Sunday, March 8, 2009

Long time coming

Two blogs in one day. I'm on a roll. Haha.

The big topic as of late has been what I like to call "The Big Move." To where you might ask. Well, that is the big question. I graduate May 16th and I have my mind set on one place I really am dying to move.

I have an A-type personality and not knowing where I will be and what I will be doing is driving my absolutely insane. I am also very practical. My original thinking was I would apply everywhere I could and then move when I was offered a job. This plan seems the most logical in my head. My mom, amazing lady she is, mentioned just moving to place I want to live. I completely shot it down because, well, it just doesn't seem practical to me. However, I have never been able to forget that possibility.

As time as gone on, and we are now approaching midterms of my last semester, I cannot quit thinking about how much I want to live in this one particular place. It consumes my every thought. I think of where to live, the apartments, the shopping, the eating, the schools, and everything to do with this one place. I check the job listings so much if they could track who was checking, they would think I was crazy!

So now, the question of the hour. Is it crazy to move somewhere with no job offer because it is where I really, really am dying to live? (And by dying I am almost sure I would not be as happy anywhere else)

I do not doubt my ability as a teacher, but I am unsure of the school district so I have a hard time saying "I will absolutely get a job right away." It has nothing to do with my ability, but more the worrier in my won't let me be 100 percent sure. I am not completely negative however because I believe two things: it's a big-ish city with many options, and my career has a built in fall back, substitute teaching, which almost every school district in the nation desperately needs.

And yes, I do obsess. At this time, I can see it all so clear in my head. I have a plan for everything. So am I crazy or what?

4 comments:

Well lovely! We're getting so close to professional life and those thoughts are COMPLETELY normal! I've literally been on an ongoing apartment/job hunt since last summer and that was a year away from graduation, so I know exactly what you mean! I used to say Seattle ONLY and now I've kind of decided on a large city only, but still, the fact of the matter is, when you've got your heart set on something, you want to do it! And if it's meant to be, it will be! Moving somewhere first can seem backwards, but I think we're living in a different time/world where it's ok to move somewhere first, and honestly, it may be more beneficial. We talked about the benefits at dinner tonight, and honestly, when I get back from Alaska, if I don't have a job right away, I think I'll probably do the same thing. If anything, it's just exciting to make a move and actually DO something towards your future! It will be amazing and fun and exciting, and even scary, but isn't that the whole part of entering "grown-up-dom"?? I think so :)

good luck sister with your decision. as a girl who picked up and moved with no job to a new big city... i say go for it! if you follow your heart, things will fall into place for you. maybe how you thought, maybe not, but you'll never regret not living your life. go for it!

Thanks so much for the advice! It is nice to hear from someone who has experienced something similar. I am still nervous because I am such a planner, but I am getting more excited about a new adventure!