I am so sorry that you are going through this. What happened in the past is just that and has nothing to do with what is going on now. Please don't feel guilty for something that is not your fault. My thoughts and prayers are with you

How many weeks along were you? When was the last time you went to the DR? I thought you were quite a bit further than 13 weeks(since you were about 4 weeks ahead of me and I'm 12 now)... I'm wondering if the Dr couldn't have caught something earlier...depending on how long ago you went to the Dr.

I'm sorry for your loss.
I don't think your past decisions had anything do with your losses.
My mom has had about 2-3 abortions, 1 D&C and one stillbirth. And she still went on to have kids!
If you doc said that the baby wasn't developed properly, then it was a chromosonal thing...NOT you or what happened in the past!

I hope you feel better soon! Take some time for yourself, and let yourself greive. Major hugs for ya!!!