Friday, August 2, 2013

This morning I happened to see these two friends and how happy they seemed to be with each other, aren't they? The broken winged butterfly knew where to go, the lone wild flower knew who would come. And when such people get together, everything has to be picture perfect :-)

“When you start to really know someone, all his physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in his energy, recognize the scent of his skin. You see only the essence of the person,not the shell. That's why you can't fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and body but not your heart. And that's why, when you really connect with a person's inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant.”

In the only state that we live
And call it a good life
With all its twists and turns
When there is an angel like you
Subtle and simple, silent and strong
To hold me even before I ask
To treasure more than I love you
Is the only matter that
matters

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Politics, journalism and everything between the two,
well that is today’s India for you. Kota Neelima’s Shoes of the Dead gives a
remarkable insight into what has become of us today, we as a nation - a
complete breakdown. What the book captures is the unheard rural issues of
farmer debts and suicides, things which do not make to the prime time news. While
Gangiri could do that, the end of chapter twenty two tells us until when. It
hits the conscience. Farmers and their families, bank officers, local leaders,
politicians and journalists- the detailing of the circumstances
and characters although very elaborate is very much needed to make the reader
realize what the ground situation in the villages is, it very much reflects the
extensive research behind this book. There are parts such as these which put me
to thought:

“There is no one out there reading your story. There
is no one who will take a step because of your story. It is just a numb, self
absorbed world that is slowly consuming itself, from light to darkness, from
darkness to darkness”

How true is that! People tend to get out of the mass
ignorance and fight for the right but only when the wrong happens to them. To
change the system first we need to get into the system, there is no waiting for
that to happen. And that’s what the book tells us, to do the right at the right
time in the right way. Then there are instances as close to real, where Keyur,
a politician because he was born to one speaks like this in a press meet:

“People believe we will make better leaders because we
are born into political families into power. They know we can handle it better.
And we have”

Really? This speaks of the many in power right now in
our country, arrogant as much as ignorant. Our maybe politicians analyze people better, or else the latter
wouldn’t be at the receiving end. The role of journalists is well portrayed too,
especially Nazar. Things that happen in the media, how news becomes breaking
news and why. The complexities of governance are enlightening but deeply
saddening. The ones who make it to the system are consumed by the system
unfortunately. So where do we all stand
as India, a nation, a very scary thought, ‘Bharath Nirmaan’ and all the glorified
concepts apart.

A commoner better pick such books up from a library or
book store because until one is aware there is no thinking about it, and doing
something about it is a farfetched idea. The book isn’t a thriller, a self help book,
a romantic story or a fantasy fiction. The genre is different, it is reality. Well we do not read such books in detail often and that’s the depressing truth. Principles and
power do not go together, so do politicians and people in a bad democracy.
There is a lot to avoid, to learn, to change, to act or else we are not far
from becoming one. In this direction, the book is one good attempt .

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

“It is the last place I would step into” fortunately
or so I am one of those who will never wish to say this unlike many others while speaking
about a hospital, thanks to all the medicine I know and I am in the process of learning.
It is the first place I look forward to be in and do what I am best at.
Every morning when I make it to my work place I see people queuing up to get an
appointment, people waiting outside the laboratory to get their reports, people
getting their prescription of medicines at the pharmacy, people in the
ward running behind the nurses and ward boys, people in the operation theatre, people
in the casualty, people in the outpatient department, people getting their radiographs done people near the blood
bank, people who make it and people who do not. A sea of them and I am not
exaggerating. Everything on each of their faces, the relief and the pain, the
joy and the suffering well that answers this question ‘How does modern heath
care touch lives?’ It is something we must acknowledge, more than we do right now.

Modern day medicine is more
demanding than it is often debated about. Like all other systems, health care is not
spared of issues, in fact it is targeted first and that kind of talk would make an
another post. I would be deviating from this one necessary question which needs
to be answered. Thanks to Indiblogger for letting me beat a drum about it here ;)
Being a doctor at the least what I can do is make the world aware of the good that we get
to do and are bound to do :)

The sheer difference an investigation
or an intervention brings in somebody’s life, and the way a medical
professional looks at a disease or a disorder because of it is just incredible.
They therefore can give you a hope to fight, to live better and survive because
they know there are these amazing inventions and discoveries in their hand and knowledge
in their head to help you out. Diagnosis is better compared to what the situation was like a few
decades ago. Hole in the heart? It can be fixed. No more heart??? Well that can
be fixed too.

Transplants and resections,
minimally invasive and robotic surgeries, drugs and vaccines, tests and markers,
molecular studies and research. You ask for it, you have it. This was on one of my night duties , the Vitek, an automated blood culture system beeped within
8 hours of loading the blood culture bottle to the machine, which meant there
was some microorganism growing in the blood culture, we did the staining and
identified it as cocci in chains and reported immediately to the
clinician so that he could start the right antibiotic, the patient was later
diagnosed of Group A Streptococcal sepsis and thankfully he recovered. On an
another occasion we had a patient diagnosed of dengue, not responding to
treatment for almost a month in the hospital and on more elaborate
investigations we found her to have profound bone marrow suppression due to a
rare complication of the infection. She recovered too
with chemotherapy. It is in instances such as these, which are beyond all this
talk about advancements and technology which make doctors like me believe that
we can deliver what we should.

