Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Remember a few posts ago when I was bellyaching that it was unseasonably warm. Uh, yeah. The temperature dropped about 25 degrees in an hour today and the wind is gusting over 50 mph. So....figure it's about 0-5 degrees with the windchill. These freak snow showers keep moving through and everything is now frozen. Should make for an interesting NYE on the roads. It's damn cold out there.

As soon as I walked in from work I turned on the fireplace and put on my thick fleece pajama bottoms. Hell, I'm not going out so I might as well be warm and cozy. Hubby picked up some great snacks and even though I'm not much of a drinker (anymore) I think I'll make myself a mojito later. Why not, right? Hopefully, we can make it to midnight.

Ha! None here. NYE is total amateur night. There was a time when I would go out all night and party like a rockstar. Now, it takes every bit of energy I have just stay awake until midnight. I have to admit that partying all night once a year does sound fun but all of these plans will always be trumped by the thought of waking up at 6am hungover and having to deal with Big Boy all day. I just don't think I have it in me. He woke up at 5:30 today and I feel like I am going to collapse from exhaustion already. I'm really hoping someone at work can cover my shift tomorrow. I would love to spend the day with Hubby and BB but, I just don't think it's in the cards.

Hubby and I do have fun tonight though. We eat snacky food all night and play board games and friends tend to drop in throughout the night. Unfortunatly, right now I have to get ready for work. This should be a fun day. All of these morons waiting until the last minute for their medication and then throwing a hissy fit because their doctor has already left for the day is closed until Monday. Good times.

Monday, December 29, 2008

I was thinking about starting a separate blog just for my baking recipes but I'm not sure if I Want to get involved with another blog. I don't think I can have a recipe page on blogger and I don't want to switch to wordpress. Quite the dilemma I find myself in. Any suggestions?

Sunday, December 28, 2008

What the hell is this? It's not supposed to be 65 degrees in December. Sure, it's a nice break from the cold weather but what cold weather? I think we have had maybe three or four days of real bitter winds...maybe? I miss winter. I would like a good old fashioned snow storm, preferrebly on a Friday night so I don't have to worry about anyone driving to work in the morning. Big Boy is three and I think he has only played in the snow once and that's if you can even call two measly inches of snow fun.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Why is it that at 12:01am on December 26th Christmas is long forgotten. All the radio stations vault up the holiday music, there are no more TV specials and the very mention of Santa sends people cringing? I just don't get it? I always though the holiday's ran through the new year but I guess I was wrong.

Maybe if Christmas wasn't pounded into our heads from Thanksgiving day on, everyone would be able to enjoy the holiday season a little longer. I do. I consider it Christmas right up until New Years day and then we take down our tree. By then I'm ready to have my house back to normal but until then, it is still Christmas at the beach.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

I have always been tempted to try and Pecan pie but for some reason, I thought it was much more difficult to make than it actually is. This recipe is extremely easy and delicious. I'll start you off with the Crisco Pie Crust recipes. I really like these recipes, they work well for me. So, follow the link, choose your weapon and then we'll start on the Pecan pie.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Just thought I would share a few pictures of my parent's Christmas tree. I was really happy when they decided to put it up this year. Thank goodness Big Boy has been really good about it and has not tried to tackle it yet.

Everyone in our family has their own picture ornament. I actually really love my parents Christmas tree. It was so fun decorating it as a kid even though everything had it's own special place and the candy canes all had to be facing the same way. I do have one gripe...I noticed my ornament picture is way down on the bottom. I'm assuming this problem will resolve itself before my next visit. Cough*hint*cough.

I realized I haven't updated on how well things are going with our new dog Lucy in a while. I think we have finally hit the dog jackpot. I have no idea what happened to this dog before we rescued her but for the life of me, I don't understand how anyone could have gotten rid of her. She is the sweetest dog I have ever met. She is housebroken, command trained and just perfect. Of course, I hope I didn't just jinx myself by typing that.

A good family friend of ours in a Vet and we brought her in to see him about two weeks ago. She weighed almost 60lbs, which is great. She is finally starting to put on some weight. We also had all her shots updated. Even though we were sure she had gotten them by her previous owners we figured better safe than sorry. The jury is still out on this but from what everyone can tell, she is truly a mutt's mutt. She has Mastiff, Rhodesian Ridgeback, Boxer and possibly some Pitbull in her. Either way, she's mine and I don't care what kind of dog she is.

Lucy thinks she's a lapdog and tends to nose her way into every situation but the moment you tell her to go lay down...that is exactly what she does. Her favorite spot is on the floor, right in front of the fireplace. She is great with Big Boy but he tends to get rough with her so until he learns to be gentle, we never allow them to be near each other unsupervised and only in small doses. All I know is I'm very happy Lucy found us and we are able to give her a nice home.

It's really no secret that I love to bake and I even pride myself on how good I have become at it. I finally have a pantry just for my baking supplies and I'm not afraid to try any type of recipe. Well, except fudge. I'm not really a fudge fan but every so often I get a sweet tooth for it. The idea of making it always aggravated me with the whole soft boil and hard boil stage. Way more work than I am willing to do....until now.

While waiting to pick up Big Boy's train table (shhh, don't tell him) at Target the other day, I was reading a little Jello holiday baking booklet. I came across the easiest recipe for fudge that I just had to try. It's so easy I figured it would taste terrible. Was I wrong! I'm not joking, it's this easy..

2 pkg. (8 squares each) Bakers semi-sweet chocolate

1 can (14 oz.) sweetened condensed milk

1 cup chopped walnuts...although you could substitute any kind of nut you like best

2 tsp. vanilla

Line an 8-inch square pan with foil. Microwave (that's right, microwave) chocolate and milk in a bowl on high for 2-3 minutes. Be sure to stir the mixture after 2 minutes and then use your judgement from there. Be sure to stir the mixture until completely melted and then add the nuts and vanilla. Spread the mixture into your foil lined pan. Refrigerated for 2 hours or until firm. Use the foil to remove the fudge from pan and cut into nice bite size square portions. It takes no time to make and for such a simpke recipe, the resluts are fabulous!

Friday, December 19, 2008

I know this person will never read this but...I wanted to thank the good Samaritan who found my debit card in front of the post office earlier today and brought it inside. Thank you.

I guess it fell out of my pocket when I was getting in to my truck and the lady at the post office said I wasn't even gone three minutes when a man said he found it outside in a puddle. I was on my way to the mall and as soon as I got over the bridge my fuel light came on so I figured I needed gas. Thank goodness because I would have gotten all the way to the mall and would have had to leave. Also, I'm so lucky I had cash on me at the gas station. I never carry cash and for some reason when I was at the bank earlier I though maybe I should grab a few bucks "just in case." Weird, huh?

