Saturday, October 15, 2016

Daily Draw: Queen of Cups

Guidance: Nurture yourself, trust your intuition, pull back from our emotions and do not let yourself drown in them

Journaling

I was able to step back and look at my emotions without getting bogged down in them. I'm learning that sometimes the most important thing I can do for myself is to acknowledge what I'm feeling. I spend so much time wearing a mask and pretending that life is okay but when I am truly honest with myself, I'm able to have the feelings and let them go without holding on to them. I was able to I was scared without fear or shame and that was huge.

May 25, 2018

I have become so much better at nurturing myself and being kind to myself when I am feeling sad or lonely. Before I was all about beating myself and berating myself for having "negative" emotions, however the more I have distanced myself from my mother and the more I have worked to find compassion for myself, the more I am able to accept all of who I am without judging myself. That's not to say it isn't easy or that there are not days when I don't still beat myself up, but mostly I'm able to take a step back and say that it is okay and love myself. I'm realizing that at the end of the day, the only person I truly will always have in my life is me and that I need to be kind to myself.