Teen Mom Amber

Three months after her widely reported suicide attempt, Teen Mom star Amber Portwood is now opening up for the first time and in a shocker, she reveals she is “still suicidal.”

While talking to E! News, Amber, 21, reveals she was rushed to the hospital last Wednesday after suffering a severe panic attack. “I couldn’t breathe and I passed out,” says Amber. “I stopped breathing.”

Amber, who continues to make tabloid headlines with baby daddy Gary Shirley, then goes on to state she is still having a hard time despite spending weeks at a rehab facility in Malibu.

“Honestly, I feel like I did two months ago. I’m still suicidal,” Amber reveals. “I’m f–king depressed. My family’s not together.”

Amber goes on to add that she is very upset at all the tabloid headlines, most notably the recent Life & Style magazine cover story which stated she is choosing partying over spending time with her 2-year-old daughter Leah. The mag even managed to get quotes from Amber’s own brother Shawn Portwood who stated that Amber “enjoys her freedom too much right now.”

“What hurts me the most is when people believe the lies about me,” Amber tells E! News. “The bullying is too much to handle. Look at the rate of teen deaths related to bullying. It’s scary.”

Amber also makes it clear that she doesn’t have a drinking problem and that she did not go to rehab for such. “I went to rehab for depression and anger management, not drug or alcohol abuse,” says Amber. “I have been out twice since I left rehab and I’m 21. I take my medication the way I’m supposed to.” Amber revealed last year that she suffers from bipolar disorder.

As for not seeing her daughter Leah, Amber reveals she agreed to let Gary have custody in other “to keep CPS off our backs.” She adds that she tries to see her daughter as often as she’s allowed. “I see Leah whenever I can. I have stipulations as to when I can and can’t see her.”

TMZ is reporting that an Indiana judge has awarded primary custody to the lesser of two evils Leah’s father, Gary Shirley. This decision was not based on Amber’s fitness as a parent, but rather on the recent vandalism of her home and car. Child Protective Services believes that Gary can best provide a safer environment for young Leah at this time.

US Weekly reported that Amber’s car was recently spray painted with the words “slut,” “hoe,” and “f***er” and her house was egged. Amber had apparently been spending time with her neighbor Midas Fields. The word is that Jamie Monroe (the girlfriend Midas mooches off lives with who is the mother of his child) was less than thrilled about this, and accused Amber of stealing her baby daddy.

Leah’s mother revealed, “Amber is upset at the vandalism. [She] was forced to call the police, at around 3 a.m., when she came home with her aunt and Midas from a dinner.” Um, dinner? 3 a.m.?

Amber’s mother continues, addressing the relationship between her daughter and Midas, saying he has a “crush” on her daughter. However, she elaborates that Amber is “still seeing Gary, although they’re not officially back together.” Apparently both Amber and Gary are in agreement (thank goodness) with this new arrangement, and Amber will have visitation rights pursuant to a yet to be determined schedule.

Amber’s reason for being court? It all stems from hitting her baby daddy Gary Shirley. If you recall, Amber was charged with two felony counts of domestic battery, one felony count of neglect of a dependent and one misdemeanor count of domestic battery for striking Gary in front of their two-year-old daughter, Leah.

According to E! News, Amber, 21, reportedly broke down in tears when a judge set a hearing date of November 16 to determine her fate. “She was really upset,” says a source says, adding that Gary, 24, was present for the hearing (the two are reportedly back together). “She was crying,” the source adds. Another witness adds that Amber “stormed out” of the courtroom after the announcement. “You could tell she wasn’t happy.” Amber had reportedly hoped the charges against her would be dropped.

In other news, not even twenty-four hours after the latest episode of 16 and Pregnant aired, TMZ is reporting that new mom Jamie McKay is petitioning the court for sole custody of her daughter, Miah. She claims that her ex-boyfriend and her baby’s father, Ryan McElrath “has a history of cocaine abuse” and is “not responsible and not in a position to provide a stable environment” for baby Miah.

On Tuesday night’s show, we watched a blurry-eyed Ryan almost miss his daughter’s birth after being up for several nights. Jamie, while in her fifth hour of labor chastised him for smelling of booze and later learned that he’d been out partying with another girl when her contractions started. The couple’s strained relationship imploded, with Jamie blaming Ryan’s “bad habits” and Ryan claiming that Jamie wouldn’t permit him to take Miah to his parents’ home to visit. Say what you will…yes, I would be an idiot to think Jamie didn’t know about Ryan’s addictions before and during their relationship, and yes, it is probably rare for someone to date someone like that and not share some of the same tendencies, but it is possible.

Jamie is now petitioning the judge to order Ryan to “submit to appropriate drug and alcohol assessments and testing and to comply with all treatment recommendations.” She also wants Ryan to successfully complete a parenting class. In an interview with TMZ, Ryan stated, “She’s doing this just to cause problems … it will all clear out in court.”

I guess we will all be waiting with baited breath (or not) as we’re sure to hear much more about this dispute in the upcoming weeks. Having just filed the papers, Jamie has a date to meet Ryan in court on June 13th. I just sincerely hope the young pair can remain civil and consider what is in the best interest of that seven-month-old baby. What do you think? Should Ryan not have to jump through these hoops to see his daughter, or is Jamie justified in her requests?

TELL US – SHOULD AMBER GO TO JAIL FOR HITTING GARY? SHOULD JAMIE GET SOLE CUSTODY OF HER DAUGHTER?

“I’ve never given anything to anybody. I wouldn’t do that,” the 20-year-old tells E! News. “I know 100 percent who did it, and I’m going to go after them full force.”

And while Amber doesn’t mention the name of the alleged thief, she does rule out on-again beau and father of her 2-year-old daughter Leah, Gary Shirley.

