Saturday, August 30, 2008

There r people (I was one wth the same opinion) who say we must live Life in such a way that we must never live to regret things we did...but u know there r certain moments when one wishes if u had the ability to change sum things...go back in time n alter some decisions which seemed right to u then....It is entirely impossible but doesn't everyone regret atleast one action or word in their lifetime???U wish so badly u hadn't done that or spoken to sumone like that...or hurt sumone's feelings.....It happens a lot to me....Today in this post of mine I say Sorry from the bottom of my heart to all people I ve hurt knowingly or unknowingly.....I'm sorry...Its a sort of apology...I don know if the people I say this to, read my blog...but this is for them....But since I still firmly believe that everything in life happens 4 a reason,I hav nothing to worry bout right? All this was destined to happen....hmmm...I guess so...I'm so depressed today,that's behind this stupid post...Hope to rite a better one next time....

Friday, August 29, 2008

Before I die...there r certain things I'd love to accomplish...no,there's nothin like I'd love to fly n go to the moon..these r quite practical wishes...but only God knows how far I can be able to make them come true....

Wish No 1...To visit the Louvre Museum at Paris...(the inspiration n credit goes to Dan Brown)Wish No 2....Is to write a book,not a best seller but atleast my friends must read that or my feelings will get hurt,mind u guys... Wish No 3...Buy dresses in all shades of Blue...electric blue,midnight blue n sky blue...Wish No 4...I wish I wud never hav to set foot in America...I hate the place... Wish No 5...Spend a nite under the sky,watchin stars all nite...not alone,I'd be scared.Wish No 6...Do something worthwhile...sumthin that brings good to mankind...not 4 fame or money but 4 my conscience,4 contentment n satisfaction that when I leave this world...I can say proudly that I have been here 4 a reason...Wish No 7....Make my mother the happiest person on Earth..n make her proud of me sumday...

I know it sounds as If I ve given up something,sumthin dangerous such as smokin but as far as I am concerned,Orkut was somethin like that to me...An addiction...

I love makin friends,chattin wth them n scrappin them but during my last hols,Orkut become sumthin more to me...It was always being online,checkin 4 scraps...goin thru friends profiles....The day I quit orkuttin was when I realized It was becomin more of an Obsession....it was Orkut day n nite...N I'm really happy I was able to overcome my obsession by jus comin out of it...Evn though I am tempted to join again..u know there's that naggin doubt in my mind...a subconcious thought that says...Don let anythin have control over u...Don let anythin in life be an Obsession...

I think this is true in every case...Whatevr we do,it must not become an Obsession...n we must not giv priority in life 4 those things which r optional in life...Another piece of advice...Don let someone be a priority in your life when u r just an option in theirs...(I do practice what i preach..)This is 4 my dear friends who feel they hav lost the love of their lives n r destined to live wthout them...True love is completely givin first priority to each other,no matter what...Oh my God !!! where did I start n where did I end up???completely different topics...anyway...so where was I???Yes,Orkut...so maybe I was a coward to run away n hide so that I ll not have the tendency to log in to orkut again but I felt better once I did that...n there ends my post 4 the day...

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Skool life was real Fun....That was Life...in every sense meaningful,interesting n enjoyable...I've enjoyed every moment of it n regret havin had to grow up...Life was easy when I was a kid...no unnecessary tensions...problems...a care-free life... Life was like a leaf in the autumn wind....

I ve had my fill of skools n skool frendz....havin got a chance to study in 8 schools in my 12 yrs of primary education(now that I'm into my master's , all that seems to be primary) n each of the schools teachin me sumthings in life...lots of techers,scores of friends...I've relished every single day I've gone to school,evn the exams coz xams at this level r such a drag...3 hours n 100 marks n epics to write...The recess,play time n the assembly...I guess I remember my 11 n 12 th classes more than any thing else but my Years at De Paul,Kalpetta n Bhavan's,Calicut.....r worth saying...De Paul was the best-its true,guys....my concept of an ideal school life....Class X was boring...studies,tution,tension,first boards....I thought they wud kill me...

