tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31274682616822107992017-02-01T07:39:15.432-05:00DREAMER ♥I am a very random person. Inlove with the idea of being In LOVE, a victim of HEARTBREAK, and outspoken individual who is full of opinions lol. No telling what you will read about. With hopes and inspirations and success beyond my wildest DREAMS*GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.comBlogger74125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-21665324712769150692011-03-03T15:50:00.000-05:002011-03-03T15:50:41.080-05:00Natural Hair Division<div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-APWT72YG1P8/TW__ASyMKyI/AAAAAAAAADo/wrBq_6Ci6E8/s1600/natural-vs-relaxed.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="220" l6="true" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-APWT72YG1P8/TW__ASyMKyI/AAAAAAAAADo/wrBq_6Ci6E8/s320/natural-vs-relaxed.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><strong><em>I stated earlier this week as a FB status that where there are too many visions there is DIVISION* When I originally posted this I said it regarding life and the direction your life is going, however it can be applied in all aspects of life. I am going to use that quote in reference to natural hair.. After viewing a picture posted of an underaged female in a salon getting a relaxer posted on someone’s page with a caption of how they are addicted to the “creamy crack” etc I felt compelled to respond not only to the picture but to speak out about the division in the hair community. </em></strong><strong><br /><em></em></strong><br /><strong><br /><em></em></strong><br /><strong><em>#Truth One is NOT better than the Other, it all depends on YOUR preference. I think it’s a bit hypocritical for anyone to talk about someone regarding what they choose to do with THEIR hair. If I were to do a show of hands of how many people got relaxers growing up, very few people would stand with their hands down. The truth is we all or the vast majority received perms at an age where we could not consent to getting one. With that out the way, as we matured, we have been, for lack of a better word, “enlightened.” This means that we now know the pro’s and cons of getting relaxers in comparision to natural hair. We are aware of whatever damage we may suffer as the hair is broken down, we have also learned via youtube, natural hair boards, as well as personal experience better ways to care for your hair; this includes natural, transitioning and relaxed hair. </em></strong><br /><strong><br /><em></em></strong><br /><strong><em>I am in no way, shape, or form attempting to bash anyone, but I would like to put this out there: There is nothing wrong with sharing the information you have come across in reference to your hair, it all depends on the person and their ability to receive it. One can not be forceful and should not just attempt to walk up on someone and begin discussing their hair and what YOU think they are doing wrong or what they SHOULD be doing with THEIR hair. That is why you have YOUR OWN HAIR, to do as you please, should you need more HAIR to “control” or, for lack of better words “rescue”, there is YOUR children’s hair. Behavior such as that can be seen as forceful and offensive and in MY opinion is UNACCEPTABLE. When someone wants your helps, or wants to help themselves in learning better ways to care for their hair, they will seek out information as it relates to their desires. How many of us got tired of our hair &amp;&amp; sought out information on how to grow it longer, advice from others on how to properly manage it?? We found all the information we needed some way or another and that same opportunity is afforded to them. I understand that we have been enlightened but for many of us we were exposed to perms for most of our lives and I personally think it’s unacceptable to talk down about people who choose to do that, especially for the people who are newly natural. This type of behavior is what causes a divide in the community. TO each it’s own and if everyone worried themselves with only themselves I think people wouldn’t feel so negatively towards the natural hair community. </em></strong><br /><br /><strong><em>#Truth All hair will GROW!!!! Transitioning, Relaxed and Natural. With proper care ALL hair will grow. I have heard many times during my transition that naturals like to wear their hair straight as it is of convienence to them; well in some people’s cases relaxed hair may be of convienence to them. A pro of relaxed hair would be that it does not require the same about of time or attention as that of natural hair. Natural and or Transitioning hair requires dedication, money to find products that work and patience. I would suggest relaxed hair for the people who don’t have the time, and or money to maintain or PROPERLY care for natural hair. </em></strong><br /><strong><em></em></strong><strong><br /></strong><strong><em>Many people mistakenly think that just because it’s Natural means it’s healthy and that you can do whatever you want to it. Although natural hair may be more resilent it is NOT always the healthiest and just because it’s natural doesn’t mean it will GROW!!! When you hair is natural you still have to take the proper steps to keep it healthy as to avoid slit ends and to retain length. EXAMPLE: How many naturals have cut their hair, how many videos have been posted to youtube discussing HEAT DAMAGE?? Heat Damage as a result of attempting to Maintain a Straight Style on Natural hair. </em></strong><br /><strong><br /><em></em></strong><br /><strong><em>Natural hair consists of Kinks, Coils and Curls which in my opinion is better off left alone and in it’s natural state. However, natural hair has often times been damaged as a result of the hair been manipulated in a style that it’s UNnatural for it to maintain. When you SWEAT your hair poofs up, if it’s HUMID your hair poofs up. As a result of the Poofing or swelling of the individual hair strands due to the water mollecules in the air or on your forehead, one would have to “go over” the areas with a flat iron or hot comb. Many times this step will be repeated on mutlitple occassions until the hair is washed and styled in a hairstyle more suitable for natural hair.</em></strong><br /><strong><br /><em></em></strong><br /><strong><em>Most recently naturals were exposed to the harmful effects of formaldehyde found in the Brazilian Kertain Treaments also known as BKT, in an attempt to acheive straight hairstyles that would not disrupt the curl pattern in natural hair, while being worn straight for weeks at a time. This was more harmful as the chemical, formaldehye, could be inhaled by those close to you as they were exposed to it due to the treatment you received. </em></strong><br /><strong><br /><em></em></strong><br /><strong><em>I have always said my hair Best holds it’s OWN curl, not the one that you get from a curling iron, and that’s why within a day the hair falls limp and the curls disappear. Natural hair provides versatility but it doesn’t make us better than our counterparts. There can be positives found on both sides and instead of focusing on the negatives how about we celebrate everyone’s freedom of choice and embrace individualism. Understanding we are all inclined to believe that our way is the right way (whichever way that is) we have to come to the realization that sure it is the “right’ way for US and that’s why WE chose it. We do not all have to do the same thing to be on the same page. We CAN co-exist, we already have similarities such as being women, and having our hair’s best interest at heart, filled with the desire to grow it as long as we can. There is Enough room for Everyone :-) </em></strong><br /><br /><br />He who is NOT busy being BORN is busy DYING … worry yourself ONLY with YOURself concentrating on how to make you Better♥ Self-Worth, Self-Appreciation, Self-Acceptance.GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-2949426070349493822010-12-20T02:23:00.000-05:002010-12-20T02:23:41.962-05:00Keri Hilson: No Boys Allowed Review<div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ8DOcJ4bwI/AAAAAAAAADc/QVkx14vTn2A/s1600/00-keri_hilson-no_boys_allowed-2010-cover.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ8DOcJ4bwI/AAAAAAAAADc/QVkx14vTn2A/s320/00-keri_hilson-no_boys_allowed-2010-cover.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><br />Do you have any idea what a HUGE Keri Fan I am?? Ok, Lemme put you D.... I stalked her career BEFORE it even started after she was featured with the likes of Polo Da Don, Timbaland and Diddy; so you know I was front and center for her Debut "In A Perfect World." &amp;&amp; When she released "Pretty Girl Rock" (of course I recieved the song way before it hit radio airwaves) I instantly fell In[LOVE] with it!! After all I AM Pretty &amp;&amp; boy do I ROCK!!! lol Moving along I was able to preview "The Way You Love Me" &amp;&amp; could NOT stop dancing to it.. Who was excited about her new album?? ME!!! We'll it's here &amp;&amp; here's MY take on it <br /><br />Ok Let me start off by saying I had HIGH Expectations for this album, her new sound, her new look, I couldn't wait to get my hands on it &amp;&amp; now that I have it, i question if maybe I expected to much, putting unrealistic demands on an Artist so much so that she was unable to deliver what I was looking for. Could her album be more than mediocre?? What else could she have done?? I began to question my taste in music because I feel more than disappointed when listening to this album. <br /><br />Let's address NO Boys Allowed --&gt; WRONG!! I was expecting all female features if any, girl power, positivity, feminism.. WRONG!!! She has FIVE features &amp;&amp; they are ALL members of the Opposite SEX. Blah!! Not to discredit her features but on an album titled NO Boys Allowed, am I the ONLY person who expected her album to stay true to it's title?? Lets Review the features first. <br /><br /><u><em><strong>"Buyou"</strong></em></u> feat J. Cole - Upbeat song, definitely a club hit, reminiscent of Scrubs, Bills Bills Bills, Get Ya Money Up etc. This song will have a few guys upset and a few females claiming they are getting $$$ that their bank accounts DO NOT reflect *shrugs* Good song though. I like.<br /><br /><u><em><strong>"One Night Stand"</strong></em></u> feat Chris Brown - This will grow on me I'm sure. Listening to it the first few times I was totally turned OFF but maybe it's the title more than the words. Given my disgust regarding behaving irresponsibly, endangering your life, your health by engaging in a ONE NIGHT STAND, the song didn't have much appeal to me. &amp;&amp; the mere suggestion of staying "Another Night" would no longer make it a one night stand but hey whatever. Chris Brown songs like himself, nothing out of the norm.. You may like it. <br /><br /><u><em><strong>"Lose Control (Let Me Down)"</strong></em></u> feat Nelly - Keri sings this song similar to the style of Rihanna, in fact I could possibly hear Rihanna singing it and it being a hit. I do enjoy listening to this, another "booty shaking" song. At some point in time she request you to pay to watch her shake, wind, and roll; (Something strange for a piece of change?? Or Am I Reaching??) Stripper Anthem I can see it now. Nelly sounds great, this will not be the comeback he may hope it will give him but it does keep his name out there. Overall a great club song. <br /><br /><u><em><strong>"Pretty Girl Rock"</strong></em></u> feat Kanye West - I mean it's Pretty Girl Rock, I loved the song when I heard it, before they OVER played it on the Radio &amp;&amp; all the "Not So Pretty" girls started singing it.. Kanye is Kanye so this is a solid remix.