My life externally, is slowly beginning to change, and it is a result of me changing on the inside.

It has been a simple perspective shift that has allowed me to see my external environment differently.

I am finding that I have a deeper gratitude for what already exists. I knew I needed to move closer towards this. I could view it while I was in the chaos and destruction of change. My head would remind me that I needed deeper gratitude. I could see that I wasn’t giving thanks to all that I have present in my life. I was merely looking at what I didn’t have, or what I wanted to change.

For example, Neil gives me pretty much anything I want. I’m not a materialistic person by any means, so its not like I go shopping on his Credit Card. But I know, if I want anything, I could ask him, and he’d almost give it to me.

He pays the mortgage, he pays the utilities, he pays for the greater percentage of food, all meals out, gas for the car I drive. He pretty much covers it all. And here’s me – saying – “I’m not happy”. Whilst from the outside looking in, one can judge me to be spoilt, lucky, what do I have to be unhappy about, ‘hard done by – as Neil once said. And yes, I would agree with you. But it is also VERY important to not undermine, the importance of acknowledging how we feel, despite our environments.

Once upon a time, I had a female client when I was a Personal Trainer. I viewed her as having the world. She was a well educated psychologist. Her husband was (is) a world renowned Author, earning money beyond what most would know, and she was well taken care of. She owned a Mini Cooper, she shopped regularly at lululemon and other high end stores. She practiced Yoga daily, had a wealth of friends and family, and basically lived this charmed life, by my judgement. But little did I know, she wasn’t happy. Some years later I learnt that tragically, she took her own life. She’d become depressed and felt she was a burden on her husband and those loved ones around her.

This story is a prime example of how we can so easily negate how we are feeling deep down, despite our personal life circumstances.

I believe one of the challenges of our time, is living in this materialistic world, where we are buying more and more things, to fill the void within us. We pass our emotions off, saying #firstworldproblems, and compare what we have to Joe Bloggs down the road, reminding ourselves we have more than most. Which may be true, but we fail to acknowledge that deep yearning within us, that needs our attention dearly.

I have been listening to Dr Wayne Dyer speak all morning – and if you’re not aware of his teachings, best you introduce yourself to him. Sadly he left his body last week, moving on to his next adventure – which he was very excited about. He has left a legacy behind him, so you can still awaken your soul by listening and watching. Wayne spent one year, practicing detachment. Letting go of those material things in his life, that took him further away from himself.

He says “we enter this life with nothing, NoThing, and we leave with nothing, NoThing”.

Notice when we let go of our favorite possessions, food or other, how we might feel. We can distract ourselves SO greatly by focusing on items outside of ourselves.

So to come back to what I was saying, I could distract myself by looking at my external situation; Neil supports my life, and pays for most of my expenses, and use my ego to make myself feel temporarily better, or I can acknowledge how I’m really feeling underlying this, and explore, what is the real reason I am unhappy?

This was the journey I chose to make.

I have been acknowledging my sadness, which turned into grief, which for me, has turned into a sore throat, and coughing at night. When we don’t release our emotions completely, they get trapped in our bodies, and we unconsciously chose to release them that way, ie – this cold I have created.

If we all began to turn our attention inwards, to that inner calling, those deep desires, the language of the soul, we would embark of the greatest journey to date. We would connect with something greater than ourselves, and flow in our purpose of life, without effort, with grace & divinity.

It may start with a choice to detach from your addictions and material desires, it may start with a meditation practice. However you choose to start. Start.

Today I answered a bunch of questions for a fellow Amazing Life + Biz Academy Member, for the opportunity to be featured on her blog as part of her Soul-Full Sunday Interviews. I have just read one of Carries’ blog posts, and it appears we are both Sexual Abuse thrivers. I use the description thrive, as Survivor does not feel like a fit for me anymore.

I feel that I now THRIVE, that my story is simply that, something that shaped me into the amazing woman I have become in the world today. I no longer resonate with that story, however I still wish to share parts of it, as I wish to show other women that there is a way forward from the darkness of your secret.

