>> 08 January 2010

So I hope this finds you wellSun is shining down eastern valley waysThere's some news I need to tell youGive my Mother a kissTell her I'm okI recall her words"If it's too easyIt never lasts"I have compromisedBut I'm finally free of the past

Now I can danceClouds have all disappearedFreedomI hold so dearCause nobody knows me hereThough I can only imagine the sadnessIn your eyesPlease understandNow I can dance

All alone the other nightI came to realize we'd be friends for lifeIt was always meant to beFor some people the heavens can get it so right

Like an angel you seeYou have graciously offered a handYou'd be so proud of meNow I'm finally taking a stand

>> 07 January 2010

When can my heart beat again When does the pain ever end When do the tears stop from running over When does "you'll get over it" begin I hear what you're saying But I swear that it's not making sense So when can I see you

When can I see you again When can my heart beat again When can I see you again When can I breathe once again And when can I see you

When does my "someday" begin When I'll find someone again And what if I still am not truly over What am I supposed to do then, babe... Do you see what I'm saying Even if, if it's not making sense So when can I see you

When can I see you again When can my heart beat again When can I see you again And when can I breathe once again And when can I see you... again

Yeah, baby Do you see what I'm saying Even if, if it's not making sense, baby So when can I see you again

When can I see you again Can my heart beat again, baby When can I see you again And when can I breathe once again And when can I see, babe, again

>> 06 January 2010

After a week of gloomy days, difficult mornings and draining nursing care I'm breaking the silence.. Silence that crippled me to the core. Still, calm but hurting from inside. The pain in loss is definitely excruciating.. It prevented me from doing the passions that I used to share with someone. Yes. Sometimes people fall and get hurt out from the complexities most especially if one has build his/her world around someone so precious. I am in the process and the process has been difficult and draining. My mornings turned out to be a regimen of pillow sobs, runny nose and numbing throat. My nights were too slow and sometimes I just don't want to sleep to avoid the difficult waking moments.

Working conditions fluctuates from mild to extreme toxicity. Welling tears is inevitable at work and so as throwing up and puking out of anxiety. It throbs and synchronizes with the heart rhythm. I don't want to be an emotional vampire by writing long posts about the crisis that I am facing. And to you, you were the greatest.. Your imperfections are beautiful your sincerity has captured me. No one has matched your honesty and sincerity. Your beauty radiates in all areas and your words of comfort and endearment resonates within. It melted my heart even at this very day. You turned me head over heals. You drove me crazy... I know I have caused you some insecurities and some pain but I must say I was yours after all and no matter what complexities we both have, it's there... as what you've said it transcends. I don't know when will my heart shall be put at rest. All I know it's gonna take some time. Me encantas por siempre...

This song obviously, is in a woman's perspective. I must say that I am... and I think it's normal..

Jealous of the girl who caught your eye One of my darker days When you looked at her where was I? Shoulda been in her place Here I am All alone imagining what could have been If I had been there

[Chorus:] Jealous of the one who'se arms are around you If she's keeping you satisfied Jealous of the one who finally found you Made your sun and your stars collide La la la la la la la She's a very very lucky girl La la la la la la la

Jealous of the one who won your heart They say it's a perfect match She's gonna get to be where you are And I don't get better than that She'll say you're fine Whisper words I wish were mine And they might have been If I had been there

You know I'd fight the good fight If I thought I'd change your mind But if she makes you happy I would leave that dream behind Man, she better treat you right And give you everything Cause at the moment she doesn't (Hmm :-P) I'll be waiting in the wings

This blog is dedicated to every Filipino to recall, relive and reorient the rich Hispanic roots that formed our islands into one nation. Being Hispanic is not limited to one's genetic stock but it surpasses the linguistic and most importantly, the cultural strata that we shared with more than 20 countries in South America & Africa. Hispanic culture is an intermingling of Spanish and indigenous culture. We may be Asian by blood but culturally Hispanic. Freedom has been great! Let's free ourselves from our bitter-sweet past & recognize our patrimony. ¡Viva La Hispanidad! ¡Viva El Gran Archipiélago de Filipinas!