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After watching the movie Rockstar, I spent some time to know more about the cast and crew. It was just matter of time, that my browser history was filled with, Wikipedia entries, YouTube interviews and Facebook pages of the director VKP and the lead actor Siddarth Menon. I felt really bad for not knowing that Siddarth Menon is a famous singer from India. Avery talented musician with a mesmerising voice, who has a huge fan base and girls in India are going ga-ga over him. He reminded me a little bit of Justin Timberlake.He is a member of a music band called Thaikudam Bridge and I pretty much love their music.

Few minutes of browsing, I ended up sending pms and friend requests to VKP sir, Rajashree Balaram and Siddarth Menon. It was a spontaneous reaction, like a fire and forget event. For my surprise a few minutes later I received a reply from Siddarth Menon. OMG… I was jumping up and down; He started texting me and then to top it all, he called me via FB messenger. OH GOSH … I couldn’t believe it. The first question I asked him was: “Why are you calling me? You are supposed to be busy”.With a gentle laugh hereplied: “I never disappoint my fans”. Somehow an inner voice was telling that this guy is fake. To verify the authenticity with whom I am talking to, I asked him to sing a song! So he sang! I was spellbound!! End of the day I was thrilled and unable to believe that this happened to me.

Next day my sleep was disrupted by the annoying noise of FB notifications. Are you familiar with the feeling, when you wake up and you just want to smash/destroy your Alarm/Mobile phone? knowing very well it was you yourself, who forgot about the mute function? Flushed with anger I checked my mobile and guess what, it was his messages which woke me up.This time he gave me his private number and asked me to add him on WhatsApp. How could I reject this nice gesture, right? By the way in the meantime all my anger just melted away. Thank God it was a weekend because on that day we talked a lot. About the band, music and how he ended up accepting the offer. During the entire conversation he was sharing personal information with me. I was a teeny tiny bit leery. After 2 weeks of small talk here & there, he succeed in convincing me that he is real. One day he told me that Thaikudam Bridge is going to Sharjah for a program. On that exact same day I saw a FB update about another program conducted by the same Band in India. From that point onwards the hide and seek game started. I insisted on having a video chat, which he refused due to some citing security issues. The other time I asked him for a selfie. A Selfie, which he has to take with his left hand and the index finger of his right hand should touch the left side of the nose 🙂 Oh well… I presume the poor guy researched online for it. 4 days later he admitted he was fake!

I hate being lied to and can’t understand why people are creating fake accounts. Look at this guy, what did he get out of this? NOTHING! What was he hoping to get out of this conversation?The disturbing fact is that his fake account is pretty active and number of his friends are increasing day by day. I reported it to the real Siddarth Menon(who I think) as well as to Facebook (How do I report a fake account?).

Now to the pleasant part. One day, completely out of the blue I received a reply from Rajashree Balaram and yes as you guessed it correctly, I was literally jumping around. She is such a nice person. Extremelyfriendly and humble. During our small conversation, I told her about the above mentioned incident and she said to me that she will convey my message to VKP sir and Siddarth Menon. That’s so sweet of her, right?Anyways I am eagerly waiting for her next work in a way I am waiting for the next season of Game of Thrones.

I pretty much enjoyed the whole experience and who knows may be one day I might talk to the real Siddarth Menon 😉

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My Birthday is in 22 days and it frightens me. As a child I was looking forward to this day but now I am looking for possible ways to postpone the day.

My parents never failed to organize the perfect Birthday party for me and my brother. We received a lot of presents, mom always prepared our favorite dish and obviously new clothes. As a student I wanted to have one of those surprise parties, where your friends plan everything and u go to a club and simply get wasted. That never happened but my parents were still organizing the big one for me. It was really sweet of them. In the next phase of my life I was fancying about wakening up next to a handsome boyfriend, having breakfast in bed, red roses and a small present ideally from Tiffany&Co. Guess what, this never happened either. This could still happen because you never know when the Mr. Perfect is gonna knock on your door. Instead of fancying about this or being excited about what is going to happen next year, I am scared about getting old.

When I look around and compare myself with other women in my family & friend circle of my age group, I feel like they are having a very boring life. In other words I think something is wrong with me because I stand out from the crowed. Sometimes I even think, I shouldn’t be this active on social media because this is what teenagers and students do. I tried to convince myself saying: “Age is just a number and I am as old as I feel.” Oh well this didn’t work out the way I wanted. The increasing number of grey hair (by the way I have 10 of those shiny bitches now) and hair thinning are clear signs of getting Old.

