Abi mokan 7ilo, yeded, fee awadem san3a, WAIN!?

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Remember habat il game boys? wasnt it the best? I had a see through one that day. I was walking bil subway WHILST playing with my new gameboy. Let me tell you something, THAT WAS NOT A GOOD IDEA!

Why: Cuz i got so into the game that i lost focus on everything around me, all i was hearing were the mario sounds on the teeni tiny device, i was winning i had just gotten to a higher stage. What i didnt realise was, i was walking diagonally heading on the right side instead of straight, and what was on my right side? Yep, the train.

So i kept on walking and walking, heading for that speeding, huge scary train to hit me. There were three steps left for me, to step right infront of the train. I heard the horns of the train going ballistik, but what i didnt know was that they were for me. 2 steps left for me to be infron of that train, and i heard distant screams of my name. Then i looked up and everything was suddenly crystal clear i had stepped the final step right infront of the train, i couldnt move or think, and everything went slow motion, i saw the driver panic and gesturing for me to move, but i kept staring, i could still hear my mom shouting in a distant, i saw my cuzin running so fast towards me, “she’ll never make it on time” i thought, I saw strangers looking at me waiting for me to do something, isaw evertying. Then i closed my eyes expecting myself to die

BUT! i was yanked from the back of my shirt that i landed on my butt SO HARD. I fell on my back staring at the cieling still shocked. I saw her, It was my cuzn, my beautiful savior! Then my mom came running and cussing at me while i was still lying on the floor , in pain. “intay 7mara! maynona! matshofeeen?! wain li3btich hathi 3a6eneyaha”.

So i decided to do what i do best, and it is to improvise. SO this post is coming to you live from my oh so mediocre brain. So, since you love my horror stories (meaning my most embarrasing moments;p) Im going to think of one.

OH! did i tell you i have a crush on one of my proffesors?! He is so dreamy and intimidating. I LOVE HIM! too bad he’s married and had kids. So let me tell you what happened in class today.

As usual his lecture was going by so BEAUTIFULLY with his brilliant ideas, as he was explaining how important and issential literature is in our lives he asks:

Professor McGorgeous: so what does literature give us, and what is the question in literature…

Me: (cutting him off) What is life?

Professor McGorgeous stares at me for 3 seconds and says: Wow, beautiful amazing. And what is your name?

As he turns around to write those three words on the board.

Me: enchanteurs.

He turns around and stares at me again for a GAZILLION SECONDS.

Professor McGorgeous: Enchanteurs, that is a name i must always remember, beautiful beautiful.

ISNT HE DREAMY?!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAHHH!! and i melted in my seat!!!!!! and felt my face turn red and felt ALL envious eyes were on me !!! I WAS THE QUEEN OF THE CLASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

***coming to you live from enchanteurs brain***
PS: FOR A DAMN REASON MY FONT MO GA3ED ISEER PUPLE GOT ANY TIPS?! :@

And she looks at Lamees with sympathy in her eyes, Lamees thought she had imagined it. “She couldt feel sorry for me, it was because of them that my dream shattered into pieces.”

A week later, Lamees was in her car on her way to her friend’s house. Her phone rang, she saw the number. Without thinking she hit the flasher o ra7at 3ala 7arat il amaan. She stared down at her phone, in shock not believing what she was seeing. It was bader calling her. Then it stopped ringing. “Did that just happen? She kept on staring at it, why would he be calling me? isnt he getting married soon? Was he going to say goodbye? I’m not up for that!” She jumped when her phone vibrated in her hands, it was a message from him.

“What the hell have i done?! Why am i talking to him that way!?” She started crying so hard, that she couldnt see what was infront of her. She managed to get to her friends house, called her friend that she was outside, not knowing how her friend understood what she said mid-sobs. Her friend came running down, and saw lamees get out of her car her eyes and nose were bloodshot red. She ran and hugged lamees, and she collapsed in her arms.

Two days later Lamees was sitting in the living room, staring at the TV. She was still a body without a soul, she was a zombie. Her mother came and sat down next to her.

Mother: Lamees, intay mkalma bader?

Lamees: Ha? Laish?

Mother: oma dagat mara thanya.

“Bathbetlich ini mo chathab”

Lamees: Laish?!

And her mother smiled with tears in her eyes.

Mother: ya56ebech mara thanya.

Without thinking Lamees threw herself on her mothers lap and started crying, and screaming.

The next couple of days were not easy, everyone found out, her brothers and sister. Her aunts and uncles, everyone had a different opinion. Her brothers and father didnt talk to her, and her sister and aunts were on her side along with her mother. This was the final battle in this war. Everytime she saw her father she started begging him with her eyes, she flaunted her tears infront of him, just so that he would feel sorry for her and change his mind. But this time, it was different, she had hope. Her mother was with her, she had even spoken with Bader, talking about religon and everything, Oo Bader already gayel ina ohwa meste3ed ighayer mathheba 3ashani, o i3yalna ikonon 3ala mathhabna, Lamees didnt like that. She wanted him to have his own beliefs and out of that they’d manage and they would work it out. But he seemed to convince Lamees’ mother. And she was fine with that, just as long her mother was fine too.

Lamees fell into a deeper hole, omha sakerat kel el beeban ib wayha. But she didnt give up she kept trying, and trying for days and weeks and months. But when the problem grew, her father found out. He wasnt happy with his favorite child, she was always his favorite and hated to dissapoint him. But this time she crossed the line. And like her mother, sakar kil il beeban ib wayha. She had only one thing to do. To break up with bader, and break both their hearts.

It wasnt easy, infact it was one of the hardest thing she had ever done. It felt like she ripped her own heart out and stepped on it repeatedly. And what made it harder was, the last word she heard him say “Karahtich”.

She believed that, even if sounded fake she beleived it, cuz she hated herself too. She tried to be his friend, she tried to be there for him. But everytime she tried he drew further and further away. Now she was convinced that he hated her, just as much as she hated herself.

She saw him occasionally after they broke up, but he was cold, colder than ice. He wouldnt even look her way. She felt weak and defeated, she still loved him. And wondered how could he stop loving me that easily. She spent months and months crying herself to sleep, she wasnt alive, her parent felt guilty and treated her even better than before, they got her anything she wanted, the even got her a new car. But that didnt make her happy, she walked around like a lifeless creature, lurking in the halls, she kept herself busy with anything, and she got better grades and managed to raise her gpa and get on the honors list. Even THAT didnt make her happy, she even got a scholarship to get her masters abroad. THAT! didnt even make her happy eventhough it was another dream come true. But the dream she always wanted, will never come alive.

A year later, also on valentines day. She went out with her mother and sister, they were talking casually. And ofcourse her mother pulled out the marriage card.

This is by far the worst thing that might happen to her, just when she finally had her dream come true, and the guy that she loved all those years FINALLY returns that love for her.. It had to end. She wasn’t ready to lose her family over anything. It killed her, she went to her room shut the door and slammed on her bed, crying her eyes out. “I have to end it!” She sobbed repeatedly. Tears were streaming down her cheeks, they felt endless. Just like her love to him. Her phone rang, it was him. What was she going to do? She fought back her tears, and picked up the phone.

She felt as if her heart was torn out of her chest and cut up into pieces. But his words changed her mind, “I’m not going to give up” She thought, “The least i could do is try.”

That night Lamees cried herself to sleep, and dreamt that Bader got married and he lived happily with his wife, while she stood looking at them, staring, hear heart in pain, it seemed too real. This dream shook her up, she had to do something, soon.

Days passed, while she carried that burden on her shoulders. She carried the battle between the most people that she loved in her life, her family and the only man that she loved.

Bader noticed that she changed, he kept on asking her what was wrong? But she kept on making excuses or attempts to change the subject. Until one day he blew up on her.

She wanted to believe that, she wanted that to happen more than anything! But could it happen?

Another week passed oo ohma 3ala ib 7aala wayed sa3ba. She cried 24 hours a day, she didnt eat and didnt sleep. But bader seemed to have hope more than she did, and that made it harder for her. She didnt want him to have his hopes up.

One day Lamees was watching tv in her room, when she heard a knock on the door and it was her mother.

The next couple of weeks were just a blur, they were completely head over heals for each other. Lameescouldnt believe what was happening she felt that it was a dream, a dream that she wished she would never wake up from. He was more than she expected him to be more than she wanted him to be in her dreams, he did everything for her, imsaweelaha “ya dhaina la tenkatain”. And the most important part was that he was serious about her and had talked to his family again, 3ashan yetqademonlaha.

One of those days, Lamees was home watching tv with her family, thinking about bader ofcourse and how lucky she is. And to her luck that day, her niece and sister were over. They chatted for a while, when Mays (Lamees’ sister) got a phone call.

Lamees freezes. There was only one house ili a3arfa ib qe63a 6! It cant be his house!!

Lamees: aah… mayser il sayeg iwadeha?

