Becoming who I am...

Me, in all my glory. I have come a long, long way to get here. Through struggles, trials, failures and victories. I've had my share of tears, smiles, and anger. I knew from a very young age that I wanted to help others. I have always been able to see the good in people. Maybe that's why I'm here and part of this life.

Sadly, I have a history of being bullied, in school, work & ex-boyfriends. Deemed an outcast or weirdo for a variety of reasons, opinions, views, outfits, you name it. I hide my pain &v fear, scared of showing my weakness or vulnerability. I spent spent nights crying myself to sleep, thinking I was alone and spent years overcoming the side effects.

​I know now that I was meant to experience these types of experiences, to learn and grow. I'm able to look back and see how strong I've become. My stories, good and bad, have helped me become the person I am today. These stories are what taught me that I never want to be tamed or placed in a box. I'm a free spirit, one who enjoys wandering and experiencing what life offers.

Being true to who you are...

Being creative or an outside thinker can be a super rough road to travel. Hitting bumps and stops along your way. Sometimes you stop for directions or help, other times you try to fly by the seat of your pants. You face challenges and being the only one going a certain direction. For some wearing a mask, to scared to walk out the door. I've been there, I've gotten out and I know you can too.

This past month has really hit me hard. It saddens me so deeply that we as spiritual beings can cause others so much harm. the shootings and killings are so unnecessary. When I first heard about what happened in Orlando I was devastated. These people were in the a place where they could feel free from societies ideals. Someone robbed them of that freedom. Then all these shootings and fighting between one community and the people who should be protecting us.

I feel as if we are reliving the 60's and getting a second chance at love, truth, freedom and rights. There are revolutions at every corner of our country. We have #Blacklivesmatter, LGBTQ activists and more rights for women. So many of us that have been pushed aside, closed off, turned away, bullied and victims of prejudice are finally getting a chance to speak up and show our worth.

Being true to who you are takes a lifetime to figure out and seconds to start. No one should ever think differently of who you are based on the color of your skin, who you love, gender, or by simply having tattoos. Who you are as a person is inside and what ever else is just a part of you and your story. Don't let others edit that story.

Spread Love...

It is time to spread love and wash out the hate. Media brings so much attention to the dramatic events taking place. We get sucked into heated topics through conversations, social media and television. Every one is placing their opinions out into the world and it's getting harder and harder to pick out the facts. On of the biggest issues I see is how controlling of an effect it has on people. Every day on social media I am flooded with negative statuses, videos and pictures. Everyone thinks they're right and it is tearing friendships and relationships u;p.

Something I started a few years ago was to try and keep as much negativity from myself off of social media. Refusing to post my dirty laundry, share horrible videos, or acknowledge when someone was being pessimistic. No I'll admit I have had some slip ups, but for the most part I really didn't want to be part of the problem.

When we take part in the negative influences we are in turn helping to give energy in that area. For example, instead of posting or sharing hateful messages and talking about how much you disagree, share what you agree with. Spread the love, spread positivity as much as you possibly can. If you support the LGBTQ community share articles or stories about a couple getting married, adopting or providing something to the community. If you care about the BLM movement, share videos like the triplets and the garbage men. (my personal favorite)

The idea of spreading more love isn't to ignore the events that are taking place, it's the idea of helping to honor those that make this world a better place. Life is about balance and with the good, sadly comes the bad. But we don't have to accept that life is terrible, because it's not. Life can be a beautiful thing. We just get bogged down by jobs, others, and ourselves. Being force fed information from the time we can speak to the time we lay in the ground.

Break the cycle...

It's time to break the cycle. We all have a voice and we all have the right to live our lives the way we choose. If you love someone don't let the pressures of others hinder that. Love them, hold on to them, tell them how you feel. We are all in this together. Help out friends, neighbors and even strangers. You never know what a kind word, shared meal, warm blanket or a shoulder can do for someone.

Just yesterday I saw someone struggling in the parking lot. She was trying so hard to pack her bags while she was walking to work. I offered to help her so that she wouldn't have to be late. Just a simple gesture, not world changing, but I could tell the she was incredibly grateful. Another act that I started to do, complimenting someone. Each day I try and compliment at least 3-5 people. Just a few words and their day brightens up.

We are so focused on getting shares, likes, follows and comments that we forget how much a friendly gesture means. Complimenting someone not only makes that persons day but it will brighten up yours too. See someone looking insecure about their outfit, tell them how nice they look, give them a few seconds of your time and then watch when they walk away. They smile, stand a little straighter and walk a little prouder.

Breaking the cycle doesn't have to be a Time life article, it can be as small as buying someone's coffee. Change the way you look at the world. Be a friend or helping hand when you can. Make small changes and show others that you care. Listen to what people are saying, don't try to badger them with your opinion or ideas. Be yourself! This is a big one. The world is full of copy cats, se;elfishness and drones. Be the difference. Honor your unique personality and traits. Love your self.

Part of my journey sadly is to realize that I can't fix the world. As much as I want to help billions of people feel better about life and themselves, I understand that I need to work on a much smaller scope first. That's why we need more healers, leaders and revolutionaries. Don't ever let someone tell you that your dreams are un reachable. Go out there and make a difference. Share your story and live your life.