Ham: Greetings, children, I am Ham and I am happy that you have decided to come this
evening. We are grateful for your continuing devotion to these lessons and to our teaching
staff personally. You have each decided to go through the painful process of change that
these lessons allow. No human being exists who is not in need of spiritual regeneration,
growth, and change. All people require help to accomplish the process of gradual
submission to their higher selves.

The ego mind stands ever ready with the assertion that you are right, you are perfect, your
are absolutely fine just the way you are, and everyone else is mistaken. That is the ever
present voice of fear in your mind. It is the basic animal fear which creates the need for
always defending what you perceive to be your self but which is just a position or attitude.
And, it is these attitudes and positions which must change, which must be malleable and
fluid rather than rigid like a fortress in need of defense.

Think of yourselves rather as water in search of its natural level, its ability to fill in and
form into the container or natural bed in the river. This ability to allow change is very hard
for human beings to grasp. All humans create an illusion of themselves by contrasting their
views, opinions, positions to those of others and the personality or the will invests in that
illusion and thus must defend it which makes it even more real. But, all of these things are
but temporary states of mind. The mind is not the personality, the mind is not the soul.
The personality will must overcome these tendencies of the mind by surrendering to higher
will or mind. The natural human mind rebels against any submission, anything which takes
away its authority. But, as spiritual beings, you must recognize that this natural mind is
mostly driven by fear and so is constantly compensating and disguising its fear.

You Urantia Book states that it is possible for your will, will that is centered in your soul,
to override the natural mind, the human mind and to entrust the higher morontia mind
which is a part of and in direction connection with the indwelling spirit. When you favor
this higher mind, gradually, little by little, the fear dominated lower mind loses its
influence, its grip on the personality and gradually, little by little, the morontia mind comes
to dominate the personality or perhaps that's not the right term, comes to infuse the
personality with consciousness of divine love, power, peace, and protection.

The higher mind is never fearful. That is your test. It is the lower mind which succumbs to
fear and all its attendant illusions. The higher mind is immovable. It is peaceful, and it is
ever showing the way toward personality change and unification. The more you can let go
of the lower mind and grasp the higher mind with you will, the less you will be troubled by
anxiety, sudden panic, overwhelming fears, and the more you will have a steady peace, a
reasonable optimism, and a quiet confidence.

The ego mind may assert the illusion of confidence, but underneath there is only churning
fear and trouble. The God mind feels only security and thus the confidence and peace
exuded from such a God knowing mind is real.

La mente egoica podria afirmar una confianza ilusoria, pero debajo solo hay un revuelto
miedo y problemas. La mente divina solamente siente seguridad, por lo que la confianza y
paz que exuda esta mente que conoce a Dios, es real.
As you move gradually into this higher realm of thought, action, and being, there are
things which must be gradually left behind. One is guilt, another is avarice, another is
shame, another is regret, For as your lives progress, you understand that the Father is
always giving and he gives you what you need, just when you need it. There is no sense of
needing more. There is no sense of if only I had such and such, done such and such.

For you come to see that throughout your life you have been using the tools at your
disposal to the best of your ability and in ways that the Father already knew beforehand
that you would do. And so, your life has been a big lesson, journey, a journey take with
the Father and his constant giving. There is nothing then to regret, nothing to feel guilty
over, nothing to wish for because the best that could have been is right now. Understand
this, that you each are at the very best place you could be right now and you all have just
exactly what you need.

Find that peace with yourselves. Let go of that inner fear that you've done something
wrong, that you should have behaved differently in some circumstance or other. The
Father's been with you all your lives. He knew just how you would handle every situation
at the time and all of the accumulation of those decisions have brought you here tonight.

Is change painful? Of course it is. It's never easy. If it was, it would be worth very little.
Spiritual gains are worth everything. Everything else in life can be set down as a distant
second to the value of spiritual growth. What creates growth more than difficulty? What
causes the willingness to change more than failure of what is now? There is no motivation
to move toward God if everything works just find with the ego mind and its dominance.
So yes, expect problems, expect failures, for these things create the motivation and the
ability for spiritual change. Now, as we discussed this letting go of the lower mind and
willfully choosing and counsel and the thought process of the higher mind, this is a long
process but it can certainly be done. When you have the opportunity to choose, which is
all the time, try choosing that higher mind and releasing the lower mind. The more you do
this, the more you will remain with the higher mind in peace, security, love, and happiness.

Ham: Certainly. My daughter, you have from your childhood, the burden bearer. The
burdens that your parents refused to shoulder you took upon yourself and this same
tendency still continues. As you try to move into spiritual realms of freedom, this seeming
obligation to bear the burden, pulls you back into that natural mind cycle of fear and
reaction. Being the burden bearer you are also responsible for every one and so you
continue to be drawn into these feelings and ways of thinking because they are comforting
and familiar. While this is going on, you have another side that to balance this oppression
goes for other extremes and seeks freedom and deliverance from burdens. And so, in this
way you are going between extremes of crushing responsibility to irresponsibility.

Everyone has reactions to these early experiences and all these things are known by the
Father and are to him as predictable as the sun rise. Your main job right now is to get out
of that cycle of the natural mind and instead choose the higher mind which isn't always
completely obvious, it is a process. The higher mind accepts what is and is a peace with it.
The higher mind accepts the world as it is and accepts your place within that greater world
completely. When you ask for help from the higher mind, you're asking for change, for
growth, for new reactions to old problems and this can only occur little by little. The mind
is not like a door that the will can simply walk through. The mind is like a living breathing
changing melding flexible organ. There is nothing fixed, everything can be changed. But,
the change is within yourself, that is what leads to peace, tranquility, happiness. The ego
mind convinces us that if circumstances were changed, if other people were changed, if
other people had not taken certain actions and instead taken different actions, all these
things would bring peace and tranquility. But of course, that is not so.

It's easy to know this in the mind, to see it, to understand it, but it is quite another thing to
experience the actual change and to be growing into your greater self because it requires
leaving the smaller self behind little by little. And children, we are awfully fond of our
small, little selves. The ego convinces us that if we could crystallize it just as it is, it would
be the answer for every one. But the higher mind says no. The higher mind says each one
must find his or her own path with all its attendant pitfalls and problems, all the things that
are not under the control of any one person.