Ultimately, I found myself 'forced to divorce' myself from not
only the band (the manager had long since jumped ship), but the husband as well.
I let the natural current of the times take me
back to London, away from what we liked to call 'sophisticated' (the Thinking
Man's) Heavy Metal into the still throbbing trend of Dance/techno/trance.On that part of the journey down-river, I swam against the tide; hated
the trendiness and sophistry to image over substance. I wanted to be an individual, and ultimately felt too many samples of my
voice were being taken and the music was going round and round and coming out
nowhere.Acetates.. white labels..
DJ's giving a track a spin for a night.

**In
one particular well-remembered incident, I was asked to create a complete
vocal line (no sampling-shock!) over 3 tracks by a DJ/production team for
Pyramid Records. They had the use of the BBC Mobile unit (sometimes borrowed by Peter Gabriel) for
a weekend to lay it all down and mix. I started singing what I'd written
and the guy ( I cannot remember his name for love or money) became agitated and
stopped me . He could make out 'words'. He didn't want
to hear words. He wanted the voice to just be another instrument in the
mix. OK. Fine.. whatever... We recorded three
tracks, which I still 'like' to this day, but when it came to the one live gig at
the Ministry of Sound in London one mid-week night, there were no
surprises. I was, once again, reminded NOT to SING any 'WORDS' and
had to stand OUT OF SIGHT behind the desk, but this producer insisted on
bringing in a real drum kit and placing it in point of pride in front of the
sound desk. He then spent the 40 minutes of our set beating out his own
4/4 rhythms to the music. Sound like a good
time??? People in this neck of the woods are wacky and
self-indulgent. I would like to say they're as much 'fun' as all the drugs and
wild, starry-eyed nights would promise... but really... when you get down
to it, they're not.

Next,
by a
chance encounter came a brief flutter with a
well-financed independent label that wanted to promote 'ELECTRA' as a solo artist; a blend of
Brigitte Bardot, Robert Plant and that french geezer who wrote, 'Harley-Davidson
Of a Bitch'. I loved the ex-CBS A&R guy's ideas and complimentary and clearly
astute
view of 'Electra' as a solo artist and potential entity, but time drifted on and no ink dried on any
paper (of course.. what I didn't find out 'til after the fact.. my A&R guy..
the one in my corner.. got fired.. so there was NOBODY in my corner). I retreated north to my heart
home and the house I still had matrimonial rights to as a result of my divorce.

At least I'd done something right.

So...
like a long drive up Interstate 5 from Salinas to San Francisco, the
mid-90's found me
living in Edinburgh and working with dance/R&B producer Dave
Galbraith (Wonderlust Music) on a project he called 'Eva Luna'.Concurrently,
I was hired out-of-the-blue as a session singer fronting 'The Steve Martland Band'; a 40-piece
brass band with lyrics.We opened the South Bank Festival in London at the Queens
Hall and a week later performed for Prince Charles at the Princes Trust in
Wales. Boy.. did that suck. Try it
some time.. try singing when you've left your true heart in some other place,
some other time, some other recording studio, with some other people...

No longer satisfied in any
part with the direction my musical 'career' was taking, I left the UK and said
good-bye to any musical involvements for 5 years. During that long march
through the
desert Ivisited Hong
Kong,
lived and married again (a lovely young sweet innocent and RICH architect!) in Singapore, optioned rights to the
now published book I'd
worked on with my friend, author Will Lorimer, and spent time working on and
pitching a screenplay
in Australia - 'The Sydney Saga' indeed, this was followed by 3 years in San Francisco with
numerous drive-by visits to LA to pitch the script.Managed the Vorpal
Gallery, the largest fine art gallery in SF, for about a year and a half of that
time. Was also invited to do a stint as a pole dancer in Vegas. (I had to add that bit as whenever people see me out
partying/dancing, they ask "were you ever a pole dancer'?????!!!!!"
I don't know
if it's a complement!? It's always the primates who ask. I might as well add,
when I was 18 I was invited to work in a fabulously 'high class' brothel on Park
Avenue. That means they say 'pardon me' before they shove it up your a*se. I don't know how these women do these things.
Sometimes, money is just NOT
enough.)

Anyway....still
in California... got divorced again. Fell
in love with a blue-eyed Berkeley boy and planned
to remarry, but let that one go by. Came
back to London for the total eclipse of the sun on 11 August 1999 and the next
day went up to see my first ex-husband in Edinburgh for the Festival.

At
5:30am after an Orbital gig in Princes Street Gardens - I met and fell in love with the man who
would encourage me to
write music again.The songs on the
CD’s – CRAWL, ROUGH DIAMOND’s and NATURAL E are some of the 50-60 songs
I’ve written and produced during this period, working solo.

In 2002 the
song ‘Crawl’ finalled in the UK
Songwriting Contest (check Contestants' News page).In early 2003 I was invited to perform ‘Crawl’ at the New York
International Music Festival opening night gala at Madison Square Garden and at
other clubs in Manhattan. I
was invited to perform more material at the Las Vegas leg of the NY Music Fest -
Palms Hotel - in July
03 and again at the LA leg of the Festival in September ’03.

I was
cited as Best Female Alt/Rock Vocalist by the NY Music Festival promoters for my
performances in LA and picked up that

In April 2003
after 11 years and 3 different sets of legal counsel, my rights to all of the
songs written in collaboration with Ian Jones were returned to me, so I can say,
hand on heart, I own
my songs. I proceeded to set up MGCK Music as the publishing arm of
my ownership. On the most recent trip to LA, I agreed to a pro bono representation
arrangement with agent Alexis Wright.She’s been pitching ‘Crawl’ and ‘That Boy’ to other
artists/managers.

My writing at present
freely embraces all the styles of music
I've been exposed to and loved, and all
of my songs are reflective of some genuine life experience and emotion.
I simply can't 'concoct' music. Well... I can.. but don't like to.

In
2005 I set up the publishing and artist management company MGCK Music
Limited That has INDEED been a struggle, but the great joy is
knowing I own my own life and time and answer to no one except whoever my 'GOD'
is on any given day.

Of
course... it's now 2008 and
more things have happened. Been performing LIVE with ALTRES quite a lot.
Visit
the weblog for day-to-day ponderings on what's
been goin' on....

And,... it's now 2012 and after many losses of life (to those I held near
and dear) all of 'showbiz' seems vulgar and vanity driven. I can't
really get in step with it any more. But I do still love to sing in
the shower, in the car, in the living room and from the mountain tops!

As
always, (well, not any more really) I
always look forward to collaborating with
other songwriters, programmers, producers across a wide variety of musical
styles and emotional content.A
little humour helps. I was pleased to have Paul Di'Anno (ex Iron Maiden
and connected to my ex bass player Gavin Cooper) contact me via MYSPACE the
other day. You see... it's good for finding people who you thought were
gone forever. Unfortunately, it can also help the people you HOPED were
gone forever FIND YOU!!

About being an ‘adult’ and a woman
in the world/of the world... I make no
apologies for where I've been or where I'm going, so bring it
on until it's over.