I love to laugh. I LOVE it. There is something so cleansing about laughing. Laughter is infectious. It makes other people smile and it makes you feel better. Laughter is hope for better moments to come.
Unfortunately, in my life as a momcologist, there are way too many tears that come through and laughing through them is a necessity many times.
Crying, yelling, laughing... it's all a part of life.. but really, laughter through tears is most definitely my favorite emotion.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

...but I am still here. I am feeling better. I would have been getting ready to go for my 20 week ultrasound next week but instead I am filling my days with being grateful for my 2 kiddies that are here with me and doing all that I can do with them. It is hard to try not to think about where I would be in my pregnancy and the fact that I would have been feeling those flutters and in maternity clothes by now but God had other plans for me and my family and I am hoping that in time I can really be ok with that.The kids and I are heading back to NY for a few weeks on Friday. This trip has been planned for a while but I have to admit, if I could shorten it, I would. The 3 of us will be up there for 3 weeks and then Matt will come up and meet us and stay for a week then all 4 of us will fly back to Florida. It is going to be a crazy 3 weeks. I will be happy to see my family and friends and to spend time with them but I am anxious about the kids and I being gone for so long. Katie will be going back to school shortly after we get back to Florida and I don't want her to go through all of the emotions of missing her family and friends in NYC all over again like she did when we moved down here. There are a lot of things I want to do up there and that I have planned. My little brother is graduating 8th grade so his party is this weekend, my dad is retiring on the 27th and we are celebrating with him (Yes, we will be on TV when he rings the closing bell!! :) Check us out on CNBC at 3:55 PM EST on 6/27!!), my Grandmother is celebrating her birthday on 7/5... and I really just miss my friends so I am thrilled that I will be able to see them and spend some time with them! But on the other hand, I am trying to accept that this is where I live. This is my life now. My life is in Florida and my family and friends are in NYC. It is hard for me to go back home and see them, just as they were when I left (well, not just as they were but close!! LOL) and spend time with them and know that I have to come back to Florida and not see them again for months. All of these changes that I have gone through and am continuing to go through. I just keep praying and trying to accept things as they are. Then Matt throws another curveball... just when I am accepting that I am here in Cape Coral, he tells me that he is putting in for a promotion. A program that would move us from here to another area of Florida for a year and then possibly move us again. Well, I guess we will cross that bridge if we need to, right??!! LOLAnyway, we are leaving this Friday for the month and I haven't done any packing yet so I should probably start doing that... but first, to do some laundry and get these kiddies to bed!! LOLHope you are all doing well... Be strong, live well, love much and laugh often...