Disclaimers: *Sees a picture of Spike and hugs it before
continuing* I love Cowboy Bebop, I love Spike Spiegel, and I also love Avril
Lavigne's song "Losing Grip." If I owned either one, I wouldn't be a poor girl
that saves up every penny to buy Inu-Yasha and Cowboy Bebop Manga.

Pre-story Authoress' Notes: This is my first li'l
song-fic. Losing Grip is possibly my favorite song by Avril Lavigne at the
moment. This is suppose to occur when Spike leaves to go and fight Vicious at
the end of the series. I changed some spots in it, added a li'l this, took out
a li'l that, and even though they're suppose to be quotes, I didn't do a very
good job on getting the exact words. Sorry o.o''' I haven't seen the last ep.
for a while now.

'Sure, I
wasn't sweet and kind and beautiful, but I've never betrayed him. Ever! Ok… so
I did run out a few times with all of the ship's money, but… I always
came back! I've never left him for good. I wouldn't… I would never betray him!
Like… he did me…'

I was left to cry
there,

Waiting outside
there,

Grinning with a
lost stare.

That's when I
decided…

'Well
that's it! I don't care anymore. I don't care! He can die for all I care. The
stupid lunk-head can just go away—get out of my life—and never come back for
all I care! He's never cared about me. Only his precious Julia. That idiot
lunk-head,' thought Faye scornfully. Tears cascaded down her face like
miniature waterfalls. "Leave! See if I care!" she screamed at his back.

Why should I care?

Cause you weren't
there,

When I was scared,

I was so alone.

"You told me once to forget the
past because it doesn't matter, but you're the one that's still tied to the
past, Spike Spiegel! Can't you just forget about her? She's dead and there's
nothing you can do for her now anyways! She's just a memory now!"

You, you need to
listen

I'm startin' to
trip,

I'm losing my
grip,

And I'm in this
thing alone.

Spike
continued walking away from her without saying a word, as if he didn't hear her
shouting at him at all. "I… I got my memory back…" he heard Faye say quietly
and stopped for a second. "But nothing good came out of it," Faye continued. "I
have nowhere to go now. I thought I finally found a place where I
belong—here—and now you're leaving, just like that," he heard her say, her
voice wavering.

Am I just some
chic

You place beside
you

To take somebody's
place?

When you turn
around

Can you recognize
my face?

Spike
resumed his previous task of walking away. 'Walking away from the only person
that I love on this ship.' Behind him, he heard a few gunshots ring as they
hitting the ceiling of the Bebop. 'Jet's sure gonna get her for this one,' he
thought as an effort to stop himself from running back to Faye and holding her
forever in his arms.

You used to love
me,

You use to hug me,

But that wasn't
the case.

Everything wasn't
ok.

I was left to cry
there,

Waiting outside
there,

Grinning with a
lost stare.

That's when I
decided…

Why should I care?

'Why do I
care about him so much?' Faye asked herself after she shot the bullets. 'He's
just a stupid jerk that cares nothing about himself and nothing about anyone
else around him. He's so friggin' hung up on his "beautiful Angel". He's never
cared about me before and he never will. Get over it, Valentine!' she thought
to herself firmly. 'He's just a stupid lunk-head.'

Cause you weren't
there,

When I was scared,

I was so alone.

'Then why
do I care about him so much? Why… who do I love him?'

You, you need to
listen,

I'm starting to
trip,

I'm losing my
grip,

And I'm in this
thing alone.

Crying out loud,

I'm crying out
loud.

Crying out loud,

I'm crying out
loud.

Open your eyes.

Open up wide.

'I'm sorry
Faye,' thought Spike with remorse. 'I love you and I'm doing this for you.
Please understand… If I don't kill Vicious now, he'll kill you next just like
he killed Julia…'

Why should I care?

Cause you weren't
there,

When I was scared,

I was so alone.

Why should I care?

Cause you weren't
there,

When I was scared,

I was so alone.

Why should I care?

If you don't care,

Then I don't care,

We're not going
anywhere.

Why should I care?

Cause you weren't
there,

When I was scared,

I was so alone.

Why should I care?

'I love
you, Faye Valentine. You'll never know, but I love you…'

If you don't care,

Then I don't care,

We're not going
anywhere.

'I love
you, you stupid lunk-head. I don't know why, but I love you and you'll never know…'

Authoress' Notes: So what did you think of my first
song-fic? Was it ok? Was it totally horrible? Was it somewhere in between?
Reviews are my second best friends when I'm on the Internet and you wouldn't
want me to have only one friend, would you? *Hint hint*