Thursday, August 27, 2009

This little pistol of a guy keeps me smiling and melting..He has my heart twisted in about 100 knots..Did I mention I love him? He is charming and funny and irresistible all mashed up into a 7 year old little boy. He's a dare devil and a fun seeker..Did I mention he's charming?

While at the zoo we were playing at the play ground and this man walks up holding and tickling his little girl. She was laughing and holding on to her daddies neck and they were having the best time. When below them Channie-Mae gets the mans attention and says."I have a daddy too."

He said "you do? I bet he loves you so much" and she smiled and said "yes he does"..and she goes on with her play...This daddy didn't look anything like her daddy. He had long hair and it was pulled back in a pony tail. He was dressed kinda like a hippy, but she recognized something in him that reminded her of her daddy. Was it his playfulness,the way he gently carried her with the ease of a giant? Was it the way that he was protecting her from going too far and playing just alittle too rough? Was it the memories of falling asleep in her daddies arms? I'm not sure but to me I'm thankful that she see's a kind gentle man and thinks of her own kind gentle father.

Watch out future husbands for this little girl. She has seen what a kind gentle man looks like and I'm sure she'll be watching you as well to see if she recognizes her daddy in you....

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Jo's first trip to the zoo. I know bad stinkin' mamma..but it cost 120.00 for this crew and well that's Alot!! But biting the zoo bullet we did and it was worth much more than what we paid...How much longer will I be able to take all my kids to the zoo together? Believe me I operate in this mode alot...able to stop and buy all them ice-cream,or pile up and watch yet another movie..You get the point..I see the years of having them all together few so I'm cramming....kinda like for a test but only for my heart..I saw so many first time or second time moms out there stressed (and I wanted to, but didn't say) "hey mama, slow it down sister." Nothing else matters as much as these incredible gifts before you...Time will go into warp speed somewhere along your journey not sure when it hit warp for me but I'm thankful it did..because I soak in my kids. I breathe in my kids and I would wrap myself around their little bodies if it wouldn't freak them out too bad...ok, I'm kidding...I used to worry that I didn't have enough time for myself and now I worry that one day I just might have only myself..except for the fact I have a wanna be cowboy who wears a straw hat better than anyone I have ever seen who, Lord willing will still be around and I'll just keep soaking him up..come to think of it we might be so old we won't have anything to soak up. Oh well, I'll blog about that when I can think about it without getting nauseated.So enjoy the pics of Jo's first day at the zoo and please slow down sisters and laugh more and play more.......

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Hands reaching into a dark box and pulling out fresh eggs. Eggs from your own chickens.

The yolk so yellow they look fake. Eggs so perfect they make ya want to cry with delight!The nest shared by many but they don't seem to mind to wait their turn. (Ok so I've never actually seen them stand in line but hey it sounded romantic in a chicken kinda way.)

Running free, bug eating, toe pecking, chickens....I wanna encourage you if you don't have any get SOME.....These little boogers will provide you

fresh delicious eggs and enough work for your kids to make them appreciate the finer things of life... :)

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Ya know it's true. When you've lost someone you live differently. You think differently.Things don't bother you as they did before because you know....

You know the beauty in the simple things. You know that God's ways are not our ways.

You know that life is a gift and nothing else matters..Life..living breathing before you. Don't take one look forgranted or one smile. I feel like I'm living out a life-long photo shoot with my gifts.I want to capture every moment with the gifts God has given to me.

The house, the noise, the fights, the whines don't bother me..They're music to my ears.

I am continuing to learn the lesson on being content and being happy no matter my circumstances.

I feel like sitting back and reading a book or two to these precious faces you see and enjoying the fact that I didn't get around to everything that needed done.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Heaven is perfect !!! All day we sing and dance at the feet of our Father.

I turn my flash light on at night so Cullen can look up and see me twinkling at him.

Tell him I hear his song that he sings.Twinkle Twinkle little star

I hear Channie's prayers at supper and tell her

I'm thankful as well that Jesus took me to heaven. I know that it's hard to understand from where you sit but if you could see me here you would be happy for me..

Mommy don't cry for me..I see you when at night your heart is so heavy with questions and you wonder and you cry but I'm good here and although we're apart one day we will be together again. I'm just here first..I'm running and playing and watching over you my Mommy.

I heard a secret the other day. I heard the Lord telling a little baby that he was going to be sent to you. The cutest baby you have ever seen. Skin so soft, and the biggest brown eyes you have ever seen. I whispered love into the babies ears and told the baby to give you Mommy a great big hug from me. I told the baby that you would sing to him and rub him and pull open

the curtains and let the sun shine through till you felt warm and toasty.

The baby can't wait to meet you. Know that my love is wrapped around this gift that the Lord will send you.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

I hesitate to get excited. I know that part of trusting the Lord is trusting His timing and sometimes His timing is not our own.We continue to live this out first hand.For the past two months or so we have been getting together more paper work for our adoption agency. (If you have never adopted it should be illegal at how many hoops you have to jump through) paper work hoops that is.We have also added an agency to help us find the perfect baby for our family. We have been in hold mode for at least a month now because of some paper work that didn't get sent out.I got an email yesterday that confirmed we were ready our paper work came in..a few weeks earlier than expected..Thank you Lord.I called our 2nd adoption agency and told her and she was VERY excited.. She told me to get our paper work to her asap and then she would go through it and make sure we have everything and she would contact us very soon for several situations coming up.

I hesitate..My heart hesitates.....My thoughts do not...I find myself wondering off into baby land..Wondering if in fact we'll be chosen by a birth-mom and then at the last moment be told no..Is there a danger that this could happen.Yeah!So my heart screams No..don't do this....Don't let yourself get hurt, don't let your kids get hurt.But....The Lord reminds me that his plans are not my plans..and that I can trust Him.

Could there be a baby in our near future?I pray with confidence but I come before my Father with a bruised and battered heart and say "not my will but Your will be done"

Please pray with us and for us that the perfect addition to this crazy family will soon be found..

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Around our house we hug, wrestle, and snuggle all the time...You could at any time finda few of us piled up watching a movie or the kids might be wrestling. With 4 boys 5 if you count my hubby there's always a wrestling match somewhere in the house.

My kids are very loving and I believe in large part it's due to the fact that Scott and I are extremely touchy toward them and each other:)

Scott is a very loving husband and father and I'm a natural hugger so it's rubbed off...

I love watching them two or three on one couch watching a movie feet tangled up like

a mess. Each has such a small little space but they don't seem to mind.

I'm so thankful that Scott is a dad that takes time to 'play'. I'm thankful that his job is one

that he can go to and then come home and doesn't have to think about it again.

I'm glad he likes to read to us..The night before last he read us our new book until everyone including me was asleep..

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"Normal day, let me be aware of the treasure you are. Let me learn from you, love you, bless you before you depart. Let me not pass you by in quest of some rare and perfect tomorrow. Let me hold you while I may, for it may not always be so. One day, I shall dig my nails into the earth, or bury my face in the pillow, or stretch myself taut, or raise my hands to the sky and want, more than all the world, your return."