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He was born today, 25 years ago. He even did me the courtesy of being born on his due date.

I am hurting, and I have no words. I don't know what to say, or do, or feel. I don't know how I am going to get through this. I can't imagine the rest of my life without him in it.

I know that God only loans us our children, I was just hoping to have him longer.

I pray he is finally at peace.

I did read the posts ladies, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of your words, thoughts and prayers.

Thank you Libby, for the donations. I never would have asked, but am certainly in no postion to refuse. Western Union will transfer funds in minutes, and is the most convenient for me, although of course, there is a fee for it. Without having a bank account, trying to cash a check is impossible. I am humbled beyond words.

Tomorrow at 1 I go to finalize the funeral arrangements. The funeral will be at Sharp Funeral Home, and an obit will be available online, although I don't know how soon.

Please pray for me. Friday I will face my 3 biggest fears...public speaking (I am going to do a short eulogy) saying goodbye to my child, and fire. Jonathan will be cremated. I hate it. HATE it. I have always had a wretched fear of fire. However, we could not afford to go another route, and I am doing my best.

I am sorry if this post rambles. I am trying to say everything here and make sense, but I don't think I did it.

I love you all so much. Thank you all, and my family thanks you. You are all the very best CM has to offer, and I am so honored to know you.

Please, if you would like to call, please do so. I need all the support I can get.

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