to me it was like prsn you know without knowing time or is it day or night and yet no one didnt understand me you know waking up and no one is there just beds in front of me all people in theme were like dead and every heart had number 50 or some 52 unitll i saw you had same and yes you cant move you cant get up thatl little monitors and hearts is all i heard that sound is still in my head it was like we went prepared and i closed and opnd eyes for two minutes actually it was 3 hours so 4 days liyng there is no good in night i only cud see in green color number and i was like yes we are also in 53 im i going to die that was my thoughts and i felt sick sharp pain but i guess you felt something else i cired because of pain maybe

you you played back in my memory what you wanted and all that htougths of him i cried and you you were loud from 53 to 89 i guess they were woried why am i crying right so the man who knew english came with why are you crying and do you feel pain i felt pain but reason why im crying i didnt know so i told him just wound just my head even my eyes i guess tears also were like knife for them and i learned for 3 days ifi wana get out i will be calm and close eyes thinking of what you wana things wich you are creating just to keep your nrml btng and that was big sucs dear heart you are the worst amng thm

but i guess it just you giving me worst hell gates of heaven are invsbl for me no wait heaven was when i came back in room when we pckd and mother said she was wrd to but that M.... called every hour down to ask how i am but i was like ok go on buy me something from strbcks and M... said i will i willl buy he said its not hard for me i will pay and bring he spsd to be flwng us only to trnslt what docotrs said not everywhr mother said forget i wasnt my self when i hrd where you are i think i told him worst worst but i said sorry he undrstnd but mother said you know he is in love i smiled in me no way and she said i know that but we will get ride of him after all yes that what i think maybe she is right who wud play music in front of you prty wmn and well when i said i had boyfriend whom whre wats name where he wrks let me see picture im sorry that private life and you you are no one to me but hvn is being hire home and when i saw N.... room i felt sad her was better den mine no way but father said i will have one more for all clothes it will be walk in clothes he gona make it and i heard i heard he cried all tihs time

i guess dear heart you forogt about him this time no you just wanted wat you need and no mtr how you gona get it evn if it ruins me you know lets say its all behind me right now hire you are btng little lier you know when i got nars dolce gbna ..... nd all that i didnt feel nothing they were stuff i think step by step this oprtn is going to change me and i dont want to be btr person to give more den rcv to worry but you you wont change do you know N... said for tow days when i can walk and work again with my right hand to move her we shud go somewhere that will be my chance to mk brother to ruin her dress for wdng in wich we are invited and im gona be the only one with great dress i wanted long red but its wedng so short pink is just fine

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I want time to rush little as im listening your heart btng near me what cant tell you word i hope my tears did to left you just like that if time goes faster i will soon be back eeehh if i cud make time to go little faster cant without you my hands huged you thousand times in one minute but im trying to come back soon because i know i have someone hire who waits me and loves me ohh it will be easy there i have promise wich i gave you

you need everything from list i got all best and all pink look im hire writing you are right hire drawing flowers and i miss you you are hire i miss you or it is just my fear i pray its just week not month

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How to explain you to others when I dont even know you we wont go in last nigh and believe me i needed second just one cut even if you say his rots are deep dont cut it you said it will grow bigr and thats not true every rot can be destroyed but you wont let me near that one or now question wich i asked him wasnt question wich i wanted to ask actually you wanted to know wud he marry and know when you know he still wud i know there is one big yes are you planing on going and never coming back what about me i have people to i love them i cant leave my best frend M... just like that alone as you love and need i need her to i need time or change you know when i meet man or when someone says i love you to not poke inside to open eyes and see that someone can be beautiful or my type but no one is my type or yours congrats you won did you trick me one time more how naive am i to talk about every V....'S move wont help every bad move or lie is same as good ones you accpeted all without question for me what do you think i love him without do you want it and i thought hearst are dfrnt when they fall in love or they say to mind oohh look this is man i like but not really mind is something what knows who when mind knows to chose btwn good nd bad for people and hearts they are really awful not this is good or bad just i want that person and over turht to be told if i cud chose with mind dear heart i wud give you to D..... man with honesty man who wants to die to touch me man who want all man who wud give all to have you for him but you you dont wana not with him or anyone and thats okay its your choice because D... dsnt want me too there is no real love when you dont belong to him and his his belongs to me i got many hearts but right it deosnt matter to you you need other one and im doing everything in my power to takee you in place as you call it home

you are weird awful i never escaped but i hope you die no wait you tricked me with that many times or you played game with death today you are so slow next one you are btng loudd same as now all i hear is you and all i can think about is him V...is there and there in mind hire we are playing games inside my head creating meeting all first things kisses what are you doing its more den kisses or wait lets go back planing wedng no second my dress you suckkk

