--My LiFe So FaR...Poems: ---A PaTcHwOrK of HuMaNiTy---

Poetry, thoughts and other sarcastic meanderings...
"It is the rattle of the keyboard which moves me, gets me restless and weary out of this skin and finally out of my own head.
With these words I can settle in for a winters nap, and watch a soul arise.......Is she me, or am I her? Perhaps neither of us really exist..." md.shelby 2006

Monday, October 27, 2008

7 grams

7 grams and we met on a binge7 grams and you were unhinged7 grams and you love what you wanted to hate7 grams and turning left is a fucking debate7 grams and your still not at ease7 grams and what can cure this disease7 grams and I can't even tease7 grams and theres still nothing right7 grams and that first very long night7 grams and your out on bail7 grams and every blue moon shot gives you sail7 grams and we've been everywhere without leaving the room7 grams and going is going fast and going gone soon

7 grams straight to the head7 grams can't satisfy your need; your wanting me wants me dead7 grams there's no pride or virtue in this plan7 grams can take vague dislike to full throttle swoon7 grams in fits of clarity, I loved you too fast and loved you too soon7 grams at my wits end, is this heart numb enough, did I play dumb enough7 grams parted lips to swallow each and every last line7 grams am I so desperate to love that I'd lie7 grams if you had a home again, we'd be alone again and 7 grams would it even matter, to take back a real honest crybecause7 gramsit was she was the love that had heroh yeah7 grams

You may never know

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Quotes on Humanity from various persons. These simple thoughts, often captured by men and women across time, whose words often convince me that, voice and pen to letter is the most vibrant form we have to share a common experience. That these tools we have, verbal communication captured in written word mold the invisible thoughts that surround us. The common thread of tie which binds all humans; the beacon of humanity; our ability to communicate the human condition across time, culture, craft/field, lifestyle, politics and perspective. - md.shelby (quotes referenced from Wisdom Quotes.com)

Abraham Joshua Heschel: A religious man is a person who holds God and man in one thought at one time, at all times, who suffers harm done to others, whose greatest passion is compassion, whose greatest strength is love and defiance of despair. [New York Journal-American, April 5, 1963]

Albert Einstein: A human being is a part of the whole called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feeling as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.

Albert Schweitzer: The fundamental rights of [humanity] are, first: the right of habitation; second, the right to move freely; third, the right to the soil and subsoil, and to the use of it; fourth, the right of freedom of labor and of exchange; fifth, the right to justice; sixth, the right to live within a natural national organization; and seventh, the right to education.

Anne Wilson Schaef: Life is a process. We are a process. The universe is a process.

Donald Williams: For those who have seen the Earth from space, and for the hundreds and perhaps thousands more who will, the experience most certainly changes your perspective. The things that we share in our world are far more valuable than those which divide us.

Edna St. Vincent Millay: I love humanity but I hate people.

Ernest Becker: It is not so much that man is a herd animal, said Freud, but that he is a horde animal led by a chief.

Felix Adler: The human race may be compared to a writer. At the outset a writer has often only a vague general notion of the plan of his work, and of the thought he intends to elaborate. As he proceeds, penetrating his material, laboring to express himself fitly, he lays a firmer grasp on his thought; he finds himself. So the human race is writing its story, finding itself, discovering its own underlying purpose, revising, recasting a tale pathetic often, yet none the less sublime.

George Orwell: On the whole human beings want to be good, but not too good, and not quite all the time.

HH the Dalai Lama: Consider the following. We humans are social beings. We come into the world as the result of others' actions. We survive here in dependence on others. Whether we like it or not, there is hardly a moment of our lives when we do not benefit from others' activities. For this reason it is hardly surprising that most of our happiness arises in the context of our relationships with others.

This entry continued ...

Henry Reed: All human beings are interconnected, one with all other elements in creation.

Jane Jacobs: Being human is itself difficult, and therefore all kinds of settlements (except dream cities) have problems.

John Astin: There are things so deep and complex that only intuition can reach it in our stage of development as human beings.

