These are my words. Written from the depths of my soul in hopes to touch a heart and to create inspiration and human connection. I want to take pain and turn it into something beautiful. Remember we are all human. We all feel. We are all one. Love. Embrace today. Enjoy.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

The Apology

He enters the room
As tension fills the air

Smothering my lungs

Into complete deterioration
Until I swear I can feel my heart cease
The hands of the clock begin to slow
So leisurely
While I wait to breathe a sigh of relief
His authority cages my sense of being
And I long to escape
Because I am nothing here
I desire firm resolve
But will he care to hear me?
Feel my love though respect is shallow

Only respect can be earned in due time
Yet time has vanished
The chance is lost
Now who’s at fault where pure honesty pleads?
My apology is genuine
Yet, you won’t accept
As I am human
Full of lies
So where do we go from this point?
Relationships shattering
Like frail windows of abandoned temples
Once untainted
Now broken
Unspeaking As pressure builds
Within this “home”
Assumed hatred exposes itself
But truth Is settled within my soul
There exists no hate
Only frustration
That festers every ounce of me
Driving me to become despicable
At the sight of myself
I feel pathetic
In which a thanks is in order
Now I will forgive
And ask for help
Where change in one’s self initially presents

But like a cycle of birth and death

You persist to behave in that manner

Believing destruction and ignorance will conquer

As affectively as a bulldozer to a feeble shack

And, yes, I am the shack

Embodied with weakness, deficiency and shame

Containing nothing but insignificance

In which you have compelled me to become

So I stand here and I watch

So helplessly

While our precious dwelling is demolished

One wretched morsal at a time

Because stopping you would be a waste of energy

Your character has become the very definition of stubborn jackass

But why must you obliterate the bonds in your life

Relationships infused with a love misunderstood

Which you selfishly throw away

Because your blindness prevents you from seeing

What I’m worth and the person I have turned out to be

Growing up to find my perspective precisely as yours

So hold me in your heart just as you did when you first held me in your arms