Well I only loss .4 for the month. I guess I can count that as a victory since I didn't do too much damage over the holiday. I found that I can't eat as much as I use to and with what I ate for two nights I woke up with a stomach ache. So it's not worth it to need to go to the bathroom and can't. Better luck in this month

I fell short of my goal last month with a 6 pound loss instead of the 8 to 9 I wanted. I had a rough couple of weeks, with end of semester assignments all due and my weight not moving for 2 weeks despite my best efforts. I got discouraged and Monday I had the mother of all cheats. Throughout the day, I engulfed an entire medium pizza and half a desert pizza. I felt sick, it was not pretty. Anyways, I'm happy to finally see the scale moving this morning from 255 to 253.8. I've been very hungry the past 2 days which seem to have something to do with my weight loss but it's extra hard to keep my eating in check.

Also, I'm sad this morning to find that my almost 20 year long Hollywood crush has died in a tragic car accident

I'm flying home on the 18th and I already know my eating will not be on point for a while, so I'll pretend that this month is ending on the 18th!

dolphin, you can do it. Six pounds is definitely great, and the fact that it is 6lbs in the right direction my friend Shoot for the 8-9lbs this month since it's a short month for you. Give it all you've got Yay on regrouping after the cheat Yes that is sad about Paul it made me gasp also . My husband said what's wrong

envelope weigh in when you can. I weigh daily unless I'm rushing with my daughter in the morning but don't always get to record it here right away. I have a sheet in the bathroom that I record it on, then I transfer it here

I weighed the same today as yesterday. I'm so glad the bulk of the food is gone. We went to my Uncle's yesterday and the boys picked me some turnips with the greens from the garden. I don't think they got enough but they said it was muddy down thereand I promised my oldest son I would clean his boots. I'll go get some more next weekend hopefully and some collards too. No reason not to eat healthy greens for sure

I'm having a super emotional eating day. We found a property that was my absolute dream come true. A small farmhouse with 5 bedrooms, heated by wood, with 16 acres and a huge beautiful barn. We went to look at it yesterday and even though it was pretty beat up inside I was falling in love with it by the second. Then we came to find out that because it was a foreclosure the bank wasn't entertaining any offers that were not a direct sale, meaning we couldn't put the offer based on when we could sell our house. I was devastated. I don't think I have gone an hour without crying since we were there. I actually cursed at the real estate agent and asked why the **** she wouldn't have told me that before going to see it. I had actually looked at this property before and had my eye on it for years. I am just heartbroken. My Mom keeps saying, if it's meant to be then it will happen. But I keep asking why something feels so very right has to go so very wrong.

And then yesterday...we are celebrating mine and a friends birthday this weekend by going to fancy hotel and out to dinner. Well my best friend is joining me and yesterday she kept gushing about all those cute new clothes she had bought. I was already pretty upset by the house deal falling through and then I got even more angry because I can't afford new clothes, what with receiving no child support last month I'll be lucky to get food on the table let alone buy anything new, and nothing in my town is plus sized. So I kind of rudely said "Well it must be nice to afford new clothes, nothing in this town would fit my fat ***." So I went to see if I had anything at all that I could even squeeze into as since I had the baby I've pretty much been living in yoga pants. And even my fattest of fat jeans won't fit. So I cancelled my dinner reservation and gave it to another friend of mine because I don't even have pants to wear for the dinner. I know it sounds like first world problems...but it's my world, and nothing is going my way today.

Aw Virgina, I'm sorry about the house. It is quite hurtful when you have your heart set on something and it doesn't come through. Wow on your birthday dinner and reservations. Hopefully everything will work out for you all the way around. And on your Mom's comment ... Often times things are said to us and we don't want to hear them. She means well I'm sure you know this and you said yourself money is tight, so the house needing a little work and sounding as large as it is could mean more work and maybe this just isn't a good time (right now). Something else will come along. So hold your chin up and dry your eyes. Hope I'm not out of line and I hope you feel better soon. I have been through so many disappointments in 2013 it's just plain crazy. I know that better days are coming so I keep holding on. You can do it. When is your birthday?

We are going through our trials here but I know things could be worse. Weight is pretty much stabilized which isn't bad since it could definitely be going up. Eating on plan has not happened in days. And though I'm NOT eating on plan it doesn't seem to be doing any damage. (that's a plus)

I spent the day finishing up some Christmas shopping and driving all over to get my hubby a fitbit. So excited he is joining me as a fitbit wearer and on mfp. This afternoon I just enjoyed spending time with the kids after school, they had school and I did not, so it was great to be home when they got here.

I should have spent the day grading. So I am off to my makeshift treadmill desk to get some done.

envelope sounds like a joyous day … I'm happy for you . Your husband joining you is great. My husband goes to the gym with me but he's losing weight ... not a good thing for him. He's 6'6 and now weighs 218. He is doing strength training and when he starts to sweat he stops but by then I guess it's too late because he'll get on the scale and be down a pound or two. I couldn't be so lucky. I want the fitbit for Christmas. RadioShack had them on sale I believe. But I'll probably get it off eBay.

We went to the gym this evening for the first time since 11/26. Felt good though a few times I felt like I was going to give out. I kept going though. I did 4.12 miles in 1:03:53 and burned 605 calories according to Nike+. Now I need to attempt to add up my calories on MFP.

Thanks Rennie...if it's possible my week got worse. I had an epic fight with my ex on the phone. The first time we spoke in years. And this morning my brother in law took the opportunity to call me a bad parent and a horrible role model and called me trashy. Because I posted on FB that my daughter and myself were dancing and I jokingly said we were twerking. I've cried more in 48 hours then I have in years.