MAS: Welcomes Our New Socialist Overlord

See, I've been trying to maintain 1L levels of class prep and exam studying while doing all of that other stuff.

Maybe that wasn't a good idea. I'm getting the sense that this isn't normal. Yet most people seem to be well-prepared for class, so WTF?

Anyway, regardless of whether it's classes or other stuff, 2L f-ing BLOWS. When I see people out in public doing things that look enjoyable now, I start hoping they die in a fire. I seriously walk by people and think to myself, "You mofo, how DARE you sit in the park on a sunny day and drink coffee and chat with a friend. DO YOU KNOW THE LAST TIME I DID THAT?!"

And just wait til next year. My semester was like finals week every week.

To be fair, I've been deluged with responsibilities & obligations this year--basically all the 1L stuff (four doctrinal classes) plus callback travel, journal cite-checking/writing, and casebook work for a prof--but I've pretty much managed to avoid doing poo.

So there's definitely more "work," but there's definitely less "doing work."

I had the strangest daydream in Tax yesterday. There's a hipster in my building, and I had a fantasy in which I beat him up. I take off his black-rimmed glasses, smash them, smash his Neutral Milk Hotel CD, then push his 5'9'' frame up against a locker and take his lunch money. He says, "Please, Mr. Wally. Make it stop," and starts crying.

If he still thinks Neutral Milk Hotel are obscure, he's not a hipster; he's just a loser.

Anyway what kind of attitude am I supposed to have about the horrific amount of work I have, the impending doom of finals, and the fact that I no longer am ABLE to have outside hobbies or even take care of myself because there are 24 hours in a day instead of the 36 or more I need to accomplish everything I have to do?

This makes me think of this case blurb I read in Mental Health Law where they tried to rule a defendant incompetent for being severely depressed because he wanted no mitigating evidence presented at his capital sentencing hearing, and he stood up in court and was basically like "I'm in f-ing prison, you idiots, of course I am miserable."

What work is this? I've done jack poo. I learned income tax and trusts and estates entirely off 3L outlines. I never read for one of my classes. I'm on a journal, and sure a comment takes a while, but it's nothing that forces me to put 36 hours in my day.

Maybe I have just been unlucky on my journal but that has been a HUGE time suck, although I think mostly that is because I have been picking up the slack on edits where the person before me did a bad, bad job. Jerks.

And work? I don't know, doing my reading? Trying to outline? I don't really trust myself to do less work than I did 1L and still come out with reasonable grades -- I even got some bad grades when I DID put in a ton of effort. Plus, for all I know, I'm the dumbest person at my new school.

14690 songs. I use emusic rather than iTunes and I've uploaded a fair number of my old CDs but most of that was free.

I don't really feel bad. Most of the money goes to the label and bands have always made most of their money from going on tour anyway, so IMO the whole "Oh you're just stealing from the artists" is just bull that labels have spread around to try to give their side moral force that it really doesn't have. I'll buy CDs from labels that I respect (e.g. Dischord) but that's about it, and usually I get them used anyway.