These are the thoughts, imaginations, ruminations, complaints, etc. about the life of a girl who thinks too much, whose imagination is too wild for her own good, who ruminates on her personal issues, who complains about her life (or the lack of it)....

Thursday, January 12, 2012

The 12 days of New Year...

So today is the 12th day of the New Year...which also meant i've already been working 2 weeks in 'hell' again...although the grass is no longer green...and life is no longer as good as the last 3 months, i really thank God that it hasn't been the 'hell' i've been expecting...but then again, the flap frenzy has not started yet...i might be singing a different tune when it does...

Still, after only 2 weeks, i'm already tired...and feeling a little low...must be the lack of sun exposure...but i really praise the Lord that my past few calls have been amazingly good...if not, i'd probably feel worse...yesterday was GA OT day...i thought i wouldn't be able to go to CF coz i expected a long day...but miraculously the last case got cancelled and i managed to go to CF...albeit a bit late...and despite the talk lasting almost 2 hours, i miraculously made it through the whole talk without falling asleep within the 1st half hour...God is so amazing...

I liked what the speaker quoted from CS Lewis...he said: Sin is man telling God, "go away! leave me alone!"...and hell is God's reply to man saying, "have your wish"...i couldn't help nodding in agreement...this concept is quite liberating for me when it comes to the question, why is there hell if God is a loving and compassionate God...He didn't create hell with the intention to torture His children...but we choose hell when we do not choose God's love...because really, without God's love, life is hell...you don't even have to wait till afterlife...and therefore i should not call the place/condition i am in now 'hell' since i know God's love is with me...

Saw a link which a friend put up on FB...it was Jason Mraz's new song called 'I won't give up'...i was intrigued...so i listened to it...and i loved it...i really liked the idea of the song...how this guy won't give up on his hope for 'us' with the girl....in this twisted hopeless romantic mind of mine, i felt like this song sang of the feeling of a certain guy for me...yup, i've got my head too far up in the clouds...getting quite delusional...anyway, here's the link:

So the new year has started off quite bearable...i guess if you were expecting the worse, anything less than worse is really not bad at all...i just pray that when things do get worse, i would still be holding on to God and trust in Him to help me through tough times...so here's to 2012...have a great one...even if the world ends...

About Me

A 30-something Christian Chinese Malaysian woman who's looking for her Personal Legend...oh, she's also a realistic idealist, an optimistic pessimist, a hopeless romantic, a restless soul and a dreamer..