Thursday, April 16, 2009

After a number of months of doing this, I feel like many of you know me very well at this point. The part of my personality you havent been privy to is the one that seems to always get me into trouble.

For whatever reason, I'm a guy who seems to create trouble in relationships that I really enjoy. I don't really know what the reason is, and I am not so misguided that I just think that these things are ALL my fault, but I think that other people do a far better job of avoiding these land mines than I do. Im WAY too sensitive, WAY too controlling, WAAAAY too proud, and WAY too emotional. It could be the reason is that I like to confront things head on, assess blame (even when involves assessing blame to myself), find a solution, and try not to let it happen again. Maybe that is the ultimate proof that I am, in fact, male. But to take it back to the theme of my blog, it is quite possible I have some big life lessons yet to learn.

Im not going to be blogging for a while. Some things have happened lately, nothing to do with any of you, but kind of emotional stuff with a couple of friends that are making it increasingly hard for me to be here, and be happy about it. I wont be posting about any of the mess, unless I find myself in a position of having to defend myself. Otherwise, I am not into airing dirty blog laundry.

So I am backing away from it, and I hope to come back. I dont really know when, or if, but I hope this feeling goes away so I can enjoy this again.

I am in the process of moving Tuesday's Tribute to new ownership, and I will leave more on that soon when I work out the details. I will always be available on email, and will be reading you still, and sometimes maybe a comment if I cant contain myself. ;-)

Oh no! Your breakin my heart! I sincerely do hope things work themselves out and you return. You have been such an inspiration to me with your willingness to help. If you don't return, you will be missed. Best of luck to you and all you do.

What the Hell? Halftime Lessons is my first stop every morning. Every morning. You know I got your back any day of the week my brother. If I need to come and exert a little VT muscle for you, you let me know. You have been my mentor to this madness. Come on your jerking with us. Really? I wish you the best pal. I hope your messing around and if not I hope all works out for you. Let me know if you need anything.

If blogging is something you truly love then don't let anyone else take that from you. Shit happens. You can't keep everyone happy all the time but as long as you know you are doing what is in the best interest of your family, yourself, and your morals, you can't go wrong. I hope its a short break because you will be sorely missed.

Thanks for everything, Jay. You've been a great presence on the web and I will always hold you dear as one of the first supporters of my blog. :) Good luck with everything and I hope you make it back to us, filled with joy and with a new mission. ;-)

Ok I am showing up late for the party... I cant believe this. I am sad.... I am shocked ... I am miserable! You are one of my favorite bloggers... please come back soon.... and I hope everything turns out ok!! Thoughts and prayers for you!

Jay, I truly wish you well with all that's going on. Hope you're able to breathe, and get through it all with your head held high. We'll all be here... waiting. Hope to see you again. You were a breath of fresh air and you'll be missed!!

Jay -- I'm sorry to hear that your aren't going to be blogging. I really enjoy your insight and sense of humor. Hopefully the dirty laundry will get cleaned, hung out to dry and you will be back to entertain us.

I've been having trouble lately too. Sometime's it just gets to be too much with everything else going on out there! I do hope it's only a short break, and that things get better for you, and that you can come back soon.

Wow jay. I could've written this very same post today.I am going to be taking a bit of a break myself, after all my preposted blog posts are done (and of course, i will do the Tuesday Blog Party)I have had something happen with some "friends" and I am just so tired of it all...I hope you are able to resolve your issues.I will miss your mostly cheerful posts.

WTF? You can't just go leaving me as the only dude at our DFW blogger dinners, especially when we were just getting to know each other. I mean, we were almost close enough that I could ask you to help me clean out my garage and put up a new deck. Heck man, this blows.

For real, I know what it is like to have to put your blog on hold for a while and so do it, but remember, blogging is for you, not your readers and so it might sound cliche but to thine ownself be... just kidding, haha. I started to get all deep, whatev, you need to tell those people to shove it and get back to blogging with your bald self.

What? I don't log on for a few days cause of work and then I find out you're leaving us? I hope it's temporary. I really enjoy your blog. Take care of what you need to, get in a better place and come back to join us again. :)

Does this have anything to do with the daddy dearest post? You know I've gotten myself into a LOT of trouble with my blog...a lot.

There is always tension between my oldest sister and I because of things I've said about her on the blog that I don't think were offensive AT ALL.

My wacko assistant found all the mean things I said about her when she google searched my entire family by name. She then proceeded to create drama within the daycare by telling parents things she shouldn't and reporting me to my licensor...it's a long story...do already know it? I forget who has access to that super secret blog of mine.

Anywhooo...I feel your pain and have also been forced to re-examine my blog and what purpose it serves. But I refuse to stop. I'm a little more careful about saying things that might be deemed hurtful by people, but they don't have to read...

To laugh often and love much; to win the respect of intelligent persons and the affection of children; to earn the approbation of honest citizens and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to give of one's self; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sung with exultation; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived - this is to have succeeded.- Emerson