topic Re: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it. in Something’s not righthttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/309544#M42157
<LI-USER uid="8141"></LI-USER> I called them today.<BR /><BR /><LI-USER uid="292"></LI-USER> I'm done reaching outSun, 10 Jun 2018 05:49:29 GMTredhead2018-06-10T05:49:29ZTW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307574#M41083
<P>I hate myself.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate that I'm trans.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate that I have a borderline personality.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate that I have bipolar.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate that I believe that aliens talk to me.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate my life.</P><P>I hate how depressed I am right now.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate my weight.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate how I hate my weight and the fact I have an ED.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate how selfish I am.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate how much of a waste of space I am.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate how I use public resources by always being in hospital.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate how I always want to die.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate how close I've come to death but still being alive.</P><P>I hate that I'm writing this.&nbsp;</P><P>I hate everything about my life and i hate that because I know there's good bits and I know people care.&nbsp;</P><P>I just feel so angry with myself for not finishing it on Saturday. Why am I. Why am I like this. Why can't I get better. Why can't I just get over this stuff. Why can't I be happy. Why can't I just be "normal"&nbsp;</P>Tue, 29 May 2018 11:36:59 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307574#M41083redhead2018-05-29T11:36:59ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307583#M41090
<P>Hey <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>, all of this is a lot to process and is very harsh on yourself. I know how overwhelming things can get for you. There are a lot of positives about you as well and I am glad you have recognised that there are good bits and that people care about you&nbsp;<img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /> Are you able to focus on these positives for tonight? What supports are you engaging with tonight, Suicide Call Back Service?</P>Tue, 29 May 2018 12:16:32 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307583#M41090Taylor-RO2018-05-29T12:16:32ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307599#M41102
<P>Hey&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>, I’m sorry you are having these thoughts right now. <img id="smileysad" class="emoticon emoticon-smileysad" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-sad.png" alt="Smiley Sad" title="Smiley Sad" /> How do you feel now you have journalled this out on here? Is this something you could show to your psychologist when you next see them?</P>Tue, 29 May 2018 12:27:34 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307599#M41102mrmusic2018-05-29T12:27:34ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307601#M41104
<LI-USER uid="5049"></LI-USER> a lot was taken out because it was against guidelines and I can't remember it and I didn't save original and I'm usually not one to show things to my psych.Tue, 29 May 2018 12:30:28 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307601#M41104redhead2018-05-29T12:30:28ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307607#M41110
<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>. I hate how you've written so many negatives things about yourself when I bet in fact that you're beautiful inside and out. I'm so sorry that you are going through this rough patch in your life, always remember that life is worth living even through the tough times and there is no such thing as being "normal", why bother fitting in with society, embrace being YOU, because I know you are amazing, even though I haven't met you.<BR />We're always here for you. Please let me know how you're doing 💞Tue, 29 May 2018 12:36:30 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307607#M41110jess16002018-05-29T12:36:30ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307612#M41111
<P>Hey&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>, right I see. I’m glad that you have this safe space to get things out. <img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>Like both&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="11044"></LI-USER>&nbsp;and&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="11033"></LI-USER>&nbsp;have said, there are so many amazing qualities about you, and you are a beautiful person. I hope you never forget that. <img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P>Tue, 29 May 2018 12:44:25 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307612#M41111mrmusic2018-05-29T12:44:25ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307613#M41112
