I am sick of this i cant fix this.

My life is fucked up. I am filed with hate. I am crazy and there is no hope for me. My family destroyed itself. I want them to leave. My last friend and my brother moved away. I am fucked. My life is over. I can't fix it myself and the doctors don't give a fuck they will just drug me and tell me to have a nice day. I don't want to be a zombie. I want to be happy again. I forgot how to ttalk with people........I end up fucking it up and sounding like a fool......I am not a fool I know for a fact I'm smarter then most of these stupid fucks that pay me my measly ass paycheck.I try.being happy. I hate everything. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate how fucking crazy I am. My family is useless and I have no friends. I am fucked I am alone and I don't even know why I posted this stupid fucking thing. If anyone has something "smart" to say, fuck you in advance cause if I hear you talking shit in real life ill blow you to fucking bits cause I'm no bitch I'm the real fucking deal and I don't have shit to lose anymore so suck my Dick untell blood drips out of my crazy fucked up head. Ps fuck you very much cause no one will help anyways

My life is fucked up. I am filed with hate. I am crazy and there is no hope for me. My family destroyed itself. I want them to leave. My last friend and my brother moved away. I am fucked. My life is over. I can't fix it myself and the doctors don't give a fuck they will just drug me and tell me to have a nice day. I don't want to be a zombie. I want to be happy again. I forgot how to ttalk with people........I end up fucking it up and sounding like a fool......I am not a fool I know for a fact I'm smarter then most of these stupid fucks that pay me my measly ass paycheck.I try.being happy. I hate everything. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate how fucking crazy I am. My family is useless and I have no friends. I am fucked I am alone and I don't even know why I posted this stupid fucking thing. If anyone has something "smart" to say, fuck you in advance cause if I hear you talking shit in real life ill blow you to fucking bits cause I'm no bitch I'm the real fucking deal and I don't have shit to lose anymore so suck my Dick untell blood drips out of my crazy fucked up head. Ps fuck you very much cause no one will help anyways

Quoting: Anonymous Coward 28305603

There are good things about you just like there are strengths and talents in all of us. You just have to look forthem. You ARE worthwhile! (hug)

You sound like a Human being, who doesn't understand that most of the "people" around him are genetic Hybrids, not fully Human. I used to be as confused and felt as isolated as you do, but now I know what's going on. I stumbled onto the truth of the matter, while researching my own DNA, not too long ago (within the last few years).

The thing about Hybrids (who are the "Beast" spoken of in Revelation) is, that as long as you expect them to behave like normal Human beings (ie with normal Human feelings, morals, intelligence, etc.) -- you will be sorely disappointed.

Nearly 20 yrs ago, a radio astrologer did a reading for me; and this is all she said (three words): "People disappoint you."

That is not what I wanted to hear, and I wanted to know WHY it was so true. But she couldn't tell me why, because she didn't know... she only knew that is the case. I thought I might die not knowing the answer, but God eventually led me to the truth.

You sound like a Human being, who doesn't understand that most of the "people" around him are genetic Hybrids, not fully Human. I used to be as confused and felt as isolated as you do, but now I know what's going on. I stumbled onto the truth of the matter, while researching my own DNA, not too long ago (within the last few years).

The thing about Hybrids (who are the "Beast" spoken of in Revelation) is, that as long as you expect them to behave like normal Human beings (ie with normal Human feelings, morals, intelligence, etc.) -- you will be sorely disappointed.

Nearly 20 yrs ago, a radio astrologer did a reading for me; and this is all she said (three words): "People disappoint you."

That is not what I wanted to hear, and I wanted to know WHY it was so true. But she couldn't tell me why, because she didn't know... she only knew that is the case. I thought I might die not knowing the answer, but God eventually led me to the truth.

Quoting: shenandoah

not hybrid, robotoids. they are missing the "human" part

The actual Lord's Prayer Given by Jesus 2000 years ago.

"MY SPIRIT, YOU ARE OMNIPOTENT. YOUR NAME IS HOLY. MAY YOUR REALM BE INCARNATE IN ME. MAY YOUR POWER REVEAL ITSELF WITHIN ME, ON EARTH AND IN THE HEAVEN. GIVE ME TODAY MY DAILY BREAD, AND THUS, LET ME RECOGNIZE MY TRANSGRESSIONS AND ERRORS, AND I SHALL RECOGNIZE THE TRUTH. AND DO NOT LEAD ME INTO TEMPTATION AND CONFUSION, BUT DELIVER ME FROM ERROR. FOR YOURS IS THE REALM WITHIN ME AND THE POWER AND THE KNOWLEDGE FOREVER,AMEN.

