Happy Saturday my dear ones!!.I just wanted to post a little reminder that progress isn’t linear. Did you know: - You can be excited to do something AND still cry in the car on the way there or on the way back (I did this yesterday)- You can feel depressed or anxious and still do the difficult things EVEN THOUGH you feel like a shell- You can go a week or a month or a year feeling great and SUDDENLY not know how you’re going to get through the day- You can have the urges to go back on your recovery, or maybe you’ve already slipped, and STILL BE in recovery.

Recovery can feel contradictory and it can feel way too hard sometimes AND ITS OKAY because life is fucking difficult and sometimes we’re just getting through it. That doesn’t mean you haven’t made great strides, that doesn’t mean all your progress is now for nothing, and it CERTAINLY doesn’t mean you’ve failed. It just means you’re human. ❤️ so shoutout to all my humans out there, I love you and you’re awesome. #itsokaytobehuman#yourestillkillingit#begentlewithyourself#recovery

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Here @khloekardashian, I fixed it for you.HEY SOCIETY - Stop telling girls they all want or need to lose weight. They don’t.🤚🏼 Stop telling girls that food will make them gain weight. Stop saying that the opposite of losing weight is eating. It’s not funny, it’s not a joke. Food is not a luxury, it’s necessary for survival. It’s what keeps our bodies alive. 🤚🏼 STOP PERPETUATING THE NORMALIZATION OF EATING DISORDER MENTALITY.Full stop.•(And Khloe, girl, I know it’s hard being you. I can’t know what it’s like to live in your family, with the influences you have and the garbage you’ve been indoctrinated with. If you ever wanna talk, I‘m here 💕) #thisisdietculture#eatingdisorderrecovery#youaregoodenough

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YOOO it’s been a MINUTE since I made a real post, hasn’t it?? I’ve missed you all terribly, but I’ve also been enjoying my winter break from school, traveling (I went to Paris!), and just relaxxxxing. It’s been lovely..Something new and big (for me at least) is that this year my resolution is to honor my body with the clothes I put on it. Intentionally. So often I find myself just pulling on leggings and a T-shirt, not because I want to be comfy (even though that’s super important and totally okay!) but because I didn’t feel confident in myself. I don’t know how to shop for clothes (but I’m learning!) I would get mixed up in the dressing room, and if something didn’t make me cry or if I didn’t feel BAD about my body trying it on, I‘d think that meant I liked it. Or that it fit me well. And as a result my closet is full of either “comfort” clothes that hide my body, or clothes I bought out of sheer confusion.

So in 2019 I’ve made a promise to myself that I’m going to discover my personal style. I’m going to learn how to shop. I’m going to learn how to put outfits together. I’m going to learn how to honor a body I’m still, even now, and probably ever still, coming to know and love and take care of. .Recovery looks like a lot of different things, in different ways, all at the same time. And I’m excited to take on this part of it.(Lipstick is ‘Don’t Stop’ by @narsissist)

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Repeat after me: 🗣 taking selfies is self care 🗣 NOT taking selfies is self care 🗣 wearing makeup is self care 🗣 NOT wearing makeup is self care 🗣 giving yourself permission to feel beautiful however you are in this moment is self care • 💛SELF CARE IS SO MANY THINGS and in a world that tries to break us down and tell us we’re a problem that needs to be fixed, feeling beautiful is a rebellious and much needed act.#fillupthatcamerarollboo#selfiesareselfcare#selfloveisthebestlove

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Do that challenge 💕👌🏼 Maybe add in a few extras:• text a friend and tell them how much you love them, just the way they are.• give yourself a hug because you’ve been through a lot this year and you deserve some self love and compassion.• write yourself a letter and remind yourself of all the ways your body is the least interesting thing about you.• check out some brands that truly value inclusion and diversity and honoring your body and yourSELF, instead of a brand that capitalizes off your insecurity.And so, tonight, instead of giving ratings and viewership to a brand that has publicly advertised their anti-trans beliefs and says plus size women aren’t “part of the fantasy,” STAND UP and vote with your dollars. Cost them ratings. Cost them viewership.Cost them a worse fourth quarter than they’ve ever seen. #VSmorelikeBS#youaregoodenough

