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Depression. It is such a small word for such a long road. I want to share with all of you what it is, and what it isn’t. Many of us suffer with it in some form or another and then there are those select few that just don’t understand. So, without further ado, I am going to shine a bit of a light on it, in the Lilly way.

Depression is the severe feeling of despondency and dejection. By medical terms. It is a common but serious mental disorder. So let me bullet point this (I LOVE ME SOME BULLET POINTS YO!):

Depression is a REAL THING. It isn’t something that is just boom you can get over it. IT IS A MENTAL STATE.

Depression can and will affect people in different ways. While some people are hardly able to get out of bed, some will do menial things, like sink into a Television screen. Okay, that sounds bad like I am talking about the scene in “Nightmare on Elm Street” where the TV picks up the girl and shoves her hea….. Okay, stopping here.

Depression can be treated. There are ways to get out of a funk. Whether it is meditation, mediCation or therapy. You can find help.

All of us have periods of sadness. Whether it is a break-up, a loss of a job or home, it comes on. Sadness is a part of every day life and something that will never go away. Depression on the other hand is deeper than that. It is the loss of will. Things that we used to be interested in just lose their oomph. No motivation to get out there and take on the world. It is the feeling of inadequacy. Eating too much, or too little. Now, you might say that these all sound like SAD symptoms, and you are right. They are. BUT it is when they extend past that point, last for a lot longer than usual.

Let’s say there is a girl named Bertha May Magillycutty. Bertha has been in a relationship with Smitty Werbenjagermanjensen. Then Bertha and Smitty break up. She is sad, ends up losing interest, starts eating buckets of ice cream while watching The Notebook. After a few days she gets leveled out and begins picking up the pieces.

Now here is the way the Depressed Mind gets.

Bertha and Smitty break up. She is heartbroken. Cannot get out of bed, she lets herself go. Doesn’t shower, brush her hair. She doesn’t leave the house. She is in a downward spiral. Where the first Bertha began picking up the pieces, this Bertha looks at the pieces all strewn around the floor and gets frustrated by the amount of them are on the floor. She sees them as a wave of pieces that she couldn’t possibly pick up. So she sits in the middle of that pieces strewn floor and loses herself in them.

So there it is my friends. How DEPRESSION is. It is wave after wave of pieces that we just feel we won’t be able to put back together because there are just so many. So we sink lower and lower into the blackness.

It, Depression, interferes with the daily lives of those that it grabs, like a torturous villain. It causes pain, not only to the person being held “captive” but those around them too. It doesn’t at all mean that those suffering from depression is weak, by no means. It just means that we are overwhelmed.

Like I said before, too many times depression is overlooked. It is “diagnosed” as just sadness, or another sickness. But I am going to give a short list of symptoms that we can look for in ourselves or those around us.

Loss of interest in things previously enjoyed. (Hobbies, Sports, etc)

Difficulty in making decisions, or remembering planned things.

Restlessness or irritability.

Weight gain or loss.

Fatigue or lethargy.

Feelings of being worthless, useless, unneeded.

Difficulty sleeping. Either too little, or too much.

Hopelessness

There are many different types of depression as well. I will not go into detail of them, since this is already running long, but there is one that I want to bring up. Bipolar Disorder.

Bipolar is NOT the same as depression. While a person that suffers from Bipolar disorder, does have extremely low moods, they also have very HIGH moods. They can been down and out, or excessively happy.

What I want all of you to know is that no matter how severe depression is, it IS treatable. Using meditation techniques helps soothe over whatever wounds are creating the issue. Find a quiet spot, fill it with candles and smell good things and just sit and relax. Just allow your mind to wander. Lay down if you must, but you need to clear your mind and just allow it to roam. If something comes in, push it out and keep your head clear.

You may also decide that medications are in order. There are many different types out there, you need to speak to your doctor to find which one suits you. Non-narcotic types are out there, just figure which works.

Therapy is a great way to get a handle on depression. Speak about how your feeling with a medical therapist. Just let it out.

Keep a journal. Put in all of your feelings, the pain, heartache and then when you are done with that one, burn it. And then as the smoke flows up into the sky, visualize that your hurt is going with it.

A mixture of all of these could help. But the most important thing is for you to know that you are NOT alone in this. You have family, friends (online and off) that are going to be there for you. Goodness knows that I am.

