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Ch-ch-ch-changes

22.June 2008

So much is in transition right now… I’ve moved to the new apartment and am waiting for Dan to arrive. But I am still living out of a suitcase and sleeping on an air mattress because I haven’t finished moving and don’t have a chest of drawers. I’m cooking for myself, but don’t have enough dishes or surface space to do much. I’m trying to start reading for my generals, but I don’t really have a good place to do that yet.

Oh, and I’m going to be legally married in a little over a month, crazy as that sounds. I’m having all the attending nerves and jitters, but am entirely excited. Planning is going very well. While I was trying on the dress I ended up buying, I also found out that my very best friend is engaged, which is exciting, but also unsettling. It’s so strange that we’re all growing up. I’m reminded of a passage in one of the Anne books when Diana is getting married, I think. Or maybe it’s in Little Women, when Amy marries Laurie (which is STILL upsetting). I should look up those passages. Might make a good toast for the wedding…

It’s just unbelievable to me that we’re going through these major life changing events, and at the same time. It’s nice to have company and to be making these decisions at the same time, but it’s also kind of sad. Clearly, life is changing and with it our friendship will probably also change by millimeters. I’m not worried about it ending or anything like that, but am trying to understand how life is going to look once I’m not living by myself and once I’m committed to someone for Ever. And trying to get used to the idea of making big decisions based on more than just myself.

It’s a lot of transition all at once, but I’m sure it’ll all shake out in a pleasing way. It might be unsettling for a while, but once we’re settled it’ll be clear that it’s the right thing. It’s already clearly the right thing, but it’s a bit nervous-making. But then I’ve always thought one would be certifiable if one weren’t a little bit nervous before saying the big I Do.