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Every single day your body needs nourishment. It needs care. And love. And someone to stand up for it and take care of it and give it the nutrients it needs.No matter what happened yesterday, no matter what you ate last night, you need to eat today. #todayisanewday#recovery#pumpkinpieisabreakfastfood 💕✨

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Today I ate as much food as my body asked for. I ate seconds of the foods my body wanted more of, and I left on my plate the foods that didn’t taste good to me.I shot down body and food shaming twice from a family member. I ate two slices of pie. I unbuttoned my pants at the table.I looked at my very full belly in the mirror before bed and I feltc o n t e n thappyat home.•Recovery is worth it.Recovery is magic.Thanksgiving is tough but so are you.#neda#recoveryisworthit#recovery#realrecovery#edrecovery#eatingdisorderrecovery#thanksgiving

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I found NEDA when I was in the dark. With blurry eyes at 2am, cheeks wet with tears, sitting alone in the glow of a computer screen showing the results of a screening tool that confirmed what deep down I knew all along: I needed help.•And because of NEDA, I found it. They gave me the tools to find my first therapist — ask for help — believe I deserved it.•This thanksgiving, among the many things I’m grateful for, NEDA holds a special place in my heart. They saved my life. •And that’s why next week, for #givingtuesday, I’m helping them raise money to be able to keep saving lives.•I know we all have heard about Black Friday, and Cyber Monday. But Giving Tuesday isn’t about things you can hang on your wall or put on your feet. It’s about what’s in your heart.There is literally no amount too small. Any amount you can give will go directly to helping someone like me, or someone like you, find hope. Find courage. Find life outside of their disorder.💙💚 link in my bio to donate. •(and all of these messages were from real donations by real people in the last 24 hours)#neda#nedawareness#edrecovery#recovery#recoveryispossible#recoveryisworthit#givingtuesday#support

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Hey. Real talk for a second: it’s okay if you’re scared shitless of Thanksgiving (or any other holiday). Being terrified to be surrounded by food and family members and diet talk and our society’s normalized disordered mentality around eating is STRESSFUL AF. And if you’re sitting there thinking “i dunno how I’m going to get through this,” THATS OKAY. It doesn’t make you bad at recovery, it just means you’re aware of the feelings and emotions your body is navigating right now.•So if you’re feeling anxious, or worried, or need a safe place to vent about what you’re not looking forward to this year, the comment section of this post is here for you. ⬇️⬇️⬇️Let this be your brave space and safe space to get those feelings out — but please still be mindful of others and aware of triggering language (no numbers, no descriptions of disordered behavior, no abusive language) 💕AND, if you can, comment on someone else’s comment and leave them some support ⤵️ 💚💙 and if you’re in need of support and don’t know who to turn to, the @neda helpline is staffed by incredible people who get it, and want to talk to you 💕 1-800-931-2237 or txt NEDA to 741741

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EDIT: contest is now CLOSED!! Thank you all so much for your submissions - and all the kind words and love you shared on this post. Winner was chosen at random and has been contacted!••

Today is my birthday and THIS YEAR I want do something with all of you — as many of you know, I have a small collection of inspirational recovery jewelry with the incredible @christinakober ✨ and we want to give you the chance to get an item of your choice for both you AND a friend. On us. 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼1) Tag a friend in the comments below (1 entry per person). Tell them how much they mean to you, or what you love about them, or how special they are in your life. Be vulnerable. Be brave.2) Be following both me and @christinakober3) THATS IT. ✨✨✨There’s some more fine print action on Christina’s page, so make sure you check that out ☝🏼But TBH there’s no way I’d rather celebrate my birthday than reading all of your love notes to each other. Let’s celebrate each other ❤️👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