Tuesday, April 8, 2008

So, the whole nursing thing is still not working. I've tried, and tried, and am admitting defeat. I'm not thrilled with it, but I think that right now my mental health is way more important than forcing the issue. Seth is 7 weeks old today, and he's been getting breastmilk since day 2, so It's better than nothing. I've been working on drying up my supply, and I'm doing quite well with that. At least it's something that's going right in that department! I started off pumping every 6 hours, instead of 4-5, for about 2 days. Then I upped the space to 7-8 hours, then 9-10 hours, and now I'm at 13-14 hours between pumping sessions. And I only get an ounce and half or two ounces out when I pump now, which is huge since I was producing about an ounce an hour before.

It wasn't easy to decide to stop pumping. Technically I could keep it up or as long as my supply lasts. But it hurts! And it takes SO much time. And it makes it so I don't get much sleep at night. And it hurts! I know how beneficial it is for babies to have breastmilk. I had always planned on doing it for the first year (with some supplementation, but at least partially for a year). With Celia, she weaned herself by the time she was 5 months old. With Seth, he still refuses to latch on, and the pumping is killing me. And the trying to get him latched and having him refuse me is not easy on me either. So, I'm done. That's it. He'll be getting formula pretty much exculsively from now on. I still have 4 bottles worth in the freezer, and I'll give him one a day for the next few days, and that will be it. I hate to stop, and I wish he'd get it. But it's really taking it's toll on me, and as I learned with my daughter, a happier mom makes a better mom, and a happier kid.

About Me

My Infertility Story:

June 27, 2003- got a BFP, and 9 months later, gave birth to a healthy little girl, Celia.

October, 2005- went on a cruise with DH and Celia, and started ttc our second child.

February 2006- saw my OB at my 6 month check-up, and since I got pregnant with Celia so easily, he decided it may be worth trying Clomid, since my cycles were irregular.

April 2006, I was 9 weeks into my first clomid cycle with no BFP and no CD1. I call my OB, and he sends me straight to SGFC for testing.

June 2006- my first RE appointment, decide to get tested and see what is going on.

August 2006- Diagnosed with PCOS. Decide to hold off on IUIs until Jan. 2007, when I can add a second insurance policy to help with cost. Hope that Metformin will help regulate me a bit.

January 2007- send insurance info to SGFC.

February 2007- get letter from insurance saying that they need a letter from my RE that justifies IUIs considering my husbands SA results. Confused, I call my nurse. We go in for a consult, and find out that we have MF, low count and poor morphology.

March 2007- DH sees urologist. No reason for the MF, so we decide to go ahead with IVF.