…..I did not ask to be abused as a child. I did not ask to be married to men who used and abused me. I did not ask to be the victim of an attempted rape and sexual assault earlier this year, and I most certainly did not ask to struggle with depression and anxiety. That’s just the thing, I never ask for anything.

Conditioned as a child to, “Be a good girl,” “Don’t make a fuss,” and “Don’t tell anyone what is going on at home,” it is hard as an adult to ask for anything from anyone. My whole life I have felt unworthy and useless, even when to the outside world I was so strong and confident. For the last 40 years, I have hidden behind a mask and when the “crash” came, there was a hell of a bang while my world collapsed around me.

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50 plus years old. 43 years of the insane misery of untreated or under-treated Bipolar Disorder 2. Seven plus years of sane, sober, useful, and joyful living. Here to help fellow sufferers. I owe a debt. Paying it forward. God willing.
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50 plus years old. 43 years of the insane misery of untreated or under-treated Bipolar Disorder 2. Seven plus years of sane, sober, useful, and joyful living. Here to help fellow sufferers. I owe a debt. Paying it forward. God willing.