Karl Marx: History does nothing; it does not possess immense riches, it does not fight battles. It is men, real, living, who do all this

Margaret Laurence: Know that although in the eternal scheme of things you are small, you are also unique and irreplaceable, as are all your fellow humans everywhere in the world.

Mark Twain: Peace by persuasion has a pleasant sound, but I think we should not be able to work it. We should have to tame the human race first, and history seems to show that that cannot be done.

Martin Luther King Jr.: Human salvation lies in the hands of the creatively maladjusted.

Martin Luther King, Jr.: I look forward confidently to the day when all who work for a living will be one with no thought to their separateness as Negroes, Jews, Italians or any other distinctions. This will be the day when we bring into full realization the American dream -- a dream yet unfulfilled. A dream of equality of opportunity, of privilege and property widely distributed; a dream of a land where men will not take necessities from the many to give luxuries to the few; a dream of a land where men will not argue that the color of a man's skin determines the content of his character; a dream of a nation where all our gifts and resources are held not for ourselves alone, but as instruments of service for the rest of humanity; the dream of a country where every man will respect the dignity and worth of the human personality.

Martin Luther King, Jr.: An individual has not started living until he can rise above the narrow confines of his individualistic concerns to the broader concerns of all humanity.

Martin Luther King, jr.: We must rapidly begin the shift from a "thing-oriented" society to a "person-oriented" society. When machines and computers, profit motives and property rights are considered more important than people, the giant triplets of racism, materialism, and militarism are incapable of being conquered.

Mme. de StaÃ«l: The more I see of man, the more I like dogs.

Mohandas K. Gandhi: You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty.

Mohandas K. Gandhi: My life is an indivisible whole, and all my attitudes run into one another; and they all have their rise in my insatiable love for mankind.

Mohandas K. Gandhi: The Roots of Violence: Wealth without work, Pleasure without conscience, Knowledge without character, Commerce without morality, Science without humanity, Worship without sacrifice, Politics without principles.

Murray Gell-Mann: Today the network of relationships linking the human race to itself and to the rest of the biosphere is so complex that all aspects affect all others to an extraordinary degree. Someone should be studying the whole system, however crudely that has to be done, because no gluing together of partial studies of a complex nonlinear system can give a good idea of the behavior of the whole.

Oscar Wilde: It is absurd to divide people into good and bad. People are either charming or tedious.

Pearl S. Buck: The person who tries to live alone will not succeed as a human being. His heart withers if it does not answer another heart. His mind shrinks away if he hears only the echoes of his own thoughts and finds no other inspiration.

Rabindranath Tagore: Men are cruel, but Man is kind.

Rachel Carson: Only within the moment of time represented by the present century has one species -- man -- acquired significant power to alter the nature of his world.

Rene Descartes: The greatest minds are capable of the greatest vices as well as of the greatest virtues.

Thomas Berry: If the earth does grow inhospitable toward human presence, it is primarily because we have lost our sense of courtesy toward the earth and its inhabitants.

Virginia Satir: Over the years I have developed a picture of what a human being living humanely is like. She is a person who understand, values and develops her body, finding it beautiful and useful; a person who is real and is willing to take risks, to be creative, to manifest competence, to change when the situation calls for it, and to find ways to accommodate to what is new and different, keeping that part of the old that is still useful and discarding what is not.

Wendell Berry: One of the most important resources that a garden makes available for use, is the gardener's own body. A garden gives the body the dignity of working in its own support. It is a way of rejoining the human race.

Start here

Start here, As if slates could be clean; closets, suitcases, memoriesCould really be made free of all our pasts debrisbut secure of all our futures valuables.

Sometimes it's what you lock away so deepreturning in search to find the missing link.

