Therapy: At times, clinically I was aware of the process, but applying it to myself, I could be clueless. My journey leads to this anonymous place where I can tell of my life of abuse and trauma primarily through my past journals, current commentary, some current journaling and posts on specific issues I face. I hope to increase awareness & compassion for those of us with mental illness.

Fragmentation: a mental process where a person becomes intensely emotionally focused on one aspect of themselves, such as “I am angry” or “no one loves me,” to the point where all thoughts, feelings and behavior demonstrate this emotional state, in which, the person does not or is unable to take into account the reality of their environment, others or themselves and their resources. This is a term that my therapist and I use and is on the continuum of dissociation.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

I know that this is not a pretty picture, but to me it represents more than 30 years struggling with self injury. Sometime (I don't have an exact date), this month I have been completely self injury free for one year!!! Such a tough time and such an accomplishment. I still have thoughts and sometimes really "loud" ones like this week, but I've been able to manage my feelings and impulses better. One goal that I have is that I am not going to end up in the hospital again!!! This last year has been a quite a battle. Happy Anniversay to Me!!!

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Happy Anniversary :) That is really, really incredible. Its HARD to go a long time without SI. Congratulations on the hard work of making it through-- you have every right to be really proud of yourself!

Congratulations on your one-year anniversary. I do know with my overeating some days are just easier than others. Thanks for your comment on my blog recently and for coming back to explain "going away."