Friday, May 27, 2016

Byebye past!

Hey, I'm back. It took me a long time, a very long time to settle myself down. Life returned back to days when I've not known him, and I'm treating it like I've never known him before. So far so good.

I've come to terms with many things, accepting all the realities, and trying my best to move on, as happy as I can.

People scolded me for being stupid. And yes, I actually feel stupid. Like fuck can, I'm a 千金, my parents dote on me, why the fuck I get so devastated over a man? Not as if there is no other man in this world. Not as if nobody is going after me (but I don't need it, I pushed everyone away). Not as if I needed him to survive. Something is really wrong. I deserved better.

Okay, to be fair, he was nice to me until the last 2-3 months. Maybe he has already decided to give up, that's why. I don't blame him. It's all fated. Becos when he tried to salvage before that, I wasn't that nice either.

It's been a long tiring journey. And we both decided to let go in the end. Aiya, he isn't meant to be mine, at all. Somehow, I felt a huge sense of relieve now.

But no matter what, the memories we shared are something that can't be erased for life. From the bottom of my heart, I hope he can find his happiness one day. Stay happy and healthy!

Thank you for all the fond memories.

I'm moving on...

To search for my own happiness. To carve out a career of my own. To earn as much money as I can. To make the rest of my life the best of my life.