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ok Here ya go Girls:...I still didnt send the letter of complaints out. I decided having him on child support gets him where it hurts the most. In his pocket. The only way i will inform his job of anything is if he does something else to me. Right now, I will stay focused on getting my support and being satisfied that i know he is expecting me to do something and is scared shitless just by the thought.

Wishful, having PMS is soooooo hard sometimes. I always got more emotional (much more) when I had it. As far as your ex's sister calling you... I wouldn't offer any personal information about what you're doing in your life. And why does she tell you what his mom and other sister are saying? It sounds like she's trying to start trouble. I would steer clear of her. I'm sure if you told her anything, she ran right back to him (your ex) and told him. I simply cannot tolerate people like that. Therapy is a good idea. When things ended with my 1st husband (which, in reality was when he died), it took me a couple years of therapy to be able to go to his grave and forgive him for all the past abuse (physical/verbal), giving me HIV etc. I don't know if things are easier because he's not on the earth anymore. Even though we weren't on excellent terms when he died, it was still a huge loss, and that was something else to deal with. Good luck with what you decide to do. And thanks for starting the new thread. Oh, about getting your ex's stimulus payment-you might want to check with the IRS on that. It's not a tax refund, it's a totally separate thing. I do hope you get it, I'm just not sure you will.

Snow, I know how crazy people are when they drive. I watch everyone. I've seen too many accidents happen in a second. The movies I had, I rented from a video store. But yeah, my library has a good selection. And they usually have new releases the week after they hit the video stores. I too hope that SB's latest gf presses charges. Maybe that'll keep him out of everyone's hair for awhile. My daughter saw a lot of nastiness from her own father; eventually, she got the picture of who he truly was. And it didn't take her long either.

Queen, it sounds like you're feeling better. I'm so relieved. When is your appointment with the first specialist?

I returned the videos and went to the library. I got two books, "End of Faith," and "The Heroin Diaries." I'll probably start them today. It's chilly and grey out. But, that's spring weather for ya. OK, I'm off to check out a few more threads and make lunch. Have a good afternoon ladies.

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Betty: Thanks. I actaully started the thread after reading the irs website about it. Its treated as a tax refund in regards to being subject to interception for federal loans, child support, etc. Im just wondering if he claimed the new baby on his or if he let the girfriend bcus he knows i get his.

I guess if he was gone i wouldnt have to worry about if he was going to be in his kids life or not, if he will ever be truly sorry for what he did and how he treated me, etc. Well the sister actually called first on Friday and left me a message asking about sect 8. I didnt call back cus i was like im not dealing with any of them. Then she called yesterday. I called back, she seemed to just want to pray for me at least thats what she said. SHe had been thinking about us and missed us, that she always considered me family, that i was strong, blah blah blah. SHe doesnt seem to have an alterior motive but the only things i told her was stuff she already knew about the past. Her brother talks to her but like with everything and everyone else he only tells parts of the story. So she didnt ask me anything. We talked about the kids hers n mine. Im not sure why she told me she had words with her older sister about what was said about me n him..she wouldnt say what exactly what was said but i told her if i knew that any of them felt or doubted my baby girl..neither her or my son would have ever been brought over there..she said she understood that..blah blah..i dont know what her motive was..but she had 4 kids of her own who havent seen there their dad in 8 years ..so..who knows...She is supposedly into church real heavy and stuff...it kinda felt good tho to talk to her..she is the only one i really ever liked, the others are phony as hell and keep away cus i dont and wont bite my tongue...But just like she was careful not to give me info i was even more careful.

I just got back from my dr appt to find out my test results. I am a little frustrated because the lab didn't do the genotype test so I had to go back to get that done so that my dr can know what meds to put me on. They had 3 weeks to tell me that I needed to go back and get them done. Why wait til I drive the 45 min to see the dr? So now I have to wait another 3 weeks to find out what to do next. My CD4 levels are good at 537. The viral load was high at 107000! That is pretty high right? My dr had that test done again to see just double check if that's really what it was. I hope everyone is having a great day!

Good rainy, poverty stricken, happy, Monday afternoon. Hubby's SS# ends in 99 and we have direct deposit. Of course, the only economy it's going to stimulate is Discover's - we have to pay off our car repair bills and other bills. I don't even want to know when it comes in. I told Hubby to just write the check to pay down Discover. It's too depressing. Oh, the things I could've done - like get a dining room table that we could all fit around. *sigh* Oh, well.

Keeping: congrats on the wedding! I hope you'll post at least 1 picture so we can see.

Drag: If you really want to get married quick, you could always do what I did..LOL!

Betty: Congrats on the A, hun. I'm just so stinkin' proud of you! Not much longer and you'll be posting pictures in your cap and gown

Wish: I'm not sure what to say. I wish I had a really cool earth-shattering solution for you. Please never feel like you have to censor yourself here. We're a tough group of tender hearted women. You can always vent, hun.

It's pouring the rain and stinkin' cold here today. Things aren't supposed to get better until Thursday. Tomorrow's high is only 46!! By Friday, we're back up to 80. YEAH!!! The boys have baseball games tomorrow, but 46 is way too cold for me to sit outside for 3hrs. But, yes, we'll go. Oh, I forgot. Someone asked me what we did about #4's tooth money. Well, turned out she didn't have a dollar in her piggy bank, so we got really evil and took it out of #6's (from her birthday). I know, it doesn't earn me any points for mother of the year. BUT, we did put it back when we were able to get change yesterday. So, everyone is happy and none the wiser. WHEW!