I share these answers with you, as I shared them with Carrie, as there is a message to be heard. A message of inspiration. Showing another way for women who have experienced the pain that abuse can cause.

It is time to rise up into the being that you are here to be in this world. It is time.

How are you following your life path (dharma)?In each moment I am aware of who I’m choosing to be in the world. I try to make sure that I am present with each & every person I come into contact with. I take personal responsibility for my body & being and trust by doing so, that I teach others that it is possible for them also.I recently started working at lululemon athletica here in Canada. I love that the girls I’m working with thought that I was 26! I’m actually 36 and ½! I feel like that’s a pretty awesome testament to me!

Have you always had this calling? If not, was it a sudden/gradual shift?I believe I have. I fit into that known story of not fitting in at school. My story begun with learning I didn’t have a Dad at the age of 5, then at the age of 8 – was sexually abused by my Mums boyfriend. I took on the beliefs that I wasn’t good enough to have a Dad & in the second example – shut down my emotions as I didn’t know how to deal with the situation.

It’s only in hindsight I see that I spent my teens & early 20’s ‘running’ from myself. I left my home country of New Zealand at the age of 20, from here life was hard and fast. I partied hard, engaged in recreational drugs, exercised like a mad woman & was determined my body defined how I felt about myself.I entered a body building competition in 2006 – I spent 1 year working towards that goal. After competition & a Vision Quest I completed as part of my Life Coaching studies, my world fell apart.This intention of my quest was ‘to shine’, I went through a very dark knight of the soul with depression for 2.5 years. This forced me to acknowledge the pain that I’d kept hidden from my childhood that I had been running from.As I pulled through – I learnt that there was so much wonder & beauty in the world. I knew I had a purpose in this life that involved inspiring others to heal from their pain.

What did you have to give up by honoring your path?I’ve let go of a lot!Fear, Doubt, Worry, Anxiety, Pain, Lack…I’d say in aligning to something greater that feels good, I’ve chosen to let go of the things that haven’t supported me feeling good.This might look like; big nights out, binge drinking, recreational drugs, gossip, TV, reading Newspapers/Magazines, eating processed foods, sugar, non organic meat, obsessive exercise habits…The physical things I mentioned just fell away as I changed. It wasn’t about letting go of them because I thought I needed to. It’s was about aligning to something greater, about making the CHOICE to FEEL good. To feel GREAT.

What have you learned/gained by remembering your true nature (honoring your path)?That I am unlimited… I have everything that I could ever need, in this moment & every moment. All I need to do is align to the vibration of what I want, and I will attract what I need, or the steps to move closer towards attracting what I need.

That it is an absolute CHOICE to feel good. It doesn’t just happen, it is something that you need to work at. Chose to eat healthy nutritional food, chose healthy movement habits, choice healthy work & social environments, chose healthy thoughts…

What is one thing you do every week to honor your innermost authentic Self (connection to Source)?I do a lot of things. I LOVE nature…. I will take time out and visit the local woods and breathe, probably even hug & talk to the trees there. I will watch the insects and birds & notice how they might invite me in & let each other know that I’m there.

I meditate daily. I give thanks to Great Spirit and acknowledge its existence.

What is one treat you can share with us to bring along on our own path towards freedom?Oh SO many…. But one.Um, I would invite you to observe your mind.Watch your thoughts.Sit in quiet contemplation, or meditation and observe.Or, if you don’t feel ready (yet), to start. Journal.Write. Write. Write.Write unedited on a blank sheet of paper. Just allow anything that enters your mind to be expressed onto that sheet. Give yourself 20 minutes of pure uninterrupted time to express your minds thoughts.

There are enough ‘GURUs’ and blog sites out there, that will tell you your ‘5 Steps to your dream life’ or ’10 steps to a healthier you’.

Your task, if you choose to accept, is to find your own personal key, so that you can connect to your internal life manual and;

PERSONALLY ANSWER EVERY QUESTION YOU HAVE EVER ASKED!

Back in the day, I operated my life – pretty disconnected from my body, which is kinda funny considering I was worked as a Personal Trainer.

