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Disclaimer: So this is like a dear diary post! Something that I need to be telling a therapist or a good friend about my over achiever tendencies.
Ok so when I blogged “new beginnings” I looked at all my goals that I had put out into the universe and I realized all that I am trying to accomplish this year. “Am I completely nuts? Why do I think I can do everything? I act as if I’m superhuman and I don’t need to eat or sleep!” I feel so overwhelmed and it’s only the 8th of January! Grrrr…. “Ok Britney gather your wits, one day at a time!.. But I don’t have time I’ve gotta get these goals accomplished!” This is a big year for me, I’ve been working so hard in school and I think that the closer that I get to the reality of my goal it’s pretty scary. I don’t know why, but maybe because it’s like the make or break of it all. And it’s not that I think I won’t be able to do it, it’s just…I don’t know how to explain it.
And then how could I be busier than I was last year? I don’t even know where I’m going to pull this kind of energy from! Guess I’d better start taking vitamins or something, Red Bull. Ok no Red Bull, but I’d better get a plan in effect!
Signed,
scared and running out of time
Ok back up! It’s all about perspective! If I was a friend I’d tell myself, “Britney but you’ve already passed the Physics exam you can do this! You have been through so much worse than this! Remember when you were at the bottom of everything? This is so much more manageable than that, and you got through that, right?”, then I say,“Ok your right but this is different.”, (and my good friend tells me), “No the only difference is that you haven’t been through this particular situation. But you can do this! You have everything in your possession to succeed!” I have to say I love my friends because this is exactly what they would say!

Ok I’m moving past my mini meltdown! One step at a time, I won’t think about the big picture until its time, just keep my head to the grindstone and one day I’ll look up and I’ll be there. So first things first…Cardiovascular Credentialing International.

So a new year is like a new haircut, you feel fresh, revived, like you are able to erase all the bad things of the past year and start anew. I love that feeling! I usually make a long list of goals from financial, to emotional, to physical, and back again. This year my goals are of course to get a job doing echo full-time, to take the CCI exam, the RDCS exam, and then to start and complete the pediatric echo course. I know it sounds like a lot. And it is, but I’m feeling good about the 2011 year. Big things are going to happen, next I plan to run for President.
I was fortunate enough to spend the 1st day of the new year with great friends by the beach. A friend had a brunch where we feasted on egg frittata with homemade salsa, beer bread, pumpkin croissant bread pudding, and mimosa’s. Then we took our entourage to the park that’s also right on the beach to let all the chitlen’s run around. And topped the afternoon off with a salted caramel hot cocoa. What could be better?