Month: August 2017

I can see the shift happening all around me; even in those that who are not “spiritual” or are diligent in self-reflection. I am sure I have had this before, it is such a powerful time right now. The full moon brought massive release and new beginnings; it also opened the lion’s gate portal which has only amplified things for us.

When I did my full moon ritual several days ago, I made my husband part take, which I often leave optional for him. This moon, however, I didn’t give him the option; he wrote down everything he wanted to get rid of and we started the ritual. The full moon ritual is always a cleansing time for me but this moon was much more intense than times before, stripping every unwanted, unneeded part of me away so that only the raw truth could shine through. I must say, it was a bit overwhelming; it lead me to look into the deepest, darkest parts of myself. Which has been rather cleansing and has given me a sense of renewal. What the full moon, the lion’s gate, and the universe has given me is a blank slate; something I was told months ago in a tarot card reading. I had felt the blank slate in small bits, here and there, seeing it in my mediations and dreams but now, I feel all of it. I can sense it, feel it and practically touch it. Along with it I see a huge transformation on the horizon for all of us; we will not leave this month the same as we entered it. That I know for sure.

As for my husband, I see him evolving and growing in ways that I always knew he could but never took the time too. The full moon has helped him on a level I don’t think he anticipated. I see all his anger and worry being washed away but with it a sensitive state has settled in its place. I have told him to look deeper into that, as there is a reason why that has come to surface. I know that I am not the most sensitive person when it comes to feelings of others. I tell people how I feel, spew it all out and I feel better and am done with it. It is the true nature of a Sagittarius. I do not take the feelings of others into account, it is really only about me. So his sensitivity has been a deal of work for both of us, and perhaps that is why it has settled in. We both need to work on it together.

A lot of old stuff is being trudged up from our past so that it can be removed, I have noticed most people struggling with this, fighting it every bit of the way. Either not understanding what is happening, brushing it off, or most commonly pushing it down hoping that it will go away somehow. This is the time of self-reflection, the time of releasing old traumas, and moving away from patterns of being that no longer serve us. The time is now, the time is here for growth, expansion, and evolving. We cannot stay the same any longer, the universe and our great mother demands more of us; and they always get their way.

As I was writing in my journal this morning, I was guided to pick a single card from my fairy deck. This card would represent where I, and the world are currently at in this process of spiritual ascension….

6 of Autumn

The autumn season replaces coins in traditional tarot, and is the element of earth.

Meaning:
The good you do come back to you
Replaying debts
Balance in giving and receiving
Providing what is truly needed
Unexpected inflow of money

I must say this truly is the perfect card for the current time, at least for me.

I have always said life is about perspective. But perspective means nothing if it doesn’t change, grow and evolve.

As this time has been impactful for all us, for me, it has been a time a deep gratitude and kindness. Kindness to others, but mostly to myself. In this time of transformation alot of my darkness has surrounded me; to make me stronger and grow more than I thought I could. This darkness pushes me, driving me to the best soul I can be. This is where i found my gratitude; having these out of body experiences have allowed me to see beyond my eyes. It allows me too see just how truly incredible the human body is; by simply thinking of moving your hand…it moves. Incredible.

I have gained a entirely new, beautiful, grateful perspective of life; body, mind, and soul. And just how beautiful it is when they all align in a state of peace, comfort and love.

I see on social media everywhere how people act when they are in relationship with someone, that person becomes their world. They seem to lose their identity in the other person, when I see this I often wonder why people let this happen. This is why it becomes so difficult to leave negative relationships; you start to think “Who am I without them?” and we are often left with the answer being “Nothing.” But why!? It doesn’t have to be this way, and what does it accomplish for us? Putting everything in another person’s hands, more often than not, nothing good can come from it.

Relationships are supposed to enhance our lives, not become them. We are meant to have our own lives with our own goals and accomplishments; to be independent in the things we do. So then when we come together we can enrich each other’s lives. To be happy with yourself and in your life, can only bring more happiness into the relationship you share with another. We are meant to have our hobbies, passions, and jobs. We are meant to spend time apart so that we can appreciate the time spend together. We’re meant to expand our partner’s view of the world by allowing them to step into our world; by doing things that we wouldn’t ordinarily do.

I love my husband, he is one of the most important people in my life, but if I had to spend every moment with him I would go crazy! I need time away from him, to do the things that I love. I need time for myself, by myself. I feel that, that is one of the most important parts of a healthy relationship. I could be all wrong but this is what has worked so well for me. My whole point is don’t lose yourself when you’re in a relationship, all you truly have is yourself, own t and love it.

I think I may have went over this topic before but I feel the need to speak out about it once again…..

Depression is a cruel, ugly monster. It starts out small, and seemingly meaningless ways but eventually grows bigger and digs its roots deeper over time. Leaving is feeling that we are alone, that there is no way out, and we will feel like that forever. I am here to tell you that depression is a liar!!

You are NOT alone, I know that it may seem this way but I can guarantee you that someone you know is dealing with the same things that you are, they just don’t talk about it. We see all the filters on Instagram and Social media as a whole, we are so good at adding a “happy” filter that it only leave us more drained and more depressed. We are not robots, we have emotions for a reason. We need truth, realness and authenticity; we need to feel that we are not alone. Talk to someone you trust about the ways your feeling, you may be surprised to know they are going through the same or similar things that you are.

There is always a way out, you have to find it. Fight those negative voices in your head; they have never served you well in the first place. Replace them with positive thoughts, ones that make you smile or laugh. Laughter is the best medicine, it can make you feel happy even when you’re not. Forever is a long time, don’t let a passing storm of depression take up space in your beautiful blue sky. Don’t give into it, fight it!

Look within yourself, see what is missing. Love yourself, give yourself the love and kindness you easily give to others, you are just as deserving as they are of love and happiness. Forgive yourself for the past, and stop worrying about the future. Be in the present, this is the only time you will ever be this old. This is the only time you can make memories, the only time you can feel alive!

Please know that suicide is not the answer, I know that it may feel like it but it isn’t. You have so many lives left to touch, and to touch yours. Talk to someone about the ways your feeling, reach out. We all live in a world were social media rules all, we wait for nothing and judge everything and everyone; and have no patience. This is a society of lies and falsities. It may seem like the end of the world when your peers do not accept you, or when you don’t fit in.

There were many times I didn’t have any friends at all, I would go to school and come home. It was a bummer that I wasn’t experiencing the same things as all the other kids in school but I also didn’t want to fit in if it meant I had to fake everything about myself. High school is not the best time of your life, it is only the beginning of it. I will be 30 this year, and the best times of my life have only begun. So please, don’t feel that life won’t get better because it will! Remember when someone calls you names or whatever, it says more about them than you.

You are beautiful, you are strong, and you are light. Love who you are, the good and the bad. Love all of you, that is where your power lies and once you’ve found that you will be a unstoppable force to reckoned with.

Xoxo

p.s.- Sorry to my absence I have wonderful news I want to share with all of you! Due to all the love we have spread through my blog and Instagram I have decided to open a boutique filled with things that bring me joy and love. Spreading of love, and positive vibes for everyone. The shop will be opening soon, if anyone would like to join I will leave a link below. ❤