Im not looking for pity or anything like that. Im just keeping note of everything my parents have done that i have talked about on discord, or everything they do in the future. This is mostly my mom.

2/4/18

she took me to the hair cutting place in walmart for them to brush the knot out of my hair and the lady said they couldnt brush it tonight so my mom was saying"see if you would have brushed your hair this wouldnt have happened, its your fault not mine" but I brushed my hair every day and straightened it, I just kept the back in a half up half down a lot and it got splodeing knotted so we started splodeing arguing in the middle of walmart and then she said"thats it im not taking you to springfield today" and i said"im sorry, i just have so much going on right now and ive been so depressed and i just hate my life" and my mom showed no sympathy and said"i am a loving caring mother" and then i literally for some reason it hurt me a lot cause it was the only free day i could get away from my stress and my problems this week so i splodeing started crying and hyperventilating and we were walking through the aisles and my mom would say"do you want this? do you want that?" and i would say"i dont feel like eating right now" and she would get pissed at me like"im offering you and you dont accept it, im a loving caring mother" and i was hyperventilating and crying and my mom said"stop it right now, you crying isnt going to do anything" but i couldnt stop and when we got to the check out aisle i was hyperventilating so much i was feeling dizzy like i was going to faint and we walked to the car and i said"im really sorry, i learned my lesson" and she said"i dont care, its not going to change anything. were going home" and she tried to put on music to drown out my hyperventilating and i said stop it i dont want to listen to music right now and she still turned it back on and i kept crying telling her that i wanted to just be happy and she didnt care and I said"you dont try to make me happy when I tell you how i feel" and she said"thanks a lot" sarcastically and "im a great mother, i feed you, i pay bills, i clean"

11/07/2018My mom is ACTUALLY splodeING INSANEShe is videoing a video for my friend"This is michaels room. This is kelly, bobby, this is her right now. Today is november of 2018"

(not abusive but..)0/14/2018My mom thinks I was lying about not feeling good last night and she wont give me my phone till I finish the movie for my essay, AND my essay, AND get an A on it

08/20/2018UGHMy mom just yelled at me for not eating"I pulled out the toaster and you didnt eat""Get off the computer"

09/14/2018This is whats the worst..Im with this really really good psychyatristAnd I only meet with him once a year or sometimes twiceI was supposed to meet with him in march but my mom cancelled the appointment

09/15/2018UGHI bought these expensive good quality makeup wipes21 for 7 bucks7 bucks!!And I let my aunt use one for her makeupAnd my mom said"Can I have one"She JUST washed her faceI was like"Whats the point? You just washed your face, these were very expensive and I dont want to waste them""Let me USE ONE. I am your MOTHER"She used it. And NO makeup came offShe offered it back to me and Im like"Really? REALLY? As if that makes it better. Your greasy ass pimples on it

--I never got a phone, they took the laptop, they took my passwords, my nook where I could access the internet, the kindleThey took my door off in my bedroom, closet, and bathroomHoles in the walls all the timeThrown thingsLampsHad CPS called on me twiceThey lied and said I was autistic and that I have meltdowns and outburstsSaid Im the one hittingThey wrote the info down on a paperAnd then this lady had to come to my house for 3 monthsStalks me onlineGoes though my backpack, room cause its "her house"for birthday cards and mothers day she says write 10 things you love about me--08/20/2018When we fight, I say some thingsI dont curseOHAnd btwMy mom splodeing slapped me todayIn the carI put my earbuds in and she said it was rudeAnd at one point I pulled it out and.. splode i forgot what hapened. With these meds I just cant remember like I used toIts like my brain is deteriorating

08/31/2018I told her I was depressed and she got mad at me saying"But im taking you on a vacation to Boston and your DEPRESSED???'She claims she deals with depressionsplodeYou just get sadYou dont know what depression is

08/31/2018If she did she would relateAnd then I started crying and she said"stop whining" and I told her to shut up and she yelled at meblew up

10/30/2018She isnt taking me to the band halloween party tonight, or taking me home

10/30/2018my mom always threatens to make me walk to worklike every time we fight in the car to work4.1 miles"I walked that same distance every day to work in the pouring rain and snow""youre lucky im driving you"yeahim scared of sex traffkingkidnappingpeople at my school seeing me walking on the side of the road and thinking im crazyneighbors, teachersanyonecars running me overthere are no sidewalks on the way there4.1 miles

