Attempt #6

I took my partner′s hand and led him into my bedroom. I was ready to try the immobile position of me lying on my back. I needed to try it before my mind built the whole thing into an even more intimidating endeavor. I was satisfied my gag reflex had retreated enough, and I was adequately comfortable with the experimentation.

I retrieved the System Jo H20 lube and sat on the bed in front of him. I slathered him; I wanted all the help I could get. The nerves were popping in my chest. I took deep breaths as I massaged him slowly, spreading the lube over him. I leaned forward and gave him gentle oral sex to warm up both my mouth and my mind.

Then I asked him how he wanted to do this, whether he would be more responsive to me guiding him or signaling him. He said it would be best for me to guide him; thankfully, the option I was the most comfortable with. I felt it would give me the most control in this vulnerable position. I trusted he could not ignore my touch and get carried away.

Another deep breath and I turned to lie down in front of him. I slid my body down the bed until the edge cradled my neck and my head fell straight back against the mattress. Again, we lubed him up; together this time.

The bed was not the correct height for him to line up with my mouth; he had to crouch slightly and lean at angle towards me. Having a penis come directly at my face from above was somewhat intimidating, but I calmed myself and focused. He slid his penis into my mouth gently, hesitantly even. I placed my hands lightly around his thighs to softly guide him forward, testing the sensations.

The position did wonders for my throat; I can truly see why both books recommend it. I kept leading him deeper and deeper into me, waiting for my gag reflex to protest. My throat was so opened and elongated that a reaction was only elicited after he pressed much deeper.

I softly pulled him forward with my hands around his thighs, then turned my hands and pushed him away with my palms. He paid attention and watched me so intently; he began to follow the signals of my movement before I even guided him. The position was not nearly as unpleasant as I had feared. He was even able to lean forward to touch me, to kiss and suck at my nipples. As we continued to move, I began to like the experiment.

As I became more comfortable and relaxed, I linked each penetration into a succession of movements. I stopped my previous method of testing and taking a break, now keeping the movement more fluid. I had to devote some of my attention to my breathing again, matching it to his thrusts. But I went deeper. I started to trust myself and went deeper still.

His testicles inched closer to my face. I pushed a little deeper, and they came alarmingly closer still until I finally gagged a little. In shock, I pulled back and asked him if that was the whole thing. He said almost; there was about an inch left. A mere inch from my goal!

I continued to try, pushing to go deeper and deeper. I was hungry for his entire penis to be inside my mouth. I could feel myself getting closer, nearly there but just not quite. I would not assault my body to accomplish it. But I was so close. My goal now seemed obtainable.

This position clearly achieved the greatest depth; however, it sacrificed the movement. I could not move in fast strokes as I had in the modified 69. But I don′t see it as a trade off; but as two different variations. One position gives you more depth, one more agility. They are simply two different kinds of deep throating. This one does have a time limit though. Eventually, I started getting lightheaded from being upside-down for so long.

But again, it was well worth it. A little more practice and I feel I will reach my goal.