My life is fucked up. I am filed with hate. I am crazy and there is no hope for me. My family destroyed itself. I want them to leave. My last friend and my brother moved away. I am fucked. My life is over. I can't fix it myself and the doctors don't give a fuck they will just drug me and tell me to have a nice day. I don't want to be a zombie. I want to be happy again. I forgot how to ttalk with people........I end up fucking it up and sounding like a fool......I am not a fool I know for a fact I'm smarter then most of these stupid fucks that pay me my measly ass paycheck.I try.being happy. I hate everything. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate how fucking crazy I am. My family is useless and I have no friends. I am fucked I am alone and I don't even know why I posted this stupid fucking thing. If anyone has something "smart" to say, fuck you in advance cause if I hear you talking shit in real life ill blow you to fucking bits cause I'm no bitch I'm the real fucking deal and I don't have shit to lose anymore so suck my Dick untell blood drips out of my crazy fucked up head. Ps fuck you very much cause no one will help anyways

Quoting: Anonymous Coward 28305603

I just re-read your post.Thought I'd tell you that you are not alone in the way that you feel. Depression is my middle name.No, its not but I fought it all my life.For me, it was the worst at Thanksgiving and Christmas time. Not sure why, it just was.

Things improved bigtime for me when I got a dog and started hiking up in the local hills.I did it every single day. My dog was my friend.He'd MAKE me go even when I wasn't in the mood. I'd go and feel better afterwards.

I still hike almost every single day. Except now, I have 3 dogs. You know WHY???Because I have no friends and most people make me crazy.I'm super happy by the way.I got married to awesome guy who loves me.

You sound like me until recently. Then I gave up and started taking antidepressants. Now everything is super mellow, I don't care about fuck-all, life is simple. Like you I was scared about being a "drugged zombie" but its ten-thousand times better than living with the rage, frustration, hatred, anger, sorrow, etc. I had before.

The funny thing is that people who are depressed always think its their "authentic" self and that going on antidepressants would be "giving up" but the fact is their depressed self is a shitty, miserable self and its totally unprodcutive too, just wallowing in endless self-reflection and misery. It's not like your "giving up" something wonderful.

You sound like a Human being, who doesn't understand that most of the "people" around him are genetic Hybrids, not fully Human. I used to be as confused and felt as isolated as you do, but now I know what's going on. I stumbled onto the truth of the matter, while researching my own DNA, not too long ago (within the last few years).

The thing about Hybrids (who are the "Beast" spoken of in Revelation) is, that as long as you expect them to behave like normal Human beings (ie with normal Human feelings, morals, intelligence, etc.) -- you will be sorely disappointed.

Nearly 20 yrs ago, a radio astrologer did a reading for me; and this is all she said (three words): "People disappoint you."

That is not what I wanted to hear, and I wanted to know WHY it was so true. But she couldn't tell me why, because she didn't know... she only knew that is the case. I thought I might die not knowing the answer, but God eventually led me to the truth.

Quoting: shenandoah

not hybrid, robotoids. they are missing the "human" part

Quoting: God Loves ALL

"they are missing the "human" part"

With that I agree. Although Hybrids are part Human, and Human DNA is naturally dominant while lower Primate genes are recessive -- that only means two recessive Hybrid genes (one from each parent) are required for an Ape or Monkey trait to express itself in any individual. In that manner, Human traits often become cancelled out by lower Primate ones, depending on the particular traits involved. When that happens, I call them what they are: Hybrids.

You could probably use more *hugs* or touching in your life. That won't solve a damned thing..but it does make it all a little more bearable. The people of our time suffer from a lack of close touch. Too much touching of machinery and not enough human contact. It takes an emotional and mental toll. Truth.

Also..consider a fasting/detox to restore a little physical balance.

Last but not least, try balancing your intake of information so that you don't overdo Doom/Gloom. There is a lot of hopeful and inspirational (non religious) stuff out there to take in.

Although the world is full of suffering...it is also full of overcoming. H.K.

its basically your attitude, your family is useless?? your smarter than your stupid bossess??? it will just get worse with that kinda attitude.

Quoting: Anonymous Coward 4959545

Is it just my attitude? Jeeze thanks ill just pretend life is great and everything will work out!!!!!! First if all you don't know jack shit about my family or my job so fuck you. Go get bent and have a nice day. I work hard and get paid next to the lowest. My family is 90% of the reason my life is the way it is. 10% cause I was a stupid kid.

You sound like a Human being, who doesn't understand that most of the "people" around him are genetic Hybrids, not fully Human. I used to be as confused and felt as isolated as you do, but now I know what's going on. I stumbled onto the truth of the matter, while researching my own DNA, not too long ago (within the last few years).

