When I was in high school and college, I did not appreciate the body that I had. I thought I was too big despite my size 9 waist. Looking back at pictures, I had curves, not a lot of extra weight anywhere, and an hourglass figure that stopped guys dead (or at least my husband did...lol).

Yes, I'm tooting my own horn a little bit, but looking back, I can't help it. Compared to what my body is now, I was smokin' back in the day.

I did have two kids back to back, had a step-father die, planned a wedding, started two jobs, and left two jobs. That's a lot of stress and a lot of stress eating. I didn't eat as well I should have and I did a lot of nothing. I spent a good majority of my days on the couch during my first pregnancy. But everything hurt all the time. I was miserable. And being 9 months pregnant in the summer, in the 100+ heat, I'd like to see anyone move well.

After having Skylar, it took me some time to start really losing the weight. In the past couple of months is when it's really started falling off. And even more in the past couple weeks. I peaked at 250 with both kids. I'm happy to say that today, I'm down to 177 pounds! Woo Hoo!

As happy and as excited as I am, I've run into a few problems with losing all this weight. My clothes don't fit right, I've got some extra skin around my mid-section, and my stretch marks are actually becoming more prominent.

And that's the hard part. Dealing with all of this extra stuff is almost as bad as dealing with being a bit overweight.

Take my clothes not fitting. Most of my shirts fit decently enough, but my jeans... not so much. Right now I'm in between sizes too. I'm too big for one size and too small for the other. It's quite obnoxious. I either spend all day pulling my pants up or can't breathe. Neither is preferable. So I have recently become quite attached to my leggings and yoga pants. But I haven't been buying a ton of clothes lately, because I'm still losing weight. I don't want to spend a fortune on clothes that I'll only wear for a month or two. I don't want to have to restock my closet every couple months as I finish losing all this weight. I'm going to go bananas though once I get down the rest of the way.

I've heard that as you lose weight, stretch marks are supposed to go down. I'm calling BS on that one. Mine have gotten much darker and a couple of actually started splitting. It's not pretty. It's pretty uncomfy too. Vitamin E oil is helping, but it's still pretty bad. I've got the scars to prove that I WORKED for my two kids.

But you know something? I'm kinda excited about all this awkward and not so pretty things about my body right now, It means I'm changing. I'm getting healthier. I'm getting back to where I used to be. It's not an overnight change. Though it would be soooo much easier if it were... so so much.

Now, what's the point in me writing a blog post about all of this?

To share that you are not alone in this weird phase of weight loss. Everyone goes through this weird stage. Things get a little weirder and more awkward before you get to the finished result. But we are all getting there.

It's a lot of work. But it's so worth it in the end. You have to remember you are human. Humans were not meant to be rushed through life and challenges. Take it one day at a time.

Just remember to love the body you have. No matter what stage of life you are in. It does amazing things, and for that you should always be grateful.

Kristen, thank you for posting this. I'm at the awkward phase too and my clothes are way beyond even fitting right. Your attitude is so refreshing: to embrace the awkwardness instead of dwelling over it. It's a great outlook to have, and something that I (as a new mother) and others should strive to have. Thank you again! (posting from Mommy Moments Blog Hop)

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Maniac Mom

1/27/2015 10:25:53 am

I'm glad I could help you feel a little better about feeling awkward. It's a testament to how amazing your body is. Revel in it!

Popping over from Merry Monday =) I think women are destined to always be in an awkward place with their bodies. they're always changing. congrats on the weight loss! Be sure to share your crafts & DIYs at Two Uses Tuesday (Mon 11pm EST to Fri 11pm EST) over at Sarah Celebrates if you don't already!

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Maniac Mom

My name is Kristen and I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder. This is my hysterical journey as a mom of two dealing with life twists and turns while trying to not let my "crazy" get too out of hand. I strive to be a happily depressed mom.Grab a cup of coffee or a shot of vodka and bask in the mania!