Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Blog Tour (Excerpt) & Giveaway: Catch Me by Claire Contreras

Title: Catch Me

Author: Claire Contreras

Publication Date: November 17, 2013

Genre: Adult Contemporary Romance

Synopsis:

In the past, I've
always been given everything I've wanted, but nothing that I truly
needed. I've experienced a lot of things in my twenty-five years,
everything except the one thing I want. It's the one thing that can’t be
bought. It can't even be taken, it has to be given. And nobody has ever
given it to me, not really anyway.

Not until him.

Music
is the center of both our lives, but as he found his place in it, I lost
my way. He soared, while I spiraled down a destructive path.I lost myself in more ways than I can count.

The ironic thing is that I didn’t realize how lost I was until he found me.

And now that he has, I have to wonder if he'll stay around long enough to catch me.

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Excerpt:

Prologue

Eight Years ago

My eyes burn
from tears that mask my eyes but refuse to fall as I stare out into the
ocean. Focusing on the waves crashing the rocks below, my eyes trail
along the water. A body of blue so big and wondrous that I can’t decide
where it begins and where it ends, because it doesn’t—the ocean doesn’t
have a beginning and an ending, it just is. Much like me, it just is.
Except I do have an end, and that ocean is it for me. I clutch the red
bars before me when sobs threaten to overtake me, thoughts of the hell
I’ve been living seeping through my memories. Closing my eyes, I see his
strawberry hair and the light freckles that paint over his beautiful
smile, and the pain stabs me harder. The reality of what I did
spreads through me as the sobs consume me. I killed him. I killed him.
The only person who was ever there for me, the one that showed me what
love was supposed to be, and I killed him. Tears stain my face and my
dyed blonde hair, wild from the turbulent wind, sticks to it. I try to
swallow back my broken cries as I look around, my eyes squinting at the
sign beside me that reads: Hope. My shoulders shake as new tears rise
and my throat opens up with cries that refuse to be held back.
Then I see him, or he sees me. I close my eyes to the wind once more,
relishing the feel of its caress against my skin before opening them and
looking into the pools in his eyes. “What are you doing here?” he asks. I mirror his question, unable to find my own thoughts. “Looking for you,” he mutters, rendering me speechless.
I open my mouth to speak again but uncontrollable shivers invade my
body making it impossible for me to form words. My eyes roll back
shakily and panic floods through me because I can’t see him anymore. I
can’t see the boy that found me. I can only see the one I failed. The one no longer here. He’s gone … and so am I.

Chapter One When I was six years old, my father held both my arms and shook me so that I would look into his eyes. “Who do you want to stay with, Brooklyn?” he seethed. “Who do you choose? Me or your mom?” I
looked between both him and my mother. She was standing there with
tears running down her face, her hands covering her mouth, and her eyes
screaming what her mouth wouldn’t. I didn’t want to choose between them.
Truthfully, they were both a terrible option, even in my six-year-old
mind I knew that. They were always arguing, always fighting, always
screaming—my mother always throwing items at my father. But they were my
parents and I loved them both. They were all I knew. In the
end, I never had to end up choosing because they chose each other. They
always did. One thing I learned from seeing my parents is that some
people would rather stay in a toxic relationship than experience the
fear of the unknown. I understand that now. They chose that life and I
have made an effort to choose to not become that with anybody. As much
as I have to love them because they’re my parents, I never want to marry
someone like my father, and I sure as hell never want to become my
mother. I’ve tried so hard to distance myself from them and their
exuberant lives, yet here I am, waiting to speak to my father. Waiting
to see what favor he’s going to ask of me, because there’s always a
favor to ask. That’s the thing about my parents: I love them because
they gave me life but in return love me under conditions—always theirs.
And they don’t leave room for interpretation when I don’t agree to their
favors. They threaten me with taking away things like my education. My
mother is the queen of threats, amongst other things, and she uses that
to her advantage. Boyfriends, cars, concerts, school, clothing, friends …
you name it, she has taken it away from me. At the sound of heels clinking on the marble floor, I rise out of my seat. “Your father will see you now,” Sherry, his assistant informs me as she turns to usher me to his office. I
roll my eyes at her when she turns around. I don’t need somebody to
walk me to his damn office. I’ve been coming here since I was a child.
Despite the three mansions he owns, this building (along with three
others) is where my father lives. Sherry suddenly jolts to a stop, the
short red bob that frames her face swaying into her eyes. She pushes it
back quickly and presses down on her earpiece to speak. “Yes,
sir. I’ll be right down,” she says to whomever is on the other end then
she turns and smiles at me. “You can make your way in now, Brooklyn.”
“Thanks,” I mutter as I push the two massive iron doors open to enter
the foyer that leads to my father’s lair. When I reach the threshold of
his office, I stop and look around. Everything is as manicured as it
always is: the wooden shelves filled with LPs that adorn the right side
of his office are spotless, matching the larger-than-life stark wooden
desk that sits in the middle. It’s simple yet masculine, but the
thing I love the most about his offices, all three of them, is the
stunning view that the floor-to-ceiling windows hold. This one is the
most impressive, in my opinion, as it showcases Hollywood. The bold
iconic letters on the canyon are as clear as a postcard from here. I’ve
always been drawn to those letters. That sign is the one thing that
makes me smile, despite the burden the word holds. “Hey, Baby Girl,” my father croons as he swivels his chair to face me. “Hey, Pa,” I say, retuning his smile as I round his desk to greet him. He
opens his arms for me and pulls me to sit on his lap, his green eyes
bright as he examines my face. That’s the thing about my father, as much
as I want to despise him for some of the things he has said to me in
the past, and for making me feel like I’ll never be good enough for…
anything, I freaking love him. I lean my face into his chest and breathe
him in; he smells like cigarettes and honey. He always smells like
honey for some reason, I think it’s the shampoo he uses. When I pull
back I dust some little white flakes from his light brown wavy hair and
smile. “What’s up?” I ask, getting up and perching myself on the edge of his desk. He exhales a long breath. “Are you still dead set on that microphone company?” he asks. The
swinging of my legs die down and I swallow loudly, waiting for the
impending question. I already know what he’s going to ask of me, so I
start to blink away the tears that I know will soon form in my eyes. Blink. Blink. Blink. I
have an issue when speaking to authority. For some reason tears well up
in my eyes when they speak to me. I can sit here and psychoanalyze
myself the way I’ve done, the way others have done, and say that it’s
because the authoritative people in my life never paid attention to me
when I was a child, but that would be an odd reason for the water in my
eyes. Regardless of what the reason behind it is, they’re there,
swimming in my sockets, burning before my iris, and threatening to spill
out. Blinking one last time, I tear my gaze away from his face and look
out into the horizon. My parents have always had this pull on me. They
know how to twist my arm hard enough to see that I agree to what they
ask of me. Growing up, my mother wanted me to follow in her footsteps
and be a model, as if anybody can just snap their fingers and become
one. When she saw that I didn’t have a model body like her, despite her
efforts in making me diet from a young age, she gave up on me—with much
dismay, I might add. I decided to study business because I wanted to
start my own empire—of anything. I just wanted to be part of something
big that I could call my own. Petty dreams, I guess, even for an
eighteen year old that had just gotten out of a stint at rehab. When I
declared my major to be business, I had to convince my mother that I
would use it in fashion one way or another. That was the only way
she would agree to not take my car away from me and continue paying my
tuition. My father, of course, would defend me, saying that business was
a great option. He didn’t care much about what I did, he had my older
brother to hound and make an employee of his. Still, the fact remained
that I was good for the music industry, as much as I hated it. I was
good at scouting for talent. I was the best, really, though nobody knew
this because my father’s label, Harmon Records, took all of the credit.
My father is the best there is, and his label is the biggest in
the world. Nobody can take that away from him, but he lacked something
that he had when he first started out: the spark. The one thing that
separates him from the rest of the guys trying to sign artists to their
labels: the drive. New artists come to us because a lot of people they
look up to are signed here, but Harmon is always looking for different
sounds, unheard talent. My dad doesn’t scout anymore because he’s built
an empire with the Harmon name and branched it out from music to
clothing and alcohol. “Yes,” I say, my voice steady, even
though I can feel the anger burning from within. “We’re doing really
well. I really believe in my brand.” I’ve been working with my
best friend Allie on a line of microphones. Obviously my parents think
it’s a joke, but ever since one of the biggest entertainers, Shea
Roberts, started using them, our line has taken off. “I know that, sweetheart, and Fab is an amazing brand,” he says in an exhale. “But I need you in Harmon.” I
turn my face back to him, feeling those words like a jab in the gut,
not that I expect him to care about the way they make me feel. My eyes
take him in again, he looks dashing, as usual, with his light brown hair
brushed perfectly and his tailored blue suit fitted perfectly over his
body, but he looks so exhausted. Chris Harmon has been overworking
himself for the past forty years and it’s finally catching up to him.
His deep green eyes plead with me and I know he’s about to go in for the
kill. I also know I’ll fall for it, so I put my hands up so that he’ll
let me speak. “You know, all my life I’ve done everything I’ve
thought you guys wanted me to do.” I pause when he raises an eyebrow and
gives me a look. “I’ve done these things hoping you guys would notice
me, be proud of me. And it’s never mattered because everything I’ve ever
done gets overlooked. I know that I’ll never be as good as Hendrix, but
anytime I find something that I think I can finally excel at, one of
you takes it away from me. When will you be happy with what I’ve done?
What do I have to do?” I ask, waving my hands around for dramatic
effect. He walks over, moving his seat in front of me. When he
stops before me, he cups my chin so that I’ll look into his serious
eyes. “Bee, I am proud of you! We’re all proud of you! Look at how far
you’ve come in just a few years. You turned your life around. You quit
all your bad habits and got back on your feet. Do you know how hard it
is for some people to do that in this city? It’s because of how much I value you that I need your help. I need you to help me find new artists…” He
lets the question hang between us. His eyes tell me that he’s not
really asking me to do this—he’s telling me that I will. I roll my neck
and look outside again. The sunny sky that’s slowly clouding, the cars
stuck in traffic on the highway, the nightclubs that I used to frequent,
the streets that made me crazy once and restored me to believe in
myself again. “What do you want me to do?” I ask. “I
need you to move to New York. You can work out of there. Hey, maybe on
your free time you can work with your Aunt Mireya. She can help you out
with that line of yours,” he offers with a smile. “How thoughtful of you,” I quip. He
raises an eyebrow but lets out a laugh. “Always the smart alec,” he
says. “You can leave tomorrow. I’ll have the plane ready for you. You
can stay at our place in the city, and your brother will walk you
through anything he needs you to do in the office. What time can you be
ready?” he asks, getting up from his chair and shrugging on his suit
jacket. He’s effectively dismissing me, knowing he just got me
to agree to something that I never concretely said yes to. Knowing that
he’s asking me to give up everything I’ve been working on. For a second I
wonder what would happen if I turn him down, and then I have a
flashback to things that have happened when I’ve turned him down in the
past. I know it’s not worth it. “Good seeing you, Dad,” I mutter, turning to walk out of his office. I
hear his footsteps follow me and stiffen when he grabs my bicep and
turns me around to face him. “Hey, you’re the best there is at this,
Baby Girl. Be happy, you’re going to change people’s lives.” I
guess in a sense he’s right, I do change people’s lives when I offer
them a chance to sign with Harmon Records. I also effectively screw over
a lot of them, but I try not to dwell on that thought. “I’ll be ready at ten,” I say, in response to his previous question. “I’ll call Hendrix to let him know I’m coming.” He smiles his empty yet charismatic smile. “He already knows you are.” That
doesn’t surprise me and as I turn to walk away, one last thing occurs
to me. I turn around and ask him before I lose my nerve. “Can we maybe
not tell anybody in the company who I am?” I know this is something my
brother still struggles with, the idea that people have that he hasn’t
earned his place. They all think he was just placed there because he’s
my father’s son. They’re not entirely wrong, but it doesn’t take away
from the fact that my brother has been working since he was sixteen. His
eyebrows furrow. “You don’t want people to know that you’re my
daughter?” he asks, and for a moment I think he may be hurt by this.
Maybe he is, maybe I don’t care. “Nope. I want to do this for me, to prove myself worthy of working there.” His
mouth pops open and I know he wasn’t expecting that one. The first
chance he got, my brother Hendrix took the job of CCO and ran with it,
never looking back or wondering whether or not he was a good candidate
for it. “But you’re a Harmon, of course you’re worthy of working here. It’s your company, Brooklyn,” he says, frowning. I shake my head. “No, Dad, it’s your company. The artists that I sign from here on out are my artists.”
He searches my face as if trying to figure me out. “Are you saying you
want a commission? Because that’s already assumed, Brooklyn, you’ll get a
commission.” “I never did before,” I say quietly with a slight shrug. He lets out a laugh. “Whose commission would you have wanted, BK? Let me guess … Shea?” I grind my teeth together in hopes that I won’t lash out.
“From what I remember, you got a lot more than signing brags with
Shea,” he says. He knows he’s hitting a nerve there, and it’s a low
blow, even for him. “I can’t believe you just said that,” I say, my voice a broken whisper as I take a step back.
He shrugs. “Yeah, well, it is what it is, right? Be at the airport
tomorrow by nine.” He shoots the last part over his shoulder as he turns
and walks away. I hear him tell Sherry he’s headed to his next meeting.
The difference in the way he treats me and all of his
employees is incredible, you would think he fathered them and not me. I
don’t call him out on it though. I just let it be like. My best friend
Ryan used to get mad at me for that, but somehow I always find a way to
excuse his behavior and berate my mother’s instead. She is much worse,
after all. My father comes from nothing; he’s the oldest of three
children of a cocaine addict and a deceased father. Growing up in
Brooklyn wasn’t a walk in the park for him and he doesn’t take anything
he has for granted. I think he’s done a pretty good job in instilling
those morals on to us. My mother, on the other hand, thinks everything
is owed to her. The air she breathes should pay her because she allows
it to go into her golden lungs, that’s how she sees it. I’ve always
wondered what attracted my father to her to begin with because I just
don’t see it. I take a moment to gather my breath and make sure
my tears aren’t going to spill over before I begin to walk quickly. He
stops to pick up some papers from Sherry and I make my way to the
elevators. I know he has to walk by me on his way to the conference
room, so I take a deep breath and click the down button when I see him
approaching. “Hey, Dad,” I call out and wait for him to
acknowledge me. “For the record, nobody knows I signed Shea. I gave you
all the credit.” Thankfully the elevator door closes before I get
a chance to glimpse his face one last time. It’s not like he would ever
apologize to me. He’ll never tell me I’m right, and he’ll never thank
me. And I think I’m okay with that now.

About the Author:

Claire Contreras graduated with her BA
in Psychology from Florida International University. She lives in Miami,
Florida with her husband, two little boys, and three dogs.

Her favorite past times are: daydreaming, writing, and reading.

She has been described as a random, sarcastic, crazy girl with no filter.

Life
is short, and it’s more bitter than sweet, so she tries to smile as
often as her face allows. She enjoys stories with happy endings, because
life is full of way too many unhappy ones or ones that will scare the
daylights out of her and have her looking over her shoulder at every
turn. Like I said, she's very random.

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