Thursday, July 28, 2016

سهيل الليل

If a year ago, someone told me, you will have what I have right now. I would have cracked a broken laugh and told them you are really dreaming. As I would imagine myself drowned in sorrow all that time.

On May 29th, 2016 at 5:35 pm, we were blessed with another son I called سهيل. A name I chosen that reminds of all those good songs that had his name.

An angel baby indeed, he made my mama get better, he made me get better.

I never thought I would pass through birth without mom and hubby beside me. However, god sent my best friends, those who never at one second made me feel any less lonely. I have a family. A bigger family than I could imagine.

I learned that you can easily be whatever you tell your mind to be. I lived most years of my life reciting that am a very sensitive, dependant person. Going through my last expereince proved the compelete opposite. I chose to have a quite birth, with nobody but my doc. God made me trust her.

It was the first time that I draw a memory where I had full control of how I want it to be. That alone is the biggest miracle.