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This fall has come with a lot of changes. New house, new city, new class, new oppurtunities. I deal with stress on a daily basis and it doesn't always work out that well. But I'm getting better at it, we're all getting better at it. And next week is our autumn break! :D Friday I'm going to M to have a fangirling weekend. There will be 8UPPERS of course, and then dramas, Long Vacation, Liar Game and kiswak as we call it, the korean version of it started with a kiss (tw) or itasura na kiss (jp). *____* I just can't wait. Also there might be some sushi eating? And defenitely a lot of teadrinking and popcorn eating if I know us right. XD

Then there will be a whole week of being with boyfriend. :D We haven't seen each other in a month by then, which is the longest yet, and ugh. Long distance relationships do suck sometimes. I'm comforting myself with thinking that hey, he wouldn't be happy if he lived here and I wouldn't be happy if I lived there! But sometimes I just wish the distance was just a little shorter. It does make me bitter sometimes, like when someone who's living with their partner is all T___T about being apart for the weekend. I just want to go >___< Fuck You!

Anyways, on Sunday we've been a couple for 1,5 years. Which is completely crazy. It has gone by so fast. This is my longest relationship ever, and it seems to be a lasting one. It still surprises me every now and then. XDDD

Anyways. I've been living here in Norberg since August and this really is a lovely little place. There is so much beautiful nature around here and it's full of old mines here, there used to be a huge iron industry, and there are old, waterfilled open casts everywhere.

Recently I've been on loads of walking since I use walking as a way to deal with my urges to smoke. I quit smoking just over two weeks ago, and it's going well, but sometimes I get all prickly and take walks instead of taking out on one of the poor souls I'm living with. Anyways, there are loads of beautiful sites here, and I have pics! :D

Oh also, I'm writing this from dreamwidth right now. Yey for crossposting! :D I got all D: about LJ being an ass and got DW too. :D So please do add me there if you have an account! I'm at dansdansdans.dreamwidth.org Ugh. I need to get some semagic-like thing for DW though.

I watched the PV. I am completely in love and I want to watch the movie nownownownow!!!

But I'm waiting to watch it with a friend on the 29th so I'll be staying away from spoilers until then. Probably the first time ever! XD

As for real life, we're working on a production which will be done in front of a test audience on wednesday and there's still some things left to do, but I think we can sort it all out. This week we've been writing scenes and trying them out on stage. :D It has been soooo nice to be able to be working with nothing but the production for the whole week and YEY! it's turning out really well and I'm crazy excited. This weekend I plan to get all my lines down so I won't have to have my script with me all the time and so that I won't panic on Monday when I realize that I'll need to get it down by Wednesday. XDDD This is our first paid job and jdkshfdkjsaö excited! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

And today we had radio-ad-lib-acting. It's so much fun and in the end of November we'll be doing a real broadcast and it's just soooo much fun and yeah, I'm crazy excited!

The stress is getting better. I seem to handle it a bit better lately. I think it has a lot to do with us doing some actual artistic work and not all of that other organization stuff that we've been doing so much of lately. YEYYEY!

Also, I finished Pride yesterday, and I loved it! I do get a little O__o about all the talk of men are like this and women are like that, but I can kind of cope with it when it's jdramas. XDDD

I should sleep now, but I slept in the afternoon and ruined my sleeping schedule again. Fail. XD

I'm home from school today. I keep waking up in the mornings feeling like shit and without having been able to sleep all night and I miss out on school and feel bad about it and even more stressed and it's all just a bad cycle. >__< I am so annoyed. XD

But, at least all of us in Teater Hysterica are at the same page now, and we realized that we can't work like we've been doing because we're gonna work ourselves into the ground if we keep going like this. It's just that there's so much to do with starting up a company and all the paper work that comes with that, and then there's also the work we've got that needs to be done somehow and with three days a week with actual school where we learn about running a company, and organisations and projects and what not and then there's only two days left for us to work on everything we need to do plus the artistic parts, so yeah. Under constant stress. XD I do feel like we're beginning to find our ways to not let the stress consume us, and I'm really thankful for that, but we're not close to there yet. Once we've started our company and sent in all those papers to everywhere, then things will settle down a little, I'm sure.

