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Another day is done with some recovery talk and action. My emotions are not actually in sync with my actions yet but some day they will coordinate.

I met a man from Phoenix tonight. I have never been to a desert. All the musical world walked out the door last night and drove off in the Kombi. Layer and then an other layer. I had the sense to call another member and talk longtime of progressed recovery and illness and grief and pain.

I have begun creating the world into which I shall have to move. Filling the Izzy space very carefully.

I posted some more of Leona’s iPad shots of the funeral and slept a little in the afternoon and then my 2 young people picked me up and took me to Meeting in Bellingen. That was good for me because the Rehab boys were there and that is what life is about for me – recovery from drug addiction.

The Man from Phoenix was there and he suggested that I come to Phoenix . Some days I think its do-able. Phoenix and New York State and Boston and Paris.

After the meeting we had Indian Dinner at Chilli Affair where Izzy and I ate most Saturday nights.

The Jehovah’s Witness to whom I lent $20 the other day was there and she had left the money here but I didn’t know. When I came home I found it inside a pamphlet which I had not read.

Then Jim and Maddy came online on Facetime and we companioned as we do on weekends. Now the day is done. And I am clean and all is well – just for now. All is well and I am doing the Resentment Prayings.

When a person offended we said to ourselves,

“This is a sick man.
How can I be helpful to him?
God save me from being angry.
Thy will be done.“

The Step 4 Prayer from “How it Works”
page 66 of the Big Book, Alcoholics Anonymous

Replacing Resentment with Love

If you will ask in prayer for everything you want for yourself to be given to them,you will be free.

Ask for their health, their prosperity, their happiness, andyou will be free.

Even when you don’t really want it for them, and your prayers are only words and you don’t mean it, go ahead and do it anyway.

Do it every day for two weeks and you will find you have come to mean it and to want it for them, and you will realize that where you used to feel bitterness and resentment and hatred, you now feel compassionate understanding and love.

“He is the intermediary between us, his audience, the living, and they, the dolls, the undead, who cannot live at all and yet who mimic the living in every detail since, though they cannot speak or weep, still they project those signals of signification we instantly recognize as language.” ― Angela Carter, Wayward Girls and Wicked Women

“Because we have viewed other animals through the myopic lens of our self-importance, we have misperceived who and what they are. Because we have repeated our ignorance, one to the other, we have mistaken it for knowledge.” Tom Regan