Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Inner Moonlight

August 2013- August 2014, has been a grand slam of life altering events. But, and I say this in a hushed breath so the fates don't overhear: life is back on track. I find my studio work is on course for Halloween and I am free to return to earlier projects halted. For one particular creation, I am not so much "going back to" as I am bringing that work into the present and reassessing with a fresh perspective. That is, of course, the elusive Secret Project.

The Secret Project is the fuel in my creative tank. It's the idea, the flame, that has burned longest and brightest among all my musings. Often, it burned so brightly I was often blinded by it, scorched even, and forced to put it away. For many years I tried to wrangle this project the way animal control attempts to cage a roaming fox. One way or another things are going to get ugly and little will be accomplished. Inspiration ebbs and flows, flooding sketchbooks that span decades. It is my inner moonlight that often feels like madness. A delicious flirt with the looney side.

Sitting with the Secret Project now feels like an amicable truce. After all, the last twelve months have been a surreal parade. Frequent pleading with God and Death over the past year has mellowed my harsh self-imposed requirements that held me back from real progress on the project. As humans we foolishly believe every day is a guarantee. We leave unsaid what we truly want to say. We leave unfinished what needs completion. We believe perfection is the triumph when it's the journey that reveals how triumphant we are. The Secret Project has been a work in progress since my late teens. The roaming fox, once suspected to be rabid, has calmed with age, experience, and softened by fear of loss. Finally I understand that inner moonlight is not madness; it is just truth waiting to be told.

2 comments:

The journey is the destination, as has been said by many others who have stated it much more eloquently than I :O) Wherever your muse is taking you, follow willingly and with an open heart Jacquie, whatever you create will be magical!