Monday, January 21, 2008

Luck, or lack thereof

I have to confess to a case of the blahs over the weekend that continued into this morning. It's been so rainy and dark (several people have agreed with me that it seems worse than usual this year, although I know that Wayfarer is going to think I'm a total wuss), I've been mildly sick, and am just feeling generally a bit lethargic and, well, blah-like. I even found myself getting all emotional and weepy over a relatively minor occurrence first thing this morning, although I was more or less OK by the time I got to work. But mostly I'm fine - my blahs never seem to last for more than a few days, or a couple of weeks at the very most. And today the sun came out and I ticked some things off my work to-do list, which always helps. So the most depressing day of the year was not too traumatic.

What I'm really worried about is Friday. Burns Night seems to be my very own personal Friday the 13th. In previous years:

- I've broken my arm badly enough to need 3 surgeries, 2 weeks in traction and extensive physiotherapy to regain the movement in my fingers.- I've caught the measles.- I've caught the flu.- I've slipped off my bike in the frost and hurt my leg. - I've dropped my bike while locking it up and taken a huge curl of skin off my shin with one of the spikes on the biggest gear cog.- My then-boyfriend moved to another country (this one actually turned out to be A Good Thing, but was very traumatic at the time and involved lots of sobbing at the airport, a feature that recurred several times that year).

Some years pass by without incident, so I've got my fingers crossed for this week. Hopefully nothing worse than the forecasted return of the rain will happen. Maybe I should skip work and stay home, liveblogging my misfortunes as they happen. But then I'd probably get fired, so perhaps work is my best option after all.

Hmmm. To cycle or not to cycle?

p.s. What with special off-site work events and patchy home internet access, I managed to miss Friday's primate party last week. Oh well, major calamities permitting I'll prepare something extra special this week!

The article says it's calculated based on "factors such as weather, debt, time passed since Christmas, failed New Year's resolutions, low motivation and the need to take action". Whatever that means.

I think you're onto something with the unfulfilled promise of daylight though. I was all happy at the solstice that it would start getting lighter, but I still get up and ride home in the dark so it doesn't feel any different!

I ride with flashing lights on the front, back and left side, helmet, gloves, reflective strips on jacket and leggings. I'm hoping that'll do it!

well the reason I mention it is because this is the time that is hardest in AK - just as with depression, people seem to have the hardest time when they are feeling good enough not to be at the very bottom but can't see their way out of the pit.

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