Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Not heart broken at all. I totally forgot to weigh until the middle of the day (post two meals), so I'm sure a lot of that was liquid and food.

And about the blogging what I'm eating, well this week was a bad week to start that. We taste tested over 300 foods at work, so it was almost impossible to blog that... Maybe that accounts for the +0.2. :)

Monday, December 14, 2009

Foodie Girl has inspired me to start blogging my food again. Maybe that will make me more aware of what I'm eating. I may only do it again for a little bit, but enough to start watching what I'm eating again. I've just been eating, eating basically well, but not really being mindful. So this week, I'll start blogging again. (And maybe give up Mountain Dew? Or maybe that can wait for 2010...)

Monday, November 9, 2009

This is not the post I'd want to be making, but it's honest. I fell of the band wagon in the last two weeks, ate whatever I wanted, and now I'm paying for it. I had an out-of-town weekend where my food was very heavy, not altogether bad, but just not really what I needed. This week, I'm back to planning my menu, shopping well, and hopefully watching the number slide down again. I want to see the 260s before the end of the year!! That's my goal. I'll make it happen.

Friday, November 6, 2009

I haven't been eating well, been eating just about anything I want in fact, and I've gained 5 pounds.

I had been eating basically well and losing weight. I wasn't necessarily watching every calorie, but I was aware. This past week I've been eating anything that comes in front of me. Not because I'm hungry, not because I need to, but just because I can.

I've got the weekend to turn this ship around before the weigh-in on Monday. We'll see how this goes.

Monday, November 2, 2009

I was lower than 274 yesterday, but I spent the day painting a friend's house and drinking whatever he had in his fridge, which ended up being mostly soda. Then for dinner, he bought us McDonald's. So all around, I'm really not surprised by that number.

I also spent the whole week eating snacky foods left over from my birthday party. No real meals until Thursday, so no real calories or nutrition for my body to work with. This week, we're back to good food!

Monday, October 19, 2009

I'm actually surprised. I ate and ate and ate all weekend at a retreat. The food was delicious, and for the most part healthy, but there was a lot of it. And there was chocolate fondue. So the fact I lost almost a whole pound, I'm okay with that. I did see lower numbers last week pre-retreat, so looking forward to those numbers again this week!

Monday, October 12, 2009

So that slight increase isn't affecting me at all! It's no big deal! I'll take care of it next week!

Still haven't gotten back into the gym. I know, I know. It's for no other reason than being busy with work and stuff around my apartment. I will get back in there! I'm itching for a good workout! And all that motivation from you guys last week has me itching to see better numbers!

Monday, October 5, 2009

I saw 275 and almost fell off the scale! I can't believe I'm to that goal. I'm late getting there, but I'm here! Now if I can stay...

The surprising thing? I expected to report back about an awful weekend spent eating hamburgers, soda, a big slice of cheese pizza, and mexican food (which is what I did do) with an increase in the weight. But instead... it went down! How can that be?!

Maybe this is the motivation I was looking for!!! How long until I'm under 270???

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The amazing fellow weight-loss blogger over at 100in12 gave me my first blogging award, The Honest Scrap. So here I am repaying the favor, putting up the award and about to pass it on!

The rules for this shindig are:

1. “The Honest Scrap” award must be shared!2. The recipient has to tell 10 true things about themselves.3. The recipient has to pass along this prestigious award to 10 more bloggers.4. Those 10 bloggers all have to be notified they have been given this award.5. Those 10 bloggers should link back to the blog that awarded them.

The 10 things about me:

1. I live in Birmingham, Alabama. War Eagle!!! (That's Auburn University for you out o' towners.)

2. I love the fall because it means the best time of the year is coming... my birthday! oh no. wait... the holidays! :)

3. I have played the piano since I was 9, but I'm no where near as good as I wish I was. I still find comfort in just sitting and playing for hours.

4. Traveling is by far the best thing on Earth. I would do it for a living if I could figure out how.

5. I make lists out the wazoo. Lists of things to do today, things to do this week, things to accomplish this month, etc. I don't think I'd get anything done if it weren't on a list somewhere.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Well I guess it's better than going up. I need to get out of this rut. I haven't been to the gym in at least two weeks. I am so dedicated to this, but I find making myself do it getting harder and harder.

