Real Life Stories

These are the words of a young woman in the UK who had an abortion when she was 24. This is not an unusual case, yet the abortion providers are withholding telling these women the damaging facts of abortion.

"I was in my early twenty's when I discovered I was pregnant. I wasn't in a stable relationship and I felt very alone and scared. Till this day I regret what I did. There is not a day goes by where i dont try to imagine how my baby would have looked like.

Would it have been a boy or a girl?. The guy I was with didn't want to know and wanted me to have an abortion as soon as. In my mind I had no choice as I knew I would have been alone in this and people I love would have got hurt. But the only person who ended up getting hurt was me. It was the worst experience of my life and i cried from the moment I got to the clinic to the moment I came out. It is something that I have to live with now for the rest of my life, and I still feel the guilt every single day. It took me a very long time to find a tiny bit of peace with what I did but it will still be with me forever. I wish I had just told my parents I now know they would have supported me no matter what. I hope my story stops other girls going for an abortion as it is never the right answer, no matter what situation your in there is always people out there who can help you. I just wish I had asked for help before it was too late."

Does Abortion Hurt Women?

The following testimonies have all come through CBR US's online survey and message board. They are posted here to help illustrate the profound pain that so many unsuspecting women feel after they have aborted.

I have had an abortion and to this day I regret it everyday. I was forced to do it, but I would never do it again. It was the hardest thing for me. To this day, I still cry because of it.

Age: 22

I had an abortion myself at the age of 16. I wish I had seen pictures like this then. My child would probably be alive today.Age: 40's

Unfortunately these pictures are 30 years too late for me, and I'll never know what it's like to have a child. I wish you were present with these pictures in 1976.

Age: 51

I had an abortion at the age of 16. My boyfriend at the time was cheating on me. I only WISH I had seen this site back then. It would've changed my mind INSTANTLY, and now, I'm living with the guilt. I'm so sorry, I hope that God will forgive me one day. I only wish that I never got it done.

Age: 19

When I was very young, I more or less sounded off like my pro-choice mother. I had gotten pregnant and was basically forced to get an abortion by her and the baby's father @ 3 weeks. I never really recovered the horror. I've tried to put it out of my mind, but I cry and cry and basically cannot forgive myself. A few years later, I accidently got pregnant again, but by a different boyfriend. I THANK GOD I didn't abort her. While my mother and his parents were screaming ABORT, he and I refused. She doesn't know and I will never tell her about that. She knows that I had an abortion before and is so pro-life. I am now remarried and have an infant son. My views on abortion after my daughter was born (by the way, I stopped talking to my mother for 7 mos. because of this) were sort of distorted. If there was a life and death choice, I use to believe that it was okay to abort. But after seeing these images, it's not.

Age: 40

I know I [messed] up, and no matter what, it's not going to change the fact that I've already done it. I have my little girl, and all I can think about is if, and when, the subject arises, how am I going to tell her she should've had an older brother or sister that was 6 years older than her?

Age: 20

If I had seen this website before the dreadful day of Feb.7, 2006, I would have never done it. I was between 5-7 weeks and didn't know all the facts or views. I wasn't ready for a fourth child with my third child having heart disease, and being financially limited. Those were my excuses and now they don't seem too important in comparison to what I've done! I feel shattered inside and out. I can't even say the word "baby" without feeling so guilty. Everytime my husband tells me that I should forget it and leave it in the past, it gets harder to do. Please inform all women young and old, unmarried or married, because this will scar you forever and deeply. There is only one thing for me to do and is to talk to all women and show them the truth and ask God for forgiveness of my shameful act.

Age: 31

I had an abortion, and it was the worst decision I made in my life. Now, looking at the website has really made me realize what I did... I would never tell anyone to get an abortion. THERE ARE ALWAYS OTHER OPTIONS!!!!!

Age: 20

I'm 16 years old and have had an abortion previously, I regret it more than anything...