<br /><br /><strong><em><u>Now onto the songs I really enjoyed on the album:</u></em></strong> <br /><br /><em><u><strong>"Toy Soldier"</strong></u></em> - Every girl has come across a guy who claims to be her Prince Charming, who won't do her wrong, someone she can trust and per the usual, is betrayed.. This song is a Reflection of that relationship, the cries, the lies, the betrayal. <br /><br /><u><em><strong>"Beautiful Mistake"</strong></em></u> - Leaving on Good Terms. Every relationship end doesn't have to be thee END, dramatic or nasty. When you engage in adult relationships, where good communication is present and both parties can accept things for what they are you are able to appreciate the time spent fully understanding that it's not in your best interest to continue seeing one another. :) No regrets!!<br /><br /><em><u><strong>"All The Boys"</strong></u></em> The way she sings this song is Incredible* It's just something about it that makes me smile. The relationship where everything just seems to fall into place. Realizing that you haven't been loved until now, this very moment and by _________. Farewell to All the Boys who have ever had the privilege to be in your life and took your presence for granted. What you are able to walk away from determines what you will walk into*<br /><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><strong>Overall this Album was not exactly what I was expecting but it's not that bad. I would like to have heard a few more songs promoting girl power. My ability to listen to this album straight through is challenged but when the skip button is utilized her album is decent. For those who are true Keri Fans I would suggest you support her project. </strong><br /><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div>GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-56968911455535204092010-12-19T01:45:00.001-05:002010-12-19T01:46:37.286-05:00Someone Just Had A Birthday.. You'll NEVER Guess Who It Was (Hint Hint)<strong><em>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </em></strong><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2oWxf3sDI/AAAAAAAAADE/E3nJ04IIiK0/s1600/163615_1753531920785_1313532130_1925090_5205959_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2oWxf3sDI/AAAAAAAAADE/E3nJ04IIiK0/s320/163615_1753531920785_1313532130_1925090_5205959_n.jpg" width="206" /></a><br /><strong><em>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;Can We Say Getting BETTER With Age :)</em></strong><br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2pmydx3CI/AAAAAAAAADM/rQacpLBDUOE/s1600/f8b39e0710c259cca68b30531a88dfa0_view.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2pmydx3CI/AAAAAAAAADM/rQacpLBDUOE/s320/f8b39e0710c259cca68b30531a88dfa0_view.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2ptVRS0nI/AAAAAAAAADQ/7XYKZQBBauU/s1600/SAM_0819.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2ptVRS0nI/AAAAAAAAADQ/7XYKZQBBauU/s320/SAM_0819.JPG" width="240" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2pv_Za_bI/AAAAAAAAADU/vG3PryZhV5o/s1600/735762ea14545a43f32896e659a63e49_view.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2pv_Za_bI/AAAAAAAAADU/vG3PryZhV5o/s320/735762ea14545a43f32896e659a63e49_view.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2p4XOQDtI/AAAAAAAAADY/At4uLo4Aswg/s1600/c657ee9954915ef26b53a5f615f0f314_view.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2p4XOQDtI/AAAAAAAAADY/At4uLo4Aswg/s320/c657ee9954915ef26b53a5f615f0f314_view.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-12036828004914352602010-12-19T01:29:00.003-05:002010-12-19T01:32:54.667-05:00<strong><em><span style="font-family: &quot;Courier New&quot;, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;"></span></em></strong><br /><blockquote><strong><em><span style="font-family: &quot;Courier New&quot;, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">"I Don't Know Much About Clothes </span></em></strong></blockquote><blockquote><strong><em><span style="font-family: &quot;Courier New&quot;, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">&nbsp;&nbsp; But </span></em></strong><strong><em><span style="font-family: Courier New; font-size: large;">My Hair Looks Fierce!!"</span></em></strong></blockquote>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <em>-Amanda Lepore</em><br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2lvP_3q7I/AAAAAAAAADA/PUEyKdPBOgo/s1600/amanda-lepore-perfume-portrait-photo.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2lvP_3q7I/AAAAAAAAADA/PUEyKdPBOgo/s320/amanda-lepore-perfume-portrait-photo.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><span style="font-family: &quot;Trebuchet MS&quot;, sans-serif; font-size: large;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-81874227680645293112010-12-19T01:22:00.001-05:002010-12-19T01:23:36.864-05:00Album Review: "Calling All Hearts" Keyshia Cole<div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2j6Y2NzyI/AAAAAAAAAC8/hnO1Hd6xq3I/s1600/Cover__keyshia.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2j6Y2NzyI/AAAAAAAAAC8/hnO1Hd6xq3I/s320/Cover__keyshia.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><em><u><strong>Calling All Hearts Album Review</strong></u>: Our Favorite Love Songstress is BACK!!! I swear she never fails to DELIVER* Probably the reason I am ALWAYS (x3) checking for her. On this Album expect to go through the “motions” per the usual she has a song for EVERYONE—-&gt; Here I will list my favorite songs in no particular order—&gt;</em><br /><br /><em><u><strong>“Tired of Doing Me”</strong></u> Feat Tank [Cuffin’ Season Much] Summary: Self Explanatory. Being Single is ok BUUUUT I’m ready to try YOU out :) Yay!! Don’t you just LOVE the feeling you get when you become interested in someone &amp;&amp; are anxious to see where things will go?? Yeah?? Me too!</em><br /><em><br /></em><br /><em><strong><u>“Take Me Away”</u></strong> My FAVE!!! 5 stars* YES!!! If you are In LOVE, Loving Someone, Thinking about Falling or Wanting to be IN Love this is YOUR Song. This song will be a HIT!</em><br /><em><br /></em><br /><em><u><strong>“Last Hangover”</strong></u> feat Timbaland [It’s OVER—&gt; You had your run and things didn’t work out ..We have ALL been here at one point and time, for some, will be returning to this emotion sooner than later..Drinks on Me??</em><br /><em><br /></em><br /><em><u><strong>“Thank You”</strong></u> The beginning sort of sounds like “Sent From Heaven” to me, interestingly enough it’s a song with her talking to her Savior and saying Thank You. Something that everyone should say, something that should be second nature given all that HE’s done for us, but fail to say <strong>“Thank YOU”</strong></em><br /><em><br /></em><br /><strong>This CD is Classic Keyshia, a few upbeat songs but she doesnt stray from what made us fall in[Love] with her. Any true Keyshia Cole fans are encourgaged to support her movement and purchase her album.</strong>GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-41919642877098946652010-12-19T01:12:00.001-05:002010-12-19T01:15:26.122-05:00<blockquote>"Thee ONLY Place You'll Wanna BE is Underneath My Christmas TREE! <br />&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;Ho Ho It's CHRISTMAS...My Christmas Tree is Delicious!!"</blockquote>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;-Lady Gaga<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2hvsG-XnI/AAAAAAAAAC4/mFfbs8jdyts/s1600/Lady-GaGa-Christmas-Tree-FanMade-400x400.png" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; height: 320px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em; width: 337px;"><img border="0" height="320" n4="true" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/TQ2hvsG-XnI/AAAAAAAAAC4/mFfbs8jdyts/s320/Lady-GaGa-Christmas-Tree-FanMade-400x400.png" width="320" /></a></div>GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-19093545135818012242010-12-05T00:45:00.000-05:002010-12-05T00:45:57.513-05:00Darnit!!!I know most of my blogs seem to start off the same way but OMG!!! It's been a while sheesh... I swear if it was not for the fact that I FINALLY got a few followers (Hey yall!!) I prolly would have just said forget it haha. Naw but really it took a while for me to log in.. I forgot the email address I used.. I forgot the password.. I have been trying to log in for about 20 minutes woooooo! Got a lot of catching up to do Sooooo much has changed... had a great summer..my fall has been blessed..classes are almost over and new ones scheduled to begin.. not sure when but I will be updating soon.&nbsp;GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-62678866709135074782010-03-30T12:30:00.003-04:002010-03-30T12:44:01.299-04:00With Love Mimi....#nowplaying: "All I Have" -Amerie<br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3323/3646490071_a77c2097b9.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="199" nt="true" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3323/3646490071_a77c2097b9.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />So much on my mind, it's really crazy.&nbsp; I have no idea where to even begin..Exes have been on my mind probably because it's the Spring and something about spring motivates people to try to come back into your life, motivates people to reach out..trust me I know because most of them have.&nbsp; When I sit and think about all the tears, heartbreak..how hard it was to get over each of them, I know it's possible.&nbsp; This song kind of reminds me of them all bunched together I gave and tried my best but we were all in different places and wanted something the other could not provide.&nbsp; All the lessons I have learned..gone but never forgotten..they each have special places in my heart, special memories that we shared most of the pictures don't exist anymore, deleted, thrown away, numbers changed..mostly on my part.&nbsp; <br /><br />I'll review my past and my lessons..just to get it out of my head &amp; off my brain..<br /><br />A taught me what being loved felt like but also taught me how to recognize a liar...<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://thenewwriters.files.wordpress.com/2009/06/walking_away_by_etoile061.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://thenewwriters.files.wordpress.com/2009/06/walking_away_by_etoile061.jpg" width="262" /></a></div><br /><br /><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">L taught me what crazy was, that's it's not ok to put your hands on people and that older people can be manipulative.&nbsp; L also taught me how to step outside the box, what it was like to live with a person, love a person what a real relationship was.</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://media.oregonlive.com/photogallery/photo/600fd200e03f523902e498c6ae2de530.