Adoption is a faith journey, which consists of many heartbreaks, bountiful blessings, and so much joy!!!!

"By adopting a child and helping them reach their potential, they help us reach ours. An adopted child is not an unwanted child; to the contrary. They are a child who was searched for, prayed for, cried for, begged for; received by arms that ached, making empty hearts full. Love is meant to be shared." Author unknown

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Heartbreaking News - seeking prayers

Yesterday began with much excitement, I was told by our social worker that our home study was complete and ready to be finalized. I was very excited we were going to have the final copy in hand today and be able to send it off with the I-800A to begin then next step in our adoption process.

And now, the process has been put on hold. I received a call yesterday at noon from our adoption agency. They received an e-mail from, the CCAA (China Center of Adoption Affairs), that contained only three sentences, something like the following:

We regret to inform you that the orphanage of ZCH (Noel’s Chinese name) has pulled from adoption. We are sorry to the family who was pursuing her. The family will need to find another child, if they wish to pursue adoption.

My first question was why and the agency has no answers because all they received was the above. They plan to find out more details and advocate for us, and I know they will. We will probably not know more for a week or more.

My ultimate prayer is that Noel is not seriously sick/ill and that is why they have removed her from adoption. If it’s anything other than that, I pray that the agency is able to advocate for us. I pray you will pray these same things for her. I know that whatever God’s will is, will be – though I’m struggling with it.

Oh Tracy, I'm so sorry to hear this. Everything seemed to be happening so quickly, and this was obviously heartbreaking to all of you. I will be keeping all of you in my prayers, and trust that there is a reason for this. Remember God has a plan for your family and for Noel. While it may not seem clear now... just be patient.

I'm choked up and so seriously sorry. Tears sit on the edge of my eyes with the thought that this child might not be with your family--her family. Surely AWAA will work God's Will and a miracle with happen and all will be back on track. I'm so so sorry for all this turmoil--for you and for little Noel. Surely there is a reason for all this--He is in the trials-

I am reminded of this beautiful song--"Before the Morning" by Josh Wilson. Here are teh lyrics: Here is a link to the song on youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MniOtRnCO9I

Do you wonder why you have to,feel the things that hurt you,if there's a God who loves you,where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can't seeand all those things are happeningto bring a better endingsome day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

Chorus:Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,that you still have a reason to sing,'cause the pain you've been feeling,can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the lightpress on, just fight the good fightbecause the pain you've been feeling,it's just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all endsand you know where you're going,you just don't know how you get thereso just say a prayer.and hold on, cause there's good who love God,life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,but you'll see the bigger picture

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,that you still have a reason to sing,'cause the pain you've been feeling,can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the lightpress on, just fight the good fightbecause the pain you've been feeling,it's just the dark before the morningyeah, yeah,before the morning,yeah, yeah

Once you feel the way of glory,all your pain will fade to memoryonce you feel the way of glory,all your pain will fade to memorymemory, memory, yeah

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,that you still have a reason to sing,'cause the pain you've been feeling,can't compare to the joy that's coming

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,that you still have a reason to sing,'cause the pain you've been feeling,can't compare to the joy that's coming

com'n, you got to wait for the lightpress on, just fight the good fightbecause the pain you've been feeling,it's just the hurt before the healingthe pain you've been feeling,just the dark before the morningbefore the morning, yeah, yeahbefore the morning