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER> I'm sorry to hear you're struggling so much tonight&nbsp;</P><P><IMG src="https://media1.giphy.com/media/l4FGpP4lxGGgK5CBW/200w.webp" border="0" alt="hugs GIF" /></P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>I like how even though you are feeling so much right now you've stuck to guidelines!</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>You mentioned that you don't usually show things to your psych, I'm wondering if this is something you could try?</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>I know personally when I first showed my psych something I'd written, I felt so vulnerable and scared, yet though afterwards I felt okay because she was able to help me work through it.</P><P>DO you think if you were to share something like this it could help?</P>Tue, 29 May 2018 12:44:27 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307613#M41112Bee2018-05-29T12:44:27ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307614#M41113
<LI-USER uid="238"></LI-USER> I didn't stick to the guidelines Taylor edited it. I'm kinda stupid today.<BR />My next session with my psych is 5 weeks away there will probably be more valid things to talk about then. I will bring up how much I hate myself though, it's stuff I need to deal with.Tue, 29 May 2018 12:48:59 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307614#M41113redhead2018-05-29T12:48:59ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307617#M41114
<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER> that's okay<BR />I can certainly understand how there could be more valid things to discuss then, but I hope you do bring it up with your psych when you see them<BR /><BR />How can we best help tonight? &lt;3Tue, 29 May 2018 12:52:11 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307617#M41114Bee2018-05-29T12:52:11ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307622#M41115
<LI-USER uid="238"></LI-USER> it's just been helpful to get it out. I've had so much on my mind todayTue, 29 May 2018 13:00:22 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307622#M41115redhead2018-05-29T13:00:22ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307624#M41116
I'm glad getting it out has helped <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER> <img id="smileyhappy" class="emoticon emoticon-smileyhappy" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-happy.png" alt="Smiley Happy" title="Smiley Happy" /> &lt;3Tue, 29 May 2018 13:03:04 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307624#M41116Bee2018-05-29T13:03:04ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307634#M41119
How are you feeling today? 🙂Tue, 29 May 2018 22:52:45 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307634#M41119jess16002018-05-29T22:52:45ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307673#M41123
<LI-USER uid="11033"></LI-USER> I'm pretty down todayWed, 30 May 2018 06:05:20 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307673#M41123redhead2018-05-30T06:05:20ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307690#M41127
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;sorry to hear you are feeling down. How are you looking after yourself tonight?&nbsp;<img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P>Wed, 30 May 2018 08:25:26 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307690#M41127Lan-RO2018-05-30T08:25:26ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307693#M41128
<LI-USER uid="10666"></LI-USER> Idk I just had a long shower but I just feel like its pointless to try my strategies and that I don't deserve to be hereWed, 30 May 2018 08:37:47 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307693#M41128redhead2018-05-30T08:37:47ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307695#M41130
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;showers can be super relaxing <img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>Would it be helpful to come up with a list of reasons to keep trying? Sometimes when I'm really struggling I find myself only thinking of the reasons to give up, but it's important to find that balance, because you really are valuable <img id="smileyhappy" class="emoticon emoticon-smileyhappy" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-happy.png" alt="Smiley Happy" title="Smiley Happy" /></P>Wed, 30 May 2018 08:47:19 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307695#M41130lokifish2018-05-30T08:47:19ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307699#M41132
<LI-USER uid="292"></LI-USER> I don't have any reasonsWed, 30 May 2018 09:07:27 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307699#M41132redhead2018-05-30T09:07:27ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307703#M41133
<P>Hmm, just off the top of my head, what about...</P><UL><LI>Being able to undergo FtM transition</LI><LI>Working towards getting your uni degree</LI><LI>Being super amazing at supporting everyone here on the forums</LI></UL><P>&nbsp;</P><P>Or if that's a bit much to think about right now, we can chill on the games threads?</P>Wed, 30 May 2018 09:16:47 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307703#M41133lokifish2018-05-30T09:16:47ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307717#M41135
<LI-USER uid="292"></LI-USER> tbh none of that seems worth it. Nothing seems worth it anymore.Wed, 30 May 2018 09:40:27 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307717#M41135redhead2018-05-30T09:40:27ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307719#M41136
And that really sucks, because I use to want that stuffWed, 30 May 2018 09:40:46 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307719#M41136redhead2018-05-30T09:40:46ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307744#M41139