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://media.oregonlive.com/photogallery/photo/600fd200e03f523902e498c6ae2de530.JPG" width="240" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">M taught me that I could be a provider, my generous side came out, I loved all the things M wasn't and in turn M cheated..M&nbsp;taught me how to walk away from something that wasn't good for me and to never look back and I never did.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.laurennassef.com/wp-content/uploads/walking-away.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://www.laurennassef.com/wp-content/uploads/walking-away.gif" width="212" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">#21 taught me to try new things, step out on faith, my first long distance relationship, proved me right about them not working but taught me that I could be faithful, I got to travel to see #21, I knew what it was to miss someone.&nbsp; #21 also taught me to pay attention because when the usual somehow switches up to something different that's what it is &amp;&amp; that's what it was. First time I actually caught someone cheating on me.&nbsp; #21 also showed me a pattern that was used on me &amp;&amp; all those after me..that I HAVE to be in a relationship person who jumps from one to the next to the next YET always holding on to the past &amp;&amp; trying to find a way to get back..I'm just glad I never allowed #21 BACk into my life.</div><br /><br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.thenarrative.net/archive/justine-walking-away.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://www.thenarrative.net/archive/justine-walking-away.jpg" width="227" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">Eyes taught me it's possible to have a relationship with someone who has kids. Taught me there are a few good peple out there..BUT that they weren't one of them.&nbsp; My reservations with people with children has nothing to do with the children instead it has to do with the relationship with the other parent.&nbsp; Caught Eyes in bed w/the other parent..walked away &amp; never looked back</div><br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://nycweboy.typepad.com/my_weblog/images/2008/03/22/walking_away.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://nycweboy.typepad.com/my_weblog/images/2008/03/22/walking_away.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />D taught me that the "safe" ones aren't so safe, secretly they play that role but not just with you with everybody. D taught me to expect the unexpected no other lesson other than that....<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://elizadashwood.files.wordpress.com/2008/02/walking-away.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="131" nt="true" src="http://elizadashwood.files.wordpress.com/2008/02/walking-away.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />A came back &amp;&amp; taught me people will NEVER change..&amp;&amp; if they do it will be evident in their lifestyle not just their talk..so I WALKED...&amp; kept walking&nbsp; <br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.kabine18.de/images/clairewalkingaway.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="201" nt="true" src="http://www.kabine18.de/images/clairewalkingaway.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><br />C taught me to be friends first..also taught me that people are different when you're friends and when you are involved with the person.&nbsp; C taught me that friends first can lead to misconceptions,that the person who know's all your weaknesses will play on them.&nbsp; That it's harder to walk away when you've invested years in a person but that no amount of years will make it work.&nbsp; C taught me that I needed to place more value in myself, that I was worth more than the way C treated me.&nbsp; C taught me that it's possible for a person to love your child as if they were their own, that's the most valuable lesson C could ever teach me, the way C loved my daughter, the relationship C had with my daughter was something I loved and adored &amp;&amp; valued but C taught me that just because someone cares for your child doesn't mean you have to be with them..doesn't mean you have to allow them to treat you any kind of way.. C taught me that no matter how many times I tried &amp;&amp; failed @ walking away ..that it was still possible &amp;&amp; that's what I did leaving the remains of a failed friendship, a failed partnership along with pieces of my heart behind..<br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://fc08.deviantart.net/fs24/f/2008/028/a/c/Walking_Away_From_Everything_by_vampire_zombie.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" nt="true" src="http://fc08.deviantart.net/fs24/f/2008/028/a/c/Walking_Away_From_Everything_by_vampire_zombie.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />I've learned so many lessons from all of my experiences, what I want, what I refuse to accept and that it's possible to walk away.&nbsp; At the times where the relationships came to an end..I cried &amp; I cried..I felt so weak and hurt not knowing that in all my weakness I was strong enough to let go ..not realizing that as I was crying I was steady walking in the opposite direction.. I don't regret anything because I gave "All I Had To Give."&nbsp; <br /><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i15.photobucket.com/albums/a370/lisa291043/walking_away.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" nt="true" src="http://i15.photobucket.com/albums/a370/lisa291043/walking_away.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Lesson Learned: What you're willing to Walk Away from will determine what You will walk into.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.thediamonddivas.co.uk/images/walking-away.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://www.thediamonddivas.co.uk/images/walking-away.png" width="251" /></a><em>with love,</em></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><em>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Mimi</em></div>GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-15000678021826862010-03-25T08:19:00.001-04:002010-03-25T08:23:52.926-04:00Early Morning Blog....A lot has been on my mind lately, it seems so much is going on but isn't at the same time. I'm awake partly because lately I can not sleep, dont ask me why because I do not know. I probably slept all of an hour maybe. I'm really becoming obsessed with natural products and wondering to myself what on earth have I been doing to myself all these years smh, I'll get to that later..<br /><br />Let me tell you about my granny, she is an amazing woman, the staple in my family and I feel she has been underappreciated for a great deal of her life and by people close to her and that almost brings me to tears.&nbsp; I'm only talking about her today because she has really been on my mind and my heart lately. The older she gets the more dependent she becomes and I'm having to step up to the plate which I dont mind but it kind of scares me, like what would I do without her?? I'm dependent on her in a way and now that she's dependent on me to an extent it means more responsibilty for me and I dont want to disappoint her.&nbsp; A friend of her's passed a way last week and she seemed so sad as she should be, but I wonder what does it feel like to watch all of your friends and family members, people you love, leave you behind.&nbsp; I remember phone conversations she would have with her friends talking about what she would wear and what song to play at her funeral and the older she gets I realized although she outlived most of them she cant beat death.&nbsp; I'm scared for her, I dont want her to fall (which older people do sometime) I want to make sure she takes her medicine when she is supposed to (but she gets mad sometimes when you ask, like your making her sound irresponsible when sometimes the case may be she just forgot because of her age) I need her to eat right (I'm sure cheese eggs is not something you should eat EVERY day with a cup of Coffee)&nbsp; but hey she's 83 she's old enough to live how she want to and I dont want to get on her nerves, she must have been doing something right ..right?? I know that when her time comes she will be BLESSED oh yes..for how she lived on earth was ...be back I have to comb her hair...Ok I'm back..she wanted a Jeri Curl and I have no idea how to do it but I tried.&nbsp; I love that woman, she's everything to me and I'm going to stop talking about her because every time I start the tears well up in my eyes ..ugh!! I'm such a punk.<br /><br /><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6tPusvqoVI/AAAAAAAAACo/JHLrKV1gLD0/s1600/Photo0440.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" nt="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6tPusvqoVI/AAAAAAAAACo/JHLrKV1gLD0/s320/Photo0440.jpg" /></a></div>Wow it's Spring..&nbsp; :o) I opened my window and saw such a beautiful sight---&gt; <br /><br />Ok so back to my inability to have a good nights sleep..wondering if it has anything to do with the fact that these last few nights Kennedy has slept with me and I find myself fighting her to stay on HER side smh..kids lol.&nbsp; I hadn't recieved an email saying my items from&nbsp;<a href="http://myhoneychild.com/home">My HoneyChild</a> were shipped so I contacted the founder and asked why this was because I ONLY placed my order at like 2am on tuesday, I'm used to products taking about a day to ship meaning processed and shipped as long as the purchase is before 12pm.. But hey dont get me to lying.&nbsp; Anywho she responded to me and reassured me my shipment would be mailed out today along with the tracking number.&nbsp; I'm guessing it should be here by sat if not monday..I really hope it's not monday.<br /><br />Wandering around NC.com and discovering (something I've been doing for a while and not knowing) the CG (or should I say one factor of the CG) regimen which is Co-wash and low or no poo which lead me to investigate some shampoo bars..which lead me to a fellow curlies fotki page she's a PJ like myself, she reviewed them and so I gave in and purchased a few items from ..Ones that sparked my interest. Funny thing--&gt; I dont really use anything on my face besides a scrub every once in a while because my face rarely breaks out but I purchased more of them than actual shampoo bars lol.&nbsp; &amp;&amp; If you did'nt know I'm like infactuated with HONEY right now...you wont catch me eating it but I will be trying it for other purposes such as washing my face... Purchases I made @ 6am this morning from&nbsp;wait for it..wait for it...<br /><a href="https://www.chagrinvalleysoapandcraft.com/index.html">Chagrin Valley Soap And Craft</a><br />Goat Milk Oatmeal Honey Soap<br />Carrot and Honey Complexion Soap<br />Rhassoul Clay and Yogurt Complexion Soap<br />Mud and Clay Shampoo<br /><br />That is all for now.&nbsp; Didn't want to go overboard but I'm looking forward to their arrivals.&nbsp; I figure I will make purchases about once a week from new places and maybe around end of April beginning of May go a little crazy..just a little ...naw probably a lot.&nbsp; I already know who I'm purchasing from next week Yay!! <br /><br />I get to try out my Denman D4 brush today..looking into some protective styles for my hair and trying to develop a hair regimen.