Q I AM 15 and I am five and a half months pregnant. I don't want the baby. I am just not ready to be a mother.

I want someone nice who maybe can't have a baby herself to come and adopt it.

I know there are plenty of women who would love my baby much more than I could. Everyone says I will feel differently when it is born, but I won't.

I didn't want an abortion because I don't think it's right. It's my mistake but I don't want a baby either.

My boyfriend agrees with me. We are still together and maybe one day we will want a baby, but not this one.

My mum has been brilliant about everything and so has my boyfriend's mum. They only found out a few weeks ago because I was too scared to tell them.

My school is OK about it as well and they say that once the baby is born to come back to school and sit my exams.

That is what I want to do because I want to go to university. But when I say I don't want the baby they don't listen and won't believe me.

My boyfriend's mum says she will help my mum look after it until I am finished with school and then I can look after it myself. But I just want to get it born and then give it to someone who can love it, which I know I can't. Why won't they believe me?

A I FEAR I am going to annoy you as well because I too think you might feel very differently once the baby is actually here and is no longer an it but a him or a her.

Your boyfriend might also change his mind. Of course it is your baby and ultimately it must be your decision what to do, but don't forget that both your mum and your boyfriend's mum have a stake in the him or her as well. It will be their grandchild.

Also, as mums themselves, they know giving away your own flesh and blood is not maybe as easy as you think it will be.

Perhaps it is at least talking with them about the possibility of baby remaining within your or your boyfriend's family, even if you aren't the primary carer.

As you're underage I presume there are other people who have been discussing the future with you, including your local social work department.

They will definitely listen to everything you have to say and while they might suggest various options to you, no one will force you to look after the child if you can't.

But there's an awful lot of talking to be done in the next few months.

There's also something no one, not even you can know, which is how you'll feel the first time you see you baby's face and hold him or her in your arms.