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Speeding Through Life.

Due to my shortage of homework this evening, I have more time to write freely rather than posting pictures up and a sentence, which I haven't for a while. Where have I been? In school really. I'm starting to sleep later once again just so I can get everything done. Last night I went to bed at 3 in the morning and woke up at 6 this morning and am still standing strong. I think, haha (I mean I did fall asleep in my ninth period class...) I almost had a mental breakdown yesterday. With all that I do, all of it running in the same time, it becomes overwhelming. I have yet to talk to my theater director. My schedule is, Mondays and Wednesdays I have Cheer leading practice, which is crucial now because our school's pep rally is in less than a month on May 3rd. Mondays through Fridays I have musical practice. The show is on May 9th and 10th. Also I have to attend fashion show rehearsal where I am modeling and singing at, happening on May 17th. Lastly, I'm working on my campaign for running for school secretary. And that is going to take TIME. I need to get started NOW actually. The elections are May 23rd and 24th. Its crazy really. I have every single Friday booked for May but with all the practice going on currently at the same time, its really jumbled.

I didn't come to musical practice yesterday, and I heard I was almost kicked out. It sucks how I cant get a period away from the madness. I have no lunch period or a free period. Well, if you count in 1st period at 7:30, lol. I have no free time and it truly sucks that I cant be at 3 places at once. The musical requires my attendance or "I'm not putting it as a priority" which will lead to my probation, which I think I am already on. If I don't go to cheer leading, I cannot do pep rally. With absence from pretty much anything, and coming home late and doing homework late as well, waking up early - it all comes with consequences. I will ask to miss a day a week from Musical and try to explain everything I am doing to the director. Lesson learned though, I will not be able to do musical next year and overbook myself as much. There is too much on my plate. The thing about me, is that I LIKE being overbooked and involved! Im glad that I am so into my school. I see the people I used to hang out with everyday, cutting class, smoking weed. And Im glad that I have put myself in an environment that pushes for my success rather than my failure. We all learn this one day. Education is so important. I guess I need to learn my priorities in life.

I am going to pray about it. Prayer helps and mends this stress and worry.

WHAT I LOOK FORWARD TO IS THE FIRST DAY OF JUNE WHERE I WILL HAVE NO ENGAGEMENTS, NO SHOWS, NO PEP RALLYS, NO ELECTIONS, SO FORTH.
I know it will all be over soon. Two more months still the start of June. Can't wait!

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THE WONDERFUL ADVENTURES AND FASHIONS OF A MINOR

Inspire me with your Fashion.

Plague me with your Intellect.

Prep me in the state of your Minor.

The girl that fed her ego and starved her soul.

My Thoughts.

The dated, detailed doings ofAnnie.

I am a creator. An artist. A realist. An optimist. A student. A daughter. An imaginer. A lover. I simply am. Biggest dream? To attend FIDM, major in design, work and study fashion as well as interior design in New York and California and make something of my life despite of where I came from. But for now, here is where I share little bits of my life, my interests, and my mission to accomplish my dreams. This blog are moments captured in time. Laughing, crying, walking, talking. Turning "ing" to "ed". Moments seized in time. Moments to look back on. To remember. Caught within the palm of my hands, held in my camera.

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"You write so beautifully. The inside of your mind must be a terrible place."

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"She does mostly street-wear brands, but I feel her beauty is much more than that. "

"I am a senti(mental) - instru(mental). I am so to the point that. I find pleasure in mixing music with company. My desire is to soak you in song. I take bits of you, and sow it within the confines of something as multitudinous, as a song. The scent of you will stick to me; like that of alcohol, to skin. Or, cigarettes, to fingertips. Or, paint fumes to a renovated room. I want the weight of having thought of you too deeply. "

"If you don’t think you are very smart or funny or good looking or whatever then maybe just try to focus on the things that are great about you… like maybe you are good at remembering birthdays or important days, or you are gentle and kind with animals, or you are good at being patient with children or you have mastered the art of roasting marshmallows to perfection…. you don’t have to be Einstein or a top model to celebrate yourself"

"If the boy who draws

let’s you look over his shoulder. If the poet smiles and shows you her words. If the girl who sings for the shower only, hums a song in front of you. Know that you’re no longer a person but the air and dust that fills their lungs. When the world perishes, and all things cease to exist, you’ll remain inside an ink stain, a paint brush, a song."

