A Walk Through the Dark with Eva Piper

“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

And when we trust His promises… by choosing to rely on Him instead of ourselves… a soul-securing confidence comes in the most unexpected ways.

Eva Piper, wife of Don Piper {the author of 90 minutes in Heaven} knows just how true that is.

Today she’s here to share with us how she found a surprising confidence during her darkest hours. Her new book, “A Walk Through the Dark,” released last week. It’s based on her role in the story that began the day her husband died and came back to life 90 minutes later, and the years and countless surgeries and miracles that followed. Click the arrow below to watch a powerful short video trailer about Eva’s story.

I was sitting in a movie theater watching The Sound of Music. The young Maria had sung while dancing through the mountains, the sisters had asked “How do you solve a problem like Maria?” and now Maria was walking through town on her way to serve as governess to a group of seven children singing about confidence.

The song begins with Maria listing her doubts and fears but ends with these words. “I have confidence in confidence alone, besides which you see I have confidence in me!”

I never thought of myself as a confident person. I was confident in some of the ‘things’ I did…playing the piano, teaching school, being a wife and mother. But when it came to making decisions, I usually let someone else take charge.

I rationalized they knew more about such and such than I did. They were more outgoing. They were more sure of themselves. They were more ‘confident.’

Some people build confidence by practicing a sport or art. Some build confidence by taking classes in public speaking. Others may study to become an expert in a certain field of study. My confidence came from a very different source.

During the second week of my husband Don’s stay in the ICU, it became necessary for me to move into a hotel a short distance from the hospital. I needed to be close by in case anything happened so I checked into the Downtown Hyatt.

Each morning as soon I awoke I placed a call to the nurses’ station in the ICU. As soon as someone answered I would go through my list of questions…How is his breathing? What is his oxygen rate? What is his pain level?

The nurses responded to all of my questions and provided any additional information that I might need. But on this particular morning, things went differently. Instead of getting the information I requested I was told, “Oh honey, you don’t need to know all that, you’re just the wife.”

In a split second I went from being a person who questioned whether I was up to the task to one who realized I had more strength than I realized.

Without skipping a beat I asked to speak to her supervisor. When she came on the phone I explained what had happened and waited.

The supervisor apologized and quickly gave me the information on Don.

That was my turning point. That morning I took my first step toward being someone who was willing to do whatever was needed to move my husband’s recovery along.

Looking back I can see, that’s when I stepped beyond my private comfort space—and would do it many more times in the months ahead.

During those early days I had to push to get what I needed. I learned to ask questions until I not only had answers but I understood the situation we were facing.

If I didn’t grasp the meaning or if staff spoke with medical jargon, I learned to say, “I’m not in the medical field. Can you explain that again?”It worked. I got what I wanted.

I was never belligerent or rude. I tried to treat people with respect. But when I became aware of things that needed doing or I required information, I asked and stayed steadily at it until I received an acceptable response.

The situation with the rude nurse taught me a valuable lesson. Sometimes God uses difficult people or situations to move you to where He wants you to be. Without that rude nurse I would never have had the confidence to face the rest of my walk through the dark.

Eva Piper is a speaker and author of A Walk Through the Dark, where she shares unique insights into the trials of heartache and the triumph of overcoming!

The wife of best-selling author Don Piper, Eva was the glue that held her broken husband and her family together. Don’s story, recounted in the New York Times bestseller, 90 Minutes in Heaven: A True Story of Life and Death, is Eva’s story too. A teacher of 34 years, she and Don now live in Pasadena, Texas. Visit http://evapiper.com/ to reserve your copy of Eva’s new book, “A Walk Through the Dark” today!

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I’m giving away a copy of Eva’s new book. To enter, simply click “Share Your Thoughts” below and share about a time you had unexpected confidence. Or, share why you’d like to win a copy of Eva’s new book.

Renee Swope is a Word-lover, story-teller, heart-encourager and grace-needer. She's also a wife, mom, friend, daughter and author of A Confident Heart, a Retailers Choice Award winning book that became a best-seller and has been published in six languages, with over 150,000 copies sold. Renee is speaks around the country at women's events and and serves on the writing team for DaySpring’s inCourage blog. For twenty years, Renee served in leadership at Proverbs 31 Ministries and as former co-host of the ministry's radio program, “Everyday Life with Lysa & Renee.

This would be a great read while on vacation. Even if you don’t win, I hope you’ll grab a copy to take with you!! And if you do win, that will be such a blessings. Of course, I’d give each of you a copy if I could :)!

And I bet there were angels watching, blessed by the way you loved your mom in words, prayers and in such sacrificial actions during her last chapter on this side of Heaven. She was/is surely blessed to have you as her daughter Sheryl!

In reading Eva’s short story I identify with her, I leave the big decisions to my husband usually because I don’t feel confident in myself. I think the only time that I can think of where I had “unexpected confidence” is when a doctor told me that I needed to terminate my pregnancy because my baby would not survive. I said NO, and here I am 10 years later with my beautiful baby girl who just turned 10 years old. I am glad I stood up and did not listen to him. God is GREAT and GOOD!

wow Jessica, what an amazing story. And I think God wants to remind you of that today – that with Him you can have confidence. With His leading in your life, you’ve got what it takes to be strong, to make great decisions and to live with assurance in every situation you face. Here’s a verse that came to mind when I read your post:

“But blessed is the [Sheryl] who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in HIM. Jer 17:7 {NIV}

I can’t wait to read these books! Darkness can look so different for all of us, but God will use it to bring us to His Light. I just walked out of a season of darkness in my own life & I look back in awe of what God did in me & around me through it. It was painful, lonely & tormenting at times, but He used it for my good & His glory. It gave me unshakable faith. It also made me realize His calling on my life & spurred me on to becoming a Speaker & starting a ministry. I’m so thankful that He doesn’t waste anything in our lives!

Unexpected confidence….That could be so many different things. I am the mom of three young boys-4, 2 1/2 and 3 months old. I take them to the restraunt to eat without any extra help. I breastfeed in public, knowing that at anytime, someone could approach me and ask me stop, but God gives me the strength to keep doing it. I also approached my supervisor and asked for more responsibility-while that little voice in my head was telling me not to-and got it! I think unexpected confidence is that step you take out of your comfort zone and realize, that God wants you to be confident in who you are, what you are doing and what you will do for others. He wants us to help others and be there for soemone else-but we have to have the confidence in our hearts to know that. Unexpected confidence can come in so many different ways. By typing your comments here, it could be a moment of unexpected confidence-if you are afraid that noone will appreciate what you say or disagree with you. (I know that is a big one for me too.) Have a great day, Ladies!

This book sounds amazing. Thank you for this opportunity. I too have spent many hours in a hospital at my husbands beside, I struggle with self confidence daily, and would appreciate the chance to receive a copy of this book. Blessings to all!

Our daughter, pregnant with her third child, was having severe kidney issues. The 2nd nephrostomy tube had just been inserted into the other kidney. Severe pain began around that region. She, being experienced in pain from infections, advised the medical staff. They repeatedly stated that her pain was the result of being “post-op.” Three days passed…same response…regardless of her many tears.
Somewhere, deep inside ‘Mama Bear’ came a revolt that stirred nearly an entire hospital. I kept my salvation in tact, yet I let it be known that she was going to receive attention!! The student doctor said, “If you want us to do a culture on the port, we will.” [Hmmm…who is the doctor here?] For the next three days, while the culture grew out, an administrative team visited our room daily…now concerned.
The culture results were done. An infection was in fact raging through her body and was bringing her dangerously close to being sepsis. Had I not insisted, she nor our precious granddaughter would be here today. A walk through the dark? Oh my, yes!

