Monday, May 17, 2010

I feel trapped today in the four walls of my life. Other people get to come and go as they please with no worries in the world while I wipe tears and take care of fears in the small faces of my life. Waiting on moving on and moving up in this world that I create in my mind. I wish, wonder, and want if it's what I make it out to be or if I'm holding on to something that's really not there. Developing a friendship right now that could help me though. They are friendly and kind and helpful. I need to stay focused and find a hobby. I shall get my paints this summer again, it's been since Christmas, and paint, paint, paint. It soothes me and I feel whole with it.