Insane musings and ramblings of a mother of 2, a boy and a girl so smart, witty and challenging that said mother must take refuge in the sanctuary of the internet, buffered by the knowledge that she is not alone in her fear that someday her kids will put her in a home.

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Glee, I can hardly contain thee

So I've got this possible opportunity to be a contributor to a blog and I'm extremely excited about it but at the same time I'm apprehensive. I have a deadline for how many contributions I need to give per week and I dictated what I could contribute, so if I struggle with it, it's my own fault. But I'm a little anxious because aside from school papers, I've never had a deadline before. And this is going to be a weekly deadline basically. This will be ongoing, just like someone who has a job in magazines or newspapers.

Which scares the bejeezus out of me because it means this is the next step towards realizing my dream of becoming a writer. I'm full of fears that I won't be good enough, that I won't get enough done on time, that I'll disappoint someone or that I won't have any support. And there's the sneaking suspicion that I'll have to call it off at some point in time because I won't be able to handle the commitment, which is akin to failure to me. I just have to cross my fingers and hope that I can stick to my guns and get this done. I've started preparations to get my filler ready and I've begun research into the areas that I'll be writing about, so I have to trust that this will work out in the end.