Rule 1: No pooftas. Rule 2: No maltreating the theists, IF, anyone is watching. Rule 3: No pooftas. Rule 4: I do not want to see anyone NOT drinking after light out. Rule 5: No pooftas. Rule 6: There is NO...rule 6.

The point is that if you have cancer, fight it, stop thinking it is there.

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Well if you go around saying "this cancer is going to kill me, and i have nothing i can do about it", you are not going to get very far, aren't you?

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Well if you go around saying "this cancer is going to kill me, and i have nothing i can do about it", you are not going to get very far, aren't you?

Okay, thanks for the clarification. Can you see how "fight it" seems to contradict "stop thinking it is there"? And how the quote from Free might seem dismissive, as if saying someone talking about their cancer is annoying and should just shut up?

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Live a good life... If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones. I am not afraid.--Marcus Aurelius

Rule 1: No pooftas. Rule 2: No maltreating the theists, IF, anyone is watching. Rule 3: No pooftas. Rule 4: I do not want to see anyone NOT drinking after light out. Rule 5: No pooftas. Rule 6: There is NO...rule 6.

I can make a tulpa if I want to. This is my thread, my cancer, my fight, my prerogative. I wasn't being sarcastic I was accepting you the way you are.

You are actually making one? O.o...okay.Maybe make thread with me? ;P

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Tomorrow is the 11 year mark since my brother succumb to pancreatic cancer. He never had a chance. It broke my parents hearts but it also started a healing between them and I. My brother's life and death was not in vain.

Gary Randall Gibson 2/17/70 thru 10/14/2002 RIP

Angus I wish your smite happy ass would just stay clear of here. You do not lift my spirit or my hope. You bring me down man.

Rule 1: No pooftas. Rule 2: No maltreating the theists, IF, anyone is watching. Rule 3: No pooftas. Rule 4: I do not want to see anyone NOT drinking after light out. Rule 5: No pooftas. Rule 6: There is NO...rule 6.

This is a support thread, Angus. Arguments or negative comments or smites really are out of place here, and quite off topic. There are plenty of other places to confront JB. She started the thread ... its really up to her what its about. There's a time and place for bitter truths, and this is not it. This, as her title states, is a place for Junebug to get support while she goes through chemo. Chemo sucks. I've been through it and would not wish it on my worst enemy.

Please, regardless of your feelings about JB or her opinions, keep on topic here. If you don't wish to offer support, this is not the thread for you.

Rule 1: No pooftas. Rule 2: No maltreating the theists, IF, anyone is watching. Rule 3: No pooftas. Rule 4: I do not want to see anyone NOT drinking after light out. Rule 5: No pooftas. Rule 6: There is NO...rule 6.

Rule 1: No pooftas. Rule 2: No maltreating the theists, IF, anyone is watching. Rule 3: No pooftas. Rule 4: I do not want to see anyone NOT drinking after light out. Rule 5: No pooftas. Rule 6: There is NO...rule 6.

Tomorrow is the 11 year mark since my brother succumb to pancreatic cancer. He never had a chance. It broke my parents hearts but it also started a healing between them and I. My brother's life and death was not in vain.

Gary Randall Gibson 2/17/70 thru 10/14/2002 RIP

If you can take any kind of peace from such an event, then more power to you. Please honor his memory by living long, junebug.

Well I hardly remember last week. I know Thursday I didn't know if I was going to make it. I was so weak, body trembling, hot and cold chills. I still say the worse side effect for me is what it's doing to my mouth. I swish,swish,swish and it doesn't help much. Food just makes me want to gag.

This week will be better but I can't help but wish that was my last treatment. I'm going to be so so happy when that day comes mid December. I'm looking at it as a present.

My son and family are coming over today. Many smiles. Wes will mow one last time and gather up some more wood for me while April helps out inside. I will hold the baby and it's going to be a wonderful day.!!!

I can't help but feel somewhat neglected. I know there are many friends and some family that love me. My phone doesn't ring. Nobody knocks on the door. I'm lonely. I know that's why I spend so much time on here. I also get to talk about something that's important to me. It's not trivial like how many treats the dog ate, etc.. It's stimulating conversation. I have learned a lot from here. I just wish I didn't make people so mad.

I would like to get into proving the existence of God as a life's goal but I really do not know where to start. Am I too old and worn out to start something new. I get the most discouraged not knowing what lies ahead. I need to start figuring it out. I want to do something that means something. Getting laid off broke my heart. I put that job up there in the people I love category. That's what made me so good at it. I was better than the boss. I think that's what got me in trouble. That and they didn't know what to do with their lesbian. I think they hired me for political correctness and to feel good about it. I don't think they realized I had dreams; that I was human. Sometimes I wish I had kept that to myself. Hindsight is 20/20.

What next? The question of the day.

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So glad that overall, things are looking up for you. I'm sorry you're lonely at times; I'm a very solitary person by nature, but even I need to and do socialize.

Right now you need to concentrate your resources on getting through treatment and recovering your health. But part of the answer to your question might be volunteer work, when you can spare the time and energy. I'm sure that's occurred to someone as empathic as you before. A thought for the future, perhaps.

Here's to holding your grandchild and unwrapping that present in December!

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Live a good life... If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones. I am not afraid.--Marcus Aurelius

Like I said before, holding him is an affirmation of life. I was just looking for an article from years back about how a hospital noted an improvement in elderly patients' recoveries when those patients did volunteer work in the maternity ward. Sorry, couldn't find a link; I'll try again later.

Sounds like you're doing pretty well, junebug. You have your supporters in RL and a few here; more importantly you have you on your side. You will see this through and walk out of the shadow, head high.

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Live a good life... If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones. I am not afraid.--Marcus Aurelius

Thank you so much for standing by me. I too think beliefs should be put aside to support a fellow human being. You're words are always inspiring and encouraging. I appreciate you so much.

Spent Tuesday at the hospital with an inflamed pancreas and hives. My pancreas feels better but these hives I believe are a side effect from the neulasta shot. It helps keep my red blood cells developing. I'm having some neuropathy from it. It itches and burns especially my hands.

Thanks again,JB

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JB: Last summer I was going through chemo so I know some of what you are going through. It is really tough. People don't really realize it until they go through it themselves. I'm really sorry to hear about your past experiences and how that is now not exactly helping with the current medical treatments. I still have my port and get it flushed monthly--a quick prick and it's over. I hope that you will come to appreciate not having to get an IV every time! I'd rather have a port than an IV!

The worst thing for me was the weakness. I would have to push up on the floor just to get up from the toilet! Sheesh! Second worse thing--terrible, terrible gas/GERD. I felt like my stomach was seething with gas for 3-4 days in between the chemo treatments.

I asked the doctor if my weakness was made worse because I wasn't in too good of shape before the chemo (overweight, not exercising, etc.). She said, nah, even athletes get these side effects. I don't know why but that made me feel better! They are sending deadly chemicals through your system--of course it's going to affect you!

But...I am now cancer-free and feeling 98% recovered. Still have neuropathy though in the toes, like Traveler said.

You are a strong lady--just keep waiting out the time. It does get better if the treatments work...