December 31, 2009

December 30, 2009

imagine a "thing", something that u eager to have,fantasize about everday n ever nite especially during the time b4 u close ur eyes to end the chapter of a day,hoping for tommorow that u'll possess that thing.try t imagine that. exp, the "thing" is ur favourite car, Toyota Accord.then one day, out of the blue, ot of sight, someone u know give it to u, the "thing".n u think that shes fooling around n u just accept it cuz u think its just a part of a funny joke.u compromise, u react, u oversee towards the action of getting the "thing" just by a fling cuz in ur mind u know u'll never get the thing for real possession from her. then as day goes by, u realize, she actually giving u the "thing" for real, for u to keep. she act like is was meant for u, but never clearly stated it n u r afraid to ask because u dun want to hear the answer. cuz u dun wanna to lose the "thing".u just went with the flow cuz u know, without having the tough conversation of the possession of the "thing", somehow, u r possessing it no matter what, as long as u play along with it. but in ur heart u r wondering whether u r really possessing the "thing". how to deal with it?? seriously, im confused but i refuse to ask. because i wanna own the "thing", i dun wanna loose it, so i choose to play along.. cuz if i do so, i own it, i possess it.story of my life!

December 28, 2009

If some ask for an advice or piece of mind rite now bout love the only think i can say is Love is full of hatred, heart broken shits, messed up emotion. its truth n im speaking from personal life experience. they say in love, u need to be confidence, the who u are, self aware, n just go with ur feeling. but when u do so, theres alway consequences n price need to be pay. high price. because when u do be confidence n be urself n express ur truth feeling bout her face to face, teh common answer u gonna get is this, "kita baru ja kenal, kita ambil masa dulu utk kenal hati budi masing2,give space to each other" n then they will giv e some shits bout praising ur saying taht u r "cute,simple,handsome, happy go lucky" just to make us to chase them more. but heres the deal, it all aint true n its all just a bunch of lies. all the gurl just wanna keep u chasing them making them feel hot or famous, but honestly they dun even want to be with us, they just palying with us. the real situation is that the gurl already have somebody else in their heart, waiting for that asshole to be with her. in time of the waits, their plays us to make their life aint so bored n doom. think ur self as a safety net to this kind of gurl, cuz if their dream boy reject them hardly, they still have us as second choice. thats all we will ever be, a safety net. nonetheless. so mr.H thats my asnwer n i hope its satisfy u. remember, love aint so beautiful.

I could've found a better wayYou know I never should have stayedI could accept the things that I believed were wrong(you know your wrong)Now you're saying that it's lateIt doesn't matter what I sayYou know you're just another one of my mistakes(Ahhhh)

You are so beautifulYou are the kind of girl that has the chemicalsThat makes me fall in loveBeautiful, you are the kind of girlThat has the chemicalsThat makes me fall in love

So now I'm feeling like a slaveI'm locked away inside of this graveAnd I'm hoping for a way I can be saved(I can't be saved)You know that there will come a daywhen I'm just gonna have to change, you know you're just another one of my mistakes. Ahhhh

You are so beautiful, You are the kind of girlthat has the chemicals that makes me fall in loveBeautiful, you are the kind of girl, that has the chemicalsThat makes me fall in loveFall in love

You know I found a small paper you lied about,You lied aboutYou know I found a small paper you lied about,You lied aboutYou lie to me, lie to me

You are so beautiful, You are the kind of girlthat has the chemicals that makes me fall in loveDifficult, so very difficultYou are the kind of girl, that makes me fall in love, fall in love

December 23, 2009

shes a pretty gurl..cute i should say..too cute to melt my heart out..crush it down to her love belt.make me wanna change my status from single to its complicated.an accident that intertwined us together.a cute meet which unplanned.i heard bout her a lot before.but im to tight with "beliau" n i ignore all the suggestion made.now, as i move on, put apart ms.beliau away for a while.i was able to open up for others.cuz i noe, ms.beliau is not mine to hold.then, i meet her.F**** is her name.cute as the person herself.i wanna mak it rite this time.wish to god.special thanx to emma n K.I to introduce her to me.thanx guys!

