Kedua, ...... i'm learning, relationship means much more than my ego. Confessed things i'm feeling nowadays directly to the person, and end up with tears, but tears with relief :") And yes, things get better, at least with my own feeling.

I ask You: "How many times will You pick me up, when I keep on letting You down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory, how far will forgiveness abound?"
And You answer: "My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face, You'll walk in the power of My daily sufficient grace."