365.Image by Gibson Claire McGuire RegesterView On WhiteEveryone always says they wont write a novel, but they always do, so shut up.

Three hundred and sixty five pictures. a years worth.I am not one with so many words, and I am not one for making things extra special, but this day was extremely important to me.I woke up today with only this on my mind, having no idea what to do. I spent my whole day thinking, looking through my closet for clothes, and cool little things, looking through my old pictures, and on tumblr for inspiration. hell of a hard time, I tell you.so around 3 I took 100 pictures with my cat, just for old time's sake, then started getting ready for a more official photo shoot. by then it was 4:30pm. so in the car I was so nervous, and so scared and everything, I starting crying. crying you guys. I am serious about pictures. I felt like I was failing myself, which feels the worst to me.

I Finish everything, I am a mess if I don't finish something, and the 365 was a perfect challenge for me. I put myself on fasts, and cleanses, I give myself projects, I go crazy if I get stopped right in the middle of something. Endings that aren't definite scare me I think.I couldn't not finish, and I wanted the whole thing to be eloquent, beautiful, and utterly perfect and a whole year. It's been exactly that.This year has probably been the most life changing year I've had in my whole life, and sounds so cliche, but I cannot imagine it without a picture to represent every single day. I poured meaning into pictures, I thought, constructed, and in 30 degree weather, I had brilliance in less then 2 minutes. My mind has been sculpted. I think differently, I write differently, I act differently, I like different things. I feel a thousand times older and wiser compared to "little ol' me" a whole year ago.

I stumbled along, with two testimonials, and a very low average of comments, favs, and getting discouraged for a very long time, before I realized that I needed to make myself happy. I finally totally disregarded all the numbers, and counts of things, and took everything I got to heart. I made each picture, exactly how I wanted it, just perfect.

I am not going to lie, I'm extremely excited to see what this new year has in store for me, and my life around me.

I am extremelyyyy sad to end this amazing project, and a little nervous to go back to not having something to do every evening around 430-630. I always told someone who wasn't one of my best friends (who I always used for pictures if they were over) that I was busy around that time. I hated when actual people got in the way of my picture taking. my 365 was more important than movies and people wanting to hang out. still is. more important than homework too. and studying. hm my grades will probably get better from now on. haha.so now, how weird will it be? I will be like everyone else, with no obligations around golden hour. I am terrified. I forgot what normal people do. I wont become normal, don't worry. just less busy, and stressed.

I can't wait to have more time to think of ideas for pictures, and I can't wait to have actual scheduled photo shoots.hallelujah.I have many many, projects in mind, that I'm about to start. and it's snowing tonight and tomorrow! snow pictures!I will always always always take pictures now, for the rest of my life. And please, everyone, keep me accountable for that. I will never stop.

I'd like to thank allllll of you guys who have followed me from nearly the beginning, everyone who's always given me hope to take more and more pictures.thank you all my family, for driving me crazy places.I'd like to thank:Madison Dominguez - for being in half of my pictures, for helping me with ideas, for doing anything, for being so beautiful, for always believing in me, for getting thousands of bug bites, taking your clothes off, taking your clothes off in 30 degree weather, climbing down a wall of dirt, trudging in a creek, probably almost dying a few times.Corrie Maguire - for walking a mile in a see-through night gown, then walking another mile back and forth because I forgot my memory card, freezing to death a million times, wearing bright greeen tights right by a skate park,for letting me wine to you when I don't know what to do, for letting me put things in your hair all the time, freezing to death so much that it brought you to tears more than 5 times. oh wowKendall Krueger - for cheering me on all the time, for freezing to death, letting me put leaves on your back, tons of stuff in your hairEllyn Puckett- for being so amazing, for beautiful pictures, for a bright blue dress and your perfect red hair, for getting stabbed by thorns, for letting me put stuff in your perfect hair.Randi le feve - for being so so cute, and putting weird-ass glasses and old lady dresses on, for letting me put stuff in your hair.thank you all for being my best friends.

thanks to everyone.

p.s. I might completely change the description in the morning when I am a little more awake. it's all jumbled about. so sorry