Coming (Out), Thank you Tim Cook!!

I AM WHO I AM, I'M HAPPIER THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN SINCE I'VE EMBRACED MY TRUE IDENTITY.

My Coming Out:By Trent Reynolds

For years, I've wanted to do the right thing as well as the “normal thing” and marry a girl. I've pondered and mulled over the possibility, over and over and over, because I've wanted to be "normal". Don’t get me wrong, as I think girls are beautiful, wonderful people and I've experienced some of my greatest life moments with them. However, I've just never been sexually attracted to them.

I have even been told 13 times by different women that ‘God’ had spoken to them that I was going to marry them. There was also one woman that didn’t share my spiritual beliefs. However, when I found out that she was going to leave her husband for me, I almost fell over! What a lucky man I am!

I was never told the same thing by “god”, let alone attracted to women. So, it wasn’t for lack opportunity that I "chose" my lifestyle".

I tried everything. I allowed demons to be “cast” out of me, I went for counseling, I utilized the power of thought, and I even tried being “healed” from this “Sickness” through prayer, (I am defiantly ‘Qwerky” just not “Sick”).

NONE of it worked and it just made me truly sick and even more confused, so the only alternative for me was celibacy. It worked for 12 short years.

I didn’t want to do what a lot of other Christians have done, and that is to marry “normal” and try to carry out a “normal” life. I was not willing to do that as I knew I would ruin the life of my wife, and I also knew I could never truly give her the "Love” she deserved. The marriage would have been a charade (or beard) (she is now happily married with a lovely daughter in the UK).

I couldn’t wait until this life was over. As each year passed, it steadily got worse trying to walk out celibacy knowing I would never experience what it's like to be “loved”.

I turned to food to mask my body shape, as I didn't want to be attractive to either sex. The food and drink became the “go-to pleasure” to maintaining a weight that allowed me to hide physically. That was just one part, but I was still left with the relationship part. While in ministry for 8 years, it was challenging to say the least (I had a lot of support as long as I stayed “true to natural”; when that changed I could count on one hand the number of true friends I had left).

Despite my vigilance, my world changed and Love found me. He was truly the best thing that ever happened. It did, however, destroy everything I had built in the previous 12 years. My old life was essentially over, and I lost everything that I knew to be safe and secure. He couldn’t deal with his predisposed sexual orientation, so under the bus I went and the church leadership were willing passengers/navigators as he drove the bus to what was “normal” (he is now “normally married”).

One year in to a life of hell and betrayal, I needed to live again. Otherwise I would have truly died, but I choose to live, so it was time to “reboot”. I chose to leave the church on my own terms, I needed a different point of view. The Church leadership believed that I still needed help, and they were right! Just not the "help" they prayed for.

So I did get help, and my eyes have been opened. “I once was blind but now I see”. I used to be ruled by fear but now I am truly free, a blessing in disguise. I have nothing to hide anymore!

My perspective has changed, I don't ever want anything to do with organised religion. However, I do want community and love that is inclusive and kind.

As I have been walking out the opportunities and relationships that have been placed before me these past two years, I’ve traveled and lived in many parts of North America as well as the UK for both business as well as for personal healing.

Last but not least Zack, a man of inspiration for me, a young man with Integrity and Character, Best life story I have ever had the privilege to experience! (Here)