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You could call this a personal creative fiction journal about a world traveler and his evolving life.
He saw the warmth of Americans vanish with the once large friendly middle class. Was there a Camelot, when we thought of ourselves as a good nation?
The powers that be have been holding our country hostage since Reagan took away the power of the unions and Neoconservatives took over the Republican Party!
Will we ever stop our declining ways?
(sorry for typos!)

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Well, I made it safely to Mermaid Beach and now I've found a cyber cafe in Surfer's paradise after playing a couple games of chess on Cavell Avenue. It's also nice to find a little herb to deal with Dad's death while I swim and surf in the beautiful ocean. Dad has such a beautiful view from his flat on the beach. I want to keep this place in our family despite the pressure to sell. Real estate has gone sky high on Hedges Avenue!

Dad's funeral is on Sunday and I visited with the Anglican minister who will be giving the service.

FridayToday was another gorgeous day but it's not so fun all alone thinking of the family. We were all together on the beach with our other close families 40 years ago. I wish that my old self could go back and talk to my young self to enjoy myself as much as possible and how much I would have had becoming Australian! There are so many young Asians that are allowed here and wishing that I had the chance to really grow up here and even bring…

My father is about to die in Australia. My brother and I have to make the decision about whether to put him on a ventilator. My brother is against the idea and also the doctor. The doctor just called me from the hospital continuing to stress the dignity of his death berses just prolonging his death in 4 or 5 days.

I wished that he had just let me spent time with him when I had taken time off from working. Muffy is one of the few now to comfort me through this but I just have a feeling that Dad might be able to make it through. It sounds selfish, but I do want to see him. I could sense the Doctor was continuing to be condescending to me.

I've had a few more chats especially the chats with two friendly couples asking for help in my time of need while everything doesn't register. Ron and I were just waiting for the time for it to happen!

I want Dad to fight. Mom knows how he is still is so important in my life...I go into a spiritual mode with my survival instinct thinking Dad is so…

Just two weeks left! I was telling Raphael over an evening game of chess outside on a very warm spring evening in the desert how this is the best time of the year. All the teachers are relaxed because they have their 3 good reasons to be a teacher (June, July and August) ....more than half the resident teachers of the potential utopia are leaving.I was thinking last night as 5 of us solved the world problems over some Bud wiser, how great it would be if all of us were together in the same school with our varying degrees of liberal intellectualism. (Buffy is looking at me right now in between pants after she raced to keep up with me on Mark's mt. bike as I type away to you telling her how much I love her). I was telling Mr. Rauch on our intellectual evening binge combined with a mt. bike ride during the heat of the day. I was doing my best just trying to keep up with his wife on the ride let alone these young studs on bikes! All of it was the best weekend of the whole year!I got to…

Sei di Maggio!Not sure how to spell the Italian for the 6th of May on a lazy warm Saturday spring day! I figure that I have 10 minutes to chat with you before I head on out to the flea market in the city in the middle of these high altitude Indian reservations just west of the continental divide. All water I use heads to the EL Pacifico. (That was a good beer while eating fish on one of the beaches in Puerto Vallarte! I won the lottery at this Woodlake Tennis Club tournament lottery about 20 years ago! Another time, another life when most of these teachers around me were still ingrammar school! Fraulein Schmidt is the only older teacher in My cul de sac!)

I have visions of next year bringing more teachers together by sponsoring some sort of party (BYOB and herb) at least once per month! I wonder why I should be so secretive about good herb because it lowers your blood pressure and puts you into just the right amount of euphoria to celebrate life!..the only time in this particular shell…

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its good to be working again, even if its only subbing to get my mind off that my son was taken away by x and selfish xinlaws who want to enjoy his youth in their own dreary life

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Kelly Fleming remembers the low point of raising her son, Jory.
He was eight years old when he spent an entire morning, afternoon and evening wailing uncontrollably. She still doesn’t know what set off the boy, who has autism and a metabolic disorder.
But the tough times seem more bearable now, at the high point. Last month, Jory, who is 22 with a feeding tube inserted in his stomach and braces on his legs, was awarded a Rhodes Scholarship.
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. September 8th happy that my family is together just trying to live one day at a time one moment at a time life is short I love my son so much I'm at a Crossroads in my life to decide to become a teacher I write my book it's a matter of putting several pages together and then figuring out which stories all the best and I need to get Help from My Friends even perhaps my neighbors but the judgmentalism of the human nature intimidates me more than anything I had another beautiful day with my son we went to some family therapy with a good counselor who has played a couple of family games the Dynamics would help us appreciate my ex coming back today for the sake of our beautiful son! I have to pinch myself and I'm blessed to be his father and I shouldn't be last I'm doing everything that I can with him I have to overcome that often disability of laziness....tomorrow... domani!n

the story of my life,,, sad i cant even borrow some fold up chairs for the evening :( s…

i went downstairs to admire the almost full waning moon...
realizing my own mortality...
i think of a friend who had his wake up call at a much younger age
and then i get a glimmer of what my own mortality could be
when i walk across Hedges ave.
and suddenly see double with much better acuity...
it was bizarre
i closed either eye and didnt see double
but then I could walk just shutting one eye
to a chair
to see my beloved ocean one more time
and eat a halloween mini candy bar
the uneasy feeling wondering when the double image
fades away with each bite

hypoglycemia or
a mini stroke....

and I hug my son that evening
and play frisbee with my son more than i ever have
having discovered my son's new toy hidden among
the seaweed about a 100 meters out from shore...

the feelings run across my mind that night,
with frustration at my own body's fragile shell
and the necessary need to establish the bucket list....

