Certainty

There are a mutiny of things in my life that I am unsure of. Like, when and where will I purchase my first home; how much is my Master’s degree going to cost me; what will my 40’s look and feel like; will the emotional state of this country recover after so much abuse; and the list goes on and on, and on. Luckily there are plenty of matters that I approach with an incredible dose of confidence and certainty. For instance, when I hear my nephews laugh, I see and feel God. There is no denying it. At least not for me. I also have a clear and deep reverence for silence. I learned that in my 20’s when I was getting over this horrible breakup and my beautiful mother, without saying a single word, just held me. At 34 years old I know that beyond a shadow of a doubt, that I am going to be fine. I did not know that for a long time. I was always full of internal turmoil about the future. But now after so many challenges, I know my own strength. That kind of power is unmeasurable. I wish that for every soul. That they may know the color and strength of their own armor. The armor that not only protects but gives you the certainty of knowing that no matter how things shake up, you will always be fine.