Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I felt like sharing this amazing song by Genesis although I know that someone taking a glimpse to one blog has no time or is in another mood to listen to this.Soulful and ethereal are some of the words that comes to my mind whenever I hear it:

The crawlers cover the floor in the red ocher corridor.For my second sight of people, they've more lifeblood than before.They're moving in time to a heavy wooden door,Where the needles eye is winking, closing in on the poor.The carpet crawlers heed their callers:We've got to get in to get outWe've got to get in to get outWe've got to get in to get out.

Theres only one direction in the faces that I see;And Its upward to the ceiling, where the chambers said to be.Like the forest fight for sunlight, that takes root in every tree.They are pulled up by the magnet, believing they're free.The carpet crawlers heed their callers:We've got to get in to get outWe've got to get in to get outWe've got to get in to get out.

Mild mannered supermen are held in kryptonite,And the wise and foolish virgins giggle with their bodies glowingBright.Through a door a harvest feast is lit by candlelight;Its the bottom of a staircase that spirals out of sight.The carpet crawlers heed their callers:We've got to get in to get outWe've got to get in to get outWe've got to get in to get out.

The porcelain manikin with shattered skin fears attack.And the eager pack lift up their pitchers - they carry all they lack.The liquid has congealed, which has seeped out through the crack,And the tickler takes his stickleback.The carpet crawlers heed their callers:We've got to get in to get outWe've got to get in to get outWe've got to get in to get out.

This song is from the album ""The Lamb Lies Down On Broadway"

"The album tells the surreal story of a half-Puerto Rican juvenile delinquent named Rael living in New York City, who is swept underground to face bizarre creatures and nightmarish dangers in order to rescue his brother John. Several of the story's occurrences and places were derived from Peter Gabriel's dreams, and the protagonist's name is a play on his surname. In an interview Phil Collins remarked, "It's about a "split personality". In this context, Rael would believe he is looking for John but is actually looking for a missing part of himself. The individual songs also make satirical allusions to everything from mythology to the sexual revolution to advertising and consumerism."

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

The photo of my profile is Traci Johnson is a 19 years-old healthy volunteer for Cymbalta clinical trial for urinary incontinence in 2003. She hanged herself at Eli-Lylli's facilities on February, 2004. Other four volunteers are known to have died.The story is about to repeat itself. You can read here the government recruiting children aged 7 to 17 years old. No healthy volunteers accepted this time. If anything happens they can blame it on the disease because although the UK Parliament has already recognized drug-induced suicidal ideation nothing was done. Two of the exclusion criteria for this clinical trial:

Children of site personnel directly affiliated with this study and/or their immediate families.

Children of Lilly employees or employees of the designated CRO assisting with the conduct of the study.

At least they care about the life of their own children and the children of their employees.Extracts from the government page:

A Study in the Treatment of Children and Adolescents With Major Depressive Disorder

Outpatient, diagnosed with MDD as defined by the DSM-IV-TR and supported by the MINI-KID.

Diagnosis of moderate or greater severity of MDD as determined by CDRS-R with a total score greater than or equal to 40 at screen, and randomization and a CGI-Severity rating of greater than or equal to 4 at screen, and randomization.

Female patients must test negative for pregnancy during screening.

Judged to be reliable by the investigator to keep all appointments for clinical visits, tests, and procedures required by the protocol.

Has a degree of understanding such that they can communicate intelligently with the investigator and study coordinator.

Capable of swallowing study drug whole. It is anticipated the patients will need to swallow up to 6 capsules per day.

Patients must have venous access sufficient to allow blood sampling and are compliant with blood draws as per the protocol.

Exclusion Criteria:

Children of site personnel directly affiliated with this study and/or their immediate families.

Children of Lilly employees or employees of the designated CRO assisting with the conduct of the study.

Monday, October 19, 2009

"I read a post from another blogger about sharing the Ten Best Moments of my Life. I thought that was a good idea. So I'm going to post mine here are sort of in order of time but not priority.

