December 30, 2008

lil' sis..im proud of u..7A's n 1B..thats damn good babe..(orait r b sejarah dah dia menci sejarah)..one thing for sure, shes still gonna be in that prestige skool(skolah men sains tun syed sheik shahabudin..tol ke aku eja ni..ranking no 23 dlm skolah men mesia), not as shes expected, well she thought that shes gonna get an ass kick from that skool..shes even prepared herself mental n physical to fit in to normal skool(skolah harian r..)..sorry babe, trust me, u wont fit in..u too good to be in normal skool..one more thing, sejarah B? thats cool..just try to keep up cuz in form 4 there essay that u have to write in history subject.. n choose the rite stream okay..shes wanna choose accounting n bio stream..well, shes said she love math but hate bio, but they cant be seperated.so, do what ur big bro did..juts study to get pas.. which i did ok..i get 8E for bio..hahaha..accounting? good.. after this u can teach me accounting cuz im sucks in this fucking subject..haha(kalau la dia taw aku fail account kat U conpem dia xmau ambik accounting pny, u noe why cuz she look up high for me..in her mine, his big bro is some genius boy that have xtraordinary mind..ooh lil sis..u dunno how untrue that is)..well u beat me again on PMR..well i only got 7B n 1C for PMR..well i totally deserved that..n im proud of her..shes can do much better than me in academic.i admit that..im just somehow got lucky all the time.she n my big sis is the brain of the outfit..im just the mastermind of problems..haha..well Hajar i hope u read this entry(i noe u wont) so that u noe that im very proud of u..n i love u soo much..sometimes i just dunno how to express it..really..seriesly..but shes still love me more than big sis..i just dunno why..maybe its cuz that im the only bro she have n no matter how screw up i am, im just the one to turn in..n remember, no matter what, no matter what stream u choose, i'll alway support u..our family alway support u..dun worry.the pressure is not n u..u r the youngest..its not u that leads the way..big sis carry that respo..im next..u r the last..well, i really am glad that mummy drop the pressure of pursuiting u on medic(eventhough she didnt noe that shes applying the pressure on u, but i noe..), n now ur choice is wide open..just be anybody that u want..(well to be honest i still hope that u'll someday be a newscaster.so that everynite i turn on the TV on 8 n i ca proudly say that-that babe on Tv is my lil sis!..haha)..well thats all i wanna say to u, my lil sis..love u so much..now i just need to accept that u are no longer our baby gurl..u have grown up..all of us need to..u can be indie u just need to believe in urself more as much as we believe in u..n remember, i'll have ur back..im gonna take ur hand everytime u fall, im gonna shield up the bullet for u if i have to..cuz no matter what, u still r baby gurl in my heart..u r the reason i wont do any bad things in life cuz i dun want anybody hurt u..n im sorry if im being to tough on u..im just trying to build up ur confident on urself..thats all..

p/s-sumthing bout my lil sis-shes fragile.not confident in herself as much as all of us trust her..vunerable sometimes..soft hearted-really2 soft..softer than a feather..easily influece(this one is my own conclusion.)..not so indie as me n my big sis.so, as a big bro i have to take care of her..the respo lies on my shoulder.i really have to

one more thing, since im now in my beloved campus, i think im ready.. ready to be hurt again.ready to fall in love again..but this time, im gonna make it rite.. no more foreplay..im not gonna hook up with any gurl that just come by..im gonna search for Miss Right this time..if i dun find her, will stay single ja la..pa susah..bkn aku xble idup kalau xdak gurlfren..btw, i msg nabilah sblom bertolak td ckp kat dia yg aku nk blah dia mai cni, i ckp gudlux n bye2..i told u, were good.. no heart feeling..we still can be frens..we used to be gud frens..nothing gonna change that.. the chemistry we share, gonna make us pull it through though..just wait n see.im not bluffing..

well its kinda sad tahts im gonna leave penang tommorow(teruk2 nk blk kedah ja pun..kn jauh mana..setgh jam je dah sampai)..so i guess this gonna be the last entry i wrote from penang(for now)..so a month n half past by while im hanging in penang on my sem break, what had happen?

