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My 400mg Evekeo (adderall) binge/recovery steps. How much damage did I do?http://bluelight.org/vb/threads/842021-My-400mg-Evekeo-(adderall)-binge-recovery-steps-How-much-damage-did-I-do?goto=newpost
Mon, 19 Mar 2018 07:50:03 GMTSo Im going to focus on the broad strokes and link to whatever I mention taking at the bottom to make this as short and coherant as possible
All...So Im going to focus on the broad strokes and link to whatever I mention taking at the bottom to make this as short and coherant as possible

All dosages mentioned were taken sublingually, because Im such a fucking genius 😒

Extremely short version if you dont like the wall of text
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.Had a week long Evekeo break after taking 2 10mg pills a day for two months
.Took 30mg first day, then 40mg second day
.Took 40 at work, got home, and within a 21hr window consumed 360mg more
.2-3 hours after my last binge dose I ate a tuna lettuce wrap, took 450mg Chelated Magnesium Glycate, 4.5mg Melatonin, 200mg 5-htp, and four Multivitamin gummies that contain a lot of Selenium, Vitamin C, B6, and B12. And washed it all down with two cups of Sleepytime Extra tea, no sugar or artificial sweeteners
.Smoked a little weed
.Slept for about 4-5 hours with the heat off and my fan on
.Had a cup of green tea but I brewed it weak because it had some caffeine in it I dont need right now
.Been eating tuna lettuce wraps all day with cheese itz
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Adderall is 3/4 dextroamphetamine and 1/4 levoamphetamine
Evekeo is 1/2 of both equally

So when I got home I binged 180mg of each chemical in a 21hr period. And 200mg if you count what I took at work earlier, which you probably should.
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::The beginning::
Saturday morning I decided to take an extra 10mg evekeo pill when I got home at 8am. This is insane because I work night shift. And I already took 4 pills through my night of work, 2 of which were more than what Im supposed to take daily.

::Quick context of my tolerance::
Ive been taking Evekeo for 2 months and only binged once with 120mg. That was about a month ago. After that I bought Chelated Magnesium Glycinate to help prevent tolerance going up from normal use. Cant abuse as easily if my dosage stays the same right fellas? From March 6th to March 13 I didnt take any Evekeo because Walgreens was out of stock. So a week long break combined with Mag must have dropped my tolerance.

Then March 14 after getting my script I took one extra pill to give me an energy boost at work. Maybe 2-3 hours after my Noon dosage. And I was insanely high, but completely cognitive and able to get my work done. The following day I took 3 at work again. Which brings us to the day of incident. That day I took 4 at work, and then 1 when I got home, and then..

::Fucking dummy did something dumb/Fuck::
Between 8am Saturday morning to 4am Sunday morning I consumed 360mg of Evekeo. The highest dose at once in that time period I think was 50mg. I forced myself to drink water while doing it. But apparently I blacked out mentally but not physically. Time jumped forward. I spent the ENTIRE time looking up porn in bed with the fan on me. No food, no sleep

::WAIT WHERE AM I/Recovery::
Maybe about a half hour after my last dose (maybe between 20mg-40mg), it just clicked in my head ?wait.. WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?!? I started forcing myself to drink lots of water. But then went back to my activity for a few more hours. Around 6:30am I forced myself to eat a tuna wrap with lettuce. My calfs were extremely stiff and I had to hobble for a bit. I then took 450mg of my Magnesium, 200mg of 5-HTP and two multivitamin gummies after the wrap with water and followed that with a 3mg Melatonin tablet. Following that I went out and smoked the last of the weed I had. I never smoke anymore so a little of the dank stuff is all I needed. And that was.. something. It didnt help my anxiety to say the least. But I figured it would be crucial for me getting to sleep and eating some more before that

::FUCK FUCK FUCK/Recovery pt.II::
Once I got back home I immediately ate two more multivitamin gummies, chugged two cups of Sleepytime Extra tea, and ate half of a 3mg Melatonin tablet. I laid in bed listening to a podcast and forced myself to not panic about my decision because stress can only make the matter worse. I think I fell asleep somewhere around 10am. I woke up at 2:30pm, almost 5 hours later. Nibbled on some melatonin, ate a bagel with cream cheese, took two multivitamins and rotated between drinking Sleepytime Extra and Sleepytime Sinus Soother. At some point I took a 30-60 minute nap. Since the nap Ive taken 4 more multivitamins with my tuna wraps, and I drank a cup of Green Tea BUT it had 35 mg of caffeine so I only let it brew for 1 minute. No stimulants right now thank you

::Recovery pt.III::
Ive been researching this place like crazy to figure out how to fix what Ive done. I still have 9 10mg evekeo pills left over and I dont plan on taking any for a few weeks. Im going to continue to take my Magnesium and eat 60mg of protein daily like I have been since starting Evekeo. And when I get paid Tuesday I plan on buying l-tyrosine to help my brain recover.

I just took a shower, put on new clothes, and brushed my teeth, and that made me feel a fair amount better. But in about an hour will be the 24 point of when I took my final dose.

Any of the short term damage/pain I put on myself Im fine with. I deserve it for being so destructive. Im a 5 year recovered coke addict, and at least back then I was young and didnt know what I was doing. I dont even have that excuse this time. I do know better, and I really believe the combo of being mentally uncomfortable and off my meds for 2-4 weeks is what I deserve for being such an ass. Its the long term Im worried about. Im hoping the things I mentioned taking (Ill link them below for reference) helped in some way. I dont even want to list the things Im worried about because of how worried I am.

This is the most shameful thing Ive done. Im very disgusted with myself. Im so glad my doc gave me Evekeo instead of straight up adderall. Finding out it has less abuse potential is what made me jump right on it. If devo is the high and levo is the crash then perfect. I deserve the crash. So long term wise how bad did I fuck up?

I'm a 24 year old male about 6' tall and weighing around 180 lbs. I have never taken Adderall before. I read several personal accounts and researched everything I could find about Adderall in the week leading up to me taking it. I smoke weed regularly but haven't taken any type of pill in about a year. I decided to document my experience for my own benefit, and then decided I would upload it for others. Hope y'all enjoy.

