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It’s March 22nd, and that means it’s my Monma’s birthday. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to fly down as a surprise this year. Last year was insanely awesome! I did get to see her earlier this month when I flew down for a funeral. I’m glad I got a few days to sort of celebrate. Anywho! Let’s do this!

Dear Momma,

You kick ass. You just do. I don’t know many women who can handle a teenage jerk rebelling for days, a full-time job, paying multiple bills, and maintaining some semblance of sanity (I say some because we all know you’re kind of crazy. It’s a ‘fun crazy ‘ though ). You’ve taught me so much throughout my life. Some of which I didn’t listen to (and probably should have). Some of which hurt at the time. And some of which molded me into who I am today.

I’m immensely thankful for your mad cooking skills, so is anyone who has had your cooking. I’m thankful for your 4 hour long phone calls letting me vent about my life. I’m thankful for you going with me to midnight movie releases. I’m thankful for you going to concerts with me. I’m thankful for your awesome hugs. But mostly, I’m thankful for your love. You love unconditionally, and you wear your heart on your sleeve. I know you hurt sometimes. I know I’ve been the reason for that hurt sometimes (not lately cause I’m awesome). I know that you’ve powered through and have discovered that friends make the best family.

I also want to thank you for defending me. Especially this past year, when people that should know better tried to tear me down and drag my faith through the mud. You were there with words of encouragement and polite defense when all I wanted to do was be rude and angry.

You know my heart, and are always there for me. I don’t have enough words to say how thankful I am for God giving me the best mom! Thank you for your years of encouragement, honesty, and love. Thank you for being my shoulder to cry on, hands to hold, friend to tell my ideas to, and strength during the hard times.

You’re an amazing mom. I love you so much and miss you a lot! I hope you have the best day ever, we will go do something when I’m there this summer!
Love,

So, this year I actually bought my mom a card. Shocking, I know! I even bought it a few weeks ago so I would be able to send it out and have it arrive in time. But did I remember or have time to do that? Of course not! I fail in the daughter department sometimes. It’s crappy, but whatever!

I love my mom. She knows that.

Unfortunately, we live over 20 hours away from each other, which is difficult, emotionally, on these holidays. I was so lucky and blessed to be able to surprise her for her birthday back in March,
but I still wish we could be together today.
I remember growing up and seeing father’s day posts from friends, or watching a father and daughter on TV, and thinking it kinda sucked to not be able to do that. To have that relationship with my father. But I always had my mom, she always made that day a regular day for me. And I never realized that at some point I would look on Facebook and get jealous of all the Mother’s day posts. I miss my mom more than anything and I am glad she is still around but I realized that a lot of people don’t get to have this day with their mom for a different reason than almost 2,000 miles. There are people out there that lost their momma and I know my mom is one of those people.
I know this because today would have been my Grandma’s birthday. I miss her a lot, but I wasn’t raised by her. I didn’t get the chance to come home from school and talk about my day with her. Or, cry on her shoulder because my heart hurt. I didn’t get to tell her about school assignments, or my hopes and dreams. I didn’t have the same relationship with her that I have with my mom. I know my mom misses her momma because there’s a huge distance between here and heaven. I know she wishes she would be able to pick up the phone and tell her momma about how rockin her granddaughter is (I’m a very humble person). Or, just tell her Happy Mother’s Day one more time.

So, for those of you out there that don’t have your momma with you today. My heart hurts for you, but I know they’re all up in the sky getting the best Mother’s Day celebration ever. And celebrating my grandma for her birthday!
I was blessed with such an awesome mom, and I know I was a punk when I was younger, and I hurt her heart time and time again. But she was always there. She’s still always there. I hope when I have kids they will be as in awe of me as I am of my mother.
My mom kicks butt.
She’s powerful.
She’s graceful.
She’s smart.
She’s hilarious.
She’s sarcastic.
She’s humble.

She taught me everything I know and has always fought for me and with me against any wall that has blocked my path.
I know that she has put up with a lot of crap from me over the years and I’m so grateful she never walked away. I know there were things that scared her, but she stood by me. I can only hope that you all have a mother as awesome as mine. Or that you are a mother as awesome as mine.

I want to wish all you mothers the happiest of Mother’s Days! You rock, your strength in the everyday tasks of motherhood amazes me. I hope you’re spoiled and pampered today. Or, if you’re not near your mom, or kiddos, that you can make up for it when you see them next (I get to celebrate my mom in June!).
Love and miss y’all. I’ll post later this week about what’s been happening in my life!!

I know it’s been a long while since I’ve posted. And before I left California over a year ago, I said I would continually update everyone. I just wasn’t motivated to post anything, and I had a crazy schedule for several months. I’ve actually written posts, just didn’t make them public. It was kinda like writing in a diary. It was quite therapeutic.

