In denial about losing baby.

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MamaSnoozyBear wrote:

I started spotting 3 days ago that turned into bleeding. Went in and had my hormone levels checked and they were 2500 and had an ultrasound that showed the baby was measuring at 5w2d but couldn't find a heartbeat. My midwife said it might just be too early for a heartbeat but the bleeding was a concern. I went home and had severe cramping and lost more blood and tissue that I'm pretty sure was fetal tissue. It actually kind of looked like the placenta from my first baby so I'm fairly certain I lost the baby. She said I'll have to get my blood drawn again and my levels tested to see if they've dropped. At this point I logically know that I've lost the baby but until I see that it's gone I have this stupid hope that by some miracle I'll have another ultrasound and see a healthy baby with a heartbeat. At this point I've told my midwife over the phone that I'm pretty sure I lost it and she just wants me to wait a week and get my blood drawn again to see where my levels are. Wouldn't the tissue be proof enough? Why wouldn't she just do an ultrasound to confirm instead of waiting on blood work? I've already started the grieving process but until I hear from her mouth that the baby is gone I won't truly believe it, even though I already know it's true.

I am very sorry for your loss. I have been in a similar situation just about 2 weeks ago, but I hope yours will end up being positive. I hope your story is not like mine. In my case I was told at 12.5 weeks that my son had no heartbeat and that he stopped growing at 10.5. I got another ultrasound done at another office just to confirm my diagnosis. Up until I started bleeding about 2 days later I had a hope that my son was still alive. When I saw blood it was a confirmation for me. Before that I wanted to ask the doctor right before the D & C to check for heartbeat. But that was my story. In your case there is hope. My friend was bleeding with her daughter and she ended up fine. I truly hope your story is the exact opposite of mine. Good luck to you. I hope the bleeding is not related to the baby, and I am wishing you to see the heartbeat next week.