Tuesday, June 16, 2015

To Sit in Sadness

I’ve been trying to
sit with the sadness this summer. The unexpected loss of a dear friend who took
his life. The upcoming first anniversary of my mom’s death. The absence of my
husband, who has been travelling too much and working too hard. The frustrations
of learning to work with new computer programs and video cameras – poking me
with reminders of how I’m getting older and can’t afford to be out-of-date.

Like a lifeline, my horses thread through each day, greeting
me warmly with their “nmm, nmm’s” each morning, watching me drive off and come
home like two concerned sentinels at my gate. At night, when I crawl into bed,
I hear them through the open window, stirring and making comforting noises in
the barn like the lyrics of a lullaby on top of the noisy chorus of peepers and
locusts chirping.

There have been plenty of gifts too.I’ve made strong new friendships with the
young people and other amazing, kind souls at Blue Star Equiculture. I’ve
discovered a beautiful web of women artists, many of them in their ‘80’s, who
have a talent and passion for rug hooking and are eager for me to film them and
share their art with the world.Through
Paul and Pamela Rickenbach Moshimer, we have met Grandmother Nancy Andry, an elder,
storyteller and skilled horsewoman, who lives right around the corner from us
and has re-connected us with Native American culture and wisdom. All the years
that we were in California, we had Native American friends who graciously
shared their beliefs and traditions with us, but we had lost that connection
when we moved to the East Coast.Now,
through Paul’s urging, we have re-kindled it.

When Grandmother Nancy came to our house for the first time,
my husband took her up on the hill above the barn to the cedar grove.There is an old stone altar and a ring of
stones that is buried in the earth.She
told us that she thinks it was the site of a moon lodge created by a small
group of natives of the Algonquin tribe who lived in this area.The moon lodge is where the women gathered to
rest and teach their wisdom. No men were allowed. At the time of a woman’s
menses, she would go there to honor the last cycle of the moon, gain strength
from Mother Earth and talk to her sisters and elders. It was a way to
revitalize herself.It makes sense to
me.

Later in the summer, on Saturday, August 22, Grandmother
Nancy will be doing storytelling for children and families, spending time with
the big horses and enjoying the magic of Blue Star.I hope that you will be able to join all of
us. More details will follow.We believe
in the good things coming.

2 comments:

You wrote:"At night, when I crawl into bed, I hear them through the open window, stirring and making comforting noises in the barn like the lyrics of a lullaby on top of the noisy chorus of peepers and locusts chirping"

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Besides being a cowgirl, Victoria produces film and television programs. With director/artist Robert Longo and science fiction writer William Gibson, she created the movie "Johnny Mnemonic", starring Keanu Reeves. She also produced the first AIDS benefit in 1985, called "Comic Relief", with Mike Nichols, Lorne Michaels, Steve Martin and other far-sighted, caring celebrities. Her television career most recently includes being the Series Producer for "Interpol Investigates" for the National Geographic Channel. She's also worked for the Children's Television Network, HBO, Showtime and all three major networks. She lives happily with her husband, her daughter, a dog, and of course, two wonderful Quarter Horses.