NOTE: This is my first foray into X-Men fanfic. I would also like to point out that I’ve only seen the first few episodes of X-Men Evolution since the rest simply hasn’t been aired here yet. So, if there is any gross OOC behaviour you can blame it on me and then I’ll blame it on that.

Katherine Pryde was mad. She was also a mutant. And a lesbian. All of which meant that there were twice as many people out there who hated her guts on principle. But right now she wasn’t mad at them, she was mad at herself.

Kitty had sort of known she was gay ever since she was six when she had decided to marry a female supermodel when she grew up. Her parents had been made aware of this decision and had carefully told her just what the implications were of her being together with another girl. They told her that there were people out there who disliked girls who liked girls almost as much as they disliked mutants. So, Kitty had learned to pretend to not like girls. By the time she reached High School, she was a master at faking to be straight. She could fake crushes on guys, she could swoon with the best of them and she never even sneaked a peek at the other girls in the changing rooms.

Of course, most of the other girls in Kitty’s class were bitches, so not falling for any one of them was easy.

And then came the day she started walking through walls.

That day wasn’t actually all that bad. Sure, she was very nearly crushed by the collapsing High School, but she also met people who seemed to like her, which was neat. She also got to transfer to a different school and ended up living in this huge mansion type thing with other people like her. Other people who were also mutants, that is, not gay.

And then, out of nowhere, Rogue appeared. Rogue hated her powers, disliked any form of human contact and most of all she disliked Kitty.

This bothered Kitty because she didn’t dislike Rogue.

For the first time in her life, Kitty had a crush.

A crush on Rogue.

A crush on a girl who would never be able to touch her.

A crush on someone who didn’t even like her.

Kitty stood in the doorway to the room she shared with Rogue and was mad at herself. Rogue was lying in bed, before curfew for once. Kitty looked at her, one hand supporting her on the doorframe, the other clenched into a fist.

Why Rogue?

Why of all the girls on this godforsaken planet did it have to be Rogue?

Why not Jean? Why not even Storm for that matter?

Godsdamnit, it wasn’t fair! Why did she have to be a mutant and a lesbian! Why had she fallen for Rogue of all people? What kind of sadistic deity had decided to play this sick prank on her?

Kitty walked over to her bed and sat down on it. She looked at Rogue. There wasn’t much to see, since the other girl was covered in sheets and wasn’t even facing her.

She saw enough, simply because it was Rogue.

Maybe it would happen someday, Kitty thought wistfully. Maybe Rogue would turn around and notice her.

Then again, maybe aliens from the planet Zerock 9 would come down to Earth and pull Atlantis up from beneath the sea.

Kitty undressed and got into bed. She knew that this crush on Rogue wasn’t healthy. She knew she had to get over it and move on. But on the other hand, she also knew that as soon as she started to fall asleep she would start fantasising about Rogue and then masturbating with her in mind.