Age: 16

I had four abortions and never in my dreams did anyone show me or even talk me out of it. After seeing what I saw here, I wish to God that somebody would have stopped me. I killed my 4 children. Oh my God.

Age: 43

I had an abortion in June of 05. I would never think of doing it again because of the emotional pain that follows. I wish that I had seen this site before. I never would have done what I did. Now because of everything, and soon after the abortion, I became prolife but I am still ridiculed by people because of the stupid decision I made.

Age: 23

I had an abortion when I was 18. It was the beginning of my senior year. At the time I felt like it was the right thing to do. I didn't know exactly how far along I was so the doctor did an ultrasound to see "what procedure needed to be done". While the ultrasound was being performed, the "doctor" showed me the screen. I felt so horrible about what I was fixing to do... in the operating room I remember feeling really faint and unable to breathe and very sweaty all of a sudden. The last thing I remember is feeling all cloudy and trying to say stop. I had decided I didn't want to do it. When I woke up, I had sharp pains in my legs. When I asked the nurse what had happened, she told me that I lost a lot of blood so they had to give me potassium injections. I think about it every day of my life. According to the doctor, March 12 was my due date, and when it came this year, all I could think about was that my baby would have turned 1 this year. When I was looking at the pictures (on your website), I became physically ill. I literally had to go throw up. Now there is a possibility that I may be pregnant again and I know that if I am I am going to have this baby. I would never ever, consider abortion again. It has ruined me forever! If you're reading this, and considering abortion, think about this - it will literally haunt you for the rest of your life. Believe me, I thought that I wouldn't be bothered by it, and I am. I have many emotional issues now because of it. And if you're considering it because your boyfriend isn't ready and you want to be with him, then you need to know that a man is not worth having an abortion over. You will have plenty of support without it, he is not worth it. Trust me, I know first hand!

Age: 19

I had an abortion in 1996. I am now 29, and since the day it happened, I have been tortured by the pain of my loss. I believe I will see my baby in heaven but will never forgive myself for this.

Age: 29

I had an abortion in 1999. It destroyed me emotionally. I wish that I had seen sites like your's before I walked into that clinic...I would not have aborted my son. I regret the so called "choice" I made....I would give ANYTHING to have my son back.

Age: 27

I had an abortion in 2004. It is the worst thing any woman can do to the life of a little innocent [child] . To myself I did a lot of harm forever and ever... The only thing I know is if I knew what to do better in the past I would. But I was such a weak person that I thought I had better priorities than to deal with what was already present, my baby. I was under a lot of pressure, but being 21 years old I should of known better. But I guess I didn't.

Age: 22

When I was a young girl I had a friend who convinced me to have a few abortions. I never realized what they did and regret it. They should show these pictures before you have one.

Age: 30

I have had an abortion. It was the worse thing I have ever done in my life. The abortion clinics made sure that their TV that shows a video conveintley didn't work. So I never saw the video that I was suppose to see. NOW...........after 3 years, I have bad dreams, depression, and always thinking about the child I killed for my own conveince of just wanting to be single and not have to worry about working two jobs. Abortion is an easy way out..............but you live with murder on your brain every day of your life. Don't do it women...............you will never forget. Thanks for this site! You have changed my life. I am now producing the truth about abortion being linked to breast cancer. (They never tell you this when you get an abortion).

Age: 33

Years ago, being afraid to tell my parents that I was pregnant, I had an abortion. At that time (the early 70s), information like this, as well as pictures were not available. We were told that the embryo/fetus was just a kidney bean shaped tissue...not a real life. Had this information been out there, my choice would have most certainly been different. Here I am at 52, with no children, and no grandchildren...Not only do the young women need to be educated, so do their parents. Opposing abortion cannot stop there. We must support stronger sex education classes in schools, with explicit graphics of aborted children. Our young people must be taught that prevention of pregnacy whether through abstinence or birth control is paramount. I live with grief and shame and guilt every day of my life. I doubt I would have these same feelings had I given birth.

