This is my journey from where I am to where I am going. I'm not sure what it is going to look like, but it's going to be an adventure.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Why I gave my TWLOHA WSPD Bracelet Away

I sat in my
friends car tonight and listen as she talked about the things in her
life that had happened in the past couple of weeks. Things spiraled
out of control and when faced with the choice to live or die, she
chose life. She has a hard time getting there and a hard road ahead
of her. She's got some amazing people around her and praying for her.
She's fighting. She's not giving up. She's still here. All those
things are important. She is important. She is going to change to the
world. She cannot be replaced.

As we sat in her
dark car talking over coffee, I couldn't help but remember all the
other times we sat and talked, sometimes coming up with our crazy
inside jokes that we still laugh about over a year later and
sometimes in the dark confessing the darker things that have happened
over the years. We talked tonight about those darker things and the
battle we both sometimes have to fight. She told me of what she wrote
me in her suicide note and how she just wanted to end the fighting. She
told me of the days after and the choices she was forced to make. She
let me in. She broke down a wall. We both wiped tears from our eyes.

This past
National Suicide Prevention Week, To Write Love on Her Arms sold a
t-shirt, bracelet, and pamphlet pack, and I got one in memory of my
little brother. I've worn the bracelet every day since in his memory.
It's white and in big orange letters it boldly states “YOU CANNOT
BE REPLACED”. At some point in the middle of the conversion I
handed it to her. I realized she needed that reminder far more than I
did.