What is your Truth?

What are you really about, what is your Truth? I was asked this question by an amazing person, Carolan Deacon. What is my Truth, what am I all about? No one had ever asked me that before. I never really had to think about it. What am I all about? I was caught off guard, I didn’t have an answer, I felt many things, and here is where I get stuck, I felt many things but had a hard time putting it all into words; lost, stuck, fear…no, none of them singularly but all of them together. Why don’t I know? Seems simple enough, how can I not know.

I then start to write, journal, put down random thoughts and try to make sense of it. I was trying to compare that question to other kinds of questions to help me figure this out, wondering if it’s what your passionate about, is it like your personal mission statement or your elevator speech about yourself. Well yes I was told. Okay, I can relate to that. But I still haven’t answered the question.

What is my mission statement? What am I here to do? I wrote down some words; love, create, share, inspire, learn, explore. That was a good start but I needed more, to dig deeper.

What am I passionate about, well Art/Creativity of course. What else? Nature, feeling connected to the earth and to people, spirituality. Okay now we are getting somewhere. What else? Health, as a whole… exercise/walking, eating right and mentally becoming myself again. I see it happening more and more each day. Feeling like myself again, feeling that happiness and spark. Is that a passion of mine? Well I am fighting for it every day, that happiness, so I believe so. Anything else? Yes, my family and friends. I was trying to come up with a word that described that, family and friends, but have not yet found it. Maybe loved ones? Yes I like that. I’m talking about the love and support you exchange, the companionship, intimacy, conversations, laughing, playing, talking, staying up late watching a dumb Keanu Reeves movie and poking fun at it the whole time. Those moments are priceless.

So what I realized is that I ended up with 4 pillars, 4 parts of me that when put together made me whole. So what that looks like in no particular order is this:

Creativity • Spirituality • Health • Loved Ones

I sat and looked at those words, they felt right, they felt perfect, they felt like Me. I then realized that for me to be happy to feel and speak my Truth I needed to have all 4, all 4 fulfilling my life at the same time. I can’t just be or concentrate on only 1 or 2 or 3 for that matter, I needed to be engaged with all 4 to be me. That’s my Truth.