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In God's Time

On my way home today I was sitting in rush hour traffic, with a killer headache thanks to Lupron, thinking how I am only nine shots in to the IVF process and already so over them. Then a song came on my radio, Randy Houser's "In God's Time". This is a song that has gotten me through this journey. The very first time I heard it, I stopped breathing. The third verse and chorus were word I needed to hear, both the first time I heard it and today.

"And in God's timeYou'll finally get the chance to hold your baby girlAnd all the sudden everything'll make sense in this crazy worldIn God's time

Oh, but no one knowsNot you or meIt might be tomorrow or it might never beOh, but don't lose faithPut it in His hands'Cause it might be that He might have a bigger planThan you had in mindMiracles happenIn God's time"
There is a reason God has me going through IVF, even though I don't know what it is now, in God's time I will. And, hopefully in God's time I will get to hold my baby.

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