Anywho, let’s see…my last post was just a long Q&A cause some people sent in some serious questions that I felt needed responses. And I had said I would post about my time in CA for the month of June. So, we’ll take this month by month!

JUNE- I planned to go down to CA for a week at the beginning of June, because some of my kids were graduating, and I couldn’t miss that! But, my schedule for work in WA changed and I decided to make it an entire month! Which was fun and interesting. My trip started with a flight that was supposed to have an hour layover in San Francisco. Unfortunately, I was on the plane sitting on the tarmac in Seattle for three hours of delay…just a friendly tip, don’t fly United!!! Because I had to work the day of the trip, I got one of the later flights out. Which means that when we finally got to SF, my connection flight was long gone and there were no other flights that day. It sucked sooooooooooooooooo much! Fortunately, the airline put me up in a hotel and got me a direct flight to my hometown for the next morning. When I got to Palm Springs and walked off the plane, I wanted to die! It had been awhile since I was in such miserable heat! Anyway, I got to go to graduations and have special days with all my girls!! And because I had planned to be there all month, I was super blessed to be able to be the Bible Adventures station leader again! There’s something special about being able to teach children about the Bible, and be silly about it, and see their faces light up with understanding! Getting high fives and hugs is a pretty awesome benefit too!
I miss California a lot, and I miss all my friends and family, especially my momma! But when I left, I realized that it’s getting easier to say goodbye. Everyone is growing up, and things are changing. It’s hard to accept sometimes, but I know it’s all for the best.

Now onto JULY- I got into Washington late at night and slept for a few days. On the 4th of July, I went to a friend’s party and had an awesome time…there were really yummy cookies that I forever want. Fireworks were different from what I’m used to. But it was a fun experience.
The job I was coming back for ended up falling through, which was tough, and resulted in a few days of depression, but I kicked it and applied everywhere! Which ended up with a few super strange jobs and me seeking the Lord’s guidance and provision for a few months.

AUGUST- honestly, I don’t remember a lot happening in August.
Actually! I broke my phone. I dropped it facedown on asphalt as I was getting out of my car and the screen shattered. Which left me with my old Droid Razr which was good for a time, and that time was not in 2015. I ended up getting a galaxy s5, which I love. So yay! And I forgot, I broke the cartilage in my nose. Which bruised and was gnarly.

SEPTEMBER – still applying everywhere. Finally got a nanny job two days a week, and a job as assistant manager at Spirit Halloween! Also, signed the lease on an apartment in Federal Way!

OCTOBER – such a busy month! I was working 50-60 hour weeks and moving into a new place! It also seemed like I was getting sick every week, which reminded me why I wasn’t in retail anymore! It was fun though. Despite the fact that I might have complained about being exhausted all the time. It felt good to be busy.

NOVEMBER – My birthday month!!!!I still had a few more days at Spirit, and then inventory, before it closed for the year. Then my awesome boyfriend threw me a surprise birthday party! Then a week later we celebrated our one year anniversary. And a week after that, my mom came up for Thanksgiving! Which was really fun to cook! It’s one of my favorite days honestly. Then I got to go Black Friday shopping and get a bunch of awesome deals!

DECEMBER – I tend to get in a really bad funk in December. It’s really hard to shake. I wrote a post that I never published on here about what I was going through, and I might put it up one day. But for now, it’ll be my therapy. Anyway, for Christmas, I got a few weeks off and Sean and I did a roadtrip to California! I didn’t really tell very many people I was gonna be down, so it was fun to just go with the flow of things. I loved being able to show Sean where I grew up and introduce him to all the other people I love! I loved being able to have time with my mom and see my pets (I didn’t realize how much I missed my dog until I got to cuddle with him, and struggle snuggle with my cat). We got to make lasagna, which is a Christmas tradition. And homemade spaghetti and meatballs!
Then we went to Oceanside to visit with my aunt for a day. And went to check out a comic shop which happens to be across from a pet shop which was a really bad idea to take me to. Unfortunately, Sean took me there/I refused to leave the mall until I went there. And there were puppies!!!!!! OMG, THEY WERE SO CUTE AND TINY AND HAD FLOPPY EARS AND LITTLE TAILS AND THEIR SQUISHY FACES FREAKING OMG I NEEDED ONE! !!!!!!! We didn’t get a puppy. Also, I may have cried…okay, so I cried a lot. I was a little overwhelmed by the amount of adorableness that I was surrounded by. But seriously, they were so tiny!!!
After all that we finally headed back to Washington. Which is not a more pleasant drive with two people. That drive just sucks overall. It’s 20 something hours of road. Bleh. We got back on NYE, went to a few parties and got home and slept for days. It was great!