The thing about Hybrids (who are the "Beast" spoken of in Revelation) is, that as long as you expect them to behave like normal Human beings (ie with normal Human feelings, morals, intelligence, etc.) -- you will be sorely disappointed.

Nearly 20 yrs ago, a radio astrologer did a reading for me; and this is all she said (three words): "People disappoint you."

That is not what I wanted to hear, and I wanted to know WHY it was so true. But she couldn't tell me why, because she didn't know... she only knew that is the case. I thought I might die not knowing the answer, but God eventually led me to the truth.

Quoting: shenandoah

not hybrid, robotoids. they are missing the "human" part

Quoting: God Loves ALL

"they are missing the "human" part"

With that I agree. Although Hybrids are part Human, and Human DNA is naturally dominant while lower Primate genes are recessive -- that only means two recessive Hybrid genes (one from each parent) are required for an Ape or Monkey trait to express itself in any individual. In that manner, Human traits often become cancelled out by lower Primate ones, depending on the particular traits involved. When that happens, I call them what they are: Hybrids.

Quoting: shenandoah

no Senadoah, you do not understand Human DNA Its not just limited to this planet. there is a deliberate program of putting robotoids on this planet started a few generations ago. the hybrid comes if a human mates with them.

This is planned warfare against God and it works well. Not the first place or time it has been done.

"MY SPIRIT, YOU ARE OMNIPOTENT. YOUR NAME IS HOLY. MAY YOUR REALM BE INCARNATE IN ME. MAY YOUR POWER REVEAL ITSELF WITHIN ME, ON EARTH AND IN THE HEAVEN. GIVE ME TODAY MY DAILY BREAD, AND THUS, LET ME RECOGNIZE MY TRANSGRESSIONS AND ERRORS, AND I SHALL RECOGNIZE THE TRUTH. AND DO NOT LEAD ME INTO TEMPTATION AND CONFUSION, BUT DELIVER ME FROM ERROR. FOR YOURS IS THE REALM WITHIN ME AND THE POWER AND THE KNOWLEDGE FOREVER,AMEN.

My life is fucked up. I am filed with hate. I am crazy and there is no hope for me. My family destroyed itself. I want them to leave. My last friend and my brother moved away. I am fucked. My life is over. I can't fix it myself and the doctors don't give a fuck they will just drug me and tell me to have a nice day. I don't want to be a zombie. I want to be happy again. I forgot how to ttalk with people........I end up fucking it up and sounding like a fool......I am not a fool I know for a fact I'm smarter then most of these stupid fucks that pay me my measly ass paycheck.I try.being happy. I hate everything. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate how fucking crazy I am. My family is useless and I have no friends. I am fucked I am alone and I don't even know why I posted this stupid fucking thing. If anyone has something "smart" to say, fuck you in advance cause if I hear you talking shit in real life ill blow you to fucking bits cause I'm no bitch I'm the real fucking deal and I don't have shit to lose anymore so suck my Dick untell blood drips out of my crazy fucked up head. Ps fuck you very much cause no one will help anyways

There is no hope for the society, the best we can do is try to live as alienated from it as possible, and as close to nature as possible. This is the only chance we have for at least a little hapiness and comfort.

Quit feeling sorry for yourself. Grow up, and be an adult. No one can make you happy or mad but yourself. If you don't like your life, then change it. Even if you can't change all of it, start by making the small changes you can make. Life is hard for everyone, and no one ever said life is fair. Look at others, there are probably some worse off than you.

its basically your attitude, your family is useless?? your smarter than your stupid bossess??? it will just get worse with that kinda attitude.

Quoting: Anonymous Coward 4959545

Is it just my attitude? Jeeze thanks ill just pretend life is great and everything will work out!!!!!! First if all you don't know jack shit about my family or my job so fuck you. Go get bent and have a nice day. I work hard and get paid next to the lowest. My family is 90% of the reason my life is the way it is. 10% cause I was a stupid kid.

Quoting: Anonymous Coward 28360971

Why would you do that? "Pretending" everything is just fine is just another way of living your life as a dream.

Do you really want to live your life as a dream?

You said not to share any real life shit....OK.

BUT

If we don't "share" our experiences, especially those that may be similar to your own how can we express any meaningful way to help you get past it?

NOTE: I didn't say forget about whats happened to you...I said, to get past it....BIG difference.

If a person has had evil visited upon them, especially at the hands of those who are supposed to care the most, that is a HEAVY burden to bare.

Can it be done? Many have! Does that mean you will? Well, the HONEST answer is, that is up to YOU...and ONLY you!

Are you willing to allow yourself to get past it? Keep in mind, no matter what any of us say, only you can give yourself that permission.

