Saturday, October 31, 2009

we mailed in our formal application. We have been waiting one year for our little one. There have been good and bad days but I can honestly say I am learning growing and will be ready when God sends Abeni to us. Here is last years post. I will write a new letter to my girl in the morning.

I have decided at every major adoption milestone I will write a letter to Abeni, so when she is older and wonders she can know just how loved she was before she was ever born.

Abeni,

Today we mailed in the Formal application to adopt you. But did you know..... before Daddy and I even got married we talked about adopting you. Did you know..... even though we weren't the first people to hold you we held you in our hearts for years before we held you in our arms. Did you know...... Miles and Isaac waited for you too. Miles often tells me "we are missing our stister Abeni." He also shared his fruit snacks with you before you were born. Did you know...... we thought about you planned for you and worried about you for years before we finally held you. So today as we officially begin our journey to you I wanted you to know that we love you little girl. We are waiting anxiously to see your face to hold your hand to learn about the person you are and watch you grow into the woman you will be.

Monday, October 12, 2009

I'm going to make my dominoes picture and post it tonight. I'm just so blah blah blah about this wait. This adoption stuff is hard. Honestly when we signed up we were thinking (read we were told) 18-24 months for placement. That is really what was happening at the time. Now we are at 11 1/2 months of being on the list and aren't even close. I keep hoping that things will start happening again. But it seems if it's not one thing it's another. First there was just a general slow down, then Eastern got a new director, then lots of new job assignments slowed things down, now there is some sort of audit going on..... I don't know. At this point mathematically speaking we could get our referral 7-8 months from now so around May or June! Waiting is just painful.