JANUARY – this month has been tough cause after spending so much time with my mom I realize how much I miss her. Saying goodbye sucked. But I’ve been back in the swing of things at work and will hopefully get an extra job to help pay bills/keep me busy.

I had a few questions sent to me. But didn’t really want to answer them on here so I messaged the people back with responses since they were more personal in nature than anything. But here are a few for y’all.

QUESTION #1: WOULD YOU GIVE A HOMELESS PERSON CPR IF THEY WERE DYING?
Yes. Absolutely. Just because a person is homeless, that doesn’t make them any less human. If someone is dying, regardless of race, age, sex, or wealth, you should do everything you can to save them.

QUESTION #2: ARE YOU AFRAID OF GROWING OLDER?
No…yes. ..kinda. it’s not so much growing older as I don’t look forward to being old and unable. Being a caregiver, I’ve seen how it is for the elderly to deteriorate and not be able to do things that were once so easy to do. And that scares me. I want to be able to go places and eat random things, and run around without needing someone to help me. So, I’m not afraid of living and doing everything over the next several years. But I’m afraid of when I won’t be able to keep doing things.

QUESTION #3: WHAT BOOK ARE YOU GOING TO READ NEXT?
My awesome boyfriend bought me the entire Harry Potter series. Unfortunately, I have not started it, because when I do, no one will see me for a week. But if I work on my self-control, I might be able to time it out lol

QUESTION #4: DO YOU SAVE OLD LETTERS OR THROW THEM AWAY?
I throw most letters away. The only ones I will keep are the ones that have handwritten notes inside of them. Because if you took the time to write something sweet and personal, i think that’s awesome. Or, if the pre-written note is sweet and makes me cry.

Allllllllllllllllright. That’s all I’ve got for now. If you have any questions, comments, prayer requests, testimonies, or just wanna say hey, you can do so on here or email me at the address below.
Love y’all and super miss y’all!!!

So I normally do a post about how my life has been going, and then I do a Q&A with questions sent from random strangers, or friends, or my kids. And, though I do have a lot to update y’all on regarding my life. I got a few questions anonymously emailed to me and I decided to dedicate this post to questions only. Though prayer for me to get this job in July are definitely appreciated!!!

Okay, here goes.

QUESTION #1: IS IT OKAY TO HAVE SEX WHEN YOU’RE 14???
The person that emailed this question didn’t state whether they we’re male or female. They also asked me to ‘not use the Bible’ as a reference in my response. But that’s kind of difficult for me. So I’ll give you the response from both a biblical, and a worldly point of view. The answer is no. Biblically, you should wait until marriage to have sex. I’ve had arguments with people about this situation, because if you ask me, I’ll tell you to wait, then you’ll ask if I’m waiting, and I didn’t. My situation was complicated, though. Overall, my response when counseling anyone about having sex before marriage is to ask a simple question. ‘Are you ready to be a parent?’ that’s what it comes down to. Are you ready, at 14, to be a parent? Because that’s the risk you run. Yes, there’s contraception. But what if that fails? Are you ready to spend the rest of your life taking care of another being? Providing food, shelter, clothing, healthcare? Because honestly, even at 24, I’m not ready for that! At 14, are you with a person that you’re willing to share a life with? Every time you have sex, you run the risk of pregnancy, STD’s, and though it sounds silly, but getting your heartbroken. Every time you have sex, that’s a piece of yourself that you’ve shared with someone else. Are you ready for the risk of losing that piece of yourself if your partner decided they wanted to look elsewhere?
So, is it okay to have sex at 14? Following the ways of the world, no. You’re perfectly capable of going through with that. But the age of consent in California is 18. You might be capable of having sex. Basically everyone is. But legally and Biblically, it’s a no-go. If you want to be following God’s plan for your life? I’d recommend that you wait. You’re so special, and God has the perfect person for you! Whether it be the person you’re with now, or someone you don’t meet for several years. That person is out there. And if you’re feeling pressured because of the person you’re with threatening to leave you, or pushing past your boundaries, you need to get out of that relationship. Seriously! If you’re with a person that is pressuring you to agree to have sex, that’s not okay. Get help from an adult that you trust, or even go to the authorities. That’s dangerous, and you’re better than that. I understand thinking that you’re in love with this person, and wanting to be closer to them than any other person. But you’ve got you’re entire life ahead of you. Honestly, if I was with the guy I had feelings for when I was 14, we’d be living in a trailer in the middle of nowhere…Bleh. I know it’s tough to save yourself. I know you think everyone else is having sex, why shouldn’t you? But I can assure you, you’re not the only person remaining abstinent. If, when you’re 18 and legally able to consent, you decide you’re ready to have sex, remember to stop and think about if you’re ready to be a mommy or daddy.
I’m not gonna say to remain abstinent until marriage. I’m not gonna say to have sex when you can legally consent. But I will say to always use protection. And always remember that if you’re with the person God has prepared for you, you won’t be pressured to wait, it will be the most natural wait ever. Because that person wants to respect and love you like the awesome person you are!!❤❤❤