Monday, September 14, 2009

It's been a long few weeks. Work has been out of control. Personal life is perfectly fine, but I'm staying ultra busy with visits to friends, long work hours and catching up on life. Oh and Auburn football. :) War eagle!

My food hasn't been great, but it hasn't been bad at all. I notice this when I go spend the weekend with someone. I see what they eat and what their choices are, and then I realize how much different min are. I won't say better, but different. I also have gotten to where I can physically get very sick after eating too much. I've noticed that especially with friends lately. I hate to say no to their beautiful food, but I literally can feel myself being so full it's painful. So here's to learning to say no.

I'm looking forward to an excellent week. Gotta get back in the gym since I wasn't able to last week with all the long work hours.

And here's to Stephen for checking in and reminding me of my goal. :) I might just need to join your team after all.

Monday, August 31, 2009

I have been absent, but I haven't forgotten. Things are crazy. I am still working out as I can; food is okay. Weigh ins have been so so. I'll update later tonight, but just wanted to say that I am still here and still read you guys every day.

Thank you for all your past and future encouragement. I couldn't do it without you guys.

Friday, August 21, 2009

I haven't really been dedicated the past few weeks. I have eaten relatively well, but I haven't gone to the gym, save Wednesday night (when I walked for a solid hour -- almost 3 miles -- and felt wonderful!).

But if I want to succeed, I can't keep making excuses. No more playing around. We're back on, and it's for real. I'm tired of only half way being dedicated as of late. Totally dedicated. It's my health, my body, my fight.

Friday, August 14, 2009

I knew this was coming. I haven't worked out all week. I also didn't eat well yesterday (working lunch over pizza and dinner at a mexican restaurant--burrito, beans, cheese dips), so I'm not so shocked with what I saw on the scale this morning.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

So this weekend, I sat around Friday and Saturday, weighed the next mornings and had lost 2 pounds! I ate well, didn't eat any crap sugar stuff, but also didn't exercise. Yesterday, I eat normal stuff, have a sweet or two, walk for 1.3 miles and gain 3 pounds since Sunday morning.

My only thought: I totally blew it on Sunday with two Mountain Dews. I was also running around the state seeing some friends, didn't eat regularly and drank those toxic drinks. Then yesterday I had some crap pop tart and sugary candies. Maybe sugar really is my problem. In that case, as an experiment, only my ounce of dark chocolate on occasion for the rest of the week! We'll see what happens!

Friday, August 7, 2009

I feel better this week. I was actually at a lower point on Tuesday before I finally started walking again. Weird how that happens. Not sure if I'm consuming enough calories, and since I've been busy and unable to update myfitnesspal, it's hard to tell. I promise to get better at that so I can keep track of it. But still 1.6 pounds is 1.6 pounds. And next week, it'll be another 1.6 pounds and on and on until I'm where I need to be!

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

So sorry I haven't updated in a while. I was busy this weekend cleaning and organizing, and then I took the day off yesterday to spend time with a friend who came through Bham.

I've been listening to the advice of Robin and am trying to cut out carbs and breads and pastas and grains, etc. So far so good!!! I haven't made it to the gym yet again, but tonight, we have a pretty serious date set. I need to get in there and WORK.

I have a new goal: down to 260 by the end of the year! Think I can do it? Here's to hoping!

Note to self: Get better at updating myfitnesspal. That's the point of the web site, duh!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

First, lots of food to taste at work yesterday, so I had a lot of calories I didn't need.

Second, I skipped lunch so I think my body just started holding on to everything I was eating hoping I'd feed it more later.

Third, I haven't felt well these past two days. It stormed Sunday night and again last night, and though I love sleeping through storms, it's hard to sleep through thunder that throws you out of your bed and sets off 5 or 6 car alarms. Lack of sleep = lack of feeling well.

So fourth, I haven't worked out since Monday morning. I'm really hoping for a good workout tonight if I can power through the icky feeling.

