hi everyone im new, i hope this is the right place to put this. something bad happened 9 years ago and ive never been able to talk about it, think about it or deal with it until recently. ive developed some bad habits and a ton of anxiety and ive pushed everyone away. i am not sure what to do next or where to go with it. thanks!

Welcome man. I might suggest reading around some of the discussion boards - they are categorized by general topic matter.You may find posts that have information valuable to what you are going through...

in your own time hopefully you will feel comfortable posting specific concerns, thoughts, questions etc. - there are many guys here, we can relate and won't judge, just help, support, and encourage where we can.

Hi vance and welcome. You've come to the right place to find support from everyone. I have found it to be very helpful.

I can relate to how negatively "something bad" can impact your life. We've probably all developed bad habits because of what hasbeen done to us. Probably most of us suffer from anxiety. I know that I definitely do.

the best thing to do is to keep talking about your feelings. That is what helps the anxiety to subside, especially when there are so many of us who understand how you feel.

hello - thanks everyone. I never spoke about any of this before. my gf kind of knows about it and she trys to get me to talk sometimes but I cant and when she pushes I find myself getting angry, then isolate myself and wont talk to her or anyone for days. I guess I sort of feel like it was my fault that it happened in the first place. The police said something about being at the wrong place at the wrong time and that I shouldnt worry about it much in fact they kind of blew me off, that bothered me a lot but I never said anything. after it happened my parents kind of blew me off too, dad disowned me and mom is just too embarrassed to talk to me about it, I can see the way they look at me too, in digust, like I am a monster. I hope this isnt hard to follow, sorry if it is.

You are safe here and we will not blow you off. What happened to you was NOT your fault, Vance. That is hard to accept, but it is true. You need to talk about this in your own time, as you feel safe. We are not going anywhere, and when you feel like sharing... how ever much or little feels right, we will be here to listen. There is no judgement here, just brothers who know what it is like.

Welcome - I am sorry you have to be here, but glad you found the site. It is an amazing place of healing.

Dan

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