QUESTION #2: IS IT OK TO LISTEN TO REGULAR MUSIC AS A CHRISTIAN?
I listen to so many different varieties of music. My favorite is punk rock. I love listening to bands that actually know how to play their instruments. A lot of the music I’m listening to ends up with me primarily listening to the beat. Yes, I’m aware that the lyrics aren’t always the best. Sometimes there’s curse words. Sometimes the band is disrespecting authority. I don’t plan to stop listening to these songs. But I also don’t let this music impact my everyday life. I’m not out screaming obscenities about the government. Nor am I sleeping with every person I meet. I’m not doing drugs, and clubbing every weekend. I don’t take the music I listen to literally. I also love listening to worship songs. They tend to make my day significantly better. In response to this question, I would say, if the music you’re listening to is causing your heart to stray, maybe check out some other music. I totally understand not wanting to listen to Christian music, because a lot of it is super cheesy. But there are some really good Christian artists out there. I’d recommend going online and googling Christian artists that are similar to bands you like listening to now. And if you have similar tastes to myself, I’d recommend Thousand Foot Krutch, Family force 5, Disciple, and Skillet. They’re awesome bands that I’ve been blessed to see live, several times !!

QUESTION #3: DO YOU STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR AN EX?
I don’t. Honestly, when I think about my exes, there are really no great enough memories, that would cut out the bad stuff I went through with them. There was a reason they didn’t work out, and I’m not going to hold on to something that wasn’t meant to be.

QUESTION #4: I CHEATED ON MY BOYFRIEND. SHOULD I TELL HIM?
Yes. I was cheated on, and my ex admitted it to me. I used to wonder, if he hadn’t told me, would we still be together? I most likely, would have found out. And we would have broken up in the end. Cheating sucks, and it’s selfish. I don’t really understand why anyone would do it, but I think it’ll hurt more if your partner found out himself, instead of you admitting you did it. It’s a sucky situation to be in. But in the end, you won’t feel as much guilt, and maybe y’all can work through it!

QUESTION #5: HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT MARRIAGE EQUALITY?
If you didn’t know, This law passed yesterday. I doubt anyone missed it. But I’m not posting this blog post until Monday, because I don’t want to have disagreements on my last day in California. How do I feel about it? I feel as I do every single day. That’s not actually true. I’m mad. But not how you think I’d be. I’m mad about how my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ are reacting! As a believer, I have been taught to love others as I would want to be loved. And I’ve done that. Do I believe in marriage equality? In a way, yes. I believe if you love someone, you should be allowed to be with them. I saw so many hateful posts yesterday and today. And I’ve heard so many people use horrifyingly derogatory words about something you have no idea about! Using the f** word, is in the same context as using the n***** word. It doesn’t matter if you’re joking, you should NEVER use those words. They’re disrespectful! And it hurts me! I love my boyfriend. But if I happened to have feelings for a female, that’s okay. My faith in God is more important to me, so I’d most likely remain celibate. I spoke with my mom about this yesterday, but we’ve had this conversation before. She loves me, I am her child! If I had feelings for another female, she wouldn’t disown me. She wouldn’t send me to Bible camp and ‘pray the gay’ out of me. That’s ridiculous! She loves me as I am! Gay. Straight. Black. White. Purple. Yellow. Orange. Whatever! Based on what I’ve seen online, people are acting as though homosexuality means that you’re not a person. That you’re somehow less. And I think that’s total crap! I have family members and good friends that are gay. Does that mean I’m supposed to love them less?? Heck no!! As a Christian, I know what the Bible says. I also know it says to ‘judge not, lest ye be judged’ ( Matthew 7:1)
Overall, this is what I have to say, I don’t support, nor am I against same-sex marriage. I don’t personally care who you love. It grosses me out when anyone makes out in front of me, but I’ve never liked PDA from anyone. I refuse to judge any form of marriage. I saw a friend comment on Facebook that ‘ the government shouldn’t even be involved in marriage’ and I think that’s an awesome point. None of this should have been such a big deal. My question to everyone that is so against this is, why is this such a big deal for you? How does this, in any way, affect you? I’m pretty sure the answer is, it doesn’t. So leave it alone. ‘ Why do you see the speck in your brother’s eye, but fail to see the beam of wood in your own?’ ( Matthew 7:3)
Pray for everyone, because that’s what you’re called to do. Love everyone, because you’re also called to do that. And if you have hate in your heart. The Bible has the same outcome for you as that which you’re fighting so hard against.
I love you all, and I’m sure I’ll be getting angry calls and texts. I encourage readers to send me their opinions to discuss this further. It’s only through conversation and the exchange of ideas that our personal understanding of the world, and how to bring the Lord’s message to it, can grow. But let’s try to keep it Christian and leave the personal attacks at home. And please, out of respect, don’t go “telling on me to my mommy”. She will not tolerate rudeness.