Dinner last night was great! I made a couscous loaf with some pan-seared eggplant slices, and though I enjoyed making it and it was yummy, I will never make it again. It made way too much (more than a single girl can eat), it isn't stellar enough (nutrition-wise) for all the work, and I'd like to think I can make something just as yummy much faster.Here's the recipe in case you're interested: Couscous Loaf With Feta, Eggplant and Onion

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Today is not going to be a great day with my food. First, it's taste-testing day at work, and we're celebrating a going-away and a few birthdays, so lots of chocolate cake, fudge, and other no-good treats. Sticking to the fruit, a small slice of cake, and water! POWER THROUGH THE SUGAR!!! haha

Looking forward to a good dinner as I totally skipped lunch (by accident).

Monday, July 27, 2009

I'm a little bit more than upset with myself lately. I started doing myfitnesspal.com to track what I'm eating, and I apparently have some work to do. I'm going to talk to my friend the diet editor some more this week, but I think I need help from an RD. I'm going over on daily sugar allowances in my first meal! One suggestion: instead of sugar, try honey or agave, right? Note to self: purchase something other than sugar.

Also: Sometimes I just need to give in to the urge to buy something totally junky at 1 a.m. in the morning after a night of celebrating and wedding partying. That one night was Saturday. No more for a while. :)

Well on to good and better things. I took a break working out Saturday and Sunday since I had company, but already back to it on Monday morning with a one-mile walk. Here's to losing some weight this week and getting one step closer to healthy!

Bad part of Monday: company lunch at a Mexican restaurant and birthday dinner at an Italian. Eh... chance to make smart choices!

Friday, July 24, 2009

I discovered myfitnesspal.com today. It's a great way for me to know how many calories I'm consuming, how much sugar, protein, sodium, etc. But I am a bit confused because I assumed to lose weight I needed to eat around 1,500 calories a day, maybe a tad more. But it says I need to have 2,060. So I talked to a friend who is a diet editor at a national magazine, and she said the heavier you are, the more calories you require even on a diet/exercise routine. As you lose weight, you cut calories. That blows my mind, but we're going with it.

So then tonight I did a quick 1 mile workout with Leslie Sansome Walk Away the Pounds, and it said I gained 160 calories because of my workout. So now does that mean I need to eat 160 calories more? I'm so confused.

She suggested I needed to add more calories in snacks, but I have to be careful with the carbs and sugar and crap that often come in a packaged deal with packaged snacks. I also need more dairy and whole grains in my meals. Any suggestions? I don't like yogurt, but I do like Greek yogurt every once in a while. Maybe some homemade granola?

And here's to next week when I'll be trying out a different whole grain recipe each night!

I'm not really sure what to think of it. I literally weighed myself at least 20 times because I never got the same number. At one point I was 273.2. The next time I was 280.6 again. I don't know. I went with this average, though I've been weighing myself all week and I've been in the 277, 276 range. So a little disappointed. (Maybe the ice cream was too much.) But I have been doing a lot of weights and push ups and such, so maybe I've just gained some muscle. Would love to be down to 275 by next week! Just want to make sure I'm doing everything correctly.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

I always pretend I don't like working out and sweating, but I think I'm secretly getting to where I do. :)

I had an idea today. Eventually, maybe within the next 2 weeks, I'll stop blogging what I'm eating and exercising and such and focus on other stuff. Then if I feel like I need to blog food and exercise for accountability, I'll do that. But I really do this food diary to make myself think, "Remember, someone is going to see that you're eating this spoonful of Nutella." I have that tiny little voice in my head that says, "But you don't have to tell them...." haha! So once I feel I've got my food under control, I'll probably calm down posting it everyday and jump to other things, things I find, read, like, etc. That way you're not coming here to read about my oatmeal. Every. Single. Day.

Until that time, here's my sorta great day on food and exercise. Had the snacking pre-dinner problem again. But this time it was because I was really hungry and my dinner took forever.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

A great day! Ate a little heavy on the carbs, but oh well. Tomorrow's another day.

