And then you set me out to sea aloneIn a small boatWhere it is always nightAnd I can hear the water splashing softly on the hullI put my hand into the water from time to timeTo feel its coolnessAnd let some fall upon my faceOnly to remember that it is salty and burns as it flows downThe lonelinessThe stillnessAre at once comforting and disconcertingSo good to be aloneNot having to deal with eyes thought to be condemningSo hard to always feel unworthy To feel less than what I should have beenThe stillness and the starlight seem to wrap me in a sort of sweetnessUntil I give in to the urge to scream to break the constant silenceThe journey is a rough oneFor the seas are never angryAlways placidAnd there seems to be no reason for the agony I feelAnd yet, some days I'd end it in a secondIf I could summon up the courage not to dread a botched attemptAnd some days I would dive into the coolness of the waterSinking out of sight forever as my little boat sails onBut, in truth, I hope for happinessSome shore of loveSome place where there's relief of memoriesOf guilt for being who I amA place where all of this could be washed off in some magical island streamAnd I could end my days like some modern day RobinsonSitting on the beachEnjoying quietly and peacefully a beautiful amnesiaUntil my days were past

I don't think we ever get the amnesia, and after all the work you are doing do you really want to forget what it is you have really achieved? But I do think we get peace, that "shore of love" - beginning with love for ourselves - that you talk about.

Much love,Larry

_________________________Nobody living can ever stop meAs I go walking my freedom highway.Nobody living can make me turn back:This land was made for you and me.(Woody Guthrie)

Ah Bobby,Still wanting to run and hide. I don't blame you. So much ugliness. But your in the boat and the journey continues and who knows what shore you will find. I do believe the boat is being guided by an unseen hand. Let him steer. The shore awaits even if the amnesia is elusive.

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