July 2005, in a little bar just off Rue George V in Paris, a conversation about what we had just witnessed for the seventh time. At the table next to us four Americans clad in yellow Livestrong shirts got up, stood by our table, glared at us, reminded us what an incredible story it was, reminded how much he had done for the “cancer community," and even if he did dope, he was only doing what everyone else was doing. They walked out.

July 2010, standing on the roadside just after the Champs around 7 p.m., a RadioShack car drives by on the other side of the road. Veering last minute it pulls over to me, the windows wind down, and the occupants flip me the bird and the car drives off. Fast forward to 2013, and Oprah asks Lance "Did you take performance enhancing drugs?" "Yes." "Did you take EPO?" "Yes."

I don’t know what I was expecting to feel—joy, happiness, revenge, anger—but all I ended up feeling was numb. Then it slowly dawned on me what he had said, and I thought, "Finally, this is over, Lance will admit, he will implicate Ferrari, Bruyneel. He will damn the UCI, express remorse, apologize to all the guys he cheated, the guys he lied about, the people he lied to, cycling can be cleansed, it’s all over and we can move on."

The trouble is, it isn’t really over. We got an admission, we got limited apologies, but we also got an Armstrong that remained defiant. An Armstrong that wouldn’t admit what really happened in that hospital room. An Armstrong that says Ferrari is a good guy, who never mentioned Bruyneel, who praised the bio passport, and insists he rode clean in 2009. An Armstrong who still denies allegations of payments made to USADA despite overwhelming evidence, an Armstrong that still says he was only doing what everybody else was doing. An Armstrong that refuses to name names, that claims to have been given a "death penalty," an Armstrong that has the gall to suggest that he deserves to compete again.

It’s then I realize, things haven’t really ended. In 2013, just like 2005, Armstrong is still only doing what everyone else was doing, he's still hiding behind Livestrong, and he's still, like 2010, flipping everyone the bird.