Has bad girl Lindsay Lohan gone good? In revealing interview with Papermagazine, Lindsay admitted that much of her past bad behavior was a reaction to her personal struggles — and says she’s clean and sober by choice.

“I had a lot going on in my life and that was a way of hiding from it," said Lohan, who is currently working on the new film Dare to Love Me. I hadn’t seen my dad; I had a lot of work stress ’cause I was constantly working and never took time to stop. Everything was go-go-go, and the easiest thing was to run away from it, going out and drinking at night. You know, you don’t have to think when you let go sometimes."

Her 2007 stint in rehab forced Lohan to take time out to reassess. "There’s not really much else to do when you’re sitting in a treatment center. It’s like, ‘Why am I here? Let’s think.’"

Lohan reiterates that she is sober now, saying that “I never feel like I have to do anything. I wouldn’t be if I didn’t want to be,” but adds that, “[sobriety] suits me.”

Lindsay says she’d love to remake the 1964 Ann Margaret classic Kitten With a Whip and has spoken with producers about the project. "I think it should happen," she says hopefully. "All within time. I have patience."