Ask Jacqueline

Hello my name is Jacqueline and I was a loyal witness for over 60 yrs. I moved when the organization moved. I have been an aux. and a regular pioneer, aiding many to come to a knowledge of the truth. I am a third generation witness. I have many family members who are still witnesses. My Crisis of Conscience began when I became aware of the governing body’s great influence and encroachment on Jesus’ place in the congregation. It seems he was mentioned less and less each year, but the governing body scores of times during the meetings. I left in August 2009 and went back to the original Bible Students in January 2010. As a” Holistic Alternative Psychology Practitioner”, I was also disturbed over the many pedophile cases that came my way, done by elders and other brothers within the congregation. I made the society aware. Little did I know it created a file on me in Bethel. I thought I was making them aware of something they didn’t know about. I was wrong. They already knew and threatened to disfellowship me if I cooperated with one case. I had a ” CRISIS OF CONSCIENCE” and went in “SEARCH OF CHRISTIAN FREEDOM” IN CHRIST.

I am here only to help ones that have come to a crisis where “THEY” have decided to leave the Corporation, need help and Christian Fellowship. Sometimes we don’t know where to go. So it is with this attitude and mindset of the Lord Christ Jesus that I want to do what I can, if the Lord permits. Additionally, I prayed hard before deciding to reach out and help if someone needed it. I could have been satisfied with just escaping myself. I was on a sinking luxury ship, I prayed for help. And along came a little TUGBOAT. (The Bible Students). How could I not throw the lifeline to the ones that had jumped without knowing about the little Tugboat. Torgue, Tug placement and Momentum allows a little tugboat to pull even a big ship. There is lots of room on board for those that need something less polished, sleek, fancy and slick. Just plain old Bible , Jehovah and Jesus. No fancy building, just love and trust. The little Tugboat was sent by Jehovah I feel to rescue me and others, that need something that just sticks to the Bible without Big Corporation laws and by-laws.

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Australia interview on Shunning, interesting. It seems some parents were stricter than others. ( of us and we never were restricted from playing with the neighborhood children and had much action with the community. But I did grow up under segregation and our communities were self governed with the Father and mother as heads. The watchtower society just printed the magazines but had no say in our personal child upbringing. Now it is very different.

I can’t get the idea out of my mind that it was Br. Russell’s love, compassion, sensitivity, and his refusal to hate and condemn individuals, as well as his refusal to urge others to hate and condemn and “shun” persons that allowed Rutherford to waltz back in and take over the Watch Tower printery after having been dismissed. Kind of ironic, isn’t it?

And some of the comments below that video blame Russell for the practice of shunning. Sad, sad, sad.

May I also argue semantics for just a moment: The word shun as used by the media, to me at least, usually seems to suggest something innocuous, benign, passive, gentle even, and rather implies something akin to simply ignoring someone. The JW practice is anything but those things. And the term shun as JW’s apply it (both in theory and in practical application) would be better described by the terms HATE CRIME, MOB MENTALITY, and PERSON ERASURE. I believe the Russian Government is understating it when they call the JW organization extremist. Why, it seems to me that JW shunning is as near as they can come to throwing people into the SECOND DEATH in the here and now.

Sadly, while I was the hospital next to my dying mom last week, I got to eavesdrop–rather I got to bite my tongue while I was suddenly forced to listen to a JW pep-rally about how righteous they are, and how absurd the Russian Government is for banning and disbanding JW’s as extremist. Ugh!

In a single word I can tell you how I am throughout all of my mom’s dying: DISGUSTED! I’m disgusted with every aspect of JW-ville, from their parenting doctrines, to their self-righteous snobbery.

And even still, I stand by everything I said in my comment to Dundee yesterday about always praying, “God, please help me love those who are difficult to love.”

It’s really hard to feel disgust, stomach-churning revulsion, and love at the same time. It’s really hard not to lose one or the other. I think when Jesus talked about denying one’s self his words had application in this area, too. I mean, to deny (to temporarily set aside) the truth of one’s pain in the interests of love and peace is not easy, especially when the sins of others that produce that pain are so nauseating, so revolting, so disgusting, so painful, so traumatizing.

This interview you linked to did a fair job, I believe, in both using the word “shun” and reframing the real impact of the act of the JW method of and intention behind the practice of shunning. Yes, they “practice” it. And decades of practice have nearly perfected it for all the world to see–all the world except they themselves it seems.

Sad, disgusted, and still striving to hold on tightly to compassion and forgiveness, despite all the provocation JW’s can muster to throw at me, I sincerely nod my head in acknowledgement and grateful appreciation to those who struggle with similar issues and who know what I’m talking about. What a Captain and superlative Modeller we have in Jesus!