I'm sorry you've been feeling this way <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>,<BR />is there a part of you that still wants what <LI-USER uid="292"></LI-USER> mentioned?<BR />is there anything that gives you a little bit of hope or happiness?<BR />here for you <img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" />Wed, 30 May 2018 10:38:18 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307744#M41139missep2018-05-30T10:38:18ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307748#M41140
<LI-USER uid="8598"></LI-USER> not anymore <img id="smileysad" class="emoticon emoticon-smileysad" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-sad.png" alt="Smiley Sad" title="Smiley Sad" /><BR /><BR /><BR /><BR /><BR />...i really can't do this anymoreWed, 30 May 2018 11:05:14 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307748#M41140redhead2018-05-30T11:05:14ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307750#M41142
I'm worried about you <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>,<BR />are you able to keep safe tonight?<BR />Wed, 30 May 2018 11:11:32 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307750#M41142missep2018-05-30T11:11:32ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307752#M41143
<LI-USER uid="8598"></LI-USER> IdkWed, 30 May 2018 11:15:07 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307752#M41143redhead2018-05-30T11:15:07ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307753#M41144
Can we think of a way that you can keep yourself safe tonight <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>?Wed, 30 May 2018 11:15:46 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307753#M41144missep2018-05-30T11:15:46ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307754#M41145
I've tried. I just can't anymoreWed, 30 May 2018 11:18:19 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307754#M41145redhead2018-05-30T11:18:19ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307757#M41146
<P>@redhead, I have to ask. Have you been having suicidal thoughts?<BR />&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="10666"></LI-USER></P>Wed, 30 May 2018 11:22:33 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307757#M41146missep2018-05-30T11:22:33ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307758#M41147
<P>Hi&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;I definitely feel for you and can see you are having a hard time&nbsp;<img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /> How about giving a call to <A href="https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/contact-us/" target="_self">SCBS</A> of <A href="https://kidshelpline.com.au/" target="_self">KHS</A> and having a chat to one of the counsellors?&nbsp;</P>Wed, 30 May 2018 11:23:06 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307758#M41147Lan-RO2018-05-30T11:23:06ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307759#M41148
<LI-USER uid="10666"></LI-USER> I've already tried them.<BR /><BR />And what's the point. I'm better off deadWed, 30 May 2018 11:24:25 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307759#M41148redhead2018-05-30T11:24:25ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307760#M41149
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;it's great that you've taken the initiative to get further support by contacting a helpline. You are a valued member of our community and we're always here to listen. Just letting you know I have also sent an email&nbsp;<img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P>Wed, 30 May 2018 11:38:02 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307760#M41149Lan-RO2018-05-30T11:38:02ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307767#M41151
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;I am sorry you are feeling so awful tonight <img id="smileysad" class="emoticon emoticon-smileysad" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-sad.png" alt="Smiley Sad" title="Smiley Sad" /> i also wish i had something better to say something that could actually be helpful. i can relate to a lot of what you wrote in your first post and you arent alone in feeling like that. it is really hard though to have those feelings for so long it really take a toll. i am here if you want to talk about anything.&nbsp;</P>Wed, 30 May 2018 12:00:34 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307767#M41151Eden17172018-05-30T12:00:34ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307798#M41166
I made it through the night, and tbh that makes me angry. I really can't do this anymoreThu, 31 May 2018 00:41:51 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307798#M41166redhead2018-05-31T00:41:51ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307802#M41167
<P>So sorry you're feeling angry&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>, I feel the opposite I am very glad you made it through. It sounds like a really painful morning, are you at home?&nbsp;</P>Thu, 31 May 2018 00:48:38 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307802#M41167Bree-RO2018-05-31T00:48:38ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307804#M41168
<LI-USER uid="8604"></LI-USER> Yeh. My CM is coming at 11Thu, 31 May 2018 00:50:14 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307804#M41168redhead2018-05-31T00:50:14ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307808#M41169
