Dia memilih diam karena takut salah bicara dan akhirnya makin berantem. Sementara, kami jauh. Terpisah kota, terpisah pulau. Pada akhirnya we lost each other. I said I miss him couple times, but no respond. He didn’t appreciate my feeling. I felt bad. That’s not a good sign to continue anything between us. He made me feel bad about myself.

I broke. That’s why I write these story in English. I thought he is the last one. He changed, he just changed. We dreamed on different life now. It is not something that we talked last year.

Yesterday, I deleted him from my social media friend. It’s hard to see him alive and meet someone new. Saya berharap dia mati saja, kok rasanya itu lebih mudah. Jahat, ya? Iya, I know. But, he doesn’t care about my feeling, my opinion, why was him making me upset, and so on and so on. I felt bad when remember we were so good together. We never had a fight when we lived in the same city. Only God know why. 😦