I've done exactly squat today. I cooked spaghetti for lunch, but that's about it. I have a mound of laundry and just wasn't in the mood. Tomorrow I'll be griping about all the laundry I have to do..lol! Wouldn't be my life if I didn't have at least 10 things to gripe about.

My appointment with the first specialist is on Wednesday. I am trying to get back in good spirits though I am still concerned. And it is freezing here too, it's like 48 or something. Even had to turn the heat on. I finally finished my hair. I think it came out better this time. I'm guessing since my SS ends in 71 that my check probably won't come in til around check day which is Thursday. They're doing groups of 20 right? I am still wondering what I may do with it. I think I may start the insurance policy on the car or do something in regards to the car. Even with doing that, there may be change enough to get a new tatt. Wasn't it you Netta that has Egyptian ones? I am going to get an Anhk with my son's name at the bottom and Mi Corazon (My heart) over the top. Depends on the price though maybe I can get a deal or something.

Just checked my sugar and it was 96. Now I have been up since about 10:30 this morning. I haven't eaten anything though and hasn't had any Pepsi til about just 10 minutes ago. When my sugars are low like this, it doesn't make sense to take any meds but will check it again after I eat and that's if I eat.

I almost forgot...Queen Nefertiti had her kittens last night. She had 6 but 2 died.None of them have six toes like my demon kitty. All of them are dark like her but 2 of them have something unique about them. One of them is dark and has a small orange patch on his back and the other one is dark all over except for his mouth which is white. We think we have 3 boys and one girl but not sure. Of the 2 that died one was twice the size of all the other kittens and was all black. The other was a light tiger stripped gray. But Queen Nef and her babies are doing fine.

Queen that sounds cool (the tattoo)...they have tat parties around ya way??..u can usually get a good price when goin to the parties. Have you talked to your son?...U have other kids right? or am i wrong..i forget..im sorry...What kind of hair did u get this time eventho u never told me last itme..lol..i stil lhave raggedy tangles old Beyonce in my hair..i think im gonna get some cornrows for the wedding...im tryin to get my hair back..it grows fast tho....

Netta: cheer up..this must be dump season for some of us..lolMum: dont worry about it..im like i have said before a VERY emotional gal..(or VERY unemotional) so i go thru sometimes and am better within a few hours...Im actually happy again..esp when i think about getting his money..lol

I called child support and they have recv'd my since 4-9 so its in the makings for modification (an arrears case is already open)..So hopefully by summers end i will be getting steady chunks of his earnings...Fucker!

Wish- That is a good decision not to send the letter until he messes up again, more ammo can never hurt. That will be great when you start getting the payments in the summer, that will really burn his ass. At least one of his family members sounds like they have a decent head on thier shoulders.

Queen- Congrats on the new additions. I have been thinking of another tatt too, the one you described sounds cool.

Pink- Sorry you have to go back for more labs, that is a pain in the ass. I am the last one to ask about numbers, I am always getting them confused to which one should be high and which should be low. Try not stress out about anything and you will be fine.

Well my day sucked!!!! My mother had to put down her dog. Thankfully, my father was there to go with her. She had such a sweet disposition and was always really good with the kids, whenever my Mom had to go away she would stay with us so the kids all love her. I told my older son this afternoon, he took it better than I thought he would. I haven't told the trip lets yet.

I got a call from sb today, asking if I called this weekend? I told him his daughter had called me because she didn't know if my son was supposed to go over there or not. He played it off like nothing was wrong, it was his wife freaking out being stupid, everything was all set. I called his daughter and he got out on bail, one of his drug buddies posted for him. The lucky fucker. His wife is freaking out cuz he threatened to have her killed if she put him in jail. The guy is fucking nuts. I hate this shit, I would be more than happy to have no more drama in my life.

Pink, yes that is a high viral load. I forgot, how long have you been +? If it's recent, that explains it. Your body is trying to adjut. You can't go by one set of labs. Usually three rounds (of labs) are appropriate.

Mum, heh. I made spagetti today also and the dishes are sitting on the sink. I'll do them tomorrow morning. It was me who asked what you did about #4's tooth. I told you, money is better regifted. It's cold and rainey here also, but that's spring.

Queen, congratulations on the kitties. I bet they're cute. So, you're getting a new tatt? That's cool. I think about getting another one somtimes. I just don't know what I'd get. Most of mine are Native American symbols.

Snow, that's too bad one of SB's drug-buddies got him out. I used to be terrified of my 1st husband. And he was so crazy, he would have made good on his threats. I hope his wife stays strong.

Nothing happening here. Raining, grey, that's about it. I slept for 2 hours this afternoon/evening. I swear I could sleep more. I don't know what's been wrong with me lately, being so tired all the time. Maybe it's age. Have a good evening ladies.

Edited to add: Snow, I am so, so sorry for your loss. Pets are a hard thing to lose. Accept my condolences.

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Wishful, I totally know how you feel. I have been off and on with my ex for 13 years. We had a baby that I placed with a family through adoption. It is open and I have contact so I feel good about it. That was 11 years ago. He is also the one who infected me. I still have a hard letting him go. Therapy does help though. I go weekly and it makes a difference. Hang in there!

Well today was kind of crazy. I got a call at about 12:00 from my mother letting me know that my sister, who is a senior in highschool, had to be taken to the emergency room by ambulance because she was having an allergic reaction to something and could not breathe. Well I told my partner teacher and she took my class for the last hour so I could go to the emergency room. She is OK now. They are not sure what caused the reaction but pumped her with medicine and gave her an Epi pen and put her on steroids. My mom is taking her to an allergist to find out what caused it. My poor sister was scared and embarrassed to be taken from school like that... I don't blame her! Anyways...all seems OK for now thank God!

