Moved On... Almost!

Summary:
This story starts in ch.18 from New Moon. What if the phone didn't interrupet Jacob and Bella? what if they did kiss? What would happen next? would Edward ever come back? What happens when Bella and Jacob become more friends? Who will she choose? A new Ch is up!!! Ch. 24- What is the next step before Bella is changed? What is Bella's request?I HAVE EDITED THE FIRST FOURTEEN CH. SO IF YOU COME AND READ THEM, THEY ARE MUCH, MUCH BETTER!!! ESPECIALLY CH.4 - THEY ARE NOT PERFECT, BUT SO MUCH BETTER ! THANKS!

Notes:
This takes place right after Bella thought Jacob had left. (In my version Jacob had tried to kiss Bella earlier, after she jumped off the cliff.)

3. Picnic on the Beach

I woke up earlier than usual. The sun was just rising, sending bright beams down on the grass, making the drops dew sparkle.

Charlie was just leaving for work. Alice pretended to just wake up from the couch crowed with blankets. She told him sadly that she would see him in a week, no later. She supposedly woke me up to tell me goodbye too.

I explained groggily to Charlie that I was going to La Push to see Jake and wasn’t sure when I would be back. He as usual, had no problem what so ever that I was going to see Jake and said that he would order pizza tonight.

After he left, Alice told me that it was time for her to go too. She gave me a peck on the cheek then disappeared, a light cool breeze blowing past my face.

She left me her cell number just in case. I sighed I was now alone, but not for long.

I hurried upstairs to take a shower, as Jake had requested. I didn’t feel like breakfast today, so I just shoved down a granola bar and tossed down some milk with it. I was nervous to see Jacob for once. I didn’t know what to expect today.

I drove in my noisy, red truck thinking about yesterday and what would happen today. All I knew is that it was going to be good, because the sun was out and that was like good luck to me.

By the time I pulled up to the house and shut off the engine, Jacob was already outside my door. He opened my door for me and when I stepped out he grabbed me and kissed me, but the way his lips moved against mine, they still seemed guarded and hesitant.

“Hi” he sighed then a huge smile spread across his face.

“Hi” I smiled back. He pulled me inside, onto the couch. We curled up close together, my head on his chest, his arm around my waist, and our hands intertwined.

He turned on the TV and we sat in silence. Each one waiting for the other to say something first. I decided that to break it first. “So where is Billy?”

“He went to help Harry’s family out for the day.”

“Oh… well that’s nice of him.” There was another awkward silence and all was heard was the muffle of the TV playing.

“So where is your blo- friend?” he asked breaking the silence this time, which I was grateful for.

“Alice left… but she’ll be back in a week. She’ll stay for a couple of days then leave again. She’ll be back every two weeks to check on me and stay for a few days. You don’t mind do you?”

“Not too much, as long as I’m with you most of the time. Just warn be before she comes… so I’m not there.”

“I will thank you for understanding.”

I squeezed his hand and looked up into his eyes. I saw two things mixed into his sparkling eyes, love and happiness. I couldn’t resist leaning in to close the distance between us. It was like some magnetized force that brought me to him, and it was almost impossible to oppose.

We must have kissed for while because when we pulled away, we were panting heavily, trying to catch our breath.

I couldn’t help but not let my mind wander to Edward. How I was the one always breathing heavily and how he also had to pull away. But with Jacob we could do things that Edward and I never could. I could kiss Jacob without being worried about his sharp, venom coated teeth being so close to my throat or him losing control. I could wrap my arms round his neck without him pulling back. But I reacted different when I kissed Jacob, like I didn’t faint while kissing him or attack him, trying unsuccessfully to get closer to him.

Even though I never held any of that against him, it didn’t change the way I could kiss Jacob or interact with him in ways I couldn’t with Edward. I didn’t have to be so protected and cautious with every movement I made. It felt… good to be free from that barrier for once.

We both sat there locked in our own thoughts. His abrupt voice startled me and the muscles in my stomach tightened for a brief second. “So…”

“So… What are we doing today?”

“Well… I had a few ideas.” He spoke shyly.

“And what would those ideas be?”

