Don't you get it? PUMASOK AKO SA GAME KNOWING NA BARA AND I WILL WORK TO REACH THIS STAGE. SA KANYA TALAGA AKO TIGHT. Si Randy, front lang siya noon. Kasi nga, parehas kaming 'newbie'. At least, that's what I told people. Ask Stiles and Kim. Palagi kong sinasabi na I'm scared of Bara and how I would always stick with Randy. It turns out, trust worthy din si Randy and Akon so I said to myself, RANGI 4 until the end.

Apparently, nagkamali ako ng basa sa kanya at sa intentions niya in this game. But who knows what might have happened had he stayed? Will I be here pleading my case or will be I sitting with 6 of you as a member of the jury? Would you take that risk if you were I? The uncertainty of reaching the final three? Puro tanong lang?

CARLY

Si Carly ang mata para sa ‘kin. When it slipped that she’s Star, naging mas paranoid ako. Always felt that she’s watching my every move. As I’ve said before, the reason why I did not talk to survivormaybe this season is the fear that Star might see right through “Benny.”

He may have started as Stiles Stilinski, but he turned out to be an Allison Argent after the merge. Bigla siyang naging kontrabida sa gameplan ko. After pay_see got the boot, pangalan na ni Scott ang lumabas. Carly, cross and Bara were said to be voting Scott. Stiles made this drama that he’d rather go than see Scott sent home that early. That’s when I thought of targeting AC. I proposed the plan to everyone. That Randy, Scott, Stiles, Akon and I vote AC. And we’d tell AC and Kim that everyone’s voting for cross. Lahat naman pumayag. Kwento nga ni Kim, nakaboto na sila ni AC ng cross but nung nalaman nila, nagpalit sila to Scott na lang to force a tie.

I misjudged Stiles. AC wasn’t the one who’d betray my trust, after all.

After the shuffle, even after sinabihan na ako ni bara na “Mike, okay na. We have Stiles.”, hindi pa rin ako naging kampante. Figured he was with Scott and Kim, which was weird because Scott and Kim weren’t real allies. I really thought he’d choose Scott over Kim.

Bold and wise move, really. I do not like it, but I respect his decision. Well-played, Stiles.

I’d like to compare myself to Rafael Nadal. Critics and haters kept on saying that he’s a one-dimensional player, that he’d never get far, that he’d win just 2-3 GS titles, that he’d peaked too early and that his knees would eventually give up after two-three years. And look where he is at right now. 7 years later, he’s one of the greatest players to have ever played the sport. He wasn’t born, destined to be a tennis great. But he works hard every single day to improve his game… to be better than what he was yesterday.

And I think that’s what I did and have achieved this season. The last time I played, hindi daw kagandahan ang social skills ko. Sino bang nagsabing antipatiko at anti-social ako? Honestly, it actually is a surprise to me that castaways, while still in the game, felt that my character was trustworthy.. na magaan ang pakiramdam ng mga tao sa character na na-portray ko this season. Pero mukhang hindi na after ma-reveal sa FTC kung sino ako. But I hope they get past that and see how Ben Tennyson played.