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Meltdown...haven't felt right since.

My last thread was about Depakote and asking how others liked/disliked it, side effects, etc. Well sine then I've decided that I really like it and love how it makes me feel "normal" again. I thought FINALLY i've found MY right mix of meds - wooohooo! Well I've been taking it about a month and a few nights ago, I had a complete meltdown just like the ones I used to occasionally have before getting put on a stabilizer. I get violently angry, everything pisses me off, I break things, I say the utmost hurtful things to my husband whom I love more than life itself, I spit on him, I hit and punch him, this last time I grabbed his throat and left some deep marks, I smashed a kitchen chair oh and not to mention made a complete fool of myself in front of the one person in this world that I care for more than anything. And this gets HIM so upset seeing me like this. So what I'm wondering from those who take or have taken Depakote, have you ever had it just decide not to work one day but go right back to working the next day? I just find this soooo strange. I mean I definitely know how meds can stop working after time and then you need to change to a new med that WILL work, but I've never experienced something like this. Because stability-wise and mood-wise, the next day I was fine. Now here's something to add to the mess....ever since that night of the episode, my brain hasn't felt right. I am actually experiencing similar (and milder) symptoms that I did when I came off Effexor XR. My head is slowwww motion, equilibrium feels off, I'm not dizzy just like a weird, "wavy" feeling. I'm scared I blew a fuse that night that I flipped out. I already had an appt with my doc to discuss how the Depakote is doing so i'll of course tell him all of this but I'd love to hear from you guys. Thanks!

...sorry... at the end I meant to say &quot;I already HAVE an appt SCHEDULED with my doc to discuss how the Depakote is doing so i'll of course tell him all of this but i'd love to hear from you guys. Thanks!&quot;

Ive been on it a few weeks, and had a meltdown last night, went nuts, couldnt stop the thoughts couldnt think straight, wanted to hurt myself, had to reveal the worst side of this illness to my new boyfriend.

How do you feel today and more importantly, will you post how you feel in a few days? 'Cuz the very next day, I didn't really notice feeling weird but like the 2nd or 3rd day afterwards, I noticed it and today's the 4th day and wow I'm feeling worse.

Well that could be because I am on my starting out dosage of 500mg (250 in the morning &amp; 250 at bedtime). I hope by increasing my dosage, the meltdowns will stop plus I just wish this weird slo-mo feeling would go the hell away!

I have been on Depakote for 6 years now, and did have break throughs twice where I ended up in hosipital before they upped my dose to 1500mg...the one thing I do notice is that everytime I do go side ways my brain doesn't feel right, and have since found out that with every episode we have especially if extreme it causes more damage to our brains...and does take alot longer to come out of it, hence the reason on why you maybe feeling a little off...

discuss this with your pdoc, and keep us posted with how you are going...

Thank you, Zanobia, for that HELPFUL info! My episode was definately extreme and I hope I didn't do any permanent damage. And I know something else, if I feel another coming on or even if I find myself right in the middle of one that comes on with no warning (like the last one I had) I know how I'll feel afterwards and will try to force myself to just go to the bedroom, close the door and lay down. anything to prevent more damage.

Well I am slowly (and I emphasize slowly) getting rid of this yucky &quot;off kilter&quot; feeling, I think. It doesn't seem as strong as yesterday. We'll see how I feel tomorrow. I'm just glad I've had a few days to see if this subsides before I got see the doc on Monday.

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