<P>Ok let us know how you go&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;<img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P>Thu, 31 May 2018 01:07:05 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307808#M41169Bree-RO2018-05-31T01:07:05ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307812#M41170
She's not here yet <img id="smileysad" class="emoticon emoticon-smileysad" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-sad.png" alt="Smiley Sad" title="Smiley Sad" />Thu, 31 May 2018 01:22:26 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307812#M41170redhead2018-05-31T01:22:26ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307909#M41191
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;how did your CM go? i hope you are ok.&nbsp;</P>Thu, 31 May 2018 09:47:09 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307909#M41191Eden17172018-05-31T09:47:09ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307912#M41193
Hi <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>, just wanted to see how you are today. <img id="smileyhappy" class="emoticon emoticon-smileyhappy" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-happy.png" alt="Smiley Happy" title="Smiley Happy" />Thu, 31 May 2018 10:06:44 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307912#M41193jess16002018-05-31T10:06:44ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307934#M41199
<LI-USER uid="8346"></LI-USER> my CM was ok, I found it really hard to talk to her about this stuff though. She took some notes to take to my psychiatrist though and is keen to touch base with me on Monday. We talked about trying to notice the outside world and not just what's in my head/how I'm feeling.<BR /><BR /><LI-USER uid="11033"></LI-USER> after seeing my CM my best mate has taken me up to the coast to see his family and so he can fix his car. It's been a good distraction. Today's a little better but it's tiring pretending I'm ok around everyone. I'm so tired, I'm not sleeping and I'm exhausted by my mh.Thu, 31 May 2018 11:38:13 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307934#M41199redhead2018-05-31T11:38:13ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307957#M41205
I'm glad to see your day wasn't too bad, and I'm also happy to see that your talking to someone about this although I don't completely understand what your going through I'm sure it's the right step even though I know it's hard for you to open up, don't give up it will only benefit you <img id="smileyhappy" class="emoticon emoticon-smileyhappy" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-happy.png" alt="Smiley Happy" title="Smiley Happy" /><BR />Have you tried listening to some calming/soft music or reading a book?<BR />I'm sorry I don't have any decent advice, but I hope this helps a little bit.<BR />Always here if you need to chat 💖Thu, 31 May 2018 13:05:01 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/307957#M41205jess16002018-05-31T13:05:01ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308047#M41240
<P>I am glad your CM went ok how are you today?</P>Fri, 01 Jun 2018 10:35:36 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308047#M41240Eden17172018-06-01T10:35:36ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308061#M41251
<LI-USER uid="8346"></LI-USER> today's been ok, I've been distracted all day with my best mate so it's been a better day. I'm exhausted though. I'm barely sleeping anymore and it's taking a toll.Fri, 01 Jun 2018 11:24:36 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308061#M41251redhead2018-06-01T11:24:36ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308089#M41265
<P><span class="lia-inline-image-display-wrapper lia-image-align-inline" image-alt="IMG_3911.JPG" style="width: 274px;"><img src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/image/serverpage/image-id/7402i95FB46C46D9EB69D/image-size/medium?v=1.0&amp;px=400" title="IMG_3911.JPG" alt="IMG_3911.JPG" /></span></P><P>Sorry for the hard&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;but but glad that your best mate is being a good support&nbsp;</P>Fri, 01 Jun 2018 12:12:58 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308089#M41265DruidChild2018-06-01T12:12:58ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308100#M41268
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;I'm also glad that getting away with your mate has been helpful <img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /> not sleeping sounds really rough - have you mentioned it to any of your treating team?</P>Fri, 01 Jun 2018 22:28:15 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308100#M41268lokifish2018-06-01T22:28:15ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308215#M41645
<P><LI-USER uid="292"></LI-USER>I mention that I don't sleep many times to my treating team but they say there's nothing they can do about it.<BR /><BR /><BR /><BR />And fffuuuccckkk...why can't I ever stop...</P>Sat, 02 Jun 2018 11:47:34 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308215#M41645redhead2018-06-02T11:47:34ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308219#M41648
Stop what? Sleeping badly? What's up <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>?Sat, 02 Jun 2018 11:54:39 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308219#M41648Zeldasmile2018-06-02T11:54:39ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308220#M41649