It has been an interesting day all around. We are officially ready for Christmas. I am so happy I don't have to do anymore running around! While I was in the bookstore today, I was checking out a book for Big Boy. It was a learn your shapes book with a magna doodle thing on top so he could practice drawing. Well, there was a grandma type lady looking with me and I went to grab the Winnie the Pooh one and of course, she said "Ooooh, do you see anymore, my granddaughter would love that one....so I let her have it. Then I went for the Cars one...well wouldn't you know it! Her grandson would just love that one too! Finally, I grabbed the Finding Nemo one and before she could even open her trap I just ignored her and walked away. Sorry lady! What the hell? Is she the Duggar grandmother?

I am finally home and tucked away in my warm house. It's puring rain out and I am so happy I don't have to go anywhere else!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

About my weight. I am the exact opposite of many women, I can't seem to keep any weight on. I have always been in the petite size. I'm 5'3" and currently weigh a whopping 105lbs. I should be at least 115-120. Ever since the hysterectomy back in June, I just can't keep any weight on. I've had my thyroid checked and I plan on having it checked again. I eat, all the time...nothing helps. The next free chance I get I'm going to a vitamin store like GNC and I'm going to but that mass building stuff, maybe that will work. I need to do something. Hubby is starting to give me a hard time and I don't think he believes me when I tell him I don't know what the problem is.

I am so tired of people asking me how much I weigh. At least it's winter and I can hide how skeleton like I am under bulky sweaters. Anyway, hubby and I have a bet. He is in great shape but he knows he can't help himself around the holidays so our bet is he has to lose 15lbs after the holidays and I have to gain 15lbs. I am doing my best to win. Now everyone knows.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

The thought of having to go grocery shopping makes me sick to my stomach and not because of the prices. The thought of how many times I get the stink eye from other shoppers because Big Boy is making a scene just makes me never want to go into another grocery store again.

I guess I'm a grocery snob though. I don't much care for the A&P on the island because they jack the prices up and the meat is never fresh. The place really needs to go. Now, should I venture over the bridge, there are quite a few to choose from but each one has it's faults. The Foodtown has great mean but the store feels like I just walked into a time warp. It is so old and outdated that it's just creepy. Also, for the life of me I just can't figure out the greenpoints. I buy something because it's on sale and then when I go to checkout, I find out I need 8 million more greenpoints to get the dollar off. No Thanks. Ah... the Stop & Shop. Just gorgeous. Newly renovated, clean...perfect. Not really, the people there are lazy and always have an attitude and the prices are really marked up. Besides, they don't have the cool shopping carts. Finally, we come to the tried and true Shop Rite. Great store, great prices and everything is always fresh. That's the problem. The place is forever packed. I actually stopped going there for about two years and just recently went back. I think I have figured out the secret though....about 8pm Friday night ot 8am Saturday morning. If I Can keep to those two times, I should be able to get in and out with no problem. The big bonus..........they have the fun fire truck carts which allows me to shop in peace and keeps BB amused the entire time!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Big Boy has his sedated hearing test tomorrow and I'm not sure I can take much more of this. Luckily, he had an excellent first week at school. He really transitioned well and I could not be happier with his progress. I'm really sad for him that he isn't able to go in tomorrow because of the hearing test and then school is closed Friday for teacher conferences. I hope when he goes back on Monday we aren't starting from scratch.

I just want tomorrow to be over and done with. I really don't think there is anything wrong with BB's hearing but this test is the only way to find out. Wish us luck!

I don't think it was just me but this season of the Biggest Loser was almost painful to watch at times. The blue team was so nasty it made me want to throw things at the television a few times. So last night I was so happy to see that the lone member of the black team, Michelle, secured herself a spot in the finale next week! I have been saying all season that I thought she was going to win the whole thing. In the begininning she just flew under the radar and did her own thing and no one really noticed her until it was to late. Ha Ha!

This is one of the few shows I watch and I am seriously a Biggest Loser junkie. I am so excited on Tuesday nights! Maybe that is why I was disappointed in the way some of the contestants behaved this season. This was one of the shows that you actually felt good about watching. These people are working their butts of and really trying to do something to help themselves and their family. One by one all of the contestants I liked started getting picked off. First went Amy and the Phil. I just loved this couple and I really wish Phil would have smacked Huba Heba right upside her head. Colleen was then booted because the other Amy was trying to impress the blue team and Trainer Bob and then she was booted off the following week. Good. Finally, Renee was voted out. She was one hell of a player throughout the entire season and I was really happy to see that her and Michelle were able to rebuild their relationship.

Anyway, I just hope that Michelle can pull it out in the finale next week. I don't think Vicki deserves to win. She is an ugly soul with a real mean streak. As for Ed & Heba....there are no words. Go Michelle!

Monday, December 8, 2008

Today went much better then we could have ever hoped for. Big Boy did great at his first day of pre-school. He did shed a few tears but his teacher said once the other kids came into the classroom he quickly turned his attention to them and sell right in to the swing of things! We are so proud of him and we think this is going to be the best thing for him.

I'm a little nervous about tomorrow because Hubby won't be with me and BB is going to know what's going on. I expect him to have a tantrum tomorrow but if he doesn't then I will be even more amazed at just how strong he is. I would love to give more of an update but it's been a long day and I think I'm going to head off to bed! Wish me luck for a smooth morning tomorrow!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Well, I think Big Boy is ready for his first day of school. My little boy is all tucked away in bed not having a clue what tomorrow will bring. I've been telling him all week he was going to school but I don't think he really understood what the heck I was talking about. Now, I must answer a few questions for my dear friend "Tempest Mom." As always, she is full of questions but most importantly, she is always full of the best heart felt advice which is why I feel she deserves a post of her own.

You about make me cry with you woman!! You're ripping me apart with your anxiety! And I thought *I* was bad!! LOL I'm so eager to hear all about how this goes tomorrow, so I hope you will share it right away! Well, as soon as you can anyway!! Do you already have what he is going to wear all picked out? Are you packing his lunch or is he buying it there? If packing, what are you making him??Now to answer your questions....Yes, his clothes are all picked out for him and ready to go on his bed. I even have both mine and Hubby's clothes ready to go for the morning. I am trying to avoid last minute morning mayhem just in case something happens in the morning. BB will be bringing his lunch tomorrow. I have packed him a Motts apple juice box along with macaroni and cheese, a granola bar ans a few rice cakes. He has a small pack of Teddy Grahams for snack time. I love the fact that they will heat his lunch up for him!They really are so unbelievably accommodating. I will put a few dollars in his lunch box and let one of the aides know I would like him to also have milk with his lunch. Let's see....I have a bag of wipes, diapers and pull ups along with a change of clothes all ready to go. This bag will be staying at school.

