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The Waiting Begins

The waiting started when I walked out of work with J and sat on the bench sharing what will hopefully be one of my last cigarettes with her. I won’t be walking through those doors in an official work capacity for at least 6 weeks and I’m hoping I can handle it, for that store is a huge part of my day and the people there are a huge part of my heart.

The waiting OFFICIALLY began as I walked out of the hospital later this afternoon after my pre-op appointment. Having given 4 tubes of blood and had my EKG, I headed for the car armed with two sets of instructions, informational pamphlets, and a band-aid on my arm. And promptly let myself go with a few tears….

I have to admit I’m kinda scared. The last time I had spent any amount of time in a hospital because of surgery was 46 years ago at the age of 5… and my daddy was there with me. Funny how there are certain things that we remember years later, but what struck me was the memory of the man I loved most in the world sleeping in the chair next to me and a rather intense discussion with the nurses about the cocoa I’d asked for that wasn’t fit for human consumption.

I received a mug of cocoa that lived up to his standards soon after that.

But most of all, I remember the feeling of safeness and security and overwhelming love!

My daddy won’t be there with me in body, but I know he will be sitting right there with my Father… his hand on one shoulder and His Hand on the other. And the spirit of love will surround me with the support and the prayers of my family who can’t be with me, and the caring of friends who mean the world to me.

I am so blessed!

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Hi Sweetie all you need to know is this is the time for all these emotions to come full circle and that you’ll be better for it…after all this is the end of all the awefull emotional crap that your body has put you through over the past few years…time to open a new chapter in your life… no more fears of your body.
You have lots of things to keep your mind busy until oh say 10:00 am April 30th… then you can concentrate on getting better so you can come back and relieve me of Your job LOL!!!
Just sit back and listen to some good music and relax we’ve got you covered (me and the Doc’s) of course your man will be there as well (feeling a little uncomfortable but he’ll be okay)
we love you! remember the nurses on the second floor surgical unit ROCK!!!

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a wife, a mom, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a woman who takes joy in the simple blessings in life (and yes, who struggles mightily at times). I love life with my family and friends, listening to music, reading, relaxing over yet another cup of coffee, snuggling with my dogs, talking to my daughter on the phone and taking moments to savor all that God has given me. One step at a time.... one day at a time.... with hopes of leaving a legacy of the heart for those I love and who love me!
And in the hopes that one day He will say "Job well done My child."