8:36 - Woke up and climbed out of bed. Feeling extremely groggy, tired, and restless, as if I wanted to sleep more, but couldn?t. Completely sober. Have not orally consumed any substance, including food, or smoked.
9:00 - Went in the bathroom and did hygiene related tasks.
9:39 - Shower and hygiene completed. Put on sweats and took my dog outside.
10:01 - Orally consumed 20mg Adderall Xr. Ate breakfast (frosted mini wheats) a few minutes after consuming Adderall Xr and watched 3 episodes of ?Friends? while still feeling very tired and groggy.
11:16 - Feeling slight effects. When I got out of bed and stood up, I immediately became aware that I had a very slight sensation of being alert and awake. I was also very aware of my surroundings (strongest effect) with a very slight euphoric high. All research stated that with Adderall Xr (extended release) the first release will occur after approximately the first hour. Allegedly the effects will begin to take place between hours 1 & 2 and will last approximately 12 hours. The Adderall Xr 20mg capsule is filled with multiple small beads that all have a different dissolving period (hence why Xr stands for extended release due to the extended period of time the beads will dissolve and continue releasing, intensifying and extending the effect of the Adderall). Eventually the effects will plateau and remain that way until you begin to come down. The current effects on my body and mind are very mild (almost unnoticeable). Nothing like what was found in my research for people who took an Adderall Xr 20mg dose. People reported a semi-intense euphoric high mixed with the ability to focus on one task for hours on end until completed. People stated they completed multiple homework assignments that would normally take 3 hours in a mere 1 hour period, studying and other boring tasks were found to be fascinating, test taking was very easy and could be completed in half the reported time of other students, and staying up for 24 hours could be accomplished with little to no mental fatigue as long as Adderall was kept in the system. 40 mg of Adderall Xr is the recommended dose to have an intense euphoric high mixed with intense focus, especially for those with a previous diagnosis of ADD/ADHD. It is stated that when an individual with ADD/ADHD is subjected to Adderall Xr 20 mg it can have little to no noticeable effect. The 20 mg of Adderall Xr will bring an individual with ADD/ADHD back to a normal state of focus for a human mind without ADD/ADHD. Due to my previous diagnosis of ADD when I was 9 (I was placed on medication to help with focus and brain function), I am going to try for the full experience. Due to the little effect 20 mg of Adderall Xr has appeared to have, I do not know what to expect or how much I will need for intense focus. Due to the capsule form of the Adderall, as opposed to a tablet form, I cannot take just a half dose. Subjects stated that you can open the capsule and crush up some beads to expose the powder and snort it. Seeing as this is my first experience with Adderall Xr, and I am trying to merely experiment and study while experiencing these effects, I do not believe this is a method I want to try. 400-450 mg of Adderall IR (Immediate Release) is considered dangerous consumption in a 24 hour period, therefore, 40 mg of Adderall Xr is not in any way dangerous or even close to overdose.
11:26 - For full experience, orally took another 20mg Adderall (now 40 mg total)
11:30 - I shaved, fixed my hair, and got dressed.
11:44 - Log started while listening to music to document experience for future reference or to merely share with others.
11:45 - I took the dog outside, spoke with my mom, and helped her with a few tasks.
11:49 - I began snapchatting and having deep conversations with multiple people.
2:15 - My heart rate is sitting at a steady 86 beats per minute. I took my dog outside again. I ate Pringles, a muffin, and drank a Mr. Pibb. (Extremely unhealthy and not normal for me, but it is all I could force myself to eat) Unlike with marijuana (always my go to), the Adderall has caused me to not want food. I know I?m hungry because I can feel my stomach growling, and am experiencing hunger pains, but nothing sounds appetizing. Drinking liquids is also a difficult task that I do not want to do and instead have to FORCE myself to hydrate.
3:06 - I began studying using an online exam simulator. This is the main reason I took Adderall Xr, but the motivation to accomplish my original task is lacking. I am motivated to accomplish all kinds of tasks, but not the one I intended to do.
3:16 - I began having more deep conversations on Snapchat instead of studying. Expressing my thoughts and listening to the thoughts of others has played on the body high that I have. It has enhanced the euphoric high and in-turn has caused me to express myself in a whole new way through my words. I feel very happy about everything. It is like I took two Xanax bars and drank multiple energy drinks at the same time. I gave contact information to a friend of mine for my tattoo artist. I am logging this purely as an example. All I did was give the contact information to him, but it gave me a sensation of great accomplishment and excitement.
3:30 - Updated log from 11:49 till present time.
3:32 - I?ve gone back to studying using online exam simulator.
4:37 - Left the house to pick my wife up from her moms. Driving felt like it suppressed the euphoric sensation. It was not a fun or relaxing experience like driving after taking a hit of weed. It felt like I hadn?t taken any Adderall Xr, but instead I felt normal but more nervous. Maybe this was because I was driving while under the influence of a drug and was aware of this (hence the nervous feeling), but I have never experienced that level of nerves while driving.
5:00 - As soon as I arrived at my wife?s mom?s, I turned the car off and got out. Immediately the euphoric sensation came back and I was happy again with lots of energy.
7:26 - Stomach pains have returned and I know I?m very hungry from the growling my stomach is doing, but the hungrier I get, the more sociable I become. It?s actually causing me to see how long I can go without food because I?m enjoying how social I am, although I know that?s not a good idea. I want food, but nothing sounds appetizing.
8:00 - Sitting down with my wife, brother-in-law, and mother-in-law at O?Charleys. Again, I know I need to give my body food, but after looking at the menu I have no desire to eat anything listed. Ordering loaded potato soup and a water with lemon to try and force it down.
9:45 - Forced myself to eat a roll and the entire bowl of soup. Now sitting down with family looking at old photos. I still have a semi-euphoric sensation, but it?s relatively mild. My focus is beginning to return to normal and I feel very fatigued but not tired. My chest feels very heavy like it?s hard to breathe, comparable to the feeling you get from severe anxiety. It has actually felt like this all day, but I was never anxious about anything, and I still am not anxious. I?ve also been very aware of my heart beating all day. I have felt every beat and been aware of every beat (even when I had only taken 20 mg) since approximately 11:16 this morning.
10:29 - Noticeably coming down now. The euphoric sensation, awareness, focus, and energy is now coming and going in waves. I believe this is due to my mind feeling very fatigued and the Adderall combating it to keep me going, but the effects are still very noticeable. I?m preparing to go home to lay in bed and watch TV with my wife. My body wants to lay down and go to sleep but my mind is still fully awake. Every time I relax and shut my eyes to gauge how tired I am they immediately open back up. I physically cannot keep my eyes closed. Still feeling very sociable and entertained by documenting today?s events. I never document or keep logs for anything, but today I have had the ability to constantly update, in detail, my experience with 40mg of Adderall Xr and have enjoyed every moment of documenting this experience. This log doesn?t even do justice to how amazing this experience has been.
11:44 - I?m home walking around my room organizing things. Just took two hits of weed (sativa) to slow down a bit.
12:18 - The weed has taken effect. It?s not a normal high, but instead it?s a high without your mind feeling foggy. It?s as if your head is floating and vibrating while this entity inside of it is pushing its way through the fog and out in the open.
12:29 - Final log. I?m sitting in bed feeling like I could try to fall asleep, or at least lay down and let my mind start to recover and wind down. I haven?t experimented with many drugs, but I can say that this was by far the most intense and satisfying experience I?ve had. I enjoyed every moment of it and would absolutely do it again.

Unfortunately around 3:00 in the morning I was still awake and could not sleep, so I smoked some more weed (indica this time) to try and put me out. I hardly drank any liquids all day (I didn't even think about hydrating but 2 or 3 times) so when I began crashing, I experienced the worst headache of my life. I get migraines and this headache was worse than any migraine I've had as well. I finally fell asleep at around 5:00 but now the headache was so bad that I could not stay asleep. Every time I woke up I forced myself to drink liquids and fell back asleep for around 30 minutes before I started the process over again. I finally got tired of being restless and got up at 8:30. I took a shower and took some pain killers with a cherry coke to try and hydrate while giving my body some sugar and caffeine since I also hardly ate. Now it's 12:49 the day after taking 40mg of Adderall Xr and I'm finishing this up. My headache is still noticeable but not nearly as paralyzing as it was earlier in the morning. I feel absolutely exhausted and can barely focus on one task for an extended period of time.

1. The Good - The actual day of experiencing 40mg of Adderall Xr was incredible. I loved every minute.
2. The Bad - The crash was god awful. I know it's partially my fault for not forcing myself to hydrate and eat more, but it was even worse than I imagined. I cannot express how bad the come down was.
3. The Ugly - As I'm typing this I feel very groggy and my mind is cloudy. I have no desire to do anything but sit around and be a bum for the day. I considered popping another Addy to counteract these effects but I do NOT want to experience a come down like that again, and honestly, it doesn't sound appealing to take another one. Probably just going to sleep it off. Hopefully my next experience will be better the day after.

Overall: It was a great experience and I will definitely do it again sometime. Since I experienced the negative side effects of the drug I now know what to watch out for and what to do different next time. Even with the come down, I would still give it a 8/10 for my experience.
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Sun, 18 Mar 2018 13:39:08 GMTCoke usage etc
Ok, I couldn't figure out how to post in the right spot. Someone could also help with that. Lol. I did lots of coke and E and K amd probably other stuff when I was a teen and early 20's. I haven't done that stuff for a long time now (maybe 8 years or so) but I recently started snorting coke again. I realize it's an upper so it's gunna increase heart rate etc.. I've noticed that when I checked tonight after a whole bunch of it (about 1 gram, maybe 0.8 at least) and my pulse rate is just over 100 at about 105.. that seems pretty normal compared to how high I feel. The other things that is bugging me a little bit is that I feel my pulse in places I don't normally, such as on my nose.. it's not slight. It's heavy. So I signed up for this forum after reading some stuff on here. I'm just wondering what people think. Also, the amount I'm using is increasing. (Typical do my addictive personality) I started with just a couple bumps per night (only 9 or so days ago) and increased quickly to .5 per day. Now, tonight, (actually it's 7am now) I have done almost a gram. I read in google that a lethal dose averages at 1.2 g. So that makes me nervous. I imagine that the average is so low because some people have almost no tolerance and it drags down the statistic? Anyway... two more bits of info about me(since this is an intro thread) I got hooked on Oxys and was really badly addicted. Even though I was up to eating around 12-15 40mg neo Oxys per day at my worst, the only person who ever knew I was high was my wife. I rarely got the nods, held up conversations just fine(better than fine) and even my parents never knew (and still don't know) and my dad works with druggies all the time as a profession. (Maybe he just couldn't see it because of how much he trusts and respects me?). Anyway, I'm clean of that now for 3 months and I'll never eat another one. I know that I can't. I have quit here and there for 2-6 weeks at a time throughout the 2 years that I was using, and always went back because of the "just one night" idea. I recently had a friend that didn't know I was clean come give me an envelope full of perks as a gift because he knew I was down about my recent divorce. (3.5 months ago, that's what finally made me actually quit. My drug use [and her alcolism] was the main cause of ending a happy 15 year relationship) anywaaay, sorry, lol, I handed it right back to him I'd never eat any opiates of any kind ever again. Also, I am not staying on the coke. I'm getting right back into a horrible habit that makes me feel Like I shittier person (No offence to anyone, that's just me) it also makes my nostrils complete clogged for sleeping and I hate having to breathe through my mouth. The next day they are always clogged as well. It even causes me headaches while I'm high and my. One so numb and face and head so numb they hurt. Been taking Advil every night sometime before bed for headaches.
Thanks for reading
(If anyone reads this whole thing lol)
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DoingDrugsSometime said:
Today 07:37
Oh, I also am quitting because I'm always doing it by myself, in the bathroom at the bar, and then when I get home all night watching tv. Seems stupid to me, and I don't want other people knowing, as is the opposit with beer and weed, I have no problem with that being public. So I'm going to give myself one chance to allow a maximum of once per week and no more than a quarter gram. If I slip at all, I'm quoting cold turkey just like I did the Oxys.
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DoingDrugsSometime said:
Today 07:43
Shit, I'm going on and on, it's the coke high, lol, one more thing (at least) I remember as a kid/when I was younger that I always got mad drips. Like, every line is a big nasty drip. With this stuff/with my new experiences, I almost get none.. maybe one drop every several lines.. sometimes I'll only get 2 or 3 drips for a whole half gram worth of lines.... just something I noticed, didn't know if anyone knows why that could be.... probably just me over thinking nothing. It made me feel like instead of it draining to my stomach, it's getting stuck in my head. Lol hope not.

