When you sit in a boat with a large sail and no rudder ... you go where ever the boat takes you.

But you're attributing these travels to the will of the Virgin Mary or God. It seems odd that She/He/They would want you to wander around (aimlessly?).

Of course, you might be choosing to wander around because you want to. IOW, maybe God got nothing to do with it.

Phyllo ... you may be absolutely right!

There are no words that adequately describe personal experience ... especially when the experience is outside the envelope of mainstream thought.

"Do not be influenced by the importance of the writer, and whether his learning be great or small; but let the love of pure truth draw you to read. Do not inquire, “Who said this?” but pay attention to what is said”