10/19/2018Im trying to tell her it was a splodeing accidentWe were in the car waiting for my friends to come out of the house and I forgot what happened(My memory has been splode lately) But we were arguing and then I was eating and the crumbs fell on me and on the ground and she said pick up every single crumb so I threw them out the window and she got mad at me and told me to pick up more and put it outside by opening the doorSo I did,and thensplodeI keep forgetting bits of the fights we havesplodekkThere is really something wrong with meThen we were arguing and I was hitting my hand on the car seat to emphasize what I was saying and my hand hit her arm and she yelled"YOU HIT ME. YOU HIT ME. THATS IT. IM NOT TAKING YOU ANYWHERE" and started to drive offAnd then I opened the door and put my foot outShe stoppedYelling at me moreThen my friends came out and actually heard her bad sideThey didnt say anything thoughThey got in the car and my mom said"Im taking you two out but leaving kelly home. she hit me""I DID NOT HIT YOU ON PURPOSE" "Yes you DID" "It was an accident""No it WASNT" On and on for like a ful minuteThen I said"fine believe what you want to believe. I did NOT hit you on purposeThen she kept arguing back in a calm passive aggressive tone and I just stopped arguing cause there was no changing itbrb my mom is yelling at me

12/18/2018My mom is driving me INSANEI got home and I felt awful. Awful. Lightheaded, dizzy, weak, like I could barely walk. I was eating raviolis straight out of the can because I was starving and my mom yelled at me for that because it’s “dangerous”Then she told me to sweep up the dirt I made when I walked in(but I LITERALLY brought no dirt in. If I did it was VERY tiny, almost not visible. ) then I told her I don’t feel good and to just let me be. Then she went on her phone and kept making noises like”mmm” “oh my god” “aHAH HAH HAAA” and annoying the splode outta me which made me feel worseThen I said”can you please stop? You can’t stop making noise for 15 seconds. “ but continued to make noise and talk to me when I just really didn’t want to talkI felt awfulThen I went to sit down and eat but she made me clean up my mess BEFORE I ate. When the whole reason why I felt bad was lack of foodThen I sat in my chair, weak and light headed and ate like crazy. Really fast. Really fast. I ate the can of ravioli In about 3 minutesThen I had a fruit snack packet and a few scoops of ice creamAnd chocolate milkAnd now my stomach hurts a lot and I can hear her making noise, singing obnoxiously or laughing obnoxiously sarcastically from upstairsAnd reminding me that I have 30 mins till we leave for work and I don’t want to work today. I feel like splodeBut oh wellMaybe tings will be better at work..

12/24/2018I’m splodeing cryingThis is the second worst Christmas Eve EVEREVERMY MOM IS SCREAMING AT ME FROM UPSTAIRSShe just admitted liking my brother more than me by comparing usThen I told her to shut up and now that I said that I’m not getting presentsAnd I’m getting my phone locked up in her truckShe is yelling “thank you for being a good boy Michael”That’s it.All the past Christmases have been awful for me

1/30/18 3:39 PMim a mess dude, splodetttlike i have no phone, an ed, i will probably get my laptop taken away for good for the rest of the year, i havent been motivated to write any songs, my mom splodein hit me and pulled my hair and tried to drag me out of the bed last night, i might lose my job, and its still not as bad as the worst time of my lifeguys this is most likely my last day on discord for a long time, if you want to talk to me my soundcloud is kelly sova and you can only message through the website not the app, or dm me for my email

1/29/18IM splodeING FREAKING OUTME AND MY MOM JUST HAD A FIGHTSHE HIT ME MULTIPLE TIMESBECAUSE SHE TOLD ME SHE WAS GOING TO TAKE MY PHONE TODAY FOR NO splodeING REASON AND I SAID WELL splode YOU ILL TAKE YOUR PHONE WELL I DIDNT SAY splode YOU I SAID SCREW UOU AND SHE VIDEOED ME FIR LIKE FIVE MINUTES AND I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE DO I TOOK HER PHONE AND SHE CHASED ME ALL AROUND THE HOUSE AND J SAID ONLY I F YOU LET ME HAVE MY PHONE FOR TWENTY MINUTES THEN SHE STARTED HITTING ME AND I HIT BACK SND SHE WAS CURSING AT ME AND WHEN I GAVE IT BACK SHE SAID YOURE A splodeING splode KELLY NO MORE OPEN MICS FOR YOU NO CONCERT THIS WEEK YOU ARE SO GROUNDED IM CALLING THE POLICE KN YOU YOU ASSAULTED MEHELP SHE IS COMING DOWN

1/29/18She went through my entire splodeing room and room everything out as is telling me to clean itShe said that’s what you get for not cleaning your room last night

2/3/18 6:50 PMomgmy mom just said"lots of people say they want to kill themselves, but they dont mean it"Wtfwhen she told my dad that it was a lie"suicide is weak"when i told her i wanted to kill myself she said"oh really? thats WEAK."UGHShe pisses me off

2/3/18Yesterday at 3:13 PMim PISSED.my mom likes to steal my makeup and face stuffand she calls it "borrowing"well i had a big container of clinique moisturizer in my cabinetand she stole it and started using itand she replaced it with a small already used containerand i said"you stole my moisturizer and replaced it with the smaller one thats almost gone. I am very mad at you. you should owe me a new one"she said"i did not steal it, aunt janet gave me this moisturizer. she gave you the small one. and i do NOT owe you a new one, you got yours for free"WTFShe is trying to tell me that im losing my mindthat i recieved a smaller oneHell NO.I got a big oneand she replaced itI vividly remember me using the big one months agoand now my skin is dry again and i have nothing to moisturize it withand what, she expects me to go pay 25-30 dollars for a new one?just because she stole it and is claming im going crazy?splodekk.

