Surgery

Sometimes the truth hurts. Sometimes it cuts like a dull knife working its way through lies that your heart wants to hold on to. Millimeter by millimeter it slowly severs the tendons of the lies.

It’s not always easy.

…………but it’s always necessary.

Sometimes it’s so much easier to believe the lies the enemy tells us. That God won’t answer our prayers. He plants seeds of doubt that bloom into giant trees of discouragement.

Sometimes it’s just easier to believe the lies, than to trust God’s faithfulness.

In the last 24 hours a mass accumulation of discouragement from multiple things came down upon me like a rock. I filled up a page in my journal of all my feelings. Line after line of I feel’s. I’m not discounting my feelings or discrediting them, but if you were to read them you’d see my lack of trust & my lack of faith. You’d see that it’s easier for me to believe the lies than believe the truth.

So right now – with the prayer of faithful friends & a godly husband – I’m undergoing the scalpel. I’m trying to believe the truth in the midst of the easy lies.

Would you pray that I (we) would have increased faith and disbelieve the lies the enemy tells?

I'll do it for you if you do it for me.
Seriously...I've been wrestling the same thing the last few days. I've sent out hundreds of resumes and no interviews. Money's low. God seems distant. And the enemy pounding and pounding away.
I'll be praying for you even if you don't pray for me. I really didn't want to post a stereotypical Christian "something big must be about to happen" thing but I honestly feel like you're on the cusp of something and that's why you're under attack.

Definitely will be praying for you. I know your position well. Three weeks before we got married I got laid off. It was a difficult three months before I found a job. He is always faithful and He does have our best interests at heart - would a father give his son a rock when he asks for bread. It is very hard to trust & believe that is true when you don't see action. I'm continuing to pray that God provides work & that your faith in Him is increased.

Thanks for the great post. I love your vulnerability. This made me think of Hebrews 4:12. It also made me remember again how God has been constantly reminding me of the verses that promises us our prayers change things. I will be praying & believing that the spiritual scalpel.

oh friend. . .that has so been me all week long. yesterday, i was breaking beneath the weight of the lies and sucker punches of the enemy as well. . .just on the right coast. i struggle so much to combat the lies of the enemy. even when i call them out and counter them with Truth they seem to continually overwhelm. i am so thankful for your beloved Savior, faithful friends, and godly hubs who were there to lift you and hold you up until you can stand.

Thank you.
You're much better than I was/am doing because I'd love to hang on to them. Things that we've been praying about for four years it's easier just to hold on to God is never going to answer because look we've waited this long (not of course taking into account the other spiritual surgeries that have taken place in my life over the last four years;) ).
I'm praying for you. Praying that God brings work quickly & healing too.

Oh, I completely know how you feel. It takes a lot of spiritual maturity to go under the scalpel as you have, to understand that our feelings are unreliable, to put our trust in the Lord even when we don't feel like it. A few weeks a go I was going through a similar thing and I felt like I had lost my peace, but it wasn't a feeling that brought it back, it was a commitment. A commitment to trust in the Lord, a commitment to read His Word when I wanted to to crawl into bed and cry, a commitment to not trust in my feelings but in His promises.
Thanks for this great post. Your honesty is inspiring. I will be praying for you.

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Prudence is a 30-something writer who lives in Arizona with her husband Shawn and their chihuahuas Lengua and Zeus. She writes her life, her experiences and her crawl back to hope. Eventually, she hopes to visit India – a place that’s captured her heart without ever stepping foot on the soil.