From the Virginia prison where he's serving a life sentence, Malvo said he and Muhammad could not have made the shootings stop.

"When I pulled the trigger for the first time, this may sound surreal, but it's simply what happened," said Malvo, who was 17 at the time of his arrest.

Now an adult, Malvo recalled how he lie hidden in the back of the sniper's car -- a blue Chevrolet Caprice -- with a high-powered rifle in hand. Malvo described his devotion to Muhammad, now claiming Muhammad abused him.

"I was 5 years old, I would say I was sexually abused by a babysitter, and then later on, by relatives when I was 8, 9 years old. And then, for the entire period when I was almost 15 until I got arrested, I was sexually abused by John Muhammad," Malvo said.

When asked whether he was seeking pity, Malvo said, "I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. This is, well, I mean, it was intended to punish, and that is what it, I mean, it is effective. I mean, it's complete deprivation. I don't see outside. I have no contact with animals, plants, people."

Arrested on Oct. 24, 2002, while sleeping in their car at a Maryland rest stop, Malvo said he only wanted to protect Muhammad, and that he cared not about the consequences.

"No, I mean because, at that point in time, to a certain extent, I was already dead. And that death, per se, is not what I feared. What I feared the most, I feared letting him down more than I feared death," Malvo said. (continued, next page)

Malvo said he was powerless to defy Muhammad and make the sniper shootings stop.

"I couldn't say no. I had wanted that level of love and acceptance and consistency for all of my life and couldn't find it. And even if unconsciously or even in moments of short reflection, I knew that it was wrong. I did not have the willpower to say no," Malvo said.

Asked what he would say to the families of the victims, Malvo said, "I would share with them what I've used for myself, what has worked for me. Please do not allow my actions and the actions of Muhammad to hold you hostage and continue to victimize you for the rest of your life. If you give those images and thoughts that power, it will continue to inflict that suffering over and over and over and over and over again. Do not give him or me that much power."

Malvo claimed there are other victims that have not been identified, and he said he has forgiven himself.

Malvo is serving a sentence of life without parole. Muhammad was executed in 2009.

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