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Tuesday, February 13, 2018

Prior to the start of the semester, I had a really fun vacation I wanted to share with you. I got a new boyfriend back in October and he and I went to Disneyland with our friends and he met my mom and grandparents! He did really well with my family and they all loved him. Here are some fun snapshots from our vacation!

The pin said "I lava you"

I hope you all had an amazing winter break. School is back and session and I wish you all luck and let's kick this semester's butt!

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

This year has truly been a rollercoaster. I have moved three times and faced potential risks of being homeless. I went through the pain of getting over a brutal breakup, but dated two people and now in a relationship with one of them. I have had my car broken into three, yes three, times and the most recent of which they smashed my passenger window. I cut out fast food (mostly) and am teaching myself to cook and meal prep. Still trying to manage money better. Had a falling out with friends, made new friends, started seeing a chiropractor, went back to therapy, got a new tattoo, and a slew of other events. One word that definitely doesn't come to mind for this year is boring.

I didn't give this blog as much attention as it deserved and I really hate that with how busy I have been due to work and school, a lot of other things in my life have been neglected. So tonight I decided to just sit down and write, to reconnect with why I started blogging in the first place. I wanted to just let the words come and reflect on my year.

This year has tested me in a lot of ways. There were a lot of tears, sleepless nights, heartache, stress and being terrified of not knowing what would happen next. However, this year was not without its good moments. I learned a lot about myself this year. People came into my life who helped me learn more about myself and who I want to be. They helped me grow as a person, teaching me new lessons and some I maybe didn't want to hear. A year ago I certainly never would have pictured myself where I am today - a stronger, but still slightly unstable, but now capable of handling a whole lot more crap than before.

If there is one thing this year has taught me, it is that you can always get through it and that even when you don't realize it or want to ask for help, you have people who are willing to stand by your side, to dust you off and help you back up. I am so incredibly thankful to all the people in my life who have helped me through this year; to everyone who has reminded me that I am strong enough to get through whatever storm I was facing, to lend a helping hand because they knew I hate to ask. I know I will come out of 2017 as a stronger person, more willing to ask for help because I know that I have wonderful and caring people standing by my side.

Despite all the insanity of this year, I am happy to see the leaps and bounds I have made and I am excited to see what 2018 has to offer. I don't really have resolutions but I do have goals for myself, to continue my growth as a person.

Monday, October 2, 2017

I woke up this morning to the news of the mass shooting in Los Vegas. It breaks my heart to hear about this terrifying event. I have friends who were at this concert, as well as friends who live in the area. I can't even begin to understand why people do things like this. So many people were injured or killed for no reason except because some lunatic decided to make a country festival target practice....I have no words to describe how horrible this is.

Please if you can, donate! Go down to your local Red Cross or Blood Source location to donate blood and help the victims. If you can afford to, they have a GoFundMe account set up as well.

We need to come together to a country and stand against this tragedy. At the last count I saw, about 50 people are dead and over 400 injured. Please do what you can to help.

Thursday, August 31, 2017

Holy crap summer is already over?! School is back in session and being lazy is no longer a thing. I have a lot of fun content planned for the new school year. Starting off with just a short post to share my goals for this semester.

Consistently update calendar with upcoming assignments and "backwards plan" in an effort to complete my assignments ahead of time. The goal is to do a little at a time and have it done!

Study a little every day! This one is a valiant goal, but studies do show that those who study consistently, do better in class.

DO THE READING BEFORE CLASS! This is an area I have consistently struggled with all throughout college and I want to really focus on this, especially because this semester I have teachers who have assignments due at the beginning of class to prove you did do the reading.

Finally, GPA. This semester I want to shoot for mostly A's. I am trying to bring up my cumulative GPA in order to get into an honor society. It's one of my biggest goals, but each of the ones listed before are essential to reaching this!

Let me know what your goals are for this upcoming semester and feel free to comment. Good luck everyone!

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

I hope you are al having a great summer so far. Just wanted to catch up, it has been a crazy summer so far. I have been working a lot (but what else is new lol) and doing summer school, had my birthday, some sadness happened, and finally found somewhere permanent to live!

