Things got really messed up between us. Now that I have calmed down a bit, I can't say that everything was your fault. Yes, you betrayed me, but I pushed you away. I know I'll never see you again, and I can't say that I want to. I just wish that we could have worked everything...

I would have honestly liked to have said this to you in person or in a email... but since you blocked me, refuse to talk to me, and left EP, this is my last rant on it all. After this... I will delete the remaining woes of you, that I had written in previous stories, except for...

i know that your never going to read this amanda but i wanted to write this
amanda, i know we have had some rough times and that you hate me for all that i have done but i wanted to say i love you. i love you becuse even after i cheated on you 5 times you still stuck...

I forgive you.
I forgive you for leaving, i forgive you for not caring enough about me to stay apart of my life. I forgive you for your alcoholism, i forgive you for leaving me and my brother to be fatherless. I forgive you for not being there for the birthdays, the holidays, the...

my older brothers are kinda losers and my uncles are never around. I never really had a positive male role model around.
I get this May sound weird (but I'm dead so what do I have to lose?) but I wanted you to know your kids like a brother and I'm thankful for that cause...

Why did you tell me things a child should never know? Why did you dump your problems on a child? Why did you talk about your own death as if it was something unimportant? Why do you never think before you speak? Why? Why? Why? Your so selfish. I had to tell you to apologize to...

I still remember you. I never forgot about you, even after two years, when we have only met once. I am not sure I am all that important to you. I am not sure you should be so important to me.
When I spiraled into madness, I heard your voice. You comforted me in the depths of...

Dear you.
I know we hardly ever talk but i think you are awesome and you are really nice to talk to.
I really wish we were better friends because you are almost exactly like me, i say almost because your a boy and im a girl.
I dont like you in a sexual sense but i like...

I was so young
I remember that quite clearly
I didn't give a damn about boys-
None interested me
The only boy who ever
caught my eye
was
You
(une copine's
petite ami)
She was so in love with you
And you were so bored
with her
(I knew you too well
Already)
I thought why?
Had to...

18. I'm sorry I couldn't hold out 236 days. I need you to how much it means that your cared enough to delay the inevitable, how much it means that you tried to save me even when I was past the point of saving.
I remember when I first meet you, you came to my high school...

Thank you for being my friend and so much more when I needed you most. I know we have moved on and it's been a struggle to stay in touch, but you will be one of those people that will have a special place in my heart for the rest of my life.

Why did you leave me? Wasn't I good enough for you? Ever since I was a small child, I wondered this. Was my birth so awful that it made you go? I thought that a father's love was unconditional? Was my being born so bad? I thought children were...

Hurt again
Got hurt again today-still I ain`t surprised
And now I lie awake-watching the sun rise
How come it always has to be me?
Am I deaf or Dumb?Or just too blind to see?
Unimportant-and small,this is how I...

The stories i write about u here.I really do mean every word =)...but i know u wont read my stories unless u know about this website...I WISH!! u did read my stories about u..That way U Can read the words im SO!! afraid to say to you... face to face..
IF ONLY!!

Your fists pounded my flesh
Your cruel words assaulted my ears
You attempted to take away my identity
Shaming me into believing your twisted reality
But you lost!
I never became the person you wanted me to be
No matter how many times you beat and raped me
I escaped your...

I know you will never return. You, a goddess of the night. You were the first to offer me help, and the first to end you're life...at least, I think you did. I could never know, could I? you disapeard from my life and I lost all traces, as if ghost. a mirage. did you ever even...

..I wish we had never met.
There are days when I wish that I had never trusted you, when I think that I could so easliy have hurt you more. There are days when I wish that maybe that extra punch in the head could have traded your life for my childs.
There are...

Why did you not care? Why didn't you even get to know me? You have no idea but I still struggle and I have for years. I've done so many harmful things to myself and pushed away others. I've allowed others to hurt me. I will do everything in my power for my kids to not have to...