<LI-USER uid="10859"></LI-USER> it's something mods edited out.Sat, 02 Jun 2018 11:56:21 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308220#M41649redhead2018-06-02T11:56:21ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308223#M41652
<P>Yup sorry&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;I got sidetracked and missed letting you know! Apologies, I hope you can understand, I know it's frustrating to have to censor yourself!</P>Sat, 02 Jun 2018 12:05:24 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308223#M41652Erin-RO2018-06-02T12:05:24ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308224#M41653
<LI-USER uid="10454"></LI-USER> why was it edited though.Sat, 02 Jun 2018 12:06:36 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308224#M41653redhead2018-06-02T12:06:36ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308225#M41654
<P>I found this one to be in the grey area&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;but we have quite a few people going through a tough time at the moment, so I thought I'd better to errr on the side of caution.</P>Sat, 02 Jun 2018 12:09:38 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308225#M41654Erin-RO2018-06-02T12:09:38ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308226#M41655
<LI-USER uid="10454"></LI-USER> ok.Sat, 02 Jun 2018 12:12:14 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308226#M41655redhead2018-06-02T12:12:14ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308227#M41656
<P>Thanks&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;<img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P>Sat, 02 Jun 2018 12:15:02 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308227#M41656Erin-RO2018-06-02T12:15:02ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308230#M41658
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;not sleeping must be frustrating for you to have to deal with hopefully you start to sleep better soon.&nbsp;</P>Sat, 02 Jun 2018 13:03:37 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308230#M41658Eden17172018-06-02T13:03:37ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308299#M41684
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;I empathise, it's really tough when you have symptoms (like not sleeping) that you keep trying to talk about and your treating team won't do anything about them. Can you have a rest/nap today? When I'm super tired it can help to do something restful, like watch a movie, and just zone out a little if I can't sleep.&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>Do you feel like talking through what's going on for you?&nbsp;<img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P>Sun, 03 Jun 2018 06:24:49 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308299#M41684DruidChild2018-06-03T06:24:49ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308358#M41701
I ended up in emergency again. Im so angry at myself for calling scbs, I want to die and if they didn't get me help I'd probably be dead now. It's not fucking fair. Why did I call them.Sun, 03 Jun 2018 09:37:18 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308358#M41701redhead2018-06-03T09:37:18ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308359#M41702
Hey <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER> I just wanted to let you know that we're all here for you. ❤<BR />Nothings fair. The world isn't fair, nor will it ever be fair. But that's something that as humans we learn to cope with and deal with. Nothings fucking fair <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>. I know what its like to be in a bad place,okay. I'm sorry I'm being harsh, but I quite like you and like you being around. If you're having issues just know that we're all always here for you. How have things been going with your treatments and stuff? Make sure to get a good nights sleep if possible. I don't want you gone, okay? Some people do care. Maybe they're just strangers on the internet, but they still care. Please stay.Sun, 03 Jun 2018 09:50:20 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308359#M41702Zeldasmile2018-06-03T09:50:20ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308370#M41704
<P>I know it may not feel like it now but calling SCBS was a really positive and courageous step for you&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>. I know I’ve said this before but you really are a valued member of RO and last night you showed such compassion and care for <LI-USER uid="8346"></LI-USER>&nbsp;when they were having a really difficult night and my hope is that you might be able to show yourself the same level of compassion and care tonight <img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P>Sun, 03 Jun 2018 10:27:22 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308370#M41704Erin-RO2018-06-03T10:27:22ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308411#M41721
I went home. I hate hospitals.Sun, 03 Jun 2018 13:00:26 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308411#M41721redhead2018-06-03T13:00:26ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308450#M41733
<P>Hi&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>, sorry I haven’t been on the last few days. It sounds like the last week or so has been incredibly intense for you. <img id="smileysad" class="emoticon emoticon-smileysad" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-sad.png" alt="Smiley Sad" title="Smiley Sad" /> Like others have already said, I’m so proud of you for contacting SCBS yesterday, you’re doing so well.</P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>How are you today? <img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P>Mon, 04 Jun 2018 02:10:07 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308450#M41733mrmusic2018-06-04T02:10:07ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308568#M41745
