20 October 2013

Mid October, and it was time to turn in a full draft. And, I did it!! Approximately 300 pages!

First, I printed a complete draft after convening with my accountability partner/ tutor and edited that hard copy. Then, I combined all my chapters into one softy copy document with my notes in a separate document. Then, I made a list of the things I HAD TO DO in order to turn it in -- including cleaning it up/citation work -- made those changes from the hard copy edit, and... Ta da!

Of course, my conclusion needs work, and I need to wait to see how my Chair responds, but it is in!!! And, on time!

And, all of this, I have done whilst visiting my partner in (often) sunny Alaska. Good to feel like I am living while I am writing.

09 October 2013

Last weekend was the Second International Babaylan Conference.
After working with the marketing and organizing these last several months, and I am grateful to have
enjoyed the fruit of the conference/retreat.
I came away with a ceremonial headband from the northern tribes of the
Philippines as well as with a connection to a tribal dancing group being formed
this next month. YES! This is what I
have been wanting.

Moreover, I also was able to continue to work through issues
I bring up in my dissertation while at the retreat: the desire to belong,
alienation as a deep wound, and a language that includes the multiethnic. I’m
still learning how to be proud of my Mestiza
ethnicity and culture, and I was grateful for those Mestizas/os at the retreat who created safe space for me to process
some of the grief.

Thankfully, I was able to move into more of a leadership
role with the next Babaylan event. I
coordinated the Filipina-American Ritual/Opening Ceremony at the Asian Art
Museum. It was much easier for me to
feel like I belonged with a set role in the day’s activities. And, it all turned out so well. Our altar was covered with a diverse array of
handwoven fabrics from the tribes in the Philippines. Then, fruit of the Philippines (pineapples,
bananas, etc) covered the fabric. Just gorgeous!!

And, the ritual itself, with gangsa, dancers, and
babaylan-inspired procession leaders, was so transformative. We chanted and prayed and carried baybayin
banners with the words “creativity” and “renew” translated. Altogether, there was about 30 of us
including a Mestiza friend from
school! And, my dear friends from Kularts, CIIS and Bay Area, and the Farm came out!

Overall, I feel such a great sense of accomplishment and
connection. Grateful, also, to have a
bit more space to write with these events done and done well.

Last, I want to note the power of vulnerability in my writing. As I’ve been editing my writing, I’ve been editing
a friend’s writing. We've been sharing our work, and I've been so impressed by my friend's work in particular. She writes:

“I am fortunate to have received an education
that was both interdisciplinary and academically rigorous, where the classroom
was the location where self-empowerment and agency were the byproduct of a
shared commitment to excellence through learning.”

With her “assets and strengths” as her “toolkit,”
she writes that she carries “a sensitivity to cultural diversity, an inherent
intellectual inquisitiveness combined with a critical lens” and also a “transformative
pedagogical praxis.”

I am so inspired by
this sister’s way of writing, and as I shared my work with her, she was
inspired as well. Now, that’s
community.

Cristina Golondrina

Cristina holds a doctorate in Philosophy and Religion. She is a multiethnic women of color. Sometimes she is read as white, sometimes racially identified as “non-white/other.” She is a writer and artist exploring the themes she analyzed in her dissertation: themes of being mixed race, multilocational, and the affects of racism and colonialism in her body, in her writing, and in the literature she reads.