Fight club reawakens and channels veterans' warrior spirit

In a sweaty, loud San Diego gym, veterans train in mixed martial arts, fighting each other and the demons they brought home from Iraq and Afghanistan.

Reporting from San Diego — Todd Vance — Iraq combat veteran, bar bouncer, and social-work major at a local university — is lecturing two dozen of his fellow veterans on the techniques and joys of the chokehold.

"You want the blade of your forearm on their windpipe or carotid artery," Vance says in a commanding voice. "Push your opponent into the fence.…Let's have some fun with this drill!"

It's Saturday morning in North Park, and the veterans have come to a steamy, noisy gym for Vance's mixed martial arts class. It's a fight club of sorts, for those who already have fought a war.

Vance, 31, a former Army sergeant, uses mixed martial arts to help veterans cope with post-combat problems, including post-traumatic stress disorder and other issues involving the uneasy transition back to civilian life.

His unconventional — and unofficial — approach had drawn a small, loyal following among veterans, and qualified endorsement from psychologists who work with veterans.

Jeffrey Matloff, senior psychologist and PTSD specialist at the Department of Veterans Affairs in San Diego, said that as long as veterans learn self-control and not to use their skills outside the context of sports, a martial arts approach can help restore self-confidence and focus.

"When it comes to PTSD, therapy alone doesn't have all the answers," he said.

The controlled sparring, similar to a veteran's original training, "assists wounded warriors to evoke the competitive warrior identity and spirit that may have become latent when the service member was injured," said Nancy Kim, a psychologist at the Naval Medical Center San Diego's Comprehensive Combat and Casualty Care facility, who has known patients who have attended. Patients, however, should be cleared by a doctor before participating, she said.

Once he gets his degree from Point Loma Nazarene University, Vance dreams of opening his own gym that would mix counseling and high-energy workouts. For the past two years he's been offering classes three days a week at the Undisputed boxing and martial arts gym on University Avenue.

Classes are free, and for veterans only.

Vance used a similar sweat-based regimen when he returned from Iraq and struggled with PTSD, anxiety, nightmares and a load of anger.

"He was a mess," said Vance's mother, Dianne Ratzel, who lives in the Carmel Valley neighborhood. "He was angry, confused, combative. He got into fights and drank a lot; I was afraid he would get hurt."

The tattoos on his heavily muscled body tell the story of his post-Iraq transformation. Among his oldest tattoos are a "knuckle sandwich" and the letters FTW, which stand for "… The World." A more recent tattoo on his upper leg has a skull and the letters PMA, which stand for "Positive Mental Attitude."

For 90 minutes, the veterans punch, kick and wrestle each other inside a padded cage with wire sides. Except for a brief hydration break, there is no let up. Techno music blares ceaselessly.

In the Army, Vance was an infantry squad leader. He knows how to give orders in a clipped, no-nonsense tone, the kind that brings an immediate response.

Right now, it's teaching the whirling round-kick: "Turn that hip over. Turn that hip over — that's where the power comes from," Vance shouts. "Too many people who fight these days suck at kicking. I hate watching that stuff."

At one session, a student asked whether the round-kick to the head should precede or follow the push kick to the chest. Precede, says Vance.

"I like to hurt people and then put them away," he says, in a tone devoid of irony or exaggeration.

Many of the veterans in Vance's class are receiving counseling in the military or at the VA and are on medication for depression or anxiety. Vance sees his classes as an addition to, not a substitute for, traditional therapy.

"I don't run a 'group' therapy session," said Vance, who has a prescription for Xanax, the anti-anxiety drug, and credits a VA counselor for helping him."But I can see my students talking to each otherabout things they don't even talk to their families about."

Jason Jones, 33, who served 13 years in the Marine Corps including a deployment to Iraq, is on anti-depressants. "I come here and I feel better than I do when I leave the VA," he said.

One of Vance's most dedicated students is Mike Judd, who served in the Army in Iraq and is now an outreach counselor at Veterans Village of San Diego, a nonprofit residential treatment program funded in part by the VA. Too often, Judd said, veterans are given only medication, when what they want is the physical exertion and discipline that was so integral to their military experience.

"We're the young generation of veterans," Judd said. "We still have plenty of energy, plenty of anger, plenty of passion. We need to begin tapping into that."