As I sat in my car reflecting on what was, and what could have been,
My mind kept coming back to thinking that you never even had a name.
I never got to hold you in my arms…
I never got to experience seeing you take your first step…
I never got to see your beautiful smile…
I never got to give you advice in high school when you were confused…
I never got to hear you sing an old hymn in church…
I never got to see the wonderful friendships you developed throughout your life…
I never got to proudly watch you score a goal or hit a home run….
I never got to see your face when you got your first report card full of straight A’s…
I never got to waive goodbye to you as you went off to college…
I never got to see you lay at the altar and come up a new person…
I never got to watch you fall in love and meet your soul mate…
I never got to hear you say your vows on the day of your wedding…
I never got to be proud of the career path that you chose…
I never got to hold your children and watch you show the love that I so wanted to show you…
I kept thinking these things and I couldn’t stop the tears from pouring down my face.
It was raining outside and I couldn’t differentiate the tears from the raindrops on my windshield.
But then I suddenly felt a comfort and couldn’t help but smile.
The tears kept coming, but they had to curve around my smiling cheeks.
I started to realize how blessed that you are.
I do not believe anything happens by luck or accident in this life and all that happens is in God’s control.
And you got to bypass this wicked and imperfect life that we have on Earth.
You got to go straight to heaven without ever committing a sin.
You never had to selfishly struggle with sharing your toys with your siblings…
You never had to face the difficult decision of remaining sexually pure when society and your friends told you otherwise…
You never had to fall at that altar in tears over the mistakes and failures that you had in your life…
You never had to make career decisions that conflicted with your faith and beliefs…
You never had to face the sorrow of losing a friend or family member…
You never had to feel alone when your friends betray you and turn on you…
You never had to cry yourself to sleep when your heart was broken…
You never had to go to the hospital because of an injury to a frail human body…
You never had to make the same mistakes that I make every single day…
You never had to face the distractions in this life that separate us from our Heavenly Father…
You were able to come into this world a perfect creation, and leave this world a perfect creation.
You are very blessed.
The rest of us have not yet been called up to leave this world…
The Lord still has a purpose for us and we still have work to do.
But once that work is done, and once the Lord calls us to sweet, sweet peaceful death,
I’ll have a new body like yours…
I’ll get to see you again…
And then I realized….you do have a name…
The second you left this world, Jesus gave you a name.
Surely a name that is so perfect and so wonderful that our human minds cannot comprehend it,
Our human tongues cannot pronounce it.
Our human eyes cannot read it.
But you have a name.
And I cannot wait to say it.