Yesterday I was in conversation with a close friend when I said, out-of-the-blue, “I imagine that felt a little like someone spitting at you.” It was the first time, in a long time, that I remembered living that reality. As a teenager, my mom regularly spat at me. It was her way of accentuating her feelings of disgust, disappointment or rejection. I think I had blocked that memory.

A major section in my book is the subject of opening our hearts—living in connection. Relationships are such a huge part of the pleasure and wonder of life. And when things aren’t right, it can affect all other areas of life.

If you saw my video after Valentine’s day, I shared how my husband and I had experienced some major stress between us when I went on a working bing for a couple of weeks,

That’s right. You heard me right. I don’t know the true originator of that concept, but when I adopted it with curiosity I experienced a transformation in myself and in my relationships.

I HAVE NEVER MET MYSELF. I discover new things about myself all the time, things change inside me in an instant when I have an insight or paradigm shift, and I can choose to reinvent myself in any given moment.

“I forgive myself for judging myself as not good enough for my mother’s God.”

As soon as the words left my lips, tears poured down my face.

I remember vividly the day I got the call that my mother had passed. I had just purchased her a Mother’s Day card. I have since learned that when the inspiration for the expression of love hits me, I better go with it and express it all out in that moment.