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its good to be working again, even if its only subbing to get my mind off that my son was taken away by x and selfish xinlaws who want to enjoy his youth in their own dreary life

I get down but then Im invigorated with an autistic student that wins a Rhodes Scholarship and is going to Oxford!

Kelly Fleming remembers the low point of raising her son, Jory.
He was eight years old when he spent an entire morning, afternoon and evening wailing uncontrollably. She still doesn’t know what set off the boy, who has autism and a metabolic disorder.
But the tough times seem more bearable now, at the high point. Last month, Jory, who is 22 with a feeding tube inserted in his stomach and braces on his legs, was awarded a Rhodes Scholarship.
In between came Ms. Fleming’s decision to give up on her own dream of practicing medicine, home schooling Jory, learning to read, a bird named Federer and finally college and a dog named Daisy.
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the story of my life,,, sad i cant even borrow some fold up chairs for the evening :( s…

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﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿﻿ ﻿ ﻿ ﻿ ﻿﻿﻿﻿This lady who calls herself a journalist took offense to an article written by a journalist named Sullivan who used to like Bush. He stated that critics of Obama lack intelligence. She and fox love to criticize our president because she gets paid to cut down Obama and show her pretty face , but actually looks likes she's had a messed up nose job since this photo was taken in her prime years. ﻿﻿﻿﻿ ﻿﻿ I don't watch TV let alone Faux News (even though fox is the only cable news show here in Oz) since our TV went into a coma, but I have seen how rude this lady and other fox anchors have become to their guests. I believe they are trained to be this way so they can bully their guests enough so the audience will have believe the host of the right wing biased shows. "40-year old Megyn Kelly is a mommy again! The FOX News star gave birth to a baby girl on Thursday, the network announced on the air. The girl, Yardley Evans, was born at 10 AM on Thursday a…

do other folks all over the world have an obsession with their fantasy of the ultimate "hippie stoner girl"and my site comes up...?? always intrigued with the hilarious searches that come up with my site....
and how do I segue into the next topic...
well, sometimes we have the best thoughts especially over a good game of chess,
our best moments from our current crop of leaders could have been after a good doobie! ie clinton, Obama, maybe even Bush actually thought he could be president... and the plan evolved when he was doing a Jamaican joint perhaps with the great Karl Rove, the wizard of the dark side

....I'm watching Obama talk about killing the 2nd in command for terrrorists...so if we were to be looking at a football game... the heart of republican thinking with a high testosterone for patriotism and dominating the world... Obama just scored a touchdown!! even though we've been behind from the start with a very hostile crowd booing and cheering at most often inap…

Lord, or the universal energies that give you periodic signs , sometimes more and more frequently, ie. I said Baby,,, the tv says baby girl...
there's a word I just say and the tv says it almost synchronistical...
I have so many things to do... and I wake up and I don't say wanna see all these bills , esp. gold coast rates! 1200 per month.. my tenant, Jesus, does not pay enough in rent to cover half of the bills, yet I am so poor...
aaa..... but I finally get to be with my son today, since my x bought her car and has a sales job coming up... she has been taking everywhere along with long walkabouts in the huge expanse of Okc and its white flight suburbs...
to be continued.. I really need to get a cheap wifi.. so that I know Im at least writing to you and my muse/benefactor, Leigh Anne...

hoping we will get some of this published , if whatever funds that she has helped me find like a "TREASURE HUNT"but the old man is too lazy to get off his ass and start filling o…

When will Americans finally say "Fuck you" to the Saurons and Republicons who are systematically destroying the world as we currently know it..
they have their Saruman(wizard of the dark side) in the shape of the porker Karl Rove, sounding now like a veritable voice of reason for the party...
which is being led Right over the cliffs with the leaders of the tea flake party! He is seeing the party go down the toilet, because he knows most sane americans won't vote for the lunatics on the fringe!

I was chatting with my very good friend, Charles, over the possible future/fate of our country and how scary it could possibly become within the next few years!... what if Bush and the Neocon party were really behind the "implosions" of the twin towers, when the explosions went off inside the buildings as they fell as perfectly straight down as thelarge hotels that were imploded on purpose in Vegas!
They have been succesful in their strategy since Reagan and Bush senior …

I was reading last night at Border's about ADD and romance. It helps me understand myself and what I could have done differently in past relationships. There is a deep desire to be hyperfocused on somethings such as romance. The person with ADD constantly is seeking stimulation. When the stimulation is gone , the love sours often. At first in the impulsivity of the action you are putting all your efforts into the relationship so much so that often lovers of the ADDers are the happy receptacles of the best lovemaking and more attention than they have ever received.

