Patton Oswalt pens heartbreaking note documenting his grief 102 days after his wife’s death

Comedian Patton Oswalt penned a serious message about grief as he continues to cope with the loss of his wife Michelle McNamara.

Comedian Patton Oswalt penned a serious message about grief as he continues to cope with the loss of his wife Michelle McNamara.

The "King of Queens" actor opened up in a lengthy Facebook post about living with the heartbreaking loss of his wife four months after she passed away at age 46.

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"Thanks, grief. Thanks for making depression look like the buzzing little bully it always was. Depression is the tallest kid in the 4th grade, dinging rubber bands off the back of your head and feeling safe on the playground, knowing that no teacher is coming to help you," he wrote.

"But grief? Grief is Jason Statham holding that 4th grade bully's head in a toilet and then f---ing the teacher you've got a crush on in front of the class. Grief makes depression cower behind you and apologize for being such a d---."

Patton Oswalt and late wife Michelle McNamara in December 2011. (Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images)

The comedian declared he'll return to work soon, just as things were before "the air caught fire and the sun died" around him, he explained.

"It's all I knew how to do before I met Michelle," Oswalt said. "I don't know what else I'm supposed to do now without her."

McNamara, a crime writer, passed away in her sleep in April. The cause of her death is still unknown. She was in the process of writing a book that Oswalt believes could have solved a string of cold-case murders.

Oswalt's publicist, Kevin McLaughlin, said the passing "was a complete shock to her family and friends, who loved her dearly."

The couple married in 2005 and have a young daughter together, Alice, 7. Oswalt said Alice reminds him of the best parts of his late wife.

"Like beautiful music burned onto a CD and sent out into the void on a spaceship," he explained.

Oswalt expressed that he wished he was his daughter's age, because maybe then he could embrace joy and despair at a more "pure" level.

"I was face-down and frozen for weeks. It's 102 days later and I can confidently say I have reached a point where I'm crawling," Oswalt wrote. "Which, objectively, is an improvement. Maybe 102 days later I'll be walking."