Monday, July 26, 2010

Sunday, July 11, 2010

after a week of doing peads, i came to one realization..i am no joker..

instead, i am THE JOKER

why so serious!!!!!!

the best thing about peads so far is how u gain trust from parents and the child alike.. how they appreciate the long hours put in.. how they hug you and said "u r the bestest doctor... i wanna be just like you".. how u gain confidence from just their smile.. on how they inspire you to do better next time...

the not so nice about peads are the fact that they are really really sick, they need you to know stuffs that can help them, they need u to be on ur toes always as they doesnt go hand in hand with the time-space continuum.. one minute they say weeeeeeee, the next second auwieeeeeeeeee....

my heart is with peads but my common sense tell me to stay away...

emo-ness, but to me physicians start treating their patients with a smile on their face....

Monday, July 5, 2010

beginning monday, i will heed all my inefficiencies and awkwardness toward pediatricsthe one specialty peeps keep on telling me, are made for memaybe it's my social inaptitude, my immature sense of seriousness or maybe just because i'm a retardbut for sure i think it's not MADE for me..

that is why i'm kinda freaked out by the thought of handling sick kidsas in 'peeing-in-my-pants-freaking-out'

i love kids but i dun like the notion of being around sick kids and the parentsand yes, the material might be too overwhelming -- to me..

but hopefully, time will tell.. and god will lead me to the path that is destined for meinsya-Allah

on a lighter note, i had one of the most chilaxing weekend for quite some time.just lazying around and cleaning the place up a bit.. gave me a sense of direction and belonging-nessmight sound a bit off the scale but doing chores calms me down for some reason.. my source of endorphinsbefore u think i'm a neat freak or something, i would like to stress here that never have i been a tidy person.. missing stuffs and hopping around piles of laundry is a norm to me.. a work of art in picasso-esque;p

and the best things about cleaning up is, u'll find treasure lost since ancient time.. like my old notes saying how i urgently need to lose weight or study more.. kinda like a self-reflection thing.. before-and-after.. and i'm proud to say i'm satisfied with the changes so far.. not quite there yet.. but getting there..

a post of random ideas on current well-being and future hopes... now that's a first from me

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About Me

simple, non-hamsap halal malay dude, with a lot of muhibbah-ness going in and out of his life, loves to be around those who appreciate one another, treasure friendships and would love to know what's on the other side of his own bowl