That's it. I am to stay in SRJC. Sigh... All the wait. All the anticipation for one whole month for a positive reply... I feel like listening to Mutter and sulk all day long.

At this point of time, I feel like trash about my life. There is nothing comforting left, except for my cards and metal music to spur me on not to pick up that razorblade or take a plunge down the building.