[This entry was initially posted to the original Red Keyhole blog on 28 February 2011.]

The following personal narrative (from a 20-something young man) has been excerpted from comments posted to an incest discussion forum in December 2009, recounting “some older memories of mine [that] have come up with my sister.”

As a brief case study, posted here for educational purposes, this narrative provides insight on some of the dynamics (and emotional stresses) of brother-sister consensual incest. It particularly provides some insight as to how a close brother-sister relationship in youth can develop into a sexual dimension.

The narrative also provides interesting insight on some of the details of consensual sexual experimentation between very young heterosexual siblings – an aspect of childhood sexual development that is rarely discussed in public media and even professional studies, and indeed is nearly taboo. In any case, in this respect, this narrative affords a particularly illuminating glimpse of some intimate aspects of pubescent or adolescent sexuality (invoking, incidentally, issues of the Youth sex taboo, and “age-of-consent” prohibitions against youth sex vs. an effective consent approach). This case also renders an example of how early sexual experimentation between brother and sister can develop into more robust incest as the siblings mature into adults.

Sexual experimentation between young siblings during pubescence and adolescence sometimes develops into a more mature incestuous relationship later in life.

The original posting has been slightly edited to improve orthography and readability, but original language has been retained as much as possible. Some of the language is quite mature and sexually explicit, but this is important in illustrating such aspects as psychological dynamics, emotional attitudes, and physical behavior.

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We had sex the other day. We are both in our late 20’s, but the whole experience came up because I brought up something we used to do together when we were younger.

I was at her house visiting for the holiday. She lives alone, has a X-year-old girl. We were drinking wine when she started talking about how she has not even been on a date for so long, and then, in her drunkenness, I am guessing, said to me “Too bad you don’t live here. Then we could be like we were when we were kids.”

This is something we have not talked about in years! I mean, since long before she had her daughter, and probably not since we were living at home.

Anyway, I knew right what she was talking about, but I played dumb. I said “What do you mean?”

She tried to beat around it at first. She said things like “You know, like when you used to sneak in my room when I was sleeping.”

The thing is, she is only two years younger then me, so we were close and we used to experiment on each other. Like, I would sneak in her room while she was sleeping. Well, I thought she was, but later I find out she never was asleep.

Like, I would lay on the ground next to her bed in the middle of the night. I would slide my arm under her covers [and] feel her up. Like, she would usually sleep in a top and panties. I would rub her pussy over her panties.

That was until the 2nd or 3rd time I snuck in there. I got in my position by her bed, stuck my arm under the covers and would feel for her leg. Then I would move to her panties. Well, this time I was rubbing over her panties when suddenly her hand touched mine.

It was weird because it was not suddenly. It startled me, but not enough to move, because she gently put her hand over [mine] and almost pushed it down harder. I rubbed it a bit with the help of her hand, but I didn’t really do anything else. She still pretended to be sleeping. Eventually she would just move her body away, like she was just moving in her sleep. Then I left.

I did it again some time later, and the same thing happened. I started rubbing, this time rubbing [with] my own dick. We were very young, so didn’t quite know what to do. Then she, all while pretending she was sleeping, pulled her panties down a little so my head went underneath them.

I was young, but I knew what she was doing. So I just pulled her panties down more so I could put my hand all the way down. This was the first time I felt an actually pussy. It was bald then, but it was a pussy.

This continued now and then. Sometimes if we were downstairs watching TV, and it was late and she had a blanket on, she would act like she was a asleep, but I knew she wasn’t, because she would put the blanket over her legs while on the couch, but kind of spread her legs.

So then I would slip my hand under the blanket and start rubbing her pussy. For a while I would only rub her pussy, in her slit and stuff.

One day, she grabbed my hand, while playing like she was asleep of course, and guided my finger in her pussy. This was amazing.

Anyway, this continued off and on months. Starting once a month, then once ever two weeks, then eventually all the time.

After about 4-6 months of this, one time I was in her room late, hand under the covers and fingering her. This time she was getting into it … was not faking asleep too much. She would move her hips and stuff. I was so sick of being in the awkward position … like, my arm always hurt after, because I was trying to hide on the side of the bed while fingering her.

Anyway, this one time she was getting into it, and my arm was hurting so I just said to myself “Screw it.” So I got up off the floor and kind of took her covers off. At first I could tell she almost got up but then she just stayed.

I got kind of on her bed and started fingering her more … Not knowing what I [was] doing, I pushed too hard and she said “Ow, not so hard” and grabbed my hand to slow it down. Of course, she didn’t open her eyes, she still played like she was sleeping, but moving around. Kind of funny.