Betty, the last day of school for me is June 12th and then I am going to teach summer school. That starts a week after school is out and last for about 3 weeks. I am so looking forward to sleeping in!

Queen, is the tattoo going to have a heart or just say "heart"? My sister is bugging me to commit to getting one but I am such a perfectionist and worry that if it is not perfect I will regret it. I guess I should just do it...take a risk LOL!

Well ladies that is all for now. It has been HOT here! We had triple digits Sat. and Sun. and today was in the 90's...I can't wait for summer!

Viv, I would encourage you to go to a tatt shop that has reputable artists and also has an impecable reputation (sterilized equipment etc.). I don't know how many tatt shops are around your area, but check them out thoroughly and you shouldn't have any problem.

Another tatt does sound tempting....

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Good morning ladies. Hope everyone is well. Been busy, Robert and I had dentist appointments yesterday. We go at the same time cause it is an hour and a half round trip for our appointments. Queen, glad you got your first appointment with the specialist, hope you get told that it's only a harmless lump or lesion. Harmless, that's the key word. Nefertiti had her kittens. In about 3 weeks, they will be really fun. Sorry 2 died but a lot of times that happens. 6 is a lot of babies for a cat. Betty, you got an A!!!!. You go , girl. That is fantastic. Bet you and mum make great spaghetti. Snow, hope this stuff with sb isn't too hard on your son. I have had my share of drama from the crazy ones and never fun. Anyway, just wanted to check in. Hope everyone, Dragonette, Moonlight, Veritee, Vivyt(good luck with Summer School) Minismum, is doing well. Later, Cristy

Cristy, I used to loathe going to the dentist. Of course, now that I have dentures, I don't go. I had to have my teeth (that weren't knocked out) pulled when I was 24. They were all rotting. That was mainly due to my drugging/drinking heavily.

Viv, I meant to tell you, good luck with summer school.

Today I'm not sure what I'm going to do with myself. Probably do some more reading. I started "The Heroin Diaries" last night. It's alright I guess. I might do some cleaning also. This Saturday, I'm going to my parents' to help my oldest sister with a sale of whatever's left in their house (save the appliances). Their house will be on the market until May (or was it June) 15th. Maybe it's June. Then, if it doesn't sell, it goes back to the bank. I have to be there at 8:00 in the morning.(!) That's a little early, but my sister likes to run things like a general. That's alright. I can tolerate it. There's still a tiff between my brother and two sisters. I guess death brings out the best and worst in people.

You ladies have a nice morning.

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wish - u go do a whole lot of shopping and stuff when you get his money. you deserve it after all the shit he's put you thru. and just think of the power you have over him. u can bust his ass whenever you feel like with that letter. and u cant be too careful with the sister till u know for sure if she's truly concerned about you. the less negative enery u have in your life the better.

Drag - congrats on the undetectable. u must be relieved u dont have to go thru the resistence and switching meds stuff again huh?

Pink- great news on the numbers, seems u're doing good girl. u really want to go on meds with those numbers? sorry u gotta go back to the vampires for more blood draws.

Christy - i totally hate dentists! mine uses latex gloves (which stink like some condoms we have here) and the dentist has his hand over your nose and messing about with sharp sticks in your mouth. the first time i went i cried. the second time i got home and threw up. now i'm a bit braver. i'm delaying my next vist for as long as possible..

Queen - congrats on the new babies. kittens look so cute when they're young. maybe post us a couple of pictures?

Keeping - the countdown has started! u are one forgiving lady...i hope the preparations are going well. i attended a wedding on the weekend of one the guys in our building. i only stayed for the ceremony though. my favourite part is when the bride walks in. zimbabwean weddings are so noisy. the bride comes in surrounded by a bunch of women ululating and dancing and laying a path of fabrics so she can walk on them. it can take up to 10 minutes from the time she leaves the car until she gets to the altar going so slowly.

work has been hectic and playing on the internet wont help thats for sure! anyway, we are still waiting for results a month after voting. they say they need 2 more days now then they;ll release the presidential results. the recount was a farce. for Mugabe that is. coz the opposition still has parliament and actually got a few more votes that had been counted wrong or missed or whatever. so even if he wins the presidential, he's going to have a tough time in parliament. that ship with the weapons is trying to get in thru Angola. we're hoping international pressure will keep them from unloading the weapons there. Our government is defending itself that they were bought last year and people are ignoring the fact that they've always traded with china and china was instrumental in the liberation war supplying weapons and training etc. they think we;re so stupid. they going to have a wake-up call real soon.i had wanted to move house this month but i dont think its going to happen coz everyone charging rent in forex as if we earn forex here. its illegal and all but that wont stop them. guess i'm stuck where i am until things get better i suppose. oh well.