So to get the sad part oit of the way, my ferrwt Kiki, after being sick for a couple months passed away back in June due to an insulinoma. Basically, she was the opposite of a diabetic where her body over produced insulin because of microscopic tumors on her liver and pancreas. She was not doing very well and as hard as we tried, we couldn't get get her system to stabilize. I'm just happy that she isn't hurting any more and I'm happy for the time I had with her. Zero, since she passed away has been doing well thanks to hanging with the cats and has started hoarding plastic bags....its cute, funny and a bit heart wrenching.

On happier notes, my birthday went well with the exception of a creepy dude hitting on me. But I got to go to a club again and went bowling the next day. I'm really glad I got to spend time with friends and family.

Also, this summer I also got to go to Fanime Con/Clockwork Alchemy and finally got to go floating down the American River! Plus, I started a new job working with kids with autism! I'm excited to be working in a psychology field!

My last event before school starts is going down to LA to visit family and friends. This summer is drawing to a close and I hope everyone has had a wonderful summer!

Thursday, June 8, 2017

So one thing I will fully admit to falling prey to, is that since I moved up to Northern California, I have essentially become a hermit. I stay at home and hardly ever go out, well more so I fall into a routine of work and school and one or two people I see, and for a while there I hardly ever talked to any of my friends or family. Suffice to say, it wasn’t the best time.

But that was just me, for some, you may enjoy being alone and that’s ok! Each person has their own schtick, but if you want to get out more and try to be more social, I hope this helps!

I've reached the point where I consider myself and extroverted introvert. I have definitely become more of an introvert over the years but with the right people and situation my extroverted, social butterfly side comes out.

Deep down I feel like pretty much everyone in some way wants to connect, to find a group they are comfortable with. Recently I’ve heard my dad and a few others talk a lot about ‘their tribe.’ Frankly, I have been a little confused by that expression. But essentially, I think it’s one in the same. Your tribe, your social group, your crew, etc., whatever you want to call it, the existence of one in your life is important. In one blog post I read by Claire Obeid, she makes a great point, you need to find balance between your hermit and your social butterfly. (You can check out her post here.)

For the purpose of this post here are a few key tips to getting yourself back out there that I had to learn:

Sometimes you have to be the one to ask. I’m the kind of person who often, I feel like I have to have an invitation to do something fun. But waiting around for someone else to make the first move doesn’t work out. If you feel the need to get out and want to hang out with people, you need to be comfortable making the first step and asking others to hang out. Even if it’s something as simple as “hey let’s go get coffee” or going for food, for me I like to go karaoke or go bowling (despite the fact that I stink at it lol).

People are there for you, trust me. Sometimes when you’ve shut yourself off for a while, it’s easy to forget that you have friends who like being around you. So when you are trying to step back out, that can be the scariest part, feeling like no one is there. I can almost guarantee that there are at least a few friends you are overlooking. Try posting something on Facebook about wanting to get together and see who responds. Text people you used to hang out with, they are there.

Find your tribe. Like I talked about earlier, you want to find that group of people you feel comfortable around and you know you can go to. Within that tribe, you want to make sure you have at least one or two close people you know you can turn to regardless of if you are having an off day, or just who you know would be willing to make time for you. I have a small handful of people like this, my best friend and “hetero-life partner” (a term I learned from my roommate) is two hours away from me and with conflicting schedules we can’t always see each other, but I do know I can call her whenever. In closer proximity, I have another best friend who is always there for me and I’m very glad they came into my life and has pointed out, none too subtly, that I needed to get a life!

Don’t push yourself! While the other three tips are all about getting out there and getting in contact with people, maybe forcing yourself out of what has become your comfort zone, you want to make sure you don’t overdo it all at once. If you push yourself to do too much too fast, you could stress yourself out and it may even backfire. So with all these, find your own pace. Be sure to check out the other post I linked above because she does have a lot of good tips about finding a balance in your life.

I definitely fell even farther into being a hermit after my relationship ended. For a while it was just work and school and that was it. I know I neglected this blog a lot in the past year due to everything that was going on in my life and I want to change that along with finding a balance between my obligations and my hobbies. With a new job and summer here its time to push myself into new, healthy habits. Wish me luck!