Nada.Bad binge yesterday; first time in months. Gluten...I stay GF like a few others here..so a take it easy day, and mental from weight gain, but it's not a good thing w/ me, so need to work through that. Maybe tomorrow, as my focus is somewhere else,..and it's rare I don't use the gym or back in the day a long hard one in the canyon. 5 or 6 miler. I have always been Ike this. I am completely, 100% aware of what I n we'd to do to make right. There, I journaled my training.

45 cardio, stairmill, level 16 --left nano w/ podcasts in car- tried to focus on gratitude and not the the television...God is good--even when he lets the bad things happen.

1/2 cup fresh pineapplelotsa coffee2 trilogy kombucha's- officially off limits...a binge2 boxes glee tangerine gumbig chunka tofuMore pineappleMore tofu- big chunk,...usually a lot per day..too much...like 400 kcal and 50-70 g of protein per dayVega is ripping my guts up all proteins do eventually and making out on yum almond butter. I have my self control back. The bender was huge. I hate being that down. Too much to do. Will lift tomorrow. I took 2 days cardio off and three days resistance. Re wrote my resume and honing skills...amazing podcasts for careers, and I listen to while working out ...manager-tools is exceptionally awesome for anyone reading and looking or honing career skills. I feel like I am attending mini workshops. Great to keep from being stale.

I think binging can be a good thing. Granted, i used to take it way too far and was technically obese a few years ago. But now, with body building, my trainer, who is a natural pro, INSISTS that i have a cheat meal once a week, which is basically a binge. according to him it revs up your metabolism and if i was to skip my cheat meal, it would ultimately hurt my results as far as cutting does. it gives you a chance to eat what you want to satisfy yourself mentally as well as physically, to give your body extra of what if might be craving. after my cheat meal this morning i weighed a 1.2 more pounds than i did yesterday but also went to the bathroom three times within an hour after waking up and having coffee, and i had a great workout. so im not concerned about it sticking to me and you shouldnt be either. i had a chipotle burrito, chips and guac, clif builders, and an apple. last week i had a burrito, chips and clif bar and my trainer was liKE "THAT'S ALL YOU HAD"? HE TELLS me about his cheat meals and they are insane. for the superbowl he had corn bread, chili, paninis, antipasta at least...and whenever he tells me about what he has he goes crazy, but his body fat has remained low and hes competing on March 24. dont bee too hard on yourself. and how much damage can a vegan do on a binge? its not like we eat cholesterol or enormous amounts of saturday fat, and we dont hurt any other creatures doing it. by default we are much more health conscious than most other subcultures anyway. i hope this helped. i wonder if anyone will retort and tell me im an idiot...

thanks and ya, on bingeing..I get so restrictive and its how I roll...severe body dysmporphia somedays..even at 50. If you saw me, you'd wonder what I am complaining about. I am better..I know what I won't be eating again..so so sick

Yeti...I need to get up that way... I was going to pick something up at SDSU Aztec bookstore, but I may order online..when I sold my car, I lost my alumni tag holder..I want one!

home listening to podcasts.honing skills. The worst of the binge is over and I am feeling stronger. I feel like I got hit hard by a 2 x 4 for days,...fatigues...mental..I have a big monkey on my back I haven't gotten to budge--my bad.

This is today...I am up 3 - 5 since contest pics; post surgery, lay- off, unemployed, and biggest personal crisis to dateso, my abs at about 10 weeks of not working hard- and my legs are a constant but...my diet has been bad for me, older and gain faaaast. So this is my starting point,..today. Its all part of leaner, meaner and stronger , faster, better as I am now on the other side--I want to tighten my abs an still work on my legs- the goal is to Benjamin Button as I grow older....always a work in progress

will go back to gym this eve and either do more cardio and abs or not at all...not lazy, but things to tend to

Most of the weight i gained is off. Yay. So far:3 mins stairmillLeg extensions 3 x 10 @ 70Leg press/ instead of squats 3 x 10 @ 100Walking lunges 4 x 40 w/ 20 # dumbbellsLeg curls 4 x 10 50 #Butt blaster 3x 10 @100Seated calf raise 4 x 12 @ still feeling the lazies and just working through it..like back in the day when i woukd say i woukd only run 2 & ended up running 6. Working thru the valley of the i dont want to. I also LOVE my early AM workouts~ sets me up for a good day. Usually

Hmmm...my insides hurt as well as my intestines are swollen,...again. As I I gained 5 lbs overbite

So far, 4.5 mile at the beach, 1/2 on boardwalk and 1/2 right on the beach on the sand. Because I can. And it was fast, and yesterday was lunges as well as I had a fab massage last night, so my butt was so tight and sore...Love it. I have so much muscle,..when I hurt it's a god thing!

Thanks...I know my loose skin sucks, but so does being 50 and having 3 grown kids. That's me hating my legs..you should see my arms, shoulders and back--I could compete tomorrow. . I hate my thighs, and I feel heavy. I know...crazy. By the way,you look awesome in your cutting, and kudos on the guy. It's always fun to have someone interested.

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