"For The Love Of A Daughter" by Demi lovato
Four years old with my back to the door
All I could hear was the family war
Your selfish hands always expecting more
Am I your child or just a charity ward?
You have a hollowed out heart
But it's heavy in your chest
I try so hard to fight it but it's hopeless
Hopeless, you're hopeless

"For The Love Of A Daughter" by Demi lovato
Four years old with my back to the door
All I could hear was the family war
Your selfish hands always expecting more
Am I your child or just a charity ward?
You have a hollowed out heart
But it's heavy in your chest
I try so hard to fight it but it's hopeless
Hopeless, you're hopeless
Oh, father, please, father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, father, please, father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter
Oh
It's been five years since we've spoken last
And you can't take back
What we never had
Oh, I can be manipulated
Only so many times,
Before even "I love you"
Starts to sound like a lie
You have a hollowed out heart
But it's heavy in your chest
I try so hard to fight it but it's hopeless
Hopeless, you're hopeless
Oh, father, please, father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, father, please, father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter
Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?
How could you push me out of your world,
Lied to your flesh and your blood,
Put your hands on the ones that you swore you loved?
Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?
How could you throw me right out of your world?
So young when the pain had begun
Now forever afraid of being loved
Oh, father, please, father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, father, please, father
Oh, father, please, father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter
For the love of a daughter

Not the best but I put a lot of emotion into it<3
Sitting in my room alone
Now it's officially known
Your love does not exist
I'm forever on your waiting list
The pain, it breaks my heart
Everything seems to fall apart
Deprived of your affection
Always a rejection

Not the best but I put a lot of emotion into it<3
Sitting in my room alone
Now it's officially known
Your love does not exist
I'm forever on your waiting list
The pain, it breaks my heart
Everything seems to fall apart
Deprived of your affection
Always a rejection
The little girl inside of me
Still wants her daddy to see
All of the sadness that has collected
In the heart that you neglected
Mama; she rocked me to sleep
Held me tight as I weeped
She cradled my broken soul
As you precisely dug the hole
God has permanently changed me
He came into my heart, and inserted the key
Although the pain still exists
God's Love will forever persist<3

My heart aches. I just realized I have had PTSD since I was 4 years old. Its
even still affecting me now.
This pain hurts so bad.........
Just remembering the fear, feeling the fear, and having to act like
nothing is wrong. What I have done my whole life, I was taught to do that,
for fear of getting in trouble or maybe worse than that. Seeing those
images play in my head over and over, remembering the things I used to do....
I was just a little girl, just a little girl who wanted a normal
mom and dad.
Just a girl who dreamed of being a doctor, or princess.
Someone who wished they were normal.
Someone who wished they could enjoy there childhood.

My heart aches. I just realized I have had PTSD since I was 4 years old. Its
even still affecting me now.
This pain hurts so bad.........
Just remembering the fear, feeling the fear, and having to act like
nothing is wrong. What I have done my whole life, I was taught to do that,
for fear of getting in trouble or maybe worse than that. Seeing those
images play in my head over and over, remembering the things I used to do....
I was just a little girl, just a little girl who wanted a normal
mom and dad.
Just a girl who dreamed of being a doctor, or princess.
Someone who wished they were normal.
Someone who wished they could enjoy there childhood.
Someone who never thought something like that could have ever happened.
This is so devastating, so heartbreaking, so painful. Ive been
so numb to the pain in the past that being able to feel it, is so
overwhelming. And then the instincts kick in.
They allow me to block everything out, to be able to enjoy the moment and forget all
the problems, but I didn't know in doing so it would cause more problems in life then
I could ever imagine.
Did I mean nothing to you?
Did you ever love me?
was I ever good enough?
Why didn't you love me?
Why wouldn't you try?
Why did I have to suffer and still do?
Why?why?why?
Why couldnt I have just been loved :'(

Every visit consists of the same things; avoiding getting too close and personal,
regretting not being close and personal, time going by too fast, stupid school gets
in the way, awaiting the pain when she leaves. Everyday it's always so painful, I
don't know what to do. My heart feels like its breaking into small little pieces
everyday. Slowly getting smaller and smaller while also getting weaker and weaker.
When will it stop.

