Archives for: May 2004, 20

Well, I hope the dating drama is over here - I blocked psycho boy's email, closed him out on eharmony, and am logging into Yahoo messenger as invisible. He doesn't know my phone number or my last name, so theoretically, I should be safe from ever hearing from him again.

I went to Linens 'N' Things this morning to try to find curtains for my apartment. Found some nice, heavy, light-blocking velvet ones that I thought would be good, but none of the colors matched my bedspread, so I went home curtainless and will go back tomorrow with my bedspread. I can't say I ever thought I'd want the *look* of velvet curtains, but they do look nice, and it seems they'll block the light better than about anything else. Went home and hung a blanket over the blinds, and wondered why I didn't do that months ago. It must have helped, because I slept for 10 hours straight today.

I don't think it was enough, though. When I woke up I didn't feel too great, and I still don't. I seem to be fighting some kind of crud, and I'm not happy about it. But considering my little accident a couple weeks ago, the constant changing of my schedule, the stress of dealing with psycho boy (short-lived though that was), and not always eating perfectly according to the BTD, I think I've been due to come down with something.

Mike stopped by tonight to exchange video tapes with me, and we chatted for a few minutes. He knows nothing about the events with psycho boy, and neither does Anne. I'm not avoiding telling either of them, but hadn't seen them in a couple of days, and Mike was too wired to be calm about it had I told him tonight. My computer was on, though, and he did see that I was on the eharmony home page, though he didn't comment on it. It will be interesting to see what happens with our friendship once I do get involved with someone, and I hope he is man enough to be able to handle it.

As for Memorial Day weekend, I've voiced my opinions about going someplace with Mike for the weekend, told him that IF we go anywhere it will be platonically. He says he's fine with that, but he's so indecisive about things that he's made no reservations, plans etc. At this point I doubt it will happen at all. I'm to the point that I'm completely comfortable with going away with him just as friends, so we'll see how things turn out. And I may just go down to San Diego to visit my uncle or my dear friend Brian.

This morning before I went to sleep I ate some turkey soup (it's almost gone now, and has lasted me several days - starting to get sick of it, though!). Tonight I ate two scrambled eggs with herbs from provence, and somehow I managed to get them beautifully fluffy. I impressed myself. I often do that when I prepare Anne's eggs, but somehow when I make them for myself, they don't come out the same. I can't explain it! But they were perfect this time, and I made some spelt toast with almond butter and the fruit conserve that I got last year in Hot Springs, Arkansas (homemade, no avoids, totally yummy!). Brought more turkey soup for lunch tonight, and cherries for snacks, as well as some chocolate chips and pecans.