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https://kmciurlionis.wordpress.com/2011/04/17/memo-10/#respondSun, 17 Apr 2011 15:50:26 +0000http://kmciurlionis.wordpress.com/?p=247Something that has always been excessively important to people is self- expression and individualization. It may be a way to try and self- actualize by rebelling against what other people associate them with in order to gain some sort of pride. Just like over thinking unnecessary problems stressing about “unique-ifying” yourself can also be stressful. Just do what you are comfortable doing and know what the cosequences are. Many people have labeled ne as being the “arty”type…… I don’t really know what that means , there are others that people call artsy that I cant relate to at all. One thing I do know is that I am independent and like to spend a lot of my time alone which results in being slightly lonely sometimes, but mostly results in my being ever so slightly awkward in some situations but I’ve learned to accept it. When somebody becomes comfortable in their “awkwardness the I feel like it releases a slight tension or feeling of judgment. Anyway there are certain things that I am very adamant about when it comes to the alterations of ones apperance while other things I am still questioning for myself. For example, I will not get a permanent tattoo not will I permanently “tag” on the streets or on buildings, (but rather I just pencil and acrylic paint ) and I will never permanently dye my hair another color. I do go for the temporary versions of both of those though. For example, I have gotten henna designs and sharpie marker drawings on myself. Although they look “real” or permanent they change with time and allow your skin to absorb the experiences of the present without being affected by past images or words. Also I will only ever temporarily dye my hair and only small sections of it. Then when it comes to piercings I am conflicted, I would like to another in my ear but I am not sure if it is worth it. Also both of my parents do not approve of the idea. I have no desire to go against my parents who love and trust me on so trivial a thing. Finally I think I will just have to make due, my new project is to get feathers stabilized in my hair. I cannot wait!
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https://kmciurlionis.wordpress.com/2011/04/12/memo-9/#respondTue, 12 Apr 2011 02:57:36 +0000http://kmciurlionis.wordpress.com/?p=245Why do I always succeed in over thinking when it would do me much more good to just ask less and just let it go. I don’t know if its just me trying to make some drama in my life. That would be stupid because I have way more important things to spend my energy on… like school, work, loans, scholarships, family etc. Many of the things I over think have to do with my volatile self- esteem and how the decisions I make affect what people think about me. After doing something I am not particularly proud of I try to find solace and reassurance in other people. Sometimes I find it but sometimes when the products of my “over thinking” turn out to be true that is when nothing can be said to get my mind off it and the only medicine to my predicament is time and a large dose of perspective which is difficult to swallow all at once when my stubborn mind is resisting it. I read somewhere that that it is no use fretting over something that will not matter 20 years in the future. One thing I know I have to change/ grow out of is how much I question and doubt myself. If I listened to my gut more often I would probably over think less. This thing holding my back is that what if I end up spending more time thinking “what if”. I feel like the pent up energy of what if thinking can lead to scary things that can lead to regret. I also feel that is I try to block what I am over thinking it will only suspend and add to the amount of time it takes for me to completely get over it. I have only recently completely gotten over something (and I don’t think that this situation is as bad but it is very different so I don’t really know) and I can say that I have grown a lot from those decisions. I need to learn perspective like I need to get over my petty problems because they really aren’t that bad and that I should stop trying to be perfect and stop caring if certain people do not want to be my friends , I have friends that love me and that is all that matters and its more than some people can relate to. The more thought I put into these dumb issues the faster I get over them. I guess practice makes perfect. Ya live, ya learn.

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https://kmciurlionis.wordpress.com/2011/04/12/memo-8/#respondTue, 12 Apr 2011 00:13:59 +0000http://kmciurlionis.wordpress.com/?p=243I did not expect to feel it, but I do really feel a need to go to church. Ever since spring break when my great aunt passed away and I went to mass with almost my entire family I felt something that I have been missing for a long time without even knowing it. A sense of peace and comfort, a long needed solace for a mind troubled by the countless petty problems of school. Being home and with my family during that sad time reminded me of the importance and beauty of my Lithuanian heritage and traditions. After the funeral mass and luncheon my mother and I were extremely exhausted something about being in a group of people with that much emotion in one area was almost suffocating. I practically ran out of the room during the wake. Anyway I have never forgotten the importance of my heritage but being so far away from what I believed to be its source made it difficult to maintain a mental connection. Then I realized why can I not be its source, I have as much Lithuanian blood in my as my ancestors there is not excuse why I should rely on their surroundings cherish my culture. After thinking about it at home I realized two things. First, I should fulfill the promise I made to my grandmother and send her some prints of my photography. I had done whole project including pictures with my mother, father, and dog, Tera. I really think she would love to have them before she passes away, which may be very soon. I do not know why I keep putting it off… oh right school. … figures when I get an extra minute the whole rest of Syracuse is taking a minute off. So I can hardly even make it anywhere to get photos printed. Hopefully I will be able to get it done before the end of the year. The other thing I realized was that I wanted to take a bit of my traditions back to Syracuse with me, and my mother agreed that it was a good idea. I wanted to bring the paraphernalia to make Lithuanian wax decorated Easter eggs. I have invited some of my closer friends to join me and learn a very old tradition. I’m happy that they have agreed to attempt it. Decorating and dying eggs has always been something I look forward to every year.. almost more than Christmas Eve. The rhythm of the needle clicking the tin of the wax container and the steady scratch of the tip against the surface of the egg puts me in a sort of creative trance that I know generations of people can relate to. I would have to say I am the most enthusiastic egg decorator in my family and have gotten pretty good at the craft, but I always like doing it better when my whole family and/ or friends are sitting together sharing our culture and creativity.

