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Hadn't spoken to my dad much today .. Or you can say eversince the'shortrunaway' i had .

Afternoon of 25 , went to Causeway with Sya , had so much fun

there ! seriously , we didnt shop there with money but eyes . Then ,

we head back to Marsiling , my house .. Met Dyana , my sister for

awhile at Civic Centre & went to the library , Sya had a short lecture

with Abg Eizman for awhile , hahaha :D Then , we headed home .

By the time i almost reached home .. I was surprised to receive a

call from my dad , I began to felt that something is just isnt right ,

so I checked the carpark near my flat , and yes , as I can see ,

my dad's car and bike was there .. I panicked the minute I saw

my dad calling me repeatedly . As I panicked , I called my sister

up , she told me to get back to Causeway Point , so I told her everything .

Blablabla , we stayed and talked , me and Sya was like seriously

thinking , because Sya has Troy for backup , because she called

him earlier on and he already got himself ready the food and stuff .

I've got a bad feeling about that anyway and that makes me thinking

more and more , soon after , my sister and co. brought us somewhere else ..

Away from CP .

We ended up slacking in an open void deck , Sya was panicking .

Ate and sat there , had some time charging my phone , hehehe ,

I always got ready the charger y'know , even to school

I bring it :D hahaha ! Anyway , back to the story .. I had to piss ,

so me and Sya headed back to civic centre , went to the toilet

near the macdonalds .. We washed our face and pee-ed there . Hahah !

bad english Yana .. -.- Let's make it short here , went back to my sister ,

and told her i wanna go home , we reached to the void deck , went somewhere ,

settled down , and i suddenly felt scared to step into the

house .. So , my plan was to wait till my parents go to work , so i accompanied

Sya .. Blablabla , we went to Yan's place which is the same block as me ..

Then , we asked him if we could charge my phone at his place . While

charging , I told Sya to give me ten seconds to rest , i rested , by the time

i woke up , i felt myself like i was in a dream a few minutes back .

Hahahah ! Then , Sya and I pitied Yan , cos he was like laying on the

floor looking so tired and so on , me and Sya get back the phone from

him , and by then it was 425am in the morning . We headed to Shell ,

while we were walking , we coincidentally met my older step brother ,

he just got off his friend's bike , we got NOWHERE to hide , no choice ,

stupid but seriously no choice , we hid under a stupid tree xD ! He saw

us , blablablabla , and he didnt know that my whole family was finding

for me .. So , i just texted him not to mention anything to my dad , he

was like 'okay' . After me and sya did our stuff in the toilet , we headed

back to my block , and we rested awhile till 7am , my sister called me

up , and asked where was i , at about 730 she was with us already ..

She went inside the house to help me check who's in the house , so i

can get in . She told me that it was my brother , the one who saw me

and sya , only was at home . So , i get in , and had a bath with Sya ,

we ate awhile , and i send her to woodlands interchange till her bus

came , she headed to Troy's place .. I got home , and I slept till it as like

7pm .. I woke up , and did some light chores . And ate , and slept till my

parents got home . Didnt bother them much , i continued sleeping on

the bed till the next morning which was today , i mean yesterday ,

which was Hari Raya Haji .. My sister woke me up to tell me that

my Simcard was taken away by my dad , while my laptop was taken

since the day I got home from the short runaway . So , that's that man .

Damn , I knew I shouldn't have panicked my way till how it brings my

feelings to this state . I miss my boyf so much , can't life be much

more faster ? I miss school and my friends man . It's like , my friends

are my family while my family is like my friends . I don't know man ..

All I want now is to hug my boyf now . Hahaha , been missing him

so much , the last time I met him was like , weeks back . Anyway ,

as per normal , I got to go , parents are waking up . Whose laptop

am I using ? My step sister's (: normally I use mine while she use

hers and we'll be in the net till morning man . HAHAH . Bye (:

Friday, November 27, 2009 3:37 PM

Please Take Note .

Babes and Dudes ,

Do not contact me for the moment , because my

dad confiscated my laptop & my simcard , after

the 'short ruaway' with Sya . Hahaha :D

i'll update the story once everything's okay .

Yours Untruly ,Yana Smallbie

Wednesday, November 25, 2009 9:53 AM

Ten Month Anni .