p/s- i do had feeling toward her already. love at the first sight maybe. tetiba truih layan lagu akon tetiba- i wanna love you n right now (na na )

December 16, 2009

what if, out of the blue, when u least expected, the girl that u alway dream about, keep thinking about, have a funny undetermined feeling about, contact u, ask u how u were doing, ask about ur recent life, ask about ur result, encourage u to study harder, making jokes bout ur nick, n u "menganjingkan dia balik" *her words* a lot of stuff. at that may seem just a normal stuff, but it cherish my day, make me smile, make me laugh, make me overwhelmed.thats u gurl. u r the one that can make it all happen.. n for that, i thanks u.

December 15, 2009

skrg kat kocha hotpot.wat2 online.wat2 bukak facebook.wat2 bukak blogwhy?sbb aku ngn hit on the cute waitress.her name is sofia.i'll like to get to know her better.all it takes is just an ice lemon tea.wifi connection.a couple puff of ciggys.and mostly courage to ask her out.ahaks.im such a girl.ha3

December 12, 2009

once, one of my buddy said to be the ultimate gold of dating a gurl is to get under her pant. which mean to have her crawling with you to the bed. let me rephrase that, it mean "fuck em' n leave em".. his words not mind. i stunned by that time hearing what he said, but i didnt argued. i guess at that time, i just dunno how to react to that sitaution cuz, let just say i kinda a nerd at that time. well here whats im gonna say if i could ever rewind that moment, having the exact same conversation, only differents is how i react n reply. what will i said? love is not about sex bro. esx in not love. well at least not all of it. love is about caring someone, caring so deep which you would willing to die for her. love is about missing someone, knowing that shes not around u make u uncomfortable n make u wanna fly high n reach for her no matter where she are. love is something physical matter. the hug, the showing of to the world with both of u holding hand while walking in the crowd, the smiling stupid trick of mengeliat(xtaw omputih panggil pa) n open out ur hand n put in on her shoulder n if u r lucky shes response n lean her head on ur shoulder while u watching a movie in the cinema.love is also the simple touch of cheek of both of u. love is also the sweet kiss on the cheek. love is also the moment of arkward silence while both of you saying no words except having a staring contest together for a moment of god know how.love is also the sweet damn first kiss that u r dying to have since u date her, n the moment of drum roll(the moment when before both of ur lips touches) n the excitement its cause. well thats sum up my thought of love. call me pussy, im just a lover.

December 8, 2009

im a bad bad man.my heart wants in bad, i cant hold it much longer.i need to do it, so i just cross my finger.adrenaline pumping i runs to my veins.it joys me a lot evnthough is such a pain.cuz im a bad bad man.

i didnt think much, i just do it.its kill me to wonder so i just gone with the wind.cuz im a bad bad man.

this guy. shay given, man city keeper. dia save byk trial smlm. even save penalty kick from lampard. i mean, cmon which keeper in the world who had save a penalty kickout from lampard huh? shay given can roudly say now, that he is one of them.salute!

conclusion, chelsea still leads the league but cause of the lost last nite, the different point is only by two. man u is closing in okay, we'll see.

November 30, 2009

November 27, 2009

Scandal is GET MATCH UP WITHOUT OUR KNOWLEDGEScandal is SPICING THING UPScandal is CREATING A MAKE UP STORY WHICH TOO BOMBASTICScandal is YOU WILL BECOME FAMOUS EVENTUALLYScandal is A SPREADS WORD LIKE POPSITES IN THE NETScandal is GOSSIPING AMONG PEOPLEScandal is TOO GOOD TO BE TRUTH,SOMETIMESScandal is ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF UR TRUE SELFScandal is A FANTASY TO DREAM ABOUTScandal is YOU WILL FALL INTO THE PERSON YOU BEEN SCANDAL WITH

November 26, 2009

this is Aaron Lennon!the future us football.the future england winger.one of the fastest man on the field in england.from now on, i can buried C.ronaldo, cuz i have a new fav winger!i hate Sold-Out player, so CR u r out!gosh, i hope lennon wont leave Tottenham, but want can i say though!im just a fan!

