When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

Friday, October 19, 2012

The Next Best Thing

Today we will meet our daughter.

Not the way we wanted, and not the way we planned. But I’m starting to realize that ‘the next best thing’ is something that I’m going to have to get used to in this life, where the perfect plan just doesn’t exist.

As much as we wanted to have this baby come on her own terms, and as much as we wanted her to come on time or early, here we are 11 days overdue and heading to the hospital to be induced. It certainly wasn’t the plan, yet here we are... abandoning our vision for this birth and moving on to our next best option. Surrendering to the process. Surrendering my expectations. And surrendering to all the things that I cannot control nor change.

Its been a long year. IVF, extreme morning sickness, a big uncomfortable overdue pregnancy.... and finally, soon, it’s all going to be behind us.

Our angel baby is on her way.

We pray that your transition into this world is peaceful and full of love.

Mommy and Daddy love you sweet baby. And we cannot wait to hold you in our arms.

About Me

We were married in 2000 and struggled with infertility for 5 years before finally finding success at CCRM. At 33, I was diagnosed with unexplained IF & hypothyroidism. Dave was 35, and diagnosed with MF with low motility/morphology. And our overall problem was poor embryo quality, even with IVF, none ever make it to blast. At 35, I was diagnosed with ASAB as well. We finally found success at CCRM in 2008, where we made our first blasts and got our first ever BFP! We got pregnant with twins, lost one, and ended up with one healthy baby boy!
5 months after he was born, my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, and I lost her 9 months later. The loss was devastating.
In 2011, we were back at CCRM for one last try for baby number 2, and ended with a second miracle, our precious baby girl.
My book INFERTILITY-LAND is available for download on Amazon. http://www.amazon.com/Infertility-Land-A-Roadmap-ebook/dp/B0057OBMRO
About 4 months after my daughter was born, I was wrongly diagnosed with PPD and was put on meds. This created a journey to hell and back with bad reactions and hideous withdrawal. I am now heading back to my super amazing happy love-filled life.