Because of health issues from L's delivery- I lost a lot of weight and was pretty much sick from all the surgeries. L will be 4 in Feb. The last three months, I focused really hard on gaining 20 pounds and I made it. Now my size 25/32 skinny jeans don't zip (thanks butt) and tops are tight (thanks boobs- you are guys are still really small- but I'll take 'em). YAY me!

I truly believe that a big aspect of enjoying life and trying to reduce suicidal ideation, is to appreciate nature. I have a dog and cat- both rescued. I love them dearly and I swear, there are days when just taking care of them is what it takes to keep me alive. In the summer, I grow a garden and am amazed by the life that I create in the form of fruits and vegetables. My kids and I eat from the garden. We breathe in fresh air. We talk about the birds and the squirrels. We laugh as we absorb the sun's rays. We are a necessary part of this beautiful scene. Without us.... the world is missing the laughter of two smalls boys and their mom.