Carolyn: Thank you so much for sharing. It so so unimaginable that it would take such measures to get a response to a serious concern. Oh, my. Praise God for using you and that your daughter got the attention she needed. God bless you.

When I was pregnant with our daughter Samantha we went for our 18 wk ultrasound. During the ultrasound they discovered that she had an electrical problem with her heart. We were crushed and concerned for her health. We were told that she could need a pacemaker at birth or surgery even before she was born. Many thought raced through our heads and we were unsure what was to come. Then the doctor said, there is a chance that this could correct itself. That is when I decided that I have to have more confidence and faith in the power or prayer to heal. I called the church and we went to praying. Many weeks later during one of my many ultrasounds, the electrical problem was gone and I got to share the power of prayer with my husband and many of the doctors and nurses that gave me such great care. Today she is a beautiful, healthy, strong 7 years old. We thank God for all our children everyday. I would love to read a copy of Eva’s book.

Thank you for sharing part of this book today…… I am much like Eva when it comes to matters that I feel inadequate to resolve. I would love to read the rest of her story. Thanks for this opportunity to get a chance to win this book. Even if I do not win a copy, I will buy this one.
Walk in blessing today because we as God’s children are indeed BLESSED!

I had more confidence than I ever imagined at my mother’s funeral. She had lived with me for about 8 years after my father passed away but had spent the last year or two in a nursing home. She died 5 days after my son’s wedding. I had a lot of things going, my husband had been diagnosed with an aggressive form of prostate cancer, my brother-in-law fell the day after my son’s wedding. He was on life support in San Diego and I was there trying to support my sister…and then I had to plan a funeral. I was amazed that I was able to speak confidently at her funeral thanks to the promise from Jesus…” That I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” What a blessing to celebrate her life.

Oh, I want to read her book….sounds fantastic!
When my husband had a heart attack 3 yrs. ago, we had just moved to this area….did not have a doctor…did not know people here. But God came through for us by giving me a special scripture to claim!
After the surgery, the doctor gave me his card……..THERE was the same scripture on it!
HE was in control!

I can definitely relate and was touched by Eva’s introduction to her book. I am very familiar with and have been blessed by her husband’s testimony and his account of this amazing journey into our Heavenly home. Like Eva, I was a person who did not like to make decisions, especially life altering decisions that would affect others…especially people I love. When my mother was hospitalized many times with an unknown condition that doctors could not pin down, I had to step up and be persistent with numerous medical people which was not a role I relished. I too, experienced that “rude nurse” situation whereby it propelled me whereby I had to stand firm in getting answers. What a wonderful opportunity to hear the “caregiver’s” and loved one’s side of the story. God bless Don and Eva!

I would like a copy of Eva’s book because right now our family is going through a situation. I’ve always heard that hearing other people’s testimonies of survival is sometimes just the thing to help someone else overcome their obstacles.

My husband suffers from depression and that, in a nutshell, sums up my life. He has good days, and bad days, and the bad days far outnumber the good ones. It is a case of seeing how he is each day and taking it from there. It has taught me patience, and how to hold my tongue when I think it is just too much to bear, the continual criticism, his drip feed of worry, the cutting remarks, the running down of everything I do, and how all this is affecting the children, whether they live with us or not. I know God is at work in this, that slowly, the light is appearing at the end of the tunnel so it would be wonderful to read Eva’s story and hear how she coped with everything when it all seemed black, when the nights and days had no end and it seemed like it was just one thing after another. 🙂

I’m working on my confidence to speak up with the situation needs it. I do best to speak up for my husband and my girls but speaking up for myself is very hard for me! The “dark” is also a very scary place for me too. I know God is always there, I just need to remember not to focus on the dark but to focus on the light!

I would love to win a copy of this book to see how Eva dealt with the situation her and her husband was in. To see how God helped her through this difficult time in her life. I can’t imagine how she felt during that time. I have gone through some struggles in the last 10 months…life shattering but I haven’t let go of God’s hand. I know this is just one of many storms that God allows us to go through but I also know that he will see me after the storm when the sun is shining brightly once again. Praying God’s Blessings on each of you.

Oh Eva, I would love to have a copy of your book. I’ve been working on confidence for so long. I was recently in the hospital and needed clarification on what was going on, and there were times when I needed the nurse like every five minutes. I was afraid to speak up because I didn’t want to seem rude, pushy, or act as if I was the only patient. I also carry this attitude into other parts of my life. I will not ask for what I need because I’m afraid I will appear a certain way and the person will not want to deal with me at all. I hate making decisions about anything. Whenever possible, I’ll let my husband make the decision. Even if it is something as simple as where to get take out. I believe your book will greatly help me to become stronger in this weak area.

During a monthly game of Pokeno, I noticed a bracelet that a friend was wearing and commented on it. To my surprise, she removed the bracelet and put it on my wrist, explaining that it was a “witness” bracelet. She had received it that afternoon from a cashier at Tuesday Morning, and the cashier had received it from a customer earlier that day, and so on and so forth. The premise was such that if someone commented on the unique design of the bracelet (it was made of wire in the shape of a cross, with a pearl atop the cross), the wearer had to give the person the bracelet and tell them about Jesus. I was excited and ready to give my new bracelet away! I wore it to church the next day and not a single person mentioned it. Then I wore it to work (I work at a church) and no one noticed it; this went on for a week. Finally, when I had forgotten all about the bracelet – and I wore it every day – someone saw it.

I was getting my car tag and had just put my checkbook and pen back in my purse when the cashier asked about it. Her question made me catch my breath. I was scared and excited all at the same time! But I shared like I was supposed to and gave her the bracelet. The really neat thing was that I knew she needed to hear the words God gave me in that moment – and I knew because I could see the goose bumps on her arms as we talked! It sounds kind of silly that I was so excited about it, but I’ve always prayed that God would give me opportunities to share the gospel and the truth is that I’m afraid of rejection so I pass up more opportunities than I care to recall. In the moment I’ve just described though, I wasn’t even thinking about being rejected because it wasn’t about me or the bracelet. The bracelet just gave me a reason to share and an opportunity to see past my fear – and it felt good!

My confidence was found in an abusive relationship. I didn’t stay in because I couldn’t see it for what it was, I stayed in it partly for the children who had little to no involvement with their mother, and a father that focused on his own needs and had parental skills that were sadly lacking. The other part of the reason to stay was fear; threats made toward me if I were to leave or report the abuse. I lost a lot during that time, but I gained so much later. I found the confidence to stand up, walk away and not listen to any more lies from satan (the kids had all moved out by this time), and continue on with my life. I turned back to God and let him guide me and protect me down new (and scary) paths in life. The confidence I gained made a noticeable difference in my life, one that family and friends frequently commented on. I regret the lost years of wasted time, but I found a way out and feel that I can help other women find confidence and get out of their own abusive situations. There is always something good that comes out of our darkest hours; it takes blind faith and new found confidence with a spirit-filled heart, but what a blessing that is! I’m still not confident in everything I do, but I trust God to lead me through those things I’m not so sure about. And he does! PTL! And perhaps this man’s children who are stumbling along troubled paths will look back and see that there was love and support from someone, even if it didn’t come from the birth parents as it should have. Eva’s story goes down a different path than mine did, but when you are in your darkest moments, how you got there doesn’t matter. How you move on does!

At the age of 14, I was a very sheltered, coddled teenager, living in a comfortable home with both my parents and a younger brother and sister. My world was immediately ripped apart when my mother suddenly died of a defective heart at a very early age. For weeks I, too, walked in darkness; not knowing where to turn or how I was to going to go on living. My father was devastated and holed up in his own little shell.

One morning I woke up with the realization that if our family had any chance of recovering from this tragedy as a whole unit again, I was going to have to step up and lead the way. Insisting we get up and go to church that Sunday morning was a start. From there, I made a list of chores and divvied them up, making sure everyone contributed.