“No, no, Gary didn’t do it,” says Amber. “He wasn’t around me because of the no contact order when I took those pictures, but there were a bunch of people who were and I’m sure I know who it was.”

So why isn’t she naming the alleged perpetrator? “I want to surprise them,” Amber explains. “Those pics were taken for personal reasons. I didn’t send them to anyone. I didn’t take them for sexual reasons. This is embarrassing enough. It’s just weird. The person who did this is f***ed.”

Right. In other Amber news, she and Gary were photographed above heading to an Oscars viewing party on Sunday. The two also spent the weekend jewelry shopping as a rep from Kay Jewelers tells the HollywoodLife that Gary bought Amber a $1,300 promise ring.

“They are totally back on as a couple,” a source close to Amber reveals. Let’s see how long they last this go around.

Moments after an Indiana judge lifted the no-contact order on Teen Mom couple Amber Portwood and Gary Shirley Wednesday afternoon, the above photo was taken as UsWeekly is now reporting the couple has reconciled and are even talking marriage.

TMZ reports Gary, 22, and Amber, 20, arrived separately to the Indiana court for the hearing, during which the judge modified the existing order, allowing the couple to be around each other with a catch… They cannot be in the same room with their daughter Leah unless they’re trading custody.

UsWeekly adds that Gary told the judge yesterday that he never wanted the no-contact order in the first place. “Before the no-contact order was placed, we were about to work things out and be a family,” said Gary, also adding that his biggest hope with Amber now is a full reconciliation. “That’s the end goal — to go for marriage.”

Amber reportedly became tearful in court once the judge revealed the two cannot be together in the presence of Leah, 2.

Meanwhile, TMZ also reports Amber called the cops on Gary just days ago after alleging she received harassing phone calls from him. According to the police report filed by Amber, she received 24 calls from a blocked number between 11:56 PM on February 3 and 5:21 AM on February 4.

Amber claimed she could recognize the voices as Gary and his friend Ashley Williamson. Amber told police she could hear Ashley threatening to kick her ass during the calls while Gary repeatedly said “sexually vulgar” things to her. Gary has denied making these calls and so far, no actions have been taken.

Amber is still facing charges for domestic violence stemming from her attacks on Gary.

It was only a matter of time. TMZ is now reporting that Teen Mom star Amber Portwood was arrested today on domestic violence charges and is currently in jail.

If you recall, Amber was charged with two felony counts and one misdemeanor for domestic violence and battery back in mid November. According to TMZ, the arrest warrant was officially issued today by her local police department for those charges.

According to the cops, the charges stem from Amber attacking ex-fiance Gary Shirleyon three separate occasions between August 2009 and July 2010. Some of the violence was captured on video and shown on the MTV hit show Teen Mom.

Amber was reportedly booked at 4:21 PM EST and has been placed on a “24-hour hold.” Her bail has been at $5,000. Amber faces three years in jail and up to $10,000 in fines if convicted on all charges.

It is also likely that Gary will be awarded temporary custody of their daughter Leah due to this arrest.

TELL US – WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON AMBER’S ARREST?

UPDATE: Amber’s mugshot is below. According to TMZ, Amber measured in at 5’3″, 138 lbs.

While her daughter was being made a ward of the state and charges were being pressed against her for striking her ex-fiance, it seems Teen Momstar Amber Portwood was busy getting some permanent body art.

Above is a picture of Amber’s giant tattoo of her 2-year-old daughter Leah on her belly. According to Star magazine, Amber got the tattoo on November 14 and it reportedly took a total of 9 hours.

A source close to the 20-year-old reality star tells RadarOnline that “she got the tattoo as a way to show her commitment to Leah.” Radar adds that so far it’s her first and only tattoo.

Amber is arguably the break out “star” of the MTV reality show as she continues to remain in the press for all the wrong reasons. First it was for her violent attacks on her daughter’s father Gary Shirley (she has since been charged with domestic violence) and then recently, two media outlets reported she was pregnant again. Something Amber has now denied.

Radar adds that Amber’s new boyfriend Clinton Yunkeralso has two children of his own to go with his lengthy criminal record. A bigger photo of Amber’s tattoo is below.

You know what they say, you can take the trailer park trash out of the girl but…

Following the news that she was being investigated by her local Police department for domestic violence against her ex-fiance Gary Shirley, a new report by the HollywoodLife states Amber could be facing felony charges. The reason? In Indiana, domestic violence in front of a child under 14 years of age can be a felony.

Amber will also be investigated by the Department of Child Services (DCS), who will reportedly interview her friends, neighbors, and other witnesses.

And it gets even worse for Amber as a new report by Life&Style magazine states Amber is not welcome in her hometown due to her behavior on the show, which includes physically attacking her child’s father Gary. The two have since reconciled and even exchanged promise rings.

Apparently, local businesses and residents in Anderson, Indiana are fed up with Amber’s antics. The owner of a local store has even gone as far as to ban Amber from filming any more scenes of the MTV hit show on its premises. “My stomach actually rolled while watching ‘Teen Mom,'” Randy Good, owner of Good’s Candy Store, told Life&Style. “Amber was filmed in the store, but now she’s gone — for good. I thought it was just awful, and because she’s local, it somehow made it worse.”

Amber has also received a lot of backlash from her local press.

And finally, despite reports that Maci Bookoutwas trying to get back together with her son’s father Ryan Edwards, it seems Maci is still going strong with new beau Kyle King.

The two were photographed showing PDA at a pumpkin patch in L.A. Monday. Maci has also denied the report that she is trying to get back together with her ex Ryan. A photo of Maci and Kyle below –