Age: 52

I had an abortion a little over 8 weeks ago and I was already 3 months and 2 weeks along, and I didn't realize how fully formed the baby was already until I saw thesepics and that stage and it kills me. I have been so depressed since.

Age: 27

I've had 3 abortions, now i'm 25 years old and I regret it. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about it. I wish I knew about this website before.

Age: 25

I can't believe what I did. I'm disgusted with myself. It makes me feel cold and numb. I wish I never even put myself in the situation to beging with. It's a horrible tramatic part of my past that will always be in my memory and will always be PART OF ME. It's not just my past... it's ME. I am a murderer... and I did it in the shadows, alone. So lonely, scared and immature. It hurts to know that was me, laying there, letting a man I did not know, never previously met, take my baby's life from INSIDE of me. It's horrible.

Age: 21

I had an abortion when I was 17. Until I came to Christ I never saw it as bad. When I saw this site I wept bitterly. I think I needed the images to truly feel. I realized I took a life that would have been 9 years old now. I now have a daughter and I look at her and can't imagine what life would be like without her. I never even realized what a fetus looked like at such early stages in the pregnancy.

Age: 26

I'M A MOM OF FOUR AND JUST RECENTLY HAD AN ABORTION.... NOT REALLY KNOWING THE FACTS OF WHAT AN ABORTION REALLY DOES.... KNOWING NOW WHAT I DIDNT KNOW THEN IS TEARING ME APART. I CRIED FOR ABOUT 10 MINUTES.... I AM SO HURT AND DESTROYED BY MY CHOICE THEN ...BUT I CAN ASSURE MY SELF IT WILL NOT HAPPEN AGAIN.

Age: 30

I had an abortion last year and had I known the process I would have never done it. After viewing this site I feel sick with guilt.

Age: 25

I had an abortion when I was 16 yrs old without my parents knowing about it. I never got over it, the grief I felt through my life was unbearable, I had five more children to try and fill the void I was feeling, but it still didn't go away. If I didn't have an abortion my child would be 16yrs old this year, and even though I have 5 beautiful children I think about her every single day, I think about what she would have looked like, I cry for her... If I had seen this then I would have never had an abortion. I was never offered any counselling just given a date and told to turn up. In New Zealand where I live we just have to see our school counsellor and they arrange it and they dont have to inform our parents, I was 16 for goodness sake. I had pressure from my boyfriend to get an abortion and he paid for it (think about it he paid someone to murder our child). My parents dropped me at school, I bused into town where I met my boyfriend, he drove me to the clinic, and then I had the abortion all whilst I was in my school uniform, went home and pretended that nothing ever happened!!! At the time I must of suffered some sort of Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, I was just numb so numb..Looking at this website has in some way helped me to grieve my loss. My faith also helps me knowing that God has forgiven me and the fact that I will see my child in heaven keeps me going, although it has taken as long time and a lot of work on myself to get to this point. I held on to such guilt for so long. I am grateful that I can also use this website as a resource to inform other young ladies when they are contemplating abortion. Although the pictures are hard to take this is a very sad reality....

