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Tuesday, February 22, 2011

"You still have that cheap thing?" He said, grabbing my hand looking at the .25cent silver cheap metal ring on my finger

" Yeah? Its the only jewelry you ever give me!" I said looking up at him with a questioning look, It is the only jewelry he every got me. It was for a joke, but I never part from it ever, while he hate it like never before. I had a Wii for Christmas, since I got him the PS move thing so no jewelry then. We're a weird gamer couple normal gift like necklace and...stuff is not natural for us.

" Your birthday is coming you will get one then" He said trying to take off the ring of my finger, I took my hands away before he pull it completely out and place it back.

"Why??" I wine " There is a 50% off of the jewelry store at the mall!" I said with a hint in my voice, he look away trying to avoid my eyes.

" No, on your birthday""fine"

" necklace or ring?"

"... necklace or ring?"

"yes" he look at me, arm cross laying on the cafeteria table " that's your choice, what do you want a necklace or a ring?"

That's a tough choice, my hand goes up automatically on my necklace I got 2 years ago from my grand parent, touching the soft surface of the half yellow star. I don't really need a necklace since I like that one a lot. And a ring well... It may look odd if I ask for a ring its like I'm bluntly saying ' yes I will marry you' and I do still have the cheap ring. I really like my cheap ring...

" What about a bracelet?" I ask," No bracelet, necklace or ring" he said quickly, he was ready to answer my question, he knew I was thinking of it.

" Why not? That's the only thing I don't have " He look away and pout, that made me smile, he look like a kid and he only do that face when he try to hold a secret to me but can't. He like me to much to lie.

" Cause it's the only thing I find that I know you will love" he said softly, I nearly didn't hear it over the loud debate my friends next to me was having. My smile grew" You want jewelry shopping!?" I said teasingly

" Yes and I know you will like both of them a lots sooo choose." he said, I can see his cheek getting redder, b'aw he's blushing!

" Well I already have a necklace-"" necklace or ring" he said cutting me.

I bit my lips as I look down on my left hand where the cheap ring was in my middle finger. He really don't like that ring so might as well lift that pressure off his shoulder.

" You really don't like that ring-""Necklace or ring" he cut me again, I have a bad habit of being able to make him buy both in the end so I know what he is doing there, only one. that's harsh.

" Ring" I said." you sure? you can't back down"" No I take the ring like that I wont wear that cheap ring anymore if I have a new one " I said my right hand pointing to the cheap ring. He grab my hand." Sad you would love that necklace" he said, shaking his head.

Ho now he is just plain mean.

" Did it had a key on it?" I ask, I love keys I have all the necklace available in my town that have a key in it. Really.

" yeah and a heart over and a key" he said his hand gesturing in front of him, drawing the necklace in the air.

" aww" I wine.

" Heart, key, Kingdom heart? see, see" he said, poking me. I'm a huge fan of the game series Kingdom Heart. Made me thing I saw the new DS game of kingdom heart in used on EB need to go get it someday humm.

Our friend start to stand up and packing up, lunch is over time to go to class." I still take the ring babe" I said to him, I couldn't hear what he said before he kiss me and run to his class that was the other building over.

As I walk to my class. I though of my choice and really I did good by choosing the ring for my birthday, cause if it would have been in Christmas in front of my family, I don't know how everything will go. I can just picture my mother going " Steepppphanie you guys only be out for a year, no marriage yet! At least wait until your sister wedding is over!"

At least on my birthday they wont see it.

****First draft of a real story

me and my boyfriend talking at lunch.

I still have this funny flipping feeling in my stomach when ever I think of it. Its not something you see around a boyfriend giving a ring to girlfriend and say its not for marriage. He is 23 now but I don't know if we are ready for this big step.

I have a lot of homework, but I may get less now that I will as the head department if I can be a partial student, basically only have the class I need to graduate. I can since on guy already was able to quit the class I don't like much ether so. If I can get ride of that class I will have less homework right there and lots of time.

I basecly now take my villain project and go through the How to think sideways course because I couldn't get myself to write it, there was something off about it and I notice that I was forcing my muse to only think in a box I lay down. In a world he doesn't know how to live in. Playing with toys he doesn't like.

So I took him out and said, what do I need to do to make this story interesting and fun for me ( and him) write. And I got so many idea's I see a series coming along now the way he is playing around with the idea. The first book outline is half. I made the character see who is the real villain and hero around.

I play around some word and I really like the title being " Not so Hero"

what you guys think? What do you think when you read those word? Having different opinion and seeing if just by the title someone can understand the feel of my story will help. I will say later in a post what is the feeling I was trying to give.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

I start writing a scene from Villain project that was stuck in my head for I while. I know it will be part of my story that's for sure I love that scene anyway, but in the middle of it I was stuck to find the right words for it, and I`m writing the story in third person because some scene have a view of what the male main character does I guess I felt like I had no choice to write it in third person because of that.

