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Thoughts are to be expressed and carried out. Picture your thoughts as a dream catcher of sorts. Writing out what I think and am feeling at the time assists me with resolving an issue, or enabling myself to experience and express my thoughts in relation to what is going on in my life.

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I have collapsed into the natural rhythm of answering a
want, need and desire. Come to find out, this want, need and desire is a
packaged deal. This want, need and desire have occupied my days and night’s,
and this want, need and desire is not a representative at all. This want need
and desires are the REAL deal; which has created a duality of emotions and thoughts
to start running into one another becoming unnerving and exiting at the same
time.
My objective as always is to put my needs first and to take
in consideration nothing outside of self when it comes to the physical craving
of my carnal instincts, but when my mind is seduced to the point of no
comparison and return!
Oh Boy!!

Well I am giving into the mind seduction, which is creating
a tidal wave of emotional openness and being receptive to new happenings…and
I’m readily writing about this occurrence, which is literally in the melting
pot of my current life status and situation. My thoughts have cooled and calmed
and are e…

I clasped the phone a little tighter. I allowed the
conversation to linger just a little longer. I was seething with a rhythmic
passion, as I imagined you beside me as you dipped your head a little closer. I
closed my eyes and leaned into you a little more wanting your lip moisture more
than ever, as the conversation continued my face began to become flush, my
breathing was sensually labored and my legs began to outstretch and beg to be
touched, centered and spread widely apart. I was aching for your touch as I
cradled the phone to my ear a little tighter my fantasy was beginning to take
flight until his tone stunted my world.

The more he spoke directly into the phone the more my
passion bubble popped. I started seeing him in another light, and well understanding
and adhering to an individuals daily planning can tame heightened passions just
so far, and well my passion meter was writhing with doubt and defeat.

It was like cold water showered evenly on my head. I wasn’t
entirely prep…

I won’t pull back!
In fact, I am not backing down at all.
There have been times when unanswered questions have crossed my mind years
later. Desires that needed further probing and discovery, intimacy that was
left unturned; wants and needs left to be desired after. You can never find
this in another if you haven’t discovered your own personal openness to your
very own intimacy and passion levels, how can you expect it from someone else?
The mantra I was rolling with was harboring no feelings of
attachments and longed for desires, because life simply wasn’t set up for that
existence when I thought about. Basically, I could be a dreamer, a lover, a
romantic, a sinner and a saint. I could be your best dream or worst nightmare;
it is whatever it’s going to be. I could not plan anything beyond the time
frame I already existed in; I absolutely held no care or concern over being in
absolutely control. All I can guarantee is my participation in this adventure.
It had become a key ingredien…

I have once again thrown myself into my own enclosed life
happenings which have all evolved around semi planning, constant daydreaming
and channeling my inner golden tube of creativity and self awareness of exactly
who I am, and whom I’m becoming. I am in awe and adoration of HER “Me”, and so
I started the year loosely cutting the ties of experiences that haven’t kept my
interest, but contented me enough to wet my appetite for rekindled romances
that are forever stunted in their start to finish, and as each bond was severed
I started to remember why the bonds had been broken and why it has become
convenient to rekindled such fallen attempts at love, because disappointment is
best served chilled, and apparently I was already one cup in!
He was someone I could see the present and future with. He
was someone that I spent numerous travel hours with. To and from our homes
cities to our planned getaways, it was like nothing else mattered, but our
inability to compromise on balancing our re…

I knew he was not who he said he was, but what he wanted me
to believe he was. He wanted me to believe that he was my future, and that I
would have him in increments and that he would tell me exactly how our
relationship would go!
“And then when I woke up from that dream” the reality of the
situation was put before me and I saw everything for what it was and what it
was not going to become in my life. I promised myself that I would have a
healthy relationship, based on positive interactions with my significant other.
I would have a healthy respect for my relationship and I would want to continue
to nurture and develop my relationships based on independent and joint
successes. I would value the ability for me and my lover to blossom together,
and for us to work as a team. The love that would be built from time, committed
peace, hope and vibes so clear nothing could steer us away from our established
love, but as I laid down these foundations of thought to bring fourth for a
future re…

I continually work on my craft on a daily basis. Writing has allowed many avenues and ventures to be experienced and explored. I continue to see the benefits in sharing my world. So I allow you the viewer and adventurer to vicariously live through my experiences.