Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Valentine's Day! - Bittersweet!

Valentine's Day is supposed to be a day filled with happiness and love. It’s kinda a bittersweet day for me now. My baby would have been a year old on Valentine's Day this year! I don't let it consume me but anyone who has lost a child you think about it! You think about that child and all the hopes and dreams you had for it!

This year I choose to spend Valentine's Day with my sweet babies, Addy & Isaiah! They are so sweet! I love visiting with them. I knew that going to visit them would keep me from becoming consumed with my own lost. You can't help but smile when you’re around Isaiah and Addy goodness she's so busy you don't have time for anything else!!

When I married Anthony, I knew I was getting a great guy. One that I would and never find again in a million years! I didn't know that I would be getting a family that is just as great! They never stop making me feel special! Last Valentine's day Robin did it with a card! She wrote Anthony and me such an encouraging note. We were beginning to try to have children, and she said in her note "I am so excited for the next few years in your lives. You are going to begin your family over the next year and the idea of a little Anthony in my world makes my heart skip a beat in joy. I can't wait to see the grandchild that God will give us by you!" It really helped me get through the holiday last year. This year Stephen helped with his card! Over the past 6 months Stephen and I have gotten to know each other better and he really has become like a brother to me. He said in his card "I am so glad to have you as my loving sister, a wonderful "Aunt Lulu" to my children, a best friend to my wife, & a best friend to me." See how great this family is!!!

This holiday is about love and it comes in many different forms! I am so thankful for all my families! Sometimes they can drive you crazy but they will always love you!