And does the search ever cease?

I, like most human beings on this earth, am searching. Not only am I searching, I am constantly doing so. We all want answers to every question, every possibility. Perhaps, it is said best by Elie Wiesel in the memoir Night.

"Every question possessed a power that did not lie in the answer."

Every since I read the book about a month ago, that one quote remained embedded in my head. You would think it would be all of the descriptions of the concentration camps...but no. While that message was strong and clear in itself, this one spoke on a different level. We can only connect so much to his hardships...but that quote is one that I believe speaks on a universal level.

The quotation extends further.

"Man questions God and God answers. But we don't understand His answers. We can't understand them. Because they come from the depths of the soul, and they stay there until death. You will find the true answers, Eliezer, only within yourself!"

And that was what made the line stick in my mind. I confide in other people, but I didn't know what for. Partially, I did it to vent my feelings --something I desperately needed to do. Another part was to find a solution, an answer. Perhaps that's why advice is so misguided sometimes. We expect an instant solution.

And so now, I've reached a point where I can say with confidence that I can answer a lot of these questions that I had at the beginning of the year. As this year comes to a close, I can finally sleep knowing that problems have been resolved. Those problems ranging from my gender to my own ability to feel an emotion other than fear.

And I find it interesting that we are now in a generation where we are all watching each other grow up. We are witnessing the things that other generations didn't see in each other. We observe as the ones around us make progress (or lack of)...and while it's not a bad thing, I'm not sure if it's a good thing either.

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