One of the later times we did it, I actually [ate] her out. We were in the downstairs watching a movie. My older brother left, but me and my sister were on the bed.

I was horny and wanted to finger her, so I got up and grabbed a blanket and put it over us. Then I got kind of close and just put my hand on her leg … over the next few minutes, moving it up her leg until she got the hint. She did, kind of spreading her legs so I could feel her up.

After a minute I just didn’t want to play around. So I just … reached under the blanket and pulled her shorts all the way off. She let me do [that]. Then I laid down on the couch so we were almost spooning, and I played with her pussy.

This time she didn’t hold back. She held my one arm around her chest as I fingered her with my other.

This happened a few times like this. One time she even called me to her room, after our parents told us to go to bed so they thought we were in our rooms, and I got in bed with her and tried to have sex with her. I remember fingering her, and she let me take off all her clothes. I asked her if we could “do it for real” and she said “OK.”

Man, I remember this part vividly. She was on her bed, I was over her holding my dick, and of course we could never get it in. I told her I would lick it. At first she looked at me weird but then I just went down and started licking her pussy.

We still could not get it in. Eventually we gave up that night.

It was some time after that – not sure when – we actually had sex in my room. She was about a year or more older than when we started fooling around. She was in my room for whatever reason and no one was home. I was just old enough to be called a “babysitter” when I was home with my sister.

We were doing something in our room and she kept talking about a boy she likes. So I joked with her that she should suck him. She didn’t know what to do, so eventually, after a while I talked her into sucking me by telling her I would lick her after.

So we did. She sucked me a little, then I licked her little bald pussy. Then, I remember I had her on the bed, and I was eating her and rubbing my dick … which was still out. Her pussy was kind of wet, and so I just tried it. I picked her up a little so she could be more on the bed, I held my body over hers with my arms – I didn’t want to smash her – and I put my dick inside her.

Inside my sister. It was really tight, but she let me keep pushing. I even remember a little “pop” sound once it went in. I just started pumping her, and I didn’t last long. I ended up cumming inside her. I remember that also, because she was small enough [so that] my dick did not fit all the way in. And when I started to cum, my cum was kind of squirting out the sides of her pussy lips because she was so tight.

She didn’t like my cum at all … at that time she thought it was gross.

We only fooled around a couple more times but never actually had sex. Although I did cum in her mouth one time, I think that was the last.

Then she got old enough for boyfriends, and we just stopped. Never talked about it or anything, but remained close.

I always thought it was just something “experimental” we had together.

Well, my sister is still very good-looking. I would lie if I said I have never jerked off to those memories before.

Anyway, that night when my sister brought it back up, we kind of talked about it. I always thought it would be a “dark” secret for her, but she started telling me that back in the day when we used to do that, she would want to all the time, and wanted to have sex again. But always waited for me to start it.

After more wine and talking about this sexy past, I said to her “Well, there is probably more hair there now then back then, huh?” And she laughed and said “Nope, I keep it bald.”

Horny from the memories and a little drunk, I just blatantly asked her “I want to see.” She waited no time, almost like she was waiting for me to say something. She unbuttoned her jeans and pulled them down just enough for me to see her to pussy lips, bald.

I told her right away, while staring, “Does it taste the same?”

Well, she just got naked and told me to follow her. She got on the bed and spread her legs. I couldn’t believe it was happening, but I didn’t care. I started eating her out. Not the same clean, hairless pussy I licked all those years ago, but it was bald and wonderful.

I didn’t even ask, I just started unbuttoning my pants while I licked her.

This time was different. She was moaning and groaning. Her pussy was sloppy wet. Back in the day, it would not be wet unless I licked it. Then my sister just said “Fuck me” as if I was some lover of hers.

So I got on top of her and started fucking her. It was the best sex I have ever had. Again, I was going to cum quick. I mean, it was my hot younger sister, for god’s sake.

I kind of said, under my breath, “I am going to cum” … Then she said “Pull out.”

So I did … I shot my cum all over her pussy. She even was rubbing my cum into her clit while I was cumming.

After [that], we bullshitted for a bit, trying to break the awkwardness. Then she said something that really caught me off guard. I was trying to joke and said “You are a lot better at that now then when we were kids … You made me do all the work.”

She said something like “I know, I need to teach Erica better.” Then she changed the subject as if she said something she shouldn’t have. Now, Erica is her beautiful little girl. Did my sister just tell me that she is having sex with her daughter also?

Man, I feel like I am in some whacked-out sexy dream. It’s been about a week and all these feelings are back. I have beat off to the memory of that night several times already.