Wednesday, 13 July 2011

A difficult decision.

Are you having a nice week so far? What have you been doing with yourselves? This week I've mainly been enjoying...

munching cookies with a big glass of chocolate and hemp soya milkshake...

and learning how to knit!

But also, I've had to make a really hard decision this week. I already knew I wouldn't be well enough to run the York 10k I had scheduled in but I've also decided to pull out of the Great North Run. I'm gutted to be honest. I've been looking forward to it all year but I've had to look at my health at the moment and the ever decreasing amount of time left in the run up and realistically, I won't be able to safely train or take part in a half marathon in September. I'm still waiting to hear back from the CF Trust about whether I'll be able to defer my place to next year or not but needless to say, I'm pretty crushed about having to make this decision.

I'm actually finding it really frustrating to not be able to exercise - I miss running and yoga and cycling. I think I hadn't realised how much I use exercise to (successfully) control my anxiety issues. When I'm doing those things, I can get rid of any extra nervous energy that I'm carrying. When I'm not, I feel a bit like I might go crazy.

Question:
How do you help your body chill out when you can't exercise?

9 comments:

So sorry I wasn't really available to hold your hand via twitter last night.

I probably do suffer with anxiety and extra anxious energy but I'm a massive Type A personality so I sort of burn it off just being me. For me, writing - really writing - about things is extremely therapeutic. I blog about my illness as I'm sure you know but I also write about my worst fears and stuff in a word document. I talk my bf's ear off too. My anxiety is not really generalised and tends to be very specific and I find once I have articulated the fear, whatever it is, it tends to feel a little more manageable.

I am rubbish at all meditation and breathing etc but I think others do find it very helpful.

Oh hun :( really sad news about the run, but i admire you for listening to your body and doing what's best for you and your health. I hope you're able to defer your place because it's such a good cause and i know you'll totally kick butt in 2012 :DScarf's lookin lovely too btw!

I'm so sorry you can't take part in those marathons or just exercise at the moment but you're definately doing the right thing, you need to look after your body and keep it strong. Also I really want to learn to knit, it looks so fun!

That biscuit looks yum. I have a nice walk as that helps to de-stress, or read a magazine or book, listen to the radio and do some baking. Shame you have to pull out but it is the sensible thing to do and will be better in the long run.

Aw lovely, I'm so sorry that you've had to pull out. I can't imagine how hard it must be not to be able to run and cycle and do yoga...you are being so so strong and I admire you SO much for looking after your body.When I need to chill out I bake like you have (those cookies look AMAZING by the way!) and I also love massages so I always treat myself to one of those too :) I just fall asleep haha I love them :) One time when I was getting really anxious in the past I did some sequin art. I don't know whether you've ever seen them but basically you make pictures by sticking sequins on a board with pins and I found that therapeutic. :)