Sunday, May 8, 2011

austin-

it's that time of year again... mother's day. one of the days of the year that makes me happy to be alive. we have been so busy lately, and we were so tired, so for mother's day, you and i took a really long nap after going to church with gammy, and out for lunch! it was a much needed nap for both of us. you, sydney, and your daddy gave me a beautiful piece of turquoise pottery with a brown cross like i have been wanting.

there's no possible way that i can explain our relationship right now, except to say that we are mother and child... exactly the way that God intended this relationship to be. you follow me everywhere. you want to sit in my lap all day. you run up to be every few minutes and hug me. we are crazy about each other. sometimes, i get tired, and need a little space or alone time, but then when i'm away from you, i really miss you. it's fun now that you are really trying to communicate with me. i think it gets frustrating for both of us at times when i don't know what you're saying. you're so sweet, and you try so hard.

i don't know if it's true, but it sometimes feels like i love you more and more with each passing day. maybe it's because every day is an opportunity for us to be together, grow together, and learn together. it is one more day that we have bonded even closer.

sometimes i watch you and wonder... how do you know how to brush your hair? how do you know to feed your babies a bottle? how do you know to wrap them up in a blanket, and kiss them "night night?" how do you know how to come up behind me and pat me on the back? how do you know to put bracelets on your wrists and necklaces around your neck? and then the scary truth hits... you're watching me. i pray every day that i am the kind of mother that God wants me to be, and i hope that one day you are sure that you are a daughter of the King! that would make you a real princess, and not just a pretend one. :)

i love you SO much, sweet girl, and i look forward to a life time of loving you!