&nbsp; Be back later.GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-2228001525778578962010-03-24T19:28:00.001-04:002010-03-24T19:34:27.775-04:00It's ARRIVED!!!!! lmbo Oh && A Curls Review...Woot Woot!!Ok Ok So First lets hop to it..My Packages came today...I mean like really it only took FOREVER..coming from California smh but hey..what can you do?? Exactly...So I impatiently stalked the Fedex man..<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6qW4THAabI/AAAAAAAAACY/6KSmm-Z6iTQ/s1600/SAM_8112.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" nt="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6qW4THAabI/AAAAAAAAACY/6KSmm-Z6iTQ/s320/SAM_8112.JPG" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">&amp;&amp; all my stalking paid off..I got my packages Yay!!!! </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images110.fotki.com/v566/photos/1/1645041/8578898/SAM_8114-vi.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://images110.fotki.com/v566/photos/1/1645041/8578898/SAM_8114-vi.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I was so excited I almost BROKE my NECK getting up the stairs to open them :o)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Yes I did LINE them up lol &amp;&amp; Photograph them..but I did it for YOU not me..wanna see??</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images12.fotki.com/v236/photos/1/1645041/8578898/SAM_8126-vi.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" nt="true" src="http://images12.fotki.com/v236/photos/1/1645041/8578898/SAM_8126-vi.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Isn't it BEAUTIFUL?? I know I know it soooooo totally is, I cant wait to add to my collection. Anywho..Lets get to this review..</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Brand: Curls</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Product: </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Curlicious Curls Cleansing Cream</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Curls Escstacy Deep Condtioner</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Quenched Curls Moisturizing Spray</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Goddess Glaze Styling Gel</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Also on Kennedy the Curls It's a Curl line</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Peek-A-Boo Tearless Shampoo</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Patty Cake Conditoner</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Ring Around the Curlies Leave In Conditioner (sample size of this)</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">I think All in all it worked pretty well in Kennedy's hair..I'm anticipating similar if not better results when the full size of the Ring Around the Curlies arrives along with the It's Bitsy Spiral Baby Curl Moisturizer.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images110.fotki.com/v569/photos/1/1645041/8579195/SAM_8147-vi.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://images110.fotki.com/v569/photos/1/1645041/8579195/SAM_8147-vi.jpg" width="272" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">The shampoo lathered well for it to be all natural, I then conditoned her hair as well as combed it through then applied the Ring Around the Curlies Leave in to her wet hair &amp; that's it.&nbsp; I think for the most part it helped to define her curls, it definitely added some shine and it's smelled pretty cool.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images54.fotki.com/v1593/photos/1/1645041/8579195/SAM_8144-vi.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://images54.fotki.com/v1593/photos/1/1645041/8579195/SAM_8144-vi.jpg" width="273" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">It's kind of hard to to photograph a toddler lol but I tried..</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images52.fotki.com/v1565/photos/1/1645041/8579195/SAM_8143-vi.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" nt="true" src="http://images52.fotki.com/v1565/photos/1/1645041/8579195/SAM_8143-vi.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images51.fotki.com/v1560/photos/1/1645041/8579195/SAM_8141-vi.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://images51.fotki.com/v1560/photos/1/1645041/8579195/SAM_8141-vi.jpg" width="308" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">So all in all given her age and inability to stay still &amp;&amp; refrain from putting her head onn the floor..I believe the product worked well for her. I am pleased... Now...on to ME!!</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Was I pleased NO!! I washed my hair with the Curlicious Curl Creme &amp;&amp; I must say it smelled Divine!!! Like Cake Frosting...Yummers..then I proceded to deep condition my hair w/Curls Esctacy I combed it through and placed a cap over my head and used my Hair Therapy Wrap to complete the process. After rising out the deep conditioner I used the Quenched Curls Moisturizing Spray..Ok first issue..the way it sprays..it doesn't distribute evenly instead it kind of squirts I really don't like that.&nbsp; It also smells not so pleasing but it doesn't linger.&nbsp; Next I applied the Goddess Glaze as recommended by Manisha the founder of Curls during a consultation I had with her.&nbsp; Kind of thick, not sticky or was it?? Doesn't matter I washed my hands afterwards, then waited for it to dry.&nbsp; Results--&gt; Second Day hair :o( Not that I would mind if this was day 2 but being as though it isnt..we have a problem..here are the pictures--&gt;</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images52.fotki.com/v8/photos/1/1645041/8579369/SAM_8153-vi.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="257" nt="true" src="http://images52.fotki.com/v8/photos/1/1645041/8579369/SAM_8153-vi.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Texture Shot or LACK there of smh</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images47.fotki.com/v1399/photos/1/1645041/8579369/SAM_8159-vi.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://images47.fotki.com/v1399/photos/1/1645041/8579369/SAM_8159-vi.jpg" width="254" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">It's not the worst..I mean it's not Frizzy but it's not all that defined either..</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://images110.fotki.com/v566/photos/1/1645041/8579369/SAM_8156-vi.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" nt="true" src="http://images110.fotki.com/v566/photos/1/1645041/8579369/SAM_8156-vi.jpg" width="172" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Another texture shot..</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Anywho Overall I didnt like my results but it isnt the end of the world because I brought a large amount of her products and I have to experiment to see what works well for me and my hair.&nbsp; I have a few other stylers to play with so we shall see. Oh Oh &amp;&amp; guess what also arrived today via California</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6qfAFDQAsI/AAAAAAAAACg/ChEKRuqctXQ/s1600/SAM_8165.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" nt="true" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6qfAFDQAsI/AAAAAAAAACg/ChEKRuqctXQ/s320/SAM_8165.JPG" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">By way of the U.K. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">So tomorrow I can condition my hair along with using my Denman brush&nbsp; &amp;&amp; see if we get different results. Who knows.. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Now stalking the USPS worker--&gt;</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">My HoneyChild should be on it's way as well as the rest of Kennedy's Curls products. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Next week I think I'll order from Blended Beauty/Cutie or maybe Kinky Curly..</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div>GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-67167929033509884012010-03-23T11:27:00.002-04:002010-03-24T14:33:00.287-04:00Hi My Name is Mimi && I'm a Product Junkie...*groups says HI MiMi*<div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6jdYLuWbqI/AAAAAAAAACI/dL2HbfsufJE/s1600-h/ProductJunkie2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="400" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6jdYLuWbqI/AAAAAAAAACI/dL2HbfsufJE/s400/ProductJunkie2.jpg" vt="true" width="342" /></a></div>Hi My name is MiMi &amp;&amp; I'm a PJ <br /><br /><br /><br /><br />--------------------------------------------------------------------------------<br /><br />Hi lol My name is Mimi &amp;&amp; I'm a 24 y/o 3c/4a Transitioning mother of a 19 months 3b/c and I am soooo new to this and extremely excited about the whole process. I mean I have learned so much about hair by&nbsp; during my search for all natural products for my transition,&nbsp;reading reviews (which I LOVE!! Nothing better than hearing a persons opinion after using it) and googling the rest haha, I came across the acronymn PJ and learned that it stands for product junkie (the curly hair world has it's own language; PJ, BC, DT etc) &amp;&amp; boy oh boy I am becoming one. I want to try EVERYTHING..I wont even tell you how much I spent on Curls products and then Mixed chicks..all before I stumbled upon this site..NOW I'm interested in trying out... (My list of items to be purchased)<br /><br /><br /><br />Intelligent Nutrients Certified Organic Hair &amp; Scalp Treatment Oil<br /><br /><br /><br />My Honeychild Type 3/4 Hair Creme<br /><br /><br /><br />My Honeychild Organic Shea Butter Scalp Cleanser<br /><br /><br /><br />My Honeychild Olive You Conditioner<br /><br /><br /><br />My Honeychild Honey &amp; Horsetail Reconstructor<br /><br /><br /><br />My Honeychild Honey Hair Mask<br /><br /><br /><br />Ok Ok so I OD on the My Honeychild..but those purchases will be made in the near future..but my list doesnt end there...<br /><br /><br /><br />Curl Junkie Curl Fix Intense Hair Treatment<br /><br /><br /><br />Curl Junkie Curl Rehab Moisturizing Hair Treatment<br /><br /><br /><br />Kinky Curl Curling Custard<br /><br /><br /><br />Kinky Curl Knot Today<br /><br /><br /><br />Uncle Funky Daughter's Good Hair Conditioning Styling Creme (I read it's like MC's LI but w/o the crunch) <br /><br /><br /><br />As for my daughter I am soooo lost...I ordered her the Curls line..but I'm also very interested in Blended Cutie &amp;&amp; Original Sprouts &amp;&amp; Fairy Tales &amp;&amp; Kinky Curls.. I'm tempted to buy them all really. I was leaning towards ordering the Blended Cutie tonight..I'll hold off for a bit. I'm definitely TIRED of the Carols Daughter Tui for my daughter but it does not do enough for her hair...