It was painful, but we are who we are today because my family perserved.

(2) When I was 16 I died from a motorcycle accident and came back to life.
I wasn’t dead long, but I remember floating in the air and seeing my body on the ground.
I also felt this struggle, kinda like when you get caught in the undertow of the ocean waves, which I believe were angels fighting over me.

When I was divorced, I spent several years believing I wasn’t worthy of the love of a good man. Then God brought Keith into my life. We dated for two years and then he asked me to marry him. The people in our church were thrilled for the most part but one woman called and told me that I was not really what everyone else wanted for my husband, a widower, prior to our meeting. She said they felt this way because I was divorced, had a small son, and probably was only looking for a father for my child and a return to the state of “respectable woman” by being married instead of divorced. All of the joy and confidence I had drained out of me like air from a balloon that has met the sharp end of a pin. I cried and called my best friend and mentor, Dolores. She gave me the verse Isaiah 43:4 that tells us God loves us and we are precious to Him. She told me that if I believed God’s words about who I am to Him, the words of others would be just that — words. It gave me the strength to go forth in the confidence of God’s love for me and my man’s love for me. I did, indeed, marry that lovely man, and we just celebrated our 20th wedding anniversary. I write about this event and more in the my book “Dolores, Like the River” to be published this fall by Westbow Press. Sometimes we must stand firm in the face of crashing waves of uncertainty and discouragement in order to have positive outcomes in our lives. I could not have done that without the words of God and the love of a great and wise friend who helped me find the feet to stand in those waves. I can’t wait to order and read Eva’s book.

This sounds like a wonderful book. I love how she used God’s strength through her to get the answers she needed, without being rude but being respectful. I have never had a lot of confidence and have always allowed my husband to make most of the decisions until we separated many years ago (God brought us back together) although I have back slid-den into some of my old ways I want to get back to the confidence I had. I always feel like I am not smart enough and feel like I am a surface thinker. It’s very uncomfortable when I am in a group setting. I seem to want to please everyone. That’s not always bad but then the frustrations seem to build and then I turn that into insecurities of if I say anything I might hurt their feelings, but then I think what about mine…usually I just pull away. But I know God can help me be the confident woman He has made me to be. The dark times help us to get closer to God even though they are painful. God bless

When I read the way Eva described herself relating to ‘confidence’,I thort ”I am reading about myself”, it described me to a ‘T’
Making decisions, is something I too usually leave to someone else. I dont usually remember to ask questions either,and this leaves me in the dark.
After reading Eva notes,I can see now that asking questions is a way of connecting to people, and Jesus wants us to do that.
It is so lovely the way God works with us and always through his love.

I would love to read her book. I love seeing how God uses our weaknesses and creates strength that we never knew we had. I have many stressors in my life currently some have been ongoing and they may never go away others are just daily trials of life. But some days I have no confidence and no faith, I actually at times think that God left me, even though I know he hasn’t , but confidence is one thing I would love to have its a painful struggle.

It was good to read Eva’s intro about how God allows difficult people or situations to happen to move you where he wants you to be. This is such a great spiritual truth! I quickly think if I am in a difficult situation or am around difficult people that i’ve done something wrong and that God is punishing or that he must not be pleased with me. I internalize things and it warps my view of our loving Father who really does everything for our good. This is great! I hope to read Eva’s story. Thanks!

Oh my! I so get this story. Though my husband did not die, we traveled a very long journey back from the brink of death as he suffered from severe Traumatic Brain Injury. Your story immediately has me thinking about how the Lord changed me through it all. I was a very hesitant, obedient follower. For the first time ever, I had no one to depend on but me…and God to navigate the unchartered territory we faced.

My husband was the one who had to stand up for me when I was suddenly paralyzed from a stroke years ago. With God’s strength my husband was able to care for me and ask the tough questions. Because of this strength and courage God gave my husband to question the doctors caring for me, I am fully recovered today. I thank God everyday for His care in our lives, and I thank God everyday for my husband’s love and care.

I have walked through the darkness and come out stronger and with a much stronger faith. It has taken a long period of time to be able to say those words, but I know God was and still is with me, even in my darkest days. I would like to read about how someone else walked through her own darkness and what God revealed to during that time.

Lost my dad a year ago to cancer, and my best friend a couple months ago to cancer. My daughter is struggling in her marriage, and my husband is a non-believer. I sometimes feel a little ‘overwhelmed’ with everything, but I know God is good and has great plans. I recently got and read Don’s book, and would now LOVE to read his wife’s book! Thanks for blessing us with all of your encouraging thoughts.

Taking my Grandpuppy to the local dog park. God gave me the confidence to ask people I just met about their walk with Him, not just make “small talk”. My husband and I are now leading a young college age couple in a Bible study in our home. Needless to say, I offer to puppy sit often – more trips to the dog park.

I saw her and her husband on a TV interview not too long ago while I was getting ready for work. I only heard bits and pieces of the interview, but I did realize how hard it must have been for her. I would love to hear all she has to say about her experience. God’s blessings on both of them.

I was shocked to receive this in my email this morning. This is the second time this week someone has told me to read this book. I truly feel God is trying to get a message to me. Thank you for your blog. Thank you for sharing God’s truth. I appreciate all the work you put in to get to my family the message that God loves me. I wish you all many blessings.

I am making my way through the darkness after 12 painful years of abuse, abandonment, divorce, loneliness, fear, isolation, and many other things. Were it not for the grace of God, saving my soul in this terrible time and walking with me, whether I realized it or not, I would not have made it. It is still lonely and difficult even after this many years but I am learning so much more about God than I ever knew, and thank Him for bringing good out of what the enemy meant for evil. I would love a copy of Eva’s book to help continue to inspire me along the way!

I thought my husband and I were now to the age where we gave thought to retirement not parenting again. Well, our son and his wife got into a lot of trouble with the law and their three boys were taken by Child & Family Services and placed in our care. Because the children are in our care we are not allowed to be in contact with their parents. This leaves us in the dark as to what is happening and also unable to counsel or be a support for them. Essentially we feel like we are walking in the dark.
I would love to read Eva’s book, for in reading about other brothers & sisters walk we feel like we are not so alone.
Thank you

I would love a copy of her book, and I find this very interesting…i just purchased her husbands book, 90 minutes in heaven!!! I work in a nursing home and see death and hurting familes all the time, this is inspiring to share too others for comfort, confindence in there hearts of how awesome our God is, here on earth and when we all reach heaven!!!

Thank you Eva and Don for sharing God’s experiences to uplift and encourage the body of Christ..
Blessings to you and your family…

I have just lost my mother after caring for her for 24hours a day for over six months, many weeks staying in the hospital with her as she went through test after test. As I walked through that darkness, I gained the strength that only God can give, while dealing with so much more than I ever could have on my own. Thankfully, she is sitting at the feet of Jesus. I have read Don Piper’s book, and another wonderful one, Heaven is for Real, and I would appreciate the chance to read his wife’s book of the experience.

I would love to win this book because right now I am going through a time that I need to learn more dependence on the Lord. I ‘m not working due to an injury I received at work and now I have to go to hearings that are nerve-wracking. Everyday I need God’shelp. This book would be such an encouragement.

Thank you Eva and Renee for sharing this story with us! I’ve read Don’s book and it was very inspiring. It’s so wonderful to see how God takes our darkest moments and uses them for His glory! He promises to bring good out of EVERYTHING for those who love Him. I’ve been through some dark times in my life and He’s always been there for me. Not only does He bring me safely through, He allows me to share with others what He has done. I hope to win this book so I can read it and pass it on. I often use books as a ministry tool and would love to have this one to use in that way. Blessings to you, Eva, Renee and to all of you ladies! Love you to all.

