Butter Pecan Ice Cream is like a bad relationship ...

Friday, April 12, 2013

I was talking to a friend of mine the other day , Hes a body builder and if you want to call him a " health nut " . I was complaining I was sick ... That I ate a bowl of ice cream and then one more ! ... " I was feeling down " I said , " I remember when eating a bowl of ice cream made me feel better and 2 bowls made me feel even better ! Now I just feel sick . How can something that gave me comfort before make me sick now ? " Your a different person now , your mindset is different your body is different and you don't want to go back to where you were , I used to feel that way about junk food now it doesnt give me pleasure anymore.." Then I realized the way we were talking it sounded like some bad relationship . A healthy life style is like finding the perfect mate ... but you have to be careful not to drag past baggage in to the " New Relationship" Like negative self talk about your body and your ability to achieve what you want in life . Or feeling guilty about missing a work out or having a treat once in a while . Anything is good in moderation and those negative thoughts are from the old relationship you used to have , now you are in a new relationship , where you can enjoy life , its not a diet its a life long commitment and life is not stagnant its flowing . From now on if I mess up then I will forgive myself and move on and try to leave the past in the past ! Even though I am not at my goal weight yet , I am giving myself credit for coming this far and having faith in myself that I can go further , because I am good enough right now , in this moment .

And you know there will come a day where I can go out for coffee with Butter Pecan Ice Cream and catch up and be totally content with myself when I walk away: Where I can smile and say, "yeah me and Butter Pecan used to date" and not get bombarded by a million emotions. Right now I think it's best for me to stay away until I am stable with myself. And besides: I have my eye on that cute Cocoa dusted Almond down the street! 1586 days ago