I am so anxious and also trying to write a self summary on my okcupid account since I am single as of 6 days ago and it turns out that is also an anxiety-producing activity so it's really not helping. She's not getting her surgery until around midnight so there will be so much time to be anxious too.

_________________"No one with hair so soft and glossy could ever be bad at anything." - Tofulish

So Effie's surgery itself went well, but I guess they are still confused by what the mass is. It looks more like a tumor than they expected but they keep saying since she has other symptoms of infection and she's so young it seems likely that it's an infection, maybe a fungal one...but cancer is definitely not being ruled out. They're doing a biopsy and culturing a chunk of the mass and hopefully we'll know in a week. I'm picking her up in about an hour.

Also the Chip In page now reflects that you guys gave me 275, though really it's 285 since lavawitch just did PayPal, and the PPK is just the best, thanks so much to everyone.

_________________"No one with hair so soft and glossy could ever be bad at anything." - Tofulish

So it got to an even 300, thanks to everyone! I just applied it to the surgery cost (which ended up being 2500, which was the low end of the estimate, so yay). Effie is so miserable with her massive incision (it's seriously down her entire abdomen) and cone and crate. I had to take her to the vet today so they could clean her without getting the incision wet--diarrhea and cone and a long haired kitty gets gross fast. But the incision looks good and hopefully we'll hear about the biopsy soon.

_________________"No one with hair so soft and glossy could ever be bad at anything." - Tofulish

So they're beginning to suspect that she has FIP, and they're checking the mass they removed for it, so if she has it it would basically mean she would die most likely very soon or maybe if she's super lucky could live for another year. They haven't confirmed it but they're also out of other ideas.

_________________"No one with hair so soft and glossy could ever be bad at anything." - Tofulish

Thanks guys. I'm sure this would be so hard too if she were older but I really really was not prepared to deal this this at this age. Like I wasn't prepared to lose her when she was still a baby and I wasn't prepared to lose a pet when I was 24, like I think I felt like I would adopt young animals as a young person and then somehow I would gain the maturity to deal with losing them as I got older. Or something. That's probably not actually true but when I adopted Agnes my number one fear was that I wouldn't be able to deal with her dying but then I figured I had at least 15 or so years to get used to the idea. And now it's actually pretty likely that Effie could die at any time. Like she could die while I'm at work tomorrow. Sorry if this is completely incoherent.

_________________"No one with hair so soft and glossy could ever be bad at anything." - Tofulish

Keeping you and Effie in my thoughts. I know it doesn't do much for the heartache, but Effie is a happy and playful kitty with lots of life in her and in her short time so far has enjoyed so much love from you. Will you find out soon about the FIP diagnosis? Is there anything we can do to help?

I'll find out about the diagnosis within the week. As I read more about it it makes a lot of sense. And if it's not FIP they have no idea what it is--it's not cancer and it's not an infection. So it seems pretty likely.

_________________"No one with hair so soft and glossy could ever be bad at anything." - Tofulish

I'm so sorry that after all of your worries and expenses you might lose her. I wish there was something I could say to make it better, but I know I can't, so: life isn't fair and this is bullshiitake.

_________________"The Tree is His Penis"

The tree is his penis // it's very exciting // when held up to his mouth // the lights are all lighting // his eyes start a-bulging // in unbridled glee // the tree is his penis // its beauty, effulgent -amandabear

I haven't been on the boards much in a while so I just read the updates... strawberryrock, I am so sorry! I know how hard this is... I lost my cat on Friday to a sudden blood clot caused by a heart condition. We knew it would happen but we didn't know when, and I am so grateful for every moment we had together. So huge, huge hugs to you and Effie. Just hold her and love her as much as you are able, and no matter what else happens she will know she is loved unconditionally.

Often the animals that come into our lives for only a little while burn extra bright, because they have so much to give in such a short time. So all my love and hugs to you and Effie, whatever happens.

Often the animals that come into our lives for only a little while burn extra bright, because they have so much to give in such a short time. So all my love and hugs to you and Effie, whatever happens.