Saturday, January 2, 2010

This year I will LIVE ABUNDANTLY....and meet Jay Z.

an extremely plentiful or oversufficient quantity or supply:an abundance of grain.

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overflowing fullness: abundance of the heart.

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affluence; wealth: the enjoyment of abundance.

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Physics,Chemistry. the number of atoms of one isotope of an element divided by the total number of atoms in a mixture of the isotopes.

Notice that the definition isn't solely about possessions, or monetary value- but abundance of HEART. I love this. This year I am choosing to live ABUNDANTLY. Of heart, mind, spirit and sure, affluence too.

I noticed when I was talking about my resolutions- I don't like to call them that, cause they have this "DON'T BREAK ME" attitude which frankly, can be too damn much to live up to, but I digress- when I was choosing what I wanted my year to look like, I was cutting myself short, or deciding not to make a "Resolution" because it seemed like "too much." Or "too good to be true." OR, mostly- How the fuck do I actually plan on doing that? All of this was decided simply off the belief that in that PAST these resolutions were left unresolved. The minute you start to ask "HOW" when you look at your dream, you'll almost instantly decide otherwise. Because the how, or the why, or the WHAT IF.... are all abstract questions.

There are a million WAYS to any solution and outcome....you don't have to know how to have a dream, you just have to believe in it. The how reveals itself once you decide to get out of your head and look at the options in front of you.

...I was allowing my vision of future goals be determined by the outcome of past goals, when in reality both past and future are an illusion....All there is, is PRESENT and PRESENT choices, dreams. GOALS. Fulfillment.

We are not governed by our past unless we choose to be. We will be a victim to what life has to offer, if we have decided we have been victimized- as in, it's all a matter of perception. That's what it comes down to. So for 2010, I am going to refrain from saying, "I'm afraid that..." or even acknowledging that I've been struggling with anxiety, or panic- that to me, is no longer a real thing. I will refrain from saying "I hope...." Hoping, is really just a cushion... a window to allow a little disappointment in just in case it doesn't happen,you wouldn't need to hope for something if you decided to KNOW it instead. I will refrain from; saying hateful things about myself....talking to our bodies is no different than talking to a human, and if you tell a person you hate them- they're likely to hate you back. Why would that be any different from talking to yourself?

Making a resolution doesn't mean that in one day it is made, or broken- it's a lifestyle CHOICE. And that is what I like about the idea of ABUNDANCE..... you cannot measure abundance, it just is. One dollar to someone IS abundance, where a million to someone else is. A hug from your little sister is abundance to one, while to another a walk with their dog is their source of abundance. To some it's a full belly, or a packed social calendar- a room with a view, or a room at all. It isn't one day, or one moment- it's something that permeates through every thought, every action and every belief, every choice made from a perception that sees ABUNDANTLY. It's a choice of spirit; that thing that shines through you. Would I rather shine FULL and radiantly, or do I want my spirit to wreak of lack and discontent. Hi, no thanks.

I've decided, I HAVE CHOSEN to look at every year as getting BETTER and in turn, it does.

In 2009 I: Fell in love, spent more time with my family than I have in years, I went on tour, recorded a full length album, played more amazing shows than I can count, lived solely off of writing and my various talents, I camped and hiked, embraced Colorado with open arms, I partied and paddle boarded, I did yoga like a maniac, I moved into a new home, I rekindled friendships and started new ones. I coast hopped and planted roots. I LOVED my year. And I cannot wait for what 2010 has to bring.....

I know, we're human- we fall and worry, we doubt and judge. We look at our lives sometimes and say, "Why me" or "WHAT THE FUCK" but, I'll try my best this year to say, even during what looks like a big wall of adversity or uncertainty....that I am so happy and grateful that......after all, there's always a silver lining and that's where I'd prefer to avert my eyes.

I tried to simplify my resolutions this year. I didn't want too many so that I set myself up for failure. Kind of not the point right? So I made one general resolution, simply be healthier. Do whatever I can do to be healthier.

yes yes yes! especially loved: I will refrain from; saying hateful things about myself....talking to our bodies is no different than talking to a human, and if you tell a person you hate them- they're likely to hate you back. Why would that be any different from talking to yourself?

