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I don’t know why did I start writing here. It has been a long time since I have had posted anything here, but still today I couldn’t stop myself.

I am here to write about ‘Depression’. Yes, you heard it right.

Many times in life, there comes a moment when you feel like giving up on everything. You have been suffering for a long time, above all, you cannot seem to share any of your grief with anyone, not even your close ones.

You feel this empty hole in your heart which no matter how hard you try, you don’t seem to fill it up. It starts with a tiny empty hole, which further starts on increasing its size by effectively feeding on your negativity, your sorrows or whatever source it could find its negative energy from.

Today, I read about this terrible incident that took place in K-pop industry. I have been a part of K-pop for a while now; reading and watching the advancements there have always given me some sort of excitement or encouragement to live my life. Why? Because the struggle, the idols of this world go through is no joke.

To become this successful and known, many of them go through severe conditions, but the criticism never stops. This goes for anyone out there who is trying to survive in this world, either hiding or being known to the public. As people climb the ladder of success, they seem to get a lot of criticism; this criticism can either be positive which can actually help them to survive or like most of the times it becomes a deadly push to bring them down to a new world–a horrid world known as depression.

There are two types of depressed people:

Those who can be discovered through their way of accepting the depression and negativity and hence can be given help.

Those who after entering into depression, cannot be discovered because they live in a disguise to fool those who live around them.

First type of people, who are not capable of bearing all the pain or negativity, they have been getting from their close ones (yes, even their parents, not everyone is blessed.), or from their surroundings, begin walking on the path of destruction; they start building walls around themselves in order to get that safe feeling–they have been desiring from the start. They keep their thoughts to themselves but eventually, as depression starts to grow on them, it becomes visible on their face. How? When you see someone not being their usual cheery self when you are very much aware that how amiable they once used to be; when you see someone picking on their food, instead of eating it while completely zoning out; when you see someone who used to get engaged in any discussion or argument you have had before, only to find them being in their own created world, then just know, just know that this is the point where you need to step up and help them come out of this misery. Because you never know what would happen next. You cannot be sure of anything but just know if you or anyone won’t help, then the next thing that would come to you as a news, will not be pleasing at all.

Next type is the most dangerous one, as the people coming under this category are very hard to be found with their real self. Why? Because they seem to live their life like nothing has happened to them. They seem indifferent to the tough circumstances they have been going through; they think themselves as fighters–fighting through the tough situations all alone without needing any support or shoulder but what they don’t know is that they actually have not been fighting, but suffering from the pain, all the way from the start. But what makes them hard to get discovered by the people is the fact that they know how to hide their emotion; they wear a mask to hide their true self so that no one would be able to know about what they actually are going through. Why do they feel the need of doing this, when they could have told about this to anyone close to them? Let me tell you the reason. When depression starts to grow up on such people, they start to feel insecure about themselves.

‘What if these people start to judge me?’; ‘what if I start to get more hatred?’; ‘what if after knowing about my situations they start to laugh on my life?’–a number of what if(s) slowly begin surfacing in their mind that they eventually make themselves a mask of fake happiness and wear it to avoid all sorts of questions, that have already started contributing to the tiny hole of depression, and hence, the hole of depression grows.

Today, Jonghyun, a member of a very popular South Korean K-pop band ‘SHINee’ was found dead in his apartment. This disturbed me more than anything. He was young, hell, he was just 27. He was successful, he was popular and as it seemed to many of us, he had everything which we couldn’t have but in the end, he couldn’t survive. Why? Because he was suffering alone and when he found it hard for him to survive anymore, he decided to free himself from his grief.

To say that I am upset would be an understatement. This is not the first time, I have heard of someone committing suicide. From one of my close friend to Jonghyun, there are so many people who couldn’t share their grief with anyone and while trying to live their life that way, eventually gave up.

These people are not here anymore but it is not like depression has ended too. No, it is still here–bringing people’s mental health to the point where they are most likely to be snapped.

Such people need to hear our encouraging words about such mental issues and most importantly, depression.

You guys, depression is not something bad, it can be cured only if you decide to step up and help yourself first. You should know that you are not alone in this world, somewhere, somebody is willing to help you. Mental issues are not a joke and need to be taken seriously. Gone are those days when visiting a psychiatrist was regarded as your unstable mental state; gone are those days when only those people who seemed to have had lost themselves completely were allowed to visit a psychiatrist. This is a modern world and you have to try coming out of that hell-hole, either by yourself or by depending on someone. This someone can be your parents, friends or even a stranger who is willing to help you out in any way. Believe us when we say that we actually are willing to help; there are so many people out there who can help you with sorting out your thoughts, you just need to let your guard down and allow them to be by your side.

