The anxiety isn’t going anywhere…

I am going on an overnight trip to see a band I love in a bear by city. I was also invited to go visit my Friend in a different province, but maybe 3-6 hrs away by bus. Alyssa Edwards is doing drag bingo. What the eff. Why is so much happening once I get sick. I am seriously looking into going. Here is the thing. The anxiety isn’t getting better. If I am going to have a crippling panic attack I might as well have one on a bus making others uncomfortable with my service cat. Alyssa Edwards is worth it. Just the thought of seeing her in person makes me happy. So I shouldn’t and it could be awful, but I am saying fuck you anxiety. The reward is greater than the hell. Like when I went to see my parents. I would get on a plane right now if they said they got tickets for me.