Maybe if I go to sleep and don't wake up till after dad took Anthony to school I'll get to stay home..
Or if I stab the tires of the car..
Yesterday I threw up but mom didn't care. I told her I felt like crap and how much pain I was in and she didn't car. She just kept saying "you're going to school"..
Why don't they ever listen to me? I do everything they ask, I don't ask for much, and when I do it takes like two months until someone gets around to giving me seven f---ing dollars..

It amazes me how I can still wake up middle of the night to use the bathroom and get yelled at. Oh well. It can't be helped. Really the only bad things going on right now are you're always sick and always feel like s---, and you've had so many days off from school if you miss another mom'll go to jail or pay like a 1,000 bucks or something. Honestly don't blame yourself, blame her. She couldn't be bothered to call or send a note. Then she acts like you PURPOSELY got sick and PURPOSELY got in so much pain you couldn't move.

Speaking of, guess who still hasn't gone to the hospital??
Well if you guessed me, boy are you correct. I don't wanna sound like a myrtr, I just wanna rant about it where I know someone will see it. Doesn't matter if they act on it or not just see it.

So, this is it, huh? We're finally going to highschool. Well, it's gonna be scary. Let's just hope your grades stay exactly the same, but the ones for health go up. Those suck, and I'm honestly not sure if I'm failing or not since the grades for it are all over the place.

I wanna die
So. Much.
Because of Hector I got placed in a mental institution.. I was crying and s---. There was a cute girl there and we kept glancing at each other, but a few things

- I'm taken
- We were both hella shy anyway
- there was like 7 other people in the room and we were being watched
- I'm pretty sure it was prohibited
- I was covered with my blanket and there was still tears on my face
- without my hat or hoodie I looked ugly as hell
- I was the only one who had to wear a wristband and that was embarrassing

So they thought I was a crisis, and a school shooter. They took all my stuff including my freaking PANT LACES