Age: 16

How can you judge me? How can you say what is right or wrong? You cannot decide for me. This is my body, my baby, my life and future. How do you know how it feels? Let me tell you how it feels to walk in my shoes, down my path, I feel ripped inside, torn in two, as I lay there and feel my child torn from my womb, all the tears that I have cried, all the tears that fall from my face onto the floor as I see my child lifeless in a tray. I wonder what he or she would have been, what could it have looked liked, now in the tray you look like wet cotton. I see no face, no hands. I will hear no cries, hear no feet on the floor, no bottle changing. You all think I am so bad, you scream in my face, "NO TO KILLING YOUR BABY". You said it all, "MY BABY". I am in pain. I feel ashamed, how was I to know that it would feel this bad? Who are you to judge, to say what I should do, do you know how I feel, do you know my situations do you even care? You're so quick to judge, let me tell you when I aborted MY BABY, MY FETUS, I also killed myself. Inside I am dying slowly, my life will never be the same. I close my eyes and there it is, that day I will never forget. How can I? You all are so quick to judge and protest, what about the way we feel, what about our feelings and situations, did you ever stop to think about that? No you quickly decided that you control everyone. I bet you don't even control your own life. What's your story how is your life, what are your kids like? I am not alone. I walked the path that many have taken and who can say what is right for another person? You do not live with us it's none of your Business, I thought America was home of the FREE. What about my rights? Did you ever stop to think it's "MY BABY, MY BODY, MY LIFE, MY PAIN"?

Age: Unknown

I had an abortion 12 years ago, and I have suffered from it since the day it was done. There is no grief worse than losing a child, unless it is knowing that you have intentionally killed your own, out of sheer selfishness. I have had nightmares, flashbacks of the procedure including the physical pain I experienced, and periods of severe depression. I am still taking 3 medications for depression and anxiety. I wish I could go back in time and take it all back - but we can only move forward.

Age: Unknown

I had an abortion 5 years ago. It haunts me every day. I wish I could go back...If I had any idea what the horrific process of abortion really meant for the baby inside me, I would have never done it. The Doctor just said it's a tiny lump of tissue-no feeling,no brain-he was a liar! They do have a brain-they are a living breathing human being, and it's MURDER to take their life-at any stage of pregnancy...Please share with young women the realities of abortion. You can make a difference in someone's life! I applaud your efforts in this website, and I hope that we all succeed in outlawing abortion in the very near future.

Age: 27

I never really knew the details behind abortion. I was made to believe the things that society and planned parenthood believe...that it is not a human before so many months. I never knew the horrible things done to fetuses, especially in later trimesters. Viewing these kind of sites has turned me from ProChoice to ProLife. I regrettably had two abortions as a teenager. I did not want to, but felt pressured by boyfriend and family that this was the right choice. I now have to live with the fact that I committed murder twice and will never be forgiven for that. Ten years later, I remember just as vividly as if it happened yesterday.

Age: 28

This site just crystallized my ever-growing guilt. 23 years since my first abortion (3 total). My children would be at the start of their adult life if I had let them live.

Age: 39

My mother had an abortion before my brother, sister and I were born and the doctor told her to abort all of us as well. Her abortion has nearly ruined her life still today 30 years later. Its life destroying consequences, including the guilt and lack of self confidence it has created, has negatively flown into mine, and my brother and sisters lives as well causing 2 generations of destruction.

Age: 25

I had an abortion when I was 14 I cried the whole time. I didn't know how they got the baby out.

Age: 16

I had an abortion 20 years ago, and since then I have been against it. I do nothing but cry at times, when I think that I could have done such a terrible thing, but I didn't know any better at the time, no one was there to support me. I didnt know what to do, I went to Planned Parenthood to talk to them and they told me the best thing to do was to get an abortion. They put me under anesthesia so I wouldn't feel anything. For some reason in the middle of it, I woke up and saw this machine that resembled a vacum cleaner and saw all the body parts being torn up and sucked in, I ended up passing out, and when I woke up it was the hell that begin in my life. Please keep doing what youre doing and hopefully we will get through.

Age: 37

I'm so glad you have sites like these to help people understand what abortion is. I was once trapped into getting one, a long time ago, and I'm still suffering.

Age: Unknown

I have had one abortion already but I would never consider it again, it was too traumatizing, and I know that I will always regret it. It's over now and there is not much I can really do but I do know that I might have made the wrong decision.

Age: 19

I had an abortion when I was 17 and I broke down in tears in the front of the computer just knowing that. That's what happened to my child.