I was head down, bum up, and heading full speed in which ever direction I was facing.

I got shit done, but there was not a lot of balance within the rest of my life.

I thought I was in control, but turns out, I controlled my external life, as a means to feel in control, of an internal world that I was totally out of control with.

My thoughts about myself and food were my main two culprits.
– How I felt about myself.
– How I felt about myself when I ate.

As these thoughts were always forefront, there was often not much room for anything else.

These thoughts drove my life. How I felt about myself, dictated the amount of exercise I’d do. How I’d eat, dictated how I felt about myself, and how I controlled or binged. If I binged, then I had to balance that activity out with more exercise, and so, I was trapped in this cycle that was relentless.

At the time, I thought this was completely normal. I fit into the Personal Trainer mold, who cared overtly about what she ate, and how she exercised. I even competed in a Womens Body Building Competition which was the perfect hideout for all of my inner demons to work their magic. I found preparing for the competition easy in a sense, as I operated from my mind and my behaviors, I wasn’t at all connected to how I actually felt about things.

The relentless exercising and strict eating = I didn’t feel it.
Who I was being in relation to my partner = no idea.
When I injured my shoulder = barely skipped a beat.

Though I’ve noticed this way of being, this type of behavior, has come to be modus operandom or ‘normal’ for a great many people today.

Whether it is a body building competition, or copying the habits of your latest Instagram fitness Guru/s, we live in a world where we have become SO focused on our external environments as a means to making us feel good!

But underneath it all. The thoughts, food & rigorous exercising, what is really going on?

Often at the core, there is a the lonely, sad, deep need of ours for love and acknowledgement.

It might look different, or slightly similar per individual.

This is the part that drives us. That drives our need to eat a certain way, to follow a particular exercise trend.

We believe that if we look a certain way, then we’ll be accepted, and we will be loved. Well, this was my story – the one that was my pilot to my vehicle.

This pilot (inner self), within our vehicle, (body), is what is driving our habits and ways of living.

What we want in life, is dictated by this inner self.

After my competition, I had worked SO hard towards that goal, that slowly as the weeks unfolded, I lost focus. Of course I was still attentive to my physic, however I no longer had that finish line to strive for.

I slowly kept up with my training, but something deep within me was stirring.

It sat deep within my belly, I put it down to the amount of bread & junk food I was now giving myself permission to consume post competition. I continued on with my workouts and 80:20 strict eating

A heaviness was growing within me.

Back then I was oblivious to my inner world, and so the ‘strength’ I knew, was to keep pushing through.

I pushed with my workouts. I pushed with my work. I pushed with current clients. I pushed hard in every area of my life.

One by one, my clients began to let go of my services.

My income started to dwindle.

No matter how I tried to conjure up more sessions, it seemed nothing was working for me.

My business partner called a meeting to invite my separation from co-ownership, as she was witnessing my struggle.

I was putting on weight from my increased binges & lack of drive to balance it with intense exercise.

My motivation started waning.

My external world was crumbing and falling apart as I knew it.

And I too was falling apart on the inside, like the World Trade Centre.

I had no idea what was happening to me.

My self esteem was deflating.

I was lost and suffering.

It was somewhere around here, that I begun to regularly meditate.

I had meditated previously, but didn’t have what you would call a regular practice.

Step by step, I began to connect in with my inner world. My inner self. My pilot.

She was like a long lost part of me that I had cast aside in a cupboard and thrown away the key.

One can imagine how someone who had been in a cupboard may feel.

She had created the breaking down of my external environment to get my attention to come within to myself.

I now needed to build my relationship with her, and re-create a life that included her in it, not separate to.

My story continues on and on from here…

“A life lived in disconnection from our inner selves, is one that does not include our whole essence. Is one that misses a deep resonance with life & its meaning. To live and not feel our darkest lows and our highest highs escapes the wonder and magnificence that is being human. Being out of alignment with our inner world, skips wonderous magic that curves the tapestry of our lives… A life without moments of being, is not a life lived at all. To miss the magic that is our essence, and arrive at the end, is a very very unfortunate realization to wake up too.