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;I am sorry you ended up in emergency again that must have been awful for you. but i am glad you are still here even if you are not. how are you today?</P>Mon, 04 Jun 2018 11:03:28 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308568#M41745Eden17172018-06-04T11:03:28ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308581#M41752
<LI-USER uid="8346"></LI-USER> <LI-USER uid="5049"></LI-USER> thanks.<BR />Today's been better. I saw my CM today and it helped. I also finally put my volunteer application for the Red Cross in today and spent the even playing magic with other residents where I live.<BR />I wouldn't say I'm good, but I'm less down.Mon, 04 Jun 2018 12:02:05 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308581#M41752redhead2018-06-04T12:02:05ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308597#M41761
Hi <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>. I'm so happy seeing your progress, I hope that coping gets a little bit easier for you each day.<BR />And you know we're here to listen + chat when you're having a shit day.<BR />“Everybody comes to a point in their life when they want to quit, but it's what you do at that moment that determines who you are.”<BR />💖<BR />Mon, 04 Jun 2018 12:37:55 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308597#M41761jess16002018-06-04T12:37:55ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308602#M41764
<P>I'm sorry that you're having a hard time but that's okay, even if you hate yourself or&nbsp; hate your life you should know that every human being is important in this world full of sadness don't worry there is a lot out there that cares for you don't be blind and look who's around you and keep hanging on nothing can drag you down we are all the same that's why everyone here wants to listen to you no matter what just don't ever think to give up</P><P>&nbsp; cheer upp!!&nbsp;</P><P>&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;-have an amazing daayy-</P>Mon, 04 Jun 2018 13:16:27 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308602#M41764wildfire__2018-06-04T13:16:27ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308670#M41777
That's amazing progress <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>,<BR />It's really nice to see that you put in your volunteer application and that you were able to play magic with the other residents.<BR />How are you feeling today?Tue, 05 Jun 2018 05:25:29 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308670#M41777missep2018-06-05T05:25:29ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308725#M41786
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;how are you today?</P>Tue, 05 Jun 2018 09:27:03 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308725#M41786Eden17172018-06-05T09:27:03ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308726#M41787
<LI-USER uid="8346"></LI-USER> Tuesday's are usually good days for me, I get to hang out with my dad.Tue, 05 Jun 2018 09:28:40 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308726#M41787redhead2018-06-05T09:28:40ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308731#M41791
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;That sounds really nice <img id="smileyhappy" class="emoticon emoticon-smileyhappy" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-happy.png" alt="Smiley Happy" title="Smiley Happy" /></P>Tue, 05 Jun 2018 09:38:46 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308731#M41791Eden17172018-06-05T09:38:46ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308735#M41794
<P>So glad that Tuesdays are usually quite positive for you <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>! <img id="smileyhappy" class="emoticon emoticon-smileyhappy" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-happy.png" alt="Smiley Happy" title="Smiley Happy" /></P>Tue, 05 Jun 2018 10:06:00 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308735#M41794letitgo2018-06-05T10:06:00ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308842#M41833
<P>I wonder if I could get the aliens put of my head.</P>Fri, 20 Jul 2018 02:21:28 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308842#M41833redhead2018-07-20T02:21:28ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308845#M41834
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;Yo what do you mean&nbsp;</P>
<P>&nbsp;</P>Fri, 20 Jul 2018 02:21:46 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308845#M41834Eagle2018-07-20T02:21:46ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308846#M41835
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>I'm quite concerned about what you mean by&nbsp;get the aliens out of your head, are you safe?&nbsp;</P>
<P>&nbsp;</P>Fri, 20 Jul 2018 02:22:19 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308846#M41835ErinsAntics2018-07-20T02:22:19ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308848#M41836
I'm safe, I was just fantasising ways of getting them out <LI-USER uid="10648"></LI-USER> <LI-USER uid="6838"></LI-USER>Wed, 06 Jun 2018 09:44:51 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308848#M41836redhead2018-06-06T09:44:51ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308850#M41837