Now depression is not something that can be dropped at turn of a hat. Saying “Just get over it,” is not a good treatment option. This ‘sadness’ goes a lot deeper. It is the loss of hope and desire. You cannot just dust those off and boom, shiny and new. I wish it would, but it won’t. It isn’t something that can be just shooed away. It is deep rooted and seeded, and the only thing that can help is HELP.

Study about depression. Research about it friends. And remember, no matter what, you can get passed this. You got it.

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Hello my dear lovelies. As some of you might remember, I have posted a few things about Dermasil before. I personally love their products and considering the price tag, it is definitely a win in my book, especially for such a great product.

But about a year or so ago, Dermasil was nice enough to send me the Oil Free Daily Retinol Facial Cream and the Oil Free Night Moisturizer so I could try it out. And yes, it has taken this long for me to make up my mind about it. What I wanted to do was spend about 2 weeks just doing my normal cleansing routine, then I would use the product for as long as it took to finish it off and then go back to my regular routine. I wanted to see how much of a difference there was.

Now, I need to explain something. While my skin isn’t perfect (no ones is!), it is also in pretty good shape. I rarely get acne (only if I don’t wash my face after wearing some sort of makeupy thingie!) and only have 2 chicken pox scars on my nose. To be honest, I am not sure if I am the best one to give you a proper review on this, but in the end, there are things that I noticed.

First off let me start off by talking about the Oil Free Daily Retinol Facial Cream. The jar it comes in is cute and dainty, made of a harder plastic that seems to be shatter proof. (We all know how much of a klutz I am!) and the top has a golden lid.

When you open the lid, you are then hit with one of the most beautiful scents I have ever taken within my nose holes. It is like a tea rose scent and ooooh it is nice. It brings back memories of me at my grandmothers house. It makes me feel serene and relaxed.

The cream inside is thick and feels silky to the touch, and when I tested it on my hand, I was blown away by the feel that it left behind. It soaks into the skin slowly, but easily leaving behind the feel of rose petals.

So the first day I used it, I could notice a difference in my skin that felt like my facial cover was more youthful and energized. It just felt good. And after using it for a while, I noticed that I radiated a glow that was just unique and yummy. If that makes sense at all.

Now, for the Oil Free Night Moisturizer. It comes in the same kind of container that the Daily Cream does with the only exception being the lid. It is a light periwinkle sort of blue. The scent is a mixture between baby powder and unicorn wishes. It is peaceful and relaxing, creating a sort of bubble around your noggin that eases tension.

The cream is also the same texture and feel of the Daily cream, so as to not repeat myself, just read that part again.

The first night I used it, I truly feel that I drifted off into sleep a lot quicker and easier. I am not sure if they meant for that to happen but it did. And the next morning, or in my case, the next evening, when I woke up, my face felt wonderful. My normal morning/evening “don’t talk to me or I’ll shank you” eyes were more refreshed and less tired looking. I mean, I still had the “don’t talk to me or I’ll shank you” eyes mind you, but they were just more refreshed. *coughs*

After using it for the time that I had it, I noticed that my face felt so much different in the “mornings.”

As for the aftermath. I can tell a difference. A BIG difference. My face feels rougher, more blah. I do not have that baby bottom feel that I thought I had before. Now that I think about it, I do not even think my skin was soft to begin with. I can tell a noticeable difference between using it and not using it.

So to sum this all up. The packaging is great, the creams are just beautiful smelling and feel terrific on your skin. You will notice a difference within moments of putting it on, but even more as time goes on. So yes, my friends, I do suggest this product to everyone. The price is not high for it either. For the amount of money you spend for more expensive treatments, I feel that this route is the best way to go.

Dermasil, if you are seeing this. Thank you. What you all do for us is just amazing.

Okay, I know I am a little late for this but I am doing a review on a movie that I have been dying to watch. Krampus. Yes, I know that a lot of you have already watched this movie, but with times being what they are, and the moolah being tight around here, I was not able to see this doozy on the big screen. Honestly, I haven’t seen a movie in the theater since Big Hero 6, but I digress.

The movie focuses around a family of Scrooges having their normal reunion for the Christmas season. A little boy sees it as a means of just having family together. His grandmother, a woman that seems to only speak german I am guessing, too is only wanting happiness for the family. But no one is happy, it is all for show.

