Friday, May 10, 2013

I know Friday’s aren’t t the best days for blogs, but hey, I
can’t control when I’m inspired to do one! I was on my way to work this dreary
morning in Dallas and I was listening to my favorite album (as of late) on my
phone. It is definitely the Rock of Ages soundtrack. If you like classic rockmusic, I would highly recommend it! It has some really cool mixes of a couple
of songs too, but I digress. Rock music always does something to me internally,
where I feel as if it is flowing through me. Not sure if anyone else has
experienced this visceral reaction to music, but I’m pretty sure I’m not the
only one to have this feeling. It puts me in a great mood, which we all need
when entering the office, haha!

While in this state and thoroughly enjoying the music, I was
coming up with some really cool ideas for dancing, performing, etc. If you don’t
know me, dancing is my artistic passion. It just gives a release of all of
these big things that I feel or experience and just cannot be expressed in a
different medium. I’ve often lamented on the fact that I am not an amazing
singer, because I feel as if they can express some big things that I just
cannot. Now that I’ve returned to dancing regularly, I have a constant way to
express whatever I’m going through. It does a few things:

2. It helps me to remember feelings about various
events long term. While I was in grad school with my nose at the grindstone, I
find that I have trouble remembering a lot of those 3 years. I think it was
because I did not allow myself the time to really reflect on what was going on.

3. It makes me strive to find the perfect place in
this world for me.

I wanted to specifically talk about #3 a bit more. We all
have goals that we want to reach within life. I think that because of the way
that we are all moved through the American education system that there is a
strict focus on our careers. That isn’t necessarily a bad thing, as being
financially stable helps us to achieve other goals such as starting a family,
becoming a homeowner, etc. The only thing that I would caution is that it
really limits an individual in achieving their FULLEST potential. If I wouldn’t
have went back and tried to make dance teams at age 25 (older in the dance
world, haha) I would have never gotten to this level of contentment. I also
would have been feeling pretty stagnant within my life as after school is over
and you’re working, you’re just working. After being involved in so much for so
long, I felt like something was missing. Or I was missing some key to
happiness.

I was missing the rest of myself. I don’t think dance
completely fulfills that missing piece, but it is a big part of it for me. My
relationships and continuing cultivation of them was a piece. Being creative in
general is a piece. The point I want to make is that I didn’t and still do not
know all of the pieces of myself. I could be an awesome guitarist/rock god or I could be a talented painter. I won't know unless I visit those interests. As adults, I think we sometimes feel that we
don’t have time to discover new things about ourselves; that time has passed.
THAT IS A MYTH. Don’t ever settle; you don’t know what you may be missing!

About Me

Hey y'all. My goal is to share my thoughts and experiences to hopefully relate to someone else. It's so easy to feel alone and unsuccessful in life - especially when you don't have a strong family unit or community to draw support from. Being alone is ok, but realizing that you aren't alone as you feel is wonderful - even if your support is someone through a computer screen. I hope that we can create that here.