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white wolfe remembers where he has and has not been....you understand not...his message is one of love... That is not what I meant. That is not what I meant

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white wolfe remembers where he has and has not
been....you understand not...his message is one of love...

"That is not what I meant.
That is not what I meant at all."

-T.S.
Elliot

^^~~~~

further up and further in,

white wolfe

What is Endless is Love

"Forget. Surrender.
Love."
-Omkara

white wolfe sits alone in the snowy
darkness

humbly sitting in drifting white snowhis open ears
hearing the cosmic windhis golden eyes burning the silver moonhis
sensitive nose touching the starshis wild voice and song in harmonywith
all that is within and that is beyond...

humility is the beginning
of surrender, surrender is the beginning of
love, love is the beginning of
compassion compasssion
endures
that which endures goes
far
that which goes far
returns
that which returns has no
end
that which has no end is
endless
compassion is endless therefore, humility is endless,
therefore, surrender is endless therefore, love itself is
endless therefore the lover is
endless therefore the beloved is
endless

Therefore, the lover and beloved are onei who am
sometimes called Mark am endlessi who recognize myself as white wolfe am
free.

I am the Lover in love with the
Beloved.I am the white wolfe in love with the moon.

with all
that is within and that is beyondhis wild voice and song in harmonyhis
sensitive nose touching the starshis golden eyes burning the silver
moonhis open ears hearing the cosmic windhumbly sitting in drifting
white snow

white wolfe calls silently to you and me alwaysto
follow, follow him into and beyond the drifting Moon.

Speaking of "Who am I," there's a funny story told by a
teacher who spentlots of time with Papaji (Poonjaji). It's related to
a spiritual conditionsuffered by some seekers called "The Lucknow Disease,"
named after the cityin which Papaji taught.

In Papaji's teachings for
this group of seekers in the early 90's, it was abig part of their inquiry
to ask "Who Am I" at all possible junctures.According to this teacher, who
was in the middle of it all and saw/heardlots of funny stuff, here's how it
happened:

Any time someone would even casually say, "I'm hungry," or "I
have to go tothe loo," another earnest seeker would ask like the spiritual
police,"Who's hungry?" "Who has to go to the loo?" So there
developed a way ofspeaking that would avoid using the pronoun "I," which
would supposedlyindicate the gradual effacement of the ego or
"I-thought." It got to thepoint that people would say stuff like "This
form is tired," or "There ishunger arising." This avoidance of the "I"
word, in order to display one'sunderstanding, is the Lucknow
Disease.

One time there were these two seekers hanging around Papaji's
house, theywere friends, I'll call them Bill and Prem. Bill was newer
to the non-dualperspective than Prem, who was quite a devotee, already had
his spiritualname. One day they were waiting for the satsang, which
would start a bitlater. Bill offered the Prem a drink, "Would you like
coffee or tea?"Prem, who was pretty deep into the Teaching, replied,
"There's no one hereto choose." Later, when the satsang was about to
start, Prem was sittingin another room. Bill went in to warn Prem that
another person hadoccupied his cushion, which had been parked waiting right
up in front byPapaji's chair. Prem, before he caught himself,
blurted out, "That nogood #%@&#@ so-and-so, I'll get the @#$%
#*@!$$&# !!!"

Regards!

--Greg

Thanks for the humor
Greg. The former presidential candidate Bob Dole oftenaddressed himself in
the third person in speeches. He probably got theadvaita vedanta vote but it
was not enough to get him into the office. Whichis too bad. We need a leader
who understands that there is no one home, andthat indeed there is a missing
"me" which can only be referencedconceptually but not actually caught. Of
course we did not fare badly withour last President who is a scholar and a
gentleman. President Clintonput his finger on the fundamental existential
issue, when he sincerely toldthe grand jury, everything depends on what the
definition of "is" is. :-).

Harsha

JERRY

Very interesting and funny, guys. I'm of the school of thought that answers
Who am I? with: I AM Jerry Katz. I AM a friend, a brother, son.
I AM an office worker. I AM a resident of Halifax. I AM a member of
Jumbo Video and NDS. I AM a college graduate. That is who I AM.

And if someone tells me I need to look into I AM itself, I can answer, How
is Jumbo Video different than I AM?

I AM this. I AM that. I AM I AM. I AM.

I AM (fill the blank)

I AM the universe. I AM a member of Jumbo Video. I AM. What's the
difference in these declarations? I am free to say what I want. Everything feels
like I AM. No Master can tell me. No teaching can teach me.

