My Brain

I got hurt a couple weeks ago and I have been working a crappy temp job so I have not felt much like posting.

I was going to tough it out as I knew a doctor wasn’t going to do anything for me but give me oxycodone, which I don’t like to take. I broke down eventually, because I told my foreign girlfriend about it ans she insisted I see a doctor, and was given something called tramadol, which has psychoactive effects as well- it acts as a serotin and norphrenin reuptake inhibitor.

I felt pretty good after this. Part of it was relief at getting medical attention- they were quite nice to me at the emergency room. And I suppose part of it was chemical. I have been thinking about how to improve my thinking, but the truth is for me negative thinking is reality. The truth is my life sucks in many ways, has for a long time and will likely continue to suck for the foreseeable future.

Negative thinking gets a bad rap, but it has its place. For some people, like salesmen, positive thinking is necessary to survive. Salesmen get a lot of negative feedback all the time and if they didn’t think positively they would go nuts. I have been a salesman and couldn’t deal with it. On the other hand positive thinking is dangerous in many activities. Accountants and mechanics have to look for and fix problems- they can’t assume everything is going to be OK.

Human relations though require more positive than negative thinking. All I can think of is I need to blast my brain with positive things to outweigh the negative. The brain is just protein and chemicals, and some management of it should be possible.

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The “etiquette” is just the same as if you kept wine and liquor around for visitors, which I assume you do. Haven’t you ever had women ask you if you’ve “got anything to party with,” or something like that?

The fact that it’s prescribed allows you to avoid looking like a druggie. You can conveniently remember, “Oh, hey, I’ve got some oxy in the cabinet from when I sprained my wrist…”

I have had oxycodone prescribed a couple of time after minor operations. Its effect on me is, it changes excruciating pain into dull, throbbing pain, and makes me feel woozy. I know there is a market for such things but can you see me walking into a skeezy bar and asking somebody if they want to buy some pills?

I have taken SSRIs in the past and they have totally shut me down sexually. I think my current sexual issues are partly age and partly not having a hot enough partner to make Mr. Happy happy, as a friend suggested.

The short answer on repealing DADT is it’s a pretty dumb idea, but since you asked I’ll post more on it.

For anxiety, you should consider trying something in the benzo field if you haven’t already. Klonopin (clonazepan) is a good one because it’s light and purportedly not easy to get hooked on because it’s slow and long-acting, unlike Xanax which is fast-acting and therefore somehow more addictive according to doctors. It will not affect yoru sexual functioning (unless it makes you fall asleep).

If you’re worried about straight-out asking for it for your anxiety (maybe you’re worried you’ll get funnelled into mental health services), they do prescribe it for restless leg syndrome as it’s an anti-convulsant.