In other news we're having our housewarming party this Saturday. :D Ok, so we moved in in August, so a tad bit late, but it's really difficult to find a weekend that works for 9 people. XD

And I just can't wait for the album to come out. There's no chance for me buy it for a few months, and it HUUUURTS but I will buy it when I can afford it and until then, there will be shiny dls! XDDD And jfidöghls tour! I really haven't flailed about anything since I've been so absent! But OMG I'm so excited! Of course it hurts not to being able to go to the cons, but at least there are cons and it's their 2nd countdown in Osaka and there surely will be a lovely DVD of it and fancams and lovely goods and jfksldhfkjdsöa *__________________________*And there is Maru!drama!!! *________* I love him in dramas and he should be in them more and there's also Nino and that should be fun! I haven't watched anything with Nino in it since I watched Stand Up! ages ago. :D :D :D :D

Speaking of dramas. I've been all kinds of obsessed with Kimura lately because ehum. How can you not? And I watched this lovely drama called "Sora Kara Furu Ichioku no Hoshi" and I loved it. It was really dark and it made me go all T_______T loads of times. But I also really, really enjoyed it. Kimura is hot like a jfkdshföjsdöka and there is something about him. It's not strange that he's as popular as he is because my god! *_____* So, a question. Have you, dear f-list, watched any dramas with Kimutaku, and if you have, recommendations?!

Me and M have decided to see each other once a month now to have fangirling weekends of awesome! We're meeting up on the 29th-30th and we're watching Pacchi, Long Vacation (kimutaku), kiswak (our short for korean version of it started with a kiss), and something more.. Don't remember, but yet another drama.. That I was supposed to dl. What was it?! XDDDBut yeah, I'm excited! I'm in a drama-frenzy right now and the two of us came into Johnny's through dramas, and there is just soo so so so much to watch. :D :D :D YEAH!

Ok. I have things to do for Japanese class. Nothing really difficult, but I'm so behind so I keep putting it off. XD

I keep failing at updating and I blame it all on school. I got so much to do all the time, and when I don't I have no energy for anything. There is so much floating around in my head right now.

Anyhow, school started in the 16th and the first week was mostly introduction and stuff. We also got computers from school so now I have two laptops! XD We already had loads of meetings with our group the first week and it keeps getting more and more busy. But we do have a name now. We're Theater Hysterica. I love the name to no end and it's a name that stands out so.. ♥Last week was also the last week of my vampire summer course and I kept procrastinating and wrote the paper on Sunday and it was finished about an hour before it needed to be handed in. Also there was some friend who went to the same school as us visiting last weekend so there was people everywhere. XD

This week has been full of meeeeetiiiiiiings! So we're doing a project for "the culture nights" in two different cities. And we worked out an idea of putting up a big, blank canvas in a park together with brushes and paint and ask people to paint whatever they want and then about one hour before our performance the five of us in Hysterica and two musicians will go there and look at the painting (that hopefully won't be all white) and talk about the impressions we get from it and then create a performance of it. It's all improvisation and really, really scary, but it can also be really, really great. The first performance will be on the 18th, and I already had plans with my family, so I won't be there and it really hurts!! >__< But I'll be there on the 24th. But there is loads and loads of stuff to do before that, and we only have three weeks left to do it. I'm in charge of getting the permission to perform and stuff and I really hope it'll all be smooth because if not we might end up not being able to finish the project. But it's all exciting!

Aside for that project we have classes about buisness and time and communication and inbetween all of that we're having meetings. Next week will send in our registration of our company and then it'll take a few weeks before we're all registered and actually have a company. But OH MY GOD SCAAAAARYYYYYY! XD But we need to get it done soon because in November we're doing forumtheatre for people in college that will be filmed and used at Uppsala uni in class and for research. The theme is genus and it'll be really interesting to start working with it once we have had our meetings with the uni.

And also our teacher from actingclass want us in a cabaret that will have it's premiere on New Year's Eve and then be played 10 weekends afterward. Henry, our old teacher, will direct us, but we will write the numbers for it. It's all really exciting, even though I'm a little sad not to celebrate New Year's with my old friends as usual. XD

Also there is this place called Nya Lapphyttan, which is a recreation of a medieval blast furnace (?), actually of one of the oldest in the world and they want us to present some ideas for maybe dramatized guidings or big productions at the sights and stuff. It feels so crazy, because we already have three offers for work and we've been here for two weeks! XDD I'm so excited and going this entrepreneur course gives us the opportunity to learn about everything having to do with owning a company and to make a name of our group so we can work with what we love full time. I'm very optimistic right now! :DBut there is nothing but meetings and planning going on right now and my head is soooo tired of just thinking. XDDD Finally we have 1,5 hours of ACTING next Friday. XD We need it right now! :D

Right now I'm on a train going to see my boyfriend and then tomorrow his mother has her birthday-party-thingie. She's turning 50. And I'll meet all the relatives for the first time and I reeeaaaally don't want to! >__< But I'm sure they're all nice and that they will like me and all that. . . . . Right? XD

Starting Monday I've decided to keep up with LJ properly. I'll even write it up in my schedule! XDDD

Oh! One more thing, next week my distance japanese lessons will start. I had a look at the book the other day, which I thankfully was able to dl instead of buying, and it's like, the basics of the basics and waaay to easy for me at this point. But oh well. I think that's good so that I won't be slumped with work from that too. XD

OK. So over to some Eito! If you don't want spoilers, don't click! XD( EITO I LOVE YOU! )

I was planning to do the eitomeme and the other meme I've seen around lately now too, but this is getting really long and I need to finish some things for school before the train arrives in Linköping.

