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Tuesday morning...
Reached office, went through the emails, opened e-paper and started reading...
My daily dose of cartoon strips...
And suddenly I am looking for a LIKE button to click on :P
OMG... and no I am not a facebook lover...
Oopsey!!
Am going totally insane ;)

Time to walk down the memory lane..
Time to bid good bye to 2013..
Time to treasure the sweet memories and ring out the bad and harsh ones..
Time to CTRL-ALT-DEL so that we make way for better memories :)
Here's wishing you all a wonderful time ahead!
Hope I have a wonderful year ahead too :)

There's so much to write, to freeze in words so that I don't forget such beautiful moments in my life, but it's just not happening.. huh!! Lazy me! Busy schedule @ office... :(

Life has been too fast.. changing and wanting me to keep pace. Can't complain! They say , this is life. Though, I'd love to know who exactly belongs to this "They" category ;)
Din't know when my holidays ended and I had to resume office.. feel like going on a long break yet again.. this one wasn't really enough, though it was a whole lot of fun! Not always are you the center of attraction , so when I was this time, took all the liberty to feel special!

News has been disturbing, a year since Nirbhaya succumbed, but the devil inside just doesn't succumb to the bad. Oh! for God's sake people, live and let live. Fear grips whenever a girl is alone..Sad! This one very recent incident shook me to the core, mostly be…

He applied glue to the stamps and she stuck them on the cards.
The post master asked them, whose wedding cards were they.. they replied "ours" in unison.
Giggling and back to work, they quickly stuck the stamps and posted them...
Awww...
Did the cupid just hit!!

So what really happens to a normal, bubbly , girl-next-door person to suddenly become so vulnerable? What really goes wrong with a person whom you know was really "normal" the last time you saw them and the next you know they are seeing a shrink or maybe just have dark circles under their eyes.. let me not go to cases extreme than this...
Its all about expectations, ain't it? No matter how much we try and tell ourselves to give but not expect anything in return, we are human beings and obviously, we expect... When we know that a misdeed of ours hurt us back, we , but obviously, expect a good deed to bring back love, encouragement, but when that doesn't happen, it hurts. Then starts a series of misunderstandings and if one is sensitive and a slave of mind (now not everybody can master their mind, atleast I cannot) they fall prey to depression. And believe me, depression is bad. Not only does it give you a dual behavior , cause you cannot show the entire world that yo…

And so the dread is back again, I am completely dressed in Monday Blues!! Don't wish to go to office.. who'd want to?? hehehe.. anyways.. what makes this blog post exciting for me is , I did a lotta things over the weekend which were the first-of-its-kind for me...
I had always been excited about the burning of the Ravan effigy during Dusshera, but never got a chance to see it actually happening. So after completing my silver jubilee I finally get a chance to see it. When I was in my bus coming back to Pune last evening, I saw a huge effigy of Ravan and betcha I was awed!! It was huge, real huge. There were so many people, all waiting to burn out the wrong and establish good in their lives. It was great to see...
I was sharing my bus seat with a mother-daughter duo. When I was in my oh-so-nice-mood with the evening breeze slightly teasing my hair and the songs in my headphone making the moment just right, Miss daughter puked... I had no option but get up from the seat and sta…

Free my wings
let me fly
dont stop me
I wanna fly
The burdens too much
The path has too many thorns
I have given up
I dont wanna try
I cannot match the expectations
neither your nor mine
I have given up
Its not worth a try
Sometimes, its better to go home before dark
Sometimes, its better to close my eyes than see the dark
Sometime, atleast this one time let it about me
Atleast let me fly..
Dont cage, dont burden me...
I cannot take it anymore, let me fly
The darkness frightens me today more than ever
The distances widen, never to reduce
So, let the darkness rule my word,
Let the distances increase...
I have given up
I dont wanna try..
No matter which path I choose, it leads to doom..
No matter what I wanna do, it leads to doom...
I know each word I have spoken was bad..
I know each deed I have done is a sin..
But that's not what I intended for,
But that's not what I wanted to do...
But now that it has happened...
free my wings... let me fly
Dont stop me .... I wanna fly

So after a lot of incomplete drafts and empty canvases and unread books, here I am.. hale and hearty :) as I always was...
Work and so many things going on in my life kept me so damn busy.... phew....
Not that I am not busy now... but what better than reading and writing to vent all the frustation of not getting a promotion and the confusions of preparing for a marriage... OMG so much of work..

