

“Ah! thou art there, old man. Tell me how it is that things have gone wrong in thine household. Forsooth, it seems
that these my guests were set upon. Ay, and one was nigh to being slain by the hot-pot to be eaten of those brutes, thy
children, and had not the others fought gallantly they too had been slain, and not even I could have called back the
life which had been loosed from the body. What means it, old man? What hast thou to say that I should not give thee
over to those who execute my vengeance?”

Her voice had risen in her anger, and it rang clear and cold against the rocky walls. Also I thought I could see her
eyes flash through the gauze that hid them. I saw poor Billali, whom I had believed to be a very fearless person,
positively quiver with terror at her words.

“Oh ‘Hiya!’ oh She!” he said, without lifting his white head from the floor. “Oh She, as thou art
great be merciful, for I am now as ever thy servant to obey. It was no plan or fault of mine, oh She, it was
those wicked ones who are called my children. Led on by a woman whom thy guest the Pig had scorned, they would have
followed the ancient custom of the land, and eaten the fat black stranger who came hither with these thy guests the
Baboon and the Lion who is sick, thinking that no word had come from thee about the Black one. But when the Baboon and
the Lion saw what they would do, they slew the woman, and slew also their servant to save him from the horror of the
pot. Then those evil ones, ay, those children of the Wicked One who lives in the Pit, they went mad with the lust of
blood, and flew at the throats of the Lion and the Baboon and the Pig. But gallantly they fought. Oh Hiya!
they fought like very men, and slew many, and held their own, and then I came and saved them, and the evildoers have I
sent on hither to Kôr to be judged of thy greatness, oh She! and here they are.”

“Ay, old man, I know it, and tomorrow will I sit in the great hall and do justice upon them, fear not. And for thee,
I forgive thee, though hardly. See that thou dost keep thine household better. Go.”

Billali rose upon his knees with astonishing alacrity, bowed his head thrice, and his white beard sweeping the
ground, crawled down the apartment as he had crawled up it, till he finally vanished through the curtains, leaving me,
not a little to my alarm, alone with this terrible but most fascinating person.