The 23-year-old beauty , who has had surgery to change her looks in recent years, says she thought she was thinner than she was when she joined the show, only realising she was overweight when she saw herself in photos.

Looking back on old snaps of her with VERY different hair and a dark tan, she told Now magazine: "I felt amazing, fabulous and like a million dollars on our first shoot ... and then I saw the picture.

"This was the first time I realised I was overweight and it was horrible. I look disgusting. I was a size 16 and 13st. It's like body dysmorphia - expect I had it the opposite way."

She added: "I thought I looked better than I did. Everything was horrific."

But she was never confident about the way she looked at school and was bullied by girls in her class, admitting in her autobiography, Not Quite A Geordie, that the hurtful comments drove her to self-harm.

"It was a nightmare," she said. "I've had bullies and trolls all of my life - I'm able to deal with it better now. My life has a lot more plus points these days compared to the grief that I get. I'm stronger!"

Holly Hagan shows off her pout (Image: instagram.com/hollygshore)

Bit nippy, Holly? (Image: XPOSUREPHOTOS.COM)

Holly had her first boob job when she was 18 - going from a 32B to a 32FF - and says changes to her face are all non-surgical.

The star insists she's only had her lips done once and had Botox because she didn't like the way she looked when she cried on TV.

"Looking at how far I've come, I'm happy with my appearance now, but I wouldn't say I'm 100 per cent," she said.

"That's impossible for me. I'd like my boobs a little smaller next ... but I'm just going to think about that one for now."