(unless i get married again...)

jerry

GENE POOLE

NDS

Aspirant: Master, I am plagued by apathy.

Mahara:
Apathy? Who cares?

Aspirant: You mean, nobody cares?

Mahara:
Precisely.

Aspirant: But I care.

Mahara: And who are
you?

Aspirant: I am nobody, Master.

Mahara:
Precisely.

Aspirant: I see what you mean.

Mahara: Do
you?

Aspirant: I am nobody, and I care.

Mahara: And of what
do you care?

Aspirant: That I am nobody!

Mahara: Precisely. So,
what is apathy, in this case?

Aspirant: Apathy is, in this case, my fear
that I am nobody.

Mahara: Why do you fear being nobody?

Aspirant:
Because I want to be somebody.

Mahara: If you were somebody, who would
you be?

Aspirant: I don't know.

Mahara: So then, is it true, that
you want to be something, that you don't know?

Aspirant: I guess
so.

Mahara: What direction will you go, to find this unknown thing, this
somebody?

Aspirant: (long pause) I don't know.

Mahara: Does
anybody know?

Aspirant: Somebody must know.

Mahara: Is that why
you want to be somebody? So you will know where to go, to become
somebody?

Aspirant: But if I was somebody, I would not need to go
anywhere. I would know.

Mahara: How do you know?

Aspirant: That's
right. I think I know that I don't know, and I feel I need to know. So I set
myself aside, to become what I am not. But I am still what I am, even when I
do that.

Mahara: Precisely.

Aspirant: Master, how do I get tied in
these knots? It is painful.

Mahara: Desire.

Aspirant: But master,
is it not good, to desire pure spiritual awareness?

Mahara: You are
correct, it is not good.

Aspirant: But wait...
(pause)

Mahara: Yes?

Aspirant: I was doing it again, wasn't
I?

Mahara: Yes.

Aspirant: Why do I do that?

Mahara: You are
doing it now, again.

Aspirant: I am? Now?

Mahara: Yes, now, as you
ask.

Aspirant: Is it wrong to ask?

Mahara: (silent,
smiles)

Aspirant: I must be completely insane! I am trapped in this utter
ridiculousness!

Mahara: Precisely!

Aspirant: What is going on?
Is everybody insane?

Mahara: Yes, everyone is insane.

Aspirant:
Even you, master?

Mahara: Especially me, I am the worst of all. But there
is one difference.

Aspirant: One difference, between you and I, and the
others?

Mahara: Yes.

Aspirant: What is the
difference?

Mahara: I am not trapped.

Aspirant: Trapped? In
what?

Mahara: As you said, utter ridiculousness.

Aspirant: Why are
you not trapped, like everyone else?

Mahara: I am not trapped, because I
do not try to leave.

Aspirant: (pause) You are saying, that it is the
attempt to leave, which leads to frustration, and feelings of
dissatisfaction.

Mahara: Precisely. Further, it is the feeling of
dissatisfaction, which is what one is actually trying to leave, to be away
from. This feeling of not being good enough, or right, or
'somebody'.

Aspirant: I see. Yes.

Mahara: Now, after all this has
been said, what of apathy?

Aspirant: Apathy is the fear that I will try
and fail, and will not be able to escape the trap of utter ridiculousness.
So I paralyze myself, and call it apathy. But it really is a kind of
willing, I see.

Mahara: Yes, that is it, precisely.

Aspirant: I am
apathetic, because I am not angry or cheerful, or anything. It is a kind of
blank state, but unpleasant, all the same.

Mahara: Yes, and it is not
laziness.

Aspirant: But it could lead to laziness, I
suppose...

Mahara: That is another story. Now it is time to become nobody
and go nowhere.

"Nonduality
Salon: This mystically worded website is concerned with the idea that we
should see the universe as a whole, rather than chopped up into little bits.
This particularly applies to the "division" between self and universe. The
language is interesting in itself - it's very hard to discuss this kind of
thing in language evolved by M0 societies."

JERRY

Through Nonduality Salon - CI, Community Initiative, we've received
letters from people in Jakarta, Orange County California, Seattle, San
Francisco, Atlanta, Dallas, Cambridge, Mass. These are people who want to
meet other nondual types in their area. Some of you are on the list and have
written already to the list about this. Can anyone help? Maybe Christiana
knows about the SF area.

Does anyone else want to get on the list of
meeting people in your area? Write me publicly or privately.