I'm all moved in, and finally today I got everything in order. Now there's a lot of cleaning to do, since it wasn't cleaned properly when I got here, and all the running around with boxes and stuff has gotten it even more dirty. So yeah..

Yesterday I got up at 4AM to finish my final paper for the buddhism course. I'm not sure that it really turned out that great, but I think I should pass at least. And that's all I'm aiming for in that course.As for the vampire course the final paper need to be finished on the 20th, and I'm hoping to get it at least half done tomorrow and then I can relaaaaaax! XD

I also need to buy stuff so bad right now for the kitchen, and I am broke so no such fun for me. >__< Oh well. I hope my study loans will be here soon. I haven't gotten it solved yet and I can't really go without money for a lot longer. UGH!

But oh well. I am excited about my room. It lookes lovely, I'm so pleased with it. As for now there's no door to my room, which is mildy annoying, and they said that the doors would be up before we move in. But apparently they have ordered doors and they should be here to put it up in the near future. Right now I'm all alone in my apartment so it's not really a problem, but tomorrow my friend is moving in and with the bathroom next to my room I'll probably be woken up if she needs to go in the night. Also I forgot to look for my curtain-rod so now I have no curtains in my room and I have two windows and in the afternoon the sun is shining in and making it really hot in here. XDDD

As I said I went up really early and yesterday I lay in bed watching SYTYCD season 4 and then I got sleepy and was just taking a nap. I didn't wake up until 6.30 this morning. I think I fell asleep around 19.00. XDDD So I'm well rested, that's for sure! :D

I'm so excited for Eito on MS! ♥ I WANT TO WATCH NOW! I just hope that I have decent internet by then.. Right now I'm using my mums mobile internet that I borrowed from her before moving and well, it's nice to have internet, but it keeps on logging off and being stupid and ugh!!

Oh well. I just wanted to talk a little about my new place! There will be pictures once everything is cleaned. :D

First thing first! HAPPY MUGENDAY/EITO DAY! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥To celebrate this special day I have an old and lovely pic!

I've been a fan now for 3 years I think and they never fail to inspire me. I've been so lucky as to see some great things live. Mitei Ichi, 818, 08 spring tour, FFF, J ROCK... And their cons have always been lovely and has made me so so so happy and I love them for that. I love them for everything they give to us fans all the time. ♥ Thank you! ♥

In other news, I'm moving in two days. I need to pack everything I have spread around the whole apartment until tomorrow, when I'm going back to my parents house where I have the rest of my stuff. Then me and my dad are packing, or me and mum will be packing, since dad still can't carry much after his surgery, and then me and dad will go back to Linköping and going to IKEA to buy some stuff and then we're going here to my boyfriend's to pick him and the rest of my stuff up and then we'll be driving up to my new house. It's about 2 hours from my parents to here, and then about 3 hours more, when not having a trailer attached to the car. So Tuesday will be a loooooong day. XD And I'll try to convince my mum to lend me her mobile internet, since I won't have internet up there just yet. I hope I'll have internet around the 26th or so, but you never know. Anyway, if I don't have that with me, there will be problem with finishing my summer courses. XDDD

So yeah. Loads of things that need to be done before tomorrow, and I haven't even started yet. UGH!

But hopefully I'll be able to get an IKEA HANDLA, which means that I can buy now and pay later and that means I actually can buy the things I need! Fingers crossed! :P

So anyways, I might be away from here for a while. I guess that right now it won't make any difference, since I've been kind of away for a while already. XD But yeah. Wish me luck with my moving! XDD

I keep failing at posting and commenting. I'm sorry. I made a lot of new friends lately and then I'm hardly around. I do read what people write. I just utterly fail at commenting and writing anything myself. XDDD

My life right now is all about studying. I'm doing two summer courses, one about vampire stories and one about buddhism and japanese religions. The vampire one I have one more thing to write, and I'l be reading True Blood fanfics and write something about how the world of TB expands through fanfiction and stuff. So yeah, I get to read fanfic as a part of school.As for the other course, I'm still waiting for a book about japanese religions to get here and I'm kind of screwed when it comes to the next assignment, since that's supposed to be done by Tuesday and the book, which I need to read before that havent even been shipped. Stressful indeed!!

