Admittedly, these concerns are very real.
Part of what makes those fears as strong as they are is that I have lived through all of them.
Multiple times.
Various iterations.

Sometimes - I think knowing what's coming is worse than ignorance.
Even though I've survived it before.
Even though I have a pretty good idea of what I want to do this time to avoid the "hole".
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There Is a Hole in My Sidewalk Autobiography in Five Short ChaptersBy Portia Nelson

Chapter One I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost…I am helpless. It isn’t my fault. It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter Two I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend that I don’t see it. I fall in again. I can’t believe I am in this same place. But, it isn’t my fault. It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter Three I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I still fall in…it’s a habit…but, My eyes are open I know where I am It is my fault. I get out immediately,

Chapter Four I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.