😌😌😌😌😌❤❤💞💞☺☺☺

Alright, so that’s it for my serious Q&A, I still have to do a post about my time in California!! And I’ll do that this coming week!! Love y’all, miss y’all!!!

I was a jerk teenager.
I know most people say they were rebellious and moody when they were teenagers. But I was legitimately a jerk. Looking back and remembering some of the things I did, or words I had said, reminds me that mom’s are equipped to handle a lot!

Today is Mother’s Day! I was sitting in the card aisle at Target, Walgreens, and then RiteAid, and looking at the cards for moms. And they’re fine. But none of them were great. None of them said what I wanted to say. None of them brought you to the verge of happy tears, or made you laugh out loud. None of them were personal enough. I can’t just send a mediocre card to my mom!! That’s insanity! So, now we have a Blog post!

I’m not near my mom today, which kinda sucks. I miss her more than I can explain. I realize that I miss the random things that you don’t really associate with motherhood. Like being able to sit next to her in church and share random inside jokes that are probably not that funny, but to you two, it’s the most hilarious. Or, cracking up about the fact that your mom is slightly addicted to trashy television. Being able to go ‘grocery shopping’ in your moms pantry and fridge. Having your irrational mood swings be understood by someone. Being able to show your mom how to do things with technology. Like I said, it’s the little things. But there’s a ton of the big things I miss. Going to her house and talking until 2 in the morning. All day movie marathons. Molé and chicken tortilla soup cooking parties.

My mom is my favorite. It’s a known fact that I have a lot of mom’s. There’s my actual mom that’s blood. Then there’s the many that have played a big part in my life. My mom has always been there, even when I was at rock bottom. Even when I was certain I didn’t want to continue living. Even when I pushed her away. As a child of a single mom, I’ve realized that I’ve taken so much for granted. I know it couldn’t have been easy to raise a daughter, work full time, make meals, keep a house, and have any time for yourself. But I’m so grateful you did! You taught me how to be my own person. You taught me how to laugh when I’m hurting. You taught me how to follow my dreams. You taught me how to love selflessly. You taught me how to be a mom. I know when the time comes, and I’m raising my own children, I’ll be such a rockin mom, because I had you as an example. Thank you for never giving up on me, even when you didn’t understand how to help. Thank you for holding me, and letting me wipe my tears and snot on you. Thank you for being my nurse, my therapist, my comedian, my defender, my personal chef, my chauffeur, and my voice of reason. Thank you, Momma.

This last Wednesday I had an amazing interview for this nanny agency up here in Washington. When I did an over the phone interview, I was asked a few questions about my resumé. One of the questions was about working in a church nursery. The guy that owns the company asked if that meant I was a Christian, to which I replied that I was. He then continued to tell me that he and his wife were believers as well!! So then I’m interviewing and filling out paperwork in person and having a wonderful chat with the owner about everything, from my beliefs, to working as a youth leader, and when it’s all done, the owner asks me to tell my mom thank you on behalf of himself. He said ‘ tell her she raised a lovely young woman, with a heart that is absolutely dedicated to the Lord’. I honestly don’t think there’s any better compliment. I truly hope that one day my children will make that phone call to let me know that other people can see the awesome work being done in their lives.

And I wanted to send a huge Thank you and Happy Mother’s Day to all my other moms!! I’ve had some seriously amazing influences over the years, whether it be my amazing aunts keeping me stocked in Barbie’s and love, or my awesome church mom’s keeping me accountable, or my best friends mom’s basically adopting me into their lives, you’ve all been there for me in one way or another through all these years, and I’m thankful that you’ve been put into my life.

I truly wouldn’t be the young woman I am today without you wonderful women in my life!! I hope you all have an amazing day, and that you get super spoiled by your families!!

I’ve been having some of the best days of my life!!! Honestly, my life is pretty rockin. Yes, I miss my California humans more than I can explain! But I’ve finally discovered my niche up here, and that makes moving forward so much easier!!

There have been so many things happening from the last post about my life. Which was back in February, after Valentine’s Day.

