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Tuesday, March 20, 2012

So my best friend is visiting me here at my college because she has spring break. (I start classes tomorrow).

Anywho...

A mutual friend of ours is in a fraternity and we decided to hang out with him in his frat house. We go over and I decide "FUCK IT" I'm gonna drink. (Mind you I have NEVER drank alcohol EVER in my 19 years of life).

Nothing bad happened I didn't get sick. I really kept myself in check and I'm proud. (Something that was probably keeping me in check was the fact that alcohol has calories and my ED needs to keep shit in check. I guess it worked out for the best this time :D)

Well... later they ask if I wanna smoke Hookah. Once again I decide "Fuck it! Why not." It actually wasn't that bad. It was mango flavored which is good.

Then we just stayed up talking till 6 a.m. so we crashed at the frat house. (I also forgot the keys to my dorm so it was a bonus :P)

My best friend got kinda extra friendly with one of the guys in the fraternity so I was kinda worried for her, but the guy does seem nice and respectful. Basically he wouldn't do anything that she said no to. (But knowing her and the shit she has been going through, she can go further and further.) I know she has to make her own decisions and I really have no control over what she does, but she's my best friend. I can't help but worry you know?

Anywho, my first hookah and drinking experiences were okay, but I really can't see myself doing that regularly. Just not my thing.

About Me

I created this blog so I can share my feelings. I am a self injurer and have very disordered eating (I have both restricted severely and binged and purged ).
No one that knows me know so I'm going to keep it that way. Know if you read this that you can comment and I will always reply and you are NOT alone.