Anna Nicole diary pages are revealed

Updated 10:00 pm, Wednesday, May 16, 2007

"Don't Read!! Personall," warns the diary's inside cover. But its author, Anna Nicole Smith, has no hold in death on the remnants of her life.

The public now can discover that she was delighted by rough sex, ecstatic over the prospect of plastic surgery for her breasts, and fearful of a jealous boyfriend. She was careless with spelling, punctuation, and, too often, with her own well-being.

The handwritten diary excerpts, released exclusively to The Associated Press, will be posted online at urauctions.com, said Thomas Riccio, a partner in Universal Rarities, an auction house.

"On an evening out with a boyfriend (identified only by his first name), Smith wrote (between early 1991 and 1992), that she got drunk and "asked a guy for his *."

Her boyfriend "came unglued. threw me out of his house & broke up with me it was awlful he hit me and my mother," she said.

The model and former Playboy Playmate, born Vickie Lynn Smith, was found dead Feb. 8 in Hollywood, Fla., of a toxic mix of prescription drugs.

One entry begins, "I'm a very sad person," and is illustrated by a weeping face. Smith goes on to write that "my mom hates me so much. She is so jealous of me. ... love my mom but I cant handle it anymore."

She posts intimate details of an active sex life in often-graphic language and includes descriptions of sadomasochistic acts. She rails against her boyfriend and, in the same scrawled entry, celebrates her upcoming breast surgery.

"I'm so excited I could scream. Ahhhhh I just feel so happy," Smith writes, although she later expresses worry about the imminent operation and how she'll look.

One of the more poignant passages deals with her shock at finding she's pregnant: "I'm so scared! How can this happen to me," she writes, adding that her boyfriend "will hate me. he don't want kid. Can't do it!"

She underlined the last phrase but there were no further details in the entry provided to AP.