So these past few weeks I've been for a week or so at my parents taking care of their dog while they was on vacation in Tunisia and swimming a lot and getting a nice tan and stuff.I've been back at my boyfriend's for about a week now and have done nothing but trying to study and make my money last until I get money again. We survived, but barely. XD I only buy organic food, which is much more expensive than non-organic and I suck at holding on to my money, so it's been a interesting few weeks. XDDDD

I'm soon moving to our house, and I'm SO looking forward to it! I still have things to buy, and I barely have any money, but oh well. I'm looking forward to getting up there and putting stuff up on the walls and such. I need to buy a frame for my eito ranger poster! ♥

Ok. Seriously, there's obviously WW stuff out, so where is the downloads! I'm so dying to watch all of it and I can't because ugh!And the pics I've seen and the video on YT without sound and kfsldjfklödsjhfskdöhfdkjcöö6kza this will all be so awesome it hurts!! GIVE MEEEEEEEE!!!!!

In other news. I finished Interview with the Vampire today. For those who don't know I'm doing this summer course about vampire stories and I love it. Except for having to both read AND watch Twilight. XDDD I get to watch True Blood, which I love, and Buffy and other funny stuff and also read loads of great books! So I'm really excited about all this! :D

And this weekend was Midsummer. Do people celebrate midsummer around the world or is that a swedish thing? Anyway, I went to a friend from school's house and we had a barbeque and stayed up until 5AM just chatting and dancing and drinking and it was all kind of awesome. Sadly, I was outside most of the night and mosquitos love my blood to no end, so I now have mosquito bites all over, eventhough I used mosquito protection made of tar!! >__< Oh well.

Today I'm walking around in my underwear and sweating and drinking wine. haha. Quite a good day! :D

So yeah, I am doing the eito meme, but not right now. . . . I fail. XD

But yeah, I'll be going to some friends tomorrow to, well, spend the whole day in front of the TV. Tomorrow is the wedding of our crown princess and her Daniel and well. I'm not a big fan of the monarchy and all, but I like her and I want to see all the glitter and glamour. XDD I don't know how I'm going to explain me watching this to my parents because me and my mun are always arguing about the monarchy, I think we shouldn't have one, and she thinks we should. Anyway, the wedding is huge deal here in Sweden. I almost have no people around me who really likes the royal house, so I was kind of of the idea that that was how people all over Sweden feels. But apparently not. There has been loads of stuff about the wedding all over the newspapers and TV and there's loads of things being sold. Wedding chocolate, wedding sweets, wedding china, big pictures of them, calendars and what not. And yeah, TV will be sending live from the wedding and all around it for 16 HOURS tomorrow! Apparently the royal house is far more important than the World Cup here. XDD

And I haven't watched the SCP perfs yet. Need to do it.

And uhm, just saying that I might be away for a few days. I might be going home to my parents on Sunday to stay there for a few days to clean out old stuff and yeah.

So, how are all of you? I'm being quite busy, but not too awful yet. XD

I had two great weeks in Germany, first one week with my fangirl friends in both Münich and Berlin. We watched the countdown DVD and it was sooooo nice to fangirl together with someone again! :D

And then I had one week in Berlin with my school and it was awesome. Loads of lovely bars and clubs and restaurants and yeah, I'm in love with Berlin and someday I'll be living there. :D :D :D

School is being fun but a bit stressful. Our final oroductions premiere's on the 20th, so in 12 days we have to nail all 34 scenes, we have 10 done for now, and it takes time, because we have no actual script yet, just a synopsis that we have written and then we get up and improvise/get text shouted at us from our teacher, and yeah, it takes time. We have no props or costumes yet, and we haven't really talked about what we need. At least we decided on not having a bathtub on stage, which we wanted first. :PStarting next week, rehearsals will be held in Risbergs Vekstad, where we will perform it later, which means going from here at 8 in the morning to be there at 9 and then going back from there at 21.00. So yeah, home at 22.00 every day next week. YEY! XD

I'm sitting here waiting for an announcement of summer cons. What's with eito and all their hinting? Can't they just tell us and give us the dates so us poor overseas fans can start planning. I just NEED to go there if there's a tour. But the only way to do it is to go there to study and take study loans. haha. I fail I know, but I really just can't miss out on yet another tour and well.. Let it be when I can actually go pleeeeaaaaase!!!!

Uhm. Ok. We're having rehearsals in two hours and I need to get stuff done before that.

