Thursday, September 3, 2015

Are You There, Lucifer? It's Me, Ted.

I'm so bored. Really.

I've been so bored lately even watching Japanese balloon porn hasn't been fun--and I tried for hours but just couldn't get into it. Endless videos of Japanese women in cartoonishly large shoes stomping on balloons and not a minute of it was interesting.

Nope. I'm bored.

Life is boring, really. It has gotten so predictable I no longer feel the urge to see how far I can push somebody before they report me to HR or call the cops. I already know where the lines are and it bugs the shit out of me.

Sometimes I write about monsters. Mostly, I don't. Mostly I write about humans and all the fucked up shit we do to each other. That's easy to write. When there is a monster, it's usually a better soul than all the humans it has to suffer through. That says a lot about how my opinions of humanity.

I've often said humanity was a parasite hurling through the void of cold space on a planet nobody cares about. At least Charlie Sheen is having fun. I'm jealous of him, actually. He turns 50 this week and I wish I had his life.

But no, I'm bored.

In fact, my biggest wish isn't for being able to party like Charlie Sheen. My biggest wish is for all the monsters I do write about to be real. Every single one of them.

I would love to look up in the sky and see some ancient god everybody had forgotten about stomping his way to a metropolis. Cloverfield was a boring. He should have gone rampant on New York and ignored the tiny people. Destroy the city, you destroy the people. Nobody survives demolishing an entire city.

But that monster was stupid.

I would love to live in a world where magic was real, werewolves really howled at night, vampires lurked in the shadows, witches really did want to eat our kids, and evil scientists were looking at ways to take over the world.

I would have become a Sith.

And why can't we find at least one talking spider anywhere? We need something real. I need something real.

I'm so bored!

We need evil clowns in our sewers. We need possessed cars running people over in the streets.

I firmly believe that if we had such evils walking the Earth the rest of humanity would rise up and be more than what we are and act with more kindness towards others. It would be how we defined ourselves. We could say, "at least I'm not a monster like that thing in the newspapers!"

Humanity would be worthy of living on this planet if somebody built a robot army to take over the world. Humanity would show itself to be noble if flying monkeys attacked us in our cars when we drove through the dark, wooded areas at night. And humanity would be a lot more fun to be around if it knew how easily they could all die.

Granted, I'd be on the darker side of things. I've always thought I'd make a nice warlock or sorcerer. Maybe I'd get into some necromancy and make a name for myself through curses and hexes. I'd be good at it.

But no, I'm living a nightmare here. Really, this boring existence is killing me. Between the soul-crushing job and constant rejection from editors, I'm not sure how much longer I'm going to make it. Something needs to happen and it needs to happen soon.