Liverpool 2- Man City 2liverpool r damn lucky cuz benayoun still able to score the equaliser in the very last minute. if not, they'll lose an their on stadium Anfield. Still can be consider as LOSER!!!!

November 21, 2009

i have a story to tell. is between a guy n two gurls. lets call the guy A. the first gurl lets name her T n the last gurl is D. okay, A is a single dude. still searching for true love.for him, true love is a very long journey. its not that he did not open up himself for any girl, he did but still no one ever see him truly.thats when T come in. T is somehow catched A attention. they noe each other for quite long time but never spoken face to face.until recently, something snapped. we finally spoke. and all the gud thing flew by after dat. we started to hang out together, helping each other when one need help. A at first didnt have any feeling whatsoever toward T but somehow he felt that T is giving him a lot of sign that she like him. example, she kept on asking for A help eventhough she can have it from any of her frens whom nearby. instead, she called A for it. A saw all that as "maybe she into me".T kept on finding excuses on make a time with A. A did refuse anyhow. T even sometimes tell her secret to A that she never ever told any of her beshfren.she even snaply said she is single out of nowhere eventhough A never asked.but the two of them kept of denying the truth. neither are willing to confess.A, which whom been let down a lot in the past, is been very careful. he doesnt wanna make a snap decision cuz somehow he value the frenship that he have with T.A is waiting for T to make a first move. current time, they we apart for quite a long time for some reason cuz T hometown is kinda far from A's. thats when D come in. D is A lost long-time fren since high skool. they meet up accidentally in Facebook. from Facebook, they catch up of the two years of absent on each other. currently, A make another snap decision by asking D for a date eventhough at that point A doesnt have a feeling toward D n still trying to figure out his true feeling toward T. D evntually said yes to the date. the date went great. they talk a lot. we even had some accident where A accidentally hold D hand. D then smile n dun wanna let A's hand go. she kept on smiling through the whole date.she even open up herself to A by telling all of her secrets, some are very deep one. A in the other hand, have a fling of heart toward D but somehow still can get T out of his head.A is confused. A doesnt know what to do. a part of A's lil heart said "pick up the phone an call T n confess to her n find out how she felt". well is A does that he can see thing clearly n clarify everything with T.If T is really in love with him, then they cna be together. n if she deny, A can go on with D n figure out where that relation may lead. but somehow, A is still afraid to pick up the phone to have the tough talk with T. n thats how A is still wondering, dreaming, fantasizing. until A find the courage, thing will still left strangle. thats all!

November 20, 2009

you know people misintrepret a lot. a date is not when two love had declare their love an agree to be in love n when out for the first time as a couple. a date is a meeting of two people who are trying to figure out whether they r suitable for each other, a search of feeling of love, a cute meet for hope, all that kind of stuff. thats how my date goes today. i discover more bout her today rather than meet the eyes. she had her flaws without a doubt but she have her significants too.im just trying to be realistic n i havent made out my mind yet. myabe we should go for another date to be clear. plus, i didnt pop out the quests, out of curiousity. well, our second date, isnt that far around the corner. it be soon.for sure. aCe+ out!

November 19, 2009

its a wonderful day..its a wonderful date.even its on the morning.early in the morning.i never had a morning date.its something new anyhow.u r something different.different from anyone that i ever knew.thanx babe.for a beautiful day.thanx for th catch up.we'll take it slow aite?

November 17, 2009

November 14, 2009

this is a public declaration!to whom may concerns, the students, the lecturers (which effect maybe), whomever who got a probs with, let me tell u something..