Jesus
8:45 am now
Couldn't stop doing bumps. I knew it was stupid. Well over a gram. Ow but I think under 1.5 I weighed the first 0.7 and then just started taking straight out the bag. I feel completely high, can't breath through my nose at all, and my heads not bugging me so much right now, but when I feel my forehead and top of my head I can tell it's hurting, I just can't feel it. My nose hurt as well, but I really think it's as pure as u can get without knowing a huge supplier. My nose never bleeds off of it except for the next day I'll blow a little out my nose. Then it stops right away, never drips blood. I bet tomorrow it might for the first time. My nose is completely clogged but also running.
I'm typing like crazy cuz I'm so high. I think I'll have to go cold turkey. I get addicted to things to easily. Hopefully no typos, typing so fast on my phone and not checking. Thanks a lot for reading all this, of anyone did. I really like this site. I'm brand new as if yeaterday/this morning, but I've often visited it and read as it comes up most of the time I type a drug question into google. The concept of this site is awesome. Beating able to talk to drug users anonymously and often is a weird thing. No one has responded to any of my threads yet, (and I'm posting in a bunch of them) because I want people to read this and talk to me. Of ya, if you read about my pulse rate, after the rest of the coke it went up to 112 bpm. I'm going to check again now as I have done a few more lines since I last checked. (I feel like an anorexic checking his/her weight.) I just want to know because I'm curious and I would call an ambulance if it was something stupid like 200 bpm. That's would be scary. Google says 100 bpm is high for an adult.
One sec ;-)
Checking now ;-)

Ok, it's 112 still.
But I feel so fuckin high. Probably the highest I've ever been off of coke alone. I didn't even smoke weed ueater day/today at all because the coke makes me want to smoke less. And last night was st Patrick's day. I would have normally drank like 12 beers, but I only had 5 because I was doing blow in the bathroom all night (and dancing/moshing like a fool to live bands) wow. I hope people enjoy reading this am doing don't think it's stupid. And I also hop admin doesn't have a problem with it.
Peace for now
I'll reply if I end up doing any more, but that would be a fucked up and pretty bad decision. I already was talking to myself like in my head like "this is stupid, what if you o.d, there's not even anyone here. Your family could find you dead beside a bag of coke and rolled up bills.." etc etc. So I know it has become a problem because I thought those things and more and just kept sniffing and sniffing. Then again, I know I have a pretty good tolerance for all frogs other than psychedelics... (those totally fuck me up. Even a 0.5g of mush makes me have bad thoughts) Wait, is E a psychedelic? It makes sense that it is, but I always did E and had fun. Mush makes me paranoid and sad and (I just had to stop typing to rub my skull. It hurts now. Feels like someone is pumping full of more and more pressure and it's gunna explode. Nose hurts a lot too) anyway, mush makes me feel paranoid, scared and maybe even sad. Dang, writing while so high is crazy and satisfying. I wish I could show my friends/ family but I hide all my drug use when I'm using.
I reply soon for update on how I feel . My nose has never been this stuffed and I've never had this type of headache before. I'm still enjoying the high because it's so intense, but a lot of pain and discomfort. My throat is getting really dry because I never usually breath through my mouth. ( and yes, I drank water all night at the bar and I'm on my second bottle since I got home at 3 am) a DD service drive me home like always when I'm ficked or even buzzed, so no worries.
I can't breath in or out of my nose even if I try blowing rally hard. My ears pop and my eyes shoot out water. Well, tears I guess. And even though I can't even blow out or breathe in, I'm having to stop typing every 5 min to rub snot out of my nose because otherwise it'll drip down my face.
Jesus. Typing fast and thinking even faster. I bet part or all of the Reason my head is killing so bad (it's like a migraine now, but I'm handling it because if the trip (I would never usually say trip for coke, I use that for psychedelics and shit) but ya, the high is making all this pain and discomfort bareable. I hope I fall asleep before the pain really hurts.

Shit , I didn't finish my thought just above. I think the reason my head hurt so much is because of the excessive blowing and sniffing all night more than the coke itself. I bet if I just blew in and out all night like I did last night/today even wothout coke if get a headache. ( right now my vision is going blurry [dont worry, it's from all the water : years building up in my eyes and I'm not blinking them out] it's not blurry from brain damage or o.d. {at least I don't expect to o.d at this point, I mean my last line was like 20 min ago.} <does anybody know how long/late after your last line the o.d can kick in> Sheesh!! I'm too fixkes for my own good,)
I'd be embarrassed for any family or friends to see me like this. Eyes red, can't head spinning, I'd be chatting unconteaolabky in a way that would get unbearable annoying. (Some of you might be thinking that about this thread, BUT THEN WHY STILL BE READING) lmao
You could stop anytime. I would be entertained if I were you.

Another thing, I feel almost like I'm forgetting to breath for like 20 seconds at a time so
Stones and then I breath heavily to catch up. I'm not trying to obviously (more years running down my face right now and I'm not crying, just leaking)
Does anyone else get this forget to breath thing? Sounds pretty dumb to me.

Anyway, I'm gunna walk around my house for a minute because I've barely moved all this time since 3 am.
I'll type back soon.
I hope I get my first responses sooner than later. I'd like to chat before o hi to bed because, like I said, I have no one to cut to that I know... I keep this shot secret from all people.

Thanks a lot guys and gals. (Snot dropping again and again. And years coming down face pretty constantly... this is an eye opener. Time to ducking stop. I think I'll go cold turkey. I've only been ising for 9 days or so after all. I went cold turkey after a 200 dollar per day oxy habit and people didn't barely notice. I said I had the flu but didn't get dope sick barely at all. I did however not eat barely anything for 2 weeks and lost at least 15 maybe 20 lbs. so that's crazy I guess. But soooooo much better than anyone else I've ever heard of getting off that junk. (More years, more snot, mores pain in my nose and head and skull currently)

Wow, even when I was a kid doing huge ass lines of blow, I never got this ducked up. Probably a lot shittier of blow back then for sure. But I got great ass E, that's for sure. Orange omegas consistently. I was. Told back then that one of the main ingredient in that particular E was heroin. Could have been kid to, never know. I was getting it from a red line (H.A) connection that I had. He's long dead now. Well, I hope that didn't break the rule about not posting about connections. It was 11 through 15 years ago and I didn't mention names or cities and he's dead.

LOL FML

You guys probably think I'm a crazy weirdo. Truth is I talk all the time even when not on drugs. Especially after a few beer. I'll tell a stranger or a friend all about my divorce and ex wife and her eventually cheating and all that craziness like it's nothing. I just talk too much (as you am plainly see) I've been told by one guy that I need to remember other people have a voice and I have ears. But I told someone else about that and they said "no, you have good stories and speak well, I like listening.

Sorry, got off track for a second. I'm sure the admin only want frog talk and not life stories??
Or is posting about what you think while tripping allowed. Cuz that'd be cool.

I've tried to stop typing like 4 times and keep going. I'm going to stop now because I'm so blurry and painful and want to walk around to try to clear my head. Maybe have some juice. I'm lucky, yesterday I had a sub for a breaky/lunch and the. Because I knew I was getting fucked up for st Patrick's day I went to the keg and had a huge awesome steak dinner. So that's better for. Y body than eatinike shit/nothing before a night/morning/day like this.....

Bye guys and gals, (again) thank you so much for reading. I'm sure I'll get some unfriendly responses, but if some of you his are like me / people I've met at the bar. (Which is friendly, honest and talkative/rwdybto hear a good story) then I'm sure I'll get some nice posts too.

I'll check back soon and hopefully respond to people. Like I mean I'm gunna check every 5 minutes until I can sleep. (Which I'm sure won't be for hours)
I'm still I really High and haven't done a line in like 40 mins.... and don't worry, I couldn't do ANYMORE coke even if I wanted too. I'd have to hoop it and I've never done that with anything my whole life (kind of wanted to with some good afghani goldseal, but could never bring myself to) my nose is soooo incredible clogged (and will be for hours and hours) that I can't sniff any more even if I try really hard. (Oh my god, just blew my nose a tiny bit and my tears and headache is crazy.)

