i know that no matter what anyone says right now it doesnt feel like anything is going to be any different and nothing helps take this feeling away. I know, when I got out of hospital the first time and the second time everyone knew that i was still miserable and that it would happen again, I guess i wanted someone to reach out to me, they never did. Then i found this site and it has really helped me, if you are still online you are more than welcome to private message me, talk it through. Let someone know what is hurting you so much that you cant go on, even if you say you dont know, im online most of the night so maybe it may do you good to talk.

Hello Golden Psych,
We understand what is happening with you! Maybe you should take up Sunny on her asking you to PM her. I agree right now you need to talk, to vent. Let all that garbage out. Once it is out then trash it because you don't want to take it back in!! You are well liked around here and we don't want anything to happen to you!!:chopper:

hi girl, sorry to read you were back in the hospital. please don't hurt yourself. talk to us... talk to your boyfriend. we all want to help. don't you see that nice social worker this week? is that upsetting you? like i said before, don't worry about the labels they try adn place on you, just try to find ways to feel better, to survive, even.

Glad you got out of the hospital, but not happy that you are making plans. Give yourself time to adjust to being back out. Use the skills they gave you to help you keep going on. What you are feeling is not that unusual. You have come this far and survived so much. Don't give up now. :hug: