I have not heard from you since in July of 1977, here in Laguna Hills, you
said you would send me specifics of what were the changes my "faceless, unnamed"
Chicago Concordex critics wanted made in that book to suit their or headquarters'
views. These should of course include Carolyn's criticisms which were circulated
at Chicago, but never sent me despite my urgent appeals to you all.

Several times I have been impelled
to write you, but could not find satisfactory words in view of the incredible
and astonishing about-face Kendall made after joining here (in the views of
ALL present, including yourself) on the agreements we had all come to. Included
were those you and I earnestly hammered out (with advice and consent of those
present) on the last things that divided us - in summarizing which we queried:
"OK. Are we all agreed?" That was the day's pattern, you will remember. Kendall
took no exception.

I assumed you didn't write me
because you were too embarrassed by Kendall's switch - embarrassed I would
think, as much as the rest of us here were dismayed when we had news of Kendall's
reversal. Some time after the July meeting here, but before hearing Kendall
had reneged, I saw Vern at a meeting. I asked him if he thot we had accomplished
much at our meeting. He responded: "Yes, a great deal. I think we all came
to agreements on every issue discussed, which Tom and Martin were going back
to Chicago to recommend for approval." (Words to that effect.)

You will not have forgotten that
at conclusion of our long meeting, you embraced me and quietly said in my
ear that you were delighted, that Christy sent you two out here to settle
our differences and that had been achieved. You repeated that sentiment to
me upon our return from the "celebration" dinner, before you took off. Now
I understand that when a final vote was taken on this issue in Chicago (so
important that the heavy expense in time and money of the two top men in the
Movement to come here, was justified). YOU WERE IN CALIFORNIA! You were not
present to vote! You were not present to insist (assuming on your courage,
independence, and integrity) that both you and Kendall had approved out here
and it would be a rank betrayal of all the others in the meeting should Kendall
renege and force defeat of the agreements.

Because of Tom Kendall's intransigence
and unreliability, I send the separate enclosed letter to you, containing
a simple proposal. You did most of the talking and negotiating here. You carried
the ball well, we all thot, for 533. You too - were betrayed. The enclosure
offers something of an opportunity to redeem headquarters if you believe,
as we think you must, that once again I and the Concordex were shockingly,
shamefully treated by Tom. By his deception of all of us here, assenting in
silence here when he could have objected, then denying assent in Chicago at
the crucial time. (Was his thinking straightened out for him by Carolyn on
his return?)

The proposal herewith is modest
indeed, but is very important to our Movement and to the many thousands of
U Bk purchasers from bookstores, who never learn - as they should for the
sake of our Movement - that an index aid to the Study of our Great Book is
available.

Will you please give this request
sufficient precedence so that I may hear from you soon if you favor it and
will present it formally? And also when it can be formally presented to the
necessary group and voted upon? Martin, some changes MUST come, preferably
not forced or fought for in open schism. I am overtired of Kendall's attempts
at prior restraint, insisting I submit all I write in the Concordex to anonymous
critics in Chicago who will straighten out my thinking and my personal ministry.
This smoke screen is objectionable and invalid. There has never been a copyright
issue between us. No one will ever more staunchly defend your legally correct
copyright positions that I have and will continue to.

I am overtired of reading of the
"Many" who dislike the Concordex writing, but whom you high priests never
name, number, or quote or substantially support. I am non-plussed that it
took you people 6 years to find out you had to attack the Concordex, and deprive
some 80 to 90% of U Bk purchasers in bookstores of knowledge an index exists.
How come almost every capable man who serves the Movement in close association
with 533, soon gets fed up, or departs, in disappointment or in the dog house?
(Bill Sadler, Jim Mills, Paul Snyder, Jacques Weiss, Meredith, Henry Begeman,
and now me?)

Must everyone knuckle to 533 or
else?

Your two responsibilities as Trustees
are to "promote" "disseminate", "promote" the supernal teachings, and to protect
the integrity of the text, are they not? Do you not believe in unity instead
of uniformity? What is happening to our Movement? Do your two great and grave
responsibilities (the first of which seems to be forgotten) require that you
act like Sanhedrists, who own the Fifth Epochal Revelation? *I write in goodwill,
Martin, and sincerity. It is time some consideration was given other ministries
than some few people's at headquarters. Are you the only dedicated Urantian?

If I believed you were utterly
obdurate and fixed in crystallized positions, I would not thus be writing
you. With Florence gone, my life patterns will change. I will probably respond
to the many requests I am getting from all quarters: "Come see us. Come speak
to us. I do not want to jell plans until I know whether my simple proposal
herewith, will be honored.