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;yes as <LI-USER uid="6838"></LI-USER>&nbsp;said it sounds like you're having a hard time tonight? What's going on for you?</P>Wed, 06 Jun 2018 09:45:26 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308850#M41837TOM-RO2018-06-06T09:45:26ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308852#M41838
<P>Thanks for clarifying <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;what's going to be helpful for you tonight?</P>Wed, 06 Jun 2018 09:47:01 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308852#M41838TOM-RO2018-06-06T09:47:01ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308853#M41839
IdkWed, 06 Jun 2018 09:48:06 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308853#M41839redhead2018-06-06T09:48:06ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308875#M41846
I can't fucking do this anymoreWed, 06 Jun 2018 10:39:04 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308875#M41846redhead2018-06-06T10:39:04ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308876#M41847
<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER> sounds like things are feeling really tough right now <img id="smileysad" class="emoticon emoticon-smileysad" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-sad.png" alt="Smiley Sad" title="Smiley Sad" /><BR />Are you safe?Wed, 06 Jun 2018 10:44:19 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308876#M41847Bee2018-06-06T10:44:19ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308877#M41848
<P>Hi&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>, I know you’re extremely triggered tonight from your other thread, and I’m a little bit concerned about you at the moment. You said in the other thread that you were on the line to SCBS - how did that go/is that going? Proud of you for reaching out for the additional support. Hang in there. <img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P>Wed, 06 Jun 2018 10:46:04 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308877#M41848mrmusic2018-06-06T10:46:04ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308880#M41849
<LI-USER uid="238"></LI-USER> Idk <LI-USER uid="5049"></LI-USER> the call was ok, though it didn't really help.Wed, 06 Jun 2018 10:52:21 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308880#M41849redhead2018-06-06T10:52:21ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308881#M41850
<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER> I'm sorry to hear it didn't help.<BR />Do you know what would be helpful for you?Wed, 06 Jun 2018 10:53:34 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308881#M41850Bee2018-06-06T10:53:34ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308882#M41851
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;What strategies can you use to stay safe right now? <img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P>Wed, 06 Jun 2018 10:53:37 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308882#M41851mrmusic2018-06-06T10:53:37ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308885#M41853
<LI-USER uid="238"></LI-USER> <LI-USER uid="5049"></LI-USER> I'm contemplating going to emergency after the night I've had since I'm walking past it.Wed, 06 Jun 2018 10:57:48 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308885#M41853redhead2018-06-06T10:57:48ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308886#M41854
<P>Hi&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>, if that’s what you think you need to do to be certain you’ll stay safe, it sounds like a good idea. Please let us know how you get on.</P>Wed, 06 Jun 2018 10:59:44 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308886#M41854mrmusic2018-06-06T10:59:44ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308887#M41855
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;I'm going to send you an email now just to check in with you privately</P><P><BR />Tom</P>Wed, 06 Jun 2018 11:01:22 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308887#M41855TOM-RO2018-06-06T11:01:22ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308889#M41857
Hey <LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>, please update us as soon as possible.<BR />Stay Strong 💖Wed, 06 Jun 2018 11:15:34 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308889#M41857jess16002018-06-06T11:15:34ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308900#M41865
<LI-USER uid="5049"></LI-USER> <LI-USER uid="11033"></LI-USER> I've calmed down now. Walking home from hospital.Wed, 06 Jun 2018 12:55:49 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308900#M41865redhead2018-06-06T12:55:49ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308901#M41866
Okay that's good if anything happens please contact someone you trust or a helpline.<BR />Good night ❤️Wed, 06 Jun 2018 12:58:29 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308901#M41866jess16002018-06-06T12:58:29ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308902#M41867
<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER> I'm proud of you for going to the hospital!<BR />I'm glad you're calmer now <img id="smileyhappy" class="emoticon emoticon-smileyhappy" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-happy.png" alt="Smiley Happy" title="Smiley Happy" /><BR />What are your plans now?Wed, 06 Jun 2018 12:59:01 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308902#M41867Bee2018-06-06T12:59:01ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308915#M41871
