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I would love to have another baby. I don't want one with my busband. I want a divorce. He's been very abusive over the years. We have 2 children and I have an older stepdaughter that is like my own. I have delt with multiple types of abuse over the years and am curretly living with my parents. I am scheduled to move back in with him for 2 to 3 months. "To see how things go." I only want my things back. Things that I have had since I was a little girl. I am not in love with him, nor am I sexually attracted to him. I am suposed to have papers in hand upon move in. I woud like to have my own things but the truth is I have tons of debt, no job, no real skills and little college. I have been told I'm a beautiful person inside and out but I don't like what I look like nor what I am. I'm a falure.