"I never knew what enough was,
Until I'd had more than my share"
- Inconsolable, Jonatha Brooke

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

More delays

Got a call this morning from the PA in my PCP's office. I am being sent to a liver specialist although the things found in my ultrasound -- a hemangioma and fatty liver -- are "probably nothing to worry about." Hmm, right. My luck's not so great, so I will wait to see what the specialist says; fortunately, I won't have to wait long, as my appointment is January 8th.

Also glad I never canceled the RE appointment... that's scheduled for 1/17. Am I even going to know whether it's problematic to consider getting pregnant at that point? Likely no; but perhaps he can refer us to a urologist to check on G.

Oh, yeah... and am thinking that I may need to go back on antidepressants. I am having trouble wanting to do anything at work and this isn't even a remotely stressful job. I'm also pretty down about the chances we'll ever have a baby at this rate. Holiday cards chock full of pictures of "families of five" certainly didn't help -- and there were LOTS of those this year. I'm sad, I'm lethargic, I want to do nothing but lie on the couch... probably not a good sign in terms of my ability to handle all the emotional stuff that's likely to come in the months ahead.

3 Comments:

I'm not surprised you are down after all the loss you have had to contend with. The ADs I know can really help, I'm hoping they'll be good for you. I also hope that there is nothing seriously wrong with your liver. That really is a low blow.

About Me

37 years old, TTC#1, miscarriages in January and July of 2005. Septate uterus and homozygous MTHFR discovered in '05, MFI in '06. Diagnosed with Hodgkin's lymphoma in '07 so TTC is on hold. A healthy dose of crazy added to spice things up. Hoping that one of these days we'll be able to make it stick.