Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Jenny and I rented this last weekend. Great movie if you can get through the first few scenes. The first few scenes he is getting reacquainted with his high school friends and they are a bunch of stoners, but it is well worth it to hold out because the rest of the movie is great. I love these newer "romantic comedies" (Eternal Sunshine…) were the relationships have the weirdness and quarks of real life, not the fake sappiness of most movies labeled "romantic comedies".

Monday, January 17, 2005

I have been thinking, and reading a lot lately, I have gotten back into the bible on a daily bases again and its wonderful, but painful. I just wanted to share some of the things I have been struggling with.

I am begining to feel unrest in my soul, I want more, I want to want less. I want to be completely sold out to Christ I want to hold nothing back from Him and what He has for me to do on Earth. I am tired of holding things back from God, I am sick of justifying away my sins. I want to do all these things for Him instead of making myself look better. Who am I to think I deserve anything? What makes me think that I should be able to have a new car, or buy a house, or an iPod or a new computer? Who am I to think God needs to bless me with more then eternal salvation and a life with Him?

I rejoice that I am finally feeling unrest with my complacency; I pray that my unrest doesn't end. I feel guilty, prideful, arrogant, ignorant, angry, scared, and completely loved. Now comes the hard part, changing. Anyone want to join me? Atleast pray for me to be completly Christ centered, I want to have the faith that says "leave everything and follow me".