Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Currie's Gratitude 28 October 2014

I like the scientific
spirit—the holding off, the being sure but not too sure, the willingness to
surrender ideas when the evidence is against them: this is ultimately fine—it
always keeps the way beyond open—always gives life, thought, affection, the whole
man, a chance to try over again after a mistake—after a wrong guess.[Walt
Whitman, Walt Whitman's Camden Conversations]

When I “go missing” for a few days, when I simply don’t want
to engage myself in any sort of conversation, for fear of the landmines that
lay on that path, when I just BEgin to shutdown systems one-by-one, then I know
it is time for surrendering.

Soon madness has worn you
down. It’s easier to do what it says than argue. In this way, it takes over
your mind. You no longer know where it ends and you begin. You believe anything
it says. You do what it tells you, no matter how extreme or absurd. If it says
you’re worthless, you agree. You plead for it to stop. You promise to behave.
You are on your knees before it, and it laughs. [Marya Hornbacher,Madness: A Bipolar Life]