HELLO ! :D Haven't sleep . Thon with Bobo , Sya & Boii Kid . Halfway ,i called Ayu , just wanna have a little chat with him , then Bobo wanna talk with him , so i passmy phone to him . We laughed and laughed and laughed , then suddenly things got serioustill batang all kluar, both wanna turon tempat each other lah what lah . Fuck sia . Then ,because of a small matter , they make it big . Then , halway i took the phone from Bobo ,then i told my boyf not to come down and he kept on insisting to come down here . I gotfucked up , then i told him " u nak tron then break ." Sial uh , i didn't know why i suddenlymentioned that 'break' sial .. Then , he said " i nak tron jgk , break pon break uhk ." Well ,something like it lah . Then , i straight away put down the phone . He texted me , and ididn't feel the vibration in my pocket , so i didn't reply . Then , he called back but i rejected .He texted me to call him , so i called . He asked me why did i hang up the phone , i was like ...then i told him that i accidentally hung up the call . Then , blablabla , after a few talk , cried .He wanna talk to Sya , so i passed the phone to her and went crazy , like putting my shorts down,and wear it back but the other way round -.- then , i showed Bobo and Kid , then i went back downstairs and wear back the shorts properly but all the way up above my waistand be krazyyyyy . Hahaha , then i went to Bobo and Kid again , had a talk with them ..Got bullied by Bobo , then halfway , Sya told me that Ayu wanna talk to me , i was like ,struggling myself to the phone , like i dropped my phone from storey 41 and reaching for thephone so much kind of thing . Then , Bobo let me go , by the time i got my ears to the phone ,he hang up . Then i called him back , he didn't answer . Then i didn't feel the vibration .. i feltvibration , i checked my phone , and i've 3 missed calls and a message , so i read themessage first , he said not to call him back . Then , i checked the missed calls , from him . Icalled him back la , then i said " U bilang i takmo call , tapi u call i jugak .. " he said " oh , tertekan ."jyah right . tertekan .. heard that loads and multiple of times . Then he wanted to put down ,i told him not to put down because i wanna talk to him .. So i asked why he put down the phone ,before i get to say bye and stuff .. BLABLABLABLA ( Just to make it short . )

Just got home from lepaking with Sya and adek at blk 5 here . After while lepaking , oryou could say slacking , my dad called me . I though it was a text message so ipress the centre button , and ooops 'i terangkat his call' . I quickly rejected the call .He called me again , and i didn't answer for like 6 times , i rushed home , and use the housephone to call him . Phew ! He will be home soon , he told me to siapsiap because he'llbe fetching me to Sembawang to visit my nyayi . CLOSECALL , seriously man , i couldget killed with by the stupid phone . Okay , no link xio .

From this ,

to this ,

Okay , i got to go , rush off to meet Sya again , fast game yo ! bye !

2:29 PM

Girls Go Wild at Justin Bieber Mall Event; 5 Injured, 1 Arrested .

New York police shut down a mall appearance by teen pop singerJustin Bieber after thousands of young girls showed up and got a little too wild. Nassau County police say girls and adults in the crowd of nearly 3,000 started pushing and shoving as they waited for the 15-year-old sensation to arrive Friday at the Roosevelt Field Mall in Garden City.

But Bieber never made it into the building. He told WBLI radio that police turned him away and even "threatened to arrest my mom and I."

Five people were taken to hospitals with minor injuries and police arrested a vice president from Bieber's record label, Island Def Jam Records. They say he wasn't cooperating with attempts to disperse the crowd.

Some fans had camped out overnight for the event. Many had cameras with them ... here's one particularly polished fan video:

I miss my Dumbdumb , haven't been contacting him , i don't know why i simply felt uneasyfor me to get my phone and just text him . Recently , i commented him a big HELLO tohim on Tagged , he was online by the way , as in on Tagged . I waited and waited -.- he didn'treply back to me .

Damn i miss school so much . Haven't bought school books yet . I don't have the booklistanyway , why ? because i didn't attend the last day of school , hahaha . Eversince holiday striked ,i hadn't been going out w my friends , gotta stay home stucked up w all of th stupid crapsof nagging from my mum and stuff . Man ! when will she even ignore my ass off man .. She'stearing me off the shit man , and i'm still doing the 'man' thing man .. Shitos , whatever ..

Never thought i would keep in touch with this dog again till this day . Logged in to Tagged ,checked my messages , and there he is .. I though he has moved on or something , but yethe's still asking me to have it w him again . He even gave me his new number , c'mon man ,i ain't his toy made up of plastic man , i'm made up of blood , skin and bones .

