Tears… I really, really needed to hear this today. After several weeks with an extremely clingy and needy little one I need to remember to fill MY cup and FORGIVE myself when I am less than “perfect”. I am trying so hard on a daily basis to see myself through the eyes of compassion. It is not always easy! Thank you so much for your words of true wisdom. I will definitely read this post again and again!

I lost it today – like total anxiety attack flip out. Turns out the mortgage company has not been pulling our direct withdrawl correctly. Good grief. It isn’t the end of the world, but I somehow turned it into that. Thank you for reminding me that we all sometimes come undone.

Yelling is not my truth but all too often it has been my reality. And I beat myself up. Which of course does not make things any better, or my voice any kinder. “It’s your heart’s way of calling for change.” Oh. Well, of course. Why didn’t I see that before? My heart has been screaming at me and instead of listening to it I have been ignoring it and telling it it is wrong and bad. That doesn’t work.

The paradigm shift has been swift and startling. With those eight words there is a little room for grace. I’m not a bad person, I’m a mom who has been so busy meeting everyone else’s needs I have ignored my own. So much so that I’m not even sure what change my heart is calling for. But today I am going to pay attention. Because yelling is not my truth.

Thank you for your honesty!!! Monday was my day. And you’re right, it takes me a while to forgive myself, especially since I’ve been dealing with some health issues and haven’t been my best…I’ve felt so guilty lately!!! And even tho I was warned when I took on homeschooling that there would be days like that, I never realized what a toll it would take on me. It’s always good to know I’m not alone. I can’t thank you enough for admitting that. It’s everything I needed to hear!