What did one know of the complexities of life then??? of Guys n gals(boys n girls then)...of love??? We respected our teachers,listened to them,did homework,played crazy games...wrote exams,brought parents to PTA meetings?(atcually we din bring them,they came)...n wore smart uniforms....We were actually scared of exams n used to study though not daily...Nowadays I wait 4 the study hols to open my books...My best memories r those of recitations n elecutions n all culturals...Annual days,Christmas celebrations,Onam pookalams...

Life sure was simple then....

But then there was no bunkin classes,no gang of friends to head to the canteen with,no gals to gossip with and of course....no guys to flirt with. All that came wth college...A sample of the Life outside...of the real World where u r destined to spent the rest of ur life time...

The innocence was lost,the cute smile lost......eyes full of hope...light....n joy.... all lost forever....Now the eyes r clouded...the twinkle in the eyes in lost,the spring in the steps is lost...I no longer walk...I run...always in a hurry....there is tension always...what to do next,where to go next n whom to call next....Studies,Jobs,Family,Responsibilities.......on those tiny shoulders which once carried a bag full of books...

I suppose it is the most discussed topic in the world n one that most number of ppl hav written bout...

So,what exactly is Love??? Wanna hear my definition..........

Well,to love someone is to care....so much 4 him/her evn more than yourself...u find urself living 4 a person...livin to see him/her smile...to love someone is to live 4 them...

I believe that Love is divine...It is not that u can love only a person at a time...We all love many people but in different ways n wth different intensities...n once u love a person there is no sayin no to it...the love goes on...n on...till ur last breath...no matter whether u want it or not...

Love

Is

For

Ever

And love is also bout...

Never expectin anythin,

Never demandin anythin,

and Never being possesive...bcoz it always spoils things...as far as I know...

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Almost all the guys I know hav had some bitter experience with love at least once in their Life time...They hav been rejected,left for better ones or decieved n cheated...Is this what leaves a gr8 impression n gives guys a good opinion bout all females in general???

Maybe gals r wiser in this area...Atleast the gals I know never reveal their true feelings unless they get to know a person well...They do flirt like guys but hav failed to get caught,lost in blind love n then atlast stop believin in love...I know a certain guy who claims to have had his way wth girls...never fallen in love but I always tell him...never be so confident,tera number aayega...One day U too will see the world with eyes dripping wth admiration 4 a certain person...

I always believed that Its by chance that things happen in life...But now I realize that was a misconception....Life gives you chances and Choices...U r always given options....Its the choice u make which affects your life...The ball is always in your court...its u who decide how to play...

Its your actions that matter...your words that count...It is u who hold the reins...watched over by God...who holds ur hand n helps u to walk...catches u while u fall...n is beside u thru out...

I've heard that Life is all bout being able to FORGET n FORGIVE...I don know if everyone is able to do it but I practice it as much as possible as this is what I tend to tell others...But is this always possible??? I don know for sure...

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Today is an unexpected holiday for me...A guy in my college met with an accident n he's gone...jus like that...The least the college authorities cud do is to declare a holiday today...I haven seen this guy nor do I know who he is...but I pray 4 his soul now...Let him Rest in peace...

This is Life,right??? very very unexpected...one moment u r here n the next...Khuda jaane??? Is there somethin u can guarentee....there is no guarentee to anything on earth...So,Its my policy to enjoy while I can...Life's too short to think bout it n repent later....Whatever I do,I ll never giv myself a chance to regret it...I am gonna keep myself that busy that I ll never time to think n regret things done...But then I am a person who always procrastinates...n is very very lazy...so most of the time I ll be sittin n day dreamin n repenting,countin my losses...regretin things...Stuff I did,said n thought....

Friday, August 8, 2008

Today happens to be my Birthday...n I'm real glad...Everythin went well today...The greatest pleasure was recievin a call from my best friend at skool...We had been out of touch 4 long...n it made me happy to spk to her...She's workin now n was tellin me bout her monotonous career life...I havent been fortunate enuf to kick start my career...but I hate to leave this simple life...My student life...Its been 17 lo..ng years since I've been learnin n I intend to learn thru out life...That's another matter...I consider myself lucky to have few but great friends...It is this week I learnt the truth that havin many friends doesn't count,its those who care that counts...A testi to the greatest of all relationships.......Friendship...Its pure,special n ........ somethin more...Love u all,my dear friends......