Time to "MAKE MYSELF MY HOBBY" - From 2005 to 2008 I lost 42 kgs and things went wrong in my life with my mum and work and went in to major depression. I am trying my hardest to get back in to it and doing it for me. Going to "Make Myself My Hobby".

I also went to the gym at 5pm tonight... I had been thinking about it all night. I thought at the start of the week that Kris was coming with me but I was silly and got my wires crossed. I was looking forward to it because after a hard workout I wanted to sit and chat with Kris in the spa he he he but that is ok next week will have to do. P.S Kris well done for your loss this week.... you are back on track.

So anyway back to the gym. I went tonight and did 20 minutes on the treadmill at incline 3 (when I usually have 2) woohooo and then did some arm work and then the incline bike for 15 minutes and then I went on the normal bike for 20 minutes... so by the end of all that I had had enough since I had just gotten back into it after being sick.

I want to loose this ya know? I just can't believe that I have wasted two weeks with gains and I was on such a high too...... why do we do this to ourselves? Why do I do it to myself?

I am not looking forward to working on my birthday tomorrow that is for sure and to have only a 1/2 an hour lunch I can't really go and do much either... and ho hum I am working till 5.30 too sigh.

I thought I would tell BLONDE about how I am doing with the weight loss today through an email and she replied to the email with something totally different and didn't even acknowledge what I had told her.... then about 5 emails later said Oh well done with the loss... sometimes I wonder why I tell her anything? She said she misses doing things together but you know I don't! I have lost more since I haven't been doing it with her and I don't feel like it is a competition anymore either.

I am watching the Super Nanny at the moment and I tell you I want to kick those parents!!! My God she lets the 2 year old to get away with anything and then pinches when he doesn't get what he wants and the Dad gets home and sits in his chair and DOES NOTHING... OMG that is divorce material for me.

Woohoooo when the super nanny said to the husband that he had to do chores OMG that man if I was his wife I would have slapped him silly he he he he

Well seeing as it is officially your birthday I can wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU now !!!!Hope you have a great day.Don't beat yourself up over what has happened - use it to learn from while moving forward. Stay focussed on what you want to achieve and seriously question everything that you put into your mouth before you put it there - I know that works because that is what I have been doing - this time I was determined to get to goal.I hope you have a fantastic day - take care and be good !Me