Month: May 2018

On Friday I needed another $700 to meet a payment for South Africa. I prayed and prayed, but only $75 came in the mail yesterday. But they took a love offering for me at church today and I received $1,575.25.

That is well over $700!

Thank you God.

I spent half of yesterday with Sarah. We ate at her dad’s house and watched some old home videos. I laughed for hours. We then went to see The Horse Whisperer, it was a beautiful movie.

I didn’t leave Sarah’s house until 3:00 a.m. We just spent our time constantly affirming each other. I am in love with her. It blows my mind.

I received a letter from Emily yesterday. It was very sad. Her break up with Brandon has destroyed her. She has been with him for as long as she has known me. I talked with her over the phone for an hour and a half. She cried the entire time.

She is such a beautiful girl with a very tender heart. She doesn’t like the world and refuses to let her harden her.

I talked to Sarah yesterday too, and she isn’t enjoying her job. She was down as well.

I’ve been praying for both of them.

I can’t believe this month is over.

Lees-McRae is over.

I feel my life drastically changing under my own feet. What lies behind me was unbelievable, but I still feel there is more for me.

My life has just begun, yet I already feel tired. There are just so many people out there in the world.

Sarah and I had such an amazing weekend. Our relationship has gotten so tight recently. Saturday afternoon, wow! She had my body on fire and shaking uncontrollably. We are still virgins, of course, but I think we went too far. We talked about it yesterday and while she was quiet she seem to agree that we shouldn’t go that far again.

I saw Christi and Jason yesterday. I met her fiancé and Jason is getting married in three weeks and moving to Seattle. Both Matt and Andy are going to move to Wilmington and try to get into the small film industry there.

My parents gave me $500 to help with the missions trip. Thirty-six days remain until I leave for VA Beach, and then seven until I fly out to Dallas. I’ve never been to Texas before. And I found out Regent gave me a $2000 grant for next year, so that’s great news!

Here I am.

I’m almost 22-years-old, and I’ve had a steady girlfriend for half a year now, which is a record for me. I’m going to leave the country for the first time since 1982. I’m planning out which graduate courses I’ll take for the next two years at Regent. And I’m currently paying rent for an apartment I have yet to see. And I’ll soon be sharing that apartment with someone I’ve never met.

My parents are moving close to my long lost romantic pen pal. My friends are getting married, even those younger than me. No one truly close to me has yet to die, however, deep down, I have a feeling that I’m going to live a very long time and see experience many people die along the way.

And when I am old, gray, and wrinkled, I will be haunted by all the beautiful eyes and smiles I’ve seen along the way.

Sarah and I spent Friday together at her house. And yesterday we went to the zoo together and that night I took her to see City of Angels.

We had such an amazing weekend together. The way she looks at me as I walk, the way she holds my hand as I drove across this beautiful state, the way she holds me and kisses me…. Oh God, you are so awesome! I want to live for you Lord!

I left at a little after 7:00 p.m. tonight to go to a Bible study. It was amazing. They prayed for me. God said the money for my trip will come in and I will be surprised. They anointed my feet for travel. And through someone there, God told me to keep my head up because he was going to use my handsome features. I asked God to speak to me tonight and he sure did. He said I would live a long life serving him.

What a joy! Thank you Jesus.

After the Bible study, I went to visit Christi. She was the only one home, but all her brothers are supposed to come home this weekend. Christi looked so beautiful. She was so thin and tanned. I told her about South Africa and she got so excited for me.

And then she told me she was getting married in November. Can you believe that? This past Sunday was the year anniversary of her accident. However, she is not marrying the guy who was her boyfriend at the time who was in the car with her.

I listened to Christi talk the whole night. She seems to be doing really well with Jesus. She said Cheryl is dating a great Christian guy and Jason is getting married in July. However, she had no news of Ryan or Amy.

Andy has a graduation party Sunday, and I hope I can bring Sarah to it.

Life is amazing. God is good to all my friends. He is doing everything. I just get to show up and enjoy it.

Inseparable friends.

Christi said she was talking with her dad about me today. We also talked about the old skit group. I’ve grown so much since those days.

I am home. Lees-McRae was a beautiful season; a season I am deeply in love with. Thanks to that time, I now have a collection that spans the continent.

I mowed the grass yesterday and then visited Sarah last night. We had a wonderful time together. It is unbelievable how comfortable we are with each other. We talked about the craziest things. We are so in love.

I’m not exactly sure what I will be doing until July 1st. McDonald’s has a new owner and he never called me back. I really need to make some money, but God is good and he will take care of me.

I have mailed off 41 Teen Mania letters to help raise support for my missions trip. I also need to learn the basics of Zulu and work of the story of my personal testimony.

Sarah works 12 hours a day at the YMCA starting Monday. I miss her so much right now.

My parents have made nearly $600 doing yard sales. The house is getting emptier and emptier.

I have so much time on my hands right now. Please God, help me spend it wisely.

A very wonderful weekend. I spent Friday with Sarah and friends. We had a picnic in Reynolds Gardens. It was so beautiful! I swung on a swing so high that I kept hitting my head on tree branch. Sarah and KT showed me the Stevens Center, a beautiful theater in downtown Winston-Salem where she ushered.

We hung out with her friend Madelene for a while, then Sarah went to train for her summer job at the YMCA. I ate dinner with KT and her family, took a nap, then picked Sarah up and went to her father’s house to watch Conspiracy Theory. I spent the night at KT’s house, ate breakfast there, then drove to Banner Elk where I met up with Allen. We drove up Beech Mountain to the house where the girls were staying. Lindy, Abigail, Ann-Marie, Tracey, and Abigail’s parents were there.

Allen stayed up there the whole week and I later found out through Lindy that they would stay up late every night and make out together. Wow! Lindy feels great about it, but Allen doesn’t.

It was nice to see everyone. We went to Jeni’s wedding. She was absolutely beautiful. I was very thankful that our relationship ended when it did, that we never went too far physically, and that I wasn’t the one marrying her. I hugged her and said congratulations. Then, surprisingly, she kissed me on my mouth. It was just a little tap, but it was a nice moment, a nice goodbye, and I greatly enjoyed seeing her getting married.

Thank you God!

I drove to Winston-Salem that night and met up with Sarah at Madelene’s house. Sarah and I went for a late night walk on those city streets. The sky was purple, and it felt more like summer than any moment thus far; a very peaceful walk.

This past week I have been working on a book for Sarah that is basically just a collection of poems for her. I let her read the thirteen poems I’ve written for her so far. She has been doing a similar thing for me. I love her so much. It scares me, because I know I would do anything for her.

I came back that night, slept, then went to church this morning. Cheryl was there. She seems to be doing really well. We talked a little and plan on doing something later.

And I just now returned from visiting Wynne, a guy a graduated high school with. He caught me up on how all the old high school folks were doing. Apparently, many are totally messed up. One guy died, others are already divorced, but a few did finish college on time just like me.