Hope all of you are doing fine, my sporadic commenting I fear won't get any better than just that for a while, but, bare with me? XDD

For this year I don't know what's coming for me. Some of my friends at school have talked about starting a acting group after school. I don't know if that'll happen, but I'm hoping for it. I still have another school to audition for. Which I need to start thinking about.. I just.. Don't have the spark for it right now. >_< Otherwise.. I just don't know what's going to happen to me after school is over in May. We'll see about that.What I do know is that we're gonna tour in Finland for a week in February and that I'm going to Germany to see my friends during spring break to later meet up with my class in Berlin. :D So some good times ahead. :D

I hope 2010 have some good things in stall for me. I want to develop as an actress and as a person and I want to meet interesting people and do interesting stuff.Oh and I want to develop a sense for moneysaving. XDI also have some resolutions. First: Quit smoking. I started again and I do want to quit. So I'm doing a cut-down in January to be completely smokefree in February. 2nd, loose some weight. I've ganed so much since coming back from Japan and eating more than one meal a day and I want to loose some of it because yeah, I look pregnant. 3rd I will only eat ecological meat from now on. That's the only way to guarantee that the meat I'm eating comes from animals that have been treated in an humane way, and also to ensure that I don't eat meat from animals that have been given crazy loads of antibiotics "just in case" and therefor have a lot of multi resistant bacterias and stuff in them. So yeah. I'll eat the vegetarian food at school and I'll only be buying ecological meat. Which is super-expensive, but since I only have to cook two days a week, I can afford it. XD

Ok. Longest post in like, forever. XD

I hope all you lovely people will have a great 2010 and that we'll be able to talk a lot more than I have been able to the last six months or so. ♥

How are you all doing? I miss you. I swear that I'll be more online from now on.

We're doing our monologues this week. The first four tonight, and then five tomorrow and five on Thursday. I'm on Thursday. I'm really really looking forward to it. We've been working on this since the end of August and now it's finally time for us to perform. :D

On Monday I have an audition for an acting school in Stockholm. I'm learning two monologues right now.. I hope I'll get it down soon so that I can decide on how to perform it. And then I have to decide what part of this monologue I'm going to use. It's 20 minutes and the test monologues should be 3. So there's some deciding to do.

I'm really looking forward to this audition. I'm not nervous yet, but I guess I will be. What makes me excited is that my confidence is on some kind of top at the moment, and that's what I need right now. XD The chance of getting in are minimal though, since theres about 1500 people applying and they take in 10, but yeah. I'll do my best and hope for the better! :D

I'm also meeting luin_lote this weekend and I'm so looking forward to it. I haven't seen her for soooo long now! I've met her once since we came back from Japan, and that was only for an hour or so. Now we'll have a weekend of fangirling and just, catching up. I'll also see her new apartment which I'm dying to see. :D:D:D:D

And klfsdjfksdhafjködsjaö I LOVE EITO! The PV is so much amazing I just want to squeeze them all! The hair is amazingly fugly and I love love love love it! Also, as soon as I get money I'll be all over Yahoo auctions for that red guitar. :D

Also OMG it's soon Christmas!!!!!! &hearts; I love Christmas, and even though we had a very nice Christmas Eve in Japan last year, I'm looking forward to celebrating it at home this time. Yesterday I downloaded about 10 GB of Christmas songws. XD Yes, I'm a sucker for Christmas. &hearts;

We had our first snow last week. It snowed for almost two days, but it wouldn't stay on the ground until the evening on the 2nd day, and then when I woke up in the morning it was gone again. >_< We need our snow here. It's so damn dark and everything now. I'm looking forward to having some real snow though. When in school in Japan, there was this girl from Mexico who was so excited about the snow one day, because it was the first snow she had ever seen. I just found it so sad that the first snow for her was the rainsnow of Tokyo. XD

YEY! CHRISTMAS! :D

Ok. I know I'm getting a bit overexcited a bit too early but I love love love love it! And the food! And the candy! And the presents! :D :D :D :D

So yeah. I'm having the time to be online more and what happens? My computer can't log onto the internet because we have my brother's router which have this strange password that he onlyu had on a tiny note that is now lost. GRRR! I have to use our desktop instead of my lovely shiny computer, and it seems to hate LJ. >_<

Also I'm dealing with a lot of thoughts right now.. So I went to the audition thingie and well. It was in two parts, one group improvisation with 4 other, we got a circumstance and 30 minutes to work on it before we got infront of the jury. I was so bad. A lot of insecurities and also a way of acting I'm not fond of. I love impro, but this was more like hello! look at me! ME ME ME! and the whole thing about seeing what happens around you just disappeared and in that I guess my confidence disappeared too. I just didn't take all that space I should have to be noticed and yeah. Fail.