Only to realize, it was the key you never asked to keep,the question you were afraid to ask,the statement you never cleared your throat to answer,the towel you never should have thrown in or the white flag you never raised...and what if? Well, "if" I knew, I wouldn't be asking.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

My ESP Reading "very precognition'ess:"

If you have precognition, you have an uncanny ability to look into the future and know ahead of time what is going to happen. You might, for instance, simply know that you're going to get that job before the interview even happens with a certainty that exceeds what you would expect to have simply knowing the facts of the situation. You might have a sense of dread before going out for the evening only to later have a flat tire on your way home. These little hunches are easy to ignore but for you especially, quite often lead to a true prediction of what is going to happen. These predictions can be used to generate positive outcomes, and the more you know about how to use your talent, the more you will be able to distinguish between fantasy of the future and an actual reality you are seeing happen, before it has actually happened.

my secret identity

Marilyn Monroe? Veronica Lake? Humphrey Bogart? A scene-stealer like you could have been any one of these legendary entertainers. Like Hollywood's acting elite, you've got loads of charisma and charm, and you know how to use it.

Whether you're turning heads on the way to work or making the rounds at a party, you're a people person who loves basking in the spotlight. With your bold spirit and magnetic aura, you're sure to brighten up any room and leave your adoring fans spellbound and begging for more.

living or life

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Killer Queen: Tribute to The Band Queen

"We will rock you"take our love out and sock youMake groundwith a stomp and giggle just to top you.Champions of axiomsas another one bytes the duston my keyboard of love.

Killer queen will buzz right by as a workercomes in with a stingand another one bytes the dust.Fat bottomed girls sing "youare my best friend" whilewe stare and screen blanks by 1,0,1,0 - oh oh oh. But, "you are my best friend" you know "we are champions"of axioms.

So, save me don't stop me, stomp me or top me. Play the game of body languageand good old fahsionsed I want to \break free\byte me.And now we hear "seven seas" of rythym and rythmAmericas' free"you're my best friend"and we are free.

Friday, November 02, 2007

"From the Invisible Inside...Derrida, Circumfession"

"From the invisible inside, where I could neither see nor want the very thing I have always been scared to have revealed on the scanner, by 'analysis' — radiology, echography, endocrinology, hematology — a crural vein expelled my blood outside that I thought beautiful....the inside of my life exhibiting itself outside, 'expressing' itself before my eyes, absolved without a gesture.

Dare I say of writing if I compare the pen to the syringe, and I always dream of a pen that would be a syringe, a suction point rather than that very hard weapon with which one must inscribe, incise, choose, calculate, take ink before filtering the inscribable.” - Derrida, Circumfession

"Trust Me"

"Trust me" like "The checks in the mail", and "I'll call you tomorrow"are among those famous words which go far too often SAID.

So much better off the world would be,if those words didn't echo like fists banging upon steel.The pounding thunder always on when its mostdeadly quiet in surround sound stereodancing letters in my head.

"I read the news today, oh boy" - The beatles

In light of the recent news today about the 10-year old responsible for the wildfire in California, I thought it would be a fitting gesture to extend my deepest sympathies to all families involved. How sad a tragedy and how ultimately unpredictable and preditiable ALL AT ONCE.

Children will always be fascinated with the unknown and in the vein of prevented medicine it seems an awareness campaign similiar to the onces we had when I was a kid "Smokey the Bear" - a playful but constant reminder about the danger of fires and pollution in our young but fragile timberlands kis certainly in order from the local governments.

In the meantime, parents should take heed and remind our children how important and substantial and impact something like a simple lite match can mean for so many - by involving them in the cleanup if its neccessary for the families affected by the recent events.

Bitches of Steel

Ladies, learn to use your penlike a knife.

It will save you, engrave you, embossed of your families right. Its measured swords weight a measure of those gravest to danger.When, with just a glitter of its steely blue ballpoint,at a last moments notice,it provides a most astonishing deep wounding.

The scar from which takes themoh so many years to heal.Ladies learn to use your pen to harm, hurt, nuture, stealstarve, predict, merger and heal.

As is neccessary and further, make right or perjurwhen all else cannot...make sure you can still weld it to the kill.

Monday, October 29, 2007

The beating

The beat it turns circles around my pitter patter heart thats just the startShould I cry now for the storm brewing? or have I already cried a river of tears to the oceans I see my eyes to yours. like water for chocolate.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Edwards blogging and brimstone cops

In light of the recent "changes" in staff on the Edwards campaign, I have to ask myself, how dangerous is it to be publishing blogs? Will it inevitably bite me in the a*s - given that most times - I am voicing an opinion quite freely. As if I was say...speaking at a table & chair in my own home. hehehe.