But right in the middle of a scene I change into first person, just for the fun to see if there will be a change and wow. 2000 word in less then an hour, the word was throwing themself at me I had more fun to write in first person then in third person, so I will continue in that. I know that I didn't write well for that 2000 word. I had a bit of a hard time making things look like I wanted, but I figure I will push that through How To Revise Your Novel lesson when I will buy it in summer.Since you know I already have 10k to go through and change to first person already ( I'm going to finish the novel first!).

I'm also thinking of passing the story in HTTS lesson, like you guys know I had to stop for a while(month! D:) because of my homework but I got a bit of motivation this week, I manage my time and dates when the project is due and I got a bit of free time, that's why I started to write the random scene from the novel.

But before I go ferder in the novel I guess I should have an idea where things should go around. Since the outline I did previously is garbage, everything is bad now. I don't want to use 3/4 of the bad guys character I made and its good, because really even when I started it was bad.

Funny I only read the lesson 13 for HTTS and it was on how to love your story again when you just want to finish everything off and move on. It basically open my eye that I need to plan a better outline now that I know where its going...a bit, my characters still surprises me.

I also started to make home made books! I have three already done, but only one could be really sold. The first two were experience and really...ugly and not straight XD

Sorry for the really bad pictures but I pick a really bad time to take pictures and my camera wasn't that great.

anyway that's the most of what I wanted to say (and show) Hope everyone is doing okay and have a nice week!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

It's really weird to see my blog in a different name. I mean I had it for more then 50 reports with being Zenxara and now with my name? is just weird. Not use to it yet.

Anyway this will be a short and sweet report. I have a lot of homework to do and it explain why my word count did move higher recently. There is also Officially now, I have all the materials and I'm working on making homemade sketchbooks! I have one under a pile of programming books to keep straight and another one drying the spin that I glue in place. Its really easy and quick. I only made 2 and already wreck and destroy it. I did a lot of mistake and I'm learning in the process.

I mean the first book the pages are uneven ( really uneven XD) I fix that in the second one, but the second one to bind the pages together I was sowing it wrong and learn in the process that uneven number of holes doesn't work.

What I have plan is that I will do a few for animaritime ( enough time to make a lot of mistake and learn in the process) and sell them. That's what I been doing for the past arh, two days haha.

now I have a few homework.That I will list here to remind myself and show you guys:

Rover programming. Basically a graphic design of the mars rover where it move by itself and try to find the goal point. Done the graphic, its time to program!

mobile game. Now that we learn how Java ME works its time to make my first assignment, well second, I don't remember the first one so I better check that out before I lose more points then I'm already am.

Individual project, I started and need to fix a few bugs in my code before going in deeper in the detail of it. If I can make the monster move and the player shoot. I'm good.

flash program. I need to finish the balloon burst project. I need to fix the code for it to collect points when ever the player burst a balloon and place the 2 min timer like that there is a endgame!

start the programming in the 15 group people project, but our project manager have my notes! I need to ask him if I can take it for a while to make copies XD

start and program the two people network programming . I'm so not into network programming its unbelievable. I don't want to work on it AT ALL I never felt that way before, usually I work on it anyway and figure a way to make it work. Not for that class anyway, I only drew all day and plan some design for my books.

And I think that's it for now some are easy, if I actually put my head into it. And some are harder and longer.But for me I feel like everything is hard, because I'm jumping around different code ALL DAY and its very tiring. I just want to focus on one language and forget the others. but NOP flash, java, C++/SDL some C# here and there. all in one day. God I can't wait for it to be over like that I can start working. Any work. I hate how everyone expect me to have the best job there is straight as I leave school, but it ain't gonna happen since I'm staying in Miramichi for a year. I probably gonna work as a librarian or on Wal-Mart floor for a year.But really I'm fine with this, parents may not be but I am. I just don't want my head to explode with more stress of programming.

The first year of programming was fine, since we where only focusing on one type of language and POOF the second year they quadruple the amount of work. My head feel like its going to explode by the end of every term, and its not the amouth of homework there is its the amouth of work itself to make the project work! Thats when I knew I wasn't fit to be a programmer, to much stress is litary killing me.

My mother can't work due to a third burn out in a row, my sister is on her second but she is fit to work at least and all because of to much stress. I don't want to fell in that category. I know Writing is the same but at least I not gonna fall asleep on the keyboard crying because I can't figure how to make my code work properly.

anyway time to work on the individual project. I really should be working on the rover project, but I don't want to, I have the week-end for that. And I have a limit of time for my trial with flash so.