<br /><br /><br /><br />I need HELP <br /><br /><br /><br />BTW If anyone has tried any of the products I would love to hear how it worked for you. Thanks in Advance<br /><br /><br /><br />*********************************************<br /><br />UPDATE: 3/22/2010 --&gt; I gave in!!! I bought a few of the products on my list =/ LASTNITE lol yep I did it. THis is turning into a serious problem. <br /><br /><br /><br />Purchases: <br /><br />My HoneyChild Olive You Deep Conditioner (4.oz $9.00) <br /><br /><br /><br />My HoneyCHild Honey Hair Mask (4.oz $5.00)<br /><br /><br /><br />My HoneyChild Honey And HorseTail Reconstructor (4.oz $10.00)<br /><br /><br /><br />My HoneyChild Organic Shea Butter Hair Paste (4.oz $9.00) <br /><br /><br /><br /><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">My HoneyChild Sophia's Old Fashion Hair Grease (4.oz $5.50) &lt;--All Natural I plan to use it on my daughters hair when i braid it applying mainly to her hair lightly coating her scalp. Read nothing but positive reviews and found it to be cheap enough to give a try. </div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><br /><br /><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">All of the My HoneyChild products were purchased from the actual My HoneyChild website. Very easy to navigate, however not very professional, it's hard to locate your cart for checkout unless you add more items to your cart. Also there weren't any pics of what her product looks like in hair for reference purposes. I like the fact that she has ALL natural products and read positive reviews both on&nbsp;NaturallyCurly.com and the site. The prices differ on the My HoneyChild site because they offer smaller sizes at a reasonable price for those who want to try it out. </div><br /><br /><br />Curls Itsy Bitsy Spiral Baby Curl Moisturizer ($10.00)<br /><br /><br /><br />Curls Ring Around The Curlies Leave In Creme (11.00) <br /><br /><br /><br />I spent about $13.00 dollars because she offers a points system and I recieved 157 points from my first purchase earlier last week and I used those points towards my purchase last night. It was a difference of like 12.50 which I'm undecided about how I feel I spent 167 dollars and I couldnt even get 20 dollars worth of points..Let me not be petty. I ordered it to finish out the It's a Curl collection for my daughter, hoping that it lives up to the pictures and the reviews on the site. <br /><br /><br /><br />Also while Rummaging through google I stumbled upon a blog http://productjunkiediva.blogspot.co...&amp;max-results=7<br /><br /><br /><br />(it referenced My HoneyChild also she is a PJ) and she spoke about Rhassoul Clay that's supposed to rid your skin and body of Toxins that lead me to search for a reasonable distributor of the Rhassoul Powder to experiment with my self &amp;&amp; I came across this website https://www.camdengrey.com it features everything you could think of &amp;&amp; the prices are SUPER reasonable. They offer Raw UnRefined Natural products, butters, waxes, oils, poweders ANYTHING you can think of. Definitely making purchases from this site in the NEAR future. Also great for if you are trying to experiment with making your own homemade hair products <br /><br />__________________<br /><br />TRANSITIONING Woot Woot!! <br /><br />Last Relaxed 9/2009 No BC for me I'm GROWING it out!!! <br /><br /><br /><br />3c/4a Havent straightened my hair in 2 months Currently wearing a Wash N Go <br /><br /><br /><br />Experimenting with Curls &amp;&amp; Mixed Chicks ..impatiently awaiting their arrivals this week <br />**********************************************************************************<br /><u>Update--&gt; It arrived 3/24/2010 </u><br /><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6pZEs4bJ-I/AAAAAAAAACQ/dFwl46c4QOc/s1600/SAM_8126.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" nt="true" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6pZEs4bJ-I/AAAAAAAAACQ/dFwl46c4QOc/s320/SAM_8126.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br /></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">My 19 month old daughter Kennedy 3b/3c possibly 4a in the back. Very fine sides.. How do I retain moisture for her curls?? HELP!! </div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"></div>GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-78139456857063346042010-03-19T12:24:00.002-04:002010-03-23T11:36:41.818-04:00Going NATURAL....<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6OkMOMdwnI/AAAAAAAAACA/jGh3ZEozwCk/s1600-h/76337401.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="297" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S6OkMOMdwnI/AAAAAAAAACA/jGh3ZEozwCk/s320/76337401.jpg" vt="true" width="320" /></a></div><br />Ok ok ok so after years of "thinking" about it I've finally decided to just go ahead &amp;&amp; get with the program and just go NATURAL!!! It's like a super huge deal to me because I have always wanted to just did'nt have the balls to do it until I had my daughter.&nbsp; Kennedy's hair is very similar to my hair back when I was a child, #Fact she actually got her hair not from her father but from ME.&nbsp; My mother permed my hair at a young age because my sister needed one &amp;&amp; because although my hair was curly, it was thick and frizzy making it hard to manage.&nbsp; When I look at K's hair I love her curls but it's so hard to keep her hair moisturized like OMG..I thought to myself that's probably why my mother just threw in the towel &amp;&amp; said forget it PERM it!! lol But unlike her, Kennedy's hair did'nt make me want to give in the towel it made me want to search for products what will promote healthy hair growth and all natural products that will work for her hair.&nbsp; I want her to embrace her natural hair, to love who she is and to FINALLY find something that will work on her curls.<br /><br />I think I already stated this before in a previous blog, but if not I get my hair permed every six months.&nbsp; The last time I had my hair permed it was back in Sept and as the time came to get a new perm I started to question if I wanted to go through with it or if I wanted go natural.&nbsp; Problem: When going natural because my hair is naturally curly and possibly has more than one curl pattern, along with it's inability to stand humidity, how now would I approach the situation that would make this time different?&nbsp; There are all kinds of products on the market from curly perms to Jeri curls smh but nothing to really work on naturally curly Ethnic/Mixed hair.&nbsp; I have tried all the "white people"&nbsp;products that are designed for curls but nothing would work on my curls probably because I dont have "white people" hair. &amp;&amp; As far as the black market is concerned they are too busy RELAXING and &nbsp;TEXTURIZING their hair that they dont really embrace their natural hair.&nbsp; So on my quest to go natural as I am 7 months into NO perm, what will I do with my hair?? <br /><br />Taking it upon myself to research different products on the market that cater to my hair needs, as well as friends and family close to me that are currently suffering from the same dilemna, I took to GOOGLE!! SN: I LOVE that search engine. Ok, so anyway, I searched for curly hair products that cater to ethnic/mixed hair and came across a few sites that really caught my interest.&nbsp; But now what?? Well in order to determine which products work best on your curls you have to have your curl pattern diagnosed.&nbsp; The curl chart ranges from 1 to 4 with letters from a-c assigned to each number.&nbsp; 1 being the straight and 4 being the kinky, a being the straightest and c being the curliest of each hair pattern.&nbsp; After assessing both Kennedy as well as my own hair I had an idea that we fit in the 3 catergory which is the curls, 2 are waves and 4 are kinks, but wanting to be sure I contacted the administrator of the website and sent pictures of both my hair as well as Kennedy's hair to have it professionally assessed.&nbsp; The pictures I sent were pics of my hair wet in it's state now as well as close up pics of my new growth to show the curl pattern. After about an hour she contacted me and confirmed Kennedy to be a mixture of 3b and 3c and said my hair is likely to fall around 3c or 4a, I'm betting it's 3c though with possibly 4a mix because there is never just one curl pattern to your curls.&nbsp; Star References: kennedy's hair falls between: Mya (3b) and Rachel True (3c) and my hair is Rachel True(3c) and Beyonce (4a) .<br /><br />Wow..I guess I've talked an awful lot already..Sorry but the best way to fully understand something you must become obssessed with it and I am soooo there with hair. In these past few weeks I have been reading about the hair products featured on the different websites, I have also been reading about different hair regimens and what steps should be taken in caring for your curls. For instance you should wash with a cleanser once or twice a month and wash with a purifyer in between, that during your transition your hair will eventually revert back as long as you dont continue to flatiron it and that during this process you should deep condition atleast once a week.&nbsp; The proper brush to use as well as the different hair styles you can use to grow your hair out.&nbsp; I dont think it will be that hard for my hair to revert because unlike most people my hair doesnt/isnt straight and never has been the perm just relaxed my curls so I dont have straight ends or straight pieces.&nbsp; I opted for grow it out and have my ends trimmed every 6-8 weeks instead of doing a (BC) big chop or mini cuts where they cut about 4-5 inches every few months.&nbsp; I can only imagine the damage that was done to my hair after all the perming but I look forward to stronger longer curls as I continue to learn and love my curls.&nbsp; <br /><br />I'm like so excited.&nbsp; I ordered products from two different websites &amp;&amp; will be posting pics of my progress. Wish me luck =). Ps. I dont alter my curls in any way shape or form. I dont manipulate them by twist outs, braid out`s, finger curling I wash my hair and Go period. My current regimen until my products arrive: Wash w/ the purple bottle of Pantene ProV &amp; condition w/the purple bottle, comb the conditioner thru &amp;&amp; then rinse then apply a small amount of conditioner in my hand and even distribute that provides enough weight that I dont have to worry about my hair poofying up and becoming a mess. About every two days I co-wash with the conditioner and then apply a small about to my hair that's it.GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-25519212305314004062010-03-10T02:39:00.004-05:002010-03-10T16:10:15.972-05:00Me + Celibacy...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S5gGZnFFw7I/AAAAAAAAAB4/7DwDz4xhz0o/s1600-h/celibacy.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="356" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_C5yT1jxSOXY/S5gGZnFFw7I/AAAAAAAAAB4/7DwDz4xhz0o/s400/celibacy.jpg" vt="true" width="400" /></a></div>Yea yea I know it's all late at night or early in the morning but I'm still awake so why not?? <br />So in my quest to regain composure, learn who I am as a woman I decided to take the pressure off of me to have sex.&nbsp; Yep I said it I willingly gave up sex ON My OWN.&nbsp; I just felt that people dont value themselves as much as they value sex and in order to fully know my worth I decided to abstain from it.&nbsp; Born again virgin lol I use to laugh at them until I became one smh.&nbsp; So here's how I see it..to weed out the bs I get from guys who are only there for one thing but dont want to come out and say it telling them I am not sexually active and waiting until I get married will show their real colors and they wont be around for long; I did however run into a guy who was like "what!!" "why?" "It's too late you already have a kid" smh..poor him I told him I wasnt for him but he insisted until I blocked him smh..some ppl just got get it. So desperate they will try to talk me into it by telling me I made the wrong decision.