There I went again, typing so much when I'm trying to say by and go for a walk (in my house, neighbours are up now and I won't go outside until after I sleep this fucking craziness off)

Bye for real this time (I hope)
Yup, bye for real. ;-) lol
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Sun, 18 Mar 2018 12:41:46 GMTOk, I couldn't figure out how to post in the right spot. Someone could also help with that. Lol. I did lots of coke and E and K amd probably other stuff when I was a teen and early 20's. I haven't done that stuff for a long time now (maybe 8 years or so) but I recently started snorting coke again. I realize it's an upper so it's gunna increase heart rate etc.. I've noticed that when I checked tonight after a whole bunch of it (about 1 gram, maybe 0.8 at least) and my pulse rate is just over 100 at about 105.. that seems pretty normal compared to how high I feel. The other things that is bugging me a little bit is that I feel my pulse in places I don't normally, such as on my nose.. it's not slight. It's heavy. So I signed up for this forum after reading some stuff on here. I'm just wondering what people think. Also, the amount I'm using is increasing. (Typical do my addictive personality) I started with just a couple bumps per night (only 9 or so days ago) and increased quickly to .5 per day. Now, tonight, (actually it's 7am now) I have done almost a gram. I read in google that a lethal dose averages at 1.2 g. So that makes me nervous. I imagine that the average is so low because some people have almost no tolerance and it drags down the statistic? Anyway... two more bits of info about me(since this is an intro thread) I got hooked on Oxys and was really badly addicted. Even though I was up to eating around 12-15 40mg neo Oxys per day at my worst, the only person who ever knew I was high was my wife. I rarely got the nods, held up conversations just fine(better than fine) and even my parents never knew (and still don't know) and my dad works with druggies all the time as a profession. (Maybe he just couldn't see it because of how much he trusts and respects me?). Anyway, I'm clean of that now for 3 months and I'll never eat another one. I know that I can't. I have quit here and there for 2-6 weeks at a time throughout the 2 years that I was using, and always went back because of the "just one night" idea. I recently had a friend that didn't know I was clean come give me an envelope full of perks as a gift because he knew I was down about my recent divorce. (3.5 months ago, that's what finally made me actually quit. My drug use [and her alcolism] was the main cause of ending a happy 15 year relationship) anywaaay, sorry, lol, I handed it right back to him I'd never eat any opiates of any kind ever again. Also, I am not staying on the coke. I'm getting right back into a horrible habit that makes me feel Like I shittier person (No offence to anyone, that's just me) it also makes my nostrils complete clogged for sleeping and I hate having to breathe through my mouth. The next day they are always clogged as well. It even causes me headaches while I'm high and my. One so numb and face and head so numb they hurt. Been taking Advil every night sometime before bed for headaches.
Thanks for reading
(If anyone reads this whole thing lol)

Oh, I also am quitting because I'm always doing it by myself, in the bathroom at the bar, and then when I get home all night watching tv. Seems stupid to me, and I don't want other people knowing, as is the opposit with beer and weed, I have no problem with that being public. So I'm going to give myself one chance to allow a maximum of once per week and no more than a quarter gram. If I slip at all, I'm quoting cold turkey just like I did the Oxys.

Shit, I'm going on and on, it's the coke high, lol, one more thing (at least) I remember as a kid/when I was younger that I always got mad drips. Like, every line is a big nasty drip. With this stuff/with my new experiences, I almost get none.. maybe one drop every several lines.. sometimes I'll only get 2 or 3 drips for a whole half gram worth of lines.... just something I noticed, didn't know if anyone knows why that could be.... probably just me over thinking nothing. It made me feel like instead of it draining to my stomach, it's getting stuck in my head. Lol hope not.
]]>Trip ReportsDoingDrugsSometimehttp://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841976-Using-coke-again-s3C-P/45 mg - First time - Aucar Islandhttp://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841889-3C-P-45-mg-First-time-Aucar-Island?goto=newpost
Fri, 16 Mar 2018 19:17:36 GMTSince there is almost no information online about this chemical, we thought about sharing the very interesting experience we had with 3C-P. This trip...Since there is almost no information online about this chemical, we thought about sharing the very interesting experience we had with 3C-P. This trip happened while my girl and I were on vacations, traveling through the beautiful Island of Chiloe, at the far south of the world. We had a moderate tolerance from a 2.5 g mushroom trip a week prior to dropping the 3C-P. I'm a experienced tripper by now, she has a little less experience but has had her fair share of trips prior to this one too.

We had planned to spend the trip in a place we would be visiting that day, called 'Isla Aucar'. The few reports we had read all indicated a 2 to 3 hour come up period for this psychedelic, so we thought that dropping the dose just before taking the bus that would take us on the 20 minute ride to the Island we wanted to visit was a good idea. That way we would start feeling the effects while already there. So we took the dose (One of us took 40 and the other one 45 mg) pretty early in the morning with a completely empty stomach, knowing that otherwise sleep would be impossible that night given the duration of this drug.

Contrary to the reports we had read, effects were felt within 30 minutes, while we were just about to eat a small breakfast. Extreme nausea was felt. Unbearable for my girl, that actually had to throw up multiple times. Wavy visuals were present within the first hour after ingesting the 3C-P. We were quite overwhelmed with the physical intensity of the come-up, and taken by surprise because we had expected to feel nothing at all until the second hour. We have speculated that maybe the fast onset was a result of taking the drug on an empty stomach. We were feeling quite clear headed, and actually almost sober, but some visual distortions where becoming apparent and the nausea was so intense that we thought we would have to give up on our plan to go to Aucar Island. Gladly we didn't get on the bus immediately after taking this psychedelic, otherwise experiencing this come-up in such a situation would have been catastrophic. Vomiting in public transport doesn't sound fun.

We decided to let the effects settle down. We were, camping so we just waited for the come up to be over in the tent. We took some meds for our upset stomachs (Domperidone and Pargeveril). Around the second hour nausea began decreasing, but the physical effects where still the dominant aspect of the experience, going back and forth between pleasant tingling and uncomfortable body load.

We decided to listen to some music with headphones on in our tent, and that's when we discovered one of the most magical aspects of this drug. Music enhancement was completely out of this world. We started listening to some 'Com Truise', and it sounded so sharp and clear, every timbre was perfectly defined, every detail and texture stood out and we started feeling pretty euphoric. Later we put Vivaldi's Summer on, and it was such a beautiful experience that I was brought to tears of joy. Can't really emphasize enough how great the musical enhancement was with this drug.

After that, even though the nausea and gastrointestinal discomfort was gone, we were getting all sort of weird cardiovascular symptoms: Shaky and cold hands, swollen fingers, accelerated heart rate. Unfortunately, this uncomfortableness was present on and off throughout all of the trip. And whenever we would feel euphoric or overly excited about something, our heart rates would immediately go up significantly.

Around t+3 we were feeling more or less fine, and although we were definitely tripping at this point, the headspace was still very clear and we felt functional enough. We started feeling very stimulated and visuals were becoming much more prominent, even though they were subtle. They didn't consist of colorful patterns superimposed on things, such as acid visuals, but more like a sharp clearness of detail and lines that made everything look as in a Van Gogh painting, and a beautiful enhancement of color.

Since we were feeling alright by that point, we went to took the bus to Aucar Island. Before stepping in the bus, we were feeling clear headed and almost sober, with a very rational internal dialogue. But the ride was actually a pretty intense experience. We immediately started feeling very anxious, hot and almost suffocated. We got concerned about our heart rates and felt generally uneasy on the bus. It was a complete roller coaster. We would feel moved and joyous about a thought or an image seen through the window, and the next second we felt jittery and anxious. Needless to say we were glad when the short bus ride was over and we arrived at the mysterious Island.

'Isla Aucar' is a magical, beautiful, unique place. It is connected to the main Island of Chiloe by a 500 meter wooden bridge, covered with moss and lichen. While we walked the bridge to the Island, flocks of birds were flying around us in myriads, and it was a breath-taking sight. The sun was shining bright, and the wind was blowing strong. We were still somewhat shaken by the bus ride, but the beauty of the place slowly lulled us into a calm and happy state of mind. On the Island there is nothing more than a small forest with beautiful native trees, lots of birds, and a cemetery with a small chapel. This Island was baptized ''Island of the sailing souls'' by a local poet, because of the curious decision to put a graveyard on a place that seems like it will sail far into the ocean at any minute. This is were most of our trip took place.

We reached the peak on the Island, around four hours after ingesting the substance. During the peak most of the concerning and uncomfortable side effects were gone, except for the increased heart rate that was less noticeable when we stood still, so we chose to move as little as possible. Headspace remained clear and very analytical during all of it. Music enhancement was the most impressive aspect and it was present for the whole duration of the experience, even well into the comedown. We felt very happy during all the trip. Mindset was generally positive. We felt that critical thinking was stimulated. Ideas were easy to dissect. Conversation was easy, and dialogues were grounded and logical. We felt a sense of wonder and excitement, similar to mescaline in a way. We watched birds and laughed, walked around and read poems, took pictures and laid on the grass watching the sea, and everything felt achingly beautiful. Appetite was definitely suppressed.

We returned to ourtent around eight hours into the experience. We hitchhiked and had pleasant andopen conversation with the lady driver. Visuals started to fade by that time,but very slowly. We decided to smoke some weed around t+10 h, which made eating easier and brought back the visuals significantly. We listened to music which sounded awesome still at the 12th hour. After a light meal around t+13 h we were still feeling stimulated and agitated, so we took cyclobenzaprine (10 mg) to start relaxing and ease the come-down. Also, because cannabis added some additional anxiety about the cardiovascular effects, to the point where they once again became difficult to ignore.

