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Monday, May 22, 2017

Rue the Day (original version)

2195

“Your life
is not what you imagined it to be.”

These were words spoken by a subordinate
to her superior officer, Captain Dar of the Osprey,
a Space Corps ship of the line stationed at the border of Danab space.The speaker was Porto, Dar’s first officer,
an Omoxian who like all Omoxians lacked humility.She felt free to speak her mind, besides, at
the request of her captain, who encouraged such candor, and sat amused
listening to another of Porto’s diatribes as a result.They were debating the merit of a being of
apparent limitless power, calling itself Tenru, which had appeared in the
command center of the Osprey earlier
that day, proclaiming that it was in fact the very reason Dar was captain of
the ship.Dar was a Danab, a true rarity
of the Space Corps, as the Danab were traditionally enemies of the
organization, but she didn’t wear the traditional helm of her people, and so
her rueful expression was plain for Porto to see. They both understood that Porto was in essence
agreeing with this being’s claims.

“Unfortunately I don’t have the luxury of
believing such things,” Dar said.She
relaxed against a terminal other captains would’ve outfitted as a desk.The Osprey,
like other Space Corps ships, sat idle amidst the stars, waiting for orders
that never seemed to come, its crew ever anxious for something to do, except
fight in a war of course.That was why
most of its complement had other assignments, such as Belano, the human who
specialized as a cultural analyst, and who stood off to the side of this
exchange, equally bemused as his captain.His fondest ambition was to be a writer.

“I’m sure no one is arguing that you ought
to, Captain,” he said.

To Belano’s right stood the perennially
anxious Sidel, another human, a security officer who was there mostly to keep
tabs on the ship’s more official guest, the Tikanni ambassador Lord Phan, who
was presently resting in his quarters.Sidel was known to harbor ulterior motives,
and wasn’t generally trusted by anyone, but his role was also essential and so
he had to be humored at all times.

“Porto isn’t suggesting that we accept
Tenru’s assertions at face value,” he said.

Across the room stood Madam Nordica, a
Puck whose role as science officer didn’t necessarily require her more
elaborate side projects, most of which made everyone nervous, especially the
ones some of them thought intersected only too well with the kind of power
Tenru had so casually demonstrated earlier, projects like studying time and
space itself.

“I think he’s pretty interesting,” she
said.

Also absent from the room was Stuart
Everest, the crewman doing the piloting, but everyone knew he had a huge crush
on Madam Nordica, and so what he
would’ve said would have come as no surprise, had he been present.

“I didn’t ask for comments,” Porto
continued.“Captain, this is a dangerous
situation.We know from the ship’s
records that this being has appeared before, seventy years ago, aboard the Virox.We all know what happened to that ship’s crew.We have to take this threat seriously.We have to formulate a response, a decisive
one, and unfortunately I think it begins by limiting your role in events.You are already a wildcard.Tenru suggests that if it weren’t for him,
you wouldn’t even be captain.Since we
all have memories of our service under you, we have to operate under the
assumption that either he’s lying or this is already an alternate reality, and
if that’s the case, that he may have done what he did for a reason, one that is
potentially a threat to the whole Space Corps.”

“I’m afraid she’s right about that,” said
Belano.Of the crew he was Dar’s closest
ally, or at least the one she trusted the most.“This puts us all in a tough spot.”

“I don’t have the luxury of basing my
decisions on guesswork,” Dar said.“That
wasn’t why I was given command of a starship.We can’t exactly take everyone we encounter at face value.Our first duty is to uphold our ideals, which
we’ve often found to clash with those of others.He obviously has an ulterior motive, but it’s
my job to make sure we don’t play into it.I’m not stepping down, not today and not tomorrow.Sorry, Porto.You know I value your council, but not on this one.”

Everyone in that room was thinking the
same thing, and Dar knew it: she was a Danab in a world where the Danab were
the bad guys, and she was asking them to forget that.

“You’ll understand if we hesitate,” Sidel
said.

“Of course,” Dar said.“I’d hardly respect you if you didn’t.A good captain expects her crew to do nothing
less.”

“I for one am glad you’re captain,” Madam Nordica said.She let out a slight chuckle, but no one much
paid attention, because Puck were known for that sort of behavior.

“None of us mean to suggest anything
less,” Belano said.

“Certainly not,” Sidel said, though few in
the room found the words convincing.

“Captain,” Porto said, hesitating before
continuing, knowing how the room had shifted against her in the last few
minutes.“Captain, you know I support
you.I hope you don’t consider this a
personal attack, but I don’t think the best of intentions are important at the
moment.We all saw what he could
do.We know he made some of the crew
disappear and then appear again, and for a moment every one of us forgot they
ever existed.I know it’s difficult for me to reconcile such an experience,
knowing I had memories ripped from me, and then returned, knowing they were taken.This isn’t something I can just forget.Omoxians have long memories, too long sometimes.We value them.Fifty years from now I will remember that
moment, that void, as clearly as I
remember it now.That’s frightening.To anyone who didn’t experience it, who’ll
just hear about it as just some adventure,
it won’t mean anything, but it means a great deal to me.How am I supposed to reconcile that with what Tenru says about you?That’s what I’m saying, Captain.Even if it’s not for my own peace of mind, I contend that your stepping
down, even if ceremoniously, is the right call.”

