Sunday, August 5, 2012

So, I start school tomorrow for the first time in 8 months! I have experienced a wide range of emotions this weekend, from excited to sad to completely overwhelmed. I have worked very hard in my classroom trying to organize and prepare for this upcoming year. It is kind of intimidating seeing that I only completed half of my first year of teaching second grade, which means after Christmas it will be totally new to me.
This weekend, for whatever reason, I allowed myself to be sad and angry (it's been a while since I felt this way). I was explaining to Brad that, in a way, our situation is like a death that we wake up to every single day. It is traumatic and devastating and greets us with every new day. We were also talking about how the things we do, or did, before the accident on a daily basis haven't been affected greatly but just in thinking about what we are so very limited to do from this point on. It kind of feels claustrophobic. I can't imagine what Brad feels like when all he wants to do is get out of his chair and he physically can not do that. Wow! Another lonely thought is that no one in our immediate circle has any experience with these emotions and changes; no idea what we are experiencing. So sometimes this makes it hard to share because I can't even begin to explain...

This past Christmas! Charlie's first Christmas and Ally's first Christmas with a little brother!!!