10/11/97 - Cognizant of Cognizance.
It is 4AM as I write this. I do not really
mind, of course, since it's nice being one of
the few in the country to be awake right now.
I like to study late, so read another huge
chunk of Stoker's _Dracula_ and studied for
my classes a bit. Yeah, on a Saturday. Hey,
boys grow up into men sometime, no? Tomorrow
is Latin day. "Dixit te in Italiam esse"
THIS, baby.
But also, when I stay up late, I get lonely.
I miss MY Anna. I crave MY Anna. Not many
couples understand the intense disharmony
the absence of a lover creates in a true
heart. I think to myself that at least
we are not fated to something so severe as
that faced by couples created by Shakespeare's
fancy, but I also think about how those less
deserving never think twice about being
allowed to be together all the time. They
don't even consider it. If only they were
separated by the oceans as well! Then they
would understand!
A large part of what I love about Anna, and
indeed what I first loved her for, is her
keen mind. She has a ravenous appetite for
learning languages and her skills at picking
up different languages astounds me. She gets
such wonderful grades in all her classes and
her curiosity in many different areas,
particularly those of the liberal arts is
a comfort to me. Why?
Because I think I would have trouble loving
a woman who did not have that natural
ambition and curiosity to learn. I would
not respect her as much and could not say
so many things to her without actually saying
them. But Anna...O, how perfect she is for
me! Her disciplined, mature work habit
makes me respect her for her brilliance and
dedication, makes me love her for her
loyalty and affection, and lust her for her
ambitious, concentrated efficiency.
Every aspect of you, Anna, complements every
aspect of me perfectly. I indeed do love
you entirely and my heart does not waver
in the degree of affection I have for you --
if anything, it only grows, as the number
of days we've been together grows as well.
"A sound mind in a sound body, is
a short but full description of
a happy state in this world."
-John Locke
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