Sunday, November 06, 2005

Dreaming and back to work

I was enjoying my vacation a little too much and was sad I had to return to work today. I had a pretty easy and slow day. I laughed allot with my coworkers as always on Sunday. I watched Constantine (trippy movie) and now I'm home just anxious for Desperate Housewives to come on. Rich liked Constantine, I can't really say I liked it but it was a trip and now I need to watch some fun happy things so I will not have nightmares tonight. Speaking of nightmares, yesterday I had a pretty weird dream. I was in what seemed like my grandparents house a mixture of the one on Guam and the one in San Diego. Davina was in my dream holding Rayleen as a baby, but we exchanged no words. And I never saw her face. My mom was in bed and I got into bed to lay next to here when I noticed she had really pretty orange colored sheets and I bent over the side of the bed to look down and see she had a matching dust ruffle, when I noticed some pillows on the floor. I sat up and got out of bed to pick up the pillows. She was laying on 2 other and I picked up two and then noticed there were two more. I picked the last two pillows up and then noticed it was strange she had a set of 6 pillows on her bed and they fit side by side in two's so the bed was huge. I also noted all the drool marks on the pillow and told my mom her bed sheets were so pretty but she seriously needs to wash the pillows. She laughed at me and it was so real sounding. I really thought I was awake and not in a dream, since it was all as clear as day and nothing was blurry, with all colors. I walked to the bathroom since I need to go Pee Pee so bad. I couldn't find the tissue but then noticed the white tissue on the tank of the toilet and sat down with the tissue in my hand. I didn't close the bathroom door and all of a sudden I couldn't relax and got real scared I could feel it in my chest. I looked to the open bathroom door and there was my grandfather standing outside the doorway. I froze up in shock and said to my self you are dead. I thought I was seeing his ghost since I didn't know I was dreaming yet. He asked me to come look at something he was holding on a tray. He was holding this tray full of stuff in the air with one had, just like a waitress and I noticed and recognized as much as I could on the tray. The things I noticed the most was a large blue container of salt, you know the kind you pour out. Well, grandpa use to keep a bunch of stuff close to him on his table by the chair he sat in to watch TV and the stuff on the try is what he use to have by his chair. I could probably even find a picture among my stuff with the same blue salt container he use to keep complete with the rubber bands around the container that he use to collect from things like the newspaper or where ever he obtained them and would use them to close up his bags of chips or pretzels and stuff of that nature. But anyways I thought this was all so strange that he had his tray and had something new he wanted to show me on the tray, but I got close enough to see the tray and looked down at what he was pointing at but never saw what he was showing me because I backed off quickly and he looked me in the eyes and rolled his eyes in a way of disbelieve or anger that I wasn’t paying attention to what he was trying to show me and then I walked backwards in the bathroom and he vanished. I sat on the toilet trying to relax again to P, when I realized I had just seen a ghost and started screaming help me and the top of my lungs, I could see my family members coming to my help in the distance and they never got close to the bathroom and that was when Rich heard my screaming and ran to the bedroom from the family room and woke me up. I was in shock for a little bit and then got up to Pee after I asked Rich to turn on all lights and then started to cry as I told him my dream. I slept well last night all alone with no dreams and just curious as to what my dream was trying to say to me. Man.