Confused if this is depression...

I have just joined tonight and read so many threads and have cried and cried at some of the words that describe me so perfectly. Invalid, exhausted, me lost in my childhood - where am I now?
If I have depression - do I? - can I get it fixed with drugs - but thenthat won't get rid of the memories? Are bad memories and bad experiences that keep happening depression?

i have personally found that sinse i have spoken (to a therapist) and shared my memories they have come not to rule or control me anymore. they're such a little part of my life. way out of the scene actually (thank God). it's possible.

it's those memories that bring about depression. yes they most certainly can.

Hello Jeffca,
I don't have much more to add to what the others have told you. Can you give us a little bit more insight into what is happening with you. You can be assured that the forum is a great place to get things off your chest. No one knows who you are so please share with us.maybe someone here has the same problem you do and can help give you guidance?
Well I am here if you need to talk to someone, just PM me. Stay Safe and Stay Strong...:chopper:...

I can sence the way you feel about your mother. Is it possible to go live with some other family member? I honestly think you and mom need a break. Was she like this before your father passed? Maybe she needs to vent and get rid of some of the bad thoughts that are plagueing her. I finally broke down and mended things between my dad and me. He is in his late '70s and is in bad shape. he says he doesn't feel like he will be around much longer. Maybe you should sit down and have a one on one conversation.
As far as abortions I am a male so I can only imagine how you felt. I know my daughter has had one miscarriage and one abortion. I can only say we care here at the forum.
I have always been down on myself because I never finised high school and I found I always had to lie about it when applying for a job. I'm 51 now and set in my ways, I know school is not for me because I can't retain things that have been said to me, also I can't remeber things I have read. To me self esteem is something you have to work for. You are young and have plenty of time to turn things around.
I'm sorry to hear of your loss. Were you close to your dad? Maybe there are some material things he held on to, that you could get to give you the feeling that he is still with you. I hope I have helped just a little. Thats what you have to do to get by. Take little steps...:chopper:...