I struggle with confidence daily but thru many struggles and situations I’m learning, with God’s help, to stand on my own and believe in myself more. Thru each experience God shows me something new! I loved reading “90 Minutes in Heaven” and feel reading the other side of this beautiful story would be inspirational. I’ve always taught my children there are two sides to every story and we must try to see the entire picture instead of just our side! 🙂

I was painfully shy as a child. In fact, I was named “Most Bashful” of my graduating class. However, God has led me through places and experiences that have forced me to place my trust and confidence in Him. I’m so grateful that He didn’t leave me in the dark prison of shyness.

Wow! I am looking forward to reading this book. Sounds like an amazing story of God’s strength shining through human weakness. He truly does make everything beautiful, turning mourning into dancing and works all things together for our good. Thank you for sharing.

I am experiencing a struggle in my life dealing with as some Medical Expenses as a result of a medical procedure I require to be done every five weeks. I know God is greater than any situation that comes into my life so I am asking Him to help me to know what all of the right questions so this situation can be resolved. I know it is just money but my husband and I have always paid our medical bills and want to get this situation straightened out. There are two different insurance companies involved and then the company that provides the services. Help me to know what to ask, what to do and how to do this as a woman and Child of God. You have always been there for me Lord. Lead, guide and protect me as I try to work through this maze of dates of services, amounts charged, amounts paid and what our responsibilities are remaining after this is all figured. Help me to be honest, polite and ask the correct questions. May the people I have to deal with be understanding and helpful so we can get this matter settled and not have a bad credit issue remaining. Thank you Lord for all that you do. I know nothing ever takes you by surprise and am depending on you and all of the promises in your word to “Never Leave me nor forsake me.” and I also to believe that “I can do all things through you and your strength.” I know that I am trying to allow God to guide me and feel His presence through all of this. Thank you Lord for always being my shied of protection in all situations. Mary

WHEN MY SON WAS 12 YEARS OLD, I HAD TO PLACE HIM IN THE ADOLECENT PSYCHATRIC UNIT OF A BIG CITY HOSPITAL. I HAD NEVER DRIVEN IN A BIG CITY BEFORE’ AND THE RONALD MCDONALD HOUSE I STAYED IN WAS ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE BIG CITY. FOR THE NEXT THREE MONTHS I MADE THE TRIP BACK AND FO RTH TWICE A DAY.IF I HADN’T HAD TO DO THIS I NEVER WOULD HAVE HAD THE CONFIDENCE TO DO IT. GOD KEPT ME SAFE THROUGH IT ALL.

I had just received my certification in biblical counseling. The counselor at my church and I had a plan. A plan to work together, build my confidence and for me to sit in on more sessions to get my hours. But we know sometimes our plan is not Gods plan. My counselor, mentor and friend was just diagnosed with a fatal (we thought) illness. She couldn’t work anymore. I was on my own. That day embarked my journey of trusting the Holy Spirit within me to have the confidence to be on my own.

We all go through a “dark time” in our life but it’s only with God that we can make it through it victoriously. God puts us all in a situation where we have to step up and take that step of confidence instead of being complacent. I too had a recent experience in my dark place when God put me in that place where I had to step up in faith and take that step in confidence do what needed to be done. Eva’s book sounds like it will be a best seller and I can’t wait to read it and pass it along to others.

I always imagined our retirement as my husband and I travelling, enjoying the grand-children, volunteering and taking care of each other. My husband has Alzheimer’s. I retired earlier than I imagined and am learning to be a care taker. I am now making all the decisions and solving all the problems. His children are busy taking care of their ailing in-laws. My siblings are busy taking care of ailing parents and each other.
I have had to step up and I have to step up with confidence. Then I want to help others to the same because this situation is become more common.

Hi, I would like to share a time in my life where I experienced confidence beyond my natural self. My daughter was pregnant with her second child and had moved away from our home town and now lived about an hour’s drive away by Motorway.. I had a fear of motorway driving , even though I had driven a car for over 30 years, and I had always avoided motorways. To see my daughter and give support I had to face this fear and find the confidence to do it.. The first time I drove the motorway on my own I was a shaking leaf of a woman when i arrived at her house .. but I had done it ! I gave thanks that I had taken a confident step forward and then each time I travelled there it became better and my confidence increased.. This was all the more important as my daughter ended up having a ceasarian section birth and this meant she could not lift or drive for almost 6 weeks afterwards and I was going up and down the Motorway even more and acting as driver for her too.. I have not looked back since AND my daughter and family moved again a year later and now live 250 miles away , a journey of 4 1/2 hours ..God is Good and I can do all things in the strength He gives to me.. even motorway driving…..

I love her husband’s book, “90 Minutes in Heaven.” I can only imagine what she went through during that experience. It sounds like she found herself and her place in the Lord’s will, as well. Sometimes in life, it seems that we have to go that dark place just to start all over again!

Several years ago a friend was unable to drive and wanted to go to a larger town and asked me to drive. I was petrified and she didn’t know until afterwards. Yes, we made it there and back just fine but my heart was racing until we neared home. I live in a rural area and still do not like to drive in large cities but do on occasion.

I would like to win a copy of Eva’s book because I feel like I have been walking through darkness since 2003 when I got diagnosis with Multiple Sclerosis & loss my my mom and sister in 2008. It has been difficult and somewhere along the way I feel like I have lost my confidence and would love to read an inspiring story of Go’d mircles and restoration. Thanks for all you do!

My mother was passive and I always said I would not let people run over me. In my attempt to not repeat history; I learned to be aggressive rather than confident. Although, I got the results I was seeking it was not without cost of hurt relationships. God began to show me that if I would act in with love and kindness I could get the some results without the pain. God was teaching me the difference in Confidence and aggression. When I needed a responses or assistance in a matter I did so without being rude. These changes in my behavior felt good. God helped me build my confidence one situation at a time. With these experience He has shown me how to develop into the person He wants me to be and live the life that is His plan for me. Eva’s book sounds like a source of support as I walk with God and He lead my journey to where He wants me to be in my life. God Bless

Thank you Renee for this post and the video. I would love to read Eva’s book, and her husband’s. I have added them to my book “wish list” I remember when my dad was very ill, the doctor called and told me that they didn’t expect him to last 24 hours. I packed my bags and my husband took me to see him, I prayed and asked God what to do, should I stay with him or go home. My husband and I prayed and talked about it, and I stayed. I was allowed to sleep in the sitting room at the home, which was a blessing, I was able to get up at any time and go and check in on my daddy. I would get up every morning and help the nurses by giving him a partial sponge bath, shave him, sing to him (he was in a coma) and tell him “Ok, daddy you are nice and clean, and ready if you meet Jesus today”. I held on to God like there was no tomorrow….The Lord blessed me with 7 days to be with my daddy. The Saturday before I was to leave, I was struggling because I didn’t want to leave him, I had to get home to my family. I prayed that day for God to take my daddy home, I felt this peace in my heart, I didn’t cry, but I felt joy and praised God for it. Thanked God for the time I had. Sunday morning I did what I had the days before and I heard a gurgle coming from my daddy, I immediately knew, time would be close. I sat and prayed, held his hand, placed his hand to my face, and told him I loved him….later that day, I saw him draw his last breath, and felt his heart beat fade away. The rest of the family was there, and I called for the nurses, kissed “My gentle giant” and said “I’ll see you later” and prepared with the nurses what would come next. They asked me several times if I was ok, I guess because I was so peaceful. I praise God for the strength that He gave me, I often had thought of what it would be like, God was in control, and I was still and called to Him and he answered me. God works miracles in our lives, I thank Him that Eva’s husband survived and that they are together, helping people with their story.

