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Wednesday, October 19, 2011

My name is Bawaani and I am living in Malaysia. I am working in one of the MNC Company here in IT field. I want to utilized this blog to share my experience when I was Nithyananda's Devotee since 2007.

After the Nithyananda's Sex Scandal, my life totally turned miserable and eventually I started to disrespect and disbelieve in spiritual. At one stage, I realize that I have to come out from all this. I started to read a lot of article about life about spiritual and Hinduism about Mukthi, meditation, Guru and etc. It gave me some kind of relaxation/peace and awareness about spiritual. One day I happened to listen to one of the video about Fake Guru by Swami Ji Balendu on youtube (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=opkPNp_Azvc) The video was uploaded on youtube in March 2009 that's was before the Nithyananda's Sex scandal was published on TV. Swami Ji Balendu explanation gave me deep clarification and from than I read lot about Swami Ji Balendu and his charity which inspire me a lot and give me hope that not all GURU are fake. Gave me hope that there are still some real guru exist to lead spiritual seekers in their spiritual life. Here the story on how I got to know about Nithyananda and my bad experience as his ex-devotee.

I was introduced to Nithyananda and his mission in the year 2007. At that time I was impressed by his writings, talks and by the propaganda made by the members of his mission. I was very impressed on his mission and interested in involving myself in spirituality and meditation. As what Nithyananda had claimed, I also thought that his mission will greatly help our today’s society that needs improvement.

I first met Nithyananda in 2007 July in Delhi for Himalayas Trip organized by Nithyananda Dhyanapeetam. Many devotees from Malaysia attended this program which was lead by Nithyananda himself.

I’ve been told that Nithyananda is an avatar of Shiva and has the powerful healing energy by his disciples and devotees. They would share how their life had transformed after attending Nithyananda’s programs and by following his meditation techniques. Thus, I was further motivated to attend Nithyananda’s program as I also wanted to reduce my stress level and depression in my life.

My Impression about him is that; he as an Avatar of Lord Shiva. I got such impression because the stories shared by him and his senior disciples as if he is Avatar of Lord Shiva. The way he talks and replies to devotees’ questions will obviously resemble as though he is an incarnation of Lord Shiva. On top of it, marketing on his healing power builds a hope to the devotees.

However in my experience I’ve seen only certain people will get healed through Nithyananda’s spiritual healing. I’ve seen a lot of healing cases and not all will get the benefit out of it. When question about this, Nithyananda would explain that it’s all depends on the person’s karma that he is not getting healed. Isn’t it a master’s duty to reduce the karma of a devotee who surrendered totally to the master? Nithyananda always says that when a devotee surrendered totally to him, as a master he would cleanse the devotees’ karma.
Isn’t this conflict to what he said earlier?

There were a lot of stories that been shared with devotees like Nithyananda had a chance to hold Lord Krishna hand, Load Shiva provide him hospitality during his sickness in Himalayas, he also mentioned that he had seen appearance of Lord Saraswathi. All these stories will then strengthened by his disciples by giving impression that those stories are real and they them self has seen Nithyananda’s real power and goddess values. Nithyananda always says that he lived as what he preaches, he declare himself as sanyasi who dropped all the desires including sex desire and only living in his body just to create more Enlightened being. He also guaranteed to give enlightenments for all his disciples and that’s the mission it seems he took when he came to this planet. He also promised that whoever attends his NSP program, will have painless death since Nithyananda’s presence will be by them.

I’ve rendered my service to the Nithyananda mission as a volunteer for 2 years. I’ve left my family and joint as an Ashramite in Malaysia Ashram for 1 year. During this period of time, I was involved and responsible to conduct and organize many ashram activities. I have spent all my time, strength, expertise for Nithyananda Mission. My intention joining as ashramite is to spread his mission and to give good spiritual message to our society.

I’ve also involve my family members to attend his program and encourage them to provide service for his mission. Even till now, my entire families are still in his path, and it’s very challenging for me to make them understand on the truth about this Nithyananda Sex Scandal. I always keep them updated on the truth information. But, most of the time I’ve been ignored by my own family members but still I feel that it is my responsible to let them know the truth his cult.

I felt very much disappointed and betrayed after knowing about the truth of Nithyananda.
What happened to the examples that he would say to sanyasis as to follow his own life pathway to attain enlightenment? Does he mean that having sex as a sanyasi to a married woman is a way to attain enlightenment? Isn’t this a disgraceful to the whole sanyasam people and Hinduism?

I cried many days, because I’ve been cheated all this while., I felt that I’ve wasted my life for some untruthful and a cheat like Nithyananda who hide behind the saffron., People talks as thought I am also one of the victims of this scandal. It was so embarrassing for me and for my family. Why am I going through this humiliation when I trusted Nithyananda and surrendered my life to his mission? I am wondering; Is this the result for sacrificing our life? Where is our Hindu Dharma? Is this what we get from a Spiritual Master? Who is responsible to reshuffle and to bring out the truth to the world? When the truth will reveal? I have so many questions running in my mind all day. It’s ruining my life and I got depressed. I will get upset by anything that reminds me of Nithyananda. I selected meditation path to reduce my stress level but unfortunately it’s even put me on worst stress now.

Anything that causing destroys to our trust in Hindu Dharma and God should be immediately stopped by the relevant organization such as police and government. This is not only about Hindu Dharma, but its involving people feelings and believe, and I sincerely seeking the government and police to act on matter.