my Mom is not taking me. i think it may be because of last year, my heart ailment, she's being very reserved/quiet.... she's seems quietly upset. she had a panic attack last yr. when i my heart went & they were ready to defribillate, i'm thinking she's fearing that panic. ?

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you know quite well you need medical attention, stat! mom will have to deal with it. do you think you ignoring something and thereby really getting sick is the best way to keep her from hurting?
early intervention in any medical emergency or condition is always the best course.
but you already know this, so now go do what's best for your health, and by that your mom's.

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The next time someone asks what you did this past weekend, squint really hard and say, "Why, what did you hear?"

Luvs I have to reinstate what others here have wisely told you, run don't walk (figuratively speaking) to the nearest hospital or emergency walk-in clinic. You are clearly in need of some serious medical attention. (We can provide the TLC, but they have doctors!)

We all love you and care about you, please, please, please put your health first and foremost and seek medical attention ASAP!