I don't know what I am going to do when he starts crying tomorrow when we go to leave. I just keep thinking about how happy he is going to be when he gets off the school bus and sees everyone waiting for him. I"m happy with my decision to drive him in the morning. That is more time we have together.

Ugh. I need to go to bed but I just don't want to. BB is sleeping in my bed so I think I'll go cozy up to him and try not to cry! Wish us luck tomorrow and I''ll be back as soon as possible with all the details!

Big Boy is starting school tomorrow. I think I'm still in shock. He seems so little to be going off to school. He's only three. Since he has such a severe speech delay he will be going to the pre-school program through our school system. I went out last week and bought him all new school clothes and earlier we stopped of at Target and I picked him out a new lunch box and backpack.

I know he is going to be just fine but I can't say the same for myself. Hubby took the day off work tomorrow and we will be driving him to school together. We decided ti wait and go grocery shopping and finish up some errand after we drop him off in the morning. My plan is to stay as busy as possible in hopes the time will just fly by and it will be time for him to come home. He will be taking the school bus to my Mom's house after school since she lives in the same school district there is no problem with the arrangements I have made. The school even went out last week and bought him his very own car seat for the school bus.

I can't wait to see his face tomorrow when the bus pulls up and we are all waiting for him. I'm still debating on bringing Lucy with us, I just don't want her to steal the thunder! I still have a lot to do today so I guess I should get to it. I am just so nervous for him. I know in my heart he is going to love it and it really is the absolute best thing for him but....he's my baby.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Right now in my home I'm all cozy in my fleece Christmas pajamas drinking hot cocoa and the dog is sleeping in front of the fireplace. The entire house is decorated for Christmas and it's even snowing out! There is no other place in the world I would rather be at this moment except right here.I am so happy we finished decorating the tree last night. I think it looks so beautiful. It's definetly bigger then we usually get but I thinks it's a nice fit.It's so nice to have the Christmas spirit again. For the longest time it seemed to be lost and I often wondered if I would ever feel the same way about Christmas again. That was until I had Big Boy. He has brought back the love of Christmas for both me and hubby. We plan on making every Christmas for BB as wonderful as can be and I'm not really talking about gifts. I want to take BB ice skating before Christmas and I want to drive around and show him all the beautiful Christmas light, sing Christmas carols and bake cookies with him. I think he knows something is up because he is constantly looking at all the decorations and he seems to really like them. Damn. I just realized what time it is and BB has a birthday party to go to in the morning and I do not want to be tired and cranky, I think we can all agree on that.Anyway, I hope everyone likes the pictures if our tree!

Finally! CVS friends and family weekend! I have always thought CVS had really great deals but now I get to throw in an extra 30% off coupon on top! I am almost scared to think about how out of control I just may get in there today. Wanna know the best part? Big Boy isn't invited!He is getting dropped off at my parents house and little does Grandpa know....Nanny is coming with me and he has to watch BB!

Normally, I have no problem taking BB everywhere with me but he has been boycotting the shopping cart lately and the last thing I want to do is chase him around CVS, especially today. My Mom is coming with me so it should be a real fun morning. I'm glad she will be able to get out of the house in peace for a little while without my father jingling his keys and tapping his foot because she is taking to long. Well, the sooner I get dressed, the sooner I"ll be shopping.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Wow! We really hit the animal shelter lottery. Lucy is turning out to be such a great dog. She did try to sneak up on the sofa last night when she didn't think we were looking but, can you blame her? So far, everything is going really well and we are so happy to have found her. Part of me is waiting for the other shoe to drop but we can only hope she stays this way. She has also started to put on a little weight which I am very happy about since she was a bit thin.

I would love to be able to stay home and play with her and Big Boy all day but unfortunately, I have to leave for work.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Zoey! At least that is what we are calling her right now. We rescued Zoey from the Ocean County Animal Shelter yesterday afternoon. It's no family secret that I'm not an animal lover but she is such a sweet dog Of course, I'm sure it may not have been the wisest decision at the present time considering BB is starting school next week and Christmas is right around the corner but I'm still glad we did it. Honestly, I have to think someone is looking for this dog. She is both housebroken and trained with commands. Next comes the big question...what is she? The people over at the shelter really didn't have much info on her other than she has been there for two weeks and is very friendly. Hubby seems to think she is a boxer/pit bull mix.Once I am able to snap a few better pictures of her I'll be sure to post them. I think she is a sweet dog and both BB and Hubby just love her so I really hope she works out.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Christmas! I thought I would decorate a bit for the season. I'm sure this is the first of many designs. I think I am obsessed with blogger backgrounds! Anyway, things have been going well around here. Thanksgiving went well and I really think everyone enjoyed themselves. Big Boy stole the show as usual and for the most part was better behaved then I could have ever asked for.

Big Boy is starting school next Monday. We are all extremely excited for him. I really think he is going to just love it. I was able to meet his teacher and the other kids in the class. I am so lucky to live in the school district I'm in. They have been just wonderful in helping me get Big Boy the help he needs for his speech delay. I also went school clothes shopping for him earlier tonight. Have I mentioned how much I just love Old Navy. Hey, being a grown up is expensive and the days of dressing head to toe in J Crew and Ann Taylor are a thing of the past!

I think I need to head off to bed. I have the weekend off and I can't even tell you how much I a looking forward to it. Unfortunately, I jumped the shark and both the inside and outside of the house is already decorated for Christmas. I wish we could go get our tree but Hubby says it's a little early for that. My goal is to get BB's Christmas card pictures finished this weekend and we have the best idea ever this year. I'll be sure to post a pic if we can ever get them done. Time for bed. Good Night.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Sunday, November 23, 2008

I am just about finished Christmas shopping for Big Boy and it isn't even Thanksgiving yet! I'm sure I will pick him up a few more things here and there but at least I know for the most part he is finished. I'm not really sure we'll be doing the "big ticket" item this year. He doesn't really need anything. He got a bike for his birthday. Any ideas, suggestions, on what to pick up for a three year old terror?

Friday, November 21, 2008

I'm going grocery shopping on Sunday so I had better get around to buying the dinner, don't you think? So this is what I think I'll be making:*Turkey-goes without saying*Stuffing & pork for the stuffing-we dig the pig in this house*Mashed Potatoes*Candied Sweet Potatoes-Mmmmm*Mashed Turnips-So yummy!*Dinner Rolls*Green Bean Casserole-My brother brought this every year until he passed away. I think I'm the only one who like it but it just isn't Thanksgiving without it.*Another Veggie-I think I'll ditch the asparagus this year and go with broccoli with Cheese sauce. My mom will be here and she makes it the best! *We need some hor dourves-maybe cheese & crackers and some shrimp cocktail*Homemade pies-My favorite part. I'm thinking apple, pumpkin & cherry. Maybe some biscotti and cookies too.*Eggnog with Rum-VERY IMPORTANTNow I need to go get everything. I love that all the holiday meals are at my house now. Big Boy does so much better here at home and I just love to cook and bake so it works out for everyone!

