Tuesday, September 27, 2016

It was time for another enlightening talk by Alfried Längle held at Vancouver’s St. Paul’s hospital and this
time around he was going to share with us his insights on aggression. The
questions that were on my mind were what causes aggression and how can it be
best dealt with. And Längle, whom I have affectionately nicknamed the Dalai
Lama of psychotherapy, would naturally provide the answers to both of my
questions.

He started off with the quotable phrase that we are
happier than we think and that, contrary to many people’s opinions, the
environment alone cannot give you happiness. You can be staying at a beautiful
tropical island or living in a mansion but if your mind is not at ease, you
will not enjoy it at all.

The most important key to happiness is an inner yes. That
means that we are in tune or in agreement with what is happening around us. If
you like the job you have and you give yourself to it whole-heartedly, then you
are content and at peace. If you love the person you are with, you say yes to
him or her, then you are happy and enjoy your relationship.

The problem is when there is no inner yes to either
yourself or towards your outer situation, i.e. the world around you. In fact,
suffering, an avoidable and generally unpleasant aspect of life, cannot and
should not on its own destroy your inner fulfillment. People who accept
themselves and are in tune with who they are and what they are doing will find
ways to deal with upsetting events.

We know that we cannot escape them and must deal with
suffering as we are subjects of time, both physically and psychologically. Life
is a constant flow, which means that we cannot stop or block it but must go
with it and the best we can do is to harmonize with the ebbs and flows of time.

We are living entities that travel through spacetime and
must eat and work and deal with reality; at the same time, we can also see life
as a challenge and an opportunity to discover ourselves, to find out what moves
and touches us and what we like and dislike. It is a constant journey of
self-discovery.

For my whole existence, I have to be me and cannot be
anybody else. I cannot be divorced from myself but need to be aware of myself,
of the person I am here and now. If you are outside of yourself or if you feel
that you cannot develop or discover yourself, then you basically “lose”
yourself.

This means that you will feel alienated, feel outside of
yourself. If you are not the productive author of something special in your
life, you may feel continuous suffering and get depressed. But if you have
something valuable in your life, that could be your work, a child or any
project that excites you, then you will experience a valuable context around
you and most likely feel connected with others and the things that surround you.

For example, some people may see forms of activism as a
meaning-filling activity. The fact that they are contributing to some positive
change, for instance, helping to preserve the environment, will give them a
necessary boost; they are doing what they care about most and they approve of
their own actions.

To my knowledge, and for better or worse, money on its
own cannot give us that type of self-satisfaction unless it is tied to a way of
sharing it with others or helping those who are less fortunate. This may a
reason why there are many (but still not enough!) philanthropists among the
wealthy, such as Bill Gates and Warren Buffet, to name a few.

All of this preamble leads to one of the main sources and
causes of aggression, which is rejection. This means that for whatever reason I
do not give consent to that which surrounds me; I may feel and perceive to be
trapped in a hostile environment or in an unfulfilling job or relationship and
that causes overwhelming stress. I may either reject parts of myself or feel
rejected by others or by society in general; either way it is a frustrating
experience.

This leads to psycho-dynamic reactions. In moments of
stress, we may revert towards older, more primitive, manners of coping with
difficult situations. In terms of evolution, our animal instincts dealing with
survival of the species may kick in and take over the more refined and
developed parts of our selves, the moral and ethical dimensions.

This old way of animalistic information processing has
the function of preserving life and is less interested in ethics. It is a
psychic dimension, a world of impulses, that at its forefront wants to reduce
pain. Sometimes we believe that we need to avoid or confront the pain in order to
preserve our species or our well-being.

Avoidance is a form of not being exposed to dangers, and
we may find temporary relief in escaping a troublesome situation. In some
cases, we may rationalize it and we may not even fully gauge or understand the
consequences of this kind of behavior, but in either case, it cannot be a
permanent or viable solution to a problem.

To give an example, let’s say we have not studied
sufficiently or simply have difficulty understanding a subject and we choose
not to go to the exam. This type of avoidance will, of course, come and haunt
us in the form of a bad grade and possibly lead towards failing the whole
course.

Another way of coping with stressors may be fighting
against it and becoming hyperactive. In this case, we do more than we need to because
we feel insecure about the situation. We may study nonstop, we may review our
notes constantly and even “overlearn” for an exam. At least in this situation
we are doing something, but the problem is that we are doing too much and that
in itself can cause us stress; albeit the end effect, a possible good grade,
might reward us, at least to some degree.

Now the problem is when the first types of coping do not
resolve the issue. This can lead to aggression, which is the highest form of
activation and it can bring the situation to a boiling point. Aggression is an
automatic protective reaction that uses high levels of energy and gives us
momentum, especially when we sense that the lower levels did not work.

Interestingly, and I must say to my own surprise, Längle
believes that aggression is not a drive. A drive is like an itch that, when
satisfied, produces good feeling. Both food and sex fall into this category as
we generally derive pleasure from engaging in those activities, but aggression
does not produce good feelings on its own.

