Tuesday, January 31, 2012

I visit my Second Daughter on Monday's. Tonight, she made a simple
salmon dinner with brown rice, which works well with my diabetes. It was
a very good dinner. After dinner, she showed me
the proofs of her photo shoot. She's doing some amateur modeling and
she's very excited about it. She should be. She is a very, Very beautiful
young woman. The proofs she showed me were outstanding!

I haven't had the best day. I'm feeling old, forgotten, unlovely, and
undesirable. When I was Debra's age, I wouldn't have been anywhere near
as beautiful as she is, but... but... It doesn't really matter.

I gave up my best years so my First Daughter and my Son could have something like a normal Dad.

Tonight... tonight I am feeling the loss of those years, the times when I
might have been beautiful and desirable.