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Tuesday, July 15, 2008

I am unsure of whether or not I've said enough- enough about the One that I know has helped me grow in any area I've made a gain. The One who gives me much grace daily as I struggle and sin and scrape to figure out how to live this life. The One who is my great joy and peace and hope and strength and comfort as I navigate these crazy days of mine, of ours. The One who is my inspiration and wisdom and light and new thing. Every day.

Have I mentioned enough, how imperfect I am? I wouldn't want to glory in my own self-loathing, but I do want to make a point, that reflecting on my own imperfections would point me and others to the One who is perfection.

Have I mentioned enough, that Jesus is my life? Have I mentioned enough that I can hardly recognize the person I was before He came and took me over? Have I mentioned enough that any gains I've made in this life, any growth of my heart, my soul, my mind or any possible skills I have, are all attributed to the One who is constantly at work in me? And I am dearly in need of that work, I promise.

If I have made gains in how we spend or save our money, it has been through years of need that have born creativity in it's management. If I have made gains in mothering, it is through years of struggle and crying out for wisdom that have born the answers to those prayers- and I hope for much more wisdom to come. No one knows my need for mother-wisdom more than my children, I promise. If I have made gains in the ways that I order this house, it is through years of asking the Lord to show me how to order my days aright.

This summer marks a decade. A decade from the moment I realized how helpless I was, and I handed my life over to the One who fed thousands with just a handful of loaves and fishes.

If I share the moments of our every days with you, but never share my gratitude for the One who is at the center of them, I have missed the mark. If I haven't said it enough, I will say it now, and try to communicate this truth more often. God isn't just a nice thought, He isn't just the One I run to in trouble, He isn't just the thing that I have invented to attempt to create a sense of meaning out of death or pain or trouble. Jesus Christ is my everything, and any good thing in me is Him alone.

amen! What a wonderful decade its been for you! He's the one that I thank daily for the blessings in my life. I would have nothing if it were not for Jesus blessing me over and over. I thank and praise Him for the health and safety of my family and loved ones. Every day is right! What an AMAZING blessing that the Lord allows us to have a personal relationship with Him. Brings tears just thinking of it.

Awww. I really liked this post. It's great for you give glory to God for all He's done in your life...that's it's been HIM all along.Hope you have fun at your conference...wait, I KNOW you'll have fun. Say hi to April for me.