Sunday, July 11, 2010

Well today is my first blogiversary. Exactly one year ago, I began writing real blog posts on my blog. Prior to that, I had only written a couple poems on the blog and kept all of my writings to private forums.

That first post was an introduction of myself to the world. At the time, Debra wasn't even thought of. In fact, I was going by the handle "Savanna". All I knew was that I was struggling with my gender identity after so many years of burying it subconsciously. The Christian counselor I was seeing about it at the time kept telling me that I felt this way because of something my mom did or didn't do when I was a baby.

Ironically, the second half of the post describes why I didn't want to transition, lol. Upon writing this post, I was finally starting to see that this had to be something chemical....and I was looking for what that might be.

Overall, you can tell that I was definitely wrestling with what I should do and what is right. I was looking for answers while my family and church friends kept telling me NOT to look.

Reflecting over this post, I'm able to see how far I've come in 1 year. I'm now able to live my life as it was truly meant to be and it is so freeing! I really never knew life could be this good....even with my parents disowning me and my ex divorcing me....I really never knew that life could be this good!

Hey Debra- It's Logan from the Trinidad site. I came over here following the link you put up there. You're story is so moving. I am really sorry that counselor told you all that crap, it's such outdated methodology. :( And sorry you didn't have support in this. It's great you have been able to follow yourself and be who you are. And you look amazing! You're such a beautiful woman, there is obviously no other way you were supposed to be. See you later!

Hi Debra,Should we be saying happy first birthday?I have just finished reading your blog from the very start and i have to say girl- there is one huge difference in everything.

Your confidence has grown,You look fantastic,Your voice is envious,Your blogs are more positive.

I feel like I have been on your journey with you thanks to your blog and yes I have cried at the lows but more recently I have this huge feeling of swelling pride and admiration for you.

There are no good words so say how proud we all are of you, so;

Keep up the good work, remember we all love you and keep your head held high with the knowledge that you have more guts than 99% of the population (seriously how many other people have the guts to undertake such a life changing endeavor)