Important Things

Thursday, January 24

Started with crickets, ended with prayer

This evening I went over to a friend's new apartment, and we had spaghetti for dinner. A young couple came over and the guy cooked up a storm, while I got to know the girl, which was nice. (There has been a noticeable lack of female friendship in my life for way too long. The only long-term ones are either geographically far away or just "too busy"... more on that at a later date)But tonight I felt like "one of the gang", which has been forever since I felt like that. I brought the makings for root beer floats, which went over really well. My friend, "Dave", is going through a painful time, so many of the recovering community have been staying pretty close to him. I haven't known him for long, but I am continually struck by his willingness to talk about the pain and confusion he's walking through, and he keeps on keepin' on.A couple of other things stand out to me, too, but I'm not sure in what order. He's a few inches taller than me and really good at giving hugs; and he has had a serious spiritual awakening, and we are able to talk to one another on a deeply spiritual level. That doesn't happen very often.

I told him I was not interested in anything besides being his FRIEND. I know the last thing either of us needs is that. I care too much about him (and me) to muck things up like that. It would only be (WHATEVER), and it would be bad.After Shawn & Jasmine left, T came over. He seems to be the guy who rounds out the group. Kind of introspective, but also pretty witty. It's a close-knit group. as far as I can tell, and I just hope there can be a space made for me and mine in it.I felt like a sister hanging with "Dave" and another friend of ours, and that was very nice.Before T & I left, we 3 prayed together, and it was really, really good. T is much deeper than first appearances imply. I played a Joy Whitlock song for them called "Faith Don't Fail". It speaks to me in a big way

"I just wanna get this out, I wish I didn't know what I know. These memories are like hands around my throat. It's what keeps me in, it's what locks me out. Oh, faith don't fail me now."