Jan. 22nd, 2010 | 11:30 am

basically, this quarter i absolutely cannot procrastinate. i cannot copy work and i CAN. NOT. GET. ANYTHING OTHER THAN A B OR A. or my parents will stab me with words. '____'alex, i'll let you hit me if i don't stick to this.

Jan. 2nd, 2010 | 04:33 pm

happy new year (even if it's already a day in, lol). this year will hopefully be a good one; 2009 was a complete disaster, rofl. the thing i'm looking forward to the most this year is final fantasy xiii, harry potter theme park, harry potter movie, alice in wonderland, and prince of persia movie. c: the chick in my icon, fang? she's sexy, lol.

...god, i am such a video game nerd. -headdesk-

i haven't been able to fall asleep until 5am these past few mornings. :| i hate it. i have school on monday, EW TTATT and i haven't done my homework, rofl. :P

Dec. 21st, 2009 | 02:13 pm

Really, I am. I wanna know what's running through Hankyung's mind right now. Why does he want to terminate his contract? Does he just want to make some changes to it or leave it all together? And where was I when all this was happening? When the first article was released on allkpop, when #sujuhankyung was trending on Twitter. Ugh, really, this is not the best time. Why is he doing this four days before Christmas, too? Jeez, Hankyung. >:l Not happy.

And about Kyuhyun's entry.

Even a beast don't bite the hand that feeds one...

I can not understand...

He is right, in a sense. That Hankyung should just live with the bullshit in the contract, the thirteen years, because it gets him money, that he can use for himself and send back to his family. But then it doesn't make him happy or some shit like that.

Whatever happens, I just hope it's in the benefit of Hankyung's happiness and welfare, and if he makes the decision to leave, I will cry my eyes out like I did with Jay.

Dec. 15th, 2009 | 05:47 pmmusic: Seoul Song - 슈퍼주니어 & 소녀시대

It feels like I'm not allowed to smile unless someone else smiles first.I can't just brush everything off my shoulder.I can't talk smack about my parents like most of my friends do.It's because I think about what my parents have done for me-- they have fed me, clothed me, taught me lessons schools can't teach, and I'm so, so grateful for everything.

I have never thought of my mother as a piece of shit, but apparently she thinks I have. She doesn't understand; I'm not being smart or sarcastic with her, I'm just too impatient. So my voice gets a sharper, edgier tone.

I can't do anything but say "yes ma'am," and, "I don't know."

I guess I don't know anything.

BUT on a happier note, I got my PlayStation3 yesterday. Since the darn thing was already $320 (we had to buy it from Best Buy because Target only had 250GB, but those cost $350), I couldn't buy Uncharted 2. So we rented it. It's due back on Saturday, and I'm stuck in the second chapter. And when I play online, I can barely see anything because our TV is so small. I'll buy a better one, a bigger one, when I get a job.

But I probably shouldn't spend so much money so I can save up for car insurance. (My dad sounds a bit too happy every time he reminds me, "Once you get a job, you need to save your paycheck for car insurance. You can't blow it off on everything you want." Way to be subtle dad; that's your ex-wife you're talking about.)

I have a test everyday this week, but tomorrow is our last day before we go on Christmas break. I need to ask one of my teachers when we get back from school, because none of my friends know.

Dec. 12th, 2009 | 02:02 pm

Dec. 8th, 2009 | 07:33 pm

I can't find the winged_suju entry that I'm looking for. 8( It's HanChul, and Heechul goes crazy because he dreams of a winged Hankyung while the real Hankyung is in China. And it's like, really weird. But there's a poem in it, and after I read the fanfic, the poem just started showing up everywhere.