Will it be difficult? HELL...it's the hardest thing to do..you have to begin by looking inward...once you do that, you may be on the path....until then, you will continue to wallow in self pity (not saying it's not justified) but just saying that self pity is what allows those who treated you wrongly to continue to control your life....in other words, it allows their evil to win out!

The courage for anyone facing the hurts you obviously feel it to face them, put them off to the side as best you can, realize those people have in fact damaged you, BUT then you choose to love and trust again. Love or trust them? Not unless you have a wish for more pain.

But as evidenced by all the replies to a complete stranger from other strangers here, there are people out here who do care...they care about YOU....we don't know you but YOU are a human being, with real hurts and we feel that pain.....the real test is, are you willing to accept that caring from a world that while filled with evil, is also filled with good.

My life is fucked up. I am filed with hate. I am crazy and there is no hope for me. My family destroyed itself. I want them to leave. My last friend and my brother moved away. I am fucked. My life is over. I can't fix it myself and the doctors don't give a fuck they will just drug me and tell me to have a nice day. I don't want to be a zombie. I want to be happy again. I forgot how to ttalk with people........I end up fucking it up and sounding like a fool......I am not a fool I know for a fact I'm smarter then most of these stupid fucks that pay me my measly ass paycheck.I try.being happy. I hate everything. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate how fucking crazy I am. My family is useless and I have no friends. I am fucked I am alone and I don't even know why I posted this stupid fucking thing. If anyone has something "smart" to say, fuck you in advance cause if I hear you talking shit in real life ill blow you to fucking bits cause I'm no bitch I'm the real fucking deal and I don't have shit to lose anymore so suck my Dick untell blood drips out of my crazy fucked up head. Ps fuck you very much cause no one will help anyways

You sound like a Human being, who doesn't understand that most of the "people" around him are genetic Hybrids, not fully Human. I used to be as confused and felt as isolated as you do, but now I know what's going on. I stumbled onto the truth of the matter, while researching my own DNA, not too long ago (within the last few years).

The thing about Hybrids (who are the "Beast" spoken of in Revelation) is, that as long as you expect them to behave like normal Human beings (ie with normal Human feelings, morals, intelligence, etc.) -- you will be sorely disappointed.

Nearly 20 yrs ago, a radio astrologer did a reading for me; and this is all she said (three words): "People disappoint you."

That is not what I wanted to hear, and I wanted to know WHY it was so true. But she couldn't tell me why, because she didn't know... she only knew that is the case. I thought I might die not knowing the answer, but God eventually led me to the truth.

Quoting: shenandoah

I agree about the hybrids...and for whatever reason, they are getting stranger by the day...something's up???? Hang in there...I know how you feel.

its basically your attitude, your family is useless?? your smarter than your stupid bossess??? it will just get worse with that kinda attitude.

Quoting: Anonymous Coward 4959545

Is it just my attitude? Jeeze thanks ill just pretend life is great and everything will work out!!!!!! First if all you don't know jack shit about my family or my job so fuck you. Go get bent and have a nice day. I work hard and get paid next to the lowest. My family is 90% of the reason my life is the way it is. 10% cause I was a stupid kid.

Quoting: Anonymous Coward 28360971

Why would you do that? "Pretending" everything is just fine is just another way of living your life as a dream.

Do you really want to live your life as a dream?

You said not to share any real life shit....OK.

BUT

If we don't "share" our experiences, especially those that may be similar to your own how can we express any meaningful way to help you get past it?

NOTE: I didn't say forget about whats happened to you...I said, to get past it....BIG difference.

If a person has had evil visited upon them, especially at the hands of those who are supposed to care the most, that is a HEAVY burden to bare.

Can it be done? Many have! Does that mean you will? Well, the HONEST answer is, that is up to YOU...and ONLY you!

Are you willing to allow yourself to get past it? Keep in mind, no matter what any of us say, only you can give yourself that permission.

Will it be difficult? HELL...it's the hardest thing to do..you have to begin by looking inward...once you do that, you may be on the path....until then, you will continue to wallow in self pity (not saying it's not justified) but just saying that self pity is what allows those who treated you wrongly to continue to control your life....in other words, it allows their evil to win out!

The courage for anyone facing the hurts you obviously feel it to face them, put them off to the side as best you can, realize those people have in fact damaged you, BUT then you choose to love and trust again. Love or trust them? Not unless you have a wish for more pain.

But as evidenced by all the replies to a complete stranger from other strangers here, there are people out here who do care...they care about YOU....we don't know you but YOU are a human being, with real hurts and we feel that pain.....the real test is, are you willing to accept that caring from a world that while filled with evil, is also filled with good.