I Got A Job at Kareoke Site

i Quit Kareoke job

i Got my old job back-Swenz Kopitiam

I broke up wif Nabilah

Im Single again..pewit!!!

i make a nu frens in blogs

i make nu frens in real life

i'd scandal with amoi Myanmar

i lost 3 kg

i gain 4 kg..wow!!!!

i fall in love but i ignore it..because its just another addiction

someone fall for me n i ignore it..im an idiot

i reconnect with my old buddies

i hanged a lot

i eat a lot

i sleep less

i smoked less

well thats all i guess..except for something that i rather not write bout it..well evnthough its kinda short sem break (at least thats how i felt) but a lot of things happened..so, yeah i love penang no matter what..i love seberang jaya precisely..no doubt bout that.u can say what ever u want dudes but penang its the best place in teh world..no matter where i go this is my home n this is where i will come home to..theres no place like home, man..

so gudbye for now..one thing for sure, my next entry wont be from seberang jaya, penang anymore.its gonna be from merbok, kedah..i love that place too..chow!

im so sorry..i never meant to hurt u..but seriesly, u r overreacting.just take a breathe n cool down will ya?..im just trying to help but instead getting a thanks i get a angry voice throw out to my face? i will let u cool it out first then we gonna settle this ok?..

December 26, 2008

it may had saoud weird but its true..there lonely people on holiday season..i guess we can consider urself lucky because when holiday stop by, ur family are all here..having dinner together, chitchat n changing story of ourself..for now, i seems to not appreciate any of that but wait.the moment we lost it all, we gonna miss it all eventhough before this we might kinda hate it..i learned this last nite..cuz i dun celebrate christmas(literally..) so i spent my christmas nite hanged out at a beach..all by myself..just wanna calm my self out, relax n chill..out of nowhere i saw on gurl sitting on her car cried out silly but tried to covered it..i braved myself to go near her n asked her whats up babe..seriesly i said that..it suprised me that she went all out..i thought at first shes gonna chased me away or turned her face around but intsead she shared it all.bout how lonely she is rite now bcause she have to spent her christmas nite here all alone without her family(all in sabah rite now)..all she had rite now its the receipt form CIMB bank that written "extra 20" which is her christmas present from her parent..in my mind, that should cheer up moment if its was me, but shes different..all she want is to be with her family celebrating christmas together n blah2..i she said that now she really appreciated her family cuz they are far far away rite now..so, here we go guys..lesson of the day..go figure..

p/s-to prove myself that i wanna stay single rite now, i didnt hit on that gurl..no phone no, no name, nothing..i mean cmon, rite..shes alone, vunerable,sad n so on i can catch her in just a fingertip, but i didnt just to prove my point so dun ever doubt me again okay, asshole..

We, all the boys of Swenz kopitiam promised to hang out ang Kassim's at 1am..i didnt make it..i felt asleep n woke up at 4am..well, in my defense, im fucking tired okay n im not feeling so well n furthermore i already set my alarm at 1230am..

December 24, 2008

i wannna make this a entry a long time ago sine the first day he did..well, i would like to congrats Jeff Hardy for winning his first world title..now, both Hardys, Matt and Jeff are champs again at the same time but its different this time..theyy are not holding atitle together which they good at in tag team division, the best i should say..but this time both of them are world champion..matt hardy the current ECW Champion n Jeff hardy the new crown WWE Champion..it is historical..the as historical as Wrestlemania 20 when late Chris Benoit won his first World Heavyweight Championship n at the same time his best buddy, late Eddie Geurero was a WWE Champion at that time..The Hardys will be the next WWE Hall Of Fame..Team X-Treme will never die

p/s-yes..im a big fans of wrestling..dun ever give the words saying that wrestling is just acting..i noe it..still, i love it..

December 22, 2008

well, u guys can say what u want but i cant help it..im a short fuse,dirty fuss, hot tempered and all the things what similar to anger n bad emotion...well the things is, i got angry again today at work..well of course..to whom who have or had work in a restaurant/stall/kedai mamak/kopitiam for sure gonna say the same things..its fucking busy n tiring n sometimes we just lost our tempered..i tried to control it today but it gets over my head..literally..well i got pissed n i kick the damn door in that silly kopitiam..even my boss was stunned n lost his words to say..he just let it be..after the anger-stupid-action move i just cant take it anymore..i left my bar..just let the order keep coming..i went outside the shop, light up my CIGGY n puffed..oh God thats damn good..after i finish it..i when back in with a smiling face.. everyone gave me the Is-He-Crazy-Or Smoke-A-Pot-Just-Now look..well, even after that moment my work just got more n more i managed to handle it with a happy face, thanks to a simple damaging,poisoning stuff called cigarette..really though..ciggys help me relax..i become mellow-er then before after i started smoking..so say what u want, laugh ur ass out of me, ciggys is my bestie..well, one of mine..i guess i make a judgement call.wether i choose a angry son of a bitch wannabe or lung-cancer dude that have a dead wish for the next few years..i choose lung cancer dude..at this time, the reason that i can think bout is ciggys make me relax..ciggys control my anger, mellowed me down..a lot..if i chose angry SOB im gonna die anyway cuz of the anger eating me alive from the inside or get kill by somebody i pissed out of..so, its a fair choice..i end up dead anyway so better choose the one with a style..plus, its my tagline "LIFE IS TO BE ENJOY NOT WASTED" rite? plus, who ever have other things to say im just gonna raise my middle finger n say FUCK U..what can i say, i dont break easy...

