Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Really struggling. I'm a very easy-going person and the interpersonal stuff usually comes easy for me. Unfortunately, I've been choosing to grow. Which always means self-inflicted pain of the highest order accepted by a smile wherein your teeth are clenched.

Can I relate to you the way you relate to me?
Can you help me out with my chemistry?
I don't want to be precieved the way I am.
I just want to be percieved the way I am. - Chapstick, Chaped Lips And Things Like Chemistry

It's remarkable to me how easily we as humans deal with near-constant paradox and dichotomy throughout every facet of life. We encourage people to deal with us in ways that are counter-productive and conflict-driven. Then we stress over the fact that we are misunderstood or ineffectual in our relationships.

Sometimes I think the point of a friendship is to have those people in your life who will see past the image you actually present to the world and instead drink up the image you'd like to present to the world. All the while, encouraging you that the person you actually are is valid, coherent, and suitable.