So as most of u dont know shusio was never mine in the first place. I started playing 2 yrs after it came out and my girlfriend at the time decided she didnt want to go through the hassel of lvling a char. and bought shusio seeing how he was a lvl 52 whm.

Well things didnt work out with me and her. She wanted to spend money and not get a job so I ended up losing my brand new car and my house cuz of her. Kicked her out and I took over Shusio. Ive been in contact with the real owner of Shusio and he said he was proud seeing him grow up like he did. So in 7 yrs I took Shusio as a 52 whm to 75 along with 75 nin sam brd thf and rng to boot. Gained alot of gear. Met alot of friends. Lost alot of friends.

Reason I am saying all this is cause i never really looked as Shusio as mine. It never was and never will be. As for my recent actions. I totally lost it destroyed the linkshell I was so proud to have and deleted my account. Yet I sit here not satisfied. Why? I dont know. Maybe its the guilt of me caling Shusio mine this whole time?

I have been tossing the idea around in my head to quit for awhile now and some recent actions have fully led to my departure from ffxi. I didnt even really say goodbye to my friends.I just did it. All I could see what the hatred this game has caused me and turned me into a monster. . I was caught up in the moment of things and didnt care how I made the other ppl around me feel. I am truely sorry for this and I wish I could take it all back. But I cant and all I can do now is to move forward and hope for the best.

This game has done nothing but destroyed me and the ppl I was close too. I have grown to hate this game with a passion and just logging in makes me sick. This game has cost me alot. Way more then I care to remember. I dont even know why I am writing this. Maybe its to get it off my chest so I have one less burden to carry in my life as I try to move forward.

Shu, I would like to say something deep, thoughtful, and endearing. But we both know that isn't my style, so instead I'll just say...get over it :)

We all smack our heads thinking about the stupid stuff we did in the past. Thankfully, at least you know NOW that it was stupid. It's hard to admit, but you really can't change the past. Instead, use it to change the future. Just add it to the "stupid things to avoid doing again" list and move on.

If I ever taught you one thing, Shu, it's that life is what you make of it. You may not have had Shusio originally, but he was yours the moment you took the helm. For better or for worse, you made him what he was. Personally, I'd like to think it was for the better.

Oh yeah...and you really need to get laid, dude! Games don't make people depressed.

Don't dwell so much on what you "did" or "didn't do"; but dwell instead on what you CAN do. Hindsight is always 20/20 Shu. Being an adult sucks sometimes; but everything we do, good or bad, has a lesson to be learned along the highway of life.

The character you say you "bought" was the Shusio we all knew and you made it what it was. Don't look for something to blame; sometimes we just need to accept what we did for what it was.

It's easy to sit and look back and reflect perfectly on what "should have been". Reflection on the past is always easy..going forward is what is the hardest.

I can tell you this:

You gave me a place to hang my healer's cap when I was torn between staying in a game that I loved for many years; or quitting completely and moving on.

You gave me in my brief time in Ichiban; friends, respect, honor, a sense of humor and you always ready to lend a helping hand. Small gestures sometimes mean the most. That's what counted for me.

So, it takes a big man to come on these forums and apologize and open him (or her) self up like you have done; and frankly, I respect you for that.

Life is short - learn from the experiences you have had here; whether you never play another minute in FFXI or not, enjoy the journey and move forward.

"The Phoenix Hope can wing her way through desert skies; and still defying fortune's spite, revive from the ashes and rise" ---- Miguel De Cervantes

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~~~~~~~~~~~ The phoenix hope, can wing her way through the desert skies, and still defying fortune's spite; revive from ashes and rise ++ Miguel de Cervantes

Thanks Fem and Sophus. Your always there for me. After quitting ffxi I just wanted to tell the truth about Shusio. Yes I know after he was bought he became mine. That is the Shusio you all know. I just wanted everyone to know how Shusio became to what he is today.

Just was browsing a bit on internet waiting for my work to pay and thought, lets see if something changed in shiva. ^^

Saw your message Shu, never thought you bought that account but who cared. Doesnt matter if you bought it, the person who played it, you, was nice so who care how you got that character. Exept that it was an Elvaan, you were nice.

Quited myself for real in december or january 2010, know ive quited a lot in 2009 and came back over and over but the last time was for real. This game was ways to much time consuming even tho i just /sit on my **** whole day in jeuno lately.

If you come to FF14 later this year, lemme know ^^ . Email is: stormivan@live.nl Heard that Ripco, Dylanx and Wakkawakka maybe come too ^^. Dunno if you know them tho.

Trying to prevent myself to get addicted to a game from now on so im not playing any games anymore, also dont rly want it, real life is time consuming atm and dont even mind it lol.