Was this really necessary kid? What goes through that bean of yours when you do stuff like this? We need to have a talk because I'm just about out of patience. You have everything you could ever dream of and yet I truly believe you wake up in the morning and just think of ways to push my buttons. Does someone have you on payroll?

Heat oven to 350 F. Toast the almonds on a baking sheet in a single layer until they are fragrant (about 10 minutes). Leave the oven on.Use your mixer (hook attachment) or large bowl with hand mixer combine all the dry ingredients(except the almonds) and mix on low speed. In another bowl lightly beat together the wet ingredients and once mixed slowly pour into the flour mixture. When the mixture is almost completely incorporated add the almonds and mix at low speed until the dough comes together. DO NOT OVER MIX! The dough should be stiff and sticky.Dump the dough on a lightly floured surface and need any of the remaining dry ingredients from the mixing bowl in by hand. Separate the dough into three equal pieces. With floured hands, roll each piece into a log about 10 inches long and 2 inches wide. Arrange the three logs on parchment lined baking sheets 4 inches apart. I have discovered those baking mats that fit into my baking sheets and I love them! Nothing ever burns anymore.Bake the logs until they are light brown but still soft. I usually do it for about 35-40 minutes. You will have to judge depending on your oven. Take the baking sheet out of the oven and reduce the temperature to 300F. Let the logs cool on the baking sheet for about ten minutes and then move them to a cutting board and slice in a slight angle to your desired thickness. I usually do a little over a half an inch. Place the biscotti CUT SIDE DOWN back on the baking sheet and dry them in the oven for about 10 to 15 minutes but don't let them darken. Put them on a rack and let them cool. You can also add chocolate chips to the recipe or if you like your biscotti to have a Sambuca flavor, you can add 1 tsp aniseed in place of the almond extract.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Before I had to call Poison Control. I'm impressed we made it three years. Big Boy decided to help himself to a few Tums in my purse. Sheesh, I can't even use the bathroom without some kind of disaster happening. Luckily, a few Tums aren't considered dangerous to a three year old.Anyway, here is the number in case any of you Jersey folk find yourself needing it (which I hope you never do). 1-800-222-1222.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

A friend of mine asked me if I could take some pictures of where she grew up. The town is only about ten minutes up the road from me and the pictures really are beautiful. Sometimes, it's easy to forget that places like this still exist. The world is so crazy now (and getting crazier by the day) that you need to stop and really enjoy the details.This time of year really brings out the typical "sleepy beach town" feeling to the area. The beach is dotted with fishermen hoping to catch the big one and since there is always a brisk wind, it's perfect kite flying weather.Hubby likes to talk about moving but I don't think he could do it. I really don't think there is anywhere else I would want to raise Big Boy. Hopefully, our property taxes won't push us out of here and all major storms decide to turn out into the ocean.This will always be my favorite time of year. Everything seems so calm after a hectic summer. I hope Big Boy will appreciate the beauty in all this one day.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

I never thought we would accomplish so much this weekend but we did! Hubby and I both had to work yesterday and as usual it was raining all day so there was another day we couldn't get in the yard for the fall clean up. I did manage to deep clean a few rooms in the house last night. Since Thanksgiving is right around the corner I figure it's time to get going on some of these projects.

Today was a day to be proud of. There is always the usual list of chores to do. First we go grocery shopping and then all the bed linens are changed. All of the laundry in the house was washed and put away along with all the hand towels and bath mats. I know, pretty unbelievable! Next, it was time to tackle the yard. Compliments of a low that had been sitting off the coast for almost a week, the yard was a mess. The front yard wasn't too bad and hubby actually got that done while I was grocery shopping with Big Boy. The backyard on the other hand was a disaster area because the leaves were still wet and one side of the yard is rocks so the leaves kept sticking to them. Hubby let me play with the leaf blower! Then I got my scarf caught up in it and Hubby took it away. I did see one of the coolest things though. When we blew the leaves off the pool cover, they left these beautiful prints behind. Naturally, I had to grab my camera and Hubby though I was a weirdo taking pictures of the "dirty" pool cover. Did I mention BB ran across the pool cover? Yeah, good times. Thank goodness for the safety cover.

Big Boy was in heaven playing outside all day and I am in heaven right now because he was so worn out he went to bed nice and early. After the leaves we came in the house and gave BB a haircut, which he does not like what so ever. I then cleaned a bit more and cooked an awesome lamb chop dinner. Yummy! Now I am going to watch some TV with Hubby and possibly call it a day.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

I know I have mentioned it before but Big Boy is just crazy for JoJo & Goliath from JoJo's Circus on the Disney channel. The only problem is, she is no longer the "it" show on Disney and her merchandise had been discontinued. When BB was about 6 months old I bough him a little JoJo doll from the store and he really didn't pay any attention to it until about three months ago. Now he is three years old and won't do ANYTHING without JoJo.

A few weeks ago, I happened to be browsing through EBay and stumbled upon some JoJo stuff and it was ending in three minutes. I quicky searched my desk drawer for my EBay passwords and got a bid of $18.01 in with about ten seconds on the clock! Yahoo! I had won BB some JoJo stuff! It finally came today and he is so happy! He now has Goliath to go with JoJo. He has a few of the character figurines, the JJ car and JJ's house. Most importantly...I have a back up JoJo with the tags still on it tucked away up high in a cabinet. It's the same one he has. I have nightmares about what would happen if he ever lost her. Now I can rest a little easier knowing I have one in reserve.

To tell the truth, she is getting really worn out too. He takes her in the bath with him every night, she plays outside with him and she eats with him. It is only a matter of time before she needs major repair surgery or doesn't survive a trip to the washing machine. He loves her though and that's all that matter,

I don't even know what to say. I have never been so scared for the next four years in all my life. At least I don't have to worry about my husband badgering me for sex for awhile since we will both be getting screwed for the next four years.

Monday, November 3, 2008

I truly believe the McCain/Palin ticket can pull it out. I have to believe they are able to do it. I just can't think of the alternative. I am really scared for the future of this country. It is scary to to think in a little over 24 hours, there will be a new President. I pray it is John McCain.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

I think this country has gotten by on blind luck, I really do. I can't get over how lazy people are. I'm a pharmacy technician and I spend all day dealing with the public. I fight with insurance companies, call doctor's offices and handle customer problems. It is a very busy day. From the minute I walk in to the minute I leave, I don't stop. I don't even take a break because there is just too much to do. It's alright though, for the most part I really like my job and the day goes by so fast, I'm on my way home before I know it.

