Acceptance

Ahhh, April. April has so much meaning in the autism community. Autism Awareness Month (insert eyeroll here). Autism Action Month (YAY!). I also start hearing the word “acceptance” thrown around a lot. I see it all over Facebook. It is a word usually thrown around in this sort of manner: “People with autism do not want a cure, they want ACCEPTANCE.”

Okay.

Acceptance. It sounds like a very positive, happy word. And who doesn’t want to be accepted? We start out early in life striving to be accepted. We go to school, and we strive to be accepted by our peers. It provides validation for us, that we are capable, kind, lovable people. We grow up and we want to be accepted in our social circles. We want to make friends and be included. I think that as long as you are being true to yourself and to your core moral values, I think that desire to be accepted is healthy and good. I think everyone should feel accepted; that is, of course, unless you are living a lifestyle that is destructive to yourself or others. Acceptance is a good thing.

But I hear “acceptance” also tossed around in unhealthy ways.

One of the very first moms I met in the autism/biomed world had an interesting story. When her young son was diagnosed with autism as a toddler, she was told to “accept” it, and to put her son in an institution, and that she and her husband should “try again” (meaning, try to have another baby). She refused to accept that and started treating her son biomedically. Today he is a healthy, happy child with no sign of autism. She didn’t accept this grim prognosis for her son, and she was correct in not doing so. She loved her son too much to accept that for him.

In the world of biomedical treatment for autism, we often take a lot of criticism. We frequently get verbally flogged in the online community for the actions we take in trying to heal our children. We are often told that we are wrongfully trying to change our children and should be accepting them for who they are. But I think there is often a gross misunderstanding of what we are doing here.

Many of us see our children suffering. Most of us who are treating our children biomedically see that we have children who are seriously ill. Diarrhea, constipation, gastrointestinal pain, severe allergies, eczema, rashes, self-injury, aggression, etc., are all signs of a body that is physically ill. We are told by our doctors that “that’s just autism” and then we are expected to accept it. Our pediatricians have no conviction to try to figure out why our children are sick to help them; they just chalk it up to autism and dismiss us.

If I decided to “accept” my son’s autism, I would be accepting a life of great pain for him. I would be accepting self-injury, aggression, limited verbal skills, limited comprehension, and chronic, painful constipation. I would accept that he could never have a conversation with anyone and that he would never make friends.

The first autism “professional” I saw after my son began to self-injure told me to take him to see a behaviorist. I eventually learned by observing my son that he self-injures when he is in pain – real, physical pain. Then, when I thought about the recommendation to see a behaviorist, I got angry. How is a behaviorist going to help my son’s pain? I don’t want my son to learn how to behave himself when he has pain, I want him to be free of pain! I want his pain to be treated! I want his pain to be cured! Wouldn’t you? When you have a chronic, severe headache, do you seek out the cause of the headache, so the headache will get better, or do you seek the help of a psychologist to help you behave better when you are in pain?

We as parents love our children UNCONDITIONALLY. Without a doubt, I believe my kid is the greatest kid in the entire world. I love him more than I love myself. He has had to endure so much. If I “accepted” his autism, I would be accepting a life of great pain for him. My son deserves more. He deserves to be free of pain. He deserves to be more comfortable so that he doesn’t self-injure anymore. He deserves to be able to move his bowels daily so that his stomach doesn’t become hard and distended and painful. He deserves to be able to speak so that he can say what is on his mind, express his thoughts and feelings, tell us when he is in pain or when someone hurts him, and he deserves to have conversations with his peers so that he can make friends. He deserves to be able to go to church, sporting events, birthday parties, concerts, etc. without it throwing him into a sensory overload and causing him distress. He deserves to be happy. And he deserves a future that doesn’t involve being confined to an an institution.

Do I accept and love my son for being who he is? Yes, I do! He is an amazing kid, who is very loving and has a fantastic sense of humor. Do I accept his autism? No, I don’t! I accept HIM, and I don’t accept anything but what is best for him. I will NOT accept that he has to live with self-injury and pain. I will continue to try to move mountains for him to help him escape the pain that autism is causing him. Autism is not a brain disorder. It has neurological symptoms, yes, but I believe it is medical in origin. For my son, I believe its roots are metabolic and immunological.

For my son, I will accept nothing less than recovery, because he deserves it. I love that kid.

16 Responses to Acceptance

Finally, someone who says what I have been thinking. We cannot continue to accept our children’s pain. We need to scream from the mountaintops for our government to abolish the toxins that are poisoning us everyday, even if some businessman won’t make quite so much money. What is more important? A few people’s profits or society as a whole either being autistic or caring for someone who is autistic?

I think God every day for the sweetest, brightest, lovable grandson God gave me. I would not change a thing about Ethan. He is 10 now and is a great student (all A’s). Chicken is his favoriate food, and he can beat you and any new video game he tries. Let him play It once and he will then beat the socks off you. Nana is the person that feels dumb. (He has to show me how to pay the game and then I skink at it. He doesn’t know of the danger that the world contains and I hope he never has to find out. There is never a stranger to him and this worries me, but I am trusting God to always look after him, when he is away from us. “Suffer the little children to come unto me”.

Well said. I read/loved this comment from another blog a while back. “You can’t think autism away by spouting pronouncements that are one step away from greeting-card tripe. ‘Acceptance’ should be equated with minimizing discomfort and maximizing potential, not used as an excuse for abandonment of inconvenient effort.”

You would NEVER hear a doctor or other “well meaning” person tell you to accept your child’s cancer and just embrace that fact that they will have a short life span. Look at the beauty cancer brings to your unique child. The gifts that come from having those tumors. No, they would NEVER say that. But it is the same. Autism is medical and does not have to be accepted. I want to uncover who my son really is. As he has gotten better he has actually told me that he does not want to behave the way he does when he is overstimulated. He knows and says it isn’t him. I think that shows just how much autism is NOT the child.

Maryann, I have experienced the SAME THING! Nearly recovered and fully verbal now at 7yo, I know without a doubt my son is absolutely thankful for everything biomedical I have done to help him along the way. How do I know? BC he has told me so!!! So many times & in many different ways!
One of those first occasions I’ll never forget was when he was 5 yrs old and had just started speaking in sentences. He had finally become completely toilet trained for #2 (after already being successful w/#1 a whole year prior.)
We were upstairs and he had to go. Just outside the bathroom when he yelled, “Wipe me”, I went right in and congratulated him on a job ‘nicely done’.
Then he said, “Remember when I used to push the hard balls? Remember it used to hurt my coolie so bad?”
Blown away by this, I reply, “Oh yes baby, I remember how bad it hurt. But mommy figured out what ur belly needed. Mommy made it all better, right!?!”
Then he shocked me: He said, “Mommy, thank u for helping my coolie not do hard balls anymore!”
WOW!! If that isn’t enough to convince ya….c’mon!!!

yes, you can accept and take action at the same time. The action part is what an outsider doesnt understand. It is too much work in their eyes. It is always easier to be passive (just accept). But is it fair to the child?

Exactly! Lots of well meaning friends will post these memes and I always think “our definition is a lot different” I accept LoRenzo for all his wonderfulness, I’ll even accept him after I’ve exhausted every avenue of healing possible if he doesn’t make a full recovery. I will not accept that autism is a gift and should be embraced! It didn’t have to happen and that is UNACCEPTABLE!

I thank God every day I did not accept anything I was told about autism. All genetics, neurological condition etctc.
I did my research, we have to travel to the US for treatments, but my son is on the road to recovery. Today we see a happy child who enjoys life. He deserves all the effort!