Every new drug, every new test,
every new machine, every new tool, every new procedure and every new doctor in
fact is accepted into the medical camaraderie after crossing a hundred hurdles.
Trials and phases as we call it in pharmacological terms ;) This surely is the case in many
other professional set ups as well, but in health care the glitch is this, there is no
room for a mistake. You do it and you are done. Then is when the world talks
about healthcare, not otherwise. In such a critical scenario, what medicine has achieved is commendable, nothing can match up to that.

Fleming did find penicillin, but
he had warned about resistance. Now we have carbapenems, well resistance to them too. Modern medicine has not just touched lives, it has radically changed the way we approach health and disease. If
you were to hear the commencement speech of Dr.Atul Gawande at Stanford School of Medicinein 2010 you will understand what I am trying
to put across. The field is large, the goal is big, the crowd is huge and the
players are less. But the game, if you are allowed to call it so, is definitely interesting.
Only those who play and cheer will agree :) I am more than glad for having chosen to be a part of it for
all my life :)

Only Bill Watterson can make Calvin Hobbes play Doctor-Doctor this way ;)

Monday, April 22, 2013

Aristotle once said "All human actions
have one or more of these seven causes: chance, nature, compulsion, habit,
reason, passion, and desire." This book made me agree. A
compilation of real life stories how people can change their life if they
really wish to. An unconventional career is something which is as under rated
as much as it is over rated. The bottom line of all the stories is just this-
if you think you are or can become good at something there is nothing that can
make you feel unconventional about it. Even the so called 'conventional'
careers cited in the author's note have their share of unconventional
hardships. Work is worship, but it all depends on for what and how often we
truly pray.

What is impressive is the selection of profiles
of people from varied backgrounds in our country, people whom we hear about and
watch on television. Each of them have made an exceptional mark in their field,
rules and life apart. Words such as these of Harsha Bhogle "Things just
happen to me. What I do is only approach them with the attitude that okay, I am
going to give my best to whatever comes my way. I may not be good enough for a
particular day but then it's not a crime. Given the circumstances of the day, I
try the best I can"

My personal opinionwith regards to
the choice of people written about with due respect to their achievements, if
we were to consider the relevance of the title is just this, it could have been
more better. ' My life my rules' sounds a little inappropriate, some of
the instances cited which made them choose their career has nothing to do with
a goal or dream, some went by the flow and some made a hard choice. Read the
book to agree. Not every effort or step in life can be always strongly intentional.
Life gets shaped not just by rules.

From a reader's perspective, the concept of this
book is appealing. But when it comes to the choice of words, the flow of each
story is just an elaborate life summary. For instance in one part "Born in
...., about thirteen kilometers from... he is the fourth of the five
children". Somewhere with all the detailing the rules of life, the
intention of the book is forgotten in many paragraphs. Now why would a reader really
want to know what was his birth order, speak of ideologies and principles which
shaped him up professionally, well that can be taken.

All said and done, there are boundaries that
surround all our dreams. Yes they do exist. The hard part is to bring them to
reality beyond them. It takes a great deal of everything in life and people who
are willing to go through it all make it to books such as these, so that we can
read about them. And in some way get inspired, and write a little better :)

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Edward Hamilton Aitken in one
part of his book ‘A naturalist on the prowl’ talking about the banian tree sensibly writes“…another
thing that makes futile much of our roadside planting is the erratic selection
of trees, without any regard to whether they will grow or do any good where we
put them” If you were to see the kind of trees being cut, and the kind
of those being planted (if at all any) I am sure there is nothing that we can find to correlate.
And how we swear on the sun, the summer and go, “The temperature this year
could go a record high, may cross forty five” like we do not know how and why.

A fortnight ago when I was back
at home all what I heard from people around was ” Bangalore was never this hot”,
of course it was not. Like in most of the conversations where there is a talk
about each other’s health and the weather, there are some amongst us like my mother
who never stops telling about the beauty of Bangalore weather twenty or thirty years
ago. The early morning mist, the walks, the birds, the flowers, the coffee, the
cold just resting like a blanket on the skin, well it surely must have been heaven. And how
I envy her! Throughout all the years of my growing up in Bangalore on such similar
mornings I would tell “It’s cold right”,”Ah this is nothing!” she would retort.
I wonder till date which heaven she loves talking about.

This was a couple of years back 'Garden City Bangalore? 50000 trees cut, more to go'
and we still are counting. And while citing the reason I am not going to mention the
obvious. More than the trains, the trams and the buildings it is because of we
being complacent about issues. It is because we are sure that the consequence does not affect us
immediately. The sun has to shine right on our head, burn through the thick of our
skin, make us sweat till the last drop of water inside. Until then we prefer to live with this question “Howdy! Weather? ”

PS: If you are a Bangalorean,
apart from waiting for the Metro to start in your area is there anything else
you wish to do? ;-)

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