Fun

Happy day after Thanksgiving! I am sure everyone is now officially in full holiday mode and maybe a little tired if they were out braving the crazy crowds. I have gone Black Friday shopping several times, but the past two years I have chosen to do my shopping online from the comfort of my home. However, I hope everyone got the deals they were hoping for.

Anyways, I thought I would delve a little more into my personal life and talk about my current relationship and how it has taken me by surprise and the reason I have been MIA.

On March 13th, 4 days before my 21st birthday I got a DM from someone who attends the same college as I do, but we had never really talked. This person was pretty well known at my school, and I had liked a lot of his tweets, but a lot of people did so it was not anything weird. When he DM’d me I immediately screenshotted it and sent to my friends, like any reasonable person because I didn’t know what to do and I honestly thought it was a mistake. I was told to respond and so I did…with “Hey” in response to his “Hey”. (I sort of expected something a little funnier and more creative coming from this person, but clearly his simplicity worked).

He asked what I was doing and so I gave him the honest answer, “Staring at the wall and thinking about making a grilled cheese.” I sort of thought maybe he wouldn’t reply, but he did. So we ended up messaging back and forth for the next couple days faithfully, and then we decided to exchange numbers. From then on, we would text everyday, all day saying both good night and good morning. We learned a lot about each other, of course only from the aspect of friends.

School was coming to an end, but there was still a few weeks left, and me being my awkward self I just avoided him. I was also scared for a while for a couple reasons that don’t need to be mentioned. We continued to text and summer came. He stayed in the area for summer baseball and to work, but we never really hung out except for one time. (Through out the summer I would go to the same building he was living on campus to visit other friends and they would give me a hard time because they thought we had a thing. I honestly just thought he was a really good friend and I didn’t want him to get freaked out if he heard my friends, so I always told them to shut up…even though I did have a slight amount of feelings for him). Fall came and school started again. We finally hung out and it was a little bit awkward because the person I had been talking to for so long, and knew a lot about was in front of me.

During this time, it was a bit weird and there were some mixed emotions, but after some serious conversations and prayers said, we decided to hang out more and see how things went. After about a week or so I got inpatient and asked him what his intentions were. (Patience has never been my strong suit) He said he sort of thought we were already dating. I told him that it did feel like that, but I would like to be official at some point as I have struggled with “basically dating” someone for two years prior. In that moment he asked if I would like to be his girlfriend. Of course me being me I thought about saying no, but I resisted and said yes.

We went a day or two before telling anyone and then we talked about going Facebook official together. In my 21 years of existence, this was my first time being Facebook official. Granted I know being Facebook official is not the biggest deal, but to me it means that we are serious because I don’t want to do that and then 5 seconds later not being dating and have to have those awkard conversations. I knew that this relationship was and is very different than anything I have every had before. This man is the most caring guy I know, who is very serious about our relationship, who cares about my well being, and is a man of God. It doesn’t matter what he is doing, he amazes me. Even if I tell him not to worry about me or to do anything for me, he does it anyways. For instance, I forgot about an assignment the other week and I was going to have to miss lunch to get it done, so he offered to bring me something and i told him not to worry about it. Well, I looked up and a baseball player was handing me a box and said it was from Matt. He had put together something that he though I would like. While this is such a simple little gesture, I was really grateful and I couldn’t believe it…and he does things like this all of the time.

Some people have made the comment that this is something that has happened really quickly, but the fact of the matter is it is something that had developed over 7ish months. Some other people may say that I talk about him too much or that we are moving really quickly, but that is all relative. This is a guy that I really do care about and I know for a fact that God has put us in each other’s lives for a reason. I am excited to spend the up coming holiday’s and New Year with him, get to know and grow closer with his family, conquer our last semester together, go to his baseball games, and to see where we end up going!

I could have gone on for so much longer about everything that we have talked about, and the memories that we have already shared, but some of those things I think are meant to be kept between the two of us because that is what makes it special. Also, I don’t think that they are something that can be fully expressed via the internet.

Anyways, that is all for now and I will hopefully be posting some thing else rather soon.

So…I am just like many other girls {and there is no shame in that} who buy everything she doesn’t need from Bath and Body Works. It may be a sweltering hundred degrees out, but I am wishing for sweater weather, dark lipsticks, fall flavors and pumpkin anything. I stopped by Bath and Body works to check out the new scents and stock up on a few things before heading back to school. If it was up to me, these bad boys and girls would be put to use immediately, but I still have some of my summer stock left to use up.

Last year my roommate and I burned through multiple Flannel candles so I picked up a few of the air fresheners {also really good for making your boyfriend’s room better}. I think my top two of this fall may be Sweater Weather and Carmel Pumpkin Swirl so I definitely suggest picking them up!!