I go have a few rants I need to get off my chest though. I know when I need a refill on my medication, I call my doctor and let the office know. They either call it in or I pick it up at the office. Easy. Why on earth do people think it is my responsibility to call YOUR doctor for YOUR medication. I never in a million years knew people were so lazy that they had the pharmacy techs calling for their refills. Of course, heaven forbid the doctor doesn't call back of denies the request! They will stand there and yell at me like it's my fault they are without their medication. I don't know? These are just a few rants I need to get off my chest.

Here's another PSA...if you are waiting for your prescription, please don't drop it off at the drop off area and walk IMMEDIATLY over to pick up and ask if your prescription is ready. Are you serious! How the hell am I supposed to fill your script in the thirty seconds you asshat! Oh, and asking me every three minutes if it's ready will not help your cause.

Finally, yes that is your copay, yes I ran it through your insurance and yes this is the same amount you have been paying every month. Why must you ask me the same questions every month. I have many more but I'm too tired to think of them. Wish me luck.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Just wanted to say that this was by far one of the best weekends I could have ever asked for. Big Boy was just thrilled with all the fun things we did! He loved all of his presents and his new bike. He especially loved his new sock monkey jack in the box. I am still oozing with smiles over how special it was for him! We went to a birthday party today for one of his friends and he just played with the other kids and laughed. Priceless. He even had a great time helping us carve the pumpkins this year.

We have decided to extend his birthday into his birth week. He deserves it! We have such a fun week planned for him too!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

I can't believe you are three years old today! Where has the time gone? I was on my way to the hospital right now, over flowing with fear. This will always be the happiest day of my life. We can't wait to have a great day today, even though you are currently throwing cheerios in the air and yelling yahoo, I will look past that since it is your day! Nanny & Grandpa are coming over later to see you and you have no idea yet about all the present we have hiding in the back bedroom for you!

Since tomorrow is Big Boy's birthday, I am attempting to make him a JoJo's Circus cake tonight after he is all tucked in bed. It's a basic round cake recipe but I'm worried about piping the design on the top. This is what I am praying it turns out to resemble. The cake is already in the oven which will give it all the time it needs before I start decorating.

On a side note, I can't believe three years ago at this time I was starting to go into labor. *Sniffle*

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

I bought BB's birthday present today! I am so excited to give it to him. He fell in love with it at the store and was so sad when we were leaving. Little does he know it's in the back of the truck just waiting for him! He has a tricycle and a ride on quad but I thought maybe he was a little to young for a bike. Nope! He got right on it in the store and started riding. I wish it was Saturday so we could give it to him.

Today is one of those days where I really don't have much to do except make a few phone calls in the morning and run some errands. Saturday is Big Boy's 3rd birthday so I would like to get him a few presents! Woot! I guess I do have a list of things to do but nothing that I would really stress over and I'll get to it when I get to it. I am looking forward to a fun day off work. Days like this make me a bit nervous because I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like a surprise bill in the mail or even better, Hubby's car is in the shop and he drove to work with his sister. I really hope they don't call with some outrageous price for a new tire and oil change.

Now for the question of the day. What to get BB for his birthday. Unfortunatly, none of the stores carry any JoJo stuff anymore so I had to buy a few things off eBay which won't be here in time. We need to get a gift for one of his friends who is having a birthday party on Sunday. I'll let BB tell me what he wants. We'll go to TRU and hopefully he'll be excited about a few things and I'll buy those. Luckily, I can still take him with me when I shop for him. I know this will be the last year for that. I guess I should get rolling on my day.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

I heard a funny story driving to work the other morning. Apparently Guns & Roses is supposed to be putting out a new album. in November. Honestly, I could care less. However, since everything they do turns into a three ring circus and always falls apart, Dr. Pepper has said if they actually release the record on time, they will give every person in America a free Dr. Pepper. I'm not joking, you can read the article for yourself.

Since I am not a fan of the drink, should everyone in America receive a free can of Dr. Pepper, I will happily send my coupon to my good friend over at Confessions of a Dr. Pepper Addict. Obviously, you can see why I would send it to her. So there you go. I'm thinking it will never happen but for the sake of my friend, we can hope G&R gets their act together!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

I had to run some errands earlier and I promised Bog Boy we would pick him up something small from TRU. Since having the hysterectomy in June, I always steer clear of the infant isles an any store I go to. It just makes things easier. I guess I must have been daydreaming today because before I knew it I looked up and was surrounded by bassinets and little baby hats and booties.

I felt sick, physically ill. I could feel the tears building in my eyes. For some reason, I continued to look around at all the things I will never need again. I noticed some new products and some old favorites that I couldn't live without when BB was an infant. All the while, I was fighting off being sick right in the store.

Does this make me a terrible person. I know I am so unbelievably lucky to have my son and I would die for him. I just wonder if I did the right thing having this hysterectomy? Sure, I was always sick and in constant pain but, could I have tried a few more cycles of Lupron? Maybe I could have given a different birth control a chance? Part of me feels something could have been done to control the endometriosis which caused my infertility. Did my body just give up?

I have an attic full of baby clothes, toys and equipment that could easily be donated somewhere but I just can't bring myself to go up there and sort through it. I have tons of maternity clothes just collecting dust. I refuse to give them away. When will I start to feel whole again. When will I forgive myself for not being able to give BB a little brother or sister.

I'm sure over time I will begin to feel better about all this but right I'm in a bad place. I need to figure out how to get past all of this and not look back.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I have been on the phone all morning setting up appointments for this or that. It would be so nice though if just one person could call me back with a date when they say they are going to. I have to go to work later. Wednesday & Thursday's are the worst. It really bothers me to not be home at night. I know I'll be home a little after nine and I could use the break from Big Boy but, I would just rather be here.

I guess I should get back to making phone calls. When did society become so rude. I have been trying to schedule a test for over three weeks now and I just keep getting jerked around. Such is life.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Back in July, hubby and I had to go to a funeral in North Jersey. We spent the night in a Comfort Inn. We,, it was about $92.00 a night. I know this is my fault, but I just assumed it had been taken out of my bank account. When I checked the account today though, it was showing the charge. My question is: How can a hotel wait almost two and a half months to charge your debit card for a room?

Of course the man I spoke with on the phone was a complete jerk and doesn't feel anything was done wrong. Honestly, I thought the money had been drafted and certainly was not anticipating that money coming out of my account. That should be my cell phone bill this month! I am so raging angry right now I could scream!

