Lifeless, walking through these thoughts faded memories
A week of silence that isn’t enough still wondering but never truly lost
I have so much to prepare for and do
My heart and soul are broken and I cannot breathe
I do not know what is breaking me
I want to curl up and cuddle
to break this chain that I am bound by
To share this moment,
with someone-
who can share such sacred special moments such as these
I won’t allow myself too though
I want to be lost in this anguish
To better embrace its simple poetry
I am absorbed and in love with my own brokenness
I want to lay in my bed and cry
I want to weep to God
and feel him tenderly wipe the tears away
I want Him to kiss my face
and tell me what is taking place inside of my soul
Too soon all of this will pass by
And, once the emotionally part has kindly parted,
the understanding will still be left lacking
for quite some time until the things which are changing are complete.
My mind grieves for how long this will take, yet it must be done.
On the route I shall be until then.

Change takes time
Sometimes more
than we have patience to pay for.
The present is but a murky scene
where the conscience tiptoes
through well lit rooms
with shards of glass
scattered among rose petals;
It must make a leap of faith
arms spread wide and pray
to remain unscathed.
The sunlight is waiting.