After that was the mono0logues. A monologue of two minutes, nothing more. I had thought it was three, because that's what the other schools have. But nono. And I got all, OMG I need to shorten it with one minute and blabla. I also took out some parts and put in some others, since I used the monologue I'm working with in school, which is 15-20 minutes long. I don't remember the last time I was as nervous as when I was waiting outside for my turn. Butterflies from toes to head and I was shaking a little and like.. yeah.. So nervous.The good thing was that all of that just disappeared once on stage doing my monologue. Which was shorter than I thought, I was sure they were going to stop me before I had the time to end it, since they were really strict on the 2 minutes sharp-thingie. They didn't. And it felt really good.. Then there was the lunchbreak from 12 to 13.30. >_< After that the judges had decided which ones they wanted to see in the next round. To sit there and wait for that damn list to come up. Not fun. And then my name wasn't on it, and eventhough I suspected it, with the impro going real bad, I still felt that the monologue was good and I had a chance.. So yeah.. Still, people getting in on their first try is very rare.. Most people apply 8-10 times before getting in (if they ever).. But still.. It's so damn easy to start feeling down and doubting your own abilities. Which I just can't when trying to become and actress. There is no room for that, because I will get noes all the time, and maybe here and there a yes, but the buisness is rough and I need to be able to handle that.

Oh well. My next thing is in Stockholm in little more than two weeks. I need to learn two more monologues until then and just hope for the best.. I just really need to prepare for this. I don't want to go there feeling I haven't worked on it properly. XD

Ugh.

IDK. Right now I'm feeling quite down. Not really because of the audition, but because I'm having all these OH GOD WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH MY LIFE?!!!!!-thoughts right now. I have this year planned out, but then?? I need to have some sort of plan. Ugh. I'll deal with that later.. I'm just far too up-tight right now.

In funnier news our class did a cabaret a few weeks ago. It was really stressful, because the preparing time was short, but it turned out really great and it was such a kick to do it. There was this one little sketch that I had problems with when rehearsing that was great doing once we were up for real. All my insecurities disappear when it's the real thing, because I don't want to get up on stage to do some half-assed thing when I know I have much more to give. Also I sang on stage for the first time in ages. It was fun. :D

Tomorrow I'll be meeting some friends in their new apartment and spending time with my dad, since mum is doing something with some friends.

It's nice being home a little. And I love to cuddle with my cat and my dog. My cat has gotten really fat lately though. Not healthy for her but well, she eats like a horse. XD

Happy belated Birthday elyndys ♥I hope you had a shiny birthday with loads of great gifts and yummy things to eat and other things one should have at ones birthday. :DHere, have some cutem young Subaru. :D

So, I survived last week's crazy schedule, barely, but I did. XD Now we're working with light, and our big monologue projects are starting tomorrow. I'm looking forward to it so much! I found this play I want to take the monologue from. Problem is, there is no as long as required monologues in it. So I'm in the middle of putting it together to fit. I already have an idea of what I want to do with it, which feels great. :D

Today we had our own monologues in the cellar. I was without a good idea of what to do until 12-1 o'clock last night. Stayed up too late thinking about it, and I didn't have the time to really try it out for myself in the cellar before we were supposed to show it to everyone. But it all went really well and I'm very pleased with how it turned out. And I love when the feelings just comes, I wanted to cry on stage, and I did without having to fake it. YAY! XD

The rest of the day I went home to sleep. I'm still sick. Or, I was fine, except for a little coughing for a day or two but now my throat hurts like hell and I'm having a bad headache. I'm going to take an aspirin and then go to bed in a little while and hope that it will all pass by tomorrow. I don't want to be sick anymore. It's making working in school so much harder. I don't have the energy to move as much as required when in acting class. GRR!

Oh well.

I still love school though! :D Am so excited about these monologues. I just want to dig into it right away! I just hope that we will have the opportunity to work on it without getting too many other projects to work on too. Our teacher seems to like to give us shitloads of assignments all at once. Well, I do have my own play to write too.... Hm. I haven't done a thing on that one. I know the theme for it, but that's all and I think we're supposed to have at least a synopsis done in two weeks or something, and then the script done in another two-three weeks. ehum. I better get a move on then. XD

I hope you had a lovely birthday and that you got a lot of nice gifts and ate lovely cake~ I'm so happy that I've gotten to know you and I hope we will get to know each other even better! Since I haven't done anything shiny for you, because I fail at life, have some hot Subaru:

Also, if you could PM me your address I might have something little for you~ :D

In other news, I'm sick and we're working from 8.30 AM tp 10.00 PM everyday for this week. Not funny. The monologue have been moved until Tuesday next week and yeah.. No rest. XD I do love it here, but OMG having these kind of long days when I normally would have stayed at home not moving from my bed except for maybe getting something to eat, is not funny. But it's only tomorrow left, and then it's Friday and we have a short day, which I'm going to stay at home from I think, and then I'll be going to Linköping to shop and see my boyfriend. I just hope I'm not going to be sick there too.

