Unconditional Forgiveness

This morning I awoke at my usual time, sometime around 6:30 a.m., and chose to laze around in a sleepy state for a while. I wasn’t in a hurry to get up today because my husband’s schedule was a little different . . . just for today. He let me know that he’d walk Gracie this morning to free up time for me to do whatever. As the clock approached 7, I suddenly remembered that there’s a meditation time at my club I usually only am able to attend on Thursdays. With gusto I jumped out of bed, quickly got ready, grabbed my mat, water, and two crystals, and headed out the door.

A word about the two crystals, Quartz and Amber

Quartz point wand, featured in a recent post, expressed the aspect of the “unconditional”, an opportunity to connect to source in the spaces between the structure of molecules and the physical realm. (You can read about the Spirituality of Unconditional Source here.) This particular quartz point radiates deep understanding, a connection to information, strength and understanding.

The amber palm “stone” I’ve worked with for many years. Often, it helps release and remove negative energies, assisting in repair, especially where there has been injury. In a recent meditation with amber it reflected the concept of forgiveness to me. So, with these two crystals working together, I theorized the concept of unconditional forgiveness could be achieved.

Unconditional Forgiveness

I held amber to my heart and chose to place quartz in front of me. Almost immediately after settling in to my silent, meditative state, I felt my father’s energy come through. He looked young, in his 30’s perhaps. This would have been the age in which he left my mother, when I was only two years old. My brothers, older than me, would have many more memories of him and the heart-ache he caused our family. Though my mother expressed many emotions and experiences around their time together and how he treated her and my brothers, I know it wasn’t easy. I was perhaps spared the experience of really knowing him.

In later years, when I was older, we did meet. We formed a somewhat courteous and very temporary acknowledgement of each other. When he passed away, I felt nothing. I’d made no room in my heart for him based on the emotions and information from my family. Yet here I was, face-to-face with my father in his 30’s. I saw him as his soul expression in physical form, playing a role of the abusive, absent, angry, narcissistic, uncaring father. He only asked for my forgiveness in the heart-ache he caused me throughout my life.

I admit I was surprised by this interaction. My father has not been on my mind. Yet, without further hesitation, I forgave him. In fact, seeing him in this way, forgiveness was an easy thing to do. I was surprised at how easy it flowed from my heart. (I almost missed the opportunity, I felt, if I’d stayed in bed this morning.)

The Physical Results of Forgiveness

Meditation class was followed on the hour by the regularly scheduled Joint Health class. As we moved our knees, hips, and shoulders around in all possible ways I felt a certain fluidity I hadn’t noticed before. Any discomfort I previously held in my right hip was gone. I sensed that I was well-oiled and even moved without tension in the area of my sacral chakra. It occurred to me that the act of unconditional forgiveness has immediately perceived benefits. In my mind, I know this. I practice gratitude, offer prayers, accept abundance, and say all the words that spiritual healers say. However, meeting my father’s spirit in meditation offered me a depth of understanding for which we always strive.

In my Embodied Spirit online course, this is part of Module 2, Truth. In Module 2 you have opportunities to intellectually examine where pain is held in the body. Then you free yourself from pain and burdens to move through darkness toward enlightenment. It doesn’t happen fast for everyone. Yet the journey itself is worth so much more.