As the title says. I've reached a very....strange time in my life. I really think I want to be a girl. I've always had this desire in my head, as far back as I can remember. But I always dismissed it as some dumb fantasy, that could never happen. I came close to trying on a few of my mother's clothes, but I just couldn't...it just felt too weird. I'm pretty sure I knew about transsexualism, SRS, etc. when I was a kid(tip to parents, watch what your kid does on the internet!), but...I think it was that I knew how weird I was for having those feelings and that I shouldn't have them, because I eventually made myself put it behind me, and move on. Then, a little over a year ago, out of pure coincidence I happened upon the story of a TS transitioning to a woman. It was the first time the subject had come up in years. In like an instant it all came back to me. And since then it's only gotten worse. I've shaved my whole body several times, sparing my arms which I can't hide easily. I love wearing girl's clothing, I haven't bought many though, out of fear of my parents finding them. I don't know what to do. I think, maybe, I could continue to exist as I am, a guy. But at the same time, I feel going through with this would make me happy, that this is what I should do. I should also state, this isn't a sexual thing, I find no sexual pleasure in dressing in woman's clothing i just...like it. Bah. I'm just weird, I suppose. In any case, I need to do something. Though if I do choose to confess these feelings to my parents it will have to be sometime after my return to the states in August. I think though, I would rather give it some time, and slowly give them some hints(maybe finally shaving my arms/showing my legs) beforehand, maybe I'd get an idea on how they would feel before I have to go and actually say it. I don't know why, but for some reason typing all this here makes it seem more...real. Maybe because, even though I consider noone on this board a friend, I've shared a lot more about myself here than I've ever dared share with any of my friends. Well, I /am/ posting this, after all, so if that's not a testament to that, I don't know what is. Anyway, whatever thoughts you guys have, whether I should do this or not, etc, please share. And, on a lower note, if you have a problem with transsexualism, please, keep it to yourself.

I'm sorry I took so long - Real life likes to get in the way.And yes, I was thinking this too...but I've never looked into getting a shrink before, eh I guess I'll figure it out one way or another. At any rate, thank you for the response!

Well I may as well follow-up, during my once per 4 months visit :PI'm seeing someone now who basically confirmed what I was thinking. I've come out to my good friends and my mom, going to go on hormones to begin my transition in a couple months. I get goosebumps just thinking about it.