New thought: I'm going to have to cook dinner faster or move lunch back just a bit. I come home and I get the munchies. Before I know it I've had a handful of almonds, a spoonful of peanut butter and string cheese.

Tomorrow: start preparing dinner as soon as I walk in. Burn vanilla candle. Studies show people who burn vanilla candles (or have sweet scents like vanilla) while cooking are less likely to snack.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Good day today, I think. Coming off a good weekend too. Had some ice cream this weekend, but really, I just needed a bit of a splurge. :) Worked out Saturday but not Sunday. I went to the grocery store on a Sunday afternoon; isn't that a lot like running an obstacle course?

Friday, July 17, 2009

A pretty good day today. Looking forward to getting below 280 still, so I am going to try and squeeze in a workout or two this weekend. I feel like if I have the time, I should do it. If I don't, I'll know that I've been doing it when I could. And I know rest is important, so it will all balance out in the end.

So.... drum-roll please...... 280.6 lbs! I've decided to start doing .numbers because I have a feeling I'll eventually be fighting to lose even .5 of a pound, so there we go. A loss of 3.4 pounds! I can't wait to get below 280. I think I can do it by this time next week!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

First - I am totally and utterly exhausted from seeing Harry Pottery at midnight. (Though, it was totally worth it The show ended around 2:30, but we didn't get in until 3:00 which means I didn't get to sleep until about 3:30. I had to be up at 7 for work, and I've forgotten since college how to function on so few hours of zzz's.

Second - I met a friend at Panera for an early morning snack, and we split a cinnamon crunch bagel. Then I grabbed another whole grain bagle with sun-dried tomato spread for lunch. So 1.5 bagels today. Ugh. I feel like a boat.

Third - Dinner was just leftover spaghetti and meatballs, nothing healthy. I filled up quickly (I'm assuming from the bagels), so I'm chewing a piece of gum to get rid of the spaghetti taste. I think brushing my teeth would accomplish the same thing.

Because I'm so tired I don't know if I'll muster up the energy to go to the gym. Instead, I might get up in the a.m., do a workout video and get back on routine tomorrow night. (If I do exercise, I'll update this post.)

So all in all, not a proud day, but not all days will be great, I suppose. Until tomorrow!

B:Oatmeal with 1/2 tbsp flaxseed oil, 1/4 cup blueberries

S:1/2 cinnamon crunch bagel with honey walnut spread

L:Whole grain bagel with a small amount (about 1/4 of the container) of sun-dried tomato spread

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Today wasn't the best food day (and since I'm writing this before Harry Potter, it might get worse). But exercise was good. And I'm feeling great. I am, however, having a little stiffness when I climb stairs. I'm stretching after working out, but maybe not enough. Any ideas?

I found these bowls a few months back and love them. They are my secret weapon in the fight against over snacking. They're tiny, 4 ounce bowls; just enough for ice cream, nuts, chips, anything I want to snack on but need to control. And not only for you, but it's great to get others in your house in the habit of using these bowls to properly portion out things.

Monday, July 13, 2009

It feels so good to sweat!!! I just got back from the gym, and I feel great!

I have family coming down for the Harry Potter premiere tomorrow night, so I'm hoping I can hold them off from buying giant cokes and buttery popcorn. I may sneak in a snack of my own so I'm not tempted.

So I wasn't very good at posting what I did this weekend, though none of it was bad. (I promise to keep it updated this week.) I didn't work out Saturday but did do 15 minutes of elliptical, 10 minutes of treadmill on an incline and 10 minutes of bike on Sunday. Food was good. Made some baked chicken, a pork loin, some fresh green beans, some roasted squash and have it ready to go for the week. Overall, it was a great weekend, and I'm looking forward to an amazing week!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Today was a good day! I was on a bit of a high because of the weigh in. I got up and worked out this morning, did a mile walk with the Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds tape. It's a great workout even if you are doing it at home. I wanted to get it in since I wasn't able to go to the gym Thursday night, but then I also went to the gym after work with my roommate. I did 10 minutes on the elliptical then 10 minutes on the treadmill at an incline/grade of 12. It wore me slap out. But I felt great after!!! I did a few small weights as well, but I was in a hurry so I'll focus on that again next week.

