I'm so sorry to hear this. You did everything you could, and gave Mar an awesome life.

_________________I would eat Dr. Cow pocket cheese in a second. I would eat it if you hid it under your hat, or in your backpack, but not if it was in your shoe. That's where I draw the line. -allularpunk

So sorry to hear that...I know how much you loved your sweet Mar :( He had such an amazing life with you, and even a tattoo to commemorate his awesomeness. Take good care of yourself.

_________________Did you notice the slight feeling of panic at the words "Chicken Basin Street"? Like someone was walking over your grave? Try not to remember. We must never remember. - mumblesIs this about devilberries and nazifruit again? - footface

The tree is his penis // it's very exciting // when held up to his mouth // the lights are all lighting // his eyes start a-bulging // in unbridled glee // the tree is his penis // its beauty, effulgent -amandabear

Can someone guide me in the right direction for a really nice urn for Mar? Something sleek, with a photo? Etsy has some good options but I want something that will last/not break. A company that has history.

I called Mar's vet today and told the receptionist the news because we were supposed to pick up Mar's meds today. I lost it and cried. I owe them $ (I owe his old vet $, and $ to the care credit), I will send a check, I cannot go there. I also cannot go near Pet's Mart on Friday like we always do (to chat with the rescue & buy food) - everyone always asks how Mar is. But I have to go to Target next door. I am dreading it. I have a new zine that was going to print but now I am going to redo it.

On Saturday night when we took him to the closest vet ER they were so cold. We drove 30 minutes to another ER. The vet was so kind but the nurse was an asparagus. Mar was thrashing in pain and he made the boyfriend sign credit card stuff and when his card got declined (the bank system was down for maintenance) he was chasing after my boyfriend because I was yelling that Mar had to go, he could not breathe, we needed to say goodbye. The vet told the nurse to leave us alone. After Mar went the nurse came back and handed me the receipt to sign right next to Mar's body. I am in such sock and anger...I want to say something when we pick up Mar's remains, how do I do this?

Mar's mom Micky is still alive, I am going to wash one of Mar's fave blankets and give it to her. Also his bribe treats - Fancy Feast junk food that he loved and she loves. Mar's meds are going to a rescue that helps cats with medical needs...Some of Mar's toys that do not hold any memories will be given to my neighbor's kitties. Right now though it just hurts.

I am getting a doughnut kitty tattoo when I can as a memorial for him and adding some words to his portrait on my right arm.