I was unraveling from the paranoia and trauma it brought me. But later on realized, putting what he went through in context, his reasons for trying to take his own life was trivial and superficial compared to the tribulations I went through.

And I never considered suicide.

Down the line, its a matter of strength of character, and a good support system (i.e friends, family, counseling, what-have-you). We have to choose to transcend the problem, distance ourselves so we can make sense of things. Being knee-deep in depression is a spiraling threat.

By the way, the Catholic church looks down upon suicides. Those who commit this are refused to be given the last sacrament, and is expected to fall into the middle ring of the Seventh Circle (Circle of the Violent).

@red the mod: omg! that must have been hard on you. certain people tend to magnify their problems without realizing it because they are too close to it and lose objectivity. i believe more in God's goodness over what the church says. :)

It was. Later on, I realized he was a social vampire, feeding off my own positivism. It was depressing. I agree, on believing in God's goodness and greatness, but not necessarily the church's. There is a difference between religiosity and spirituality. And a world of difference between agnostic and atheistic. :)

@red the mod: positivism usually helps dispel negativism in others, but at times can pollute the former. you really have a good way of expressing things, red. i agree that agnostic is not equivalent to atheistic. :)