“But a minute ago that’s exactly what you
said,” Porto said.“You insisted that
Space Corps exists to uphold its ideals.But what is that but a case for doubt?Aren’t ideals something we put forward when we don’t really have
anything better to say?Isn’t that
working doubt?It’s such a nebulous
mandate.It can mean anything.Which is to say, doubt.”

“You’re becoming a philosopher,” Dar said.

“Hold on,” Belano said.“I want to write some of that down…”If anyone else had made that remark, it
would’ve been taken as a joke.

“I appreciate your stance, Porto, but I
can’t run a ship that way,” Dar said.“It’d be downright reckless of me.I’d be stripped of my command first chance brass got.”

“Maybe so,” Porto said.“As I said, it wouldn’t even have to be
official, just something we did for show, for Tenru’s benefit.”

“Not acceptable,” Dar said.The way she said it made everyone in the room
aware that it was the final word in the discussion.They began filing out, until it was just Dar
and Porto, and then even Porto left, reluctantly.That was when Tenru appeared again, right in
front of the captain.

***

“I’ve just
taken your pawn off the board,” Tenru said.Physically, he looked like any other humanoid, actually much like any
other human, as did the Danab, which meant as did Captain Dar.

“I beg your pardon?” she said, practically
choking.

“Belano, the would-be-writer,” Tenru said, lacing the last few words with
sarcasm.“You’ll find he’s quite
indisposed at the moment.Ask your pet
Puck if you don’t believe me.She’ll say
he’s fallen into an inexplicable coma state, but I can assure you I’ve placed
him into deep meditation.He’ll emerge
with more than a few good ideas for stories.Pity he’ll only spoil them.”

Dar, still leaning against her command
terminal, tapped the communications link and called for Madam Nordica to
confirm.

“Fascinating,” Nordica replied.“Whatever he’s done, he’s once again
appearing to tell the truth.”

“Appearing,”
Tenru said, sounding hurt.“Appearing.I’ll show her.Want to know her real name?I can make it so
that you’ll never have known anything different.”

“So you said about the captain of the Virox,” Dar said.“So you say about me as well, it seems, in a
manner of speaking.”

“I suppose that’s true,” Tenru said.“It never pays to do the same trick
twice.Lesson learned.I’m proud of you, Captain!”

“Save it,” Dar said.“What do you really want?”

“I want what gods have always wanted,”
Tenru said.“I want unquestioning
devotion.No, that’s not right.I want to screw around with the insignificant
lives of mortals, of course!”

“You may think sarcasm suits you,” Dar
said.“You’d be wrong.”

“Everything suits me, Captain,” Tenru
said.“That’s kind of the point.I truly have unlimited potential.Modesty, however, is not my best virtue,
although I doubt I can be blamed for it.”

“I’m not going to play your games,” Dar
said.“I’m Danab.Regardless of what you’ve attempted to
insinuate, I earned my place in the Corps, and it wasn’t easy, and by that
virtue I can assure you that I know what I’m talking about.Even if it were conjured from your bag of parlor tricks, the results still
speak for themselves.Reality however
gained must still be reconciled by each observer.My crew respects me even when they disagree
with me.How do you explain that?”

“You play by rules you fashion on the
spot,” Tenru said.“Whoever said your
perceptions have any merit?A dream is
still a dream.Your thoughts may be the
plaything of some celestial child you’ve never even conceived, let alone the
likes of me.”

“And just what are you?” Dar said.“A madman with delusions of grandeur, as far
as I can tell.I don’t fear you.You’ve already played your hand.If my life is a lie, then the lie speaks for
itself, too.Isn’t that so?”

“That’s in truth why I do this sort of
thing, every now and again,” Tenru said.“The humanoid predilection for unearned hubris.I assure you, it’s amusing.But I don’t have to stand here listening to
this.Let your Mister Belano explain it
himself.”

Tenru vanished as easily as he’d appeared,
and in his place stood a visibly befuddled Belano.“I’m sorry, Captain, what just happened?” he asked.

“I was hoping you could answer that for
me,” Dar said.“That’s what our guest
was just telling me.But first, can you
explain what you just experienced?I was
told you were in some sort of trance?”

“It was like nothing I had experienced
before, honestly,” Belano said.“It’s
hard to describe.One minute I was
leaving an incredibly frustrating and to be frank downright mutinous officers meeting,
and the next…I’ve never taken recreational drugs, but I’m given to understand
that maybe what I saw is something users might know well enough.I became a writer because I was able to
access that feeling all on my own, thank you very much.I hated every second of it.I lost all control.It’s one thing when a story does it, but
another when there’s no obvious agent, no obvious point, nothing obvious at
all.Just a bad trip.I wish I could explain it better.It was as if my mind were stuck on a single
thought, and that thought was utter nonsense.”

