A collection of poems, songs, and my occasional insight into the world around me.

Monday, November 18, 2013

This poem was inspired by the countless stories of pain and overcoming told to me by friends and so many beautiful people. Pull up a seat, this ain't short and sweet! LOL!

The Story Adrielle Bollin

Darkest of hours and all of their weight The deepest of shadows revealing such hate The sickness that held me and made me a slave The evil that lurked tracking it's prey Where you had found me alone in my fright Weary and beaten, abused day and night Rest had long left and fear would reside Ruling my body, destroying me inside

Long were the years of wicked demise So many times when I thought I would die Torture that broke me but still left the fire But death couldn't have what it truly desired

You found me and carried me on a road long and thin Packed with my memories of terrible sin I cried out in anguish as I saw it pass by But you held me close never once left my side

Truth was then spoken and peace came to dwell There, was a garden where once was my hell How could this be, the nightmare was gone When I forgave you told me I won

All of the hurt and all of the pain Melted like wax to a candle wick's flame Slowly the layers were peeled from my frame Carefully, surgically, you washed away blame

You restored my soul one day at a time Brought teachers, doctors, and wisdom divine You made me lay down when I wanted to run Forced me to rest till the healing was done

Strength began slowly to enter my being Little by little all chains were releasing The weight I had carried was thrown ocean deep Returned to it's owner, the beast who ate sheep

Still you are working, your hands ever weaving Working their "magic", ever they're speaking You set up dates as well as the time Always connecting the branches to the vine

The victory is mine, my anthem to sing Because of my Jesus, I'm the bride of the King My life is transformed, my slate white as snow The possibilities are endless no matter where I go

Monday, May 27, 2013

Romans 8:32 KJV
He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us
all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?Romans 8:32 literal Greek translation
Which too of-the-one of-private-belonged of-a-son not
it-spared, other over of-us of-all it-gave-beside to-it, unto-whither unto-not
and together unto-it to-the-ones to-all unto-us it-shall-grant-to?

God is not to be put in a box as to what He will or won’t
give us as is evident to me in verses like these when He says that He would
freely give us “all” things. Some
would say that I should not take this verse out of context, that I should take
into consideration the whole chapter, even the whole book. I agree and would even go a bit further
and say why not take it in the context of the whole bible?

First, I would like to point out
that in this chapter, along with Paul’s call to:
* be lead by the Spirit *to not
live in fear, but to persevere in hard times
*and to know that we are not condemned
(those of us in Christ)
*and that He foreknew us, predestined us, called us,
justified and glorified us,
*that He is FOR us and cannot be separated from us
by any created thing,
*that we are more than conquerors,

Paul also tells us that
we are HEIRS with Christ, children of the most high God! God gave us His son and according to
Paul, will also give us all things – which I would like to point out, does not specify need from want,
dreams from desires, basic from extravagant. It also doesn’t say that we should get it on our own by
buying everything in site that we want because God wants us to have it –
no. It says He GIVES. When you look at the context of the
WHOLE bible, there is so much about the generosity of our God!

The following are just a few examples that came to mind.

When Ruth needed a husband/provider, God didn’t find for her an
adequate husband who could take care of all her basic needs which
would have been plenty in and of itself considering the times, no. He
gave her
Boaz, a wealthy, generous, healthy, honorable, loving man of good report
who
not only took care of Ruth, but took care of Naomi too. Ruth asked for leftovers, Boaz (who
represents Jesus) gave her extra by commanding his reapers to purposely let
extra grain fall for her to glean, commanded his young men to not reproach her
(guaranteeing her safety) and gave her food from his table! Then he redeemed her and her mother in
law by taking Ruth as his wife!
God went even further by ensuring Ruth and her family would be included in Jesus' family tree. This is not basic needs that were met, this was abundance!

When Solomon asked God for wisdom, God was so pleased that
He made Solomon the richest man who ever lived! Solomon asked for a basic need, God gave him abundance!

When Esther was in preparation to meet
the king, God didn’t just give her the wisdom to choose the right things to
wear as He could have done, He gave her favor with the head eunuch who then
made sure she had the very best of everything in addition to telling her what to wear to gain favor with the king.

Even when it comes to our enemies, God didn’t just give
enough of a victory to the Israelites to keep their enemies at bay, He ANNIHILATED them,
wiped them out! And then told them
to go and gather all the goods, treasures, cattle, etc. from the enemy!

Jesus said “I came that you might have life and life in
abundance”. If Jesus is the King
of Kings and Lord of Lords, then don’t you think we should think like a King or
a Lord? What does a king or a lord consider necessity? What does a king or a
lord consider abundance? What
would a king give to his children?
Think of it this way, in the bible, anytime a wife or child comes to ask
the king for something, how many times does that king say “ask for anything,
even up to half the kingdom will be yours if you ask it”. That is a human king, what about a God
king? It doesn’t take a genius or
years of study or much theology to know that God’s ways are much higher, bigger
and better than our ways. If we
are made in God’s image and God’s image says “even half the kingdom will be
yours if you ask” how much more does God want to give? Not that we should desire things, but that we should not limit Him or rebuke others
who believe Him and His word when He says “I want to give you more”.

People twist things all the time – well
I’m a child of God, so I’m going to act rich, live like I’m rich and just wait
for God to pay me back. No, we
have faith that God will give and we wait until the Spirit tells us when to go,
when to stay, when to lay at the feet of our savior, uncover His feet and
ask that He may GIVE. We walk by the Spirit, we
walk by faith and we listen for the voice of God. When we do that, things fall into place and we are given
the very best – whatever that looks like
in that moment. It has been my
experience that we get in our own way.
When I’m not seeing provision, it’s because I am in my way – sometimes
there are other blockages, but most of the time my impatience, frustration,
need for control etc. get in the way of what God is trying to give me.

There are a million possible reasons
why you or I or someone you know is not experiencing the abundance promised in
the bible. Our job is not to judge
them or abandon them in their frustration and questioning, but rather to
encourage them and challenge them to seek God! He knows what’s in the way! He knows their heart!
If we don’t have SOLID discernment about their situation or solution (and even if we do),
then we should be pointing them back to the Father, who wants to give them ALL
things and life in ABUNDANCE. It
doesn’t matter what we think that “all” and “abundance” looks like! What matters is that we as a community,
come around and encourage and challenge those who are struggling in any
way. If we do these things, and
they still turn away, we must still be careful not to judge and not to
condemn. Whether we have knowledge
in the situation or not, our pride should not get in the way of loving people
like Christ did. (as shown in Luke 22:61,62 and John 21:15-19).As always, I am preaching to me too! ♡♥♡

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Forgive my absence my blogging friends, what usually is a season of hibernation and plenty of time to write, has turned into business, distraction and a loss of focus in this area. I think of you all often and think to myself that I must write again soon! For now though, I can only offer up nature's beauty as a small gift - as it was a gift to me. Winter is my least favorite season...ok, ok to be honest, I just plain don't like winter. HOWEVER, as always, God shows me beauty in every season as often as I am willing to open my eyes and see it. He gifts me with a beautiful sunrise, a sparkly cloudless morning, and sun shining through the window. He knows it makes me smile and warms my heart. He is the greatest giver of all! I hope you can smile with me as I share it with you. :)