i guess this blog is about my journey with weight loss and getting healthy

I just went on my progress page and noticed that I’ve only lost 7 lbs in the last six months!!!! that is just unacceptable to me. I knew I was stahling and not progressing, but I think I was in denial at how long it has been. How depressing! something has got to change. My binging and eating crap is what has to change. my mind set has to change. I have to get with the program, or I will never lose any more weight. I know maintaining is still great, but its not where I want to be. I want to get to a normal healthy weight of about 135-140!!

round, thank you so much for your comment. I think we must be a lot alike… I have heard a lot of people say that they had trouble getting past the 180 mark. May be it is because of the fact that the clothes are easier to buy, and yes, i do feel so much more normal than I use to. I feel much healther and energetic, but its just not where I want to end up. I want to move forward and lose the rest of this weight so bad. I appreciate your words. thank you

I do believe i “eat” my emotions and problems instead of talking them out. Honestly though, I dont see any other solution. my problems have no solution, at least not at the moment. but, i know eating them is no solution either, and its just causing me more stress and depression.

next week we are going camping, for thanksgiving…. I really dont know how I will stay on track with a camping trip, but I will try. wish me luck.

3 Responses to “omg…freaking out”

I’m stuck too.. I have been doing the exact same thing, I get to 172 and go back to 175 and go back again. The thing about you is that you know how to lose weight. You’ve already lost over 100 lbs. It’s just a matter of doing what you did before and not making those small allowances for this and that. I think it is those little “oh a bite won’t hurt”s that get us in this trouble.

On Friday I went to Old Navy because they were having an incredible sale. I tried a pair of size 14 pants that I own in another colour and they were too tight, I thought this is weird, and then I tried the 16s and they were tight too.. I almost burst into tears. Instead I decided that I really need to get back to it in a very serious way. So I’m joining your bandwagon! Let’s do this!

Actually I think pausing at a weight is a good thing for a while…. it lets us practice maintenance (paying attention & not losing) which is what we need to do long term no matter what weight we settle at.

And even if the new lower weight is more comfortable than being heavier was, I think with time that starts to wear off, and the desire to get smaller again builds. I have days when I’m pretty happy to be into most of my clothes again now. And I have days where I look down at my belly or thighs and think ‘ugh, need to lose this’. I think with timem the ‘ughs’ start to take over and the willingness to do what is needed to lose again kicks in.

But one thing I learned was that the same strategy that got me down to the 180s didn’t work to get me down lower. (Back in 2002 I had to really up the exercise to get moving down again). I had built up the desire to lose, I was willing to do more & it worked.

Your going camping?? Cool…. Where do you live any way? It is pretty cold here; I think camping would be rough! I hope the trip goes well…. I must say I can totally relate to you… I have only lost 3 lbs in the last 3 months…. I think it is a combo of stress from nursing school, a lack of time, and a lack of planning. I feel ok that I maintained for that time, but I really want to lose another 45 to 50 lbs…. So I am over halfway but I gotta get moving again! I know you can do it! Look at what you have done so far!! Keep up posted… I like reading your blog.