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Saturday, February 14, 2015

We're ALL Exhausted

My recent Kveller article entitled “I’m an Orthodox Jewish Father and I’m Exhausted” got a lot of sympathetic comments from people in the
same metaphorical boat of parenthood and exhaustion.Folks shared with me their low moments, their
parenting fails, their misgivings, and so on, often with more than a tinge of
shame.And I responded to them, guess
what? You’re just like the rest of us! Thus did I embark upon my second article
on the subject, with the intent of reassuring all you struggling parents out
there that you’re not the only one.

Really. You’re not the only one.

In fact, I maintain that parents of multiple young children
are as a rule overtired, overburdened, and just plain overwhelmed.I would even say that this is true of all parents
of young children, but I’m sure there are some exceptions to the rule and that
there’s a handful of you out there who really are sailing effortlessly through
the process.

I’m not one of them.

It’s hard, folks.Look, I’m a marriage and family therapist.I counsel people on parenting issues, among
other things.I know what I’m
doing.And I’m still tired out by
the process, grappling with the challenges, and run ragged by my interminably
energetic children.You are not
alone!Parenting is a tough job for all
of us, and nobody’s perfect.All parents
make mistakes.All parents sometimes
lose their cool.All parents sometimes
have thoughts about stuffing those little creatures back where they came from
and going back to the easy life.This is
true even of your neighbor whose house looks spotless at all times, who always
has a bright smile on her face, and who seems to be way above this kind of
problem.She’s not.We all try to put on a good face for the
outside world, some more successfully than others, but your neighbor has it
tough too.Maybe she has the money to
hire a cleaning lady to keep the house perpetually tidy, but she might have a
special needs child whose problem can’t be fixed by any amount of money.Maybe she’s be great at plastering a smile on
her face, but it doesn’t mean the she’s feeling any better than you are.Trust me – she may very well be my client,
crying helplessly in my office once a week.

Let’s step back here for a moment and take a broader
perspective.Why are we having so much
trouble with just two or three or four kids when our forebears generally had
much larger families and apparently did not crumble under the pressure?I think it is vital to recall just how
different times are today from the way things used to be.Life was much, much harder “back in the
day.”Things we take for granted today
could not have even been imagined before 150 years ago or so.Electricity in every house, air conditioning
and heat, running water everywhere, not to mention computers, the internet, and
smartphones.It used to be that you had
to work all day every day just to put enough food on the table to survive, and
that the majority of the population wasn’t entirely sure they would have it on
a regular basis.It used to be that for
most of the year you suffered because it was too cold or too hot, depending on
where you lived.It used to be that
people had more kids because they needed them to work on the farm!And let’s not forget that “family” and “community”
were much stronger terms before the world of cars and telecommunication – even
your great-grandmother would have been scandalized at the thought of two people
trying to raise a couple of kids on their own!

Today everything is designed for you to be comfortable.Comfort as a goal was unthinkable for most of
human history.Survival was where it was
at.So for us in our coddled and
pampered lives to contend with the challenges of childrearing is an entirely
different kettle of fish than it was for our ancestors.Chutzpah from a six-year-old somehow doesn’t
register high on the concern scale when you are trying to figure out how to
keep enough calories coming in to survive the rest of the winter, when you are
running low on firewood, and when you’ve already lost two children in
childbirth.

So back to us.We’re
just not used to life being as hard as it once was.Road bumps that seemed minor back then look
like mountains today.We expect the
world to work for us, not against us, and when our children don’t follow suit,
we go nuts.(This also explains why
especially in poor areas you can still find parents who have more children than
they can count on their fingers and who aren’t tearful puddles of jelly on the
floor – they too don’t have the expectation or experience that life should
pretty much be easy.)

Life is not going back to the old way anytime soon. The
world is a very different place, and it may be that a large family is for most
of us no longer a realistic ambition.That’s okay.Having children has
always been an important Jewish value, but it’s not the only one.Being real about the modern world and
fulfilling our roles within it is a fine and dandy approach; in fact, we can’t
really do it any other way.

So don’t fret.It’s
going to be hard.It’s going to be
long.I hear it’s nice on the other side
of the gauntlet, but I haven’t gotten there yet myself to let you know
firsthand.But at the very least, take
comfort in the fact that it’s not just you. We’re all struggling – which, let
us recall, is not in and of itself a bad thing, especially if you buy into
Judaism’s whole personal growth bit – so let’s make peace with the struggle,
keep trying to do it better, and support each other as we all hurtle down this
crazy road together.