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In this “Life Of A Preachers Daughter” Blog I want to share with you about my ups and downs about the true God. Have you Faith? Do you know who God-Jesus is?

When I was real young probably around three years old, I remember being introduced to God as my savior. God was introduced to me as “THE ONE AND ONLY TRUE GOD” and that there was no other.

Now the bible states “I AND MY FATHER ARE ONE”as I grew older I began to ask questions about other religions that were out there. I discovered there were lots more to learn. Then in my later years, I was told there were three (“the Father” “The Son” and The Holy Spirit”) Huh! What? What is happening (I asked myself). Do I not know who God is? Why am I feeling so separated from what I was taught all these years?

When I was around five years old, this evangelist family called “The Spears Family” who came to our home church held a revival. I was then baptized in “Jesus Name” with all my brothers and sisters. If you don’t know the religion, It was whom they called “The Holly Roller” People.

NO’ it is not as strong as the Holy rollers with the snakes and all but, we were the ones whom did a lot of what they call “Speaking In Tongues” people. This church in short is (“The UPC Church”) which stands for (“The United Pentecostal Church”).

I have three other sisters, they never had long hair but for me, I had real long hair. If you know of the Country singer Crystal Gayle then you know how my hair was. This religion does not allow woman to cut their hair. We were spectated from boys in the church where the boys sat on one side and the girls on the left. When going swimming there were no suits allowed. No swimming with boys. Once I remember waring shorts to swim but only while swimming and never outside of the closed swimming area. Closed to the outside world. We could never ware pants. We always had to ware dresses. I remember one day at school where I was called granny (just for waring dresses all the time) from this particular boy. He was the only boy who always pulled my hair.

I remember sitting in front of him in class and him throwing gum in my hair. I remember having to go home and for the first time in my life having my mother put the scissors to my hair. I think that day she might have cried for the first time for me because she had to do it in which she knew it had to be done even though my heart was breaking. It took several months for it to grow back as my hair always grew fast just like hers does.

Years later, Around 22 I got out of “The UPC” church started becoming like everyone else, waring pants, shorts, bathing suits, and going to the movies (Might I add that Movies and Television was out of the question).

I spent some time exploring other religions. So I thought I’d try some other religion. I started going to “The Assembly Of God” church where I was taught about “The Father” , “The Son” and “The Holy spirit”. By then I was so confused about God and Jesus that I began to wonder if I really was headed for Heaven! I began to doubt my faith in God. I began to ask myself who is God? Who is Jesus? Anyway, I stayed in “The Assembly Of God” church for about five years and then stopped going.

After a while I was then introduced to The Mormon faith. I was taught and baptized again in their faith hoping that I would finally find my way (THE RIGHT WAY) I stayed there for about five months and felt so out of place that I just gave up on going to church to church all together.

To this day I am still confused, still don’t know which religion is “THE RIGHT ONE” all I know is that I am doing my best to walk on the right path that has been planned out for me.

The reason this Preachers Daughter joined Empower Network, is because I was tired of all the gimmicks that I had tried and wanted to have something to show for my future. I wanted something different.

I had a hard job working 5-6 days a weeks. All that heavy lifting was more then I could take at times. I needed a change! I wanted a change! Somehow I had to find a better way to live and survive.

I am a Indie artist needing help in get people to know me and maybe find a connection with me but not just that, I want the world to know that I am ME. Not just someone who don’t count in this big wide world of ours. Being me was a hard lesson to learn as I was doing what I had to survive. I had been in the work force since I was 22 and never known any other job then the hard survival job I was in, other than music.

I was at my wits end then one day I was introduced to Empower Network. I am a newbie to Empower Network. I want to make a difference in my life and as time goes on, I hope that you will want to get to know me and connect with me.

I hope that I will see you sometime in the future at one of the live events 2014. So, If you see me come up and introduce yourself. I would love to hear your story.

I was watching a show last night called 20 Feet From Stardom.
It was about backup singers who had sung with the big stars out there.
Backup singers are the most Important thing when it comes to the entertainers out there.
They are just as important as the singer themselves.

Did you know that 99% of them are Preachers Daughters.
I am a Preachers daughter but was never like they were. The only difference between them and me, They had support from their parent. ME, not so much.

I am here to tell you,
it doesn’t matter what they say about your singing. If you think and know that you can sing, you should express your talents and never let anyone tell you that you can’t do it or that your not good enough.ME!
I was one of the statics who was told, You aren’t as good as,,,,,,,,You’ll never be like,,,, You’ll never be better than,,,,, Came from a family member whom I think never had faith in me in the first place, made me doubt myself all these years. Being told you are, then you’ll never be as good as,,, or be like,, or better than,,, is the hardest thing to handle for someone growing up whom just wanted to sing on stage and get the notice that she so desperately needed and wanted. I wanted to be different then all those other singers out there. Yeah growing up I would sing in the Gospel realm but It turns out that it was only for the family.

I want to add, even though I was in the Gospel realm, I never got to do what my heart so longed to do which was sing for millions. I was one of those girls who wanted to be there on that Grand “Ol Opry stage singing to you folks out there. Not getting to fulfill my heart of dreams makes me wonder how many young people out there whom have the talent and their parent holds them back from achieving what God wanted for their life. Maybe your not so young anymore and you do have the talent inside you. Never give up! It’s gonna be OK. Just keep the faith!

Looking Forward,
I was amazed how great of singers they are. I learned a lot and did a lot of soul searching. I am now looking forward to a better future and hope to sing for you all someday out there.

Just so you know, I am loving everyday of my life and am not bitter any more toward that family member as it is not for me to judge. Only God is their judge. This is ONLY my Life Of a Preachers Daughter Story.

I want to share with you,The funnest thing that happened this morning.

Have you heard of the saying, It’s The Bottle?

Well, here goes,
I went out to get into my car to go to the corner store to get my iced tea just like I do almost every morning,

I thought I was getting into the drivers seat, oh NO! not today folks! I don’t know what I was thinking but instead of opening the drivers door to get in, I unlocked the passenger side door and stepped into My Blonde Moment.I actually got in,,, sat there for a second and then realized I was in the wrong seat to drive.

Just so you know,
I laughed so hard at myself for doing such a thing like that.

I will never forget that as long as I live.
Chalk it up to DUH! It’s the Blonde in me!

For today’s “Life Of a Preachers Daughter Blog”I want to talk about being in the 75% bracket of over weight woman.

I used to be so insecure with the way I look and at times I would just hide myself from the world outside. I never wanted to show or tell anyone about the way I feel or felt but I now know that not talking about it only brings me to the realization that I couldn’t control it.

Some days I think I have a handle on it but then
other days it’s like hitting a brick wall. I have tried so many things, gimmicks, diet pills to keep a handle on it. I even went as far as going to a diet place (I won’t say where) and payed ALOT of money, and in doing so I lost about 10 Pounds and then gained it all back and then some,,,,,

Looking back, on that time of my life and all the struggles that have come my way and continue to come my way, I will never give up on myself no matter what ales me. Doing all the gimmicks and other things, I never realized that I was doing it all wrong and giving my body injustice by going in the wrong directions. I don’t know how long it will take me to lose but I do know that the older I get the harder it is to lose the weight.

If youare in some form of the 75% as well and you think you are doing it right I applauded you for trying.