Video games saved my life -

So it's March 28th, 2013, which means that I, Stabbings_, am over a months sober. This is a huge step in my life and I can't give video-games enough credit. I was shooting up heroin, meth, and cocaine almost daily (not all at once, except for one instance which I'll get into later). I thought quitting was going to be the biggest challenge, and ultimately impossible. Low and behold, I am still clean! Shortly after my near death overdose in February 2013 (Which was when I did an IV shot of a mixture of Meth, Cocaine, and Heroin all in one. Seems farfetched but I've been doing drugs since I was 15, I am 19 now. I have a large tolerance to all), I decided that was it. Enough was enough, and looked into recovery programs. Found a great one called 'Second Chance recovery' which not only offered Methadone maintenance, but also counselling. Sign me up! I did just that and boy has it ever worked.

This is where the video games part comes in. Now over the years I've owned around 4-PS3, 3-360s, 2-Wiis, 2/3-Nintendo DS, and 1-PSP. I sold all them for drug money. Which sucks because I've always loved video games, and sometimes I'd see a game and be like "Oh man, wish I didn't sell X console so I could play that!". But when I was getting started in the process of getting clean, I got my tax-returns, which was a decent about, being $382.70. After that it was clear what I was going to do, buy a PS3 and some games. I arrived at our local Best Buy and saw a white PS3 Super Slim, right then and there I nearly died of excitement. Ever since Sony announced the PS3, I wanted a white one. And for the longest time the only way you could obtain one was importing it from Japan. So when I saw it on the shelf, I flipped and immediately grabbed it. Also picked up Far Cry 3.

Now since then, that's all I've been putting my attention into (And looking for a job, too). It's really help keep my mind off doing drugs, and doing a damn fine job at doing it. When I have a $100 in my pocket, my first thought isn't 'Call XXX and pick up XXX', it's 'Hey I wonder what kind of deals EB Games has going on right now'. I am fully immersed in the online world of modern video-gaming. And I love it.

I don't see myself, or want to go back to the way I was. I like this version of me. Anyways, sorry for the wall of text. I was just thinking about this on my way home this afternoon and needed to get it out. Also, thanks for listening. It's been a blast on there forums already and I've already made a few friendships. This can only get better. Thank you guys so much.

; Stabbings_

PS; Sorry it's so long.

Last edited by Stabbings_; 03-29-2013 at 00:41.
Reason: Missed out on some details

No room for celebration yet. You will be tempted again by the wrong people so keep your head high and don't look back.

Yes yes, I have arranged so I won't be in contact with any of those people who will tempt me. My dealers # - Deleted, other dealers # - Deleted. Anyone who is involved with that sort of $#@! has been taken out of my life, and I know this is just the start to a long journey ahead of me, but I have great feelings about it. I know if I put my head to it, I can accomplish anything I desire. And I plan on being sober for a very long time, perhaps foever (No promises though, those things strike me as omens of sorts).

Anyways, thanks again guys for the support! It's wonderful to think that a tightly knitted community such as PSU would take me in so easily and be so supportive of what I do, already. It truly is nice to be here guys, thank you.

Thank you, Sir. I am seeing the joys of life without Opiates, and it's all so shocking for me. Some of the same feelings I used to get are replicated in real life! Never once did I ever think that was possible, otherwise I would have quit a long time ago.

Thanks again for all the support guys, it really feels good. I hope I can continue down this road of success and turn my otherwise bleak and hopeless outlook on life, to a nice, new and fresh outlook.

Last edited by Stabbings_; 03-29-2013 at 03:10.
Reason: Forgot a couple words.

Keep up the turnaround. I know it's difficult and it will never get easier but keep it up all the same. Also, change your own number so that there is no way to be back-traced by your former contacts and be sure to place yourself on the do not call list and make your number private as can be. Also, try to eat and drink healthy too as there are good foods that will improve your mind and body and help you to detox. Keep yourself occupied.

You want a medal for acting like the rest of us have and being decent citizen?

Not everyone is raised in the best of environments. You also have to take into account that everyone is different; they sometimes get led by the wrong peers and aren't strong enough to avoid such path. The best we can do is support them in their turnaround and hope that they live the rest of their lives for the better.

You want a medal for acting like the rest of us have and being decent citizen?

Nothing wrong with that, we don't know what he went through and the circumstances he was in. Some people do get addicted easier than others but that doesn't mean that we shouldn't encourage them to stay clean. This is his way to regain his confidence and come to terms with himself.