Tag Archives: Loving Too Much

I don’t know how to be anythingother than intense.All in.Too much.Too involved.I don’t know how to be an almostor anything in between.But there’s a price you paywhen you can’t settle for the middlebecause when you’re so fixated ona certain kind of loveyou become so good at letting go,kissing people goodbye,holding someone’s handonly to unclasp your fingers,getting so dangerously closeonly to create a safer distance,catching yourself before you fallbecause you’re not so sureif they will catch you.And you don’t know how to half-love someoneor have bits and pieces of their heart,You only know how to love with all your heartand want the same in return.So I got used to it all,you know —leaving,moving on,being on my own,searching for answers,walking my journey alonebecause as much as I want tohold someone’s handas I climb the mountainand as much as I want toshare the view with someone,I don’t know how to balance myselfif I’m not the only one.I don’t know how to open the doorif I have one foot out.So it doesn’t get to me anymorewhen people call me too dreamy,too romantic,too idealistic,or too muchbecause there’s a price you paywhen you don’t know how to settle,you spend a lot of time waiting,you spend a lot of time alone,you don’t always have a hand to hold,you don’t always have someone to callbut for some reason, you wait it out,because you have faith that one of those daysyour too muchness will be just enoughfor the right person.