I am very sorry to read about all of your sad news. My grandpa died this summer when I was in the hospital w/ PE. I don't know if I even processed it properly since I lost the baby around the same time. Do your best to surround yourself with supportive people and be good to you! I'm sure it feels like there is an extra weight on you right now.

Jenette - Thinking of you, so sorry for all of these difficult situations, wishing you so much peace. Hope your weekend was not too hard, thinking of you over the next month, I know how stressful it is being pregnant after a loss. Can't wait to hear about your baby in your arms.

what a lot you have to deal with right now. Sometimes the world just throws everything it has at us all at once. Many hugs for the next few days: this will be an emotional weekend, I know. Remember to be gentle on yourself and take care.

I never did say that my grandmother was dx with Pancreatic cancer in October. They gave her 2-6 months. She lasted 3 1/2 months and passed away January 23, 2009, which is also my father's birthday. She was 64. It is such a weird feeling than when I lost Anthony. When she passed I was devastated, yet relieved that she was no longer in pain.

In addition to my grandmas passing, we found out that my dad was in rehab again (alcohol). He was released from detox Feb. 7. The next day he tried to commit suicide by pill overdose. My stepmother and I called 911, and he was taken to the hospital. All he could say to be was, I'm sorry Jenette, I'm sorry. To me I have lost my father and will never be able to look at him again, as much as I love him.

I lost so much this year, My grandma, my father, and of course my love Anthony.

Also, if you did not know, I am pregnant again. I am currently 24 weeks 6 days. This time last year I was in the hospital waiting to be transferred to a high risk hospital w/ a NICU. This Sunday I will be 25 weeks 2 days, the exact time I delivered Anthony.

He would have been 1 year this March 9th. I would love to do something for his B-day with my family, I just don't know what.