I love surprises,.... provided they are good and nice...
I love giving them and believe me giving gives me so much pleasure... I feel like I have done a feat to enter my name in history.. oki this is an exaggeration.. but I so feel so

I love when I gift something to people.. but feel horrible when there's nothing to show the happiness on their faces.. I mean.. so what if its a small gift, or maybe its something you dint really think you need... but isnt my thoughtfulness a reason for you to flash your smile .. You know it counts for me...

But then... people will be people and it aint important that everybody feels the way I do... Its all about acceptance anyways isnt it??

Sometimes in life, we want to give up on things, not necessarily in the negative sense of it. So like you give up on one thing to do something else which made you equally or more happy.. Happens!!
Happened with me.. was busy with things which I thought made me more happy than blogging.. but then you realize such pleasures are time restricted and once they are over they make you value other things more...
I know this is a very confusing post, but so is the state of my mind now. I am happy but this happiness has come with a lot of *Terms and Conditions apply.. but I guess thats how life is.. Have been shopping a lot, spending a lot of time with people I love... but dont know what is missing... Something is missing, something is not correct... something feels incorrect... something is just not right..
Hope things fall in place and hope I dont leave writing things down... It is such a relief to be able to shell out all my feelings...

My books... which make me feel complete... which can keep me awake at nights when nothing else and no one else can.. which make me sit and read nonstop on weekends... :)
My cuddly soft toy... which is with me no matter what... It comforts me, laughs with me, hears me rant, hugs me when I feel alone and is my companion no matter what..
My paints,brushes, pencil, pen who let me scribble,draw, sketch, color anything and everything.. help me emote whether it is pain or happiness.
And "U", you who hold a special position in my heart, you whom I trust more than myself, you whose little frown makes my day bad , you whose smile makes my day :)

Change....
When I hear the word change... a lot of things come to my mind..
A larva spinning a cocoon and then changing into a beautiful butterfly...
A white canvas changing into a beautiful painting...
And so much more...

But, this isn't what I think on an early morning when I am rushing to office and waiting for a bus,
Or when I need to go grocery shopping,
Or buy the newspaper...
At such time all I want is changeeeee....

Change to give to the bus conductor and the shopkeeper and the newspaper seller...

Life gives us moments..
Moments when we laugh,
Moments when we cry..
Moments we want to inscribe in gold...
Moments we want to forget forever...

Life is full of this and that...
but sometimes all I feel is a void..
Happiness doesn't make my lips widen into a smile,
Sadness brings tears but which don't really hurt me...
I carry a plastic smile and people think its genuine..
They have their own notions to think what I think, to feel what I feel!!
I don't know why they think they understand what I feel, when they aren't really wearing my shoes!!

As the dark hole widens, the memories flood in.. memories I din't want to revisit as I know all they can bring is tears and sadness and swollen eyes and bitter taste buds.. but somehow this feels right... atleast for now...
Coz I know even this shall pass... Everything does... This shall too...

Sometimes I feel I am over positive or maybe the books I read find a place in my head... I somehow feel powered up.. coz I know I wil…

May 18... WANT...
K and I had been to this disastrous restaurant once...
The ambience was bad...
The food was bad...
The music was awful....
But we had the best "SIZZLING BROWNIE WITH ICE CREAM"..
I so WANT to eat it again...

NEED....
Spices...
What is life without fun, laughter, joys and sorrows?
What is a painting all in black without any colors?
Bland... just like food without spice
Spices... NEED FOR THAT PERFECT FOOD:)

This is my pic for 11th May...
SMILE :)
A line which stretches eye to eye and makes the world seem beautiful!! I made this miniature smiley fridge magnet for me brother and me :) All smiles for the camera Love you my lil' kiddy brother :)

This is my pic for today ... i.e. 9th May..SNACKS....What better than food :)I absolutely love eating.. munching :)What better than home made cheese-corn-capsicum-onion sandwiches toasted just right and served with yummy salted crisp potatoes :)

Just chop such capsicum and onion, add corn grains, add grated cheese... fill in the bread slices and toast...Yummilicious.....