"I didn't have the confidence I have now during my teenage years. I had all of these wild ideas that I spent a lot of time trying to convey and convince myself of. But over time you evolve and become really, really comfortable with who you are."

"I was homophobic. So God gave me three gay kids and told me to grow the hell up."

"Airports see more sincere kisses than wedding halls. The walls of hospitals have heard more prayers than the walls of churches."

Wabi-sabi (侘寂?) represents a comprehensive Japanese world view or aesthetic centered on the acceptance of transience and imperfection. The aesthetic is sometimes described as one of beauty that is "imperfect, impermanent, and incomplete".It is a concept derived from the Buddhist teaching of the three marks of existence (三法印 sanbōin?), specifically impermanence (無常 mujō?), the other two being suffering (苦 ku?) and emptiness or absence of self-nature (空 kū?).

"I always find beauty in things that are odd and imperfect - they are much more interesting."

"I really do believe that art changes the landscape of the world."

“I like people who have a sense of individuality. I love expression and anything awkward and imperfect, because that’s natural and that’s real.”

"هذا يجب تمرير للغاية."

"Your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul. "

"I prefer inspirational poems that teach you to live a better life over love poems. I have never liked poems or quotes that were based upon one pouting over the other person that deprived of they’re love or someone pouring out ones love for the other person. -life’s too short for that."

"I opened my rib cage and you didn’t catch a single butterfly that flew out."

" فإنه يحصل على نحو أفضل"

"i crave passion and intensity"

" Have you ever felt a potential love for someone? Like, you don’t actually love them and you know you don’t, but you know you could. You realize that you could easily fall in love with them. It’s almost like the bud of a flower, ready to blossom but it’s just not quite there yet. And you like them a lot, you really do. You think about them often, but you don’t love them. You could, though. You know you could. "

"He's got a soul as sweet as blood red jam

And he shows me, he knows me

Every inch of my tar black soul"

"I am learning every day to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me."

"The best kiss is the one that has been exchanged a thousand times between the eyes before it reaches the lips." "It’s okay to lose yourself for a little while. In books, in music, in art. Let yourself get lost."

"You deserve flowers on your doorstep and coffee in the morning. You deserve notes left on your dashboard and ice cream sundaes at 3 am. You deserve honesty every day and to be kissed every hour. You deserve to be reminded how beautiful you are"

"When I say be creative, I don’t mean that you should all go and become great painters and great poets. I simply mean let your life be a painting, let your life be a poem."

"Who sees the human face correctly: the photographer, the mirror, or the painter?"

"The sexiest thing in the entire world is being really smart; and being thoughtful and being generous. Everything else is crap. I promise you. It’s just crap that people try to sell to you to make you feel less. So don’t buy it."

"You can’t find true happiness if you live your life trying to please other people."

"Success is the best revenge"

"You're looking at yourself in the mirror and you don't realize what you look like because you're just a baby so you smile and wave at the baby smiling and waving back at you. You glance away for a second, look back but then you are already eight, staring at your ripped jeans and scraped knees but it's worth it because you because you proved to the boys you're not a sissy after you threw out your bubble gum lip gloss, pink bows, and told them you hated pink. And then you're fourteen and you're in the mirror putting on eyeliner because suddenly you are into makeup and the boys like those girls now, and you're saying, you're shouting "YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING MOM!" But she really did because now you're looking in the mirror on your wedding day but you're only half smiling because you wonder if you might not have had to go through with this if it wasn't for the kicking in your stomach. Before you know it, you're looking in the mirror again but you're wrinkled and tired-looking and the world is no longer at your feet yet you have nothing to show for yourself besides a daughter and next time you look you're looking in the mirror and you don't even know what you look like, you can't even recognize yourself so you look away.Yet you still know you can't avoid mirrors in a society as vain as ours."

"As you think, you travel, and as you love, you attract. You are today where your thoughts have brought you; you will be tomorrow where your thoughts take you."

"what do you mean you can't hang out i showered for this i shaved for this i put a bra on for you. i got off tumblr for you i am wearing real pants I went outside i got out of bed i woke up"