DPA4D( or soon to be DPA5D next sem) aint just a simple class. we r worst, in any kind of perspective, we r bad in attitude, i dun change just because someone ask us to, we dun follow the rules as stated cuz to us, rules are made to be broke, we dun give a shit bout what people say or think bout us, we just roll the way we like, n if u got a probs with that, take it to the complaint area which in this case, is the freaking big damn dustbin. this is DPA4D. this is us, WE ARE THE WORST, BUT STILL WE ARE THE BEST! got a probs? u cna kiss u big damn ass gudbye cuz we dun give a shits.

wanan talk but publicly covered nice behaviour? shitshead! we dun need any hipocrite or plastic symdrome in ur clas. we love all of our clasmates just the way they r. who cares is there are soemtimes over the line a bit, cua we all are. we are porn shits, we are loudmouth, we r crap- in-the-mouth type of guys an girls, we dun censored a bit in our speaking n we dun care. thats just who we r. DPA4D is free wothout any bond to bare with. deal with that. whoever got a probs, take it to the street, we'll sure be there cuz we never back down either.

again, this is a reminder, DPA4D is the way we r.WE ARE THE WORST,BUT STILL WE ARE THE BEST

have u ever, sat down with some of ur peeps n asked them about their opinion bout u? asked them to be really damn honest, dun hide any fact at all bout urself even a bad one. i did! most of the time i done it. why? cuz i dun really know myself that gud. i did that not bcuz i matter their opinion, just to know myself a bit closer. yeah, sometimes i do get bad respo but still at least i noe i can stil improve myself. but from time to time, one of the common response i get is, "ang menonjol, evn bukan ang sendri yg suka tonjolkan diri ang tapi ang ada aura yg menonjolkan".. lets face the fatc. maybe its truth. i do get attention a lot. trust me, i didnt ask for it, im not the type of person who crying out loud to let people know their existence, seriesly im not that. i just dun no why. take my acc164 clas fro example. im not originally from that 3B class, but still my lec notice me n label me "cikgu" cuz from her POV i love to teach others, especially my peeps. the fact whcih hidden is, im not the one who r teaching, its totally opposite that. its mayb elook like im teaching others bout the subject, but the truth is im asking them to teach me. i ask a bunch of people.

let take another example. last smester, stil accounting clas, i was tumaping-ing in part 3 clas last sem. wanna know what happen in my first clas. well as usualy, at the starting of new semester, lec will alway ask us to introduce urself in front of the clas. in i was selected first. well, skip the intro. teh lec then asked me bout my opinion bout accounting. i said straightly, I HATE IT! I DONT LIKE ACCOUNTiNG. ten, several other student did the same. some give a same answer as me, taht they laso hate accounting. well, then come the highlight. one gurl, standing in front of the class, introducing herself n said teh same, that she hate accounting too. then out of nowhere, she said, "i hate accounting just like ADAM".. well, the there bunch of her frens that said that they hate teh subject to, but still im the point of attention to be an example of. eventhough im a newbie in that clas, n its my first time being in that class, but she seems like to knwo me well enough to make me as an exmaple. frankly, at that time, i dun even know that gurl (of cos later i eventually know her, she is Fatin Kecik from DPA3C)..

well, what else can i say. i dont choose to be the center of attention, but somehow somewhere i will alway attract attention to myself, even if im just being plainly silence.maybe theres a magnet in me, which make me attention center. hm.. i guess it just something i have to live with, eventhough i kinda hate it, i sometimes like to be invincible where know one know me, but it seems impossible. but others, i like it too. cuz i make me have a lot of frens. rite?

November 7, 2009

I look up the ceilingWhite burning light with no switch beepDust and dump filled the floor, upsweepDead silence comfortly as most still dead asleepJust another boring day.

I walked out the roomCoffee mug standstill loyally beside the ashtrayLaptop on the side as same as my cellphone layIn a blink I lighted up my ciggys left me no words to sayJust another boring day.

I lay back downAs simple as the action my mind flew freelyI puff a smoke. Nothing, joy miserily unhappyMy thought came back come back and yet again I am being meJust another boring day.

