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Friday, April 25, 2014

Yesterday
I had the privilege of participating on a women in STEM panel at the FIRST
robotics competition. Surrounded by countless talented, smart, incredible, and
inspiring women we spoke to a room full of students and mentors about
supporting women in STEM. The room was packed with people who genuinely wanted
to know what to do to encourage women to pursue and stay in STEM fields. It was
also filled with the future of women in STEM. Bright young women who were
looking for advice and reassurance that this is the right path for them. And
while none of us had all the answers some great discussion and advice came from
the panel.

But
it wasn’t until a somewhat shy student in the fourth row raised her hand and
asked “how do I get recognized for my accomplishments in an
environment where others get recognition and I don’t?” that I realized how
important this panel really was. This question honestly stumped me for a
minute. I sat back and waited for some of the other panelists to answer. But as
I started to think about it, I realized this is at the root of women’s
struggles in STEM fields.

Women
in STEM are frequently in the minority. We often look around a room to find we
are the only woman there. It is extremely difficult for women to be heard and
taken seriously. We often get lost in the pack. It’s why Sheryl Sandberg’s book
Lean In has gotten so much attention.
As females we have to be a bit more proactive and make sure we are in the
conversation. We often have to step outside our comfort zone and make sure we
are heard.

This,
however, is not an idea that starts in the workplace. It starts early on in our
lives when we are students. Boys tend to get more recognition than girls,
especially when participating in STEM activities. I don’t think it’s something
that intentionally happens, but I do think there is a good reason for it. Guys
tend to be more open and up front about what they’ve done. They want everyone
to know what work they did and how well it went. Everything they do is a big
deal! It’s how they are wired. Girls tend to be more modest. Girls tend to think
people will notice what they are doing, and that they shouldn’t have to talk
about it. But in a room full of screaming people, often times accomplishments
get overlooked. And girls far more than guys second guess themselves about the lack of recognition.

We
are our own worst enemies. We are wired with this little voice in our head that
questions everything we do. We see people constantly doing what we are doing,
but we think they are doing it better. Then we see them get recognized for it
and wonder why we aren’t. After that the downward spiral starts. We begin to
question whether or not we are qualified to do this thing. We aren’t getting
recognized and clearly there are people better at it than us so what’s the
point?

And
when you have a voice in your head telling you that you aren’t good enough, it’s
really easy to walk away and stop doing it. It takes a really strong person to realize
that the voice is just that, a voice, and it is wrong. It takes an even stronger
person to stand up to that voice and say no I am good enough, I deserve to be
here, I can do this.

So
how do we help women develop the ability to combat this voice? How do we help
women find the affirmation they need to keep moving forward?

Simple
answer? We praise them when we see them doing awesome things.

The
more complex answer? We encourage them to speak up. That it’s okay to tell
people about their accomplishments. We let them know that with a room full of
people sometimes it’s hard to know what everyone is up to and that it’s
important to draw attention to accomplishments. A lot of guys have no problem
tooting their own horns, and girls should be right there with them.

But
there are more subtle ways to do this. Many women don’t feel comfortable
speaking up about what they’ve done. They are afraid of being a braggart and
that’s completely understandable.

What’s
a more subtle way to handle this? An accomplishment jar.

People
can put little notes inside about awesome things they see others doing or
things they themselves have accomplished. Participants can submit peers or
themselves. It’s a simple anonymous way to draw attention to accomplishments
without the fear of sounding like a braggart. Then the leader of the group can
read the slips periodically. It not only brings attention to what people are
accomplishing, but also makes the group want to watch those people in the
future. This means that the praise may start coming more immediately instead of
after the fact. That said, no matter when it comes, everyone likes to be recognized from time to time.

On
the flip side, it also takes realizing that you aren’t always going to get the
praise you deserve. And that sucks! BIG TIME. But there are going to be times
where you get recognition for things that you think aren’t really a big deal.
And it’s going to seem weird. But you take it and say thank you. Because it’s
the universe’s strange way of balancing everything out.

The long and short of all this, whether you are male or female doesn’t really
matter when it comes to praise. Everyone likes to hear they’ve done a good job.
None of us hear it quite enough. So go out there and make someone’s day by
telling them you appreciate what they do, and that they’ve done a good job. You
don’t know whose life you might be changing for the better.

Monday, April 14, 2014

The lovely Nicole
Evelina tagged me in her blog hop so here’s a little bit about what I’ve been
up to.

