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I fail miserably at these programs.. they are too strict.. they deprive too much.. they work you too hard.. they don’t work you hard enough..

I have decided to do BBM 3.0 and have accountability partners.. I’m actually running this BBM journey with a few online friends.. I’ll be the one posting the videos and asking for updates from the people who have joined me..

I am hoping that since they will be depending on me to keep them motivated, that it means I will stay motivated myself..

I have decided that I will not be following her meal plan.. I will take the supplements that she has suggested and do her work outs.. I will be increasing my water intake as well.. but I will eat what I like and practice moderation.

Bright at early tomorrow morning I will weigh myself for the first time in over a month.. which will be horrifying.. and I will post it publicly which is even more horrifying..

I went though a depression for that month that I didn’t step on a scale.. and I am a comfort eater..so that doesn’t really bode well for me. I’m not sure what I weigh right now, but I can guarantee that it is more than 200 lbs so I am a bundle of nerves tonight because I know I will not be happy with what I see on the scale.

For now.. I will try not to let it get to me too much.. but seeing as I am writing about it.. it’s not easy to not think of.

I am not sure how regularly I will be posting about it here as I will be posting it in the womens group that I am in and posting it on Instagram.. But I will try to keep you updated.. My invisible reader.. who is so invisible that it doesn’t show in the stats that you have read my blog entries.

I don’t think I’ve changed my eating habits much, but I have meal planned.. skipped the carbs when the rest is filling.. and am making an effort to cut back the amount of white sugar in my diet.. which is saying a lot since I used to put 2 tsps per cup.. I’m down to 1.5tsps now..

That may not seem like much but factor in the fact that I drink 10 cups a day.. I’ve gone from 6 2/3 tbsp of sugar down to 5tbsp I’ve cut out 1 2/3 tbsp of sugar a day.. That is 36.5 less cups a year that I will no longer be consuming. 28,214 less calories a year..

Wholly sheets!

Can you tell I’m bored? Haha.. I’m doing math.. in a blog.. that no one reads..

Well.. I’m fat.. and I know it.. so get over it.. fat isn’t a bad word unless you let it be..

My issue is that I got comfortable in my relationship.. we’ve been together for years and still love each other so much we are totally comfortable around each other..

It’s the 20th.. exactly 3 months until my next birthday.. It is time to start pushing myself..

I’m over 200lbs.. I need to lose weight.. I should be a lot smaller being as I’m only 5’3

I don’t plan on being the next “Biggest Loser” but I need to lose some weight.. and I am starting today..

I get so sick of:

I’m on my period.. period calories don’t countI’ll start tomorrow.. I’ve already had a cookie, piece of cake, chocolate for breakfastIt’s so close to the end of the month I’ll start next monthI’m so busy.. I have no time to workout..

If I don’t make one excuse.. it’s always another..

Damnit I’m so sick of excuses, I’m doing it now.. today.. I’ve already gone for a walk and lifted weights so I can honestly say I’ve tried.. I’m not sure what I am doing for dinner, but I’m going to find something healthier than I did yesterday.. and that is all I really can do right this moment..

My Daily Routine

My daily routine at work has me standing most days anyway so I am going to start doing stuff to get my blood going at work.. like bouncing on the balls of my feet.. shallow lunges.. shallow squats… aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand cut back on the sugar in my coffee.. with how much I drink I bet right there I’ve got a cup of sugar a day..

I’ve got a low cal cookbook that I’ve been making a few recipes from lately

I’ve gotta say.. they are pretty amazing.. and a lot of them are surprisingly filling.. You wouldn’t think so since my family are all big eaters but we actually don’t overdo it with her recipes. I think I’m going to get all of Lisa Lilliens books, she is amazing.. I just wish she had less fake sugar recipes.. I find myself using real sugar for those because of that nagging fear of cancer causing agents in aspartame..

I know! I know.. before you start throwing interwebz links at me saying that it’s a fact that they aren’t linked.. I just want to say.. I’ve had to deal with cancer before.. it is in my history.. my family is chalked full of multiple cancers.. I’m not doing it.. I’m not eating it.. fact or no fact..

There is no proof that ibuprofen is bad for unborn children either, but I refused to take Advil when I was pregnant..

Proof or not. I air on the side of caution..

So.. I’mma hate myself for doing this but.. I’m going to post my stats.. and I will do this twice a month.. to monitor my weight loss and whatever else I’m supposed to monitor..

Bust: 44″Waist: 37″Hips: 48″Arms: 13.5″Thighs: 30″Weight: 200+lbs

My weight isn’t accurate seeing as it’s 15:00hrs so I’ve eaten & exercised today so I’m just going to leave it at 200+lbs.. If I was sure what it was first thing in the morning I would have posted the actual weight.

I will be posting on the 5th & 20th of each month my updated stats to see the progress I’ve made.. I’m not sure what I really want out of this other than to be firmer.. I like being curvy, I’m not looking to be super thin.. I’ve been there before and was not happy because my life became all about counting calories and cutting carbs and monitoring every little aspect of my life..

I don’t want to go there again.. I just want to be happy.. and healthy.. and full of energy.. I want my active life back.. without the constant policing of my unhealthy past of dying to look the part.. quite literally.. Eating disorders aren’t fun..

Anyways.. I gotta save some of that stuff for the next bloggy-style with big mama.. so.. for now.. I’m off to do mom stuff.. I’ve been at the computer long enough.

Question: I have no question of the day this time around so how about you ask me one.