I sat and dream highOnly one thing played in my head, thats youWondering whether you were up and whatcha gonna doThinking of how did we get here and sort things throughHoping for a feeling that need to be discoverSearching deeply for a glance that really matterMaybe it as sweet romance or turn to be a disasterWorst come to worst, it'll just be another boring day.

p/s- a normal day of my life. but, the let question is who is the girl im thinking about? nah! im not gonna tell!

Don’t want much, I just want everythingThought that I could, do almost anythingOne step in front of the otherThought that I could do it alone

In the blink of an eye, it’s just another dayTelling me why,I’ll find another wayGot this feeling, got me reelingI can almost start believing

Now there’s me and youAnd we are not aloneYou and me, me are together nowThrough my window,I can see there’sMore than you and more than meMe and you, And we are not aloneDifferent view, We are together nowThrough my window,I can seeOur wildest dreams could be so real

I see a spark, it starts a fireIs this the one worth waiting for?Thought that I could do it without youCan’t exist like this anymore

Now there’s me and youAnd we are not aloneYou and meWe are together nowThrough my window, I can see there’sMore than you and more than meNow there’s me and you,you and meWe are not alone and we are togetherThrough my window I can seeOur wildest dreams could be so realgoogle_protectAndRun("ads_core.google_render_ad", google_handleError, google_render_ad);

October 29, 2009

life is like a dramawhere i have to act as a different person in every situationcall me hypocrite or whatever, i dun mind..only for people who knows mewill understand myself, the real me and who am i actuallyi try to bring up myself as who i am exactly to every situation that i face thrubut i cudnt make it coz those people wont understandim facing a hard situation of life and im chill dealing with iti learn so much about life by observing people around mewhat they did,how they react and when they are in emotionsthat is how and what i've become now.

i dun trust lovei dun trust of "true frens"

COZ all i knowhuman breath becoz of the needs of themslvesi believe on every human are selfishthey want love so that they wont fill lonelythey want frens so they can chillin aroundbut i do believe in karmaim being realistic here and not idealisticand soon yet after i found LOVE,well not to say i dun believe in it anymore.now i do realise, LOVE makes the whole world look colorful.

be PATIENCE.then you get something which u will never really expect!and thats what my life is all about.

yeah im not perfectim clumsy..my hair doesnt stay in placei spill alot of thingsuseless sometimebut this is me and and i always do have my flawsaccept me or just fuck off if u hate me

to all Man U haters, go fuck ur self cuz Man U is Back on Winning Lane okay.Last Nite, or should i said last 2 nite, Man U Kick Barnsley in the ass bu scoring 2-0. credit to Welbeck n Owen. Nice goal though eventhough Gary Neville get a red card, but a win is a win..

n not to forget, my second fav EPL team, Tottenham Hotspurs is also back on the winning game. their trah Everton..

Mama told me when I was youngCome sit beside me, my only sonAnd listen closely to what I say.And if you do thisIt will help you some sunny day.Take your time... Don't live too fast,Troubles will come and they will pass.Go find a woman and you'll find love,And don't forget son,There is someone up above.

(Chorus) And be a simple kind of man.Be something you love and understand.Be a simple kind of man. Won't you do this for me son, If you can?

Forget your lust for the rich man's goldAll that you need is in your soul,And you can do this if you try.All that I want for you my son,Is to be satisfied.

(Chorus) And be a simple kind of man.Be something you love and understand.Be a simple kind of man. Won't you do this for me son, If you can?

Boy, don't you worry...you'll find yourself.Follow you heart and nothing else. And you can do this if you try. All I want for you my son,Is to be satisfied.

October 26, 2009

ver played this game? okay, to make it a lil bit more interesting, skip the DARE part. only play the game of the truth. spin the bottle, the person it pointing to need to answer truthfully any questions been directed to him/her. on over trip last 2 day, we did play this game. guess what, it wat fun. n most of all all of us whose playing know others deepest secrets. i was fun. we actually kind aafraid that this gmae gonna affect our frenship but its not. it make i stronger. but yet again, all the secrets that had been reveal that nite, will stay as secret among us. no one will ever know though.. i love all of u though. ajam, aimil, saf, imah. ur secret is save with me.