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This time of year always finds me wallowing between bouts of trepidation and dread and soaring heights of excitement and joy. Don’t get me wrong. It certainly seems appropriate to kiss the past year goodbye (especially if it was a particularly sucky one) and celebrate (with great hope and anticipation) the arrival of a new year. Sadly for so many of those hello’s and goodbye’s, I spent this momentous time feeling compelled to decide what I wanted to “fix” about me, making a New Year’s Resolution... or two or three. Looking back now, I don’t even remember what any of those resolutions were, but I suspect that they always included an element of working out more and eating healthier... Step one to "fixing" me. I also suspect that those resolutions were long forgotten by February 1st -- perhaps yet another thing I need to fix about me, another thing I need to add to my list of resolutions.

But 2014 has turned out to be an odd year for me, a profound year. I feel like I am finally ready to give up the fight, the fight to fix me. It was a long time coming. This fight to fix me, this battle has been waged for nearly my entire life... and I am exhausted. Now I yearn to embrace me AS I AM; to embrace this life I have now. So what does that mean for 2015?

I have decided that resolutions and the stress and self-loathing that they induce are out. 2015 will be the year of doing. Here are 10 things I want to do in 2015: