By now, Breaking Bad fans who have seen the series finale know Jesse Pinkman’s fate. But in a new interview for the February cover of Details, Aaron Paul revealed an email he once wrote to creator Vince Gilligan asking for Jesse to … commit suicide?

“I wrote an email to Vince before we started shooting the final eight episodes – a plea for Jesse, a love letter,” Paul said. “I never give my two cents when it comes to Breaking Bad, because why would I? I’m just the actor, and what they’re doing is perfect, you know? But I just felt like I would always regret it if I didn’t at least throw them a pitch on how I wanted Jesse to go out. So I gave a few different ideas of how I thought he would kill himself. I didn’t want anybody else taking his life. The letter was awful. It was very morbid, and I’m so happy they didn’t listen. I’d rather Jesse just kind of ride off into the sunset like he did.”

However, as far as the show’s spin-off, Better Call Saul, is concerned, the ending of Breaking Bad doesn’t really matter. With Better Call Saul, which will go into production later this year, acting as a prequel to Breaking Bad, the cameo opportunities are limitless. And according to Paul, he would jump at the opportunity to walk in Jesse’s shoes one more time. “Both Bryan [Cranston] and I want to be a part of that. If they’ll have us,” Paul said.

And if Better Call Saul knows what’s good, the response to having Paul and Cranston guest star should be simple: “Yeah … bitch.”