Age: 22

I had an abortion about a year ago and seeing these pictures are real devestating to me because I now feel the pain and suffering more because of what I have done. Abortion should be illegal!!

Age: 21

Four years ago as a screaming, radical "pro-choice" advocate I would have had a visceral, angry response to your convoy of trucks of aborted fetuses -- as I did to any prolife rally or candidate -- and that's because I hadn't confronted my own abortion 14 years earlier, and the truth of these type of pictures hurt because I was living a lie that my abortion didn't hurt me psychologically and spiritually. Since then I've seen the horror I've committed against MY OWN flesh and blood.

I'm one of the thousands of women coming out of the shameful closet admitting that abortion hurts women and kills babies.

DON'T EVER give up your mission to spread the truth of the horrors of this American holocaust.

Age: Unknown

I had an abortion, most awful mistake of my life. I will never be the same.

Age: 39

It brought back memories of my two abortions. I was (spiritually) blind and selfish. Abortion clinics should, by law, have real photos of the abortion process so women can make an informed decision.

Age: 54

I have had an abortion myself. Never was I told by the nurses or doctors the suffering that a unborn baby goes through. I asked and the nurse said the baby does not feel a thing with anesthetic that is given to me. I just want to cry.

Age: 27

I hate the fact that I [had an abortion]. I did not know how developed it was at 7 weeks. My heart feels heavy now.

Age: 24

I had [an abortion] and suffered depression and tried to take my life. Now I am a Born-Again Christian,and want women to know that it is oh so wrong!

Age: 42

I feel sick, angry, and sad for all of us women who have had an abortion, whether by choice or coercision. What a horrible way to treat life.

Age: 41

I have had a abortion in the past at a younger age. I felt that it was my only option. I regret the choice that I made because I did not realize that I was actually hurting an innocent child.

Age: 23

My very wanted baby granddaughter died at 23 weeks due to my daughters incompetant cervix. Her cervix was damaged when she had an abortion when she was sixteen. Losing the baby made me think about life and death, which led me to this site.

Age: 47

I was 18 when I had my abortion and I waited until I was 5 months (along) to have it. I had to wait because at the time I found out I was only 17. I along with my baby's father and boyfriend regret it to this day, we kept an ultrasound of the baby, pray for forgiveness, talk to the baby, and kiss the picture each day we see another day. I wish I could turn back the hands of time and get the chance to kiss and hug my baby.

Age: 18

To put it simply, I wish I would have known about abortionNo.org before I had [an abortion] myself. At least I would have known the truth!

Age: 21

I have two children and one dead...murdered by me through abortion. Had it been illegal, I would have three graduations to attend, three weddings to plan and millions of hugs, kisses and cherished moments If not for the forgiveness of Christ, (because for 15 years I couldn't forgive myself). I would still be suffering from alcoholism, depression and insurmountable guilt and mourning.

Age: Unknown

I had an abortion. I wish I would have never done it.

Age: 19

I always heard that when you aborted a baby after 8 weeks you couldn't even see it. I did have an abortion when I was very young and after looking at your site I must say that I am no longer for abortion and I am very upset and hurt that I did it...

Age: 18

I have asked the Lord to forgive me. Will He, when I can't forgive my self? At the time I had 4 children, my marriage was hell. I was too selfish to carry my baby and give it away to some one and wonder and worry the rest of my life about her (I say her because in my heart I know she was a girl). I know this doesn't make sense... Not a day goes by that I don't hear, "why not me, why not me?" I just think she is watching from heaven and wondering why not me! Because I'm selfish, like a child myself, "if I cant have you, no one will!". I was very sick minded but I live with it every day. I wish some one had showed me these pictures. I hope I can forgive myself one day…

Age: Unknown

I was lied to and convinced by Planned Parenthood in Peoria Illinois that this was not a baby when I was 20 years old. Since that time, I swore never again after I learned the truth 2 years after the fact. I am now 32 years old and have 4 boys, and would do ANYTHING to stop someone from being LIED to, and save a child's life... I will never be the same.

