haven't been around in a while as everything has been so crappy... Had 2 appointments with 16-19 services now but can't bring myself to talk about the really bad stuff that I actually need help with feel so pathetic....
Had confirmed that I do have dissociative disorder and started working on grounding techniques but right now I'm sat trying to write a Spanish essay and I keep really badly dissociating.
I take a break, ground myself and get back in the right place but as soon as I sit down at my desk it gets really really bad... anyone any ideas what to do?!! I've tried just working through it and it's like I can't physically function
Have my French oral exam with an external examiner this week and so so petrified of this happening during it as I tend to defend into a panic attack when it gets bad and it's going to mess up my grade....
Sorry for the rant just not in a good place rn.....
Hope everyone is ok x

Sorry, but I think I'm going to need to take a break from here for a few days. Sadness comes in waves and last night I was hearing knocking sounds, which isn't a good sign. So please, no whatsapp messages or PMs, no offence, I just have to look after myself.

Sorry, but I think I'm going to need to take a break from here for a few days. Sadness comes in waves and last night I was hearing knocking sounds, which isn't a good sign. So please, no whatsapp messages or PMs, no offence, I just have to look after myself.

Its almost the anniversary of my incident which i cant even bring my self to say. My gp isnt in until thursday so i cant see her to let my feelings out. My anxiety has just gone through the roof and heart palpitations are so much worse... I dont know what to do. I wish i had a self coping technique. I would appreicate if anyone knew some good self coping techniques to let me know.

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Some people here have had a great reaction to sertraline. I didn't though. But all antidepressants have side effects so it's really just a case of finding the right one for you. Hope it works out.

Let's hope my reaction is good considering exams are next month . But I'm sorry you haven't. Well the SSRI is about my anxiety, the fact it's an anti-dep is coincidental. So I'm hoping I can be less choosy as it's less about mood? Thanks .
I almost didn't go to the appointment because I'm in a good mood this morning and thought "mind over matter. you don't need no medication Keron". But I made myself go and I'm glad I did because when he asked me questions about my experience in the last 2 weeks, I realised I probably do need the help.

He said that I probably won't get relief in the first couple weeks and may even have digestive issues as well as an increase in anxiety :/ (I also read insomnia and other things) but said afterwards I should feel more positive. He also said I have to take it for 6 months.

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Let's hope my reaction is good considering exams are next month . But I'm sorry you haven't. Well the SSRI is about my anxiety, the fact it's an anti-dep is coincidental. So I'm hoping I can be less choosy as it's less about mood? Thanks .
I almost didn't go to the appointment because I'm in a good mood this morning and thought "mind over matter. you don't need no medication Keron". But I made myself go and I'm glad I did because when he asked me questions about my experience in the last 2 weeks, I realised I probably do need the help.

He said that I probably won't get relief in the first couple weeks and may even have digestive issues as well as an increase in anxiety :/ (I also read insomnia and other things) but said afterwards I should feel more positive. He also said I have to take it for 6 months.

Yeah, meds and exams are not good. I did my A2 exams on them and it was horrible. I have had a few med tries now and it does not seem to agree with me.

In the first few weeks it is nearly always worse. I lost weight amd had insomnia while I was on sertraline myself. If there is no positive impact after around 4 weeks, I would discuss it with your GP

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Its almost the anniversary of my incident which i cant even bring my self to say. My gp isnt in until thursday so i cant see her to let my feelings out. My anxiety has just gone through the roof and heart palpitations are so much worse... I dont know what to do. I wish i had a self coping technique. I would appreicate if anyone knew some good self coping techniques to let me know.

Sorry, but I think I'm going to need to take a break from here for a few days. Sadness comes in waves and last night I was hearing knocking sounds, which isn't a good sign. So please, no whatsapp messages or PMs, no offence, I just have to look after myself.

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Can I ask why you refused? You don't have to answer if you don't want to

Just don't want them to waste their time I guess. Not sure. Don't see what the point in the risk assessment is??

Hope you're OK?

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@ people who have quoted/tagged/mentioned me recently: sorry I've not gotten back to you, just finding things difficult. Also tend to forget to reply because of dissociation and stuff. Thanks for all the well wishes. Hope you're all doing well.

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Just don't want them to waste their time I guess. Not sure. Don't see what the point in the risk assessment is??

Hope you're OK?

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@ people who have quoted/tagged/mentioned me recently: sorry I've not gotten back to you, just finding things difficult. Also tend to forget to reply because of dissociation and stuff. Thanks for all the well wishes. Hope you're all doing well.

Ah okay. I am sure it isn't a waste of time and your mentor is obviously worried about you, but you know what they are like and whether it is likely to help you or not! Whether you go for it or not, I hope you feel better soon.

Yeah, I'm doing decently. Just want these exams to go and then I have such a long summer, I am kind of dreading it. I also feel like I am waiting for myself to feel rubbish again (as strange as it is), cause that is what I am used to, but just gonna take it as it comes and try and enjoy feeling good!

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Ah okay. I am sure it isn't a waste of time and your mentor is obviously worried about you, but you know what they are like and whether it is likely to help you or not! Whether you go for it or not, I hope you feel better soon.

Yeah, I'm doing decently. Just want these exams to go and then I have such a long summer, I am kind of dreading it. I also feel like I am waiting for myself to feel rubbish again (as strange as it is), cause that is what I am used to, but just gonna take it as it comes and try and enjoy feeling good!

Yeah, true. I think she's getting tired of me, she keeps saying I need to take responsibility for myself instead of blaming other people, which I am trying to take control of stuff, just feel out of control of everything, Also worried because...

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The voices say she's up to something. And I'm trying not to trust them but I'm still worried about it. I definitely don't trust people from ResLife though, so don't want them involved.

Glad things are OK. Got anything planned for the summer? How many exams do you have left?

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Yeah, true. I think she's getting tired of me, she keeps saying I need to take responsibility for myself instead of blaming other people, which I am trying to take control of stuff, just feel out of control of everything, Also worried because...

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The voices say she's up to something. And I'm trying not to trust them but I'm still worried about it. I definitely don't trust people from ResLife though, so don't want them involved.

Glad things are OK. Got anything planned for the summer? How many exams do you have left?

I also have problems with taking such responsibility and it is difficult, so at least you are trying to and it's not your fault that you are struggling a lot at the moment! I hope she doesn't make it seem like that, because it's definitely not true!

Have 2 exams, one this week and then one the week after. Am going on holiday at the end of may, but nothing else planned. Will need to stay busy, otherwise things will just go downhill. What about you?