sometimes you can only see both the future and the past from the edge, sometimes you must take the leap anyway

Stop shaking

Fuck you body stop shaking!
Trying to reduce my welbutron dosage in hopes of getting off of it, I have been at dangerously high doses for the last 4 years it ends up and many symptoms I blamed on my borderline or weight loss messing with my hormones may be from being on not just the maximum dose of 450mg a day but being on SIX fucking 75mg pills which increases how much I absorb.
I have blamed other things for stuff like rage fits and not being able to concentrate enough to read a book or watch more than a few hours of something once in a while, for loss of memory, low blood pressure on standing and these fucking shakes all of which I have never had before or at least to this extent.
I always had ADD but looking at Netflix I realized that 4 years ago is when I suddenly stopped watching all TV and 97% of movies not just because I am not much of a fan but because I can’t concentrate, same with when I stopped being able to finish books.
A month after my duodenal switch surgery there was concern I wouldn’t be able to absorb enough welbutron so my dose was adjusted…I am hoping against hope that it hasn’t caused permanent damage to my brain.