Ramblings and Musings of my innermost mind

EXHAUSTED BEYOND WORDS

I feel like I have been shoved from pillar to post in every aspect of my life and I am exhausted. Not just physically exhausted but emotionally, mentally and every other type of exhaustion that you can get.

Physical exhaustion is fine because I always find that sleep can cure this. For the last few evenings, I have been getting into bed at 19h15! Who does that?

But no amount of sleep seems to help me get over this feeling of absolute exhaustion. I just seem to stay tired and I am again beginning to experience the same symptoms of Adrenal Fatigue that I experience about 4 years ago. Luckily for me, I now know the symptoms and can start to fight it.

It feels like my heart is going to jump out of my chest at any time- that’s how hard it pounds (quite frankly- I wouldn’t blame it). I cannot pinpoint any particular thought or circumstance that lead to this, it will just start pounding, including when I go to bed. I have constant chest pains and know that it is anxiety.

This headache and sinus are not really helping the situation at all. I feel like the wall in front of me just keeps getting higher no matter how fast or how high I climb.

For the first time in a very long time, I just feel don’t feel like facing another day (and that is not anything like me). I am exhausted beyond anything that words could ever describe.