My husband died just over 3 weeks ago of an inoperable and aggressive malignant tumour on the brain. There were no symptoms before I noticed a change in his behaviour in the second eek of February. He died 8 weeks later.

Wednesday, 09 May 2018 14:41

clive

My Dad passed away on 14th January 2017.He had been ill with chest infections and copd but I never actually thought he was that ill,I thought he would be in my life forever.I found him on the sofa,he looked like he'd just fallen asleep.My world has been turned upside down,I'm heartbroken and think about him 24/7...the regrets,guilt and constantly thinking about the last 48 hours and what I could or should have done.He had been in hospital with a chest infection,was discharged and four days later died from pneumonia.The pain and sorrow is overwhelming me,I miss him phoning every day and our little chats. I'm a broken man.

Thursday, 22 February 2018 17:46

Margaret Kerton

I have just found this site whilst looking for somewhere I could post one of my poems as I find it cathartic to write poetry.

I am having a very bad day today hence I have written the poem below.

My Loss So Raw

A year has passed so quickly, but little seems to have changed,

I still feel so incredibly sad, although the tears don’t fall as often

because the pills dull my senses to stop me becoming deranged

obliged to face the world bravely, but memories not forgotten

The smiling eyes and wonderful smile, his kindness knew no bounds

I cannot accept he has gone for good and still wait for his return

I just need to feel him close at hand and to know he is around

The bond we shared, the love for each other, this I really yearn

Struggling to find the inner strength to carry on without my man

Although people are impressed at how well I appear to cope alone

But when that door closes, as darkness falls, there is no coping plan

The awful heartache returns, more painful than I’ve ever known.

I was once a feisty headstrong woman with strong ideas and principles

Never afraid to speak my mind and take responsibility when needed

But that person has now gone forever, I no longer feel invincible

Just sad and jaded, an invisible no one, my wishes going unheeded

Thursday, 18 January 2018 15:28

Nicola

I am heartbroken and really don't want to continue living without my beloved man who died suddenly yesterday of a heart attack after 18 years together. We had argued previously and I said we were over. Now I will never get the chance to tell him I never meant it and he is my life. The pain is unbearable.

Tuesday, 16 January 2018 18:16

Pauline

Hi I lost my partner of 13 years 7 weeks ago.we were laughing and joking one minute the he was gone the next,he died of a blood clot that led to heart attack.my life feels hopeless.he was my love and my soul mate.we did everything together,I just can't stop thinking about him.

Wednesday, 10 January 2018 21:26

Gail

Hello, my name is Gail. My husband, to whom I had been married for over 42 years, died on 23rd November 2017. I miss him so very much. Two years ago I was told that he only had a year to live, so the extra time was a real bonus. He died, in hospital, of kidney failure. I would not wish this death on anyone. I feel so grateful that I knew him and that we had all those happy years together. I have not received any post death support from any organisation - only from my family to whom I am eternally grateful.

Saturday, 30 December 2017 16:12

Trevor

Hello. My name is Trevor and I lost my wife of more than 30 years just 11 weeks ago. She died after a courageous battle with cancer. I love her and miss her so much. She died here at home in her bed and it was not at all peaceful or "slipping away" as the old cliches go. Since her death, I visit her room every day, pull up a chair and talk to her just like I did before she died. Every time I do this, I cry. So, it's a little like self harming in many ways but I cannot stop. I don't want to stop. I feel there is no point in anything any more without her. Not that I think I would do anything to harm myself but everything here in the home and our plans for the future are all pointless now. The promises of support from the cancer groups has never materialised and I try and stay strong when my famiy visit. But when I am alone, it feels like I am sinking into some black hole. I am hoping that Bereavement UK might be a link back to the world.

So many of the messages reflect the utter hopelessness that I feel. We had been together for fifty years when my husband died. We had been living in the depths of the country in Brittany since our retirement and did everything together. We were never bored although we lived a very simple life. We were enough for each other. Now I feel hollow and drag myself through each day. I don't think the pain will ever go away

Wednesday, 09 May 2018 14:55

Sam

Hi my name is Sam, just under 2months ago my sister gave birth to a beautiful little girl called Fraya-Mae weighing 2lb born at 26wks.... I was my sisters birthing partner, my beautiful baby niece was born sleeping and even though I got to hold her and tell her I loved her more than anything she would never hear it. It’s very hard to come to terms with something so tragic but I know my baby Fraya-mae is watching me from up above. This is for you baby girl aunty sam loves you so so much may you rest in peace ?