December 21, 2008

"dont judge a book just by its cover""dont judge a thesis just by its title""dont make a judgement call"but still, i made one..sorry dude..i still new with this stuff...it is hard for me too..to accept it? its might take time..to deal with it? i takes a lot of me..god, i wish i didnt told me..god, i wish im not busy-fucking-body enough to ask u..gimme some time please..dont let this matter ruin our frenship..we had a long run..nobody, i mean nobody, go through together what we'd been through..we been to hell n back..so i will make this out.just gimme some time..its really got into me,okay..but seriesly, thanks for being honest with me..thats ean a lot..i guess u owe me this time huh? hahaha..okay2..that all i need to say..

If there is no tomorrow,what meal will I have for the last time,Will it be Chicken McDeluxe or any of it kindDo I really gonna have appetite or its just dyingWill I enjoy my last meal or maybe I just gonna start crying?If there is no tomorrow,Will I ever change?Can I ever be tame?Will I keep playing game?Will my life will ever be the same?If there is no tomorrow,Will I ask forgiveness for all the wrong things I done?Or just sit down pray that all of it will just be goneSorry, will that be my last word on my last secondOr I just be as bastard as I am that have no U-turnIf there is no tomorrow,I know deep inside my heart will crashToo much pressure, some haven’t been testSo many thing aren’t achievedSome, I take it to my graveIf there is no tomorrow,Will the world stop spinning, people stop runningAllies stop ass-kissing, enemy stop gunningIs that even possible?Or the world remain as terribleIf there is no tomorrow,Will I be afraid, will I even care?I got nothing to lose, not much to spareFreaking out never in my vocabularyKnowing I won’t be able to live, that’s not really scaryBut,what about everybody else, how will they feel?The fact of knowing the world gonna end, that’s worse then gets killMaybe its too late but its never that easySo, brace ourself, the day will come, we’ll see..rite this is whats on my mind..i noe.its kinda twisted but is the thought that will alway on my mine n spare myself from doing anything stupid because if there is no tomorrow, it will be too late for me to to do what Earl(from TV Series My Name Is Earl) do best, cross the lists of wrong doing n make it rite..we all done some bad stuff in our life..better start crossing it now, because the day will come where there is no tommorow n we'll gonna regret it..now i remember why i wrote this poem.to remind myself

December 16, 2008

sorry..im kinda busy rite now..a lot og things in on my mind..(seriesly..a lot)to hanna-J n LotsOfLove..sorry i wont be able to do ur tagged rite now..i promise i'll do it when i have time..i just wanna wish all UiTM kedah students gud luck..result kluaq esok weh...wish me luck to okay..chow!!!

December 11, 2008

What if I lead the wayWhat if I make mistakes(Will you be there?)What if I change the worldWhat if I take the blame(Will you be there?)

I remember going backTo the place we used to layBut I keep losing trackAnd now the days they all turn blackAnd our dreams all start to fadeBut there's no turning backCause the world keeps turning(Why do you tell me you care if you're not going to change?)And my heart keeps burning(Why do you tell me you care?)