We took 5 mg of clotiazepam and tried sleeping around t+15. Falling asleep wasn't particularly difficult, probably because of the cocktail of downers we took, but we woke up multiple times during the night and had a very light sleep. We woke up early the next morning still feeling stimulated, and even though no other drug effect was evident, we never felt tired on the day after the 3C-P despite having had poor quality of sleep and probably a bit of cyclobenzaprine still on our system. We spent the day chilling and in a nice mood, still impressed with our experience.

We can say as a summary that 3C-P is euphoric, analytical, with subtle phenethylamine style visuals, very clear headed, more extrospective than introspective, insanely good for music enhancement, but unfortunately has a very rough come-up and the cardiovascular effects where rather concerning or at least very distracting. Very sensual and not at all confusing or mentally challenging. Has some pro-socialpotential, but there's also random jitters present. It lasts a good amount of time too, with the main psychedelic effects lasting until around t+8 to be overpowered by the stimulant aspects for the remaining 6 or so hours, with some residual stimulation to be felt even the next day. When we went to sleep at t+15, minor visuals were still present, altough head felt sober. All in all we felt it's a very special psychedelic that would be much more enjoyable if it wasn't for the body load and rough come-up.
]]>Trip ReportsImg_9999http://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841889-3C-P-45-mg-First-time-Aucar-IslandEcstasy / 80mg - First Roll - Last Rollhttp://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841848-Ecstasy-80mg-First-Roll-Last-Roll?goto=newpost
Thu, 15 Mar 2018 18:01:14 GMTSomeone hit me up saying they had MDMA. I declined, as I always considered it a really stupid drug to take if you don?t have PTSD or something. And...Someone hit me up saying they had MDMA. I declined, as I always considered it a really stupid drug to take if you don?t have PTSD or something. And that?s coming from someone who?s taken a lot of DXM. Which is why, come my birthday, I decided to be open minded, and find out why everyone likes Molly so damn much. I didn?t have a testing kit, so I smelled it (I heard it?s supposed to smell faintly sweet), and tested it?s water solublility. Figuring if it?s soluble 5 grams per liter, than a point should nearly saturate 20 to 25 milliliters. The suspended particulates in the biter solution were a good sign that the solubility was at least close to that of MDMA, as it was approaching saturation.

Did not take long to begin feeling a warm energy behind my eyes, most similar to an effect I?ve had from weed before.
Before I knew it, I was definitely rolling, but not very hard. I?m pretty used the euphoria of massive doses of LSD, and MDMA, or methanone, or whatever the fuck just absolutely doesn?t have the slightest sliver of jack shit on acid. A couple tabs of acid, turn your head to the mountains, and feel the fucking power. MDMA is just, wow, I?m insanely happy, and thirsty, but I don?t care enough about the latter.

Definatly a great jam fuel, as I spent probably four hours or so jamming like an absolute maniac. Once again, in this regard too, it has nothing on LSD. Nothing! Except brain damage, and addiction, of course.

A short report, for a pretty pointless recreation. Some people fucking love Molly, don?t get me wrong. Those people probably mostly have very unhappy lives, however, and probably just freak out on psychedelics as a result. DXM is actually less neurotoxic than MDMA, and if you like flying around out of your body on waves of euphoria, and don?t mind probably getting addicted, than it?s superior. LSD is the ultimate euphoria drug. Mushrooms, I may like more, but they are unpredictable, and less optimized for total euphoria. Acid will seemingly always provide a similar sensation of rather difficult to describe, absolute power beauty, that you feel massaging your soul. Music on molly kinda sucks too. Not even as good as being really stoned. Just fake energy, like a bass boost that ruins your favorite song. LSD you can see it. Mushrooms you can have sex with it.
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Wed, 14 Mar 2018 20:10:45 GMTI have always craved the taboo lifestyle and wanted to belong to the counter-culture of drugs. I started smoking weed on November 25th, 2015, and...I have always craved the taboo lifestyle and wanted to belong to the counter-culture of drugs. I started smoking weed on November 25th, 2015, and within 4 months I was popping pills that I was stealing from family members, dropping Research Chems, selling my prescriptions, and doing anything I could get my hands on really. That landed me in rehab the first time. A month after I got out, I got kicked out of my dad's house and went to live with my mom, a meth-head of about 18 years.

I asked her to put me on it and she happily obliged. I was still doing anything I could find, including taking entire 10-strips of LSD at once. Then, I landed myself in jail for an assault while I was tweaking. It still wasn't enough. I got out, and my mom went in shortly after, so I had the house, the car, and a good amount of money to myself, so I called my junkie uncle over to have him shoot me up for the first time. I started taking shots as often as possible, doing anything I could to score. Next thing I know, my dealer is living with me. Once, I had about 8 or so tweakers in my house at once, all with their own baggies of shit, literally lining up for me to cook up their shot because, at 17, I could mix one better than they could in their years of use. At some point, I sold my body.

Then I got in a car wreck going to a deal in another city, and went to jail again. I was sentenced to complete rehab at a boys home in my state. I somehow got meth while I was in there, along with having my mother sneak in Vyvanse and other pills. I was there for almost 8 months, but signed myself out against medical advice and my PO's orders soon after I turned 18.

My dad won't take me in, and I'm not allowed to be with my mom until I'm off probation, which I have to complete another rehab to do, so I'm homeless and living out of hotels for now. I had some strangers over to my room over the past few days, and relapsed with them. Yesterday, I got put on a 2 week to 4 month waiting list for facilities in my state, but my judge ordered me to get in somewhere by April 3rd, so there's a high likelihood that I'll go back to jail on my next court date. I have about 6 sores/cysts in my mouth from jaw-jacking for the last 3 days, and I haven't eaten in about 4. I'm a homeless high school drop-out with a criminal history at age 18. Drugs have ruined my life, but I there's honestly only a few experiences that I would take back, most regarding selling myself.

That's the general story. I'll answer any specific questions you guys have, here or in my PM's
]]>Trip ReportsSufferingparkerhttp://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841787-(Mainly-Meth-Variable-Dose)-Experienced-User-Lifelong-Drug-Encounters-HistoryMy First Shroom Experiencehttp://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841711-My-First-Shroom-Experience?goto=newpost
Tue, 13 Mar 2018 03:45:54 GMTI decided to take 3 grams of Psilocybin mushrooms with my boyfriend. I have been researching psychedelics since high school, so I felt like at this...I decided to take 3 grams of Psilocybin mushrooms with my boyfriend. I have been researching psychedelics since high school, so I felt like at this point in my life I would appreciate mushrooms in a way I wouldn?t have been able to before (and I didn?t want to take them prematurely). It was extremely difficult to get the shrooms down, I literally remember telling him it seems as if we?re eating slimy snails (yuck!); nevertheless, we eat them and drink our liquid. We lay on his bed and he can?t seem to pick up the remote and change the channel, so we end up watching comedy. At this point, I?m slowly starting to feel a peak. When we watch the comedy, though, it was very crude and I wanted to turn it off instantly. I didn?t like it at all. I remember watching a documentary on YouTube that stated if you feel a bad trip coming on, think of positive things and I distinctly remember telling myself that. In my boyfriend?s room, he has a mirror that can be seen from sitting on the bed. He had his leg up and it reminded me of a dark shadow that I had seen when I almost Astral Projected once, so it scared me a lot, and I kept telling him to put it down (which he laughed at haha). I then had to go to the bathroom, so I opened his door, but there weren?t anymore lights on in his apartment, and my mind reverted back to the dark shadow. I proceeded to walk to the bathroom and closed the door. I sat on the toilet and I remember feeling as if the toilet was on water because I felt as if it was moving under me. I looked to my left and saw tiny water droplets and were mesmerized by how intricate and beautiful they all were. I remember my boyfriend telling me to not look in the bathroom mirror, so what do I do? Yep, I look in the mirror. What I saw is something that is difficult to put into words, but I will try my best. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and I felt so much beauty and positivity radiating outwards. There was so much love and beauty within and all around me. I remember feeling as if I?m an organism and I have to take care of my existence because it is beautiful. From my reflection, I remember looking at the middle of my forehead and imagining a third eye that can see past this physical existence, something that is more spiritual and awakening. I remember looking in my eyes and seeing an outline of a beautiful Hindu (I believe) God whose colors were blue and green that was outlined above my head, but surrounded itself within me. I leaned my back against the wall and felt one with that bathroom. One with the wall; everything. I saw the curtain in the bathroom move and it scared me to death so I made my way out before I spiraled into a bad trip. Time at this point was completely irrelevant. I felt as if I was in another dimension that time was not in. I walk back to the room and my boyfriend and I were watching a space documentary and it was THE most beautiful thing I had ever seen. The lights were dim in the room and there was a lit candle. I had no idea what the story line was about, but I felt very childlike and it was as if I were experiencing life for the first time. The light from the candle was bothering my eyes a little bit (I became extremely sensitive to it), and I became extremely overwhelmed by my surroundings. I remember having a conversation with my boyfriend about something and the intensity of the light as well as what the documentary was talking about (dandelions) became very overwhelming. Then, he asked, ?Can you imagine what it would be like to be a dandelion?? and I began to realize how beautiful its life is, very simple, but its a beautiful creation. Then, I remember my eyes tearing up from the candle, but I began to become so overwhelmed by the nature of crying that it brought me back to spiritual times in my life where I would become so overwhelmed that I would cry from an intense feeling of love. After I went to the bathroom to wipe my eyes, I thought of many deep, psychological questions about myself and the type of person I can become. I then went back to the room and my boyfriend had paused the documentary on the funniest image of this person?s face that was distorted. We laughed SOOOO hard hahaha, to the point where both of us were crying. I went to the bathroom and I distinctly felt as if the Shrooms enacted this experience to show how love and an appreciation for every beautiful experience life has to offer. It was an amazing sensation. There were more things that happened, but I was having a hard time processing everything. I remember feeling as if all of my thoughts were trying to get out all at the same time, which is why it was hard to formulate sentences. Because of this, I kept saying, ?It feels as if I?m getting more intelligent by the minute? simply because I started thinking about so many deep questions I normally wouldn?t. Has anyone seen religious Gods like I did? If so, what do you think it means?
]]>Trip Reportsmysticbeauty96http://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841711-My-First-Shroom-ExperienceLSD, MDMA and THC - Very experienced - Big mistake, no regretshttp://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841650-LSD-MDMA-and-THC-Very-experienced-Big-mistake-no-regrets?goto=newpost
Mon, 12 Mar 2018 04:53:30 GMTFirst off, let me apologise if the format is incorrect. I?m kinda new and still tryna get a good hang of things round here :)
Secondly, I would...First off, let me apologise if the format is incorrect. I?m kinda new and still tryna get a good hang of things round here :)

