Tag Archives: mind games

i’m thinking, who’s this new person, writing a book with each entry? this Rain person must have some nerve… either overly confident or incredibly self-centered… (probably both – i’m completely self-absorbed every moment of every day…all of the time…never giving thought to others…ever)

met someone a few weeks ago – we’ve been communicating online for a bit (but live only miles apart..go figure). no sparks, but we took dating off the table (too much pressure – sizing someone up in 35 seconds…we’re just getting to know each other instead…however, that changes the dating climate and has the potential to make things difficult…another blog for a different day) i’ve gathered that he’s a slow-starter… but i know i don’t always want to be the one who initiates things, you know? Anyway, we spoke tonight and may play cards tomorrow after work. we’ll see…

had a friend’s mom over for dessert tonight – her daugher and i went to school together years ago… it was really nice. i made chocolate brownies (served warm from the oven) with french vanilla ice cream… she got to see my new house – it was a nice evening after a difficult day.

was in a looooooooooooong inservice training today… it made me angry… because it wasnt’ planned well, it was an inefficient use of our time, and it’s not appropriate for many of my students. and the principal wants us to start using the NEW CURRICULUM on MONDAY…we’re already 3 weeks into school w/ students (…um…we’ve already planned for the next four weeks using the old curriculum…) I’ll write more about this after I wrap my brain around it… i just feel that special education classrooms and special education staff members (teachers and therapists) are there to support the students who have special needs… to support their access to the curriculum.. to help bring them up to grade level… to help give them the skills necessary to learn in as similar a format as their typically-developing peers… and i feel that we (the special ed staff) are being asked to focus our resources on the typically developing student (w/o special needs) and leave our special ed kids behind. it truly feels like the pendulum has swung too far to one side… i’m going to mull it over for a few days, then speak to my department chair (who was not part of today’s training). i’ll keep you posted. (had i written this earlier in the day, i would have used much more strong language… but i think the chocolate browines and talking to my childhood friend’s mom helped… i just needed a great big hug by the time i got home, you know? that’s a bummer sometimes about living by myself – there’s really no one around when i need a big hug… and no one to blame about dirty dishes in the sink)

on that note, it’s time to go scrub the dishes in the sink… that way, it’s like a present to myself in the morning – i wake up, walk into the kitchen, and viola! clean dishes. (it’s all about playing mind games…keeps me entertained.)