So I think we have decided that when Giles turns 1 we are going to start TTC again! I want to lose another 10 lbs before then so I need to get going since my baby is already 9 months old! It is crazy to think my husband and I went from not really wanting any kids to now definitely wanting 2 or 3.

Something doesn't make sense though. Judging from my last period, I was six weeks and 2 days along, but I was told that I was 5 weeks pregnant based on the ultrasound and that the reason they knew I miscarried was that there was no heartbeat and there should be one by 5 weeks. The Internet tells me that 5 weeks is very early to see or hear one. I got blood work done too, and I asked about my HCG levels, but I was told that didn't matter since the ultrasound is more accurate. So I'm really wondering what they were.

My appointment today didn't work out, and I was told to go to the ER instead, and that's where all these tests happened and where I was told that I miscarried. I'm calling my obgyn tomorrow morning to make a followup appointment. I really shouldn't hope that I'll get a different answer, but I'm wondering if possibly...

I think this actually started a couple days ago when my abdominal pain started, which I was hoping was gas. I screamed in the bathroom just now because of what came out, so I'm no longer doubting the diagnosis at all. I have my followup appointment tomorrow and then I think there will be another one. UGH no more doctors appointments please... I just want this all to be over forever.