“Well we could stay here and watch TV and do more of that.” He grinned, but continued. “Or we could go to first beach and have a picnic?”

“How about… number two, which sounds like fun, not that the other one doesn’t.”

“Ok, are you ready to go now?”

“Sure!” I replied enthusiastically. I hadn’t been on a picnic since I was five and I had gone fishing with Charlie in Seattle.

“Ok let me go get the stuff from the kitchen. I have been planning this ever since we had our little fight that morning after you jumped off the cliff. I had planned on bringing you to the beach and having a picnic. Then I would ask you to forgive me. It seemed like a flawless plan then.”

He picked me up by my waist and set me down on my feet, pulling me closer to his chest. “Although yesterday worked much better,” I giggled at that. He wrapped his arms around me. “Much, much better,” and leaned his forehead against mine.

We went into the kitchen and I helped him carry out all the supplies for the picnic to his Volkswagen.

He drove one handed, holding my hand on the seat, occasionally kissing it. He would watch my long, brown hair flutter around from the open window. He was at total ease. His usual “Sam controlled face” was gone and replaced with the happy, young, and peaceful Jacob I knew.

When we got to the beach, we walked to the spot where he had first told me those stories, the ones that had started it all. The ones that I believed to have started my life, officially. Without knowing them, I may have never knew what Edward was, we would have never fell in love, then he would have never left, so I wouldn’t be here with Jacob. It was a tangled web.

I watched as he prepared everything, trying desperately not to think about that and him. I insisted that I should help, but he would not let me. I decided to walk down to the water. I stepped in so it went as high as my knees, where I had rolled up my torn jeans.

I wasn’t sure how long I had been in, but I heard Jacob splashing through the water to me. He picked me up and carried me back to the now prepared spot. He didn’t seem to mind that I was getting his shirt wet from my dripping feet. He sat me gently down on the plaid, fleece blanket.

His warm arms wrapped around me keep me plenty warm in the crisp, ocean air. Who need a blanket or a jacket when I had my own personal sun or space heater?

He sat down next to me and we both listened to the ocean. We had both ended up lying down. My head rested on his chest and his arm around my waist. After what seemed like hours he asked me if I was hungry.

My stomach answered for me as it let out a growl even Jacob could hear. He broke into the well- prepared basket, taking large amounts of food. Including, two turkey and cheese sandwiches, bags of chips, brownies, lemonade, and he got me an edible chocolate rose.

When we were both done eating the filling lunch he packed himself, we held hands and walked down the beach, dipping our feet in the water once in a while.

We must have walked for miles, because my feet begun to get tried, so Jacob picked me up and carried me back on his back. I clung to his neck and my legs wrapped around his waist.

When we arrived back on our spot, he threw me down on the blanket and began tickling me. I quickly lost my breath and began gasping for air as he tickled my sides back and forth.

His hands finally ceased their quick movements and I gasped for air, while still giggling lightly. I felt so… human.

He had me pinned beneath him. Our face were only an inch away from each other. Jacob quickly closed that space between us and kissed me deeply. I completely lost whatever train of thought I had and wrapped my arms securely around his neck, pulling him closer to me.

I was glad it seemed that we had the beach for ourselves, because I really didn’t want to have someone else around when we were kissing. That’s when it occurred to me. I should tell him that Edward called yesterday. He deserved the right to know, didn’t he?

I would want to know if one of his ex- girlfriends called. Although, I was pretty sure Jacob had no ex- lovers or at least not that I was aware of.

I didn’t want to keep anything from him. He noticed that I was not responding; involved in my own thoughts. He pulled away, his eyes filled with worry.

“What’s wrong?”

“Jake I don’t want to keep anything from you, so I have to tell you what happened yesterday, beside the obvious,” now he looked even more worried.

“I don’t want to keep anything form you either,” He whispered soothingly in my ear.

“Good, promise me you won’t be mad.”

“I promise to try to not be mad.”

“Jake, please!”

“Fine, I promise.”

I took a deep breath and I began playing with the sand in front of me. My fingers making random patterns in the damp sand. I avoided his eyes, not able to see the possible pain in them.

