Sunday, January 31, 2010

I just came back from Kursus Fasilitator that I've told in my previous entry. Well, the Kursus was held under Gabungan Pelajar Melayu Semenanjung (GPMS) Cawangan Khas Uitm Kedah at Kampung Acheh Management Center (KAMC) Yan, due to enhance the participants' soft skills. Frankly speaking I joined it because I want to full my weekend with a good activity. Plus, because it's been a long time ago I didn't go for any Kursus and I knew that there were many outdoor activities. That was influence me enough. I went there with full of hoping that I could join the jungle tracking and the night walk. Fortunately, it was paid. I don't want to state the pros and the contra of the Kursus, since I got many things to do. So, I have nothing too much to say. Just enjoy with the pictures.

This was when jungle tracking and we stopped at Batu Hampar and we got our bath.

Seriously, the view of the place is wonderful.

I love this one the most.

p/s; I know this blog is no longer interesting for you to read, I really sorry for this because I really don't have enough time to type the real entry like before. I'll work for it and I'll try to make this blog as the real "rda's"

Friday, January 29, 2010

Currently, I am working on Bel 313 second assignment to be finished. Afterwards, going to finish Law's assignment. Next is, going to practice forum for Bel 313. 10 Feb will going back to KL due to Chinese New Year Holiday. Good for being Malaysian. Banyak cuti. 12 Feb till 16 Feb are the training for Debat ASTAR at UiTM Shah Alam, as usual. 17 Feb, Debat ASTAR Tournament perhaps. Okay, I'm going to Kursus Fasilitator today at 4 pm. And now, I'm too anxious when thinking of assignments. Okay, will update later. Sorry blog. T___T

Friday, January 22, 2010

I want to be like Princess Mia in Princess Diaries. She got everything that she want. She's beautiful, pretty, honest. Just perfect. But, she have to control her attitude, manners. She are forced to be hypocrite. Because she is a princess. No, I won't be like her. So, perhaps I can be like Puteri in Gol & Gincu. Perhaps, I have perfect girlfriends like hers. But, Puteri is so western. I'm a Malay, and I do love the culture. So, I would not be like Puteri. I think, it's okay if I can be Bella or Intan in Pisau Cukur. Because, it seems like I can get a rich husband someday and I can get everything that I want, indeed. But I'm not too materialistic. I'm satisfying with my current life. So, perhaps I can be like Neytiri the heroin of Avatar. She's so fantastic. I can prove to the world that a woman, still can be a hero. A strong woman like Neytiri. But she's not a real human. I mean, it's quite impossible to be like her unless I got the miracles. I won't be somebody else. I just want to be my self. Because it's the best for me. I'm proud to be who I am.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

I know it's sounds weird when I'm trying hardly to hide something from you, or even when I'm trying to persuade my self not to cry again. Because everybody knows how strong I am. And it's been a long time, I haven't cry for people. It's been long time ago, I cried for you. But not for now, I am wasting my tears just for you and I won't ever do it again. Because I do love my self more than I love you. I don't need you to tell my problems to. I don't need you to cry with. Because I already found my only hope in my life. Forever. Thanks Allah for giving me a strong heart.

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

and pray to be only Yours

I pray to be only Yours

I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars

Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing

and laughing again

When it feels like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny

I'm giving You all of me

I want Your symphony

Singing in all that I am

At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands and pray

To be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

I do love the song, because it gives me the spirit of being the old me. The strong one. I can smile now, or even laugh. Thanks Ama (roommate) for giving this song.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

14 Jan at 2 pm ada Introduction to Law 2 first test which is I tak baca satu apa pun lagi.

15 Jan, I have to go to Central Square for doing some shooting as regarding to the broadcasting.

16 Jan at evening, I am going to Penang with my teammates to continue doing our broadcasting, we're going to overnight there until 17 Jan. And I have some mission to be accomplished. I'll state it later.

18 Jan, perhaps I got the Debate's training at night regarding to present in AGM. And not to be forgotten, the replacement class with Miss Aisyah at the same time. And now, I'm confusing on how to choose which one is more important. T______T

19 Jan, got full of classes at day and the AGM at night and perhaps the AGM will be ended at 11 pm.

20 Jan, have to pass the Psychology assignment an I'm thinking about what's the most right and suitable time to finish the task given.

That's all for now, perhaps. I'll update later regarding my mission that I told you before.

Friday, January 08, 2010

Seriously, ramai tanya how could I handle my life without thinking of having a boyfriend. I really don't know how to answer it. Because the reason is too subjective. But let me tell you in the proper way. Frankly speaking, at first it was not as easy as I think. Because I've never stopped of having a boyfriend or even a scandal. But now, it's totally different because I have nobody special to send me the sms everyday to ask my current condition. I have nobody to ask for hangout and watching movie together. I have nobody to tell all about my activities to. It was a hard time at first. Because I was not used of being a single lady.

I've no negative perception about men. I don't even want to blame them for doing the bad thing in my previous relationship. Because I think, they're just same like us. A human. But, what I'm trying to tell is that I just don't need them to complete my life for now. I think it's enough. Because they had never do that before. Because, they're just not my type, and it's difficult to find. That's why, what I've try to do right now is just to wait for them to come into my life.

I was thinking on why should I have a boyfriend and I found that it's unnecessary at all. Because I got a simple life right now and it's good enough for me. Why should I get over them even though they're not suit with me? It's wrong of having a boyfriend just for fun, or even just for complete our lives. Because I want it goes seriously. I want a serious relationship. I want the true one, a guy who have all of the traits that I want. And since, it's difficult to find that type of guy, so why should I think that I need them?

I just don't need them right now. And I mean, just for now. Because I've failed to find someone who really deserve to be adored to and I'm always wishing that I'm going to get one, someday. That's the way how I handle my life without thinking of men. Because, he's not around. A guy that I need.

Sunday, January 03, 2010

I need some rest right now indeed but instead of having a sleep I still want to update this blog regarding the promise I made from the previous entries to tell about the resolution and all the wishes for 2010. Well, this is the second entry in 2010 and I wish that it would not be a long entry as it was my vision in being a good blogger. I have to type a short, but understandable entry. Despite I'm using the old-fashioned home's laptop because mine was not working and need to be repaired. I will get mine, in about two or three months later. *sigh

I was realize that all of my problems in 2009 was because of my failure in managing time. It was the big reason, why I got a very low pointer, why I failed to get enough of sleep, why I woke up too late every morning and sometimes I have to skip the class in the morning. Just because I failed to manage my timetable wisely. So, the first resolution is by managing time properly and I need to make a weekly planner as I will not going to follow the daily timetable. Reduce the using of laptop because when I switch on my laptop, I am always tend to online and play farmville. What a waste of time. T____T

Secondly, is about the weight. I want to reduce my weight as soon as possible by limit the daily usage of pocket money so I will not going to buy too many foods. And perhaps I would get two things, less weight and less usage of money. Next, perhaps I would always be in the futsal court to play the handball in order to reduce my weight. Okay, please don't laugh. This is my target.

Lastly is study harder and smarter because the result was not good enough. I need to concentrate in lectures because it would help me to understand the lesson. No more skip the class without a sensible reason. And friends, do prompt me since I am just a human, easy to forget.

p/s; These two weeks would be too busy because the Law, Psychology, and Library test is coming. We need to pass Psychology's assignment by 14th. The video advertisement should be passed in Wednesday. And I need some space to relax because being a secretary of Debate's Club is not as easy as I think.

p/ss; I think, I do love the wedges that I bought from Vincci on Friday. Yeay. (:

p/sss; I don't have enough time to care about you. So, please go from my life.