Just had this strange energy to fight my depression today, I woke up at 11AM and did a lot of things today, which is very odd considering I have bin sleeping upto 18 hours a day for the past month or so , I spoke to my doctor, and to one of my closest friends, went out with my dad for a conference and saw a movie. usually I wake up at 8PM or even as late as 10PM and do nothing but eat and watch TV or internet. I have bin very misrable this past month, and feel very guilty because of it, I want to change so bad, I want to find a job so bad, I want to wake up in the morning everyday, I feel like I'm walking dead person waiting for his funeral.. I really want to change but I don't know how.

Every month or so , I have 1 day where I get energy to do things.. and I don't want this day to end, because when I go to sleep and wake up next day I fear I will go back to my destructive pattern again....

Please I need your prayers so that I wake up tomorerow feeling energetic.. I want to go to the gym tomorerow something I haven't done that for over 3 years, and I also want to see some of my friends..

But I'm scared of falling asleep, waking up and be misrable again... not wanting to do anything...

Sorry, just needed to vent out I'm feeling good today but I don't know if this will last.. I don't know what tomorerow will bring.. what is going to happen to me.. or how I am going to fight this depression..

I use to get that feeling and stay up all night and the next day. But then I would really crash. But I was so afraid of waking up sick the next day that I didn't want to go to bed. Plus I wanted to be up in the morning. I have fibromyalgia and that is the reason for the chronic fatigue. I take adderall to keep me up now. You might want to talkt to your pdoc about that. It really helps keep me going during the day.

getting by, maybe your right I'll talk to my doctor and see... I once thought I have chronic fatig cyndrom too, but when I tell my parents they laugh and say nothing is wrong with you it's all in your head... sometimes I wish I would understand whats wrong with me but it could be just psycological, since I keep resisting to wake up by forcing myself to stay in bed, it also has to do with my past addiction to online games which is like the internet-drug.. I am clean for 8 months but the withdrawal symptoms just never want to disapear lol. To be or not to Be

I think maybe you should speak with your doctor, it might help to get some medication to get you moving! Also maybe you could change your diet to try & help with energy, as in eat more carbs in things such as pasta and avoid things with a high sugar content.Confusedli

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