Make your post...which I think you did. You don't need the chat room for help/venting. if you need to talk we are all here to listen. I will look out for your post...start it on the main forum. We all need to vent. I hope you are still wearing your shirt......I remember your last forum topic. Let us know if you need aything. Its tough. I am not a patient but a family member who lost loved one to this beast