These past few months, I have been more or less absent from my blog because there has been a lot of changes in my life. And some changes were more difficult to make than others, and especially longer. I don't know if you've seen the movie "Eat Pray Love" with Julia Roberts but I think her character Liz reflects the state of mind in which I am right now. Three years ago, losing a loved one, I realized what was important in life but above all what was not. We often tend to be blinded by our lives and we forget the essential things. We remain in a life that often doesn't suit us, sometimes we accept a job or a relationship that isn't good for us and that can even destroy us slowly. All this for convenience or habit, because of the fear of taking risks, fear of the unknown. Nevertheless, over the past years I've changed. Today my priorities are not the same anymore. And just as Liz, I recently realized that I was not living the life I had dreamed. This awareness created in me an incredible desire or rather a need for change. As if to finally start a new chapter of my life, I had to stop re-reading the last one. To free myself and move forward, I absolutely had to leave definitively some things behind me. This is what I tried to do in recent months. I decided to try to give myself another chance. The biggest change for me today was to leave my home. I had a desperate need to leave the city where I lived, to take distance from things that were 'eating at me'. Even though it was not easy, it was essential for me to do this, I would even say vital. There are three great phases in the initiatory journey of Liz:

EAT: I think I have been in this phase for a long time now. Life is so short so for me we should enjoy it. Eating is one of the small joys of life. So I don't have any frustration about food, if I want to eat a delicious chocolate cake I do it and no remorse. I've been living for nine years between Paris and Milan and yes I gained weight during those years but the memory I have of this period is the pleasure I had when I ate some dishes. What I miss the most, Spaghetti alle vongole! A real treat.

PRAY: today I am right in this phase. I always believed in God and the more I pray, the more prayer becomes a real need for me. This soothes and comforts me. Praying allows me to approach the things peacefully, it enables me to relativize full things.

LOVE: well ... It's supposed to be the last part of the initiatory journey but I don't think I'm ready for this. Some scars are maybe still too painful ... So I think I will spend more time on the second phase to try maybe to find answers to some questions.

Anyway, now I stop bothering you with this. And I don't know if some of you already had this sense of need for change. This desire to leave everything everything behind to start something new elsewhere ... But I really would like like to hear from you! However, one of the good news among other things is that soon I may will share with you some pictures of a new home, a little nest that I wish I could one day call my home.

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3 Responses to "Eat Pray Love"

You are so strong and brave to share these tender parts of your heart. Thank you. I am much much older and can easily promise you that there will be some bad days ahead but there are also glorious, delightful, breathtaking ones waiting for you as well.

First of all, I love reading your blog. I really liked your words and your vision on the important things in life, I’m just sad that you had to lose a loved on to see things so clear. Thanks for sharing and wish you all the best!