“That’s all right,” Dar said.“I can sympathize.One conversation with Tenru is a thousand,
and they’re all the same.Just a lot of
preposterous posturing.I don’t need
that in my life.I have enough headaches
as it is.Did you know that a
traditional Danab helm actually serves partially as an environmental
purifier?It helps you breathe.There are days I sorely regret giving mine
up.Not for the reasons some would assume.All this business about what Tenru supposedly
did…I can’t abide it.All my instincts rebel against it.It’s my duty.Yet I still can’t help think…”

“That Porto was right,” Belano said.“Damn.Right.”

“To lose everything I’ve achieved based on
some idiot prank,” Dar said.“Only
yesterday it would’ve been unthinkable.The trouble we ask for…They don’t prepare you for this.You’d think they would, but they don’t.Doesn’t any of the experience of our
predecessors count for anything?”

“It wouldn’t surprise me,” Belano
said.“The more power someone has, the
more they’re willing to abuse it.History says that much.”

“He said you’d be able to explain it,” Dar
said.

“Think it’s over?” Belano asked.

“Not by a long shot,” Dar said.“Unfortunately.”

“I’d love to know what our Tikanni guest
thinks about all this,” Belano said.“They’re all so mysterious.I’m
almost afraid to know.”

“That man hasn’t spoken a word to me since
he came aboard,” Dar said.“That should
tell you something.Doubtless he’s not
even curious.But something about the
previous encounter with Tenru intrigued me, when I researched it.Lord Phan was present then, too.”

“Think there’s a connection?” Belano said.

“Only one way to find out,” Dar said.

***

Stuart
Everest was keenly aware of the fact that in the grand scheme of things, he was
a more or less inessential presence aboard the Osprey.He’d enlisted into
the Corps, which meant that whatever responsibilities he’d ever get, it would
always be over things and not people.Some people are okay with that.Stuart wasn’t.He was embarrassed
about how things had turned out for him, and yet he was hard-pressed to come up
with a way for his life to have been any better.His parents and their parents and so on and
so forth had never left Earth.His was
one of the very few families that could say that in the 22nd
century, with a new one clear on the horizon, a long distance off from first
contact with aliens and the subsequent rapid advancement in technology and
prospects…for everyone else, anyway.Stuart was keenly aware of the fact that he grew up with gadgets several
generations old.When his peers in
school were playing their favorite games using the latest holography, he had to
force a grin when he unpacked actual boards on camping trips.He knew he was the laughing stock of the
class, and that was the worst part, the absolute certainty of a life that was
meaningless before it had even had a chance to become established.He paid little attention to those who
attempted to convince him otherwise.He
knew what it was like to have been left behind in the steady forward march of
civilization, and to have had no one really care.

So he enlisted in the Corps, which was
really his only option, the same as countless others before him.At least he wasn’t risking himself in some
godforsaken military outpost, as his forebears had.The Space Corps was not a military
organization, even though basic training encompassed readiness to act as such,
because space had been revealed as another untamed wilderness, in which the
hunters were rampant and the prey ripe for the picking.Earth knew all about that, thanks to the
Danab.Allies were few and tenuous at
best, whether or not a whole Galactic Alliance could be taken at face
value.Stuart considered himself a
studied cynic, and with good reason.

So when he heard about what the officers
had been discussing about the terrifying entity that had invaded the ship, how
they were talking about Captain Dar stepping down, Stuart immediately started
to worry.People like him were always
the ones to lose in a power struggle.Norda, that is Madam Nordica (she never seemed to mind his horrible
attempts at wooing her), had been the one to tell him; of course she was.He’d been manning the navigation post as
usual (all but automated, of course), when he became aware that she was
standing behind him.Her short stature,
even when viewed from a seated position, nearly made him overlook her for the
hundredth time as Stuart swiveled round to see who was there.

“It’s okay, Stu,” Nordica said.“I didn’t mean to startle you.”

“Oh, you’re fine,” Stuart said.“Just on edge, I guess.”

“You have every right to be,” she
said.“I suppose you’re hardly the first
person to find out what goes on around here.Must be particularly unsettling with something like Tenru making the
news.Listen, I wanted to tell you,
there’s been chatter, about our other
guest.Lord Phan.The Tikanni.”

Stuart could hardly keep all the aliens
straight.Aliens had been on Earth for
generations, too, of course, but he’d hardly ever seen any, which he was forced
to admit was probably why he had a crush on the pixyish Puck standing beside
him now.The Tikanni…they were supposed
to be one of the big shots of the early Alliance days, he vaguely
remembered.Beyond that, he knew what
everyone knew about them, that they were the physical pattern the Danab had
modeled their armor after.That meant
one thing to someone like Stuart, and that was that he associated the Tikanni
with Captain Dar, who had always made him vaguely uneasy.She looked basically like just another human,
except she wasn’t.He would’ve wanted to
die before admitting how much he was attracted to her.He practically died of
embarrassment every time she looked at him, much less addressed him…The Danab
were sort of perfect human specimens, weren’t they?Thank god
they usually wore the armor…

“Anyway, that’s not the worst of it,”
Nordica continued, before lowering her voice, keenly aware that they were not
alone, and that the person she was about to talk about was not ten feet away,
even if Porto were distracted with other matters, discussing things with Sidel,
the same things.“Our Omoxian thinks the
captain and Lord Phan are in league with one another.She not only wants Dar to relinquish command,
but for the Tikanni ambassador to be thrown off the ship.But you didn’t hear it from me.”

