Positive thoughts on my life.

02/24/2018

blessed

So...... I saw my mom yesterday and she said, "you"re so honest on your blog. Who woud have known? You always seem so happy!" Being content is a lot of work! I actually am pretty happy! I think winter just kind of sucks all the way around. I went to the doctor for a checkup recently because I wasn't feeling good. I have insomnia. My intestines were acting up. I thought for sure I had something fatal going on. The doctor ordered an extensive panel of bloodwork. When the results came back, she said, "you have the bloodwork of a 30 year old!" I'm perfectly healthy! Her advice was to get exercise every day, sweat 2 times a week and then she said, "what did you like to do as a kid?? do that!" I'm not sure what I enjoyed doing as a kid but I thought that was pretty good advice! A friend gave me another bit of solid advice......he said, "you need to learn to be happy just where you are at." I tend to want to figure things out. Have a direction and a goal to strive for......I am the queen of overthinking.....which leads to insomnia and poor gut health. I have to purposely take steps to keep a positive mindset. You know, like going to school! that was a good step for me and I'm looking forward to my new business! I love my classmates and the instructors and getting out of Perry and spending time in Lawrence twice a week. Tuesdays and Thursdays are my favorite days! I signed up for a class next Tuesday night that I'm super excited about. A lady who is a life coach is doing a class on achieving your dreams. I hope to be super motivated after that! I joined a gym! It hasn't opened yet but I'm excited about it. My doctor is opening a wellness center in Lawrence and the gym is part of that. I'm hoping to meet new people and be a part of the wellness group. I'm hoping to go and swim. I used to love to swim! I try to be thankful every day and start each day with a list of 5 things I'm thankful for. It's a nice habit. I love spending time with my grandsons. I'm thankful they live close by. You know? As I'm listing all this on here, I'm thinking I have it pretty darn good! It's Saturday afternoon. I haven't gotten out of bed today and I don't have to!! I don't have to do a damn thing and really it feels pretty good! You know what else feels good? Singing karoake. I sang the crap out of a song last night at the pub and I loved doing that. I have no idea what it sounded like to everyone else but it was liberating to let go and sing my heart out. Ive always wanted to be a motiviational speaker but I'm shy and afraid of speaking in public. Maybe karoake is the stepping stone to that career!! You never know!! I guess the peace comes from looking at the future with possibiities instead of fear. The Bible says in the book of Timothy that God did not give us a spirit of fear and timidity but of power and love and a sound mind. One of my goals for this year is to find a good church. One of my favorite things to do when I go visit Greg is to go to his church. It's so uplifing and pleasant! That would probably be the best thing for my soul to do! So I guess to my mom, I would have to say......I am honest on my blog! I like to share my deep thoughts but I'm happy too. I've been a lot happier lately focusing on the present moment and getting comfortable with my new life....alone with my dog. But really I'm not ever really alone. I have so many loving friends and family and I carry a lot of LOVE around in my heart from all of you! I'm just one blessed girl! THANK YOU!!!

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blessed

So...... I saw my mom yesterday and she said, "you"re so honest on your blog. Who woud have known? You always seem so happy!" Being content is a lot of work! I actually am pretty happy! I think winter just kind of sucks all the way around. I went to the doctor for a checkup recently because I wasn't feeling good. I have insomnia. My intestines were acting up. I thought for sure I had something fatal going on. The doctor ordered an extensive panel of bloodwork. When the results came back, she said, "you have the bloodwork of a 30 year old!" I'm perfectly healthy! Her advice was to get exercise every day, sweat 2 times a week and then she said, "what did you like to do as a kid?? do that!" I'm not sure what I enjoyed doing as a kid but I thought that was pretty good advice! A friend gave me another bit of solid advice......he said, "you need to learn to be happy just where you are at." I tend to want to figure things out. Have a direction and a goal to strive for......I am the queen of overthinking.....which leads to insomnia and poor gut health. I have to purposely take steps to keep a positive mindset. You know, like going to school! that was a good step for me and I'm looking forward to my new business! I love my classmates and the instructors and getting out of Perry and spending time in Lawrence twice a week. Tuesdays and Thursdays are my favorite days! I signed up for a class next Tuesday night that I'm super excited about. A lady who is a life coach is doing a class on achieving your dreams. I hope to be super motivated after that! I joined a gym! It hasn't opened yet but I'm excited about it. My doctor is opening a wellness center in Lawrence and the gym is part of that. I'm hoping to meet new people and be a part of the wellness group. I'm hoping to go and swim. I used to love to swim! I try to be thankful every day and start each day with a list of 5 things I'm thankful for. It's a nice habit. I love spending time with my grandsons. I'm thankful they live close by. You know? As I'm listing all this on here, I'm thinking I have it pretty darn good! It's Saturday afternoon. I haven't gotten out of bed today and I don't have to!! I don't have to do a damn thing and really it feels pretty good! You know what else feels good? Singing karoake. I sang the crap out of a song last night at the pub and I loved doing that. I have no idea what it sounded like to everyone else but it was liberating to let go and sing my heart out. Ive always wanted to be a motiviational speaker but I'm shy and afraid of speaking in public. Maybe karoake is the stepping stone to that career!! You never know!! I guess the peace comes from looking at the future with possibiities instead of fear. The Bible says in the book of Timothy that God did not give us a spirit of fear and timidity but of power and love and a sound mind. One of my goals for this year is to find a good church. One of my favorite things to do when I go visit Greg is to go to his church. It's so uplifing and pleasant! That would probably be the best thing for my soul to do! So I guess to my mom, I would have to say......I am honest on my blog! I like to share my deep thoughts but I'm happy too. I've been a lot happier lately focusing on the present moment and getting comfortable with my new life....alone with my dog. But really I'm not ever really alone. I have so many loving friends and family and I carry a lot of LOVE around in my heart from all of you! I'm just one blessed girl! THANK YOU!!!