Must be a manic phase! I’m starting to get excited. All my plans are coming to fruition. At first glance this might seem simple, but the subtle complexities are not apparent to those who haven’t tried before.

The desire to speak to all your friends and even enemies rears its head. That old friend you have to say good bye to. That ex-gf you called a bitch and didn’t mean to. Your Uncle you never hugged. The mailman you never thanked…

I actually start to see all these as subconscious procrastination measures. So I reject them all. Well not All of them. I want to say goodbye to my two best friends…

I ALSO want to leave a YouTube suicide note. Not sure if anyone else has done it or not. I feel safe in doing it because the time it takes to verify the UL and post it is sufficient enough to allow me the ten or so minutes I’ll need to die.

I hate in movies when they cut everything unrealistically close, but there are so many things I need to do at the last minute to ensure I am not interfered with.

The YouTube video, REDDITing of my first post-death post, and final phone calls all have to happen immediately prior to launch. If any oxygen reaches me before death, I may end up in a paralyzed or vegetative state. Neither of these appeal to me, so timing is going to become critical.