unknown datemy dad called me on the phone about going to an open mic. he said"i want you to go buy yourself a pair of tight fitting black jeans to wear on stage." i said"what?? you want me to show off my butt? are you serious?" and he said"well yeah??? lots of famous celebrities like to show off and thats what attracts more people to them when theyre on stage."

excuse me? im not splodeing showing off my body, im showing my musicthis is a open mic, not a strip cluband a little while ago he complimented me on my shirt and the way i looked. and i looked way different that day. brown straight hair, hoop earrings, a striped crop top, black short shorts, and fishnet thigh high socks

When you said you had issues with your parents, I had no idea things were this bad. I mean, I can relate. Me and my parents once had an argument, in which I said a few things I wish I never did. We... Barely talked after that. But I mean... This is pretty shocking, I'll admit. Feel free to vent. And if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. I've been in situations like these.

When you said you had issues with your parents, I had no idea things were this bad. I mean, I can relate. Me and my parents once had an argument, in which I said a few things I wish I never did. We... Barely talked after that. But I mean... This is pretty shocking, I'll admit. Feel free to vent. And if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. I've been in situations like these.

thank you, yeah its pretty bad ahahah. but i dont live with my dad so he doesent hit me anymore, im not on probation, im not having medications experimented on me, counseling sessions where my parents have to know everything i said, child protective services called and they lied about it, having no laptop for school or phone or home computer, going home and sleeping all night every day, getting all F's and D's, having the police called on me 9 times, going to juvy twice.. things are bad rn but they arent that bad cause they arent as bad as the worst time of my life. ive had a really bad past with my family and in my middle schools years and early high school years, but i got through it and thats what matters. i have a lot more confidence right now, and even though things are still bad at least theyre better. and they will be even better when i move out. its just a matter of getting through these next few months

thank you, yeah its pretty bad ahahah. but i dont live with my dad so he doesent hit me anymore, im not on probation, im not having medications experimented on me, counseling sessions where my parents have to know everything i said, child protective services called and they lied about it, having no laptop for school or phone or home computer, going home and sleeping all night every day, getting all F's and D's, having the police called on me 9 times, going to juvy twice.. things are bad rn but they arent that bad cause they arent as bad as the worst time of my life. ive had a really bad past with my family and in my middle schools years and early high school years, but i got through it and thats what matters. i have a lot more confidence right now, and even though things are still bad at least theyre better. and they will be even better when i move out. its just a matter of getting through these next few months

and for further reference i did not go to juvy for the kinds of things you'd think about. i just went for self defense. its a long story but my dad hit me first and was going to drag me out of his car and im the one who left blood on him by pushing him back and my nails dug into his skin so the cops believed my parents not me and sent me for"assaulting my dad" but in reality he was assaulting me and i was defending myself. it was so scary. and when my parents came to pick me up my dad told them to take me into foster care."we just cant live with her anymore"I almost went to foster care in my sophomore year. i had all my stuff in a corner and id call cps and have my friends parent take me in. but i didnt, i decided to stick through it, and yeah it was painful and there is a lot of ptsd i got from it, traumatic.. but i made it. and im almost graduating with a's and b's and one c. i have a phone and a laptop, although i get my phone taken a lot i have it. i have a job, even though i might get fired from it soon i have one. there is a lot of good things going on in my life compared to how things used to be and im grateful for that. but things could be better, and i just wish they were. but for now all i can do is focus on the positive until i move out.

and a lot of times its hard for me to focus on the positive when im so stressed out and have so much going on in my life. but i have to remember that thinking positively is the key to being your happiest in the darkest of times.

I hardly feel positive these days, but I am glad to see you do. And the incident you explained... I'm shocked and disgusted beyond words, honestly. Once again, I hope things get better for you when you move out. And if you ever want to talk to someone, I am here.

I hardly feel positive these days, but I am glad to see you do. And the incident you explained... I'm shocked and disgusted beyond words, honestly. Once again, I hope things get better for you when you move out. And if you ever want to talk to someone, I am here.

12/12/19my mom said she would give my phone todayshe said TODAYafter i wrote her a nice letter and cleaned the house and cleaned up my messi showed her my gradesi have almost all A's AND B'Swe had a good splodeing conversationthen she tells me she left my phone at workand then i said"really, i emailed you as a reminder and you still didnt brin it?then she HAS my old phone hiddenshe HAS IT AT HOMEshe wont let me use itshe has her laptop she could have let me useeven for an hour she wouldnt let me use itat one point i told her to just shut her door cause it would make me happier (so the fighting would end) and she said"no, i want to leave it wide open" and opened it widejust to piss me offmy throat hurts from yellingi justi needed to talk to someonei cant just have things like this happen and then not talk to someone abotu iti just canti do bad things