Hi. So yesterday was the day you told me that the thing we called love, was gone. You said that it took you 4 days to lose all feelings for me, Four Days. We had basically been together for 2 almost 3 months, but all those months and days and it still took you 4 days to stop loving me. I know i lied, but you did it too. You sent that picture to that girl once, remember? But your excuse was that she just asked, and that you loved me, and only me. You said that you blocked her immediatly, but only because you had accidentally sent that picture to me. I was heartbroken then, and im heartbroken now. I lied, but i told you even tough my fear of you letting me go was always on my mind. You told me that it was ok, and that you still loved me, but clearly you didn’t. Ever since that day you acted weird, i just wanted the old you back. I didn’t cheat, i didn’t send a picture to someone other than you of my body, i didn’t talk to other guys, but still you felt that i was the one that broke us apart. Im so mad and hurt, i wish i never even met you. Oh my god, i know that im lying right now typing this. Meeting you was the best thing that ever happened to me, but i realised that every time you told me you loved me you lied. The love for me was just an illusion, and i decided that everything was real. You know, my first real kiss was with you. My first real relationship was also with you, but love made me blind and i didn’t realise that you saw everything and didn’t even care to bother about me. But i’ve realised that i was just a glass toy you could throw around until it it shattered, and now im shattered and can’t be fixed. The tiny bits of me that’s left can’t be put together anymore, you’ll just have to play with what’s left of me. I cried so much yesterday, and you didn’t even care. You said that you still wanted me as a friend, but how could i ever put up with being called your friend when before i was called your everything, your true love. Today i woke up and cried a little bit, or a lot. It felt as if my lungs was about to collapse, i couldn’t breathe. I wish this was all a nightmare. I just want you back, but you’ve lost all feelings that have ever been there for me. I regret everything, please forgive me for being in such a vulnerable state that i let you in and couldn’t find the key for opening the door again. I didn’t see you ever sneaking out of the window and leaving me all alone, i thought you would stay with me forever. I was so fucking unaware and that hurts me the most, if i only knew that you would do this to me i would’ve left right away. I thought we would grow old together, but i guess your feelings to me are just as strong as my health. You knew i felt shit, but still you didn’t help a little bit. Everytime i complimented you i said that you were gorgeous, fantastic, funny, charming, beautiful, smart etc. But do you know what you said to me? Hot. All i was for you was hot. You could be angry at me at one point, but when i sent a picture of my body? All of a sudden you were happy. I’m so dissapointed in myself for ever loving you, but i hope that some day you want me back and realise all the pain i went trough was because of you. I hope you realise that i was the best you could ever have, that no one could love you as much as i did, and that you wake up and realise that my nightmare is yours now.

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