Heartbeat: Calling Others to Life by Sharing our Struggles

My heart is burdened for you

but you don’t believe my words to be true
Up until now, my words have been few
I haven’t said much to you
But my heart is broken
yet I’ve left words unspoken
I’m sorry!

Please believe me! Listen… this is my heartbeat!
My spirit is heavy when I hear your name
My heart screams, “this isn’t a game!!”
This life is not about fun
You can’t just up and run

Running, running, won’t you ever stop?
What happens when you get to the top?
Sweat dripping down your face
Like a never-ending race
But now all of a sudden there is no where to go
Only the rocks below

“STOP!
You’re gonna fall down!”

But it’s too late… You’re falling to the ground
You didn’t hear me… or did I not speak?
You didn’t want to come near me…. And I was weak
I’m so sorry… so very sorry… but now …. Listen to my heartbeat
My heart beats because I’m still alive….
But I didn’t tell you that I almost didn’t survive

Come. Look a little closer
My life is not perfect like a poster
Look. I have scars.
I’ve hidden them well because the pain is too deep, too far
To far inside of me
So I didn’t let you see
But I almost died too!

I got so caught up in running away
That I had to pay
I fell down the rocks
Yet when you look down the block
You think that I don’t even care
That I wouldn’t understand
You think that I would demand

I’m sorry. Listen. Here is my heart beat.

You are rolling, rolling, and pretty soon you’ll be at the bottom
Hurting so bad you can’t even call ‘em
You can’t reach out for help
So broken you can’t even welp
Laying with blood everywhere
And no one really cares.
Or so you think.
I’ve been there.

So messed up that to even myself I was unrecognizable
Face swollen- more than sizable
Ribs broken, piercing through
My breathes were few
Gasping for air….
“DOES ANYONE CARE!?”
Yep I was there…

When I was lying in my blood
Alone in the mud…
I heard “live!”

I couldn’t understand…. “Live!”

I didn’t understand the whisper in me…
I was slowly dying, but still I heard “LIVE!”
What is this word?! Why is someone speaking life?
Yet I couldn’t get rid of it…

Louder and louder the voice spoke words unfamiliar “LIVE!!!!”
LOUDER and LOUDER until I could deny it no longer!
“LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!”

It was Jesus….

He gave me life, said “Live!”
and “I forgive”

Listen! Do you hear my heart beat? Do you hear it!?!
I am alive ONLY because my Savior gave me life.
I’d still be squirming in my blood if I didn’t accept His LOVE.
Tonight my heart beats fast
I don’t know how much longer you will last!
Listen, I see you….. I see you, and I want you to know that He sees you too…
Take His hand…. And live.
Live!
Listen… tonight… my heart beats for you.
Ezekiel 16:6

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I'm Karissa, but I'm becoming Kiona. Just like you, I long to live a life with deep meaning and purpose. That's why I'm taking this journey of discovering and becoming all that God created me to be. Join me as I seek to inspire you to do the same!