when a piece of your heart …

I do not handle loss gracefully, in fact I go down hard and it takes me a very long time to come back.

Over the years I have experienced great loss. To those of you that have had pets for most of your life you will understand the feeling of ‘soul’ dog. While loving all of my dogs, there is always that one that crawls deep inside the heart and grabs hold, even long after they are gone. It is a connection that cannot be described in words.With my soul dog it took months for me to really catch my breath, and even 8 years later, out of the blue I will find myself knocked to my knees with memories. Again, I’m not graceful in this area.

I used to believe that time was a great heeler, I am not so sure anymore. I believe as we age we gather life experiences, both good and bad, and it makes us who we are. I would like to think, richer, deeper, more carrying and compassionate human beings. To love so deeply is to open your heart wholly.

I will love you purely
with all of the best intentions of my being
I promise to be receptive to the gifts of your love
to be a comfort and safe haven
to be your home the way a star is at home in the sky
to hold you close
to listen deeply when you are in pain
to celebrate your joy
to be sensitive to the words I speak
never to take you for granted
seamless, endless, forever…