Boondocks A Beauty Living in Isolation

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

How can there be so much joy and beauty on this blue canvas. When clearly, in the bluest of blues there is unbearable sadness. I want to keep her with me. But she is his. His daughter. She left her beauty mark on this earth. How could you take her away from me?? It's still unbelievable that one moment she's here and the next she's gargles for her last breath. Her husband's song rings in the room. The last thing she heard before she went. She told me not to cry and not to bare sadness... how could I not welcome it in. Like an old friend. It's the only comfort I have in my lonely heart. My friends are not near me. Because I didn't ask for it. Though a small visitor wouldn't hurt. It would help vomit the lump in my throat that keeps me from screaming and wailing... why why did she have to leave. How could such a word as grief or loss come into my vocabulary so strongly. This pain makes me physically ill and tired. It puts an entire lifetime of stress on my mind. I need to not look at my old life and self or I'll accept it's ora. The only glance or gaze to look and study is taking baby steps as the journey begins

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

My heart soars when I hear your name.
I know you feel the same.
My smile grows bigger and bigger with every memory

Sometimes going back to the past is treachery.
The song we shared together showed up on the radio today.
The one I hope you hear again someday.
Every laugh, every tear, and every goodbye bursts through my veins.
It all comes down like rain.

Every kiss still hangs in suspense.
As the moment was quite dense.
I now realize you're a bigger part of my life.
It cuts me like a knife.

You mean more to me than most things and people.
More than people worshiping in a steeple
Someone I would sacrifice everything for.
Talk to till my voice was sore.

The Dance we call Life has entangled us once more
We miss each other even more.
The sound of your voice is what I long for.
The pictures give me a glance of what was truly good.
As though they should.

Waiting for you is like a sunrise,
Beauty and bright colors arise
A wake up call on my heart
Praying that we never tear apart.
Come and see me only for a moment
Surprise me and toast to atonement.

Thursday, February 23, 2017

Let me tell you a storyAmong a group of friends...A force is tearing a them apartAnd no one is stopping it.Manipulation and lies.Love and surprise.Loss in directionSpreading like an infection.Fear and tears.Betrayal and denial.Add to the fire.This concoction is brewing among our heartsBut some have been holding in words inside their mouth.A person listening in the backgroundWatching it all fall apart.While they sit in the dark.Here is a couple of question's I must ask you.How many of you committed betrayal against someone other than the ones in this room?How many of you have made mistakes?How many of you have loved someone till it hurts?How many of you deceived one another?All your hands should have been raised. As you see, you have committed the same act as your brother and sister. How selfish are you? When you have made the same act but you don't help the person next to you?The war with your heart and mind towards the other person is only tearing you apart. Because forgiveness is a oneway street. I know a man who died on a cross and looked at the man whipping him with love and kindness. Why can't you look at the person who did you wrong with the same? Because this man loves them just as much as you no more no less. And because of what they committed against you Jesus is not going to smite them. But love them. And forgive them. You fall into petty woes of this world. And you let the devil tear your friendship apart. Are you going to fight with love and not let Satan win or are you going to dwell on revenge and let him destroy you apart.- Sabrina Black

Saturday, October 8, 2016

Where are you?
Who are you?
I am lost and cannot find my way.
I have lost sight of the light of day.
Come take me where my heart longs to be.
I cannot see the direction I am going.
Endings come to fast.
Everything I knew was a lie...
Now I just want to die.
Leave this place that is not my home,
But crafted by someone else's mind
Where are you?
Who are you?
I don't remember who I am.
I don't know who this person is.
Who is this selfish person?
This might have been me
But that's not what is written on my heart
Love will catch me.
I have tried to run
I have tried to hide.
But it's not the same
As opening your eyes
Adding a breath or a sigh
And believing in me.
My mind is quiet and clear
I will not shed a tear,
For the new is about to rise
Rising from the ashes born a new.