Stuart felt his cheeks grow flush, for a
change not because of how he felt about Norda but because he’d been having the
same thoughts, apparently, as Porto, and it was infrequent enough that their thoughts overlapped.“You don’t say,” he managed.

Stuart said nothing in reply.For the second time in the span of minutes,
he’d been taken unawares by the sudden presence of an interloper, the being
Tenru himself, who appeared between a startled Porto and Sidel.

“I’m sorry,” the being said.“I seem to have come at a bad time.It’s bad form to show your head when
everyone’s talking about you.If it
makes you feel any better, I confess to have implanted the ideas you’ve been
entertaining.I know, I know.As I’ve been told recently, I keep playing the same hand, and what’s worse, it’s
becoming all too obvious.”

At this, Tenru gave Stuart a meaningful
look, or at least that was how Stuart took it, although he had no idea how to
interpret it.Actually, as he thought
more about it, the being seemed more sad than cunning in that moment, but no
one else seemed to notice.Sidel
actually raised a blaster at Tenru, but it quickly disappeared from his hand.Porto raised both hands in some gesture
Stuart was equally incapable of interpreting, perhaps some Omoxian signal of
which he was entirely ignorant.Or
perhaps some ability?He’d never even
considered the possibility.He read
comic books as a kid; somehow he’d never really thought about any of those
aliens possessing…superpowers.Tenru
certainly, unequivocally, had powers, and Stuart found himself terrified more
than anything.He backed away, left his
post, left the command center, didn’t even think twice about it…He never even
gave Norda a second thought.

As he made his way through the corridors,
Stuart tried to clear his thoughts, and at any rate wasn’t paying attention to
his surroundings, and so for a third time within a span of minutes he was
surprised by someone.By the Tikanni,
Lord Phan.The man was imposing, all
right.Stuart had assumed he was without
having been given a single clue about his appearance, aside from the obvious.Somehow he gave off an aged impression, but
Stuart couldn’t even begin to guess how old the Tikanni might be.

“Pardon,” was all the Tikanni said.

“Where the hell are you going?” Stuart
found himself yelling, before he could help it.“The god thing is in that direction.If you have any sense at all you’ll get as far away from it as you can,
like I am.”

“Child, I have experience with such
things,” Lord Phan said.And Stuart
believed him.

The Tikanni continued on his way to the
command center, and Stuart continued hurriedly in the opposite direction.He didn’t even care anymore.He was ready to quit the Space Corps.He couldn’t imagine what Captain Dar might be
thinking, defying a being like Tenru.He
never thought he’d side with Porto, much less Sidel.He hated them both.

A fourth time…Stuart turned around and saw
Belano, the would-be writer, the cultural analyst, whatever he wanted to be
called, and was immediately aware, and surprised, to find that they were headed
in the same direction.How had Belano
caught up with him?

“Sorry, sir,” Stuart said, an apology the
first thing on his lips, thinking he was in Belano’s way.He had traveled so far past panic at this
point he had lapped himself.

“Actually, you were just the man I was
looking for,” Belano said.

“I am?”Stuart started to sweat.

“We have a lot to discuss,” Belano
continued.

“Do you mind if I faint first?”

***

2121

It was late
in the night when Melody May realized that her name was no longer her own.This she understood, but for the life of her
she couldn’t remember what it had once been. That…thing had warned them that it would do
something like this.What was its name?

Tenru.He’d accompanied the Tikanni ambassador, Lord
Phan, on a supposedly innocent diplomatic mission on behalf of the
Bith-mari.Melody was captain of the Virox, a Space Corps ship of the
line.The Bith-mari had good standing in
the Alliance, and even had some of its kind serving in the Corps.Melody was aware of one particular officer in
good standing, working alongside Jacques Mendez.Mendez didn’t have to worry about the likes
of Tenru, Melody found herself thinking, not for the first time that
night.She ordered the lights in her
cabin on, half expecting to find the being sitting there watching her.She suppressed a shudder, not for the first
time that day.

Tenru and Lord Phan had met them at Riva,
where the crew was to conduct a survey mission as a mere formality.No one expected to find anything of note
there, except their forthcoming visitors, who had business of their own
there.Melody supposed that she
should’ve known what that business was ahead of time, but that was
hindsight.There was nothing on Riva to
see, except the two strange individuals the Tikanni later claimed had gone
there for the very isolated nature of the planet that otherwise made it so
insignificant in the grand scheme of things, except as a battlefield in one of
the Vendaran wars no one particularly found to be of any note, as there were so
many Vendaran wars even the Vendarans probably lost count a long time ago.Supposedly Tenru had wanted a place he could
really let loose, which was how Lord Phan had described it.Again, no one bothered to find out exactly
what that meant until it was too late.