1) What am I working on?

A MG fantasy about
dragon changelings and my main character Sasha who wants nothing to do with her
dragon form.

I’m also furious editing
a YA sci fi thriller that I’m really excited about! Hopefully I’ll be pushing
that out into the world soon.

2) How does my work differ from others of its genre?
Okay let’s talk about my MG WIP. And without spoiling too much since my WIP is
fairly new, Sasha lives in a world where the dragons aligned into clans, but
the clans don’t get along. In fact it’s traitorous to associate with dragon
changelings outside of the clan they reside in. Sasha grew up outside the clans,
which inherently puts her at risk. And she quickly learns there’s a secret all
the changelings are hiding and it’s the very reason they don’t get along and
have remained separated.

3) Why do I write what
I do?
I absolutely love the question ‘What if?’ It’s how most of my ideas start and
that lends itself very well to science fiction and fantasy. I also grew up on
both genres, and am a huge sci fi/fantasy junkie. I love it and have a hard
time saying no to it no matter the medium.

I’m also an aerospace
engineer by day, so I love to take existing ideas and technology and stretching them
just a little bit further. You might say I’ve been training to write science fiction
and fantasy my whole life!

4) How does my writing
process work?After the initial idea, I start with
an outline. Always. I need to know where I’m headed, even if I don’t 100%
follow it. With the case of my current WIP, I’ve also spent a lot of time world
building. Figuring out what each dragon clan was about and what makes them
special. How they differ from the other clans. Usually though the world builds
as I write so this vast initial world building is new for me. But I think it’s
a necessary part of fantasy.

After that I write. I start at the
beginning and I go and keep going until I reach the end. As I go my outline
shapes and changes and sometimes I get snippets of scenes I’ll plug into my
outline, but for the most part my writing process is very linear. Idea,
outline, write start to finish. I think it’s my engineer side taking over. ;)

Thanks to Nicole for
tagging me in her blog hop. See below for more information about her and for a
link to her post about what she’s been up to.

Author bio:

Nicole Evelina is St. Louis-born
historical fiction writer represented by Jen Karsbaek of Foreword Literary. She
is the author of an Arthurian legend trilogy that tells Guinevere’s life story
from her point of view, as well as a work of women’s fiction. Nicole is a
member of and book reviewer for the Historical Novel Society, and Sirens, a
group supporting female fantasy authors, as well as a member of the St. Louis
Writer’s Guild and Women Fiction Writers Association.

She is one of only six authors who
recently completed a week-long writing intensive taught by #1 New York Times
bestselling author Deborah Harkness. Nicole has traveled to England twice
to research the Guinevere trilogy, where she consulted with internationally
acclaimed author and historian Geoffrey Ashe, as well as Arthurian/Glastonbury
expert Jaime George, the man who helped Marion Zimmer Bradley research The
Mists of Avalon.

Her website/blog is http://nicoleevelina.com
and she can be found on Twitter as @nicoleevelina as well as on Pinterest and
Facebook.

Friday, April 11, 2014

If I had to use one word to describe St. Louis Comic Con 2014, I'd probably say surreal. Then I'd quickly follow it with amazing, exhausting, exciting, and awesome. Really I could go on and on and on with all the wonderful adjectives but suffice to say, I am one lucky girl. The weekend was downright fantastic.

Wizard World STL in 2014 was several times larger and definitely more badass than 2013. For starters the vendors and artist alley was held inside Edward Jones Dome instead of on the convention center floor which served as the entry to the con this year. From the moment I stepped onto the floor, I could feel the con energy. There's something about a nerd dressed in cosplay surrounded by her people. And while I was bouncing off the walls for at least a month prior to the con, when the day finally came I was calm cool and collected because I was finally in my element, finally home. It’s the best feeling in the world
to be in the place where you know you belong.

Stargate Sg-1

After getting our wristbands and
waiting in line for the con to officially start, the lines finally started to
move. We wandered the vendors and artists alley for a bit, looking at geeky
tshirts, toys (yeah I still REALLY want a lightsaber), and awesome art! I even
ran into the awesome Heather Brewer who was signing books and giving away swag!
It was also fun to check out all the people in cosplay. In general there’s tons
to see and explore.

Ghostbusters cosplay

After that we went to a Doctor Who
panel followed by a panel on the psychology of science fiction. Both were
really interesting. And then it was time to head home and rest up for day 2!

