Thursday, August 13, 2009

Last class for this week. Tutorial registration was pretty good, numbering system :). This is the last week I can relax and get stuff done since there's only lectures this week. Gonna need to have proper schedules by next week, and really stick to the resolutions not to think so much anymore, and make the best what I can. Parents have really given me every single thing I have ever needed and built my character to the best they can. I've to maintain results to keep my JPA going, and looking at all this, it really gives me motivation to do my best. Not going to be stressed up anymore this sem, just gonna do the best, and trust in God :). Cuz really, there's no point in pushing so hard getting worried and stressed about things, makes no difference, actually aggravates the situataion. I'm not going to worry about relationship issues, just mix around with people I can get along with. Last time I used to be open to new people, but as time went by, I've learnt not be so naive, simply helping people before knowing them much.which had caused myself so much hurt last time =.= so yeah now, first impression I might seem a bit unfriendly sometimes LOL I'm not going to worry about boyfriend issues anymore, I know none of these materialized before this, I knew it wasnt going to work, so before anything i just stop there..well i guess everyone moves on, I know this thing can't be forced, so Im just gonna let it be, tho yes this made me worry so much. Funny thing is now for people i seem to like i tend to be hostile and try to avoid, which makes it head nowhere. really trying to overcome this problem, seriously..been praying about it that I'll learn not to be so self-conscious (seems so easy in words, but for me i guess it'll take time). From now on, I'm just going to be myself in any situation, don't simply get angry (makes things worse) exercise self control and never regretting anyting (useless alr), will say out whatever needed, not be afraid of how things will turn out, not be afraid of rejection, try to be more discerning, dont take any comments/criticism personal, try to improve myself and be thankful for all I have and what God has given me ;)