Written beyond the journey of life and love. In the time where i discover if fashion inspires me and the fifties and mid-centuries always haunting me,

Fifties

Friday, December 6, 2013

Feel Loved

Who remember here how I feel insecure in the first time i get into my university?
i feel really loved recently...
by people that i think i won't get any love from them...

I remember how i had a pretty bad week. Gaby was with me for a whole week. I always out, and hang out anywhere randomly. then I pray to God, in church with Pita stay behind me. I pray for that guy who i am not really sure if i like him or just adore.... Then God makes it clear if i am not falling in love or anything with him.

I remember how amazingly Mas Yogi gave me very useful advises about those things, then how mas Adhi Wardoyo told me about many stuffs that also open my eyes and my mind too. and I remember that day, in a day that i need someone or whoever beside me because i am down (my girl BFFs were still there) i texted mas Agung and I told mas Adhi W and mas Yogi, and all of them just say yes. mas Agung went to mas Yogi's flat; Gaby, mas Kadir, mas Adhi W and I went to mas Yogi's flat together; but on the way there I saw some guys from 2011 Communication especially from the Kroco group (well some are from other groups too, and it was minus duo R) are riding their bike then when I arrived in mas Yogi's flat, there were about 13 guys there. I saw mas Agung and hugged him like always and asked why there were tons of guys there. mas Agung smile and said "you wanna hang out right?" then Ko Yosse shout "who is the one who got an idea to hang out tonight?" and everyone point at me. than he shout "Oh girl, no sadness tonight, let's go and make you happy!"

and we go, i kind of love that night. everyone shared funny stories and i feel like any brothers's little sister again. we went to a night cafe, sit on mat, eat cheap and good food. the point isn't where we hang out, but our togetherness. how they try to make me forget my pain and another. and after that night we hang out again the day after that only with mas-mas from Kroco and ka Ge and ka Amel also Dorkas and Thomas. we ate in the NC again and talk funny stuffs. and in that whole bad week i was only with them and they always able to make me feel happy and alive.

Then i know, who are the ones who love me purely and who are the one who fakes. if you asked me now, if God ask me to list 10 people to be saved from the dooms day, i am going to say My dad, my brother Ariel, mom, sister, mas Agung, mas Yogi, mas Adhi W, Pita, Thea and Alex Pinnington. and if my dad n mom refuse to join i wanna add ko Jaya and mas Kadir or mas Adi G. I have so much love for them.

also on my birthday, i invited 20ish people. and all of mas-mas kroco (now include Robby and Ridwan) were there plus mas Aptasena (gosh idk where is his position) because he was my senior in HS and he always shares his painful love stories to me (well i told him if that girl just playing around and fooling him but he didn't want to listen, then she dumped him like a trash) and i can say it was the best birthday i ever had. no gift, but their appearances are the gift for me. mas Yogi was sick that day and he came. oh God, i love these people badly.

another love that i always get from are for sure with my college inner best friends like Gaby, Thea, Nanda, Nini, Tiara, Alex and Calvin also Moris, Ivan, Thunder, and Thomas. they are always there for me at noon (usually mas-mas part is at evening-night). Alexander Pinnington (he is my distance ear, haha if i got a very bad day the first guy that i contact is always him, and we always text each other few times in a month and always mostly in the right time when i need him) and the most wow thing is he always remember me.. he is totally an awesome friend! and the Gilleys, Kayla and Craig they are always there for me... This couple is the best couple EVER!