I also bought a new laptop yesterday. I wanted a pink one, but I didn't find one that wasn't too expensive, so I got a white one and will pimp it up myself later. XD I can't wait for it to arrive home. Want nooooooow~ I really really hope it gets here Friday so I can have it when getting on the 3 hours train to Linköping.

Yeah.. Other than that I don't have much to say. Gonna go lay down now. But before that, there are some memes goign around that I'd like to do so...

Photograph meme Give me as many things/people/places as you want. (i.e my job, my family, my room, my computer, my coffee cup etc), then I will try my best to take a picture of it!

Top Five meme Ask me my fannish Top Five [Whatevers]. Any top fives. Doesn't matter what, really! And I will answer them all in a new post. Probably with pictures if possible.

I was supposed to say this in my post yesterday, but I got a little carried away with all my eito love so I forgot.. XD So, Hi new friends! :D

Since I don't think I've ever done one, I thought of making a little introduction post. :D

I'm Therese, as I think you've guessed. XD I'm 23, from Sweden. The past year or so, I've been in Japan two times, six months each time, studying Japanese. It was awesome, and I love the country (even though I've barely been out of Tokyo.. FAIL!) and would love to get back there. Soon.

But now I've just moved and started a new school. I study acting and I want to become an actress. I have only one passion as big as my passion for eito and that is acting. I've only been doing stage acting, and that's what I think I want to do in the future too, but since I haven't tried film, I don't know for sure. I guess the perfect thing would be both. I'm going to apply for the most prominent acting schools in Sweden next year, you'll probably see me angst about it a lot here. XD

As for fangirling, I used to be a NEWS and KAT-TUN fangirl too, but I kinda.. left that. Eito just.. took over. I still like all of the Johnny's groups, some more than others, but the only ones I really love is eito. ♥ My favourite member is Subaru. He turns me into a puddle on the floor most of the time. But I of course love all of eito and my favs after him is floating all the time. I'm also a collector and my need to have everything when it comes to goods and stuff is.. not good for my wallet but very good for me. XD

I also love Japanese and Taiwanese dramas, be it with or without our boys. Sadly I don't watch as much as I used to. My time seem to never be enough, even though I spend so much time just doing nothing. To name a few favs; Last Friends, Nodame Cantabile, It started With A Kiss, Devil Beside You, Hana Yori Dango, Mars... And so on.

Um. I don't know what more to write.. So, if you have any questions just ask! :D

Now to something different. XDWe had the introduction for our monologues today. I was a bit shocked when she told us that she wanted us to have monologues of 15-20 minutes!! That's a lot of text to memorize, and with no sticks from someone elses lines to learn from. XD I do think I know which monologue to have though, since a girl in my class found one of my favourite scripts I've ever read today and she told me I could have it since she found other stuff she was interested in also. I haven't decided yet, but I have a few ideas with that one. I'm thinking of just using the monologue, without the rest of the play in mind. The character in the play is actually a man, and I want to do it as a woman and probably having her talk about his father. If only reading the monologue, you can get thoughts on incest and stuff, and I'm thinking of trying that. It's interesting how a text put out from it's context can become something completely different and I want to explore that. I already have a few thoughts on things to use and such and yeah. It feels good! :D

We're also doing a monologue in a cellar in one of the houses next Thursday, which we're doing all by ourselves with our own ideas. So no scripts or anything like that. All we have is that it should take about 5 minutes and that we should have a song in it.

Tomorrow we're having a workshop in burlesque, which will be interesting and fun, even though I'm not sure what we will do. I just hope that we won't take our clothes off. haaah. XD

So yeah, there's a lot of things going on and now I need to read some scripts because I'm supposed to have like 3-4 pages from a play with 3-4 characters in it to hand to the teacher tomorrow and then we'll work with those texts one day or another. ehum. Good going girl! I've known that we were supposed to do this for at least a week now, and I still haven't looked it up. GAH! I need to stop doing that. Tomorrow I will start working seriously on the cellar monologue, and then Friday my boyfriend is coming, so the weekend will be off, but then I have to start up on Monday with that one again, and I also need to start looking at some other scripts for the long monologue just in case, so I know that I have explored all possibilities there. I need to get myself a calendar where I can give myself deadlines, because really, this is so not working if I'll keep this up this whole year. All of our projects demands so much discipline and work on my own, so yeah. Work work work!

