You know, we , or I, hid for so long, just ashamed. Now we live and want to join life. People can't understand the shame we felt living before. We were "safe" in other's eyes, but now we are part of the living, and they don't know what to do with us! I'm sure I am rambling, hope this makes sense to somebody! We are essentially like a new person moving in the neighborhood, workplace, etc. Everyone has to get to know us again because the old is dead.....

its kind of like, eventhough i am smaller and mor eacceptable, i do not fit in....or something. i dunno i need to think it thru in order to make it make sense. i'll be back to say something that makes better sense lol.

I have been trying to learn to live with these things also. There are some who I considered very good friends, people I knew for a LONG time, comfortable friends, and now they avoid me and one even stands there rolling her eyes and looking disgusted whenever someone asks me about my weight loss or the surgery and a conversations starts. Its funny but some people who never were very friendly to before are now all of the sudden "friendly" to me which bugs me too, what?, was I not good enough before but now I am??