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Sorry You Are Leaving #MondayMusings

By Corinne Rodrigues on September 13, 2017

I wrote ‘Sorry you are leaving’ in response to a #FridayReflections prompt from Sanch Vee, while my Mom was in a coma, but didn’t publish it. I decided to publish it this Monday, the day after my Mom’s passing, but couldn’t do it either. So here you go, #MondayMusings on Wednesday.

Sorry You Are Leaving

Sorry you are leaving, Mum
But your time has come to go
It’s hard for us to say goodbye
For we love you so.

You and I have never had it easy
That’s the truth and you’d agree
We’d argue and fight fiercely
Holding very different views
But we loved each other deeply
That no one can refuse.

I’ve never been the daughter
You wanted me to be
But you know I couldn’t let that
Stop me from being ‘me’.

If there’s one thing we had in common
It’s our lack of sentimentality.
I learned from you not to hold on
To things from the past,
Because unlike love,
They’d never last.

You asked for living bouquets
Not for empty platitudes
So I’m telling you I love you
And expressing my gratitude.

I return you to the Maker
With a promise that I’ll do
Whatever I can to make
Your wishes come true.**

So be at peace, Mother
And rest with God above
May you be surrounded by love
Only love.

** My Mum didn’t want to be taken to Church and wanted no eulogies at her funeral. I’m happy to report that with a little help from me and a lot of help from the Universe, her wishes were respected.Would you like to take part in #MondayMusings?

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Corinne writes at Everyday Gyaan, reviews fiction at CorinneRodrigues.com and encourages writers and bloggers at Write Tribe and offers offline coaching to writers and bloggers at The Frangipani Creative, located in Secunderabad, India.

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Dear Corinne. My heart goes out to yours because I know even when it is expected it is not easy. So many ties. So many memories. Your poem though is a lovely tribute and I’m sure a source of comfort. And good for you for respecting your mother’s wishes about her way to pass. May we all find that strength when it comes time. ~Kathy

Oh, Corrine, I am so sorry to read about your mum’s passing! May her soul rest in peace!
The poem you wrote for her expressing your love for her is so beautiful and moving. I am sure she must be smiling at you from above and sending you her love.
Hugs to you, my dear! <3

I am sorry for your loss Corinne and hope your mother is in a better place. These words, I return you to the Maker’ is deep and perhaps many of us should understand. After all, respecting someone’s wishes is what we need to do as respect to someone’s memory.

Corinne…my heart goes to two strong ladies… your mom and you! Nothing else other than this poem, could have been the best good bye message ever!
At the start of the week when I could not see any post from you, I was just hoping that everything is fine at your end; Specially in the wake of your mother’s ailing health. It may sound rude, but going by my own experience of saying bye to my father… I would say that it was a great passage! She left peacefully!
Corinne you now have an angel up there!
– Anagha From Team MocktailMommies

Glad you shared your deepest thoughts and emotions in this post, Corinne. Sometimes, we understand our loved ones better on hindsight, reflecting on the moments we shared with them and then, realising that we always had a very special place for them in our hearts beyond hurt and anger. Your love for her is so evident in this beautiful poem, no matter the differences that came in between! May her soul rest in peace!

I could feel your heart well, Corinne. This is what I was feeling when my dad left us some 20 years back. A never repairable loss, it was. But still I believe he’s with us only. Hope your mom rest happily in the arms of God. Stay blessed always dear.

This is heart breakingly beautiful Corinne. I can so relate to it as Ma and I share a similar relationship.
This is such a tender, loving, heart-felt requiem for your mom, Corinne.
I’m sure she is reading this and smiling and shining her light over you from the heavens above.
Big, big hugs and much love to you.