Secondly, I would like to apologise in advance for the incredibly long report. I?d get some popcorn and buckle tf up.

I have tripped balls a lot before this, did pretty much all the drugs that aren?t considered very hard like opiates or crack/cocaine. Stay far away from those. Smoked weed every day literally, my teenager life basically spiralled out of control. I?m not going to get into detail how old I was or am now, but this was a while back and I was just one of those stupid experimental teens.

Anyways enough about me, you all must be thinking just by reading what I took that this is either a joke or spread over many hours, well I took them all literally within 3 hours. It all started with me thinking, you know what I?ve tripped so many times I really want to get somewhere. I?ve never actually had a full blown level 5 experience. Even DMT only took me to level 3-4 tops. So I said why not take 500ug? My friend gave me a few days earlier 3 tabs rated at 200ug, tested and everything so I knew they were the real deal. Previously I have tried 300, but doubling the dose seemed scary, so to overcome this fear I decided to cut 1 tab in half (smart). Took the 2.5 and got so excited I swallowed them instantly. Oops? Oh well at least I?d know if it was an nbome I tried to say to myself to make myself feel more happy and comfortable, knowing the tabs were tested and what?s about to happen will probs make me crazy.

So there I am waiting. 1 hour goes by, 2 hours.... I?m starting to think, wtf? By now I should be at least feeling something. So, slowly starting to get my hopes up I decide to drop some mdma. I didn?t have scales so I eyeballed it. I had exactly 0.8g left from before, so I took half of it for some reason knowing I should be taking an 8th of it. I think the trip was going to be so intense my mind subconsciously knew something was wrong and yeah dumb choices were made.

Anyways I take the 0.4g and decide to go smoke a spliff. Once I?m back high as fuuuuuuukkkkk, my inhibitions are already at 0, so I choose to lick some More mdma, which left me with 0.5g in my system. It tasted like sweaty chemist ass, so I think damn I need to get rid of the taste! I had some space chocolate, or as my friend advertised it ?moon rock?. The whole bar was rated at 1200mg, which is fucking insane. Had the bar before off a friend, and 1 piece had me stapled to the couch. But by the time I get to he chocolate the mdma is kicking in.

Oh man everything feels so good, LSD? What lsd... oh yeah the chocolate, om nom nom.. that?s 3 pieces. Wow this chocolate tastes so good, om nom nom! Wow it tastes like weed! Oh wait it is weed, haha oh well. So I end up eating half of it and thinking what if I die. I thought hey, the chocolate is f*king delicious, I may aswell die with style (mentally). So I eat it all.

Wow I?m full, and I feel so good, time to go jam in bed a bit with headphones. As soon as I lay down, around 4 hours after consuming the acid, it starts kicking in.

I took it at around 8pm, at midnight it starts. On top of the intense mdma euphoria, the weed high from the spliff, I hear static and wobbling sounds. It kind of sounded like a deep freq microwave or something. Things start getting weird. To be honest I didn?t even have time or the capacity at the time to panic. I just took a drink of water, turned off my lights and drank some water and layed in my bed on my side. Ok, the chocolate is hitting me, i don?t know what time it is, but I?m getting ultra sleepy. I guess I?ll just sleep it off then...

Oh wait, the lsd.

So my body dies, and my mind races. Imagine sleep paralysis, but with that I took. I physically couldn?t move no matter how hard I tried, but I guess it didn?t matter anymore. Then some fookd shizzle happened. Imagine a 2D numbing sheet of just black nothing passing through your body. It starts at your nose and goes back. You get this black spot in your vision kind of like when you look at something really bright. But the spot is literally a void. It?s not even black, it?s blacker than that. Like a black hole. So I think shit, I can?t get out of it I may aswell explore it, thinking like I have a choice.

Boom. Void. I start my multiverse travel, I see equations, patterns, monastery style humming, i become them too. At the bottom of my vision I guess (hard to tell where the bottom is at this stage) appears this little loading bar, which I understood was the trip intensity. I got guided by this black void cube that was in the centre of everything and around me. I basically because this ball of energy of nothing. Imagine being a 1 dimensional dot in the middle of the emptiness of space. Or, imagine being an astronaut lost in space. I couldn?t feel anything, but pure acceptance. The cube/void felt like it was coming from my throat. I honestly thought my soul just left my body. Either way I wish I could explain more of the trip, but all it was was just traveling through more complex dimensions with more patterns, numbers, equations, entities. Not something you can explain. It?s like trying to describe sound to a deaf person, or sight to a blind one.

Either way this is how I woke up the next morning at 9am: ?woaahhhhhhhh?
I literally didn?t know what Just happened. I was so severely dehydrated I thought I was going to literally dry up into a prune. I immediately went and drank until my stomach was full. Then I felt good. My throat killed, probably from the throat thingy I said about before and lack of water/saliva.

I took the whole day off to try to comprehend what just happened. I was definitely not ready for this, however I?m glad I did it like that because it got rid of fear for me. I am no longer scared of psychedelics, I am not scared of dying. The only fear I have now is of pain.

Not only do I not recommend anyone to even attempt this, as things could?ve easily turned out differently for me, but I also do not recommend mixing any drugs. Cocktails always lead to catastrophe?s. ALWAYS do your own research first, and never take anyone?s word for anything because nobody?s perfect, nobody knows everything.

Sorry once again for the long ass report, and stay safe y?all! Peas.
]]>Trip Reportszombi11http://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841650-LSD-MDMA-and-THC-Very-experienced-Big-mistake-no-regretsHow Does Mixing Amphetamine/Methamphetamine With Benzodiazepines Make You Feel?http://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841609-How-Does-Mixing-Amphetamine-Methamphetamine-With-Benzodiazepines-Make-You-Feel?goto=newpost
Sun, 11 Mar 2018 07:42:45 GMTI was curious to see how this drug combination effects different people, with everyone's different body chemistry and whatnot.
I took 180mg of name brand name Adderall XR earlier today. During the time I was tweaking I decided I was going to clean my room and get some actual work done instead of just working out or playing video games for the duration of the Adderall high. As I was cleaning my room I opened up a drawer and underneath a shot glass I found 10, 1mg K-pins (clonazepam). I decided since I had taken a decent amount of Adderall, that I should take six of the Klonopin pills, otherwise I wouldn't get any significant effect from the Klonopin. I took six Klonopin pills (6mg of clonazepam) about an hour after I took the Adderall, right as the amphetamine was starting to take effect.

I noticed that my tweak was getting stronger and stronger, getting closer to the peak; just a normal old amphetamine tweak. All of a sudden about 20 minutes after I took the Klonopin I started to notice that the tweak instantly became a mellow, clean feeling type of stimulation. Normally whenever I take a dose of Adderall like that, I get that rising feeling until about the two hour mark, and I stay tweaking hard until the 3 and a half hour mark and then it starts dying down. This time, the Klonopin made it to where I still felt the rising effect of the Adderall I had taken, but I never got "tweaked". I never got that huge fucking burst of energy, the roller-coaster feeling in my stomach, the impulsive "get shit done NOW", feeling that Adderall normally gives.