I got off work early today, at 1, and then I got home, made some sandwiches and got stuck watching "The City".. You know the really really bad show on MTV about some girl who moves to New York to work and well, idk, it's just not really good in anyway, but I got hooked anyway. And it was a fucking marathon. Good work. XD

Oh well. Now I'm gonna wash the dishes, then maybe vacuumclean. And look for the key that I got from work that I'm supposed to return to the women who I borrowed it from before she got on vacation 4 weeks ago. It's just that I can't find it. Ehum. I fail at life so bad sometimes. XD

Talking about work, yesterday morning a lady died at work. She's the second one passing away this summer, and it's so freaky, because there's always three people passing, and even though I don't want to think like that I keep on walking around wondering who will get sick suddenly next. Weird. My way of seeing death has really changed since I started working there. Death does not have to be scary and bad but can also be such a big relief. It's awful to see people really suffer for weeks, I rather see that it happens fast and with not so much pain and anxiety. That's how I want to go when that time comes.

I've been working for 7 days straight now and it's gettin easier now, I'm not as sick as I've been and my days are shorter for a few days now, and on Friday I'll be able to get off 30 minutes before I should since I worked 30 min extra today. Which means I will catch an earlier train to Linköping were I'll spend the weekend with the boyfriend and a friend and I'll go see the new Harry Potter. Or I hope so, haven't asked anyone if they want to come with me but..

In other news I'm kind of crawling out of my skin a little at the moment. I've started to miss Japan a lot, I think mostly due to being so much at home lately without nothing to do. My days have been so full for quite a while now, that when I got stuck at home for a few days with nothing to do but work and being sick the smallness of this place started kreeping up on me. But oh well, I'll be away from here soon and most importantly I'll be taking care of myself. I'm far too old to live with my parents and it's really really getting to me. One should never move away from home and then back again because.. well.. no.

A lot of rambling from me lately. haaah. Expect more from me from now on! ^^v

Going to do those damn dishes and then I'll get started on k8summary, since I just refuse to let it die. XDXD

I have 10 hours of work tomorrow. In sets of 5 hours, 4 hours off and then another 5 hours, then it's Monday and I work 7-14 and then on Tuesday yet another 10 hours day. And then I have SIX DAYS OFF!! YAY! And it's the festival! I am happy-face! :D I'm completely ignoring the fact that after those days I'll have 11 workdays in a row, beacuse, well, why angst about that allready. There will be enough of complaints about that when I'm there.

My plans for today was laundry, which I did, and hung out and then the sky opened and the worst rain fucking ever came down. XD And to clean, and pack my stuff for the festival and make ehm.. blandband.. You not, cassette tape-things. I love making them but it takes ages and I'm supposed to have them done until Hultsfred. Oh well. My 4 hours inbetween work tomorrow will have to be very productive then. XD

I've been thinking about my future a little today. I now have one year in school and then I'm going to apply for all the biggest acting schools in Sweden. I don't really expect to get in on my first try. Now the question is, what will I do if I don't get in? Been thinking about maybe going to Norway to work for maybe half a year, a year and then go travelling and be back for the next time to apply for the schools again. It would be nice. Why I'd like to work in Norway is because the pay is insanely high there. And I've never been to Norway, even though it's my neighbouring country. Anyhow. That would be a good idea. Now the question is, in that case, where to? I've been wanting to take the Trans-Siberian railroad for ages. Maybe going to Beijing? I want to travel so baaaaaad! And I hate that I can't really make up any plans, since I have to know how my school applications will go first. Well well. This would be more than a year ahead of me so.. I should just take it easy. XD

Ahh~ I don't really have that much to say. I just don't want to go to bed, eventhough I really should. XD

OMG. It's really been two weeks since my last post. I can't remember last time it took this long! :O

HOW ARE YOU GUYS? ♥

These past few weeks have been pretty good apart for some really craving days at work. I went to Gothenburg for two nights of camping and walking in parks and having picknicks and stuff with the boyfriend. The weather was nothing but lovely and it's been like that for a long time now. YAY!

I was in Gothenburg when the news of Michael Jackson's death reached me. He was my very first idol and to hear of his death was really sad. Been listening to MJ, Jackson 5 and The Jacksons for the past few days. XD

Next week's the Hultsfred Festival! YAY! There will be concerts and friends and strangers and wine and dancing and just looooove! I hope that there won't be too much rain. XD