Equator Boy goes to Europe

Blogging makes me Depressed!

well i blog in spurts, and was just looking at some of these spurts. It seems very often i start with happy blogs, then they get dull, boring, angsty, frustrating, complaining, depressing. And i see the trend for my spurt this year too! So I’ll try to make it sound better for once!

I’ve had a lot of time to myself over the past week, even went to the park to just sit down and consider stuff for myself. And it’s been good! There’s more peace in my life now. Although I’m still jobless I’m not too worried about the future. The worst thing that can happen is I go unemployed for the rest of my life and die of hunger. The best thing that can happen is I find a great job, a wonderful girl and live happily ever after. The likely thing to happen is somewhere in between 🙂 duh.

Haha but yeah. School can be difficult with less motivation to study for grades, but at the same time it can be a real joy, getting to know people, discussing deep life questions, just enjoying the company of good friends. The worry is still there but if worrying only takes up part of my life and I let the time flit away, then why should I worry? 😀

So I’ll make the best of my last 2 months in school, I promise. Study responsibly yes, Do my FYP on time yes. But really take the time to appreciate nature, to appreciate friends, to appreciate LIFE. grow stronger in God’s word, know His direction for my life and enjoy the time!

Haha this all sounds weird i know. but i’m sure a positive outlook on life will change me drastically. it cannot be superficial cos then one day it will break and i’ll be in pieces, so i’ll keep working on it!