Age: Unknown

Unfortunately, I had two (abortions) without knowing the truth of what I was doing.

Age: 26

Since abortion is legal, I assumed that it was my choice to say "No", and my obligation to keep my nose out of other people's business. At 17 my parents took me to an abortion clinic to keep my pregnancy from interfering with my college education, there was never any discussion about options. Until I saw the pictures here, I never realized how VERY wrong that "choice" was, both for me then (yes, it has haunted me for decades, even without your pictures), and for all unborn babies now. It IS my obligation to help stop this act of violence. Thank you for your honesty.

Age: 45

I was never aware of the development of the baby at such an early time in pregnancy. I also think that people need to be educated on what having an abortion truly is, and to see the pictures and understand that it is a human… Furthermore I don't think our tax dollars should be used for providing the funds for such services on minors without the consent of the parent or (without) having to go through any type of counseling prior to surgery … I really get upset because when I was 17 years-old I already had a 1 and a 1/2 year-old son, and found out that I was pregnant again. I was at a Planned Parenthood facility, and the advice that was given to me was, "You are only 17 years old, how are you going to manage to raise 2 children by yourself? You are only 5 weeks pregnant, it's not even developed yet." Now of course they asked, "Are you sure?", several times prior to allowing myself to murder my child without knowing all the facts or putting me under general anesthesia and performing a very serious surgery on me without even asking for a phone number for my parents, in case of an emergency. To make things worse, I was on Medical at the time and that means they allowed it to happen… I [am] thinking of looking into a class action lawsuit against the state of California and Planned Parenthood for providing funds and services that have emotionally damaged me for life.

Age: 25

I was never informed [about] the cruelty involved in the abortion procedures. The images that I have just seen broke my heart, and made me beg the Lord for forgiveness for my ignorance in having one done when I was 18. I wish that information like [that on your website] was available when I needed advice on this matter.

Age: 22

In November of 2001 I had an abortion, and not a day goes by that I don't punish myself in someway. The website pictures make me relive my pain and the regret of my selfishness and the weight my heart carries for basically killing my child who was nothing but innocent to my actions.

Age: 27

I myself have had an abortion and seeing images and reading more about these killings make me want more and more to fight for my child and all the other unborn. (It also) gives me the courage to stand up for them and the mothers that are thinking of killing their children. Thank you!

Age: 25

I am very much pro-life! I had an abortion when I was 18 years old and will regret my decision for the rest of my life… I commend you for showing the public what's really happening in this world! ... I wish I knew then what I know now. I know God has forgiven me, but I don't think I'll ever forgive myself.

Age: Unknown

I once had an abortion (I was 15, fetus was 5 weeks). I now have a baby girl and after seeing those pictures I keep thinking of that baby and what a terrible thing I did. I will never do it again.

Age: 21

I feel that women should be informed about the affects of abortion. I had an abortion once and I live with the guilt and pain every day. When you are in such a vulnerable state, and you turn to these so-called counselors at these clinics, they make it seem unreal, like this is not a baby. And then you are herded into a room like cattle, called by numbers and before you can even really process what is happening, it is over. You are left with so much pain. I know what I did. I will live with it forever. I now have 3 children whom I look at and wander what the one I terminated would have been like. So everyone who feels that we, the ones who go through this, do not know pain, we do. More than you will ever know.

Age: Unknown

I was forced into an abortion, I planned to keep the baby and then my boyfriend forced me. PLEASE ANYONE WHO IS CONSIDERING AN ABORTION DON'T DO IT! I'm now on anti depressants and suicide watch. This is just to tell people that it leaves you emotionally scarred for life.

