I'm fed up with this (rant alert!!!)

Now I know I shouldn't be wishing my life away, and that I am lucky to have such a lovely husband and that I should be making the most of this time together and that this will happen for us when the time is right BUT I am getting really hacked off with each month hinging on getting a BFP. I actually was silly enough to think that we might have just done it this month. We bd'd CD 9, 10, 11, 12, 13 and I ov'd on cd 12. Then, my boobies started getting sore at 4/5dpo. They do normally do this but not until about 8/9dpo. They've now developed burst blood vessels under the skin and are turning a fetching shade of purple. I can be forgiven for thinking this is a good sign, can't i?! But no, FR this am and BFN!

I am getting so frustrated. What frustrates me even more is that hubby is so relaxed about it! We seem to be doing everything right but nothing is happening

My only little bit of positivity is that I am having 21 day bloods today to see if I ov'd this cycle and then we'll be seeing the doc again on Weds / Thurs. Am really hoping we can start to move forward on this because I feel like I am (not so slowly!) going a little bit mad! xxxx

Sorry you're feeling so frustrated, KayeCee. I know exactly what you mean - if you knew that it would eventually happen, you could relax and enjoy the time with your hubby until it does, but we all have to face the fear that it might never happen. I'm sure this won't be the case for you and you WILL get your BFP, but in the meantime all these BFNs and bloody AF showing up on time month after month can be torture.

I hope your bloods give you some positive answers, and am keeping my fingers crossed that the veins are a good sign and you just tested too early.

Thank you everyone. I know it's too early to be testing really but I just know that it hasn't worked this month now. I'm getting fed up with my body giving me pregnancy symptoms when there's clearly nothing doing! I know it's not fair to rant as there are lots of you girlies on here that feel the same so I'm sorry if I knocked anyone's PMA today xxxx

PS MH - I looked at it in all angles too! Not even an evap line to agonise over! xx

Thanks girls. Feeling better this afternoon. Think I was just hoping that my Monday morning would be graced with a BFP. Thing is I test early and it does me no favours because now I just want AF tp rock up so that I can get with next month! I still have 5 bloody days though!

I don't think so Lottie. The blood test envelope just said it was testing for progesterone. I think your prog levels are supposed to be at a certain level if you ov'd. I'm going to get the results at 5pm (damn, I hate myself for being so bloody impatient but I literally can't help it!) x

I'm sure I'll test as well MH! I actually thought I could see something at one point! My delusional state of mind ACTUALLY created a line when, alas, there was none! Let's re-convene same time tomorrow for more crazy lady talk. Good luck chick x

Am feeling a bit down today because this day last week I went for a lovely walk on the beach in the sunshine.I sat and read a book and relaxed and was happy and pregnant or so I thought. I'm also supposed to be 8 weeks tomorrow. Ah well.

Have now got a new aim...get my BFP by my first wedding anniversary in two months time. LOL. Maybe it will be a good look sticky one.

Hey girls! I'm a bit sporadic on here on weekdays I'm afraid. If I pop home for lunch i come on here for 10 mins or so but I was holed up at work all day today.

Still BFN but still hoping for a miracle! The BFN couldn't be more of a BFN! The space where the line should be was soooo white it could be on a Daz advert! Are you testing tomorrow MH? Surely we still have a (albeit slim chance!) that a line could materialise? I go back to the docs tomorrow eve to see if I ov'd so that'll be something to look forward to (jeez, that's a sentence I never imagined I'd be writing!).

Posy - it's so nice having you around and cheering us on. Hope you are okay sweetie x