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Friday, December 12, 2014

I'm such a fool.

You know how sometimes you want (and expect and wait for) people to change and realize something that you've seen all along but they don't, so you just watch them make the same mistakes over and over again without being able to change the situation around you/them? That sucks. There are days when I feel like a fool because, somehow, I always end up thinking that I can save people, that I can make them feel the way I feel... But that doesn't seem to work.

I recently discovered that I have a fear of commitment and relationships, I think that's why I haven't had many girlfriends, I think too much and I want things to be perfect. When they're less that that, less than ideal, I lose interest. Well, the best thing you can do after finding stuff like that about yourself is try to work things out in the future, prepare yourself, stop being such a fool...