i seek something more, something elusive, like silver sand. now I think I found it, and there, its gone again.

Tagged: by Austere

3 Things that scare me:

a. walking into office. i am always thinking, what if i did something horrible and they just discovered it, bullies, new people, the middle class morality/closed minds that dont even know it, having to defend, argue something i believe in ... list is endless ... all confrontation based social fears.

b. (other) acquisitional people and soul-collectors.

c. being made a fool off, fear, pain and sometimes the dark.

3 People who make me laugh:

a. jerome k jerome.b. oscar wilde.c. georgette heyer.

3 Things I love:

a. storiesb. sleepingc. eating

3 Things I hate:

a. me getting mad and flying out of controlb. me slacking when i shouldntc. losing / spoiling something because i was careless

3 Things I don’t understand:

a. statisticsb. people's sense of humourc. shopping. fashion. roads. time management. how to be friendly. social skills.

a. Trying to nail IRR paper - which is due day after - with little or no successb. Worrying about next general direction of lifec. Wondering why there dont seem to be any suitable, single, straight 30+ male humans out there. yes suitable is the key word.

3 Things I want to do before I die:

figure out some stuff (whats common and whats not between schizophrenia and autism)pass my coursewrite my IRR paper

(yes - i am a little problematically singe minded at times)

3 Things I can do:

a. sleep or not for 3 days at a stretch (just did both in last week)b. writec. play golf

3 Things I can’t do:

a. multi taskb. shopc. make polite conversation with people i have no interest in (but i can fake it really well, actually)

3 Things you should listen to:

hemanta kumarbachled zeppelin

3 Things you should never listen to:

rapremixed bollywoodpsy

3 Things I’d like to learn:

a) control my temperb) to make perfect biryani / cook like my momc) play the piano perfectly

3 Favorite foods:

Steak (rare - pepper and anything sauce. with broccoli and carrots and beans)Boiled bhindi with salt and mustard oil (yes, i know!) or any boiled veggies specially kaerela (YES, I know!!!)Biriyani and Rezzala

ps - i dunno man. i like ALL food! except pineapples and jackfruit and most fish

3 Beverages I drink regularly:

watercoffeetomato juice

3 Shows I watched as a kid:

never watched much tv ... i remember loving i dream of jeanie and wonder years but dont remember whenprobably top of the pops (reminds me of rajiv gandhi - dunno why!), and the weekend movies - all of them, and i remember watching a serial with a guy and wolf. dad says it was remington steele, but i'm sure not. and spiderman, phantom. remington steele too. i dunno. i am too old to remember and too young to re-remember.

• sleep or not for 3 days at a stretch (just did both in last week)• coffee - strong black sweet cold - incessant (hah hah hah - yes)• Steak (rare - pepper and anything sauce. with broccoli and carrots and beans)• Boiled bhindi with salt and mustard oil