Good morning ladies, thanks for the cheer ups, Yesterday I wrote a letter to post and this stupid computer lost everything!!!I am on my sisters 1000.00 hp computer,go figure!! after that happened I didn't care to start over and I was really depressed. I am feeling better now. i have been suffering from depression for a longtime and take Zoloft, but I never took the whole amount prescribed (1+1/2) pill. I only took the one.I recently stated taking the prescribed amount and started back on my hormones, while I don't like taking them, I know this is the right thing to do and I will feel better once they get in my system, Sometimes I am embarrassed to talk about my depression and in denial, I hate the fact that I have to rely on meds for the rest of my life but I know getting off them is not an option, I have tried in the past and it was hell, like withdrawing from crack or something, I have read reports about how bad it can be detoxing but didn't believe it , till i tried. I had terrible anxiety attacks!!!Any how I am in Va.Beach, yesterday a tornado touched down but missed Va.Beach, It did a lot of damage.SO I am counting my blessings. I am mad about my electric bill, It went from 250.00 to 390.00!!! and I am not even there!!!! There goes my stimulus check! they are charging me another deposit for paying late, what makes them think I can afford it, if i can't pay all of my regular bill??? It depresses me that low income people get treated so bad sometimes. it is even hard to find decent housing, even with section 8. where I live you have to be on a waiting list for new or redone apartments. I have been on waiting list for three years!!!Where I live they do just enough to pass inspection and that's not much, my apt is old.The management says they are going to redo the outsides and insides, but nothing has been done yet.they still look the same as when they were built back in the 1070's!!!!! not to mention I live next door to a convicted rapist, who has a 17 year old girlfriend and nobody cares not even the mom!! There is also a lot of drug use and selling going on here, though it is kept quiet, I still feel uncomfortable. !Well I decided I am not moving to Va.Beach, too far from my kids. and my grandkids would have a fit, they start crying when I mention it, I know they are my support system and I need and love them so much. I might move to Atlanta where the housing is much better an newer. I am lposting a pic of the grands a pic of my grands ,Brianna is 11 and Moriah is 5 yrs old. I hope all is well,and I love you all, getting out of my funk, Oh by the way I did nothing last week to nurture myself so this week I will be back in that thread, it really keeps me grounded.

Not really much to report here either. I cleaned the house while my roomie is at a doctor's appointment. The liver specialist called today to confirm tomorrow's appointment. Trying not to dwell on it. Netta, I know how you feel about low income people being treated like shit. I'm going through the same thing with the gas company and my landlord with where I live too. He is a cool landlord when it comes to paperwork being filled out and he does just what is needed to pass inspection. I believe he knows how poorly this apartment is insulated. Since it has been warmer I have had the heat off but the past few days it has been cold so it has been on 65. I got this month's gas bill and of course, it is estimated but it shows that my use of gas has gone down some what for this month. Hopefully, I will be able to catch it up.

Queen Nef and the kittens are doing ok. I will try to post a pic with this post if Nef doesn't have a fit. She doesn't mind us touching the kittens while in her basket but we have never taken them all out at once. I haven't heard anything else regarding my son. I saw some of his friends today and they said they are going to visit him. I am still checking for my stimulus check cause Goddess knows I need it but it is still not here. Maybe tomorrow but has read that they aren't mailing any out on Thursday. I guess cause it is check day for most people on disability. And 5 million is suppose to be sent out on Friday.

Other than that, nothing going on with me....OK, just had to reinstall webcam...Will be right back with pics of the kittens..Well, Nef would only let me take pics of 2 of the kittens and they were squirming all over the place...

Netta beautiful granddaughters! sorry u're down, and that your hood is so rough, and about the meds, lots of presecriptions are so addictive. I guess reaching a decision where to stay is some kind of relief though.

Viv - I envy anyone without tattooes... the freedom to go sleevless... hope I will learn to live with it.

Cristy I hate going to dentists too - though you didnt say if you did actually. that sure is far to go to a dentist... i just got this thing to wear on my teeth at night cos I am breaking them, it wont be long b4 I have to crown all of them but trying to delay for now, problem is it makes me want to gag, seriously i dont know how i will be able to sleep with it.

Snow, I feel sorry for his wife too. something I dont get so many great women are single and so many **** guys have someone to take care of them not that they appreciate it. Stay safe, please.

Cheetara - sorry for your loss. hope to hear more from you when you feel better.

speaking of which... Wishful glad you're back to being chilled.

still fluish - its been going around. havent slept much at all, averaging 4 hrs/night in the last days.

2moro's a holiday here - tonight is Queen's night which is a big celebration, everyone is out till late, back home but had a nice dinner in a cafe nearby though sitting outside.

it's beautiful here this time of year and I wish i could bring all you ladies to visit. I'll try to post spring pics sometime. Just bogged down with work basically and will be the whole summer. oh well

have a good one ladies - Cindy, Camms, Keeping, Veritee, Pink, Mom, Wendy, anyone I missed, be well

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I just wanted to send you well wishes with your doctor appt. tomorrow. Fingers crossed over here for hearing good news back from you!!! And thanks for sharing the photos of your kittens. They're so tiny

Queen, those kitties sure are cute. All baby animals are. My thoughts will be with you tomorrow.

Drag, yeah, I'm glad you're undetectable as well. I understand not wanting to have to switch meds if you don't have to.

I didn't do anything today except sleep. I'm not understanding why lately, I can sleep for 7 hours at night, get up exhausted, and then sleep again for 2-3 hours during the day. I have dark circles under my eyes also. Which leads me wonder if it's my iron. Well, in a couple weeks I go see the doctor and will have a round of labs done. So I'm just not going to worry about it.

Tomorrow an old friend of mine who used to live by me (also in NA-Narcotics Anonymous) is supposed to come over in the afternoon. In the morning, my bff is supposed to take her truck to the Ford dealer and I told her I would pick her up. I haven't called anywhere yet about volunteering. Gas here hit $3.75/gallon. So, I'm waiting to volunteer until next week, after check day, so I can afford to drive somwhere. Geesh. Have a good evening ladies.

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Betty- 3.75 OUCH!! It is up to 3.50 here. This summer is going to be rough! I hope you can check that out with doc, you did have a lot of stuff going on lately maybe your body is playing catch up.