My boyfriend, Sean 💕 and I, drove down to Oregon, to Pacific University…okay, so he drove, I most likely annoyed with my musical selections. Anyway, we went to see my family, they were visiting my cousins future school. We went to the Tillamook factory, had ice cream, took a stroll around a beach, and took pictures. Then had a delicious dinner at this little Thai place close to the school!! It was awesome to see my family, and have them meet my guy!!

Okay, so that was it for February. Then March came along. Not a lot happened that I can think of…oh! That’s right! I went to Emerald City Comic Con 😎😎 it was interesting…as all comic conventions are. There were tons of people in Cosplay, and it was really cool seeing how committed some of the outfits were (some had awesome details…some did not). Plus, I got to sleep in a super comfy bed at the Westin (I could honestly write odes to this bed. Perhaps a haiku…no, that’s crazy. But you need to understand that this bed was heaven!!), and have a delicious dinner at Il Fornaio, where they have dessert that is also sent from heaven!!! Plus, the next day I got to see a woman that is like my other mother, and have some catch up time!! Also in March, Sean and I did a double date with his friends, and he officially referred to me as his girlfriend!! For you to understand how excited I was, you’d have to be female. Haha. I played it cool in the moment, but inside I was doing the happy, victory dance…y’all know that dance! 💃💃💃 I think that was it for March. Oh, I also had a minor meltdown. It was the night before my mom’s birthday, and that week had been tough. I just missed California, and was really homesick. It all cultivated to one night and after getting dinner, Sean and I went to his apartment, and I felt it happening, I felt the meltdown arriving, and I took the meds that help maintain everything. The only problem was the meds don’t work instantly, you need some time. And if I hid in the bathroom for over ten minutes, that’d be a little creepy. So, I walked out, Sean stopped me in the hall, and I broke. We’re talking full on sobs. That’s right, y’all. I had the ugly cry going. Tears and makeup streaming down my face, snot making bubbles from your nose, sniffles that are not remotely ladylike, and the sad crying sounds. All in front of Sean. What did he do? He hugged me, and held me through all of it. He calmed me. He let me get tears and snot on his shirt:? and he told me it was okay. I’m pretty sure that’s when I absolutely knew how I felt about him. 😌

And that was March!! Now, for April!!!

I’ve had a chance to make some new friends!! Which I super love! But the most important was that Sean wanted me to meet his parents!!!! …those of you that know me, or that I talked with about this know that I was hardcore freaking out! I’ve never met the parents of a guy I dated. I usually already knew the parents before we dated, or it wasn’t an option. Either way, this was the first time for me meeting the parents, and for his parents to meet a girl he was dating! That’s big. No matter how you slice it, it was a big step!! I was invited to Easter dinner, where I would meet his mom, dad, and aunt. Hyperventilating was a big occurrence. The day finally arrived, I looked adorable (seriously, super cute sun dress, cardigan, grey booties). I ended up having a lot of fun. His parents were amazing. His aunt was hilarious. The food was delicious!! When we were leaving, they all gave me rockin hugs. And it felt wonderful. On the drive home, Sean told me they had each told him they liked me at various times during the night!! It was awesome!! All that freaking out was pointless, it always is. I most likely won’t stop. But hey, it makes me the person I am.
The most important part of that night though, was when we went to Sean’s. Because when that happened, we were cuddled on the couch eating candy, and Sean gave me a card. Inside the card was a key to his apartment. It’s my new favorite escape! And with that key he told me the three words every girl longs to hear!!!! He told me he loves me!!!!!!!!!!! There aren’t really enough exclamation points for describing that moment. I became that over excited girl that you see and wonder what she’s on. I was giggly and bouncy and happy. My heart was slippery, and my tummy was mush. There have been moments over the past few months when I’ve wanted to say those words to him. But I didn’t. Finally, being able to say it and have it said back, is an incredible feeling!! This guy makes me happy. Does he annoy me? Yes. Are there times when I wanna smack him? Heck yes! But the days when he watches a movie he doesn’t want to (Hercules…the Disney version😝), or takes me to get donuts from our favorite place, when he holds my hand and will give me kisses all over my face when I’m sad, or when he texts me good morning and good night. Those are the times that matter. Those are the times when my heart is full. I love those times. I love Sean😘

QUESTION #1: WHO’S YOUR FAVORITE BAND?
The answer is Green Day. It will always be Green Day. They’re seriously the best! They know how to play their instruments. They write lyrics that actually mean something! They are awesome!!

QUESTION #2: WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
This is a weird question. My favorite number is 13. I like the superstitions attached to it. I think it’s hilarious. Plus, it was the Jersey number of a guy I used to have a huge crush on…lol teenagers.

