I been at this a long time, although my family didn’t get the “nationwide” camera coverage we had huge losses! It doesn’t dismiss that I saw a lot and no I wasn’t living in any bad neighborhoods.

The ten men in my life who died were victims of gun violence… And most were all relatives! The scary part is that before the rise on terror my family has already experienced it… In my life as a child I had experienced too many tragedies to gun violence. Starting with a neighbor who I saw being murdered in his wheelchair…robbed and shot in the head, a childhood friend who brains were blown out in front of my brother. Another, was someone who was close to my family he was shot in the head in back of my grandmother’s house on the next block. I wasn’t even 16 years old and this wasn’t even touching the surface in how many male relatives died in this manner . And no this isn’t including everyone I knew that died brutally die to gun violence.

People had already grown numb. The gun violence become only new to those who finally get to the reality …gun violence has hit their homes or communities. No one can shed just as much light as I can on this continual curse of death by guns!

I wont downplay anyone’s experience with it… I just know it’s gut wrenching! I haven’t been so silent about the lack of involvement my family who has tremendous losses due to gun violence. Like so many, they don’t want any parts in it. That is why I speak for those who aren’t getting all that focus on their tragedies. Every loss is important to me. Pain is pain. You have to be an insensitive individuals to not allow your heart to be moved with compassion when people tell their stories. Sometimes I can handle it and there are days I can’t listen to another story. I thank God for what little light is being shed but I am still not with the bowing and praising…. My story is huge and I have told them many times… Of my family loss. My disappointment comes in when everyone turned their backs on the people who suffer that so many never heard of it. It’s as if certain people had more pain than others.

My first time dealing with it head on… was when I joined then Senator and Pastor Meeks… for prayer in front of a Chuck’s Gun Shop in Riverdale, Illinois. The crowd with us what still was about real results But we are still plagued with the crowd of being huge but without true boldness and substance. Numbers are impressive to people not with me. I need the boldness and power hitters. I can spot the nonsense of just noise!

We prayed and even then I didn’t grasp how maddening the gun violence became because like so many I didn’t want to remember the pain I wanted to be more than heard. I wanted results!

I had to deal with the aftermath of being disowned by people like today… and certain family members . I was a little to radical for appearances with my boldness and my courage to take down strongholds. I was embarrassed at the lack of boldness even with the church. A bunch of noise and no power! We made national headlines for praying in front of a gun shop. I didn’t gain support I grew haters for my passion to bold with it! I definitely became the family “black sheep” but with the church as well…. I was too outspoken… and too bold with my evangelism about who and what I represent and a lot hasn’t change. I might be apart of the fight but I know the real powers that be… and I have yet to see radical gun laws… Money is talking …in many circuits and not’s just in government but rallying as well!

Here is where I think I had to come to grip with standing up for what is right… 1) Some people play the game around it they will only go so far.

2) Some get rich off of other folks misery…it becomes the game its the most popular thing to do.

3) There are the complainers but are too afraid to get all the way in with it and want to tell other how it should be done.

4)If you want to do it right with integrity you might have to stand alone! I have been around the talks of gun violence and protesting a long time but I have yet, to see when will the masses will stop the insanity of doing the same things but expect different results.

I am amazed at the excitement of nothing. We haven’t made any huge milestones on gun control. We have more organizations than ever. Yet, we have to come in all directions full throttle. We limit the talks and dumb down on other serious issues that can ward death off at the abuse of guns!

I am learning to skip the talking this has been going on at least in my family over 100 deaths later! Its time to go for all the main arteries to gun control… Lets do the initial step… Ask yourself…are any violent instigators in your personal circle… People think gun violence starts with the trigger but it actually starts with the attitude. So many “avoid” confrontation of the character of people. Guns wont shoot without a person! I pursue manufacturers full throttle but I am personally waiting on genuine up close and personal addressing the lack of family values and demoralizing of life. I know that we want everyone to be responsible gun owners and I know that “term” is limited until a situation may arise.

Lets see what happens next…I know that there will be something else that will hit this country and the world. It will maybe be at this point that we will have no other choice but to finally take “gun control” seriously after all these “deaths” later…

Shootings happen “just a few blocks from my house — and I live in a reasonably good neighborhood.”

I was always athletic even as a child…I basically stayed athletically active until bouts of illness in my early 30’s. I had some serious problems which lead to my balance issues which tried to hinder many things in my life. This was a major struggle and absolutely terrifying!

I use to be a smoker and after work drinker that worked out! Still it defeated my purpose to being a healthier me. I had boatloads of stress which I believe contributed to many of my unhealthy habits. Although I wasn’t all the bad food choices it was my lifestyle. Learning how to relax might not seem so difficult but it was for me! I had long hours away from home and when I would finally get home my night would start.

When I finally tapped into how to overcome my issues…I had to first learn the power of prayer and nutrition. My life would be the unbelievable story if didn’t happen to me. I am asked all the time how old I am. I am not offended telling anyone my age or that I have been accused of lying about my age.. Some women are silly and insecure for the most part and want to believe it’s all cosmetics. It’s all God and its all good!

My mother showed me how to be a lady. We had to take classes on this. What happened to certain women? They weren’t taught to celebrate the beauty in others. I didn’t care! I had to learn to love and accept myself with the flaws! I might not be beautiful to everyone but it’s who counts the most and that’s ME!