With all good wishes.

** PAX Urantia

Clyde

This is not written as a barb
or in derision. I want to seriously call attention to the fact that you Trustees
and what you do must be appraised, not from your viewpoints alone, but from
the viewpoints of many people who believe (as the Book itself says) that the
U Bk's Gospel, hence the Revelation itself, belongs to them and to all the
believers on the world. How long has it been since you Trustees have attempted
to be guided by the sacred text itself? How long since you as a group have
read and pondered so significant a page to you as 2044, and considered Jesus'
sharp instructions and warning to Rodan and 80 believers? You may contend
that as temporary custodians of the text (only to protect its integrity) you
are different from Rodan and Jesus' contemporary faithful. Hardly so.

Your FIRST of TWO CONCORDANT OBJECTS
has to do with "promotion, improvement, and expansion among the peoples of
the world of the comprehension and understanding of Cosmology.and of the true
teachings of Jesus Christ. You are in the position precisely of Rodan and
those prominent believers. (That is, if you are guided by the Declaration
of Trust. And if not by that, by what are you guided?) As officially and unofficially
you take positions adverse to or against the Concordex and deprived readers,
you are also depriving me.

You are not permitting me the
latitude all Urantians should have, must have. Rather, you are assuming the
role of owners of the Revelation and the New Gospel, who will not tolerate
its presentation except in your light, which possibly may be an ingrown centripetal
light within a small island peopled by a small and determined group of heirarchial
authoritarians. Too, I would call your attention to the statement of "Our
missing earmarks of formalized religion, by Joyce Lapham, approved by the
Executive Committee, 1977."

Perhaps some Urantia doubts led
to her statement, no doubt to reassure Urantis. Her first "earmark" reads:
! There is no ecclesiastical hierarchy. You have no doubt heard enough murmers
to know that a good many Urantians believe one is developing, if it is not
already crystallized. How else, unless you ARE an ecclesiastical hierarchy,
can you tell me I must write with my Urantian ministry and beliefs, as some
of you (anonymously) dictate? Especially when I unmistakably take full responsibility
in print for my writing and my views? Item number 2 reads: There are no official
interpretations of the message of The Urantia Book

If that is true, and your demands
are not to make my writing concur with "Official interpretations", then you
are attempting - as I have all along suspected - to make me conform to the
unofficial views and prejudices of the "Carolyn Kendalls" in our Movement
who may have a dislike for the character of my personal ministry, which I
believe is consistent with the Revelation. Should they be permitted to tell
me how I must interpret the message? Should they have their viewpoints enforced
by an ecclesiastical hierarchy? Are theirs to be "official" interpretations
of The Urantia Book" which Trustees are not entitled to have and enforce?

Martin, I believe you are, as
a group, treading on grounds that threaten our Movement with schism and great
danger. History suggests that self-perpetuating power in the hands of any
"religious group" that cannot be reached by the people they are intended to
serve becomes tyranny. You shudder at the word - "Not us", you say.

But every hierarchial authoritarianism
stood once where you stand, asserting "the good of the movement". A hierarchy
is a hierarchy under whatever high-sounding name it is labeled. I could enlarge
on this subject.

As one note, item 4 in the 'SPEAKERS'
BUREAU OUTLINE" By frank Sgaraglino. What is headquarters policy? It is something
everyone can understand? Does it embrace censorship of individual ministries?
Toward me and the Concordex is it one thing? Does Larry Mullins' avowal of
personal responsibility for his writing in "JESUS; God and Man" accord with
hierarchial authority, and mine, in front of current Concordex, fail to accord?
May I see a statement of the policy that accept this avowal and not mine?
Is the Concordex a derivative book? Is his NOT a derivative book? I would
like to see the written policy that clarifies the distinction.

Is headquarters policy one thing
toward Bill Sadler and his writings, for Larry Mullins, for Jacques Vallee,
and others? A different thing for me? Whose wisdom draws the line, and who
can clarify this for me? It is vital, as an index is vital for the proper
study and use of The Urantia Book. You are a trained lawyer. Your mind should
work more incisively, comprehendingly in these matters than those of people
in some less exacting occupations, with less well-disciplined and disciplining
educations.

Must you submerge your native
and acquired intelligence and education to march to a drumbeat of another,
or others, that you know cannot be morally or legally or ethically enforced?

