In my Twenty six years of existence, I’ve passed my quarter life crisis. I’ve been to places. I’ve been with different kinds of people. Yet I still have to learn lots of things about life.

Life is an ocean (Photo by Hannah Nacis)

Not Everything is about you.

It may seem that whenever you do things, it is just for you. Ever wonder how people get affected by your decisions and doings?

Time flies fast, so as your life.

One moment you’re still with your family. Then you wake up and boom, “I’m alone.”

It’s normal to feel afraid of taking risk.

Who isn’t afraid to take risk? Even the toughest person feels frightened you know. You are just afraid because it will be out of your comfort zone. You wouldn’t know how it will turn out unless you try right.

Making mistake is part of life. So as regrets.

Less expectations, less disappointments, less mistakes? I don’t think so. When you fail on something, that’s when you start learning. It is okay to regret that something. But by the end of the day, you learned something.

Tough times come when you least expect it.

When everything seems right, something is wrong. Yes there will always be a ‘something’ that will rock your world. Maybe you can’t handle it now, but you’ll just laugh it off later.

It’s not childish to cry and seek for help.

When everything is out of place, it is okay to cry in a corner or better with someone. It is alright to ask for help during those times. Just don’t forget to say thank you afterwards.

Life has four seasons.

Enough said.

Money can’t buy happiness, but sometimes it can.

No one can buy your happiness, but they can buy something that will lead to it right. Like a simple flower. Or maybe… a house. 😛

It’s never too late to try new things.

Learning doesn’t stop after you finish Uni. You can still go out and try other things. Play another instrument. Paint. Drive a car, etc.

Life is an endless adventure.

Whether you attained happiness, your life doesn’t stop there. Definitely you still seek for other things or other people that will make you happier and content in life.

I don’t usually have a New Year’s resolution. Anytime of the year things just happen. Change!

WHAT DID YOU DISCOVER IN YOURSELF DURING 2014?

I had discovered certain things/stuff that I didn’t know I had it in me all along..

╚ I am a totally different person now than before. I used to be a cry baby (still am at times) but I learned how to face challenges, failures and stress on my own ever since I moved here.
╚ It’s okay to feel hurt and lonely. What matters is that I learn how to accept things.
╚ I am capable of showing a person how much I love him. 🙂

WHAT DID YOU DO THAT YOU LIKED IN 2014?
• out of town trip with friends. First time I was allowed to travel with my friends.
• going back to Australia and going back to Uni. Met a lot of new people.
• learning how to priorities stuff.
• saving for my Uni.
• taking risks
• Loving someone unconditionally. ❤

DATES THAT YOU LIKELY TO REMEMBER IN 2014:

Actually I couldn’t remember most of the dates by now but most of them were when I went back in the Philippines and spent time with my family. My out of trip in Zambales (Birthday trip) and Ilocos trip (around June 12 I guess).

Then when I came here in Melbourne starting from July 17 (arrival). Then most of my time with my friends. and most especially times with my significant other from his trip to the Philippines to us officially going out to Italy ’til present 🙂 .

WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU REGRET DOING/HAVING?
♦ reading my last year’s review I saw one thing I regret doing. For 2014, I was better on taking things that’s why I have no regrets this year. Yes I learned my lesson.

WHAT THINGS WERE YOUR “FIRST TIME”?

There’s a lot of “first time” for me here in Melbourne. Since I came here I had told people that I haven’t felt this happy since I can’t remember. The feeling of being alive is what makes me happy. So much things to do here. So many people to meet. As well as new discoveries and adventures with my S.O. 🙂

WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU WANT TO LEAVE BEHIND IN 2014?

○ hatred
○ sad moments
○ bad experiences
○ past relationships

WHAT WILL YOU MISS IN 2014?
♦ as what I said, i had a rollercoaster year so I might not miss anything from it.. hehe

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR 2015?
After reading my last year’s review, I noticed that everytime I set a plan for myself, I tend to achieve it sooner than expected. Nothing much planned for this year i think. With my life right now, I couldn’t ask for more. or maybe some.. hehe

Sorry if I hadn’t posted anything for my blog’s anniversary last December 20. To make it up to my readers, I am posting this blog on Christmas day.

Today, everyone is either staying at home with their family while others spend it away from home, thus, me spending it here in Melbourne. It is my second year of Christmas away from home. It’s my first time spending it with a S.O. Most of the time I just stay at home with my family and relatives just come over our house to celebrate.

Three years ago, I started an oil painting, Christmas themed. But the sad truth was that I didn’t get to finish it, not even half of it. Since I started doing my art again here, I will try to recreate that unfinished master piece in watercolor. I haven’t tried doing something on my own again, meaning without me copying others’ work. I tried once but I just failed ’cause I couldn’t do it in Oil Paint. Anyway, I feel inspired into doing another painting soon.