I invite the wonder in you, to rise up and challenge the wonder in all of humanity. Give space to your truth, dive deep, and hold still the rich vastness that is you. Breathe in your magic and unlock the gates of mystery. Peace & Love are within us all. The time is now to rise and uprise”.

There are literally THOUSANDS of Meditations on the internet at this wonderful time in our lives. Why not head over to YouTube and search for one you like. As a suggestion, try an Inner Child meditation, to support in your connection with him or her. Here’s a few by one of my favorites, Louise Hay to get you started.

Should you need support in working with your connection to your Inner Child, and anything that arises, please feel free to reach out to me.
I am currently available for One on One sessions.

I’ve been;
– Confronted with my mortality
– I’ve fallen down in a puddle of tears
– My middle back is in a state of contraction
– I blew up at a call service operator this morning
– I’m on a 5 day self imposed cleanse which includes no coffee…

First up, I want to acknowledge how ‘first world’ my problems are in the grand scheme of life. They really do not seem like problems at all. However in the name of my spiritual growth and development, and in turn, the health of this planet, on a scaled down level where each individual’s challenges are significant, and contribute towards the whole, these are mine. In order to shine my light brightly in the world, these are my issues to overcome. There’s that paradox again,

Everything AND Nothing.

My problems are everything to me, but to the greater world and the worlds problems, mine are nothing.

So my post today, is about our ‘first world’ problems, on an individual level, as we all have them, AND they’re still really important for us to overcome & acknowledge on our path as human beings, seeking greater meaning in the world & what this life is all about.

Often we buckle down in our nests, and deal with ours on our own, or we don’t’ deal with them at all. We don’t acknowledge how we feel, by keeping ourselves busy with our life’s, our families, our children, our social calendar, our work, our hobbies, and so on and so forth.

But I’ve learnt, in order to really experience the true fruits of life, we also need to experience some of the seemingly ‘forbidden’ fruits. The rotten one’s lying on the ground that we perhaps don’t want to take a look at.

How does one even begin to acknowledge these fruits, when perhaps they haven’t done so their whole life? You may not even be aware of such things. I know I wasn’t!

It all began in my Life Coaching sessions with Vanessa Auditore. (you can find her work here).

She started asking me self reflective questions, based on what I was sharing.

I don’t remember my response, but I’m sure it contained the energy of a huge STOP sign.

“Sure, I’m ok? Aren’t I?”

The first time we begin to internally reflect on ourselves, developing our consciousness, can be a scary thing. We’re confronted with those parts of ourselves that we’d kept hidden, for whatever reason we decided to hide them.

Its important to keep a gentle mind, when we first begin to explore ourselves, as therein lies parts of ourselves we may not like when we first meet them.

I remember having a really great class during my studies, where we got to meet these parts of ourselves, during meditation. Instead of jumping in with both feet, and claiming them all, only to feel massively confronted & scared, we instead created a character for each.

For example, I’d shut down from allowing myself to feel angry throughout my childhood. Anger is a neccassary emotion we all need to embody. For me, to jump head first, and feel anger after a lifetime of not, was far to hard, to confronting. So, the characteristics of my anger; wild, loud, red, uncontrolled, explosive, energetic, rgggggghhhh, began to form a character. I imagined a small girl, much like the one on Monsters Inc, and I gave her a name. Dotti.

Dotti became this character I could associate with, as I was developing my connection with anger.

Instead of ME being angry, which was uncomfortable, I could say Dotti feels angry, which is a lot more comfortable as a transition, a stepping stone.

You can go into creative exploration with this. Begin to draw your character, or write about him/her – put them into a story. What happens, is you create a relationship.

As time draws on, and your relationship deepens, your comfortability factor with your character increases. You no longer need to call them Dotti, or xyz… they eventually become one with you. You can begin to identify with the emotion. In my case, anger.