Interesting idea on HOPE. not sure if i'm willing to give up on "I hope..." though. To me, people can't live without Hope. But I see what you mean. Hope is too wishy-washy. It's better to be CERTAIN you can or will do something and DO IT. Hope is like.. well.. i hope this gets done rather than actually doing it. As if some angel could wipe your ass!

i think this year calls for a lot more action and a lot less talk. you're completely right, why hope when you can believe and make it an actuality yourself. get off the side of the road and get where we're going! inspiring read. much love and well-wishing for this new year! ciao.

gorgeous post. my goal this year is to work on improving my craft (writing)by taking my first!ever!creative writing class! I won't lie. I'm a little intimidated about the critique and the fact its such a small group (12 people), but I think it will be an amazing experience.

"I've decided, I HAVE CHOSEN to look at every year as getting BETTER and in turn, it does." - what a wonderful philosophy. I'm not much for resolutions, but a good attitude towards each year is definitely the way to go.

You are just fabulous! I pretty much agree with all of it! I too will be more positive, live abundantly, and I'll open to listening to everyone who wants to tell me something.And, I will even smile, if I don't agree, but ,leave them with a smile on their face anyway.What can it hurt? :0) Thanks for the uplifting blog!

It's so nice to read some positive ideas, it makes me feel optimistic about this new coming year. I did make some resolution and I hope I will be able to keep with them and hope to change into a better person, because this is what they are all about.

SOMETIMES, mantras can be more powerful than specific goals or promises. Mantras are not spoiled by one little inconsistency or fuck-up. You just keep on thinking, believing, chanting, and things improve as the year goes on instead of petering out like standard resolutions.

This year, I am going to be healthier, and like yours, it is a general life goal for me. I'm not sdaying I'll neer eat a cake agian, becuase frankly, I'd be talking shit, but I am goig to try to be good a bit more!

Oh, you are just lovely. The way you write makes me beyond happy. Sometimes I feel that people make these unattainable resolutions that they will never be able to reach, and then by February they're feeling like crap about themselves. I think all my resolutions will be ones that will better me as a person, so it will be more reachable =) I hope you had a fabulous New Years Eve and that the year is just fabulous for you, dear! xo

I love how inspiring your posts are. I feel like you take the thoughts right out of my head and then write them in hilarious/eloquent way I never could. It's nice to know there are others struggling with the same things and striving to be better! You always give me a lot to think about, thanks for the great blog!p.s. I'm an avid reader but this is my first comment! Woo hoo!

Let me just say, I spent the majority of my life being controlled and destroyed by my past. Things I had no choice in were completely ruling my world, until I made the decision to accept what happened to me and take charge. I've been much happier ever since. Happy New Year. Emphasis on the "new".

i havent visited your blog in forever but im glad i took the time too bc as always this post was awesomein fact youre awesome

I will refrain from; saying hateful things about myself....talking to our bodies is no different than talking to a human, and if you tell a person you hate them- they're likely to hate you back. Why would that be any different from talking to yourself?

I just wanted to say that I really liked your post and how you view abundance...that's it's all about perception. Sometimes the smallest thing- a beautiful snowflake on a coat sleeve or a smile from a (not skeevy looking) stranger- can make such a difference in the moment. I hope 2010 brings you an abundance of happiness in all its forms. Thanks for posts like this. -nic

I love the idea that abundance is also tied in with gratitude. We don't get to live abundantly until we wake the hell up and feel gratitude for all that we have already been given - thus making room for even more.

Ahhh there is something refreshing about coming back from the holiday and reading your posting. I love the simple philosophy of seeing something as positive, choosing to approach it in a positive way, and through this process, it inevitably is positive. Thanks for the words of wisdom. My resolution is to try to be more patient with people....although I already broke that rule when I got into a fight in the airport with someone's dad....so I will start today ;)

i chose not to make a true resolution, but i have all these goals and plans, and i'm realizing this is the year i will do everything that i've put off for so long because of my nasty, little eating disorder. ie: tonight i'm getting dressed up and going out with the girls (my friends, not my boobs--that's what it sounded like)

happy new year! love your resolution, i think everyone should follow your lead with living abundantly, especially with love:o) my resolution is to be more organized...it always works out of a short period of time and then back to the same old...I'm determined this year!!

i absolutely love your outlook! i agree, resolutions do have far too much of a "don't break me!" feel, which is why i made a TBA (to be accomplished) list for 2010, with a little asterisk in my mind that says it's okay to not finish 'em all, as long as i strive for them all. anywho, hope 2010 treats you well and i will be back to read more of your posts!