Archive for April, 2010

Friday, April 23rd, 2010

Trying to reconcile
Why he goes the extra mile
round the block before
he comes home for the night
She smiles but she’s miles away
He doesn’t hear what she’s trying to say
she’s trying to stay
and it’s good what he says
but his choices make it harder
to wanna live through the day

She knows he says he loves her
but he puts a lot on her
The air she breathed in is him
and now it might just drown her.

The body gets invaded by unvalidated microorganisms at times creating a systemic response to quell the invasion, or so I think not being in the medical field. The body goes into fight mode. The defenses localize. And I guess this works. It clearly works better than nothing. But I’m going for more than just competing with nothing.

Life’s running along fine. Black eyes of the past get ignored as we support each other regardless. It’s a simple deal: if you’re down with it, so am I; we’re in this together. For the first time in years, I feel relaxed.

We’ve got constraints. We’ve got debt. We’ve got traditional dreams and we’ve got our own special set of dreams that we made for ourselves. We have those things individually and collectively.

Somewhere along the line a unilateral decision is made. You try. But it’s a break in the skin and the oddities come in. So the immune system fires. The focus of all things wrong is this injury. Ignore the fact that we’ve been ignoring our poorer decisions together. Ignore the fact that to move ahead we must clear our own slates and determine for sure who we are. Ignore for the fact that a commitment of such magnitude for the indefinite future will invalidate itself if we turn out to be people other than who we know. Focus on the newest change. And our doom will be in certified mail like a collections notice because we didn’t prioritize our issues.

Yeah, the break in the skin was my fault. But if the whole world falls apart, let’s split the blame.