My job requires me to try a lot of different foods, so sometimes that works against me. I'm working to control it and keep track of it so I'm not eating too much. I'll make the taste tests count as a snack or something.

Friday, July 10, 2009

So Friday morning has come again, and I weighed in at 284 pounds. My first weigh in was 278 pounds, and I just knew that couldn't be right. I was having a hard time standing still on the scale (mostly because I think I was falling back to sleep standing there). So I tried again and got 284.

That's a loss of 5 pounds in one week. I'm actually really surprised and feel really great! I'd like to be down to 275 by July 24. Small goals. One at a time.

It was a good day. I didn't get any exercise in, but I will make it up this weekend. Promise!

B:Oatmeal, 1/2 tbsp flaxseed oil, handful of blueberries

S:Publix almond bar

L:Chicken fingers and fries from Jack's. (Bad choice. Had to grab it between meetings.)

D:Grilled chicken fajitas. Made 1 taco with grilled chicken, grilled onions, guac sauce, sour cream and pico de gallo. Had a few piece of chicken and a bite of black beans. I was full, so I put the rest up and will have it for dinner later.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Today was a good day. I went to the doctor yesterday for a yearly check up, and it wasn't pretty. I hadn't been to the doctor in almost 3 years, and in those 3 years, I gained 23 pounds. My blood pressure was high, 130/100. I'm a little nervous because this is the first time it's been high. So now I'm ultra determined to get healthy! But now that I'm back in my normal routine, my diet was good, my exercise was great, and I'm looking forward to losing some weight!

I'm working out late at night. I'm not a morning person, so it's great for me to work out. BUT... it's around 9 p.m. before that happens. Thankfully, it helps me go to sleep and rest well. But I wake up just completely starving and end up being really hungry for lunch early in the morning. So tonight I ate a slice of toast before bed, hoping it helps get me through the night until my oatmeal in the morning. Is a slice of toast really the best snack? What about a bar with fruit and nuts?

Sorry I'm doing this on Wednesday. It's been crazy with traveling. I had a great day, and a great workout! Food was not good at all since I was on the road. But being back at home will definitely help!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

I wasn't really happy with my last layout style. Too busy, too close together. I'm not sure I like this either, but it's getting there. I need to bring out my old HTML books from college so I can manipulate the code to get exactly what I want. But then, I might totally destroy the page. Ha!

I felt great today, but my arms are so sore. Haha! I didn't have the greatest food day, but again, I'm traveling, so I've got to learn on-the-road eating tips. I didn't get any exercise in because I didn't get to the place I'm staying until around 9:30, and I was just too tired. But still, a good day.

Monday, July 6, 2009

With the holiday, my routine and plans were all thrown. But once I'm back in the swing of things, food choices and exercising will be a bit easier. Sadly, it'll come later this week, as I will be traveling Monday and Tuesday. It's hard to control what's purchased when it's not my home or when I'm on the road, etc. Part of this experience will be learning how to make those decisions when it's not my comfort zone. But otherwise, Sunday was not a particularly good day, especially with food. I did get in some great exercise though. I felt totally alive after it.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Of course it's a holiday, so I didn't do well. We grilled steaks and ribs. I ate a small portion of steak and about 1/4 of a pork rib. Had a salad too. It needed more veggies, but we threw it together last second. I nibbled throughout the day as I was cooking, so I don't feel too great.

But will get back on board this week. Going grocery shopping tomorrow, so I'm making a list of meals for the week. This helps me with my budgeting and my plans for cooking.

Friday, July 3, 2009

I found this guy via Twitter a few weeks ago. He is my motivation to get up and get started finally. I follow his web site every day, and his progress is my inspiration.

(My blog probably also looks a lot like his. Yes, it's true. His looks and flows really well, so why mess with a good thing? I'll try my best to be different, just in case he has claims or copyrights. Haha!)

-- Increase my vocabulary of foods. I often avoid fruits and foreign veggies, but in order to max out my food-based vitamins and minerals, I'll try to add one new item to my menu each week.