Teasing happens between the boy and what I am guessing are his cousins and he ends up tearing up his letter to Santa and tossing it out the window where it flies up into the air and into what seems to be oblivion.

But someone got the letter. Krampus, the opposite of Santa comes into the picture and all kinds of mean shenanigans goes on. I am not going to give any more away since some of you might not have watched it, so I am just going to give my opinion here.

I had worked this movie up so much in my mind. The very air was electric when I held the DVD in my hand. Oh how my very heart sang as I put it into the player. And then….. disappointment. I was seriously let down. Honestly, I cannot truly pinpoint what let me down so much. It was little things that just… rubbed me the wrong way.

The plot was there, I could see it, but it played out in a bad way. It left me feeling like something was missing. It jumped from bit to bit without thoroughly explaining WHY. Yes, some of you might argue that I missed something and I might have. But I feel that the plotline, while it was there, it wasn’t explored in a way that could give a person closure.

The acting was good, but in the end, it felt like they were short on some of the ways that they delivered. Their lines, while done well, just didn’t give the feeling of being truly in the moment. It was like some of them were forced and not thought through. I know it seems like a bad way of putting this, but it truly felt more like a “scary” remake of National Lampoons Christmas Vacation mixed with The Ref. I do feel that the only one that truly made a fabulous character was the Grandmother. But in the end, her delivery was confusing and weird. Why was she only speaking german when she clearly spoke english as well? Especially since many of the other family members didn’t understand.

The “creatures” were well done, and certainly held that bit of fear drawing that many “monster” movies do which was a bonus. They were well made, and I could see that someone put a lot of heart into it, but…. Krampus himself seemed like another thing that was rushed. The makeup, while certainly freaky, just didn’t give the oomph that I feel it should have. He seemed meek compared to lets say… the clown monster.

Now, I am going to touch something else about the characters here. The human ones. It never explained why they were acting the way they were. Why was the family so broken? Why was it so destructive? What caused the family to be the way they were? I know it seems like I am just picking at hairs here, but I want to know the history of WHY.

These aren’t the only things that I have a problem with, but I am going to leave it at this. So would I suggest this movie to the peeps? Yes. Yes I would. Not because of the movie itself, BUT of the POINT of the movie. The thought of a Christmas Krampus coming and punish people that don’t have the spirit of Christmas, I feel is something deeper. Having the love of a family, sharing times together in joy is what this movie is about. It doesn’t have to be about Christmas, but about anything in your life. Being with the ones you love, the ones that love you back is something that I think all of us can learn from. We all need to open our eyes to what family truly means. It is about LOVE. While this movie doesn’t necessarily delve into that, it can be seen.

I do hope that all of you hold your family close. Even those that you have chosen. Cherish one another.

L.

(PS. I do not own any rights to the movie, I am just stating my opinion. The featured image is also not owned by me in any shape or form. I would like to thank Legendary Pictures and Universal Pictures for the Poster that you see.)

You will see from my previous blog that I ended up finding a shop called ShopMissA where everything is $1 USD. I spent all of 14 bucks (not including shipping!) on 14 awesome thingamabobs because I wanted to see how good the products are FOR YOU! Woot woot! And yes, a little for myself. So you will be getting a full on review of each of the thingies that I got, with the exception of a few NON make-up things. (They had kitty phone dust thingies! They are sooooo cute! AAAAAAAH! Anywho!)

The first product that I tried was the one that I was most excited about. It is the Kleancolor Madly Matte Lipgloss in the color Proper (1641.) *throws in photo like a BOSS!*

As you can see, the packaging is pretty simple. The lid is black and slick, but very easy to hold, the container itself is clear and shows the color of the product very well. The shade itself is a gorgeous and silky purple. The picture here doesn’t necessarily do it justice to the physical presence itself. So I was extremely excited when I opened up the delivery bag.

The shade is deep and for some reason soothing to me, and yes, it makes no sense to me either.

As for the product itself. The color, when put on the skin (I done a swatch to see how it looked,) is extremely pigmented. By the description it is meant to dry into a deep velvety finish to which it did on my hand.

But that is where it all went wrong. I was going out the day after I got the goodness, so I decided to wear it. It went on patchy and cakey. The color not holding out against the hotness of my mouth hole. I hate to say it, it stayed sticky and as the day wore on, it became thick and unmanageable. It felt like I had tar on my lips. So I decided that I was going to wipe it off. Welllllll….