Given that this is exactly what (I thought) blogging was suppose to be - a venue for free speech in a growly rapid world of conservative facists...I continue to believe that people should stop being so overly concerned with what others believe, say or spout on their home pages - and perhaps concern themselves with their own actions and hmmummm...get a life.

Truly, do we have a right to put every aspect of a persons life on trial for a typical job, or employment in general? At what point do we draw a line. We appear to give presidents, actors and celebs a fairer shake than the average joe in this aspect. The average joe - without a spin doctor, pr agency, ad campaign and multi-million dollar budget - we'll - he/she best be careful I suppose on what they write in his/her personal journal of life..they might just find themselves out-o-work.

..So fellow bloggers, I guess we all need to now start saving up to hire our personal staff of highly regarded editors, PR crews and other "cover." Lest we accidently run amuck, ruin some holyrollers image of what we should think/believe or feel. "Heaven forbid" we DARE to say anything out of step with corporate, or the church. Yes, apparently we cannot even question our own religious beliefs without stepping on someones toes and causing a scandal.

So, in closing: Edwards, you should CAN yourself for responding to those brimstone cops. BTW, anyone who might have problem with my opinion(s), GOOD FOR YOU - why don't you blog on it? second (kiss my fanny) and third - feel free to leave scathing comment on my page. but unless you want to pay my unemployment - don't call my boss you whiny weiner.

=====Is she all that I'm not???=======

Dedicated to all the lousy lovers who keep one eye and two feet, out the door.....

Is she all that I’m not?Does she fill just the right spot?Will she give you a thrill?Betcha she paid the last bill.

You think she has what I got?But you can’t teach,what can’t be taught.She’s just a cheating thiefwho hasn’t been caught…And hook, line and sinkeryou're just a silly fool who’s been wrapped and wrangled,sold and bought.

‘Think she’s the cure to your ill?Betch’a think she’s the real f*cking dealAs you walk blindly downhill,‘don’t even know your own will.Oh, but when she’s done, baby,you most definitely will.

I here when she mates,she goes in for the kill.Too bad when she reaches it…she’ll find there’s nothing left to steal.

And you thought I wouldn’tbut I canand baby, I will.

So, is she really all that I’m not?I guess you can’t lose what you never “got.”What’s left to say, you’ve finally been caught.And I haven’t even screamed, cried or fought.You see, I replace what I losewhen I find that it can be bought.

You think I’m still yoursBut baby,I’m not.

So, hereI teach, the lessonthat you need taught:for the record, she can have it alleverything...that...I...got.I give it here without....a.single-last-thought.by shelbyshomemd.shelby copyright 2004-2024

Author's Comments:"a fun, biting play on the boomerang that occurs when a cheating heart moves astray."

I know this much to be trueWhat it is we think we know most of…Remains as It were, intrinsically untrue.

Our lack of understandingthis basic matterof unknown facta vast, virtuous, void of infinite spaceContrasting any tiny spark of absolute certaintyOf what is real, who can even reasonWhy we do what we do.

Ought better we be containedWith examiningthe rather obviousgaping *hole*leftas the dust crumbles, bit by bit.in the patchworkofhuman(ity,ity,ity)bit

Observe the lack of wonderat our own heart double-beating in timeto that of mammals and yesteryears men.

Wandering we are, lost, a in a touch of sadness,a spell of madness, disguised as scientific revolutea curiously primordial preoccupation, concerned with:conquer, crush, run, outlast, outwit..outruletremble as we may in fear.

Pondering weather-to-whetherThe weight ofman(kind)’sounceis worth(y) themeasure of a mile..One (1) which we have long forgotten to take–time &walk, skip, meander or even saunteron near or about(s)..

About Me

“...each of us is grazed at least once, perhaps more than once, by the hidden power of this question, even if he is not aware of what is happening to him. …“Why is there anything rather than nothing? Why is there anything rather than nothing?" is first in rank for us because it is the most far reaching, second because it is the deepest, and finally because it is the most fundamental of all questions.”
Heidegger, An Introduction to Metaphysics