Queen-Cute little babies. I hope they don't keep you up at night. I will be thinking of you tomorrow too.

Drag- Your country sounds beautiful. I am glad to hear you are undetectable. I hope things work out with your job.

Netta- Beautiful kids!! That is probably a good decision not to move to VA, there is nothing like a childs unconditional love. I hope everyone here has made you comfortable enough to talk about anything, we all have our own issues and demons and sometimes it is good to let them out. Especially when you find someone else who might be going through the same now or has in the past. I have electric heat in my house and each month in the winter it goes up another $400 +bucks, maybe we should all look into getting solar panels and getting a group discount

Tendai- What is forex? I don't know how you do it, that sounds like total chaos over there.

I went and switched my case manager today. OMG! Like night and day, the other guy was just plain awful! I have to go back Friday to finish filling out paperwork. Called the local law consortium to see if I had any options with my oldests father, the lawyer is going to call me back in a day or two. I might have to get a modification to the court order.Had yet another blowout with my SO, same shit, different day. I am so sick of men and thier bullshit, I don't know what to do.Took everyone to the dentist today, they do a lot better than I ever did, I had a total ass for a dentist so I hated to go. Now, everything is computerized with computers hanging down for them to watch a chimp brushing a teeth correctly,and computers with x-rays of thier teeth and shit, its crazy.I hope everyone has a good night!Good Luck tomorrow, Queen!!Snow

OMG, Queen, love the kitties. Wish I could have one. Maybe my Sweet Girl will catch pregnant soon or already is. I hope so. Good luck at the doctor's appointment tomorrow. Moonlight, hope your appointment with the new ENT helps. I will google that in the morning, this is kinda late for me. Snow, glad you got a new case manager. Betty, hope the house things go smoothly. . Ladies, I must go to bed. I will try to respond to everyone tomorrow night, big day at work at lunch but will talk to you later.Cristy Edited to add: Netta love the picture.

Thanks for the well wishes for my appointment later on today. Since technically it is after midnight. The nurse I had spoke to earlier yesterday said it is unlikely that both doctors would be able to do the biopsies at the same time. I kind of figured that but if they can put me to sleep, I am good with that. I just hope the pain won't be that bad. I am sure they won't do anything tomorrow but just talk. It's the liver specialist I have to see. My friend Jeff has been a great help to me, he has been taking me to all my doctor appointments. He says he doesn't mind but I feel bad cause I never have gas for him. I think I will put 20 bucks aside for him on Friday. Plus he follows my blog faithfully. He says I saved his life and that he draws his strength from me. I consider that nice I suppose but I don't see myself as being so strong.

I have been holding the kitties like crazy today, Nef doesn't seem to mind but she let me know when she was ready for them to go back in the room. The other cats have peeked in at them. The reactions have been hissing to looks of "they're not mine". Guess who is giving that look and he knows damn well he's the daddy!! As they say, "Mama's baby, Daddy's maybe".

Cindy- Sorry the vertigo is fucking with you so bad. I really miss hearing from you.

Christy-- I see you are still faithful to the dragon eggs. I wonder if Mouse has noticed?

My son's friend stopped over tonight to talk about my son once more. He went to go see him and my son hadn't even put him on the visiting list. He has his gf and her mom, I guess because the gf is under 18. We compared some notes on some things and have come to the conclusion my son had been lying about a lot of things. I guess it's the foolishness of his age and some of his Daddy's genes. Come to find out the gun he fired was military issued. It was my nephew's gun and I am hoping he gets in just as much trouble as my son. My son is pretty much taking the hit for it all and my nephew is sitting around doing nothing, not even trying to put some money on his books since it was his damn gun in the first place.

I'm gonna quit bitching and let off some frustration killing shit in Warcraft. I'll get with you all after my appointment.

Good morning ladies. I'm here, once again, sick. I'm back to coughing and at the moment it feels like my head is going to explode. I wish it would. At least then it wouldn't hurt so stinkin' bad. I've run through 3 boxes of tissues since yesterday morning. Hubby wanted to run our errands today since it's supposed to be better weather wise - up to 60 - not sure I'm up to it. I may just send him with a couple of the kids. I took 2 extra-strength Exedrin and in about an hour, I'll take some congestion stuff. I called Quick Care yesterday to see if the doctor would write me another prescription for the steroid and I was reminded that I have an outstanding bill of $131. I told them that the check would be in the mail after the 1st. No one has called back and the pharmacy said that no prescription has been called in. I'm pretty sure that what I've got now is sinus stuff due to the constant, and dramatic, change in weather. *sigh*

Queen, my darling, I'll be praying for your appointment today. If nothing else, prayerfully the doctor can answer your questions. Just knowing may put your mind at ease. I'd still talk to both doctors and see if they can schedule your biopsies at the same time. It makes sense and I bet they'd be willing to work with you. No harm asking / begging / crying / bitching Beautiful babies, too. Do they have names? I fullly expect the girl to be named Mum or, at the very least, Mini

Betty, I am feeling your pain at the pump. Our vehicle drinks gas like Cubans drink coffee. That's why unless absolutely necessary, we run all of our errands in one day. It makes for a crazy long day, but we can't afford to go out more than once. The closest "town" with anything in it, is 23 miles away. With gas prices and mileage, it costs us about $16 in gas just to go to the grocery store! We've seriously looked into buying groceries online, but then I'd never get to leave the house.

