Ferguson, Missouri police officer Darren Wilson described himself before a grand jury as being in fear for his life when he shot and killed 18-year-old Michael Brown this past August, St. Louis Public Radio reported.

St. Louis County Prosecutor Robert McCulloch’s office released the evidence presented to the grand jury before it before decided on Monday night not to indict Wilson for the shooting, including his testimony.

“He looked up at me and had the most aggressive face,” Wilson testified. “The only way I can describe it, it looks like a demon, that’s how angry he looked.”

Wilson said Brown hit him in the face after the officer determined he might be a suspect in a theft at a local convenience store, then described a struggle between the two when Brown tried to prevent him from leaving his patrol vehicle.

The officer, who described himself as being “just shy” of 6-feet-four-inches tall and weighing “210-ish” pounds, testified that he felt dwarfed by Brown.

“When I grabbed him, the only way I can describe it is I felt like a 5-year-old holding onto Hulk Hogan,” the testimony reads. “That’s just how big he felt and how small I felt just from grasping his arm.”

Wilson said that Brown hit him twice in the face, leading him to be afraid that a third punch “could be fatal.” Wilson testified that his gun fired twice while he was struggling with Brown over it, prompting Brown to run. But instead of obeying his command to get on the ground, Wilson said, Brown instead charged toward him.

“At this point it looked like he was almost bulking up to run through the shots,” Wilson told the jury. “Like it was making him mad that I’m shooting at him. And the face that he had was looking straight through me, like I wasn’t even there, I wasn’t even anything in his way.”

The St. Louis Post-Dispatch reported that Wilson’s attorneys released a statement after the grand jury’s decision saying that it confirmed their client “followed the law,” while suggesting that Wilson — who has been out of public view since the incident — is in danger.

“People have made threats against his life,” the statement read. “He will continue to be concerned about his family’s security and his own. [Not being indicted] is a brief respite, but certainly not the end of things for him.”

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