I have sat down to write this post more times than I can
count. My hands shake as I type. Emotions are high, and I can no longer stay
silent.

Everyone needs to understand what it’s like to be a mother of a young child with Reactive
Attachment Disorder (RAD).

Even if you can’t fathom it, if you think it’s fake, or if
it’s too much to bear, you NEED to know.

Why? Because though
you may not believe it, you most likely know a mother who has a child with
Reactive Attachment Disorder.

Or worse yet, your child has a classmate with Reactive
Attachment Disorder and could become their next victim.

Whatever the case may be, this is something everyone must
know.

To be a mother of a young
child with Reactive Attachment Disorder

Tonight was another rough night at our house. One of my RADlings went into a rage, calmed
down long enough to catch her breath and then decided to go a second round.

I was home alone with the four kids while my husband was at
work.

Everyone in the house knows the drill. The goal is to get her safely to her room. When not in her room, anything can be used as
a weapon.

That’s why all sharp objects are
locked up, all plates, cups, and bowls are plastic, safety plans are in place, and we have adopted a minimalist
lifestyle.

If you’re upstairs when she starts to rage, you stay in your
room and shut the door. If you’re downstairs,
you either go to your room or get to a safe place out of her reach until it’s
over.

This isn’t just the protocol for the children of the
household. My husband and I do it too, once
she is in her room.

We fall victim to her attacks just as often, if not more
than anyone else. But we know if anything
is going to stop her and help the situation it’s that everyone has left her
alone.

She hates being alone.

Then we wait.

I often pray.

Will she calm down? Will
she choose to stay safe? Will she remain
in her room? Is there anything I can do
to snap her out of this?

Oh please God
let everyone stay safe and help me know what to do!

We listen to her.

“I want to kill you!
I wish you were dead! I wish everyone in this house was dead!”

Sometimes she can calm down.
Most often not so much.

There are times when she will choose to stay safe on her own
without intervention. But there are so
many times she doesn’t.

And staying in her room…
Oh how I thank God for the times she does decide to stay put. Because when she doesn’t things just get
worse.

Distracting her doesn’t work, she’s too determined to pick a
fight.

Mimicking her behaviors to show her how silly they are only brings
about more rage.

Giving her a hug causes her to be violent.

Ignoring the behaviors means someone else gets hurt.

Sometimes yelling above her blood curdling screams may get
her attention, but sometimes that doesn’t work either.

At times threatening to call the cops or taking her to the
hospital brings her back to reality. But
then sometimes it doesn’t, and she could care less. We’ve almost been at the point where we
needed to, but it’s always a last resort.

Because let’s be honest, what would an uneducated police officer
or doctor think when you call for help regarding your young elementary school
aged child with Reactive Attachment Disorder?

It’s not until the child is eight years old that a hospital
emergency mental health on call worker might consider your plea for help. But
that’s very rare.

It doesn’t matter the child’s size or strength.

And heaven forbid if your child has calmed down by the time the
police arrive, or you get to the hospital, especially if she’s absolutely
adorable and knows how to work the crowd.

You must have evidence whether it’s someone or
something. There must be a victim to be
believed.

What’s more common is you being criticized for your
parenting skills if not in person, then behind your back.

And if you’re really “lucky” whomever you see may call child
protective services too. Not because
they’re concerned about your safety and wellbeing, but because they’re worried
about the child you’re so desperately trying to help, but can’t.

Because in the end, children will always be innocent…

Even when they’re not.

It’s always the parent’s fault.

Always.

It all comes down to discipline, right?

Discipline…

We ran
out of options years ago. Keeping
everyone safe is the only goal we have now.
This is not because we’re incompetent or are horrible parents. It’s because we’ve tried EVERYTHING and then
some, and nothing works.

We’ve talked to therapists, doctors, and specialists.

We’ve gone to the parent training classes again and
again.

We’ve had case workers in our home.

None of it worked.

The only benefit to all these appointments and trainings is
that we have more documentation that it’s not just us.

This brings us comfort, only because we can show this
documentation to the police and to child protective services when they knock at
our door. It’s only when enough others
say there’s a problem with our child, that they might believe us.

One case worker who visited our home regularly described our
plight as being held hostage by our child.
Yet when she worked hard to find resources and help for our family,
government red tape stopped every single bit of progress.

A trauma experienced therapist who met our RADLING, as we
begged for her to be seen, said our daughter was too unformed to work with. Therapy isn't an option until the child is developmentally ready.

The developmental pediatrician told us she wasn’t an expert
and couldn’t help us much past diagnosis but knew this was going to be the hardest
thing we’d ever done.

