Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Tough Decisions

Recently I was propositioned by my parents to take care of my kids for a year or two while I grow my career in DC. My first thought was HELL NO. But the more I began to think about it, the things I am trying to accomplish, writing, and networking, and asimilating into life into DC are not conducive to single motherhood. In terms of my kids I may have bitten off more than I can chew and a conversation with a friend (and I use that term loosely) did not help. He put it to me that I already have multiple strikes against me that will eliminate me from being taken serious in the professional and personal world. According to him, most serious companies to not want to hire a single mother. Children are problems. They get sick, you have to take off, etc. all of this causes lack of productivity and cost a company money. Then of course he reminded me that my J probably won't stick around for long because a man without kids is definatley not signing up for nothing long term with a woman with with two kids with two daddies. I understand his point but make no mistake about it, my children will always come first and romance can wait. I love my babies, but what I am filled with today is regret. I regret I didn't finish college and enjoy my 20's. My greatest accomplishment in that era is my kids. If I died today that is the only thing left to let the world knows I was here. The worlds shortest obituary. This feeling will pass, but I am honestly beginning to give my parents idea some thought.