Today is August 1st, which means that I will be moving into college in 12 days for the last time. When I was a freshman I didn’t think this time would come fast enough, but now I am not ready for it. I have developed a wonderful support system, made numerous late night QT runs, cried over stupid boys and assignments (mostly assignments…God bless Jewell), but most importantly I have made memories and I am comfortable here. The thought of graduating and being thrown into a new environment is terrifying. I know I will find my way, but there is a small part of me that wonders what will really happen after I graduate.

College has allowed me to have grow tremendously as a person and I am now comfortable with who I am. I have this sense of adventure that keeps nagging me whenever I look at jobs and apartments in the Kansas City area. I do love where I currently live, but it will always be here. I would be perfectly content with getting a job right after college and settling down with the hopes of finding someone to share that adventure with, but I don’t know if I just want to be content. I have no commitments to anyone right now, and relatively few responsibilities so now is the ideal time to get lost in the streets of Paris, play soccer with the kids of Tonga, eat foods I can’t pronounce, and meet people who see the world in a different way and learn from them. Some might say that is what college was for, but for me college was a time to learn and find myself so I could be non-judgmental and have something to come back to when I get home.

Right now I don’t know a lot, but I do know somethings…I want to see God’s creations whether that be the views from atop a mountain or having a conversation with someone in a far away country. I also know that everything works out with God and my family behind me.

One of my friends suggested this song to me and while it definitely something that won’t get you pumped; it is something you can sing your heart out to. My dad is not a fan because my sister and I sing at the top of our lungs {No regrets. He will get over it}

Favorite Snack: Smart Pop White Cheddar Popcorn

If you have never tried this I highly suggest it because it’s delicious and you can eat a ton of it without feeling guilty!!

Go To Drink: Caribou’s Cold Press with no milk or flavoring

(Adult Beverage: Long Island Iced Tea…refreshing on the hot days of summer, but not fitness friendly)

Favorite Make-Up Product: Nyx Suede Sandstorm.

Definitely a different color for me, but after it dried I absolutely loved it! I highly suggest picking it up from your local Target.

Favorite Piece of Clothing/Accessory: Still obsessed with my nickel and Suede Earrings! I picked up the Caribbean Blue pair for the Fourth of July!

….yet, you don’t actually do those things. Everyone swears they will work out now that they don’t have class and have less temptations to order pizza every night since mom is cooking. Sleep…something we college student put on a pedestal, sometimes higher than our grades (sorry mom), yet it’s summer and we end up watching endless amounts of Netflix or going out with people. Which brings me to my fourth point…working and saving…something we swear we will do so we can relax and focus on school {ordering pizza whenever} during the year. While we may work, we certainly aren’t saving because we definitely {don’t} need another romper. And now going back to point number three…going on an adventure. I know this is something that I always swear I will do because I have the time and I will have the money, but I end up working and not having money because I bought that extra romper or ordered pizza again. Yes, I know I made that choice and I only have minor regrets. Anyways, my fifth and final expectation of the summer, get tan. However, you spend most of your day indoors because when it’s so hot out you can fry an egg, you don’t want to fry out there either…or you work…or you are binge watching a Netflix series in the dark.

While we swear we will do a lot of things some times we don’t, but regardless we have three month off of school!

I hope all of you have had a wonderful weekend and had a chance to take time to yourself and recharge from the week. I know I certainly did and I will now be spending my entire day in my school’s library getting all of my assignments and reading done, but I have no regrets because I feel ready to go for this up coming week.

After class on Friday I went and got a smoothie from Smoothie King because $5 Friday, duh. Anyways, after spending time at home I decided that I should just get some coffee and start on homework because all of my roommates had went home for the weekend. I sat down and was about to start homework when my sorority little and her boyfriend came into my room. I absolutely love spending time with both of them because our conversations are always interesting. So after about two hours of conversing about our past conquests they decided to head out for the night. From our conversation I learned that they had just as many adventures their freshman year as I did and we definitely had another bonding moment. So yes, while I should have been doing homework, I am extremely glad that I had time to live life and learn more about people. I am also really excited to see who we get to add to our litte sorority family at the end of this month.

So, after they left instead of working on homework, I went to train legs at the gym at until nearly 11 at night. This was very relaxing and I am glad that I took the night to my self.

So moral of this story is that despite my professors advice of not taking an entire evening to myself, I did and I feel more refreshed and ready to tackle this hectic week. In addition, there are worse ways I could have spent my night (like ways that resulted me waking up dehydrated and hung over). To conclude this rambling session of appreciation, my advice to all of you who have a very busy week is to take time to yourself and spend it with people who will help you grow as a person and learn more about life.