Is it possible to develop feelings for people in friends with benefits, (FWB)?

I have to say yes, and the more you have, the the complicated your situation. Uh, my situation with my FWBs friends have somehow found a place in my heart, except that missing big piece.

That is, I have grown feelings for them, and I’m at the point of backing away to my little hermit hole. I have thought of celibacy as a point of retreat, but my hunger for sex gets in the way of that thought.

Or is this fear of true intimacy?

I have to ask the question because of my past.
I was extremely lucky to be married, but found myself divorced.

Twice.

You might ask, if I’ve been married twice, why bitch about living a swinger’s life, with sex at least two to three times a week?

I believe sex to be a sacred thing, even though that sex may be one moment in time between stranger and yourself, regardless of your sexual preference.

And in my case, I have a spiritual belief in a soulmate…. or is that soulmates?

My best friend and bearer of title, “pest for life” came to the apartment five hours later to find the apartment full of gas. Despite being frightened, she vented out the place, and admonished me on being more careful and not blowing people up.

She is completely right of course.

I can say nothing in my defense, and the thought of anything like that happening scares me too.