1. Graduating from college with high honors--it was a real "whew" moment2. Getting my Ph.D. --it made me have a great sense of accomplishment3. Getting my first job as a scientist--finally getting paid to do something I love4. Getting my first paper published--without revision. I was published as a scientist!5. Getting married--intending to spend my life with someone I deeply love6. Getting my first car--an old Mustang that I liked and was my very own7. Building our house--and acting as the general contractor8. Getting the top prize with one of my hobbies9. That Ah-Ha moment in recovery when I understood that I could Let Go10. A first kiss from a special person--another Ah-Ha moment

What are the ten best moments in your life?"

These are the ten best moment's of a Susan'sfriend - she always have great friends! I have to learn with her how to find more amazing people and Stephany is also a good in finding and introducing great people! Oops I met Susan because of Stephany.I felt like sharing it with you. I'll do my own later I loved these moments, though. What a great life!I dedicate this post to all the great friends I have because of this blog.Love you all and you are always on my mind, heart and soul in good and in bad times.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

The book "The Anti-Depressant Fact Book: What Your Doctor Won't Tell You About Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil, Celexa, and Luvox" by Peter R. Breggin should be read by any person who is taking or is considering taking SSRI's and SNRIs antidepressants.The title of the book alone has already inspired a new approach and is already part of the vocabulary of those who are trying to make awareness about the side effects and many hideous issues these drugs promote.Above a copy and paste of one part of the site "AntidepressantFacts":

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

The photography you see at my profile is Tracy Johnson's a healthy 19 years-old woman who hanged herself at Eli-Lilly's facilities in 2004 during Cymbalta clinical trials.I just saw at Furious Season's this post "Cymbalta Being Trialed in Kids as Young as 7":

"The site is a recruiting tool for a 700-person study of Cymbalta as a treatment for major depression in kids aged 7 to 17 years. The study will include a placebo arm and also use Prozac as a known comparator (interestingly, Prozac is not approved for use in 7 to 17 year olds). The study is broken out into two separate clinical trials, one of 448 kiddos and the other of 336 kids. The studies are expected to be completed in early 2012 and each runs for 36 weeks, so this is no short-term clinical trial.

The two trials come on the heels of a smaller trial of Cymbalta in 72 kids aged 7 to 17 that was completed late in 2008. I cannot find its results published anywhere. It did not have a placebo or comparator arm.

So it's obvious that Lilly has its sights set on getting Cymbalta approved for use in kids. I cannot think of anything useful to say about that except to point out that since its introduction in 2004 Cymbalta has racked up 130 adverse events reports in the FDA's database among kid aged 0 to 17 (so the drug hasn't been used much off label in kids) and an astounding 14378 reports among all age groups." (emphasis mine)

I don't know what to say except that these children will have their health altered for the rest of their lives. There are even evidences that SSRIs antidepressants are teratogenic. When a nation don't care about the children I don't know any longer what to think and what kind of world we are living. This is beyond common sense understanding. Maybe it's because I don't have money. I believe that being a shareholder or have over a certain amount of money must affect people's ethics, behaviour, values... everything.

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Lately I stopped writing but I'm always thinking about the amazing people I met because of this blog.I want to dedicate this song to all of you and also thank you to keep going. This is a very inspiring song for people who have a cause or... care.Be at peace!

The Man who Sold the WorldDavid Bowie

We passed upon the stair, we spoke of was and whenAlthough I wasn't there, he said I was his friendWhich came as some surprise I spoke into his eyesI thought you died alone, a long long time ago

Oh no, not meI never lost controlYou're face to faceWith the man who sold the world

I laughed and shook his hand, and made my way back homeI searched for form and land, for years and years I roamedI gazed a gazely stare at all the millions hereWe must have died alone, a long long time ago

Who knows? not me*We never lost controlYou're face to faceWith the man who sold the world

Who knows? not meWe never lost controlYou're face to faceWith the man who sold the world

*At this show David Bowie smiles and the crowd sings happily as if saying "we can fight".