At last, I want to express my condolences to Kim Jong-hyun’s family and SHINee fandom for this loss.

You were an amazing person Jong-hyun. It is okay, now you are free. You don’t need to suffer any more of whatever grief you had been suffering from all alone. You will always be loved and missed by all of us. Rest in Peace and may you live a happy next-life without any difficulties.

When you were young, did you ever see writing as a career or
full-time profession?

No, never.

Who are your books mostly dedicated to?

To my parents who, unfortunately, are no more.

Have any new writers grasped your interest recently?

I will take two names. Both of them are established authors with loads
of fan following. The first name is Dr. Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni. I
simply love the books written by her and her writing style. The second
name is Ms. Julie Klassen. She writes Regency novels which
are my favourite. Though both of them write about two very different
topics, I love them both.

Is there anything you are currently working on that may
intrigue the interest of your readers?

Currently I am working on two novels and both of them are love
stories. They are not romantic novels but deal with the complexities
of love and how it can change lives for better and for worse.

Is there anything you find particularly challenging in your
writing?

I like to write stories that strike a chord with people on a personal
level. Sometimes it becomes a bit challenging to tell a relatable
story in an intriguing manner.

People believe that being a published author is glamorous, is
that true?

There are always two sides of a coin. Yes, it is glamorous but at the
same time very few people know how much efforts and hard work goes to
churn out an interesting book.

What is that one thing you think readers generally don’t know
about your specific genre?

Truly speaking, I do not follow any genre. I try to tell my story with
full honesty and in the most interesting way. If you ask me about one
word about my genre then I would say “Life”.

Did the thought to give up writing ever occur to you?

No.

What is your motivation for writing more?

My love for books. And of course, the appreciation by readers and
reviewers act as catalysts.

Any words of encouragement for the upcoming generation?

Writing, like any other work, needs perseverance. During the whole
process of writing a book, you may find some people who will encourage
you and some who will try to put you down. One should not get
disheartened by the criticism. Take them as tips to improve your work.
Believe in yourself and keep writing.

I feel deflated right now. Why, you ask ? I will be starting a new chapter of my life, from this new city – Haldwani.
Then, how come, am I not excited ? Or maybe thrilled to come across the adventures, I always wanted to go through ?
Why do I feel deflated, when I should be full of enthusiasm. I remember, a week before, I was so full of excitement, I was happy, for I was finally stepping towards a peaceful life.
Was I not having one before ?
Let’s rewind to the part where I bet, you’ll get a hint.
I am from Pilibhit, a small town, a developed ‘village’ to be precise. Where no matter how things have developed or reached to an entire level, one thing, one fact remain unchanged; untouched whatsoever – Mentality of the people. They live, they eat, they enjoy normally, but think differently.
So far, I bet you still don’t have any idea about my not so peaceful life. Believe me, even I don’t! You can laugh, for all I care.
The truth is I was being strong about living here, away from my family. But as soon as the reality started to grasp my mind, I felt my knees loosen, from the fear of getting away from them. Yes, my family.
I never did really live a normal life before. I faced something, more horrendous than my worst nightmare and more disastrous than any natural calamity. Way to go over-dramatic, I know, but the truth cannot be denied.

Now when I look back to those nights, when I couldn’t sleep ( not like I sleep easily now ) because of the terror of that something ; my fear being similar to those , who are either too scared to sleep with the phantoms of their fear chasing their minds, or too haunted by the demons residing within them.
When I couldn’t eat because of this nagging in the dark sides of my mind, when I couldn’t laugh because of an uncertain fear of never getting a good laugh again.- I feel light to be here; away from the dreadful past I lived, till now.
Like every daughter in the world, I have never been my father’s little princess or whatever title, daughters today prefer to use, to describe their relationship with their dads.

My relationship with him was a bond, I think, I could never describe to anyone. Words might fall less for our bittersweet love. He never did consider me a typical loving princess while I always considered him as father.

Tonight, I am living my old life for the last time. I am in that emotional state where my pillow cannot stand the waterfalls, my eyes are currently generating. Tears, I tell you!
Just a few hours ago, while I was pretending to be strong from outside, my father called. I want you to read and understand the cause of my emotional breakdown, through my conversation with him.