I hate it when my ears just got pissed off by this spoiled earpiece , get it ? i'm lazy to repair ,this crappy earpiece , you gotta cut , glue it and tape it back . I wanna buy a new pair :D

Saturday, November 21, 2009 11:34 AM

Hey hey (: i'm all brightly awake here ! hahah , didn't had a wink of sleepagain :D camwhored with my sister early in the 3am . After that , bluetooth thephotos to my laptop , at about six in the morning , woke my parents up , eyesstill on the screen on the laptop . After parents and brother got out of the house ,my sister do the tuning of music ! after some of blablabla , suddenly i screamedlike as if i'm dying on that second kind of thing , nah , i screamed cos i needapee . hahahah ! i was like *screammmmmm* *smile* & i laughed , " i wannapeeeeeee !" HAHAHA . Okay , i'm super boredddd :B heeh , i miss my boyf .damn ! i never get tired of saying these kinds of stuff :D

And oh am gee , i'm addicted to watchingBen 10mannnnn . HAH , its superaddictive to me , i think ? speaker of 'addictive' , i hadn't been doing anystudies lately during the holidays , not even a bit . I'm always up with the laptoptill morning man , and i just can't stop saying the 'man' maannn ! xDokay , i'm krazy dude (: at least i didn't use the 'man' thing for the 'dude' right ?LOL , okay , what the hell is my point here ?!Oh yea , my point here is i'm just updating (:Okay , and i wanna continue watchingBEN 10 .

Friday, November 20, 2009 3:05 AM

That Singapore .

Not bad for a Singaporean , i didn't know they would get the shit up on YouTube man .Keep it up guys , you can do much better there . Loving the editing though (: && I'mnot admiring the ones who teckto like they're in 'no mood' kind of thing -.- might as welldon't teckto . Damn ! Singapore rocks my shit . Hahaha .

Anyway , here here . My baby boy got his prepaid back on ! i know , right ? LOL , andI'm so looking forward to that stupid asshole New Moon :B Justin Bieber is hot . Okay ,random . Now that Ayu's prepaid is available , we texted like , for a few minutesand we're done . OKAY , i seriously don't like to end messages shortly .Like those kinds of 'okay' , 'hahaha' , 'eaten?' ,'i don't know' , 'k' , and all of those !I simply don't like it , it's like wasting money kind of thing , might as well don't msg -.-BOREDOM . boredom . Boredom . BoReDoM . get it ? bored :DBye , i'm going off to Facebook's games again , till five , i'm off to sleep .Nights to all .

Thursday, November 19, 2009 5:35 AM

the post for november nineteen (:

Phew ! Stupid codes , i've just finished doing my blog skin . Therewas some problem of which the posts was all on the left on the window ,i was like OH MYGOD . Then , i re-do it again and again , step by step ,and at last i got it . It kinda looked like Mira's old one , but , i'm gonna change somecolours later on . I'm sleepy man . Hahaha ! Tired tired , and STUPID ALARMCLOCKS are ringing like motha-focks . I've updated my songs too (: it took me forfour hours man ! well , at the same time i was watching this horror movie on tv , hahaha .SUPER SCARRYY , really . 2012 rocks , i watched it like twice already . Hahahah !if you didn't know . Yea , i miss school . Uh , no no no no , let me rephrase that part ,i miss my old life ! jyeah man . I miss my boyf ): and my dumbdumb , and dumbdumb isnot my boyf -.- i repeat that , he is not my boyf , he's my dumbdumb :D

Okay , got to wake my parents up now .Gooodmorning to you and goodnight to me !Love love , hugs and slaps (:

BOO ! come on , pretend to be shocked of it . Hahaha , i've finished editing Don's blog :D Kind of funny , cos he doesnt really understand the scripts of the blog code . I was laughing my way while asking him for the music code thing , :D anyway , got to know him from Tagged , not long ago .

Woke up at 10pm yesterday , continued resting till my parents got home . While resting , i kept on thinking about Ayu ): Baby ! i miss you . His prepaid finish already . So , can't contact him and gotta wait till he topup . Had dinner after that , and played game on phone . Then , got bored , i got myself on the laptop ! :B Now , i'm gonna sleep . I'll update songs tomorrow , i mean later (:

Argh ! god damn it . I'm waking up my parents now , i feel like calling in the Tsunami to come and drag them to the bathroom now . Hhahah :D Okay okay , i'm gonna shut down now . Loves loves .

