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*Since my family first got an NES, I’ve had a controller in my hands. Exploring new worlds, meeting new characters and experiencing stories… in some ways, I’ve just connected better with the world through games. However, it’s also very important to me to be present in my life, to improve myself, to go out and MEET the people I’ve connected with online and to expand my knowledge. I spend hours in games; how do I level myself up?

-2 Intelligence – How did I make myself a little smarter? What did I learn?Never never never book your seat toward the back of the plane. That’s where parents with infants book their seats. Ugh. Hard lesson learned!

+1 Charisma – How was I less awkward or more beautiful?I always feel confident going out alone and traveling solo. In the last 24 hours everyone I’ve encountered in California has been shocked that I’m alone, but I feel like a real New Yorker and an independent woman. Feels nice, man.

I guess people in California don’t do things alone.Hotel: it’s just you?Uber: it’s just you?Restaurant: it’s just you?YES TRAVELING ALONE IS AWESOME BRING ME A BEER 👏🏻

-2 Strength – New workouts, breakthroughs, challenges.I was depressed and lazy all week. I could barely make it into work. News of two high profile suicides made me realize that depression isn’t a thing you ever “grow out of.” I’m going to have to fight this for the rest of my life. And I might lose. But I’m not going to let depression eat me alive without anyone knowing. I’m not hiding it. I’m not ashamed. I can’t help that my brain feeds itself lies about my amazing, creative, empathetic, curious, fierce self. I can see myself that way sometimes, but mostly I’m surprised when I hear how positively others view me. Almost can’t believe it. So I urge you- tell your friends and family you love them, but ALSO tell them how you see them. Are they brave? Inspirational? Funny? Witty? Creative? Powerful? Tell them. Because I don’t think ANY of us see ourselves the way the people who love us do. So it’s important to hear. Depression or not.

+1 Defense – Where did I consciously avoid or deflect negative energy?I had a thought this week. So often when something small goes wrong, I hear people sarcastically say “story of my life.” But what if we flipped the script and said (or thought) “story of my life” every time something good or lucky or fabulous happened? Imagine how much more positive energy we could attract?

+3 Luck – Something good that happened this week.I got invited to an advance screening of Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom on Tuesday. How amazing is that?!? Still can’t believe I got to be one of the first in NYC and maybe the world to see it. I’m not going to spoil anything… though I can’t wait to talk about it! I did write up some non-spoilery thoughts here.

+1 Wealth – How did I save towards my goals?My mailbox surprised me with a check for $70 from some class action lawsuit! That’s the most I’ve ever gotten from one of those things, but it ALWAYS pays to throw your hat into the ring when you get those notices in your email. Just make sure it’s not spam first. They look spammy.