I am sure everyone would describe me as a happy, go lucky type person who is always smiling. It is a mask, one I wear to get me through everyday.
Nobody knows the pain I go through and feel on a daily basis. It makes me feel bitter as I am so caring towards others but then it's...

hurts worse on the inside, its like being stabbed deep into yourself without the object penetrating your body from the outside.
my feelings are so far gone i feel like a zombie. when i do feel something its weird, i could cry before i knew i was sad, or id laugh before i knew...

Some people who know me can see when I am in really bad physical pain but no one can see my emotional pain.I feel like no one wants to know me really.I know alot of people but rarely talk to anyone. I have 3 male best friends and my 1 female best friend I am married to.They know...

Of it anyway! I do my best to hide it but that can be hard.....
I Know for a fact no one could or does. I mean when everything was going on with my uncle.. For 4 whole years no one even noticed a thing! If you notice I am sad, annoyed or angry, its because I want you to...

I'm finally stopping self harm... i know its not getting me anywhere, I just have to keep myself busy from now on.... an see how long I can go without it. I quit on my own, and now I'm getting migraines, but its better than nothing.

How will you know I am Hurting, if you cannot see my Pain? To wear it on my body, tells what words Cannot Explain....
You don't see the scars....you don't see the tears....because you choose to see nothing that isn't perfect.....

Yesturday I had an apointment with a doctor at a major regional hospital, to see whats going to happen with my pylonidal cyst. Basicly for him to have a look, and probe at it, from what he had to say about it was the best thing that i herd for a long...

You never see. No matter how clear it is, in the way I talk and the words I say. At least I listen, and I give advice. But all you can say are things that don't mean anything. I keep telling myself that I am just over looking into things, but why does this keep happening then...

have you ever taken a blade to your own skin?
feel the pulse under the blade you find soft skin,
i feel drained tonight, and i didnt even cut through the skin,
i feel it tugging and trying to rip me open,
make me bleed the words of sin,
my blood is my savior,
its me dancing...

It was late afternoon middle of winter a warm 22degree day, I was in shorts and T shirt. I had forseen this accident and took care but it was going to happen regardless. A cold change blew in and I slowly turned to pick up my chain saw and I thought I heard a gun shot as my leg...

no one can see the pain i live in from losing my wife at the age of 19 and her mother
and the pain i felt when i cameout of the coma after the crash to see my grandmother sitting by my bed then being given a shoot and the nuxt time i woke up the family was there except my wife...

The pain is invisible, I look alright but inside the physical pain is excruciating!! People can't see it so they dismiss it and me as a fake, but I have the MRI,XRays and tests to prove that wrong. I have had enough of the dirty looks, I want to scream t out as loud as I can...

How will you know I am Hurting, if you cannot see my Pain? To wear it on my body, tells what words Cannot Explain.... You don't see the scars....you don't see the tears....because you choose to see nothing that isn't perfect..

You know when somthing SO bad happens to you, you kinda just go threw life hoping and praying that things get better. You finally realized that after so much time has passed and that things are still the same. I have exxperienced this. I went around carrying this weight on my...

I know you can't see the pain that hurts me down to the core, because I refuse to share it, I refuse to let you see that pain. I don't want you to see it, I don't want you to be exposed to that kind of pain and know just how bad I hurt. I refuse to let you see the pain I carry...

stress is like the leaf on my shoe,
its not hurting me,
im not in pain,
but it bothers me and i cant remove it and so i feel completely insane.
its a leaf on my shoe,
yet it feels like bricks after fighting with it,
it sticks like glue, and after all that stressing,
all i...

my heart is ice under this pale skin,
it takes all my strength for it to beat again,
its heavy and hard,
and it weighs on my soul,
like thick air after death.
it moves slow, and acts old,
why i feel so old in a 20 year old body,
ill meet you down stairs in hells lobby,
i...

Because I don't show you my pain. I don't share it with you, or for anyone for that matter. I keep all my pain inside me, or in my stories, so unless you read this, you will never know the pain that I am in, or the pain that I am feeling.

You can't see it because I'm embarrassed to admit it,so I cover it with jokes,and trying to be funny. Sometimes it catches up with me,and I'll cry for a few minutes,but most of the time I ignore the pain,or try to keep busy,or find something funny to laugh about.

But sometimes i want people to see my pain, to see that i am hurting. But they dont. My family definatly cant see my pain, and it hurts cause i just feel like yelling cant u see iam hurting inside. But then i think to myself if they asked me whats wrong would i tell them...