AWAKEN TO YOURSELF

Nothing But Nothingness

This series of dreams takes us through the stages of letting go – first of our ego identity, and then whatever we latch onto as a replacement to the ego identity. This constant stripping away is the path and the process of reconnecting with what is important – the oneness of everything. As we’ve noted before, we can either live a life separate from all that exists (through our ego dominance), or we can seek to connect to everything else; the two states are mutually exclusive. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So the theme of the dreaming seemed to be a kind of thing where you progressed where you would take and catch up with the recognition of a certain way that something unfolds, only to find out that that’s a precursor to yet something more. And that it’s important to catch up with that aspect of a recognition, which is important at one stage of your life, but then at the next step or stage that you go through that even that has to go away.

Then I take it one more step further and I note that even though it is important for me to do that, that doesn’t mean that I reflect all of that outwardly, that would be too much for people, that things have to progress with a certain stage. That we go through somethings that are important now to get and to reach, but then stand in our path, or in our way, to an even deeper awareness inside of ourself.

And the same thing is true in terms of how we relate to others. We have to give them the space, these other parts of ourself which is founded in the outer as others, we have to give them the space to catch up, first of all to a certain kind of vibration, or energetic, or whatever that is that might be something that they have to catch up with as part of the path. And then find out for themselves that they have to set that aside, or let that go, because then it gets in the way if they get to the end of that kind of awareness.

So the template is set in terms of a certain octave or mannerism, the mannerism that I later have to set aside, in the meditation. And in the meditation I experience an energetic state which isn’t able to correlate with creation.

In the meditation dream I’m required to take on a very specific challenge. The challenge is to stay in sync with the energy that is passing through the situation. To do this means that I must embody the Wholeness that exists behind that expression. The need is to hold the attunement in such a pristine way such that the outer unfolds in accordance with the vibration of an overriding focus and attention.

In other words, you’re trying to hold something in a way so that something more can come out. I hold the attunement in order to be true to myself. I have come to know that if I waver I will have to grapple with the outer conditions. When an outer condition predominates, the focus and attention I need to unwaveringly hold the attunement will get scattered. When this occurs my access to the embodied energy is lost. In other words, you’re talking about how you can crack or split.

So in the dream, there’s no time to think. I’m challenged to maintain the focus and attention unwaveringly. This is necessary for the vibration to come down into life where it can affect manifestation directly. This is how the inner is able to shape and affect the outer.

So basically what I’m describing is a particular kind of quality that functions as an energetic vibration that is faster and quicker, more as an aspect of an inner effect that I’m realizing – as opposed to outer conditions. So that’s the template that I’m placed in.

And then I’m shown in the next dream that I have to let that go. I mean, it’s important, but at some point in time even that has to be let go. You don’t hold onto that vibration. That’s unwieldy, too.

And so in the next dream I dream that I go for a walk with the vibration (that I’ve experienced above) as if it’s a kind of a crutch that I’m with, that I like being with, and feel that I need to be with, but I’m not free to be on my own by myself. And I realize that that vibe means that it too must go.

Well the way I see this is, as I’m walking and I’m of the belief that this is the energy I need, I suddenly reach a point where I can’t find this presence around me anymore. In other words, I turn my attention away and it disappeared or something. So I look around and it is nowhere to be found.

To begin with I’m concerned, like I lost something. And it’s something that I need to lean on or depend upon, and this energetic was with me when I started, obviously. I’ve been walking with it.

As I settle back, I realize that I’m unable to establish its whereabouts, and that’s when I realize that I’d been leaning upon it. And when you realize you’re leaning upon anything, that’s when you realize that you have been doing something that has a weight to it yet, and everything, everything that has a mannerism must go.

In other words, no one’s allowed some sort of conceptual, absolute truth that they can project in life, as if that is what will make things tick. With this gone, at first I’m lost, but then I get it that what I was doing was also a crutch.

And the dream is reaffirming the deep inner truth behind the expression: there is nothing but nothingness. Whenever I think I have got the answer to something, as I examine it more closely, or feel it in terms of what it’s doing to a demeanor I take on, I’m able to see how there are circumstances that are possible in which whatever it is that I am leaning upon, that that can fall apart or go away. And anything that can go away isn’t real.

Another way to say it, this dream corrects the vibration that I got all caught up in from the first dream by revealing that this isn’t it, either. The fact that I dreamed it in the first dream, about this energetic, it’s meaningful. I feel it’s meaningful as a step on the spiritual path. But this step only goes so far and then there is the realization about how this, too, must go.

In other words, this step is important as a step in that one’s attention in the outer is pretty much still with the senses and the mind in a denseness, but then there’s the step where you realize that there’s something that flows from the inner into the outer, and you can get caught up in that as a way of adhering, and that too must go.

So in the dream I saw myself taking a walk with this energetic presence, thinking I was content because I was with what I felt was needed, and then suddenly looking around and finding myself all alone, having lost this companion, and that is when I realized that this too is something to be dropped and life goes on without it.

So that looks like, okay, you’ve taken the first dream, which had an important effect in terms of shifting the flow – instead of clockwise in terms of outer ideas and actions and whatnot manifesting on their own as they tend to do when you’re indulging in that as if that’s all there is.

You start to go in kind of a counterclockwise recognition that the outer is nothing more than a reflection of something that comes in from the inner, but even that has to do with a process or has to do with some impulse behind it. And so then you have to get outside of that impulse, which is what the second dream is about, and find out that it too must drop.

So now you have the two contrasts, and now you have to deal with the cadence of things.

So in the final dream I see myself supporting the energetic of the first dream when it comes to others, because this is an important stage that one must go through or reach. And because I am able to denote within that this too must go, for myself, I abide in the empty space.

I know that this nothing but nothingness is where there is an overallness of the One Being. By adhering to the empty space, which sorts itself out before a mirror that reflects nothing back, I am at home. The analogy of being a blank sheet of paper, so something can be from time to time written upon, also comes to mind.

A deeper meaning is that I am being put to the paces in the first dream of holding onto the inner into the outer as a flow, and as a step that is designed to take me away from an ego which claims two identifications.

Taking this step to recognizing how to step aside from the ego is important, as an aspect of the path, but then there comes a point when the step that I took, again adhering to something happening from deeper within – the leaning on that – that that must go. And the second dream portrays that.

But then this third dream indicates that even though the letting go is an important step for me on the path, which I must take, but for others I can’t just impose that they do that. They still may need to go through that first step in which they recognize the flow of inner into outer.

In other words, what is important at one stage of the journey is a barrier, when it comes to taking an even deeper step of letting go at another aspect, or part, of the process of unfoldment – or a waking up.