there comes a time when self doubts and uncertainties creep into your mind and you wonder if what you are doing is the best thing. unlike math, there is no formula in life that calculates and spits out values or absolute answers of what is the best for you. as long as you do what your heart desires, it is the right thing to do. i feel like the last little while my life has been a roller coaster ride, sometimes soaring sky high and other times simply free falling. recently, i have been in limbo whether i have lost track of what i am doing and if that is still where my interest lies. i don’t want to be endlessly chasing something just because someone said i have to or just doing it for the sake of doing it. been putting a lot of thought into finding all the answers to what i really value, what i want to achieve in life, what i want to be known for, what legacy i want to leave behind and ultimately what path i want to take. i have gotten answers in some aspects, but i still have much to figure out. i understand these money answers will not come overnight because no one will ever have it crystal clear in its entirety and it is something one will take a lifetime to find out. john lennon once said, “everything will be okay. if it’s not okay, it’s not the end.” as long as i am progressing, i will let everything come to me and take it one step at a time, one answer at a time. stay true to yourself and don’t be afraid to follow your heart, follow your dreams. it also happens to be my motto i live by

decision making is a skill that humans slowly develop over time, but one may not notice it is not an innate skill. every child starts off with their parents doing the decision making because we are too young to make sensible choices. i have always had my parents make decisions for me no matter how big or small and that carried through to up and including university. i started later than most people and have developed too much reliance on my parents and others which may be the cause of my often indecisiveness. all i ever did was go with the flow and following the the instructions they give. but there comes a time when they have to slowly let go and let me make more of the decisions. sometimes the choices i make will be good and sometimes not so good, but its all a part of growing up and a learning curve that i must make. sure enough my parents will always be in the background giving me logical advice to consider because they’ve been through something i haven’t yet. sometimes it’s as simple as choosing the shoe i want to wear, which may seem harder than it really is. but i am slowly getting the hang of it by taking charge of my choices and paving for the road i want to travel

every person runs their own race at their own pace and only they can control their own destiny. there’s a definite start to the race in life, but indefinite finish line, so how is success measured?? knowing that we need to improve in one thing, but knowing how to make that improvement is another. everyone should be constantly evolving and changing in one form or another, the lack motivation to improve may have dangerous consequences because no one wants to be left behind in the dust. i want to be the person that sets my own limit and leads the pack, someone who others would want to catch up to and not be spending my time chasing the pack. its important to me to set goals and work hard to constantly take steps forward towards making that goal achievable. i am trying me best to take every opportunity to make the necessary adjustments in order to get better not for others, but for myself. work hard at what i believe is right and value and don’t look back to regret what i should have and could have done. because the knowledge i attain, the skills i acquire, the distinctions i receive are all things that i naturally should do feel proud of, not because someone said i should. the climb towards setting my standards and setting my own limit only gets steeper, and only when i reach a small peak is when there’s a little plateau to realize how far i have come. the ultimate goal is not about being the best, its about being better than you were yesterday and doing the best you can possibly achieve

not everyone has the same strengths and weaknesses. everyone is born with certain gifts, talents and aspirations that will lead them down their own path. just following the a crowd and taking what is deemed a safe route isn’t going to get me anywhere in life. life is all about finding myself and understanding who i really am. that’s what makes me, me. just because i am not taking the same path as my buddies, doesn’t mean that they are not readily available to support me every step of the way. there may be lots of darkness, obstacles and uncertainties but at the end of every tunnel is light that leads to bigger and better things. getting past a stumble or struggle makes all achievements me more appreciative of the success. the decision is mine as to whether i want to go down the easy path and end up doing something i have little interest in or the less traveled path that will allow me do the things in my realm of interest. all i have to do is accept the challenges and persevere then i am confident i will reach my destination. at the end of the day, i want to feel good taking this path and doing what i do. afterall what comes easy won’t last, what lasts won’t come easy. never divert your path in life due to others opinions

ruco chan’s newest song is currently at the top of my playlist ever since i downloaded the song. the tune and lyrics are very well written and seem to represent my feelings at times. i have been thoroughly impressed with ruco chan and been one of my recent favourites in tvb, appearing in many larger production tvb series with good casting roles