Melody had gone to the planet’s surface
along with Eddo, her Omoxian first officer, and one of the crewmen.Before they left, Melody hadn’t even bothered
to learn his name, which was to become her life’s greatest regret.His was the first life she ever lost under
her command.The name became emblazoned
into her memory from that point forward.Somehow she’d placed more emphasis on Eddo’s kid sister, Porto, who had
been shadowing her for the past few weeks, still unsure as to whether or not
the Corps was for her.The first thought
Melody had had, when it happened, was that thank god it hadn’t been her.To her everlasting shame.

Melody and her team exited their
shuttlepod to a bleak landscape only dreamers would’ve loved.At first they weren’t sure that they had
landed at the right coordinates.There
was nothing around for miles, or so it seemed.Eddo was the first to spot Tenru and Lord Phan, tiny specks on the
horizon.She suggested it was good
enough for the purposes of their survey, and so they all took out their
scanners.The crewman seemed nervous; he
was the only one brave enough to show it.They could hear loud cracks reverberate in the atmosphere, which were
easy to dismiss as some form of local weather that only needed later
examining.Melody took another look in
the direction of their forthcoming guests, and thought that perhaps they were
fighting.She could see the distinctive
glow of a psiglaive, projected out of the hand of the Tikanni.It was common knowledge that their species
had mastered the art of that unique blade.That should have been her first warning.Instead, she nodded at Eddo, and together they continued their
scans.The crewman held back behind
them.

Her communications patch beeped.It was her security officer, Slone.“Anything wrong down there?” his voice called
out.“We’re reading some nasty stuff
going on.Just flared out before you
touched down.Mister Homage says there’s
the real possibility of a fight.Northup
concurs.I really wish you’d taken me
with you.”

Homage was their Puck science officer, who
was directing the survey from the ship, where he could analyze the data in
real-time.Northup was their cultural
analyst.

“Captain, I think one of our guests has
powers we didn’t know about,” Northup’s voice chimed in.“Could be god-level.The only thing that could prove a real
challenge for a Tikanni.”

“There was nothing about that in the
briefing,” Melody said.

“Such details are often omitted,” Eddo
said.

“Yeah,” the crewman added.“The important
stuff.”

Melody tried to hide her annoyance.She’d always believed that crewmen were the
most expendable personnel aboard starships.Another thing she’d regret.“Let’s…move forward.They’re
still our guests for the next few weeks, aren’t they?”

“Captain, I won’t let harm come to you,”
Eddo said.Omoxians were so far along
the evolutionary ladder, Melody had no doubt her first officer had a few tricks
up her sleeve, too.Suddenly she was
keen to find them out.

As they got closer, it was apparent that
Tenru was winning the fight, although it wasn’t clear how, since unlike Lord
Phan he was unarmed.That didn’t stop
him from parrying all of the Tikanni’s sword thrusts.The effect was mesmerizing, like watching a
pantomime with real stakes.There was no
reason to believe either combatant was taking it easy on their opponent.They expected a victor.In all her life, Melody had never seen a
Tikanni so vulnerable.That was when she
began to feel fear, or at least allow herself to acknowledge it.Her hand hovered over the communications
patch, almost willing it to contact Slone for her.She closed the gap between herself and Eddo.

The instant Tenru became aware of their
presence, he quit the contest, and Lord Phan followed suit in short order. They each bowed toward Melody, and that was
the first time anyone had done that to her, let alone two people.Her anxiety became bafflement.

That was, in hindsight, the exact moment
her name changed forever.“Captain May,”
Tenru said in greeting.“Melody.So glad to meet you.”

If anyone had been surprised by the name,
they didn’t let it register.She herself
had a moment, a split instant of confusion, but then accepted it as fact.“My crew was impressed with your display,”
she said in reply.

“You haven’t seen anything yet,” Tenru
said.“Lord Phan here has been a worthy
foe, but I’m looking for a new challenge.”

Melody was grateful, nodding her approval,
aware of how eager her first officer seemed.But the fight never happened.Tenru scoffed at Eddo, and instead turned his attention on the crewman,
who immediately vanished from the face of the planet.

“Penalty,” was all Tenru said, at
first.Then he shook hands with Lord
Phan, who did not offer his assent to what had just occurred, before turning
back to Melody.“Bring me to your ship.”

It must have been something he did with
his mind, making her overlook the disappearance of the crewman, what she
understood even then to have been his death, because that was exactly what she
did.Eddo was visibly upset, but that
was her prerogative, right?It was Melody’s
to make command decisions, surely.They
all entered the shuttlepod minutes later, minus the crewman, and Tenru insisted
on being shown his quarters when they returned to the Virox.

Hours later, only beginning to realize how
much Tenru had already violated the basic rules of reality, she sat awake in
the middle of the night, and remembered something much more important, the name
of the crewman, and shuddered violently.

