This is my life. And i want everyone to read it.

08/04/2010

PLAYA part 1-- continued.

Holy Jesus above. I've just done the worst thing. I acted like a flirt and i tease with all these guys, but i never wanted to kiss any of them!!!!!!!! I just got home from dropping one of them off at their house. And right in my car in his driveway he KISSED me!! Dang it!! I feel so bad. I cannot stop crying! I'm sure that was the best experience for him, but i felt NOTHING. And it went a little further than a peck on the lips. I am a jerk!! Oh! And he gave me this fancy looking bracelet for my birthday! I dont know what to say! He keeps telling me all these sweet things over text, and in between texts from him, i get texts from three other boys!! Ahhhh!!!!!!! I've created a nightmare. And i cannot get out. I am keeping this short, the words are blurred and i feel like a jerk. I believe part of it is because i gave my heart away along time ago, and never got it all the way back . That sounds so cheesy, but it's true. SO MUCH HEARTACHE. Loves XOX.