Friday, September 7, 2012

If I were to ask you, if you like to receive bad, uncomfortable news. News that completely rocks you to the core, I'm sure you would look at me like an idiot. No one likes to feel hurt, pain, confusion. Sucky feelings suck. If we could live a life of complete ignorant bliss (and some of us do), we would all be giddy robots with a dumb ass grin forever plastered on our face. But we aren't robots and we all have a myriad of emotions, some not so nice. In the words of N.E.R.D. "Sooner or later, it all comes crashing down". Nothing stays pretty forever. Be it looks, relationships, or that old chaos filled brain of ours.

Call me crazy, but I accept those down times. In all my emo glory, I actually welcome it. We are meant to experience life in all of its weird, fu*ked up, beautiful nature. We are suppose to fall all the way down, feeling the cracked pavement of hard knocks street. Because that's how we begin to appreciate life at its core. We make it through and all of a sudden, that sun is a bit brighter. That pain is a tad easier to bear each day. And when those blessings start to roll in, you are truly thankful for them. You relish in them, because you know they won't last forever. See, even a pessimistic hermit can look on the bright side!

So that's my challenge for us. To recognize when we are experiencing those tough times, travel through any and all waves of emotions that are placed in our path. Entertain any thought, from denial towards acceptance. And shed it all once your done. You will be surprised how lighter your heart fills when you chose to lift that boulder of your past from it...

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

I'm on a mission. A mission to be better than I was today, tomorrow. I know, I sound like a damn infomercial. But it's true. I tend to dwell. I'm a dweller in the land of negativity. I always remember, with such vividness, the shit that went wrong. But the good things? Well, they remain clouded by the bullshit. Its time to do something different. To make a conscious decision to be better. To take care of oneself the way we do others. And I no longer feel that's selfish. I use to believe that putting my needs above those I love is the most selfish thing I could do. But now that I reflect, not putting my needs in the forefront has left me picking dust off my face. Because while I'm worrying about everything and everybody else, my needs are leaving me on the side of the highway. And who's come to save me? Anybody? Nope still here.

So it's taken my entire life, all 27 years of it, to realize that I must be tended to. Because if I don't, no one will.

So here's my mission (join me if you are moved to). To stop being a people pleaser and conclusion jumper. To make my needs among the most important, and to take damn good care of me. That isn't impossible, its vital to our personal happiness. And don't we all deserve a lil slice of that?...

About Me

I'm an old soul, with the spirit of a child. Slighly neurotic. Heart resides on my sleeve. Blessed with souls that love me, unconditionally. Loves those worth loving, with all I am. Harbors obsessive cumpulsive tendencies with a twist of hermit quality. Pessimistic, but always the dreamer. What lies within? An actor, dancer, writer, learner and lover of life. Forever seeking, forever evolving.. And I'm just gettin started...