That?s what
Josh?s new statement and moral was. After his rousing and rather
uncomfortable chat with Sara, whom he was grateful that she actually
put up with him in his time of need, he was still lacking a comfort
and his anger was continuing to bubble into unhealthy
levels.

With his gloves on and his black wind pants fastened
to his legs, he was ready. He approached the turbolift and pressed
the console to call the car with his fingers, which protruded out the
end of their respected pockets. He stretched his arms and legs as he
awaited the car and, at last, it arrived and he stepped
in.

?Holodeck Two.? He called out as the doors sealed behind
him. The thoughts still mingled through his mind about his mother,
whom he?d just lost, and his brother, who was still so young and
innocent, and his father, lost so many years ago and was taken from
their family without due cause. So many things had gone wrong, so
terribly wrong, and Josh just had to take it because he couldn?t
change the past, or the future.

As the turbolift shuddered to
a stop, Josh?s breathing increased as he walked down the corridor.
People gave him funny looks as his stare ? one of determination and
filled with anger ? aimed straight ahead and on a target that only
Josh knew. Approaching the doors he paused, his eyes locked on the
durasteel. His hand traced the metal frame as if to caress the soft
face of a lover or dear friend. He smiled, an evil smile that is
only shown by pure evil and anger.

Without flinching he
punched the door with all his might. He felt something pull in his
hand, but he didn?t care. A passing female crewman was startled into
the wall and stared at him with a look of horror. She looked at him
funny, and then shuffled along the wall until she was around the
corner and well out of his field of vision.

?Computer, start
program D?Vorak Theta Nine Gamma.? He cradled his right hand in his
left and sort of condensed the pain down and isolated it from his
mind. As the doors opened to reveal a cave with light that was just
candles scattered among many rocks, the pain began to subside and
leave his consciousness.

Stepping into the middle of the cave,
which appeared in the form of an arena or place of meditation, Josh
assumed an offensive stance. He bounced back and forth on his heels
and stared at the mounds of rock that surrounded him. All of a
sudden, without notice from the computer or noise, a Klingon warrior
appeared before him.

It was go time.

Swinging his left
fist, he contacted the brutal warrior and sent him staggering
backwards. ?Computer, deactivate safety protocols.? Josh speared
the Klingon and took him to the ground, and without wasting a breath
Josh began pummeling the Klingon with his right hand. Each punch
brining back more and more pain into Josh?s consciousness and, still,
Josh couldn?t care. The fight was all about anger management, and
this Klingon was what he was letting his anger out
on.

?Warning, deactivation of the?? The computer?s automated
warning rang out as Josh continued to furiously beat the
warrior.

?Override.? Josh, stepping ahead of the computer,
overrode the protocols. Now, even on the holodeck, a head smacking
off the rock would kill him. At this point, mentally, he would
welcome it.

As the computer acknowledged, the warrior threw
Josh off and into the rock wall. He leapt up with the greatest of
ease and picked up Josh off of the ground by the neck. The massive
soldier began squeezing the life and air out of Josh?s body. Josh
struggled against the iron-tight fingers of the Klingon, but it was
no use. The air became harder and harder to get, the room became
darker and darker.

Suddenly gaining a burst of adrenaline,
Josh gave the Klingon a swift kick between the legs. Doubling over
and coughing without relenting, the warrior scrambled backwards.
Josh regained his footing, taking a couple of deep breaths in the
process, and charged forward. Josh lifted his leg and caught the
Klingon in the side of the head with his knee.

Falling to the
ground, the Klingon groaned in pain. Josh went to work on his
compromised opponent by kicking him in the ribs. A couple of shot
the ribs, some more to the face, and a couple to the back caused the
Klingon to howl like an animal. Josh smiled and continued beating.
He took a step back, admiring his work, and removed his shirt ?
throwing it casually on a rock nearby.

?All right, you son of
a bitch, get your ass up.? The Klingon began to stand, and Josh
rushed at him. Ducking, Josh sailed into the wall ? headfirst. A
sickening crack echoed throughout the cave as Josh fell backwards.
Blood drained out of his head and down his bare chest. The Klingon
howled in laughter.

?Bloodless P?tak.? The Klingon lifted
Josh up and punched him across the face, sending Josh spiraling to
the dirt. A puff of dust rose as Josh?s head began to spin out of
control. Josh stood and was smacked again, this time his head was
caught between the fists of fury and the rock wall behind him. He
was bleeding profusely and, because of that, he was getting horribly
lightheaded as well.

?Computer, end program.? The Klingon
disappeared as Josh lay there on the rock onto which he had recently
fallen. Blood poured from the wound on his head and almost covered
the rock by the time Josh realized that if he didn?t do anything that
this would be the end of him.

?Asper to Sickbay.? He managed
to stammer as he struggled to hold himself upright. ?Medical
emergency in Holodeck Two.?