Sunday, September 4, 2011

Under the Weather

Well, I guess two breakdowns in a month isn't too bad after moving to another continent, right? I haven't felt quite like myself the last couple days - I think I'm just overwhelmed, and on top of that have been feeling sick, too. And then, as if I needed the cherry on top, my phone got stolen (my brand new phone). It was just the straw that broke the camel's back. The tears kept coming. I had opened the flood gates. The world felt like it was ending. The rational part of me was saying, everyone is healthy, nothing that horrible happened, but the irrational part just couldn't stop crying. I wanted to call my Mom but she was sleeping. I wanted to feel at home, but we had just moved in days before. I totally threw myself a little pity party. I'm feeling a little better now, but still not 100%.

The good news, no great news, is that we have friends coming to stay with us for a few days starting Wednesday. I can't even tell you how excited I am to have a familiar face, a familiar voice, to spend time with. For family and friends who are reading this - please, please come visit. We miss everyone so much already and welcome visitors anytime :)

Okay, sorry for the sad post today, but wanted to give you an update since I haven't been regularly blogging. We don't have internet at our new place yet (which we really do love, it's just a mess right now!), so posting might not be as regular until we do. But I will try my absolute best!

And by the way, here's how I often turn a bad day around :) A delicious Belgian beer makes everything better. Am I right?

*I realize I looked borderline cray-cray in the last photo. Let me remind you it had been a long day.

22 comments:

It will pass and you'll feel excited and thrilled to be living this new life again soon. I remember days like yours, when we moved to the US for the first time. When it would take just one small thing to go wrong and it felt like the world was crashing around me. Thankfully those days were way outnumbered by the great times we had.

Seriously, when I first moved to England, I cried every single day for the first month. (Okay, so I was 17, and my host family was horrible, but still.) So you're allowed many breakdowns. It gets better though, and you will be so happy that you took the opportunity to live&work abroad.

I think you are staying actually ver balenced for all that you are going through!!! I am not a familiar face but we will be up there soon! Maybe we can meet up. I'll bring american gossip magazines and anything else USA made that you miss! :)

:( I'm sorry! I know that feeling when you can tell yourself to feel one way, but your emotions want to do something totally different. It's ok to let it out, and I'm glad you get to see friends soon!!

so sorry to hear you are feeling this way liz it is totally normal so don't think you arent you are! it is totally ok to break down and let out your frustrations, hope things will get better for you hon, you are totally normal don't forget it!

Don't worry, it gets better! I definitely had those overwhelmed feelings too...living abroad is amazing, but it's super-hard at times too. Nothing a good beer and some visitors can't fix though! Hope you're feeling better soon!

I have been following your blog for a couple months now and I wanted to say, despite the breakdown (we all have them) how truly inspiring I think your story. I think you are courageous for deciding to move to another country and embrace it the way you have. Some days are better than others...Belgium beer always helps, but in the end you get through it and you are a better and more adventurous person.

So from a fellow Portlander, Prost and Santé to your new adventures in Amsterdam!

aw!! i'm sorry you had a bad day, but this post just sealed the deal for me, I'm totally following this blog! haha, it was the disclaimer that did it! I'd love to see a post of your apartment if it's decorated and what not! Happy, happy travels! :)

I just came across this post - I know it's super old, but I am trying to get some ideas from your blog for a trip to Amsterdam in a few weeks. I know how you feel transitioning, and now that you've been there for over a year, I am sure you can almost forget the emotions of moving your life across the world, not speaking the language, and having to wait weeks for internet to be installed. We just went though the same thing in Belgium and after a couple months, we're finally feeling settled. Anyway, I love your blog and I am getting some good ideas here!Thanks!Lana