vindicated soul

because the truth is always larger than the words we use to describe them

Saturday, January 03, 20095:38 AM

eve-ning...cooommish-erner.

I used to believe in Karma, in some sort of a higher power to install fairness and right and wrong in society.

I'm beginning to get the idea that right and wrong simply depends on who's side you're standing on. Whether you go to hell or not depends on which god you believe in.

More recently, after chatting with desmond (maybe that's why its all skewed up, i've been taking lessons with the ultimate devil) and increasingly its like... karma's all screwed up these days. Doing good things doesn't neccesarily mean that good things will happen to you, but it doesnt stop bad things from happening to you. Doing bad things, on the other hand, may get you good things (result of the bad things you've done), although bad things will also happen to you.

Ergo, doing good things,s till get you bad stuff. doing bad things, get you abit of good stuff, but bad stuff also will happpen to you. Doesn't take a genius to figure out which one seems like the more obviously beneficial choice.

Apropos, doing good or bad things, is like any other skill in life. Some people just do 1 thing exceptionally better than the other. Some people are able to kill others without blinking an eye, while others bother to remember a friend's favourite snack and get it for them. In the same way Messi (i think he's seriously a bastard, worst than Ronaldo... but that's for another post), can shimmy and dribble past defenders like they weren't there, and yet Mr Desmond"I-so-fast-how-can-there-be-anyone-faster-than-me" Ang has never made it to an Olympic Final.

Good and evil are just words spouted by people to vindicate their beliefs and decisions, right and wrong are just the scenery from th platform you stand from, and karma is just a lie for people who've had the shittier side of the coin thrown to them, and claim that somehow the coin will become good as it flips. I kinda believe that was how the concept of God came about sometimes, to create 'fairness'.

This world, is about power. Choose to make yourself strong, or at least look strong, and no one will want to touch you. Cause, and effect. Show the slightest glimpse of weakness, and get eaten for it. Just like I did.

My father had a phrase he liked, in chinese it used to be chen ni bing, na ni ming "to take advantage of you while you were sick". Now, he says, in reality, its more of long ni bing, na ni ming "why bother waiting? I'll just make you sick, and then kill you."

If i get to be a villian, I wanna be the joker. Ascension from the world thorugh the mortal torment and torture he recieved. He looks crazy, sounds crazy, and probably is, every genius had their own crazy patterns. But the truth is, because of this 'crazi-ness' people don't understand him, and you can't read his next step, and yet, he knows how you think and thus, how you react. Maybe I'll work a little bit on the "lets-get-beat-up-by-batman" part. But yea.

Its hard to find people to talk about stuff like this sometimes. Its alot easier to get caught up in the "EHHHH! WHAT'S THIS" (i'm joking). Its alot easier to get caught up in the distractions of life, like soccer, girls, A levels. then again perhaps this is a distraction.

I think I think too much sometimes. They should test this for A levels.

MerovingianThere is only 1 constant, one universal. It is the only real truth; causality. Action, reaction. Cause and effect.

MorpheusEverything begins with choice.

MerovingianNo. Wrong. Choice is an illusion, created between those with power, and those without.

MerovingianThis is the nature of the universe. We struggle against it. We fight to deny it, but it is of course, a pretense. It is a lie.Beneath our poised appearance, the truth is that we are completely, out-of-control.

Merovingiancausaliy. there is no escape from it. we are forever slaces to it. Our only hope, our only peace is to understand it, to udnerstand the why. Why is what separates us from them, you from me. Why is the only real source of power. Without it, you are powerless.

Merovingianthis is how you come to me, without why, without power. another link in a chain. But fear not, since I have seen how good you are at following orders, I will tell you what to do next. Run back and give the fortune teller this message: her time is almost up.