I love a copy of Eva book. I too have a husband who 5 yrs ago got Kidney failure and a child diagnosised with Aspergers within a 4 month perion. I know so well the dark . This many years later and Sometimes I still feel in dark and unsure where the next turn will take me and my family. I have seen God strengthen my faith and trust on him but I still struggle feeling alone in this life and situation. Friends and Family try to encourage me .

When my father was dying from heart failure, it became apparent that someone needed to ask the questions and be the go-between for our family. Somehow God provided me with the questions I needed to ask and the discretion of knowing when to push for more/better care and when to let things go. It seems I often become that person to turn to for family and friends.

I am in the darkest most difficult time in my life. Four weeks ago we got a knock on our door with news that no parent ever wants to hear. Our precious 23 year old son was killed in an auto accident. He was a firefighter and worked for our counties EMS. He was a dedicated community servant and worked tirelessly to help others. He was on his way to work when someone crossed the center line and hit him head on. My son was killed while the other person walked away.
I cant possibly understand why this happened. I cant find any good in this nightmare.Right now all we can do is try to make it thru one day at a time. I miss my son so much and cant imagine not seeing his smiling face again on this earth. I know someday I will see him again in heaven.
In my head I know God is in control and His ways are higher than our ways but my heart feels like a big part of it is gone. How do you make sense out of a tragedy like this?

Lord, I pray for Joyce and her family in this their time of need. Your word says “You heal the broken in heart and bind up their wounds” (Psalm 147:3) and that “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted” Matthew 5:4. I ask you Father to place your loving arms around this family and be their sacred place of security, a safe haven. Give them strength for the time ahead. For we know You will not leave them. In Jesus name I pray Amen

Love to read this and share it. After finally learning to give what I was struggling with to God did I become confident in moving forward. Now I am planning and putting together a community mom’s Bible study.

When my younger son was born, he had multiple medical issues that had to be addressed. I understand how difficult it is to find the courage to make these decisions for someone who can’t do it himself. I read the story of her husband’s miraculous healing. I would love to read her story of how she found the courage to make the decisions he couldn’t .

After struggling for years with my husband’s family (especially his mother) and eventually falling into a dark place, I realized that I had it in me to stand up for myself. I am a person who is worth it, and I don’t need to fall prey to them anymore. I have limited the time I go over there and finally am not forced to go by my husband. I am far from perfect, but know that I don’t have to believe what they say about me as I know in my heart what is true. Thankfully it doesn’t matter what anyone but my heavenly Father thinks of me.

I would love to read more about her story and how she came through it so blessed. I am trying to teach my daughter to trust with her heart that God is ALWAYS there with her and all her decisions will be blessed ones. I always say ” you are where you are supposed to be”. Even through hardships you will have learned lessons and your faith made stronger if you only believe and trust the Lord.

Having 4 kids in a little more than 5 years was a lot to boost my confidence, but the real boost has been homeschooling all 4 with joy and peace only found in Christ alone through much prayer. And God has been faithful every step of the way.

I would also love to read this book. I have walked in the dark at 21 years of age when my husband of 4 1/2 months, suddenly dropped to the floor with a fatal heart attack. My Faithful and Loving Heavenly Father provided another husband for me and we will soon be celebrating 26 years of marriage! We also experienced a very dark year several years back when he was diagnosed with a rare and aggressive form of cancer. The year was long and grievous and reminded me that life is short and can be taken in an instant. I found myself in a battle with fear of losing another husband. God chose to heal him even though he was minutes away from death during his last round of chemo. I am so thankful for the gifts from the Lord. Each day is precious.

I had unexpected confidence when I recently had to see my dad after he developed dementia due to exposure to anesthesia. It was like he was a completely different person overnight. I prayed for strength and was able to keep my composure as we talked, so we were able to have a nice visit.

Where do I start! My baby was born with a kidney problem and when he was 3 months old he had a coma that left him profoundly mentally and physically handicapped and his prognosis was poor. He needed 24/7 care and with 2 older brothers I struggled. We were a close knit family and all pulled together so when our first born took his own life at 21 we were completely broken. In our grief our community and friends were. Constantly praying for us and God answered their prayers and we were carried along just like ‘Footsteps’ the next year our baby died aged 17, yes he lived that long despite doctors prognosis. We were still reeling from our tragedy that we were in a daze for his funeral and again by God’s grace we came through. Over the years our middle son struggled and we tried our very best to show him how precious he was and how much he was loved but sadly while we were on holiday he took his own life, aged 37. We were now in a very dark place and our loving Saviour heard our friends prayers and gently comforted us. Prayer has been our saving grace without this help we could not keep on living. This has been the first time I have penned our story although ever so briefly. My mantra then and now is ‘Love lifted me when no one but Christ could help, love lifted me’

The book 90 minutes in Heaven was a blessing to me. I read it at a time I was just coming to know the Lord. I often think of Mr. Piper’s descriptions and how God is Praised always in Heaven. Learning Spripture and Renee’s teaching on how to live confidently in Christ has helped me to be more confident. Thank you!

I recall a dark time in my life. I was working for a local bank, thinking it was job security. Everyone needs a safe place for their life savings, a place where they could come to buy that new home or car. I found out as I was turning 40 and my oldest daughter getting ready to start her freshman year at college, our bank was merging with another and I would be let go. My husband had been struggling with depression and under the care of a psychiatrist. I was feeling sorry for myself, why me. My niece had called to ask if I would come help her wallpaper her kitchen. My husband was watching TV in our bedroom. I went to tell him I would be gone for a couple hour, to rest until I returned. He asked me not to go. I asked him why? He said, “I don’t know, I just don’t want you to go.” I explained I would return in a couple hours, he would be fine till I returned. A couple hours later I received a call from my daughter, crying and telling me her Dad was sick and needed me to come home immediately. I immediately left and flew up the road with no regard for the speed limit. As I pulled into my drive I was met with police, rescue squad and people holding me back. I thought my husband was dead. I was told he attempted suicide but was alive and being transferred by ambulance to the hospital. My husband had always been the strong one. Now, I had to be strong for both my daughters and my husband. I felt inadequate. I felt guilt for feeling sorry for myself. So what – I lost a job, it could be replaced. The wallpaper could have been done another day. Why did I leave? Why was I so selfish? I then decided I had to be the one in charge and make the necessary decisions for my family, get the care my beloved husband needed. I prayed God would come into my heart and soul to lift me up and guide me. He did just that. With my faith in God I was able find that strength. We just celebrated our 40th wedding anniversary. We have two married daughters, 2 granddaughters and a new grandchild on the way. My husband survived and is well. I am so blessed. I’m a much stronger woman since that time.

Isn’t it wonderful to realize that God doesn’t leave us – we tend to be the one to leave. He can make us strong as long as we let Him be the one to carry us through our stroms. If only we could remember that.
GREAT to hear from you Renee!!

I would love to read this book. I have always been shy. But when my mom got diagnosed with ALS,
I was the one caring for her. I did things and talked to people that I would never do before. My dad, brothers or sister gotten handle it at all. And they were always more out going.

I can’t pinpoint a time where my confidence has stepped up to meet my situation, but I know it has happened. I feel like Eva’s story is my own in some ways, even though I’ve never been thru anything as extreme as what she has, and I would love to read more about it.

I would like to receive a copy of her book b/c it will inspire me and help me in my journey with the ministry for women who have been abused I recently started. In my life right now I feel I am stumbling around in the dark.

It seems like my life has been a walk in the dark for quite some time now. After losing my 59-year old mother to cancer, finding out my husband of 28 years had been having an affair, him not being willing to work through it and so my marriage ended in divorce, fell in love again only to have the engagement to my fiance come to an end. At 50 years old, life just isn’t what I had expected it to be. While I believe deep in my heart that God is and has been with me through all of this, I could use the extra encouragement and enlightenment of how to truly lean on God in my dark times and to have my faith strengthened.