&nbsp; Oh well.&nbsp; <br /><br />Anyway it has been a difficult process only because when I say something and mean I stick to it.&nbsp; Before I fully understood what celibacy was I thought I was doing it correctly, you see I dont sleep around if I'm not in a relationship I am not having sex..but while I wasnt in a relationship I would masturbate; only after joining church did I learn that behavior was unacceptable. "What!!' no masturabation are you kidding me!! What do I do with these feelings these urges..surpress them... In the beginning it was difficult everytime i felt the urge I would just go to sleep, or try to pray that God take the urge away but after discussing it with someone who went to my church they told me not to ask God to take the urge away because he might take it away for good so I stopped.&nbsp; With each passing day it became easier and easier..I got the hang of it now. <br /><br />Havent had sex since July 4th.2009 (w/ the EX) No oral, no masturabtion ..NOTHING.&nbsp; How do I feel about it?? I love my decision, I feel like sometimes sex gives the false impression that you love or are in love with someone which is far from the truth...You know how u can LOVE someone's sex and hate them..that's why you only get along when your getting it on smh (me &amp; the ex).&nbsp; Sex complicates things, people allow their infatuation, sexual attraction get the best of them before fully getting to know someone.&nbsp; Think about it..how long can you get to know someone, how long will you interact with someone knowing your not going to have sex?? Many people will tolerate someone just so they can have sex, meaning he will take her out to eat, spend all day at the mall with her knowing he hates shopping just because he is going to&nbsp;have sex&nbsp;at the end of the day..But could or would he do it if he werent?? If there were other women out there he could&nbsp;have sex with would her still bother with her&nbsp;?? Exactly.&nbsp; <br /><br />My point is with me and my personality you either love it or you hate it but if you can put up with it ..court it, date it, love it, engage&nbsp;&amp; marry it..you deserve my good.&nbsp; Very few men will even place themselves in this predicament because it would be a waste of time if they were after "one" thing &amp;&amp; furthermore if it's just the "one" thing he is after ...he can get it from anyone else without having to marry me..so why would he play that game??&nbsp; I believe I have weeded out alot of the bs while getting to know me, allowing the other person to see who I am without the false illusion sex can give and love and value who I am and what qualities I possess that have absolutely nothing to do with the bedroom.&nbsp; Hey it's not for everybody but it works for me.&nbsp; Learning self control is something I must say I am proud of..not rushing into anything allowing my body to fully recooperate from the touches, the kisses, the feelings my ex provided...leaving no memory of what it felt like to be with them allows for new experiences and no comparison with my future.&nbsp; A cleansing of sorts :o)GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-35160435398530594012010-03-09T12:59:00.000-05:002010-03-09T12:59:17.336-05:00Quick RecapWow once again I have let a long period of time pass before updating..not that anyone is reading this blog anyway due to my inconsistency..lmbo. Anywho here goes nothing. Still in the Pursuit of Happiness and in the process learning to love myself, value my worth, making moves to accomplish goals and be the best me I can be. No I'm not where I would like to be or where I think I should be but I'm happy where I am knowing that I wont remain in this state for too long. A work in progress, so much further than I was last year but not quite where I want to be :) The kid is very active..I swear they grow up so fast..today she said Eat Eat..lol and Ut Ohh and a rack of other things that make me say "what in the world" smh As each day passes she begans to look more like me developing her own personality based off of how I interact with her. The hands on her hip, smiling at herself in the mirror, dancing around the house we have truly come so far. The other morning she woke me with a hug and a kiss on my cheek..life doesnt get any sweeter..learning to be grateful for what I have &amp;&amp; not focus on what I dont. <br /><br />My Trip to the Bahamas..no kid, no phone, no FB, Myspace or Twitter..no OUTSIDE world..just me &amp;&amp; my cuzzo &amp; aunt along with several hundred retirees, springbreakers &amp;&amp; church folk lol. Can you say AMAZING* A much needed week long vacation. Due to inclimate weather we were unable to stop at Cococay so instead we just docked in Nassau for two days during those days I got to explore Atlantis/Paradise Island, took a ferry, saw sharks &amp; stingrays, visited the beach..played in the water, spoke with natives, did some shopping ..&amp;&amp; enjoyed every minute. On my trip we also got to fellowship with Pastor Zachery Tims and his church New Destiny along with special guests John Gray &amp; Smokie Norful. They offered words of advice, encouragement, workshops, fellowships as well as praise &amp; worship. I loved it..cant wait to go back next year. I wasnt able to Jet Ski or Snorkel, Swim with the Dolphins or Parasail due to the weather as well as prior committments but that's ok there is always next time. After having such a great time I am now planning my next trip which will take place in Dec for my 25th Birthday &amp;&amp; I'm so excited =)<br /><br />Hair News..I get perms twice a year..every six months and as I began to pass my 6th month I am leaning more towards going natural..researching natural hair styles and products. Was thinking about creating a hair blog so everyone could go through the transition with me as I use and discover the different products that work for me, try different hair regimens and my overall journey from permed to natural hair. <br /><br />Relationships/Trust/Self-worth/Understanding/Forgiveness/Openess/Courtship/Marriage--> All things I look forward to discussing in my future blogs. I've said so much ..documented my last relationship as I'm sure many of you read..not only was it unsuccessful but unhealthy as well..I'm now becoming one as a person, whole, unique and developed in my singleness. Learning who I am as a person, what I bring to the table and what I want and look for in a future mate. Having a clear understanding of who you are and being comfortable being you is key in developing a relationship with someone else. Everyone has insecurities so it would be unrealistic of me to portray myself as having none..but I refuse to let them hold me back from experiencing a good, productive, healthy courtship. I have so much to share but this blog is already so very long..maybe I will return later on today to finish up..BBLGorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-56897048596058436002009-09-21T11:36:00.002-04:002009-09-21T12:22:55.342-04:00How undeserving I've been<br />Went the OPPOSITE and turned my back on HIM<br />So quickly I forgot that he breathed life into ME<br />He caught me before I fell and STOOD me to my FEET<br />He watched me Pray night after night..<br />saw that I BELIEVED<br />When the time was right he did INTERSEDE<br />and again he SPOKE LIFE <br />then revealed himself to ME<br />Angered by how long it took I questioned his INTENT<br />How it mustve broken his heart to watch me go AGAINST<br />My praying Ended my heart became STONE<br />Why Father God would you break up my HOME<br />No mother No FATHER Dont I deserve LOVE??<br />I lost sight of my Faith set aside the Lord GOD above<br />Lost and confused I fell from his GRACE<br />from one dimension to another till I fell on my FACE<br />Just when I was DONE couldnt take ANYMORE<br />Heartbroken,Deserted,I CALLED for the LORD<br />I cried and I cried Oh Lord GOD How've I sinned<br />You dont LOVE me Father God Im UNDERSERVING!!<br />But I give you all of ME, I know U STILL CARE<br />Every step in the wrong direction I KNOW u were THERE<br />I know it mustve have hurt you, the things that youve SEEN<br />But from my Demonds you FOUGHT and DELIVERED ME!!<br />Once again You SPOKE LIFE oh how You set me FREE<br />Father what have I done that in ME you BELIEVE!!<br />For I dont have your EYES so I do not SEE<br />But you again to your child you REVEALED yourself to ME<br />So I stand before you HUMBLED and TRUE<br />As a Witness, your Daughter, dedicating my LIFE to YOU!!<br />Starting from SCRATCH Do with me what you WILL<br />I want Talk RIGHT, I want to walk RIGHT I want to MOVE RIGHT<br />I want to Sleep RIGHT I want to EAT RIGHT <br />Through ME others will SEE that YOU STILL LIVE!GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-27210931026304905752009-09-06T22:29:00.004-04:002009-09-06T22:43:27.223-04:00Blessed and Highly FavoredI havent blogged on here in a while ....wow. It's crazy when I was going through the storm I blogged everyday almost..and now that the storm has passed I havent allowed you guys to see my progress..my attitude and my new beginnings. <br /><br />I cant even begin to tell you just how blessed I am. My testimony speaks for itself. I went to church today and was reminded just how blessed I am that God took me out of my situation and delivered me from all the hurt and pain and confusion I had been going through. Mmmmmm it feels so good...I feel so free. To think where I would be had he left my side..I thank him everyday I was able to be DELIVERED from my storm with knowledge to not only get back to where I was but knowledge to further myself not only as a woman of God but as a mother, sister, daughter and friend.