You begin to FEEL anger, as any other emotion that you can expect to feel being human. You begin to allow yourself permission to feel this emotion, you are opening up the channels of energy for this to ebb & flow like anything else in life. Emotions come and go like the tides of the ocean. If we allow ourselves to feel it, it will pass as quickly as it rose. If we do not. That energy remains trapped within our bodies & minds, and does not pass. It builds and builds creating blockages and stagnation, eventually dis-ease and potentially disease.

Writing about this technique just now, coupled with with my morning meditation, guides me to share, and explain, what style of coaching I practice;

There are SO many Coaches out in the world now. It’s wonderful to see, as there is also, equal, if not more, clients ready & available. A massive shift is taking place in the world right now. That said, the term Coach is also so loosely used, that anybody can call themselves one.

I studied a 2 year Part Time Diploma at Nature Care College, in Sydney, Australia. It took me 4 years to complete, because of the profound life changes I went through whilst going through it.

This course, is not your advice based method, head centered and head strong.

It is HEART & SPIRIT aligned, far from Ego.

It is far from what you think you want to work on. Transformational Coaching encompasses all parts of being – body, mind & soul. It is an opportunity for your soul to come through you & work with you, for your greater good in this world.

You may have an agenda, ie – Work, Relationship, Money, Study etc.. But when you choose to show up to Transformational Coaching, you are committing to 100% transformation, in that area you intend to work on, and your LIFE.

– What you think bout money, will change completely!
– What you think about attracting an ideal relationship into your world, will change beyond your current perception, and again, I’m not just talking mind here.

How you think, feel & believe will ALL change! To say it again – Body, Mind & Spirit – remember – we are not 1 dimensional. If you change a thought, that thought then needs to ripple through your entire being, in order to integrate that new concept before it can begin to attract xyz into your world.

“A MIND change is not change without transformation and integration baby”!

The tools are marvelous, and FUN! Life is FUN! It’s not about knuckling down and doing the hard stuff all the time. There is a dance, a surrender at play in life & during the coaching relationship.

I LOVE the methods that I have studied, learnt, and personally applied in my life. If I could shout them from the rooftops, I would, and I am through my blogging!

I am opening up 2 new FREE, rippling opportunities, within the next few weeks to work with me.

Its now been about a week or so that you’ve been practicing your new mantra, and observing the changes in your thoughts and your breathing.

I bet your whole world is beginning to open up. You’re seeing new opportunities, feeling new experiences, witnessing synchronicity that you may have previously missed. I LOVE synchronicity!

A shift has occurred and there is new possibility available to you right now!

What a wonderful new space to be in!

Embrace this. It is time to give yourself a pat on the back for the work that you committed too.

As human beings, we’re to quick onto our next project, thought or shiny goal to chase.

Before you head off and start chasing that, I invite you to really embrace this new space that you have moved into.

Its time to celebrate!

Set aside some time for yourself. I’d recommend at least 30 minutes.

Close your eyes.
Tune into all the wonder that you are witness to within your body.
The feelings, experiences, new ideas.
Feel these sensations within your body.
Observe where you feel it & continue to focus your attention on this space within.
Without agenda, continue to watch what happens within your body.
Give yourself as much time as you need here, until your eyes naturally open & there is a sense of completeness.

My Gratitude Diary I bought for myself

Now, write or draw your observations of this reflective experience.

To extend this experience further, share this piece with a close friend, partner or loved one.

Give yourself permission to relish in your transformation.

To really seal this change & honor this transition, choose something that you love & book this event into your diary.

I personally love to receive massages, buy flowers for the home, take myself out for breakfast or lunch, buy a delicious nutritious food item for my smoothie or raw treats, or give myself an afternoon to play in nature.

Whatever you choose, make it something that continues to make your heart sing.

I am SO proud of you courageous one!

I would LOVE to hear about your experience and how you chose to celebrate your transformation in the comments.

My website might not yet be attractive to the eye, but I am trusting that I am attracting who is ready to arrive.

What a morning I’ve had with this topic. And it’s not that it’s a difficult one at all, in fact I’m pretty attuned to my needs and my morning ritual that sets me up for the day.