Age: Unknown

I am 22 years old, and I got pregnant at the age of 20. I was raised in a Christian home, went to a Christian college, and opposed abortion to every degree. When I became pregnant, abortion "seemed" like the only option, but as time went by, I put the abortion in the back of my mind because I dearly loved my little, innocent child… I talked to my child, named my child, and tried to make the person I was with bond with it also. I put the abortion off until the last possible week, my 19th week of pregnancy. By this time the abortion cost $1300 that I did not have. I didn't have the money for anesthesia and I had to stay awake for the 15 minute, very painful and eye-opening experience…There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about my baby and wish things could be changed somehow.... I want to reach out and tell women the horror I had to live through, to somehow mend what I've done if just a little bit.

Age: 22

I am a 23 year old female. I had an abortion about 3 years ago. I was raised in a Christian family. I considered myself a Christian. I got pregnant and I had a choice to make. I was scared and I didn't know what to do. I was not in a relationship and I knew it would kill my parents if they knew. So, I decided to ignore my Christian upbringing and go through with it. I figured once it was over everything would be back to normal. I couldn't have been more wrong. I wish I knew then what I knew now. The pictures, the images, the pain. I can't even explain what kind of wall it built between me and my family, friends and my church. I was lost and I was ashamed. About a year ago I met a nice man who was a youth minister in a church that I was new to. I became involved in the youth ministry and I wanted the girls to know they had someone who would listen. I never told anyone what I had done. Well, I eventually started dating the youth minister. I could not tell him what I had done in my past. Things got serious and we were really growing close and I knew I had to tell him. So I did and he was hurt that I didn't tell him but he did not turn away from me. He helped me to see that God forgave me and that I had to forgive myself as well. I am now ministering to young girls who are pregnant. I tell them exactly what it's like and I don't try to keep them from knowing the truth. We are engaged now and we both want children. I can't wait till that day when I can hold our baby and tell him or her I love you.

Age: 23

I have had an abortion and if I had seen these pictures before, there would have been no decision to be made. I would never have gone through with it. I never knew and nobody told me.

Age: 23

I had an abortion about 3 years ago. (I was 16 at the time.) To this day I still cry about it. I just wish my mom would have seen this website back then. Maybe she would have realized that abortion is not the way to go.

Age: Unknown

I had an abortion and believe that I [was not] told the whole truth regarding the facts and problems that it might cause. My abortion was a big mistake, and for the past 6 months I have been depressed and emotionally troubled with sleepless nights, crying unstoppably. I would never recommend an abortion to my worst enemy. This web site has helped to confirm my thought that I was not given the whole story (which does not help [since] I signed the form and now I will always suffer). I only hope the butcher who performed my little surgery has not caused me any lasting damage, and one day I may be able to get over this bloody nightmare. I do hope that people seeing this site, while considering an abortion, [will] be put off and this may prevent them (from) going through the pain and anger that I [did]... I should have known better than to believe I was being told the whole truth by the doctor (who) earns out of every procedure carried out.

Age: 22

I had [an abortion]. If I would have seen this site before I would have kept my baby. My parents wanted me to have [an abortion], or find a new place to live.

Age: 18

I have had [an abortion] and I am not happy about it. I feel that it is a woman's choice, but it will cause a lot of emotional trauma if she can't handle what she did. I think it is so hard for me, because I wanted my baby. I the father did not want anymore children right now... If I could go back, I would have kept my precious baby. I will never forget what I did...That is the price I have to pay for having an abortion. When I know god would not want me to have one. I am so happy to know that he is a forgiving god. I hope it pains my baby's father as much as it pains me.

Age: 27

When I was young and very stupid I had an abortion. It hurts to think about it, and if I could I would have chosen to keep my baby.

Age: 28

I've been opposed to abortion since the afternoon I had my own abortion on April 3, 1987. The pictures on your site bring back the image of what I saw that day...I asked to see what I aborted. To my horror, I looked down in the stainless steel pan and saw a tiny, massacred human being. I didn't talk for 6 months. I have never stopped grieving for this little one that I know I will see in heaven (I later became a Christian)...I'm just not sure what I'll say to him or her when we finally meet. Apologizing seems so inadequate. If I can help SOMEONE before she makes this tragic mistake, it would be better than doing nothing at all. Thanks for showing what needs to be shown. Shame on people like me who know better and let this genocide continue anyway.