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https://kmciurlionis.wordpress.com/2011/03/18/memo-7/#respondFri, 18 Mar 2011 13:41:46 +0000http://kmciurlionis.wordpress.com/?p=188I am now on spring break and it is great to be back home in Chicago. I had started to get incredibly homesick two weeks before break began. One time I was studying with my friend in the library and I just started crying out of nowhere, not just a little…. Like a lot. I was just happy to be with a good friend who could understand what I was going through and not feel embarrassed to be with me. I think the reason I started crying was because we had been eating cheese and crackers and talking about the different food we liked to eat back at home and what out parents were good at preparing. Wow. I think I have already talked about food in more than one of my memos. Well I think its important. Anyway, its sad that I am not able to see my dad over break because he is in Florida for several art fairs at the moments. He said that he would try to makeup for it by sending me a crate of oranges from a citrus grove he had gone to visit. I only recently realized how fitting it would be to send oranges to Syracuse. HAHAHA! Anyway I have observed that about homesickness can have a very sudden onset resulting from associations that you don’t even realize remind you of home until you really think about it. For example I was shaving my legs in the shower and then when I was in bed under the covers it made me think of my comforter back home. I started calling my mom about twice a day and then skyping with her at night until about 2 in the morning. We talk a lot about food I noticed and the different things were going to do when I come home. Most college students talk to their high school friends or people their age about what there going do to get away from their parents. I guess I am an exception. I tried to come to terms with the fact that I will inevitably be gaining weight over this break, there are just to many good things to pass up. So far we have enjoyed my homemade chocolate chip cookies, traditional Lithuanian food, very good cheese..etc. I wonder why cheese, crackers, and a good cup of tea evoke such a soothing feeling. Maybe it’s the perfecto combination of tastes or maybe it’s the prefect combination of textures. I don’t really know. Maybe its because I’ve grown up with those tastes and they give me a sense of comfort and foundation. On an ending note, I feel its just healthier to keep an open environment with ones parents because they deserve to know about the things you choose to do.

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https://kmciurlionis.wordpress.com/2011/03/18/memo-6/#respondFri, 18 Mar 2011 13:40:56 +0000http://kmciurlionis.wordpress.com/?p=186After much thought and consultation, I have decided to declare my major in Interior and Environmental Design. This was probably the last design field I had considered in the past, but the more I thought about the choices I was considering now I began to feel like they were not the right choice, that I could not really see myself going on doing what these other majors required or expected. The majors I had been thinking of in the beginning had been communications design or industrial design. Both sounded interesting and there were different aspects I would like to learn more of but It was beginning to get fuzzy the deeper I thought about those fields, like I was not looking in the right place or I was trying to adjust the focal lens on an object that will never become clear. I was beginning to get very worried about which direction I should be going when the foundations program organized open houses for all the school of art and design majors, complimented by “The Best Major Ever” exhibit in the student run gallery. This showcased the work of current students in every art and design major in order to help students make their decisions. Still not knowing which way to go I went to the gallery opening and was draw in by the work of the interior design students. It focused on pure spatial composition and innovation rather than witty rhetorical displays. I noticed that the more I thought about interior design the more I could think of different roads I could go down, before I had been lost as to what could be a possible future. One such road could be renovating historical buildings in Venice or other older European cities to make them livable and sustainable. Another factor that helped me along in this decision making process was the website StumbleUpon. One of the topics I had chosen to follow was design and interiors. This opened my eyes to so many wonderful images and projects that are open to my future. Everybody says that you should major in something that you find very interesting and that the work would feel worthwhile and rewarding. Decisions should be made because I feel that they would be right not because I feel others would want me to or to go against what I really like just to challenge myself. I don’t think I would call this a “change of heart” but rather a realization or acknowledgment of something I truly am interested in. This realization has led me to find an opportunity for an internship at the clothing store, Anthropologie working as an assistant designer for their visual displays. I am excited to see where this road will lead me.