But when I do feel all the strength go out of me and I fall to my knees beside the table and I think I cry then or at least I want to and everything inside me screams for just one more kiss one more word one more glance one more.

I fell in love with him. But I dont just stay with him by default as if theres no one else available to me. I stay with him because I choose to every day that I wake up every day that we fight or lie to each other or disappoint each other. I choose him over and over again and he chooses me.