An Overview of My Personal History---How I Got Here

I am writing this book because I believe that it will help
others who are bereaved to feel a little less bereaved. Being a bereaved
parent myself, I know that’s a pretty huge statement to make and maybe even
presumptuous of me to think that anything I could say might lighten your
burden. None-the-less, I am urged from inside myself and from my son Danny on
the other side, to write what I believe to be true about where he is now and
how he is doing.

You may wonder, “What does this woman think she knows and
why would I listen to some bereaved mother? The bereaved will believe
anything!” and well this may be. However my interest in spiritualism began long
before I became a mother. The following overview of my personal history will
explain much of this to you.

An Overview of
My History---How I Got Here

I grew up a Jersey Girl in the suburbs of Essex County in a
home that was devoid of spirituality and mysticism of any kind. By the time I
was a teenager in the mid- 1960’s I was convinced that there was the “real
world” in which I had my existence and that everything else was pure fantasy.
The fairy tales of my childhood were to be left behind and with that the idea
of miracles as well. I remember accepting this sad and colorless interpretation
of life and feeling as if a part of me had died, yet to my mind, real was real
and I knew the difference!

These beliefs were held firmly by both my family and myself,
and so when I was afflicted with Crohn’s Disease at the age of 16, we pursued
no other course of treatment outside of traditional medical science. It was
what we trusted. We placed all our hopes on my doctors to supply us with a
cure. Little did we know that from 1967 to 1969 my disease would grow in
severity while we pursued medical treatment to the exclusion of anything
else.

By the summer of 1969 I had descended into the depths of
hell, suffering more from this debilitating disease than I had ever conceived
possible. At the same time I contracted Hepatitis C from blood transfusions
administered during one of two emergency surgeries. By 1970 the first symptoms
of the Hepatitis C surfaced and eventually through medical testing Chronic
Hepatitis was diagnosed. I was disheartened to learn that this illness, like
the proceeding one, had the potential to become more severe over time. My
doctors advised my parents to give money to research because as they saw it, in
the absence of a cure, I would not live past another 10 years. This prognosis
was made in 1971.

I had heard about British spiritual healer Harry Edwards
back in 1968. At the time, however, I couldn’t believe one word of what I
heard. It didn’t fit into my concept of the “real world” and I saw no reason to
consider it. I simply could not imagine how some man in Britain could so
“something” over there that would effect a change in someone over here! It sounded preposterous to me.

The concept still sounded far-fetched to me in 1971, however
something was significantly different about me by 1971. I was desperate and I
had been humbled. Physical suffering shook my confidence to the very core of my
being. I was no longer the girl who thought she knew so much about everything
and while I didn’t believe in spiritual healing or miracles, I began to open my
mind to the possibility of them because I needed one desperately. It became very obvious that I had
nothing to lose.

Forty-eight hours after my father hand-delivered my letter
to Mr. Edwards, I had so much energy I was flying. There was no doubt in my
mind that something was happening. I could not believe the feeling of energy
that everywhere pervaded my body, and for a young woman who had been sick for
four years, this was a new and wonderful feeling. I was not only energized
physically but I was also uplifted emotionally, as if imbued with a new, strong
sense of optimism! Within weeks my blood tests showed dramatic improvement.
Over the next six-month period my physical health was restored and my spiritual
journey began.

The Journey---How Did It
Happen?

The first thing I wanted to know was how did this “healing”
take place? I was still puzzled as to how Harry Edwards could have helped me
with us separated by the Atlantic Ocean!

Fortunately we live in a day and age where books and
recordings are readily available and so I began my spiritual studies by delving
into books written by Harry Edwards himself. I was surprised to learn that Mr.
Edwards only credited himself with a small part of the healing, that of being
the messenger. He credited the greater part of the healing to spirits, who he
referred to as “spirit doctors.” According to Harry, it was these spirits who
were responsible for carrying out the healing. This was surprising news to me,
since I wasn’t sure I believed in spirits. None-the-less, I could not dismiss the
experience of energy that seemed to come to me from nowhere to turn my life
around for the better!

Harry wrote that time and space, as we know them, do not
exist in the spirit realm which makes it possible for a spirit to be any where
in no time. This explained how the healing could have reached me
“trans-Atlantically.” And because my healing experience had demonstrated to me
the presence of unseen energy, I could now imagine that within this unseen
energy there could be a world of spirit. I could think of no other explanation
for the healing that had taken place in my body, nor did I have any reason to
mistrust this gentle man who had done more for me than all the kings horses and
all the kings men and we had some pretty top horses and men in our camp!

Something Did Happen, But What Does It Mean?

My eyes were now open to endless possibilities. If spiritual
healing energy directed from spirit beings was a true phenomenon, then it meant
that death was not an end but a continuation into spirit. What a relief to think
that we are not just erased from the universe at the point of our physical
death and that there is a plan that extends beyond physical experience. What a
phenomenal perspective, to consider that there is a bigger picture.

Mr. Edwards also explained how the phenomenon of spiritual
healing demonstrates another truth: that we are all spirit now while still in
our physical bodies. Mr. Edwards explained that in order for an energy
transmission to take place, there must be a common receptor between that which
is transmitted and that which is received. For example, when radio waves are
transmitted from a radio station, those waves must be “picked up” by a receiver
that is compatible to those waves in order for them to be received and
interpreted. In the same way, in order for me to be able to respond to energies
directly to me from spirit, I had to have a common spiritual component within
myself capable of receiving the spiritual transmission. According to Mr.
Edwards, if I did not have a spiritual component inside of me, capable of
receiving the spiritual energy directed to me from spirit, the healing could
not have taken place.

