Lilah – Finding Our Bull

As we step into this moment, I’m in a loving and deeply sensual relationship with an amazing woman named Lilah. My recent post “Sexual Healing” gives a sense of the sexual kinks we enjoy but more importantly highlights the special love that flows between us.

Romantically speaking, I aspire to be a sensual and thoughtful lover. “Sensual and Thoughtful” is actually part of blog’s tagline. The other part of that tagline is “Very Naughty”. In terms of being naughty, cuckolding is high on my list of sexual kinks. I’ve written quite a bit about the sexual psychology of cuckolding. If you are interested in learning more. Please visit here – Cuckolding. Let me tell you, it doesn’t get much more intense than having the woman you love making her pussy available for other men.

While Lilah is still getting her mind around the sexual dynamics of cuckolding, she loves sex and is cautiously open to sex with other men within the framework of our loving and supporting relationship. At this point, she has already cuckolded me several times so we aren’t exactly novices to the lifestyle. However, our early experiences have left us thinking deeper about what we want to get out of these experiences as a couple. Lilah is a sexy woman and, believe me, there are plenty of men that are eager to get their cocks deep inside my lover’s pretty little pussy. It’s not quite that simple for the couple though.

Lilah has high sexual energy and is a very adoring lover which makes me one lucky man. Unfortunately, we are in a long-distance relationship so our time for physical intimacy isn’t ideal. She loves me, but also craves more sex. The idea of her weeding through man after man trying to find someone she has chemistry with is a lot of work, frequently irritating, and emotionally draining. Because of this, a steady Bull for regular, no-strings attached sex is high on our list. And, it makes me feel better about her safety.

Lilah feels very strongly that she wants her prospective Bull to know how much she loves me and understands she isn’t looking to replace me. Well, I suppose she is actually looking to replace me “occasionally” between her legs. However, he needs to be aware of my presence and understand that he is not “dating” my girl. He will be our Bull, not her lover.

If we were able to snap our fingers and summon our perfect Bull, what would he be like? My preference is for a black man and Lilah finds that exciting. Sexual savvy and good communication skills are also important. Mind play and sexting are something that Lilah and I really enjoy. We constantly have each other worked up and needing to cum. We engage our minds, build erotic tension, and mind fuck each other so well. Our Bull needs to stimulate my girl’s erotic mind. The physicality of sex is important but engaging the mind (the mind fuck) adds context and richness to an experience. It is the lubricant that makes everything flow.

Cock size is another consideration. I would prefer that our Bull have a larger cock than mine. It is hot when my girl sleeps with another man, but it even hotter if he can make her feel physical sensations that my smaller cock can’t provide. I want her to really enjoy and crave her Bull’s bigger cock. I see this as one way for her to experience and embrace the fullness of her sexuality. This would also increase the erotic intensity of the cuckold experience for me.

Lilah’s evolving perspective on cock size is fascinating and worthy of having an entire post devoted to it in the future. At this point, I will just say that she is uncertain if she has it in her to crave a bigger cock but is curious and open to the possibility that she might like it.

Comfortable and aligned in our desires, we began our search as a sensual, loving couple looking for a naughty adventure with a Bull. If we find our ideal Bull, my lover’s pussy will be open and waiting for him. There are plenty of well-endowed black men that are eager to open up my girl’s tight pussy. Unfortunately, they aren’t interested in expending any energy to engage her erotic mind.

Our frustration level is getting pretty high when a white gentleman named Mason entered our world and began messaging with Lilah. He politely acknowledged that he wasn’t quite what we are looking for but offered his services if we were ever interested in a white Bull.At 6’ 4”, Mason is a large man with a thick frame and – allegedly – a long, thick cock. His large frame was enough to generate at least some intrigue from Lilah. She loves large men because they make her feel so small. Mason’s big cock was something that made her feel a little nervous but also made her a little wet and curious. I encouraged her to message with him a bit to see how the energy felt.

I was excited about Mason’s potential because messaging with him had been so much fun! He walked the line of being sexy and flirtatious but also kind and respectful, which is so important to me. It has been so difficult to find the kind of Bull we want and Mason seemed to at least have the sexual savvy we wanted in our Bull. ~ Lilah

Mason had some of what I was looking but missed in other ways. I wanted a Black Bull. Not only was Mason white but he identified himself as a Dom, not a Bull. This Bull-Dom distinction is important. We weren’t looking for someone to command her submission and become her Sir. We just wanted a sexually savvy man with a big cock to fuck her good on occasion – a Bull.

Lilah and I were already enjoying our own power-play dynamics with me as her Sir and Daddy. I am the man that commands her submission and disciplines her when she has been a naughty little girl. I guide and support my little girl on her journey to release and experience the fullness of her sexuality. Other men may fuck her, but I own her heart and I own her pussy. And, this is exactly how Lilah wants it.

In all the messaging I did with Mason, the topic of submission definitely came up. I said that I’m only submissive to you – and only sometimes. You know I’m not a sub, and it’s not something I really even want to be! One of the things I so appreciate about you is the variety of ways we relate to each other – how we move in and out of roles so fluidly. You are sensual and loving and, when I’m your naughty little girl, you are deliciously dominant and commanding. ~ Lilah

In full transparency, I’m at bit of a switch in power play. I do enjoy being dominant and can get in that mind space pretty easily. However, my cuckold fantasy is a very strong sexual driver…probably my most exciting kink. The thought of another man fucking my little girl better and “owning her pussy” was something that would be a wildly exciting sexual dynamic within our loving relationship and a hot, hot, hot mind fuck. I brought this up to Lilah before and she made her feelings clear on this matter – not interested.

I remember when you first brought this up. My immediate reaction was- no way! ~ Lilah

Despite the things Mason was missing, his ability to get Lilah’s attention at least warranted further exploration. Who knows, we are both open minded and this could turn into something fun. If not, we just move on.

A few weeks pass and Lilah is starting to think Mason might be fun for us. He offered to meet with us for a drink to see if there was any chemistry. The problem again is that we are in a long-distance relationship. I hadn’t seen Lilah in a while (far too long) and it would still be several weeks before I saw her again. She was climbing the walls to get out and have some fun so I encouraged her meet Mason for a drink. It would be good for my sexy girl’s spirit to have some attention lavished on her.

She reluctantly agreed to meet him alone for a drink to see if there was any chemistry. If the energy was right, she would consider meeting him again for more. We discussed the possibility of this first meeting going beyond a drink. Lilah isn’t so sure and doesn’t think it is a good idea. Regardless, I know things can change in the heat of the moment and let her know she has the green light to go further if the mood strikes her. I assure her it will be hot for me too.

As the night of Lilah’s meet and greet with Mason approaches, our conversations around it are tempered and lacking the typical buildup we’ve had in the past. Then again, it’s just a drink so nothing to really get worked up over. Lilah rushes home after work to freshen up and then heads off to meet Mason.

I went into this evening with the idea that most likely nothing would happen. But, I knew that if I felt good energy, I might be open for more… ~ Lilah

As I head to sleep tonight, I’m genuinely happy that Lilah is out enjoying an evening on the town. In terms of sexual energy, I’m feeling calm with only the faintest flicker of being cuckolded on my mind.

I should have known better. 😈🔥

To be continued….

Suggested Links:

Lilah – All currently available stories about our loving, erotic journey

Cuckolding – Writings focused on the psychology of cuckolding and my perspective