YO , motherfuckers! JOURNAL TIME! I'll be discussing my various endeavors and daily tasks on my journey to turning my ideas into reality over the next few years in my early 20s. I've been sucking shit lately, but hey, from winter brings the spring again, right? As Tyler says, it's time to shut the FUCK up and just do it. I think I've used enough profanity for one post, so I'll end it here :)

Took the train to meet up with some buds at their school. I arrived half an hour early, and since I didn't bring a book to read, I made up my mind that I'd approach some chicks while waiting for them outside the building their class was in. I arrived only to find some dude sitting by himself, no girls. I walked up to him, asked him how he was doing, then chit chatted with him for a bit. I discovered he knew a girl I hooked up with not too long ago. Apparently he got her number after approaching her at work (I gave the dude props, I actually thought he was fucking with me) and took her to his church for their first date. I thought that was an unusual or peculiar first date to take a girl on so I kinda gave him shit for it in a joking way, but whatever. Dude left and just as he left my friends got out of class (along with tons of cute girls). We started joking a lot and I was doing / saying a lot of dumb shit to girls passing by. I was really just trying to be self amusing and pumped my state pretty high doing so. I opened a few, chatted em up, and got a few numbers. Nothing too crazy. There was one girl in particular who's a bit older than me that was cool as fuck. We texted for a bit after we went our seperate ways, but she didn't respond to my last text. Not realy giving a fuck about it, though. Got to see the buds and chatted with a handful of cute college girls. Pretty fun day.

Had a day 2 set up with the older chick from the other day. She flaked. Can't say I'm surprised or didn't see it coming. Did a brief approach before work today. Number closed, texted a bit after. Going to try to set up a day 2 sometime this week.

Me: Excuse me, completely random, but I just saw you while getting off the train and thought you looked really nice. I had to meet you.
Her: I'm _____
Me: Nice to meet you
blahhhbbbbblahblah assumption stacking blahblahblahh
Me: Well, listen, I have to go to work now, but you're really cool and I'd like to see you again sometime. What's your number?

She actually texted me seconds later about how I had balls for approaching her, and how most guys would have just sat on the sideline and watched her walk by. PIMP ITTTTTTTTTTT (except not really - maybe some day, though).

Spontaneously met up with some friends today. Got off the train on my way to meet with them and saw a really cute girl. She was walking pretty fast so I rationalized that maybe she was trying to catch a bus or had to urgently be somewhere, so I felt a bit better about sitting on the sidelines. Almost choded out and didn't approach, but eventually grabbed my nuts and went for it. I sprinted up to her, put my hand out to stop her, and then said the same train opener that I used yesterday. Conversation began and ended very similarly as well. However, when I told her we should exchange contact info, she insisted I give her my number and she would text me some time. She wrote my number down on her palm and we went our seperate ways. I actually saw her later in the day while I was with my friends and another girl, lol. Fun times. Did another approach later in the night when I was on my way home. She was much older than me (probably late 20s, maybe even early 30s) and was waiting for a bus. I knew it would be a blowout, but I went in and chatted her up for a while anyways. She wasn't giving me much to work with - and didn't even make eye contact with me once during the conversation - so I said peace and went home. I'm glad I'm consistently approaching now. I still get anxious, but now I'm having a lot more fun with it.

Chilled with the homies. No cold approaches today. K closed a chick from my social circle. Got a text from a girl I cold approached the other day just moments later :) Abundance feels so good. I remember I used to get some huge validation high after getting make outs and stuff. Now I just see the fun in everything and almost get a high off the game itself. I've been feeling like the shit lately. Hitting the gym tomorrow morning.