What if I change the worldIf I lead the wayWhat if I be the oneThat takes the blameWhat if I can't go on without youWhat if I graduateWhat if I don'tWhat if I don't

Now I'm slowly giving upAs the world keeps losing faithAnd you still turn your backNow the path I followTakes a toll on meOn youBut there's no turning backCause the world keeps turning(Why do you tell me you care if you're not going to change?)And my heart keeps burning

p/s-i really like this song,evnthough its not a single..its quite similar with my life,my past, n whats gonna lead my way in life..this song is the reason why i posted the entry What If

December 10, 2008

once, when i heard bout it, i dun believe it (well to be honest the first time i heard it is in one of gossip girl season 1 episode)..is it true? i asked before..why should the brightest star falls first? shouldn't it stay lighten up in the sky? well, what can i say here is the only reason brightest star gonna fall isnt because of itself..jealousy n envy burn it out..so to all the stars in the sky, do shine..just make sure that u dun burn urself up..or other stars or the falling star burns u down

December 8, 2008

WHAT IF... i didnt pass PTS n didnt jump class from standard 3 to Standard 5?+I Will be celebrating rite now n still looking for a job to feel in my time++im sure not gonna be Swenz Kopitiam Longest Worker in the history+

WHAT IF...I never change skool from Penang Free School to SMK Tun Hussien Onn?+i'll be a diferent type of person..more bastard than ever i guess++i wont be able to know Dayat,Syazwan,E-in,Rizal,Imran,Irene,Mei Chin..++I wont have as many girl friends as i have today++i'll be gay+

WHAT IF...I didnt get 3A's in my SPM?..better or worst+For sure i will not be a UiTM students++i wont be having a lot of frens from all differents state++i wont be a smoker,maybe?+

WHAT IF...i stop smoking?+healthier lifestyle++ill become a nerd++azam, meor n me wont be a click ..+

WHAT IF...i didnt hold too much anger inside of me?+i wont be a plastic n fake all the times+

WHAT IF...i share some of the pain and secrets long long time a ago?+time will heal it all++i'll become more jovial then ill ever be+

WHAT IF...i didnt runaway from Laila the nite she offer me?+i'll be deflowered++i'll become sex addicts++asshole of course+

WHAT IF...nabilah n me didnt fall for is other?+i wont be single rite now++i' wont gain 6kg in 4 month++i will never finish House Of Dead 4+

there so much things n so many decisions we had made in life n the impact, we are facing it rite now..some are good, some are rash, but i never regret any one of mine..because all th decisions n mistakes i made in my life, make me who i am..the person u r seen known as Adam wont be as what he is today if not because of the past he had before..so, yes i didnt regret any of it..ya, some of it a really stupid move but i still proud of it because theres always pros n cons in each angle of anything..

December 6, 2008

seriesly, what the hell? whes relly into me..i noe it becuz i can feel it..its all bout insticnt..n my lil' heart said that shes into me..n shes kinda sweet, caring, SINGLE (this one is for sure), cute sepet eyes n well dress, open minded n many more great qualities.. why on earth did i ditched her away..practically Crystal helped out on to inroduce me to her..we hang out n we click on many differents level..shes oepn with my smoking probs.. but the most important things SHES INTO ME.. n shes ask me out..to go on the date..watch a movie,just two of us..single guy n gurl going out on the weekend..perfect timing to get hit..why? why? why? why im blur,stupid enuff,mangkuk enuff, bangang enuff to said that.. when she asked me out, why i said "sorry im taken".. im totally fucking single..i can date anyone..why did i said that?

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK..

u miss that shot adam..u really miss the shot..shes really wants u..its shows..she looked very suprise n dissapointed when u said that..im so screw this time..opportuniy like like wont swing by easy..Crystal clearly wont help me again on mactthing me with anyone again..silly move.

December 2, 2008

Dear God, please help me...let me get through this.i cant stand it anymore..i try my best to keep my heart secure, to block it from been hurt by anyone, please just let this time its just another addiction of love..not the real love..no..no..no.. i cant fall in love..not again..not in this time period..no, this is not happening..please...let me out from this love curse dat just make me fall for anyone that close to me..please..too much heart been broke...too time bee sacrifice...i need a break..really really need a break.plus, it just been two week since i broke someone heart..not mention mine been broke too..now it is not a perfect timing for "Fall For You-Secondhand Serenade"..i dunno whats the things that make her tick..make my tick even faster..she just sharing a lil' secret..dats all..nothing more.maybe shes think that i can be trust..well, its obvious no one around there that can be trusted so she choose me..nothing more..Adam Ar-Rashid, u need to get over this..right now..let it go now..fly free n rip out the sky in blue.. be single..dun attach to any relation bond that only gonna make u fragile,again..n this relation its for sure gonna go down hard..no more long distance love, its not gonna work..keep u head in the game..be a bastard..for this case give urself an exception..sorry, i guess i cant fall in love with u..actually i shouldnt..no its got nothing to do with our different religion (for god sake i come from mixture marriage family, i should know better).. i do like u..but i cant risk our newly-re-attach frenship at stake..i really like u..as a friend.thats what u will u always be in my heart..i will try, god know that i will try to keep it that way...

