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Tuesday, January 15, 2013

For two years, David Wilson dated and lived with Mindy McCready. That is saying something right there. He also fathered Mindy's youngest child who is just 9 months old. David killed himself with a gunshot to the head in a home that is owned by a relative of David's and is the same house where Mindy tried to hide from the police after kidnapping her oldest child to keep that child away from her parents who have primary custody. David was 34.

As chaotic as they sound, I wouldn't doubt there was substance abuse to self-medicate, but in the end, Depression KILLS without treatment (and sometimes with lots of treatment, still).

Mental Illness kills people. I know it's hard to see when someone offs himself---but w/ MI, the pain is so much that they take themselves out. Not any different than any other terminally ill person who wants to 'go' on their own terms, to suffer less.

MI makes it very tempting to 'give up'. You live in a pitch-black, haunted house that never, ever stops scaring you. Eventually shutting off your brain through death becomes the only thing you didn't yet try.

I am currently DISABLED* mainly because of MI, and the AM regulars here know that.I wish I had a reasonable excuse to be ill, like serving in war, but mine is just garden-variety result of heredity & childhood neglect.

If you (or anyone here) has questions about MI or all-consuming suicidal thoughts, I'll answer the best I can. I live in reality (not psychotic), but suicide has been my 'secret out' since I was VERY little, so I've had many years to TRY and understand WHY a little better. (I'm also chock-full of PTSD, maggs, and if there is ANY question I can answer about that, I'd be happy to 'help' explain it if I can.)

*Seriously, to get officially disabled after working full-time for 25 years means you are very sick. I hope e'erybody believes me, that I'm not gaming the system.

I never realized the papers I signed when going to a therapist gives them permission to disable or hospitalize you against your will, if they think you are in danger. 20 years in therapy, I had NO idea that was true until it happened to me. I was confident because I thought ONLY psychotics got disabled.

I saw Mindy on dr drew. Dont judge. She was abused as a child, and sustained actual brain damage from where her abuser wld slam her head on their headboard. This was based on an xray. The point is, shes a very damaged and flawed human, and probably attracts same to feel safe. It must be awful to live in your own head like that with all the demons. Almost every person on dr drew was abused as a child. Badly. So when u see someone acting crazy, give acthought to that. ( again, repeat, no judging because I watched dr drew, lol)

Frufra--You are always so nice and encouraging to me, no matter what. I truly hope there is someone in your real life who you can give all that comfort to, because you are the BEST.

Thanks SO much, Tuxedo Cat, but I am 'still coping'. There is no medicine for me (I've tried them ALL), so it's day-to-day, up n down. But thanks.

And thanks to you, auntliddy. I feel bad sharing my medical stuff, but I notice sometimes that there are people who really DON'T understand the ins and outs of MI & suicide. Since it's my 'job' now to get better, I try and use my insights to help others understand. It's all I can do, you know? I would save anyone I could from stewing on those painful questions, if I can.

My best friend's husband (drugged,drunk abuser who would NOT seek help) killed himself 4 years ago. I wish I would have known he was suicidal, but they hid it. Seeing everyone's confusion & misunderstanding of the 'workings' of the suicidal mind really affected me, and at least on the internet, I do talk about it. Help if i can.

Thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers. He was dealing with PTSD (none of us knew this) and was on anti-depressants. Found out his wife was cheating and was in process of divorcing. I feel tremendous guilt as do the rest of our family for not checking up more on him, I just assumed he was doing great. Brings tears to my eyes to learn he was in such pain & anguish that he felt his only way out was suicide. He was only 24, he had his whole life ahead of him. I'll never understand it. smh.

libs, I am a lucky, lucky girl. I'm surrounded by love and support in my life - something that I certainly didnt deserve, but caught a break and got it anyway. Mr. Frufra is just about the most wonderful person ever ever - the wind beneath my wings, as corny as that is. He taught me everything I know about love and how rewarding it is to spread it around (which sounds dirty, but that's not what I'm going for, I promise :-).

And my luck continues, because I've gotten to know you and all our CDaN friends, too. <3. Have a wonderful day.

Thanks again Frufra, & JJ, and Snapdragon. I hate looking like I want attention, or would WANT to be this way....But I do try to be useful when I can. THAT is my motivation, because giving haters ammo on a site you visit regularly CAN BE dangerous. haha

I'm leaving for a few hours, my BF is up. I'll check back later. Thanks all.

@maggs--I'm so sorry you're all going through that, and I wish there was something more concrete we could do to help you out.

@libby--Hang in there, OK? You've always been one of my favorite posters here (and yes, your armpit still cracks me up; it's possibly the most distinctive avatar on the site), and I'm sorry you're having to deal with all of this crap. I've had my own issues w/depression for a long time, so I understand at least a little bit...

Both of you: you do know you've got a support system here, right? Sure, we're weird, but we really do care, and hey, isn't normal just a dryer setting anyway? *hugs all around*

@libby, you are brave and special to share what you have gone through in the hopes of helping someone else, I truly appreciate you on here, mostly for your humor, but today for your honesty as well.@Maggs and @JJ, please accept my condolences for your terrible losses. My heart goes out to you and the others left, but also to your tortured loved ones, who did not see another way.

Augh, @maggs, so many families have gon through that...just criminal that our veterans are not being supported/medically treated like they should. I keep hearing how many suicides there are among Iraq/Afghanistan vets. So sorry.

@libby, I think that sharing one's story can be a HUGE help to people struggling themselves. Kudos to you for sharing, I'm sure you have/are/will be helping more than you'll ever know. Best wishes for your own continued improved health.

I lost a brother in law and two very close friends to suicide. If they had only waited a couple of days, everything would have been fine. I pray and I beg-if you or someone you know is in the deep clutches of depression, please, get help. Call someone, go to your local ER, talk to your religious person, please, please please, get help. Not a single day goes by that I do not think of them and the wonderful things that they would have accomplished. You are loved, you matter, and your life makes the difference in the lives of others. Please. Get help.

Libby, your offer to help others is making me cry. Seeking or accepting help is the hardest first step and for you to be struggling yourself, but yet offering your help to strangers is just effn' awesome.

Maggs, I'm so sorry. I just read the other day about the horrible suicide rate for our returning soldiers.

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