Me : ( Very much! I will miss your surprisingly good yet rare side of yours. I will miss mum’s nonstop scoldings, her food, her love. Most importantly, I will miss YOU. ) No Papa, I will not.

Father : Hm.

Me: ( Say something Papa, I know you will miss me. Say for once. You will miss our fights, our arguments, our rare laughs, our bickering. Say, you will miss me the same way I would miss you. ) Here, talk with mum.

And there my friends, I ended our conversation. That was where, I felt my strength draining from my body. That was where, my fake pretending met its end.

But, what was the reason ? I never liked my father. He was the reason, I couldn’t sleep at nights. ( Another long story for another feely night )
You know, deep inside, you have the truest feelings for someone. No matter what they did or do to you, your feelings won’t budge. They remain same and tonight, at this hour of night, I am high with those feelings.
So feely, that my pillow is tear-stained, my mind is sorrow-filled, yet a new beginning has already arrived at the doorstep of my life.
My heart is full of determination this time and mind you! I will not kick this beginning from my life again.
Because, in spite of getting away from my everything, I will be moving towards my something.
And that something, better not kill my expectations again.

Kasak, a girl blessed with powers to predict the future. How does she do it ? How does she end up with such powers ? That’s what will be found in the book and its story. Will these powers help her to solve the biggest problem in her life ? Will she be able to solve the biggest mystery ?
After losing her family, Kasak becomes the part of a wonderful family, of her Uncle , Aunt , and cousin – Ravi, who is naughty yet an integral part of her life.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR :

Jaydeep Khot, is a 21-year-old writer. An alumnus of Narsee Monjee College of Commerce and Economics , he made a start in the literary world from his debut novel : 50 Miles – A Reverse Journey , while Envisage is his second book.

BOOK TITLE AND COVER :

Title of the book is catchy and very impressive, along with the book’s size, which is relatively small, just shy of 80 pages.
A reader is mostly attracted to a new book by the creativity shown as its cover page.
The cover of “Envisage” is amazing as well as a curiosity-raiser.

LANGUAGE :

The language is simple and softly written, which is a plus point for us, readers.
The book doesn’t include any troublesome vocabulary which would’ve made it harder to finish or read.

NARRATION :

If the narration of a story is indeed beautifully done then, we can easily find ourselves engrossed in the story, which can be considered as a brownie point for an author.
This book’s story is inscribed simply yet with a flavour of suspense and mystery, that too concluded in the smallest suspense genre book ever.
Author’s introduction of ‘Taekwondo’ in the story is also worth praising.

DISLIKES :

1. Although the story is short and simple, yet one can find the storyline fast paced with all mysteries solving one after other in a fast pace.

2. Proper proof-reading could’ve made the story more powerful and impressive.

There are some books which tend to surprise a reader to a great extent, with the content, language, and ofcourse , the story line.‘Kaliyug- The Secret Plot’ is one of them.

When I first received the e-book version of this book, I was not very thrilled, reason being the mythological genre of the book. But then again, now If I may say the book and author has amazed me with the story, then this may be considered as an understatement.

The summary was indeed beautifully written. The book includes all the mythological tales, ( I am sure one has been hearing about, since childhood. ) in telltale format.
The book revolves around Kali and Kaliyug’s secretive battle with its twisted secretive plot.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR :

B.S. Sarwagna Kumar is a proud student of Film making at Ramoji Academy of Film and Television.
This is his first attempt in writing and well needless to say what’s making this world something which it shouldn’t be, has what inspired him to dig into kaliyug.

BOOK TITLE AND COVER :

By far, the title and the cover of this book is one of the most catchy yet impressive creation, I have seen.
The title of the book is real predictable and one can easily judge the book by its cover, although that might proved wrong by the inside story of the book.
Cover of the book is really pretty and creative. Hence, will definitely grab more attention.

LANGUAGE :

The language is perfectly inscribed and might I add, this time the book indeed includes several heavy words, which might make you use that long-hidden dictionary of yours.
Although, the language is full of heavy vocabulary but indeed the story is not at all boring, with the usage of such.

NARRATION :

The story goes in a soft flow with curiosity raising in one’s heart.
One can never guess what is to happen next in the book and that is what may considered as an interesting thing with respect to the book.
The book explains about various Yuga(s) and their significance. Each yuga starting with an interesting tale and ending with the start of other.

DISLIKES :

1. Since the book is mythological as well as somewhat spiritual, it might attract only the attention of certain section of readers.