Day 2

When we arrived we waited in line
to get in. Then we wandered the vendor floor again and I got my picture taken
for the online cosplay contest. After that we headed over to the theater to
wait for the awesome panels. As much as waiting in line sucks, I always ALWAYS
meet the most awesome people. And day 2 was no exception. We met fellow
whovians and other sci fi fans, and honestly when you put a bunch of nerds in a
room together they will never fail to find something to talk about. We talked
everything from Buffy the Vampire Slayer to Doctor Who while we waited to get into
the theater.

And then once again the line
finally moved! We found our seats on the first balcony and waited for the first
panel, Eliza Dushku. I loved her in Dollhouse and Bring it On but I honestly
had no idea what to expect from her. She was surprisingly very funny. She
talked about Buffy, Dollhouse, even Bring it On as well as the difference
between working for James Cameron and Joss Whedon. She joked about how her hair
was her superpower and her comfort zone (which call me crazy but I can totally
relate too) and how Joss Whedon loved to take her out of her comfort zone by
frequently putting her hair up in Dollhouse. She later got a tattoo on the back
of her neck so that every time they’d want to do that they’d have to put her
through 30 minutes of makeup. Check out a brief clip from her panel below.

Next up was the Sean Astin panel.
He mostly talked Lord or the Rings but there was a a couple questions about
Goonies, which was fun because someone asked about what he thought about the
possibility of Goonies two and if he’d want to be involved. He responded “It’ll
be sooner rather than later.” And sure enough 4 or so questions later, someone
said they had announced online that Goonies two would happen. Astin’s response “What
did I say before? Sooner rather than later.” In general Sean seemed very down
to Earth and loved interacting with the fans. Check out a clip from his panel
below.

And then it was time for the main
event! Matt Smith’s panel. The theater filled to capacity and after a sonic
salute, Matt took the stage. There was a lot of I love you’s and some awesome
questions from the fans during this panel. Matt was a lot of fun and a great
sport about all the crazy fan love. I recorded his whole panel so check it out
below.

And then it was time to rush out of
the theater and stand in line again. This time to meet Matt Smith. We tagged up
with some friends and did a lot of people watching while we waited in line for
his autograph. And finally FINALLY it was my turn.

Matt looked up at me and the first
thing out of his mouth was “Are you an expendable?”

I laughed and said “No I'm an
incredible”

He said, “Oh right, the Disney
thing. Is expendable even a thing?”

I said “Yes.”

Although very different, close
enough Matt I’ll give it to you. I said nice meeting you and we were off and
back to wandering the vendors.

After another panel that shall
remain nameless because it was badly organized and rather insulting, it was
time for me to line up for the costume contest. Now let me pause here for a
minute to explain a few things.

1) I hate HATE being the center of
attention

2) I hate HATE being on stage

3) I’m a huge HUGE introvert

4) I could go on and on with reasons why this is out of my wheelhouse but I think you get the point.

So why I subjected myself to the
costume contest I’ll never know. Maybe it was because I was super excited about
my Violet Parr costume or because I felt like I was in my element. I’m not
really sure, but when it came time to line up in my spot Lucky Number 2 (no not
daunting at all!) I started to freak out. Especially since the people I was
with filed into the theater and I was alone. Okay not really alone, I was
surrounded by a couple hundred awesome cosplayers but not gonna lie I felt kind
of alone. AND NERVOUS. But I quickly made friends with those around me. A girl
dressed as Poison Ivy and a fantastic family dressed as Firefly. If it wasn’t
for them I might have walked away in a ball of tears. Not only did they calm my
nerves without even knowing it but they made the whole experience fun, no not
just fun AWESOME. We had a mini dance party back stage while we waited to be
announced and then I strutted my confident Incredible (pun intended) self onto
the stage and struck my pose!

Me as Violet Parr in the Cosplay Contest

Then I exited stage right and
joined my fellow cosplayers in the upper balcony. I sat next to the firefly
clan and we had a massive dance party in the penthouse of the theater as we
cheered on the rest of the cosplay contestants. It was a complete blast! I didn’t
win anything but I’m so SO unbelievably glad I stepped out of my comfort zone
and did this. It was 100% worth it.

The Firefly cosplayers

After the contest we jetted off for
some food at Pi and ran into none other than Sean Patrick Flannery. I eyed him
from across the room but gave the guy his space. He didn’t need some crazy fans
interrupting his dinner. But as luck would have it, his group was exiting at
the same time we were. I looked at him said I’m a huge fan and he said thank
you and walked off back to the convention center. We followed and hung out with
other con attendees at the after party in on of the boxes at the dome, then
headed home thoroughly exhausted.

