After giving birth to my lil boy, I said I didn’t want another one due to what I went through. To be honest I am petrified. Probably 3 days after coming home from the hospital, he talked about giving our lil boy a sibling. I was shocked. I thought we agreed it’s fine if we have just him. Obviously not. So I’ve been going through this massive guilt trip. If we don’t try and give him a sibling, he’ll be an only child and lonely.

Physically, emotionally, mentally, psychologically, I am not ready. I am scared. Also I love this lil dude so much, I just wanna spend all the time with him and love him with my everything.

I remember what I was like when I was pregnant. I had morning sickness for a long time. I couldn’t stand a lot of smell and couldn’t deal with a lot of flavourful food. I was constantly tired. I just wanted to sleep all the time. Yes. All.The.Time.

This time round I will have a toddler to look after. I can’t bear the thought of not being able to play with him as much as I can now. I can’t bear the thought of being humungous and not able to run around with him.