Just keep on trying till you run out of cake

I have a lot I want to say, but a complete inability to put my feelings into words. So here, have a couple of quotes from second-rate pop-culture to sum up what I want to say:

Gwen: "Why? Why go to so much trouble? I...I didn't ask for this!" Lieutenant Thackeray: "There was no need to ask, Gwen. Everyone deserves a little happiness, even you." Gwen: "A little happiness...? But I..." Lieutenant Thackeray: "Wintersday is a time to spend with family. We may all have different blood and different backgrounds, but the Ebon Vanguard is your family. We care about you."

– Guild Wars, quest "Wintersday Cheer"

I didn't even know myself what it was I wanted. Sure, I had friends ad associates; but I'd cut myself off so completely from any real emmotional attachments that I didn't even realize how much a part of life was missing.