Tuesday, April 10, 2012

My Creative Spirit Took A Break

From the beginning I've wanted this blog to be a happy place for visitors as well as myself. I've tried to keep the content focused on playhouses but have wandered a bit from time to time. For the most part I think this is a place of inspiration and joy. The last few post have been far and few in between, and I feel the need to do a little explaining. It was not my plan to just disappear for months at a time. I have always enjoyed the blog and regardless of what kind of mood I'm in, after doing a post on a playhouse, I'm always happier. Over the last few months I have had no energy, and I mean none. What little I had was used on feeding and taking care of my two little boys. I am so thankful for my wonderful husband who has gone to work and taken care of almost everything at home for the last several months. After sixteen weeks of a very difficult pregnancy, I had a miscarriage. The baby girl had down syndrome along with other problems, and we knew for the last few weeks that she would not make it. I have been very hesitant to share this information, but I know many families have experienced similar situations. I don't want to go into much more detail than this, but I would like to talk about an unexpected side effect.

I have never had my creative spirit just go away. It may sound silly, but it's a part of who I am and how I think. At one point I recognized it's absence, and even wondered if it was gone for good. Looking back I honestly believe my body was just too tired and sick to do anything that wasn't necessary. I am beginning to feel like myself again and can't wait to get started on a few new projects! It's good to be back!

I wish I could take credit for the tepee above, but it was just a pleasant surprise we stumbled upon at the park in our neighborhood.

I am late to reading this post but want to send some love and light your way. Hugs to you and your whole family. Grief lasts awhile, I'm sure you know, so go easy on yourself for as long as necessary--maybe even longer than you think is necessary! I like to believe that someday you will meet your little one again in spirit or in heaven. :)