Hebrews 12:1-2
"...let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith..."

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

I Don't Ever Want to Forget...

I'm forgetful. I've decided that I'm going to keep sharing things that God has done to encourage me along our adoption journey because I don't ever want to forget. I always think that I won't forget anything but reality is, I do. I forget a lot of things.

When we decided to adopt, I was on the phone and computer endless hours researching and questioning various adoption agencies. The whole process was overwhelming....adoption terminolgies, money, choices...everything. I was a mess emotionally so I finally quit working on adoption stuff, crawled into a chair and started bawling...actually sobbing....to God. Kurt was at work so he didn't see or experience my melt down. I remember praying and asking God to "hold me"....telling him that I was exhausted emotionally, scared to death about the money and that we (I) needed encouragement. Kurt was hoping that we could make a christian concert in Des Moines that night but with his work hours, we weren't sure if it would be doable. I prayed that God would allow us to go to the concert and be encouraged.

God is so gracious. Kurt got off that night and we headed down to Des Moines. We talked about adoption stuff the whole way down and I shared all that I had learned that day with the different agencies. When our conversation slowed down, Kurt turned the radio on and we heard,

"Sometimes we just need to step out in faith, knowing that God is going to provide."

We turned and looked at each other, laughed and just said, "Wow!"

We walked in to the concert venue with 10 minutes to spare--just enough time to purchase our tickets. We found the ticket table and took our place in line. Right at that time, a lady came and stood by Kurt saying something about "tickets". Kurt responded that, "yes, this is the line for tickets." She asked, "do you NEED tickets? How many?" and proceeded to pull out two tickets to "gift" us! We thanked her, talked about how nice that was and went and took our seats. Josh Wilson opened that night and his first song proved that it was going to be a great concert. It was his second song, Before the Morning, that I sensed God "tapping me on my shoulder". It was as if he said,

"Lisa, do you realize what I just did for you guys out there?

You asked to come here. You asked to be encouraged and

you asked if I will truly provide for your adoption.

I got you here. I just showed you that I can provide.

I gave you tickets! That is nothing for me!

Don't you believe that I can and will provide far more?

I will provide for your adoption if you dare to believe."

Tears began streaming down my face. I made the choice then that I would certainly dare to believe because our God was proving himself over and over again. ﻿