Monday, May 24, 2010

Smile!

So they packed up my iMac yesterday and now I am forced to use the Alex's MacBook, oh bother! Which points to the time of leaving. I went for a run this morning having full intentions of running out my frustrations up Killer hill. What ended up happening I'm sure had something to do with God as I got to the top. I felt like God was smiling at me and it got me choked up. I asked Him how He could smile at me when I acted like a spoiled brat and pouted like I was 16 again? It was as if He exhaled and slowly shook His head and I sensed He would be letting me know. So I turned around and headed back down the Killer hill and picked up speed as I went. As I was coming to the bottom and the end of my run the song "Smile" by Uncle Kracker came on and I almost fell down. I can't really explain what that songs did to me at that moment but it was like God and I were having this conversation through the song! I sucked in my breath and the tears started to flow, theses are the words that God and I shared...

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your life
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments when my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
Sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of
bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

So, what do you think about that? This has been an emotional weekend that started last Monday. While graduation was great and Alex did wonderful, it is only part done. Or as he told me after graduation, now it's time to get to work! I want to rest in what we have done, but like the Israelites after they had crossed over the Red Sea, now the fun of really following begins.

Things that I remembered today are: I am the Beloved of God and He is pleased with me! My friends will always be my friends, because they love me for who I am. I will never make as much money as I think I should, in fact I might not get paid in cash at all...and that is OK. My husband loves me, believes in me and my gift and is proud to partner with me in ministry! The coolest thing about today is I make God smile!

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About Me

I'm the wife of Alex, aka Preacher man/APM and I'm learning the way of walking with intention while laughing and loving life! I tell it like it is, so you have been warned! I love to pray and spend time with folks seeking a deeper walk with the Lord. I'm a Spiritual Director!