This would definitely be a great book for me to read! Confidence has never been my strong character. My mom has late stage Alzheimer disease and I have been her voice for the last 3.5 years and it is not easy. I just keep on trying – I can’t give in!
God bless you!

I have often written or commented referring to my grandson Andrew. He was born on February 6,2008 with an extremely rare genetic disorder. We were told he would not live 3 days. As Andrew fought to survive, God filled my heart through faith with the confidence that we would bring Andrew home. God gave me the strength to advocate for his care. My daughter and I never left him alone and reminded those doctors that their name was not God! 103 days later, we walked Andrew out into the bright sunshine! 5 years have passed and Andrew reminds us with each and every breath of God’s great love!

I’m walking through an uncertain and scary situation right now. Eva’s thought about God using difficult situations and people to move us to where He wants us to be is really helpful. I’d like to hear more of her thoughts. Thank you, Laura

Oh my goodness – I had no idea Don’s wife Eva was writing a book. I can’t wait to read it. Don’s book “90 Minutes in Heaven” so changed many of my views about Heaven. When I am talking to someone about Heaven, I always recommend his book.
Thanks Renee for putting Eva ‘front and center’ for all of us.
So thankful for your book, “A Confident Heart” too. I went through the study online with a friend, and now we are using your book for our bible study at church. 🙂
May He continue to richly bless you!

I lost my husband to cancer over 5 years ago and I still struggle with issues of confidence and insecurity. Learning to do things on my own and trusting God to carry me through is a constant battle. I have done Renee’s study A Confident Heart and am doing Beth Moore’s study So Long, Insecurity right now. I read 90 days in Heaven when my husband was sick and would love to read Eva’s side of the story. It is always encouraging to hear how someone else can come through a dark and difficult time in their life.

Each day I struggle with who I am as a mom friend daughter and person in Christ. Let alone the struggles I face as a single mother with Parkinson’s Disease oh and I almost forgot, quickly approaching my 40th birthday ; feeling depressed and like a failure lately. I know God is ever present too but so consumed by my surroundings

God’s Holy Spirit is slowly securing my confidence. As of two days ago, driving in to work, I was very depressed and for the first time I did not care whether I would live or not. I actually thought why not just keep driving and die in an accident? You see, my depression stemmed from work, my fear of failure and false accusations made against me during a performance review. In baby steps and baby bites of His word, I am receiving I am not alone in my battles, that fear is not of God and Gods angel armies are on my every side (thank you ChrisTomlin). In my weakness, I am being made strong. I may not feel strong but God says I am in Him. Thank you Renee for sharing your heart and Eva for sharing your journey. Lovingly, Marti

When my fiancé suddenly died 8.5 years ago of a heart attack, I turned away from God. But he did not turn from me and he gave me the confidence to start my life over hundreds of miles from Michigan. I did not realize at the time that this was going on. But in doing so I met a new man, asked him if he would go with me to a church that I had been hearing about and had my heart broken open and I follow God so fervently now that it has changed my life totally. Oh, by the way, Bill and I also got married!

My husband has been having many medical issues and sometimes I feel like I am in a new time in my life. I would love to read this book and get some wisdom on how to prepare better for the control that doctors and nurses have over my husband’s life at times and the strength I need from God. I read Don’s book and seriously never considered what his wife went through……

My life has been full of trials. I was physically, emotionally and sexually abused as a child. At 12 I worked with the CPS department to prosecute my father and he went to jail. From that I spiraled into alcoholism and drug abuse and teenage pregnancy. I eventually went to AA and church and found my way back to God. I met what I thought was a wonderful man and we married. 8 years later he was in the throws of alcoholism and drug abuse. We seperated and he ended up burning down my house, committing suicide and the fire dept found a womans body in my daughters bed. I have since married my childhood sweetheart and that has been none to easy. Through it all God was my constant companion. Though I continued to struggle with my own demons I raised many children even though I only gave birth to two. At this point in my life I am enjoying many grandbabies and many of them are not blood related. I feel that God has truly blessed me with my life and my sanity. I would love to have this book to add to my strength and allow god to use another vessel to speak to me as I still struggle. Thank you and God bless!

My husband of 17 years abandoned me and my five children and Imwas going through a terrible and lonely divorce and was leaving the church that I had attended with my children for over five years because of the lack of understanding and support from my pastor and had to start all over at a new church, and rear five children by myself. The Lord took care of us for over 3 years at my new church, I was able to continue to homeschool and the Lord brought me a wonderful godly husband who is a pastor.

I’m so glad that we are coming to the realization that God doesn’t necessarily remove all obstacles and trials, but He does sanctify them, He does turn them into something good, He does use them to grow us. Love what I’ve read so far…..looking forward to reading the whole story!

I read Don Pipers “90 Minutes in Heaven” and couldn’t put the book down. I always wondered about what his wife went through. My favorite books are bio’s of real people! I know I would love to read this book as well….that’s why I should win one! And……I would tell all of my friends that it would be a MUST read. I love to sing about Heaven….and someday that will be my eternity!

Thank you for sharing this part of Eva’s story. I have been able to “rise to the occasion” many times because of Jesus. I still could use much confidence as I am somewhat fearful of being able to deal with things that might come. I don’t dwell on it, but when I read of things that people go through i sometimes bristle. What if that was me? I can say, “God will see me through,” and believe it, but I question my ability if something should really happen. I would like to have a copy of your book, Eva. One time, I was awakened out of sleep by my brother calling for me to pick him up as he was walking home from a long distance away and was very tired. I don’t like to drive by myself at night, especially to an unknown location. My bother told me where to go and God and I reached him and brought him home. I was probably nervous, but was able to do it. Praise God! On another occasion, I was awakened to go to stay with a couple children as their mom accompanied our pastor to the hospital. (pastor was in an ambulance). That is a nerve wracking situation in itself – seeing your pastor being taken away in an ambulance, but then, being awakened and having to help care for two children… God is so very good! He does enable us! Praise Him! I have other faith stories, too. I pray I would get less nervous and walk fully in the peace that is ours in Jesus. God bless you!

4Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,a
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever. Psalm 23

My husband had a heart attack 2 1/2 years ago. That triggered depression and marital stuggles. Thankfully, God has never left me, even when I doubt that I can make it another day. I would love to read this book. There are so many areas where my confidence isn’t what it should be or needs to be.

Kim, Thank you for sharing your story and your heart!! Im praying for you.

The LORD is [your] rock, [your] fortress, and [your] savior; [your] God is [your] rock, in whom [you can] find protection. He is [your] shield, the power that saves [you], and [your] place of safety. Psalm 18:2

I read Don’s book several years ago. I was absolutely glued to that book, and it gave me such a renewed hope of heaven! I am so excited to read Eva’s story to understand her view and perspective. I would love to have this book!

We lost our only son, Jordan, on June 9, 2012. Although I don’t feel strong at all, God has been with me every step of the way, and He alone gives me strength to get out of bed each morning and face a new day without my son… I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that my son is in the presence of the Lord because he had a personal relationship with Jesus Christ; therefore, I know that I will see Jordan again someday…either when the Lord returns or He calls me home! Without that, I would have no strength at all!

So often the story behind the story is the most interesting and I believe it is in this case. We often don’t realize what God has put in us until He brings us to it. Thank you Renee for your website and thank you Eva for sharing your story.

My mother was in the hospital a lot during those last days. One morning a housekeeper came in to clean mom’s hospital room and asked if she could sing a song for my mother. Slowly and relevantly she sang,

God is good all the time
He put a song of praise in this heart of mine
God is good all the time
Through the darkest night, His light will shine
God is good, God is good all the time

If you’re walking through the valley
And there are shadows all around
Do not fear, He will guide you
He will keep you safe and sound
‘Cause He’s promised to never leave you
Nor forsake you and His Word is true

I was walking through that valley, and an Angel,in the form of a housekeeper, was sent by God to remind me He promised to never leave me. Praise the Lord!