In fact, aggression is not really part of our natural
make-up; it is more a reaction, a response to a stimulus. And more often than
not, that same stimulus stems from feelings of social rejection, of being
rejected by others. This stimulus is similar to physical pain, and in fact, it
triggers the same parts of the brain. Social rejection is akin to suffering
physical pain!

Not belonging to a group or being excluded or perceived
as an outcast makes us sick, especially when this cannot be communicated to
others. This situation may trigger disgust in us and our body feels violated as
if we had taken in some poison. As a result, our blood pressure rises and we
feel not only depressed but it can be transformed to feeling hurt and wanting
to lash out at others because of it.

The aggressive act is not because of pleasure but rather
serves as a misguided means to protect oneself. Part of the rejected person
feels threatened and they may resolve to an aggressive act in order to salvage
that threatened part. We see these acts of violence, for example, in crimes of
passion. The slighted person feels that he or she cannot exist in peace while
the other is still there and they believe that killing that person, the
perceived threat, could alleviate the pain.

The same can be applied to school shooters as the
majority of them either have experienced significant loss or defeat, or they
have been hurt, or they have suicidal thoughts. Suicide is aggression that is
turned inward against the self, and paradoxically, we may think that killing
oneself may solve the issue and save the threatened self. In either case, the
threat is perceived as not letting us be.

Hence, the question is and remains to be or not to be,
and in many situations it may boil down to either you or me! If your being does
not allow my being to exist, I must destroy you. This sense of intense
powerlessness may create the desire to run down the threat, to eliminate it
once and for all.

If it does not turn to hate, then it will turn to
anxiety. Hate is a cold-blooded lifeless thing, a pale face that is destructive
and is very dangerous. However, anger or fury is alive; it is full of blood and
movement, and it is not necessarily bad if it can be tamed and handled or
re-channeled towards more productive measures.

In rage, one has a red head and one wants to shake the
other. Rage is loud and trembling and it searches for relationship. It has
reached a point where it cannot resolve itself through words or communication
anymore. It can lead to marking one’s space while desperately trying to be who
one is.

This can occur because one feels trapped or forced and is
trying hard to do something about the stifling situation or circumstances. One
has the aim of wanting to be seen and heard. All this stems from the perception
of deeply felt injustice; at the same time one is defiant and will not accept being
treated in such a way. It is when we want to show others that they are wrong or
we want to find ways of redressing or punishing the injustice.

At this stage, we are vengeful and want others to learn a
lesson, and in some cases, we may wish to hurt them. But if it is turned
inward, it may lead to self accusations. You feel that you are not taken
seriously or overlooked. This can make you either depressed or can motivate you
to confront it.

As you want to be yourself and be respected and valued by
others, you feel hurt. It is wounding us and when we cannot resolve it, we
become aggressive. This may be manifested in “playful” aggression in the form
of cynicism, sarcasm or even vandalism.

One feels meaninglessness and emptiness
and may want to destroy the context. For example, by doing acts of vandalism,
by scratching people’s cars, by damaging or destroying things or property, one
feels partly validated and believes that one has at least restored a little bit
of justice in an utterly unjust world.

This sentiment can then be carried even further when
people thrive on creating more confusion and chaos in the world and may even
engage in bullying and torturing victims. All of this is an expression of the
painful feeling of meaninglessness; it is a kind of crying out for help.

The cynic, for instance, says something but actually
means the opposite and does so not only to get a point across but to draw
attention to themselves. With sarcasm, the speaker uses cutting humor and
biting derision because there are things they find not only hard to accept in
and about the world but they also try to protect themselves from such perceived
threats.

As a rule, any type of violence, from the seemingly
benign to the overtly aggressive kind is inherently selfish; one’s self
interest is more important than others and one may be even inconsiderate of the
damage that one causes with one’s behavior. Yet the driving force of it all is
protection, a protection for survival and it is seen as a desperate coping
mechanism to deal with anxieties and uncertainties.

As Längle pointed out, the problem is not the aggression
itself, but rather giving into that feeling in a blind and unseeing manner. Yet
using it in a seeing and understanding way, feelings of aggression can give us
insights into our lives and being. Aggression can then give us the capacity to
evaluate our inner self and come to a better life.

Yet we need to humanize aggression and not let it take
control of us. It has a hidden message that can help us understand and see
ourselves in a clearer light. But in order for this to happen, we must detoxify
it from its harmful potential and see it as a lesson to be learned and realize
its helping power.

The worst is to let it fester and become hatred. Hatred has
no saving grace or silver lining; it is inflexible, destructive, and damaging
both towards ourselves as well as others.

Monday, September 5, 2016

Yesterday, I had the pleasure of attending a concert
entitled “Lalun – Dreams from Andalusia and the Silk Road” at the Vancouver
Playhouse. I was intrigued by this musical ensemble as they advertised
themselves as a globe-trotting world music group that was influenced by music
from Europe, Asia and the Middle East.