Valentines Day.
In the year of 2010 I got my first heart necklace and a card from a boy friend I felt
so special I had been dreaming of someone buying me a rose and chocolates or even
just a rose, although he didn't I bought him the roses and choclates lol. IT meant a
lot at the time but now I realize there wasn't much love put into it, because right
after we exchanged gifts the guy just wanted to get in my pants, which proves he
wasn't all that interested in me emotionally. I mean what should I have expected at
that point anyways we had been together only 2 weeks lol.
Valentines Day in 2011 this guy named Austin bought me some chocolates at school I
felt so special but he also bought another girl chocolates too so the special feeling
kind of faded at that moment. I had always looked at Valentines Day as a dumb holiday
because you should show love to someone and make them feel special everyday but I

Valentines Day.
In the year of 2010 I got my first heart necklace and a card from a boy friend I felt
so special I had been dreaming of someone buying me a rose and chocolates or even
just a rose, although he didn't I bought him the roses and choclates lol. IT meant a
lot at the time but now I realize there wasn't much love put into it, because right
after we exchanged gifts the guy just wanted to get in my pants, which proves he
wasn't all that interested in me emotionally. I mean what should I have expected at
that point anyways we had been together only 2 weeks lol.
Valentines Day in 2011 this guy named Austin bought me some chocolates at school I
felt so special but he also bought another girl chocolates too so the special feeling
kind of faded at that moment. I had always looked at Valentines Day as a dumb holiday
because you should show love to someone and make them feel special everyday but I
couldn't help but want someone to give me a gift to show they care. I'm definitely
not a gold digger and don't care about material things but I still wish I could
receive at least One thing on Valentines Day even if its just a hand made card saying
happy valentines I care about you or a text say I love you happy valentines day you
are special to me. I don't know I guess its dumb but I have just always dreamt of
someone surprising me with flowers or just a flower or a card or anything because
even though you should show love everyday, just one Valentines Day, with just one
thing to acknowledge me no matter how small it may be will brighten the rest of the
Valentines Days I shall live through.

Yeah I should be in bed right now but I need something to distract me. Life has been
kicking my butt lately.
It's just so hard to not think about the past. And I JUST found out my mom's boy
friend got drunk and
Threatened to beat her up and as he was running after her she got in the car to go
stay at her ex step moms house
And all I can think of is what's going to happen when he wakes up and finds the note
where she said she is leaving him.
And what if she goes back to him AGAIN.

Quickly copy & paste; Don't wanna spoil it.
Name 11 people you can think of, right of the top of your head.
Don't read the questions below until you write the names.
This is a lot funnier if you randomly list the names.
No cheating!
1.Austin
2. Skyeler
3.Alisa
4.Amber

Quickly copy & paste; Don't wanna spoil it.
Name 11 people you can think of, right of the top of your head.
Don't read the questions below until you write the names.
This is a lot funnier if you randomly list the names.
No cheating!
1.Austin
2. Skyeler
3.Alisa
4.Amber
5.Ashlee
6.Sarah
7.Amber G
8.Mama
9.Dad
10.Katelyn
11.Joey
DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED UP THE TOP!
How did you meet # 4?
Well she is my sister.
Do you like love anyone on here?
Number One, is the love of my life. I'm in love with him.
What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out?
Well there's 2 things wrong with that: 1. They have never met and 2. There both girls
and both straight so wouldn't happen.
How did you meet 3?
Wow I should have spaced it out more she is my sister lol.
what do u think of number 7?
Well she is an awesome singer, and a good friend sometimes but I feel like she takes
advantage of me.
What would you do if 5 confessed they love you?
Ashlee tells me she loves me all the time ^_^
Is number 2 your best friend?
Well we're more like sisters haven't reached that level for me yet.
who is 10's best friend
Well a bunch of people and she says I'm one of em
Do you miss number 1?
Yes I do sooooo much
Is number 9 cool?
He's annoying.
What is your opinion of number 6?
Sarah is awesome! And even tho we don't talk as much as I want or see eachother as
much as I want I still think of her as my best friend I can tell her anything!
What do you think of #3?
She is my sister, she gets annoying but I still love her
What would you do if 1 and 4 were going out??
I'd beat the both of them.
Do you have any special things you do with 1?
Every day with him is special. :3 And everything we do is special.
Have you ever been inside 10's house?
Nope.
Do you love #8?
To death!!!
Have you ever kissed any of them?
Cheek- 2, 3,4,8,9,11
Lips- 1, 8-not in a nasty way.
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