To make a long story short. It wouldn’t come off all the way. I ended up having this really interesting marbling effect, for the rest of the day. Yeah….

So, for my thoughts on this product. I cannot suggest this lip gloss. I feel terrible for saying it, but in the end, I just can’t. The packaging is a win, the scent of it is just amazing. (Kleancolor products have wonderful smells. This one smells sort of like coconuts!) The product itself, while it is deeply pigmented, it just isn’t really worth it. BUT, I am not some makeup guru, and there is a chance that I am just doing things wrong with it. So, I am going to do a few more tests. I will keep you posted about them!

Alright my lovely hooligans! I am going to be reviewing a store and let me tell you, I am tickled pink to have found this one. Everything, and I mean EVERYTHING is ONE DOLLAR. Let me repeat that…. ONE FREAKIN’ DOLLAR. What is this magickal place you say?

So let me get down to the business of ShopMissA. They have so many awesome things. Makeup, Jewelry, Hair Accessories, Random Accessories. It is mind boggling. And as I said before, it is all a dollar.

The site is set up very nicely, and the pages are easy to read. The layout is interesting and involving and I do have to say, it is easy on the eyes. Across the top of the first page is the menu, giving you the options of choosing a specific type of product or even a brand name.

They also have a certain button on the menu list that says, “FOMO” which means “Fear Of Missing Out.” It gives you the opportunity to buy products in complete sets which are given a discount. It is a bit more expensive to do it that way, BUT is still worth it. For instance, buy 10 lipsticks for 10 dollars OR buy the set for 9 dollars. It works like that. They are further separated into these hoolollies:

Cliques: This is a pack of your favorites all bundled into one.

Kits: This is an all-in-one kinda thing.

Oh Sh!t: This one is a giant pile of goodies that are just awesome.

Also if you spend over 300 USD (yeah, not happening in this house yo!) you are then added to the A-list. The A-list is a loyalty program that gives opportunities to its members to buy special products still only for a dollar.

As for the shipping, I ended up spending 14 dollars (that was 14 products!) and only spent $3.95 for shipping. Which in my opinion is pretty cheap. But honestly, I done a bit of a test on that too. I ended up filling up my cart with 19 things and it was still 3.95. So yeah, it isn’t bad. Also, if you spend $35 in one sitting there, you get free shipping to anywhere in the US.

Now…. For the downside.

Some of the products are unavailable or sold out. If it is a popular item, it might be hard to get your hands on certain things. You have to be quick on the draw to nail them, but it is well worth the wait.

So, my full opinion?

I think that ShopMissA.com is a great company to order from. Their shipping was quick and easy. The products themselves are amazing and definitely cheap. I do think that if the whole “sold out” thing was not so overwhelming that it would be even greater.

So yes, I will be shopping there again, I will tell my friends about it and I give them 2 big thumbs up.

Hey friends! I do hope that all of you are doing well. In my previous blog, I wrote about hauls and whatnot and how to not take the “overkill” to heart. Yes, I still feel that showing off all this stuff that you bought is just beckoning others to feel bad about their inability to do so.

BUT a very nice person (keeping ya name quiet dear for privacy sake!) brought up a great point in a comment about how they watch “haul” videos for the sake of seeing how good a product is. And I definitely agree with that.

I do also need to explain that I do not begrudge all the wholollies and whatsamajiggers that people are able to buy. Hell, I am happy that they are able to. They work hard for the stuff so I can’t get mad about that. The thing that really bothered me the other day is how all this stuff that a certain YouTuber bought came to over 1200 USD! I know that many of us out here aren’t able to just willy nilly spend a small fortune on clothes and shoes, but want so much to be able to. So many of us aren’t able to due to lack of work, disabilities, or just not able to cover immense amounts of things. Hell to me, being able to buy a t-shirt is like a gift from Santa.

I just wanted all of you to know that, no matter what you have, no matter who you are, stuff isn’t important. Material things isn’t what makes you who you are. It is you. Your personality, your heart, your very soul makes you a wonderful and beautiful person. And I LOVE you for that.

Just know that while I will be doing reviews of products, it isn’t to show off. It is only to give you the information that you need if you want to know about a product. But it won’t be high dollar stuff. Just sayin.