The individual members and their instruments looked
equally eclectic; there was Liron Man who is originally from Israel but living in
Spain and he was playing hand pans (?) as well as Lan Tung from Taiwan / Canada
playing the erhu, a type of Chinese violin, and, last but not least, Canadian Jonathan Bernard on (various
types of) percussion.

I had a certain amount of expectations as I generally
enjoy and often listen to world music. Entering the concert room, my family and
I were lucky to find front-row seats. After a bi-lingual introduction (English
and Chinese) that included a seemingly endless list of sponsors, basically a
long string of Vancouver restaurants, banks, businesses and what-have-you, the
musicians took over the stage and wasted no words but jumped right into the music.

And I was immediately floored, meant in the best way
possible! Their music was astonishing from the very beginning. The hand pans
were basically strange-looking but beautiful sounding large bowls with apparent
holes in them. The Chinese violin had a wailing sound to it evoking dreams and
images of Asian landscapes. In fact, after hearing her play on the erhu I was
reminded of the handful of Asian movies (Raise
the Red Lantern (1991), In the Mood
for Love (2000), to name a few) I had seen and felt inspired and compelled
to watch more of them in the near future.

The percussion, which included hand drums and the
occasional cymbals thrown in for good measure, added an interesting rhythm to
the whole scene. Although I had initially thought that the band’s description was
a little bit far-fetched and exaggerated, I must say that even with the first
song, they covered more global terrain than I had expected.

This music in all its splendor also felt close to home. Being myself born in Iran, I felt there was a nod to Persian music, which was,
in fact, the case. But it was even more than that because the tunes and instruments
added different cultural hues to the whole undertaking. One of the odder choices, their final song of the day, ended up being a traditional Persian song,
translated into Chinese, that the erhu player was singing and playing to, but
again somehow and against the odds it actually worked.

The music was perfect fodder to my imagination and I could
picture it as soundtrack to various scenes of movies that were playing in my
mind. Yet, in addition to that, I felt a certain sense of peace and calm. I
attributed this to two different phenomena.

First, the music did not only have deep-seated roots and
foundations, but it was also played and presented with passion and love. It was
during this performance where I felt that the musicians were in various ways baring
their souls.

This feeling usually occurs when I am in the presence of
what I consider genuine art. In movies, literature or music, this means that I
am presented with something very special that deeply resonates within me. It
strikes chords in me and I feel that the work of art is not meant to merely
please and entertain, not meant to rake in profits and fame, but was rather a
type of personal expression or even confession, a desire that is deeply felt
and true to the heart.

As I was listening, I was mentally going through my own
art, my writing that I have created and longed that somebody somewhere would equally
feel the love and passion I have poured into it. To me that is the very essence
of art, to make others feel something profound, and I certainly felt that way
with this outstanding concert.

The second phenomenon was more related to the content,
the music and its colorful influences. Here we had a perfect blend of longstanding
cultures and traditions and it invoked that feeling of peacefulness to be one
in and with the world.

The traditions were woven into each other rather flawlessly
like a monumental mosaic and it showed us that despite conflicts, pain and suffering
we witness around the world, there is also a binding force, a unity expressed
through the soul of music that makes these worldly matters and issues
insignificant, divisive, and unnecessarily destructive.

I could not help thinking about the constant and
continuous conflicts in the Middle East, and I was aware of the fact that there
was an Israeli musician and composer who had managed to create a bond between
seemingly incompatible cultures of Jewish and Arab nations.

If only both sides could see their commonalities, the love
and beauty that was expressed through each of their musical heritage and their tonal
traditions and that together, they could indeed create something that surpassed
either side on its own, a thing of absolute intercultural beauty. I was reminded
of that dream while attending this concert.

In fact, about half way through, Liron Man, the hand pan musician
and composer commented on that very same idea of mine! He talked about his song
called “Tierra,” Spanish for land or home, and how it reflected a mixture of
different cultures, including Arabic as well as traditional Jewish music.

To my shock and surprise, the song ended with the traditional
folk song “Hava Nagila”, which is translated as “Let us rejoice”, a fitting and
uplifting ending to his song. Now I say “shock and surprise” because before the
concert had even begun I had what I deemed a rather silly and perhaps even stereotypical
idea that I should ask him to play “Hava Nagila” at some point. And here it was
embroidered into this cultural musical hotpot. It was as if they had read my
mind or I had read theirs, which either way was rather eerie (but again in a
good way).

This concert given by the multicultural band Lalun was
indeed a mind-blowing experience. The music itself was out of this world, but
to have it transport us like a magical carpet not only across thousands of
miles but through thousands of years of history is indeed indescribable.

These musicians
have traveled extensively and play music independently as well, but what I saw
and heard and felt in this one-hour-concert is rare and I very much encourage
all to experience it for themselves if given a chance.