I guess I can talk here... It doesn't really matter I suppose. I just thought that changing schools would give me a fresh start, you know? I could join the football team and just be normal and get through the year and deal with ... everything ... at college when I'm far far away but... it's not that easy and I don't know how to... I don't know. You just always seemed to know who you are and how to be yourself and even though I was horrible to you about it I always secretly admired that and I just... I hoped maybe you could teach me how to get through the day?