cant let it out

i fucking hate myself i can never please anyone all i do is piss ppl off, and im always depressed and i want to ask for help i just can never bring myself to ask ppl to help me with my problems when they have there own to deal with. i can help them with there problems, and when ppl ask me whats wrong i just put on a face and say nothing FUCK i wish i could fucking do something bout my fucking depression. il i ever do is let ppl down and fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck, :wallbash: :wallbash: :wallbash: :wallbash: :wallbash: :wallbash: :wallbash: :wallbash: :wallbash: :wallbash: i want to kill myself so im not causing more problems with everyone and il be able to end my fucking pain. and i can never cry and let out my emotions i always bottle them up same with my anger. i just wish my life was ended so i wont piss others off.
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It's hard when you're screaming inside with no-one to hear but you do have a voice here, exercise it like you have today, it may only help a little but maybe that's all you need to get through the day.