Anyway, even though the hotel is a private franchise, I was able to track down a general customer service number for the corporate office and plan on dealing with this in the morning. I have no problem paying for the night we spent there, I just thought I paid for it back in July!!! I think it is poor business and for once I am going to stand up for myself.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

We took Big Boy to the pumpkin patch last weekend and it was quite the experience. We took him to the same place last year and we had such a great time. I think that was where we went wrong this time around. Our expectations were so high that the moment he started having a tantrum we felt like the day was going down hill.We started off feeding the animals which was so cute. Big Boy really got a kick out of the animals eating right out of his hand and it was so sweet to watch him feeding them. From there we walked around the farm a bit and we ran into some friends. Here is where it all began. BB is obsessed with straps and clips. All he wanted to do was play with the buckle on our friend's stroller. At first it was fine but there were other things we wanted to do and when we tried to pull him away he had a complete and total meltdown.After BB regained his composure we decided to head into the pumpkin patch. This wasn't too bad except he wanted to sit down and play with the vines which have a weird kind of sharp fuzz about them. Somehow we manged to avoid a crisis, quickly loaded up our wagon with a few pumpkins and headed towards the corn field maze.I had been looking forward to the maze all day. Last year was a blast. BB lead the way and we followed him laughing and taking pictures. This year however, he was trying to make his own paths and run off by himself and was generally a bit too much to handle. I really think it is his age. He wants to be more independent but doesn't know how to go about it without melting down.After the maze we quickly paid for our pumpkins and just got the heck out of there. We are thinking about going back next weekend when we know we aren't going to meet anyone there and see how he does. I just want to have a good time with him there. I feel so bad for hubby too. He feels the same way and doesn't want this years trip to the pumpkin patch to be a bust.

I need to start out by saying thank you to my friend over at Tales from the Beehive! She posted the most delicious recipe for apple pie I have ever tasted. The recipe is so easy and the results are fabulous! Please, hop on over to her blog and check it out. It is a few posts back titled "It's the First Day of Fall!"

I also recommend taking full advantage of all the great recipes she offers and the beautiful photography she posts.

Friday, October 10, 2008

I have a headache. I don't get them often but when I do they seem to last forever. I would really like to go to bed but, I fell asleep on the sofa earlier and nothing got done around here. I have to work in the morning and it will nag at me all day if I know I am coming home to a bunch of housework because I didn't do it the night before after Big Boy went to sleep.

What the heck is causing these headaches lately. It has to be stress, that is all I can think of.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

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This is one of those recipes that has been floating around for years. I think it was found on the underside of a cool whip container. I remember having it as a kid. It is so good and extremely easy too. I call it a lazy pie because there isn't even baking involved.

Beat cream cheese until smooth, gradually beat in sugar. Mix in sour cream and vanilla and slowly fold in whipped topping. Blending well. Spoon into pie crust and chill until set, at least 4 hours. You can top this pie with just about anything. I usually use blueberries of raspberries. I'm sure strawberries are delicious too but I would rather not go to the emergency room afterwards so....I leave them off. Enjoy!

Sleep is important. Big Boy has never been a good sleeper. Ever. I think I can count on one hand how many times he has slept through the night and he will be three in a few weeks. I remember holding him as an infant thinking, "alright, I just need to make a few more weeks, everyone says they start sleeping through the night at six weeks." Well, six weeks came and went, then twelve, then six months and well, you get the idea.

I just don't understand what I did wrong. We tried everything. I have read every book about infant and toddler sleep and nothing has helped. I'm just so exhausted. I hear people talk about how their kid slept through the night right away and they would lay the baby down at 8pm and wouldn't hear a peep until 7am. HOW?!

One day, I pray, he will start sleeping better. I worry about what will happen when he starts school next month. He will not be able to handle school on no sleep. Once again, I really wish he had come with an owner's manual.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Well, this is the first of many. Today is Big Boy's pe-k evaluation. Since he will be three the end of this month he is being considered for pre-k due to his speech delay. I am a nervous wreck. I know we are doing what is best for him but I am tired of people passing judgement on my son. Among one of my worries is the fact he isn't potty trained. He just has no interest in the potty. We have tried a few things to peak his curiosity and nothing has worked.

Luckily, hubby is coming with us to the evaluation today. I just don't think I was able to do it alone. The thought of being in a room with five other people besides us, who are there strictly to pass judgement on us has be on my way straight into a panic attack. I am already getting shaky just typing this.

I just want what is best for BB. I know he will do wonderfully once he is in school with other kids. We are very fortunate for where we live because the public school system is excellent and so far the people who I have spoken to genuinely seem to care about BB and his future education. So wish us luck and pray there are no breakdowns in the near future.

Monday, October 6, 2008

While I was driving home from work today, I grabbed a random disk out of my console and wouldn't you know it.....a fantastic mixed live Grateful Dead disk. The whole way home I just kept thinking about all the shows I have been to and how I wish I could go to just one more.

I decided to poke around you tube and found quite a few fantastic clips from some live shows. Rumor has it a few of the boys are currently touring with the Allman Brothers Band. I'm sure it would be a great show but, it's just not the same.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Big boy is in love. Her name is JoJo. I think we have seen every episode of JoJo's circus at least fifty times. He takes his JoJo doll EVERYWHERE he goes. He even brought her into the bath tub last night which is good because she was getting a bit dirty.

I really can't complain. Of all the kids cartoons out there, I have to admit, she is my favorite. Hopefully we will be able to make it to Disney before he gets much older so he can "meet" his love.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

I found my keys. They were on top of the refrigerator. I certainly don't remember putting them up there. I think a certain little boy who shall remain nameless tossed them up there. Anyway, thank goodness I found them!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Yippy! I woke up this morning and it was actually chilly outside. Finally, the weather is breaking. To keep with tradition, I think we may take big boy to the pumpkin patch this weekend. We had so much fun last year chasing him through the corn maze!

My keys are missing...again. I know big boy is behind it and I really need to find them. Normally, missing keys are not that big of a deal because they usually resurface in a day or two but they have been missing since Sunday. I am really worried he threw them in the garbage.All of my grocery store thingies are on there. Not to mention my ID card for work. That's the big one. Well, maybe while I'm looking for the keys are will find his missing sneaker. Come on St. Anthony, show me some love.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Yesterday as I was getting ready to leave for the wedding, my phone rings. It was the manager where I work telling me she had been informed by the "tech nazi" I was supposed to be working. I knew damn well I was scheduled off yesterday and I explained to her I had a family obligation and was not working. Now I received this phone call at 1:30pm. Apparently, I was supposed to be at work by 9am. So, the TN waited four and a half hours to tell someone I was a no show? What is she up to?

At this point I am fuming and also worried about my job. I left a message with the lead tech, who is awesome by the way, and explained what was going on. There was no way I was going to let TN ruin my night. Luckily, I received a text message and apparently the second coming was reading the wrong schedule!!! Ha! I know she was hoping to get me in trouble and it backfired! Also, she will be away for the next few weeks so I don't have to deal with her.

