Date: Sat, 3 Jun 2000 20:09:42 +0100
From: Jonathan Arnison
Subject: I Should Be So Lucky (2nd Installment)
So here is the second installment of my first story. Thanks to all those
lurvely people who gave me positive feedback!!! It was REALLY
appreciated. Well, you know who you all are anyway :)
Oh, the usual disclaimers apply - This story has no relevance to anyone in
real life and bears no relation to the sexuality of any members of N Sync
whatever it may be. I take no responsibility for anyone reading this
underage - please make sure your town/ state/ country laws allow you to be
reading this. This story is meant for mature people who can make their own
descisions about what they read. If love between members of the same sex
makes you uncomfortable, please get lost :) Oh and, if you ARE underage and
you get caught, you're on your own, baby, okay? :)
One last thing, please read these great stories: Search and Rescue, Brian
and Me, The Warmest Eyes and Josh and Just - they're all excellent stories
with great plots and development. And remember what I told you boys and
girls... do service to America... buy Madonna CD's :) (And Kylie if you
want to get laughed at like I do)
Umm... I think that's it - so keep reading all the great stores. Write me,
and have fun! Oh yeah, Britney Spears is definitely going to have to be in
this story - and let's just see if I can't get Madonna in somewhere too ;)
But don't worry, I may be cheesy... but not that pathetic. If I do write
her in. It'll be good!
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PREVIOUSLY ON "I SHOULD BE SO LUCKY" ;)
"JC, you're scaring me" I said, "I don't like to see anyone unhappy"
"Well, you'd be unhappy too if you were... me" he confessed though his
tears
"What's bad about being JC. He's sexy, funny, smart, a great singer" I told
him, trying to cheer him up
"And he's also gay" he stated, turning away from me...
CHAPTER TWO
I was shocked. I just stood there, watching him looking defenceless and
completely unhappy. I walked over to him, and put my arms around him. The
air was getting colder now, and I was quite happy with the warmth his body
was giving me.
"Listen, sweetie. What's wrong about being gay?" I whispered to him
"Unrequited love, comments from people, being in a band makes it worse too"
he replied, still turned away from me.
"Listen. Stop thinking that way, it's stupid to be like this. It doesn't
matter to me." I told him, hoping he'd wipe away his tears.
"It doesn't?" he asked, "But I thought it was something bad."
"That's just one of the good things about it sweetie" I laughed, trying to
cheer him up. He produced a lame attempt at a smile, "Look, you'll be
fine. You've told someone now. Surely that's a load off your mind?" I hoped
so. I remembered the first time I told someone. Your mind feels
clearer. You feel more complete, there are no more secrets. It's like your
whole life you have something to tell everyone, and when you finally get it
out, your confidence improves day by day.
"Yeah, but everything's not alright yet" he stated, "There's something
else"
"Just spit it out, there's nothing I've not heard before" I laughed
"Well, first off..." he motioned for me to sit down next to him, "Are you
gay?" he asked, shocking me to the core.
"No" I said, seeing his expression quickly sadden, "I'm Bi" I added, "I
have the ability to fall in love with men and women - why do you want to
know?"
"Well, I really like you." he said, softly, looking into my eyes. This was
it, the moment of truth. He had confided everything in me. I don't know why
he had, I wasn't anything special. Maybe he felt a connection, but it had
happened. I managed a smile, it was the best I could get out. Inside I felt
confused, and sick.
"You've known me one day. No you don't" I confirmed, quite solemnly. I
didn't want JC thinking I was just going to leap on him because he thought
he liked me. I didn't work like that; there's more about me than you could
ever know in a day. I repeated this to JC, "I don't know you. I only know
JC, the member of N Sync. And you don't know me... how do you know if..."
He interrupted me, looked into my eyes and said, "I'm attracted to
you. Besides that, I feel I can talk to you. You make me laugh, you make me
open up." He looked genuinely serious now, I was beginning to warm to the
idea. But I wasn't convinced. Softly he added, "Surely, it's worth a try,
just to see? I really want to be with you." With that, he put his hand on
my knee and began stroking it. I responded by placing my hand on top of his
and whispering softly "I'll try"
Without noticing, the CD had been running for quite a while, I went to turn
it off when JC's hand blocked my way,
"Leave it on, I really like it. It makes me think of you." he smiled and
pulled my hand away from the stereo.
"Well at least let me turn the damn thing down" I laughed. Before I could,
JC grabbed me so I was locked in his arms. He softly ran his fingers
through my cropped blonde hair and lowered his lips, softly kissing me,
barely brushing against my lips. He looked deeply at me and his eyes seemed
to ask "Again?", all I could manage was a soft "Yes" before he pulled me
even closer and more forcefully kissed me, letting his tongue explore my
mouth. He moved his arms down my body sending an electric pulse through
me. This was the first time I had ever truly felt something more than an
attraction to him. This was more special. "Cherish" was beginning to fade
and I moved away from JC, motioning that I wanted to turn it off. He
allowed me to do so, but looked around in shock when he noticed I
dissappeared. I returned with another CD, "Something To Remember" and
selected track one, Madonna's lustful cover of Marvin Gaye's "I Want You."
As the deep bass and soft vocals filled the room JC took my hand and led me
to the couch in the middle of the room. We both sat down and he kissed me
once again, a little lighter this time, and stroked the side of my face.