We have a program called "non-emergency medical transportation". Basically, it pays mileage for doctor's appointments that are farther than 30 miles from the home. I've never filled one out before, but I'm going to have to start. We have to make 2 trips to Morgantown next week for appointments. Round trip is about 140 miles! On Tuesday, Mini will have her fasting lipid and ID blood work, then see the Lipid Doc. We'll see how well taking her off Susteva (and not replacing it with anything) has helped her cholesterol and triglycerides. Also, #6 has an appointment with the eye specialist that same day. I'm really worried that she's losing vision in her left eye. She can be looking at you with her right eye and her left eye will wander off to the left and stay there. Anyway, then Friday, Mini goes back to see her ID doc. Even taking the smaller car, that's 280 miles round trip for the 2 appointments. I just can't afford it on my own anymore.

Wish, what beautiful kids! After hearing about those 3 tornatoes that touched down in VA, I'm glad you're staying put. Not sure I could leave those babies, either. We almost had a Moriah - it means "God provided".

Christy, good to hear from you again. Happy (belated) birthday to Robert! Will he be starting Kindergarten in the fall? I remember he's the same age as one of mine, I just can't remember if it's #4 (6yo) or #5 (5yo). Have a great day at work today and try not to be too stressed out.

Drag, what country are you in and where are you from? I'm not sure I ever knew. If you've told me and I've forgotten, I'm sorry.

Everyone else that I've missed, know that I love you dearly! Lots of moochies heading out in all directions to each and every one of you.Mum

Snow, so your new case manager is better? And what's with the ongoing trouble with your SO? Are you going to stick it out or give him the boot in the ass?

Cin, wow. I thought you were doing better. I sure hope the new ENT can get this figured out and under control. Thoughts are with ya.

Cristy, I'm expecting a new, big, long post from you. I hope you and Robert are doing alright.

Queen, I'll be thinking about you today and waiting to hear what the doctor has to say. Good luck.

Mum, might you need to see an allergy doctor? I know, I know, you don't have insurance, but that might solve your constant congestion problems.

I talked to a lady last night who used to be my sponsor like 17 years ago. She went through gastric bypass surgery (medically necessary), fell down a flight of stairs, went into a coma and had small strokes (this happened like 6 or 7 years ago). She's still very loving and caring, but not what she was. She's tied into a local county mental health place and they're the payee on her disability check. I feel so very fortunate, to have her in my life still, but for other reasons also. I went down a flight of stairs before, though that wasn't when I went into the coma. That was pre-coma. But when I went in the coma, my bff (who is my power-of-attorney) told me when I was in the ER, the doctor wanted to do an MRI to see what my brain activity was (since my brain was swollen). Anyway, when they were getting ready to put me in the MRI machine, I flatlined. The doctor asked my bff if he should revive me. She told him she wasn't going to make that decision because my parents were there and they should make it. She said my mum took a couple minutes to decide, as she knew my wish was that I didn't want to be kept alive if there was no hope of full recovery, and at that time, the doctors expected me to die. Well, we all know she told the doctor to revive me, so they used the paddles. I feel so fortunate that I can still (mostly) function pretty good mentally. I remember when I came out of the coma, I couldn't talk. The doctor thought it was psychological, so he sent me to the county mental health hospital. They did nothing except keep me until I recovered on my own mentally. Anyway, I feel so very fortunate there wasn't more permanent damage. My old sponsor is still in recovery, but can't process thought the way she used to, and her mind wanders uncontrollably. I still love her to pieces though.

Ladies, I hope you are all having a good morning, night or whatever it is where you're at. I'll be back.

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Betty, I did talk to the hospital billing people. They said that I could sign up for their "poverty program" - what a name! - but only after I've been denied Medicaid. So, we've signed up for Medicaid and just waiting for the denial. Then, I can take it to the hospital and sign up for their program. With it, I'll "only" have to pay a co-pay based on our income. It'll be anything from $5 - $50 / visit. In some cases, I'll get a 50% discount and will have to pay the full amount of the rest. That's at least something, but can still be expensive. I'm hoping the paperwork will come in before next Friday so i don't have to make another trip up there. On Tuesday, I am going to talk to the lipid doc about my headaches and shakes when i don't eat. I've written down what I've eatten and the time and when / if I get a headache. I'm hoping that helps.

Everything else is on hold until I get my rejection letter and can sign up for the hospital program.Mum

tendai

snow - forex is foreign currency. its a shortening or whatever of foreign exchange. its just weird that people know that u earn your salary in Zim$ yet expect you to pay in US$. Lets say u earn $5billion a month. Rent may be $100US. So to buy that 100bucks u need to have Zim$10billion last i heard. the rate can go up anytime. So that means u need to have double your salary to pay rent alone, u havent bought food you havent paid school fees, you havent put aside transport money which is now $60mil a ride. Im glad u got a better case manager, feels good having someone who knows what they're doing hey? Dont u wishu could just put some men in a box and just lock them away in a dungeon or something?

Mum - sorry u're sick again. have u tried garlic? i dont know if it works with serious conditions but it may work a bit. I'd take it everytime i got sick if it werent for the smell, i mean even when i passed wind i almost fainted from the smell of garlic. good luck with the beaurocracy(sp), its enough to make one sick the delays etc

Queen - your kittens are real sweet. Good luck at the specialists today.

Betty - if u thinks its iron thats making you feel so fatigues how out just buying iron tablets over the counter. i've almost learned to recognise when i need iron supplements and i get some over the counter. i never like to let things go unchecked, im so terrified of getting really sick

Drag - waiting for pictures here. please dont forget to take time off work and relax and enjoy the beauty around you. i hope they're not overloading you. i'll send u some movie clips i got in my email which i found qute funny. i dont know how to post them here.

nothing much happening here. we might get the election results on Friday if we're lucky. if it wasnt for the violence we'd almost stop caring about these damn elections and resign ourselves to whatever. everyone have a great day and a great May Day. catch u on the other side...

