My name is Suzy Park. I’m also known as Suzy, Kei, or whatever. This is a fic journal for JE. None of my fics will be locked, so feel free to browse. If you want to read my boring, everyday thoughts, then go to suzuhara_kei. My KHR account is keitaru6918

My favorite Johnny’s band is KAT-TUN, then NEWS. I have some other fandoms, but not as much as those two. My favorite band member is Ueda Tatsuya. Isn’t that obvious? Anyways, most of my fics are based on him. *brick’d*

Right now, I with that someone will draw me a doujinshi. (This section will have edits.)

My hobbies include reading, drawing, using the computer, writing fics, and sleeping. And listening to music. All those are a big must for me.

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Summary: Kame and Jin, Ueda and Junno, Ryo and Yamapi, Masuda and Tegoshi, Koyoma and Shige all have a hidden past. They all are turned against each other. What happens if they forget each other, and start building new memories? And what happens if they remember again?

“YOU! YOU LEFT ME!” Kame cried, tears starting to form around his eyes. “I HATE YOU! HOW DARE YOU COME BACK TO ME JUST LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED? YOU, YOU! AND YOU CAN JUST SMILE AT ME?! I SWEAR I’LL KILL YOU!”

Jin managed to whisper. “Are you really sure you’ll kill me?”

Kame froze, and released Jin. he threw himself on his hammock and wept, sobs growing louder every passing second.

Jin bent down to pat Kame’s back, but Kame slapped the hand away.

Kame ran out of the door, ran out of the hideout, and simply ran.

When he reached a dead end, he paused and cried. After a few more minutes sobbing, he sank down to his knees and wrapped himself into a ball, hunched in the corner of the alleyway.

Ikuta Toma recorded everything and went back.

A shadowy figure also watched from the rooftops.

I’ll stand by you, whatever I do.

--*--

Yamashita huddled up in blankets. He cried silently, remembering.

Rejecting Ryo on that fateful day had tormented him for his whole life. And now Ryo came back alive to torment him.

Seeing Ryo turn on his heels, tears falling in the air...

Seeing Ryo everyday, not able to call out...

Because he was there with Ryo...

That strange boy...

That always smiled with Ryo...

And Pi could just stood there, alone...

Watching from a far distance...

And Pi's fault too, really...

Because he lost Ryo.

He just cast off Ryo, never realizing what the older boy meant to him at the time.

Feeling crushed as everyone left him alone in the dirt... Alone...

Yamapi just remembered all the things. He cried, harder, until he couldn't breathe.

"I'm so sorry Ryo." He whispered.

Yamapi gulped and wiped off his tears.

Because there was an old saying, Yesterday was history, tomorrow a miracle, and today a gift.

And that's how Pi survived everyday.

Yamapi tried putting his feelings aside to confront the amazing word.

"DINNER TIME!"

When I catch a snowflake, it disappears.

--*--

Kato Shigeaki watched the internet for news. He scrolled through the daily news, when a familiar face popped up.

He leaned back in his chair in shock, looking at the computer screen.

Koyama Keiichiro had just released a new album.

Koyama always wanted to be a singer. He thought, still slightly shocked.

After he calmed down a bit, he went to his e-mail account. Knowing Koyama, he probably kept the same e-mail for years,