Monthly Archives: November 2016

I must not have expectations and let go of things, breathe in breathe out. Let go of my need of finding a dance job. Let go of my wish of being treated in a certain way by him. Let go … Continue reading →

Buying shoes is quite difficult for me, I’m so picky: they have to be comfortable and look good and be soft and wide enough and be healthy for my foot and be cheap and be of good quality. Finding sneakers … Continue reading →

I left him once again to come back to Vienna to some nice things to do, but I still feel unsettled. I’m often around when he works but when I work, I never have anybody around. It makes me sad. … Continue reading →

I want so much to find a good dance job that I enjoy, one like the things that I was doing back then in school. It’s unfair and difficult: those who already work with someone become better and get a … Continue reading →

I’m arriving for his premiere after a day of travelling and after not having seen him for a while, and he tells me that it’s better if we see each other only after his show. Basically he’s leaving me wandering … Continue reading →

I don’t like that, when I drink coffee slowly, it doesn’t stay warm in the mug. I wonder if I will always keep on being fascinated by the North or if it will become normal routine and then I will … Continue reading →

So may days of golden patience, of just being around him while he works; and all this only in order to get some pieces of him for myself. Trying to absorb all what’s possible of his essence; just being there, … Continue reading →