This doctor did sit with me through a few rages that occurred
in her office though, complimenting on how well of a job I was doing as I had
to restrain my child for safety reasons.

I was calm. I was kind.
I was trying to help.

At least I wasn’t alone that time, and I had more documentation.

This doctor has also seen our RADling almost every 6 weeks since she was three years old and has worked feverishly to diagnose all issues and help us navigate the world of medications and other supports. The problem is there are no medications that treat RAD and there are no supports.

Believe it or not, there are some children who don’t respond
to any form of parenting techniques.
Instead they provoke, harm, and hurt others.

Believe it or not there are some children who do not feel remorse
or have a conscience. Instead they get a
high from causing harm to others.

Believe it or not, medications don’t fix everything, and the
wrong medications make things so much worse.

Believe it or not trauma experienced in the womb and during
those first years of life can cause permanent brain damage and can completely
change a life.

To be a mother of a young child with Reactive Attachment
Disorder means you learn these ugly truths first hand.

What does a mother
do?

So, what does a mother do when she needs help but can’t get
it?

What does she do when she’s being abused by her own young child?

There are laws in place that protect a child and spouse from
abuse, but none that protect a parent from the abuse of a child, even when
there are bruises and documentation and worse…

What does a mother do when she’s doing all she can to teach
her children never to be okay with an abusive relationship, but then must live the
realities of an abusive relationship in the presence of those same children,
not because she wants to, but because she’s the mother of abuser, who happens to
be one of their siblings?

What does a mother do when she’s taught her children to call
the police if they’re ever unsafe, yet when the police are called because a
sibling with Reactive Attachment Disorder is being abusive, the police do nothing
about it and instead tell the mother to control her kid?

What does a mother do when she’s taught her children that
doctors are helpers and are in the business of saving people, yet the doctor the
mother has gone to won’t help in the case of Reactive Attachment Disorder?

What does a mother do when she’s taught her children to
speak out and ask for help, yet they watch her do that every single chance she gets,
and no help comes?

What does a mother do when she’s taught her children to tell
the truth, yet when they do, no one believes them or instead reports the mother
to child protective services?

What does a mother do when she’s reached out for help but
instead child protective services is coming to investigate and interview all her
children to prove that she is the problem?

Because once again, it’s always the parents, right?

There are so many things wrong with how our society chooses
to handle Reactive Attachment Disorder.

So many refuse to believe it exists.

Others may know about it but choose not to consider it their
problem.

Doctors and therapists lack education and experience, often
misdiagnosing the condition and making things worse rather than better. They implement treatment plans that won’t
work and prescribe medications that make things worse.

It’s considered a mental health issue, which means that
nobody wants to take responsibility for it.

There are very few resources out there and insurance almost
always WON’T cover it.

To be a mother of a young child with Reactive Attachment
means you are alone, isolated, and without support.

Unless it’s something related to improving your parenting
skills, as if you don’t have enough of a complex already.

And gosh darn it the worst part of all of this is, despite
how angry and fearful and exhausted a mother of a child with Reactive
Attachment Disorder feels, we still try to do the best we can.

We try to fill our days with hope, tallying up the good
moments, for when things are so bad.

We give all our love, even when it’s never received.

We fight for our RAD child, even when we’re the ones being
hurt.

We lie awake at night filled with worry that never seems to
go away.

We implement safety plans, educate, and advocate, no matter
the cost.

And then we fight for our children some more.

Because just maybe this time someone will listen and believe
us.

Maybe someone can actually help before things get worse and
it’s too late.

Because there is a time when it will be too late.

Victims won’t just be family members.

Our worst fears will become a reality.

Everyone will have failed.

This is what it’s like to be a mother of a young child with
Reactive Attachment Disorder.

Montessori materials and lessons used to teach numbers and counting are fabulous and work for most children. But at times you run into a child who may be an exception to this rule. In most cases this child has special needs.

And let's be clear, it's not that Montessori doesn't work. The child may just need extra supports and/or resources to be successful.

Or, the child is not developmentally ready for the material and lesson, but shows a desire to learn it.

Here are our alternative Montessori counting and number materials and resources for children with special needs.

Here is a list of the alternatives we have used in our classroom and also some that still remain on my wish list! They have been life savers for us, until our kids were ready for the traditional materials, and in some cases instead of the traditional materials.

Numerical Rod Alternatives

In place of the numerical rods, why not try the Montessori Small Numerical Rods? They are a fabulous choice for those who can not physically handle work with the numerical rods, and for those who struggle with safety awareness, emotional outbursts, meltdowns and/or aggression. Sunshine and Princess use ours on a regular basis.