Stuart
Everest.

***

What had and
hadn’t happened, what had and hadn’t been said, had already become a problem to
keep straight.Melody fought through the
mental fog and reached for her communications link beside the bed.“Captain May to Slone,” she began.“I need to know what you and Northup have
come up with concerning our guest.”

“Captain?” Slone’s voice called out,
filled with uncertainty Melody had never heard from it.“I’m sorry, what were you asking?”

“Our guest,” she said, agitation creeping
in.“What have you found out?”

But Slone’s voice didn’t respond again.She tried Northup directly.Then Mister Homage.Then Eddo, although she knew her first
officer was in deep meditation at that hour.No responses from anyone.

“Captain May,” the voice of Lord Phan
called out.Now Melody was becoming
frightened.“I’ve taken the liberty of
inspecting your ship this evening, and I believe I may have some unpleasant
answers for you.For one, you may look
out your port window.”

She did as requested.The stars were spiraling.The
ship was spiraling.There was no one
at navigation.Now she was becoming
perturbed.She quickly slipped into a
uniform and went to investigate.Someone
was going to be in trouble.Her mind
drifted to the crewman she’d lost.The
last job he’d done aboard ship was acting as pilot, a job no one took
seriously.It was far too routine in a
starship as sophisticated as the Virox.

Along the way, she encountered Mister
Homage, who seemed to be in a daze.Melody walked right past him.When she reached the command center, Melody saw Slone staring blankly
ahead, apparently worse off than the Puck.Although he wasn’t looking at anything, in front of him was Lord Phan,
and Tenru.Lord Phan had his psiglaive
extended, although it wasn’t pointed at the man he had been dueling earlier on
Riva.It rested absently at his side.

“Everyone onboard, except for myself and
you, has had their intelligence reduced to nil by Tenru,” he said, calmly.“I expect he knew he couldn’t affect me.You, on the other hand.”

“Damn,” Melody said.She noticed that Tenru seemed mesmerized by
the empty navigation station, as if he’d overheard her thoughts about the
suddenly absent pilot, Stuart Everest.

“It never occurred to me,” he said.For a while he didn’t continue the
thought.“That man might have been
something important.This was going to
be nothing but fun and games, you understand, and it was, for a brief moment,
and then I thought, that man might have been something important.I heard you think it, and then I looked back
and saw that man’s whole life.I mean, I
really looked.Do you know what I mean?”

For a split instant, Melody could swear
that she wasn’t looking at Tenru at all, but Stuart Everest.She no longer knew what was real and what
wasn’t.

“I would advise you to leave the command
center at once,” Lord Phan said.“I will
deal with Tenru myself.”

“No,” Melody said, absently.“That’s okay.I’m the captain of this ship.For
what other reason but situations like this?No, I’m not leaving.”

The Tikanni offered no further reply.He switched off the psiglaive.It vanished from his hand completely.Melody found fury building within her.

“Get off my ship,” she found herself
saying to Tenru, a being of limitless power, who had already ably demonstrated
it.Had she lost her mind?

“I think I will, actually,” Tenru
said.And then he vanished, too.Not like Stuart Everest, but all the same he
was gone, just like that.Melody and
Lord Phan exchanged looks, and then she started sobbing.The Tikanni said nothing.

Slone sparked back to life the next
instant, and then a minute or two later, Eddo entered the command center,
followed somewhat irregularly by her sister Porto, who seemed to have been
crying, too.

“What just happened?” Eddo demanded.

“I don’t understand…” Porto said, to no
one in particular, still sobbing lightly.There was no clear way to know what she was talking about.She didn’t even seem to be aware that her
older sister was still there beside her.

“She’ll have to go,” Melody said,
softly.Eddo assented, and nodded to her
sister.Only Slone seemed not to notice
the dagger in the room.

“Whatever it was,” he said, “He’s really
gone.I’ll write up a full report.I think that’s the only thing that’s going to
happen next.”

Melody watched as Lord Phan left the
command center.She felt vaguely that
she should stop him, but knew with certainty that he had had nothing to do with
Tenru’s actions, that he was likely the only reason things hadn’t been worse,
and sooner.Wasn’t he just an
ambassador?She made a mental note to
look up his profile later, but never did.

“Sounds good,” she said.“I’ll…go back to my quarters.Eddo, I hope you don’t mind if I ask you to
stay.”

As she settled back into bed, later,
Melody again felt the nagging suspicion, about her name, about what had been
lost so easily.No, not just about her
name.About Stuart Everest.And whatever it was that had happened to him,
and to Tenru.She suspected that it was
Tenru who had lost the most in this encounter…

***

2195

“I don’t
understand,” Stuart said.

After their talk, Belano had brought him
to see Captain Dar, who by then had fully briefed herself on Melody May’s
encounter with Tenru.Stuart had never
had a conversation with the captain, naturally, and felt vaguely that it was
wrong under any circumstances for
that to change now.

“What does this mean?” he continued.“Am I the same man?Am I the Stuart Everest who served under
Captain May?”

