Wednesday, April 30

sometimes i wish it were as simple as slapping together a breakfast and bringing it upstairs for the classic "breakfast in bed - aren't i cute" routine of my youth. now i need to come up with other stuff that is good and relatively thoughtful. since i am busy being selfish with knitting and making stuff for myself i thought this might be a good time to try something else that i haven't done in a long time - painting.there are two paintings. one is bad. i will probably continue to work on it and try to get it cool. the other is acceptable and about 50% completed. you might notice it is signed. that is because it was complete before i had the brilliant idea (no really i am happy with the idea) to darken the canvas with a wash. so now i need to do more touching up and bring back some of the detail. anyway since i will most likely forget to photo it upon completion i thought i'd do it now.

Monday, April 7

first let me explain that knitting has consumed my life. it is rather sad but at the same time wonderful. because ravelry signed it's soul to the devil named flickr i have to have a flickr account which is available for the viewing: http://www.flickr.com/photos/23082114@N05/

this is where you can see my awesome creations...or at least the ones that i remember to photo and upload.

so i saw doctor dude. i went to dyke night on friday and he was there. we had a nice little talk. nothing too crazy even though i still do like him a bit especially when i get to interact with him. anywoo he is still fucked up about his breakup. apparently even his parents tell him it is messed up. but who am i too judge too critically. i mean i was the one who took well over a year to get over my stupid relationship. and wasn't it a sex in the city thing - you mourn the passing of the relationship for 1/2 the time of the actual relationship? so, i did well. gene and i were together for 5 years...i mourned for two years. doctor dude was in a 1 year deal...it's been about, oh, i don't know. anyway, it was a good talk. then the awkwardness.

do you remember the weird first kiss? the go in, no back up, go in, no back up kiss? yeah, well welcome weird goodbye hug. same general idea. he's like, "well i am going to go home." i say goodbye and immediately go for a hug (i was a bit tipsy). then i think, oh he isn't doing hugs, but then he goes but by this time i am retreating. so he retreats but i am starting again. ugh. AWFUL.