Sometimes I just don't want to do anything,
Sometimes I just want to give up,
Sometimes even lifting an eyelid feels stressful,
Sometimes I want to ignore the beeps on my cell phone,
Sometimes I don't want to tread the path I planned for myself,
Sometimes all I feel is I am wrong,
Sometimes all I want to do is shut down myself from the world,
Sometimes I want to hide and never want to be seen..
Sometimes all I want to do is stay aloof...

Summers call for coolers... so what better than yummy strawberry squash in my cup...
Yummilicious!! I am loving it :)
WHAT ARE YOU DRINKING??
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Linking to May photo a day challenge that will change your life !!
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So finally I am the proud owner of 4 out of 7 books from the Krishna Coriolis Series....
Yee yee... congratulate me :) I smile each time I see the books on my almirah,I just hope Mum and K dont think I am going nuts :P
I read Salman Rushdie's "Midnight Children"... such a nice narration :) I loved the book and downloaded the movie... Will see it tonight :)
I painted.. and this time it did not turn out as good as I thought it would.. I should practise more...
Here is the painting...

I took part in the May Photo a day challenge. Unfortunately, I forgot to post the pics.. and that will have to wait till today evening...

I know, I am late :( but none the less I am taking part in this awesome challenge...

How to play!
Playing along with photo a day is super easy:♥ Check out the May photo a day list.♥ Each day look at the daily prompt and take a photo according to whatever the prompt is. For example for day 1 the prompt is ‘I bought this!’, so share something you’ve bought. It might be something you purchased today, like a coffee etc or something you love that you picked up some time in the past. It’s a great opportunity to get creative. Be inspired by a little creativity and see what you come up with.♥ Once you’ve taken the photo it’s time to share it. There are loads of places you can share it. See below for more details.♥ Check out other people’s photos. You can browse through them on my Facebook page, in the FMS Photo A Day Facebook group. Or on Instagram or Twitter just search for the #FMSphotoaday hashtag to see them all.
This is my pic for today... i.e. 1st May
I BOUGHT THIS...
I love elephants.…

37degrees
We were sweating profusely.
I had conveniently changed into my shorts and t-shirt.
The train was full, beyond all capacities I can imagine… around 20 people and 8 seats (bahut nainsaafi hai!!) and not to mention the infinite baggage.. huh!! I felt like kicking myself…
As we made our way inside the train or should I say pushed, kicked, cursed and somehow got inside and somehow seated ourselves into whatever place we got (fortunately both the lower berths were ours), she entered..
Clad in a black burqa, only her eyes visible to the outside world, she was carrying three kids.. yes three!!
And then came the bags…..
Finally her family settled, they had 2 seats, side upper and side lower, the upper was stuffed with their infinite bags and the family of 6 stuffed on the lower seat(the lady, her hubby, her MIL and her 3 kids)….

She had beautiful brown eyes, perfectly crafted
I couldn’t move my eyes off hers.. no hints there, they were really beautiful..
But that wasn’t all..
The …

So what happens when I get happiness more than I deserve,
When I am happy beyond what I can imagine,
When I am the center of attraction,
When I feel every dream of mine is about to come true, in fact some of them really come true,
When everyone around me shows me how much they love me,
When for once, I am satisfied that maybe I am not as bad as I thought....

!!REALITY CHECK!!There's always some one who is gonna pull me down,
Tear my heart apart,
Show me that I don't really deserve what I am getting,
Tell me that I am in a fairy world and my dreams are a waste of time..

And this ladies and gentlemen, is the reality check...
And before I even sit down and draft the mail where in I wanted to share my happiness, tell you that I am on cloud no 9, here I sit with tears in my eyes and write down what I feel now...

A little sugar,
A little salt,
All different colors in all their hues and shades........
A perfect life with minor imperfections....
Daughter,Sister,Girl with a lot dreams,Friend,Lover,Girlfriend, IT Professional,Music lover,Gadget lover,Perfume lover,ornament lover,book lover, trying-to-paint amateur, budding writer -- That sums me pretty much :)