-- Weigh everyday but post only weekly weigh-in totals. I've read a good bit of science saying people who weigh every day have a better success rate. Might have something to do with having that number (good or bad) on your mind.

-- Up my water consumption from about 2 glasses a day to at least 5 (for a start).

-- When dining out, push half to one side and save it for later. (This saves money too!) I'll also ask if a friend would like to split something.

-- Salad dressings will be served on the side. This way I can lightly dip the lettuce into the dressing and put it in my mouth first. I get an immediate taste of dressing without having leaves coated in fat and calories.

-- Dessert is a luxury, not a necessity.

-- Fruit can be a dessert too.

-- Give up Mountain Dew. I've had at least one Mountain Dew a week for the last 8 years. It's a ridiculous waste of calories, and I get no nutrition from it.

-- Find fun things to do on weekends and down times. Looking forward to doing something will keep me from watching TV and loading up on snack foods.

-- Use this web site and the community I join (hopefully) through this web site to stay accountable.

(Will be updated and revised as I progress. Will also have beginning pictures and progression pictures added as soon as I can remove faces.)

I work around very healthy people and have a great understanding of how I can work to lose weight, eat right, and most importantly, get healthy. It'll be a slow process because, after all, I've been fat for 24 years.

Meds are out. I took prescription weight loss pills in high school, lost nearly 80 pounds and gained it all back (plus some) in college.

Weight loss surgery is out. Yes, I know plenty of people who have had it and look great, but after all my research, I've decided we just don't know enough about the long-term side effects to risk removing a portion of my stomach. Plus, I also know quite a few people who have gained back every bit of the weight they lost.

Self-loathing is out. I'll remember that I am beautiful even if most people wouldn't agree. I'll learn to love what I am going to be and that I'm willing to fight for a change.

Exercise is in. I'll start with walking videos, treadmill, elliptical and build myself up to possibly running. When I'm more comfortable in the gym, I might seek out a personal trainer to help with toning and hitting problem areas.

Healthy eating is in. I've got great resources for healthy cooking, organic, all-natural foods. I love to cook new things, so that won't be a problem. And I know of great restaurants in my area so I can eat healthy without zapping my small food budget.

Healthy rewards are in. I'll reward myself with new exercise videos, great workout clothes, new running shoes or smaller-sized clothes, not food and sugary treats.

Why It'll Work This TimeIt's not like I haven't spent years of my life thinking, "I need to lose weight." I have. And I've tried weird things like only drinking Slim-Fast (lost 20 pounds, gained 30 pounds). But this time, I'm dedicated and serious. I don't like losing my breath when I walk a block. I don't like not fitting into a seat on the airplane. I don't like worrying if I'll set off an alarm if I squeeze into a crowded elevator. This time it isn't to be popular or pretty; it's to be healthy.

It's not easy being 300 pounds at 24. Friends go skiing in the winter and swimming during the summer. They're in serious relationships, getting married, or having children. They wear beautiful suits to work and cute tops to dance clubs.

I weigh 300 pounds. I haven't been in a relationship for 5 years, and I can't climb the stairs without panting. I wear a size 24 pant and XXL top.

I avoid going anywhere for fear of people looking at me and making comments. I definitely don't go out to bars anymore. My friends all get free drinks, and I get ignored. When I'm in public, all I can think is, "I weigh 300 pounds."

I am doing this for my health. All of my family is large. My grandfather and father are diabetic. I don't want to have a heart attack at 30 and die young. I want to be able to pick up and go to the beach without buying coverups or making an excuse. I don't want to think of reasons to avoid eating in public.

I don't want to be skinny; I want to be healthy. And I'm doing this so I can be proud of myself for taking a stand and taking control of my life.

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About Token Fat Friend

Everyone has one - the token fat friend who makes you feel better with her jokes and funny antics. But now, be my friend and help me in my battle to go from fat to fit.
I'm keeping this blog anonymous. I'll work to post pictures (to see progress) just as long as I can figure out how to remove faces and distinguishing features.