In Journal, Baby Sitter Professed Love For 14-Year-Old

Warrant Contains Passages Written By Woman Last Spring

MIDDLETOWN — — Loni Bouchard knew that her sexual relationship with a 14-year-old boy she was hired to baby-sit was against the law, but she didn't think the law should tell her who to love, according to arrest warrants released Monday.

In a journal seized by police and quoted in one warrant, Bouchard writes of having "amazing" sex with the Southington teen and being in love with him. She also ponders why their five-year age difference matters.

"I have finally found the guy who treats me right and makes me so happy and I can't be with him because the law says so?" she wrote in April, just before the boy's mother learned of the relationship and sought a restraining order, according to the warrant.

"I don't care about the law. I just want to be with him and not have to hide it. How can the law tell us who to fall for, who to like and who to love and especially who to date? I thought America was a free country," another excerpt reads.

Bouchard, who turned 20 in July, appeared Monday in Superior Court in Middletown. She is accused of having sex with the boy at her home in Clinton. She also admitted to having been previously involved with another underage boy, also from Southington, the warrants say.

The parents of the second 14-year-old boy did not allow him to speak with police investigators. Details of the relationship are not included in the warrants.

Bouchard was arrested in July and is facing sex-assault charges in both towns. Her next court date is scheduled for Oct. 3.

Her mother, Kimmy Bouchard, also appeared in court Monday and is scheduled to return Oct. 3. She was arrested in August and charged with providing marijuana and alcohol when the boy visited the Bouchard home. She denied the allegations to police.

The mother of the 14-year-old Clinton boy told police she met Bouchard at a summer campground in Salem.

She hired Bouchard, who seemed like a responsible and capable adult, in December to baby-sit her children at her home in Southington and often allowed her to spend the night because Bouchard said she had problems at home, an arrest warrant says.

In April, the mother learned that Bouchard and her 14-year-old son were in a sexual relationship after reading messages on Facebook between Bouchard and her son.

The boy told his mother, after she confronted him, that he had been in a relationship with Bouchard since January and that they had sex at Bouchard's home in Clinton. He also told her that Loni and Kimmy Bouchard had given him alcohol and marijuana.

The mother sought a restraining order against Bouchard.

Bouchard sent the boy's parents several text messages asking if they could "work this out." In other messages Bouchard said, "you don't need to call the police" and "let's act like adults," the warrant says.

Bouchard wrote in her journal on April 13, that the next day would be her three-month anniversary with the 14-year-old and noted that she hadn't spoken with him since April 9.

"His mom absolutely HATES me because of the situation and I understand why, but she's being immature about it," she wrote.

By late April, Bouchard wrote that she was cutting herself and that a bracelet that the boy gave her covered the scratches. In June, she wrote about feeling depressed that she hadn't seen him and professed her love for the boy, according to the warrant.

She kept a different notebook where she wrote entries addressed to the 14-year-old. She wrote that their relationship was strong, that she missed being in his arms and waking up next to him. In May, she wrote that she was upset that his parents obtained the restraining order.

In addition to the notebooks, investigators seized Bouchard's cellphone, computers, marijuana and gifts that the boy had given Bouchard. They also obtained warrants to search Facebook accounts for the boy, Bouchard and her sister, the warrant says.