I am literally so mad right now.. I have no one to talk to and I need to get a lot of my chest! ugh I need someone to talk to privately, if anyone would and would not be a judge mental ass hole. I need to rant to someone lol.

Why don't you join anxiety zone wire. There is a link in the top right hand corner of the page. Once there begin a blog and rant away. Nobody will judge you at all. Heck we are all in the same boat. People are here to help if they can. You can also rant away here on the forum, if you can make the post minus swear words. Not as easy as it sounds at times. People will read your post and reply.