This being my first week back in ages, the number of no-shows is troubling.

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hey bro, if you understood what it's like to be me, and be going through what i am, you might not be mad at me.

i had a verse written. it wasn't done.

i would rather not post anything, then post garbage.

unfortunately, i'm out for two weeks now.

i put my heart and soul into each and every crit i did for week 5's mag, and because of that i could not produce the material i feel appropriate to share with you all. im signing out so i can continue my crits, and after i get it down, i will be actively involved in both the mag and the competition in the RSTL.

stay up. nice verse btw. would have been hard to beat even with where i was going with my piece. i was doing the fake psychic through the eyes of a serial killer. but when you share a dark dark past with a character its kind of fucking hard to get it all out in 2 days.

if anybodys =wants to collab on an audio(not RSTL style, but with the same topical approach), I'm going to be doing a couple pieces in the upcoming week.
i have a studio, and i know someone who can remaster our combined long distance project so our levels are similar.

1) fucked up shit from when you were akid, pm me if u needa get it out

2)being with a girl you can't have sex with (every 2-3 months) because she's got psychological issues making her feel like .. trash.. for a natural thing.
if anybody never dealt with that, maybe tell it from the other perspective. would work.

3)i'll be explaining how the easy money i was making made it hard to appreciate what I do have when money used to be so easy.
(3 and 4 could mix together)
4) i've had 3 psychotic breaks, from 18-21 or so, 27 now. if anybody's experienced one, and wants to collab on it, it could make for a good track. or, perhaps, how it looked to you when your friend went through the stages of self destruction leading to those breaks.
(ex of the rebuttal verse, I'll do either one)atmosphere adjust
[slug]
you may get pissed at what I'm about to spit
bottom line is mad or not somebody needs to say this shit
when I'm finished, you might wanna fight
but I don't wanna fight, i've seen you fight
go ahead get wild, and I'll still smile for bein' right
see me and mics are like marriage -- make's life complete
and you've been fuckin' with nasal drugs renders love obsolete
I dare to speak upon you, not to front on you
but I'd rather address this here matter
than have to duck and shun you
it's getting close to harvest, time to count your livestock
all I've got for a hype is a 5 spots to shovel my sidewalk
it's still within you, I can see it, I think it froze
'cuz you keep cooling it off putting winter in your nose

[Beyond]
Man, I don't know about you no more kid
I mean look at your shit, I mean your shits all off balance
I mean I don't know, your fucking with these drugs and shit
I just don't know, I don't know
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any other ideas .. im down. i am going to be in the studio monday and if anybody's is interested hit me up.
ill try and get my portion done on monday night if i get a pm or response here before monday late afternoon.

those are what i want to record now. since ill be kicked out for two weeks on the RSTL for not wanting to drop a sandpaper rough draft.

... im so pissed. i had a really good fucking idea
... for the psychic scenario. explains how she used to get well connected people out of prison for murder by framing someone else for it, did a few side jobs w/out pay, takes out employers, and works here way into the force, and when she gets to one murder sight, it had been one of the people she had killed, two weeks prior. ... get's recognized by a family member... etc etc etc..
wanted to stray away from the usual , am really mad at my girlfriend.

i should have posted some old writtens i had and called myself out on it... but I was pissed and forgot only RSTL posts are considered recycling.

she pulls some spurt of the moment crazy talk bullshit, makes me go get here or she says she's going to call the police on me for something i .. uh, do on the side. bitch...

oh well. studio tomorrow. will take my mind off it. two weeks until i can sign up again, no matter what, right? I'll take the loss and will definitely show...I'm turning off my phone and not having any beer each week until i have 32 bars.
writing drunk ... doesn't work.