Here is how it goes, I get to the end of a really hard day – the kind of day where I can hear my baby screaming for me with the nanny, but I have to focus on work. Clients are late. I have to say no to new work or collaborations (it’s necessary but still a sharp pain every time for me) and meanwhile personal timelines get pushed back. It all feels like the grind I thought I left behind with my salaried position, except worse because I crafted my schedule today.