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How my happines began today how sun smiled how my tears came how they looked at me like i was sad person but my tears were tears of happines how it all began well with just call my mother said you know come down and we cant give her your gift why not i said because you will give her in my hand phone had to fall idk how but he did i wnt out ruing and i heard that laugh fmilir to me that one laugh wich cud say all will be just okay she was standing there in front of me with long blonde hair white dress with pink nckls cm one hire let me hug you and she said why are you crying smtng hurt my eye im okay now i am okay thn room full of people when we cm in we sprt actually she wanted to play and of course i had to see all new toys

you see she said see my new shoes its new i smiled you have best toys dont worry all yours is best and always will be well yes but i need castle and barbie den she started green car as she have in germany makeup heels okay i said i will buy it all wat do you think about glass its pink its minie she said

well yeah you always wanted pink so hire it is yes but i need crwn and pink castle okay

look im going tomorrow but i will be back soon i promise before you leave i will try to find all that and castle to okay and Z.... smiled and said she is A... two den we all smiled its true she said she spended more tme with you that first she want best and i told her its okay i will buy it so that it how happines suprised me on fear i forgot i dont have time to think about it because when i look trough windw in that house i know that there she is when i go out in garden all i hear is screams and laugh there she is playing you know to hug her and touch is best thing like someone just gave me diamndss thousand of them in hands thts how just presence worth

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Great right I mean I bought everything i needed and sunday is really close august is coming fast im leaving see you in sptembr full with all and M... said we finished right you dont need nothing more and i turend around just to see everything for girls and i found that dress like in preety pink one long with all dinsey princesses i think to buy her why when i cant give her tears came and they had to fall they just had there in front of everyone i wasnt that strong i guess life is really cruel with us and M... said you will ruin mkup but my look didnt mtr in that moment when all i had in head were memories it had to eat me from inside but i bought glass for girls you know minie mouse pink same and i said tto father dont forget to give it to her from me please atlst that if we cant see each other i mean all this time i waited and wiated for sumr and wat now to wait next one not fair really its not fair its harsh nd all that that im thinking about you know what fuck oprtn and that iwill stay but this time is dfrnt i mean im not going all alone to be in that fear waiting in airport driver to come with paper your name and all i think i really need to learn turkish lot of them dont know english just in hotels thats it tat sucks to be honest im in that same fear as i was first time but well i wont walk alone i can show all to my own mother and we can shop together before that aa ccant wiat this torture to hmm lets say finish its round two and i have two more left wats that i n my veins watever it is they said thousand times you look great fresh as new your skin looks btr and i said i feel good and i do i will be btr but lets not forget that i wont sleep two days hour or two resting all will be same crying its like all my bones are in pain in back and well like something is going trough veins but thats two days of hell next one as last time i will stand and like nothing happnd not even scar wat to say they are good in that they wud be evn btr if it didnt hurt that much

look i just hope i wont talk for others to hear as last time i wud prefer to talk about clothes and brands and money and sea etc.... but right it probably will be why he dsnt love me or where is he thats pathetic you know but i will surive this one and next time and next one cuz thats who i am

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Rough day right i know it but you whats wrong with you its second night and you are hurting me you know that pains like something squeezing me inside you and that worst i wonder whats wrong with you dear heart hire they said you are not healthy yet dr. Ali said you are just great healthy 100% den what are you of that who made mistake they or .... maybe you are playing yet use all o that in time watever please stop doing that some night you wana make me cry and i dont know reason why im sad maybe something is bothering you but whats problem doesnt matter cuz of you i cant leave home tonight no party right why not ? hmmm maybe tomorrow will be better i have some plans i bought new book so thats what i gona do tonight read and you stop hurting me i beg you ohhh M... is sad cuz i can come i guess ur not in mood for lake right okay maybe next day i thought to go in morning do my nails and well cut hair yes cut it i need short hair i need to do what i love bsd its in now this year and long is boring yup that and buy some stuff and wll to have lunch ohhh i stole pssss dont tell her heels i mean i need it more wat to say now cant wait call from doc to go back in istanbul actually i miss shopping in sephora i need more stuff from Chanel and that mask 100$ for face i have glamglow but i need chanel to and some clothes from Koton Balenciaga i saw they have new Zara to so yeah i mean waking up in hotel rooms fancy i wna again be in asia city hotel and i mean i love rooms is with some style

finally august close truth is i wana finish this all and be free but okay will happen i need to shower gona wake up early to cut hair i will tell her you know what cut short but much short and tats it hair done for rest dont know hire is really hot and i gona stay home sucks right ohhh im alrdy sleepy