I so identify! My story is not unusual or ah ha! I have always been the “strong” willed or confident person on the surface when dealing with raising kids and my husband’s illnesses. I never allow others to see the vulnerable side of me that, I think, make me weak. I would like to win Eva’s book and will purchase it if not!

I don’t know if it’s to late to enter & if so that’s ok. I hope to read Eva’s book whether I win it or not. I c.f. would use some confidence in the areas of being a wife and mom. I am ill and I get up each day to care for my young sons but it is hard when some days the pain is so bad I’m not sure I can move. I try with God’s help , I do but I wonder if I am doing enough for my boys or not. I keep them with me pretty much all the time b/c they need time they are loved but it dies take a toll on me. My Marriage is in a valley and I am fighting Satan so he won’t tell me I can’t do whatever takes to keep up and be a good godly wife and I just know my marriage can stay together even if it’s not healed until heaven but some days my confidence that my marriage can stay together wanes. Thanks for “listening”:)

Praying for you, LRF. I can certainly not imagine what it is like to be in your position. I, too, could use some confidence in being a wife and mom. I have, at home, a 16 year old daughter. I know much in my head about Jesus, His word and promises, but so much more needs to get to my heart! I want to fully trust Him and not be so whimpy. 🙂 My husband and I say wimp stands for Woman Infilled with Much Power! 🙂 It is there. That kind of wimp want to be. I pray for you, that you would have that peace of God that passes all understanding, continued strength in your inner man to cling to your Savior, Jesus, Father God, and Holy Spirit. Father God, please help her to keep her eyes, heart and mind fixed on You, and remember Your great and deep love for her. May she also know that underneath her are the everlasting arms. (Deuteronomy 33: 26-27! ) Please give her wisdom as to what is best for her family, along with Your guidance, direction and provision for any help she might need. Thank You for Your unfailing love for this precious woman. May she fully rest in You, Your love, mercy, grace, peace, hope and truth! We also pray for wholeness by the stripes Jesus bore for her. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

My husband came home from doing music for a Kairos week-end in a local men’s medium security prison. Kiaros is like Cursillo (a week-end course in Christianity) but it takes place in the prison. I don’t volunteer for Kairos at the women’s prison because I’ve never been interested in going in the prisons. Never felt comfortable about it and don’t like places I can’t get out of.

Michael is a praise and worship leader. He came home and told me that he and I had been invited to lead worship in that men’s prison for a 12 week leadership training the the Chaplain was doing for his C.O.R.E. group of inmates. My head and my heart immediately changed and I had no doubt that I was to do this. Completely confident! From the first there has been no fear!

Next week is week 12 and I am so sad that I won’t get to be there on Thursday nights. God is working miracles in that prison! Being there is the highlight of our week. Please pray for these men, their Chaplains, and the work God is doing there.

That is great Jeanne! Thank you so much for sharing this. Praise God for what He did in and through your life. God bless you richly! Will definitely pray for these men, their Chaplains and the work God is doing in that prison. Glory!

God’s timing never ceases to amaze me. I’m sitting in a hospital room in the ICU right now. My mom has been in the ICU for 1 week. Today was my first day at the hospital without my brother who is s nurse and asked all the questions. It has been a really tough week got us since we are both very close to our mom. Today was especially difficult and we had some scary moments. I spent most of the day praying for my mom and that I would have the confidence to say or do what ever needed to be said or done. He is sooo good. He gave me the strength when I needed it. We’re still going through a dark time waiting to see if my mom will stay here with us or go to Heaven to be with our Lord. I’m scared, but He is faithful and always with me. I know without a doubt, He is with my mom.

Over the past 2 years my life has been in an upheaval and I needed Christ more than ever – my confidence was waning and I was scared. I started to delve deeper into my relationship with Him and oh what a difference!! slowly I am making my way back – I need to know there are others out there who struggle sometimes and what they do, how they pray, how they feel……

What an incredible story. I have been a nurse for 35 years at the children’s hospital of Alabama. A reminder to always be kind through our actions and our words. Eight years ago I had two heart surgeries, breast cancer and chemo in that year. No one thought I would return to work but through God’s grace and many prayers, I am still working! My husband has been in icu and I have made those same phone calls. What a journey our lives are! Most of all Blessigs Abound!!!!

I love you, Renee. And I don’t think I’ve ever written that to someone quite under these circumstances. 🙂 I’m still finishing your book from our on-line study of “A Confident Heart”. Going at my own pace, where God has me. In Chapter 11 and having a first meeting of a woman’s prayer meeting at my home tonight. Renee, thank you so very much for your support and sharing and transparency and obedience to God. Your words have encouraged me more than my actual friends or church, and I’ve needed that encouragement in God! Thank you for being serious about God and going deeper with Him and for walking in real life with Him and then letting us in on that. We are all the same in this way, needing to grow in knowing and trusting Him, falling, failing and needing Him to get back up. The world coming at us all can be rough and harsh and like a constant pounding of the waves. Also as women, we have a special bond and way of relating that is unique to women, and we need each other. Thank you again, Renee. I’m grateful for God’s using you! I’m grateful for you standing on God’s promises and making them your own, and helping to show us the way to do the same. God bless you and your ministry and family. John 16:3 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” This verse speaks to me a lot because it’s very real, it’s in the first person from Jesus, and has very great promise and encouragement! I hope God lifts you up today, Renee, in the midst of the summer and your life! I’m focused on “working” Chapter 12. I’m grateful to call you Sister.
in Him,
Lisa

I would love to read this book. Like Eva, I found myself beside my husbands bedside three years ago, facing the unexpected. My husband had a popliteal aneurysm behind his kneecap and it ruptured and was throwing blood clots quickly. He was in intensive care for three weeks, and they had to revive him three times. He was hospitalized for almost 4 months flat on his back, with a huge doses of pain meds that kept him knocked out and not able to comprehend what was going on. In those following weeks he had multiple surgeries and finally made a decision with the advice of the surgeon to have his leg amputated. He had developed gangrene and it would threaten his life if a decision wasn’t made.
I have always felt confident and in control of things. But my husband had never been sick in his life and he was fighting a battle that I wasn’t sure he would win. I asked and pushed the doctors to give me answers to everything that was going on and what to expect. On sleepless nights I would research countless hours to find out what the prognosis, treatment and outcome was going to be.
We lived an hour from the hospital and so I spend so many nights in the room with him, praying and begging for a miracle. It didn’t take long for me to lose that confidence that I had in the first few weeks of his illness I became bitter and asked God why this would happen to my husband. He was a wonderful husband, father, grandpa, provider and my best friend. One night while pacing the floors and praying, asking for a miracle and my biggest question WHY !! And in a small whisper I heard God say why not and I accepted that it was no longer in our control. I had to turn it over to God.
Life was good when my husband came home and he was an inspiration to everyone. He had a great testimony and did well with his prosthesis. Then he had complications with his stump and things went downhill from there. He became depressed and felt defeated. He was no longer able to provide for his family and he felt like he was not a whole man. He quit going to church and he would sit in a daze, not talking and trying to sleep his life away. He was in the stronghold of a deep depression and nothing could bring him out of it. No doctor, no medicine or nothing I said or done seemed to bring him back to a somewhat normal life.
Finally I told him I was leaving, I couldn’t handle it anymore. He had become a bitter man and someone that I barely new, he wasn’t the man that I had married. After 26 years of marriage, 4 children and 3 grandsons, I was walking away if he didn’t seek help. He finally broke down and sought a psychologist and started on medication.
I would love to end here and say life is great again. He did return to church and is on the praise and worship team, but depression has a firm grip on him. I don’t know how to cope with it any longer. We have developed a relationship again, but its not like a wife and husband should be. We no longer share our deepest thoughts, our dreams and there is no intimacy between us. He sleeps in one bedroom and I in another. I am walking in the dark now. I want to return to what our life once was or at least one that I feel comfortable in.
I myself am facing some health issues and struggling with some personal things in my life that involves my daughter and grandsons. I know God is walking with me, but I feel lost and empty. I want to feel the presence of God. I know I am not walking alone, but i feel I am on a long journey to get back to where I need to be. I would love to be able to receive a copy of this book. I have read some of the other comments left and I hope God reaches out and touches each and everyone of us.