<br /><br />I love him because he knew exactly what I needed and when I needed it. If he does NOTHING else for me in my life..he's ALREADY done so much!! Thank you Father!! I give you praise!! Only you know where Ive been and what I've been delivered from...when no one else was there..HE WAS!! When no one cared..HE DID...when I didnt feel worthy enough to be loved..HE LOVED ME..and NEVER turned his back to me..When I'm alone and dont have no one to call on...I call on HIM!! Oh what a wonderful feeling. Order my steps..I know where I came from and will do whatever it takes to WALK INTO MY DESTINY..TO FULFILL MY PURPOSE!!!! <br /><br />Many of you may not understand where I'm coming from..but it's not for everyone to understand..but the JOY I feel right now..he's is working on me...and I am working on myself...and I'm in a better place all because of him..so I give him all PRAISE. I give myself to him wholeheartedly..for I am nothing WITHOUT HIM!! This life is not my own..I want nothing more than to PLEASE him..to be an empty vessel for him to use..Mmmmmm It feels so GOOD to be in such a space ...a place where you feel acceptance, love and care..enabling you to GROW..Mature..and DEVELOP into a better..patient..understanding..positive Woman. <br /><br />I'll try to update my blogspot every few days and share my feelings..my growth with you. =) Until the next time..Be Blessed.GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-10965143434049805462009-05-10T11:02:00.002-04:002009-05-10T11:13:12.540-04:00I want my own.I'm tired of being depressed. I want my own...my very own. I want my own person, my own love...my own family. I want something meant for me. I'm tired of getting everybody else's even when I'm unaware anyone else exists. I dont want left over love...the reminents of a love that was given to someone else..the bottom of the barrel, the scraps.. I dont want a half ass family...the family that only exist in my mind..because at the end of the day...EVERYBODY goes home and it's just she and I. I think I deserve to be happy. ..all the time..not just when someone decides I should be. I just want my own. I cant share anymore...i dont want to share anymore..with anyone. I dont want to just be the mother of someone's child, I want to be a wife, I want to be of some importance, I want to MATTER to someone..I want she and I to be someone's world..instead of my world co-existing with their world with someone else. Tired of NEVER making ANYONE'S cut.GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-25719131042913998422009-03-31T13:25:00.000-04:002009-03-31T13:31:38.243-04:00In repsonse to your BLOG:Your WROTE:ok shes dogged&&disrespected me enough. i feel its time to stack my claim to all these meaningless people she decideds to air my shit out wit. Yes i asked for kennedy. I wanted My daughter before you knew what she was in your own belly. An yes I started having sex wit you again for all the wrong reasons. But in no way shape or form have i lied to you in any way Lee. You made a choice. I didnt get you drunk and in the heat of the nite try to ravege. I asked you sober and thinkin clear as day did you want to have sex wit me. YOu agreeded i didnt use any trickery. An as far as my daughter and my family are concerned, i have been there beside you since the day that lil girl came home so has my family. im sorry i dont have the resraints that your baby daddy has cause of his seman. When i asked you to be in her life i hoped i would be enough to safice for that jack ass not being around. dont ever try say im not a good partner or parent to you wit k. i take care of her. When i cant get her i dont leave you waiting, i call explain shit. You make it seem like i stand my daughter up on a regular basis, i dont. i call n check on her everyday even when were beefing. even with all the drama and extra bullshit ive gotta put up wit from u. Im there when she sick and in need and when shes fine and ready to play. i know My child. Im not no holiday send some money parent. But do i get any fucking credit. i dont want praise give that to god. i just want your dirty asss mouth to admit it. YOu want to tell this world im not worth a pot to piss in. why dont you tell them about before she got here or even thought of. back to topic<br /> this is what it all comes down to :HEr name is mari.....<br />this is the reason my baby mother hates my guts. She wants to admit to her that i was sexing wit mari while i was sexing wit her. whatever. you people understand complicated. i n mari have been on again off again for 3 years. however i wasnt sexing them at the same time. i wish.<br />Bm thinks i was top secrertly seeing mari while we were seeing if a relationship between us would work, needless to say it didnt. and immidetly after we decided it wouldnt work i went back to seeing mari. the shit so complex. but plain n simple i wasnt sexing them both. what happens i a mari briefly are off soooo i asked my bm could we sex with no explaintion of why. at first she said no then a couple days later she said yes. so we sexed as usual wit the baby in the crib sleep. that was that. or so I thought. so now bm talking like you hurt me you lied to me you mislead me. i dont think any of this is true. I think cause we had sex her feeling flared up. an tho i dont know what she expected this is how it is. so now im every name in the book, she dont want to talk. ok. n to add to the problems of other people getting invovled in all my business tellin her shit that aint really got nutting to wit her cause they assume shit. so now ive aired out my own shit now im going to change my world<br /><br /><br />My response:<br />Chantel do as you please and tell yourself what you want. I'm tired of being your back up plan, your second or whatever else you want to call it. If you want to be with that ran down, mustashe having, possibly std carrying whore who's fucked half the lesbian community, dated a friend of yours, and used you as her second while she has had girlfriends without admitting it to you until it was too late, FINE. Go be with that bitch. I could give a fuck less. But you got the game fucked up if you think you can choose her over me then come lay in my fuckin bed you tired piece of shit. I'm done going back and fucking fourth with you lying ass. Now all of a sudden ya'll been on and off for 3 years but outta the five years we been friends I didnt hear of the bitch till LAST fuckin year. && when I asked about her you said it was a fuckin thing and that was it. That she played the shit outta you you fuckin LAME. You both deserve eachother. Fuck outta my goddamn face you BITCH! && while your at it tell that good for nothing tramp bitch to give you a fuckin baby so you can get the fuck outta my face. How the fuck do you like me now???? Stay away...far the fuck AWAY from me. Good FUCKIN bye.<br /><br />Dont call my phone, dont come to my house. I will get an order out against you. && I'll prolly look into it during my spring break. WHORE!GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-82839229633085051772009-03-30T23:09:00.000-04:002009-03-30T23:18:34.414-04:00So Long.After giving it alot of thought and shedding more tears than I would have liked to, I've decided to say Goodbye for good. I've come to a point in my life...like a crossroad, should I stay or should I go?? And I'm leaving. Its been heavy on my mind and I have been struggling with whether or not I would be able to follow through because of how many years we have backing us, but I have to do whats best for me. Stay true to my world however much you may not like it. I have to let you go completely. I no longer wish you into my world your access is not longer granted in my life. Your not welcome anymore. It's not an easy decision for me to make but its one I have to stick to. I know what it is and it will never be how you want it so I think we just need to both accept the inevitable and part ways. I mean it, as sure is the sky is grey I mean it. I dont know how it will be possible with Kennedy involved, but should you choose to stay involved in her life know that doesnt not mean your presence is welcomed in mine. We will have to figure something out. Wouldnt want you to feel trapped. But I cant do it and refuse to try the same way you did. I see the end in the beginning and it's not in your favor. Moving on with my life without you. I will be deleting your my myspace pages, as well as making this blog private. You have the house number, my cell will be changing and you will NOT be notified. If the matter has nothing to do with Kennedy I dont expect to see you or hear from you at all. I wish you well, our season has come and gone. Goodbye.GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-76216566747726684092009-03-30T10:21:00.000-04:002009-03-30T16:27:13.551-04:00SUPER MEGA BITCH ALERT!It's about damn time, I have put up with way too much shit from everybody, cared more about how others felt when they could give TWO count them TWO fucks about how I feel. I'm DONE with it. So Imma air everything out...RIGHT here..RIGHT fucking NOW.<br /><br />I use you?? FOR WHAT? I dont ask you to do shit, get me shit or anything like that. You dont buy me anything. Havent paid my bill in like forever so tell me how the fuck I use you?? Tell me your not talking about Kennedy. THe daughter you claim as yours...I dont even call that often and I only ask for what she needs. If that is using you I dont know what to day. Carry it like that if you want. Taking it out on K. I wont call about shit in regards to her. <br /><br />NO she will NOT be getting blessed on Sat. It was not discussed with me before hand and I dont see the point? For what. I'm over all this seperation of people. Either K will be accepted with all that she comes with or I dont need her acceptance at all. I'm not having 3 seperate ceremonies. I postponed her christianing for YOUR mother because I was asked to, changed the date, time and location, sent out the invites only for the shit to be cancelled over something so fucking petty as to whould be in attendance. Shit is so fuckin selfish. Has anyone taken the time to think of what I am supposed to say to my fuckin family to explain why it's cancelled or what bullshit Imma have to go through explaining that shit to his family. NO. Because as long as YOU get what the fuck you want it's cool. How the fuck can you ruin something that is supposed to be a good thing, something where the intentions are PURE and allow peoples selfish wants and needs to interfere with her baby dedication. It's fucking all or nothing. Not to mention I dont appreciate the fact that YOUR mother has made not one attempt to contact me in regards to the situation since I sent the list of names, The situation could have been addressed between she and I but instead she hasnt communicated with me since. All of it is fucking bullshit and I'm over it.<br /><br />Because you dont like what I have to say or my attitude you take it out on Kennedy. How immature is that. Either your in her life or your not. Your NOT here for me at all so I dont see how my attitude affects you. You dont have to sit in my face, we dont have to communicate other than when it has to do with her so NOT picking her up yestedday when you said you were going to falls back into the pattern we went throught the first couple times we were beefing. You are able to spereate love from sex but you cant seperate my attitude from your willingness to be in her life?? How backwards is that shit. You wouldnt even have this problem if you were being real and fuckin honest from the goddamn jump. But you werent and your not getting away with it. Just the other day you all talking about how you dont want to be with me right now cause you want to get ya life together..blah blah blah...bullshit. You dont want and wasnt ever gonna be with me and you told P and ya mom && whoever else but me. You fuckin LIAR. You bring all the extra drama on yourself and get mad when someone calls you out on it. <br /><br />I'm tired of trying to make her happy, tired of trying to please her and do things her way when it benefits me none. Im tired of having such fake and phoneyness in my life and in Kennedy's life as well as around my family. You aitn worth a pot to piss in. Keep all the extra shit to yourself. It's time to Respect me because I'm through with it, dont know how to address me in a manner that is appropriate...shut your mouth and dont talk to me. I'm DONE! Shit is about to get REAL fuckin ugly. Attitude on fuckin MAX! Done being everyones fucking doormat. <br />I'm DONE. && If you aint like me before you sure as hell aint gonna like me NOW.