My name is chelsea am 27 years old I lost my mam on July 23rd this year.I am really struggling to cope and I have 2 young girls aged 9&5 years old they to were close my my mam they have been absolutely amazing handling it and they keep me going. I am currently doing a bereavement course and am just wondering if any one else has or is going through the same or another brevevment xx thanks xx

Friday, 20 October 2017 17:16

Lorna

My dear brother Norm, so courageous after being told you only had 6 months left, how do you even deal with that? My brother was like my other twin we were very much alike and I miss him so much, it's only been 16 months but it feels like yesterday, people don't really talk about him anymore or even ask me how I'm feeling, why not? I always tell him out loud that I love him and tell him to stay with us always until we all meet again one day. A great comforting site thank you I'm glad I found it.

Friday, 20 October 2017 08:15

Hon Au

How do you handle a situation when your partner's siblings feel this way to you by sending this message? My partner's name is Marc. I told them I need time to go through my partner's personal folders before I can give whatever they want. The folders are kept in the loft where I have not found courage to enter on my own and look through them, less I just break down just looking through.

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No, I am sorry I do not understand. You have had nearly two and a half years and we now need the return of our family possessions. They are not yours, nor were they Marc's personal items. Marc was the family custodian only and it is now time for that responsibility to be passed on to one of us. It is more important to foster young minds than to have these folders and items sitting unused in a loft.

You have your own memories and mementos of your short time with Marc, which we have no intention of intruding upon or disturbing.

i lost my husband 2 months ago and I just can't pull myself together,I'm 46 and was my husbands full time carer,this thing called grieving is completely overwhelming me

Friday, 22 September 2017 20:43

Tina Sellers

I lost my mother nearly 11 weeks ago and l just feel so sad my father died when l was 2years old .so she was the only parent l knew. Never felt so lost.

Wednesday, 06 September 2017 19:40

Lorraine Dormer

Just discovered this site. I am feeling very alone and lost right now. My only son died in tragic circumstances almost two years ago. My daughter lives a long way from me so I'm finding life difficult. The grief is just so painful.

Tuesday, 29 August 2017 22:45

sara

My son and i lost his wonderful dad and my true soulmate Simon on the 19th of July 2017 .

His death was sudden and unexpected, he suffered a massive heart attack as we were getting ready to take Finn our 11 yr old son to school .

we had no idea he had the condition that took him from us so cruelly, he was only 45 yrs old .

There are no words to describe the pain i feel, we spent 26 years by each others side and i am utterly lost.

Tuesday, 22 August 2017 10:34

Lorna

I lost my beautiful husband on 11th June 2017.

Today just over a week after his funeral. I feel that there is no point to my existence. I'm disabled and house bound. I thought i was invisible before. Now I know I am invisible.

I'm trying to hold on, I tell myself this is just a moment in time. Things/life holds no surprises for me. Its not hard to see where this leads to.

Saturday, 15 July 2017 15:00

Sally

Hello

I lost my beloved partner in June 2016 and somehow I am still here. On the outside I seem OK but the days seem to be getting longer and more pointless than before...

Does it ever get any better?

Tuesday, 04 July 2017 19:21

Raymond Hughes

I lost my wife of 41 years, to cancer, in April of this year. She was a wonderful, lively, positive and loving lady and I miss her so, so, much. I would like to join your group for the support it provides.

Hi I lost my husband 3 days ago after he was involved in a collision with a coach while doing the amateur ride for the tour de Yorkshire. He had really significant chest injuries and other injuries. I'm totally heartbroken he was my soulmate and my whole life. I just can't imagine life without him, never seeing him again or for him to hold me and tell me he loves me. My life feels as though it's ended.

Pixie-i know how you feel. I lost my husband and soulmate a month ago. For a while i felt him still around but now reality is crashing in and I feel in physical and mental pain. Try to hang in and not panic.

Monday, 24 April 2017 04:53

Phil

Hello,

I'm really not sure about this, a bit wary of the internet, but I lost my wife just before Christmas (33yrs), I'm not a great help-seeker, but this is brutal.

Obviously I can deal with this on my own (not). I don't need you do I? Tell me, what is there here?