Pages

Wednesday, August 01, 2012

We took our big annual family trip to the beach a few weeks ago. It was the usual craziness that comes with 10 or so people who love each other but aren't used to being around each other, all sharing a house. And it was also fun and relaxing and fully of beach-y vacation-y activites.

Like playing with the kids on the beach.

And taking them in the water.

And reading on the porch.

And searching for crabs among the rocks.

And, of course, surfing.

Watching the children play on the sand and in the water was eye-opening. They were so full of joy, running and jumping and swimming for hours and hours -- fully enjoying their youthful energy and health. At one point I looked over at Zeke and he was just rolling in the sand, like a fillet being breaded, and he couldn't have been happier.

It caused J and me to start talking about how we want to live our lives.

For J, it's an easy choice. He grew up by the beach and loves it like no other place. It feeds his soul. Colorado is beautiful and there are plenty of things to do for people that love physical activity in the outdoors, but there's a part of him that wilts a little bit every day that he wakes up so far away from the ocean.

I can be happy pretty much anywhere, as long as I have something to read and people around me that I love. And, an internet connection, of course.

And we like the New England setting - good weather with four seasons, nice people, access to sports and universities and good schools. And family close by. It would be awesome for the kids to grow up near the cousins, whom they adore.

The question is, how to accomplish it.

When I look over my blog posts of the last couple of years, the theme that emerges is that of busyness and exhaustion. Of not having enough time. Time alone, time with J, time with the kids, time unencumbered by obligations. It makes me weary and exacerbates my depression. I'm good at handling it, but I wish I didn't have to.

So that's where my Beachbody business comes in.

It started off as a lark. I had been doing this company's workouts and using its products for so long that I signed up to be a coach largely for the discount, and maybe to make some beer money in recommending it to my friends, since I was recommending it to my friends anyway.

Then I figured I could use it as a vacation/rainy day fund.

Then I realized that I'm actually pretty good at the coaching part, and getting better at the networking/business part. And if I work and apply myself, I can use it to get my time back.

I don't care about being rich or having fancy things. I just want time. I want to feel like I'm living deliberately and thoughtfully, as opposed to just careening from obligation to obligation and then collapsing in an exhausted heap at the end of every day. And if I continue to apply myself and work, to connect with people and help them get the bodies and the lives they want, I can create a life for myself and my family by the beach. A life of health and activity and family and helping people.

So we've put together a plan, and we're implementing it, and we're going to get there.