No I had just buried my hubby and decided that I was going to make sure I lived life to the fullest and had no regrets. I wasn't thinking about cock at all...I just wanted to achieve some goals and dreams which included competing and travelling.

As someone who works out you should look forward to your thirties even more, 95% of the pretty boys you knew from your twenties will be fat bald guys in their thirties, if you are in shape then there is literally no competition.

I answered your question Kwon. If you want to know if I have recovered, yes I have. I accept what has happened. I always remember him though this time of year since it's coming up to the anniversary of his passing.