by Rae Hilhorst

Virus Menopause Skin Cancer

Talk about a doubly whammy, well a triple one really, A virus, Menopause and Skin Cancer on the nose.

After great denials that Menopause was ever going to affect me, because it just wasn’t going to happen to me was it. I think menopause has had the audacity to creep into my inner sanctum and rear its ugly head.

No, that’s not me.

After having been sick for 5 weeks with a virus that had me delirious, coughing, feverish and generally feeling rubbish, sapped of energy, then to top it off, looking in the mirror, what a sorry sight, I have aged every day, probably from being sick and I am sure enhanced due to my beautiful children abandoning me, leaving home to create lives, stories and journey’s off their own. I promise to get over it one day in the not too distant future. For those that have forgotten and really how could you, please read about it hereand here. True story though, I do look terrible, a bit of a train wreck.

Then there’s more:

Throughout that 5-week and now going on for the 6th week episode of sickness and feeling frustrated and a bit brassed off, not really just deal with it Rae, I find myself to be waking up every hour with slightly sweaty tingly flushes, some a bit more intense than others.

Must be the virus right? I don’t think that anymore, however I am holding out that this may be the case, is this the beginning of the end, did the virus bring the flushes on or is it my time. Brittany reckons, I am too young, bless her. ‘Go to the doctors mum’. That’s all very well if you didn’t have to wait two weeks for an appointment. They must love me at the surgery as every time I call the clinic they tell me I can’t get in for two weeks, I say ‘well if I don’t turn up you can presume I’m dead!’

Smart mouth I know but I just can’t help myself, this is the state of our doctor shortage here in Western Australia, probably right throughout the whole of Australia, the country people have it even worse. If you can get an immediate appointment you can correctly assume that it must be a dodgy doctor. Turn and run because they will tell you that you have something you don’t. Brittany can attest to that, though I wonder, how do you know the current doctor your seeing isn’t as dodgy? Roll the dice and hope for the best I guess.

Then there’s more:

So to rub more salt into the wound, I am hiding myself for 5 days, either side of a weekend as I am having a cancer treatment on my nose. I am told by the specialist after the first days treatment your nose will be red, and then blister and then if that isn’t bad enough it will peel, brilliant news isn’t it. Though it may not affect me that way, (here’s hoping) could not be as bad or it may be worse, a bit of a wait and see game. I don’t know what I am more afraid of and yes I am afraid, of both the hot flushes and the red blistering peeling nose.

No that’s not me either: uuhy.com

On another subject I am also thinking it is time for some Botox, why stop now you may ask. I was supposed to have my hands and arms, lasered to see if any of those sunspots were dubious and didn’t belong on my ever youthful, slightly crinkly hands. Tim the specialist tells me, I don’t need to put up with that, the sunspots can be removed and I will retain my youthful look. Bloody check he didn’t quite say those exact words but I know that is what he meant.

Needle free UK, yeah right.

Please who is he kidding, I suspect he is just drumming up business, I have also discovered that’s going to cost me $800, a bit miffed as initially they told me it was going to cost $500, I know it hurts like hell as I have had my face lasered before and couldn’t stop crying during the treatment, so now I don’t know that I trust them, or, have they just seen a sucker walk through the door and pictured an easy target. I am sitting on this one, time will tell as I reckon my money may best be spent on the Botox rather than the laser treatment, should I actually be brave enough to give it a go?

Maybe I could end up looking like this

Am I going to spend the next years spinning on my head in finding a suitable Menopause treatment, reading the thousand books on Menopause that are out there, or stay in denial? Staying in denial and ignorance land is my first choice, so don’t expect anymore from me on the subject. Must go, as I now need a bucket load of time to research causes and miracle cures on the Internet. Many thanks to my sister in law and her advice, I know she suffered terribly, upon her advice I have just bought my first jar of Anna’s Yam cream, hope it works.

One of many, oh where does one start.

Maybe some mental therapy from a psychologist is needed, maybe not? Any recommendations for a shrink that is?

Crap I hate ageing; I didn’t till this past three weeks or so, but now I reckon it sucks. Of course I am still holding out hope that it is all part of this crappy virus and my rampant imagination.

Menopause, my intentions aren’t to upset anyone who is suffering from Menopause but to poke fun at myself.