learnings

So when we see life around and notice that all things are momentary and moving towards non existence – one tries to understand the concept of existence – and it’s causal essence. What is that “one” factor that IS and so the existence exists?.

It is when one starts to think like this – one starts to feel Time as an Entity. The limitations of human mind to perceive the time – as a whole – starts to manifest in the reactions in the day to day life. There is no notion of timelessness existing in our brain or our body. Yet if Time is an Entity which has its existence- one wonders if the concept of Timelessness exists – when the initiating of Time did not yet begin – and do we as humans have the capability of reaching that point?.

Someone queried – if you would start to see things in the form that they really are – matter that is moving towards a short span destruction – not only would you be deprived of a normal living but also move towards an insane, chaotic form of thinking. All these intellectual speculations would yield no results – no results at all – and not only that – they would deprive of the bliss that you experience by voluntarily remaining ignorant of them.

That is one perspective- which definitely exists. But by questioning – and by becoming aware – we become wiser – in some ways – of the false projections of this world – though no matter how loud they are – are short spanned and baseless. In making such a statement – I feel that I am hitting the limitations of my emotional capacities – because one cannot immediately state – that denial of justice that one sees everyday on the streets is short spanned and has no consequences.

So we see that the duality is co-existing. The absoluteness of the present moment and the timelessness of the existence (if we assume that it led to emergence of Time as an entity). This duality – is the one that is causing fear and discomfort in our hearts. If some one was to get of out this duality – in some ways – then there would be no need for external projections like – “my family, my house, my education,my ….”… and the identity crisis would end.

Survival with limited resources – would not enable me to think thus – I would then be only busy making my ends meet. However, if a solution is found – that is cross – cutting across the different dimensions of our existence – irrespective of backgrounds,education, ignorance and upbringing – that is – being a species of human being suffices to reach towards the solution – then there is hope for evolution of humanity.

I have heard that solution – being called thoughtless awareness – going beyond the mind and crossing boundaries of our minuscule existence. Desiring freedom – is a good idea any day.

Unfortunately human beings have made very little progress in the understanding of awareness probably because mental understanding is not the right path to achieve it – because achieving awareness is in effect- capturing the irregularities of the mind – so how can it be used as the tool to reach the goal?.

Oh I trust in the infinite potentialities of a human being – Any human being has an equivalent probability of being 100% wise and 100% stupid at alternate points of time :-). But we cannot stop trying – can we – …. Use yourself as a guinea pig, listen carefully, filter out that which does not assist you in your goal.

So when one is on the path of self correction, one path can be to observe what one is doing all the time.After introspection note down reactions and behaviors that were inconsistent and suggest solutions for them.One of the walls that one hits – doing the above activity is that the facts that sum up do not provide the complete picture. Or to put it in other words, the words are distanced from the implementation by a vast degree.The reality, is greater than the sum of the factual parts.So that implies the medium of conveying the information is incomplete. Which in turn, implies, that there does exist another medium that can hold the definition of moment in itself?. Probably, Abstractions (like paintings etc.) are pointers to that incompleteness being expressed and come closer to it.

The point is – our daily activities revolve around the same sensory perceptions in combination with our patterned reactions matrix existing. To get out of this flux, energy needs to be absorbed by our senses/brain?/enlightenment – so that this reaction pattern stops and we move to higher realms. Self correction through introspection has its limits. It is when these limits are discovered that one surrenders and moves towards knowing the higher identity of existence.

This year one of the learning’s that I have had is how important it is to create positive memories of one’s own self everyday.Often experiences with people who lack integrity leaves oneself with a bitter taste of life and one strives for something more meaningful and fulfilling in knowing things.

So if every action turns into monument into our subconscious, then it is needed that with courage one does things that are be remembered as the happy moments of past. (Of course its important to be in present and take its complete taste).

With this learning in perspective and inspiration from the Divine, I happened to take part in the rangoli competition held in my organization spontaneously on the second last day because there was no team and no design in hand and things were in danger state. To help the team out, I made the complete design in mspaint and after making it – completely fell for it 🙂 desired to be part to its implementation – to see your design in reality done – is like see your own child creation , its completely joyous.

And with the simple intent of just doing it for the sake of doing it, I took the plunge and enjoyed every moment of its making, including procuring colors , all variety of materials and all the discussions related to which color should go in which part of the design.The best part of making rangoli is that it opens me up just like a handle to freedom of expression. I guess every artistic feels that after completing his work – as though part of his own self has been just taken out of him and given a new identity of its own. And as an added sweet touch , our team was awarded for it as well ! : – ).

I wish in this lifetime, if I could see the creation and manifestation of life, in a similar fashion.

Colors are the essence of life, especially vegetables, trees, flowers and sky reflect the living beauty that continues to fascinate me, every moment , every day.

Being perfect, is related to aligning onself to the natural order of living which on the outer surface appears to be very chaotic. The beauty is – if this alignment is not forced on oneself, by being aggressive, or excessively contemplative but just becoming naturally so – as if it were inside oneself to be perfectly in rhyme with the tunes life sings – inside the body, in the thoughts and all the expressions.

That can only happen after an inner transformation. Forced discipline – though delivers results but does not help in enjoying the path towards the goal. Nature lives in this harmony of unforced discipline – like for example, the birds rise every day on time (Hey have you heard of a bird sleeping till 9 – after sleeping late at night at around 12…. :)) and it is in understanding and being one with this energy around that peaceful and joyous solutions to our own self discipline lies.

Why seek this? – It is in this order of being that we discover mysteries of life. And see ourselves as children again in the eyes of the universe.