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is an unapologetic, bleeding-heart liberal who writes about everything from politics to private parts. A TV-writer in a former life, her credits include "Big Spender" for Animal Planet,and "A Child Too Many," "Cradle of Conspiracy" & "Deceived By Trust," for Lifetime

Sunday, April 16, 2017

For months, millions of folks have been obsessing
about the pregnancy of April the giraffe. It makes sense that with so much
grief in the world we would yearn for some reason to look forward with hope. The story of April and her baby got me thinking about my own mother and another Easter many years ago.

The Oddest Easter Gift

Five
feet tall, bright orange with yellow spots and balanced somewhat precariously
on four furry legs, its long neck drooped forward to reveal a facial expression as perplexed my own.

Every Easter,
right up to the year I moved out at the age of 19, my mother would make up an Easter
basket filled with my favorite See’s Candies chocolates and buy me a stuffed
animal.That year, it was a giraffe.

I took “Joe
Cocker” with me to every home I lived in up to the age of 42, where he would
always take up an entire corner of my bedroom – something my boyfriends over
the years must have wondered about and possibly a reason why I’m still
single.It wasn’t that I was so enamored
with the large, fuzzy beast.It
certainly never went with any of my décor.Truth be told, I wish she’d chosen something more traditional – and
smaller.Perhaps something that had some
symbolic connection to the holiday.But
then, that would have been ordinary and my mother, who for my high school graduation
in 1967 gifted me with my first birth control prescription, was never
ordinary.Still, I always wondered what
her thinking was behind such an odd choice or mine in carting it around all
those years.I do recall that the
thought of throwing it away filled me with guilt.Of course, as a Catholic, however lapsed,
just about anything can fill me with guilt, but still such a decision would
not have been unreasonable as time went by.

I believe
now that it may have been my mother’s way of saying “Remember that my love for
you is enormous,” as I was about to leave her life and start my own.I wonder what that must have been like for
her, living alone for the first time at the age 51, her main purpose – raising
me – now over.She died only three
years later.Each Easter, I still smile
at the memory of walking into the living room that morning so many decades ago
and seeing my mother sitting on the couch in her robe, a cup of coffee in her
hand, and an expression of excitement on her face as she anticipated my
reaction to her surprise.

When I
finally decided that the giraffe really did need to move on, I carefully sewed
up the torn seams where various cats had used its legs as scratching posts, and
donated it to a thrift shop that benefited the local animal shelter where I
felt it had the best chance of finding a good home.It’s been several years now and I’d like to
believe that on another Easter morning some other child woke up to find this
huge expression of their own mother’s love, however odd they may have found it
at the time.And that they are still
carting it around.

For months, millions of folks have been obsessing
about the pregnancy of April the giraffe. It makes sense that with so much
grief in the world we would yearn for some reason to look forward with hope. The story of April and her baby got me thinking about my own mother and another Easter many years ago.

The Oddest Easter Gift

Five
feet tall, bright orange with yellow spots and balanced somewhat precariously
on four furry legs, its long neck drooped forward to reveal a facial expression as perplexed my own.

Every Easter,
right up to the year I moved out at the age of 19, my mother would make up an Easter
basket filled with my favorite See’s Candies chocolates and buy me a stuffed
animal.That year, it was a giraffe.

I took “Joe
Cocker” with me to every home I lived in up to the age of 42, where he would
always take up an entire corner of my bedroom – something my boyfriends over
the years must have wondered about and possibly a reason why I’m still
single.It wasn’t that I was so enamored
with the large, fuzzy beast.It
certainly never went with any of my décor.Truth be told, I wish she’d chosen something more traditional – and
smaller.Perhaps something that had some
symbolic connection to the holiday.But
then, that would have been ordinary and my mother, who for my high school graduation
in 1967 gifted me with my first birth control prescription, was never
ordinary.Still, I always wondered what
her thinking was behind such an odd choice or mine in carting it around all
those years.I do recall that the
thought of throwing it away filled me with guilt.Of course, as a Catholic, however lapsed,
just about anything can fill me with guilt, but still such a decision would
not have been unreasonable as time went by.

I believe
now that it may have been my mother’s way of saying “Remember that my love for
you is enormous,” as I was about to leave her life and start my own.I wonder what that must have been like for
her, living alone for the first time at the age 51, her main purpose – raising
me – now over.She died only three
years later.Each Easter, I still smile
at the memory of walking into the living room that morning so many decades ago
and seeing my mother sitting on the couch in her robe, a cup of coffee in her
hand, and an expression of excitement on her face as she anticipated my
reaction to her surprise.

When I
finally decided that the giraffe really did need to move on, I carefully sewed
up the torn seams where various cats had used its legs as scratching posts, and
donated it to a thrift shop that benefited the local animal shelter where I
felt it had the best chance of finding a good home.It’s been several years now and I’d like to
believe that on another Easter morning some other child woke up to find this
huge expression of their own mother’s love, however odd they may have found it
at the time.And that they are still
carting it around.