Suddenly, the eyes of the entire world were centred on Christchurch, as news spread to hundreds of millions of people.

Soon, we heard the terrifying news that another mosque had been attacked in Linwood. Then, relief as police revealed the terrorist had been apprehended.

In the days and weeks afterwards, it felt like Christchurch would never be the same again. Now, almost two months later, I find myself sitting in traffic in the same spot, sitting outside the mosque on Deans Ave for the same evening commute I've done for years.

I've been struggling with guilt ever since the attack, knowing that as my life returned to normal the lives of others in our community were in absolute turmoil.

The cordons have gone, the flowers have wilted and the joggers have returned to Hagley Park, but those in the Muslim community are still feeling the impact every single day.