December 1, 2008

Some, with fully egotic attitude will never let their heart open for sharing anything that they feel inside of them..they'll just let it through n fight it all by themself..loneliness,pain n misery is their besties all the time, caring,loving n shring is the common enemy day by day..hard to get,a Dick, an Ass, stupid lil' bastard..ya thats this the titles description that can be conclude to these type of people.never care, full of fake smiling n brutally judge by its leads that only gonna eat them alive piece by piece...

no doubt, i was one of them..ya, 100% sure..pure hardness covering my heart form being expose freely to mortal connection with any kinds.yes, it kill me by facing the non-angelic curse all by myself..waiting to break, hoping to survive..willing to sacrifices ones body, counting on any helping hand that want to help..but it a fucking experience..the pain,the pressure cannot be held my ones heart..it will break loose..its will get into the mind n spreads the disease of unpleasantness...that was what i am before..

now, as i started to care n share, the pain n misery heals little by little..slowly, the disease cured inch by inch...yes, sharing the pain will get in removed,slowly..still, i have to face the demon on my own but not all of it..some, i can let it go by giving the chance for somebody to feel it once, the try to seize it once, to be in my shoe..it helps..truely..n now i can wake up tommorow, facing the challenge,strut it down to the bottom of life,strong as never..all it takes, it just some pity willingness..willingness that already there,waiting for me to take it n used in as pain-healer..god i wish i done it long time ago so that i wont be as damn bitch as i am.all it cost, is my ego shield to be turn off for the right person.the person that we trust to share the tiny amount of weight that we carried on our shoulder for god know when..it help, even a little..

but remember, it has its cost..sharing to the wrong person might make it all become more complex than ever..might turn out worsen..suffering will be having an extra crunchy reinforcement.our dark world will become darken as more just because of the simple mistakes of choosing the right person.so are we ready to make that call? to choose to share? to choose to another problematic add-on that we shouldnt make? but if it is a right one, its worthless..if is a wrong one, there a price to pay..hell of a price..still, its a damn good risk that we should take because before its get heavier its enlighten it out first before our life turn deeper..as for me, i know i make a clear as a blue sky judgement call.i know i make a right choice..i truly know

minah sebelah aku ni nama dia ah siu..time ni aku keja kat swenz kopitiam cuti sem lepaih..mcm kapel kan? yup..sum org yg keja kat citu pun kata kami husband n wife..based on the picture what we can see is two person who seem so happen n maybe in love..but the reality is, shes from Myanmar n she cant speak malay or english(well she tried to learn english on her own n shes getting better).. i have no formal communicate with her.just using body language but we still manage to be close n kena gosip..well, like i said.one single pic have its own story..

MY SWEET LIL’ BLOOD ANGELI never truly love youFor God sake I know it is trueMaybe I’m really blind or stupid, but it’s the right things to doWho cares, I just wanna be with youMy interests in you, its never cruelBefore I go to dreamland, I will always say “I love you”Is my feeling to you love, I always wonder?If its worth I’ll willing to trade my soul to the soul traderI love you so much, whenever I high or soberSimple curiosity cross my mind whether we’re soulmateIf its true, wow! It will be greatWhat if it’s not, my God hope it’ll not come true what I just saidRecently speaking I don’t really know what I feel right nowSo many things in my mind, sorry I’m not willing to take a bowI love you so much before, but I’m not really sure right nowWe never fight at all, no such things as sorrowWe never share things, no offer for a borrowI’m not sure our relation is love, today maybe what about tomorrow?I really love you my sweet lil’ blood angelIt’s not I’ve someone else, but my heart right now really fragileI’m so sorry babe, my cute shorty, my sweet dream goodnight, my girlSo many things up in my head, my mind been twisted and twirledMaybe it’s good for us to keep the distance not just for now but for realI’m sorry babe, maybe we are not meant to beMaybe someone out here for you, or maybe I’m just being sillyI want us to be like before, when I say “I love you” dailyI just don’t want to know why but that really rare latelyMaybe, maybe, maybe we should break up, reallyI know this will break your heart, it hurt me too, I’m really really sorryMy sweet lil’ blood angel, I release youFly and go to the place you really want toI’m insist I really doFly high and rip the sky in blueDon’t worry about me, fate and faith will find me my real booIts just that, that boo its not you….

yup.this the poem i wrote a few month back when im about to break up with her..but i change up my mind(then, i wrote the poem The Simple Kiss)..oh, god i wish i did break up wif her few month back..so dat it wont be this arkward..