This time... with the Klonopin, it made the Adderall give me very clean stimulation. Instead of having tons of thoughts running through my head about all of the shit I need to get done while I'm high, my though process was very calm. Instead of thinking about millions of different tasks, I thought about one that I needed to do; and then I did it. When I finished that task, I moved onto the next one...and it was almost like tunnel vision focus.

After I finished my chores around the house (about 1 hour and 45 minutes after I took the Klonopin) I really wanted to go out with some friends and play pool at this Pizza and Wings joint right around the corner from my apartment. I picked up a few friends and we went over to this restaurant and we played a game of 2 on 2 pool (billiards). While we were playing, I was talkative AS HELL, I just couldn't shut my damn mouth lol. I talked about all of my aspirations and what I wanted to do with my life once I got out of college, I was flirting with every girl who was sitting at the bar in between my turns in the game, it was just wow. I ended up talking to a really cute girl after our pool game, and this is when I realized where the two different drugs were working in my brain.

Normally, I wouldn't have the inclination to talk to some random, fine ass girl at a random bar; but this time was different. I didn't think about anything, nothing at all; I just simply walked up to her not knowing what on earth I was going to say once I got to the point of conversation. Classic example of lowered inhibitions lol.

Once I sat down next to this girl she looked at me and I locked eyes with her...she was taking in a breath to speak something when I cut her off and asked her what she was drinking, and then I pointed at her empty mixed drink glass. (The look of the empty glass next to her instantly made me think margarita) She looks at me with a smirk and she says, "I was drinking a frozen margarita." Dopamine instantly drowns my fucking brain and I look at the bartender and I ordered her a second margarita and a shot of tequila gold for myself. The drinks come and I slam down the shot of tequila, knowing damn well I'm on a decent dose of benzos; but also knowing that I wasn't going to drink anymore at all.

MY POINT IS...
I noticed that I had increased attention skills as well as the fact that I was a lot more outgoing and talkative on this night in particular.

So for me personally, mixing amphetamine with benzos results in a nice clean stimulation. If you like the tweak of amphetamine or methamphetamine I would not recommend adding benzos into the mix...but I will say that for me this combination worked amazingly. I had decreased inhibitions and increase aspirations (as I could tell by the fact I went after a fine ass female who was way out of my league lol) and those are the exact two things that Benzodiazepines and Amphetamines do. There was no kind of "speedball effect" obviously because of the different neurotransmitters that these two drugs work on...but I must say, these two drugs synergize amazingly together.

I am very curious to see how much differently this combination would effect different people, how it makes them feel and whatnot. Different benzos, used in combination with amphetamine or methamphetamine. The replies to this thread have the potential of being quite interesting and possibly even educational. I would love to know how these combinations make different people feel so I'm ready to read any replies sent my way.

P.S. I re-dosed with both amphetamine (60mg XR) and clonazepam (4mg) before writing all of this if you couldn't already tell. :)

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Sun, 11 Mar 2018 01:12:57 GMTI had heard that Tums potentiates the effects of amphetamines, so I decided to try this. I took the 10 milligrams of adderall at 1:50, and it is just...I had heard that Tums potentiates the effects of amphetamines, so I decided to try this. I took the 10 milligrams of adderall at 1:50, and it is just wearing off now at 8:00 :) Yep, this basically made a 10 milligram IR last all day. It may have been slightly more potent, but primarily it lasted longer. In general, it just felt like 10 milligrams of adderall though. I thought it was wearing off, but actually I'm still feeling it a bit nearly seven hours later! From a 10 milligram IR! Without the Tums, often I have found that the adderall only lasts 3 hours, usually around 4. This time, I'm still feeling the effects of it slightly despite having had a couple of drinks just now. So, it's definitely true that Tums potentiates it. While this was fine (and a positive thing) for me given such a low dose, I can imagine that it wouldn't be a good idea to take higher range dosages of adderall along with Tums (or to take them together if you were more sensitive to adderall than the average person) as it's definitely true that Tums potentiates and prolongs the effects. Also, it says that you can take four tums, so I wonder if I were to take four tums would it lead to further potentiation?
]]>Trip ReportsLandsUnknownhttp://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841598-Tums-Potentiates-Amphetamine-Salts-(10-milligrams-amphetamine-salts-IR-two-tums)Diphenhydramine trip report (LONG)http://bluelight.org/vb/threads/841556-Diphenhydramine-trip-report-(LONG)?goto=newpost
Sat, 10 Mar 2018 04:30:08 GMTQuick disclaimer: I do not recommend this form of "tripping", if you can even call it that, whatsoever. With the wrong circumstances, it could be an invitation for a bad experience. If you give in to curiosity, a trip sitter is necessary, and make sure to read up on everything.

After a bit of curiosity with this substance for about 2 months, I attempted to take a high enough dosage to feel the delirious effects, full on knowing what I will get into and trying to start small. The dosage that finally worked was 500 mg. This was taken via OTC Benadryl.

Scene: Tuesday night, about 4:00 PM. Because of the 2 failed attempts with lower dosages, I did not fully expect this dosage to work, and I was very relaxed going into this. Working on schoolwork, listening to music, and with the lights off and only my computer to light my room to help OEVs develop.

At about 6:00 - I forgot to document the times - the visual effects crept up on me slowly, and though I got the general cotton-mouthed floaty feeling, I was not experiencing the effects until I looked down at the floor to take a break for my eyes. Both my floor and my bed began to look as if they were being puffed up like a balloon or inflated, and inflated and deflated continuously for about half an hour. Because I still remembered that I was not sober (will elaborate later), I found this absolutely hilarious. This was the only prominent effect by now.

Towards around 6:40, still whilst working on schoolwork, I began noticing that my memory was rapidly deteriorating. As I wrote a sentence, I would forget what it was about, or how it was going. I would reread it, reread again, and try to remember it, yet every time I attempted to continue, it made literally no sense whatsoever. (Reading back on the paper now, it is absolutely hilarious. Can't believe I thought it was acceptable to submit, but apparently my teacher didn't care about the incoherence).

Shortly after this, as my computer temporarily went idle and the screen turned black, I stared at my reflection and did not recognize it whatsoever. I was fully convinced that it wasn't me, and though I don't know what I imagined myself to be, it certainly was not what my reflection showed. I blinked, turned my head back and forth, and smiled to myself, and my reflection blankly stared back at me, not moving and basically looking dead to all emotion. Nice. By now, I had forgotten I was even delirious - this is one of the most concerning parts of the trip, and if I had felt the need to jump out of a window, I definitely would have - and was somewhat confused. Yet another reason I recommend a trip sitter for this.

Skip through a couple of mostly uneventful hours to 10 PM. (Except for the sketchy spiders trying to get under my door. Fuckers.) This is when I fully have no clue what time everything took place, because I basically entered mental and physical standstill, void, purgatory. No clue what to categorize it as, but it was mega fucking whack.
Throughout this time to about 4 am, many strange things came and went. Can't remember what order (memory was basically obliterated). As I went to bed (forgetting about nightly routines, including saying goodnight to my best friend which I have done every night for about a year) I realized I was getting no sleep tonight. Though sleepy, I didn't feel tired or ready to sleep whatsoever, and I started seeing more spiders and bugs. I saw gnat-like bugs swarming around and covering my hands, and thought this was normal. I saw spiders crawling underneath my door again, that too seemed fine.

At this time, I also began seeing people. I watched my friends exit and enter my room, dissipate every time I tried to talk to them. People I don't even talk to kept sitting in my desk chair, sleeping next to me in my bed, and walking around. I was very pissed about this and slightly uncomfortable by the girl in my bed and people watching me sleep, but somehow I thought this was normal. I heard trip reports about DMH and thought "haha idiots, I would never think any of that was normal..." but in the end, it's a deliriant, and I was a dumbass to think that. And thus, my friends solemnly sitting on the floor with a dead expression became normal.

Yet it got even more whack. I heard voices in my room, the first auditory hallucination all night. But obviously my completely silent intruders in my room wouldn't be talking, so it logically must be my fucking bulletin board and the door to my attic. Many conversations took place in my room, all between disembodied voices and inanimate objects. Every time I attempted to help, respond, or add to conversations which I can't remember, whatever was talking to me would shut up, disappear, or give off the aura of someone who is immensely pissed.

My mourning, hallucinated friends would also occasionally ask for objects, such as a piece or paper that I clearly saw on the foot of my bed, and so I would crawl out from under my covers, swat at whatever they want, and fail to pick it up. Asshole realm-walking person would proceed to fade into the air, and I'd be frustrated. I consistently saw things such as 3 pairs of my glasses, pieces of paper, my phone but slightly smaller, and my friend's water bottle. My cotton-mouthed 4 AM self would desperately reach for the water bottle, have my hand swat straight through it, and got pissed because I couldn't figure it out.
The last strange occurance was when I stumbled out of my bed at some ungodly hour, nearly fell because of the staggering weight of gravity, and looked into my full-length mirror. I looked at what I vaguely clung to as myself, and wondered why I looked so dead and emotionless and blank. My hair was also brown, no clue why. My hair is currently dyed, though normally brown, and I had no clue why. Somehow, throughout all that weird shit, this was the strangest thing to myself.

