Monday, July 13, 2009

Well, yes.Maybe.But then again, it may not be much of a choice for me.

But you can decide not to.If you want, that is.Nobody would blame you.

No.Maybe they wouldn’t.But I might blame myself.

So what will you do then?

I don’t know.What would you do?

Hmm.

Yeah.You see now?

I understand what you’re saying, of course.

That’s good to know.

So, it’s like this. I’m giving myself 24 hours.

And then?

And then, I do what I need to do.

You know, people always think what they want to.What you do doesn’t really change who you are.

Yeah.But the thing is, people tend to just look at what you do most of the time.Or… didn’t do.

True.But you know, I’m sure you’ll do the right thing.

Right is subjective.

So it is.And so is justice.

* * *

Okay, I’m gonna do it.

You sure this time?

Yeah. I’ve done my 24 hours thing.

And what happened in that 24 hours that made you so sure?

I thought about it.

And?

Then I came to a point of feeling alright about it.

And that is because…?

I thought of what she might have done.Had she been here.

And why does what she would have done have anything to do with you anymore?

Because I heard her speak.

You what?When was the last time–

Trust me. I did.I was just doing the usual grocery thing, then I don’t know why, I felt compelled to stop at the park on the way home. Something about the air. The pitch of the whistling wind, blowing through the trees or something…

Now you’re starting to sound creepy.What? You saw her ghost?

No.Well.Yes.Well.Not exactly.Besides, I don’t believe in ghosts.

Well–

So I just walked right up to the middle of the park. And there was this huge, empty space. And I just lay down there on the grass, and stared up at the sky. The sun was too bright, and I had to cover my eyes. And as I did, suddenly, I heard her voice. It was as if she was just next to me, whispering into my ear.

Mmm. Right…And what did she say anyway?

She said: I’ll race you to the end.

Err. And that means what, exactly?

She would’ve gone down this very same path I’m taking.And, she would’ve done what I’m about to do much sooner.