According to Mr. Edwards, demonstrating the truth of our true
nature in spirit is actually the greater purpose behind spiritual healing. His
hope was that humankind would come to understand their spiritual nature and
stop fearing death as they do. This realization would allow them to live their
lives in greater peace. The unfortunate truth, however, is that the
effectiveness of spiritual healing is not recognized and accepted in most
mainstream arenas. Although Mr. Edwards presented over 10,000 case histories of
amazing spiritual healings similar to my own, to demonstrate the validity of
spiritual healing to both medical and religious authorities, the evidence was
dismissed as inconclusive. I, being one of the fortunate recipients of this
healing energy, know it is very conclusive and long lasting as well.

Now That I Accept the Phenomenon of an Unseen World, What Do
I Do With That?

Naturally I wanted to know more, sense more, see, feel and
experience more of this spiritual reality. I looked everywhere for the presence
of spirits, however to this day I have never seen an apparition. Eventually my
exploration of spiritualism brought me to the subject of mediumship and I was
riveted. The idea that a spirit could easily communicate with certain people and in some cases even speak
through them just thrilled me. The first book that I read on the subject of
mediumship was written by Harry Edwards. It centered around the development of
his friend Jack Webber’s mediumistic gifts.

The first mediums I read about were all British, however
after years of reading about mediums I developed a great longing on to be in
the actual presence of an authentic medium. When I found my way into Jane
Roberts’s ESP classes in upstate New York, the medium who spoke for an entity
named Seth, I was both intrigued and frightened. This personality, who called
himself Seth, came right through Jane and spoke directly to the students every
week. Jane’s mannerisms changed
when Seth came through, from the sound and accent of her voice, to the intense
look in her eyes. When Seth took over, it was obvious! Jane was a small woman
with a typically female voice. Seth was boisterous and outspoken, direct and
exacting, with a loud and booming masculine voice. At first, I found Seth very intimidating. In time I came to
see both the jovial and loving sides of this being who claimed to be a spirit,
separate from Jane, speaking to us through her.

As time went on, experiencing this week after week, I became
more convinced of the validity of a spirit realm that exists within, or close
to, our own, but on a different vibratory level. Jane stopped holding her
classes, but because of my continued interest, I went for readings with both
psychics and mediums whenever I had the opportunity. It wasn’t until 1999
however, in a private session with medium Glenn Dove, that I came to understand
that my father and Harry Edwards, who had both crossed over in 1976, were still
very close to me. They knew about my life down to the last detail and they even
knew each other. It was a revelation to me to realize that they could meet up
over there and that they were still very concerned with my life!

That’s when I began to realize that those who have passed on
are not far away and that they are very much themselves, as we knew them. My
father still had a fatherly love for me and was still a part of my life. Harry
Edwards was continuing his work from the spirit side and was still looking out
for my health. This was such an amazing comfort to acknowledge.

As my confidence was growing in the validity of spirit, I
became more involved with bereavement, talking to groups and individuals about
the continuation of the soul. Glenn and I had started working on a book
together and so my opportunities to sit with him increased, and with each
sitting, my belief in the presence of spirit grew stronger.

As you can see, by the time Danny passed in July of 2008, I
was already well connected with beings on the other side. Since 1999 I had
counted on regular meetings with my father and Harry Edwards. It is only
natural that Danny would become a regular member of this spiritual entourage
and that’s exactly what he did. One week after he passed he came to my session
with Glenn Dove and he has been the most avid communicator of all. It’s a great
comfort and I’m so grateful because to me, connecting up is the only real
solace.

Since Dan has passed I have been able to hear thoughts and
receive ideas that I believe are influenced by him. I would have thought that
these thoughts were merely a product of an overactive imagination however, the
same ideas have been confirmed, time and again, through reputable mediums! You
can do this too, because your child is as close to you as Danny is to me.
Sometimes one session with a good medium like Glenn Dove is all that you need
to get the confidence to believe.

We all want to believe that our children have gone on into
spirit and that they are doing well, but we don’t want to be duped or to
believe something just because someone says it’s so. But after a session with a
gifted, true medium it is hard to deny the validity of the unique personality
that was your loved one, coming through. Danny is so Danny I’d have to be in
denial to say it’s not him. You really need to have the experience for yourself
but I will tell you this: It’s not random. It’s not a guessing game. It’s
direct and clear and makes sense, or the medium is not a true medium. Our
children know what we need to hear to be able to accept that they are truly
themselves and they go out of their way to demonstrate this through what they
talk about and bring to our attention. In time it becomes obvious that there is
no other reasonable explanation for what you are hearing except that they exist
and that they are themselves!

Okay, that doesn’t bring them back here, but it is far
better than having no contact at all!

In a session with the medium Hoyt Robinette I asked Danny if
he had a message for the other parents who had lost children and he said, “I’m
going to give you words to say to those people.“ He says, “You know there are
some people who are devastated and I want you to be able to give them the right
words…the right encouragement. We are here. We are as close as your breath. But
I want those people to understand that. We haven’t been removed and taken away
and torn out of their heart. We’ve been torn out of their sight, out of their
grip, but we have not been torn out of their heart, nor is our spirit removed
from theirs. We’re as close now as we were before. “

That’s hard to believe, I know, but I believe that they are
a lot closer than you may presently realize, and that we can still have a
relationship with them. It’s not the same, it’s more or less like long distance
phone calls and learning the Braille System but it’s so much more rewarding
than no relationship at all. I hope in this book to open your mind to the
possibility of connecting up with your child through whatever means becomes
available to you. I truly believe it is what your child wants as well!