Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Chapter 17: Rant on Life

Assalammualaikum..

Life had been harsh to me lately.. Nothing comforts me and it's been years since I had this feeling.. I'm feeling empty and Idk, probably too tired of everything.. Guess it's gone together while I was in "drapetomania" mode? 😷

I had been back to my student life as the senior year at KUPTM KL since last Monday and to be frank, I'm not having fun at all.. I woke up everyday, motivated to become a good student but end up being a sleepy and grumpy student. 😪

Is it because of the new surroundings, the unfriendly classmates? Or probably it's due to the fact that we suddenly had to be in the short course, and the school practicum was faster than we expected? I had no idea..

All I know that I'm in a rush semester and it marks that another stressful semester would be chasing me.. On a positive thoughts, I would probably graduate this year, finishing all 6 semesters that was expected to be completed only by the end of this year.. Graduating few months earlier ain't a bad idea after all, isn't it? 😩

Oh well, I hope my spirit is back as soon as possible.. It's tiring to feel sleepy all day, being unmotivated and all sorts of negative vibes.. Dear self, please be more productive since your journey on this year ain't getting easier.. Sincerely, yourself..💕

maybe you just need some fresh restart or deep thought on how to go about the semester. feel that you can control this somehow. and lots of coffee. lol. i'd also suggest to distract yourself and restart. even though it is the start of the new semester.

I'm not into reading sgt tau lately.. But I still do reading just not at frequent as before la.. Thinking to work out but KL had been raining for almost like everyday lately so kemalasan berleluasa.. haha