Today I was enjoying the view from my office window. All the trees crowned in leaves, different shades of yellow and orange. I love autumn, its simply alluring. Since it was a bit windy, a lot of leaves were falling. All of sudden I was JEALOUS of trees. Trees lose their leaves like us losing our hair. But leaves come back in Spring/Summer, but there is no come back for our hair. This is so unfair 😦

Seriously folks, I am jealous of a Tree! Can you believe that? I mean a tree???!!!!. OMG what is happening to me? Am I crazy?

Are you afraid of your birthday? Do you have similar crazy thoughts like me?

When a man gives his opinion, he’s a man. When a woman gives her opinion, she’s a bitch. – Bette Davis

We will find double standards in almost every sector of life, but in my humble opinion, the worst most painful one is between men and women. In this blog I want to share 2 incidents which recently happened.

1. Incident

The other day I finished my training late and there was a sudden downpour; felt like the clouds were mad at someone for holding them back for so long. It was inevitable that I hail a cab, quite relieved to be greeted by a friendly smile. Travelling alone, I make it a point not to divulge my exact address, asking to be dropped off at the city center works fine.

“Oh, I know this place… it’s a really nice area” he said. I could just manage a smile, not wanting to engage in conversation after an intense workout. He had to go on though… persisted with regular questions like; “Where are you from? Where are your parents? Are you living alone? Etc. As usual I answered all the questions and felt bad for not actively participating in the conversation. So I asked him the same questions and he told me where he is from and that his wife and kids were living there and he regularly visits them. My first thought was, a dedicated husband and father, working far away from home to provide for his family. This thought didn’t last long, because out of the blue he asked me:

“Do you want to drink coffee?”(By the way it was 10:30 pm)Me: “No, Thanks. I am fine.”
You know, I am looking for a girlfriend. It is DIFFICULT because my wife is not here”Me: “Oh, that’s so sad. Does your wife have a boyfriend in Iraq? I guess it’s also very difficult for her too, am I right?”
“Oh no, she is not supposed to do that. She SHOULD take care of my parents and children.”

2. Incident

A very good friend of mine Joe and his friends organize “guys’ night” every then and now. Basically they rent a business apartment for the weekend and do guy’s stuff. So you might thing what’s wrong in that. Everyone needs a break from everyday life. There’s no harm in playing poker, video games, getting drunk etc., right? Oh well I agree with you on that. In their case they even go one step further and to spice the evening they pay women to be their “girlfriend”. According to him they treat those ladies with respect and they don’t have to do anything which they don’t like. In a way there is no difference between him, his friends and the taxi driver. Few of you might ask me: “Common girl, what’s wrong in that? ”. Yes, I tried to convince myself that this is the new reality. I thought if it’s ok with their wives, why should I bother about it. But the fact is none of their wives know about it and most depressing part is that one of his friend’s wife just gave birth to their first child. While she was in pain and struggling with the changes, he was out there having a great time with some random woman.

Few days later during our usual conversation Joe told that the one of his friends saw the wife of another friend in a club dancing with some other guys. This friend now thinks that she is cheating. I had to stop Joe right there and told him that I don’t want to hear about it and asked him: “It is ok if you guys go out with other women and have “FUN”, but as soon as women do the same it’s a crime?”

Apart from the fact being sexually active with someone else rather than your partner, while you are in a committed relationship, is strictly against my ethics, let’s focus here on the double standards. Why is it ok for men to screw (sorry for my bad language) someone else’s wife, mom, sister or daughter but the women in their house shouldn’t.

My intention is not generalize men and pointing fingers at them. I have only one question: “Why do (not all of you) you do things which you will never allow or wish to happen to your wife/sister/mom?”

Today’s assignment requires me to edit my Title and Tagline. Saw the mail today morning on my way to work. Till now I didn’t even know about Title and Tagline, funny isn’t it? My first thought was, that I have to change the title of my previous blogpost.

Even though I had a hectic morning at work, some parts of my brain was engaged to find the perfect Tagline and Title. Blogging is new to me and I’ve absolutely no idea in which direction to go. Right now I want to use this platform to share my thoughts and ideas. One day I might blog about traveling or provide information about weight loss and healthy living style. In other words I haven’t defined my target audience yet, so I will keep the tagline blank for a while.

I am choosing Viennese Tandoor Schnitzel as my Title, because these 3 words describe my current situation very well – total confusion 🙂