satu lagi.. AMAI SEIKATSU. … … … … … cb kesinid, yatte goran. kalo orang ga complain emang artinya everything is fine? japan is no dreamland, get that stupid idea out of your brain. kalo kita ga pernah bener2 complain ttg hal2 yg berat bukan berarti disini fine2 aja. kalo kita cuman ngomongin hal2 yg bagus ttg jepang, itu juga diomongin dengan harapan bisa menjadi insentif utk kalian yg mau ke jepang. try spending your first day here in a foreign land alone, knowing that the only ppl you know are 3 hours away from you and you have no way of getting there nor contacting them. i had to walk for about an hour, and with my half-baked japanese, muster my courage to enter 3 convenience stores to finally be able to buy a frigging int’l phone card. try calling your home when you’re that lonely and hold back your tears while you hear their voice. and try calling your friends to find that the line just wouldn’t connect. try eating dinner alone on your first day in japan. try spending the entire month envying your 2 friends who live in the same apartment, with seniors around to guide them, they get to do everything together, solve everything together, while you had to depend on yourself. no big deal for you? it’s a big deal for me. ever heard me complaining excessively over it?

i know what it meant to be living and working in a foreign land. it doesn’t make it any easier, but i acknowledge it and i deal with it. stop with the superior one-sided thinking, don’t look down on me and don’t assume you understood everything. japan’s no better than indonesia. you wanna hear me complain? i’ve got frigging lots of’em.

that’s it. flame me all you want, get angry at me. just DON’T try to joke your way around this, i’d rather you not reply.

buat yg ga berhubungan sm post ini, i’m sorry i yelled at you. i just had to get this all out. a month’s worth of pent up stress maybe. but for all it’s worth, i would’nt be this worked up if i didn’t care. with all that said, i’m still hoping you guys’ll be here.