Saturday, January 9, 2010

As I have shared before, I have been learning a lot over the past few months about trusting God, particularly in uncertain times. The Lord continues to allow circumstances in my life to force me to rely on Him even though it is often very difficult. Why is it so difficult? It’s not because God isn’t faithful. It’s also not because God means evil or harm for my life. No, it’s because I’m impatient and have my own plan on how things should be. Also, because I am human and can’t predict the future, I can’t see the many details the Lord is working out in my life, appearing as if nothing is happening when in truth it's just a matter of trusting in the Lord to handle the small details.

Our house has been on the market for about 3 months. Honestly I expected to have been moved into a bigger house already. I thought we’d be settled in and preparing to welcome Taylor. Now, with no more than 11 weeks before Taylor makes her grand entrance into the world (probably more like 7 or 8), I am stressed out about space. How are we all going to fit? We are crammed in our house, each bedroom holding 2 beds and at least 2 dressers. I dread bringing another baby home to this house because of lack of space. TJ and I have been shopping for another bed for T.G. so I can convert her bed back to a crib. We also need another dresser. I hate having to share a bedroom with my children, especially because I don’t know for how long I will have to do so. Not only because of the additional person and furniture, but with Teagan still waking in the night on a regular basis, adding a newborn to the mix is going to be challenging. I pray Taylor is a great sleeper from the start!!

Pray for me to continue to trust God in His timing for the sale of our house. Also pray that TJ and I would find a house that is big enough for the 7 of us. Thanks in advance!!