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I heard from her that you are saving money also for what I dont know and really I dont care i felt jealous again of you and her all that what others have i dont know why so i called you behind house to help something with garden i started to cry dont you said whats wrong you said ohhh dear brother do you know how life can be cruel i said but why you told me i cudnt tell you that i was jealous because finally her room also is finished and to me looks new better den mine with brown beedng yellow pillows pink red orange heels i sat in grass you know im trying to colct money as fast as i can and i want to finish wit savng or clctng in my wallet i want it all to be done untill next year and i just i cant fast as i cud i cant i feel sad do you understand me dont you you know how it is when you need to be in another place right you know how it is when you love someone and when your hearts keep talking deep down to you what you need to how i gona finish this you huged me saying i will give you some money if 200 is enough you said i was like no of course not its your money you worked for it

hard and i think you gona need it but you said i will need it more den you if i want to be where i want to be wait hire you said and you came back with them in hand hire put them in your wallet you will have more now you didnt need to thank you thnk you you are best borther i have i love you i said but deep down you are naive fool just like everyone naive to give me what you wokred for whole month or you just falled in tears and my sad face honey this face is always sad doesnt matter am i happy or not and you my dear you are fool wich wud give me heart from chst if i aksed ohh and sorry i need it more den you ever will you are right

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Strange isnt it shud i be suprised not at all and i thought maybe there is something little from that what was there all this time but not even memory of little and in me every words is graved in memory ohh how i wish that i dont remember little of that just little but not lot in me and yet nothing inside that soul when we are near souls strange to read that like sign you cant break it we will se can i or not there is still nothing of him not even trace of boy i meet i have to deal with man who is acting like child afraid to face problems truth afraid to chose what does he wants like if he choses he will lose one of his favorite toys

living with one dreaming another darling that you loved first one you never wud well need second one isnt that true its feels like its geting boring he needs week week to get lost from his reality week to play with one of his toys i guess when i thought he needs to see me i thought well maybe thats it its over right from that we will be there together maybe marry to silly me its just week and he goes back to his how cud i think that is something seriously silly me stupid me and you you are fool dear heart worst fool and i hate you

why why to me cud i say that words hell no why im not crying why i only feel broken and like im not in same time wat worse feeling happy , feeling sad or having both mixed i think both worst is when you feel both and still this heart will do anything to go there and i dont know dont know how to stop him he is preparing already like its something best in world and there is me in some fear of being there because i dont want to be broken in reality to be someones toy or second choice probably after me again there is he going away with her wats poiint in going there how to explain this all i know to my own heart who can stop me now deep down its big mistake to go there to someone who is gona hide me from world in four walls of hotels like its crime like im worst to tell that to M.... to say please stop me doing it whats point whatever she says im still gona go but why why i wnat it badly to go and in same time i dont want whats worst are all my wishpers in head true tat it wont end well for me because it not how i imagined and probably when he said he needs to see me we didnt think in same pathetic me and big fool but yet i know i gona go so worst or best my decision and in end of day im the only one to blame for it

so for heart : your dreams is becoming reality step by step we are coming to finish line but i hope you wont regret if your dream fall on you like worst nightmr if not if it becomes your best heaven happy for you and you will be winer in end of day atls i know how to say no if it comes to touch even small one soon i will learn to say no to you heart soon high hope maybe after that you see its easy to live without him to learn it as i did for one your dreams i had to kill thousand mines

am i afraid because i dont know how its gona be in reality but right im full of worst things because he never explained why not even one reason why he killed me thousand times to make his first toy happy so dont tell me why i feel like this its because i never got truth just dont worry in this i know that htere is no one to stop me to stop you dear heart but dear sweet or worst heart i hope your dream gona ruin you you desrved that becaause of all sadness i got rot in hell there where you feel like its home rot and little word for me well its good luck number two good luck you gona need it