It ism what it is… and I thank God for it. Surprisingly to myself…there is consistent talk of how young I am and maybe I have had work done. First we are talking about a serious “Rocky” fan including now Creed”. I take my time and do it the old fashion way! I work at my pace and not at someone else’s!

I know many of you have these wonderful glorious lives… I keep my life simple it keeps me grounded and well-adjusted for the most part…. and not too complicated! When many people meet me they are shocked that I am not this little old white lady! I don’t care how hard it is to believe I haven’t had ANY plastic surgery of any kind or any kind of weight loss surgery. I honestly can’t stand garments that pads or puffs you. If I want to impress you with my physical body… come hangout to watch all that I do.

I work at my 50-year-old body. I exercise, physical and spiritually! No expensive soaps or creams… but I spare no expense on anything that makes me smell good!

People think that I am lying about this but I honestly live the life I speak about! I detoxify my life from negative anything. I just stay away from it. I am flatter but humble. Whatever genetics has to play in my youthful appearance… but not short of a clean life and prayer. You’d be surprise how we can limit ourselves to a joyful life and what it really consist of. Some people live vicariously through fantasy than reality. That’s not a luxury for me that’s foolish because sooner or later you will hit the brick wall that you think you have avoided. Oh yeah…I had a scary life that birth courage!

Some people say I can’t live without this or that… I had to learn do it all for myself first and what contributes wont be a major sweat. Meaning I don’t expect anyone to do anything for me that I can’t do even better for myself. I had to trust God for everything in my life…including my LIFE. And I wont stop there… Detoxification means to rid of all impurities… I believe in detoxifying in all areas of my life. We have to dump the garbage. It feels good going in but it’s the end results is what I am conscious about. I can’t ignore what might be a problem later. Sounds paranoid but a little paranoia keeps me on my feet and my vision clear. Everything isn’t going to kill me but I know when things aren’t in the right perspective it can!

What do I mean?

I purposely keep my heart, mind and spirit with the good stuff although the bad things happen. I am a living testimony of what God can do. When I get up in the morning sometimes it maybe snap, crackle and pop…but I am getting ready to warm up and work out. I eat what I want… but I am conscious of what that might be. I am not a junk food person and I maintain my weight for my size… I am not over 5’4 … and a lot of weight don’t go very well for my petite frame.

Spiritually I disassociate myself from people who are messy and phony. These kinds of relationship never go anywhere. They are dead at the beginning so why put on the façade that its okay when it isn’t I just wont do them!!!

I don’t need people all the time they might need me. I don’t build myself on people but who God allows to be influential in my life who speaks LIFE AND NOT DEATH. Anyone who speaks death out of their mouths on a consistent they will hinder progression sooner or later out of jealousy will destroy you or despise quietly, until their actions are always in question.

I learned this lesson immediately you can be with someone and still be lonely. So, if I enjoy who I am by myself then with others are endless possibility. And because I am not a talker it seems to be always miscommunication that I am somehow disabled of holding it down. My posture doesn’t even affirm that nonsense. I am a better listener…I don’t argue… I forgive easy but I watch you! I pay attention to how people act towards me than what they say or telling others! My life goes a lot better when I am not tied up to your poison or someone else’s poison. I come to all of this out of A LIFE OF PRAYER! I don’t spend every moment on my knees, when I need to be more intimate with God it is an intimate setting. When its urgent a simply calling on “Jesus” helps! Many people have all these gimmicks, creams and surgeons.

It’s prayer and meditation that keeps me…I can take no credit. I thank God turning 50 biologically as if God stop the clock for me on aging and has put my life into this fast forward after being on pause for so many years. He is restoring the years that were lost and difficult by giving me that fountain of youth spurt that was taken from during long season of desertion and deserts. It was more than my second chance its that fresh wind of change.

It was my faith to hold on to the promises of God when I had no one to stand with me. and that’s painful. Who you think and what you thought it was… Wasn’t really true. That will mess with your head…. But…I think what is the most difficult is when you realize you never had anyone but God brings you out of obscurities stronger and above average on everything in front of every person who tried to suck the life out of me or kill my dream that wont die!

No one can get the credit for how God preserves me. Wisdom is so downplayed! Being wise helps to maintain some level of sanity. Good looks didn’t fade with the biblical Sarah and it wont me either. God bless me to look youthful because I desire a clean life… it include integrity and character. I don’t’ get that you look good for your age… It’s when they call my mom or grandma…that turn heads!

POWERHOUSE 12 PROPHETIC MINISTRY INTERNATIONAL

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I am a community and social justice activist and minister. I am a Prophetess by birth. I believe in the supernatural and I am unapologetic about my gift of wisdom and foresight.
I have my own ministry. PowerHouse12 Prophetic Ministry International. I am reserved but one might say I am revolutionary! I am aloof, one might describes as indifferent.
I am about truth telling, one might describe as straightforward... which might describe the TRUTH. I adore learning and education on every level.
My passion,prayer, prophetic , prosperity, peace, and protection which equals JUSTICE...
My nature... laid back, great listener and communicator... not with my mouth, but my ears.
Who I am , and what I love...Reading, music of all genre,gardening, cooking, circuit training, physical fitness and weight training, art , interior design, and of course, WRITING!