I tossed and turned from the moment I tried to go to bed tonight at 1:20 am and got out of bed at 2 because so much is on my mind. For the past hour I have been writing a hand written letter to her. We are supposed to get some dinner on Saturday night and talk about some things that have been on our minds lately and with so much running through my head I just needed to write it down in case I can't find the words while we are talking, am too afraid to say everything I feel I need too, and just to make sure she understands every about me and about how I look at us. I don't think I have ever opened my heart to someone as much as I have to her in this letter.

I hope that you get some resolution in one form or another. I know that it'll hurt if you don't get the answer that you prefer, but in the long run it'll hurt less to know than to be constantly waiting while unsure of what's going to happen.