Minggu, 14 Juni 2015

The Outcast: Just living my life my way until...

Pensmoke: The Outcast: Just living my life my way until...By Michael Thomas as told to Jim Uttley, Special to the ASSIST News ServiceMEMPHIS, TN (ANS – June 14, 2015) -- My name is Michael Thomas, but I also go by Pensmoke, the name I record my music under. I’m a rapper.
I was born in the Smoky Mountains of Eastern Tennessee. I am of
Gaduwa (Cherokee) heritage. My family descends from Jim Cheoa,
Ah-lin-nih Cheoa, and Ail-cih Cheoa on the Siler Roll and Oowahooskee on
the 1817 Reservation Roll.
Within a couple of weeks after being born, my family moved from the
Smokies all the way to the other side of the state -- Memphis. My father
left when I was a baby and I’ve had contact with him from time to time
and correspondence from him occasionally. He never really reconciled
with the family but it wasn’t for my lack of trying.
I grew up in Memphis and my grandmother raised me because my mom was
only 16 when she had me and she was not mature enough at the time to
raise a child. My grandmother got custody of me. I grew up at her house.
However, I did see my mom from time to time and we became very close
after I became an adult.
I have a brother from my father’s side of the family but I don’t
really know him. I also have a sister. She also grew up in Memphis and
got caught up in the things that are easy to get caught up in there.
She’s in prison now. I pray for her all the time. We had different
fathers but the same mother: that means I have a half-brother and a
half-sister.
The area where we lived in Memphis was a high crime area and it’s
more so now. I kind of got involved in a lot of things that weren’t
right -- skipped school, tried drugs and tried drinking at a young age. I
tried those things but I thank God they didn’t really stick. I was just
living my life my way.
My grandmother and grandfather -- I call him my grandfather but he
was really my step-grandfather -- they raised me until I was thirteen.
That’s when he passed away. After that, I really had a hard time because
my grandmother and I went back and forth at each other and he was like
the referee. He was the one who would calm everything down, but now he
was gone.
I really was resentful that my dad wasn’t around so that was part of
my arguing a lot with my grandmother. When my grandfather passed, I
really went into a delinquent mode, running with the wrong people,
skipping school.
Then my grandmother started hanging out with a lady from the block
over from where we lived. Her name was Gerri. She was a Christian and
she would come around occasionally and was really nice. One day she said
she wanted to talk to me. We sat down in my grandmother’s den and she
basically started to share with me the gospel about Jesus and what He
went through and why He went through it.
It really hit me hard and I started to cry. I got really emotional. I
had this overwhelming feeling because I knew that everything she was
saying was right. I was 18 at the time and still in high school because I
had failed having skipped so much school.
I know that not everyone has some kind of emotional experience but I
did. It was a very powerful experience. I got saved that day.
Things were good for a while but I didn’t fully understand the next
steps I needed to take. I didn’t really go to church or read the Bible. I
was still in school and for a while I went back to my old ways. So I
went off Creator’s path for a few years.
It hits you when you realize that you’re trying to do things on your
own and it’s not working. Once you’ve already been shown the right way
to do it and you’re doing it wrong, God wakes you up to reality. At
least that’s the way it was in my situation.That
went on for a few years until I was awakened again. I don’t think it
was any one situation that shook me back to reality, but just a series
of “well, this isn’t working” situations and “I shouldn’t be living this
way”. I found my way back -- God led me back. I think it was that I had
started making music for the first time around 2004. I wasn’t writing
anything overtly secular, if that’s what you want to call it, but I
didn’t use profanity or language that’s often used in rap music. It was
rap but while it was uplifting, there was no gospel message. It was
pretty vague.
One time I was recording with some people who let me come into the
studio. They were getting high in the place and, soon after, one of the
guys ended up going to prison for murder. He actually shot somebody and
all that really shook me awake to the fact that even though I wasn’t
really involved with them per se, I just didn’t want to be involved with
that.
I needed to come back to God and rededicate my life and actually use
the music to talk about God and spread His Word. From then on, I clawed
my way back to where I needed to be.
I met people who actually helped me promote my music. One was Dawn
Karima Pettigrew, a beautiful Cherokee award-winning singer, author, and
broadcaster, and another was a Creek brother whose name is Don Fixico.
He goes by N-Don. God put the right people in my life to help me get
where I needed to be and it’s been a blessing.
My wife and I have been going together since 1993 -- we were friends
in high school -- and we got married in 1999. We have one son. My mom
passed away in 2013 after a long fight with cancer. I was worried for a
long time about my mom, but she finally received the good news and
became a follower of Jesus. I know one day I’ll see her again.
I’m working on a second album right now and it’s about half-way
completed. God has been good to me and I’m glad I’m walking on His path.
You can too. Salvation is a free gift for anyone who wants it and will
repent and follow Christ. If you are tempted to turn aside off the path,
I encourage you to keep your eyes focused on Jesus. Now, please check
out some of my music….
PENSMOKE RAPPING Check out Pensmoke’s music on these websites:https://soundcloud.com/pensmoke-theprofessional-outcasthttps://www.reverbnation.com/pensmoketheprofessionaloutcast Pensmoke—The Outcast
Photo captions: 1) “God has been good to me,” says Pensmoke, “and I'm
glad I'm walking on His path.” (Photo provided by Michael Thomas). 3)
His debut album cover. 3) Jim UttleyAbout the co-writer: Jim Uttley is the Editor for Wiconi International (www.wiconi.com) , as well as the editor of INDIAN LIFE newspaper (www.indianlife.org)
, an award-winning bi-monthly publication for Native Americans. A
graduate of Moody Bible Institute and Cairn University, Jim has been a
journalist involved in literature ministry since 1974 including work in
Haiti, Guadeloupe and Canada. He writes about Native American issues for
the ASSIST NEWS SERVICE. Father of three and grandfather of six, Jim
and his wife Jan make their home in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada. He can
be contacted by e-mail at jmuttleyjr@gmail.com
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