Hun, I know it's hard to stay here, especially in a world that you don't seem to like very well. But in the end things WILL work out for the better, things will change, you just have to give it time. But if you feel that you don't have time, then take it upon yourself to make the changes you so desperately need. Life is a matter of preferance. You have been given options that you can choose from. Please, Make the right descision. Good Luck! Stay Safe!