Sunday, January 10, 2016

A Sunday Post

After being at home for three weeks which seemed to have gone in the blink of an eye, I'm back at university, thinking crap. I graduate this year. It's always been at the back of my mind that this is happening but now that we've actually hit 2016 I'm in absolute terrified mode. Being at home was amazing, I met up with so many of my school friends, more than ever before and had a great Christmas and New Years. Quite confused on if I'm happy to be back or dreading it.

So now that I'm back, what now? Well I have to kick start my butt into working on my dissertation which is terrifying me. So far I've written a solid 400 non-sensual words and although I really enjoy my topic I just can't believe it's here. I have another assignment due worth 70% and with all of this work where I will be probably living again in the library.

I'm happy to be back though, already had a day at my friends house party and yes, I'm still here. I've overstayed my welcome. Sorry George. But then there is another thing. Something that's been bothering and worrying me this year.
I am by no means wanting to slate my friend, as she still is, to me, one of my best, but I just miss her? Does that make sense? I hardly see her at Uni and I feel as if I'm practically forcing her to go out and make plans with me. Constantly asking to have coffee or dinner to "catch-up" I feel second-bested at the moment. She's been in this relationship for a while, and since I just feel eh. Next thing you know I'll be singing a rendition of Adele's 'Hello.' Someone you spent so much time with, now prefers to go home or stay in a lot of the time. I totally understand that we are in final year, we should be working, but if I tell you that it had been almost 2 and a half months from Fresher's week, that it took me to convince her to go out, I just feel like I'm trying to make her be my friend. Trying to force her to join in the fun. Maybe she doesn't want to go out anymore? Fair enough. But it's not as if making plans to see movies or have drinks or anything any easier either.

Apart from that issue I'm excited to get this blog started this year, wanting to work with more brands and publicise it more. I hope to go to the gym more (booked four classes this week LOL) and an adamant in making better choices at uni now for the last couple of months. Not just boys, but food, my work and also my lifestyle. Though lifestyle is still not as great as I'm really missing my bath already. Sunday problems.

Sounds like you had an awesome time at home - and good luck with your last year of uni! Also, I totally know what you mean having a friend that you basically have to force plans with. I had to do that with my best friend a few years ago until I finally stopped trying to make plans. We drifted apart really quickly after that which hurt because we had been friends for a long time and we had so much fun together. But in the end it forced me to go a little outside my comfort zone and make new, better friends. I really hope you and your friend work everything out though!

Thank you lovely! Yeah I'm hoping that we don't lose each other because we were so close, but it's such a hard thing to do letting someone go as well if you've known them for so long :/ It's lovely because I am still so close to so many people here! xx