I’m celebrating my Christmas with my boyfriend and his family. I remembered my first stay here, we were just friends back then but his dad even told me to spend this day with them. Spending it away from home makes me feel homesick of course. He (bf) said to me all he can do is stay with me this day just to fill up that empty space. His family is my family here. He is my family. 🙂 I’ve been waiting for so long to feel this way. It is my first time to feel this kind of love, unconditional love. Yes I am a spoiled girlfriend, he gave me lots of love (and gifts). hehehee.. ^_^

Christmas Decors in Dandenong

Christmas day is one day where you feel happy and sad at the same time. You feel joyful and festive with everyone, but feel nostalgic about things. I do. I still remembered that year where Christmas was spent differently. Two years ago is one of the best Christmas that our family had. My cousins from other countries went home and all came to spend it with us. It is my first time seeing our family so happy on Christmas day. I didn’t know that it’ll happen that year. it was my last Christmas with them and I’m glad that we spent it so joyful. Oh well, I just miss them.

I still have lots of projects to do. I haven’t listed them ,yet I am sure that I am more keen to start those soon. I have another kit here that I will start building as soon as I feel inspired and less tired from work.

Oh, and I’ve seen a portable electric organ/ keyboard. I want it soon. Still thinking if I’m going to get it cause I really want to have one soon so I can start learning how to play the piano and make melodies for my poems. 🙂 I’ll keep you posted here. But if I’m M.I.A. here, I’m just hanging around Instagram or Twitter.

Okay! I haven’t been blogging these past weeks. I was so caught up with things in uni and in life. I haven’t really watched any series nor have a read a book and watched a new movie. I have a lot of things on my mind. I am “happily distracted” as what my mister said.

I had a lot of term papers to pass last Oct until first week of November. Every time I’m off Uni, I am working. When I have spare days, I usually spend it with my mister somewhere quiet or outside the city. Yes! It wasn’t long ago when my mister and I got together, thus, official couple. He became my travel, gaming, photography and eating buddy (lol). We formed a very good foundation for our relationship as a couple, being best friends. 🙂

Anyway, I had been writing stories, poems and songs (yet I still don’t have melodies). Also, I have a lot of art projects in mind. I am inspired nowadays that I want to try out a lot of things yet I need space to do and store my art. Hopefully I can do these when my roommate leaves the apartment and I can have the room to myself. 🙂

I just need to sort all my plans and projects then I can start posting here and on my other accounts as well.

All I can say is that I am happy and contented here now in Melbourne. I had gone through a lot of hardships last year in which I learned to be stronger and tougher. I think I really deserve to be happy and fulfilled here. Christmas is fast approaching and if people will ask me what I want as a gift, I couldn’t ask for more. Everything and everyone is a blessing to me.

Finding happiness is a challenge.
It is not easily attained.
You have to work hard for it.

It feels like you’re climbing a high mountain and the force of gravity is pulling you down.
You see the sky so blue today then a storm comes tomorrow.
Birds chirping good melodies then suddenly a group of crows shout loudly.

You look in the mirror and you see a shadow of despair.
But sometimes, a shine of light peaks thru the window.
A sign of little happiness on its way.

Behind those dark cloud is the sun wanting to come out.
Maybe it’s you who should go out
Explore the world and find the sun rays.

Choosing which path to take to find your happiness is confusing.
You can either be on a rocky road or in a straight easy way.
Whatever you choose, remember you can make it til the end.

Attaining happiness is not an ending.
It is a new beginning to someone else happiness.
Sharing it is the best part of all.

I just finished watching the movie “Begin Again” (Keira Knightly, Mark Ruffalo, Adam Levine) and I was totally amazed with it.

In the movie, Adam made a song that made Keira realize what he did. Later, Keira sends back a message to Adam thru a song voice message. Things got emotional between them and a song which Keira wrote and Adam sang became a perfect ending to the movie. (Ooopps sorry spoiler!).

Thinking that this movie might be just another Love story, I was not prepared. This is a good movie especially if you’re into Music and of course Adam Levine. Jk. But yeah mostly music. Be inspired to write songs and melodies. Pick up a pen and paper and your guitar. I don’t know with other people but after watching the movie, I totally appreciated more the meaning of the movie’s soundtrack, “Lost Stars.” It was such a good song that it was the reason I watched the movie. Hearing it sung in the movie melt my heart.

Most of my friends know that I love music. I am not good at playing musical instruments neither am I a songwriter. But thru music, I can express my feelings. Listening to what I usually hear whenever I’m sad, angry or happy, is a way you can get to know me better. Watching me enjoy my favorite bands live in a gig or concert is really enticing to the eyes. Letting me play a guitar is me showing you my vulnerability.

Throughout these years, I can easily connect with people thru music. Just a pop of question regarding their favorite song or artist is a way for me to start a conversation. Thru this, I can understand a person more. Hearing their type of music lets me know what their message or hidden emotions are.

Nowadays, music is one of my medium into knowing a great person, a special friend. At times when I just don’t want to say my feelings, I just send him hints thru my music. I just have no guts to tell someone what I am feeling exactly. I am scared, too afraid of things. Somehow I find the right songs for my message. Whew. Same goes with him. He doesn’t need to tell me details. He just picks a song for me to hear. One of these days, I can see us sitting down and playing songs, jamming. Him playing the guitar and me singing with another guitar. Just enjoying each others’ company thru music.