Tuesday, November 17, 2009 9:57 AM

Hey , i'm still awake since yesterday -.- i got carried away by facebook's games . hahah :D can't belive it . sigh . Bobo asked me to slack with him , and i kept rejecting , i just don't have the mood to slack , he called me and kept on asking to slack outside my house here , but naah . I'm too lazy to step out of this house .DAMN , my stupid mother wants her phone back . shyt to her , i wish i never had a mother like her , who cares about her god-damned phone anyway ? it's so cheap , i could get $70 for a second hand , can't even use the camera cos its lense got scratches , videos can't even be played only audios . I hate her -.-

Who cares about my mother anyway ?.. I'm me , when i'm a mother , i know how to deal it , because having a sister is like having your own :D really , well my mum always wants me to take care of her during holidays -.- Okay , whatever it is , i'm going to sleep . Oh ya , above is a video of my sister making her so called ' music video ' . Hhahah , kinda funny , watch (:

The only thing i could hear was the scream of cries in my heart . " I give up , she won't change . I dont care already . Maybe i'm sending her back to her mum ." That was the only thing i heard . My step-mum , my dad & i waited for our time to get in the theatre for 2012 . I was hearing muxic , had the earpiece stuffed up in my ears , i paused .. and heard my dad's talking , he thought i was still playing the muxic .

-- There's more , i dont wanna go on .. i read it again and again , i cried . I'm always having these kinds of msgs from my one and only MAMA MONSTER . She make me hate her more & more . Ayu didnt know how much it hurts me to be reading these kinds of msgs every week . Told Ayu to imaginate himself into me , i forward all of the msgs . I shouldnt have sent it to him . It hurts him too , he is my happiness and you're killing it ?! My mum doesnt even know me anymore and so do my dad !! I've been thinking of running away again , nobody even love me . My dad once told me that friends are not important , he asked me to choose between education and friends . i was like , of cos he was expecting 'education' to be its answer . I miss Ayu more than ever now , kept on thinking about him since morning . Anw , i'm kinda tired . I wanna sleap . Nights && goodmorning .

Got home after meeting Ayu , farid & Hanafi . Mum asked to go for the movies , i rushed downstairs to shop for the Straits Time to check out movies . 2012 was on 8.30pm & 9.50pm . My grandma , my mum , my uncle & i walked to Tiong . 8.30's seats are RIGHT infront , so we took the 9.50pm show , my dad wont be fetching me home then . We went to spend our time at kfc . Took pictures and ate . Went to the movies as per normal , end of show , went home .. 12.45am we reached home , she asked " Eh , what's wrong with your neck ?? " i was like , oh motha forker biatch , she saw the biteson my neck . Sat down , she lecture me till 4.50am . She read my messages and stuff then told me " i don't think you deserve the Dover key . " i was like , FUCK UH . I got angry , and pissed off , i get the key and throw it to her and sat at the living room . Mum told me " eh , come here , i haven't finish talking to you yet ." uh , what the hell . Super boring there , which is one of the reason why i don't wanna stay there . But she's right , Ayu isn't my husband for me to share this and that with him . My mum told my dad about it uh , she like , wants the whole globe of Earth to know -.-

Yana : (03:19pm)I want you , but i can't have it . So , i can't doanything , i want to stay dover , cos i can goschool early and i can study there . Now my mumdoesnt trust me , then everything gone uh .

The four lovebites arent anything actually . Farid and Ayu was playing a game , both roll the dice one at a time and who gets lesser , will have to do a forfeit . Here's Ayu's forfeit .. i think , well yea ..

Hey hey (= How are things ? hmm .. eversince holiday striked , my life's like ' Here comes the start of a miseryyyyy ' kinda thing . Been having a hard time to get out of this house during holidays y'know . I've been busy with .. uhhh .. uuuhhhh .. i've no idea what was i busy with , i'm kinda lazy for updating and stuff =D Anyways , here's another quick update .

Adam came back from Port. already (: i know you know he dont know or maybe he does , HAHAHAHA ! okay , that's super lame Maryana , anw .. yea , he came back , like yesterday . I was screaming my head out when i read Musa's message saying Adam will be in spore the next day , which was the day before yesterday . Yes .

Luck for money just isnt by my side -.- no moneyyyyy ): sad case ayy . I've been going back to Bukit Merah alot of times till my ez-link left with like $2/+ . Uh , damn it .