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Thursday, April 10, 2014

Let It Out

What is the “yourself” that can be expressed? I feel like
I’ve been trying to figure it out my whole life and I come up with different
answers as I move through life.

I’ve tried many methods of expression: acting, dancing,
modeling, writing, teaching. A lot of the time I’ve been expressing others’
words or ideas or what I think other people want and expect to see and hear.

Now that I’ve given myself free reign to express whatever is
“myself,” I want to really get to the core of who I am when I express.

Sometimes I feel like that expression may just come out as
pure feeling—like rage at certain injustices I see in the world. Other times, I
feel like the expression is just a quiet whimper of emptiness that just wants
to be seen and acknowledged.

I think we all have a need to express ourselves, to be seen,
to be heard, to be understood.

Is it enough to just express or do we need a receiver on the
other end? Does having someone witnessing our expression make the experience
feel richer?

I think behind a lot of my expression is also the desire to
reach others in some way, for them to be able to relate or be inspired, entertained
or educated. So I think an audience can be very fulfilling.

I totally get it when Lady Gaga sings, “I live for the
applause, applause, applause.”