This is my place to lay down my thoughts. I am depressed about, anxious because of and unhappy with a lot of things happening in and around me. This blog is where I unleash the thoughts, fears and random mind rambles that are floating around in my head constantly. So I hope you don't mind, but here it goes... and feel free to leave a message at the beep!

Inner ramblings....

"Let me show you what I'm made of, good intentions are not enough, to get me through the day or this life."-Chantal Kreviaux

" I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived."-Anonymous

Updates

10/27 Update: I GOT THE INTERNSHIP!!! WOOHOO! It starts January 14, 2010. I'm very excited and proud of myself.

About Me

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

There is so much that I want to tell you. So much that I have to say.

I am angry. At this situation. And I'm most angry at myself for letting myself get so lost in this "so-called" life.

I am always at everyone's call. Ready to do what is asked of me. Worried about the repercussions of failing "them". Always worried about the repercussions. How much of anything have I done for myself. Really?

I tried to remember all the good things so that I could numb out the bad. But I shouldn't have to do that. I don't want to do that anymore.

I deserve more. I want a something in my life that I cannot even name right now. I don't really know how to get it. I'm lost in blurry confusion... stereo fuzz. I can almost see it. I can sense it's greatness. And God help me, I'm gonna get it. No matter what, I will get it. I have to.