<P>We are all sending love today&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER></P>Wed, 06 Jun 2018 23:51:23 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308915#M41871Bree-RO2018-06-06T23:51:23ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308917#M41873
<P><LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;I second everyone else, we are so proud of you for getting help. Hugs. I'm sorry things are so difficult right now, I promise that there's light at the end of the tunnel&nbsp;<img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P>Wed, 06 Jun 2018 23:57:57 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308917#M41873DruidChild2018-06-06T23:57:57ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308955#M41907
Argh because of something I read I'm having flashbacks back to when I was sexually assaulted in hospital... Fuck...Thu, 07 Jun 2018 02:38:48 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308955#M41907redhead2018-06-07T02:38:48ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308957#M41909
<P>That sucks&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>, I'm sorry to hear that&nbsp;<img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /> Could it help to do a grounding exercise, like naming five things you can see, feel, and hear?</P>Thu, 07 Jun 2018 02:41:01 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308957#M41909DruidChild2018-06-07T02:41:01ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308964#M41916
<P>Hey&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;I am so sorry to hear this. Feel free&nbsp; to send us an e-mail to the thread if there's something in need of editing, I am scanning through now as well in case we've missed it. As with&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="8141"></LI-USER>&nbsp;would a grounding exercise help you at the moment? Or a chat with 1800Respect?</P>Thu, 07 Jun 2018 02:57:37 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308964#M41916Bree-RO2018-06-07T02:57:37ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308965#M41917
<P><LI-USER uid="8604"></LI-USER>the post wasn't against guidelines it's ok. Just stupid me.<BR />I just how a shower to try and ground myself . I might call 1800respect</P>Thu, 07 Jun 2018 03:08:40 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308965#M41917redhead2018-06-07T03:08:40ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308967#M41919
<P>Not stupid you at all, it's okay&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;there are most certainly triggers everywhere in life, it does overtime get easier to manage them. You're doing super well. Also well done on the shower, you're so proactive with your strategies now.<BR /><BR />I did a small edit there, it wasn't too major. Just being mindful of others who may use the shower as a coping strategy.&nbsp;<img id="heart" class="emoticon emoticon-heart" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_heart.png" alt="Heart" title="Heart" /></P><P>&nbsp;</P><P>Have you got any playlists lined up for today? Music is quite soothing for you isn't it <img id="smileyhappy" class="emoticon emoticon-smileyhappy" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-happy.png" alt="Smiley Happy" title="Smiley Happy" />&nbsp;</P>Thu, 07 Jun 2018 03:10:59 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308967#M41919Bree-RO2018-06-07T03:10:59ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308975#M41927
<LI-USER uid="8604"></LI-USER> sorry <img id="smileyhappy" class="emoticon emoticon-smileyhappy" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-happy.png" alt="Smiley Happy" title="Smiley Happy" /> thanks for editing that.<BR />I'm thinking about listening to some of The Devil Wears Prada.Thu, 07 Jun 2018 04:07:20 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308975#M41927redhead2018-06-07T04:07:20ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308977#M41929
<P>Great band!&nbsp;<LI-USER uid="5155"></LI-USER>&nbsp;Did you ever get into that band Norma Jean? <img id="smileyhappy" class="emoticon emoticon-smileyhappy" src="https://forums.au.reachout.com/i/smilies/16x16_smiley-happy.png" alt="Smiley Happy" title="Smiley Happy" />&nbsp;</P>Thu, 07 Jun 2018 04:10:00 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308977#M41929Bree-RO2018-06-07T04:10:00ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308978#M41930
<LI-USER uid="8604"></LI-USER> I don't mind they're stuff but I never got into it.Thu, 07 Jun 2018 04:11:00 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308978#M41930redhead2018-06-07T04:11:00ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308996#M41935
What other bands/artist do you listen too?Thu, 07 Jun 2018 08:41:47 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/308996#M41935jess16002018-06-07T08:41:47ZRe: TW.I need to vent this.Don't read it.https://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/309071#M41955
<LI-USER uid="11033"></LI-USER> I love most metal and screamo. My favourite band is demon hunter.<BR />Although I'm also obsessed with this band called Red (since I was 14) and it's nothing like the other stuff I listen to.Fri, 08 Jun 2018 07:45:41 GMThttps://forums.au.reachout.com/t5/Something-s-not-right/TW-I-need-to-vent-this-Don-t-read-it/m-p/309071#M41955redhead2018-06-08T07:45:41Z