Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Beautiful things happen in your life when you distance yourself from all the negative things.

This is defiantly what I needed in my life right now, I didn't realize it but certain people where making my life difficult to handle and stressful. I said before I would be at peace with what was happening eventually, well that eventually has finally happened. I am still sad I lost a good friend however, it's for the best for me and that person. I'm happy and looking forward to see my life heading in the right direction.

As for keto, I mentioned I was depressed about continuing on this diet. I am at 30 weeks and only have 10 weeks left to go. I decided that I would finish till when I said August 8, and then I will decide what to do after that. It really doesn't make sense to not continue on keto, its only way my body can actually function. I found out I am sugar intolerant. My insulin is at normal levels Although, whenever I eat something like fruit or carrots or something naturally sweet my sugar sky rockets. I like to keep my glucose under 100. When it goes above 100 I start to feel groggy, dizzy, fatigue, and just all over sick. I am going to attach a picture here of the Keto food pyramid:

As you can see berries, nuts, and seeds are at the very top. Then just below that is dairy-cheeses, creams. Next under that is Veggies in low carbs. Under that non-starchy veggies. And then on the left side herbs and spices, and healthy fats and oils. On the right side lean meats and fish, and fatty fish, meats, and eggs. It's a lot different from the normal food pyramid.

I was telling someone at school today about the diet. I told her there are two ways we as human burn to get energy for the body, one way is with carbs the other is with fat. So when I tell people I live off of bacon, it's the truth. Bacon is literally giving me my energy throughout my day. Something odd thing I found out today is that if you blender a cucumber and add stevia (and I added ice) it tastes like watermelon. I can't eat watermelon (one of my favorite fruits) because it's mostly sugar and water. But with this little trick I can trick my taste buds to think I am eating watermelon.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

I have been depressed these past few days. The reason is because I am depressed over this diet. The fact that I can't put any bit of sugar in my mouth without my sugar and insulin increasing which leads to me gaining weight. Even natural sugars like fruits I can't even handle. The only fruit I can eat with no increase in sugar are lemons and avocados. Which makes me really sad because I am a sweet tooth person, I love candy and sugary things. And because all of this it finally dawned on me that I will have to be on this diet for the rest of my life. It's not a diet its a lifestyle. I will have to live this lifestyle my entire life if I want to be thin. And that makes me depressed. I may become ok with this reality some time down the road but right now it just sucks. I can't see a world without ice cream, pizza, and Chick fil a. Someday I hope I'll be at peace with my new lifestyle but I am not today. I was thinking about doing Atkins however Atkins let you eat more protein then Keto does and that's bad because if you eat too much protein then it can turn into sugar which will cause weight gain. Uh, I just want to eat a muffin and be happy, but instead I'm sad and eating celery.

Monday, May 16, 2016

Writing this post at work, because well I'm bored and I have no draws. So good news I lost 6lbs since last week!! I'm not really sure how that happened, maybe from the depression I was having from this past week might have had something to do with it or maybe just the exercise, I'm not sure. This week I start my summer classes. I have astronomy and history. I'll continue to go to the gym 4 times a week, just not today, only Tuesday Wednesday Thursday and Friday. I am now working Monday Wednesday Friday Saturday Sunday. I feel like I live at this place now. I wish I had more friends. Seems like the only places I ever go are work, school, gym and sometimes church. I need to get out more and meet new people. Because now I have no friends, or should I say close friends. The ones that you hang out with all the time, ahh I guess I have to set a new goal. I will get my blood checked in two weeks and other than that nothing much is happening. I'm excited to get on with the summer, hopefully relax in the sun by the pool. Also, I am excited for VBS starting in in June! I love crafts!

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

I'm at 180lb now that means one more pound and I'll be out of the 80's!! The gym was really good today. I was surprised though my fasting blood sugar this morning was 121 and m ketones were .3 Hopefully I'll get into ketosis within the week.

Monday, May 9, 2016

The twins are getting bigger. Haha OK well obviously I don't have babies but I'm talking about my breasts. My workouts have been making them firm and plumper. I looked in the mirror the other day and was like "yes! you look good!" More workouts this week. Abs, Arms, Legs, Back. I am also starting to be working more at my current job. I'll be getting 12 extra hours a week. Yippee. I'll be busy this summer and I'm glad. School, work, vbs, can't wait and it all starts next week.

Friday, May 6, 2016

It doesn't matter if it was a relationship or a friendship. When it ends your heart breaks. Last night was a difficult night and I ended up binging on chocolate chips which made my stomach upset and in the bathroom all night hurling my guts. I didn't go to bed till 4am and I woke up at 9am. I'm taking my mom out for her mothers day surprise and I need to pull myself together to be someone what normal. Every time I pull myself together I feel like a tear slipping. I keep trying to think: the reason why some people have turned against me and walked away from me without reason has nothing to do with me. It is because God has removed them from my life because they cannot go where he is taking me next. They would only hinder me at the next level because they have already served their purpose in my life. I need to let them go and keep moving. Greater is coming my way. I haven't got to the point where my soul is at peace yet. But I will eventually.

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

So after all that pizza I ate and donuts and Mcflurry. I'm back on track. I weighed myself Monday morning with no weigh loss or weight gain. I weighed myself this morning (keep in mind I am doing a fat fast for 3 days today being the second day) and it said 181lb. I was that's not right, sometimes my scale tricks me so I do it 3 times and it was right! I'm so proud of myself it feels really good. I was disappointed at the end of April because my weight goal was 178 and I didn't make it to that. My end of the month weight was 183. But my end of the month goal for May is 174lb. I can do it!

I have summer classes starting May 16. My last two finals for my spring classes are tomorrow and Thursday. I'm getting As. I'm looking forward to summer classes and also I am going to be a craft teacher at my church for there VBS in June. I did it last year and loved it. So I signed up for this year. I'm so excited. I have my first meeting tonight. Were I get to listen and hear the new songs and learn the motions and find out what kind of crafts we are making. I'll be busy this summer and I'm glad. But I'll still have time to go to the beach and relax too.

About Me

Hello. My name is Kari. I graduated from Eastern State Florida College as a Phlebotomist. I am currently working. I attending school to get my AA and then continue my education for occupational therapy. This blog is to write out life's pains and stresses, But also successes and achievements.