Mays: haw shfeech! tawech btwadenha:s! yala 3ad wadeeha 3ashanii!!

Lamees: 5alas ok.

She was a duck on a pond, she seemed calm from the outside but underneath it all she was kicking the hell ut of herself! “I cant i cant take her there! what if hes there?! what am i supposed to do!…..SHIT!!” Her phone rang it was him.

Her heart was beating so fast it felt like she was running a marathon. She had to get out of it! she had to! Butcouldnt, she headed out of her house with her niece dana without calling bader so that he couldnt guess when will she be arriving. She managed to reach the block with the help of her sister’s directions. And her heart started beating faster and faster, “i’m going to see him” she thought over and over again. When she reached the street, she could see the most perfect outline of a body waiting for her, she tried to look away but the sight mesmerised her, she never knew he was that beautiful, that tall, that broad, that….hot. she

She reached the house and he walked towards her car while throwing the cigarette bud. All she could hear was her heart beating through her ears. She stared at him like he was something else, an extra terrestrial maybe. She felt like an idiot she was staring at him so hard that she forgot where the hell she was, he started talking and she couldnt hear him, he was laughing but she couldnt hear a thing. She thought she had gone deaf from the thumping of her heart.

Dana: 5alti ba6lay il dereesha shfeeeech!!!!!

Lamees: oh.

She finally opened it and to her extremely good luck he was laughing at her and she blushed. Well it felt like her face was burning.

Bader: gowa.

He wasnt talking to her.

Dana: igaweeek.

Bader: sh3endich yaya 3indena?

Dana: kaifiiiii:D

Bader: haha ya7lailich.

Then he looked at Lamees, her heart stopped. He stared right into her eyes, he was studying her face she felt it. She felt everything, she felt his eyes on her eyes, her cheeks, her nose… her mouth. She blushed more at that thought. It felt like it was the first time seeing him, he was more beautiful closer. His slightly dark hazel eyes glistened in the dark, his skin was so soft so tanned, his lips were full and perfect. He smiled at her, she smiled back and looked away. In merely seconds it was all over he leaned away from the window and opened the door for dana, while still looking at lamees. He shut the door turned away and put his arms around dana smiling, talking, laughing. She wished she was dana right now. He looked back at her flashed her a heart stopping smile and went in.

“I’m DEFINITELY dreaming!” She drove back home, day dreaming and in la la land.

Her Mother: ha ga6aiteeha?

Lamees: ee yuma.

Mother: ta2akadtay inha dashat?

Lamees:ee, *sigh*

Mother: mno ya 5athaha?

“Oh crap”

Lamees: Bader.

Mother: lail7en t7ebenaa?

And it all came crashing down on her in a matter of seconds.

Lamees: laa yuma.

Mother: 3abali b3ad.

How could she be this blind? How could she not see this coming when she actually knew this years ago! she knew exactly what her mom had said that time in the car. She practically said “atbara minich”.

She fell on the bed and felt her whole world came crashing down, she knew at that moment, that Bader and Lamees, might never be.

**to be continued**

Note: I'm so sorry for taking long to post its just that ive been feeling down the last couple
of days. Oo atmana inkom tsam7oni oo u like this part ;* Oo plus yatni zafa ams so purely o style
this one is for u ;** LUV U ALL BLOGOFRIENDS!!!!!!!

Something wasnt right. She wasnt convinced. He was lying she thought he must have! Why now why today? Is it a coincidence ina it was on valentines day? Wela nafs ma fakerat ina he was lonely o lega another lonely person?

Lamees: u still do??? shlon ya3ni u still do?

She started losing her temper, she was convinced that he was lying and playing with her emotions.

She was definitely dreaming, she started to smack her face a little to wake up, but she didnt this was real. It’s happening now. He told her that he liked her, the guy that she fell in love with all those years is confessing his feelings for her on MSN! Why arent i happy she thought? Why arent i smiling at least?!

Lamees: i dont believe you.

She spat out. She wanted to be cruel and she wanted to hurt him, and she couldnt explain why.

She took a moment to think about it, it was true, he didnt used to go to his grandmothers house ila after a while. He used to look at her and stare at her, but her insecurity was so stubborn to believe.

Bader: well i do. Oo now i know you dont have someone, am not going to stop trying. Do you know il shi3oor ili u see someone and u dont know them well, bas u feel ina that person belongs to you no matter what?

She had no idea what she was waiting for. She stared at her phone in her hands, still in shock and still motionless, except for her heart that was beating so hard she felt it through her throat. She received a msg and saw it.