QUESTION #3: WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE FEATURE IN A GUY?
So, I wasn’t sure if this was based on physical, or personality. And I decided to just answer both. My favorite physical feature is…eyes. You can learn a lot from a person based on their eyes. And my favorite personality feature is a guy that can entertain children. Being able to see how a guy treats kids is helpful in seeing how he would treat his own children. 😝

QUESTION #4: WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF A YEAR FROM NOW?
Shout out to Sam for this lovely question. I miss you, dear!!
Okay, a year from now? I’m not sure. I honestly never know where I’ll be, or what I’ll be doing. I’ll most likely still be in Washington. I’m hoping to have a job that’s incredibly awesome, and pays well. And I’m most definitely gonna be happy. Cause it’s mine to design, y’all!!!

QUESTION #5: WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO HAVE IN A RELATIONSHIP?
I’m assuming this is a romantic relationship you’re asking about? I think the most important thing is trust. There are lots of things you’ll want, like someone to make you laugh, someone to encourage your weirdness, someone who loves you. But if you don’t trust the person you’re dating, then you have the potential to be hurt beyond repair. And that’s not cool -__-

I feel like a jerk since I haven’t posted in a long time. I know I’ve actually spoken with, or texted most of y’all. But no blog post for weeks meant you didn’t get the awesome ‘Q&A with Kelsey’ time!!! I KNOW you missed that!!
Okay, so a quick run through of what you’ve missed…let’s start with Halloween, I was feeling Bleh on Halloween, but friends wanted to go to this club to see this live band perform cover songs. So I rallied!!! I didn’t put much effort into my costume though. I went as a pin up girl (totally rocked it, Plus I didn’t have to buy anything since my style has pin up girl pieces already in it). It was a fun show, but I still felt gross. I mainly chilled at a table the entire night. But, I had a guy come ask to buy me a drink. I told him I was sick and he ended up buying me Orange juice!!😍😍 super sweet! Anyway, he’s a nice guy, and we’ve hung out quite a bit lately. So, that’s fun.

Now, moving along to November!!!! My birthday month is pretty awesome. Yes, I get an entire month haha!!

The week before my birthday was super crappy. I’ve been looking for a new job since this one has been pretty miserable, but I was told at the beginning of that week that the kid was gonna move to his mom’s and that I wasn’t needed anymore…which isn’t great since I didn’t have another job lined up, nor did I have a place to live. To add to that fun, I ended up getting Strep throat in the middle of the week. It seemed like one thing after another. But, I was really proud of myself, because I took care of myself. I got my own antibiotics, I made myself Chicken Tortilla soup, I took my meds at the right times!! I did it!!! Yes, I wanted my mom. What sick person doesn’t want their mother?!?! But, I proved to myself that I am okay by myself. I’m able to do this!! I think I really needed to reach that point, and I’m glad I did. It was a pretty rockin moment!

On the job and housing front, I’ve had several interviews, and I’m just waiting at this point. I’ve applied to both live-in and regular nanny postings, plus I’ve applied to retail jobs. It’s just waiting now. As far as living, I’ve been super blessed by my awesome neighbor up here, Laura!!! She’s letting me live with her as long as I need. She’s basically been my lifesaver up here!! So I have a roof over my head, I’ve got food, water, and clothes. I can’t complain. Yes, I would like to find a job sooner, rather than later, but it’s all in God’s hands.

Now onto my birthday!!!!!

This was the first birthday away from friends and family, and I knew it would be tough. But I didn’t know how tough until the day actually came. It started pretty great, I was highly caffeinated, because birthday!!! I loved all the messages, calls, texts, and posts.

Especially Sam!!!!! Dude, your post cracked me up. I’m super certain I’ve said that to most of the youth group, and that made me miss y’all even more!!

I loved all my messages from my girls 😍😍😂😂😂, pretty much had me crying happy tears all day!! But I’m grateful to know that I’m still a part of your lives, and that you remember I’m always there for you!!

Plus, one of my best friends Julia called and left a message that had me crying for awhile!! Every birthday for the past….Idk how many years, we’ve done dinner somewhere, then sat in one of our cars talking for hours and catching up, but we’ve had to postpone it for the next time I’m in town. But it’s okay!!! Cause that’s all part of growing up!!

The hardest was not seeing my mom. And I know that it was hard for her too. But she’s a pretty rockin mom, since she had her friend and old neighbor from Arizona, Tom (he’s my friend too) (He’s actually pretty much family) take me to dinner, and bring me Tulips (my favorite flowers, just in case any of you ever wanted to get me some 😝😝). I pretty much started crying the second he walked up with the flowers. Seeing as how Tom only has sons, I don’t feel like he knew what to do with an overly emotional girl. Poor guy. Thanks for being there though.
I had a delicious dinner!! Then on my way home I had a conversation with Julia for over an hour. Then my friend Laura bought me a super yummy pie, and we rocked Karaoke!!