2. Despite of having a strong story line, the book is stretched far too much for some reader’s liking.

LIKES :

1. The book title and cover are very creative.

2. The story line is strong. ( I am not into such books but still it was worth a read . )

3. The language, the editing and the grammar is well-maintained.

Above everything, I liked the book fine and wish Mr. Writer a good luck for the book.

‘The only way to get close to those glittering stars in heaven is, to look at a soldier with stars on his shoulders.’

Every time, they’re around, the thing that we see is the bravery awards, medals, the pride, but what we cannot see is their heart that lies inside the iron chest, some untold stories, sacrifices , and the hardship they’ve been through. Every soldier has a story that is unique and extra ordinary.

A tale of brotherhood and heroism, a tale of love and betrayal, ‘Heart of Bullets’, is about two best-friends Arpan and Sam, and the untold story of their friendship, their love, Shradha, but what happens when Sam gets hit by the enemy across the border ?
What will Arpan do to save his friend ? Will love prevail over friendship of lifetime ?
There is a decision to be made, is the life without love and friends, better than dying to save the one we love the most ?

ABOUT THE AUTHOR :

Founder of Perx studio, a complete photography solution, and a professional photographer himself, Nikhil Kushwaha has already touched hearts of many through his previous works, ‘Six Teen mistakes’ published in 2014 and ‘The Waning Moon’ published in 2015.
This book being his third, is entirely different from his previous works.
A tale that includes both genera- Patriotism as well as Romance.

BOOK TITLE AND COVER :

As the book suggests, the book title as well as the cover is accordingly set and made.
The book title where speaks about bravery and pain, the book cover clearly supports it along with the element of romance.

LANGUAGE :

With the timely dose of beautifully written quotations as well as poems in the start or in the end of almost every chapter, the language is anything but complicated.

NARRATION :

The book is perfectly written. It starts with Arpan narrating his recent adventure tales to his siblings, while he is home for a short vacation.

Story revolves around three main characters of this book- Arpan , Sam and Shradha.
Arpan and Sam, being in Indian Army have been through several adventures together and are best companion to each other.
Although, their love interest being the same, is what complicate the things, with Sameer getting his love and Arpan becomes an one-sided lover.
Although, something happen in between Sam and Shradha that drift them apart. And to know about this ‘something’ readers are compelled to finish the story in one go without any distraction.
In one of the fights, the bullet injured Sam very badly, which gives rise to several questions in reader’s mind and hence can only be answered in the end.

DISLIKES :

1. Although the cover is according to the book title, yet it could’ve been improved better.

2. Repetition of lines.

3. Death of Gorilla – Shradha’s father.

4. Minor grammatical mistakes

5. The editing of the story could’ve been done better.

LIKES :

1. Touching poems as well as quotations.

2. Description of the operations, at the army quarters.

3. Book title is very impressive.

4. Simple yet grasping language has been used.

Above all, a very common tale yet with a very different flavour of love , friendship and sacrifices.

Have you ever got a chance to ask for an apology? Is your ex still suffering from the things you did? Had you ever loved anyone more than your life? Did you ever thought of realizing after a breakup that whatever you did was wrong?

If answers to these questions are confusing than two characters of this book will teach you how to indulge into love in a better way. They will explain you the real meaning of modern love. While the journey to New Delhi ,both of them meet each other at the railway station and turned friends.
They booze, fight and did mischievous things together but later on a girl named Zobia entered between two and was a third member in the group.
As she was outspoken and friendly she slowly bent their talks to relationship and love. Agreeing to what she said all three started discussing about love, relationship and romance.
Joy and cheery realised their love for ex was strong but it was late enough for an apology to be granted.
Find out what they will do to get back everything to normal.
Will Zobia help them or she will just listen to there pain and will ignore it.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

‘Hues of Modern Love’ is the second book by this budding writer – Paras.
Although, the book comprises of a whole new plot and is not at all cliché, still could’ve been edited better.

BOOK TITLE AND COVER

Title of the book is perfect and is accordingly made.
About cover, without presenting it in any complicated way, it is presented simply yet elegantly.

LANGUAGE

Author has clearly avoided the usage of heavy vocabulary and thus , language is simple, yet is not devoid of errors.

NARRATION

Journeys refresh mind, although also bring the past memories in a way that, compel to reminisce the past; the past which either depicts the mistakes we have had made or the relations we have had left behind.
This story revolves around three characters- Cheery , Joy , and Zobia.
Although the major part of story involves the already broken and left behind relationship of the protagonist – Cheery.
Moving on is not easy and the story line states that it is rather more hard to move on, when you’re still stuck in the memories of your past.

