goodbye...

-sighs- its been a couple hours since i havn't drawing blood yet, which is a bad thing. I WANT the pain to continue to draw me back to the those thoughts the voices in my head telling me to do it.. Trying to be strong mind and body, but its doesn't work... I took some tylenol and aspirin and some other medications and seeing if it will work instead of having a bad stomach ach. Hell its even hard not to pick it up just a lil slit..just make the blood come out and drip.. A couple days ago i was trying not to show everyone that i was hurt but i dont know anymore. I wrote everything out the letter and everything, i just missing one thing...but it wont come..god damnit i want him back but even thou he hurt me...i think i deserve what he did to me..

danni, how are you doing? I hope the intensity of those feelings have subsided at this point. I really do not want to see you harming yourself in any way. Come back and talk to us. You have taken a courageous step in posting your feelings already. Don't give up now. :hug: