Saturday, August 29, 2015

I love this song. It just brings me back to my younger days when I hardcore listened to Good Charlotte, Sum 41, Green Day, and other punk rock bands. Back then, it felt good to listen to them because they were angsty and rebellious, and I definitely felt that way.

Also, very random, but I wished I had more skinnybitch female friends. Like if I walk on the street with a self-assured quirky long-legged skinny girl in heels with an oversized cardigan, man that's kinda hot though. Most of my female friends are pretty big-boned (not fat, just bulkier than me...which is embarrassing). Speaking of bulk...I'm still nowhere near my body goals. Picture below was taken two weeks ago. My body fat % is still way too high, and it's hard to cut down when I feel like I overeat each meal but somehow don't regret it at all because I truly truly love food so much. I savor flavors. Lol. Wow cheesy.

I'm currently in London by my lonesome self because N is in Greece now vacaying with his friends. I'm half sad that I couldn't join them because I would love some sun instead of this shitty English weather (it is customary to bitch about London's weather), but also half-glad because I don't really like them, and he is telling me now anyway that the trip has been very haphazard, and one thing that I find very hard to let go: I hate not planning things. The ironic thing is that I am a horrible planner half the time because I care too much about all kinds of shit I shouldn't give a fuck about.

So because N doesn't like it when I smoke, with no one else in the house, I smoke up. I've been plugging in my MacBook to the TV and watching some quality porn lolol... No but seriously I jack off like 6 times a day or something, I'm just bored and biding my time because work starts in 2 weeks, but I had to give up my passport to get my working visa sorted.

Today I smoked up and watched Eating Out 2, purely because I have seen screen grabs of Marco Dapper's incredibly beautiful physique and amazing low hangers and have definitely wanked to the idea of muscle-worshipping him in the past. The movie was actually a lot better than I expected - funny lines, great eye candy, great frontal nudity, steamy sex scenes, and loads of corniness, but all in good fun. Just very easy, shallow stuff to watch. And yes, I slow-moed his frontal nudity scene and jerked off to it lol.

Hopefully no one will stumble upon this blog wrongly, but N really did use to date that stud below (I'm sure everyone knows who he is). Apparently bisexual, and also exclusively a bottom when he dated N. So damn hot dude.

I was discussing with an attractive Portuguese friend of mine if we are sex addicts, because he told me he's also constantly horny like me. It's weird...but most of the time I don't actually want to have sex, I just want to...grab a dick and admire it. It may be normal, it may not be. No clue. I'm actually pretty old (26...) already so I should stop with these raging hormones but...oh well.