IN THE BEGINNING we were happy. And we were always excessive. So in
the beginning we were happy to excess.

WE WERE MOM and Dad and Ithree palindromes!and we lived eight
hundred feet in the air above San Francisco; an apartment at the top of a
building
at the top of a hill: full of light, full of voices, full of windows full of
water
and bridges and hills.

Mom was the center. Mom was irresistible. Whatever she was saying or wearing
or smelling of was captivatingall our senses were attuned to her. As soon
as I was old enough to walk I tried on her shoes and evening gowns and perfume,
admired and wanted to be like her, so much that they had me seeing a
shrink by the time I was three. The shrink said I needed to spend more time with
my dad. But how? Mom was irresistible.
Mom had published two booksone about throwing parties, one about battling
malevolent ghostsand was working on a third, about her childhood in
Texas and Oklahoma.

As far as I could tell Dad's job was to please Mom. He was solicitous and
full
of care. He gave Mom everything she wanted. He helped her want things she did
not know to want.

Early every morning, Mom, Dad, and I took walks around Russian Hill in
matching blue jumpsuits with white piping, Royal Tenenbaumsstyle.

ONE SUNDAY, on a shrink-mandated father-and-son outing, Dad took me
across the bay on the ferry, re-creating the commute he made as a boy, before
the
Golden Gate Bridge was completed, from Catholic school in San Francisco to
his home in Marin. Halfway there it started to rain, and we didn't have any
umbrellas,
so when we arrived we stood in a doorway near the water.

Dad hadn't shaved since Friday morning before work, and he looked rough.
Even I could see it. Our matching jumpsuits were sad without Mom. Dad lit a
cigarette. We looked out at the water.

A man with a box and an umbrella strode past, glanced at us, stopped fifty
feet
on, turned, walked back, and handed the box to Dad.

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