Lesson of the day....Try reading the correct schedule before attempting to be a bitch!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Do I need to remind you that mommy is on the verge of a breakdown. If you would simply tell me what you want instead of having a fit, we could get on with our day. I understand you're upset over not having your favorite cereal for breakfast and I have already apologized to you for not dropping everything and running to the store to buy you more. I was really hoping we could have a nice day today before I have to leave to go to a wedding.

Maybe we could start the day over? I thought I had explained to you that mommy is on the verge of a breakdown and doesn't quite know what is going to finally push her over the edge. I think we should go back in our room and come out and start fresh. Deal?

Friday, September 26, 2008

Before I say anything, I hope the title of this post does not offend anyone (other than who it is about). However, there is no other way to describe this woman.

I recently started a new job about 2 months ago. I'm a pharmacy technician. Not a bad job at all. I have had more jobs since graduating college almost twelve years ago than most people will have in their life. Ironically, none of them had anything to do with either of my Bachelors degrees. Anyway, there is a woman who I work with who has been doing this job for ten years. That is a long time and she really knows her stuff. I have been doing this for about two months. Before I started, I never realized just how much I had to learn. Let me give you the run down:

-Learn the equivalent generic drug to all brand names(it helps)-How to navigate the computer system. This is also includes refills, new scripts, returning scripts to stock and a whole mess of other fun stuff.-How to put scripts through the insurance-How to read a doctor's handwriting and punch in the script exactly how it is written. Yes, doctors do have the worst handwriting!-Actually pulling the drugs and filling the prescriptions.-Fighting on the phone with insurance companies.

Thee is much more but I think I may have already bored a few of you. So, I have been trying really hard to learn all this. Everyone I work with is telling me what a great job I am doing which is so nice to hear because I feel like a screw up. In comes the tech nazi. She always has something to say. Constantly putting me down and making me feel like a jerk. She has even put me down in front of customers. Luckily, I only have to deal with her about twice a week, but its still too much.

I really don't know what to do about this woman. I actually loathe her. I've put her in my "thin mint" file. One day I'll tell you who that is. Ugh! I don't know what to do. I know the next time she does something I am going to pull her aside and call her on it. I just hope it doesn't blow up in my face. Any suggestions?

Thursday, September 25, 2008

I am a bad parent. I allow my son to eat goldfish crackers in the supermarket while we are grocery shopping. You want to know the worst part *gasp* they aren't even paid for yet.I know, I am damning him to a life of selfish behavior by giving in to his every want but that's how I roll. Alright, I'm off to see how else I can ruin big boy's future....

It is supposed to rain for the next three days. I guess it is weird that I am excited. I feel justified staying in my pajamas all day and doing nothing. Unfortunatly, I have to work tonight, tomorrow morning and go to a wedding Saturday. Bummer. The day seems so much less chaotic when it rains. Big boy understands that we stay home and play instead of running around to parks all day. I don't feel guilty for not going anywhere either.I wish I could just crawl up in bed for the next few days and not face the world. I have a feeling things are going to get rough.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

This recipe is for my friend The Virtual Voyeur. It's a really easy recipe and simply adjust the ingredients for how ever many you are feeding. Be warned though, it is extremely hot. If you are not a fan of spicy food, I don't recommend this dish. All you need is:

Jalapeno peppers....as many as you can handle. Sliced and use the seeds for extra heat. I strongly recommend using gloves while cutting the hot peppers.

The next part is up to you. You can use chicken (cut in strips), beef (cut in strips) or shrimp. All at the same time or whatever combo strikes your fancy.

In a large skillet or saucepan saute your onions, jalapenos and bell peppers. Cover and stir occasionally to prevent burning. In a separate sautee pan cook off your chicken or whatever you are using. When chicken /meat/shrimp is finished, add it to the onions & peppers. Now add the fajitas seasoning. It doesn't matter what kind you use. I recommend either Ortega or McCormick. Allow the mixture a few more minutes over the heat to absorb the seasoning.

Serve in warm soft tortillas. I always use the large ones. The small ones are wimpy and you end up with a mess. Add sour cream, hot sauce and cheese to taste. These go great with black beans & rice. Goya is a great pick. Enjoy!

Let it be known, I will no longer play the tag game. This is the final one. Nothing personal. I've been tagged by Tales from the Beehive. I love her blog, and the recipes are unbelievable!So here are seven obscure things you probably never wanted to know about me...

1. I never wanted to get married and have kids. I really enjoyed the peter pan syndrome life I was leading. One morning I woke up and I was married and had a kid. I couldn't be happier! My favorite thing to do is lay around in my pajamas on a rainy day and just relax with my boys!

2. I needed a hysterectomy at 33. I was blessed with severe endometriosis and PCOS. My doctor still can't believe I was able to conceive my son. Miracle.

3. I was a cheerleader in high school. I still cringe thinking about that.

4. I have defects in my knees. Long story short, some tendons attached in the wrong place and three knee surgeries later, they still bother me.

5. I have five older brothers. My mother says if she would have had me first, she would have stopped having kids.

6. I can play the clarinet. I can actually play beautifully. I should have went to college for music. Who knows where I would be right now. However, I would not have my husband and son so I am happy with my choice.

7. I married an amazingly talented man. He is an unbelievable carpenter and he also knows how to shape and glass surf boards. Really cool if you ask me.

There you have it. A few things about me you never asked and didn't want to know.

Monday, September 22, 2008

No really, I'm not joking! They burn so bad. I was making fajitas for dinner and as usual I chopped up some jalapeno peppers. About fifteen minutes later both my middle and pointer fingers on my right hand began burning. I have never had this kind of reaction to hot peppers before. The pain was unbelievable. It was even worse when I ran them under cold water. Poor big boy had the fastest bath of his life because I just couldn't handle the pain.

Thank heavens for google! I actually googled "jalapeno fingers" and came up with a few quick remedies. None of them actually worked. I tried soaking my fingers in cold milk, sour cream, vegetable oil and white vinegar. Not at the same time of course. Fail. One person even said to soak my fingers in bleach. I skipped this suggestion. Either, this person knew me and was hoping to inflict more pain on my poor fingers ( it is possible) or they have tried it them self. Either way, I chose to pass on that. I kept a cold compress on them and they seem fine now except after I was my hands, it brings the pain right back.

Ironically, a girl I work with had this happen to her last week. Of course, for the life of me I couldn't remember what she did for it and she didn't answer her phone. Such is life. Hubby found this entire fiasco to be rather amusing.

Today's lesson...always where gloves when cutting jalapenos. The fajitas were delicious by the way!

Really I am. I have so much to say and no time to say it. Big boy is really sick AGAIN. I have been working, hubby is logging massive overtime and I just can't seem to get five minutes to myself.Hopefully, when hubby falls asleep tonight I will be able to sneak out here and grab a few minutes to myself.

