It was very short and I couldn't really bring myself to believe her when she said she loved me. I thought i was unlovable. It didn't feel much different, except when we were close together, and when we broke up, but when we did the feeling was a lot worse than before >.<

There are a few possible reasons. I was alone... still am actually... I couldn't work out why no one liked me. The few that did always seemed to just get bored after a couple of weeks and moved on. The fact that I was boring, coupled with the fact that I don't feel i'm the greatest looking. I think I was trying to be more unique. Maybe if I was different, they would want to talk to me. Maybe my looks would be better if I were to make myself look feminine.

Then there's the issue of my older sister wanting a little sister, but all she got was me, so she made due. And by that I obviously mean she dressed me up and made us put on little shows for our family.

And don't be sorry, i actually like having an interest taken in me. Whenever I tell someone I crossdress I want to tell them about it. But most just don't care.

EDIT: It may also be because of the lack of people, especially women, in my life, I tend to speak in the third person when discussing them, as if when I crossdress I am a separate person... a friend if you would, capable of understanding myself... does this happen to anyone else?