Day 3

Before we knew it we were back in
line to get into the con. I met some other lovely con goers who just so
happened to be big Arrow fans. So we talked about how awesome the series is and
how worthless the Lance girls are (okay not worthless, but if you watch the show
you can understand the dislike). And then it was time to enter the con for the final day.

We headed back to the autograph
area and I jumped in line to meet Nathan Fillion. We weren’t sure if there
would be time to meet him after all the VIPs but before his photo ops but we
got really lucky and squeezed in at the end. The poor guy was nursing a cold
but despite that he was really nice and appreciative of the fans.

Two people in front of us he
stopped and said “Snot break.” Then ducked under the table with a tissue and
proceeded to take care of his nose blowing. His manager/agent whoever she was
stood waiting with the hand sanitizer. And then he went on to shake the next
person’s hand in line and wiped a ton of the excess all over the guy shaking
his hand and saying “Nice to meet you!” Definitely a really surreal moment. I
know actors are people too, but this was proof that he’s just a regular guy.
Then it was my turn, I shook his hand, said I was a big fan and that is was
nice to meet him and we were on our way.

And it was back to the theater to
wait in line again for more awesome panels! First up was another Doctor Who
panel led by St. Louis’s Doctor Who fan club the CIA. No not that CIA, but the Celestial Intervention Agency. It’s
a classic Who reference for those unfamiliar. I also learned that St. Louis has
the longest continuous Doctor Who fan club in North America. Which is pretty
cool. The answered questions from the crowd about classic and new who and what
they thought about the newest doctor, Peter Capaldi.

After that Karen Gillan took the
stage to talk about Doctor Who, Occulus, and Guardians of the Galaxy. She also
seemed really down to Earth. She talked about working with Matt and their final
filming and her appearance on Matt’s last episode. She said she really just
wanted to be there for him. Cue the Awwww’s. Check out some clips from her
Q&A below.

And then it was time for the panel
I’d been waiting for all weekend. The Firefly panel. I knew it was going to be
amazing! And it truly was! Unfortunately Summer Glau had to fly out early, so
we were treated to a boys night with Adam Baldwin, Nathan Fillion, and Alan
Tudyk. You can tell these three are friends and they were having a lot of fun
up there. They mostly answered questions about Firefly and talked about working
on set. And Alan gave away free signed “shit” including butt wipes, which
apparently are good for removing the bags under your eyes. Oh and Nathan
Fillion may have dropped a hint about Guardians of the Galaxy… just maybe. But
I could go on and on about how awesome this panel was. And in fact you can see
how awesome it was in the video below!

And after the Firefly panel, it was
sadly time to go home. Well not too sad because it was an amazing AMAZING
weekend. Utterly exhausting, but full of so much awesome! And after all the excitement
I went home and slept for a million years. Oh and I also blew
up the internet… but that’s a story for another time ;).

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Okay, so I didn't really blow up the internet cause you're all here reading this, but things kind of did explode today. I honestly thought my next blog was going to be about the awesomeness that was St. Louis Comic Con. But something interesting happened to me in the last 24 hours and I wanted to talk about that instead. And it is indirectly related to comic con, so while I gather my thoughts on that, here's the story of how "blew up" the internet.

When I attended the Firefly panel with Nathan Fillion, Adam Baldwin, and Alan Tudyk on Sunday, I knew I wanted to record it. I'd been told that Firefly panels are always fantastic and lets face it, these three are top notch. As a huge fan of the show, I knew I'd not only want to remember it but also want to be able to relive it over and over again. I knew it would be great, but I never expected it so be so downright hilarious. I also never expected Nathan Fillion to drop one of biggest, geekiest spoilers EVER.

Toward the end of the panel, a fan asked Nathan Fillion if because of his connection to James Gunn (a St. Louis native), if he was wanting a role in Guardians of the Galaxy.

"Wanting to get a part... or maybe did," was Fillion's reply. And at that moment the air got sucked out of the room as 1400 people collectively took a breath together. "I'm just saying maybe. Maybe you'll be surprised. Maybe. Check the credits after the movie when you watch it," Fillion finished.

To say the room went bat-shit crazy is the understatement of the century.

