Was it wrong to go to a holiday dance just a week after something horrible had happened in their town? None of her friends thought so. They hardly talked about the crash anymore. They wanted to dress up and dance and have a good time. There might be boys from the Weequahic section of Newark at the Y, older boys who wouldn't necessarily know they were just ninth graders.

Miri wore her favorite dress, red wool with a full skirt and metallic buttons down the front that either were or weren't made of old coins. Rusty thought they were. Her boss's wife saved their daughter's best things for Miri. Miri used to think Rusty bought them at a snazzy shop, Bonwit Teller, because that's what the labels inside said. But last year Miri met Mrs. Whitten, the boss's wife, at an office party, and when Mrs. Whitten admired Miri's dress, Miri jumped at the chance to say it came from Bonwit Teller. Mrs. Whitten said, "Yes, dear, I know. We get almost all of Charlotte's good clothes at Bonwit's." How embarrassing that until then she'd had no idea Rusty was bringing her hand-me-downs from Charlotte Whitten. What must Mrs. Whitten have thought? But when she'd confronted Rusty about Charlotte's dresses, expecting, she wasn't sure what, Rusty said, cheerfully, "I never said I bought them, honey."

So Miri learned to adjust, to be grateful to Charlotte Whitten for being her size, for having good taste, for taking care of her clothes. But she didn't tell her friends. She wasn't sure she ever would.

Some of the girls wore Cuban heels to the dance and others wore saddle shoes or ballet flats, but Miri carried Rusty's black pumps with heels and changed into them in the coatroom at the Y. "Just don't get them wet," Rusty had said, before Miri left the house.

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"Don't worry. I'm not walking outside."

"Even from the car to the Y, wear your flats."

"Okay."

They weren't Rusty's best shoes. These were leather and scuffed around the heel, though Rusty kept them polished. Miri was hoping to attract the attention of the older boys with her heels, and she did, for a minute — until they realized she was just in ninth grade and was friends with Steve Osner's younger sister.

At first the boys stood around surveying the room. The girls stood around talking to one another and pretending not to notice the boys. Then someone put on the first slow dance of the night — Nat King Cole singing "Unforgettable." That was the moment Miri would always remember, the moment she thought of as changing her life, because he was there, the mystery boy from Natalie's party, and he was heading her way. When he put his arms around her to dance, she melted into him, praying the song would never end.

Unforgettable, that's what you are

Unforgettable, though near or far…

But like all songs, it did end, and when it did, he took a step away from her and looked deep into her eyes. His were blue. Miri held her breath. "You're taller than I remembered," he said.

"It's the shoes."

"Oh, the shoes." He smiled at her, a smile so disarming she melted on the spot.

She smiled back. "I'm Miri."

"I know."

He knew?

"I'm Mason." His voice was gravelly, as if maybe he had a sore throat.

"Mason." She tried it out. She'd never known anyone named Mason. "Mason McKittrick."

McKittrick. Miri tried to hide her disappointment. He wasn't Jewish. Irene wouldn't approve. Okay, she wouldn't tell her. She wouldn't tell anyone. He would be another of her secrets. She was beginning to enjoy having secrets from her family.

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While Natalie danced to every song with Winky Herkovitz, the best dancer in ninth grade, who dipped her, flipped her from knee to knee and twirled her, while Suzanne, the shiksa the Jewish boys loved, danced to every song with a different partner, while Eleanor, who still had braces on her teeth and refused to smile for photos, had a deep conversation with a chaperone, a teacher Uncle Henry's age and Robo, well developed and athletic, made out in the cloakroom with Pete Wolf, who believed in Martians, Miri danced only with Mason.

After a while he led her outside so he could have a smoke. She'd been right. He did smoke, and his brand was Luckies. Lucky Strike Means Fine Tobacco. He offered one to her. She shook her head. She'd tried it once and had almost choked to death. Almost vomited in front of everyone. But she liked the way he held the cigarette between his teeth. When he'd had enough he tossed it to the ground and stepped on it, crushing it like a bug.

He kissed her then, outside the Y in the freezing-cold December night air, with neither of them wearing a coat. Her teeth were chattering but she wasn't going to suggest they go back inside, not as long as he was holding her that way, not as long as he was kissing her that way and she was kissing him back. They kissed a second time and her legs turned to jelly. She'd heard that expression a million times, but until now she hadn't understood it. She'd never been kissed by a boy like Mason. No sloppy tongue shoved halfway down her throat, no washing out her ear. Just perfect kisses. Two, three, four — she lost count. If she died then she was sure she'd die happy.

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