Angelina Jolie was so nervous about stepping behind the camera for her directorial debut, she suffered a “complete emotional breakdown” and was found by Brad Pitt sobbing in the shower. The actress took the director’s chair for new movie In the Land of Blood and Honey, a self-penned film about a love affair between a Serbian soldier and a Bosnian woman.

But she was so stressed about testing her talents on the other side of the lens, she suffered a meltdown in front of her partner Pitt.

During an online interview with Marie Claire magazine, Jolie said, “I had a complete emotional breakdown in the shower and Brad found me crying. I felt this huge responsibility and I felt very small. ‘Who am I to take this on?'”

Jolie also revealed she only took on directing responsibilities by chance, adding, “I didn’t plan to become a director, and I still have trouble saying I’m a director. I just wanted to tell this story and I ended up by default being the director. It was a pleasure, but I wonder if it would be a pleasure with another cast and crew, and a subject matter that wasn’t so special.”