November 27, 2008

reality sucks.. i noe..but it is what it is.. we are the one who must learn to accept the truth..it alway been sucking experience when we face it,but like it or not the more we keep running from it the more it will keep coming..

we saw only the things we want to..all the good things, relaxing, problematic free situation or should we say"heaven of mind"we create this kind of fantasy dat we want to because we don wanna face the truth..well, till when we gonna stay this way?

now..Have a Gut To Face Ur Demon!it is time to do soits now or never..take control of ur life now..its about time..

November 26, 2008

I AM SINGLE..finally.. im free from any love relationship,emotional bond wif anyone..to be honest,i feel relief..i dunno why..maybe its bcause i wanna be single or myabe its bcause, i dunno why but i feel great.. well i have to admit we have a long run on each other..well babe, its good to be ur boyfren but we noe better.. we suited only to be frens not as a couple..thanx babe, for all the fun that we share, the moment that we live will never be vainshed from my mind..seriesly, i have to give a thumb up to her.. its the longest relation that i ever been into..ist been 6 month n 7 days..wow..i dun believe myself either..but dun worry..we had a clean break up..so, whats up world? brace urself.. because aCe+ is coming for ya..

CHOW..

p/s-its 1.08 am in the morning and i feel like going for a karoke..so,whos with me?

November 25, 2008

ya im a jealous type.. but im dun really like to show it of.bcuz from my opinion its kinda like weak..showing to everyone that u r jealous on something its kinda like showing that u r vunerable..showing the inner side of u..letting people taking advantages of that jealousy..ya its rite people will take advantages of that jealousy..thats why i dun like showing it..but to be honest i cant pretend all the time..its killing me softly.dun ever try to make me jealous bcuz i will put the jealousy away and its will turn to angry or rampage so dun try me..dun try to make me jealous bcuz u dun want to suffer teh consequence afterward..trust me

November 24, 2008

Have u ever pretend like nothing happen but deep inside it matters to u?I Have..

Have u ever do something dat will haunt u down till the end of time?I Have..

Have u ever loose control?I Have..

Have u Ever ever though of suicide?I Have..

i had tried,done,thought many awful thing before.. but, i thing its for sure.. it is all in the past.. i wanna change.. i wanna be sumone better..better then ever..better then before..this is me..genuinely say,

November 22, 2008

"Don't Judge A Book Just By Its Cover"yes!! dats wat i love to say.. yes dats my thrid principles of life.. yes dats what i will tell my duded if they say sumthing or 'fuck' someone because they dun like his/her appearance..yes, i damn look like a saint that trying to change the world n trying to change people perspective on sumone but still...

why i make the judgement call?sumtimes without my notice of cos, i make a judgement call on someone..why dis happen?should i be the on ethat do not judge bcause im da asshole dat will always tell evryone not to judge..

well i guess im just a normal human..i make a judgement call every single minutes..not just bout my life but bout people around me..

yesterday, around 4 Am i went out from my house walking in the suburbian area in my house,smoking of cos.. yes, i noe what will be in ur mind, WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS GUY DOING OUT EARLY IN THE MORNING..THERE!!!

a judgement call had been made.. again, dun judge a book just from its cover..i just walking around on no actual prupose..just wanna sightseeing the area of my house had i had live in 4 almost 11 years..

back to the story, as i was walking around i came across one chinese dude..kinda well dress,not all compang camping type..he's picking up empty cans from the dustbin..yup..its true..early in the morning,picking up cans.. well, to be honest i made the judgement call at that time..

what the hell this is this dude doing picking up cans early in the morning?is he broke or sumthing?is his appearance just a fake?

well all the negative thought just came on coming till i reached home..but then, before a close my eyes to get some rest for the day an hour later, this thing pop out back..but its a different thought..by that time i realize, why should i judge him..well, even if its true that his broke so what..he didnt steal anything or harm anyone..he just wanna pick the cans n sell it for some penny..maybe dats not the real storyy, maybe he is well being but he just wanna make an extra income. or dats maybe he's hobby.. who noe which one is the truth? but, to make it all different its the judgement call that we make..lets put its dis way..if i kept having all the dirty -ve thought bout that dude,what if one day i bum to him sumwhere its..at that moment of cos i will remember all the -ve thought that i had b4..n 4 sure i'll be like this