I of course took the news to Twitter and Facebook. My friends all replied with "HE BETTER NOT BE KIDDING" and "THIS BETTER BE TRUE" and "OMG THIS IS AWESOME" and other such all caps excitement. And I said I'm pretty sure it is true, but I couldn't put into words the feeling that occurred in that theater as Nathan Fillion answered the question. I couldn't explain why I felt in my very gut that this awesomeness would come to pass. But I did have 40 plus minutes of video including this very announcement.

I wanted fans, truly diehard fans, to share in the news. Sci fi nerds, while on the rise in popularity, still frequently get a bad wrap. So we nerds and geeks have to stick together. We have to look out for each other. We also LOVE to speculate. And this is the perfect thing to speculate about. I wanted everyone to have that opportunity.

So I decided to take the news to one of the biggest sites for geeks, nerds, and fans, Hypable. I wrote up my story and I included the proof. And then I waited to see if it would get approved. An hour later it was on the site and then posted to Facebook.

But a short time after I had a tweet from one of Hypable's site managers, Andrew Sims.

hey! Q for you. Thanks for writing the Nathan Fillion article. Did you happen to find it at http://ComicBook.com?

My first reaction was to get a little defensive. I'd seen their article, but not until an hour after mine had gone up on Hypable. Apparently they were concerned that I'd stole the story from them. I was being accused of plagiarism. That couldn't be true. I was the one that had been plagiarized before. I never would even dream of doing that to anyone else. It sucks, and I'd never wish that 8th circle of hell on anyone or want to cause them that kind of pain. It was just a crazy coincidence that we both posted the same story with Nathan's quote. It happens a lot, both in the news world and also in the writing world.

I can only liken the feeling to when you start to read someone's book synopsis that just sold and your heart skips a beat thinking they've stolen your idea. But you keep reading on in fear and find out PHEW it's vastly different. It's a tough thing to experience, but it happens. A LOT! And it's equally as bad when it happens with big news you think you've scooped. You can't and probably wont ever be the first person to think of something. But that's okay. The only thing you can do is be true to yourself and your story. Each person brings a different perspective to the situation and/or story and it's important to remember that when writing. And it was a good lesson for me to learn. But that's not where the lessons stopped for me. In fact it's only where it started.

At any rate, I popped in on the story periodically throughout the day yesterday to see if people were enjoying it. I want my fellow nerds to be happy. For the most part people were. (yeah, LESSON #2 is you can't please everyone!) People were excited, chatting about it, and liking the post. The video had a couple hundred views. I'd done my job... or so I'd thought.

This morning I woke up to about 1200 views on the video. Cool. People were REALLY enjoying it. I was a happy nerd. By lunch time I had a post on my facebook wall from a fellow friend who attended the con. The video was popping up all over the internet. And it had over 5,000 views. FIVE THOUSAND! I couldn't believe it.

YEAH THIS FACE!

AND THIS!

SAY WHAT?

I started searching and my video was on many news sites. Sometimes my original story was referenced, but often times the video was there and no credit was given at all. NONE. In this case, I honestly didn't care. I'd shot some crappy, shaky video and happened to capture an awesome moment that I shared online. But I quickly realized that this happens ALL THE TIME. People don't give credit where it's due. They steal ideas, images, videos, stories, and on and on and on and don't credit the source. And there's not a whole lot you can do about it. LESSON #3 your shit's going to get stolen. You often aren't going to get credit for it. It sucks, but it happens.

But even more interesting, there were sites that had done their homework, not only credited me by my truncated youtube name, but some had even gone as far to find my full name and give me credit that way. Which leads me to LESSON #4 some people truly are wonderful. They will give credit where it's due. Your job is to say thank you and take it as the credit you didn't get in the past. Enjoy the moment.

And that's exactly what I'm doing. I'm laughing with friends, finding all the new places the video keeps popping up, and watching the views tick up and up and up. Which brings me to my final lesson, LESSON #5, you never know what might explode on the internet. You just can't predict it. I never expected this to happen in a million years. So to that end, be yourself online, and don't be an asshole. I REPEAT DON'T BE AN ASS! Then you wont be disappointed when the thing you least expected goes viral. You'll be proud. You'll be able to laugh about it and truly enjoying the crazy. All 7600 views of crazy and still climbing!

And if you are looking for the Guardians of the Galaxy bit it's at around 38 minutes in.

About Me

I'm an aerospace engineer that has been exploring my creative side. I love young adult and middle grade literature, especially science fiction and fantasy. I'm currently writing several science fiction pieces both MG and YA.