“Ok, thank you. Ok… yesterday after you left… Ed-Edward called. He didn’t even say a word to me. But Alice was there and she made him talk to her. I don’t what he said to her, because she wouldn’t tell me. I just wanted you to know, no secrets.” I braced myself for his fury or his calmness. I didn’t know what to expect. I peeked up at him; it wasn’t good, he was definitely mad.

He shaking slightly, but he looked furious and at the same time, sad. He said nothing; his lips were mashed tightly together.

“Jacob, calm down. I swear I didn’t even talk to him!” he began shaking his head.

“You don’t believe me do you? You think I’m lying to you!” He just sat there, not moving a muscle; expect his hands still shaking slightly.

“I’m going to let you think, I’m going down to the water.” I got up slowly, but once up, started running as fast as I could to the water and out of the view of Jacob. I started crying, when I hit the water. The cool water made me shake even more. The shivers shoot through my body as I tried to hold them back.

Why did I say anything, this should have been one thing I should have kept from him. Now he was mad at me and probably going to leave me, because he thought Edward was coming back and we were going to get back together. At that thought I cried even harder. Edward wasn’t coming back, I knew that, but Jacob didn’t.

My knees buckled and I fell into the ice cold water. The waves were coming up farther in-land and hitting me down further. My clothes were now almost completely soaked.

I felt warm hands pulling me up on my feet and wrap themselves around my waist. Jacob pulled me to his chest and rubbed soothing circles on my back. He bent down and gave me a very brief peck on the lips.

I kissed him back, although I was a bit confused. He stopped my tears. Maybe I was wrong, maybe he wouldn’t leave me. Maybe he didn’t believe that Edward was coming back.

He swung me up in his arms effortlessly and started carrying me back up to our spot. He had cleaned up, all that was left was the blanket spread across the ground. He pulled out a clean towel and wrapped it around me, still holding me in his arms.

Between the soft blanket and his burning arms around me I was definitely warm now. He leaned in and kissed my temple.

I was guessing he wasn’t mad anymore. He seemed to answer my thoughts.

“Bella, I’m sorry, I reacted like that, I’m very sorry. I promise that I wasn’t mad at you; I was just mad that I was going to lose you to him again. Do you forgive?” He asked as wiping away some stray tears that were running down my cheek.

“Yes, I shouldn’t have said anything.” I admitted

“Bella, look at me.” I had been looking toward the forest, not wanting to meet his gaze. I was still cradled in his lap, against his chest. He turned my head forcing me to look at him and I couldn’t resist his strength. He continued once I was looking at him straight in the burning eyes.

“Please, don’t regret telling me the truth, I glad you told me. I was just so mad that I was going to lose you, I panicked. I’m so sorry. Are you okay now?”

I just nodded. I decide it was my turn to speak. “I just got upset because I thought you were so mad that you were going to leave me.”

I started to cry again.

“Shh... no Bella I will not leave you, or at least until you tell me to, I promise.” He pulled me closer and we sat like that for a while. The sun was beginning to set and I knew we would be going soon.

“Bella, please don’t get upset again, but I have to ask you… um… is … is he coming back?” he murmured against my hair.

I tensed, but answered calmly. “No…No… at least not that I know of.”

“If… he… if he came back… would you… go back to him?” His question surprised me. I was frozen and I think he knew my answer. I didn’t want to tell Jacob that I would, but I didn’t want to lie to him either.

“Bella… I guess I know your answer.”

“No wait Jake, please don’t be sad. I… if he came back… it would all depend. I really don’t know, right now. But the odds of him coming back to me are very slim, he doesn’t love me. So I don’t think you have to worry about that, ok.”

He nodded and then smiled. I hoped he understood and was okay.

“Are you ready to go?”

“Yah, I’m ready!”

He picked me up again and I realized that I was extremely tried. He noticed that I swayed from side to side, unbalanced on my feet.

“Do you want to walk or do you want me to carry you?”

“Do you mind; I guess I’m really tired.”

“Not at all! If you want, you can sleep.” He leaned in and kissed me on my forehead. His lips lingering down my cheek. I laid my head on his chest and closed my eyes. That was the last thing I remember sleep invaded me.