DISLIKES

1. Mistakes are very noticeable and grammatical errors cannot be ignored in the book.

What do you call it when three beautiful women come in your life, but you are still single?
What if they all, at some point, tried to entice you but you feel like committing suicide because of loneliness? What do you call it when you made no mistake but still, you feel guilty as sin?
Jay had a common life until Saloni, Prachi and Vineeta came in his life and changed everything.
At times, he avoided the love that knocked at his door and when he actually needed it, the same love kicked him. He betrayed, He got betrayed, He rejected, He got rejected.
From being shot in the back by Prachi’s father to getting intimate with Vineeta under the influence of alcohol, his life was as spicy as those masala Bollywood movies.
He was getting used to his life, until one night, he decides to jump off a building and end everything.

MY TAKE ON :

AUTHOR

‘The Justified Sin’- being the first work of Harpreet Makkar, I expected the book to have several mistakes and other amateurish stuff, one could find in a new author’s first work, but as a debutant , he has done quite a nice job. Having good narration skills in him, author succeeds in keeping me and may be all readers, intrigued till the end.

BOOK TITLE AND COVER

Title of the book is catchy yet leaves a wrong impression on a reader’s mind about the book, being a crime thriller.
Also, the cover of the book is creative but nowhere matches with the story line.

In literary world, for a good beginning, few traits are a ‘must to have’ for all the new authors.
One of them is narrative skills , which author has in him. This is the reason, why I kept turning pages after pages and finished the book in one go.
The plot revolves around the life of Jay and three ladies in his life- childhood friend : Saloni , his best-friend’s girlfriend : Prachi , and his doctor-cum-girlfriend : Vineeta. When two of them were sure about their attraction and feelings towards him, Jay was not sure and the girl Jay was sure about, didn’t appear to be serious with him.
Although author has brilliantly penned down the emotions of protagonist, I came across many situations, where a proper end to certain incidents haven’t been given and yet the same event has been brought up later, which is actually a major turn off.

LIKES

1. The title is intriguing.

2. Attractive Cover design.

3. The portraiture of Jay and his father’s relationship.

DISLIKES

1. Occurrence of SMS language in between conversations.

2. Title doesn’t go well with the story.

3. Book’s ending could’ve been improved much better.

RATE :
3/5

Above all, author’s narrative skills have done an excellent job throughout the whole story and hence making it an intriguing book.

Shobha Jain- a Reki Grand Master, Astrologer, Vaster , Consultant , Crystal healer, and an Aura reader ; along with the attributes – Palmistry and Chakra healing as well, she has guided thousands of people unconditionally.

Extremely versatile in her outlook , she has gained excellence in whatever she undertook – be it in artistic field , spiritual , and now in literary too.

ABOUT THE BOOK

Shobha’s first book – “Messagesfromthe Soul World” gives an insight into communicating with the departed and henceforth, the mention of several communication tales of her, in the book.

SUMMARY

Since, the book being a highly spiritual one, consists of several messages and tell-tales, which are said to be told or more rather delivered by the souls, through a method of communication known as Auto-writing.

How the author’s trust in god and after-life gets more strong and enlightened, is mentioned in the book.
The idea of conversing or let alone establishing some connection to souls , itself either creeps or fascinates people.

Although, the book being in non-fiction category is full of real occurrences that occurred in Shobha’s life after the demise of her son-in-law; along with her explaining the concept of auto-writing and her encounters with souls.

The book also consists of several instances of the author’s communication with her closed ones, or with the closed ones of those who visited her in seek of hope and peace.
All the instances involved, somewhat a strong message of someone’s devotion to their family.

POSITIVE POINTS

1. Highly spiritual, and can attract a certain group of people who find such stuff, motivational or inspirational.

2. Can act as a good source for those who seek god’s presence through prayers.

3. Few of the quotes are really catchy and impressive.

NEGATIVE POINTS

1. Major errors in editing.

2. Starting topics could have been acknowledged better.

3. The book mentions the birth or re-birth and death of people belonging to only one religion- Hinduism and hence might not be able to attract the attention of other ones.

4. A certain section of book mentioning Buddhism, might offend people belonging to Buddhism.

Overall, the book is capable enough to acknowledge people with positive vibes about after-life and hence strengthening their belief in auto-writing as well as in communicating with souls.