A Beautiful Mind

A Beautiful mind

Sunday, September 26, 2010

A love not found

A TIME A PLACE A PERSON A FACE, A ROOM A WORD, A REMINDER A MEMORY, A PAST, A PICTURE, PERFECTION, ACHIEVING, NEVER RIGHT, A SOUND SOFTLY HEARD, A SMILE A TOUCH, A SOFT EMBRACE, A DISTANCE, AN ABSENCE, A LOVE, A LOSS, A NEGLECT, A WOMAN A CHILD, A MAN A WIFE, ATTENTION, DEVOTED, FORGOTTEN, TAKEN FOR GRANTED, A THOUGHT, HALF THOUGHT A THOUGHT LEFT UNTHOUGHT FOR THOUGHTS ARE TO PROVOKING, A SMELL ALMOST SMELLED, AND ONE TO OFTEN, LIKE SOMETHING IN A BREEZE, ON THE WIND, THROUGH A DRAFT, DRIFTING FROM THE TREES, A MIND, A HEART, TETHERED TOGETHER, WEATHERED BUT NOT IMMUNE, A CUT, A PAIN, A TEAR, A CRY, CRYING STAYING STRONG FEELING WEAK, A SADNESS IS FILLING IN WHERE LOVE IS DRAINING OUT, MOURNING WHAT WAS, WANTING WHAT COULD BE, SAD AT WHAT IS, LONELY, WAITING HERE, I WILL STAY HERE, WAITING TO BE NOTICED, TRYING TO FIND A SOLUTION BUT UNABLE TO SEE THE PROBLEM, ITS ME, I AM WRONG, AM I WRONG? THIS DOES NOT FEEL RIGHT, I DON'T FEEL RIGHT, THIS DOESN'T FEEL LIKE LOVE, SO IT MUST NOT BE, IT HAS TO BE, BUT IT CANT BE, WHERE DID YOU GO, WHERE ARE YOU NOW, I CANT FIND YOU, YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE YOU, I DON'T FEEL LIKE ME, FEELING EMPTY, BARREN, LOST, WANDERING, WHERE AM I GOING, FIND ME, I NEED YOU, I THINK I CAN ALMOST SEE YOU, ARE YOU LOOKING FOR ME? HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ME? DO YOU NOTICE WHAT IS HAPPENING? CAN YOU SEE? I SEE, CAN YOU SEE? SLIPPING, FALLING, BREAKING, HURTING, URNINIG, ONLY CARING FOR YOU, DO YOU KNOW? DID YOU KNOW? HOW DID I GET HERE? WHERE SHOULD I GO? FROM HERE TO YOU, WHEREVER YOU ARE? YOU'RE HERE YOUR GONE, YOU LIE BUT YOU DON'T KNOW, I THINK YOU MUST NOT KNOW, MAKING THINGS RIGHT, KNOWING WHEN NOT TO FIGHT, LIVING IN LOVE, WITH YOU THINKING OF ME, KNOWING ME, TALK TO ME, NEED ME, COME BACK TO ME, LOVE ME...

Read my Lips....

Where should I begin??

I am not anyone of any consequence. But what I have to say may be. I have decided to keep a journal of sorts, of my Life or more accurately my views on Life. From a teenage Mother and Wife to a single women with a teenage daughter and a 10 year old son who was diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome.. Life is funny but I'm not always laughing.. well I usually am laughing actually.. But hey what's the alternative?