Trying to make it through life with His help.

Oh my goodness…. I do NOT want to go through that again any time soon. It is the most stressful thing I’ve gone through since my divorce eleven years ago. And, if I’m honest with myself, I’m not sure which was worse. Both were bad, but I’m leaning towards the moving being worse than the divorce at the moment.

Since it was all my stuff, I was the one who needed to say where it should go. My standard answer became, “In a box!”. I mean, that was logical, wasn’t it? Ok, so the answer was a bit snarky and definitely borne of frustration, but, as long as the item in question ended up in a box, I didn’t care which one it went in.

My parents, God love ’em, were such a help. I don’t know what I’d have done if they hadn’t come to help me pack. Well, that’s not true, I do, too. I wouldn’t have gotten it all done by the time the movers had come and gone! The guys who came to move me were so great. They were both fun and funny and knew exactly what they were doing. And neither complained – at least not to where I could hear it – when they discovered I had packed things into the drawers of some of the furniture, and even in the washer and dryer. Such good guys. AND I was on the third floor, too. So, that made it even worse on them.

I tell ya, I had to pray big time to try and keep from becoming even more overwhelmed than I already was. And I know my friends were praying for me. For a week, the three of us were busy packing all day. We took very little time out to do anything else, other than eat and sleep. My apartment was only 860sf, but I had so much stuff… things I didn’t even remember having! I took at least 3 car loads of things to Goodwill. And, probably should have taken even more, but that’ll have to wait until I move into my new space once I find a job.

I still have no doubt that God has somewhere special for me to work, and I’m not worried about finding it. I just wish it would hurry up and find me! (I have a bit of a problem when it comes to being patient…) I wonder where the job will be and what I will be doing. I am very skilled at what I do, and would love the opportunity to learn something new. So, I’m pretty open.

Since having to pack my life up and move it back to Tennessee, I have figured out that I do not want to have to do this again any time soon. Which just goes along with the fact that I believe I will be getting a house, instead of moving into another apartment. The last time I came home for a visit, I went looking at some apartments and found a beautiful complex that just felt right. While looking around the property and thinking how much I liked it, the Lord spoke to me and said, “Why are you limiting Me to an apartment?” Whoa. Really?!

It was just a natural thing for me to look at apartments, since that’s where I’ve lived for the last eleven years. The fact that I would be able to afford a HOUSE when I get a new job, hadn’t even crossed my mind. It’s actually something that is hard for me to wrap my mind around… Me, with a house……On my own! A house, not a condo. Why buy a condo? To me, it’s going to be the same as living in an apartment, it’ll just be mine. And, they’re harder to sell than a house – from what I understand, anyway. The only kind of condo I would consider would be a ranch condo. All on one level. They do exist, but they’re harder to find. Heck, my friends used to make fun of me because I told them I would LOVE to live in a retirement community! I love older people, and they’re quiet! No thumping music out in the parking lot at 2am. Oh, AND they watch out for their neighbors. Some may call it being nosey, but, if you have nothing to hide, why worry?

Anyway, I don’t want to have to move more than once. So, unless something happens to change my mind, I want to find where I’ll be living for a while. Getting rid of clutter from your life is so freeing. I don’t mind doing it, it’s just the sitting down and doing it that gets me. I am easily distracted, so it’s hard for me to stay focused on what I’m doing. If you think about it, de-cluttering is a lot like being a Christian. A few years ago I read a little blurb about how cleaning out a pumpkin is like becoming a Christian and it’s stuck with me, because it’s so apropos.

I don’t know about you, but even after all these years, there’s still a lot of things that need to be cleaned out of my life. His goal is to get us as close to being like Him as He can, which isn’t going to be an easy task. (Him being perfect and all…) So, that means many things in our lives must change. Change is a scary thing for some of us. But He works on us constantly IF we listen to him.

Do you know of things in your life that need to change? Has He asked you to do something differently than you usually do? Go ahead and make that change. You’ll be better off. Don’t take my word for it, take His. He makes us all KINDS of promises throughout the Bible. If you don’t know where they are, Google it! (Google is a wonderful thing!) Or, here…. Here’s what I found when I Googled “Biblical Promises”. Click the link and start finding your promises!