You see. This morning was just not my ‘ideal’ morning, and so perhaps there’s something in that to share.

It’s so very easy to share the things that we do, and how to set us up, but how about the finer detail that lays underneath it all?

The excuses, and morning funks, the uggggs. All of those feelings I’m sure you’re familiar with. I know you know them… you’re not human if you don’t, or, you’re potentially in denile.

Sometimes its about just doing the very best that you can do, and that is enough. I’m not having one of those days, but I have definitely scaled today back a little.

For me, it was just an uncomfortable nights sleep that preceded an evening out with friends for a birthday. I drank 2 alcoholic drinks, and simply forgot that me, alcohol & sleep are not the best of friends. It sets me up for a disrupted sleep where I wake cranky and not at all motivated for my day ahead….

So whatever the reasons are for you; being awoken by your little one’s during the night, going through a rough & challenging time, feeling rundown, there are always small steps you can do in your morning that can support a rise in spirit that see’s you supporting your soul.

It’s 12.39pm – I am still in my PJ’s, I’ve moved to the couch from the table & I have my first ‘morning’ coffee in hand.
But. I have taken small self care steps.
I drank my 1ltr bottle of water upon rising, I ate eggs for breakfast, I just completed my meditation listening to Edo & Jo, and am now enjoying my coffee writing of my experience.

Stuff comes up for me writing from my true experience.
My judgement kick in, and I judge myself for appearing like a “negative Nancy”.
I project that the reader is thinking this also.
I like to think, that my perspective validates the reader who is reading this – rich with their thoughts, judgments and blocks. I know there is the simplicity that lays in the letting go, and rising up from the ashes – free from thought, and, I also am aware of how some people simply need a hand extended to support them to take that step – by means of storytelling & sharing.
There is truth & light in both paths.

It’s only recently that I have really started reading & following blogs, and the one’s that resonate for me are the blogs where the writer is their truthful beautiful authentic self. I like to think that this is me.

Whilst I did not meditate upon waking, as suggested as the ‘perfect’ time, I did meditate.
I did it just before I began writing Version 2 of this Blog. This is actually my third attempt, after a failed Video Blog didn’t post.
My meditation brought me back to my warmth, my stillness & calmness, and it reminded me to write what is true for me. My writing is not to TRY to have it read by thousands, but to simply share what sits with me & what makes my heart sing. And my truth & experience is what makes my heart sing. I am rich & deep with experience that sometimes needs practice in being voiced to the world, let alone an audience of thousands. Each journey begins with a single step, and my blogging/writing is just that.

Another awesome AWESOME habit I recently committed to, is drinking enough water. It’s a funny thing ya know. We are meant to drink half our weight in ounces each day. For me this is just short of 2ltrs per day. While I was drinking water, I think I would just fall short. Especially working in retail, where I was constantly speaking to people, and the nuisance of needing to leave the store, to head to the bathroom can subconsciously stop one (me) from drinking my full quota.

So, I committed to drinking 500ml – 1ltr of quality water upon rising each morning. Initially I pee’ed a lot, but then it seemed to balance out, and drinking that amount of water became something I craved upon waking! Neil & I swore we must’ve spent about $100 on water while we in Ontario for Christmas. I simply CANNOT drink tap water. And nor should I recommend you do – please! We would need to ensure we had around 6ltr per day for the both of us to meet our water requirements, we had quite the recycling collection. I think Neil’s step Mum thought me odd for continuously bringing my own water to their house.
As WE up our self care, and follow the things that we need, we can be confronted by others views and judgments by what we are doing. Its just a great opportunity to ask ourselves if we really believe in ourselves.

I especially encountered this when moving in with Neil. One of the tools I need for self care or morning ritual is my Meditation practice. If I don’t, I can be grumpy & am generally not so nice. I would feel bad for needing this time upon waking, and initially forwent this need, thinking I was being to sensitive/to special. It became apparent that as I wasn’t giving myself this time, I would feel cranky and a little resentful. Neil the ever intuitive one, picked up on this & reminded me of the importance of this exercise for my self care. I initially would feel uncomfortable with the details of where to do this, especially when he was home. But details gave way to necessity, I got over myself, and it all fell into place. These days if I haven’t cleared or meditated, and need to – Neil is the first one to notice. He gently prompts me to have some time while he cooks breakfast. I am very very fortunate to have such an in tune, sensitive partner.

