thats right kids, 8 POUNDS total so far! so, weigh in was supposed to be today- but i couldn’t wait and i got on the scale on Saturday, and i had lost 5 pounds!!!! 5 pounds last week!!! so i was scared, that i would get on this morning, and it would be a fluke and i’d actually still own those 5lbs, but i didn’t!!! and actually, it was one pound less!!! ( but because i’m psychotic, i’m not counting that pound, cuz i don’t trust that its really gone lolol…we’ll see in next week’s weigh in.) so yes….it could technically be 6…but we’ll see.

SO that means, that 2 weeks have FINALLY passed…which was initially my first tiny goal. It was just GET THROUGH 2 WEEKS finally. Because after 2 weeks, anything becomes a habit, and then you aren’t fighting through first 3 days of hunger/horrible cravings and headache… or

“oh it hasn’t actually been that long anyway- i’ll just eat this SUNNY DOODLE or twinkie, and start over tomorrow”
Because NOW….i’m like “i DO NOT WANT TO GO THROUGH THE FIRST 2 WEEKS OF THIS AGAIN.”
i’d rather put my head through a brick wall. And now i’ve seen a little success, and i want more so BAM.

You see, I’ve been on this back and forth for MONTHS, GOING to the gym, but eating like shit…stopping and starting, lying to myself and telling myself that i WAS eating healthy WHEN I KNOW BETTER. and still, always feeling gross and uncomfortable…not losing a pound and wondering why (all the while actually knowing, that i wasn’t going balls to the walls all out like i know i have to to see any results at all.) and now, I’m finally seeing results, and I’m EFFING THRILLED. I’m assuming next week will only be like a 1 or 2 pound loss, but I’ll take it…(and that would put me at 10 official pounds lost, since starting this all over again, and I’ll JUMP FOR JOY.)

ANYWAY.

FOOD!

1 day off a week is NOT enough…I don’t really have my saturdays to myself because i have to get up early and haul it downtown for the show, and right after that, i go to tap and by the time i get home i am WIPE THE F OUT.

Friday night: i made these oat cookies from http://blueberrygirlinoz.blogspot.com/2010/05/no-sugar-oat-drops.html
they are super high in fiber, protein, no sugar, butter or bad stuff. Great for breakfast, or a really filling in between meal snack…about 120 cals a cookie (cuz i made them double the size, i think they were supposed to be smaller.)ALSO: i’d like to post a picture of the coconut i used….these cookies have unsweetened coconut flakes… I LOVE USING unsweetened coconut in a few different recipes which i’d like to say i managed to find a reduced fat version of, making them EVEN more amazing. i was veryhappy.literally like 40-50 cals less than the regular one:

then, yesterday, i went a little nuts. All day i was inspired to cooki made brunch in the morning:

YOU SHOULD KNOW, i am OBSESSED.WITH.TOSTADAS. Any thing i can put on top of a crunchy tortilla, i will and don’t try to stop me. Sadly, my fat gut can no longer continue my love affair with tostadas.SO i found these low carb, 50 calorie veggie tortillas…i threw them in the oven and they got brown and SUPER crispy=TOSTADA LOVE!!! then i made a hash. NO POTATOES, but i used veggie crumbles, red pepper and onion (thats it!) and i swear to god, it tasted JUST like cornbeefhash!!! then, instead of making it sort of omlettey (thats a word. no. its not.) like i usually do…I made little holes for the eggs, cracked em in, and threw the whole pan in the oven, and baked the eggs. Then i topped the whole thing with a little quick Guac and a piece of turkey bacon. (which i woke up like, CLAWING MY WAY TO THE KITCHEN looking for. can you say craving??) it was amazing.

Last NIGHT, my kitchen was like Top Chef i swear. i was running around like a MANIAC, making 5 dishes all at once. For Dinner: was making a filet of Cod, with a mixed greens salad( a little goat cheese, black beans and onions)….and THESE TOMATOES: !!!!! :

THEY WERE AMAZING!!! all it was, was tomatoes: topped with a little Parmesan cheese, oregano, salt, pepper, a little general italian garlic seasoning and a drizzle of olive oil. in the oven, and they come out crusted and delicious, and TASTED LIKE PIZZA i swear!! THEY WERE amazinggggg with the fish! I SWEAR, i wanna make these with everything. AND the best part is, they only have like, 20 calories !!!! going IN on these.

AND FINALLY……
the moment YOU HAVE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR….to diiiiieeeee for….

SO EASY and SO EFFING DELICIOUS!!! its just a can of pumpkin, a package of sugar free fat free vanilla pudding, 2 oz of cream cheese, cinnamon, cloves, ginger and nutmeg (like DASH literally of each) and some cool whip, folded INTO the mousse…then layered in the glass. the whole thing is about a half a cup. ( 1/4 on top, and 1/4 on the bottom)
And let me TELL YOU.

IT WAS TO DIE FOR!!!

ALRIGHT, i have to leave you now…because I’m literally sitting at work, blogging like THATS what i get paid to do.
and this has certainly been long enough.

BUT do yourself a favor and TRY THE PUMPKIN!! its like a pie in a glass while laying in Heaven on a cloud with a harp and unicorns. (maybe not. but still. its effing delish.)