9. Through the constant sectarian handling of her upbringing, etc., Ursula was forced into a form of dependence to her parents, which besides, was always designed such that she would feel guilty for concerns and incidents, to whose appearances, however, she contributed nothing wrong.

11. So Ursula developed a guilt complex in this respect, which also strongly expressed itself at a later time, especially during her professional training, which has been reinforced by the renewed sectarian machinations of her parents and which has survived to this day.

12. Particularly through this delusion of guilt, the self-will and the possibility of becoming independent and the growing-up of Uschi were so immobilized that even her own and free decision-making ability was taken away.

13. Thus, she steadily floats between positive and negative, in the sense that on the one hand, she would probably like to be herself and live according to what corresponds to her own personal desires, while on the other hand, she always has the threatening sectarian words of her mother hanging over her like a sword of Damocles, which speak of fiery damnation, the devil, and God’s punishment, and in particular, you should be the embodiment of Satan and the center of hell on Earth and a pit of damnation and the vice.

14. A last remnant of self-preservation drives Ursula to fulfill the mission and to fulfill her own desires and the truth, while the parental pressure exerted on her wants to tear her away from this, which leads to a dilemma and to the self-destruction of Uschi, who can’t deliberately pull herself together in order to free herself from the sectarian clutches of her leading parents.

16. But in order to be able to do this, she would have to go on vacation within a very short time, and best of all with some group members, with whose help and supervision, they could rouse her last will and everything could normalize.

19. From our side, I also have to say that we must see no other way and set her before the choice of an immediate exclusion, with all statutory consequences of the statutes and without the possibility of a return to the core group of FIGU, or she can take the step of attempting to proceed with a suitable group member, for two to three months, far away from the center, in order to organize her thoughts and normalize them.

20. If she cannot decide for this second step or if she breaks off such a possible attempt prematurely or if she does not deliberately strive in the set time period of two to three months, by what means a normalization could come into being, then an inevitable exclusion with all consequences has to take place.

I’ve already explained this to her several times, and just a few hours ago, I reminded her of the same things again. However, it was in vain. I made it clear to her that she has already gone so far downward that she is almost completely crazy. But this has also borne no fruit. And if I am to be honest, then I must tell you that I see no other way out than just a "Taggmühle,”* even if it sounds damn brutal. But this is the truth that I see.

*Translator's note: I am not certain of the meaning of the word "Taggmühle." My best educated guess, based on the context, is that it is another word for madhouse. Thus, Meier might be saying that the only way for Ursula to be helped would be for her to be sent to a place that could help those who are insane.

*Translator's note: I am not certain of the meaning of the word "Taggmühle." My best educated guess, based on the context, is that it is another word for madhouse. Thus, Meier might be saying that the only way for Ursula to be helped would be for her to be sent to a place that could help those who are insane.

Quetzal:

Quetzal:

24. That is also correct.

24. Das ist auch von Richtigkeit.

25. The attempt that she brings herself back to normal thinking is only a hope, but one that will hardly come true because her thinking is too burdened by the sectarian and condemning coercion of her parents, by what means she has fallen victim to this terrible dilemma and this delusion.

26. True, she still has enough strength and intellect to hold to a return if she frees herself from her controlling parents, but whether she will use this strength and her remaining intellect for this is doubtful.

49. However, they don’t see that often and for weeks, you only find very little sleep, even though you may lie in bed, where instead of sleeping, you then work hard in thought and meditation, while being half asleep, because you never have enough time to do this when you pursue your many activities.