It really helps when I read these books to get over my own disability and lack of focus in my life. There are many famous folks that have blossomed with their disability such as Edison, Churchill, Lincoln and Einstein. Both Churchill and Lincoln were documented to suffer from deep black depressions. I wonder how they would have been if they had tried the medication. Would they be able to tolerate or even not have these m…

i went downstairs to admire the almost full waning moon...
realizing my own mortality...
i think of a friend who had his wake up call at a much younger age
and then i get a glimmer of what my own mortality could be
when i walk across Hedges ave.
and suddenly see double with much better acuity...
it was bizarre
i closed either eye and didnt see double
but then I could walk just shutting one eye
to a chair
to see my beloved ocean one more time
and eat a halloween mini candy bar
the uneasy feeling wondering when the double image
fades away with each bite

hypoglycemia or
a mini stroke....

and I hug my son that evening
and play frisbee with my son more than i ever have
having discovered my son's new toy hidden among
the seaweed about a 100 meters out from shore...

the feelings run across my mind that night,
with frustration at my own body's fragile shell
and the necessary need to establish the bucket list....

I'm excited about the video "Sherman's March" coming in about this man's historical documentary "evolving into an improbable search for love". I need to see if I can show it to Muffy as she would she the similarity between this man and me. It is so amazing that I have been thinking about how this website could evolve into a movie also. There have been so many funny things happening in this story. I like to think of these types of coincidences as signs from above. I feel that the spirits that are wanting to guide me are telling me to do this. Muffy badly wants me to get a laptop so that I can easily download pictures and film from the camcorder that I'm investing in. I have not smoked anything yet today, so I am completely sober in this vision.

I woke up to another beautiful gorgeous day just begging for me to go outside and enjoy it. I can feel love and hope in the atmosphere on a crystal clear warm day in December. I feel that there is hope for huma…

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You could call this a personal creative fiction journal about a world traveler and his evolving life.
He saw the warmth of Americans vanish with the once large friendly middle class. Was there a Camelot, when we thought of ourselves as a good nation?
The powers that be have been holding our country hostage since Reagan took away the power of the unions and Neoconservatives took over the Republican Party!
Will we ever stop our declining ways?
(sorry for typos!)

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its good to be working again, even if its only subbing to get my mind off that my son was taken away by x and selfish xinlaws who want to enjoy his youth in their own dreary life

I get down but then Im invigorated with an autistic student that wins a Rhodes Scholarship and is going to Oxford!

Kelly Fleming remembers the low point of raising her son, Jory.
He was eight years old when he spent an entire morning, afternoon and evening wailing uncontrollably. She still doesn’t know what set off the boy, who has autism and a metabolic disorder.
But the tough times seem more bearable now, at the high point. Last month, Jory, who is 22 with a feeding tube inserted in his stomach and braces on his legs, was awarded a Rhodes Scholarship.
In between came Ms. Fleming’s decision to give up on her own dream of practicing medicine, home schooling Jory, learning to read, a bird named Federer and finally college and a dog named Daisy.
“All children have amazing minds,” Ms. Fleming says. “Their brains…

. September 8th happy that my family is together just trying to live one day at a time one moment at a time life is short I love my son so much I'm at a Crossroads in my life to decide to become a teacher I write my book it's a matter of putting several pages together and then figuring out which stories all the best and I need to get Help from My Friends even perhaps my neighbors but the judgmentalism of the human nature intimidates me more than anything I had another beautiful day with my son we went to some family therapy with a good counselor who has played a couple of family games the Dynamics would help us appreciate my ex coming back today for the sake of our beautiful son! I have to pinch myself and I'm blessed to be his father and I shouldn't be last I'm doing everything that I can with him I have to overcome that often disability of laziness....tomorrow... domani!n

the story of my life,,, sad i cant even borrow some fold up chairs for the evening :( s…

I was reading your blog and I'm sorry that you have had a very rough challenging life... Maybe one day you will read this and I want to say sorry. I hope one day you can forgive me... I would like to write more to you but I know that all my neighbors read this...

life is actually going better... I am so happy to be with my son and thinking one day at a time eventually he will be in Oz.. on our paradise on the beach!he

I go outside and visualize walking out to the sunny beach instead of our backyard with a view of the neighbors, wondering if they will leave curtains open..(oops forget).
just the thought of some people I know reading this and taking it the wrong way...
but I digress, enjoying a lansy weekend with my son.... loving the aspect of enjoying a weekend with no worries.., trying to enjoy the warmest weekend in January, thankful that this hopeful agnostic has prayed for help with his place in Oz... sometimes things seem to fall in place...e
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