just doesn’t work like that

I’ll Sleep On It
Most people generally get clarity on a subject after sleeping on it. With me it’s just the opposite. I had a decision I had to make and I slept on it and I was less sure the next day. I generally have a very utilitarian take on it. I balance the pleasure of the sin against the pain of the punishment. Lately I’ve been so stressed that when I wake up I’m ready to go to bed. I am trying to cut things out of my life but unfortunately I don’t have any power in my life because I am in the hands of my handlers.

Trust Your Gut
This is also a mystery to me. My “gut” has told me so many things that have turned out to be patently false that what it is is obviously not what an NT would have. Also with regard to religion a lot of “God’s guidance” comes down to trusting your intuition. I don’t have reliable intuition so times when I was a Christian I just floundered.

The Room Will Warm Up to You
I have been told that in order for church people to accept me I just have to show up week after week. Of course that does not work for me as demonstrated multiple times. However for NT’s without disabilities that is socialization works. They can say, “the people in this room will warm up to you eventually” because they want to string you along. When the people don’t warm up to you it is framed as your fault for not having “social skills”.