Greg, you hit it on the spot about it being beyond shunning. (I never look at video all the way thru, just read comments. Perhaps I should but what they said shows it is worldwide.)
I deal with my family by not going around the ones I think would kill me to save me. Those that are so hooked by a spell on the governing body men that they would think it wasn’t wrong to poison me. You can imagine, there are some family members that have fire and evil in their eyes when I attend a funeral etc. So I stay away from them. I have seen it mostly in the eyes of the females married into the family not any of my blood relatives, I have found it strange they hate me and can’t hide it in the kingdom hall. We used to be so close.
Witnesses are perfect at shunning or trying to inflicting emotional pain. Many of the elders in committee meetings with teenagers have shown they are sick men and they are obeying the book from their headquarters. Some of the pedophile cases that I know the details of sicken me.
Russia and now Indonesia and other countries are getting courage to act against religions that kill the insides of it’s victims in the name of God. http://www.globalindonesianvoices.com/30821/government-being-urged-to-dissolve-jehovahs-witnesses-in-indonesia/
My personal opinion is these hierarchy, Muslim and witness, mormon, hare krishna etc are being hit first next I am sure they will come into mainstream religions and Israel. But at least they are exposing these in your face religions so people won’t get sucked in unless they just want to.
That is why I never try to pull someone out because it is what they want. Knowledge abound and teenagers are escaping as soon as they are of age.
I am so glad to learn that we are saved by grace and they will be okay.
I am reading “The Church in History” by B.K. Kuiper, it was on the free table at the convention this weekend and I can’t put it down!
The witnesses are just like the Catholic Church. It tries to change laws in countries all over the world but governments are waking up and fighting them now plus other religions. We see only witnesses because that is what we know but other religions are actually hit harder.
It going to be a long ride.

Everybody, let us please pray for Greg, (Kent). His father called and this seems to be the end of this life for his dear Mother. He is commenting, helping others but his mom might pass today or shortly.
We will Pray for you our brother, it tough losing a mom.

Dear Jacqueline
I was so glad you didn’t need surgery. I was at the convention. You will notice on the video that I am not mentioned. They made sure to cut me out. I am thankful to the Brethren for protecting my identity so that. I could be immersed. I have never felt so much love in my life as I did that day. I wish I could have met you. I met so many wonderful people. Some day I will be able to openly worship our Lord. Please keep up the good work you do. You will never know how much you have truly helped me. I love you and all the brotherhood. Most of all I love our Lord.

PS: Wasn’t it nice to see the children in their classes and having fun and not sitting in the seats beside the parents?

Ted,
Hello how are u?
There is a convention in afew weeks, wondering if u might attend, I believe it is close to u though will not mention just in case. Not sure how transparent u can be on site with details.. Anyways my wife n I will be in attendance and would love to meet u. Great to hear u were immersed! I was wondering cause we listened to it on adobe and heard only 3 mentioned.. Now I know why. Anyhow, take care and Lord bless.
Brandon

Welcome our brother in Christ! Marvie took a picture for me and sent it. I saw you! I go to doctor tomorrow.
Everyone on line was wanting to see you but you were hid well. Did you meet Br. Peter and Zionsherald? (Jeff)
Are you still there? Did you meet Una? She was smiling on every picture I saw of her. She was so happy. Her children did really good and her husband was a wonderful man to accompany his family. She and you finally made it and now can go thru Christ and not a governing body to get to Jehovah.
I am so glad you were able to attend and see how nice the brothers are. And to think, they said our brothers were dead and the “evil Slave”. They knew all the time the Bible students were alive and kicking, how could they outright lie? But it is done now and whatever their reason the cat is out of the bag now all over the internet.
TedR hopefully we can meet face to face. The Lord over ruled my traveling and I might have had a blood clot driving 8 hours and sitting for long periods.
As Br. Len Grieh said he saw the whole picture and put things in place to get me to the doctor instead. Take Care my new brother. Love you, Jacqueline

Yes, you were indeed “well hid” from those of us who were watching online. I’m very happy to meet you here and now, though, and to express my joy at hearing the little bit you’ve shared here today. It’s encouraging to me to see, hear, and know that you struggle with something I know little about. I mean, in my life, I struggle against invisibility. It seems you struggle against exposure. I’m very confident that where ever it is that you are being hewn and polished for, your adversities will well prepare you for your future assignments.

Hello everybody. My heart is okay no blockage so i am home. I have complete bed rest for 48 hours and no lifting driving etc for five days because I am a bleeder.
I thank God and all of you for your prayers. Still groggy so in bed. Lots of help from my son.