Thursday, February 10, 2011

Figuring yourself out...

I was having a conversation with a old friend today and I realized I am not who I used to be...I used to get off hurting people and making others lives a living hell...I have my catty moments and moments when my little devil peeks his head out but not like I used to be...Where does time go and when did I change? I thought I was always the same person but I am realizing I do have more of a heart these days and all I want to do is be loved, I have a great man in my life but is that enough? I think to myself sometimes I want the world to love me, I want to walk into the market and see everyones head turn and smile at me and them call out for me...

I think a little part of us all want to have that full time love from everyone or at least the folks I know do...we all want that attention more then you know...how do we get it? where do we find it?

Well I decided as of today I am going to make changes in my life, I am going to be cuter funnier and well even cattier if it means I will get the attention I need...

I guess after the battle of dealing with my disabilities I still need to know I am loved by all before I got sick I never had to worry about this cause everyone just loved me, now they love me with conditions I feel and it makes me wonder is it me now or was I just blind my whole life?

Well if and when I figure it all out I will let you guys know...

Tonight for dinner something with ground beef i am thinking maybe pasta and red sauce and home made garlic rolls yummy....see you guys later...

1 comment:

change is a good thing for everyone and it is a sign of a new level of maturity. I love you hunny and you are so fun to be with and as for being catty, well us girls need to let it out cause being catty can be fun! I love you for you and I always will!