Wow, after posting and reading this I didn’t realize I had wrote so much. It has made me feel better by sharing with others though. I usuall don’t talk about personal things in m life, but it feels like some weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

Eva’s comment at the end of her post, “sometimes God uses difficult situations to get you were he wants you to be,” hit me right between the eyes and heart. I am currently going through a divorce. I married right out of high school and have been with my husband for 28yrs. This trial has been very difficult. We are currently fighting over finances. I have never been one with much confidence, especially in standing up to my husband. But at my bible study, the topic had come up that there are character traits in us that God wants to work on and the Holy Spirit is with us to do just that. It was then that I felt that God was leading me to stand up for myself and become more confident because I was not alone. So I am proceeding forward and not backing down. As I was walking the dogs last night and praying, I said to God thank you for making me move. I know he wants more for me and has more planned for me.

Eva’s comment about God using difficult situations to get you where he wants you to be rings loudly in my mind, heart, and soul. My two grown children although 4 years apart in age got married just eight months apart about 10 years ago. After 7 and 10 years of marriage both of their spouses called it quits. I know both of them married the first time for life and were devastated when their spouses choose differently. My son has remarried and has a godly wife who treasures him for the godly man that he is. They have an 8th month old precious baby boy who is the one of the lights of our lives. My daughter has 2 precious boys, 5 and 7. I am trusting God to bring a godly man her way so that she can know a wonderful marriage just like my son has come to have if this would be his plan for her. These two difficult situations which break a mother’s heart
has brought me humbly to my God and my knees many times. I would live to have Eva’s new book. Blessings to you.

I would love to win a copy of this book. I am currently experiencing a “Walk through the dark” myself. My mother is currently battling stage IV lymphoma. My grandmother (who lives with her) has end stage dementia and I also have a special needs brother. (I also have a job, husband and 2 kids, one with type 1 diabetes). I have felt so defeated at times, but know, without a doubt that God’s Grace is sufficient! He is going to make something perfect out of this bad situation. Prayers for my family would be appreciated:) I know that whoever wins this book, it is part of God’s plan!

I’m intrigued with this book because of the title. Honestly I have come out of the darkest part of this season, but we are in unknown territory, allowing God to put the pieces of all He allowed in the last 25 years through something and believing we are on our way towards new joys and freedom. In the darkest years (6 God silent years while I rested) I clung to the truth of who I knew God to be. I didn’t see evidence for those 6 long years but He is faithful. There is still much to restore, but He is the One who promises to redeem our messes and restore the years that the locust ate…things that He allowed. My motto right now….”breathe out, be still, the tomb is empty, God is enough”.

A few years back my husband lost his half sister. His step dads only child. She was 20yrs old and was in a horrible car wreck….they lived many years in a horrible dark spot and about 2 yrs ago (approx) my husbands aunt sent his parents the book 90 mins in heaven and told them to read it. That book touched their soul the talked about it for months and about how amazing the book was…they are great Christians but I could tell that the book brought out a confidence into what Liz must have experienced. I know that after that they seemed more at peace….we know she there enjoying a beautiful eternity but since that book was so powerful for them and they still struggle with dark times I would absolutely love to be able to win and give them this book. I know it will always be hard for them (as it is for all of us) but if this book could bring them some comfort and strength for this road their on that would be awesome. 🙂

I believe God gives us struggles to increase our faith in Him. I have been through many struggles just as your readers have. My hardship this time has me relaying on God for the outcome. Relaying on God, or being dependent on Him has me living, speaking and acting differently.It is hard to explain, I’m relaying on God’s promises to see me and my children through this. I feel what this wife experience about her husband is similar to what I’m experiencing and would help to continue my journey.

There have been many instances in my life where God has given me confidence. I recently had to make a decision whether to pursue treatment at an eating disorder facility or with a ministry. I was so unsure about what to do but I prayed and seeked God. He brought me to exactly what I needed and is healing me from so many hurts, habits and ungodly beliefs. He is truly my healer!

My sister has pancreatic cancer. We found out about 2 months ago. We don’t know how long she has but are told months. It’s hard to know what to do or what to say. I look for hourly help from my Heavenly Father. I would love to read this book in my many sleepless hours. Thanks

My daughter of 24 years has been house bound for the past 7 years. We cannot find what’s wrong she’s just weak and lives in pain. She barely can take care of herself other than going to the bathroom. We lose hope a lot and I can only work part time in order to care for her. Would love to read the book and be encouraged by it.

When I found out my mom had terminal cancer, I thought “this can’t be happening!” My mom was my confidant, my go-to person for everything. Even though I was married, I shared everything good/bad with her first – always! After my mom passed, I didn’t know how I would get along without her. I thought many times of picking up the phone to share great moments – pregnancy, job recognition, etc. only to realize she’s no longer available. I did reach the confidence to go on and become stronger in my choices and abilities in all that I do thanks to my husband and my increasing walk with the Lord. While it wasn’t easy, and it definitely took a long time, I did reach a strength I didn’t know I had. I would love to win a copy of Eva’s book. I am sure there are many similarities in our lonely walk toward healing.

I had a fun summer doing stuff with my family and friends: camping, boat rides, cookouts, etc. I am going to begin reading the book soon, and I am following the radio station emails. I hope it helps me! My lack of confidence and people-pleasing, along with an anxiety issue are chipping away at me and bringing me down. I feel like I need all the help and prayers I can get!

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Since I am in my 60’s I have a long list, but will pick one. I was well into counseling for abuse as a child when my husband’s illness suddenly got worse and we had 2 weeks left – so the doctor said. My daughter visited but left before his death because of her own illness. So I had to lean on God because there was no one else. I had to plan the funeral, attend, and deal wih all the costs etc, alone. God brought a ton of friends to the funeral to support me. It seems that God sends me hard times, because otherwise I stop trusting Him 100%. So He sends circumstances that require me to trust, seek, and rely on Him 100%
God Bless All of You!!

I almost never leave a response, however i did some searching and wound up here A Walk Through the Dark
with Eva Piper. And I actually do have a few questions for you if
you tend not to mind. Is it just me or does it seem like a few of the responses come across
like left by brain dead folks? 😛 And, if you are writing at
additional sites, I’d like to follow anything fresh you have to post.

Could you make a list of all of your community sites like your Facebook page,
twitter feed, or linkedin profile?

Greetings from Carolina! I’m bored to tears at work so I decided to browse your blog on my iphone during lunch break.
I enjoy the information you present here and can’t wait to take
a look when I get home. I’m amazed at how quick your blog loaded on my phone ..

I drop a comment when I appreciate a post on a blog or if I have something to add to the conversation. Usually
it’s a result of the sincerness communicated in the post I read.
And after this article A Walk Through the Dark with Eva
Piper | Renee Swope. I was actually moved enough to write a thought 😛 I do have 2
questions for you if you do not mind. Is it simply me or do some of the responses
come across like written by brain dead folks? 😛
And, if you are writing on additional social sites, I’d like to keep up with you.
Would you make a list the complete urls of all your communal
sites like your linkedin profile, Facebook page or twitter feed?