I felt under a cloud for most of this week - I have recently been let go from a full time job that I held for up to near 6 years. So I realized yesterday that I was going through the stages of letting go of that job and had felt a little depressed ( Cmon John !)... ok I was feeling terrible and under achieving and ok, I was feeling like a loser - at least sort of. There was another healthier self somewhere inside in dialogue with me but for the moment the wound-licker was winning.

At some point once it dawned on me that I had let go of something for the most part involuntarily that was a stable presence in my life for many years and now here I was an unemployed/self-employed/full time musician what-have-you. As my Irish granny figure might have said - no one died.

I do hope this new situation is an opportunity to go out into the world in New York and elsewhere and play to more people and try out different things - be an entrepreneur, be a songwriter full time bring all the talents to…

Sometimes they say life imitates Art - well maybe it does ... and maybe it does n't.

Last month I was 1099'd and now am self-employed; so far so good when I can roll with it and get work... To keep busy and some income to pay the bills I'm developing websites The latest and greatest has been for my friend and artist/musician/producer extraordinaire Peter Litvin - he's the clown dude! Anyway check it out on peterlitvinmusic.com.

I wrote the Unemployment Blues (ASCAP Award Winner) with C. when she was made redundant, let go or whatever transition it was ... and we wrote 'on the sofa like a slob' ... it ain't so; I seem to be busier than ever networking musically and business wise.