MOON PHASE: PLANT THE SEEDS

Dream huge. Visualize future moves.

Map it out. Start a process.

plant the seeds.

NUMEROLOGY VIBRATION

2: Needing to come together and bridge two perspectives. Work to create an understanding or peace from what is going on around you.

7: You may feel misunderstood or will be around conflict with others. Find a way to blend the sides so that a point of understanding can be reached.

9:Something is ending and needing to be released. Have trust even though things feel confusing. Give away in order to receive.

Well hello Wednesday!

Oh gosh! Looks like we are getting this kind of double whammy of one thing after the other. And – I have been so story teller recently — right – which I think is for a good reason to help us through these last challenging weeks and what is still to come from this big epic leveling up session. But when ascension began for me back in 1999 I would say how it was like I kept getting punched and knocked to the ground, and I’d get back up because it’s what you do, right, and I’d walk along for a bit, but then I’d get punched and knocked to the ground again. And it just happened over and over and over for about 10 years. By the end of it I was ready to KILL. Like, enough is enough. CHANGE MOTHER FUCKER CHANGE!!!

And then, ya know, those knock-downs slowed to like once a year and now I can’t remember the last time I felt knocked down. I guess when Moon Bear died. That certainly was a boot on my face for about a year. But. These things — these unexpected, these unimaginable, these confusing things — happen in the storyline of our journey for this incarnation. Look around – they just do. We all seem to experience part of our life as walking through some miserable cave of ????? and !!!!!! and ……………………………………………….

During that time I channeled the birth chart book information and dreamt up Aquarius Nation in notebooks; a mass load. I struggled, I wanted to die, I couldn’t understand why it was so hard – but from that time I brought through and created what now supports me in all the ways I dreamed it would.

I know who I get to be NOW is ALL BECAUSE of my time in that miserable cave. So standing on the outside looking in, I won’t ever again judge what something means just because it hurts like hell at times. Sex can hurt – doesn’t mean we run from that. Giving birth hurts – but… like, you get a baby. It’s ALL WORTH IT. Life can hurt and actually mean something good is coming from it. We must hold this perspective.

So I feel that sort of thing with this energy right now but what I do want you to know is that WE DO keep getting back up and YOU WILL keep rising from what keeps squashing. We DO come up for air. We DO keep getting glimmers of light and hope and YES. So be on the wait for that. I can DEF say my ten years in the miserable cave were speckled with some of the best moments of my entire life. So it was not all hell – and when it was light, it was like the sun coming in after a storm with double rainbows and heart clouds everywhere and it was always AMAZING. But then, ya know, got punched and knocked back down 48 hours later – with another rainbow sky coming 2 weeks later.

And right now it will feel like you DON’T got it and you can’t manage your emotions and you say things and do things that almost feel uncontrollable. We will be needing to be heard, but how we do it will tend to come from our old ways – which we so don’t want to be anymore.

And this can have us feeling flustered as we try to process where we are today because we JUST DON’T KNOW what to do or why we are the way we are or why we can’t be better. It’s just a place where we wish we were someone or somewhere else. We don’t want to be in THIS because it makes us think we DON’T have a purpose or there is no purpose to it all.

But my love, this part of the miserable cave is IMPORTANT. There is something here to see and it is not to be downplayed or rushed through. This is you learning how to live life and how to make it better for the steps you will walk as your future self. So be patient and don’t judge what you think this means. It probably means the opposite!! You are being too hard on yourself and the PAIN is speaking, but pain transformed speaks a whole new language – so keep with it. You will tell this story different than you tell it today.