“I believe I can answer that,” Tenru said,
blinking back into existence before the little group.None of them seemed surprised anymore.Just prior to this, the being had encountered
Lord Phan one more time.Again the
Tikanni raised his weapon at Tenru, and again they clashed, and Tenru was
astonished.“Just how long do you expect
to live, anyway?”

“Long enough,” Lord Phan had replied.His opponent sensing the futility of the
encounter, vanished again, only to appear before Dar once more.Then he whisked her away, along with Stuart
Everest.

At first Dar was confused, unable to
comprehend her surroundings.Then Stuart
piped up.“This is Apogee,” he said,
nervously.“An Omoxian colony claimed by
the Danab during the Correlian War.A
lot of lives were lost here.I was
always told it was cursed.I don’t like
being here, Captain.”

“I don’t understand,” Dar said.

“Naturally,” Tenru said.“You don’t remember ever being here, of
course.That was your old life.The one I took away from you.The least you could’ve showed me was a little
gratitude, but I suppose it’s my lot in life.Such as it were.Do someone a favor…”

“I’m afraid that’s not good enough,” Dar
said, crossing her arms.“I don’t abide
riddles.You’re going to have to explain
exactly what you mean.”

“Look around you,” Tenru said.“What do you see?”

“The same as on any other world conquered
by the Danab,” Dar said.“The bones of a
previous civilization crudely covered over.All plant life gone.Military
barracks as far as the eye can see.A
scorched earth.A bad place to live.”

“Precisely,” Tenru said.“A very thorough analysis indeed.That’s the kind of thinking that won you
command of a starship, my good lady.”

“But more importantly,” Dar said slowly,
trying to maintain her cool, “what does it have to do with me?”

“A bee does not require the belief of a
fish to pollinate,” Tenru said.“All I
can do is show you; the rest is up to you.”

Dar and Stuart Everest then began to watch
time unfold, at first rewind and then move forward, so that nothing was
omitted.They saw everything.They saw the Omoxians come to Apogee, already
at the apex of their evolution, bringing their light to a dim world.They saw plants spring forth from the ground,
a miracle of terraforming.They saw
magnificent architecture rise into the very atmosphere.They saw Tikanni, Vanadi, and Vitell come
here, the Welborn, the Bith-mari, all of them, even the Puck, taking their
little recording devices and stealing as much inspiration as possible, as they
always did.They saw the Hesslans come,
they saw the Vendarans.They saw the
first Danab troops.They saw hellish
fighting.They saw the Omoxians leave
Apogee behind forever.They saw the
Danab carve themselves into the planet.They
saw a young mother walking idly, a look of worry on her face.They saw a little girl walking alongside the same
woman.They saw the girl grow, until she
unmistakably resembled Dar.They saw Dar
in utter isolation from the rest of her people, the Danab.They saw the look of defeat on her face.They saw what no one in recorded history had
ever seen: they saw a Danab cry.They
saw her, when she thought no one was watching, rage in utter impotence against
the universe.They saw her growing
older.They saw her utterly
defeated.They saw a lonely grave.

And Dar was convinced.But the show had not yet ended.They saw Tenru visit the grave, the one
visitor ever.They saw Tenru raise the
other Dar from the grave.They saw Tenru
and the other Dar converse, but they did not hear what was said.They saw the other Dar fall to the scarred
earth again.And they saw Tenru vanish.

“What happened to Stuart?” Dar
demanded.She was angry now.

“Nothing,” Tenru said.“Everything.I confess I don’t know.When he
was taken off the board, as it were, when he was still just a lowly crewman on
a ship called the Virox, I
transplanted him, body and soul, to a new life, as a lowly crewman on a ship
called the Osprey.All I did was convince everyone that he
belonged, and he was accepted, just as he was.Accepted, should I say, as a
nothing.Which is to say, nothing at
all.I never understood how you claimed
to value life, but let life be neglected so easily.Humanoids.”

“I recognize no claim on your part that
allows you to judge us,” Dar said.

“Typical,” Tenru said.“I expected better of you.That’s why I gave you a second chance.”

“I believe you’re nothing but a liar,” Dar
said.

“Said the fish to the bee,” Tenru said.

“Stop the ride,” Stuart said.“I want to get off.”

“What did you say?” Tenru asked,
astonishment in his voice.

“I said…” Stuart begin.

“Yes, yes, yes,” Tenru said.“I know what you said.But you finally said it!I’ve been waiting a very long time for those
words.You’ve no idea!”

***

“I think I
know what’s going on here,” Dar said.

“Pray tell,” Tenru said.

“You don’t understand us at all,” Dar
said.

“I believe I just said that,” Tenru
replied.

“What I mean is,” Dar said, “all this, all
your nonsense, whether you yourself believe, whether you expect us to believe it, it’s all because you
don’t understand us, but you want to.This is some kind of test.I never did abide unethical behavior in the
sciences, and this takes it to a whole new level.”

“You have no idea what you’re talking
about,” Tenru said.“You don’t even know
where to begin!I’ll have to show you,
again.”

