What should I do?
What should I aim for?
I hate it
I love it
The uncertainty
The call
Is lulling me
Into sleep deprived thoughts
Should I emerge out of these illusions?
So many roads
And so many sins I need to
Atone for
Humility is a challenge
So I continue weeping
Waiting for someone to find me
Waiting for the apology
That will never come
We all have our heavy crosses
But still we go on
And I can’t stop now that I’ve begun
So feel the water run its course
And move on
Even if your track
Spirals out
Of
Control
…?

Standing in these corridors,
I take a deep breath
Feeling every thought on my skin…
And I realize you are all here
Surrounding me
I am never alone in these halls
Red spilled and swallowed right back
And spit out of a mouth which
Never knows how to give a proper answer.

I’m tired. So what? I’ve had a tough week. I can lay back a littleAnd relax And just not think. It’s okay if we can’t Be productiveEvery single moment Of our lives. Because even God Rested on the Seventh day, Right?

I’m feeling a little sad. So what? I’ve had a couple Of rough days before. Feelings should justBe validated Instead of ripped off of youAnd left hanging On the wall. Live through your sadness. Don’t be so hard On yourself. You’re only Human.

We are allowed to feel However the f***We want (need) to feel. It’s okay to miss the rhyme sometimes. Those motivation signs,One day, they’ll come in handy. But for now, let’s have a hug And just let ourselves be.

Sometimes I feel like I’m drowning. I feel like the world is dyingRight in front of me, cryingFor my help, but I can’t stop fallingAnd my throat is cloggingAnd my head is blazingWith so much thinkingAnd my heart is brimmingWith so, so much feelingAnd I begin believingIn some bad things, reachingA point where I’m screechingInside, my heart is goingBut I’m forced to keep stayingI want to run but I’m failingAnd at these times a voice is screamingThe only thing that I’m assimilating:Start writing.