In all, it was a lovely birthday. Yes, I missed everyone, but I’m grateful for my new friends and I’m super grateful for technology!!! Thank you for the love!!

So, that’s that. You’re now up to date on the happenings of me!! I’m still job hunting. But I’m Kelsey Freaking Hayden (my middle name is obviously not Freaking), I can rock life! I’ve got this all under control!!!

Yay!!!!!!!! It’s time!!!!!!!!!!

Q&A TIME WITH KELSEY!!!!!!

A bunch of these questions are silly and random. But I’m gonna answer them because I’m silly and random, so it works 😜

QUESTION #1: If you were to make out with ONE Lord of the Rings character, based on facial hair alone, who would it be?
Aragorn. Hands down. No contest. I would not only make out with him. I would wife him so freaking hard. I think I actually said that in an earlier post. Or maybe that was about Viggo Mortensen. Regardless, he’s a total babe, and his facial hair is magnificent!!😍😍

QUESTION #2: When you and your future husband are old, would you make out without your dentures in?
Ummm….no. I don’t want to feel gums when making out with my main man. That’d be creepy. Though when making out with a guy, if your teeth clash it’s an instant mood killer. You never recover from that. #Trust
I didn’t expect this question to be so difficult. Ugh. Idk. I’m gonna stick with my answer. My husband and I will rock dentures!!!!😘😘

QUESTION #3: How serious are you and your boyfriend?
We’re in the beginning stages. So, yeah. Idk. We have fun hanging out, going out to dinners, and watching movies. It’s got potential. 😝

QUESTION #4: Are you ever going to move back?
I’m not sure. I’m having fun discovering who I am apart from my family and friends. I miss everyone. I really miss home. But I’ve got to push through and give myself at least six months. For me, that’s enough time to find out if this is where I’m supposed to be. And if I do move back, it might only be a temporary stay before I move onto a different state and adventure. I don’t know my future. I don’t know where I’ll be a year from now. I don’t want to give y’all false hope. I just try to go with the flow of things and see where I thrive the most. So, we’ll see what happens in the future 😉

QUESTION #5: What do you do when you get homesick?
I go on drives. Not far. Just around town. Or, I’ll write. Over the past few weeks I’ve written blog posts that I didn’t actually post. Or, I’ve edited my books. I find that if I lose myself in creating another persons life, I don’t miss the life I had in California as much. It helps me to accept that I’m growing and moving forward with the plans God has for me.

QUESTION #6: One pair of underwear for a year, or one roll of toilet paper for a year?
One pair of underwear for sure. You can wash that whenever, or rock the commando lifestyle. But if you only had one roll of TP? Disaster would strike.

QUESTION #7: Are you still gonna go to school to become a bartender?
Yes I am. Once i save enough money. I’ve looked into the programs up here, and there is one that would be perfect. It’s a bit expensive, but the school places you in a job once you graduate. Plus, once you’re certified you can take those skills anywhere! Restaurants, clubs, bars, cruises, etc. The place I want to go even updates their programs every 6 months, and I can take refresher courses for free for the rest of my life!! It would be so much fun!! I’m really looking forward to being able to go into that field.

QUESTION #8: Peanut butter and pickles, or hot sauce on ice cream?
I feel like peanut butter ice cream with pickles could be yummy. Hot sauce would just be random spiciness. But PB and pickles could be a lovely flavor explosion 😝😝 that sweet and sour deliciousness. Plus, I have mad love for pickles.

QUESTION #9: Do you think Christopher Walken or Steve Buscemi is sexier?
This is freaking creepy Julia!! I don’t have an addiction to all things Steve Buscemi like Kaylee, though I do like his acting. Then there’s Christopher Walken, and his epic ‘more cowbell’ SNL skit…who am I kidding?! It’s obvious that Christopher Walken is sexier!!! Now, I’m gonna go watch that skit a bunch of times haha

QUESTION #10: Would you run through downtown Seattle butt naked for a chance to kiss Orlando Bloom?
Yup. Would I regret it? Nope. Have you seen Orlando Bloom?! That is some serious man candy!!! 🔥🔥💑💑 plus, when you see him make out with a co-star, you can tell he’d have awesome kissing skills. Dang, that man!! I’d wife him hard too!!

Alright!!! This is it for now. I’ll work on posting more often!! Keep the questions coming. Keep the testimonies coming. And definitely keep the prayers coming!!!! I’ve had a few strangers send me their testimonies, and I love how we’re all tied together through things that the enemy intends for evil. We are conquerors!! Love y’all, and miss y’all!!