TOP SHELF OR ON THE BACK BURNER.... NEVER.......

Monday, July 18, 2011

THE FRONT LINE......FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER. I ALWAYS PUT MYSELF ON THE.....TOP SHELF OR ON THE BACK BURNER. ALL MY LIFE. I PUT MYSELF BACK THERE. NEVER IN THE FRONT LINE. NEVER! AND I DO MEAN NEVER. EVERY TIME I START TO TAKE MYSELF DOWN, OR GET ON THE FRONT LINE. I ALWAYS SLIDE MYSELF BACK TO THE BURNER. TO STEW SLOWING ON LOW FLAMES. OH, THE DRIVE IS IN MY HEAD & THE MOTIVATION IS THERE, BUT EVERYONE IS PULLING ME AND EVERY ONE NEEDS A PIECE OF ME.

THIS MORNING. I GO TO WORK.
MEET MY HUSBAND AT HIS DOCTOR APPOINTMENT.
MAKE IT TO MY WEIGH N MEETING FOR THE WEEK.
SET MY GOALS FOR THE WEEK WITH THE ADVISER.
AND THESE ARE MY BENCHMARKS THAT NEEDS TO BE MET BY THE END OF THIS WEEK.

ALL OF THIS.. HAS TO BE DONE WITHIN THIS WEEK. NO SLACKING OFF.
IT MUST BE DONE..

NOW, I GOT MY BLEND RECIPE SATURDAY. I DID WHIP THAT BLEND UP.
HAVE I HAD A DROP. NO.. I MIXED IT SUNDAY, AND I HAVE NOT DRANKED ONE DANGUM CUP. AM I PUTTING MYSELF ON THE BACK BURNER?
YES! I DID TODAY. I DID NOTHING. NOTHING, AND I'M PRETTY UPSET.
BUT THERE IS ALWAYS 2MORROW.. AND THERE IS ALWAYS GETTING A GLASS IN TONIGHT OF THAT SMOOTHIE LOADED BLEND. AND GETTING MY BEHIND IN THERE AND DOING A WORKOUT.

BUT I HAVE A PROBLEM.
I HAVE A GAS BUBBLE, AND IT'S WORKING ON MY LAST ONE.
I TOOK MY MEDS AND I'M WAITING FOR IT TO PAST.
WHAT DOES HUBS SAY.
THERE IS ALWAYS 2MORROW MORNING.
RELAX. REST. ENJOY THE REST OF THE DAY WITH ME.
HE HAS HAD ME ON THE GO TODAY. AND I DO MEAN THE GO.
BACK BURNER I GO.

RUN TO SEARS TO RETURN A BAD CHAINSAW THAT HE GOT ON SALE.
RUN INTO HOME DEPOT TO SEE IF THEY HAVE ANY DEALS. NO GOOD PRICES THERE. RUN TO LOWES SAME THING. NOTHING. RUN INTO FOOD VALUE TO GET SOME STUFF FOR TONIGHT'S DINNER. COME HOME BABY SIT MY BABY COUSIN, AND LOOK AT ME.. I'M BEAT.. BUT THIS IS FUNNY. I RAN SO MUCH AROUND TOWN WITH HIM. MY BURN WAS.. AND YOU ALL ARE GOING TO THINK THIS THING IS BUSTED. AND IT WAS 5439 CALORIES.. ME ON THE GO. MY FEET HAS NOT RESTED.. AND NOW..... I'M BEAT. BUT I'M NOT GOING TO LET THIS BACK BURNER THING GET THE BEST OF ME. I'M GOING TO PUSH MYSELF HARDER... THAT'S FOR SURE.. 2MORROW! I'M GOING TO GET IT.. AND GET IT TOGETHER AND DO IT BIG. BECAUSE I'M SICK OF PUTTING MYSELF ON THE BACK BURNER...

YOU ARE SPECIAL and don't forget it!!!!YOU FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE!!!!YOU ARE ONE OF GOD'S GIFTS IN THE MANY THAT GOD MAKES!!!!TURN IT OVER TO GOD AND LET GOD DO THE WORK!!!!OBEDIENCE IS BETTER THAN SACRIFICE AND THAT MEANS IF YOU DON'T TAKE CARE OF YOU (remember my hospital visit last week), then you are sacrificing your health.

I yelled at you with love in my heart, and I want you to feel good about you. No more playing old tapes, rip, you got a new attitude and everything about you is GOLDEN - boo!!

It's great to be there for your family, but if you don't take care of yourself you won't be around to do that. I hope that you get that bubble passed, and feel well enough to start with your smoothie mix soon.