September 1979, Mortakka 10.a.m.Occasion! Bhandara of Anantananda at shri Sadguru Sevashram,
Mortakka .Before we all took leave of Bhaktaraj Maharaj, my children,
family and friends were permitted to return to Mhow but I was detained
for 2 days more.” I have some work for you” he said.
Same evening Bhaktaraj called me near him and said “There are many
things to be completed through you.” “Your services are required .Do not
say no.” “You will see something which is rarely seen otherwise; there
will be hardly any direct sitting between us like yourself sitting
before me and I talking to you; you will see and experience”.’ As you
desire and grace please.’

November 1979. Mhow.
Somewhere at 3a.m. I was half asleep, or half awake? I felt elation in
my mind and felt that something unusual was happening and became alert.
In the dimly lit bed-room I perceived glow of light appear and gradually
increasing in intensity; the light was bright, not painful to eyes but
pleasant, happy; color? It was yellowish white; strange thing was that
there was no source visible but light only emanated. A low voice said
slowly “Are you awake?” “Yes please”. “Be careful, do not slip from one
to another; and ‘Be thinking ““Yes please.”
If so, tell me what this “Gada” (i.e. Mace of Vishnu) means.’ “I have
never thought of it”. What is the meaning of “Sudarshan Chakra?” and
Shankha”? You use the words, mean them & never go to their depths. They
are not what they appear to be. “When is a Gada used”? When you hit a
thing with Mace the One thing will be broken into “many” parts; actually
the pieces were ONE only, but later have become may parts, Parabrahma
Parmatma is appearing in all souls. All are from the same ONE; they are
the ONE and NOT ENTIRE ONE”.
“I think there is much in your words that requires honest pursuit to
understand it.” “That is true. What is this Chakra? I know you not know
it. It is Force, protective force in perpetual motion; it is like
itself; it destroys the wrong one and evil thoughts and protects the
good ones.
“The meaning is becoming quite significant please.” “Go deeper into
these things and many aspects will “Reveal” themselves to you; what
about the Conch? The Shankha? Reply; silence only.” What do you do with
Conch? Blow it? Yes! What sound it produces? A deep note with uniform
low pitch but all-occupying? Well, it is the sound. Remember it is from
the sound “Om” the whole universe was created.
“Oh! What a grand interpretation”. “Well, it is not interpretation’; you
will not get these meanings explained in any of the Vedas and
Dharama-granthas”. You continue you honest pursuit and you will get to
the Truth.” The light faded; glow became dim; I just looked at the time
piece; it was 4.30 a.m. I got up and sat in the bed; recollected all
that happened. Is this a revelation by him? Is it real? Or
hallucination?

September, 1980,
Nashik.
After a year I narrated the above experience to Bhaktaraj. His reply was
“Name Bhaktaraj was given and confirmed by my Guru and it has become a
“Manta” those who have “Dhyan” or “Japa” of this mantra, your own
Daivata & Ishta Daiveta appear to you in that form in which you have
worshipped or done puja or venerated. This is your own experience and
your achievements. Do not think that I can go into the dreams of all my
Bhaktas and tell them to do things, explain things etc. Well, I have my
own body, I have my own body, I have my mind, and my work. I claim no
such mystery or “chamatkars”. I am much against chamatkars: what you
have got is “Sakshatkar” and the Siddis? they are quite small ,petty,
tiny and pigmy.” “I know only one thing i.e., “Guru Charan” Through Guru
Charan & Guru Prem, I get all things –Happiness-Shanti. That you also
will attain by only one easy means i.e. by Bhajans”.
No doubt such plain speaking by the Raja among all the Bhaktas/dispels
of Anantanand has revealed to us “Bhaktaraj” His name become a “Mantra”
to some, means of Salvation to some and to some it is a source of Prem
i.e. Eternal Love.
That is the Bhaktaraj I am seeing, feeling experiencing and revering and
trying to realize.