27.4.17

Let me just re-express that
this hiatus was never planned it kind of just happened, you probably think I’m
lying and rightly so, I have had many opportunities to post something but
instead I neglected my blog completely.

Apologises.

But it was a mixture of
laziness and complete writers block but since I have been gone so long I do
have some pretty cool updates.

#1. I got a job, finally. Not
the job I intended to get because I had other places in mind but I’m still
grateful. I won’t reveal it on here just because, but it is a very popular, very
cheap, very big retail store in England and America (I think)

#2. I’m still 16. But I won’t
be in a month’s time. I plan on getting a rainbow cake. (May 31st
don’t forget guys ;)

#3. My Instagram plan failed
in a horrific mess. I planned on having a cute page filled with pictures that
were posted regularly but that plan literally collapsed in on itself.

#4. I plan on abandoning
every moral I have. I promised to myself that I would stay loyal to the Android
phone crew and stick to having a Samsung phone and I do currently but I plan on getting an
iPhone next.

What can I say, although the
IOS updates will be annoying and iPhones break so easily, the camera is
amazing, the snapchat is better and you can get an iPhone case for cheap
LITERALLY ANYWHERE. Literally any retail store.

Also the more expensive
iPhone cases are beautiful, if you wanted to get something like a Marble Samsung
Case it can’t be a lesser known Samsung like a J5, it has to be the latest like
the S8. With iPhones, all their phones are widely known and you can get a
gorgeous case for literally any of them.

Anyways, I’m getting
side-tracked.

You’re probably wondering
what the hell the title of this post is about.

It kind of originated from a
Religious studies class I just had, like literally an hour ago.

I’m typing this at school on
word and the environment is very loud.

The religious studies class
was about ethical egoism and it focused on Max Stirner (a Philosopher) and we
someone got onto the idea of what life would be like without any laws, rules,
or social norms that we have collectively imposed as a society.

Some went with the obvious
answer:

Corrupt.

But my friend was puzzled when I said, “It would be
better”

Let me explain.

I put down on paper that it could go one of two
ways, chaotic or just, better and I do know that people would utilize the freedom
they have and become completely ungovernable and just cause terror but for
others like me, it would be complete bliss, no social norms, no fears of what
people think and no obligation to go to school.

With that, I would leave, maybe not permanently but
anything can happen.

I feel trapped, in a bubble I cannot escape.

It’s not that I’m too lazy to escape, I just can’t.
I’m held back by school, no money, no permission to leave and no one I can
leave with because let’s admit it, It’s a naïve idea.

I want to go somewhere, no place in mind but just
somewhere, anywhere.

wanderlust

ˈwɒndəlʌst/

noun

wanderlust

a strong desire to travel.

"a man consumed by wanderlust"

Without rules or
anything, I’d take myself and I’d get into a car
or a coach or a train and I’d just go, live somewhere new.

A new environment with
new people and maybe sit in a field and read.

Or just go to a close
coffee shop, order a drink, and sit and look outside the window at people
passing by, wondering what thought is occupying their mind at that very
moment.

I think about this all
time and it makes me sad because to be honest, I’m not living the life I want
right now and I only have one which makes it even worse.

You’re probably all
thinking,

“You have so many years to lead
the life you want”

Yes, I do but I want to
use every year, every minute and every second I have to lead the best life I
can.

But that’s not seen as
realistic, is it? Nope.

Instead, revise for
exams.

Go to work.

Etc.

Maybe everyone is
secretly like that because that’s what I think, I think that a majority of
people dislike the position they are in at this current moment and would rather
be somewhere else.