Endured Anguish

coming up on 13 years
the memory
the emotional gut punch
still
gnaws in my belly
at the recollection
of that move of yours
your betrayal
such poor form
to hold hidden fierce truths
years of lies
went by
camouflaged in my perceived sincerity

it’s what fools don’t know
that keep wretched people
like you
in the spotlight
of adoration
but no more
it’s time
you become the stranger you are
because you weren’t real
ever
not now
and certainly not in the past

she, who will never be recalled
will no longer
make me grit my teeth
send a surge thru my stomach
no longer
will i care
no longer
will i wince at the mention of your name
you don’t deserve to take up any room in my headspace
or my heart

17 thoughts on “Endured Anguish”

Wow, awesome post, Susi!!! So powerful and raw! I’m guessing this is autobiographical?? So Sorry, if it is!!! It is so strange how we know and yet still let others take advantage of us!! Even in the hurt and pain that they cause us it is weird that we often find it hard to “Let Go”! Thanks so much for sharing this with us, My Dear!!! Have a great weekend!!
xoxoxo