The other thing I need, is movement. In whatever form I can do it. If my body is moving, I am moving. And the same for it flip sided. On days like today where I have woken feeling somewhat flat, I find it a challenge to get to the gym or some high vibing structure I usually adhere too. So a walk is a perfect substitute, or my own home yoga practice. Moving initiates energy movement, and facilitates out with the old, in with the new. Get out of ya head, and get moving ya bum! Don’t think about the how, just start & before you know it, you’ll feel on top of your day again. These words as especially true for me today. In fact, as soon as this writing is complete – I will take my own advice.

3 – Take your shoes off. Walk on the grass. Focus your energy down to your feet to receive the energy from the Earth.

4 – Lay down on the ground and turn your feet up a wall for 5 minutes.

5 – Take a cold shower.

6 – Watch your thoughts. Catch a negative one & consciously flip it into a positive. Write it down. Sing it. Dance it. Draw it. Play it over and over in your mind. YOU ARE WONDERFUL AND SO VERY VERY LOVED!!!

Most mornings here in Canadia Land, I wake up and ask myself, how do I feel today?

What do I want to do, what do I want to feel, what can I do today that will contribute towards creating a life that fulfills me.

(When you’re not working, and you have a heck of a lot of time up your sleeve, you have a lot of time to think about this stuff!)

I’ve had to really draw upon my tools that I’ve learnt over the years, because sometimes I wake up and don’t automatically feel good.

I’ve have felt sad, and lost at times.

There is so much theory about that states we choose our state of being. So when we feel like crap, how does it feel to be told, you are choosing that? It makes one feel even more crap, likely even angry.

Angry is good.

Anger has an energy that has the power to shift the crap.

We feel angry because our ego wants to defend us feeling crap – it has invested in the crap. If crap doesn’t exist, ego doesn’t exist.

In my experience, and I HAVE experienced the above, it took my conscious observation to see what my ego was doing.

Before the awareness of observation and choice are apparent, perhaps it might be, that you need feel crap?

Maybe there is a message for you within the crap?

During my coaching studies we were taught that giving space to an emotion, any emotion, is such a wondrous and powerful tool…

I used to live in a world where I constantly denied anything other than happy. This pattern took me was down the rabbit hole of depression. I didn’t honor my whole self, and so as my development guided me, I reached a place where I needed to honor that that made me whole.

I needed to honor the sadness, the crapness, it needed releasing into the world, releasing from my physical body, so that I could find a new balance within me. One that acknowledged happiness AND sadness.

So learning this lesson, AND to read that our emotions are a state of mind, it never sat with me at this time.

Until, I learnt, how to balance my emotional state. How to acknowledge how I truly felt, what was underneath it, to then consciously make a shift in my being.

My observations today witness a world, where we are quick to tell people that they can CHOOSE to feel happy, and this is TRUE.

And, I also feel like we are at a turning point where perhaps most people, need to be acknowledged for not feeling happy. Maybe feeling sad, angry, frustrated. As it is through these emotions we can move into an authentic state of happiness.

I know all about living a life not dancing with the sadness, not giving space to the equal and opposite emotion of happy…

I learnt the tough way, I took the gateway through depression to the other side. To move into a whole and fuller way of being.

EXERCISE
At any stage in your day, take 1 minute to close your eyes and check-in with yourself. Ask, “how do I feel today?”

Wait for your body to answer, it usually appears as a one word answer, or a sensation/feeling, maybe even a symbol. (everyone is different)

Then ask it…

“What do you need?”

Again, wait for the answer…

What you then choose to do with your innate answer is up to you.

To live in alignment with your bodies innate wisdom is health, and I for one am a MASSIVE fan of my BODY and my HEALTH.