Although I'm not good enough a writer to actually be at stake as an author, I feel that I have to express what I feel are points about life, and which I can't (at least not easily enough)write with good quality. I apologize for that :-( ... and hope people can enjoy these stories anyway.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Aspiring for a Good and Solid Partner for a Relationship

Looking at her boyfriend Stanley, Nina
knew that she seemed to fit into the picture of what he wanted. Even
so, she felt that he wanted to humiliate her. He, on his side,
seemed, she thought, content in pretending that she never crossed his
mind as anything but a sex object that was there for his lusts alone,
and not for the sake of a family.

Nina was not pregnant. Nor had she been
into pregnancy as what she should have with this dude. Still she
wished he would aspire to build a family-like structure with her. He,
meanwhile, seemed to aspire for her to be seemingly the kind of woman
that never would suit a man who would try to build a family. Thereby,
Nina could not feel that he shouldn't be put down, from his pedestal
of seeming loyal to her and what she had conceived him and herself
as.

Thinking about this, Nina tightened her
shirt by expanding her chest, and thus ascending her breasts. She
intended to disturb her boyfriends capability to ignore her, for the
sake of seeming guilty enough to him for being the kinda temptation
that he could feel a need for. She looked at him and even ascended
her breasts as much as she was able to.

He looked at it. “It seems to me,”
he said rather obnoxiously, “that you'll be trying to seduce me
into finding your irresponsible attitude to be a small thing compared
to that I can enjoy them tits of yours! But I'm not gonna fall for
that now!”

“How come, then,” Nina asked him,
“don't you feel like kissing me and say to me that I need to enjoy
our relationship?” When saying it she emphasized her lips in a way
that she supposed would seduce his mind at least a little bit more
into being horny instead of angry with her.

He seemed to ignore her lips, and to
her disappointment, he didn't seem even to think about sex as a
possibility. To some extent he even seemed to be into seeing her as
an ex whom he needed to ignore - perhaps in order to find himself
attractive enough for the next woman to have. “I,” he said
solemnly, “feel that you and I should not try to pretend this is
going somewhere!”

“What do you mean?” She wondered if
he thereby intended to end their relationship.

“I mean this quarrel isn't leading
anywhere!”

Sighing with relief Nina looked at him
and felt that she was superior. He was the one to be dumb enough to
expect the quarrel to be all there is to it! Now, perhaps, she could
seem to him to be into having the relationship continue, while at the
same time exposing herself before other fellows.

She smiled smugly at him, and thought
about her own body as the asset she would have for getting herself a
new guy. She moved, however, a bit slowly towards him, in order to
finally caress him. When she did, he seemed, she thought, to fall for
it. But in order to make certain, she felt she needed to seduce him
more thoroughly, and thereby she exposed her chest and the tits on it
for him to see as though they were only there for him. “I love
you!” she lied, because now she had decided not to love this fellow
anymore, but just to seduce him, and make him happy for a while.

He looked at it. He began, then, to
fondle her breasts. She thereby moaned, as if still excited by that
it was he who did it. But, this time, her actual excitement sprung
from that she figured this would expose her as a possibility for
other partners as well. In order to keep him from seducing her back,
she set her mind about him very much as the trivial man who thought
he was a seducer. Thereby, she felt she could continue to think about
other fellows, and perhaps she could have herself think about another
girl instead of him, as well. Because doing so would reduce his
capacity to see an actual betrayal in her, she figured, because she
knew he was into viewing lesbian seduction as innocent compared to
straight seduction.

But thinking about this, she realized
that he could, quite possibly, soon be doing the same to her, if he
found out what was on her mind. It seemed to her as a coincidence
that she and not he was the one to seduce the other into not
realizing that there could be a betrayal, soon, of the trust they had
between them.

To him, however, it seemed that she was
trivializing their behavior and attitudes towards each other, those
that exposed their incapacity to stay together about having a
relationship. Thereby he sort of didn't mind that she exposed herself
as if for other fellows as well. In that he felt that way, he
immediately repressed the thought of her as doing it for that sake.
But this repression was the pitfall that would eventually make him
seem inferior to her and her coming partners. ...