I love you to the moon and back my little winter bear I know you know how much that is cause you’re already there. I never knew a love like this could ever possibly exist, I love you to the moon and back as long as I live. -Coby Grant, Winter Bear Advertisements

two years ago… Matt’s has a big meeting tomorrow, so I don’t want to upset him with this. But I needed to put it somewhere. So here it is. What a fast, unbelievable two years. Still doesn’t feel real. Getting this notification makes me want to go home and climb into bed. I spoke with…… Continue reading On this day

I had terrible dreams last night. They were not even subliminal but shouting in your face resentment towards people who drive me crazy. They supported us in ways they wanted to be supported but not how we needed/wanted? I know they cared and were heartbroken, but not enough. Bah. I went to bed sad and…… Continue reading Womp

I thought I had been doing ok. Then I realized I made a mistake with Everly’s health insurance. I fucked up and didn’t do the research I needed to do. I wasn’t able to do the research. I was too busy keeping my head in the sand and not thinking about what happens after August…… Continue reading meh.

Now instead of counting out the months since we lost Nora we also count the months we have Evie. Its been over 17 months since we lost Nora and two months since we brought Evie home. I have a lot of feelings that could be fleshed out but in the short term, I’ll just list…… Continue reading A different timeline

I am almost 37 weeks pregnant, its a code red heat advisory and our AC has gone out three times in the past week. I am just over it. Last Friday during our NST they were concerned by some of Dot’s decelerations so we had to go to labor and delivery for extended monitoring. Then…… Continue reading Overwhelmed? Over it?