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Sunday was a really big day in our home. My hubby had turned 60 on Saturday.

He had decided to be baptised. We also became members of our local church.

Thank you for traveling through our day…we had a huge picnic that was a wonderful success thanks to the wonderful women from Oakwood Freewill Baptist Church and all of their help. There was so much food that every table was full. Special thanks to Pastor James for the Baptisim and making such a difference in my hubby’s life. Also a special shout out to hubby’s son Christopher Green who helped in the kitchen as well as being the grill master for the day.

Our cat T. C. is an old “Garfield” in his color and attitude. He has managed to lose some weight since moving to the South from the North since he can go out during the Winter months and get some exercise as well. His food sits on top of the washing machine so that our dog Peachy will not eat every last morsel in existence. He is more than capable of jumping from the floor to the window to the dryer and then walking to the washer.
However, upon arriving into the house, his presence is announced loudly and constantly until he is picked up and placed on the washer next to his dish. He will sit there and stare at the dish until I have taken my hand and have stirred the dish of dry food several times. I must then open the sealed container of food and grab a slight hand full and add to the batch and stir again.
He will then nibble for a few minutes. Just as I am back in my office he will make his presence known again and will either want to be petted or will want to go out. Once in a great while if it happens to be a stormy day I will hear the childrens piano in the spare bedroom playing and I know that he has decided to take a nap.
When the dogs are fed, he is the first at their dishes to help himself to the bits in the “Kibbles and Bits”. Then the dogs are allowed to eat. The dogs will look at us as if to say help!…

Cats rule and dogs drool….

He has a pattern of going in and out all day. He knows that if he sets off the front door alarm it triggers in my office and I come to the front door. As I approach the front door I find him sitting there as if asking what took me so long. He nibbles on some food and is right out the back door to lounge in the sun for a nap in nice weather. Unless that was just a potty break.

You might be wondering why we tolerate this annoying daily routine. The reason is because he is somewhere between 15 and 16 years old. We know that we do not have that much longer to enjoy his company. His snuggling into bed with me on my right side while the dog Trina is tucked tight against my back on my left side.

About twice a day he insists that Trina groom him so he will walk under her and continuously butt her head until she begins to groom her. It always happens so fast that I am never near a camera to record. One of these days I will get it on record though.

That is the contrast in our lives that has blended well. Perhaps someday he will decide whether he wants to be out or in lol.

Write about a loss: something (or someone) that was part of your life, and isn’t any more.

To This point we have covered everything from material to personal losses. We have even touched on the losses of those with addictions. Then my mind began to ask what else in life could a person lose?

GOD

Sometimes people forget that He did not go anywhere. He has always been there for us. It was us who went astray. We were so caught up in our losses, our work, our familiy or our every day lives.

JESUS

Some people state ok, I love God so what? I still have to go to work on Monday through Friday and bring home a pay check. God sent His only son to die on the cross so that anyone who believes in HIM should not perish but have Everlasting Life. John 3:16

Where do you really stand in your faith tonight. If you died tonight…are you sure you would go to heaven? Have you asked Jesus to be your personal Lord and Savior and cleanse you from all of your sins?

Jesus has created miracles in our family that I would be more than glad to share with you… simply contact me at tammye42@yahoo.com and I will let you know how he made a difference in our lives and in our marriage. He was able to help me through a lot of difficult times in my life.

I could not have made it my many years if I did not have Jesus on my side and in my heart.

You discover a letter on a path that affects you deeply. Today, write about this encounter. And your twist? Be as succinct as possible.

The letter read that he had left because of his PTSD. He knew how much his crying out at night was upsetting her and he did not want to hurt her any more.
He loved her with all of his heart and owed her every thing. He did not feel it was fair to make her suffer the way that he did each night in his mind as he relived his war days.
As I turned the envelope over I could see drops of tears on the front with slight drips of mascara.

On the bottom, there was an impression of a kiss with a scribbled note that said I will find you.

Write about a loss: something (or someone) that was part of your life, and isn’t any more.

When I first read this and thought about the three part idea it was a bit intriguing as to what my topic would actually end up being about by the time that I get to part three. I was not certain if the losses should be about times in my life where material things were taken out of my life without my having any power over it. Then it occured to me that material things were always replaced. They were only temporary in this life. They were not human or an animal with feelings. We might have sentimental feelings about them, however, once they have vanished from our lives we do carry on without tears. When we lose a loved one, be it a human or an animal we do shed a lot of tears. Some people mourn much longer than others. There is no time period set on how long a person is to mourn a loss.

Gamblers mourn a loss of a game. That does not stop them from betting the next one and perhaps losing big again. It is still a loss but it is not the same pain that is felt as a loss of a loved one. To lose a tennis match is a small ouch compared to having your dog get hit by a car. Yet some peoples reactions are such that they resemble the same. People become so caught up in the moment that every emotion comes into play. They feel the adrenalin rushing into their system and have a complete reaction. Some people do not recover as well as others. Those people tend to slowly sink into a deep depression. This does not happen over night.

PTSD is a form of depression as it takes a person back to a bad place in their life and has them re-live that over and over as if they were there and right back in that moment in time. There is no cure at the moment for this and it is one of the hardest forms of depression to be diagnosed. It not only takes a toll on the person that is suffering from it but also the family that is with that person and lives through that same moment as well. We will explore this further in the next part of the series.

The depression begins slowly. They begin to not care about things that they used to. What goals they had set for themselves are suddenly fading. Doing things becomes a real chore. As each day progesses they find themselves doing less of what used to make them happy. I have watched a few friends who are slowly climbing into the dark hole of depression and it is very sad. It is very difficult to watch and although you want to try and help, they are the only ones who can help themselves.

The largest problem with a person with depression is a lot of times, they don’t realize that they are really depressed. They do not realize that it is happening to them. They can’t see the gradual changes that you have been seeing. They don’t see the changes in their behavior and manorisms. They do not see the decline in the lifestyle that you do on the outside looking in. That is the most painful part.

Sometimes we read things on others Facebook posts that were not necessarily meant for us but the point is taken anyways.
Today was one of those days as I glanced upon my wall and saw a post about Motherless by Choice. It hit a nerve with me and hurt.

If I could be anywhere today just for a fleeting moment in time it would be to sit next to both of my daughters just for a few minutes of their busy lives.
To be able to give them a hug, a big kiss and tell them that I truly do love them. How proud I am of them and their success in life.

I know that there are scars in the past life and that they hold them tight. My heart aches over this and you can’t go back and erase time or get a redo.

Life is a learning curve. We learn from our mistakes. We get stronger as we get older and we learn what not to do again.

I have asked forgiveness and was not allowed to have it. From that one must go one with life. It does not help the pain.

As I sit here and shed tears it does no good. I realize this. Only a head ache will occur.

Just a few minutes to hug my grand children would feel so good. I am not getting any younger and I know that my health is not getting any better either.
These past few years have really taken a toll on me and as I reflect back it is useless to comprehend on what could have been different. It can’t change now.

Little do they know that my heart is always with them and that my thoughts follow them through their journey of life. Even if it is only on Facebook or an occasional text.

Perhaps some day things will be different. I pray every night that God will soften the pain for all three of us.

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