Working through my life's nightmare

Tag: chronic illness

Back in June I made some changes to my medications, specifically the time of day I took the T3 and T4, which helped. I suffered less fatigue, slept better, less brain fog and I thought 'This is it! I've found out what's wrong with me and this is when I finally get better!'. But since … Continue reading Where am I?

I've thought about and started a lot of different posts in the last 2 weeks and haven't finished any of them. I haven't felt able to clearly express what's in my head and haven't had to the time to work on polishing something that wasn't finished or 'right'. So all I'm going to write about … Continue reading This is not a metaphor

Why do these thoughts come to me so late? Often, I'm getting ready to go to bed, I've shut down the computer and suddenly a blog post thought arrives. Tonight my mind was boggling. I was marvelling at the long path, the really long road I’ve taken to get here. Not that here is the … Continue reading Hyper-vigilance

Yup, I did. Well I didn't even finish cleaning it but I did more than I have done for months. Something's been bugging me since I saw the clinical psychologist last week. I had told her that when I wasn't working or looking after my child, I found it hard to relax because often things needed … Continue reading I cleaned my bathroom today

I'm fairly sure I've written on this topic before. Life. Seems to be full of ridiculous contradictions. Well mine is anyway. I need to sleep but I can't. I recognise competition is not good for me, but I can't stop competing. I love to write, but I don't want to complete my writing course. I … Continue reading There is no spoon

Often when I sit down to write, words just come out and I don't censor them nor hardly do more than one re-read before I post. But like last night, looking back at the writing I realise it had nothing to do with what's actually on my mind at the moment. What's on my mind? Time. … Continue reading os

I was surprised today to see it's been over 2 weeks since I last posted. I've got 7 drafts waiting to be worked on and one big one in my mind about my experiences in the last year. While I've wanted to write, I just haven't found the time. Life feels full of stress and this last … Continue reading I’m in a bit of a funny place

I haven't written for a week because I've been busy getting myself prepared for leaving work. Not for long, but for 3 months I've been granted the ability to almost completely work from home, which fills me with such relief. I do wish it could have come earlier because the last 2 weeks have been … Continue reading Detective work

As I type this I am really struggling with exhaustion and the accompanying head-achey malaise that comes with it however I feel I have to ask this question. Researching for a detailed post on chemicals in body scrubs (hopefully to be finished soon), I came across a woman identifying as a chronic fatigue sufferer offering her … Continue reading Should health care and advice be free?

I don't know what to call it, but the symptoms were sore throat, muscle weakness and aches, poor sleep, head ache and dire loss of motivation. Here's what I threw at it: 2 days off work day time naps water and herbal teas as simple a diet as possible (minus Pad Thai which unfortunately went straight … Continue reading This week I got a cold/sick/flare-up/payback…