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January 18, 2016

A Walk in January.

Last weekend Jarryd and I went for a walk at one of our favourite places, Fair Hill. This place is beautiful! It's where memories are made. Fair Hill is where Jarryd proposed to me; and anyone who comes to visit, I bring them here! :)

It has an innumerable amount of trails going every direction, and each time we come here we like to hit the ones that we haven't yet stepped on. I think that maybe, just maybe we found our favourite trail this weekend!

The combination of gloomy skies, dead trees, open fields of rolling hills, and old buildings built back in who-knows-when gave me "The Village" kind of vibe. The vibey feelings make sense, as that movie was filmed not even an hour from here! Woo! I would not mind an M. Night Shyamalan marathon right about now...

Winter in Maryland is unlike any winter. It's not too cold, it has its fair share of greenery, AND there's still no snow on the ground. (They say we're supposed to get a big snowstorm this upcoming weekend, unfortunately. I'll keep you posted). I was really looking forward to going a whole winter without any snow...sigh.

And January of 2016 is unlike any year. Every January up until this point has been a month of significance, because it enthrones the "this is finally the year of ______" statement. Whether it be graduating high school, moving, graduating college, moving again, getting married, moving some more, or getting my Green Card, there has always been some big life-altering event coming up that year that I have planned for.

But as for this January, no spectacular written-in-stone event has been planned for this year. How interesting. We have our hopes and dreams of course, but for right now that is all they are, dreams, hopes, and potential goals.

Is this normal? Often I've been lead to believe that the life I live is a somewhat abnormal one. (Apparently not everyone moves like 5 times in 5 years...whaaat?!)

Yes, it's rather weird for me to think that life could stay somewhat the same for me this year. Especially because I've almost reached my anniversary for living in the same town for two whole years. You think you're amazed at my consistency?! I'm even more amazed!

I do not think that life is made up of the big events.

I've been to many funerals in my 25 years of living, and at none of them do they lay out a timeline of the deceased's big moments in life. It's not like they announce:"In 1964 they graduated high school, then in 1970 they graduated with their masters in Mathematical Biology, and then got married in 1971, and then moved to Oxford in 1974, and then published a novel in 1978." NO! This may sound a little blunt for my taste, but nobody cares about that stuff. We care about who they were as a person and they reflect on how they treated others at every step of the way aloooong the timeline of their big life events. It's the little things in life, right?!

I do not think I'm going to be remembered for my A.A in Social Sciences. I really don't. (Although it was fun while it lasted). And I'm not about to fashion a whole list of my "good deeds done unto others in life", because that would just be a little conceited and ridiculous. (But can you imagine? HA!)

But what I will say is that before traveling back to my hometown in Canada, I have this little fear inside that I'll arrive and end up sitting at my parents place watching TV everyday for two weeks because nobody will have any time for me; or I'll call a friend up and ask to hang out and they'll respond with "sorry, I'm actually too busy washing my hair this morning...and afternoon...and evening...and the day after that. Have a nice flight back! Love ya!" But thankfully, both times I have travelled back to Canada, this blissful wave of relief washes over me because the moment I arrive my schedule is already filled with friends and family who want to see me!! This is not a bragging party in any way, it is just a reassurance for my heart that when I was living in my hometown, I did things right and I treated people right. And I think that is what I'll be remembered for/what I hope and strive to be remembered for: my love!

So with all of that to say, I guess this year will be all about the little things. And that is just fine because I know God will use them for His glory, some way some how.

"Now listen, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.'

Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow.

What is your life?

You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.

Instead, you ought to say, 'If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.'"

3 comments:

Not to sound morbid or anything, but you do know that if something were to happen to you we would force everyone to watch your trampoline video start to finish, and make them read your memoirs so that no one could say they truly didn't know you. haha and you thought your big events would go unnoticed..