When it hit 6:20 AM, my phone played my annoying and shrill alarm, and I stumbled out of my sweaty blanket cocoon, pupils still dilated and an overwhelming sense of "what the fuckkkkk". Surprisingly, I had yet to feel any form of tiredness, and mostly just felt very sweaty and gross. Memory was somewhat restored, and though I was still a little slow during the day, it didn't really feel that bad. Throughout this day, my pupils remained dilated, my heart felt like I had run the FitnessGram Pacer Test a hundred times, and overall I probably seemed pretty messed up. My friend (unaware to any of this) commented that they could literally hear my heart beating).

TL;DR Don't be dumb. Unless you are really curious. In that case, do it but don't be too dumb.
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Sat, 10 Mar 2018 00:29:47 GMTHey!
First of all, I have experimented with xtc 2 times in the past, but I doubt they contained more than 20% of MDMA in them as the xtc in my...Hey!

First of all, I have experimented with xtc 2 times in the past, but I doubt they contained more than 20% of MDMA in them as the xtc in my country is beyond awful in terms of quality. So it is pretty safe to say that this was my first time with the M.

So me and a friend bought 1.3G of MDMA which is tested 81% pure.

It was in full crystal form and the moment we got it i told him "this is TOO MUCH for 2 people"

Now he is pretty experienced with most drugs. He kept on insisting that he was used to the dose and we would be just fine. Since I knew there was no such thing as an MDMA overdose i just told him "yeah i will just do 100 mg of it and you can do whatever you want with the rest"

So we get to his house, he crashes all the crystals and puts them in a cup.

He gives me just a bit with the tip of a tea spoon and takes 2 fatty lines + 1 parachute immediately.

He starts going nuts so we go up to his room.

After this point we have some good setting. Pretty lights, good music and my friends dogs walking around. I feel pretty normal except for the bit of euphoria which i assumed was nothing.

He lays down on the bed is pretty messed up. He can't even speak properly and has short term memory loss to where he just says the first 3 words of every sentence and then forgets about what he was talking, jumps in to just some other random talk that i cant relate to.

Seeing him that high i prepare myself a huge line and snort it.

5 minutes later i feel like i am flying over the moon. I am not really energetic but life is damn good i can say that.

I go near the window and light up a cigarette and just enjoy the forrest view smiling and enjoying the music.

My friend is absolute DEAD, just lying on the bed, watching around in a state of trans.

I go back and get another huge line 15 minutes later and I am BLOWN.

I didn't feel tired or sleepy but laying down on the bed and watching the lights and listening to the music felt just amazing.

So I went ahead and took another HUGE line.

I laid back down on the bed and I am blasting with joy and happiness. The pleasure i had was so damn intense that I realised i was humming with joy.

25 minutes later, I feel I am slightly coming down, so I go and get another huge line.

Decide to stay standed and my mind is just playing with me. I experience going on and off in weird forms which makes me understand why my friend was having difficulty making sentences. It's like i was getting snapped out of reality to some other reality which i can relate to. 10 seconds later and BOOM i am back to reality and I realise i was gone for the 10 seconds. This happened only 2 times but it was a really odd experience.

This just keeps on going for hours and my friend is just laying down there not taking any redoses prior to his initial ones.

I go over to the cup a final time and realise IT IS ALL FINISHED?????

I am just paralysed staring at the empty cup. How the fuck could i have done that in my first time doing MDMA?

The days after i didn't really feel much of a come down. No depression anxiety or anything. I did not sleep for another 24 hours tho and going on the scale i see i ended up losing 5KG.

Two questions that i have though about my trip is;

1) Do you think I have caused much harm to my body? Any suggestions to heal up from whatever damage was done?
2) My friend has done mdma tens and maybe hundreds of times. How could have he basicaly passed out with such a small dose compared to mine? He doesn't even remember anything about the night and I was wide awake and I can still remember every single moment? I am not on any meds and I never even take medicine even if i am dying from sickness. No other drug use except for weed and acid 4 times with an average dose of 200 UG.

Side note : I do not endorse using high doses of MDMA or any dose of MDMA to be exact. Hope none of you are stupid enough to just be OK with doing such high doses just reading someone do it out of a forum post. Things can and likely will go wrong, stay safe.
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Fri, 09 Mar 2018 13:59:31 GMT!DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME!

9:00PM: I've been smokin blunts since the afternoon so I decided to step it up and pop some. Popped 8 pills 30mg each of Pseudo just for the extra body high.!At this point I gotta mention that I am an pretty familiar user. Oops ADHD kicked in.!10:PM: Shit. I was pretty impatient. Popped 15 pills 10mg each of Codeine. *rekt*

~meanwhile~
smoking more loud
~meanwhile~

11:45PM: Phone rings. A friend was calling me. IT WAS AT THIS MOMENT THAT I KNEW. I FUCKED UP. I literally tried my best but I couldn't help moving my arm to pick it up. Codeine had me fucked up.
After a couple minutes I called him back. He was gonna come over to bring me a surprise. As I was able to move I grabbed some Xanax and I popped em (2 1mg pills).00:00AM: He arrives. We smoke as splif and then he tosses on the table 2 Vulbegal pills (2mg each) and 2 Hypnosedon pills (1mg each).
I smoke one I pop one. I repeat and I repeat. 1:00AM:I AM STILL ALIVE AND POPPING MORE.
BUT.
I have lost control of my body. I move my arm and it starts to swing all over. Holy shit. My homie is looking like *WTF*.
At this point I stand up and start walking all over my house. I was literally walking like a zombie but that felt great. I know it's weird.
My vision is giving up. I see distorted colors and shapes as I can barely open my eyes.
The body high was out of earth. I was feeling like I wasn't even in my body.
What follows is an hour of tripping my ass off in other dimensions.2:15AM: The other guy leaves. I wake up. Feeling like I'm an alien or some shit. Now I can't sleep. I decide to pop some Zyprexa to help me sleep. I pop 8 pills 2,5mg each.2:30AM: The amnesia effect from the benzos and the roofies kicked in. I'm laying on the bed. Listening to Relapse, a disc from Eminem.3:00AM: The song 3:00AM from Eminem comes on.

- I black out... -

Now. As I said DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME. I've done a lot of crazy shit so I survived it. You may not. Let me know if u enjoyed it and if you want more trip reports from me.-nRXce.
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Fri, 09 Mar 2018 09:00:23 GMTOk, so to start this report off, I have used Gabapentin before quite a few times. Mostly just experimenting to find the right recreational dose. I...Ok, so to start this report off, I have used Gabapentin before quite a few times. Mostly just experimenting to find the right recreational dose. I smoke weed daily as well.

Anyway, last night around 7pm, I took 2 Aleve, as I've heard it helps potentiate Gaba absorption, along with 2 600mg Gaba's. I've also read it's good to spread your doses out, as only a certain amount can be absorbed into the body at at time. I downed it with some Mountain Dew as well. I took 2 more 600mg Gaba's at 7:15, followed by 2 more every 15 mins until I reach 4800mg. I hadn't eaten anything but an egg roll all day so I was also on an empty stomach. Around 8pm I decided to roll up and smoke with my gf. We smoked about 1 gram of weed, which is a pretty potent batch of Strawberry Cough, and the gabapentin are just starting to kick in.

I'm sitting at my computer having a conversation with my gf who is sitting on the bed next to me. We are talking and laughing and having a good time, and all of a sudden I start feeling super dizzy and drunk feeling. I know what Gaba's feel like so I'm not worried, but this is stronger than usual. I had also used 4800mg of Gaba the night before, but took all 8 600mg tablets at the same time and never got near this point. So around 8:30 I decided I want to play a PC game. I start it up, my vision is starting to get distorted. I feel like my eyes are crossed, I'm seeing double. I shake it off and continue to try to play my PC game. A few minutes later I feel my face getting warmer and my heart is starting to beat pretty fast and hard. I start getting pains in my chest and my heart is racing. I try to fight through it, but I don't think I can. I get up from the computer and go over to the bed with my gf, who is on the phone with her friend, and pick up a small trash can that is sitting next to the night stand and up comes the Mountain Dew. Very nauseaus for 20-30 mins. I decide to lay down for a few minutes. I was staring at the ceiling and I could see the tiles on the ceiling waving and moving. Very euphoric at this point. Everything is moving on it's on and looks like it's flowing in the wind. I took a short nap as I was trying to get the nausea to go away. Woke up and here I am, at 2:47am writing this.

I'm sure the nausea was influenced, if not caused by taking them on an empty stomach. Probably need to eat a small meal along with the first dose.

There are a few things I'll mention here.

The weed that I have, I've noticed makes my heart race when I smoke it and sometimes that makes me anxious. I have a family history of heart problems and I think too deep sometimes lol. I've researched Gabapentin extensively (as I do all recreational drugs I've tried), and haven't read anything about Gaba affecting heart rate. Not sure what the deal was. Maybe empty stomach mixed with a little more anxiety than usual? Not sure. But wanted to share my story with others and maybe get some thoughts.
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