Age: 37

When I was 14 I found out that I was pregnant. My boyfriend and I both freaked out. We went to a place where they do abortions and I made an appointment to do it. The day of my appointment I was scared. We got to the clinic and went in and I had an abortion. I realized right after it was done that even though I was only 14 that having an abortion was the biggest mistake I could have done... Now that I'm 22 I thank god everyday that I was given another chance to have a child. I now have a 2 and a 1/2 year-old boy, and he is my world. I just want to say to whomever is reading this, "Please think twice before you consider ever having an abortion."

Age: 14

When I was 17 years old, my mother, who never wanted children in the first place, forced me into [an abortion]. She said that she could not let me live there with a baby. I had no job, used her car, and was scared. Of course my mother told me that it was not a baby yet (at 10 weeks). It was just some tissue, no beating heart yet. I didn't know. But I knew that the moment I realized I was pregnant that I already loved my baby. I talked to him/her everyday, told him/her that they were loved. But was forced to do this. While the procedure was being done, I cried, the doctor cold-heartedly told me to stay still. There were people there bragging about how it doesn't really hurt, this was their 5th one, etc. They're just worried about their pain, not the pain of these innocent precious babies that didn't ask to be here. After wards my mother said, "Don't you feel so much better?" Well, I got a good job in the government, met the right guy, and was able to leave that house. I've never been able to forgive how cold she was. Nor, can I EVER forgive myself for what I did to my precious angel, who deserved a chance at life. We need to let these women know that these are babies, not just tissue. KNOWLEDGE is power.

Age: 17

I just recently had an abortion, and I am only 15 years old. I was 2 and half months (along) when my boyfriend broke up with me, he knew about it. He later told me he was too scared to face responsibility and he wasn't ready to have a baby. Well almost five months along, I had an abortion alone by myself. Now after I have studied on the subject I regret it DEARLY. I didn't know what to do. I felt this was best to keep it a secret from my father. I would have never done it, if I had viewed this website earlier.

Age: 15

I went with my best friend when she had a abortion. It was very hard for her and she knew it was wrong. So did I. I told her I didn't approve but I had to support her because she is my best friend. After it was done we both cried it was like something was also taken from me. She said it was something that she would never forgive herself for and something that she would never forget. I still pray for her everyday. I also pray for the ones that go through this and think there isn't any other way out.

Age: Unknown

Hi, I am a 40 year-old woman who had an abortion when I was 19 years-old. I did not want the baby and I was not financially able to support myself and a child, like I was going to have to do, so I got an abortion. It was not what I was really wanting to do, but I did it any way. After I left the clinic I cried for almost 2 weeks. I felt so guilty. … if you have a heart and a conscience you will never think of having an abortion. If I could go back and take back that horrible thing I did, I would. Please use birth control to stop the abortions. And please understand what I am trying to say to all of you so you won't suffer like I have the past 21 years.

Age: 19

I have never written anything like this before. My hands are sweating at this very moment. I have been compelled time and again to address this issue and I'm ready to confess. In 1990, I committed murder. I killed my baby. I should be in prison serving a life sentence, but I'm not. Was it because only a handful of people knew and kept silent, or perhaps they never solved the case, or maybe I had a really good lawyer? Realistically, none of these reasons are correct. Unfortunately, the murder I committed was legal. I guess it was legal because no one ever saw the baby, never felt its soft skin, never smelled its sweet breath, never gave it a name. Actually, there wasn't any justification for such horror and there still isn't. This society needs to understand that there isn't any difference between "unborn" and "newborn". Murder is murder, any way you look at it.

Age: Unknown

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