I'm okay. I've been staying at my parents for the past few nights. Every time I go to my own home I just feel like bawling. When my cat passed away last year I bawled my eyes out at home, but back then I lived in my own apartment. Now I live with two people and its hard to show that kind of emotion around them and have to be around them.

Sofie came home today, and her urn arrived. I cried when getting the ashes but when I got home tonight felt quite a bit better and felt alright putting them in the urn. I feel better that she is back home. I may try to stay at my own house tomorrow... it just sucks because she's not there and it doesn't feel complete.

Here is a picture of the urn my dad & I got, sorry the picture is out of focus, I took it with my phone:

The original plan was to put it out on the deck or out in my mom's flower garden somewhere, Sofie loved to bask in the sun. It's a very well made stone, it weighs about 18lbs, it was made to be outside. However... right now I think I'll bring her home with me. I know it's just her body, I know it's just ashes... but I don't want to throw her out in the cold right now - I'm just not ready.