Finally! I know I am in the minority here but it is so nice to have on a pair of jeans and a light sweater. I am so sick of summer clothes. I'm just ready for the change of season wardrobe swap.Even though I should be in bed resting, I guess I'll go clean out some drawers in big boy's room since I don't have to pick him up for a few hours. Or I could take a nap.Decisions, decisions.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

How on earth did I get bronchitis again. I knew I was getting sick. Big boy just got over a bug, hubby has been under the weather and know its my turn. Just one problem...who takes care of mom when she is sick?

I just want to crawl in bed with a hot cup of tea and a good movie. Is that to much to ask?

Monday, September 15, 2008

I feel so guilty right now. Big boy is asleep and we are closing the pool. He is going to be so sad when he realizes there is no more swimming this summer for him. He is not feeling well right now so he wouldn't be able to swim until at least Wednesday and the temperature is supposed to drop into the fifties the next few nights. The water will be way to cold for him....right?

The election is less than two months away and wow! I find it sad so many liberals in this country are so hell bent on Obama being this great miracle our country is in such desperate need of. I agree, this country does need a miracle to get out of the economic crisis however, with that, I would think we would need a president with, gee I don't know....EXPERIENCE!

I have it. I don't remember the last time I had so much going on in my life. I am still trying to get adjusted to being back to work full time. The transition was not that difficult but is definetly taking some getting used to. Big boy had been alright with it but he also has his moments.

Big boy has so many appointments these days that I really don't know whether I am coming or going anymore. It is one thing after another. He hasn't exactly been prince charming lately either. I am just about on my last nerve with that. If he touches the tv one more time after I have told him no (and this is no exaggeration) fifty times in one day I may just get into my truck and keep driving.. He doesn't listen to me and I am at my wits end. I am still pissed at the hospital for not sending me home with an owners manual. I could really use the "troubleshooting" section right now.

My poor hubby has been working tons of overtime and I barely see him anymore. I remember there was a time when I could not wait to be all grown up. What I wouldn't give to be able to go back to my youth (or at least college) for one day.Well, I guess I need to put my happy face back on and confront the reality that things are going to be hectic for a bit. I think I need to invent an alarm clock that dispenses a valium when the morning alarm goes off. I guarantee it would be the "hot ticket" item this Christmas.

During a time when our county was overcome by grief, fear and anger, a symbol was found in the rubble of the World Trade Center. A cross.

The cross has brought peace and comfort to many who have visited ground zero, many who were never able to bury the remains of the loved one they lost. I may be in the minority in this but I think about that day often. For months after Sept. 11, I was like a scared puppy. I hated coming home from work late because I didn't want to be alone in case something else happened. However, when I read the story of the cross, I felt comforted, not just for me but everyone.

I hope to visit Ground Zero when the cross is brought back and placed within the memorial permanently.

I found this poem earlier, written about that day and it is so overwhelming because now that I am a Mother, I feel so terrible for all the children who lost a parent on that morning.

SPECIAL GARDEN (A Child cry to his Daddy)

In my garden, I will plant some of Daddy's things

The hat he wears for his favorite baseball team.His special notes he wrote to me.

His favorite songs he likes to sing.

His special collect cars he bought last spring.

His favorite tie that has grease stains.

His favorite fishing pole, even though he has never caught anything.

And I'm going to plant some of my tears, these come from me.

Every night before I go to sleep,

will go out to my special garden and pray over Daddy's things.

(c)copyright Natasha Flowers 2002

I guess what I am trying to say is, though I didn't lose anyone that day, I hope the Cross will give those who did comfort, in knowing their loved one is with God.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

A day our country will never forget. As I was watching the replay of the morning of September 11th on MSNBC , a range of emotions flooded me and my mind did not know which to process first. I looked at big boy eating his breakfast as happy as can be and thanked God for giving him to me and then felt guilt for all the children who lost a parent on that morning of hell.

Every year, I watch and it is as if I am seeing the footage for the first time. Honestly, on the anniversary of this day, I don't think anything else should be on the television except memorial services. Unfortunately, we do live in an ADD nation and I am afraid one day people will forget.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Alright, I have had enough of summer and the warm weather. I am ready to close the pool and break out the jeans and sweaters. I don't want to cringe in fear at the sight of my electric bill much longer either. I just love the fall. In a few weeks we will take big boy to this great pumpkin patch we found last year. I think we'll actually try the hay ride this time. I think he would get a kick out of it.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Seriously, I can't even explain to you how many pills I process everyday. No wonder our health care is through the roof. Doctors just keep on prescribing them and people fill them, and don't end up using them.

I thought I was going to snap today. "I need my Coumadin RIGHT NOW." You know what lady, pull up some wood, zip your mouth shut and wait until I call your name!

Monday, September 8, 2008

Even though you left us just over a year and a half ago, not a day goes by that we don't think about you. You were the greatest big brother I could have ever asked for and I miss you terribly with each passing day.

I find solace in knowing you are with God and the angels in heaven and no longer feel pain. I pray someone, anyone finds a cure to the horrible disease which forced you from this earth. I have always said cancer is the only thing on this planet that does not discriminate.

I don't know what is is about this picture but I just adore it. Considering all the hell that is happening overseas, this picture, in some strange way puts the entire situation on pause.I don't know. Maybe I'm finally losing it.

It's Saturday morning. There is no reason anyone should have to be up this early getting ready for work. Damn, TS Hanna will be here by noon and I just want to stay home with big boy and hubby and have a fun rain day. Of course, the road I take to and from work floods terribly, and I know I am going to have the worst time getting home.

Friday, September 5, 2008

So, Hanna is making her way up the east coast. Ugh. I know by the time she gets here tomorrow she will only be a tropical storm but again, ugh. Seriously, everything floods here if we get a twenty minute down pour so I can't image what is will be like after the 4-6 inches of rain which is forecasted.

Alright, I am done venting. I am off to spread my cheer and share my wisdom with others!

Monday, September 1, 2008

Hubby has done it again. He is the king of dumpster diving. Seriously, I have been amazed over the years at some of his "finds." Then there were times where I wished he had left a few of his treasures right where he found them. Well today Hubby struck gold. I have been wanting a bike for so long but we always put it off for one reason or another.

Now don't let her fool you. She may look like she has seen better days but by this time next week, look out! I am thinking metallic orange. I also have to get a bell and a baby seat for big boy. Scratch that, hubby can haul big boy around.

It was such a good feeling today to plant a tree. Hubby named named it Tres Maples since there are three of us. I think the name is pretty darn cute. It is an autumn blaze maple tree and it is supposed to be beautiful in the fall. I'm excited to watch the tree grow with big boy. Before long, I'm sure he will be climbing it! Anyway, just wanted to share a picture of our new tree with everyone!