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The End Is Just The Beginning

“If I told you I’ve worked hard to get where I’m at, I’d be lying, because I have no idea where I am right now.” – Jarod Kintz.

On the first day at my internship at MSI, Tony had asked me to tweet a quote that meant something to me on the professional MSI twitter page. This was the quote that I actually wanted to tweet… but then thought to myself that it probably wasn’t the best first impression, so I chose a more fitting alternative.

Before entering the second semester of my senior year, I did a lot of thinking. It basically came down to the fact that I have no idea what I am doing, where I am, what’s next, or where these past four years of my life had gone. It all simply came too quickly and is ending even quicker with graduation right around the corner. Every step of my life so far has been planned out to a “T.” I attended 18 years of school, but now what? This is the uncertainty aspect of it all. I know I’m supposed to get a job after graduation, but where do I want to work? Am I in the right field? A bachelor’s degree seems to be the equivalent of the previous high school diploma now a days, so do I continue my education? These are all questions I contemplate more than I would like to lately. I just have no idea what is going to happen next and my comfort zone is coming to an end. This realm of the unknown is overwhelming and absolutely terrifying.

However, as stated by the national center for education statistics, 20.2 million individuals were expected to attend college in the U.S. last year, my pity party needs to end. I’m not in this alone and am not the only person who is experiencing these feelings.

Looking back at who I was before college in comparison to who I am today is like night and day. From being so confident in every decision I made, thinking I knew exactly what I wanted, to looking back now and questioning why on earth I made all of those choices. For instance, the decision I made to paint my bedroom a bright, headache bearing, hot pink, or the decision to post that awkward selfie which I now can’t even look at without hating myself for it. In another 4 years I’ll probably look back at who I was as a 21 year old and see another significant difference with a whelm of regrets. Life is about growing and learning along the experience filled journey to shape this incredible person you are and finding your way. There will be so many regrets and mistakes, but also a wave of accomplishments and memories. The natural occurrence of fear shouldn’t bring you down; it should motivate you. The uncertainty of what is coming next shouldn’t be fearful; it should be alluring. If failure arises it will only make you stronger and doubting yourself will only make you weaker. Graduating college is just the beginning. Life has barely started and there are so many good things to come.

In the general scheme of things, I need to realize that it is going to be OK. It’s ok to not know exactly what’s happening or where I am going. The most satisfying things in life come unexpectedly. A job, a master’s degree, a family, a future…all of it will eventually fall into place. The good news is, “if plan ‘A’ doesn’t work, there’s 25 more letters in the alphabet…” -Claire Cook