i'm new and sad

I am new to this forum and have been suicidal for years but I can't work up the courage to do it. I cut myself a lot and have a suicide plan and a date to do it on but I will probably chicken out again. I decided to join this forum as I just wanted somewhere I could go and talk when i'm feeling low so I hope it can be that for me

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Hi... sending you a very warm :welcome: to SF. :shake: I'm Kate and i'm a forum buddy, and like to welcome new members to SF, and offer my hand of friendship if they want to PM me anytime... I don't go into the chatroom anymore but am around most days on the forum and have skype if you want to ever send me a message that way.
:handinhand: I would love to be of support to you, having had mental health difficulties since I was in my mid twenties (I am now 39), and I have worked within Mental health services since 2004, and have supported people with mental health difficulties in the community so hopefully I may be able to offer you support and advice if you want to reach out to me..... please don't be afraid to.... I won't bite (had a couple of hiccups in chat... due to being blind drunk... and in much distress, but thats behind me now), I really care about other people, and want to help as much as I can... and I am coming out of the other side now from a really bad relapse (not the first time) and a failed suicide attempt in August so I have been there, I know the triggers, but there is a way back but it takes determination, self belief and a lot of support from others to do it in my experience.
I really do hope to hear from you soon, :arms: and I hope SF helps you as much as it has helped me.
Love and hugs Kate :hug: :cheekkiss:

Hey thanks for the warm greetings guys I probably shouldn't have said so much about myself in my post considering I have never told anyone I know anything like that but I suppose if you can't say it here where can you?

This is an excellent place to get support and develop a few friendships. Feel free when you see me to say hi if you'd like. I have the ability to let a person vent and still be quiet ... most of the time.:sf: