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Thursday, January 7, 2016

Yes! I am Avoiding You, 2016!

Yes, 2016 I am ignoring you! I am hoping to wake-up and you’ll be gone because I wasn’t done with last year yet. I am quite sure I didn’t complete even half of my 2015 goals and there are still 6 books in my 2015 books to read stack. I am turning 39 in 2016, 39!!!! Wasn’t I just 29? There are many days where I stop and go, wait? I graduated from high school how many years ago? No, way…I thought it was just 10 years ago, how in the world have I been out of high school for 20 years?!?!

I can’t handle it! Morgan will be three in like two months! And the other day we talked about Shelby being 15 in September (I know we have some time, but really?)!

I’ve let myself slip into a bit of New Year funk lately between my dread of goal setting (but desperate need to) and the weather in Houston. It’s 8 pm on the 7th day of January and it’s 58 outside Today’s high was 68. I miss seasons. I planned on goal setting and writing all of this on Tuesday, but then I spent most of the morning counseling myself through the fact that it is okay for me to block people on Facebook - I am allowed to do that, it’s my prerogative. The world will not stop spinning if I block someone.

So, I am sure that my plans for 2016 will evolve as they did for 2015, but here is kind of what I am thinking.

I envision an amalgam (big word - that spell check corrected for me - don’t ask how I was spelling it). When I ask, “who do I want to be in 2016?” My answer is always, “a mixture of pieces of myself from years past”.

I want to maintain the openness and transparency I achieved in 2015.

I want to recapture the creativity I had in 2013.

I want to read and study as much as I did in 2011.

I want to be as creative with my wardrobe was I was in 2010.

I want the body I had in 1998 - too much to ask?

I want to thrive in my blogging community as I did in 2010.

I want to be intertwined with like mined, creative women as I was in 2013.

2013 was just a good year. It was my first year as a stay at home mom, I opened DanaRae Designs (which will relaunch this year) and I was just so tuned in everywhere.

I want to touch the earth, break it in my hand, grow something wild and unruly.

I want to sleep on the hard ground, the comfort of your arms, with a pillow of bluebonnets and blanket made of stars.

Ha! Sorry, it was all the “I want”s coupled with 1998 and the fact that Shelby now listens to the Dixie Chicks - I just couldn’t help myself.

So, that’s what I have so far for 2016. All of this is a bit broad for goal-setting, so I need to sit, reflect and elaborate. Stay tuned, I’ll get in gear soon. At least all my christmas trees are down and I spent most of the morning sweeping up fake pine needles - I am sure I will still be finding them in June. (My Christmas trees are 20 years old, too…how did that happen? Oh how I miss 1996).