Thursday, January 24, 2008

I Hate This

I'm L.A.T.E.

So, either I am or I'm not. Today is 17dpo (I think) and I've taking 3 Equate brand tests, and the first 2 were definite BFNs (not that that surprises me at all), but the third which I took this morning I thought had an ever so faint line. So, I ripped the stupid test apart, like I've done so many times in the past to "try" to get a better look at it. I held it in many different brightnesses of lights, and to no avail I have come to the understanding that I pretty sure the test is yet another BFN. Doesn't really surprise me though. However, I believe I've tricked myself into thinking I'm having and/or having pregnancy type symptoms. Just as I've done in the past with infertility. YIKES!!! This trait of mine is so stinkin' repetitive. I'd rather not obsess over TTC, but I am and I do. So, another test in the morning, and if still a BFN a warranted call to the GYN. ARGH!!!

So, enlight of TTC, and me thinking I know what did the trick in the miraculous conception of *B*, our plan is to put TTC on hiatus until mid-March or early April. The new game plan is to drop the leftover baby weight from having *B*, and get down to or even under my pre-pregnancy weight with him. Hopefully, doing this will jump start my reproductive track again, and then we will still have 4ish months before *B* is a year old that I will "supposedly" have a higher chance at conception during. So, I see my family Dr. Friday, and my plan is to get on all the right (same) meds as I was on pre-*B*, and hope that that gives me energy and helps in my weight-loss. Plus, eat healthy, cut back on refined sugars and regular sugars, and TRY (yes I MUST) TRY to excercise more. Wish me luck in the weight-loss dept.

About Me

I'm 20-something wife & mother. I married the love of my life in May 2002. We parented his teenage sister from 2003-2006, when she decided to leave our nest to spread her wings and fly. At that same time our journey into parenting our own child after infertility was just beginning with the start of my pregnancy. We were then blessed with our son born July 1, 2007. However, our family just didn't feel complete until we were then blessed again after battling infertility again with the birth of our daughter born July 26, 2011. From here on out our lives will never again be our own.