There are some children who may suffer from vision impairment and are unable to distinguish the difference between red and blue on the number rods. In this instance consider the Math Abacus Number Learning and Counting Stacker. The child can feel the numbers separately and when they go together, building them in a sequence.

If the child can see but needs the abacus for another reason, you could even paint the rings Montessori colors!

Sandpaper Number Alternatives

The Plan Toys Hand Sign Numbers 1-10 are perfect for a child with a hearing impairment and/or one who lacks the ability to communicate verbally. Teaching sign language can be so helpful. We have these at home and my children love them. They're not as great as the sandpaper numbers, but they certainly work.

The Plan Toys Braille Numbers 1-10 are fabulous for a child with a vision impairment. Numbers on these cards are indented, so the child can feel and trace them as well.

For the child who can't handle the feel of sandpaper numbers or who struggles with fine motor skills, the Motor Numbers are a perfect addition to the classroom. Just think of all of the pincer grasp practice! I can not wait to get these for Sunshine has she HATES the feel of the sandpaper letters.

Spindle Box Alternatives

Though the Spindle Box and Spindles may not be the heaviest Montessori material, they still are pretty bulky. For a child with low muscle tone, physical limitations, and motor issues, the materials can still pose a problem. You may want to consider a DIY version of this material if there are issues.

Numbers and Counters Alternatives

As a special accommodation consider the Peg Number Board. The child can pick up where he left off, if he does get distracted. The peg holes are an extra control when counting. Putting the pegs in the holes is extra motor practice. Using this material may not teach odd versus even numbers, but that can be taught at a later date if necessary when the child is ready.

Teens and Tens Boards Alternatives and Resources

If you have a child who struggles with the Montessori Teens Boards due to physical limitations and motor skills consider the Montessori Teen Bead Bar Hanger (Does not come with bead bars). It may be easier to use.

For the child who struggles to focus, struggles with executive functioning, or becomes distracted easily the Montessori Place Value Mat is an amazing resource. It provides so much extra support along with one more control when working with the decimal system. We have one at home and LOVE it!

For the child who struggles with physical challenges and cannot handle the golden bead material, you may need to skip over it and work with the Stamp Game. This isn't ideal, but if it's necessary, then do it.

If the golden material and the stamp game do not work for various reasons, consider the Montessori Small Bead Frame. It is the last of these three materials to introduce and is quite abstract, but if you are able to present the correlation in lessons, and reinforce it as you work together with the child, something is always better than nothing.

Hundred Board

For the child who struggles with the hundred board consider taking a different approach. If the child can write, have them write the numbers in order with a printable version of the board. Consider using stamps.

Most children struggle with this material due to lack of focus, executive functioning struggles, stimming etc. Though a child may not be able to use the traditional material now, over time, he may.

As a Montessori teacher at home or at school, the goal is to always use the traditional Montessori materials and present lessons in the prescribed manner. But in scenarios where that isn't possible with a child who has special needs, alternatives and extra resources are necessary.

The alternatives, resources, and ideas in this post have helped my children immensely. Over time we've been able to progress to the traditional materials without the supports in many cases. And in those areas where we can't yet, we're using resources that are as close to the original materials as possible.

The materials and resources in this post allow those who otherwise wouldn't be able to learn in a Montessori environment, do so in a way that is supportive of the method and all that Dr. Montessori stands for.

This year the kids literally begged to study American History. Obviously we complied with their request and have been having a blast learning everything we can. I've found it fascinating to watch how all four kiddos have gravitated towards learning about Native American Indians. They just can't get enough!

As part of our studies we presented these four Native American Indian Activities with Free Printables. I love how each one teaches a different aspect of Indian life.

Here's what's on our shelves!

Native American Indian Nomenclature Cards

Sunshine thoroughly enjoyed working with these cards. She has such an interest in developing her vocabulary right now. I love the images used for these cards.

Source: Jason and I created the free printable for this activity as part of the Native American Indian Printable Pack 1. This is a subscriber's only freebie. Click on the link at the bottom of this post to subscribe to our weekly newsletter and receive your free copy.

Native American Indian Home 3-Part Cards

Not all Native American Indians lived in Tepees. This is a great activity that introduces just how many different types of homes there were.

It's so easy to assume that all Native American Indians lived the same type of life, but that's far from true. In this activity the kiddos learned about all of the different geographic areas where various tribes lived.

The kiddos placed the corresponding colored beads on the map as they matched up pictures and information cards about each geographic area.

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Famous Native American Indians in History

Everyone loves to learn about heroes in history! These cards give information about famous Native American Indians. They are known for so many different things.

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It has been so wonderful to watch the kiddos learn about the Native American Indians and develop such a love and appreciation for them. I love that our American History studies have started here!

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