Wow, so many of you all are sick. I'm sorry! I wish I could make everyone well. It sucks to be sick.

Queen-Let us know what the doctor saysCindy-My mother's best friend has Meniere's Disease. She has to take Valium for it. When she has attacks she throws up and everything. It's not good

Well there is so much going on and it is hard to keep up so forgive me if I don't respond to everyone.

We had our first day of state testing yesterday and it is so borrrrrrrring! We test the rest of this week and next. It is all standardized and everything has to be done exactly as the directions dictate. Of course I have 1 ding dong who doesn't follow directions in the beginning and then has he nears the end he just decided to bubble in the last 20 questions randomly. I had to make him go back and do it correctly. And no he wasn't my autistic student

On to another topic...I have been talking about wanting to lose weight but really have not been proactive about it. Well last night I got my "sign" I had Panda Express for dinner and was opening my fortune cookie...here is my "fortune" WORK ON IMPROVING YOUR EXERCISE ROUTINE-Even the cookies are talking to me! I told my mom and she laughed so hard. Oh well...off to the gym I go....

I didn't sleep well at all last night. Of course, the appointment with the specialist was on my mind as well as my son. When I did get to sleep it was spent tossing and turning, it felt like I could feel the lumps on both my lung and my liver no matter which position I got in. When I woke up, I am just a bundle of nerves. I smoked a joint and still feel like I have a case of the shakes. I guess this is my nerves or anxiety. This is what I am afraid of happening if I get a biopsy. It'll get to the point that I'll shake uncontrollably like I have chills. It's taking a lot of effort just to get this post done. But I need to start getting ready. I'll be back later.

Good Morning ladies, Queen I am praying for you today, that all goes well.Betty- I was really inspired by your story, and glad You lived to tell it! Girl , you are such a blessing!To all my sisters here, i hope your day is blessed, and you are well.

good luck Queen. I am sure most people are dead nervous having biopsies, they'd be used to that, just be yourself.

Hope evreyone feels better, Cindy that sounds awful, not sure if youre even reading, what a nightmare. Mum, my BF's "doomsday weapon" for congestion is slice an onion open and leave it by the bed, I laughed at him so much at first but really works for me. what do you have to lose? No insurance, damn. I'll PM you about what you asked later. Ditto Snow.

Viv good luck with the excercise. Ive been away from the gym lately, last time was a yoga class, really good but then I caught the flu.

Betty, you are truely a cat with nine lives, a phoenix, or any other metaphor for someone amazingly resilient.

Tendai here's a little something, basically a lot of the trees are flowering, everything is back to life with a vengence after the long winter. Thnx for the films, havent checked email yet today, been out and about.

Lots of love ladies, for now

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Back from the specialist. It seems I have some type of thickness on my intestinal wall and a shadow of something. They can't tell from the cat scan. They also want to do sonograms of my liver and gallbladder. I have to get a colonoscopy on June 5th to find out more about the thickness and shadow of whatever. More details of the visit is in my blog and in my thread in LW. Be back later....

I got a lot of reading to catch up on you ladies. I've been busy with my kid carting his butt to school and to a neighboring city to take GED tests. Of course he cant take them all on one day. That would be too simple and cost effective for me. LOLPlus his lease is up this month and we have been looking for a new place for him to move. The dive he is in is now told him he has to pay 50 bucks more a month. They don't even deserve the 450 he pays for the one room shack he is renting. Hell the roaches should pitch in and pay some rent. I'm not joking its a seriously small efficiency. His bedroom here at the house was this size. He doesn't even have an oven its a hotplate and a microwave. But thats all he deserved when I rented the place for him.

Anywho, I hope the slumlord doesn't cause any drama. He insisted that Aaron give a proper 30 day notice or he wouldn't give him a good report to the next apartment. Even though the lease is up and I have always paid him at least a week before the 1st. Cant blame the guy. He can charge what ever he wants now that there is no lease. I'm just glad he only asked for 50 more.

Queen- its great to hear that the doctors are working on your health problems even though you still have to wait for June, hang in there gal, it can only get better you are in my prayers as well.

Netta- cute grand kids, hope you are feeling ok now with your depression, just know that you are not alone.

Mom - hope you get well soon.

Tendai - The situation over there is so annoying, lets just pray and hope for the best for the future, we are praying for you guys here trust me, maybe you should think of moving to this part of the world I know a lot of Zim guys, infact my sister is married to one.

Keeping - how are the preparations going, gosh I think its so exciting. When is the big day again?

Good evening ladies. We are doing well. Queen, hope that everything turns out well. I will check out your blog and get more details. Moonlight, hope your visit with the new ENT helps you. I don't know how you function with vertigo. How is work and cheech and your Iceman? Let us know how your appointment goes tomorrow. Minismum, sorry to hear that you are sick again . Hope that the doctor's appointments for the kids turn out good results. Robert turned 5 on the 20th. He goes to a pre-k program at his elementary school. He loves it cause there are no children close by for him to play with. He would love your big family Win, good luck with the scummy landlord . How old is your son? Sorry you have to drive so far to take him for his GED but glad he is getting it. I got a letter from my 18yo and he says he will be getting his GED and some job training while he is in prison. That's a good thing. Viv, good luck with the exercising. Cute about the fortune cookie. Betty, yes you truly are an amazing, resilient woman. Enjoy your break from school. You deserve it. Well, ladies, It's about bedtime. Hope everyone has a good night Cristy

Mum, I hope you get that letter of denial soon. There's so many hoops to jump through, which I'm sure you're aware of.

