Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Tonight 8pm...Backstreet Boys' "Never Gone" Concert@ Indoor Stadium...hmmm...i'm not a good fan...i didn't go their concert...i don't feel good...wonder when will be the next time?haiz...who knows...haiz...BSB...support you Forever.hmmmm.......................

When you feeling down...take a deep breath...relax...and tell yourself that it's gonna be all right...

Friends,when you feeling down or when tears filled in your eyes...what i will do is be there for you...lend you my listening ear...keep quiet...wait for you to cool down...put my hands around your shoulder...sayang...and make sure that...finally... you are all right...hope you know that this is my way of caring you.coz i don't know how to express myself well.sorry.

well...sometimes maybe i will just cry with you...oppz.

What if i feel down or cry? lolz....i think i will prefer to go to the toilet or an empty place to cool myself down...lolz.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

messy feeling now... thinking about lotz of things...firstly working...still the same style maybe...just dun want to get involve in working life so much... some people do change after they get into work..at least i heard the stories from my friends...i just don't like working life...but somehow have to....hmmm and too bad...must face it one day...haiz...so sick to think about that...also u won't know what type of pple u will meet... i think i'm quite lucky to be in ramen ten...at least pple are nice...especially them =) but what if u are in those office company or wateva...i think i must see too many drama shows...but who knows?mayb the real world is even worse...haiz...innocent is such a good word...i hope u won't lose it. please...stay nice,cute and sweet.another point...why pple just like to say the words which demoralised people? can't they just be more sensible? but anyway...considerate people won't say in this way.i kana so many times b4 during work. let's say...if i saw u forget to put the saurce for...like..gyoza bento? i will just say..."hey you forget to put the saurce." finish.short and simple.but why they just like to say in this way --->" wei u forget to put saurce...u haven't wake up izit? or u in dreamland izit?" MUST YOU(more than 1 person) SAY IN THIS WAY? DO YOU KNOW THAT MOTIVATION IS IMPORTAND DURING WORK? did you learn management before?oh ya..maybe not. or sometimes i feel tired...so my facial expression abit weird...or never smile... can't you just like say in a nice way " you ok not? you looks tired...try to smile or sth" ( i rmb last time our parttime supervisor did so...datz why i like her) but u? you will never ask this,u will never notice if your staffs are tired or under wateva pressure...u only how to say"what are you doing? you look like u want to die like dat etc..." hello!how would you feel if u are in a bad mood and very tired? well i really don't understand you. u are nice? or no? i really can't judge...i really confused. i mean...when i do things wrong i feel abit panic already...i still must listen to your this kind of words? i shall numb myself during work man...i dun't like to hear this kind of words...as some of you should know,i got told you i super don't like to hear people say "shut up" to me, but i m glad that u got change.phew.type it out feels a little bit better.Why must people drink beer or smoke when grow up?why....~ Gang partner...rmb...keep the promise ---no drinks,no smoking,no pub. go park and cycling is more fun hahahaha.i think Projects really a BIG torture...not only the content itself not easy...but the people u gotto deal with...well...conflicts..then...comes...but hopefully...it solves by itself...can't do much about it also...2 more weeks to finish all the projects eh? chiong arh...well...and to avoid the unnecessary misunderstood...beta know what can joke and what can not joke sia...CNY is coming...again...haiz...i miss those days...i miss all my hong baos ...not like now...so pathetic..gotta work to numb myself...nvm..should not complain too much...i still believe my true freedom and happiness will come one day...Mum...we will never say give up. and can not give up also.i still rmb i got this old friend who suddenly told me this last time ....she said nowadays...she will keep a distance with all her friends...mainly her new friends...i was like asking WHY? like that how to call "friends"? she told me ...only by doing this...u won't get betrayed by ur friends...she told me she got betrayed by her friends b4. actually i was wondering...what they did to you is consider "betray u" ? i don't really get this concept..coz i tink i nv experienced this b4...i don't know...but is true...i start to scare to know new pple...i wonder how long it takes to know a person really well...i really scare to get hurt...well...but maybe these kind of things are born to be complicated...let the nature take its path.

Friday go kbox with ramen ten pals...derrick 7pm sth reach liao then alone singing for an hour i tink...shiok bo...then slowly one by one reach...haha...i think he no nid the mic can sing as loud as us liao.then i like the four of them sing the "xiang cao ba bu". now then realise their " ba bo" is referring to this song...aiyo never tell..nice song mah...i like it too...then well...yea then i tink sing jay chow song can find fly,sing mayday song find wen...sing duet song find mel? haha...too bad onli LL can sing cantonese...hmmm...then winston and Z like the audience like dat...seldom sing...AIyo and the last song is my "AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME"...about to sing the chorus...it stops~they off the system~aiyo. then 3am left...and ton at mac till 6 plus...well...they got lotz lame jokes...not bad ya...then go home sleep awhile...and go work.OVERALL...a nice day~oh ya forget to mention friday morning go nyp open hse help out... i think choose the wrong duty liao...sian sian one... eye candies no more liao...left 1 or 2? lolz...yea tony dance cool! Don't look back coz it will hold you back.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

the whole week like sleep very late...too bad not really becasue of study...but reached home late,using com and slacking...so shall not complaint tired ya?

past days got countdown see fireworks...eve bday...anna bday etc...and i think this week i m quite in a good mood ^_^ but...kinda stress and disappointed in my study...i have been slacking the whole week~nv touch ani tut except the management one...and didnt score well in stats test...haiz...cannot like this i know...i must chiong for my dream...go to the place that i want to go!and i m still broke...i tink i really cant make it for BSB concert coz i m really broke...hmmm...don' mind go their concert alone but i m seriously broke...yet...i still willing to spend money for fren's event.i think i have changed...to better?i think nowadays i m more generous towards pple ard me...at least i got this feeling.

i seriously broke and need money...and i trying to work more...but...i just feel that work is least impt...so when i received a fren's msg say she wanna meet on fri coz she wanna chat with me about sth...can sense that sth is happened to her?so i juz immediately reply her "how about have dinner together then"... but actually fri i already put my schedule to work~and rmb i really nid money now and i nid to work...but i juz heck...i can cancel my working hr to spend time with frenz...i just don't understand why some pple treat their work so impt even though they are still student and it's just their part time.we all need money but i juz won't chiong until like them...for eg...some ramen ten pple really chiong like siao? why not enjoy ur life more?

wow i still feel tired though i juz woke up ...got my little mermaid hp chain...haha...i like mermaid =)

...then that day after midnite saw sly outside cine...he's smoking...skinny...just looks like an ah beng...heng he's not the SG Idol.spoilt the image.

i think lasalle's life is kinda colourful...but...hmmm...slack?and kinda feel diff frm typical poly lifestyle...haiz...why pple can't stay as innocent as b4...rmb to be yourself...don't let the environment and pple ard u Change you to another person...

lesser dislike pple...and cherish the ones ard you.i seriously miss my family coz now i m like all alone in my hse mentally.