7.1.05

On Being a Rebel

Beloved Master,
I find myself being deeply touched by your vision of the rebel.
I always prided myself in being a nonconformist.
Last night in a dream I saw myself being persecuted for living rebelliously and I became afraid.
Waking up, I realized that what I used to think of as rebellion was actually a safe game for me, well within acceptable limits.
Now I see that the rebellious spirit you are talking about is something very scary, and yet something I tremendously long for.