You keep me writing.

I cannot thank the readers of this blog too profoundly, without your support I would have given up writing several months, if not years ago as my e-books are not selling.I used to believe I was a good writer, but my view has changed in the last three years as the sales dried up, despite my attempt to boost them by adding a variety of genres to my catalog.

My problem is that the sales were the only guide to how I could value my work as reading a free blog isn't an accurate guide in my opinion. I often had this discussion with my former-friend, Julia Petrakis, she would have said: "If your writing weren't interesting, people would not read it."My response is "People will read almost anything if it's free, go into a doctor's surgery and see how many people are reading a magazine that is months/ years old because it is free." Another response could be "If my writing is that interesting, why don't people buy some of my e-books?"

I sell more in Germany than in the UK.

Added stress is taking a toll on me.

I am struggling to cope with the added stress that is mounting in my life, and today it took another leap when I blacked out for several minutes in our lounge.All I did was take a rest for my aching knees, and the next thing I saw was a flash, and then I fell onto our couch.

My spells of "blacking out" are getting more frequent, and my knees are so weakened by fall in June that often I need to find a support before I have an accident.

I do have a paperback edition of the book on the post; thought the book is now only available as an e-book.

I paid the high price for not following the trends.

Ten years ago, I said I'd rather fail for being myself than succeed by following the trends in writing. I have failed, but at the same time, I stayed true to my beliefs and never followed the trends. Never did I consider following a pattern, not even now when I think of writing trashy romances as the final straw, for I will still be my voice.​I have had plenty of time to second guess my actions, but the bottom line is that as an unknown writer I had no chance of success without the money for promotion, and being in the UK is also a major drawback to success.

Years ago when was starting out as a writer, I was told by a tutor from Writers Bureau that my stories would not sell, I thought he should know as he'd been pushing his story for over 20 years and getting nowhere. He also told me that the US science fiction market was the hardest to sell in; I have to admit I did agree with him when I checked the Barnes & Noble site. I thought with them selling to universities and higher education establishments that it would be almost impossible to sell my e-books; I could not have been more wrong as the US science fiction market is the only place my books have sold in quantity.

In remembrance

I have often considered if I will get remembered after I die?How will people recall me?A man of honor who stood for what he believed even if it brought him ridicule and scorn?A reasonable person who tried to do his best for others, even if it wasn't appreciated?An honest person who spoke the truth?

The writer of a bestselling science series called Forgestriker?The award-winning writer of The Chronicles of Mark Johnson?

How do I see myself?A truthful man, people often didn't like what I said, but often the truth hurts.As a failed writer because though I won the award, the book never sold after winning the award.

If I was to tell you what I think my legacy is it would be to say that I was a writer who chose not to jump on the current trends, and paid the price by not selling his work and turning down the only offer he got offered in ten years - www.alsdominion.co.uk/the-reading-room/i-lost-my-moment.

The bottom line for my legacy should read he was a fool because he thought his kindness would be appreciated in a Godless world.

Unknown depths of depravity

I am resigned to writing on my blog until September when the payment needs to renewed who knows what I will be writing, or who cares to what depths of depravity I will plummet?

I did start an adult version of Snow White several years ago, and this week I found I had the cover still on file, so how about Snow White and the seven dwarves in an orgy?

I also got sent some erotic downloads for supporting a GoFundMe scheme from a Polish photographer, the young ladies in the shots are not always entirely, or partially clothed; for my taste, most of the girls are too young and slender, but then I am not writing to my taste but what will get read.

Though I have the photos to write sexy stories, and the ability to entertain the readers with them, I won't be going there, not because it appalls me to write sexual stories, nor because I would consider it not a thing for a Christian writer to write. The only reason is that I haven't the urge to write a story anymore.

There is an adage that says if March comes in like a lamb, it will go out like a lion; this means if the month starts with nice weather beware for bad weather may well be ahead, and the adage ends with words to the opposite meaning if the start is rainy and wet it will be over by the end of the month.

Why do the need our money?

As Parliament goes into talks on Brexit, I'd like to know how they can send money to countries such as India and Syria who last year spent millions of pounds on space projects and weapons of mass destruction, yet claim to be unable to feed their people?

I know this is true as I used to subscribe to Israel Today magazinewww.israeltoday.co.il/, and there are not many issues when the topic did not get mentioned.

An example of typically misleading is the headline that caught the world's ire is Israel cuts power to Gaza!At face value, that is reads a vile act by Israel; however, if you read the news they had to cut the power because the Palestinians were not paying the bills as they had told the Israelis they would do. What business can run at a loss of over $11,000 a month? That is what the PA should have been paying instead of buying missiles and bombs.

If the government wishes to do a Christian act, with the money saved from Brexit, they could give the Armed Forces, Nursing staff and the Police a living wage, and they could help the millions in the UK living on the streets, relying on charity, or living below the poverty line.The best way to do a Christian Aid act is to leave the EU as all we are doing in supporting the decline of the German Federation; everything the EU does is to the benefit of Germany this includes the founding of the EU army.Let's not pull our punches, if there is a war, would you trust your longest-standing enemies to guard our troops? I wouldn't. This is of course assuming the war - if it comes - is land based, not a nuclear war in which case you can have all the troops you want, it won't do you any good as the land will devastated for almost a century after the war.

Germany is in the same frame of mind as Jeremy Corbyn- www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/jeremy-corbyn-the-rat - in thinking that Russia is the enemy, this hasn't been the case since the late 1970's; the enemy is Syria​.When I was in the RAF, the Russians used to send planes over only to test our reaction, the following month we'd do the same; it was no more than a friendly exercise, too many Russians still recall the horrors of WW2.

It is all on my blog.

Next month, I shall hopefully complete The Reunion this is the sequel to my romance A Homecoming that is set in Israel.

One contest I have to chose how to close is how, if at all, will I bring several stories to a close in my section - www.alsdominion.co.uk/the-reading-room - if I thought the readers cared, I could write a pleasant ending, but do you care?

Another writing contest I am involved in is I keep trying to convince, unsuccessfully, that if I hang on my fortunes will change. But after three barren years, I don't believe that will happen.

Not a lot of writing.

At first glance, the release of four e-books in two months appears to be contrary to my resolution of writing less this year, but it isn't. These stories have been in the editing stage for several months, and their release came about together because I decided they had reached the release stage - I could have gone further with the stories, but I have done that before to my detriment.

Other than God Walks These Dark Hills and Why me, Lord?Mordhiemicus which are on sale now, and The Reunion which I may bring out this month all my other work will only be these web pages until October when I will stop blogging.

Update - The Reunion will not be going for sale as the original story ( A Homecoming) has not sold in over a year on sale.