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /> Sincerely-<br /> NOT GIVING A FUCK*GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-72624679799871544632009-03-29T00:11:00.001-04:002009-03-29T00:11:37.977-04:00For Fun && Very trueDecember<br /><br />Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-72440310590175460032009-03-29T00:04:00.000-04:002009-03-29T00:05:42.048-04:00Truer words have never been spoken....SELFISH IMPATIENT N A LIL INSECURE I Make Mistakes Im Out of Control @ Times Hard 2 Handle, If U Cant Handle Me @ My Worst Thn U Sure As HELL Dnt Dsrv @ my best<br /> -AnnonymousGorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-89258172238649672072009-03-28T19:58:00.000-04:002009-03-28T20:23:44.160-04:00The games people playIn my last blog I was ill-tempered and outrageous, I want to apologize for the way it came out but I dont apologize for the message I was trying to get across. I just feel like if your sleeping with someone and they decide they are going to start talking to someone else you should be made aware of if and allowed to decide whether you want to remain in the same situation. I have a strong fear of diseases and I dont wish to deal with anyone who could possibly be kissing, sucking or fucking someone else. Lemme tell you how trust and honesty go hand in hand in what is supposed to be an Open situation. I dont really know what to call it but ok here: If you decide we are gonna continue to have sex with me I think the least you can do/we can do is to be honest and open about whats going on between the both of us. It's a situation where should we decide to deal with other people neither parties can get mad and I respect that..but when you dont come to me and tell me that your interested in, and pursing someone while your laying in my bed and kissing my lips and fucking me..there is a problem. I should NOT have to find out from anyone else...Why must I always be the goddamn last to know shit. && for the simple fact that it wasnt brought to my attention from jump, I refuse to believe shit you have to say after the fact. I'm supposed to believe you havent been having sex with her?? Yea right. Since when? It aint like ya'll aint had sex before...&& ya'll wasnt in a relationship fuck is stopping you now?? Right. && if you werent even gonna tell me u were dealing with her like that..why should I believe that you would come to me and tell me you are having sex with someone else? If you call yourself being open and honest you shouldnt have to hide shit. && If it's not that serious then you wouldve volunteered the information. All in all it's a lack of respect for me that made you feel as though you have done NO wrong in this situation and that's sad. Your the ONLY person who thinks it's ok and it's not. Pretty pathetic. How the fuck am I supposed to believe you wont bring her around my daughter?? That ya'll not sharing a bed with Kennedy in it?? When you didnt have the decency to keep me informed in the first place. I cant believe shit you say. To me your just making it worst. Omission is betrayal. Not saying the whole truth or volunteering the whole story is lying. I know too many liars and up until now you fooled the shit outta me. Your just like them, no better.<br /><br />I dont have to be nice to anyone. You hurt me and keep on hurting me knowing that you are HURTING me and expect me to be nice to you. && Claim that you dont mean to but you keep on doing it?? Makes no sense. A contridiction. You dont owe me anything..but I give you the truth..I give you respect and loyalty and all I have ever asked for in our friendship and whatever else has taken place was for the reciprocation and you have failed over and over to give it to me. No more words are left. My loyalty is fading with the quickness, my heart is becoming hardened in regards to you with repeated disappointments and poor excuses of how your not like everyone else. When does COMMON sense enter YOUR picture?? You cant possible be that dumb. U must like the shit outta drama but I spent the last two years trying my best to stay away from it and now dealing with u I'm once again all up in the mix. Never once a heartfelt apology for anything. I cant believe you dont think you owe me that...outta all the shit we done been through over the last 7 almost 8 months...u dont feel responsible for anything?? That's fine. But your burning your bridges for lack of a better word and when she fucks you over and shit dont work out I wont be waiting in the wings for you. So dont look for me. I'm tired of playing this game and I'm over you pretending your innocent and that I brought it all on myself. The same way I was aware of what I was getting myself into although my expectations may differ from yours, you, also, were well aware of the type of person I am and you knew what to expect. You have been around LONG enough to know. Definately feeling some kind of way. And Betrayal is only the beginning of what I feel. Always had your best interest at heart. Always. Feed me lies about how you dont want to bring blah blah blah in my life and how you want to get your shit together...blah blah blah instead of just saying what you really feel..going hard and keeping it 100 and saying YOU JUST DIDNT WANT ME FROM THE BEGINNING. You wouldve saved yourself alot of headaches.GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-40875603102765966082009-03-27T01:34:00.000-04:002009-03-27T01:44:32.307-04:00The FOOL yet AGAIN.F'n whore! Yo I swear I dont know how I've wronged anyone to keep getting fed all the bullshit I have but I'm done with it. Shorty a liar by omission. Bitch straight feelin herself mad heavy. You got that. Do you lil mama real talk. Lil bitch. Excuse me ya'll but I'm on fuckin FIRE right now. I cant stand people who are dishonest. Liars by not telling the WHOLE fuckin truth..lil bitch had the nerve. I appreciate what you've done for K and all but FUCK you wit a SICK DICK! Dont come around here NO TIME soon. I promised I will LAY HANDS ON U something TERRIBLE. I dont even wanna see ya face till Weds when you come get K. That's if I let u, fuckin slut. Twice tho?? Really?? My friend right?? U dont even know what 100 really is. A conscious?? Fuck ass no you dont possess one of those. Omission TRICK. You tell only the parts that fit into your idea of what the STORY should be. I wanna beat ur body all the rage I feel right now. OUT for SELF aint the word. Everyday I look at you mad different then I did before. Dont feel bad about it, why'd you FAIL to mention it?? I once again look like the fuckin fool...I shouldve known when you referred to me as "the girl." I will punch u in the fuckin mouth. Ya'll not hearing me right now. Ya'll not seeing shit how I see it. Only bitch who think she got game and forever stay caught the fuck up. Some messy shit alawys. But Imma put it to u like this...YOUR NOT WELCOMED IN MY HOUSE. YOUR NOT WELCOMED AROUND MY FAMILY. YOUR JUST BARELY WELCOMED IN KENNEDY'S LIFE. Dont really think I should expose her to such TRASH! Dont come around here till weds, if u attempt to come around or contact me anytime before weds I promise not only will I lay hands on you, I will have you arrested && get a restraining order. Think I'm playing TRY ME!. You fuckin BITCH.GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3127468261682210799.post-3745357423328201172009-03-27T00:14:00.000-04:002009-03-27T00:37:51.989-04:00Which is BETTER??Topic stolen from Necole Bitchie: Is it better to settle for less OR to just be alone??<br /><br />For all of my followers I'm sure you ALL know I can relate to this topic so that's why I chose to blog about it. I find myself straddling the fence when it comes to this...If I were to be honest..I feel like settling for less is NEVER the right thing to do. So I refuse. I've tried it only ONCE in my life and it was recently. But I was brought up to want nothing but the best...not to settle for what someone will give me. I know my worth. I know I'm a great person I am also very aware of what I lack but I'm sure there is someone who will whole heartedly LOVE me instead of half-assed do the job. Personally being anything other than "THE ONE" && definately being anyone other than the "ONLY" is not for me. It leaves you questioning what wrong and why they behave in a way that they do. It crushes your spirit and make you feel incompetent. && All in all wears on your self esteem and leaves you an insecure MESS! Such a horrible feeling and I'm sorry but fuck being desperate...if they cant give me their all I will pick at how INCOMPETENT they are at fulfilling my need for attention, to exclusivity and ultimately have to walk away. It is NEVER worth it, no matter the sex, how they make you feel at the time, no amount of money...nothing. If your looking to give your heart to someone and to be in a loving relationship how the fuck can you sleep nowing your NOT the main squeeze but the one they are squeezing when they are with you?? What are they bringing to the table?? What makes them so special?? Who are they that you have to compromise what you want and who you are for them?? Why are they worht the compromise yet you werent because they REFUSE to give you what you want. Settling is not being a RIDE or DIE..it's a cop out. If they dont want you now, the wont want you later. How are you comfortable with a glass half full and your needs NOT met?? It's a packaged deal meaning all of nothing...sex will not sustain a relationship...turning a blind eye says a whole lot about what your willing to put up with and your lack of self esteem and self worth..Trust me I know. After so many bad relationships I found myself settling because I felt like something was better than nothing but at the end of the day I felt more emptiness and loneliness after everything was said and done and she went on with her day. Those few minutes will never be long enough...the kisses wont last and the phone calls arent as frequent as you'd like them to be. Who ever said it's better to have loved than to not at all...was lying. They prolly married the shit out their first love. Fuck that..you cant want what you aint had. Not sure If I've ever had the love everyone talks about, the love people are dying to feel and who cares if I never get that..I know I wont settling for what someone choses to give me as if I'm some beggar asking for whatever you can spare. <br /><br />YOu know being alone isnt so bad people just are used to being with someone and relying on someone to be or bring their happiness when the people themselves arent happy. When you walk away from your settlement..does the person even care?? NO, they are uneffected. They move on as if you never existed and continue with their life. You know...erase, replace, embrace new face..believe you me they do just that. They keep'em lined up waiting for you to realize what you've agreed to and come to your senses. They arent mad tho, usually glad they had you for however long you were brainwashed so they respect your wishes when you decide to move on.<br /><br />End of story..KNOW WHAT YOU BRING TO THE TABLE..EMBRACE AND LOVE YOURSELF FIRST. LOVING YOU, YOU WILL NEVER ALLOW YOURSELF TO SETTLE FOR ANYTHING LESS THAN DESERVING. If they want the ran down, uneducated nothing ass bitches they chase around the streets let them be, they deserve all the hardbreak, hardships and devestation they get for dealing with them hoes, unable to recognize a good thing when they had it and will never come close to touching again. Fucking whores! Sorry ya'll gettin mad personal. Imma end this right quick. Never settle..you may miss ya blessings dealing with the FOOLISH.GorgeousDreamer♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/05184142051686006153noreply@blogger.com0