"Now tell me you don't feel anything for me at all." he said, smiling at
me. Not wanting to spoil this moment, instead of speaking I moved to him
and this time it was I kissing him, being more forceful. JC responded to
this and used his tongue to part my lips and once again, explore my
mouth. I pulled away and gave him a sweet smile, stroked his cheek and
began,
"I think that's enough JC, I don't want to spoil this now. I think we've
connected. It's not often... it's never I felt a kiss like that before and
I doubt I will again." I moved from my sitting position on the couch next
to JC into a position where I was lying on his lap, looking up at him. He
was smiling at me, and as he began to lower his head to me the door opened
with Lia screaming something very incoherent to apparantly no-one behind
her. I quickly leapt up and pretended to be walking to her, as if I had
known she was coming. I looked at my watch and realised they'd only been a
short while, so something was most definitely up.
"Maybe, twat-face, If you hadn't have insisted on dancing with a glass in
your stupid, moronic hand this wouldn't have happened!" she screamed,
motioning to her white dress, which I knew was just bought (at a cost
too). It was completely covered in some dark red substance.
"Oh please girl, you knocked me." came a voice which was obviously Chris,
"If you didn't dance like a chicken on LSD then you wouldn't have had to
suffer this."
"Whatever, loser." shouted Lia, before running into the bathroom and
screaming my name, which was pretty much a cue that I was to run in and be
some kind of agony uncle to her. I looked at JC knowingly, flashing him a
look that meant that I'd heard and done all this before, and walked into
the bathroom.
"Did you see what that... thing did to me?" she asked, with a hint of
hysteria in her voice, "I have never EVER EVER been so embarrased let alone
unattractive in my entire life...ugh."
"Calm down Lia," I offered, "The dress looks like somebody spilt something
on it - nothing more, nothing less. Besides, you always look lovely" I was
blatantly sucking up to her but she was too mad to even care, "Anyway, I
know what this is all about..." As soon as I had said it, I knew it would
provoke a typical Lia reaction.
"WHAT??? You know me inside out now???" she screamed at me, "You don't know
piss all, moron" I just smiled and started laughing, which angered her even
more. "What? Tell me now."
"Well, you purposely knocked into Chris because you knew he'd feel guilty
and come in and apologise. That way, you could work your magic on him. I
know you Lia, I really know you inside out." I turned away, because I knew
I was about to start laughing. In fact, my shoulders were beginning to
judder.
"Aidan?" she questioned, "You know something? You couldn't be more wrong."
I knew it was true, she had been plotting it, "But I wouldn't mind an
apology."
At that moment, three raps were heard on the bathroom door and a muffled,
scared voice spoke, "Can I come in?" we both looked at each other and
giggled. I winked at Lia and told her to behave, before letting Chris in
and myself out. As I was walking out, Lia called me and asked, "Why do you
have 'Something To Remember' on?" I just laughed and shrugged it off, and
continued walking to the couch.
"Where are Lance and Joey?" I asked, as I walked over to JC, noting the
abscence of them.
"They decided to stay, well, that's what Chris said anyway. I think Lance
was probably trying to hopelessly chat some poor girl up and Joey, well,
Joey is just Joey." he laughed, "Chris is okay now, by the way. He still
thinks she knocked into him though" as I went to sit down next to him I
laughed and said "Oh, believe me, she did." I plopped down in the chair and
let out a huge sigh, tired from trying to calm my frantic friend down. He
placed his arm around me and I kissed it, resting my head on it. He looked
at me and smiled warmly, "Aaah... decided to love
me now, huh?" he asked. I looked up and smiled, but inside I was feeling
sick again. How did I know I really liked him. They always say you fall for
famous people... power is the greatest aphrodisiac. How did I know I wasn't
a victim of this? And more to the point, were these strange feelings I was
having, love? I'd surely never experienced it before, even with all the
girlfriends and boyfriends I had worked my way through over the last ten or
so years. My mother had once said to me, that if you are in love, you'll
truly know it. Why then, was I so confused? As I was pondering this, the
bathroom door swung open, a little more calmly now, and out walked Lia
smiling, followed by Chris.
"We've decided to be adult about this," said Chris, "And in order to do
that, we've decided there's only one way around it." With that, he turned
to Lia and kissed her. I saw her body tense, then relax and as he pulled
away I saw her face light up and the corners of her mouth turned up. I had
to snigger, and as I did I was met by Lia's 'if looks could kill'
glance. As I tried to surpress my laughter, I felt a quiet whisper in my
ear,
"Should we tell?" asked JC, "I mean, we have to someday, right?"
"If that's what you want to do," I started, "Then that's what you should
do. Always do what you feel comfortable with." On that last word, JC stood
up and said in an 'announcer' voice,
"Chris...Lia, I have something to say. I'm gay and I am dating Aidan"
There was a silence that lasted forever. Each second passed so slowly. The
anticipation of a reaction was creating a eerie atmosphere. JC looked like
he was about to cry out. Just as I was about to open my mouth, Chris
stepped in and exclaimed,
"No WAY!"
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So there you have it. Write me at TrueBlue86@cwcom.net, okay? :) Good! Bye
Bye Sweeties. Warning... Aidan is really fucked up in the head... you
know, a lot of baggage. So it's not all going to be good yet... and there
will be a revelation... just wait!