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Friday, November 18, 2011

I’m doing well.Doctor appointments have been a bit overwhelming and I must say the stress is starting to get to me. (All I want to do is sleep.)I am however continuing to run, but after about five or six miles I’m so tired! And while I run it is odd to feel like my chest has it’s own heart beat.But the most difficult time while running is trying to let my mind wander because that little heartbeat in my left breast is a constant reminder that things have changed so dramatically.It’s okay though.I just take one step at a time and before I know it I’m done with my run and back home again.

All the food friends are bringing me is so nice.Corey and I were very reluctant at first to accept the offer to create a food calendar but now that I’m gone so much I’m glad we caved.It’s great not to have to worry about what to cook for the kids.I was getting tired of sandwiches and cereal!!!

The other night a friend brought us dinner after a long day at the doctor and after we ate I took Cameron to a birthday party. On the way he said that he was sad I was unable to pick him up from school as much.I knew then that was God’s cue to tell him what’s going on.I proceeded to explain that mommy was sick and there are times when one of mommy’s friends would pick him up.I also told him that some of our friends would be bringing us dinner.He looked out the window for a few minutes and said "so… will we always get dessert? Because that would be so awesome!" I just laughed and said "maybe honey."I was a little worried he didn’t understand what I said but that night when he said his prayers he said "Dear God I hope you sleep good tonight and please help my mommy feel better soon."Out of the mouth of babes.

Like I said this is all overwhelming but I have been able to see God work in my life like never before.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Thank you so much for praying for me.It means so much to know that there are so many people behind me. I have had so many questions so here’s the deal.

I was watching t.v. one night with my hands behind my head.I had an itch under my arm and when I went to scratch it there was a pea size knot there.I knew I had a well-woman’s check-up ina week so I put it in the back of my mind until then.The appointment was two days after my 30th birthday. I showed my doctor and she ordered an ultrasound and scheduled it for the following Monday. (Let’s just say that was the day the whirlwind began.)I went to the appointment thinking I would be there an hour and was there for four hours. The moment the probe touched my chest I knew things weren’t looking good.I had a mammogram that same day and within an hour after leaving the doctor I had a call from the specialist saying to come in the next day.I had that appointment and five minutes after leaving they squeezed me in for a biopsy the next day.I found out Friday that I do indeed have breast cancer.

The awesome thing is that I know God has a plan for me.I know He has everything under control.I know that 1 in 4 women (not sure of the odds exactly) get this and I consider myself the lucky one.God knows that I can handle this.He knows that I will NOT sit in a corner and throw myself a pity party.I will let His light shine. (If any of you truly know me, you know I am a stress ball.)It is God's grace that I am okay with this.I WILL fight this head on. It’s just another marathon, but this time I have tons of friends and family cheering me on.The spectators are for me and my hope and prayer is that through me you will see God's handy work.I promise you this.

I will keep you updated through this blog.But in the mean time I challenge you to walk, run, bike, or rollerblade a mile for me.It can be daily or weekly but walk a mile for me!While you do, say a prayer for me and thank God for everything you have and are capable of doing.Trust in the Lord in all you do and you will succeed!