For a very long time, I spent Sundays desperately trying to lift my pounding head off the pillow.
Attempting to shake off the aftermath of the booze-infused hours that happened shortly before.
Shamefully washing my soiled sheets once I could move my body out of bed.
I remember trying so hard to recall what I did and said. Often guiltily pleading for forgiveness for landing in this state... yet again.
*
The entire day was spent in a hungover, half-dead fog. I’d switch back and forth from a state of denial to a state of surrender.
I would use any excuse to escape the pain I was feeling. I just wanted it to go away.
It was Hell on Earth.
*
That is what Sundays used to be.
*
Yesterday, at Mia’s first basketball game, as I stood on the sideline, she ran into my arms and I spun her around and we giggled until both of us were dizzy.
Bri and Mia then rode in my backseat and took turns playing DJ and we belted out every word of every song they played at the top of our lungs; literally like no one could hear us.
We made a pit stop for Slurpees which I think were half finished by the time we actually got in the car because they were so excited and giddy over this simple treat.
The three of us played basketball in the driveway until it was dark out, laughing, carrying on and goofing off like not a single other thing mattered. And in that moment, I could have sworn nothing else did.
*
As we went in the house, I thought about the fact that it was Sunday.
I thought about where I would have been 7 years prior at that exact time of the day. I thought about how I never would have been able to experience that kind of PURE joy in my hungover state.
And I was just so grateful for those precious angels who showed me heaven that day. #youreworthit#recovery#healing#love#life#gratitude#change#growth#transformation#positivevibes#inspiration#acceptance#peace#beauty#learning#stateofmind#believe#loa#allow#createyourlife#amazinggrace#truthwillsetyoufree#betterway

Be Open to Receiving Love. ⁣
🔻⁣
To truly love is to be able to receive it from others as well. When someone loves you, does a kind deed for you, says kind words, bestows you with gifts, or offers you grand compliments - embrace them. Allow yourself to feel the love that has come your way. Know that you are worthy of that love. ⁣
🔻⁣
When you allow others to love you, you give yourself a chance to learn more about yourself and reinforce that you are lovable. You give them the joy of giving by accepting their love. Another imperative way to practice receiving love is by saying, “I love you,” to yourself. Let that love fill your heart. ⁣
🔻⁣
Hugs! They’re the best way to receive and show love. We need four hugs a day for survival, eight for maintenance, and twelve for growth. Give and receive #WarmHugs