** As I reread this letter before
signing it, it occurred to me that the last paragraph might sound to you as
though I am saying I am going to talk unfavorably about the Foundation unless
you accept my enclosed proposal. It does not mean that. One modest gesture
on 533's part, of accommodation to many 1000s of U Bk purchasers in future,
cannot erase past history. (That gesture would give me something constructive
to say, however.) The reason for the paragraph is simple. Were I to make the
proposal to Study Groups and Societies, expecting them to aid me, some of
you would doubtless say: "He should have made the proposal to us: he should
have asked us first, to agree to send out such a notice with invoices."

To be completely frank I feel
it necessary to try to work the matter out between us, here and now. I am
going to be subjected to much questioning - open questioning, about the Concordex
and how it is doing, about early days of the Forum, and so on. I feel you
have the right to know that I am not forever going to keep licking my wounds
almost privately. Those among you whose motives are negative and unfriendly
may put whatever interpretation on that paragraph and on this entire letter
they wish.

With God reading my heart, I can
honestly say to you that it is written in a conciliatory spirit of brotherly
love. I do not say I could write in such spirit to each of all the other Trustees.
I cannot forget your apparent satisfaction that you had been able to carry
out Christy's instruction, here in July 1978. Had Kendall not turn-tailed,
we would now be working in harmony for the good and grace of God. And our
beloved Christy would have some, I think, of the heavy load on her heart,
lightened. I cannot and will not forget that I believe you negotiated in good
faith and honorable intentions, whether Tom did or not.

I would much prefer to be working
in unity with you people, instead of in an embittered separateness. But, Martin,
you may be certain that whether it be in unity with you people or not, I am
going to be working with all my energy and resources for the Master and his
Gospel, and for the good of the Urantia Movement. Please forgive the imperfect
typing. I type fast, but far from professionally. I have no secretarial help
available to whom I wish to reveal my details as above.

A pro secretary, and a good Urantian
has volunteered to do any important typing I want done. I am willing to have
even such a one, at this time, know of these crucial divisions between us.
They are shameful, unnecessary and the product of UNTHINKING minds. A PROPOSAL
ON BEHALF of the GREAT MAJORITY OF Urantia BOOK PURCHASERS in BOOKSTORES,
WHO ARE PRESENTLY DEPRIVED of the ESSENTIAL AID OF AN INDEX - NECESSARY to
the EFFECTIVE, SUCCESSFUL STUDY, MASTERY, AND USE, of any GREAT WORK, VOLUMINOUS
TEXT, or MANUAL of any kind WHATEVER in ANY FIELD WHATEVER.

Currently you are in mail touch
with every bookstore to which you sell many or just a few, Urantia Books.
You mail to them invoices, statements, bills - something, first class, and
you do this routinely. I propose that you mail to every such bookstore, with
every such invoice or statement, an 8 x 11 sheet which forthrightly and
fairly informs them of the availability of an index to The Urantia Book -
the Concordex. The enclosure would have to be fair to you and to me and to
the bookstores and their customers.

Fair to you in that the reader
would be clearly informed the Concordex is not an official publication, that
it is a privately created and published volume whose views expressed may be
at variance with the views of the Foundation.

Fair to me in that a group of
8 or 10 prominent Urantians would agree it presents an honest and adequate
statement as to the character and value of the Concordex. Fair to stores in
that it would suggest how many persisting readers of the U Bk want and use
such a book. Fair to readers in its statements as to its uses and value. Such
an enclosure would require no additional postage. Its cost would be nominal
and we would determine between us how it would be born.

We all know many Urantians are
lost to our Movement, when - without an index aid - they find the Book too
esoteric and difficult, and soon stop reading. The deprivation of readers,
deprives our Movement of much growth and strength. Some 85,000 to 95,000 U
Bk purchasers have never learned an index aid to the Great Book's study and
pleasurable reading is available. In considering this proposal I believe you
should all remember that the current Concordex in all places makes clear to
readers that it is a privately created volume and is the responsibility solely
of its publisher.

I hope the practicality, fairness,
and importance of this proposal will be grasped immediately by 533'd decision
makers, and that I may be informed of a favorable decision with dispatch.
This is a-wasting and many readers are being handicapped and lost. Approval
of this proposal for so minimal and modest an effort on your part to serve
U Bk purchasers could mark the beginning of a new and more gratifying period
of growth and of recognition of our responsibilities to the world and to U
Bk purchasers especially. Presently, the Urantia Book is the only voluminous
text on earth that is expected by its publishers to succeed without an index.