Tendai, I'm hoping for some good news for you Friday.

Viv, heh, exercise. That seems like a distant dream for me right now. I do good sometimes to take a shower every day.

Queen, I will be checking out your blog and the LW thread. You're in my thoughts.

Netta, it's good to see you here. Are you feeling any better? You seem a little down.

Drag, I love those pictures. It's so beautiful where you are. Where I am, there's a few Dogwoods in bloom right now.

Wendy, I hate those types of places. I've been in them before. I was in an apartment one time that was so bad when the lights were on there were roaches everywhere. Good luck. Slumlords like that should have to pay some kind of penalty for letting their places get in that shape.

Thandi, good to hear from you. How are you doing?

Cristy, I think it's wonderful that your oldest son is doing something positive. As always, it was a pleasure talking to you.

Well, I read quite a bit out of one of the books I'm reading, "End of Faith." It makes some good points. I'm not going to get into the discussion of whether there's really a God or not here. There's quite a thread in LW of this nature. Other than that, I went to the Dairy Queen tonight to get one of their new sundaes, some hot fudge brownie thing. It was alright, but not as good as the frozen custard place. That's the bomb. I hope you ladies have a good evening.

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Oh this place is in the seedy area of my city. The majority of tenants are likely illegal so they arent going to complain. Its just an old old apartment building. I'm sure they will have to bulldoze it in the next 10 years or less. My son doesnt mind much. He doesnt like that they go in his apartment when he isnt there for no apparent reason. He is all boy. Living in his own filth doesnt seem to faze him much. LOL

My son is 18. He will be 19 on September 11th. He is the male version of me.

I am going in to work late tomorrow after I have a hearing test and an appt with the ENT. They want to do the hearing test because I have tinnitus. Limiting caffeine seems to help although I have trouble with balance when walking, and I certainly can't make any quick moves, lol.

My drive home from work was GOOD, I couldn't believe it, maybe due to less caffeine? I don't have vomiting or nausea with all of this but I have had sour stomach a few times, but everything else with the Meniere's adds up. Throw low blood sugar in and an anxiety attack because of the low blood sugar and vertigo and I just need a *!TIME OUT!* LOL

I just walked a wobbly mile on my treadmill to help my blood sugars but its scary with the unsteadiness and clumsiness I feel. Yes, my mood is GREAT tonight but I am wobbling here as I sit and type.

Cheech had his annual visit to the vet tonight and needs ear drops.

Imagine that. LMAO Maybe I do, too.

We are both getting our hair done next week, lol, but not at the same place, of course.

Had a great talk (finally) with the new HR girl at work today. Oh, if she only knew the extent of my health......Good things are on the horizon as far as changes at work. I will be patient.

Queen, so sorry about your shit, I miss writing to everyone like I used to, but like I said, all of this vertigo crap is consuming me and is very draining.

Iceman is absolutely wonderful! Friday is 6 months for us, he thinks I will be around for awhile! I love hearing things like that from him!

Mum, you have allergieeeeeeeeeeeeees. The pollen is awful and since you mentioned Morgantown and your distance from it, I have a better idea where you are. Morgantown isn't too far from me. Its west of me, pretty much, out towards the hills. Take care of yourself.

Cin, I hope this shit gets straightened out for you soon. It sounds so frustrating. Congratulations on yours and Ice's upcoming anniversary date.

Well, today's cleaning day for me. Last week I blew it off. So, today definitely. I got up way too early, but I couldn't sleep. I've been smoking (cigarettes) way too much and my heart has been giving me fits. Which is nothing new; I just do some deep breathing. I need to get an echocardiogram done to see what's going on with my valves (I have two valves that are messed up). The valves have been messed up since I was 16. I blew them out shooting up too much cola. Sometimes my heart races and pounds, like I'm having a mini-heartattack or something. This should give me an incentive to quit smoking. I still have the nicotine patches and keep trying to think of a good quit date. My grandson's birthday is in 5 days, so maybe that would be a good one. I have two friends in NA who smoked for years, and now they have emphysema. They're fairly young also.

I hope everyone has a good day today. Mum, I hope you're feeling better and that you get that Medicaid rejection letter soon. I'll be back.

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i had a coughing fit last night that lasted a couple of hours. I took some Viramist, but then my nose started running, so not sure how much actually stayed put. I'm supposed to take it 1x/day, but i'm going to take it this morning, too, since I'm not sure. I'll post more later..kiddies are hungry.

Nothing really to report. My son called me a couple of times yesterday but I didn't accept the calls because they charge for those. But I guess he must be getting lonely or something. He should know better but I'll write him a letter sometime later.

Wini-- Your son's bday is the same as my daughter but she is 20.

Mum-- Sorry that you are still not feeling well. And if one of the kitties is a female, I will name her Mini.

Cindy-- Happy Anniversary..I am singing Tony, Toni, Tone to you both.

Betty-- I know what you mean about putting off cleaning. I did mine though earlier in the week so I am good.

It is funny how things work out sometimes. My oldest son woke up crying this morning that his throat hurt. I kept him home from school and took him to the doc, he has strep, which I feel bad that he is sick and miserable BUT this means he is not going to his fathers this weekend!!!! He only takes him if he is feeling well and the weather is not too bad. Lucky for me and my son! I spoke to the lawyer today, she said I could go to the court and get a modification because the circumstances have changed. I can also go to the courthouse and get his charges for a small fee. In case, I need to have something to show the judge. Phew! I can breathe now.