6.6.06

Rescue Me

I'll be leaving Japan at the end of this month and living in California for a few years. Husband's getting transferred. Before anyone starts screaming "Why didn't you tell me before?"--we were only informed about the move last week. And it's been a bit 'o madness around here, what with procuring all the necessary documents, sorting out our apartment, deciphering animal import/export regulations, and everything else.

That news out of the way, all I can say is: I don't want to drink barium! (Just so you know how upset I am about this, I almost put three exclamation marks at the end of the previous sentence.) I've never liked my husband's company for all sorts of reasons, but I've, as much as possible, withheld my opinions because he gets rather sensitive when I defame that hallowed establishment. Well, this time they go too far. I honestly do not understand why--since I sure as hell am not one of theirs--but they are insisting that I get a full health check before we move, and this health check includes a Barium Swallow. Without knowing much at all about the procedure, all my life, I've felt this is something that I would avoid at all costs. Now that I have to do it (tomorrow), I've of course tortured myself by reading everything I can find on the ordeal.

My husband--and probably many of you, upon reading this post--thinks I'm being a sniveling, wussy cocktail wiener. What he doesn't realize is that this isn't me being what he categorizes as typically contrary, noisy, and difficult. This is me trying my best to tamp down full-blown terror.

I can, in fact, quietly and calmly withstand a fair amount, in terms of medical tests: needles, invasive procedures, all that good stuff. I'm also unfussy where food is concerned. But what I cannot handle is drinking thick, creamy substances. It isn't just the gag factor, the roiling nausea; the thought of it actually makes my innards squidge and my throat close up in a serious panic. Insects, animal entrails, heads, hoofs, claws--fine, serve me up a plate. But mayonnaise, banana smoothies, creamy yogurt--*shudder*. And still, if I took it a teaspoon at a time, I could manage to down those things.

But tomorrow's x-ray is going to require fast gulping of large quantities (two to three cups) of barium mixed with water to a dense, "milkshake-like consistency," some of it done while lying down.

I can't do it! All of a sudden, I'm recalling those fluoride treatments at the dentist that used to make me all but hyperventilate with fear as a child. The dentist would insist that I bite down "harder" on the trays filled with creamy, sweet fluoride, and when I obeyed, the fluoride would gush over the sides and start filling my mouth, flowing toward the back of my throat. Breathe. Deep breaths.

This must be a phobia, right? I mean, if I step back from the situation, I can see that my reaction is verging on extreme. But, A phobia of what?, you might be wondering with some derision: Too much sour cream with my borscht? Strawberry malts? As unappealing as such things are to me, it's more... a fear of being choked, of drowing in viscous substances. It's a phobia--it's not supposed to be logical.

Why, why do I have to have a health check, I ask you? If the company is worried about liability, I'll happily sign a release form, promising I won't cause them any trouble if I fall sick and/or die while overseas. Why am I even their responsibility? I'm just a wife, and a non-Japanese one at that. Who gives a damn about my esophagus and intestines? If I start screaming when the nurse advances on me with a large tumbler of barium, will the doctor put a big red X on my report, deny me permission to leave Japan? For the love of god, this seems so antiquated--surely they could come up with less-crude methods. Well, obviously not in time to save me from tomorrow.

14 Comments:

My first reaction when you mentioned that you are going to California is: *gasp* WHY??!

My 2nd reaction was: Wait a minute... what's wrong with her moving to California as compared to staying in Japan??!

As for your fudge-a-phobia, it is totally understandable. I have a phobia of massive crowds (more of those masses staring at me) and I can't quite place a finger on the terminology yet. I am guessing the nurse who is going to administer the shake is about to experience a whole new decibel of screams yet to be quantified by mankind. Work those vocal cords babe (and hopefully whilst you do that, the nurse might be smart enuff to pour it down yr throat in one swift action and then cluck saying "there... there")

I am glad you are going to the sunshine coast babe. I now know who to yell to whenever I need something that is available only in the big US of A.

Take care of yourself babe and drop more than a word from time to time about how great life is over there.

Cocktail-weiner...hee hee. Nah I can totally understand, I can't for the life of me eat bubble gum. Regular breath freshening gum is ok but Hubba Bubba freaks me out. I also start to gag and hyperventilate. It's not the flavour...it doesn't matter what flavour I'm eating, it's the insufferable bulk of slimy bubbleness in my mouth. I too fear death.

Good luck with the Barium...I really don't see any way around it - unless you can claim allergies! Is it possible to be allergic to barium?

Hey RachelWOW ! and oh no!! Lots of shocks in this one post. Barium? Really??Oh no! This means we won't get to meet up in Tokyo ! Such short notice , I know , I hate such things too. Will things be okay for getting Edward over in time?Hey its California! At last, they speak English. Love,E

Hi tickles, Thanks for the support! Yeah, I know a lot of people who hate crowds--it's a pretty reasonable fear. I know you were hoping I'd blog more on Japan--I'm sorry! But I promise to keep writing when I'm in California.

Hi rae, They make you swallow barium when you're going to have an x-ray exam of your esophagus and stomach. The barium is thick and white and coats everything as you swallow it, and somehow this makes everything show up on the x-ray.

Hi Jessica, Promise to write more about moving to California right after this!

Hi Jaime, Wow, all this time and I never suspected you had Hubba Bubba issues. You hide your fear well.

Hi GG, I am alive!

Hi e, I know, seems I'm leaving right as you're about to get here! The toughest part with Edward was figuring out what was expected from both sides, Japan and California. Spent A LOT of time chasing links from website to website. But I think we've got it all sorted out now. Yes, it will be nice to live for a while in a place where I can speak better than a four year old.

I found your food blog going through a few links. Glad I ran into it. Didn’t know that the food blog/recipe community was so big online. I love your posts!

I was wondering if you would like to exchange links. I’ll drop yours on my site and you drop mine on yours. Email at ramendays@yahoo.com or stop by my site and drop a comment. Let me know if you would like to do a link exchange.

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