They were transported, all three of them,
one more time.When they materialized
again, there were only two, Dar and Tenru.The captain thought to herself, that’s about right.

But then she saw where they were, and it
was on Earth, in Copenhagen, on the grounds of the Space Corps Academy, where
she herself had studied what now seemed a lifetime ago.A
lifetime ago…There was another mother, a human one this time, walking the
grounds, pregnant and about ready to give birth, by the looks of her.Dar couldn’t be sure; she’d never studied
human birth.There was still much to her
that was purely Danab.There was so much
that was the same, but they were also worlds apart.At any rate, the mother-to-be was talking to
herself, but more likely to her unborn baby.Dar wasn’t sure, but she thought she heard her say…Stuart?

“I’ll make things right,” she was
saying.“You’ll have the life I never
did.You’ll make something of
yourself.You’ll be here as a cadet, not
just a visitor.You’ll…”

There was just time to see her begin to
cry when time accelerated to a hospital room.A doctor was standing beside the woman, looking grim.

“I’m sorry,” he was saying.“We did everything we could.Please accept my deepest condolences.”

Later, alone, the woman was crying again
when she suddenly felt something move within her.Just above her, although she herself didn’t
see it, hovered Tenru, a separate Tenru.The other was still standing beside Dar; she checked, twice, to make
sure.A deep glow emitted from the woman
in that moment, and then the second Tenru vanished.Dar watched as the woman gave birth, and then
saw as the child, Stuart Everest, grew.There
were instances when she thought she saw Tenru instead of Stuart.And then she understood.

They were alone again, back in Dar’s
quarters.She fought back tears.“I don’t understand,” she said.

“I had to know,” Tenru said.“There was only one way to find out.”

“He was you,” Dar said.“All along.”

“Something like that,” Tenru said.“Don’t look at me like that!”

“Like what?” Dar asked.

“Like I’m a child,” Tenru said.“As if I need your pity.I assure you that I do not.Nothing of the kind.Nothing human.”

A chime rang and Dar realized they had a
visitor waiting to be seen.“Open,” she
said.Porto entered.She looked angry.

“Porto, as much as it pains me,” Dar
said.“Now is not the time.We’ll discuss it later.”

“If there is a later,” Porto said.“No
offense, Captain.”

“None taken,” Dar said.

“I don’t understand,” Tenru said.“How you can still act so casual about it.”

“Then you really didn’t learn anything,”
Dar said.“To be humanoid, it’s to
accept that even the bad things are worth it.Those who give in to despair have lost their ability to appreciate
that.They’ve lost themselves.We embrace the
bad with the good.There’s a balance
somewhere in there.It’s tricky to find,
but it’s there.Doesn’t make life any
easier.And it shouldn’t.”

“Even if I made you that girl,” Tenru said.

“I doubt you would,” Dar said.“If I’ve learned anything at all about you.”

“I walk away,” Tenru said.“That’s what I’d do.I’d just walk away.Wouldn’t I?Leave everything as I found it.So to speak.”

“I don’t understand,” Porto said.

“The Omoxians call it attaining hope,” Dar
said.“But then, your people haven’t had
any in a long time, have they?”

Porto didn’t say anything.

Dar turned back to Tenru, but he was no
longer there, and somehow she knew she wasn’t going to see him again.“Rue the day,” she said to herself.

“Sorry, Captain?” Porto said.

“Something my mother used to say,” Dar
said.“Nothing.Never mind.I honestly don’t know what to say about all this.Except maybe, you were right all along.I’ve lost perspective.I don’t deserve command of a starship.He had to explain everything…And I almost
didn’t believe him.What a fool I’ve
been…”

“No,” Porto said.

“The universe needs more people like you,
Porto,” Dar said.“Those who challenge.Those who don’t back down.You were knocked down.But you got back up.Not because of what anyone did for you.You just did.I always admired that about you.I
hope you knew that.I want you to know
that I’ll be recommending you take command of the ship.”

“Captain…” Porto said.

“I already made up my mind,” Dar
said.“I saw something…I can’t turn my
back on that.Somehow I’ve got to find
the strength.I’ve got to be better than
this.”

“Captain, you were the finest officer I
ever served with,” Porto said.“I mean
that.My sister would have been proud of
you.”

Belano entered the quarters.“Captain?” he said, and then he understood,
without needing anything explained.He
now knew everything.He gave his friend
a salute, and then he and Porto walked away, leaving Dar alone, crying.

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Tony wrote for the Academic Advocate while attending Lisbon High School (including the comic strip "Newsroom" his senior year) and the Maine Campus at the Univerity of Maine in Orono (in the form of a regular opinion column). He helped start up the literary journal Hemlock (at UMaine). He self-published The Cloak of Shrouded Men in 2007 and has released a number of other books in similar fashion since: Sapo Saga, Miss Simon's Brute, and Terrestrial Affairs among them. He has written for Lower Decks, Paperback Reader, and Examiner (features, reviews, and columns). He's maintained his Scouring Monk blog since 2002, and has been extending it into a network for the past few years.