Hi.

Oct 1 Sprouts and trust

Yesterday morning I went out into the garden all nonchalant, and came inside screeching, "MY SEEDS HAVE SPROUTED!!!" The dog and baby were so confused they simply froze and stared back at me blinking. My husband acted as though this was an everyday occurrence, though you can't blame him, as my garden enthusiasm is not waning.

I can’t recall in my life having planted actual seeds in the ground and then weeks later see them sprout. It’s not quite as exciting as finding out you’re pregnant, but it’s close.

We have seedlings in the garden as of yesterday, September 30th, with about four little sprouts that have emerged past the soil. I was just starting to doubt myself in thinking I didn’t have the personality for seeds. The wait is hard for me with the worry that they wouldn’t come up, and with no indication of how my watering is doing.

Every time there is a new event in the garden, it reminds me of why I started and why I love it. It may seem silly, but it’s the subtlety in the beauty of my boxes that keeps me true. It’s a voiceless mirror that reflects to me where my head is, and the lessons I need to keep learning.

In this instance, the blind caring for our little seeds did in fact produce something wonderful. I didn’t need to worry so much about if they would start, I just needed to trust that they would. Trust that my efforts with my best ability would be enough.

That is something I struggle with ALL. THE. TIME. There may not be anything I struggle with more than that. And if I have to learn this over and over again, then I will. What’s beautiful about it is that I get to witness grace over and over again. I get to see the work of trusting in something bigger than myself unfold and be unwavering.

Whatever you may believe in (God, The Universe, vibes), it believes in you too. If you could trust the path of your life, the way your life trusts you at the helm, peace would cover you like a peanut casing.

So, there you have it. The garden gods strike again! My work in 48 square feet delivering wisdom along with a steady supply of cherry tomatoes and rosemary.