loss of my dad to suicide at 8 yrs old

Growing up I didn't have the easiest experience. My Dad was emotionally and physically abusive to my mom. He was an alcoholic and very addicted to drugs. After 14 yrs of marriage my mom divorced him and moved my sister and I away 12 hrs away. My dad had a very hard time being so far away from us and especially once my mom remarried a few years later. He committed suicide by over dosing on medication. That completely changed our lives. I always felt like I needed to be strong and could never show the pain I felt so my mom wouldn't hurt anymore. I was tired of seeing my mom in pain. This has been a long and hard experience that I wouldn't wish on anyone. I have a lot of trust and abandonment issues and a lot of effects of the suicide still remain. I'm an adult now and am trying to learn a new and better way to raise my children. But still have so much pain inside.

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I am only 11 years old, but my dad died whem iwas 10. It hadn't even been 2 months after my birthday. Because my dad went to work so early in the morning, i heard his alarm clock go off in the morning. When i tried to wake him up, he wouldn't move, not even a little... I saw he wasn't breathing, so i grabbed his phone and rang the ambulance, 10 to 15 minutes later they arrived and said to me, 'your father has passed away'. It was only me and dad, my mother left us when I was 3, so I was the one who found my father's body. He died in March, it had been longer than a month and as events such as birthdays and father's day come, I find it tough because it would have been the first I have ever spent without him by my side. I just wanna say, if your crying, don't cry alone and never forget the memories you and your dad have made together.

Dad you'll always be within my heart, my soul and i'll never forget you until my very last breath.