"cian mamat tuh..juai tin untul support faimly"or any other similar stories,but who noes the real story? the truth behind that guy..maybe he have his own reason..maybe he is broke n need those cans to support his life but only god noe..but if we make the judgement call on that guy thats gonna change the whole perspective on him,for sure..all the negative look will be on his back while he turn away just based on unknown reason or fantasy that been created..so, dun judge..unless all the truth r reveal or the real reason its there..

November 21, 2008

lost a frens,gain anu frens..lost a gurlfren, u gain a nu pain..loneliness..my friends thought me back..im totally disagree..lost a gurlfren u gain bax ur freedom..free to the loved..free from any attachment.free to giv a flying kiss to any random hot gurl..free to wink to anyone on the street..free to hang out with ur frens anytimefree to choose anything u want in life without refering to anyone..

u see.. thats da big different bout having a spouse n being on ur own..some people prefer being alone bcuz they have been alone since god knows when but some others, who have been in relation b4, these is whats their situation might end up with.. so choose wisely..which one u wanna choose?

November 20, 2008

+"Absence of government; a state of lawlessness due to the absence or inefficiency of the supreme power; political disorder."+

+"A theoretical social state in which there is no governing person or body of persons, but each individual has absolute liberty (without the implication of disorder)."++"Absence or non-recognition of authority and order in any given sphere."

+Without government or law+

+A society free from coercive authority of any kind is the goal of proponents of the political philosophy of anarchism (anarchists)anarchism in the other hand means

Anarchism is a political philosophy encompassing theories and attitudes which support the elimination of all compulsory government, i.e. the state. The term anarchism derives from the Greek αναρχω, anarcho, meaning "without archons" or "without rulers", from ἀν (an, "without") + ἄρχή (arche, "to rule") + ισμός (from stem -ιζειν). It is defined by The Concise Oxford Dictionary of Politics as "the view that society can and should be organized without a coercive state." Specific anarchists may have additional criteria for what constitutes anarchism, and they often disagree with each other on what these criteria are. According to The Oxford Companion to Philosophy, "there is no single defining position that all anarchists hold, beyond their rejection of compulsory government, and those considered anarchists at best share a certain family resemblance".There are many types and traditions of anarchism, not all of which are mutually exclusive. Anarchism is usually considered to be a radical left-wing ideology, and as such much of anarchist economics and legal philosophy reflect anti-authoritarian interpretations of communism, collectivism, syndicalism or participatory economics; however, anarchism has always included an individualist strain, including those who support capitalism (e.g. market anarchists: anarcho-capitalism, agorism, etc.) and other market-orientated economic structures, e.g. mutualists. As described by the 21st century anarchist Cindy Milstein, anarchism is a "political tradition that has consistently grappled with the tension between the individual and society." Others, such as panarchists and anarchists without adjectives neither advocate nor object to any particular form of organization. Anarchist schools of thought differ fundamentally, supporting anything from extreme individualism to complete collectivism. Some anarchists fundamentally oppose all types of coercion, while others have supported the use of some coercive measures, including violent revolution, on the path to anarchy.

well if u ask one particular guy name Adam a.k.a aCe+ he would said dat anarchy is a self-lead philosophy..yes it is against any type of government or any supreme authority but it the mean time its build up urself internal self which need to be build..it help us to learn how to survived if we r on anarchy rules.. it help us to be indie..it help us to grow n be the man should we should be..plus, why should we be anyone dogs? following orders n let "them" feed us..why dun we be our own boss n the dogs on our own..no master,no free feed that only gonna left us to be obey.. plus,

who need a government if it is corrupted?....who need a government when all of the individuals in it plays above the law n constitution while everyone else whom they refer as rakyat have to be loyal to the law?..who need government who stupid enough to make a decision for themselves but they want to make one for us?...who need government n law or constitution is not all of us are adment to it?who need a government that limitise our freedom but they refer themselves as a democratic government?

*RAISE UR MIDDLE FINGER AND SAY FUCK U!!!!*

we dun need government that only gonna destroy us in the end..it is better to stay on anarchy if we have any type of these government..